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Grieving for Aleppo, One Year After its Fall

“Every day I wake up and have to make peace with loss and devastation, with guilt and shame.”
Source: REUTERS/Omar Sanadiki

Last autumn, we watched as Bashar al-Assad pummeled the life out of east Aleppo. His barrel bombs collapsed stone apartment buildings into concrete slabs, crushing their inhabitants between the layers. Those who survived were left with hunger, disease, and despair. Death surrounded them. With devastating detail, the siege taught us the full meaning of “kneel or starve,” the Syrian president’s strategy for defeating “the terrorists”—basically, anyone who opposed him. In mid-December, the Assad regime’s menacing green busses forcefully evacuated tens of thousands of civilians to Idlib, where local humanitarians scrambled to erect enough plastic tents for the families as snow began to fall.

For a few months, the world watched as Aleppo captured the attention of hashtags and headlines. And then it turned away.

During the destruction of Aleppo, my childhood home, I could not cry. I barely read the news and gave up Twitter. Instead, I was glued to Facebook. For me, the only meaningful words left what was happening, then it would stop. By choosing to grieve in Arabic, we carved a semi-private space to mourn our homeland.

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