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Nicolette Schurk
I wish to introduce myself to the readers of these poems and tell you something about myself, my personality, and what inspired me to write these poems. For example, the poem “Unhappiness” was writ...view moreI wish to introduce myself to the readers of these poems and tell you something about myself, my personality, and what inspired me to write these poems. For example, the poem “Unhappiness” was written at a time in my life when I should be happy with a husband and two children. My marriage was a disaster, having broken an engagement to my first love, who I hadn’t seen in three years for being in foreign service. I never intended for this to happen, but this person (my husband) was very forceful on me. The result was my pregnancy. We were married, for I had no choice.
I tried to make the best of my marriage despite my guilt. No matter how much I tried, my husband had problems of his own. He had a split personality. I endured his mouth and filthy mind and never fought back. I became inhibited and swallowed much. This had a psychological effect on me. I was unhappy and trapped to the core and suffered a guilty conscience as to what I had done to my first love. After ten years of being married, I received heart-piercing news that my first love had taken his life in a suicide. If my conscience was bad before, you can imagine how heartsick I was and still am to this day. There isn’t a night that goes by that I don’t think or dream about him and ask for forgiveness for what I had done. I had never stopped loving him, and I hope I will see him again someday.view less