Conversations with a Near-Death Experiencer

~Comments from eMailers~

Thank you SO much for your kind and thoughtful response. You are a nurturing soul... I am very eager to get a handle on this... I often feel that I am not from around here ... or don’t want to be here ... not like wanting to be dead, just not wanting to be on earth. --Molly

What a relief to communicate with someone who understands how I feel. I have just been in the garden contemplating things. You have hit the nail on the head in so many ways. --Lenny

Thank you Diane for your courage to speak out. I never wanted to say much about it [childhood NDE] because I felt people would think I was crazy. Now I’m grown and live a good life and I treat people like I want to be treated. -- Bobbie

I very much enjoy your words and outlook, I think you really are here to calm humanities fear of death. What an awesome life mission to have. --Pete

You have no idea how glad I was receiving your email! Just the thought that you actually took the time to answer me shows what a caring and lovely person you are. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I continue reading your site and I printed all its contents, which filled a thick binder. It is for me like a Bible and whenever I feel down or scared I consult it giving me comfort. --Maria

I was moved to tears. Some how I wanted to cry with joy for what I was reading. I was so deeply touched by your insights some how you’ve articulated so many things I’ve felt. --Sonny

I needed focusing into what I was already aware of and you helped. Thank you soooo much!! --Carly

...your site certainly came into my view at the exact time period in which I could not have needed it more. Thank you for your courage in sharing your story, and for the manner in which you decided to share it. --Patricia

Your Q&A approach covers every question that I had before I had thought of them yet. Nothing on Earth Had Prepared Me For the Reality of Life After Death (Chapter One) was the most profound, insightful piece of writing I have yet found in all of the NDE books I have read. I know how impossible it is to put NDE subjects in relatable or fresh terms, but I think you succeeded. --RJ

Conversations

with a

Near-Death Experiencer

by

Diane Goble

SMASHWORDS EDITION

Conversations with a Near-Death Experiencer

Copyright © 2010 by Diane Goble

ISBN 978-0-963-86062-0

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Publisher’s Notes (2011 edition)

Emails included here from visitors to Diane’s web site BeyondtheVeil.net were cut and pasted into this book without editing or correcting. Only names and other identifying information have been changed.

Through the Tunnel: A Traveler’s Guide to Spiritual Rebirth and Beginner’s Guide to Conscious Dying by Diane Goble, which are mentioned in the text, are both out-of-print. Where either is mentioned, please substitute How to Die Consciously: Secrets from Beyond the Veil by Diane Goble. Also ConsciousDying.com has been taken down and the information integrated into BeyondtheVeil.net.

Information provided in this book is for educational and enlightenment purposes, and not meant to be a substitute for appropriate professional help.

Author's Notes (2014 edition)

Well, it's almost 2014... just a couple more weeks as I write this. I wanted to add links to my other ebooks at the end of ebooks I published previously (that's a nice thing about ebooks, they can be updated) and in doing so I found out I had to update my covers to conform to new eretailer requirements. Along with changing the size, I decided to change the cover photo and make the print larger to be more readable on small screen devises. I created this cover photo many years ago when I was just learning to manipulate photos in PhotoShop. I think I arrived at it purely by accident, I couldn't even tell you how I did it to repeat it, but I thought it was a fun image for the cover. I hope you like it.

I considered putting Conversations and More Conversations into one book because I see many people aren't going back to purchase the second book, but they are both quite long so I'm not so sure that would be a good idea. Then Smashwords recently came up with a way to make ebooks into a Series so am turning them into Book1 & Book 2 to remind people there are two books.

It saddens me to say I will be taking down BeyondtheVeil.net in January after 17-1/2 years of providing free information because I can't afford to keep up with the technology any longer. Also, at my age, keeping up the maintenance of the site and learning new ways to market it are just too much work for me. I alert you to this because there are a lot of links in this book to information on the web site that will no loner be active.

Peace & Joy!

Diane Goble

Dedicated to

All those who seek God-Consciousness

With Gratitude to


The One who guides me

I am also grateful to the courageous human beings who shared their heartfelt stories and existential questions so that others who read them can relate to them and benefit from the information generated from a higher consciousness perspective. May the responses given open the readers’ hearts and accelerate the evolution of world consciousness to

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Table of Contents

Introduction

Diane’s Near Death Experience

Chapter One - Near-Death Experiences

*Nothing on earth had prepared me for the reality of life after death

*I wish I could have a near death experience

*What accounts for the differences in NDE stories?

*Difference between afterlife and near death experiences?

*PTSD from NDE's

*Struggles after a NDE

*Difficult time getting over NDE

*Confused about NDE

*Difficult to embrace who I’ve become

*NDEr has revelation

*There are others out there

*NDE changed my life

*Reaction to anesthesia?

*NDE by drug overdose

*Childhood NDE

*I remember it like it was yesterday

*Why do some people not remember their NDE?

*What makes you decide to stay or come back?

*Has anyone ever experienced hell and came back?

*Did you come back from your NDE with a vision of the future?

*Medical professional skeptical but curious

*Organ recipient has NDE-like aftereffects

Chapter Two - Fear of Death

*Afraid I will never see him again

*What’s wrong with me?

*There must be a bigger picture

*I try to scream away the fear

*Constant petrifying, paralyzing fear

*I dwell on the fear of dying

*This scares the hell out of me

*I don’t want to live with this fear

*Obsessed with the impermanence of life

*Overwhelmed with thoughts of dying

*Fear of death overwhelms me

*I’m tormented by fear of death

*Fear of death holds me back

*Why am I scared of dying?

*Dreams of death

*Panic attacks over fear of dying

*I have an extreme fear of death

*How can I overcome my fear of death?

Chapter Three - Death & Dying

*Life has no meaning

*Is there a way to communicate with loved ones?

*Presence at the cemetery

*Worried about my dad making it to Heaven

*Part of me now believes death is the end

*What was Dad seeing?

*Is it possible to know when we’re going to die?

*My steps-son died in Iraq, now my son is going there

*Family Bonds

*Don’t rock the boat

*Is a visitor watching over my daughter?

*How to approach the dying

*I am struggling to even accept I am dying

*He dreamt that he would die in a car crash

*Angelic choir

*Grandma was telling me no from the other side

*Transition Guide training

*I am not much use

*My dog is dying

*How do I approach hospice to offer my services?

*Interested in helping myself and others make a graceful transition

*What was my Gram aware of in her final moments?

*Speechless

*Concerned about final decisions

*Letting go to the Light #1

*Letting go to the Light #2

*My father is dying

*Conversations about end of life issues

*Should your doctor help you die?

Chapter Four - Grief

*Afraid my father was alone when he crossed over

*Grieving for twin

*Can’t get over mother’s death

*Searching for peace of mind

*I don’t feel my son around me

*How do I cope with the sadness?

*Does my husband forgive me for not telling him he was dying?

*Does he know I’m thinking about him?

*It must have been his spirit

*Do animals go to Heaven?

*Will I see my pet in the afterlife?

*Agonizing over daughter’s death

*Loss of a sibling and the mother’s grief

*Your story helped me

*I have this need to know

*Devastated by the loss of my mother

*Is my brother at peace?

*Will my son be there when I get there?

Chapter Five - Paranormal Experiences

*Out of control psychic #1

*Out of control psychic #2

*Ripple effect

*I know they are going to die

*Two angels were sent to help me out

*A ball of light above my head

*The motion detector comes on

*Still not sure what is was, what it means

*An incredible force entered my body

*Traveling dreams

*Can we be in two bodies at one time?

*She’s not there! She’s here!

*I didn’t know such a thing could happen… to me!

*I met my father on the other side

*What does it mean?

*Psychic dreams

*Visions

*Strange experiences

*Kundalini vs. Psychosis

Chapter Six - Reincarnation, Karma, Past Lives

*Is Karma fair?

*Do I have a lot of karma?

*Karmic debts

*Dreams of past lives

*How can I learn about my past lives?

*Trying to understand reincarnation

*I don’t want to reincarnate, life hurts too much

*Why did these monsters come here?

*Why do we keep coming back?

Chapter Seven - The Afterlife

*Strange things taking place

*Dustin’s Wisdom

*He was fine one minute, dead the next

*Wasn’t sure I believed in an afterlife

*Talk to him every day

*Why hasn’t my wife contacted me?

*Afterlife knowledge

*Who will we be with and what will we do there?

*I believe in life after death

*Can deceased pets communicate?

Chapter Eight - Suicide

*I had a glimpse

*Teenage angst

*I hate myself, I want to die

*Life has passed me by

*Suicide or prison

*Is suicide wrong?

*Suicide to reunite with beloved

*I’m thinking about suicide

*My son’s suicide

*My husband killed himself… is he OK?

Other ebooks by Diane Goble

Introduction by the Author (2008)

I began my first web site in 1996 to provide information and resources about Near Death Experiences (NDE) to students, researchers and the general public. Even before I got a domain name, there was a lot of interest and people began writing to me wanting a personal response. After I got a domain name, BeyondtheVeil.net, and had learned more about how to promote a web site, I became swamped with emails and it nearly became a full time job to keep up with responding to them. I decided to put a sampling of these conversations by category up on the web site because many people were asking the same kinds of questions in different ways. Now, 12 years later, I’ve put those emails into two eBooks to make the information available to more people. Eventually I hope to publish them in paperback to reach people who don’t have an eReader.

I’ve not changed the content, punctuation, spelling, grammar, style or language in any of these emails I received except to maintain anonymity. Questions and my responses were cut and pasted from the original emails into this document. Except for a few minor corrections and clarifications, no changes were made. I specified that sending me an email gave me permission to reprint its contents on the web site or other publications I produce. All names have been changed and other identifying words or phrases have been deleted.

The responses to these emails are mine and mine alone, from my perspective as a near- death experiencer and long time spiritual seeker. I am solely responsible for the content and am the first to admit I don’t have all the answers. What I do write comes through me from my spiritual teachers and guides on the other side to my higher consciousness. I translate those thoughts into words using a computer.

My intent is not to try to change peoples’ belief systems or tell people how to think or put down anyone’s religion. If what you read here, wakes you up, gives you an Aha! moment, rings your bell, brings you comfort, helps you to see things in a new light, awakens some forgotten memory deep inside you, then you were ready to hear it and now it is up to you to apply it to your spiritual path. I urge you to talk about these concepts with people you trust and come to your own conclusions.

My intention in sharing my near death experience knowledge and making these emails available to more people is to bring each person who reads them peace of mind, comfort and hope, freedom from the fear of death and dying, and to open hearts and minds to God’s unconditional love and compassion for ALL living beings.

I will begin by sharing my near death/afterlife experience with you.

Peace & Joy!

Diane

Diane's Near-Death Experience

That summer in 1971, I was with my husband and children in the mountains of northern Georgia while he was working with the camera crew of the movie Deliverance. On weekends, some of the cast and crew and their families would take the rafts out on the river for a little R&R.

The movie was being filmed on the same part of the Chattooga River we rafted on and, of the eight of us on this particular Sunday afternoon, four of us, including myself, had rafted down this stretch before.

But the river was different this time. Low, from several days of no rain; different paths had to be taken through the many rapids.

On the last set of rapids at Woodall Shoals, we made an almost fatal mistake. The raft I was in got turned around, went over a four foot drop backwards, and became stuck there by the churning action of the water.

The raft was trapped in a hydraulic, a churning white-water phenomena called a keeper hole, which held the raft against the rocks. The raft would fill with water then buck throwing everything inside, out. I was thrown out and got caught between the raft and the rocks, with the force of the river pouring down on my head and the suction of the hydraulic motion pulling me under. Skip Cosper (Assistant Director) and Wally Worsley (Production Manager) were still inside the raft grasping my arm and trying to pull me back into the raft, but the most he could do was enable me to catch an occasional quick breath before the water sucked me back down. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place!

Very consciously and calmly, I knew I was going to die, it was just a matter of how. Being smashed into the rocks was painful, so I decided drowning was the better choice. The next time my head popped out of the water, with my last breath, I yelled let go and he did. I felt the water pull me under and I relaxed into it. I knew there was no point in struggling as I breathed in the water, and everything went black… for a moment.

The next thing I knew I was a hundred feet above the river, looking down at the raft stuck against the rocks below. I saw the two men in the raft looking for me to come out from underneath. I saw Sue Dwiggens (Wally’s assistant) downstream, clinging to a rock. I watched my husband John, my 16 year old sister JoAnn and two other crew members, who had rafted, without incident, down the rapids ahead of us, come running back up the hill to find out why all the debris was floating down the river. We had taken everything out of their raft and put it into ours in case they flipped over, but they went down so easily, we just jumped in, gear and all, to follow them down.

From above, I watched my husband climb onto a rock in the river. He couldn’t hear what the two men still in the raft were shouting to him over the roar of the water. He had no idea where I was or what had happened, but he knew I was missing. He looked as if he wanted to jump in to try to find me and I suddenly found myself at his side, trying to stop him because he wasn’t much of a swimmer and I knew there was no point. When I reached out to stop him, my hand went right through him. I looked at my hand and realized... oh, my god, I’m dead!

In that instant, total knowledge of reality appeared to me and I saw the mutil-dimensionality of the universe… many levels of existence. My consciousness expanded so far beyond the physical plane that I was no longer aware of it, nor of my self. I was so much a part of it all; there was no distinction. It was a brilliant flash of light and I was allowed to see into it for a brief moment and experience a feeling of love so profound, powerful and overwhelming that I can only describe it as pure Bliss (even though that doesn’t begin to describe it).

And, suddenly, I was whisked away and found myself traveling rapidly through a vortex toward a beautiful white light in the far, far distance. I continued to experience an overwhelming feeling of love within me and around me. There was no fear, no anxiety, no worry. I even felt as if I’d done this before and was remembering that I was going home. I was filled with joy. I had no sense of a body, no feeling of limitations or boundaries. Yet, I was still me and aware that I was having this experience.

Before long, I realized I wasn’t alone. There was someone, whom I can only describe as a Loving Being of Light, traveling beside me... at the speed of light! We communicated telepathically. This was someone I have always known and I knew that as soon as I sensed the presence of this being. Yet I cannot now tell you who it was. I didn’t have the sense that it was any familiar religious figure or deceased relative, but rather a special friend who is always with me wherever I am; perhaps, my guardian angel. This Being told me telepathically that I had a choice about going back. My immediate thought was, no, no, no, I want this to go on forever!

Suddenly, we burst into the light and a whole new reality was revealed to me, similar to the physical world, but, in this higher vibration, more colorful, more beautiful, more amazing. I saw plants, trees, mountains, lakes, animals, and shimmering crystal-like buildings, some very large and ornate. I saw beings moving about, light beings, going about their daily lives. They don’t have physical bodies, but they are distinct fields of energy. They don’t walk; they float. They have lives much like ours, but without the struggles and sorrows. They are artists, musicians, dancers, singers, inventors, builders, healers, creators of magical things... things they will manifest in their next lifetime in the physical universe.

Again, the Being of Light told me it was my choice to stay or go, but that there was more for me to do in that life and it wasn’t quite time for me to leave. Still hesitating, I was told that if I chose to go back, I would be given certain knowledge to take back with me to share with others. After much discussion, I agreed to go back and suddenly found myself in front of a tall cone-shaped building; so tall, it seemed to go up forever. I was told this was the Hall of Knowledge. I entered the building and flew, spiraling upwards, through what appeared to be shelves of books, like in a library, many millions of books, and I flew through them all. When I reached the top, I burst through it into a kaleidoscope of colors and, at the same time, my head popped out of the water. I was down river about 100 yards from the raft.

I immediately became aware of where I was and grabbed for the nearest rock. I was able to pull myself up and I coughed up a lot of water. I was in a state of shock, but needed no medical attention. I don’t know how long I was under the raft, no one was looking at their watch at the time. It could have been 3 or 4 minutes, it could have been ten. There was no time where I had been.

I can’t say that I was clinically dead, but I have no memory of struggling under the water or trying to hold my breath until I reached the surface. (I’ve been a swimmer, water skier, scuba diver, and body surfer, so I’ve had plenty of close calls under water before when I thought I might die, but nothing like this. These other times I remember perfectly well struggling to reach the surface, my lungs about to burst, totally aware of my physical experience.) What I do remember during the time my body was in the water under the raft is what I have told you.

I look forward to the glorious experience of returning home when my work here is finished, but I’m not in any hurry. I still have a lot to do here on earth before it’s time to leave this body and continue my education and development on the other side. In the meantime, I’m here to help those in need of spiritual upliftment from a near death experiencer.

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Chapter One

NEAR-DEATH EXPERIENCES

Nothing on earth had prepared me for the reality of life after death

Dear Diane,


What were your beliefs before your NDE and how have they changed?


Amy

I had a belief that there must be a higher power, but never truly believed what the Christian churches (Lutheran, Presbyterian, Methodist, Episcopal, Catholic) I attended as a child taught nor that the Bible was anything more than a history book. During my near- death experience I realized they were all on the right track, but were trying to create God in the image of man to make it more comprehensible to man.

When I was there, it all made perfect sense. I understood fully. No longer through a glass darkly, but face-to-face, I saw God! Since then, I have faced the difficulty ancient religious people had trying to describe the spiritual world, as they saw it, in simple terms to which people of the time could relate.

The writers of the Bible described angels and chariots and streets paved with gold to give hope to beggars and scavengers in the deserts. American-Indians envisioned happy hunting grounds to give courage to their warriors. The Koran promises riches and rewards beyond the wildest imagination to encourage obedience and martyrdom. Most religions promise rewards for the good and punishment for the bad. What better way to control people than threats from an all-powerful, vengeful, jealous god who decides who lives and who dies, and rich rewards for those who obey?

But we are no longer children. The days of our innocence are over. We are still the blind men trying to describe the elephant, each one arguing intensely for his own correct point of view, but unable to grasp the whole. We must put away our self-centered points of view and awaken into our higher consciousness by broadening our concepts of God and Heaven (or whatever you choose to call those concepts).

We are no longer simple hunters and gatherers, nomads and wanderers. Dictators, warlords, kings and priests have lost their control over us. We have become very complex beings, both as individuals and as societies. We have the free will to choose what we believe and how we will live our lives and just look at the mess we’ve gotten ourselves into by making the wrong choices and repeating the same mistakes over and over. Nothing is simple anymore; nothing is black and white, right or wrong, true for all.

Over the ages, we have been given codes of human conduct, rules for civilized behavior, moral obligations and ethical values so human beings might live and prosper together in peace as one family on earth, and so that each of us, as human beings, might experience the beauty and wonder of the physical world for the time we are in it. For this kind of conscious living is what opens our connection to our spiritual selves and the realization of the possibility of achieving Christ/God-Consciousness while in our human form. First we must learn to love ourselves and each other, as God loves each one of us.

As higher consciousness awakens among the human beings on earth, we will awaken to the realization that, though we are in the physical world, we are not of the physical world. We are merely visitors. Aliens are us, if you will. Here to explore, to learn, to create, to experience, to touch, to love one another… and then we will return to our spiritual homes, our lives enhanced by our experiences as human beings.

Now to the dilemma-- how to describe spiritual life so that it makes sense to most people who will read this. I am woefully inadequate as a poet to describe what I saw on my brief visit beyond the veil, but, hopefully, I can increase your understanding of it, knowing that each of you will form your own concepts based on your own unique perspective.

I could say that spiritual life is remarkably similar to life on earth, except there are no limitations or boundaries, everything is done simply for the love of doing it, and we don’t have to work for a living or pay taxes! Our senses are no longer limited to those of our physical bodies, but are enhanced and expanded in ways we can only begin to imagine from our experiences on earth. We get glimpses of it in moments of pure ecstasy as human beings, but there, ecstasy is the constant.

Our conscious awareness expands beyond the self, beyond our hometown, beyond the earth, beyond the physical universe. We learn all there is to know at our higher level of being... and there are even higher levels of being to strive for. We become co-creators with God-Consciousness; our abilities refined by our experiences on physical worlds, our souls filled with love through personal experiences in many different incarnations. We are great and powerful spiritual beings manifesting God’s Love throughout the Universe.

I would suggest that you remember, in as much detail as possible, everything about things you enjoy in the physical world because these are the tools you will need to learn to recreate them with your mind in the spiritual world. The senses we have available