The Seat Of My Mind

The seat of my Mind

Published by Jean-Nichol Dufour at Smashwords

Copyright 2011, Jean-Nichol Dufour

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DESTINY DREAM

3-THE SEAT OF MY MIND

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This is part 3 of a suite forming the book A Flower To Life. The suite version is for free distribution, and only me touched the text up to the signature garden edition, which should mark the end of my work, somewhere around 2023. It must remain easily available freely, in integrity of form, without cheating me, forever, even if a transfer of platform becomes necessary, as free because I know this will be a unique and rare artefact, and I don’t want anybody to get rich by exploiting it after I’m dead. I will fight anybody cheating me of my work, or removing its conscience connection by stealing or exploiting my creative effort, including by handicapping my exposure, by cracking my passwords to modify my text, or by using an AI as a trojan horse to discredit me, but anybody can use my writings if the source is mentioned in evidence, as it is done usually. Spiritually, my work is sacred with my life as free, this is for people to read and discover a whole new world of opinions, in a free state of mind, it is not to make a sect or religion, or to enrich some people. I put the best of my life in this as a modern monk, since I passed my time glorifying life at the extreme as a writer, while failing to live from lack of means and system incompetence.

Dissociating my name from this would be the equivalent of discarding it to me, it is an attachment to my mind that will follow me all the way to afterlife. It’s about giving a different perspective to people than the current life and intelligence inadequate way of existence, see if current society can tough a stupid book, outside the box opinions and visions, without cheating me of my rights, including fair help, or if it will go nuts with counter evolutionary fears and irrational behavior, like hiding or burning said stupid book not nice with the rich, since this one is free and written by a bum at the bottom.

I will bear my name proudly whatever holier than thou haters can’t tolerate different opinions than what’s provided by media institution in this system of mass bullshit distribution, you won’t stop my creativity by making me fear my opinions, or what makes me different, or by growing out of proportion, or degenerating into confusion, any little mistake I could make in this 3650, 10 pages a day book, of a thousand divergent opinions and unique visions written in another language than my own while using a narrative tending to generalization.

For some I’ll be their hero, for other a zero, people make their reputation in big part from their opinions and judgment, it’s even an investment in pride, and while you don’t have to like me, you’ll definitively have to tolerate me, or be prepared to stand before god figuratively, for a speech about my fundamental liberties. Particularly those inconsistent people who will be the first to sing freedom of speech, while trying to demonize and censorship those who don’t fit their vision like they have a score to settle with logic and intelligence. Still, I will remain open to criticism, people are even entitled to laugh at me, whatever the curses I’ll unleash; I can probably understand, since I caught myself into foolishness quite a few times. I believe people should have a way for their words to have a reach so they can make connections, at least as an alternative to inadequate socialization, education or psychology, and that’s in part why I’m writing too.

I wrote this through a lot of opposition and discouragement in some of the worst normal mental environment available that the best country of the world managed to offer as a courtesy for birthing me. And while the insecurity of my life and work requires that I make regular uploads, no previous version can be used in a public way than the last one I uploaded, and that applies to my whole series. Finally, I dissociate myself and my work apart from any worsening of the current humanitarian situation by default, I wrote this with a new reality (system) in mind, I’m not responsible for the Canada, sorry, been borderline all my life, and I can’t accept to have my philosophy and all the concepts I made or redefined, including my vision of a monetary system and political system, cultural society vision, my city vision too, invalidated by some political quest for popularity, proving this or that doesn’t work because somebody copied some concept and superficially applied it to some aspect of the current stupid insane system; it would eliminate the possibility for a new way, the why I wrote this.

Furthermore, I will add, for morons, that I work from the current system, so you sure won’t get on my good side by removing my rights because I talk about a new reality; I don’t live in my reality, I design a new system for the future of life and humanity that will develop a new reality. It is not mine, I will never say my reality, and it doesn’t exist or my life would be very different. The idea is that a system is like a machine, while reality is anything turning around a life, or life as an entity, and the human driven system can either make it better or worse. So for some people they have their ideal reality, their paradise vision, since they defend it with all their might and want nothing else if it’s not based on the same ideology, while for me I’m forced to it, I won’t encourage it if I can. I’d have gone criminal, maybe a killer, if it was not for my work and the vision of good and evil I developed, because this reality it’s hell to me, as a person of life understanding that sees my whole life passing before my eyes in the most lacking ways. I’ll talk about a new reality as I envision the future of the system I’ll invent, but it doesn’t exist yet, so you’re not forced to it, and it won’t be the same for sure. I won’t become a politician to change your reality, I hate it, we reject each other mutually, since the whole planetary life adventure was doomed to fail as soon as this absurd cheating vision of human life energy distribution got started is my opinion.

Furthermore, I will still seek to take my human fundamental rights versus the technological level I evolve in, when possible, as I will define them in my work, even if I’m stuck in a cheating reality of systemic injustice that will refuse them to me, whatever the sick hypocrite strategy, even by cheating around its own cheating laws, all the way to spying on me if need be.

I don’t do this to spread hate or to cause troubles for the pleasure for sure, I do it because I’m unhappy while I adore life, and understanding why led me to update myself and reinvent the world, while expressing what I personally experience, like, and dislike, in a strong enough way to make a stand before I die. It’s a question of self-respect, so some general attitudes and types of personalities, or mentalities, who have been a big problem in my life are going to at least feel bad if I can, probably as a natural process of explaining all the wrongs of hell, 2 jobs and more for the price of one.

Some attitudes won’t have it nice for sure, as I write about the justifications, to lead interested people into the creation of a truly good system, because that should be a good idea, not a foolish one, for a start. Provoking that would be worth my effort, as an outsider into monk business, but some rich types with connections could debark and start competing to do their little utopia for the wrong reasons for the wrong results, so I’ll provide a working vision, if we are to skip 50 years of political misunderstandings, and a whole never ending manipulation competition from media corporations too. At least I’ll want the option of a beautiful vision for myself, so I can get more worthy friends than condescending people in afterlife, while down here current leadership is heading humanity into a nice little dystopian future that I call hell. I will only retreat if I see a better vision than mine, not one made for the most egotic as a competition, it’s an ideological question. So they better not assume realities are new things they can play with like pyramidal gods and divas, this is my work, I represent the integrity of all of this, in actual leadership as my writings, and as a reflection of it, philosophically, mentally, and spiritually.

While it’s easy to say I’m just taking my basic right of criticizing the hell out of the world, my situation is that I hate how everything is presented to me because of all the mass cheating, manipulation, corruption, deception, bitching and useless complexities in the name of marketing existence for profits. So I’m writing in part to say why I’m living a life of frustration and poverty, in my understanding, which pretty much amounts to living as a recluse in the woods, just right in the middle of a city, to understand, imagine and design a social, mental and spiritual environment where I would have been happier in my opinion. To succeed I’ll have to be a leader in good and evil matters too, which means I’m not the type to sell my soul to the devil, even if I can take the coat.

My book is about kicking aside the bullshit too, it comes with the job, back where it’s from preferably, and starting over from scratch as a quick transformation, from trying to deduct the best vision for everything, even spirituality. So it will cover a vast range of hard philosophical, spiritual, personal, psychological, political, social animal and fundamental universal interdimensional subjects, and gaining all round competence with all that will require lots of time and quite a few updates to get right, particularly with the style I have chosen. While some will argue about my style, I believe I have chosen the fastest and best route to get my arguments read by a maximum of people in an understanding way that’s actually credible. And one last thing, up to the signature garden edition, all my work is free of external influence that I know of; I made 0 cents of profits from it, and nobody is communicating with me, no logo from the meat industry, no humorist influences, it is all the invention, imagination and deductions of someone that was curious and interested in science when young, had to deal with religious resentment a little, did a bit of military, learned a bit of technology, discovered his inadequacy, got himself a logical spirituality, and finally a nice mentality, and a sense of humor that some may find cringy, after losing all sociability, with my limited English vocabulary. All that has arisen from forming my opinions as I experienced current reality and kept a general interest on everything, to remain your usual citizen, under the form of general leadership, even if that’s one long stretch of many planets to get right. Internet involvement is very minimal, except to read the news mainly, no TV, I still managed not to read the bible, nothing on the brain, no book on psychology or philosophy or mathematics or astrophysics, I don’t have time to read books like that, like I don’t have time to get an education in English, so I’ll keep it at just throwing words around. Not that such subjects are uninteresting, far from it, I’ll make a show so much they are, but I write these days a lot.

DESTINY DREAM

I make multipart dreams which can be special, but this one really made me question my sanity. As younger my explanations were always a bit esoteric, but as I grew older my vision of things enlarged, so did the complexity of my view of dreams, and I guess now they makes better sense. This one is practically premonitory, or you could say it’s about finding my destiny, and the reconstruction of it, piece by piece, is my struggle in reality to attain it, or take a path so I can understand what is wrong with me, alternatively, and it seems it writing is the path of understanding.

~Like writing would make you understand better.

I should first question if I’m not imagining myself dreams like I’m half hallucinating.........no. I’m just way overblown, awareness speaking, to hallucinate, with some rare exception of weird events. I make the distinction; if I see something I just know I see it, I just trust my reflexes to catch anything, and my eyes need a lot of FPS to be impressed. So don’t get me wrong, I’m not an imbecile, you won’t fool me easily, but it doesn’t mean I can’t see things, understood?

~Yes.

Generally speaking, I think dreaming is a fun activity for me, maybe because I ditched this reality as not funny.

~Really, I tell you girls, this guy is something, you have no idea the nice stuff he can say, and how he manages to keep a positive outlook these days…

Yeah, and remember that this is a book of opinions, in reality I’m not the kind of person to criticize people continually, I’m super calm and I don’t talk much. It doesn’t mean I can’t take decisions and tell people how they should do things to please me, but that’s dependent on the situation and if it’s useful.

~That being said.

I think loneliness brings even the creativity of my dreams to the forefront, and not only as a reflection of the way I imagine stories before going to sleep; I have no problem believing that my dream quality is related to how much I care versus how much I talk and socialize.

~You exchange imaginative stories, your other brain and you.

The other thing is that I know I make clone dreams, like falling to infinity when was young, or cleaning the dishes, which is a classic these days, but I notice immediately and it kind of pisses me off, so I stop it right there, I refuse to clean the dishes in my dreams. And I know what it means, that I must kick some butts, I think.

~I’m not sure you got that one right.

It almost feels like harassment, I just start cleaning the dishes like it’s a happy activity, it looks enticing, but it’s really annoying, like you could easily sleep comfortably doing that, but seriously? Got anything more interesting?

~Don’t worry, it’s just your mind cleaning around a bit.

Clone dreams aside, I’d say dreams are associated to the selection, study, and possible optimizing, of parts of our intelligence, they would tend to show conflict in our thinking, depending on our mind capacities, or what emotional effort is involved in a subject matter, how much you care. If there is nothing much to you, or-and if you follow the external brainwash (pressures) mostly imposed by reality, or-and if there is nothing new these days, just boringness, some or all of our dreams will be classic and short, somewhat fitting the literature on the subject. We’re talking business as usual dreaming, not the extremes of boringness; total solitude and platitude may give interesting dreams. Following the ways of the reality to the letter all your life will make your dreams less interesting and frequent and shorter and classic, not very livid or memorized since they are related to how you deal with your emotions too. So as you grow older and get more secure, your dreams may end-up less interesting, but there may be another phenomenon at play where at some point in our evolution the capacity may end-up used for something else, genetically speaking; what’s useless disappears or change. If however you take a lot upon yourself, and like to understand stuff and gain knowledge and conscience in an explorative (adventurous) manner, or a traumatic experience happens, particularly if you try to follow your conscience against all odd, or the reality is turning in a new direction, or you’re dealing with difficult problems in your life, any and more of such possibilities will give more, more intense, longer and interesting ones, in a mass, but maybe not the same as someone that is simply free of responsibility, no feeling of having something to prove, or no need to provide an effort to behave in a certain way, (high conscience).

~Your nice high conscience concept, as the gas pedal of personal change.

One thing I know is that I often dream of the people that have been important in life, including my parents, family members, old friends, and the same for my cat and my ex love, they have been all over my dreams proportional to my story with them, while I may get into a traumatic experience with violence where I’ll fear for my life and no dream about it, so what does it mean for me to make multipart dreams stretching over the years, what is it that my unconscious care about so much?

~A world, because your conscience is full of worlds, that’s your passion, and your whole intelligence want it too.

What is the worth of existence if life can’t be happy with a brain full of worlds?

~You got to not let hell destroy your explorative drive, your appreciation of life.

Ok. So that’s a bit how I see dreams, the basics. I’m no scientist, but I don’t think psychology is currently competent with dreams, we should still do a serious dreamology kind of science, while not forcing a truth about it, since you would be kind of condemning the brain to many things that can change, even if it’s still a matter of taking the best path. A vague schema of truth with many things will only begin to form when we’ll be in a stable, safe, fair and healthy civilization systematization is my belief, if we are to take the stability of language in our methodologies. For now we are experimenting millions of things that will take thousands of years to know if they remain palpable, factoid, functional, and languages are not taking that path for sure. In fact, the way we’re going encroaching, stretching and inflating in the name of bullshitting, we’re more likely to develop bullshit dreams, dreams that will mean something different from one person to the next, exacerbated by bullshit emotions, invalidating the science of meaning about them, not much better than zodiac stuff, they may even become very limited or rare for most people. Luckily, a majority of our cumulated knowledge is truth, thanks, but I push for better, and a lot of this better can be found in old history lies, investments in wrong attitudes, PMIBBD.

~Propaganda, Manipulation, Indoctrination, Bullshit, Brainwash, Disinformation.

Like saying dreams are hallucinations, if you look at synonyms, while the later happens with open eyes, so this doesn’t work, so let’s make the difference and stick to it. I understand that the synonym dictionary is all about alternative suggestions, but common, the way they’re going they’ll soon confound imagination with hallucination.

~It’s worse actually, they are confounding imagination with dreams!

It’s important to mention here since this attitude where words can mean anything, like imagination which is a synonym dreaming which is a synonym of hallucination, actually affect the quality of dreams, and it limits many aspects of intelligence, even evolution when you consider that our intelligence will try, with time, to optimize language for genetic effects, to make us more efficient with them, but it will never happen if they’re a brothel of conflicting definitions, encroachment, and wrong interrelations. It’s possible I make great dreams in part because I fight conflicting bullshit, or I limited it by rejecting this reality.

~Who cares?

Me and life and all serious entities, we all care.

~And manipulators care about growing brain conflict, it’s good for disinformation.

The grammar police inflate itself way too much with small mistakes, and it shies away from the most important problem.

~Sounds like the real police.

Following this line of thinking, it could be possible that some old civilizations like the Mayans could have developed more life sensitivities from having more precise languages, or from them being more image related, but we’ll keep Mayan matters for another chapter.

~Ok.

For now let’s say interpretation capacity is inversely proportional to dream complexity, with some trusty materialistic association that are hard to invalidate, because who can twist the signification of a banana? But maybe with a little multiplication here, a bad trip there, some memories of banana treasure, some fiery banana associations, add some imagination and you get a dragon. What do you do if another part of your brain likes to jump in and embellish things, so a potentially bad dream becomes a good one? Even your ego drive can add its little touch, unconscious ego? Conscious ego? Natural ego? External created ego? Which one did what?

~And what to make of people who are good at controlling their dreams?

I think we do it one way or the other, from 1% to 50% depending on people and state of mind, because I don’t see my conscience as separated from my intelligence, I see it as a process, like my intelligence is a container of information gathered by my senses that different aspects (modifiers) play with, and my conscience is how much of it I can access, under the form of a control modifier. So you could say that the unconscious aspect of my intelligence is in a competition with my conscience to control my body. This unconscious arises from the hard coded birth formula, and my conscience control and work with new and old data, to work reality and work in it, and to formulate the next reproduction formula. A lot of things will work unconsciously only, and other aspects will work consciously only, those aspects are what I call modifiers. The optimization process is related to genetics, for reproduction, so we’re born with an automatic formula that will get modified as we grow-up, under the process of our intelligence gaining data from the senses of the body, that our conscience will work with to gain understanding, but for that our conscience need the capacity to be quite encroaching. So the goal of our conscience is to access and control as much of our intelligence as possible, by being logical and making sense, because the optimization process will in turn gather what works as a logical continuation of the birth formula, to update it.

~You just blew my mind.

So we are sleep to some level of awareness, a noise will wake up someone while it will make another person sleep harder, and that’s why I’m permitted to dream right as I fall asleep, because I don’t fit current mental standards, and my awareness took this form when I sleep.

~Not that people are really missing much, cleaning the dishes and dreaming of a happy sausage flying around.

There are more interesting ones, the sausage baffles me though, and the internet is all messed up on the matter, sex psychologists will probably try to make the association that I’m gay, I need a sausage, but I’m vegan, and clicking next does bring me to a porn site, so forget it.

~They transform your cute dream in a sausage nightmare.

Ultimately speaking, I’ll dream while making a speech, really, I’m talking and I’ll start a dream while I continue talking, and at some point I’ll wake up from the dream because I hear myself talking, it’s weird.

~The mouth is not stopping.

No.

And what? You fall on the floor? You dream while walking around?

~Don’t worry, it only happens when I talk to myself before sleeping, and I don’t talk that much or often.

We already covered the talking. I’d say it’s your vision of your mouth as expressing your conscience, and it enters your ears, and it disturbs your intelligence that’s trying to sleep and imagine cool adventures, while you just keep on babbling boring stuff it already knows.

You think?

~I was going for humor, but there’s something, eh?

I think I’m just regularly fucked-up tired, in my head, in my emotions, with my sleep that’s always disturbed. At least bad dream are very rare, except the one where I fell to infinity, if you can call that a bad dream.

~You like your dreams.

Yes. A lot of mind skills can be involved in the creation of dreams, and among those is the ability to play with one’s own conscience, which would tend to mean you can control them easily, but I personally don’t do it (or like some percentage I have no idea about, when I notice I’m dreaming it kind of automatically happens, as I understand things), because it’s like special training, and I don’t want to invalidate the unconscious aspect too much.

~Some aspects can be temporary in existence too, proportional to high conscience capacity or emphasis.

Yes, since high conscience, which specifically requires sustained efforts, is a transitory state mostly used to steer (change) reality by changing the person, and the more useful the skill, the more it is optimized as modifiers (instinct, extension, developments, dna), that is, when it’s not too late or dwelling in an overload of other conflicts. As I already mentioned, you can see it somewhat like the difference between love and true love, or a brain vs a mind (minding, personality building, you can somewhat replace mind with personality in my text, but related to senses intelligence (emotional intelligence), conscience as general awareness, while high conscience is developing it as an effort-process to make reality better in harmony or worse.

~What about consciousness.

Useless to me, except to wake up. But there’s a catch, this is another concept that’s been twisted by manipulators over time; consciousness doesn’t exist in French, and we’re no worse than English people for it, why? Because it’s all the same at a different intensity, you gain consciousness as you wake-up, and the more you’re awake, or aware, or work to gain knowledge of your surroundings, the more you gain conscience, and it’s your choice to do ethics with it or not; conscience is not a synonym of ethics, you can consciously do evil with great conscience, my whole work of conscience can be used to do evil.

~So this is another perversion to fool good; assuming that people of great awareness are necessarily good.

The same for empathy, you could argue that there are highly empathic psychopathic killers and trolls.

~Yes.

Conscience is the action arising from developing our skills, or gaining understanding, so I don’t talk about consciousness except to wake up from sleep or a coma, as it will only make things more complicated. And there is no use developing conscience if it is not to act upon it, thus high conscience, as the constructive action power of conscience.

~Ok, conscience is in the brain, high conscience is working it for actions in reality, like you writing.

Exactly, the person too, and there’s a vast difference in time and energy expenditure, or effort, between the two, like me working my brains in function of my work.

~So your work is really work.

Evidently, only a moron can say the contrary, as I produces a palpable result. But to me valuable work can be anything, as long as the result is constructive, and it can be about building oneself to act adequately. I don’t think people are supposed to work their intelligence like a job no end, but don’t discredit me, I didn’t stumble in a bucket of intelligence like spies, I worked, but if you take the mean to be a moron, then be ready to bear the title, and you won’t have a word to say when the whole universe call you a human fool.

~You don’t want that rep.

No. Conscience is something that you develop as much from interacting with reality as willfully, both aspects cross each others as people experience living existence, passive learning intellectually lazy people will be very limited at that though, you got to put some willful effort to it. For most, the way of the reality will have been mostly implanted in youth, as people chose their path of survival in it, and then they’ll follow the same kind of pattern as an unconscious thing, they’ll let most of the stuff from reality enter their brain without consciously manually acting upon it, stuff that’s mostly already there in a half automatic version, continually strengthened by reality.

~Like superficial babbling and criticizing while doing business as usual.

We’ll go back to this later, for now we have the base to understand each other for this chapter, and the current subject.

~Dreams.

They’re all a matter of what’s possible, and we’ll dream for as long as stuff is possible or that there is something we know we can do better. We must make the difference between what’s realistically possible and what’s not to evolve, by deducting impossibilities and I have to fight cheating and bullshit so that I don’t have a deformed image of reality, which reflects the space life can take or extend itself in genetically, and a big part of this is the language which is like a little reality into itself.

~The corridor of best possibilities.

So you can tell me everything is possible all you want I don’t care if I know the only way to make your stuff possible is by cheating, by using a trick. The use of impossibilities is fun and exploration (like exploring the environment of what’s possible). Most of this chapter is meant to explain that one of the greatest powers of our mind is to make the difference between truth and falsehood, possibilities and impossibilities, good and evil, to choose wisely how the human will evolve in mind and body.

~Everybody knows that...

So yes, dreams are full of meanings, and knowledge, you can modify your life from them, but they are not meant to point precisely to a path either, they are more like suggestions; you don’t wake up every morning changing everything because you had a dream, or start magical thinking and tell the world you had a dream and because of it things will change, you didn’t need the dream to do the action, it was all there, it’s just you that’s messed up. It’s still meant to influence your actions, and who does want to influence your actions while you’re sleeping unconscious? You decide, playing guitar is totally an option too. You may deduct yourself a mission from some dreams, I do, but they are never an argument, more like an imaginary way of one’s spiritual view of himself, sometimes.

~Yeah, yeah, boring...

Some bits of what I write comes from speeches or ghost phrases gotten from dreaming, when younger I would wake up totally motivated by what I was dreaming of talking or writing about, and the sense in it, like it’s super big because it’s dream stuff, only to pass many hours perfecting what I remembered, mostly ending up totally out of context. So you could say I do the same with my dreams (perfecting them as I write them), but while I can say there are foggy parts, it takes only a few minutes to describe them, and I pertinently know I don’t.

~You don’t mess with your dreams.

It’s just that it’s evident to me that some of my dreams are clues to some kind of logical revelation path.

~Like premonition?

Rest assured, I never dreamt of fire and destruction, maybe some blood, not much violence even if I do kill people every now and then, just normal killings you know, and there is this dream about me leading an army of men in black that happened a few times, not that we actually do anything else than just standing there... It’s more fantastic, not far from la, la, land if I’m to be honest, but they are old dreams too, maybe related to the games I was playing at the time, since I’ve always been a gamer.

~That’s a good point, we’re getting through with the methodology.

I prefer to see the process as a form of hybridization from my own continually sustained conscious effort at thinking of many things, along with life already optimized truths (initial (packaged for reproduction) unconscious, some modifiers (optimized reality interaction tools); the nearer my philosophy is to them (truth of life, not only facts of existence), the more my dreams should reflect something premonitory?

~That was...something.

I’m just having fun because my brains knows I’m in the know, and sometimes it plays tricks on me, and we’re having fun as much as we can as a mind, while still knowing important things are to come? So fuck you, I’ll stay a kid if that’s what I have to do, play games and give the honor finger to the world and stay away the adult facet because adults piss me off! And sex people piss me off too! Because I know my capacities, but now is not my time, and this reality is no good for me, and I sure wouldn’t dare having something to prove to people for whom you never end needing to prove things, just saying. Still, I’ll take my responsibilities, I’ll rise as much as I’m permitted without losing my sanity.

~You’re really going to blow up the video.

People’s imagination devices, yes, no dreams of destruction of the world though, those are pope style dreams I would presume.

~Was Nostradamus a fervent believer?

Probably, but this Nostradamus bozo looks worse than a joke to me, just the name, it’s like building a story around a name; if he really existed I’m sure that’s what he did, a kind of dream infused Jesus syndrome psychosis.

~Mmmmm.....

Seriously, I’m sure he picked a fitting name, just like Mr. Goodenough.

~And you’re John-Nichols if I get you well...

Me? I’m still doubting, I feel ok, am I possessed? No, I’m not. It’s just that I use the ultimate power, the power to apply what I learn, a bit late, but what’s that got to do with dreams? Nothing. But yes, dreams could reflect a conflict with reality, inversely proportional to general conscience ability, so for those inversely proportional people dreams may be geared toward other, more serious matters; I wouldn’t like to live the mind of a current self-inflated ignorant if I was life, I’d protest for sure, but does that works? It works if you rejects available logic to make yourself a pawn, but for someone that follows logic, even against the bullshit of the system, then his dreams would reflect more harmony. It’s super slippery though, as concepts, but for now I make superb dreams as quite a revolted person that get angry and think real advanced stuff, so what? I find peace in my dreams? And text, common, text, who dream of text? All is missing is a booming voice and you’re in old sacred parchments. Quite a few times at it. It’s like it’s super important at it, but maybe not in the immediate sense I think since it always take lots of time half sleeping half thinking to get the message somewhat right, and it is quite hard keeping this half-conscious state, it’s like I must do the traducing of some unconscious message while still dreaming I don’t know about what because my conscience is all used to give it meaning (conscience-unconscious, I see those as separated for simplicity, that’s why I use brains plural, but it’s really a process flowing from exterior to interior back to exterior, a wheel of understanding). Still, it could be the same continuation effect of writing like all day is not enough, it’s just that when you’re young you don’t have years of cumulated experience at it, so it’s all novelty. I never regretted writing about them though, text dreams, even if they were mostly path of thinking initializations, and they mostly have been transformed to usable writings, not that there are many.

~So now we’re talking an effect like when people continue gaming all weird in their sleep, but for writing big philosophical stuff, it’s a wonder you’re not completely nuts.

No, no, it’s cool, nothing to worry about.

~While you murder people in your dreams...

I don’t murder them like an assassin, relax. Most of the dreams I’ll write about are action dreams that started innocently, I dream of a place and append to it with others dreams with time. I can be years before visiting an old dream and add some space and adventures to it, it seems my brains finds it useful to memorize some fun for itself, but not for me; it is hidden secret compartment some other entity (process) keeps for itself, but sometimes we play a scenario. I’d be very much interested in accessing that memory though, as I would find quite a fantastic realm there.

~Or maybe just coded garble mangle chaotic confusion, nothing to make sense of.

Not only that, I memorizes them knowing I’ll make another one later at the same place since the first dream can be a presentation or goal of a new dreaming place.

~Into premonition here we come…

Like an inversed law of quantum physics deja-vu where I half hallucinate into flashback. So I’ll be careful here or I’ll start dwelling in esotericism, like saying I could be hallucinating old lives…I may be one of the rare around to appreciate some entities in some sort of competent way too, and so I’m rewarded with the evolutionary process of my life, as dream steps, and the quest I can possibly take too.

~You don’t manage your memory, so don’t be surprised...

I think I still got an excellent memory, use selective like for most people I guess, just maybe more and stronger due the importance I have to give to things, except superstar names, or worse, in which year the star or government did what; television is full of that, and schools like it very much too. At least my dreams seem more important to remember than the name of this man or that, since that’s the first thing I remember of my life; a dream. Then there’s the memory itself, I remember names of games, but even those I played like months I have forgotten, maybe not, when I think about it some names come to mind, but what I remember is the cool and the feel, and flow of complexity, proportional to the freeing of brain capacities by the To hell with the world I’ll play games effect, while knowing (feeling a lot) the kind of job I’d have to do in the future.

~You couldn’t and you knew.

My last dreaming space is actually the whole earth. What’s more, I have imaginary lands and I go fall asleep there while adventuring. So now I can make the relation to those lands I think repetitively about, like my unconscious decided to do the same, and my ease at it and complexity could be exacerbated by my loneliness too, and my paranoia over conflicting and encroaching language.

~So you fall asleep in adventures, are they boring adventures?

Not really, my brain knows what I’m doing. I’m imagining I’m flushing people in a giant whirlpool, and next moment I’m sleeping and I wake up in the morning.

~It’s like a valium to you.

You got to be tired evidently, you go to sleep and try to design yourself an adventure, and see how far you’ll go before waking in the morning.

~It can be magic.

For sure.

~Do you think many people do that presently?

I think not, or under a very limited or different form, because you got to be quite a complexity to get the best effect of it, it’s like perfection, everything is in the details, and magic don’t make my most interesting adventures.

~I think I understand.

It’s still very limited, I go to sleep to sleep, not to imagine adventures. I’m tired, I can’t pass hours there, so it’s like I have a preferred sleep story that morph with time, to which I append parts when I want something different, and every night I play around the scenario, perfect it a little. Every now and then I go back to an older scenario altogether, or invent something new. We’re talking around 15 minutes every night, and some scenarios have become very advanced, my main one is actually a planetary scenario, and still with the same base that started 20 years ago.

~So you could develop them a lot more if you wanted to waste time on them.

Yes, I could write a whole book. The weird things is that I actually name these stories my dreamlands, but all the magic is super complex and scientific, I don’t profit either, not my mentality, because it’s never worth it. I like a minimum of dead ends too, so we have important things to do and everything is there for a reason. I’m like a guide, or a victim, or a weirdo, or a savage, or full cybernetic enhanced, and meet people who got whole adventures related to them, an inacceptable guy that people meet, underestimate, and eventually befriend, or follow, or declare war to, and they end-up discovering wonders. To me it’s the empathic feelings that are important a lot, even if I’m the main character evidently, and those can be bad feelings. Those with an inadequate attitude reap the worst I can imagine in a stupendous way, they will become cannon food for the craziest or bloodiest of situations. Bad things tends to happen to whole brainwashed hordes under the will of rich people on a hegemony quests, and the backlash of humility can crumble whole societies...

~Who need super hero movies...

That’s what I do in reality too by writing, in all kind of ways already, I’m attracting adequate intelligences to make them visit wonders, while inadequate intelligences become a source of humor, unless they prefer violence, a solid beating of humility, their choice, evil don’t get away with it. I still try to be diplomatic, to leave the door open to pardon and potential. And I write in a way where I can succeed, so I must be interesting enough to myself, which is a big contract, but the pattern remains the same; I write as a story, and people are following my adventure, and I’ll write about all kind of things that will leave them speechless, and make them understand things they had no idea about except as weird feelings, and while I will try to help anybody with a minimally adequate attitude, those examples I meet that are bent on causing troubles will become a source of humoristic psychology, and I’ll prevent those with a mentality emphasis on egotism from scrapping everything for self-inflation glory.

~There’s electricity...

At the end of our wild adventure we’ll all have felt bad and felt good comparing our pains, we had fun too, while understanding many profound things, that were just there within grasp, until we debark in town, where we realize that all the speech was not just pretty words; you were right to be a little scared because here is reality, here is where the philosophy, the ideal, the mentality, the imagination, taking a palpable form. So carry on with me if you have come to like how I think, you know I’ll develop an explanation for any magic, and it will be my pleasure to explore, describe and make understood the universe of life.

~Wow. Psychanalysis speaking, you can see this attitude as the frustrated father in you at beyond level, the frustration of not living adequate love.

Could be. The other aspect to take into consideration about my dreams is that I’ve always been an amateur of games, for some fantasy, but I never actually played a game with unicorns in them, so why should I make bloody unicorn dreams?

~Wow, I want to make a unicorn dream too, what did you do?

Nothing, I was just riding it into a bloody carnage to fight viruses within my veins, with swords both hands.

~Ok, that’s not the kind of dream I had in mind.

Or seeing a sasquatch with a white stripe strolling around in the forest, what is that?

~A sasquatch, and what was it about, bashing foresters?

No I was in the forest, walking around with 2 girls, and I saw a pretty place, and it was there in the clear, we looked at each other and he continued in the direction he was going.

~What were you doing with 2 girls in the forest anyway?

Nothing, I often make dreams in the forest with girls, they’re usually boring, in fact, this one was super long, we were just taking one long walk in an old trail, and my pleasure was just helping them it seems, like they were damsels visiting the forest with me as a guide.

~And you met a sasquatch.

Yes, a big yeti with one big cranium, and a big white vertical stripe around it, it was very humanoid, nothing with your popular gorilla, and it’s the only thing that happened.

~You make other dreams with fantastic creatures.

Yes, I killed a gigantic red dragon once, I totally fucked a flying siren too, and I meet extraterrestrials sometimes, but my point is that it’s not like I’ve ever been interested in unicorns and yetis, what is this bullshit? Why does my brain even have that in it?

~It’s just a common point to many intelligences, you don’t know it but your intelligence worked itself a vision of these creatures, and it probably coincides with all the intelligences that find these creatures interesting.

Never had a dream of vampires or daemons, at least.

~With your psyche, those would be quite interesting.

And with my experience with psych sciences, nobody has the competence to interpret my dreams, except the simplest ones, like cleaning the dishes I suppose... So don’t make the mistake of taking them too seriously, you could end-up representing something you wouldn’t like, or making a fool of yourself because you caught a fish and that’s big. I dreamed of catching all sort of fishes, I found all sort of jewels, but the glory and the richness is still nowhere to be found...

~Too many bullshit relations.

Furthermore, I don’t fit the science of dreaming either, and I don’t consider myself a dreamer, because they really don’t happen everyday; I’ll remember that I made a dream every few days, and I’m sure I have no specific moment for dreaming, it can happen seconds after I fell asleep, or in the morning, I even feel I’m dreaming in deep sleep. And this is important because psyches are entitled to say I’m sick in the head because of my dream patterns, and you know that I’m not entitled to let anybody attack my intelligence just like that. So, after one second asleep I can make a short 5 second dream, wake up describe it loudly for 5 seconds, fall asleep, one second later make another 5 second dream that has nothing to do with anything (ridiculous, like flying sausages), then wake-up, describe it; you can repeat a few times. This seems to be a scientific proof that I’m sick mentally, while I’m entirely normal when I start to work, and if I ever hallucinated, then it’s really a rare thing, it may have happened 3 times that I questioned what I saw in my whole life, which I’m sure is a lot less that a normal person. My behavior is exemplary (with rare failings that I regret deeply), I feel fine and well, so what is this mental sickness bullshit? Those psych experts on the science of dreams are inventing problem where there are none, and I won’t tolerate to be called mentally sick because of my dream pattern.

~It’s like they’re trying to make people fit their vision of what is a healthy mind that should be condemned to eternity to never change or evolve, so standard they can plug it to their Nintendo machines and control it.

The dream of mass manipulators. At the other end of the spectrum, I make multi-part dreams that can cover years...

~I bet it’s a sign you’re mentally sick too because it doesn’t fit their standards, they’re going crazy interpreting every signs they see.

Maybe one of the reasons for sleep and dreams is certify the truth of our imagination and memory, giving hints of how we can be better or best, like what are our present hurdles, they can point to things, sometimes to internal problems, or life’s problems. Who? What? The processes of growing intelligent since there are not two of you, an unconscious one and a conscious one, even if you’re stuck dealing with them separately, they are still a process of growth, you’re a whole tree, a mind, but the tree communicates with the soil, for the tree to exist it needs to connect, why? Eh, to its necessity to exist? Seeds think? Who does the thinking? How big would that be, to build a decoding and translation machine to assimilate and react to the details of the information that circulates through my senses in reality? How much bigger would it need to be to decode and translate the same thing if I mix imagination in everything?

~No scientist ever found the decoder...

You may control your imagination, but this capacity is very much reduced in sleep, and maybe some form of data arrangements are only possible through sleep, when your input from reality is minimal and won’t interfere an already vague interpretation of reality. So no sense boundaries, and since your speech and thinking engines are off, then any communication is limited to take the form of imaginary videos or pictures having the appropriate weight or form of feelings, the same kind of associations of imaginary images with feelings, but reverse, as a way to better identify where there’s a bug. You’re supposed to do it when you’re up and running too, and it’s called taking care of your language and mind, and I would guess minimize PMIBBD (Propaganda, Manipulation, Indoctrination, Bullshit, Brainwash, Disinformation) would help.

~And conflicting definitions too...

So, to continue this science of dream signification, the association strength is, in a lot of instance, proportional to the feeling strength of the words in the message, and those words may not be words, they may be feelings too, but everything is dependent from memory. The main factors influencing memory strength are repetition and feelings, and those are always translated as language and image, so the more integrity in language, the more significative, or the more trustworthy the dreams.

~There’s a logic.

All in all, yes, dreams could represent a pressure from life, dreaming may be one of the most complex developing modifier of all; a sensible connection to living intelligence. An independent one at that, to add to the troubles, it would be based on feelings strength associated to imaginary images related to reality, and the work would be extraordinary, involving millions of years of dreaming time, associating all kind of still not fully developed sensitivities to things. The downside is that some will end-up crazy or sick in the head along its development too, which is often the price of evolution.

~Maybe we could even develop some dual brains concept to come to actually sleep-repair one or the other in turn.

Looks like what’s going on sometimes... Maybe someday we’ll fall asleep to live adventures for hours in dreams while learning tons of useful things, like we got a special part there to entertain us while we sleep, and you’ll wake-up remembering your dreams a lot better, like another life where you are the hero, or the loser, but you don’t have to tell others, they’re your personal worlds. But I can guess evil wouldn’t like such a concept, invasion wise, so maybe we’ll have to make a good reality first, while not forgetting that all top high conscience species will cherish independence, even if we are all associated and will find greater happiness by listening to each other and helping each other.

~Sounds like world peace...

I would say there is always something to learn from dreaming, I even doubt this book would exist without it, as a lot of my philosophy started in dreams. So while I was sleeping, I don’t know how, someone, surely me for my own entertainment, invented lands, and now I sometimes enter back these lands like a surprise; they are like dimensional lands, they show a different dimension to things, imagination and creativity out of reality limitations, I want my dreams longer and more vivid, with more lands to visit too, I want them to talk to me, and me not take bad drugs, I promise.

~Be careful not to catch schizophrenia, people catch it by smoking pot, they say...

For now it often feels like my other brain, as an unconscious self-deduction process of how to deal with me through dreams, like I don’t have enough troubles, is playing games on me, tricking me, testing my foolishness. Because it knows how I am, which is deeply different, so different dreams, more fun an cool and full of meaning for me, not for morons, those are not mental-logical enough. And they can evidently be related to the needs of the job I do, or my potential when younger versus my style of conscience.

~Which amounts to a view of destiny, for the esoteric aspect.

Yes, depending on what time laps you want to apply the destiny concept to, but I do think the general concept can be defended, and we’ll need to do it, so it loses some of the inappropriate magic.

~I’m sure we’re capable of doing that.

It’s better than just visiting back a place, it seems my brain can prepare itself a terrain of adventure so I eventually have to question where it’s from, and it’s how you do premonition dreams I would guess; like you unconsciously know something, and through dreams it will let you know what it is, if the room is available, or depending on the presence of reality in your preoccupations, and your sensibilities. So my other brain kind of integrated my dream lands concept and applied it to dreams, I’m presented with a land and my other brain work itself a story through time and many years later I’m shoot the video with be the super hero options.

~Kind of, we’re touching the magic.

It would mean that if you’re really into something big that makes lots of sense without fully understanding its importance, as a young person, then you could make dreams that reflect where some pattern in your life would lead you, with elements you can recognize and anything it finds in memory that got itself related to all the subject at hand; the building blocks to form as much the graphical image as the emotional one. So the premonition is related to the integrity of the belief, and its form can vary with interpretation; I’m preparing my dreams in advance, from bits of other intense dreams, and now it’s all interrelated dreams and I go nuts thinking I’m Nostradamus, but not really, it’s just my intelligence at work, my mind, into something that would be great for my spirit.

~This is so nice.

It amounts to unconsciously memorizing the weird stuff, or stuff we have a problem with, as consciences, and putting us face to face with it in a different interrelated way, see what happens. Now, don’t be surprised that the weird stuff is connected inadequately in your brain, and so dreaming of the problematic thing can show inadequate yet interrelated images, which can be pooled from some bullshit mess. The science of dreaming here would concentrate on the right connections, so in fact it points at around where in the visualization part of the brain the problem is, or in reality to what thing we associate most easily to said problem.

~While not forgetting that every brain is genetically different.

Yes, but there’s still a standardization of what reality is actually, and another one with the way languages work, and it mean that we all, even me, kind of think the same way fundamentally, but our awareness, or reality, makes us go all wrong in all directions. And we’re stuck in a loop, since from my personal experience, sufficient understanding of how things are really wrong happened later in my life, in a retarded reality, too late for everybody except me that kind of fell in a trap and decided I’d get out of it the hard way. I mean that if I was to start writing this book at 40, I would not succeed because my mind would be incapacitated by reality, or it would take too long, I would be invested, the need for integrity and deep logic would not match the form I took in reality, so I’d end up liking some meme on facebook, ironic generalities about the important philosophy that I learned way too late, whatever or not I knew all along unconsciously, stuff reality would still have twisted its way...

~Humanity is so doomed.

In the end it would mean I’m right on doing what I do, to a scary extent thanks to the logical pathway of my philosophy, I would express what people really want at the epoch of my life, and all the hostility I would reap is from dealing with how people invested themselves, the frustration of saying we have taken a wrong path (sway too far from ideals), a classic in hell where everybody gets had, by media institutions and their relations with lobbyists mainly, to create needs and entertainment, rich businessmen and gods and divas. It’s all in the how my vision is in conflict with the reality people condemned themselves to in attitudes that could be developed differently, and their beliefs under this optic serves to defend their investment, all the way to denial brainwash on masses. And evidently with ton of means you can make gigantic wheels of wrongs that will condemn humanity to your belief, all the way to developing genetic problems of comportment.

~Sounds like saying your unconscious could be chosen as the government of the unconscious of humanity, because your conscience-awareness would be closer to the new level of general understanding, where people’s brains are behind the bullshit, if they removed their investment from the equation, and directed their emotions to the right source of their frustrations.

A kind of government nobody notices? I imagine that could take a few forms, we’ll check these possibilities in this chapter.

~Yes, the forms intelligence could take.

I should add that terminating the first version of my work mostly terminated a