AyaMayA

AyaMayA

By Ayam Yogi Abraxas

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Table of Contents

Front Matter

0 – Introduction

I – Ayamaya

II – Abraxas

III – Ayam (Psychology of the Microcosm)

IV – Maya (Physics of the Macrocosm)

V – Lucid Dreaming

VI – Meditation

VII – Yoga

VIII – Magick

IX – Astrology

X – Tarot

XI – Piper at the Gates of Dawn

XII – Anima Mundi

Appendix i – Suggested Exercises

Appendix ii – References

Publisher's Note

Author Bio

0 – Introduction

This material, properly understood, will reveal the essence of reality to the reader through means undeniable, and experienceable.

It is a state of consciousness which develops as a result of training, from practising certain exercises to encourage the development of hidden faculties within us all.

It is the attainment of identity with the divine within, and the deity without, becoming one with all that is. Flashes of this consciousness appear in life as lucid dreams, psychic precognition, synchronicities, and déjà vu.

The bird fights its way out of the egg. The egg is the world, the bird is the soul. Who would be born first must destroy a world. The bird flies to God. The God’s name is Abraxas - Demian, Herman Hesse.

Abraxas transcends duality, breaking free of reality’s illusion. The truth is that you are God, a fragment of it, but as in a hologram, each piece contains the whole within itself. The greater aspect of yourself, your unconscious mind, is the universe that you perceive all around you; it is these words that you are reading right now. This is called Maya, which means duality and illusion. It is known as the Muldahara Chakra in Kundalini Yoga and the Malkuth Spherioth on the Tree of Life. Maya refers to everything outside of your ego, anything you perceive to be not-you, including the externalized deity.

The reflection of this, or rather the projector of it, is the lesser part of yourself, the you reading these words, is your ego. This is called Ayam, modified from the Hindu Aham, which means I AM. It includes your name and your body, and every other illusion you use to separate differentiate yourself from your environment.

Ayam and Maya appear to be separate and distinct, yet they are one in truth. To make this idea a conscious reality is to attain the state of consciousness known as Ayamaya. This is known by the Gnostics as Abrahadabra (which means create as I say). It is associated with Abraxas, which symbolized the aspirant rising above the material illusion of Maya into the spiritual truth.

AMEN

AYAMAYA

AUM

I – Ayamaya

This palindrome serves to illustrate the mirrored aspect of the relationship between perceiver and perceived. Impossible to comprehend in full upon first analysis, meditation upon the name over time will begin to reveal the mysteries contained within.

Ayamaya is a symbol of unification of our respective identities into that being which includes us all. It is a glyph of Mercurious and Shiva, the holy hermaphrodite, representing the Alchemical balancing of the inner opposites within an individual’s self (Yang/Yin, Male/Female, Ayam/Maya).

The seven letters are representative of the seven Chakras, holy planets, days of the week, letters in the name Abraxas, and the seven frequencies of light and sound. Ayamaya represents every pair of opposites as well as the third unifying principle. It is everything knowable, and also the unknowable, nothing transcendentally beyond. The triangle is sacred in this respect, representing the holy trinity.

This concept has been expressed in Sanskrit as OM TAT SAT (Thou art That), a mystical experience that is also known as Dhyana in Ashatanga Yoga. The observer becomes one with what is observed. The alchemists refer to this as the uniting the micro and macrocosm. It is followed by Samadhi, complete – eternal, inner wisdom – a thoughtless state of bliss that is the goal of both meditation and Yoga. Some of the yogis in India have been known to use marijuana to achieve this effect in a lesser degree, although the masters have no need of material things. Note also the use of marijuana, vegetarianism, dreadlocks, and long beards by both the Shivites and the Rastafarians in worship of their respective eastern and western deities.

In the Old Testament, we can use the alphanumeric Kabbalah to analyze the names, and doing so, we find that Moses equals 345, while I am That I am adds to 543, implying a mirrored unity. It is also implied within the structure of the Tree of Life, for the Spherioth of Kether and Malkuth are one also.

The same is true of the Muldahara and Sashrara Chakras in Kundalini Shakti Yoga, which have often been represented by the pair of lovers, Shiva and Shakti. The mantra OM MANI PADME HUM refers to this union (behold the jewel in the lotus), which is also the esoteric meaning of the Rose Cross, or the Ankh.

Modern day quantum physicists have taken notice of this effect at the subatomic level, explaining that particles do not exist in space or time until they are observed.

Carl Jung used the terms ego and the collective unconscious.

The concept of Ayam is analogous to the psychologist’s definition of the ego (the conscious mind). It is the sense of an individual self which we all possess and recognize as well in others. It is a complete symbol of the Microcosmic Aura (the magical mirror of the Universal Macrocosm). Any and every quality with which a person ascribes to themselves falls into this self-image as well as all memories following the moment of birth.

Generally speaking, the Ego is a mess of positive or negative axioms developed through experience over time and supported by emotional memory. Any one person is likely to feel more one way than the other concerning any spectrum in question (eg. The positive assertion I am rich vs. the negative assertion I am poor). Once the scale has been tipped one direction or other, the individual will string together a series of memories in order to bring about a certain perspective of the past in support of the subconsciously chosen self-affirmation. Peace of mind, Samadhi, can be found by bringing about harmony within the positively or negatively charged psyche. Thus, Ayam symbolizes the Samadhi, peace of mind, or complete, eternal, inner buddhi wisdom of the enlightened mystic.

Ayam originates from the Sanskrit Aham, (translating to I AM) and more importantly, can be found as the reverse spelling of Maya. This name was received by Shawn Michael Peters in Nelson, British Columbia in 2009, following two Ayahuasca ceremonies, and he took upon the name and motto (Ayam Yogi Abraxas = Ayamaya = I create what I perceive).

I AM is the divine name of the highest Spherioth on the Tree of Life, Kether (Sashrara Chakra), the perceiver, Eheieh in Hebrew. The lowest sphere bears the name Adonai-ha-Aretz, which means, Our Lord, the Earth, and is known as Malkuth (Muldahara Chakra), or the world which is perceived. My revelation has been to connect Malkuth with Maya, and to the highest sphere, as Kether is in Malkuth, as Malkuth is in Kether, and to imply their relationship.

In this sense, Maya may be understood to mean the entire summation of the universe outside of the individual’s ego (spirit and body). The Upanishads include all sensory phenomena and the resulting desires within its conception of Maya. The reflective nature of the two names is indicative of the nature of the secret doctrine, simply put, that the world of mind and the world of matter are mirror reflections of each other, interacting and influencing each other as a pair of lovers.

As Ayam is the self-consciousness of the individual self, Maya is the collective consciousness of the Universal Self. Ayamaya represents the union of the self-consciousness with the collective will of collective universal consciousness. To enter into harmony with creation means to fall into increasing and perpetual déjà vu, intuition, and synchronicity. It is to discover the fullness of the True Self within and the magnificent glory of the path of True Will. To the Oriental mind of the I Ching, it is the ascension from Earth into Heaven, or from an Occidental perspective of the Kabbalah, from Malkuth into Kether.

Furthermore, the conception of Maya can now be taken forward into the realm of metaphysics. Maya translates to mean illusion, not-that, deception of the senses. Reality itself is considered in this sense to have no more reality than the dream experience, which is equally reduced to fantasy upon the return to the waking state. This re awakening can occur during our lives, and this is the goal of mystics, but for most of us, it happens each time we die.

As the entire sensory world is no more real than a dream, as much must be true for the individual’s existence. Ayamaya means simply in this context, I am only an illusion. I do not truly exist in this reality. I have perceived beyond the illusions of the material universe and also of my own identity, and realize my union with that which is beyond all known things. This concept is easily demonstrable and experienced nightly by every human being during the dream state when we exist inside of our own imaginations. Where do dreams occur? Where does reality occur? The answer to both questions lies within the self or the psyche, Inside of the mind, and outside of the body, the ME beyond all that I am extends in infinite dimension.

Bringing together the meanings of Ayamaya, it stands as the ultimate symbol of the Magickal/Mystical state of consciousness developed through lucid dreaming, and then carried over into waking reality.

II – Abraxas

Abraxas represents every pair of opposites in existence, as well as the third unifying principle. It is everything knowable, and also the unknowable, nothing transcendentally beyond. It is God and the Devil, the Fool and the Magus in one, personified in the angel and devil commonly shown speaking into each ear of an individual. These opposites are shown in the astrological sign of Gemini, which is an expression of the Cain and Abel myth, of which Abraxas is the balance of these natures, shown in the sign of Libra, which is the middle of the Zodiac wheel. In eastern mysticism, Abraxas is the Tao, the unity of the opposing forces of Yin and Yang.

In order to fully understand Abraxas, the ancient practice of gematria (alphabetic-numeracy) must be employed in its study, as the structure of the name itself is indicative of its nature. As in Ayamaya, the seven letters of Abraxas represent the Seven Holy Planets of the ancient Egyptians, these being the Sun, the Moon, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, and Saturn. They are known as the Seven Holy Planets because we can see these planets in the sky without the use of a telescope.

The numerical value of the letters are as follows, [A=1, B=2, R=100, A=1, X=200, A=1, S=60] = 365. Abraxas then chiefly represents the solar year on planet Earth, including within this definition all cycles of time and energy during each year.

There is an astrological influence for each day of the week, and this same principle applies to the Chakra system. Sunday belongs to the Sun (Sashrara Chakra), Monday to the Moon (Ajna Chakra), Tuesday to Mars (Manipura Chakra), Wednesday to Mercury (Visshuddha Chakra), Thursday to Jupiter (Svadhistana Chakra), Friday to Venus (Anahata Chakra), and Saturday to Saturn (Muldahara Chakra).

Abraxas also represents the seven Spherioth below the abyss on the Tree of Life. They are called this, as the top three spheres are the Yang, Yin, and Tao, or Ayam, Maya, and AyaMayA respectively, which are abstract, metaphysical principles, being Chokmah, Binah, and Kether. The fourth Spherioth on the tree is the first physical Spherioth, and includes the entire wheel of the Zodiac, as detailed in the following spheres. The Abyss, represented by the hidden Spherioth Da’ath, symbolizes the border between the physical and the metaphysical, or the knowable and the unknowable. Abraxas is also the top three Spherioth in the sense that it is embodies all opposites within itself, good and evil, male and female, Ayam and Maya, etc.

These currents of energy are known as Tattvas in India and it is of extreme importance in occultism to become aware of these changing tides, in order that we may identify the manifestations of these forces in our daily lives and deal with them accordingly. In this way, we begin to conserve our energy, not wasting our will fighting the currents of Universal Tao. Operations to invoke the planetary forces may be done on the appropriate day of the week, and also during the correct planetary hour, which can be easily calculated online. I have an application on my smartphone which is convenient for frequent reference.

This will increase the connection to these forces due to the increased awareness of them. They have always been there, influencing you, yet unbeknownst to you. By watching for the manifestations of these forces, you bring them out of the unconscious mind into the conscious awareness. This can be compared to the use of electricity, a force which was always there, but was not utilized practically until it was identified, observed, experimented with, and classified. This has resulted in great technological breakthroughs and modern conveniences, and the same is true with other occult forces.

It is generally agreed that the forces work from sunrise to sunset, changing every hour, and every twenty minutes. That is to say there is a predominant influence for each day, within which, the other influences change and interact. This is true also of the effects of the seasons, and we may think of each influence as a colour, the hue of any moment is the product of the interaction of all the current Tattvas, some stronger and longer in duration, and others less influential in their effects. For example, at any given moment, we have the influence of the current astrological aeon, season, and day of the week, hour, and minutes. They can be most easily conceived as a series of wheels within wheels, progressing through the cycles at increasing speed as we narrow down on the present moment.

It is a great idea to build Tattva stones for the five elements and to keep them in the pocket at all times. This way, the stones can be consulted at any moment as a verification of the presence of a force. It must be first noticed intuitively, and then confirmed materially. This is how we keep ourselves on course, and ensure we are not being deceived, by placing double blinds for ourselves along the way. Over time, this exercise will develop the psychic faculties to the point where no stones are necessary, one feel the forces of the universe around one with an absolute certainty that can only be described by obtaining the experience.

Abraxas represents all the forces of fate outside of an individual will’s sphere of influence. Fate is what we allow to a certain degree, and is not ultimately predetermined. These forces are the energies so described in the above paragraph; to enter into harmony with Abraxas is to understand the nature of the planetary and elemental energies acting upon Earth. The only way to accomplish this is through direct communication, from the Guru to the disciple, through constant meditation on the meaning of the interactions of the universe with you. Abraxas is your higher, unconscious self, your Guru, poking you in your sore spots in order that you may grow, watering your soil so you may lay roots.

To the Christians, Abraxas can be recognized as the Will of the Father (Yahweh, Jehovah) in the Abrahamic religions, as the Tao in the Orient, as Karma to the Yogins, or as Zeus to the Greeks. This is one of the reasons why Jesus is shown bound to the cross, the T, which is a symbol of the Tao, the will of Abraxas. This is what he meant by saying, Not my will, but Thine be done, Father. The Hindu mind uses the term Karma to imply this concept, of a fate which must be accomplished, a Great Work (Kama) to complete.

It must be noted, however, that sacrifice and suffering in itself are aspects of the Age of Pisces, and no longer apply in regards to mystical attainment in our current Age of Aquarius. In our present time, we are able to blend our will with the collective, and achieve true unity this way, with no internal disharmony.

We now must expand this conception in order to incorporate psychology and physics. Abraxas is the collective infinite universal consciousness in the centre or source of all manifestation.

Consider the vanishing point of the horizon as the physics standpoint (Maya), and the seat of perception within the individual as the psychological (Ayam). AyaMayA is everything in between, not the observer or the observed, but the act of observing itself. It is the sensory signals travelling between point A and point B.

Reality is brought to life through the interactive triangle of the perceiver, the perceived, and the perceiving. The bridge between the perceiver and the perceived is the perceiving itself, which can be thought of as the sound vibrating in the space between the speaker and the ear, and the light travelling between the screen and the eye. The perceiving itself is Ayamaya, which is communicated to us as Abraxas, the sum total of all space, time, colour, sound, etc.

The Three P's

Abraxas is a symbol of Ayamaya in its divided, rather than united state, as the letters imply division, or a spectrum of phenomena. Light and sound are divided into seven frequencies, which correspond to the letters of Abraxas. The information is divided into a spectrum (as light divides in a prism), in order to create, otherwise we would perceive nothing but white light, static sound, etc. This is, in fact, the white light that many describe during near death experiences, and during the peaks of psychedelic trips. It is shown as the Crown Chakra and the Kether Spherioth, both pictured as "white light.

What we perceive appears to be distinct and separate, although in actuality, this is the illusion of Maya. Just as in a dream, what we perceive is in fact, one with ourselves. When we experience a dream, our conscious ego (Ayam) enters inside of the subconscious mind (Maya). We are, in truth, one with all that exists, and this is the mysterious Godhead that has eluded so many throughout the course of existence. We cannot postulate that the deity is something external and other to us, as this is the trick of Satan (the deceiver/tempter/redeemer). This is expounded by Lord Krishna in the Bhagavad-Gita as the goal of Yoga and the nature of Maya.

It can be said that the subconscious is a projection of the shadow contents of the conscious mind, and vice-versa. One view is true from one perspective, and the other from the other. Holding such opposing views simultaneously is the key to true understanding. Such is the self-evident proof of a universal truth expressing itself in a triangle relationship. By this I speak of any one thing, its opposite, and the harmonious unification/annihilation of the two as one. Establishing the balance between these two opposites is the art of realizing Ayamaya.

Mathematically speaking, the sum total of manifested energy divided into a positive and a negative polarity (as two some-things) respectively resolving itself back into equality, balance, or no-thing-ness (Nirvana, Ain-Soph, before the Big Bang).

In this sense, time/change may be conceived as a mathematical formula or a flow of energy resolving the initial paradoxical inharmonious conditions established at the moment of conscious self-awakening/awareness (Ayam) or the big bang (Maya). The universe can be said to begin again each time we awake in this sense, although the initial beginning in time is the awakening of the universe to itself, where as the individual each day awakes to the universe (which is the Self). The big bang itself is the moment of your conception through the sexual act of creation through your parents. Physicists tell us that two parallel universes rubbed against each other, which resulted in the creation of our universe. These two universes are your mother and father, and the rubbing was the act of your creation.

In the Kabbalah, the light of the cosmic father enters into the dark womb of the cosmic mother in a great ecstasy of explosion. It takes little imagination to conceive of this analogy. Our urge towards the womb is our subconscious memory of the Nirvana we experienced there. The birth/death process is a mere coming and going from this place, realer than real. (This is the womb of Binah, the Mother Goddess. The darkness in utero is the singularity before the big bang, the spermatozen and egg as ONE cell. This is the whole universe, the light in the abyss, the word of Genesis, the act of creation, the Sepher Yetzirah. This one begins to divide, and divide, and eventually, we are flipped inside out and are born into the body of our universal mother. Each and every tomb is a waiting and wondrous womb.

We see this analogy again in all of the ancient creation myths, where the winds of spirit blow upon the waters of creation. This is the action of Aleph upon Bayt, Ayam upon Maya, the soul upon the body, and the perceiver upon the perceived. The waters refer to the amniotic fluid of the womb, and also the sea herself.

Energy moves as does a river, and as such, always takes the path of least resistance in order to reach balance and harmony. This is a poetic image borrowed from Taoist ideology. It is known as Wu Wei, which roughly means effortless action, or non-doing. The Tao Te Ching and the I Ching advise the reader to follow this course of action through life. This achieves harmony, ease, and enters one into the flow of synchronistic coincidence. The goal of spiritual ethics is to remove the stress and anxiety from life, to pass from birth to death without creating more Karma for oneself.

To practice these ethics is to avoid situations which cause distress, pain, regret and difficulty. When one masters the practice of Taoism, it is said that one achieves everything by doing nothing. This is symbolized in the Fool card of the Tarot, a careless traveller who goes merrily about his way, blown by the wind, which represents the spirit of God (Rausch Elohim).

The Fool is the embodiment of the traits attributed to the Sage of the Tao Te Ching, and the Superior Man of the I Ching. Things just seem to mysteriously fall into place