The Prevention of Ascension Vol. 1

The Prevention of Ascension

Vol.1

by

I Am Xam

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The Prevention of Ascension

Vol.1

Copyright 2011 by I Am Xam

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This book is dedicated to those that shall remain nameless for

they have given me the purpose I was lacking in my life.

I thank them for the experience that they have given me,

for it has changed me in ways I never thought possible.

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Foreword

What I am about to describe to you is to the best of my recollection and will be difficult to believe for most of you. I still have a difficult time believing it myself. I never thought I would find myself in this situation. I never thought that situations such as this were even possible.

The events described within this book have changed my life in both positive and negative ways, overall the resulting effects have left me transformed. If I am fortunate enough to have found some readers then I hope that I may be able to change the lives of those that can use this information in whatever way possible.

I am also doing this to check my own reality, or lack there of. Please do treat this information with care and caution. If you find that the Nameless do actually exist in your life and that I am not trapped in my own paranoid delusion then heed my warning and retreat to where you started and never draw their attention again or you may end up like me. I you have been aware of the Nameless for some time then we have something in common in that were share the same delusion or that we now know there are others that have made this discovery.

I must tell you that I do not know what will happen if most of the general public discover what I believe is actually happening. I know that if I am not delusional there will be much change and with change comes turbulence, tolerance, and patience. I do know that whatever changes happen they will benefit a greater number of individuals than our current circumstances now allow. I know that the energy that is emitted by the device will help to guide us in the right direction. I know this because I would not have come this far without the help from my the star energy, aether, orgone or whatever term you wish to use. My experience has transformed me in ways that I will describe later, and I believe that it will do the same for most of you.

This book is an account of actual events that have occurred mostly during the mid to late 1990s through the present date. I have recalled the many experiences that fit into the this narrative that happened during my early life prior to becoming aware of the delusional or real characters I call the Nameless.

As I have mentioned above, I cannot be sure that I am not completely delusional. If a delusional person writes an autobiography is it a work of fiction or nonfiction? I know that I have always walked the fine line between my delusion and that of the greater delusion. It is a place that I find comfortable as it allows me to view both worlds from an interesting perspective.

I am not a saint, for the larger part of my life I have been a sinner. I am not a model citizen of the system, whatever that may mean, and even though have tried to find my place in society I never found it comfortable to stay in one place for too long a time or to consistently don the same uniform in any particular sect within our social construct. I have made myself an easy target for the Nameless and have fallen prey to their many schemes to successfully isolate and malign me.

I have used psychedelic drugs to coax the further expansion of my consciousness or to force that expansion by any means necessary. I have always been a rouge element in my very own personal social construct and yes I have made far more mistakes than I have made accomplishments and friends, but this has not inhibited me from my spiritual endeavors. The one thing that motivates me more than anything else is the pursuit of the truth that lies between the lies interwoven into the fabric of this perceived reality.

I am a jack of all trades and a master at being Jack because it was always more interesting to be marginal to good at many things than to be an expert at just one thing. To go through life focussed on just one singular subject can bring about success within the construct of the system, but it's never been the stage for the extemporaneous expression of the soul, at least from my perspective.

I am a steward of this planet and spend as much time in the outdoors as I possibly can while doing all I can do to protect, preserve and restore the fragile ecosystem that makes up the greater environment we all call our home. As I watch the continuos methodical destruction of this precious planet, I can't help feel saddened and helpless. My only hope is that we wake up and realize that we need this planet more that it needs us before it is far too late to change.

I have had the pleasure of making contact with an entity within me that I call my ghost. It is an inner voice that speaks with me from what used to be a space off in the distant distance. It has been there for me every step of the way and has kept me from harm while keeping me rooted within the many realms of the spiritual. My ghost has sufficiently goaded me to this moment to write this book, as in Dude, you gotta write this down, and I do it gladly for the consequences of my past current and future actions are more complex than I can realize at this place in time. I trust that my ghost has already begun the preparations for the next phase of my conscious experiences, and I wait patiently for them to be manifested in real time.

So allow me to show a bit of gratitude to those hidden allies that have been patient with my indulgences, my distractions, my short attention span, my bouts of ADD, and my rather skilled deployment of various procrastination techniques that have postponed this book and the wonders I have had the pleasure of finding along the way to this current moment. May a thousand times a thousand of my many thanks and gratitude go out to them whoever they are and the many forms they possess. May we meet one day in the not so distant future so that I may show my appreciation in a way that cannot be expressed via the written words on this page. You never left my side, and you were probably are the only reason I managed to stay alive all these years with a minimal amount of sanity still present in my; otherwise, delusional mind.

As you read the words contained within this book may the infect and upset your current dominant paradigm and bring about a change in your perceptions of our collective conscious reality and help you focus on the mysteries of life for they are constantly inviting you to step out of yourself and play along.

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Table of Contents

Title page

Copyright Page

Foreword

Chapter 1 Prepose (pre-prose)

Chapter 2 Interesting Phenomenon

The Op-Position

Silly Rituals

Societal Orphan

Psychedelic Fungi

Chapter 3 A Void Dance

Consumed

Tick Tock

Keeping Pace

Chapter 4 The Nameless

Chapter 5 Time Tourists

Chapter 6 New Eyes

Chapter 7 Back to Normal

My disorderly Construct

New Venues

Modern Alchemy

Chapter 8 The Conscious Cloud

Balls Against the Walls

Fire and Light

Attract Shun

Higher Still

Intervention

Chapter 9 The Nameless Part 2

Psychic Attacks

Device 2.0 - Star Power

Transmogrification

Psychosis - The Jagged Little Pill

Beam Me Down

The System

Chapter 10 The Anomaly

Chapter 11 End

Chapter 12 Journal

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Chapter 1

Prepose (pre-prose)

This is an account of my life as I remember it. As well as an account of my life as it continues to unfold. It is a journey within my conscious reality, a strange realm that seems to be constantly changing in so many different ways that I am having a difficult time keeping pace with it. There are both some disturbing as well as some wonderful aspects and at times some really traumatic emotional periods that to me where the most rewarding.

I believe it is my right to ascend to a higher state of consciousness. I believe in this to such a great degree that I am willing to risk my life for it and at one time I feel that I actually might have done just that. I may not be the type of person that would deserve the opportunity to ascend because I have made many mistakes as I stumbled through life. I have gone through so much in the more recent days and moments that the person I once thought I was is no more. I am indeed a changed person, and this change will never be undone because I will never go back to my former state of mind for fear that I may have to experience the past few weeks of my life again.

At this time, I am still attempting to understand the many different aspects of my past and current conscious perceptions. I say this because I am not sure what is real and what may be a delusion on some grand scale. This started as an inward journey to self realization and deep introspection while attempting to map and define the outer regions of my consciousness. I want to make it clear that I was exploring my consciousness and not the consciousness of others, if that is even possible. What I seemed to have discovered is that there is a greater consciousness that I seem to be a part of or contained within. This greater consciousness has limits, boundaries, rules and even people, and or beings that enforce the rules and guard the boundaries.

I am currently a prisoner in my own apartment protecting myself from those guardians and their technology. I am spending all my time diligently writing so that I can place my experiences in the mind of anyone that is able to read these words. I am not a skilled author. The words on the pages before you are raw, edited by myself prior to publication.

My relationship with these guardians started over 10 years ago as I was deep within a psychedelic mushroom session. It was not until the following days after the session that they made themselves known to me in my daily life. I have attempted to ignore them, in a way, and try to get back to a normal life, but that eventually became difficult. As my current dilemma continues to unfold before me, I can recall experiences that indicate they might have been keeping track of me for most of my life for reasons I am still struggling to understand.

What I am offering is a chance to witness what I have experienced. To see the world through my eyes as I attempt to understand what I have experienced. As I have attempted to figure out what was happening in my life I formed some rather premature conclusions that I still consider to be a work in progress. I am having difficulty reconstructing my frame of references given the new information I have been exposed to. I am not sure of anything anymore, other than what is current and observable at any single moment in time. The current moment seems to be the only time I can actually discern fact from fiction and reality from delusion.

Before we get started I should clarify some terms I use. Conscious reality: is what I call my the life I experience while I am awake and conscious. Conscious perception: is what I refer to my interpret of what I experience. Conscious environment: is everything I can sense consciously. If you were standing in front of me, you would be part of my conscious reality. As I observe you, I would be using my conscious perceptions to understand and or read your behavior and intentions. Since nothing exists separate from anything else, I would be sensing your relationship with the environment as a whole.

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Chapter 2

Interesting Phenomenon

I believe that a utopian society can be achieved. I hope for this on a day to day basis and attempt to manifest it daily. A place without suffering, conflict, crimes against property, crimes against individuals, crimes against humanity and the environment. I'll stop there, but the list does go on. I always ask why would anyone want it any other way? What I have a difficult time understanding is why we accept the current human condition in the first place. The key word here is accept. Why do we accept what is currently going on as if there is no other alternative?

The Op-Position

We live within the realm of the opposites. There is good and evil, right, and wrong, a positive outcome and its opposite negative outcome. I believe that if we could overcome this realm then there would only be a positive outcome, for every single aspect of our life. There would only be an expectation of a positive outcome for every action and nothing less. I must admit that I have a difficult time trying to envision a world like this, but it does begin to sound like a Utopia to some degree.

I believe this because I am a dreamer and generally the best way to describe my conscious perceptions would be to refer to it as a dream. This is not a new idea since many eastern philosophies describe a God or entity sitting on a lotus flower dreaming the world we experience on a day to day basis. The petals unfolding as the dream of life unfolds. My favorite description is of infinite entities nested within each other dreaming an infinite amount of dreamworlds like mathematical fractals or the geometric fractals folding in upon themselves during a psychedelic session. Dreams within dreams, within dreams. Each entity dreaming a dream within the infinite amount of dreams contained within the greater consciousness which is also a dream. Just thinking about this still makes my head spin.

So, I desire a world free from conflict and suffering. A world where everyone is cared for