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    Emily Climbs

    By L. M. Montgomery

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    "I love Emily."—Madeleine L'Engle

    Keeping a Promise Was Never So Difficult

    Emily Starr knows that she is destined to become a great writer. But she also knows that her life will be absolutely miserable if she can't attend school with her bosom friends. And the only way her strict Aunt Elizabeth will let her go to high school in Shrewsbury is if Emily surrenders her pen—for good.

    Emily almost convinces herself that she can survive without writing, especially when she catches the eye of Teddy Kent. But she can't stop herself from secretly recording all of her hilarious adventures and coming-of-age heartbreaks. When the local paper gets ahold of her writing and offers her an exciting opportunity, Emily will have to decide how much she's willing to sacrifice as she climbs towards her dreams.

    This new edition lovingly restores the original, unabridged text and includes an all-new, exclusive introduction with special memories from L.M. Montgomery's granddaughter.

    What Readers Are Saying:

    "A spunky, mysterious, and lightly romantic read."

    "There is much more to this book than anyone would expect—wonderful, complex characters and very subtle, sly underlying themes."

    "Five stars for being beautiful, inspiring, funny, and magical."

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherSourcebooks
    Release dateMay 6, 2014
    ISBN9781402289163
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    L. M. Montgomery

    Lucy Maude Montgomery (1874-1942) was born on Prince Edward Island, Canada, the setting for Anne of Green Gables. She left to attend college, but returned to Prince Edward Island to teach. In 1911, she married the Reverend Ewan MacDonald. Anne of Green Gables, the first in a series of "Anne" books by Montgomery, was published in 1908 to immediate success and continues to be a perennial favorite.

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    • 4/5
      Emily is now a young woman who desperately wants to go to high school in a nearby town.  All of her friends are going, and where else will she learn how to write? Finally her aunt agrees... she can go IF she won't write anymore. Can Emily do it? Will high school be worth it? And what other "scrapes" will she and Ilse get into in the process.A sweet, mostly gentle sequel to "Emily of New Moon."
    • 5/5
      One of the things I really like about this book is how Ms. Montgomery occasionally addresses the reader directly. It always tickles my fancy! I can't decide if it lends an air of authenticity to the idea that Emily is a real person, or if it emphasizes the fact that she is fiction. Either way, I like it. Emily discovers the value of discipline in this volume, as well as the loyalty of family. She is such a likeable character - not because she is perfect, but because of all her imperfections and her appealing personality.
    • 5/5
      I did some reflecting in my (review? Essay? Piece?) thing on Emily of New Moon about why I don't love Emily as much as Anne, why I haven't read the trilogy in many years when I won't let a year go by Anne-less. Emily Climbs clarifies the matter a bit more. There is a great deal more cynicism in Emily's world than in Anne's. I was astonished reading the first chapters at Emily's perceptiveness – and, like any perceptive person moving among the unimaginative and less incisive, she has, very young, developed an almost inevitable shell of jaded sarcasm. Mr. Carpenter doesn't call her "Jade" for nothing. I don't class myself with Emily (or Anne) in terms of intelligence or sensitivity, but still, I am of their ilk. Emily weeps over David Copperfield - oh, how I understand that. Aunt Ruth (not of the race that knows Joseph) upbraids her for the tears – crying over people who don't exist! And, with Emily, I protest that of course they exist. In a meta moment, Emily tells her they are as real as Aunt Ruth is – and so they are, of course. But Ruth is part of the force that demonstrates daily for Emily how flat most people's lives are – none of the terrible deep dark moments for them, but also none of the marvellous highs – nor even the small secret pleasures a combination of being able to see and being able to appreciate can bring. Aunt Elizabeth is Marilla without the sense of humor, and with a solid layer of scarring – from the accident with Jimmy to, probably, the fact that she is single in a time and place where spinsterhood is a wretched condition – to prevent most softer emotions … Aunt Laura has her moments, is loving and more willing and able to share it, but is prim and easily shocked. Uncle Jimmy is wonderful – but not comfortable, always; there is the occasional glimpse of what he might have been, of what was all but killed in him by the fall into the well, and you never quite know when it will make an appearance. Dr. Burnley has gone from bitter and cynical to … rather less bitter and cynical, and somewhat excessive. Aunt Ruth … Were I Emily, I think of the two conditions going to school in Shrewsbury, that I would lodge with Aunt Ruth and that I could not write any fiction for three years, the Aunt Ruth half would be worse. Fiction will still be there when it's over; the scars Aunt Ruth might leave will linger forever. Writing fiction is a passion which would not die in three years; living with Aunt Ruth would be torment. And so it was. The idea of the wild, dark vein that exists here but not in most of the rest of L.M.M.'s work intensified as it went on. Emily has a mean streak – not very big, and not well-developed, but expressed now and then in sarcasm and cutting remarks which send people off bleeding and vowing never to mess with her again. And she has an understanding for darkness; she hears goblins as well as wind spirits, and the thought is inescapable that she could have easily gone either way. Had she been raised by Uncle Wallace … I can see her at the age she is ending the trilogy, with a career as a viciously funny writer, slashing more tender folk to shreds and making millions doing it, but treasuring more the string of scalps at her belt than all the money. I think I was too young to get hold of all of this the last time I read Emily, and so these three books were not as enjoyable as the sweet and lovely place that is Anne's Avonlea. Anne has her moments – but compare her handling of Josie Pye to Emily's dealings with the evil Evelyn Blake. Anne wins by taking the high road, and Josie Pye, Pye-like, would never recognize her victory; Emily routs Evelyn foot and horse and leaves her bleeding in the dust. I loved this tale of the teenaged girl beginning to make a mark for herself. The tangled webs, to reference another LMM work, are beginning to tighten, but they aren't too heavy yet; the future is still completely unwritten, or seemingly so, and hope is high. There is a savor of the time and place, not so very long ago or very far away except in everything that matters; good companionship; wonderful writing; pathos in its best sense and moments that made me laugh aloud. Middle books are often maligned and disregarded things, but this is by far my favorite of the three. I'll never again be able to leave Emily out my list of the Montgomery girls I love.
    • 5/5
      While not as endearing as its predessesor, Emily Climbs is nonetheless a delightful installment in the Emily series. In this novel, Emily embarks on the begining of her pursuit of her education and of writing. Her friendships develop and deepen, with one or two taking on entirely new under and overtones. A bit darker by nature than Montgomery's most famous PEI orphan heroine, Anne Shirley, Emily is a contrast in sardonic humour and girlish ideals in a book that paints a sweet, if idealized, picture of Canada just after the turn of the century.
    • 5/5
      This is my favorite of the Emily novels. She not a child anymore; but she hasn't the romance problems of when she's older. Emily gets locked int he church with mad Mr. Morrison and Teddy comes to save her. Emily boards with her Aunt Ruth while in high school. I can't imagine having to live with stuffy Aunt Ruth. Then Emily discovers a lost boy, and who could forget The Woman who Spanked the King? This is a must read for all Anne of Green Gables fans.
    • 5/5
      This is my favorite of the Emily novels. She not a child anymore; but she hasn't the romance problems of when she's older. Emily gets locked int he church with mad Mr. Morrison and Teddy comes to save her. Emily boards with her Aunt Ruth while in high school. I can't imagine having to live with stuffy Aunt Ruth. Then Emily discovers a lost boy, and who could forget The Woman who Spanked the King? This is a must read for all Anne of Green Gables fans.
    • 4/5
      As the middle book of a trilogy, my experience tells me that Emily Climbs should suffer some from too much exposition and not enough "action." This is not the case with this book. Emily Climbs is almost a book unto itself, able to stand alone as well as be enjoyed in the context of the other two novels in the series. The story is enjoyable because of how Emily grows and changes through the story as well as how she reacts and interacts with different characters than in Emily of New Moon. I am a fervent and unabashed lover of Emily.
    • 5/5
      This enchanting bildungsroman book gives the reader view into a young girls life. Set on the beautiful Prince Edward Island, this story is an account of the writer Emily. Emily meets many trails and faces them all dauntlessly with charm, wit and a good dose of Murray pride. All should at least read it, and all kindred writer spirits will love it forever more.
    • 5/5
      The second, and I believe the best, in L.M. Montgomery's Emily trilogy, it follows Emily's social life and writing life in her teen years. As in most of Montgomery's books, it's the little things that make this one enjoyable - a line here and there at which it is easy to smile.
    • 5/5
      The second installment of the Emily series doesn't disappoint in the least. It's tone is different from the first in just the right ways and Emily is, as always, Emily. I love this book. I can't read it enough. I've read it so often that my copy has split down the middle.

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    Emily Climbs - L. M. Montgomery

    Copyright © 2011 Heirs of L. M. Montgomery Inc.

    Introduction copyright © 2014 by Kate Macdonald Butler

    Cover and internal design © 2014 by Sourcebooks, Inc.

    Cover design by The Book Designers

    Cover illustration by Jacqui Oakley, jacquioakley.com

    L. M. Montgomery is a trademark of Heirs of L. M. Montgomery Inc.

    Sourcebooks and the colophon are registered trademarks of Sourcebooks, Inc.

    All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means including information storage and retrieval systems—except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles or reviews—without permission in writing from its publisher, Sourcebooks, Inc.

    The characters and events portrayed in this book are fictitious or are used fictitiously. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental and not intended by the author.

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    Original copyright © 1925 Frederick A. Stokes Company (USA)

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    Contents

    Front Cover

    Title Page

    Copyright

    Introduction

    Chapter 1: Writing Herself Out

    Chapter 2: Salad Days

    Chapter 3: In the Watches of the Night

    Chapter 4: As Ithers See Us

    Chapter 5: Half a Loaf

    Chapter 6: Shrewsbury Beginnings

    Chapter 7: Pot-Pourri

    Chapter 8: Not Proven

    Chapter 9: A Supreme Moment

    Chapter 10: The Madness of an Hour

    Chapter 11: Heights and Hollows

    Chapter 12: At the Sign of the Haystack

    Chapter 13: Haven

    Chapter 14: The Woman Who Spanked the King

    Chapter 15: The Thing That Couldn’t

    Chapter 16: Driftwood

    Chapter 17: If a Body Kiss a Body

    Chapter 18: Circumstantial Evidence

    Chapter 19: Airy Voices

    Chapter 20: In the Old John House

    Chapter 21: Thicker Than Water

    Chapter 22: Love Me, Love My Dog

    Chapter 23: An Open Door

    Chapter 24: A Valley of Vision

    Chapter 25: April Love

    About the Author

    Back Cover

    To Pastor Felix, in affectionate appreciation

    Introduction

    I was delighted to be asked to write an introduction to the new Sourcebooks edition of the Emily Trilogy—Emily of New Moon, Emily Climbs, and Emily’s Quest, written by my grandmother L. M. Montgomery. The Emily books were a departure for L. M. Montgomery after penning the phenomenally successful Anne of Green Gables novel and its sequels. Both series feature sensitive and eloquent heroines, but Emily Byrd Starr is a more serious heroine than Anne Shirley, and her contemplative, introspective nature is a contrast to Anne’s impetuous and more high-spirited personality.

    The Emily books were the personal favorite of my father, Stuart, of all his mother’s novels, and L. M. Montgomery’s favorite creation was Emily Byrd Starr. She has been quoted as saying, People were never right in saying I was Anne, but in some respects, they will be right if they write me down as Emily.

    Both L. M. Montgomery and Emily Byrd Starr were voracious letter writers and journal keepers with driven and creative natures. Both had to overcome isolation and loneliness and the loss of their mothers, and both developed strong and independent voices as their writing matured. In a letter responding to a devoted fan of Emily of New Moon, my grandmother wrote, I’m glad you like Emily, because she is my own favorite. She is purely a creature of my imagination but a good deal of my own inner life in childhood and girlhood went into her.

    L. M. Montgomery wrote Emily of New Moon, Emily Climbs, and most of Emily’s Quest while she was living in Leaskdale, Ontario, where my grandfather, the Reverend Ewan Macdonald, was the Presbyterian Minister from 1911 to 1926. Leaskdale was a prosperous farming community north of Toronto, and I can only imagine how busy my grandmother’s life must have been as the mother of two lively young sons—my father Stuart and his older brother Chester—and as an active minister’s wife living in the Manse. She was a reliable and engaged member of the Leaskdale village life, well known for her hostessing, cooking, embroidery, photography, and gardening skills. During the years in Leaskdale that she wrote the Emily books (and eight other novels), she was also the first Canadian woman to become a Fellow of the Royal Society of Arts and Letters of England, she was a member of the Canadian Authors’ Association, and the Canadian Women’s Press Club.

    Additionally, it was during these years in Leaskdale that my grandfather suffered from mental health issues, and she was likely preoccupied with putting forward a good face for the parishioners in order to maintain their stable reputation within the community.

    Emily Byrd Starr is a determined, intelligent, and creative soul and I am sure that the imagined kindred spirit of Emily’s friendship was of great comfort to my grandmother in her daily writing and a welcome break from the ongoing stresses of her real life. I recall my father telling me that, as a little boy in Leaskdale, he was not allowed to disturb his mother when she was doing her daily writing. He remembers slipping little notes and flowers cut from their garden under the crack of her study door to get her attention.

    So many of the adults in the Emily books are troubled, narrow-minded, and unkind, although some ultimately do have vulnerable and surprisingly compassionate sides to their personalities. The Emily books are full of longing, mystery, lush descriptions of landscape, humor, heartbreak and sadness and I understand why my grandmother acknowledged that they will be right if they write me down as Emily.

    It is my sincere hope that a new generation of readers will be inspired and moved by these new editions of Emily of New Moon, Emily Climbs, and Emily’s Quest, written by one of the world’s most beloved writers, my grandmother, L. M. Montgomery.

    Kate Macdonald Butler

    Daughter of the late Dr. Stuart Macdonald

    May 2013

    CHAPTER 1

    Writing Herself Out

    Emily Byrd Starr was alone in her room, in the old New Moon farmhouse at Blair Water, one stormy night in a February of the olden years before the world turned upside down. She was at that moment as perfectly happy as any human being is ever permitted to be. Aunt Elizabeth, in consideration of the coldness of the night, had allowed her to have a fire in her little fireplace—a rare favor. It was burning brightly and showering a red-golden light over the small, immaculate room, with its old-time furniture and deep-set, wide-silled windows, to whose frosted, blue-white panes the snowflakes clung in little wreaths. It lent depth and mystery and allure to the mirror on the wall which reflected Emily as she sat coiled on the ottoman before the fire, writing, by the light of two tall, white candles—which were the only approved means of illumination at New Moon—in a brand-new, glossy, black Jimmy-book which Cousin Jimmy had given her that day. Emily had been very glad to get it, for she had filled the one he had given her the preceding autumn, and for over a week she had suffered acute pangs of suppression because she could not write in a non-existent diary.

    Her diary had become a dominant factor in her young, vivid life. It had taken the place of certain letters she had written in her childhood to her dead father, in which she had been wont to write out her problems and worries—for even in the magic years when one is almost fourteen one has problems and worries, especially when one is under the strict and well-meant but not over-tender governance of an Aunt Elizabeth Murray. Sometimes Emily felt that if it were not for her diary she would have flown into little bits by reason of consuming her own smoke. The fat, black Jimmy-book seemed to her like a personal friend and a safe confidant for certain matters which burned for expression and yet were too combustible to be trusted to the ears of any living being. Now blank books of any sort were not easy to come by at New Moon, and if it had not been for Cousin Jimmy, Emily might never have had one. Certainly Aunt Elizabeth would not give her one—Aunt Elizabeth thought Emily wasted far too much time over her scribbling nonsense as it was—and Aunt Laura did not dare to go contrary to Aunt Elizabeth in this—more by token that Laura herself really thought Emily might be better employed. Aunt Laura was a jewel of a woman, but certain things were holden from her eyes.

    Now Cousin Jimmy was never in the least frightened of Aunt Elizabeth, and when the notion occurred to him that Emily probably wanted another blank book, that blank book materialized straightway, in defiance of Aunt Elizabeth’s scornful glances. He had gone to Shrewsbury that very day, in the teeth of the rising storm, for no other reason than to get it. So Emily was happy, in her subtle and friendly firelight, while the wind howled and shrieked through the great old trees to the north of New Moon, sent huge, spectral wreaths of snow whirling across Cousin Jimmy’s famous garden, drifted the sundial completely over, and whistled eerily through the Three Princesses—as Emily always called the three tall Lombardies in the corner of the garden.

    ***

    From the Diary of Emily Byrd Starr

    I love a storm like this at night when I don’t have to go out in it,

    (wrote Emily).

    Cousin Jimmy and I had a splendid evening planning out our garden and choosing our seeds and plants in the catalog. Just where the biggest drift is making, behind the summer-house, we are going to have a bed of pink asters, and we are going to give the Golden Ones—who are dreaming under four feet of snow—a background of flowering almond. I love to plan out summer days like this, in the midst of a storm. It makes me feel as if I were winning a victory over something ever so much bigger than myself, just because I have a brain and the storm is nothing but blind, white force—terrible, but blind. I have the same feeling when I sit here cozily by my own dear fire, and hear it raging all around me, and laugh at it. And that is just because over a hundred years ago great-great-grandfather Murray built this house and built it well. I wonder if, a hundred years from now, anybody will win a victory over anything because of something I left or did. It is an inspiring thought.

    I drew that line of italics before I thought. Mr. Carpenter says I use far too many italics. He says it is an Early Victorian obsession, and I must strive to cast it off. I concluded I would when I looked in the dictionary, for it is evidently not a nice thing to be obsessed, though it doesn’t seem quite so bad as to be possessed. There I go again: but I think the italics are all right this time.

    I read the dictionary for a whole hour—till Aunt Elizabeth got suspicious and suggested that it would be much better for me to be knitting my ribbed stockings. She couldn’t see exactly why it was wrong for me to be poring over the dictionary but she felt sure it must be because she never wants to do it. I love reading the dictionary. (Yes, those italics are necessary, Mr. Carpenter. An ordinary love wouldn’t express my feeling at all!) Words are such fascinating things. (I caught myself at the first syllable that time!) The very sound of some of them—haunted—mystic—for example, gives me the flash. (Oh, dear! But I have to italicize the flash. It isn’t ordinary—it’s the most extraordinary and wonderful thing in my whole life. When it comes I feel as if a door had swung open in a wall before me and given me a glimpse of—yes, of heaven. More italics! Oh, I see why Mr. Carpenter scolds! I must break myself of the habit.)

    Big words are never beautiful—incriminating—obstreperous—international—unconstitutional. They make me think of those horrible big dahlias and chrysanthemums Cousin Jimmy took me to see at the exhibition in Charlottetown last fall. We couldn’t see anything lovely in them, though some people thought them wonderful. Cousin Jimmy’s little yellow ’mums, like pale, fairy-like stars shining against the fir copse in the northwest corner of the garden, were ten times more beautiful. But I am wandering from my subject—also a bad habit of mine, according to Mr. Carpenter. He says I must (the italics are his this time!) learn to concentrate—another big word and a very ugly one.

    But I had a good time over that dictionary—much better than I had over the ribbed stockings. I wish I could have a pair—just one pair—of silk stockings. Ilse has three. Her father gives her everything she wants, now that he has learned to love her. But Aunt Elizabeth says silk stockings are immoral. I wonder why—any more than silk dresses.

    Speaking of silk dresses, Aunt Janey Milburn, at Derry Pond—she isn’t any relation really, but everybody calls her that—has made a vow that she will never wear a silk dress until the whole heathen world is converted to Christianity. That is very fine. I wish I could be as good as that, but I couldn’t—I love silk too much. It is so rich and sheeny. I would like to dress in it all the time, and if I could afford to I would—though I suppose every time I thought of dear old Aunt Janey and the unconverted heathen I would feel conscience-stricken. However, it will be years, if ever, before I can afford to buy even one silk dress, and meanwhile I give some of my egg money every month to missions. (I have five hens of my own now, all descended from the gray pullet Perry gave me on my twelfth birthday.) If ever I can buy that one silk dress I know what it is going to be like. Not black or brown or navy blue—sensible, serviceable colors, such as New Moon Murrays always wear—oh, dear, no! It is to be of shot silk, blue in one light, silver in others, like a twilight sky, glimpsed through a frosted window pane—with a bit of lace-foam here and there, like those little feathers of snow clinging to my windowpane. Teddy says he will paint me in it and call it The Ice Maiden, and Aunt Laura smiles and says, sweetly and condescendingly, in a way I hate, even in dear Aunt Laura,

    What use would such a dress be to you, Emily?

    It mightn’t be of any use, but I would feel in it as if it were a part of me—that it grew on me and wasn’t just bought and put on. I want one dress like that in my lifetime. And a silk petticoat underneath it—and silk stockings!

    Ilse has a silk dress now—a bright pink one. Aunt Elizabeth says Dr. Burnley dresses Ilse far too old and rich for a child. But he wants to make up for all the years he didn’t dress her at all. (I don’t mean she went naked, but she might have as far as Dr. Burnley was concerned. Other people had to see to her clothes.) He does everything she wants him to do now, and gives her her own way in everything. Aunt Elizabeth says it is very bad for her, but there are times when I envy Ilse a little. I know it is wicked, but I cannot help it.

    Dr. Burnley is going to send Ilse to Shrewsbury High School next fall, and after that to Montreal to study elocution. That is why I envy her—not because of the silk dress. I wish Aunt Elizabeth would let me go to Shrewsbury, but I fear she never will. She feels she can’t trust me out of her sight because my mother eloped. But she need not be afraid I will ever elope. I have made up my mind that I will never marry. I shall be wedded to my art.

    Teddy wants to go to Shrewsbury next fall, but his mother won’t let him go, either. Not that she is afraid of his eloping, but because she loves him so much she can’t part with him. Teddy wants to be an artist, and Mr. Carpenter says he has genius and should have his chance, but everybody is afraid to say anything to Mrs. Kent. She is a little bit of a woman—no taller than I am, really, quiet and shy—and yet everyone is afraid of her. I am—dreadfully afraid. I’ve always known she didn’t like me—ever since those days long ago when Ilse and I first went up to the Tansy Patch, to play with Teddy. But now she hates me—I feel sure of it—just because Teddy likes me. She can’t bear to have him like anybody or anything but her. She is even jealous of his pictures. So there is not much chance of his getting to Shrewsbury. Perry is going. He hasn’t a cent, but he is going to work his way through. That is why he thinks he will go to Shrewsbury in place of Queen’s Academy. He thinks it will be easier to get work to do in Shrewsbury, and board is cheaper there.

    My old beast of an Aunt Tom has a little money, he told me, but she won’t give me any of it—unless—unless—

    Then he looked at me significantly.

    I blushed because I couldn’t help it, and then I was furious with myself for blushing, and with Perry—because he referred to something I didn’t want to hear about—that time ever so long ago when his Aunt Tom met me in Lofty John’s bush and nearly frightened me to death by demanding that I promise to marry Perry when we grew up, in which case she would educate him. I never told anybody about it—being ashamed—except Ilse, and she said,

    The idea of old Aunt Tom aspiring to a Murray for Perry!

    But then, Ilse is awfully hard on Perry and quarrels with him half the time, over things I only smile at. Perry never likes to be outdone by anyone in anything. When we were at Amy Moore’s party last week, her uncle told us a story of some remarkable freak calf he had seen, with three legs, and Perry said,

    "Oh, that’s nothing to a duck I saw once in Norway."

    (Perry really was in Norway. He used to sail everywhere with his father when he was little. But I don’t believe one word about that duck. He wasn’t lying—he was just romancing. Dear Mr. Carpenter, I can’t get along without italics.)

    Perry’s duck had four legs, according to him—two where a proper duck’s legs should be, and two sprouting from its back. And when it got tired of walking on its ordinary pair it flopped over on its back and walked on the other pair!

    Perry told this yarn with a sober face, and everybody laughed, and Amy’s uncle said, Go up head, Perry. But Ilse was furious and wouldn’t speak to him all the way home. She said he had made a fool of himself, trying to show off with a silly story like that, and that no gentleman would act so.

    Perry said: "I’m no gentleman, yet, only a hired boy, but some day, Miss Ilse, I’ll be a finer gentleman than any one you know."

    Gentlemen, said Ilse in a nasty voice, "have to be born. They can’t be made, you know."

    Ilse has almost given up calling names, as she used to do when she quarreled with Perry or me, and taken to saying cruel, cutting things. They hurt far worse than the names used to, but I don’t really mind them—much—or long—because I know Ilse doesn’t mean them and really loves me as much as I love her. But Perry says they stick in his crop. They didn’t speak to each other the rest of the way home, but next day Ilse was at him again about using bad grammar and not standing up when a lady enters the room.

    "Of course you couldn’t be expected to know that, she said in her nastiest voice, but I am sure Mr. Carpenter has done his best to teach you grammar."

    Perry didn’t say one word to Ilse, but he turned to me.

    "Will you tell me my faults? he said. I don’t mind you doing it—it will be you that will have to put up with me when we’re grown up, not Ilse."

    He said that to make Ilse angry, but it made me angrier still, for it was an allusion to a forbidden topic. So we neither of us spoke to him for two days and he said it was a good rest from Ilse’s slams anyway.

    Perry is not the only one who gets into disgrace at New Moon. I said something silly yesterday evening which makes me blush to recall it. The Ladies’ Aid met here and Aunt Elizabeth gave them a supper and the husbands of the Aid came to it. Ilse and I waited on the table, which was set in the kitchen because the dining-room table wasn’t long enough. It was exciting at first and then, when everyone was served, it was a little dull and I began to compose some poetry in my mind as I stood by the window looking out on the garden. It was so interesting that I soon forgot everything else until suddenly I heard Aunt Elizabeth say, Emily, very sharply, and then she looked significantly at Mr. Johnson, our new minister. I was confused and I snatched up the teapot and exclaimed,

    "Oh, Mr. Cup, will you have your Johnson filled?"

    Everybody roared and Aunt Elizabeth looked disgusted and Aunt Laura ashamed, and I felt as if I would sink through the floor. I couldn’t sleep half the night for thinking over it. The strange thing was that I do believe I felt worse and more ashamed than I would have felt if I had done something really wrong. This is the Murray pride of course, and I suppose it is very wicked. Sometimes I am afraid Aunt Ruth Dutton is right in her opinion of me after all.

    No, she isn’t!

    But it is a tradition of New Moon that its women should be equal to any situation and always be graceful and dignified. Now, there was nothing graceful or dignified in asking such a question of the new minister. I am sure he will never see me again without thinking of it and I will always writhe when I catch his eye upon me.

    But now that I have written it out in my diary I don’t feel so badly over it. Nothing ever seems as big or as terrible—oh, nor as beautiful and grand, either, alas!—when it is written out, as it does when you are thinking or feeling about it. It seems to shrink directly you put it into words. Even the line of poetry I had made just before I asked that absurd question won’t seem half as fine when I write it down:

    Where the velvet feet of darkness softly go.

    It doesn’t. Some bloom seems gone from it. And yet, while I was standing there, behind all those chattering, eating people, and saw darkness stealing so softly over the garden and the hills, like a beautiful woman robed in shadows, with stars for eyes, the flash came and I forgot everything but that I wanted to put something of the beauty I felt into the words of my poem. When that line came into my mind it didn’t seem to me that I composed it at all—it seemed as if Something Else were trying to speak through me—and it was that Something Else that made the line seem wonderful—and now when it is gone the words seem flat and foolish and the picture I tried to draw in them not so wonderful after all.

    Oh, if I could only put things into words as I see them! Mr. Carpenter says, Strive—strive—keep on—words are your medium—make them your slaves—until they will say for you what you want them to say. That is true—and I do try—but it seems to me there is something beyond words—any words—all words—something that always escapes you when you try to grasp it—and yet leaves something in your hand which you wouldn’t have had if you hadn’t reached for it.

    I remember one day last fall when Dean and I walked over the Delectable Mountain to the woods beyond it—fir woods mostly, but with one corner of splendid old pines. We sat under them and Dean read Peveril of the Peak and some of Scott’s poems to me; and then he looked up into the big, plumy boughs and said,

    The gods are talking in the pines—gods of the old northland—of the viking sagas. Star, do you know Emerson’s lines?

    And then he quoted them—I’ve remembered and loved them ever since.

    "The gods talk in the breath of the wold,

    They talk in the shaken pine,

    And they fill the reach of the old seashore

    With dialogue divine;

    And the poet who overhears

    One random word they say

    Is the fated man of men

    Whom the ages must obey."

    Oh, that random word—that is the Something that escapes me. I’m always listening for it—I know I can never hear it—my ear isn’t attuned to it—but I am sure I hear at times a little, faint, far-off echo of it—and it makes me feel a delight that is like pain and a despair of ever being able to translate its beauty into any words I know.

    Still, it is a pity I made such a goose of myself immediately after that wonderful experience.

    If I had just floated up behind Mr. Johnson, as velvet-footedly as darkness herself, and poured his tea gracefully from Great-grandmother Murray’s silver teapot, like my shadow-woman pouring night into the white cup of Blair Valley, Aunt Elizabeth would be far better pleased with me than if I could write the most wonderful poem in the world.

    Cousin Jimmy is so different. I recited my poem to him this evening after we had finished with the catalog and he thought it was beautiful. (He couldn’t know how far it fell short of what I had seen in my mind.) Cousin Jimmy composes poetry himself. He is very clever in spots. And in other spots, where his brain was hurt when Aunt Elizabeth pushed him into our New Moon well, he isn’t anything. There’s just blankness there. So people call him simple, and Aunt Ruth dares to say he hasn’t sense enough to shoo a cat from cream. And yet if you put all his clever spots together there isn’t anybody in Blair Water has half as much real cleverness as he has—not even Mr. Carpenter. The trouble is you can’t put his clever spots together—there are always those gaps between. But I love Cousin Jimmy and I’m never in the least afraid of him when his queer spells come on him. Everybody else is—even Aunt Elizabeth, though perhaps it is remorse with her, instead of fear—except Perry. Perry always brags that he is never afraid of anything—doesn’t know what fear is. I think that is very wonderful. I wish I could be so fearless. Mr. Carpenter says fear is a vile thing, and is at the bottom of almost every wrong and hatred of the world.

    Cast it out, Jade, he says—cast it out of your heart. Fear is a confession of weakness. What you fear is stronger than you, or you think it is, else you wouldn’t be afraid of it. Remember your Emerson—‘always do what you are afraid to do.’

    But that is a counsel of perfection, as Dean says, and I don’t believe I’ll ever be able to attain to it. To be honest, I am afraid of a good many things, but there are only two people in the word I’m truly afraid of. One is Mrs. Kent, and the other is Mad Mr. Morrison. I’m terribly afraid of him and I think almost everyone is. His home is in Derry Pond, but he hardly ever stays there—he roams over the country looking for his lost bride. He was married only a few weeks when his young wife died, many years ago, and he has never been right in his mind since. He insists she is not dead, only lost, and that he will find her some time. He has grown old and bent, looking for her, but to him she is still young and fair.

    He was here one day last summer, but would not come in—just peered into the kitchen wistfully and said, Is Annie here? He was quite gentle that day, but sometimes he is very wild and violent. He declares he always hears Annie calling to him—that her voice flits on before him—always before him, like my random word. His face is wrinkled and shriveled and he looks like an old, old monkey. But the thing I hate most about him is his right hand—it is a deep blood-red all over—birth-marked. I can’t tell why, but that hand fills me with horror. I could not bear to touch it. And sometimes he laughs to himself very horribly. The only living thing he seems to care for is his old black dog that always is with him. They say he will never ask for a bite of food for himself. If people do not offer it to him he goes hungry, but he will beg for his dog.

    Oh, I am terribly afraid of him, and I was so glad he didn’t come into the house that day Aunt Elizabeth looked after him, as he went away with his long, gray hair streaming in the wind, and said,

    Fairfax Morrison was once a fine, clever, young man, with excellent prospects. Well, God’s ways are very mysterious.

    That is why they are interesting, I said.

    But Aunt Elizabeth frowned and told me not to be irreverent, as she always does when I say anything about God. I wonder why. She won’t let Perry and me talk about Him, either, though Perry is really very much interested in Him and wants to find out all about Him. Aunt Elizabeth overheard me telling Perry one Sunday afternoon what I thought God was like, and she said it was scandalous.

    It wasn’t! The trouble is, Aunt Elizabeth and I have different Gods, that is all. Everybody has a different God, I think. Aunt Ruth’s, for instance, is one that punishes her enemies—sends judgments on them. That seems to me to be about all the use He really is to her. Jim Cosgrain uses his to swear by. But Aunt Janey Milburn walks in the light of her God’s countenance, every day, and shines with it.

    I have written myself out for tonight, and am going to bed. I know I have wasted words in this diary—another of my literary faults, according to Mr. Carpenter.

    "You waste words, Jade—you spill them about too lavishly. Economy and restraint—that’s what you

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