Sex and the City Uncovered: Exposing the Emptiness and Healing the Hurt
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Sex and the City, the popular television series and motion picture franchise, glorifies the lifestyles of four fashionable New York women who hang out in bars and talk bluntly about their broad range of sexual experiences.
The awards lavished upon the show would imply it holds some redeeming value. However, despite claims that Sex and the City is ultimately about the longing for a committed relationship, the glamorization of casual sex and always looking fabulous can take a toll on impressionable young women.
Just ask Marian Jordan. In Sex and the City Uncovered she admits, "A painful existence of ‘looking for love in all the wrong places’ is hidden behind images of couture fashion, witty dialogue, and beautiful people. I know this to be true because I’ve lived it."
A former party girl with her own stories of hookups, hangovers, and heartbreak, Marian now speaks about the unfailing love she has found in Jesus and helps struggling women fill their hearts with this same joy.
Marian Jordan
Marian Jordan is the founder of Redeemed Girl Ministries, showing girls of all ages how to apply God's truth and promises to their individual circumstances. The author of Sex and the City Uncovered and Wilderness Skills for Women, she lives in Houston and recently completed her master's degree at Southwestern Seminary.
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Sex and the City Uncovered - Marian Jordan
LOVE.
INTRODUCTION
LABELS AND LOVE
Carrie Bradshaw’s now famous opening line of the movie Sex and the City said it best, Every year, twenty-something women come to New York searching for the two Ls: Labels and Love.
As I sat in the theatre—the same day that millions of women around the globe flocked to theatres for the long awaited movie release—I thought to myself, That is sooooo true!
* Although I’m pretty sure the screenwriter had no intention of writing a profound statement about the state of women’s souls, regardless of his intention, he nailed it. Young women today are indeed on a search, at times a desperate search, for labels and love. Trust me, I know from personal experience.
Forget about Dior, Chanel, or Prada, women are anxiously pursuing a bigger label than any of these names, one that defines them, tells them who they are, and what they are worth. This label is not found on the latest must-have handbag or pair of designer jeans, the label that women are really searching for is one that covers their hearts and reads Lovable,
Treasured,
and Adored.
And let’s be honest, women are flat-out looking for a love . . . one that makes them feel whole, accepted, and complete. This quest for love transcends dating relationships, friendships, and even marriage, because even when all of these are present, there is still an ache, emptiness, and a hole in the soul that isn’t filled. So, the search continues . . .
The book you are holding, Sex and the City Uncovered, Updated Edition, is all about this search. The search each one of us makes for labels and love
and uncovers the solution to our quest by pointing us to a life defined by and filled by the love of God in Jesus Christ.
Since Sex and the City Uncovered was first published in 2007, I have spoken to thousands of young women across the nation at Redeemed Girl Ministries’ Girls’ Night Out events. At these events I tell my story of looking for love in all the wrong places,
and how I, too, bought into the allure of the Sex and the City lifestyle, only to find more heartbreak, shame, and emptiness as a result.
It never fails, following each talk I meet with young women, whose eyes are filled with tears, and listen as they tell me, Marian, your story is my story.
Sadly, until that moment, most of them thought they were alone in their pain. They go on to describe their regrets, their heartbreaks, and their desire for a fresh start. Each of these beautiful young women is confused, hurting, and ready for God’s love to fill the emptiness in her heart.
Here’s the deal: these girls are confused because the messages they’ve heard from media about what defines them and where they should find love has left them with emotional baggage and physical consequences they were not expecting. Life didn’t have the happy Hollywood ending. They are hurting because they are looking for love and acceptance in all the ways the world tells them to pursue it, and yet they still haven’t found what they are looking for. I can so relate to their turmoil and, therefore, I have no greater joy in life than introducing women to Jesus—the One who alone defines them and can fill their empty hearts.
Honestly, I had no clue what God had planned when He called me to share my experiences and write Sex and the City Uncovered. I didn’t know that He would so beautifully redeem my story of looking for love in all the wrong places
so that other women could discover God’s unfailing love.
This book was originally dedicated to every girl who is looking for love,
and it still is today. It is my sincere prayer that God would use this book to reach millions of young women with His love and grace and that they would discover the true label and love
for which their hearts search.
For His Glory,
Marian
* Disclaimer: I am NOT recommending that women watch the Sex and the City movies. The content in not appropriate. I watched for the purpose of media interviews and so I could address the issues discussed in them with young women. I had to cover both my eyes and ears during many scenes.
CHAPTER ONE
THE SEX AND THE CITY LIFE
I still haven’t found what I’m looking for.
BONO OF U2
I knew he was trouble the moment I saw him. Big trouble. We first met standing in line at a bar in our college town. I’m sure I had a fake ID and was rehearsing my speech for the bouncer when I spotted him in the crowd of hammered college students. He oozed unattainable. I-had-to-have-him!
Young and dizzy with independence, I was nineteen years old the fall semester of my freshman year. Some say the freshman year is a rite of passage: 8:00 a.m. classes, keg parties, sorority rush, and potluck roommate debacles—simply a cesspool of bad choices. What’s funny to me now is that I thought I was so mature; I guess my newfound freedom went to my head like an ICEE headache on a hot summer day.
Girls, I’m not gonna lie—he was hot. I can just see him now, wearing khakis, a polo, and a devilish grin. He made my knees weak when our eyes met. I was sold. After a few weeks of flirting at fraternity parties over stale beer and Jell-O shots, we progressed to a real
relationship—at least as close as you ever get in college. Yes, ladies, we were officially hanging out.
But in the land of undecided majors and even more uncertain futures, I had no certainty that he was going to be around for very long.
I’ll give it to you straight: I really wanted this guy to like me. No, I take that back; it was more than that. I wanted it all. I wanted him to l-o-v-e me—the kind of love that banishes insecurities and makes a girl feel . . . adored. Not that I was looking for my M.R.S. degree, but I was for sure looking for the security that comes from being a couple. So, I needed to do something, and I needed to act quickly. It’s not as if I was the only new girl on campus. Either trash-can punch or hormones kill brain cells because I thought that going with him back to his place late one night was the answer. Boy, was I wrong.
Frankly, it was nothing like the movies. It wasn’t fun or romantic; actually, it was quite awkward. But in my naïve young mind I truly believed I would find what I was looking for in this guy’s dorm room. What was it that I was looking for? Reflecting on it, I honestly think I believed he would love me if I finally gave in. I know it is so cliché, a girl having sex in hopes of finding love. I did and he didn’t. The relationship didn’t even last as long as football season; and the truth of the matter is, I didn’t find what I was looking for that night in his dorm room. Instead, I found a doorway into a lifestyle that would bring me tears, regrets, and emptiness. Like Bono, I still hadn’t found what I was looking for.
My story isn’t all too different from other girls my age. I grew up singing Madonna’s lyrics and taking my dating cues from Saved by the Bell and 90210. As a young girl I had ideals of purity and desired to wait until marriage to have sex. But something happened. Was it temptation, a desire for acceptance, or simply the need to feel loved? Or perhaps I was more influenced by my culture than I realized. Whatever the case may be, I left the moral upbringing of my childhood and plunged into a world that said, Just do it.
More than a decade has passed since that night but in many ways a lifetime. While unremarkable in some respects, that night was a defining moment for the rest of my story. The consequences of that decision shaped and formed the girl I would become for the next few years.
As a result of that decision, I quickly immersed myself into the college party scene. My thinking led me to believe that I might as well go wild
because it was too late for me to be a good girl
now. Partly due to shame and a good measure of insecurity, I lost much of my self-worth. I felt so stupid. Even worse, I felt used. But everything around me said my choice was normal. So I assumed I was the one with the problem—the only one who felt ashamed, empty, and hurt.
The lifestyle was a vicious cycle. I needed to drink in order to lose my inhibitions, and then I had to drink some more in order to numb my pain.
This lifestyle, which the world around me cheered, was disappointing. Not wanting to be labeled the prude or uncool, I continued to live it up. In the campus party scene, hooking up
with guys and drinking until dawn were normal. No one questioned this behavior. No one really considered the consequences or thought about the future. All that mattered was enjoying the buzz and meeting hot guys.
I was in the thick of it.
If you had looked at me, it would have seemed I was having a blast. I danced hard and laughed loud. And when it was time for the bars to close, I was the one looking for the after party.
But in reality, I was using alcohol and parties to mask the deep insecurity I felt. The lifestyle was a vicious cycle. I needed to drink in order to lose my inhibitions, and then I had to drink some more in order to numb my pain.
Graduating from college didn’t change my lifestyle all that much. In fact, my partying only intensified once I could get more than twenty dollars out of the ATM. My girlfriends and I were in the corporate world now. And in case you don’t know, the two most important words in business aren’t debit and credit. They are, in fact, happy and hour. I learned the power of these two words oh so quickly. Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, we actually had to work. Drag. But Thursday and Friday, now that was a different story. These two days are set aside on the young business professional’s calendar as sacred. Gone are the days of flirting with guys at fraternity mixers. Flirting is now called networking
and is done over rounds of mixed drinks.
As my partying accelerated, the fuel light on my soul began to blink a bright orange.
At some point in this journey, I convinced myself I was having a good time. Whenever my emptiness surfaced or the shame of my choices weighed down on me, I turned up the music, poured another glass, and tried to drown out the voice inside that whispered, I still haven’t found what I’m looking for.
As my partying accelerated, the fuel light on my soul began to blink a bright orange. Feeling like I was running on empty, and desperate to fill the tank, I cranked up the intake of boys and booze.
Sex and the City
Moving from my college town to a big city also brought a whole new world of opportunities
and a new set of role models. It was about this time that HBO released its soon-to-be-hit show Sex and the City. Today, thanks to syndication, these characters are household names: Carrie, Charlotte, Miranda, and Samantha. All over the city women began emulating the talk, walk, dress, and attitude portrayed on this show. We had sass. As independent single women, living by our own rules, we now had a show that spoke to the needs, wants, and questions of women.
But did it really?
Sex and the City became the show that defined life for modern single girls. It brought a whole new paradigm as to how women could live outside of the stereotypical roles of wives and mothers. For starters, Sex and the City taught us that women could be anything men could be. The characters fiercely defended women’s rights to have sex like a man.
If men, they would say, could have sex without strings, then so could women. In fact, viewers were also told that we didn’t need men. If you have a good group of girlfriends and a successful career, why would someone need a man?
These new role models also taught us that sex wasn’t sacred; it was simply a biological function. It was just sex.
Sex shouldn’t evoke feelings, and God forbid you be that girl who expected a commitment. Sex and the City also implied that only a silly girl still believed in marriage for a lifetime, and remaining faithful in a relationship was passé. Viewers were schooled in the fine art of seduction, which led me to believe that a woman’s power was in her sexuality. These are but a few of the lessons learned from watching the show Sex and the City, and this new worldview on singleness was thought to be the pinnacle of success for women.
Then why was I so miserable?
I looked into the empty martini glass I was holding and realized it was a great metaphor for my life.
Night after night of living this way, I finally woke up. Sitting on a bar stool in a trendy club in the city, I looked into the empty martini glass