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Copyright 2014 Joshua Medina

Published by Joshua Medina at Smashwords

ISBN 978-0-578-1-3948-7

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Unless otherwise indicated, all Scripture quotations are taken from the King James Version of the Bible.

Table of Contents

Introduction

Chapter One - Tested

Chapter Two - Broken

Chapter Three - Tempted

Chapter Four - My Vision From the Lord

Chapter Five - Greed

Chapter Six - Prove It

Chapter Seven - Faith

Chapter Eight - I’ll Fight for You

Chapter Nine - Bloody Hands

Chapter Ten - Angry with God

Chapter Eleven - Glorifying the Lord

Chapter Twelve - Being Judged

Chapter Thirteen - Laboring for the Lord

Chapter Fourteen - The Book: Saved From Hell

Chapter Fifteen - Publishing the Book

Chapter Sixteen - Calling A Lion

Chapter Seventeen - Falling Short

Chapter Eighteen - Dark Times

Chapter Nineteen - I Am What I Am

Chapter Twenty - Sermon

About the Author

Introduction

First I would like to thank my Lord Jesus Christ for this opportunity to give his name glory. I would like to open this testimony with a prayer. Father you in the midst of us, we ask that you provide the comforter to teach us and make us receptive for the testimony we are about to read. Implant it in our hearts and wrap it around our necks so that we carry this testimony for as many more day’s as you decide to bless us with in the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth we pray amen. This is the second part of my testimony from the book called Saved from Hell. I am going to show you many of my trials after becoming one with our Lord Jesus Christ. We will show you how difficult it is when you are walking 100%. After you are done with this book you will understand the difference between being a lukewarm Christian, I call them half-breed Christians because they have one foot in the world and one foot with God.

Revelations 3:15-16

"I know thy works that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot. So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth."

Chapter One

Tested

Well, I guess I’ll start from the beginning: Two weeks after the Lord called me to preach I got a job through a temp service making $5.15 an hour. They sent me to a glass company to help load trailer’s it wasn’t much, but I was very grateful since I hadn’t worked for two year’s. I was only there two days when my supervisor called me into the office and asked me Do you have a commercial driver license? I said, Yes then he said, One of my driver’s had an accident in San Antonio would you like to take over his route? I said, When do you want me to start? He then told me that he wanted to hire me on, but I was a temp. I told him that I could just quit the temp service, and he could hire me. He told me to go ahead and comeback at two o’clock, so I went home and got ready for the interview. When I got there my supervisor told me I’m sorry but I was told not to hire you. When he was explaining why, I began to pray, and I told our Lord, Give me strength you sent me here for a job my Lord now I’m claiming it, and I’m not going anywhere until I get my job that I came for. Then the general manager said, Is this him? My supervisor said, Yes. The manager said, Bring him in. I walked into his office, and he said, Take a seat. Then he picked up my application and began going through it. Then he asked me Why are you here? What makes you think that I’m going to hire you as one of my drivers! You wasted your time coming up here. Then he threw my application in the trash. At that moment, I heard a demon tell me get up you’re not getting the job just leave. I said to myself, No, this is my job I’m not leaving until I get my job. Then the manager began cursing at me telling me to leave that I was wasting his time, but I just sat there I didn’t say one word. Then he took my application out of the trash and said, I guess I’ll hire you, when can you start. Be- fore I continue this testimony, I would like you to know that the first-year and a half in my walk with the Lord I failed many trials. I want you to know that during this time I didn’t pray for the armor of God every day as I do today in my walk with our Lord Jesus Christ. I kept having to retake my tests or trials until I passed them and grew with our Lord Jesus Christ. A few days later when I was getting ready for work I felt different. It felt like something was missing. On my way to work it felt like, someone was watching me. On the way to my first stop, I began to hear demons talking to me. Telling me that I was not worthy, and I had not been forgiven for all my sins. They even asked me if I thought that God had forgotten the time I told him that he made a mistake! At that moment, I remembered when I was 17, and I was upset that day because I had ran out of weed and didn’t have any money to buy weed to make me numb of all my pain. So I began saying, God are you listening to me! Why did you let me wake up? You know I want to die! I have something to tell you so called perfect God! I want you to know that you have made a mistake so called perfect God! So then I went outside to make sure he could hear me and looked up into the dark gray and cloudy sky. That is when I screamed as loud as possible with all the anger and hate you can imagine and said, So-called perfect God I want you to know that you made a mistake when you created me! I’m the biggest mistake you ever made! Now Kill Me! So-called perfect God! What are you waiting for I’m not afraid just do it! Look into my heart you see all things so called perfect God! I’m not afraid! I began to hit my chest with both hands and said, What are you waiting for so called perfect God! Kill me! Kill me! Kill me! Then I heard a roar of thunder so loud that it shook the ground where I was standing and made every car alarm go off for several blocks, and I seen the tires of my Camaro come off the ground. I immediately started shaking and put my head down and did not say another word to God and walked towards the house saying I’m going to die! I’m going to die! I’m going to die! After having this event happen to me which I say that it was God putting me in my place for tempting him I was extremely afraid to walk in the rain. If I was outside when it would thunder and lightning I would stop duck my head and start to shake and continued to say, I’m going to die! I’m going to die! I’m going to die! Please don’t kill me Lord I’m sorry! It took me two years to get over this event. Then the demons started reminding me of all the sins I had committed when I was not walking with the Lord. At that moment, I began to cry out to the Lord. Saying, How long will you leave me alone my Lord? I could hear several demons laughing and saying many ungodly things and felt an overwhelming weight upon me. Then I pulled over and began to pray with all my might. Saying My Lord you have forsaken me for I have sinned! I have caused you to depart from me because I have displeased you in some way! I repent of all the sins I have committed against you and ask that you cleanse my spirit! Make me worthy before you my Lord! How long will you be apart from me my Lord? For I don’t have any peace! At that very moment, all the weight and laughter stopped, and peace fell upon me. Then I began to praise the Lord and give Him thanks because I could feel His presence upon me. I truly didn’t understand why the Lord had left me alone that day. Later on in my walk with the Lord I realized this was my first trial. It was to teach me that I needed to put all my trust in the Lord.

1 Corinthians 10:13

There hath no temptation taken you, but such as is com- mon to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able, but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

Chapter Two

Broken

A few weeks later when I returned from my Killeen run, I was doing my paperwork. I was filling out the area where I add up all my mileage for that day. My total mileage was 492. But I wrote down 493 and turned it in. As soon as I started my way to- wards my car where my wife was waiting for me the Lord started to tell me that I had sinned. I ignored him and got into my car. My wife looked at me and said, Are you ready? I said, Yes so she turned up the worship music and began to drive home. The Lord told me something, but I could not hear Him clearly, so I told my wife to turn the music down. Then I asked the Lord what were you saying? and the Lord told me, You are going to make me tell you what you did wrong?! Then I told my wife to go back to the job, and she said why what did the Lord say? I told her what I did wrong. She told me He was upset over that! I told her that on the way to the car He was telling me that I had sinned, but I ignored Him. Telling myself what’s one mile that’s not stealing. I began to pray repenting of the sin that I had committed. After I was finished praying my wife told me that she didn’t know something so small could be a sin. When we got to the job, I went inside and corrected my mistake. The Lord made me realize that there is no sin too small or one greater than the other, for it is the world that has put labels on sins.

1 John 5:17 All unrighteousness is sin, and there is a sin, not unto death.

A few days later I felt like the relationship with my Lord was strained. I could feel that there was something keeping me from growing. I began to pray asking the Lord to reveal whatever was between us. I told Him to be blunt and not to sugar coat it. I felt that I was ready for the next step. On my way back from Killeen again I heard a preacher on the radio. He was speaking about a prideful heart and at that time I didn’t think anything of it. A short while later my boss began calling me on the work phone. I shut it off because I didn’t want him to give me extra work. When I was back at the yard, in the driver room, while doing my paper work my boss walked in. He asked me where I had been. I stood up and looked him right in the eyes and told him, Working! He then began to ask me why I hadn’t answered my phone. I told him that it never rang. He told me that I needed to go to Arlington and do a pickup. I told him that I was done for the day and that my ride was waiting on me. Then he got in my face telling me that I had better answer my phone the next time he called me. Suddenly he pushed me with his chest. I pushed back and told him, Who do you think you’re talking to?! I’m not your stepchild, when you speak to me you show me respect! Then he pushed back and told me, What are you going to do about it? Then we stood there and looked at each other eye to eye. It took everything in me not to hit him. Then he told me that’s what I thought. I just laughed and walked off before I did something I was going to regret. When I got to my car, I was very angry and told my wife to hurry and let’s go. I began to tell her what happened and that my supervisor was very lucky that I wasn’t the man that I use to be! Then the Lord told me, You’re not ready! I told Him, What did I do wrong?! The Lord told me, You are going to make me tell you what you did wrong? You’re not ready! I told Him, I didn’t do anything wrong?! Tell me what I have done wrong?! Then the Lord told me, You Keep Your Mouth Shut! I fight for you! Lord you’re telling me to stay quiet and not standup for myself? You’re talking about my manhood?! That’s all I have! Don’t ask me to give that up! That’s all I have! The Lord told me. You’re not ready! Then I began to cry, and I told my wife to pull the car over. I told the Lord, Wait a minute, I’m ready my Lord. Then the Lord said, Go back to your job and tell your boss that you’ll do anything that he says and tell him you‘re sorry. Then I told the Lord that the only reason I was going to do this was for Him. My Lord! I just want to please you my Lord! And at that moment I told Him, Take it you can have it my Lord! I also repented for the sins I had com- mitted that day. I felt it leave me, and I grew with the Lord that day. My wife took me back to the job. I went up to my boss and told him that I was very sorry. Then I told him I would do that pickup in Arlington. He told me that another driver had taken care of it for him. I asked him, Is there anything else I can do for you today? He told me, No so I left. I tell you this that pride was the hardest thing to surrender to the Lord. Later in my walk, I read in Proverbs 6:16 - 19 These six things doth the Lord hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto Him: A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, A false witness that speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren. That pride was among the six things that God hates, and the Bible uses the word HATE. Then I realized this was one of the keys for the Lord and me to become entwined with one another. A few days later when I was heading home from my Killeen run the Lord told me, Joshua I want you to go back and tell everyone you hurt, physically and verbally, you’re sorry. This was very difficult for me to do. When I was in the world I never said I was sorry about anything that I did to anyone. So I told the Lord, Okay for you, but I just want to remind you that many of the people I hurt, I don’t know where they are, but if I run into them my Lord I will tell them I’m sorry. I went up to many family members and friends and apologized for everything I had done to them. There were just a few friends left that I couldn’t find. I told the Lord I was sorry because I didn’t know where they were. A few days later I was in the drive through at a fast food restaurant. My wife told me look there’s the friend you’ve been looking for. Then the Lord told me, Joshua go to him and tell him you’re sorry. So I got out of my car and ran up to him. When he seen me, he wasn’t sure what to think. I apologized and told him, I hope you accept my apology for everything I‘ve done wrong to you. He did and then we went our separate ways. In the following weeks, I continued to run into the people I could not find on my own. I later realized that when the Lord wants something done He will make it possible for you. Matthew 19:26 But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible. A few weeks later on my way to San Antonio, I stopped at a truck stop. While I was there, I bought a pack of cigarettes along with a few other things. I had been trying to quit for a few weeks now, but it was very difficult. When I was heading back to the job from San Antonio, I asked the Lord that I needed help to quit smoking. I explained to Him that it was very difficult for me to quit on my own. Because I had been smoking since I was 11 year’s old. The next day, on my way to Killeen, I grabbed my pack of cigarettes and grabbed a cigarette to smoke. While I was smoking a cigarette, I got a very bad headache. When I smoked my second cigarette, my headache got worse. When I began to smoke my third cigarette, every time