This Point Forward: The Rosewoods, #5

This Point Forward

The Rosewoods, Book 5

By

Katrina Abbott

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Over The Cliff Publishing, 2014

This is a work of fiction. Similarities to real people, places or events are entirely coincidental.

THIS POINT FORWARD

First edition. October 23, 2014

Copyright © 2014 Katrina Abbott

Written by Katrina Abbott

ISBN-13: 978-1502546593 

ISBN-10: 1502546590 

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For Steven,

Whose tattoos are very swoonworthy.

Paging Dr. Freud

Now what?

I looked around my empty dorm room, feeling lonelier than I had since I’d started the school year, even though Brooklyn had only been gone a few hours. I’d gone back to bed after she left, almost wishing we had classes today. Being busy would be a good thing, but of course, I now had three full days off before school started up again after the Thanksgiving break. Sleeping seemed like the obvious way to kill big chunks of time, but my body and mind weren’t on board with the plan as I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling. I may as well have chugged a case of Red Bull.

God, I hate being alone, I said aloud. Not that anyone else could hear, but I needed something to break the deafening silence.

Ever since I was a child, I hated being alone more than anything else in the world, and it didn’t take a Dr. Freud to figure out why.

It’s not that I was a neglected child in the way that those babies who are left to be raised by wolves are. Nor was I chained to a toilet for years on end like that poor kid they’d found a couple of years ago and had plastered all over the news. My story of neglect was hardly newsworthy and of the type that I knew quietly played out in tons of homes across affluent America.

I like to call it neglect by proxy, whereby a child is raised by nannies, cooks and gardeners—pretty much anyone on the payroll. Said child could easily be cast on a TV show about hoarding if ever the wealthy would allow a camera crew into their luxurious homes where there was evidence of their trying to buy their kids’ affection and silence with the latest toys and games. Or in the case of a teenage girl, designer clothes and cute convertibles. Unfortunately, the child always lacks in the one thing she craves most: the attentions of her own parents.

In my case, I didn’t even have siblings to play with, and take my word for it, playing with a middle-aged nanny who tired of childhood games when she was a child is no substitute.

Looking back, I count my blessings and know I came from a life of privilege. Many kids don’t get to attend elite schools, wear designer clothes or spend their summers in Europe. Although—and not to sound ungrateful here—when you’re sent to that school to get you out of the house, are told it is unacceptable to spend your clothing allowance on charity, and spend the summer in Europe on a guided tour with a bunch of strangers because your mother is redoing her house and didn’t want you going with her and your father on their Australian trip, you may not appreciate these things quite as much.

It sounds ludicrous to complain about being a poor little rich girl, so I try not to do it, but I kind of hate my home life. I can’t wait to finish school and make my own way far away from my parents. Until then, thank God for Rosewood; I never would have kept any kind of sanity if I had to live at home and go to a local school.

I know it probably sounds like my parents hated having me, but that’s not precisely true. It’s like relationships on Facebook: it’s complicated. They love me, of course, they just don’t get me and pretty much never want to be around me because we are such polar opposites. As I got older and realized this, I became more and more okay having a great distance between us.

Except at the holidays. Holidays are made for reconnecting with your crazy family to remind you why you don’t want to be around them the rest of the year. And although you know the family dinner is going to be nuts and you’ll beg for death at least twice between the broth course and the cheese plate, you still look forward to them with a sort of masochistic nostalgia.

But here I was for a third year in a row stuck at my boarding school for Thanksgiving, which kind of sucked. It had seemed like maybe it wouldn’t be horrible and we did have a nice dinner and I got to hang out with some of my friends after we’d served at the local shelter, but then poor Brooklyn got called away because her father’d had a heart attack in London. She was rushing home to be with her family, which I can hardly blame her for, although I hated being left behind on my own.

It was selfish and childish, but even just sleeping alone made me anxious—it was the reason I didn’t want the private room my parents had paid for this year. Not that I would ever tell them—or anyone, for that matter—that I hated sleeping alone.

I’d already been thinking about what I would do over the holidays, though I thought I’d have Brooklyn with me until almost Christmas. But now I worried I wasn’t going to sleep for the next month. I supposed I could get one of the girls—maybe Kaylee—to move into my dorm room since she’d probably be stuck here at Christmas, too, thanks to her crap home life. But I didn’t want to think about that just yet.

Instead, I thought about what it meant on a more practical level, now that Brooklyn was gone. I was going to have to run the Santa Hop—the annual toy drive—with Dave. This would normally make me a very happy person (because who didn’t love delivering toys to kids?) if I hadn’t poured my heart out to Dave by text message on the very day that Brooklyn and he started a thing. How was I supposed to know that while I was having second thoughts about our breakup, they were hooking up behind the Stop and Shop?

I’d quickly realized my second thoughts had more to do with panic over being alone at the holidays than wanting to actually be with him again, so when I saw how much my roommate wanted to be with him and knew that them being together made way more sense than Dave and me did, I bowed out, trying to be the good friend. To both of them.

But then I had to give him that guitar on his birthday in front of Brooklyn and pretend the text thing had never happened.

Right. At least Brooklyn didn’t know about that.

So yeah, now I got to work with him again while he inevitably pined over Brooklyn leaving.

I yawned and stretched as I thought about the best way to handle that. Maybe I could only talk to him by e-mail and text between now and then. Which seemed pretty childish and unrealistic.

What I really needed was to find a new guy. Having a boyfriend would be the only way that working at such close quarters to Dave could be bearable.

But who? I didn’t exactly want to rub Dave’s nose in it by dating one of his friends (because that always got so complicated) and it’s not like I wanted him to be jealous. I just wanted him to know I had moved on and was good. Really good. Not a train wreck—nothing to see here, move along, folks.

Then a face popped into my head.

Rob Prescott.

Brooklyn’s brother who had stayed behind on campus, even though his father had suffered a heart attack.

It made me think he had the kind of complicated relationship with his parents that I had with mine. Brooklyn hadn’t really talked about it, but she’d been under a lot of stress when she’d left. So much so that she must have lost her phone somewhere because when I tried to text her to wish her safe travels, it was discontinued. At least that meant she knew she’d lost it and had canceled it immediately, but it also meant I had no way of getting a hold of her while she was away.

Except through Rob, of course. Which just gave me more reason to seek him out. Legitimately.

Something in my chest lit up as I thought about him, which made me feel slightly guilty—he is Brooklyn’s brother, after all. But when you look at the big picture and see that Brooklyn was on the cusp of a relationship with Dave, my ex, well, maybe being with her brother wasn’t so off limits.

There was the possibility that him being off limits was part of the appeal, I had to admit, but there was something—no a lot of things—about him that made him especially appealing.

He was older—like twenty—so he was definitely more mature than most of the Westwood boys, although he could joke around with them, too, something I’d seen the day before at our Thanksgiving dinner.

Also, he was quite funny and Brooklyn said he was really smart, even though he’d flunked out of Yale. I had a feeling his flunking out had more to do with him partying too much than him actually not being smart enough.

And if I was being honest, he was smoking hot, too. Not something Brooklyn wanted to discuss, but as I grabbed my phone off my nightstand and scrolled through until I found the selfies I’d taken with him that day I’d given him the little campus tour, my heart fluttered. Yes, definitely hot. Chelly, Celia and even Kaylee had agreed on that point.

Maybe I’d see what he was up to over the holiday. Even if he didn’t get along with his parents, he’d probably appreciate a distraction, right? He had to be stressed and I hated thinking about what he must be going through. I despised spending time with my family, but I’d be devastated if something like that happened to one of them. Maybe what Rob needed most right now was comforting, Emmie-style.

I glanced at the clock and counted how long he’d been gone and figured he had to be back from driving Brooklyn to the airport already. Yes, I realize he was staff which meant he was supposed to work on campus, but the dean couldn’t make him work all weekend. After all, it was Thanksgiving.

With a renewed sense of purpose, I threw back my comforter and got dressed, taking a page from Chelly’s playbook and putting on a pair of tight yoga pants and a slightly too-small tank.

Then I realized I had no way of getting a hold of him. I couldn’t exactly call the school switchboard and ask for him from an inside line. I guessed he might have e-mail, but what if he didn’t check it?

Then I remembered the selfies; when I’d taken them, he’d given me his cell number to text them to him, which I figured had to be a good sign, that he’d want them. I sat on the bed and grabbed my phone, scrolling through until I found his number.

Are you back from the airport? I sent, telling myself not to expect an immediate response.

But I got one anyway. Yes.

Everything okay?

For now.

I paused, nervous. If I did this, there would be no turning back. Did I really want to pursue him? I couldn’t use my roommate’s brother just to make Dave jealous. Is that what I was doing here? It wasn’t exactly the mature thing to do. And even though I’d told myself I wasn’t trying to make Dave jealous, if it happened, well, I can’t really control that, can I?

I opened up the picture of us together and felt my heart flutter in my chest as I looked at his handsome face. That flutter had nothing to do with Dave.

I took a breath and returned to the text screen. Want some company?

There was almost no pause before I got back: Very much.

My stomach did a flip and I was about to respond when he sent: Wait. You mean you, right?

I laughed and typed back: No, the dean is looking for someone to paint her toenails. I figured you were the man for the job.

Again? he sent back. And then followed with :)

Lounge. 10 minutes. I sent.

See you there, M.

Making Plans

I opened my dorm room door and was startled to see Kaylee standing there, arm raised and poised to knock.

Hey, I said, as we both jumped a little.

Hi, she said at the same time.

What’s up?

She twisted up her lips. I need a distraction. I know he’s only been gone a few hours and it makes me totally pathetic, but I miss Declan already.

I couldn’t help but smile—could she be any more adorable? It doesn’t make you pathetic, it makes you in love.

She blushed, but was grinning like crazy. I was coming to see what you’ve bought.

Huh? I asked, looking at her stupidly.

Kaylee did a double-take. It’s Black Friday. Don’t tell me you’ve somehow forgotten. Isn’t it like your favorite day of the year?

Normally. But not today. Not after losing my roommate. And Kaylee thought she was pathetic? I shrugged. My parents are away this year, so there’s not much to shop for. Not that I shopped for them much—most of my Black Friday purchases were toys and things to donate for the Santa Hop. I made a mental note to go online later while all the sales were still on and before everything got picked over on Cyber Monday.

She looked past me into the room. Where’s Brooklyn? Is everything okay? That was kind of weird last night at the movie how she and her brother totally disappeared.

That’s when I realized she didn’t know. I was going to have to tell everyone Brooklyn had gone home to London. I’m meeting her brother downstairs. Walk down with me?

Kaylee gave me a sideways glance as I stepped past her into the hallway. What’s going on?

As we made our way down the hall to the main stairwell, I told her what had happened and how Brooklyn had left early that morning to fly back to London Wow, she said when I was done. Declan went back early this morning, too. I wonder if they saw each other at the airport.

Maybe, I said.

I hope her dad’s okay. Why is Robert still here?

I get the feeling he doesn’t get along with his father. Brooklyn said he’d rather stay here and work. He just got this job, after all. He probably didn’t want to piss off the dean.

Kaylee frowned at this, but didn’t say anything.

I think he’s going home for Christmas, though, I continued. And I’m sure he’d jump on a plane if it looked like things were getting really bad. I hope it doesn’t get to that... My heart clenched a little as I thought about how awful this was for my roommate and her brother, how stressed they must be.

The dean would have been understanding if he wanted to go home. Anyway... she trailed off. So why are you meeting him? she suddenly asked suspiciously.

Seriously, sometimes I hated that she was so smart.

Just to hang out, I said as casually as I could.

"Just to hang out like as his sister’s friend and roommate or just to hang out and see about hooking up with him?"

Please. I just broke up with Dave.

That doesn’t mean anything, she said, because apparently she could see right through me. I opened my mouth and then closed it again when I realized I had nothing to say to that.

I don’t think it’s a good idea to hook up with Brooklyn’s brother, Emmie.

I stopped walking, even though we were only halfway down the stairs. Why not? After all, she’s hooking up with my ex, I didn’t say. And then hated myself for even thinking it because it made me a heinous friend especially after I’d given Brooklyn my blessing. Hell, I’d practically thrown her at Dave.

She gave me a withering look. You need me to make an itemized list? She continued when I didn’t answer. "Okay, one: he’s staff. Two: he’s your roommate’s brother and when it falls apart, it’s going to get very complicated. For that reason and reason number one."

Is that all?

Isn’t that enough?

"List implies more than two things. Look, I said. I’m not looking to get engaged or even have a serious thing. He’s just a nice guy and I thought we could hang out a bit. That’s all." It was tempting to tell Kaylee the truth, but it felt so ridiculously pathetic that I couldn’t bring myself to. I know we’d all gotten mad at her for keeping her secret about her parents for so long, but this was different. Her problems were big real problems that we totally would have understood. I was just embarrassed and wanted to show Dave I was over him. And that was embarrassing enough that I didn’t want to admit it to my friends.

I started down the stairs again, hoping she wouldn’t push it. She didn’t and we walked down in a tense silence until we got to the bottom. I stopped and turned toward her. Where are you going?

She gave me an exasperated look. I don’t know. You said to come with you!

After a moment of duh, I threw my arms around her and squeezed her tight. Ugh, I’m being horrible, aren’t I? I’m sorry. You know I love you, right?

She rolled her eyes, but grinned at me. Of course. One Emmie hug and it’s all better.

Of course it is! You could come with me to see Rob...

She frowned and raised an eyebrow. No thanks.

It took me a second to remember. Oh right, the fence.

Her curt nod confirmed it. Rob had patched up the fence at the dean’s orders, effectively keeping the Westwood boys out. Including Kaylee’s hot future duke. You can’t hold a grudge forever, Kaylee. He was just doing his job.

Her look told me she didn’t care and was planning to hold that grudge for a very long time. At least the foreseeable future, anyway.

I was about to leave her, but then realized maybe I could try to solve my other problem. So hey, do you have plans for tonight? I asked, happy to change the subject from Robert.

Oh yes, I have big plans, she deadpanned. My parents are couch-surfing God knows where and my hot boyfriend left for England this morning. My dance card is just about full. Though I might be able to squeeze you in if you have something really spectacular lined up.

When did Kaylee get so funny? I smiled at her and asked, Want to help me dye my hair? I’m tired of this black and last time I did it myself, I got dye all over Brooklyn’s bed. I thought about the events that debacle had brought about and definitely didn’t need a repeat, even though Brooklyn wasn’t even in the country.