Chicken Soup for the Soul: Devotional Stories for Mothers: 101 Daily Devotions to Comfort, Encourage, and Inspire Mothers
By Susan M. Heim and Karen C. Talcott
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Throughout time, women have shared their joys and sorrows, thoughts and feelings, experiences and life lessons with one another. The tradition continues in this book with 101 stories of friendship, faith, and comfort that affirm God’s unconditional love and His wisdom. Women will find encouragement, solace, and strength in these personal stories and prayers that cover motherhood from its joys and everyday trials to tests of faith.
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Chicken Soup for the Soul - Susan M. Heim
Chicken Soup for the Soul: Devotional Stories for Mothers
101 Daily Devotions to Comfort, Encourage, and Inspire Mothers
Susan M. Heim and Karen C. Talcott. Foreword by Lisa Whelchel
Published by Chicken Soup for the Soul Publishing, LLC www.chickensoup.com
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Chicken soup for the soul : devotional stories for mothers : 101 daily devotions
to comfort, encourage, and inspire mothers / [compiled by] Susan M. Heim [and]
Karen C. Talcott ; foreword by Lisa Whelchel.
p. ; cm.
Summary: A collection of 101 Christian daily devotional stories for mothers by various authors comprising a scripture passage, a personal story illustrating the passage, and a relevant prayer.
ISBN: 978-1-935096-53-5
eISBN: 978-1-6115-9134-7
1. Mothers--Religious life--Literary collections. 2. Christian life--Anecdotes. 3. Mothers--Prayers and devotions. 4. Devotional literature. I. Heim, Susan M. II. Talcott, Karen. III. Whelchel, Lisa. IV. Title: Devotional stories for mothers
BV4847 .C45 2010
242.6/431 2010930827
PRINTED IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA
on acid∞free paper
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Contents
Foreword, Lisa Whelchel
Introduction
1
~Treasured Moments~
1. A Handful of Hope, Pam Mytroen
2. That Praying Family, Susan Farr-Fahncke
3. A Window of Light, Lola Di Giulio De Maci
4. A Butterfly Moment with Mike, Phyllis Cochran
5. Crazy Normal, Shawnelle Eliasen
6. The Greatest Gift, Debbie Cannizzaro
7. A Wrinkled Kiss, Robyn Langdon
8. Bouquet of Weeds, Kathie Harrington
9. I Salute You, Mother, Debra Larson
10. One Last Recital, Gigi Adam
2
~God’s Guiding Hand~
11. Jack-in-the-Box Bedtime, Deborah L. Kaufman
12. Be Still, Michelle Rocker
13. Listening for God’s Voice, Susanne Dietze
14. Seven Times in a Day, Karen R. Kilby
15. Making the Big Decisions, Susan M. Heim
16. Love in a JCPenney Catalog, Meagan Greene Friberg
17. God’s Wake-Up Call, Renee Crosby
18. Without Conditions, Linda Apple
19. One of Life’s Greatest Blessings, Clara Cooper
20. Time for Myself, Susan M. Heim
21. One of Those Days, Dena Dyer
3
~Loving Through Tears~
22. P.S. Pray, Susan Farr-Fahncke
23. A Letting-Go Kind of Love, Michele Cushatt
24. Over the Rainbow, Shirley Anne Reynolds
25. A Real Mother, Violet Carr Moore
26. Hug ’Em and Pray, Shelley Ring
27. Gold Medals and Tea Kettles, Terrie Todd
28. Kindred Spirits, Sharron K. Cosby
29. Parenting Through Good Times and Bad, Ruth L. Snyder
4
~In the Beginning~
30. My Son, My Hero, Cathy McIlvoy
31. Liz Cleans House, Marie Cleveland
32. Anna Mary’s Advice, Pam Williams
33. Alone in the Night, Susan M. Heim
34. Pregnancy Paranoia, Janeen Lewis
35. In Death’s Shadow, Brendalyn Crudup
36. Comfort from a Friend, Melissa Zifzal
37. Beating the Bed Rest Blues, Karen C. Talcott
38. God, Give Me Strength, Michelle Sedas
5
~Lessons from Our Kids~
39. That Kind of Faith, Carol Hatcher
40. Listen to the Children, Linda O’Connell
41. She Needed a Hug, Lorie Bibbee
42. Beautiful Things, Danica Favorite
43. Resting in Hope, Robbie Iobst
44. A Daughter’s Eyes, Cecilia McNeal
45. The Nativity Lesson, Janice M. Gibson
46. A Race Run Well, Kathryn Nielson
47. Twenty-Five-Cent Pearls, Theresa Sanders
48. Riding the Rollercoaster, Michele Cushatt
6
~Comfort Through Prayer~
49. The Boring, Old Prayer, Diane Stark
50. Meltdown in My Heart, Tracie Sissy
Taylor
51. Never Alone, Marsha B. Smith
52. Abandoned? Not Ever! Pat Moyer
53. The Grab Bag, Sharon A. Struth
54. No Ordinary Talk, Rita Billbe
55. Waiting Room Prayers, Karen C. Talcott
56. A God of Second Chances, Stefanie Wass
57. Broken Bones and Prayers, Jenny R. George
7
~Help from Above~
58. Beautiful Day, Karen Krokroskia
59. A Mother Knows Best, Michelle Peters
60. An Angel in the Woods, Marcia Mansfield
61. Why Didn’t I Think of That? Leah Clancy
62. God Sent His Angels, Karen Asire
63. Stranger or Angel? Jan Brand
64. The Power of Prayer, Mary Z. Smith
65. A Penny in My Palm, Mary Delgado
8
~Surrendering Our Worries~
66. The Little Green Book, Shannon Griffin Blair
67. Overcoming Bad Days, Susan M. Heim
68. Worry or Pray, Michelle Rayburn
69. You Don’t Know It All, Michelle Rocker
70. In His Arms, Janeen Lewis
71. Sunday Was My Day of Rest, Karen C. Talcott
72. I’m Somebody’s Mom, Janice Flood Nichols
73. Harsh Words, Jeannie Lancaster
9
~Whispers of Wisdom~
74. The Easter Dress, Beth K. Fortune
75. Busted, Rhodema A. Cargill
76. The Tattooed Stranger, Susan Farr-Fahncke
77. Having It All, Michelle Close Mills
78. Timing Is Everything, Susan M. Heim
79. The Old Piece of Junk, Jan Brand
80. Bunny Showdown, Marla Woolsey
81. Beyond the Sunset, Bettie B. Youngs
82. Rebuilding Castle Walls, Mary L. Allen
83. God’s Glittery Gift, Danica Favorite
84. An Instrument in God’s Hands, Pat Jeanne Davis
10
~Giving Them Wings~
85. The Seed Planters, Mary Z. Smith
86. Footprints, Theresa Sanders
87. My Black-Eyed Susan, Karen R. Kilby
88. Turtle Talk, Stefanie Wass
89. The Rocking Chair, Terrie Todd
90. A Family That Plays Together Stays Together, Karen C. Talcott
91. Mama Bird, Penny Frost McGinnis
92. Growing Up, Not Away, Patricia Downs
11
~Celebrating Our Families~
93. The Light Saber vs. the Dandelions, Marcy A. Blesy
94. The Golden Summer, Rhonda Brunea
95. Picture Perfect, Terrie Todd
96. Mommy’s Hero, Laura L. Bradford
97. Memories Set in Stone, Deborah L. Kaufman
98. Magical Mirth, Gayle Allen Cox
99. Love in a Care Package, Emily Collins
100. Laundry Days, Ami Tripp
101. Jesus Loves Mommies, Dena Dyer
Meet Our Contributors
Meet Our Authors
About Lisa Whelchel
Thank You
About Chicken Soup for the Soul
Foreword
For most of my growing-up years, I played the character Blair
on a sitcom named The Facts of Life. We filmed the last episode of the show in March of 1988. I was married in July of ’88. I got pregnant in ’89. Then I had a child in ’90, ’91 and ’92.
That means I had three babies in diapers, ran after three preschoolers, homeschooled three children, survived three teenagers, and am recently the mother of three baby birds who have left the nest. Life is suddenly very different for me.
I remember when my children were babies and some well-meaning older woman (probably the age I am now!) would counsel me with, Enjoy every minute; they grow up so fast.
I must be honest… I was tempted to slap her with a Wet Wipe! That was so not my experience. From my perspective, the days seemed to drag on forever until the magical moment when the last bath was taken, the final cup of water was fetched, and I could at long last do what I wanted to do. Well, in theory I could. The truth was, I was too tired to do anything but fall into bed and feel guilty about the dirty dishes still in the sink and the pile of laundry I really meant to fold that day.
Guilt was a primary emotion throughout those years. There just didn’t seem to be enough of me to go around. I was either falling asleep with crunchy kitchen floors or I was berating myself for popping in a video or two (or two hundred). I always had the best intentions of getting out of my pajamas and into something sexy before my husband came home, but, inevitably, he counted himself lucky if I met him at the door in my sweats and T-shirt, ponytail Scrunchie, and a little mascara.
Finding time to do anything for myself during the day felt like a thing of the past and an even more distant future. So I concentrated on trying harder to be a better mother, wife, and friend. There was just one tiny problem. There were many days when I had nothing left to give by 9:00 in the morning! And, for the rest of the day, I was running on empty.
I believe that is a common experience for mothers. We are, by nature, caregivers. This is wonderful, and I wouldn’t trade my role as mother for any Academy Award leading role. But, as mothers, we must learn how to receive. We tend to give and give and give, but if we don’t take time to receive, we can burn out. Then we end up giving out of the dregs. We scrape the bottom of the barrel to give a little more, but our offering is often tainted by irritation and exhaustion and a strain of emptiness.
I am so proud of you for picking up this book, Chicken Soup for the Soul: Devotional Stories for Mothers. Even taking the time to read a book means you are doing something for yourself. The irony is that when we take time to care for ourselves, we are better able to care for our families — out of the overflow rather than the overwhelmed.
I want to encourage you to give yourself permission if you need it (and, sadly, so many of us do) to take a few minutes every day to pick up this book and fill up your soul. It is the perfect book for busy mothers. Each story is just long enough to read while you are waiting in the carpool line, or in the bleachers at soccer practice, or in the sanctuary behind the blessedly closed bathroom door.
In the throes of child-rearing, I often felt guilty for not having time to read anything other than parenting books (which usually made me feel even more guilty, by the way). I felt like I should be reading my Bible more, the newspaper occasionally, or maybe even the seemingly decadent choice of an Oprah’s Book Club selection.
On the other side of young motherhood, may I offer a word of advice? Be gentle with yourself during these chaotic days. This season really is shorter than you think at the moment. There will come a day when you can read a whole book that doesn’t rhyme. In the meantime, thank God for books like those in the Chicken Soup for the Soul series.
Allow me to illustrate, once again, from my personal experience. My oldest child, Tucker, is away in college. During finals week, I sent him twenty-five Cup-a-Soups. Would he have preferred Mom’s homemade chicken noodle soup? Absolutely. Was that an option? No. Was he thrilled to receive the box of instant soups? Completely.
I am thrilled to present this book to you. It is perfectly sized, tailor-made, especially designed, specifically written just for you at this busy season of your life. Someday, you can read War and Peace and make homemade chicken noodle soup. Until then, Chicken Soup for the Soul: Devotional Stories for Mothers is just what the doctor — and this older mother — ordered. Enjoy.
~Lisa Whelchel
Actor, Speaker, and Author of
Creative Correction and Friendship for Grown-Ups
Introduction
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.
~Ecclesiastes 3:1
Every year, we eagerly await each new season and its unique gifts. In the same way, throughout our lives, we celebrate the distinct seasons of motherhood and the blessings of each step along the way. We start our parenting journey in the spring when life is about expectancy. The seeds we planted have resulted in life, and new blooms emerge all around us. This is the time when we are pregnant and raising young children. Life is full of highs and lows — April showers and May flowers — and our lives seem eternally busy. We long for sleep, wish for sanity, and through it all tend to these little seedlings that are our children.
Summer comes along, and with it the hot days and cooler nights. Our children are growing and testing our patience with their own attitudes and rebellious ideas. Some days, in the heat of the moment, arguments erupt over their desire for independence and their struggles to forge their own identity. And yet, in the quiet evening, our teenagers come to us seeking peace and forgiveness. They still need us to water their roots and offer the unconditional love that only a mother can give.
In the fall, the leaves change color, and the world seems to slow down. Our children are grown now and moving away, starting careers and even their own families. Some days, the wind blows cool as we realize our important job of mothering is almost over. They have left home, and our lives begin to feel barren. It is the time when we look to fill our lives with other passions and desires that have been pushed off to the side while we raised our children. Our crops are now sown, but our field can be used again for new pursuits and interests.
And, finally, winter comes. We move slower now, and the days are much quieter. We are the grandmothers, and our children are now the mothers and fathers. They move at the fast pace of spring and summer, but we watch it all with a sense of peace and acceptance. Our hearts are content knowing that our own seeds have sprouted and grown, and are now producing new little seeds in God’s earthly kingdom.
Wise King Solomon wrote a thoughtful and beautiful scripture more than 2,000 years ago illustrating the changes that occur in our lives. Read it today with fresh eyes from a mother’s perspective. Although we cannot escape the passing of the seasons, we know that God watches out for us and guides us through every season of motherhood.
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
~Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
This book is filled with stories celebrating the seasons of motherhood, from pregnancy and the early years to the trials of adolescence and the resulting empty nest. Whatever season you may be in, you’ll find that each story and accompanying Bible verse has a lesson to teach. And the common thread through it all is the knowledge that God is present in every season, whether it turns out to be stormy or filled with sunshine.
There are several ways in which you can read Chicken Soup for the Soul: Devotional Stories for Mothers:
• Start at the beginning! Spend a little time with God each day by starting at the beginning of the book and reading a story each day for inspiration.
• Pray for guidance. Holding the book closed, pray for God to guide you to just the right devotional that you need to read that day. Randomly open the book and see where the Spirit leads!
• Select a topic. If you’re dealing with a particular problem, scroll through the table of contents and turn to the appropriate chapter. Select a devotional that applies to your situation.
We feel confident that the words of wisdom from the women in this book will warm your heart and show you that God is your partner through every season of motherhood.
~Susan and Karen
Devotional Stories for Mothers
Chapter 1Treasured Moments
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
~Romans 8:28
A Handful of Hope
[Love] always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
~1 Corinthians 13:7
"Goodbye, Trevor," I said to my nine-year-old son as he trudged through the snowy yard on his way to school. But, as usual, he didn’t turn around or acknowledge my words. He had just been diagnosed with Pervasive Developmental Disorder (PDD), which explained his lack of expression and communication. But it left us with more questions, more pain, and more worry for the future. Since the age of three, he had almost completely stopped talking. He wouldn’t even look at me and smile.
Everything had to be the same every day, including his black mittens. No other pair would do. But this morning I couldn’t find his black mittens, so he had to wear a spare pair. He had become angry with me and slammed the door.
I watched his little blond head bob up and down behind the fence as he continued walking to school, gesturing with his hands. He talks to himself all the time. If only he would share a story or two with me, I thought, as I left the window and returned to finish the breakfast dishes.
Tears dropped onto the table as I wiped the spot where Trevor sat each morning for breakfast. He routinely blurted out inappropriate messages to his cereal, but I was merely the invisible robot that served him.
Goodnight, I love you,
was only a rote saying that he recited each night at bedtime after he brushed his teeth and put on his pajamas.
A knock at the door interrupted my sullen thoughts. I wiped the tears from my face and wondered who could be here so early.
When I opened the door, Trevor stood trembling on the doorstep.
Trevor! What’s wrong? Did you forget your books?
He didn’t answer. He stepped in and looked up at me. His cheeks were a rosy pink from the cool February day.
Mommy,
he began.
I held my breath. For several years, he hadn’t looked me straight in the eye or called me by name.
Yes?
I whispered. I slowly lowered to my knees to be at his eye level. If I moved too quickly, I would shatter this fragile moment.
His bright blue eyes grew shiny, and a tear slipped down his round cheeks.