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The Girl Who Wrote in Silk: A Novel of Chinese Immigration to the Pacific Northwest (Inspired by True Events)
The Girl Who Wrote in Silk: A Novel of Chinese Immigration to the Pacific Northwest (Inspired by True Events)
The Girl Who Wrote in Silk: A Novel of Chinese Immigration to the Pacific Northwest (Inspired by True Events)
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The Girl Who Wrote in Silk: A Novel of Chinese Immigration to the Pacific Northwest (Inspired by True Events)

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"A powerful debut that proves the threads that interweave our lives can withstand time and any tide, and bind our hearts forever."—Susanna Kearsley, New York Times bestselling author of Belleweather and The Vanished Days

A historical novel inspired by true events, Kelli Estes's brilliant and atmospheric debut is a poignant tale of two women determined to do the right thing, highlighting the power of our own stories.

The smallest items can hold centuries of secrets...

While exploring her aunt's island estate, Inara Erickson is captivated by an elaborately stitched piece of fabric hidden in the house. The truth behind the silk sleeve dated back to 1886, when Mei Lien, the lone survivor of a cruel purge of the Chinese in Seattle found refuge on Orcas Island and shared her tragic experience by embroidering it.

As Inara peels back layer upon layer of the centuries of secrets the sleeve holds, her life becomes interwoven with that of Mei Lein. Through the stories Mei Lein tells in silk, Inara uncovers a tragic truth that will shake her family to its core—and force her to make an impossible choice. Should she bring shame to her family and risk everything by telling the truth, or tell no one and dishonor Mei Lien's memory?

A touching and tender book for fans of Marie Benedict, Susanna Kearsley, and Duncan Jepson, The Girl Who Wrote in Silk is a dual-time period novel that explores how a delicate piece of silk interweaves the past and the present, reminding us that today's actions have far reaching implications.

Praise for The Girl Who Wrote in Silk:

"A beautiful, elegiac novel, as finely and delicately woven as the title suggests. Kelli Estes spins a spellbinding tale that illuminates the past in all its brutality and beauty, and the humanity that binds us all together."

Susan Wiggs, New York Times bestselling author of The Beekeeper's Ball

"A touching and tender story about discovering the past to bring peace to the present."

Duncan Jepson, author of All the Flowers in Shanghai

"Vibrant and tragic, The Girl Who Wrote in Silk explores a horrific, little-known era in our nation's history. Estes sensitively alternates between Mei Lien, a young Chinese-American girl who lived in the late 1800s, and Inara, a modern recent college grad who sets Mei Lien's story free."

Margaret Dilloway, author of How to Be an American Housewife and Sisters of Heart and Snow

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PublisherSourcebooks
Release dateJul 7, 2015
ISBN9781492608349
The Girl Who Wrote in Silk: A Novel of Chinese Immigration to the Pacific Northwest (Inspired by True Events)
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Kelli Estes

Kelli Estes lived in the deserts of eastern Washington state and Arizona before settling in the Seattle area, which she loves so much she plans to forever live near the water. She’s passionate about stories that help us see how the past shaped who we are today, and how we all have more in common than not. She lives in the Pacific Northwest with her family. This is her first novel.

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  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Beautifully written. I cried the whole the time. This is a must read for historical fiction fans.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
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    Fantastic story. Could not put it down. It kept me hooked from beginning to end.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
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    Incredible well written, was an lovely light read that gripped me from the first pages until the end.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    I really cared about the characters. I could so easily picture the scenes described in the book although it’s not a part of the world that I know
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    I found that Mei Lien’s story to be compelling. I read this book straight through as it was extremely hard for me to put it down! Thank you, Kelli, for writing this gorgeous book!
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    What an amazing example of "historical fiction." This story took my emotions on a roller coaster ride. I felt a full spectrum of emotions while reading this book. The characters were well developed and became 3-D in my mind. Most of the time I struggle with a book that has two time settings, this author made it simple to go from present to past and back and forth. This book is causing me to look into small pieces of American history. I will be suggesting this book to other readers.

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  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    I just finished a marvelous novel from Kelli Estes. It is called The Girl Who Wrote in Silk. I just loved this book and did not want it to end. The book starts out in February 1886 in Puget Sound, Washington Territory. Liu Mei Lien (Liu is her surname) works with her father in his shop in what is now Seattle in Washington Territory. The white people in the area are not happy with the Chinese. They do not like them coming in and taking their jobs. Mei Lien dresses like a boy as protection when she is out in the city (a girl could be attacked). One morning just after Mei Lien awakened there are white men outside their homes with weapons. All the Chinese are being escorted out of the city to a ship called the Prince of the Pacific. Mei Lien, her father, Liu Huang Fu, and her grandmother (who is frail) are forced onto the ship (and have to pay for passage). The ship is to take them to San Francisco. Once the ship is underway Mei Lien overhears Duncan Campbell (owner of ship) talking about the Chinese on the ship. Campbell has no intention of allowing the Chinese to stay on his ship. He is going to dump them into the water when they get far enough out. When Mei Lien tells her father what is going to happen, he gives her his money bag and, when they are near the last island before open water, he pushes her off the ship.Inara Erickson has just inherited her Aunt Dahlia’s estate on Orca Island called Rothesay (near Seattle, Washington). Inara loved going their when she was younger before the death of her mother. Inara has just graduated from graduate school (majored in business) and has a job lined up at Starbucks. Inara is a descendant of Duncan Campbell. Her family runs the business Campbell started. It was originally called Campbell Lines but is now called Premier Maritime Group. PMG is run by Charles Erickson (Inara’s father). Charles has high expectations for his daughter. He expects her to sell the estate and return to Seattle. Inara is exploring the house when she discovers a loose step in Aunt Dahlia’s house (she lived in a little house behind Rothesay). There is a cloth wrapped bundle in the step. When Inara unwraps it she finds a beautifully embroidered blue silk sleeve. It has lovely silk embroidery picturing scenes. Inara would like to discover more about the sleeve. She feels that it is important. Inara calls Dr. Daniel Chin who teaches China studies. This sleeve leads Inara and Daniel on a journey into the past. We get to find out what happened to Liu Mei Lien after she was shoved into the water near Orcas Island. It is amazing how the past can affect the present. This is a moving book that will captivate you from the very first page. I give The Girl Who Wrote in Silk 5 out of 5 stars. This is one of the best books I have read this year. The Girl Who Wrote in Silk is superbly composed. It is one of those books that you will continue to think about for days after you have finished reading it. This is Kelli Estes first novel and I impatiently await her next book.I received a complimentary copy of The Girl Who Wrote in Silk from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. The review and opinions expressed are my own.

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  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
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    Did Mei Lien stand on the edge of the boat's railing because she knew she had to or because she was forced to be there? Did this act begin or end Mei Lien’s life? Did this act begin or end Inara’s life?Mei Lien lived 100 years ago. Inara lives in the present. Their lives are unknowingly connected until Inara finds a family story on a hidden embroidered sleeve in a house that belonged to Inara's ancestors and where Mei Lien and her family had lived...the connection and the secrets begin. The embroidered sleeve immediately catches Inara's attention and her curiosity. When she takes the sleeve to a Chinese professor at the local university, the sleeve and Inara immediately catch the professor's attention.THE GIRL WHO WROTE IN SILK is beautifully written and beautifully told by Ms. Estes. The characters come alive, and the storyline is quite intriguing.THE GIRL WHO WROTE IN SILK has secrets about a family home, a family connection, and an embroidered shirt sleeve that tells a story Inara just HAS to unravel. Just what were all of these secrets?The story and the unraveling lead to surprises for the characters and to a marvelous book. Ms Estes weaved a beautiful, gripping, but sad tale that spanned from the 1800's to present day.THE GIRL WHO WROTE IN SILK was difficult to put down simply because you will want to find out about the embroidered sleeve as well as to find out how Inara and Daniel Chin unravel the mystery even though we already know the answer as Ms. Estes skillfully goes back and forth revealing the past and the present.THE GIRL WHO WROTE IN SILK is an appealing, alluring read with charming, unforgettable characters. You will love Mei Lien and admire her for her courage. You will also love her husband, Joseph, but despise Duncan Campbell.The book is as captivating as the book's title and cover, and THE GIRL WHO WROTE IN SILK becomes even more intriguing each time you turn the page and clues are revealed.I thoroughly enjoyed THE GIRL WHO WROTE IN SILK, but have some tissues ready.I hope you have the pleasure of reading this marvelous book. A spectacular debut novel. 5/5This book was given to me free of charge and without compensation by the publisher in return for an honest review.

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  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    The plot was good, but the writing was "meh" (no style) and the characters one-dimensional
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
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    The Girl Who Wrote in Silk, Kelli Estes, narrator Emily Woo Zeller This novel begins with two seemingly unconnected stories. One takes place in the past, beginning near the end of the 19th century and moving forward for about a decade into the 20th; the other takes place in the present time, presumably the 21st century and proceeds forward over only a few months. The story alternates between the two main characters. The first important character is Mei Lien (Lui Mei Lien). She is 17, lives in Seattle with her father and grandmother, dresses as a boy because the environment in which she lives is less safe for young Asian females, and is quite content with her life. She helps her father in his shop in the mornings, and in the afternoons she and her grandmother make beautiful embroidered purses to earn extra money. They are very close. Although they barely have enough to get by, they seem quite happy. They honor their elders and the memory of their ancestors while following the customs of their heritage, keeping its folklore alive. Mei Lien’s grandmother teaches her the skills she will need to be a good wife and mother. The second, in the present day, is Inara Erickson. She is 24, with a newly acquired Master’s degree and a promising future. She is embarking on a career with Starbucks. Brought up in the land of opportunity, she had everything she ever wanted at her fingertips. Although she had not been in touch with her aunt Dahlia, she had inherited their family home from her and is on the way to Orcas Island, one of the San Juan Islands, to check it out and ready it for sale to pay off her student loans. It had once been the home of her great, great, grandfather, Duncan Campbell who was credited with bringing the maritime industry to Seattle, Washington. Her father owns the Premier Maritime Group, and even though there are many who would gladly change places with her, she is not sure she likes the direction her life is taking.With decidedly different opportunities, both young women have different expectations and feelings of gratitude. Both are motherless. Mei Lien’s mother died in childbirth; Inara’s died in a car accident after an argument with her, which may or may not have caused her to lose control of the car. While both might be considered, in a sense, the cause of their mother’s death, only one is guilt-ridden. After the accident, Inara had not returned to Orcas Island, where she once lived, but instead moved to Seattle with her father. Both Inara and Mei Lien had devoted fathers who exercised great influence and control over them, but there, their commonality ends. Fortune smiles on one and misfortune on the other. Their different paths, however, will someday converge when they discover their common ancestry. This revelation will create confusion and anger, confession and apology, ignominy and atonement. It may also feel very contrived. Still it works for the story.In 1896, jobs were scarce and angry mobs, in need of work, roamed the streets of Seattle. They forced the Chinese in the community to leave their homes taking only what they could carry. They forced them to board a ship which was supposed to take them back to China, a place some had never even been, having been born in America. While looking for medical help for her father who had been beaten before boarding the ship, Mei Lien overheard a conversation between the captain and Duncan Campbell, the owner of the ship. He planned to “dump” the Chinese passengers before they reached shore, in a place where they would not risk being washed up and found, so that his ship would not get an “unclean” reputation and be useless in the future. When she related this to her father, he took matters into his own hands, and to save her life her life, he pushed her overboard before they got too far from land, hoping she could swim to safety. Horrified and afraid, she tried to succumb to the pull of the water, but she was rescued by Joseph McElroy, Duncan Campbell’s neighbor, the same Campbell that was responsible for the death of her family and scores of others. The direction of her life changes and as her story begins in earnest, the small triumphs and large travails she experiences never daunt her completely. She simply keeps going forward without complaint.In the present day, we meet Inara as she is traveling with her sister to her former home on Orcas Island. Her aunt Dahlia had lived there with her partner Nancy, but now that both were deceased, as the current owner, she intended to clean it out and put it up for sale to pay off her school debts. She was surprised by its rundown condition. When Inara discovers a hidden, beautifully embroidered sleeve under a rotted step, she changes the direction of her life. She makes an impetuous decision to turn the estate into a boutique hotel and gourmet restaurant. She then reaches out to Daniel Chin, a professor of Asian Studies at her former alma mater, to assist her in finding out about its history and the meaning of its embroidered message. At this same time, her family was planning the coming dedication of the Duncan Campbell Memorial Park to honor her ancestor and its direction will also change.As both stories move forward, the reader learns the part of the book that is based on a true story. It is an interesting, but sad, tale about the abuses Chinese residents of America faced in the 1800’s. In the last half of the 19th century, according to the author, job shortages made them easy prey and they were rounded up and chased out of communities forcefully. Although this story about Mei Lien is not true, it is based on real incidents that took place in several cities; but this book’s tragedy never did occur. There was a general fear, by some, that the Chinese were being smuggled into the country, and they were taking away needed jobs by working for lower wages. In some cases, this was true, as “paper sons” entered the country, but it was no excuse for the random acts of brutality and cruelty that were committed. (The politics of the author are revealed here as the reader will surely be reminded of the illegal immigration problems of our present time.) This story tries to illustrate both sides of the history, but it more favorably represents the immigrant’s point of view, describing the mistreatment which gets rather ugly. It is difficult not to support Mei Lien’s character. She never gives up doing the right thing, although her cup seems half empty. Her efforts to survive will be applauded and her sorrow will be shared. This may not be true of the trials and tribulations of Inara, since she cries often with a cup half full and often seems to be an unsympathetic, whiny, even spoiled individual without sufficient reason to be so. However, she too strides forward after struggling with her conflicted emotions.As the mystery of the embroidered sleeve is solved, the past is revealed as are the many similarities shared by the characters. They both lost their mothers too soon, and later, also lost their fathers. They were both headstrong and independent once they identified their desires and goals. Both had devoted fathers who were determined to do what was best for the daughters, but their ideas were often not in sync with what their daughters wanted. Both found it necessary to keep secrets, secrets which when revealed cleared up many misconceptions, but also brought humiliation and remorse. Sometimes the tale felt unnaturally manufactured. Things just seemed to fall into place too conveniently, i.e. when Vera, Daniel’s grandmother, recognizes the picture of Kenneth Chin (Yan-Tao McElroy), the child of Mei Lien and Joseph. Also, the siblings joyful reunion at the family home, followed by the suggestion of dinner and a movie seemed an odd suggestion on the day their father died. Perhaps it was the narrator of the audio who made it seem that way with her interpretation and expression, but I felt that overall, interactions wih Inara seemed to have less credibility than Mei Lien’s scenes. Although not as highly educated and very poor, she seemed to have a lot more common sense and ethics than Inara. Mei Lien respected the truth but Inara seemed to disregard it and seemed flighty. She often made inept excuses for her lies. Mei Lien’s story seemed ot have more substance, but that was perhaps because Mei Lien’s story had its foundation in history and Inara’s was pure fiction. At times, I felt the narrator tended to make Mei Lien sound older and worldlier than Inara. Inara’s voice was thin and too girlish sometimes, Mei Lien’s expression showed more courage and fortitude. Inara seemed to be immature while Mei Lien was old beyond her years and had a family and responsibility at age 24 while Inara, at 24, was still not fully formed. Overall the Chinese were portrayed in a more positive way. They were more honorable than their counterparts, the Caucasian Americans. Although they were on different paths, the ultimate discovery of their shared ancestry will create confession and apology, ignominy and atonement for all of the characters.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Puget Sound is the setting of this novel and one of my favorite places. The story goes back and forth from the late 1800s to today. The historical parts of the book were more captivating. There's a lot going on with mystery, action, history, romance, and racism. Perfect for those wanting a quick read with just enough depth to keep it interesting.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Inara Erickson has inherited some property from her aunt Dahlia. Dahlia wanted the estate to be turned into a B&B, but Inara has a job offer to join the corporate world. Inara has also not been back to the estate since her mother died several years back. Inara's dad wants Inara to sell the property and start work. Inara and her sister visit the estate, where they discover a hidden embroidered silk sleeve under the stairs. Intrigued by the embroidery, Inara writes to Daniel Chin, a professor who is an expert on Chinese artifacts.
    The other part of the story traces Mei Lin and her family. Mei Lin, her father, and her grandmother are rounded up in Seattle and put on a ship to China. However, while on the ship, Mei Lin overhears that the ship owner doesn't plan to take the Chinese passengers to China. Therein begins a sad story for Mei Lin and her family. The silk sleeve is a glimpse into Mei Lin's life.
    The sleeve joins the history of two families and exposes secrets. The novel also told me about a part of US history involving the Chinese in the late 1800s that I didn't know. I enjoyed the book and I was upset to hear of this dark part in our country's past.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Inara has inherited her aunt's rundown island estate. When she trips on the stairs, she finds a secret compartment which holds an embroidered sleeve ripped from an oriental garment. Inara enlists the help of a local college professor, and together they try and unravel the sleeve's history. Alternating with Inara's story, is the story of Mei Lein, a Chinese girl driven from her home.I found Mei Lein's story extremely fascinating. I found Inara to be a bit of a spoiled brat, and found it hard to like and sympathize with her. I probably wouldn't re-read this book, but I would read more from this author.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    The author's story surrounding Mei Lein was much more endearing than present-day Inara. She came off as spoiled. Racial tensions have always been a part of the US' story, it changes color, but it has always been there.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    This novel, like so many nowadays, is really two stories and vacillates from the present day story to one that takes place in the 1880s. The author does an excellent job of developing these story threads and then weaving together. Both sets of characters are interesting, but I think the storyline set in the past is the more compelling one. Though a bit contrived at times, the novel is an entertaining and informative read. Sad at times, it flows on to a satisfying conclusion, even though some questions remain unanswered.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Historical fiction located on Orcas Island in the Pacific Northwest, based on the Exclusion Act of 1892. Racism and fear make it difficult for Chinese who have lived all of their life in the country to make a living. The story jumps between current day Inara Erikson, who finds an embroidered sleeve of a Chinese garment hidden in a home she has inherited, and the story Mei Lien, whose family is torn apart when the Exclusion Act is enacted. Mei Lien's story is compelling. Inara's is less so. There's a good story line to the book, but the writing is a bit more like a "bodice ripper" than what is usually found in historical fiction.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Really enjoyed this story. The setting is Orca's island. Historical fiction based on the Exclusion Act of 1882 and the racism against Chinese Americans. Beautifully written. Really enjoyed the characters and the beautiful surroundings. Held my interest and I became invested in the outcome. Love when I read a story that captivates me enough to spark interest in a subject I have little knowledge about.
  • Rating: 2 out of 5 stars
    2/5
    Estes, Kelli. The Girl Who Wrote in Silk. 10 CDs. unabridged. 12.5 hrs. Blackstone Audio. 2015. ISBN 9781504606042. $34.95. Estes debut novel will enthrall fans of Asian American History. The story alternates between the turn of the nineteenth century and present day, where Inara finds a beautifully embroidered sleeve hidden in the staircase at her newly inherited island estate. Intrigued, she asks a professor of Asian history to help her find out more and together they discover a centuries worth of secrets, horror, and love stitched onto the delicate sleeve. As they are unraveling the mystery behind the sleeve, alternating chapters reveal the sorrowful life of Mei Lein, a young Chinese girl who left behind her story stitched on silk. Loosely based on historical fact, this eye opening and beautifully written novel will captivate readers and leave them wanting more. Beautifully narrated by Emily Woo Zeller who helps bring the story alive with her delicate, yet masterful prose. - Erin Cataldi, Johnson Co. P.L., Franklin, IN
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Really great! I liked having more information during some of the characters and definitely thought the back and forth between time periods worked well in this novel. Yes it was a bit predictable, but it did have a few surprises thrown in to keep you guessing. Well done!
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Inara Erickson has discovered a sleeve of intricate embroidery under a stair in the estate she has inherited from an eccentric aunt. She is determined to find out the story behind the sleeve and begins to unravel the story of Mei Lein, a Chinese imigrant and the life she lived.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    I thoroughly enjoyed this story; read it in just over a day. Another tale that tells two stories, one in the past and the other current. I had not heard of the Chinese Exclusion Act of 1882, and didn't know much about the ethnic cleansing that occurred and was not included in my history classes. The layers in the story come from the story itself, not from the depth of the writing. Really only the two main characters are explored in any detail, but that's alright.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    rather a bubble gum book. yes, certain things were deep and historical interesting, but the "modern" part of the story was just too smooth and predictable.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    An amazing first novel by a new author. The mystery of a silk embroidery from the past is seamlessly woven into the present life of the woman who found it. Beautiful writing has left vivid images in my mind of the past and present day San Juan Islands. This is an author I am anxious to follow.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Definitely a lesson in early northwestern territory and the bigotry towards the Chinese immigrants. I enjoyed the back story more than the present story. The present story was pretty predictable but I do give credit that the story blended well. Very horrific and sad to believe that these events occurred and are part of our history. I also will always look at the silk embroideries a lot closer in the future to see if I can tell if a story is unfolding in the artwork. A definite recommended read.

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The Girl Who Wrote in Silk - Kelli Estes

Prologue

Sunday, February 7, 1886—just past sunset

Puget Sound, Washington Territory

Mei Lien felt the steamship shudder beneath her feet and wondered if the quaking of her own body had caused it.

You don’t have a choice, Father hissed. Before she knew what was happening, he’d prodded her to the ship’s cold metal railing. Climb up, Mei Lien.

She looked at him in horror. She’d always obeyed him without question. But this? I can’t. She pressed a hand to where her heart pounded in her chest and felt the coin purse under her bindings. Please!

His face hardened. Do not disappoint me, Daughter. Do it. Now!

His tone made her fear recede long enough for her to hear her own voice of reason. It told her Father was right. She had no other choice.

Shaking, she climbed up on the railing to sit at the top, her hands holding tight to the wet metal bar. Beneath her right palm, she felt a pockmark where someone had painted over an old chip. She wondered if that was the last thing she’d touch before death.

Before Mei Lien could say another word, Father placed his palms at the small of her back and pushed her off the steamship.

"Bàba!" she screamed, the words echoing as she fell. Her breath left her as she hit the bitterly cold water. Icy fingers dragged her into the void below.

Somehow she found the strength to fight. Kicking and clawing at the water, she dragged herself upward, her lungs on fire.

As her head broke through the surface, she dragged in lungfuls of air between racking coughs. When she managed to wipe the water from her eyes with her fingers, she saw the ship passing dangerously close. Father stood at the railing but his back was to her, as if he hadn’t just cruelly pushed his only child to what could be her death.

A wave splashed over her face, and she felt herself sinking again. This time her limbs felt stiff and her muscles were starting to cramp in the near-freezing water. Instinct took over, making her feet kick as she dragged her body away from the ship with her arms, as Father had taught her all those years ago. She shut off her mind and swam, with no idea of what she might be heading toward.

Mei Lien’s head pounded from the cold. With each kick, her limbs ached to rest, to give in to the pull from below that promised ease and warmth.

She looked one last time toward the ship, but it was little more than a distant blur of light growing smaller.

Her family was gone from her. Her life was gone from her. If she gave in to the pull of the water, what would it matter?

She stopped trying to fight and let herself fall into the water’s frigid grasp, willing it to carry her to the spirit world. She even saw death coming. It rose out of the water as a huge, black sea monster, one glaring yellow eye boring into her aching head. Just as the monster grabbed her, she felt the void take over her mind.

She welcomed it.

Chapter One

Sunday, May 27—present day

San Juan Islands, Washington

Inara Erickson stood at the ferry’s side rail with her sister and watched as the wake from their ship splashed against Decatur Island as they passed. A blast of cold air wrapped around her, filling her nose with hints of sunbaked cedar, damp moss, and tangy salt. Immediately her mind took her ahead in her journey, to the family estate and all she’d left behind there years before.

She wasn’t ready to face the memories yet, so she pushed them away and, in an attempt to ignore the shaky, melting feeling in her core, turned her attention to her older sister, Olivia. Liv, are you warm enough? We can go inside if you want. Get a cup of coffee.

The wind tugged a strand of long blond hair from Olivia’s bun. She tucked it behind her ear and lifted her face to the unseasonable sun shining down on them. God, no, this is heaven. Despite her words, she pulled her jacket tighter around herself and hunched her shoulders against the biting cold air off the water.

Thanks for coming with me today. You sure Adam’s okay with the kids?

Olivia opened her eyes and shot Inara a glance that told her she wasn’t worrying about her family today. They’re fine. I’m happy you asked me to come with you. I can’t believe it’s been nine years since we’ve been there.

Inara nodded and watched as a pod of porpoises raced alongside the ferry, their black bodies arching in and out of the sun-splashed waves. I should have come to see Aunt Dahlia before she died, but… She shrugged, at a loss for the right words. I don’t know. It was too hard, I guess.

At that, Olivia put her arm around Inara’s shoulders and squeezed. Me too… It was easier to move forward.

Inara swallowed and would have said more, but a rowdy group of kids burst out of the ferry’s side door. One of them, a boy about ten years old, pointed to a porpoise and exclaimed, Look! A killer whale!

Inara grinned with her sister. As kids, when they’d come to Orcas Island every summer, they’d feel so superior about their knowledge of the islands’ flora and fauna. They’d laugh at all the tourists, like these kids, who expected to see orca whales along the ferry route. The locals knew the whales tended to stay west of San Juan Island in Haro Strait.

Those sure are small whales. A shorter, female version of the boy put her fists on her hips. Are you sure that’s a killer whale?

Her brother scoffed as only brothers can do. I’m not stupid.

Just then Olivia nudged Inara’s elbow and pointed to a channel marker where a fat harbor seal rested on the rusting metal.

It was like time had not passed here at all, Inara realized. Just as the ferry slipped between the islands, she was slipping into the life she’d left behind—and that felt surprisingly comfortable. The only difference was that today she counted her sister as a friend, while years ago, they couldn’t quite bridge the eight-year age gap between them.

Inara’s cell phone buzzed in her jacket, and she pulled it out to answer the call, thankful the kids were moving to the front of the boat, leaving the side deck quiet. It’s Nate, she told Olivia before putting the phone to her ear. Hey, big brother, guess where Liv and I are right now.

Portland?

No, closer. She had to shout over the noise of the ferry’s engines.

Vancouver?

No. We’re on the ferry to Orcas.

Silence. Then Nate cleared his throat. You okay?

Yeah, she answered, even though she wasn’t sure that was true. Leave it to Nate to understand how hard it was for her to come back here for the first time. Olivia is keeping me distracted.

Good. Hey, I’ve got a question for both of you. I’m here with Dad, and we’re nailing down a date for our dedication of the Duncan Campbell Memorial Park. Since the mayor will be out of town the week before, we’re thinking October sixth. Does that work for you?

Duncan Campbell was their great-great-great-grandfather on their mother’s side of the family, and the man who had single-handedly launched the maritime trade industry in Seattle. He’d emigrated from Scotland in the late 1800s to what had been little more than a muddy logging town and built an international shipping company from practically nothing. Because of him, Seattle was known as a major port for trade. If not for Duncan Campbell, Seattle might never have been put on the map and Seattleites knew it, having named buildings after him and devoted a whole section to him at the Museum of History and Industry. His success had allowed Duncan to build the family’s island estate, Rothesay, named after his hometown in Scotland.

Is this when Duncan’s statue will be revealed? she asked. A year before, her dad had commissioned a bronze sculpture for prominent placement in the new public park the company was building on the waterfront near the cruise terminal. Inara’s dad ran the company Duncan founded, Premier Maritime Group, or PMG as it was known, after taking over from her mother’s father more than a decade ago. He’d had great success of his own since expanding the company to include cruise lines serving Alaska, Mexico, and the Caribbean.

Yes. So, the sixth?

Hang on. She moved her phone away from her ear to pull up her schedule and fill in Olivia on the plans. Olivia nodded. We’re both good with the sixth, Inara told her brother.

A loud beep sounded over the ferry speakers, followed by the announcement that passengers disembarking on Orcas Island should return to their vehicles.

I gotta go, Inara told Nate, turning with Olivia toward the door that led inside.

Wait. Dad wants to know if you want him to call his real estate agent and get the paperwork going.

Inara smiled to herself. Tell him I’ve got it handled, but thanks. Her dad made no secret of his relief that she was selling the estate that none of them wanted.

Good luck today. Let me know how it goes.

I will. She hung up, and she and Olivia made their way down the green metal stairs to the car deck and the old BMW she’d owned since graduating from high school. Through the windshield she watched Orcas Island draw nearer, her heart beating faster with each passing second. Sweat pooled between her breasts.

At fifty-seven total square miles, Orcas was the largest of the islands in the San Juan archipelago in the northwest corner of Washington State, though not the most populated, at only five thousand year-round residents. The ferry dock at Orcas Village was at the bottom of the left arm of the horseshoe-shaped island that bent around the body of water called East Sound. This meant Inara would have to drive up through the bend, where the town of Eastsound—named after the water—was located, and then a quarter of the distance down the right arm to get to Rothesay. On that drive, she’d pass the accident site.

This was a mistake. She should have arranged for someone else to come and inspect the property and box up her Aunt Dahlia’s ninety-seven years’ worth of personal possessions. With one phone call Inara could have had a real estate agent on the job, and she’d be home in Seattle, at peace today. She had enough going on, what with her new job starting in a couple of weeks.

Olivia must have seen her panic. Inara, it’s okay. I’m here and we’ll face this together. Don’t be scared.

Inara felt like a kid about to get a vaccination on Olivia’s exam table, but she had to admit that the soothing voice helped. She looked at her sister. Aren’t you freaked out at all? You haven’t been back either.

Olivia nodded. A little. She looked out the front window as the brake lights on the car in front of them came on, indicating it was time to turn their own car on and drive off the ferry. Tell me about your new job. Fresh out of grad school in March and about to start a career with Starbucks. I bet you’re excited, huh?

Inara went along with her sister’s ploy to distract her as she carefully maneuvered off the ferry and onto the island. Yeah, I guess. I’ll be on the global supply chain operations team. Did I tell you they might send me to Italy within the first three months?

So why do you only ‘guess’ you’re excited?

Of course her sister had caught her slip. Inara shot Olivia a look of frustration, then gave in and admitted, I know it’s a great opportunity, and Dad is so proud of me for getting it and all… She struggled to find the right words. I’m just not sure it’s the right job for me.

So do it for a few years, then find something else. Dad will understand.

Yeah, Inara agreed, not so sure. As they continued chatting about the job, Inara found herself distracted by memories.

Orcas Road looked exactly as it always had, with sunshine spearing through the trees, leaving dappled shadows flickering on her windshield. Through the forest she spied occasional glimpses of beach shacks tucked beside million-dollar mansions. Dirt driveways were often the only indicator of a dwelling behind the trees. She rolled down the window and drew in the scent that her mind had forgotten but her soul had held on to—sun-warmed dirt, blooming blackberry bushes, briny salt water. As she breathed it in, she felt something inside of her shift, like a puzzle piece sliding into its niche.

She was still breathing deeply when she crested the rise and came upon the corner where their mom had been killed. The moment she saw it, every bit of air in her lungs was sucked out, leaving her gasping.

Just keep going, Olivia murmured. You’re okay.

Inara had been fifteen when their mother died in a car accident on this corner. The police said there must have been something on the road, like a deer or raccoon, and that her mom had swerved to avoid it and lost control. But Inara knew her mom was a hypervigilant driver who never would have lost control of her car if she hadn’t already been upset and distracted by the argument she and Inara had just had.

Olivia didn’t understand. Not fully. She’d been twenty-three, already married, and doing her residency when it had happened. She hadn’t been at Rothesay when the local sheriff had pulled in with lights flashing and a rain-soaked hat held to his chest in sympathy.

Inara slowed down, way below the forty-mile-an-hour speed limit, and focused on breathing while trying to avoid looking at anything but the pavement in front of her.

But then her gaze darted to the side of the road.

No sign of trauma remained on the huge cedar. Blackberry vines and wildflowers grew abundant and pristine, as though nothing bad had ever happened here. As though a car hadn’t slammed into the tree, flinging her mother’s mangled body against the rough bark.

Someone behind her honked, and she realized she’d come to a complete stop in the middle of the road. Flustered, she lifted her hand in a wave of apology and carefully navigated around the corner, picking up speed. A black SUV tore around her and sped away. Her fingers cramped on the steering wheel.

Maybe you should pull over.

Without answering, Inara did as her sister suggested, easing to a stop at the next gravel pullout. Then she closed her eyes and rested her forehead on the steering wheel. After that horrible day, she’d gone back to Seattle with her dad and tried to be a normal teenager, but everything had changed. Normal teenagers didn’t cause their mothers’ deaths.

Nate too had been off at college, leaving just Inara and her dad at home, two ships with broken propellers drifting on the currents of life, unable to find their way to shore. So she’d lashed herself to her dad and his dreams for her. After high school she’d plunged into pursuing a business degree to make him happy, even though she would rather have done something else, like anthropology or history.

I know it’s hard, but you’ve made it this far. Olivia was rubbing Inara’s back and speaking softly, like she did to her three-year-old daughter after a meltdown. Want me to drive?

It helped, Inara realized. Her sister’s voice gave her something to grab on to so she could pull herself from the abyss she might have sunk into if she’d been here alone. She took one more deep breath, then lifted her gaze out the windshield, relieved to find the road no longer seemed impassable. She could keep going. She’d come this far, as Liv had said, and she would continue, not because she had inherited a house she had to deal with, but because it was time to face her past and move forward. I’m okay now.

She guided her car back onto the road and glanced one last time at the corner in her rearview mirror before resolutely focusing forward.

Forward was Rothesay. And forward was making all the necessary decisions about the crumbling estate that Dahlia had left to her. Inara had been so surprised at the reading of the will, and yet it kind of made sense. Although Dahlia was really her mother’s great-aunt, Inara and Dahlia seemed more closely related. Of the three siblings in their generation, Inara had been the one who’d loved the island the most and the one who’d spent every waking moment with Dahlia. But what didn’t make sense was the next part of the will, Dahlia’s expressed wishes that the estate be converted to a bed-and-breakfast so that Rothesay would once again be filled with joy and life.

Really? A bed-and-breakfast? Of course she wanted to give Dahlia her final wish, but Inara had her own career to launch now that she finally had her master’s degree. She was sure Dahlia would understand that she needed the proceeds from the sale of the property to pay off student loans much more than she needed to run a bed-and-breakfast to satisfy someone else’s dream. The first payment on those loans was due in September. Only a few months away.

Too bad she couldn’t keep the estate to use as a vacation home like her family had done during her childhood. Dahlia had lived there year-round with her partner, Nancy, and had offered full use of the manor and grounds to the entire family, just as her parents and grandparents had done before her. It was where they’d all gathered for holidays and where Inara and her siblings had spent every summer while their parents worked in Seattle. Her mom had always taken the month of July off to spend with them on the island, and most weekends too. When she arrived every Friday night, they’d all gather on the beach around a bonfire.

Keeping Rothesay as a family vacation home made sense, but a bed-and-breakfast? Crazy.

Inara and Olivia had taken the early ferry, so it was not yet nine when they reached the twin stone pillars marking the entry to Rothesay. Inara turned onto the curving, forest-lined driveway, both sisters straining for their first glimpse of the manor. When she saw it, Inara gasped.

Everything looked desolate. Neglected. She’d wanted to feel her mom and Aunt Dahlia here, but the property felt lifeless. Her throat closed up and she felt cold, despite the morning sunshine flooding the grounds. She parked in front of what had once been a showpiece fountain but was now dry and black with mold. It got to be too much for Dahlia to keep up, I guess.

Yeah, Olivia agreed as she climbed from the car. We should have come and helped her instead of believing her phone calls saying that she was doing fine.

Inara didn’t realize Dahlia and Nancy were a couple until she was an adult. It wasn’t something the family discussed, but it was certainly the reason Dahlia’s father had hidden her away on the island, safe from tongue-wagging society in 1930s Seattle. But then, Dahlia had loved the island and wanted to be here as badly as her father had wanted her hidden.

Inara got out and went around the car to stand next to Olivia and consider the home they’d taken for granted all their lives. The sound of songbirds in the surrounding forest slowly soothed the ache inside, and she was finally able to see through the disappointment clouding her vision. She was surprised to see fresh grass clippings scattered along the edge of the asphalt driveway.

No one should have been here in the month since Dahlia died. Who could possibly have mowed the grass?

Let’s go inside. Olivia started toward the double front doors.

Inara hesitated a minute more as she studied the main house again. This time she felt a familiar thrill skitter through her body. If she squinted, she could look past the peeling paint and sagging porch to see the heart of the place, the magic and promise of adventure.

A spurt of adrenaline kicked her feet into gear, and she followed her sister toward the manor. She was a little kid again, arriving for summer vacation and eager to do everything at once, but she made herself approach slowly so she could take it all in.

The Colonial Revival–style main house stood a stately three stories tall, complete with white pillars along the wide front porch and curving steps welcoming visitors inside. From each of the front corners curved two-story galleries connecting the main house to the matching smaller buildings facing one another. The entire structure formed a wide U with the driveway and fountain in the middle.

On her left was the garage, and above it, the billiards and smoking room. On the right was Dahlia’s house, the original house built on this property. Duncan Campbell had updated it to seamlessly blend with the rest of the manor when it was built, including adding pillars to the tiny front porch. Dahlia should still be sitting on that porch with her steaming mug of tea.

Pain pierced Inara’s heart. She should have realized long ago how important Aunt Dahlia was to her. She should have figured out a way to spend time with her, no matter how difficult it was to be on the island. Dahlia had taken care of her and her siblings every summer. And Dahlia had held her all through that terrible night after her mom died.

But long before then, Dahlia had been like a special treasure, more important to Inara than any of her grandparents. Dahlia had let her tag along as she weeded the garden or gathered berries in the forest. She built bedsheet forts for Inara on rainy days, wove wildflower tiaras on sunny ones, and baked cookies and cakes in between, flipping a coin to see which of them got to lick the beaters. Inara was sure Dahlia had cheated to keep the chocolate ones for herself.

Had Dahlia known how much Inara loved her? Inara had left the island after the accident and had never come back. Damn, she hadn’t even come last spring when Nancy died. She’d told herself that Dahlia would understand it was too hard for her to come.

And yet, here she was.

When Dahlia passed away last month, Inara’s dad had arranged for her body to be taken to Seattle where they’d had a service and burial in the family plot. But being here again at Rothesay, feeling the magic of the islands come over her, Inara wondered if they’d made a mistake.

They should have buried her here on the island she’d loved, in the public cemetery next to the woman she’d happily grown old with, or somewhere on Rothesay land.

Inara took a deep breath and turned, raising her gaze to the towering, evergreen-covered mountain behind her, trying to shake the pressure in her chest by thinking of something other than Dahlia. From where she stood, the trees blocked her view of the neighbor’s property across the road, making her feel like nothing separated her from the steep slope of Mount Constitution that seemed to rise from the water of East Sound behind her.

One of these days she’d drive to the observation tower on top of the mountain like they used to do as kids. But today she found she preferred the feeling of being cradled at its base, safe from everything and everyone else. Like it was just her, the mountain, the water, and the forest, where things like student loans and new jobs didn’t exist.

Again she felt that stirring in her belly. The stirring of Orcas magic. Today, even with memories of all that was lost clouding her heart, she felt it.

The longer she was here, the more she felt like a snake shedding its skin, like something tight and constricting was falling off her. For nine years she’d focused on her studies and her goals for the future, and now that her future was upon her, she wanted only to sink into the comfort of the past. Of this island. This place that felt more like home to her than her father’s house in Seattle.

What would the estate be like as a bed-and-breakfast?

She shook her head and joined Olivia at the double front door, where she pulled the key out of her purse and fit it into the lock. It took some jiggling, but finally the tumblers fell into place and the lock clicked.

With a gentle shove, the door swung open, and together the sisters stepped onto the stained oak entry landing between the first and second floors. Even in the dim light coming from the open door behind them and the fanlight above it, Inara could see down the steps to the great hall that ran to the curtained back doors. Despite the dust covering everything, the scars and scratches in the wood showed through, evidence that the stairs and floors would need refinishing.

Race you for the corner bedroom? Olivia teased, without moving toward the steps.

Inara laughed at the reminder of their childhood, felt for the panel of light switches next to the door, and turned each one on. As the lights along the upper balconies came on, she lifted her gaze to the row of bedroom doors on the right side. I’m sleeping in Dahlia’s house tonight, and seeing all this dust, I bet you’re going to want to as well.

Making quick time, she and Olivia swept through the main hall, pulling back drapes, opening French doors to let in air and sun, and whipping dustcovers off furniture to reveal antiques they’d never appreciated as kids.

"Now this is Rothesay," Olivia said with her hands on her hips as they surveyed the long hall, its floor covered by two piles of dusty sheets.

Much better, Inara agreed, but then her gaze flicked upward. Except for one thing. She sprinted up the stairs and continued down the long balcony until she came to the back of the house and the open sitting area where the ladies of the house would take afternoon tea and while away the hours knitting and gossiping. She tugged open the drapes covering the sitting room windows and then felt her breath catch.

The view was unbelievable. From the back terrace stretched a wide green lawn—freshly mowed like the front by some mystery caretaker—followed by a strip of native forest growth separating the lawn from rocks that dropped sharply into the sound. The water sparkled between the firs, cedars, and madronas, and it pulled at her, making her want to forget her inspection and go sit on the black rocks on the beach where the water, ripe with kelp, would lap just out of reach. There, every sense would be filled to the brim, and for once, she’d be alive.

Where did that thought come from? She hadn’t been dead these past years, just busy getting an education, making something of herself.

Shaking her head, she turned away from the windows, promising herself time at the water before they caught the ferry home tomorrow.

Ignoring the dustcovers on the sitting room furniture, Inara crossed to the balcony railing and looked down on the great hall. Olivia had disappeared, but several of the doors off the main hall were open, leading her to assume her sister was investigating the first floor.

She could almost hear her family’s laughter echoing through the house, her mother’s voice calling her to grab her purse because they were going to kayak to Eastsound for lunch. Olivia’s teenage voice protesting the venture. Nate’s begging for one more minute on the phone with his girlfriend.

Within a few months, Inara would hand over the estate keys to its new owner and then she’d walk away forever. Immediately on the heels of that thought came a sense of panic that surprised her. Why did she care? She’d done just fine without this place for a long time.

But she’d always known it was here, waiting for her. She wanted the kids she’d have someday to know the joy of summers at Rothesay. Her siblings’ kids had been missing out, but they were young and had plenty of summers left to spend here. If she sold the property, she’d be depriving the next generation of its birthright.

But she had to sell. She had no choice. She had to be a responsible adult and unload this place on someone who would put it to good use. Besides, she’d be busy with her new job. She didn’t have time to maintain a property she’d hardly ever get to see.

Inara headed back down the stairs to find her sister and get to work inspecting the manor and listing everything needed to fix it up before putting it on the market.

Three hours later, she unlocked the door leading into Dahlia’s kitchen. You should bring the kids up here before it sells, she told her sister as they stepped inside, but then she stopped short. The room settled around her, flashing her to the past while simultaneously stabbing her heart with Dahlia’s absence. Oh my…

It’s like Dahlia and Nancy just stepped out a moment ago, Olivia whispered.

Seattle Times newspapers overflowed from a wicker basket on the Formica countertop, and a stack of dog-eared novels graced the kitchen table. Next to the sink sat a fat, white tea mug with a lip-shaped pink stain on the rim. Dahlia’s pink. The one in the gold tube she always had with her. The same pink that matched the streak of pink she’d colored into her hair the summer Inara turned twelve. In all the years since, Inara still hadn’t met another eighty-year-old with the spirit to match her hair to her lipstick. The sight made Inara’s eyes sting and she had to turn away.

The stairs to the second floor started in the kitchen. A pair of fuzzy yellow slippers waited on the bottom step for their owner, holding down a corner of the worn carpet runner that had once been tacked onto the steps but was now curling up from the bottom.

Family lore told of how Duncan Campbell had purchased the property before the turn of the twentieth century and lived in this part of the house, which the previous owner had built, while adding on the rest of the manor where he eventually entertained guests with grand parties.

Other tales, shared only in private, told of the oddballs in the family. Like Duncan’s wife. She’d lived here year-round even though her husband spent much of his time in Seattle running the shipping company. She—Gretna, if Inara remembered correctly—had been diagnosed with a nervous constitution and preferred to live her days in the peace of the island, disturbed only by her husband’s many parties.

Each generation brought another oddball, including Inara’s favorite—Dahlia. Being a fiercely independent young woman uninterested in finding a husband or obtaining an education, Dahlia had jumped at the chance to move to the island in her early twenties to become the estate’s caretaker and live her life as she chose. After that, as far as Inara knew, Dahlia had rarely left the island.

Standing in Dahlia’s house now, away from her father’s expectations, Inara realized this was the only place where she’d ever felt encouraged to be herself. She had the somewhat uncomfortable realization that with Dahlia gone, she was the next one. The next family oddball.

How else could Inara explain the totally crazy thought that had been niggling at her mind since she’d stepped out of her car? She kind of wanted to stay here. She wanted to turn her back on a job most people would kill for and spend every day dabbling with paint and plaster and everything else she and Olivia had just listed that was required to put the estate back together.

A laugh escaped her before she even felt it coming, surprising her by echoing through the room.

Olivia stuck her head in from the adjoining living room. What’s so funny?

Inara laughed again as she reached for a pink-and-purple shawl Dahlia had left hanging by the back door and wrapped it around herself. How do I look? Like a woman who could run a bed-and-breakfast?

A bark of shocked laughter burst out of her sister, sending them both into a fit of giggles. You’re not serious.

Inara tilted her head to the side and considered. What if I am? Dahlia left me that binder with all the plans and projections. Blueprints even. I think the hardest part would be telling Dad I was turning Starbucks down.

Nodding in agreement, Olivia came fully into the room. But how would you pay for renovations? I know I wasn’t the only one noting all the work that needs doing in the manor just to make it livable. And you still owe on your student loans.

Inara considered. Maybe I could take the job for a few years and work on the estate on weekends and holidays. God, that sounded exhausting.

Olivia nodded, but her expression clearly showed she wasn’t convinced. Then, like the levelheaded big sister she was, she simply shrugged. Well, you don’t have to decide right this minute. Let’s check out the rest of the house.

Agreeing, Inara turned to the CD player on the counter and hit the Play button. Neither of them expected the screaming guitars of classic Aerosmith to fill the house, which made them stare at each other in shock before dissolving into laughter so deep Inara’s stomach was aching by the time they recovered enough to get to work. With a swipe at a tear, she pulled the notebook she’d been using to list repairs out of her back pocket and shook her head. Aerosmith. Man, she missed Dahlia.

Notepads in hand and dancing to the music, they took stock of the little house and met back in the kitchen an hour later, both starving.

I guess we should drive into town for lunch, Olivia muttered as she stared into the empty refrigerator. Some neighbor must have cleaned this out after Dahlia died.

Inara stuck her head into the pantry. Peanuts, packets of oatmeal, olive oil, balsamic vinegar. How do saltine crackers and tea sound?

Good enough for now, Olivia answered, reaching for the teapot and filling it at the sink.

With their feet up on chairs, they sat at the round kitchen table and dug into the crackers.

I could live here and hire crews to get the manor in shape, Inara mused.

Olivia narrowed her eyes. "You’re really considering

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