A Fight For Love: Tammy's Story

Introduction

This is Tammy’s story, but in order for you to understand the way she is, you need an introduction to her life from an early age. She was raised in a small midwestern town by two loving parents. She had a lot of friends throughout her school years and a steady boyfriend from the age of fourteen until she was twenty-four. That’s a long time to date the same person but she and John were perfect for each other. Her three best friends were Jackie, Cassie and Carrie. Cassie and Carrie were known around town as the Lane twins and they were a handful at times but loved Tammy like a sister. Jackie got kicked out of her house when she was barely sixteen and Tammy’s parents took her in at Tammy’s insistance. Jackie and Tammy were closer than sisters. They shared secrets that no one else knew. This is her story.

Chapter 1

The Day Of Prom

Tammy was excited, she was going to prom with her boyfriend of three years. John was the love of her life. She was the head cheerleader, he was the star pitcher of their baseball team and star center of the basketball team. They had been voted the couple most likely to live happily ever after. She was on cloud nine as she got ready for their Senior Prom.

Her best friends came to her house to get ready. They were all in Tammy’s room talking about their dates and what they hoped the night would be like.

Cassie looked at Tammy. So Tammy are you and John going to be ok when he goes to the police academy? I can’t imagine one of you without the other.

I hope so. He says he’ll come home as often as possible and call me whenever he gets a chance. All I know is that I’m going to miss him so much. Two to three years is a long time. I’m sorry. I can’t talk about it or I’ll start crying again.

I’m so sorry Tammy. Let’s concentrate on the fun we’ll have tonight. I saw the decorations in the gym and it looks amazing. Jill and her committee did a great job.

After being at the dance for a couple of hours Tammy told Cassie that she and John were going to the point and asked if she and Doug wanted to go too.

Cassie laughed at her friend. I’ve already told you at least twenty times that Doug and I are just friends. We only came to Prom together because we enjoy spending time together. I wasn’t asked so I wasn’t going. He didn’t want me to miss Prom so he offered to accompany me.

So, no thank you. Have fun but be safe. I’ll see you tomorrow. The girls hugged and Tammy went to find John.

She sat snuggled against John’s side with his arm across her shoulders. He kissed her and told her he loved her. Tammy, will you accept my promise ring? I promise to always love you, to always come home to you and be faithful to you. Will you wear it as a show of our promise to each other? He held a small solitare diamond on a white gold band in a black velvet box out to her.

Oh John, it’s beautiful. Yes I promise to always love you too, to always wait for you and to be faithful to you always. They kissed each other then John put the ring on her finger. I’m going to miss you so much. How can I live without you here? she cryed on his shoulder.

Honey, Please don’t cry. I promise I’ll be back and will visit every chance I get. I plan to continue classes through the summer. That way I can come home to you much sooner. I don’t want to be away from you either. God, I love you so much Baby. He told her as he rubbed her back in circles.

John, love me before you go please. I want that memory to hang on to. She begged him.

Tammy are you sure? This is big. Are you ready for that? he leaned back to look into her face as she answered.

John I’ve wanted you for years now but was waiting until we were married. I don’t want to wait anymore. I know we are meant to be together. I love you so much and I don’t want either of us to forget this night.

He wrapped his arms around her and kissed her with the passion he had been holding back for fear they would get carried away or he would scare her away. They learned each other’s body that night and what they liked and what they wanted for the rest of their lives.

Tammy was late getting home and was grounded for the rest of the weekend with the exception of going to her family bar. She was allowed to go there only to sing two twenty minute sets from eight to nine at night.

Two Months After Graduation

The time had finally come for John to leave for college and then the Police Academy. It was breaking his heart to leave Tammy behind but she couldn’t go with him. He wanted to do something special for her so he went to her parents to ask for permission to sing at their bar; one song, one time. They saw how much he loved Tammy and that both were hurting, so they agreed. He would have to follow the same rules that Tammy did when they let her sing there but he readily agreed and thanked them. He also wanted to know if they would record it for Tammy to keep and replay when she was missing him; again they agreed.

Saturday night before he was to leave, he went in the back door and waited in the storage room until Tammy finished her second set then as she was thanking everyone and getting ready to exit the stage he walked out and asked for a chair for Tammy to sit on. The band leader brought a bar stool and a mic. John took the mic and thanked him. He was very nervous. They had been in choir together so he new he was a pretty good singer but he hadn’t ever sung solo on a stage with everyone watching him.

He turned to the audience and asked. I’d like to sing one song if you’ll indulge me. I don’t do this sort thing very often. Then laughed nervously, Actually this is a first for me; so thank you for letting me say a special good bye to my girl. He turned to the band and nodded that he was ready. He looked at Tammy. She was smiling because she loved it when he sang to her. When the band started she cocked her head to the side for just a minute and when she recognized the song, she started crying. He sang ‘I Do’ by Mark Wills. His voice was a deep base and filled the room as well as her heart with so much love it overflowed in her tears.

When the song was over she jumped off the stool and met him in the middle of the stage. He told her he loved her and always would. I’ll be back so don’t give up on us. Then he kissed her. They turned to the audience and thanked them again as they went wild chanting for more. He told them that he had made a promise to sing only one song but would be back and maybe would get permission to sing again. They left the stage and went to the back room to wait for her parents.

Her parents showed up to tell him good bye and her mother had tears in her eyes. John that was beautiful. I knew you sang in the chior with Tammy but you have an amazing voice. You can sing in here any time you want to. She said and hugged him then kissed his cheek. Take care and hurry back.

He thanked her and asked them to take care of 'our girl' while he was gone and shook her dad’s hand.

Son I can tell you love my baby girl and I know she trusts you. I just want to tell you that I trust you too. Spend your time studing and taking care of business so you can come back home soon. God bless you and keep you safe. Her dad then gave John a hug and her parents left.

Wow I never expected that kind of reaction from them. You, I kind of figured on the tears. You have no idea how hard it was to keep singing while watching you cry. I was surprised that you managed to stay in your seat.

I had to hold on to the the seat in order to remain seated until the song was done. That was the most amazing surprise. I’ll never forget this. I love you so much. I can’t believe you got up there in front of all those people and sang. Thank you Baby for that beautiful memory. She said while hugging him. she leaned back and kissed him. Are you ready to get out of here? I had hoped that we could go somewhere special tonight.

I am more than ready. I have rented a hotel room in the city for the night just in case you wanted to spend the night with me or we can stay out late and I’ll take you home then go to the city. I don’t want you to think I expect anything from you. I just want to spend my last night with you.

I think that sounds wonderful. Can we stop by my house first before Mom and Dad get home so I can get a change of clothes for tomorrow?

For you, I’d do anything. Let’s go before they catch on and decide to meet us at your house to stop us. He said grabbing her hand and running out to his car. They laughed all the way to her house and then to the city.

They spent the night making love and just holding each other. Neither one of them wanted to sleep since it was their last time together for a long time. He drove her home in the morning and kissed her good bye as tears flowed from their eyes. He waited until she was in the house before he drove away. He didn’t want her to see him leave her.

His parents took him to the airport and said their goodbyes. Before he boarded the plane he handed his mom an envelope and asked her to give it to Tammy when they got back to town. She promised she would and they said they would help look after her and try to keep her from being too sad. He thanked them and left for college.

When his parents got to town they went straight to Tammy’s house and rang the door bell. Her mom answered the door and invited them in. She said Tammy was already upstairs crying. She had just called the other girls to come over and try to cheer her up. They will be here in a little bit. Did you need to see her? I can go get her.

His mom looked at his dad and when he shook his head she turned back to Rachel and said. I don’t know, John gave me an envelope to give to her but I don’t want to disturb her right now. Maybe I can give it to her later.

No, I was wondering how he was going to get the letter to me. He sang her a beautiful love song last night at the bar and asked that we record it so she would always have him near and said there would be a letter to go with it but I didn’t see him to get it. He didn’t say how he would get it to me. I’m glad he didn’t forgret it.

Mary Wright gave the envelope to Rachel and thanked her for doing that for John and for Tammy as well. She told Rachel to let them know if they could help Tammy in any way and to tell Tammy to stop by and see them.

Rachel shut the door and went to her bedroom where she got the original tape of John’s song and went to Tammy’s room. After knocking, she opened the door and peaked in to find Tammy curled up on the bed crying softly. She touched her shoulder and said, Tammy I have a gift for you from John. He asked me to make sure you had it as soon as he left. Mr. and Mrs. Wright just dropped off his letter. I was supposed to give you both gifts at the same time so here they are. I’ll lay them on the foot of your bed. The girls will be here shortly. She turned and quietly left the room.

As soon as the door closed Tammy looked at what her mother had left and picked up the tape and envelope. She got up to turn on the TV and VCR. She put in the tape and started it while opening the envelope. The video started as Tammy was thanking the audience last night and she could see John walking up behind her with a big smile on his face. She looked at the letter in her hands and began to read.

My Special Love,

I know right now you are probably crying and I’m sorry I am the cause of your tears. If it makes you feel any better I cried all the way from your house this morning to mine. God I miss you already. No matter what we are going through always remember that I will never stop loving you.

I had your mom record my song last night so when you’re missing me you can watch it and know that I love you and am thinking about you every minute of every day. I will be counting the days until we can be toegther again; if even for a weekend. Please try not to cry for me. It breaks my heart to know that I made you cry. Go out and do things with the girls and stay busy so the loneliness won’t be so bad. I will be studying as hard as I can and taking as many classes each semester as they will let me so I can get back to you as soon as possible.

I know this is hard on both of us but I do this so we can have a better life later. Please hang in there with me and know I love and miss you too. I’ll write when I can. I’m not sure how often that will be because of the number of classes and homework. Failure is not an option. I will not fail you. Check with my mom, I think she has my address at the dorm. Write me as often as you want. I will cherish every word. Now watch the video and remember I do cherish you and will always love you.

Your Man now and always,

John

Tammy wiped the tears away and rewound the tape and watched the video of John’s song. She played it over and over and when the girls came in she showed it to them. They all cried together.

John was only able to come home about four times that first year and twice the second. She missed him but knew he would be home soon. That was why he was going to summer classes so he could be home sooner. He was also going to the academy while finishing his last year of college.

Chapter 2

John Comes Home

John flew into the nearest airport and was thrilled, as he walked through the terminal, to see Tammy waiting for him with a smile and tears of joy on her face. He ran to her and hugged her and spun her around kissing her anywhere he could reach.

Baby, I’m so glad to see you. I was hoping you’d be the one picking me up. God, I missed you so much. John told her between kisses.

Tammy was laughing and crying and kissing him back all at the same time so she couldn’t say anything. She finnally felt whole again and was so overwhelmed with the feelings flowing through her that she didn’t even want to try to talk right now.

"Hey, are you going to be ok?’ He chuckled at her.

She just nodded and squeezed him again. "I just want to hold you and hear your voice. Please just talk to me while we get your luggage.

He chuckled again. Let’s go get my things and I will talk to you all night if that’ll make you happy. He put his arm around her waist and pulled her into his side as they went to find his luggage. So when are they expecting us home?

Not until Monday afternoon. Your mom has a special dinner planned with both sets of parents. The gang is expecting us at 'The Boot Heel’ later that night. Is that ok?

That sounds perfect as long as I get to be with you; I don’t care what we do.

Did I tell you that I moved in above the club after I took over running it. It’s not in my name yet because I’m not twenty one for a few more months yet but I still run the club and sing there. Sometimes I get Jackie to sing with me and I hired a new band that knows all of the newest songs.

How are things going there? Are you having any trouble because you’re so young and beautiful? I bet you have all the men after you.

Things are great. I have a bartender that treats me like I’m his daughter so I’m safe and all of the men that come in know that I’m taken. If I have any trouble then Jimmy steps in but I have only had to call on him a couple of times. I’ve gotten better at knowing how to avoid confrontations with the men. Now that you’re home I’m sure they will leave me alone completely.

They’d better. I don’t share what’s mine. And you have been mine for over five years, so they can just back off. There’s my luggage. Let’s go to a hotel and see if we can get reaquainted.

Umm that sounds wonderful. I’ve missed being with you. Can we stay where we did before you left?

If they have a room available I would love to revisit that time. I really would be happy to just lay beside you and hold you all night. Where’s your car?

It’s over there. She said pointing to a red 2000 mustang that her parents bought her for graduation.

They went to the car and she gave him her keys because she knew he would want to drive. It felt good just to watch him drive. She sat in the passenger seat watching him, remembering the last time they were going to this same hotel and the song he sang to her.

What are you thinking about? You’re awful quiet over there? He said as he glanced at her with a smile.

I was just thinking about the last time we were here and the song you sang to me before we came here. That was the best and worst time of my life.

Mine too Baby. I never wanted that night to end. Do you still have the video of the song or did you wear it out? he asked with a chuckle.

The original was worn out about four months after you were gone but Mom expected it might be, so she took it to walmart in the city and had two DVD’s made. She said she didn’t want anything to happen to the video and if it did she wanted me to have the dvd and a second in case the first one got scratched or broken. She was so sweet and made sure you were with me anytime I needed you. That was sweet of you too, to think of that. I don’t know if I could’ve gotten through these last two years without it.

I was glad you had it. I have to tell you something though. I know how you feel because I had Jackie record you one night when you were singing and send me a copy. That got me through the bad times just like my song did for you.

Oh no, what did she record. I didn’t even know she was doing that. She said and covered her face.

He reached over and took her hands in his and pulled them away from her face and looked at her. I love you and you sing with so much feeling that any one listening can feel your heart. You were singing Shania Twain’s song ‘You Got a Way’. It was the most beautiful way to show your love for me. I cherish it baby. I cherish you. He leaned over and kissed her with such reverence that she had to fight the tears.

They stayed Friday, Saturday and Sunday and never left the room except to get something to eat and then went right back to their little cocoon. They spent their time making love and just holding each other while they slept and talked. They hated to leave but their parents were anxious to see him. His parents had unselfishly told her to take the weekend to spend time with him then bring him home on Monday afternoon. She couldn’t keep him away from his family any longer.

They arrived at his parents’ house around eleven thirty and his mom ran out the door crying and called, John, oh my baby and threw herself in his arms. How are you Honey? Are you hungry? Come on in the house. Hi Tammy, sorry I didn’t mean to ignore you.

Tammy laughed At least you can talk. You should’ve seen me. I couldn’t say anything. I cried like a baby. So don’t think anything of it. We all missed him so much it hurt. She squeezed John’s waist and smiled up at him.

That we did. Tammy your parents are supposed to be here around noon. She said as she led them into the living room.

Mom you look great. Is Dad at work? I thought he’d be here. John said a little hurt that his dad couldn’t at least take a lunch break to see his son. He knew that being Chief of Police was demanding but he needed to eat and they didn’t live that far from the station.

He said he’d be here at noon for lunch and then he’ll see you tonight.

I plan on going to ‘The Boot Heel’ tonight about seven to see all the gang. Tammy has to work tonight so I want to be there too. I hope you guys understand. He didn’t want to hurt his parents but he was a grown man and wanted to be with Tammy.

Of course, he should be home around five or six. You will get to visit with him then,

I may go down to the station today while Tammy takes care if business at the club. I need to talk to him about a job. I don’t know if he even has the funds for another police officer right now.

That might be a good idea. I know he’s been saying that money is tight at the station so he may not have the money or he may only be able to offer a part-time position right now. Can I get you two something to drink before lunch?

They had lunch with the parents and then he took Tammy to the club. He went in with her, looked around and met Jimmy. She got busy talking about the weekend business and getting ready to open, so he took off to talk to his dad about a job.

His dad said he didn’t think he could work it out just yet. I’m sorry Son. I know you worked hard and deserve a position here but I don’t know if I can swing it yet. I will talk to the mayor and see what we can work out.

I understand Dad. I will see if Tammy needs help for a while until I can get on with the city. Let me know what the mayor says ok. I think I’ll go see if Tammy needs help tonight. I’ll see you later. I probably won’t be home tonight. I want to be with Tammy. Catch you later Dad.

He was pretty upset but didn’t want his dad to know. There wasn’t anything he could do if there was no money to pay another officer. There wasn’t a lot of crime in a town this size. He just hoped Tammy needed help at the club. He could work as security or a bouncer. If he stayed at home he wouldn’t need much money. He just hated to live with his parents at twenty-one especially since he had been on his own for over two years. He didn’t want to always check in like he did in high school.

When he walked in, Tammy was stocking the bar and poured him a beer then asked him how things went with his dad.

He told her what his dad had told him then asked, How did things go this weekend with you gone?

It was ok but Jimmy said there were a couple of guys stirring up some trouble all weekend so I’ll have to watch and see how things go. Are you staying or going home then coming back later?

I thought I’d stay if that‘s ok. I could even be your bouncer tonight if you want me to. I’ll take care of your problem with the two guys if they show up.

You don’t have to do that. Hang out with the gang and let loose tonight. She didn’t want him thinking she couldn’t handle the club without him. She had been doing it for the last year just fine.

Ok but if you need help just holler. I’d hate to see that pretty face messed up when I can protect it. He said with a smile and a wink.

Will you sing for me tonight. I love to hear you sing. She had to change the subject or she’d get upset with him and this was his first night back in town. She wanted him to have a good time with their friends.

I will if you will. I love to hear you sing too. Maybe we can think of a duet. What do you think?

"I would love to sing with or for you but I’ve been gone all weekend and really need to take care of the customers. Can we see how things go later. Besides it Monday night and that’s karaoke night.

I can find a great karkoke song for us, trust me. I’ve got this. He smiled that ornery smile that she loved.

You can chose a song but I want to see what it is before I agree to sing it.

Fine party pooper. I can’t believe you’d think I’d pick something you wouldn’t like. You wound me. he said as he placed his hand on his heart.

Just go pick a song so I can open the doors. It’s good to have you back. I really missed joking around with you. She said as she rounded the bar. She kissed his cheek and told him to go. As he turned to walk off she swatted his butt. I love your tight ass.

Thanks but yours is better. Maybe we can compare them later. I’ll show you mine if you show me yours. He said as he laughed and walked away.

Their friends showed up around eight o’clock and the party started with the girls singing Shania Twain’s ‘I Feel Like A Woman’. Then they all danced together.

John had a good time but watched Tammy all night to make sure she was alright. They sang Sonny and Cher’s 'I Got You Babe’ to the cheers of their friends.

When they shut the club down for the night Tammy took him upstairs. They were tired from the long weekend and the excitement of John being home so they went to bed and just held each other.

John said quietly, Honey I worry about you in the club with all those men drinking and hitting on you. Don’t get me wrong, I trust you but not all men know that no means no. I wish you’d let me work here as a bouncer. I would volunteer. You wouldn’t have to pay me. I love you and want to protect you.

John I love you too but I’ve been doing this for a year and I’m still ok. I know it’s your nature to want to protect the ones you love but I can take care of myself. Please trust me.

I do Baby. I will try to let you handle things. I will probably be here every night until I can find a job. Is that going to be a problem?

Not as long as you remember that I am working and don’t try to jump in as soon as there’s a problem.

I’ll do my best to let you do your thing. Now get some sleep and we’ll talk tomorrow. He kissed her good night and quickly fell asleep.

Things went along just fine for the next several months. Then he finally got a position on the police force so he wasn’t in the club much at night.

Chapter 3

The First Promotion

John came into the club to see Tammy with good news. He sat at the bar and asked Jimmy where Tammy was.

She’s in the back making the cheese sauce and getting things ready to open tonight. Apparently I don’t do anything right anymore. She has been on the warpath all afternoon. I’ll be honest with you, if I didn’t love her like a daughter, I’d have walked out long before now. He told John quietly.

Do you mind if I go talk to her? I’ve not known her to be like that with anyone especially those she loves.

Jimmy looked at the kitchen door and told John. Go ahead but enter at your own risk.

Thanks man. Maybe I can get her in a better mood. I’ll sure try because an unhappy Tammy is not a pretty sight.

Don’t I know it. She’s chewed my ass so many times today I’m surprised I even have one left.

Both men chuckled at Jimmy’s joke and John went into the kitchen. He saw her at a small prep table with her head in her hands. He approached slowly and crouched down so his head was even with hers. Honey are you ok? Can I get you something?

No I just need to be alone right now and get this place open.

I can help open for you. You don’t have to do it all by yourself. I am here for you no matter what you need.

I just need to be alone right now. Why can’t everyone just leave me alone? She said angrily. Then imediately felt bad. John didn’t deserve that.

Ok Baby I’ll leave you alone and check with Jimmy to see what I can do out front to help you out. I love you baby. He said as he left the kitchen.

I love you too. She whispered. She pulled the letter from her coat pocket and reread it for the fifth time today. She wiped the tears from her cheeks and got back to work.

John helped get the club ready to open but kept out of her way. He had known Tammy long enough to know when something was bothering her. She needed time to work it out in her head; then she would talk to him about it.

As the night wore on he noticed her drinking. She never drank in the club because she could lose her license if caught. He approached her and asked her to please talk to him. Honey, I want to be here for you. How can I help you if you won’t talk to me? Please, let me help. He tried to hug her but she stepped away from him.

John, you don’t understand. No one can help ok. I just want to forget. Can’t you just give me space? I need to think or forget. I don’t know. I just need to be alone.

I don’t understand because you won’t talk to me and help me understand. I’m trying to help you but you won’t open up. God, it’s so frustrating to watch you drink so much and know that you could lose you license when it’s all so unnessessary. Just talk to me. He was getting angry and tired of her pushing him away. All he wanted to do was help and protect her. He took ahold of both of her arms and looked her in the eyes. At least go upstairs so I don’t have to arrest you and shut your place down. Tammy, I’m the law here. I love you but that’s my job.

Screw you Officer John. I’ll go upstairs but I want you out of my club. Now. She said as she jerked out of his arms.

Fine, I’ll go but I’m only trying to protect you like I always do. Just so you know I got a promotion today so that’s Sergeant John now. I love you but I’m going. Let me know when you’re ready to talk. With those final words he left the kitchen and the club. On his way out he asked Jimmy to get her upstairs before the place was shut down for serving a minor.

Tammy had felt bad but refused to back down. How dare he threaten to shut me down when he knows this is all I have now. I can’t lose this place. I have to have a place for Joe to come to when he returns, and he will return. I have to hold on to that or I will go crazy.

She had gotten a letter from the war department stating that her favorite cousin was missing. They classed him MIA. She and her paremts were the only family he had left. Her parents had signed the club over to her last year so they clould travel. Her mom had been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. The added stress of running the club was not good for her, so they were just enjoying life now. That left Tammy to hold down the home front for Joe.

It was almost a month before she missed John so much that she couldn’t stand it. She went to him at his parents house and asked if they could talk. He agreed but was reluctant to give her much at this point. It had been a month since they had last talked and he was hurt that it had taken her so long to come to him. He was at the club every night that he wasn’t working. As they went to the front porch swing he asked, What can I do for you, Tammy? I have to get to work in a little while.

I don’t blame you for being angry. I’ve treated you horribly and don’t deserve your forgiveness but I’m asking for it anyway. I love you and want to be with you. I miss you so much. I don’t want to go through this alone any more.

I see. You need me now so you want me to just accept that you’re sorry and come back as if you haven’t hurt me? Make no mistake, what you’re seeing here isn’t anger it’s hurt. I’ve been here for you through everything good and bad. Then you shut me out and tell me to leave you alone. Again I gave you what you said you wanted. Now you’re back telling me what you want and expect me to give that too. Well why not? It’s what I’ve always done isn’t it.

John, I never meant to hurt you. I just had things I had to think about and couldn’t talk about them. I just needed time to get myself and my situation figured out. I’m not there completely but I’m ready to talk to you about what has had me so upset and not acting like myself, if you want to hear it

Let me think about it. I’m not saying this to hurt you. I never want to hurt you but I also don’t want to put myself back in a position to be hurt like this again. Give me some time ok. I just want to say that I love you and always will but we have the power to hurt and possibly distroy each other. I don’t want that to happen. He kissed her forehead and went back into the house. I’ll be in the club after my shift. Maybe we’ll talk then.

She left and prayed that she hadn’t ruined everything between them.

He thought about what he was feeling for her, how badly she had hurt him. He didn’t want to jump back in and let her think it was ok to treat him the way she had but he missed her too. They had been together for over five years and you don’t just throw that away. He decided that he would forgive her and help her with whatever problem she was having but as for their relationship, he was going to be cautious.

He met her at the club that night and they made up. She told him about Joe and he held her while she cried in the kitchen. They went into the club and tried to forget for a few hours. They danced and enjoyed their friends. John went back to his parents’ house that night and every night for about two weeks; much to Tammy’s disappointment.

He had been staying at her place again for a while now. Things were going along fine. Now it was just a week before her birthday. He wanted it to be special. Her birthday fell on a Monday so they were going to have to be at the club because it was Karaoke Night and they were always busy those nights. He had taken her to the big city on Sunday for dinner and they had spent the night in their favorite hotel before heading back home on Monday.

Monday night John had made arangements with her parents to surprise her at the club. As things started to get busy John had snuck them into the storage room; the same room they had hidden him in a few years ago. He called her up to the stage for her birthday song. She sat on a bar stool just like the time before he left for college. He cued the song; Randy Travis’ Forever And Ever Amen’ . When the song’s last note faded she was hugged from behind by her parents. She squealed, jumped from her seat and turned to face them. John held her from behind and told her, I wanted you to have something special for your birthday." She looked over her shoulder at him and kissed his cheek then went to her parents.

They hugged and spent a couple of hours talking and sharing what was happening in their respective lives. Then her parents went home with a promise of a visit with Tammy the next day.

Once they were gone Tammy turned to John and thanked him for getting her paremts here for her birthday. You couldn’t have gotten me anything I’d have loved more. It was nice to visit but now I want to dance with you. Will you dance with me Johnny?

He grinned because she only called him Johnny anymore when she was feeling the love they shared so strong that she was fighting tears. It made him feel invincible. I would love to dance with you Baby. Will you give me just a few minutes. I need the men’s room but then I’m all yours. He kissed her and went to the men’s room.

The girls joined her now that she was alone and brought her another drink and started talking about what they should all sing for her birthday song. A couple of men at least five years older than they were came up to invite her and Jackie to dance. They told Cassie they would be back to dance with her. She told them that she didn’t want to dance and just wanted to hang with her friends.

Tammy told them that they appreciated the offer but were just having some girls’ time right now. I would like to offer you a drink. I own this club so just tell the bartender that I said to give you a drink on me.

I would love to have a drink ON you. said the tallest of the two.

They both had had enough to drink and she waved to Jimmy as she asked them to please leave her club. I don’t allow drunks in here. People come in here to drink and have a good time not to get drunk. I’m sorry fellas but you will have to leave. Jimmy, would you see these two out for me?

You got it boss, let’s go boys. Jimmy said.

They were yelling obscenities at her as they were escorted out by Jimmy and a few other customers. John had stood back and held his temper while Tammy handled it. It had taken everything he had not to jump in and make sure they left her and the others alone but was trying to give her what she wanted. Again.

He walked up to the table and asked Tammy if she was ready to dance with him. He could tell the two men had shaken her nerves and wasn’t sure if she still wanted to dance right now. She forced a smile and said Of course I do. What took you so long? Let’s go. Ladies we’ll be back soon. Save us a seat. She told Jackie and Cassie as she took his arm.

Are you ok? You’re shaking. John said. Come here and let me hold you. He was going to tell her how proud of her he was for the way she had handled those two goons when she spoke.

It’s your nearness that causes the tremors Baby. I love the feeling of being in your arms.

It dawned in him then that she wasn’t going to tell him about the two drunks. So much for trust. So it’s my nearness that has you trembling? he asked again.

Yes. Is that so hard to believe? You are a very sexy man.

Oh then it had nothing to do with those two men that just left with an escort? He said getting angry that she didn’t intend to tell him about what had just happened.

You saw that? Well it was nothing. I handled it. Now we can enjoy the rest of our night. She said as if she thought nothing of keeping it from him.

So tell me, were you going to tell me about them? I’m just wondering because I did what you asked and stayed out of it. I still would like to believe that you planned to explain why you were trembling.

John please, it’s no big deal. Can’t we just enjoy the rest of the night. It’s not like this is the first time I’ve had to deal with things like that.

I’m sorry but I feel it is a big deal when you keep things from me. I want to protect you but you don’t want that. I don’t like it but I’ve tried to accept it. What I can’t accept is that the woman who claims to love me can keep something like this from me and then to blow it off like I have no right to know when other men make lewd coments and threaten her.

I handled it John. I didn’t need you; not for your protection. She said angry now that he was making it sound like she didn’t love him.

I see. Then I guess I’ll go. Maybe there is someone out there that does need me. With that he dropped his hands, kissed her forehead and wished her a Happy Birthday then turned to leave.

She went after him and caught him at the door. With tears in her eyes she told him it wasn’t like that. I do need you and love you. I just don’t need your protection. Please stay. She begged.

I can’t stay. I love you but won’t live with half-measures. I want all of you and to give ALL of me or nothing at all. That’s the only way we will ever make it Tammy. Ultimately, it’s your decision. And with that he left the club.

She watched him go and couldn’t believe how things had been so good one minuute and was over the next. She was standing by the door crying when the girls walked up to her and enveloped her in a group hug. They talked about what happened and drank too much then spent the night at Tammy’s apartment.

* * * * * *

Both Tammy and John put everything they had into their careers. Her business was growing and she finally got another letter from the war department saying that Joe was found and was being sent back to the states for rehab on his enjuries and therapy for PTSD. She was so excited that she didn’t realize were she was going until she was at John’s doorstep.

She knocked on his door and waited for him to answer. He came to the door with just his work pants on and a towel thrown around his neck. She was shocked to see his muscular chest. He must work out a lot to have developed pecs like that in the months since they’d been split up.

Hi John, I see you’re getting ready for work but can I come in for just a minute. I want to tell you something then I’ll leave. He opened the door without a word and spread his arm in a welcoming gesture that he wasn’t feeling. It still hurt too much to be this close to her and not be able to hold her.

She stepped through the door and waited for him to close it. He didn’t invite her to sit so she guessed she would just tell him her good news and leave.

I thought you’d want to know that I heard from the war department again. They won’t tell me the particulars but they found Joe and he is coming back to the states.

I’m glad to hear it. Is he ok? He was mising a long time.

I don’t know. They said he needs rehab and therapy for PTSD. I’m not sure how long it’ll take for him to get back here but I plan on fixing up the other apartment above the club for him. Do you think he will want to live there?

I’m sure it’ll make him feel better being close to you. I’m happy for you Tammy. I know how upset and worried you’ve been.

Thanks John. How have you been? We don’t see much of you around the club anymore.

I’ve been busy at the station. Dad hasn’t been feeling well so he’s been letting me help him with some of the administratve work. It probably isn’t proper protocol but he isn’t ready to give up his job just yet. How have you been?

I’ve missed you but been busy too. The club is hopping most nights so I stay busy.

Yeah I noticed that business is good. Say Hi to Jimmy for me ok.

Oh ok. I guess I’ll let you finish getting ready for work. It was good to see you again John. Stop by sometime and I’ll buy you a drink. He opened the door and she stepped out.

I might just do that Tammy. Take care of yourself. He shut the door and took a deep breath.

It was a couple of weeks until they met up at ‘The Diner’ one afternoon and decided to talk about what happened to them. John explained that he couldn’t shut off his natural protective nature but had learned to control acting on it the night of her birthday. Tammy apologized for not trusting him to do as he said he would and was afraid he would go after the two men because of the things they had said. She also admitted that if she’d been a man she would flattened them herself. They had laughed at that.

They got back together for another three months until his dad retired and he got the position as Chief of Police and had very little time to spend with her while he learned how to be totally in charge. Her complaint was that they had just gotten back together and she didn’t want to be away from him so much. His complaint was that she didn’t need him at night anyway so he could study and figure out what he was supposed to be doing while she worked the club. It wan’t long before they were fighting all the time again and they decided maybe they were better off apart. They just couldn’t seem to get it right so they split up.

That was about two years ago. They still saw each other at the club and when they were out with their mutual friends but couldn’t be in the same room for long without arguing. Their friends stopped inviting them to the same get togethers. After several months John was able to take a regular shift and was off most nights. He would work one night a week every other week just to keep up on the night shifts. He could observe and see if any changes needed to be made in either those working that shift or procedures.

Once he had nights off again he took to spending his nights in the club until everyone left then he’d go home. He still felt the need to be there to protect Tammy. Not long before Joe arrived Jimmy said he wanted to move to Arizina to be with his kids and grandkids; so Jackie had filled in at the bar. John made sure he or one of his men were in the bar every night during that time to protect the ladies.

It did help when Joe had come home a few months after John’s big promotion came through. Joe was quiet but he did a good job of keeping an eye on things. He was also trained in hand to hand combat so John didn’t worry about anything getting out of hand.

Chapter 4

Happy Birthday

Cassie had let Jackie talk her into going to her Boutique for an outfit as her birthday gift. The first one was ridiculous and she was sure Jackie had just used it so Cassie would accept the next one. It was still not something she felt comfortable with but decided to give in so they could get this night over with.

Geez Jackie, could you pick out a pair of jeans any tighter. I’m not sure you can see my ass dimples in these.

Jackie threw back her head and laughed then put her arm around Cassie and said, They look great. You look amazing! I’m so jealous. You have all the curves in all the right places. That outfit just shows them all off to perfection. No they aren’t your regular jeans and baggie t-shirt but that’s a good thing girl. Just accept you’re Hot and flaunt it for one night. Come on Tammy is waiting for us and we have some celebrating to do.

They went to the club for a fun night of drinking, dancing, and flirting with all the cowboys. Tammy and Jackie decided it was time to get their friend to lighten up and enjoy life for a change. Her friends were like steam rollers that were out of control when they got something in their heads. All she could do was hold on tight and hope to survive the night unscathed.

It’s about time you two got here! I was just getting ready to go find you. We have some serious partying to do. WOW! Cassie you look great. I hate to admit it but Jackie you did good. Tammy hollered from behind the bar as soon as they walked in the door.

Thanks Tammy. I just feel uncomfortable in these clothes. They are too tight and I can’t even close this jacket all the way. The girls could make an unexpected appearance at any time, if I make one wrong move. Cassie said as she tried to close the jacket over her ample cleavage. Jackie had given her a pair of skinny jeans with a bright pink halter top. When Cassie had complained about the halter, Jackie had given her a denim jean jacket that wouldn’t quite close over her ample breasts.

Tammy had average size breasts but Cassie and Carrie had been blessed - like Dolly Pardon. They we embarrassed by them but Tammy always wished she had more than she did; ok maybe not as much as the Lane twins but just more.

"You’ve been hiding long enough behind your old