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    Chase in Shadow

    By Amy Lane

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    Johnnies: Book One

    Chase Summers: Golden boy. Beautiful girlfriend, good friends, and a promising future.

    Nobody knows the real Chase.

    Chase Summers has a razor blade to his wrist and the smell of his lover’s goodbye clinging to his skin. He has a door in his heart so frightening he’d rather die than open it, and the lies he’s used to block it shut are thinning with every forbidden touch. Chase has spent his entire life unraveling, and his decision to set his sexuality free in secret has only torn his mind apart faster.

    Chase has one chance for true love and salvation. He may have met Tommy Halloran in the world of gay-for-pay—where the number of lovers doesn’t matter as long as the come-shot’s good—but if he wants the healing that Tommy’s love has to offer, he’ll need the courage to leave the shadows for the sunlight. That may be too much to ask from a man who’s spent his entire life hiding his true self. Chase knows all too well that the only things thriving in a heart’s darkness are the bitter personal demons that love to watch us bleed.

    The William Neale Award for Best Gay Romance

    2012 Rainbow Awards Honorable Mention: Best Gay Novel/Book

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherDreamspinner Press
    Release dateFeb 24, 2012
    ISBN9781613724224
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    Chase in Shadow
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    Amy Lane

    Award winning author Amy Lane lives in a crumbling crapmansion with a couple of teenagers, a passel of furbabies, and a bemused spouse. She has too damned much yarn, a penchant for action-adventure movies, and a need to know that somewhere in all the pain is a story of Wuv, Twu Wuv, which she continues to believe in to this day! She writes contemporary romance, paranormal romance, urban fantasy, and romantic suspense, teaches the occasional writing class, and likes to pretend her very simple life is as exciting as the lives of the people who live in her head. She’ll also tell you that sacrifices, large and small, are worth the urge to write. Website: www.greenshill.com Blog: www.writerslane.blogspot.com Email: amylane@greenshill.com Facebook: www.facebook.com/amy.lane.167 Twitter: @amymaclane

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    • 5/5
      Chase's story is a real rollercoaster of emotions. Living with his secret is tearing him apart. Then Tommy comes into his life. Chase knows that Tommy is his future, but Chase has some painful decisions to make in order for that to ever happen. Dex from the first book, is like a big brother to all the guys at Johnnies. They need someone like Dex to combat all the ignorance that they have to face. I thoroughly sympathized with Chases predicament, I hate the fact that anybody has to live a lie, it's stories like Chase's that brings to the forefront the damage this can cause not only to the person who is conflicted but also everyone who loves them and is involved with them. Everyone seems to have a different opinion about Chase's behavior...more so than any of the other books in this series...but like books of any genera there will be some that love it and some that hate it. I was on the side that loved it. Like all of Amy Lane's stories, is beautifully written and I will give it a 5-star rating.
    • 3/5
      Chase Summers has put together the perfect life. His girlfriend, Mercy, is perfect. Their relationship is perfect. And yet, Chase isn't happy. And his construction job isn't paying what he needs to give Mercy the life she deserves. So when he learns of a gay-for-pay porn website that is hiring--and pays well--he actually decides to give it a shot. After all, it's just for money, right?

      When Chase meets Tommy Halloran, however, he has to admit that maybe he's not quite as straight as his "gay-for-pay" resume indicates. Tommy is a fellow performer, and while they never perform together on camera, they fall quickly into a romantic and sexual relationship that seems like it might provide them both exactly what they need. But Chase and Tommy both have demons to face. And Chase doesn't seem very willing to face his. He'll have to, though, if he wants to make it out of both of his relationships alive...

      This is heavy. Heavier than you might expect from reading the blurb. It's not really angsty, but Chase is carrying some massive baggage with him that comes to a head in some pretty dramatic ways. But what's really inspiring in this story is the way that friends come together for each other and support each other when they need it--even if they've made some not-so-intelligent decisions to get into the situation in the first place.

      Content warning: discussions of suicide and attempted suicide
    • 5/5
      I absolutely loved this book. My heart broke for Tommy but also for Chase. I know he was kind of an a-hole, but I can't even begin to imagine how messed up I'd be if I was young and walked in on a parent who had killed themselves, only to have the other parent yell and blame me and call me names, so I do have to cut him a bit of a break. At least he realized that it wasn't worth dying over and came out of the closet to be with Tommy even though he knew it was going to be rough. (So glad to see Doc from Talker again!) I think in real life most people wouldn't have the guts to keep living and come out, so I think Chase was totally brave for what he did.

      I've heard that there will be another book in this series, and I don't know if it'll be a follow-up for Tommy and Chase or if it will be about some of the other guys, but I would LOVE to see all of the guys get their own story. I grew to love all of the Johnnies, and I would love for Dex to get a HEA, to figure out whether Kane is actually ac/dc, ac/ac or a little bit of both, and maybe see if he ends up with Chelle (Donnie's sister), and I especially want to see what happens with Ethan who was disowned by his family near the end of this one. He seemed like the fun, always happy, life of the party kind of guy from the little bit of his Johnnies' shoots we got to see, but at this end of this one we see that he gets disowned by his family, and he's actually kind of lonely, so I really hope he finds someone very special.
    • 5/5
      Wow!

      Just wow......!

      How can I possibly articulate what I'm feeling/thinking? There's no way to describe the emotions that this book has evoked in me.

      It's a love story. It's a story that tells of love hidden, feelings locked away behind doors and never dealt with. Feelings that threatened to drown Chase if the door ever is opened. Pain, fear, guilt, love, sorrow, more guilt and even more love. Fun, laughter and sadness. All these feelings come into play and Amy Lane plays them beautifully.

      Never too much, the whole of the emotion never quite overtook me, but boy, did it make me feel. Never to the point of being overwhelmed, but definitely balanced on that fine knifes' edge of nearly too much, nearly have to stop reading to be able to breathe. It's a book I couldn't put down. I had to keep reading until I knew that Chase was going to make it!

      Definitely a favourite!
    • 5/5
      An emotionally exhausting read, but in good way. Highly recommend. If you don't like angst or drama it may not be for you.
    • 4/5
      A really great story. I loved the glimpse into gay porn actors' lives (or how I like to imagine it to be :-)) - it was both funny and hot.
      But the most part of this book was sad - some parts even devastating. Chase had a really tragic childhood and this haunts him still when he decides to start a career in homosexual adult movies.
      He is deeply closeted in the beginning, complete with girlfriend and ensuing life-style. Then he meets another "actor", Tommy, and falls in love. And his whole carefully build life , crumbles around him. It hurts a bit to read that, BUT the HEA is waiting around the corner. What I loved about the story: To reach the HEA Chase and Tommy had to wade through a lot of s***. Their happiness doesn't come easy or cheap, they had to work hard for it. The last part has a very realistic and great feel about it. The mental problems Chase has because of his mother's suicide, his own attempt and the consequences felt serious and were not brushed over - this might be a bit surprising for a romance novel, and in my opinion makes this one better than the average.
      Why not 5 stars? Because of Chase's behaviour: rather attempting suicide in the bathroom he shares with his girlfriend, than breaking up with her. This is really cruel. I wouldn't have been able to forgive him for that. And it wasn't wholly convincing, why he stayed together with Mercy - her being part of the perfect picture, fine, but when he knew he loved Tommy and still couldn't break up with her, that somehow felt wrong. Also the whole "Now that we are together for 3 months, let's raise a baby together" part, I disliked alot. With Chase being still in the beginning of therapy (therapy is no magic trick and takes surprisingly longer than a few weeks or even months to heal a person's soul) and relying on anti-depressants, I didn't think, that this was cute, romantic or a good turn of events. It was not necessary imo and didn't enhance the story.
    • 5/5
      READ THIS BOOK. So very good...poignant, sweet, sad, funny, hopeful. Parts were so painful, I didn't think I'd get thru them but the end result was so rewarding. I just LOVED this book.
    • 2/5
      I'm not sure what it was about this book that just didn't do it for me - maybe it was more than one thing - but I didn't like it. And it's kind of funny, because I expected to love it. I was expecting it to be a top ten book for me. I mean, the summary is really like crack when it comes to what I want to see in a romance. We have a shit ton of angst, mental issues, self-harm and self-loathing in spades, and the promise of many tears to be shed. And the author is Amy Lane, and I've liked all of her other books that I've read before (granted, it's not like I've read her whole back catalog, but I've read at least a few).And I just...didn't like it, and I don't know how to put it any better than that.Maybe it was all of the cheating. Maybe I just don't like gay porn stars in romances. Maybe it was the fact that Tommy kept getting compared to Loki. Maybe I just wished Chase would make up his fucking mind already. Maybe some stuff hit a little too close to home for my tastes. Hell, I don't know. It just didn't trigger anything in me except me compulsively checking my Kindle progress to see how much farther I had to go until I was done with this book. Also, sooooo not a fan of the pregnancy plot. If it had been introduced earlier in the book and that had been a big reason why Chase was staying with his girlfriend, I could have maybe...nah, who am I kidding, I still wouldn't have been a fan of it. But I think it might have served more of a purpose, at least. Because, really, the only two "purposes" I saw it serving, as it was placed in the book, was 1) showing that Mercy was just as "bad" as Chase, because she messed with his condoms to get pregnant and 2) giving Tommy and Chase the opportunity to become fathers. I don't like either of those things. I felt the author had gone to great lengths to show that Mercy was a "good" person, whatever that means, and to just make her do a complete 180 to make another (and a male) character feel better about the fact that he cheated on her, lied to her repeatedly, had unprotected sex with multiple partners, etc, etc. No. It doesn't help that Amy Lane went on record as saying that the reason she writes gay romance is because she's "tired of women's nasty, mean games, and don't want to write about them...Backbiting and undermining of friends' goals and aspirations aren't often found in gay romance since men are more direct in their interactions." source But...she is the one who wrote Mercy this way? And people are people - there are "bitchy" ones of all genders, not just women. This rubs me incredibly wrong. And kind of makes me want to run into the safe, comforting arms of lesbian fiction for a while, haha.Also, Mercy and Chase are pretty much kids themselves. Chase is like, what, twenty? I feel like he's a bit young to become a father, especially since he's just now discovering what he wants in life. Let the guy have some fun. I felt like the kid angle just kind of made him and Tommy become cemented to one another for life, since there's a kid involved.And who, really, upon finding that his boyfriend (who has been with his girlfriend during your entire relationship) is ECSTATIC about finding out that he got his girlfriend pregnant (unintentionally, but still)? Tommy didn't even ask if Chase was going to try to work it out with Mercy for the kid's sake, didn't express any "oh my god, this is the straw that is breaking my back, I just can't deal with this" moments, etc, etc. Instead, he was just super happy and was like "yay we're gonna be daddies!" This was assuming that Mercy wouldn't stand in the way of them raising the kid together (he doesn't know that at the time). It just felt...weird. Very weird. The more I think about this, the more the book just doesn't sit right with me.I don't think I'll be continuing the series, but I will probably read more from Amy Lane in the future. However, I am finding some of the things discussed under the spoiler tag above to be pretty problematic for me.