Praying Our Goodbyes
By Joyce Rupp
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Everyone has unique goodbyes—times of losing someone or something that has given life meaning and value. With the touch of a poet, Joyce Rupp offers her wisdom on "these experiences of leaving behind and moving on, the stories of union and separation that are written in all our hearts." Praying Our Goodbyes, Rupp says, is about the spirituality of change.
It is a book for anyone who has experienced loss, whether a job change, the end of a relationship, the death of a loved one, a financial struggle, a mid-life crisis, or an extended illness. It is designed to help readers reflect, ritualize, and re-orient themselves—to help heal the hurts caused by goodbyes and the anxieties encountered when one season of life ends and another begins.
Joyce Rupp
Joyce Rupp is well known for her work as a writer, retreat leader, and spiritual midwife. She serves as a consultant for the Boundless Compassion program. Rupp is the author of numerous bestselling books, including Praying Our Goodbyes, Open the Door, Return to the Root, Jesus, Friend of My Soul, and Jesus, Companion in My Suffering. Her award-winning books include Boundless Compassion, Fly While You Still Have Wings, and Anchors for the Soul. She is a member of the Servite (Servants of Mary) community.
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Praying Our Goodbyes - Joyce Rupp
America.
Dedication
To Dad
his wisdom, laughter,
enthusiasm for life
and deep love of the earth
are among my greatest treasures
and
to Emily Palmer, O.S.M.,
Servite sister and friend,
her courage in living
and in dying
has blessed me
Contents
Preface to the Second Edition
Preface to the First Edition
Acknowledgments
Introduction
Chapter 1: The Ache of Autumn in Us
Chapter 2: I Know How the Flowers Felt
Chapter 3: Hello—Goodbye—Hello
Chapter 4: Like a Flock of Homesick Cranes
Chapter 5: Praying Our Goodbyes
Chapter 6: New Melodies Break Forth From the Heart
Prayers for Those Experiencing Goodbyes
Prayer of One Seeking Shelter in the Storms of Life
Prayer of One Who Feels Broken Apart
Prayer of a Pilgrim Who Struggles With the Journey
Prayer for a Lonely Day
Prayer to Regain One’s Inner Strength
Prayer of Farewell to One Who Is Leaving
Prayer of One Who Has Been Betrayed By Another
Prayer of One Who Is in Constant Physical Pain
Prayer of One Who Feels Lost
Prayer of One Experiencing Adult Transition
Prayer of One Who Is Moving On
Prayer of One Terminating a Relationship
Prayer When a Loved One Has Died
Prayer For Trust When Experiencing a Loss
Prayer of One Who Waits in Darkness
Prayer of Goodbye to the Lies of My Life
Prayer of Parents Whose Child Has Died
Prayer to Unite With Jesus in Suffering
Prayer of One Who Feels Terribly Poor Inside
Prayer for One Going to a New Ministry
Prayer to Accept a Parent
Prayer of One Weary With Walking Others Through Their Goodbyes
Prayer of One Who Needs Inner Healing
Prayer of One Who Yearns for a New Heart
Notes
Selected Bibliography
Preface to the Second Edition
Twenty years ago I held the first copy of this book in my hands. Little did I know then that the coming years would bring a myriad of challenging and growthful goodbyes. As I look back over the last two decades, I am surprised at the amount of losses but also grateful for having survived and matured through those experiences.
During this period I left a cherished job because of irresolvable differences with an employer, moved several times, and ended a destructive relationship. I journeyed with my mother’s aging and dying process, vigiled in a hospital room for three days while the person who most knew and loved my soul slowly slipped away, accompanied a dear friend while brain cancer diminished her, wept with my beloved cousin the day she received her diagnosis of inflammatory breast cancer, said goodbye to special relatives, and supported many treasured people in their last months of life. Along with these hard goodbyes, I companioned family members, colleagues, and acquaintances as they faced their struggles with job loss, children’s poor choices, clinical depression, car accidents, and life-threatening illnesses.
The content and focus of Praying Our Goodbyes sustained me during these past twenty years. I continually reminded myself when heartache consumed me that all is on loan
and that better days would follow. When sadness never seemed to leave, I remembered the necessity of eventually letting go
and that the journey does not conclude with goodbye but is followed by hello.
The pattern of growth as one of life, death, resurrection
provided both solace and hope. Because of the assurances that I penned in this book, I found greater meaning in my time of need and grew in my ability to love. My encounters with suffering taught me how necessary compassion is. I now feel drawn to extend this essential gift to everyone who hurts.
Through the years since this book was published, people from numerous countries have sent me letters describing their stories of loss and expressing their gratitude for Praying Our Goodbyes. I am humbled by how much of their pain they share with me. I continually discover more about the depths of grief and the amazing resiliency of the human spirit. I have learned, too, how helpful the prayers in this book are for those who choose to use them. For some persons, the prayers are an opening to the healing process. For others, the prayers provide the final closing of the door to a period of challenging transition.
We can know a lot about how to live through the experience of unwanted goodbyes and, yet, there is no magic remedy to move us quickly through our difficult farewells. What does make a difference is how we approach these goodbyes. If we move through the crushing anguish by tending to our hurting self and allow others to be there for us, if we rest our weariness on the heart of God and give ourselves sufficient time to heal, we will find comfort, courage, and the willingness to move forward.
In the days nearing the death of my dear cousin Theresa, I felt overwhelming sorrow. As I walked into her kitchen, I noticed an anonymous quote posted on the refrigerator door: Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.
That quote lifted my heart and helped me remember the deeper truth: that loss and death are not the end of the story.
When a person or a part of life that we treasure slips away from us, it is natural to feel that our world as we once knew it is over. We cannot imagine how we might go on, and sometimes we do not want to go on. We wonder if we will ever feel joy again. Like the caterpillar, our grieving thoughts and distressful emotions lead us to believe all is ended, but what is happening in the darkness of our grief and the desolation of letting go is that our life is slowly being transformed. In the midst of our emptiness and bleakness of heart, God is nurturing and strengthening us for future growth.
As you enter this book, trust the butterfly part of yourself. Someday you will be at peace. You will discover happiness again. Your wounded self will be healed, and you will grow strong wings to carry you forward. You will find not only that you can go on, but that you want to do so.
Preface to the First Edition
It was 1968. I had never thought about anyone in my family dying. I was young and they all seemed so full of life. Then came the phone call and my sister’s voice saying, I am so sorry to have to be the one to tell you. We lost Dave today. . . .
My twenty-three-year-old brother, the one next in age to me, had drowned. Dave was the one I dearly loved and had yearned to know better. The memory of our last time together flashed through my mind: Dave, sitting in the easy chair smiling at me, and I, feeling a kind of sadness because we had so much yet to learn and to share with one another. Our time together had seemed all too short. Strange how I remember the exact words and know precisely what I was doing at the moment when the phone rang. The shock of that message deeply embedded the details in my memory.
The painful truth of how hard it is to say goodbye started to root itself and take hold in my heart. As I look back, I feel as though I have had this book in my soul for a long, long time. While it is a book about farewell to our loved ones who have died, it is also about many other forms of goodbye in our lives, all those events and experiences in which we feel a deep sense of loss. I believe that instead of running from these goodbyes, we need to take the time to reflect upon them, to pray them.
In doing so we can become wiser, deeper and more compassionate.
Although life is difficult and always has its share of sorrows, life is also very good and deeply enriching. It holds many promises of growth and treasures of joy. It is not easy to believe this when we are hurting greatly because of our loss. Sometimes it takes years to understand and accept this truth. That is how it has been for me.
The grief of losing my brother touched numerous areas of my life. I found myself fighting, avoiding, struggling with and being angry or confused about the many forms of goodbye that I experienced: being uprooted from one place to another, deaths of family friends and a dear uncle, termination of a significant friendship of many years, betrayal by one I had really trusted, struggles with church changes and with religious life decisions. Always the inner question Why me?
accompanied any deep hurt or demands to let go. I kept asking, Why should I experience the hard things in life when I am trying my best to be good?
I also had an angry Not me!
and a pitiable Poor me!
that rose up inside my aching spirit. Over the years I developed an attitude that said life was always supposed to be a continuous hello. The hurt and wrenching ache of goodbye was not supposed to be there.
Eventually I accepted the fact that life is unfair at times, that it has its share of difficulties no matter how good I am or how much I am yearning for happiness. I began to realize that I could become a more whole human being because of the way that life sometimes pressed painfully against my happiness and my deep desire to have everything go well. I know that although I will sometimes feel broken apart or empty, eventually I will mend and be filled again.
Loss will never be easy for me, but I am much better at identifying the need to let go and at understanding the call to move on as a means of growth. Sometimes goodbyes still overwhelm me, but my questions are changing. Instead of asking Why me?
I much more readily ask How?
—How can I move gracefully through the ache of the farewells that come into my life? I also ask Who?
—Who will be with me in this process?—because I know that I cannot go through intense leave-takings without some kinship and some loving support to sustain me.
These new questions have grown in my consciousness because of a very graced moment several years ago. The reality of my battle with goodbyes finally asserted itself one early morning as I walked across the beautiful University of Notre Dame campus. I found myself on a green lawn, facing a Pieta. The Pieta was shocking to me, stark and harsh, so unlike the soft, curving, feminine touch of Michelangelo’s Woman and Son. This Pieta had sharp, angular features. The figures were full of holes. It was a black, metallic affront to my eyes, speaking loudly of suffering, of pain and agony. I could hardly bear to look at it, and I wanted to run away. But something inside of me drew me to sit and keep my eyes focused on the Woman of Sorrows who held her dead Son in her arms. Strong, powerful emotions pushed tears to my eyes. I hated the unfairness of life. I resented it in every fiber of my being. But I felt a deep yearning to discover a truth I had never possessed. As I looked and looked at the depiction of sorrow, the pain of goodbye seared through my gaze. I saw there a tremendous union of love, great strength, coupled with a heart-wrenching moment of lamentation and agony at life’s unfairness. Truly this Pieta spoke more deeply the harsh truth of farewell than anything I had ever seen.
Deep within me the words came: You must face goodbyes. You must come to terms with life’s unfairness. You cannot allow your ‘poor me’s’ and ‘not me’s’ to stunt your growth any longer. You need to use your energy to give life, not to fight death.
I continued to sit there for a long time.
When I arose, I knew what I had to do. I would walk the path of Jesus in a thirty-day Ignatian retreat, a retreat that takes one into the paschal mystery with its loss and sorrow, its hope and resurrection. I would stop running. I’d throw myself into God’s arms and I would ask God all those questions that were forever rising up to choke me. I would spend my days with Jesus: What would he say about life’s losses? What was the meaning of his own life and suffering?
That moment of decision was one of the greatest graces of my life. My thirty days with God and a wonderful retreat directress changed my inner focus. So many essential, life-giving wisdoms surfaced during those days: the hello-goodbye pattern as an integral part of all human existence, the necessity of change in order to have growth, and the need to let go before one can truly move on. I also learned that the cost of discipleship is inherent in any following of Jesus and that this following causes choices which mean goodbye to some parts of life and hello to others.
Most important, I discovered that for the Christian, hello always follows goodbye in some form if we allow it. There is, or can be, new life, although it will be different from the life we knew before. The resurrection of Jesus and the promises of God are too strong to have it be any other way.
Acknowledgments
As I completed each section of the manuscript, I sent copies for comment to a diverse group of people, each of whom has had specific experiences of goodbye. Their suggestions to improve the content and style of the manuscript were tremendously helpful. I offer deep gratitude to: Fred Brunk, MD, medical oncologist, and his wife, Mary Brunk, PhD, clinical specialist in oncology, both at Penn Clinic in Des Moines, Iowa; Bernard and Joan McLauglin, a retired couple from Logan, Iowa; Rev. Tom Pfeffer, pastor of a rural parish in Iowa; Margaret Ann Schmidt, family counselor for Lutheran Social Services, and her husband, Art Schmidt, chaplain and director of the CPE program at St. Joseph’s Hospital in Tacoma, Washington; and Joy Weideman, O.S.M., former provincial of the Servites and currently English/Literature teacher at Heelan High School in Sioux City, Iowa.
I grow ever more grateful for my editor at Ave Maria Press, Frank Cunningham; his keen insights and his challenges enabled me to bring my best to this book.
Judy Green’s sense of humor, patience and great secretarial skills blessed every page of the manuscript.
Much of my writing was done in two places of beauty and solitude. My thanks to these gracious people and the hospitality with which they always greeted me: Sharon Samek and her son, Scott, for use of their Colorado mountain home, and the Benedictine sisters at Covenant Monastery in Harlan, Iowa.
All of the participants in my courses, workshops and retreats have helped to shape this book, along with