Quakeland
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“[Francesca Lia] Block writes about the real Los Angeles better than anyone since Raymond Chandler.”—The New York Times Book Review
“[Block] uses language like a jeweled sword glittering as it cuts to the heart.”—Kirkus Reviews
After enduring from afar a seemingly endless series of outside worldwide disasters—including 9/11 and the Asian tsunami—while living in earthquake-prone Los Angeles, a bereft Katrina experiences deep inner longings for some sense of permanence, meaning, and intimacy. A preschool teacher contemplating the unsettling challenges of her mid-life, she finds solace in the company of her dear friend Grace, and conflict in the arms of a narcissistic yoga instructor, Jasper.
In this intertwining series of emotionally charged stories, wistful characters weave together a dance of joy and sorrow, gain and loss, harmony and dissonance. Beautifully written, Quakeland speaks in a deeply stirring female voice to an unspoken sense of universal longing that seems quietly prevalent in these times. It is a brave, poetic work that acknowledges the pain and loss we live with every day, and offers hope—through art and through connection—of something more.
Francesca Lia Block is renowned for her groundbreaking novels and stories, including the best-selling Weetzie Bat—postmodern, magic-realist tales for all ages. Her work transports readers through the harsh landscapes of contemporary life to magic realms of the senses where love is always a saving grace. She lives in Los Angeles.
Francesca Lia Block
Francesca Lia Block, winner of the prestigious Margaret A. Edwards Award, is the author of many acclaimed and bestselling books, including Weetzie Bat; the book collections Dangerous Angels: The Weetzie Bat Books and Roses and Bones: Myths, Tales, and Secrets; the illustrated novella House of Dolls; the vampire romance novel Pretty Dead; and the gothic werewolf novel The Frenzy. Her work is published around the world.
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- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5I first came across Francesca Lia Block's Weetzie Bat books during my young adult lit class in library school. They weren't required reading for that class, but another student spoke very highly of them and I eventually sought them out. I found them to be lovely and charming, and I followed them to FLB's Violet & Claire, which was much darker in tone and subject matter, but still contained the magic quality I had come to associate with FLB's writing.Unfortunately, Quakeland has not followed suit. The dustjacket describes it as an "intertwining series of emotionally charged stories," but I found it to be a depressing and utterly confusing mess. The main character, Katrina, experiences disaster on every level. She has prophetic dreams that foretell September 11 and the Asian Tsunami of 2004 (and her name was certainly not chosen by accident). She takes Zoloft to control the dreams, but stops taking it when her new boyfriend, Jasper, tells her to. She's has a sex addiction that qualifies as unhealthy. A close friend experiences a recurrence of skin cancer. And the worst is that instead of being supportive, Jasper is cruel to the point of abuse. Because he's so "in touch with his feelings," he believes he must tell Katrina every hurtful thought he has about her, including the fact that he's glad she's not as attractive as other women because she's therefore not as much of a distraction.Depression and pscyhological abuse are valid subjects for both fiction and nonfiction, although they are not subjects I tend to read about because, quite frankly, I already know a lot of people who are either clinically depressed or have other anxiety problems, and I don't feel I gain much by witnessing even more of it via fiction. But even without this personal bias of mine, I don't feel that Quakeland presents these subjects in an effective way.First, there's just too much going on. (Warning: spoilers follow.) Katrina's friend Grace does indeed die of skin cancer, leaving behind three-year-old twins who have always sparked Katrina's jealousy, since she herself wants a baby and has already had a miscarriage. Jasper is impotent. Another friend named Kali reads Katrina's past lives, naturally "discovering" that Katrina has been through this victim cycle before, possibly with Jasper in one of his previous lives. Kali too was once ruled by her belief that she was nobody without a man. Katrina obsesses about earthquakes. People keep taking off their clothes and dancing for no apparent reason. Katrina has a hideous dating history. And on and on and on....And while many novels (or collections of linked stories) both justify and effecitvely manage this level of complexity, Quakeland makes it worse by containing sections in which the reader cannot tell if Katrina is awake or dreaming; whether Katrina is writing a letter or writing in a diary or simply relating something to the reader; or whether another character entirely is "speaking" (made even more confusing in that some sections are headed by other characters' names). The book also seems, to me, to have a higher-than-average number of typos, the kind that exist specifically for copyeditors to find, such as "she couldn't bare to have her children see this."In the end, I'm afraid that I couldn't quite finish this book. I'm willing to work for it, but at two-thirds of the way through, Quakeland has too little payoff for too much effort.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5Vaguely hallucinatory, as most of Block's writing is. This book seems neither novel nor story collection but some hybrid. I couldn't find any anchor here, either narrative or philosophical, and drifted confused through the words. Block's a good writer but this book is more unfocused jotting than finished product. There were also several distracting errors like 'bare' for 'bear' numerous times throughout. And still, somehow, I enjoyed the hazy and meandering trip.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5If you read to escape the inevitable joy and sadness of the human condition, then Quakeland will sorely disappoint. But if you seek emotional truths depicted in literature, then this is a great summer read. For me, I've rarely seen myself reflected in contemporary characters offered in today's fiction - a woman in her 40s, struggling daily in a relationship that many confidantes think is just no good, wracked with self-doubt, overwhelmed. Quakeland's Katrina comes pretty damn close.And when Katrina loses a good friend to cancer, well, just in the last two months I've lost four friends (ages 43, 53, 50, and 60), just up and dying. One day they're there, and then they're gone forever. Quakeland hits that painful emotional truth full on.Quakeland begins in a place of melancholy and leaves off in a place of deep longing. Maybe it's just where I'm at in my life but this book resonated with me. Big time.No, Quakeland does not end with everyone living happily ever after ... and yes, the characters are almost unbearably human in their weaknesses and flaws. And, indeed, it's a departure from Block's previous work, but why shouldn't she be allowed to grow up as a writer?
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I found this book quite moving. Other reviewers here have complained that it's depressing. They're right. But I don't get why that automatically means it gets a low rating. Relationships are challenging. We lose people we love. Block writes about that, beautifully.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5This book was a little strange... not really what I expected from Block, but it was an adult, not teen. Basically, it's about bad relationships, it was well written, but just not as interesting as I thought it would. Even so, her writing made me not want to put it down. I've always enjoyed her style, even when it's an uninteresting topic...
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I've been a fan of Francesca Lia Block for years. Quakeland shares some elements typical of Block's work, but it's also a significant departure from her other novels (at least, those which I've read). Block writes a distinctive form of Magical Realism, usually set against the backdrop of the Los Angeles area. Her characters are hippie types (or punks with hippie hearts), searching for love and beauty in the midst of ugliness and tragedy. What makes Quakeland different from her previous offerings is that the characters here seem to be seeking without actually doing much finding. On the surface, they are typical of her characters: they go to yoga and modern dance classes; they eat vegetarian; they do past-life regressions; they're hippies, punks, and surfers. But they don't seem to be getting the answers they're looking for. This book is much sadder, less whimsical, than any other Block novel I've read. The characters are also older -- this is not a YA novel. Although not specified, the characters seem to be in their 30s or perhaps 40s, and are dealing with the attendant issues of that age: marriage, children, the mortality of their parents and peers. Perhaps that explains the undercurrent of desperation and sorrow that runs through Quakeland -- here are people who are struggling, in a world of seemingly unending international disasters, to recapture the magic that seemed so abundant when they were young. There is something to be said for that story, which is why I cannot completely dismiss this book. However, I think fans of Block's may be disappointed by this departure, and newcomers may be perplexed by the characters' airy-fairy quirks.The other major thing to note about Quakeland is its unusual format. It's not so much a novel as it is 5 stories, connected more closely at some places than others. Block plays a great deal with narrative style and chronology; she uses dreams, journal entries, vignettes, and switches back and forth between first- and third-person. At one point, she seems to be telling the story from the point of view of Los Angeles itself, although I wasn't exactly clear on that. I find, with writing experiments such as this, that there is a fine line between challenging the reader and confusing her, and I feel that Block might have erred too much on the side of the latter. I also could not tell whether the repeating of similar words and phrases was done with intent or was the result of poor editing. I wanted very much to like Quakeland, and I didn't exactly dislike it. Still, the book seems to fall into some limbo of being different enough from the author's previous work to be a letdown, without breaking away from her usual style enough to seem fresh. p.s. If nothing else, the cover art is beautiful.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Lyrical and dreamlike, Quakeland follows the intertwined stories of a group of women, telling the story of another woman who was somehow central to all of their lives--Grace. This is Grace's story, though the events of the book more revolve around her than are about her. She is the missing piece at the story's heart, the personal tsunami that echoes the real tsunami that provides the starting point for the book.I love Block's dream-naif prose, though I did have trouble connecting with Katrina and understanding why she was doing the things she was. I found the later narrators--the unnamed woman and Angeli--to be much more comprehensible, if only because they were watching the drama from the outside instead of directly living the story.Overall, well worth picking up!
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5This is a dreamy book that starts out fairly strong, or at least is intriguing: we're introduced to Katrina, who suffers prophetic nightmares of disasters around the world, who is insecure and sad and wants love so badly she gets involved with a terribly annoying, new-agey, self-absorbed man. I got into this part of the book, despite feeling sad for Katrina; the language is lovely, and I wanted to know more about her. Unfortunately, Katrina's story just seems to trail off, somewhat unresolved, at which point Block gives us several shorter vignettes that follow similar themes.Even these shorter vignettes hold promise, for the most part, but Block seems to have included at least one slightly different version of Katrina's story, told from a different perspective, which becomes very confusing (particularly since people are frequently not named).Block has a gift for beautiful language and imagery, but I enjoy her books most when there is a strong backbone of story and plot to hold up the glitter. This book feels unfinished, and lacks enough backbone to really stand on its own. When I was reading it, I found it engaging enough, but it was easy to put down and I did not feel strongly enticed to pick it up again.I also have to admit (and this is just my own reaction to it, rather than a value judgement, and didn't really affect my rating of the book too much) that I found the book as a whole intensely depressing. The message seems to be that loneliness is more common than not, that fragility is more likely than strength, that even powerful love does not last, and that men will let you down. I was left with a strong (although transitory) sense of sadness when I finished it, perhaps in part because it stands in such stark contrast to Block's earlier, more starry-eyed works.
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Quakeland - Francesca Lia Block
Quakeland
Francesca Lia Block
Manic D Press
San Francisco
©2008 Francesca Lia Block. All rights reserved. Published by Manic D Press, Inc. For information address Manic D Press, Inc., PO Box 410804, San Francisco California 94141. www.manicdpress.com
Cover painting: Still a Tadpole, Already a Frog by Irene Hardwicke Olivieri
Library of Congress Cataloging in Publication Data
Block, Francesca Lia.
Quakeland / Francesca Lia Block.
p. cm.
ISBN 978-1-933149-23-3 (alk. paper)
1. Women–Fiction. 2. Interpersonal relations–Fiction. 3. Los
Angeles (Calif.)–Fiction. 4. Psychological fiction. I. Title.
PS3552.L617Q35 2008
813'.54–dc22
2007052533
Contents
Quakeland
In Her Own Words
Sex and the Spirits
Apocalypsex
Shaking
For the Spirits
Quakeland
QUAKELAND
August 21, 2005
Who knows how much of this is me and how much is where I live and have lived for my entire life? Such a green flowering desert between the snow queen's mountains and the surf demon's sea. A hemispheric light that gilds your skin like gold-leaf foil. Such a city—you wouldn't imagine that it is supposed to fall into the ocean at any moment, that even the sun is a carcinogen; you wouldn't think that there is anything to fear.
They might as well call it Quakeland
but I guess that could affect the burgeoning real estate. Angels sell and if this scarlet starlet harlot ho knows one thing, it is how to sell herself.
I got an e-mail once, from a disaster expert, saying that you aren't supposed to go under doorways or furniture during an earthquake. You can be crushed, as Mr. Disaster said, to the thickness of your bones.
You're supposed to duck and cover next to a large, soft piece of furniture like a couch and trust in something called a triangle of life.
This is the safe space left next to objects when the building collapses.
Disaster Man, I am Quakeland born and raised; you have to believe in a safe space first.
THE TOWER
September 10, 2001
A jester marionette bobs his head and moves his wooden jaw open and shut, open and shut. Airplanes are flying out of his monkey mouth into the side of a building that looks like the Tower card in the classic Tarot deck. An acid yellow skeleton structure spewing flame and bodies.
I hear these words: This is the fool who brought the world as we know it to its end.
TRIAGE
September 20, 2001
I didn't even recognize the writing. I could hardly make it out and when I did, I didn't remember the dream. It was as if someone else had it, wrote it down. And the person that did have the dream seemed more alive than me.
Kali said that many psychics mentally visited the actual site, the ruins of the twin buildings, after it happened and comforted and guided all the desolate souls who weren't able to leave yet. It was like handing them a cell phone to make the last call, a piece of paper and a pen to write the last note, Kali said. Some resolution. Psychic triage. I don't know how to do that. All I have is the vision, the apocalypse.
Many more people died from government nuclear testing in the desert,
said Kali. You can look it up on line. No one talks about that.
Grace said, Write it down in your journal, keep writing them down if you have another, that's what helps Gerald when he has a bad dream.
Of course, his don't come true. And Gerald has Grace the rescuer beside him, when he is nightmaring in the dark.
How do I tell you how much I love Grace? How she brought me back from the dead? How she is the best mom in the world? How she is the best dancer not only because of her training, but because of how much joy she expresses and how much she gives to her partner?
This is all I can say: When threatened to be taken from you, love is the worst earthquake I know. It can crush you to the thickness of your bones. Love can be a tumor sometimes. Terminal. It can make you vomit. It can make you want to cut it out. It can take you over against your will.
GRACELAND
February 14, 2003
Grace and I are walking up through a terraced garden of bird of paradise and naked lady flowers, massive mythic stone creatures and crumbling fountains, to a very old mansion. This is where we live. There is a giant ballroom with a parquet floor and mirrored walls. There is a dining room with a long table set with plates of whipped cream-covered Belgian waffles and glasses of wine and candles in tall silver holders. In the nursery, there are china dolls, bigger than real five-year-olds, with pale blue glass eyes and wigs of real hair. Two young children are playing with some plastic toy soldiers.
And… the soldiers are moving by themselves, marching out the door.
Where are they going?
I ask.
To war,
Grace says in a small, salty voice.
I see that the children are dressed in army fatigues. They are marching out the door too, following the little plastic men. We can't stop them.
DEATH BY WATER
December 23, 2004
Severed chunks bobbing in the sea. Huge feet and hands, limbs and elongated heads with blank snake eyes and grim mouths. Totems. On the shore sits a dark-haired woman with huge earrings tugging down her lobes. When I look closely I can see that the large white orbs are the sun-bleached, polished skulls of children.
There is a feeling of compression in my chest and I know something has come and something even worse is on its way.
TSUNAMI MAN
Katrina had been too wary to go before—one hundred and fifty barefoot people dancing ecstatically, crawling on the floor, weeping, climbing over each other. But the day after the tsunami, Grace insisted.
No wonder you're depressed, man,
Grace said, in that warm, hoarse little voice. You never leave your house except to go to work. No wonder you need Zoloft. I would die if I didn't shake it off every week.
Grace beat melanoma twice, using Western medicine, herbs, acupuncture, a vegan diet and her dancing. And love, she said. I don't care if it sounds too new age fey.
For her husband, Gerald, and her twins and Katrina. Sarah and Benji were born after the second bout but Grace said she's always carried them around inside her heart. Katrina had dreamed them, too. The soldier dream before the war.
Sarah and Benji both had blond curls, round eyes, long eyelashes, cherub cheeks. Their faces looked exactly alike. In spite of their obviously different genders, people continually asked if they were identical twins, and then winced with embarrassment, Oh, of course not, what was I thinking?
Grace and Gerald's kids looked nothing like Grace, except for their coloring, and even less like Gerald. Grace said she couldn't believe they came out of her body. Of course, Katrina knew they did. She was there.
It was hard to see Grace in pain but her face was so lit up that Katrina knew it was okay. Sarah came easily, just slid right out. Her eyes were open, it seemed, right away, and so were her little hands. Her feet were pointed, like a ballerina's. Benji struggled longer; he was bigger and Grace said she felt like he wasn't sure he wanted to be in the world. Like he knew how sad things could get. But Sarah was a fighter. Even though she was smaller she always acted as if she were trying to protect him— the way she tossed her arm across his chest when they slept and cried louder than he did when he hurt himself.
Sarah was round-faced and curly but it was obvious she was her mother's daughter when you watched her dance. She was the Sugar Plum Fairy in her ballet class recital, poised on her tiptoes the whole time, while the other little girls followed her around, holding up her tulle train. People marveled at her. A natural,
they said. It runs in the family.
Benji already had the muscled arms and legs and tapering torso of a miniature athlete. He insisted on wearing a cape to school everyday. He pointed his fingers in front of his face and made whooshing sounds with his lips. I'm Piderman!
Grace, the pacifist, insisted that he was not making a weapon but protecting people from bad guys with his superpowers. When Grace's parents gave him a huge bag of plastic soldiers for his birthday she didn't get them out of his hands in time. As a last resort she invented a game called We want to go home!
until she could subtly make them disappear by the handful into the trash.
Where are my sholdiers?
he demanded.
They went home to the people they love,
she said, handing him a box of eight fifteen-dollar-a-piece wooden trains with inane, smiling faces, each different enough to make a child want all seventy-five of them.
I think it's time to find you a man,
Grace told Katrina on the day of the tsunami, because disaster precognition was a hard thing to accept.
Katrina didn't want to think about the dream either but she knew she was in trouble when it came to men. The week before, she was trying to make a rhyme for the kids at her preschool; all she could come up with was the unusable:
Miss Mousey had a housey
She lived there all alone
Until she found a spousey
And then she had a home
Mousey and her spousey
Had babies one, two, three
And only then in their warm den
Was there a family
The only men she ever saw besides Gerald and the dads who brought their kids to school, were the ones she paid or coaxed in to visit. The bubble man who encased the children in giant individual soap bubbles. The firemen who brought their shiny red engine for the kids to explore. The reptile guy that had six of them stand in a row to hold a giant white snake. Only the reptile didn't wear a thick band on his left ring finger but he was the same shocking white color as the snake and seemed much more interested in his lizards than in Katrina.
There were also men at Kali's yoga class, but they were all there to worship Kali.
Yes,
said Kali, on the day of the tsunami, closing her sunflower-center eyes, I feel someone coming.
Katrina wore black to feel thinner. She wore her long brown hair loose around her shoulders, instead of in the usual ponytail, and her best pink lip gloss. The delicate, dark-rimmed glasses were tucked into their case; without them her eyes looked greener. She thought if she danced hard enough she might forget that she had dreamed of another disaster before it had occurred.
She and Grace were dancing in front of the altar with the pre-tsunami beach postcard pictures from Southeast Asia when he came up. Tall and slim in prayer beads and a light blue shirt that matched his eyes. His beautifully-shaped head was shaved. He had those high cheekbones and a flash of smile. The large, heart-shaped red birthmark on the side of his face looked beautiful, not aberrant. You wouldn't have thought there was anything to fear.
The three of them were flinging themselves around, all limbs and sweat. He had an almost feline grace for such a big man. When Grace waved her arms in flowing rainbow silk and let her blond hair fall out of its braid, fall freely around her shoulders, (thin hair, naturally golden, always scrupulously clean) he whooped. Katrina spun until she was dizzy.
At the end of class everyone held hands and formed a circle. The man was next to Katrina. A tall, thin woman with tilted blue-green eyes and big breasts was on the other side of him. He smiled at both of them, shifting his head back and forth.
Jasper,
he announced when it was his turn to say his name. Like the stone. Katrina tried to think what color it was.
She had some pink petals left in her purse from the roses she had put on the altar to acknowledge the tsunami victims. She took them out, rubbing the thick, almost powdery silkiness. Just then she turned and he was standing there, smiling boyishly, holding out a flyer for a yoga workshop. Up close, his irises had very small pupils and a faraway look. This close, not moving, seen from below, he was taller even than she'd thought.
He took the petals and crushed them, then sniffed his fingers.
I'm Jasper.
I know. Katrina.
Thank you for the petals,
he said, and then he was gone.
She wondered for a moment if he were another of those hit-and-run L.A. angels. Her car had broken down in the middle of the highway three times and someone had always come out of nowhere to push it to the side of the road. She remembered them vividly. One was a huge, bald African with astonishing diamonds in his ears. One looked like a Latino gang member with muscular, completely tattoo-covered, flowery arms and a baby face. The third had tumbling black curls, white skin, a gap between his front teeth and blue eyes. As soon as she was safe, they had disappeared. Kali said they were Los Angeles angels. Katrina wondered why they couldn't have stayed a little longer but Kali said that's how angels are.
This one was different, though. He hadn't rescued her from her nightmares. Not yet. And although he, too, had vanished into the ether, a flyer with his email address on it was in her hand.
SHRINK RAP
The Zoloft had started to work. All dreams had stopped. She wasn't gritting her teeth at night. Her jaw stopped aching.