The Procrastinator's Guide To Killing Yourself
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This book is for those of us who are looking into a huge black hole and feeling that life is not worth living. It might also help those who love someone who is feeling that way.
For 20 years Gareth Edwards worked in mental health and suicide prevention as a government advisor, university researcher and designer of innovative services.
In The Procrastinator's Guide to Killing Yourself he shares how he found his own 'suicide prevention' came from a place of 'suicide procrastination'.
Short stories are told with heartfelt humour as Gareth walks you through his five steps of 'living yourself' to find a way forward rather than a way out.
Gareth Edwards
Gareth Edwards is a writer, musician and mentor. He was born in Manchester, UK (average annual hours of sunshine - 1,416) and now lives in Nelson, New Zealand (2,477. And there's a beach.) Gareth worked in mental health for 20 years and helped design innovative services based on human rights, peer support and online self-help. He is also a heartfelt and uplifting entertainer whose show Mad Love won Best Solo Show and Best of Fringe awards at the Nelson Fringe Festival. The Procrastinator's Guide to Killing Yourself is Gareth's first book. For more details, visit www.gareth-edwards.com
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The Procrastinator's Guide To Killing Yourself - Gareth Edwards
YOUR JOURNEY, YOUR WAY
This book is a guide, but you must always walk your own path.
It is how I found a way forward rather than a way out.
It is not advice about what you should do.
It is my journey of ‘living myself’.
I hope it helps your own.
Love, Gareth
WHO IS THIS BOOK FOR?
This book is for those of us who are looking into a huge black hole and feeling that life is not worth living.
So that’s probably all of us at some point in our life.
But for some of us, that feeling keeps coming up and the path we are on comes to a dead-end of circling thoughts, feelings and behaviours that seem to try to answer the question ‘should I kill myself?’
If you are staring into the abyss in the cul de sac of your soul, this book is for you.
This book might also help those of us who love someone who is trying to answer the question ‘should I kill myself?’
So that’s probably all of us at some point in our life too.
The pain of having a loved-one in pain and feeling unable to ease that pain is doubly painful. Actually it’s more like pain squared: pain x pain = pp.
If you are supporting someone to step away from the abyss, this book is for you.
The purpose of this book is to show you how I found a way forward rather than a way out.
We all find our own way.
LET’S STOP TALKING ABOUT SUICIDE
I choose to avoid using the word ‘suicide’.
It was coined to criminalise and pass moral judgment on a profound and legitimate human experience.
I believe that wanting to kill yourself is part of what makes you human.
I do not believe that wanting to kill yourself means you are sick or a bad person.
I write about wanting to kill myself as something that happened in my past, as it is less strong than it was during my teens and twenties.
I still have thoughts and feelings about killing myself and occasionally I have the urge to act on those thoughts and feelings.
The difference now is that I have discovered and learnt different ideas and techniques to feel more comfort with these types of experiences.
Rather than feeling worried when the question ‘should I kill myself?’ returns, it instead fascinates me and has become an opportunity to enrich my life with renewed meaning and purpose.
THE DAY I DECIDED TO LIVE, AGAIN
I’m standing alone in the centre of the living room.
My friend is bustling around the other rooms while my social worker tells me about the rent and the impact on my sickness benefits.
I hear them both but I’m mostly listening to my inner voice calmly and confidently say, We will die here
.
Here we go again
I think.
I manage to smile through my despair.
My social worker takes this as a sign that I like the flat that she’s found for me, just a few months after being discharged from the local