Helvena

All Rights Reserved © 2003 by Terry T.F. Smith

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Contents

Acknowledgements

Prologue

Chapter 1   Creation

Chapter 2   In The Garden

Chapter 3   Grows Into Civilization

Chapter 4   Making God Conceive

Chapter 5   His Dream

Chapter 6   In Angela’s Soul

Chapter 7   For Her Wisdom

Chapter 8   Before The Last Super

Chapter 9   And Man Dies

Chapter 1 0   For Perfect Divine

Chapter 11   In God’s Story Deal

Chapter 1 2   Until The Beginning And End Cross

About The Author

This Work is Dedicated to

God

With Loving Memory

Of my Mother and Father:

Newton and Juanita Smith

Acknowledgements

Trae, my son, grow strong with absolute Love. Sister, sister, my sister Love, Jackie Smith, Jackie Smith, Sunshineboxing.com. Big Mama, I Love you forever. Jack, I cherish you for all time. Hélene, you are the Helvena of my heart.

Roland, thanks for your guidance since my first script in Los Angeles more than a decade ago. Arthur and Carol, you’re godsends; thank you for your help. Maddie, Peggy, Cindy, Sherry, and Christina, thank you for proofing the early drafts of this story.

Public libraries and bookstores, you are amid the most amazing places in the living world. You aid human beings in exploring universes galore. I applaud you with heightened appreciation.

Prologue

This story, written with supreme respect as an allegory of creation and divine watchful eye, is intended to stimulate society with conscious reverence for life, being alive.

In the story of man, in the name of God, a being called something different in dissimilar worlds, there is belief that each singular studied word is the only one correct, not to be contradicted, absolute and utmost holy. Man has killed in the name of religion to defend what he has been taught to believe. Up until the part about killing each other in the name of something Godly, man has survived his differences in imagination, philosophy, opinion, theology or mystic belief.

In the post-September 11th age, our planet seems dangerously close to annihilation if human beings do not grow. The time is now for man to work through and above his adolescence and blossom into the being he is to be.

If man grows only as far as he has been shown, there is where he will remain.

It does not take a genius to see that if man always does what he has always done, he will always be where he has always been. Until he opens his mind, comprehending what it means to be alive, he won’t be before the end of his time.

It seems that with religions, politicians, wide ranges of intellects, incomes, languages and race lines, all man believes is what he has been taught throughout time. In the span of his years, in spite of his tears, he has used guns, bombs and spears, rarely considering who or where he truly is. He suffers and struggles to defeat all that he meets outside his learned guidelines. His history he repeats.

When he opens his eyes and understands life’s ride, he will glow with what he finds. When he accepts himself as a human race in a celestial place, he will stand and say, This is the place we have searched to find. Now in rhyme, Life is divine.

Terry Smith Anno Domini 2003

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C H A P T E R 1

Creation

They preached and they raved, but they didn’t even know I was here. Many of’em had talked about me possibly coming back one day, but they weren’t sure when. Those who believed and did the math thought I was due to arrive soon. They just couldn’t put their fingers on the exact date. For those who didn’t do the math, their souls shook with horror when I appeared in their faces.

God, after his appearance in the sky—before he laid man to rest.

Exploding from exhilarating silence was a magnificent sound of fantastic boom for the first time in all of existence. God transformed from this conception divine.

Time began, so did an end—never were these two paths to cross.

Time passed. God grew more aware of his being. After being alone long enough, he decided to create a mate. He reached inside himself and pulled into creation another being. He named the new part of himself Helvena.

The two beings did not see or touch each other. Darkness or light was nonexistent. Physical emptiness covered everywhere, at all times. God and his new companion were spirits communicating with each other in translucent waves of thought.

After floating in this fashion for as long as either could remember, an idea appeared in God’s mind. At first he was not sure how to create his vision. He marveled in the idea of finding a way to see and feel his mate. He did not want to tell her of his dream, because if the fantasy did not come true, he could not bear her sadness and disappointment.

Helvena knew that God was dazed and asked what was on his mind. He told her that he imagined many things and that he needed time alone. They exchanged usual loving goodbyes.

In God’s solitude, he imagined the precious gift he would bestow upon Hel-vena. How to make his gift of Love come true was a great mystery to his divinity; he pondered deeper than in all his reality. Whenever he became too overwhelmed by thought for his own well being, Helvena’s Love healed his illness; his racing soul eased. Her Love gave him strength for what he needed to make worldly dreams come true.

In an instant, God sped so fast that he felt energy brew within his being. Slamming himself to an instant stop, a magnificent explosion of powerful proportions occurred in space. In this far away world of time he had arrived, he spun like a top at incalculable speeds. He did this until brilliantly colorful glowing spirits appeared before his new eyes. He felt such excitement to see existence that he did not stop spinning; he continued creating. He spun and he spun until his strength became weary. When he recovered from great dizziness, he focused and was amazed at what appeared before him. Shimmering images of spirits covered the air as far as God could see. Pleased with how well his idea had worked so far, he commanded that the spirits build the world as per his designs.

Filled with confidence, God began his journey back to Helvena. Traveling with great excitement about giving her his gift, he became disappointed when he could not find her energy. He began wondering if he had traveled too far and lost her this time. He became saddened by the thought of never finding her in the great vastness of time and space.

Helvena was dismayed when she felt that God might not return. He had left for brief moments in the past, but never this long. Time became immeasurable in her longing.

On the verge of giving up on ever experiencing her again, he saw a distant light from the spirits he had recently created. He had merely traveled in a magnificent circle of darkness. Rather than being upset that he had not found Helvena when he desired her, he learned from his experience and added an extra treat to her present. He instructed his busy spirits on the additional designs of creation and they resumed building.

With much concentration, God followed his heart and found the energy he called Helvena. She was overjoyed in his return; she also sensed something different in his being. Sharing his joy, he told her that he had done something far more incomprehensible than anything they had ever imagined in all their time together.

Helvena had to ask three times before God described what he was creating for her.

Helvena asked, How is what you describe possible?

He told her that it would take a great deal of time before she could see what he had created for their joy.

Far away, where a world of magnificent energy was forming and multiplying, the spirits that God made were dividing into two groups. Each group was preparing to fly in a circular motion at a mathematically perfect angle, speed and distance, and then, like rockets, blast into each other. In both groups, some spirits were nervous and afraid; others were brave and excited for the idea to work.

Only two of the spirits, one on each side, understood the concept as intricately as God allowed. They led; the rest followed. They were the points of contact in the initial crash.

At an unimaginable speed, the groups rammed into each other with such power that they exploded into hard physical existence. The power created from this great explosion sent it hurling through space, leaving a ferocious wind in its trail.

Inside this traveling bubble of physical manifestation was a sea of gaseous and rocky mass smoothly swirling in perfect clockwise rhythm. Millions upon billions of trillions of infinite colors and great sparkle filled the capacity of God’s given space. The two spirits who were points of contact in the explosion were the first to center after creation. When they looked into the heavens, they were awe struck by what they saw. The two leaders of this spirit project were pleased with what God had commissioned.

Now, with solid matter, not all spirits were free to move on their own. They existed as one of four elements: earth, air, water, or fire.

In the massive body of space, a rippling wave of energy from the explosion reached God and Helvena. They were blown away as if merely dust in the wind.

After recovering from her alarm, somewhat frightened, Helvena screamed to God, What, dear Lord, have you made?

God did not conceal his excitement. He thought that in order for them to feel something as powerful as what they just felt, his idea must have worked tremendously well.

He said excitedly, I must go now. I shall return.

Before God could disappear, as he sometimes did, Helvena cried, Please, don’t leave me in desolation, I want to see what you have made.

God quickly saw how leaving her alone would torture her curiosity, and he said, So be it. Come with me, my Love.

He was happy to give her his present. Time was not long before God and Helvena could see creation’s brilliant glow in their distant horizon. Chance was small of getting lost this time; all they had to do was follow the light. En route to the present, God explained that it would take time for the gift to grow before presentation.

He said, When we get there, remember, its time has just begun. The process will take a while before you are able to walk on what I see in my mind.

Helvena was not sure what God meant by the word ‘walk,’ but she could tell that this was not the time to ask too many questions; God was very excited. He would be calm; she would see in time what he meant.

God said, Hold on, stay close to me!

He merged his spirit with hers in order to speed the process of their goal. It seemed that the closer they came to the light, the farther the light seemed to flee. God was glad that Helvena was with him. She was also glad that she had come; this, already, was the most exciting thing either one of them had ever done.

The light was, indeed, moving at enormous speeds away from them. God had difficulty keeping up with his creation. The speeding ball of energy he created almost became impossible to reach.

When they combined their strength to move faster, they were able to catch the most exciting thing in all their existence. They felt the heat of its energy long before they reached it. The soaring radiant mass sped through the universe like the fantasy God imagined. God told her that they needed to get inside the escaping bubble. With a simultaneous massive surge, they leaped through the fantastic ball of speeding energy. Once inside, they recovered from prolific fatigue. Floating peacefully in space, they adored the sparkling new show.

Once rested enough to look into the heavens, God and Helvena became speechlessly enthralled by what befell their view. This vision was certainly a magical conception of something other than reality—even greater than God’s image in his mind. Something had been made from nothing. The various suns, planets, stars and moons were real in a living physical Universe. Yellows, blues, and greens of indescribable hues covered the imposing effect of the world that God had made.

Helvena was so happy that she cried.

She said, Oh, God, I adore you with all my being! I Love and give myself to you wholly.

God replied, I do this for you because I, too, Love you, Helvena.

He told her that she had only seen the beginning of her gift.

He said, On one of those planets is a place where you and I shall see, touch, smell, taste, walk, run, swim, and fly with each other.

Helvena was not one hundred percent sure what God meant, but she knew that if it were better than what she had seen so far, she would have difficulty maintaining her sense of awareness.

God smiled and said, You will have all the time you need to gather your thoughts before the next phase of development. The planet for which we await is yet inside another, smaller, bubble. When it is ready for habitation, I shall take you there.

God and Helvena bonded in a new and radiating pulsation. God thought their feeling was because they were so excited by the thought of something physical appearing from nothing. Helvena was, indeed, amazed by that as well, but she was more touched by God’s deed to create something so beautifully impossible for her Love. She wanted to do something especially perfect for him in order to show him how much she was moved by his Love.

Time progressed as the planets, stars, suns and moons fell where they would lie for their eternity. Planet Earth floated through the air like a child born unto God and his mate. They watched their child through the bubble, spinning in the air, rotating the sun, growing as an offspring they would cherish for the rest of time. God had originally planned to show Helvena the garden after it settled and was grown with colors, flowers and trees, brilliant clouds, animals and air. His impatience made him show her sooner.

He asked, Do you urgently desire going inside? Earth is not ready to step upon—it has not reached full design. You could, however, have a closer look at what will come to be, if you desire.

Without hesitation, Helvena told God that she would give anything to go inside the place he described. Together, they pushed through the walls of the bubble and beheld unimaginable manifestations of earthly delight. They relaxed their position of being and allowed the wind to carry them freely through the air. Touring Earth, riding strong gusts of wind from fantastic hurricanes, they marveled at what God had made. God explained to Helvena that what transported them was a result of the sudden existence of creation. Looking at the earth beneath as they passed, they saw places where fire and lava erupted from tall masses of land not quite settled into its final shape.

Riding the wind over the ocean made God realize how he could entertain Helvena until earth was inhabitable. God commanded that there be two mammal forms in this world. The two gigantic bodies appeared deep beneath the churning water. Helvena looked at the motionless dark things and then looked harder. She released herself from the wind and stared at these two effects God had instantaneously created from nothing.

Amazed, she asked, What are they?

God told her this was how they would swim with each other.

She asked, What do you mean by ‘swim’?

God turned to her and asked if she would like to come with him into yet another dimension of their experience. Puzzled, but without the slightest degree of hesitation, she said, Of course, I’ll go with you. I would do anything with you.

God told Helvena to embrace him in spirit as closely as she could and she did. Together, they submerged many leagues under the sea. This liquid was most tantalizing—the best in all their union. God had come closest to this feeling when he smashed himself into a sudden stop and created spirits; nevertheless, being under water with his companion was definitely something far more exhilarating and pioneering.

God guided Helvena into the body of one of the whales and then placed himself inside the other. He commanded that there be breath in the physical world.

Helvena inquired, as she sometimes would, about the meaning of God’s command. But this time her thoughts magnified, surrounding her in a boisterous presence of sound. When God spoke back to her, she heard his voice as she had heard her own. His sound came from the large whale next to her.

For the first time, they looked into each other’s eyes. God was cool and still. Helvena was startled and jerked her body so powerfully that the newly created water sprayed high into the new sky. Once she calmed, they were pleased beyond anything in all the time of their existence. They began swimming.

God said, This, my Love, is what I meant when I told you that one day we would swim.

They swam side by side. She could feel the water around her body. They swam happily with each other as if nothing else in the entire universe was relevant. Helvena told God that she would not rest until she had found a way to show him how much he meant to her.

Helvena was so deeply in Love that she began wondering if God had not put her under some terrific spell and she would awaken to find it was all a dream. He calmed her, assuring her that things were only going to become more and more fascinatingly, intrinsically real. She was not sure if she could handle anything more precious than what she had already seen.

God said, Trust me, my Love, you will have time to recover and prepare for what is next.

Helvena replied, I apologize for my impatience, my Lord. I am spoiled by the magnificence of your power and Love. Please do not misunderstand me. I am happy swimming in this physical world, looking at you and hearing the sounds of your voices. I am merely ecstatic to illustrate my Love for you as you have done for me, so that you, too, can see how much I adore you.

To further entertain Helvena, God commanded that two more bodies of whales exist. These bodies merely lay still on the ocean floor. Helvena asked God what he was going to do with these bodies.

God replied, Watch, my Love.

And then he summoned the two highest-ranking officers in his physical commission—the two spirits who met at original contact.

Shocked from their sudden appearance, Helvena’s body jerked, again, creating enormous waves. The presence of spirits in the universe astounded her level of perception. God told her that he had created them to aid in producing her present.

There were so many different beings in the physical world that God said everyone should have a name. He called his companion, of course, Helvena. She said that she would continue calling him God or Lord.

God said to the first aide, You shall be called Izekia. To the second, he said, You shall be called Lilith.

God then made such an unimaginable sound that it shook the earth above. When visibility was restored after such a cloud of shaking, there were millions upon millions of lifeless bodies of fish, mammals and vegetation.

God said, Izekia and Lilith, go around the world that I have made and find spirits within the elements of water, air, earth, and fire, and place them inside the forms of what you see before you.

Without hesitation, Izekia and Lilith swam away, commencing their mission.

God said to Helvena, My Love, I will design for you a world below the world I am building for you.

She asked, What’s going on above the water?

The earth must cool, he answered.

God explained that the wind, fire and dust must settle from the explosion of creation before habitation. He said it would not take long before she would see a world under a world.

Sure enough, after swimming about the ocean for only a short while, all the lifeless bodies and vegetation that God made came alive in the world under the world. There was even hot lava in certain caves. Life had begun.

Izekia and Lilith swam to God and Helvena and reported that God’s underwater mission was complete. God relieved them of duty; they were free to enjoy the marvels of their work. After their break, they were to assign names to all the things of life in the water. Helvena was still in shock from the marvels she saw.

She said, God, after an eon of being together, where did you suddenly get this idea?

He said that his idea did not happen suddenly.

This dream, he said, required a long time of experiencing you before something was born inside my mind. Being with you helped me find it.

She exclaimed that in the entire world he had created, she especially cherished this place under water because the wetness gave her sensation like nothing she had ever imagined or could describe.

He reminded her that this was only the beginning of her creation. They swam as new lovers in the world that God had ordained as life. Time progressed as they played and designed. He and Helvena talked and amused each other as they matured in their presence of the newly created physical world. Helvena was fascinated by every detail of this new experience. What was most dazzling to her was how the light above the water changed so rhythmically. Light was routinely followed by