The Eclipse of Love, Pain, and Happiness: "Everything Should Be Done in Love, for It Is the Greatest of All Things."
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The Eclipse of Love, Pain, and Happiness is the depiction of what happens when life tends to amalgamate these elements. From personal relationships, to friendships and political issues, thepoetry exhibited in thisbook will take you on a journey. It reflects the author's growth in life and in writing. The challenges, struggles, encouraging and pivotal moments of the author's life are recorded in this book. As you embark on this exciting read, experience Jac'Quail's life changes, spiritual and emotional growth from chapter to chapter.
Jac'Quail Mayes
Jac’Quail Mayes is a published author who has shared her poetry on many platforms. As the author of the Eclipse of Love, Pain, and Happiness, she has made a mark in the literary society. Jac’Quail believes that her gift of writing is a purposed mechanism to be used to share wisdom, positivity, encouragement, and inspiration to others who find her style of writing relatable. With an authentic, soulful, and sensible poetic style, Jac’Quail’s poetry definitely grabs and holds your attention intriguing your thoughts and emotions. Born and raised in Portsmouth, Virginia, Jac’Quail is a leading example of how determination and faith can transpire into dreams becoming a reality. Poetry is a passion for Jac’Quail and she intends to continue to share this gift with the world. Through her poetry she hopes to inspire and challenge others to face their obstacles and in turn use their voice to tell the testimony of their victory to empower others.
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The Eclipse of Love, Pain, and Happiness - Jac'Quail Mayes
INTRODUCTION
Ever since I heard him flow, speak, share, spit, or deliver I knew I had to write. I have so many influences in my life but my main influence is life itself. Without a doubt, I knew it was meant to be that I share this part of myself with the world. I thank you for accepting me and my thoughts in your heart and mind.
Growing up for me, well, I can’t even say it was bad at all. I had the regular hood life. I was born and raised in the Ida Barbour projects in downtown Portsmouth, Virginia. Although times were tough, I loved my childhood. I stayed with my grandmother but I lived with my mother. Some people might not understand that statement. My mother worked two jobs ever since I could remember but she always made her way to pick us, my brother and myself, up regardless of the time or how tired she may have been. My mother is my bridge over troubled waters. Growing up in the projects had its ups and down but it prepared you for the real world. It didn’t play with you. It either drug you through the mud with drugs, poverty, and killing or it made you stronger. Personally, it made me stronger and ready for any and everything that life would try to throw in my way to stop me from achieving my goals. I thank God for keeping His hedge around me.
The first thing that made me want to write was reciting poems. In the fourth and fifth grade I had the same teacher. His name was Brian Wright. Every week we had to learn a poem and recite it on Friday. I loved doing this because I felt like I had a voice that wanted to be heard. I always put a little extra umph
to my poems and because of that umph
Mr. Wright asked me to recite Still I Rise, by Maya Angelou, at our fifth grade graduation. This was one of my proudest moments. Mr. Wright played such a serious role in most of his student’s lives because he genuinely cared. This is a quality that most teachers don’t carry in their lesson plans. He showed us that there was more to life than just where we come from. He introduced me, and kids just like me, to life outside the hood. He taught us sophistication and class by being an example. One thing he definitely taught me how to do is tell it how it is and that you have to work for everything you get in life. While paying attention in class I think I paid more attention to him because he proved that a black man could make it, be real, honest, and strong willed in life and not let NOBODY or NOTHING break him down. A male figure, a girl growing up with no father needed to see. Feel me?
I met my father when I was ten years old. For a while I was angry and then I was lost. After feeling lost it was like I just didn’t care anymore. I grew up thinking that I was just unimportant to him. After turning six-teen is where I think my feelings toward my daddy got worse. I felt I wasn’t good enough for him. When I matured a little more I had to understand that even parents make stupid, wrong, and hurtful decisions. We are still working on our relationship but it has definitely blossomed into a great bond. I love my daddy and I guess I got some of this writing stuff from him. My mama still says it mostly came from her. She throws down when the pen hits the paper too. My father gives me inspiration and a push that I need every now and then. When my daddy sent me a copy of his book, I knew I had to stop playing and start making things happen.
My desire to really start writing came after I heard Saul Williams recite on a movie called Slam. I had to be about fifteen. The feeling I felt was so over my head. I stand on the corner slingin’ amethyst rocks.
That was so invigorating to me. My first impression was, I got to write something like that.
As I got older I realized that trying to write like someone else was fake and impractical. So I started writing like me. I like to say that Saul Williams had a part in helping me find my voice. I bought all his books and finally got me a copy of the movie that sparked that poetry flame in me. That flame ignited fireworks in me that just won’t stop.
So many things added fuel to the fire. The movie Love Jones was such a soulful movie. Soul, jazz, poetry, art, and love were what I took from the movie. Jill Scott is an image of greatness. She is so many things in my eyes. Her music is poetry and when she finally dropped her poetry book I spent my last twenty dollars on it. She makes me want to do what I do. In school we didn’t read about Nikki Giovanni, Sonia Sanchez, or Audre Lorde. The only time Maya Angelou or Langston Hughes came up was black history month. So when I was given a piece of poetry I tried to swallow it whole. Reading from people like this was like drinking from heaven’s rivers. It was like that for me! When Def Poetry Jam hit HBO my eyes were glued to the T.V. every Sunday night at ten o’clock. When the show made it to DVD I bought every season I could get my hands on. Mos Def is the bomb to me too. I started diggin’ Mos Def from his music. He was not like most rappers. Another person who just does it for me is Andre 3000. His freedom in his craft is so dope to me. Go Outkast!!! Someone who made my world just stop, when I heard her, is a poet named Sunni Patterson. She also recited on Def Poetry Jam. She made me want to just try that much harder. Def Poetry Jam in itself gave poets a bigger voice and I love everything about it. Go Russell!!! The whole Jazz era played a part in my life. Jazz and blues music is like poetry to me. I dig it!!! In my freshman year of college my English professor, Ms. Jackson, had a great impact on me. She challenged my writing skills so much and it made me a better writer. Actually, every English teacher I had molded the writer in me, but, like I said, life is my biggest motivation to write because it gives me something to say. The things I go through in life are what I write about. The people I meet, the people who play roles in my life, my experiences, love, hurt, pain, family, everything. God placed things and people in my life for a reason and I show my emotions on paper. So many things and people have influenced me and I’m just happy I was blessed with the gift and a voice in the first place.
With these few years that God has blessed me with, I have seen and experienced a lot of things. I thank my family (Wallace - Mayes - Warren - Horn) for always being there through all our crazy times. My mother (Joyce) and brother (Jer’Nard) are my stability. When there is nothing else, I have them. I want to thank my friends for loving somebody like me. To my church family of Twine Memorial Holy Temple, thanks for being a rock for me to always stand firmly on. Brandon you mean more to me than you’ll ever know. Thank you for always having my back. I couldn’t ask God for anyone better to play the role that you have played in my life. Jermaine thank you for your unconditional love and support, I love you and thank God for blessing me with you. To everybody who helped me reach my level of wisdom, who listened, or inspired I thank you regardless of your level of contribution. God I would be absolutely NOTHING without you. Thank you for blessing me and allowing me to make it this far. To you who are reading this, thank you for the support and I hope you enjoy the read. Finally, I want to thank the poet in me for never giving up and always knowing that the world needed to hear my story and that my words and emotions were worthy enough to hit the page. Peace, Faith, and Love!!
Table of Contents
THE BEGINNING: YOUNG GIRL AND HER FEELINGS
Love Disease (inspired by Lady That Sings the Blues)
A Real Woman’s Man
A Stupid Brotha
IF I
The Aftermath
True Deepness
Caught In The Storm
Needing New
Sister 2 Sister
TIRED RAP
He Was Mine…Then Her
The Chronicle of My Present State of Mind
The Not Needed
Our Love
Decisions to be Made
My Heart’s Gratitude
Playa Mentality
Forbidden
Any Circumstance
Why I Chill
So In Love
INTIMATE MOMENTS: MATURING INTO A YOUNG WOMAN
My Immortality
When I Was Falling Asleep
My Craving
NOW
Good Morning Baby
Empty #1
Think About It
A Lost Poet
A Lil’ Something
The Bayou
Who I Am
Message
Thinking Deep Thoughts of You
Waiting For The Move
STATE YOUR CLAIM
The A.A. Meeting
It’s Crying Out
Dear Pookie (Dedicated to Mordecae Wright R.I.P)
One Night In September
I Need A Cigarette
Have You?
Searching For What’s Searching For Me
First Step to Moving On
My Happiness
Showing Proof of Nothing Better
I Am a Dreamer
My Dope Line
It’s On You
First Knowledge of Wisdom
My Candle
After I Heard Her Speak
He’ll Say Anything
She Carried Her Own Coffin
In The Moments
Mocking Bird Blues
Period - Point - Blank
WOMAN
Reassure Me
LOVE PAINS
Earth Music
You’ll Know When It’s Real
NEW STAGE: FINDING MYSELF
Open Your Eyes
Love Without Question
Stop Replacing & Start Restoring
Crime 101
A Storm Is Coming
Closed Chapter
Some Kinda Love
Making My Way Home
Not Afraid To Look In His Eyes
Think Twice
My Business
Time and Change Promotes Progress
One Question
There Was One
It Never Ends…That Feeling
Back Again
Make-Up Sex
Love Endued Calamity
First Time Meet
Possibly - Maybe (written for Big Maine)
Blindfolded Friend
Intimacy
LIBERATION: SOME THINGS YOU JUST GOTTA GET OFF YOUR CHEST
S . A . U. L (inspired by the Motion Picture SLAM starring Saul Williams)
Beans & Rice
GOT TO COME CORRECT
Lord I Need You
Epiphany
A Place I’ve Been
Infiltration to Pain’s Liberation
Hear My Voice
Kingdom Assignment (Dedicated to Elder Eunice Semple & Deacon Stanley Semple)
MY PAIN
Why Not You
Faith Over Privation
AIDS
A Writer’s Call
Something’s Got A Hold On Me
Remember My Name
My Angels
FINALE: MISS. MAYES
Defining The Moment
Bitter Sweet
Change at Sunset
Skip the Small Talk
Embezzled Love
Change In You
This Love
Never Trust a Niggard
Love Contract
Riding Solo
Pick Up The Pieces
BLUES #1
Blue and Green (Inspired by Miles Davis)
Science Fiction
EMPTY #2
I Used to Love Him
Love Bound
Caught In My Shadow
I Took Off My Cool & So Did He (Inspired by Andre 3000)
Another Friday Night
Another Shot At It
Another Form of Missing You
Love Fanatic
Loving Double
What’s After a Liar
Who’s Happy Now
A Woman’s Decision
EMPTY #3
Are We Still Trying…Love
Completion
State Yo Case
Question and Answer (for Teddy)
Family Reunion (Dedicated to My Family)
Before I Go On
…come here
she said "I’ll teach you a poem:
I see the moon
the moon sees me
God bless the moon
and God bless me"
I taught that poem to my son
who recited it for her
just to say we must learn
to bear the pleasures
as we have borne the pains"
-Nikki Giovanni
THE BEGINNING: YOUNG GIRL AND HER FEELINGS
Love Disease (inspired by Lady That Sings the Blues)
I loved him like he was a diamond on my finger
I loved him so much I would lay down my profession and become the world’s greatest blues singer
Why do I love him like this?
Because he cooks for me when I’m hungry
He lays me down when I’m tired
He gives me whatever I want whenever I say please
and he is the cure to this thing I have called the love disease
You know the feeling you get when the person you want is not by you
The shaky feeling you get when he didn’t say I Love You
But when he kisses you that feeling is gone
When he is laying next to you after caressing every inch and centimeter of your body that pain is gone
When he says the words so soft and sweet like a drop of water falling from a rose
I love you, that pain is gone
This love is like snow in the summer
It’s so unusual
This love this person has given me is non re-useable
No one can take it
No one can misuse it and no one can love it but me
No one can take the years, the feelings, and no one can take him away from me
I get tongue tied just looking in his eyes
I get blank minded when he expresses to me what’s really inside
I memorize the memories
And when I come out of this love coma or should I just say, a daze
and return to my right state of mind I realize that my mind is his mind and no one can take that out of my mind cause we are one
Do you understand?
And if you don’t you must don’t have the disease
Cause my heart beats everyday just knowing that his love is in me
And if your mind is telling your heart that this disease is not in you, you are loveless
This love this person has given me is a done deed
So if you’re anything like me you’ll never want to lose the cure to thing I have called the love disease
A Real Woman’s Man
She walks around like she is the only person in the world
She walks with pride and beauty
Her hair flipped bouncing from left to right
Walking in her six inch stiletto heels and her denim jeans that stay skin tight
Her words…
I am who I am
Not ashamed of where I come from
Comfortable with my life now and know where I’m going
Don’t knock me because I’m confident, independent, and intelligent
Love the woman in me and don’t disrespect it
Be glad to have a woman like me by your side
Don’t play games and don’t take me for no ride
Be real with me and tell me the truth instead of meaningless lies
Understand my intellectual side as well as my sex appeal
After dinner don’t look stupid and on a sly try to slide me the bill
Take the responsibilities of a man if you want to call yourself one
Be a man, live life as a man, act like man
Don’t act young
Keep our business exactly what it is, our business
Understand that your friends ain’t got nothing to do with us
We keep us together
When I’m hurting be there to ease the pain
Understand that you are my man and for you I’ll do anything but don’t step on my kindness
Don’t mistake my kindness for weakness
Cause you are not immune to my wrath
Aside from the business suits, sassy clothes, cute smile, and drop dead gorgeous eyes is one crazy black woman that don’t take no mess
Deal with no mess and definitely don’t deal with somebody that can’t decide if he wants’ to be a boy