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    I Beg to Differ
    I Beg to Differ
    I Beg to Differ
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    I Beg to Differ

    By C.J. Sinclair

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    I Beg To Differ is a young womans journey to self-rediscovery in the midst of chaos. This journey marks a slow and at times painful self-examination and analysis of the world around her. She is driven by the fact that rediscovering herself is key towards reaffirming her Faith. As she progresses through her journey, she finds that her passion to uncover the seemingly elusive truth that is life; is starting to have an effect on the darkness around her. The more she sits down and examines the questions that are nagging at her conscience, the more she starts to recognise her old self. This is important to her because she has always prided herself on staying true to her values. With the revelation of her old self, also comes the knowledge that the Truth is still relevant today and can most definitely overcome the darkness.

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherWestBow Press
    Release dateApr 19, 2011
    ISBN9781449715236
    I Beg to Differ
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    C.J. Sinclair

    C.J. Sinclair has always had a great passion for writing. A native East African, Sinclair was drawn at an early age to the power of words. She derives her inspiration from King David’s Psalms. The open vulnerability expressed in the Psalms reminds her of God’s mercy.

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      I Beg to Differ - C.J. Sinclair

      Copyright © 2011 C.J. Sinclair

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      ISBN: 978-1-4497-1524-3 (sc)

      ISBN: 978-1-4497-1523-6 (e)

      Library of Congress Control Number: 2001012345

      Printed in the United States of America

      WestBow Press rev. date: 04/12/2011

      To all those who have chosen to stay devoted to the cause of Christ in times when He has been deemed politically incorrect.

      That’s it; I’ve had it. I am taking that vacation I mentioned—to that place. Do you remember the place I have often spoken of? It’s among the stars, in the Milky Way, that I seek peace from the wretchedness that pounds this seemingly unassuming world.

      Contents

      Acknowledgements

      Author’s Note

      1. HOW I GOT HERE

      2. WHAT ON EARTH IS GOING ON?

      3. EXISTENCE

      4. LOVE

      5. DARK MOMENTS

      6. TRUST

      7. SELF-ESTEEM

      8. MODERNITY

      9. DEATH

      Conclusion

      About the Author

      Acknowledgements

      I wish to express my deepest gratitude to the editorial and design teams at WestBow Press for making this book a reality. I extend my special thanks to Jeremy Weddle and Amanda Parsons for their guidance through this process.

      You made this happen!

      God sends people into our lives for a reason. I consider myself lucky, because He has blessed me with an amazing (at times crazy) family and friends who continue to serve as an inspiration in my life.

      Thank you, guys, for putting up with me!

      And last but not least, I thank my Lord and Saviour, Yeshua, for His constant grace and love.

      Author’s Note

      The character in this book represents places, people, and circumstances that have criss-crossed in my life. In a sense, she manages to do the impossible by bringing about a marriage of my life experiences in one place. She also represents my personal growth as a young woman in the Christian faith. Through her, I wanted to create a character who was blunt and had unconventional ideas. After several failed attempts to bring this character to life, my revelation finally came in the form of my old high school journal. To me, a journal is one of the most fascinating possessions one can have. People will write a lot of what they secretly desire in life in a journal; sometimes they are foolish wishes, but often, they are really profound thoughts. One may find that in a journal, a person loses his or her inhibitions and is not afraid to be very open—even vulnerable. Another reason I found the journal idea fascinating was because a journal is supposed to be a very private secret possession, yet the writer somehow desires to have someone come across it when the writer is gone and somehow be inspired by his or her thoughts.

      I want what a journal represents to me—a type of spiritedness, openness, and particularly a childlike vulnerability—to shine through my character. In this sense, I hope that by using something familiar like a journal, it will be easier for the reader to forge a connection with my character. I also desire to keep my character nameless. My intention is to draw in the reader with my character’s personality and create a comfortable atmosphere in which to hear her thoughts.

      In the final analysis, my character came across as very open, yet still very mysterious. This was of key importance in the book, because the point I wanted to put across was that her purpose is driven by her faith in God. This also ties into her view of the superficiality that enshrouds this world; hence the obsession with big names. Ultimately, my goal was to provoke the Church into having similar discussions—especially in these times.

      Chapter 1

      HOW I GOT HERE

      I am the last person in the whole world I expected to be doing this. I believed that I was destined for something greater; by that, I meant rank, money—the whole world, if you wish. As far as I was concerned, this was most definitely not part of the grand picture I had painted in my mind. For the most part, I had labelled anyone engaging in these kinds of activities as losers. I did not mean losers in the sense that they were pathetic, but I labelled them as such simply because of the lack of love that they embodied. The Man these people claimed to be following was the polar opposite of them—at least, that is what His wise words showed me. He preached justice, love, mercy, and faith; but what I came across was a bunch of followers who had perfected the art of judgment, hatred, and hypocrisy—and worst of all, they were lovers of themselves. Do you see why I found myself questioning the very truths I believed He stood for? I gave these people a lot more power than they really possessed over me. With time, I started to paint a stark picture of the whole truth. They were supposed to be the physical embodiment of the Man I respected. That is why indifference was very quickly entrenched in what was left of my soul.

      I was thoroughly confused. Why was there so much hatred amongst His followers? Could they not see that the world was watching them? They told me of His love for humankind, and yet they chose to lock me out of their midst. They told me of His desire for each one of us to live in peace with one another—loving one another as we loved ourselves. Most of all, they spoke of His desire to have us accept Him in our hearts—just as we were. But they also made it clear that I was not perfect enough. How was I supposed to make myself worthy before this Man? He seemed to be accepting of all. Why would they make it so hard for a heart that craved love to reach out to this Man?

      Now that I think of it, they also reminded me that He was the Son of God. Is that why I was not worthy enough? What made them any better? I know I am not a saint—but pardon me; neither are they. What set us apart? I had searched all over and not found the answers I sought. I also secretly dreaded turning into these people, so I intentionally kept this progression slow. I was not going to make yet another mistake. Just as I had this realisation, it struck me that the only way I was going to get answers was by reaching out to Him.

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