Of Hushed Silence: A Story of Child Abuse
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Jennifer Whitman
Jennifer lives in Michigan with her husband of 18 years and three children. She loves painting landscapes and sculpting. Spending time with family and friends.
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Of Hushed Silence - Jennifer Whitman
© 2011 by Jennifer Whitman. All rights reserved.
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First published by AuthorHouse 10/14/2011
ISBN: 978-1-4634-3749-7 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-4634-3747-3 (hc)
ISBN: 978-1-4634-3748-0 (ebk)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2011912810
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Contents
Introduction
Preface
The Book Is Dedicated To
Special Thanks & Blessings
Thanks And Acknowlegdements
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Introduction
These are solely based on my experiences and memories. This is my perception of my childhood and the life I lived then. This is such a cliché; all of the events are real, names and locations have been changed to protect the innocent. Something I could not make up and regret that fact.
This all started when a friend of mine asked me to write this book. I refused. She asked me several times because she felt I could help someone with a similar story. The content of this book contains events of a delicate nature and some of the events are very horrific. It is to show all people that have been abused that they do not have to live with the trauma of that abuse and that they can be a survivor and not a victim for the rest of their lives. It is for any woman or man who’s been abused as children.
In some cases, the perpetrator had also been abused as was the case in my life. However, I in no way will condone what they did. Please be forewarned: the events that are in this book were my life and the details within are horrible; I hope this will help others out there that had any form of abuse happen to someone they know or to themselves. While the content is not explicit, it is of a sensitive nature and may not be appropriate for younger readers.
If you how been abused and reading this, you are a survivor and you are a stronger person. No, you will not forget it. Your experiences will be with you all your life. You must decide if you are going to be strong enough to take the steps to live with it; I was very fortunate that I had a lot of support after I left the southern state of my birth at sixteen years old. It took years for me to heal most of the scars I had received and I am not talking about the physical ones, those healed long ago. I still struggle with self-esteem at times, but then I realize it is okay.
Thank you.
Preface
I cannot say I made this journey on my own because I did not. God has been by my side since the beginning; I just did not know him. I have worked through many of the issues in my past, but my true healing did not come until I decided to give it up to God and through a great pastor’s sermon of Breaking Generational Curses. Here is a glimpse of his sermon and notes.
We Must Recognize The Curse.
By Pastor Audie Clairmont
September 23, 2001
In order to get set free and stay free, you have to admit you have a problem. We live in an age of denial. People are conditioned to blame everyone but themselves.
It is vital that you and I understand how and why you are doing what you don’t want to do, but this does not dismiss you from being accountable for your actions.
We are responsible for the choices and decisions we make. If you really want to be free, you will accept that responsibility.
A. ARE YOU THAT MAN (PERSON)?
2 Samuel 12:5-7 (NIV)
David burned with anger against the man and said to Nathan, "As surely as the LORD lives, the man who did this deserves to die!
Then Nathan said to David,
David was the man who had done the deed, but he could not see his own sin until he saw the sin in the man in Nathan’s story. Then he immediately accepted responsibility for his sin and repented to God.
Matthew 26:21-25 (NKJ)
Now as they were eating, He said, Assuredly, I say to you, one of you will betray Me.
And they were exceedingly sorrowful, and each of them began to say to Him, Lord, is it I?
He answered and said, "He who dipped his hand with Me in the dish will betray Me.
Then Judas
He said to him, You have said it.
It’s easy to imagine Judas asking Jesus, Is it I?
as though he were innocent and knew nothing about the traitorous plot he had already schemed.
Jesus was giving Him a time to repent, and letting Him know that He knew when He said.
That’s right, Pastor, tell those folks what’s wrong with them. No I am telling You!
The first step toward freedom is to quit ignoring the problem and admit it.
My thoughts on this:
At the beginning I thought I was about to be blamed again for the things that happened to me as a child. I wasn’t thinking of the things I was doing about it today; that it was my fault and this was what was wrong with me.
It wasn’t until I heard the whole series of the sermon I understood what was being said here. I then realized I did after all have a problem and I was blaming others for things that may not have had anything to do with the abuse I suffered.
The thing is as a child you may not trust someone, not even your parents. I did not trust anyone really, not even the police. I was afraid that I was to blame for the things happening in my life. I just did not realize the problem I had was not of my doing. The problem I did have was not accepting it when I was older.
I do reiterate what I said earlier I had help to get through this. So can you with the support of people who can understand you and comfort you, by believing what you have to say and listening to you. I can not stress enough that you should not try to get support from family and friends who will make you feel worse by telling your story. You should feel comfortable when you tell someone and know they will not share it with others.
I am as comfortable as I can be to tell you my story and will be as straight forward with you as I can. I have told others my story, but never have I attempted to write it because some of my family I spoke to regarding this said they would deny it or disown me; some of which have passed