Crone's Notebook: Second Edition
By Nancy Talley
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What can I say about a collection of poems that span forty years of my life. Some of the old poems are not-so-good. A few are my favorites. All of them speak of who I am as a human. I am forming this collection so that someday my grandchildren will have a clear understanding of who I am.
Nancy Talley
Nancy Talley has written poetry for forty years. Her other passion is Shakespeare. She teaches in two Learning in Retirement Programs where she directed THE TAMING OF THE SHREW set in Padua Texas. Average age of the cast - 75! Her grandchildren get cards for Christmas and birthdays saying, “Good for one adventure with Grandma.”
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Crone's Notebook - Nancy Talley
CRONE’S NOTEBOOK
SECOND EDITION
Copyright © 2014 Nancy Talley.
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Contents
On Art
On Angels
Poems from a chapbook published for me
Etc.
On Family
Favorites
On Friendship
On Grieving
On Love
Folding The Morning Light
On Seasons And Nature
Personal Poetry
On Poetry
On Social And Political Issues
Psalms For The City
On Religion
On Trees
On Women
The White Experience
Lake Sammamish – from my window
Dear reader,
I believe I have written a dozen or so fine poems. However, when I read them over, I am never sure which dozen they are. I therefore have included them all with only a few exceptions. I did delete a few I thought to be very bad.
I have been writing poetry for many years, studied with a variety of poets, attended workshops and been part of writing groups. From time to time I believe the well has run dry and I will never write another poem. Then, with no warning, a poem begins somewhere in the back of my mind. I keep an envelope next to my computer with lines, words, phrases held tight. From time to time I pull them out and see if a poem still lurks there. If it does, I write. The others I toss.
I told my grandson Nicholas that I was publishing these poems so that he and his sister will know who I am. Wise child that he is, he said, Grandma, we know who you are.
Welcome to my world…
Nancy Talley 2013
On Art
I think it was Picasso who said, A work of art is never complete, only abandoned.
If there is a date with an @ before, that is the date on which I abandoned the poem.
It says nothing about how long I struggled…
Elizabeth Bishop worked on her poem –THE MOOSE – for twenty-three years.
An inspiration…
Confounded by crows…
I stand before the paper.
An inner expectation
hovers
my brush balanced and poised
as it is supposed to be
when painting sumi e.
I paid seventy-eight dollars
for this brush -
you’d think it would paint
anything I want it to.
Or even – at that price
like a sorcerer’s brush
paint on its own.
I enter a deep meditation
reflecting on black
as it is the color of crows.
Black, with some blue
and hints of deep red.
…and as much as I know
about painting
and about crows
none of it helps.
Paper prepared
ink-stone ready
this master of the black arts
escapes.
@2008
AN APOLOGY TO HENRY MILLER
The Big Sur is not so much a place as a state of mind.
We go like lemmings
drawn, whether we run off the cliff, or not.
I HIGHWAY 1 - 1950 CLOSED: SEPTEMBER 30, TO MAY 1.
Mid-August, pulling a trailer
I snake up the coast
curving to the deep cool shade
of the inside hairpin turns
so close to ferns
I can wet my fingers in the springs
oozing from the mossy rocks.
Temporary timbers span the gap
bridge the place where the hairpin turn
slid with the rain to the sea.
This is the time and place to learn -
you simply can’t go back.
Coiling to the outside curve
I lift one hand to shade my eyes
from the blinding sun on the water.
Out and in, shade and sun
sun and shade, in and out
I cling to the rim of the Sur.
II BIG SUR CAMP GROUND
My parents sleep in the trailer.
I spread my bag on the ground
under the heavy firs.
The stream pours between the boulders
by this evergreen and watery camp.
In the morning I enter the black shadowed pools
swim with the fingerlings over the pebbled sand.
III HENRY MILLER WROTE HERE
Next day
we wander the coast photographing bridges
wondering how to descend the cliff
where the side roads wind
wondering who owns the roads
with the gates and the locks.
We stop at Deetjen’s Big Sur Inn
a slapstick stack of cottages
with a dining room
leaning at informal angles.
Deetjen shows us around.
Spreading his hand, palm upward he points.
White shingles etched by the constant rains
paint chipped off the moldings
and small dusty window panes face west.
I peer into the room at the table and chair
books in a staggered pile, nothing much.
Deetjen, visibly puffed, says,
This is where Henry Miller writes. He isn’t in right now.
The next day Deetjen bakes a cake
for my nineteenth birthday.
I give no thought to Henry Miller.
IV 1994
Foundation grants and private funds
protect Deetjen’s Big Sur Inn
from sliding into the sea
from crouching in blackberry vines
from collapsing under the weight of history.
I think about you Henry, out that day, prowling
the scalloped froth that laps at the edge of the earth
waiting for words to wash up.
Or did you go to the dentist
all the way up in Monterey Bay?
Henry, I have to confess
I didn’t know who you were. I wasn’t very impressed
with your room. It looked unkempt to me.
V BIG SUR INVOCATION
Last week I borrowed a book from a friend
mended the dog-eared cover with tape
and took it to bed. I read BIG SUR INVOCATION.
I am sorry Henry
I did not know who you were
when I was young. Not because you were famous.
I think you knew fame
was a silly woman fanning herself.
I’m sorry I did not know you loved the Sur
as a bridegroom loves his bride
as a wild man knows the earth
must stay wild.
I’m sorry I did not know your passion
for this jagged stretch
regret I did not know you sooner
while you sat behind those dusty windows
when I was young.
If there are souls, Henry
I hope yours wanders the Sur
between the cliffs and the sea
down one of those roads with a gate and a lock.
@1994
POSTHUMOUS LETTER TO A WOMAN DIRECTOR
- for Donna
I cannot tell you
how I saw Prospero played
as a woman…
How the patriarchal staff
usually struck by the man
waved as a power play
how it was softened
into profound understanding
of the magic
only women know.
How Prospero’s daughter
came with her love
to her mother
and the she-wolf
forced the lover to carry the load
to prove himself worthy
of her child.
I cannot tell you how Sebastian
now a woman
changes the murderous plot
to a seduction
…and how it worked.
If you were still here
breasts missing
a tattooed rose on the left
and your hair shorn
as a gift to the cancer
you would have loved this play.
I will carry it in my heart
until we meet
and then we will talk and talk
in the angelic night.
@8.16.10
FROM THE CONFESSIONAL - a living work of art by Ben Meeker
Ben’s interest in art and food were combined in a series of booths,
each painted and designed to express a theme.
He served food to accompany the art theme.
I SALAD AND SOUP
On the wall of this crude cave
stands a corn-dog with an erection
barking – we are all hungry
and the other creatures
bullock or cow
remind me to bow
my head in gratitude
before I slaughter their kind and kin
before I feast.
Folding my hands
I hear voices – not my own
though mine speaks -
an echo, boxed
in a corrugation of diners.
II BREAD AND CHEESE
Jesus said: Drink this wine.
It is my blood. Take this bread.
My body
is dining in company
not unlike yourselves…
…and oh Lordy! The bread and cheese!
and here I am with no cuff
to carry home what I cannot eat
from this barred and barren space
where the creator speaks
where the olives are to die for
and there are too many fishes and loaves.
But then, he knew there would be…
Jesus knew the people
would carry dried fishes and crusts of bread
deep in their abba pockets
to a hot, summer-windy hill.
This was the miracle -
that they would share.
Miracles, by definition, share.
What I did not expect was
communion
and this terrible sounding of solitude.
III SUSHI
This fish
rushed from its watery grave
to my plain plate
is barely dead.
I dip the flesh in heat
cool my tongue with cucumber
clear my sinuses with ginger.
My mouth forms O around the rice
and seaweed
sipping cha…
I wanted saki!
IV ENTREE
And, tell me Francis, did you eat meat?
How about those birds you loved so well…
a brace of roasted quail
with just a touch of rosemary
sticky almond rice
and poached autumn pears
How about it Francis?
I promise not to tell
these others
who seem not interested in your bleeding feet.
V DESSERT
Screened and surrounded
as she is by dark red
the color of whores and blood
I admire the shade of her hair
through a screen of lace - black
with flashes of henna
and copper
cheaper than gold.
I concentrate on my food.
VI THE COURSE NOT EATEN
Buddha would have understood
and been pleased
we did not suffer.
@11/11/01
MUSING
The muse is a demanding bitch.
She is an itch in the back
of your mind.
She will not let you rest
until you scratch the words
down on paper
or napkins
or placemats
or envelopes
or whatever you can find.
1990
HANDLER - for a play by Robert Schenkkan
I
Supplicants
YES LORD!
we stand at the door, offering tickets
in exchange for experience
an offering for a play about snakes
AMEN BROTHER!
about snakes and truth
and love
and hope
about forgiveness in the face of Lucifer
LORD! LORD!
and all the stuff that really matters.
AMEN!
II
Into a congregation of souls -
toes tapping
hands clapping
hair follicles dancing to music
no righteous Presbyterian Sunday School would tolerate -
we meet
in brotherhood and prayer
in silence.
YES LORD!
We sing the singers
dance the dancers
handle the serpents.
Bitten in the throat, we bleed.
YES JESUS LORD!
III
Leaping into the soul of the play
we twist for living proof
it’s acceptable just to be human.
PRAISE GOD!
IV
The next day
mortals hold one of those meetings
in which they try to bottle God -
"What did you think of the play?
Etc? Etc? Etc?"
One man stands to say
I do not understand the play.
The speaker is the kind who
as my mother would have said
wouldn’t know a snake if it bit him.
AMEN SISTER!
V
The women surrounding me
slither in their chairs.
Understanding Eve
our spines grasp the idea of serpents.
Not wanting more responsibility for sin
we are silent. One nods toward the man
and whispers, Poor thing.
I consider sending the man a snake
but would not want the serpent to suffer.
VI
God is not in the proof
not in the understanding.
GOD! is in the experience.
AMEN BROTHER!
AMEN SISTER!
@6/17/02
On Angels
I am moth; I am light. I am prayer and I can hardly see.
From HOLY THE FIRM by Annie Dillard
Prologue:
I do not know why angels
take people so seriously
while people do not take angels seriously at all.
HIGHWAYS
Pearblossom Road 1963
A shimmering on the air
threaded with silver
fine lines of lightness
a living throbbing silence
an air full of being
quivering between the hills
above the valley floor.
Held to the roadside by impenetrable space
I stopped.
To enter was to abandon breath.
Oroville Highway 1993
Wildflowers already down
only pale lupin by the roadside
where rains wash off the paving.
Grasses turned wheat
roll down the hillside
spreading to the valley floor.
The shimmering comes again.
Prepared to stop
to lift up mine eyes
to wait for second rites
this time
they let me pass.
WOODS
Angels stalk me
on the path
the wooden path that winds
from the lake to the sea.
They hide
in the limbs of dead trees
lurk in the mosses.
They quiver
just beyond the broad leaf
which lies part way over the water, wet
in the marshy pool.
I cannot see if the angels are green.
They do not sound like birds.
They sound like breeze
still in this rainy wood
silent.
I turn
but do not hear the wind
only the leaf
after the wind has passed.
CLOUDS
I
When the angels are not bedeviling us
shaping us up as clouds are shaped
I know they are off bedeviling airy moisture.
I know this because while they are gone
the air is trouble free.
It is the task of angels to pull
to turn us around on our heels
until we see through them
and past them
over and under them
until we are angels ourselves
finally whipped into shape