Silent Screams of a Blue Shadow
By Jason Brown
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He tries to personify his writings to illustrate the life behind the high walls we all put up and show us the reality that often we pretend does not exist.
His writing bears testimony to the sadness and chaotic life that surrounds all policemen and woman in many countries and tries to take the reader, albeit for a short period, into a life of a Blue Shadow.
Jason Brown
Jason Brown is a rising young star in Hollywood who has studied dramatic and comedic acting at the University of California, Los Angeles. He often draws on his own life to entertain and inspire, including his experience connecting with his father, Karamo Brown, at the age of ten. Jason lives in Los Angeles, California.
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Silent Screams of a Blue Shadow - Jason Brown
Copyright © 2011 by Jason Brown.
ISBN: Softcover 978-1-4628-6564-2
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‘These collections of poems are dedicated to every little boy and girl,
who likes to play in the shadows of life’
Image6630.PNGTactical Police Training (Maleoskop Farm)
‘When the eyes where starry bright’
January 1992 aged 19 years
AUTHORS NOTE
_______________________________
Intrepidly these words for you I write,
Tis sorrow, chaos and misery all wrapped up in Blue
Though darkness may try coveting the light
Society’s misfortune and grief, I’ll share with you.
Take heed of the shadows as you listen to,
My silent screams.
______________________________
For many years, I’ve sat and watched life swirl around me as I carry on my policing duties in South Africa. My mind is a perpetual scribe to what visualise around me.
We are all often caught up in our own emotional baggage that we sometimes fail to realise that others have the same feelings, thoughts and emotions.
My poetry has been described as disturbing, morbid, dark, depressing and my all time favourite, evil. Although I have often been asked to write sweet, happy in-love poetry in an effort to cover reality up in cotton wool, I rather realism be bathed in its true light and not in the shadows that we skirt around.
I have written most of my poetry from the empathic viewpoint of all types of victims of crime, society, life and emotional trauma.
I have also seen and heard about so many police officers from all over the world whose facade cracks and crumble emotionally, because of the horrors they must endure.
I have in my own small way, tried to pry open that often hidden emotion and show you the reader, the bitter aftertaste of crime and its malevolence.
It smears it grotesque tentacles on not only society as a whole but also tarnishes the police’s shiny blue armour to now a rusted relic of time gone by.
I have also tried to illustrate through my verses the traumatic abuse that some victims endure. It is not only from strangers or rogue elements of a wayward civilization, but often from cherished loved ones.
If not victims of horrific crime, the people who i see are instead laden by bureaucracy or the morose after—stench of misery and sadness whilst waiting in seemingly long queues.
Obviously with due regard to my profession, I have learned to conceal my emotions behind my Blue Mask and portray a cold unemotional facade who, like an actor acts out the role which we must play.
Of course it would be foolhardy of me in any capacity to attempt to minimize the sterling job Men in Blue do throughout the world or to in any way misconstrue any perception that policeman and woman are not passionate about their jobs and who give of their lives for the greater good of society on a whole.
So yes, I sincerely apologise on behalf of the victims I encounter and help, that their stories I put pen to paper about cannot be of happier memories but rather the underbelly of a somewhat revolting existence that we hide from and pretend does not exist.
I have decided not to categorize my poetry as I feel one should perhaps just read one poem every other day, digest it and reconnect with life knowing that we are not alone in our sufferings.
Stand tall, rise up from the agony of survival.
Jason Brown
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CONTENTS
Cry from My Heart
Queue for Everything in Life
Agitation Behold
All Quiet Before the Storm
Anguished with Memories
Alone and Scared
Anarchy and Order
Antarctic Fury
Affairs of the Mind
Are You Ready Yet?
Au Revoir Warrant Officer
Basejumping
Bashed Down
Beam Me Up Scotty
Beginnings
Behind A Junkie Lies Desperation
Behind My Blue Mask Sits Emotion
Behind Closed Eyes
Behind the Terror
Behind those Sunday Walls
Blue Lines in the Dusk
Breaking Point
Catastrophic Aftermath
Credence Misplaced
Chaos
Children Breaking Free
Click
Contemplating Due Processes
Crime Wave
Contemplating One’s Career
Crimson Light of Blue Warriors
Daylight Shadows
Deviousness
Demons of Democracy
Did You Ever Listen to Him
Did You Know?
Do We Ever Learn?
Do You Believe in Angels?
Do You Ever Think About Dying?
Do You Really Want To?
Drenching of My Emotions
Dripping Paint
Ecstatic Maneuvers in the Morning Light
Ending of a Nightshift
Expressing Your Defeat
Fading Out into the Light
Fatality of the Ensnared
Feeling Boxed In?
Fire of Spurning
Foolish Innuendo
Forever Young
From Darkness to Light
Game of Chances
Goodbye
Heartache of a Woman
Hell is Domestic Blitz
How Ironic Was Superman?
I Am
I Am Life, I Am Everything
I Am Human, So?
If Only We Weren’t Victims
I Feel But Cannot Imagine
Indigo Talking of a Victim
I Find You Irresistible
Justifying Who Got A Life Sentence
Ibulala Cops, Ifa Cop
I’ll Stop I Promise
An Hour In My Day
Incarceration
Insipid Inspirations
I’ve Got A Fistful of Emotion
Killer in Me is the Killer in You
Kissing You Goodbye
Life As A Cop
Life can be so Lonesome
Lines Drawn in the Dust
Light Path
Lonely Road of Saddened Memories
Looking for God
Looking Out At You
In God We Pray, with the Devil We Play
Code Blue On
Empty Highways
Masking of a Masked Fool
Medication of a Fool
Men
Mirror Mirror on the Wall
Mon Ange Valentine
Moment in Time
Must Someday Sorrow Sit
My Little Angels
My Confusion
My Impropriety
Office Space in Service Points
My Thoughts
N3 M13 Code Blue
Nothing’s Making Much Sense Anymore
Oh Honey, You Are Gorgeous
Little Child
Ecstasy of Misery
Pegasus Has Died
Cutting Out My Misery
Pale Grey
Pondering Thoughts We All Wonder About
Pig
Playing the Predator
Stalker on the Prowl
Pts Disorder?
Quest of the Silent Mirrors
Uncertainty I Never Want Answered
Fury
Raging Against the Tide
Raining in My Head Again
Devastated by Our Misguided Guilt
Recession
Red Tape Formalities
Rest in Peace My Brothers in Blue
Rummaging Around the Echoes
How I Wish You Were Real
Sadness Slinks Throughout
Seething At My Fury
Sixteen Candles of Silence
Stepping Stones
Section 3
Shallow Grave
Splintered Little Pieces of You
Shattering of the Pandemonium
Stillness in My Mind’s Eye
Silent Screams of Purpose
Sitting Down with You
Taking A Pew, Awaiting You
Slaughter of the Mindless
Slipping Behind Haunted Eyes
Smile
Life’s Mayhem
Here I Sit
Prayers
97 and Clear Blue Eyes
Sorry for Smacking the Life Out of You
Someone’s Daughter
Sold Your Soul
Sonnet of Confusion
Spurts of a Fool
Standing Alone in the Shadows
Sunday
Suppressing of My Mind, Soul and Rage
Surrender
Surreptitious Thoughts
Tomorrow
Too Deep
The Chest of Drawers
Tearing Away at Your Soul
The Little Blond Whore
The Choices We Make
The Dark Side of You
The Forgotten
Lights and Sounds
The Shattering of My Leave
The Thin Blue Line
The World Needs A Hero
These Walls
This Crying Shame
To Emma & Luke
Torn Broken Mirror
Tasting My Immoral Consequences
Unvalentine
What I See
Well, Here I Am . . .
Torn Edges of the Mirror
Touched by Chaos
Try Listening Some Time
Trying to Find Friends with Wings
Turmoil of Justice
Twisted Mind of the Empty Poor
Virgin Soul