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    I Want to Be and Love My Autistic Self
    I Want to Be and Love My Autistic Self
    I Want to Be and Love My Autistic Self
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    I Want to Be and Love My Autistic Self

    By Travis Breeding

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    Travis shares about his experiences with receiving help through autism services offered to him. He the effects of years of masking his autism and hiding who he truly is. He shares some of his experiences with applied behavior analysis as an adult. He talks about how he was ridiculed by staff and others in society for being who he was and having autistic traits.

    Travis shares of the emotional pain and trauma that he feels has been created by years of masking his autism or hiding his true identity. He talks about the anxiety and depression that have been created as a result of masking it for so long. He shares his story of how his staff try to discourage him from wanting the same things that most human beings want in life because he is autistic. He talks about how behavior therapists only want to work on goals that they have for Travis without taking into consideration goals that Travis has for himself.

    Travis use to endorse applied behavior analysis before fully understanding the effects it has on an autistic person. Travis had a positive experience with a Board Certified behavior Analyst in his early 20's where they worked on conversation skills and talking to people and he thought that was ABA therapy. It turns out what they were working on was not ABA therapy and Travis didn't have what many autistic adults describe as the torture of ABA therapy with discreet trial training and numerous other things.

    As an adult Travis receives the Autism Waiver for support services in which he does receive behavior therapy. His experience with behavior therapy has been that the therapist wants to change who he is as a person and he is not allowed to be autistic. Being asked to mask his autism led Travis to believe he had to mask his autism with everyone. The stress and anxiety of masking really took a tole on Travis and he finally decided he wasn't going to mask anymore.

    This book is all about Travis releasing his autism and being who he truly is. Travis is an autistic adult who is brilliant, fun, intelligent, caring, and loving. He has some quirks but Travis now thinks those quirks can be a part of what makes him a really good friend. Read along to learn of Travis' experience with being treated for autism by support services available and learn how damaging that was to him. Then you'll learn what Travis is doing to undo some of that damage and create a loving life for himself as an autistic adult by being true to himself and his autism.

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherBreeding Publishing
    Release dateDec 27, 2018
    ISBN9780463318720
    I Want to Be and Love My Autistic Self
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    Travis Breeding

    Travis is an author from Huntington Indiana how enjoys entertaining and educating through words. He enjoys telling a story and taking it from his mind to paper. He has authored several books on autism, mental illness, schizophrenia, and disability issues. He continues to write about those issues but also explores some fiction writing as well. Travis has a loving family and enjoys spending time with friends and family. He loves to play bingo and meet new people. One day Travis hopes to start a family of his own and give them so much love. Travis would like to thank his readers for supporting him on his journey of becoming an author. He could not have done it without you. If you would like to get in touch with Travis please email him at tbreedauthoratgmaildotcom,

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      I Want to Be and Love My Autistic Self - Travis Breeding

      I Want to Be and Love My Autistic Self

      Travis Breeding

      Published by Travis Breeding at Smashwords

      Copyright 2018 Travis Breeding

      All Rights Reserved

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      I Want to Be and Love My Autistic Self

      About the Author

      I Want to Be and Love My Autistic Self

      Having autism one thing that I long for more so than anything is to be accepted for who I am. This wasn’t an easy realization to get to. I didn’t always feel like I would ever have the opportunity to be accepted for who I am and have often thought the only way I would ever make good friends or get a girlfriend was to change who I was.

      Furthermore, a system that was supposed to help me be successful and find happiness in my life with my disability didn’t always want to address the same needs that I felt I had, and they certainly didn’t have the same goals for my life that I have for my life.

      When I think of being autistic, I think of being different and not less. I feel like sometimes other people automatically just assume that I should want less for myself just because I am disabled or autistic and while I used to fall into the trap of believing what some people would say I no longer accept less for myself.

      This also means that I have a lot of great expectations for myself. One of the biggest expectations I have for myself now is in saying no and not engaging in things that I do not want to engage in just to make other people happy.

      For the longest time I have had support services that wanted me to do things that I didn’t feel comfortable doing. I had a behavior plan and there was a point and time in which I thought having a behavior plan would be great because it would help me learn social skills to get a girlfriend.

      Unfortunately, what I have learned about applied behavior analysis is that it really isn’t a person-centered treatment. It seems to be more of a behavior centered treatment plan or more, so a behavior analyst centered treatment plan. When I say it is more of a behavior analyst centered treatment plan, I just mean that the behavior plan is written by the behavior therapists without even getting any input from me or asking what some of my goals our in life.

      To this day, I don’t know that I have ever even received a copy of my own behavior plan. This means there are goals in there that may or may not be goals that I have for myself. From my experience in working with my staff and my team when it comes to autism help, I can tell you that they are entirely different goals than what I have for myself.

      When I think of person-centered treatment for autism, I think of someone

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