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Carol Pope is an Associate Professor of English Language Arts Education in the College
of Education and Psychology at North Carolina State University. She has taught English
methods classes at the University of Virginia, University of Houston, and North Carolina
State University.
English Education, Vol. 31, No. 3, April 1999
Copyright 1999 by the National Council of Teachers of English. All rights reserved.
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methods class professor. I was ready to teach teachers, to make a difference in the lives of many children through the teachers I would prepare.
On the first day of my very first methods class, I presented a thorough
syllabus, complete with a theoretical framework that Smagorinsky and
Whiting (1995) would approve. The syllabus was invitational, filled with
opportunities for students to reflect on themselves as learners and teachers, and it built on the current research and theories. I described the numerous class experiences we would share that the students could adapt
to their own teaching and was convinced by the end of the first class that
I had gotten off to a good start. During the next few classes I listened to
the students and heard their views of the course. They reported that they
were scared and worried about their student teaching. They had taken the
requisite courses in educational psychology, introduction to teaching, and
school and society, but they had completed these classes as students, not
as a teachers. They had learned to prepare lesson and unit plans, but they
registered little confidence that they actually could teach these plans to
real kids. When I mentioned in class one day that they were the hope of
tomorrow, the leaders of future students, the movers and shakers of
tomorrows classrooms, they met me with blank stares. While they all said
they wanted to be teachers because they loved working with kids, they
said they did not want to shake the system. I just want to get through
student teaching, get a job, and start making some money was their most
frequent reply.
When I asked these same students to write me about what they wanted
from the English language arts methods class and me, almost to a person they wrote, I want to know the BEST way to teach English. I must
admit it was tempting in those days to respond to their frequent in-class
questions regarding the BEST way to teach with direct answers. After all,
I had been teaching a long time and held a doctorate in English education. Should I not know the answers? Could I not just tell them the answer
according to the experts and be done with it? Was I withholding answers
from them?
pared to do it. I have the materials I can change, and I know some people
I could go to for help. Cynthia, another skeptical student, chimed in, Yes,
I can do this. Murphy, who sees himself as a traditional teacher, said,
Im not sure Ill do this workshop thing as a new teacher, but now I can
see how it works. Other students made similar comments and added,
Thanks for buying us all this stuff and for having Julie come. All that really
helped.
As this incident reveals, the success of my Reflection/Refraction process depends on my willingness to listen, to be introspective, and to be
able to interpret and act on my own and my students language and behavior in ways I might not initially choose. Reflection, in itself challenging, requires me to see and hear classroom events clearly, to review, and
to examine the responses of students to my pedagogy. Refraction, on the
other hand, is often illusory, difficult to bring into focus. Refraction requires
me to extend my initial thinking, to gather information, and to form theories from not-so-immediate, not-so-obvious sources. I have to push myself to think outside my own parameters, to consider other meanings and
interpretations of the information I have collected. The most important
requirement of my refraction is that I be self-critical, that I be willing to
face my own fears as a teacher, and that I be vulnerable to alternative
meanings. Because these refractory messages are sometimes oblique and
Reflection
(review, examine)
Figure 1.
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Refraction
(reframe)
are capable of becoming transformative intellectuals (Giroux, 1985), teachers who think critically, constantly stretch themselves, and examine their
own practice.
Self-Generated Inquiry
These first two stories are ones generated by my own need to determine if pedagogical choices I make in the methods class actually work,
if the students will find them beneficial to their learning and experience.
In these cases I move from my own question to implementing a teaching
strategy. After I use the approach, I reflect on the success, refract on WHY,
and try to understand the results. In these cases my Reflection/Refraction
process comes after the implementation of a strategy which grew from
my own inquiry.
Holding at bay my fear of losing credibility, I swallowed hard and distributed two Negative Example(s) of Reading Log guidelines (Figures
2 and 3) and one Better Example of Journal guidelines (Figure 4) representing three years of trial and error from my secondary teaching experience. Citing stories of my false starts, complete with these
embarrassing, original dittoed handouts, I explained that these two Negatives Example(s) show the naive view I held of my students and their interests. In my first year of using Reading Logs (Figure 2) I was trying to
create an alternative to independent reading assignments that was also
in my view highly academic. My choice failed miserably. Because the
students in my classes were kind and pleasant, they humored me for a
while and made a half-hearted attempt to give me what I required. After
collecting and reading the students entries three times, I realized that they
were having real difficulty with the assignment. I abandoned the Reading
Log.
Undaunted, the next year I revised the Reading Log assignment (Figure 3) for the Representative Writers classes I was teaching. This sheet
looked pretty impressive to me at the time (and actually impressed the
READING LOG
English 5-6
Carter (Pope)
The purpose of this reading log is to stimulate your own reaction to a novel you have
read. It will also give you experience in using the library and in becoming aware of
literary criticism as an art in itself.
I.
Title of book
II.
Authors name
III.
Analysisentirely based on your ideas (Do not use any kind of helps)
A.
B.
C.
D.
IV.
When I first read these comments and others that were similar, I was
shocked. I guess I thought they would be embarrassed for me, that indeed
they would question my credibility as their teacher.
Reflecting on Self-Disclosure
To reflect on the class these students wrote about, I replayed the whole
lesson in my head and reviewed the students responses in class. When I
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READING LOG
Purposes:
Format:
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Carter (Pope)
Response
Information gained
possibilities: Personal opinion/reaction
Value of reading
Relatedness of reading to classwork
New words/ideas encountered
Theme and how it is expressed
Style
Symbolism
Characterization
Setting
General directions: Your entries in your log may be derived from any reading you have
done that day. Anything you consider worthwhile may be listed: magazine articles,
newspapers, short stories, books, short selections, any other reading material. (Of course,
you may also include any other creative writing or responses to activities, philosophies,
or other happenings in your lifesuch as theatrical performance, media.)
Remember that your reactions to literature should be objective, discriminating,
personal and evident of critical thinking. Accordingly, you will find yourself developing a discerning eye for the world around you.
One of the prime findings in this log should be a daily response to your parallel
reading for this course. If you react on a regular basis to your reading, you will find
that you can use these reactions to your selected work in the required compositions.
Therefore, your log may consist only of reactions to your parallel reading.
Following is a list of the dates and subjects for the essays on your parallel reading. The list of selections are located on another sheet. You are to read a minimum of
four major works outside of class. (You might also begin to identify some interest for
your research paperto be discussed later.)
ESSAYS
September 30 - Characterization (correlate with Beowulf and Chaucer)
October 28 - Theme (correlate with Shakespeare)
November 30 - Style
Final Exam - Culmination of critical evaluations of English literature
Evaluation: Your reading logs will first be read on Wednesday, September 15. After that date,
you will bring your log every day, and they will be collected and inspected periodically.
presented the three handouts from my own teaching, the methods students
sat silently reading, studying as I discussed each sheet. They did not look
up at me until I joked, Lo and behold, the wrong students walked into
my classroom that Fall and How could I have been so naive? Can you
see what I did here? They listened politely, laughed when I made selfdeprecating comments, and wrote a few comments on the handouts.
Refracting on Self-Disclosure
While this reflection mirrored what happened in the class, it did not
really tell me what I wanted to know. I wanted to understand why my methods students had reacted as they had; I wanted to consider other possible
explanations for their reactions, to reframe my reflection in order to find
a deeper meaning. So I brought these issues to the attention of my students for discussion the next class session after I had read their pedagogy
logs. They reported that often their education professors and readings offer
the answer, so it was a surprise to hear a teacher actually admit making
mistakes. They found my admission not only funny but comforting. For
the first time, they said they felt as if it really would be okay to make a
mistake teaching, that they could still be successful in spite of making
inappropriate choices.
My Learning
This realization stimulated me to become more self-critical in my
methods teaching. Not only is it appropriate for me to admit to making
mistakes when I taught secondary English; it is actually a good idea. I also
ashamedly realized that my students had come to believe that I, as well
as my colleagues, knew all the answers to classroom instruction challenges.
It is important for my students to know I am not nearly so certain as I might
initially appear, so I must be careful not to give that impression. While I
feared their confidence in me would be shaken as a result of such admissions, I found the opposite to be true. I became more credible to them.
From this incident I learned not to be afraid to admit mistakes I made
as a secondary teacher but also mistakes I make now as a teacher educator. I try not to sound so certain that I know a right way to teach English language arts, and I encourage students to question, look deeply into
texts and classrooms before they rush to judgment about the validity of a
particular method of teaching. Yes. I do feel vulnerable when I think about
and reveal my teacher warts. But I just cannot live with myself if I create
a teacher self that just was not.
Now when I mentally plan and rehearse stories and discussions of my
own teaching I want to share with methods students, I remember my real
teaching self, the one who made many mistakes, who had to learn from
her students. In an attempt to deconstruct my teaching memories, I ask
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myself such questions as, What was my prior experience when I finally
learned how to implement such strategies as small group assignments?
How many times had the group work been disastrous? How did my own
thinking and planning evolve? I try to make my teaching stories more
credible to my students, more reflective of what I was really going through
and deciding, not just examples of Heres what I did. Wasnt it great?
JOURNAL
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Carter (Pope)
Purpose:
Format:
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There is not any competition among us. We strive to help each other and
also seek help from each other. (Stevie)
What I enjoy most about your class, Carol, is that we have the opportunity to discuss concerns and problems or even share successes with our
peers and learn from each other as well. (Posey)
Problem-Based Inquiry
These next two teaching stories are problem-based ones which grew
from students expressed concerns or complaints. In this process I reflect
and refract before I make a teaching choice. After students register a concern, I reflect, make sure I grasp the students issue; then I refract by internally questioning, re-considering the students problem in light of what
I know about the student. From this Reflection/Refraction process, I determine and implement an activity, experience, or series of experiences
that I anticipate will address the problem. After this implementation, I
analyze students reactions to see the impact of my choice. I read students
pedagogy logs or elicit reactions through class discussion. From this process, I continue to learn about my students, my teaching, and our learning.
Talia went on to describe her panic and her need just to scream as loud
as [she possibly could]. I was startled by her admission.
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My Learning
From this incident I have learned not to assume my students remember, know, or are the same people they were in previous classes. The
methods semester and its challenges are new, and they have never been
in this situation before. I slip up occasionally and forget to go beyond reflection, but I am getting better. My Reflection/Refraction model now serves
as a structure to remind myself to question prior views I hold of my students.
I decided the next year that we could work on getting them ready for
student teaching by making the methods scaffold stronger, by supporting them even more, and by showing them examples of novice teachers
who had made it. Perhaps some young teachers could serve as role models
with whom they could identify. I first invited two teachers who had been
teaching less than five years to the class; they demonstrated lessons that
worked with their students; then they discussed the lesson, talked about
their students, and described their schools. The students responses in their
pedagogy logs were positive.
Betty was beneficial to me because shes out there now and dealing with
those kids. I realize that you are also out there, but I cant seem to see
you as their teacher, only mine! (Patsy)
Eleanor was an inspiration to me because we have been studying these
different types of teaching methods and she is living proof that these really work. She helped to reinforce a lot of things that we have been learning.
(Kacy)
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was also impressed by how quickly each of these different people has
developed so quickly from student teacher to teacher. (Joyce)
One of the main things I recognized was the need to be flexible and organized. I had heard this before, but now I realize how important these
are. These teachers must have felt nervous about student teaching, just
as I do. But they turned out really well; Im sure I will too. (Sarah)
My Learning
Although I still occasionally hear students mention early in their student teaching experience that they were just not prepared for how hard
student teaching is, I try not to get defensive. I try to remember to move
past my But in this program they . . . reflection to the refraction part of
my process that reminds me how new and frightening student teaching
is. I remind myself too, that they do not mean they lack lesson plan ideas
or skills for organizing students; they mean that their vision of themselves
is amorphous, as is their vision of being one of the teachers whom they
have formerly known only as authority figures. The transition from being
a student to a student teacher and professional is a life-changing one.
Student teachers discover parts of themselves they never knew before, their
own physical and emotional limits as well as their professional voices. They
often did not know they could get angry or be directive; neither did they
know they could be the adult in charge and that they could make so many
decisions as a teacher. To ease this transition, they need to hear and see
teachers so that they can envision themselves in a teacher role. Hearing
the voices of these teachers can give them a sense of belonging, a sense
of a professional community they are joining.
long process of learning with and from students, adapting to their needs,
and soliciting them as partners in the classroom. I want my methods students to know that neither I nor anyone else has all the answers for every
teaching challenge. I am, like them, a questioner, a wonderer, a researcher
in my classroom; I find my answers with and from students, as I hope they
will in their classrooms.
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