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Lizzie
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First published in Australia and New Zealand by Allen & Unwin in 2016
First published in the United States in 2015 by Viking, an imprint of
Penguin Random House LLC
Copyright 2015 by Shiny Brass Lamp Productions, Inc. f/s/o Hilary Liftin
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We took risks, we knew we took them; things have come out against us, and
therefore we have no cause for complaint, but bow to the will of Providence,
determined still to do our best to the last . . .
captain robert falcon scott
message to the public, march 1911
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introduction
timeP. J. has one way she likes to do things: P. J.s way.) After shed
cooled down a bit, she reminded me that wed spent the past year and a
half trying to show the world that my life was completely boring and
mundane in an attempt to get the press to relax its twenty-four-hour
watch on me. Why would I want to stir things up again?
It was a good question, and it has a real answer, but it might not be
what everyone expects.
I know that people want to hear my side of the story. Ive been asked
the same questions every time Ive stepped out into daylight for more
than seven years. Lizzie! Lizzie! Why did you marry Rob Mars? Was it a
career move or do you really love him? Is he gay? Whats it like inside the
One Cell Studio? Have you learned to levitate? Is it a cult? Why did you
leave Rob? Did he cheat on you? Seriously, is he gay? Wheres your wedding
ring? Are you saving your sons from the Studio? Are you and Johnny getting
back together? And, of course, Who are you wearing?
I am going to answer those questions (though Im not going to dwell
on fashion). In doing so, I have no choice but to violate my ex-husbands
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introduction xiii
Lizzie Pepper
los angeles
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Pa r t O n e
Dazzled
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It was Rob Mars after all. You dont say no to Rob Mars.
Ive had a million meetings in my acting career, and I had no idea that
this would be the one that would change my life forever. I walked into the
room, and there was Rob. At this point I was past being dazzled by movie
starsor so I thought. But even at the Oscars, in that concentrated crowd
of self-involved, hard-to-impress A-listers, Rob Mars turns heads. Celebrities gawk at him the way most people gawk at them.
Here he was. Rob Mars, in the flesh. Seeing him spun me back to my
teen years, before I took the role of Lucy McAlister on American Dream,
before all the press, the red carpets, the award ceremonies, the movies
and TV appearances. Back to the days when Rob Mars was a life-size
poster on my best friend Auroras bedroom door, and we had no idea that
I would ever lead a life that would have me meeting him in person, much
less as a potential colleague. I would say I never dreamed of it...but isnt
this what everyone dreams of?
Rob rose to greet me, tall and debonair, his familiar face sharper in
three dimensions, as if hed always been slightly blurry onscreen and now
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he was in high-def. His brow and chin were strong, elegantly framed by
salt-and-pepper hair. But you know that. What I really mean is that in
person his features were breathtaking, his face chiseled by destiny. And I
had never noticed before how his eyebrows slanted down toward his ears.
It made him look a little vulnerable in spite of the ridiculous bone structure.
Hi, Im Lizzie, I said, and stuck out my hand to shake his. A worry
flitted through my head. Was he one of those germophobes? I hadnt done
my research. Had I blown it already? But he took my hand and at the same
time leaned in to kiss my cheek. Phew.
Can I call you Elizabeth? he asked. Youre too sophisticated for
Lizzie.
I nodded dumbly. My father was the only person who called me Elizabeth. Elizabeth felt premature, but also intimate coming from Robas
if hed already found something in me that hed been looking for.
Elizabeth, he said, and smiled. That famous megawatt smile, but
now it was for me.
We took our chairs, and I noticed that he was one of those people
with a disproportionately long torso because sitting down he was a good
foot taller than I was, and Im five foot seven.
There were other people in the room. Six, maybe? Hard to say, I never
pay much attention to entourages of agents and managers, and I was
transfixed by that smile. Anyway, Rob was the one who led the conversation from the start. He talked about how much hed admired my work,
not just on American Dream, but in Underground and The Last Hurrah.
I ate up the praise. American Dream was formative for meI grew up on
that showbut I didnt want it to define me as an actor for the rest of my
life. Plus, these compliments were coming from one of the biggest movie
stars in the world. Maybe the biggest movie star. Rob Mars isnt just a
moviegoers idol. Hes an actors actor. Hes played good guys, bad guys,
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teen heartthrobs, Jesus himself, and an immortal god who rules over an
unbelievably distant planet. He even sang in some musical where he
played a sensitive cowboy. Anyway, my point is completely obvious to
anyone who has ever stepped into a movie theater. Nothing Rob Mars
ever does feels small, and it never is. All his movies over-perform. He
over-performs. Whatever you think of that movie, he was a completely
believable Son of God. Somehow even the cowboy musical, which was
generally considered to be a flop, made millions of dollars. Meanwhile, all
my movies so far had been small, offbeat indies with good reviews and
mediocre-to-nonexistent box offices, and all my parts had been awkward
girls with glasses and names like Ruby who just needed to accept their
quirkiness before realizing that the cute lead guys loved them in spite of
themselves. And now Rob Mars himself knew who I was. By name. He
knew and said he loved my last film, which, as far as I could tell, had been
seen by about twelve people. If nothing else came out of this meeting, at
least I had that.
We chatted. He never broke eye contact. He might not even have
blinked. Even stranger, he also didnt say a word about the part in his new
movie, which was ostensibly the reason we were there. Where was this
going? I was flattered and a little confused. But fine, if he was one of those
people who liked some long, semi-personal get-to-know-you conversation to see if I had a brain before getting to the point, I could play that
game.
Okay, this is off topic, I said, but I read this amazing book last
week: The Birthday Boys. Its a fictionalization of Captain Robert Scotts
failed expedition to the South Pole. He and three other men froze to
death in a tent, waiting out a blizzard that they knew would never end.
Tell me more, Rob said. A good sign. I had a morbid interest in survival stories (they could take place at either Pole, in the Andes, or in outer
space so long as they involved intrepid people in inhumane circum-
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stances fighting for their lives), and as my go-to topic of conversation they
tended to separate the wheat from the chaff. Approximately half the time,
my audience took the first chance to excuse themselves to get another
drink. But I had Robs full attention.
One of the characters says it was so cold their teeth splintered. Do
you think the author made up that detailor do you think their teeth
actually froze and cracked? I mean, theyre teeth.
Rob seemed to ponder this.
Then he said, Guys, could you...? and before he finished the sentence, the room emptied.
Now it was just the two of us. Rob sat calmly in his armchair, but I
could feel his intensity radiating toward me.
So, Elizabeth, I hear you had a poster of me on your wall?
I cringed. Hed seen the profile in Glam, the one where I said he was
my childhood crush. It wasnt truethe poster I had in mind was the one
on my best friend Auroras bedroom doorsometimes in an interview I
panic under the pressure to come up with an answer. My real childhood
crush was Alec Dumall, but since hed just been busted for downloading
child porn (hey, perhaps wed both had crushes on each other!)Id had
to think fast.
Do you always read Glam, or do you mostly just tear out the pictures
and tape them inside your locker? I teased.
He laughed. I like you, Elizabeth Pepper. There was an awkward
pause. Or, rather, I felt awkward. Rob sat there watching me squirm, a
beatific smile on his face.
Look, he said, I have to go. But I want to spend more time with you.
Can I take you out? Take me out. A date? Either a date or a mob hit. It
wasnt an exaggeration to say that Rob Mars was the most eligible bachelor in the world. Aurora was going to keel over and die. But I wasnt
making any assumptions.
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Shut up. Aurora, who had just served herself some of our take-out sushi,
sat up straight.
Well, its not necessarily a date. He just said
It is totally a date and, holy crap, we have to figure out what youre
going to wear. When is this date happening?
I dont know. He said hed call.
You have to be ready! Aurora exclaimed. I know how this goes
down. Hes going to call the day of. A limo will whisk you to a restaurant,
where youll be the only people because hes reserved the whole place for
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the two of you. You wont have time to think. The only solution is to be
fully made-up and wearing a black cocktail dress every waking moment
of your life. Do you own the right dress for a date with Rob Mars? This is
major. Aurora sprang up. She flew to the closet, her unruly mane of
blond hair bouncing. In a blur of wiry limbs, she started pulling out
dresses.
Trying too hard, she said, rejecting a dark red silk. Slutty...this
could be good. She held up a graphite sparkling mini-dress. Hel-lo,
Lizzie!
He calls me Elizabeth.
Aurora tossed the dress aside. Oh, forget this one, then.
Can you please stop this makeover montage? I begged.
Aurora threw three dresses into my arms. Try these ridiculous little
handkerchiefs.
He might not call, you know. I dropped the dresses on the bed.
Aurora paced impatiently. Pepper, you are impossible. She paused
and closed her eyes. I waited. More was coming.
You know that hes gay.
Aurora...
Im serious. I have it on good authority. My power yoga teacher is
best friends with his lover.
Aurora was visiting from Chicago, where her power yoga teacher, an
L.A. transplant, was her best and only source for all celebrity rumors,
including plenty about me that we both knew were lies. Mostly. Okay,
exaggerations. The one with the tequila shots and the Segway on the 405
is true, but I was young and Im not proud.
Fine. Hes gay. Hes also twenty years older than I am. Im just going
out with him. If he ever actually calls. And even if he does, it might not
be a datecertainly not if hes gayso who cares?
It is a date. Im just saying be careful. You dont want to be a beard
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like his last wife. Rob had been married to Lexy Hartfield for fifteen
years. Lexy Hartfield! How could I compete with her? The long, dark hair,
full lips, almond eyes, and curves that made me look like a schoolboy. If
Lexy was Robs type, then I certainly wasnt. She was drop-dead gorgeous,
famous for never wearing makeup or styling her hair except on set. Without the fancy dresses and professional makeup, Im a plain Jane. (See, for
evidence, any paparazzi shot of me from the past year, along with the
accompanying snarky, derogatory caption.) And, if anything, Ive been
encouraged to play up my plainness and sensibility. Because, as my publicist never fails to remind me, I am famous for my girl-next-door character,
my girl-next-door upbringing, and my girl-next-door looks. Apparently
Im famous for how undeserving of fame I am. Furthermore, Lexy was a
daredevil, said to have performed all her own stunts in the action movies
that made her a star. She could have any man in the world. There was no
way she was a beard. Yeah, now that I thought about Lexy, I realized there
was no way Rob would go for me. Easy come, easy go.
I lit a cigarette and leaned out the window to exhale. My parents were
visiting the next day, and my mother had a nose like a bloodhound.
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