Germanium

Cop that got kicked out of cop school for stalking his girlfriend
Not really on top (not Aurum)
Heaviness
Succeeds never
I can never do anything right
Im everyones last friend
Crying a lot
Heaviness, like in PLB
Result of feeling so isolated cutoff from friends, family
Really heavy
Having failed in a relationship (this Aur if failure in work)
Heaviness and grief due to feeling like failure to life, relationship, work
Great sense of grief, w/feeling if heaviness
Ive failed and Im isolated and alone because of this