Story of a schizofrenic.

(So lots of bad typing and weird stories ) Keep in notice these things just come to my head. (voices) or ideas and i thougd id note what they say. Cause why not ? Also this is just a short story i can type it all but it will take long. So its just a sample. Call me a crazy man or whatever cause i simply dont care cause god (allah) learned me to not fear men. You might talk about war in the beginning cause this is just a start to what i will typ advanced. Also im dutch and cant rly spell good english and il use a spell checker later. Keep in note this story might seem crazy to most people cause it sounds unreal, Basicly that hapens when your psygotic. I havnt stolen this from no where this is just what i think and what i hear. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------In the beginning mankind has thougd about war ,in war there are machines (the soldiers). Woman and men even children fighting for a lost cause (A goverment or dictator) Why is it a lost cause i thougd, because your not fighting for god (allah) not even for yourself you might think you are but your not. God has created the bible and the quran thru his profets why im not talking about the jewish faith cause i realy dont know nothing about it. In the end one can choose to follow the path of a faith, or men can think about god in there own image. Im not against any religion i my self im a moslim, but i have yet never been in a Mosque. Why cause im shy and find it hard to talk about, then again god (allah) learns me to fear no man. Keep in note i might also be autistic (still not confirmend) so its tough for me to talk about it with other persons except (god) allah or his angels. When i was psychotic for the first time i lost reality, i was in my own world and i lost contact to reality. In the beginning i saw god (allah) take my soul thru a light coming from the stars. The next it felt like god was chasing me thru rooms and he sayed he was warning me, you need to fear me. And ofcourse i almost shitted my self of fear, cause really who wouldnt when you hear voices and see things that are not there for the first time.

I can talk about my psyogotic episode when i lost reality but its so much information, most i know so if there are some questions let me know. Mind the spelling i havnt yet checked it with word. I started with war and religion cause basicliy its a story of something i want to type. Basicly for myself so i remember what i went through. Know for some random thougds. When i see images of war or violence, i just think to my self does god allow as to do these bad things. Ofcourse he himself created us and we can life our life how we want to. But keep in note that the angels and fallen ones are always around us. The voices have told me that everything around you are not just angels, there are also fallen angels (also know as demons). Couse thru my psygotic episode i had visions of war, violence, death, people shooting me, stabbing me. The most horibble things. But did i ever thougd bad about god (allah) ? Most people think look at the world why is there a god ? I my self laugh at those comments. Cause i have always believed in god and god created us what more is there to think about ? Its a miracle that god created us to his image, its miracle to wake up everyday. So never question god and his methods,. In my psygotic episode i have also seen the devil (in a typical image) hornes on head etc. He himself sayed god is my friend, so i say back you must pray Why wouldnt i try to talk the devil in to praying to god ? Cause he himself must also be thank to god for creating him. (Sry people who dont like to hear about the devil but this is just what i went thru and head) In the beginning he told me that he plants thougds in the humans minds. Like your bad thouds. But i my self learned to time that it are the angels and the fallen angels. I have also heard vocies that i thougd was god (allah), but i was afraid. Then gabriel told me that only he can hear god (allah), but he can speak to anyone thru him. The voices tell me to type more about the rules of allah etc, but i just dont know if i can do that. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Im stopping here cause i simple are to tired, i usualy cant type that long. Makes me tired. Most will laugd and joke at me but i just dont care.

Cause this happened on my psygotic episode and a psyigotic episode is just crazy. And im still psyogtic but im glad to be back at reality. LEX DEN OTTER, NETHERLANDS