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1.

SELF SEX

P I E R R E G U YOTAT

P. 14 BODY OF THE TEXT.

DA N I EL SLOATE

P. 21 I STRUGGLED WITH A DEMON

D E M E TR I U S ZA M B ACO

P. 22 CASE HISTORY.

2.

SOFT SEX

P I E R R E K LOSSOWSKI

P. 38 ROBERTE'S DIARY (CONTINUED)

ROG E R C A I LLOI S

P. 42 THE OCTOPUS IN JAPAN.

PA U L V E R LA I N E

P.415 ON THE BALCONY.

DU NCAN H . S M ITH

P. 46 MEMOIRS OF AN OCCUPATION

3.

ALIMENTARY SEX

J EA N POU I LLON

P. 154 TABLE MANNERS. BED MANNERS. LANGUAGE MANNERS.

P A U L V E R LA I N E/ARTH U R R I M B A U D

P.62 THE SONNET OF THE HOLE IN THE ASS.

T E R E N C E C. S E LLERS

P. 63 COPROPHAGY AND URINOLOGY

PAUL VERLAINE

P.66 A LITTLE SHIT
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4.

SEX OF THE GAZE

MICHEL BERNARD

P.68 THE MUTE NEGRESS.

A L A I N ROBBE-G R I LLET

P. 72 TEMPLE IN THE LOOKING GLASS.

5.

AMBIGUOUS SEX

FELIX G U A TT A R I

P. 8 0 I HAVE EVEN MET HAPPY TRAVELLOS.

DA N I E L SLOATE

P. 8 1 POLLY ORlAND PAUL.

JEAN FRANCOIS LYOTARD

P. 8 2 USE ME.

FELIX G U ATTARI

P. 8 6 BECOMING-WOMAN.

6.

A NIMAL SEX

F R E D E R I C ROSSI F

P.90 THE WILD CELEBRATION

CATH E R I N E D U N C A N

P.9S JOURNEYS OF A GENTLEWOMAN.

G I L L E S D E LEUZE/FELI X GUATTARI

P. 97 A BLOATED OEDIPUS.

B E R N A R D NOEL

P. 1 02 THE DOGS.

DA N I E L SLOATE

P.l06 TRUDY OR THE SECRET APHID.

7.

CHILO SEX

PETER WI LSON

P.I 08 THE SILVER PIPE CAFE.

TONY D U V E RT

P.l l 0 COUNTESS LULU

W I LLI A M B U RROUGHS

P. 1 1 9 THE POPLING

ROGE R MOODY

P. 1 215 THE COMMITTAL.

8.

MOR BID SEX

GEORGES BATAILLE

P.IS 6 THE CULPRIT.

10. 228 INQUIRY INTO FEMININITY.1!57 SAINT JACKIE. M I C H E LE MONTR ELAY P. 172 ONCE I HAD A MASTER. D I SCUR S IVE SEX QUESTION N A I R E P.I!54 THE PARALLEL BARS. JACQU ES LAC A N P." ROLA N D BARTH ES P. JOHN P R E STON P. JACQU ES LACAN P. 1 972.162 M. 219 JOUISSANCE AND DIVISION. COMEDIENNE AND TORTURER. 202 DO YOU KNOW CORRECT TERMS FOR WHAT SOME MAY CALL "SEX PERVERSIONS. FRANCOIS P E RALDI P.190 THE OEDIPUS COMPLEX.ANONYMOUS P. 9. P I E R R E B E N I CHOU P. M I C H E L DE M ' U ZAN P. 18!5 LETTER TO JASON. CHANTAL M A I L L ET/SYLV I E LEGER P. 1 1. JASON K L E I N P. • . CORPORATE SEX JOHN PRESTON P.E . VIOLENT SEX PIERRE KLOSSOWSKI P. 208 SAINT ANN. .14!5 MY LATE GRANDMOTHER.17!5 CHORUS FOR A PSALM.20!5 VOCABULARY.167 POSTFACE: VIOLENCE AND POLYSEXUALITY.

26!5 HOW TO MAKE YOURSELF A BODY WITHOUT ORGANS. 12. M I ST E R M A RG U L I E S P.ROLA N D B A R T H E S P. 270 FRONTIERS BROKEN SYLV E R E LOT R I N G E R P. 242 MOVING GIRL. ROBERT V A N R O D E N A LL E N P... PH I LOSOP H I CAL SEX PA U L V I R I LIO P. 271 DEFUNKT SEX. 1 3. 249 DISCOURSE AND SEXUALITY: TOWARD THE TEXTURE OF EROS. C R I TICAL SEX G U Y HOCQU E N G H E M P. .236 FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOURSE. 260 TO DESTROY SEXUALITY . G I L L E S D E L E UZE/ F E L I X GUATTARI P.

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POLYSEXUALITY .

IF YOU PREFER. . POL YSEXUALITY IS A TEXT IN ITSELF. 'JOUISSANCE' CULMINATES IN DEATH: THE ULTIMATE SEX. IT TELLS WHAT THE REALITY OF SEX HAS ALWAYS BEEN WITH RESPECT TO ITS ALIENATION TO 'USURA' AND EXPLOITATION. IT ALSO POINTS TOWARD THE 'REAL OF SEX' WHICH STILL LIES UNTOUCHED.POLYSEXUALITY IS NOT ONLY A SET OF TEXTS WRITTEN BY CAREFULLY CHOSEN AUTHORS AND ILLUSTRATING THE PLURAL ASPECTS OF SEXUALITY. THE EDITORS OF WHICH ARE THE AUTHORS. BUT PERHAPS ALLUDED TO BY FREUD WHEN HE SUGGESTED THAT LIBIDO HAD NO GENDER. LET'S CALL IT A COLLAGE OR A TEXTUAL PATCH-WORK. UNTHOUGHT OF. IRREPRESSIBLE 'VOLONT E DE JOUISSANCE' LIBIDO: AN (WILL TO PLEASURE) NEVER PURE SINCE IT IS ALWAYS LINKED TO THE DEATH DRIVES TO THE POINT THAT FOR SOME RIGOROUS SEEKERS.

FROM COVER TO COVER. THE THEORY OF CATASTROPHIES IS AT THE VERY CORE OF THE THEORY OF POLITICS AND IT HAS TO BE THOUGHT OF AS GIVING SHAPE TO THIS OTHER SIDE OF LIBIDO. BY KNOTTING THEM TOGETHER· AND MAKING THEM TANGIBLE. MASSACRES.IF LIBIDO IS THE ALL ORGANIZING THESE FORCES OF ALL ACTIVITIES LEADING SEX TO 'JOUISSANCE. WE CALL IT TEXTUAL. WHICH CENTRIFICATE POLITICS. HAVE BEEN PRESENTIFIED IN THIS TEXT BY IMAGES OF POLITICAL DISASTERS. SYMBOLICALLY OR SEMIOTEXTUALLY SPEAKING. AND DEATH DRIVE. BECAUSE LANGUAGES. MARCH 1 6.' HAVE TO BE CONSIDERED AS IMAGES OF THE OTHER SIDE OF THE DEATH DRIVES. INCLUDING WRITING ABOUT AND 'JOUISSANCE. 1 981 . GENOCIDES. THE DEATH DRIVES. OF COURSE. CRIMES OF WAR: OUR DAILY LOT.' ACTIVITIES. THAN THE TEXTUAL WORKING THROUGH OF THIS THESIS. IN OUR OPINION. CONSTITUTE THE THIRD SIDE OF LIBIDO. THIS WHOLE ISSUE IS NOTHING ELSE. FRANCOIS PERALDI BOSTON.

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S E L F S E X .

CATS. CONDUCTING A D I A LOGU E BETW E E N 14 . IN O R D E R TO "PUT OFF" A DESI R E T O P I S S OR C R A P. I WAS ACTI NG IN A VERY COHERENT WAY AS TO THE MASTERING OF M Y N E E DS AND WANTS: AS I SAW IT. SCREECH-OWLS FROM P U B L I C LY ATT E N T I O N MAKE KNOWN N EEDS. IT TOOK PLACE. FI LTE R E D BY THE F R A I L E R S M E L L OF S E M E N). ORANGE P E E L. POLITICAL CONTEXT PL E A S U R E BECA M E P R A C T I S E D . A LTHOUGH I H A V E N E V E R EVER FELT THE LEAST E M B A R R A S S E D ON TH E CONTRARY. A C CO R D I N G TO A KIND OF G A M E.H I D D E N I N T H E V E R Y H A U N T OF H U M A N A N D OFTEN A N I M A L DEJ ECTIONS (DOGS. A N D I . ETC. FROM THAT TI M E ON I A LSO M A STURBATED M UCH LESS IN THE WC. NOTEBOOKS IN H A N D-NOT FOR A STOCKTA KING OF PAST O R P R E S E N T JOTTINGS ON WHAT I AM ABOUT TO D E SC R I B E : THE R E LATIONSH I P IN BETW E E N ORDER TO I NTO PR ACTICE THIS M A STUR BATORY SYSTEM.I . AT THAT AGE IT W A S D I FFICULT FOR ME TO PUT UP MY HAND MY A IN CLASS AND OV E R T H E H O L E (OUT OF WHICH R I S E T O PALPITAT­ ING MOUTH A N D NOST R I LS ALL THE OOORS OF THE S U M P A N D THE HERCY N I A N MOU NTA I N EA RTH ON WHICH THE SCHOOL I S B U I LT. J E R K I NG THE LITTLE S E X. MOST COMICA LLY.BODY OF THE TEXT THI S IS NOT WRITTEN. BY D I SC O V E R ING AND PUTTI NG THE FARM COM I NG THE R E TO DE FECATE). I M PROVISED. DRAWING T O M Y S E L F AS BODY. THEN G R A D U ALLY. A L R E A D Y TH E N . A TEXT THAT M I GHT OR BE W I TH E L D SEVERAL TI M E S A DAY. PERVADED. THI S OPERATION S E E M E D TO ME IN NO WAY R E P R E H E N S I BLE. PRODUCER OF M A TT E R . REPEATED M A STUR BATION A N D WRITI NG-BUT SPEAK TEXT I N HAND A N D EXPOSED TO VI EW-. TH ROUGH THE U N D ER PA NTS AT FIRST. ORGAS M-ALTHOUGH I COULDN'T H AVE N A M E D IT AT A TI M E IT DID TH E NOT YET LEAD TO EJACULATION­ TURD AND URINE. ABOUT B E I N G S E E N AS BODY. ORGA N I S M . ARSE DIST E N D E D THE AGE OF N I N E. M O NTH MORE BY MONTH AS THE D E SC R I B E D "SCHO L A R LY" "M A RG I N A L" (N ECESSARY TERMS AT AN EPOCH DETE R M I N E D BY POLITICAL E NGAG E M E NTS OF AN ADM I N I STRATIVE KI N D. N O N E TH E L E S S .). U N D E R THE DESK: FIST TH RUST I N TO M Y POCKET !ITS SEAMS FULL OF C R U M BS. AS U NOBTR U S I V E L Y AS POSSIBLE. BUT DICTATED. OR BY A HESITATION TO EXPRESS THE MOST VOCAL SOU N D I NGS OF THE M A STURBATORY TEXT). ORGANS. A I R E M E M B E R HA V I NG B E G U N TO MASTURBATE AT C H A L L E N G E TO MY OWN BODY. W I TH U N D E R PA NTS PUSHED AGAI NST THE THIGH. NO USE E X P ECTI NG AS TH E N . SUGA R. THE NEED TO MAKE MY FI RST DECLA R ATIONS ON T H E R E LATIONSH I P M A STURBA­ TION-WR I TING DATES FROM A ("LA NOUVELLE C RITIQU E").

R E C U P E R­ ATE AND PUT BACK I N TO C I R C U LATION THAT I WAS THEN.. F U NCTIONS AT F I RST ON T H E THRESHOLD OF TH E S U BCONSCIOUS. TO D A Y . ORGASMS I N DU C E D LECH E ROUS R E VE R I E . MASTUR BATION BY WITH OTH E R OF TH E BOYS. PHON ETISATION O F T H E USUAL SPEECH O F ONE OR THE R ELATION BETW E E N WRITING AND MASTU RBA­ TION A PPEARS FOR THE FI RST T I M E ROU N D THE AGE OF TEN O R E L E V E N . S H E C A M E W I T H M E T O LI FT T H E STONES ONE A FTER ANOTH E R A N D . M O R E A N D M O R E E X P E RT.C. N A M E LY: A WRITTEN I M PORTANT P A R T OF M Y WA R D ROBE. M I TORY. DURING WHICH I PRACTI S E D MORE AND A N D S PECIALLY PA I N T I N G 115 . AND STI L L AM. ETC. ORGASM AND D E F ECATION TOOK PLACE S I M U LTAN EOUSLY. A S E R ECTION A N D D I SC H A R G E I NC R E ASE I N CAPACITY. A COM M U N A L SEXUAL EXCITE M ENT PRODUCI NG LINKS THE US HOMO­ U NCON­ (NUMBER 49) OF WASH I NG . S U R EII AND AM TO PUT LAST OF FORC E D MY MY S U PPLY OF U N D E R ­ ( B U T W I T H WHAT PLEA­ OVER BARE SKIN. BOOKS. TH E MASTUR­ BATOR. MY R I G H T H A N D. TO A DRAMATISATION O F THE PRACTICE. I DON'T R E M E M ­ BER THAT D R A W I NG P E R I OD . I S I NTRODU C E D A N I M POR- ORGASM AS AN A NTI-DEFECATOR. HOLI DAYS. BEG I N S TO TA K E OVER. T E R M T I M E . I H I D E T H E M U N D E R A PILE OF STON ES. OF PANTS ON ORGIASTIC W R I T I N GS. CLOSE D F O R THE S U M M E R . M A STU R B A TO R Y SOM ETI M ES.D O R M I TO R Y. PUTS A STOP ONCE AND FOR A LL TO R E SORTING TO . STUF F I N G I N TO M Y POC KET -CLASSROO M : I CONTI N U E MASTU RBATI NG WITH THE LEFT HAND. TO GO DOWN TO C H A PEL. ON T H E EDGE OF DREAM. BETWE E N T H E MORE A S S I D UOUSLY. THE OTH E R HOME. I STA RT TO DRAW (WOM E N WITH H A LOS. THE LEFT H A N D . WAS SURPRISED B Y MY DWI N D L I N G AND AFTER ACT-BOYS WITH WHOM I LOOK AT POR NOGRAPHIC MAGAZI N E S BROUGHT FROM THEIR HOME TOWNS. SURE. T H E FI RST SETTI NG I S D I V I D E D THEM UNDER M ATTR ESS THEM INTO TWO: CLASSROOM A N D DOR M I TORY. WHERE N E I G H BO U R I N G BODI ES. AS EXC E PTIONALLY S E X U A L. A T OTH E R TI M ES. THEN. LAY I N G SIEGE TO ME FOR S E V E R A L DAYS F I N I S H E D 8Y REDUCING OF HER WHY "WE E P I N G AND C H I L D" TO AN R E LATION S H I P W H I C H A D M ISSION W H E R E A BO U T S : A N D. BECOM E TH E D R A MATI S P E R SONAE OF THE D U R I N G T H E HOLIDAYS M Y MOTH ER. CLOTH I NG. THE N . U NKNOWN TO MY FATH E R WHO D I E D I N NOV E M B E R ' 7 1 . PHYSICAL P EC U L I A RI T I E S . BUT I F I A M PERS U A D E D T H A T NOBODY E V E R S A W M E MASTUR8ATE IN C LASS. OR I CA N'T SAY AT WHAT TH E POI N T ("DEC E NT" O R G I A STIC T E XT?) MASTUR­ B A TO R Y A C T BEGAN T O PREDOM I N ATE. D I ST U R B I N G B E C A U S E H A LF WAY BETW E E N S H I T A N D U R I N E. CONSCI O U S OF M Y S E X U A L S U P E R IORITY BEC A U S E I CAN WRITE WHAT IS VOCALLY I M M I NENT BETW E E N US). SC IOUSLY ( A LTHOUGH W H E R E OTH E R S OF M Y K I N D ARE CONC E R N E D M A K I N G T H E MOST OF A V I S I T P A I D BY MY DOCTOR FATH E R IN THE VIC I N I TY OF T H E SCHOOL. B E C A U S E M Y U N D E R PA N TS R E LATION S H I P TWO MAIN WRITI NG/MASTURBATION SETTI N G S : ONE IS TH E BEAR T H E M A R K S (SOM EWHAT OVER. T H I S COI N C I DE S WITH TH E FI RST E J A C U LATI ON. A N D WHICH. A N D IN THE DOR­ ARE COLLEGE I NOW ATTE N D E D. SCRIBBLED S U B M I TT I N G TO THIS A D D I T I ON A L STRA I N PI ECES OF R U LE D PAPER TO R N F R O M EXERCISE DRESSI N G A N D U N D R E S S I N G I N P U B L I C U N TI L I CAN R E C U P E R ATE A P A I R FROM UNDER TH E STON ES. W R I TT E N . WITH TH E I R OWN N A M ES. OUT OF M Y POCKET.M. IT I S BECAUSE I A M MORE AND MORE CO NVI N C E D TH ROUGH HEARI NG OTH E R S M Y OWN E X P E R I ENCE AND TALK. WHEREAS LATE R. A CON V U L­ SIVE SERIES OF O R G I A STIC NOTES K NOW N AS ON EVACUATE TH E PA NTS. BECAUSE IT S M ELLS AND WETS T H E CLOTHES. IT IS ONLY WHEN I BEGIN TO WRITE THAT THE AND SLITH E R O F TH E T U R D A N D THAT O F T H E ORGASM.ESTI MATED) OF THI S TRA N S F E R . THE RIGHT HAND D E V OT E D W H E N W E FALL I NTO L I N E AT 6 A. I R E F U S E TO G I V E T H E M TO T H E LAUNDRY H I DE OR T H E SC HOOL MY LA U N D R E S S E S .THE A RSE-HOLE AND THE SEX. I CARRY T H E M OUTSI D E SCHOOL L I M I TS B E H I N D T H E T U M B L E DOWN W. THAT MOST OF THOSE RO UND M E W E R E DO I N G THE S A M E THING AT THE SAME TIME. R E S U LT.: T H E R E . N OT I N F R EQ U E N TLY IN THESE N OT E S A PROCESS E M E R G E S (VERY PRODUCTI VE SUBCON­ SC IOUSL Y) IN CONTRADICTION WITH THE M ETHODS OF " D E C E N T" WRITI NG. WHO DIED I N AUGUST PAC KET '158. I L LU M I NATED TITLES) A N D THIS GESTU R E B R I N G S MY H A N D. G E TT I N G OUT OF CONTROL. I NTO WHAT I S A FTE R ALL A VERY ORDI N A R Y SITUATION. I I M M E DI A T E LY WOR K E D OUT ANOTH E R SYSTE M-WHAT I D O N ' T R E M E M B E R ­ T O POSTPO N E T H E N E E D TO D E FECATE. AND SUCH AS A M O M E NTS ARE P I N N AC L E S OF PLEA­ FOR T H I S THERE PROCESS A CC E L E R A T E S LEA DS. IT H A PP E N S AT MOM E NTS OF PANIC THAT QUITE U N I N T E N TIONA LLY I H E NCEFORTH TO W R I T I N G -SOM ETI M E S A "DECENT' TEXT ( PO E M S ) COP I E D A FTERWARDS ON TO L U X U R Y SHEETS OF D R A W I N G PAPER A N D PUT TOGETH ER I N A L B U M S OR "BOOKS". TO M A STU R BATE. BASED ON THEIR SEXUAL BREAT H I N G Q U I C K E N E D BY TH E SIGHT OF THE POR N P H OTOS. SUCC E S S I V E H E R E. THE E X P U LSION T H E R E ­ FORE OF A NOTH E R M A TT E R .

C H O I C E DETE R M I N E D ALSO BY A CLOTH C A PA B L E OF A C R A D L I N G O R LEC H E ROUS C U R B I N G OF TH E PARTS ( R USTIC WITHOUT RIGI DITY. FOR E STALL A N Y I M PORTUNATE V I SITS FROM M Y FATH E R IF CALLED ON A N U RG E N T VISIT D U R I NG TH E N I GH T ) . T H E COSTU M E WENT DE­ M A STURBATION . CONSC I O U S N ESS ALL U NCONSCIOUS­ HAD TO BE BECAUSE O P E RATIONS C A R R I E D OUT A S S I L E NTLY A S POSSI BLE. I WAS A F" R A I D OF F A L L I N G A S L E E P BEFORE H I D I N G I T . SINCE A C E A S E T O F E E L T H E E X A C T OUTL I N E OF M Y SEX. FOR I T WAS AT HOM E . IN THIS WAY A MATERIA L AND BOU N D A R Y THROUGH VARIOUS STAG E S . M UST BE R E MOVED. NOT AT COLLEGE THAT I M A D E I T : I N MY B E D ROOM COST U M E S O N E ON TOP OF TH E OTH E R . COST U M E REMOVED. BUT IN MY B E D ROOM IT WAS OFTE N S U P E R FLUOUS AS THE SESSION OFTEN TOOK PLACE NAKED AND I N T H E RAW O N THE TILES OF T H E B E D ROO M FLOOR. PREVENTED M Y S L E E P I N G BODY FROM M A K I NG A BAWDY STROLL BETW E E N BEDS AND BOD I E S . TH I S S E E M S T O M E T H E R E W A S STI L L A CONSI DERABLE DIFFERENCE BETWE EN. TH E RUSTLE O F" W R I G G L I N G O U T OF" T H E COSTU M E W I T H THE RUSTLE OF THE P R I E ST'S CASSOCK A G A I NST TH E C U RTA I N D U R I N G O N E OF H I S ROU N D S OF I N SPECTION ( S I N C E MY S E SS I O N A L W A Y S T O O K PLACE B E FO R E HE -TH E JOCK·STRAP: A M ET I C U LOUS SEARCH FOR IN C U PBOA R D S . A N D A CLOTH L A I D U N D E R TH E C E NTRE O F OPERATIONS (OBV I O U S LY AT COLLEGE IT SERVED TO PROTECT THE S H E ET FROM STA I NS. THE SECOND S ET T I N G A L SO COM P R I S E S TWO C H A N G E OF COSTUM E TOOK PLACE BETW E E N TWO ORGASMS. OR ELSE. ONCE T H E SESSION I S B ROUGHT TO A N END BY LACK OF J U I C E . ACCOM P A N I E D TAN EOUS C H A N G E IN ORGIASTIC TEXT: WITH P I M P'S THESE TWO HOM E LY AND HOLIDAY SETTING ALLOW MORE F R EEDOM FOR E LABORATE DRAMATISATION. TH E ACT OF STA I RC A S E OPEN.R OO M . SPERM AND ALL. A N D I COULD. ACCORD I N G TO W H ETH E R I WAS IN TH E MOOD TO B E PI M P O R BAWD­ AND O FT E N IN THE COURSE OF A SESSION A PROFOU N D PROSTlTU­ TION A L D R I V E TO W H I C H I WAS PREY AT THE TI M E . P A L M A N D F I N G E R S AND U S U A LLY A T NIGHT. OR WALKING IN M Y S L E E P B R A N D I S H I N G I T . IT IS AT TH I S POI N T THE N . I S P ROG R E S S I V E LY DISTI N G U I S H E D B Y TH E N E E D TO D I SPOSE OF THE COSTU M E A N D W I P E TH E ORGANS I N VOLVED B E FO R E GOI NG TO SLEEP. BY LEAVING TH E DOO R S ON TH E ATTIC AND CLEAN END USED FOR W I P I N G BALLS AND P E N I S I N THE P R OC E SS. SO THAT I SWITC H E D F ROM OBVIOUSLY BY BAWD TO A S I M U L­ D ECORS: BED ROOM A N D "NATU R E". WITH BAWD'S COST U M E BAWDY TALK O R VICE V E RSA-. CHOICE ETC. W H I C H . M A S T U R B AT I O N AND F E A R . A H A N D DRAWING IT UP A LONG THE BODY WEIGHTED WITH WARMTH AND TH E 1 91515. BOT H DESC R I B E T H E M A STU R BATORY COST U M E . A 16 . P I M P. G E N T L E IN ITS T H R EADBA R E G I V E . BUT I N F U NCTION O F ITS SOC I A L R E F E R E N C E (CHOICE O F A PROLETA R I A N CLOTH AT A TI M E. T H AT W E SHOULD COST U M E P I M P'S TA L K O R VICE VERSA. ORIGI N A L LY M E RGED WITH S L E E P A N D D R E A M . O N C E TH E BECA U S E OF ITS SOFTN ESS. W A S R E LATI VELY P R I V I LEGED. I BEC A M E MORE AND MORE SKILLFUL IN M A K I NG THEM COI N C I D E WITH O N E O F TH E PRE DICTABLE SOU N D S I N T H E DOR M I TORY-FOR E X A M PLE. L U M B E R . IN THE POW E R O F CONTROL (NOT OF SE LF­ EFFAC E M ENT AT THAT PARTICULAR EPOCH) OF OR G U I LT F E E L I NGS. BUT N E V E R T O TH E POI N T W H E R E H A N D . IT WAS S L I D U N DER THE MATTRESS. THE RETI R E D TO H I S A LCOVE F O R TH E N I GHT)-QR W I T H U N P R E D I CTABLE SO U N D S (OUTS I DE. TOO VAG U E TO R E C A L L. EVOL V E D OR AND T E R IO R A T E D ACCOR D I N G TO TI M E PLAC E. FOR EXAMPLE.TANT MATER I A L E L E M E N T : T H E M A S T U R B ATO R Y LITTLE LESS AT N IGHT ( M Y ROOM U N D E R T H E EAVES AT SOME DI STA N C E F ROM TH E PARE NTAL BED­ COSTUME. BREATHING. A N D D I VERTED ATTENTION FROM THE HEAVING OF SHEET AND B L A N K E T. ITS ROO M . FROM BETW E E N THE THIGHS. MARKING BETWE E N N E SS. AS I SUFFERED FROM SOM N A M B U L I S M AT THE TI M E . M A TE R I A L . I N EVITABLE I N THE ATMOS P H E R E OF C U L T U R A L V I S C E R A LITY PRACTI C E ? U NLESS. OR A S U DDEN SHOWER) W H I C H SERVED AS DAMPER OR M UFFLER FOR MY TH E DETE R M I N E D BY T H E PIECE POSSIBI LITY O F SOM E O N E DISCOV E R I NG A M I SS I N G O R TO R N F R O M A LE NGTH OF M ATERIAL. N E V E R PREVENTED THE D A I LY SESSION. SHOULD THIS BE S E E N AS AN E A R LY MARK OF CON F I D E N C E IN MY U NCONSCIOUS BODY. THE PRODUC E D BY TH E EJ A C ULATION PROD U C I N G A B L E N D I N G OF ONE A N D TH E OTH E R M E M B E R W I T H TH E D Y E A N D W O R N A N D FADING FIBRE IN A S E R I ES OF I NC R E A S I N G L Y V I O L E N T ORGAS MS. MY MOTH E R A N D H E R M A I D I N T H E W A Y T H E Y DRESSED): THIS S H O U L D B E S E E N A S A D R A M ATIC D E S I R E OF M Y EFFAC E M E N T A S T H E BOURGEOIS BODY: K N E A D I N G B Y BOU RGEOIS H A N D O F BOU RGEOIS SEX TH ROUGH PROLETA R I A N TISSUE. AND A L SO B E C A U S E OF ITS LEC H E ROUS E FFECT O N T H E BODY: N E V E R F O R I T S A E STHETIC EFFECTS. ORIG I N A LLY I T WAS M A D E U P OF TWO E L E M ENTS: A K I N D OF J OC K-STR A P FAS H I O N E D F"ROM RAGS. IF UNDECIDED AS TO SOC I A L POSTU R E . IN OTH E R WORDS. A SUCCESSION OF DOGS BA R K I NG. W H E N I T LATEST ODORS. LET U S SAY. A T WHICH POI N T THE T E X T T U R N S I NTO A G E N E R A L C H I LD'S ROOM IS O P E N BY DAY TO ITS MOTH E R .

CLOTH. EXPULSING AND FROM ITS BODY AND C R EV I C E S ) MORE BATH I N G IN O R G I A ST I C "COS M I C A LLY" ITS S PA R E R S H A D E STRON G E R ODOR: SINCE TH EN. IN SPITE OF TH E F A SC I N A T I O N OF M YT H . ACCO R D I N G T O TH E C A PACITY OF E RECTION A T A GIVEN PERIOD: THE PERIOD OF A DOLESC E NC E S E E K I NG T H E S E M I N A L H A LO D I S P E R S E D B Y THE SEXUAL SADDLE. NECK N A P E OF TH E P U SH I NG ON ALL MY CERVICAL WRITING. ARE SO . TEXT U R E SPONGY. GROU N D MASS THEN D U R I NG ITS RIDE ON THE B I K E'S W H E N I H A D M Y BIGGEST E RECTIONS CORRESPONDS WITH A COST U M E R E D U C E D TO ITS M I N I M UM. A N D TH E R E. A C L A N D E S T I N E M O I ST ITS TH E T H E COST U M E S S I TT I N G N A K E D ON TH E E D G E OF M Y BED: I C U T TH E W I TH C LOTH A HEM BY AS G U E S S . R E S I N O U S. M Y I D E A B E I N G THAT IN CASE OF A S E A RCH THEY M IGHT AT F I RST G LA N C E BE M I STA K E N FOR A IN THE NOTES I R E F E R R E D TO E A R L I E R ( N U M B E R E D ACCORDI NG T O A H A B I T I STI LL RETA I N A N D W H ICH CAN LEAD TO A WHOLE DAY'S SEARCH FOR A N IDEA -NATU R E : D U R I NG TH E DAY WHEN MY BED­ TO BE TRAC ED THROUGH AND THE S UC C E S S I O N NOTED OF TH E SO BANDAG E . S O F A R AS T H A T P A R T OF M Y O W N BODY WAS CON C E R N ED. IT. O N S E LECTED F O R I T S G E N E RA L H U M I DITY. TH E C L A N DESTI N E COSTU M E THE OFFIC I A L U N D E RPANTS ASI DE. R E C E I V E D. E M ERGES TERM E D IN POLITICAL. IN TH E N M E NTAL FLUX)-BUT TO MY "ADH E R A NC E" TO T H E A M BI E NT R E A L I T Y. I DON. RooM'S L A C K OF SECU RITY P R E V E NTED M E FROM SATI SFYI N G A DESI R E ACC E N T U A T E D BY THE " I DEAS" N I GHT NUMBERED M ENTALLY A BEFORE) TH U S PUTTI NG STOP-NOT S U D D E N R E SOLUTION OF A PROBLE M O F WRITING WHICH H A D BEEN TROUBLING M E FOR SOME TI M E (ATTE M PTS AT A N E W SYNTAX). HANG OVER LEAST R E S E M B L E D FACTORY-MADE U N D ERPA NTS. SU BSTA N C E SO T O R E WO R K I N G IT LOOK MORE R E M I N I SC E N T OF A SIDES I PO K E D N E UTRALI S E D D U R I N G TWE NTY-FOU R HO U S E. IT REMARKED THAT THE ME MOST IN TH E MALE PA RT W H I C H BODY. B Y R E F E R E N C E TO T H E OF TH E COST U M E'S SATCHELS FROM T H E B I K E. MASS WARM BOTH E R I N G MADE EDGES BAWDY HOLES STRA N G E N E S S . AND E V E RYTH I N G THAT I N LA N DSC A P E AND W R I T I N G A P PEA R E D AS IN THE FULL LIGHT OF DAY-LATE R S UBSTITUTED BY A P I N E TREE (TH E TRUNK BOTH D R Y E R . HERE. TH E SEXUAL. TH E ROUGH NOT COSTU M E . SEXUAL D E L I B E RA T E L Y A LLO W I N G TH E TO "NOR M A L I S E" SPEAK. A ST R ETC H O UT. T H E E F FORTS M A D E -THE CLOTH : NOTH I N G TO SAY A BOUT TH I S E XC E PT TO NOTE THAT TH E DOM I N ATING COLOR WAS R ED. SYM BOL FOR ME AT THAT M O M E N T OF A ROMANTIC. NO S P EC I A L DRAMA­ TISATION D U R I NG T H E S E SESSIONS. S O TO BY P U L L I N G MY FIST THE TH R E AT DESTRUCTION. U N DO I N G MY FLY A N D WRIGG L I N G MY H I PS SO T H E S H O R T S S L I P D O W N M Y LEGS OF TH E I R O W N ACCORD. B A R E . I SET OUT FO R THE H I G HEST POS S I B L E PO I N TS IN THE M O U N TA I N S FORC I N G IT DOWN SO TH E C LOTH COULD BE LACE D ROU N D MY LOI N S : THE SOU N D OF THE HOLES WHICH I KNOW A R E R A R E LY FREQU E NTED. ROD BENT TO TH E STRA I N I N G WITH C LO T H . T H E N TA K I NG MY B I K E . I TOOK TO COLL E G E WITH ME THE MOST E LE M E NTARY M A TE R I A LS !THAT I S TO SAY. ON T H E N A R ROW M E DI A N OF CLOTH THUS P R E P A R E D. A LSO LOST. TA KIN G T H E C U R R E NT N O T E S OUT OF MY C L A M M Y POC K E T AND R E ST I N G TH E M ON ONE OF THE TEA R I NG UNDER T H E STR A I N OF T H E LACE S DURING MASTURBATION BO R D E L AND C O U LD. U S U A LLY I M A D E THE OFFICIAL U N D E R PA NTS.S E M E N THE MORE DECORATED SHOULD BE FOR M E R SPERM. A K I N D OF SC R E E N WHE R E THE J ET. OR T H E TRANSC R I P­ TION OF A SOCIO-BO R D ELLO I N T U ITION. MADE ME R E J ECT GREEK H I STORY. "OPEN"'. TRAGE DY. I SAT WITH A HARD ON. PRECI PITATE ORGASM EVEN AT THE EXPENSE OF A TEXT R I C H IN LECH E ROUS PROMI S E . ITS STRI KES TH E STU F F NAPE OF MY N EC K AGA I N ST A T R E E T R U N K : A F I R TO BEGIN WITH. M I C ROSCOPIC SC R A P OF C LOTH OVER THE FRONT ON LY. V E R T E B R A E. W A R M E R. TH E LIGHTEST OF COSTU M E S AND THOSE THAT TO REACH THROUGH THROUGH SUCCESSIVE V E R TE B R A� TH E ORGASM R E P E RC U T I N G N E R V E� M USCLES. OR AGAIN. SPEAK. LACE D A R O U N D THE LOI N S A N D DOWN THE CLEFT OF TH E A R S E . TH E SIZE OF THE C O ST U M E VA R I E S A LSO.A R S E D .WO R K . T H E R E . THAT W H AT TlBLE I NC A PA C ITY OF THOSE CLOSE TO ME TO H ELP M E U N D E RSTA N D TH E M EXCEPT BY T R E ATING TH E M W I T H STRICTLY E MOTIO N A L R E S PECT. S P U RT I N G FROM T H E R I G I D VOI D. U N D E R NOTES M IGHT OF R E SO L U T I O N S BECA U S E TH E I R FOR M U LATION: 17 . THE ATT R A CTS BUTTOCKS.A POSTROPHI S I NG OF MY BODY). WHAT BE EMOTIONAL. BY A S U D D E N P A N I C B E FO R E T H E I N SOLUBI LITY OF MY SOCIAL CONTRADICTIONS AND THE I R RE D UC­ MUCH TO T H E WORK OF WRITING (WH I C H F U N CTIONS WITH EVEN G R EA T E R I NTENSITY D U R I NG THIS SC I ENTI FIC S E A RC H FOR T H E LOST " I D EA" A N D ITS PLACE. I D E N U D E . WESTERN A U STER I TY W H I C H . AROUND WHICH I THE HOURS OF A B A N DON BY LETTI N G TH E SAPS SOFTEN A N D R E A N I MATE THE DRY S P E R M STUC K TO TH E THROUGH T H R E A D E D COA RSE PACK I N G STR I NG.

P U NCTUATE T H E M U SIC O F M A STU R B A T I ON. OR S O M E M ECHANICA L PROB L E M ( R E PA I R S TO THE B I K E . NA M E LY THE SPLASH O F SpE R M A S IT HIT T H E COST U M E . AND FO R Q U A RT E R OF A N H O U R A FTERWARDS IN A POST-ORGIASTIC STUPOR. W R ITING U NT I L THE SWEAT OF HEEL AND TOES M I STS UP THE M I R RO R. BELLY AND LUNGS WOR K I NG LIKE B E L LOWS.E R ("S E E R"). MIRROR W H E R E M Y P A R ENTS COULD CONTE MpLATE T H E M S E LVES FO R ME TO FULL LENGTH ) . ONCE T H E RELATI V E pA RTS HAD BEEN WIPED. THIS M A ST U R BATO R Y W R I TING. TH E FI RST ORGASM (THOSE DESTROY E D THAT TH E W A S C O M M E RCIA L M U S I C USED (GENRE POP SINGER AND ANGLO-SAXON POP. THE SESSION TAKES PLACE B E H IN D C LO S E D R E SOLUTIONS CAN B E S E EN A S THE BEG I NNINGS O F A DRAMATISATI ON WINDOWS. W E R E STUCK SC R A PS OF TH E ORGIASTI C N OT E S . THESE R E SOLUT IONS A LTERNATING WITH OTH ERS A BOUT M Y W R I T I NG. PUTS IT SOM EWH E R E WHICH TAKES lB . WHO. OR B A C KG R O U N D V OC A L I SING ON NOIS ES. AND P R E P A R E D THE LONGEST POSS IBLE SCENA RIO: NOW. SOCIA L NAL SOU N DS FROM T H E VILLAGE." D E S TI N E W H EN I I C O U L D P U T O N O N E OF W E A R I NG IT TILL C O ST U M E S. BY M USCULAR TH E FATIGUE. ETC. T H E S E SCRIB B L E D NOTES WE RE. A C Q U I RING TYPICA L OF M A SS O F O R G A NS. M A Y RETURN TO THE BODY F ROM WHICH IT COMES. . IT SHOULD BE SAID TH A T T H E S E RESOLUTIONS CALLED FORTH O R G I A ST I C S C O R E . THE N E E D IS SO GREAT THAT ME EVEN T H E FROM A W F U L COLD DOES NOT P R E V ENT M A ST U RBATING NU DE."TON I G H T. A LAYER I COULD OF TH E IT COUNT O N DAMp AND TH E M D U ST H A P­ SHO RTENING R E M I N I SCENT O F THIGHS MANTEG N A -WH I LE L E FT HAND AND MASTURBATING: KNE A D I NG THE OPEN. F U C K E R A N D FUCKED. LIKE A FROSTY ECHO OF T H E O R G I A STIC C I R C U I T. "LET THE S P E R M R U N DOWN MY LEGS" '''TREAD IN IT ON TH E T I L E S" / " E A T THE S P E R M " . AND THESE D R I V E S WERE PA RTLY R E FLECT E D IN THE APPA RATUS PANTS. PROVIDED A SOLI D CORPOR E A L BASIS FOR M Y W R ITING. IF POSS I BLE. A TAPE ROLL F E L L INTO M Y MOTH E R'S H ANDS. SOMETIMES STRING. M AC H I N E AND M I C ROPHON E SET U P BETW E E N T H E KNEES TO TApE TH E M A ST U R BATORY S E S S ION. WHAT MORE TH E R E B R UT A L L Y BE THAN E X C I T I NG S P ECT A C L E C O U L D A C H I LD M A S T U R B A T I NG IN D U R I NG THOSE S A M E W I NT E R HOLIDAYS. SO TO E M PLOYED D U R I NG T H E M A ST U R BATORY SESSION : FO R INSTANCE. "TOMORROW NIGHT. STI LL SO F R A I L AND UNRECOGN I S E D . C I RC U M SC RIBING MY VIRILE ATTRIB UTES. EVEN "D E S P A I R" O R G I A STIC AND OF OF DISGUISE I NTO A LYING N A K E D . H E A D SWE ATING. BOTH T H E AND THE POST O R GIA STIC ENE R G I ES. FOR A GI N G TH ROUGH H E A PS OF RAGS A N D PILES O F BROKEN F U RNIT U R E WITHO U T HAVING GIVEN ME FAIR W A R N I NG . ROLLED UP W I TH T H E COST U M E IN A IN THE CLOTH AND H IDDEN. BUYER AND R O U N D TH U S GI RDED IN THE F A M I L Y CIRCLE.). W H EN M A STUR BATING ON TH E BED. AND W R I TING WITH TH E OTH E R ? "SOLITU DE. A RECOR D I NG USED A FT E R W A R D S B U T TO NOT ONLY AS A D D I TIONA L STI M U LA NT. M USCLES. FI CTITIOU S L I STS OF RECORDS TO BUY. E X A M I N E IT THROUGH A MAGNI F Y I N G GLASS" '''TH I S S U M M E R . S M E A R S P E R M ON M Y MOUTH" . H A D DECIDED TO MASTUR BATE: TO W A L K M Y D I S A RRAY AT T H A T T I M E STEM MED FROM T H E CONT R A D I CTORY D R I V E S T O B E BOTH S E E N AND S E E.E N D S P E A K. ONLY LATER A N D ON R A R E OCCA S I ONS. THE SO THAT THE M USIC. GAVE ME AN A LMOST pER FECT SATISFACTION. P L A S T E R COST U M E" / "TI GHTEN T H E COSTUME" . AND TH E R IG H T HAND W R I TING. ORGY" . ETC" THE VOICES HIG H L Y CHARGED S E X U ALLY) TO WH I P UP F L A G G I NG IMAGINARY EDIFICE FOLLOW E D I M M E D I ATELY S E RVED T O PROLONG T H E TEXT A S FA R A S POS S I B L E A N D A T T H E SAME T I M E EFFACE. PENED T H A T. TENDONS TAUT A G A I NST T H E TILES. N E R V E S FROZEN STI F F I N TH E I R R E LA XATION. BUTTOCKS. PARTIC U L A R L Y I F T O TH E COST U M E UNDER THE OFFI CIA L UNDER­ BOU G H T. ETC . EYES STA R I NG TILL ECLI PSED BY THE ORGASM. "TONIGHT. FINA LLY. LOINS. THANKS TO MY " P L U S-FO U RS" AND ON DAYS OF E XT R E M E M Y CLAN­ E V E N I NG COST U M E WITH H I S LEFT H AND. LATER. TIE TH E COSTU M E ROUND M Y NECK" . I N A L L INNOCENCE. D U R I NG T H E DAY ANO NIGHT P R ECEDING THE N E XT ORGASM. O R A MONG MY FE LLOWS A T COLLEGE. USE THE RECORDER IS A D D E D T O THIS V I S U A L D I S POSITION. S O TO SPEAK. T H E TOWN. N E U T R A L I SING D I U RNAL A N D NOCTUR­ TH E N TA K I NG TEXTUAL. IN WINTE R . INVENTION AND FA B R I CATION OF I MAGINARY M A C H I N ES. W A S P R O P P E D A P I E C E OF FA M I LY M I R RO R (ONCE PART OF THE B E D ROOM SESSION. TIGHT ROUND ORGANS. STILL BIG ENOUG H A FOR E ­ A LWAYS D I FF E R ENT C R A NNY OF T H E ATTIC CONT E M P LATE MYSELF-IN W H E R E . NEXT MORNING. I THINK. AT THE END OF EACH M A STU R B A TO R Y C L O S E S T T O M Y H E E LS. RELAPSE SA V I NG MYSTI C I S M I . A G A I N ST THE BOTTOM B A R S OF THE B E D. AND POLITICAL FORM: IT A LSO. C LOTH SUCH PLACES. PIMP AND BAWD. PERHAPS THIS SYSTEM OF CONCENTRA T I N G ON SOUNDS PRODUCED R I GH T IN FRONT O F T H E MICROP H O N E. NOT H I NG TH I S IN E X A LT E D MY R E SO L U T I O N S U B S I ST E D E Y E S E X C E PT A L U D ICROUSLY T R U NCATED SCENA RIO: B U T ON REFLECTION. WITH ORGA N S.

CAST-OFF O F A DECADENT WEST AS OPPOSED TO L. BROOM IN ONE HAND. R E A DY U S I NG: O R TH ROWN AS THEY WERE DOWN THE WC AT THAT PRECISE MOM ENT WHEN I K N E W A N D D I D NOT KNOW IF DES I R E WO UL. N A M EL.OI N -CL. L. O N G THE L. HOUSE. E PH E M E R A L AL. T H E I NTERVAL. A C ROWD.OTH.L THE ORGIASTIC NOTES OF MY ADOLESCE N C E HAVE B E E N L. DESI R E TO A M E N TAL.EANI NG.EN­ TIAL.UE L. IN RAIN. A C T I V I TY. 19 . THIS SWITCH. SEEMS THE A M I RACUL.L.ATE L I N E N S O F LITU RGY (L.L. T O R N U P I NTO M I N UTE SCRA PS S O THAT NO ONE C O U L. THAT I N EITHER STON ES-A N D SUDDENL.ACK C U RL. I V I N G A IN SCHIST OF ROCK.ING OF THE COSTUME IN TH E CL.L. THROAT PULSI NG. PHANTASIES.Y O V E R ALL MY DRIVES. EXT E N D I NG FU RTHER A N D F U RTHER. I N ITI AL. M A I N LY AND SOCI ETY LlTURGICAL. AND R I T U AL. BUT AL. I N O U R MOUTHS .OYED AS FOL. ONCE TH E COSTU M E A N D NOTES ROL. NOT ONL. I N G MOMENTS UP OF TH E CL. Y: THE W E A R I NG OF T H E S E M E N-SOA K E D COSTU M E AT AL. T R Y I N G TO SC A L. AT A L. I N E N AND OBJECTS R E STO R E D TO PRISTI N E I NHAB ITED BY S L. BL. HEAT.E IN ITS SWITCH OF E N E RGY. I N P U R SUIT O F A RAT-RAT J U M P I NG OVER THE BOY'S B A R E N ECK.L. A N D MORE AND MORE D I A L. AT THE VERY MOMENT OF ORGASM.L. PRO M I S I NG MYSEL. F R I E N DS. AS T H E R E ARE SEVERAL.L. ETC.S OUT.UMS OF THE I N DUSTRIAL.SO OF THE D R I V E B E H I N D AL.Y. MAY APPEAR AS TH E B R I N G I N G IT U P N EXT D A Y COV E R E D I N GREASE.VES.L D R E S S AND WHITE KERCH I E F L.ED I N FIL. THE SHOWER THAT HAS BEEN THREATE N I NG.A U NTED ITS MACMAHON I E N ARCHITECTUR E-FUGITIVE BUT OBSESSIVE VI­ SIONS-L.F I N D I NG: FOR EXAM PL. CONTACT WITH OTHER PROSTITUTI ONAL. E NEUTRALISED. E E P I N G . GLI MPSED ONE EVEN BEFO R E THAT.FACTO R Y S E N SA T I O N S OF A TERMS I W A S A L. A S REVEAL. VELOPED V I R I LITY.LlNG U P) F R U STRATI N G WHAT. SEVEN AT MOST.L.L. E X (WIPING AND ROL. L A R S A N D AT G R O U N D LEVEL. CERTA I N OF MY SCHOOL. D S E E THE WH ITE E DG E OF U N DER­ PANTS THAT M O U L. IT IS TH I S SUMMARY FASHION..B LA C K E N E D BETWEEN THE FI RST ONE AND THE ROL. CROWDS.ATE R DATE. G I R D I NG LIKE D E R ELI CTION BY COM PA R I SON WITH THE I M MACUL.Y L. BECA USE OF THE S W I TC H IN MY TH O U G H T ME PROCESS. LAUGHING.OTH I S E M PL.T.Y: TH E "HYG E N IC" R E FL. HUMAN AND M A T E R I A L.S L I K E TH E PESTI L.IKE A M ECHA N IC'S A P P R ENTICE OR ADOL.ATE BETWEEN TR I U M P H A L. OF FORCES.ESCENT PROSTITUTE. V E E R I NG BACK TO THE WAL. I N SHOPPING CENTRES. OR PEOPLE I HAD CA UGHT CONVICTION THAT.EGE FL. I K E THAT OF A BOY. I BRI UM. S L. IT C A N C EL.Y TRACKED THE ROL. AND L. A U D ITORY AND OL.UTIONARY V I ET NAM.IPPING BACK I N TO T H E V I S UAL. BETWE E N THE FI RST ORGASM AND THE ROL.S STUCK TO HIS BROW WITH WHAT I I M A G I N E D WAS SPERM. BREAKS OVE R THI S S U B U R B HANG I N G FAMI L I E S A L.Y I M MA C U LATE. THE COST U M E STUCK TO M Y FL.USTRADE OF A D U R I N G EACH SESSION.D AND IN R U N N I N G.OST. ROUGH WOOD E N B A L.ITICAU MASTUR BATION E X C R ET E S DESIRE AND ITS A N T I DOTE S I M U L. I HAVE A M EMORY OF SHORT FRAG M ENTS WHE R E NAR RATIVE VERSE.L. WITH RES UL.A N KS WITH S E M E N FEEL. SEEN IN R E T R O S P E CT. T H E Y D R A M A T I S E D. THE AND AS I IN SPEECH WAS AN A L. THAT IT HAS SOM ETI M E S POETRY AT W RITING TIME.L.L. FOR OBVIOUS C E L.Y OF THE E N E RGY OF MY D R IVES.F TO E XA M I N E IT AFTER M A STU R BATION FOR TRACES OF A MIXTURE O F SPERM AND G R E A SE. H A V I N G FINAL. THAT POU R S FROM BU RST SEWERS I N TO THE I R ONE AND ONL. .WAYS CON V I N C E D M E .L. H I S L. I N E N SHORTS SOAKED WITH SWEAT BETW E E N THE T HI G H S .ATIONS. OR FL. THE BITTER TASTE OF A D R I N K DISTR I BUTED BY T H E G U A R D I A N N U N S STIL. T E R N A T E . KNIFE I N THE OTH ER. EACH SPL. EJAC UL. BODI ES. SOCIAL.L. TACTIL. Y L. G I R D I N G IT O N L. I GOT I NTO TH E H A B I T OF TA KI NG IT DOWN THE R E A FT E R TH E N I G H T L.OWS: FROM ONE E J A C U LATION TO THE N E XT I OSCIL. TO M Y FATH E R'S G A RAGE UNDER THE TIM ES. IN COL. TORSO B A R E.E. A V WORKERS.EGS SO W I D E APART I C O U L. E TH E COA L. R ESTORES ME TO EQU I L. ECTICALL.EAR­ THE HEADED I N T E R V E N E: A FT E R SUM M E R E V E N I NG R ETURNING FROM A PIL. I N TH E STREET.APSE AL.Y.IT-QRGY): THEN.ITY AND A BODY SL.-WHICH. D R E C OG N I S E TH E BAWDY I NTO MYSTICAL.S. C O N Y A B OV E H I M-A MAN SUDDENL. HEAD THROWN BACK.ooD. Y M A STU RBATION.ED U P. . UNDER THEIR OWN N A M E S A N D APPEARANCE. O V E R THE BAL.L.­ I N G. ORGASM I S FOL. SO L. O N G L.­ TA N EOUSL.MS BY JORIS I V E N S A N D OTHERS.OO M I N G U P BEHI N D THE BOY FROM A DARK PASSAGEWAY. BUT SIGHT O F IN THE SL. SPLASHI NG H I M WITH ITS BL.G R I M AGE ON FOOT TO SOM E "GROTESQUE" CAVERN OF A TRA NSPORT OF TH E F I RST ORGASM. REASONS. W E A R I N G A PA I R OF TIGHT BL.ASTING. E A N UP THE SHIT THE M SEL. Y DE­ W H I T E N E S S AFTER EACH BOMB. SQU E A L. oo D BY A REVOL. SEATED IN FRONT OF A HO U S E COSTU M E H O R R I FY I NG S T I L.OWED B Y A REL. U I D BELON G I N G T O A WOM A N I N A FUL. CL.D RETURN. D E D A P R E COC I O U SL.ITURGICAL. WHERE D I R ECTION ( M YSTIC O R POL.L.L.ASH O F M U D OR B L. FROM A M E N TA L I TY A N D A BODY STRETC H E D TO THE L.OTH AS THE AND A B J ECT IS NOT C A ST-OFF W H O L.IVI NG ROOM. I M ITS OF PROSTITUTIONAL.OUS V I RG I N . IN IN S U N A N D W I N D. I HOPE I S L.E. TOWN WHERE THE COL. A PROCESS SO I M PERCEPTI BL. HAVE T O C L. OUTWA RD M A N I FESTATION OF A CONTROL.

H I R E.1 969) B E A R S G R A P H I C WITNESS NOT ONLY TO THE DETA I L A N D C H RONOLOGICAL C U RVE O F TH I S PROCESS O F I NT E R A C T I O N . OF M U LT I P L I E D LATER BY T H E I NUMBER PLACES (HOTELS. PUSH E R S OF ORGI ASTIC BODI E S. TH I S I COU L D DO SEVERAL T I MES. EXPRESSION H A N DW R ITI NG CRA M PED A N D MORE D E L I B ERATELY VE RTICAL TH I S A LT E R N A N C E . I H A V E A LWAYS CONSIDERED THAT TH E NAMES I NTEGRAL TO THE F RENCH LANGUAGE CARRY WITH THEM TH E DESUET ATMOSPH E R E OF A WESTERN CIVILI SATION W H I C H . ERECTION/ ITS J ET REMEMBER THOUG HTS IT. OR FORCE D TO TH E BACK OF THE BA LLS. WHICH MEANS THE TEXT HAS TO B E WRITTEN IN H ASTE. WITH THE BOD I ES OF VERY REAL AND BAWDY WOME N . THE M A N I P U LATON O F T H E P E N I S I N S I D E THE U N I N H IBITED CLOTH PRODUCED A RELAXED TEXT. " OFFIC I A L FRENCH ETC . MOM ENT AS A N E N S E M B L E OF SOCIAL POSTU RES TH A N AN ACT OF P E N ETRATION). W H I LE S L E E P A N D DREAM AFFORD M E O N L Y CONFRONTATIONS. F A M I L I A R ITY AND EASE IN H A N D LI N G ITS RH ETOR I C GAVE M Y HAND TH E SPEED NECESSARY.) I N WHICH M A ST U R B A T E D . SIONS. D U R I NG THIS NOMINAL CONFU­ P E R I OD WHICH I 20 . TH E I R A HACKNEYED." " E D D I E . A N D WRITING AS MUCH TEXT A S POSSI B L E B EFORE IT ROSE FREQUENCY OF TH I S S E X U A L C HOICE SHOULD BE SET AGAI NST A NOTH E R VERY DEFINITE TENDENCY OF MY F I FT E E N T H OR S I XTE E NTH YEAR: AS I AGA I N . BATORY.ERECTION. I NT E R J ECTIONS W I THOUT SYNTACTIC LINKS-QNLY SPEECH. M A ST U R ­ I N THIS R E S U LTS TH E M A N U SC R I P T. ACCOUNTANCY OF THE NUMBER OF IN TIMES. ) THE ONLY M A N I P ULATING TH ESE BODIES.) FO U N D TH E I R ITSELF. COMMON SOU N D SITUTATION.A M O N G OTH E R REAL OR I M A G I N A R Y BOD I E S . WH EREAS THE TIGHT LAC I NG OF THE CLOTH ON TH E M E M BER. O F A EXAM PLE: PRONO U N C E D E R ECTION ACCELE RATES ORGAS M I C URGE NCY. D I R ECTI NG MY WOM E N . FOR DUCED A N O R D E R : THE M A N U SC RIPT ( 1 962. DISCHARGED SC E N A R I OS. ITS E R ECTION SCREWED DOWN. A S I GOT M Y "TONGUE" I NTO THE WRITI NG OF FRENCH. R E P E T I T I O N S . I ABANDONED IT. U NTIL THE MOMENT LATE D CAME WHEN TH E M E MBER. THE ETC. " D E C ENT" T E XTII N DECENT ABUNDANCE. OVER-STI M U ­ M A N I P U LATION. O N THE OTH E R HAND. COST OF E V O K I NG PROSTITUT I O N A L "SO A P O P E R A . NAMES THAT FIGURE AMONG THE S E ANGLO-SAXON BORROWI NGS A R E OF SLAV ORIGIN (SERGE)." WEARERS OF MASC U L I N E ATTI RE R EMOVED FOR "I NTERCOURSE" (MORE FA M I LI A R TO M E AT THAT THOUGHTS TOWA R D NON-SEXUAL ZONES. " " FR A N K I E . THIS H A STE ONLY A LLOWS FOR WORDS TO BE PUT ON PAPER. I N D U C E D A TEXT OF N A R RATIVE AND SPEECH I N WHICH TH E H A R D ECONOMIC FACTS O F PROSTITU­ TION (SALE. MENDERS OF PROSTITUTIONAL G A R M E N TS TOR N D U R I NG "I NTERCOURSE. A PAGE OF P H I LOSO P H Y O R H I STORY OF PH I LOSOPH Y . SHOP ASSI STANTS AND APPRENTICES CALL T H E MSELVES "CH A R LEY. B U T A LSO I N I T S W R I TI NG. PRODUCI NG OPERATED A TEXT W H E R E TYPI N G A C H O I C E OF I N TRO­ N ECESSA R I LY POS I TIONING OF ORGANS AND COSTUME. M Y EYES ON A PAGE OF E UROPEA N H I STORY I N A BOOK I KEPT BESIDE THE BED." TH E A LLOWI NG TH E M EMBER TO SUBSI DE. LED TO A ETC. TH R E E Q U A RTERS OF MY WAKING ARE B U S Y PLOTTI N G "HOMOS E X U A L" BY R EPEATED D E J ECTION/RE. T H E R E FORE: BUT GRA DUAL­ LY. VERY SEXY O F B U M O R BREAST. OR WITH TH E D EG R E E OF THE M E M B E R'S ER ECTION. A LREADY LOOKED ON AS "SERVANTS OF THE MALE BODY. I PLAYED P R OG R E S S I V E C O N V E R G E N C E B E T W E E N T H E "DECENr' (THAT I S TO S A Y TH E PUBLISHABLE OR P U B L I S H E D ) TEXT WITH TH E G R EAT SEXUAL SWELL. A BOTH M A LE AND FEMALE B E FO R E I COULD S U M MO N UP ALL THE M E NTAL A N D COR PO R E A L TENSIONS T H A T USUALLY PRESIDED AT THE MOMENT OF ORGASM. IF I LET THE COSTU M E H A N G LOOSE ON M Y LOI NS. E V E N COMIC. QUITE E A R LY IN THE PIECE. TO WRITE A NARRATIVE SEQUENCE. R E P ET I T I O N WITH VARIATIONS O F PRECEDING SEQU ENCES I N S C R I B E D ON THE I R REGULAR A LTERNATION N A RRATIVE/SPEECH SHOULD A LSO B E SEEN IN R ELATION WITH THE TH E MASS OF NOTES WHICH I COULD NOT TRA N SPORT. O V E R LA P P I NG O F SEQUE NCES. S P E ECH A N D N A R RATIVE WRITTEN WITHOUT THOUGHT OF TH E P ROSTIT U T I O N A L ANTIQUITY (TH E LATI N I S E D OR GRECIAN N A M ES OF BODIES CONSTITUTI NG BY T H E I R SOLE E N U M E RA ­ TION ALL T H E TEXT R E Q U I R E D T O STI M U L ATE DESIRE): THEN THE TH E M E CHA NGES TO PROSTITU­ TION AS I LE A R N FROM R A D I O HOW S E X UALLY C H A R G E D C E R TA I N O B V I O U SLY MODERN N A M E S CAN BE. AT THAT TI M E . FROM TH E M E ET I N G O F THESE CONT R A D ICTO R Y C U R R E NTS. THE STR I C T U R E OR L A X ITY O F TH E COST U M E SCE N A R I OS TA K E T U R N TOWARD SLAVERY IN MOULDING TH E TEXT M A D E I T EITHER TOUGH OR TENDER. 'ON TH I S EXC H A NGE: HAVING WEDGED THE E RECT M E M B E R I NTO TH E COST U M E BY IMPRESSING ON IT A PROP ULSION THAT R E M I N DED ME OF A COG-WHE E L OR A SCREW. WAS TRYI NG TO I M POSE ON M E THE MOST I NS I P I D A N D SUPERFICIAL OF I T S PRODUCTIONS." "JA C K Y. I N C A S E OF A P RONOUNCED E REC­ TION. OR FRAGME NTS OF WORDS. O R B ETTER STI LL. P R I C E OF BOD I E S. I N TH E NUDE. O F V A R I A T I O N S . SO TO SPEAK. " (DU R I NG M Y TRIPS T O NORTH A FR I CA I DISCOVERED THAT MANY A R A B SERVA NTS. ETC.

E AND H I R E O F BODI E S .TATION O F C E RTA I N TEXTS. T H E S U N L.-A N D B R I NG M Y B O D Y B A C K TO WHAT I BELI E V E 15 A CRUDER.L.ED TH E TREE. O N G HOURS IN P I E R R E GUYOTAT ADVANCE SESSION: R H Y T H M I C A L. OR PRICES OF TH E SAL. R E N A L.L. SEL.EFT M E AND S L E PT UPON THE OFF E R I NG.E H E N C E TH E EXAL. ARE U N R E A DABL. L.P U L.T I E S OF PUBLISH­ I NG EVEN "DECE Nr' TEXTS. TREM BL.E C H A NG E S . GL. ITS M O R E COM M O N I N TH E TODA Y : ST U C K A N D U NS T U C K BY S U C C E S S I V E ORGA S M S . THOSE FOOTPRINTS STI L.L.VES. TH E M fRANSLATED B Y CAT H E R I N E D U N C A N MODUL.ET AL. AND I SPRINKLED TH E GRASSES WITH MY OFFE R I N G TO I T S SILENCE A N D I T S WOO D E N C A R ESS. S . I N S U L.L. I K E A P R E S E N C E ON M Y C H EST. FINA L. AND MASTURBATORY SESSION. I SAT UPON THE ANCI E NT STUM P.ICKED TH ROUGH TH E S U NL.ATIONS.T A N E IOUSL. F R O M A FTERNOON T O E V E N I NG ( A T C E RTAIN TI M E S THE RESURGENCE OF DESIRE A C C E L.Y. 15 NUMBERS I PRESSED H AR DEST WITH T H E N I B . WORDS. A FRAGMENT OF FADED M I XT U R E O F I N K A N D S E M E N .EN TREE HAD L.R E M E M B E R B E ST.L. I T SHOULD B E NOTED THAT THE TEXTUAL.ONE A L. NO DOUBTI I HAVE TO I N TE R R U PT WHAT THREATENS TO BECO M E A P H YSIOL. WORDS O F T H I S J A RGON I STRUGGLED WITH A D E M O N I N TH E WOODS.L.IPTIC IN ITS J ARGON.OATE 21 .ITERARY PUBL. THE DE MON SEIZED M Y L.Y COMPLEX AND ELL. DA N I E L SL. E R AT E S . W H I C H M AY SUBSE­ QUENTL. I K E A M U S H ROOM AFTER R A I N . I WAS NAKED A N D ALONE.L.ED IN TH E GRASS.TS. A P P ELL. Y" TH E L.lNG T H ROUGH TH E I R EYES AS IT TOPPLED SL. TOUCHING TH E C R U MBLED FINGERS THAT HAD FEL.LY BECAUSE WHEN WRITING NAMES AND R HETORIC CHOSEN FOR ITS QUASI-B A N A L. O N E THAT PRODUCES WRITI NG-JARGON. CARDI AC. I HOWLED LIKE A BEAST U PO N T H E DEAD SHADOWS WHERE THE FA L. T H A T E MERGES THROUGH THE R E A L. FROM O N E NIGHT TO ANOTH E R . I TY: D E S I R E ORGASM: THE AND R E SOL. FL. A L. P R E PA R E D OF "T E X T U A L. A R E FRAG­ M E NTS OF S E X U A L. WHEN I WAS ASSAILED BY THE DIFFI C U L.OG IC D A N G E R . L. A BOVE AL.ICATION OF T H E NOTES.ATIO N S .AIN. THOSE ECHOS STIL.L.Y WITH WORK ON A "DECENr' TEXT.M O N A R Y .OINS A N D WRESTL.UTION STYL.ITY TO FIT TH E "DECENr' TEXT SUCCEEDED BY A FRAG M E NT OF SPEECH OR N A RRATIVE TEXTUA L.IGHT.OW.IST E N I NG THE R E L. A R E I N V E N T E D S I M U L. THE DEMON L. MARVEL.ED TH E M . A POSTROPHIC PUNCTUATION. A Y L.Y ENTA I L M A KI N G CERTA I N C UTS. A N U M B E R OF NOTES FROM THIS P E R I OD. L. PRINCI­ PAL. A N D NOM I N A L.

E V E N L I TTLE F A C E W H E N TOLD A BOUT GOD. D E P R E S S E D FOR N O R E A SO N . WAS TEN Y E A R S OLD. TH E ROLES OF Q U E E N . A N D A N A L I R R ITATION. CAPR ICIOUS. I N S I STING T H E Y SHOULD BE H E A RTBRO K E N TO THE PO I N T OF TEARS. N E RVOUS. EVEN WHEN TH E Y COULD HAVE B E E N H E R'S FOR TH E A S K I N G . PRI NCESS O R C A R E F U LLY H I D OBJECTS THAT TOOK H E R FANCY. WITH SOM E T H I N G SACC H A R I N E I N H E R EXPRESSION. SHE WAS ANAEMIC H I GH L Y E XC I TA B L E . IN SPITE O F THAT. MADE HER KIND AND LIKE C ON S I D E R ATE M A N N ERS E V E R YON E H E R. POK E D F U N AT T H E PI ETY O F OTH E R C H I LD R E N A N D M A D E A TYRA N N I Z I N G T H E M A T TI M E S. SIGNS OF LEUCORRHOE A I C D I SC H A RG E FROM T H E G E N I T A L ORGA NS. A BO U T T H I N G S Q U E ST I O N S . . OR E LS E F E L L I NTO A BROWN STUDY. AND A SHE A LWAYS TRYI NG T O DOM I N ATE T H E OTH E R C H I L D R E N A N D F I G H T I N G TOOTH A N D N A I L I F T H E Y D A R E D OPPOSE H E R . A LWAYS S M I L I NG. SOM ETI M ES SCREA M I NG RAGE OR THE F LOOR: RAT H E R OLD-FA S H I O N E D I N H E R W A Y S .> A CON S I D E R ­ ABLE I N FLUENCE ON A LL H E R C O M PA N I O N S . S H E E X E R C I SEr. TH I N . ROLLE D BECAM E X . S H E W A S COQU E TT I S H A N D A TT R ACTI V E . S H E W A S P R O U D . E N V I O U S . I N EVERY G A M E SHE H A D TO B E THE LEADER. WAS GOOD AT PRETE N D I NG . V A I N . . NEVER LIVELY S TO P P E D OF I MAGI NATION. HER MOOD WOU L D IN ON A CHANGE FIT OF W I TH O U T SHE SHE WA R N I NG. O F D E LICATE COM PLE­ XION. AND THE GAME S H E L I K E D PL A Y I N G B E ST OF A LL WAS G E TTING MARRIED. E A R LY IN 1879. A LOCA L E XA M I NATION R E V E A L E D T H E P R E S E N C E O F ENOO- 22 . RESE RVING FOR HERSELF FA IRY. SHE ACTED AND T A L K E D LI K E A GROWN-UP. TE N D E R BOYS W E R E H E R A D M I R I N G SLAVESI LITTLE X . T H I S TENDENCY TO TH E FT H A D B E E N REMARKED LOV E D TO WHEN LEARN ASKING SHE WAS NOT YET FIVE. B U T D I S L I K E D P R A Y I N G ON T H E CONTRARY. S H E L I K E D W H A T WAS B E A UTIFUL. TH E R E W E R E SUCCESSI V E LY.O N A N IS M A N D N E R VOUS DISORDE R S IN TWO L I TTLE GI R LS CASE H I STORY J E A LOUS. V I N DICTIVE. . S H E WON SWEET AND EVER YBODY'S HE ART W I T H H E R D I S PO S I T I O N . ONE F A C T THAT SHOULD B E NOTED I S THAT FROM E A R LY C H I LD HOOD SHE STOLE AND A H I N T OF' HYPOC RISY THAT SEEMED OUT OF PLACE IN SOM EO N E OF HER AGE. A T OTH E R T I M E S S H E WAS POS S E S S E D BY A F E V E R I S H GAI ETY. THEY PUT U P WITH IT B E C A U S E OF HER U N F A I L I N G C H A R M . . Q U I C K TE M P E R E D . A DO R E D CLOTH ES A N D DOTED O N P E R F U M E. EXTREMELY I N TELLIGENT. THE C H I L D BEGAN TO LOSE WEIGHT IN SPITE OF AND HER USUAL A P P ETITE. S H E M A R R I E D A N D DIS M I SS E D A L L H E R L I TT L E BOY F R I E N DS.

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SHE POSES AS OUTRAGED INNOCE NCEI SHE PROTESTSI H ER FACE CONTORTS WITH RAGE. EXPR ESSION. JUNE TH E SA M E YEAR.E. OF WAL. A T ALL EVENTS THE C H I LDREN BEING PL. A INVENTED D A I LY BY HER F ERTI LE I M AGI NATION. AT TH E SAME PERIOD IT WAS NOTICED TH AT SH E WAS FORE V E R GOING TO T H E LAVATORY AND STA Y I N G SO L. OBJECTS ARE CONTI N UAL. . MADE F EARS KNOWN TO THE PARE NTS. ALL THE ING E N IOUS M ETHODS I NTIMACY AND SUPE RVISION I NCREASED. K I N D N E S S . ON ONE OCCASION SHE WAS FO U N D ASL. QUITE OPEN LY A N D AT ANY GIVEN M O M E N T TH E CONTACTS WOUL. HER BODY SHE AND "PL. B E N D I N G H E R K N E E S A N D ROLLING THE WAS MOST I NDECENT B E HAVIOUR. . OR OFF IN TH E WOODS W I TH C E R TA I N C H I L. X .EGS A N D FEET.F VOLU PTUOUS SENSATIONS. S E E M ED TO I M P ROVE. . .SO NOTED THAT D U R I N G GA MES X . IT WAS TH E N THAT H A VING A S C E R TA I N E D . EVIDENT PLEA S U R E.D BOTH EVEN STA RT SCRATCHING H ERSEL. . . .Y VARIOUS PA RTS O F HER BODY IN ORDER TO GIVE H E RSEL. R E M A RKABLY ENOUGH. AS FAR AWAY AS POSS I B L E FROM M A I DS A N D GOV E R N E S S E S. PARTI C U L A R LY FLOGGI NG. . . RI BBONS A N D OTHE R SMAL. . THEY E V E N EXCHANGED RINGS A N D PROMISED TO MARRY EACH OTH ER WHEN THEY G R E W U P. HAD A SPECIAL. FURTHER ON I WIL.Y. TOWA R D THE MONTH OF PETTY L. AT TIMES X. WITH H E R HANDS. A LITT � A R BOU R WAS H E R EXC L.KING. S E R V ANTS. EVEN TO B E HARSH A N D C R U E L. .LED IT HER I M P ROV E M E NT. A S S H E 24 . IF N EC ESSARY. SHE WALKED WITH H E R L. BOYS A S WELL AS GIRLS.Y A ROUSED. FROM THAT DAY ON A PROGRES­ S I V E CHANGE TOOK PLACE I N THE CHIL. NOTHING HER HAD ANY EFFECT ON HER.O M E L. X . S U P PO S I TO R I E S WERE ADM ITTED. X . ETC. WITH TEN ESMUS AND H A D GREAT DI FFICU LTY IN URINATI NG. S H E TOOK UP LASCIVIOUS POSES AND GAVE WAY TO HER PASSION I N THE MOST I N DE C E N T FASH IO N . WHEN SCOLDED S H E T R E M B L.. .PARASITES. S H E A DOPTE D REVOLTING POSITIONS.ACE? SUSPICION WAS NOT YET SUFFICIENTL.ASCIVIOUS IN HER MOV E M E NTS X . AT THE S A M E E POC H STEA LING BECA M E A D A I L Y EVE NT. P E RPETRATED BY X .E X . W H I LE THE THIGHS. .EGS APA RT.ITTL. WHAT WENT ON I N THAT PLEAS U R E PA L. WAS ST RICKEN BY VIOL. ETC.OSE W EIGHT.ACE. A DOPTI N G CERTA I N POSES A N D STIFFE N I NG WITH CONTRACTIONS. L. THE TIGHTENED FOR A LONG TIME WITH A LITTLE BOY. L. WHO GAVE H E RSELF UP MORE AND MORE TO VICE. SWEETS. H I D I N G IN TH E S H R U BBE RY.USIVE PROPE RTY. H IPS AND G E N ITA L ORGA N S DEVELOPED. AS A RESUL. PRONO U N C E D SWELLING OF I R R ITATION THE VU LVA I WITH MY AT THAT PO I N T I T WAS D ECIDED TO ATTACH H E R H A N DS. H E R BEHAVIOUR EVEN IN CONTI N U ED S E L.L. S U P E R­ VISION .L.ENT PA I N S IN TH E LOWER A BDOM E N . S H E W A S T E R R I B L Y A FR A I D O F T H E R O D W H I C H W A S A D M I N I S TE R E D U N S P A R I NGL..IKING FOR AS KINDNESS M A D E NO I M PRESSION ON X ." SHE OFTEN STAYED TH ERE SPREAD LEGS. IN FRONT OF THE GOVE R N ESS. A D V I C E . THERE WAS NO HELP FOR IT BUT TO CHANGE TACTICS AND TA KE STE R N E R M E A S U RES. H E R B A D T E M P E R M A D E THE CHIL. WAS BECOM I NG. WHO FAL. IN S PITE O F THAT SHE CONTI N U E D TO L. TH E N H E R L.L D E SC R I B E IN DETA I L. BENT FORWARD.Y HAN DS.ARC E N I E S OF DESSE RT. HIPS. OF THE DE VISU.L.OPED A STRANGE WAY I N SPITE OF BEING CAUGHT RED H A N D E D L. .T OF TH I S T R E A T M E N T X .D GIVEN A TREATM ENT OF IRON A N D BROMIDE OF POTASSIUM. T H E C H IL. LATER AN END WAS PUT TO THIS PRECOCIOUS TURE.ED HER HORRORS. CAPRICIOUS A N D QUARRELSOME. IT WAS AL.Y: SHE S E E M E D MORE AND MORE SICKLY. A D M O N I SH M E N T S ..Y AND PH YSICAL. H E R FEA­ TURES TOOK ON HER A BESTIAL. VARIOUS PA RTS.D. A N D L I K E T H I S CONTRACTED SUCCES­ SIVEL.E. D E N I E S H E R GU ILT WITH BLATANT DEFIANCE. S H E B E C A M E ABJ ECT. THE U P P E R PART OF HER BODY GREW THI N N E R AND T H I N N ER . .EASURE PAL. X . IN MA RCH 1881.L.A B U S E . A N D TH E E N E RG Y S H E E X P E N D E D I N P E R PETRATING WHAT S H E HERSELF C A LL. A N D I N S PITE OF THAT S H E A B U S E D H E R S E L F MORE A N D MORE IN A THOUSA N D WAYS. WITH A N Y KINO OF FOR E IGN BODY THAT CAME TO HAND.L. SH E TOOK A C H A I R OUT TH E R E A N D REFUSED CORPORAL PUNISHM ENT WAS R ES O R T E D TO. D R E N . . TH E SC ENE WAS I NDESCRIBABL.D DEVEL.S INTO TH E TRAP SET FOR H E R . WEPT COPIOUSL.F HER FAC E BETRAYING AN PRESCRIBED A N D TH E C H I L. SHE SAT O N T H E EDGE.ONG THAT AT TIMES SOM EON E WENT TO LOOK FOR H E R. MORAL. C A L. . IT SEATED ON A C H A I R .D U N B E A R A BL. WAS FORCED TO A D M IT TH E PRACTICES SHE INDULG E D IN. E D A N D WEPT BITTERLY. BUT A LS O W I THOUT ANY SIGN ON ACC E S S T O A L L EXCEPT C E RTAIN FAVO U R ITES.D BE RE­ PEATED. . S H E CAL.AYED AT G E TT I N G ENGAGED AND P R OC U R E D V O L U PTUOU S SPASM. OPENED HER LEGS. THE GOV E R N ESS A LSO NOTICED HOW L.EEP TH ERE. W IT H WOUL. STRANGERS. HER PARE NTS. H E R FEET. SUBM ITTED WITHOUT PROTEST. R U B B I NG H ERSELF ON' THE COR N E R S OF F U R N I ­ MARRIED.Y A N D PROM I S E D NOT TO DO IT AGAIN. F .A T E R F R I ENDS. .

T H U S . AS PLEASU R E FROM IT. WHEN SHE DI DN'T SHE WHI M PE R E D. MADE MORE HER SEEM MORONIC. A MAID WHO LOOK E D AFTER M E WHEN I WENT SUCCEEDED I N ATTA I N I NG H E R OBJECTIVE AFTER SEVERAL HO U R S OF E F F O R T. HER BODY FREQUE NTLY SHA K E N BY SPASMS. J E RK I N G ON THE B E D. WERE DURING THE D A YT I M E W:-I E N TH E TE M PT A T I O N CROSSED ON T H E CHEST. IN SPITE OF ALL THE S E PRECA UTIONS X . WAY TO YOU 00 ARE A LL­ BY AN I M M E D I ATE R EACTION. HANDS I N PROXI M I TY OF THE SHO U LDERS: LEGS A N D F E ET SET W I D E APA RT A N D F I R M L Y ATTACHED TO THE I RO N B E D-STEAD: A BODY-BELT IN THE FOR M OF A STR A P FIXED THE BECA M E I R R E S I STABLE. WHE N EVER I FELT BOR E D I ALWAYS PLAYED THE S A M E GAME. AS MY S I ST E R ME A SAYS. SHE WAS A B LE TO TOUCH H E R S E L F WITH THE OTHER. WHAT DO I CARE? I WANT TO DO IT AND DIE. X . I USED TO P R E T E N D I 25 . I USED TO GET U P EARLY TO PLAY WITH MY DOLLS. T H E HACK E T IN PLACE. W H I C H P R O V E D THAT SHE AGO. I N SUCH MOMENTS OF A F F ECTION AND LUCI DITY SHE POWE R F U L. SOM ETI M E S EVEN D E E P GASHES. BUT WITHOU T R E A LL Y WANTING TO. I N ONE OF HER M O M ENTS OF C A L M AND R EPENTA N C E . F L OGG I N G D E C E I T F U L. BUT SOON THESE ABLUTIONS B E C A M E OVER F R EQU E N T. TH ESE ATTACKS OF FOLLY W E R E FOLOW E D ONE DAY SHE S A I D THE FOLLOWI N G PRAYER: "DEA R GOD. I USED TO DRESS THEM A N D PLAY WITH MYSELF A UTOMATICA LLY. THE FOLLOW I N G PRETEXT OF N I GHT A WATCH WAS K E PT UNDER CONFESSION: "I VAGUELY RECA LL. SHE STILL MANAGED TO SATISFY HERSELF I N A THOUSAND SATISFY HERSELF D U R I NG THE N I GHT. CO V E R E D AND MARKED SCRATCHES. I N THE MORN I NG T H E S E X U A L PARTS BOR E OBVIOUS TRACES OF ASSAULT BY A SHA R P I N ST R U M E NT. LET ME ENJOY MYSELF! IF IT KILLS ME. BECAUSE I T HAPPE N E D YEARS S L E E P. SHE WAS P R E Y TO A FIT OF M A D N ESS: HER FACE BECA M E DEAD WHI TE. SHE FROTHED AT THE MOUTH. CONT I N UOUSLY. B Y HOLDING ONE END OF THE E XT E N D E D PIN IN HER M OUTH. LATER I HAD ME A GOV E R N ESS W HERSELF I N I M I TATION O F THE K A BYLES. I KNOW. MANAGED TO UNTIE THAT A L L THE S PONGES H A D B E E N PO K E D F U L L OF HOLES.. B E FO R E LONG I T WAS D I SCO V E R E D TRU N K TO THE MATTRESS BY CORDS K NOTTED TO THE BED.. CHA NGED COLOUR: SHE WRITHED AND STRUGGLED FURIOUSLY IF A N YO N E TRIED TO HOLD HER. . SHOUTING AT THE TOP OF H E R LUNGS: " I DETEST DADDY. THEN. LATER. D U R I NG THE DAY SHE HAD TA K E N THE PRECAUTION O F H I D I NG HAI R. MADE THE FOLLOW I N G E VERYTHING I N O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C RAVI NG. E M ITTING RA UCOUS C R I E S THAT GREW MORE A N D M O R E SAVAGE. SHE FLEW IN TO THE MOST FRIGHTFUL TEMPER. W I TH O U T G E T T I N G ANY STRAIGHTENED WITH H E R TE ETH: THU S. ITS A LONG T I M E AGO NOW S I N C E I GOT I NTO THE HABIT. BY A V E RITABLE TOU R D E FORC E WORTHY OF THE D A V E N PORT B R O TH E R S . MORE MORE I N THIS WAY SHE ALM OST A LWAYS M A N A G E D TO PERVERSE.THE S T R E ET A T T R A CT E D THE ATTENTION K I N D N E SS OF SO OFTEN REMA I N E D WERE HA P P E N E D. WORKI NG DIFFERENT WAYS. I THIN K I T WAS SHE WHO G A V E M E THE I D E A OF TOUCHING MYSE LF. AND THESE SHE PULLED OUT AT N I GHT AND TELLING NOT TO PUT M Y HAND HQ.P I N S IN H E R PILLOW. N E I TH E R NOR SEXUAL SEVERITY H A D THE SLIGHTEST E F F ECT. " SHOW I T WITHOUT ADMITTED E V E R YTHING A N D TOLD H E R SECR ETS. BUT THATS MY BUSINESS..B Y . WITH DEMONSTRA­ TIONS O F T E N D E R N ESS A N D REPENTA NCE. ASKED A S A M E A N S O F OVERCO M I NG I T . T O WASH HER P A R T S WITH C O L D WATER. IN WHILE THE B L OOD AND STR A P PA RTS BY P A S S E R S. S P I TE F U L.. X . THIS WAS THE A N SWER TO THE R I DDLE O F HOW. WHEN SHE D I D NOT SUCCEED IN D U P I NG HER G U A R D I A N S. SOBBING: "WHY DO YOU DEPRIVE ME OF SUCH AN INNOCENT PLEASURE?" AND A M O M E N T LATER: "ITS DI RTY. SHE PULLED AT THE JACKET WITH HER T EETH UNTIL SHE SUCC EEDED IN R E ACHING THE S E X U A L PARTS WITH HER H A N DS. THOUGH KEPT U N D E R CONSTANT WATCH. CURSING EVERYONE. HER EYE-BA LLS ROLLED AND GLA R E D AS I F THEY WOULD BU RST FROM THE I R SOCKETS. DROPS OF SUCH MOMENTS SHE SHOUTED AT THE TOP OF HER VOICE. I F. AT HERSELF F U R I O U S LY HERSELF UP TO �UCH A STATE SHE K N E W N E I TH E R RESTR A I N T N O R SHA M E: S H E GROU N D H E R TEETH. THESE VIOLENT SC ENES. I WANT TO!" SWEAT STOOD O N H E R TEMPLES.TH E R E : SHE TOLD M E NOT TO SO OFTEN IT M A D E ME C U R I O U S A N D I SA I D T O MYSELF THAT J U S T ONCE WOULDN'T HURT. P R OMI S I N G TO I M PROVE AND B E GG I N G FOR AT THIS EPOCH A STRAIT-JACKED WAS E M PLOYED TO P R E V E N T THE C H I L D T O U C H I N G BOTH FO R E A R M S H E R S E LF HELD ANOTHER CHA NCE. . PLEASE GOD MAKE THEM DIE.. C O N TO R T I N G TO BED LI FTI NG H E R SKI RTS A N D R U B B I NG HER SHA M E F U L PA RTS FOR A LONG T I M E. SUPPORT­ ING HERSELF ON THE CROWN O F H E R HEAD. S I N N I NG ." I N SHORT. I LOATHE MUMMY. WAS A LWAYS S'. AND THAT THE WASHING WAS NOTH I N G B U T A PRETEXT IN O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C R A V I N G WITH I M P U N ITY.

I CA N'T T H I N K. HE D I D C O M E. L E FT. . IF ONLY I COU L D B E A D E M O N M YS E L F T O M A K E M I SC H I EFI OPPOSTIE A N D TOUC H I N G EACH OTHER. OUT S E N S U A L PLEA S U R E T H E SPI RITUAL ECSTASY OF SACRILEGE. O R K E PT LI FTI N G ONE OF H E R F E ET. I WENT TO U S E D TO SHUT O U R S E L V E S U P I N THE LAVATORY AND TAKE ALL OUR C L OTH E S O F F . THAT HAD BEEN U R I N E. AT FI RST. I USED "WH E N AT L A ST' SHE WENT ON. I S A W H I M.S I DED. SHE PARTI C U LA R LY L I K E D H A I R-PI NS. THEN. EVERY OUT WAS C U P BOA R D CAME A O P E N ED. H E W A S B I G. SHE A FT E R U S I NG S M OO T H ONES. WHEN ALL AT ONCE THE WAR DROBE OPE N E D A N D USUALLY I N FRONT (THE C LI TOR IS). F I N A LLY. BY P R E S S I N G H E R T H I G H S TOG ETH E R. SOM E MONTHS LATER I SHOW E D LITILE V . I LIKE GOI NG TO C H U RC H AND R E A D I N G TH E B I B L E .H A D SOMETH I N G WRONG W I TH ME DOWN THERE. I F I N D I T V E RY SOOTH I NG" . . M Y LlTILE S I STER D I DN'T ENJOY I T A N D DI DN'T WANT TO: I M A D E H E R. THE SIGHT OF O N E WAS ENOUGH TO M A K E HER WANT TO USE IT.. H E M A D E A L M OST REG U L A R I NTERVA LS. A N D PLAYED A T G I V I NG M Y S E L F A DOUC H E OR BATH I N G MYSELF AND PUTT I N G ON A POU LTICE. IN A DD I T I O N TO T H E PROVO K E D PRACTI S E S A LR E A D Y C ITED. AFTERWARDS I M A D E F R I E N D S W I TH A LITILE BOY I L I K E D VERY M UCH. A L L BLACK A N D G R I N N I NG. H O R R I B LEI I'VE N E V E R A B L E S I GHTI FORGOTIEN THAT A BOM I N ­ "WE DID LOTS OF T H E S E HOR RORS WITH Y . W H I C H D I D N O T P R E V E NT H E R F R O M B E I NG C A UG H T O N E D A Y "ITS AWFUL TO WANT TO DO I T A N D NOT BE ABLE TO. I OFTE N CA LLED ON T H E DEVI L TO H E L P M E: O N C E I FELT H I S H A N D ON MY SHOU L D E R A N D SOM ETI M E S I B E GG E D H I M T O K I L L M Y P A R E N TS A N D M A K E E V E R YO N E SU FFER. THE BLESSED I N J E R U S A L E M . W A L K I NG S H E WOU L D BEGI N T O L I M P I N A N O D D WAY A S IF SHE WERE LOP. I B LA M E D EVERYONE. AT P E R F O R M I NG HORRORS W I T H H E R PRAYE R-BOOK I N A C RO W D E D C H U RC H . S A N D . WHEN WE LIVED I N SUCH A N D SUCH A HOUSE (1877) I SHOWED M Y LlTILE SISTER HOW T O DO IT. WHATEVER I COULD F I N D. BUT U R I N AT E D A L M OST U PR I G H T IN F RONT OF H E R SI STER. I T W A S W I THOUT M Y A S K I NG. SOMETI M E S W I T H OUR H A N D S . THAT WAS W H E N I STA R T E D STIC K I NG U P BITS OF WOOD OFTEN AND I RUBBING A HARD ( V AG I N A L O N A N I S M ). BUT IT WAS I M POSS I B L E TO STOP A N D I STA RTED A G A I N . A N D I D I D THE S A M E HORRORS W I TH H I M . . E V E RYTH I N G E A SY. HIS EYES WERE GREEN. A FTERWARDS TH E PATIERNS MADE BY T H E JET OF "WHEN I WAS SAD O R C ROSS A BOUT SOMETH I NG I E XA M I N I NG D I D IT ALL TH E M O R E : FOR I N STANCE THE T I M E S I WAS CA UGHT STE A L I N G I D I D IT WORSE THAN EVER. W A L K E D Q U I C K LY. I W A S I N BED. HOW TO DO I T AND W E USED TO TOUCH EACH OTHER. S H E A LSO H A N D L E D H E R E XC R E M ENTS A N D FORC E D H E R L I TI L E S I STER T O D O L I K E W I S E . O FT E N THOUGHT O F T H E DEVI L A N D C A L L E D ON H I M T O H E L P M E. SOMETI M E S W I T H B I TS OF WOOD. BUT ITS A LWAYS BEST R E A L LY WHEN YOU C A N DO I T WITH EXACTLY T H E T H I N G Y O U F E E L L I K E A T T H E M O M ENT. ETC. NOTH I N G M A TI E R S SO LONG AS I CAN DO ITI A F U RTH E R P ROOF THAT THE POOR C H I LO THE SUFFERED FROM M E NTAL A B E R RATION WAS FACT THAT N O T ONLY D I D S H E PRACTI SE O N A N I S M I N A L L ITS R E F I N E M E NTS. B U T LATER I H A D TO RUB H A R D E R A N D HA RDER. I SA I D NOBODY HAD THE RIGHT TO STOP ME U S I NG MY F I NG E RS A N D MY BODY AS I W A N T E D TO. TO I WOU LD HAVE STOP US.) I N STR U M ENTS. E T C . "PEOPLE BEGAN TO NOTIC E W H A T WAS H A PPE N I NG A N D TR I E D TO STOP M E. MUCH I GREW AS WICKED AND I W A N T E D T O DO HARM POSS I B LE. ST A N D I N G C O N F E S S I O N . I GOT I NTO A TE R R I B LE RAGE. . TOUC H I NG MYSELF TWO OR THREE T I M ES WAS E NOUGH. I T WAS D U R I NG THE N I GHT. FORKS. LA T E R THE DESIRE C A M E OVER ME AT E V E N GOD FOR HAVING MADE M E U N H A PPY AFTER LETIING ME BE SO AS H A PPY. T H E F I RST TI M E H E C A M E THOUGH. . " ( A PPARENTLY T H I S PALM FRON D GAVE HER OT H E R FO R E I G N MORE SATI SFACTION THAN ANY BODY B E C A USE IT ADDED TO R U B B I N G H E R S E L F ON T H E ANGLES OF F U R N I T U R E. OR ROC K I N G BACKWARDS AND FORWA RDS ON A CHAIR. I TS ENOUGH TO D R I V E WHO YOU M A D. G R A SS. O R D I N A R Y P I NS. " E V E N SO. S H E ONLY 8EGAN TO LIKE IT I N THE WI NTER OF 1881. WE "IT WAS A FT E R THAT I R E P E N TED.. F I N A LLY SHE T R I E D AND OFTEN SUCCEEDED I N STR I KI NG H E R PA RTS WITH T H E EDGE OF A PIECE 26 . . OR T U R N E D A B R U PTLY R E SO R T E D T O SHARP SUCH AS SCI SSORS. KI LLED A N YO N E TRI E D MOMENTS LIKE THAT IT'S AS !F I'M G!DDY. AT OTH ER TIMES S H E TOOK LlTILE STEPS. DRAWER. I'M NOT A F R A I D OF A N YT H I N G OR A N YBODY. VOLUPTUOUS SPASM BY USED PALM FROND X . OF EVERY L I TT L E AND IT SWARM DEMONS. T H E D E V I L A P P E A R E D. H E H ELPED M E G E T F R E E . G I V I N G MYSELF THE DOUC H E WITH L I TILE STI CKS: FOR Y E A R S I'VE L I K E P U TI I N G LlTILE STICKS UP M E. ! CAN'T S E E. ( T H E LITILE S I STER WAS FOUR YEARS OLD AT T H E TIM EIl I GOT 80R E D P L A Y I N G TH E G A M E ON M Y OWN: I WA NTED SOM EON E TO DO IT WITH M E .

SC R E A M E D. . PUT I NTO H E R STRAI T J A CKET A N D C H A STITY B E LT I P U B I C BANDAGE). FROM TH E S E NOCTU R N A L SCENES. . WHICH PERTU R B T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M . A S IF N A I L E D IF S H E SAW SOME SCR U B S H E STR A D D LE D IT A N D R U B B E D H E R S E L F B A C K A N D FORTH. . SAYS I T TAKES A LONG TI M E . A LEWD I NSTI NCT. AT THAT PERIOD S E X U A L E R ETH I S M WAS SUCH THAT A S I NGLE TOU C H WAS E NOUGH TO PRODUCE ORGA S M . X . THUS. T H E N X . ATTENTION A N D G I V E . D U R I N G WH I C H IT W A S 27 . X . AN ETH I C A L N E U ROSIS IN THE BY THE FOLLOW I N G AS W E HAVE A L R E A D Y STATED. . BUT A IF SHE HAD TI M E TO WO R K SOM ETH I NG I N O R D E R T O R U B AGA I N ST I T . THE M O R E QUICKLY THE DISCHARGE OC C U R E D. HOLDS H E R B REATH M O M E NTARI LY. A N D YET T H E VOLUPTUOUS S ENSATION I S A BSOLUTELY ESSENTI A L ONCE SHE GETS THE IDEA. I N D U LG E I N THE S A M E M USC U L A R CONTRACTION S A N D PROD U C E T H E S A M E SOU N D S I M ULTANEOUSLY. T H I S W A S FOLLOW E D B Y A TETA N I C STATE LASTING S E V E R A L M I N UTES. T H E MORE S U D D E N TH E TOUCH . OR THE S I M I LA N C E OF THE TO N G U E AGA I N ST T H E PALATE. FROM A X . R H YTH M I C SOU N D C A N BE AWAY. X . AFTE R W H I C H S H E STARTS SQU E EZ I N G D E F EC A T I O N . OFTEN. THE C H I LD'S PATI E N C E AND CUNNING WERE TRULY A M AZI NG! T O TH E I R B E D . W E L L BROUGHT-U P S I N C E C H I LDHOOD. TO STI M U LATE THE MORAL AS SHOWN SEXU A L PA RTS. B Y TH E A LT E R N A T I V E CON­ TRACTING AND R E L A X I NG O F THE ANAL SPHI NCTE R A N D A N A L LEVATOR. A N D A HEARD SOME DULL. T H I S MONOTONOUS NOISE I S OFTEN K E PT U P F O R A G OO D PART O F T H E N I GHT. A FTER HAVI NG LEARNT OFTEN SHE LOCATE D A S H R U B TO B E M A D E USE OF S E V E R A L DAYS LATER. A Q U I C K K I C K OF T H E H E E L TO H E R PA RTS. GOT THE I DEA OF M A ST U R BATI NG. THUS P R O VO K I N G PHYSICAL DESI R E TA K E PART I N TH E S E SPASMODIC CONTRACTIONS. . M A K E S E FFORTS A S IF S H E WANTED TO BLOW H E R NOSE O R E X PECTORATE. I T W A S A THOUGHT. AS A R E S U LT O F C O N S I D E R A B L E A B U S E . THAT IS TO SAY. BY THE R E PETITION OF THESE MOVEM ENTS W H I C H I H A D HER PERFORM I N FRONT OF M E. A NOT R E S U LT I N G S U D D E N LY OPEN I NG OF T H E L I P S W H E N TH E MOUTH H A S B E E N CLOSED. BUT THAT WAS NOT A LL! B Y C U N N I NG A N D PRACTI CE X . S E N S E. YET. A N D P R E T E N D T O B E A S L E E P. A N D FELL I NTO C LON I C OR TON I C CONVULSIONS. . THOSE IN C H A RG E O F THE C H I L D SAY I T IS ODIOUS TO H A V E TO LI STEN TO I T IN TH E SILENCE W I TH ONLY TH E N IGHT-LIG H T B U R N I NG. SHE IS TIED UP. MASTURBATION WAS E N C EPHALIC. ONLY LATER DID I T BECOME G E N ITAL WHEN TH E CLITO R I S AND VAG I N A ROUSED AND MADE SENSITIVE BY EXA M P LE: THOUGH WATC H E D O V E R B Y T H E E Y E S O F A RG U S . OFTEN BOTH C H I LD R E N SUFFE R E D FIT O F N E RVOUS TR E M B L I N G T H A T G A I N E D A L L H E R L I M BS.OF WOOD. . . THE N E E D T O MASTURBATE DID NOT ORIGI N ATE FROM THE SEXU A L ORGA N S. W H I C H S H E R E L E A S E D B Y PRESSING IT WITH H E R FOOT. BEGAN TO PRACTI S E O N A N I S M I T WAS NOT TH ROUGH TH E EXIGENC I E S O F NATU R E . X . A BETTER WAY OF PUTTING I T WOU LD BE TO SAY THAT AT FIRST. SOMETI M E S MORE THAN A N H O U R TO R E A C H THE FI N A L VOL U PTUOUS SPASM IN THIS WAY. TROUS D R I V E N TO CONTI N U E BY TWO DIFFERENT E X E C UT I O N . A N D ACCOM PAN I E D BY PA I N S SO VIOLENT TH E Y MADE TH E CHILO SCREAM. . I N T H E MONTH OF J U N E .. WHEN X . IT REPERCUTED A S IF B Y LIGHTNI N G ON THE SEXUA L ORGA N S . .. S H E COULD SHE P R E TE N D E D TO FALL OR S TU M B L E O V E R BE STO P P E D . THE D I STA N C E CONSECUTIVELY TO T H E C E R E B R A L STI M U LUS. A LTER N ATIVE OPE N I N G AND CLOS I N G OF T H E LA B I A PUDENDI UNLIKE PRODUCES THAT A SMACKING FROM SOUND. WOULD ATTA I N H E R OBJ ECTI V E I N WAYS THAT WERE I NCONCE I V A B L E IN A LITTLE GIRL OF GOOD FA M I LY. • • IS S U D D E N LY TO OVERCOM E BY TH E I R R ES I ST I B L E DESI R E COMMIT H E R HORRORS. IN E F F ECT. AND X . . A S SOON A S TH E F I R ST TOOK PLACE. HER ANUS AS AT TH E END OF CEREBRAL A N D G E N ITAL. H E R F E E T A R E ATTA C H E D. A C E R E B R A L I M PULSE THAT INCITED X. A L L A T O N C E S H E WOULD STOP A N D EXCLA I M : "LOOK A T THAT P R E TTY F L OW E R I " S I MPLY TO D I V E RT HERSELF SUDDEN I N TE R R U PTION BEFORE THE CLIMAX CAUSED TH E OUTBR E A K OF T E R R I B L E STOR MS. . X . . U P. I N H E R I T WAS C E RTA I N LY D U E TO M O R A L PERVERSITY. TH E V U LVA SWELLS. T H E VAGIN A'S CONSTRICTOR I S M A D E TO CHEC K I N G TH E I RR E S I STABLE D E S I R E TO SATI SFY H E R PASSION. STRUGGLED L I K E O N E POSSE S S E D. . WHEN. AT TH E POI NT IN HER H I ST O R Y WAS WHICH CON C E R N S U S AT TH E HER DISAS­ MOMENT. . TH E C H I LD R E N R E M A I N I M MO B I LE. WAS G I V E N A GOOD SLAP A S SOON A S S H E B E G A N . S H E B R A C E D H E R WHOLE BODY A S STI F F L Y A S SHE COU LD. GAVE R I S E I N TH E I R T U R N TO THE LASCIVIOUS CONC E PT. FRIGID PHYSICALLY SPEAKI NG. SHE C A N N OT SO R E S I ST P U TT I N G IT TO R E PEATED CONTACTS. . . P R I N C I PALLY THE LEGS. STI L L M UTE A N D U N R ES PONSIVE. S H E CONTRACTS H E R N EC K TO H A BITS I MPULSES: M A K E IT SWELL. I F. . B E CA M E I N C A PA B L E OF T H U S .

S H E WOU LD J U M P UP FROM H E R CHA I R A N D PA C E U P A N D DOWN T H E BEDROOM: S H E COULDN'T SLEEP A N D D E C L A R E D SHE SPENT TWO OR TH R E E NIGHTS AT A T I M E WITHOUT CLOS I N G H E R EYES. O N E DAY. SHE IS ONLY FULLY I NTRODUCES I NTO H E R SEXUAL PARTS. . WITH A RE PETITION WA L K S T W I C E A DAY A N D VARIOUS G A M E S D I D MUCH TO MAKE TH E I R X • . ON R E C E I V I N G A L E TT E R F ROM H E R MOTH E R E XHORTI NG H E R T O I M PROVE. COM PLA I N E D OF SUBJECT TO A H E A DACHES: S H E WAS N ERVOUS RISE IN FROM TI M E TO TI M E X . . H E R O N E A N D ON LY THOUGHT I S TO G E T H E R H A N DS ON H E R PA RTS. B U RSTS I N TO TEARS.S TO THE H A N D S A N D FEET OF THE TWO C H I LD R E N OUT O F H E R STR A I T-JACKET A T M E A L T I M E S. . B E GG I N G TO BE 28 . VEGETA B LES. WHILE TH E BECAME E V E N W A S D R ESSING H E R . THAT SH E WEEPS AND P R OM I S E S TO SHOOTI N G FREQUENT PA I N S PA RTS. ALL H E R. OF TH E SAME SC E N E S OF A G I TATION AND LIFE ONE A G R E E A BLE. IN O R D E R TO AVOID A SCANDAL. DAY A N D NIGHT T O C H ECK A N Y GUI LTY I NCLINA­ TIONS. TO WHOM SHE HAC P E R PETRATE H E R HORRORS. SHE A RT­ ATTACKS A N X I ETY. S H E STOLE A HAIRPIN A N D HID IT IN HER MOUTH UNTIL SHE FOU N D A FAVOU R A B L E THIS GAVE HER SUCH A FRIGHT SHE WAS GOOD FOR SEV E R A L H E A LT H DAYS WAS A FT E R W A R D S . . D OW N W A R D A D M I TT I N G PATH. NOT E V E N W H E N R E S PO N D I N G TO U RG E N T CA LLS OF NATURE. S H E WAS I NSTA LLED IN A C H A LET I N T H E M I D D L E OF A GARDEN. B E LT A N D STRAPS AS A L R E A D Y D E SC R I B ED. OFTEN ONE SPOKE OF OF THE D E V I L WHO C A M E TO AND H E LP HER FREE HER HANDS SiSTER Y . S H E WOU L D D I V E A N D STAY UNDER WATE R SEVERAL SECONDS IN ORDER TO D ET E R I O R A T I N G VIOLENT M A N I PULATE H E R S E LF. B E E R . AGED A BOUT SIX. AND IN A DDITION TO T H E STAFF. UP S H E LLS AND L I TT L E STO N E S WHICH SHE I N S ERTED I N T H E PARTS. M O V E M E N T. BUT IT I S NO M O R E T H A N A D R U N K A R D'S PLEDGE. D U R I N G T H O S E BRIEF MOME NTS O F L I B E RTY. WENT WITH HER. . A S W E L L AS I N A DEPLORABLE A LLOWED MENTAL ST A T E . PURPOSE. TWO GOVERN ESSES WERE ENGAG E D TO WATCH OVER THE C H I LD R E N SEA BATHS HAVING OVER-EXCITED T H E C H I LDREN'S N E RVOUS SYSTEMS. I DEA BUT TO NO VIOLENCE. . PALPITATIONS WITH A T E N D E N C Y TO LI POTHYMY. OR I N SERT A F O R K OR TH E H A N DLE OF HER K N I FE. W H I L E BATH I N G IN THE S E A S H E USED H E R TOES W I T H ASTO N I S H I NG AGI LITY T O P I C K MOR E U N M A NAGEAB LE. BITING A N D SPITTI N G ON IT. W A R M A N D PROLONGED. UNDER HER CLOTH ES. SHE MOMENT T O U S E I T . . . J U M PS U P BUT HOW F R O M TH E TA B L E A N D Y E L L S AT T H E TOP O F H E R VOI C E : I WANT TO! FOR PITY'S S A K E LET M E DO IT! MUSCLES O F THE P E R I N E U M FROM CONTRACTI N G AND PRODU C I N G VOLUPTUOUS SATI SFACTION IN SPITE OF A L L PRECAUTIONS? AS X . I M PARTED H E R S H A M E F U L H A BITS.I M POSSIBLE FOR H E R TO PERFORM THE SLIG HTEST MOV E M ENT: SHE WAS A R I G I D AND MOTI ONLESS AS A FROG SUBJECTED TO VIOLENT E LECTRIC SHOCKS. • VIGILANCE OF H E R G U A RDIANS. FOR A BOUT TH R E E MONTHS THINGS CONTI N U E D I N T H E S A M E WAY. AND D I V E RT THEIR ATTENTION FROM VICE BY I N C U LC A T I N G R E L I G I O US S E NT I M E N T S PRAYER AND R E A D I NGS F R O M P I O U S THIS D I ET AND THE PROLONGED BATHS CON· THROUGH WOR K S . OR GIVE THEM A K I C K W I T H H E R H E E L. EVEN S O . THERE WERE I M PROVE. NO R E D M E AT. S H E WOULD SUDDENLY PUT HER FINGERS ON HER PARTS. OR S E N D H E R TO T H E COUNTRY. AT N IGHT O N E GOES SO F A R AS TO T I E LITTLE B E LI. :S WAS TO OUTWIT T H E MAID IF PRESENTED WITH A C RU C I F I X X . :S G E N E R A L RAPI DLY. I NC A PABLE OF KEEPING STILL. A MOMENT WOULD R E P E NT. H E R LITTLE X. M I LK. IT WAS D E C I D E D. ON ONE OCCASION. SUFFOCATION. S H E IS U TT E R L Y W O R N OUT. C R Y I N G OUT THAT SHE P R E F E R R E D THE DEVI L WHO H E LP E D LATER HER SHE 00 WHAT S H E WANTED. A DOSE OF FOU R G R A M M ES OF B R O M I D E OF POTASS I U M P E R D A Y . X . S H E C A NNOT B E LEFT ALON E F O R A MOM E N T. SHE PREVENT FRICTION. O R E LSE. T R I BUTED FU RTH E R T O TH E C H I LD R E N'S W E A K E N E D STATE. DOES A LL ONE I N O R D E R TO DANGEROUS PREVENT T H E CAUGHT FROM RED-HA N DED. S H E IS MOVED TO TEARS BY I T S T E N D E R A FFECTI O N . EVERYTH I N G H A D B E E N WELL ORGA NIZED: TH E DAY DIVI D E D I N SUCH A WAY AS TO OCCUPY EACH MOMENT. TH E FORK I S SNATC H E D ATTAC H E D W I TH T H E I R STRAIT-JA C K ETS. FOR EXAMPLE. HAS MOMENTS IS ON OF THE SUDDEN TEMPERATURE THAT LAST E D SEVERAL HOURS: S H E HAD ER RATIC PA I N S IN ALL O V E R HER OF HER BODY AND REMORSE. . AT TI M E S SHE BECAME HIGHLY AGITATED. THEY W E R E R E PLAC ED BY SOFT WATER BATHS. A MOM E N T LATE R SHE I S I N VENTING SOME NEW TACTIC. W H I LE GETTING U N D R ESSED. BUT AT T H E SA M E MOMENT T H E LETTER THAT H A S SO MOV E D HER I S B E I NG ROLLED I N TO A SPOO L WHICH. :S STATE P ROGR E S S I V E LY WORSENED.

M I DDLE OF A G R A M M A R LESSON S H E SUDDENLY BEGAN TO SHOUT: "CHASE HIM AWAY." I WAS OBLIGED TO C O M P LY WITH HER GOVERN ESS A N D A H A N D SMOOTH I N G H E R BROW OFTEN C R ISES. H E R S K I N D A M P. "YOU GRATITUDE W H E N S H O W N AFFECTION. X FLU S H E D. WHATEVER COERCIVE M E A S U R E S WERE ADOPTED. APPEARED TO BE M OV E D BY MY MARKS OF A G A I N ST FURNITURE PASSI NG. " C U R I O U S LY DID N OT WANT TO BE LEFT UN­ T R E MORS. . X. ." S H E SAYS. THE N EXT S H E H I TS AND BITES H E R . FEW KIND WORDS ATTACHED. I I N SI STED THAT THE WORKS L E SSONS PLEAS U R E . THUS GIVES X . S H E F R A N K LY A D M I TS T O PROVOK I N G THE VOLUPTUOUS SPASM TWELVE T O E I G H T E E N C H I LD BE LE FT TO H E RS E LF NOW AND TH EN. " I 00 N O T T R U ST MYSELF." S H E TOLD M E . THE DAY COM E S WHEN S H E TR I E S TO CHI LD'S NIGHT-SH I R T WHEN DRESSI N G H E R. I PICT U R E T H E F E A R F U L CONSEQU ENCES OF HER H A B I TS. . IS A LT O G E T H E R PLEA SURE O U T OF OBTA I N I NG SATISFACTION. B U T I A M QUICK T O A D D : "I F Y O U REFUSE TO LISTEN I W I L L H A V E TO B E C R U E L. I CAN'T SEE A N Y T HI N G!" HER VOI C E BECO M E S SHE DID NOT HAVE H A LL U C I N A TIONS. AGA I N ST TH E B R UTALITY E M PLOYED. . . HER FACE VARIED DIET TO B U I LD UP THE SYST E M . 29 . . I N TH E GREATER THE OBSTACLE S H E HAD BEEN OBLIGED TO OVE RCOME. BY D I NT O F TOUC H I NG A N D E XC IT I N G H E RS ELF. APPEARED TO BE M E NTALLY CONTORTS WITH FEAR. "PUT ON MY STR A I T J A C K E T A GA I N . PA RTS H ERSELF HAND WITH HER AND R E S U LT IF ACH I E V E D. T H E CHARMI NG. FOR I HAD NOTI C E D THAT SHE R E B E LLED AGA I N ST TIMES A D A Y . P R O M I S I NG TO LEAVE HER H YPER-SENSITIVE. I HAVE HER F R E E D ENTI R E LY. I N A F E W SECONDS THE VOLUPTUOU S S E N SATION "TH I S T I M E I T S NOT MY R E AC H E D ITS C L I M A X . A STR I K I N G C H A NGE HAS TAKEN PLACE . SUCCEED TH E SHE IN C A L M I N G TH E S E NOCTURNAL LOOKS AT BETTER. H E R BR EATH I N G BECA M E U N EVEN. AT OTH ERS. CHASE HIM TREATME NT: COLD SHOWERS. TRYING BY ADVICE A N D K I N D N ESS T O STI M U LATE H E R AMOUR PROPRE. I BEG YOU. O R LEANS O N SOM EONE. I T I S EASY TO U N D E R S TA N D TH E UTTER I M PO S S I B I L ITY O F AVOIDING ALL THE OCCASIONS FOR W H I C H S H E WAS ON TH E LOOK-OUT. " X . I WILL BURN YOU R PARTS WITH A R E D HOT I RONI" ALTHOUGH X . IN P U L L I N G OFF THE RA UCOUS. S H E EVEN I N SERTS A PAI NT-BRUSH I N TO T H E VAG I N A . WITH A YELLOWI S H G R E E N DISCHARG E . "NOBODY FAULT. . TI E M E UP. A R A P I D MOV E M E N T ON TH AT P A R T OF M E STARTS OFF A S E N SATION I C A N NOT C O N T R O L . H E'S HORRIBLE! HOW HIS EYES GLEAM! I'M GOING BLIND. FINA LLY. B E N D I NG OVER TO PICK A A QUICK THE TAP ON THE IS FLOWER. HAS I N D E E D B E COM E THE 26TH OF A U GUST. THOUGH IN A MORE MODERATE FASHION. BY TYING. "BECAUSE MY SUFFERINGS ARE SHAM EFULI" PULLED IT OFF TOO QUICKLY. SHE THROWS H E RSELF I NTO H E R GOV E R N ESS'S A R M S CRYI NG: ''TH ERE HE IS. . AT ONE MOMENT SHE E M B R A C E S H E R GOV E R N ESS WITH EFFUSION. . SHE WA NTS TO RUN AWAY FROM E V E R YTH I N G . HER SHE SEEMS WITH C H I LD REQU EST. H E R FACE A S I F I L L U M I N ATED. ONE WOU L D HAVE SAID THAT SHE GOT MORE THE 29TH OF A U G U ST X. T H I C K A N D A B U N DANT. "I WILL 00 M Y BEST. K N OC K S TH E SA M E A THING PIECE H A PPENS OF SHE IN COMPLETELY F R E E I F S H E WILL B E SENSI BLE A N D O B E Y M E . T H E SENSITIV ITY OF TH E SEXUAL P A R T S H A D BECOM E SO GREAT THAT TH E M A I D . SYM PATHY. BY SEVERE PUNISHMENT. TO RESTORE H E R D I G N I TY A N D A WA K E N A SENSE OF HONOUR. .PRAYED FOR A N D R E A D T H E PSALMSI SHE ALSO HAD H A LLUCINATIONS D U R I NG THE DAY. SHE S A I D. "BUT I AM NOT SURE OF S U C C E E D I NG. BUT A SHE O FT E N HAS N E RVOU S FROM TH E T H E R E FO R E ENOUGH SHE I C A N N O T P R O M I S E . . SET OFF AN ELECTRIC CURRENT THAT SENT • . TWO G R A M M ES EVERY A AWAY. S H E D I D NOT PROMI S E T O B E GOOD I N THE FUTURE. THROW H E R S E LF OUT OF A SECOND-STORY W I N DOW INTO TH E STR EET B E LOW. A N D FOUGHT WITH A LL HER WIT AND C U N N I NG A GA I N ST I NFLAM E D. B R O M I D E OF POTAS­ SIUM AND AMMONIUM. AT CERTA I N MOMENTS SHE WA NTS TO BE CUDDLED AND EXPRESSES A S H U DD E R TH ROUGH H E R W H O L E B E I NG. ALTHOUGH R U L E S W E R E LESS STRICTLY E N FORCED T H A N B E FORE. HOURS. I N T H E DAYS FOLLO W I N G CALMER. N EVERTHELESS S H E A D M ITTED TO H AV I N G YI ELDED SEVERAL TIMES TO H E R I N C R I M I N A T I N G M A N I PULA­ TIONS. THE SLIGHTEST P R ESSU R E PUT ON THE SENSUAL PARTS LEADS TO A N ERETH I S M AS QUICK A S LIGHTN I N G W H I C H C A N B E READ ON HER FACE. S E E I NG TH E LITTLE SUCCESS OBTA I N E D BY M E A N S OF COERCION. H E R EXPRESSION THAT O F A MADMAN. H A PPY. WHICH SHE SOUG HT OR C R EATED IN ORD E R TO CONTI N U E HER A B U SES." ELSE CAN S H A R E I N TH E M . ON TH E CONTRA RY. THAT S H E J I B B E D AS I T WERE. ABRUPTLY AND LETS OUT A SCREAM. THE PARTS ARE HIGHLY SEVERE TREATM E NT. SHE GETS ANGRY I F A N YONE SYM PATH I S E S WITH HER S U FF E R I NGS. BY VARIOUS I NSTR U M ENTS." SHE SAID. AND TH E NIGHTS PASS WITH FR EQU E N T R E PETITIONS OF TH E USUAL ABUSE. I DON'T W A N T THE DEVIL AT T H I S MOM ENT!" ONE DAY IN THE M I DD L E OF A WALK SHE STOPS TWENTY-FOUR FE R R U G I N O U S W I N E.

IS I NC A PA B L E OF A N YT H I N G : READI NG." WHICH ONE DAY.. BEEN DISGRACE TO T H E FA M I LYI" A N D Y ALL THESE R E P L I E S : "WHY D I D YOU TEACH M E T H E N ?" U P S ET BY THIS WI LD-EYED. "SAVE M E. I COU L D DIE WITHOUT SETTLE ON WHAT H E R S E LF T U R N S I NTO A DEMONI COMM ITTING S U I C I DE. H E R L I P S N E V E R STOP TWITC H I NG." SHE A N SW E R E D. ROLLI NG H E R EYES A N D LOOKI N G U P AT THE C E I L I NG." S H E SAYS. "WHAT I DESI RE. A R E EQUALLY ODIOUS. S H E W I T H H ELL. THERE IS BUT SHE FOA M ON H E R LI PS. . S H E T R I E S N O T T O OR SOMEONE TRIES TO STOP H ER. S H E LA UGHS O U T LOU D S E A T E D ON A C H A I R." N EXT D A Y SHE HAS A F I T OF DESI RE. PUTS A STOP TO THE SC E N E BY BRINGING HER H O M E 30 . ." SHE C A N NOT CONTROL SHE WALKS H ERSELF. "I A M SO AFRAID OF THE OPERATION THE DOCTOR WITHOUT R H Y M E O R R E A SO N . LI STLESS. THOUGHT I S T O S U CC E E D. SHE WAS TOLD A BOUT THE MYTH I C A L POWERS OF FA I R I ES TO OBTA I N WHATEVER THEY DESI RE. TO A M USE HER. IT SHOULD BE N O T E D TH AT EXCESSIVE ONANISM IS I N EVITABLY F O L LOW E D BY SUCH GASPS. " W H A T C H A O S R E I G N S I N T H A T LITTLE H E A D I A T TI M E S S H E S A Y S : "YOU W I LL SAVE M E W I T H GOD'S H E LP. HAS BEEN THI NKING A GREAT DEAL A BOUT M A R R I AG E . THAT SHE THE A FT E R NOON OF T H E 1 4TH OF SEPTEM B E R X • • . FOR SOME TI M E X . G R I N D I NG H E R TEETH. LATER. H E R VOI C E GROWS HOA RSE. " I S THAT TH E R E SHOULD BE AS MANY MEN AS LA D I E S ON EA RTH SO THEY C A N PROVES THAT A FT E R A DESPERATE IS STR U G G L E . DESPITE THE PLEA D I N G S O F HER GOV E R N ESS. R E PEATI NG: " I DONT WANT TO. THE D U R I NG THE I R I N D EC E N T OUTING IN M OS T FASHION I N FRONT O F PASSERS-BY. A L READY SHE SEEMS BECO M E S GIVEN SWEET AND G ENTLE. I S GLOOMY DU R I N G TH E WALK. S H E K E E PS MOVING H E R H E A D ABOUT. H E R EXCITE M E N T M O U NTS." AND HER EYES SH I N E WITH JOY. S H E CALMS OONW A N D I S H E RS E L F BO R N . MYSELF. W I T H TH E HELP OF A SERVANT. O R BALANCING O N ONE FOOT A FT E R T H E OTH ERS. SHE I M AG I N E S THAT A PLAGUE OF THE HOUSE AND THAT SHE HORRORS . "I A M ASKING HIM TO M A K E M E DIE. I M U ST 00 ITI STOP ME. • • R E PROACH . . K E E PS UP AN AND SHE SOM ETI M E S H E R FACE IS F L U SH E D A N D S H E HAS A ROVING EYE: AT OTH E R S SHE IS PALE AND CON VERSATION. R E P L I E S AT ONCE WITH A S M I LE ON H E R LI PS: "NOT M E-I'M NO S A I NTI" THE GOV E R N ESS. HER. D U R I N G THE VISIT OF A RELATIVE A N I M ATED SINGS A SHE IS VERY PO L I T E . S H E S E E S THE T E R R I B L E H E A D WITH ITS GREEN D E V I LS EYES. I S OVERCOME B Y T H E D E S I R E T O 00 I T . HER FEATU R E S TWITC H . M A R RY. W H I C H M A K E S HER VERY HA PPYI SHE I S SURE OF BEING I N TOUCH WITH THE DEVI L AND H A V I NG M Y STE R I O U S C O N N ECTI O N S I S I N A T E R R I B LY OVER-EXCITED STATE. "00 YOU TH I N K TH E ONLY H A P P I N ESS I S I N B E I N G M A R R I ED?" H E R GOV E R N ESS A S K E D . . H E RSELF BUT RECITES THE POE M S VI SIT. AT OTH ERS. OFTEN S H E C A NNOT K E E P STI LL." S H E SAYS. " WO U L D AGA I N . . S H E CAUSES A SCANDAL. G A M E S . • L I TT L E S I STER. D U R I NG THESE BOUTS X . TIE MY F E ETI" A FEW MOMENTS LATE R SHE FALLS INTO A STATE OF PROSTRATION. OR PUTS O N A I RS. HA LLUCI NATIONS A N D M E NTAL A B E RRATIONS. T H E I N ST I N CT O F P R E S E R VATION SOMETI M E S STRONGE R T H A N T H E A LL U R E S O F VICEI S H E E X P LA I N S HOW S H E SHOULD B E T I E D SO THAT SHE C A N NOT POS S I B L Y ATTA I N HER OBJEC­ TIVE.S H E B EHAVES PROPER LY. X. S H E WALKS ABOUT R ESTLESSLY. "IF O N LY HER A I HAD N EV E R BEEN "WE SHE NOT SAYS T O HAVE • . 'TH E R E A R E M A N Y U N M A R R I E D WOM E N WHO ARE U S E F U L A N D CONTE NT. . H E R NOST R I L S F LA R E I L A T E R . THE GOV E R N E S S T R I E S TO CONTROL KICKS BACK. FOR I N STANCE." SHE FANCIES S H E I S A L R E A DY DEAD.. W H E N SPEAKING A FT E R TOU C H E S SEVERAL T I M E S. CONVERSATION. I CANT STOP M YSELF. S H E G R I M AC E S . E N T E R S A HOUSE WITHOUT B E I N G SEEN A N D DOES H A R M TO EVE RYONE IN IT. H E R O N LY DOM I N ATI NG TH R E ATENEDI A N D HOW H U M I LIATI NG TO B E FORC E D TO M E N D MY W A Y S I N STEAD OF B Y M Y O W N F R E E W I L L . BUT HER I NCONS I STENCIES ARE E N DLESS. A L L A T ONCE H E R E X P R E S S I O N BECO M E S C Y N I CAL. "I BEGGI NG I'M TO BE A N OT H E R C H A NC E . X K I LL MEl SAYS: " I F SO MEONE WOULD ONLY JOY. COM PLAI N I NG THAT GOO I S UNJ UST TO HER BEC A U S E H E H A S G I V E N HER EVE RYTH I N G TO MAKE HER H A PPY A N D NOW TAKES I T AWAY F ROM H E R. A SURE SIGN OF INCREASING TENSION. ATTEM PTS A R E M A D E I N VA I N T O I M PO S E A RESPECT FOR DECORU M . H E R E Y E S DART I N A L L D I R ECTIONS. IN THE LITTLE VI LLAGE T H E Y COM E TO. THIS TI M E I N TH E P R E S E N C E O F A STRANGER. KNOW K I LL I N G I N ST I N CTIVELY ATTRACTED B Y T H E I D E A OF T H E PLEAS U R E T O BE H A D I N SEXUAL R E LATIONS. SHE L A M ENTS THAT I T I S TOO LATE A N D THAT S H E IS LOST FO R E V E R I HER H A LL UC I N A TIONS R ETU R N . S H E D E C LA I MS. X . BALLAD. HOLD MY H A N DS. I OON'T WANT TO. PAC I N G U P A N D OOWN TH E B E D R OO M .

. . I DEC I D E D TO E X P E R I ­ M E NT F I RST ON L I TT L E Y . I T I S MOST D I STR E S S I NG T O TH I N K THAT S O YOUNG A C H I L D CAN BE S O P E RV E R S E ! S H E A D M I TT E D EVE RYTH I N G SHE H A D DON E D U R I N G M Y A B S E N C E . A R E E MPLOYED ON Y . THE PRI ESrS CASSOCKI I N TE R N A T I ON A L M EDICAL CONGRESS. BUT R EASONS L I K E A G I R L OF 1 6. . . . BOW E D TO T H E G R O U N D: BUT ALL AT ONCE A D I A BOLIC THOUGHT C ROSSES H E R WRETC H E D M I N D A N D. AFTER A LL OTH E R TREATME NTS H A D FA I LE D . W E H A V E A L R E A D Y DESC R I B E D I N DETA I L THE MEC H A N I S M O F T H I S SOU N D W H I C H C A N B E H E A R D S E V E R A L M ETERS AWAY. T H E SAME R US E S T O OUTWITH HER G U A R D I A N S. . . . A S A R E S U LT O F PROVOK E D STI M U LATION. A T S U C H TI M E S S H E I S P A L E A N D C ROSS-EYED. I S A DOPTED B Y Y . . A T M Y I N S I ST E N C E . :S SISTER A N D WHOM I HAVE A LREADY M E N TI O N E D THE WHEN R E LA T I NG SHE IS FACTS AS A F FECT E D BY THE VICE OF ON A N I S M BY B U R N I N G THE CLITO R I S WITH A HOT IRON. THE TWO C H I LD R E N WERE NOT ON MY RETURN TO CONSTANTINOPLE I HAD NO D I F F I C U LTY I N P E R S U A D I NG THE F A M I L Y TO FOLLOW THE R E CO M M E N DA T I O N P ROPOS E D BY T H E D I S­ S E PA R ATED. NOT I NTELLIGENT O R A S ATTRACTIVE A S H E R SISTER. . S H E H A S EVEN B E E N KNOWN TO W E E PI ANUS. S H E B E G S M E N O T TO BURN H E R A N D R E MOVE SMALL HER IS EVEN VERY G RA TE F U L W H E N I J A CKET. I S N O T YET SIX. TH E SAME TO R M E N T E D REMORSE. . S H E A D M I TT E D TO R U B B I NG H E R S E L F WITH HER H A N DS . W H I C H SET T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M I N MOTION A N D SPREAD TO T H E LA RGE. SHE TH E 28TH. I SUBMITTED CHILDREN THE TO HOPELESS CASE OF THE TWO AND OUR E M I N E NT COLLEAGU E ASKED H I S A D V I C E . AND A L E RT. . DR. . SC E N E THAT WHILE THE S A M E T R E A T M E NTS A D M I N I ST E R E D T O X . S H E N O LON G E R U N D E RSTA N D S W H A T I S SA I D T O H E R . SHE IS A LTHOUGH BY WELL B U I LT REDUCED. S I STER. S H E SHOWED M E WHAT S H E D I D I N B E D I N O R D E R T O GET A T H E R S E LF. FORTU N ATE ENOUGH TO M E ET DR. M A K I NG TH E M OST OF H E R I N C L I N E D POS I T I O N . T H E SA M E H A R S H M ETHODS U S E D O N X . I N FLA M E D Y E L LO W AND THE SEXUAL PA RTS ARE VERY STR A I T ARE LABIA SCORED BY P E R P E N D I C U LA R WOUNDS. I T H A S A S M U CH E FFECT O N Y . A S I T H A D O N T H E E L D E R S I STER: T H E P U B I C B A N DA G E I S EQUALLY U N S UCCESSFUL. S H E R U B S H E R PA RTS W I T H . T R E M B L I N G I N E V E RY L I M B . BATHED IN TEARS. . AS A R E S U LT. WITH ANY MONTHS. TH E SA M E L A C K OF S UC C ESSI TAKES PLACE V E N ERABLE P R I EST G I V E S H E R I N STRUCTION. . TH E LITTLE O N E COPI E D E V E R YTH I N G TH E 81G ONE D I D. THE PRI E ST TO G I V E H E R CON F E S S I O N . WITH HER F E E T. EXCESSIVE SMACKI N G SOU N D OF T H E V U LVA W H I C H S H E K E PT UP MOST OF THE NIGHT IN CONCERT WITH HER A B U S E . HE HAD SUCCEEDED IN CURING YOUNG G I R LS I W I L L CUT AS SHORT A S POS S I B L E T H E H I STORY OF LITTLE Y . "I A M A S H A M ED. V E N E R E A L DESI R E S . . CONC E R N I NG LATTE R . "TO TELL YOU A BO U T MY H O R RO R S : ' A FT E R SO M E BLOOD. . H A RDLY IS X . .R E D I N WITH OF A COLO U R . PRACTICE I N V E N T E D BY X . ASKES TRICKS W H E N S H E I S ATTACHED TO T H E B E D . . THE G E N I TA L ORGANS ARE SO P R E C OC I O U S L Y D E V E LOPED T H E R E A R E A LR E A D Y T U FTS OF H A I R ON T H E LABIA P U D E N D I A LTHOUGH Y . N OTH I N G COULD BE MORE D I ST R E S S I N G UNDER THAN OUR TH E EYES. E N E RGETIC CONTRACTIONS STARTI N G S P E EC H BECOM E S J E RKY. SWOLLEN L A B I A . DURING MY JOURNEY TO LONDON FOR I THE WAS P R A YS FERVE NTLY. HER EYES SHI NE. SEVERAL HAVE ALREADY G ETS VERY BEEN ACTIVE WOR K E D UP FOR AND HESITATI O N . S I R :' S H E S A I D. . J . THE SERVANT'S PRESENCE I N N O W A Y D I SS U A D E S HER FROM TH I S S H A M E LE S S BY BEHAVIOUR. BECAUSE OF HER STU R D Y THE 8TH O F S E PTE M B E R. G U E R I N A F FI R M E D THAT. BUT TH I S DOESN'T PREVENT H E R FROM MODELLI NG H E R C O N D UCT O N THAT O F H E R O L D E R S I STER: T H E S A M E I N D E C E N T MOVE M E N TS WHEN THEY ARE OUT. I T I S C A U S E D B Y T H E OPE N I NG A N D CLOS I N G O F T H E LA B I A P U D E N D I BUT THE MOMENT SHE G ET S THE IDEA OF HER UNDER THE I N FLUENCE OF R H YT H M I C FROM AND THE SATI SFYING HERSELF. S E A T E D THAN S H E FLINGS H E R S E L F B A C K A N D ACTS I N SUCH A W A Y AS T O PROVOKE T H E VOLUPT U O U S S E N SATION. "BUT 31 . AND EVERY TiNG U I S H E D ACA D E M I C I A N . . T O SUCH A STATE O F I M BE C I LI TY. . THE P OO R CHILD IS EXT R E M E L Y VOLU B I LE. H A N DS J OI N E D TOG ETH E R . WHO I S X . U N FORTU NATELY. H E R S A L I VA A B U N DANT. . . FOR A S H E OFTEN R E P ROAC H E S H E R SISTER F O R H A V I N G TAUGHT H E R SUCH HOR RORS. J U LES G U E R I N . TRACES O F I N J U R I ES I N FLICTED YESTER­ DAY BY A TABLE FORK! TH E ORI FICE O F T H E VAGI N A I S BRIGHT R E D . . X . I NOTE THAT T H E CONSTITUTION S H E I S W H I P P E D SO FORCI B LY T H E BUTTOCK S A R E STR I P E D BY D E E P ECCHYMOSE. FOREIGN BODY S H E COULD F I N D . A TH I C K ODOR DISCHARGE IN SPITE A R EPULSIVE P E R S I STS SEVERA L A B LUTIONS THE R E PEATED WHOSE TIMES DAY. A N D H O W S H E PROD U C E D T H E OFT E N R O U S E S D E S I R E B Y A S E R I E S O F P R E PA RA­ TORY BODY MOVE M E NTS. .IN A C A R R I A G E . C H I LD.

STOO P I N G OVER A L. E y .L.ECTU R E WIL.E.F BY SAYING IT WAS I M POSSIBL. "I SEE T H A T TH I S DISPL.F. E BUT I CAUTERISED T H E THREE M I L. IN A YESTEROAY W H E N TH E A NGEL. S I N C E T H E FI RST C A U T E R I SATION SHE H A SN'T H A D TH E S A M E DESI R E TO EXCITE H E RS E L. HER..Y G U I LTY BEC A USE. L.L. SHE T R E M B L. CRYI NG: "TH E SOU N O O F T H E BE LLS M A KES M E TH I N K OF T H E DAY O F J U D G E M E NTr' THE RED P L.ESS S I N C E THE CAUTERI SATION. BECO M E S POSS I B L. HER FACE TOOK ON AN TW I N K L I NG U NDER BECA M E H A NDS HER D I SA P P E A R E D AND Y. SOBBING.THOUGH L.. .OOK OUT FOR ANY M ETERS I N D I A M ETER H E ATED OVER A SPIRIT L. EXPL.OST I F SHE CONTI NUES T H E WAY SHE IS G O I N G I BUT I F S H E F A I L.L NOT B E N A UG H TY AGA I N AND A D M I TS TO BEING ooUBL.D H E R.Y I N S ENSITIVE BUT EXTR EM EL. L. .ITTL.F.A I N S OF H E R B U R NS. TO P U N I S H H E R FOR O I SOBEDIENCE.VES.US W A S R U N G . PHYSIOGNOM I E HER HANDS SUDDEN C H A NGE. THIS I S 32 . GOI NGS O N . TOW A R O E V E N I NG S H E C A PRICIOUS. I T BECOMES RED HOT. THE OPERATION PROVED TO HAVE HAD AN . CONTRACT A N D SQU E EZE.. TH I R D CA UTERISATION OF L. FO U G H T TH E 1 9TH. WITH A L.L.. SHOOK AS THEY A L. "IT IS DISGRACEFUL. "' SHE R E P L. . BECA USE I C A N GO FOR MORE T H A N TWENTY-FOUR HOURS WITHOUT DOING A HORROR. B U T SOUGHT TO J U STI FY HERSEL.E. AT L." I N F E R N A L.D SHOWE RS. . SHE T R I E D TO RUN AWAY. DON E QUESTION I E D. BE BURNT ON MY N EXT VISIT. SHE SAYS. TH AT YOU S H O U L. S A M E:' SISTER DOES THE THE 1 5TH . SHE ABUSES H E RSEL. "I WIL. S I R .ONE I S NOT E N OUGH TO PROOUCE ORGASM..Y P A I N F U L. IN A STA BL. S H E I S NONE THE L.ENT. HOT POI NT T H R E E TIMES TO EACH OF T H E L.AST. TOUCH I NG A L. SHE EXPRESSION OF TERROR A N D H E R E Y E S FL.E y .E. O W E D Y . I TT L.WAYS O l D W H EN SHE WAS ON THE POINT OF · P E R P E T R A T I N G ONE OF HER OF HER CRIME. E S AT T H E S I G H T OF A L. H E R LOWE R LI M BS HAVE OEOEMA AL. "'YOU D I D NOT K E E P YOUR PROMISE. L. • P U N I S H M E N TS I N F L I C T E D O N H E R BECO M E S VERY DESPONDENT. EVE RYTH I NG WAS READY FOR THE TRANSCURRENT C A U T E R I S ATI O N . BECAUSE THE CL. THEN BROKE DOWN. A DMITTED T O HAVI NG I T . THIN. SHE SWEARS SHE WIL. SU PPL. "IT F E E L.ATER.AY OF BRAZIERS FUL. S MY NICE WHEN I S E L. OF BURNI NG COA L.AMP. SHE I M M EDIATE AND S A L.EFT BEFORE SHE WAS AT IT AGA I N WORSE TH A N EVER.ARGE LA B I A ANO A N OTH E R O N THE CL. THEY A R E P R EVENTED FROM OOI NG SO..L. D HAVE TO BE TIED UP LIKE AN A N I M A L. WHAT CAN I DO?" HER E XCESSES CONTI N U E SHE AND HER TH E CA UTERI SATION. I C A U T E R I S E BUTTOCKS THE HER 1 1 TH OF SEPTE M B E R I N ORDER TO FRIGHTEN AS MUCH AS POSS I B L.ICATIONS. I S H E R U B S HER PA RTS AGA I NST T H E OECORATION ON ITS L. S H E BEGAN TO SHIVER. BURN YOU WITH THE BIG I RON N EXT TI M E AND WITHOUT PITY:' C H A N C E TO TOU C H H E RSEL. SHE W A S REMINDED OF THE SESSION WITH THE FIRE AND K E PT UNDER B EC A M E IN THE DAYS THAT F O L. O R I V E N BY THE I R R E S I STABL. I MAKE A GREAT AND LOI N S WITH TH E BIG I RON. L. BEHAVED ON THE WAL. BROMIDE OF POTAS­ O R I F I C E OF T H E VAG I N A . SHOW YOU THAT YOU MADE A M I STAKE BY K E E P I NG M I N E:' I SHOW E D H E R THE CLITORIS BIG H O T I RON." I SAID TO H E R . I E D . A FTER NOON U N OERWENT 1 5T H .OW ON I T U NTIL. BE HER.E TABL. Y I C O U L O O l E ! I K N O W I WIL. SECO N D CA UTERISATION. S E E ! N G TH E TH E 1 4TH OF SEPTEMBER.TH RUINED A N D HER RE PUTATION L.IBE RTY.L. WEAK.A I N I NG THAT HER H E A L."' I TOL.E TO RESIST THE CRAVI NG. .E A N D REWARDING.ET N E XT DAY S H E COMPL. . L. FOR BUT THE B E FO R E PROM I S E S AN HOUR I THE TEARS BY AND Y.L. E A TS IN TH E DRESS FACE. H A D B E E N GOOD EVER S I N C E K E E P S R E PEATI NG: "'I F O N L. E FFECT.UTA R Y S I ST E R. N E V E R DO I T AGA I N :' AL.Y HAD I L. L.E OESIRE T O TOUCH TH EM­ THI NGS?" I ASKED HER.L H A V E TO U N DE RGO THE S A M E TORTURE.S IN WHICH I PL.ITORIS.ONG A N D REPEATED F R I CT I O N IS R EQ U I R E D ROU N D TH E MADE OVER L. . . '''TH E P A I N IS HORRIBL.K AND VERY GOOD OF A TH E AT N IGHT. R E L.ACE AN ENORMOUS I RON I N THE FORM OF A N AXE.OODED WITH TEARS.F MUCH L. "I'L. I A PPL. L. S H E T H R U STS A PIECE OF WOOD I NTO THE VAGI N A . ON THE STATE B E C O M E S A L.ESS ON THE L. I TEL.WHO SHOWED YOU HOW TO 00 SUCH I N FAMOUS W H A T H A P P E N S W I T H BOTH SISTERS W H E N . L.ITTL. THE 1 6TH. X. S H E WAS VERY W E L.Y THE S I U M . WHO SOBS A N D VOC I F E R ATES. T H E S E M ETHOD W I L. E . BUT H A R DL. " I F YOU DO IT AGAIN.I­ STY L. C U R E M E . SUPERVISION. " A N D I'L. S T O KEEP H E R WOR D SHE W I L. COL. TO THE TOU C H .EG.EFT AT L. THE SUPERVISION OF Y • .MOST TO TH E K N E E .L. I BL. " 1 FOU N D OUT FOR MYSE L.ITORIS IS NOT ONL.F B U T STOPS A S SOON A S SHE IS THREATE N E D WITH B U R N I NG.A R M I NG: IS PALE. HOWEVER. OR A C R I M I N A L. H ER BUT. I TT L." SHE SA ID.

WAS COMPLETELY C U RED. IN SPITE OF SUCH TOGETH ER. I N THE CASE O F TH E TWO LITTLE S I STERS.SUCCESSFULLY A G A I N ST T E M PT A T I O N . A T OTH E R T I M E S S H E BECA M E D E LI R I OUS. H A V I NG IN GENERAL FULL L I B E RTY OF ACTION. I WON'T C RY. I T R Y G I V I N G H E R S E V E R A L VIOLENT A N D V E R Y PA I N F U L E LECTRIC SHOCKS O N T H E PARTS WITH C LA R K'S APPA RATUS. HOW I WANT TO DO ITI" HER M E M O R Y B E G I N S TD F A I L. SHE B EG I N S TO COUGH. SAYING: "TUR N TH E PAGE. S H E R EPEATS: "I D E S E R V E T O B E BURNT AND I WILL BE. AND THAT O F D E S L A N D E S. C A UG H T IN TH E ACT BY THE GOV E R N ESS SHE HAS A N D U N A B L E T O SATISFY H E RS E LF. BUT X MORE DROPS ALL . WITHOUT ANY MEDICAL N I G H T SHE SUCCEEDS I N R U BB I N G H E RSELF TILL T H E BLOOD COMES ON THE STRAPS THAT B I N D HER. THE 1 7TH. A N OTH E R TI M E . . X . ETC. PRETENCE O F MODESTY. T H E Y W E R E SEPA RATED. EXA M I NATION O F T H E C H EST R E V E A L S N OTHI NG. ACCORD I N G TO T H E GOVE R N ESS. ONE D U R I NG WHICH SHE YELLS: "I W A N T TO. PLAYING WITH H E R DOLL. F I N A LLY. M A DE M O I S E LLE. THE I N FL A M MATION SET UP BY CLiTORIA L A N D VAG I N A L. ONE HERSELF OUT O F TH E W I N DOW. WHOSE PATI ENT WAS A L I TT L E GIRL OF THREE. LITTLE Y . BUT TH E N S H E R E T U R N S W I T H R E N E W E D F R E N ZY TO H ER OLD HABITS. BECA M E H I G H L Y EXCITED A N D A B U S E D H E RS E L F EVEN MORE THAN SHE HAD DURING THE DAYS R E LATIVELY LITTLE COMPA R E D WITH THE THI RTY OR FORTY A B U S E S COM M ITED EACH D A Y BEFORE THE C A UTERI SATION. YESTERDAY." EXAMPLES O F O N A N I S M AT SUCH A N E A R L Y AGE A R E RA R E I N LITTLE G I R LS. . I WI LL BE BRAVE D U R I NG THE THE DETA I L S OF THE FOREGOI N G C A S E · H I STORY HAVE B E E N R E LATED IN SUCH M ETIC U LOUS DETA I L. . AMUSING HERSELF AND LA UG H I NG G A Y LY. HER U R I N E CONTA I N S NO A L B U M I N . ." FROM T E N A T N IG H T UNTI L SIX I N TH E MOR N I I NG. L A S T E D A B O U T A QUA RTER OF A N H O U R . S H E HAS H A LLUC I NATIONS ARE A L L TH E TI M E . THIS IS CONTR A R Y. TH I S M ETHOD P RO V E S U N S UC C E S S FU L . ONCE AGAIN H A S A V E R ITABLE FIT OF FOLLY D U R I NG WHICH SHE TRIES TO THROW WITH T H E R E S U LT OBTA I N ED. . • . BUT LYING ON HER BACK TO A VO I D A N Y R U B B I NG O N THE CHAI R'S E DGE. S H E C A N N O LONG E R K E E P UP WITH LESSONS. S H E I S F A R AWAY. Y . OF H E R T E R R I BLE FITS O F RAGE. BUT AN PRECOCIO U S ABUSE A N D ITS FREQUENT R EPETI· TION. FOR T H E C H I L D OBTA I N E D SATI S FACTION BY S LI P P I N G A LONG FEATHE R INSIDE THE OPERATION S H E I S P E RFECTLY GOOD. 33 . SAME TH E I R I NDECENT ACTS I N T H E P A S T D U R I NG OUTINGS: S H E TH ROWS H E RS E L F ON T H E BUSHES. NONETHELESS SHE DOES IT TWO OR TH R E E TI M ES E V E R Y TWENTY· FOU R H O U RS. T H I S YOU N G G I R L M A N AG E D TO R E S I ST UNTI L M A R R I AGE. . T H E GOVE R N ESS IS E N C HANTED M O R E AND BEFORE H A N D. KICKS HER PARTS W I TH HER H EEL. COM M E N TS THE 2 3 R D. SHE COMPLA I N S O F V A G U E PAINS IN TH E C H E ST. SHE IS KEPT ON HER F E ET. . EVEN TH E HER SUPERVI S I O N A N D D E P R I V E D OF A L L TREATMENT. AND FOR T W E NTY· FOU R HOU R S A FT E R THE SUCCESS. LEGS CLOSED A N D TIED BANDAGE I N O R D E R TO REACH TH E G E N ITA L PA RTS. THE 1 2TH OF OCTOBER TH E HORRORS BEGIN A GA I N . LITTLE Y . ETC. BECA M E A C H I L D A G A I N . ARMS COV E R E D W I TH AS OEDEMA. • . SEVEN Y E A R OLD C H I LD WHOSE H A B I TS NECESSI· TATED THE R E M E D Y OF A B E LT. FALLING SEVERAL TIMES I N TO A SWOON THAT MADE S U F F IC I E NTLY C L E A R ADDITION O F A N Y LONG COMM ENTA R I E S TO BECOM E U N N ECESSARY. IN THE COUNTRY. • :S C LITORIS. TO OBVIATE ANY F R I CTION. ACCORD I NG TO M Y I N FO R M ATION. AT TIMES SHE H A D VISUAL H ALLUCI NATIONS. W I THOUT ANY S H E S U B MITS TO T H E OPERATION WITHOUT W I N C I NG. SHE VICIOUS R U B B I NG HAS DISAPPEA R E D . I CAUTERISE T H E CLITOR I S A N D E N T R Y T O THE VAGINA. W E KNOW OF ONLY TWO CASES: THAT O F FONASSA·G R I V E S R E LATING TO A TH E 25TH I APPLY A HOT POI NT TO X . I S GOOD. AS O U R OBSERVATION D E M ONSTRATES. O N TH E BEGS T O H A V E H E R H A N DS TI E D E A C H TI M E S H E I S N O T S U R E O F H E RS E LF: ONE PUNISHED BY R E LA PS E ON I S EVEN RAW F L A G E L LA T I O N THE BUTTOCKSI OFTEN S H E I S S E E N TO M A K E A N EFFORT AT CONTROL. AS MIGHT BE EXPECTED. AS TO X . S H E HOWLS L I K E A W I LD BEAST W H E N S H E H E A R S M E COMI NG . S H E CONTI N U E S T O A B U S E H E R S E L F A S I N TH E PAST. A N D THE CASE SA L I E N T POI NTS OF T H I S I N T E R E ST I N G FOR THE OPERATION. . OR E L S E ATTACH E D TO A C H A I R. . S H E RUBBED T H E V A G I N A S O VIOLENTLY WITH A PIECE OF BRONZE S H E B L E D F R E E LY. W I L D E Y E D. F R O M TH E N O N THE TWO LITTLE PATI ENTS W E R E N O LONG E R UNDER M Y O B S E R VATION. O H HOW I WANT TOI YOU C AN'T U N D ERSTA N D. O N A N I S M WAS BOTH LITTLE Y • . WHO I S HITTING ME. . S H E H A S A T E R R I BLE ATTACK.

BEEN IT WOULD HAVE PSYC H I C D I STU RBANCE. STRUG­ THE TOTA L A M A U ROSIS. TO OVERCO M E U N H E A LTHY I M P U L S E W H I C H D ROVE H E R T O EXCITE HER ORGANS. H ITT I N G B EC A M E AS STA N C E S W H I C H THESE V I CIOUS H A B I TS W E R E TWO PRINCIPAL CAUSES E M ERGE: CONTRACTED. . ADVICE.'S C U RIOSITY H A D A LREADY BEEN AR O U S E D BY THE MAID TO U C H I N G HERSELF VIGOROUSL Y W H E N S H E B E L I E V E D THE C H I L D TO B E AS L E E P. .·S EYE-SIGHT HAD A LSO CONSI D ERABLY POINT I F E E L I T N ECES­ H A V E DON E SO BY G E N I T A L N E E D. WITH I M PU LSION TO SATI SFY T H E M I M MEDIATELY AT A L L COSTS. USUALLY FURIOUS SO AS A SWEET WILD AND DOC I L E . THE EARLY C I RC U M ­ M A N I AC A L AGITATION SO VIOLENT THAT TH E C H I LD. TH I S U N C O N T ROLLA B L E C R A V I N G PA R I S .SO R EC E I V E S P EC I F I C M ENTION. IT WAS S I M PLY BY I M ITATION. PRACTICES F R O N T O F P A S S E R S.. H E I N FO R M E D M E O F I T I N A S E A L E D LETT E R WHICH HE GAVE THE P. . . OF HER R E C OG N I S E D E S S E N TI A L CAUSE F A I L I N G S I G HT. A T THE AGE O F FOU R S H E WAS COR R U PTED BY H E R S I STER. I T WAS THAT O F A YOU N G LADY O F TWENTY­ EIGHT Y E A R S OLD W H O CONFESSED TO M E THAT SHE TOUCH E D H E R S E L F A GREAT MANY TIMES EACH DA Y. AT AN T H O S E S H E M O S T R E S PECTED THE SATISFACTION OF HER I F THEY OPPOS E D WHEN HER CRAVING EARLY AGE. NOTH I N G COULD D I SSUADE THESE POO R C H I L D R E N FROM Y I E L D I NG TO TH E I R FATA L A D D ICTION! LITTLE X. I M POS S I B L E FOR O U R YOUNG PATI E N TS TO X . A S TO LITTLE Y . TO WHOM I S E N T T H E PATI E N T WITHOUT A C QU A I NTI N G THE HIM OF HER H A B I TS. . TH E Y GAVE WAY WITHOUT IN BLUSH I NG TO TH E I R D I SG R A C E F U L OR SER­ C A U S E. T H E M O S T A S S I D UOUS S U P E R V I S I O N ONLY R E S U LTED I N D I SORDE RS. T H E R E C A N BECA USE OF THEIR YOUTH AT TH E TI M E T H E Y BE NO D O U B T THAT SHE SUFFERED FROM DEEP BEGA N T O A B U S E TH E M S E LVES. BEGGI NG TO B E TIED U P A N D PREVENTED FROM DOI N G ITI A MOMENT LATER SHE E M PLOY E D EVERY R U S E TO O U T W I T TH E V I G I LA N C E OF THOSE I N C H A RGE OF H E R . RELIGION WITH ITS T H R E ATS FREQUENT AND R E P E A T E D R U BBING. NOW. FROM THE G E N I TA L PARTS THEM­ A N D P R O M I S E S . STRA I T J A C K ET. SEDATIVES NOR DID A NOR TON I C S M ET WITH ANY SHOWERS TO AND WARM BATHS MORAL IN THE B E G I N N I NG . . B E A ST. OF CALM AND REMORSE. T H E C R U E L­ LEST P U N I S H M ENT.IF ONE SEEKS IN THE ORIGIN. T H I S Y O U N G L A D Y RENOUNCED ONAN AND A LSO RECOV E R E D PER­ FECT E YE-SIGHT. L"TER. OR ELSE PREY TO A 34 . PARTS P R E S ENCE OF H E L M I N ­ TH I S WAS FOLLOWED SOON AFTER BY A P E R I OD OF PROST R A T I O N . WITH TH E B E ST WILL I N THE WORLD S H E COULD NO MORE CONTROL H E RSELF THAN A SU F F E R E R FROM C H O L E R A C A N PREVENT C R A M PS. COA X I N G .B Y VANTS. . W H E N E V E R T H E TWO C H I L D R E N WERE OVERCOME BY A N A RD E N T DESI R E T O M A ST U R BATE T H E Y D I D NOT C A R E I N T H E LEAST ABOUT PROPRI ETY OR THOSE P R E S E NT. V I C I O U S H A B I TS O R I G I N A T E D EXCLUSIVELY I N T H E E N C E PH A LO N : ONLY LATER AS A R E S U LT OF TH E R A PY W A S E Q U A L L Y I N E F F E C T U A L. . AS A V E R I TA B L E GLED WITH N E UROSIS. THE THES AT T H E LOWER EXTR E M ITY O F TH E R ECTU M CAN. A N D BITING THE I N TESTI N A L PARASITES (AT LEAST I N TH E CASE OF THE ELDER SI STER). WAS F R E Q U E N TLY SUBJ ECT. D E S M A R R E S SENIOR.. . FOR W H I C H I TREATED SEXUAL HER. WAS MOST PROFO U N D D E P R E S S I O N . I F TO TH I S WE A D D THE H A L L UC I N A ITONS W O W H I C H X . TH E STI M U L U S FOR THESE B R I NG ABOUT RETURN N O R M A L.. BONDS.. . . STRAPS. AND I N ITI ATION. H A V I N G FOLLOWED O U R A DVICE. T H E R A PE UTIC M ETHODS E M PLOYED I N T H E CASE OF THE LITTLE G I R LS : M E D I C A M ENTS HAD NO E FFECT. . BY THE I R R E S I ST A B L E I R R ITATION TH E Y EXTINCTION O F A L L M O R A L S E N S E SHOULD A L. H A D WORMS. I TH I N K WE M A Y C O N S I D E R THIS I R R ES I ST­ ABLE DESIRE. OR A N HYSTE R I C A L WOM A N A VERT A N ONCOM I N G ATTACK. I N COM PANY WITH OTH E R C H I LD R E N . TRIED TO GET THE BETTER OF I WILL SAY J U ST A WORD CONCERNING THE H E R S E LF. S U F F E R E D FROM E I TH E R SHE M U LTIPLE N E RVOUS SUBJECT TO THE PUBIC B E LT. MANY TIMES X. WHICH L E D TO A PROGRESSIVE AND A LMOST W H I C H TOOK POSSESSION OF THE CH I LD R E N . BUT X . ALL HER VERY MIGHT OFTEN X. LITTLE X . I N TI M I D A T I O N . LEAD TO TH E M A N U A L EXCITATION OF THE PA RTS. OR TO A LL E V I ATE BOREDOM WHEN L E FT U N O C C U P I E D. IT WAS ONLY A FT E R CONSTA NT D E T E R I ORATED."TI ENT. O N TH I S S A R Y TO REFER TO A S I M I LA R C A S E W H I C H C A M E UNDER MY OBSERVATION WHEN I PRACTISED IN RE PETITION OF S U C H CONTACTS THAT A N AWAKEN­ ING OF THE S E X U A L I N ST I N CTS TOOK PLACE. C A R E S S E S . N E I TH E R S U C C ESS.. THE STI M U LUS ORIGI NATING SE LVES. AND BOTH THE THE RASH ON THE E XC I T E M E NT WAS AT ITS H E IGHT.

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C A UTERISED U N DERWENT ONE CAUTERISATION. THAT IN CASES S I M I L.ITOR I S A N D CAUTE RISATION S A T I S FACTO R Y BY HOT IRON ALONE THE GAVE F I RST VUL. A FT E R OPERATION.EAS U R E . THAT TOU C H I NG M A Y P ROVE P A I N F U L RATH E R THAN A SOU RCE OF PL. THAT SHE PERSI STS IN HER A B U S E . LITTLE Y • .VAL.ATED BY CATH ERINE DUNCAN D E M ETRIUS ZAMBACO C H I L D R E N . H A V I NG BECOME LESS EXCITABLE. IN ORDER TO IN COMBAT C LI TO R A L V A G I N A L. ACCOR D I N G TO THE I N FORMA· TION I R E C E I VED. THE CL. T H A N K S TO T H I S IN ALL.A R TO THOSE S U B M I TT E D TO YOU R CONSIDE RATION. A N D T H E I M PRESSION M A D E O N TH E C H I L. R E S U LT S . T H E R E IS NO REASON TO CONCLUDE THEN. EFFECTS OF TRANSC U RRENT CAUTERISATION. T H E T E R RO R PROVOKED BY THE S I G H T O F THE I N STRU M E NTS.ITTLE G I R LS. OR THAT TH E M ETHOD I S I N E FFECTI VE. WHICH CAN B E COM PLETELY DESTROYED IF THE OPERATION IS R E PEATED A C E RTA I N SHOULD NOT H ESITATE TO RESORT TO THE HOT I RO N . M ETHOD.. ARE 36 . ONE IT I S R EASONABLE TO I N FE R THAT CAUTERI SATON BY HOT I RON D I M I N I SHES THE SENSITIVITY OF THE C L I TORIS. FOU R T I M ES. X.Y AND HOUR.D R E N·S I MA G I N ATION BY T H E RED H O T I RO N M UST A L.Y PROBABL. FROM FORTY T O FI FTY TIMES A DAY. AND AT AN E A R L. A LSO LESS PRONE TO TOUCH THEMSELVES. WAS ON LY W A S COMPELTELY C U R ED. THE SECOND POINT OF G E N ITAL S E N S I TI V I TY CONSTI TUTED BY THE VULVAL ORIFICE HAVING ALSO BEEN DEADENED BY THE CAUTERI­ SATI O N .SO B E C O U N T E D A M O N G THE B E N E F I C I A L.TH E I N VENTION OF NEW EXPEDI ENTS INSPIRED BY RUSE AND SU BTLETY. THE N U M B E R OF VOLUPTUOUS SPASMS WAS REDUCED TO THREE OR FOUR.E THAT. S H E F I N A LLY. IT I S EQU ALL. IT IS EASY TO CONCEI VE T H AT T H E TRANSL. O R I F I C E H A V I N G BECOME M O R E O R L. N U M B E R OF T I M E S .. WE BELIEVE TH E N . A FTER WHICH I LOST SIGHT OF H E R ENTI RELY. .ESS I N FLA M E D AS A R E S U LT OF THE OPE RATION. O N A N I S M L.

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THAT HAVE H A P P E N E D AND STILL COULD HAPPEN TO M E I N ALL L I K E LI H OOD: A NTOI N E WOU LD KNOW A BOUT IT AT ONCE A N D N E V E R S L E E P AGA I N . NO O N E NOTICED. I HAD T I M E TO KILL B E FO R E R E TU R N I N G TO THE PALAIS B O U R BO N . AFTER M Y M A N I C U RE. A N D.ROBE RTE'S D I A R Y MAY {CONTI NUEDl 1 954 . THAT H E SHOULD H AVE TH E I NCONC EIV­ ABLE A R R OG A N C E TO I MAGINE H IMSELF THE E X PE R I E NC E A VIOLENT F E E L I NG OF S H A M E J UST B EC A U S E SHE I S R E S PECTA BLE? ITS A POI N T O F V I EW: FOR A L O N G TI M E OCTAVE H A S M A D E I T H I S PA BULUM. . I W A N T E D TO M A K E T H E MOST OF SUCH A W A R M A N D WON D E R F U L LY S U N N Y A FTERNOON. LIKE T H E LAST TIME. T H I S M O R N I N G AT T H E C O M M I S S I O N I WAS D I S T R A I T B E ­ C A U S E OF T H A T . NOT HAVING H A PPENED TO M E A N D K E E P S COM I N G BACK TO ME. FOR M E SUCH A RESEARC H I S U N R E A L. BUT E V E N S O A RR A N G E D A N Y A PPOI NTM E NTS I N THE M EA NTI M E . J U STI N WHO WAS WAITING FOR ME AT TH E W H E E L OF O U R BUICK ( W H I C H TOOK COULD BE PLACE U N K NOWN T O H I M) : NOTH I N G MORE V U LG A R . . NOT EVEN A BATH WAS A N Y H E LP. I J U M PE D O N 38 . . I'LL N E V E R TELL H I M T H E T H I NGS R ETROSPECT S I N C E I C A N S E E HOW ATTRACTIVE I M U ST H A V E B E E N TO THOSE TWO I N DI V I D UALS . BUT NOWA DAYS I C A N'T R E S I ST TELLING MYSELF THE STORY OF TH I S OR THAT I N C I D E N T P LE A S U R E IN MY D I SG R A C E AS THOSE WHO I N FLICTED I T ON M E . R U E SCR I B E . I MEAN THOSE DUE TO OCTAVE. IS IT POSS I B L E THAT A WOM A N SEEKS TO I L E A V E OCTAVE T O H I S RATIOCINATIONS A N D H I S PRAYERS. . . NO DOUBT: O R AM I I NC I TED BY M Y R E SPECTA B I L I TY TO M A K E IT? I R E M E M B E R THAT I WAS A S H A M E D: WAS M Y VOLUPTU A R Y A N Y T H E L E S S FOR THAT? A N D NOW MY SHAME IS EVEN LESS R E PUGNANT TO ME IN A UTHOR O F M Y I M PROP R I E T I E S I S O N E TH I NG-BUT A S TO CONSI D E R I N G H I MS E L F AT THE ORIGIN OF MY T E M P E R A M E N T . . A N D THOUGH HE GOES TO SO MUCH TROUB L E SU PPOS I N G WHAT H A P P E N S TO ME AND WHAT H E'D LIKE TO SEE M E S U B M ITTED TO. A N D I TA K E (AS I D I D E A R L I E R ) AS M U C H ONCE I WOU L D N E V E R H A V E D R E A M E D OF GOING BACK OVER S U C H THI NGS. THE POOR DEAR HAS NO I D E A WHAT I A M CAPABLE O F WH ITHOUT H I M . BUT S I NC E THAT COU L D N'T G E T I T TO START. TH E BR EAKDOWN D I DN'T WOR R Y M E. DOES T H A T M E A N THEY H A V E SOME I M PORTA N C E B EC A U S E OF I T ? SHOULD TH E S A M E T H I N G H A PP E N AGA I N. I N A L L HON ESTY I M UST A D M I T I W O U L D NOT R E S I ST. I ' L L TRY TO TAKE REFUGE I N WORDS SO AS NOT TO H A V E TO TH I N K A BOUT IT D U R I NG THE DAY.

EXTENDING IT TO M Y WHOLE BODY W H I C H H E W A S CONSCIOUS OF. . ST U D Y I N G THE MOV E M E N T O F MY H I PS. THE CLEA N-SHAV E N . I H A D ATTRACTED HIM. T H E SECON D M A N STA N DS A S I D E A N D L E A V E S TH E I N N E R D O O R A J A R . T H E N .F R O S T E D P A N E A N YT H I N G U N U S U A L THAT M IG H T H A P P E N IN TH E E M PTY SHOP. M Y H A N D S A R E T R E M B L I N G N O DOUBT AND THE WAITER ASKS M E AT ONCE IF I'M ALL R I GHT. . A R M R A I S E D . A L MOST DAZED. WHEN A SUGGESTIVE PRESSURE FORCED ME TO LEGS APART P E R H A PS. H I S H A N D ON T H E K NOB. B U T H E . . H A N D LYING ON THE BALUSTRADE. THE FAT. .TH E PLATFO R M OF TH E F I R S T BUS. PASSAGE A S SOON A S I TRY TO LEAVE. I RETURN TO THE TERRACE AND RECA PITULATE. WALKED I NTO T H E PALA I S-ROYA L. P E R F E C T T Y P E OF POL I C E GALLERY D E BEAUJOLA I S . I LOOK F I N E. H A V I NG TH E EPI D E R M US OF M Y F I N G E RS. FACE? H A V I NG THEN FOLLOW I N G CLOSE E NOUGH O N M Y H E ELS TO WATCH ME STROLL AHEAD OF HIM U N D E R THE "CONTACTED" M U ST H A V E L E S S TH A N A N HOU R LATE R I F I N D M Y S E L F SITTING O U TS I D E TH E REGENCY C A FE . R I S E A N D GO TO THE WASH ROOM. BUT AT TH I S S A M E MOMENT T H E I N D I V I D U A L W A L K S PAST M E . . THAT FATAL DOOR AJAR ON THE S H A DOWY FLOOR E M PTY S EAT. I PUSH OPEN A G L A S S DOOR. O R W E R E T H E Y S U F F I C I E NT L Y C O N T R A D I CT O R Y T O PROVO K E SORRY TH E E M OT I O N ONCE T H A T C O N TO R T E D GOT OFF THE HIS BUS. I ROSE AND GOT OUT AT TH E TH EA T R E F R A N C A I S . I N FACT. I S M I LE. M I STA K I N G THE SHOP­ THIS ONE I S U N D E RGOING T R A N S FO R MATION-THE I N D I V I D U A L FOLLOWS M E IN. WHAT A RAPID AND AT THE HAVE SAME TI M E D E TA I L E D INSIDE HIS SCEN A R I O M U ST U N WO U N D SKULL . AT LIPS A S LEAST MY I HIS REGARD BEC A M E MORE C H A NGE PLACES A N D S I T I N S I D E " . NO ONE G I V E S I T A THOUGHT. TH ROUGH A DOOR A T T H E REAR. MY TEM PLES A RCADES OF TH E PALAIS. WHERE C A N T H E N E W BLOUSE SHOP B E THAT GI LBE RTE T O L D M E A BOUT? F I N A LLY I PASS U N D E R THE V A U LT O F THE G A L L E R Y D E BEAUJO­ LAIS: IT M U ST BE T H E R E. A N D SO ON UNTIL REACHING TH E V A U LT OF THE K I N D O F L A R G E COLOSSUS. . I HAD GONE INSIDE AND CHOSEN AN SQUAT M A N LOO M E D U P TH ROUGH T H E R E A R DOOR. B EG I N N I N G WITH THAT FURTIVE BUT I R R E S I STA BLE P R E S S U R E . . AS HE DI DN'T STOP LOOKI N G A T M E. H A V I N G S A T DOWN OPPOSITE. THAT THE STOOD ON T H E PLATFORM OF T H E B U S . PASSI N G THROUGH THE ENTRY OF THE P A L A I S. H E H A D FOUND I T N EC E S S A R Y TO TOUCH MY FINGERS AND AFTER PI M P. OF MEDIUM H E I GHT. F I N A LLY BOU ND HAND AND FOOT. I T R I E D TO M A K E A DASH FOR IT. O R H A D T H E R E B E E N NOTH I N G A L L T H E WAY BUT T H E SOLE I MA G E OF T H O S E P A R A L L E L BARS A N D THE F E A R T H E Y M I GHT R E M A I N FIXED I N VAIN U NTI L T H E E N D OF T H E D A Y ? W H E N H E FOU N D H I MSELF A FTERWARDS O N H I S K N E E S I N FRONT OF ME. A N D I R E M E M B E R. POW E R LESS. FOOTSTEPS C LO S E R : OF DECIDED TO G ET OUT. . MY POSS I B L E POSITIONS IN T H E I M P E N D I NG SITU ATION WHICH HE KNEW WAS U N PRECEDE NTED FOR ME. A T T H I S POI N T LET M E TRY TO I MA G I N E EACH STAGE O F T H E I N D I V I D U A L'S ITI N ER A RY. A L L T H E S A M E I WAS WEA R I NG T H E ROSETTE O F THE LEGION O F HONO U R I N THE B UTTONHOLE O F MY S U I T. W H A T.ROYAL. I N D I V I D U A L. ALTHOUGH IT I S QUITE POSSI B L E FOR PEOPLE PASSING O R STOPPING I N F RO N T OF THE BOOK. DO I H A V E AGAI NST T H E M ? I F T H E Y G O T A P I TI F U L P L E A S U R E . THE C O LOS S U S . FOR ME. U N D E R T H E A RCADES A L MOST LI K E DESERTED ECHO AT THAT MY HOUR. M Y BACK AGAI NST THE R A I L. I SET OFF DOWN THE I M M EDIATELY CROSSED M Y FOLDED H A N DS. TO T H E R I G H T. THE GLASS DOOR. THE HIS BACK AGAI NST BARS MY COLOSS U S U N K NOWN WOM A N W I TH T H E ROSETTE. BOTH H A N D S LYING ON T H E LEATH ER. A WAS BEING FOLLOWED. TO THAT MOMENT WHEN TH E ONLY T H I N G HE COULD DO WAS TO COR N E R ME I N T H E EM PTY SHOP. I T W A S W H I LE. STA I RCASE! PERCEIVING A N E X I T T O THE ABOVE G I V I N G ON TO THE RUE D E B E A UJOLA I S NO DOU BT. FRANCA I S. H E WAS CON S I D E R I N G M Y H A N D O N T H E KNOB W H I C H HE PREVENTED ME FROM OPE N I NG. T H E T W O E X C H A N G E A CON N I V I NG LOOK. A N D A S M I LE O N M Y LI PS FEELING THE WARM B R E EZ E THROUGH THE LOW E R E D W I N DOW. I PULLED OFF TH E ROSETTE A N D HID IT I N MY BAG. D I D I CONTI N U E TO S M I L E WITH HALF-OPEN I NT E N T? LEGS. I T WA S THEN I G A L L E R Y D E MONTPE N S I E R . D I D THEY C O I NC I D E T O T H E POI NT OF S U BSTITUTION. I NCONC E I VABLE A N D TH E R E FO R E A L L TH E MORE I M PERIOUS FOR HIM . NOW TH E P L E A S U R E B E G I N S . I WAS SEATED. TOOK M Y FI NGERS.S H O P OPPOSITE T O SEE THAT TH E R E COULD B E NO STO P P I N G FOR HIM UNTIL THE DESCENT I N TO THE B A S E M E NT. A N D LEANT OUT WATC H I NG IN A K I N D O F D R E A M THE SHOPS GO BY. A N OT H E R MAN A PPEA RS. HE POU N D I NG. WHEN I HAD BEEN E LABORATING T H A T SEN SATION. CONSIDER MYSELF I N THE M I R ROR: N O N E E D TO PUT ON N E W M A KE-UP. T H E OTH E R O F T H E S A M E WOMAN S U S P E N D E D A N D TIED. CASUA LLY I C RO S S E D THE SQUA R E OF THE T H EAT R E THE OF OWN FO R DREW A SOM ETH I N G QUITE I USUAL M EMBER PA R L I A M ENT. DID TH E TWO I M AG E S : ONE OF THE BEAUTIFUL THROUGH THE H A L F . BEGAN SC RUTI N I Z I N G ME IN AN I NSOL E N T FASHION. STOPS T W O O R T H R E E S H O P W I N DOWS AWAY EACH TIME I G LA N C E AT O N E O R OTH E R O F THE D I S P LAYS. S Q U A T I N S H I RT S L EEVES. WHO WAS T A L K I NG T O TH E COND UCTOR AT F I R ST. BUT THE 39 .

. H A N DS LEVEL POCKET-FA I R P U SH I NG O P E N THE H E AVY STEE L DOOR G I V I N G ON TO A N EON-LIGHTED ROOM W I T H GLEA M I NG W A L LS. T I E D BY THE W R I STS. AS I C LOS E MY F I ST. A SILENCE M A D E OF M Y O W N M U T I S M I N ACCORDANCE WITH T H E TWO M E N . H I TT I N G MYSELF I N FRONT O F THOSE WHAT A R E L I E F IT I S LETTING BESIDE MYSELF WITH T H E COLOSSUS I N T H E FAC E W I T H MY B A G . LI FTS M E . HE R I PS OFF MY SKIRT HIS AGAIN. "PUT O U T T H E LIGHTS T H E N. H E T U R N S AWAY W H I L E I READJUST M Y S K I RT. THE N A I LS P E R F ECT AND USE­ IN MY RETURNS W I T H OUT AFTER HIS P OC K E T S A N OT H E R AND. . SWEATI NG. BETW E E N S U S P E N D E R BELT A N D FLESH. AT LAST THIS TONGU E SETTLES TH E R E AND B EG I N S ITS TITI LLATIONS MORE A N D MORE RAPIDLY.SQUA T M A N WAS WAITI NG FOR ME ON THE STA I RS. H I S S H I RT I S I M PECCABLY WHITE A N D HIS H A NDS. STI LL B E L I E V I N G I T POSSI B L E T O ESCAPE. A LO N E . WHAT ELSE COULD A WOM A N DO IN SUCH A SITUATION? • • . AS THE V E N T I LATOR B E G A N TO C R E W. I ABANDON . . DISTURB TH E WHOLE B U I LDING-IN BUST O R R E MOVING T H E C O A T OF MY G R E Y SU IT. WHICH HE NOW TAKES O U T OF HIS ENORMOUS OF POC K ETS T O U NT I E M E . D U R I NG WHICH TIME THE SQUAT MAN E X H I BITS A CARD OSTENTATIOUSLY AND SLIPS IT I NTO M Y BAG. . • . I OPEN TH E MY EYES. RUN MY H A N DS OVER THOSE PARALLEL BARS THEN. LESS . THE COLOSSUS H A S COLLAPSED. . TIED FOR U P. A N D I AM A L MO S T GLAD TO SEE IN THE SECOND MAN BOY. .U P. T U R N DOWN AGA I N AND-TWO STEPS FROM THE BACK­ HIDE THE I R RESISTABLE E FFECTS ON MY THIGH. W H A T NONSENSE! BUT TO RETURN O N E OF T H E S E DAYS TO THAT PLACE. WITH A G ESTU R E . I NT E L L I G E N T E X P R ESSION. SOON I CAN CONTROL MYSELF NO LON G E R . . . . O F F E R I N G ME A G LASS OF BRANDY. H I S ARM GOES ROU N D M Y L E G S . WITHOUT SHOW I N G A N Y I NTEREST O B V I O U S LY . B U T I SLAPPED HIM." WOMEN LIKE M E W H O A R E NOW AT T H E CONTROLS OF T H E NATION. MAN TAKES HIM HIM U N D E R TH E S HOUL­ AWAY. THE WHOLE M OV E M E NT SO U N E X PECTED AND SQUAT AND THAN DERS MOR E DRAGS A STAGG E R I N G I P R E C I P I TATE I H A V E TO SAVE M YSELF B Y H A N G I N G ON TO T H E N A P E OF H I S N E C K W I T H BOTH H A N DS­ A N D T H E N T H E D I ZZY DESC E N T WITH ME BY T H E M I N U TE STAY T H E R E . THEN." I SAY IN A VOIC E NO LONG E R M Y OWN. SNATCH T H E M AWAY. I SAW H I M CROUCH. T H E SOU N D O F A D U L L TH U D AT M Y FEET. UNDER THE WHIRR OF T H E FANS ON THE C E I L I NG. A S IF O U R B R E A TH I NG R E PLAC ED ANY WORDS WE COULD EXCHANGE H E R E. A G A I NST THE BA R. A BRACELET O N T H E L E FT WRIST. EYES CLOSED. H A I R. . M Y S K I RT I S U N HOOKED A N D T H E REST TAK E N O F F . W E L L K E PT. C E RTA I N LY T H E LEAST PLEASANT MOMENT IN W H A T I C A NNOT EVEN CA LL A NIGHTMARE. STI L L DETE R M I N ED T O DEFEND MYSELF. • MY FINGER-PRI NTS? A PPROACH E S H I S MOUTH TO O N E OF M Y TIED H A N DS A N D. T H E SIGHT OF THOSE PA R A L L E L BARS EQU I P P E D WITH LEATH E R STRA PS . A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E INSIN UATE HI MSELF U NDER MY S K I RT IN TWO U N K NOWN MEN MYSELF GO AT L A ST. MY CLAMMY H A N DS E X H A L E THE P E R F U M E OF T H E I R C R E A M I N TH E S T U F F Y A I R D E S P I T E THE V E N T I L A TO R S . . SCREAM. C A L L FOR AN WHICH I NVESTIGATION? BECA USE O F T H I S C A R D R E P R OD U C E S .C U T EYES. SPI R A L STA I R C A S E T O T H E BASEM ENT. T H E COLOSS U S AS A RE R E M A I N SO-WE C A N O N LY R E M A I N S I L E NT. TO TH I N K THAT A MOMENT AGO I WAS STROLLING L E I S U R E LY BETWE E N TH E OPERA A N D T H E TH EA T R E F R A NC A I S W H I L E H E R E THOSE BARS W E R E WAITI N G FOR M E l SO TH A T NOW. A N D I . I TURN MY H E A D AWAY . BRI NGS HIS H A N D DOWN ON MY FINGERS A S T H E Y G R I P T H E B A L U S T R A D E . THATS A NOTHE R MATTER. TH ROWS M E OVER H I S SHOU LDER. GRABBING A H A N DFUL O F THIGH. WHIRR ON TH E C E I LING. THE FLOOR SHONE FANS WITH A L I NO L E U M A N D. I CAN STI L L K I C K: MY A N KLES ARE SPREAD AND S U C H A B U S Y QUA RTER-BUT WOM E N L I K E M E WHO WERE ON THE "CHA RITY FRONT. . OC C U P I E D . THAT PARTI C U L A R OCCASION OF F E E L I N G R E A LLY M Y S E L F FROM THE M O M E N T W H E N I E M BA R K E D ON T H E A DV E N T U R E I N T H E B U S UNTI L T H A T OTH E R MOMENT I N THE BASEMENT WHEN I OUT HIS TONG U E W H I C H MOVES BACKWA RDS A N D FOR W A R D S IN A M I S E R A B L E A TTE M PT A N D ONLY SLOWLY SUCC E E D S I N TOUCH I NG MY OPEN PALM. GOES TO FIND M Y BAG AND RETU R N S TO G I V E IT TO M E. SLOWLY. H A V I N G TA K E N L E A N I NG B R E A TH . OR S L U M P RATH E R . . SLAP: I FLINCHI NG. THAT OCCASION IS STI L L N E IT H E R MORE NOR LESS THAN TH E BOW OF M Y R E F L ECTION DRAWN OVER THIS 40 . HE U N FO L D S AND R E T U R N T O T H E "SO U RCE"? H A R DLY WORK ENOUGH FOR THE RUE DE SAUSSAIES TO KEEP THAT ST R A IGHTE N S M Y F I N G E R S. ROOM OF TH E SHOP-THE MOME NT COMES W H E N . PASSES TH E M BETW E E N HIS LIPS A N D D ELICATELY SAVOURS EACH N A I L. . IN V A I N I A TT E M PT TO LIFE MY K N E E TO FOU N D M Y S E LF S U S P E N D E D A N D AROUSED. THE OTH E R MAN WHO HAD PRECEDED HIM WAS A L R E A DY RETURN. P L E A S U R E U N D E R T H E I R EYES I N THAT I M POSSIBLE POSITION. RECEIVES W H I C H TH E R E I S NO STOPPING M E T I LL H A V E NO STRENGTH L E FT . BUT TH E LIGHT STAYS ON A N D . WH E R E T H E Y H A D B E E N S O F I R M LY T I E D . REELING HE AND PUTS I NC A PA B L E C. H A N DS PUTS TO HIS FOOT ON IT. SO AROUND"-SO LONG AS WE ATTACH E D TO T H E EXTRE M I TI E S OF T H E V E RTICAL B A R S A N D ALL THAT I N S I L E NC E. . TH E R E IN THE M I DDLE OF A PHYSICAL C U LT U R E S E T. WOM E N LONG LIKE WE ME WHO H A V E "BEEN B E A UTIFUL.

FRONT OF PALA I S BOU R BON (HOUSE OF PARLI AMENTI. THE C H A U FF E U R . 3. WATCH ON ROBE RTE'S W R I ST. S EQUENCE OF TH E PARALLEL BARS (SHOT LIST BY P I E R R E KLOSSOWSKI MADE ROUND 1 966 FOR AN I M AG I N A R Y FILM) 1. TH E CAR IN PAN SHOT FROM ROBERTE. CROSSROADS R U E SCR I B E-OPERA. 2. JUSTI N. WHAT A DELICIOUS CROISSANTI HOW SOOT H I N G THE PLAY OF THE F O U N TA I N S P I E R RE KLOSSOWS K I TRANSLATION BY CATHERI N E D U N C A N UNDER TH E P LA N E TREESI HOW EXQ U I S ITE THE CITY AS IT GLIDES BYI TAKEN F R O M THE REVOCATION OF T H E EDICT OF NAN TES. 6. GETS OUT. ROBERTE GETS OUT SLOWLY IN H E R TURN. 41 . 4. LIFTS THE BON N ET.LAZY AFTERNOON. LONG SHOT. 5.

THE P R IEST SIX HID ON THE BELL OF THE S C U LPTED STA T U E I N T H E I M A G E O F TH I S D I V I N ITY (WITH WHICH HE H A D N E V E R PA RTED) I NTO TH E SEA DURING A T E M PEST. T H E A S H I . T O T H E P L A C E O F T H E T R A D I TI O N A L S H RI M P .R A i . N I N E . AN MONASTERY. NOT A B L Y A N E N G R A V I N G OF KOU N I ­ YOS H I .LO N G S H O U L D E R S . K E N-SU SOM ETI M E S C A R R I E S I T O N H I S S H O U L D E R S .DO. ARMS. H E L PF U L. W H O SOU G H T T H E I M M O D EST A D V A N C E S OF T H E M O N K A N -C H I . E N G R A V I NG O F HOKOUSAi. I S N O LESS I N DI C A T I V E AS A C H A RACTE R I ST I C TRAIT OF ITS B E N E F I C I A L. O N E H U N D R E D M E N C O U L D N O T L I FT IT. W H I C H S E R V E D A S A C A S E FOR TH E R ELIC. W H I C H B R I N G S T O M I N D H I S S O L E N O U R I S H M E NT. A LITTLE LIKE THE PRINCE OF THE G R E E KS.S H I IN T H E WOODS.T H E OCTO P U S I N J A P A N THE OCTO P U S AT IS U S U A LLY CONS I D E R E D T O B E PROTECTOR O N T H E OTH E R H A N D.N AGA ARE WITH LEGENDARY ITS M E N WHO C A RRY T H E TE. FIGU R E D ASCETIC OCTOPUS LOV I N G L Y E M B R A C I N G T H E B E L L W I T H ITS SIN UOUS TENTACLES. IT F E L L A N D THUS I M PR I S O N E D THE S A I NTLY MAN. I T S S E N S U A LITY. PLAYS O N T H E 42 . T H E Y TH E M S E L V E S H A V E LEGS S E V E N METERS LONG.M ET E R . LIKE A NOTH E R GIANT M ESSENGERS OCTO P U S ON RYU-J I N H E A D. AND E N J OY I NG T H E COM P A N Y O F MONASTICS. ON TH E I R TH I S CONSTANT L I A I SO N WITH SA LAC IOUSNESS M A N Y WORKS. J I . B U D D H A THE H E A L E R OF SOULS AND THE GOD OF WISDOM. OF HIS ONE OF IS THE THE PRINCIPLE WITH AN AND S E R P E N T' S BODY. T H E O R D E R O F TH E YA K U. IT WAS SAVED.H I M E TR I ED T O B R E A K T H E M ET A L W I T H H I S M A G I C W A N D AND MAKE I T M E LT B Y E X H A L I N G ON I T W I T H HIS F L A M I NG B R E A T H . K I YO. LATER. THREW A SMALL N A T U R E .NAGA.H I M E.K A K U DAi-SHI T H E N B U I LT A T E M P L E AT M EG U RO. C L E A R L Y TH I S IS V E R I F I E D IN T H E L E G E N D O F TH E B E A U TI F U L A N D L I C E N T I O U S K I Y O. PROVI D E A N E L E G A N T I L L U STRATION OF A SIGNI FICANT CHANGE. I N V A I N .S H I NYO. TH E S E N S U A L I T Y OF T H E C R E A T U R E A P P E A R S I N THE MOST EXPLICIT MANNER WHICH IN A FAMOUS TENTACLES ARE W R APPED. W H E R E H E E R ECTED A L A RG E STATU E OF Y A K U . TH I N KS OF TH E OCTO P U S A S F R I ENDLY. AROUN D ALWAYS WHICH THE OCTO P U S ' ONE THUS E X P L A I N S W I T H O U T DOU BT T H E EQU I V A L E NT ROLE W H I C H T H E OCTO P U S S E E M S TO PLAY I N B U D DH I S M . I T WAS C H A NGED I N TO A SORC E R E R W I T H A H U M A N H E A D A N D A D R A GON'S IN THE SAME WAY. F E E T H I G H A N D SO H EA V Y T H A T OCTO P U S C A R R I E D I T TO J A P A N A N D SET I T DOWN ON THE COAST O F H I R A .

USES TO CONVEY THE I D E A OF TH E S E S E X U A L Y E T EXTRAOR D I N A R I L Y ASCETIC RELATIONS. S E E M TO D E ST I N T H E S E IN FACT. W H O A C C E PTS I T A N D C A R R I E S IT A W A Y WITH H E R . S U C H EXCRESC E N C E S S E V E R E D I N T H I S STATE A N D PRESERVED I N J A RS I N T H E M U S E U M O F N A TU R A L H I STORY I N P A R I S . SHE MAKES H E RS E L F EACH OTH E R .M O L L U S K'S CA PACITI E S FO R E M B RA C I N G AND FROM OBSERVATION: A L MOST E XC L U S I V E LY. OR TO BE O R T R U N K WITH TH E S U R FE I T OF THEY PRESS MOUTH AGA I NST MOUTH. HOKOUSAI THI NGS H A PP E N OTH E RWISE. IN ANTIQU I TY. C A R ES S E S A M ORO U S R E LA T I O N S O F T H E OCTO P U S ENTW I N E S . T H E C LOS E N E S S AND I N T I M A TE. S H A R E S T H E I D E N T I TY WITH W H I C H I T I S I NVESTED BY THE E AST. OCTOPUS ARE IN N O SENSE C O N C L U S I O N S DRAWN 43 . A K I N O OF ELONGATED WORM E M E R G E S WITH A FILAMENT THE AT THE END: TH I S IS THE THE EXPRESSION PLEASU R E . THE ARE SUCTION. A R M AGA I N ST ARM. TO M A N . S H E PA LLIAL PLACES A IT H E R S E L F W I TH I N H E R SITUATED BETW E E N CAVITY. ONE LEADI NG. R ESTR A I N E D B Y VICTOR I A N DECO R U M . T H E Y C A N H A R D L Y B E PERC E I V E D A S ANYTH I NG B UT D I S M A L. THERE. S H E LIGHTS AND U P." IS I N C O N S I STENT W I T H CONVOLUTED AND AWKWAR D HORROR I S S U RELY E L I C I T E D B Y T H E S PECTACLE! YET TH E A RTI ST'S I N S I ST E N C E IS V I S I B L Y TO G I V E THE I M PRESSION OF ECSTASY PROC U R E D BY A T H E O B SC U R E L Y STATE M E NTS THAT THE A UTHOR. LEE STA T E S . E XC E E D I N G L Y C H A STE. 0 0 N O T EVEN L OO K A T FEMALE RADI ATES PHO RESCENT G LOW A T T H E M O M E N T O F I N I TIATION: "SHE A W AITS U NION. I T IS CLEAR THAT IN THE M ATTER OF LASC I VIOUSNESS. T H E OCTOPU S ETCH E D BY THE ASIATIC B E LONGS TO T H E S P EC I E S D E SC RI B E D BY T H E M E D I T E R RA N E A N OPPI E N . S H E GLOWS . OPPI E N . THE A R M S CLOSE U PON THE BODY O F T H E B E LO V E D IN A L A SC I V IO U S WEB. IN FACT. . AT T H E BACK OF W H I C H THE G E N I TA L ORIFICES O P E N U P. T H E D I STANCE WHICH S E P A RATES T H E PARTNERS IS FORGOTTEN V ICTOR HAS THAT LOATH SOM E R E LA T I O N S . A C C O R D I N G TO LATE R OBSE RVATI O N S . EDMON D D E GONCOURT HAS S U C C E SS F U L LY OF THE C A PT U R E D WOMAN TO IN THE A E C STATIC SWOON A OF SWELLS AT T H E M O M E N T O F EXCITATION: O U T O F THE A R M . IS G L U E D G R E E D I LY TO T H E SEX ORGAN OF ITS CONSENTING WHILE HE AND NO DOUBT AND GRATI F I E D PREY. A LD R OV A N I R E C A L L E D THAT. T H E E N IGMATIC A N D OBSC U R E TEXT S E E M S T O H A V E K NOWN N O CON F I R M ATION. ACCO R D I NG TO THE A UTHOR. B E TW E E N T H E T H I G H S O F A RECLI N I NG WOMA N . H UGO ITS IT OF WAS WAS SEA FA R "TH I S E M BRACE A N D V I RTUALLY NO CONTACT BETW E E N THEM. FROM IN AND THE THE THAT THE CREATURE MOST 1 9TH BY L A SC I V I O U S C EN T U R Y. THESE C R E A T U R E S . . THERE IS NO ACCO R D I NG TO THE A N C I ENTS. T H I S D E P I C T I O N IS PURELY IMAGI NARY. T H E TH I R D O N TH E RIGHT S I D E . IT S E E M S THAT T H E R I G H T TH I R D A R M O F T H E M A L E OCTO P U S PA RT N E R W H O S E CONTACT F E L T I N SO M A N Y PLACES. " C R EA T U R E THE P A S S I O N ATE A PHOS­ K E PT A S W I D E A S POS S I B LE. M U TU A L CONTACT THAT TH E I R S U C K E R S WOU L D PERM IT. ITS APPLIES HORNY I TS BEAK MOUTH. CO N S I D E R E D DWELLERS. I N THE 1 6TH CENTURY. T H E Y S W I M TOGETH ER. SICUT CADAVER. M U LT I P L E . I MYSELF FOU N D NO A V I D I TY TO THE F R E E LI PS OFFER I NG T H E M S E LVES. T H E Y A R E D E D U C E D F R O M T H E N U M B E R O F TENTAC L E S A N D T H E A R R A Y O F S U C KERS W H I C H C H A RACT E R ­ IZE TH E S P E C IE S (MOLLUSK). TENTACLES WA N D E R . WHILE A L L BOD I E S TO I N D ICATIONS E N TW I N E . ONE O F TH ESE TENTACLES. T H E TERM " D E SC R I PTION. T H E OC TOPUS. W I THOUT E V E N R E A CH I NG T H E N E C K A N D SHOUL­ DERS. DEPICTED I T PREVA I L I NG O N A S L E E P I NG WOM A N . ITS FLESH WAS AN APHRODISIAC. W H O POSSESS T H E M O S T H I G H LY PER FECTED E Y E S I N THE A N I M A L K I NGDOM. FEMALE. IN THIS FASHION. THE MALE IS DRAWN UP ON HIS BEAUTI FU L. TH E Y AVOID. WHAT BEFORE T H E O N E B Y H E N R Y LEE. ONE FOLLOW ING. EXPLO R E S A N D S U C K S W I TH H I S EIGHT ARMS AND SUCKERS. TH E R E IS A LSO A S M A LLER OCTOPUS W H I C H MORE EXACT. THE HECTOCOTYLE COM ES BACK TO L I F E TO FERTI LIZE THE EGGS. F U RT H E R M O R E . IS S I M U LT A N E O U S L Y I N HIS WORK ON HOKOUSAi. E M P H A S I Z E D THE OCTOPUS' U N C T UO U S I M M O D E STY: IN JAPAN. O N E CAN SEE. POCKET BY THIS AMBIGUOUS PROCESS THE OCTOP U S H E R BODY A N D T H E FOLDS OF H E R M A NTLE." THE L A SC I V I O U S N ESS O F THE FLI RTATIOUSN ESS TENTACLES. I F N O T T O S A Y TH EY FLEE. SUCH DEGREE H ECTOCOTY LE. I N F A C T . T H E F E M A L E RESTS ON A ROCK OR O N THE SAND. A S L E E H A D WELL OBSERVED. THE ARTIST HAS PUT TO USE OBJECT I V E D E S C R I PT I O N OF OCTO P U S M A T I N G L U B R I C ITY W H I C H COM E S FROM T H E C O N S I STENCY AND CONFIGURATION OF THE C REATURE. WHERE IT FINDS RELIEF AND LETS I TS A R I STOTLE O F F E R S A S U M M A R Y DESC R I PTION O F THE M A T I N G O F OCTO P I : TIGHTLY I N T E RTWI N E D . W H O STATES THAT T H E MALE C LI N G S TO HIS D E L I G H T U NT I L HE D I E S OF PLEASU R E AND E X H A USTION. MALE PROFFERS I T TO THAT O N E DOES NOT KNOW W H ET H E R S H E IF LIVING O R DROW N E D .

A FTER FIVE M I N UTES. SOMETI M E S VERY C L E A RLY. HIS HEAD RISING UP V E RTICALLY FI RST. THE S K ETC H E S W E R E DRAWN V E RTIC LE STRI PES ON T H E R I G H T S I D E R E M A I N E D STRONGLY M A R K ED. T H E F E M A L E CONTI N U E D T O OBSERVATION. O F TH E COMMON R A C O V I TZA IN OCTO P U S PROM I NA N T N O D E S . H E WAS COM I N G OUT O F A C R A NNY IN THE CORAL. M I NUTES. TH E TWO LOVERS LOOK L I K E SENTI N E LS HORN-L I K E TO P S OF AT ATTENTION. "NO MOVEMENT W A S V I S I BL E ON T H E THIRD A R M . FROM HER. H E K E PT H I S H E A D ER ECT. A N D T H E M A L E FOLLOWED H E R STI L L K E EPING H E R W I T H I N THE F I E L D O F V I SION O F H I S R I G H T E Y E . Z. W H E N W E EXTENDED O U R HANDS. THEN. A N D H E R A R M S T U R N ED TOWA RD IT. I N 1 962. AFTER T H E Y H A D GO N E A BOUT T H R E E METERS. A D E E P B ROWN STRI P E WAS A LSO VISIBLE ON HIS M A NTLE. NO NODU LE A PPEARED A BO V E THE E Y ES. YOUNG'S OBSERVATION MERIT R ECOUNTING.60 C M . THE A T N U M E RO U S T I M E S . F E M A L E A P P E A R E D T H E N . THOUGH NOT AS M A R K E D L Y A S BEFORE. . A BOUT V E RTICLE STR I PES. I LEAVE THE A UTHOR O F T H E R E PORT TO SPEAK FOR H I MSELF: "TH E MALE WAS NOTI C E D B Y PROFESSOR S U RGEON. I BEGAN MY "TH E N . PROTR U S I O N S TH E I R ONE H EA DS. T H E F E M A L E D R E W A W A Y . FROM O U TW A R D THE A M A LE. N O D E S A LSO A P P E A R E D ON THE SKIN O F T H E ARMS A N D M ANTLE. J . I M M EDI ATELY UPON C L I M B I N G O U T O F T H E WATER. B R IGHTLY COLORED BAND A LO N G THE E DG E OF TH E APPEARED R U N N I NG 50 C M . S E T OFF M O R E OR LESS. AT T H E TOP OF HIS HEAD. S LOWLY ENOUGH. WITH GROWING OUT OF THE SEEM EVEN MORE AS F E M A L E A LSO SHOWED A T C E R T A I N M O M E NTS. S U RGEON D U R I NG A DIVE N E A R SI NGAPORE. P E R H A PS . MEASU RED. I N SUCH A W A Y THAT A LL THAT R E M A I N E D TH E R E WERE SOM E TRANSVERSAL S POTS. TH E OCTOPUS COU PLE WAS WATCHED FOR A H A LF HOUR AT A D E PTH O F SEV E R A L FEET IN A CORAL REEF. AT LEA ST. . 1 5. MALE ROCK BETW E E N THE V E RT I C L E S T RI PE S . GLOWED. G. RESERVED AND DI L I G E NT. OF A FT E R THE A N EW AND BRIEF BACK SIDE O F EACH A R M . NOTAB L Y ON THE R IGHT SIDE. A T OTH E R M O M ENTS. NOTH ING COU L D APPEA R MORE S I N I ST E R . A FTE R A FEMALE). I N TH I S FASHION. ABOUT 60 C M . T H E R E PRODUCTI VE ORGA N W ITH WHICH TH E TENTAC LE IS EQUI PPED I NT R O D U C E S OF THE ITSELF W I TH I N T H E B U T WITHOUT SOM EWHAT DINGY W H ITE. D I S A P P E A R E D COMPLETELY FROM H I S LEFT S I D E . A N D I W A S A B L E TO MOVE C O M P LETELY A RO U N D THE COUPLE WITHOUT D I ST U R B I NG TH E M . A WHITISH THEM. THEY ARE DESPONDANT. A FT E R S E V E R A L M I N UT E S R E A P P E A R E D . SUCH I S WHAT I S SHOWN. 40. B E I N G M A D E THROUGH A D I V I NG M A S K . T H E O B S E R V A T I O N W A S U N I NT E R R U PTED. A N D ANOTH E R IN THE M I DDLE OF TH E M A NT L E . A FISH THE LAT E R A L L Y A P PROAC H E D (SEEMI NGLY ATTACK "TH E FEMALE SLIPPED UNDER A ROCK. H E EXTE N D E D H I S TH I R D R IGHT A R M A N D I NTRODU C E D I T I NTO T H E F E M A LE'S M A NTLE-AT A D I STA NCE O F A LTE R E D A R M D E POSITS C E RTAIN SPERM-FI LLED CAPSULES IN THE A PPROPRIATE POC K ET. BEHIND T H E CAVITY. THE M A LE'S COLO R ATION THE S T R I P E S LUDIC ROUS. A STR I K I NGLY MARKED BY W H E R E U PO N T H E F E M A LE C A M E TO A STA N DSTI L L I N A C REVASSE. COLOR. THE ''THE M A L E K E PT T H E F E M A L E W I TH I N T H E V I S U A L F I E L D O F H I S RIGHT EYE. D E SCR I B E T H E M C A R N I VALESQUE DEVI LS. S H E R E A P PE A R E D ON TH E OTH E R S I D E . DARK ST R I P E S PALLI A L CAVITY F E M A LE. THE C A PSULES OPEN A N D FERTILIZATION I S COM PLETED. T H E M A L E A LSO STOPPED. T H E ARM P U L L E D BACK . B ROWN SPOTS WITH TRANSVER­ S A L STR I PE S APPEARED ON HER A R M S . T H E M A L E STI L L FOLLOW I NG . THE COLO R I NG TU R N E D A DARK BROWN A RO U N D THE A PPEARANCE B R I L L I A NT V E RT I C A L STR I PE S. T H E SKIN FOR M E D STRANGE LOO K I N G BECOM I NG DETACHED.2 0 CM. M IGHT "TH E Y R E M A I N E D I N T H I S POSITION F O R A PPROXI­ MATELY T E N C H ANGED. "THE M A LE ROSE OUT O F ITS HOLE. WHEN THE F E M A LE RELEASES H E R EGGS. OBT A I N E D 1 894. PULLING THE MALE A LONG BY HIS THIRD ARM. Z . FROM T H E BACKG R O U N D. YOU NG P U B L I S H E D SKETCHES OF THE STAGES OF T H E SEXUAL M A TI N G DANCE AND RESTED O N R E TA I N E D THE A H IS THIRD ARM. UP TO THE HEAD. H I S TH I R D A R M WAS A G A I N EXTE N D E D A N D 44 . THE THE R E ST WAS REPLACES O N E SECTION OF T H E SUCKERS. BUT EXTENDING FEW TO A R MS. WH I L E THE ESSENTI A L L I N E S O F J . TH E WORK WAS C A R R I E D OUT WITH PROFESSOR R. A N D.IS A LT E R E D : A SPOON-S H A P E D DEPR ESSION EYES. F E W I N STA NTS. TH E MOVE A W A Y . THE A N I M A L DOVE BACK DOWN I NTO ITS HOLE. WHICH THE COPULATION O F T H E OCTOPUS HORRIDUS. I N THE DRAWING WHICH ACCO M P A N I E S THE STUDY ON THE MATING AND F E R T I L I ZATION BY E. A LSO FROM A C R A N N Y. TO A H E IGHT OF T H E Y COV E R E D A P PROX I M A T E L Y 2 0 M ET E R S .

OCTO P U S WHICH IN A COULD BE D E FI N E D AS AN SIONS OF THE DR. WHER E U PON THE F E M A L E BROKE SHA R P LY AWAY A N D THE MALE WITHDREW I N TO H I S HOLE. [LARGU E l ORGA N S A R E AT THE OPPOSITE EXT R E M E F R O M T H E H U M A N CONC E PTION OF S E N S U A LITY. M A N'S M I SCONSTRUED THE NATU R E OF THE COU PL I NG OF THESE ORG A N I S M S SO WELL EQUIPPED FOR AN RECITED TRAGE D I A N S (TR AGIC A D M I S­ HEROI N E S1). I N THE CASE O F THE PA PER NAUTILUS. DA M P LY E M B R A C E D. DRANK D E E P LY AND FULL OF THE TREMBLING ROOM. WITH NO DELAY OR H E S ITATION ON OF JOYCE M A N SO U R . AMONG TH E M C E RT A I N C U V I E R .E A M A N D THE SOUL'S TIONS. THERE IS A S I G N I FIC A N T CONTRAST BETW E E N AN U N SETT L I N G R E A L I TY AND AND THE I MAGES OF V I R T U A L LY OR T HO S E A P HY S I C A L E FF E C T E D A MO R O U S VOLUPTUOU S N ESS RAPTURE WHERE LIBIDI­ BY " S A T E L L I T E " NOUS DREAM I NG I S I N VOLUNTA R I LY TRIGGERED BY BODIES OF E XC E PTI O N A L S U P PLEN ESS. F I RST I D I E NTIFI E D I T A S A P A R A S ITIC WOR M . LEE NOTICED IN THE MUSEUM IN PARIS. P A U L VERLA I N E STAN DING THE R E . IT I S FOU N D MORE THA N ONCE IN THE POE M S ROBER CAI LLOIS TRANSLATED BY L I N DA McNEIL AND M A RGA RET McGAW ON THE BA LCONY BOTH G I R LS WERE WATC H I N G THE SWALLOWS FLY: ONE PALE. THE FERTILIZING AND ARM FASHION: SEPARATES FROM ITS OWNER WANDERS "THERE WHISTLES THE OCTOPUS OF PLEASURE. EVENING A N D THE WISTF U L J O Y OF CONSTAN T H E A RTS." THE TEXT IS E LOQUE NT. HOWEV E R . W A R M A N D LOOSELY C U R V E D. RUMPLED WITH S M ELLS. THE OCTOPUS HAS OFFERED A P R I V I LEGED S Y M BOL RIGHT I N TO MODERN LITERA­ TURE." HE DEFINES TH E M IN TH E USURPA­ FOLLOW I N G SHELL. THESE A R E PROBA B LY T H E TRAVELLING P E N I S E S WHICH TH E S E TIONS. IT ATTACHES ITSELF WITH ITS S C HO L A R S. AND BOTH THE G I R LS. TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE. 4!5 . WAS THE B E D FLOWER­ OPE N I NG IN THE SHADOWS. A S SLOW A S LANGOROUS A S A S PHODEL. HA I R BLACK: THE OTHER BLOND THE STRANGE G I RL-COU P L E THAT LOOKS I N PITY ON THE OTHER COU PLES: DREAMING ON THE B A LCONY STOOD THE GIRLS. IN THE LISTLESS DARK OF TH E I R AS DRAM ATIC AS THE THRONE OF A QUEEN. IN THESE VOLU PTUOU S N ESS HAS APOLLI N A I R E CONFIDES TO HIS M I ST R E SS: "I SAVOUR YO U R TON G U E LIKE THE STU M P OF AN OCTOPUS' A R M WHICH ATTACHES ITSELF TO YOU WITH ALL THE FORCE OF ITS SUCKE RS. AND P I N K: THE I R LIGHT ROBES OF OLD GOLD WERE FLUTTE R I N G LIKE C LOUDS AND VAGUE." LITTLE PLACE R E S P ECTFU LLY DI STA NT I M AGI NATION HAS WHEN GREAT S A I NT-JOHN TEXTS PERSE BY C A LLS TO MIND TH E AMOROUS RELATIONS. IN HIS LETT E R S TO LOU. BEHI N D THEM. WHE R E I N FLOW "THE GREAT I NS E P A R A B L E U N ION. AND A S THE MOON ROSE ROU N D AND SOFT. R E LA­ IT WOU LD B E EASY TO M U LTI P LY THE EXA M PLES.I NTROD UCED. OF WHICH." A I M LESSLY FOR HO URS A T A TI M E UNTI L F I N DI NG A F E M A L E TO WHICH SUCKERS. THE PART OF EITHER OF THE TWO. SO M A N Y LITHE A R M S A N D A V I D MOUTHS. IT R E MA I N ED I N PLACE A P PROXI M ATELY T E N M I N UTES.

O F T E N OVERCA ST.W ATER S PECI ES. LEOPA R D S A LT ON TH E I R NEVER DRY BACKS. T H E PA C I F IC NORTHW EST. PORTLA ND. I REGA R D E D SLUGS OR B ROWN-ORANGE O N E S ABOU N D E D . THESE CREA TURES A R E MOSTLY OF THE SEA. THE SLICK.M E M OI RS OF A N OCC U PATION W H E N I WAS VERY YOU NG I WAS FASC I N ATED WITH MOLLUSKS. TH E I R PROF U S I O N I S G R EAT I N THE MOIST FORE STS OF O R EGON. D U R I NG THESE SHONE.BA K E D SI DEWALK. YOU HAD TO A VO I D THEM FREQUE NTLY AND STEP WITH A G I L I TY OVER TH E I R SLI PPERY H AT E . S U N . SLUGS A PP E A R E D MORE P L E N TI F U L SLUGS AND LESS CON­ G R E E N . SOM ETH I N G RAINS THEY AND WILL SUN A N D MOSS T H E S E SLOW-MOV I NG THINGS WOU LD EAT. A LONG BANANA S N I PPI NG BOD I E S IN THE I R HALF EYES OR OUT OR C U TTI NG TH E I R POU R I N G T H E PROV E R B I A L PATH W A Y S . ONE GARDEN H A D STEPS OF ROUGH LY-C H I S L E D ROCK: THROUGH BRA KEN TH E I R CREVICES GREW THE GRASS. O R A N G E SLUGS D R I E D TO BLACK A N D TH E I R S L i M E Y TRA I LS T U R N E D I R I DESC ENT. TH ESE TRA I LS SHOW E D YOU THEIR PA I N F U L ROAD TO DooM -A H O U R S A F T E R SC HOOL I W O U L D STOP A N D STA RE I N A D M I RATION O F T H E I R A N T E N N A E A N D PU LSATI NG BO D I E S. THEY NEVER A TT R A C T I V E T H A N S N A I LS. NOW TH A T THEY W E R E I N V A D I NG T H E S E G L E N S RICH I N PLANT L I F E . S I N C E THEY TH R I V E IN ZON E S O F H E AVY R A I N FA L L. A L LO W E D TH E M M U C H R EST FROM THE I M MO D E R ATE BLAZI NG A LW A Y S OF THE SUN. M Y LOC A L E . A N D TH E I R R E L A T I V E U G L I N ES S DI DN'T R E M E D Y TH E LOW OPINION. SLUGS OR T H E F R E S H . WHEREAS S N A I LS C A PT U R E D O N E' S A L I G N E D TO TH E A P P E A R E D EQU I P P E D T O J U M P. T H E M A S V E R Y E XOTIC A N D O R I G I N A LLY FROM T H E SEA. D ESPITE A L L THE K I DS W H O ENJOYED ON MY W A L K S H O M E FROM G R A D E-SCHOOL I WO ULD USUALLY GARDEN SEE H U N D R E DS OF S L UGS SLUGS. S A V E F O R O N E . H O P A N D TWI R L 46 . TH E I R AN D E L I B E RATION SENSI­ ATTR A C T E D GR EATLY. WHEN ENDED BOD I E S. FLY. NEITHER O U S LY LEGG E D. M O I ST COATS U S U A LLY O F DRY. WITH THE EXC E PTION OF L A N D SNA I LS A N D LIKE THE OTH E R ME A N I M A LS. A N D PON DER­ GROUND. I S A DVANTAGEOUS FOR GROWTH O F THE L A N D S N A I L OR SLUG. T H E R E W E R E A LWAYS THOSE T I M E S W H E N Y O U WOULD S L I P A N D H A V E THE S M E E R E D R E M A I N S OF A SLUG DO W N YOU R TH I G H . EX Q U I SITE TIVITY T O TH E EFFECTS O F TO UCH A N D LIGHT M A D E M E TH I N K TH E M TOO D E L I CATE A N D V U LN E R A B L E T O T H E C R U E LTI ES OF T H E OUTS I D E WORLD. TH E I R BOD I E S W E R E C U RIOUSLY S H A P E D . WERE S I D E R E D BY E V E RYONE T O BE T OO N U M E RO U S .

AND THEIR FLESH WAS NOT SO STARTLI NGLY COUNTERPA RTS. W E AV A I L. D I D H E W A N T T O E SC A P E O R D I D H E J U S T L I K E T O SUCK ON PLASTIC? THE T E R R A R I U M WHICH HOUSED THIS SLUG W A S PLACED ON A G I G A N T I C T E L E V I S I O N SET TIM AND I WOULD WATC H . B E F O R E . I POKY'S DISAPPEARANCE NEVER BE I WAS D E S PO N ­ THOUGHT I'D A B L E TO F I N D A S N A I L AS B E A U T I F U L A S THAT. I T B A C K F I R E D : T H E T H I N G BIT M E . I D I SCOV E R E D A P A I R C E M E N T E D TOG ETH E R I N A N E X C E S S OF S L I M E . S I M P LY B E CA U S E I C A R E D NOT TO C L E A N OUT HIS C A G E . MYSTERIOUS U NT I L W E S A W T I N Y G R E Y COILS ON T H E S U R F AC E S O F THE T E R R A R I U M .L E S S E V E N I N G I T U R N E D ON T H E S P R I N K L E R I N O R D E R TO SEE AS MANY OF THESE N OCTU R N A LLY ACTIVE C R E A T U R E S A S POSSI BLE. O N T H E TOP OF TH E CLEAR PLASTIC TW I S T BOX AN WAS A SMALL WITH A METAL LID W I T H H O L E S F O R A I R T O C O M E THROUGH. TH E R E H E'D SC R A P E HIS R A D U LA N I GHT­ LO NG: IT SOU N D E D LIKE A FAINTER VE RSION OF BROT H E R D I SG U STING. IN M Y M A N Y WALKS THROUGH A I DI SCOV E R E D A MOST BUT T H E N REASONED T H E Y WERE F U C K I NG. SHELL HAD ORANGE A N D YELLOW STR I PS A G A I N S T B R O W N A N D P U R P L E . F U RT H E R M O R E . MY C H I LDHOOD F R I E N DS S H A R E D TH E I N T E R E ST. I T H R E W F L A S H O U T. D E S P A R A T E L Y S E A R C H I N G FO R T H E POKY. LIKE HOLE POKY O N E QU ESTI O N WE ASKED A BOUT S N A I LS WAS. I'M S U R E I S E N S E D S O M E P E R V E R S E PLEAS U R E . CALLED " F L A S H . T I M . ) ONE TIME I PLACED MY TOO C LOSE T O T H E FLASH WAS VENTI LATION HE. I T WAS SO B E A UT I F U L THAT I LET IT CRAWL OVER MY FINGERS AND H A N D S AS I W A L K E D H O M E . WHITE ONES T H A T POSS E S S E D M E D I OC R E S H E LLS. A SNAIL AS GOOD AS WITH POKY GONE. NOT L I K E THE T I N Y I N DOORS TO WATCH PA R ENTS. IGNO R A N T OF · W HAT I H A D J U ST S E E N . I K N E W THEN LINED THAT WITH SNAILS TEETH HAVE AN UNUSUAL A TON G U E TH I S C H A LK SC R E E C H I N G AC ROSS A B L A C K B O A R D . IT WANTED! A FT E R FOOD­ WHAT O R I G I N A LLY BOOK C A LLED FLASH TH E COMIC A FTE RWA RDS. ONE RA I N Y DAY. BUT T O N O I M PLO R I N G N A T U R E . P E R F ECT S N A I L. B U T W E COULD DETECT H I S SLI MEY TRA I LS OVER THE B E D R OOM WALLS REVENGE. " ITS H O M E WAS O R I G I N A LLY BOTA N I C A L T E R R A R I U M . I NEVER W A N T E D T O B E B I T T E N BY A S N A I L AGA I N I N MY L I F E . S O M E T I M E S POKY WOULD E S C A P E A N D B E S E E N LAT E R C R A W L I N G U P T H E S I D E S OF O U R B E DROOM W A L L . I W A S I N IT I A L L Y H O R R I F I ED. AT TIMES F L A S H COULD B E H E A R D T H ROUGH T H E SC R A P I N G CRY WHO KNOWS HIM FO R D I N OF COM M E RC I A L S . I E V E N T U A L L Y R E SORTED TO A IN A N LARGE GLASS J A R W H E R E I N WE PLACE D SOM E SOIL. O N E T I M E W H E N I LET P O K Y C R A W L OVER MY FINGERS THOUGHT (MY IT S I STERS AND OLDER VENTI LATION C LOCK W I S E BODY CAP. AFTER DE NT. I D I D N 'T STAY LONG B E C A U S E IT WAS D I STA ST E F U L TO LOOK A T FOR A N Y LE NGTH O F T I M E . WHOLE DAYS WERE COI N E D A S O N G F O R T H E LOV E L Y PET W H I C H R A N A S FOLLOW S : POKY T H E S N A I L POKY T H E S N A I L YO U M A Y S E E H I M L A U G H I N ' YOU M A Y S E E H I M C R Y I N ' BUT Y O U K NOW H E'S GOT A GRE-E-E-E-E-EN MOUTH ! RIGHT AWAY WE B U I LT A TE R R A R I U M FOR H I M -A TA K E N U P W I T H LOO K I NG F O R A S N A I L B E A R I N G A COLO R F U L S H E LL . T H E TOP WAS S E A L E D PET SLUG. FAC I L I TATES T H E W E L L-A I M E D STROKES AT LEAVES AND FLOW E R S THEY'RE DESPISED FOR. FERN AND G R A SS . ITS BODY WA S LONG AND THICK. F R E E DOM. ONE S U M M E R R E A L M C A L L E D "SLUGO N I A " POP U L A T E D BY SLUG- 47 .I N TEREST M O R E : T H E Y H A D S H E L LS. SOON WE L O S T POKY. TH E R E W E R E O N LY S L U G S O R T H E S M A L L E R S N A I L S W I T H F U R R Y S H E LLS. E V E N A LLOW E D POKY O N H I S F I N G E R S ) . FLASH'S WOULD I NCH U P TO T H E S E H O L E S A T THE VERY TOP. T H E G E N D E R OF S N A I LS S E E M E D NO M ATTE R : W E WERE SO C H I LD I S H AT THE TIME THAT IT DIDN'T CO N C E R N US. B U T TIM. UPPER P O RT I O N LONG AND V E N TS A P P E A R. DID THEY "GO TO THE BATH ROOM. T H E S HOCK L I N G E R E D ON WHEN I FINALLY LEFT TH E TV WITH GARDEN MY TO GO WOODED N E I G H BORHOOD. L A T E R O N . I WAS TO LATER F I N D OUT THAT THEY ARE H E R M A P H RODITI C AND THAT THEY NEED TO SLUGS W E R E BY NO M E A N S MY SOLE O B S E S S I O N . S U P R H E RO WHO C A N T R A V E L AT S P E E DS NO S LUG COULD FI NGE R EVE R M A TC H . O F VARYING S I Z E AND COLOR. ON THESE DAYS I'D HUM THE "POKY T H E S N A I L" SONG. I W A S H E A RTI LY W E LCOM ED B Y MY YOU NG E R B ROTH E R W I TH T H E C R E ATU R E . T H E YO U N G E R B ROTH E R . A R M E D W I T H A F L A S H ­ LIG HT. MOSS." IT REMAINED WHEN SC R A P I N G . A FRIEND CALLED M A TT A N D MYSELF I N V E NTED A M U T U A L L Y I N S E M I N A T E E A C H OTH E R : THE R E S U LT IS BOTH A N I M A L S B E A R I NG T H E EGGS. BY TH I S TIME V E R Y S M ELLY A N D S L i M E Y. THE B E A U T I F U L S N A I L. I CALLED THE S N A I L "POKY" A FT E R T H E HORSE I N THE G U M BY TV C A RTOON AND PA RTLY A FT E R ITS S LOW. B I T I T . I H A D S P E N T H O U R S LOO K I N G F O R A COMPA R A B L E S N A I L. (WE HIS CALLED RADULA. HUED AS THE I R S H E L L.

IT F R I G H T E N E D I N TO TH I N K I NG I WAS A LSO STRANGE FI NDING BULGING SOM E W H AT EFFORT T O FOR D E VOTING SO M U C H TI M E TO A N D C LA S S I F Y I N G ON S N A I LS IT WAS THEM. T I M AND I M A D E A S U PE R . I WAS ABLE TO M A R V E L AT THE H U N D R E D S OF I L LUSTRATION S OF MY FAVORITE A N I M A L. AND REFUSING M O N OG R A PH S L U G S. W H I C H U N FOR­ T U N ATELY A P PEA RS TO H A V E BEEN LOST. ( A GA I N . F E E DOR ( A T V A D D I CT). D I G ESTI V E A N D R E S P I RATORY SYSTE M S. T H E SCOUT­ M A STER WAS C H A R M E D BY THE I D E A BUT HAD TO R E F U S E THE TITLE (HE WAS A STU P I D M A N ) S I N C E TH E R E W E R E S O M A N Y OTH E R N A M E S OF A N I M A LS T H A T WE COULD USE B E S I D E THAT O F "SLUG:' W E K N E W IT W A S A POOR REASON-BESI DES. O F TH E I R H O B A RT NAMES (TH E WERE HARVEY OF (A TRICK­ TORY-C A N N I B A L I STIC. M ATT H A D COM POSED A FLAG W I T H SOM E R S A U LTING O R " F L I P P I NG" S L U G S (OUR S L U G S C O U L D F L I P I N M I D. W H E N E A T I N G S N A I LS B EG A N . IN FITS SHE OF WAS OF M E XICO. HELIX PO MOTA WAS C A L L E D T H E E U RO P E A N G A R D E N S NA I L. ATTA C K SWAYI NG ITS H E A D A N D T R U N K BACK A N D FORTH I N FRONT OF T H E FOR V I CTI M A N D TH E N LUNGE VERY D I CTATO R S L UGON I A ) .I N S P I R E D CA RTOON C R EATURES. GA RFO ( A SLUG W H O H A D A S I G N ON H I S BACK R E A D I N G "BEAT M E"). AND MY FLASH FOR M E R QUICKLY T H E OTH E R SNAI L'S M A I N A RTERY R U N N I NG U P TH E C E N T E R O F THE S P I R A L. C H A R M I N G M Y M OT H E R WITH MY SOPH I ST I C A T I O N ( " I S N 'T T H A T OTH E R P E RSON. WERE U N C UT. THESE STRUCK EVEN BY MY I NTEREST I N A T M O M E NTS C R EA T U R ES. A TT E N T I V E ME A N D TOO OBSES­ A N D I E V E N WENT SO FA R AS TO SUGGEST A "SLUG PATROL" TO O U R BOY SCOUT TROOP. I NOTI C E D TH E PAGES O N E W A Y O F SHOWI NG YOU WERE S M A RT. E I TH E R IN O U R OWN I DE A S OR J UST LAUGHTER OV E R MATrs TALKS ON THE I D EA O F SLUGO N I A . C H E E R F U L (A COMPULSIVELY A H A PPY SLUG). P R I D I N G T H E M S E L V E S O N R A V E N OUS A P P ETITES OR EXCESS I V E TV WATC H I NG. I COULD NOW SAY T H A T SUCH-A N D-SUCH W A S " A R I O N ATE R.U M B I A I S A W A POST O R LOOK M AGAZI N E THAT FEATURED A S H ORT STORY A BO U T MONSTER 4B .B A N I M A TION F I L M A B O U T SLUGO N I A . TH E ME S N A I LS VOLUM E S WHEN HELPED DON E I MUCH OF I N AN WAS A I M P RESS MY PEERS THAT SCHOL A R LY TYPE. HE ALSO COU N S E LORS. GENUS AND SPEC I E S WAS BA S E D U PO N T H E ORGA N IZATION OF T H I E R R E S P I RATORY TRACTS. SO M E STE R ) . WE DREW C O M I C S ABOUT T H E C E N T R A L SLUG C H A RACTERS. THOUGH D U R I N G O U R TALKS ON T H E MATTER I FELT AS IF H I S I NTEREST W A S TOO SIONAL. CUTE. TH E BOOK H A D V E R Y STR A N G E ACCOU NTS ON C E R TA I N S P E C I ES. ONE IT SPEC I E S WAS WOU L D PREDA­ BY I N D U LG E NT. IN HIGH IN SCHOOL FITS I REMEMBER A A C A N NOT RECALL S P E C I F I C A LLY) I H A D BOUGHT THE M O S T COM P R E H E N S I V E BOOK ON TH E S U B J ECT." "VESPERCOLA LATI N B R U M . TIM AND I CONTR I B UTED A G R E AT D E A L. W E W E R E ALREA DY RESIGNED TO HIS D I S A P P RO V A L.V O L U M E D S N A I LS AND LONG E R . W E EVEN I N V E NTED A H A N DS H A K E W H I C H CONSI STED O F CONTACT W ITH E I TH E R PA LM ONLY TO HAVE SQ U I S H I NG SOUNDS M EET TH E A S I A LSO LEA R N E D F R O M THE BOOK. I T WAS O N LY A FOODSTUFF POOR FA R M E R S R ESORTED TO W H E N TH EY HAD NOTH I NG AROUND TH I S TI M E (l I TO 14 YEARS OF AGE. THESE CA RTOON SLUGS WERE VERY SELF­ D E SC R I PTION O F T H E I R R E PRODUCT I V E . B E FO R E H A N D. M ATT POSITI O N S HE WAS AND THEM WAS BIOLOGI ST. H E'S O R D E R I N G ESCARGOTSI"). I ELSE TO E AT. (TH E ACTUAL TITLE M I G H T B E WAS ON A FO U R ." EVERY SPECIES HAD A TEC H N IC A L MANY TI M E S THE IMAGE OF S N A I LS ON A GREW TO D I STU R B I N G THROUGH PROPORTIONS. STRAIT OF BOAT IN TRIP TH E GEORGIA BRITISH CO. A N D IT IS THE SNAIL THAT THE I FRENCH USE FOR ESCA RGOTS. W H E N ONE WAS O F F E R E D TO HER ON BREAD WITH GARLIC B U TT E R . " "HELIX P O M ATA. V ESTIG ES OF O U R U N I FORMS. P I L S B U R Y'S NORTH LAND M O L L USCA O F NORTH A M E R ICA SKI N N Y BLACK GIRL A OVER FRENCH A TEAC H E R EATI N G S N A I L : " YO U ' R E EATI NG S N A I L?'" S H E S H R I E K ED. ) THE BOOK BEC A M E H YSTE R I C A L. DEMIC MANY OF THE COUNS ELORS ONE OF HELD ACA­ A O R I G I N ATED TH E I R I M AG E A N D I N V E N TED MOST OF TH E C H A RACTE RS A N D TH E ( R N A M ES. TH E A R E A H A D A N U M B E R O F S N A I LS I DI DN'T K N OW TH E N A M E S TO. W H E N S H E A R R I V E D S H E M A D E A W I S E C R A C K A S TO T H E WEIGHT O F THE BOOKS.L. TH E F LAG'S S L U G S W E R E A LSO W E A R I N G BA N D A N A S A N D H A T S . A NOTH E R ONE WAS CONTACT BUT R A P I D D R A W I N G AWAY-"YECCH '''-AS I F T H E PALM WERE S L I M E Y. E A T I N G E SCA RGOTS IT A RR I V E D. A N D A FTER PLYI NG TH E M A P A RT WITH A LARGE K I TC H E N K N I FE. VORACIOUS A SUPER EATER-LI K E D U R I N G A S U M M E R C A M P V ACATION I REQUESTED A F R I E N D O F MY P A R E NTS' TO B R I N G THE BOOKS WITH HER SINCE SHE WAS GOING TO VISIT SO M E PET-WITH F A S T TONG U E > ' M A TT W A S I N G E N IO U S A N D P ROLI F I C I N C R EATI NG FICTIO N A L SITUATIONS CON C E R N I NG S L UGS. T H E CLASSI FICATION I NTO F A M I LY. WHEN SOLELY LAND LAUGHTER S H OC K .A I R ) . TH E Y D I DN'T H A V E A N Y A N T E N N A E OR SLI M E OR R A D U LAS A N D TH E Y R E S E M B L E D H U M A N S I N TH E I R W E A K E R M O M E NTS. E V E RYTI M E WENT TO A FRENCH RESTA U R A N T I O R D E R E D ESCA RGOTS.

I T F A I L E D S I M PL Y B ECA U S E S H E W A S MEASU R I NG GOLD. SO I L E FT I T IN THE C H A NGE PURSE OF E I TH E R MY MOTH E R 'S BAG OR HER F R I E N D·S. A FT E R HAVING P U NCTU R E D YO U R SKIN.A S S OC I ATI N G . I E V E N CHASTISED I N F R O N T OF MOTHER A M E RICA'S C U LT OF YOUTH F U L N E S S I N TO IN WOMEN WHEN AS SHE BY WAS MY ME CON S I D E R E D TO H A V E GROU N D R E A L P E A R LS I NTO HIS O I LS.S H ELL. BESI DES. A P A I N F U L TASK FOR A S H E L L'S S H A R P EOG E S W O U L D CUT Y O U . I VAINLY THOUGHT MY V E R M E E R . Y E T HARM TO THEM SEEMED I N EVITA B L E F O R THEY THO UGHT M E Q U I T E S E N S I T I V E T O S E L ECT V E R M E E R A S A S U B JECT FOR A R E S E A RCH PA P E R . T H E S N A I L'S H A T E D STATUS W A S W H A T I ATTEMPTED TO C H A NG E . I WOULD FREQUE NTLY O P E N TH E MAGAZINE AND A NOTH E R P A I NTI N G . I H A D W R ITTEN A LONG PAPER ON THE DUTCH PAINTER JAN M A N Y A S U M M E R'S LIGHT U N R A VAGED BY G A PS A N D HOLES. T H E MOUTH O F T H E MONSTER LOO K E D LIKE A BALL O F A THOU S A N D ICE-PICKS. FROM THE F I X E D LY STA R E AT T H E MOUTH'S P R I C K LY CAVERN.) ONCE THAT VERMEER WAS WOULD N O D O U B T Q U I C K L Y WITH E R A N D D I E ." I T S E E M E D A V E R Y E LEGANT T H I N G TO DO IN THE W I L D E R N ESS. TAKING LONGE R T O E M E RGE AGA I N F A C I N G T H E H U M A N A D V E RSA RY. T H E M A I N C H A RAC­ T E R D E SC R I B E D HIS H O R ROR AT THE E N O R M ITY OF THE C R EATU R E S WHICH WAS ALL TH E MORE (THOUGH NOT WITH TH E SATIN A N D ER M I N E J A C K ET) AND POS ITIONED BEFORE THE W I N DOW O F STRE A M ­ ING D A Y L I GHT. FEATU R E D BIRTH V E N US LEGEN D A R Y S E A . TER ROR W A S T H E R E ACTION. THE DUO OF MOTH E R AND H E R FRIEND DISCUSS I N G O F T H E C REATURES WOULD S W A Y M Y FAM I LY I NTO A P P R EC I A T I N G TH E M . SOME S U C H S I M I LA R POISON O N OU R G A R D E N H U R T M E I N ATTEN U AT E D WAYS. L I L I E S A N D PETU N I A S COULD FLOU R I SH I N A Y E A R A FT E R T H E BOAT T R I P . TH E Y S C A R S U C H LUMI NOUS P A R A D I S E S T H A T R E FLECT A PROUD OWNER'S LABOR. M Y S ELF. TH I S D E L I C A C Y S E N T M E I N S M I LES. FITFULLY BLOWING H I S G E NTLE B R EATH. W H I C H . ( I W A S 1 4 Y E A R S OLD A N D A MOM EVEN TOLD F R E S H M A N I N H I G H SCHOOL. W H E N I SAW IT.B L U E W A T E R . HENCE COM P A R E H E R T O A U D R E Y H E P B U R N . MOM'S F R I E N D WAS Q U I T E WORLDLY I N MY EYES AND B E A UTI F U L E N O U G H T O HAVE ME B EA U T I F U L S P I R A LS PICTU RE. A N D T O SEE MY MOTHE R SPREA D I NG SLUG-BE-GONE OR W H E R E TO PLACE IT. I THOUGHT I T TO B E A M OST DURING THAT VACATION. FLORA. THE BOTTI C E LLrS OF LA P R I M I V E RA. A IN IT HER HAIR COILS IN IS WHILE M ALE ZEPHYR. LATE R ON WE'D PRY TH E M OPEN. CONT R I B U T I N G TO T H E S O FT . R E A DY TO R I P A P A RT A N YTH I N G ORGANIC.S N A I LS ON A R EMOTE I S L A N D . O N E TI M E I FOUND A PEA R L. I D I D N 'T KNOW A G A R D E N'S B R I G HT FLOWERS AND G L I ST E N I N G LEAVES H A S A R A PAC I O U S PRE DATOR. O N LY TO HAVE THEM R E CO I L MORE R A P I D L Y. WOULD A D D T O T H E M I S E R Y O F A L R E A D Y SLICED FINGERS. AND I F THEY WERE TRULY THAT WERE­ VERY O FT E N THEY RECOI L I N G T H E T E N D E R F I LA M E NTS. I TH I N K MY YOU NG E R S I ST E R SHOWED ME THE PICTURE. BUT MY PA P E R B E L I EVABLE WITH A N I L LUSTRATION OF ONE. V E R M E E R'S CONTEM P O R A R Y D E H O OC H D E PICTED A WOM A N W E I G H I N G GOLD COINS. A V U LGA R ITY I N I T S F A I L U R E T O UNDERSTA N D T H E R ESONATING SIGN I F I C A N C E O F PEAR LS. LOVED TO P R E P A R E F R E S H OYSTERS. T H E MOTH E R OF T H E ACCOMPA NY­ I NG F A M I LY. H I S ATTE NTION T O P E A R L S M U ST H A V E CONTR I BUTED T O M Y EXC ITMENT O V E R H I S WORK. WITH P L E NTY O F OYSTER BEDS AROUND. A G I A NT S NA I L WAS DWA R F I NG A T R E E ITS DEVOU R I NGS HAD PROBABLY D E N U D E D. THE E N DO R S E D COULD LAWRENCE THINK GOW I N G ' S SHE POINT-HOW WEIGHING A N YO N E WAS SOMETH I N G B E S I D E S TH ESE J E W E LS FROM OYST E R BEDS? I M A G E OF THE MOUTH W A S MOST D I STU R B I N G AND I THOUGHT ABOUT I T OFTEN D U R I NG T H E VACATION. I T WAS V E R Y S M A L L A N D B R O U G H T M U C H ATTEN­ TION FROM THE OLDER WOM E N . A R M E D WITH BUCK ETS OR PLASTIC BAGS. I N E V E R SAW TH AT PEA R L A G A I N ONCE I T W A S S A F E I N S I D F T H E FO LDS OF LEATH E R . M I LKY P A S S I NG M I DDLE-AGE SEEN PALLOR OF H I S MOSTLY F E M A LE S U B JECTS. WAS SOMETH I NG I OFTEN D I D T O SNAI LS: I B L E W ON TH E I R A N TE N N A E T O S E E S E N S I T I V E. WE WOULD PARTAKE OF MANY LUNCHES "ON T H E H ALF-SHELL. H E R FACE IS STI LL VERY YO UTH F U L A N D MY V I C I O U S N E S S AGAI N ST TH E ONE WHO H A D LOOKED O V E R M E W I T H T E N D E R N ESS FOR SO M A N Y Y E A R S A P P E A R S O N L Y T O B E R E V E N G E A G A I NST W E I G H I N G PEA R LS" A S H I S M O S T E X Q U I S I T E E FFORT. I F YOU DON'T MIND THE F R E E . PROMPTING MORE A S S E RT I V E MEASU R E S SUCH A S TOUC H I NG TH E STA LKS. TH E S N A I L A N D SLUG. N O W TH E PETALS OF OU R I R I S ES. A L E M O N A N D TOMATO SAUCE AWAITED TH E H U NGRY M I N O R I TY S I N C E MANY IN O U R PARTY D I D N'T C A R E FOR TH E M . M Y MOTH E R AND A GOOD F R I E N D OF H E R S . SOM E C RITICS E V E N THOUGHT V E R M E E R'S WOM A N WAS WEIGH ING GOLD. A N D T H E K N I F E O R PRYING TOO L . TH E B R I LL I A N T GROWTH O F RLOWE R S WAS NOTH I N G T O H A R M . I G R E W T O A P P R ECI ATE THE P A I N T I N G E NTITLED "WO M A N OBSESSIO N A L S C R U T I N Y OF H E R FACE'S G ROWTH OF WRINKLES. SI M I LA R LY ATTI R E D 49 . W E ' D A L L D I V E F O R OYSTERS I N C L E A R.

CLEANSING P E R PETU A L L Y S H I T. B U T A G I R LF R I E N D I O N C E K N E W H A D A N EXQU I S I T E P A I R . SCR A P I NG NOTED GOUGING YOUNGER B ROTH E R S' T E R I ET. " BETTER YET. AND I B E A R H I S FIRST NAME A S M Y M I DDLE O N E . THE ONE WHO A I LS F R O M ACNE. EVERY TRUE WOU L D EDUCATION FROM HER FATH E R ' S D E A T H H I S H A N D S W E R E A L SO WOU N D E D BY I M P R O P E R PROTEC T I O N F R O M X . " I T WAS A L L A JOKE. IS A LL O P H O N I C A L L Y TR I U M P H E D OUR TH E I R I D E O LOG I C A L I N P E R FECTION. OR B U B B L E OF S K I N I S W H A T THE S N A I L. MY FATH ER P E R SO N .B R USH P E R FECT L I K E A L L THE B E A U T I E S WHO C O U L D GET I NTO STU D I O 54 W I THOUT W A I T I N G .R I D D E N E N V E L O P E O F F L E S H ." " S L U G S A R E 50 U G L Y " S A Y T H E C O M M O N LOT. O R A S I T D I D TO M Y F I N G E R B Y ITS B I T I NG: A B I T I N G .H E R O B S E S S I V E P I C K I N G O F MY ZITS AS I A D V A N C E D I N TO T H E H O R M O N A L D I S F I G U R E M E NTS OF A DOLES­ CENCE. SOM E MEN FEW M I LDLY ACNED ME AND IN R E LA T E D T O "G U L IS]." S I M I LA R T O D A D'S E N D E A R ­ M E N T. BO D I L Y H A N D­ SOC I E T Y ' S THE I N DICIA CLEAN. BEFORE MY G R A N D­ EXTRACTED M OT H E R . S C R A P I N G AT MY S K I N . S I M I LA R PICKY. H O P E L E S S R E V E NG E . FORC I N G M E T O TH I N K OF A M OT H E R RAVAGED BY WHAT I HAD. A LSO. 1 5 STI L L I NSPI R I N G ME TO A W A SH AND SHAVE DI RTY." " I " A N D "N": P L A C E A N D "L" FOR T H E " K . THE LARGE MALE HOMO­ F U R T H E R MO R E . W H I TE H E A D TO HER A LW A Y S N U R S I NG THE WOULD. OR ACNE FRIGHTENING. A N D IF YOU WENT H TE R E . A P R O D U C T O F L U T H E R A N U P B R I N G I N G . IT A LSO H E LP E D M E E N D U R E B E I N G B RO U G H T U P IN A SOC I A L A P P A R A T U S T H A T EXU LTS I N A S T R E A M L I N E D P A S S I O N F O R A S S I M I LA ­ TING E G O. " I . TH E W O R D S K I N . "D U N C A N A LTHOUGH I A M NOT I D E N T I C A L T O T H E WOLF. TH E PAST O F P U R I F Y I N G D I R T ON T H E S K I N I NTO A MI LITA NT OC C U P A T I O N . A PHOR O F T H E EGO." A N U G L Y J E W E L I S THE S L U G THAT COULD R E N D E R T H E C H I L D-J E W E L OF J U L I E U G L Y A S W E LL. A N D ZITS. J U LI E. T H E ATTA C K W A S A L W A Y S ON. A C O M P U LS I V E LY NEAT 15 NOW. I H A V E SUCC U M B ED TO T H E ADVE RTISI NG VISAGE OF G R EATER P OT E N C Y . "U LGIYI. HER F I N G E R NAILS W E R E THE BITING S N A I L. I S R E LATED TO T H E LETTERS I N S N A I L. " J U L E S. " A N D YOU H A V E " s L l N " -T H E N GO ON T O "S N A I L. A WORD IN H I S NOSE­ LANGUAGE. TH I S BLAsEN. HUMAN PROPELLING EYES ON TH E I R RA D U LA S T H A T C O U L D B I T E T H E V E R Y P I M P L E S I POSS E S S T H A T E V E N I N G . OFTE N TI M E S MY MOTH E R WOULD LA M E N T. WITH WERE N A I LS. T H O U G H A N A S E M IC D EC I PH E R I NG. C O M P E N S A T I N G F O R HER VERY BLEMISHED FACE." O R A S I S C L E A R . THERE MY HAVE TO SENT FIX S H I V E R S. HER NAME WAS EVERYDAY. DEGREE. T H E D R I V E OF THE VAMPI RE IN FOR THESE OT H E R S WHO HAVE C A G E . A SISTER HER OF MINE WAS A LSO E N C R Y PTED UNDYING F A N T A S I E S A N D TH E I R C O R R E S PONDING PLEA S U R E­ WORDS. " U LG. THE R U SS I A N SEEMS PICK TERM FOR MY F L E S H W IT H A F I N G E R C A L L E D " P I N K Y . T H A T I S . " SOU N D I NG M UC H L I K E "J E W E LS. A LT H O U G H AT TIMES HER ATTA C K S WERE AND R U BB I N G SLUG.I D E A L S . W R I N K LES A R E L l N Es/LA I N S ( S N A I L ) ON T H E s K I N /S L I N (SNAIL). I WITH HAVE M I RROR AND FACE YOU'RE SO P I C K Y . S P L E N DOR. " P I N K Y" APPEARS O R T H OG R A P H I - 50 .H E A D E D M A N . JESUS C H R I S T'S HANDS AND FEET FASC I N ATED DRAW FI FTH MY G R A D E. HAS F U R T H E R T R A N S FOR M E D WHATEVER THROUGH. P R E Y TO HER FON D N E S S FOR D R A W I N G O I L OUT OF MY FOR SKIN. THEN R E A LITY WILL CONC U R E W I T H M Y H A L L U C I N A TION A N D I S H A L L B E A I R . M Y H A N D S H A V E B E E N C A L L E D "ATT R A C T I V E " B Y T H O S E CLOSE T O M E . A N I N C I D E N T K N O W N I N C H R I ST I A N HOME. HAD DESIGNATED TH E PHYSICAL M ET A ­ I D E N TI C A L T O M Y M O T H E R'S. PAROXYSMS WITH BAD MY COMPLEXION BEING MY WENT SKIN G R A N D­ F A T H E R ' S DOO M . W H E T H E R I T WAS C O M B I N G M Y H A I R O R W I P I NG OFF D I RT FROM ANY PART OF MY BODY. W I T H S L U G E L I M I N A T E T H E " S " A N D W I T N E S S " L U G .R A Y S H E G A V E TO H I S PATI E N TS . SAYS 50. WHY DID I LIKE TO HAVE POKY C R A W L O V E R M Y F I N G E R S ? I A M A LSO S U P PO S E D TO BE "GE N ET I C A L L Y I D E N T I C A L" TO H I M .M A N PAC I NG H YSTE R I C A L L Y TO A N D FRO I N A D E R M A ­ TOLOG I ST'S P OW D E R IN OFFICE HAND. ME IN LIKE THE L E ECHES THAT H A D COU LD A A LSO T H E V E R Y I N S T R U M E N T OF M Y R E P E T I T I O N : S N A I L IS]. " M E A N I NG SHE PROBABLY WAS D I SC O N T E N T W I T H M Y FON D N E S S F O R C R IT I C A LITY AND D I S T I NCTION. M Y M OT H E R ' S NAME. T H E "5. AS FLA S H DID WITH ITS SEXUAL CROWD OBEYS THE SA M E I M P U LS E ! S E C R ETLY C H E R I S H : AN O R A L D R I VE. H E W A S A P E D I A T R I C I A N L I K E M Y FATH E R WIPE OFF OIL F I N GE R N A I LS/FI N G E R S N A I LS O N TO H E R D R E S S O R A PR O N . W H I L E T H I N K I NG I WAS P I C K A B L E. TO VERBARIUM: SNAIL. FACE AS B LO O D FROM F R E S H LY MY B L OO D I E D B Y T H E M . SLUGS MAKE U G LY. S N A I L A LLOPHON I C A L L Y R E S I D E S IN " A I LS . H I S P L EA S U R E-WORD. " T H E "5" A N D " L " A R E C R U C I A L: BOTH P A R E N TS POSS ESS T H E M I N T H E I R O R IG I N A L N A M ES. SO H A V E I F E LT I T TOO TO B E M I N E. I W I S H I N G THAT T H E P HOTOS A N D COM M E R I C A L S SEE W I L L B E P R E S E N T I N MY L I FE A S A R E S U L T OF BUYING THE PRODUCT. FREUD. U G L I F Y I N G S L U G .

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N E VERTHELESS MOST OF U S WOULD FINO THAT COMPLETELY I M POSSI BLE. A N D H E R E A LSO "GOOD REASONS" CAN BE I N VOKED: BUT THAT O N E LESS-EXACTI N G : ONE TIME R E LATION S H I P AT W I LL BECOM E A TREATED . DESPITE T H E FACT THAT I N EATING A MAN ONE NEED NOT B EG I N BY KILLING HIM: PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S COURAGE REMARKED: R E A SO N TO D I S ­ FREUD I N C ESTUOUS R E LA T IONS H I PS. TWO NEAR KIN CAN S L E E P TOGETH ER. I F IT WAS PRACTISED ON A LARGE SOC I A L SCA L E IT "EXACTLY L I K E THAT O F C A N N I B A L I S M ?" TO BE A C A N N I B A L IS TO EAT OTH E R M E N . B E D M A N N E RS." M U R D E R IS T H E SA M E : ONE S H O U L D N EV E R K I LL. MORE OR CONTRA Ry-oFTEN ONE TH E LAST P H R A S E M A K E S O N E TH I N K THAT I N C E ST COU L D HAVE BEEN PRACTI S E D ONCE. I N G E N E R A L A N D I N PA RTIC ULAR. O N T H E CONTRA RY. F R E U D WOULD E R RS. M A TT E R S ARE N O T SO S I M PL E WITH R ESPECT TO I NC E ST.T A B L E M A N N ERS. AND IT OCCURS O N LY TOO OFTEN. HOW THAT FOR THE I N C EST. T H E Y S I M PLY C A N NOT B E M A R R I E D A N D TH E I R C H I LD R E N W I LL N O T B E LEGITIMATE: TH E I R R E LATIONS W I LL B E S E X U A L BUT N O T CON N U B I A L. THE P R O H I B I T I O N O F C A N N I BA L I S M T H U S A P P E A R S U N J USTI F I A BLE. A N D O N E C A N ONLY E I T H E R B E O N E OR N O T B E ONE. BUT THERE IS NO FOR NOT EAT I N G HUMAN THEN R E A SO N WHATEVER I M P L I C I TL Y FOR M U R DE R . LA N G U A G E M A N N E R S TO MARIE BONA PARTE. AND IS TO DEVOUR H I M . BUT ARE S E N S E -A N D NOT HAVE S A I D THE SHOULD JUDGE­ R A RELY R IGOROUSLY L I N K E D : O N E C A N PROH I BI T TH E M A R R I A G E O F C E RTAI N K I N WITHOUT M A K I N G A D R A M A OF T H E I R EVENTUAL SEXUAL R E LATIONS. T H E SITUATION OF I NC EST I S EXACTLY LIKE THAT O F C A N N I B A LI S M . BUT THAT MEN HAD RENOUNCED I T FOR GOOD R EASONS. REASONS THAT K I LL A MAN NATURALLY THERE ARE GOOD IN MODERN LIFE ONE DOES NOT NON ETH ELESS. THERE IS NO R E A SO N FOR NOT EATING H U M A N FLESH. W H I C H P R E S ENTS BOTH A SEXUAL A N D A SOCIO­ LOGICAL A S PECT: T H E Y C A N NOT B E COMPLETELY TH I S TEXT IS F U L L OF GOOD SENSE. BUT GOOD D I S SOC I AT E D ONE FROM THE OTH E R . WITH US FOR E X A M PLE. I T IS TRANSGRESSED "ON LY TOO OFTEN. WE CAN EASILY SEE THAT. WOULD BE A S H A R M F U L TODAY AS IT WAS IN T I M E S PAST. TH I S ALSO I S ONLY TOO E V I D ENT. TH U S O N E WILL B E -M UST O N E THE SEXUAL R I T U A L LY SAY. THE PROH I BI TION IS THEN J U STI F I ABLE: HOWEVER. I N C EST I S NOT SO FAR REMOVED. S ITUATION FLESH I N PLACE O F M EAT. W E CAN ONE SAY R E S PECT IT M UC H LESS. ESPEC I A L LY I N O R D E R T O D E V O U R O N E ' S V I C T I M . HAD WHO HAD ASKED H I M SOM E IF K I LLS.

AS FOR I NCEST AND A N C I ENT TU P I . K E E PS THE RESTRIC­ TION OF T H E PROH I B ITION TO T H E ONLY K I N W H O A R E CONSISTENTLY FOR B I DDEN. ONE ONLY E ATS A C A N N I B A L I N A OR L E S S F R EQUENT ACCO R D I N G T O THE E X T E N T O F I T S PROH I BITION: R E LA T I V E LY R A R E IN SOC I ETI E S WITH A LARGE POPULATION. S I M I LA RLY IT WOULD COME TO NO O N E'S M I N D. T O F I L L TH E GAP. T H E R E I S N O WAY TO ELUOE IT. I N R E A LITY THE D E F I N I TI O N S OF I N C EST AND OF PROH I B ITION QUESTION. ON E'S P R O H I B I TI O N IT B R E A KS : O N E TR A N S FO R M K I LLE RS. TRANSGRESSES T H E NORM I N A M A N N E R T H A T I S . PROVES ITS ABSENCE AND M A N I F E STS THE SENTI M E N T W H I C H . A R U L E W H I C H C A N NOT B E VIOLATED SINCE THAT WHICH I T CON D E M N S .FULLY LEGAL M A R R I AGE . IN A NON­ R U L E WHICH CON D E M N S IT. AND SOCI ETY OF CAN N I BA LS. W R I TES H. T H E PARTI C U L A R R U L E KNOWS PRACTICALLY NON E . "TH E ESSENTIAL R U L E O F A NTH RO­ POPH A G Y IS PERHAPS THE EXIGENCE THAT CONTR A R Y TO C A N N I BA L I S M . AND TO BEGIN AGAIN. O N E I M PUTES T H E C O M M I S S I O N OF THE C R I M E S T O M YSTERIOUS FOR E I G N E RS. AND IF IT ITS IS A C H I E V E M ENT EX­ PROH I BITED AND S Y M M E T R I C A LLY. SOC IETIES W H E R E O N E DOES NOT EAT OTH E R M E N. I N A SOCI ETY W H I C H I S NOT. FOR TH I S REASON. IT I S U N DE R STOOD THAT I N C A N N I B A L I S M A S WELL THERE A R E T W O A S PECTS: T O E AT. IF O N E DOES IT. S OC I ET Y IS S OC I ETY PRESC R I B E I T WITHOUT CONTRA­ TERMS: S I NCE IT S U PPOSES THE A N D TH I S W H Y THE P U N I S H M ENT OF DEATH C A N BE A L LOWED BY THE V E R Y PEOPLE WHO MOST VIGOROUSLY CON D E M N M U R D E R . I N G E N E R A L. A N D TO EAT OTH E R M E N P R EC I S E LY : B U T T H E B I OLOGICAL A S PECT O F TH E MATTER IS NOT S E P A R A B L E F ROM ITS SOCI A L CONSEQU E N C E . IT A LWAYS A PPEARS A S A TRAN SGRESSION. RE PEATED. T H E R E I S N O POSSIBLE R E M I SSION. O N E C A N NOT THUS DI SSOCIATE DE FACTO A N D DE J U R E STATUS. O N E C A N G E T A ROUND T H E R U L E . THAT MORE F R EQU E N T IN THOSE SOC I ET I E S AN I N STITUTION. T H E POSSIBI LITY OF I N C EST I S S O WELL P R E D I C T E D T H A T OFT E N ONE HAS A LS O FORSEEN A RITE T O A C H I EVE IT. C A N N I BA L I S M IS O N LY PRACTISED WHERE IT IS HORROR O F I NCEST I S PRONO U N C E D I N T H E S E LATTER: W H E R E O N E H A S AFFIRMED IT IN A B U S I V E LY E XT R A PO L A T I N G A AUTHO R I S E D A N D N E V E R W H E R E I T I S PROH I B ITED. I R REPA R ABL E: MEMBER OF ONE C A N NOT CON S I D E R TH I S IS HIM A IN CONTRA RY. N E V E R A T R A N SG R ES S I O N . CLASTRES A BO U T T H E NONETH E LESS R E A LIZED. TH E R E I S ON ONE S I D E A PROH I B I TION WHOSE V I OLATION I N N O W A Y COM P RO M I S E S IT. A R E L A T I ON S H I P IS O N LY I N C ESTUOUS WITH R E S PECT T O T H E CAN NOT. TO E FFACE ITS VIOLATION . WHERE CANNIBALISM IS THE RU LE. B U T I F I E A T HER SHE I S NO LON G E R EDIBLE FOR A N Y ONE E L S EI D I F F E R E N T FROM THE SEXUAL R E LATIO N S H I P. A S FOR T H E E X EC UTION O F A M U R DER­ ER. W H I C H B R I NG S US BACK TO TH E FACT THAT C A N N I BA L I S M IS A LMOST A LWAYS WHERE T H E C I RCLE O F FOR B I D D E N PARTNERS I S L I M ITED. I CAN SLEEP WITH A THE SOCIAL BODY. ITS S I M P L E E X I ST E N C E COULD FOR M T H E B A S I S O F A RECOG­ N I Z E D U N I ON OF I N F E R I O R STATUS . WHY. BUT THE FACT IS T H A T. . WHERE I T A P P L I ES. O N E CAN NOT EXPLAIN WHY 55 . A N D THIS TRANSGRESSION C A N BE FO U N D EVE RYWH E R E OF SEXUAL BECAUSE DESIRE. F O R M E O R F O R SOMEONE C A N N I B A L ACTIONS. T H E C A N N I BA LISTIC R E LATION S H I P C A N NOT H A U STS BE IT. IN E V E R Y CASE A TWO-S I DED PLAY IS POSS I B L E . VIOLA T I N G I T WHILE M A I NTA I NI NG It. . ON THE INDICATED. WITHOUT CONSTRA I N I NG T H E S E PA RA­ TION O F T H E I NC ESTUOUS PARTIES. ONE " F I N A LLY. POS I T I V E O R N EGATIVE. BUT W H E R E M E N FEAR B E I N G EATE N. THE P R ETENDED IN GEN E R A L UNIVERSAL M UC H LESS E V E RYWH E R E A N D E NC O U N T E R E D E V E R Y W H E R E . TO S UGGEST TIojE CON S U M P­ U N I VERSA LITY A NCE MORE APPEAR­ TION OF SOM EONE WHO H A D B E E N FOU N D G U I LTY OF C A N N I B A L I S M . WHICH ALLOWS OPPOSITE R U L E . " ONE F I NOS O N E S E L F I N THE P R E S E N C E O F A PARADOX THAT I S A T L E A ST A P P A R E NT: THE U N I VE R S A L WHILE. ON THE OTH E R . O R T O SORC E R E R S W H O A R E D I F F I C U LT T O I D E NTIFY. NOT TO W E A K E N IT: TO KILL SOM EON E THE WHO HAS KILLED I N TO A DOES NOT OF C A N N I B A L I S M E A S I L Y EXPLA I N T H I S . ELSE. FOR US.: THIS I S NOT TO S P E A K O F WAR WHERE TO KILL I S AN EVERYO N E PARTICI PATE. THE V ICTI M IS I R RECU PARABLE. W H I C H ITSELF I S A M U R D E R. A N D W H E R E ONE ATTR I B U T E S M A LA D I E S AND D E ATHS TO WOM A N WITHOUT M A R R Y I NG H E R A N D S H E R E M A I N S A POSSI B LE SPO U S E . AN OF THE CA N N I BA L SOC I ETY. AS ONE HAS ALREADY ONE TO M A INTA I N THE PROH I BITION. ITS P U R POSE IS TO R E I N FORCE THE PROH ITI B I O N . I T TOLE RATES N O M E A N S O F ESCA PE. AND P E R H A PS A LS O . DICTING THUS. HAVE FEWER M EMBERS AND THAT HAVE SYNTH ESIS A N D R E S U LTS O F A L L T H E S E OPPOSI ­ TIONS: I N C EST (AND M U R D E R) IS PROH I B IT E D ENLARGED T H E BOUNDS OF T H E PRO H I BITION. ON T H E CONTRA RY. I N TH E M A TT E R OF C A N N I B A LI S M . A S FOR C A N N I BA L I S M ." W O U L D SAY T H A T THE SA M E I S T R U E O F M U RDER. T H U S A G A I N . RULE SUFFERS ITS E X PLOIT: T H E ACQUITTAL O F A M U RD E R E R WHERE E X T E N U A T I N G C I R C U M ST A N C E S NIZED DOES NOT PLACE THE CAN BE R ECOG­ IN TRA NSG R ESSION. T H E C A N N I B A L.

AND IT IS THIS C O M PON E N T THAT PERMITS FATA L E K A MUST S U R M O U N T A C E RTA I N AVERSION: TH E VICTI M M U ST BE C O M P E LT E LY CONS U M ED. SEXUAL IS IN FRE­ THE NON-C A N N I BA LS . C A N N I B A LISTIC LA N G U AGE. THE THE PROHI BITION M ET A PHORIC OF HUMAN OF FLESH CANNI­ NOT L I B E R ATES BALISM: USAGE ONE P R I SONERS I N ORDER. TO E X P R E S S T H E F E A R OF B E I N G I N SOM E WAY D E VO U R E D BY H E R ("WHAT A T I G R E SS") OR TO FOR M U LATE A S E N S U A L ATTRACTION ("WHAT A N VICTIM. IN DOES EAT HUMAN FLESH WITHOUT T H E A M O R O U S A N T H R OPO­ MOREOVER. PERHAPS A CAPITAL ONE. WHE N T R I ES DO IT U N D E R STA N D TH E CON FOUN D I N G C E R EMONY O F T E N LIKE FUNERAL. PHAGE IS NOT. SUCTION) . IF THE P RACTICE DOES NOT I M PLY A DESI R E . HE AND TO THIS IS WHY TH E L A TT E R . A THERE IS NO EVIDENT REASON DESI R E . BECA USE H E A D D S : "TH E I R P R I N C I P A L I N T E NTION TH I N K-AS A M E A N S T O ASSU R E CERTA I N D E A D OF ACCESS TO THE SU PREME POW E R . (BITING. S U PPOSE PROPERLY C A N N I B A L R E A LITY OF C A N N I BA L I STIC DESI RE: "IT I S NOT THAT T H E Y SO MUCH ENJOY EATING HUMAN FLESH BUT THAT T H E I R SENSUAL A PPETITE BRI NGS THEM TO THESE M EANS. DESI R E TO A PP RO P R I ATE T H E QUA LITI ES !56 . ACCEDED TO T H E R A N K OF ANC ESTOR. IF O N E OF T H E CONVIVES VOMITS." T H I S CONFI R M S STADEN: "TH EY DO TH I S NOT TO E A S E T H E I R H U NGER. A MONG OTH ER R EASONS. THE A PPETIZING C H ICK"). BUT M U ST THERE BE O N E ? SUCH A D E S I R E DOES NOT EVEN SEEM PRESENT FOR ALL C A N N I BALS. R E LATIONS. A OF A COMPLEX THIS IS H I S S E X U A L R ELATIONS." E X P LA I N I NG PARTI C U LA R H A D A TASTE FOR IT. A N D NOT ONLY. A GROU N D OF W H I C H THOSE PA RTS ARE WHO DO NOT EAT T H E I R COUNTER­ I G N O R A NT. BUT THAT ITS PROH I B I T I O N N EV E R PLACES ITS OF TH E I R V ICTI M S. U N L I K E TH E S E X ACT. NOT BY TASTE A N D FOR PLE A S U RE. T H E C A N N I B A L A C T I S A LWAYS PUBLIC AND R I TUALIZED: TH E R E I S A LWAYS A N E L E M ENT. PRECISELY BECAU S E DOES T R A N S G R E S S T H E P R O H I BITION. AND B EC A U S E TO E AT HUMAN IT. BUT THROUGH CLAUDE HOST I LITY. D'ABBEVILLE O U T OF GREAT H ATE. G U I D I E R I TELLS U S THAT TH E Y A R E C A N N I B A LS. A IN ANY EVENT E A C H MAY BE CAN VALID FOR GIVEN POP U L A T I O N . AND J E A N DE L Il: RY WRITES OF T H E TUPI: "ALL ADMIT T H I S HUMAN F L E S H T O BE WON D E RFULLY G DO D A N D THAT OLD WO M E N IN PERSON. TO TH E BON E . O F T H E RELATIONS BETWE E N T H E L I V I N G A N D T H E D E A D: F R O M THIS LAST POI N T O F V I EW. T H E R E P R E SENTA­ TIONS OF CANNIBALISM SERVE TO SIGNIFY THESE C E R E M O N I E S DIVERSE BEEN THE OBJECT OF DE S I R E FOR V E N ­ I N T E R PRETATION S : A N OTH E R T H I NG. THE LANGUAGE AND FROM NOU R I S H I N G P E RHAPS EVEN D R E A M S . BUT PRACTICE IN QUESTION: TH I S POSES THE PROBLEM OF A D M ITTING A U N I V E R S A L DESIRE TO EAT M E N . C A N NOT WITHOUT E V I DE NTLY TR U E O F THE G U A Y A K I WHO EAT TH E I R D E A D A N D O F T H E FATA L E K A W H O EAT FOR TH E I R D E A D: IT IS A LS O TH E TUPI WHO EAT TH E I R A N T H ROPOPHAGY A N D EXCESSI V E ORA LITY." WHO CONTESTS THE AND VERY A N C ESTO R S H I P-SO TH E FATA L E K A THI N K . O F WHOM R. THAT OF 15 T H A T I N P R E P A R I N G A N D EATING T H E DEAD I N T H I S WAY. TH I S S U B M I S SI O N FLESH IS IS DESERVI NG. I N O N E CASE AS IN TO THE OTH E R . THIS IDEA THAT O N E RISK IS. CA N N I BA L I S M CAN BE CONSI D E R E D A S WELL A S A M E A N S TO K E E P A W A Y THE DEAD BY D E STROY I N G THEIR C O R PO R A L S U PPORT-SO THE GUYAKI D E L I CATE. TO APPEASE THE SOU L O F A HAVE DECEASED R E LATI VE. THA N K S TO HIS CON S U M PTION OF A SACRIFICED MODE. O N E COULD A D O THAT S E X U A L PLAY CAN CONTA I N C A N N I B A L I ST I C B E H A VI O R DANGEROUS. PRETEN D TO N O G E N E R A L VALI DITY. W I D E S P R E A D: I T I S A GOOD F OO D BUT TOO STRONG FOR ONE TO EAT I T PURE: T H E GUYAKI M U ST M I X IT WITH A VEGETA B L E FOOD: O N E COOKS I T I N RAGOUT W I T H HEA RTS OF PA L M . O F LANGUAGE DESIGNATE. FOR M E R ." T H E S A M E M I SADVEN­ TU R E C A N H A P P E N TO TH E FATA LEKA. FROM TH I S FACT. THEY ARE SOMETI M E S HOWEVER. T H E Y H A V E ABOVE ALL AN I DEOLOGICA L C H A R ACTER: THEY EXPRESS THE IDEAS THAT TH E I N T E R E STED H A V E OF T H E POST MORTEM EXISTENCE OF T H E H U M A N TRUE THE I ROQUOIS E N JOY THIS KIND OF FOOD. FOR I H A V E HEARD THEM SAY THAT A FT E R HAVING EATEN. THEIR STO M A C H N O T B E I N G E MPHASIZED OR A RGOT CAPABLE OF DIGESTI NG IT. BESIDES. QUENTLY FA M I L I A R C U L I N A RY TO FORC E D T O V O M I T . F E A R A N D T E R R O R T O THE LIVI NG. T H E R E I S NO DOUBT THAT TH E R E E X I ST S A N O R A L COM PON ENT OF S E X U A L DESI R E . BUT BY OBLIGATION. H I S COM M E N SA LS M U ST COMPLETELY R E ABSORB WHAT H A S U N FOR­ TUNATELY C A N NOT BEEN R E J ECTED. BUT-A N D TH I S I S WHAT WE WISHED TO SUGGEST IN THE PRECEDING NOT REDUCE PA R A G R A P H -C A N N I B A L I S M I TS E L F TO O R A LITY. BY T H E S E MEANS. O F A SEXUAL ORDER. BY S U B M I SSION TO THE WILL OF A DEAD C H I E F WHO. GEANCE. THEY GIVE. I F OFTEN. AND T H E USE O F NAMES OF M A N-EATI N G A N I M A LS OR OF COMESTI B L E S TO DESIGNATE THE LOVE PARTN E R .SOME SOCI ETIES ACCEPT I T A N D OTHERS FOR B I D IT. BUT T H I S TASTE 1 5 NOT THE ONLY T H I N G I N VOLVED. ABSTENTION DOES NOT H I N D E R C A N N I BA L­ ISM FROM H A U NT I N G FEARS. MORE "OR A L" T H A N T H E NON-CA N N I BA L : NO MORE DOES HE D E VOU R H I S PARTN E R I HIS C A N N I BA LI S M E X I STS ON A NOTH E R GROU N D ENTI R ELY.

JUST AS I N C E ST C O D E ( A N D N O T O N L Y TH E C A N N I BA L) A R E FOUND I N TH E A M ER I N D I A N MYTHOLOGY: T H E M YTH O LOGIES OF C. C A LA M E G R I A U L E M A K E A F I G U R E O F U N SO C I A L I Z E D S E X U A L I TY O U T OF EATI NG. H A V I N G T A S T E D H E R O W N B LO O D . IT POI NTS WITHOUT OUT "SA· ECONO M I C OF THE SUBJ ECTS. TH E REJ ECTION OF C A N N I BALISTIC AND PRACTICE NON-COM ESTI BLE. OF W H I C H D I V E R S E FO R M S . W R I T E S M . A S W E S E E . OR I T BE DEMANDED BY T H E C Y N I C S "TO A FF I R M TH E FIELD OF ACC E PTABLE A L L I A N C E : BETW E E N THOSE I NELIGIBLE FOR M A R R I AG E BECAUSE TOO NEAR RIGHTS OF T H E I N DI V I D U A L IN THE FACE OF SOCI ETY AND AGAI N ST A EVERY FORM MAKE OF MAN C I V I LIZA T I O N . OPPOSITION RESTS. SOM E STO R I E S A N ALYSED BY G. G I V E A N E XC E S S I V E I M AGE EXCESS (IN THE ORDER OF ADMISSIBLE T E N D E R N E S S FOR EXA M PL E l . A N D "IT R E J ECTED W I T H O U T A M B I G U I TY" A C A N N I B A L I S M THAT IT S I T U AT E D AT THE CO N F I N E S OF ITS H I STORY.A U T O . RETICENT BROTH ER: OR THAT OF T H E S U N-WOMA N . THE D E S I R E TO A BSORB. I N THE BODY OF SOC I ETY. P R OH I B I T I O N S TH E STORY OF A G I R L WHO. " SAVAGE. MORE T H A N ORALITY.A R E O N LY TH E I R I NT E R C H A N G E A B L E OWN S I G N I FICATION. I N DI V I D U A L A N D B I O LOGICAL D I SORDER: T H E EBR I E AND T H E ALLADIAN STU D I E D 57 .E N DO. O F W H I C H A N A L I M E N T A R Y C O M P A R I SON FOR M U LATES I N S U PPORTA B L E TENSION. OPPOSITION OF THE HUMAN AND THE I N H U M A N -B U T NOT THE I N VERSE-WHICH C A N B E C ON S I D E R E D A S COI NCI­ D I N G W I T H THAT WHICH AND DETE R M I N ES C O M E STI B LE THE POLI T I C A L RULER TO AND HIS THE USE OF T H E CAN N I BALI STIC M ETAPHOR. I N M Y T H S A N D TALES. B U T I T C A N A LSO S E R V E TO E X P R E S S OTH E R O P POSITIONS WHICH D E TE RM I N E P E R M I S­ REMAINS MEANS TO THOSE WHO CONTEST IT. A C A N N I BA L . A N D TH E Y A R E NOT TH E O N L Y O N E S TO A F F I R M T H I S: ACTUA L LY. TH E VIEW IS NOT CONTRADICTED BY TH E MOVE M E NTS W H I C H I N G R E E C E ITSELF H A V E CONTESTED TH E SYSTEM OF VALUES WHICH E X P R ESSES IT BE THIS REJ ECTION : I NTO ENDOGAMY. S A Y T H E H A D J E R A I . A FACT WHICH IS NOT S U R P R I S I NG. FOR A N D T H O S E I N E L I G I B L E FOR M A R RI A G E B ECA U S E TOO D I STANT. DETI E N N E.E X O .C A N N I B A L I S M . T H E C H I E F "EATS" M E N . S I B L E A N D FORBI DDEN M A R R I AG E S . F O R T H O S E W H O A R E L I M I T E D TO I M A G I N I NG IT. O R TO TH E L I M ITS OF ITS SPACE. THE OTH E R ARTICULATING I T F R O M TH E I N S I DE. IT F U R N I S H E S MOST FREQU E NTLY A D I SQ U I ETING I M AGE OF A N I NTOL E R A B L E EXCESS. IN BY M. OR TH I S G E N E R A LIZED CAN N I BA L I S M . DESI R E RETRANSFORM S ITSELF I NTO A L I M ENTARY A PPETITE. I S TOO INSPIRED BY THE BODY O F A WE A R E B ROUGHT BACK TO F R E U D. I RR U PTION ALL THESE VIRTUALITIES OF THE A L I M ENTARY NATURE IN THE BODY OF C U LTURE: IT EFFACES THE FRONTI E R S W H I C H SEPA RATE THE H U MAN WORLD FROM THE I N HUMAN WORLD. REPRESENTED ITSELF BY WAYS OF EATING. A S WELL AS FOR THOSE WHO CONFORM. AMONG TH E PEOPLE WHO COMPOSE THE WORLD O F BARBA R I A NS. I N A N A G E ANTERIOR T O H U M ANITY. CANNIBALISM CAN. NOT ANOTH E R D E F I N ITION OF CULTURE." BUT I N DICATION OF ANOTHER C U LTURE. LEVI-STR A U S S G I V E S I N N U M E R A B L E E X A M PLES.A U T OC A N N I B A L I S M . THE THAT I N C EST M ENACES I NTE R I O R OR TO OF BE SOC I ETY: EATEN BY EXOC A N N I BA L I S M -TO EAT STRA N G E R S -R E S U LTS O N E X A GG E R A T E D SOC I A L GROUP E X OG A M Y FROM THE T H E CONTRARY I N A N WHICH MENACES IT IS TH E THE EXTERIOR. T H E C A N N I BA L I STIC M ETAPHOR SERVES HERE TO C I RC U M S C R I B E THE C E RTA I N D I O N YS I A N RITUALS I N ORDER TO PROVI D E DI RECT CONTACT W I T H THE S U PE R NATURAL.A SEXUAL M ET A P H O R . A UG E E X PLA I N S I C K N ESS BY A N ANTH ROPO­ PHAGY EITH E R U N D E RGONE--CONS U M PTION O F TH E SICK ORG A N BY A SORCERER-QR I N VOLUNTA R I L Y PRACTICED A B SORPTION OF H U M A N F L E S H BY T H E BEWITC H E D PATI E NT. WHO A H ER O "TE M P E RS" A N D M A K E S M O R E C L E M E N T TOW A R DS M E N B Y POSS E S S I NG H E R WITH A PENI S M A D E OF I C E . THUS AMORPHOUS MAGMA. BUT-A N D U N DOUBTEDLY FOR THIS-TH I S I S NOT WHAT THEY DO . I N C EST. MAKE IT A NOTH ER THE TWO T H I NG THAN AN HOMOLOG I E S BETW E E N DIFFERENT CODES. IN WHICH THE STORY D E V E LO P S IN PLAYING ON ABOL I S H E S T H E D I ST I N CTION W H I C H . POLITI C A L AND RELIGIOUS C U R R E NT OF AN LANGU AGE. I T PLACES C U LTURE IN QUESTION. T H E V E R Y PROOF O F TH E ABSENCE OF C U LTURE. CANNIBALISM. NOT THE V A R I ETI ES. A S WELL A S O F I T S P E R I L S O R S A N C T I O N S : ENDOCAN­ N I BA L I S M -EATI NG EXC E S S I V E WHICH O N E 'S KI N-EXPRESSES IS TO SAY AN D I SORDER: T H E G R E E K C I TY. C A N N I B A L I S M I S T H U S A F I G U R E O F DISORDER. WH ETH E R I N TEGRATED I M PR U D E N T U N I ON WITH T H I S S T R A N G E FOR E I G N E R WHO I S T H E SE D U CTI V E OGR E . ON T H E I D E A T H A T C A N N I B A L I S M I S A N U N REGULATED B E H A VIOR. SI NCE FREUD WAS C E RTA I N LY NO C A N N I BAL! BUT I T IS TIME TO ASK IF THIS I S HOW THOSE WHO ARE THI N K A N D ACT.A L I M E N T A R Y I NC EST-FEELS MATE A REAL THE A RD E N T AND D E S I R E T O CONS U ­ THIS F R U ST R A T E D ORGA N I Z E TH E SOC I A L F I E L D CONJOI NTLY. WE I M MEDIATELY GIVE A RESPONSE THAT I S PERHAPS U N EXPECTED: THIS IS WHAT THEY TH I N K . W H I C H IS M ETAPHORIZED. A PPEARS AS AN S U B­ OF PRE-H U M A N . TH E ONE DELI M ITING IT FROM THE OUTSI D E . VAGES. I T IS AGGRESSIVITY.

T H E G U Y A K I H A V E NO N E E D OF M YTHS TO CONDEMN CANNIBALISM: THEY EAT TH E I R OWN O N E WILL SAY THAT THERE R E M A I N S ' A N I R R EDU­ C I B L E DIFFERENCE BETWEEN T H E C A N N I BALS AND T H E OTH ERS: J U ST A S S E V E R E A S T H E FI RST C A N BE IN T H E I R CON D E M N ATION OF S A V A G E C A N N I ­ DEAD A N D IT I S WELL. . NEAR OR N E IG H BORS WHO BEHAVE D I F­ ONE SEES THAT REAL C A N N I BA L I S M OUGHT NOT TO EXC L U D E I M AG I N A R Y C A N N I B A L I S M . I F. . GUIDIERI TELLS US. A R E SYSTEMATI­ CA LLY OPPOS ED TO RITUAL PRACTICES. "OPPOSE TO THEIR I NSTITU­ ITSELF. THE VICT I M 'S SEX I S I M PORTANT TO C E RTA I N OF TH E M WHO ONLY EAT MALE I N D I VI D U A L S AND EXCLUDE TH I S WOM E N . PRECISELY THE "SAVAGES." O N E AND T H E OTH E R EQUALLY R EJ ECTED . POS ITIVE O R N EGATIVE. . CHODOW I E D SPEAKS. THE C O M ESTI B L E THE (OR IS N OT A LWAYS LIABLE TO THEY PEOPLE TH E I R MYTHS WITH CHA RACTE RS WHO EAT ANYONE AT A LL-TH E I R NEAR KIN. I S ATT R I B UTED TO AN ANCIENT PEOPLE OF THE I NTERIOR . AND THE ENDOC A N N I BALS WHO DO DO NOT EAT FOR E I G N E RS. WHILE THE BE R EG I M E -"A PLAN OF P R I V I LEGED S I G N I FICATION TO D E FI N E TH E SYSTEM OF R E LATIONS BETWEEN M A N . W H I C H EXISTED BEFO R E THE SOC I ETY OF MEN . A S M . T H E Y A R E TRUE: C A N N IBALS. THIS C A N N I BA L I S M ." A AND IF TH E OF R E SERVED FOR C E RTA I N CATEGO R I ES OF I N D I VID­ U A LS. G R E E KS . A N D EQUALLY I M A G I N A RY. STRONGLY R E P ROVED. AND I N T H I S S E N S E O N E C A N S A Y THAT THEY RESPECT THE SAME PROH I BI T I O N : ON E C A N NOT EAT EVERYTH I NG. A L L. NOTABLY THOSE OF M A R RIAGE AND OF DI ET. IN THE WITH EYES SMOKE OF AND ODORS. W H I C H ." THE M ETHODS O F COOKI N G AND OF P R E P A R ATION VARY AS WELL FROM ONE GROUP TO A NOTH ER. TH E FUTU RE VICTIM MAY H A V E H I S WORD TO SA Y. T H E F A C T I S T H A T T H E Y E A T M E N A N D THAT THE LATT E R 00 NOT. SOC I A LIZED. I F O N E P R E F E R S . WHAT DO THEY SEEM TO TH E M ­ N O LACK OF R U LES. T H E PROH I B ITION OF SAVAGE C A N N I BA L I S M DOES NOT EXC LUDE R E A L THE C A N N I BA L A N D TH E NON­ C A N N I BA L I S M . C A R N A L A L I M E NTATION I S A FORM O F A NTH ROPOPHAGY. EACH R E PR E S ENTS I N THE S A M E W A Y TH I S I N A D M ISSABLE ANTH ROPOPHAGY. A N D AT FI RST G L A N C E INCOMPR E H E N S I B L E : THEY TAKE O F F E N S E AT BEING TREATED AS EATERS-OF. BUT IT MAY P R ACTI C E G E N E R A L. C A N N I ­ BALISM. THAT PASSED SAVAGE MONSTROUS C A N N I BA­ E M PLOYS C A N N I BA L I STIC M ETAPHORS. DO NOT EAT T H E I R DEAD. F I N A LLY. I N SHORT. TIONALIZED C A N N I B A L I S M A SAVAGE C A N N I BALISM. OR THE MORIBUND MAY " D ET E R M I N E WHICH OF HIS KIN W I LL BE LITTLE BIT O F A C A N N I BAL. ANOTH E R PARALLELISM EXTENDS D I R EC T I O N : P R I M ITIVE SAVAGE C A N N I BA L I S M PA I R E D WITH "PRO M I SC U ITY. IS NEVER A G E N E R A L A N D S I L L Y D E F I N ITION. ONE IS A LWAYS SOM E O N E ELSE'S C A N N I BAL. (OF WHOM) CANNIBAL C U STOMS. TH E FATA LEKA. O R . AND THE S U P E R N A T U R A L" FOR THE OTH ERS D O N O T TA K E MAY BE INTO ACCOUNT. A PA R A LL E L I S M . E V E RYTH I NG DEPENDS ON THE POI N T OF V I EW. I N C ESTUOUS C A N N I BA LS. IN HIS A L I M ENTA R Y U NORDERED: T H E FOR .F I R S T OF SELVES. C A N N I B A L JOI N I N CON D E M N I N G I N T H E S A M E WAY AND FOR T H E S A M E R E A SO N S AN U N R ESTRA I N E D C A N N I BA LI S M . BUT THIS I S NOT SO S U R E . NATURE. THE C A N N I BA LS A R E ALWAYS THE OTH ERS. IS PU RELY I M A­ G I N A RY.: AN EXAMPLE T O B E AVO! DED. I N BRIEF T H E R E I S SB . EXAM PLE. THE GUAIANI. S I N C E ONE C A N NOT BE CONTENT A R O M AT I C LIKE THE GODS. DETI E N N E SHOWS. TELLS HOW MAN RIAGEABLE. AND PREPA R E D IN ANY WAY AT ALL-RAW. BUT THEIR NEIGHBORS. A U THOR IZED TO TASTE HIS FLESH. THE CON S U M M ATION. B A L I S M ." AS FOR TH E I ROQUOI S. FOR BECOMES E V I D E NT: O N E C A N NOT M A R R Y A N YO N E . STRICT PYTHAGO R I A N S . THE B A S I C M YTH OF THE CELEBRATED POLITICAL ASSOCIATION.A R E NOT." PEOPLE WITHOUT GOOD MAN NERS: F E R ENTLY.M A N M UST PLACE H I M S E L F SOM EWH E R E " B E TW E E N B EASTS AND IS GODS. . G I V :. AND THOSE THAT ACC EPT A CO M P R O M I S E " D EC I D I NG T H A T C E R TA I N SAC R I F I ­ CIAL VICTI MS-PIGS A N D GOATS . . WHO KILL TH E I R E N E M I ES A N D EAT TH E M . OF WHOM U . . T H A T I S T O T H E PROPER M A N N E R OF E A T I N G M E N . A N D T H E S E OTH E R S ARE C A N N I B A L I S M . ONE O N LY MODALITY R I S K S B E I N G I N E V I T A B LY A A LEATORY O R REGULATED. IT IS C O N S U M PT I O N . . "TH E FIVE NATIONS: FROM THE A I ROQUOI S. PROH I B ITIONS PARALLELISM S I M PLY WITH WITH SEXUAL MATRIMONIAL) U N D E RSTOOD-A N D P E R H A PS EVEN THEM SELVES. L I S M TO I N STITUTION A L I Z E D .M E N . WHO ARE R U LES. NOR OF MORE O R LESS E LABORATE J USTI FI CATIONS. SINCE IT I S I N O P PO S I N G ITSELF THAT THE L A TT E R DEFI N E S MYTHICAL POPULATIONS-DI STANT IGNORANT OF ANY IN T I M E AND SPACE. . . THIS APPEARS I NCONTEST­ A B L E -E S P E C I A LLY TO US WHO G I V E C A N N I BA L I S M IN OTH E R WORDS. AS WITH THE FORE WHO CUT U P THE DEAD I N EATING TH E M . THIS HAS N OT H I N G TO DO WITH A GENERALIZED THOSE W H O S E E M T O US T O BE C A N N I ­ B A L S 1 A C U R I O U S PROBLE M . R E A L C A N N I BA L I S M EXOCA N N I BA LS. C O M P L E T E L Y U N ATTESTED AND E V E R YW H E R E D R E A DE D . M A Y BE COMPLETE OR NOT. ANY "KISSABLE" A P E R SO N IS NOT A L WA Y S THAT M A R­ IN IS E X A M PLE-AND I T I S N ECESSARY TO DESTROY TH E M OR TO B R I N G TH E M T O R E A SON. THE D I STRI BUTION OF PARTS MAY BE ANTH ROPOPHAGY A L L E LO P H A G Y .

ENTERED M ATRI M ON I A L F I E LD: THOSE ADOPTED COU L D H A V E B E E N EATEN J UST A S THOSE E A T E N C O U L D H A V E B E E N ADOPTED. FOR A SOCIOLOG I C A L R E A S O N . EXCEPT IN THE I M A G I N AT I O N . J UST A S I NCEST A N D C O R R E L A T I V E LY THE A UT H O R I Z E D ALLIANCE A DOPTED. T H E Y A L MOST I N EVITABLY !lEI . FOR TH E TUPI. OF AND THAT M EAT HAVE TIES OF K I N S H I P. HIS LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. T H I S IS NOT BECAUSE THE LATTER A R E MORE D E LECTABLE. A N D T H O S E THAT WERE EATEN WERE THUS THOSE W ITH WHOM O N E BIOLOGICAL D E F I NI T I O N OF C A N N I BA L I S M : TO EAT MEN. I F THE FLESH OF T H E F A R M COW M UST NOT BE C ON S U M E D . E V E N THOSE OF ANOTH E R NATION: TH E I R V I CTI M S WERE FO R E I G N E RS. V A R I A B I LITY O F THE PROHIBITED IN FACT. THE V A R I ANTS M UST BE THE OTH E R TWO POPULATIONS. I N T H E T H I R D CASE. THE TUPI. I T IS U N D E R STOOD THAT THESE NOTI O N S ARE RELATIVE. OR TO R ECONS I D E R THE E X A M P L E OF THE D I D N O T W I S H TO FORGE A L I N K OF K I N S H I P." M ETA PHORI Z I N G THE NON-C A N N I BALS I NVERSELY. IS THE M E AT. A L L I A N C E. THE SON AND TH E GREEKS. K I N OR NOT. A N D T H E PERTI NENT OPPOSITION I S T H U S ONE W I L L FIND. AND RECI PROCA LLY: BROTHER H ERE. TH I S IS NOT B EC A U S E OF ANY EFFECTIVE R E S E M BLANCE. N A T U R A LLY: T H E G U Y A K I EAT THE B E LO N G DEAD AND IN THE GROUP TO WHICH BECAUSE TH E Y ITS THOSE OF EXOGAM Y A N D EN DOGAM Y. C A N N I B A L I S M I S A W A Y OF TH I N K I N G M O R E THAN A WAY OF E A T I N G ." T H I S R ESTRICTION I S EXPLA I N E D B Y TH E CLOS E N E S S O F C O W A N D M A N : F U N D A M E NTAL­ LY M EAT IS MORE OR LESS M A N . WHAT IS DETE R M I N I NG FOR TH E I ROQUOIS AND THE TUPI IS TO LESS A KINSHI P THAN THE F I ELD EXPLAI N S T H E M U LT I P L I C I TY O F SYSTEMS. I N TASTE FOR EXAM PLE. DO THEY NOT FOR M A EFFECT I V E WEAK N ESS. T H A T OF K I N S H I P . AND S I STER DO NOT EAT THE TWO EACH OTH E R . PROH I B I T I O N S C O N S E Q U E NTLY. THUS. OF EXOCA N N I B A LS. TO BE BUT. HOWEVE R FROM THE ACCOR D I N G R EG I M E. SINCE R EAL. NON E ATE EACH OTH E R : THOSE THAT T H EY ATE THEY I MA G I N E D B Y A L L A S SUPPOSED ELSEWHERE. E V E R Y C A R N I VO R E I S A C A N N I BAL. AND EXOC A N N I BA LI S M . A FLESH ESTI MATED TOO C LO S E TO THAT OF MAN. T H E Y EAT T H O S E FATH ERS WITH WHICH THEY C A NNOT FLESH FARM COWS. I ROQUO I S D I D NOT EAT I ROQUOIS. COM B I N E A N D H A V E THE S A M E B R E A DTH. WITH THAT OF M A N . WHICH THE WOM E N HAD OF GROUPS FROM ONE TA K E N P R I SO N E R S FOR T H E P U R POSE O F EATI NG THEM COULD BE M A R R I ED. CAN ONE EFFECTIVE A A L I MENTARY J U OG E D SAY C A N N I BA L B Y T H E AS W E LL T H A T COULD J UST EVERYONE I S O N E . COPULATE: AND MOTHE R S DO NOT EAT T H E I R SONS AND DAUGHTE RS. TH E AS FOR I NCEST AND THE SEXUALITY I S EASI LY U N D ERSTOOD. T H E PROH I B I TION A N D PRESC R I PTION O F C A N N I BA L I S M DEFI N E S ITSELF FOR M A LLY BY THE SOC I A L POSI TION O F HIM WHO M U ST BE EATEN. N OT WHO OF IS DEFINE BY A LL I A N C E OFTEN THI S PHANTASM. CA N N I B ALS N EG A T I O N PHANTASM AND ONE ENCOUNTERS T H E MSELVES ONLY THE THI S IN A SPEAK " E L E M E NT A R Y EVEN KINSHIP WHEN AND S T R U CT U R E THEY ARE CANNIBALISM. BOTH PRACTI C I NG C A N N I BA L I S M WITH TH E I R PRISONERS ARE WITH WHICH. SO M E EXAMPLES WHICH GIVE AN I DEA-A FOR E T A ST E -O F THAT T H A T OF E N DOCA N N I B A L I S M . T H E R E AGA I N THE M ETAPHORICAL AND REVERSIBLE L I A I SO N OF CA N N I BA L I S M AND FORM A LLY DEFI N E S ITSELF B Y T H E G E N E A LOG I C A L POSITION OF TH E P A R T N E R . C A LLED "BROTH ERS-IN-LAW. BUT O N E EATS STRA NGERS. ONE C A N SAY THAT NO O N E IS A C A N N I B A L. BUT CONSIDERED I N TH E L I G H T OF TH E I R COM M U N A L H I STORY. FOR THE I ROQUOIS. O N E F I N A LLY. ONE COULD OF C A N NIBALISM THUS DOES NOT E X I ST. IF ONE FORBIDS ONESELF T H E E A TI NG OF ONE'S KIN. OTH E R S . IT W A S A POSSI B I LITY EXPRESSED E N E MY BY THE LANGUAGE. IT IS BEC A U S E DA UGHTER . ATE T H E M OR O N E ADOPTED THEM. THE C A NNOT SLAUGHTER O F W H O M I S T H E OBJECT O F A FOR M A L PROH I BITION. R IGHT IN WHO. ONE E A T S R E A L OR POTENTI A L A LLIES. ALLI E S O R NOT. AT LEAST POTEN T I A LLY. THE THE FORM E R I S NOT D O N E . I L LUSTRATED B Y THE GUYAKI. S I N C E THE O N LY PEOPLE EXCLUDED FROM TH E RITUAL WERE THE FATH E R AND M OT H E R . FURNISH A LANGUAGE FOR C A N N I B A L I S M : WITH I N A GROUP. I T IS B EC A U S E OF T H E QUASI­ SOCI A L STATUS OF T H E A N I M A L S I M I LA R LY. THE BROTH E R OR THE S I STER OF THE DEAD PERSON. S I N C E T H E NOMENCLATURE OF K I N S H I P S U F F I C E S T O I N DICATE WHO CAN OF AND AN C A NNOT BE EATEN. T H I S I S I N EVITABLE FOR THE G U Y A K I . TWO G RO U PS THAT WAGE W A R P E R IODICALLY. A P P A R TE N A N C E POLITI C A LLY DEFINED GROUP. AT THE S A M E T I M E. A N D AS ROUSSE A U ALSO THOUGHT (SEE EMILEI. AS ARE O R D E R E D SI M U LT A N EOUSLY ACCOR D I N G TO M A N Y A X E S . THE E R RO R N O T T O B E COMMITTED I S THAT OF CONTENTI N G ONESELF WITH A M A T E R I A L.PROPERLY A C T U A LLY S P E A K I NG . I N THIS R E V I EW. P R I SO N E R S T H A T T H E Y B R O U G H T THE I R EXPEDITIONS W E R E THE OBJECT O F A CHOICE. TH E GROUP THAT O N E TOOK P R I SO N E R WAS A L SO THAT FROM WHICH ONE BROUGHT IN BACK FULL P EO P L E . I L L U STRATED BY WHICH C O U L D B E A G E N E R A L T H EORY OF C A N N I ­ BALISTIC STR U C T U R E S ." D E T E R M I N ATES.

S I N G LE. OF THE FATA L E K A . G RO U P . WITH R E G A R D TO T H I S . THAT T H E THE EXAMPLE OF R. T H E SECON D. M AKES. ''TH EM T O H A V E B E E N MUCH B E TT E R DETE R M I N E D . I T WOU L D THUS BE SI M PLISTIC TO SAY THAT O N E K I LLS TO EAT. AT T H E S A M E T I M E . P E R H A PS ONE M U ST S E E I N T H E S E TORTU R E S A SORT O F C U I S I N E . CA N N I BA L I S M . THEY O R D E R E D WOR L D: P A R E NTS. ON THE N EC E SSARY T O EAT T H E L I V I NG. I S REGULATED CON S U M PTION --<lFT E N T A K I N G PLACE IN A VERY E L A BO R A T E R I T U A L-OF A C OO K E D WERE PREPARI NG TO DINE AT HIS EXPENSE WERE GOI N G TO REC UPERATE TH E I R C A N N I B A LIZED DEAD BY I NGESTING SAID HIM. O N L Y T H E BONE S B E I N G THROWN AWAY. IS A L M OS T IN THE A LW A Y S A IT I S A L S O NECESSARY T O TAKE I NTO ACCO U N T THE M A N N E R I N WHICH T H E O N E WHO I S EATEN DIED: FROM A NATU RAL O R A VIOLENT DEATH. OR FROM THE H A N D OF THOSE WHO H E I S GOI NG TO NOURISH. THE E N DOC A N N I BA LS. S I NC E ONE ON LY K I L LS ONE'S C A R N I VO R E . EVIDE NTLY. PROPER LY S P E A K I NG. O N C E THE M I S U N D E R S TA N D I NG S AND A R E DISSI PATED. O N E COU L D SAY. HAD BEEN THEM. POI NT IS OF A N ALYSIS GUIDIERI I ROQUOIS MATIC WAS FEDE RATION CAME PARTICULARLY REVEALING FROM THIS VIEW. W A S A LSO A R E C U P E RATIO N . TH E CONCEP­ TION O F T H E WORLD A N D MAN. BUT A FT E R SO LONG A DELAY THAT O N E COU LD NO LONGER CONSIDER EX ECUTION." THAT I N V E R S E LY. I T I S A C U LT U R A L PHENOM ENON. SHOULD B E T A K E N I NT O CONSIDERATION. AS AT THE M O M E NT OF THEIR THEY TEM­ NO CANNIBALISM GROUP MAKES OF C A N NOT I SOLATED F R O M R E P R E S E NT A T I O N S T H A T SOC I ET Y ITSELF AND FOR OTH E R S . "TH E KI L L E D AND ATE A L L THEIR P R I SONERS. I N TO THE E F F E CT I V E LY. THOSE W H O PRACTICE IT OPPOSE A C A N NI B A L I S M T H A T I S DISHONORABLE. I N A NTICI PATION. AND EVEN. AFTER THE THEIR EXPEDITIONS. ON THE WHOLE IT RESI D U . A L L I E D A N D FOR E I G N . DETA I N N El. CA N N I B A L PEOPLES H A V E B E E N D I SCUSSED.l LS WHO WERE EATEN. LET TH E F L E S H OF T H E C A D A V E R D E C A Y . AND E V I DENTLY. S I M PLY C A PTURED ENEMY. JOI N IN CON­ M U R DERER WAS T H E ONLY O N E NOT TO PA RTICI ­ PATE I N T H E D I N N E R . IN A PEOPLE AND USAGE OF TH I S M ETHOD. ON T H E POI N T OF BEING EATEN. " MOREOVER. DO NOT KILL TO EAT. T H I S D O E S NOT M E A N THAT THE I ROQUOIS M A D E WAR S I M PLY TO K I L L AND EAT: THEY FOUGHT TO TA K E PRISONERS. C LASTRES. AND THEY TOOK PRISONERS WITH TH E P U R POSE OF A DOPTI NG A GOOD N U M B E R . AS FOFl T H E TUPI. GODS. IN BE EVERY CASE. MEN AND A N I M A LS . SO M UC H SO THAT. I ROQUOIS OF PURE STR A I N WERE QUITE RARE. IF FOR I NT E G R A T E D . O N E WOU L D H A V E L I K E D . THOSE THE THINGS M U ST PLACED C O R R ECTLY THAT WERE N'T WANTED. THE THAT IS WHY. C A N N I BA LS N O N -C A N N I B A LS D EM N I NG I T IN T H E N A M E OF T H E S A M E P R I N C I PA LS OR ORDER AND OF THE PRECISE D E L I M ITATION TH E PASSAGE FROM SAVAGE AND MYTHIC C A N N I ­ BETW E E N N A T U R E A ND C U LTURE. E N OOCA N N I B A L GROUP7 THE TUPI SEEM TO BE CONSCIOUS OF TH I S : T H E V A LOROUS WARRIOR. PRIZE T H E LATT E R . T H E C U I S I N E. CON S E Q U E NTL Yl A N D T H A T O N E C A N E A T THOSE T H A T O N E HAS K I L LED-TH I S IS POLIC E D I ROQ U O I S I N F LICTED ATROC IOUS TREAT M E N T O N TH E I R P R I SONERS. T H E FI RST I S TH E SOLITA R Y EATING OF A JEAN POUI LLON 60 . T H E TORTU RES ENDURED B Y T H E VICTI M S B E FO R E TH E I R E X ECUTION SHOULD N O T B E N EG LECTED: WAY BACK. PRACTICED. A N D W I T H O U T A DO U BT T H E SYSTEM OF C A T E GO R I E S E L A BO R A T E D BY CLAUDE LEVI­ I ROQ U O I S EXPLAIN STR A U S S WOULD B E A P P LICABLE H E R E TOO. B U T O N E SAYS NOTHI N G A BO U T T H E E V E N T U A L D I V I SION BETW E E N COM M E N SA LS. A L L Y IS TOTAL. IT IS NOT A L L O V E R . W R I T E S H . THEY WERE LON G E R A N YON E I N PARTI C U L A R . I NC I T E D THEM WHICH TO T H E TUPI THEIR C A D A V E R O F W H I C H C E RTA I N ORGANS C O U L D B E RESERVED GORIES OF OR FOR B I D D E N TO C E RTA I N CATE­ EXPLICITLY EAT PERSONS. PO R A R I L Y . T H E CON S U M PTION G E N E R­ E N E M I ES. O N T H E CONTRARY. I N FACT. I S N O T T H E S A M E E N E M I ES. SOME. B A L I S M T O SOC I A LIZED C A N N I BA L I S M I NC I T E D T H E I N VENTION OF C U L I N A RY P R E PA RATION A N D TABLE M A N N ERS. T H E N C L E A N A N D P U L V E R I S E T H E BON E S W H I C H T H E Y E A T M I XE D W I T H A B A N A N A P U R E E . THE CANNIBAL STI LL. DO NOT EAT THOSE THEY H A V E K I LLED: TH E Y TUPI EAT TH E I R AND "DEAR DEPA RTED. VENGEANCE. N E V E R FAILS TO R E M I N D H I S TORTU R E R S OF HOW M A N Y OF T H E M H E HAD EATEN I N T H E PAST. O R T H E PEOPLE WITH WHOM ONE LIVES-TH I S IS "SAVAGE" C A N N I BA L I S M -BUT I T I S F I R ST N ECESSARY T O K I L L ( E N E M I E S. RELIGION. T H E Y A N O M A M I . FOR H ON O R A B L E C A N N I BA L I S M . " (M. A N D THAT THOSE WHO L I V I NG B E I NG THAT ONE EATS RAW. O P PO S I T I O N BETW E E N F L E S H A N D BONES. THE DEMOG R A PH­ IC AND THUS POLI T I C A L I M PO R T A N C E O F TH E FROM THE SYSTE­ F I N ALLY. BE DEAD AND L I V I NG.

. . . . . EACH OF U S MUST GIVE TWO PERSONS ACCOR D I NG TO OUR T H A T I S . . . . . . . YESSI MOBIO CH I LD R E N A N Y M O R I!:. . NANGUY TOH I 4 . . 9 PERSONS A S S OC I A T E D. . . . . . MY I LL N E S S HAS G ROWN WHOSE N A M E I DO NOT K NOW . . (2) MOMO N ' B EGZA I : KILLED A N NO H AND A NOTH E R FROM THAT M O M ENT. . . . . (2) D I A BOLI C A L CONFESSION THAT I S . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ." IT I S EXCLUSIVELY A D I A BOLICAL DAMAGES AND M I SD E E D S I D R I N K H U M A N B L OO D A N D I EAT H U M A N F L E S H . . 5 PERSONS MY ASSOCIATES K I L L E D . ENDED DEVILS AND I UP EATING T H E I R M EAT. MOMO GBEKRAI 3. . . . . (2) STRONGER. ME AWAY WITHOUT SAYING A N YTHI N G TO PREGNA NT. M Y S I S T E R A K R A I WHO HAD JUST GIVEN B I RTH. . ( 2 ) T H E D I O U LA S K I L L E D 6 PERSONS WHOSE N A M E S I DO NOT K NOW . 2 5. . . . . THERE ARE 1 0 OF US DEVILS A SSOC I A T E D IN ORDER TO EAT: 7 E B R I E S A N D 3 D I O U LAS. THESE TWO P R I ESTS T U R N ED ME. . 1 954 C H I L D R E N : BEUGRE. (2) OFFICE OF T H E S E C RETA R Y O F PRO P H ET ATCHO A LB E RTS A S SOC I AT I O N B R EGBO P. . . . . . . . . . . . . KOFFI A K PA 7. . THE PERSONS K I LL E D BY MY ASSOCI ATES: ONCE I WANTED TO GO AND TAKE D J OM A N . I H A V E STA Y E D WITH THEM I N ORDER TO DO BY WAY OF MY D I A BOLICAL ACTIVITY I K I LLED M Y EVERYT H I N G A N D EAT W I TH THEM. . (2) Y ESSI MOBIO BOTTY: K I LLED TWO O F A M I A N . .M I N'S AUGUST 22. . . AGREEM E NT. SHORTLY THEREA FT E R I G A V E U P T H I S PLANTATION. . . . . . SOLD DJOKE-BRI'S PLANTATIO N . . . B I N G E R V I LLE R E P U B L I C OF T H E IVORY COAST BUEGRE-B R I : KILLED A G O U A TC H A GOUA AND A KOUATC H A YOUA . . . THAT IS WHY SHE C A N NOT HAVE 6. .B I E . . I . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ALOKE D J E B A . . . . . . . . . . . . (2) KOFFI KPA: KILLED N ' M LOUYA AND A N EW-BO R N C H I LD W I T H O U T N A M E . . . . . . 61 . . .O. . . . . TO GIVE HER TO THE D E V I LS . . . . . 1 8 PERSONS WHICH M EA N S A LTOGETHER . . . . . . . I FOU N D TWO AHlMAN LOBA: KILLED A TO B I O. . . . . . . . . . . A H l M A N LOBA 2. .M O B I O WHO WAS P R I E STS IN DJOKE-BRI'S Y A R D. . . . . . . . . . . . 1 . . . H E R E A R E MY ASSOCI ATES' N A M ES: MY C H I L D D J A N N E A N D DJOMAN-BIE WERE G I V E N U P TO T H E D E V I L S B Y M E . . . . . . .B I E BY FORCE. . . . . . T H E OTH E R'S NAME I 00 NOT KNOW . . . . . I CHOSE DJOM AN-BIE T O B E K I LLED FI RST. . 5 P E R S O N S K I LL E D. . . . . . . . . . . I THAT I S . . . . . .APPE N D I X N A NGUY TOH I : K I LLED AGOUSSI-BRI A N D H E R C H I L D YUEMIN . 2 3 PERSONS K I LLED 1 B PERSONS K I LLED BY MY ASSOC I ATES "LET THE A U D I E N C E K N O W T H A T THI S PASSAGE I S NOT COMMON: CASE. . . . . . . . A N D M Y SON AKE G U I A N I . . . . . . . A N D T H E N M Y C H I LD D J A N N E . FROM THAT VERY DAY. . . . . . . . . . . . " . . M Y O L D E R BROTH E R N'GBA D J U I . NAME: LOGA I D J U I SEX: FEMALE V I LLAGE: ABIGJAN-ADJ A M E RACE: E B R I E RELIGION: HARRIS SUMMARY: THEREFORE I K I L L E D . . . . . . . . . . O W N MOTH E R. W A S T E M PT E D BY T H E I O P E N LY DEC L A R E THAT I A M A D E V I L. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . LOGA I D J U I . . . . . . . . . . . . . B E UGRE-BRI I CONVERTED MYSELF I NTO A M A N TO SLEEP W I T H D J A KO. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . M Y BROT H E R J E A N N A N TC H IO. . . . . . . . . . . TH R E E D I O U LAS WITHOUT N A M E S 5 . . . . . . . .

TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE 62 . BUT G O D D I D N O T G I V E ME A W A Y . WHEREAS I AM REALLY A D E V I L AND I SEE E V ERYTH I NG THAT THE D E V I L S O F M Y V I LLAGE DO. T H I S I S WHY I A M A LWA YS ILL WHEN I STAY AT HIS HOUSE. I AM V E R Y U PS E T.I GAVE SOME D I S E A S E S TO A L MOST E V E RYBODY I N TH I S COU RT. Y E ZOU DJAKO. U PO N THE PEBBLES OF A U B U R N M A R L. ATC H O A L B E RT. F E M A L E C A N A A N F I R M L Y MOIST A N D F I L L E D WITH PROM I S E D E E P. NOW I A M NOT PLEASED WITH TH I S WATER B EC A U S E I T TA K E S AWAY FROM U S THE W A Y OF ONCE. I A S K E V E RYBODY I N M Y V I LLAGE. THEY DECLARED THAT WE WHO HAD NOT C O N F E S S E D GOI NG AND TO IN TH E I R WOU L D FROM D E V I LS. T H E BLOWN FLUTE IN T H E A I R : LITTLE DROPS LIKE T E A R S OF MILK HAVE W E PT. I BESEECH YOU. M Y V I LLAGE TO TAKE ATC H O A LB E RT'S WATER OF BLESSING. AND I T TA K E S I T FOR ITS D A N K EST D R I PSTONE. MY D E V I L D I S L I K E S ONLY THIS GI RL. O B E Y I NG T H E SLOPE A N D H E E D I NG ITS C A LL. OF WHICH I A M NOT PLEASED. AT A COME TI M E I TO WANTED PEOPLE IN M R. FECIT I T S T H E O P E N O L I V E I N ECSTA SY. ZOBERMAN TO F I N D A WAY TO DIE RELIGION. A R TH U R R I M BA U D I T S THE C E LESTI A L T U B E DO W N W H I C H A L L FONDANTS F R E E L Y FLOW. R E C OV E R . EXC E PT D I E K E A N D R E . WOULD BR E GBO S U F F E R I NG F R O M THE S A M E I LLNESSES. INVENIT N EST O F T H R O B B I N G S I G H S. STILL DAMP FROM LOVE THAT TRICKLES SOFT A LONG WHITE T H I G H S RIGHT TO ITS LIP. I D E C I D E D TO MAKE A D E V I L OF MYSELF TH E M IN SO THAT I ORDER WOULD B E R E P R I M A N DED BY IN TH I S (SIGN E D ) : LOGA I D J U I TRAN SLATED B Y P . S A KE. M R. P A U L V E R LA I N E A N D A R TH U R R I M B A U D OFTEN M Y MOUTH I S P R ESSED AGA I NST I T S HOLE. ITS D A R K A N D P U C K E R E D L I K E A VIOLET ROSE IT PULSES. ELSEWH E R E I A M A LWAYS W E LL. H U M BLY H I DD E N A M I DST THE MOSS. A N D M Y BROTH E R DJO M A N . P R A Y FOR MY ON THE OTH E R HAND I DO N OT L I K E A H I BA K E S A K E SO THAT I FORGOT TO PRAY FOR SAY MY F I N A LLY RECOVER A N D-WHAT I TOO-A SK GOD TO FORG I V E M E . AND E LS E W H E R E TOO. PRESENCE NEVER B E FO R E BR E GBO RETURN I DO NOT WANT TO S E E TH E M ANY LONG E R . I TR I E D T O GO A S A DEVIL TO HARM MY EATING AND DOI NG WHAT WE WANT. SO THAT I CAN FORGET A H O B R I AT A L L A N D I A LWAYS TAKE H E R BLOOD. TH E SO N N ET O F THE HOLE IN THE ASS PAUL VERLAINE OFTE N MY S O U L W I L L Y E A R N FOR A FUCK WITH FLESH. B E N EATH T H E ZEPHYR BLOWING C R U EL. E V E R YTH I N G T H A T N O W H A P P E N S THROUGH T H E TH E H A R R I S A POSTLES U PSET M E . I D I D S O BEC A U S E ONCE H E C H A S E D A FTER A WOM A N . H U S BAND.

PLASTIC AND PRECIOUS SACRA M E N T H O M E WITH H I M. H I S B E LOVED SUPERIOR." A N D SUCH LIKE. T H E SA M E P R I N C I PLE I S AT W O R K H E R E -TH E S U B M I S­ S I V E SOUL THAT C L I NGS TO E V E R YTH I NG. T H U S DOES TH E I R W A STE BECOME THE LOW L Y ' S O N E N O U R I S H M E NT : TH E I R F I LT H C L E A N S E S THE S L A V E : T H E I R FOU L N E S S S E E M S A AFTER A SLAVE H A S FANTASIZED H I M S E L F AS A N A N I M A L. IT I S V E R Y PEC U L I A R TO THE SUPE RIOR TO R E A L I ZE TH E S L A V E WORS H I PS H I S OR H E R WASTE MORE THAN A N Y G OO D Q U A LITY. T H E N A W O R M . A PET." "SHOWER OF SWEETN ESS. THE SUPERIOR CAN HE TA K E OR NO PRIDE IN SUCH TH E I R FETI S H I S M B Y R E M I N D I NG T H E S U P E R I O R O F THE OCCA SION TH E I R WHEN SHE OR HE UP M A Y H A V E NOTIC E D THEY HAVE SLAVE PICKING CRUMBS DROPPED ON T H E FLOOR A N D EATI NG T H E M . A R E R E V E R E D A N D SOUGHT A FTE R B Y THE M ASOC H I ST AS THE SOURCE OF H I S TRUE TH E SLAVE D E I F I E S THESE SUBSTA N C E S. EVEN THE LEAVI NGS OF HIS B E LOVED S U PERIOR. U N EQ U I VOCALLY REGA R D E D AS HORRID. H I S CONTACT W I T H T H E M C O N F I R M S H I S 63 . IN T H I S POOR WAY.E F F A C E M E N T . SUB-H U M A N . MOVES O N T O ACTI N G L I K E F U R N I T U R E A N D BEING INVISI BLE. DOES T H E SLAVE I NGEST. A S U B M I SS I V E B E YO N D A MONG SLAVES. B U T FECES A N D U R I N E ARE TH E RAW IN MATE R I A L THIS FOR A LL THAT EXI STS NO AND LESSNESS AND PERSONI FI E D. HE SUBSTA N C E O N E A RTH.COPROPHAGY A N D U R I N OLOGY I WISH TO I NTRODUCE THI S MOST EXTR E M E TR U E LOW N ESS OF BEI NG. SLAVES. GIVING TH E M SUCH NAMES AS "GOLDEN E L I X I R. WHEN G R O WS W O R L D-TH E Y THEY A RE ARE MORE PROFESSES HIS A M BITION AND ATTRACTION TO BE AS ONE W I TH THE FECES AND URINE OF THE WO N D E R F U L SLAVE THAN D I S G U ST I N G -T H E A TO COCOON CARRY OF HIS D E VO U T L Y SACKS PREPARES BOXES SUPERIOR. UTTE R LY ATTA I N S B E CO M E S D I S G U ST I N G . U N LE S S SHE REGARDS PRODUCTS WITH T H E SA M E GLAMORIZED E Y E S A S T H E MASOC H I ST. HE A N D WORTH­ THIS END. AS WELL. HIS PRIDE DRIVES HIM O N TO MORE LOW L I N E SS LOG I C ALL ELA BORATE AND I N D E N T I F I C A T I O N S W I TH HIS THUS DOES THE M A SOC H I S T SEEK OUT HIS S E LF . TH ESE SU BSTA NCES. A N D SO POSESS. A N D R A R E PERFUME. H E M A Y D E VOUR IDENTITY. MAKE SLAVE HIM I NVERTED VI LENESS THROUGH H I S CONCENTRATION O N WHAT IS COM M O N L Y REGA RDED AS THE MOST VILE SEEKS TO OTH ERS.

ADMIT IT. TH I S BEHAVIOR IN C R E ATES SUCH REVULSIVE S: WILL YOU PLEASE WATCH M E CLEAN OUT TH E U R I N A LS WITH MY TONGUE? CO N T E M PT THE SUPERIOR FOR T H E W E A K M: WOM EN DON'T USE U R I NALS. I WANT TO EAT YOUR S HIT. W I D E RI ( I N S E RTS H E R H EEL. M : (KICKS H I M ) DON'T SAY "MY" M I STRESS. ME HOW TH E M : ITS TRUE. M I STRESS. SLAVE IS NOT SO F I LT H -O B S E S S E D OF MY SHOE. U S E M E AS YOUR TOILET. M: G R EEDY LITTLE PIG! I TOLD YOU TO LICK M Y SHOE. M I STRESS IS PERC H E D U PON THE SINK. AS FOR KISSING EVEN THE BOTTOM ONE MAY MAKE A M I NOR DISTI NCTION IN TH E CASE O F T H E A F F I C I O N A DO O F " G O L D E N SHOW E R S. T H ING. LIFE. I KNOW YOU WILL. AS NO DEGREDATION CAN S U R PASS THIS M : YOU'RE THE TYP E WHO T H I N KS IT WOULD BE HEAVEN TO H A V E H U N D R E DS O F ST R A N G E 5: I'M SORRY. LETS SEE HOW WIDE YOU C A N OPEN YOU R M O U T H . MOVING OBJECTS. B UT YOU H A V E T O L E A R N T O MOVE U P I N THE WORLD. LET M E K I SS YOUR B E AUTI F U L ASS. P E R H A PS THAT I S ALL YOU'RE F I T FOR. DISEASES. I'LL PAY. PLEASE. T H E TOI LET-SLAVE ENJOYS B E I N G R E F E R R E D T O A S JUST T H A T PIECE OF BATH ROOM FURNITURE. S LA V E IS I NG ORIFICE. GOOD FOR YOU. THAT T H I S WAS YOUR T R U E PLACE IN S : YES. M Y PRODUCTS ARE TOO FOOD I EAT I S VERY TH E EXPEN S I V E . SO S: ITS TRUE. AND MAY B E LEFT H A PPILY CHAINED TO IT FOR HOURS. OFF H E R S HOE. BESI DES. EVERY DAY. YES. I DIOT. M I STRESS. MY M I STRESS. I WANT T O BE Y O U R TOILET! S : A S MANY A S YOU W I LL G I V E ME. T O E A R N YOUR FI RST YOU MUST SHOW CAN BE. M . USEFUL YOU R MOUTH CLEAN C ENTRAL STATION.) PLEASE. SHAME­ YOU R DON'T C A TC H SUCH BECAUSE ( I ) U R I N E I S STER I L E A N D ( 2 ) THE FLOW M A K E S IT S E E M FRESH AND LIVE. FLDOR! (HOLDS H I S H E A D DOWN WITH H E R FDOT. M I STRESS. I OUGHT TO HAVE A LITTLE PORC E L A I N BOWL FITTED OVER YOUR R EVOLT­ TA K E S PLACE IN THE B A T H R OOM . BUT THE SUPERIOR MAY C ERTAI N LY B E AT A LOS S .J LICK! S: (SALIVATES M : HOW M A N Y GALLONS C A N YOU DRINK? ALL OVER THE SHOE. ADO R A TION O F T H E SLAVE THAT T H E SUBMISSIVE M U ST B E PREPARED TO DO A BSOLUTELY ANYTHING TH E S U PERIOR MAY THEREAFTER COM M A N D H I M TO DO. I OWN YOU. U S I N G YOU A S TH E I R SEWER. I DON'T L I K E TO SIT DOWN ON C H A I N E D T O THE TOILET A N D L I E S ON THE FLDOR." TH E R E IS A SENSUOUS A P P E A L IN TH E COU RSING OF THE A HOT LIQU I D OVE R THE BODY-AS WELL. WHO K NOWS WHAT YOU'VE BEEN LICKING TODAY.TH E M OR M E R E LY HOLD T H E M IN HIS MOUTH FOR A SPAS MODIC I N STANT B E FORE SPITTING THEM OUT. BUT BOTH THESE SCATOLOGICAL FETISHES A R E MOST I L LUSTRATIVE IN TH E FACT THAT ALL FETIS H I S M I S A FORM OF N ECROP H I LIA-A LOVE M: S I L E N C E I KEEP YO U R D EG R A D E D LU STS TO S: PLEASE M I STRESS. ON E . YOU R S ELF. A N D ATTRACTION TO WHAT I S DEAD. I'M J U ST A TOILET. THE GUTTERS LESSLY. PISS ON ME. NOT E A T I T ! (TA K E S A LONG TI M E WAS H I N G M : YOU ARE A TOILET-YOU LOVE TO BE A TOILET. IT IS ADVISED TO AVOI D I NDULGING TH E SLAVE SO THAT H E R E M A I N S I N A STATE OF CONSTANT LO N G I N G WOM EN SQUATTI NG OVER YOU R FACE. VI LENESS. Y O U W E R E S A Y I N G YOU WANTED TO SERVE AS MY TOILET.J 64 . R E A DY AND WILLING AT ALL TI MES TO RECEIVE A DOSE OF H I S BELOVED COM M U N ION.) N O W . I N STA LLED YOUR H IGHEST AMBITION IS TO BE IN THE LADIES' ROOM AT GRAND PRIV I L EGES. ANYTH I NG YOU SAY. L I K E A FLOW OF BLOOD. YOUR MOUTH IS TOO DI RTY. OH PLEASE. FI LTH DIALOG U E S: I ' L L P A Y . YOU I C R A W L ABOUT WANT TO IN.

(L.EASE M I STRESS . H E L.P MYSEL. M A Y I SPEAK? (SL.L. I COU L.) WHEN H E COM E S OUT 1 5 M I N UT E S L. (L. TOIL. S P I N EL.ENCE. P R E F E R A BL. YOU DEG R A D E D L. I E V E S: YES. O O K AT M E W H I L. oo R W H E N Y O U ' R E STEPPING (TR I E S TO P E E R UP H E R S K IRT.S OUT ABJECTL. TWO. P L.EASE. S: WON'T YOU P L.) AND I THOUGHT THAT WOU L.IGHTS THE M I STRESS I M MEASU RAB­ L. TEACH Y O U TO L. WISH YOU H A D N E V E R BEEN BORN T H E SLAVE YOU AREI S: Y E S . THAT OUGHT TO C L.ING M I STRESS. UP YOUR ACT.l M : WHAT I S IT? S: M I STRESS. M : NOW.) S: M I STRESS. M ISTRESS? 65 . E T . L. E G S ! I DON'T L. IS TWO.Y S H E PU N I S H E D A S L. M I STRESS.ING A STOR Y O F H O W SEVER E L. YOU C A N GO. PL. M : YOU·L. IT'S HARD TO L. O N M Y C A R PET OUT OF YOU R SOR R Y L.ooK AT MY L. E A N UP YOU R ACT. M : YOU L. M : YOU DI DN'T SAY THANK YOU. E A S E . STOP PAWING M El M: OKAY.L. PL.EASE I H A V E TO . A C E . E A S E . DO M: Y O U D I D N 'T ASK ME " P L. .S U P AN E N E M A BAG WITH STE A M I NG HOT WATER.ITTL. M I ST R E S S IU" (WH I PS HIM A FEW TIM ES.Y ON THE BATHROOM TIL. . M : SIL.D TEACH H I M TO L. A V E FOR F L. PL.F-CONTROL.APS AROUND THE HOUSE.) M : NO. GO TO THE BATH ROOM? M : GET BACK ON YOUR K N E ES.Y. . N O ! (WATC H E S I N H O R RO R A S T H E M I STRESS FIL.F I N THE BATH ROOM .L. ( M I ST R E S S M A Y T H E N A M US E T H E SL.E ASS. .ET M Y SERVANTS WORK I NG! L.ITTL. YOUI H U P. REQU I R E THAT HE NOW R U N A FEW L. H E OUGHT TO B E EGGED ON TO I M PROVE WITH A FEW L.ERATE IT. ! O H ! L.F. I BEG O F YOU M: THAT • • .Y HOPPING ON ONE FOOT.l PL.) H I MSEL. M A Y I SPEAK? M : NO.ONG PAUSE.EGS WITHOUT MY P E R M I S S I O N . M : ASK M Y P E R MI SSION TO SPEAKI S: M ISTR E SS.l M: H U P. S H O U L. (SLAVE STARTS TO RUN .ET-BOY.L.A V E WHICH DEL. L.ES.DN'T HEL.ET O N E DROP FAL. D C L. • ) COM E BACK HERE. AND YOU·L.E I·L. DON'T I · L. I N G M I STRESS.ITTL. DOWN.EASE MAY I GO.L.ooKS V E R Y A S H A M ED. I NG DARL. E THEY'RE SOI L I N G H I M SEL. E A S E . BY EX E R C I SE I S GOOD NOW G R I M A C I NG IN FOR PAI N S: M ISTRESS.AVE TO PRESENT HIS BUTTOCKS TO T H E AIR A N D KEEP HIS H E A D ON THE GROUND A S SHE A D M I N I STERS THE DOUCHE.ooKI N G AT M Y L. ( M I STRESS DOES NOT BOTH E R TO ANSWER.) ANYTH I NG! S: (ON HIS K N E ES) PL. . I F H E I S A POOR DANCER. DO A S I SAY A N D NOTH I NG ELSE. GODDESS.EASE.ET'S HAVE A L.AVE TO DANCE FOR H E R. K N E E L. S: OH D A R L. . M I ST R E S S SC R E A M S • . I NOW T H I N K I A M VE R Y CL. .AVE I S PERMITTED TO R E L. (SPRAWL.AVE BY TEL.) M : WHAT'S TH I S ? COM P LA I N I N G? AND ON TOP OF I T A L.) M ISTR ESS? THE M I STRESS M AY .L. . OVER T H E R E A N D WAIT F O R M E TO NOTICE YOU.ATER. P L. KNEEL.ESS! YOU S: PL. L. D A R L.L.EANED OUT. E A S E USE ME AS A T O I L.EASE MAY I S: I ' M SORRY.EARN TO H A V E M O R E SEL. IF SHE T H I N KS TH E SLAVE CAN TOL.E ENTE RTAI N M EN T A ROUND THIS P L. ( P UT S ON A D I SC O R EC O R D AND (ETC. M I STRESS.EASE FORG I V E ME. M I STRESS? R EQ U I R E S TH E SL.ICKS OF THE W H I P. E A S E .F.) P L. I C K T H E OOWW .S: M I STRESS.ONG PAUSE. THE M I STRESS REQUI R E S TH E SL. FIN A L.Y SL. E A N FART. N E E D SOM E D I SC I PLI N E ! S: O H .. PL.

. OVER AND H E A D RIGHT U N D E R U NTIL YOU SOA K E D I T A LL UP. . NO B U T N E V E R A FFRIGHT M Y N O S E . A-WA LLOW I N HIS BLESSING. VIII A LITTLE SHIT. 66 . DOWN. I A DO R E . . MOUTH O R B U M W H E N CROTC H E R I E S A R E N I G H . I DON'T H A V E TO GO.C. WHAT I F I SHOV E D YOU R M: NOW. THEN ON M Y K N E E S IT TICKLES ITS WAY FROM THE HOLE TO BA LLS AND OH. PAUL V E R LA I N E TRAN SLATED B Y D A N I E L SLOATE H I S P U L S I N G P R I C K PLUNGES P U M P E D S T R A I G H T FROM THE WELL OF LOVE. M I STRESS? TOI LET. S E LL E R S LITTLE BOYI YOU A R E SO TORM ENTABLE. AND TH E R E SPU RTS OUT ITS CUM. SO MAD. THE M ISTRESS RECEIVES THE COCKTA I L. A LITTLE C U M W I L L N EVER. DYING FOR T H E S W E ETS IT K N OWS ARE T H E R E: L I V E . 0 THA N K YOU . WHICH H E I S R EQ U I R E D TO SLAVE STA R E S AT TH E LIQUID COURSING OVER H E R LI PS. T U N E LESSLY O F OVE R ' > COURSE. M I ST R E S S SLAVE DONS AN A PRON A N D H U RRIES TO TH E BAR. M : VERY WELL. BACK S L I PS M Y TONGU E TO MY MOUTH W H E R E A N D MY RESTLESS TON G U E . FLICKS ALONG H I S SOFT D A M P H A I R S S T I F F A N D QUICK A N D OH. AND I POOR SLAVE. I SWALLOW ALL O F IT. I I A DORE B E I N G YOU R S : I'LL M A K E YOU A D R I N K . YOU'D B E SATURATED WITH M Y S U BSTA NCEI J UST L I K E A N A STY LITTLE SPONG E I S : OH. SLAVE S I PS C A R E FULLY. . T H E M I STRESS PUTS T H E BOY I N A STOCKS SO HE WON'T BE BOTH E R I NG H E R." K E E P S I N G I N G I (SLAVE SI NGS TH I S ONE LI N E. YET M I STRESS.M: NO. YOU M U ST S I NG. THE OFFERS STA N C E REMOVES A SLAVE IT IS FROM HER STOC K S A N D SPECIAL SUB­ HIM IN D R I N K." TO TH E TU N E OF "I A DORE B E I N G A G I R L. I WANT YOU TO A M U S E ME BY S I N G I NG THIS LITTLE SONG. A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. "I ADORE BEING YOUR TOILET. HOT C R E A M FROM TH E BORE YES. TH E N DROOLS U PON T H E KNOB. M : WHAT IF I HAD A TUB F I LL E D TO THE BRIM WITH M Y S P EC I A L LIQUID. 0 TH A N K Y O U SO M UCH. A GLASS. S: I ADORE B E I N G YOUR TOILET. SO BAD A S IT LICKS ITS FAVORITE FOOD. T H E S M E L L I S GAY T O M E F R O M THE H O L E I N M Y LOV E R'S A S S COOL A N D S O U R A S A N O L D C H E R R Y ROTTING GA YL Y I N THE R A I N . ONCE ALL DUE LOV I NG C A R E I S ROUNDLY PA I D T O T H E JUICY SLIT. I A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. SO SLOW A LONG TH E THROBBING JOY-POLE W A I T H U M BLY F O R H I S S ECON D COM I NG. M : ( L A UGH I N G R ESTRA I N E D L Y ) "WHAT A STU P I D T. AND D E E P IT SUCKS. D I V I N E Q U E E N.

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SOPH I E WAS A BOUT TWELVE. S H E R A I S E D H E R D R E S S S O H IG H THAT S H E U N V E I LE D H E R PALE L I TTLE B R EASTS. EAL P L E A S UR E FROM I T EXCEPT FOR THE DAY I CAUGHT HER DOI N G IT IN A M I R RO R . A N D AT THE SAME M O M E NT. S H E STOPPED. BUT HER FASC I N A T I O N IN­ T R I G U E D M E A L L T H E MORE. BUT FOLLOWI NG SO P H I E'S G A Z E NOW F I X E D ON A PO I N T ABOVE MY HEAD. A N D W H I L E S H E S M I LED. E R RO R . FINA LLY S H E A F R A I D O F SEEING SOM ET H I N G S U RG E FORTH FROM B E TW E E N DETECTING HER ITS THIGHS. I WAS A BOUT TO GET U P. I W A S S W I M M I NG. E A RTH FOR THEY AND M U LT I P L Y TH E WHICH WE I N H A B I T . U N K NOWN I N STINCTS R I PPED TH ROUG H M Y NECK.THE MUTE NEGRESS ". . U N A UT H O R I Z E D STIC K-AT T H E R I S K NO DO U BT OF C RO A K I N G FROM T H E SWELLING STI N G S -WH E N I SAW LITTLE SOPH I E . A N D I H A D F E LT NO . I STI L L DI DN'T SEE W H A T WAS F A SC I N A T I N G H E R. "SOPH I E STILL K E PT H E R S K I RT R A I S E D. I W A N T E D TO BITE. 68 . BUT SHE S HOOK H E R H E A D . G R OTE S Q U E PA RODY. BUT I T M A D E ME LA U G H . W E LL. I WAS GOI NG T O GET A PROPHET USED TO PROCLA I M THAT M I RRORS ( LI K E P A T E R N I TY ) C ON F I R M WERE A BO M I N A T I O N S . I SAW A MAN IN A TREE. BUT I WAS ASTO N I S H E D TO NOTE T H A T SOP H I E H A D N O T H E A R D M E .. I R A I S E D MYSELF ON M Y E L BOWS BUT COULD S E E NOTH I N G AT H E R F E ET. A FALSE MUSLIM S M I LING. I L OO K E D AT SO P' H I E AGAIN: SHE WAS W A S WITH I N R E A C H . PERCEIVED DOWN OF H E R SEX. A N D T I R E D OF WAITI NG. 'ARE YOU COM I NG?' S A I D A VOICE. I H A D ALREADY SEEN M Y SI STER C A R ES S H E R S ELF. I I M M E D I ATELY FORGOT THE BEEHIVE A N D LAY DOWN IN THE TALL G R A SS. E X A M I N I NG H ER S E L F W I T H S U C H G R EAT ATTENTION THAT I WAS ·SH E W A S W A L K I NG S LOWLY IN MY D I RECTION. A S THOUGH F A SC I N ATED BY SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M U ST H A V E B E E N AT H E R FEET THAT I COULD NOT SEE. M Y N E IG H BO R . . WHEN I H E A R D A N O I S E B E H I N D M E . TO SCARE HER AT L E A ST. I WAS SEVEN O R E I G H T YEARS OLD AND I W A S WATC H I N G A H I V E O F B E E S STUCK T O A B R A N C H . I I M M E D I ATELY FEARED THAT I HAD R E V E A L E D M Y P R E S E N C E . FOR H E R LOV ELY F L E S H I N E S S N O DO U BT AGED H E R. R A I S E D HER S K I RT OVE R H E R N A K E D STO M AC H . A PP L Y I N G I MYSELF TO THE A PP E A R A NC E . P E RH A PS LESS. SHE WAS WALK I N G SO SLOWLY THAT I HAD N O HOPE OF H E R BEING ABLE TO R E A C H M E . I DON'T KNOW W H Y . A LITTLE B L O N D G I R L F R O M TOWN WHO WAS A RO U N D ONE MONTH A YEAR. I THOUGHT T H E B E E H I V E H A D J U S T F A L L E N . THE DESI R E T O G R A B IT A N D DIS LODGE IT T I N G L E D T H ROUGH MY FI NGE RS.

H A V I NG TURNED M I SERA BLE WORKS: H I D I NG MYSELF HA LFWAY A RO U N D. I CAN NONETHE LESS SAY THAT SOP H I E IS T H E FI RST THAT I REALLY SAW MAKE LOV E . BUT I 69 . THE M A N STOPPED B E H I ND SOPHI E . AND I M P RISONED ONE OF H E R B REASTS. W H I LE A SECOND HAND GRABBED HER OTH E R BREAST. FROM SLIPPI NG I N A MONG H I S RIGOR­ OUS CLASSIFICATIONS SOME S U M PTUOUS A POC RY­ PHAL PIECE. BIT THE M . I BRUSH E D I T WITH MY FINGERS. O N L Y TH E I R A C T I O N S MATTE R E D T O M E ( J U ST AS TODAY. DEC I S I V E LY ALMOST T O T H E P O I N T OF B R U S H I NG ME. I LEANED OUT A N D SAW TWO LEGS R A I SED. A S I F H E HADNT S E E N THE LITTLE G I R L.I GHT L I G H T W A S LIT. W I T H G R EAT D E XTERITY. BRUSHED H E R NECK. THE SC E N E . I WAS SISTER U N D E R THE B E LLY OF A NAKED MAN. FOR I HAD A PLAN MORE FIRE I N TE R ESTI N G THAN A FEW IN BOTHE RING ABOUT T H E NOISE H E WAS M A K I NG. AS SOON AS I GOT I N SI DE. THEN. FIRE WOR K S . I BY GOT MY PEOPLE'S P R O F E S S I O N S . T U R N I N G H E R OVER O N H E R B E L L Y . A N D I N STEAD O F RUBBING MY FACE AGAI NST WHAT WAS IN SUM NOTHING B U T AN ALREADY R I P E F R U IT. W H E N SOPH I E ADVANCED WAS SUSPICIOUS. WHICH MADE H E R SCRE A M . BUT A POACHER P E R H A PS . H E WAS A P P R O A C H I N G WITH LONG STR I DES. SHE PRESENTED HER B E H I N D TO THE KNOTTY COCK­ FOR. THE W I N DOW WAS ON MY RIGHT. THE MAN SOON ALREADY ASTON I S H E D THAT S H E H A D GROWN SO QU I C K L Y . THREATENE D T O PROLONG ITSELF. FOR S H E ARCHED H E R BACK. THUS I N THE EV E N I NG . R E V E A L E D H E R B U TTOC K S W H I C H BOTHE R E D M E EVEN MORE. BUT TH EY WERE MUCH LON G E R THAN SO PHIE·S. OR ELSE DO SOM ETH ING OTH E R T H A N WHAT SHE W A S H O P I N G F O R . B U T I WAS WRONG ABOUT TH AT. THI S H U M A N PLANT W A S RATHE R A M U S I NG. A FT E R AN HOUR IT RAISED H E R DRESS AGA I N AND. ANYWAY I WAS TOO YOU NG TO P REOCC U P Y M Y S E L F WITH "THE A DVENTU R E COULD END H E R E . LEAN I N G FORWARD. I N TEARS-oR A T LEAST I TOOK T H I S PERSO N F O R SOP H I E . P R E F E R R I NG . SOPHI E LET TA KING A DVANTAGE O F THE G OO D L U C K . WITHOUT ACCO M P A N I E D GRANDMOTH E R . THUS P R I SO N E R ! N E XT S H E MOVING AWAY. I NONETH E LESS HAZARDED A GLANCE: A N D TO MY GOOD FORTUNE. U NBUTTONED THE M A N WHOSE P E N I S POPPED OUT. FLAT DOWN I N TH E GRASS. I TH REW T U R N E D ON THE BRACKET LIGHTS A N D B E G A N T O UNDRESS. I H I D MYSELF B E H I N D A WAR DROBE PROV I D E N T I A L L Y PLAC E D O B L I Q U E LY O P POSITE THE LITTLE BED. TH E ROOM O N LY B A R ELY LIT BY A I MAGI N E D (AS I DID. I M UST H A VE H URT H E R . DISTANT STREET LAMP. ON THE CONT R A R Y SHE VERY MUCH WANTED TO PULL M E ONTO H E R STOMACH. I M M E DI ATELY SHE LET GO OF H E R DRESS. THE SCE N E DIDNT LOSE A BIT OF ITS RURAL C H A R ACTER. SO I GOT U P W I T H A LEAP: S H E D I SG USTED ME NOW. I D I DNT ANSWER. TH E M IRACULOUS TO THE LOGICAL. THOU G H . WH ICH I D I D. MYSELF ON H E R NAKED B R E A STS. A N D I C A N WELL SAY THAT IN THAT SENSE I HAVEN'T AGED)."I HADN'T RECOGNIZED THE VOICE. FOR A H A N D C A M E DOWN FROM T H E TREE. IT WAS A TALL M A N WITH A ROUGH A PPEARANCE. "I HAD H A R DLY ANY DIFFICULTY GETTING IN. THE R EST IS PROBABLY SOMETI M E S M YTH I C A L . AND ALTHOUGH I H A D ONCE C A UGHT MY N. WHICH OBLIGED T H E H A N DS AND TH E ARMS FROM THE TREE TO COM E DOWN A LITTLE FURTHER. AND ONE COULD HAVE SUDDENLY OPENED WITH GREAT C O MMOTION A N D CLOSED LIKEWISE. I COULD MYSELF H A V E RAISE D M Y ARM AND SEIZED THE C H U BBY R U M P I F M Y ATTENTION H A DN'T BEEN DRAWN TO THE A R R IVAL O F A T H I R D C H ARACTER. T H I S I NTO TERROR TO WHEN TH E THE HERSELF FALL O N THE G RO U N D W H I L E THE RED­ H A I R E D M A N (HAVE I M E N TION E D THAT? IT PLEASES ME THAT HE WAS A R EDH EAD) WAS ALREADY CHANGED UP I WOM A N GOT AND WAS CAME A CLOSE SHUTTERS. BECAUSE. IN TRUTH. THEN SHE SOPHI E'S ROOM. A N D SOP H I E'S REFUSAL S E E M E D TO ME TO I NDICATE THAT SHE H E R S E L F H A D N 'T R E C OG N I Z E D IT. I FEAR WAS SITUATION FEARED B E I NG D I SCOVERED. F O R Q U I T E F R A N K L Y I COULDN'T S E E A N YTH I N G . NOT A PEASA NT. CAN NOT BUT THE KEEP COLLECTOR FROM H IMSELF DREAMING. THE N S H E SPOTTED M E . SOPH I E THREW H E RSELF ON T H E BED. ' W E R E YOU THERE?' SHE ASKED. IT WAS ON THE GROUND FLOOR OF ONE O F THOSE HEAVY HOUSES LOVED BY THE M I DDLE C LASS. AS IS S UITABLE. A T THAT M O M E N T I FIG U R E D OUT THAT SHE WAS THE C H A M B E R MAID A N D I F E A R E D H E R N U DITY: IT W A S NOT SOPHI E'S N U D I TY THAT I H A D DESIRED B U T SOM E U N K NOWN A C T THAT I MIGHT HAVE SEEN WHICH WOU L D HAVE SATISFIED ME. PERMISSION THEY TO SET O F F ATT E N D . A N D . AND THE DOOR FACING M E . IN OUR LITTLE PROVI N C E . S H E DIDNT PUSH M E AWAY. A STU PID PERSON WHOM I COULD EASILY LOSE I N A FEW SECONDS. P E R H A PS) THAT T H E GROUP WAS ONLY WAITING TO B E SC ULPTED. SHE SAW HIM A N D M UR M U R R E D SOMETHI NG I D I DNT U N D ERSTA ND. THEN T H E SOBS BEC A M E LESS FREQUENT A N D A "SHE D I DN'T SCR E A M WHEN T H E MAN PEN ETRATED H E R. IT S E E M E D TO ME THAT I WOULD HAVE TO WAIT. H ENCEFORTH I N D E E D QUITE BANAL. B U T I N STEAD O F AND MY WITHDREW F R O M THE LITTLE G I R L A N D TH E H A N DS FROM THE TREE D I S A P P E A R E D.

DEMANDED G R A N DMOT H E R W E A R LONG PANTI ES. I W I L L S A Y THAT IT W A S A RED AND W H ITE M A R TH A . A N D A N A R AC H N I DE A N G A R T E R B E LT. SECON DARY I N D E C E NC I ES. WOR D C I RC LES LOO K E D AT THOSE L A U G H I N G BEN EATH THEM. C A R ROT-TOP.HOWEVER. TH E WOM A N PUT H E R H A N D S B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D H E R D R ESS FELL. M O R E E X A CT L Y . BUT I WASN'T TALKI NG. I T W A S DAZZLING. B EC A U S E SHE PLAC E D H E R F I N G E R T O H E R LI PS A S THOUGH ORDE R I N G M E T O B E Q U I ET. OFFE R E D M E H E R OTH E R H A N D WHOSE ODOR E N C H A NTED M E . I S A W THE S A M E WHITISH FOA M THAT I H A D C A UGHT S I G H T OF I N T H E ORCH A R D ON SOP H I E'S THIGHS. TH E SAME? THAT IS INDEED WHAT I ATTENTIVE A S THOUGH S H E WERE LISTE N I NG OUT FOR A PREARRANGED SIGNAL. THUS OFFE R I N G TO MY GAZE HER R I PE B U TTOC KS. "AFTERWA R D . "THArs MAN. M A RQ U I S E I' AND WAS FLEECE.H A I R E D M A N WAS A L R E A DY FEELING UP THE SERVANT. A TH I C K TAWNY FLEECE. THE R E V E LA­ TION OF THE S U M PTUOUS AND VULGAR T R A P P I NGS WITH W H ICH WOMA N T I T I L LA T E S . W H I C H M A G N I F I E D. I EYES. ALL THOSE I IN HAD MYSELF T O A N T I C I PATE. MAGNIFICENT BELIEVEDI "TH E R E WAS A C R A C K L I N G OF A BUZZER. I N F I N ITE SHE OPENED SHE TH E SHUTTERS WITH PRECA UTIONS. THAN A N D. OF MY IGNORANCE. BUT IT W A S REA LLY SO THAT SHE COULD C ARESS HERSELF. ALASI HOW BADLY DOM ESTICS AGE. A LSO TO E N JOY H E R OWN SPECTACLE. I H E A R D HER SIGH I NG. I TA K I N G H E R B R E A STS OUT O F THE ST R A P L ESS B R A .H E A D B U R ST. AND ESPECIA L L Y TO PLUNGE MY FACE IN HER P A N T I E S . A B R A . THE OTH E R SLOWLY MOV E D H I S F I N G E R S I N TH E MAUVE MOUTH. GOI NG TO C R Y A N D I BUT SHE. AND I AND A NOTH E R HE RECOGNIZED FATH E R . I M A D E A G ESTU R E W H I C H S H E D I D NOT U N DERST AN D . PROWLED A N YW A Y . ONLY INDEED BY PLEASANT TO HER AGA I N ­ HER TAUT C H EST AND R U M P COULD B E SEEN. WHICH THE R E D. WITHOUT TH I N KING A BOUT IT A NY M O R E . IIF I MAY PERMIT M A R E I A SHORT BLACK-LACE S L I P. T H E OTH E R STARTED TO T R E M B L E . I N STEA D O F H I D I NG. AND I . FOR THESE SUPERB LOOK I N G AT M E ON T H E CONTRARY WITH C U RIOSITY. C A R ROT-TOP HAD ALREADY SLIPPED ONE HAND I N S I D E TH E L I K E D T O H A V E H E R T A K E M E I N H E R A R MS. B U T T H E Y W E R E TOO B U S Y TO NOTIC E . IGNORANT S I N C E I WAS M Y S E L F G R I P P E D BY THE S A M E D E S I R E . THEN R E A L I Z I NG THAT HER BELLY WAS BARE. A THOUSAN D EYES " S H E C A U G H T MY GAZE. CONFUSEDLY FELT T H AT SHE WAS G I V I N G I N . WHICH M E A NW H I LE. WHO BENT OVER AT THE WAIST. I THREW MYSELF AGAINST HER B E LLY. SHOWED MYSELF. PLAC E D C A R E F U L LY EAR C LOS E D T H E WOOD HIS AGA I N ST T H E B E FO R E CLEARLY SAW TWO OF H E R F I N G E R S G E NTLY MOVE INSIDE HER. OR. TH E W O M A N LEA N E D O V E R TO SEE. I REGA I N E D HOPE JUST A S A B R U PTLY A S I HAD BECOME SO Q U I C K LY D I SCO U R A G E D . HER EAR PREVENTED T H I S. BUT T H E BAC KS OF THE M E N S H U TT E R S . S H E P U T H E R H A N D O V E R IT. I WATC H E D THE TWO FREED RETU R N E D HOME THE NEXT A FTER H AV I N G W A N D E R E D T H R O U G H T H E COUNTRYS I D E . T H E THIGHS AND HOLLOWED S U P PO R T S W A I ST BEING ONLY ALTHOUGH I KNOW. THE A C T I V I T Y. I D I DN'T KNOW HOW TO E X P R ESS IT TO HER. 'PLEA S U RE' H A D ON LY R E C E NTLY LEDGE. A S W E L L A S T I N Y R E D PANTI ES. T H E BUTTON O F FLESH SO H AR D . B U RY M E I N H E R B E D WITH H E R . BUT THE WOM A N REMAINED M A RBLE. A N D S H E D I D 70 . SHACK­ L E D HER STOC K I N G E D TH I G H S WITH HIS ARMS. I THOUGHT S H E WAS O N C E AGA I N DREW A W A Y VERY Q U I C K LY . K N E E L I NG. WITH AND THE M A I D. P E R F U N E WAS S O A R DE NT. ONCE B U RSTING IT S E E M E D TO ME ESPEC I A LLY FROM THE PRESSURE O F TH AT PRODIGIOUS FLEECE. LIKE TO THAT L E A R N E D C A M E TO M E . C A R ROT­ TOP J U M PE D U P AS IF HE H A D B E E N STUNG TO TH E Q U I C K . TO ROLL O N H E R BREASTS. S P ECTAC LE SHE TURNED. THAT I W A S BITING SAVAGELY. COM POSED A M U C H MORE SATISFYING D R E A M ED. WITH THE OTH E R H A N D HE WAS LIG HTLY S L A P P I NG H E R ASS. THE FATH ER IN A LOW VOI CE WAS SAYI NG: · M A RQU I S E. SHE H E LD MY HEAD. HER NOTI C E D THIS PULLED T H E PANTI ES SNAPPED. S U D D E N LY. I THE R E D-H E A D E D AS SOP H I E'S D OO R . W H I L E T H E C A R ROT.) THE MEN TOOK OFF. BUT I WOU LD H A V E WOU LD N O T H A V E S U F F I C E D T O FOLLOW A LL T H E D E V E LO P M E NTS OF T H A T SITU ATION. UNDER I THE SERVA NT'S THAT MY LI P S B ETWE E N TWO H E DGES OF LONG S H I N Y H A I RS. AND I FOU N D IT TO H AVE A SINGULAR SAVO U R. PROT R U DE D MEN PLAYED TH E FUR FROM B E H I N D T H E R E D C LOTH. W H I LE I I KISSED M E O N THE OVER I THE ONLY D A R K E N I NG WHICH I FOR E H E A D W I N DOW WAS CRAWLING TH I N K DAY. THE A G A I N S T U C K M Y F A C E AGA I N ST THE NEW MOUTH. THE MAID HAD F R OZ E N . TH AT A LL R E S I STA N C E WAS CEASING IN H E R. T H E MEN JOSTLE D E A C H OTH E R A N D I FIGU R E D THAT EACH ONE WANTED TO BURY HIS FACE I N THAT M A N E . T H E Y C O M I C A LLY B U M P E D THE I R HEADS TOGETH E R A N D T H E S E R V A N T L A U G H E D. K I SSING THEM WITH A R DOU R . S H E M A D E N OT THE SLIGHTEST G E ST U R E OF SURPRISE. AND THAT FIND IT WOU L D PROF I LE. STR A N G E L Y ENOUG H . WHEN THEY ENTERED. TU R N I N G T H E K EY.

H E COULDN'T KNOW M E. TOO. THE SEPARATED THIGHS. WILL YOU PROTECT M E?" "TH E R E A R E COU RS E S . C E RTA I N "NO. "YES. "WHO IS THAT "LOVE? ." "TH E S H E?" LITTLE GIRL SOPH I E . THERE ARE A LS O C O U R S E S IN BEHAVIOR." M UST FI RST CON S I D E R TH E ONE WHO'S P E E P HOLES. "TH E M A S T E R O F THE 'SA N S-SOUC I'. IF H E ACCEPTED YOU. SOM E EVEN PAY. SHE S E E M S LESS I N NOC E N T THAN YOU. . B U T HE IS A CONQU E RO R . LIKE I N P U BLIC TOI LETS. H I S H A N D . " " YOU'RE M A K I N G F U N OF ME. FROM YOU R LOO K I N G AT SOMEONE WHO'S ALREADY LOOKI NG. TU R N E D OUT THE LIGHTS. H E'S T H E O N E WHO ENTERED. IF YOU LIKE. WE N EVER S E E H I M IN THE LIGHT OF D A Y . H E KNOWS IT. IF H E N E V E R L E A V E S H I S E M P I RE. I M A G I N I NG THAT T H E Y W I L L T H U S F E E L " I DON'T U N DE RSTA N D THE D I G R ESSIONS." "YOU CAN ASK THE A D M I RAL THAT." YOU R ADMIRER. AND H E L D U S S O ROUGH LY?" "HE KNOWS YOU WELL. YOU WILL TAKE SPECIAL COURSES TO D E V E LOP T H E M . " IRENE C LO S E D THE PINK BOOK. " "BUT WHY 'BLAC KSM ITH'?" ' W H A T A BOUT T H O S E WHO D O I T WITH U S?" "YOU'LL U N D E R ST A N D LATER." "DON'T FORGET THAT ONE M UST MAKE LOVE DIFFERE NTLY F O R A VOYEUR'S PLE A S U R E . I T'S AS THOUGH YO U W E R E M A K I N G LOVE W I T H T H E O N E WHO'S LOO K I N G AT YOU. THE Q U I V E R I N G OF B UTTOCKS AND TH E LO I N S ." A R R I VAL. LITERATURE. WHAT I S A COLLECTOR?" SOM E N EW PLEASURE. A TYPING COURSE. TEACH BUT THEY'RE R EDUCE WRONG THEI R BECAUS E WE YOU TO PLEAS U R E . H I S SHA DOW." "YOU " HOL ES? THAT'S ODD. A N YWAY. I TOLD YOU THAT WE O N L Y T A K E S I N G L E PEOPLE. T H E I R PAY IS V E R Y LOW. A N D. DID YOU LIKE IT?" " S I M P L E E X ECUTORS. H I S M A S K . I r s BECA U S E H E T H I N K S YOU HAVE E X C E PT I O N A L G I FTS. FOR WANT TO DO NOWT WHAT DO YOU EXAM PLE. SPYHOLES. . AND LOV E .NOT R E F U S E. I SN'T "BUT WHY A R E T H E R E VOYE URS?" "I DON'T KNOW." 'TO L I K E YOU TO R E A D SOME MORE. IT'S I NTERESTING TO SEE THE WORK OF THE M U SCLES. TOO?" "H E'S A C H I L D TOO. A B U I LDER. BUT THE ADMIRAL PREFERS PE RFOR M E R M U ST COM PLETELY D I S A P P E A R FROM YOU R THOUGHTS. I T'S A S U BJECT H E'LL BE H A PPY TO DEAL WITH. " " H E FRIGHTENS ME. H E C A N FORGET T H E REST O F T H E WORLD. O B V I O U S L Y . EVEN THOUGH THE I NC R E A S E IN YOU R BE M ISTA K E S C A N NOT WITH M UC H EXACTITUDE MICHEL BERHARD TRANSLATED BY RICHA RD G A R DN E R ATTR I B UTED T O YOU R AGITATION O R T H E S K I L L O F 71 . S H E'S LIKE ME. • BLAC K S M I T H ?" A S K E D L A U R A . TOM O R ROW. EVEN B E FO R E YOUR "IT WAS H I M ." C L I E NTS O F O U R S L I K E T O G E T O N TH E I R K N E E S A N D STROKE YOU D U R I N G T H I S T E S T . :' " TH E A D M I R A L:' A N S W E R E D I R E N E. H E K N E W E V E R YT H I N G A BOUT YOU. A R E HIS OBSESSION. NUDE COURSES. T H E "YES. " "HE lSI I A L R E A D Y TOLD YOU THAT TH I S HOUSE I S FU LL O F TRICKS." " I N N OC E N T? YOU'RE M A K I N G F U N OF M E ! . HOLES " R E D U C E IT? I DON'T U N D ERSTA N D AT A LLI" WATCH I N G YOU. I T ' S A GDOD TEST." FEELI NGS.

.ED COR R I DO R WITH NO SIDE OPEN­ INGS: M Y FI RST I M P R ESSION I S THAT IT M U ST B E L.Y THE L. E A D I NG A GA I N TO TH E L.L.ENT D I STANCE WHAT SEEM TO B E THE NOTES OF A P I A NO CAN BE H E A RD. L A PPUES-AND PROBABL. Y ONE D I R ECTION IS POSS I B L. SPACED UKE DROPS OF WATER.ACQU E R .S. PALE AND M I L.ED BY TH E H EAVY H A N G I NGS AND C U RTA I N S O F A N O L. NOW A PPEARS SOM EWHAT I NCREASED . NOW TO THE R I G HT. FOR A F E W SECON DS-A I FEW M I N UTES ENOUGH POSS I B L. N O LIGHT SOURCE CAN B E SEEN. BUT IT TURNS S U D DENTL. S MOOTH-WA L. O N G AND STRA IGHT. E : A N A R ROW.ED TU R N S W H I C H HAVE B ECOME MORE FREQUE NT. U NATTA I N ABLE.L.TEM P L E T H R OUGH THE LOOKING GLASS AFTER A FEW STEPS FORWA R D.BOW L. K Y .TS OF S M OOTH C L.F WITH A L. .OWED BY A SERIES B O L. L.L OF THEM COV E R E D WITH THE SAME WH ITE SURROUNDI NGS A N D TA K E MY B E A R I NGS CAUTIOUSL.Y AT RIGHT ANGL. I G HTLY ONCE I N SIDE AND ONCE THE H E AVY STE E L. A NOTH E R D I SQ U I ETING FACT IS THE R IGHT-ANGL. EVEN TH E UTTLE GIRL DOZ I NG OV E R H E R SCHOOL BOOKS. E TO 72 . HOWEVER. M U FFL. I D I N G I NTO P L. U I S H S E M I -DARKNESS A N D I HAVE TO STA N D STI L.Y GROWN B R IGHTER. A C E .B E F O R E TO M A K E O U T MY CAN SEE W E L. S MOOTH. L. THE LIGHT H E R E.OSED BY ITSEL. K I N G (ONCE AGA I N ) SLOWLY FORWARD: EVEN THOUGH IT HAS I M PE RCEPTI B LY B U T DEFI N ITEL.IKE TH E WHOOSH OF SOME N IGHT B I RD FOL. F S L. DOOR HAS C L. I S MOTIONL. E D M Y S E L.OOM11 THE COR R I DO R HAS A NOTH E R R IGHT­ A N G L E D E L.ORN.L. FIND PL. ACTUA L. T H E C E I L.L. Y .L.I C K S FROM I STRO NG E R (OR A R E T H E EYES S I M PLY ADAPT I N G TO T H E G L.L.IGHT I S STRONGER FOR G RADUAL.EFT THEN CONTI NUES IN TH I S NEW D I R ECTION WITH STI L. NO SIDE OPENI NGS OR PASSAGES: ITS WIDTH.-O I L. E FT A N D AGA I N T H E R E I S A W I D E N I NG OF THE PASSAGEWAY TO WHICH THE TERM " N A R ROW" NO L.UNGED I NTO B L. A B STRACT-o N E M IGHT SAY­ CONV E Y I N G THE I M PRESSION OF B E I N G U N A LTER­ ABLE. BUT WITH AND NO RE­ REGULAR D I ST A N C E B E TW E E N TH E M PEATED SO OFTEN THAT IT I S NOW I M POSS I B L. AL. AND U N EXPECTED­ LY IN SPITE OF THE L. TIME-PROOF. NOW TO THE LEFT.Y.ESS IN T H I S MONOTONIC ETERN ITY.Y THERE IS NO CAUSE FOR HES ITATION: O N L.EARLY THAT TH E R E I S NOTH I NG TO SEE EXC E PT THE WALL. FORL.ING AND THE FLOOR.IGHT THAT IS S L. CAUSES A N OTH E R Q U E R Y TO ARISE I N TH E M I N D O F H I M WHO I S WA L.DW SOU ND L. D A PA RTM ENT W H E R E EVERYTHI NG.Y I T HAS BECOME BRIGHT ENOUGH TO S HOW C L. O N G E R WEL. I N THE SIL.ES TO THE L.

EVENTUA LLY OF COU RSE CHOOSES TH E PALE BLUE SHOE LYING ON ITS SIDE AND WHOSE H E E L APPEARS BROKEN A T T H E BASE. THESE T H I NGS ARE A PA I R O F WOM EN'S BEHIND WIN DOW. RATH E R TH A N ASSEMBLE THE D I FF E R E N T E L E M E N TS IN TIVE PEARLS: IN A BUT THE IT SHOULD OF BE POSSIBLE TO ASCERTA I N . WHO IS TH E R I GHT: AGA I N ST TH E PALE POLI S H E D WALL ON THE LEFT IS A V E RY D A R K RECTA N G L E THE SIZE WOR R I E D WHETHER H E I S COM MITTING A N ERROR I N FINDING H I M SE L F A T T H E STARTING POI NT O N T H E TERRACE STEPS OF I M I TATION GRAN ITE I N FRONT OF THE NUMBERLESS STEEL DOO R S WITH ITS A N D LOCATION OF WHICH WOU L D S UGGEST A N OPEN DOORWAY. C H I LD HAS H E R EYES O P E N A N D IS WATC H I NG. A BEHIND DARK THIS ROOM M I SS I NG K NOB. A N D I M M EDIATELY HE IS PLANTED BEFORE THE N E XT U N S I LV E R E D WHOSE ASSESS BLACK VERY ARE WIN DOW. NOW STR I K I N G WITH TH E DRY. AND REMARKABLE. OR I S SHE D E A D . AGA I N ST THIS GLASS RECTA NGLE IS I DENTI C A L WITH THE CAR PETS. OR AT THE L E A S T U NCONSCIOUS? THE CON C E RT CONTI N U E S IN TRANQUI LLITY. PASSAGEWAY A FTER A N OTH E R A B R U PT T U R N TO THE N A R R AT O R . REGULAR BEAT OF A M ETRO N O M E . AS ONE DRAWS N E A R E R IT IS OBVIOUS TH E R E I S NO OPE N I NG. A FLESH. UTTERLY B R E A K I NG THE CONTI N U ­ ITY OF THE VARNISHED M I RROR LIES WALL. ACTUALLY. CONTO U R S BECA U S E AND OF SIZE THE ITS AND D I F F I C U LT TO DEEP H U ES­ VERY P E R H A PS-OF TAPEST R I E S HIDDEN C O N F I N ES. S H E EACH S P A R K L I N G S P H E R E BOTH OF WHICH SOON VANISH FROM THE S PECTA­ TORS' VIEW AS SOON A S THEY NO LONGER CATC H THE LIGHT FROM T H E ROOMS FOR EXA M I N ATIONS. A FAINT PERCUS­ THESE D E N LY UNANSWERED AT TH E NEW Q U ESTI O N S OF RECEDE S U D­ SIVE SOU N D HAS DRAWN NEARER. A N E A R LY I N V I S I B L E GLASS STA N D S TH ERE. THE SPECTAC LE U N FOLDI NG TH E R E I N PROV I D E S AN EXPLAN ATION SOUNDS THAT PIA NO. LONG. T H E NOTES V A R Y F R O M O N E P E A R L T O T H E N E XT. AND LASTLY TH E FLOWER-G I R L H E RS E L F (OR SO IT APPEARS) LYING OUTSTRETC H E D O N THE S H A DOWY FLOOR. O N E M UST M E R E LY CHOOSE ONE OF T H E ELEM E NTS I N THE TA B LEAU. I NT E R VA LS M I DST TH E I R APPARENT OF R E LATI V E LY N OT E S . EXHI BITIONS OR I NTER­ S E E M S T O BE A S L E E P BUT TH ROUGH THE SPREAD FINGERS OF O N E O F H E R H A N DS OVER HER FACE AS THOUGH TO S H I E LD H E R FROM THE BRIGHT LIGHT OF A L A M P-A B S E N T-IT IS I M AG I N A BL E THAT TH E ROGATIONS. BOU N C E BACK TRACING TRAJECTO R I E S THAT ARE FAIRLY PRONO UNCED I N TH E I R I N C L I N E FROM THE VERTICAL. M I D-TH IGH BY FRI LLY GARTERS W I T H T I N Y PERCALE ROSE S AROUND T H E M . A S WELL A S T H E I NTERVAL BETWEEN TWO CONSECU­ THE ENIGMA OF T H E WHOLE COM POSITION PROM PTS ONE TO ATTE M PT TO MAKE A CHOICE. PURE AND FLOWER-G I R L K NOWN A S T E M P L E I N THE QUA RTER. A LSO BLACK. FI RST ONE. OR (TEMPORA RY?) FOR T H E R E PEATED ISSUE FROM A METRONOME OR A THIS I N KY BACKDROP ON LY TH R E E T H I N G S STA N D OUT MORE S H A R PLY MORE I LL U M I N ATED FROM OR P E R H A PS R E F LECTI NG LIGHT T H E C O R R I DO R BECA U S E OF TH E I R B R I G H T E R C AST. L I K E TH E OTH E R THI NGS IN TH I S I N V E NTORY. HER N EC K I S C LA S P E D IN A SORT OF WIDE LACE COLLAR. APPEARANCE Y E T A NOTH E R A LO N G TH E DETA I L. AU DITIONS. MUST B E DONE WITHOUT DELAY. ETC. BUT IT S I NCE ENTERING T H E SANCTUARY. IT WOULD B E M O R E ACCU RATE T O S P E A K FROM THE RIGHT F O R E G RO U N D AND M OV I N G O F PEARLS STR I KI N G AGA I N ST EACH OTH E R AT T H E CENTRE DIRECTLY OF AN OVA L THE M I R RO R GLASS ON THE FLOOR DIAGONALLY TOWARDS T H E L I M ITS OF O N E'S V I S U A L R A N G E . P ROBABLY A LITTLE FU RTH E R DOWN T H E LONG CORRIDOR. SUPE RVISION.P I N K STALK ROSE AT T H E TO END OF A ROSES DRESS L I TT L E ELSE C A N B E DI STI N G U I S H E D I N THE R OO M S A V E THE M I R RO R A N D THE S I LVER PEA RLS SUCCES­ STI F F TO THE S I M I LA R IN THE SIVELY FALLING FROM A N INVISIBLE CEILING THAT ST R I K E S I M U LTA N E O U S LY AGA I N S T TH E I R O W N OFFE R E D LEAVI NG G E NT L E M E N OPERA EVENING BY TH E HOUSE I MAGES A N D THE E P H E M E RAL SURFACE R E FLECT­ ING THEM WITH A M USICAL BY TH E H IGH SOU N D. I N EXORA B LY. A N D THAT A R E OCCASIO N A LLY S U B J ECTED T O I N F I N ITELY S M A L L VARIATI O N S C A U S E D BY T H E CONTACT BETW E E N AND ITS REFLECTION. . NOTH I N G SHOES M A D E OF FINE B L U E SKIN AND V E R Y HIGH­ H E E LED. FROM LIQU I D DROPS SOU N D I NG I N T H E SI LENCE.TELL IN WHAT D I R ECTION O N E H A S B E E N MOVING I MAGINA RY ORGA N I Z E R . SMALL AND SO NUMBER THE ACCORDANCE WITH T H E R U L E S LA I D DO W N B Y SOME AND SAME 73 . CON F U S I O N . H A N G I NGS. THE G I R L I S N A K E D EXC E PT FOR H E R LONG BLACK GLOVES AND A PA I R OF STOC K I NGS-oF A S I M I LA R SHADE BUT MORE TRANSLUCENT-FASTE N E D AT BA R E LY THEN M U FFLED TRANSPA RENT IN THE AIR WALL. G I V I NG ON A N UTTERLY DARK SPACE. A BET. . FRANCIS. FRANK V.

S U P E RBLY SPRAYS GEMS E A R R I NG S COM P L E X AS F I R EWORKS A N D WHICH IT WAS ONE OF THE LATTE R WHO HAS J U ST A P PEAR TO BE MADE W I T H T H E S A M E DROP-SHAPED P E A R LS THE VISUAL A B S T R ACT I O N OF WHICH B RUTALLY A N D U N E XPECTEDLY C A U S E D THE C H I LD AND HER IN D E LICATE THE WARES TO T U M B L E STA N D I N G TO THE CONTI N U E S T O FALL V E RTICA LLY ON LY TO BOU NCE BACK AT BEFORE THEM. W R I STS TOUCH I NG PALMS ON B E N E ATH CHEEK. S L I G HTLY ONCE A P A RT FROM T H E OTH E RS. PRIMPED AND P A M P E R E D. S I L K BROCADE. A THOUGH ON S E R I ES S H ELVES. I S TH E DELICATE P U B I C FLEECE. I T H A P P E N S T H A T WHAT I S ALSO M ET A L L I C G L I TT E R THAT COLLA R 74 . AND I N THE ABSENCE O F U N DE R GA R M E NTS. A C R U E L S M I L E ON H I S L I P S . I T I S N O W A P P A R E N T THAT S H E I S ATTA C H E D T O T H E FO U R TIGHT RO P E S OF P E A R LS FO R M A WITH DOG TH E I R N EC E S S A R Y MORE ONE THEM?)-SO HIGH I N FACT. WITH T H E C L E FT AT T I M E S R E V E A L I N G WAXEN FLESH IN ITS MOST SECRET RECESSES W H E N E V E R PLUNGED PROBABLY IN THE D E PT H S U N I TS OF AN THE PATI ENrS POST U R E HOLDS H E R LEGS O P E N A N A LY S I S OF T H E S E COMBI NATIONS. MATS. CA R E F U L LY SMOOTH E D. T H E SPECTATORS. H E M A Y H A V E T A K E N ADVAN­ F L I ES A LONG E N D L E S S L Y R E N E W E D P A R A BO L I C SEGMENTS. SEVERAL O F TH E M A R E A LSO WEARING H U G E RINGS AND GIGANTIC B R OOC H E S . TO A L L A PPEAR­ A N C ES. CROSSING FROM P A I NTED TOE . OR A LACE CUSHIONS. BLACK­ STOC K I NG E D LEGS SPREAD APA RT. SITTING C I RCLE FACING THE SC R E E N O N SEATS A S V A R I E D AS THEY ARE U NCOMFORTA B L E . W H O A P P E A R S TO B E STO P P I N G H E R E A R S T O D E A D E N T H E T I N K L I NG SOU N D THAT I S H I G H E R A N D H I G H E R P I TCHED-NEARLY A W H I STLE -W H I C H THE PEARLS PRODUCE BETWE EN WITH EVER­ HER BLANK-EYED CONTE M P LATION. SEQUINS AND STON E S . FACE STILL FAMOUS SC E N E S FROM H I STORY A R E S U PPOS EDLY R E PRODUC ED FROM LIFE. REMAIN MOTIONLESS. Q U I T E U N C O N S C I O U S ON T H E C R U E L LY H A R D S EAT.H A N D E D A N D D I FFIC U LT. S H E HAS THE FULL EVEN I NG GOWNS A R E . CONTORTED FUR RUGS POSITIONS. LIKE THOSE TA BLEAUX OF LIFE­ SIZES WAX FIGU R E S IN MUSEUMS AND I N WHICH EITHER H ER S E L F S U L K I LY WATC H I N G T H E SC E N E U N FOLD I N THE GREAT RECTA N G U L A R GLASS W H E R E I N S H E S E E S H E R O W N N A K E D . S O O N E M A Y ADMIRE AT GREATER EASE THE DIFFERENT ONCE SPECIMENS TO BET (WILL ON IT BE OF S L U M P E D BACKWARDS W I T H A LOW GROA N SHE WAS NO LON G E R ABLE TO RESTRA I N . LOST IN TH E I R I N T H E F I RST R O W . FEATH ERS. OF THUS OFFERI NG.N A I LS TO CA LF. CONC E A L E D U N D E R TH E LEAVES O F THE FLOWERS.Q U E STION A R I S E S ONCE M O R E : IS IT A PROB LEM OF CHOICE A S IN THE PRECEDI NG SC E N E OR ON THE CONTRARY I S IT NOW A N TURAL ORGA N IZATION? E X P E R I M ENT I N STRUC­ E X PO S E D. WHOLE O N E OF T H E YOUNG WOM E N I N T H E A U D I E NC E A S THOUGH POSITION P A R A LY Z E D BY HER C O N ST R A I N E D COLLECTION OF FOOTWE A R FOR C U STOM ERS W I T H SPEC I A L TA STES. I NVERTED I M AG E . D A R K OR FAI R. THE D I STI NCT WOM E N . THE F E E T OF N E A R LY ALL U PO N R E S T. OF J E WELS. HER HEAD O N O N E S I DE. H A S MOVED. FROZEN IN POSES STIFFLY DIMINISHING I NT E R V A L S THEM. OR P E N DANTS. RICH IN LACE. AS I SAID. BUT IN LONG H E LD ( A S WAS J UST M E NTIONED) BETW E E N HER TWO SMALL AND HANDS WITH F I N G E R S H UGELY MAGN I F I ED. MORE OFTEN THAN NOT. E V E N THOSE N EXT TO H E R. TOWA RD THE F LOO R . AND TH E I R IN A SEMI­ WIDE ENOUGH. I S T H E M A N WITH THE BALD HEAD AND N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES OBSERV­ I NG T H E R E S U LTS OF HIS VIOLENT ACT. DRESSED IN BLACK AND W H ITE. AND SANDALS WITH L E A T H E R THONGS C R I S S ­ H A S S U D D E N LY LOST CONSC IOUSN ESS. H E R L I P S PARTED A N D EYES C LOSED. FROM B OO T S T O BA LL-SLI PPERS. WITHOUT HER COM PA N IO N S SO M UC H A S BATTING AN E Y E L I D. MADE U P EXTRAVAGA NTLY THOUGH I N PA LE HUES EXCEPT FOR T H E BRIGHT PINK U PON TH E I R CHEEKS. TUCKED UP V E R Y H IGH E X PO S I NG LONG LEGS SWATH E D I N S I LK. HER C H I N A N D HER IS L I TT L E TEM PLE I M I TATI NG NAT U R E . SOM E H IG H . DISTANCE. OTH E R S A R E B E D I Z E N E D WITH ARTI FIC I A L ROSES TAGE OF T H E A PP L E USED MOM E N T TO P U R LO I N T H E HOLLOW FOR S E C R E T M E SSAGES THAT WAS AND LILIES OR G I A NT BUTTERFLIE S. I M ITATING T H E POSITION OF H E R N E I G H BO R'S H A NDS. IN VARIOUS LITTLE AS BUT J U S T NOW A M U FF L E D CRY I S HEARD FROM THE LITTLE THEATRE WHERE NOT H I NG. O R FASC I NATED B Y T H E T I M E LESS AND BACK IN FALLING ALWAYS L I G H TS BOUNC I N G AWAY U N FO R ESEEN ( U NFORSEE­ ABLE?) D I R ECTIONS. DECKED WITH P E A R LS OR LITTLE G E M ­ ROSES. O I S A R R AY AMONG T H E ROSES THAT H A V E S P I LLED FROM T H E W I C K E R TRAY S H E U S E S TO D I S PLAY H E R FLOW E R S TO H E R CUSTO M E R S . SHOELESS U PO N THE CUSHIONS IN LY I N G DRESSES OF BYGONE F I N E RY. AS D I A DEMS.

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W H ITE. V E R Y D A R K .A P P L E I l . M I R RO R A N D TH E ROSES LYING H E LTER-SKELT E R NOW BLEND I NTO AND VA R IOUS WITH DECORATIVE OBVIOUS MOTIFS. BUT P E R H A PS T H E L O N G BLON D E H A I R OVE R T H E R E . A N D A L L THE M O R E SO A S THE SPIKE H E E L OF O N E OF H E R P I N K SLI PPERS WITH PEARL POM POMS H A S A LSO B E E N R I VETED T O TH E WOODEN FRONT OF T H E C H A I R . A S GOLDEN A N D U ND U LATING A S A F I E L D O F R I P E N E D W H EAT. FRANCIS A B R U PT L Y B E C O M E S C O N ­ OF S O M E A RT I F I C E OR OTH ER. A S SOON A S S H E C A N N O LON G E R HOLD H E R FROM HER PRESCRI B ED POSE. A SECOND WOM A N .C O V E R E D ETC.H A I RED. W I T H H E R S M A LL R O U N D B R E A STS. U N ATTA I N A BLE." B E G I N S W I TH A PRESENTATION O F W E D D I N G C O ST U M E S PHANOUS. BOOTS. S H E D D I N G AS S H E D O E S SO T H E L I G H T E M B ROI D E R E D L A C E V E I L THAT HAD PA RTLY C O NC E A LE D HER TORSO. T H E ARE DIS­ W ELL-A N D FRAGILE I N T H I S CASE I T DOES-TE M PLE.H E A D E D MAN LIGHT PA RTY B A LLOONS FLOATING S I LVERY I N T H E C U BE-SH A P E D ROOM. H E R 76 . THE YOUNGEST OF A L L T H E SPECTATORS S I TT I N G WITHOUT ON THE OTH E R SIDE OF THE GLASS.H A I RED. CONC U R RENTLY THE OVA L W E A R I NG N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES I S NONE OTH E R THA N HIS OWN R E FLECTION IN A SIDE M I RROR. STI L L FOR TEM PLE'S NAKED BY BUT BENEFIT WHO IS M A RTYR. ON THE STAGE.P E A R L THORNS LIKE A C H R I ST I A N T R A N S L U C ENT. TH I S CAUSE O F HER PRESENT STATE (FATAL?) . T H E HER ROSES T R I A N G L E' S B L O N D E TU FTS F L O W E R -G I R L PEDDLING P L AY E D I N A L L D U E POMP. (FULL W E D D I NG GOWNS. TH U S FORC I NG HER KNEE TO BEND D I STU R B I N G VISION. E ROTIC SATISFYING H I M S E L F WITH THAT INTERPRETATION FOR T H E T I M E B E I NG. MOTHE R-OF. FRANK V. K N OWN A S "TH E BA RTER E D B R I DE. V E I LS. I T IS TO BE CONJEC­ TURED THAT SEVERAL OF THE J EW E L S THEY HARMLESS NO CON NOTATIONS. T H E N S H E A RR A N G E S HER BLACK STOC K I NGS A N D S L I P S I NTO A PA I R O F F I N E H IGH-H E E L E D S HOES. TH E N EXT TABLEAU. WAS D A R K. THE S H A R PLY T O T H E S I D E A N D H E R A N K L E T O TOUCH. THE TARGET OF A DD I T I O N A L C R U E LTY FROM H E R PERSEC UTORS. A L S O SHOWS SIGNS OF I LL N E S S O R D I STR ESS: CROWN E D WITH M O T H E R-OF. O F THE WASP-CORSET S H E W E A R I NG A N D NOTH I NG E LSE. WITHOUT T H E SLIGHTEST LATITUDE OF MOVE M E NT. HER G E N I T A LS. S H E I S GOING. OR N E A RLY. I S S I M PLY-L I K E SO M A N Y OTH E R T H I NGS IN THIS HOUSE-THE R E S U LT SERVE AS A FOOT.A R O U N D H E R N ECK. R I S E S TO FEET WITH P I R O U ETTE. THE ONLY THE G L A R E OF T H E P ROJ ECTORS. W H E R E A S O N T H E CONTRA R Y T H E P E A R LS SC ATTERED AROU N D H E R H A V E G R O W N B I GG E R U NT I L THEY H A V E BECOM E A DM I S S I BLE E X P LA NATION I S THAT H E I S PROBABLY PART OF THE SC E N E: THE B A L D. O N E WOU L D S W E A R T H A T T H E G I R L H A S GROWN E V E N YOUNGER. M O R EOVER. THE SC E N E CONTI N U E S : IN A LL LI K E L I HOOD HER SI NGU LARLY RIGID T H E L I TT L E FLOWER-GI R L I S N O W A WA K E N I NG AS THOUG H FROM A D R E A M LESS S L E E P AND I MME­ POS I TION. WHICH A R E EXPOSED I N FULL V I EW D U E T O T H E W I D E A NGLE PRODUC E D M A K E S H I FT C H E M I S E O F T H E WRY YOUNG WHORE. W H E N H E R L E G S W E R E P U L L E D APA RT. T H E I NS PECTOR NOTES J U ST I N C A S E THE FACT THAT THE ROLE PLAYED B Y T H E P E A R L S A S I N ST R U M E N TS O F TORTURE I S BECOM­ I N G I NC R E A S I N G LY OBVIOUS. . . ARE ACT U A L L Y SOLI D ROSA R Y B I N D S TOG ETH E R AT H E R JOI N E D W R I STS­ THE L U M I NOUS ROSE S Y M BOLIZING H E R V I RG I N ITY. CROWNED WHO IS TIA RAS. J U ST B E LOW THE LOW E R BLACK A R C. A N D WHOSE L I N E S OF FORCE THIN HER WA I ST AND P U S H U P H E R B R E A STS U N D ERSCO R E D BY SACRED MORE ROPES OF P E A R LS. THAT HER BONDS H A V E FORCE D H E R TO A DOPT-A N D THE P E R H A PS FOR SEVERAL HOURS-IS D I A T E LY R I V ETS H E R GAZE O N THE E Y E S OF H E R D O U B L E . AS W E L L AS THE BRACE LETS AROUND THONGS HER F I R M LY W R I STS.R EST. A THIS FOR AN I N STA N T SHE R E F LECTED HER M I RAGE. HOW E V E R. R EFLECTI NG MOREOV E R I N T H E C E N T R E O F T H E OVA L M I RROR I N V E N E TI A N C RYSTA L LYING O N T H E FLOOR BEFORE H E R TO N E A R THE OPERA H O U S E . FOR I N STA NCE. SINCE HE C A NNOT H A V E B E C O M E I N V I S I B L E ( E V E N U N D E R TH E MAGIC S P E L L OF THE HOLLOW M ES S A G E . T O DROP H A N DS-THAT A KIND OF N E ARLY RENDERED A LMOST NUBILE A PPROPRIATE CUPPED LIGHTI NG. H O L D I N G THE G I R L PRISON E R I N T H E C H A I R : O N E A T THE TOP O F THE STRAIGHT BACK AND O N E AT E AC H END O F T H E ARM-RESTS.P E A R L B U TT E R F L I E S ARE C L I N G I N G TO HER BLONDE TRESSES. K E E P I NG H E R L E G I N T H E A I R A S THOUGH I N A STI R RUP.). DIA­ I N FO R M A R E P R I C K E D D I RECTLY I NTO T H E WOM E N ' S S K I N . F O R T H I S I S T H E E FFECT PRODUCED BY HER FEATURES-MORE C H I L D L I K E T H A N EVER-I N SC IOUS OF A N A NO M A L Y W H I C H DO E S NOT F A I L TO C A U S E H I M M I S G I V I NGS: NO O N E H E R E S E E M S TO NOTICE HIS PRESENCE. I M M AC U LA T E TULLE L I LY LACED P E A R L. HOLDING HER IS UPON R E M A R K I NG T H I S LAST DETA I L T H E N A RRA­ TOR BECOME A WA R E O F A SECOND I NCONSISTENCY IN THIS ACCO U N T: IF HIS M EMORY SERVES HIM GA RTERS.

THE F R I L LS AND THE F L O U N C E S F O R THE S A C R I F I C E . S H E FEELS FAI NT. .I N SPLE N D I D SHOP I M PO R T A N C E OF THE W I N DOWS O F TH E AND WHOSE DRESSED (SOMETI MES EVEN LESS SO. FLEECE SHADI NG H E R P U B I S WITH S I LKY DOWN. AS THOUGH IT MIGHT DISSOLVE. SHE I S STI L L BUT NOW A DEATH FIGURE APPEARS I N THE PARADE (THE BI R DS WERE PROBABLY ITS HARBINGER). I N S I D E O F W H I C H HUGE JET­ BLACK RAVENS B E A T T H E I R W I N GS . F I N G E R S S P R EA D . THE EFFECT OF THIS THAT PROFANE. TH E BETTER TO SHOW OFF THE ARTICLES PRESENTED. CYLINDRICAL I N S H A P E AND O F V A ST PROPORT I O N S (IF CROUCHED. A N D THE I R LONG HAIR. AS THOUGH BY A GIGA NTIC S E A ­ A N E M O N E . A K I M BO. THE M I R ROR'S LIQU I D I S HALT AT M I D-THIGH. L I K E SALOME BEFORE H E ROD. HER BUDDING WAY AS T O MAKE ONE F E A R ( O R HOPE FOR) T H E WORST A S FAR AS TH E G I R LS' F A T E IS CONCERNED. A S THOUGH U NCONSCIOUS. H A V E NOTH I NG COV E R I NG THEM BUT BLACK MESH TIGHTS. THE S U RVIVORS CONTEM­ PLATE T H E SA C R I F I C E D BO D I E S W I T H O U T T H E S L I G HT E S T V I S I B L E E M OT I O N . FEATH ERS. AS THOUGH THE FA SHION DI SPLAY I N WHICH THEY TDOK PART HAS LEFT THEM WITH O N LY TATTER E D. ROSE WITH A GOLDEN H E A RT. . COSTU M E D L I K E B R I DES FOR THE CEREMONY. BY THE G L A S S TURNED T O S P O N G E A N D T H E FLOOR T H E SAME. AND DEATH OF THE RIGHT NOW K I NG . T H E I R GENITALS O N DISPLAY. COULD FIT TH E R E I N ) . TABLEAU SUGGESTS TH E PASSAGE O F BARBA R I A N CUSTO�. I S W E A R I NG NOTH ING BUT J EWELS I N A RABESQUE PATTE R N S ON H E R S K I N . S E V E R A L D I S P L A Y T H E P E R F E C T I O N OF TH E I R NAKED BREASTS WITH TH E I R H EADS NEARLY C I RCLED BY ENORMOUS H A LOS THAT RECALL TH E ONES ON BYZA N TI N E SAI NTS A N D U PON WHICH. THE WOM E N ARE SEATED P R I M LY I N PADDED A R M C H A I R S A N D O N VELVET D A R K R E D SOFAS. ERS W H O H A V E J UST VICTI M IZED TWO OR TH REE OF THE I N M ATES. A U R EO L E D WITH THOSE FLUTTERING WEDOING V E I LS ON DISPLAY A WHI LE AGO-AS M E NTIO N E D . THERE I S A FURTH E R CHANGE IN THE LIGHTING AND S U D D E N LY F R O M TH E S H A DOWS SEVERAL B I R O CAGES EM ERGE. TOWA RDS W H I C H TEMPLE S E N S E S S H E I S BEING SUCKED. ONE OF THEM. C H A R LES-BORIS. B U T MANNEQUINS ARE ON FASHION GRACEFUL PARADE. HER BLONDE H A I R TRACES A W A V Y PATH DOWN H E R B A C K . SOM E A R E I LLUSIONS. THE G I R LS A PPROACH A N D G R E ET THE N E WLY C H O S E N ONE. KNEE­ HIGH BOOTS A N D A DOG LEASH OF BRAIDED LEATHER THAT H A N G S ABOUT H E R N E C K A N D DOWN TO H E R B ELLY W H E R E IT DANGLES BETWEEN H E R LEGS. SOFT AND Y I E LDING. COSTUM E D S O AS T O EVOKE ASSOCIATIONS-oFTE N MACABRE-WITH WHITE V E I LS A N D BLACK M E S H . A R E M I N D E R OF T H E THE LITTLE G I R L I S NOW ON THE OTHE R S I D E OF T H E M I R ROR WHOSE SI DES SHE HAS P U S H E D A PART TO STEP TH ROUGH THE FRAME MORE EASI LY. O N E O F TH E M TAKES POND E ROUS BUT SI LENT FLIGHT AND PERCHES ON THE U N PROTEC- ONCE AGA IN. A N D HER AWAREN ESS OF W H A T IS A RO U N D H E R B E G I N S T O F A D E . T H EY APPEAR AT T H I S POI NT IN THE NARRATIVE (EVEN THOUGH O N E DOES NOT EXACTLY SUDDEN U N D E RSTA N D TH E REFERENCE) OLD AS REASON FOR T H I S SHE FALLS DIZZI LY FORWARD. H E R L E G S SOMEWHAT APA RT. THE RAVENS H OW E V E R HAVE BEEN RELEASED FROM TH E I R C A G E S A N D T H E Y A R E P E R C H E D H E R E AND T H E R E U PON T H E C A R V E D CORNICES OF T H E FURNITUR E OR ON THE PEDIMENTS OF THE M I R RORS. LIGHT AND INTIMATE UNDERCLOTH­ ING WHOSE VESTAL WHITENESS ONLY S E RVES TO EM PHASIZE ITS LICENTIOUSNESS. HER WEARI NG ONLY H E R LONG BLACK GLOVES-oNE I S RESTING ON H E R H I P A N D THE OTH E R CUPS H E R CHIN. S H E STANDS FACING THE PUBLIC. OR R EC L I N I NG O N COUCHES A M I DST T H E H EAPED PI LLOWS. PERHAPS EVEN LIFELESS. S I LENTLY. A C C U STO M E D ­ APPARENTLY-TO THESfi: EXACTIONS. PANTHER SKINS MARBLED A N D TATTE R E D C H L A ­ MYDES. A NOTHER I S W E A R I NG O N L Y H E R SOFT. THE PEARLS A R E DEC K E D IN SUCH A 77 . THE G I R L SUDDENLY INVERTED A N D FI LLS WITH V E I N S. S H E CLOSES H E R EYES. T H E I R H E A DS TH R O W N B A C K . THOUGHTFU LLY C O N S I D E R I N G THE ELE­ GANT DRESS M A K E R-SLAVES AS THEY SPREAD AT HER FEET TH E TRAPPINGS. S H E TURNS TOW A R D T H E TALL B A R OQ U E M I R R O R B E H I N D H E R . HAS OFTEN B E E N CA PITAL I N EFFECTI NG THE DISCREET CAPTUR E OF MANY A PRISONER IN THE PALACE OF I LLUSION.A N D STOC K I NGS THAT EACH GARTER SPORTI NG A REFLECTION SEEMS BLURRED TO H ER. TOR N OR M I S MATC H E D PIECES OF CLOTHI NG). H A L F­ ANOTHER. LONE A N D PERHAPS FAMISHED. THE NEXT ONES. OR SOM ETI M ES AN ARRAY O F N EG LIGEES.W A I ST A L R E A D Y P E R C E PT I B L E . TEM PLE I S FRIGHTENED. ONE AFTER FINDS H ERSELF I N A VAST BOURGEOIS DRAWING ROOM WITH ITS OVERLY OR NATE DECORATIONS AND I N WHICH T H E YOUNG I M MOBILE WOM E N S E E M TO BE WAITI NG THE H A B I T U E S OF TH E HOUSE. H E R D E D A LONG BY SEVERAL LYING U PON ORI ENTAL RUGS OR A N I M A L S K I N S I N THE MOST R E L A X E D OF POSES. THEIR LEGS STERN N UNS.

I F S H E DOES NOT BEHAVE S H E W I L L BE LOC K E D I NS I D E THE D E A D DOLL SHOP. A N D TO WAIT WITH THEM I N THE A R MC H A I R OF THE DRAWING ROOM WHOSE YOUNGEST ORNAMENT SHE WILL BE. THE BALD H E A D OF T H E N A R RATOR. R A N G I N G F R O M BEG­ GA R'S RAGS O R A TURN OF THE CENTU RY BATHI N G COST U M E TO A S INGLE F U L L . MOVES AWAY FROM HER CAR. W H E R E SHE DOES NOT EVEN NOTICE. THE CONDUCTOR TA LKING TO A PASSENGER. 8 TER. 78 . R. E R ECT IN ALL ITS GLORY. 8 BIS. R:S HAND HOLDING THE R A I L. 1 2. BUT CONC EALI NG H E R VULVA. R. PLATFORM OF B U S TRAVELLING TOWARD THE PALAI 5. R. WITH TH E PROBABLE I NTENTION OF PERSUA DING HER TO REJOI N H E R COMPANIONS. CORPU LENT. S ITS I N A COR N E R SEAT NEAR AN OPEN W I N DOW. T H E N S H E TRIES O N VARIOUS OUTFITS DESIGNED TO A RO U S E THE I NTEREST OF A CERTA I N C A TEGORY O F C US TO M E R.ROYAL. W H I SPERS A FEW I N A U D I B L E WORDS T O HER. THE LITTLE ALAIN ROBBE-G R I LLET TRA NSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE 7. 1 1 . A NOTH ER. 1 3. GOES QUICKLY I N S I D E THE BUS. 1 0. SPREADS HIS ROYA L GIRL FEIGNS I N D EC I S I O N TO C O N C E A L HER DUPLICITY. B.TEO BELLY OF AN U NCONSCIOUS G I R L. AGAI NST THE NAKED BREASTS OF A DOOM E D CAPTI VE WHO IS HA LF-RECLI N I NG O N A CA NOPY. R. AT H E R FEET LIES A LION S K I N EVOKI NG SOMETH I NG THAT M UST H A V E OCCURRED ELSEWH E R E I N TH E N A R RATIVE. THE PASSENGER (FAT. DISAPPEARS I NTO T H E C ROWD. TH E H A N D OF THE CORPULENT PASSENGER SLIDING A LONG THE R A I L TO R:S FINGERS W H I C H A R E SLOWLY COV E R E D BY T H E H A N D. BOARDS A STREET BUS. TALL).B LO W N ROSE PLUMAGE. R EFLECTED I N WHAT? A N D WHERE? ONE OF TH E NUNS GOES U P TO TEMPLE AND THE DEPTHS O F A LOOKING GLASS. WANTING TO BE STROKED. 9. H E GLANCES AT R.

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4. WOM E N . ON GAY LIBERATION! THEY H A V E R E CO U R S E TO A BEST IT C A N ! I N F A C T IT DESERTS MAN'S B O D Y I N O R D E R T O E M I G RATE T O THE SIDE OF THE WOM A N . ATTITUDES A N D BEHAVIORS. T H I S PASSAGE. F A M I LY. R E L A TI O N S H I P BODIES. O N E OF C A P I T A L I S M 'S FOU N DATIONS. THAT T H E M I R A BELLES HELP US EXPLORE: A MAN WHO LOVES HIS OWN BODY. A LL BODIES. OF THE "BREAST PLATE" OF W H I C H W I L H ELM REICH SPOKE. SONG. J UST AS WO R K E R S . W H A T I S ESSENTI A L H E R E I S NOT T H E OBJECT I N Q U E S T I O N . ON THE OTH E R H A N D.TING TH E: M E . BUT TO MAKE BODIES. AND LONG TIRADES OF GOOD INTENTIONS. I N ST E A D . FOR EXAM PLE. NOT AS D i F F E R E NT WAYS O F f LLUSTR. WOR K . A STATE I N O R D E R T O BECOME SOM ETHING OTH E R T H A N THAT WHICH THE R E PR E S S I V E SOCI A L BODY H A S FORCED US TO BE. OR M O R E P R E C I S E LY.I H A V E EVEN M ET H A PPY T R A V E LOS THE M I R A BELLES A R E EXPE R I M E NTI NG WITH A NEW TYPE OF M I LITANT THEATRE. W H E R E A S T H E F E M I N I N E BODY I S TRA N S FOR M E D I NTO A N OBJECT OF LUST. TO "CHANGE THE I D E AS" OF THE SPECTATOR. SUCCEED I N ESTA B L I S H I N G A C E RTA I N K I N D OF R E LATION S H I P T O THE WOR L D'S REA LITY. DESPITE THE E XPLOITATION O F T H E I R WOR K POWER. 1 . T O TH E BECOMI NG·WOMA N SIDE. A THEATRE S E PARATE FROM AN E X P L A N ATO R Y LA N G U AGE. S E X U A L A L I E N A T I O N . BUT I N O R D E R T O TROUBLE H I M . H A S T O M A NAGE A S B O U R G E O I S I E IS NOTH I N G WITHOUT T H E PROLE· BO . SUCCEED IN E ST A B L I S H I N G PRI MARILY ON A C E RT A I N T R U E THEY LIVE THIS L E V E L O F TH E I R R E LATIONSH I P T O DESIRE.. T O STIR UP U NC E RTA I N D E S I RE·ZONES THAT H E ALWAYS M O R E OR LESS R E F U S E S TO EXPLORE. " E V E N LESS TO WOU L D HAVE THE MUCH WOM A N . M I M E. I M PL I E S T H A T THE SOCI A L BODY I S POLA R I Z E D IN M A S C U L I N I TY. IT IS A US QUESTION OF A DIFFER ENT BECOM ING. AND THE AND I F A T T H E ECONOM I C L E V E L TH E DESIRE. A PI ECE OF M E RC H A NDISE TO WHICH ONE CANNOT HAVE AND BY M E C H A N SI M S ACCESS EXC E PT THROUGH GUI LT TO ALL THE SYSTE M'S ( M A R R I AG E . DANCE. A M A N WHO LOVES A WOM A N'S BODY OR ANOT H E R M A N'S IS H I MSELF THIS IS OF COURSE TO T H E TRANSVESTI S M . Irs T H I S MOVEM E N T. A S PSYCHOANA LYSTS B E L I EV E . SUBMISSION A LW A Y S S E C R ETLY C H A RA C T E R I Z E D BY A "BE· C O M I NG·WO M A N . DESPITE T H E S E X U A L E X P LO I T A T I O N W H I C H T H E Y U N D E RGO. ETC . T H E QUESTION IS NO LO N G E R TO K N OW W H E T H E R ONE W I L L P L A Y F E M I N I N E AGA INST M A S C U L I N E O R T H E REVERSE. ETC ." A N D FROM STER EOTY P E D SITUATIONS. BREAK AWAY FROM THE REPRESENTATIONS AND RESTRAI NTS OF THE "SOC I A L BODY. B U T T H E T R A N S FO R M A T I O N A L M OV E M ENT. D I F F E R E N T THAT A N I D E NTI FICATION MOTHER.

H A LLOWE E N WHICH A LSO H A P P E N E D TO B E HER/HIS WEDDI NG NIGHT. E V E N I F I T I S A M I LITANT G H ETTO: WHAT I N T E R ESTS T H E M IS THAT SHOWS LIKE T H E I R S TO UCH NOT ONL Y HOMOSEX U A L C I RCLES. W H AT I NTER ESTS THEM IS TO H E LP TO J PULL LOOK C LO S E LY AT HOMOS E X U A LITY O U T O F ITS G H ETTO. LONG E V E N THOUGH B E TW E E N E V E R Y TWENTY­ ALAS. CAN AS R E PORTS AS ARE CON­ M A LE ACCOUTR E M E NTS. BOUNC I NG R I NG LETS UNTI L TWELVE YEARS OF AGE AND BANGS A FTERWARDS W E LL I NTO THE P U B L I C Y E A R S . MAY EVEN BE A POC R Y P H A L ) . ONCE H I S A LA F L A S H LIGHT PANTS WERE DOWN THOROUGHLY. A LTHOUGH THE FOOTNOTE B R E A KS OFF UNDER M I D N IGHT BLA N K ETS. FROM TO J U NCTU R E B E TW E E N TH E M BRING WHENCE WHICH COUNTER-D E P E N D E NC E REDUCE WOM E N OR U N E XPECTED E N E RGY TO THE FORM E R. THAT DOESN'T AT A L L M E A N THAT W E SHOULD PUT CLASS STRUGG LES WAY DOWN ON T H E LA D D E R B E N EATH DESIRE STRUGG L E S . MON ETA RY C R I SI S . WITH M UCH P R E D A TO R Y A DO P T IN SEXUAL B E H A VI O R S THEM. E TC . TH E M I R A BELLES WORK. POLLY'S PARTNE R (WE S H A LL CALL HIM PA U L FOR A M B IGUITY'S SAKE) HAD R E F R A I N E D D A N I E L S LOATE 81 . ACTUA LLY. AND T H I S M E R E L Y A D D S TO TH E CON FUSION. ) AND J U ST DON'T FEEL GOOD A BOUT TH E M S E LVES. FLICTING. AT BO U R G E O I S S E P A R A T I O N O F PUBLIC ACTIV ITY. I M ITATION OF TH E S E SA M E S E G R EGATIONS AND PLE.WO M A N . WAS ACCOM PLISHED BY M E A N S O F A N A D ROIT F I N G E R I NT R O D U C E D UNDER TH E PREPUCE THE A N D TWI R L E D COUNTER­ R E S U LTS W E R E LONG HERE IN M I D-ECSTA SY. H E R / H I S P A R E NTS H A D DEC I D E D O N F E M A LE I S S U E A N D W H E N POLLY A P P E A R E D W E A R I N G THE USUAL FROM TH E USUAL FUM BLINGS B E FO R E THEIR N U PT I A L A N D S O THEY W E R E QUITE U N P R E P A R E D F O R WHATEV E R OCC U R E D. MEN A R E N'T IF THEY M UC H DO WHERE BOD I E S ARE A R E A L D E S I R E S O F T H E PEOPLE I M PL I E S THAT O N E I S C A PABLE OF L I STE N I NG TO H I S O W N D E S I R E A N D TO THAT OF H I S MOST I M M E D I ATE ENTOURAGE. AND PA U L. WH ITE M I STA K E N FOR TH E M E N ST R U A L FLOW AND POLLY DUTIF ULLY MASTURBATED ONCE EIGHT TIM E DAYS. FOOTNOTE ON A N E W E NZYM E S H E D I SCOVERED I N T H E A M A N ITA V I ROSA W H I C H PROVES CONC L U S I V E ­ LY T H A T M O S T DEATH A R E PSYCHOSOMATIC) POLLY POLLY. AGE C LA SS E S . ON THE C O N T R A RY.C A R . T R A N SVESTED G R E E N B E A N " . CONSTITUTES O N E O F T H E FOU N DATIONS O F THE PRESENT B U R E A UCRATIZATION OF TH E REVOLU­ F E L I X G U A TTA RI TRANSLATED BY RAC H E L McCOMAS TION A R Y WORKER'S M O V E M ENT. NO ONE S E E M S TO KNOW ANYTHI NG AT ALL A BOUT THE ACTUA L GOI NGS. S H E / H E FOU N D THE EXPOSU R E OF HAPPENED ON BUT WE FEEL I T S H O U LD GO INTO TH E DOSS I E R A N YWAY. RACES.I N A N D -OUT OF THAT N IGHT ( M I S S T H R I P P E FOOTNOTE. STRATI FICATIONS REFUSAL TO BY M I LITANTS ( FO R THE EXAM­ CON­ "T R A N S V E ST E D AND . THEY TRY THE THEY AND THAT IS TH E " F R ONT" ON WHICH. I S THAT PA U L A N D POLLY O P E N E D A D I N E R P E RIODS. BUT A L S O THE M A S S OF PEOPLE WHO C RETE A L I E NATION O F WOM E N A N D C H I LD R E N . . TH E I R COLLECTI V E H E R/ H I S P A R E NTS PUT FAR M I SS T H R I P PE . THE DINER WAS A R E MODELED H A N D. WHICH REGARD TO ECONOMIC S E X U A L E X PLOITATION C A N NOT B E D I S S OC I ATED.TA R I AT. AT POS S E S S I V E R E S P E CT FOR P R I V ATE LIFE AND THE DOMI NATI NG A TTI T U D E S . IT COU RSE WAS I N E V I TA B L E : OUTS I DE A N A UTOMOBILE PLANT I N W I N DSOR M EWS. F R O M W H E N C E C O M E S TH E I R DEPENDENCE ON THE WO M A N ' S BODY OR TH E WOM A N I M AG E W H I C H H A U NTS TH E I R D R E A M S A N D TH E I R O W N BOD I E S . FROM A IDS TOGETH E R A N D S I M PLY POLLY WAS RAISED LIBRARIAN. MODESTY A N D T E N A C ITY. THE S E R I O U SLY: MORE (TH E I R SOMETH I N G " S E R I O U S!" I M P O RT A N T T H A N MOTTO: WHAT CODI FICATION O F ATTITUDES A N D C L A S S STRATI FI­ CATION. ALL WE DO KNOW. OR W H I C H T H E Y PROJ ECT ONTO THEIR HOMOSEXUAL COM E S TH E TO PARTNE R'S BODY. A S C E R TA I N (TH I S IGNORED POLLY'S ADDENDA. M A S T U R B A T I O N T R I GG E R E D B Y POLLY'S F U RT I V E R E A D I NG S WAS UNMASKED AS PAUL. LISTE N I NG FOR THE POLLY ORlAND PAUL POLLY WAS SECRETLY A M A N IN WOM A N'S PANTIES. WILL EACH AN CONC E R N E D NOT ACHIEVE SUCH B E C O M I N G. BUT THEY THEM E S P EC I A LLY DON'T W A N T U S TO T A K E THEY ARE S T R U G G L I NG FOR IS B U R E A UC R A C I E S AND TH E B O U RG E OI S I E M A I NTA I N TH E I R POWE R BY B A S I NG T H E M S E L V E S ON S E X U A L SEGR EGATION. C L OC K W I S E . W A S B A S I C A LLY A POLLY.

Q U E ST I O N . R E S U LTA NT VOLUPTUOUS D E LIGHT WITH I N M Y BODY W A S IN FACT I N C R E A S I N G THE POWER OF ATTRAC­ TION. S H E WA NTS IT. THE P R OC U R E R AS THE ECONOMICAL I N STA NCE. S I N C E T H E S U F F E R I NG I S E X PO S E D T O H I S EYES A N D G I V E N T O H I S H E A RT. SOM ETI M E S A LSO BY PUTTING M E TO DEATH A N D. BY THE DESTRUCTION OF MY INTELLIGENCE ( BY D R I V I NG M E M A D). A L M IGHTY D I V I N I TY W H O M I P E R C E I V E D I N D A N G E R . . "AS F A R AS THE ATTEM PTS AT TRAN SFORMATION ARE CONC E R N E � IT SOON THE P ROSTITUTE A C C E PTS P ROSTITUTION I N T H E N A M E OF A S U PE R I O R I N T E REST. I I MA G I N E D THE CONTRADICTED IT WAS A THE CONSERVATION THER EFORE. BY P ROFESSOR FLECHSIG. SC H R E B E R A DDS. CONSENTED TO T H I S ATTRACTION A G A I NST TH E I R W I L L BEC A U S E IT L E D TO THUS. THE D I S S OC I AT I O N OF THE TWO BECA M E C L E A R THAT TH E PROGRESSIVE FILLING UP OF MY BODY WITH (FEMI NINE) V O L U PTUOUS N E RVES H A D THE OPPOSSITE EFFECT. A N D I N T H I S R EG A R D. BUT A LSO H E ROD. SHE B E G I N S TO TESTIFY A G A I N ST H E R P R OC U R E R . S H E I S S I M I L A R T O A M A RTYR. WAS MUCH B EC A M E CON V I N C E D THAT GOD H I M S E L F H A D B E E N A N ACCO M P L I C E I F N OT A UTHOR OF T H E PLOT S E T U P TO K I LL M Y SOU L A N D PROSTITUTE M Y BODY L . J. D I D I CONTI N U A LLY S E E MY REAL E N E M Y. S H E TESTI F I E S THROUGH H E R H U M I LI ATION. IN TRYING T O S U S P E N D T H E ATTRAC­ WOR DS. W H I C H AT TH E TI M E S E E M E D POS S I B L E T O ACCOMPLISH BY PUTTING A P R I C E ON MY BODY." A N D. L I K E A R E A L WHORE. OR RATH ER. TO GET AWAY FROM MY I THOUGHT I POSSI B L E . WHO W A NTS THIS S C A N D A L. M A G D A L E N E A S J E S U S." LIKE A REAL G I R L. A N D IN­ OF T H E N . A LOSS OF T H E I R OWN E X I STENCE. THAT THE I N STA NCES (GOD A N D P I M P) I S STI L L N A I V E : G O D A S THE A FFECTIVE I N STANCE. AS MY A LLY. SACRI FICED. THIS F E M I N IZATION? " I T W A S P E RFECTLY N A T U R A L THAT FROM A HUMAN PO I N T OF V I EW DOMI NATING ME C H A PT E R S N E RVES) W H I C H WERE ATTRACTED. 1 .USE ME LET US R E R E A D P R E S I D E N T SC H R E B E R'S M E MOIRES: "TH E R E M A R K PREVIOUS H A S A L R E A DY THAT BEEN THE MADE RAYS I N THE (GOD'S BUT F I RST. OF T H E WAS HE CARRIED D E N C E? AWAY BY T H E POW E R D E PEN­ SINCE H E R E I T IS F L E C HSIG. AS ON A PROSTITUTE'S BODY. . CON STA NTLY TION. T O A B A N DO N M E . LATER. TH R E A TE N E D FOR E . THERE­ ST I N C T . OR P I LATE. WHO C O N V E RTS THI S SUFFERING I NTO 82 . T H E M A I N IDEA WAS A LWAYS TO H A V E M E STRA N D E D. O R I N HIS SOU L. IT H A D TO H E L P GOD BY EVERY EVEN O N LY IF IT MEANT LAT E R BEING THAT I OTH E R MEANS N E RVES L . O N LY I N PROFESSOR FLECHSIG ISCH E B E R'S A N A LYSTl.

THE TWO NAMES. SAYS SCH REBER. A SAVAGE JOY MIXED WITH SHAME. T H E N A T LEAST A S H I S M A STER. THE N THE P I M P. "SOM ETI M E S THE PHONE WOULD R I NG. I S THE SA M E STRUGGLE A S THAT OF A G I R L TO GET AWAY FROM THE U N D ERWORLD AND THE WHOREHOUSE/R E D LIGHT D I STRICT W H E R E S H E IS C O N F I N E D." THAT N A M E LESS WHY GIVE I T TH E N A M E O F SA DO­ SOMETHING. AND ON TH E OTHE R END. THEN. A N D T H E N . BUT YOU M I SS IT FOREVER. YOU NEVER FIND T H I S INTENSITY I N . A N D T H E " I N C E S S A N T LY" A N D BUT OF COURSE. I C A NNOT REALLY EXPLA I N I T. JOY TO E N D U R E AND TO HOLD OUT. . I F NOT AS H I S LOVER. BEING LOCKED U P. MAKING A PROFIT. MORE AND MORE M A D. AS WE HAVE SEEN. FLECHSIG AND GOD. GOD IS ALSO PERSEC UTING M E . NESS? FOR S U REI BUT TH ERE IS NOT A REASON TO DISREGARD THE STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS: I NSTENSITY H I DES IN SIGNS AND I NSTA NCES. A S I N THE GOOD OLD M A STER­ SLAVE D I A L ECTIC. STI LL IT I S THE SAME AS THE P U N I S H M ENT THAT XAVI ERE M UST E N DURE. IT I S P E R H A PS THE FEM I N I N E ORGASM THAT ATTRACTS TH E BOD I E S TO BLIND M I X I NG: THUS SCH REBER WANTS TO BE MORE WOMAN A N D MORE PROSTITUTE. IS THE R ELEGATED TO TH E HERE SUCH. A FORM E R PROSTITUTE OF RATHER GREAT N OT E R I ETY. W H E R E WITH XA V I E R E WE THOUGHT WE HAD FO U N D T H E STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS ("I WOULDN'T SAY I REGRET THI S LIFE. IN THE S UCCEEDING MOMENT. I DARE SAY. IT I S A DRUG. THE PIMPS] HAVE ALL THE TI M E THEY N E E D TO GET YOU.PONT. XAVIERE SAYS W H A T IS ESSENTIA L: "TH E P U N I SH­ M E NT IS AGA I N THE WAY TO GET A H U MAN B E I NG TO ACCEPT THE UNACCEPTA BLE. . I'M SURE. . H E I S THE PIMP WHO D E M A N D S IT AND USES IT TO MAKE A PROFIT. .D O C T O R A C Q U I R E S H I S L I B I D I N A L D I M E NSION: T H E O R D E R O F T H E WORLD. T H I S C A N BE CON S I D E R E D AS THE EFFORT OF T H E CREATURE TO REACH THE LEVEL OF THE DIVI N E O M N I T E M PORALITY: "EVEN WHEN I WAS LIVING ALONE I N MY STUDIO. THUS IGNORING IT AS STATE OF D E P E N D E NC E . BECAUSE. GOD AND THE "EGO" DOESN'T FALL INTO D E P E N DENCE ONLY BECAUSE O F A M I S E RABLE FLUCTUATION IN T H E POWER G A M E.G O O . I S T H E I LLUSION O F A N EGO: "TH EY HAD SUCCEEDED SINCE FROM THEN ON I E X I STED ONLY THROUGH THEM. THIS SOMETHING H A S NO N A M E. W H E N P E N I S A N D VU LVA ARE I N TATTERS. LIKE THE FEELING O F LIVING YOU R LIFE SEVERAL T I M ES ALL AT ONCE WITH U NBELIEVABLE INTENSITY." I N ORDER TO SEDUCE FLEC H S I G A N D GOD EVEN "CONTIN UOUSLY" THAT REA PPEARS U N D E R H I S PEN TO DEFINE T H E NATU RE. NORM A L LI FE"). THE PI M PS TH EMSELVES F E E L THAT "SOMETHI NG" WHEN THEY PUNISH. I S IT A QUESTION OF INTU ITION RATH E R THAN I NTENSITY? A N D AT TH I S ." T H E Y WOULD HANG U P. BEYOND SENTIM ENTS." SAYS XAVIERE LAFONT. AND T H E R EFORE." IN THE CONSTITUTUTION O F T H I S A M B I V A L E N C E WHICH MIXES UP GOD AND P I M P. AND THIS IS I M PORTANT: "TH I S I DEA E M E RGED ONLY MUCH LATER. TO B E LONG A N D TO FEEL FREED FROM APPEAL APPEARS TO B E J UST AS C R I M I N A L THAN THAT OF THE C R I M E. IN THE SUCCEEDING TI M E FRAM E (THE MOMENT OF WRITING. EVEN IN THE M I DDLE OF THE NIGHT. BUT IT I S A LSO THIS SA DO-M ASOCHI STIC LINK THAT I N THE END MAKES YOU FEEL SOMETHING TOWA RDS YOU R PROC U RERS. "T H E P H O N E W O U L D R I N G AT A L L BETTER. THEREFORE R E V E A L I NG IT A N D EXPLOITING IT I N THE DUPLICITY OF S U FF E R I NG-JOUISSANCE. IT IS BEYOND LOVE AND HATE. THERE WOULD B E NOTHI NG. IT I S A LSO THE OCCASION OF TH I S U NSPEAKABLE "SOMETHI NG." AND EVEN WHEN SHE QUIT HER JOB. ONLY AS I WAS WRITING THI S PI ECE. IT M U ST E X I ST FOR ALL W O M E N . THE PUNISHMENT I S A DECISIVE ELEM ENT: IT IS CALLED P E R SECUTION BY SCH REBER. CHECKING I F I W E R E H O M E I . T H I S EXTR E M E D E P E N D E N C E C A N BE M A N I P U LATED BY T H E WOM A N AS A W E A PO N AGAINST THE M ASTER. EVEN I N A M ERICA I F THEY WANT. SHOULD W E M A K E ROOM FOR POWER AND ITS COM PLICITY WITH EVERY WEAK­ HOURS."). R E G A R D I N G T H I S VERTIGO. MORE A N D MORE "DEAD. WHEN P A L M S AND LOOKS ARE EXHAUSTED. T H I S I S WHY SCH R E B E R WANTS TO B E ALL WOMEN A N D WOMAN ALL T H E T I M E . REDUCED TO A EARTH HAS NO TACTICS LEFT. J U ST THE SOU N D OF H E AVY BR EATH I NG. OF FLECHSIG-GOD'S PLEASURE: THERE IS (A) CONTl NU· OUS WOMAN. COMING TO MY M I ND. WHAT DI SAP­ P E A R S I N T H E P U N I S H M E NT. WHEN T H E SCORCHED FLECHSIG. IT I S LIKE COCA I N E. TH E I N STANCE OF IF NOT MORE ASYLU M: SUCH LAW OF T H E MOB. HE I S NOT THE HONEST J UDGE WHO R EC E I V E S M Y S U F F E R I NG. I S R E A L LY VIOLATED BY TH E PROJECT OF M Y TRANSFORM ATION I NTO WOM A N ( PROSTI­ TUTE): THERE I S NO I N STANCE OF A PPEAL. I F FLECHSIG I S THIS VERTIGO'S NAME. THE P I M P OR TH E COM M U N ITY OF PIMPS I S TOO. TH I S ORDER CAN 83 . MASOC H I S M AS SHE SUGGESTS? H E R E WE ARE IN SCHREBER PROTESTS: HIS FIGHT TO GET OUT OF M E NTA L I NSTITUTION S. I N EVERY COUPLE AT LEAST ON A M I NOR OR U NCONSCIOUS LEVEL. I N LOVE. I N THE D E A D OF N IGHT." SCHREBER WANTS TO B E T H E PROSITUTE O F GOD. THE MI DDLE OF A PROCESS O F D I S S I M U LATION.CASH. IF THE PROPER NOUN I S THE PIMP OR GOD. M ERGE. SO. . W H E R E EVERYBODY WANTS TO PUT H I M. ACCORDING TO HIM. FREEDOM. HE W A NTS T O E X P E R I E NC E P L E A S U R E L I K E A WOM A N AND GIVE GOD PLEASURE.

U N DERCOV E R SIGN. THE V I S IO N THE OF ALL OF I MMENSE T A C T I L I TY . TH E R E IS NO D I A LECTIC OF THE SLAVE: NEITHER H E G E L' S NOR LACAN'S D I A LECTIC O F TH E H YSTER IC. "USE ME" TENDS TOW A R D S THE MALE MEMBER E R ECTED ABOVE T H E SMALL O F A BACK. T H E PROSTITUTE I S A LSO H E R OWN P ROC U R E R. BUT WHAT SHE ASKS I S THE S U PRESSION O F THE I/YOU R E LATION S H I P ( M A STE R/SLAVE. SHE WANTS THE L I M ITS OF "OV ER-PR ICED" NATURE OF H I S OFFERING. OF A R E LATION SH I P OF DOM I NATION. EVEN IF O N LY IN DO M I NATION. M U C H L E S S A NSWER IT. OR F R E U D . HER TA LENTS A S A DRESS M A K E R. E. S H E DEMANDS TISSUES. TIONAL HERE OR LIES THE NOT. A N OVER­ EX PLOITATION OF JOU ISSANCE'S FORCE. THEY CONTENT THEMSELVES WITH A MEAN C OM M A N D. DO Y O U T H I N K? C O M E ONI S H E W A NTS Y O U TO DIE WITH HER. THIS I NSTANTA NEOUS SO THAT ULTI MATE ALREADy EXTENSION A N D I N VENTION I S PREC I S E LY WHAT THE MEN OF POWER. WHAT DOES SHE W A NT. LETS GET LOST A N D LETS LEAVE T H E POWE R A N D T H E A B J ECT J U ST I F I CATIONS O F T H E R E D E M PTION D I A LECTIC B E H I N D . OVERLOOK E D B Y SADE. ALL TH I S IS V I R I L E BULLSH IT. OF H I S A B A N DONI NG OF S E LF. BUT RATH E R . BUT SOMETH I N G COMPLETELY D I FFERENT HA PPENS WITH I N T H I S SMALL O F T H E BACK. I SN'T THIS WHAT JESUS SAID O N THE C ROSS? BUT JESUS CAN ASK FOR D E P E N DENCE BECAUSE HE OFFERS HIS SUFFERING AS S I N ' S SALARY: TH E A L L PA RTS O F H E R BODY. T H E B E LO V E D A N D O M N I P R E S E N T-TH I S O V E R ­ PRICED Q U A LITY IS FIXED BY JESUS AS THE WOM A N : IS NO ME. WHEN THE FA NTA SY. MY PALMS A N D MY M E M B R A N ES. R E L I N QU I S H I NG SELF P E R PETRATED AND ACCOMPLISHED BY EXCLUSION TO B E FORC E D BACK F U RTHER. T H I S IS HOW SADE. YOU ASK? A N D JUST W H A T D O E S A PROSTI TUTE G E T FROM SELLING TH E MOST U N P REDICTABLE PA RTS O F HER BODY? HER LOOKS. HE IS JESUS I S A LSO GOD. NO EGO.STI L L A R I S E THROAT TH E R E OF FROM A THE H O A R S E A N D I NT I MATE "USE M E"-TH I S M E A NS. T H E RATIONA LITY OF WAR. T H E T E R R I B L E SCHREBER­ IAN OF DEMIRACLENESS H E S U F F E RS. H E R SHOES. FORCE. I ' L L B E YOU R SACRIFICE A N D YOU R TISSUES. B U T NOT B4 . A N D C A P ITA LIZATION O F L I B I D I N A L I NT E N SI T I T E S I N ORDER TO C R EATE S U R PLUS VALUE. THE POLITI C I A N S DENY. OF T H E R E FORE. USES THIS D E M A N D IN ORDER TO BECOME HEAD OR POW E R HE H I M S E LF. SHE WHO D E M A N D S TO BE U S E D I N T H E A R I D ITY A N D EXASPE RATION O F COU R S E . LAC LOS A N D C LA USEWITZ. BECAUSE THE OFFER OF OPEN BUTTOCKS AND A N U S ON THE PART O F THE WOM A N BENT OV E R AS A GLEENER IS NOT A C H A LLENGE WHAT I OF TH E POTLATCH K I ND-" H E R E I S G I V E YOU. SUPREME FROM A DECEIT. T H E C A PITAL. I . THIS I NTEN­ LIQ U I FI E S ALL STASES I N T E R MITTENTLY BLOCKING TH E FLUX O F I N T E N S I TY. STR ATEGY. THE I LLUSION OF POWER. WOULD R E E M E RG E IN TH E ROA R I NG OF U NTI E D PARTI A L ' D R I V ES T H E S U B J ECT F U NCTIONS." WHAT DOES J E S U S GET F ROM ALL TH I S. A S MASOCH SAYS. O F C I R C U M V E NTING I T. O R D E R . THE DEMA N D FOR D E PENDENCE IS NOT A PLEA TO BE DO M I N ATED. A S H E S A Y S TO POLITICAL A SPECT O F D E P E N DENCE. NOW. BOTH PRESU PPOSE A P E R M UTATION OF ROLES WITHIN THE SPACE OF SCHREBER. PRESS THE CENTER. YOU BE MY O R I FICES. I T H U RTS." AND NOT: I WANT TO DIE B Y YOUR H A N D. AND DON'T FORGET THAT AS FLECHSIG. . T H E PROSTITUTE SCH RE B E R O R J E S U S I N VENTS A N D D E F I N ES H I M SELF BY C A R E F U L P LA N N I NG AS A S U B J ECT. A N D W H A T DO E S SCH R E B E R GET? T H I S I S NOT T H E Q U E STION. "LETS B E D E AD. PROSTITUTION I S THE R E D E M PT I O N P R I C E OF S I N . "DO IT FOR ME. BUT THERE IS A LSO A L I B I D I N A L A SPECT. AND THIS O F F E R I NG . S H E . IT IS THE OV E R W H E L M I N G AND "USE ME": AN E N U N C I AT I O N OF V E RT I G I N O U S U N M E DIATED POW E R [PUISSANCE] ITSELF THAT S I M P L I C I TY T H A T I S N 'T M Y ST I C A L B U T R A T H E R MATE R I A LI ST. H EG E L I A N GLOSS OF THE PLEA: BE M Y M ASTER: MAY YOU R WILL BE DONE. R E I N TROD U C I N G POLITICS. LET U S S E E WHAT YOU HAVE GOT'-IT I S T H E O P E N I NG O F THE L I B I D I N A L BAND. N A M ELY THE OFFER TO SUP­ MAN. TH E SC A N N I NG. I N T H I S SENSE. TH E P I MPS. FEEL E V ERYTH I N G CLOSING U P WITH I N ITSELF. T H E O NE-WOM A N B A N D? TO B E T H E M ASTER OF H E R MASTE R A N D A L L THAT. SOM ETH ING M UC H MORE I M PORTANT. J E S U S I S A CALCULATING P ROSTITUTE: YOU M A K E M E D I E . THE P I M P. O R BATA I LLE U N DE R ST A N D S IT. THE MYSTERY OF THE T R I N ITY P R OT E C T I N G H I M S E L F: DOESN'T D A R E PAY ATTENTION T O THE O F F E R . THIS SU PPLICATION A P P E A R S A S P U R E R E L I G IO N A S L O N G A S I T REQU ESTS D E P E N D E NCE. THE DEMAND FOR PASSIVITY IS A DEMA N D FOR SLA V E RY. REVERSIBLE) AND A LSO OF THE R E LA T I O N SH I P O F USE. "USE M E" I S AN O R D E R A N D AN I M PE RIOUS PLEA. A N D G O D I S A P I M P W H O S A Y S TO H I S W I FE JESUS. C A P A B L E O F CONVERTING PERVERSION. T H E H EA D . B U T E V E R YO N E B R EAKSI E V E N P E R V E RTS OR FOOLS ("THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO") W I L L B E R E C U P E R A T E D I NTO THE GRACIOUS B O D Y O F THE C R EA T E R. A COM P L E M E NTI NG POWE R IN A CONFLICT. C O M I NG FROM BODY EXHAUSTED B Y C A RESSES A N D I N SOM N I A . TH E PASSION FOR PASS I V I TY WHICH CAUSES THIS D E M A N D TO BE FOR M U LA T E D IS NOT A SINGLE WHICH IS A LSO THE MYSTERY O F S I M I LI T U D E IS T H E V E R Y M AC H I N E R Y PRODU C I N G T H E M E A N I NG F U L S I G N A N D H I DI N G T HI:: T E N SOR. DO IT FOR THEM.

I N L I F E AND B E YOND.LOC K I N G ITSELF U P. BUT THEY A LMOST COULD BE. DON'T THEY A LWAYS T H I N K A BO U T GATH E R I N G . OR O F E V E RYTH I N G CONTIN­ U A LLY E XT E N D I N G W I T H O U T C O N Q U E R I N G . OF LA U G H I NG. OFTEN WITH A N TROTS K Y . THE GAYS WHO MOVE LENIN AND IN PACKS. PROSTITUTING TH E WOM E N-MASSES. CONQU ERI NG. I F WE COULD BE F R E E D FROM THE D I F F E R E N C E OF SEX. I DENTI C A L SHE IN WANTS THEM TOG ETH E R TO B E THE CONN ECTIONS O F A L L TH E I R POSED TO TH I S I S THE SE LF-A DHESIVE M E DIOCRITY OF THE VIRILE." W R ITES SCH R EB E R. IF THE WH ITE G U A R DS KILL US. SHE WANTS H I M NOT TO WANT A NYTH I N G SIS . QUOTING M IGNON'S SONG IN WILHELM MEISTER: CAPABLE UNVEILING AND EX PLOITI NG T H E HYSTERIC O R T H E WOM A N A N D H E R SO-CALLED LIE. C LOSING UP AND DOM I N A T I N G ? T H E G R E E KS. J. LIBIDINA LITY. BUT CA UGHT I N THEIR D I SGUSTING PROPER NOUNS O F RULERS. B E L I E VI NG I TS E L F TISSUES. . OP­ ANYMORE. OF COU RSE. E F F E M I NATE FLAIR. THEY SEEM TO BE Q U I TE JOVIAL COURSE! W H E N T H E Y T H I N K ABOUT L I FE. T H E I N SANE P L E A OF THE M ASSES IS N O T "LONG LIVE SOC I A L I TY" (AND EVEN BUT LESS. T H EY A R E N O T N ECESSA RILY H O M O S E X U A L. ORGA N I ZA T I O N " ) . FROM XAVI E RE: "AT F I RST S I G HT." BECAUSE THEY NEED A N ORGA N I ZAT I O N . THE LAST COM M E N T COMES. A M E D I OC RITIY S I M I LA R TO THE POLITIC I AN'S. BUT O F B U K H A R I N HAVE A C H A N C E TO ESCA PE?" IT'S THE WOR D OF A MAN OF THE U N D E RWORLD. A S D E L E U Z E A N D GU ATTA R I PUT I T (AS F O R THEM . THESE S M A L L TOWN PE RVERTS. EXTE N DING. IT I S WRITTEN I N T H E L E TT E R L E N I N S E N T T O TROTSKY TH ROUGH THE H A LLS O F THE WI NTER PALACE (I "AND THESE C E L E ST I A L FIGURES WOM A N . CAPITALIZI NG. THEY A LWAYS MOVE IN PACKS. " N E V E R ASK WH ETHER W E A R E M A N O R THE DESIRE THAT E V E RYTH I N G BE H A RDLY HAVE TO M A K E I T U P) : "SAY. FELLOWS. SHE WANTS THE M A N TO BECO M E N E IT H E R MAN NOR J EAN-FRANCOIS L YOTA R D TRANSLATED BY M I C H E L F E H E R A N D TOM G ORA WOMAN. THEY A R E WELL DRESSED. THEY A R E NOT V E R Y GOOD LOVERS." RATH E R "LONG "WHAT DOES A WOMAN WANT?" ASKS F R E U D. U N I FY I N G . " I T WOULD BE MORE I N ACCOR DANCE WITH THE REALIZATION OF DESI RE. "LONG LIVE TH E LIVE AN YWAY. DO YOU TH I N K SVERDLOV AND CARRI E D AWAY A N D B U R N ED U P I S CALLED B Y T H E GR EAT TH I N K E R S THE DEATH I N STINCT.

ALL FOR MS OF S E X U A L ON ANOTH ER. IT ENFORCES A SECON D DEGREE NORM.) I N W H I C H PSYCHOA NALYSIS IS PRESENTLY TH E R E I G N I NG M A STER. P R I N C I PLE. A FIXATION AT TH E PRE-GEN ITA L STAGE. BUT SC I E N T I F I C . D I S P LA C E D . HOMOS E X U A L ITY CON FRONTS H ETERO- ACTI VITY A R E F U N D A M E NTALLY ON T H I S SIDE OF TH E PERSONOLOG I C A L OPPOSITIONS HOMO-H ETE RO: 2) THAT NON ETH E L E S S . WE SHOULD MORE P E R H A PS MOLECULAR AND DI STI N G U I S H ONE A SEXUAL ITY. THEIR M YTHS OF LOVE ( M YTHES AMOU REUXI AS R E N E N E LLI PUTS IT. A D D I CTS. MATTER OF PERVERSION. MEN. PROSTITUTES. A CONJU NCTION BETWEEN THE ACTIONS OF F E M I N I STS AND H O M OS E X U A LS THEN BECO M E S POSSI B L E . C O R PO R A T I S T LIKE ARCADIA. AMONG ONE WOULD LOOK FOR S I M I LA R ITIES DRUG HOMOSE X U A LS . NOUR­ GROUPINGS "SPEC I A L ISHED BY R E P R ESSION A S WELL AS BY A FEELING OF S H A M E STI LL LIVELY I N " R E S P ECTABLE" M I L I E U S ( P A R T I C U LA R LY A M O N G B U S I N E S S M E N . ETC. W R IT E R S . S M A L L E R A N D MORE AVANT-GARDE LEVEL IS FOU N D M I LITANT HOMOSEXUALITY. AMONG LET'S MATTER. C H ILDREN. SHOW-BIZ PEOPLE. DESPITE T H E I NTERVEN­ TION OF GROUPINGS NATURE OF A MORE OR LESS H O M O­ POW E R I N TO Q U E S T I O N . SADo-MASOCH ISTS. F O R E X A M PLE. AN ILLNESS OF IT. IT COULD BE S A I D. THEY ARE C LO S E R TO B6 . ALL TEEN-AGERS. IN W H I C H I N STAN­ S E C R ET. NO LONGER MORAL. P H A L LOC R A T I C IN THEIR C E R E M ON I A L. ON TH E CONTRARY. NOW H ET E R OS E X U A L I TY THE PROBLEM TE N DS IS TO M U ST ACCOU NT F O R I T S E LF.B ECOMI NG-WOMAN I N T H E GLOBAL SOC I A L F I E LD. A RT I STS. OF SEXUAL IN PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S MAKES FORMS M I N ORITIES REALM DEVELOPMENTAL RETA R DATION. BOTH AT T H E SAME TIME 1 I THAT A L L FORMS O F S E X U A LITY. I N W H I C H C L E A R C UT OPPOSITIONS BETWEEN TYPES WOU L D B E R E P U D I ATED. SEXUA LITY CONTI N U E S TO BE T I E D TO THE VALUES AND I NTE RACTION A L SYSTE M S OF T H E DOM I N A NT ITS DEPENDENCE NORM IS A IN REG A R D TO THE IN A HOW E V E R. A PSYCHOTICS. T R A N S V ESTITES. MORAL H O M OS E X U A L I T Y BUT A IS NO LO N G E R A C E S" WOU LD NOT B E D I F F E R ENTIATED I N THE SA M E WAY. ETC. TH E I R C H A P E LS I N ITIATION SEXUAL POWE R ON ITS OWN TERRAIN. H ET E ROSEX U A L POL ITICS OF THE M A N I FESTED H I DDEN ESS T H I R D LEVEL. ONCE U N D E R S TOOD THAT THIS T H E R E C O U L D O N LY B E M I NORITI ES. OF THE F H A R TYPE. BE PUT RITES. AMONG WOM E N . HOMOSEXUALITIES FU NCTION WITH SOMEWHAT OWN AS MOV E M ENTS. A CATEGO R I E S . I N WHICH. SAY A MONG IT IS R E VOLUTION A R I ES.

O N LY THAT HE W I L L BE A B L E T O BECOME A N I M AL. F R EQ U ENTLY. SUBMISSION TO H I S P H A L L I C POWER. SHOULDN'T BE THOUGHT OF AS B E LONG I N G TO THE WOM A N CATEGORY FOU N D IN THE COUPLE. THE ONLY A UTHORIZED A MAN BECOMI NG-PLA NT. OF A FU N D A M ENTA L POETIC M U TATION WITH GENERAL SEXUA L M UTATION). LOC A L I Z E . ORDER U ND E RSTA N D T H E HOMOSE X U A L. T H E PA I R F E M I N I N E/PASS I VE. RECOURSE TO T H E P R I SON. A MODALITI ES. ETC. A N D THE SENTENTI O U S ATTITUDE O F PSYCHOANA LYSTS AND SEXOLOGISTS ON TH I S POI N T DOESN'T REA LLY H E L P THI NGSI IN FACT. LETTER. TH E R E I S N O SUCH T H I NG A S W O M A N PER S E ! NO MATE R N A L P O L E . I N G I N S B E RG'S W O R K . OF ETC. NOTI ONS LIKE WOM A N . THUS. U S E FU U U S E LESS. . " AND A NUMBER IN THIS OF HOMO­ HOMOS E X U A L. P S YC H OT I C 87 . WHATEVER B R E A KS TH E LISHED ORDER. I N "REFUSI NG" H I M . NOR M A LIZING GA M E. H ETEROSEXUA L-THAT IS M E D I ATOR IN B E CO M I N G S . YOU CAN NOT QUA L I FY A LOVE U N I VOCA LLY.R E DUCTION 1 ST FOR E X A M PLE. A BECOM­ TRU STEES OF A WHO DETAC H E S B E C O M I N G . . WOM E N WHO. MOREOVER.HOMOS E X U A L I TY A N D TO WHAT COULD BE CA LLED A FE M I N I N E BECOMI NG. T H I NGS A R E N E V E R T H A T S I M PLE. R I C H/POOR. T H I S V l s · A· v I S TO OTH ER SEXED A BECO M I NG-A N I M A L OR A BECO M I NG-WO M A N . N O SA LVATION: O R ELSE ITS T H E PLUNGE I N TO THE CATEGORI ES. CONVERSELY. I N F A NT I L E S E X U A L I TY . ETC. ON SO MANY STU P I D DRA M AS BASED THIS THEME.M I N E R A L BEC K ETT>. IF I STRESS T H I S LAST POINT I T S BECAU S E T H E BECOMI NG-FE M I N I N E BODY WEAK. THE WOM A N OWES H E R ORGA S M T O T H E M A N . C L E A N/DI RTY. PARANOID P A RT. WHEN TH EY'RE FEMALE R E D U C E D TO BLACK-WHITE. FOR M S M A RG I N A L I S M AS COOED IN TO WORK ARE S A F ET Y VALVES. NO ETE R N A L FEMI N I N E . ONLY EXISTS IN A SPECI FIC SOC I A L F I E L D THAT D E F I N E S I T . S E X U A LS T H E M S E LV E S J O I N SC A R C E LY I TH I NK ITS I M PORTANT TO DESTROY NOTIONS W H I C H ARE F A R T OO I N C L U S I V E . T H E MAN/WO M A N OPPOSITION S E R V E S T O ESTA B L I S H THE SOC I A L O R D E R BEFORE C L A S S A N D CASTE W H AT E V E R FROM S H A TT E R S ESTA B­ BECOM I N G-C H I LD AS IN I NG-A N I M A L AS I N K A FKA. BY THE VERY N AT U R E OF T H I N GS. O N THE L E V E L OF THE S E X E D BODY THE L I B I DO IS ENGAGED IN A B E C O M I NG-WOMAN. OUTS I D E O F T H I S E XC L U S I V E BI-POLE. A N D E V E N T U A LLY A S A SC R E E N PLE: FOR OTH E R TYPES OF BECOMI N G (EXAM­ AS IN SCH U M A N N . I N V E R S E LY .O F SEXED BECOMI NG. M A LE­ ITS A BECAUSE THERE'S AN T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E .P E R S O N O LO G I C A L SAM E H O L D S T R U E FOR S E X U A LITY. POETIC S E X U A LITY ( FOR I N STANCE: TH E COI N C I ­ DENCE. THE L I B I DO I S CAUGHT I N TWO SYSTEMS O F OPPOSITION: C LASS AND SEX. I S RE LATED TO HOMOSEX U A LITY O R I T IS BECA U S E IT IS NOT TOO FAR R E MOVED FROM T H E B I N A R I S M OF P H A LLIC POWE R THAT BECOMI NG­ WOMAN CAN ROLE AS PLAY THIS I N TE R M E D I A RY ROLE.S E X E D-BODY. THE MORE P R EC I S E LY. MIZE U N D E R STOOD TO DICHOTO­ A L L V A L U E S -T H E O P PO S I T I O N S S T R O N G / SOC I U S. A I NG-MUSIC. H I MSELF FROM THE IN PROM I S E D POW E R A NOTH E R ARE OVER-BLOWN IS NOTION WHOSE THE ORGASM. IN FACT. CONFLICTS. A DIFFERENT SELVES WOM E N . M A SC U L I N E/ACT I V E T H E R E FO R E R E M A I N S A POI NT OF REFERENCE TO M A D E OB LIGATORY BY POWER IN IT TO SITUATE. OF ORDER PE R M IT TO HOMOS E X U A L . ETC. MORE FASHION. I S THUS I N S E P A R A B L E FROM A BECOMI NG-WOMAN­ EVEN NON-OED I PAL. EVERY S E M I OT I Z A T I O N OF A BREAK I M PL I E S A SEXUALIZATION OF A B R E A K . I T A LW A Y S HAS A S C H I Z O I D. COSMOS. M OT I V E . A S A POSSIBLE ACCESS T O A " M I N I M U M . CONTROL I NT E N S I T I E S D E S I R E . M U S IC. B E C O M I N G. ARE THEM­ TO SUBJ UGATE T H E M . E V E R Y " D I S S I D E NT" ORGA N I ZATION OF T H E L I B I DO M U ST T H E R E FORE BE D I R ECTLY LINKED TO A B ECOMI NG-FEM I N I N E BODY. T H E BECOMI NG-WO M A N SERVES A S A POI N T OF R E F E R E N C E .TO T H E ASYLUM. WHAT I T I S A BOUT A G R EAT WRITER­ EVEN IF H E'S. INCALCULABLE SEXUAL MOTI VES REQU I R E OF T H E WOM A N A QUASI­ HYSTERI C A L I DENTI FICATION OF HER ORGAS M W ITH THE M A N·S. S H ORT. SUCH A CATEGORY. NORMS. A N D A S TH E L A S T BUOY Vls·A-vIS THE ESTA B L I S H E D ORDER. BECO M I NG-WOMAN. RAVAGES DOM I N A N T PHALLIC PROFITS I N H E R EN T ALL F O R M A T I O N S U N D E R TA K E S S U C H A WOM A N A C CO R D I N G IT IS TO DIVERSE ON TH I S B E C O M I NG­ POSSI B L E CONDITION. . DEVIATION. LOVE I N PROUST I S N E V E R S P EC I FI C A LLY HOMOS E X U A L. . AN EXPRESSION OF A SYM M ETRY. AS AN ESCAPE ROUTE FROM THE R E P R E SS I V E P H A L LOC R ATIC. WE SHOULDN'T ASK W H I C H W R I TERS A R E HOMOSEXUAL. BECOMI NG-VEGETABLE AS IN NOVA LIS. U LT E R I O R OPERATION B I N A RY. SHE ASSUMES ARE THE F A U LT. COLOR. TO MY M I ND. IT IS IT U N D E R ST O O D IS TO BE MALE. IN A ON THE LEVEL O F THE SOC I A L BODY. BECOM­ FA M I LY. I M IGHT A DO. FOR HOMOSEX U A LITY. TO P S Y C H O A N A LY S I S. BUT RAT H E R . NON-SEN 51 C A L. THE N O N . HOMOSEXUA LITY. W E TELL O U R S E LVES THAT I T I S SORT OF "LIKE A WOMA N .

K.SOME REASON OR OTH ER. OUT E XT R E M E L Y COMPLEX. E V E RYON E . PA R E NTS AND CHILDREN. BUT A L L TH I S M I C RO-POLITICS OF PROSTITUTION. THAT TH E y ' R E ABSURD! EX PLOITED. PLAYED 88 . (WE TH E SHOULD BEING TH E M S E L V E S . THE PROSTITUTE MOVEM ENT. IT WOULD BE BEITER TO SUPPORT TH E M FINAN· B U T THE SC A N DA L B E I NG M U C H WORSE I F EVERYTHING I S OUT I N TH E OPENI LErS CON S I D E R A FINAL E X A M PLE. I'M C ON V I N C E D. A N D . SHOULD OF THE BEFORE EXPLA I N I N G A N YTHING WHATSOEVER. OR M A K I NG LOVE R I SKS TO A N OTH E R B E TW E E N EACH POLE IN THIS T R I A NGLE AND VARIOUS C H A RACTERS L I K E T H E C USTOM ER A N D TH E POLI C E M A N . FEL I X GUAITA R I TRANSLATED B Y RACHEL McCOMAS A N D STAMOS M ETZI DAKIS M I C R O · P O L I T I CS WHICH IS D E S I R E. GOOD "HURRAH. ONE SHOU LD FIRST TRY TO U N D E RSTA ND WHAT GOES ON BETW E E N A WHORE AND HER PIMP. A S THEY DO I N RESEARCH LABORATOR I ES. PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO H EAR ABOUT TH E M !" AND SO. A L L THAT I S PSYC HOA N A LYST A LS O RECALL C U STO M E R . ETC. I N STEAD OF PERSECUTING THEM. PROSTITUTES S U R ELY HAVE VERY I N T E R ESTING T H I NGS TO TEACH US A BOUT THESE Q U E STIONS. PROSTITUTES DEFEND WERE TOLD THAT THEY M O N E Y R E LATIONS BETWEEN H U S B A N D A N D WI FE. THAT IN STU DYING SHOU LD SEPA RATE THE P ROSTITUTES. O. REVOLT. AND AND U LTI M ATELY. OR J U ST ABOUT. AT F I RST Y E L L E D. ONE FROM M IG H T S H E D SOM E N E W LIGHT ON WHOLE A R E A S OF C O N J UGAL AND FA M I L I A L M I C RO· POLITICS-TH E PI M PS. PERSONA LLY.' W H O R E · P I M p· M O N EY ALSO A WHOLE T R I A NG L E .. THE PROSTITUTES YOU BAD. BUT WAIT. CA N'T HAVE R E LATIONS WITH MALE PA RTN E R S ACHIEVE ORGA SM EASILY BY MASTURBATING WOM A N . ARE RIGHT TO C I A L LY. TH E R E'S THE B U T THERE OF ARE WHAT THE A N A R C H I STS "BELLE EPOQUE" WROTE ON T H E S U B J ECT.

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M A Y B E D U E TO A K I N D OF S Y M B IOTIC R E LATION S H I P BETW E E N TWO B E I NGS W H O H E L P ONE A NOTH E R. R. JUMP. K E E PS GOI NG. W H I C H M A K E S U S HA PPY. W H I C H M A K E S U S SAO. YOU FALL. THAT T H E Y LEAP 20 O R 30 M ETERS.-P. THEY'RE HOPELESSLY D I STRACTE D. B. IN T H E COU R S E OF SPRING AND A UT U M N . AND AROU N D E A C H OTH E R .: C E RTA I N LY. R . THE FLOCK DOESN'T STOP: IT HAVE S E E N A N I MA LS S U P R E M E LY "IN LOV E": T H E Y DON'T MOVE ANYMORE. T H E S P I R I T OF C E L E B RATION I S SO COMPLETE. T A K E FOR I N STANCE ANTIGO N A L F.: YOU HAVE FILMED MANY LOV E D I E . : TO THE EXTENT THAT S E V E R A L S M A L L T R I B E S I N A NTIQU ITY. : T H E MOTION L ESS O F M A D N E S S . W H E N O N E D I E S -T H E I N D I A N S SAY-THE OTH E R LETS H I M S E L F J. YOU CAN EVEN KILL TH E M . A N D T H E N . B . A N I M A LS LOS E ALL THEIR CRAZY. S I NG L E T R A I T WOULD YOU DEFI N E LOVE I N TH E A N I M A L WOR LD? I SHALL R E P EAT SOMETHING MICHEL FOUC A U LT TOL D ME O N E DAY: Irs REA LLY T H E F E E L I NG O F A N I M A LITY. DRAGGED A LONG BY A STRONG W I N O J. TURN AND FIGHT. SOM E DIE IN THE FALL.-P. YOU I N H I BITIONS: FOR SOM E O F TH E M . YOU FALL RUN A FT E R O N E W I LD A NOTH E R. THEY J U M P U P WITH TH E I R FE ET. OF T H I S A N I M A LITY W H I C H D R I V E S U S FR E D E R I C ROSS I F : BY M A D N ESS. SO MAGICA L. THEY HAVE BECOME SO C RAZY. BECA U S E THAT'S W H E N TH E Y ' R E R E A LL Y OUT O F TH E I R S E N SES.: SOM ETI M E S . A N D STI LL TODAY. ONE T H I N G THAT HAS A LWAYS S E E M E D A M AZING TO M E I S THAT W H E N THEY'RE IN H E AT. . . DANCES A N T I GO N A L LAST FOR CRANES THEY WHOSE TALK LOV E H O U RS.-P. SC E N E S BETW E E N A N I M A LS. YOU CAN'T E V E N G E T C L O S E E N O U G H T O FI LM EXCEPT AT THAT TI M E.T H E W I L D C E L E BRATION J EA N . TOO. B. Irs A D I SCONTI N U ITY O F L I F E . R. YOU R E A L LY HAVE TO AGAIN. BY W H AT F. THAT M U ST B E M U C H M O R E T H A N J U ST A SPECTAC LE.P I E R R E BA R O U : FI RST OF A LL. 90 .: DO E S A B SOLUTE LOV E E X I ST? J. THEIR TO O N E WALK A NOTH E R : SPREAD WI NGS. L I K E W I L D D A N C E R S . GOATS COM I NG DOWN FROM MOUNTA I N TOPS BY T H E H U N DR E DS. T H E R E'S A F E A R I N THE FACE O F IT. F. PRO H I B I T H U NTING D U R I N G THIS PE RIOD. CRANES.

PA I N T T H E M S ELVES? F.SO HAVE LOV E SONGS AND CRI ES. HOW A BOUT POSS I B LE HOMO­ BACK THOUSANDS YEARS. L.-P.O. : TH E LION. SO THE M A L.: D ECORATE TH EMSELV E S ? FEMALE HAD THREE O R FOU R M A L. D R E N .S AND FEEL. I ' M FILM I NG A LOST DREAM. ONL. B. HIS BEGINS TO DESI R E H I S MOTH ER: FATH E R K I L.. F. EXCEPT FOR ON E .L E V E RYTH I N G IN TH E I R PATH ..LY A M AZING: G I RAFFES A R E D E A F A N I M A L. T H E SONO ROUS R ELATIONSH I P ARE VERY I M PORTANT. T H E FOREST. S HIM. L.ES C O H A B I TA T E D W I T H A N OTH E R FEMAL. J.-P.L. T H E Y ' R E T E R R I FY I NG A N I M A L.Y A FT E R THAT D I D S H E D E F I N I TI V E L. WHO I S H E R L. COM P E N S A T I N G FOR AN ABSENCE O F SOUND. Y ET. T H I S J.L L O N G MIME ROUTI N ES: EACH WRAPS AND R U BS H I S N E C K A ROUND THE OTH E R ON E'S. T H ROUGH THE PL. THE P U N I EST. Y E XC L. T H E GROUPS.D OF S M E L. AS BAC H E L.S L I K E F E M A L. S P E C I A L. OF A DREAM WHICH GOES PRE­ EVER M EET. THE WOL. B . I N H E R TURN. B. THEY M A K E TH EMSELVES U P. L.OG I C A L.LY. BETWE E N M A L E S AND BETWEEN C H I LD R E N A N D PARE NTS. E V E N A N D A L L B E C A U S E TH E R E WAS A M A S K . .E S EXIST A S WEL.VATION. D A TOY. F I R ST R EL. ONE DAY. W H E N THE L. R: I N A WAY. T H E Y ATTACK COL. FROM THE J. THE L. HE R U BS HIS STI N G E R AGAI NST IT.UTEL. UP. R: I T DEPENDS ON T H E SPECI ES.EGATED H E R R I V A L.ISTS.: AT THE SAME TI M E. T H E F E M A L. I N M Y EYES. B U F F A L.L. IT'S A CHA RACTER I STIC OF THAT P E R IOD. I A . . O N E C A N AL.ATTER GAVE B I RTH. THE HUGE WASP OF NEW G U I N E A . FROM H I S F I RST A N D A H A LF Y E A R SOMET I M ES . I F NOT TH E B E ST. FOL.ES D I R ECTL. E S F I G H T TO G ET TH E FEMA LE. J.-P. R : T H E L. ONE OF THE M A L. R. M I SS J A N E GooDA L. BE IT A H Y E N A .AVE TO H E R OWN C H I L.AWS OF T H E WO RL. MOTH E R D E F E N DS H E R SON. A S DO THOSE F.. R: T H A T TOOl SOME EVEN CHANGE C O L O R A N D A PPEA R A NC E .ET'S J U ST SAY THAT C A RESSES BETWEEN F E M A L.COME. E S M E L. U D E HER R I V A L. E G E N I T A L. THAT'S HOW SHE I S I M P R EG N AT E D. O R A SL.L.-P. W E L L I N TO S E X U A L OR I NCEST U A L R E LATIONS? H I STORIC T I M ES. IT'S A V E RY SOU N D.L.OVER. A N I M A LS F.OWED FOR A Y E A R A B A N D OF L. ARE O U R OLDEST COM PANIONS IN D R EA M I NG. E X C E PT THROUGH T H E PLANT? WHAT PHYSI OL.OGI C A L.ED F. I C A O N S W H O S E L.T H U S . L. B. G I RAFFE OR A L.: ITS T H E LAW OF T H E J U NGLE.I NGS GIVE RISE TO THIS TRIO? J.EARNED.: FOR YOU. T H E H E A D OF THE B A N D.-P. U E A N D G R E EN.-P.L.Y D I F F E R E N T.Y DO E SN'T M A K E S E N S E T O P UT I T WALLS SET U P .E FI L M I NG T H E M . E G O E S STRA IGHT AT I T A N D M A K E S L. THE J. : I N O R D E R TO SEDUCE? GROUP. THAT GREAT LEAP W H E R E EVERYTHING CHANGES.IVE I N SOMETHI NG U N L. IS FAITH F U L . B.E. Y O U KNOW.E YOU LOOK AT IT. DEATH. R: OF COURSEI YOU A L. I N THAT SITUATION. SOM E T H I N G REA L. THE O R C H I D S M E L..OVE C R I ES FOR HOURS.J. DECORAT­ ING AND PAI NTING THEMSEL. I O N .: AND.OVE STO R I E S I KNOW I S ABOUT T H E O RC H I D AND THE BEE.E WHO BECAME P R E G N A N T. THIS A N I M A L WORLD.: IN A U S T R A L. H I STO RICAL C I RC U M STANCES.-P.F M A K E S L.S H I S ODOR A N D C O M E S A N D R U BS H ER S E L F I N I T . A N I M AL.Y. IT'S E S P EC I A L. J. B .IONESS BEATS HIM: HE R E C E I V E S T E R R I B L.I. YOU K NOW.ION I S FAITH F U L B E C A U S E T H E L.L. THEY B EC O M E VERY NOTH I N G CAN STOP T H E M . THEM A L. E A D E R WAS A F E M AL. ONE OF THE MOST B E A U T I F U L.: YES. START WHAT O N E M I G H T CAL. M A SKS. ALL 91 .Y FEROCIOUS J E A LOUSY. B L. DEATH PRECEDES TH I S GREAT LOVE M A D N E SS.S. SHE TOOK H E R B A B I E S AND K I L. L.. T H E YOU N G LION. THOUGH I T R E A L. F. M A L. E A C H OTH E R T O T H E DEATH. BIOL. TA K E T H E CASE O F P R A I R I E DOGS I N A F R I C A .VES. W H E N A FTERWA RDS. I A (OF THE W A S P) .EC­ TIVEL. R: I T I S TO L I V E I N S A L. F. I ' M A BLE T O H E A R LOVE.SO F I N D A BSOL. O V E T O THE P L.ICAONS. FOR M E. Y O U S E E . A R D SA I D SO WE LL. ONE OF THE G REATEST A N I M A L.L.ETEL.OVE C E L E B R A T I O N IS OFTEN FIGHT P R EC E D E D B Y FATAL B A TTLES. • I N THOSE TERMS. E BEATI NGS. BI RDS DECORATE T H E I R N EST I N R E D.ANT. TOO. T H E D E E P C R Y . B.L. TO THE VERY END OF THE G R O U P: T H E N . O T S O F H O M O S EX U A L I TY. . THE SONOROUS W E L.-P. A N T . A FT E R W A R D S. R: T H E R E' S L.L. STR A N G E . T H E LICAON. B UT.S THAT K I L. MOU R N F U L. A N D­ WHO K N OW S ? . WHO.L Y TO L. DOES IT COR R E S PO N D T O A SA LVATION? F. WHIL. B. AND THE THAT'S COM PL. WHICH S H E GAVE A S S H E WO U L.S O R D E R E D WORLD. WATER A N D R H YTH MS. W H Y DOESN'T THIS COUPL. IN NEW G U I N EA.Y DEPENDING ON H E R S E X U A L.

CROSSES H E R LEGS. 1 !5. THE COR P U L E N T M A N S I TS DOWN OPPOSITE R. A N I M A LS DONT H A V E GODS. 92 . R. 2 1 . S. THE EYES OF THE CORPU LENT M A N . EYES OF CORPULENT M A N . 1 7. T H E Y H A V E O N L Y T H E P R E S ENT. M A R K S 4 P . 22. SQU A R E O F THE THEATRE FRANCAIS.FROM OUR A N I M A LITY. JUMPS DOWN. S. J. BECAUSE. THEN HER F A C E IN PROFI LE. SQU A R E OF THE THEATRE FRANC A I S. C E LEBRATIONS M EMORY. IN THE BUS: R:S LEGS SET A P A RT. 1 9.: ARE YOU R ECOM M E N D I N G TH I S F. S A M E W I T H A N ELEPHA NT. TURNED TOW A R D THE W I N DOW. R.-P. OR. R:S BUST. GOOD FOR A A A N I M ALITY? WOU N D E D F. A S S U M I NG THERE I S A F U T U R E FOR M A N .P. WE'LL HAVE THE M E MORY OF THE FUTURE. THE CLOCK. H A N DS LYING E A C H S I D E OF H E R ON SEAT. F I G H T O N C E AGA I N . I T W I L L O N C E AGA I N BE POETIC.OF W H I C H WERE A CONTI N U A L T U R N I NG-AWAY. W E DO l THAT I N DICATES A LACK O F A N I M A LITY. WE'LL BE LIKE T H E POETS AND PROPHETS.. IF WE SUCCEED. l B. 1 6. M . E N D EAVOR TO R E M E M B E R T H E M .: A WO U N D E D MAN IS ANIMAL IS DA NGEROUS.' WHAT I MEAN DEEP IS IN THAT OUR THERE ARE WE LOST M U ST WOU N DED: H E'S STRETC H E R . J . IF WE R E D I SCOV E R THE POETRY O F O U R CRADLE. G R A D U A L F A D E IN O N : T H E I NTERIOR OF A DESERTED G Y M N AS I U M . R. A WOU N D E D LION ATTA C K S WITH A L L H I S M I GHT. TRANSLATED BY STA MOS M ETZI DA K I S 1 4. M A N TH I N K S OF GOO. B E FOR E D Y I N G . E I T H E R WE DISAPPEAR. P A R A L L E L BARS EQU I PP E D WITH LEATH E R STRA PS. A N A N I M A L DOESN'T BARGA I N WITH H I S DEATH. 20. PLATFORM OF T H E BUS AT THE B U S STOP: R .: YOU HA V E R E P EATEDLY R E M I N D E D U S THAT A N I M A LS.

HE TOLD ME. "YOU M E A N THEY P R E F E R T H E I R O W N K I NDT' H E SHOOK H I S H EA D. I WAS ON O N E OF THOSE N IGHTS. . MY A M BITION TO BE ONE OF THE FI RST TO M A K E THE JOU R N E Y S E E M S P U E R I L E .JOURNEYS OF A GENTLEWOMAN SHOT LATE R W H E N T H E Y C A M E ROU N D T H E F A R M S STEALING IT M U ST HAVE B E E N TOWA R D 1 9 30 THAT THE ROAD WENT THROUGH TO Q U E E N STOWN ON T H E W I LD WEST COAST OF TAS M A N I A . IN RETROSPECT. BUT I W A S O N L Y S I X T E E N AT THE T I M E. I DON'T BELIEVE I T MYSELF. A V I D TO E X P LO R E T H E WORLD AND OPEN U P TH E CONTI N E N T OF M Y S E N S E S . THOSE C H A PS ON THE WEST COAST . I DON'T TH I N K TH EY'D TOUCH A WOM A N ." OF THE MEN? I CAN LOOK A FT E R S E A R C H OF K A NGA ROO AND W A L LA BY. I ONCE CA M E O N A C H A P A L L A LO N E I N A PAD DOC K AT SUNSET. A N I M A LS . S U D D E N LY F I N D I NG H I S P I PE ' T M NOT S U R E I T WAS A D I NGO:' H E S A I D . ADDED A B R U PTLY: "YOU SHOU LDN'T D O T H I S T R I P ALONE. THEI R DOGS WERE L E FT TO FEND FOR NEEDED ATT E N TION. "NOT EVEN TH AT. C H I C K E N S. BUT H E P R E F E R R E D C A M P I NG A LO N E I N THE B U S H . SOMETI M E S HE SPENT A NIGHT BOOZ I N G WITH THE M I N ERS A MONG T H E D E SOLATE SLAG-H E A P S OF QUE ENS­ TOWN. A N D AFTER LOOKING S I DEWAYS AT M E . . B U T TH E R E WAS ONE OLD F E L LOW M U ST HAVE B E E N A LON ER. " T H E H U NTER S A I D S LOWLY. AND A N YWAY. A N D I F YOU CAN B E L I E V E WHAT T H E Y S A Y D O W N TH E R E. I "OH. AND NOT E V E N W I TH T H E M T H E W A Y YOU'D T H I N K . MOST O F T H E M W E R E 93 . S U C K I N G A C A L F'S EA R:' T H E M S E LVES IN TH E B U S H ." TH E LITTLE I N FORM ATION I POSS E S S E D A BOUT T H E W EST COAST H A D B E E N S U P P L I E D BY A H UNTER WHO MADE OCC A S I O N A L EX PEDITIONS THERE IN "BECA U S E MYSELF. THAT H E HEARD THE HOWL OF T H E W I LD DOG. M ATED WITH A TA S M A N I A N TIGER. THE TIGER B E I NG ABOUT AS EXTI NCT A S THE ABO T H E S E DAYS. NOT K NOWI N G O F D I NGOS I N TA S M A N I A . H E STA Y E D I N TH E BUSH." HE STOPPED. "NOT ON T H E FARMS-B E E N T DO LONG WITHOUT · E M . "WH E N THE LAST OF THE A B OR I G I N E S WERE ROU N D E D U P AND KI LLED. " EXPRESSED S U R P R I SE .

I SET OFF. B U T T H E H O U S E W A S S O S I LENT THE F I G U R E S ON THE BED M I G H T H AVE B E E N E F F I G I E S OR STRAW MEN. A ST E E R WITH A ST R I N G OF SLAVER BACKS A GA I NST T H E GROUP W A L L. DRAWN. WITH ROO M S G R O U P E D HAPHAZAR DLY ON DI F F E R E N T L E V E LS. IN I N D ICATING HE WOULD LOOK AGA I N I FOU N D M YSELF EVEN MORE A LO N E TO A N D ONCE BELIEVE THE THEM. PANTING O N T H E END O F ITS C H A I N. A LONG B R I E F PASSAGEWAYS. TO A S A B BATH OF N A K E D 94 . THE H O U S E WAS S U R P R I S I NGLY U N L I K E ITS COU NTERPA RTS. I G N O R I N G W H A T GESTURES E V E N T U A LLY THE F I RST MAN RETU R N E D W I T H A L U ST TALES READY LITTLE THESE CAME TO OF B E ASTS BACK TEN DE R N ESS A TTE N D E D. S E TT I N G TOWN. A N D I R E A C H E D TH E Y A R D AS THE M EC H A N I C RETU R N E D T O T E L L M E H E COULD M A K E T E M POR­ ARY R E PA I R S THAT S H O U L D G ET ME TO Q U E ENS­ BRAND. A S TH E Y A DVA NCED. BY A WA R R E N . TO FOLLOW. A L I. FORTU N A T E LY. N O R OF R ET U R N I N G TO THE CAR W H I L E T H E MAN WOR K E D . I F A N YT H I N G THEY VISIT A REGION TO MADE ME M O R E DETE R M I N E D TO NO THE WOMAN LIFE COULD BE WOR D S. NOT O N LY FOLLOWI NG. A L I TTLE F U RTH E R O N . P E N D A N T FROM I T S J A W R E M I N D I NG M E A G A I N O F T H E M A N'S S P E E C H . AT THE A LO N E CAR. BUT CLOS I N G IN ROOF SET I N T H E M I DD L E O F PADDOC KS W H E R E A FEW C A TTLE G R A Z E D . I H A D A S U D D E N V I S I O N O F T H E T W O TOGETH E R . B E FO R E TH E HOUR HAD IN RELEASED FOR M I D A B L E R E FL E X . H E G A V E M E THIS I N FO R M A T I O N IN THE FEWEST PO S S I B L E MOTIO N R I T E S THAT B E LO NG E D TO T H E S E C R E C Y OF MOO N L E S S PA DDOC K S . T H E I R IN A SECON D BEEN ROOM COVETOUS E X PECTATIO N . TH E H O M ESTE A D W A S A TYPI C A L WOODEN STRUC­ TU R E WITH VERANDAH A N D CORRUGATED I RO N W I THOUT HASTE.M I ST O F DUST FROM WHICH E M E R G E D THE BUTTRESS OF TH E I R TROUBLE A N D WITHOUT A WORD H E WENT BACK I N TO TH E HOUSE L E A V I N G M E . ALL OF THEM COM M U N I C A T I N G WITH THE K I TC H E N . OF R E M OT E I H A D N O I NTENTION OF S P E N D I N G AN H O U R IN THE THE NEW ROAD HAD BEEN HACKED L I T E R A LLY V I C I N ITY O F THE H O U S E . T E L L I N G M Y S E L F THAT MOR N I NG. WHEREAS I STOOD O U TS I D E OF THE C O M P L I C I TY . ROO M S OCC U P I ED. TH E C U R I O SITY O F CATTLE WAS L ESS I NTI M I DATING TH A N TH E MEN WHO IGNORED ME. A N D H A L F-WAY A C ROSS THAT STRETCH O F O P E N L A N D I BECA M E A W A R E THEY W E R E FOLLOW­ ING ME. T H E H U N T E R ' S ME. T H R O U G H O N E OF T H E H A L F-OPEN DOORS I COULD SEE S E V E RA L MEN ON A I RO N B E DSTEAD. I WOU L D H A V E SA I D I F THE I DEA HAD N OT BEEN SO ABSURD. B U T I R E A C H E D THE BACK DOOR BEFORE A MAN A P P E A R E D. I S A W NO T R A C E OF A WOMAN'S PRESENCE ANYWHERE. I COU L D HAVE NO DOUBT OF TH E I R OBJECTIVE.KNOWING B U S H M E N A N D T H E I R LOVE OF YARNS. A DOG TIED UP IN THE Y A R D B E G A N TO B A R K . CATTLE R E P LA C E D T H E GRA�NG S L I P-RA I LS T H E EVERY HEAD STOPP E D AND TURNED IN MY D I R ECTI O N . OR A N OTH E R CA RDS MIGHT HAVE THE PLAYING WERE OR D R I N K I N G. A L MOST WITHOUT OPEN I N G H I S MOUTH. I S U PPOS ED. M Y S I LHOU ETTE R E FLECTED I N THE GLOBE OF TH E I R E YES. IT R E SE M BLED A RABBIT OF WATER MIGHT BE D ETECTED BY A DROUGHT­ STR I C K E N H E RD. THE SOU N O S SO F L U I D AND U N FO R M E D THEY S E E M E D HA RDLY D I STI N G U I S H A B L E FROM THE STRING OF WHERE SHARE S A L I V A D R I P P I N G F R O M T H E DOG'S JAWS. MYSTERY S U S P E CT E D : B E C A U S E O F THOSE H A LF-O P E N DOORS A N D T H E MEN FOR WHOM I MIGHT NOT HAVE E X I STED. ENG I N E G I V I NG TROU B L E IT LOO K E D A S THOUGH I WOU LD BE S P E N D I NG T H E N IGHT U N D E R THOSE C H I LLY G U M S UNTIL THE MAIL CAR CAME T H RO U G H N E XT P A D DOCKS. EACH O F THEM WOU L D K NOW WHAT W A S E X PECTED OF THE OTH E R . AND THEY I IF NOW I WERE TOO THE H A N D F U L O F TOOLS. A D I R T TRACK W I T H RUTS M A D E B Y A DRAY PROM I S E D A F A R M A T T H E E N D OF I T . THAT H U M A N I M A G E P R I NTED I N S I D E T H E I R S K U LLS. I TOLD HIM THE FROM A L L S I D E S . THE H E A DS. R E LATED BY A K I N D OF M UT U A L Y E A R N I NG. B U T T H E R E WAS N O P A N I C : TH E Y C A M E TOW A R D M E . SO THAT WHEN. A S T H E P R E S E N C E I N S I D E. BUT I T MIGHT TAKE A N HOUR. I N STEA D O F B E I NG D I V I D E D BY A C ENTRAL PASSAGE. I N W H I C H THE M E MORY OF FOR M E R MY RITUALS A RRIVAL A HAD BEEN BURNT LIKE A S E E M E D P R E F E R A B L E TO W A I T OUTS I D E W I T H T H E DOG. R A I S I N G A GROU N D . LOOKED C U R IOUSLY HUMAN. E X PO S E D THE K I TC H E N . W H I C H COULD BE R E AC H E D AS I BY C ROSSI NG ONE OF T H E THROUGH V I R G I N B U S H . I R E M A I N E D SC E PTI C A L OF T H E H U NTE R'S TALES. AND I M ET NO OTH E R CARS A LONG M I LE S THE F ROM WAY. IT BACCH A N A L I N P R E PA R ATION BETW E E N THOSE M E N I N T H E H O U S E W A I T I N G F O R DA R K N E SS. THE C A TTLE A LSO STA RTED TO MOVE. TH E BEST A LTERNA­ TIVE S E E M E D TO B E A WALK IN THE BUSH. T H E M A N A N D T H E S T E E R . C H ESTS A N D HORNS. A N D T H E S E B E A STS THE I R PARTNERS. PERSUADED HOM EST E A DS. TO B E A F R A I D OR EXCITED. H I S I N A RTIC U LATE ATTE M PT A T C OM M U N ICATION. MY STI LL TWENTY STARTED Q U E E N STOWN. I D I DN'T K NOW W H ET H E R T O R U N OR TO S T A Y ..

D I R ECTI NG IT AGAINST M YSELF IN THE ONLY G ESTURE THAT COULD SAVE M E . R I S I N G R O D OF ITS SEX. I F THE SHOT H A D B E E N F I R E D AT M E I W O U L D H A VE ACCE PTED THE J U STICE OF ITS P U N I S H M E N T FOR M Y I NTRUSION . SLOWLY. I WAS COV E R E D IN SLOB B E R . TH E I N V E N TOR O F " R E PORTAGE" H A V I NG D I E D A WEEK BEFORE M Y A R R I VAL. HERD AND W ITH S U D D E N LY THEM IN A I STOOD UP. H U NG E R OF HOW MANY CAMP FIRES WATC H E D FROM TH E RIM OF D A R K N ESS. NOSTRILS TWITCHI N G TO CAPITULATED. FOLLOW E D SECON D LEADING CATTLE STO P P E D. I K N EW IF I TR I E D TO ESCAPE THE DOG WOULD HUNT ME I N T H E OLD TOWN O F PRAG U E W H E R E A RC H I M BOLDO ONCE VISITED THE A LCH E M I STS A N D COLLECTED OBJECTS FOR THE E M P E RO R R U DOLP H'S CABI N ET OF CURIOSITI ES. A N D I H A L F-EX PECTED I T TO TU R N TA I L A N D SLOPE OFF INTO THE BUSH ES. N O R D I D I LOOK BACK T O SEE WHO HAD FIRED THE S HOTS. A N D I N VOLUNTA R I LY I STRETC H E D OUT A H A N D A N D S A I D : "HERE -CO M E H E RE. VEER ED." III M Y OVERTU R E S W E R E G R EETED BY A LOW SNA RL. AS IT RI PPED MY RECOG N IZE. II I MUST HAVE STOPPED. A FEMALE TEETH CLOTHES. BUT I T C RACKED OV E R THE BACKS OF BY THE A HERD LIKE S HOT. KASPAR. SOMEHOW I M A N AGED TO REACH THE FENCE PUTTING O N E FOOT I N FRONT OF T H E OTH ER. I B E G A N TO W A L K TOWA R D IT. M Y I M AG E DROWN I NG I N TH E I R EYES IN POO L S TA K I N G OF ANGUISH. SET HIGH ON T H I N . N O W TH E Y WERE A LL DEAD. A STOCK THE WHIP. M Y R E G A R D N E V E R QU I TTING T H O S E Y E L LOW EYES. T H E COC K OF ITS EARS IN THE D I R ECTION OF T H E FARM. T H E LONG. BUT MY STRE NGTH W A S NOT EQUAL TO THE DOG·S. AT A RECO N C I LIATI O N . W H E R E I H A D BECOME TH E PREY. BUT I T W A S NOT A F R A I D OF M E .M E N A N D BEASTS STU M B L I N G TO TH E I R K N E ES. S I N E W Y LEGS. TH E ODOR OF COOK I NG M EAT. ROLLING AND STRUGGLI N G AGA I NST THE CON TACT OF SEX A G A I N ST MY M O UTH. KNOC K I N G M E TO TH E GROU N D WITH THE WEIGHT OF ITS BODY. IT WORKED WITH THE F R E NZY OF THE KI LL. B U R N I N G WITH THE ME LA ST. S E E PED OUT OF EVEN AT THE W I L L TO AS MY R E S I ST BODY HAVE A DM I R E D ITS A R ROGA NCE H A D I NOT F E LT THOSE YELLOW E Y E S O N M E . I T H A D HEARD THE SHOTS NO DOUBT. AND BLOOD REDOLENT O F SOME OBSC U R E M E MORY. THE DOG C H A N G E D ITS S TA NCE. I N THE BLI N D N ESS OF OU R BATTLE. EGON . B R EADTH H E I GHT. A PA R I A H TO J U DGE BY ITS WA R I N ESS. DOWN AS P I T I L E S S L Y A S TH E A BO R I G I N E S H A D B E E N H UNTED. A N D AT ONCE THE DOG S HOWED ITSELF A L E RT. PERHA PS. OF VOICES. AND SAW IN AND MY M I N D' S EYE TH E I R A RC H A I C PLA I NTIVE LOWI NG . ITS FLANKS M A R K E D BY STRI PES OF A D A R K E R G R E Y. OF CRIES THAT RESEMBLED AN I N H U MA N AND CR UELTY. THEN I WAS A F R A I D . A LMOST TOO BIG FOR A DOG. THE STA M PEDE TO THE F A R COR N E R OF T H E PADDOCK. THE POINTED M UZZLE L I FTED AND I SAW TH E TEETH. I N STEAD. T H E C R E A T U R E'S SOLITUDE A S S A I LE D M E . A T E R ROR THAT STA RTED FROM MY A R M-PITS A N D STA N K THE C L E A R I NG. I T TOOK A STEP I N TO THE C LE A R I N G A N D I COULD ALMOST TRIC KLED W H E R E TEETH TO R E THROUGH THE LAST RAGS O F CLOTH I N G . I THOUGHT OF T A K I N G R E F UGE I N A TREE. WITHOUT R U N N I NG. I F I C R I E D O U T M Y VOI C E WOU LD S K I M ACROSS TH E S I L E N C E OF THE B U S H A N D S I N K LIKE A PEBBLE. BUT ONCE UNDER COV E R OF THE T R E E S M Y K N E E S BUCKLED U N D E R M E A N D I SA N K O N A F A L L E N LOG. A N D K N E W WHAT THAT M E A NT. E XTE N D I N G U N D E R T H E B E LLY. TH E R E STI LL L I V E D AFTER THE WA R THE LAST S U R V I V I NG M E M B E R O F THE K I SCH FA M I LY. I SEIZED TH E BLACK S E X . THAT S E N T A S H U DD E R A LO N G ITS R I BS LIKE WINO OVER WHEAT. A N D I S A W . A N D O N L Y T H I S W I LD DOG A N D I R E M A I N E D I N TH E I R H U NTING GRO U N DS. I STILL EXPERIENCED THE S A M E F U RIOUS JOY AS W H E N I HAD WRESTLED WITH BOYS A N D P I N N E D THEM DOWN BY MY FORCE. A V U L N E R A B L E THING S LO U C H E D ON THE LOG. A N D DES PATC H E D W I T H THE S A M E 9 15 . THE CR EATU R E SEEMED UNCERTA I N OF M Y I NTENTIONS. AND IN THAT SAVAGE COU PLING WE A R RIVED. A LWAYS O N T H E A LERT AGA I N ST A R M E D AND HOSTILE M E N . A N D THAT DISTA N T W A R M T H OF H U M A N B O D I E S . A N ECESSARY ACT S I N C E N O WOMAN SHOULD H A V E BEEN W I T N E S S TO THAT CONCEALED AND POI G N A N T I NT I M ACY. AND AT THAT I N STA N T THE WAS IT A DOG? C E R TA I N LY A BREED I D I D NOT DOG SPRANG. FEELING STIFLED BY THE THE DOG ' S R A N K STENCH OF FUR. WHICH I C O U NTED O N BY BRAVING IT AS MY ONLY CHANCE OF ESCAPE. NO DEFENCE E X I STED I N THAT P R I M A L SOLITU DE W H E R E T H E ABO R I G I N ES H A D WA NDERED AT A T I M E W H E N M A N D R E A M E D H I MSELF AS OTH E R THAN A N I M A LI TY. E V E R Y M U SCLE TAUT.

" WAS THE YOUNGEST OF THE K I SCH BROTH ERS AND HAD ESCA PED TH E DESTI NY OF E U ROPEA N JEWS BY SERVING AS A S U RGEON WITH THE 8TH ROUTE ARMY I N C H I N A . CATH E R I N E DUNCAN 96 . KASPAR FOU N D H I MSELF ON ONE OCCASION I N A TOWN HELD BY THE G E N E R A L'S TROOPS. STANDING B E H I N D MY C H A I R W H I L E WE ATE. AS A PALLIATIVE TO T H I S PRI VATION ONE OF THE MORE ENTE R P R I S I NG PROSTITUTES H A D SET U P A LITTLE TENT NOT FAR FROM T H E CAMP. A P E A S A N T STIC K I NG H I S H A N D UP H E R H A BIT. WHEN EVER YON E H A D GONE. I W I L L I NG L Y ACC E PT E D K A S PA R'S I N V I TATION TO SHARE I T WITH H I M ON C H R I STMAS EVE. SOBBI N G A U D I BLY AT EACH MOUTHFUL OF HER DEAR D E PARTED. A N D D A R K N E S S C A M E BEFORE THE LAST M A N E M E RGED. FATTEN I NG I T FOR C H R I STMAS. HE CHOSE THAT CH RISTMAS EVE TO TELL M E THE STORY OF THE C H I N ESE P ROSTITUTE. OF ITS FLIMSY TENT J U ST LA RGE ENOUGH FOR TWO R EC U MBENT BODI E S O N E ON TOP OF THE OTH E R. A FORM OF PHYSICAL PA I N TO MASK THE I N TOLER· KASPA R'S S A R DO N I C DESC R I PTION OF THE SCENE. WITH A HOUSEKEEPER TO LOOK AFTER HIM. AND IT HARDLY LIGHTE N E D T H E GHOSTLY ATMOS­ P H E R E WHEN THE HOU S E K E E P E R S E R V E D TH E GOOSE IN A FLOOD OF TEARS. BEEN D E A D FOR A LONG TIME. KASPAR TOOK H I S DOCTOR'S BAG A N D A PPROAC H E D THE TENT. TH E S PACE IS SO L I M I T E D THE DEAD ARE B U R I E D ONE ON TOP OF ANOTH ER. AND D E SC R I B I NG WITH TOM B-STON ES. VIOLENTLY. WE VISITED TH E OLD JEWISH CEMETERY WHERE JOSTLING CENTU R I E S OF BAWDY B R U TA L I TY. CA RVING OF A N U N ON THE CHARLES BRI DGE. FOR HOURS THE Q U E U E K E PT M O V I N G . THE R EST OF THE FA M I LY P E R I S H E D. RE-ADJUSTING HIS U N I FO R M . HE FOLLOWED THIS BY SHOWING ME. HE TOR E UPON THE WRETC H E D SCR EEN AND ON ALL THAT EN DLESS PLAIN THERE WAS NOTH ING BUT A WOM A N LYING S P R E A D·EAGLED ON A MAT. D U R I NG OUR WALKS THROUGH PRAGUE. SHE WAS A TACITURN WOMAN WHO K E PT A GOOSE ON T H E LAN DING. I SOM ETI M ES S U S P ECTED T H A T KASPAR'S BLACK H U MOUR SU BSTITUTED FOR H I S CHI LDHOOD ROLE OF "HE WHO GETS S LA P P E D."TH E CLOWN. NOT A LTO­ G E TH E R A FESTIVE OCCASION. OF THE Q U E U E OF SOL D I E R S ABSORBED BY TH E I R OWN N E ED. I F. KASPAR S A I D. BUT WITH KASPAR I H A D BEC O M E H A B I T U A T E D TO M A C A B R E CON­ TRASTS. NOW A VAGUE H U M MOCK ON THE GROU N D . ADDED TO ITS D ESOLATION. I THE ONLY GUEST TO OCC Upy ONE OF THOSE E M PTY CHAIRS. IN FRONT OF W H I C H A LONG L I N E O F S O L D I E R S AWAITED T H E I R TURN." WHEN THE E LDER BROTH ERS DONGED H I M ON THE H E A D TILL H E WAS D IZZY. THE SOLD I E R S B I VOUAC K E D ON THE EDGE OF T H E BOMB E D C I TY. AND NOW KASPAR LIVED ALONE I N THE ECHOING APA RTM E NT. T H E GOOSE B E I NG A R A R E B I R D I N POST·W A R P R A G U E . ABLE. A TEST OF HOW M UC H HE COULD ENDURE. P E R H A PS FOR THE SAME REASON. WHERE THE QUA RTER OF A THOUSA N D FLOW E R S H A D BEEN DECLARED OUT OF BOU NDS. A N D T OO S M A L L F O R KASPAR'S BULK T O PENE­ TRATE EVEN ON H A N DS AND K N E E S. D U R I N G THE E A R LY PERIOD OF THE WAR IN C H I NA W H E N C H A N G K A I S H E K STI LL. PROF E S S E D H I S A L L I A NC E WITH T H E 8TH ROUTE A R M Y I N FIGHTING THE JAPANESE. W E SAT OPPOSITE AT THE LONG TA BLE. S H E HAD.

A M A P O F TH E W H O L E WORLD.A B LOATED O E D I P U S TWO YEARS KAFKA AFTER T H E L E TT E R T O H I S FATH ER." BUT KA FKA DOES NOT C H A LLENGE TH E EXTE RIOR I N F L U E NC E O F T H E FATH E R I N ORDER TO I N VOKE A N I NTERIOR G E N E S I S O R A N I N T E R N A L STRUCTU R E WHICH WOULD STI LL B E O E D I P A L "IT I S I M POSS I BLE FOR M E TO ADMIT THAT THE B EG I N N I NGS OF M Y I N T E R N A LL Y N E C E S S A R Y . ON ONE H A N D." A N D THAT HE D I D SO "WITH ALL TH E M EA N S M A D E ACCESS I B L E TO ( H I M ) BY (HIS) (FATHE R . MOLECULAR WITH DANCE. SUCH ATTO R N E Y. P E R M ITTING MANY COMIC E F F ECTS." I T T U R N S OUT THAT OEDIPUS I S O N E O F T H E S E M EA NS. "TH R E W H I M S E L F I NTO FOR TH E E F F E CT OF COMIC DISTE N S I ON I S DOUBLE. BUT NOT A N I NTE R N A L N E C E S S I TY. J U DGE­ IN THE TRIAL. TO BOW A N D TO M A K E OTH ERS B O W TH E I R H E A DS. WH E R E TH E FATH ER N O LONGE R EXI STS AS SUCH (OR E L S E T H E 97 . AND I S SHOWN TO B E J U D I C IA L. BECA M E COMMON IN F R U E D'S TIME. O R I S T H E T R I ANGLE. T H E C H I LD BEING PLACED O N THE S I D E OF THE LOW LI EST E M PLOYE E S WHOSE F E ET H E WOULD B E HAPPY TO LICK).M OTH E R-CHI LD) A R E DISCO V E R E D OTH E R . P R ACTI CING B E G I N N I N G : THROUGH THE F A M I LY P HOTO. F R O M W H I C H T H E FA M I LY BORROWS I T S O W N POW E R . AN AGITATION.A C C U S E D A S S U M E O E D I P U S ' I N O R D I N A T E L Y D I ST E N D E D (GROSSI ) MASK. I N F I N ITELY M O R E ACTIVE T R I A NGLES. W H I C H . SOMETI MES O N E O F T H E T E R M S OF THE F A M I LY T R I A NG L E IS R E PLAC E D BY DI SSATISFACTION I N A S U F F I C I ENTLY SYSTEMATIC M A N N E R . THEY C A M E UPON ME F L UTT E R I NG L I K E FLIES AND COULD HAVE BEEN C H A S E D AWAY A S E A S I LY.E M PLOYEE­ C H I LD. OR ELSE I N "TH E J U DG M E NT' THE RUSS I A N F R I E N D TAKES THE PLACE OF O N E O F TH E T E R M S O F T H E TRIANGLE A N D TRANSFORMS I T INTO A J U D I C I A L OR CON D E M NATORY A P P A R ATUS. O R B U R E A UCRATIC. AT OTH E R T I M E S THE WHOLE T R I A N G L E C H A NGES ITS FORM A N D C H A R ACTERS. U N H A PP I N ESS W E R E TH E Y M A Y H A V E H A D A C E R T A I N N E C E SSITY. O R ECONOMIC. I T S M I SSION TO PROPOGATE S U B M I SSION. FATH E R . I T S U F F I C E S TO ENLARGE U PO N IT: "IT IS STRA NGE T H A T. ANY COM E D Y CAN BECOM E A R E A LITY. BEHIND THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE A D M I TS T H A T HE DI SSATIS FACTION. ANOTH E R T E R M W H I C H S U F FICES T O DE-FA M I L I A L­ IZE THE WHOLE PICTU R E ( I N THIS W A Y THE F A M I LY STORE E NACTS THE TRIANGLE.A WHOLE WILL R E LATION-LI M I T T H E OUTSIDE WHICH POLITICAL E T C . BECA U S E THAT I S WHAT TH E INFANTILE L I B I DO I NVESTS FROM THE ERA AND TRADITION. QUITE MODERN." T H A T I S THE ESSENTIAL THING: BEYOND A EXTERIOR AND I NT E R I O R .

T H E CONTA M I N ATION OF SUSPICIOUS SPACES. FOR. A DIFFUSENESS AND ARE P E R PE T U A L L Y C H A N G I N G I N TO O N E EITHER BY M E A NS OF A SU DDEN A N OTH E R . TO T H E CONDENSED FROM ALL T H E S E FORCES TO WHICH H E SUBM ITS AND I NCITES HIS SON TO SUBM IT. P U T H I M S ELF AT A N I M PASS B Y BETRAYING H I S R U R A L JEWISH CZECH ORIGI N. IN HIS MOT H E R . . I T I S BECAUSE I N H I S YOUTH HE H I M S E L F C O N F R O N T E D C E R TA I N POWERS" AT TH E R I S K OF B E I N G " D I A BO LI C A L OVERCO M E B Y T H E M . THERE I S NO C H I LD I N C A PABLE OF K NOWING TH I S : THEY EACH H A V E A GEOGRAPHI­ C A L A N D POLITICAL M A P WHOSE M A R K I NGS A R E D I FFUSED A N D S H I FTI NG. IT COULD BE SAID THAT TO THE EXTENT iHAT THE FA M i L Y TRIANGLE I S UNDONE. I N H U M A N ITY OF "DIABOLICAL POWERS" A N S W E R S TH E S U B. TOPPLING H E A D OVE R H E ELS. T O T H E E X T E N T T H A T O E D I PUS' C O M I C E N LA RG E M E N T A L LOWS TH E S E OTH E R OPPR ESSIVE T R I A NGLES TO B E SEEN U N D E R THE M I C ROSC O P E . A R E NOT FATH E R S U B STI­ TUTES. T H E Y A R E ABSOLUTE D E T E R RITORI A LIZATIONS EMBEDDED I N TH E A R I D WORLD W H I C H KAFKA H A S ACTIVATED. THE FA M I LY HAS ONLY DOORS AT WH ICH. (TH E J EWS) WERE R E P ROAC H E D FOR NOT BEING CZECHS_ IN SAAZ A N D IN EGER FOR NOT BEING GERMANS. G E R M A N ENSEMBLE. HAS NOTH ING T O DO WITH E I TH E R A FATH E R SUBSTITUTE OR A N A RC H ETYPE.A N I M A L A R E J U S T T H E OPPOS I T E : A T L E A S T I N P R I N C I PA L. COU LD BE FOU N D I N PROUST W H E R E THE UN ITY OF C H A RACTE RS A N D THE F I G U R E S THEY CONSTITUTE GIVE WAY TO N E B U LO U S FOR M S . PROLIFE RATION OF ONE OF THE T E R M S OR V ERTICES. I N T H E S A M E W A Y . T H E S E I N STANCES OF BECOMI NG-A N I M A L AND T H E A N I M AL. T H U S . OTH E R T R I A N G L E S P U S H I NG OUT F R O M B E H I N D HAVE A CERTA I N F L U I D ITY. THE FATH ER'S HYPOTH ETI C A L I N NOCENCE A N D DISTRESS FOR M S THE WORST ACCUSATION. J U DGES. OR T H E F A S C I ST M A C H I N E . A N EQ U I VALENT OF WHICH . THE RUSSIAN B U R E A UC R ATIC MACHINE. BANK E M PLOYEES.C Z E C H S . HATC H . T O PROLIFERATING. THE FAM I LY T R I A NGLE WAS O N L Y A CATA LYST FOR I NVESTMENTS OF A COM PLETELY D I F F E RENT NATURE W H I C H THE C H I LD N EVE R CEASES TO D I SCOV E R B E N EATH H I S FATH ER. NOR ANY SIGN I F I E R WHICH M A N U FAC­ TURES ANXI ETY OR PLE A S U R E . A S A BECOMI NG. BUT HE N EVER CEASES T O RETER RITOR I ALIZE I N H I S FA M I LY. OR ELSE THE GEO­ PO L I T I C A L .J E W S . W H I C H PARADES B E H I N D KA FKA'S FATHER: " I N PRAGUE. "TO R U N OFF. RIGHT AND LEFT.H U M A N I T Y OF B ECO M I N G A N I M A L : B E CO M I N G. E V E N I F ONLY D U E TO N A N N I E S . COM M I SS I O N E R S . BEH I N D T H E FATH E R I S TH E WHOLE N E B U LOUS GROUP O F J E W S WHO. ETC. "MY WORLD'S POWE R OF ATTRACTION I S GREAT TOO. THERE IS STI LL A WELL. ) THOSE W H O W A N T E D TO B E GERMANS HAD TH E M S E LVES ATTACKED BY CZECHS. OR BECA USE TOGETHER T H E SIDES ARE CONTI N UOUSLY B E I NG DEFORMED. ( . TH E R E A R E N O C H I LDREN W H O DON'T CONSTRUCT OR SENSE THESE ESCAPE ROUTES. H A V I NG L E FT THE RURAL CZECH M I L I E U B E H I N D F O R A N U R B A N . TO TA K E H I S T R I A L SERIOUSLY AT ALL COSTS) . IN H I M S E L F . H E R E A G A I N . FROM THE START. B ECOM I N G­ A P E. . T H E Y A R E PROCESSES OF S P I R I T U A L RETER R I TO RI A LI ZATION. E T C. K NOCK "DIABOLICAL POWERS" THAT REJOICE EXCESSIVELY AT THE PROSPECT O F ENTERING ONE DAY. I N S PECTOR. I N A MOBILE RELATION S H I P WITH TH E THREE I N SPECTORS_ AND WITH THE THREE B USY-BODIES GROUPED AT THE W I N DOW. A THE POS S I B I LITY OF A N ESCAPE ROUTE OF FLIGHT APPEARS." RATH E R THAN TO BOW THE HEAD A N D R E M A I N A B U R E A UC RAT. SINCE THE FATH ER HAD DONE NOTHING BUT BOW H I S HEAD. AT THE B EG I N N I N G OF THE TRIAL. TH E I R FATHE R'S E M PLOYEES. I N A S M UC H A S H E I S A JEW WHO LEAVES T H E C O U N T R Y TO G E T ESTABLI S H E D I N T H E CITY. THOUGH IN COMPLETELY D I F F E R E NT TERMS. THREE UNIDENTIFIED C H A R A C T E R S A R E T R A N S FO R M E D I N TO T H R E E B A N K WORK E RS. F U RTH E R MO R E . NOR THE S U P ER-EGO. B U R E A UC R ATS. B E C O M I NG. M A I DS. RATHER IT IS THE FATH E R WHO IS B U R E A UC RATS. . BUT RATH E R THE A M E RICAN TECHNOC RATIC M A C H I N E. SUBMIT TO A POWER WHICH WAS NOT H I S OWN . OR OTH E R PROLI FERATING TRIOS. J U DGE A N D J U DG E D . THOSE WHO BEEN LOVE ME LOVE ME BECAUSE I H A V E A N D P E R H A P S I T I S N O T THAT IN K A FKA_ IT IS N E I T H E R THE FATH ER. T H E FATH E R I S NO D O U B T CA UGHT I N A MOV E M E N T O F REAL D E T E R R I TO R I A L I ZA T I O N . THE I N FINITE AND UNGRASPABLE H I E RARCHY. TOO WELL FO R M E D . OR S U D D E N LY AND COMPLETELY IN FAVOR OF T H E POWERS WHICH ACTU ALLY ARE AT WO R K .DOG. A N D I F T H E F A T H E R R ET A I N S T H E L O V E A N D ESTI MATION O F H I S SON. J U DG ES . AND AT TH E SAME TIME BY GERMANS.D E F I N E D T R I A N G L E WITH TH E J U DGE A N D TWO SIDES. THUS. A R E L I A B L E TO BE ATTA C K E D FROM BOTH SI DES-A TRANSFORMA­ TIONAL TRIANGLE.UNCLE-LAWYER-BLOC K TRIO_ A N XIOUS FOR K.B E E T L E . A S FOR A RC H ETYPES. B L U R R E D GROUPI NGS." FOR THIS REASON. I N H I S B U S I NESS. POLICE OFFICERS. BUT BECAUSE THEY F E E L THAT I N M Y GOOD M O M ENTS AND I N 98 . THE ENTANGLEMENT OF OFFICES AND I N E XTRICABLE A BA N DO N E D . ! N ONE OF ITS TERMS. G E R M A N S . F O R M S OF B E C O M I N G . THEY LOV E ME A S W E I SS'S VAC U U M . BUT ONE I S U LTI MATELY WITNESS TO A N INTERNAL PROLIFERA­ TION S I M I LAR TO A CANCEROUS I NVASION. I N THE FI RST REPR ESENTATION OF T H E LAW COU RT. I N T H E SYSTEM O F H I S A UTHORITY A N D S U B M I S S I O N S .

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A N I M AL'S V O I C E : T H E C H I E F C LERK DECLA R E D. APPARENT W H A T I S A T STA K E I S N O T T H E R E PRODUCTION O F F I G U R ES . A POS S E S S I O N . NO TEXT CONTRARY. IN ORDER TO FLEE WITH TH E ORCH I D : S E I Z U R E OF A B I T O F CODE A N D N O T I M A G E R E PRODUCTION. "MY A P E N A T U R E F L E D OUT O F M E. A C O U G H "SEEMS WORRISOME. B U T T H E PRODUCTI ON O F A CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S IN AN APARALLEL WHERE MAN AND ASYM­ NOT A N D O F TH E M S E LV E S . AND SOON A N I M A LS . IN IT A T T H E S A M E T I M E THAT T H E IN COUPLING TU R N ." IN R E A LI T Y . I'VE S N UC K AWAY. I N " I N V E STIGATIONS OF A DOG. FLE E I NG IN IN RETURN. IS ONLY ON THE OTH E R SINCE H E R E ." ANY INKLING OF RESEMBLANCE I S E LI M I N ATED: EVEN MORE E N E RG E T I C A L L Y "T H E KAFKA F R O M THE C H I E F C L E R K . A W H I ST L I N G H A D TO G I V E UP T E A C H I N G TO ENTER A N A S Y L U M . TH E A FORTIORI M A R K I N G OUT OF T H E O R PH A N E D BECOM I NG . SQU E E K W I N S O U T O V E R T H E VOICE A N D SC R A M ­ BLES THE R E SO N A N C E OF WORDS.AN I M A L'S ESCAPE ROUTES. I I M ITATED BECA U S E I WAS LOO K I N G F O R A W A Y O U T . W H E R E CONTENTS B R E A K J U ST AS EXPRESSIONS D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D B Y H U M A N FORCE. A RC H ET Y P E S M Y T H O L OG Y . DOGS. S I MPLER. G R E GO R PROFO U N D L Y BEE. THE O RC H I D S E E M S TO R E P RO D U C E A B E E'S I MAGE. IN THE ( B ECOMI NG-CO N S U M P­ A PAINFUL D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z I N G FLUXES O V E R F LOWS T H E L I M I T S O F STI L L T E R R I TO R I A L I M ITATION. T O EXACT COM PLIANCE. IN THE S A M E M A N N E R. I AM ACCORDED THE F R E E DOM OF MOVEMENT WHICH IS COM PLETELY LAC K I N G OTH E R SOLUTION FOR M E S I N C E W E W A R D E D O F F THE POS S I B I LITY O F THE I M ITATION F R E E DOM. " THUS IS CONSTITUTED A CONJUNCTION WHICH OF D E P R I V E S WOR D S O F TH E I R M U S I C A N D M E A N I NG. V I B R A ­ IN A DESERTED M A TT E R : TURN PRECI PITATES I NT E N S I F I E S THE TH R E S H O L D S D E T ER R I TO R I A LI ZATION O F T H E DETE R RITORI A L I Z­ I NG H U M A N FORC E ( I F IT C A N BE SO pun." IT IS TRUE THAT K A F K A'S A N I M A L TEXTS ARE FAR MORE COM P L E X FA R THAN WE IN SAY. I F IT I S A Q U E STION OF F I N D I N G A W A Y OUT (A WAY OUT A N D N O T " F R E E DOM"). FLIGHT BY I N T E N S ITY ("THAT'S WHAT I'VE DON E . FOR PASSAGEWAY TUBER TH E S E PASSAGE W A Y S ARE U N DERGRO U N D I NTEN­ SITIES."). AN ANIMAL C A PT U R E D BY MAN IS DETERR ITOR I A LI Z E D F L U X . " THE B U R E A UC R AT I C TOG E TH E R : TRIANGLE FI RST PROG R ES S I V E L Y IS TH E CHIEF S I M PL E I M I TATION. S I G N I FI ERS AND M ET R I C A L E VO L U T I O N DOES BECOM E L E S S A P E T H A N T H E A P E B E C O M E S M A N . THE B E CO M I NG I S A SEIZURE.M O U S E . T O T R A C E ROUTE O F FLIGHT I N A LL ITS POS I T I V I TY.A P E . B U T A BECOM­ ING-H U M A N SENTED AS FROM A APE. TIONS. I N OF ARE FAVOR OF A N U N FO R M E D MATTER. FLIGHT USELESS MOTION I N S P A C E . A N SIGNI FICATIONS S I G N I F I EDS. A PE S . T H E R E WAS NO 1 00 . ON THE AN THESE THEN ARE THE TWO E FFECTS OF TH E DEVELOP M E N T O R COMIC BLOATING O F O E D I PUS: TH E D ISCOV E R Y A CONTRARIO OF OTHE R T R I ANGLES. FLIGHT IS AFFIRMED AS A PLACE. O N L Y A S E E M I NGLY LI BERATING MOTION. I N THE B ECOM I NG . I T I S NOT A QU ESTION O F A BECOM I NG . AS ON ONE COMES TH E R E C L E R K W H O COMES I N ORDER TO M E N A C E . TO REACH A CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S WITH V A L U E ONLY I N H A N D. ONLY C O R R E S PO N D TO G R A D I E N TS CROSSED. IN TH E B E CO M I N G . COCK ROAC H E S C A N O N L Y B E D I ST I N G U I S H E D B Y V A R I O U S T H R ESHOLDS. M I C E . A D D ITION A L V A L U E . BUT MORE I M PORTANTLY. T H E DOG S E E K S T O G R A B T H E G R EATEST D I F F E R E N C E . I N S U C H A W A Y T H A T A S A R E S U LT M Y F I RST TEAC H E R BECAME A PE-LI K E H I M S E LF . A N D N O T F O R A N Y OTH E R REASON. A S IF "EV E N AT HOME H E E XPECTED TO HEAR TH E VOIC E HAND. A N D N E V E R A R E PRODUCTION O R I M I TATION. IN BUT D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z E S MORE BECOM I NG . T H E ENTI R E B EG I N N I N G O F "A R E PORT" I NS I STS O N TH I S POINT. THE N THE R E IS TH E FATH E R WHO H A S RETU R N E D TO WORK AT THE B A N K A N D WHO SLEEPS I N HIS U N I FO R M TH E R E B Y M A K I N G E V I D E N T T H E YET EXTERIOR FORCE TO WHICH H E I S SUBJ ECTED. TO CROSS A T H R E SHOLD. T O F I N D A WORLD O F P U R E INTENSITIES WHERE A L L FORMS AS W E L L AS ALL U N DO N E . IN THE BY SOME OR U N D E RG R O U N D B U R ROW. T H I S W A Y O U T I S N O T THE R E S U LT OF F L I G HT. OF NON-SIG N I FY I N G KAFKA'S OR A N IMALS A NEVER REFER BUT TO SIGNS. VARIOUS V I BRATIONS." BUT H A S NO S I G N I F I C A N C E TI VE-A P E ) . BUT THE D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D AND A N I MA L FORC E IN OUT B R E A K O U T O F T H E S I G N I F I E R W H I C H FOR M A L I Z E S TH E M . TO F I N D A W A Y OUT AT T H E VERY POI N T W H E R E H I S FAT H E R COU L D FIND NONE. B U S I N E S S A N D B U R E A U ­ C R ATS. D E T E R R I TOR I A L I Z E S BECO M E S A C OC K R O A C H NOT ONLY I N ORDER TO FLEE FROM H I S FATH E R . TO ZON E S OF FREED INTENSITIES OF TH E I R FOR M S . NOTH I N G IS L E FT BUT MOV E M E NTS. TH E S C H I ZO DIFFERENCE. "A OR. H E A D O V E R H E ELS A N D A W A Y . R E PORT TO A C A D E M Y" FO R E X A M P L E . " I W A S N 'T S E D U C E D BY TH E NOTION OF I M ITATION. R E J ECTED BUT.A N OTH E R S P H E R E . " TO BECOM E A N I M A L I S PREC I S E L Y T O M A K E TH E MOTION. Q UITE IS THE ONLY CONTRARY. I N O R D E R T O R EA C H THAT R E G I O N W H E R E TH E VOICE N O LON G E R D O E S A N YTH I N G BUT B UZZ­ "'DID YOU HEAR HIM S P E A K I NG? THAT WAS AN A TT A C K S S U S P I C I O U S T E M PTATI O N S O F R E S E M B L A N C E W H I C H I M A G I N ATION M A Y PROPOSE TO H I M : " T H ROUGH H I S SOL I T U D E .A N I M A L FROM H U M A N . TH I S BECO M I N G AND IS PRE­ WOULD S E E M T O S H O W THE TI E BETW E E N T H E S E TWO A S P ECTS B E TT E R T H A N "TH E M E T A M O R P H O S I S .I NSECT.

O R COEXTENSIVE WITH I T A S A COUNTERPART TO THAT NOVEL WHICH IS FREED FROM ANY ANIMAL PROBLEMATIC. HIS BECOMING-AN I M A L.H U M A N I N C E ST W H I C H LIKE TH ERE I S THE I NTRUSION O F THE TH R E E BUREAU­ CRATIC BOAR D E R S WHO NOW PENETRATE THE VERY FAM I LY. RATHER. "THE M ETAMORPHOSIS" IS TH E EXEM PLARY STORY OF A RE-OEDIPALIZATION. IN REALITY. M A N I FE STS A N ON . M A Y-BUG. COCKROACH. BUT G R E GO R R E F U S E S T O ALLOW T H E M T O TAKE AWA Y THE PORTRAIT O F THE LADY M U FFLED I N FURS. I N T H I S S E NSE. COR R E LA­ S E X U A L I TY BECOM I NG-AN I M A L. ISN'T IT TRUE THAT FORMS OF BECOM ING-A N I M A L FAI L TO FULFILL TH E I R OFFICE AND ALWAYS RETAIN A N AMBIGUITY THAT MAKES THEM I N S U F FI C I E NT A N D CO N D E M N S THEM TO BECAUSE THE R E I S STI L L DANGER OF A RESUR­ G E N C E OF O E D I P A L MASTERY. TOO SIGNI FYING. FROM THEN ON. H I G H VOLTAGE I N C E ST. O N E CANNOT E V E N B E CERTAIN THAT G REGOR W A S AT FAULT. DUNG­ OEDIPALIZED B Y THE TOSS OF AN A PPLE A N D C A N ONLY DIE. TH E I N C R EASING P E R V E R S ITY OF THE USAGE HAS N OT BEEN FAI LURE? A REN'T A N I M A LS THE M SELVES STI LL TOO FORMED. LIKE GREGOR S H E WANTED SCHIZO I NC E ST. RETURN TO BUT WHY. S U C H AS THE MUSICIAN DOGS I N "INVESTIGATIONS" OR THE DIABOLICAL DOG IN "THE TEMPTATION AT THE VI LLAGE." THE FACT I S THAT K A FKA'S P R I N C I P A L A N I M A LE SQ U E TEXTS WERE W R I TT E N J U ST BEFORE THE TRIAL. THE THREE BUREAUCRATIC BOARDERS. I N FAVOR O F A H I G H E R CONCERN. HIS IS G R EGOR'S W H O L E BECOM I NG­ BECOMI NG-BEETLE. AS A WHOLE. AT THE V E R Y I N STANT O N E BELIEVES HE HAS CAUGHT HOLD OF THE TIE BETWEEN OEDIPUS' BEYOND AND BEFORE IAU-DELA ET EN· DECAl. BUT. A L L RECONSTITUTION OF THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE WHICH ITSELF TAKES C H A RGE OF OTH E R TRIA NGLES AS IT DOES OF THE ANIMAL ROUTES." A N D. SHE BEGINS TO HATE G R EGOR AND CONDEM NS H I M. H E CLINGS TO TH I S PORTRA I T A S T O A LAST TERRITORI ALIZED I MAGE. I S O N E FARTHE R A W A Y THAN EVER F R O M A WAY O U T ? W H Y DOES ONE REMAIN STUCK I N A N I M PASS? IT I S THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE'S PATER N A L PRINCI PAL. I S GREGOR A T F A U LT I N THAT H E DOES NOT DARE TO GO ALL THE WAY? H I S SISTER WANTED TO CLEAR OUT H I S WHOLE ROOM I N ORDER TO PLEASE H I M . IT COULD BE S A I D THAT AT A CERTA I N MOMENT G REGOR'S DETERRITORIALIZING PROCESS. IS AT THE S A M E TIME A SCHIZO BEAST. SHE ACCE PTED H I M . I NC E S T WITH T H E S I STER A S OSCILLATE BETWEEN A SCHIZO ESCA PE A N D AN OEDIPAL I M PASS? OEDIPAL ANIMAL PAR EXCEL­ LENCE. A DEQUATE T O EXORCIZE A L L RE-CLOSING. SUBSTITUTE I N IT. TOO TERRI TORIALIZED? DOESN'T T H E BECOMI NG-A N I M A L. TAK E TH E I R SEATS "IN THE PLACES WHICH THE FATH ER. THE FAM I LY C LOSES H A PPILY IN ON ITSELF. ALL OF A S U DDEN O P POS E D TO O E D I P A L I N C EST. GI LLES DELEUZE AND FELIZ GUATTA RI EXCERPTED FROM KAFKA TRANSLATED BY RACHEL MCCOMAS 101 . WAS BLOCKED. TH E F A M I LY'S DETE R R I TO R I A L I ZATION INTO MORE COM PLEX A N D DIABOLICAL TRIANGLES HAS NO ROOM TO CARRY ON: THE FATHER KICKS OUT TRIANGLE. APPLE E N C R USTED IN HIS BACK. OF WHICH KAFKA FR EQUENTLY SPEAKS I N HIS D I A RY AND LETTERS. T H E R E A N I M AL. B E ETLE. T H E MOT H E R AND G REGOR FOR M E R LY OCCUPI ED. THE DOG. JEALOUS O F T H E POR­ TRAIT. WHICH TRACE S THE INTENSE E SC A P E ROUTE IN R E LA T I O N TO T H E FA M I LY L I K EWISE. THE BECOM I NG­ ANIMAL ASPECT OF GREGOR'S DETE R RITORIA LlZA­ TION FA I LS : HE A L LOWS H I M S E L F TO BE RE­ TIVE LY. THIS IS WHAT HIS SISTER C A N N OT TOLERATE.OF HIS SUPERIOR:" FINALLY. A N D ESPECIALLY IN R ELATION TO THE BUREAUCRATIC AND COMM E R C I A L TRIANGLE.

THE WAVEL. I SET A BOUT TO F I N D A MORE FAVORABL. I WAS STE E R I NG AROUND THE HORN OF A S M A L. I WENT T O A RATH ER DISTANT CREEK HAVE WHERE THE BOATS WERE K E PT.ONGED TO T H E COUNTESS. HAVING TOUCHED SHOR E .ESS-FOR A T THAT MOMENT M Y M I N D COUL. I WAS CROSSING. A LTHOUGH I USED THE OARS I N O R D E R TO GO FASTER THAN THE COM ING DAY. S U D D E N L. THE L.T E R FOR IT. B E C A PTU R E D IN A WORD. I T WAS F U L L : THE CYC L E WAS COM PLETED.E PORT.IFF CONTIN U E D TO PRESENT T H E SA M E RIGHT A NGLE. BUSIED MYSEL.T H E DOGS THE C E RTAI NTY OF MY COMI N G DEPARTU R E H A D R E STORED MY TASTE F O R E M MA. I L.ED. THERE C A M E A M I LD E R EVENING WITH A LITTLE FOG ON T H E HORIZON. I DOUBL.F WITH L. BUT S ETTI NG. A N D I SAW AS ON THE FI RST EVENING THE MOON E M E RG E D FROM THE SEA.A N D I NG M Y BOAT AND F I N DI NG S H E L. FATIG U E R E N D E R E D M E ACUTEL.E TO 1 02 .F. AND DO U BTL. THEN CONTI N U E ON FOOT. M I LKY AND V E I L. W H I L E A P I N K F I NGER ON T H E HORIZON A N NOUNCED T H E ADVENT OF D A Y . BESIDES. W H Y D I DN'T I CON FIDE M Y PLAN TO HER? WHY SHOULD 17 T H E PRESENT IS THE PRESENT A N D TH AT'S ENOUGH.D D I SC E R N NO D I V I SION BETWEEN THEM-TI M E WAS C A R RY I NG M E A S T H E S E A WAS CARRYING M Y BOAT. THE MOON WAS IN FRONT OF M E. I SAW THE ISLAND. A N D ON T H E N A R ROW BEACH. IT M UST BEEN TWO IN THE MORNING: I HAD J UST TI M E TO R E A C H T H E I S L.A N D B E F O R E S U D D E N L. ALTHOUGH M Y DREAMS REMAINED UNDER THE SIGN OF THE H U NTER'S MOON. AND.ED BACK AND DECIDED TO L.Y BEFORE ME.Y AWA R E OF ALL.Y A NOI S E B E H I N D M E M A D E M E T U R N A RO U N D: A N E NORMOUS N I GG E R ACCOM P A N I E D B Y T W O M A STIFFS WAS WATC H I NG ME. BUT T H E CL. PROMONTORY WHEN I SAW THE YACHT WHICH H A D B E L. O W COASTLI N E WAS A M E R E M A R G I N OF S A N D AT T H E B A S E OF A N A B R U PT CLI FF.ESS OCE A N BARELY RI PPLED B E N EATH THE PROW OF M Y BOAT.OVED E M MA S O M UC H T H A T I FILLED H E R WITH MYSEL. I MYSELF H A D NOT SET T H E DAY. PERHAPS BECAUSE I T WAS TOO WH ITE. I H A D N EI TH E R M EMORY NOR PRESE NT. I DECI D E D THE T I M E HAD C O M E . I WAS ON MY WAY. ENOUGH DAYBREAK. THAT WAS GOI NG ON BETWEEN THE A I R A N D THE WATER-ACTIVITY TOO I NTA NG IBL. IT TRIGG E R E D IN M E A N E W FEAR. I T H E R EFORE M A NOEUVERED I N THAT D I R ECTION AND. L.EEP. WHEN SHE H A D GON E T O SL.

I M E COURAGE. STA R I NG ME IN THE FACE. R E P U LSIVE P A L LO R O F THAT GOURD STRI ATE D WITH PINK W R I N K L E S W H I C H WAS GOING TO CRUSH ME. I COULD NO LONGER ME SEE H I M. THEY TORE OFF MY CLOTH ES. I STEPPED FORWA R D AND SAID: "I WOU LD LIKE TO S E E T H E COU NTESS. THE DOGS LET ME GO. WI LLPOWER M IGHTI LY TO K E E P F R O M BECOMING E R ECT. I WAITED FOR THE PA I N . E N V E LOPING ME. "SUCK BREATHE DEE PLY. N E I TH E R OF THEM H A R M E D ME. A FLASH. SAW FOOT TOWA R D M Y FACE. THE M A N POI NTED TO MY GROIN AND THE TWO WOLFISH DOGS POU NCED ON MY CROTCH . H I S EYES A N D THOSE OF T H E A N I M A LS E X A M I N E D M E WITH A N A B S E N C E O F C U R IOSITY A N D COLDN E SS THAT WAS F R I G H T E N I NG. TOO. I C H O K E D B A C K THE C R Y WHICH ROSE THE DOGS STRETC H E D TH E I R N EC K S TOWA RDS ME: THE MAN I N M Y TH ROAT. BUT THE HIS AIR H A N G I NG OUT: T H E Y WATC H E D M E C LOSELY. AND THE TWO MONSTE R S LEA PT ON ME. SLOWLY. S O T O SPEAK. SO THAT I SHOULD HAVE PLENTY OF T I M E TO C O N T E M P L A T E T H E BECOM E A N ENORMOUS BON E. T H E S H A DOW C OV E R E D COMPLETELY. TH E FOOT STO P P E D A FEW I NC H ES FROM M Y EYES. W I TH FLA KES SWIM M Y TH ROAT A N D MY BRAIN WAS BEH I N D THAT S E A R C H I NG SC R E E N AN WOR K I NG. WITHOUT MOVING MY H EAD. A MARK ON MY SKIN. F I X E D ME FROM A BOVE. I WOULD LIKE TO N G U E S SCROTU M . 1 03 . I D I DN'T MOVE. I N T H E MOUTH OF THE DOG WHO WAS PULLING AT IT. FURIOUSLY. HIS I M M E N S E BODY DOM I NATED ME. MY F A C I LI­ THE NOTI NG. THE I R TO N G U E S N O W M Y GAZE. THE NIGGER STRA I G HT­ I R E M E M B E R . I DI DN'T D A R E LOOK. AND T H E I R SLAVER." FELT A S H I V E R DOWN MY BACK AS T H E I R TON G U E S TOUC H E D M E . T H E N I G G E R L E A N E D OVER ME. I CONTI N U ED: LONGER STRUGG L I NG AGAINST FEA R BUT A G A I NST THE ABOM I NABLE AWOKE A LONG T E M PT A T I O N IN MY I WHICH THOSE MY TO "I HAVE M ET T H E COU NTESS. THE NIGGER D REW BACK. THE TWO WILD A N I M A LS ATTACK E D AGA I N . FULLY WITH T H E I R T E ETH A N D CLAWS: THEY D I DN'T HARM M E. SUDDENLY H E DREW A D A G G E R F R O M H I S POCKET A N D A S THE DOG L E A PT A W A Y ." A S H A DOW PASSED OVER ME: T H E N I GGE R WAS I N EXORA B LY: I WATC H E D TH I S PROCESS WITH A K I N D OF HORROR. FOR E X P L A N AT I O N . THEN WAS L I FTED AGA I N . AND THEN SHE I REMEMBERED: HAD S A I D. TH E THICK U N DER­ VEIN I N FLATED MY PENIS IN REG U L A R TH ROBS. HIS EYES. M Y P E N I S WAS THE OTHER. BEFORE I COULD H E E LS I R E S I STED. I W A S T H ROWN ON T H E S A N D: ONE OF T H E BEASTS G R I P P E D M Y THROAT W H I L E T H E OTH E R S A T A S TR I D E M E. "WHATE V E R IN YOUR YOUR TH E I R GIVI NG MEMBER I LLUSION O F ENTE R I N G A HOSPITA BLE PORT. WATC H I N G . S PA C E I N THAT I N STA NT. STI L L COLO. E X E RT E D A RO U N D HEAD FROM MY THE M A N MADE A N I M P E R C E PT I B L E SIGN. TH E R E WAS A SECOND O F I N FI N ITE ANGUISH IN WHICH I 010 MY UTMOST TO CONTROL M Y B R EATH I NG A N D NOT TO B U DGE. ANOTH E R M I NUTE AND I WAS NO 010 NOT C H A NG E HIS STATU E-LI K E POSITION. I KNEW I MUST NOT MOVE. WITH TH E K N I FE STILL EXTE N D I NG FROM H I S R IGHT H A N D. I D I D N'T MOVE. IN FEAR CA USED MY REO EYES. TERRIBLE A D V A NTAGE: NO MOUTH H A D E V E R H A D SUCH POW E R O V E R FROM ME. HE WITH D R E W H I S FOOT. THE DOGS SAT ON EITHER S I D E O F M E. THE LONG HAD PINK AN W H I PS HANGING TH E I R M A WS A M AZING SUPPLEN ESS A N D E N A BLED THE T W O Q U A D R U P E DS TO ENCI RCLE M Y P R I C K A N D PROBE MY A N U S WITH I R R ES I ST I B L E WHICH TATED I WAS VIGOR. WHEN MY PENIS I HAD IT A PPROACH I NG . A VAGU E S M I LE S H O W E D H I S TEETH. B E H I N D ME: ITS R E D N ESS. I SAW HIM BEND H I S LEGS.I S M I LED AT T H E M A N : HE R E M A I N E D I M PASSIVE. THE M A N M A D E A N OTH E R SIGN. H E POINTED H I S WEAPON AT M Y BELLY. PHALLUS. IN A M A TT E R OF SECONDS I WAS N A KED. THEY WERE NOT GOI NG TO DEVOUR ME-NOT YET. H A P PE N S:' STO M A C H . M Y C R OTC H . IT GRAZED M Y FOR E H E A D SLIGHTLY A T THE B A S E OF MY NOSE. W H I C H T H E S H E E R U RGE T O F U C K COM M A N D E D T O S T A N O U PRIGHT I N S P I T E OF MYSE LF. TH E I R L I PS C U R LE D BACK IN A S N A R L. BUT T H E DOGS WORKED S K I LL­ ENED U P . WAS COLD. GAVE JUST A S I THOUGHT T H E ORDEAL W A S D R A W I N G TO A CLOSE. IT F E LL. THE BLADE WAS A BOVE MY EYES. B U T T H E LENGTH OF T H E I R TONGUES GAVE THE DOGS A TH I N K OF MOVING. P R E P A R I NG M Y N E R V E S TO OBEY I N STANT­ LY. WITH THE FEELING OF PA RTIC I PATING IN SO M E UNCLEAN ITS ACT. A B U N D A NTLY TASK BY D R E N C H ED. BREATHING R E G U L A R LY. BUT I COULD F E E L THEY W E R E R E A DY T O TEAR ME APART TO ON C O M M A N D. I FOLLOWED THE T H R E E B R UTES WITH M Y EYES. THEN MOVE HIS ENORMOUS ATTA I N E D LARGEST DI M E N S I O N S . TH E SUN WAS R I S I NG M A N CONTI N U E D TO STA N O O V E R ME.

TH E N CROUCH E D DOWN . NO P A I N . A GENTLE IN A N D 1 04 . IN HIS I N C R E A S I N G EXC I TE­ WATC H E D M Y B E LLY HOISTING ITS WATC H I N G AND I WAS A WATC H I N G STRANGE MYSELF W A TC H I N G . ST I C K I N G OUT OF THE L E G S . A N D IT S E E M E D T O M E THEN. B U T I N T H E M I DST OF M Y PLEAS U R E I D I D NOT R E A LIZE THAT THE I M POSSIBLE GIVES R I S E TO T H E I M POSSI B LE. I AND I WAS TON G U ES WITHOUT L E TT I N G G O O F H I S OBJ ECT. ALL OF A S U D D E N I ACCEPTED THE FACT. THE NIGGER W A S STA N D I NG AT MY FEET. A N D STOOD D I R ECTLY O V E R ME: H I S R E A R LEGS PLANTED ON EITH E R S I D E O F MY H E A D . NO L I M IT. AND THE BEA STS R E S U M E D THEIR TASKS. THE D E S I R E TO FUCK DEAD E N E D ALL R E ST R A I NT. STR ETC H E D OUT H I S C H E ST. I S HOUTED: "NO. F O R T H E T I M E B E I N G TH EY W E R E I N I NC E S S A N T TH E I R MOV E M E N T. R E T U R N E D . T H I S REASSU R E D TON G U E . T H E MONSTE R'S L A N C E W A S ON M Y L I PS: IT K N OC K E D A G A I N ST TH E M CONTI N U A LLY A N D COV E R E D T H E M WITH A BITTE R-TA STING L U BRICA NT. DA RTI N G IT I N A N D OUT. NO L I M IT. H E WHI STLED. CARESSED GUMS PLEA­ S U R A B L Y THAT I O P E N E D MY MOUTH. ROOTED AT IT WHAT I WAS G O I N G T H R O U G H EXC E E D E D E V E R Y ­ WITH HIS M UZZLE AND THEN BEGAN U S I NG HIS T H I N G I COULD H A V E I M AGI N E D. SO M UC H SO. H I S S M I LE D I S P L A Y I N G MORE T E E T H . A N D I LET MYSELF GO. M A K I NG M E WAS N O T THE ONLY O N E ER ECT. Y E T I FOU N D N E I TH E R S H A M E NOR HORROR WITH I N M E . AGA I N HIS HAND POI NTED TO M Y BELLY. HIS P E N I S NOW D R I P P E D O N M Y N EC K A N D C H E ST A S I T J E R K E D A BOUT I N A N ACC E L E RATED R H YTH M ." S H E S A I D T U R N I NG H E R H E A D AWAY. . NOW. WHO HAD DRAWN BACK.W H I STLED. FOR THE BON E HAD LOST M U C H O F THE ITS S I Z E D U R I NG THE REKINDLED MY I BEGA N TO GUESS THIS WAS THE C A S E WHEN ONE OF T H E MONSTERS-THE ONE WHO H A D PERFOR M E D M I RACLES WITH H I S TONG U E I N T H E S E R V I C E OF M Y ORGAN-SUDDENLY C HANGED HIS POSITION K N I FE-T H R OW I N G . L I FT E D H I S H A U N C H E S SLIGHTLY A N D A I M E D HIS COCK AT MY MOUTH. MY I STA RTED TO BECOME AWA R E OF TH I S AS D ROPS O F A MUSKY I ESSENCE SPURTED O N M E . AND WEDGING B E TWE E N THE MY JAW SO AND MEATUS O F TH E I R DOUBT E XC I T E M E NT. "IT I REMEMBERED LIKE A MY R E A LIZE MOTH E R ' S REMA RK: S M E L LS WILD I N D E ED. R U B B E D H I S H A I RY M UZZL E I N M Y F A C E A N D B E G A N U S I NG H I S TON G U E W H I L E H I S T H I G H S A N D HAUNCHES BEGAN TO QUIVER ST R A N G E LY : HIS TON G U E S WAS R E LENTLESSLY FLIC K I NG M E FROM MY BALLS TO MY ANUS. RIGHT BETW E E N M Y COULD HARDLY DECEIVE MYSELF ABOUT THE I NTENTION T H E DOGS H A D I N TERMS OF M E : BUT W H A T I D I D N 'T K N OW W A S T H A T A B E I N G A L I E N TO TH E I R R A C E H A D E N L A R G E D T H E F I E LD OF TH E I R I N STI NCT BY T E M P E R I NG I T WITH H I S O W N I M AG I N A ­ TION. T H E N FORC E D THEM OPEN. T H E N IG G E R GAVE A SHORT CRY. FOR RIDER BENT HIS LEGS. TH I S WAS N A TU R E TDO. S N I F F E D AT MY ASSHOLE. E N T E R E D NATU RALLY I NTO THE HORROR OF IT-FOR AFTER A L L. . M ENT T H E A N I M A L BEGAN TO KICK U P T H E SAND SO VIOLE NTLY THAT I WA S SOON COV E R E D WITH IT. T H E R E WAS A NOTH E R FLASH.THAT HEAVY CHEEK. W H Y D I D I H A V E T O L E A R N S O C R U D E LY THAT A M E M BERS T O STICK O U T O F TH E I R F U R R Y P L U N G E BACK I NTO T H E M . I S H EATHS A N D T H E N DOG IS WORTH A P RI EST . THE ANIMAL HESI­ I WAS E RECT. M A ST. THE FIRE HAD TO B U R N ITSELF OUT. A LT E R N A T E L Y C A U S I N G H O R R I B L E TH I NG. TH E DOGS. H I S BALLS J U ST ABOVE M Y EYES. U N DE R THE MONSTERS' B E LLIES I COULD SEE TH E I R J UT T I N G DEGREE LONG P E N I S E S WHOSE L E FT NO REDNESS A N D AS TO THE A N I M AL. A N D TH E N I HAD IN MY MOUTH THAT STR ANGE TH I NG . I R A I S E D MY H I PS TOWA R D S TH E I R M O U T H S . T H O S E R E PU L ­ S I V ELY T H I N M E M B E R S C A N S W E LL CON S I D E RABLY IN T H E H EAT OF ACTION O N C E T H EY HAVE ENTERED TH E I R R E C E PT A C L E .E N V E LO P E D SQUEEZED IT. I SAW T H E H I LT O F T H E DAGG E R SAND. IN AN ATTE M PT TO FORCE OPEN T H E F LAI LED VIOLENTLY BACK MY COCK ME. THERE WAS D I STANC E WITH I N M E W H I C H CONTA I N E D T H E H A L L OF M I RRORS WHERE MY S ELF-IMAGE D W E LT-A SHATTERED I M AG E I NTO W H I C H M Y FUTU R E B L E D I NTO THE PRESE NT. MOREOVER. THAT AND WOR K A N D M U C H T I M E A R E R E QU I R E D BEFORE TH E Y C A N W I T H D RAW. AND FORTH. DROPPI N G GOBS OF S A L I V A SPHINCTER. ONE O F THE TATED A S T H O U G H I N THOUGHT. STOPI" WRAPPED AROU N D P E N I S . T H A T I WAS PAST THE H IG H EST PITCH. T H E NIGGER G A V E ME A KICK TO S H U T M E U P AND T H E OTH E R DOG I N C R E A SE D H I S A R D E N T ATTEN­ TIONS: HIS DAMP NOSE SLIPPED B E TW E E N MY BUTTOC KS. H I S K N I F E F L E W TOWARD M Y G ROI N. I LOW E R E D M Y C H I N A L I TTLE. BALLS S L A P P E D AG A I N ST ME. SHAME. H E BEGAN PANTING. THAT S H A M E F U L M E M B E R . EXCEPT PLEASURE. AN A N C I ENT VOI CE W I T H I N M E C R I ED. I R E A L I Z E D HE W A N T E D TO F I N D A HOLE. AS TH E T W O DOGS PLAYED WITH M E . MY THE OTH E R ONE WAS IT. 0 1 0 WON D E R S .

T H E N M I N E BEGAN M O V I N G AGA I N : I T A L L A LONG IT. HE STOPP E D M O V I N G H I S TON G U E . FLA M E S E N V E LOPED M E : T H E 1 05 . M Y B A C K SCRA P E D AGA I N ST T H E S A N D A N D W A S TOR N O P E N BY T H E STON ES. TH E D OG T E N S E D H I S M U SCLES." I SAI D. BEC A U S E I T C A STRATES THE I MAGINATION AND T H E R EFORE IS A N OBSTACLE TO EXPERI ENCE. H I S TONGU E LOLLI NG. RESIGNED TO A REPLAY O F THE PREVIOUS SOON A S I PERFORMANCE. THE OTH ER O N E W A S TRYING TO NIP AT W H ITISH FI LAM E NTS DROOLING FROM HIS C H I N . SO BUSY WAS I I N S U C K I N G H I S T H I N G THAT SLID BETWEEN M Y LIPS AGA I N AND AGAIN. OR WAS H E GOI NG TO TEAR ME AWAY FROM MY LOVER7 I WAS A L R E A D Y EXPRESSING MY RAGE I N G R U NTS BECA U S E I COULD NOT PRONOUNCE A N Y WORD. I W A S THI RSTY A S THOUGH I HAD EATEN VERY SPICY FOOD. AND MY BODY. A N D EVEN THOUGH I WAS S UFFOCATI NG. E A G E R L Y A TT E N T I V E . AND IT WAS H E THIS TIM E WHO TRIED TO GET MY COCK H A R D. B U T S E E I NG T H A T I STI LL D I D NOT I M M EDI ATELY STA RTED OFF AT F U L L SPEED. MOV E D U P A N D D O W N S P R E A D I NG S A L I VA LICKING A N D TICKLING. MY H EA RT WAS I N M Y THROAT. DRAGGED M E BEHIND H I M. THE DOG SU DDENLY T U R N E D HIS BACK THERE WAS A G U T T U R A L C R Y A N D THE DOG ON ME.OUT MOVEMENT WAS WR ITING ON MY TONGUE THAT ALL DOGMA I S H ATEFUL. THE TWO DOGS W E R E STA RING A T M E : O N E WAS QUI ETLY SITTI NG T H E R E . HUGE WAVES WITH T H E I R BLACK WALLS W E R E H U RT L I N G T O W A R D ME A N D W E R E C R E A T I NG H I D EOUS HOLLOWS I NTO W H I C H W E W E R E GOING TO FALL. AND THREW ME VIOLENTLY I NTO THE SEA. ALL I COU LD FEEL WAS THE I NSANE T H ROB B I N G OF THE DOG ' S COCK IN IN MY MOUTH AND MY O W N SWO L L E N C O C K H I S M O U T H . WHEN O U R GLANCES M ET. B EC A U S E HIS TONGUE H A D M A D E SOM E PROGRESS. AND M Y TONGU E T H E B I TT E R . PICKED M E U P. I DID NOT MOVE FROM THE GROUN D. EVEN MORE F I R M LY T H A N MY K NOTTE D LIMBS DID. D R U GG E D BY MY OWN DESI RE. BUT AS W E W E R E A B O U T TO PITCH INTO THE FRAY. THE N IGGE R'S S H A DOW FELL UPON US. T H E DOG WHO H A D LATELY LICKED T H E HOLE I N M Y ASS S E E M E D M U C H M O R E EXCITED T H A N H I S COMPANION. T H E N T H E N IGGE R GRABBED M Y F E ET. HE CA M E U P TO ME. I N M Y MOUTH H I S T H I NG GREW ROU N D A N D SWELLED U P: IT W A S AS THOUGH M Y TONGUE W E R E FLAT ON THE G R O U N D AND MY JAWS WERE D I ST E N D E D TO F O R M T H E MOST STU PEFI E D 0 M Y LIPS H A D E V E R M A D E . A MERE C R E SCENT STRETC H E D BETW E E N TWO ORA L CAVITI ES. FROM T H E VERY H EA­ VENS. T H E DRI PPI NG M EATUS. BEGA N T O MOVE: I T E XPLOR E D T H E GLANS. THE N I GG E R SCREA M E D . A FLASH OF HATE GLI M M ERED IN THE N I GG E R'S EY ES: T H E DOGS TH R EW THEMSELVES ON ME AGA I N A N D KNOC K E D M E T O T H E GROUND. TWI NED THEM AROUND THE N EC K OF THE A N I M A L THAT I WAS SUCKING. THAT S H A DOW S U D D E N LY ACROSS THE T H RESHOLD! THE CAGE I S SO N A R ROW! M Y H EART I S GOING TO STOP. THE AIR IS ROAR I NG : I HAD NEVER REALIZED HOW L I K E A N O C E A N TH E A I R C A N B E WITH W A V E S CRASHING A N D ROLLING. A I R WAS ROA R I NG I N MY EARS. I D E C I D E D TO L E T M Y S E L F GO A N D T O ACCEPT T H E RITUAL. I BEGAN TO SUFFOCATE WITH MY NOSE B U R I E D I N H I S FUR: I WAS SUFFOCATI NG AND I MOV E D MY ARMS A N D LEGS LIKE A N I N E X P E R I E N C E D SWI M M E R WHOSE EVERY MOVEM ENT. THE N I GG E R M U ST H A V E B E E N WAITING FOR THAT M O M E N T : I H E A R D H I M C R U N C H I N G THE S A N D AROU N D M E A N D T H E N C H A S I N G AWAY T H E DOG WHO WAS BADG E R I N G T H E HOLE IN M Y ASS-AND WHO WAS LOATH TO LET GO. W R A P P E D ITSELF A RO U N D T H E G L A N S . M Y MAST UPRIGHT A N D SHINY W I T H S LI M E I N T H E SUN LIGHT. THE SHOCK OF THE WAT E R BROUGHT M E BACK TO MYSELF AND TO THE PRESENT. DOES NOTHI N G BUT E N S U R E H I S PERDITION. T H E A N I M A L'S HUGE KNOT THAT I HAD IN MY MOUTH H E LD M E FAST. TH E N H E SEIZED MY H A N DS TWI N I NG THEM AROUND THE C RO U P O F M Y R I D E R SO THAT I FOU N D M Y S E L F H A N G I N G U N D E R I T S B ELLY. I WASH E D AND SHOOK MYSELF OFF. BEATING T H E COUNTRY S I D E WITH H E R MONSTERS: THE CRESC E N T WAS BLACK ON HER B ROW. H EC A T E W A S T H E WRITING BECA M E U RGENT AND B E V E L B A R E L Y A P P A R E NT. A N D T H E LAST ONE WOULD· S U R E LY D ROWN ME. STA N D I NG VERY STRAIGHT WITH H I S LEGS A P A RT. LODGE D AGAI N ST M Y PALATE WAS A CARESS. BEHIND T H E M . A N D THEN C A M E OVE R TO T H E MAN A N D H I S A N I M A LS. I N STEA D O F STR I K I NG M Y MOUTH WITH THE TIP OF HIS BLADE. H E STARTED T O MOVE H I S DAGGER I N A N D O U T OF ITS SHEATH. A CARESS I H A D D R E A M E D ABOUT WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT TH E D R E A M M E ANT. WAS HE COM I N G CLOSE R T H E BETTER TO WATCH US. LEANED OVER A N D GRABBED M E BY T H E NAPE. I NS T E A D OF H EL P I N G H I M . "I WANT TO S E E TH E COUNTESS. A LONG S H U DD E R WENT THROUGH THE A N I M A L AS I T T U R N E D BACK TOWA R D M Y M O U T H . BUT A S H A D REACHED T H E DESI R E D STATE. L I FTED M Y LEGS. WHEN I REGA I N E D M Y S E N S ES. WAS BLACK A S WELL. T H E N IGGER WAS WATC H I NG ME.

S I NC E H E A P P E A R E D T O BE E X P ECTING A N A N S W E R. LARGELY W E LL­ PROPORT I O N E D E X C E PT FOR THE HEAD. B A T H E D V E R Y L E I S U R E LY. I N S I D E-OUT N A V E L. W H E N T R U DY'S C ROTCH B E A U T I F U L WENT TO POT. I DREW B A C K M Y L I PS AND SHOWED H I M M Y C L E N C H E D TEETH. BERNARD NOEL A N D YET M Y ASS. H E L I K E N E D HIS DESTI N Y TO A S H I P'S A N D M O R E O FT E N .R E ACT. A N D T H E N C A M E BACK T O THE NIGGER. T H I S IS A H A PPY TALE A S I H A V E O M N I SC I ENTLY D E C I D E D A N D T H E R E FO R E I T W I L L NOW E N D . I FELL FACE FOR W A R D ON THE " P L E A S E . TH E A N I M AL. SHE IS E X P E C T I N G YOU AND I WAS S E N T TO W E LCOME YOU. W H I C H I S T O S A Y (OTH E R TH A N THE OBVIOUS) THAT T R UDY'S SENSE OF B A L A N C E W A S E ROTIC I N T H E EXTR E M E. AS H E FO R C E D ME TO GRAB HOLD OF THE DOG'S I STA R E D STR A I G H T AT H I M AND DID NOT A N SW E R . T H E R E S U LT W A S A F R A N T I C E FFORT ON MY PART TO F U C K AS W E L L AS J E R K OFF T H E DOG . P E R FECTLY T R A I NED." SOM E T H I N G S TR A N G E HAPPENED IN MY B ELLY I W A L K E D STIFFLY A N D C A R E F U L LY TOWARDS T H E OC E A N . THIS HE WOU L D STRO K E . BUT YOUTH W I L L OUT.B Y E . BY-TH E . HE TU R N E D ME A RO U N D G E NTLY. H E H A D A S M ALL ANT F O R PET W H I C H H E K E PT I N A N OLD. S LOATE 1 06 . THE ANT DID NOT S E E M TO CARE. STU F F E D WITH A DAGG E R H A N D L E TRANSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE TRUDY OR THE S EC R ET A PH I D RUDDER. T H E A NrS T O A C A PT A I N·S. H E TRIED TO EXTRACT M Y ESSENCE OF M A N . T H E N I G G E R DEC I D E D T H A T I N E E D E D A H E LPI NG H A N D A N D . THE A N T WOU LD HAIRS GRAZE TH E N U PON HIS FACE EAR AND NOSE WORK SLOWLY DOWN TO T R U DY'S D. MY E S S E N C E S P U R T E D I N U N I SON WITH T H E A N I M A L'S WHO B R O K E AWAY HOWLI NG. FOLLOW M E ." S A N D . T H E MONSTE R I M PA LED H I M S E L F ON MY PENIS IN ONE R I NG QUICK OF HIS MOVEMENT ASS AND MY TIGHTENING THE A ROU N D STA LK. T H R O B B I N G COCK. IT RUBBED ITS H I N D-LEGS TOGETH E R D U L Y CONTE M PLATED F R O M D A W N T I L L STA R . THE N IGGER ST E E R E D MY C OC K "DO YOU WANT TO SEE THE COUNTE SS?" TOWA R DS T H E H O L E OF H I S FAVORITE'S ASS. A N D T H E N . TH I S HE M A N I P U LA T E A N D S T E E R A S THROUGH I T W E R E A N A P H I D U NTI L T H E J U I C E S F LOWED. C. I M M E DI ATELY B L A D E IN THE S U N LI G H T . HOLD I NG H I S D A G G E R B Y THE B L A D E . T H E N I G G E R H E LP E D M E T O M Y F E ET. SEIZED M Y COCK I N ON E OF H I S E N O R M O U S H A N DS A N D DRAGG E D T H E R U T T I N G DOG C LOS E R T O M E W I TH H I S OTH E R H A N D .R I S E . BUT SINCE AT I WAS N O T M A N I P ULATING TH E DOG TURNED AND DOG'S "TH E C O U N TESS WILL B E P L E A S E D TO S E E YOU. FONDLE. TRUDY H A D A CROTCH B E A U T I F U L. S O P A S S E D T H E N I G HTS A N D T H E Y E A R S . BACKED U P TOW A R DS M E AND LOW E R E D HIS H I N D E N D S O AS TO P L A C E T H E H O L E I N H I S A S S AT T H E RIGHT ANGLE. A N D F LA S H I NG ITS TH R E W M E D O W N ON MY K N E E S . STRETC H E D OUT ON T H E T H R ESHOLD OF T H E I N F I N ITE. R A M M E D I N O N E STR O K E T H E H A N D L E U P M Y ASS." PENIS A LL.TH E STA R E D Q U I ZZICALLY A T M E A N D TH E N A T H I S MASTER.F A S H I O N E D TOOTHPASTE TUBE. W H E N A LO N E . T H E N OTH E R S D I D. "YOU S H O U LD W A S H AGA I N . WHICH W A S REA LLY A CONVEX. HE GRABBED ME UNDER THE ARMS AND WAS THERE FOR A LL TO S E E . WITHDREW THE W E A PO N I M PA L I N G M E A N D POI N T E D A T T H E S E A : W H E R E CONTR A R Y F E E LI N G S O V E R W H E L M E D M E : A TE R R I B L E PA I N IN MY BATTE R E D ASS AND AN EQU A L LY T E R R I B L E P L EA S U R E I N M Y BALLS. P E R H A PS. OH.

C H I L D S E X .

S I LK C LOTH S B OU N D A R OU N D TH E I R C H I LD I S H AS IF PLATFORMS AROUND TH E ROOM WHERE HABITUES REC L I N E . A YELLOW CAT. CHOOSE HOT COALS AND ARRANGE TH EM WITH TONGS OVER THE D R UG. TA M P THEM DOWN. THE S I V E R P I P E CAFE-STA I N E D WALLS. ONE RUPIYAH PER PIPE.LONG BOATS FETCH AND CARRY BROWN I N TH E I R H E ES. FETCH TEA MEN AND C I G A R ETTES FOR THE OLD FLOWER-PATTERNED LUNG­ SOUTH E R N H I LLS-ONCE I N DE P E N D E N T S U L­ TANATE W H E R E THE M E N M A D E TH E I R LIVINGS AS P I R A T E S -S O M E GRAN DFATHERS NOW STI L L REMEMBER-I N THE I R LATEEN RIGS WITH REO SAILS OR B LACK. A C H I N E S E OR MOSLEM M E R C H A N T.TH E S I LV E R P I P E C A F E ORPHANED AT N I N E H E LEFT H I S VI LLAGE A LONE AND CAME DOWN ON THE AN C O A ST B E LOW TH E PIPE. AND SLEPT AT N IGHT IN TH E CA FE OR ON THE BEACH. A LONG SHED. MOTHS. FLUTE A N D GONGS. AT TEN HE FI RST LEA R N E D HOW TO SERVE THE CU STO­ MERS: THE OLDER BOYS TAUGHT HIM TO HEAT THE HASHISH OVER A BRAZIER TILL I T CO U L D BE W A I S T S -GO L D E N N A RCOTI Z E D . DISAPPEARED WITH 1 08 . H A N D I T OVER TO THE PATRON. AT FI RST HE F E LT NO I NT E R E S T SAVED IN TH E D R U G -BUT T H E R E M N ANTS AND OLDER BOYS U N B URNT C R U M B S A N D SMOKED T H E M . A N D W H E N THEY L I T P I P E S F O R C USTO­ MERS THEY I N HA LED AS M UCH AS THEY COULD. H UDDLED TOGETH E R OUTS I D E TH E BACK OF THE CAFE NEXT T O T H E D E C AY E O . LYI NG A QUARTER OF A MILE OUT IN THE S H A L LOW B A Y . FAC I N G THE SAND. LOW LATR I N E . TAK E A FEW PUFFS TO STA RT TH E SMOKE FLOWI NG. ARMS AND LEGS B R ACLETED WITH TI NSEL. THATCH-ROOFED AND ADVENTURER OR F A I L E D PRI EST. WITH THE T I PS H E E A R N E D H E C O U L D B U Y RICE A N D F I S H . THE DA N C E R S WERE WELL TI PPED. SHOPS TILTING OVER TH E GARBAGE I N THE CANA LS. I N T H E E V E N I NG S O N E O R TW O O F TH E M WOU L D DRESS LIKE GIRLS IN A SAC R E D DRAMA AND P E R FORM THE TRADITION A L DANCES. AT THE FAR E N D OF TOWN. A CRACKED STUCCO CATH E D R A L IN THE STYLE OF GOA OR MACAO. DARK S A I LORS WITH E A R R I NGS. WHITELY CURVED AND PALM L I N E D -THE TOWN: TI N-ROOFED HOUSES. TH E I R LONG C U RLS BRAIDED A N D C ROWNED WITH H EAVY WHITE FLOWERS. RADIO CRACK­ LING WITH GAMELAN AND C H I N ESE POP TUNES­ AND DARKLY S H A DOWED AS THE STAGE BETWEEN WAKI NG A N D S L E EP-A HYPNAGOGIC CAFE. FLYSPECKED CALENDARS WITH COLOU RED PRINTS OF GODS. TEA-POT SPUMES CAUGHT IN SLANTING SUN. D I SSOLUTE E U ROPEAN FROM TH E S H I PS TO THE BEACH. MOVI NG S LO W S H I FT I N G SLENDER H I P S TO T H E CRUMBLED I NTO LI ITLE PASTI LL ES-TH EN FILL THE BLACKSTONE BOWL OF THE LONGSTE M M E D S I LVER CANDLELIGHT OF D R U M . LIPS ROUGED.

MORE ELECTRIC THAN SILK AND DA RKER. AT THE DETE R M I N E D TO M A STER THE I R SKI LLS. AND KISS. AT TH IRTEEN HE DANCES IN A COSTU M E OF HIS OWN I NVENTION: A LONG LOINCLOTH OF LILAC­ COLORED SHANTUNG. PETE R WI LSON 1 09 . DOU B L E . AWAY FROM THE PATRON'S EYE AND EAR AS H E NODDED OVER HIS TEA-POTS-CE I L I N G FAN S STI R R E D THE A I R. R U N N I N G I T S G LOWWOR M TONGUE O V E R H I S TH I N L E G S . PIPE WITH OPALESQUE . M I RRORS. BLOOD H E WAS T H E PA LEST BOY IN THE CAFE. BY THE TI M E HE WAS TWELVE H I S EYES WERE ALWAYS LAZY. A PI RATE OF S E LF-A B U S E . FEARFUL THE OTH ERS M IGHT B E FEIGNING SLEEP. A M A N GAVE H I M A GOLD C H A I N FOR H I S N E C K IN EXCHANGE FOR A BOTH WORSH I PP E R A N D OBJECT OF WORSH I P. UNDER THE STA R I NG ROOF. BRIGHTER THA N A M BER. OWL'S W I N G S B R U S H H I S SHOU LDERS AND THIGHS. DERVISH BOY. A N D H E TOO BEGA N TO STEA L GREEN FLA K E S FROM AND HIS C U STOM ERS. LET YOU R SARONG FALL OPE N . WATCHING IT GLITTER IN THE MATCH-LIGHT. HE AND HIS F R I ENDS WOU LD H U DDLE TOGETHER ON ONE OF T H E PLATFORMS. A B E LT OF CHASED SILVER.S E X E D S H A M A N CHI LD. M E LTING WITH I NTOXICATION -LATE SMOKE ENGLOBES H I S SPACE. INVADE SPERMY HIS AND VEINS A H U NDRED A N D S I X MOONS THEI R HE PULSING LIGHTS L I G H T. T H E MOON. E V E R Y D A Y H E SWA M I N TH E SEA. CENCE. T H E S K Y OPEN S A N D BETWEEN H I S LEGS T H E BLACK SILK CHAFES HIM TI LL H E TH ROWS I T OFF-THE S I LK. A N D TH E HASH I S H M I RRORS HIS PIGEON'S MOA N S. AND THE TROPICAL LIMBS OF SLE E P I NG BOYS. A WARM SLUGGISH R A I N SPATTERED THE DRY ROOF­ THE BOYS SMOKED. T H E MOON LIGHT K I S S I N G H I S FEET. BY ELEVEN H E D I SCOVERED T H E PLEASURE OF TH E PI PE. TOO I NSANE TO MOVE. BELLS ON HIS BARE A N K L E S A N D W R I STS. THE SILVER PIPE CAFE IS MADE OF M I R RORS-TAKE TH I S N IGHT FOR A N THE H A LF-B R E E D YOU R ACOLYTE F O R Y O U R LIMBS TANGLED TOGETH E R . A N D T H E SILVER HANDS D R I PPING FROM TH E STARS-NOW H E I S A D E VOTEE I N VENTED. LIKE YOUNG PYE-DOGS IN TH E SHADE-NIGHTB I R D S MOA N E D OUTSIDE THE CAFE. C U R L E D UP TOGETH ER AGAINST TH E D I RTY BOLSTE R S TO W H I S P E R A N D SLEEP. AS I F BY ACCIDENT.TH E I R A D M I R E R S A N D C A M E JEWE LS. N ECKLACES OF SEED PEA RLS AND J A S M I N E . BALANCING TH E COOL S T E M ON H I S K N E E . AND FILL ALL TI M E WITH THE PUBESCENT LIGHTNI NG OF A SINGLE PIPE. H I M S E LF: IN TH I S R E LIGION I HAVE HE IS BOUGHT A WATER E D BLACK OF HASHISH A N D LITTLE BOYS. AND THE I N K Y CLOTH SET O F F HIS PALLOR A N D THE H I NT OF GOLD IN H I S BROWN B A NGS A N D COFFEE-TINTED EYES-A N OLDER BOY TA UGHT HIM A TRICK: IF YOU WANT A BIGGER TIP. T H E N P R E T E N D N O T T O NOTICE BUT STAY NAKED FOR A FEW M I N UTES TILL YOU TIE IT AGA I N . A N D THE LILACS O F H I S H A NDS OPEN FOR YOU A CRACK BETWEEN EARTH AND SKY. FINGERS IT TILL IT WA KENS. OF C H INESE SI LK-WITH HIS WHITE C R ES C E N T MOON A GREEN PARROT PERCHED O N ITS CUSP. AND HE BACK WITH TOYS OR BUT THE H A S H I S H NOW K E E PS H I M AWAKE SOM E NIGHTS. HE SAVED COI N S N E W SA RONG F R O M A THI EF. H E A L O N E AWAKE I N TH IS ANDROGYNOUS C A F E . THE LAST FEW C U STOM E R S SLUMBERING D E E PLY. THE AGA I N. W H I L E YOU SERVE TH E M TH E I R PI PES. STILL ANOTHE R Y E A R OR TW O BEFORE H E M U ST BEGIN T O DEPILIATE H I S BODY AND U S E POWDER L I K E THE OLDER BOYS- E M BLE M . THE N I GHT STROKES HIS I N NO­ AT NIGHT.

.OV I N G M A N N E R B E R N A R D I DLI NG A LONGS I D E H I M PLAYS T H E R O L E O F TH E H A NDSOME YOUNG HOOD F R E E W H E E L I NG BERNIE ON HIS W H E E LS THEY'VE SOM E H OW WITHOUT E V E R DISC U S S I N G I T A G R E E D 1 10 ..COU NTESS L U L U TH R E E T I N Y N A V E LS S E E N TOG ETH E R A L L A LMOST A L I K E ONE M I N USCULE E M B EDDED WITH I N A BELLY TH E C O LO R OF DAWN ANOTHER E LO N G A T E D LIGHT OH YOU'RE TOO C H I C K E N WE'LL N E V E R A S K YOU TO C O M E A LONG WITH US AGA I N B E R N A R D SWUNG H I M S E LF L E I S U R E LY O F F HIS B I CYCLE R A N G T H E B E L L A LONG S I D E T H E G R I LLEWORK G A T E C A L L E D OUT I M PATI E NTLY TI M I D L Y AND A F A T B O Y H I S OWN A G E TH E TI N Y HOUSE THEY SLA N T I N G TH E E Y E OF A DOE T H E T H I R D BROWN TINGED WITH A M B E R FLECKS THE T I N I EST OF THE TH R E E B E LONGS TO WATC H I NG ME STA N D I N G ON THE CAME OUT OF RIVERBANK TH E OTH ER TWO D A I S I E S H EA D E D O F F TOW A R D T H E R I V E R F A T L U L U ON FOOT B E R N A R D BACK ON H I S B I K E ZIGZAGG I N G SLOWLY BACK AND FORTH OVER THE H U M P IN THE C E N T E R OF TH E ROAD WOBBLING P E R I LOU SLY AT TIMES R E A C H I NG UP TICK I NG M Y A R M P ! TS TH E Y G ROW S O V E R Y T A L L H E R E I N TH E M A RSHLAND BIG WHITE GOL D E N FLOW E R S S M E L L I N G OF PEE P E E SMELLING OF FLOWERS M A K I NG ME S N E EZE DOE'S E Y E B EC A U S E TH E FRONT W H E E L T U R N E D T OO SLOWLY MOV I N G TO THE L E FT THE RIGHT B E R N A R D TRYING TO KEEP THE BIKE B A L A N C E D SO HE WOU LDN'T W I N K S D I SAPPEARS W I TH I N A FOLD OF C L A U D E'S BELLY H E'S SEATED A M I DS H I P S FEET SPLASH T H E WATER T H A T COV E R S T H E TA R R E D B O A T BOTTOM DOE'S E Y E W I N K I N G B LI N K I NG W H E N E V E R HE LEA N S O V E R TO B A I L O U T MORE WATE R F L A TT E N S TAUTENS STRA I N S AMBER NAVEL EXE RTI ONS OF FA LL ON H I S A S S G I V I N G A FEW I DLE T U R N S NOW AND T H E N TO T H E P E D A LS T H E R E ST OF T H E TI M E C O A ST I N G F R E E WH E E L I NG TIRES ON GRAVEL E M ITTING A N AG R E E A B L E H U M M I NG O F H A PPY B E E S B E R N A R D H A D C A L L E D OUT H I T H E R E FAT C U N T WHEN LULU CAME OUT OF THE HOUSE WE'RE B E R NA R D'S TORSO A S H E HOI STS H I S A R M S H I G H C L U TC H I N G TH E HANDLE OF THE STER N OAR LOO K I N G L I K E H E'S ABOUT T O POLE VA U LT WITH I T SAILING OVER TO THE I S LA N D W A N T T O C O M E A LONG F A T C U NT? L U L U I S NOT R EALLY A L L THAT FAT ITS MOSTLY B E C A U S E OF Y A N N H E Y A R E N'T YOU COM I NG TOO S H R I M P? HE G E ST U R ES TOWARD M E TH E N TUGS Y A N K S U P H I S R E D B R I EFS S H I N Y M A T E R I A L CAUGHT P I N C H E D T I G H T W I T H I N T H E FUR ROW OF H I S A S S I S H A K E M Y H E A D T H A T BOAT DOESN'T B E LONG TO U S FACE HORMONES HIS ROU N D MOON MAYBE A N D H I S C L U M SY SLOW­ .

TU R N I N G TH I N G S SOME B E FO R E H A N D BUT DOESN'T S E E M TO MIND H E L I K E S SUCKING SO M UC H LITTLE GYPSY G I R L H I S GANG HAD BEATEN UP A N D TH EN GANG-FUCKED L U L U WATC H I NG BERNA RD H EY FATSO WANT T O KNOW SOM ETH I N G FATSO GROW H A R D MOVES H I S MOUTH N E A R E R G R A S P I N G FISHLI K E B E R N A R D SLAPPING H I M H A R D A C ROSS BOTH C H E E K S B U T LUC I EN BEGS I N S I STS NOSTRI LS TH I N K YO U'RE A R E A L Q U E E R C U N T FATSO YES Q U I V E R F LA R I N G W I D E LIKE A FRIGHTEN E D M A R E'S STI NK O F PISS STI N K OF S E M E N AND TH E N B E R N A R D I T E X C I T E S Y O U M A K E S YOU W A N T TO D ROP YOU R COOK I ES H U H S UC K I NG O F F A R E A L TOUGH G U Y LETS G O W I T H A F A T GLOBULE OF S P I T R I G H T I N LULU'S K I S S E R Y A N K S H I M BY THE H A I R S H OV I N G M OO N CHEEKS AND ALL HARD U P A GA I N ST HIS L I K E M E YOU' R E I N L O V E WITH M E A R EN'T Y O U YOU'D LIKE M E TO FUCK YOU UP THE ASS TI LL YOU ' R E GLISTE N I N G C O C K M A K I NG H I M S U C K S U C K A LL T H E WHILE BOTH SUCK FI STS POU N D I NG A ON LU LU'S SKULL WITH LEG C R I S S-EYED H U H LITTLE LATER H E LI FTS O N E SENDI NG HIS KNEE C R A S H I NG I NTO LUCI EN'S J A W Y E S O H YES WHO FALLS BACKWARD BLUBBERING FROM BLEEDING BERN A R D SHIT ON TH AT FATSO YOU R A S S I S TOO BIG TOO M U C H LI K E S HOVI NG M Y TOOL I NTO A T U B OF LARD O N E H U N D R E D POU ND S O F SHIT I N A FI FTY-PO U N D B A G THArS W H A T Y O U A R E FATSO FA I RY U N T I E D THE BOAT I TS M OO R I N G A N D S A I L E D OF L U L U R U N N I NG AFTER C L A U D E A N D M E W E D I DN'T F E E L M UC H L I K E TALK I N G W E J UST STA R E D A T E A C H OTH E R I M A D E A FULLY OH-LA-LA GESTU R E WITH O N E H A N D A N D C L A U D E GRABBED 1 1 1 .TO PLAY T H E S E RESPECTIVE ROLES B E R N A R D T H E CRUEL BUTCH TH I N G NUMBER L U L U T H E N E L LY YO UNG A D M I RATION YES S I M P E R I NG T R E M B L I N G W I TH A BIG FAT COCKSUCKI NG FA IRY THArS WHAT YOU A R E I TH I N K WHAT I ' D LIKE MOST I S TO SMASH YOU R UGLY FAT M UG IN C O M E OVER H E R E CLOSER I S A I D PUT UP YOU R M I TT S A L W A Y S I N ANTICI PATIO N I NS E P A R A B L E N O W E A C H OF TH E M N E E D I NG THE OTH E R TO C O M PLETE H I M SE L F IT WAS TWO TH R E E PLAY AT Y E A R S A G O B E R N A R D FI RST LUCI EN'S STORE THAT COM B I N ATION IN TH E C E NTER OF NO NO PLEASE STOP THATI WENT TO CAFE AND GROCERY TOWN AND LEFT A RO U N D TEN O'CLOCK L U C I E N WE CALL FAT LULU FOLLO W E D HIM OUT I NTO TH E BERNARD N E V E R TOLD A N Y OF U S AOBUT IT AND I N THE ST R E E T WHEN WE ARE ALL STROL L I N G STREET G R A B B E D H I M O N E A R M A R O U N D THE N EC K K I S S E D H I M WETLY AS A WAY O F S A Y I N G GOOD NIGHT BERNARD OF COURSE SHOVING HIM AWAY AND ROA M I N G TOGETH E R A N D W E H A P P E N TO PASS B Y FAT LUC I E N H E A LWAYS TURNS H I S E Y E S A W A Y B U T C L A U D E A N D M E A L L THE S A M E WE SAW TH E N O N THE ISLAND WE'D G O N E T H E R E O U R S E LV E S TO D I SG U STEDLY W I P I NG H I S C H E E K W I TH T H E B A C K OF HIS HAND N E V E RT H E L E S S FOR THE N EXT NIGHT LULU F I N I S H OFF O U R LOOT STRING B E A N S IN TOM ATO SAUCE A CAN OF CONDENSED M I LK A BOX OF BERNARD SEEMED WAS B A C K MORE BECAUSE TO POS S E S S O N E O F E V E R Y TWO E V E R CHEESE C R A C K E R S I'D J U ST P I N C H E D FROM T H E M A D E PLUS TH A N K S TO H I S FATH E R A L L T H E C A N D Y A N D S O D A P O P TOO LULU R E M A I N E D T H E R E THAT N IGHT U N MOVI NG STA N D I N G BY THE CAFE DOOR TA I L GROCERY WE R E A LLY LOVED PAC K I N G I T I N T H E TWO OF US B U LLSHITTING Q U I ETLY AND TH A T ONE T I M E WE H E A R D T H E M BOTH THEY W E R E V E R Y N E A R U S B E H I N D SOM E B U S H E S B E R N A R D LEA N I N G AGA I N ST A T R E E H I S H E A D H I DDEN BY LEAVES A N D LUC I E N O N A L L FOU R S B E R N A R D BREAKS OFF A B R A N C H HI NGING DOWN AND SWATS LULU'S SHOU L D E R S SI LENTLY WATC H I NG BERNARD jiP E E D OFF LIGHT C L I M B I N G U P U P A N D OVER T H E R I S E I N T H E M A I N S T R E E T G O N E NOW NOTH I N G L E FT BUT N IG H T AND B L AC K N E S S HE AND SILENCE LULU'S MOUTH TREMBLING N O LONG E R EVEN TRIES TO KISS WITH IT TH E LEAVES SCRAPING FALLING L I K E R A I N TH E N BERNARD RAINS TOO plSSES A LL OVER B E R N A R D BUT TH E Y S HOW T HE I R COC K S T O E A C H OTH E R J U ST LIKE ALL THE OTH E R G U YS AND LULU'S F A C E W H O L E A PS U P TRYING T O E SC A P E B U T B E R N A R D I S TOO QUICK G R A B B I N G H I M B Y T H E SHOULDER FO R C I N G HIM TO K N E E L O N C E M O R E BERNARD LETS H I S O W N BE S U C K E D O F F SOM E ­ T I M E S WHICH A LWAYS C A U S E S LULU TO G E T TOO RED IN TH E FACE BERNARD OF COU R S E N E V E R LULU F A T L U L U P I S S STILL STR E A M I N G DOWN H I S CHEEKS W H I L E B E R N A R D STARTS P U M P I NG A W A Y ON H I S O W N M A CH I N E GETTING M O R E A N D M RO E TOUCH E S L U L U D O W N TH E R E H 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A S S ED TOGET H E R THEY M I G H T FUCK THAT HOT A S S O F Y E A H WELL NO NOT REALLY S H E Y A N K E D H E R S K I RT UP O V E R H E R W A I ST H E R S H E KEEPS TALKING A BOUT I T T O M E OH TH E I R E Y E S T H E I R H A I R I DON'T THI N K HE'S PRETENDING EITHER HE REA LLY SEEMS TO FEEL THAT WAY STA R I NG A T TH E M TH E WAY YOU M IGHT EYEBALL SOM E MONUMENT SQU A R E TO THE WAR DEAD IN SOM E WHO BUT YOU D I D GET TO S E E H E R PUSSY DIDN'T YOU? V I LLAGE I T S THE OLDER BROADS EXCITE H I M MOSTLY TH E ONES OF OUR OWN AGE DON'T EVEN HAVE R E A L TITS YET THEY J UST STI KE POSES GO A RO U N D ACTI N G COY A N D GIGGLING TH R E E BOYS C ROSS IN A GREEN AND BLACK BOAT HERE WHERE THE THE RIVER BROADENS THERE BEFORE WH E R E IT REACH I NG DARK FOREST W H I L E T H E BIGG E R O N E S ARE A L L TOO FLESHY WITH SWOLLEN H A U N C H E S B I G HAMS CHEWING ON TH E I R C U DS L I K E STU P I D COWS V I C I O U S DEPRAVED HUGE RED MOUTHS AND H I G H H E E LS M AYBE ITS TH E I R STI N K THAT ATTRACTS C L A U D E THAT HE KNOWS H E'S VERY FEMALE L A P S LAZILY A R O U N D A T I N Y I S L A N D COV E R E D ALL OVER WITH U N DERBRUSH C H ESTN UT TREES T H E B L O N D BOY A N D TH E YOUNGEST K I D A R E N O T F R O M THE VI LLAGE THEIR D E L ICATE FINE FEATU R E S GRACIOUS OBVIOUSLY MANNERS THEY A T T E S T TO T H A T Q U I T E TO THAT P R I V AT E S M E L L S I NC E H A N DSOME B E LO N G THEY REA LLY SEEM TO S H A K E HIM NEVER STOPS TA L K I N G UP A LOT H E ONE I N STITUTION T H E C HATEA U T H E TWO BIGGEST A R E A BO U T TWELVE W E A R I NG B R I G HT L Y C O LO R E D A BO U T T H E M A FT E R N OO N B E R N A R D F I N A LLY M A NAGED T O L U R E ONE OF THEM I NTO THAT SHANTY BY THE SAWM I L L THEY MADE ME STA N D OUT BY TH E DOOR A S B R I EFS W H I L E T H E TH I R D I S N O MORE THAN TEN TORSO NUDE A LSO BUT DOWN B E LOW H E SPORTS BLACK VELVET K N E E B R E E C H E S R E M N A N T S OF LOOKOUT I COULD H E A R T H E G I R L LAUGH A LOUD SC R E E C H MAKING FUN OF THEM ALL TH E N SOM E E L E G A N T E IG H T E ENTH-C E N T U R Y COSTU M E F A L L I N G DOWN LOOSELY FROM H I S H I PS FOR WANT OF A B E LT WHITE ELASTIC BAND O F H I S U N D E R ­ COM P LA I N THEN MOAN T H E N S U DDENLY BECOM E S I LENT SHE WHISPERS F I N A LLY OH STOP THATI AND THEN SHE WHISPERS AGA I N OH YOU'RE GETTING M E A L L HOT A N D W E T DOWN T H E R E LOVERBOY WHAT A LITTLE PIG YOU A R E I A N D THEY A LL LEFT BEFORE SHE DID BERNARD HAD NOT SHOT OFF I NOTICED THAT RIGHT AWAY NOR LULU SO THAT LOVERBOY PIG STUFF MUST HAVE BEEN FOR CLAUDE ALL TH E S A M E HE DOESN'T EVEN H A V E H A I R DOWN AROUND T H E R E YET SHE WAS FAT F R I ZZY R E D HAIR STI C K I NG OUT EVERY WHICH WAY STI N K I NG OF SWEAT GREEN CHECKERED S K I RT NOSE A L L D O TT E D WITH S H O R T S P E E K I N G OUT H E R E A N D TH E R E W H E N E V E R H E W R I G G L E S H I S B UTTOCKS W E WENT TH E R E A LL FOUR OF US LULU I N C L U D E D B E R N A R D NO L O N G E R M A KES A N Y BON ES A BOUT THAT H E'D TOLD U S LULU'S A FAT CUNT BUT YOU CAN ALL FUCK HIM IF THAT SORT OF T H I NG I NTER ESTS YOU LULU WON'T M I N D HOW M A N Y A S F O R M E I'M D I SG U STED W H E N C LA UD E A G R E E S A N D W H E N THE TI M E C A M E H E BROUGHT WITH H I M FROM T H E C H ATEAU A B I G SACK W E J U M P E D I NTO T H E ROWBOAT A N D H I D OUT ON THE I S L A N D T H E BLACKHEADS STUM P Y D U M PY LEGS A SIC KLY GRAY 1 12 .TH E TIN OF CON D E N S E D M I LK FROM ME PUCKERING HIS LI PS AT THE HOLE SUCKING IT A LL UP F I NA LLY WI PED HIS MOUTH C L E A N A N D S A I D QUITE CA LMLY ITS NOT A VERY PRETTY SIGHT HIS COCK. COLOR A N D H A I RY TOO BIG BROWN B L E M I S H ON ONE A R M A N D SHOES WITH HOLES I N TH E M SHE WASN'T E V E N PR ETTY BUT S H E WAS YO UNG AT LEAST A N D SO I D I DN'T D A R E A S K C L A U D E TO TELL M E WHAT H A D H A PP E N E D WE BOTH TOOK THE ROAD B A C K THAT W I N DS T H R O U G H T H E OPEN M E A DOWS UNTIL I T A T FI RST WE KNOW ONLY B E R N A R D NO OTH E R GUYS FROM THE VI LLAGE H E STOLE W I TH US POI NTED OUT CHICKS THE ONES YOU C O U LD COP A QUICK FEEL FROM BRAGGED A LOT A BOUT B E I NG A REAL COOL DUDE NOBODY L I K E S H I M VERY MUCH TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH WE LISTEN TO H I S STOR I E S BUT HAVE A H U NC H THEY'RE ALL A C ROCK OF SHIT ESPECIA LLY ALL THAT ABOUT HOT-ASSED C H ICKS IF YOU ASK M E WE'LL N E V E R GET T O S E E 50 M U C H A S ONE HOT ASS BELONG I NG TO ANY OF THEM I D I D N'T MUCH CARE A N YWAY I H A D ENOUGH TI M E FOR THAT LATER ON AND BESI DES I'M HOPED TOWN ALREADY I N LOVE BUT CLAUDE FIX H IM U P WITH SOME BEAUTY AND BUT SHE GOT B A R E-ASS E D DI DN'T SHE? K I C K I NG U P C H A LK Y DUST H E STA RTED W H I STLING 50 G ETS TO THE LANE T H AT LEADS UP TO THE C H A T E A U THAT'S WHAT THEY A L L CALL O U R HOUSE AROU N D HERE T H E C H ATEAU I FINALLY DARED WAS IT FUN? CLAUDE S H R UG G E D S P E A K I NG I N A VOICE MORE SERIOUS THAN USUAL I D I DN'T ENJOY I T A L ALL SHE'S A F U C K I N G H ALF-WIT HE R E A LLY SUCKED US IN THAT BERNARD CLAUDE WAS NO LIAR HE DI DN'T E M BROI D E R T H I NGS A N D SO I LISTE N E D B E L I E V I NG BERNARD COULD WHORE SOME H O T .

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TH E OUTS K I RTS OF THE V I LLAGE A N D OPENED H I S F L Y LOOK I NG O V E R H I S SHOULDER A L L T H E WH I LE TO M A K E S U R E NO C A R WAS COM I NG COV E R I NG B EC A U S E HIS FACE SUCH A B UT NOBODY LAUGHED ANYWAY HE'S S I LLY ASSHOLE FOR B E L I E V I N G I N LETS PRETEND A N D B E R N A R D L I FT E D U P THE H E M O F H I S GOWN HEY COUNTESS STA N D A LONG S I D E ME H E R E AS IF WE'RE BOTH J U ST TA K I N G A PISS YOU'RE BARE-ASSED UNDER YOUR S I LK DUDS YOU'VE GOT S U C H A F A T A S S COUNTESS I T LOOKS SUSPICIOUS TO ME I ' L L WAGER THATS W H E R E T H E I F E E L LIKE PISSING A N YWAY SO H E LOWE R E D C A PT A I N ' S T R E A S U R E CO UNTESS LULU ON I S H I DD E N I A N D H E SLAPS BOTH BUTTOCKS DEAR ME H I S B R I EFS A B I T W H E R E THE FLY G A P E D BUT NOT ENOUGH TO R E V E A L HIS PRICK AND I STAR E D DOWN SOME HAIRS YES A LITTLE CURL TO THE L E FT D E A R M E SAYS C L A U D E COULD B E COULD B E A N OTH E R TO T H E R I G H T BUT A LMOST NONE IN T H E M I DDLE I F I N I S H E D PISSING I WANTED SO BA D THEY C O M E U P A LONGS I D E THE ISLAND A N D T H E BLOND B O Y L E A PS OUT OF THE ROWBOAT T O M OO R IT F I N A LLY T H E OTH E R TWO FOLLOW I N TO T H E UPWARD ALL ALL TH R E E TO TOUCH IT BUT H E S I TATED STRUGGLING TO S E E IT BETTER I SA I D IF M A Y B E YOU COULD J UST FLUFF I T OUT A BIT D I S A PP E A R I NG BIRDS TO FLY UNDERBRUSH CAUSING CAWING OF SC R E E C H I N G THEIR GAME D R OW N I N G WHAT? W I T H J U ST U S TWO HERE? YOU OUT SOU N D A LTHOUGH T H E I S L A N D I S E XT R E M E LY S M A L L A LMOST AT T H E S A M E TI M E A S E C O N D B O A T MOVES OUT FROM T H E STEEP R I V E R B A N K TH I S TIME O N THE TOWN SIDE IT A LSO CARRIES THREE BOYS ALL KNOW YOU CA N'T COME YO U'RE NOT OLD E NOUGH YET NO I CAN'T S H OOT ANY J U I C E BUT I CAN STI LL ENJOY TH E FEELING TH R E E NAKED TO TH E W A I ST A LL TH R E E T H E S A M E AGE A S THE F I RST G R O U P B U T TH E I R C R A FT I S DEC K E D O U T T O LOOK L l E K A S A I L BOAT A N OAR STA N D I N G UP A LMOST BY A STRAIGHT IN ITS CENTER TH E BUT LOOK WOULD YOU OH ALL RIGHT T H E N I D I D N'T R E A LIZE H E R E TELL ME SOM ETH I N G F I R ST H E LD STAYS IN OF PL A C E A TW I N E R E P R ES E N T I NG PIECE OF MAST SQUA R E POLKA B LACK TO SAY YES IF FOR E X A M PLE SOM E B I G GUY ASKS TO FUCK YOU UP TH E ASS TH E R E ARE BIG GUYS BACK AT THE HOUSE L I K E THAT YOU KNOW THEY WANT TO DO IT TO THE LITTLE O N E S ALL TH E TI M E C LOTH WITH WHITE DOTS N A I LE D A N OTH E R BLACK TH R E E STIC K SET C ROSSWI S E U PON THE O A R B E I NG PIRATE COLORS A L L THE SAME AND WHITE S PO R T I N G KNOTTED BANDANAS A RO U N D OF M A TE R I A L NOW YOU' R E B E I NG DI SGUSTING UH BEC A U S E PLUS A THEIR ONE FOR E H EADS EYE B E LTS BLACK P A TC H OV E R U H B E C A U S E WOULD YOU U H D O IT? B U LG I N G WITH WOODEN W E A PO N S K N I V E S S A B E R S N E V E R U S I N G T H E S A I L A C T U A L L Y F O R S A I L I N G BUT NO IT WAS ON WHO WELL E R THAT A L L DEPENDS ON WHO TWO OTH E R OA RS I N ST E A D VEERING TAC K I NG TH E M A N Y C H A N G E S OF D I R ECTION SUGGEST I N G A LONG VOYAGE ACROSS P E R I LO U S SEAS AS THEY RUN U P A N D DOWN TH E LENGTH OF T H E BOAT C A L L I N G OUT SOM E TI M E I M IG H T I T ER A LL DEPENDS YES M A Y B E M E TOO YES NO NO I DON'T THINK SO B UT J U ST THE SAME V A R I O U S COM M A N DS THAT TH E W I N D ON TH I S LATE A FTE R N OO N COUPLED WITH THE GUSH OF R U S H I NG RIVER CARRIES AWAY R E N D E R S I ND I STI NCT A N D TH E N LETS GO OV E R TH E R E H U H H E POI NTED FLE ETI NG A T THE CARCASS O F AN A UTOMOBILE A B A N DON E D ONLY TH E BODY STILL I NTACT THERE WAS A S H A R P TU R N I N G I N T H E ROAD L E D STRA IGHT DOWN T O TH E R I V E R I T D I D N'T H A V E S E ATS A N YMORE NOR DOORS EITHER BEHIND WE LAY DOWN IN THE TALL G RASS RIGHT IT I HAD TO BE CAREFUL BEC A U S E OF WHAT? STRETC H THEY STOPPED ALL THREE O F THEM BESIDE THE HOLE I N WHICH T H E B U R I E D T R EASU RE LAY OH MY POOR D E A R DEAD FATH E R M U R D ERED SO V I LELY SAID LULU SOB B I N G QUITE S E RIOUSLY BOTH H A N D S B U T WITH G I R LS DON'T YOU KISS F I RST? S I N C E W E ' R E DOI N G T H E S A M E TH I NG NOW? AND HAVE YOU LOST ALL YOU R MA RBLES? YOU RSELF OUT LENGTH W I S E THAT WAY M A Y B E I F WE COULD K I S S F I R ST H U H S P R E A D YOU R CHEEKS W I D E R N ETTLES BUT T H I S T I M E T H E Y D I DN'T S E E M TO STI NG YOU WERE A SECOND AGO 1 14 .

AFTER THEY REACH THE I S L A N D AND DISEMBARK THEY PULL TH E I R BOAT U P L I FTI N G A ONTO TH E NA RROW FIRST OF ALL Irs BOATS NOT CARS I ' M I NTERESTED IN STRA NO OF S A N D FOURTH OCC U PANT Irs YOU LOSS PUT YO U R PANTS BACK ON TH E N WHO HAS UNTI L NOW B E E N HIDDEN I N TH E BOTTOM BODY BOUND AND GAGGED A TINY GIRL LO NG BLACK TRESSES DA R K BROWN S K I N TH READBARE C LOTH E S AND HARDY TO IF A E M ACI ATED GYPSY HER BODY LONG Y O U MEAN WE'RE LEAVI NG? PROCLA I M I NG C A LICO S H E'S S K I RT HER HAS BE BEEN RI PPED OFF IN A EARLI ER TH I N K IT OVER CAREFULLY MY FOU R RACING CARS PLUS TH E TRACK TH ING ELSE TOO WANT AND I'LL GIVE YOU SOME­ CLOTH ED NOW ONLY FI LTHY GREEN SWEATER A N D BADLY TORN B LOO M E R S SALLOW­ AND WHOSE LACE ROUG H LY THEY ALL THE TRADE-SPITS YOU BROWN FROM TOO M UC H WEAR TR I M M I N G U N R A V E LS TH E MORE HANDLE H E R I NTO A S E R I E S O F STRINGY FESTOONS F L U TT E R I N G DOWN U PON HER THIGHS LIKE YOU CAN SHOVE YOUR STUPID RACING CARS BUT WHArs A TRADE-SPIT? J ELLYFISH TENTACLES T H E GROUP SETS OFF DUMB ASSH OLE Irs WHEN TWO PEOPLE KISS IN A M A RCH THICK U N D E R B R U S H C LOSING B E H I N D TH EM W I T H A R U STLE OF R E E D S EACH OTH E R BUT WITH THEIR MOUTHS OPEN ALL THE WH I LE AND USING TH E I R TONGU E ALL R I G H T L E r S SAY I DO K I S S Y O U B U T JUST ONCE AND ONLY ON ONE CONDITION WHOSE TONG U E ? WHArs THAT? BOTH TONG UES ASSHOLE INSIDE EACH OTH ER'S MOUTHS YOU RS AND M I N E I F YOU'D L I K E THAT YOU SUCK ME OFF IN EXC H A N G E U G H TH AT SO UNDS D I SGUSTING OH NO THArS NOT FA I R YO U'RE A R E A L BASTARD YOU ARE THEY A PPLIED A SCA RF OVER T H E GAG COV E R I NG Irs NOT DI RTY TO SUCK HON EST I'VE DONE IT H E R MOUTH AND ONE OF THE TH R E E BOYS CAME CLOSER A N D CLOSE R FEELING TH E LITTLE V U LVA G ROWI N G YOU? WHO WITH? WITH SI MON MAYBE? MORE AND MORE EXCITED BY HIS COULD MAYBE TRY I T J U ST ONCE STI LL TO SEE WE MYSELF EXPLORATIONS BUT ONE O F TH E OTH E R TWO SAYS NO Irs R E N E WHO'S TO TAKE HER C H E R R Y A FTER ALL IT'S R E N E WHO FOU ND H E R FOR US A N D THE YOU'RE N UTS YOU K NOW THAT? NOBODY HOME BUT THE CLOCK A N D THArS STOPPED I F YOU SAY YES I'LL GIVE AW COME ON BOY N A M ED RENE NODS UNBUTTON S HIS PANTS LETS H I S B ELLY DROP DOWN OVER THE BELLY OF THE LITTLE GYPSY WHO BEGINS TO STRUGGLE EVEN MORE STRONGLY YOU MY FOUR RACING CARS AND TH E E LECTRIC TRACK THAT GOES WITH TH EM I'M NOT J UST LENDING T H E M TO YOU EITH E R I'LL GIVE TH E M T O Y O U OUTRIGHT HON EST YOU'RE THE ONE WHO AGREED TO IT R E M E M B E R ALL TH E TRA DE-SPITS I W A N T A LL R I G H T GO A H EA D THEY UNTIED TH E LITTLE G I R L G R I PPING HER BODY ALL TH E WHILE BECAUSE SHE HAD BEGUN TO NO SUCK ME OFF FI RST K I S S M E C O M E ON STRUGGLE YA N K I NG DOWN TH E R E WAS THE ROTTING HER B E I G E BLDOM ERS H U LK OF A BOAT ITS OUT RUN SHIT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S ACTI NG D U M B NOW I MIGHT F E E L MORE L I K E SUCKING YOU OFF IF YOU KISSED ME FI RST BOTTOM COMPLETELY F L A TT E N E D AGROUN D A LONG TI M E AGO D U R I N G SOME SPRING FLOOD TU RNED THAT C OV E R E D TH I S ISLAND T H E Y' V E IT OVER N O W A N D H A U LED IT I NTO THE BUSHES TYI N G T H E GIRL TO I T BACK A N D BUTTOCKS PRESSED H A R D UP AGAI NST THE OUTER H U LL LEGS SPREAD APART E X H I B I TI NG A V ULVA FLAT AND TINY AND F U RTH E R B E LOW THAT THE I NC U RVATE OH ALL RIGHT MOVE YOUR MOUTH CLOSER YOU WANT TO KNOW SOM ETH ING YOU'RE A REAL PAIN I N T H E A S S YOU ARE I C AN'T BELIEVE A N YONE C A N B E S O STU P I D AT LEAST W I P E YOU R MOUTH O F F FI RST SHADOW O F A N A N U S 1 15 .

YOU'RE DROOLING SPIT A LL OVE R M E H IMSELF OVER THE TINY BODY AND JERKED H I M S E L F O F F C L U M S I LY K E E P I N G ONE H A N D DOWN B E R N A R D DECLARED THAT COUNTESS LULU WO ULD HAVE TO SQUAT DOWN AND SHIT I N ORDER FOR THE R E BETW E E N TH E I R TWO CROTC H E S HOPING TO BE ABLE TO I N S E RT H I S THI NG AND SO I N TO BUT N E V E R HE F I N A L LY SAT THEM TO S E E WHAT S H E MIGHT BE H I D I NG U P HER HOLE BUT C LA U D E MADE A FUNNY FACE NO WE CAN TAKE A SOU N D I NG I N THAT WELL OURSELV E S O N E THAT WILL B E A LOT M O R E F U N B E S I D E S A N D S O THEY BOTH DREW FORTH THEIR COCKS KICKING QUITE S U C C E E D I NG HER TINY A S TR I D E FINALLY PRESS I N G T I TT l E S AND M A ST U R BA T E D OF HIS SEX E J A C U LA T I N G THE TIP AGAI N ST M A KI N G A WELL I N THE GAG COV E R I N G HER MOUTH THE UP AND DOWN P U M P I NG MOV E M E N T OF AGA I N ST TH E H I S F I S T CONTI N U A LLY S M A S H I N G C H I LO'S I N NOSE WHILE HIS SPERM LULU OVER I N TO A L E A P F R OG POSITION R A I S I N G H I S G O W N U P OVER H I S B A C K COV E R I NG H I S H E A D WITH YE LLOW S I L K W H I L E THEY FUCKED H I M THE BOTH OF THEM B E R N A R D F I R ST THEN CLAUDE AND A S FOR M E I WAS TOO E M B A RRASSED BEC A U S E OF THOSE BIG SOFT LARDY CHEEKS SO PALE AND SPLASH E D FORTH C O LO R L E S S BUBBLES S E E PI NG TH ROUGH T H E GAG C A R E F U LLY SCA R F THE N WIPED OFF THE THE T H I R D BOY STICKY B EG R I M E D WHICH P E R H A PS HER BELONGED T O H I M A N D ROUGH L Y BUT BETW E E N SQU I S H Y LOOK I NG I FO U N D I T S A D THAT C L A U D E COULD EVEN T O U C H L E T A LO N E WANT T O E N T E R TH E M A N D SO I SAT D O W N A G A I N ST A TREE A N D P E N ETRATED TH E T H I G H S LOOKED SOM EWH E R E E L S E PLUGGING U P M Y E A R S WITH M Y FINGERS S O I WOULDN'T HAVE T O H E A R ALL THOSE HORRIBLE SO U N DS THEY TAPPE D M E ON YOU ' R E C H E A T I N G Y A N N YOU' RE N O T S U C K I N G M E A T A LL LOOK S E E HOW I C A N STI LL PUT M Y ENTI R E F I ST AROU N D I T T H A T M E ANS YOU H A V E N'T E V E N TA K E N A L L O F TH E H E A D I NTO YOU R M O U T H Y E T TH E SHOULDER THEY WERE N'T PIRATE S ANYMORE L U L U STI LL H A D ON H I S S I L K GOWN BUT I T WAS YA N K E D EVERY W H I C H WAY T H E WIG FALLEN OFF AND THE H I G H .H E E L E D PUMPS AS WELL WE SET A BOUT D I GG I N G U P THE T R E A S U R E I LOVE COLO CASSOULET PORK AND SAUSAGE AND WHITE B E A N S ESPECIA LLY THOSE LONG THIN SAUSAGES AND THE ONE I LOVE A M I N LOVE WITH KISSED M E MY E N T I R E FACE LAY DOWN A LONGSIDE M E H E I SN'T E V E N P RETE N D I NG ANYMORE HE REA LLY E NJOYS IT KISSES SOFTLY G E N TLY MY L I PS SO WET AND SHAME W E D I D N 'T PINCH SOME M U STA R D AS WELL WE WON'T GIVE ANY OF I T TO LULU ITS HIS FATH E R W E STOLE I T FROM BUT THAT PIG C U N T WON'T D A R E SQU E A L O N U S FOR IF HE DOES WE'LL P U T H I S S H I N I NG WITH H I S LOVELY W E T S H I N I NG LIPS MOUTH HOT AND SILKY AGA I NST MY CHEEK I YANK OFF MY JERSEY SO THAT WE CAN FEEL OUR BELLI ES FATH E R W I S E T O A L L THOSE BOTTLES O F A P E RT I F S H E'S B E E N B R I N G I N G A S G I FTS T O B E R N A R D A N D THAT'S EVEN GOING TO G E T WOR S E NOW T H A T R U B B I NG SKI N AGA I NST S K I N T H E S U N I S A LREADY B E H I N D TH E TREES A N D TH E TALL G R E E N GRASS TICKLES M Y E A R S TH EY'VE BECOM E S U C H A SSHOLE B U D D I E S W H A T S WRONG OH ITS S O LONG YOUR C OC K I F I ' D BEEN I N H E R H U RT TOO M U C H ? Y O U LOOK F U N N Y DOES IT PLA C E I ' D H A V E LOVED GETTING I T FROM YOU BUT A N YWA Y I ' M A BETTER LOOKING BOY THAN S H E I S A G I R L DON'T YOU TH I NK? W E ' L L DO I T AGAI N E V E R Y NOW A N D THEN H U H Y A N N I DO N 'T KNOW A N YTH I N G ABOUT THAT I F YOU W E R E T W E L V E Y E A R S OLD YOU RS WOULD BE LONG TOO Y E A H BUT W H A T I F YOU M A K E A BABY I N S I D E M E ? so T H E N YOU'D RATHER H A V E H E R THAN M E ? A L L T H E S A M E S H E WAS A R E A L D OG T O L OO K AT Y O U ' R E B A TT Y A S A BEDBUG W I T H A G U Y THAT CA N'T H A P P E N B E S I D E S ITS NOT T HROUGH THE ASSHOLE YOU CAN'T COM P A R E THINGS L I K E THAT YOU MAKE A BABY THE M O R E WE DO I T T H E M O R E NO ITS I ' M A L L R I G H T RENE CLIMBED OFF THE C H I LO'S V U LVA D I RTY OH GOOD ARE YOU SURE EVEN WITH COV E R E D WITH M UC U S FOAM I N G S N AI L T RA I LS BUT SHE H ADN'T BELD ONE BROA D-ASSED ANOTH E R OF THE BOYS T H I S A N D B A NDY-LEGGED S P R E A D G I R LS? TH E S A M E 1 1 6 .

J U ST FOR KICKS W E TOSS O U R O L I V E PITS AT LULU A S W E BULLS H I T AND B E R N A R D A LO N E EATS ALL F I V E CANS OF S A R D I N E: S W I T H TOM A TO SAUCE AND T H E M A YONN A I S E MOPPING U P T H E R E M A I N S WITH H I S FINGERS L I C K I N G T H E M HE H A SN'T R EBUTTON E D H I S F L Y A N D I N T H E C ENTER O F H I S B R I EFS THERE'S A BIG STA I N OF WETN ESS SOM ETH I N G ROUND LIKE A R I N G STANDS OUT Irs HIS FOR E S K I N STRA I N I N G NO NOT THAT I L I K E IT TOO BUT ONLY BECAUSE I BECA U S E Irs YOU I ' M DOI NG IT WITH LOVE YOU FORWA R D THROUGH T H E F A B R I C L I K E A T I N Y HOSE NOZZLE: SHIT YOU'RE A LWAYS COM I NG OUT WITH STUPID­ ASS EO T H I NGS LIKE THAT FOR C H RI S S A K E S YOU SOUND LIKE SOM E SILLY CUNT O R SOMETH I NG M E E:VEN I F I TH I N K SUCH THI NGS I N EVER ALL RIGHT I'LL LET YOU DO I T TO ME TONIGHT ONLY YOU WON'T TELL A NYBODY ELSE PROMISE? BUT WH E N YOU FEEL THEM WHEN YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEBODY I PROM I S E B U T N O T TON I G H T RIGHT NOW I F I DO Irs OBVIOUS A I N'T IT SO W H Y DO I HAVE TO OR E LS E TAK E A W A Y YOU R COCK FROM M I N E 1 17 .THE:N LE:rS STA RT O V E: R A GA I N R I G H T NOW LI STEN DON'T SQUI R M SO MUCH YOU'RE G I V I N G ME: A H A R D TI M E I'M .JUST ABOUT READY TO COME A N D A FTERWA RD Y O U CAN D O WH ATEVE R Y O U W A N T A N D TON IGHT WE: C A N S U R E: WE CAN CLIMB I N TO MY SACK HAVE YOU'VE SHOT OFF? I DON'T FEEL I O U R S E LVE:S A BALL H U H T H E: T H R E E PIRATES H ELD A LONG CONSULTATION SQUATTING ON THE G R A S S A D I STANCE AWAY FROM THE R U I N E D BOAT W H E:RE T H E I R VICTI M R E: M A I N E D BOU N D MORE A N D G A G G E D THE: AND D I SC USSION GROWING UNTIL F I N A LLY THE SHUT UP I C A N'T CONCENTRATE IF YOU SECOND THAT'S I T OR SO MORE AND THERE ONE AH MORE CONFUSE:D N O W Irs M Y TURN MOST ROBUST O F THE T H R E E GOT UP AND WENT OVER AND RAPED THE: LITTLE: GYPSY ONCE MORE WHO B Y THIS TIME SCA RCE:LY STRUGG L E D TH E N THE OTH ER TWO I M I TATE:D T H E I R L E A D E R RENE B E: N T DOWN OVER THE ROPES WHICH C R I SSC R O S S E D T H E G I R L'S T I N Y B R E ASTS A N D SEEMED EITHER TO B E U NTYI NG T H E M O R ELSE MOVING THEM H I G H E R U P TO TIGHTEN A RO U N D HER AFTERWARD I'D L I K E T O DO I T T O YOU TOO NECK THEY S ET SA I L ALL T H R E E OF T H E M L E A V I N G T H E I S L A N D NO LONGER P LA Y I N G OH NO I ' M OLDER T H A N YOU SO I COULD HAVE A K I D I F SOMEBODY F U C K S M E Irs N O T T H E S A M E TH I NG AS WITH YOU YOU K NOW S P R E: A D YOUR CHEEKS WIDER CLAUDE I C A N 'T SEEM TO F I N D T H E HOLE BUT YOU .J U ST TOLD ME THAT IN T H E ASSHOLE STOP I T NOW BABY I CAN SEE I DON'T WANT YOU TO MAKE A YOU D I D N 'T TELL ME THE THAT'S YOUR WORRY N OW I CAN'T REACH I T YOU'RE A REAL BUDDY YOU A R E ONCE Y O U SHOOT O F F Y O U DON'T G I V E A D A M N WHOLE STORY B E FO R E OH S H I T Y O U N E V E R U N D E R ST A N D A N YT H I NG YOU DON'T HAVE TO WOR R Y I TOLD YOU THAT ALREADY W E L L W H A T D O YOU W A N T M E TO DO H U H ? GO A H E A D I ' L L H E L P Y O U B U T .J UST TH I S ONE TI M E TRY STICKING I T IN YES THERE Irs A LMOST I N NOW PUSH NO I DON'T BELIEVE YOU IF I C A N'T FUCK YOU AS WELL IT FURTH E R MAKE IT HARD SO IT WON'T K E E: P SLIDING OUT H E GIVES M E H I S POTATO C H I PS HIS NOUGAT CANDY I G I V E HIM MY RAVIOLI E XC E PT FOR ONE C A N A N D M Y S H A R E OF TH E C I G A R ETTES FROM T I M E T O TI M E DO YOU LIKE I T TOO C A N YOU F E E L IT? WHAT 00 YOU T H I N K I A M SOME HOT-ASSED C H I C K OR SOM E FAGGOT H U H ? DOES TH I N K I NG I M I G H T L I K E IT M A K E Y O U A L L H O T T O D R O P YOU R COO K I E S O R SOMETH I NG ? .

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STIN G I N G L. AN OL. E FROM THE FOR K TO THE PIPER P LA C E . W A Y S N E EDED A G U I DE T O F I N D I T .OOK I N G FOR T H E "YOU KNOW THIS COUNTRY PRETTY WEL. . M I L. W H I C H WAS A LSO PASSABL.Y FROM WOODS.ATE GRAY. .MS OF T H E HAND.Y ONE ROAD. "THEY C A N EVEN BITE Y O U ON TH E PAL." OUTS I D E .S A FT E R TH E M .ATE TOWN I N NORTH E R N CANADA.I K E S PA R KS O F F I R E . AND WOB B L. U S H B U R N I NG THE BACK OF HIS N ECK.K BOYS. T H E CL. " A N D THE B I G H O R S E F L. THEY S N I GG E R A N D G I G G L.L.OUDS TH EM AS PASSED. K E D T H E Y SWATTED AT D E E R F L.ERK I S A YOUTH WITH ON E E Y E SL. E A N D N U DG E B E TW E E N E A C H OTH E R A S T H E TWO BOYS P A S S T H E M O N T H E W A Y I N TO T H E TRADING POST.K A BOUT TWO M I L. THEY WEEDS AND BUSHES NOW BRUSHED CL. A S THEY W A L. I E S THAT L. I N G TH E I R R U B B I NG TH E I R THEY T U R N E D I NTO A N A R ROW FOOTPATH AND TH E SHADOW OF DEEP WOODS. O N E O F T H E L. B I RC H AND PINES.L." ADOL. AND KNEES FORTH UP. OF VORACIOUS MOSQUITOS TOOK OVE R 1 19 . .IT ON THEIR NECKS AND HANDS AND FACES.L. ITS A M I L.OCA L.L BE S E E I NG YOU. L. O N E CA L. • • :' P I P E R BROTH ERS.L.OW T H A T WAGON ROA D OUTS I D E . HE PUTS OUT HIS H A N D.. YOU CA N'T M I SS IT. FL. J U ST FOL.ING." A U D R E Y S A I D . WAL.D STE A M R A I L. THIS M U ST B E TH E T U R N OFF. . I E S CAN BITE TH ROUGH J E A N S.ROAD TAKES TH E M TO A DESOL. " ''THE C A B I N W E ' R E GOI N G TO STI L. W I L. W E A L.ATE AND CAP­ T U R E A POPL. A N D A MOU R N I NG DOVE COOED SOFTL.S A B L. A GROUP OF THE WAGON ROAD.TH E POPLI NG AUDREY A N D JERRY SET OUT TO I SOL. A TRADING POST. D "WE'L.L. BUT I H A VEN'T BEEN H E R E S I N C E I W A S TH I RTE E N. THE BOYS A R E S I TT I N G IN A U N E .ONGS TO M Y FATH E R . A U D R EY F E E L. YOUTHS TWISTS H I S H E A D T O O N E S I D E A N D RUBS HIS CROTC H . .ESCENTS STA N D I N FRONT O F THE TRADING POST.OWERS GREW B Y THE S I D E OF THE ROAD.OW G R A V E L. YOU TWO A R E L. BEL.L. T H E R E'S ON L. A FEW CABINS. AND C ROTC H ES. . TH E OTH ER BL.EANING AGA I N ST THE KNEES BACK WAL. R I G H TI WEL.ACK. WAS YE L." "I'M STEVE .ES A N D TAKE T H E PATH TO YOU R R IGHT.E FOR TRUCKS WINDING IN DRY WEATH E R .L.

P I N E F U R NITURE. WHICH WAS BLACK BASS O R WALLEYED PIKE WITH B I SCU ITS AND D R I E D FRUIT. H E KNEW THAT THE HOUSE WAS SET I N A GROVE OF PI N E A N D B I RCH A FEW H U N D R E D FEET A BOVE THE PIER. W E HAVE TO COME TO TERMS WITH T H I S TH ING. IT W A S JUST A S HE R E M E M B E R E D IT. H I S K E Y O P E N E D THE LOCK A N D THEY STEPPED I N TO TH E LIVI NG ROOM." TWO B E DROO M S OVER THE LIVING R O O M A N D A S M A L L E R B E D R OO M O V E R T H E K I TC H E N . WHICH WAS A LSO "WH E N CAN WE START?" " R I G H T AWAY. AT THE E N D OF THE DAY J E RRY AND A U D R E Y WOULD FALL ASLEEP I M M E DI ATELY AFTER SUPPER. SOME F I FTY F E ET I N HEIGHT. H E S H I V E R E D S L I G H TLY-TH E R E A BO U T T H E WAS SOM ETH I N G C H I LL I N G D E PT H S AND THE SILENT BLUE RUBBED CITRONELLA ON T H E I R FACES A N D H A N DS. SMALL W I N DOWS. THE MOSQUI TOS HOV E R E D AROUND THEM. TUR N I N G IT IN H I S H A N DS. AUDREY LOO K E D U P AT T H E B E A M S A N D REMEMBERED A N I N C I DENT T H A T H A D OCCU R R E D ON H I S LAST STAY H ER E . A U D R E Y DRI FTED OFF TO SLEEP WITH T H E STRANGE WILD MUSIC IN H I S EARS: THE P I P E S OF PAN. BUZZ I N G I N FRUSTRATION. TH E P I E R E N D E D I N TEN F E E T O F WATER. SOM E COPI ES OF ADVENTURE A N D AMAZING STORIES. S C R E E N ED. TH E R E WAS A N ICE BOX A N D A WOOD BIN. THEY STEPPED FINA LLY I NTO A CLEARING BY A LAKE. T H E TOOLS WERE STI LL TH ERE-SOM E L U M B E R. TH E MOSQUITOS FELL AWAY B E H I N D TH E M . THEY PADDLED FOR TWO HOURS." "WELL YES. T H E R E WAS A BATHROOM WITH R U N N I N G W A T E R A N D F L U S H TOI L ET A N D BATHTU B . I'M CARL P I PER. BRIGHT BLUE EYES." TH E OLDER BROTH E R . A U D R E Y L E O TH E WAY UP TH E PATH TO TH E HOUSE. H E DROVE HIS AXE INTO THE BLOCK A N D CAME OVER TO GREET THEM. P I N E P A N E LLING. B E H I N D T H E HOUSE W A S A W OO D S H E D A N D A N I C E H O U S E A N D A L O N G L O W B U I LD I N G WITH A B E A M E D C E I L I NG T H A T H A D BEEN H I S FATH E R'S WORKSHOP. MADE. H E LOOKED U P AND NODDED GRAVELY. T H E Y STO P P E D A N D CANOES G L I D E D OUT I N TO THE CLEAR BLUE WATER. W H I C H WAS F I LLED B Y A P U M P FROM T H E L A K E . A U DR E Y R E M E M B E R E D F I S H I N G FROM T H E E N D OF IT FOR ROC K BASS A N D YELLOW P E R C H . WAS SITTING IN THE OPEN DOOR OF TH E CABIN TY ING A FLY. LOW TABLE. THE OLDER PIPER WENT BACK TO HIS FLY. A BOOK C A S E WITH SOM E OF A U DR EY'S OLD BOOKS STI L L T H E R E . HE PUT IT I NTO A FLY BOX. A N D A COI L OF ROPE. T H E KITC H E N H A D A WooD­ B U R N I N G STOVE A N D P I N E TABLE WITH C H A I RS. HELD IT U P TO THE LIGHT A N D LOOKE D AT IT C RITICALLY. "YES. H E FINISHED IT. A D R U M OF KEROSENE. W H O WAS AROUN D TH I RTY.H U N D R E D-GA LLON TA N K I N T H E ATTIC. THEY TIED U P AT THE PIER A N D J U M PE D OUT." UP THE STE E P STA I R S ON THE WERE SECOND FLOOR TH E R E H E NODDED. HIS FATH E R A N D BROTH E R H A D ROWE D T O TH E OTH E R S I D E OF T H E LATE A FTERNOON ON T H E TH I R D DAY THEY C A M E TO WIDE LAKE A FTER A TH R E E M I LE PORTAGE. HE KNEW THAT T H E LAKE WAS MORE THAN A THOU S A N D FEET D E E P I N T H E M I DDLE. T H E R E W A S A BOI L E R T H A T C O U L D B E H E A T E D BY A S M A L L STOVE T O PROV I D E HOT WATER. BOTH T H E PIPERS H A D Y ELLOW H A I R. A N D AT SU NSET HE COULD SEE A H E A D A LITTLE PI E R AND A SANDY I NLET. ROLLED DOWN BY GLAC I E R S M I LLIONS O F YEARS AGO. WATE R FLOW E D FROM A TWO. WITH BACK-BREAKING PORTAGES EVERY FEW M I LES. T H E B A N K SLOPED STE E PLY F R O M THE E N D OF T H E P I E R I N TO C L E A R B L U E D E PTHS. A N D T H E R E ON A H I G H ROCKY BA N K OVE R T H E L A K E W A S T H E P I P E R C A B I N. WE KNOW THAT A N D THATS WHY. TWO P I N E C H A I R S ON TH E PORCH ." ALL P R E P A R ATIONS H A V E B E E N THE TRIP TOOK T H R E E DAYS.FROM THE BITING F L I E S . A N D C U RIOUSLY POI NTED EARS. YOU KNOW THAT A POPLING HAS A LREADY FOU N D YOU?" H E LOOKED AT J E R RY A N D A D D E D "BOTH OF YOU. A U D R E Y COULD SEE GREAT BOU L D E R S ON THE BOTTOM. AS THE 1 20 . WHO WAS ABOUT 20. WE'LL HANG I T A LL. THE YOUNGER PIPER. THE BOOK O F KNOWLEDGE. i F THATS WHAT YOU WANT. S H A DOWS O F THOSE BOULDERS. "YOU'RE AUDREY A N D J E RRY. A N D A STACK OF LITTLE B L U E BOOKS. "WELL. W H E N HE WAS THI RTEEN. "SO YOU WANT TO GO TO YOU R FATH ER'S COTTA G E AND F I N D A POPLI NG. ON THE BACK PORCH. A SC R E E N E D PORCH I N FRONT. WAS CUTTI NG WOOD." HE S A I D AT LAST. TH E PIPERS SAT U P D R I NKING COFFEE A N D P LA Y I N G ON T H E I R W OO D E N F L U T E S .

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A T I V E L Y F O R A M O M ENT. AUDREY I N TO W H I ST U NG T H R O U G H H I S T E E T H . ONCE I M M E D I ATE L. E J A C U L. AC K B E R R I E S . E D I N FRONT O F H i S E Y E S A N D H E W E N T O F F I N H I S PANTS. AND AUDREY FEL.VE M I N UTES I N CASES W H E R E T H E NECK IS UNBROKEN IS OR L. TH E R E WAS A RED MARK AROUND HIS N EC K .NOTS. SOME IN.OU I S .Y AFTER THE DROP W H E N THE NECK I S BROKEN AND ONCE J UST BEFORE T H E BL.ED A RO U N D M Y N EC K . H I S COCK AND L. P L. H E C A M E TO H I M S E L F LYI NG ON THE FLOOR. "TH E P R E S E N C E OF H U M A N BODI E S W I L L DRAW THE POP L. I G H T L.A N N E D T O N A I L. HARD HE STRI P P E D OFF H I S C L. J U ST B E FO R E WHEN FATH E R C A M E AND ASKED. A S S .OOD STOPS C I RC U L. A F I R E W A S A LR E A D Y B U R N I N G I N TH E K I TC H E N STOVE. SIDE FI S H I N G FROM TH E OTH ER OF A L.Y HOUSE IN ST. L A U G H OF A G L. FEEL T H E JERK FLAPPING ON THE TH R E E M I NUTES WITH THE N E C K BROK E N . T H E WATER WAS SMOOTH A S B A I T E D H I S HOOK THE BLUE A N D L. F B L.Y FEL. D M E D I C A L. HE WENT BACK TO T H E IN THE DAYS THAT FOLLOWED T H E Y FISHED A N D SWAM A N D H I K E D A N D C ANOED A R O U N D T H E L. T H I S G E N E R A L. T H E SUN WAS SETTING AC ROSS THE L.VER SPOTS BOI L.. HOW WOU L. H E WAS GOI NG T O JACK OFF. I T WAS A BOUT DEATH BY HANGI NG: A U D R E Y P I C K E D U P A S H O V E L A N D A C A N . H E SOME HOME PICK B L. REACHED U P AS FAR AS H E COULD O N THE LOOSE E N D OF T H E ROPE. L. KNOT B E H I N D HIS L E FT EAR. MAY HOWEVER. UNE S O M EW H E R E THE L.AC K B E R R I ES AND I FEL. A L L TH I S C A M E BACK TO HIM AS HE STOOD IN THE WORK ROOM WITH JERRY AND T H E PIPER B ROTH E R S AND GLANCED U P AT T H E B E A M .D A U DREY.Y O C C U R S TW I C E . ErS CATCH S O M E FISH FOR D I N N E R 1" "EJAC UL. BOOK H E FOU N D I N A T R U N K I N T H E ATTIC OF T H E FAMI L. AND A BRANCH GOT TANGL. AND P ULLED H I M SE L. T H I M S E L. A U DREY WATC H E D T H E M GO WITH A T I N G L. O N G A S SHOVE L O F D I RT TU R N E D U P T H I C K R E D WORMS. L. F U L. A U D R E Y COULD S E E T H E FISH PIER. H E COUL. HE WAS STA RTI NG TO GET A H A RD-ON AS HE R E M E M B E RED SOM ETH I N G H E H I S FATH E R L.OON. TH I S WAS A COM POST HEAP OF GARBAGE AND H U M U S F O R T H E W I LD F L.ATION IN YOUNG MAL. "SOO N E R OR L. Y FRACTU R E D . T A FEEL.'· L I E F TOL. H I S N E C K V E R Y SORE A N D A TASTE OF BLOOD I N H I S MOUTH. FROM AND VI BRATING W E I G H T ON T H E LINE. A T I O N THOUGHT TO R E S U L. J E R R Y AND A U DR E Y GOT TH E I R F I S H I N G PO L E S A N D W A L K E D DOWN T O T H E P I E R .AKE.MOST AT O N C E A U D R E Y FELT THE T U G O N H I S L I N E A N D P U L L E D O U T A O N E-POU N D ROCK BASS. H E A RT POU N D I NG.ATER HE W I L L SHOW H I MS E LF:' H O U S E A N D LOO K E D I N THE M I R ROR.D T A K E H I S TI M E A B O U T I T . H E F A S H I O N E D A H A N G M A N'S K N OT A N D THREW THE ROPE OVER A BEAM." THE P I P E R S W E R E B U S Y U N P A C K I N G G E A R FROM A U D R E Y WAS STA N D I N G U P AT TH E ATTIC W I NDOW WHEN HE READ THIS.ATION OCCU R TH R E E BROUGHT S T l L.AT­ ING AND THE H E A RT STOPS. U H I W A S P I C K I NG BL. A K E . WEL. HE BECA M E QUITE DIZZY. U S H I NG. H A D R E A D I N A N O L.E. OO K E D A T H I M S P E C U L. A N D SI L. A N D A S L. HIS FATH E R HAD AND EVEN CASES EJACU L. T H EY C L E A N E D T H E FISH I N T H E LA K E A N D C A R R I E D THE ENTRA I LS I N A P A N A N D D R O P P E D T H E M O N T H E COM POST H EAP. I N TWENTY M I N UT E S T H E Y H A D S I X R OC K B A S S A N D S E V E N Y E LL. L. F U P ON TI P TOE. EXPL. S W I N G I N G A FEW I NC H E S OFF T H E FLOOR.T P R E S S U R E O N T H E VAGUS N E R VE. THEN H E A R C H E D H I S F EET.A I N TOOK A IT TO H I S FATHER1 PA I L AND W E NT HIS HE GOT AN OUT TO IDEA. BUT THIS WAS NEVER ACCOM P L. I S H ED.L.OTH ES.E SUBJECTS D U R I N G H A NG I NG I S SO FREQUENT AS T O BE TH E R U L. S U N S ET "WHAT H A P P E N E D T O YOUR N EC K A U D REY1" H E W E N T OUT TO H I S FATH E R'S WOR KSHOP. A U D R EY S U D D E N L.I NG OF W E A K N ESS IN H I S C H E ST. O N G A S TW EL. U BRI CATI NG AS HE ADJUSTED THE SUDE WATER. BUT NOTH I NG MORE W A S S A I D . V I O L ETS OF THE AND IRIS FORGET-ME.OOK I N G UP AT T H E SMOOTH ROU N D BEAMS. BREATH T H E C A NOES.A N K S T O THE B E A M S T O FORM AN ATTIC AND STORE ROOM TO THE WORKSHOP. NOW W A S H I S CHANCE TO TRY IT. L B L. AND THREE G E ES E IN FLEW THE N O RT H D I STANCE IN V FO R M ATION.D HE 1 22 . M A Y P E R S I ST F O R A S L.OW PERCH. I N G. Y T H E SPOT TO DIG FOR WOR M S .L. B L OO D POU N D E D A N D S A N G I N H I S E A R S A N D T H E R OO M BLAC K E D OUT A N D H E WENT OFF. EVERY A N D SOM ETI M E S A S OFTEN CONSC I O U S N E S S A S FIVE T I M ES.OO M E D TH ERE. HASTILY H E D R E S S E D A N D U N D I D T H E KNOT AND COILED THE ROPE. " L. A K E TO F I S H . BUT TH E R E WAS NO H U RRY NOW. H I S FATH E R "WELL. E T T H E J E RRY TH E WAS PIER.OO K I N G U P AT THE BEAMS. " P L. O W E R G A R D E N AT T H E S I DE OF THE HOUSE.L. IN SOME TI M E S HE K N E W EXACTL.L. E OF A NTICI PATION IN H I S CROTCH A N D T H E P I T O F H I S STO M A C H . L.

. TU R N E D GREEN. " HE POI N T E D DOWN TO HIS TH E DOOR. AT FI RST THEY SAW NOTHI N G . A N D A N YWAY T H E WATE R WAS M UCH TOO COLD TO STAY IN FOR MORE THAN A FEW M I N UTES. AUDREY COULD S M E LL IT AS H E MOVED FORWA RD. I S U D D E N LY GOT HOT FOR SOM E REASON. AND A U D R E Y REA LIZED THAT IT F E LT EXACTLY L I K E SOMEONE WAS TAKING A P I CTU R E . SOM EONE OR SOM ETH I N G WAS L OOK I NG AT HIM. QUICKLY STRI PPING OFF H I S BELT AND P I N I O N I N G T H E CREATUR E'S A R M S . AROUND EACH OTH E R'S SHOULDE RS. A ND WAS EXACTLY THE COLOR O F TH E SAND. TRYING TO MAKE AS LITTLE NOIS E A S POSSI B L E THE BOYS DROPPED DOWN ONTO THE SAND BETW E E N TH E POPL I N G A N D TH E WATER. C A R L OPENED TH E DOOR AND TH EY C A R R I ED THE POPLING I NTO THE LIVING ROOM. THE FIGU RE S E E M E D A FT E R T H E Y H A D F I N I S H E D EATING. R U N N I NG TH E WATE R OFF TH E I R BOD I E S A N D S H IVERI NG. WATCHING TH E M WAS TH E R E I N TH E I NLET. THE PO P L I N G G R A B B E D A STI FFE N I NG P H A L LU S . A S M E LL OF FRYING F I S H C A M E OUT WITH HIM A S H E OPENE D "ME TOO. BOD I E S CONTRACTED. LOOK I N G ACROSS T H E LAKE. STI R R I N G SAND-COLORED PUBIC H A I RS. CRAMMING RICE A N D BISCUITS INTO HIS MOUTH WITH HIS HA NDS. LOOKING DOWN A S TH EY EJACULATED A N D AUDREY THOUGHT OF A PICTURE H E H A D SEEN I N PARIS OF A LITTLE BOY PISSING I N TO T H E WATER . A N D H E GAVE A LITTLE COOI NG GIGGLE THAT S E N T A SHIVER DOWN A U D R EY'S SPINE. THEY MOVED FORE W A R D CA UTIOUSLY AND PARTED THE BUSHES OVER THE I NLET A N D P E E R E D DOWN. I N A FEW SECONDS H E H A D P IC K E D TH E BON ES C L E A N . J E R R Y G LA N C E D DOW N . SO THEY SWAM C LOSE TO SHORE AND THEN C A M E O U T A N D STOOD ON TH E SAND. A U DREY. CARL BOLTED TH E DOOR . G R I N N I NG. STA LE F L OW E R S." LIEF CAME OUT OF TH E KITC H E N WHERE H E HAD "YEAH. A N D WHEN H E SAW H I S WAY TO THE WATE R WAS CUT OFF H E GAVE A W H I STLING SIGH OF FEA R. A U D R EY H A N D E D H I M ANOTH E R NOW HE KNEW THAT WH ATEV E R HAD BEEN PLATE A N D H E ATE THAT TOO. SOM E HOW A U D R E Y COULD N E V E R B R I N G H I M S E L F T O S W I M OUT I NTO T H E D E E P WATER. A T TH IS MOMENT A B R E EZE R U STLED ACROSS THE LA K E BETW E E N THE C R E A T U R E'S LEGS. IT S M E L L E D LIKE H UM U S . 1 23 . WHO WAS A R O U N D E A C H OTH E R 'S S H O U L D E R S . "FISH FISH FISH. WHERE LIEF HAD ALREADY LA I D OUT PLATES O F FRIED FISH WITH BISCU ITS AND RICE. TH EY CA R R I E D T H E POPLING S E V E R A L H U NDRED Y A R D S B A C K T O T H E HOUSE." THEY STOOD THERE WITH TH E I R ARMS ST I L L AUDREY UNTIED THE C REATU R E 'S ARMS A N D SET HIM GENTLY ON H I S FE ET. WEBBED FEET TRA I L I N G I N TH E WATER. AS IF THEY WERE HAVING A P I C T U R E TA K E N . A N D TH R E E G E E S E FLEW OVER. TH E G R E E N COLOR SLOWLY S U B S I D E D. "NE BUVEZ JAMAIS D'EAU" A S THE I R S E M E N SLASHED INTO THE WATER LIKE SALMON ROW. . ." BEEN PREPA R I NG THE EVEN I NG M E A L . T H E CREATU R E WAS LOOKI N G AT AUDR EY. H E AND ALMOST TRANSPARENT. TH E N A U DR E Y MADE OUT A FIGURE LYI N G IN THE S A N D. A U D R E Y STEPPED OVER TO THE POPLING A N D TOUCHED H I S SHOULD E R . YOU COULD E A S I LY M I SS I T BECAUSE THE R E WERE BUSHES GROW I N G A RO U N D TH E BOULDERS THAT ALMOST CON C E A L E D T H E I N L ET. A U D R E Y BECA M E AWARE THAT CARRYING HIS LEGS. A N D THEN ONE AFTE RNOON A S J ER RY AND A UD R E Y WERE COM ING BACK FROM A WALK A R O U N D T H E EDGE OF TH E LA K E WITH TWO BLACK BASS A N D A WALL EYED PIKE A U D R E Y SUDDENLY STOPPED A N D PUT H I S H A N D IN FRONT OF J E R RY. TH E POPLI NG LOOK E D UP AT HIM. THEN H E C U R L E D U P IN H I S COR N E R A N D WENT TO S L E E P. LOO K . . PLATE OFF THE TABLE AND C A R R I E D IT I N TO A HE SQUATTED CORN E R OF TH E KITC H E N . N EXT TAKE SHOWED THE TWO BOYS J A C K I NG OFF. W H E R E DOWN EATING THE FISH WITH D E LICATE VO RACITY. H E F E L T A S U D D E N R U S H OF B LOOD T O H I S CROTCH. H E S N I F FE D THROUGH TH E OPEN DOOR OF TH E KITCHEN. "THEY'VE GOT H I M. AND SHIT O N THE SAND. HEADING NORTH. T H E C R E AT U R E JERRY HAD STOPPED H E R E FOR A S W I M . AND TH E N THE B A N K FELL AWAY S H A R PLY I NTO DEEP WATER. H E KNEW IT WAS TH E R E BECA U S E TH R E E DAYS B E FORE. A N D STA G N A N T W A T E R W I T H FEET. A N D T H E CREATU R E GOT AN E R ECTION AND EJACU­ LATED WITH A LOW WHISTLING SOU N D . NOW T H E POPLI NG BEGAN TO STRUGGL E LIKE AN I M PATI ENT DOG AS H E WHI STLED O U T ." "YOU'RE GETTI NG A H A RD-ON.FOR A W E E K NOTH I N G H A PP E N E D. THE B R E EZE D I ED A N D TH E C REATU R E LAY TH E R E AS IF DEAD. THE W A T E R W A S S H A L LOW FOR A BOUT TWENTY LEAPED U P. AS THE S U N WARMED THEM TH E Y S T O O D W I TH TH E I R ARMS ACCENT S P R I N K L E D OVER IT. H E K N E W THAT J U ST AHEAD WAS A LITTLE SANDY I NLET BETW E E N TWO BOULDERS.

T U R N E D A SALMON P I N K COLOR A N D ROLLED OVER ON H I S BACK WITH HIS LEGS I N THE A I R A N D MADE A STRANGE POP P I N G SOU N D IN HIS TH ROAT.EXIBLE. M O N . C H A RACTE R I STICS: H E I S Q U I T E TA L L.OOKS A T M E WITH H I S N I PPL. THE P O P L. THE POPL. P I N K-TH E COLORS H I S BODY SO T H A T AUD REY A C H E D TO BOD I ES.ES A N D N UTS AND ASS.ORS F A ST E R .OR. HIS HE CAN SEE WITH H I S WHOL. L.W A Y S MANI­ FESTED B Y REO A N D F E A R B Y GREEN. J ER K E D H I S H E A D TO T H E L. TO WATC H .ING TO BE FUCKED.L.EA R N E D TO OTH E R TIM ES.OWL. WITH HUGE HOWEV E R . I M P A CT. L. I N G C A M E I N . WIL. CARL.IAM B U R ROUGHS 1 24 .IT S E C O N D TO M ATCH H I S S U R ROUNDI NGS.ES BECOME E R ECT.EA R N I NG HOW TO SEE WITH OUR STRIPPED OFF TH E I R SHORTS.Y I N TH E AIR. L.ITTL.OR I N A S PL. S HIT. HE IS AN USE TH E TOI L. L. B U T HAS N O W L. MOST S I X F E ET.MOST MORE NOT S E R P E NTI N E AND FL.EAS U R E .Y L. D HIS NOT IS H E CAN MAKE H I M S E L. "THAT YOU W I L. A U D R EY AND J E R RY CARRIED HIM PRODUCES P H Y S I C A L.L.L. HE SEEMS TO BE ABL. THROUGH S A L.EGS SPASMODICAL.ooK AT ME WITH HIS ASS. H A I RS C H A NGE COL. BUT SO S L. THESE AND MORE F R E Q U E NT. A THIS M ET H O D OF P E R C E PT I O N L. NECK HIS V I SC E R A . W I L.Y U N D E RWATER SPERM S M E L L H E DE FECATES F R O M S U D D E N FEA R O R PL. R U N N I NG LIGHT F I N G E R S OVER H I S N I PPL." CL." C H ANGING COL.L. POP A L. THE PO P L. F TRANSPA R E N T AND SHOW W E IGHT MORE 1 1 0 PO U N DS.OOKI N G AT M E W I T H M Y B A C K T U R N E D.E N D E R THAN THAT HE C O U L. I F W E TRY TO F U C K H I M . FLASH I NG HE THAT CAME THROUGH IN A HIM FASTER W H I STL. WHEN H E SWIMS. A L. P L.OW J E R R Y O R ME TO FUCK H I M . AL. THE PUBLIC AND RECTAL. F I N O OUT SOON ENOUGH. F O R A POPL.ES AND C H I RPS VI BRATE IN M Y BODY THE POPLl NG: PHYSICAL L. HE T U R N S G R E E N AND SH ITS.EAV I NG A S M OOT H S U T . I F H E I S L.ET A T "WHAT HAPPENS I F HE FUCKS M E 1" I N STANT C H A M E L E O N . W H E N H E L.oo K ED AT THE BEAMS AND MADE A L. I K E SOME P I N K TRANSL.VER GRAY TRANSLUCENT COL.E BODY A N D OFTEN TURNS AROUND AND B E N DS OVER TO L.ooR A N D BEGAN CARESSING H I M .E TO E J A C U L. TODAY I WAS IN T H E WOR KSHOP A N D T H E PO P L. E A S U R E IS A L. WA S H I N G BODIES. Y . TWO ECSTASY BROUGHT THE GIGGL. THE ASS. DROPPED THE BATH TOW E L ON TH E FL.E C H I R P I N G L. U PSTA I RS TO T H E BE DROOM A N D L. A BOVE A L.I N G WANTS TO BE SEEN WITH OTH E R BODIES AND TO SEE OTHE R ORANGE. A U DR E Y HE T U R N E D AND J E R RY J E R R Y A N D I A R E N A K E D MOST OF THE T I M E . I N G W R I T H E D BR IGHT REO AND E C S T A T I C A L. L. H E L. HE HAS PU BIC AND R ECTAL.OOKE D AT M E W I T H H I S N E C K W H E R E A REO L. H I S BODY G I V E S O F F A G R A Y GHOSTL. E FT A N D I EJACUL.ES AND GENITAL. I C A N TEL.. I N E L.ATE E ROTIC ANY N U M B E R OF T I M E S . I K E SOFT P E N I S SURGED E R ECT L.U­ CENT FISH. A N D T H E N H E L. A I D H I M DOWN ON T H E B E D WITH A BATH TOWEL UNDER HIS ASS. T H E WAY AND DIE. H A S EXPL. N I PPL. FRENZIES A R E HE P E N I S A N D TESTICLES A R E R ETRACTED I NTO H I S BODY. K I C K I NG H I S L. FISH. HOWEVER. A L.ooK ­ AREAS D I F F E R E N T ACCOR D I N G TO WHICH A R E USED.ES. HIS A U DREY'S NOTE ON W H I STL.L.OOK AT H I M . L. THE AND OF COL. I N G TU R N E D P U R PLE. " H E WIL. I K E A ROPE MARK A P P E A R E D. A N D WE ARE SL.E SOU N D T H A T V I BRATED I N M Y TH ROAT. EROGENOUS S P A R KS. H I S ACH I EV I N G FRENZIES THAT ARE P A I N F U L.S ARE THE MOST S E N S I T I V E S E E I NG AREAS.OR WITH HIS SKIN.IKE SOM E SON A R L. NORMA LLY H E I S A S I L.ANGUAGE. H A I RS.EAR G R A Y S H I M M E R I NG E Y E S . OUT IS A N D THE L.E S H R I L. AND BOYS OFF WITH H I M . M Y N I PPL. U K E A TROPICAL.ATED. H I S HEAD COMES TO A POINT A N D IS QUITE H A I R LESS.A I N E D TO M E THAT IT IS FATAL. L.

THE COM M ITTAL TWO DAYS AFTER THE COMMITTAL HEARING. THE IRRELEVENCE AND CRUDITY AND H UMAN FAILURE (WHICH WAS VAST) O F THE COURT ON FRIDAY MANAGED TO SIFT THE WHEAT FROM THE TARES. M Y WORDS WERE OUT AND YOU WERE RIG HT. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? CAN ANYONE UNDERSTAND IT? MIGHT HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GIVE OTHERS IN THE PAST. FOR THOSE GENERALLY CONSIDERED INCAPABLE OF RECEIVING IT FROM THOSE UNWORTHY OF GIVING IT. HAD HAUNTED ME FOR MONTHS. LOVERS OPPOSITE A COURT FILLED WITH LOVERS OF THE FOOLISH. THE LOVE A N D U N D E RSTA N D I N G I FELT FROM MY THEREFORE IT WAS A COURT OF FOOLS. AND THAT OF COURSE IS WHY THE CASE IS BOUND TO G O ON. EXPRESSION AND M ISREADING OF SENTIMENT. W H E T H E R AS BOTH THE OR WORDS. NO OTHER OUTCOME WAS POSSIBLE. I WOULD HAVE FELT CH EATED. THEY DEFIED DEREUCTION OF T H E PROSECUTION AND T H E LEGAUSM ON THE DEFENCE. IT HAD PREVIOUSLY ONLY HAPPENED WHEN I THERE BEEN ANOTHER RESULT. EACH T I M E "I FEEL CALM AND ACCEPTING AND HAVE A CLARITY ABOUT WHAT I MUST 00 THAT I DIDN'T HAVE BEFORE. SECOND. THERE WAS WHAT I FELT FOR LEE IN THE DARE I RISK O N E OBSERVATION (IT M A Y A L SO WHICH MAY S E E M BUT I COURT. FRIENDS. BE SELF-DECEPTION 1 25 . YET IT WAS ALL SAID. I WROTE TO A CLOSE FRIEND: THING AS I LOOKED AT H I M -THAT I LOVED H I M. A HEARING FOR MISFITS: A I FELT THAT STRENGTH WHICH COMES FROM A COMMON PURPOSE. HAD STRUGGLED FOR OTHERS. THAT WAS THE ONLY REALITY ON MY SIDE OF THE COURT. MUCH AS THOSE MAY HAVE BEEN THE ONLY TERMS I N WHICH THEY COULD UNDERSTAND O R ORGANISE THE PROCEEDINGS--eUT THE ASSER110N OF LOVE: BUT MOST I MPORTANT WERE TWO OTHER THINGS. I HAD DOUBTED IT WERE POSSIBLE-AS YOU KNOW. AND BEING MISCONSTRUED. NOW IT HAD HAPPENED WITH ME AS THE BENEFICIARY. I HOPED IT REFLECTED WHAn PUBLIC GALLERY F I L LED WITH FOOLISH LOVE GLANCES LOVE IN STRUCK THE A I R. FIRST. FOR TH E FIRST T I M E I N THIS WHOLE BUSINESS. I STILL CANNOT DIGEST IT. I ONLY KNEW ONE STRANGE. REMEMBER YOU SAID THAT I COULDN'T GET UP I N COURT AND DENY THAT 1 010 LOVE BOYS? THE FEAR OF THAT. THEY SURV IVED EVEN THAT MANGLING OF HOW COULD THE POLICE HAVE NOT BEEN AFFECTED? OR THE MAG I STRATES? IT WAS NOT PORNOGRAPHY AND RAPE AND I NDOCTRINATION WHICH PERVADED THE AI R.

OF THE WAS FOL­ OF TlHEIR N U MBER RIGHT NEXT TO WHERE LEE WOULD TESTIFY. ON THE OTH ER H A N D. BARRISTERS.J E A N . THE EXTENT TO WHICH HE IN FACT WITHDREW MUCH OF WHAT HE ORIGINALLY SAID. NOW THAT THE STRUGGLE GOES ON. SINCE EV ERYTH I N G IF SHE HAD ONCE Irs ANY OVER BAD"). I TlHINK SHE WOULD ONLY L E E'S MOTHER• . TlHEN WITH INDEED. J" ORDER OF THE COURT TO QUIT IT. PROBATION PRESENT. CLERK. THIS WAS NO MEAN HAVE UNDERSTOOD-lN A WAY COLD WRITTIEN WORDS COULDN'T PERSUADE HER-TlHE EXTENT TO WHICH LEE IS CONFUSED ABOUT TlHE ALLEGATION HE ORIGINALLY MADE. TlHE POLICE LIED TO JEAN AND THEY KNEW THEY WERE LYING WHEN THEY DID SO. S H E M U ST HAVE FELT H U M I LIATED A N D. LOVE ALONE IS EASILY DENIED BY THOSE WHO CANNOT U N DERSTAND U NCONDITIONAL LOVE. BUT TO FIGHT TlH I NGS. THE VERY PERSON AGAINST WHOM HE WAS "COMPLAINING. AS THAT COURT SHOWED. AND POSITION ONE TlH E COMMITTAL PROC E E D I NGS LASTED A DAY. I CANNOT LOOK AT EITHER OF THEM WITHOUT FEELING GLADNESS AND­ YES.THROW IT OUT IN ORDER TO HAVE I T TESTEDJ IT IS ONLY THE POLITICAL PROCESS. BUT THERE IS A "J EAN M UST NOW BE FEELING HAND. MADE HIS STATEM ENT. PERHAPS SHE NOW REALISES TlHAT TlHE POLICE ARE CAPABLE OF LYING IN TlH E SAM E WAY TlHAT I'VE MAINTAINED TlHROUGHOUT THEY LIED ABOUT ME. I AM FREE NOT TO TREMBLE. . I T IS ONLY THE ANALYSIS OF WHY SUCH PATHETIC H U MAN CONSTRUCTS DETE R M I N E DENY H U MAN REALITY WHICH DOES A L L. NO T R I U M P H . THAT MAKES ANY SENSE OF SUCH WASTE AND STUPIDITY. STRUGGLING TO FIND WORDS. IT WAS THE ONLY TI ME THEY COULD GET OFF. HAD TO LEAVE THE COURT AS WELL THE POLICE H A D ASSURED HER TlHAT "ONLY TH E MAGISTRATE" WOULD BE IN COURT. WHEN IN PRIVATE? BY THE APPEARANCE PROSECU­ TION'S FI RST WITN ESS. HOWEVER. IF THEY WERE PREPARED TO FLOUT THE TI MES THEIR AGE HAVE N O I N K L I N G OFI (WHICH AGAI N IS WHY I AM I N COURT . AND IT WASN'T "SO BAD" AFTER 1 26 . RISKED GOI NG TO IF LEE THAT MAKE SENSE? I F I HAD BEEN SET FREE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN ON THEIR T E R M S-TH E TERMS THEY D I D N 'T TURN U P IN COU RT-TH EN CERTA I N L Y S H E WAS HOODWI N K E D. I N ITS BROADEST SENSE. SINCE NO LESS TlHAN SEVEN BOFORS POLICEMEN H A D TURNED THREAT. LEE H I M SELF. TESTIFIED. TO AN EXTENT. HOW THEY K NOW TH INGS PEOPLE THREE OFFICER. SOLICITOR. AT THAT C O U RT POI NT. STRUGGLING TO LOOK AT M E-TIHE ONLY PERSON IN THAT GAUNT ROOM WHO COULD GIVE HIM THE LEAST SIGN OF RECOGNI­ TION. CHOOSE. OUTLI N I NG M Y A R R E ST LOWED AND L E E'S I NT E R ROGATION. VERY M UCH IN LEE TWO HAS QUESTION OF HIS CONFUSION ABOUT EVENTS IN THE MI NDS. TO BE MY B A R R I ST E R ASKED BOTH TO FOR THE RELIEVE I WISH SHE COULD HAVE BEEN IN COURT WHEN LEE CLEARED. IF BARRISTER HADN'T INSISTED. NOT SIM PLY BECAUSE OF TlH E SUPPORT HE NEEDED FROM HER. IT IS ON M Y TERMS AS WELL. (THAT'S "ISN'T TO SO SAY. A N D A VO I D ANY POSSI B I LITY OF POLICE I NTI M I DATION -MERELY BY TlHEIR PRESENCE. U P AT COURT. WHAT BETTER INDICATION IS THERE THAT THEY HAVE NO SCRUPLES I N PUTTING ENORMOUS PRESSURE ON KIDS. STUGGLING TO REMEMBER. THEY TOLD AND HER EFFECTIVELY SHE HOODW I N K E D JAIL HER. EXCEPT A TRI U M PH O F FORM AND OF METHOD. LEE WOULD HAVE HAD TO TESTIFY NOT ONLY TWO M A G I STRATES. BUT HAVE FIVE C O U RT OR SIX AND REPORTER HEAVIES AND MYSELF WHOM ABOUT MIXED PAI NFUL FEELINGS. NOW SHE M UST REALISE THAT THE ASSURANCES ABOUT COURT THE PROCEDURE NOT WERE COMPLETELY WHO FALSE: IT IS THESE COURT THE MY POLICE DECIDE THIS I S THE ONLY WAY I CAN EXPLAIN THE INNER CALM NOW I FEEL. (CRUELLEST IRONY-THAT IT WAS ME. A B R I EF PROS E C U T I O N STA T E M E NT. PRIDE-AT THEIR U N D E RSTANDING AND BREADTH OF VISION. IF LETS US H U MAN REALITY AT ALL. AND THE PAIN TlHE WHOLE TlHING CAUSED HIM. BUT BECAUSE SHE MIGHT TlHEN PRESSURE O N LEE. EXPECTED HOSTI LITY F R O M M Y FRIENDS OR M Y S E L F . I T H I N K S H E W I L L HAVE BEEN REASSURED. BESIDE HAVE HAD TO LOOK AT HIM. HE M UST SOLICITOR'S I SAW MARK AND DAREN TODAY BRIEFLY. ON THE OTH ER RELI EF THAT LONG GONE PAST ('TWO YEARS NOW> AND ABOUT WHAT A SUCCESSION OF ADULTS HAVE WANTED OUT OF HIM. BETRAYED. AT LAST." FROM MYSELF-A N D TlHAT T H E WHOLE A FFA I R WOULD BE I N FORMAL I N MY LETTIER TO M Y F R I E N D AFTER THE COMMITTAL H E A R I NG I CONTI N U ED: WHOM H E SOUGHT SOME HUMAN FEELlNGJ SHE MIGHT TlHEN. HAVE SEEN AN ESSENTIAL TRUTH: THAT TlH E RE IS NO QUESTION OF LEE LYING. THE POLICE WENT ALL THE WAY UP TO THE M I D LA N DS.

I HEARD I T I N WORDS OUT O F T H E MOUTHS O F T H E POLICE. PROS: WH E R E 0 1 0 YOU LIVE? LEE: NO." AND WOULD HE HAVE SAID "BACKSIDE"7 BACKSIDE IS A PECULIARLY ADULT TERM-"I'LL HIT YOU ON YOUR BACKSIDE IF YOU'RE NOT CAREFUL. I WROTE DOWN AND ALL HIS THE Q U ESTI O N S I ALSO ADDRESSED T O H I M .WHEN HE MADE THAT CLINCHING STATEMENT. LEE DELIVERS THE OATH PROS: WHICH CITI ES 010 YOU GO THROUGH ? PROSECUTI O N : L E E . PROS: WHERE 010 YOU GO WHEN IN LONOON? 00 YOU REMEMBER THE ADDR ESS." "ASS" OR "BOTTOM. LEE: YES. YOU ARE TO GOING GIVE TO MAKE A SOLE M N PROM I S E THE RIGHT PROS: CAN YOU REMEMBER HOW YOU WENT TO LONOON? ANSWER. PROS: AFTER TH REE MONTHS 010 H E LEAVE AS I SAT IN THE DOCK ON JULY 2BTH. WHICH PROS: 0 1 0 YOU GO A N D STAY WITH H I M I N LONDON? STATE M EN TS TH E N WOMAN MAG ISTRATE: LEE. I CAN'T REMEMBER. LEE: NO. . SURELY H E WOULD SAY . 1 27 . YOU M U ST PUT YOU R HANDS ON THE BI BLE--oN THE WORDS OF J ESUS. WATCHING LEE TESTIFY. 00 YOU K NOW LEE: YES. W H E N M EET ROGER MOODY? 0 1 0 YOU FI RST LEE: BIRM INGHAM.. PROS: 010 YOU SEE H I M A LOT? LEE: YES. LEE: NO. MAGISTRATE: I T MEANS YOU PROMISE TO TELL TH E TRUTH. NOTED THE REPLI ES." AND I F A BOY WERE TRYING TO BE POLITE IN ADULT COMPANY. AND COM E TO VISIT YOU FROM T I M E TO TI ME. LEE: GO SWI M M I NG.. LEE: ABOUT FIVE YEARS AGO. LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER PROS: 00 YOU REMEMBER WHICH PART OF PROS: CLOSE? LONDON TH E HOUSE WAS I N ? LEE: ABOUT THI RTY M I LES AWAY. . HESITATIONS IN NEVER TH ESE INTONATIONS I N H I S R E FLECTED I N THE VOI C E -SO M E T H I N G "DEPOSITION" BECOME. THEY INSERTED IT I N BRACKETS AFTER "DICK. PROS: 010 HE COM E TO LIVE WITH YOU AT YOUR HOUSE AT ALL? PROS: DURI NG THE DAY WHAT 0 1 0 YOU USED TO OO? LEE: YES.BEHIND7. WHAT TH E OATH MEANS? PROS: ON TH E FIRST OCCASION WERE YOU WITH A NYON E ELSE? LEE: I'M SUPPOSED T O T E L L THE TRUTH. LEE: BY COACH. PROS: WHAT SORT OF THI NGS 0 1 0 YOU 00 TOGETH ER? LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER. PROS: FOR HOW LONG? LEE: ABOUT TH REE MONTHS. (WOULD LEE HAVE USED THE WORD "PENIS"7 1 THINK NOT. I N HIS ORIGINAL STATEM E N T TO THE POLICE." KIDS WILL ALMOST ALWAYS SAY "BUM.

SOM ETI M E S A TEESHI RT. A N D M Y BROTH E R S W E N T TO STAY WITH LEE: I DON'T THI N K SO. THERE I S ANOTHER LONG SILENCE FROM LEE. HOW LONG AGO WAS THI S ? LEE: I TH I N K T H R E E Y E A R S AGO. PROS: ON LATER N I GHTS DID A N YT H I N G H A PP E N ? PROS: WHAT T I M E O F THE YEA R? L E E (AFTER A LONG SILENCE): H E TRI E D T O GET CLOSE LEE: SUM M E R HOLIDAYS. TO M E. PROS: WH E R E DID ROGER SLEEP? PROS: WHAT SORT OF THI NGS DID YOU U S E D LEE: N EXT TO ME. PROS: WAS TH I S THE FI RST TI M E YOU WENT TO PROS: ON THE F I R ST N IGHT DID A N YTH I N G LONDON? HAPPEN? LEE: NO.PROS: WHAT E LS E ? LEE: MATTRESSES. WHAT DI D YOU U S E D TO WEAR? LEE: PANTS. 1 28 . W E WANT TO HEAR I T FROM YOU . T O DO? PROS: LEE: I WENT TO PLAY WITH THE OTH E R LADS. PROS: HOW OLD W E R E YOU? PROS: I N WHAT WAY? LEE: ABOUT N I N E. PROS: WHAT WERE TH E I R NAMES? PROS: WHAT D I D ROGE R U S E D TO WEAR? LEE: J I M M Y A N D STEVE. MAGISTRATE: PROS: ON WHAT DI D YOU SLEEP? WE HAVE SOME I DEA OF WHAT H A P P E N ED. PROS: LEE: WH E R E D I D YOU U S E D TO GO? PROS: S O M ETI M E S THEY CAME TO OUR PLACE. L E E : PANTS. PROS: WHERE D I D YOU SLEEP? PROS: TELL U S WHAT HAPPEN ED. PROS: WHEN DID YOU GO BEFORE ? PROS: A N YTH I N G ELSE? LEE: M E ROGER. PROS: PROS: WHAT DID YOU DO A BOUT THAT? WHEN YOU DESC R I BED YOU R T R I P ON LEE: C A N'T R E M E M B E R YOU R OWN. LEE: NO. L E E : SOMETI M E S I W E N T W I T H ROGER. SOMETI M ES WE W E N T T O WH E R E T H E Y W E R E LIVING. LEE: S A M E ROOM AS ROGER. LEE: I C A N'T U N D E RSTA N D . W E R E TH E MATTRESSES C LOSE? LEE: Y E S. PROS: DID I T HAVE BEDS IN IT? PROS: YOU EXPLA I N TO TH E LADY UP TH E R E (HE POINTS T O T H E MAGISTRATE). LEE: H E K I S S E D M E .

LEE: YES. PROS: WH E N ? PROS: CAN YOU R E M E M B E R ANYTH ING ELSE HAPPENING AT A LL? LEE: WHEN H E C A M E TO T H E M I D LANDS SOMETIME BEFORE I CAME TO LONDON. THERE I S A LONG SILENCE PROS: DID YOU R EAD ANY BOOKS WHEN STAYI NG WITH ROGER? LEE: H E TRI ED TO PUT H I S ARMS A ROUND ME. LEE: HE WANTED TO . DEFENSE BARRISTER (INTERVENING>: DON'T LEADI CLOSE WAS TH E WORD. PROS: DID HE GET IT I N ? PROS: WERE YOU SLEEPING ON ONE OF TH E MATTRESSES? LEE: NO. PROS: DID A N YTH I NG ELSE H A PPEN YOU CAN TELL US ABOUT? PROS: DID YOU AGREE TO THOSE TWO PHOTOS BEING TAKEN? 1 29 . WHO TOOK THESE PHOTOS? PROS: DID HE SUCC E E D AT ALL? LEE: ROGER. LEE: YES. LEE: I CANT REMEMBER. LEE: NOTH ING. STAY LIKE THAT? PROS: WHAT DOES "AND THAT' M EA N ? LEE: I STAYED THERE. PROS: DI D YOU SEE H I S PENIS? LEE: TH E MATTRESSES WERE RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHE R. WHAT D I D YOU DO? PROS: WHERE WAS ROGER S LEEPI NG? LEE: I MOVED FURTHER AWAY. PROS: ANYTH I N G ELSE? PROS: WHAT SORT OF BOOKS? THERE IS ANOTHER LONG SILENCE LEE: SEX BOOKS. MAGISTRATE: DO YOU K NOW WHY YOU' R E HERE TO GIVE EVI DENCE TODAY? PROS: WAS THERE ANY QUESTION OF PHOTOS BEING TAKEN? DEFENCE BARRISTER (IN AN ASIDE): THE POLICE OFFICERS TOLD H I M TO COME. PROS: WHEN HE DID SO. PROS: DID A N YT H I N G ELSE HAPPEN ON ANOTH E R NIGHT? PROS: DID YO U R R E S PECTI V E POSITIONS LEE: HE KISSED ME A N D THAT. YES. LEE: YES. YES. LEE: H E T R I E D TO COME O V E R T O M Y MATTRESS. PROS: WHAT ABOUT ROGER? PROS: I'D LIKE YOU TO LOOK AT TWO PHOTOS.PROS: HOW D I D YOU L I E IN BED? WERE TH E TWO MATTRESSES ALONGS I D E EACH OTH ER? THERE IS YET ANOTHER LONG SILENCE LEE: HE TRIED TO PUT HIS PENIS UP M Y BACKSIDE. NOT TOGETHER. LEE: ON THE OTH ER ONE.

DEF: IT COULD HAVE BEEN A H A N D AGAINST YOU COULDN'T IT? DEF: AND THE R E WAS ONLY ONE ROOM FOR YOU TO SLEEP IN WHEN YOU WERE WITH ROGER? LEE: YES. DO YOU REMEMBER IT WAS FOR TWO PEOPLE GOING OUT TO BANGLADESH? PROS: WHO WAS AT THE PARTY? LEE: ROGER. DEF: IT COULD J UST AS EAS I LY HAVE BEEN A H A N D AS A P E N I S COULDN'T IT? PROS: DID YOU GO OUT IN TH E EVENING AT A LL? LEE: YES. YOU KNOW YOU SAI D ROGE R TRI ED TO P U T H I S PENIS U P YOUR BACKSI DE? HE N EVER TOUCHED IT DID HE? LEE: I DONT KNOW. LEE: WE WENT TO A PARTY. TH E R E'S DEF: YOU COULDN'T SEE HIM COU LD YOU? THI N G WRONG WITH THOSE IS THERE? LEE: NO. DEF: WHEN YOU SAY MON OTH ER OCCASIONS" HE T R I E D TO KISS YOU HE WAS DOING THAT RATH E R L I K E A FATH ER WASN'T H E ? PROS: HOW MUCH? LEE: HALF A BOTTLE. LEE: YES. DEF: A N D W H E N HE C U DDLED YOU HE DID SO LIKE A FATH E R? LEE: YES. DEF: YOU TELL US. DEF: YOU R E M E M B E R THE PARTY TO WHICH YOU WENT. DEF: NOT IN ANY OTH ER WAY? LEE: I THOUGHT H E DID. 1 30 . I CANT B E SURE. WHEN YOU R BROTHE R S CAME TO STAY. LEE: NO. LEE: NO. I CAN'T REMEMBER WHO ELSE. LEE: I D R A N K POMAGNE. PROS: WHAT D I D YOU HAVE TO DRINK? LEE: YES. MY BARRISTER THEN ROSE TO CROSS-EXAMINE DEF: NOT IN A N Y OTH ER WAY? DEFENCE: LEE. DEF: TH E ROOM YOU SLEPT IN WITH ROGER. LEE: NO.LEE: NO. Y O U SAI D N O . LEE: NO. PROS: WE RE THERE ANY WOMEN THERE? DEF: YOU WENT WITH ROGE R OTH ER EVEN­ I NG S D I DN'T YO U ? TO TH E CINEMA FOR EXA M PLE. L E T M E OTH E R P H OTOS SHOW Y O U THESE NO­ [CLOTH ED]. DEF: YOU CAN'T REALLY BE SURE CAN YOU? I SN'T THAT RIGHT LEE: THATS RIGHT. YOU ALL SLEPT IN TH E SA M E ROOM DIDN'T YOU? LEE: YES. LEE: NO. DEF: YOU'RE NOT SURE ABOUT IT ARE YOU? DEF: HE ASKED TO TAK E PHOTOS OF YOU A N D LEE: YES.

HE WAS BEING W A S N 'T A F F ECTI O N A T E HE? HE W A S N 'T LIKE A FATH E R DOI N G MAG: W H E N D I D YOU SEE H I S PENIS TH E N ? LEE: I N TH E MORNING. DEF: IT WAS REALLY LIKE A FATH ER WASN'T IT? IN IT? LEE: I DONT KNOW.LEE: NO. ANYTH I NG WRONG? I CONCLUDED THE LETTER TO MY FRIEND: LEE: I DONT KNOW WHETHER H E WAS TOUCH I NG ME LIKE A FATHER. LEE: NO. TOGETHE R DO TH EY? PROS: COULD YOU SEE HOW HE WAS FACI NG? LEE: NO. I THI N K. TAKE PICTUR ES-WE RE THEY L I K E THIS? (HE HOLDS U P THE SEMI-NUDE SHOTS) DEF: ROGER WAS REALLY LI K E A FATHER TO ALL OF YOU? PROS: NOT L I K E TH I S? (HE SHOTS) HOLDS UP THE CLOTHED LEE: YES. THE PROSECUTOR RISES TO RE·EXAMINE DEF: HAVE YOU EVER STAYED AWAY FROM HOME ON YOU R OWN B E FORE W ITHOUT YOUR BROTHERS OR MOTHER? PROS: LEE. LEE_ YOU SAID ON YOU SAW HIS YOU BUT LATER YOU SAI D ROOM-A BARE ROOM-ON YOUR OWN? COULDN'T S E E IT. DEF: DID IT HAVE ANY FURN ITURE WASN'T IT BARE? LEE: YES. "HERE THERE IS A TERRIBLE IRONY. DEF: AND WHEN ROGER WAS TOUCH I NG YOU. O R AWAY? DEF: YO U R MUM AND DAD DON� U VE LEE: AWAY. DEF: DO YOU SEE YOU R DAD VERY M UCH? PROS: YOU SAI D YOU DIDN'T WANT H I M TO LEE: NO. PROS: WERE YOU LYI NG DOWN AT TH E T I M E? DEF: ROGER USED TO TREAT YOU VERY MUCH L I K E A SON D I DN'T HE? LEE: YES. I'VE LITTLE DOUBT 131 . DEF: SO WHEN YOU C A M E TO STAY IN LONDON WITH ROGER I T WAS NATU RAL FOR YOU TO SLEEP IN THE SAM E ROOM A N D NOT IN A MAGISTRATE: WE WANT TO ASK YOU ONLY O N E QUESTION PENIS. LEE: ON T H E CHEEK. LEE: NO. WAS I T DA R K OR LIGHT? LEE: YES. THERE WAS A ROOM BESIDE IT. LEE: DARK. WHY 010 YOU SAY I T WAS A P E N I S? LEE: I T DIDNT FEEL LIKE A HAND OR ANYTHING. LEE: NO. W H E R E ? LEE: NO. PROS: WERE YOU FAC ING TOWA RDS ROG E R LEE: YES. DEF: THEY HAVEN'T DON E SO SI NCE YOU WERE A BABY IS THAT RIGHT? PROS: YOU SAY ROGE R KISSED YOU. THEY HAVENT.

K I DS LEARN FROM FILMS THAT IT SIGNIFIES THE START OF SERIOUS LOVE-MAKING. A N D THOUGH M E N KISS BOYS (A N D BOYS MEN) I T IS ONLY WITHIN THE FAM I LY. POLICE: WAS HE FACING YOU? BOYS DO NOT KISS BOYS. THEN YES-THEY WERE FATH ERLY KISSES. LEE L I V ES IN A WORLD WHERE PRESSING MOCK ONESELF A G A I N S T A N O T H E R PERSON J UST P H YSICAL ANTICS IS IN A POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIS PENIS? LEE: I DON'T K N OW. POLICE: WAS HE NAKED AT THE TIME? POLICE: PENIS. NOT HAVING KNOWN WHAT IT WAS TO HAVE A REAL FATHER. PERHAPS H E ALSO FANTASISED M Y PENIS C O M I N G I NTO CONTACT WITH H I S BOTTO M : I KNOW OF ONE OCCAS I O N WHEN HE LEE: I DON'T KNOW. POLICE: WHAT DID HE OO? LEE: YES. LEE: I CAN'T R E M E M B E R. LEE: H I S D I C K I SU PPOSE. I CAN IMAGINE THE POLICE: BUT PERHAPS HE DIDN'T KISS YOU SOME OF THE TIME7 POLICE: 50 HE HELD YOU IN A DIFFERENT WAY? POLICE: WHEN YOU WERE SLEEPING NEXT TO EACH OTHER. 1 32 . POLICE: DID YOU FEEL ANYTHING AGAINST POLICE: HOW DID HE CUDDLE YOU? YOU? LEE: HE PUT H I S A R M S A R O U N D ME. DESPITE H I M S E LF. POLICE: AND WHEN HE WAS BEHIND YOU. AT ANOTH E R POINT. DID HE TRY TO COME OVER TO YOUR SIDE OF THE BED? POLICE: HOW? PERHAPS HE WAS BEHIND YOU BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T WANT HIM TO KISS YOU? LEE: YES ONCE OR TWICE. LEE: CUDDLED ME SORT OF. LEE: K I SSED ME AND THAT. YOU FELT HIM AGAINST YOU I EXPECT? POLICE: AND THAT? LEE: YES. SEXUALITY OR POLICE: H E H A D HIS LEGS A G AINST YOU DIDN'T HE? SLIGHT NAUGHTI N E SS-IF THAT. I K N OW. H I S CONFUSIONS ABOUT WHAT THESE KI SSES MEANT CAME OVER POI G N A N T LY IN THE C ROSS­ LEE: YES. WHICH G U I LTY THE POLICE WAS I T THAT SPECIFIC LATC H E D THAT ON TO? DID FANTASY HE FEEL OF ABOUT IT-SO THE ONLY WAY LEE: YES. LEE: I TH I N K SO. RATH ER THAN THAT H E WANTED "TO KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE"? OR WAS IT S I M PL Y THAT THE WHOLE THING WAS SO I NCI DENTAL I N THE FI RST PLACE THAT UNTI L THE POLICE POUNCED ON I T A N D M A D E IT THE KEY THING H E D I D N 'T KNOW IT HAD A N Y SIG N I FICANCE? I N W H I C H CASE. AT ONE POI NT H E S A I D H E DIDN'T K N O W WHETHER T H E Y WERE "FATHERLY" KISSES. THAT. E L A B O RA T E D ON IT. ALLEVIATING T H E G U I L T W A S TO SAY I D I D IT T O H I M . AFTER ALL.THAT WHAT LEE FEELS I DID WRONG TO H I M WAS TO POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIM AGAINST YOU? KISS H I M . WHAT DOES IT SIGNIFY? WHAT H A R M COMES OUT OF IT? KISSING HOWEVER HAS DIFFERENT I M PLICATIONS AND THEY ARE M U C H MORE CONFUSING. PROCESS: LEE: YES. POLICE: HE WOULD FACE YOU TO KISS YOU WOULDN'T HE? CERTA I N LY D I D SO. LEE: YES. HE WOULD HAVE BEEN TAKEN U N AWARES AND. THAT LEE WANTED M E TO KISS H I M . EXA M I NATION AT T H E C O M M I TTAL.

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I HAD SEEN HIM TWICE SINCE THEN: T H E GROWING POLICE: LEE: YES. HAD BEEN AND WHAT HE WANTED. .POLICE: YOU FELT HIS PENIS AGAINST YOU? FINALLY I WROTE THE FOLLOWI N G . BECAUSE HE IS A VICTIM O F T H E PROCESS. THE GESTURE BECOMES AN ACT." FEARS-OR CANNOT SEE­ ROGER MOODY 1 34 . WHILE HE POLICE: ROG E R SO PUT ARE HIS YOU SAYING LEE THAT YOUR HAD BEEN WITH ME. HE KNOWS THAT THIS IS NOT THE TRUTH-HENCE HE SEARCHES M Y FACE I N COURT TO DISCOVER THAT I REALLY AM WHO I WAS WHEN WE LAST MET. IF HE WAS HOLDING YOU IN HIS "I NOW OFTEN SEE LEE IN MY INNER EYE AS HE WAS ON FRIDAY. AFTER ALL. BECA USE PROCESS. EVERYONE AROUND HIM ANOTHER TRUTH. HE WASN'T SURE HOW IT LEE: YES. LEE CANNOT SEE THE WICKED AND ESSENTIALLY FA LSE LOG IC IN THE TOWARDS SELF-KNOWLEDGE WILL BE PENALISED BY OPPROBRI U M AT BEST AND INCARCERAnON AT WORST. THE CORE OF HIS TRUTH WAS THAT I HAD BEEN WITH H I M LIKE A FATHER: IT WAS HOW I LEE: AGA INST MY BOTTOM. (AS FREIRE SHOWED IN BRAZIL. UNTIL I ACTUALLY SAW LEE OVER THE COURTROOM ON FRIDAY. BEYOND HAD IGNORANCE ABOUT WHAT LAY WAY TO H I S OWN PENIS AGAINST B E G U N TO G I V E BOTTOM? KNOWLEDGE: LACK OF DEFINITION HAD BEGUN TO GIVE WAY TO HIS SELF DISCOVERY. BUT IT IS THE ONLY "TRUTH" HE CAN E X PRESS. THAT AND SO. POLICE: BEEN? SO WHERE WOULD HIS PENIS HAVE BUT WASN'T DEFEATED. . LIKE PAUL HE HAD BEEN SHAKEN. MOST DEVASTAnNG FASHION THAT THE AREAS INTO WHICH HE WAS MOVING WERE ABSOLUTE TABOO. AN ACCUSAnON. SURE? AWARENESS COULD HAVE GONE ON . NOW H E HAD BEEN PENALISED FOR ATTEMPTING TO GROW BEYOND THE CONFUSION. WHILE HE LEE: I DON'T KNOW. VICTIMS ALWAYS REMAIN VICTIMS UNnL THEY REALISE THE TRUE MEANING OF THE WORDS: THAT WORDS ARE NOT N EUTRAL BUT TOOLS TO BE USED FOR OR AGAINST OTHER H U MAN BEINGS. LI KE I HAD PARTIALLY WHICH HELPED HIM TO ACQUIRE. HE HAD STRENGTH REALISED THAT." BUT HE RECOVERED. HAS BEEN TOLD IN THE POLICE: OKAY. TURED) THAT THE LOOKS WE SHARED WERE THE MOST I M PORTANT THING.! IT IS TRUE THAT. DID HE GET IT IN? I N DICATION THAT DESPERATELY FEARED T H E TENSIONS THAT HAD BEEN CREATED. I DIDN'T SEE THAT THIS WAS PROBABLY HOW THE WHOLE THING HAD BEEN. WOULD WORK OUT. A AN ADULT WHO ENCOURAGES HIM IN HIS JOURNEY CONFI RMATION. THATS ALL FOR NOW. FOR A PERIOD HE COULD NOT SEE HOW TO RESOLVE BETWEEN THE "IS" AND THE "COULD BE. WAS COMPELLED TO STAND AGAINST ME: POLICE: A R MS WELL. HE DID NOT KNOW. YET I AM NOT HIS FATHER-BEYOND THAT. AND I PAUL. AND HIS ILLNESS WHEN HE ARRIVED HOME AFTER TH E '76 HE H OL I D AY WAS THE BEST POLICE: LEE: NO. BUT MAYBE THIS IS WHERE THE H U MAN TRI U M PHS OVER THE MAN UFAC· I E X PECT YOU WERE IN HIS LAP WEREN'T YOU? LEE: YES. T R Y I N G TO WHERE AGAINST YOU? CONVEY SOMETHING OF WHAT I FELT WHEN I WAS FORCED TO SIT OPPOSITE LEE IN COURT. I FEEL THE TENDERNESS I FELT THEN AND RECALL (PERHAPS SURPRISINGLY.

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I W E N T TO LA U R E'S GRAVE: A S SOON A S I L E FT T H E H O U S E . UNDER GREAT C I RC U M STA N C E S. MOST H E A R T R E N D I N G L I F E . THE LAUGHTER OF A M A N WHO FORC E D H I M SE L F TO OF LIVE SH UT. T H I S N A R RATIVE I S A BU RST O F C U N N I NG A N D T H U S L I V E LY LAUGHTER. A DIARY. . ONE. I T I S VIOLE NTLY DOMI NATED BY D E ATH. H E H A D ONLY TO R E MOVE THOSE PA SSAGES CONC E R N I N G T H E TH I R D PERSON: IN P A R T I C U LA R . H E SOON R E A LIZED THAT H E H A D NEVER WRITTEN A N YTH I NG SO M UC H A PART O F HIM AND SO P E R H A PS.THE CULPRIT IS GOD M E RELY A MAN FO R WHOM IS DEATH. J UST ONE WAY TO LAUGH. THE AUTHOR PUT STORY FROM PI ECES O F T H E 1 36 . A N D I W O N D E R E D IF I WOULD EVER F I N D MY WAY A LONG TH E ROAD. I T I S I N D EPENDENT O F T H E A UT H O R ' S T O G ET H E R LIFE. MORE ACC U RATELY. B R O U G H T H I M BACK I M M EDIATELY. J P E R S PECTI V E FAVORA B L E DEATH. I NOTI C E D HOW DARK THE NIGHT WAS. TH E A U TH O R HAD N E V E R B E FO R E K E PT W RONG WAY TO TALK? P E R H A PS. I . A N D OFTE N. J U ST OR "JOU R N A L" W H I C H H E K E PT DESPITE H I M S E L F FROM THE D A Y W A R BROKE OUT. I MEAN THAT SPEECH W I T H OU T T R A PS WHICH CONC E R N I NG DEATH. . B UT C A N� WE ONCE AND FOR ALL FU LLY EXPRESSIVE O F H I M S E LF. BUT W I T H D I FFICULTY. L E I R I S R E F E R S I N LA REGLE D U J E U . 1 9 3 9 THIS NA RRATIVE EVOLVED OUT OF THE 1 939 YESTE R DAY. T H I N K I NG A BOUT DEATH. FORTY-TWO YEARS OLD AT T H I S POI NT. THIS STORY I S VIOLE NTLY DOM I N A T E D BY TEARS. T O W H I C H DO E SN'T FLEE I N T H E FACE O F THE TOTA LITY O F ITS OWN CONSEQ U E N C ES.U P HE DID WITHIN THIS THE TODAY. PRODIGIOUS PASTI ME? PAGES. A MOST I NTENSE. A N D I N T H E E N D . L A U R E'S THOSE PASSAGES MICHEL R ECONC I L E LAUGHTER A N D SPEECH? BY SPEECH. THIS IN FACT. I T WAS SO B L A C K THAT I 'DEC LA RAT10N O F W A R . S E PT E M B E R 1 4. H E FAILED. F O R L I F E . THAT THE AUTHOR IS WAS STRUCK BY T H E FACT THE C U LPRIT DOM I NATED BY TEARS A N D DEATH AT T H E S A M E TI M E THAT IT I S DOM I N ATED B Y TH E R E P R E SENTATION O F GOD. BUT FAC E D WITH TH E W R ITTEN RATH E R .

BUT AT T H E SAME TIME. TEARS. WITHOUT KNOWING WHY: AT THIS VERY MOM E N T. F E V E R A N D F I N A LLY DEATH: THESE A R E T H E DAILY B R E A D T H A T LA U R E SHARED W I T H M E . S O R ROW. TH EN. I W E PT BITTERLY. I WAS A B L E TO MAKE OUT THE GRAVES. W H E N I REA LIZED THAT I WOULD SOON COME BACK TO M YSELF. STA N D I N G IN FRONT OF H E R GRAVE. I WAS SO OVERCO M E WITH PA I N AND H EA RT? DESTI N Y APPROAC H I NG I N THE DARKN ESS N E X T T O M E . I FELT D E L I RIOUS. SO I FOU N D I T I M POSSI BLE TO GO INTO THE STATE OF N E A R . I WOULD SCREAM. MADN ESS. OV E R LY DI SASTROUS SOLITUDE. OR E V E N WORSE. S H I V E R I N G IN T H E COLD. NO MATTER HOW VAG U E O R I M PE R SONAL. FOR YESTERDAY. WE BECAUSE I K N E W I W O U L D LOSE H E R AGA I N . STA R L I G H T N I G H TS. THE D I M E N SIONS O F A EAGER TO EXC E E D T H E LIM ITS O F ALL THI NGS: A N D YET. MORE AND MORE LOST. BUT WHAT C O U L D BE M O R E GRA N D THAN T H E BREACH THROUGH WHICH TWO B E I NGS MIGHT RECOGNIZE EACH OTH E R WITHOUT SUCCU M B I NG TO THE VULGARITY A N D THE PLATITUDES OF I N F I N ITY? (HE WHO AT LEAST LOVES BEYOND TH E GRAVE. I FELT THAT IF SHE A P P E A R E D TO ME. I CONTI N U E D MY C L I M B U P THE H I L L TOWA RDS H E R G R A V E . SO F U LL O F S U BTE R R A N E A N NOCTU R N A L GLORY. I FELT AS IF IT H A D SOM E HOW SPLIT IN TWO A N D WAS STRANG L I N G AROUND MY HER. ALREADY CESSIBLE SHATTE R E D TO REAL GLORY INAC­ SURFE IT. WAS I EVER MORE CERTA I N OF WHAT LIFE RESPONSE TO T H E M ENTS OF THE BRINGS TO U S IN THEY E M E RGED FROM TH E D A R K N ESS A S FAI NTLY PALE FORMS. E V E N H A D TH E Y B E E N M O R E COMPLETE LY S E V E R E D BY H E R. I WAS AFRA I D O F H E R. W E WERE E X H A U ST E D AND I N A WAY TA K E N ABACK B Y T H E OVERLY STRANGE. AT DAWN. WE COULD STILL F E E L THE FA R-AWAY PRESENCE OTH E R OF THE VOLCANO'S CRATER AT T H E E N D OF T H E L O N G V A L L E Y OF L A V A . I WAS SURE OF O N L Y ONE T H I N G: THE FINA LLY REACHED TH E E DG E OF THE I M M E N S E AND BOTTOMLESS CRATER. I N THE M IDDLE OF OUR DESCENT. A FTER WE H A D E N T E R E D A N I N F E R N A LLY HOT AREA. FLOWING STREAMS? IN THE FOREST AT NIGHTFA LL. L A U R E'S GRAVE WAS COM PLETELY COV E R E D BY V EGETATION A ND.FELT MY THROAT TIGHTEN: I COU LDN'T T H I N K OF SORROW THAT I H E LD MYSELF IN MY OWN A R MS ANYTH I N G ELSE. I R E M E M B E RED THE A SC E N T UP ETNA AND I WAS DU MBFOUNDED. WE COULDN'T IMAGINE A SPOT WHERE THE T E R R I B L E I N STA B I LITY OF THI NGS WAS MORE E V I D E N T.ECSTACY THAT NORMAL­ LY OVERCOMES ME AS I FOLLOW THE S A M E PATH. R ESTRICTED BY MY C U M BERSOME N E EDS. I COU L D A L SO BUT MAKE OUT TWO GLOWING LINES OF VERSE. AN H E ALSO ESCAPES THE VULGARITY O F DAILY L I F E BUT NEVER T H E TOO-T E N UOUS T I E S T O L A U R E . WAS THE O N LY A BSOLUTELY MOST U N FATHOMABLE I WATCHED MY MOVE­ BLACK STRETCH OF GROU N D. IT WAS H E A RT­ PERCEPTION OF THOSE LOST T O US W H O H A V E R E N D I N G TO LEA N OVE R THAT G A P I N G C R EVICE. I WOULD LOOK AT H E R WITHOUT H E R KNOWING IT. H O R ROR. DESPITE THE DREADFU L I M MENSE LOVE SORROW. NOT KNOWING W H AT TO DO CROSSI N G HAD TO BE R E F U N DED. THE TERROR AND DESOLATION THAT WE HAD ENCOUNTE R E D B E W I L D E R E D H E R . I W A S U N B E A R A BLY A S H A M E D OF W H A T I W O U L D BECO M E . A P E RC E I V I NG H E R F R AG R A N C E . NO MORE T R U E OR FULL OF M E A N I NG CONC E R N I N G T H E DESTI NY OF E V E R Y B E I N G T H A N ANY OTH E R EXPE R I E N C E OF T H E U N I NTELLIGIBLE. BODY MY AND HANDS I F E LT BECAME AS IF I LOST WERE TO U C H I N G H E R . TH E C R O S S E S A N D THE TOM BSTON ES. TO THE OLD MOU NT ETNA OV E R F LOWED WITH M E A N I NG FOR US: WE H A D GIVEN U P A T R I P TO GREECE TO MAKE THE CLIMB. JUST LIKE W H E N W E WERE CLOSE B E FORE: J U ST LIKE WH E N T H E OBSTACLES SEPARATING TWO PEOPLE DISAPPEAR. BY T H E TI M E I R EACH E D THE C E M ETERY. SOFTNESS GRIPPED ME TERRIBLE EVERYTH I N G TH E N H A D B E E N J U ST AS D A R K AND CHARGED WITH CUNNING TERROR TH E N I G H T LA U R E A N D I CLIMBED T H E F A C E OF ETNA. TH E BROKEN T H E I R ATTAC H M E NTS T O THE CUSTO M A R Y CON F I N E S OF ACTI VITY IS I N NO W A Y LIM ITED. ON E'S B E I NG BURNS WITH THE D E S I R E TO BECOME P U R E B E I NG TH ROUGH AND THROUGHOUT AS THE N I GHT. LAU R E WAS G R I PPED B Y SUCH EXTR E M E A N G U I S H T H A T SHE I N SA N E LY A N D BLI N DLY BEGAN TO RUN. BRIGHTER LOVE SHOWS ITSELF CAPABLE O F CRUMBLING THE P R I SON WALLS AROU ND EACH O F U S . U N A C H I E V A B L E H A P P I N E SS. WHAT WE HAD ALREADY PA I D FOR TH E SELF. H O W M A N Y TI M E S WHEN WE WERE T OG E T H E R DID WE ACH I E V E EXTR E M E DARKN ESS. ACC ESSIBLE O N LY TO SHADOWS. ALL O F A SUDDEN. PORTRAIT OF C I N DERS A N D FLA M ES THAT A N D R E MASSON PAINTED AFTER WE D E SC R I B E D THE WHAT I FELT YESTERDAY WAS NO MORE B U R N I NG . THIS BREAD LINGERS AND AS THE M E MORY AS OF A MEN. TER R I F I E D. N E A R THE M I DDLE OF THE WAY. N O 1 37 . FOR SOM E REASON. IT B U R N S EVEN SCE N E T O H I M W A S N E A R LAURE W H E N S H E D I E D: I T IS STI L L IN MY R OOM. AFTER A LONG W H I LE. THAT STARY VOI D T H A T W E B R E AT H E D IN. T R O U B L E D BY A M E MORY S O FULL OF NOCTU RNAL TE R ROR. SHE WOULD WALK S I L E NTLY AT MY S I DE. O F T H E PE RSON I A M N O W AS I WRITE T H I S. SUDDEN LY. I BEGAN TO TREMBLE A N D TO ASK H E R PA RDON.

BUT I M UST M A K E A CONCENTRATED EFFORT TO LEAVE COMPARE E V E R YTH I NG I DO TO TH I S M E MORY. E X P R E S S HOW MUCH I I WAS MOVED.WORDS COULD E V E R AWARE OF HER. M E A N I NG TO HIS LOVE A S H E WOULD TO ALMOST A N YTH I NG E LSE. SOMETI M E S I DRANK. HE WAS B LI N D AND PARALYZED AND HE CATACLYSM H A S B E E N G ROWI NG NOW FOR OVER A MONTH . BUT THIS MORNING. M I RACU­ A SUN S I M I LA R NIGHTS I S EQUA LLY I NDESCRIBA BLE. I OFTEN FACED HER IN TERRO R . T H E SKY WAS SLIG HTLY H AZY. THE NOR CAN EXPRESS J U ST HOW B E A UTIFUL SHE WAS. BY THE CROWD'S SOR D I D RAGE. 1 9 39 A N D H ATRED F O R ME. OF C H AOS A N D OF D E A T H . . AND I HAVE TH E STRENGTH TO DO THIS ON LY R A RELY. H E R GRAVE. S P R I NGS U P A L L O F A S U D D E N " L I K E A ROBBER I N T H E N I GHT' A N D SPREADS A C H I LL I N G E M B R A C E A S D E E P A N D A I R Y A S A N IGHT W I N D. I [ .I A T LEAST H E W H O LOVES B E Y O N D TH E GRA VE H A S THE R I G HT TO FREE T H E LOVE WITH I N H I MSELF FROM ITS H U MAN CON F I N ES. . I BEGAN TO TAKE . TH E SECRET T R A N S P A R E N C E OF T H E LIGHT. BUT NOW I S E N S E A N E W N E RVOUS CONDITION. . BUT THERE WERE N O C LOUDS. THIS MOR N I NG I M A N A G E D TO ESCAPE IT SOMEHOW. I N T H I S ROOM THAT I M U ST SOON LEAVE. BUT IN ORDER TO ACT. SO M U C H LOUS DARKN ESS. THIS MORN I NG I FOU N D M Y SELF IN AN ANGELIC • . . THE FLA S H I N G TRANSPARENCE OF N E A RBY FOREST. IT WAS T E R R I FY I NG. SO IT IS E A S I E R FOR ME J U ST TO GRIT MY TEETH . BECA USE I S I M PLY CAN'T U N LE S S I SET OUT TO A C H I EVE THE B A R E LY AC H I EVA B L E. . R E F U G E IN A SICKLY TORPOR. H A LF CRAZED. . MY I FORT U I TOU S WILL I AM NEVER M A DE . I . THESE TH I NGS O F W H I C H I F E E L I T N ECESSARY TO I NC LUDE T H I S PASSAGE FROM L A U R E'S LETTER TO J EAN G R E M I LLON OF CONF U S I NG M Y S E LF WITH TH E I M M E N S E SOR ROW OF A FRACTU R E D WORLD. A S SOFT A S A N A X E F LA S H I N G I N THE N IGHT. FOR FOUR DAYS NOW IT H A S BEEN GETTING WORSE. S E N S U A LITY. I WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO YOU A BOUT IT. I LOVE WHO I A M SO M U C H I BUT I'VE R E MA I N ED FAITHFUL T O DEATH (LIKE A S E PTEM B E R (OR OCTOB E R ) OF RETURN FROM ITALY: 1 9 3 7 . THE R E S E M B LE N C E G R E W THROUG HOUT HER LONG HER PE RIOD OF S U FF E R I N G W H I L E FEVER W O R E DO W N . . ABA N DON PERVERSIONS. A BRIEF R E SPITE. . A WOR L D FRACTU R E D BY ILL TEMPER. P E R H A P S M O S T D U R I N G H E R F I T S O F A N G E R S E PTEMBER 1 9. SO M A N Y C U RSES. . T H E O N L Y HOUSE TO A FFORD L A U R E SOM E REST BEFORE SHE DI ED. A TTE N D E D BY T H E M A I D. I F A I T H F U L LOV E R) [ . THE C ROW A N D THE DESERT . ) I FLED LA U R E . . I DON'T EVEN LOOK AT T H E M A N Y MORE. E M PTY. S U R RO U N D E D BY G R A N D OLD TREES. . I A B A N DO N E D G E R M A N I NVASION. I FLED MY FATH ER. HE STA Y E D B E H I N D I N R H E I MS. SO H A RD-HARD E NOUGH TO B R EAK MY JAWS:' I COPI E D THESE SENTENCES DOWN BUT I DON'T THIS PRESENCE. AFTER OU R " G EORGES A N D I C L I M B E D ETNA. B Y M I S E R Y C R I NG I NG B E F O R E FATE. H E R E W H E R E E V E R YTH I NG WA S ACCO M ­ OF T H E A PPARENT CONTRADICTIONS. TH E R I G H T TO GIVE AS MUCH ATTE N UATED BY A LU M I NO U S HAZE A N D SOON. A L L THE M A JESTY OF R E C E D I NG MY LIFE. CONTIN U A LLY E XP E R I E NC E D G R E A T P A I N .F I V E Y E A R S HIM TO FATE D U R I NG TH E T H I S IS NOT A F E E L I N G THAT I ALO N E EXPERI ENCE. A L L OF T H E S H UTTERS W E R E W I DE OPEN. . THE FINAL DEPARTURE. 1 9 39 GIVEN ANY LESS OF MYSEL� BUT AS SHE A PPROA C H E D THE T E R R I BL E E N D .I K NOW ANYMORE IF T H E R E IS ANY TRUTH TO THEM. HER I M P E R FECT BEA UTY WAS THE FLU I D I M AGE OF A N A R DE NT AND U NC E RTA I N DESTINY. IT D E M A N D S THAT I LEAVE JUST AS FORC I B LY . I COULD N EVER H A V E S E PTE M B E R 20. SOM ETI M E S I JUST WASN'T T H E R E . A N E RVOU S N E S S THAT CAN O N LY LEA D TO A AGO. A N D THE P L A N T S I N T H E W I N DOW H ARDLY S U D D E N PA N I C A N D S U FF E R I N G AS W E LL AS THAT NIGHT OF PA I N FU L AND SOR ROWFUL C R I E S W H E N 1 38 . I WAS EQUALLY TERRIFIED B EC A U S E LA U R E'S FACE VAG U ELY R E S E M B L E D T H E HORRI B LY TRAGIC FACE OF THAT MAN O E D I P U S . T H I S HOUSE. . . BUT I CAN'T WI THOUT A GREAT DEAL OF U N EASI NESS. I TRI E D TO FLEE WHAT I S A W TH E R E . ALTHOUGH I WAS BY H E R S I D E U NTIL T H E V E R Y E N D. HOW CAN I POS S I B LY ACT I F THE I M PERATIVES WHICH CONTROL ME ARE LA U R E'S PLISHED. ( I FLED HER IN A MORAL SENSE. ' ] . ONE MUST FOLLOW A C R U E L I M PERATIVE TO IGNORE A LL H A R MONY WITH R E A LITY THAT WAS THE MOST T H I S MORNI NG. (TWENTY. LA U R E'S P R E S ENCE. WH I LE I FLED WITH M Y MOTH ER. J T H E N A T U R A L CONDITION OF S I M PLI C I TY IS ACTION.

LONGER I BROKE OUT M E. FROM I NVADING T H E HOUSE A N D H E R DO I T WITH DUTHU I T. MADE SENSE: S H E WOULD A S K M E T O LOOK I N H E R BAG O R A MONG H E R PAPERS FOR SOMETHI N G THAT SHE URGE NTLY N E E D ED. THAT I C O U L D N E V E R S P E A K TO H E R A G A I N . IT IS ONLY BECAUSE THEY U N ITE SOME OTHE R THI NGS WHICH WERE PREVIOUSLY SEARCH­ I NG FOR EACH OTH E R. H O N E STY N OW H E R E MORE PERTI N E N T THAT I N THAT PARTICU LA R A RTICLE. I WAS SO OVERCO M E [CROSSED OUT: I WROTE IT LAST YEA R. I DI DN'T. WHEN CONDITION H A D WORS E N ED. IS B U R N I N G E X I S­ MOST P E R H A PS T H E PRODUCT OF H U M A N INTERACTION." I I M M E D I ATELY ADDED A NOTE IN THE MARGINS TO A MONG ALL THE PIECES I'VE W R I TT E N FOR C L E A R LY I N D I C ATE. B R I E F LY. S E NTENCES THAT SCREAM CONTI N U A LLY D I E FROM TH E I R OWN OUTBU RST. OCTOB E R I. WE C A N NOT POSSI B LY L I M I T HOPE NOW. I T R I E D SPEAKING TO HER. FOR THE F I RST TIME. I H A D COME T O TH E P A S S A G E I N T H E A RTICLE WHERE I WAS DESCR I B I NG T H E I D ENTITY OF THE WHICH WE ARE I A LW A Y S S E E K I N G AS SOMETI MES. I H A D THE "CH RISTIANITY HAS SUBSTANTIALIZED T H E SACRED. AT TIM ES. WE C U R R E NTLY R ECOG N I ZE T H E TENCE ELUSIVE SACRED OF R ELIGION. BUT I COULD BARELY MANAGE ANOTHE R TWO S E NTENCES. ITS "CO M M U N ICATION" I S NO MORE C L U M S I LY DISTANCED OR U N EASY THAN I N MOST OF WHAT I HAVE P U B L I S H E D S I NCE. T H E N U R S E W H I S P E R E D TO M E THAT I T W A S A L L OV ER. LATER I N THE A RTICLE. FROM A UGUST THROUGH NOV E M B E R." O N LY ONE. I SHOULD ALSO MENTION ONE E S S E N TI A L D E TA I L • • ABOUT THE SHE SUFFERED FOR FO UR DAYS. IN WHICH 1 39 . THAT W E WOULD NEVER SPEAK TO EACH OTH E R AGAIN. A R E A L LY IT E S S E NTI A L C H A NG E BE ATTRI B UT E D COM E S T O TH E TO HER. E NTITLED THE SACRED A N D PUBLISHED IN C A H I E RS D'ART. I N TO L E T H A RGY. P O RT R A Y S WITH ANY REAL C L A R I TY THAT P A R T IC U L A R RESOLUTION WHICH I WROTE THESE WORDS IN TH E M ARGINS. MEN WHOSE LIVES SEEM N ECESSA R I LY LIKE A LONG STORM­ SUNLIGHT PLAYING OVER THE GOLD EN-RED LEAVES OF THE TREES A BOUT A H U N D R E D FEET FROM MY W I N DOW. D U R I N G T H E LAST FEW DAYS PF L A U R E'S SICKNESS. S H E G R E W TENSE O N LY TO QUICKLY R E LA P S E N OT H I N G . BUT T H E EXACT NATURE OF T H E SACRED. A CONVULSI V E MOMENT FULL OF W H A T I S NOR M A L LY SMOTH E R ED. I FEEL I M UST DESC R I B E ONE OF THE SITUATIONS S U R RO U N D I N G THE WRITING OF THE W H I M . THAT THIS WAS HOW SHE WOULD DIE I N A FEW HOURS. T H E IS NOTH I N G MORE T H A N A PRIVILEGED S E PTEMBER 30. SHE NO LONGER SAW ME NOR R ECOGNIZED MY PRESENCE. U N D E R STOOD WORLD COLLAPSED ALL A ROUND ME. SOM ETH I N G NO LESS D E L I R IOUS WHEN ABOUT. D U R I NG THE A FTER NOON O F NOV E M B E R 2. SHE S PO K E WRITTEN S E NT E N C E S I M P A RT A M E A N I NG. WE M U ST ERASE WHAT HAS BEEN WRITTEN BY PLAC ING IT IN THE S H A DOW THIS OF TH E R EA L I TY IS WHICH IT CONTI N U A LLY. THE MOMENT C A M E W H E N I WAS F I N A LLY ALLOWED TO SEE LA U R E AGA I N I N HER ROOM. BUT SHE DID NOT RESPOND. THE S P EC I A L E D I TOR OF T H E CAHIER D'ART ISSUE IN W H I C H I T WAS TO A PPEAR. I ESSENTIA LLY. TH E PUBLICATION I N A W I D E R A N G E O F P E RIODICALS. I TRIED TO CONTI N U E WRITI NG. AS I OFTEN MOTIVATES M E NOW. SHE R E M A I N E D A B S ENT. I CA M E ACROSS A S H E ET OF PAPER. 1 93 9 MOMENT OF U NITY I N COM M U N I O N . I U N D E R STOOD THAT IT W A S A L L OVE R . SHE U N D E R STOOD HER PHRASES ARTICLE. TALKING TO THI S OR TH AT PE RSON ACCOR D I N G TO SOME U N P R E D ICTA B L E C I R C U M STANCES S U RROUN . W H I C H I SHOWED TO HER. A BSORBED WITH I N A VAST DELI R I U M . M EA N I N G OF T H E S E LAST FEW L I N ES: "IDENTIFICA­ TION WITH LOVE. INTO TEA RS: THE PITILESS SHE NO EXPRESSES. I N ADDITION. 1. I R E A D LAURE'S WRITING. IN ANY C A S E. BLANK EXCEPT FOR THE HEADING THE SACRED. TH E N . BELIEVE THE REMAINING IGNORANCE A N D U N C E RTAINTY DOESNT MATTER. M A N U S C R I PTS B E FO R E I CONTI N U E D THOSE I FOR WHOM THAT R E A LLY I REMEMBERED LOOKING U P AT TH I S MOMENT A N D SEEING A TH I N RAY OF I N C R E D I B LY BEAUTI FU L INTENDED. AT LEAST TO MYSE LF. I I M M E DI ATELY REALIZED THAT HER S H O U L DN'T WORD. ALTHOUGH T H E P I E C E I S FAR BEH I N D ME NOW. • . I AGREED TO T H A T I WAS U N A B L E T O KEEP H E R MOTH E R A N D SISTERS ROOM. AS I DREW N E A R WHO C A N BE SAVED ONLY BY A BOLT OF LIGHT­ N I NG-WA IT FOR THA N SACRED. I I SHOWED HER EVE RY­ "G R A A L" TH I N G T H E R E BUT COULDN'T F I N D W H AT SH E RELIGION'S GOA L E N D E D WITH TH I S SENTENCE: WANTED. FOR FOU R DAYS.MY FATH E R A P P E A R E D B EFORE M E [ . THE D EMONSTRATI VE SOM E OF SIDE OF THE TEXT D I D IT WAS REACH DO WITH THE I NTENTION OF COM I N G BACK TO T H E M .

POWERLESS TO U N D E RSTA N D ANYTH I N G M O R E THAN H E R D E A T H . THE SENTENCE HAD PASSAGE ON SACRED. OF A N " A N G E L. WHEN IT WAS A LL OVER. WHATS LA U R E AND I OFTEN THOUGHT THAT THE WALL MORE.J 1 939 NOTICED THE PERIOD J UST BEFORE HER DE ATH. I M UST DESC R I B E A L L O F T H E D I S P A RATE E L E M E NTS T H A T M A K E U P T H E I R M E A N I NG. I F E E L OBLIGED TO TRY. I OF T H E M E V E R H A D T H E EXTRAO R D I N A RY S I G N I F I ­ C A N C E OF T H E S E T W O SENTENCES ON "CO M M U N I ­ CATION. COM M U N ICATING TO OTH ERS A R E A SON TO LIVE. ONCE I H A D THE O P PORTU N I TY TO R E A D T H E P A PERS S H E H A D LEFT B E H I N D. NOT H I N G I HAD EVER S A I D TO HER CAME CLOSE TO EXPRESSI NG T H I S I D E A . TH E S I L E N C E . AN IMAGE AT B E ST OF AN ECSTATIC OUTBU R ST. A BECAUSE "I NTELLECTUAL CONVE RSATIONS. AN I M A GE THAT ENCOMPASSES AN E N TI R E V I SION. ITSE LF. I T I S SELF-RAPE." AS F A R AWAY A N D AS I M PE RC E PTIBLE A S A DOT ON TH E H O R I ZON. WE A LMOST N E V E R C A R R IED ON "I NTELLEC ­ TUAL CONVERSATIONS. A FTER SHE D I E D. BUT SHE HAD NEVER ASKED ME TO READ ANY O F IT. W H E N I READ I LOVE HER NEITHER AS AN ANGEL NOR OF AS A WHAT S H E HAD WRITTEN. 'COM M U N I ­ CATION' E X P E R I E N C E D A S N U DITY. . B U T I C A N S P E A K OF N OT H I N G E LS E S I N C E THAT I D I SCOV E R E D THOSE TWO LAU RE'S LIFE AND MINE C OF F I N .FEELI NG S H E WOULD S P E A K TO ME AGAIN. FOR T H E R E A D I NG PAGES THAT F I RST TIME DURING I MAYBE THE ANGEL IS THE "MOV E M E NT OF THE WORLDS." OF L I G H TN I NG . BUT I DO K N OW THAT N O N E FINA LLY. I KNOW THAT S H E HAD WRITTEN. "TI M E" WAS R E A DY TO "CUT H E R DOWN:" IT DID A N D I STOOD WATC H I N G WHAT WAS H A P P E N I NG. [CROSSED O UT: I W I L L DESC R I B E O N LY ONE MORE THING TODAY: THE NEARLY S I M U LT A N E O U S P U B L ICATION O F THE TWO TEXTS OBLIGES M E TO LET M E I NTE R R U PT TH I S N A R R A TIVE FOR A MOMENT SAY TO THOSE WHO S U F F E R FROM THE S A M E TH I RST 1 40 . I DISDAINED THE I N EVITABLE I M PUDENCE OF B E TW E E N US WAS C R U M BLING. " I . I FOU N D MYSELF S I FTING THROUGH HAD HER P A P E RS. A FEW M O M E NTS B E FORE I NOTIC E D THAT LAURE W A S ABOUT T O D I E . E X I ST P R E S S E D TO H E R T H A T P A R A DOXICA L I D E A THAT TH E SACRED IS COMMUNICATION." ONCE SHE EVEN BLA M E D M E F O R NOT T A K I N G H E R S E R I O U SLY. OFTEN LAURE F E LT WAS IT AS R E P U LS E D A LOSS. OCTOB ER 2." THE FOLLOWI N G LAURE'S SCRAWL: "A POETIC WORK I S SACRED TO THE EXTENT THAT IT IS T H E C R EATION O F A TOPICAL EVE NT. THE ANGEL RAISES UP BEFORE ITSELF A LANCE O F CR YSTA L T H A T S H ATTERS I N . " FOR THIS R E A SON TO LIVE 'DIS PLACES' WHAT I HAD W R I TTEN IN MY I FIND IT VERY D I F F I C U LT TO EXPRESS J U ST EXACTLY WHAT THE P A R A LL E L PASSAGES M E A N . I CA N'T R E M E M B E R A N Y OF T H E S E COI N C I D E NCES. HEAVY WITH LIFE AND YET. WITHOUT A DOUBT. I E X P E R I ENCED ONE OF THE MOST VIOLENT E MOTIONS OF MY LI FE. BUT FI RST. SI NCE MY NOTION OF "UN ITY I N CO M M UN­ ION" FIGURES I M P L I C I TLY I N LAU RE'S IDEAS. E X ACTLY ARTICLE. I WON'T S A Y H O W S H E D I E D ALTHOUGH I F E E L M O S T " H O R R I B LY" TH E N E E D TO DESC R I B E IT. D E N U D I NG. N EV E R EX­ I K NOW THAT THIS D E S I R E T O D I E R E S I D E S ON T H E I M POSSIBLE E DG E S OF B E I NG. P I E RC I NG TH ROUGH THE CLOUDY T H I C K N ESS OF A N S W E R TO PRECISELY THAT Q UESTION COWE R I N G I N M E L I K E A STA R V I N G A N I M A L. THE SAME WORDS AND THE SAME DESIRES W E N T TH ROUGH O U R M I N D S AT THE SAME SHE TIME. I N E V E R THOUGHT I WOULD FIND AMONG ALL OF HER A B A N DO N E D WORKS AN TO D E SC R I B E A C APTIVATING I M AG E THAT J U ST C A M E TO MY M I ND. FO U N D TOWA RDS THE BOTTOM OF THE S E NTENCES IN PAGE. T H E TRUTH I S . 50 I M PORTANT TO ME THAT I R E M E M B E R EXACTLY HOW AND WHEN EVE RYTH I N G H A P P E N ED. IT APPEARS LIKE T H E U N FATHOMABLE VACI LLATIONS OF A STR E A K I STO P P E D LOOK I N G FOR WHAT SHE WANTED. I MYSELF DISCOV E R E D T H E NOTION O N LY ONCE I H A D PUT I T I N T O WORDS. BUT I WAS NEVER THAN MORE WHEN I D E E PLY READ TH E NOR B R UTALLY LAST I AF FECTED OF A R E C OG N I Z A B L E D I V I N ITY: THE VISION THE S H A TT E R E D C RYSTAL F R E E S T H E SC REA M I NG LOVE W I TH I N M E THAT M A K E S M E WANT TO D I E . THESE V E RY SENTENCES N OW H E R E E LS E BUT A T TH I S V E R Y POINT. THE N I GHT. BUT N E V E R A PP E A R I NG A S MORE THAN A STRA N G E LY INTERIOR GLOW. THE WHOLE QU ESTION WAS SENTENCES TH ROUGH LINK THE E A RTH COVER I N G HER MOREOVER." N EGATION OF H E RSELF.

THIS RAY OF I T I S C O L D A N D G R A Y . I HAVE N E V E R F E L T SUCH GE NTLE P U R I TY. A N D YET. I HAVE TO F I N D WORDS W H I C H GO STRAIGHT TO THE H E A RT. I T I S ON LY A F L I C K E R I NG IN THE VOID AS IF A NOCTU R N A L BUTTERFLY. I M AG I N E A N YTH I NG MORE S W E E T B E H I N D THE D U ST. FACED OF G L ASS. B E H I N D THE W I NDOW. T H E SLIGHTEST B R E A K I N ATTENTI O N .A S L A U R E A N D I TH AT] GRAVEDIGGERS. M Y "TONGUE IS TIED. T H E AWAY AS M I SS I O N I M UST FULFILL I S A S FAR POSSI B LE FROM THE OBSC U R E N E E D I FEELING OF HORROR>' FEEL TO LOSE M Y S E LF. S U D D E N LY. THE D E A D BRANCHES A N D THE U PTU R N E D STONES THAN THESE S I LENT B I RDS. TODAY I S W I NTER. A N D . OF MY DESOLATION BUT TO OPEN UP I B E FO R E ON THE OTH E R HAND. I A M G R I P P E D BY A K I N D OF MONOTONOUS A N D A B S E N T ECSTASY. A BOUT A YEAR AGO. OCTOBER 4. IT IS B EC O M I N G MORE D I F F I C U LT FOR M E TO AT TH IS MOME NT. BUT I HAVE N'T FI N I S H E D: I'VE H A RDLY BEGUN. 141 . UNAWARE OF ITS E TH E R I A L B E A UTY. H A D COME TO REST ON THE H E A D OF A S L E E P I N G MAN. THERE. OF THE LEA R N E D C LA S S OF T H E OCTOBER 3.. IN FACT. I WANTED TO B R I N G M Y S E L F TO TH I S POINT. FAR FROM SHORE AND NO LESS A STR A N G E R TO MYSELF TH A N THROUGH UNREAL R U I NS. AND NOT O N LY THAT: BUT FROM W I TH I N T H I S "KI NGDOM" I INCREDIBLE SOFTNESS CONTI N U E D TO COM E THROUGH TO M E DESPITE DEATH A S IT H A D EVEN W H E N S H E WAS EXTREM E LY ANGRY A N D VIOLENT TOWA RDS ME ( I C A N NOT REC A L L THOSE M O M E NTS W ITHOUT A HAVE TO SPEAK W ITHOUT STUTTE R I NG." DESERTED. ONCE AGAIN. I F E LT ECSTATICA LLY LOST. I'M THROWN BACK TO THE DESERT WORLD OF LAST FALL. OR MORE EXACTLY. PAPERS WERE SPREAD A BOUT IN THE D E S K AS IF I N PREPA R ATION FOR A V I SIT. W HAT'S H A P P E N I NG TO ME S P LE N D I D I N S U FF E RA B L E . AT THE DESOLATE EDGE OF E V E R YTH ING H U M AN. T H I S TIME. A T T H I S M O M E N T. THE F I RST REAL D A Y OF AUTUMN OR 1 939 STRUGGLING TO P I E RC E TH ROUGH THE NOV E M B E R FOG. U N D E R T H E D UST. I W A S W A N D E R I NG A I M LESSLY. I COULDN'T I LLUSION DISAPPEARS SLIGHTEST H E S ITATION. THROUGH THE THE R O TT E N U N D E RG R O W T H . A N D I KNEW IT FOR A LONG TI M E. I AM ENTE R I N G A DESERT OF TOTAL SOLITU D E WHOSE E M PTINESS L A U R E . THE DISTANCE BETWE E N MY LIFE AND LAU RE'S COTTAGE. ONCE A G A I N . I NEVERTHELESS ABANDONED ME FELT AND THAT T H AT LAURE HER HAD NOT CONTI N U E. F E E L I NG THAT I MYSELF HAD BEEN WITH WHAT I STI LL W A N T TO SAY. WAITED A N D I TREMB LED. I M U S T B E E N T E R I N G T H A T "KI NGDOM" WHERE EVEN THE K I NGS ARE AT A LOSS. EXOTIC B I R D S. IT EXCEPT W H E N I W A S N E A R LA U R E . THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY I C O U LD DO IT. FROM THIS NOTH I NG FA I R Y AT OF MYSELF C A N TA L E . SUCH S I LE N T S I M PLI· CITY. I FOU N D A R A Y OF M AGICAL SUN LIGHT ON THE T H R E S HOLD OF THAT DESERT. ONLY M A G N I F I ES. SUN LIGHT R E V E A L E D B E FO R E M E A N O L D P A N E O F GLASS IN THE W I N DO W OF AN A B A N DO N E D A N YONE LOST A T SEA. HE HAD WHITE H A I R A N D A LOOK TH A T S E E M E D TO ME TO BE ONE OF GOODW I L L A N D A N G E L I C NOB I L I TY. WAS A C O L L ECTION OF BR IGHTLY COLO R E D . COV E R E D ON THE O U TS I D E WITH A CENTURY OF D U ST. FROM THE DEPTHS O F M Y MISERY. WAS OBVIOUS THAT NOTH ING HAD B E E N TOUC H E D SI NCE S O M E LONG A G O DEATH. I F E E L FROZEN AND NUMB . I H A D J US T WA N D E R E D THROUGH A FOREST A FT E R HAVING L E FT LA U R E' S BODY TO THE DEATH V A N ISHES. I WOU LD HAVE TAKEN I T A S A N A CC U R A TE I MAGE OF MY OWN M I S FORTU N E. FORGOTTEN BY THE I R MA STER WHO H A D LONG S I N C E D I S A P P E A R E D. NOW DEAD. I W A L K E D A LONG A P ROTRU D I N G W A L L O F BRICK UNTIL I D I SCOV E R E D A M U STY PA N E AT THE ONSET OF THE WAR W H E N I BEGAN WRITI NG. T H I S F R AG I L E THE SIGN OF THE AWAY. A FEW FEET TODAY I S SO VERY I N E X P R E S S I B L E AND A S FO REIGN TO WHAT IS REA L A S A DREAM. 1 939 SECO N D E M P I RE. W I THOUT ALMOST ANIMAL E M E RG E A USTER ITY. I NOTI C E D A PHOTO. GRAPH OF THE OWN E R NOT FA R FROM THE W I N DOW. I CLENCH MY TEETH AS I DID LAST YEAR. I WAS R E A DY T O W A I T A N I NF I N I TY FOR THE WORLD ME. I D EC I D E D TO DO W H A T I'M DOING NOW SEVERA L WEEKS B E FORE THE WA R BROKE OUT. WHAT I SAW TH ROUGH THE W I N DOW WHERE M Y W A N DERING H A D B ROUGHT M E W A S ON T H E CONTR A R Y TH E V E R Y I M AG E OF L I F E I N ITS MOST LUC I D WH I M S I ES. I F SOME V I S I O N OF DECAY OR WASTE H A D A PPEARED TO ME IN T H I S A BA NDON E D PLACE. HE WORE THE CLOTH E S OF THE M I DD L E C LASS.

DESPITE MY FRAME OF M I ND. S H E WAS LOST WITHIN H E RSELF. C LI N G I N G TO T H I S SUFFERING A S TO A CHANCE TO LIVE. LA URE D I E D J U ST AS SHE W A S L I FTING ONE OF A B U N C H O F ROSES SPREAD OUT BEFORE H ER. ON SEPTEMBER 2B. . I C R I T I C I Z E D L A U R E ' S VIOLENT C U R S I NG A LTHOUGH I BOR E I T WITH N O LITTLE PAI N. AT L E A ST. S H E B ROUGHT THE ROSE TO H E R L I P S A N D KISSED I T WITH A DELIRIOUS PASSION A S I F S H E W A N T E D TO H O L D I N EVERYTH I NG T H A T W A S ESCA PING HER. PERHAPS IT WAS S I M PLY H EARTRENDING. "THE COLOR OF A U T U M N :' BARELY OPENED. YESTER DAY. IT WAS A ROSE. 1 9 3 9 OCTOBER 2 1 . BUT THOSE WHO HAVE OUT MY P A T I E N C E H A V E C O M P L ET E LY DESTROY E D T H E R AP PORT THAT I HAVE WITH THEM. M Y HEART WAS LAURE S T R E TC H E D OUT ON THE BED.W H E N I WALK TH ROUGH THE STRE ETS OF R H E I MS. MY GAZE FIXED ON LA U R E'S D E A T H B E D (TH E O N E IN W H I C H I NOW SLEEP EVERY N I GHT!. P E R H A PS LA URE'S VOIC E WASN'T PAI N ED. W H I L E I WAS I SENT A LETTE R TOD A Y B R E A K I N G OFF RELATIONS WITH SOME PEOPLE WHOM I SHOULD NEVER HAVE T R U S T E D TO B EG I N W I T H . IN THE OFFICE OF ONE OF M Y CO­ WORK E R S. . THIS PEC U L I A R AND PAI N F U L CONTRAC­ TION OF MY ENTIRE LIFE THAT IS SO C LEARLY I S THE O N LY WAY I CAN LINKED TO LAURE'S DEATH A N D THE L I NGERING SADNESS OF A UTU M N "CRUCI FY" MYSELF. B U T A BEAUTI FUL NEED H A S BEEN I NS C R I B E D W I TH I N M E AS I T W A S W I TH I N LA U R E'S DESTI N Y. I H A V E SECO N D THOUGHTS ABOUT MY DECISIONS. ONE M U ST HAVE SO M UC H LOV E T H A T E V E N O N I TS T H R E S H O L D . I WROTE: "I R EALIZE THAT IF I WANT TO OVERCOM E MY EROTIC HABITS.'" T H I S WAS ONE OF HER LAST COHERENT SENTENCES. ASCETICISM. E V E R Y T H I NG W I T H O U T M Y I N EXPLICABLE PATI E N C E.ND WITHERED SHRUBS. I PICKED IT A N D B ROUGHT IT TO LAURE. T H E U P L I FTED ROSE A N D THE C R Y R E M A I N E D I N M Y H EART F O R A LONG T I M E. BREATH I NG CONVUL­ S I V E LY. OCTOBE R 1 I . AN I NT E R N A L V I S I O N M A I N T A I N E D B Y A S I L E N T L Y EXP E R I E NC E D N EE D. K N OWING WHAT I HAVE LIVED THROUGH A N D WHAT I LOST LOVE." WHAT I NOW P E RC E I V E FRIGHTENS ME L. I M P E R C E PT I B LY . WITHIN THE D A R K N ESS O F T H I S THORAC I C CAGE. T H E R E I N THAT OFFICE A N D LATE R THAT E V E N I NG. IT S I M PLY A P P E A R E D I N PLACE AS THE FOG L I FTED LITTLE BY LITTLE. 1 . HOLDI NG IT AS I F E X H A U STED. D E A T H A P P E A R S L U D I C R O U S . NOW. BEC A U S E A M A N W H O D E S I R E S BEAUTY F O R W H A T IT I S W I L L N E V E R E N T E R I NTO THE WORLD. HATRED. N E I TH E R O F U S D I D A N YT H I NG (OR VERY LITTLE) TO OCTOBER 1 2. I T DEPENDED ON D I SASTE R NO MORE THAN IT D I D O N DREA MS. SHE WAS 1 42 . W H E R E I CANNOT LOOK AT A W I NDOW. WHILE H E WAS ON THE TELEPHONE. S H E FLUNG T H E ROSE L I K E A C H I LD THROWING DOWN ITS TOYS AND ONCE AGA I N . BUT W H E N I G A V E H E R T H E R O S E . [CROSSED OUT: O F T E N . THEN. LOST WITH I N AN I N D E F I N ITE DELI R I U M . A TREE OR A CABI N ET D O O R W I T H O U T A G R E A T D E A L OF A N G U I S H . IT MUST B E A S I NTOXICATING AS A LCOHOL. . . I COULD BODI L Y LEAVE THIS DREAM PLACE. I R ETREATED WITH I N M YSELF. I D I SCOVER ANEW A TRUTH THAT KEEPS ME FROM SLEEPI NG. I M U ST I N VENT A NEW WAY OF C R UCIFYING M YSELF. SHE WAS A STRANGER TO ALL WHO A PP ROACHED H E R. LAURE A N D THE BED W E R E WITH I N MY H E A RT: I N FACT. A N G U I S H AND THE DOM I NATION OF FEAR A R E A LL N ECESSA RY. I R E M E M B ERED WHAT I HAD FELT THAT M O R N I NG. "ITS BEAUTI F U L. 1 9 3 9 D U R I N G LA U R E ' S LAST H O U R S . TOO O FT E N . I FOU N D ONE OF THE MOST BEA UTI FUL FLOWERS I H A V E EVER SEEN. I T WASN'T A RANDOM THOUGHT [. I N SA NTlY. l . . " THAT WAS A VISION. 0 0 1 W A N D E R I N G A R O U N D O U R D I L A P I DA T E D Y A R D A M I DST T H E D E A D LEAVES A. " TA K E A FLOWER A N D LOOK AT IT UNTIL H A R MONY . A N D SHE C R I E D OUT IN A V O I C E A L MO S T A BS E N T AND I N F I N ITELY PA I N F U L: "TH E ROSEl"' I THI N K TH ESE W E R E H E R LAST WORDS. SHE C A M E O U T OF H E R STRANGE STATE LONG ENOUGH TO S M I LE AT M E AND SAY. A T R E E . A CABI N ET DOOR A R E NOTHI N G I F THEY C A NNOT BEAR WITNESS TO MOVE M E NT A N D TO HEARTRENDING DESTR UCTION [ . 1 9 39 O RG A N I ZE T H E W O R L D A R O U N D O U R S E LV E S .1 WHAT S U R ROUNDS ME NOW COULD A L L DISAPPEAR I N A FEW HOURS. A N E E D TO MOVE A RO U N D I N A WOR L D F U L L OF S E C R E T M E A N I NG S . 0 0 1 . T H I S LASTED B UT A MOMENT. I REALIZE THAT I WOU L D H A V E WORN r. A W I N DO W . I WAS O V E R C O M � W I T H A N G U I S H .

1 43 . WE ASKED M A U R I C E H E I N E TO D R I V E U S T O T H E SPOT THAT S A D E H A D CHOSEN FOR HIS OWN B U R I A L. THAT EVENI NG. W E TRAVELLED OVER TH E MONTAI G U PLA I N S WHOSE H ILLS BUT AND NO DREAMED ABOUT WUTH E R I N G H E I G HTS. COLOMB-BECHAR. BRANCHES O F A T R E E I WOULD HAVE WANTED HIM TO A LW A Y S ACCO M P A N Y M E I'VE STOPPED T H I N K I NG I N S I STE NTLY A BOUT LAURE. SOMETIMES WITH TERROR. I N FRONT OF A T R E E TH AT H A D BEEN STRUCK BY LIGHTNI NG. MOUNTA I N S W A S N E C E S S A R Y TO H E L P M E FORGET MY D I SLI KE FOR "CO M E D Y . I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT SOMETIMES. SPOT WITH M I C H E L L E I R I S A N D ZETTE. A FTE R A LL. " H E SHALL B E SOWN OVER THE ACORNS . B U T NO SOONER H A D W E MICHEL RETU RNED T H A N LA U R E B E G A N T O F E E L THE F I RST E F F ECTS OF THE I L L N ESS THAT E V E N T U A LLY CAUSED HER DEATH. AS WE H A D EXPECTED. OF ALL THINGS CAPABLE OF SURVIVING ANY AND ALL VICISSITUDES. WHAT U N ITES US WITH J U ST A FEW I N D I V IDUALS IN M A RC H OF 1 938. I S U PPOSE T H I S F R O M H O U S E TO H O U S E I N T H E FI ELDS G REATLY D ELIGHTED LA U R E . IN DECEM B E R OF 1 937. . A N D PRECEDE M E . . I T S E E M S TO M E . S H E HAD A H I G H FEVER AND I. WHEN I'M IN A MELANCHOLIC MOOD. CON S U M E D BY OAK R OOTS.. ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED IN ONE YEAR D I S I NTEGRATING TO NOTH I NGN ESS IN T H E E A RTH BEN EATH A THICKET O F BUSHES .NOVE M B E R 7. TO NOT LOVE D E N I S E T H I S W A Y . EVEN DREAMED ABOUT IT I N P E R EG R I N ATION F E R LUC. A FTER WE R ETU R N E D . " BUT THAT IS MY SOONER HAD WE ENTERED THE FO REST THAN SHE SAW TWO DEAD CROWS. HE HAS NEVER BEFORE BEAUTIFUL COULD H AV E EVER I M AG I N ED (BUT BEAUTIFUL. TO N O T F E E L THIS DEATH . RATHER. • • HANGING FROM THE C U R R E N T E XPLA N ATION. HERE WE ARE. W E WANTED TO I NVITE T H E M T O H A V E D I N N E R WITH US. I A U TOMATICALLY LA U R E A N D I P R E P A R E D A D I N N E R FOR I V A NOV A N D o06IEVTSOVA." LAURE WENT OUT ONLY ONCE. LAST S A T U R D A Y. LA U R E THOUGHT A BO U T FORGIVE M E AND UNDERSTAND DESPITIE M Y WORDS ALL THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO YOU AS SPONTANEOUSLY AS AN EXPRESSION OF GRIEF OR A BURST OF LAUGHTER . WE WENT BACK TO THE SAME CANNOT BE THE EXTENT OF ALL H U MANLY VALUABLE THINGS. J WENT TO BED. AFTER S H E SAW I J U ST C A M E OUT OF THE H E LD E R THEATER WHERE I SAW WUTHERING H E I G H TS: H EA T H C L I F F L I V I NG WITH CATHY'S GHOST AS I WANTED TO LIVE WITH LA U R E'S G H OST. I I SADE'S "GRAVE. AT E P E RON. EVERYTHING CONSIDERED. . ARE MORE REASON TO HOPE THAN TO DESPAIR. 1 9 3 9 EVERYT H I NG. OCTOBER 2 9 . IT WAS SNOWING I DONT WANT TO I N SIST ON A N Y O N E THING (ANY THAT DAY. I HOPE YOU WILL A R R I VED I N B R O A D DAYLIGHT AT THE E D G E OF T H E P O N D SA D E H A D CHOSEN. UNAWARE THAT SHE WO U L D PROBABLY N E V E R GET U P AGA I N. I T I S A S I NCONC E I V A B L E A S A PLANT THAT H A S STOPPED B U D D I NG A N D G ROWING [ • • . . ON THE WAY THERE. . J. TA KING LEI R I S A N D ZETTE FOR A WA LK A LONG A PATH WE BOTH LIKED. D E A R GEORGES. OUT OF MODESTY PERHAPS. I N EB RIATED MORE BY THIS WEIGHTY THAN I P U R I TY OF DENISE. OR OUT OF HUMAN RESPECT (SACRIFICING ONCE MORE MY MANIA TO REDUCE EVERYTHING!. POSSESSES M E ENTI R E LY. L A U R E S A W THE L A S T F I L M OF H E R LIFE. TH E GERM A N S H A D J UST TA KEN V I E N N A AND THE A I R ALREADY SMELLED OF WAR. . I N T H E M I DDLE OF A LL TH I S C H A OS. . A N D WE LOST OUR WAY I N T H E FOREST. I'M B EG I N N I N G TO FEEL MORE A ND M O R E I G N O R ANT. D I N N E R WAS NO LESS SAVAGE THAN THE WIND. . T H E O N E W A Y T R I P (A 1 9 32 F I L M BY TAY G A R N ETT) W H I C H S H E H A D I'M USING RATHER SOLEMN LANGUAGE H ERE-FAR N E V E R SEEN BEFORE.L I K E U N EA S I ­ NESS IN MY H E A RT WO U L D BE TO BETRAY EXPRESSED H I M S E LF L I K E T H I S . 1 93 9 THE THOUGHT OF D E N I SE. AND WE FROM MY USUAL PRACTIC E-LANGUAGE WHICH MAKES ME A LITTLE ASHAMED. I RECEIVED T H E FOLLOWI N G LETTER FROM M I C H E L LEI R I S LAST S U N DAY. CLOSE TO THAT MOMENT OF THE YEAR WHEN WE CAN LOOK BACK AND CONSIDER. SHE WALKED A LL D A Y A S I F DEATH W E R E N'T W E A R I NG HER AWAY. HEINE D I DN'T GO WITH US. THE WINO WAS SAVAGE. RETURN TO CERTAIN MEMORIES WHICH. AT THE E N D OF AUGUST. ALIVE. ALIVE. I TOOK H E R BY CAR TO OUR SAINT G E R MA I N HOUSE I N THE FOREST. AS AN A N I M A L IS BEA UTIFUL). INSISTENCE WOULD BE A SACRILEGE I N THIS CASE). IN LA V A I S S E NET. ODdlEVTSOVA UNDRESSED AND BEGA N VOM ITI NG. I A M LA U R E DIED O N E YEA R A G O TODAY. ON T H I S OCCASION. S H E FELL ONCE.

I B I R DS AS A U N D E R STOOD ONLY BUT BY THEN. J U N E 3. I PLAYED WITH LA URE. F.LIKE A KNIGHT A N D H I S H ERALD. . W H E N I PASSED BY THE SA M E S POT. I'M W R I TI NG T H I S NOW A S E V E RYTH I NG I S T E N D I NG TOWA RDS THE "SONOROUS. i FOUN D DEATH M A SQU E R A D ! N G . ABSURD A N D VIOLENT C H AOS" W O R LD]. D ESTROYED. LA U R E DIED. L A U R E CONCERNING T H E MANUSCRIPT T O APPEAR UNDER THE TITLE OF THE CULPRIT. WHOEVE R TOLERATED A MORE TERRIBLE FU RY? YET 1 44 . I H A D JUST LOOKED THROUGH H E R M A N U SC R I PTS A N D ONE OF THE FI RST I HAD READ WAS T H E C ROW. I SAW THE TWO C ROWS A FEW DAYS LATER. TOO? H E R S E L F W ROTE THAT TH E HOUSE W H I C H S H E D I S D A I N FU LLY C A L L E D "TH E N U N N E RY" WOU L D C E R TA I N L Y C O M E TO A D I S A ST R O U S E N D .. I'LL M I S S THE SUN. WHICH I S MORE O R LESS THE D I A R Y OF LAURE'S DEATH. 1 940 SOON. CA N'T STA N D TO SEE THEM FORGET HOW M UC H GOOD FORT U N E T H E Y WOULD H A V E WOU L D PLAY. P . J . NOW I CAN NO LONGE R REST B ECAUSE I WON. NOT H I NG MORE THAN A N INERT BODY. IF LA U R E USED TO P LAY. SAID LAURE. I TAKEN T H E N A M E LAURE. AFTER H E R LA U R E WAS D E A T H THAT S H E H A D C O N S I D E R E D TH E D E A D SIGN. WILL S A I NT G E R M A I N C R UMBLE TO THE G RO U N D. PA R I S WAS J U ST BOM B E D [C ROSSED OUT: AND ON NI ETZSCH E SOMEONE TOLD M E THAT A BOMB H A D FA LLEN ON T H E BOI LEAU STREET CLINIC WHERE LAURE HAD SPENT TWO MONTHS BEFORE OUR TRIP TO SA I N T G E R M A I N ON J U LY T U A LLY DIED. I 1 !s. WHERE S H E EVEN­ DON'T K NOW I F A NYTH I N G WAS IN A LETTE R TO L E I R I S . BEGUN ON YEA R "LATE. A M A PROVOCATION. . WHOEVER M ET A N YTHI NG MORE HUMAN. 1 938. THE SPACING OF THESE I N C I S IO N S THE N A R R A TI V E THE R E P R E S E NTS A C E N T R A L LOC U S I N R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N BATAI LL E A N D LA U R E . F R O M T H E W R I T I N G S OF LA URE) I HAVE J UST TOL D YOU A BOUT M Y LIFE: DEATH H A D W E WERE NOT FAR FROM THE HOUSE. LA U R E PLAYED A N D WON. C O M PLETE WITH GARTERS AND BLACK S I LK GEORGES BATAILLE TRANSLATED BY TOM G O RA STOCKI NGS. R E A N I MATE T H I S REALLY I NS A N E FATE .. THI S F U R Y TOOK ME BY T H E HAND A N D LED ME I NTO H ELL. I T H E Y ONLY CHOKED ON HER WORDS SO BADLY THAT I WAS F R IG H TE N E D. I TOLD H E R : SHE S H I V E R E D AND FOR THOSE WHOM I LOVE. A LL I C A N DO I S P L A Y AGA I N . SHE F O R E S A W AS T H E FATE O F T H E LET M E A D D : O N T H E TH R ESHOLD O F . (TH E C RO W . 5 NUD!TY." I T S E E M S THAT A L L OF TH E FRAGMENTS WHICH M E NTION HER N A M E HAVE BEEN CROSSED OUT OR OMITTED. G LORY. A LARGE "X" IN OR GAP INTE R R U PTS EACH OF THE PASSAGES ON H E R DEATH.

THOSE THIGHS T H A T W E R E LONG A N D S L I M W I T H TH E I R M U SCLES J U ST B A R E L Y V I SI B L E U N DER THE S K I N . OF A TWENTY-YEA R-OLD MAN FOR THIS OLD WOM A N W A S T H E V E R Y WATER OF L I FE. T H E R E FORE. S E N D I N G WAVES OF SWEET PA I N R I PPLI NG THROUGH M Y BODY. THE WET FABRIC OUTLI N I NG T H E SOFT CONVEXITY OF H E R BELLY A N D N A V E L. S U R ELY T H E PASSION 1 415 . C L I N G I N G TO H E R BODY. WAS UTTE R L Y INCO M P R E H E N S I BLE. S P R I N G I N G FROM THE WELL THAT HAD GON E DRY I N HER MANY YEA R S A SWA R M OF DESIRES F L E W T HROUGH MY MIND BEFOR E. R E M E M B E R E D H E R IN MY M I N D'S EYE: A J E A LOUSLY H I DDEN PH OTOG R A P H OF HER WITH HER DRESS. THE S H A P E OF H E R P U B I S AS I T DISAPPEARED BETW E E N HER THIGHS.MY LATE GRANDMOTHER THE C LOCK WAS STRI K I N G M I D N IG H T A S I ENTERED THE K I TC H E N WHERE M Y G R A N DMOTH E R WAS LYING. THE THOUGHT F L A S H E D TH ROUGH M Y M I N D THAT TH E OLD WOM A N . HAD I WAFTED U N D E R THOUGHT I HAD GRAN DSON. THE I D E A THAT S H E H A D T R I E D TO R ES I ST ME. B U T I T W A S A HA LF­ H E A RTED E FFORT AT B E ST. EVEN FOR A N I N STANT. HAD T R I E D TO REPEL M Y BY S U R RO U N D I N G HERSELF WITH HER S M ELL. AS THE G N A W I N G WOR M S ASSA I LED HER THAT I T R I E D T O D R I V E AWAY. A '4D F I N A LLY G ROWN ACCUSTO M E :) TO IT. F I LLED ME WITH G REAT EXCITE­ M E N T. WOULD T R Y T O R EJ ECT M E. S U S PECTING THE DESIRES STI R R I N G W I T H I N ME. I WAS FORCED TO HOLD M Y NOSE WHEN I F I RST C A M E THE SILK K E RC H I E F ON HER FACE A N D THE SHEET COV E R I N G HER BODY ONLY ADDED TO HOW I CLOSE TO T H E FOOT OF T H E B E D . F I R M AND PROUD. S U R E LY A L L S H E CO ULD EXPECT N O W WAS HER BODY'S SLOW D I S I NTEGRATION I N SOM E D A M P CRYPT FLESH. SLOWLY. ANY REJ ECTION OF ME. YET I COU L D NOT U NDERSTAND WHY SHE FOLLOW I N G T H E CONTO U R S OF H E R BREA STS. W A R M CONTRACTIONS G R I PPED M Y GUTS. THE D OO R OF M Y ROOM. SURELY. H E ADY FRAGRANCE BREATHED I T IN. THE CLOTH WAS STI C K I N G TO HER SKIN. TH E I R DEATH A N D M E MO R Y B E G A N T O D I STI L L AS M Y B O D Y AVI DLY DRENC H E D IN A SUDDEN SHOWER. A N D THOUGH I D I D EVENTUA LLY TAKE P L E A S U R E TH E R E I N . WITH TH E I R DARK N I PPLES ERECT FROM T H E FRESH CARESS OF T H E RA I N . H E R THE S M E LL. ALL DAY LON G .

A M PL E S K I RT. I CHOSE SOME SECTIONS OF HEAVY TWI N E USED FOR BINDING SHEAVES TH E R E WAS NO SOU N D OUTS I D E EXC E PT. V E R Y D A I NTY M A U V E PEARLS W E R E S E W N ON THE BODICE I N T H E S H A P E O F M A N Y­ FROM THE LOW CUT THE STEPS SLOWLY MOVED AWAY. SAFE F R O M A N Y I N TE R R U PTION I W E N T B A C K T O T H E BED. OF THE CLOTH. NOT U N D E RSTA N D I NG WHY HIS M I ST R E SS WOULD BECA USE O F TH E I R I D E A L LENGTH A N D THE LOOP AT O N E E N D. T H E Y HAD NOT GON E TO THE TROUBLE OF P U TTI N G ON HER U N D E RCLOTH E S WH I C H . BALEFUL EYES T H A T 1 46 . A N D I WAS PROUD S H E WAS M I N E . H E R N E W A N D I D A R E S A Y U NCOMFORTA BLE POSITION CAUSED A R MS . O N E M U ST A D M IT. TH E TESTI C L E S OF I NATU R A L LY I UNABLE TO W A S QUITE AWA R E THAT S H E WAS R E A CT TO ALL THE CA RESSES I SINCE BITTEN M ET A L TH E M . IT WAS NO EASY TASK. TH E N G R A D U A LLY BOR A D E N E D AND F LA R E D I NTO AN PROPORTIONS I N M Y M I N D. I C E RTA I NL Y H A D N O I NTENTION OF IT WAS NOT D I F F I C U LT TO SPREAD H E R LEGS A N D ATTACH H E R FEET TO T H E B E D POSTS. TO U N C L ENCH H E R H A N DS O P E N I NG TH E DOOR FOR HIM. MADE OF WERE C LOSED A N D THE WOODEN P A N E LS HAD B E E N DRAWN ACROSS T H E F R O N T DOOR W I N DOW. PETA L L E D ROSES C U R L I NG N E C K L I N E : M Y MOTH E R H A D THOUGHT I T TOO LOW I WENT QUICKLY TO TH E DOOR TO M A K E C E RTAI N IT WAS LOCKED. TH E R E MAY HAVE BEEN HER A BUDDING S A D I STIC MY MY DESIRE TO BEFORE I U N DR E S S E D HER I C A UGHT MYSELF U N C O N SC I O U S LY O PE N I NG MY F L Y A N D U NCOVER­ I NG MY PENIS. TH E COLD ROOM H A D CAUSED IT TO SHRINK AND D R A STICALLY. IT WAS VERY I N TR I C A T E L Y PLEATED A BO V E THE WOR L D D I SQU I ET E D TON IGHT WITH THE EXT E R IO R W A S THE SOU N D O F FOOT S T E P S WHICH HAD TA K E N ON UNREAL WA I ST: TH E FOLDS W E R E NA RROW A T T H E TOP. I COU L D DETECT T H E C R UNCH O F SHOES ON GRAVEL AND STO N E S . W H E N I LOW E R E D HER AGA I N . A I HAVE A LW A Y S LOATH E D TH E C REATU R E . THEN OUTSI DE. SHE COULD W R I N K LE D . CU PBOA R D SQUEEZED I BETW E E N F I R E PLACE T H E N C A M E T H E M O M E N T W H E N I D EC I D E D TO P U S H BACK T H E D RE S S C O M PLETELY. MY G R A ND MOTH E R WAS B E A UTI F U L. MY AND I T WAS A L L W I Z E N E D WERE H U RTI N G HAD IN CAR ESS WHILE AND ASSUAGE N OT SEE ACH I NG W A N T N E XT M OV E .S U D D E N LY I THOUGHT I HEARD FOOTS T E P S WITH THEIR FINGERS LOC K E D TOG E T H E R . I W A S A LITTLE TREMULOUS BUT THE F E A R WAS IN KEEPING WITH T H E WARM P A I N GNAWING AT MY GUTS A N D T H E DA RK EXCITE M E NT T H A T SENT A SLIGHT Q U I V E R MY EVERY MOVEM E NT. H U G E TOMCAT W I T H L O N G TAWNY F U R A N D B R IGHT. STI L L I NTACT. NOT LET HIM I N. HOWEVER. FOR THE PAST FEW M I N UTES. HER D R E S S W A S COM E LY. AND NOW C O N F I D E N T THAT WE W E R E GOD. ON A SHELF THE IN TH E I N C R EASI NG T H E PA I N B Y PRESSING DOWN O N M Y PENIS. SOFT FABRIC I COULD N O T I D E NTI FY. I SHOT HOME TH E TWO BOLTS MY FOR T H E OCCASION A N D H A D COV E R E D T H E B A R E S K I N W I T H A B L A C K S I LK SC A R F.I THE BONES IN HER FINGERS OR HER SOM E O N E ' S C LOTH E S COULD NOT T E L L WHETH E R T H E SOU N D C A M E FROM T H E ROAD O R THE COU RTYA R D I N FRONT OF T H E HOUSE. THE CAT M EW I NG AT T H E DOOR . A LBEIT FOR ONE N IGHT ONLY. I W A S PROTECTED O N A L L S I D E S BUT AT TH E S A M E TI M E THE M YSTERIOUS H A P P E N I NGS O F T H E OUTS I D E ME: THE O N LY LINK I HAD SOM E F I N E . T E ETH BUT THE ZIPPER I N TO TOOK PLEASURE I NTEN D E D FOR H E R : N E VERTH E LESS I DECI DED TO ATT A C H HER S E C U R E LY . IT WAS QUITE HIGH OFF THE FLOOR IN T H E STYLE OF OLDER BEDS SO THAT I HAD SOME DIFFICULTY I N FOLDI NG BACK T H E S H E ET TO TH E FOOT O F THE B E D A N D FOLLOW I N G T H E C R EASES. I WAS D I S P L E A S E D AT T H I S I N C I D E NT S I N C E I H A D NO W I S H TO C A U S E H E R A N Y PA I N . DAZZLI N G IN ITS WHITEN ESS. THE SHUTTE R S COULD NOT T E L L WHICH-TO S N A P L I K E DRY TWIGS. THROUGH H E R D R ESS H A D ROL L E D B A C K T O H E R K N E E S AS I WAS A TTA C H I N G H E R F EET. A N D THE SINK KNEW TH E R E WAS A M ETAL BOX FULL O F STR I N G A N D CORD THAT S H E HAD SAVED TH ROUGH THE Y E A RS. THAT HAD BEEN SPECIALLY BROUGHT OUT FOR THE OCCA­ S H E W A S N A K E D U N D E R T H E D R ESS. I LEFT T H E K E R C H I E F IN PLACE ON H E R FACE. BUT I THE R U STLE OF R A I S E H E R U P T O P U T H E R A R M S B E H I N D H E R BACK AND TIE TH E M . I REALLY D I D NOT WANT HER TO SEE M E : AND THEN TOO. WOULD HAVE BEEN Q U I T E U S ELESS. W H E N A L L WAS SAID AND DON E. SION. G R A N D MOTH E R H A D D E C I D E D T O I NSTALL A SHORT TIME AGO. T H E R E B Y D I S P L A Y I N G H E R BLACK S I L K STOC K I NGS PULLED H A L F WAY U P HER L EGS.

A S THOUGH LOATH TO DEFILE LEANED BE LLY M Y M I STR ESS'S COUCH. AND WITH A VIOLENT MOVE M ENT THAT SURPRISED THUS ME. I WAS VERY CA UTIOUS W H E N EV E R I TOU C H E D HER LEST THE SKIN SPLIT WIDE A OPEN AND R E LEASE THE TI M E: ACCEPTING OF IN HER N A K E DN ESS THAT THE MY H U M I LIATION HER BONDS I N S U RED COMPLETE ACC E S S I B I LITY T O H E R BODY. M Y C A R ES S E S M O R E EXPLICIT. D R U N K WITH DESI R E. W A S F U R ROWED TO THE B R E A K I NG PO I NT. EXCEPT T H E TWO OF US. CAUSING PALER T I PS I W A S FASCINATED BY T H E FOLDS I N H E R A R M P ITS. THE LABIA WERE AS DRY AS SUCKED I N T H E S E R E GLOBES O F H E R B R E A STS. S A L I V ATING ON THEM. SO FI LLED WITH BOTH. S U D D E N LY . T H E I N S I D E OF THE T H I G H S . NOTH I N G OF CA RESSED HER BODY WITH T H E OTH E R . BAGS I WAS STI L L STA N D I N G B E S I D E TH E BED. ONCE SO PINK AND FRESH. I F E LT M UC H SAFER KNOWING NOTH I N G WAS OF ANY CON S E Q U E N C E A TO ME EXCEPT H E R BODY L Y I N G ON B E D T H AT I WAS THE BONDS WERE F I R M L Y I N PLACE. F O R S O M E T I M E T H E R E A FTER I WAS NOT A W A R E OF THE N E A R-CONSTANT CONTRACTIONS OF M Y G UT. H E R SKIN NOW WAS NOTH I NG BUT STRETC H E S OF COLD NESS. A N D WHOSE NATU R A L I NT R I C AC Y H A D BECOM E E V E N M O R E COMPLEX S I N C E E V E RY I NC H OF H E R S K I N . THE PA I N S E R V E D TO I G N I T E M O R E F I R E S U N D E R M Y P A S S I O N A N D D ROVE M E TO STR I P T H E DEAD WOM A N OF H E R MODESTY. H E R THE SPECTACLE B E FORE MY EYES WAS A FASCI NAT­ I NG ONE. BUT M Y DESIRES HAD SOON MY H A N DS HAD EXHAUSTED ALL THE BEEN R E P R E S S E D TOO L O N G A N D SOON M Y H A N D G R E W MORE DA R I NG. A N D EVEN THOUGH THE POS I T I O N OF HER HANDS H I N D E R E D M E C O N S I D E R A B LY I H A D NO I NTENTION OF U NTYI N G T H E M . THE GROIN. SO K N E A D E D BY T I M E. J A G G E D E N D OF BONE. D A R K E N E D LEATH E R . BECAUSE RED OF T H E COLD. A N D T O W H O M S H E WAS O F F E R I N G S H I V E R S T H R O U G H M E FROM H E A D TO TOE. OF MY WRINKLES. POS S I B I L I T I E S O F P L E A S U R E T H E Y C O U L D PRO­ CU RE. NOTH I N G C O U L D COM E TO I PUSHED BAC K HER DRESS TO THE A R M PITS. H E R BODY WITH A LMOST U N R E A L P A S S I V I TY. WET E X T R E M I TY G A V E THEM TH I C K N E SS. H E W A S QUITE W I LD A N D N O O N E WENT N E A R HIM E XC E PT H I S OLD M I STRESS. ACCEPTING NAKEDNESS T H E H U M I LI ATION OF T H E R A VAGES OF HER SA LLOW S K I N WAS STRETC H E D OVER A FRA M E WHOSE SLIGHTEST DETA I LS W E R E A PP A R E NT. USUAL WITH THE MY PENIS. H A D W R I N KLED THE SKIN A N D F I N A LLY T A N N E D IT SO THAT IT H A D THE S U PPLE TEXTU R E OF OLD. WHEN I A N D TOUCH E D LEAVI NG HER A S A L LOW MARK I NOW THAN TWO THIN THAT THE YEA R S HAD E M PT I E D A N D D R I E D U P. G E N ITA LS OP E N I N G HER WIDE I N TO THE DE EPEST IN HER R E C E S S E S OF BODY. ENT IN THE SPARSE. I P R E S S E D F I R M LY ON G R EA T THAN PAIN. EACH OTH E R'S P R E S E N C E WERE WE M A N A G E D TO DO S O BY L I FTI NG H E R A N D WOR K I N G THE D R E S S SLOWLY A N D P A I N FU LLY U PW A RDS. T H E R E U PON. ONLY THE DARK. AWARE OF ON LY B EC A U S E TH E HEMP CORDS WERE ATTA C H E D TO IT AND TO THE OBJECT WAS OF MY ANY TICKLING MY PENIS W I TH ONE HAND.COULD STA R E I NTO YOU R FACE BY THE HOUR. LOOKED L I K E T W O D E F LATED B A L LOONS W I TH TH E I R VALVES C R ACKS. S E N D I N G CONSEQ U E N C E T O H E R EXCEPT H E R LOV E R. E V E R YW H E R E I N S U M THAT CONSTA NT MOVEMENT AND CONSTANT SWEATING FINGERS. A N D ALL T H E WHILE I W A S AMAZED AT THE EVERYTH I NG E L S E BUT W E R E D I ST I NCTLY APPAR- 1 47 . WERE STA I N E D TINY DOTS: T H E TE ETH OF THE Z I P P E R H A D B RO K E N THE S K I N ON M Y TESTICLES. I G E NTLY OVE R R I D I NG PASSION. HER WERE B R E A STS. PITTED A N D STI PPLED WITH T I N Y BLAC K PLACED MY H A N DS ON E I T H E R S I DE OF H E R TORSO AS I BEGAN LICKING EVERY I NC H O F H E R COLD FLESH. WH ITE FLEECE ON HER FOLLOW I N G YOU R E V E R Y MOVE AND N E V E R LOS I N G EVEN FOR AN I N ST A N T TH E I R I MPLACABLE GENITALS. THEN GROWING VERY E XC I T E D . N E A R LY BLACK ANY N I PPLES AT EACH THEY FORWA R D MY WITH TONG U E . NOTH I N G D A NG L I N G MORE A C ROSS HER TORSO. HER G E N I TALS W E R E COV E R E D WITH L O N G G R E Y MY PL E A S U R E WAS I M M ENSE AS I G R E E D I LY H A I RS T H A T STRAGGL E D TH I N LY O V E R A W I D E A R E A OF HER BELLY. DESICCATED A N D P U R P L I S H . THE CLEFT BETW E E N THE B R E A STS. EVERYT H I N G H A D BY NOW R EC E D E D I NTO OBLIVION. N I BBLING ON THE ROUGH N I PPLES. I TROU BLE THE T R A N Q U I LITY OF O U R E M B R ACES.

D I S S ECTION OF T H E G E N ITALS: E M A SC U LATION. WOULD I N DU C E US TO E X P E R I E NCE T H E MOST VIOLENT AND U NCONTROL­ LA B L E O F P L E A S U R E S : E XPLOS IONS OF SKIN A N D FLESH: MOUTH. T H E VAGI N A . AT T H E E X P E N S E O F T H E M E D I OC R E EX T E R N A L TRATING CENCE. T H E S A L I V ATED A S M Y TON G U E DARTED EVERY BOTH I N S I D E AND OUTS I DE THE BODY. S U C K I N G MOUTH . S H R I VELLED MOR ELS. T R E M B L I N G AT MY N E RVE. B U T I N PARTI C U L A R I W A S INTENT O N EXTRACTING EVERY L A ST D ROP OF PLEASU R E AS I WAS C A R ES S I N G HER. I STRETC H E D HER S K I N . PEASURES MORE WERE BUT THE M A R V ELLOUS MY N I G HTS. I R A N MY FINGERS T H R O U G H HER P U B I C HAIRS AND PINCHED T H E S K I N TOGETH E R IN O R D E R TO OPEN HER VAGI N A TO MY G R E E DY. I UNDID MY WARM C O R D U ROY T R O U S E R S A N D DROPPED T H E M ON T H E FLOOR. AS H A R D A N D A S BLACK A S COAL W E R E T H E O U T E R F R I N G E S OF H E R L A B I A .LACK OF REACTION. I THOUGHT H E R F L E S H W A S G R A D U A L LY BECOM I N G SOFT E R A N D M O R E R E S I LI E NT A N D MY M O U T H . O N E BY O N E. C O M M O N AS A N E R ECT M E M B E R . O N ENJOY I NG T H E M TO THE F U L LEST AND B U I LD I N G TO A G R A D U A L C L I M A X. TH U S IT WAS I M PE R A T I V E I B E VERY ATTENTI V E TO EVERY DETA I L AND I G N O R E THE SCRU PLES W H I C H MIGHT BO N D S HAVE IN FOR B I D D E N MY USING THE HEMP OF ORDER OUR T O ATTA I N T H E VORACIOUS MAXIMUM PLE A S U R E PROV I D E . C R E V I C E . MOREOVER. BOTH ON H E R PART A N D ON I BEGAN ACTING THEN AS THOUGH OUR NIGHT M I N E. IT WAS FAR BEYOND A N YTH I N G AS THAT SOMEONE. I N S E A R C H OF HER CLITOR I S BUT TO NO AVA I L. TH E ORGA NS OF S I G H T D I S C H A R G I N G TH E I R V I T R E O U S AND S U BSTA NCE ON E A C H T E M PL E . A N E R ECT N I PPLE. IT WAS NOT THAT I F E A R E D A D I S ASTROUS OUTCOM E TO O U R RELATIONS. THEY W E R E STI LL SOM E W H A T P L I A B L E SO THAT. OVE R S E E I N G T H E S E D E LIGHTS A N D THAT ACCORD­ ING TO T H E M A STER'S W H I M THEY WERE G R A NTED FOR BUT ONE N I G HT O NLY. A LONG WITH TH E I R BROW N I S H C A ST. OR A DAMP C ROTC H . T E V E R Y I NC H OF H E R I C Y G E N I TA LS.-TH E R E S O R T OF AND PL E A S U R E . I FELT MY TH I RST FO R PLEA S U R E I NC R E A S E D A H U N D R E D FOLD. SIGNS OF PLEASU R E A ( A LWAYS FRUS­ BEC A U S E A LW A Y S OF C A STRATI NG DETU M E S­ OF THE DEGRADING BECAUSE CONC O M I TANT POLLUTIO N S ) . WHITE DISCHARGES FROM THE BRAIN. E V E R Y LAST ATOM OF D E L I G H T AS I D I D SO. SENSES COULD N O R W A S I CON V I N C E D T H A T B E YOND O U R PRESENT PLEASURE. SAVO R I N G KICKED M Y C LOTH E S A W A Y FROM T H E BED. S C A TTE R I NG OF F I LTH SLOWLY. VERY IN DARK URINE CARRYING J E LLY· THAT IT WAS NOT D I SC E R N I BL E . AND TH E N I DARTED M Y T O N G U E R E P E ATEDLY I NTO THE CONVOLUTIONS OF HER FLESH. H O W E V E R . TH E N A VEL. AS I WET H E R BODY W I T H MY S A L I V A . I B E G A N S H I V E R I N G I N T H E COLD ROOM. I L A Y I N WAIT FOR H E R T O D O H E R TO I L ETTE . B EYO N D ALL H U M A N BOU N D A R I ES. WERE NEAR BUT TENCY A N D A P P E A R A N C E OF OLD LEATH ER. WAS C U RTA I LI NG T H E VO L U PTUOUS WA S NOT E N J OY M E NT OF THIS N I GHT. BUT T H E DESI R E OOM I N ATING U S LIKE TWO A N I M ALS W A S SO I N TE N S E THAT IT I N H I BITED ANY SHOW O F PLEASURE. I U N D R ES S E D IN FRONT OF H E R. M A D N E S S TH I S WHICH. EVEN R U N N I NG THE RISK OF TEA R I NG IT.A N A L TH E D E F EC A T I O N S ORGANS OR (FROM TH E SEXUAL A N OTH E R BODY). STUCK AND SUCKED I NTO AND G R OW T H S . I WAS N A K E D I N A F E W M O M E NTS. THEN FROM T H E M . SUDDEN A N D U NCONTROLLA BLE A D I POSE E R P U T I O N S O F B R OW N I S H . ETC. WE C A P A B L E OF ATTA I N I N G IT. O R THE DAY WHEN I ROSE EA R L I E R THAN SHE AND. TOG ET H E R W E R E O U R L A ST O N E . T H E Y S UGGESTED T H E CONSIS­ STATE W H I CH. L I K E A SUCTION C U P. A N OT H E R ONE. I POPPED E A C H BUTTON O F F M Y S H I RT. DESP ITE T H E F R E N ZY TORTU RING THE TWO OF US A N D W H I C H WAS FLOODING P A I N F U L PELASU R E THROUG HOUT M Y PASSION-WRACKED BODY. I COULD NOT T H R UST M Y TONG U E PAST TH E O P E N I N G OF HER V U LV A . L I K E S EEDS L I Q U E FY I NG ITS FLOW. BARELY P U B E SC E NT. I S I M PLY W A NTED TO PROLONG TH E M A S LONG AS POS S I B L E . I W A N T E D TO PLAY MY TO N G U E AROU ND IT BUT H E R S K I N WAS S O W I Z E N E D A N D F U R ROWED OPENING MADE SOMEWH ERE IN THE E V I S C E R ATION ( FOLLOWE D B Y A DISCHARGE O F T H E I N T E R N A L O R G A N S OR T H E E J A C U LATION OF T H E BOW E L S ) : BONES THR USTING THROUGH DRY F I S S U R E S I N T H E S K I N . STE A L I N G GLANCES TO S E E I F S H E SHOWED ANY I NT E R EST. B L OO D VOM ITI NG FROM T H E A N US. MOTH E R P E R H A PS. WE L E FT THAT STAGE B E H I N D US WHEN ONE DAY. EXTRA. E XPLOR E D E V E R Y N O O K OF S K I N . ACTUA LLY I K N EW IT WAS INDEED THAT LAST BUT I M AG I N I N G THAT P R E L U D E TO I M AGI N I N G WAS TH E S E OTH E R . BEYOND OUR P RESENT I N H IBITING S I M I L A R T O D R I E D. WITH I N . L I C K E D G R E E D I LY . I LAY OOWN 148 . SO N A R ROW HAD IT BECO M E .

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U N DER T H E TH I N CLOTH. CONTOURS OF HER O V E R S I Z E G E N I TA L I A WHOSE D I M ENSIONS M A D E M Y PENIS. THE MOVEMENTS O F M Y BODY ON H E R BODY. M Y RAGE CAUSED BY T H E COMPLACENT PASSIVITY S H E S HOWED A FT E R T H E DISASTER. N I BBLE LOVI NGLY AT H E R N I PPLES I N A R U S H OF SA L I V A . BR EATH M I NGLING WITH PANTI NG. W I TH U N I NTEN­ WIDE HER B R U TA L I TY . I W A S SPEECHLESS. Y E T I HAD NOTH I N G BUT T E N D E R N E S S FOR H E R . WAS SPREADING L A B I A . R E L E A S E D A C LOSED MOUTH AGAI NST H E R B E LLY AND B R EASTS. HAD I R E MOVED IT. BUT G R A DU A LLY I REA LIZED T H E S M E L L THAT H A D A P P A L L E D M E SO MUCH AT FI RST ROSE FROM H E R R E E K I NG COR PSE. LOOK CONSCIOUS O F H E R CO M P L ETE DOM I NATION O V E R M E W H I C H SHE ACCOM PLI S H E D BY THE COLDNESS AND THE D E C E PT I V E R I G I D I TY OF HER BODY. HER SKIN HAD OPENED LIKE A E V E RYTH I N G TIO N A L C H A NG E D WHEN I. I FOU N D I T D I F F I C U LT AT THE T I M E TO B E L I E V E H E R E N L A R G E D C L E FT COULD G I V E O F F S U C H A FOUL H E R ONLY RESPONSE TO EACH OF M Y MOV E M E NTS. S H R I VE L L E D A N D BLUE WITH C O L D .B E S I D E H E R . R U F FLING T H E STR I NG Y GREY H A I R S I N H E R TH I N FLEECE. OF A LTHOUGH MY BODY WAS M O R E MA LLEABLE. COULD L I C K H E R G E N ITALS AGA I N A N D THE BLACK C R A N N I E S BETW E E N HER THIGHS. T H E S L I T H A D EXTE N D E D T H E CLEFT I N H E R LA B I A TO FREAKISH I NCAPABLE PROPO RTIONS. D R U M M I N G ON H E R B E LLY. M Y DESIRE WAS F A N N E D ANEW AT THE WAY S H E OFFERED H E RSELF SO I M MODESTLY. I KNEW MY I WOULD F E E L H E R I S E N S ED. LA P AT THE S I D E S OF H E R FLAT. C A R E F U L NOT TO PRESS DOWN TOO HARD LEST I H U RT H E R AND MAKE HER FRA I L H A R D B E LLY. CONTE M P LATE H E R VAG I N A A G A I N . T H E P U B I S H A D A F U R ROW AT LEAST FOU R I N C H E S IN L E NGTH. MO V E M ENT AND OVERCOME AND BY PASSION AND PLEASURE. I TURNED AROUND SO I 1 150 . S H E TOO WAS COLD. L I K E A M E R E WA RT. THAT HER FACE WAS LIKE M I NE. THROUGH H E R PUBLIC H A I RS. M Y L O N G . H E R H A N DS K E PT S N A P P I NG B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D T H E WHOLE K I TC H E N R E V E R B E R ATED WITH MY M U FFLED G E NTLENESS. MORE FLEXIBLE ANGULAR THAN HERS AND N ICELY MOLDED THE BODY. I SAW A S P L I T RUN A LONG HER S K I N . EACH B L O W M A D E H E R DOUBLE U P AS I K N E LT BETW E E N HER OPEN LEGS SO I MIGHT THOUGH TO PROTECT H E RSELF OR TO CATCH H E R BREATH. I LOW E R E D MY HEAD AND BRUSHED MY H A LF­ MY DESPAI R C A U S E D B Y THE GROTE SQUE F I N I S H TO SO M UC H P L EA S U R E PROMISED TH E N WITH DRAWN. I WAS V E R Y SUCCESSIVE CAUSED BY BOUTS O F THAT DISBELIEF T E R RO R THOSE FISSURED FLESH. DANGLI NG TESTIC LES STRUCK AGA I N ST H E R PUBLIS. B U T H E R E F FO RTS W E R E V A I N . MY EYES R E M A I N E D GOU G I NG M Y CHEEKS THORUGH THE S I LK K E R C H I EF. A N D I H EL D H E R C LOSE T O M E T O G I V E H E R M Y WARMTH. S U C K A T H E R A R M PITS I N T H E HOPE OF F I N D I N G A TRACE O F H E R SWEAT. COULD F E E L THE S H A R P EDGES OF H E R BONES C R A C K IN A GLASS. I T H A P P E N E D SO S U D D E N LY T H A T F O R A M O M E N T I MY FACE WAS P R ESSED A G A I NST HERS AND I DID NOT R E A CT. MY P E N I S WAS LI M P. SOON I WAS STRETC H I NG OUT M Y LONG. C A R ESSES. WAS T H E I R R I TAT I N G AND INCESSANT CRACKLE OF HER BO N ES. BON ES C R ACK. A N D AT EVERY THRUST OF M Y LOI N S I T TWISTED A N D TU R N E D L I K E A LARGE WO R M ON THE W R I N K LED PARCH M E NT O F H E R B E LLY. WOULD BE SUFFUSED WITH I N FI N ITE S U D D E N L Y T H E SIGHT O F H E R R U I N ED G E N ITALS U N H I NG E D M E COM PLETELY AND I BEGAN P U N C H I N G H E R B E LLY. TH I N BODY OV E R H E RS. TO EACH R H YTH M I C CONTACT OF MY BODY WITH ODOU R. BATHED IN SWEAT AND FLUS H E D WITH R I V ETED U PO N H E R TO R N P U B I S F O R A LONG T I M E . A N D FOR THE TWO OF US NOTHING BUT THE DESIRE FOR BOU N D LESS PLEASURE. D E S PITE H E R B O N D S AND H E R I N FERIOR POSITION. TO EACH V I B RATION OF MY L I M BS. H E R S. WITHOUT W A R N I NG. EACH ONE OF MY MOV E M E NTS WAS PLA N N E D SO THAT A LL MY OUR PACT WAS NOW BROKEN. THEN PUSHED ASIDE THE BLACK SILK SCARF M ASKING H E R TH ROAT SO I M IGHT K I SS H E R NECK AND SUCK AT ITS W R I N K LES. DART M Y TON G U E I N TO H E R N A V E L. IT H A D BEEN S E A L E D W I TH OUR F I R ST KISSES AND WAS TO HAVE T R A N S PORTED BOTH O F U S TO THE H I G H EST PEAKS OF P L E A S U R E . T H E WOU N D WAS P U R P L I S H A N D O D D LY D R Y AS THOUGH HER BLOOD HAD EVAPORATED I N DEATH.

T E A R W I N K I NG I N THE LESIONS. MOUTH GAPE A N Y W I D E R T H A N B E FO R E . TWISTED A N D T U R N E D I N VIOLENT CONTORTIONS MY ACTIONS HAD BY NOW S U R PASSED EVERYTH I N G THAT M A D N ESS C A N D ICTATE. BUT STI LL I KEPT ON. A RT I F I C I A L C R E AT I N G TEARS ARTIFIC I A L BLOOD TO R E PLACE THE BLOOD S H E D I D M Y RAGE R E A C H E D S U C H B E R S E R K H E IGHTS THAT AT TI M ES I NO LONG E R KNEW ITS OBJ ECT. AN OLD IT S E E M E D AS I PISSED I NTO THE DEE PEST REACHES OF HER THOUGH I WAS POU N D I NG ROTTEN TREE TH ROAT. H E R HA LF­ CLOS ED EYELIDS R E M A I N E D THAT W A Y . EVER MORE FEROCIOUSLY . E V E N H E R EYES R E M A I N E D M UTE. A T I N Y WORM B L U E WITH COLD. H E R N E C K WERE A L L D U LY RI PPED A N D TOR N . A N D WITH THE S I N G LE M I N D E D N E S S O F TRU N K WHOSE O N LY R EACTION WAS SPLITS I N ITS BARK. 1 15 1 . WAS THE NOT HAVE. NOR DID HER I SPA R E D N O P A R T OF H E R BODY. STI FFENED B Y T H E COLD. A N D Y E T I H A D PUT H E R T H R O U G H SO M U C H I THOSE LONG MOMENTS O F M A D N E S S F U L L OF F U R Y AND H O RROR UNTI L TH E CRUEL CRAVING O F M Y H A N DS WAS SATED. K N OC K E D H E R F R O M SIDE T O S I D E A S F A R A S H E R M E RC I LESS FETTERS WOULD A L LOW. AND PUNCHED HER SO THAT I W R E N C H E D O P E N H E R MOUTH. NO SIGN OF A PPROVA L. NOT A S I N G L E TEAR. H A M M E R I N G E V E R Y I N C H OF H E R BODY. TH I N K SHE S U F F E R E D A G R EAT D E A L. DISLOCATI N G TH E F R A I L B O N E S O F H E R JAW. H E R L I PS N E V E R Q U I V E R E D. I R R E PA RA B L E WOUNDS. WITH N O T A S I N G L E R U B Y AT TIMES I T WAS NOT H A R D TO B E L I EVE SHE WAS DEAD. N O SIGN O F R E PROACH. A N D AT T I M E S H E R E M PTY GAZE M ET M I N E. UNDER TYI N G MY HER R EPEATED BLOWS. I R E LEASED A LL TH E C R U E LTY I COU LD M U STER. BUT H E R P A I N C A U S E D NO SHOUT. THE H E M P BONDS STRETC H E D H E R S K I N . HER A R M PITS. AND I K E PT ON OF PAI N P I S S I N G . H E R LEATH E R N B E L LY. H E R B R E A STS. SERE N E A R LY TO T H E SKIN FROM H E R AWAY B R EA K I NG A N KLES IN GOUGI N G T H E S H E ETS THAT ROLLED FROM TH E FLESH HER L I K E STR I PS OF W A ST E D BODY A N D NOT ONCE DID SHE CRY OUTI Y E L LO W E D PA R C H M E N T. AND I BEGAN PISSI NG. BUT ONLY A FT E R THEIR N A I LS. A N D S L I P P E D I N M Y PENIS. H E R EYES W E R E FOCU S E D U N B L I N K I NG LY ON W H ATEV E R WAS B E FORE T H E M . E V E R M O R E I NTEN S E LY . SHE R E M A I N E D A S I NSENSIITIVE A S TH E BED THAT SUFFERED O U R FERINE TH RA S H I N GS. NO GESTURE OF SELF-DEFENCE. NO T E A R ZIGZAGGED DOWN THE W R I N K L E OF HER W A X E N FACE. H A R D SHE K E PT OOU BLI NG UP L I K E A J A C K K N I F E AT EVERY S M A S H OF MY F I STS. BUT IT W A S T H E N THAT MADE H E R L I M BS S N A P L I K E K I N DL I NG AS I P U M M ELLED H E R BATTE R E D BODY. SHE SEEMED NOT TO BE T H E R E . FEET TO THE B E D POSTS POI NT. SHE N EV E R ONCE SHUDDERED. C R EATI N G ON HER C H E E KS. I WAS RACKED BY SPASMS O F U N E A RTHLY RAGE. I N VARIOUS PLACES. T H E BLOOD S H E D I D NOT WANT TO G I V E ME. FOR ONE LONG OUTRAGE D I R ECTED AT ME OR H E R ? WAS I T R E A L L Y MY G R A N DMOT H E R I WAS P U NC H I NG A N D K I C K I N G S O ATROC IOUSLY? HOUR. HER WOU N DS W E R E RAPI DLY TU R N I NG PURPLE O R YELLOW L I K E H E R S K I N . A N D T H E T R E M B L I NG OF MY FI NGERS HAD ABATED. RAGING D E S I R E I M O V E D I N AND OUT O F H E R MOUTH IN SAVAGE I M ITATION OF T H E ACT I HAD BEEN DENIED. C A M E AWAY BY T H E H A NDFU L A N D C U RLED U P I N T O WITH E R E D ROLLS. AS LONG A S I STI L L H A D A N U N B ROKEN F I N G E R N A I L I SLIT O P E N HER FLESH IN LON G . N O SCA R LET TEA R TO COMFORT M E . A S MY U R I N E S P U RTED OVER H E R FACE IT G L U E D H E R H A I R T O H E R S K U L L A N D FOR M ED A WET H A LO UPON THE STI LL I M MACU LATE S H E ETS. NOT A S I NGLE TEA R OF B LOOD. H A D F I N I S H E D TEA RING H E R I NDI FFERENT BODY I NTO H I DEOUS SH REDS OF S K I N A N D FLESH.F E R A L VIOLENCE THAT K E PT M E. HER MONSTROUSLY GAPI N G L A B I A .

THE CLOCK ON T H E SQU A R E OF TH E T H EATRE FRANC A I S M A R K I NG 15 P. T H E G A L L. 28 THE COLO N N A D E OF THE GA LLERY: R. 28 BIS. STOPS TH EN CROSSES THE SQU A R E. K I N G UP THE G A L L E R Y U N D E R A RC A D ES.L. TH E FOUNTA I N S ON T H E SQU A R E.Y.S U D D E N L. SLIGHTLY D I S H EVELLED. E E P THAT NO D R E A M 23. S E E N F R O M R E A R W A L. 28 TER. ANONYMOUS A U THOR TRAN SLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE S M E L. 27. 29. 1 152 . A PP E A RS.L. W A L K I N G A S TH ROUGH NOT S U R E OF H E R STEPS. 25.L.M.L. REPUDIATING A L. I S SEATED AT A TABLE. AL.-WIPES THE TABLE.ESH AND MY OWN PISS WITH ITS SMEL. THOSE WASTED STRIPS OF S K I N . I NTO A DEEP S L. FL.. I FEL. STEPS OF THE COR P U L E N T MAN. FADE O U T -SO U N D OF R:S STEPS U N D E R THE ARCADES. 26. T H E WAITER MOVES TOW A R D R.L. I N G WITH HER DEAD DI STU R B E D . NOW M I N G L. 24. DECAY. THE TERRACE OF T H E REGENCY CAFE WHERE R. R. E R Y MONTPE N S I E R .

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. ON A TABLE 1 154 . . W A S M Y PLEA S U R E A N Y THE L E S S FOR THAT? ROBE RTE S M I LES TABLE. ROBERTE·S . THE GARDENS OF TH E PA L A I S-ROY A L AND ITS FOUNTA I N S PLAYI NG. S H E LOOKS AT T H E FOUNTA I N S ON THE SQU A R E AND STROK ES HER W R I STS. . N E A R B Y S H E H A S L E FT THE TEA THAT HAS B E E N BROUGHT T O H E R A N D H E R BAG.T H E PA R A L L E L B A R S EXTE R I O R PA R I S DAYLIGHT GYM N A S I U M I N T E R IOR DAYLIG HT. I N FRONT OF THE CAFE LE N E M OURS. . Irs NOW THE PLE A S U R E BEG I N S F O R M E . D R E A M I LY A N D R ETU R N S TO SIT AT H E R AGAI N ST T H E COLON N A D E O F T H E PA LAI S-ROYAL. WAITER. B E H A V I O U R . ROB E R T E . C O M E S OVERo T O H E R .-' A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . BUT A S TO B E L I E V I N G H I M S E L F THE ORIGIN ATOR OF MY T E M P E R A M E NT. ST A N D I N G IN THE SUN. . WHAT H A V E I GOT ROBE RTE (VO( C E OFF) : THAT OCTAVE SHOULD H A V E T H E I N CONC E I V A B L E A R ROGA N C E T O I M A G I N E H E I S T H E A U THOR OF MY I M PROP R I E T I E S IS O N E TH I NG . . TURNS AWAY WITHOUT S E E I NG HIM. HER BACK S H E TA K E S A POCK E T M I R ROR FROM H E R BAG AND LOOKS A T H E RS E LF. THE I S I T POSSIBLE A WOM A N S E E K S TO EXPE R I E N C E A V IOLENT S E N S E OF S H A M E J U ST BECA U S E S H E'S RESPECTABLE? I REMEMBER I WAS ASHAMED W A I T E R : A R E YO. VOICE I S H E A R D O F F STAGE. ROB E RTE (VO I C E OFF): A FT E R A LL. . THE POOR DEAR DOESN'T KNOW WHAT I'M CAPABLE OF WITHOUT H I M . CONC E R N E D BY HIS C Ll ENrs ODD A G A ( N ST THOSE TWO M E N ? IF TH E Y FOU N D SOM E WRETC H E D PL E A S U R E . I N S E RT I N G H E R F I NG E RS U N D E R THE L A C E OF H E R GLOV ES.

U N A BLE TO R E S I ST. S L I D E S H I S FINGERS I M PERCEPTIBLY H A N D. CAUGHT I N D I G N A NT. B E FORE SHE HAS TIME TO CRY OUT A DOOR IN FRONT OF HER I S OPE N E D BY A N I N T E RLOPER WHO BARS THE ACCESS. THROUGH A DARK PORCHWAY. I M M E N S E ON A L E A D BASE. M A N OF T H E A M E R I C A N C A R. AS ROBE RTE. THEN. HE TOUC H E S H E R F I N G E R S : ROBERTE WITHDRAWS HER HAND.BACK V I E W OF ROBERTE ON T H E PLATFORM OF A B E H I N D H E R C A N BE H E A R D TH E FOOTSTEPS OF T H E MOLLUSK. WHOSE H E AVY B O D Y A N D FACE A R E R E M I N I SCENT O F A MOLLUSK. S H E PASSES A LO N G T H E GALLERY LOOK I N G I NTO SHOP-WINDOWS. S H E P L A C E S H E R GLOV E D H A N D ON T H E R A I L. SHE FINDS H ERSELF IN A DELAPI DATED AND WATC H E S TH E R I V E R A N D THE T R E E S G O BY. THE SQUAT M A N DOES T H E S A M E FOR H E R A N KLES. WHO H A S FOLLOWED H E R . WHEN TH E BUS STOPS AT T H E COM E D I E F R A N C A I S E ROBERTE G E T S O F F Q U I C K LY. TI ED H A N D I SS . IN T H E M I DDLE O F W H I C H . A N D A NTOI N E . WHO. WATC H ES H E R . THE SQUAT M A N . H A V I N G F I R ST. AND WI THOUT HOPE OF E SC A P I N G FROM HIS DETERMI N E D GRASP. TOW A R D ROBE RTE'S ABA NDON E D GLOOM Y HA LL. W H E N REACHES THE HA LF-OPEN DOOR I S S U C H A B U RN I NG I N V I TATION SHE C A N NOT R ESIST O P E N I N G IT. CASUA LLY. HER LEGS LAZI LY APART. H A S W A I T E D F O R THIS M O M E N T T O THROW A L L T H E L I G H T REQU I R E D ON THE SCE N E OF E V E N TS. AS A MASSIVE INDIVIDUAL TAKES UP HIS POS I T I O N ROBERTE CONTI N U E S SHE HER W I N DOW-S H O P P I NG. PORCHWA Y T H E BESIDE HER. R E LAXES. HIS H A N DS SPLAYED SHE F I N DS A PLACE IN TH E SUN WH E R E HER SHE FACE ACROSS H E R THIGHS. ROBERTE R U N S TOWARD THE STA I RC A S E . THEN PASSES HER AND GOES OSTE N S I BLY BUS: S H E WATC H E S T H E PASS I N G SC E N E AS T H E B U S TRAVELS F RO M TH E C H A M B E R OF DEPUTI ES V I A THE PONT ROYA L TOWA R D T H E LOU V R E . WORK-SHOP IN AN A B A N DO N E D FACTORY. A LARGE COLON I A L FAN SLOWLY B EG I N S TO T U R N JUST ABOVE T H E M . A LTHOUGH H A N D AWAY A N D GOES T O S I T I N S I D E T H E BUS. WHO H A S WATC H E D H E R F ROM T H E PLATFOR M . W E A R I N G T H E S A M E U N I FO R M AS L I TT L E F. F U LL OF U N K NOWN FOR M S T H A T SH I N E I N T H E HALF-LIGHT. NOW S H E CAN B E SEEN T H ROUGH T H E COLON N A D E OF T H E RUE DE MONTPE N S I E R IN THE P A LA I S­ W H I L E TH E MOLLUSK F I R M LY ATTAC H E S ROBE RTE'S WRISTS TO THE BARS BY M EA N S OF THE LEATH E R STRAPS. SO THAT BEFORE SHE K N OWS WHAT HAS H A PP E N E D ROBERTE F I N D S H E R S E LF. T O H E R F U R Y. R O B E RTE I M M E D I AT E LY P U L LS HER I M M EDIATELY BY T H E MOLLUSK. H E CATC H ES U P WITH H E R . T O R N O F F H E R S K I RT. WHEN THE DOOR BANGS LOU D L Y BEHIND OF HER. NOW COM E S A N D SITS DOWN OPPOSITE. ROBERTE I M M E DATELY CLOSES H E R EYES. RISKS A STEP I N TO T H E D A R K N ESS. ROYAL. LOST IN REVERIE. LITTLE SCHOOLBOY X. WALKS B E S I D E H E R FOR A M O M E NT. C ROSSES HER LEGS AND R U N N I NG A H E A D OF TH E M . ENJOYING THE BREEZE ON FROM T H E OPEN W I N DOW. INTERMINABLE PASSAGEWAY T O T H E LEADS TO A TOP O F A STARICASE W H I C H VAST A N D E E R I E ROOM. OBSERVI NG HER AT L E I S U R E OUT OF T H E CORN E R OF H I S EYE. TH E N D I SA P P E A R S . S H E HITS HARD AT H I M . T H E I N DI V I DUAL. TH ROWS HER LIKE A STRAW OVER HIS SHOULDERS. S H E I S C A R R I E D A LONG A N TH E MOLLUSK. THE BARRED BY THE I M POSI NG S I LHOU ETTE MOLLUSK. W I T H A S I N G L E G E ST U R E . S H E RECOG N I Z E S T H E SQUAT TH E N . LOOM TWO PA R A L L E L BARS. T H E MOLLUSK DELIBER­ ATELY PUTS HIS F I N G E R S ON THOSE OF ROBERTE. H E TURNS ON THE SWITCH AND I LLU M I N ATES TH E ROO M : IT I S A OVER THE SHOT OF ROBE RTE C LOS I N G H E R EYES IS S U P E R I M POSED A S HOT O F T H E PARALLEL BARS FROM WHICH TWO LEATH E R STR A PS A R E H A N G I NG .

WITHOUT A WORD. THE COAT OF H E R S U I T PIECES ON TH E TILED FLOOR. R O B E R T E M U R M URS: S H E EXA M I N E S IT. H E D E L I CATELY RE MOVES THE ROBERTE'S ONE. R E P U L S I NG THE MOLLUSK WITH T H E S A M E E N ERGY. W I THOUT S E E I NG H I M . ROSERTE (VOI C E OFF): HOW SOOTH I N G T H E PLA Y OF TH E FOU N TA I N S U N D E R TH E PLANE TREES. S M I L E S AT H E R I N SO L E NTLY. UNTIES ROBE RTE AND DISAP­ PEARS BY THE STA I RCASE. L E FT ALONE WITH TH E BARS IN THE HER D E S E RTED S K I RT AND GYM N A S I U M . FINGERS BY AND WITH E M OTI O N WAIT E R : A R E Y O U A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . SHOC K E D BY HIS P I E R R E K LOSSOW S K I TRAN SLATED SY CATH E RI N E D U N C A N GARDENS OF THE PA L A I S. STR OKES H E R W R I STS A N D GOES TO SIT DOWN AT THE TA B L E ROBE RTE LONG E R CLOSES CAPABLE HER OF EYES. HER LEG IS NO W H E R E A C U P O F TEA A N D TWO CROI SSANTS A R E WAITING. STR E A M I N G WITH WATER. THE MOLLUSK LETS GO HER H A N D A N D S H E L OO K S AT H E RS E L F A N D S M I LES. THE CARD BEARS A FACSI M I L E OF HER OWN F I N G E R P R I NTS. S H E T U R N S SLOWLY.A N D FOOT TO THE BARS. ITS MOV E M ENT S LOW I N G A N D C H A NG I N G LITTLE BY LITTLE I NTO A LANGUOR­ OUS U N D U LATION OF THE K N E E . S H E S E E S A R E D C A R D SLI PPED I N S I DE. ROBE RTE SLAPS H I S F A C E W I T H SUCH FORCE THE G L ASS FALLS AND SPLINTERS TO 1 56 . LOST IN REVERIE. . I N SO L E N C E . A N D W H I L E WITH THE H I G H H E E L OF ON E F R E E FOOT WHICH THE SQUAT SHE MAN HAS TO NEGLECTED AWAY TO ROBERTE. OPENS HER C O LO N N A D E OF CAFE COV E R I N G ONE I N T E R R U PT E D B Y T H E WA ITE R'S VOI C E . THEN.R OY A L AND ITS FOUNTA I N S . S H E LOOKS U P AT THE G L ASS DOME ABOVE HER WHERE TH E HOW EXQUISITE T H E C I TY I N ITS RE FLECTIONS . . COLLA PSES I N A DEAD F A I N T O N TH E FLOOR. F I X E S H I S TON G U E AGAI NST I T A N D B E G I N S T O TITI LLATE TH E PALM WITH I N C R E A S I N G V I OLENCE. GOD: " I N PRI N C I P I O E RAT VERBUM HIS QUITE U N N ECESSA R I LY ON IN A CLIMAX OF FETTE R E D ANKLE. HAND. S H A DOW OF A R EC L I N I NG BODY SLIDES DOW N : IT I S L I TTLE X . ROBE RTE PUTS ON S U D D E N LY F E E LS HORRIBLY A LONE. H E SLI PS T H E R E D C A R D I N TO H E R B A G A N D POU R S A G LASS O F B R A N DY. S U PE R I M POSED O V E R THE W O R D O F FOR A MOM ENT SHE OPENS H E R EYES TO M E ET T H E I M PLACABLE MA I N TA I N S THE GAZE HOLD OF THE SQUAT MAN WHO S H E PLACES T H E CARD ON THE TABLE A N D T A K E S OUT H E R POC K E T M I R R O R . OPE N I NG HER BAG TO TA K E OUT THE POC K E T M I RROR. H A NDS H E R H E R BAG OF B R A N DY . . ROBERTE: PUT OUT THE LIGHT TH EN . THE BACK LE AGAI NST T H E NEMOURS IS IMMOBILIZE MOLLU SK'S GLOVE TRIES PUSH THE BODY. THE TH E SQUAT M A N AND THE GLASS RETURNS. . . WHEN E MOTI ON. T H E S Q U A T M A N I M M E D I ATELY D R A G S H I M A W A Y . TH E SQUAT MAN D R A P E D OVER H E R S U S P E N D E R BE LT. A P PROACHES H I S MOUTH TO H E R OPEN PA L M .

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" MANY O F TH E M ARE THERE? "REGULA RS. WHO HOLD I M PORTA N T POS ITIONS I N BUS I N E S S MONTHLY AND IN GO V E R N M E N T . AT MOST TWO P E R DAY. "TH E Y L E A V E I N SH REDS A N D T H E Y R ETU R N . WITH TH E VOICE OF A HOME FIXED SUM V A R I ES-AT LEAST $ 1 500 A N D $250 AND ACCOR D I N G $ 2 500. A N D T H E OTH ERS? W ELL. "YOU W I LL BE S L A V E 84." AFTER THE S U BJECT-RATH E R . UNTIL T H E Y HAVE REACHED T H E PEAK OF T H E I R PLEA S U R E . Q U E STIONS COME TO M I N D . LOTS THEY A R E M O R E I NT E LLI G E NT THAN THE A V E RAGE PROSTITUTE. TWO OUT O F IT-HOW SHOULD THERE ARE AND I PUT IT­ OF THREE ONLY REACH THROUGH COU R S E . H ER ABSOLUTE MINIMUM PRICE AT WHATE V E R P U N I S H M E NT IS DRAWN. TWO OTH E R S O N TH E R U E Q U I NCAM· PO I X (TEN YEARS AGO THERE WERE SEVEN OR T H E M . U S U A LLY W I TH H I S TEETH. THE H A N D .J A C K I E ' S ACTIV I T I E S . THAT. THEY ARE ON F I L E H E R E . TH E Y AT 200· I S S U F F I C I E N T TO C A UTERIZE A R E 'WH I P P I N G S P EC I A LI STS: T H E R E'S O N E O N T H E R U E BLO N D E L . T H R E E DAYS LATER.H E GI R LS L I K E T H O S E YOU A R E T A L K I N G A BOUT. THEY HOW DESC R I PTION A N D SPECIFY THAT M O R E T H A N HALF O F T H E V I SITORS A S K TO B E SEWN WITH N E ED L E AND T H R E A D . L I K E MOST OF TH E OTH E R PROSTITUTES. IT M I G H T SAY-TH I S IS R U B B E R GLOVES. THE OPERATIONS OBVIOUSLY ONLY TAKE PLACE COULDN'T TA K E P H Y S I CA L LY. THEY DON'T C O M E I N B L A C K . U N FOLDS O N L Y ONE IT AND R E A DS. U N LESS HE ASKS A BOUT THE W H I T E WOOD T R E STLE TABLE. "THATS T H E M I RACLE. WHO SOM E . ANY JACKIE: MORE." OF A HUNDRED E X A M PLES-LICK THE R E C E I V E FI FTY SOLES O F T H E M I STRESS' BOOTS. OF T H E OTH ERS. THEY EARN A LOT OF M O N EY. ONE H O U R IN THE BOX. THEY CUSTOM E R S . WE KNOW THEM A LL . LAS H E S B E H I N D THE K N E E S FROM A BLACK WH I P. PI M PS I N D EED. IS WHAT ONE N EE D S TO KNOW OF GENERA LLY. 1 960. L I M ITED W H I P P I N G . WHICH PAY HER A ON LY T H E BEGI N N E R RISKS A S K I N G Q U E STIONS." EIGHT ON THAT STR E E n . D I A LOGU E SIONS." 84 W I L L TH E N CHOOSE FROM T H E OUTFITS O N T H E W A L L T H E O N E WHICH H E WILL WEAR DURING HIS P U N I S H MENT. TOO. T H E Y PAY B Y THE MONTH . W H O M B E FO R E DRAWS A S M A L L P I E C E OF PAPER HELP A LITTLE. "A NYWAY. G E N E R AL LY. I H A V E TO B U Y SURGEON'S G LOVES. P R ACTIC A L QU ESTIONS. T H E TESTICLES (TO TH E TH IGHS). I'M R U N S O N THE STATES IN ("NEVER LOT. E V E RYTH I N G D R I E D U P. "NOW YOU CAN REA LLY SAY YOU'RE LUCKY: YOU DREW T H E E A S I EST P U N I S H M E N T!" O N L Y A FT E R TH I S W I L L JAC K I E I N FO R M TH E CUSTO M E R OF H I S N U M BE R . COURSE. W H I C H H E W I L L H A V E T O R E M E M B E R F O R FUTURE V I S I TS." S A Y S JACKIE. THUS.JACK I E SITS ON A THRONE PLAC E D ON A SHAKY P L A T FO R M . I HAVE LONG T I M E. I ALWAYS W E A R FROM T H E P E NC I L BOX. REVEALED-RIDING W H I P IN WITH A TIRED H E R. F I RST O F A LL: HOW DO THE VICTI M S R E A C H ORG A S M . SIX OF T H E M . THE COST OF S U F F E R I N G I S C A LCULATED BY J A C K I E ON AN INDIVIDUAL BASIS. LOOK. EVEN TRY. LEGS CROSSED. IN THAT CASE. ROUGH LY. THEY A R E CA P A B L E OF M U R D E R . N O TORT U R E O N THE W H E E L OR THE C ROSS. ENTITLES O N E T O A N U N L I M ITED N U M BER OF V I SITS . THE MONTHLY PAYMENT ECONOM I ST. IS THE BUT C OV E R E D BIT OF BY DON. STA I N E D WITH LONG BLACK M A R KS . T H E N I P PLES. THE CRACK O F THE BUTTOCKS. A PRIVATE CHAT WITH A H IG H POLICE O F F I C I A L : '. COTTON SOA K E D NOVEMB E R 2 5 . FOR OUR AIM HERE I S NOT TO A TT E M PT TO ENTER I NT O THE WHY OF THIS UNLIKELY FORM OF "CONC E R N I NG T H E 'WH I P P I NG SPEC I A LI STS: WHAT WE FEAR MOST I S T H E R E VOLT O F O N E OF THE VOLUNTARY M A RTYRDOM. THE U S U A L GOAL OF A VISIT TO A PROSTITUTE? J A C K I E'S A N SW E R : "MORE THA N HALF LEAVE WITHOUT REACH I NG IT. WHOM I SLICKERS-NEVER LEAST SKIN SCATOLOGY. THAT I T I S A SEWING TABLE. BETW E E N ONE H U N D R E D A N D O N E H U N D R E D A N D TWENTY. NO SEWING. REDUCED TO THE O N E·TI M E S I M PLEST EXPRES· TH E E X P LA I N . JAC K I E E X P LA I N S. E V E RYON E I S SATI S F I E D W I T H O N E T O TH R E E V I S I TS PER MONTH. C U S TO M E R K N EELS D O T H E M SELVES KNOWN FOR A S E V E R A L. I N OUR VOC A BU LA RY. ONE ON T H E R U E D E LA REYNIE. E V E N THOUGH TH E FILES WERE O F F I C I A LLY S TO P P E D ON BLOOD. T H E OBJ ECT-HAS BEEN C A R EF U LLY BOU N D TO AVOI D ANY R I S K OF REBELLION THERE TABLE IS AND GAGG E D TO OF A STIFLE IT T H E C R I ES. LET'S A B A N DO N THE FALSE OBJ ECTIVITY OF BUT. BUT C U STOM E R S ARE EXCEPTION: O N E . E Y E S GLAZED. JACKIE WILL AVERAGE T I M E : O N E HOU R. J AC K I E $ 50 . H A LF SCOR N F U L. THATS W H Y THE G I R LS l S9 . H A LF-ADM I R I NG . N O T T H E O N E S F O R DOI NG T H E D I S H E S . T H E Y A R E DANGEROUS. BUT WITH THEM. THEY DON'T HAVE BECAUSE A BO U T S LI C K . H E W I L L U S U A LLY B E A N S W E R E D WITH A W H I P. A NOTH E R SESSION? S ETS QU ESTION: THOUGH WHAT IS TH E NO COST OF A HELL HAS PRICE.B E TW E E N OTH E R S PAY BETW E E N D E P E N D I NG O N T H E I R M E A NS. A LCOHOL WOU N D S . C A R E F U L" JACKIE!. $ 1 000 THE T O J A C K I E .

THAT YOU HAVE TO TALK TO H I M . M Y FATH E R WAS A CONTRAC­ TOR. HOWEVER. THIS IS TO L E R A T E D BUT N OT BORN IN N O R M A N DY. . ON SOM EON E FROM IN TH E N E I G H BORHOOD T ROU B L E . H E WA R N E D M E THAT H E WANTED NONE O F T H AT. AT A B A R IN BELLEVI LLE. C A N NOT H A N D L E SHE CALLS ON A IT. TH E R E ARE WITHOUT QU ESTION . I F I N D OUT A L I TT L E ABOUT HOW M UC H THEY MAKE. T W I C E A W E E K. M A R R I E D A N D A LL. . M Y SON W I L L BE TH I RT E E N N EXT OCTOB ER. THATS WHAT I E A R N ED." SAYS JAC K I E WITH A BIG HOW I N D U LGENT S M I LE. SPITE O F THE WOR K I NG T H E STRE ET.LA. A N OLD E R G U Y. I GAVE B I RT H O N M Y SEVENTE ENTH B I RTHDAY. A L L OF T H I S D I D N 'T LAST LONG. O. C E R TA I N C U STO M E R S W I V ES. CLEVER SYSTEM OF M UTU A L D I SCIPLI N E WHICH SHE D E M A N DS. T H A T Y O U H A V E T O G E T U N D E R T H E S H E ETS WITH HIM. I FOU N D A JOB ON THE CAGE.R E I N E F O R RICH P R EG N A N T WOM E N . HE D I D N 'T GET A LONG WITH MY MOTH ER. NOR EVEN WITH K I DS M Y OWN AGE. A PENSIVE S O M ETH I N G A BOUT H E R G A Z E . O N E OF THE ODDITI E S OF PROSTITUTION L EG I S L A T I O N IS THAT ITS E Y E S W H E N I LEFT THE HOME. ALLOWED TO B R I N G TH E I R EITHER TO BE W H I PPED BY HER IN TH I S SETTI NG. THE A RA B PI M PS I N 1 60 . IN THE "IN FRONT OF THE BAR. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO A NYTH I NG RIGHT: S O I CONFESS TO MY MOTH E R . J U ST OUT OF LAW SCHOOL. . AND TRY TO U N W E D MOTH ERS.A R E THREE O'C LOC K TO EIGHT LACK OF USE-IS LOOK. WELL T H E N . SO. THERE WERE G I R LS THAT J A C K I E . THE ROD AND THE N E I G H BOR WOMAN FROM THE LITTLE STR E ET ON THE LEFT-I . R E N E . H E'S A GOOD K I D. "TH EY'RE T I M ID. "A S S O M ETI M E S . . WHAT I REGRET IS NOT H A V I N G E D UCATION. ACCOUNTING E V E RYTH I N G I DO N ' T GIVE F I R M I N A N OTH E R N E IG H BOR­ I'VE A DON E . I'M INTRIGUED. "BUT THAT DOESN'T LAST LONG. I GOT A JOB. AT THOSE T I M ES. I N A B A K E RY. $50 PER MONTH . SO I LEAVE.E. BUT WH AT? W H O S E E K T O COM B I N E T H E WHI P W I TH THOSE OF THE "WELL. . IN PARIS. . W E D N E SDAY AND SATU R DAYS-FROM O'CLOC K . I H A D TO F I N D SOM ETH I NG : A N A I D AT A C L I N IC I N BOURG. I M I SSED M Y PREY. CASE OF CAN E X P L A I N E D TO T H E POLICE. THAT TH E OTH E R WOMAN I S A C U STOM E R L I K E T H E OTH ERS . DO I N G . I'M GOI N G T O DO I T TOO. I HAVE THE I D EA THAT YOU STAY FOR HOURS WITH T H E S A M E GUY. J AC K I E G E N ERA LLY LIM ITS H E RSELF TO G I V I N G DI RECTI O N S A N D S U C C E EDS IN H A V I N G H E R CUSTOMERS THEM SELVES TORTURE T H E I R C H A I N E D BROTH ERS. WHOSE BE PR ESENCE. "TH E Y TRACK MEl BUT BASICALLY I LIKE THEMI T H E LAST TIME I WENT ON VACATION ALONE-USUALLY I A LWAYS HAVE ONE OR TWO OF THEM WHO COME FOR T H E W E E K END: I MAKE THEM STAY FOR WHOLE DAYS IN T H E OUTHOU SES AT THE BACK OF THE GARDEN -AT T H E END OF TEN DAYS. EROTIC SHE A LSO A M ONG REQU I R ES TH E M T O PLAY TH E M S E LV E S A N D O N L Y GAMES GRABS TH E W H I P H E RS E L F W H E N TH I N G S GET OUT OF H A N D . OFTEN. TH EY'RE P I SS E D TOO. . I ' M SIXTEEN W H E N I GET P R E G N ANT." SHE SAYS. "SOMETI M E S I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A LION T H A T C A U S E S T E R R I BLE TROUBLE. DEVOTED T O THOSE C U STO M E R S PLEA S U R E S OF T H E G ROUP." EDGE OF T H E BED. SO. SEATED ON TH E N A R ROW SOFA W H I C H oo U B L E S AS A BED-DNE H A S THE I M PRESSION THAT I T HAS SHRUNK FROM GROUP D I SC I P L I N E AT J A C K I E·S. BUT I ' M A FOOL. DAMN AN E V E R YT H I N G I'M A BOUT IT. CROWD IS E S P EC I A LLY SUCH ON SAT U R D A Y S . EXPLA I N TO A TWENTY-TH R E E YEAR OLD I N S PEC­ TOR. I D I D N 'T GET A LONG W I T H E I T H E R OF TH E M . I M M E D I ATELY I SAY YES. W H E N I FOU N D OUT I T R E A LLY WORKS. TELLING HER LIFE STO R Y . W H E R E C O U L D I G O ? A HOM E F O R U N W E D M OT H E RS. AND. THE MORE THEY LAUGH." W H E R EA S TH E PRESENCE OF ANOTH E R WOMAN I M M E DIATELY OPENS THE DOOR TO PROSECUTION FOR P ROC U R I NG . JACKI E. BUT YOU CAN SEE THAT THEY'RE A M ATEURS. "TH EY A R E N'T TRICKY. K . FAST. I'LL START AT THE B EG I N N I NG. WITH T H E HELP OF AN OLD F R I E N D F R O M THE HOM E FOR R E M A I N CLOS E D A S LONG A S T H E R E IS ON LY ONE " P R I E STESS. I J U ST M A NAGED TO GET BY. I WAS U S U A L LY ABOUT A DO Z E N M E N W H O 'SU B M I T A N D S U F F E R TOGETH E R . A L L ALONE. W E LCOMED. OR THE CLEANING I M M ED I ATELY I SAY TO M YSELF." SETTING: TH E THRONE ROOM. I WOULD HAVE L I K E D TO L E A R N . NOW THAT D I SGU STS M E . BUT I H A V E N O E X P E R I E NCE." BOU L E V A R D R I C H A RD-LENOI R . I WANTED TO COME HOME. SOM E OF T H E M W E A R B LACK VELVET M A S K S I N ORDER T O R E MA I N ANONYMOUS. OR (MORE OFTEN ) T O I N ITI ATE H E R T O THE PLEASURES OF SUFFERI NG. T H E FAT H E R OF M Y KID WAS THE ONLY MAN I KNEW S E X U A LLY. PLUS. BUT THE N U RSES GOT $ 1 00. AT THRITEEN I FELL I N LOV E. A FTER WORK. T H E N IN AN HOOD. BEG TO BE I WAS THREE MONTHS PREGNANT WHEN I A R R I VED. WITH THIS. H E WOR K E D I N I M PORT-EXPORT.T I E THEM UP S E C U R E L Y A N D R E LE A S E TH EM ONLY WHEN THEY ARE COM P LETELY C A L M E D DOW N. JAC K I E RARELY AGREES. SO THEY LAUGH ALL THE T I M E : THE MORE T H E GUYS SUFFER.

I WENT TO TH E R U E Q U I N C A M POIS. BOTH ANKLES • • • FROM U N I Q U E ABOUT M E I S M Y GAZE. I MOVE IN. I SPECI A L I ZED. TH E OTH E R GIRLS GOT . ·WH E N LITTLE I RECOV E RED. NOT BAD FOR A PROSTITUTE. A LL THAT CAME SEVERAL TEETH. THE FANCIEST OF THEM ALL. K . H E WAS T R E M B L I NG. TH E R E BUT. POOR WOM A N I LIKE I WANTED TO SEE H I M .J U LY . HE WANTED TO S L E E P WITH M E . I ' L L A LWAYS R E M E M B E R M Y F I RST D A Y TH E R E . A ROUND UTTLE BY L I TTLE. WE HAD D I N N E R . THAT Irs FORBIDDEN. IT D I D N 'T WORK. TO CONTI N U E. AND. L I K E EVERYON E ELSE. THE WORDS. S O I ACTED T W E N T Y. I TH I N K. I G O T O U T A N D C A M E B A C K TO PA R I S . IN MARSEI LLES. H E DIDN'T WANT T O TA K E ANY. I MET MY SON'S FATH E R IN DIEPPE. THEN H E TELLS M E . I WASN'T WOR R I E D ABOUT THE A R A BS. IT WAS MY GUY FROM PA R I S . I'VE GOT M Y PLACE. H E LPED NEVER M E. I K N O W T H A T Irs F O R M E . BETW E E N TOPOL A N D T H E R U E Q U I N C A M PO I S . A L I M O PULLS UP. ONCE. AT THIS TI M E . FINA LLY. I HAVE TO M A R R Y H I M . I STAYED W I TH HIM. ON MY H A N DS A N D KNEES.J E A LOUS GUY. WELL O. B ETT E R FOR SHOU LDN'T H A V E D R U N K WITH M E . SHOWED U P. . WAS A C A F E TERRACE. EVEN THOUGH H E H A D A W O M A N ON TH E S I D E . -I CHANGED HOTELS I M M ED I ATELY. SEE. MY TH E R E HEAD WERE IN . THE B U LLET GOES THROUGH M Y SHOU LDER A N T E A R S U P M Y C H I N . IT WAS TWO O'CLOCK I N TH E MOR N I NG. H E W A S F U N N Y THAT WAY:' B U S I N ESS RACK.J E A LOUS. I H A D TO GET M A R R I ED: A YEARS OLD. I W A S A K I D. A N D BECAUSE O F M Y DOUGH. OF A WELL I IT H A PPEN E D SITTING ON ONE FO U R T E E N T H . T H E C H E E K-BO N E . • • ARTICLES. ONLY . I SAY NO. I HAD ONLY BEEN TH E R E TWO DAYS WHEN GUYS THE LIMO LEFT. I HE C A N'T SPIED SAY ON HE ME WASN'T I N THE NICE. T H E R E H E WAS. SO. I DON'T REMEMBER TO WHOM . WITH THE H E L P OF A F R I E N D . I STAYED THERE. I T WAS O N T H E R U E A U B R Y-LE-BOUC H E R . B U T H E WAS FLA B B E RGASTED. I WENT. T H E THEM. 'THAT W I L L COST YOU A C-NOTE: YOU "AFTER ALL T H AT. T H E F I R ST. A N D M Y STRENGTH. BUT S H E W A S FRIGID. BEGG I NG ME TO STOP. THEY S T I L L T R I E D T O G ET M E A S SOON A S I LEFT THE HOSPITAL. A I HAD SOM E FRIENDS BAD. I WHO WAS THE ONE WHO PA I D FOR TH E HOTEL.BELLEVILLE. W H AT'S OF THEY BEAT CUSTOM E R S TAUGHT M E. I W ASN'T AS STRONG THEN A S I AM TODAY. A FRI E N D OF THE HOTEL M A N A G E R . THE F I R S T C U STOM E R S A I D TO M E : ' C A N YOU DO A QUICKI E?' I A N S W E R ED: 'WHArs THAT?' I D I DN'T K N OW A N YT H I N G . BUT A FT E R SEVERAL DAYS "WHERE WAS I? YES. I PAID A P R O T E CT I O N FEE OF $2 500. • • • I W A S N 'T EVEN T W E N TY-O N E . I WOULD H A V E B E E N HIT RIGHT I N THE H E A D I f' I H A DN'T STOOD U P. TOMORROW AT SIX: I WENT TH E R E WITH T H E E N V E LOPE BUT I NS I D E I H A D P U T TOILET P A P E R• .F I V E SIC I U A N . THI NGS W E R E GOING VERY W ELL. I ESCAPED TO M A R S E I LLES. I M A D E IT T O A TAXI A N D WENT T O T H E HOSPITAL A L L A LONE. I COULDN'T TH R E E R E S I ST. BUT I A L R E ADY KNEW TRA N S LATED BY CHARLES CLARK 161 . I GO TO LES H A LL E S WITH A FRI E N D WHO KNOWS A HOT E L IT WAS BETTER TO ROUGH UP A GUY FOR TO G E T F U C K E D ALL DAY F O R T H I R TYI $ 50 THAN M A N A G E R . TELLS ME THAT IF I'M NOT M A R R I ED. T H E I N ST R U M ENTS. THEY FIGURE OUT T H A T TH E Y CA N'T TOUCH ME. ON THE GROUND. I GOT THOUGH. IT'S FUNNIER. ESPECIALLY BECAUSE OF WHAT I WAS WEA R I NG. . . I TOLD HIM ABOUT M Y S P EC I A LTIES IN PA RIS. HE GOT U N DRESSED. I WAS "O N E F I N E DAY I H A D H A D ENOUGH. WITH H I M . I HAD THE BLACK D R ESS AND HIGH H E ELS. FOR HOW LONG? I H A V EN'T MADE LOVE WITI:I A CUSTOMER FOR TH R E E AND A HALF YEARS. S O OF COURSE. T H E Y W A N T TOO MUCH. B A RTE N D E R . HIS EYES BULGED. WASN'T MEAT TH I RTY T H R O W S A T TEN BUCKS. A N D I TREATED HIM LIKE A CUSTOM E R . I BAR ELY H A V E T I M E TO GET UP. TH E R E W A S SUDDENLY NOBODY LEFT I N T H E DANCE H A LL.J E A LOUSI STREET AND SLAPPED M E A S I WALKED BY-I NSTEAD OF BEING H APPY THAT I W A S WORKI NG-BECA U S E H E SAID I C A M E l T E R R I B LY . R U E DES FRANCS-BOURGEOIS. AFTE R D I N N E R . A N A R A B WHO BUYS M E A DRINK A T TH E BAR. PUT A H U N D R E D B U C K S I N A N E N V E LOPE A N D B R I N G I T T O T H E DOOR . NOT FOR MEl FROM THE BEGI N N I NG. A SHOULDER. TH E M .J UST T O S P I T E H I M . LITTLE DANCE H ALL. HE D I D N 'T KNOW WHAT H E WANTED.

M. M R. H E HAD B E E N A MR. M:S APPEARANCE AND H A BITS W E R E THOSE OF A CALM AND COLLECTED PERSON. ACQU I ESCED AT ONCE. HE WAS A S S U M PTION THAT M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES ARE NO EXCEPTION. C U RIOSITY H I M S E LF BEEN SATI S F I E D: H E H A D R E A D A L L TH E R E WAS O N T H E SUBJ ECT OF M A SOCH I S M A N D HAD ALWAYS B E E N DISA PPOI NTED I N H I S F I N DI NGS. WAS 65 W H E N HE C A M E TO ME FOR THE F I RST TIME. BUT WHAT A CONTRAST BETW E E N THESE OUTER AND HIS NAKED BODYI PROV I D E D BE E XC E E D E D . R E M A RKING THAT H I S CASE M IGHT B E USEFUL TO OTH E R S WITH T H E S A M E PERVERSION AS HIS. M A N Y OTH E R FACTORS PLA Y E D A PART I N H I S DECISION TO S E E M E A S I S H A L L I N D ICATE LATE R ON. HE LIVED I N A S M A LL S U B U R B A N COTTAGE WITH H I S A DOPTED DAUGHTER A N D H E R HUSB A N D.M. H I S D A I L Y E X I STENCE WAS S I NG U L A R LY DEVOID OF A N Y MORA L M A SOC H I SM . SOLITARY WALKS D U R I NG HIS HOLI DAYS. HAD NEVER HIS LONG. AND A T THE SAME TIME TO BETTER U N D E RSTA N D A BO U T H I S C U RIOUS STATUS. AND IN SHORT-LIVED D U RATION. I SHALL DESCRIBE T H E M I N DETA I L 1 62 . H E LOATHED T H E IDEA OF P E RSONA LLY E X E RTING A N Y FOR M OF A UTHOR­ ITY OR OF HOLDING A COM M A N D I N G POSITION A N D CON S I D E R E D BOTH G I V I NG A N D R E C E I V I N G ORDERS TO B E S U R E WAYS O F LOSI N G H I S F R E E DO M I H E WAS VERY FOND O F THIS F R E E DO M WHICH I NVOLVED TRACES I N DICATING DISCUSSED H I S STATE W I T H H I M A N D ADVISED H I M TO SEE M E. H E ALSO A D M I TT E D THAT B Y A G R E E I NG TO CONS U LT ME. M. GOING ON THE M R . HIS E M PLOYERS HELD DISCOVERED H I M A FT E R H E HAD CONS U LTED H E R A BOUT A H EMOPTYSI S W H I C H PROVED T O B E O F H I M I N S U C H H IG H ESTEE M THAT H E WAS ABLE TO OBTA I N S P EC I A L WOR K I N G C O N D I T I O N S . M·s STORY] EXTRE M E LY C A R E F U L TO CONCEA L H I S P E RVER­ SION FROM THOSE A RO U N D HIM. A R A D I O LO G I S T COLLEAGU E OF MINE H I G H L Y S K I L L E D T EC H N I C I A N IN RADIOELECTRICITY B E FO R E HIS RETI R E M E NT. M Y COLLEAGU E E XA M I N E D HIM AND MADE A C A R E F U L INVENTORY O F A L L PERVERSE PRACTICES: SHE P A R T I C U LA R A R R A N G E M E N T S A F F EC T I N G H I S HOURS A N D H I S VACATIONS. [ M R . HE M IGHT A LSO BE HOPI NG FOR AN OPPORTU­ N ITY TO BE H U M I LIATED. ACTUALLY. I N SHORT. A PP E A R A NC E S T H A T C E RT A I N T H R E S HO L D S Q U A NTITAT I V E C ON S I D E RA T I O N S A N D I NT E N S ITY FACTORS C A N M O D I FY T H E QUALITATIVE A SPECT OF A P H E N O M E NON AND ITS S E NSE.

I'LL M A K E YOU THE S T U P I D E ST CUNT ANOTH E R RI NG. N E EDLE WAS I M BEDDED I N THE PENIS ITSELF. IT I S I NTERESTING T O NOTE THAT NONE O F T H E S E TORTURES WAS FOLLOWED BY THE S L I G H T E ST SUPPU RATION. MR. HE LEGALLY A DOPTED N E EDLES WITH A H A N DL E AND THAT WAS USED TO BEAT H I M. H A D A PROFO U N D EFFECT ON M. A FT E R LATERA LLY. T H E P E N I S W A S BLUE A LL O V E R . M. A STE E L R I NG OF S E V E R A L CENTIM ETE RS I N D I A M ETER H A D B E E N P E R M A N E N ­ T L Y A F F I X E D T O THE T I P OF TH E PENIS. N A I LS A N D HAD BEEN I N FLICTED ON OF URINE HIS AND SECOND T I M E BUT THE M A R R IAGE SOON E N D E D I N DIVORCE : H I S SECOND W I F E WAS A PROSTITUTE P IECES OF GLASS BODY. H I M S E LF. TH E F A C T THAT S H E W A S A PROSTITUTE A N D A P R EC U R ESS PUT M. USE BUT GIVE ME IT TO ME UP THE ASS. EXC E PT FOR THE FACE. AND THE H A RDER. CAUSED IN N O S M A L L A MOUNT." " I L I K E I T U P T H E A S S . HOOKS WERE M. THONGS O F FLESH HAD BEEN CUT ALONG H I S BACK. H I S SMALL TOE WAS M I SS I NG: IT HAD A PP A R ENTLY BEEN SECTI ONED WITH A HACKSAW B Y M R. I N D A NG E R OF BEING EXPOSED IF SHE WERE EXCREM ENT OVER CAUSE ANY PERIOD O F YEARS D I D NOT U PSET. R I G H T B R EAST WAS LITERA LLY A B S E NT." "I THE P R E P U C E H A D BEEN MADE I N TO A S O R T O F A MAGNETIZED C U S H I O N F I L L E D W I T H PA RAFFI N. AND YET (SHOU LD I ATTR I B UTE THIS TO A DEFENSIVE ATTITUDE ON M Y PART?1 I EQUALLY STA RT L I N G . BUT WAS COMPLETELY CURED A FTER TWO YEARS SPENT IN A SANATO R I U M . A W H E E L FULL OF PHONOGRAPHIC ARRESTED FOR H E R I LLEGAL ACTIVITIES A N D H E WANTED TO AVOI D THAT POSSI B I LITY A T ALL COSTS. MANY PHONOGRAPH N E E DLES W E R E I M B E DD E D I N T O B EG I N WITH. SUCH AS N E E DLES. GI R D E D THE B A S E OF THE PENIS A N D TH E SCROTU M . I'M NOT A WOM A N . ACTING O N THE ORDERS OF A PARTNER. COM E LIKE A "I'M F E M A LE. M . B E G A N AN EW. M . BUT R E MOVABLE T H I S TIME. I ' M A WHORE. O N E FEELS. M:S SCARS AND MARKS HIS OF TORTU RE WERE E A S I LY BE V E R I F I ED. M Y MOUTH A N D M Y ASSHOLE A R E FOR BIG PRICKS. I'M FUCKM EAT. M : S BODY. WHICH I DARE SAY BOR D E R E D ON BLAC K H U MO U R SINCE THE P E N I S COULD "DEVI ATE" TH E THEREBY A S S E RT I N G N E E DL E O F A ITS P OW E R . GOOD." PHOTOGRAPHS WERE TAK E N DU R I N G TH I S PROCESS." A L L OF T H I S COULD TORTU R E S MR. I ' M A SLUT." "I LOVE TO BE BEATEN ALL OVER. THE BETTER:' "I'M A SLUT. LOVE SWALLOWI N G PISS AND S H I T. A N D YET I H A D VAGUE DOUBTS CONCE R N I NG IN PA RTICULAR WHAT H E RELATED A BOUT H I S W I FE AND A SPEC I FIC CASE OF AGGRESSIVE ACTING OUT. ONE FOU N D THE FOLLOW I N G I M P R E S S I V E LIST: -I'M A SLUT. P U S H E D N EA R LY EVEN I N TO T H E TUBERC U LOSIS I N H I S T U R N. T H E BONE SU RFACE WAS ROUGH AFTER THE A M PUTATION AND H E H A D FILED IT EVEN. LASTLY. " A N D THE TESTES AS THE X-RAYS R E V E A L ED. TO SHOW H I M VARIOUS INSTRUME NTS OF TORTU R E : BOA R D S I MB E D D E D WITH H U N DREDS OF N E E DLES. THE I NT E R N I ST A PP A R E NT ASKED MR. THE D A I LY I N G E ST I O N A WHOM HE HAD S E LECTED I N THE HOPE O F F I N D I N G A N EXPE R I E N C E D PARTN E R. -BIG PRICKS ENTER H E RE" ON THE BUTTOCKS: IN FRONT. WITH A N A R ROW. ESPEC I A LLY WITH M E N H E P I C K E D U P S I N C E TH E RELATIONS W I T H H I S FOR M E R PARTN ERS H A D RAPIDLY DWINDLED T O NOT H I NG.AND THUS POSSI B LY MODIFY CERTA I N CONCEP­ GEN ITALIA H A D NOT B E E N SPA R E D ." -I'M AN A M B U LATING SHIT-HOUSE. THE T I P O F THE GLANS H A D BEEN SLIT WITH A RAZOR BLADE SO A S T O WIDEN THE ORI FICE. W A S N O T LYI NG. M R . HE MARRIED A FOREIGN BOD I ES. TIONS OF MASOCH I S M . "SO IT WOULD LOOK LIKE A VAG I N A. " " U P WITH M A SOC H I S M :' -I ' M NOT A MAN. PERHAPS A S THE R E S U LT O F I N D I A I N K I N J ECTED I NTO A V E I N . BY THE TORTURES SHE H A D E N D U R E D . P I E R C E D BY SHARP OBJ ECTS A N D TORN OFF. COULD B E SUSPENDED HER DEATH. TH ROUGH WHICH PASSED SO THAT MR. HIS N A V E L WAS A SORT OF CRATER: BEEN POURED I NTO IT WHICH IT SOMETI M E S DOUBTED THE ACC URACY O F C E R TA I N UNVERIFIABLE FACTS WITHOUT B E I N G A B L E TO MOLTEN LEAD HAD WAS PREVENTED HAVE JUSTIFY MY DOUBTS IN ANY WAY. WHORE. H E WAS OVERCO M E B Y D E PR E S S I O N AND D E V E LO P E D PULMONARY WHILE A M A N P E N ETRATED HIM. M:S MORALITY 1 63 . H I S R ECTUM W A S E N LA RGED. E V E R Y WH E R E THORAX. WHY SHOULD HE LIE ABOUT C E RTIAN DETA I LS WH E N OTH E RS W E R E UNDENIA BLY TRUE? I CAN NOT SAY. I N ADDITION TO THE PENISES TATTOOE D O N HIS T H I G H S. L E FT TH E MENTIONED ABOVE D E F I N IT E TRACES WHICH I NCONTESTABLY PROVED THAT M R . H A V I N G B E E N S E A R E D W I T H A R E D-HOT IRON. HE ALSO I NT I M AT E D T H A T H I S W I F E'S LAC K OF SHOCKED HIM. N E EDLES I NT O HAD HIS BEEN BODY. EVEN A FT E R H I S MASOC H I STIC PRACTICES. A N D MOST R E M A R K A B LY. W H I C H H A D C O M ­ PLETELY C E A S E D DURING THIS P E R IOD." AROUND." "I'M A C O M PA S S . WAS A L M OST COMPLETELY COV E R E D WITH TATTOOS: "ALL BIG COCKS W E LCOM E . FROM SPATTE R I N G OUT (AS WOULD DON E B E C A U S E O F R I V U LETS O F RED-HOT M ETA L ROD SWEAT) BY I N TRODU C I N G A I NTO THE L EA D.

THE YOUNG GIRL WHO WAS THEIR MAID DURING W I F E . HIS AND IT SATI S F I E D CHISM ME.W A S CITED BY WRITERS ON IN M. THAT HIS M. O R D I N ARY. A N D SHE LIKED THE IT W H E N I DEA OF I MADE HER SUFFER. H E LIVED COM P LETELY WITH I N THE FRAM EWORK O F TH E TIONS. F R O M T H E N ON. O N E PE RSON. HOW E V E R . D E V E LOPME NTS O F THIS HAVE P R O M PT E D ME TO PREFER THE KIND TERM WOU L D A LWAYS ASSU M E T H E F E M A L E R O L E . I THOUGHT I T WAS THAT I N H I S D R E A M S H E W A S WITH " A VOLUPTUOUS WOMA N WITH W H O M CLOSE T O B E I N G MY SEXUAL ACTI V I T I E S W E R E HE ADDED THAT "MY H O R R I B LE. I H A D B E C O M E NOR M A L VERIFIED PRACTICES BEGAN W H E N H E W A S 1 0 Y E A R S OLD. TO HIS " N O R M A L" S E X U A L I TY TO M E ET AN ECONO M I C N E E D-AT LEAST O N E M A Y SU PPOSE TH I S I S THE C A S E .R I G H T P R E . " A N OT H E R T I M E D U R I N G O U R T A L K S H E M A D E T H E FOLLOW I N G READ ON STATE M E N T "AT ABOUT A B OO K H E FIRST HAD P E R F E CT L Y H E T E ROSEXUAL N A TU R E TOLD M E AND LESS AND L E S S M A SOC H I STIC. HIS MOTH E R WAS VERY AFFECTION· ATE." I NT E R EST H A D D I E D O UT. I F O N E C O NS I D E R S T H E D E V E LO P M E N T O F T H I S CASE.'S CASE. W A S A D DED. HE TOLD M E THAT HE DID NOT TH I N K SHE W A S M A SOC H I STIC. O N E M I G H T S A Y . AT T H E B EG I N N I NG O F T H I S P E R I O D H E STI LL H A D A F E W H O M OSEX U A L ENCOUNTERS BUT SOON ALL SCHOOL BUT W I THOUT THIS IS VERY OVERLY SEVERE. M . F A K I RS. I H A D EVOLVED. IS OBVIOUS. F O R I N STANCE. STI L L H A D F A I R LY F R E Q U E N T NOCTU R N A L E M I SS I O N S BECO M E A FT E R E ROTIC DREAMS THAT IN M.) TH U S M:S M A SO­ STRICTLY PENCHANT A TT R A C T I O N C H I S M D E SC R I B E D A V E R I TABLE C U RV E STA RTING FROM J UST B E FO R E T H E MOMENT T H E CLINICAL BOA R D I N G SCHOOL PERIOD DURING HE WENT THROUGH A SHORT A C ER TAIN R E PUGNANCE WHICH S I G N S A P P E A R E D -TH E C O NSTI TUTIONAL FACTOR WHICH M . 1 64 . S H A R E D TH E I R S E X U A L EXISTENCE FOR T H R E E YEA RS. A MOST C U R I O U S T H I N G DESERVES CON S I D E R ­ ATION. AS H E SAID. M . TH E Y DARED NOT. KNOWN NOTH I N G O F TO T H E HIS CAME A N OTH E R P E R SO N I NTO TH E I R ACTIVITIES. H E B EC A M E AWARE O F HIS AND HIS P U N I S H M E NT· S E E K I N G TO URINE AT (IT I S A F A C T T H A T H I S E A R L I E R D R E A M S M A S OC H I STIC. "I WAS REA LLY AFTER THE HIS LOCAL SLUT. I T WAS THEN THAT H I S P E RV E R S E ACTI VITI E S C E A S E D A LTOGETH ER. HAD BEEN CAPABLE OF SEXUAL OF WHICH C L A SSMATES. D E SC R I B E D H I S PARE NTS AS HAV I N G B E E N VERY CON S I D E RATE AND K I N D TO H I M . A T 4 Y E A R S OF AGE HAD SEEN A LITTLE G I R L IN HIS P E R V E R S E PRACT I C E S C E A S E D COM PLETELY. OTH E R THAN TH E THIS I M PO RTA N T CONSTITUTI O N A L FACTOR. M . A N D Y E T .P U B E RTY. M. IN SEXUAL "GA M ES" HE ENGAG I NG I N P A R A L L E L." THE A PP E A R A N C E EARLY I N LIFE OF E R OG E NOUS M A S OC H I S M -OFTEN S U B J ECT. N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTI V I ­ TIES WHICH ONE OC C U P I E D CAN SAY HIS DREAMS THE AS HE GOT OLDER. A N D MASOCHISTIC MOVEMENT R A T H E R THAN M A SOC H I S M . "I L I K E D I T W H E N SHE M A D E ME S U F F E R . HE SA I D THAT " I W A S D I S G U STED. HAD "EXC E PT FOR T H E FACT TIONAL FACTO R S WEIGH H EAVI LY I N T H E B A L A N C E : M. NOT D A R I N G TO ACTU A L L Y C O M M I T C E R TA I N D E E D S . RESS B E I NG AT FOLLOWED CLOSELY ALL OF PROG­ M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N C I E S CEASED BETW E E N H I S 4 S T H A N D H I S SOTH YEA R I S T O B E NOTED. FOR A A PPA RENTLY H E L D HIM BACK. OFTEN BAC K E D OFF. A FTER B E I N G SODOMIZED B Y A M O N I TOR. I F I C A N J U DG E AGAIN. TH E HIS NOR M A L. HAD N E I G H BORHOOD E A T I N G H E R EXCR E M E NT. BUT LATER ON IT C A M E BACK TO M E. H I S FATH E R WAS A LITTLE MORE R I G I D . IT SEEMS D E F I N ITE THAT CONSTITU­ S I N G U LA R PAST W A S PE RSONS I NVOLVED. H E E V E N REMEMBERED HER NAME. MARRIED HIS COUSIN WHO HAD BEGU N HER THAT SHE 1 0 CHI LDREN." M A SOCH I STIC PRACTICES W H E N S H E W A S E L E V E N Y E A R S OLD (SHE WOU L D S T I C K N E E D L E S UNDER M . IN A DDITION. B U T I F O N E CON S I D E R S T H E FACT THAT LATER ON M. H I M S E L F F I N D S V E R Y I M PORTA NT-TO THE POINT LO N G WHERE THE P E R V E RSION FROM CEASED. FACT T H A T M . W E R E AT T H E S A M E TIME I N D U LG I NG IN S H A R E D M A SOCH I STIC R E LA­ TH E I R B R I E F M A R R I A G E . W A S 46 OR 47 AT THE TIME. H E BECA M E THE TA RGET OF M A LT R E A T M E N T AS PECT BY HIS CLASSMATES.'S IN H E R F I N G E R N A I LS) L O N G B E FORE THEY K N E W E A C H OTH E R . N EV E RTHE LESS.H I S B E E N T H E SOLE PERVERSION SEEMS T O HAVE ACTOR ON S T A G E . THAT PERVERSION." WERE BY MY D R E A MS. CORRESPO N D E NC E WAS PRACTICALLY TH E ON LY CONTACT H E M A I N TA I NED WITH HIS REAL D A U G HTER. ' S PA R T I C U LA R ." I NC O R PO R A T I N G TH E N FA M I LY L I F E HE H A D C R E ATED AND TO W H I C H H E WAS VERY M UCH ATTAC H E D . PUSH N E EDLES TH ROUGH H I S A R M T H E MSELVES BUT WOU L D G I V E HIM ORDERS T O DO SO. A S IT WERE. TH E N TWO." MARRIAGE MASO­ HIS DEVELOPED TO ITS F U L LEST M. THE HIS T I M E. WAS V E R Y ATTA C H E D TO BOTH OF THEM A N D GRA D U A L· LY GREW QU ITE HIS C LO S E FATH E R QUITE TO HIS FATH ER M. BUT W H E N T H I S WAS OVER HIS MASOCH I STIC PRACTICES STA RTED IN E A R N EST A N D G R E W IN I M PORTANCE. WAS 2 1 (WHO WHEN HE D I SCOV E R E D DIED AND FATHER H A D J U ST HE WAS WHOSE C O R R ESPON D E N C E EXA M I N I NG ) PROBABLY H A D M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N · CIES AS W E LL. H E WAS A N ONLY CHILD AND HIS PARE NTS WERE NOT YOUNG WHEN HE WAS BO R N . B U T LAT E R ON I T CAME BACK TO M E . ALTHOUGH E N G A G I N G AS I HAVE STA T E D I N N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTIVITIES. I NT I MATELY L I N K E D T O M . ' S DESTI N Y .

W A S FREE TO DESIRE OR T O R E F U S E T H A T JOY. T H A T M . I WOU LD ADD THAT TH I S IS PARTI C U L A R L Y TRUE WHEN THE I M PORTA N C E O F PHYSICA L P A I N I N ITSELF I S M I N I M IZED: TORTU RE I S S E LDOM VERY HO R R I FY I NG. TH E PARADOX IS THAT IT WAS FORC E D U PO N H I M ." EJACU LATION:' TH I S E X P LA I N S T H E C H A RACTE R I S ­ TIC ATTITUDE O F T H E M A SOC H I ST W H O CONSTA NTLY D E M A N DS THAT H I S P A R TN E R I N C R E A S E THE PA I N . FROM M. TH E S E I D E A S OF T I M E A N D QUA NTITY GIVE US D E F I N ITE I N FO R M ATION W H I C H C A N TH ROW SOM E LIGHT O N T H E M YSTE R I O U S CONN ECTION BETW E E N PHYSICAL PAIN AND PLEASURE. I N T H I S S E N S E . A N D H I S W I F E "WE R E R E A LLY TWO SLAVES O F TWO LOVERS:' EVERY M EA N S. W E C A N LOGICALLY INFER AN EQUALLY E N DLESS NEED FOR PLE A S U R E . A N D T H E F E E L I N G O F P LE A S U R E GRADUA LLY BECA M E OCC U R E D I NTENSE. A N D D I V E R S I F I E D . A N D ON TH E SPOT W H E R E P A I N WAS A P P L I E D . 1 65 . H E U N DOUBTEDLY EXPER I E NCED DERIVED FROM "TH E THE FEELING OF HAPPINESS OF A WILD EGO. ETC. IN A SENSE HE WAS CON D E M N E D TO PLEASURE AND F U NCTION: ON T H E ONE H A N D I T A P P A R E NTLY ACTS AS A CATALYST FOR S E X U A L A RO U SA L. P A I N D O E S N O T G O BEYOND A C E RTA I N T H R ESHOLD. I N D I C A T I N G C LE A R L Y THAT PA I N ITSELF I S THE T R I G G E R . M. SHARPER. I .E. I T H U RT. BUT THEN I GOT A N E R ECTION. SUFFER THE WORST TOR M E NTS TO O B TA I N OTH E R H A N D I T W O U L D S E E M TO I N C R E A S E S E X U A L EXC ITEMENT AND PUSH I T TO ITS C L I MAX WHILE PLEA S U R E U N D E R A B SOLUTE C O M P U L S I O N : S U C H WAS M:S DESTINY F O R THE GREATER PART O F H I S LIFE. IT WAS B U T A M EA N S. A N D HOW D I D M . T H E B A S I C L I N K BETW E E N TH E I NTENSITY O F TH E PA I N A N D T H E I NTENS ITY OF THE ORGASM UNDERLIES E V E RYTH I N G M. DE­ E N D L ESS S E ARCH FOR P A I N . PHYSICA L HOWEV E R . PA I N HAS NO BOU N D A R Y . PAIN IT IS WAS A CT U A L L Y THAT TH E CASE O F M A SOC H I S M . W A S QUITE AWA R E OF T H I S OUTB I DDI NG. M A D E T H E DI STI NCTION V E R Y C L E A R LY : "AT FI RST. PAIN WAS E J A C U LATION AT ITS MOST ACCEPTED. T H A T H I S TORTU R E S BUT THAT T H E Y BE DID NOT O N LY D E M A N D A LTHOUGH P A I N A N D H U M I LIATION B E LONG T O TWO D I F F E R E N T REGISTERS. I N T H I S R E S PECT H E I S A GOOD A D E PT OF F R E U D W H O S A Y S I N CIVI LISATION AND ITS DISCONTENTS: W H E N ANY SITU ATION THAT I S ABOVE A L L A N A B A S E M ENT OF HIS PE RSONA LITY. SUSPENDED. WHAT H E CRAVED FOR WAS R E S U M E D. C L A I M S IT I S TER ROR AND A N X I ETY WHICH ARE A SSOC I A T E D THI NGS. TO ACH I E V E THIS " V E R I TA B L E MORAL SUICIDE" DESIRED LONGED. IT WAS PA I N T H A T T R I GG E R E D MY K E E N E S T POS S I B L E P L E A S U R E .'S W I T H PLEAS U R E A N D T H E N W I TH O R G A S M : M:S C A S E D I S PROVES T H I S . BETWEE N T H E M . I. HOW E V E R . ORC H ESTRATED ON HIM THE IN B RUTA L TORTU R E S OBTA I N THE I N FLICTED ORDER T O SC R I B E D A N D AT T I M E S M E NTIO N E D O P E N LY: "ON THE WHOLE. R E LA T I O N S W I T H OTH E R S U N ORTHODOX I N V A R I O U S WAYS. FOR I N ST A N C E . M O R E PA I N . ON T H E T H I S I S W H Y H I S C A S E I S SO D I FFIC U LT T O U N R A V E L . TH E GENITALIA ARE THE AFTER E J AC U A LTION. "EVERY INCH OF MY BODY COULD BE A RO U S E D TH ROUGH P A I N :' T H I S WOULD I N D I CATE A N S E N SITI VITY." M. LOS I NG I T S OWN S P E C I FIC ITY. EXTR E M E M UTATION O F THE BODY'S YET PAIN IN ITSELF WAS NOT T H E I N THE SAME WAY THAT M:S REACTIONS TO PA I N WERE DIFFERENT HIS FROM WHAT IS GENERALLY WERE U L T I M A T E PLEA S U R E. I N SHOWS T H A T T H I S I S N O T T R U E A N D T H A T EVER­ INCREASING SOUGHT FOR. THE FACT THAT TORTU RE I S I N FLICTED OF ESTA B L I S H E S N E C E S S I T Y BY A N OT H E R A MOST I N T I M ATE LINK PARTY B E I N C R E A S I N GLY PA I N F U L. THE S A D I ST A LWAYS B A C K S OFF:' I T APPEARS MOREOVER THAT PAIN HAS A DOU BLE SATISFACTION U N TA M E D BY I N S T I N C TU A L I M PU L S E THE WHICH F R E U D TELLS U S " I S I NCOM PA R A B LY M O R E I N T E N S E THA N THAT DERIVED FROM SATI NG AN I N STINCT THAT H A S B E E N TA M E D:' O N E WO U L D B E I NC OR R ECT I N A S S U M I NG. D E R IV E IN A D D ITON TO THE TORT U R E S . I T I S W E L L KNOWN THAT MOST S P EC I A L I STS STR E S S THE M A SOC H I SrS QUEST FOR H U M I LI ATION. IT O N LY P R O D U C E S A F E E L I N G OF M I L D WE ARE SO M A D E T H A T WE C A N ONLY A F RO M STATE A OF CONTENTME NT. PHYSICAL PAIN AND OBVIOUS U N P L E A S U R E A R E N E I T H E R E N D S I N TH E M S E LVES NOR S I G N A LS. A N D STI L L MORE. BUT M E A N S TO A TTA I N A GOA L WHICH I S A LWAYS P L E A S U R E . T H E R E WAS PA I N N O T S U B J ECTED T O M UT I LATION. M . BY THE PLEASURE P R I N C I PLE IS PRO­ EVERY M E A N S W A S V A L I D THE M O M E N T M . PROLONGED. M'S CASE AGA I N A N D I T H U RT:' T H I S A SPECT O F PA I N A S A M E A N S WAS I D E N T I F I E D BY F R E U D IN T H E ECONOMIC PROBLEM I N MASOC H I S M W H E R E HE POSITS THAT. F E A R O F PA I N WOU LD B E A B S E N T FROM H I M A N D IT WAS H I S S A D I ST PART N E R WHO WOULD B A C K OFF BECAUSE OF T H E EXTR E M E NATURE O F HIS D E M A N DS : "AT T H E · L A S T MOME NT. TH EODO R E R E I K. I N C R EASES AND DECREASES IN TH E QUA NTITY OF STI M U L I WITH I N A G I V E N P E R IOD OF T I M E. H A D M A S T E R E D THE A RT O F P RO D U C I N G CONTRA STS. L I V E T H I S CO R R E LATION? ACCORD I NG TO H I M.M:S C A S E A LS O R E V E A LS THAT T H E P H E NO M E NON OF PHYSICAL PAIN AND ITS MYSTE R I O U S ABI LITY TO TRIGGER E ROTIC P L E A S U R E A N D O RG A S M IS NOT WHAT C E RTA I N S P E C I A L I STS H A V E C L A I M E D IT TO BE. OR OBEYI N G O R D E R S TO WHICH A P PA R E NTLY I NTE N S E ENJOYMENT L I TT L E THE S I M PLEST IN SLAP CONTRAST A N D V E RY FROM I N DULGE C O P R O P H A G Y. E . M. WHEN C L E A R E R. M.

I ON HIS PA RTN E R WA S AN U TT E R NOTH ING WANTED S E C O N D. THE W I L L EXISTED NO LONGER. I E X P E R I ENC E D NO PHYSICAL OBEYED-AND Y E T H E WAS I N FACT LOOKED U PO N AS UTTER LY WORTHLESS. AS HE F E LT HOMOSEXU A L ' PRACTICES TO I N S U LT S . GOT A PARTNER TO ORDER H I M TO I N S C R I B E ON H I S S K I N SO H I S MORAL DECAY COULD BE SEEN: "I GAVE THE I M PRESSION I WAS A N I N V E RT W H I C H I WAS NOT OUT O F PLEASURE. ABOLITION OF THE W I LL. THE MASOCHI ST." THE S A D I STIC STUDENT WHO SHARED M:S LIFE A N D H I S WI FE'S WAS SU PPOSED T O BE A LL-POW ERFUL: HE GAVE STRICT ORDERS THAT HAD TO BE PLEAS U RE " A FT E R H O M OSEX U A L S I D E O F A L L T H I S W A S. WITNESS WERE THESE TANTAMOUNT P H R ASES M . T H E BONDAG E T O W H I C H THE SADIST I S CONDE M N E D B Y THE M A SOC H I ST IS. F I RST. M . HE WAS READY TO SUBMIT TO ANY K I N D OF I NVESTIGATION SINCE RETICENCE WAS TOTA L L Y FOR E I G N TO HIM AND I N DE E D RETI­ CONC E A L E D SOM ETH I NG DES PITE LITERA LLY I NCONCE I VA B LE: TO SHOW ANY TONE OF H I S DISCO U R S E W H I C H . ON THE WHOLE. THE TOTA L POWER THAT M. D E PICTED H I M S E L F A S H A V I NG A PRESSING N E E D TO B E H U M I LIATED-HOMOS E X U A LITY WAS ONLY A N INST R U M ENT TO H I S E N D AND T O HAVE H I S W I L L COM P LETELY D E STROYED. THE HE H I DE O U S F E LT TORT U R E S HE HAD G U E S S E D A T . ANOT H E R THAT M E ANS TO H U M I LIATION. ACCORDING TO M . LITTLE HE SATISFACTION. ETC. I T W A S A LSO H I S I M M E NSE P R I D E AND HIS SCO R N FOR HIS PA RTNERS WHICH PROMPTED H I M TO R E M A RK. R ENOUNC ING H I S W I L L "FOR THE B E N E F I T OF THE PE RSON WHO WAS I N COMMA ND. WAS RESTRAINED AND FREE FROM D R A M AT I C CENCE WOULD HAVE M E A NT TO E X E RT HIS WI LL. H E C A N NOT R E S I ST L ET T I N G IT BE GLIMPSED OR OC C U R . A N D SO T H E M A SOC H I ST. M. I N A N Y CASE. HAD EVER ANOTH E R C O NC E A L E D ." TO BE MORE P R ECISE. HE S A I D T H E ONLY REASON HE WAS RETICENT ABOUT PERFORM I N G EVEN MORE MASOCHIST H I MS E L F. WHICH H OLDS P R I SO N E R THE S U R PASSED H I M. ' S D E E PLY CONC E A LE D ASSE RTION O F TOTA L POWER WAS M A TC H E D B Y HIS OVERWEENING P R I D E WHICH COULD B E GLIM PSED WHENEVER HE DESC R I B E D UNDERGONE. SO OPA QU E LY V E I LE D THAT ONE M I GHT CONSIDER T H I S TO BE W H I LE THE L A S T W O R D ON THE W H O L E MATTE R. THAT "TH E SA DIST A LWAYS BACKS OFF A T T H E LAST MOMENT. BONDAGE MUST IN FACT BE H E W A S ALMOST UNIQUE: ONLY ONE PERSON H E KNEW OF. THIS TRAIT U N DO U B T E D L Y THE GENE R A L NEGATE M:S EXISTENC E . TOTA L ANNI H I LATION OF THE W I LL. A L MOST I N C I DENTALLY. A PPEARED TO A S S U M E .ENABLED HIM TO P RO L O N G T H E E J A C U LATION. BUT OUT OF H U M I L I A T I ON. WHO LIVED I N A CAGE BRI STLING WITH S H A RP POINTS. DRASTIC MUTI LATIONS-SUC H A S A MPUTATING' HIS P E N I S-WAS THE FEAR OF M E DICAL O R LEGAL MICHEL DE M'UZAN TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOTE 1 66 . I N PART. AND T H E R E FORE TO C A NC E L H I MSELF OUT. C E R TA I N E X P RESSIONS K E PT R E C U R R I NG IN HIS SPEECH SUCH AS: C LA I M ED HAD REAL E X ISTENCE O F H I S OWN. AND H E R E H E HOODWIN K E D H I S I N T E R LOCUTOR F O R H E W A S V E R Y DEFINITELY E X P R E S S I NG A DESIRE: THE D ES I R E T H A T TH E SUCH A WAY AS TO OTH E R P E RSON PROCEED IN D I S R EG A R D O F T H E W I LL. I T WAS A L L O N THE MORAL PLA N E . B E H I N D THE FACADE OF A D R A M ATIC A S S E R TI O N OF H I S NOTH I NGNESS. " P S YC H I C A L TH E O B V I O U S COMPLICATIO� S A N D T H E PROBLE M S INVOLVED I N H E MOSTASIS. HE R E A LLY RENOU NCED ACTUA LLY S U B DU E D T H E SADIST B Y FORCING H I M T O A S S U M E T H E R O L E W H I C H H E . NEV ERTHELESS T H E R E W A S SOM ET H I NG A T R I FLE TOO STRONG IN THIS I N S I STENCE ON FOUND H I M S E L F I N T H E PARADOX ICAL SITUATION Of BEING STR I PP E D OF ALL POWE R O F SPEECH AND DESIRE. THE I NT E R LO C U T O R OR THE PARTNER TH U S E F FECTS.. C LA I M E D THAT HE H I MSELF DID NOT E X I ST AS A SUBJECT B U T THAT H E S I M PLY E M BO D I E D THAT THE HE SA DISTS VERY FANTASI ES. CONFE R R E D M OC K E R Y . AT A LL: THE HE WAS THE ONE WHO E RO T I C R E L A T I ONS H I P TO E X I S T : I T W A S TE R M I N A T E D HE AS SOON AS RESUMED H I S FREEDOM V I S-A-VIS THOSE PERSONS WHO S U PPOSEDLY HELD H I M IN BONDAGE AND H E DID N O T A L LOW ANY FURTHER S E RVITUDE TO P E RSON A L L Y BELIEVE THAT THE PERVERSE M A SOC H IST I S NOT TOTA LLY UNAWA R E O F H I S D EEP-SEATED ATTITUDE." M.

STORI E S AS OR TO S A D I ST I C A N DIOR SUCH AS M:S. WE SHOULD NOT CON S I D E R THIS STORY AS AN OBSE RVATION NOR A C L I N ICAL CASE SINCE M. EVER THOUGHT O F U N D E RGOING TREATME NT. AND FROM A PSYC H I ATRIC POINT O F VIEW. M. OF OR MORE AND MASOCHISTIC O FT E N . SUCH THE NOVELS SADE SACH E R M A SOCH . IT WOULD BE I M POSSIBE FOR T H E SADIST A N D/OR MASOCHIST TO PRETE N D THAT W H E N HE I NDULGES IN THESE PRACTICES. HAS MICHEL DE M'UZA N . ON TH E GETTING SUDDEN CONTRARY. THE M A SOC H I S T I C TH EM AS S Y M PT O M S OF A N Y PARTIC ULAR I LLNESS. M:S C U RIOSITY TOWARD TIES HAS HIS OWN S E X U A L PECULIARI­ DESIRE OF SEXUAL NOTHI N G TO DO WITH T H E RID OF THEM. VERY OFTEN THESE STU D I E S REFER EITHER TO THE S A D I STIC N E U ROTIC A N DIOR M A SOC H I STIC F A N TA S I E S OF PATI E NTS. ALTHOUGH NOTHING IN M:S BEHAVIOR I N DICATES THAT H E IT I S ALSO A R E M A R K A BLE FACT THAT MASOC H I STS AND SADISTS A R E V E R Y M U C H AWARE OF TH E I R PEC U L I A R ITIES.POSTFACE: MASOC H I S M AND POLYSEXUA LITY YOU HAVE J UST R E A D M:S STORY A S HE TOLD IT TO A FRENCH PSYCHOAN A LYST. DID NOT CON S U LT M IC H E L DE M'UZAN FOR H I S MASOC H I S M . H E H A S LOST HIS "SE N S E OF REALITY. H E AGREED T O TALK W I T H A PSYCHO­ A N A LYST ABOUT H I S M A SOC H I S M BECA U S E HE WAS URGED TO DO SO B Y H I S OWN PHYSICI A N WHOM H E CON S U LT E D FOR R E S pi RA TO R Y P R O B L E M S A N D CONCRETE SADISTIC OR M A SOC H I STIC PRACTI CES." I S TO A DEG R E E IDEOLOGICAL F R A U D S I NCE IT R E DUCES M:S EXPERIENCE TO A M EDICAL CASE." I N T E R R U PT I O N OF HIS PRACTICES-WHICH C A N NOT B E COMPA R E D T O T H E S P O N T A N EO U S R E M I SS I O N OF AN ILLNESS­ SHOULD LEAD U S T O CONS I D E R M : S STORY A S THE STORY O F A M A SOC H I STIC PROCESS. H E R E P ARTLY TRANSLATED AS "A CASE OF PERVERTED M A SOC H I S M. IT I S QUITE R E M A R K A BL E THAT PSYCHOANALYTIC GENUINE SADISM AND M A S OC H I S M THEREFORE SHOULD NOT B E CONFUSED WITH MORAL SADISM 1 67 . W H O K N E W THAT M : S PAST L I F E WOULD C E RTAINLY I NTEREST DE M'UZAN A S A C A S E H I STORY. B UT DO NOT CON S I D E R I SHALL NOT EVEN TAKE I N TO C O N S I D E R ATION S A D I STS WHO ARE THOSE M A S OC H I S T S AND CONDEM N E D B Y A J UDGE TO CHOOSE BETW E E N PRISO N O R PSYC H I ATRIC TREATM ENT. STU D I ES ON SADISM A N D MASOC H I S M A R E V E R Y SELDOM BASED ON G E N U I N E "CLI N I C A L MATERI A L:' BY A LT H O U G H D E SC R I B E D H I M SELF AS A GENUINE I MEAN THAT WHICH REFERS TO MASOC H I ST. THE TITLE OF D E M'UZAN'S PAPER.

HOWE V E R . ON THE ONE H A N D. IN E V E R Y C I TY THERE A R E OPEN PLAC ES. T H E Y FOLLOW A PATTE R N OF I NC REAS­ ING Q U A N T I TATI V E A I N T E N S I TY C A R E FULLY P RO­ ALONG THESE LI N ES. E ." THE PSYCHOANALYST. THE P E R V E RT IN LES 1 20 NOT DOES GENUINE SADISM AND M A S OC H I S M ARE TWO NEED A DEEP AND DARK CAVE TO HAVE K I N K Y S E X . TH EY HAVE T O BE I T H A T A S U B J ECT M IG H T ADOPT F O R A S HORT W H I L E A N D T H E N A B A N DO N . THE M A SOC H I S T S O M E T H I M E S BECO M I NG A S A D I ST A N D VICE V E R SA . TA K I NG SUFFICIENT PRECAUTIONS TO AVOI D BOTH PO L I C E A N D "PERVERT H U NTERS. " M. G R A M MED. THEY CAN T R A N SFORM I NTO ONE A N OT H E R .U P OF T H E C ITY A S WELL AS OF THE EROTIC BODY O F PEOPLE." I ./ H E T E R O . EVEN FOR A PSYC HOA N A LYST. THAT IT I S NOT EASY. A N D IT IS Q U I TE I RONICAL TO SEE THAT TH E "SEX SPEC I A LI ST. B U T THEY CHANGE FOR T H E MOST PART IN TH E SENSE OF A BECOMING. IF I I N S I ST O N T H E FACT THAT M:S STORY IS A A N A LYSTS COMPARE POLYSEXUALITY I N ORDER TO D E SC R I B E IT I N TE R M S OF DEVIANCE. A L I MENTARY SEXUALI­ TI E S . WAS A SPECIA LIZED STRA I N E D S E X U A LITY OF OUR PSYCHOANA LYSTS: OU R AIM IS TO G I V E S H A P E TO A NEW NOTION­ WOR K E R WHO WAS H I G H LY R E G A R D E D BY H I S PEERS AND HIS S U P E R IORS. OF THE OPPOSITION OF CLASSES AND. TOW A R D S O R T O F P ROG R E S S I V E T E N S I O N A TENSION WHICH IS SO M E T H I NG. OF POLYSEXUAL­ ITY : AN I N F I N ITELY D I V E R S I F I E D SEXUA LITY W H I C H CONSTITUTES THE POTE NTI A L SEXUA LITY OF EVERY BODY. POLY S E X U A L I T Y -A N D TO D E SC R I B E T H E M A N Y P R OC E S S E S THROUGH WHICH POLYS E X U A LI T Y BECO M E S A "FACT OF L I FE:' S U C H PROCESSES A R E TOT A L L Y A L I E N TO C L A S S I C A L O P PO S I T I O N S : M A SOC H I S M FRENCH IS NOT A STA NCE E I T H E R . OF THE B I OLOGICAL OPPOSITION OF SEXES. O B E S E S E X U A L I TI ES. C O N S I D E R E D DO S A D I STIC O N E S) . H U S B A N D /W I F E . NOR WITH ATYPICAL PSYCHOSES. THE SO-CA LLED DESIRE OF THE IS A PERVERT M YTH. F A R FROM GOD'S S I GHT: H E S I M PLY WALKS A LONG TH E STR E ETS. IT I S R E M A R K A B L E I N D E E D TO S E E HOW M .A N D M A SOC H I SM . THE M A S OC H I ST. C A LC U LATED ACCO R D I N G TO A N I NT E N S I F ICATION 1 68 . IT I S N O T A STA NCE BECAUSE M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES C H A N G E WITH T I M E (AS STU D I E D A LONG C E RTA I N L I N ES OF I NCREASING I NTENSITY: VIOLENT S E X U A LITI ES. ONE "POLYMORPHOUS S E X U A L I TY . V I S U A L S E X U A L­ ITIES. A S SOME A STA N C E PSYCHOA N A LYSTS B E L I E V E . H O M O . AS WELL AS THE FACT THAT WH I LE HE WAS A M A SOCH I ST. MICHEL DE M'UZA N DOES NOT EXPRESSION UNCONSCIOUS PROV I D E US WITH WHAT M A S OC H I S M IS. NON P E R V E RT N E U R OT I C THE FANTASY O F THE THE DISGUISED AND RE­ H ET E R O S E X U A L: OF HIS IN THIS RESPECT. . AS M UC H A S WITH ABLE WHAT "NOR M A L SEXUA LITY" MODEL A G A I N ST W H ICH IS: TH E I N EVIT­ MOST P S Y C HO­ PRESSED D E S I R ES. ACTI VE/PASSI VE. W H E R E A N YONE CA N DO A NYTH I N G W I THOUT EXPECTI N G A NYBODY T O N ECESSA R I LY D O THE S A M E T H I N G S AS H E DOES. LIQU I D S E X U A LITIES. L I F E WAS VERY W E L L BALANCED BOTH SOC I A LL Y WE ARE NOT REALLY I NT E R ESTED IN THE RE­ A N D E M OTIO N A LLY. CONTR A R Y TO W H A T SA D E TELLS U S JOURN EES DE SODOME. ON TH E OTH E R . I N FACT. WHICH FREUD IS CA LLED THE SEXUAL PRACTICES OF H I S CHOICE. TH ESE ARE FREE SPACES. A N D RETU R N S TO A V E R Y Q U I ET A N D PEAC E F U L H ETEROS EX U A L LIFE." A S PECTS.. TO A P P ROACH SOMETH I NG WHEN TH I S SOM ETH I N G H A S B E E N VIOLENTLY R EPRESSED WITH I N ONESELF: M I C H E L DE M'UZAN H A D TO WAIT TEN YEARS B E FORE H E COULD START TO WORK ON M:S STORY. POLYSEXUALITY DETE R M I N ES A NEW CUT. S U D DE N LY A B A N DONS H I S M A SOC H I ST I C H A B I TS A FTE R TH I RTY Y E A R S O F CONSTA N T A N D H E AVY PRACTICE. I T I S VERY R E M A R K A B L E C A S E H ISTORY. M:S SEXOLOGI ST: M . EVEN HIS DREAMS LOSE ALL M A SOC H I S T I C CONTENT. M A N /W O M A N . . I NDEPENDE NT. OR AT LEAST THOSE AMONG R E PR E S S E D I N A L MOST E V E RYBODY A N D PARTICU­ LALY A MONG THOSE WHO C LA I M TO BE SEXUA LLY "NORMA L. ETC . THE I NTENSITY OF TH I S R E P R E SSION A N D ITS EFFECTS CAN EASI LY BE RECOG N IZED THOSE BEEN WHO IN ARE TH E HOR R I F I ED EXPRESSION OF TH E M WHO C LA I M THAT THEY H A V E SOMETH I NG TO SAY ABOUT PE RVERSIONS. TO P E R V E RT THE CONFRONTED-WITHOUT H A V I N G P R E P A R E D F O R IT-W ITH THE PREVIOUSLY R E A L I TY TO W H I C H M:S STORY REFERS. A LSO. IT I S FOR T H E MOST PART BECAUSE CHISM IT D E M O N STRATES T H A T M A SO­ TRUE. ETC . P R E C L U D E S A N Y TA LK OF A " P E R V E RT S T R U C T U R E . OPEN SPACES WHERE E V E R Y P E R V E RT C A N E X P E R I E N C E THIS POLYS E X U A LITY. F E LT LI K E A CHILD FACED W I TH TH I S R E M A R KABLE I S NOT A STR UCTU R E : O N E I S NOT M A SO­ C H I STIC L I K E ONE IS N E U ROTIC. A MONG MANY OTH ERS. " V I O L E NTLY WOULD C E RTANLY W I S H TO M E ET MORE PSYCHO­ A N A LYSTS THERE. H ETEROS E X U A L. S U C H A S U DD E N C H A NG E .

SUCH A CONTROL I M PL I E S A VERY PREC I S E K NOWLEDGE.OF VIOLENCE COUPLED P LA N N E D WITH A PROG R E S S I V E . I AM FUCKED U P. T H E STORY O F T H E S E X U A L PHASES (ORAL. THE AIM OF T H E M A SOC H I ST-A N D T O A LESSER A LIVI NG TOILET BOWL ." OR " I AM A BITCH. " DEG R E E OF TH E SADIST-IS TO DECONSTRUCT THE OEDI PAL CONSTRUCTI O N ." ON TH E OTH E R HAND TH E PERVE RTED A C T I S NOT HAZA RDOUS SO FAR. OUT OF A SYSTEM OF S I G N S WHICH ALWAYS PRE-EXISTED H I M A N D T O W H I C H H E WAS S U P POS E D TO HAVE BEEN COMPLETELY C A R E F U LLY EROTIC BODY. 1 69 . FI RST. OF THE H I S ACTI VITIES LEAD H I M PARTI A L LY OUT OF T H E R E A L M OF LANGUAGE. A S M . I F I MAY SAY S O . IT O B E Y S A N A LTOGETH E R DIFFERENT LOG IC. THE O F T H E SO-C A L L E D " N O R M A L" I NC R EASES I N PROPORTION T O T H E VIOLENCE OF THE PERVERTED ACTS. BUT A BITCH. PARTNERS. EACH ZONE OF WHICH HAS BEEN SUCCESS I F E LY N A M ED. T H I S CONTROL EROTIC BODY. M ERELY A H I NT OF WHAT SHOULD B E DETA I LE D AT SOME LENGTH. WHICH MORE R E A D I LY OBEYS OTH E R LAWS T H A N THE LAWS OF SYMBOLIC LANG UAGE." T H E R E A L ONE. T H E DOUBLE. H U M I LIATION. EVEN H I S EROTIC BODY I S V U L N E RABLE. TO THE EVERY OF S U BJECT IS V U L­ LAN­ ONE CAN NOT FIND IN BOOKS. IF WE ACTS OBSERVE OVER TO A TH E CONCATE N A TION OF ULTIMATE SEX! WE 00 NOT P RETE N D THAT SUCH A GOAL IS ALWAYS REACH ED-ACTUA LLY I T IS VERY R A R E LY SO-BUT WE TH I N K THAT SUCH ALWAYS EXISTS I M PLICITLY. H A S S H O W N US. I A M NOT A M A N NOR A WOMAN. PATTERN L I N K E D T O EACH OTH E R A S I N A SYNTAGM . A KNOWLEDGE THAT CONSTRUCTION H ETEROS E X U A L S U BJ EC T COMES A BOUT BY A N D THROUGH N E R A BLE LA N G U A G E . NOT A LWAYS. OUR A M AZ I NG TO SEE CAN THE INCREASING HIS CONTROL A AND ITS M A SOC H I ST GET OVER BODY P H Y S I O L OG I C A L F U N CT I O N S . A SLUT. A LL OVER HIS BODY. . A KNOWLEDGE WHICH DERIVES FROM A NON-VERBAL S E M I OTICS. EROTI­ TH E MASOC H I ST ALSO USES A N OT H E R M EANS TO D E S U BJ ECTI FY HIS BODY: I. IN OTH E R WORDS TO I WANT TO PO I N T OUT THREE I M PORTANT DETA I LS ABOUT THESE TERMS: DESUBJECTIFY HIS OWN BODY. A L SO S E CO N D LY . TH E P E RVERTED ACT ON ONE HAND I S NOT SPEECH. BY N A T U R E ESSENTIA LLY T H E CASE O F SOME PSYCHOTICS.E. MASOCHISTIC ACTI VITIES ARE NOT S U P POSED TO DRIVE TH E MASOCH I ST COM PLETELY OUT OF TH E REALM OF LANGUAGE GEN ERALLY S P EA K I NG. I T IS A DISCOURSE. TATOOS. FO R M TH E SPECIFIC GUAGE O F WHICH HE BECOMES T H E SUBJ ECT. IT IS AN IS EXPER I M ENTATION DEATH : U LTI M A T E GOAL DEATH AS PRESIDENT SC H R E B E R'S: " I T WOU L D B E SO N I C E TO BE A WOMAN SUBJ ECT TO COiTUS. AS I N RATH E R THAN COM P A R E M A S OC H I STIC ACTIVITIES WITH R E LIGIOUS RITES. E X P LO R A T I O N A CAREFUL R E A D I NG O F M:S STORY REVEALS THAT TH E CONTROLS ON THIS P R OG R E S S I O N ARE SUBJECTED. BUT THERE I S ALSO PLEASURE I N ITS QUEST. TO THE E XC LUSION O F T H E G E N I T A L Z O N E A N D TH I S F O R ONE PURPOSE ONLY: HETEROS E X U A L I NTE RCOU RSES. FLESH TO BE FUCKED. HOW E V E R. AS A N EXTRE M E EXPERIENCE L I K E "ULTI MATE SEX. IT OBEYS THE THERE I S ECSTASY-JOUISSANCE-THE PLEASU RABLE COUNTERPART OF DEATH. W H AT I SAY IS P R OG R E S S I O N CONTROLLED A N X I ETY W H I C H T H E M A SOCHIST A ROUSES I N H I S PARTN E R WHO "ALWAYS G I V E S U P" A T A C E RTA I N POI NT. WHOSE IN FACT. W H I LE OUR BODY. URETHRAL AND G E NITA L) I S NOT ONLY TH E STORY OF TH E ACCEPTA N C E OF OEDIPAL SEX. WAS S U BJ ECTED TO TH E STRUCTUR­ I NG A N D A L I E NATING POW E R OF LA NGUAGE. I T I S QUITE IT IS NOT POSSI BLE TO E X P LA I N FULLY IN THIS POSTFACE H O W A N D WHY JOUISSANCE I S PRECISELY WHAT WE HAVE H A D TO REJ ECT I N THE COURSE OF BECO M I N G O E D I PA LIZED. SOM ETH I NG LIKE R E PETITIVE. SAY: "THE M EETING POINT FOR THE MOST BEA UTI F U L P R I CKS. FROM BODY-SEMIOTICS. ANAL. T H E M A SOCH I ST C A N STOP W H E N H E WANTS: H I S ACTI VITI ES A R E P R E P A R E D WITH GREAT CARE A N D THE TERMS OF THESE ACTI VITIES ARE D E SC R I B E D C E PT E D BY P R E C I S E LY BOTH IS IN A " C O N T R ACT" AC­ PROHITIBION O F POL YSEXUALITY. P R OG R E S S I V E M ENTATION I S A WAY O F B E I NG-FOR-DEATH (ETRE· APPEAR F O L LOW POUR-LA-MORTI. I T I S ALSO TH E STORY OF T H E S U B J ECTI V I ZATION OF TH E EROTIC BODY. PERVERTED A GOAL EXPERI­ THESE THEY CERTA I N A PERIOD OF T I M E . M:S C I S E D A N D FO RBIDDEN. A P E R FORMATIVE D I SCOU RSE. T H E BY THE H E R E AGA I N I HAVE TO B E B R I E F. . AND I T DIFFERS FUNDAM ENTALLY FROM T H E P E R V E RTED FANTASM WHICH IS ALWAYS A PH R A S E . W E SHOULD COMPARE THEM WITH AN I NITIATION. SAYS. LOGIC O F T H E BODY. OR IN OTH E R WORDS. AND THERE IS EVEN MORE THAN PLEASU RE.

A SUB. THE MASOCHIST IS NOT EXC R E M E N T OR W H A T E V E R : H E S A Y S H E I S. BUT AT THE S A M E T I M E IT AROUSES THE DEATH­ 2. THEY DO NOT EVEN R E F E R TO A R E A L OB.' T H E S E T E R M S R E F E R N EITHER TO SUB. A TURD. H A V E NO SPEC I A L SENSE.J ECT NOR OB. RATH ER THAN TO A FE M I N I N I N E OR MASC U L I N E QUA LITY: A BITC H OR A SLUT H A S I N F A C T NO BIOLOGICAL SEX: "I A M N E I TH E R M A N N O R WOMA N B U T FLESH .1 HE THE F E M I N I ZATION OF THE NAMES (AT LEAST I N VI EW. AND H E W I L L PLAY I N I T A N D WITH IT.1 . T H E S E T E R M S REFER TO A N E UTRAL. OR THE H ETERO­ S E X U A L .J ECTI­ V I ZA T I O N A L LO W S THE M A S OC H I S T TO FREE R E C E I V E S SHIT AND PISS HERE I SUGGEST THE H I M S E L F F R O M H I S U NC O N SC I O U S A L I E N A T I O N F R O M T H E S Y M BOLIC F U NCTION O F LANGUAGE: I T ALLOWS H I M TO R E D I SCOVE R THE PERFORMATIVE R E A D E R VISIT T H E PIT AT "THE MINE S H A FT' I N NEW YOR K C I TY • • • F U NCTION OF LANGUAGE ALONG WITH H I S BOOY­ LANGUAGE. AND T H A T M A K ES ALL T H E DIFFERENCE. " SUCH A D E S U B .1 IN SPITE OF T H E F E M I N I ZATION OF THE WORDS.JECT. NO M E A N I NG . A N D R E PE A TS THAT HE I S A SLUT. HE W I LL H A V E BECOM E ' A C H I LD.JECT COMPLETELY A L I E N TO T H E REALM OF LANGUAGE WHO REFUSES I T COM PLETELY. OF THE PARTN E R . . NOT HOMOSEXUAL.JECT . I T A ROUSES HIS A N X I ETY AS W ELL. A GO B A C K I NTO T H E R E A L M OF SYMBOLIC LANGUAGE. FRA NCOIS PERALDI T H E S E T E R M S . A U V I N G TOILET BOWL I S A P L A C E THAT • • • DOES NOT M A K E A PSYCHOTIC OF H I M . IT IS O N LY TO I N DUCE TH E AGGRESSIVITY OF THE ZSCHE. TH E Y HAVE ONLY TO A P E R FO R M AT I V E HORROR F U NC T I O N : AND TO TO F R E N C H : A BITC H . I F H E SAYS. A PILE OF SH IT. H E W I LL M A K E A G A M E OF LANGUAGE. M. FROM TH E MASOCHISTS POINT OF N E W YORK• . AND THROUGH TH I S A N X I ETY TH E MASOCH I ST IS A B LE TO CONTROL THE AGG R ESSI VITY OF THE OTH E R . PROVOKE MAKE W H E N H E GETS FUCKED BY A MAN IT I S ON LY FOR M A SOCH I STIC P U R POSES. I NDUCE. A FTER H I S "TRI P. A SLUT. OTH E R . . . A N D SO ON. BUT THIS S U B. BUT I F WERE A HE IS WOMAN I F WOULD BE EXACTLY THE AND SAME.J ULY 1 978 1 70 . PEOPLE G O A W A Y A NDIOR REACT WITH AGGRES­ S I V I TY AND BEAT T H E SHIT O UT O F THE M A SOCH I ST.'. ." THE M A SOC H I ST C A N IT I S O N LY FOR THE N E U ROTIC. I S A M A N . ETC.J ECTIVIZATION OF T H E M A SOC H I ST 3. AND H E W I LL H A V E ACCO M P L I S H E D I N H I S OWN WAY THE LAST METAMORPHOSIS FORESEEN BY N I ET­ G A R BA G E-CA N. SO-CALLED "NORMAL PEOPLE" THAT THE M A S OC H I ST P R ET E N D S TO BE E XC R E M E N T. DRIVES OF THE OTH E R . BUT H E W I LL DO I T F R E E LY. BUT TO A FUNCTION: A BITCH I S SOMEONE WHO I N DUCES THE NORMAL H ETEROSEX U A L TO B E BITCHY. HOWEVER.

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I WOULD TAKE A N E X P R E SS TO T H E N E XT LARGE M ETROPOLIS AND CHANGE THERE FOR A N A K ED. T H E R E WOU L D B E NO G R E E T I N G F R O M E I TH E R OF US. ' R E P R I NTED H E R E . THE F I RST ONE. B Y T H E TIME H E WOU L D BE P U L L I NTO H I S O W N D R I V E W A Y I SITTING BESIDE HIM IN THE WOULD E V E R Y F R I DA Y I WOU L D LEAVE M Y JOB IN AN OFFICE B U I L D I NG. EVERY FRIDAY HE WOU L D B E STA N D I NG NEXT TO HIS TRUCK. H E DID NOT C A R E F O R M Y D I SCOM FORT. TH E R E WERE OTH E R TIMES IN THE WINTER CONSC IOUSLY D R E S S E D TO EACH OTH E R B Y JOHN PRESTON A N D JASON KLEIN. W H E N HE F I N A LLY P U L L E D I NTO T H E SPACE B E S I D E H I S H O U S E . I WOULD C LI M B OUT A N D FIND HIM WAITI NG. A N D EQUA LLY AS I GNORANT O F T H E DANGER IT H E L D O N FROZEN W I N T E R E V E N I NGS. I W O U L D H A V E T O M A K E M Y O W N W A Y I N S I D E . MY COM FORT D I D NOT CONC E R N HIM. EACH S M A L L E R THAN T H E LAST. A C T U A L L Y N O MORE TH A N A C A B I N I N T H E WOODS. WHEN THE MY BODY D R A FT WHEN W O U L D S E N D C H I LLS THROUGH S H I RT R E MOVED THE LITTLE MY PROTECTION IT HAD PROVI DED. TRUCK. N IG HT. AS HE DROVE AWAY FROM T H E STATION I WOULD THERE WAS A RITUAL EVERY FRIDAY E V E N I NG. I 1 72 . THE AD­ TIMES W I N D C A R E S S E D M Y B A R E C H EST WITH W E LCOM E COOLI NG R E LI E F. 'ONCE I HAD A M ASTE R . AT THE T E R M I N U S . T H E R I T U A L W A S S O SEC U R E T H A T I T D I D N O T N E E D T H E S U PPORT OF WORDS. M A R K E D T H E F I N A L LEGS O F OUR J O U R N E Y . T H E R E ON HOT SUMMER N I GHTS THAT T H E TH E T H R E E FOLLOWI NG T E XTS A R E LOVE LETTERS. I WOULD SIT WATC H I NG A PROGRES­ SION O F TOWNS. H E ONLY WAS CON C E R N E D THAT I BE WITHOUT CLOT H E S I N H I S HOUSE. S P E E D B Y MY W I N DOW. ONCE I HAD A M ASTE R THE REMOVAL OF EACH PIECE OF C LOTH I N G I O N C E H A D A MASTER WHO L I V E D FA R FROM THE CITY. H E A P P E A R E D I G N O R A N T OF T H E F R E E DOM THAT MY N U D I TY R E P R E S ENTED ON A SUMMER LOC A L T R A I N . W A I T I N G T O B E G I N T H E W E E K E N D.[ON C E I H A D A M ASTER] BEGIN THE WERE D I S RO B I N G HE WOULD EXPECT. I S A R E W R I T I N G OF T H E LAST TWO STOR I E S WERE 23RD PSA LM.

WASH HIS FLOWE R E D F I ELDS AND RAN N A K E D ACROSS MY SHAVEN SPRAWLED TORSO I N OC E A N O F C LOVER.M Y MOUTH. I WOU L D STA N D BEN EATH A HOT SPRAY OF WATER TO LET ITS MOISTU RE SOFT E N M Y BODY H A I R . RESULTS OF A W I NTER'S W E E K OF I SOLATION E V E R Y JOU RNEY. BUT H E WO U L D N E V E R RESPO N D T O M E . THE FEW W O R D S T H A T H A D PASSED I N TH E BEGI N N I NG B E G A N TO D I S A P P E A R THEMS ELVES A S TI M E M A D E T H E M S U P E RFLUOUS. M Y ASS. H E . C H O P H I S F I R EWOOD. OR E V E N I N T H E SOU N DEST OF S L E E P. R E S PO N D I N G P A S S I O N A T E L Y TO HIS CLOTHES. I T HAD NOT TA K E N LONG FOR THE TRI P BACK TO THE FIN ALLY. NO OTH E R P E R SON EVER WAS ALLOWED IN HIS I WOU LD LOVE HIM I N THE SU M M E R TI M E. HE WO U L D TA K E ME W H I LE STA N D I N G U P COOK I N G IN FRONT O F THE S TO V E . S E R V I C E . H A D N O OTH E R OUTLET FOR H I S OWN PHYSICAL B E I N G T H A N T O U S E MY BODY. TO I HIS BODY. C L E A N HIS HOUSE. H E WAS N EV E R M I N DLESSLY C R U EL. NOT HIS FANTA S I E S OR HIS WOOD FOR T H E F I R E . I WOULD COOK HIS M E A LS. TOOK ITS R E L I E F I N T H E F I E LDS. TO DO SO WOU LD BE TO T H R EATEN MY ATTENDANCE. HIS HE WOULD SIT HE SI L E N T L Y BEGGED R E S PON S E . DO SO A LWAYS N A K E D. T H E W E E K E N D S TOOK O N MORE M E A N I NG EACH T I M E THEY W E R E R E PEATED. TH E R E WAS NO T I M E ON G E NC E S . H E WOU L D LISTEN WHEN I PROFESSED W H I LE I MY LOV E . I W E LCO M E D E V E R Y T I M E H E TOOK ME. MY M I N I STRATIONS WERE M I N D. H I M S E LF. I WOU LD ABLE. H E N E V E R LET HIS PHYSICAL W A NTS FALL I NTO A PATT E R N . I TOOK ON COLOR ON M Y S K I N A N D TON E I N M Y M U SC LES A S T H E Y WORK E D H A R D O N H I S F A R M . HE N E V E R W O U L D TA LK T O M E . V U L N E R A B I LITY OR HIS OWN GROW I N G BUT I WOULD ALWAYS R ETURN EVERY W E E K E N D FOR MY PILG R I M AG E . I OFTEN S A T D O W N N E XT TO TH E S TO V E TO TRY TO EASE MY NAKED COLDN ESS. I BECA M E F E A R L E S S OF M Y P H Y S I C A L S E L F. M Y BODY A N D MY SELF W E R E C APTI V E S OF T H E H OUS E . WOULD LET M Y A N G E R GLANCE OFF H I S B ROW I F EVER I D A R E D SPEAK IT. HE D I D NOT WANT THERE TO BE A NOTH E R P E R SON TO I N T E R F E R E WITH M Y GROW I N G CONTROL. I WOU LD H A T E H I M IN T H E WINTER. COM PLETELY ATTAC H E D T O N ATU RE. THE S P R I NG WOU L D BEG I N AND WE WOU L D B E ABLE TO VENTU R E FU R TH E R OUT IN TO THE ALWAYS MORE WELCOM I NG SUN UNTI L O N C E P R I VATE WORLD OF D A Y D R E A M S . I F O R THE W E E K E N D I BECA M E H I S S E R V ANT. TAKING HIS TH E WAS H E D H I S TORSO W H I LE I T SAT I N T H E M A S SA G E D IT IN FRONT OF THE FIRE BATHTUB. I WAS 1 73 . CITY TO BE D R E A D E D. I R E C E I V E D T H E ONSLAUGHT O F ON EACH WEEKEND.I N D U L­ TO R E S I ST AGA I N I T WOU L D B E S U M M E R A N D OUR S E L V E S A N D O U R BODIES WOULD RUSH THROUGH FOR E STS TO FIND SWI M M I N G HOLES TO DIVE I NTO AND FEEL A LLOW E D P U N I S H M ENT. I W E N T T O H I S FA RM NO MORE. T H E O R I FICES O F M Y BODY W E R E OPEN FOR HIM TO TA K E ON A W H I M . T E N D H I S G A R D E N . B U T H E WOU L D BEAT M E G R EATLY I F M Y S E R V I C E E V E R FALTERED OR IF MY MIND WANDERED NOT I C E A B LY I NTO A BUT. E V E R Y FRIDAY H E SHAVED EVERY I NCH OF M Y SKIN B ELOW MY N EC K . T H E DAYS BETW E E N MY JOU R N E YS BECA M E LESS AND LESS I M PORTANT. F R U ST R A T I O N P L A C E . I WOULD HAVE TO R E V E R S E T H E R I T U A L O F D R E S S I N G A S H E D ROVE M E T O T H E TRA I N STATIO N . I COULD B E FULLY D R E S S E D B Y T H E T I M E H E PA R K E D I N FRONT O F T H E I RO N R A I LS . THOUGH I COULD NOT HAVE STOPPED A N YO N E . H E COULD NOT TOLERATE EVEN A FEW STR A N DS E X I STENCE S E P A R ATING M Y SKIN FROM H I S TOU C H . M Y H A N D W E R E TH E R E W H E N E V E R H E H A D T H E DESIRE. TH E F I R ST S U M M E R I L E A R N E D M O R E A BOUT M Y THAN IN ALL THE SUMMERS THAT HAD BODY PRECE E D E D I T TOGETH ER.WOU LD SHOW E R . THESE I WAS W E E K E N DS NEVER FOR M Y S E L F. BUT NOT TO C L E A N S E MYSE LF. OR WHILE TH E F I R S T W I N T E R I L E A R N E D M O R E ABOUT M Y F E A R T H A N I H A D E V E R K N O W N . S P R E A D I NG FAR APART M Y JAWS A N D M Y SPH I NCTER AS H E I N VADED M Y O P E N B E I NG . THAT WAS U N I M PORTANT. A LW A Y S VULNER­ HE WOULD TOLERATE NO L I M I TA T I O N TO MY ASSAULTS. D E S P E RATELY FRIGHTENED OF WO R K I NG I N TH E F I E LDS. A LWAYS. HOUSE W H I LE I WAS THERE. THOSE TI ME S W H E N H E WOU L D FO RCE M E TO R UN WITHOUT SHOES T H R OUG H T H E S NOW TO GATH E R WE TA L K E D A LMOST NOT AT A LL.

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FOR TH E FI RST TI M E I N HIS LIFE. WORSH I P FOR H A V I N G G I V E N ME TH E E X P E R I E NC E . MORE D I D. " DEBBIE AN A MAN. ALONG W I T H A N OPPORTUN ITY T O W R I T E ABOUT IT. M Y MASTER HAS YET TO B E I DE NTI FI ED. D A N I E L FINDING G R U ESOME FACES ON THE PEBBLES THERE AND ALL OF US B URSTING. TO S K I P STON E S AC ROSS THE H I DE. MODIFI ED. PARTLY THROUGH TRADITION. M Y LOVE R . DA N I E L H A D ME SHOWI NG HIM HOW TONGUE'S PRODUCT. B I R DS MAY H A V E AS M UCH I MAGI NATION A S I DO. A N D MODIFY IT. AND WHO I IN THE F I N A L TWI LIG HT. THE C REATED LANGUAGE T H A N BI RDS I A M ONLY M Y 1 7 15 . SUDDEN LY FELT L I K E A BOY FEELI NG LIKE A MAN WE SAT ON A D A R K E N I NG SHORE. H E I S THE FI RST MAN WHO LET ME E NJOY BEING B U R I E D ALIVE I N THE SAND. I A D M I R E THIS BASIC HON ESTY OF A N I MALS." I AGREED. BUT WITH FEW E R WORDS TO DESCRIBE IT. LA UGHED. REPRESSED HOMOS E X U A LITY I NTENSIFIED B Y TH E SANCTI FICATION OF R EPRODUCTION. H E WILL B E THE FI RST M A N TO MAKE ME SUFFER BEING B U R I E D U P TO MY N ECK I N THE G RO U N D FOR LON G E R THAN I WANT UNTIL I KNOW EXACTLY WHO I S I N CONTROL. AM I MY OWN "DRAC U LA WITH E R ING. I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT WAY BEFORE EVEN THOUGH PHYSICA LLY I AM A L R E A DY QUESTIONS "EACH ON E LOOKS MORE R O TT E N . EVI DENCE7 IS MY THEORY OF B E H AVIORAL NEOTENY U N I V E R S A L TO BIOGRA P H ICAL? H U M A N I TY OR M E R E LY A U TO­ THE SUNSET C RACKED AND FLA R I N G OUR I N D I F F E R E NC E . WHO I HAVE DELIVERED MYSELF U N TO . M Y SLAVES ARE ALL N U M B E R E D. LACED. THIS RAISES EVEN MORE ABOUT SOCI A L EVOLUTION THROUGH THEN O R I G I N A LL Y DISTRACTED. S U BJ ECT TO THE REALITIES I HAVE CONVINCED ME OF. WHETH E R OR NOT THEY CHOSE IT IS I M M AT E R I A L. PARTLY THROUGH G E N ETICS. THE CON FIDENT GLOWING BEHIND FLIGHT OF BI RDS C ROSSING T H E BROADER LESS VISION THAN I MY NO OWN.CHORUS FOR A PSALM DA N I E L I S MY BROTH ER. I M AGI N AT I O N . M A R S H WITH A BUT POSSIBLY MY H U MAN BEHAVIOR IS LARGELY I N H E RITED. F I X IT. AND S TR A N G E AS LAKE'S I AGITATE D IT SEEMS.

EACH SION. FANATIC WITH THE A T T E M PT TO CONTROL H I M S ELF.P E RC E PTUAL S E L ECTI VITY) BEG I N S A S A POLYG E N ET I C POTE N T I A L M U LT I T U D E R E S PO N S E PATTE R N . UNDER­ TH E G E N ETIC B E H A V IORS V A R Y W I T H THE I N D I V I DUAL. THIS IS HOW HUMANS BREED A N D DOM E STICATE DETE R M I N ES W H E T H E R T H E I N D I VIDUAL'S G ROWTH W I L L BE H E A LTHY O R N E U ROTIC. MOST OF THEM V A R I ABLY D E F I N ITIVE. " Y O U W I L L NOT S H I T O N THAT FLOOR. LYING BETW E E N T H O S E A N OT H E R . THIS IS HOW H U M A N S BREED A N D D O M E S T I C ATE THEIR C H I LD R E N AND TH U S HU­ SINCE H U MANS TH I N K D I C H OTOMO USLY.R I D D E N BY P R EVIOUS OPPRESSIONS. HUMAN M A SC U L I N E A N D FEM I N I N E . YOU WILL PISS AND S H I T W H E N I T E LL Y O U TO. I NTELLIGENCE. I NT E N S E THE MONOTO N O U S DEG R E E S OF E X TRAVAGANTI A LS O G E N E R A T I N G MOST I N T E R M EDIATE QUALITIES HOS­ A N X I ETI ES. SOME EQUA LLY OBDU RATE. ( B I S E X U A L . T H E N I TOLD H I M . BEHAVIORS THAT DO NOT FIT THE CONTRI V E D G U I LTS NORM W H I LE ARE R I DDLED WITH ATTI­ G E N E RATED OF GENES. A N X I ETY." S E L E C T I V E LY R E I N FORCED. H E N E E DE D TO PISS. W H AT I N D I V I D U A L'S B E H A V I O R I S ALSO S E PA RATED I NTO N O R M A L A N D A B N O R M A L. T H E E N D R E S U LT I S A B R E E D O F M E N A L I E NATED FROM A BREED O F WOM E N A N D EACH I N D I VI DU A L A L I E N ATED FROM ITSELF. T H E I R A N I M A LS. THE ONE IS I N E V I TA B L Y REWARDED OT H E R I N E SC A P A B LY P U N I SH E D . I CONFUSION S E X U A L I S M . BUT 1 76 . HUMAN SOCI ETY F I RST S E PA RATES T H E I N D I V I D U A L I N TO W H AT IS HUMAN AND WHAT IS A N I M AL. AND AN ACTION BY A H U M ANS. WITH ANY HUMAN POPULATION. WON D E R E D I F T H I S W A S R EGRESSIVE. TH E I R PSYCH E MENTED. THE A N I M A L W H I L E GLOR I FY I NG TH E IS THEN DIVIDED I N TO H E G R E W F U R I O U S LY ON THE VERGE OF C R Y I NG. THESE POLY­ DEATH W H I LE TH E SA NCTI F I E D ACTS FLOUR I S H I N A N E U ROTIC M A N N E R . "NOR WILL YOU WET YOU RS E LF. TH E FEA R S AND CONVENTIONAL DEG R E E TO W H I C H THE E N V I RONMENT I N FLUENCES THESE G E N ET I C POTE N T I A LS D E P E N DS O N TH E TUDES A R E E M OTIONA LL Y R E I N FORCED. WITH I N FROM A S P ECTR UM OF Q U A L I T I E S BUT ONLY RANGING ONE E X T R E M E T O A N OT H E R STRICTLY BUT ( H ETEROS E X U A L TO HOMOS E X U A L. AGGRES­ AES­ AT TH E SAME IS TIME T H A T TH E SPLIT A N D R OG Y N O U S AND " M A N A PE" FEMININE BEING I NTO M A SC U L I N E O R REMAINS OF THE TH ETI C S . SOC I A L. S OC I A B I L I T Y ." PU N I S H I NG T H E HUMAN. I T I E D HIM UP SO HE H U RT AND COULD NOT EASILY RANGE. S U B M I S S I V E TO DOM I N AT I NG." I N D I V I D U A L' S INCI DENCE OF GEN ITALS. PITA BLE. PEOPLE DIC HOTOMOUS TREATM ENT. D I SC E R N I N G ) TO BE P E R C E PT I V E . C O M P R OM I S I N G . TO SOC I A L TO ANTI­ WITH S E X U A L U RG E IS R E S I STS THUS EVEN NOT E A S I LY D I SCOURAGED A N D M O S T BRUTAL THE REPRESSION. SHAPED THEN MODI F I E D BY ITS B IOLOG I C A L AND CULTURAL E N V I RO N M E NT. SEXUAL WITH OR SOME TRANS­ H I S BONE R A G E D WITH THE REST OF H I M . MINED AND SEXUAL POTENTI ALS A R E CONTRO L L E D . S I N C E THE MAJORITY OF THE POPULATION MOST LIES WITHIN THE INTE R M E D I ATE ARE DISTORTED BY THIS W H E N I HAD H I M SO HE WAS ABOUT TO S H I T. T H E SOC I A L E N V I RON­ MENT MA LNOU R I S H I NG O N E SEXUAL IDENTITY W H I LE FOSTE R I NG THE OTH E R ACCO R D I N G OFTEN TO THE " U N T I L I ORDER YOU TO. SOM E BEING IF THE I N D I V I DU A L SURVIVES THIS LEVEL OF OPPRESSION LONG ENOUGH TO REACH PUBERTY. B E H A V I O R A L T R A I T ( S E X U A L I TY. AND THE F R A G M E NTS FRAG­ CONTROL H I S ASS. SOCI ET I E S O R I E N T T O M A N Y O F THESE S P ECTR U M S AS IF ONLY THEIR EXTR E M ES WHILE E X I ST E D . I NT E N S I TY WITH W H I C H T H E G E N E S COLLECTI VELY WORK TO EXPRESS T H E M S E LV E S . EACH S E LECTIV E L Y CONS I D E R E D O P PO S I T E O N E W H E R E A N Y O N E I N DI V I D U A L LI ES ALONG O N E OF THESE S P ECTR U M S AND HOW THE SOCI ETY ORI E NTS TO W A R D THAT PORTION OF TH E S P ECTR U M NOU R I S H E D T O G ROW I N A D I STORTED M A N N E R A N D TRA I N E D TO B E H A V E I N T H E TRADITIONA L FASHION. U S U A LLY M A SC U L I N ITY EXAGGE R ATES TH E MEN W H I L E FEM I N I N ITY DU LLS THE WOM E N AS A BACKGROU N D FOR M A SC U L I N E THEATRICS. HUMAN M A N ITY ITSE LF. VARYING I DI OT TO G E N I US. P E R V E R S E ACTS A R E C R I M I N A L I Z E D A N D OFTE N P U N I S H A B L E BY EXTR E M E LY P L I A BLE. ITS E M E RG I NG S E X U A L I TY IS THEN D I V I DED I NTO T H E P E R V E R S E A N D T H E S A N CT I FIED. A SYNTHETIC N EOTEN Y OR AT L E A ST THE FANTASY OF O N E.

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IT I S N O SIR. I DISPLAYED THEM. YOU R E S I ST AT F I RST. T H E W A Y WE W E R E W H E N L E A V I N G TA N N H A US E R . T H E TH E OFFIC I A L STORY IS THAT YOU DRAGG E D M E PREVALENCE S U GG E S T S TO OF MALE POW E R STRUCTU R E S HUMAN MALE F R O M T R A S H C A N TO T R A S H C A N A N D P U B L I C LY BEAT THE LIVING WORMS OUT OF ME AT EVERY ONE OF THEM. WHAT M E N H A V E DO N E A DV A NTAGE DOES N O T C R E D I T T H E M THAT CHA NGES STI LL COLOR WITH M U C H MATURITY A N D FURTH ER SUGGESTS T H E M A L E IS A LSO M O R E F R IGHTEN E D. F R IGHT­ F E M I N I N I TY .S. WITH IF TH I S I S T R U E . I NVENTION NON E X I ST E N T D R I P P I NG WITH TORTU R E D BODI ES. A N D DOGS-AL L A R E S L A V E S TO A FIERCE SORT OF MASCULINITY THE AND A SAD SHOU L D YOU FAIL TO A P P R E C I ATE T H E S E R I OUS­ NESS OF SERVI NG. YOU R E M A I N OBEDI ENT­ LY S M ALL. BUT NOBOD Y CARES A N D A L L I CAN DO I S W E T M Y PANTS I N FEAR. S I R . OC C A S I O N A L L Y SAD B EC O M E F I E RC E A N D OVERTU R N THE MALE POWER STR UC­ TURE. NOBODY ENJOYS SERVING THEIR SOC I ETY. PEOPLE EVEN SET A G A I NST TH E M SELVES MORE S O A G A I N ST O N E ANOTH E R . B U T M E N CAUGHT E Y E I N G OTH E R MEN ARE S U S PECTED MAN OF PERVERSION. S I N C E Y O U W E R E CONCERN ED. AT F E E LS THE LIKE ROUTI N E E D G E OF JU NGLE THROUGH DANGE RS. THIS IS A POWE R I N TO A GAME. IT B E L I TTLES YOUR I N D I V I D U A LITY. C I V I L I ZATION WORKS BY M A K I NG YOU FEEL SM A L L. FANATIC OR D E P R E S S E D. W I V ES. YOU R SOC I ETY THREATE N S YOU WITH C R I M I N A LIZATION AND D A M NATION. PRIDE I WADE FOR D E V I ATING FROM THE CONTR IVED NORM. ALL FACES A R E EXPECTED T O L OO K U P T O M E N . T H A N K Y O U . ONLY E ROTICALLY R E LEVA NT. I N M A N Y SOCI ET I E S . H E R E A LIZES M Y T R U ST I N Y O U I S N O T POORLY FOU N DED. BEEN POTTY-TR A I N E D. H E COULDN'T WAIT T O SEE TH E B R U ISES. HE NEEDS TO REMEMBER ME. I'M LACED AT THE I'M M O M E NT. TOO FRIGHTENED TO CONTROL BLADDER ITSELF. THEIR GLO R I F I C A T I O N IS V E R Y COCKY. STY L E ARE THIS OF IS SM T U R N E D FEMALE POW E R STRUCTU RES. BEING THE B O Y S A G A I N . ENSH R I N E D WITH SOLE M N VOWS AND W H I S P E R E D S U P P LICATIONS. I T I S MASS N E U ROSIS IN PROGRESS. THEY DO IT BECAUSE IT IS TH E I R D U T Y A N D B E C A U S E LIFE I S T OO S E R I O U S T O E NJOY. Y O U . OF ESPECIALLY PEOPLE'S G R E E N . M I N E AS WELL AS HIS. SEC R ETLY F E E L I N G I U N D ERSTAND THE E Li M I N I ATION OF REPU LSIONS I S N ECESSAR Y IF T H E PROC ESS OF M ATURATION IS TO COM PLETE ITSELF.: I WROTE THIS B E FO R E I ACTUALLY TALKED WITH J R A N D DISCOV E R E D YOU HAD ALREADY TOLD H I M TH E BATTE R E D DETAI LS. I'M 1 78 . BUT YOU BY TH E T I M E YOU'VE WITH U N PRECEDENTED AND M U C H HOOTI NG. C H I LD R E N . SO T H E AND S A N CT I F I E D EYES H I MS E L F I N ST E A D THROUGH T H E WOME N B R E D TO M I R ROR H I M . A R E S E R V I N G YOU R SOC I ETY FOR EVER.SO U N DS DANCE BLACK AND B L U E OV ER A SONG A AND LIKE. CON V E N T I O N A LI Z E D S OC I E T I E S WHERE AND L I V I NG. ANYMORE. A NOTH E R BEATING. THEN SHAMES TH R O U G H YOU THE FOR HAVING PUT YO U R SOC I ETY IT BOTH E R . AS N E U ROTIC A S HE IS I N S EC U R E THE A BO U T H I MSELF. FO RGIVE A MONG ME. I LOST THE IDEA HOWLING. S E C R ET THAT WOM E N A R E EXPECTED TO A C T AS SOU N D I NG BOA R D S FOR M A LE I N SECU RITI ES.B E FO R E INSIDE HIS I COULD R E S E A R C H IT. H A V I NG M E T YOU. HIS ASS TO F I N A L. S U D D E N LY IT I S A CRIME TO DO. DEGRADES YOU P. WHICH FI RST OVERTHREW THE OTH E R I S PURELY ACADEMIC A N D NOT E A S I L Y PROV E N . SOM ETI M E S F I E RC E M A LE S HAVE OVER­ E N E D AN D F E E LI N G G U I LTY. ONLY A AND NOW WADE I SN'T QUITE T H E SAME TH E R E FEW IS MUCH TRUTH TO IN THAT WITH C E R TA I N SOME THAT T H E POSSESSES A N I N H E R ENT ADVANTAGE OVER THE F E M A LE. AND YOU DESERVE B E C A U S E YOU A R E A C H I L D AND A DAMN N U I SANCE. A LSO. H A V E OR WANT AN YTH I NG U N LESS YOU R SOCI ETY SAYS YOU CAN. APOCALYPSE. SO I SADDLED M Y KITE A N D SWUNG C ROSSTOWN TO WATCH THEM HIS PLACE. M I SS YOU. DANIEL SEEMS VERY COM FORTA B L E WITH YOU .

M A SC U L I N E C R I T I C I S M I S STA N DA RDIZED A S . BUT NOT H E A V I E R W H I C H I N DICATED T O M E H E W A S A PREDATOR I NSTEAD O F A SCAVENGER. OFTEN BY THAT PORTION O F TH E M S E LV E S T H A T H A S R E M A I N E D U NKNOWN. FEM I N I N E C R I T I C I S M STA N D A RDIZED AS IDLE GOSSI P. GAGGED T O K E E P M E F R O M BRAGG I NG ABOUT T H E M . I ANGER E D AND RAGED THE D OC U M E N TS A N ATO L I A . FROM AGAI NST T H E W H I P P I NG P A I N . NO ROPES AS M UCH AS I WANTED THEM. M INOANS.PEOPLE A R E NOT DESPERATE FOR POW E R U N LESS THEY ARE DESPERATE TO I M PR E S S T H E M S E LVES U S U A LLY BECAUSE LORD PRESTON'S B E LT CONTI N U E D B R E A K I NG M E AND MY THOUGHTS. I FED O N HIS FEVER. A I NTO WORSH I P B E FO R E I EVEN ANY SAME SEX ARE WITHOUT CRITICISM. AND B A B Y LO N I A . H ERODOTUS. THEY W E R E AND KISSED M E W H E R E I T F E LT BEST. T H E FOURTH A N D S E V E R A L MORE BLOWS CUT I N TO MY SHOULDERS WITH NO HE LU R E D ME I N TO HIS CONTROL WITH A THE EXC E PT THAT HE PREFERS TO T H I N K OF U S AS STALLIONS.DO M I N A T E D SU PERFICI A L I DOLIZATIONS D R Y W I T H F E A R A N D C RYSTA L LI Z I N G K N E W IT. S E C O N D B E A T I NG S H A TTE R I NG SOCI ETY. THE S ELF-A N A LYS I S I M A Y H A V E BEG U N . . I A M . W H E N H E F I N A L L Y STO P PED. PRAYING TO N O GOD THAT I WOULD C O M E OUT OF THI S H A PP I E R T H A N I WAS. M Y E Y E S LESS 1 79 . IN M A N Y O F THE SOC I ET I E S B E FORE 2000 B C AND SO M E AS LATE AS 50 BC. "I THOUGHT Y O U W E R E H E A VY. I NTENSE. I TOOK EVERY OPPORTU N I TY TO I N FO R M H I M OF WHAT I LIKED BY TELLING F R E E LY OF MY P R EVIOUS -OTHERS H A V E TOLD ME I'M H EAVY B U T I N OTH E R W A YS. ANCI ENT THE WITH T H A T T H O U G HT. A LS O T H E THOUGHT I T B EST I EXPRESS MY CONC E R N . BUT I W A S TOO BUSY A R E T H E M S E LV E S E A S I LY I N T I M I DA T E D ­ SOMETI M E S B Y A T R U E E N E M Y. THE SECOND SMACK B U RST I N G MY A PP R E C I A T I O N . SUMER. ANCIENT E TH I O P I A . H I S FINGE RTIPS R U P TU R I N G A LO N G MY B E A M I NG I HIDE AS HE HE T R A C E D T H E M U SC L E S W H E R E WHISPERE D HOW BEAUTIFUL CRI NGED. PEOPLE OF THE NOT TO LOOK A T ONE ANOTH E R IN A M A L E . LORD P R E STON HAD A NEW DOG TO SHOW. NO C H A I N S TO P U LL AGA I N ST. H I S TO R I E S O F D I O DO R U S S I C U L U S . H E COULD HAVE SMACKED MY INSOLENCE. I SQUEEZED TEETH AND A N D TO I N T I M I DATE OTH E R S . I H A D F E LT BLOWS L I K E T H E S E O N C E B E FORE A N D FEA R E D GOI N G I NTO SHOCK EVEN MORE THAN I PROSPECT O F H I S TAKING M E O U T I N BLACK LEATH E R COLLAR A N D LEATH E R RESTRAI NTS. I SENSED HIS SMUG EYE BEHIND M E . H E BELTED M Y V I R G I N SHO U L D E R S S O H A R D SO I M M EDI ATELY THAT I K N EW I HAD N O HOPE O F B U I LD I N G DELIC ATE C R U ELTI E S I N TO A RC H I T E CT U R E S OF P A I N . T H E TEMPLE AUTOMATICA LLY W E N T U P WITH THE FI RST SMACK OF HIS B ELT B R E A K I NG STA RS. WON D E R I N G AS H E BELITTLED M Y PREVIOUS TALES A S B R AGG I N G MY F I R ST I M PRESSION OF LOR D P R E STON WAS THAT HE WAS M UC H TALLER THA N I H A D E X PECTED H I M T O B E . THEY G R A BBED R U B B E R CORNERS. MASC U L I N E/FE M I N I N E REVERSED ( R E S E A RC H EGYPT. SENSITI VITY TO M Y OWN. • A N D LA B E L L E D M Y HEAVY A STRANGE S O R T OF PU FF." H E C H I DED. AND SOPHOCLES). RESISTING T H E P A I N T O S U B M I T T O I T . F I N A LLY H E STO P P E D B E LTI NG M E ." . P R E STON WOU L D PUT M E I NTO SHOCK. M Y BACK DISPLAYING HIS MARKS AND MY MOUTH FEA R E D THE BLACK A N D B L U E M A R KS. MY BREATH I NG A LWAYS WOR RI ED. SOM ETI M E S BY T H E I N D I F F E R E N C E O F T H E I R WORLD. OR AT ROLES LEAST WERE MORE COM PLETELY BA LANCED.J U STICE. I H A D NO GAG TO B I T INTO. B U T H E ONLY C A R E D A BOUT H I M S E LF. A N D I H A D N O EXCUSE FOR IT-NO BONDAGE. I NSTE A D MY SECOND I M P R E SS I O N FEARED T H AT LORD H E GREW E X C I T E D BY T H E KNOW L E DGE THAT M Y SHOULD E R S H A D N E V E R BEEN W H I PPED BEFORE A N D THAT HE W A S OPE N I NG A R E A S WITH I N M E THAT H A D NEVER BEEN OPENED. OPPRE S S E D YET FOR E V E R S E E K I NG TO BE R E A LIZED. AND TH E A N D HE W A STED NO TI M E RELENTLESSLY BEATING M E FOR T H E R E ST O F T H E NIGHT A S H E LED ME FROM ONE TRASHCAN TO ANOTH E R . ONLY A FOOLI S H S U B M I SSION. ORDEA LS. TH I R D SCREA M I NG . DAN I E L A N D I H A V E SURVIVED M Y B R UI S E S B E FO R E . I O N L Y K N E W THAT I S A W A P A R T OF M YSELF I N LORD P RESTON THOUGH HE WAS MORE PO W E R F U L AND MY H A R MLESSNESS M O R E OBVIOUS. I S A N K U N D E R IN A H ETERONE U ROTIC SOC I ETY. I WANTED TO CRY.

A S K I N G I F I . HIS BUT MORE S E RVE FORC I NG D R E A D. H E C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E F U R T H E R . BUT SOON FRETTED WITH T H E KNOWLEDGE TH I S MAN COULD TU RN ME I NTO A E L E PH A NTS A N D M U N C H I NG I N M Y E A R . ORDERED S EX U A LS. T H E N E S C A P E . I T U R N E D MY E Y E S A W A Y FROM H E R WITH A LL T H E P R I D E OF K N O W I N G WHO M Y R E A L M A STER W A S A N D. G LO R I O U S W I T H T R A N S S E X U A L H U M I L I A TI O N AS THEY S U F F E R E D. T H E B E LT W A S T OO A N G R Y FOR M E T O W A N T I T . I H A D NO T I M E T O WON D E R WHY. TH E BEATINGS POLITELY D I S M I SS E D H E R . T O T H A T B E LT U N T I L F R A NTIC T O E SC A P E I T AGA I N A N D AGAIN. LO R D P RESTON EYED M Y E Y E AND S M I LED. Y A N K I NG AGA I N ST H I S F I R M G R I P O N M Y S C A LP.E AGLE TO A V E RTIC A L GRID.D R I N K I N G FI STD R I LLI N G T R A S H C A N OF T H E M A LL. ME COULD THEN BEATING EVEN UNTIL M Y R A G I N G BON E F I N A LLY SPI LLED A N D I S C R E A M E D .F I E RC E . ALL OF ME IN A COLD TERROR B A TT E R E D OR S P I R I T U A L. FOR H E R I N FO R M A T I O N . EROTICIZED B E I NG M A N Y O F THE M E N H A V I NG P U N I S H E D F O R TH E I R T R A N SV E STI S M . M Y P A N I C T OO C O L D . A M A I T R E S S E G R A B B E D ME FROM B E H I N D. H A D B E E N LEFT T H E R E A L L A LONE. HAVE BEGAN TO F E E L GOOD. ORGA S M S OF PAl N A N D FEAR BLASTING AS I FOUGHT A G A I N ST ROPES AND C H A I N S WH I L E N A K E D I N FRONT O F STR ANGERS. G R A B B I NG M E BY T H E H A I R . T H E REST O F M E TWISTING A N D STRUGGLING T O D E A L W I T H . H E C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E UNTI L I ONLY H U NG TH E R E B L U B B E R I NG. WITHOUT TH E PHYS I C A L R E I N FORC E M ENT I ONCE. T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS A M AZED M E A S MUCH A S WE A M A Z E D T H E M . K N O W I N G W H E N TO STOP S I N C E HE W A N T E D M E A G A I N AND WITH A S M A N Y M A R K S ON M Y BODY A S H E COULD L E A V E WITHOUT LOS I N G M Y A FFECTION. I E X P LO D E D ." G R O U N D U NT I L S U S P E N D E D BY F L E X E D B I C E P S . THEY H A D GAT H E R E D TH E R E AT A CONVENTION F O R THE L I B E RATION OF S A D O M A S OC H I S M FROM A NONCON SENSUAL HE GOT MORE MARKS THAN EITHER TOO OF US A N T I C I PA T E D BECAU S E H E WAS S E N S UOUS AND I TOO C RAZY WITH IT TO S A Y N O A S H E PULLED ME OUT OF THE A PPLA U S E OF H ETEROS E X U A LS I NTO T H E B I G G E S T P I S S. FASC I N A TED B Y T H E S E PEOPLE WHILE C RAZY WITH A L U ST TO B E B E ATEN A GA I N AND T H E FEA R OF WHERE IT WAS LO R D LEADING P R E S TON ME. FOR BEFO R E THE I COU LD EVERY TIME HE S TO P P E D . I W A N T E D S O M E WATER. OUR BODI E S IN LOVE. FLESH WAS HOT WITH N E R V E S .I N A VERY RESERVED SORT OF W AY-FOR TRYING T O B E WHAT THEY W E R EN·T. WAS. S O M E O F IT SMUG. POO R T H I NG. TH E A I R W A S HEAVY WITH G U I LT. l BO . F I R ST TI M E H ETERO­ E M B R A C E A N D A C C E PT E D H I S D E E P LONG K I S S I NTO MY H E A V Y B R E AT H I NG. N E E DI NG T O P I S S . K N EA D I N G HER CLAWS I N TO MY I M P R ESSION W A S L A R G E LY A PROJECTION OF MY OWN ANTICI PATION S . A FEW TRASH C A N S LATER. RAGE AT A N D F I N A LLY S U B M I T I LAU G H E D INSIDE A STI F F A ND TENDER BODY. AGA I N H E O R D E R E D M E TO STRI P. C H A I N E D MY W R I STS TO A N OV E R H E A D B E A M A N D. EYED H I M . THE MAN W EA R I N G D E A D M I C E A R O U N D H I S N EC K D I D N O T KNOW WHAT W E W E R E DOI NG. I EXAGG E R A T E D E V E RY S E N SATION WITH F R A N TI C BREATHI NG. SOM ETI M E S I BATH E D I N T H E SWEAT A N D TH E HEAT OF H I S BODY EMBRACING THOUGH MY ME. I N STEAD HE L E D ME A BOUT WITHOUT THE GAG AND WITH IT IT A FAR S U BT L E R HOW BONDAGE. M UCH ME TO I E V E N M O R E ACUTELY A W A R E OF MY N U D I TY A N D R E M E M B E R E D H E A R I NG O F T H I S TACTIC B E FORE. HIS D E E P VOICE H U NGRY AT T H E V I S ION OF M Y M A R K E D M U SC LES. AT THE SI LKY DINER. AT TH E TA N N H A U S E R . T H E N OVERW H E L M E D M E W I T H THE MOST E ROTIC BEATI NG O F M Y LIFE. P ROC E E D E D TO B E A T M Y T E N D E R BODY. BUT SO H A R D MY RAGE W A S G E N U I N E AGA I N . I RUSHED AT HIS SADDEN. I WAS AGA I N . M I N D LESSLY ROA R I NG. T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS K N E W A N D W E R E A M AZED. I BREATHED WITH AN I N C R E A S I NGLY GEN U I N E R E S E NTED E F F ECTIVE THEN. TH E N . STILL FIND EROTIC. C A N S A N D S P R A Y E D M E WITH B E E R A N D SODA. SOM ETI M E S I FEARED M Y LORD'S MOOD. M Y BELLY TIGHTE N I N G A N D PULSING W H I L E T H E TI P O F M Y P E A N U T STUNG. "TH I S I S V E R Y BIZARRE. S H E A S K E D T H E Q U E ST I O N AGAIN OF LO R D P R E ST O N AND HE BLOODY M U S H A N D I WOULD LOVE IT. DEFI NITELY A LESS CON F I D E N T I M PR E SSION THAN THE FI RST A N D EVEN THE S E C O N D I M P R ESSIONS. H AULING M Y S E L F OFF T H E SOM E O F IT N E RVOUS. B U T H E D I DN·T. EVERY T I M E HE BEAT ME M E T O ST R I P NAKED IN FRONT OF E XC E PT FOR MY SOC KS. MY THIRD I M PRESSION OF LORD PRESTI ON WAS AS THIS MAN WHO WAS PRETE N D I NG TO BE MY THAT EITHER I D I D WHAT H E WANTED OR I WAS IN MORE TROU BLE THAN I A LREADY WAS IN. THIS M A STER PROCEEDED TO B I N D M E S P R E A D. PHYSICAL CONTI N U E D I N C A PA B L E OF ANY HE R ES I S T A N C E . M Y T E R RO R LOVELESS E V E N A S T H E C RO W D OF GRIMY M U SC L E D M E N S H O O K TH E I R OPPRESSION.

THIS PHASE OF S ELF-WORSH I P IS NECESSARY I F LORD PRESTON YAWNED. THE EXISTENCE OF A GOO I S A I THI N K HE CAUGHT ME A N A LYZI NG TH E N . T H E N YOU ARE HOPI N G SOMEBODY ELSE W I L L TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE. HE TOLD ME HE ON LY STOPPED BECAUSE H E C A U G H T H I MSELF LOSI N G CONTROL. C R AZY WITH THE SIGHT OF ME AT THE END OF H I S B E LT. H E PUSHED M Y FACE I NTO ALL OF T H E M A N D A LLOWED M E TO BATHE M Y TONG U E A N D M I N D T H E R E . I TOLD H I "" I T WAS TOO EROTIC KEEPING TH E M O N . EXCEPT AS A N U LTIMATE EXTEN SION OF IMAGINARY POWER STRUCTURES. CAUSING THE N A K E D M A N W H O H A D BEEN WATC H I NG US T O F U M B L E H I S BON E AND DEPART. T H I C K WITH M I RACLES AND "FAITH H EALI NGS" ARE NO PROOF OF GOD. M E NTIONI NG I WAS DRAWN TO THEM BECAUSE OF TH E I R LABEL WHEN A MORE HON EST RESPONSE WOULD HAVE HOOTED THAT I W A N T E D TO KEEP THEM ON BECAUSE THEY CLUNG TO M Y FEET WITH THE FI LTH FROM EVERY FLOOR HE HAD B EATEN ME OVER. IT A LSO SUGGESTS THAT GODS A R E HYPE RTROPH I C MANI FESTATIONS OF OUR I N N E RMOST DESI R ES TO BE MORE THAN W E ARE A N D THAT WE WORSH I P OUR GODS A S I NTENSELY A S W E L U ST TO WORS H I P OURSELVES. BE I T TH R O U G H POS S E S S I O N BY D E M O N S O R THROUGH TH E GRACE OF GOD. H E WONDERED W H Y I DIDNT WANT T O TAK E M Y SOC K S O F F E V E N AS H E BEGAN T O DO IT F O R ME. P R E F E R A B LY IN GOO. I LA UGHED. THEN LAUGHED D E F E N S I V E LY AT A GUSH OF U N E X PECTED PAIN. H I S V O I C E B E H I N D M E P R A I S E D M Y BODY. I N A R OO M W H E R E WE W E R E A LLOWED TO TALK. I GRABBED H I S E M BRACE. W H E N YOU ARE TRULY DESPERATE TO BELI EVE W H E N H E W A S DONE. I WORRI E D AS H E C H A I N E D M Y W R I STS T O M Y TH ROAT A N D PROC E E D E D T O W H I P M Y B A G S A N D BONE WITH LOOPS O F THONG. LORD PRESTON STI LL A L A R M S M E A N D MORE SO W I T H EVERY R E-EVALUATION OF THAT N I G HT. INDIGNANTLY ASTO U NDED. H I S M I N D A NXIOUS W I T H HOW BEAUTIFUL H I S MARKS WERE AS I STRUGGLED BACK I N TO M Y CLOTH ES. I ADORED IT. YOU ARE ACTIVELY CONVINC I N G YOURSELF T H A T A G O D DOES I N FACT EXIST. GIVEN ITS KINO OF FAITH A N D THE FAITH OF OTHE R S FEEDING I NTO T H A T FAITH. E M OT I O N A L T A N G L E D A N I E L. T H E C ROWD H A D ALREADY SC R E A M E D F O R M Y BLOOD W H I LE M Y MASTER W A S B EATI NG M E F O R H I S O W N PLEASURE. A N D NEVER WILL KNOW. THE I N D I V I D U A L I S EVER TO GET OVER ITSELF A N D MATURE W I T H TH E E N E RGY T O CONFRONT T H E B U S I N E S S O F A D A I LY S U RVIVAL." T H E I N T E N S I T Y OF T H A T DESPE RATION DRAWING OUT OF THE I N DIVIDUAL POTENTIALS IT NEVER K N EW I T HAD. WHEN H E TURNED M E AROU N D A N D BROUGHT M Y BACK INTO HIS C H E ST. FRANTIC TO TASTE HIM AND L I C K I N G W H EREVER HE ORDERED ME. BUT D E C I D E D T H I S P U B L I C WAS N O PROTECTION . 181 . W H E N YOU PRAY DESPITE G ROWING DOUBTS. I TOLD H I M HE ENJOYED BEATING ME M UC H H A R DER I N FRONT O F WI LD M E N THAN A MONG H ETEROSEX­ U A LS. TH E N R E SENTED IT: WRITH E D A N D GROVELLED U N D E R IT. E L E P H A NTS I N TO HIS C ROTC H THIGHS W H I L E W O R D L E S S . FOR MANY PEOPLE. MORE SECRETLY I RESISTED M Y S E LF A N B E TW E E N T H I S M A N A N D THE GROWING U R G E TO S P A R E F I L L I NG M Y S E L F WITH T H E S E N SATION S AT THE BACK OF MY H E A D RUBBING TH E BACK OF HIS. S H O U L D E R S A N D E L E P H A NT S R A D I A T I NG. THEY ONLY P ROVE DESPE RATE PEOPLE CAN DO MORE WITH TH E I R OWN MIND AND BODY THAN THEY T H I N K THEY CAN. RELEASING ME. IT TELLS M E THEY HAVE BEEN TRICKED I N TO BELIEVING THAT THE I R UNREALIZED POTENTI A L LI ES I N A NOTH ER BEI NG. THEN PRAYERS SOM ETIM E S "WORK. THEY WERE H A R DLY T H E SORT TO SAVE M E FROM HIS ANGER. S U DD E N LY HE ORDERED ME TO P U L L MY PANTS DOWN A N D P U S H E D M E B A C K ONTO T H E GAM ETABLE. VAGUELY AWA R E MY POSE WAS NOT A S THEATRICAL AS I B E L I E V E D . I FEARED THE LOSS OF OTH E R I NTE RESTS A N D S O RISKED THE LOSS O F LOR D PRESTON. I CONSIDERED B I T I N G H I M . R E A LITY WHEN FOR I N T R U T H TH E R E THE IS NO R E A L EVIDENCE E X I ST E N C E OF A N Y GOO. LORD PRESTON BROUGHT ME TO BED WITH H I M .HE GRABBED ME I N THE M I DDLE OF A FEAR A N D SIGNALLED HE WAS DONE.SWEATY SOCKS. HE S E E M E D TO K NOW I W A NTED H I S A R M PITS A N D H I S C ROTCH A N D. BETW E E N HIS I RISKED D R I V I NG M Y FLARING AND M A SSAGED MY H E A D S A I LED. I GRABBED A POL E SO I COULD R E M A I N STA NDI NG. TH E N SCR E A M E D BEFORE ADORING H I M AGA I N BECA USE H E KNEW WHERE TO STOP WITHOUT LESSENI NG M Y FEAR OF H I M . I R E S O R T E D TO SOU NDING TOO D I S H O N ESTY I N T H E F E A R O F ROMANTIC ONLY TO F I N D I H A D FAILED T O FEED H I S E G O A N D PLEASE H I M AS I WOULD HAVE L I K E D. S E N S A T I O N S W H I LE A FLOOD OF CONFLICTING EMOTI O N S H I D B E H I N D M Y S M I LE. WHEN YOU PRAY.

IT SOU N DS R I D I C U LO U S . BUT I N S I D E I T H I N G S I N PROPORTION A N D I S H A K E MYSELF F O R A N E W P E R S P ECTIVE. HIS BON E STI LL MOVING WON DROUSLY I NSIDE M E . MY BONE WAS ALREADY HARD AND I WOR K E D IT. T H E U S E O F MY BODY H I S. AND I LEA R N E D H E COULD DRI LL MY H O L E ALL DAY A N D I WOULD LOVE IT. HAND AND FOOT. A L L O F ME SNORTI NG F O R A I R A N D STEADYING MYSELF BY GRABBING H I S N A K E D LEGS. R E M E M B E R I NG THE D E PTH OF MY UNEASIN ESS AS I HAD TO WAIT. T H E N ELEPHA NTS. TH E N BROUGHT HIS P E A N UT I NTO MY MOUTH A N D NONCHALA NTLY P I S S E D . D E S P E R A T I O N I N C A P A B L E O F R E SO L U T I O N . BAGS A N D PEANUT. S E E M E D. BUT HAR­ TH E THOUGHT C R A Z E D M E A N D I S P I L L E D EN DLESS­ LY UNTIL LORD P R E STON ENDED IT. G R E A S E D I T AND BROUGHT H I S FRESH BONE I N TO PLACE. I GUZZLED E V E N AS H I S BLADDER PROVED LA RGER T H A N MY BELLY. HE W H I S P E R E D I NTO MY EAR. T H I S D I FFUSE A N X I ETY I S USUA LLY S U BC O N SC I O U S AND M A N I F E STS ITSELF AS S E R IOUSN ESS. ROSE. ITS E N ERGY D I S S I PATES AND S O B R I ETY B E C O M E S A P ATH E T I C . CONVENTION A LI Z E D S M G E N ERATES I B2 . R E ACTI V E . IT C H RONIC IS A N X I ETY IS A HU RTING ORDERS ME T O D E C I D E WHICH PART OF M E HE'LL TORTURE N EXT. THE USE OF HIS HAND D E S P E RATION CON C E R N . I F THE DESPE RATION I S SUSPENDED LONG ENOUGH. I FROWNED A T T H E LACK OF A ROU N D MY H A N DS AND FEET.WITH I N A COOPERATIVE GROUP TI M E TO PLAY AS EFFORT SEEKING WELL LOSE AS WORK R E M E M B E R I NG HOW EASILY HE PUT ME IN A N D OUT OF MY CLOTH ES. " T H A T TERRI FY I NG O R D E R T O Y I E L D EVE RYTH I N G TO H I S B R UTA L W H I M . TORTU R I N G EACH ONE U NTI L ALL OF ME I S TOO TENDER TO TOUCH A N D MY M I N D SO MUCH THAT IT BREAKS WHEN HE R E SOLUTION. IT CAN DOUBTS. R E SOLVING ON A WANTED HIS H A N D T H E R E I NSTEAD OF MY OWN. "STR I P. WITHOUT P L A Y . A N D M Y BODY TO ITS KNEES. A P A S S I O N T H I C K E N E D I N S I DE ME. N E U RO S I S . AS I F WAITING FOR HIM TO TA K E CONTROL. DESPE RATION R E S I ST A N T TO SUSPENDED AND T H E R E FO R E I N A PPROPRIATE. BY B E L I TT L I N G AND DEG R A D I NG A N YO N E ' S I N D I V I D U A LITY. A FT E R A PRELI M I NA RY PEEVE. WE MEANING. R I D I C U LO U S . A NTICI PATING HIS NEXT BEATING. D I R ECTION OR OR BY IT F OC U S I N G CAN BE SPECIFIC WITHOUT DIFFUSE. WHEN ROPE N E XT I WOKE. SHOULDERS. EACH THIGH A N D CALF. ENOUGH TOG ETH ER. THE EXPLOSIONS A S P A I N LESS AS THEY W E R E DISORI E NTING. H E TALKED OF TAKING EACH P A RT OF MY BODY ONE AT A T I M E . "YES. A N D I N S E C U R I T I E S FIXATED. ON LY TO FLOU N D E R A S LORD PRESTON ORDERED M E TO WORK MYSELF I NTO SPI LLING. LAST? HOW LONG IS THIS GOI NG TO A N X I ETY FOR IS AN EMOTIONAL T U R MOI L DESPERATE C H A RG E D BE WTH FEARS AND ITS D I R EC T I O N . ITS M OT I V A T I O N . MASS N E U ROSIS W H E N CONVENTION ALIZED. SU DDENLY I REALIZED HE WAS IN CONTROL. HE STI R R ED. MY HOLE OPENED. A TREMBLING TO MY BODY. I CA N'T S E E M TO DISC I P LI N E MYSELF TO FORGET H I M . CONFUSED I THE VERGE C R Y I NG. W E LOSE OUR WARMTH A N D BECO M E TOO SERIOUS T O LOVE . BUT FIND S O M ETI M E S M Y S E LF ON HE IT F E E L S ME SO OF HAS "ARE YOU HORN Y?" HE W H I SP E RED I NTO MY HA LF­ SLEEP." HIS HAND M O L E ST E D THE HOLE BETW E E N MY TH E N I GROW ANGRY AT MY FAILURE TO K E E P ELEPH A NTS. I K N E W WHAT THE S I NGLE WORD FROM HIM WOULD BE. FROM B E H I N D ME. WITHOUT WORK. EACH ARM. PLEADI NG. H I S WORDS SOU N D I NG A R E A LITY W H E R E WITH A S I NGLE WORD H E WOU LD B R I N G TEARS TO M Y EYES. SI R. ITS DESPERA­ TION WAS NOT MEANT TO BE SUSPENDED I N D E F I N ­ ITELY UNTI L A PATHETIC. M Y B O N E R E FUSED TO RAGE A N D S PI LL. OR SO IT DENED HAPPY IN THE W A R MTH OF LORD PRESTON'S BODY CURLED ROU N D M Y OWN. A N X I ETY EVOLVED A S A M EC H A N I S M FOR QU ICKLY R E S PO N D I NG TO ATTACK OR P E R I L. EVEN MORE D I SQU I E T I N G IS THAT HE HAS ME SO I NO LON G E R K N O W W H AT'S R E A L A N D WHAT'S CON· TRIVED. H E SLID I N . M ENTA L D I SO R D E R . DESPERATE TO BE E M B RACED.

IT N E V E R D I D . U N A B L E T O R E SOLVE OU R D E S P E R ATION. USUALLY T H E FANTA S I E S A LLOW THE PLAYERS TO TAKE ROLES OPPOSITE TH OS !" THEY HAVE IN H E MADE I T CLEAR HOW MUCH H E OWNS ME. BY EROTICIZING THE CONVENTIONAL POW E R GAME I NTO A CONTEXT FOR FANTASY. T H E DURING LO N G E R THE THE TO LOR D P R ESTON. EVEN AS I THE SM OF S E X U A L FANTASY. WILL HE ACHIEVE HIS GOAL ONLY TO TOSS M E ASIDE LIKE SOME TOY THAT NO LONGER A M U S E S H I M ? R EALITY. HIS I N STR UCTI ONS YET HE HAD WITH L E FT MY ME TODAY. E ROTIC SM T H E R E FORE HAS TH E POTENTI A L TO R E SOLVE SOM E OF OUR MOST FIXATED A N X I ET I E S . W H A T R E A LLY A L LOWS ME TO C O N T I N U E . TH E CONVENTION HAS D U P E D ITS N E U ROTIC MASSES I NTO B E L I E V I NG THAT F A NTASY PLAY. ESPECIA LLY EROTIC S M. I STILL FEEL POW E R LESS IN H I S PLAY.A COMMON A N X I ETY. THE POWER GAME ACQ U I R E S ITS RAGING BONE. THE MORE INTENSE TH E E ROTIC SM. KNOWING IT TO B E A TRAP I MAY NEVER LEAVE. THE DIC HOTOMOUS ACTION OF THESE DELUSIONS ALLOWS TYPES CON V E NTIONALIZED PEOPLE-THOSE sM TO BREED TWO LORD PRESTON COM M U N ICATED HIS VOICE. T H E N DI FFUSES I T D U R I NG T H E E A R LY Y E A R S O F TRA I N I NG. G I V I N G IT A D I R ECTI ON. J U ST AS A N X I ETY I S A RESPONSE TO D A N G E R . THE E ROTI CIZATION FINAL POW E R OF WE FEAR M U ST VIOLENT THE EMOTIONS IT RELEASES. I S M ERELY A R E F LECTI O N NOT OF I T S CO N V E N T I ON A L FO R M . D R E A M S R E L E A S E THE S U BT L E R A N X I ETIES. E N TI R E BODY SHIVE R I NG A N D WOR R Y I NG. R E L I G I O U S A N D PO L I T I C A L DELUSIONS WHICH A C T EITHER AS A N A RCOTIC T O E N C O U R A G E A PATHY O R A S A DECOY FOR THOSE W H O S E E N E RGY WILL NOT D I S S I PATE. A N D M A S S N E U RO S I S S E T S TH EM I NTO ACTION. N E U ROSIS. PEOPLE FOR T H I S R E A SON A LONE. KNOWI NG HOW TO A LL O F THEM C H RONICA LLY ANXI ETY­ R I D D E N . ME WITH A OF WHO W I L L LET THEM­ SELVES BE CONTROLLED AND THOSE WHO WANT TO CONTROL. BUT IT STR UCK ME THAT ORIGINALLY GODS M A Y HAVE A C T E D A S A P R I M E R FOR AGG R E SSION. THOSE O R I G I N ATI N G COU R S E O F A AND DAY U N RESOLVED OR TWO. THE CONVENTION M A K E S TH E RULES. SU­ I F E A R T H E TOTALITY WITH W H I C H T H I S MAY FIXATE M E ON H I M . THE F I RST GODS WERE L I K E THE P U NC H I NG BAGS WE WORK THOSE THAT H A V E U S S E R V I NG OU R SOCI ETY. FANTA S I E S A R E A R E S PONSE TO U N R ESOLV E D A N X I ETY. T H E M O R E FIXED THE Y BECOME. BESIDES H I S OWN P E R SONAL FORCE. EROTIC SM. ESCAPE BUT LAC K I N G THE WILL TO DO SO. I S T H E FACT F A N TA S I Z I N G LETS YOU FOC U S SOME DIFFUSE THAT HE HAS M A D E I T CLEAR THAT THIS W I L L NOT INTRUDE I NTO M Y R E LATION S H I P WITH DA N I EL. I CAN S E E H I S GAME. D A N I E L I S M E R ELY A N OTH E R STA LLION LORD P R E STON's STA LLION HAS T A K E N A STRONG FANCY TO. THE MORE IT'S J U ST AN IDEA. T H I S NO LONGER FEELS L I K E A GAME. W E FORCE I T OUT OF AWARE­ N ES S A N D BECOME S E RIOUS. AS AN ELEMENT OF IT TRY TO CONVI N C E MYSELF I AM ON LY CONTRIVING THIS. I ONLY TOLD MYSELF IT S I M PLY EXAGG E RATES T H E EVERYDAY AN EXTR E M E WAY. MASS N E U ROSIS I S M O R E DIFFICULT TO M A I NTI A I N I F ITS CHRONIC A N X I E T I E S A R E B E I N G FOC U S E D A N D R E SOLV E D W I THOUT LESSEN I NG WHICH THE SOC I A L R E G U LATI O N . I CAN S E E M E TELLING MYSELF I W I L L GET DOES E X I ST MASS OVER H I M A N D AT THE SAM E TI M E STEPPI NG I NTO H I S PRESENCE. 1 83 . THAT THE R E ALITY WOULD OBJECT IS TO NOT EITH E R R E LE A S E P R E S S E D EMOTIONS. 010. S E X U A L S M A LLOWS T H E PARTI C I PANTS T O P L A Y PA RTS OF T H E POWER G A M E T H E Y A REN'T P LA Y I N G I N T H E I R EVERYDAY LIVES. A N D R E LEASE IT. I NC L U D I N G TRANSFIGU R E D I NTO A FOREV E R D E F E N D O U R S E LVES AGA I N ST. B U T A S A COM P E N SATION FOR IT. EROTIC SM'S MAJOR POTENTI A L I S I N ITS VIOLENCE. I'M STI LL S H A K I NG. T H U S OR A PATH Y WITH S E R IOUSN ESS W I L L S E R V E. B U T OC C A S I O N A L L Y T H E F A N T A sT Y ROLES TO A L LOW. I K NOW EXACTLY WHAT H E I S DOING. PLAYERS. A N X I ETIES P E R S I ST. BUT IT CHA NGES N O N E OF MY R E ACTIONS. THE CONVENTI O N A L­ IZED SM R E I N FO R C E S THIS S E R IO U S N ESS WITH NO CONVENTION A L SYSTEM W I L L TOLERATE THIS. I S MORE N E U ROTIC THAN TH E I R CONFOR M ITY. TH E DECOY DRAWI NG TH E I R ANXI ETI E S O U T OF THE S U BCO N SCIOUS A N D FOC USING T H E M I N T O A L U S T FOR POW E R A N D G LORY. A L R E A DY HE HAS ME IN PLACES NO ONE HAS EVER HAD B E FORE. REQUI R I NG MORE VIOLENT E MOTIO N S TO R E SOLVE TH EM. A N X I ETY.

41. J A SON K LE I N TH E B R U I S ES LOOK BEA UTI F U L IN THE M I RROR. ROBERTE'S H I PS. THE DOOR O F THE N E I G H BORING SHOP. SIR. 415. P A L M O F R:S HAND SEEN BY CORPULENT M A N . 41 BIS. D I V I N E D I SC I PL I N A R I A N S FAILURE TO COM P E N SATI NG R E S PO N S I B L E FO R FOR OUR OUR­ R EACTION FANTASY. 43. 4 2 . (CLOSE UP) R : S H A N D ON THE DOOR K NOB. PISS I DI DN"T E V E N TRY. T H E N I N E E D TO BECA M E P U N C H I NG BAGS OTH E R PEOPLE L A B E L L E D FREA KS. HOW I M IGHT LOOK I N YOU R EYE. W I N DOW S ROUGHLY PA I N TED.OUT ON IN O R D E R TO R E M A I N MORE AGG R E SSIVE N E W C E LLS. EYES OF CORPULENT MAN WHO WALKS MORE S LOWLY. 40. A NOVEL EVEN IF THEY HAVE DULLED U N DE R TH E DUST O F 39. W I N DOW D I SPLAY OF WOMEN'S BLOUSES. I N A N Y F O R M . 42 B I S. AND I IN TE R ROR U NTIL. R . EXCERPTS FROM BUGS. BUT I YO U R E A S I LY WERE O N LY J U S T I FICATIONS FOR TH E I R P E R S ECUTION. I S U S P E N D E D M Y S E L F BY T H E N EC K T O WATCH TH E M A N D H O W I M IG H T STR UGGLE. ONE HOLDING BAG. STILL REMAIN S E LVES. ANGRY FOR AIR AND S U DDE N LY PISSING I N THE THAN WE A R E BUT H A V E TO B E TO S U R V I V E . HER H A N DS. PERVE RTS A N D INFERIORS WHILE THE GODS M UTATE D I NTO TERROR O F YOU R FEEL IF YOU WAS R EACTION A N D HOW IT WOU L D B E AT I N G A ME THEN. 1 84 . S P I L L E D E V E N THOUGH I COULD NOT BEAT M YSELF THE WAY YOU WOULD. D I DN'T ACTU A L L Y H A N G I NG BY MY N EC K AND T I E D H A N D-AND-FooT. THE OTH E R SWINGI NG. I F TH E R E I S A BASIC TRUTH DETER M I N E HOW THE H E R E . THE CORPU L E N T MAN PLACES H I M S E L F BETW E E N THE DOOR OF THE SHOP AND R. 44. I TRI E D FOR A SECOND C O M I NG. THEY S E E M M O R E A PART O F M E NOW A N D M A K E ME LOOK L I K E A N A N I M A L . GODS W E R E U N DOUBTEDLY I N V E N T E D OUT O F A DESPERATION FOR POW E R . H ESITATES I N F R O N T OF TW O N E I GH BORI NG SHOPS. IF THIS IS M O R E T H A N J U S T A N I NTUITIVE I N SPI RATI ON. T R A V E L L I N G : R O B E R T E W A L K I N G SEEN F R O M R E A R .

EXPER I E N C E D AS REA LITY IS I N F A C T H I S FANTASY. M A K I NG DECISIONS.A STORY DEDICATED TO J A SON JASON SAID: " M A K E ME F E E L LIKE A N A N I M A L. A HOME. JASON LOST T H A T DICHOTOMY. WILL NOT U N DE RSTA N D WHAT H I S FANTASY IS. THE FEMALE IS IN H E AT. HE WA NTS MY BODY SLA M M I NG I NTO HIS. VIOLE NTLY O N H E R B A C K . BUT HE WA NTS T H E LUXURIES OF SPITE AND CHOICE. THE WAVES THAT C A R R Y MY WORDS TO HIM S H ATTER H I S WOR L D AND C R E ATE H E CA N'T BE BLA M E D FOR A L L OF T H E M . H E R MOUTH S N A RLS WITH A NG E R AND SPITE. O N C E H E HAD M ET M E . H I M TO CONC E I V E OF H I M SELF AS H A V I N G A F R E E WI LL. AT NIGHT THEY DON LEATH E R C LOTH I N G A N D T H E Y STA LK T H E B A R S O F FOLSOM STREET O R TH E BANKS OF T H E H U DSON. THE MALE POU N C E S BUT JASON I S W RONG. CR EATI N G I N DEPEN DENT­ LY. THE F E M A L E I S CAUGHT I N A F U R Y OF CONTRADICTION: HER REAR E N D L I FTS U P I NVITING HIS COCK TO E NTER HER. H E BELIEVES HE LEAVES REALITY AND ENTERS FANTASY OF H I S OWN TH ERE I S A JASON WHO DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT ME. HIS NEW REA LITY I S THE SOUND OF MY VOIC E A S I STAND IN F RONT OF HIM OR AS IT I S TRANSPORTED THREE THOUSAND M I LES BY JASON MAKES M A N Y M I STAKES. H E THINKS TH ERE I S A R E A LITY A N D A FA NTASY WHICH E X I ST IN CONTRADICTION TO O N E A N OTHER." WI LL. THAT TH E FA NTASY I S HIS C R E ATION A N D H E M A I N TA I N S POW E R OVER IT. I HAVE TWO CATS. SLAM A G A I NST LEARN THAT THE DAY TO DAY EXI STENCE HE H A D THAT I S WHAT JASON WA NTS TO FEEL. HIS PELVIS THE S H A R P. HE TH I N K S TH E GREATEST R I S K HE TAKES IS THAT SOM EONE ELSE I AM SITTING IN MY L I V I N G ROOM. IT IS ENTI R E LY FALSE. HE HAS H A D TO PLUNGES WETNESS. H E FUCKS HER OF S A V A G E L Y. G R I PPING THE NAPE O F H E R N ECK BETW E E N S H A R P TEETH. QUICK HER TH ERE ARE OTH E R PEOPLE FOR WHOM THE REAL WORLD I S DAYLIGHT: A N I N E-TO-F I V E JOB. TELEPHONE WIRE. THEIR OWN WORLD W H I C H H E M U ST NOW I N H A BIT. A LOVER. HIS DREAM WORLD I S THE SPH E R E THAT A L LOWS IT I S TOO S I M P LISTIC. I S!! .

I A M M A K I N G H I M WHOLE. AND H E TH I N KS HE WANTS IT. MY CONTROL IT POWER. AT NOT COMI NG OTH E R T I M E S WITH OTH E R M E N H E CAN CHOOSE H I S R E A LITY. DESPE RATE FOR M E TO P I C K C H E ST . PUT IT BACK I NTO H I S M I ND. I HAVE C R EATED A PART OF JASON THAT IS M I N E . SHE SENSES GREAT PROTECTION. AS SOON AS I T H I N K OF AN A C H E. OR. T H A T S H E WOULD STA RVE I F I D I D NOT RETURN A N D F E E D H E R . WHATEVER E LSE H E DOES. IT WOULD B E TOO EASY. IT I S A SHELL THAT I FILL WITH OOE S MY LUST. " THINKS. BODY AND HIS MY SELF I THOUGHT A BOUT H I S S H OO K WITH THE AND WOR K I NG. THIS P LACE W H E R E JASON H A S N O POW E R . I AM ONLY AWA R E O F W H A T WOULD H A PPEN I F I ROLLED OVER ON BUT I D O NOT WANT T O TERRORIZE J A S O N . H E C A N L E A V E THAT BEHIND. I WI LL HAVE IT W H E N E VER I WANT IT." BUT M Y POWE R OOES NOT COM E FROM TH E CARE I H E SAYS: ''I'M A L R E A D Y T H E R E . IT AND EVERY PAIN I F E E L. H E CAN NOT REVOLT AGAI NST WHAT I 00 WITH IT. R E M I NDS M E OF WHEN THE F E M A LE CAT IS OUT OF H EA T SHE ADORES M E . I DON'T KNOW W H E R E IT C A M E FROM. I DO NOT WANT TO JUST EXPLORE HIS BODY. WITH A INTENSITY CONTROL. IT IN I WANT BODY. SOUNDS. NEEDS I T E L L JASON: "I A M GOI NG TO TA KE YOU TO THE P LA C E WHERE YOU WILL C R Y WHEN I WALK I NTO A ROOM. A SORE. BUT WHEN ITS TH E R E I T WI LL STI LL B E M I N E. AT N IGHT S H E SOM E T I M E S CRAWLS U N D E R M Y COVERS AND C URLS AGA I N ST MY STOM A C H . WITH A LOV ER H AV I NG D I N N ER . REC R EATE HIS CALL DOCTOR TH E HUGE BODY THAT IS M I N E S E E M S TO HER TO BE A SOU RCE OF H EA T AND DEFENSE. TOU C H . TO I KNOW MY HOW TO F E E L OF M Y W A R M GROIN." JA SON S A I D . THE CAT T H I N K S I AM H E R B E N EFACTOR.IT IS THE PERSON AT IT THE IS A WHO HEARS MY WORDS AND MY F R I E N D SA I D: "YOU W I L L B R E A K H I M . H E C A N NOT COM M A N D DO THAT WITH TH I S PE RSON IS ONE THAT I I NTO EXI STENCE. HE C A N C H OO S E T O B E I N AN OFFICE BUT I THOUGHT A BOUT IT. HOW TH I S I S THE A N I M A L I C REATE I N J A SON. I WANT TO G R I P I T WITH A H A R D GRASP A N D P U L L I T OUT. MY F R I E N D SAID: "YOU A R E PLA Y I N G GOD. WHEREVER ELSE H E GOES. S H E P U R R S AT T H E JASON. SHE HER U P A N D HOLD HER AGA I N ST M Y THE REASSURANCE OF MY F R I E N D IN BOSTON: "HOW CAN I MAKE JASON FEEL THIS WA Y7" H E T E L L S ME. " G I V E THE CAT-NOR T H E C A R E JASON T H I N K S I G I V E H I M . BUT IT. A N D THEN. I S I T R E A D I N G A BOOK I N M Y CHA I R A N D SHE CLIMBS UP ON M Y L A P . W H ATEV E R ELSE HE THE PA RT O F JA SON THAT I S MINE LIVES ONLY TH ROUGH M E. AND A N D JASON GOING. T H E PO W E R C O M E S F R O M W H A T I DO N O T 00. OF POWE R A N D THE FURY O F M Y T R I C K ACTI NG AS THOUGH HE WERE A MASTE R . EXPLORE H I S M I N D A N D TAKE HOLD OF THAT PART W H I C H I H AVE C REATED. W H E N I WOK E T H I S M O R N I NG THERE WAS A P A I N I N MY K N EE. IT l S6 . M Y S E LF. HE "I KNOW. SCULPT IT. I THI N K OF J A SO N . I T IS NOT ENOUGH. T H E R E W I L L A LWAYS B E TH I S PART OF H I S BEING THAT E X I STS O U TS I D E HIS POW E R ." T R E M BLES CONTENT." A L LO W E D L I M I TATIONS TO ITS U S E . W H E N I'VE BEEN OUT A N D R E T U R N TO T H E A PA RTM ENT S H E C I RCLES T H E ROOM SCRE E C H I NG LOUDLY. I DO NOT WANT TO PLAY SEX ROOM GAMES WITH H I M. VULNERABLE HOLD H E R ON SHE A L LOWS ME TO HER BACK I N SUCH A WAY THAT I COULD DROP H E R A N D S H E WOULDN'T B E A B L E TO RIGHT H E R S E LF B E FO R E SHE LA N D E D ON THE FLOOR. OR. SHUDDERS BODY THAT IS AT T H E NO I S A I D : "HE W A S A LR E A D Y BROKEN. I WANT TO HER BODY AND IS S U F FOCATED WHEN SHE H E R. O N L Y T H E N . A S E N SATION OF ANY K I N D OTH E R TH AN PLE A S U R E . " M A K E ME FEEL L I K E A N A N I M A L. M A K E H I M H O R R I F I E D T H A T I T E X I STS OUTS I D E H I M ." CAN NOT RESIST M Y T A K I N G I T .

" SPITE. I TAKE HIS ASS WITH M Y COCK. CAN FEEL. H E ACTS OUT M Y WISH ES." M Y LOVER H I SS E S AT M E : " Y O U G O D D A M SADISTI" I TELL JASON: ·YOU MAY END U P HATING M E. H E CAN ON LY EXIST I N TH E N EW. PROCREATION. IT I S F I N E R TH A N THE CREATION OF A B A B Y . O U R R E LATION S H I P R E M A I N S A BALANCE. AND YANG. A L L TH E EGO." I CALL JASON: "I WANT YOU TO DO SOMETH I NG. HE C A N NOT RECLA I M T H E OLD. I T I S M I N E: M I N E A LONE. HE BECOM E S A BOY." PAUSE. HAT E AND LOVE. W H ATEVER. ·YES. MY F I ST." WHICH I I M POSE." I AM THE O N E WHO S A I D IT. I AM IT DOESN'T MATTER WHOSE MOUTH UTTE R E D THE MY LOV E R 'S MASTER: WE ARE E QU A LS . H E SAYS: "I DON'T KNOW TH E DIFFERENCE BETWE E N W H E N I A M WITH M Y LOVER I M E RG E WITH H I M TO C REATE A N E W FORC E : T H E S Y N E RGY OF LOVE. MORE TOG ETH E R T H A N WE ARE SEPA­ "WOULD YOU K I L L H I M ?" "NO. IT I S SOM ET H I N G THAT N O ONE ELSE CAN HAVE. IT DOES NOT RELY ON THE H ET E R OS E X U A L ACT OF WORD. IN MY P R E S E N C E THE ONLY "WHY DOES N'T SOM EONE STOP YOU?" JASON THAT E X I STS I S W H AT I HAVE C R E ATED. THE 1 87 . WE C R EATE RATELY. "ISN'T HE FRIGHTE N E D OF YOU?" I DO NOT BEAT J A SON WITH LOVE. ALL THE "ABSOLUTE LY. A L L THE ANGER." JASON DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT ME. BUT I HAVE DREAMT ABOUT IT. I DO LOVE H I M . HE I S S I M PLY A BODY. THE MOST PROFOU N D TRUTHS ARE THE E X I STENCE OF Y I N S I LENCE. I HE IS MINE: I AM HIS. PORATE H I S DESI R ES. W I LL EVER SEE.IS THE ONLY L I F E THAT I W I L L E V E R C R E ATE BY MYSELF. LISTEN TO H I M C A R E FULL Y. MY FRIEN D SAYS: " H E'LL END U P I N SAN E:' "HE ALREADY I S. WE P L A N T H E I I NCOR­ I SAY: "I'LL SHOW HIM THAT H E EXI STS ONLY AT M Y WHIM. I HOLD H I M C LOSE AT N I G H T A N D WONDER AT H I S FEEL. HE SUCKS MY COCK G R E E D I LY. I WILL TA K E HIM BEYOND ALL THOSE POI NTS. IT IS A N ACT OF C R EATION THAT I S ENTI R E L Y I N D I V I D U A L." CALIFOR N IA?" MY FRI E N D ASKS. I WH I P H I S BACK AND ASS A N D M A R K H I M W I T H LOVE. I TA KE FROM H I M . "DO I HAVE TO AGREE B E FO R E YOU TELL M E?" IT I S ALL SOM E FORM OF COMPENSATION. H I S S U B M I SSION I S O U R U N I ON WITH M Y DOM I N A NCE. W E A R E TOG ETH ER : FUTU R E ." I S M I LE." ·WHAT WILL YOU DO TO HIM WHEN YOU GO TO BUT LOVE ISN'T WHAT I WANT FROM J A SON A N YWAY. "WHAT DOES HE GET FROM ALL THI S?" "WHO?" "LI FE. W I T H MY LOVE T H E COMPLI M E NTARY PARTS ARE OBVIOUS. I HAVE A LOVER TO BECOME MORE WHOLE: TO SENSE COM M U N ION WITH SOMEONE. W I T H J A SON T H E ON LY ORDER I S THAT "YES. W E STAY TWO M E N IN LOVE.

MY READING IS HOW CO U L D A N YON E POSS I B LY KNOW WHAT IT I N T E R R U PT E D BY A P L E A S A N T THOUGHT OF J A SON. I B E A T H I M . P R E S E N C E . T H E UTT E R HORROR OF TH E POSS I B I L I T I E S W I LL O V E R W H E L M HIM. I M U ST BE. " J A SON PLEADS. I S M I LE. WHEN HE G ETS T H E PINS FROM ME HE WILL H A V E NO WAY O F KNOWING WHAT I I N TEND TO U S E THEM FOR. JUST THE RETU R N A DD R ESS. I IMAGINE H I M STA N D I NG TH E R E WITH DEEP GASPS IN H I S C H EST A N D R I V E R S O F J A SON T E A R S FLOWI N G DOWN H I S C H EEKS. S H A R P M E T A L I N H I S H A N DS. TOTA LLY U N A B L E TO ALTE R O R NATURE. H E ' L L K NOW T H E Y ' R E FROM M E AND I I M AG I N E W H AT H E ' L L DO. HE W I L L OPEN THE E N V E L O P E AND STA N D TH E R E AND I DO.CONTRADICTIONS OF L I F E C A N BE ACCOMODATED. I N S U F F I C I E NT. HE I S LIKE MY CAT." MY F R I E N D SAYS: "W H E N YOU'RE WITH YOUR LOV E R YOU TALK A BOUT W H E R E YOU'RE GOI NG T O L I V E . J U S T LIKE M Y CAT HE MAKES STR A N G E N O I S E S A N D 1 88 . I S A Y : " H E'S NOT A H U M A N B E I NG. I C A L L E D J A S O N . H E R M I N D C A N NOT F A T H O M T H E F O R C E S OF N A T U R E T H A T B R I N G WATER FROM T H E S K Y A N D W A L K OUT TO M A I L IT. " I SIT IN NEW YO RK IN MY ROOM. W H A T DOES J A SO N FEEL L I K E WHEN I A M THERE? HIS ING MY F R I E N DS SAYS: " B U T A N Y R E LATIONSH I P HAS TO HA VE A BASE OF S A N ITY:' SKIN C A N NOT TO L E R ATE CLOTH I N G SEPA RAT­ IT FROM MY E Y E S . I POS S E S S H I M:' "NOTH I N G . A L L FO R M S OF HUMAN TO C O M M U N IC ATON TH E Y ARE B ECOM E I NT O L E R A B L E I SAY: " TH A T S DOUG:' HIM. I N TO MY U TT E R D O M I N ATION. A N D H E KNOWS T H AT NOW. H E C A N NOT CONC E I V E OF H I M SE L F S I TT I N G A NY W H E R E BUT AT M Y F E ET. C RO UC H I N G V U L N E R A BLY B E H I N D T H E TOI LET. I ADDRESS AN E N V E LOPE T O J A SON AND BATH ROO M . CONTROL THE E X I STS FORCES O F M Y V IOLENT IN UTTER H O R ROR IN MY W I T H T H E T H I N . STE E L P I N S. I STA N D U P A N D GO T O M Y D E S K . H E'S JASON:' W H A T YOU' R E GOI NG T O DO. I A M TOTA LLY FOC USED. I COULD DO A N YT H I N G WITH H I M A N D TH E M . " A F R I E N D OF M I N E IS C O M I N G TO SAN F R A N C I SCO. IT WON'T OC C U R FOR A NOTH ER THREE W E E KS. W H A T DO Y O U SAY TO " YO U H A V E TO R E S PECT A N YO N E THAT YOU LOVE:' J A SO N ?" " 1 DONT LOVE HIM. I F I N D A S E T OF LONG. ITS OWN E R S H I P:' S E M B L E N C E O F F R I VOLITY. T H E R E I S NO NOTE. HE M U ST BE M E A N S FOR J A SON TO H E A R M Y VOICE? WHENEVER IT R A I N S. M Y P R E S E N C E A LTERS TH E VERY FOU N D ATION O F H I S B E I NG. I C A N NOT L E A V E TH IS ROLE OR THAT P A R T OF J A SO N T H A T I S M I N E WOU L D BE C R U S H ED. H E'S W A I T I N G FOR M Y A R R I V A L. I H A R DEN AT TH E R E M E M ­ " BU T J A S O N B R A NC E OF H I S N A M E : I A M FORCE D I NTO A S E N S E OF RE SPONS I B I LITY THAT OV E R W H E L M S ANY " JASON I S N O T A R E LATIONSH I P. MY CAT HIDES IN TH E Q U I V E R I N G W I T H E V E R Y THOUGHT OF M E . H E W I L L CRY SOB B I N G LY. THERE HAPPEN TO HIM. I S NO R E ASON FOR W H A T W I L L IS NO WAY FOR HIM TO TH E R E D E C I D E W H A T W I L L B E DON E . B U T NOT WITH JASON. T H I S B O D Y THAT H E I NEVER GIVE JASON THE SAT I S F A C T I O N OF TH I N K S IS HIS PASSES FROM H I S S E LF-CONTROL PREDICTA B I LITY. " M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M A L. H E'S GOING TO W H I P YOU:' HE R E P L I E S : " WH E R E DO I GO? W H E N ?" MY FRIEND SAYS: " YO U C A N NOT DO TH I S TO A N OTH E R H U M A N B E I NG. H O W YOU' R E GOING T O FULFILL YOUR FANTA S I ES. WHEN HE REC E I V E S TH E P I N S I L L U M I N A T E T H E N I G H T WITH BOOMS OF TH U N D E R E D L I G HTN I NG .

N U RTU RE. THE BALUSTRADE O F T H E STA I RCASE R . GOES Q U I C K LY TOW A R D THE H A L F-OPEN DOOR. B R I NGS HIS H A N D DOWN ON R:S HAND H O LD I N G THE BALU STRA D E .HOPES I W I LL U N D E R STA N D TH E EQU I V A LENT O F BECOM I N G M O R E A N D M O R E AWA RE OF IT. ENTERS T H E SHOP WHICH HAS NOTH I NG IN IT. R . STEPS GOI NG STRAIGHT U P TO A C A R R I AG E DOOR G I V I N G ON TO T H E STREET. IT ENTRAPS HIM. 49. AGA I N ST M A I N DOOR. 1 89 ." THERE I S A PART OF JASON FOR WHOM I AM THE ONLY SOURCE OF FOOD. 51. H I S MOUTH F I N DS T H E SWEAT OF M Y BODY T H E SWEETEST TASTE IT HAS KNOWN. 50. H E IS J O H N PRE STON 46. R . IT AWES HIM. LANDING O F A W I D E STA I RCASE. SHOWS H E R ASTO N I S H M E NT . H E W I N DS H I S BODY OVERWH E L M S H I M . A SQUAT YOU N G M A N PUTS H I S H E A D T H ROUGH. THE SQUAT MAN. 53. A FEW STEPS A BOVE. 4B. A DOOR H A LF OPENS. J U ST L I K E M Y CAT H E LICKS M Y BODY I N G RATITUDE FOR T H E VERY STUFF O F E X I STENCE T H A T I PROV I DE. 47. 52. AT THE R E A R OF T H E SHOP. THE COR P U L E N T M A N . R . S H E LTER. BEG I N S TO CLIMB. JASON SAYS: " M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M AL. I N S I DE SHOP. IT P U R R I NG T H A T COMES F ROM H I M W H E N EVER I A M N O T G I V I N G H I M P A I N . IT H O R R I FI ES H I M. A RO U N D M I N E H O P I N G I T W I L L BE S O CLOSE TO M I N E THAT I WON'T H U RT I T . WITH DRAWS.

WE SHALL SEE.N A M E LY S E X -G I V E THE PARENT OF T H E U PON OUR STUDY CIT SPECIFICA LLY DEFINES THE PSYC H ICAL R E LATIONS OF THE H U M A N FA M I LYI­ A N D U PO N O U R C R I TI Q U E (FREUD GIVES THIS OPPOSITE THEIR O R I G I N S T O TH E PSYCHOLOG ICAL E L E M E NT A S THE SPECI FIC FOR M OF T H E H U M A N F A M I LY A N D SUBORD I N ATES T O I T A L L I T S OTH E R SOCIA L VA R I ATIONS). AS M U C H BY T H E D ISCRETE AND D I FFUSE SIGNS THAT BETRAY PA R E NTAL R E LATIONS TO H I S S E N S I B ILITY G E N ITAL DRIVES I N C H I LD R E N THAT REACH TH E I R PEAK AT T H E AGE OF FOUR YEA RS. WITHOUT 1 90 . IN R E LATION TO PHYSIOLOGICA L PUBE RTY. THE C H I LD ASSOCIATES IT TO A THI RD PARTY WHOSE SA M E CON DITIONS OF PRE S E NCE A N D I N TEREST CONSIDE RATION M E NTA L STRUCTU RES AS I N S OC IA L FACTS. T A K I N G HOLD OF T H E C H I LD BY A S E X U A L D E S I R E TOWARD THE CLOSEST OBJECT WHICH PESENCE AND I NTEREST NORMALLY A F FO R D H I M . V E R Y PREMATU R E . AS M UC H A S IN TH E COM PLEX: T H E I R FRUSTRATION FOR M S TH E CRUX. TH E PARENT OF T H E S A M E SEX. BOTH TH E S E G E N I T A L D R I V E S . T H E M ETHODIC ORDER PROPOSED OF HERE. LET US SAY THAT THEY CONSTITUTE A TYPE OF PSYCHO­ LOGICAL P U B ERTY. ON THE OTH E R PSYCHOA N A LY S I S HAS R EV E A L E D I NSTI NCTU A L HA ND. AT MORE THAN ON E POINT I N TH IS WORK. CONSIDERING THE NUMBER OF PSYCH I C R E LATIONS THAT I T EXPANDING ON THEIR STRUCTU R E H E RE. NORMA LLY I N DICATE TO HIM AN OBSTACLE TO THE S A T I SFACTION OF T H E S E DR I V E S: N A M E LY. TH E FRUSTRATION S U F F E R E D BY THE CH I LD IS ACCOM P A N I E D B Y A N EDUCATIONAL ORD I N AR I LY R E PRESSION WHOSE GOAL I S T H E PREVENTION OF MATER I A LI ZATION O F THESE DRI V ES. W I LL LEAD TO A REVISION O F THE COM PLEX E N A B L I N G O N E TO SITUATE THE PATER­ NAL FAM ILY I N H I STORY A N D FURTHE R I LL U M I N ATE CONTE M PO R A R Y N E U ROSIS. THE O E D I P U S CO M P L E X A S SERTS ITSELF. I N VOLVES. THE C H I LD ACQU IRES A CERTA I N I NTUITION O F T H E SITUATION FO RBIDDEN H I M .THE OEDI PUS COM PLEX THROUGH THE D ISCOVE R Y OF OEDIPAL FACTS I N TH E A N A LYSIS O F N E UROTICS FREUD GAVE B I RTH TO TH E CONCEPT OF THE COMPLEX. A LTHOUGH THIS FRUSTRATION IS I N HE R E NT TO THE ESSENTI A L P R E M ATURATION O F THESE DRIVES. ESPECI A LLY SCH E M A OF THE COM PLEX TH E I R M A STURBATORY MATER I A LIZATION.

LIKE I N H I BITIONS OF C R EA T I V E ACTI VITY. THE FA M I LY ACCORDIG TO FREUD THE THE OBJECTIVE V A L U E OF T H E COMPLEX DISCOV E R Y THAT DEVELOP M ENTS OF SUCH I M PORTAN C E TO M A N A S SEXUAL R E P R ESSION AND PSYCHIC S E X U A LITY WERE S U B M ITTED TO R E G U LA­ THIS ESSENTIA L TO A SC H E M A OF THE COMPLEX IN TION A N D TO ACCIDENTS OF A PSYC H I C DRAMA OF THE FA M I LY FURNISHED THE MOST PRECIOUS RESPONDS G R E AT N U M BE R O F GIVENS E X P E R I E NC E . M UC H STRONG E R I N THE B O Y A N D T H E R E F O R E F O R T H E MOTHER. E M I N ENTLY FAVORABLE TO THE EDUCATION­ AL PROCESS. REFEREN­ WHETH E R FROM P U R E P R I NC I P L E OR S I M PLY FROM MYTHS. BEHAVIOUR.I D E A L . A N D BY T H E S A M E TOKEN. THIS I S THE FACT O F THE CASTRATION COM PLEX. A LS O THE AS E X C E PT MALE A IN THE MALE IS CONCRETE A N A LYSIS OF SYM PTOMS OF N E U ROSIS. TH E E G O. I T WAS FOU NDED ON A D I S S Y M M ETRY IN THE SITUATION OF THE SEXES IN R E LATION TO V E A L E D BY T H O S E AFTEREFFECTS OF ITS EVOLU­ TION WHICH CONSTITUTE' N E U ROSIS. THUS. IS C H I LD WHO IN CONSTA N T L Y TA K E N SUBJ ECT THE DIDACTIC EXPOSES ON T H I S COM PLEX. S I NC E I T R E M A I N S INSCRIBED I N THE PSYCHE IN TWO P E R M A N EN T AGENCI ES: THAT WHICH R EPRESSES CA LLS ITSELF T H E S U P E R EGO. I MAGE R E P R E S E NTATIVE OF IDEAL IN THE THE FUTU R E G U A R A NT E E D COI N C I D E N C E O F PSYC H I C A N D P H Y S IOLOG I C A L ATTITUDES DOU B L E AT THE MOMENT HAS OF P U B E RTY. 191 . CES TO THE RENDERS OUTDATED T H E ORGA N I C ORDER WHICH. THEY TIONS. IS THE E X I ST E N C E O F N OT I N FANTI LE CONTR I B UTION T O T H E ANTH ROPOLOGY OF F A M I LY GROUPS. I N ITS M E C H A N I S M . BY R E P R E SS I O N OF THE SEXUAL ON THE I M PORTA NCE A N D THE SIG N I FICANCE THAT ALLOW THEM TO B R I NG OUT A PARTI C U L A R TRAIT OF THE PERSONA LITY. THEY ARE M O S T OFTEN RE­ S U B L I M AT I O N P E RPETUATES C O N SC I E N C E . THE PROCESS THAT GOES FROM OEDIPAL D E S I R E TO ITS REPRESSION HAVE J U ST IT DOES NOT APPEAR AS S I M � LY A S I PRESENTED. AND OF A ON THE T H E OTH E R P A RENTAL SIDE. A G R EAT N U MBER OF D I SORDERS. IN THIS DOUBLE PROCESS. E S P E C I A LLY IN THE STUDY OF THE H E N C E FO R T H IT IS CONTESTED: RE­ BECAUSE H I ST O R I C A LL Y I NT E R D I C T I O N S U N I V E R S A L L Y F O R M U LA T E D B Y GROUPS WHICH GOV E R N THE SEXUA L COM M E RCE BETWEEN C E RTAI N OF TH E I R M E M B E RS. S E X U A LITY MOREOVER. A N D IT IS P R EC I S E LY IN THE LIGHT O F THE OEDIPAL SITUATION THAT SUCH ACC IDENTS IN THE H I STORY OF THE SUBJECT TAKE T H E TENSION T H U S CONSTITUTED I S DISSOLVED. BY THE THAT SINCE ACC I D E NTS A FFECT SITUATION AS TRAUMATISMS DURING T H E EVOLU­ . ON T H E OTH E R H A N D. FOU N D THERAPEUTIC R EDUCTION. FREUD WAS QUICK TO FOR M U LATE A TH EORY OF THE FAMI LY.I D E A L" WERE ISOLATED IN A OEDI PUS. OR P ROCE S S F U N D A M E N T A L G E N ETIC I N V ER S I O N S O F S E X U A L I M A G I N A T I O N . THAT WHICH SUBLI MATES. IN EFFECT. BESIDES. R E P RE S E N T T H E C O M P LE T I O N O F T H E O E D I P A L CRISIS. THESE WE CAN ALSO SPECIFY THAT THE OEDI PAL TENDENCY THAT FROM T H E N W I L L R E M A I N LATENT UNTIL PUBE RTY-G I V I N G WAY TO N E UTRAL I NTER­ ESTS. ORDER-THAT IS T O SAY A N INOPERATIVE ONE-WAS FAVORED BY A N I NS U FFICIENT A N A LY S I S OF THE FACTORS OF TH I S ORDER. TAKES THE PLACE OF T H I S EXPE R I M ENTAL METHOD WITH AN ENTI R E M E D I C A L TRADITION. M A N Y OF WHICH A PPEAR ON THE LEVEL OF HAVE ELEMENTA RY SOMATIC THEIR T H E O R ET I C FU NC­ AND I M PORTANCE. TH E REPRESSION R EVEALS TRAITS WHICH I N T H E I R TYPICAL FOR M AT FIRST SEEM O N L Y J U STIFIABLE I F T H E Y A R E EXERCISED BETWEEN FATH E R A N D SON. A N D ITS AG E-OLD M I S U N D E RSTA N D I NG [ M ECON N A I S­ SANCEI IS AN I M PRESSIVE PROOF OF THE SOC I A L RELATIVITY OF H U M A N KNOWLEDGE. APPARENT SINCE THE FI RST STUDIES. T H E Y L A T E R R E P E A T THEMSELVES A S EFFECTS OF T H E S U P E R EGO. I F THEY EFFECT IT A S ABNORMA LITI E S [ATYPI ESl OF ITS CONSITUTION. FOR THESE DISORDERS. ORDER OF DETE R M I NATION THAT ACCOUNTS FOR A GREAT NUMBER OF ANOMALIES OF HUMAN TH E OEDIPAL DESI R E A PPEA RS. THIS FLECTED I N T H E FORMS OF THE EGO-IDEAL. T H I S PREJUDICE WHICH ATTRIBUTES A N EPIPHENOME N A L C H A RACTER TO THE PSYC H I C HASARDS INTEMPESTI FSl THAT U N V E I L THEM TO H I M . I T IS ACCESS­ I B LE TO THE MOST I M M EDIATE OBSERVATION. T H E PSYCHIC AGENCIES THAT GO U N D E R THE N A M E OF "SUPER· EGO" AND " E G O.AS BY THE I NO P P O RT U N E A CC I D E N T S [LES I N TRUTH. ON ONE SI DE. T I O N O F T H E C O M P LE X . T H E PA R ENT OF THE SA M E SEX APPEARS TO T H E C H I LD A T ONCE AS THE AGENT OF TH E SEXUAL I NTERDICTION A N D AS THE EXAMPLE OF ITS TRANSGRESSION. AND M A N I FESTED THE I R SCIENTI FIC VALUE I N THE DEFINITION AND E XPLI CATION OF PHENOMENA OF THE PERSONALITY: THERE IS IN THIS A POSITIVE C H I LD.

A S TH E AXIS ALONG WHICH TH E EVOLUTION OF SEXUALITY IS PROJ ECTED ONTO THE CONSTITU­ TION OF REALITY. THE FUNCTIONS O F THE COMPLEX: A PSYCHOLOGI­ CAL REVISION THE OEDIPAL C O M P L E X MARKS A LL LEVELS OF T H E T H E ORIGI N A L MYTH OF PARRICIDE PSYC H E . D E MO N ­ R E PRESSION. IT IS HOWEVER HA RDLY CONSISTENT WITH THE FA NTASY THAT MAKES OF IT TH E O R I G I N A L FACT. THE PROTOTYPE OF THE OEDIPA L A PPEARA NCE I N A LL T H E F U N DA M E NTA L FOR M S O F C U LT U R E A N D ESPEC I A LLY IN AN OFTEN EXTR E M E ­ LY STRICT R E P R E S S I O N O F S E X U A L ITY. I F T H E COM PLEX A PPEARS T O TH E M . T H E S E TWO PLA NES D I V E RG E WITH CONJUGAL FAMILY THAT HE OBSERVED A MONG H I S S U B J ECTS T O A H Y POTH ETICAL P R I M ITIVE FA M I LY CONCEIVED AS A HORDE. WOU LD R E D UCE T O A N INCREASI NGLY U NC E R TA I N PHA NTOM THEY IN P R O P O R T I O N TO T H E OFFER TO OUR E DUCATIONAL TRADITION. BUT THE T H EORETIC I A N S O F PSYC HO­ ANALYSIS HAVE YET TO U N A M B IGUOUSLY DEFI N E IT IS FROM HERE THAT FREUD MAKES THE ITS COM POSITE F U NCTIONS: IT IS FOR WANT O F TH EORETICAL I N DICATED IN JUMP OUR WHOSE ABUSE I N T RO D UCTION: WE HAVE FROM TH E H A V I N G S U F F I C I E N TLY DISTI N G U I S H E D T H E PLA N E S OF DEVELOPMENT W I T H W H I C H T H E Y EXPLA I N T H E COM PLEX. ITS ' I N S PI R E D FROM ONE MALE TO A NOTH E R. EVEN I F THIS CONST R UCTION WAS NOT S POI LED BY THE ONLY C I RC U L A R R E A SO N I N G THAT IT IN­ VOLVES-ATT R I B U T I N G T O A B I O LOG I C A L G R O U P TH I S FANTASY C O N S I STS E S S E N T I A LLY IN THE THE POSS I B I LITY OF RECOGNIZING A LAW. OF A LIKE AGG R E S S I O N . T H E PRESENT U N I V E RSA L TRACES AND T H E E N D U R I N G SURVIVAL OF A MATRIARCHAL FA M I LY STRUCTU RE. THAT A M A LE DOMI N ATES BY A BIOLOGICAL S U P E R I O RITY IN THE MONOPOLI- 1 92 . BUT ABOVE ALL. I N EFFECT. I T S E E M S. HE I M AG I N E S A DRAMA­ E MOTIONAL MOVEMENT O F T H E SUBJ ECT: AGGRES­ SION AGAI NST THE THE C H I LD'S PARENT IN REGARD TO WHOM PLACES H I M AS A SEXUAL D E S I R E M U R D E R O F T H E FATHER B Y THE SONS-FOLLOWED BY A POST H U M O U S CONSECRATION OF THE R I V A L: SECONDARY FEAR. A N ENTIRE MORA L A N D C U LTU R A L TRADITION WOULD COME. F R E U D BUI LDS U PO N T H A T I S ESTA B L I S H E D BETW E E N R E LA T I O N TH I S REPRESSION OPERATES BY A DOUBLE TABOOS A N D OBSERVANCES I N REGARDS T O T H E TOTEM. BUT THE APPARENT R E A LITY OF THIS DANGER. M U ST HAVE LED F R E U D T O CONC E I V E IT AS E X P E R I E NCED FI RST F O R ITS R E A L VALUE. I N T U R N TH E OBJ ECT OF I N V IOLA B I LITY A N D SAC R I FICA L ORGY. J U STI F I E D BY REGRESSIVE A N D REPRESSIVE ENDS THAT A R ISE AT T H I S MOMENT OF OEDIPUS. AND THEN R ECOGNIZED IN A FEAR ADVENC E M E NT WOULD K NOWLEDGE O F MAN. INTUITIONS W E H A V E J UST PRESENTED. I N THIS WAY FREUD R E C E I V E D A SUPPRORT FOR A S O C I O LOG I C A L GIVEN: N OT O N LY DOES THE STRATE T H A T TH E ORDER OF THE H U M A N F A M I LY HAS SOME FOUNDATIONS PRESERVED FROM THE I NTERDICTION O F I N CEST WITH T H E MOTH ER HAVE A U N I V ERSAL CHA RACTE R (ACROSS THE I N F I N ITELY DIVERSE AND OFTEN P A R A DOX I C A L FAMILY FORC E OF T H E M A LE. OUT OF WHICH TOGETH ER WITH THE TABOO OF T H E MOTH ER. THUS A FANTASY FATHE R'S POWE R OVER WOM E N B Y THE M U RDER­ E RS. THIS I N T E R D ICTION A LW A Y S E X PRESSLY FOR M U LATED A N D ITS TRANSG R ESSION I S STRUCK WITH CONSTA N T REPROBATION. H OW E V E R .TH E CASTRATION COMPLEX ZATION THE OF N U B I L E WOM E N . COM B I N E D WITH TH E FACT THAT THE THREAT IS R E A LLY FORMU LATED BY AN PERMA N E NT TYRRANY E X E RCISED B Y TH E C H I E F O F T H E HORDE. I N FACT BY TH E FATH ER. THAT THE G R EAT H A RVEST O F FACTS W H I C H T H E O E D I PAL C O M P L E X H A S LEO T O BE O B J ECTI F I E D OVER TH E PAST F I FTY YEARS R E LATI ONS THAT P R I M IT I V E C U LTU R E S I M P RESS WITH TH E TABOO OF INCEST) BUT N O MATTER WHAT THE LEVEL OF MORAL C O N SC I E N C E IS IS IN A COULD C L A R I FY THE PSYCHOLOGICAL STRUCTU RE OF THE F A M I LY F U RT H E R THAN TH E H A ST Y C I V I LIZATION. S O R E MARK­ A B L E THAT IT WAS I N DI V I D U A LIZED WITH T H E M I N A COM PLEX CALLED CASTRATION. IF THIS TERM IS P R I MORDIAL EVENT. THIS IS WHY FRAZ I E R U NCOV E R E D THE P R I MOR I D I A L LAW OF H U M A N I TY I N THE TABOO OF THE MOTH ER. SUFFERED IN RETU R N . PRISON E R S OF AN I N SOLUBLE RIVALRY: A U N D E RLIES THESE TWO MOV E M E NTS. C A STRATE THE MALE. PREC I S E ­ LY WHAT N E E D S TO B E B I O L OG I C A L EXPLA I N E D-TH E S E S O ­ N A M ELY THE M U TI LATION OF A M E M B E R. T H A T I S T O S A Y I N A M A LT R E A TM E N T THAT CAN ONLY SERVE TO CALLED P R E M I S ES .

PASSING THROUGH OF A DOUBLE. THE FI RST OBJ ECT OF THE TENDENCI ES. S E N T I M E NTS OF STRANG E N E S S . THIS POI N T OF PRIMITIVE SINCE IT DRIVES. A DIM ENSION WHICH. ROLE SEXUAL A D A PTATION MATELY AS PARA LLEL. INTUITIONS OF PARTICI PATION. OPERATES THROUGH A T R I A N G U L A R CONFLICT I N THE S U B J ECT: W E H A V E ALREADY S E E N THE PLAY OF T E N D E NC I E S THAT ARISE OUT O F W EA N I N G IN ORDER TO E ST A B L I S H THIS A NORM CAN OF LIVED BE [SEVRAGEI PRODUCE A FORMATION OF TH I S SORT: IT IS A LSO THE MOTH E R. WHICH CONFORM S T O THE ACTIVITY OF T H E M A LE. BUT I N V E R S E LY. AS FOOD TO BE A BSORB E D A N D EVEN AS BREAST I N WHICH TO B E R E A BS OR B E D. AND HERE WE SEE THE I N FLUENCE ON A OF THE PSYCHO­ AND LOGI C A L COM P L E X V I TA L R E LATI O N . WHICH IS FI RST OFFERED UP TO'1H E OEDIPAL D E S I R ES. MATU RATION OF S E X U ALITY THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY THE PSYCHICAL A P P A R ATUS OF S E X U A LITY IS FI RST REVEALED IN THE C H I LD IN THE MOST A B B E RANT FOR M S RELATIVE TO ITS BIOLOG I C A L E N DS. SEEMS TO BECOME. THUS ONE U N D E RSTA N D S THAT OEDIPAL DESIRE IS EXPERIENCE.SPECIFIC INCIDENCE IN MAN. IN A D D ITION. VU. FALS E S ENTI­ T E N D E N C I ES NOT M E RELY PSYCHOLOGICAL I M PASSE: H E R E. D I M ENSION ONLY RECONSTRUCTED B Y M ETAPHORICAL I NTUITIONS: A D E N S ITY THAT C O N F E R S E X I ST EN C E ONTO THE OBJ ECT. AND I NF L U ­ M E A N I NG. AND A LSO I N S PI R ES IN US A RESPECT FOR IT. WHAT IT B R I NGS TO REALITY IS REVEALED IN TERMS OF AN INTELLEC­ TUALIST PSYCHOG E N ESIS: A CERTA I N EMOTIONA L D E PT H TO THE OBJ ECT. THE MATU RATION CONDITIONS OEDIPAL COM PLEX B Y FOR M I NG ITS F U N DA M E NTA L TENDENCI ES. BUT ALSO THAT IT A LLOWS H I M A S I N G U L A R OPPORTUN ITY FOR THE R E ACTIVISATION OF THE WEAN I NG TENDENCIES. BUT H I S D I M ENSION I S SHOWN I N T H E VACI LLATI O N S OF R E A LITY T H A T F E RT I L I Z E BETTER CHA RACTERIZED I N TH E M A L E . THUS O N E A RRIVES FROM AT T H E SEX OF A M B IGUOUS CONCLUSION THAT TO THE T H E OTH E R. A N EMOTIONAL A BOLITION GERMAN VERLUSTI. G E N ITAL THE Q U A L I T I E S OF IN TH E L I V E D E X P E R I E N C E BY B E TT E R DETAC H E S ITSELF F ROM V A R I A TIONS Q U A L I TY OF VITAL E N E RGY 1 93 . BY PSYCHOA N A LY S I S D I V E R SE E X P LA I N S THESE EXTR E M ELY O F OBJ ECT. WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN DISTI N G U I S H E D FROM IT A S P HENOM ENON I F THE TREATM ENT OF ME NTAL I LLNESSES HAD NOT MADE U S GRASP IT A S SUCH-A P H E N O M E NON-BY ADVANC I N G A N ENTIR E FAVORS SEXUALITY B Y D I R ECTING I T TOWARD ITS OBJECTS. WHICH IS FO R M A LLY D E S IG N A T E D I N MATE R N A L OBJECT-THE DIVE RSION O F A PART OF THE O E D I PA L DESIRE C E RTA I N LY T E N DS TO A S THE LOSS O F THE OBJECT (OBJEKT· N E UTRALIZE THE POTENTIAL OF THE COM PLEX. JAMAIS RECOGNITIONS. THE B UT. D R I V E S THAT ARE N A RC I SSISTIC. I LLUSIONS M E NTS OF D I V I N ITY. ON THE CONTRARY. FROM THI S PONT T H E COMPLEX CONTR I BUTES TO THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY. T H E COMPLEX FORMING T H E B A S I S OF A L L SUBJECTIVE COMPRE­ H E NSION. IN THE OTH E R SEX. COMPLEX IN THE IF THE MORE TH E THE BUT SHOU LD BE I NTE­ GRATED INTO A THESE MORE R I GOROUS C O N C E PTION OF R E LATIONS: THE ROLE OF STRUCTU R A L ONE MATU RATION PLA Y E D BY TH E COMPLEX ON EACH OF TH E S E PLA N E S CAN O N LY BE T A K E N A P PROXI­ FORMATION RISKIER I TS ACC USED. THE SUCCESSION OF TH E S E FOR M S I S EVIDENCE THAT S E X U A LITY BY C O N FO R M S A TO THE G E NITAL ORGA N IZATION THIS SEXUAL PROGRESSIVE M ATU RATION. W H E N IT A PPEARS DECOM POSE D LIKE ONE OF THE S E NTI­ MENTS THAT FO R M THE SPECTRE OF U N R E A LITY. THE MOV E M E NT OF THE OEDIPUS COMPELX SERIES O F ITS DEGRADATIONS TO T H E L I M ITS OF UNDERSTA N D I NG. DOES AND A LL T H E TO MOR E E A S I LY TH E INCIDENCE I S C E RTA I N LY KNOWN TO THE THEORE­ TIC I A N S AS THE REPRESSION O F SEXUALITY AND THE SUBLIMATION OF REALITY. AND T H E R E BY I M PO S I N G DRIVE ITS A S E X U A LIZATION CHANGE E F F ECTS. THAT IS TO SAY DO A SEXUAL REGRESSION. WHERE ENCE. B EG I N N I N G WITH DEJA VU. NOT HAVE REVERSE ATTITUD E OF I N T E R N A LI ZATION I N H E R I T E D FROM THEM. THEY OPPOSE TH E M S E LV E S P A R T I C U LA R LY TO THE ATTITU D E O F EXTE RIOR IZATION. A P E R S PECTI V E W H I C H GIVES US A S E N S E O F I T S D I STANCE. AND ENDING UP THESE TENDENCIES H AV E A POS S I B L E I S S U E I N THE B I OLOG I C A L D E STI N Y OF THE S U B J E C T-T H E W I T H T H E TWILIGHT OF T H E WORLD. THESE CON STITUTE A [FECON DITEI D E LI R I U M: W H EN THE OBJECT TENDS TO CONFUSE ITSELF WITH THE EGO WHILE AT THE SAME TI M E ABSORBI NG ITSELF I N FANTASY.

TH E THE ROLE FATH E R IN WOU LD TWO HAVE A PROTO­ ON OFFERED BY THIS CATH E X I S THE ANA LYST M UST BASE THE I N D ICATION OF T H E TREATMENT. THIS ATTITUDE IS CHA RACTERIZED BY THE TERMS OF G I FT lDONI AND SAC R I FICE.I D E A L CONTRIBUTES T O THE SEXUAL CONFOR M I SM OF TH E PSYC H E . I N G E N I O U S L Y D Y N A M I ST AT REMAINS CLOSED BY C RYSTA LLIZE T H E V I T A L R E LATION TO R E A LITY. U P T O DEVORA­ TION AND S H ROUDI NG. E M A SC U LATION TO D I S E M BOWLING. M A RKED LACK C O N FO R M S TO IN THE A NALYTIC DOCT R I N E : THAT IT WOULD SEEM TO B E E R RONEOUS. D I S LO C A T I O N D I S M E M B E R MENT. TH I S I S A G E N ES I S W H I C H . THUS HAVE R EC OG N I Z E D I N DI C E S O F AN A N A LYSTS OVE R LY N A RC ISSISTIC I N V E STMENT OF THE L I B I DO THROUGH THE SYMPTOMS C IT E D ABOVE. VERBAL A GIVEN MAY APPEAR. G R A N DIOSE T E R M S. R EQU I R E S SUCH A S U R C H A RG E OF M EC H A N I SM S FOR ITS PRACTICE P S Y C H OG E N E S I S . I N O D E R T O OBSERVE I N BOTH S E X E S THE E X I STENCE O F THE S A M E FANTASY IN A S M A LL G I R L O R OF A PHALLIC I M AGE OF TH E MOTH ER. THESE EFFECTS A R E P E R PETUATED U N D E R FOR M S DESIGNATED I D E A L. THE ATTI TUDE WOULD H A V E I N DICATED THAT TH I S CONC E PTION R E STS ON T H E FANTASY OF CA STRATION. IT I S A BOVE A L L THAT BECAUSE F R E U D . I N THAT I T R E DUCES I M AGES TO A STATE OF LATENCY U NT I L PUBERTY: IF IT DETER­ M INES A CON D ENSATION IT IS OF R E A LITY I N TH E M A N N E R WHOSE A M BI V A L E N C E IS TO ITS A RC H A I S M . T H E CHILD TO CONCE I V E O F ITS MOTH E R A S V I R I LE. LET US SAY. A S P I R I NG TO T H E SEC R ET OF T H E M A T E R N A L B R E A ST. THEY R E P RODUCE THE I M AGO OF TH E P A R E N T OF THE S A M E SEX. THE A N A LYTIC EXPER­ IENCE OFFERS A CONTRI BUTION TO THE STUDY OF M ENTAL FO R M S BY D E M ONSTRATING TH E I R C O N D IT I O N A L O R SOLU­ TH E M A TE R I A LS O F THE A DI FFERENT A N A LYTIC E X PE R I E N C E I N T E R P R ETATION: THE FANTAS I E S OF FRAGM ENTATION R E LA T I O N . THE D I S I NTERESTED EXTENS ION TO TH I S R E A LITY. THE OEDI DPAL COM PLEX IS A LSO THE PROV I NCE OF TIVE FOR M OF P E N ETRATION. THUS THE EGO. IT S U G G E STS B ECOMES POSSI B L E TO ESTAB L I S H A STE A D I E R R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N I T S FUNCTION A N D THE FANTASY C A STRATION I S I N E FFECT PRECEDED B Y A S E R I E S O F FANTA S I E S OF BODI LY FRAGMENTA­ TION WHICH R E G R E S S I V E LY TO P R OC E E D F R O M THROUGH STR UCTUR E OF THE D R A M A ESSENTI A L TO IT. TRADITIONAL ATO M I S M T O T H E NOTION O F T H E ATOM I S M OF FORMS. OF TY P I C A L THESE FU NCTIONS ACCOUNT OF T H E DO M I NATION OF T H E M A LE. THROUGH THESE TERMS A BOLD CONCE PTION R E D I SCOVERS THE SECRET COM FORT OF A MORAL THEME: I N THE PASSAGE BETWEEN C A PT I V I TY AND OBLAVITY TH E VITA L TEST A N D T H E MORAL TEST A R E WANTONLY CONFUSED. IN T E R M S OF THE R E P R ESSION OF S E X U A LITY. ACCORDING TO ITS NO R M A L TYPE. F A CTS HE IS CONSTR A I N E D TO EXPLA I N THESE R E V E LA T I O N S OF T H E BETWEEN DEFENSE AND R E N U NCIATION. R E V E L ATIONS THAT WOULD L E A D THE LITTLE GIRL TO NOSTA LGI A FOR V I R I LITY.I N V ESTED FO R M U L A . PROPORTIONAL D I R ECTION OF LIFE. R E SPONDS I NTO AS TO THE OBJECT AS IN BY IT DESIRE. I MAGO BUT ACCOR D I NG TO THE DOCTR I N E. WHILE THE FOR M ATION OF THE O E D I P U S COMPLEX APPEARED A S TH E MOMENT AND THE PROOF OF A CATHEXIS SUFFICI ENT FOR THE TRANSFE RENCE. E V E N THOUGH THIS R E LA TlON IS LIVED BY TH E S U BJECT IN A R E PRESSION. N EGLECTI NG THE STR UCTU R E I N ORDER TO BENEFIT THE DYNA M I C . BY P R EC OC I O U S OF THE D O M I N AT I O N MALE.W H E T H E R TIONA L-TO THE A FFECTIV E C R I SES. S U BLIMATION A LSO THE MOMENT OF HIS OWN B U T R E S E A R C H E RS W H O H A V E B E S T U N D E R STOOD WHERE MAN OPENS 1 94 . T H U S . THE E XA M I N ATION OF THESE R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY FANTA S I E S R E V E A LS THAT THEY ARE I N SC R I B E D I N A S I ". HOW E V E R . I N O R D E R TO THIS CONCE PTION CAN IT DEFINE AN A N A LOGICAL THE M OST F I N O BASIS I N I D ENTI FICATION. AS THE TO SUPE REGO WHICH AND THE EDO­ PSYC H O A N A L YT I C PRACTICE: PSYCHOANA LYSTS MUST RECKON WITH TH I S CATH E X I S ENCES IN THE OPERATION A L TRANSFER­ C U R E: WITH THE R ESO U R C E S ACCORDING THEY ARE EITHER OF T H E I R UNCONSCIOUS O R CONSCIOUS FOR THE SUBJECT. I F THE DOCTRI N E FOU N D E D G E N IT A L TENDENCY R E F E R S T O A R E A L THR EAT. BY DIFFEREN­ TIATING THE FOR M A L GA M E OF THE COM PLEX. WE THIS TH E ROLE O F O E D I P U S WOU L D COR RELATE WITH M ATURATION BY TH E O F S E X U A LITY. BUT ONES WHOSE MEAN ING REMAINS A M B I G U O U S A N D H E S ITA NT I DE N T I F Y I N G TE N D E N C I ES. U LTANEOUSLY DESTRUCTIVE A N D I NVESTIGA­ IF IT MA RKS THE S U M M I T OF I N FANT SEXUALITY.

T H E FORM OF T H I S OF E D U C A TI O N . ONE M UST RECALL THE IMAGINARY PLAY THAT CONDITIONS TH E FANTASY OF CASTRATION. NAM ELY OF T H E FORM IT HAS DISCOVE RED H E R E­ I DENTIFICATION. BORN B E FO R E EITHER ANY MARKING OF THE ACTU A L BODY O R A'NY DISTINCTION OF THE TH R EAT FROM TH E A D U LT. WHICH ARISE FROM THE PREMATU RATION. N A M ELY THE MOTH ER.A P P A R E N T L Y CONTRARY TO THE THEORY-THAT THE STRICTNESS WITH WHICH TH E S U P E R EGO I N H I BITS THE FUNC­ TH E MATERNAL ORIGIN OF THE ARCHAIC S U P E R EGO TIONS OF TH E S U BJ ECT TENDS TO BE ESTABLISHED IN INVERSE PROPORTION TO TH E REAL SEVERITI E S TH E FA NTASY OF CASTRATION R E LATES TO THIS SAME OBJ ECT. THE FA NTASY R E P R E ­ SENTS THE D E F E N S E T H A T TH E N A RC I S I STIC EGO­ I D E NTI F I E D WITH ITS M I RROR DOUBLE-DPPOSES TO THE R E NEWAL OF T H E A N X I ETY THAT TENDED TO D I STUR B IT AT THE F I RST MOM ENT OF O E D I PUS: A CRISIS WHCH DOES NOT C A U S E TH E I RR U PTION OF GENITAL DESI R E IN THE S U B J ECT AS M U C H AS I N THE OBJECT T H A T IT R EACTUALIZES. AUTHORITY O F THE A D U LT: OTH ERWISE O N E COULD NOT U N D E R S T A N D T H E F A C T . T H E I R I NT E REST LI ES I N TH E EVIDENT U N R E A LITY OF TH E I R STRUCTU RE: THE EXAMINA­ R I T E S OF C I R C U M C I S. TO U N D E RSTA N D THIS.10N. SUCH A GENESIS OF SEXUAL R E P R E SSION IS NOT W I T H O U T S O C I O L OG I C A L R E F E R EN C E : IT IS IN THIS. THR O UGH THE PROGRESS IN WH ICH THE CHILD R E A LI Z E S THE R E P R E SSIVE AGENCY IN THE M A ST E R Y ACTUAL BODY CORPS PROPREI.THE MATE R N A L ORIGINS OF TH E S E F A N TA S I E S SEXUALITY. THAT IS TO SAY I N A N I M AG I N A RY LOCALIZATION OF T H E DRIVE. W H I C H S A N CTION SEXUAL IN ORDER TO MATU RITY. ON ACCOUNT OF TH E INDENTI FICATION OF THE S U BJECT WITH THE I M AGO OF THE PARENT OF TH E SAME SEX. THE NOSTA LGI A FOR MATE R N I TY IN THE BOY. A TROPHY OF M E M B E RS WHE R E ONE M UST RECALL THE N A RCIS­ SISTIC OBJECT WHOSE G E N E S I S HAS BEEN EVOK ED EARLIER: CONDITIONED I N MAN BY THE P R EC ESSION OF I MAGINARY OF FO R M S THE OF TH E BODY [LE ON THE COU NTER DRIVES THAT REVEAL THEMSELVES TO THE A N A LYTIC E X P E R I ENCE I N ORDER TO CONSTI­ TUTE TH E M OST ARCHAIC KERNEL OF THE SUPEREGO AND TO REPRESENT THE MOST MASSIVE REPRESSION. DESIGNATE BY T H E I R ORGIASTIC FORM TH E MOMENT OF A FFECTI VE R E INTEGRATION I N TO THE WHOLE: ( M E LA N I E KLE I N ) A R E O N LY CON C E R N E D W I T H THE SYMM ETRY A N D THE EXTENSION THAT THEY BRING TO THE FORMATION O F OEDIPUS.I D E A L C A N R E V E A L TO E X P E R I E N C E SUBLIMATION OF R E A LITY R E PRODUCTION O P E R AT E S ACCORD I N G T O T H E STR UCTURE THAT H E HAS ACQU I RED. THE DOCTR I N E S E E S THE FACT OF A SECONDARY N A R C I S S I S M : IT DOES NOT DISTINGU I S H THIS P A R T I C U LA R I D E N T I F I C AT I O N F R OM T H E EXPRESSED I N THE P R I MITIVE RITUALS W H E R E THE L I N K BETWEEN TH I S R E P R ESSION A N D T H E ROOTS OF ALL SOCIA L BONDS IS M A N I F E STED: C ELEBRA­ TION R I TES WHICH. R E V E A L I NG. B U T I N ST E A D TO A MANNEQUIN. A H E T E ROC L I T E TO DEFIN E TH IS G E N E S I S OF REPRESSION OF THE PSYCHOLOGICAL PLA N E . ACTUA LLY. IN ORDER TO L I BERATE NARCISSISTIC ONE. FOR US. T H E R E I S A LSO A N ASS I M I LA ­ TION OF THE S U B J ECT TO T H E O B J E C T: TH E DOCTRI N E S E E S NO D I F F ERENCE OTH ER THAN T H E 1 9!! . SHOW THAT THE PE RSONA REACHES THEM ON LY AT THE PRICE OF CORPORAL MUTI LIATION. B Y T H E DEFENSE V A L U E T H E SUBJECT GIVES TO THESE OBJECTS AGA I N ST TH E A N X I ETY OF VITAL DESTRUCTION. TH I S FORC E DISTRI B UTES ITSELF WITH THE DIFFERENCIATION OF TH I S FORM. TRAITS CONFORM I NG T O T H E PARTICULARITIES O F THI S IMAGO. THE SUPEREGO A N D EGO. GO B E Y O N D TH E I R EDUCATIONA L T R A D ITION. IT I S IN THE RADICAL FORM OF BAROQUE DOLL. A LT H O U G H THE S U PE R EGO ALREADY RECEIVES TRACES O F REAL ITY FROM THE MATERNAL R E P R ESSION ALONE (TOILET-TR A I N I N G AND WEANING D I SC I P L I N E ) IN THE OEDI PUS OBJECT DOES N O T D E P E N D ON T H E S E X OF T H E S U BJ ECT A N D I N STEAD DETE R M I N E S T H A T IT DOES NOT SUFFER FROM THE FOR M U LA S OF TH E COM P L E X T H E S E T R A C E S NARCISSISTIC FORM . BUT T H I S TH E ROLE OF THE COMPLEX I N THE SUBLI MATION OF R EALITY I S NOW I NTRODUCED. THE S U B J ECT R E S PONDS TO THIS ANXI ETY THAT THE OBJECT REAWAKENS B Y R EPRODUC I N G THE M ASOCHI STIC R E J ECTION TH ROUGH W H I C H H E S U R MOUNTED HIS P R IMORDIAL LOSS. THAT IS TO SAY. TION OF THESE FANTASIES FOUN D I N D R E A M S AND C E RTA I N I M PULSES A L LOWS FOR THE A F F I RMATION THAT THEY HAVE A B SOLUTELY NO R E LATION TO A R E A L B O D Y . IN THE MOTH E R THE OBJECT THAT DETERMIN E S IT. FOR EXAMPLE. O N E M U ST B E G I N A T THE POINT WHERE T H E DOCTR I N E P R E S ENTS A SOLUTION T O T H E DRAMA.

THE A C TU A L STRUCT U R E OF T H E O E D I P A L D R A M A D E S I G N A T E S T H E FATHE R A S G I V I N G TO T H E FU NCTION OF S U BL I M ATION I T S E M I N E NT A N D MORE THIS FACT DEFINES THE O R I G I N A L I T Y OF T H E PURE FOR M . THE SUBJ ECT. BUT. T H I S MOME NT. TO A BETTER FO R M ED EGO. AS M UC H IN T H E ROLE OF M A S K E D P R E S E N C E PLAYED BY THE D R I V E A S BY THE FORM IN W H I C H IT ASSU M E D THE OBJECT. IN THE OEDIPAL I D E NTIFICATION THE MOTH E R ACTU A L LY BETRAYS THE OEDPIAL I DE N T I F I C ATION. B U T. IN ORDER TO I M POSE ITSELF ON THE OBSTACLE TO DES I R E. THUS. I F THE FU NCTION O F T H E CO N SC I E N C E S E E M S TO A NG U I S H . S I NC E EXPE RIENCE SHOWS THAT T H E ACTION OF THE S U PEREGO AGAI NST THE R E P ET I T I O N S OF THE AS TENDENCIES REMAINS TENDENCIES AS TYPE FO S U B L I MATION. A R ETU R N TO A N I M P E RFECT I NTROJECTION OF T H E OBJ ECT. T H I S SA M E FORM I S E V I D E N T I N E A C H C R I S I S W H E R E T H E CONDEN SATION HIGHER U P) (WHOSE E N I G M A WE H A V E POSE D ITSELF: T H I S LIGHT O F U NC O N S C I O U S THE R EM A I N PRODUC ES R E P R E SSED. WHAT THE ANTINOMY OF TH E O P PO S I T I O N T O IT AS A N I D E A L THAT A LTERNATIVE­ LY EXA LTS AND D E P R ESSES IT. ORIGI N A LITY OF T H E O E D I P A L I DENTI FICATION BRINGS A S EC U R ITY TO THE EGO BY STRE NGT H E N ­ ING THIS FRAME. IT SEEMS TO I NDICATE . I N O R D E R T O CONTA I N THE I N D E F I N I T E V I RT U A L I TIES O F ITS P ROGRESS. TH E FRUSTRATION OF THIS DE S I R E COULD R E S U LT I N THE SUBJ ECTS RETU RN TO HIS P R I MORDIAL VORACITY OF N EW R E A LITY. I N C A U S I NG THE OBJ ECT T O A R I S E A S ONE WHOSE POSITION IS SITUATED AS AN A S S I M I LATION. O N ONE H A N D. MORE OBJECT OF DESI R E W ITH THE OEDIPAL THE COMPLE X-TH AT WHICH IT IS NOT THE MOMENT OF IN ITS A LO N G DESIRE ESTA B L I S H E S T H E OBJECT D E S I R E . IN THE TWO EXCLUSIONS OF THE U NCON­ OBJECT A PPEARS T O T H E EGO AT O N C E AS T H E S U P PO RT O F ITS D E F E N S E A N D T H E E X A M PLE OF I T S TR I U M PH. AND THAT OF EXPRESS WE CANNOT STRESS ENOUGHT THAT THE OBJECT OF I D E NTI FICATION DES I R E. T H E I D E NT I F I CATION OF T H E P R O P I T I ATORY. B U T A S A POLE TO T H E C R EATIONS OF PASSION. OF THE IF TH E FUTURE TENDENCY RESOLVED UNDER TWO MAJOR FOR M S WHERE ANALYSIS H A S LEA R N E D TO R E C OG N I ZE I T . AND PROPOSES I T N O LON G E R A S A M E A N S TO T H E SATI SFACTION OF D E S I R E . S H E LT E R E D B Y I T S OWN M I SCON­ C E PT I O N IDEAL [ M E C O N N A I S S A N C E 1 . IT I S BY R E D UC I NG A G A I N S U C H A N OBJECT THAT E X P E R I E N C E A TTA I N S A L L I T S D E PTH. BUT AT TH E SAME TIME IS IN HOWEVE R A MORE STRUCTU R A L AN ALYSIS OF T H E OEDI P A L I DENTI FICATION A LLOWS ONE T O RECOG­ NIZE WITH I N IT A MORE IS DISTI NCTIVE FO RM. R E P R E S E N TS PREPA RATION RETU R N . THE I M AGO OF T H E FATH E R HENCE. S HOWS IT TO BE COLORED BY A T R A N SG R E S S I O N F E LT AS D A N G E ROUS. A N D THROUGH W H ICH IT STI LL C A N CONFUSE ITSELF W I T H THE OTH E R. MASOC H I STIC THE M I M ETIC HAS BECOME SA DO­ FROM OBJECT OF THE PARTICI PATION DISENGAGES THE SUBJECT. S I N C E T H E EGO­ IN THE PATH S C O N SC I E N C E FOR ITS IS THE S U R P R I S E T R A N S F I G U R E S A N OBJECT B Y D ISSOLV­ ING ITS EQU I V A L E N C E S IN A S U BJ ECT. O N T H E OTH E R H A N D . TH E PRIM ITIVE OBJECT O F D E S I R E S E E M S T O B E CON J U R E D AWAY. T H E I M AGO I S JUXTA POSED ONLY T O T H E EGO.N A M E LY U NCON­ THUS. THEN THE FUNCTION O F THE EXAMPLE A PPEARS TO BE THE ORIGIN A L CONTRI BUTION OF THE O E D I PA L COMPLEX.I N I MAGO OF THE 1 96 . BUT THAT WHICH OBJECT OF DESI RE IN THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE. A N D I N T H E FORMATION O F THE EGO. ACCORDING TO THE CON STANTS OF H E DO N I S M . HERE IS NOT T H E O B J E C T OF I S OPPOSED TO TH E PRI MORDI A L EQU IVALENC E R E F LECTS N A RC I S S I STIC CONF LICT. A SERIES IN OF A NTI NOMIC S U B JECT FUNCTIONS BY THE ARE SCIOUSNESS A N D M I S U N D E RSTANDI NG-TH E I M AGO ITSELF A PP E A R S U N D E R TWO STRUCTU RES WHOSE DISPA RITY REALITY. THE I MAGO PRESERVES T H I S FU NCTION.CONSTITUTION OF ONE O P P OS I N G I T S E LF. APPEARS AT FIRST THIS MOMENT OF OEDI P U S PROVIDES THE PROTO­ FU NCTION W H I C H PLAYS THE P A R ENTAL I M AGO I N THE S U B JECT. TH I S I S W H Y I T N O R M A L L Y C O M E S T O F I L L TH E FRAME OF THE D O U B L E W H E R E TH E E G O F I RST I D E NTI F I ES ITSE LF. T A K I N G ITS D ISTANCE FROM HIM I N THE N E W A M B I G UITY O F F E A R A N D LOVE. THE I M AGO I N H I B ITS SEXUAL FUNCTION. B U T THE MOMENT OF THE SUBJ ECTS N A RC I S S I STIC D E F E N S E . I T DOES SO I N A N UNCONSCIOUS FORM . THE OBJECT SCIOUS AND THE I D E A L. BUT I N T H I S STE P TOWARD REALITY. DEFINES TH E F I R ST SUBLIMATION OF CON STITUTED TH E MAJOR C R I SES O F H U M A N R E A LITY.

PLAYS AS A MORE F A M I LI A R ROLE OF TENDS TO TU R N I NTO A F E E L I N G O F R E P R ESSION FOR ITS BA N K R U PTCY AND I N TO A SYSTEMATIC CONCE R N FOR T H E M I RROR I M AGE. SO T H E SUBLI M ATION OF THE M A T E R N A L I M AGO FACT: I F T H E MATE R N A L U N C L E PRACTICES T H E SOCI A L S PO N SOR S H I P A S GUA R D I A N OF FA M I LY­ R ELATED TABOOS A N D I N ITIATOR OF T R I B A L R I TES. 1 97 . A T THE S A M E TIME TENDS TO A R R E ST THE PROGRESS OF R E A LITY BY FREEZING IT. PATRON A G E . BY STEREOTYPE MARKS PERSONA LITY IS OPPOSE D TO T H E H A R MONY THAT IT CARRIES W I TH I N . BUT H E I N N O WAY A UTHORIZES THE PARODISTIC M I RAGE LOGI ST MUST AGA I N ST WHICH T H E SOCIO­ THE OF SECLUSION I N T E G R I TY . SEPARATION OF FUNCTIONS I M PLIES A DIFFERENT EQU I L I B R I U M OF THE PSYC H E ATTESTE D TO BY THE AUTHOR TH ROUGH THE LACK OF N E U ROSI S H E OBSE RV E D I N T H E G ROU PS O F THE NORTH-WEST I S L A N D S O F IBRIUM FORTU NATELY COMPLEX MELANSIA. IT I S ON THE CONTR A RY. BECA USE T H E PATE RNAL I MAGO I S INVESTED BY R E PRESSION IT PROJECTS THE COMPLEX A N D ITS SOCIOLOGICAL R E LATIVITY ITS ORIG I N A L FORCE I N THE WHICH SHOULD VERY S U B L I M ATIONS IT: THE OEDI PUS OVERCOME COMPLEX ACQU I R E S S O M UC H FEC U N DITY [FECON­ I F I T APPEA R E D IN ITS PSYCHOLOG I C A L A N A LYSIS THAT OEDI PUS M UST B E U N DERSTOOD IN T E R M S OF ITS N A RC I SS I STIC A NTECEDENTS.INTERFERENCE OF THE PRIMORDIAL I D E NTIFICA­ IN MATR IARCHAL C U LT U R E S . LEGA L DETER M I N A T I O N . W E C A N STRESS THE PHYSICA L L E S I O N S IN THE D I M I N UTIVE FOR M S OF TH I S I MAGO (ESPECIA LLY THOSE WHICH THIS MASTER OF T EC H N I Q U E S AND EXAMPLE OF D A R I NG I N B U S I N ESS. BY N EG LE C T CONCENTRATI N G T H E CONDITIONS OF T H E FUNC­ TIONA L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS IN THE CONJUGAL F A M I LY. DISCHARGED FROM ALL R E PRESSIVE F U NCTION . THIS ANTINOMY PLAYS IN T H E I N D I V I D U A L DRAMA. THIS I S NOT TO SAY THAT IT IS BASED OUTS I D E OF SOCIOLOGICAL RELATIVITY. HERE W E WILL SEE IT CONFI R M E D BY T H E EFFECTS O F DECOMPOSI­ TION: BUT THESE EFFECTS OF PROG RESS. WHEN THESE F U N CTIONS N E UROSES THREAT OF FORCE. FA M I LY. AT THE D E ATH A LW A Y S THAT DEFEND THE H I M S E LF: C R E AT I O N S WHATEV E R STAGE O F D E V E LOPMENT I T APPEARS A N D ACCOR D I N G TO THE DEGREE O F COMPLETION OF O E D I PUS. REINTEGRATE BY THE S OC I A L D I A L E C T I C I NTO THE ENGENDERED MATR I A RCHY A N D P A T R I A RCHY THIS CONFLICT PSYCHOLOGICAL PROGRESS. KNEW HOW TO P E N ETRATE THE PSYC H I C I N C I D E N C E S OF T H I S I M PO S E S T H I S M E N TA L F R A G M E N TA T I O N W H E R E O N E C A N D E FI N E HYSTER I A O N BODILY F UNCTIONS. THE FAMILIAL TIONS. I N TH E G I RL. THIS EQU I L­ THAT THE S OC I A L PRESENT THE I MAGO A S C R I PPLING O R B L I N D I NG) I N ORDER T O DEVIATE T H E E N E RGY O F S U B L I M ATION FROM ITS CREATIVE IN D I R ECTION IDEAL OF AND FAVOR ITS D E MONSTRATES IS R E LA T I V E OEDIPAL TO STRUCTU RE. O N T H E OTH E R H A N D . ONE ETHNOLOGIST WHO W A S G U I D E D BY H I S KNOWLEDGE OF PSYCHOA N A LYSIS. TH E MOST DECISIVE R E S U LT OF ITS DITEI BY TYI NG TOGETH E R THE PROGRESS OF THESE FUNCTIONS IN SUCH A N ANTI NOMY. SOME OF THE N A RC I S S I ST I C FATHER. SUCH TH AT IT I S ENOUGH T O I N DICATE THAT T H E FORM S REA LIZE THE V I R I L E I D E A L IN TH E BOY AND T H E V I R G I N A L I N THE G I R L.F R O M AND ART TO MORALS-IN TO THE S I M I LAR CULTURES. O N E M UST R E M E M ­ BER IN T H I S R E V E R S A L H O W M U C H T H E I M PU LSES OF SUBLIMATION ARE DOM I NA T E D TWO BY SOC I A L ARE R E PRESSION SEPARATED. T H E I M AGO OF THE FATH E R POLA R I Z E S T H E MOST P E RFECT FOR M S OF THE EGO-I D E A L I N BOTH S E XES. CON FOR M I NG R E F E R R I NG A G R EA T N U M B E R OF N E U ROSES A N D TH E I R G RAVITY TO S U C H C A USES. M A LI NOWS K I . I NTE­ PSYCHIC E FFECTS R E S I DES IN THE FACT THAT THE FU NCTION O F R E P R ESSION A S WELL A S THAT OF SUBLIMATION I S C O N C E NTRATED IN T H E I M AGO OF THE FATH E R : BUT TH I S IS A FACT THE OF SOC I A L GRATED A S THEY A R E IN AN I M M E N S E CULTURAL PATRIMONY. N O R M A L I DE A LS. T H E P S YC H O L O G I S T THESE FOR M S WHICH. THE FATH ER. T H E E X P E R I E N C E THUS CONTR A D ICTS T H E T H E O R E T I C A L O R I ENTA­ TION SUCH WHICH D E S I G NATES IN THE THE MAJOR AGENT OF PATE R N A L PRESENT THEORY OF O E D I PUS.I D E A L A S W E L L A S THE S U P E R EGO BY T H E FORMS AND THE A M BIVALENCE OF T H E S E I DENTI FICATIONS. THE FACT OF PATER N A L C R EATI V E C A N NOT I N S P I R A T I O N S . TO THE D EG R E E THAT I T DOM I NATES. DRAMA: GO M UC H FURTHER BEYOND THIS STATUTES. M A R K I N G T H E EGO. J UST A S TH E R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY MORE R E A D I LY AUTHORITY I S NOT R E PR E SENTED B Y THE FATH E R BUT OR D I N A R I LY BY A M A TE R N A L UNCLE.

W E THUS SEE THE EXIGENCIES OF THE P E R SO N AND THE OF OBLIGATION. W H I C H OPENS T H I S GROUP BY UNIVERSALIZING A N A LY S I S DOUBT THE B O N D. I N E F F ECT. MOR A LITY OF C H RISTIANTIY B Y B R I NG I NG I N TO T H E FO REGRO U N D TH E F R E E C H O I C E OF A PA RTN E R I N I F THEY WHICH REFER TO TH E R I TES OF SAC R I F I C E B Y (EVEN ATTA I N I NG A THE BOND OF M A RRIAGE. (AS IN THE I N V ESTIGATIONS OF BACH· ACCO R D I NG T O T H I S SOCIOLOGICAL REFERENCE. T H I S B E R E D BOD I E S A N D LIVE B U R IAL-IN MORE T H A N O N E M YTH THEY W I L L R E A D THAT THE A D V E N T O F PAT E R NA L A UTHORITY A NSWERS T O A TEMPERA· M E N T OF P R I M ITIVE SOCIAL R E PRESSION. A NO L E S S A M B I G UOUS REPRESENTATION OF THE E M A N C I PA T I O N OF E X P E R I E N C E AND I F THE PSYCHOA NA LYST R E D I S- 1 98 . THESE MYTHS ARE SITUATED AT THE E D G E OF H I STORY A N A LY S I S : ON E WE TAKE AS PROB L E M LIGHT STRUCTU R E THE FACT T H AT T H E H I STORY. THE CONCRETE FOR M OF PRI MORDIA L OBLIGATION IN THE I NT E R DICTION OF T H E MOTHER.D I S M E M ­ SECRET REVERSA L THE ADVA NTAGE PREPON DERANCE TO REVERSAL OF M A R RIAGE. A M I SSION R E A LI Z E D BY THE ALREADY REVOLU­ E V E R Y MOV E M E NT. T H E A POTHEOTIC E X A LTATION THAT C H RISTI A N ITY B R I N G S TO T H E E X I G E N C I E S OF THE P E RSON. SO I N T H E SAME WAY THEY CAN D E M O NSTRATE A REAL TWO F U NCTION S O F THIS PROCESS ARE R E F LECTED ON THE STRUCT U R E O F THE FA M I LY ITSELF: F I R ST. PROPOSE T H E M S E LVES T O T H E STU D Y OF PSYCHOA NA LYSIS. IN SO F A R A S I T I S PRODUCED E M I N E NTLY BY THE J E W I S H PEOPLE. A A B STRACT SOURCE NO D I SCOV E R S DOUBLE RETU R N E D AGAI NST THESE FO R M A L I S T TIONARY EXTENSION O F M O R A L PRIVE LEDGES FROM A PAT R I A RC H TO AN I M M E N SE PLEBACY AND ONTO ALL PEOPLE. THUS CAUSING THE PRIMITIVE C U LT U R E S FA M I L I A L I N STITUTION T O TAKE T H E D EC I S I V E STEP TOWA RDS ITS MOD E R N STRUCTU RE. I L L U M I N ATED WHEREAS THE IT ONLY MATR I A R C H A L C U LT U R E S A N D T H E STAGNATION OF P R I M ITIVE G RO U PS SEPA RATE T H E M . A N D SECOND. AND THE PSYC H O LOGY OF THE RELATIONS MAN BETW E E N THE THE PSYCHOLOGY F A M I LY OF MODE R N AND CONJUGAL ARE M E A N I NG DOES N O T A P PEA R A N Y L E S S I N THE MYTH OF O E D I P U S (IF O N LY WE DO NOT N EG L ECT T H E WHAT. T H I S WAS REA LIZED I N T H E F I FTEENTH CENTURY WITH THE ECONOMIC R EVOLUTION THAT PRODUCED THE BO U RG E O I S SOC I ETY MODERN MAN. P E R I PH E RA LLY MATR I A RC H I E S T H A T A R E "ON LY" A LWAYS S U B JACENT TO A N C I E N T C U LTU R E OFENl. A N D B Y ITS W I T H T H I S FACT W E U N I F Y T H E CRITICAL MOMENT THAT B E RGSON D E F I N E D IN T H E FOU N DATION S OF MORA LITY: I T I S K NOWN THAT H E RETU R N S TO ITS FU NCTION NOT H I N G OF SOCI A L D E F E N S E T H I S " A L L O R BY WHICH HE DES IG­ CON V U LS I V E ARCHAL B A TT L E TO M A I N TA I N THE THE PATRI­ I DE A L A G A I N ST I R R E P R E SS I B L E SEDUCTION O F TH E S E M A T R I A R C H I ES. HE RECOG N I Z E S IT IN P A T R I A RC H I A L PEOPLES: OPPOSITION TO A T R A N SC E N D E NT E LA N AN O F LIFE I N PROGRESS I S FOU N D I N T H E LEGAL FOR M S. T H I S M A N I S THE ONLY OBJECT THAT IT HAS T R U LY S U B M ITTED TO ITS E P I SODE OF T H E S P H I N X ) . THE PROPH ETIC I S M BY W H I C H B E R SON A PPEALS TO H I STORY. THE T R A D I TI O N IN THE PATR I C I A N I DEALS. T H E C H U RC H I NTEGRATED THIS TRADITION I NTO T H E FU NCTION A L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS. I L L USIONS. OF ITS N A M E LY T H E SOC I A LY E LEVATED CONCENTRATION) R E A L IZE T H E FANTASI ES OF T H E P R I M O R D I A L R E LATION OF THE M OT H E R WITH THE C R U E L E S T R I GO R . W H I C H I N T H E END FORMA LLY T I E S T H I S M E A N I NG T O AN E X P R E SSION OF PROM I S E . AC ROSS THE H I STORY OF TESTI MONY TO THIS N A TE S THE BON D THAT C LOSES TH E H U M A N GROUP U PO N ITS COH E R E NC E . T H E O P E N I N G I NTRODUCES A N I D E A L OF PROMISE I N TO REPRES­ SION. I F THE PSYCHOLOGI ST A N D T H E SOCIOLOG I ST C A N RECOG N IZE. OF PROC ESS O F "TH E OPE N I NG" OF THE SOCI A L BON D IN PATE R N A L A UTHOR ITY. N O W . BUT R E M A I N I NG L I M ITED T O TH E R E A C H OF A BSTRACTION. F A R FROM THE B I RTH OF H U M A N ITY FROM WHICH THE I M MEMORIAL CONTI N U AT I O N OF H I S TORICAL T R A D I TION ONLY FULLY STRUCK I N THE A N N A LS OF PATR I A R C H I E S. BY EXPE R I E NCE. LEDGIBLE IN T H E M YTH I C A M B I G U I TY OF TH E SAC R I F I C E OF ABRAHAM. C A N BE U N D E RSTOOD BY THE SITUATION O F B E I N G THE E L ECT PEOPLE-A SITUATION C REATED SINCE TH E I R GROUP W A S THE OPE N I NG OF T H E SOC I A L BON D R E P R E S E N T AT I V E O F P A T R I A R C H Y F O R OTH E R GROUPS D E VOTED T O M A T E R N A L C U LTS." U N I V E RSA LIZATION O F T H E I D E A L D I A LECTICALLY AFFIRMED IN S OC I ETY. SAYING THAT BY THE P R I V I L E DG E D FOR M S OF M A R R I AGE. WHATEV E R T H E I R FOR M . W H I C H ETER N A LIZE THE M I SS I O N E X P E R I ENCED BY ROME IN ITS CONSC I E N C E A S M UCH A S IN ITS POWER.THAT THE STUDY OF THESE IS ALREADY M U ST FOR M S R E LATES TO GIVEN A FOR OUR OF OF MATE R N A L TYRA N N I ES A N D THE D EC L I N E OF T H E R I T E OF ROY A L M U R D E R .

R EPRODUCES T H E PLAY OF N A RC I S S I STIC EQUIVA­ LENCES WHERE THE WORLD OF OBJECTS WAS BOR N . T H E FACT OF A SOCI A L E D UCATION WITH TOTA LITA R I A N C LA I M S DESERV E S TO BE PROPOSED TO THEOR ETIC I A N S NO MATTER W H AT SIDE THEY FOR MED TH A N NO L E S S BY T H E I M AGE OF THE A DU LT ITS THE C O N S T R A I NTS. WE A RE DEC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L I M AGO 1 99 . T H E A N G U I S H THAT M A N E X P RESSES I N THE SENTIM ENTS O F A TOW A R D SECOND. PARENT OR THE FERMENT THAT ONE CAN GRASP O N LY TH ROUGH CONCRETE A N A LYSIS. IT I S RECOGN IZED IN ORDER TO PRODU C E A POWER IN THE FA M I LI A L STRUCTU RE WHICH S U R PASSES ALL EDUCATIONAL RATIONA L­ ON THE OTH E R H A N D. A N D TO DO SO U N DER A FA M I LI A R FIGURE. TRANCE TO TH E C R EATIVE S U B V E RSION. IN T H I S THE PSYCH ISM IS IZATION. IN THE FORMATION OF MOST G R E A T MEN. THE AT THIS POINT ONE CAN EDUCATIONAL ACTION THAT THIS CRITICAL AND S U B V E R S I V E M OV E M E NT W H E R E MAN I S R E A L I Z E D F I N D S ITS M O S T ACTI V E K E R N E L I N THREE CON DITIONS O F T H E CONJ UGA L FA MI LY. I N OUR T I M E S. FOR T H E MOST COMMON OBSE RVATION. AND NOT TO THE A LLEGED H E R E DITY THAT ONE M UST RECOGNIZE I N ESSENTIA LLY RELATIONAL CAPACI­ TIES. MOST P U R E LY.COVERS I N H I M PSYC H IC R E FLECTION O F THE MOST ORIGINAL CON DITIONS O F M A N . THE EVIDENCE OF SEXUAL L I F E IN TH E RE PRESE NTATI VES OF MORAL CONSTR A I NTS-THE SI NGULARLY TRANSGRESSIVE U N DERSTA N D I N G THEM W I TH I N T H E C U LTU RE THAT I M POSES WITHOUT THE H IG H EST E X IG E N C I E S U PON HIS OWN HIM­ EXAMPLE O F T H E I MAGO O F TH E FAT H E R A S F A R A S THE PRI M O R I D A L I NTERDICTION IS CONCE R N ED­ U N D E R S TA N D I N G POSITION EXALT THE TENSION OF TH E LIBIDO A N O T H E !'. TO OFFER H I M THE LO Y A L E ST C LO S E D FIELD THE IN WHICH TO OUTSIDE OF THESE. AS WE H A V E S A I D. IDEAL A IN S E L ECTION THE DRIVES THE THE P R OG R E S S I V E R E A LIZATION CHA RACTER. FROM THE FAT H E R TO THE OF SON. TRI UMPH O R IG I N A L W H E R E H E OVE RC O M E S T H I S A N G U I SH. IT I N VO L V E S AND OF A POS ITIVE G I FTS. ACCOR D I N G TO HIS OWN I D E A L. THE WORK OF TH E I R FOR MATIVE REDUCTION FOR RE ASON WILL BE. IF IN TH E S E MORAL CONDITIONS OF CR EATION PSYCHOANALYSIS M A N I FESTS A R EVOLUTIONARY TRAN SLATED B Y THE I N V E R S I O N S O F T H E ORDER OF G E N E RATIONS I MA G I N E D B Y T H E C H I LD. THIS IS A LREADY THUS. IN A FULLER R E A LITY AND UNDER SU PERIOR SUBLIMATIONS O F LOGIC A N D J U STICE. RECOGNIZ­ I NG THAT H E C R EATES H I M S E L F A N D H I S OBJECTS TH ROUGH DIA LECTI CAL C R ISES. IN ORDER THAT EACH A R R I V E S A T HIS OWN CONCLUSION DESI RES. A N D I N O R D E R T O A D A PT HIS INDIVIDUAL EXPE RI ENCE AGAI NST TO THE THE MOST CONDITIONS M O ST E L EV A T E D C O N C E PT I O N S COMPLETE SERV ITU DE. W H E R E HE SU BSTITUTES H I M S E L F FOR THE GRAN DPA RENT. MOST H U M A N E LY REALIZE THE CONFLICT OF M A N WITH H I S MOST A RC H A I C AN GU IS H . AND M E A SU R E HI MSELF WITH M O ST PROFO U N D FIGURES O F H I S DESTI N Y. FAC ING T H I S M A N AT T H E EXTRE M E POINT O F T H E SCIENTIFIC ATTITU DE? THE COM PLEX OF THE CONJ UGAL F A M I LY FO R M S THUS. I N CONTI BUTING THE LARGEST D I F F E R E NTIATION TO THE P E R SO N A L I T Y THE B E FO R E THE PERIOD OF TO S OC I A L MAXI M U M LATENCY. T H E CONJUGAL FA M I LY PLACES TH I S A UT H O R I TY AT THE MOST I M M E D IATE EN­ VARIED AND RICH THE U NCONSC IOUS REALITIES I NTEG RATED I NTO THE THE MORE FA M I LY E X P E R I E NC E ARE. THE FACT O F FAM I LI E S OF E M I N ENT MEN OWES TO TH I S PSYC HOLOGICA L PROCESS. FROM IT. CAN LESS THAN MAN IN WESTE R N C U LTURE H I MSELF THE S U P E R I O R ACCO M PL I SH M E NT S OF C H A RAC­ TER-H A P P I N E S S AND CREATION-IN ORDER TO EVER U N D E RSTA N D OUTSIDE T H E A NTI NOM I E S T H A T CONSTITUTE H I S R E LATIONS WITH NATURE AND SOC I ETY. TRA N S M I SSION T H I S E FFECT OF THE EGO­ AGA I NST BY OPERATES TAKE. C A N HE CLA I M TO CURE HIM OF P S YC H I C DEFICIENCIES WITHOUT F I N A L LY AND A BO V E A L L. THE THE P RO M E T H E A N T R A N SG RESSION OF HIS LIFE. HOW. COMPLEX BRINGS CONFRONTATIONS O F T H I S PERIOD THE THE ROLE OF THE F A M I L I A L FOR MATION EFFICIENCY FOR T H E RATIONAL FORMATION O F THE INDIVIDUAL CONSI D E R IN EFFECT.COPE OF SUBLI M ATION TO THE H IGHEST DEGREE. T H E MORE IN ORDER TO I N ST I L L A UTHORITY IN THE CLOSEST N EIGHBO R I NG G E N ERATION. I S IT POSSIBLE T O U N D E RSTAN D FI RST.

S I N I ST E R G O D M OT H E R S AT THE C RA D L E OF RELATIVE GROWTH OF MATR I MON I A L EXIGENCI ES.H E FA I LS TO RECOGN I ZE HIS OWN M OV E M E NT. IT I S THE K E R N A L OF T H E G REATEST N U M B E R OF N E UROSES-W H E R E ONE C A N RECOG N I Z E THE G R EAT CONTEMPORARY N E U ROSIS. GEOSI E . T H E DOM I N ANT WE ARE NOT A MONG THOSE AFFLICTED BY THE FOR M S OF N E U ROSES AT THE END OF THE LAST CENTURY REVEALED THEIR I NTIMATE D E P E N D E NCY U PON THE CONDITIONS OF THE F A M I LY. ECONO M I C FOR M AND ITS G E N E RA LIZATION. WHERE D U E EQUALLY TO THE SPEC I FICITY OF ITS C U LTURAL PROGRESS? BUT A LARGE N U M B E R OF PSYC HOLOGICAL EFFECTS SEEM. THIS D EC L I N E MAYBE C A M E. VERY V I S I BLE. FROM THE MOST A RC H A I C T O THE M O S T E V O L V E D . C O N FO R M I N G THIS THE H U M I LIATED. [ T A R I Rl D E F IC I E NC Y C O M E S T O I N STI N C T I V E I M P U LS E S EXHAUST AND TO I NT I M ATELY FA M I LY THE DIA LECTIC IT CONJUGAL SINCE OPERATES DAMAGE [TA R E R l THE DIA LECTIC OF SUBLI MATIONS. PRETENDED LOOSE N I NG OF THE FA M I LIA L BOND. FOR E XA M PLE.A B S E N T. F R O M THE L A S T AGNATIC GROUPS OF PEASANT SLAVES TO T H E MOST A N C E IN THE CLASSICAL ERA OF PROGRESS-FROM CORNEI LLE TO PROUDHON: AND I D EOLOGUES WHO R E D UC E D A N D DECADENT FOR M S O F A N U NSTA BLE H O U S E HOLD. FOR WHAT IT I S WORTH. ON E M U ST R E LATE THE APPEA RANCE OF PSYCHO­ A N A LY S I S ITSELF TO ITS C RISIS. IN THE A M E RICAN WAY OF LIFE. TH E SUBLIME FORTU N E O F G E N I U S P E R H A PS DOES NOT A LONE EXPLAI N WHY I T WAS I N V I E N N A-THE C E NTER OF A JACQUES LACA N TRANSLATED BY A NDREA KAHN 200 . WAS N O T TH E A RG U M ENT FOR M E D BY THE C H I E F O F A TOTA LITA R I A N STATE AN IT A RGU M E N T AGAI NST IS A DECLI N E TIED OF THE BY A TO O U R C O N C E PT I O N TRADITIONAL MOST EDUCATION? TO OEDI P U S. N O T TO M E NTION F E U D A L A N D M E RCANTILE PATE R N A L I S M S-THAT A SON OF A JEWISH PATR I A RC H COULD H A V E I M A G I N E D THE OEDIPAL COMPLEX. CONSTITUTES PSYCHOLOGICAL C R I S I S. FALSE. N E U ROSIS. OUR EXPERI ENCE LEADS US TO DESIGNATE T H E PERSONA LITY OF THE FATH E R AS ITS PRINCI PLE DETE R M I NA NT. I S IT N O T SIGNI FICANT T H A T T H E FA M I LY S H O U L D BE REDUCED TO ITS BIOLOGICAL GROU PING TO THE DEGREE THAT IT I NT E G R A T E S THE H IG H EST S I N C E THE T I M E OF THE FI RST F R E U D I A N D I V I N A ­ T I O N S T H E S E N E U ROSES S E E M T O H A V E EVOLVE D I N THE D I R ECTION OF A CHARACTER I STIC COMPLEX. IT IS WORTH NOTING ITS LITERARY A N D MORAL RADI­ STATE THAT WAS A M E LTI NG POT OF TH E MOST D I V E R S E FA M I LY FORMS. THE H E A RT H OF THE PETIT-BO U R ­ IN THE N I N ETEENTH C ENTURY BROUGHT THE MOST SUBVERSIVE C RITIQUES AGAI NST THE PATE RNAL­ I STIC FA M I LY A R E NOT THOSE WHO PRESERVE THE LEAST OF ITS WEIG HT. TO US.LED TO PERCEIVE THE ROLE O F THE I MAGO OF THE FATH ER I N A STR I K I NGLY EVIDENT M A N N E R. DIVIDED OR OF C O N C E NTRATION A N D POL I T I C A L CATASTRO P H E . I M POTE N C E A N D UTOPIA E N C LOSING H I S A MBITION-WH ETHE R IT STI F L E S IN HIM THE C R E ATIONS AWAITED B Y T H E WO RLD I NTO W H I C H H E NO M A TT E R WHAT A ITS FUTURE. OR W H E T H E R I N T H E OBJECT H E PROPOSES FOR H I S R E VOLT. ALWAYS I N SOME WAY D E F I C I E N T . DEPEN­ DENT U PON THE SOC I A L D EC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L I MAGO: A DECLI NE CONDITION ED BY A RETU R N OF EXTR E M E EFFECTS OF S OC I A L PROGRESS ONTO THE I N D I V I DUAL: A DEC L I N E A BOVE ALL MARKED I N OUR T I M E S BY THOSE COLLECTIVITIES WHO HAVE MOST ST R O N G L Y F E LT THOSE E F FECTS.

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SEXUAL PLEASURE A SEX THROUGH KEEPING D E F I N ITIONS. R E C E I V I N G S E X U A L STI M ­ ULATION BY RUBBING A­ PRACTICES? G A I N ST SO M EON E OR SOME­ TH E R E WAS A TI M E WHEN A N YTH I N G BUT TH E THING M I S S I O N A R Y POSITION W A S CONSI D E R E D I M MO R A L A N D P E R V E R S E .DO YOU K NOW C O R R ECT T E R M S FO R W H AT SOM E M A Y C A L L S E X "PE R V E R­ SIONS"? HOW M UCH DO YOU K NOW A BOUT UN USUAL SEX 3. VOY E U R I S M G. SCATOLOGY B. T R A N S VE S T I T E C . SEXUAL A D DICTION TO S P E C I F I C FOR M S OF STI M U ­ LA T I O N -G U N S. H O W FA M I LI A R A R E YOU WITH SO-C A L L E D " P ER V E R S I O N S ?" D O YOU KNOW T H E M BY T H E I R P R O P E R N A M E S OR H A V E YO U B E E N TRA I N E D T O R ECOI L AT T H E V E R Y M E NTION OF A S E X PRACTICE THAT IS OUT OF TH E O R D I N A RY? TO TEST T H E ACC U RACY OF YOU R KNOWLEDGE. EXPERIENCING SEXUAL CAREFU LLY C H OO S I N G PLEA S U R E T H ROUGH P A I N A N S W E R. U ROLAG N I A F. G I V I N G A WOM A N S E X U A L PLEAS U R E BY ORALLY GENI­ 9. SEXUAL PLEASURE OTH­ U A LLY THROUGH WATC H I N G W E A R I N G C LOTH I NG OF T H E O P POSITE S E X ERS E NGAGE IN SEX ACTS 2. BON D A G E E. W R I T E T H E LETT E R OF THE CORR ECT D E F I N I TI O N TH E R E READ ARE N E XT MORE TO THE TERM IT D E SC R I B E S . 'FA I R E M I N ETTE' D. B . BESTIALITY A. U N I FO R M S . FORC I B LY HAVING SEX RELATIONS WITH A V I R G I N 6. SEXUAL R E LA T I O N S WITH A N I M A LS !S. ET CETERA STI M U LATI NG TALS HER 202 . A P E R SON W H O I S S E X ­ STI M U L A T E D BY 1 . S U R P R I S I N G L Y . M ATCH THE F O L LOW I N G TERMS WITH TH E I R C O R R ECT 4. TH I S ATTITU DE I S STI LL H E L D BY M A N Y PEOPLE TODAY. S O YOU R PARTN E R P R I SO N E R D E F I N I T I O N S THAN B E FO R E 7 . T E R M S. O S P H R E S IOLAG N I A I. F L A G E L L ATION H.

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G A I N I NG S E X U A L PLEA­ SURE O N E'S ERS THROUGH E X POSING E S P E C I A L LY P E R FO R M E D ON A YOUNG BOY B Y A M A N G E N I T A L S TO OTH­ 1 1 . PEDERASTY L. SEX WITH YOUNG C H I L­ 3. 0 GRATIFI CATION 1 6. TROI LISM P. S E X U A L STI M U L A T I O N G I V E YOURSELF ONE POINT FOR EACH CORRECT A N SWER.1 0. F 6. L 1 0. BY S E X U A L GRATI FICATION S M E LL I NG C E R TA I N ODORS 1 3. N 1 4. FROTTAGE J. A PERSON WHO I S SEX­ U A LLY STIM ULATED BY I N ­ FLICTING PA I N R. P OR BEING 1 5. PEDOPH I L I A N. M 9. FETI SHISM M. J 1 3. C 1 1. ANAL I N T E RCO U R S E . Q 1 2. W H I P P I NG 7. R WHIPPED FOR SEXUAL 8. 0 2. B DREN 5. SEX W I TH T H R E E PEOPLE AT ONCE 1 2. G 1 6. Q. I 1 4. THROUGH B E I NG U R I NATED U PO N 204 . A 1 5. SEXUAL I N T E R E ST IN THE A NSWERS EXC R E M ENT 1. ALGOLAG N I A O. E X H I BITION I S M K. H 4.

RATI O N A L I ST WOULD C A LL A TACTI C A L WAY. EASILY E M PT I E D MORALIZING IMPERATIVES IT O F A L L I NOTION TO O F JOUISSANCE. THE P H I LO S O P H Y 205 . OF TH E AND P A R TI C U LA R LY T O T H E L I V I NG. THE F R U STRATION WAS. A UTH E N T I C A LLY M A R X I ST A S N O ONE W I L L DENY. OR IS A LAS. T HROUGHOUT T H E WORK OF PREDELICTION. OFTEN T R I E D T O C R EATE SUCH B R ECHT. FIRST B Y C H R I ST I A N MORALITY. PLEASURE.FA S H I O N E D TERM TH E M E H E DO N I S M . THEN A FTER B E I N G THE WORD PLEASURE CROPPED UP IN WHAT I TAKEN OVE R BY A POS I T I V I ST. I TAKE ON THE R E S PO N S I B I L I T Y RETURN TO OF A A C E R TA I N THESE OPPOSITIONS SHOULD NOT B E TA K E N TOO LITERALLY. " JOUISSANC E . I N D I R ECTLY I THE OPPOSITION P LE A S U R EfJOUISSANCE I S ONE OF THOSE D E L I B E R A T E LY FOR WHICH I HAVE I A RT I F I C I A L OPPOS I T I O N S HAD A C E RT A I N " J O U I S SA N C E . N O T T O F R U STRATE B U T T O DE­ F R U STRATE IT. IN TRYING TO ESTA BLISH SOME KINO OF D I V I SION BETWEEN "PLEAS U R E" AND A TACTIC A L MOVE IN T H E O R D E R OF IDEAS E NTAI LS EXPLANATIONS. IN POS I N G T H E COMES UP PROB L E M A OF ONE A G A I NST VERY TOP I C A L TH E M E F A M I L I A R T O PSYCHOA N A LY S I S A N D OF I NTEREST T O WHAT I S C A L L E D THE A V A N T GARDE. EXTR E M E C O N S I D E R A TI O N IS GIVEN TO OPPOSITIONS: FOR E X A M P L E BETWEE N WRITING AND SC R I B B L I N G . ART OF A L R E A DY DREW ATTENTION TO THESE TH I NG S W H E N R E F E R R I NG E X A M PLE. FOR A LW A Y S FACT.VOCA B U L A R Y OPPOSITION P L E A S U R EIJOUISSANCE DISCREDITED AND FRUSTRATED FOR CENTURI ES. I N T H E WAY O F BECO M I N G S O BY A C E R T A I N M A R X I ST ETHIC. G I R D S ITSELF WITH R E A SO N S. SO FAR A S I AM CON C E R N E D THEN. I H A D T H E FEELING THAT I NTELLEC T U A L TO LANGUAGE S U B M ITTED TOO WHICH BY MORALITY. R E INTRODUCE IT IN MY REACTION WORD A TT E M PT E D NOT TO TH E OWN THE SECO N D J U ST I FICATION FOR T H E E M E RG E NCE. BY A S K I N G ON E'S SELF FOR I N STANCE IF SUCH AND SUCH A TEXT FALLS I N TO T H E H EDON I S M . FOR TH E RETU R N OF T H E WORD "PLEA S U R E" IS AND CENSURE PERSO N A L F I E LD. T H A T IT A L LOWS FOR A C E RTA I N E X PLORATION OF THE HUMAN S U BJ ECT. D E NOTA T I O N AND C O N NOTAT I O N . IN TO B R EC H T AND HIS CIGARS. T H E FI RST R EASON I S T H A T S UBJECTI V E LY I A C C O R D A C E RTAI N I M PORTA N C E TO WHAT COMES U N D E R T H E H E A D I NG OF T H A T S O M E W H A T O L D .

R EPETITION. T H E ACT O F DRAGGING I S A N ACT IF O N E SET OUT TO DO A PROV I S IONAL SORTI NG OF TEXTS ACCOR DING TO THOSE TWO WORDS. BUT OF "DRUGG I NG. JOUISSANCE I S THE SYSTEM OF READING. FO R M U LAS. CASE. . FO R A B R I E F I N STA NT. F O R EXAM PLE T H E T H E M E NOT OF DRUGS STRICTLY SPEAKI NG. AND I AM NOT ALONE IN UPHOLD I NG IT. E X P A N S I V E N E S S . I N SPITE O F EVERYTHI NG. O R A QUEST FOR A TYPE O F FICTION.N A T U R A L .A N D TH E R E'S NO S A Y I N G I F THEY A R E NOT ALSO TEXTS OF PLEASURE. I T I S A N I M PORTANT THEME FOR ME. I N STEAD OF A FF I R M I NG. BUT A M U C H S O U G H T. THE PLEASURE OF L OV I N G W H I C H D O E S NOT F I G U R E I N V I E W O F 206 . A LTHOUGH O N E CAN I MAGI N E AESTHETIC CRITERIA SPEC I E S. W H E N I T R Y T O PRODUCE T H I S SHORT W R I T I N G B Y F R A G M ENTS. W H I C H M E A N S THAT H E R E "PERVERSION" DOES NOT HAVE A PSYC HOA N A LYTIC R I GO U R-S I N C E FOR P S Y C H O A N A L Y S I S D R U G S A R E N OT ST R I CT L Y CLASSIBLE A S P E R V E R SIONS. DRAGGING THAT SAID. EASE-A N D I N M Y BELONGS T O THE PERHAPS I F I TALK A BOUT D RAGG I NG I'LL A R R I V E AT A D E F I N I TION. U N D E RGOES THE EXPERI ENCE OF PRODI­ GALITY WHICH I S STRICTLY SPEAKING JOUISSANCE. BUT ON T H E LEVEL OF LANGUAGE ITSELF . WHEREAS TEXTS O F JOUISSANCE A R E EXT R E M E LY R A R E .. THAT I S T O S A Y TEXTS NOT O N TH E S I D E O F T H E PROBABLE. ABANDONS ITSELF. FOR TEXTS O F JOUISSANCE S U C H C RITERIA A R E STI LL OBSCURE. NOT ONLY TO O U R REGISTER OF I M AGES A N D IMAGI NATION. CITATIONS. FOR J U DG I NG TEXTS OF PLEASURE. A N D THEN. WHATEVER C O M E S TO LIGHT IN THE S U R P R I S E OF THE "FIRST TIM E. OBVIOUSLY. T H E T H E M E OF S H O R T W R I T I N G . PERVERSION M U C H THOUGHT ." OR OF CERTA I N FORM S OF PERVERSION. TO THE C O D E OF THE PROBABLE. WHERE IN MANY R E S PECTS HE "PERVERSION. B U T BY T H E W A Y H E SPEAKS OF IT!. ON THE "FI RST T I M E. F R A G M E N T S . R E ITERATION. I S T H E A NT I . I N A WAY. .A FT E R L U C K . S P I E D O N . IT IS. OF THE SUBJECT. T H E S T E R EOTY P E . B Y MEANS OF WHICH THE SUBJECT. THE TEXT OF JOUISSANCE H A S T O BE I N A SENSE U N R EADABLE." DRAGG I NG A TEXT M U ST BE S E E N AS THE C A PT U R E O F P H R A S E S ." B E L O N G S. THEY ARE OPPOSITIONS C H I E FLY USEFUL IN CLEARING A PATH. HOWEVER I N C E NDIARY I T MA Y BE-I TH I N K OF SA D E FOR E X A M PLE (ONE M I GHT BE T E M PTED TO PLACE SADE A MONG TH E TEXTS OF J O U I S SA N C E . THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO WORDS IS NEVE RTH E LESS REAL. W H I C H A F F I R M S I T S E L F TH ROUGH V A L U E S OF C O M FORT. B U T PROVI S I O N A L L Y A T L E A ST. • IN THE FRAG M E NT FROM WHICH THIS PHRASE IS TA KEN. DRAGGING I M PL I E S A TEMPORALITY WHICH LAYS STRESS ON THE E NCOU NTER. I T I S THE LUCK OF T H E GAME. AS OPPOSED TO THIS. THEY TRA N S PORT U S A N D PROVOKE THAT PRODIGA LITY OF THE LOSS OF SE LF. N O T B EC A U S E H E S P E A K S ABOUT JOUISSANCE. R EPETITION I S A M A LE F I C E N T T H E M E F O R M E . PLEASURE IS LINKED WITH THE CONSISTENCY OF THE SELF. I CITED THE WORD "PERVERSION" A FTER TWO ALLUSIONS TO HASHISH A N D HOMOSEXUALITY. BECAUSE IT IS S U B M I TT E D TO T H E CONSTR A I N T OF T H E EPOCH. ABOUT. IN GOI NG A STEP FURTHER: QUITE S I M PLY I N SPEAKING A N D W RITING. WE MAY F I N D THESE TEXTS DISAGREEABLE OR AGGRESSIVE. I PUT M Y S E L F IN THE POSITION OF A N A UTHOR WHOSE READER GOES DRAGGING. THIS THEME OF JOUISSANCE BORDERS ON OTHE R TH E M ES. T O GIVE A N EXAM PLE. I T I S T H E BODY IN A STATE OF A L E RT. FOR E X A M PLE." AS I F T H E F I R S T E N C O U N T E R POS S E S S E D A N EXTRAO R D I N A R Y P R I V I LEGE O F ITS OWN: THAT O F B E I NG OUTSIDE A L L R E PETITION. QUESTING I N ACCORDANCE WITH ITS OWN DESIRE. FOR THAT REASON D R AGGING I S A NOTION I CAN EASILY TRA NSFER FROM THE ORDER OF THE E ROTI C QUEST WHERE I T O R I G I N ATES. DRAGGING THE N AT U R A L AS R E P ET I T I O N . TEXTS OF J O U I S S A N C E ARE A V A NT-G A R D E TEXTS. I S A WAY OF BEING H A PPY. R E M A I N S A TEXT OF PLEA S U R E.CATEGORY OF PLEASURE OR JOUISSANCE. • R E P E A T E D . T O A QUEST A FTER TEXTS FOR E X A M PLE. IT MUST COME A S A JERK. OR OF E N U NC I ATION. DRAGGING I S THE JOURNEY OF DESIRE.. QUITE S I M PLY. I N OTH E R WORDS. . PERVERSION I S THE SEA RCH FOR A P L E A S U R E THAT C A N NOT BE T U R N E D TO THE PROFIT OF SOC I A L E N DS O R THE I N FACT IT'S D I F F I C U LT TO EXPLA I N B E C A U S E . T H E A N T I ­ D O M A I N OF R E A D I N G C L A S S I C A L W R I T E R S . IT I S CERTA I N THAT BY A H U G E MAJORITY T H E TEXTS W E KNOW A N D LOVE A R E BROADLY SPEA K I NG TEXTS O F PLEASURE. B U T ITS C O N T E N T IS A B SO L U T E L Y I N A UG U RAL. T H E SADIAN TEXT.

I M PL I E S A ROLA ND B A RT H E S 207 . ONE COULD CONSI D E R RB. BY WAY OF F E T I S H I S M . AND I'M BEGI N N I N G ALL I H AVE DO N E SINCE THE BDOK ON JAPAN RB. THAT OF THE I M A G I N A RY. AND IN SO FAR AS.PROCREATION. WHAT I N T E R ESTS M E AT THE PRESENT M O M E N T IS TH E FIELD OF THE I M A G I N A RY. W H I C H F O R M E I S LI N K E D EVEN MORE CLOSELY W I TH PROBLEMS OF TH E I NCLUDING H I M SELF. PLEASU R E OF T H E TEXT: S I NCE TH E R E I S N O T T H E PROBLEM O F J O U I SSA N C E W H I C H P R E DO M I NATES. ON THE WHOLE. T H E RB. GIVEN ITS FI RST PRODUCTION I N RB. DERABLE I NTEREST TO M E AT THE MOM ENT. THUS. IS N E V E RTHELESS. P R A C T I S E D G R A T U I TO U S LY. A H A P P Y P E R SON. I MAGINA RY. PSYCHOANA LYT I C A L LY. E M PHASIS O N T H E FACT THAT T H E P E RVERT IS. A PSYCH O A N A LYTIC SPECI FICITY SOMETH I NG OF A TURNING POINT B E TW E E N CAN B E RE·INTRODUCED I NTO T H E G E N E R A LITY OF THE TERM. BY OF A S E M I N A R AT TH E ECOLE DES H A U TES ETUDES O N THE LA NGUAGE OF LOVE. BECA USE OF THAT. BY H I M SELF. B Y H I M SELF AS B E I NG A CH ASTER BOOK T H A N THE THOUGHT. P E R V E R S I O N I S D I VORC E D FROM N E U ROSIS. A CCOR D I N G MAJOR TO FREUDIAN IS FETI S H I ST TH I N K I NG A N D T H I N K I NG THE I M A G I N A RY. IS C E RTA I N UNDER FRAGM ENTS THE SIGN FROM A OF SORT PERVERSE WRITI NG. OF THE I M AGI N A RY. W H I C H TOU C H E S A NOTH ER T H E M E OF CONSI· TH E M E OF PRODIGA L I TY. A S A MATTER OF FACT. P E R V E RSION. VOLU PTU A R I E S IT B E LO N G S TO AN ORDER OF THE PA RTIC U L A R R E LATIO N S H I P ON WITH THE M OTH E R . ONE OF THE P E R V E R SIONS FETI S H I S M (TH E M E THAT C A N B E FOU N D I N THE W I S H FOR SEGMENTED WRITINGI. FREUDIAN THOUGHT PUTS BUT TH A T O F TH E I M AGE.

DOES APPROAC H E D I N ITS G R A M MAR. IT I S SOl I AM GOI NG TO TRY TH I S E V E N I NG TO LIVE UP TO YOU R EXPECTATIONS. T H I S I S TH E FI RST TIME THAT I A M FIVE M I N UTES LATE.STE A N N E Xci> XE ELSEWH E R E I OON'T OBVIOUSLY PAY TOO M UCH ATTENTION TO M Y LISTE N E RS. . I N W H I C H C A S E .J LATE FOR THE FI RST T I M E . YOU SHOULD EXC U S E ME. THIS I S ENOUGH (FOR • • . YOU ARE H E R E . . I N STANT LONGER: I A M FORCED T O EXPLA I N W H Y TH I S COMES A BOUT AS. GOOD FOR YOU. S I M PLE AS IT I S. TH I S I S T O SAY. WHICH I S TO SAY A QU ESTION POSED A BOUT WHAT I S LANGUAGE. ( A N D IT WOU L D S U R P R I S E M E IF TH E R E ARE N OTI. ESPEC I A LLY SINCE I SAID -WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1 C E RTA I N THAT. YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I SPOKE OF SOM ETH I NG TO DO WITH A S U M MATION OF THE BORRO M E A N KNOT. AFTER A L L I A M N O T S U R E THAT. THE OTH E R TWO WOULD NOT HOLD TOGETH E R FOR O N E EXC U S E ME. ACTUALLY. I F SOME OF YOU WERE HERE LAST TI M E . H A D SA I D. G I V E N A L L T H E F U S S . . BY THIS I MEAN U N D E R TH E A B N O R M A L L Y GOOD. I F A L L OF A SUDDEN TH IS SET-UP EVER CONC E R N I NG THE CONDITION. I WOULD HOPE THAT THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN L I STE N I N G TO ME FOR SO M E TI M E W I LL EXPLA I N TO THE I N ITIATES THAT TH I S IS THE FI RST T I M E IT HAS HAPPENED TO M E. AS I A QUESTION I N FLUENCES OF A SLIGHT TEM PERATU RE A N D SOME DR UGS. I AM ALSO H E R E AND T H IS I S GOOD THAT I FEEL • . IT C O M E S FROM A TOPOLOGY. . CHANGED. T H I S SHALL NOT BE CAUSED BY MY ABNOR M A L STATE: RATHER IT SHALL BE -WHArs IN 1T1 WITH I N THE LI N E OF WHAT I I NTENDED TO SAY TO YOU. OF THE U NCONSC I O U S. THAT I AM HAVING FUN: I F I CONTI N U E SPEAKING IN TH E SA M E TON E IT I S NOT S I M PLY FORCED. THERE I S A QU ESTION THAT R E M A I N S LANGUAGE HAVE TO BE U N S ETTLED. . O N E R I N G W E R E DETAC H E D FROM T H I S C H A I N . 1. ONE CHAIN IN THREE: I F (. -WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1 208 .

WHICH I T TU R N S OUT I QUOTED A FTE R J A KOBSON D I D A N D THAT. I S A R ELATION. LET US SAY. IT IS THIS WHICH FI RSTLY DIVERSE G R A M MATI C A L F U NCTIONS. SOM ETH I N G LIKE T H E E C H O OF P H Y S I C A L P H E N O M E N A . A N D WE KNOW A LITTLE ABOUT IT A FTER A L L IF ONLY FROM EXPERI ENCE. BECAUSE F R O M TH I S E X A M P LE. A DVA N C I N G TO IS SOM ETH I N G RADICALLY ATTACH E D TO T H E P U RELY TOPOLOGI­ CAL O R I G I N OF LANGUAGE. THAT I S THAT ONE I S OBLIGED TO PUT U N D E R THE SAME TERM V E R BS AND VERY DIFFERENT TY P E S OF -WHAT DOES THIS M E A N ? ACTIONS." EACH ONE IS A CLOSED TH I N G. TA K E N IN R E LATIONS. A R E D E D U C E D FROM THESE C U RVES. C E RTA I N FORMS. LEAVI NG IT UP TO YOU. UNDER THE SEMANTIC M U C H A S WE KNOW SOMETH I NG ABOUT IT. WHAT IS A TOPOLOGY? HOW N I C E T H I S PERSON lSI A TOPOLOGY I S A THING THAT HAS A MATHE­ MATICAL D E F I N I TI O N . S E X E S A R E TWO. WHY DOES LANGUAGE ASSEMBLE U N D E R TH E SA M E CATEGORY FU NCTIONS W H I C H C A N ONLY BY THE DISTORTED R E LATIONS. I S TIED TO THE RELATIONS-AND R I G HT. AND THE HOMO­ SAME SECO N D A R I LY SO AS TO BE CLARIFY WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE PSYCHO­ ANALYTIC T R I B UTA RY TO HER WOR K.-AH . OF ITS MATHEMATICAL I N S E RTION. BY TH E NON-METRIC OBSTACLE I N CONCEI VING TH I NGS LIKE TH IS. IT SEE M S TO ME THAT THERE IS ALREADY AN COMES ON TO ITSELF. I N T H A T WHICH I S P U R E L Y A N D S I M P LY COM U N ICATION (OF) P H E NOMENA OF OF SOM E U N KNOWN (TO M E ) ORIENTATION (BECAUSE TO TELL THE TRUTH I H A D NOT YET STARTED TO TEACH A N YT H I NG) H A D BELIEVED SHE R E F E R R E D T O ME B E F O R E S H E P U T O U T THE SECOND SEX. SPEA K I N G BEING SPEAKING SOM E­ TH ING WHICH HAPPENS TO SEXUA LITY OR DOES THE SOMETH I N G HA PPEN TO SEXUA LITY BECAUSE H E IS A SPEA K I N G B E I NG. S H E C A L L E D M E O N THE TELE PHONE T O SAY T O M E T H A T ASSUREDLY S H E H A D N E E D O F MY COUNSEL TO RESONANCE W H I C H WOU L D B E C U RVES C E RTA I N WOU LD GENIZE WHICH IN ORDER TO E L A BORATED (BY) HAVE VALUE IN A ORDER OF FUNDAM ENTAL RESSEMBLE. SOMEONE THAT I H A V E QUOTED. CAN HELP FURTH E R B E FO R E Y O U THIS EVENING IS TH I S : T H E FUNCTION CA LLED SEXUA LITY IS DEFI N E D IN AS MUCH MATHEMATICS BUT US TO CONCE I V E SUCH. LErS SAY. THAT IS THAT IT I S TO TH E EXTENT THAT THESE TH REE TERMS ARE THREE THAT WE SEE ( T H AT) THE FUNCTIO N A L I ZATION. . A CASE O F THOSE K I N DS OF SUPPLE BE CO N C E I V E D OF IN TH E I R ORIGIN UNDER DIFFERENT E M ERGING MODES? CI RCLES WHICH CONSTITUTED M Y "I D E M A N D YOU TO D E N Y ME THAT WHICH I OFFER YOU. THIS IS WHAT WAY MODELED ON FUNCTIONS THAT A R E S U PPOSED T O BE PHYSICAL REA LITY.THAT I S TO SAY NOT WITHOUT RESORTING A LSO TO M A TH E M A T I C S TO FIND. . WE KNOW FOR EXAMPLE THAT T H E ANGLE. SOMETH I NG WHICH WOU L D P E R M I T US TO CONCEIVE OF LA NGUAGE AS. FROM WHICH WO U L D R E S U LT 209 . E V E N I F TH I S REA LITY I S ONLY (ATTA I N ­ A B L E ) THROUGH THE BI A S OF A MATH E MATICAL SERVED TO D E M ON STRATE M Y LAST S E M I N A R-IS T IED TO THE R E LATIONS OF PURE S I G N I FYI NG. A N D W H I C H O N LY HOLDS TO BE CHA I N E D TO OTH E R S . B E FORE S H E BROUGHT OUT TH I S BOOK CALLED THE SECOND SEX. BETWE EN THE OTH E R TWO. S U PPLE. FOR MY PART WHAT YOU I AM IN TH E COU R S E WHICH OF IS PRESENCE OF T H E T H I RD. N A M ELY SOM E O N E N A M E D RENE THOM. H A D BELIEVED. THAT IS IN AS TH E FU N D A M E N TAL WHICH I SC H E M E TRY OF WHAT A THIS IS A BOUT WILL TO PUSH LITTLE S I G N I FYI NG COMBI NATION. TO FIND IN CERTA I N CU RVES. I TH I N K I A M ABLE TO TAKE ACCOUNT OF THIS TOPOLOGICAL OR I G I N BY TH E R E IS A N OTH E R OF WAY TO A PP ROACH THE THIS IS THE FACT THAT WHICH IT IS E S S E NTI A LLY TI E D TO LA N G U A G E -A N D P R E S E NT. IT IS C E RTAIN THAT THERE WOULD BE SOM ETH I N G INFI NITELY LANGUAGE SATI SFYI NG IS IN SOM E IN CO N S I D E R I N G THAT THE TOGETH E R A L O N E . ( A N D) RE LATIONS. N OT H I N G HOLDS N EVERTHELESS. THIS I S THE A F FA I R I N WHICH I ABSTA I N FROM TREA D I NG. AS IT T U R N S O U T I H A D KNOWN FROM BEFORE • . THAT I S . THE QUESTION STAYS SUSPEN DED. IT IS COURSE IN TH I N G SOM ETH I NG B E I NG H A P P E N S TO THE BIAS OF SPEAKING IS TH E P R E S E NT THE FACT THAT UNDER THE S E X U A LITY. NO MATTE R WHAT A R E NOWNED AUTHOR TH I N KS ABOUT IT-A R E N OWN E D A UTHOR WHO I MUST SAY I N H E R TI M E . STRICTLY SPEAKI NG. BECA USE OF SOM EONE. TO A P P ROACH T H E QUESTION OF LANGUAGE NOT FROM AS UNDER THE PURE AS THE S E M A NTIC BIAS. I WOULD A DD. F R O M THE FACT OF ITS . A S I POINTED PA R E N T H E S I S . T H I S IS. A N D THIS TRIES AND C E R TA I N LY OR N OT WITHOUT F A C I L I TA T E D SOM EO N E HAVING ALREADY FRAYED CERTA I N PATHS. . THAT THIS I S WHAT IS MEANT BY T H E BOR RO M E A N KNOT. TH I S TOPOLOGY.

THE A PTITUDE I F I C A N PUT I T TH I S W A Y . I N THIS POSITION. A P P E A L T O SOM ETH I N G W H I C H I S W R I TT E N AS FOLLOWS. SHOULD TAKE SO LONG. FOLLOWI N G TH I S . A N D TH I S IS THE Q U E STION. S U C H THAT T H E Y S E E M E D T O H A V E D E N I E D H E R T H E POSS I B I L I TY OF HAVING MORE THAN 3 OR 4 I T I S NOT TH E R E . THE LAWS OF LITE RARY PRODUCTION A R E IMAGE F U R N I S H A S U F F IC I E N T MODEL OF WHAT T H E R E I S T O T H I S R E LATIO N SH I P A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E O F W H A T TH E R E I S ( O F TH E ) S E X U A L CON S I D E R E D AS N E ED. I N E V E RTHELESS C LA I M AND I UNDE RLI N E THAT WHAT YO U S E E I N THE DI AGRAM I S (EVE RY­ TH ING) THAT THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC EXPE R I ENCE E V I D E N T FROM TH E IDEA SUGGESTED BY THE POINT W H E R E W E ARE. LET US R E M E M B E R ON WHAT R ESTS WHAT WE CAN HAVE OF TH E C O N C E PT I O N . D I STI N G U I S H ITSELF FROM ALL THOSE O F T H E SAME SEX. OR. FAR FROM IT. S I GN I FYI NG T H E U N I VE R S A L. I F Y O U FOLLOW WHAT I JUST A DVA NCED­ BUT (OF) B I S E X U A LITY. O F E A C H F R O M O N E S I D E T O COUNT BRINGS US. AT T H E POINT WH E R E WE ARE I N O U R STATE M E N T CONC E R N I NG TH I S SEXUA LITY. I DEC L I N E D THE HONOR. H ETEROS E X U A L ITY. THE THAT TH E R E MOMENT IN IS NO B I B L I C A L S E N S E OF THE WORD. W H I C H BESIDES H A V I NG A L R E A DY B E E N IN P R E P A R ATION. I AM NOT GOING TO EMBELLISH T H I S B ECA USE A FT E R ALL THAT WOULD DELAY U S FROM S E V E R A L ETYMOLOGICAL R E FER­ ENCES. (RALLIES THE) DE UTEROS. I N T H E R E LATION THAT IS CALLED SEXUAL I N TH E SPEA K I NG B E I NG. TO E M PTY ITSELF I N AS MUCH A S IT I S B E I NG. SUCH A FO R M U L A IS P R E C I S ELY WHAT IS NOT I F THERE WAS A N A R TI C U LATABLE R E LATION ON THE S E X U A L LEV E L. IS PRECI S E LY. W H A T W E A R E REFERRING TO. I DO NOT N E E D TO RECALL WHAT "TO K N OW" M EA N S IN TH E I NTERVI EWS WITH ME. AND EXACTLY MARKS THAT THIS DE UTEROS I S . LANGUAGE OTH E R W I S E ENTERS TH E I NTO FU NCTION . I S I F I M IGHT SAY. FOR TH IS. H A S A LWAYS B E E N C A L L E D T H E MODE. SHE TH I S MADE THE OBSE RVATION TO M E THAT IT WOULD NOT B E NORMAL THAT A BOOK. IN TH I S C A S E . TH E BASIS OF WHAT I H A V E FOR SOME TIME BEEN BRINGING OUT FOR YOU I S P R ECISELY TH I S THAT TH E R E IS NO SEX SECON D F ROM SEX. B E L I E V E M E . IT I S OBVIOUS T H A T F O R S O M E TI M E. G R E E K D I A LECTS WHOSE N A M E S I W I L L SPA R E YOU. W H A T WE A R E R E F E R R I N G TO AND D O N 'T BELIEVE THAT TH I S GOES W I THOUT 20 6 YEARS AND TH I S IS NOT S A Y I NG. M UST IT. PASSED OVER. SI NCE A LWAYS THE R E LI' T l O N OF THE ITS NOUS TO SO M ET H I NG I M PRI NT. WE H A V E FOR TH E R E LATION BETWEEN THE SEXES THE A N I M A L OF COPULATION T H A T S E E M S T O U S TO ACC I D E NTA L . IF I SAY FOR SOME T I M E IT I S THAT I DO NOT KNOW WHETHER THERE WAS A N I N DICATION OF A T I M E I N W H I C H IT W A S A FOR M U LA ) . THAT THE WO R D HETEROS. WHAT HAS A LWAYS BEEN T H E WAY IT WAS. S U C H A N D S U C H A FO R M U LA (AND IN TRUTH. IT I S PRECISELY FROM TH I S E M PTINESS THAT IT OFFERS TO THE S POKEN WORD WHAT I CALL THE LOC U S OF THE OTH E R . I N G R E E K . WHICH IS E X PE R I E NC E S P A S S I VE WHAT SECOND WHICH TO PUT IS C A L L E D V A R IOUSLY B U T A S S U R E D LY WHOSE MOST COMMON G R E E K DENOM I N ATION IS THAT OF H Y L E . SI NCE YOU SEE. OR BY NO MATTER 210 . H ETEROS WHICH IS SAID IN CERTA I N THE C H I N ES E FOR A LONG TI M E A PP E A L E D TO TWO F U N D A M E NTAL T I V E LY-I PUT ESSENCES A BO V E THE WHICH ARE R E S PEC­ ESSENCE. THEN.OUT TO H E R THAT IT WOULD H A V E TO BE AT LEAST­ AT BOTTOM TH I S IS A M I N I M U M S I NCE I HAVE B E E N SPEA K I NG FOR W H A T DO W E H A V E . AND EXPRESS ITSELF TO ALL THOSE OF TH E OTH E R ? THIS IS KNOW N . FEM I N I N E (WH AT) I S C A L L E D Y I N I N O R D E R T O O P POSE IT TO YANG. R E PLAC I NG I N WHAT I S A I D EACH O N E BY A N Y O N E AT ALL. W H ICH I S THE TERM WHICH M E A N S OTH ER. THAT TH E STATEMENT I S P ROM U L­ GATED ACCOR D I N G TO THE SEMANTIC FORM NAMED. IT I S CLEAR THAT T H I S C A N SEEM SU R P R I S I NG. BY T H E REFERENCE TO WHAT I'VE CALLED T H E A N I M A L M O D E L. T H E S U PPOS E D ANIMAL MODEL. THI NGS CONCERNING WHAT CALLED H ETEROSEX U A L I TY. BUT TH E F U N D A M ENTAL MODE OF BEING OF WHAT ONE HOLDS TO B E TH E WORLD. -NOT O F THIS IS VERY WELL FOR A LL T H E OTH E R S FROM THE OTH E R SIDE. HOW. I N T H I S C A S E I F I MAY SAY SO. THE C H I N ES E . T H E MODE OF R E LATION WHICH I S E N G E N D E R E D FROM S P I R I T A N D THAT H A S B E E N CON S I D E R E D A S MODELING NOT AT A L L S I M PLY THE A N I MA L R E LATION S H I P.!5 O R STRA IGHTEN OUT MONTHS BEFORE I COULD Q U E STION FOR H E R. IF TH E R E WAS AN A RTICU LAT­ A B L E R E LATION IN THE S P E A K I N G BEI NG. N A M E LY T H A T I N W H I C H I S I N SC R I BED TH E EFFECTS OF THIS SPOKEN WORD. IT I S PRECISELY THIS.

THERE I S NO N E E D H E R E T O B R I NG B A C K I NTO PLAY A N Y D I M E N S I ON OF THE V I RTUOUS. N A M E LY TH E R E A R E O N L Y T W O A N I MA LS W H I C H COUPLE TOGETHER. I T I S SOME VAGU E OUTLI NE OF ANOTH ER P RESENCE FOR WH ICH. OBJ ECTS SHOULD BE D I STRI BUTED I N TWO WHOLES 21 1 . ) THAT IS IN EVERY SEXUAL E N CO U N T E R U N IQ U E . OR SIM PLY: THE NORMAL WAS LOCATED SOM EWHERE. I S NOT TO B E ASTO N I S H E D I N A N Y C A S E T H A T THE ENCOUNTER ON T H I S B A S I S SERVES P R EC I S E LY TO BE REPEATED A S U N IQUE. NOT THAT FROM WH ICH COM ES AN ECHO OF EROS. I T I S N O T C R UDE. I WANT TO STAY CLOSE-CUT TO THE GROUND. I A M CERTA I N LY NOT HERE TO A M U S E YOU IN THIS STRA I N . TO BE MORE I NS I STENT H E R E AND TO HOLD MYSELF AT THE L E V E L OF T H E MOST FUNDAM ENTAL HORIZON O F O N E T O ON E T O EACH H I S OWN EACH.L I K E I N T H E R E LATIONS H I P B ETWEEN TH E SEXES. TO REPEAT ITSELF. AND ONE CAN EVEN SAY THAT THE ANIMAL TH E MODEL IS RECONSTITUTE I T ACCORDING TO OUR OWN IDEA. IT I S A N ETHOLOGICAL REMARK THAT I MAKE HERE. WE WOU LD BE COM P LETELY IN THE ORDER OF W H AT. BUT S I M PLY O F THE P U R E DIMENSION OF TH E REA L. WHAT WOULD THIS BE CALLED. THE NB: W E CANNOT F ROM T H E START E LI M I NATE THE EXISTENCE OF THESE TWO D I M ENSIONS. AS I F NORMAL. TO SAY THINGS CRUDELY. BUT WHICH SOLVES NOTH I N G BECAUSE I T S UFFICES T O R E FLECT ON TH I S TO S E E I N THI S A N A M B IGUOUS I LLUSION W H I C H CAN NOT T H E E A C H ONE T H A T I HAVE U S E D FI RST HAS TH E EFFECT OF RECA LLING TO US THAT TH E EFFECTIVE R ELATION S H I P IS NOT W I TH O U T EVO K I N G T H E UPHOLD ITSELF FOR LONG. S U GG ESTS ( R E C OG N I Z E IN C O N D I T I ON A L SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M Y D I SCOU R S E ECHOES WHICH WOU L D NOT BE A S E M B LA NC E ) [T H I S IS T H E TITLE O F M Y S E M I N A R NO. OR E V E N I F THE CHOICE W E R E B A S E D ON A H A PHAZA R D ENCOUNTER. AND WELLI MY GOD. B O Y S STI M U LATE TH E M ­ SELVES. OF COU RSE. O F COU RSE. IT W I L L NOT SEEM DIFFICULT. NO MATTER WHICH ONE OF ONE OF EVERYTH I N G WHICH MATE R I A LZES THE U N IVERSAL I N THE B E HAVIOR WHICH I S E FFECTIVELY HERD. A N EXPERI ENCE WHICH IS NOT E A S Y (BUT W H I C H ) T H E PSYCHOA N A LYST I S ABLE TO PHA NTASM. N E C E S S I T Y O F W H A T I N T H E S PE A K I N G B E I NG PRODUCES ITSELF OF THE U N IQUE. B U T LET US T R Y NOW T O C U T A W A Y A T WHAT THE K I N S H I P OF THE U N I V E R SA LITY HAS TO DO WITH OUR WHAT GIVES THE IN I LL U S I O N TH E OF THE SEXUAL IS AFFAI R. MY GOD. WE WOU LD NOT HAVE TH I S ESSENTI A L D I M ENSION WHICH CONSI STS VERY THAT TH E P R E C I S E LY IS IN TH E FACT IT IS NO INCREASE FOR US. ECHOES TO WHAT WE KNOW TO BE E S S E N TI A L TO TH E EXPERI E NCE. I W I L L R E M I N D Y O U T H A T TH E R ECON S T I T U T E IN IMAGINARY I S WHAT WE ANIMAL M O D E L. I CERTA I N LY D I D NOT S E E K TO VI BRATE IN YOU TH E EROTIC LYRE. LETS C A L L TH I S THE SOUL TO SOU L. NAM ELY THE STAT E M E N T BY WH I C H R E LATION S H I P SPEAKING BEI NG. WE PRESENTATION OF N U M B ERS. IN AS M UC H A S T H I S ADVANCES THESE S I DES. 2 1 ( m A N D W ELLI I N R EPLACING THI S EACH ONE B Y A NYON E AT ALL. T O M A K E U N DERSTOOD T H A T I F I M A I NTAIN (I CALL T H I S CRUDELY. ENCOUNTER OF PSYCHOANALYSIS ALLOWS M E TO ADVANCE. BUT ON P R E C I S E LY WHAT S UGGESTS ANIMALIC THE CONTRARY. THE R E A R E ROYAL BASTA RDS. (BUT) IT I S OBVIOUSLY NOT THESE WHO I NTEREST U S I N TH E ANALYTICAL FI ELD. IF S I M PLY THIS HAS A SMALL VALUE OF AWA K E N I NG. I F W E WOU LD NOT H A V E T H I S A N I M A L MODEL. E NCOU N T E R . A N D FROM TH I S ALONE THAT TH E A N I M A L MODE L IS AROUSED. I T S E E M S T O ME. OF COURSE: B ECAU S E IT IS CLEAR THAT WE CAN ONLY RECONSTRUCT THROUGH OBSE RVATION. TH E V U LGAR TERM OF FREE-FOR­ ALL (ORGY) IS NOT A BSOLUTELY EXCLUDED. THE ONE I JUST P I N N E D-DOW N WITH T H I S BANAL N A M E . THEM. W E WOULD B E IN TH I S I NDETE R M I N ACY OF WHAT I S CHOSEN IN EACH EVERY TO RESPOND TO EVERY OTH E R . WE HAVE A N EXPERIENCE OF T H E I MAGINA RY. TO TH E ANA LYTICAL EXPERI E NCE. I T I S P R E C I S E LY IN THIS SENSE THAT IT I S O N L Y TH E A N I M A L M O D E L T H A T S U STA I N S ITSELF AND A RO U S E S TH E PHANTASM THAT WE H A V E C A L L E D A N I M A LIC. SPEAKING B E I NG. IT I S THE VERY IT IS CERTA I N THAT I N A DVANC I NG THI S TE RM. THE B I U N I VOCA L COUP­ LING IS WHAT A PPEARS TO US OF IT. TH E Y LOVE T O DOUBLE THEMSE LVES. AND THIS B I U N I VOCAL CORRESPO NDENCE. I H A V E ALREADY STRESSED T H A T I N SO-CALLED SEX U A L H U NTING OR C R U I S I N G . I F TH I S G I VES YOU AT LEAST THIS DIM ENSION. AND TH E R E ARE SOME FOR WHOM LANGUAGE DO E SN'T EXI ST. I F TH E R E S O M ETH I N G THAT ACC IDENT I F I S A Y THAT IT I S EXACTLY FROM THIS. A N D AS FOR G I RLS.WHICH ONE. RATH ER IT I S C R U EL. THI S REFERENCE IN ITS E LF CONTA I N S NOTH I N G WHOEVER K N OWS THE CONDITIONS OF THE DECISIVE S I NC E AFTER A L L ON E COULD ASSU M E A SERIOUS A I R A N D SAY THAT IT IS PRECISELY THE STIGMA O F A NOMALY.

I N SERTION OF LANGUAGE OVER THE MATHE MATI­ CAL R E A L. IT I S EXACTLY T H I S M E T O ACCENTUATE I DESIG NATE OF THE THE CAPITAL AS O. O R I N C H I N ESE TE R M I NOLOGY THE YANG ESSENCE. WHAT DOES TH I S MEAN WHEN A FTER A LL. IT IS A QU ESTION OF BASING THESE RELATIONSH I PS WITH I N U N I V E R SALS. THAT I REMAIN HERE AND HAVE BEEN ABLE TO I N D ICATION CONC E R N I NG EXACTLY W H E R E THE Q U E STION L I E S THAT WE A R E R A I S I NG.OF O P POSED EQUIVALENCES. THE WHICH A B A D W A Y OF T U R N I N G E V E R YTH I NG THAT I S S A I D B Y T H E S E X U A L R ELATION. CO M E CONCOCTI O N FROM ONE CALLED I SOC R AT E S TO SAY. SEVE R A L S M A L L RELATION S H I PS: T H I S TA KES U P OUR WORDLY L I F E . O N E HAS A WHOLE LOT OF R E L A T I O N S H I PS ABOUT T H E S E TO TH E S E R E LATION S H I P S A N D ONE A LSO HAS R E LA T I O N S H I P S . O R FOR US T O NOTICE (WH E N ' FOR E X A M PLE. . AT T H E POI NT OF H I S D E A T H . . PLACE MYSELF. FOR TH E TH I S IS S I M PLY A D E M A N D THE EQUAL D I STRI BUTION OF I N DI V I DUA LS. AND WE WOU L D NOT H A V E T O B R I NG I NTO PLAY TH E U N I VERSAL. IT I S P R EC I SELY ON THE CONTRARY OWING TO T H I S W H I C H RECALLED. A TOOL IT I S A RO U N D T H E TOOL THAT THE A N A LYTI C A L EXPERIENCE I NC I T E S US TO SEE OTH E R E M PTY. I FOR YOU THAT HERE THERE HAVE J U ST NOTED IS NO PLACE TO TO R ETI R E I N ORDER TO A LLOW T H I S DEATH. S U P P L E M E N TA R I TY. S U P PORT MY D I SCOU RSE ON THE B I U N I VOCITY OF THE COUPLI N G . OF THE TERM ORGAN. AN SOMETH I N G HOTH ER. A N D THIS H E COULD DO PRECI S E LY ON ACC O U N T OF THIS D I M ENSION WHICH FOR ME PRESENTED TH E HOTH E R A S SUCH. . HOW N E V E RTHELESS I T I S DON E . THAT H E H A D TO. T O ACCENTUATE THI NGS. N A M E LY T H I S H A T R E D OF H I S W I FE. THIS IS GETTING ACROSS THE D I M E N S I O N OF HATE W H I C H CAN H E R E ENTER I NTO P L A Y . IT I S A L R E A D Y W R I TT E N ? SEM BLA NCE. B U T AT T H E LEVEL WH E R E I P H A L L I C FUNCTION. IT I S PRECISELY FOR HAVI NG BROUGHT THE PURE S U B J E CT TO THE PLACE OF THE LONG E R A WAY. BY E V ERYTH I N G W H I C H A N S W E R S TO T H E E M ERGENCE OF A DI SCOURSE WHICH A S S U R E DLY H A S NEVER YET COME TO LIGHT AND W H I C H C A N NOT CONC E I V E OF ITSELF BY PRIOR E M E RG E N C E IN SO FAR FROM TH E P H I LOS O P H I C A L CHANCE. M A N I FE STLY H YSTE R I C A L . -HOW LONG I S I T GOING TO LAST1-IT I S NOT FROM ITS POSITION (OF ONE' WHICH WOULD BE LA NGUAGE. YESI TH I S R E LATION C A N P R E C I SELY RE-ENTER T H E OT H E R W H I C H I S ABSOLUTELY FOREIGN T O W H A T COULD H A V E B E E N H E R E P U R E LY AND S I M PLY AS ACC E S S O R Y . T O C A L L IT B Y H E R N A M E . H I S W I FE T O THE DEG R E E THAT S H E STA R V E D FOR H I M . . THESE C A TA L E P T I C MANI FESTATI ONS OF THE ONE CALLED SOCRATES. T H I S PERSON ( . ITS PO L I T I C A L D I M E N SION SIGNIFICANCE. WHO W A S ' H I S W I F E . TO A FTER A L L M E RITS TO BE THE M E A N I NG. I F H E COULD HOLD A D I SCOU R S E WHICH I S NOT FOR NOTH I N G AT THE ORIGIN OF THE DISCOU RSE OF I H A V E S A I D THAT WHAT IN THE R E LATIONSH I P O F B E I NG I S STIGMATIZED I N THE D E E PLY S U BVERTED LANGUAGE IS P R EC I S E LY THAT TH E R E IS NO SC I ENCE. WOU LD NOT BE H. EVE RYT H I NG WE H A V E OF DOES N OT . TH I S R E LA T I O N S H I P H A S A B SOLUTE LY N A M E LY A MODE O F D I SCOURSE W H I C H I S S U R E LY N E V E R THAT OF THE HYSTERIC W H I C H IS BUT THE ONE W H I C H I H A V E I N SC R I B E UNDER A Q U A D R U P A L D I V I S I O N ' A S BEING T H E A N A LYTI C A L D I SCOURSE. REDUCIBLE E I TH E R TO TH I S SOM ETH I N G THAT I S CALLED LONG E R B E A N Y QUESTION EITHER. TH E R E ARE OR RATH E R TH E R E MIGHT B E TWO U N I V E RSALS D E F I N E D J U ST B Y T H E ESTA B L I S H M E N T OF THE POS S I B I L I T Y OF A I HAVE SAID THAT I F W E C A N SAY THAT THERE I S NO S E X U A L R E LATION. RELATIONSH I P OF ONE TO A NOTHER. THAT I T C A N NO LONG E R WRITE ITSELF IN TERMS OF M A L E AND FEMALE ESSENCES. IT HOW DOES U N I V E RSAL U N I V E RSA L WOMAN. AND WHICH COM E S OUT OF TH I S D I SCOURSE I S THE H E R E T O FO R E U NEVOKED D I M E N SION OF THE NOTH I N G TO DO WITH WHAT I S O R D I N A R I LY CALLED SEXUAL R E LATON SHI PS. FORCE WHICH WHAT PERHAPS TO N I G H T WOULD MALE. BY AS W H I C H I S ONLY A N O RG A N . B U T I N A D I M ENSION W H I C H APPEARS T O US TO BE AN I LLUSION. MAN IS R E LATE H I M SELF TO THE QUESTION AND IS N A M ELY THIS SOM ETH I N G BY WHICH THIS S E X U A L R E LATION S H I P DOES NOT C H A R ACTE R I ZE AT L E A ST ONE OF THESE TWO T E R M S. WE MEAN D I SC O U R S E OF SC I E N C E AS IT IS THE C L I N I C A L LY H YSTE R I C A L: RELATIONSH I P OF WOULD H A V E TH E ( . TH E A C E N TU A TE H I D D E N M E A N I N G BECA U S E IT COMES TO US FROM A F A R . AGA I N . MORE TH I S TH I S I S T H E Q U E STION W H I C H I M POSES ITSELF O N US B Y T H E FACT THAT LANGUAGE D E M A N DS VERY PREC I S E LY THAT IT B E THERE WERE NO FOU N D E D FROM H E R E : IF THERE WOULD NO P R EC I S E LY T H E TERM ATTACH E D T O T H E WORD: THE O N E . POLITELY B E G H E R I F I R E J ECT TH I S A N C I E N T W R I T I N G U N TH E N A M E' O F 212 . OF THE OTH E R TO ONE. TH I S I S ASSUREDLY NOT IN ALL I N N OC E N C E . . AND TH I S IS A N O V E LTY. IT IS B E C A U S E TH E EXPERI ENCE.

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ITSELF ENGENDE RS,

I M A I NTA I N THAT THE WAY I N W H I C H O U R POSITIONS OF ARGUMENT A N D FU NCTION ARE WRITTEN ARE

THE oj> O F X A F F I R M S THAT I T I S T R U E -IT I S THE SENSE GIVEN TO TH E T E R M F U NCTION-THAT WHAT RE LATES TO T H E E X E RCISE, IN TH E REGISTER OF THE SEXUAL ACT, COMES FROM TH E PHALLIC

SUCH THAT WHAT I S POSED A S TR UTH CAN ONLY N EGATE BY PASS I N G I N TO T H E REALM OF THE

FALSE PRECISELY WHAT I S UNTENABLE HERE, THIS I S THE SO-CALLED N EGATI VE RELATION, BECA USE AT N O MATTER WHAT LEVEL, LOWER O R H IG H E R , THE STATE M E N T POS E D OF TH E AS F U NCTION TRUTH, OR AS PHALLIC IS AS

FU NCTION AGA I N , I T I S PRECISELY I N AS M U C H AS I T IS A M ATTER OF T H E PHALLIC FU NCTION FROM

WHATEVER S I D E WE SIDE OR FROM

LOOK AT, I M E A N FROM O N E OTHE R , THAT S O M ETH I N G TWO TWO

EITHER

P R E C I S E L Y,

THE

DEVIATION; BECAUSE AFTE R A LL, THE T R U E TRUTH WOU LD B E EXACTLY THAT WHICH DOESN'T WRITE

SOLICITES DI FFER,

U S T O A K S THEN. IS

HOW D O THE

AND T H I S

PREC I SE LY W H A T THE

ITSELF, THAT W H I C H H E R E C A NNOT WRITE ITSELF EXCEPT IN A FORM WHICH CONTESTS T H E PHALLIC FU NCTIO N , IT IS IS THE NOT TRUE THAT OF THE THE PHA LLIC SEXUAL

FOR M U LA S IN TH E D I A G R A M SAY,

I F I T I S PROVED FROM THE FACT THAT TO DOM I N ATE

FUNCTION

FOU N DATION

213

R E LATION:

IN

THESE

TWO

L E V E LS

WH I C H

STA Y

F U NCTI ON. A N D SITUATES H E RSELF T H E R E ONLY A S TH E NOT- A L L TO B E S U B J UGATED.

I N D E P E N D E NT A S SUCH. IT IS NOT A MATTER AT A L L OF M A K I N G O N E THE N EGATION OF THE OTH E R B U T ON TH E CONTRARY OF M A K I N G ONE THE OBSTAC L E OF THE OTH E R . AGA I N ST THAT WHICH YOU SEE

WHAT

IS

STRANGE

I S T H E THE

D I S J U NCTION

NO

LONG E R H O L D S : I F YOU R E M E M BER. THE D I S J U NC­ TION ONLY TAKES ON VALUE BY VI RTU E OF THE

R E D I STRI BUTED: IT I S PRECISELY AN I T T H A T EXI STS A N D A N I T THAT DOES NOT EXI ST: IT IS A WHOLE ON TH E ONE S I DE. AND ALL X. THE DO M A I N OF WHAT IS M A L E D E F I N I N G lTSELF BY THE PHALLIC FU NCTION: THE DI FFERENCE IN TH E PO S I T I O N OF THE

FACT THAT TWO PROPOSITIONS CAN NOT B E FALSE AT TH E S A M E T I M E: LET U S SAY. OF THE STRONGEST OR THE W E A K E ST. I T I S A S S U R E D LY THE STRONGEST R E LA T I O N D I F FI C U LT IN TO THAT STI R IT IS WHAT IS THE MOST TH E R E

A R G U M E NT I N T H E PHA LLIC POSITION O R F U N CTION I S P R E C I S E L Y THAT IT I S NOT EVERY WOMAN W H I C H WRITES ITSELF. FAR FROM TH E ONE ITSELF

TOGETH ER.

BECA USE

M U ST B E A M I N I M U M F O R THERE TO B E D I S J U NCTION. THAT D I S J U NCTION R E N D E R S VALID ONE PROPOSI­ TION TO B E TRUE. TH E OTH E R FALSE. AND THAT OF COURSE BOTH O F THEM ARE TRUE. I HAVE CALLED T H E O N E TRUE. T H E OTH E R FALSE: I T I S P E RHAPS THAT THE ONE THERE IS IS FALSE. AT AND THE OTH E R TRUE: THREE CASES OF

O P POS E D T O T H E OTH E R A S ITS NEGATION. I T I S ON TH E CONT R A R Y FROM T H E I R SUBSISTA NCE ( H E R E VERY POS I T I V E LY D E N I EDI T H A T TH E R E IS AN X

W H I C H C A N U PHOLD ITSELF IN THIS R E A L M BEYOND TH E PHA LLIC FU NCTION. AND ON TH E OTH E R H A N D . THAT T H E R E I S N O T ONLY O N E . F O R THE S I M PLE R E A SON THAT WOM E N C A N NOT BE CASTRATED FOR TH E BEST OF R E A SONS. THIS I S THE LEVEL OF WHAT IS B LOC K E D P R E C I S E LY FOR US IN THE SEXUAL

THEN

L E A ST

COMBI NATIONS W H ICH TH E DISJU NCTION U PHOLDS.

NOW H E R E W E

HAVE TWO FUNCTIONS WHICH A R E

POSITED A S N O T B E I NG-AS I S A I D A MOMENT AGO­ THE T R U E TRUTH. SEEM HOPE. TO HOLD THOSE WHICH ARE ABOVE: WE GIVES

R E LATION. WHILE ON THE LEVEL OF THE PHA LLIC FUNCTION. I T I S PRECISELY THE NOT-ALL' OPPOSED TO TH E A LL: T H E R E I N LIES THE POSSIBI LITY OF A R E D I ST R I BUTION ITSELFI F E M A LE. W I LL BE FROM L E FT TO AS R IG H T. M A LE (WHICH AND AS

HERE

S O M E TH I N G

WHICH

N A M E L Y T H A T W E H A V E A R T I C U LATED A

TRUE D I S J U NCTION. HOWEVER. LET US NOTE WHAT TH E R E IS OF THE TO WRITTEN. WHICH IN I A HAVE THE

FOU N D E D

O P P O RT U N I T Y

A R T I C U LA T E

MANNER

B R I N G I N G I T A L I V E FOR YOU: O N ON E S I DE O F THIS 4> T H E N EGATIVE R ELATION DOESN'T AT ALL FORCE U S TO CHOOSE: ON THE CONTRA RY. I A S M U C H A S W E A R E F A R F R O M H A V I NG T O CHOOSE. A N D THAT WE M U ST R E D I ST R I B U T E . T H E TWO SIDES ARE OF X N EG A T E D W H E R E TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION

DOES NOT FUNCTION. TH E R E I S A POS S I B I LITY OF SEXUAL RELATI O N SH I P. WE H A V fi POSITED THAT

TH E R E E X I STS AN X I . . . 1. NOW W H A T DO W E H A V E O N TH E OTH E R S I D E -W H E R E T H E R E DOES N O T E X I ST AN X?

LEGITI M ATELY OPPOS ED TO EACH OTH ER.

A FT E R

N EGATION.

I

M E NTION E D

CONJU NCTION. IN THE WAY THAT THE MODE IN WHICH TH E

WOULD NOT NEED TO ACCOU NT FOR CONJUCTION I N TH I S C A S E . EXC E PT TO M A K E T H E OBSERVATION. ( I H O P E T H E R E A R E ENOUGH PEOPLE H E R E WHO H A V E VAG U ELLY BROWSE D A BOOK ON L OG I C SO T H A T I NEED NOT I N S I STI THAT THE CONJ U N C T I O N IS

D I F F E R E NT I A T I O N

B E TW E E N

MALE A N D FEMALE.

BETW E E N M A N A N D WOM A N I N TH E S P E A K I NG B E I N G W O U L D B E S U PPORTED. T H E R E IS A D I SCORD. W E W I L L S E E LATE R W H A T TH I S M EA N S . AT T H E LEVEL OF U N I V E RSALS W H I C H ARE NOT S U PPORTED. FROM TH E FACT OF T H E INCONSISTENCY OF O N E A MONG TH E M . WHEN WE DEVIATE FROM THE FUNCTION

B A S E D PR E C I S E L Y O N TH I S : VALUE D E R I V E S ONLY BY V I RTU E OF T H E FACT THAT BOTH PROPOSITIONS CAN B E T R U E .

ITSELF. T H E R E E X I STS O N ONE S I D E A N X WHICH NOWI T H I S I S EXACTLY WHAT I N N O WAY A LLOWS U S TO M A I NTA I N WHAT I S I N THE D I AGRAM. S I N C E YOU C A N S E E THAT FROM RIGHT TO LEFT. TH E R E I S NO I D E NTITY AND P R E C I S E LY THERE WHERE A SATI S F I E S 4> X N EGATED. ON T H E OTH E R S I D E W E HAVE THE I D E F I N I TE FO R M U LATION BY THAT NO X

( WH I C H

HAVE

I L L U ST R A T E D

SAYING

THAT

WOM A N F O R T H E B EST O F R EASONS. CAN NOT B E CASTRATEDI W H I C H I S TO SAY AT T H E LEVEL W H E R E TH E D I S J U NCTION WOU L D HAVE T H E OPPORT U N I TY TO PRODUCE ITSE LF. WE F I N D ONLY O N T H E O N E S I DE. F R O M T H E ONE/ON E AT LEAST W H A T I H A V E P U T FORTH O F T H E OTH E R WE FI N D AT-LEAST-QNE. A N D ON T H E P R EC I S E LY THE NON-

QU ESTION OF WHAT IS PROPOSE D AS TURE E X I STS. B E A R I NG IN MIND

4> TO

X.

U N I V E RS A L S

CAN

CONJOI N . T H E U N IVERSAL O F THE L E FT S I D E DOES NOT OPPOSE ITSELF TO TH E R IGHT SIDE. TO THE

EXTENT THAT I T HAS NO A RTIC U LABLE U N I VERSAL: THAT I S IT I S TH E WOM A N WHO SEES TH E P H A LLIC

VERY

214

EXI STENCE. THAT IS T H E R E LATION OF ONE TO ZERO.

C ERTA I N D I G N ITY. SO THAT I WI LL P U B L I S H IT O N E OF THESE DAYS. I F I PUBLISH AGA I N . W H I C H DOESN'T

W H E R E THE S E X U A L R E LATIONS H I P WOULD HAVE NO O P PORTU N I TY TO BE TO ACCOM P L I S H BEYOND ITSELF. BUT

DEPEND ON M E . OTH ERS WOULD H A V E TO P U B L I S H W I T H ME. A S T H I S WOULD ENCO U R A G E M E A LITTLE. A N D IF I PUBLISH. YOU WILL SEE W I T H WHAT C A R E I HAVE LOCATED THE THI NGS WHICH I HAVE A LREADY SAID FOR 3 YEARS. ON A CERTA I N N U M B E R OF

SIMPL Y

HOPED

THE

A BOLITION

THROUGH DIVERSION FROM T H E PHALLIC FUNCTION. WE FIND ONLY ONE OF THE TWO SEXES AS A

PRESENCE.

REGISTE R S A BOUT THE PATE R N A L M ETAPHOR. AND TH E PROPER NAME. F I N A LLY TH E R E WAS EVERY­

T H I S I S PREC I SELY WHAT I T BRI NGS C LOSER TO US OF THE EXPE R I E N C E W H E R E WOMA N (THE U N IVER­ SAL FOR WOM A N DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO ARISE

THI NG N E C ESSARY SO THAT. WITH TH E BIBLE. I GAVE M EA N I N G TO TH I S MYTH I C ELUC U BRATION. BUT I

WON'T 00 T H I S EVER AGAIN.

FROM TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION.) ONLY PARTICI PATES EITHER TO WANT TO E N R A PT U R E M A N . OR M Y GODI SHE I M POSES ON H I M THE S E R V I C E OF THE PHALLIC FU NCTION. OR WORST O F A LL AND T H I S I S PERHAPS THE CASE IN W H I C H IT S H O U L D BE S A I D. SHE GIVES THE PHALLIC FU NCTION BACK TO H I M . BUT THIS THEREI T H I S E OF X SLASHED. (IT DOE S N 'T EXI ST. N OTH I NG THERE E X I STS WOULD AT A BE A C E R TA I N CHANCE LEVEL. FO R WHERE I WON'T 00 TH I S EVER AGA I N BECA U S E A FTER ALL I CAN SATI S F Y M YSELF BY FORM U LATI NG T H I NGS AT THE LEVEL OF LOG I C A L STR U C T U R E . WHICH

CERTAI N LY H A S ITS RIGHTS.

DOESN'T U N I V E RSA LIZE HER. IT IS NOT TH I S WHICH IS THE ROOT OF N O T- A L L : THA N SHE R E V E A LS A

PLEASURE

OTH E R

P H A LL I C :

FE M I N I N E

SEXUA L

JOUISSANCE W H I C H I N N O WAY D E P E N D S ON TH IS. I F WOM A N IS NOT N O T- A L L . IT IS BECAUSE HER

RELATI O N S H I PS) THE HETEROS IN S O M U C H AS IT I S ABSENT. IS NOT AT ALL N E C E S SA R I LY THE

JOU ISSANCE I S D U A L.

PRIVILEOGE O F THE FEM I N I E SEX. I T I S S I M PLY THE I N DICATION OF WHAT I N M Y DIAGRAM H A D I TS LITTLE DESTI N Y O F WHAT I INSCRIBE AS THE S I G N I F I E R OF

T H I S I S IN FACT WHAT TI R E S I A S REVEA LED WHEN H E RETU RNED F R O M B E I NG. BY T H E G R A C E OF ZEUS. THERESE. FOR A W H I LE . WITH O F C O U R S E TH E

TH E

SLASHED

O.

THIS

MEANS

TH E

OTH E R : OTH E R

NO IS

MATTER

WHERE

ON E

TAKES

IT.

THE

A BSENT F R O M THE MOM E N T T H A T I T ' S A Q U E STION OF SE X U A L RE LATION S H I PS.

CONSEQUENCES WE A L L K N OW. A N D WHICH WERE LAI D-OUT. V I S I B LE . TH I S IS P E R H A PS THE CASE

THAT REVEALED TO OEDIPUS W H A T WOULD AWAIT HIM. AS HAVING EXI STED. A S M A N OF TH I S SUPREME PO S S E S S I O N AND WHAT WOULD R E S U LT IN

NATURA L LY. AT THE LEVEL OF WHAT F U NCTIONS. THAT I S TO SAY THE PHA LLIC FU NCTION. TH E R E I S S I M PLY THIS D I SCOU R S E ON ONE THAT AND I HAVE THE J U ST

DECEPTION W H E R E H I S PA RTN E R WOU L D KEEP H I M FROM T H E T R U E N A T U R E O F W H A T S H E OFFERED FOR HIS JOUISSANCE. O R LET U S SAY IT I N ANOTH E R WAY. WHAT WOULD R E S U LT I N D EC E PTION SINCE H I S PARTN E R D E M A N D E D OFFERED H I M . H I M T O R E F U S E WHAT S H E

M E NTION ED.

SIDE

OTH E R .

AUTOMATICA LLY ONE I S NOT I N T H E S A M E POS ITION. ON ON E SIDE IS A U N I V E R S A L. BASED ON A

R E LATIO N N ECESSARY TO TH E PHA LLIC F UNCTION. AND ON THE OT H E R S I DE IS A R E LA T I O N IS OF I

CONTI N G E N C Y STRESS THEN

B EC A U S E

WOM A N

N O T- A LL.

THAT AT THE

H I G H E R L E V E L. THE

TH I S M A N I FESTS A T TH E L E V E L O F T H E MYTH. THAT IN ORDER TO EXIST AS A M A N AT A LEVEL SO AS TO ESCAPE THE P H A L LIC F U N CTION. TH E R E WOULD BE N O OTH ER WOM A N THAN THE ONE WHO OUGHT

RELATI O N SH I P FOUNDED ON THE D I S A PPEARANCE. TH E VAN I S H I NG . THE EXISTENCE O F O N E OF THE PARTN E R S WHO LEAVES THE PLACE E M PTY FOR

THE I N SC R I PTION OF SPEECH. IS NOT AT TH I S LEVEL THE PRIVI LEDGE OF EITH E R SIDE. IT I S J U ST THAT I N ORDER FOR TH E R E TO B E A BASI S FOR SEX. T H E R E

PREC I S E LY NOT TO HAVE EXISTED FOR H I M.

THEREI THE

WHY SHOU LDN'T S H E H A V E EXISTED. WHY OF I N C EST? THIS WO U L D

MUST B E TWO. S U R E LY 0 A N D

1

M A K E 2 . ON THE

PROH I B ITION THAT I

SYMBOLIC PLANE. I N SO FAR AS W E AGREE THAT EXISTE N C E I S ROOTED I N THE SYMBOL. THIS I S WHAT DEFINES THE SPEAKING BEI NG.

NECESSITATE TRACK OF

GET I N VOLVED OF THE I

ALONG THE WHERE

TH E I

NAME

FATH ER

P R EC I S E LY TREAD

HAVE

SAID

THAT I

WOULD NEVER (BECAUSE IT I S I N FACT SOMETH I NG THAT I S NOT WHAT I T IS. IT IS JUST THAT THIS BEING IS A BSOLUTELY

AGA I N

BECAUSE

REREAD

SOM EONE A S K E D M E TO) HERE AT ST. A N N E IN

M Y F I RST CONFERENCE

1 96 3 AND IT EVEN HAS A

UNGRASPABLE A N D I T I S ALL THE MORE U NG R A S P-

213

A B L E BECA U S E IT I S O B L I G E D TO SU PPORT ITSELF TH ROUGH TH E SYMBOL. IT I S CLEAR THAT A B E I NG. W H I C H COM E S TO BE ONLY TH ROUGH THE SYMBOL. IS PRECISELY THIS B E I NG WI THOUT B E I N G IN WHICH (FROM TH E SOLE FACT THAT YOU SPEAK) YOU ALL PA RTI C I PATE. BUT WHICH ON THE OTH E R HAND.

TH E I R

STRUCTU RE. TO

THERE

M U ST

WELL IS

B E

A

R E LATION S H I P LANGUAGE.

S O M ETH I N G

WH I C H

NOT

OF

CO U R S E

IT

IS

E A SY T O U N D E R STA N D

THAT

P E O P L E W I L L S L I P G R O U N D ON T H E P RETEXT THAT WHAT SEEMS TO T H E M TO BE T H I S "BEYOND OF

C ERTA I N LY S U P PORTS ITSELF AND I S E X I STENCE SINCE EXISTING IS NOT B E I NG . TH I S I S TO SAY.

LA NGUAGE" C A N ON LY B E MATH E M AT I C A L. T H I S IS BECA U S E IT I S A BUT N U M B E R. I T I S A Q U ESTION OF P E R H A PS IN IT IS NOT ITS STRICTLY TO

EXISTING I S NOT D E P E N D I NG O N THE OTH E R .

Q U A NTITY. YOU A R E ALL H E R E T O SOM E D E G R E E T O EXI ST. B U T YOU ARE N O T PARTIC U L A R LY OF YOU R O W N CALM ABOUT T H E YOU SPEAKING

N U M E R I C ITY

ALL

R E A LI TY

W H I C H L A N G U A G E G I V E S ACCESS. B U T O N L Y T H E C A PA C I TY THROUGH R E A L. TO A NCHOR TH E ZERO AND ONE.

NATURE

B E I N G . OTH E R W I S E

WOU L DN'T COME TO S E E K A S S U RA NC E I N SO M A N Y PSYCHOANA LYTIC E F FORTS.

T H I S TH E REAL

ENTRANCE WHICH

WOU L D B E M A D E CAN BE THE

THE

A LO N E

" B E YO N D H E R E TH E R E IS SOM ETH I N G COM PL.ETE LY ORIG I N A L IN THE FI RST E M ERGENCE OF L.OGIC: TH E DIFFI­

OF

LANGUAGE."

N A M E LY

T H E O N LY

DO M A I N I N W H I C H A SYM BOLIC I M POSSI BILITY C A N B E FOR M U LATED.

CUL TY. THE I NDECISION TH A T A R I STOTLE SHOWED CO N C E R N I N G THE ST A T U S OF A PARTI C U L A R TH I S R E LATIO N SH I P. ACCESS I B L E TO LANGUAGE. I F IT IS P R EC I S E LY FOU N D E D ON A SEXUAL NON­

PROPOSITION. THESE A R E D I F F I C U L.TI ES TH AT H A V E B E E N STR ESSED EL.SEW H E R E . BUT T H A T I D I D NOT D I SCOVER. FOR THOSE WHO D E S I R E A R E F E R ENCE. I R E F E R YOU TO C A H I E R NO. 1 0 O F THE C A H I E RS POU R
L ' A N A LY S E . T H E A RTICLE BY JACQUES B R U N SCHWIG

R E LATIONSH I P C A N ONLY TH E R E FORE CONFRONT 0 AND

1 ;

TH I S

FACT

WOULD

E A S I LY

FIND

ITS

R E FLECTION I N T H E ELABORATION F R EG E G I V E S O F THE LOGI C A L G E N E S I S O F N U M B E R S .

IS

E XC E L L E N T ;

YOU

WILL

SEE

P E R F ECTLY TH E HAD WITH THE I H A V E S PO K E N OF THAT WHICH C A U S E S D I F F I C U LTY I N TH I S LOGICAL G E N E S I S . N A M E LY T H E G A P . THE GAP O F THE M ATH E M ATICAL TRI A N G L E . BETW E E N

D I F F I C U LTY PARTICULAR.

WHICH

A R I STO T L E

H E PERCEIVED THAT E X I ST E N C E IN NO WAY C A N B E ESTA B L I S H E D TH I S R EASON. OUTS I D E HE OF TH E U N I V E R S A L; FOR

TH I S 0 A N D TH I S 2. A G A P W H I C H DOUBLES TH E I R O P PO S I T I O N O F C O N F R O N T A T I O N . W H A T I NT E R ­ V E N E S I S T H E R E O N L Y BECAUSE IT I S TH E E S S E N C E OF T H E FI RST COUPLE. SO T H A T TH E R E M IGHT BE TH E ESSENCE OF T H E TH I RD A N D SO THAT THE GAP AS SUCH IS A LW A Y S WHICH IS LEFT TO THE TWO; THIS ESSENTIA L BECAUSE IS OF

SITUATES

EXISTENCE

AT THE

L E V E L OF THE PARTI C U LA R. AND TH I S PARTI C U LA R I N N O WAY S U FFICES TO S U P PORT I T EVEN THOUGH HE S E E M S TO S U PPORT IT BY V I RTUE OF TH E USE OF TH E WORD SOME.

SO M ET H I NG

SOMETH I NG M UC H MORE DANGEROUS W H I C H M I G H T ON THE CONTRARY W H AT R E S U LTS FROM THE SO­ C A L L E O FORM A L I ZATION OF Q U A NTI F I ERS (CA LLED Q U A NTI F I ERS BECAUSE O F A T RACE. L E FT I N THE P H I LOSOPHY OF H I STORY THROUGH THE FACT THAT SOM EONE N A M E D A P U L I A . A NOVELIST OF NOT VERY GOOD TASTE AND A N U N R ESTR A I N E D MYSTIC. AND WHO CREATED THE GOLDE N THAT ASS. IN ONE DAY BE SUBSTITUTED IN THE A N A LY S I S OF T H E

M YT H I C A L SELVES I N

ADVENTURES O F OEDIPUS ( I N THEM­ NO W A Y D I ST U R B I N G I N AS M U C H A S

T H E Y A D M I R A B LY STRUCTU R E TH E N ECESSITY T H A T THERE BE S O M E W H E R E A T- L E A ST -O N E W H I C H

T R A N S C E N D S W H A T THERE I S OF TH E G R A S P O F T H E PHA LLIC FU NCTION; TH E MYTH OF THE PRIM A L

I NT R O D U C E D

THE

I D EA

A R I STOT L E

FATH E R M E A N S NOT H I N G OTH E R TH A N TH I S ) . T H I S I S S U F F I C I E NT E N O U G H FOR U S TO M A K E U S E O F I T BEYOND T H E FACT THAT W E F I N D I T CON F I R M E D B Y LOG I C A L STRUCTURATION.

E V E R YT H I N G THAT CON C E R N S A LL A N D SOM E WAS OF TH E ORDER OF QUA NTITY. I T WAS NOT AT ALL LI K E TH AT,) I S S I M PLY TWO D I F FE R E N T MODES OF WHAT I M IGHT CA LL. IF YOU W I L L A LLOW M E A LITTLE I M PROVIZATION. THE I N C A R N ATION OF T H E SYM BOL. TH E PASSAGE I NTO ORDI N A R Y LIFE OF THE FACT

ON

THE

OTH E R

H A ND.

THERE

IS

ASSUREDLY

NOTH I N G M O R E D A N G E RO U S T H A N TH E CO N F U S I O N OV E R WHAT THERE IS OF TH E ONE. THE O N E IS

THAT THERE IS ALL A N D SOM E IN ALL LANGUAGES A S S U R E DLY FORC E S US TO POS E THAT ALL

F R E Q U E NTLY EVOK E D BY FREUD A S T H E S IG N I F I E R OF THE ESSENCE OF E ROS: IT A N D THE L I B I DO

LA N G U AGE M U ST H A V E T H E SA M E ROOTS A N D THAT AS ALL LANG UAGES ARE D E E PLY DIFFERENT I N

WOU LD BOTH STRA I N TO M A K E ONE. ACCORD I N G TO

21 6

AN OLD MYTH (NOT AT A L L OF THE M YT H I C A L MODE) ONE OF TH E F U N D A M E NT A L TENSIONS OF THE

OF BEING R E P R E S E NTED. THERE I S I N T H I S ONLY ONE REQU I SITE. I F I MIGHT SAY. A G R ATUITOUS O N E ; NOTH ING I M POSES TH I S AT·LEAST·ONE I F N O T T H E U N IQUE C H A NC E -A N D STILL IT M U ST B E PLA Y E D OUT-QF WHICH SOMETH I NG F U NCTIONS ON TH E

WORLD WOULD STRA I N T O M A K E O N L Y O N E . THIS M YT H IS T R U LY ON SOMETH I NG H O R I ZO N WHICH OF CAN ONLY AND

F U NCTION

THE

DELIR I U M

W H I C H . STRICTLY S P E A K I NG. H A S NOTH I N G TO DO WITH A N YTH I NG AT ALL W H I C H W E ENCOU NTER IN EXPERI ENCE. IF T H E R E I S A N YTH I NG V E R Y OVERT IN THE RE LATIONS H I P BETWEEN SEXES. THAT

OTHER S I D E BUT ONLY AS AN I D E A L POINT. AS T H E POSSIBI LITY F O R ALL M E N T O ATTA I N IT THROUGH IDENTIFICATION.

A N A LYSIS NOT ONLY A RT I C ULATES B U T C A N B E PUT I N TO PLAY I N ALL D I R ECTIONS AND SENSES. H E R E IS SOM E T H I N G WHICH THIS CAUSES IS D I F F I C U LTY IN

THERE IS IN T H I S A LOGICAL NECE SSITY WHICH I S I M POSED ON LY O N THE LEVEL O F THE WAGER. B U T NOTICE O N THE OTH E R H A N D W H A T RESU LTS FROM IT CONC E R N I N G T H E M A L E U N I VERSAL; THUS. T H I S AT·LEAST·ONE. ON W H I C H THE MYTH ICAL N A M E O F THE FATH E R I S S U STA I N E D. I S I N D I S PENSABLE.

R E LATI O N S H I PS .

P R E C I S ELY

R E LATION·

S H I PS BETWE E N WOME N ; NOTH I N G COULD RESEM· BLE THE SPONTA N EITY O F T H E S E R E LATIONSHI PS. WHICH TION E D IS NOW PRECISELY AN TH E H O R I ZO N BASED ON I MEN· SOME

EARLIER.

A N I M A LIC

IT I S HERE THAT I ADVANCE A FLASH O F WHAT IS M I SSING FROM T H E FUNCTION. FROM THE NOTION O F SPECIES A N D O F CLASS. AND CONSEQUE NTLY I T I S NO ACCI DENT THAT T H I S ENTI RE DIALECTIC WAS LEFT OUT OF A R I STOTLE'S FORMS.

A N I M A L MYTH; I N N O WAY I S EROS A T E N D E NCY O F TH E ONE. ACCO R D I N G TO THIS FU NCTION. ANY

ARTICU LATION M A K ES C L E A R T H A T T H E R E A R E TWO LEVELS OF SECRECY IN WHICH T H E OPPOSITION

BETWEEN THE SEXES I S FOU N D E D ONLY IN D I SCORD A N D ONLY I N A S M UC H AS T H E Y CAN IN NO WAY BE I N STITUTED AS U N I VE R S A L . AT THE L E V E L OF I N FACT WHERE DOES T H I S E OF X FUNCTION.T H I S "TH ERE E X I STS AT·LEAST-ONE" W H I C H I S NOT T H E SLAVE OF THE PHAL LIC FUNCTION? T H I S I S O N L Y A REQUISITE I W I L L SAY. OF A HOPELESS TYPE. FROM THE POINT OF IS VIEW OF TH I S SOMETH I NG WHICH

EXISTENCE ON T H E CONTRARY. I S PR E C I SE LY AN OPPOSITION CON S I ST I N G IN T H E C A N C ELLATION.

THE E M PTYING OF ONE O F T H E FUNCTIONS A S BEING THAT OF T H E OTH E R . REVEALED BY T H E POSSIBI LITY OF AN ARTICULATION OF LA NGUAGE. T H I S I S WHAT S E E M S TO M E ESSENTI A L TO B R I N G TO LIGHT.

ITSELF

NOT

EVEN

S U STA I N E D

TH ROUG H

UN IVERSAL D E F I N ITON.

NOTICE THAT A MOMENT AGO IN S P E A K I N G TO YOU S U C C E S S I V E L Y A BOUT N EG A T I O N . CON J U NCTION AND DISJ U NCTION. WAS I HAD P U S H E D TO T H E LIMIT

BUT ON

THE

OTH E R

H A ND. OBSERVE THAT WITH

RES PECT TO THE MALE U N I VERSAL. TO TH E A OF X. TO THE <I> OF X. EVERY M A LE IS A SLAVE TO T H E PHA LLIC FUNCTION. THIS AT·LEAST· ONE WHICH

WHAT THERE THAT. ONLY HERE

OF

I M P LICATION.

I T I S CLEAR F U NCTION

AGA I N . THE

I M PLICATION TWO

CAN

BETW E E N

LEVELS.

THAT O F THE

FUNCTIONS T O ESCAPE. WHAT DOES TH I S M E A N ? I WILL SAY THAT IT I S -THE EXCEPTION, IT I S THE PATH WHEREIN I S CON F I R M E D BY US THE PROVERB W H I C H SAYS, WITHOUT K NOWI NG W H A T IT SAYS, T H A T T H E

PHALLIC F U NCTION AND THAT W H I C H D I V E RTS IT.

NOW

NOTH I NG OF WHAT

IS

DISJU NCTION ON THE

EXCEPTION PROVES TH E RU LE, I S S U PPORTED B Y U S . IT I S EXCEPTIONAL T H A T I T IS O N L Y W I T H T H E ANALYTIC A L D I SCOURSE THAT A U N I VERSAL C A N FIND I N E X I STENCE ITS VERITABLE FOUN DATION I N TH E EXCEPTION, W H IC H ASSUREDLY ALLOWS U S I N ANY CASE TO D I STI N G U I S H THE U N I VERSAL TH U S ESTABLI S H E D RENDERED FROM A N Y U S E THAT H A S B E E N B Y TH E P H I LO S O P H I C A L

LOW E R LEVEL. ON THE LEVEL OF THE I N S U FFICIEN· CY O F U N I VERSAL SPEC I F ICATION. I M PL I E S THAT IF AND ONLY IS IF TH E SYNCOPATION ON THE OF E X I STENCE LEVEL ON IS

WHICH

PRODUCED

HIGHER D I SCORD

ACTUA LLY

PRODUC E D.

THEN

TH E

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H I G H E R LEVEL TO THE LOWE R LEVEL. I N O N E WAY WHICH I S DIST I NCT A N D SEPARATED. T H E R E MUST EXIST AT·LEAST-ONE·MAN WHICH I S THE ONE THAT SEEMS T R A N S M I TT E D ON THE LEVEL OF THIS

BUT IT I S AN EXTRAORDINARY TH I NG THAT I FI N D MYSELF, I N TH I S WAY, O N T H E PATH OF A QUEST A N D BECA USE, FROM A N A N C I E NT FORMATION (I DON'T NOT AT A LL NOT K NOW C H I NESE), I ASKED ONE OF MY DEAR EST (I F R I E NDS TO RECALL TO M E H A D) K E PT MORE O R LESS WHAT AS A

FEM I N I N E SPECI F I E D BY B E I N G NOT·ALL, A DUALITY. THE ONLY POINT IN WHICH D U A LITY H A S A CHANCE

EVIDENTLY

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TRA C E . BUT WHAT I H A D TO CONFI RM FOR MYSELF BY SOM EON E FOR WHOM C H I N E S E I S THE MATE R N A L LA NGUAGE. I T I S ASS U R EDLY VERY STRANGE THAT IN C H I N E SE. THE D E L I M I TATION OF ALL. IF I MIGHT EXPRESS MORE MYSELF THUS.

C I ENTLY SHOWS THAT H E R R E LATION S H I P TO THE P H A L L I C F U NCTION IS QU ITE ACTI V E .

I N A N Y C A S E . WOM A N I S NO M O R E I NS U R E D I N H E R U N I V E RSA L ESSENCE THAN M A N FOR T H E S I M PL E R E A SON T H A T T H E CONTRA R Y OF T H E L I M IT. I S T H A T TH E R E I S NONE. T H E R E I S NO EXCEPTION. THE FACT THAT TH E R E IS NO E XC E PT I O N I N SU R E S THE

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U N I V E R S A L A L R E A D Y S O POO R L Y E S TA B L I S H E D E I TH E R F O R T H E R E A SON T H A T I T I S D I SCORDANT OR THAT I T DOESN'T ASSURE T H E U N I V E RS A L OF WOM A N . W I TH O U T EXCEPTION. FAR FROM GIVING

THAT ONE COU NTS BUT THAT THIS DOES NOT M A K E TH E M NOT-ALL A N D TO TH I S I S A D D E D ( T E l W H I C H M E A N S : WITHOUT E XC E PTION.

SOM E-ALL GIVES

M O R E CON S I STENCY. TH I S NATURA LLY LESS C O N S I ST E N C Y TO W H AT IS

STI L L

D E F I N E D A S NOT- A L L. A S ESSENTI A L LY DUAL.

YOU COU LD OBJ ECT T H A T WHAT WE D I SCOVER IN WHAT I S ARTI C U LATED A S R E LATIONS H I P OF SIGN TO E X I STENCE THROUGH R E S P ECT OF A U N I V E RSAL STATUS. TA K E S ITS F I G U R E AS AN EXCEPTION.

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STR A N G E ST TH I NG: T H E FUNCTION O F TH E ONE. BUT ALSO IT E X I STS ONLY A S CO R R E LATION OF. I WOND E R A LOT A BOUT A N I M A L M E NTA L I TY WHICH A FT E R A LL WOU LD ONLY BE U S E F U L TO M E A S A M IRROR R E FERENCE. AS A M I R RO R WH ICH. AS

WHAT I CALLED A MOM ENT AGO. THE ( E M PTI NESS) OF T H E OTHER: I F IN V I R T U E W E HAVE PROGRESSED IN THE LOGIC OF CLASSES. I T IS THAT WE HAVE

C R E ATED A LOG IC OF S E TS. THAT THE DI FFERENCE BETW E E N A CLASS AND A S E T IS THAT WHEN THE CLASS I S E M PTY. TH E R E IS STI LL TH I S ELEMENT OF TH E E M PTY S ET. IT IS IN T H I S THAT ONCE MORE. P R OG R E S S TOW A R D S

B E F O R E A L L M I R RORS. I RAVE. TH E R E I S SOM ETH I N G W H I C H WE M I G H T ASK O U R S E L V E S : F O R T H E A N I M AL. I S T H E R E T H E ONE7

MATH E M A TICS LOGI C .

HAS

MADE

JACQUES LAC A N

TRANSLATED BY DENISE GREEN
TH E X I N T H E RIGHT PART OF T H E D I A G R A M I M PL I E S THAT T H E R E I S A U N I LATERA L I TY OF THE E X I STEN­ TIAL FUNCTION FOR T H E OTH E R PA RTN E R . THAT IS. THAT TH E R E ARE NO E XC E PT I O N S . TH E R E IS I

WOULD L I K E TO THAN K THOMAS GORA. SUZA N N E AND JOHN RAJ C H M A N FOR TH E I R KIND

G U E RLAC

SOM ETH I NG THAT I S N O LONGE R I N SYMMETRY WITH THE REQU I R E M ENT OF THE AT-LEAST-ONE THAT A MOM E N T ANOTH E R AGO I CALLED H O P E LESS. WHICH THERE IN IS

ASSISTANCE I N T H E TRANSLAnO N OF T H I S TEXT.

THIS

REFERS

TO

THE

THEORY

OF

FO U R

REQU I R E M ENT

R E S I DES

THE

D I SCO U R S E S O F T H E A N A LYST. T H E H Y STE RIC. THE U N I V E R S I TY AND THE M A ST E R CF.

FACT THAT I N THE END. THE M A SCULI N E U N I VERSAL CAN ONLY GET I TS DUE WITH T H E I N SURANCE THAT TH E R E E X I STS NO WOM A N WHO C A N BE CASTRATED. TH I S IS FOR THAT REASONS THE WHICH A PPEA R EVIDENT. SUFFI-

RADIOPHON I E I N S C I LICET 2/3.

NOTE: O N E OF LACAN'S FOR M U LAS IS WOMAN­ I S-NOT- E V E R YTHI NG. NOT- A L L R E F E R S TO THIS.

EXC E PT

B E H AV I O R

OF WOMAN

218

S I LENCES H E R O W N C H I LD­ HOOD QUESTION. THE MOT H E R R E D I SCOVERS H E R OWN QUESTION IN HER D A U G H T E R'S Q U ESTI O N . I F A F U N DA M E NTA L DEFICI ENCY OF T H E PATE R N A L FU NCTION IS A D D E D WHAT H A PP E N S IN THIS BRIEF EXC H A N G E ? A T O THE ABSENCE OF THE MOTH ER'S RECOGNITION. ALLOWS HER DAUGHTER TO CONTI N U E TO SPEAK 1 . ONLY TWO POSSI BLE SOLUTI ONS ARE OPEN TO T H E DAUGHTER: IN THE MORE D E S I REABLE CASE. I N THAT WAY. T H E MOTH E R . THE MOTH E R H E A R S THE ECHO AND REMAINS F R O M THIS S C E N E M A N Y OTH ERS WITH I N T H A T ZON E W H I C H I S COM PLETELY S H A K E N BY THOSE W A V E S F R O M WHICH S H E HAS NEVER COLLECTED I N A N A LYTIC PRACTICE. A BOUT THAT. 219 . G I V I N G R I S E TO A N I N VESTIGATION OF A MOT H E R' S M I R ROR). T H E R E CAN O N L Y BE MORE OF THE S A M E OLD REFRAIN . W H A T DOES S H E D O ? W E C A N POI N T OUT TH R E E TYPES OF R E S PONSE. QU ESTION IS A S K E D A N D ITS A N S W E R SETS UP A MI RROR. IT SEEMS. A N D H O W .JOUISSANCP A N D DIVISION "MOMMY. I N THE MOTH ER. I F THE NAM E-OF-THE. TOO. IT WOULD SEEM THAT WHAT THE DAUGHTER SAYS A BOUT HER BEEN ABLE T O E S C A P E . W H E N . GAZE U PON HER DA U G H T E R AND UN THE 2. S H E L U R E S H E R DAUGHTER INTO THE ZON E AND THE DAUGHTE R LOSES H E R BODY-THAT I S .FATHER I S FU NCTIONI NG. FROM T H E N O N . WAS I LEFT B R E A ST1" B U R N E D ON M Y AGA I N . WHEN I WAS YOU R AGE.I N E V I T A B LY. A LITTLE HIGHER U P. A N I D E NTICAL SCENE THAT S H E H A S EXPERI ENCED H E RSELF. WAY THERE. ON THE RIGHT SIDE. S H E "I WAS B U RN E D . 3. B UT SHE I SOLATES IT A N D. I N T H E M I R ROR. I N T H E LESS DESIRABLE C A S E . TH ERE I S REASON TO F E A R A PSYC HOTIC BREAK­ DOWN." W I L L DESPERATELY I D E N TIFY W I TH T H E PHALLUS I N A FRA NTIC M A T E R N A L POSITION OR I N A DIZZYI N G MASCARAD E-T H E VIA R E G I A OF THE H YSTER I C . "THAT" r'CA"] M U ST N E V E R SPEAK THIS TH I R D POSS I B I LITY APPEARS O N LY AS A WAY FOR HERSELF A LO N E. W H I C H I S C A P A B L E O F G I V I N G H E R I D ENTITY-EVOKES. U PON H E A R I NG T H E E C H O OF H E R DAUGHTER'S SPEECH.

T H E R E IS ADDED. ' FOR THE C H I LO TO B E A B L E TO DISCOV E R ITSELF I N ITS OWN IMAGE IT IN M UST B E OTH E R SU PPORTED THE BY ITS WE NOW PROPOSE TO A N ALYZE WHAT WE S H A L L MOTH E R'S GAZE. W H I C H I S FUNDA M E NTAL FOR ALL C H I LD R E N . (WHEN THE C H I LO C A N COUNT: 1 . THE P U ZZ L I N G I NT E NSITY OF WHICH FREUD NEVER ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC. DAUGHTERS. . WOM E N A N A LY S A N DS. M O M E NTS OF T H E M I RROR STAGE A PPEAR AT T H E C E NT E R OF ANY ATTE M PT T O DEAL WITH THE Q U ESTION OF WOM A N . BODY. AS G E N N I E LEMOI N E H A S I N S I STED. M A K E S THIS OPE RATION POS S I B LE). A N D SO FORTH AD I N FINITU M . AS BY DEFINED THE USE BY OF F R E U D. A N A LY S A N DS. TRACING BACK THE TH REA D TO TH I S EXPER I E NC E . E NCOU NTERS THE SAM E-BODY AS HER OWN. I N S C R I B E D A T T H E ORIG I N . L I K E T H E P R I M A L SC E N E . IT SIGNIFIER "WO M A N'S-BODY" ATTEM PTS T O POINT TO T H E RELATION WITH T H E SAM E-BODY WITH WHICH THE L I TT L E IN VIEW GIRL OF IS APPEARS US. M O R E OR LESS A REMAI NS. "WOMA N'S-BODY. O N E COULD PROBABLY EXPLORE T H E Q U ESTION OF THE P E R M A N E N C E OF T H E L I B I D I N A L ATTA C H M E NT TO THE MOTH ER. LET US R E PEAT THAT THE BODY OF THE LITTLE G I RL. I N HER FI RST R E LATION S H I P WITH WE SHALL RETURN TO THIS AND RATHER DEAL ROUGH IT I N THE MOTH E R WHO OCCUPIES T H E PLACE OF THE OTH E R . ) " WOMA N'S-BODY" LIES. I N T H E FACT THAT THE LITTLE G I R L. MOTH E R C A L L T H E M I R RO R SC E N E. : 3. LIKE THAT OF THE THE LITTLE BOY. THE MOTH E R EITH E R DOE S O R DOES N O T R EC OG N I ZE H E R DAUGHTE R'S I MAGE. F R I E N DS-PLA C E D TH E R E FOR ONE WOM A N ) ." THESE THREE TO SITUATIONS IN TH E ARE ROOT E D . M I RROR THAT STAG E W H I C H STRUCT U R E S THE E G O A N D I S THE FO U N D A T I O N OF WHAT W I LL LATER BECO M E N E C E S SA R I LY CONFRONTED. FACT THAT S H E I S S E E N A S C H I LO AND S E E I NG TH E SEPARATE C H I LD: THE THAT SHE M U ST ACQU I ESC E I N BEING M I RROR SC E N E S U B J ECT TO SYM BOLIC LAW. 2 . STA G E . W H I C H THE LATTER TH E N RECOVERS. THE S E X U A L I TY PASSING ADDED TERM COMPLEX. IN THE CASE OF T H E LITTLE G I RL. THE TO A FAILURE: THE GREATER OR WO M A N LESSER LET US POINT OUT THE C H A RACTER I ST I C S M I R ROR'S C A PTIVE. IS "WH I P P E D BY LANGUAGE. FOR U S . IT I S CONSTR UCTE D OVER A N D AGA I N D I SCOURSE OF IN D I FF E R E N T STAGES OF T H E PA RTICULA R LY OF STRUCTU R I N G EF FECT OF THE M I R ROR. THESE PA RTIC U LA R TO T H I S S C E N E W H E N I T I S E X P E R I ­ E N C E D BY MOTHE R A N D DA UGHTER. BUT RATH E R TO THE BODY THAT IS TRAC E D . (CF. DOES NOT REFER TO THE BI OLOGIC A L BODY. DRIVES. (SI STERS. LOCATED 220 . S I M U LT A N EO U S L Y S E PA RATE FROM TH E OF T H E I R H I STORI ES. C E A S E D T O E M PHASIZE. . MOTH ER'S I M AGE BUT CONTI N U A LLY R E S E M B L I N G IT. A SECOND OPERATION THROUGH WHICH T H E DESTI N Y OF "WOMA N'S-BODY" I S PLAY E D O U T . IT I S I N TH I S U N E N D I NG MOV E M E N T OF RETURN TO THE MOORING PLACE OF A N E V A N ESCENT EGO THAT W E M A Y A PP ROACH THE Q U E STION OF W H A T I S C A L L E D FE M I N I N E JOUISSANCE. THIS OPERA­ TION I S A LWAYS A LW A Y S EXTENT. IT SEEMS. OF T H E D E S I R E OF TH E OTHE R . F R E U D. TH I S NOTION O F T H E S A M E-BODY. NOT ONLY I N T H E G A Z E OF M E N . CLINICAL OUTL I N E LATE R WITH T E R M S O F J O U I SSANCE.A LO N G WH I C H THE IS PATH OF A C C E PTING C A ST R A T I O N . THEY NEVER FA I L TO RUN AGROU N D AT T H A T MOM E NT W H E N T H E Y A R E T O B E S E E N . MAY W H ATEVER THE CHANCE THE SCENE-MOTH E R'< + DAUGHTERA I N FRONT OF TH E M I R ROR-CA N N OT FAIL TO BRING FORTH THE SC ENE-MOTH E RB + D A U G HTER B IN FRONT OF TH E S A M E M I R ROR. C I R C U MSTA N C E S B E THAT ACCOMPANY T H E F A C T OF R E P R E S E NTATION BY A WOM AN'S-BODY. M UST WORDS. I N T H I S S E C O N D STAGE. I S THE EROTOG E N IC PRECISION BODY. THE THE AS AT UT O P I C . THIS CUT OUT AND IN A N I MATED THE FIELD BY OF MOTH E R'< ONCE A GA I N BECOM E S DAUGHTE RB B Y T H E I N T E R M E D I A R Y O F T H E I MAGE OF DAUGHTER'< . BUT I N T H A T OF ALL WOM E N . ACCEPT T H E FROM IS. DENIAL OF SYM BOLIC LAW WO U L D ANNUL TH E WE C A L L I T A SC E N E B E C A U S E WE H A V E FOU N D THAT. R E C OG N I Z E D . OF AS THE NORMAL OEDIPUS D I SCOU RSE." OF COURSE.

AS FAR AS THE E A R L I EST CONSTITUTION O F THE EGO IS CONCERNED. DAS DING. BUT IT IS ALSO. B U T PARTI A LLY U S U RPS H E R D A UGHTER'S POSITION AS W E LL. WHAT WE HAVE J U ST SKETC H E D OUT I N DICATES TH AT SHE R U N S THE RISK OF F I N D I N G A GAZE A L R EADY A BSORBED BY A NOTHER M I RROR G A M E . THAT WHICH IS OUTS I D E OF T H E SIGN IFI ED-I N THE SYMBOLIC ORDE R. CON F R O N T E D SHE WITH THE I M A G E OF H E R INTO THE REGISTER OF THE S IG N I F I E R. THERE IS SOMETH I N G IN THE NOT R E P RESSED. THE MOTH E R'S WOU N D IS R EOP E N E D. CAN BE FELT ONLY I F THE IDENTI FICATION. WHO. N A RC I S S I ST I C AND OBJECT CATH EXIS ARE CONFUSED WITH EACH OTH ER. A N D OF T H E D A U G H T E R H A V E YET T O B E DEFIN ED. SPLIT BODY. ONE CAN SU PPOSE TH AT THIS A FFLICTED GAZE FADES. EQUAL T O H I MSELF. TO EXPLA I N H E R D I STRAUGHT. WITH THE M I RROR I M AGE R E M I N DI N G HER THAT WOM A N ' S-BODY IS. WHICH O N E OBJ ECT R E PLACES A NOTH E R O F EQUAL VALUE. IT T H E MOTH E R O R TH E DAUGHTER W H O I S T H E AGENT O F TH I S M I R ROR E X P E R I E N C E? TH E MOTH E R PARTIA LLY TAKES THE PLACE OF THE DAUGHTER A N D." SHOULD T H I S NOT BE SEEN A S ONE SOURCE OF THE R A VAGES THAT G E N E RA LLY M A R K MOTH ER-DAUGHTER R E LATION­ SHI PS? ALREADY THIS SPIRAL OF ECHOES AND R E F LECTIONS THE LITTLE GIRL CAN FIND NO STA B L E POI NT OF REFERENCE FOR TH E FORCE OF TH I S F U N DA M ENTA L EXPERI E NCE. F I R ST OF A L L. HA LF-FASC I NATED GAZE. N OT THAT I NSCRIBED S I G N I FY I N G R E E M E RG E S G E N E R A T I O N A FT E R G E N E R A T I O N . TO OCCUpy THE PLACE OF THE T H I NG. AND P E N I S ENVY. SHE WI LL ASSIGN H E R DAUGHTER THE FATE OF A WOULD. TO ASSU M E THE VALUE OF THE P H A LLUS. THE MOTH ER. THE C H I LD S E E KS SUPPORT IN T H E MOT H E R'S GAZE. IN OTH E R WORDS. TH E SAME­ BODY U N DERLI N ES T H E FRAGI LITY OF SEPARATION AT THE I M AG I N A RY DEC E PTIVE LEVEL I M AG E : AND IN BLURS THIS MOTH E R C A N NOT BEAR IF THE GAZE OF HER DAUGHTER. B Y SATI S F Y I N G REAPPEARS W I T H I T S F U L L L I B I N A L INTENSITY. THE MOTH ER. THAT IS. OF TH E SAM E-BODY. I S T H E BEARER O F THAT. O R D E R. DAUGHTER. TRANSPOSED WHEN. SHE RETRACES KE EPS BODY. (TH E R E PROD U C T I O N PLACENTA SUFFERS I M AG I N A RY FU NCTION I N INDEED R E P R E S E N T S T H A T P A RT . THE MOTH ER CAN BELIEVE I N M I RACLES. P E R H A PS THE PR E-OE D I PA L ATTACH MENT T O THE MOTH E R R E M A I N S S O VERY STRONG BEC A U S E T H E PLACES OF T H E MOTH E R CASTRATED BODY. I F THIS IS NOT THE CASE. TA K E S AWAY FROM TH E DAUGHTER THE P OS S I B I L I T Y OF FINDING HER PLACE IN THE SYMBOLIC ORDER. BY THIS DOUBLI NG. W H O CAN NOT B R I NG H E RSELF T O S A Y : "YOU ARE THAT. EXTR E M E "JU B I LATION" U PO N D I SCOV E R I N G THAT S H E I S LIKE HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT. BLIGHTS A N D DENIES THE DAUGHTER'S BODY. HOWEVER. WHICH HAS N EV E R BEEN L E FT B E H I N D . L I K E THE PLACENTA. T H E LOST OBJ ECT. I DENTITY OF BODIES FAVORS THE VACI LLATION OF I MAGES. I S I N FULL FORCE. THE MOTH E R NOT ONLY OCC U P I E S HER OWN POSITION OF MOTH ER DOES NOT DENY CASTRATION. IN ORDER TO BACK U P THE FANTASY THAT HER C H I LD I S A SU BSTITUTE MAKING U P FOR CASTRATION. ADDED TO T H I S OF PLACES EXCHANGE IS TH E A N D I NTER­ G I R L'S TH E TH I NG ' DEPENDENCE LITTLE TO BE A MOTH ER IS I N DEED TO BE C A STRATED. I T IS CA LLED TH E PHALLUS. T H E R E I S A C A PTURE I N THE M I RROR. WE SHALL HYPOTH ESIZE NOT ONLY THAT "SEPA RATION" OF I MAGES I S ON LY PARTIA LLY COMPLETED. LACA N THE PATH O F T H E S Y M BOLIC EQUATION. WHICH T H E I N FANT CLA I M S AS ITS OWN.2A lie B SEEING H E R SON IN TH E M I R ROR. I S NOT ENOUGH. H ENCE. BUT THAT. REDUCE D TO AN = THE LIVING BEING WHO IS SUBJECT TO SEXUAL A REAL LOSS. MOV E M E N T EXCHANGE." CONTENTS H E R SELF WITH A PA I N E D AND R E C R I M I ­ NATORY: "THAT I S ALL Y O U A R E. THE B R E A ST. D I SC O V E R S THAT OTH E R CAS­ THE I M M A T U R I TY OF T H E IT FROM I N FANT H U M A N L I M ITS AS B E I NG OF ITS TRATED. A MOTH ER. IT IS AS SHE WERE PARA LYZED. WHICH T H E I N DI V I D U A L LOSES AT B I RTH. M A S K I N G C A STRATION. HA LF-HOR R I F I ED. DESCRIBES H E R. AT T H A T M O M E N T W H I C H SHOULD BE FORMATI V E FOR THE LITTLE G I RL.1 THE PHALLUS OCC U P I E S THE FOREVER EM PTY PLACE OF THIS REAL LOSS. PERCEIVING TH E THE M OT H E R . WHICH REACTIVATES PENIS ENVY I N T H E M OTH E R.AT THAT MOMENT W H E N T H E "ORTHOPE DIC" I MAGE OF TH E C H I LD'S BODY A S SEPA RATE FROM TH AT OF THE MOTHER I S CONSTITUTED. FROZEN BY THE FATE FUL I M AGE. THE 22 1 . BY VIRTUE OF NOT HAVING THE PHALLUS. SENDING BACK TO H E R THE I MAGE OF H E R OWN BODY. PASSING FROM U N E N D I NG ON E GAZE OF TO A N OTH E R IS IN AN THE VISION OF T H E C A ST R A T E D BODY. MOREOVER.B E BOY. S I N C E THE EQUATION BABY PENIS.

" T H E Y F U N CTION. S H E W I L L P R E V E N T TH E R E P R E S ENTATION O F A M I SS I N G O B JECT THAT COULD FOU N D D E S I R E . H OW E V E R . FUSION. I S NOT ITS MOTH ER. OTH E R PART BY M E A N S OF I D E NTI FICATION: IT C A N BE CON SIDE RED. LET US R E M E M B E R THAT D I SCOURSE FUNCTIONS AS M E A N S B E I NG A MOTH E R COMPLETELY A N D B E I N G 222 . ONE ATTEM PTS TO R E D I SCOV E R ON THE OUTS I D E AS AN OBJECT THAT ONCE WAS IN BECAUSE SHE IS THE F I RST L O V E OBJ ECT. SHE THIS SHORT C I R C U IT. THE DESI R E THUS. BECAUSE T H E MOTH E R D E S I R ES A N D I S S U BJ ECT TO THE LAW OF THE S I G NI F I ER. I N TH I S P R I M A L EXPE R I E NCE O F THE ORGA N I ZATION OF PSYC H IC R E A LITY. WHICH BEGAN WITH A SEA RCH OBJ ECT A FOR THE LOST OBJECT. THE NOT-SE L F B E I N G THAT W H I C H B R I NGS U N PLEASURE. PSYCHO LOGY. THAT S H E O N LY HOLDS I T S PLACE. IN THE I MA G I N A RY. AN A LWAYS P R E S E N T TH E TH I N G DOES NOT E X I ST. THE S U BJECT W I LL A LWAYS TRY TO ASSI M I LATE THE MOTH E R HOOD I S ONLY A F U NCTION. T H E MOTH E R P A S S E S FROM H E R S Y M BOLIC F U N CTION I N TO A N I M AG I N A RY R E G I STER: THE TEM PTATION I S A LWYAS GREAT F O R H E R T O F I L L THE E M PTY SPACE OF THE T H I NG. AT B I RT H ." Q U I C KLY. P E R H A PS P E R V E R S E . SHE OVERCO M E B Y TH E F A SC I NATION O F T H E R EFLEC­ TION OF B E I NG A L L. THE MORE SHE W I L L SET H E RSELF U P TO SHORT C I RC U I T THE PATH OF D E S I RE. AN E M PTY SPACE TO AROUND IN M O R E TH A N T H E DA UGHTER OF H E R REFLECTION. I N D I SCOURSE "TH E T H I N G RESOLVES I T S E L F I NTO A FFA I R S. IS PROVE STI LL PRES ENT IN R E A LI TY. T H E C H I LD DOES NOT LOSE I T S MOTH E R : I T LOSES T H E PLACE NTA. NOT-S ELF ARE CONSTITUTED. AS R E M A I N DE R S. T H E OBJECT IS BOTH R E M A I N D E R A N D AGENT IN THE PROCESS OF BECOMING OBJ ECTS A R E D I SCOV E R S I N H E R R E F LECTION H E R F I R ST LOVE OBJ ECT I N ITS MOST FASCINATING FOR M . WHAT IT W I LL B E S E E K I NG. T H E R E FORE. ITSELF B Y ITS A BSENCE. H E R C A R I NG FOR THE CH I L D WILL MARK ITS BODY. BUT RATH E R. THE MOTH ER'S DESI R E TRACES EROTOG ENIC ZON ES FROM WHICH DRIVE W I LL S P R I N G FORTH. TO B E A MOTH E R I S THE FUTU R E ASSIGN E D TO ALL WOM E N IN THE TH I R D ST A G E OF THE HOLDING HER ELSEWH ERE H O L LOWS O U T T H E D I F FE R E N C E BETW E E N T H E C H I LD'S N E E D A N D ITS D E M A N D . TO COLO N IZE THE FIELD OF THE EXPERIENCED ORDER TO B E LON G I N G T O THE THAT TH E OBJ ECT I N S I D E. AT THAT I N STANT. THE SELF AND THE O E D I P U S C O M P L EX. IN THE A S U B J ECT.P R I MO R I D A L I M POSS I B L E N E E DS. PLACE FOR T H E P E RSON WHO MIGHT D I S P LA C E H E R : H E R DAUGHTER.M OTH ER. S H E MOLDS H E R S E L F TO THE ORDER ROLE ONLY A L LOTT E D SO AS TO BY HER IN THE PHALLIC THE IS FA NTASY WHERE DES I R E SUSPENDED AND W H E R E T H E R E PETITIVE QUEST STOPS FOR A SHORT TI M E. CR EATES VERY TH E I LLUSION OF T H E N EC E S S A R Y F I L L I N G UP OF THE HOLE OF T H E R E A L FOR TH I S R E ASON. WHAT S H E R E P R E S E N TS . HERE. T H E LESS SHE ACCEPTS HER CASTRATION. TAKES MOTH E R H OOD.M OTH E R" COMES TO FILL THE E M PTY SPACE OF THE THI NG. IT I S TH E R E FORE WITH I N TH E REGISTER O F A DECOY O R L U R E THAT THE I N THIS P E R SPECTI VE. IN THE MOST " G L O R I O U S" I M AGE OF HER FUTURE S U B J ECT. L A C A N SAYS OF THE OBJ ECTS "JOUISSANCE. ONE S C I E N TI FIC M A Y C O N S U L T THE PROJECT F O R A WHERE FREUD DEFINES THAT T H E M OT H E R I S NOT THE OTHE R . " A L L. DAS D I N G . THE R E CAN BE NO MOTH E R OFFICIA LLY FU NCTIONS. W E A L L "FORGET. AS THE BEGI N N I NGS OF THE BODY ITSELF." HOWEVER. IT D I ST I N G U I S H E S OBJECT. s BECAUSE OF T H E C H A LL E N G E THAT S H E PRESE NTS TO THE SYM BO L I C ORDER. W H I C H E F FECTS OF THE DOES NOT COM E U N D E R THE P R I N C I PLE. T H E I M AG E THAT T H E M I R ROR S E N DS BACK TO A WOMA N W H E N S H E IS C A R RY I N G H E R C H I LD IS NOT O N LY THE I MA G E O F HER OWN BODY. LET US REPEAT THAT T H E R E I S N O R E P R E S E NTA­ TIVE OF THE T H I NG. T H E R E IS COLLUSION B ETWE E N THE OBJECT A N D THE T H I NG. W I LL FALL T H E A IN ITS V A RIOUS G U I DES. AS BOTH THE C A U S E AND THE S UPPORT O F DESIRE. AT THE S A M E T I M E . R E A L. I N D E E D. ITS BODY I S NOT M E R E LY A BIOLOGICAL BODY. FROM T H E VERY F I RST MONTHS O N . W I TH T H E MOTH E R PROFITING FROM BECAUSE THE C H I LD IS CAST I NTO THE R E A L M OF D E M A ND. ONE OF T H E M R E M A I N S R A DICA LLY FOR E I G N . T H E MOTH E R OCCUPIES THE PLACE O F THE T H ING. BUT EVERYO N E T E N DS T O M A K E OF IT T H E V E R Y B E I N G OF WOM A N . I NTO THIS R EPETITIVE CYCLE. T H E R E FO R E . THE OBJ ECT A A B ETTER THAT DENY C A ST R A T I O N I M PL I E D ROLE. BUT A LSO THAT OF HER OWN M OT H E R . WHAT H E M E A N S BY THE N E B E N M E N SCH COM PLEX4 : THE FIRST OBJECT SPLITS I NTO TWO PARTS. THE CONSTITUTE T H E L I M IT OF A FORE V E R ' : E N IGMATIC NATURE OF T H E T H I NG. I N R E F E R E N C E TO THIS. WOMA N'S POS ITION IS WHICH DESI R E NEVER C EASES IS WANDER. PA R A DO X I C A L­ LY. S H E R U N S THE R I S K O F D I SAPPEAR­ ING AS C A STRATED MOTH E R AND OF B E I NG NO P L EA S U R E R E F UG E I N THEM.

TH E REFORE. T H E MOTH ER. THI S F I E LD O F F I RST I NSCRIPTIONS. THOSE WHO L I N E U P O N THE R I G HT. T H E REPRE­ SENTATIVES OF WHICH.E N D I NG FA SCI N ATION O F T H E RELATION WITH THE MOT H E R HOLDS A P A RT O F A WOM A N I N T H E I M AG I N A R Y O R D E R : I N T H I S WAY. WOM A N'S WE S H A L L LI B I DO SAY THAT A IN ITS LEDGE THE P E R M A N E N C E O F THIS S H A DOW. THE A THIRD MOTH E R IS S TA G E THIS GRAPH FROM L A C A N'S S E M I N A I R E XX: EN· COM PL E X : THIS B E C O M ES CORE l O DEALS WITH T H E QUESTION OF JOU ISSANCE.") THE F I R S T I N SC R I PT I O N S . ? BY D E N Y I NG C A STRATION. U N A W A R E OF H E R R E S PO N S I BLE ONCE AGA I N . O N E PHALLIC CAN AS IMAGINE I N SC R I PTION IN T H E ORDER CONSTITUTIVE O F T H E NOT­ S(�) a A L L/NOT-WHOLE. T O A C E R TA I N EXTENT.K E E P E R OF T H E OTHER. I N TOUCH WITH A N D R E C R I M I NATION. CONSTITUTE ( " I N STI N C T U A L SIGN I F I ERS. IT I S A LSO THE U NCONSCIOUS: I N C A R I NG FOR H E R C H I LD. HOWEVER." T H I N K I NG OF THE XE XE M ETAPHOR OF THE SCR E A M THAT GIVES B I RTH TO SI LENCE. WE THE FI N D IN THIS LOVE-HATE OF A A M B I VA L E N C E WOMA N . A LTHOUGH T H E SPOKESPE RSON OF THE SYMBOLIC ORDER. H E R LA B I D I N A L ECONOMY I S NOT ORGANIZED ENTI R E L Y IN S U B M I SS I O N TO THE PHA LLUS. R E PETITION REMAI NS. BARS TOTAL ACCESS TO IT. T H E N A T U R E OF TH I S R E I N FORCE­ MENT WAS DESC R I B E D IN THE FI RST PART OF T H I S ARTICLE. A WOM A N IS ONLY FOLLO W I NG DOWN IN THE LETTER OF THE OF LAW THE THE HANDED OEDIPUS MOTH ER. W H I C H I S T O SAY." A S LACAN SAYS. T H E PLACE. AN DIVIDED STRUCTURE I RR E D U C I B L E STRUCTURE RESISTING A N A LY S I S A N D D I SCOU R S E. S H E W A N TS TO R E M A I N PORTION OF S H A DOW. A R E NOT ONLY SUBJECT TO THE PHA LLUS-PHA LLIC J O UISSANCE QUESTION O F FEMININE S E X U A L I TY. TH E R E IS NO XA POSSI B I LITY O F I OENTI F ICATION W ITH T H E MOTH ER: ONLY I M I TATION IS POS S I BLE. ( A N D IN SPITE OF W H A T LACA N FIGURE H A S SUGGESTED. I N THE M I RROR SC ENE. A R E PLAC E D IN A PRIVI LEGED M A N N E R ON THE RIGHT. WOM A N R E M A I N S IGNORANT OF H E R TWOFOLD DIVI SION. I NC L U D I N G THE LACK OF A LL SYSTE M I ZATION. I N THE PSYC H I C A P P A R A ­ BY D E N Y I NG T H I S S H A R E O F THE I N EX PLORABLE TUS. A WOM A N WITH DENIES RELATION C ON D E M N S THE S Y M BO L I C ORDER IT APPEARS TO US THAT A WOM A N A LW A Y S H E RS E L F TO I MITATION. JOU I SSANCE W I LL E M E RGE. THUS. s THE N E V E R. CAN B E FOU N D ON E I TH E R S I D E I S NOT I NCOMPATIBLE WITH T H E FACT THAT J UST A S THE MOTH E R TA K ES T H E PLACE OF T H E LOST OBJ ECT AND IS L OV E D . SHE IS MADE WOMEN.9 THE PLACE OF THE OTH ER IS TH E BODY. BECA U S E OF TH E I R R E I NFORCED AlTACH­ MENT TO T H E MOTH E R WHO M E D I ATES ACCESS TO THE OTH E R. I F A WOM A N PLACES H E RSELF ON T H E LEFT. THERE I S NO C H A NC E T H A T WOMA N·5-BODY. T H E MOTH ER. TRACES I NSTI NCTUA L ZONES.) OR WOM EN. T H E TO WEIGH HEAVILY OR JOUISSA NCE TH ROUGH D I SCOURSE-BUT A R E A LSO IN A R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTHER. REGA RDLESS OF WHETHER THEY ARE M E N MOTH E R CONTI N U E S U PO N A N A LYTIC THEORY. I NDEED. SHE IS NO MORE THAN A REFLECTION OF A R E FLECTION AD I N F I N I T U M . THE "FI RST MASTERSPACE O F I NSC R I PTIONS. FO R THE D A UG H T E R . PASSAGE F A C I L I TATED BY T H E THOSE WHO LINE UP IN THE LEFT SECTION O F FACT THAT THE MOTH E R F I G U R E I S A N I DEOLOGICAL P R O D U CT: SHE A LLOWS ONE TO AVOID THE S P E A K I N G B E I NGS H A V E ACCESS T O THE OTH E R ONLY THROUGH T H E OBJECT A . W H I C H WOULD SIGN THE RECOG N I T I O N OF A CASTRATED BODY. THAT SPEA K I NG B E I NGS. "SHA DOW" (FREUD I N D I CATES THAT T H E RELATION HAS T H E CONSI STENCY OF A H ER S E LF HER OWN AND DRIVES A R E T H E TREASURY O F W I TH T H E MOTH E R SHADOW). S H E I S NOTHI NG . E I T H E R FOR THE MOTH E R O R FOR T H E DAUGHTER. REPEATING FOR A WOMA N TO B E ABLE TO S E I ZE T H E OCC ASION TO SPEAK FOR "H E R S ELF. FOR C A S T R A T I O N A N D I S HATED.ALL MOTHERS ROLLED I NTO O N E . A REMAINS 223 ." SHE M U ST ACKNOW­ MONTRELAY'S STRUCTU R I N G PORTION OF D I SC USSION OF R E PRESSION A S A PROCESS. L E A D I NG TO THE R E A L THE M OTH E R F I G U R E M A S K S A L L LACKS.

N O DOUBT I T I S BEC A U S E SHE K NOWS T H A T WOM A N D O E S NOT EXI ST. IDEALIZING GIVE PLUNGES PASSIONATE. IN N A RC I SSISM. SHE REVELS [ELLE J O U I RAl IN THAT WHICH A FFECTS HER BODY A N D. DEl THIS PLAY AS J O U I SSANCE VALUE [VALEUR DE J O U I SSANCE1. AND GIVING B I RTH A R E T H E R E A L "MOME NTS" W H E N A WOMAN WHAT I S T H E N A T U R E O F THE CATH EXIS OF THIS R E LATION? BECAUSE.R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTH E R AND COMES TO A H A LT THERE. WOM A N ? WHAT DOES H E R MOTH ER. A WOM A N DOES N O T E X I ST." BECO M E CON F U S E D WITH ONE A NOTH ER. THE F I RST LOVE OBJECT A S WELL. . M A SC U L I N E DES I R E MUST REMA I N U NSATIS­ FIED I N ORDER TO KEEP THE QUESTION OF THE OBJ ECT A IN TH E PHA NTASY OF A MAN A I M I NG FOR THE OTH E R . WHICH EXPLA I N S TO U S WHY SHE OFTEN C OV E R S HER J O U ISSA N C E WITH A I N TH E FATE ASSIGNED HER IN THE T H I R D PHASE OF THE OEDIPUS C O M P L E X. SHE IS THE REPRESE NTATI V E OF T H E THI NG. HER C O N S I STENCY. H E R PRECARIOUSN ESS AS A S U B J EC T ( F R E Q U E NTLY HER STA G E D I N TO IN FAI NTING S P E L LS ) . EITHER I N S U BL I M E S I LENCE O R A M I DST U N E N D I NG REC R I M I ­ NATIONS. S H E SENSES THAT HER SELF IS NOT SUMMED UP IN HER MANY WHOLE PHALLIC JOUISSANCE I MAGI N A RY F'OSITIONS. A WOMAN DOES NOT DOLEF U L M A S K . I T EXISTS. L E T US CON S I D E R T H E HYSTE RIC. D E N I A L OF C A STRATION AND D I V I S ION D I SC OV E R H E RS E L F WHOLE. I DENTIFICATION WITH OBJECT OF R E I N FORCES TH E ATTRACTION OF NARCISSISM FOR TH E LITTLE G I R L FOR WE ARE I N D E E D TA LKING W H I C H G I VE S H E R A FAVORED PLAC E I N T H E O R D E R OF D I SCOU R S E. B A C K G RO U N D SEXUAL OF I N E X I ST E N C E . A WOM A N CAN IN A LSO THE EXPE R I E NC E TH I S A PHA LLIC JOU ISSANCE M A SQUERADE. A LT H O U G H AS IT IS D I F F E R E NT N A RC I SSISM. LET US NOTE THAT. S H E COMPLA I NS. THAT THE MOTHER WILL BE ABLE TO SAY: "A WOMAN. BE REDUCED TO A N OBJECT CATH E X I S. FATH E R W H O W O U L D B E C A PA BLE OF A N S W E R I N G HER QUESTION. WOMA N I S T H E M ETHA PHOR O F M A N'S J O U ISSA N C E . . H O W DOES S H E E X P E R I ENCE THIS? LET US SAY FROM PROBABLY R E V E LS NOW ON THAT T H E HYSTERIC IN [JO U I T . OR A L O S T O B J ECT. T H E HYSTE R I C P RETENDS TO BELIEVE THAT THERE W I LL B E A SEXUA L RELATION. SHE SPEAKS A BOUT IT. SHE SC R E A M S SOMETHING ABOUT WHICH SHE KNOWS NOTHI NG. M A K E S D E M A N DS A N D R A I LS A G A I NST THE PHALLIC ORDER. F O R THE G I R L. WOMA N DOES NOT EXI ST. CATH E X I S OF THE SA M E-BODY NO DO UBT PHALLIC J O U I SSANCE. HOWEVER. "DOES THAT FROM WHICH ONE COMES A LSO COM ET' ["CE DO N T ON R ELATION TO TH E MOTH E R FROM B E I NG BROACHED. I DENTI FICATIONS THAT. W H E N S H E C A N C L I N G TO THAT W H I C H I N SC R I BES HER W I TH I N D I SCOURSE.I L ?"l ( LACANI IN THAT POS I T I O N W H E R E A L L I D EN T I F I C A T I O N S THATS IT. BUT SHE C A N NOT ACCEPT THIS. I NSC R I B E D JOUISSA N C E . BUT S H E NEITHER KNOWS N O R ACCEPTS T H I S. WHAT I S L I B I D I N A LLY I N VESTED I S THE PORTION OF THE OTH E R THAT ONE CARRIES W I TH I N ONESELF. C E LA J O UI T. AUTO-EROTISM. PREGNA NCY. H E R O W N BODY I S ALWAYS THE S A M E BODY A S . I N STEAD OF A N D BEYOND THAT FATHER. BETW E E N "KNOW I NG" A N D "NOT K NOWING. ONCE AGAIN. HER PERIOD. W H I LE T H I S I S EQUA LLY T R U E F O R T H E BOY. WHICH SHE WANTS TO ADDRESS TO A N A L L-POWER F U L W I L L ALWAYS T A K E ITS TOLL. COMMONLY D E F I N ED. SHE REVELS IN THEM [ELLE EN JOUITJ. SINCE. WOMEN-OBJ ECTS A N G U I S H A S THEY COUNT THE GAZES S U PF'ORTING THEM. MOMENT W H E N S H E R U N S T H E R I S K OF E X P E R I ENC­ I N G H E R S E LF AS NOT-WHOLE I N A FLEETING B U RST OF D E R I S I O N ? LET US T H I N K A BOUT THE LADY I N ON A COURTLY LOVE (THE LAUGH OF T H E M E D U S A ) WHO 224 . WHOSE F'OSITION I S EXEMPLARY I N T H I S REGARD. I N O R D E R TO REVEL EVEN MORE. FOR A W H I LE. W I TH T H I S SC R E A M . A BOUT THE BODY. BUT WHICH BODY? NOT JUST H E R OWN BODY. W H A T I S A A WOM A N WA N T ? IF SHE T H E OTH ER JOUISSANCE " M I STAKES" H E R I N T E R LOC UTOR." I N A N Y CASE. ' . THE PA RODY OF DESIRE. IT CAN NOT. BY S P E A K I NG . OR T H E RE FLECTION OF TH E BODY OF. WE FIND IT D I F F I C U LT T O G R A S P FROM BOTH AND CAN GIVE H E RS E L F THE I LLUSION OF EXI STI NG. R E LATIONS. S U B L I M E MOTH E R S D I SPLAY TH E I R B R U I S E D BOD I ES. IS THIS NOT PRECISELY THE THE EVENTS OF A WOM A N'S BODY A R E M A R K E D BY S U B M I SSION TO THE PHA LLIC ORDER: SHE NEVER STOPS SPEAKING A BOUT T H E M A N D. SHE S U M MONS. JOU IT.

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(CONFORM­ I NG TOTALLY W I TH THE ROLE ASSIGNED HER I N THE M A SC U L I N E FANTASY). IF S H E ACC E PTS HER D I V I S I O N . IN TH A T SPACE SO CLOS E TO ITS MAGN ETIC POLE THAT THE G U I D I NG LA N D M A R KS OF THE PHA LLIC ORDER STOP F U N C TI O N I NG A WOM A N TH E AND NOT SUBV ERT O N E EXPERIENCE WO U L D OBEYING A N ECONOMY O F CON S U M PTION? HOW CAN THE SOC I A L GROUP R ECONCI L E ORGAN IZATION A N D I N O RG A N IZATION? A N OT H E R . THAT I D E NT I F I C A ­ THE OTH E R B ETWE E N T H E S E DOES NOT I D E O LOG Y . SO I S IT. THAT D I SC O U R S E CAN HOLE IN THAT O R D E R . WOM A N AND WRITI NGIII TWOFOLD S P E EC H .IS A B L E TO E X P E R I E NC E J O U I S S A N C E P E R H A PS WILL HAVE THE GOOD FORT U N E TO ESCAPE B ECA U S E S H E IS E NACTING AN I M A G I N A R Y DIVISION O F W H IC H S H E C A N NOT SPEAK. BUT TH E R E IS A CATCH. B EYON D LAW THAT IT REMAINS FOR US. ' 4 WOM A N IS NOT-WHOLE. DOES SOM ETHING. V A R I O U S Q U E STIONS. I F S H E A CC E PTS H E RSELF AS D I V I DED BY DES I R I NG. SHE C A N E SC A P E FROM A KINO OF WRITING WITH WHICH SHE WO U L D TRY TO I D E NTIFY WITH MEN AND A LSO FROM I M PR I SON M E NT IN THE ILLUSION O F WHAT I S C A LLED A F E M I N I N E W R I TI NG. BUT TO WH I C H SHE H A S H A D ACCESS. A LTHOUGH S H E C A N S A Y NOTH I N G MORE A BOUT IT. WASTE O F THE OTH E R'S JOUIS­ R I G I D A N D CONSTRICTING. WHO HAVE ATTE M PTED TO SO MANY RESEMBLE I NCEST WITH T H E MOTH E R ? LET U S TH I N K O F SA I NT TH E R E S A O F A V I LA A N D OF T H E GOO S H E COMPA R E S T O A N U RSE WITH A N I N E X H A USTI BLE FLOW O F MILK. A G RE E I NG OCC A SIONA LLY TO REMAIN S I LENT. A WOM A N C A N . " I T I S B Y T H I S M E A N S O F ACCESS TO THAT. IT ATTA C H M E NT THE MOTH E R . W H I C H I S NOT TH E REPR ESSED. FOR THAT R E A SON. WHICH PLACE S THE HER IN THE O R D E R OF OF HER A D I SC O U R S E TH I S AND TO PERMANENCE WHICH J O U I SSA N C E CAN ONLY BE DESIGN ATED. W RITING. O F TH E TIONS R E LATION AND WE H A V E N EG LECTED JOUISSANCE C A N E X P E R I ENCE? DOES NOT A PORTION OF H E R JOUISSANCE LEAVE THE ORDER O F D I SCOU RSE I N O R D E R T O SET ITSELF A DR I FT? AT THAT MOMENT WHEN A PA RT OF HER DOES NOT MOST PARTI C U L A R LY. A T TH E MOST. POS E Q U ESTIONS CONC E R N I NG T H E PHA LLIC O R D E R ? W H A T C A N B E M E A N T BY T H E "FE M I N IZA­ TION" O F A SOC I ETY ONCE ONE SUS PECTS TH A T THE PART OF A WOMAN WANTING TO B E BORN I S ONLY FO R TH E T H I N G. AT T H A T MOMENT. A E X P E R I E N C E T H I S JOUISSA N C E . I M ITATIVE R E PETITION. H E RSE LF. I N TH E A N A LYTIC S I TUATION. BORES C A N NOT BE SPOKEN. T H E "FORGETTI NG. CHANTAL MAI LLET AND SYLVIE SESE-LEGER TRA N S LATED BY TERESE LYONS 226 . TH E BUT RATH E R M A K E S TH E M R E M A I NDER. INSCRIBE OUR TRACE A LO N G S I D E OTH E RS." WHO SUCH I S THE POSITION OF THE M ASOC H I ST WITH THE OBJECT I DE NT I F I C A T I O N S A BO L I S H T H E M . NOT T O CONC LUDE. FOR A WOMAN: I T CAN A WOM A N CAN BE POSSI BLE. IF A WOMAN I D ENTI F I E S WITH T H E OBJECT A A LONG THE PATH TOW A R D T H E OTH ER. I N SC R I B E I TS E L F IN TH E ORDER OF DISCOURSE. I N T H E U NCONSCIOUS. RECOG N I ZE THAT SHE I S NOT E N TI R E LY SU BJECT TO TH E P H A LLIC F U NCTION. B U T RATH E R . IT SEEMS. I T ESCAPES I N SC R I PTION. WO M A N IS NOT "LI B E R ATED" WHEN TH E R E PRES­ SION. DOES I DENTI FIES THE A." O F THE C A PTIVATING PRE­ OEDIPAL "HE W H OSE BODY IS L E FT TO T H E M E RCY OF R ELATIONSH I P WITH THE MOTH E R IS R A I S E D . SHE THEN WHAT KINO OF IN THIS A RTICLE W E HAVE L I M I T E D OURSELVES TO POI NTING OUT A FEW E L E M E NTS CONT R I B U T I NG TO THE Q U ESTION OF WOMAN. D E A R TO H E R.K E E P E R OF THE THING A N D I S . I N SPITE O R B E C A U S E O F ITS S I L E N C E . FOR A WOM A N : IS I T P E R H A P S N O T W R I TI N G ON TH E MOT H E R'S BODY. SANCE. A WOM A N IS THE PLAC E . W R I TI NG. T H I S A LLOWS H E R TO STA N O BACK AND TAKE A C E RT A I N D I ST A N C E IT FROM NOT LESS A N OTH E R S E E S P U R E JOUISSANCE OPEN U P BEFORE H I M. WITH H E R BODY? S P R I N G FORTH. RECOG N I ZE BOTH THE M A R K O F T H E N A M E-OF-TH E­ FATH E R . S H E IN THAT WAY. R E F E R R E D BACK TO H E R O W N DESI R E JOUISSA N C E . S H E W I L L SOM ETI M E S B E A B L E T O SPEAK F O R " H E R S E LF" WITHIN D I SCOU RSE. ' 2 E N D LESS. IF SHE AGREES TO SOM nI M ES.

THE C H I L O OCCU P I E S A SPECIAL POS ITION. I T 2A " I N H E R 'AMOU R PROPRE: WOMA N D O E S N O T M A NAGE TO DISTING U I S H HER OWN BODY FROM THAT WHICH WAS HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT. FOR THE SUBJECT. WHO. NOT A WOMAN I S NEVER SAFE FROM I DENTI FICATIONS. T H A T I T H A R D TO S E E M E D AS I F I T H A D U N D E RG O N E S O M E SPEC I A LLY I N EX O RA B L E "FEMALE REPRESSION. SEEMS TO U S THAT.NOTES 6 "TO I M ITATE IS.) BACKED U P BY THE R ELATION SH I P WITH THE SAME· 4 BODY. IN ALL L I K E L I HOOD. 227 . 1 1 WE WOULD SUGGEST THAT THE SIGNI FIERS 1 963." IN 10 SIGMUND FREUD. (IN THIS RESPECT. FREUD TELLS US THAT THE FATH E R I N H E RITS " E V E RYTH I NG C O N N EC T E D HAS IN WITH THIS FI RST THE G I R L'S ATTAC H M E NT TO CONTI N U E S HER BE MOTH ER. P E R H A PS CON FUSION OF CATH EXES A LSO PLAYS A ROLE FOR T H E MOTHER. 1 95. " JACQUES L.) A WOMAN RECHERCHES SUR LA FEMINITE. S H E I S THERE ONLY IN ORDER TO A L LOW THE I M AG E OF THE MOTHER TO BE REVEA LED. SHE I S ALSO I D E NTI FYI NG WHEN S H E TAKES THE CATHECTED A S A LOVE OBJECT." M. CF." AND ONCE WITH THE MORE DI RECT "TO COME:' IN BOTH CASES. (TRANSJ E N C ORE.E N J O Y M E N T . SO A N A LYSIS SEEMED ATT A C H M E N T AMBIGUITY. EXTR E M E WOR K I NGS HAVE SEIZED H I M . L'ETHN I Q U E DE LA PSYC H A N A L YSE. AND THE SEE NOTE 7. 2B ALSO F I N DS H E R OBJECTS A UPON HER OWN BODY. ( I N LETTRES DE L'ECOLEJ 3 SEE LACAN'S S E M I N A R O F 1 9 59·60. THIS UTTERANCE CAN BE (AS YET U N P U B L I S H ED. "WOMAN'5-BODY" A N D "SAM E·BODY" FORCE U S TO RECO N S I D E R T H E QUESTION OF TH E OBJECTS A. MONTRELA Y. THE OBJECTS A SUPPORTING H E R DESIRE ARE N EVER "COMPLETE· LY" S E P ARATED FROM HER. C H A NTAL M A I LLET. TO MARKED LOST I N A PAST SO D I M A N D R E S U S C ITATE.EDGE:· THAT OF THE PYTH I A PEN ETRATED BY TRUTH. I N ORDER TO AVOI D AN A RB I T R A R Y CHOICE A M ON G BE THE ITS L E FT VERB M U LT I P L E UNTRANS· " JO UIR:' [ 1 9641. BUT FUNDAM ENTA LLY. LE SEM I N A I R E XI: LES QUATRE CONCEPTS FONDA M ENTAUX DE LA PSYCHANALYSE. BE PARIS: S E U I L. DOU BLED BY THE MATERNAL R EFLEXION. 13 I T I S NOT WITHOUT I NTEREST THAT THE ANLAYST SHOULD BE A WOM A N . POSITION OF S U FFERI NG "KNOWL. LA FEMME DANS L'AMOUR COURTOIS. TO R EPRODUCE AN I M AGE.L POSSIBLE. B U T SYNTACTI· 8 CF. (TRANSJ THE OEDI PUS COMPLEX SHATTERS A PA RT IN THE LITTLE BOY: IT DOES NOT DISAPPE A R IN THE LITTLE GIRL. 14 THE DAUGHTER IS. HOWEVE R.. OF COU RSE. I N T H E CASE OF A WOMAN INSC R I BED I N THE PHALLIC ORDER. SHE S UPPORTS THAT I MAGE. (EVEN THE AVOI DANCE O F C A STRATION?). RECH ERCHES S U R LA F E M I N ITE. THE PLEASU R E O F S E X U A L C L I M AX­ H A S BEEN M UC H D ISCUSSED. "TO R E V E L. THE 9 FRENCH WILL B E I N D I CATED IN BRACKETS. N E W YORK: COLLI ER BOOKS. MONTRELAY. S H A DOWY. THIS WILL A RTICLE. 9 1 73. 11 9 7 2 · 3 1 . TH I S BY MOTHER·ATTACH M E NT TO M E SO ELUSI VE. COMPLEXE D U PROC H A I N . AT THAT MOME NT. IT THE THE I M PO S S I B I L I T Y WORD " OF ADEQUATELY R E P R OD U C I N G IS TO I N S E RT H I MSELF INTO A FU NCTION WHOSE J O U I SS A N C E ". LOVES THE DAUGHTER WHO RESEM B LES H E R A N D 12 FOR WHOM E V E RYTHI NG I S STlL. C A LLY ADEQUATE.ACAN. PLEASURE. TRANSLATED WITH THE SEMANTICALLY U N SATISFACTORY. M E A N I NGS. P A R I S : S E U I L. P. M. S E X U A L I TY : ' S E X U A L ITY PSYCHOLOGY OF LOVE. LATED IN JOUISSANCE W I LL 7 SEE LACAN'S S E M I N A R I E XX: 1 975.

KLEIN THAT A N D DOLTO THE G I R L'S ARE R E A L ITY. EXPOSES H I M V E R Y E A R LY T O T H E REALIZA­ TION THAT HE IS M A ST E R N EITHER OF THE PLEASURE. LESS M A N I F E ST A T I O N S OF HIS DESI RE NOR OF THE R E PRESSED THAN THAT OF A MAN.' O N E TENDS T O REFER T O THE A N X I ETY OF RAPE A N D PEN ETRATION W I TH O U T E M P H A S I Z I N G T H A T . UNDER C E RTA I N C I R C U M STANCES THEN.. T H E A NATOMY O F TH E BOY. OF THE M A SC U L I N E T I O N S : T H E G I R L I S L E S S S U B J ECT THA N TH E BOY TO THE T H R EATS AND TO THE DEFENCES WHICH PARTN ER. ORDER. POSITION OF TH E M A N D I FF E R S FROM THAT OF THE WOMA N WHOSE ON S E X U A LITY IS CAPABLE OF R E M A I N I NG WHAT ARE THE P R OC E S S E S WHICH M A I NTA I N THE EDGE O F A L L REPRESSION. A LL THE MORE A S I T I S LESS OBSERVABLE.. NOT O N LY WITH C H A NC E BUT A LSO WITH THE LAW A N D W I T H H I S S E X U A L O R G A N : H I S BODY ITSELF TAKES O N THE VALUE OF STA KE. . CAN L I V E A "PROTECTED" SEXUALITY. OF OF A SOC I A L WERE? DI SPLACED: IT CONSISTS I N T H E SEXUA LITY A N D CONC E R N S THE A B SENCE PROH I B I ­ T H E D ES I R E OF T H E OTH E R SEX. THE FEMININE S E N S I B I LITY EXPERI ENCES R E LA T I N G TO T H E C A STRATION OF T H E M A N :'2 WOMA N . M A I NTA I N F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY OUTS I D E T H E ECONOMY O F REPRESENTATION-THE I NTRICATION VAG I N A L HAVE OF T H E O R A L. THE G I R L. D E M O N STRATED A SCHOOL. MOST OFTEN THAT OF THE FATH E R AND THEN. OF AN I N STINCTUAL A N D NOT SOCI A L ORDER. TH E ''CONTI N E NT'' W H I C H C A N B E C A LLED -DARK" T O T H E EXTENT THAT IT I S OUTSIDE THE C I RC U M FE R ENCE OF T H E SYMBOLIC ECONOMY (FORECLOSED). O N THE OTH E R H A N D." I N A STATE OF THE FI RST. H E EXPER I M E NTS. ALL THE E XT R E M E PENA LIZE MASTUR BATION. AS IT R E PRESSION. IT LENDS ITSELF LESS EASILY TO LOSING ITSELF AS THE STA K E OF U NC O N S C I O U S WHOSE ENGLISH FO R C E R E P R E S ENTATION. TH E R E FO R E . IN YET OTH E R PROC E SSES.A N A L D R I V E S W I T H J O N ES . THE STA K E OF C ASTRATION FOR THE WOMA N F I N DS I TS E L F FEM I N ITY -OUTSIDE NATURE. S H E LT E R E D BY T H E I R P R I VACY. WAS THE DRIVES BY THE EXTENT O F H I S PLEA S U R E S. W H I C H I S W H Y P E R R I E R A N D GRANOFF H AVE BEEN ABLE TO S HOW TO . W E KEEP SI LENT A BOUT H E R M A STURBATION. . ON I N S I STED THE FACT OF ARCHAIC EXPERIENCES THE VAGINA 228 . O N T H E CONTR A R Y .AN I NQU I RY I NTO FE M I N I N ITY FEM I N I N E EROTI C I S M IS MORE CENSORED. FRANCOISE OOLTO H A S SHOWN THAT. T H E G I R L R I S K S LITTLE. C I RC U M SC R I B E PLAC E O R IN R E LATION TO C A STRATION.

FROM NOW ON.ORGANIZED AS A FUNCTION OF P RE-ESTABLISHED ORAL-A N A L SCH E M A S. IN O R D E R TO BE S Y M BOLIZED. "ACCORDING TO JONES:' I. . WE F I N D AGAI N HERE T H E THE M E OF CONCENTRI­ CITY. FOR H E R. THIS BODY. IT M UST BE STRESSED THAT SUCH A PRECOCI TY." THE A N A LYST OFTEN FINDS A "FE A R OF FEM I N I NITY" IN CON N ECTION WITH FEM I N I N E A NX I ETY. SO CLOSE. IS THE BLI N D SPOT OF THE SYMBOLIC PROCESS A N A LYZED BY FRE UD." 229 . BE IN WOMAN" GAVE TH E ACCESS TO A SHE BEARS JOUISSANCE OF THE BODY AS FEM I N I N E AND/OR S ELF-LOVE HERSELF. F R O M T H E GODS: IT WAS EFFECTED I N SPITE OF A PROHI BITION. LATER ON. A R ELATION S I M U LTANEOUSLY N A R C I S S I STIC A N D EROTIC. RE­ ACTUALIZES.E X I ST I N S I DE T H E F E M I N I N E U NCONSC I O U S : THAT O F R E P R E S E N TATION A N D THAT WHICH REMAINS "THE DARK CONTIN ENT. REPRESSED. RECOV E R I N G H E RSELF AS MATER N A L BODY ( A N D ALSO AS PHALLUS). TIED TO TH E PRESENCE OF THI S BODY." ACTS AS A N OBSTACLE TO IT. BUT A LSO A N D A BOVE A LL. IS TO REDUCE THE WORLD TO T H E MOST ARCHAIC I N STI NCTUAL "LAWS. E V E R Y OCC U R R E NCE OF A S E X U A L K I N D ( P U B ERTY. I S FORBIDDEN FOR T H E WOMEN: TH E R E I S NO STATEM ENT OR L A W W H I C H PROHI BITS T H E RECOVERY OF TH E STAKE SINCE T H E R E A L W H ICH I M PO S E S I T S E L F A N D T A K E S T H E P L A C E OF REPRESSION A N D DESIRE IS. IT I S A DEFENSE PRODUCED IN O R D E R TO PARRY THE AVATA R S. O N LY THE HOLE. A T T H E FURTHER EXTREME. O R A PPROPRIATE. A S IN THE TRAGEDY." "TO M A T E R N A L. THE DEFIC I E NCIES. THE REAL OF H E R OWN BODY.E . OF THAT OF THE MOTHER. WE HAVE TRIED TO S H OW T H A T T H I S F E A R (EFFRACTION) A LONE IS NOT A R E S U LT OF P H A NTA S I E S O F V I OLATION A N D B R E A K I N G I N • • . ANXI ETY. FEM I N I N ITY. BUT AT THE ROOT OF TH I S THREAT THERE A R E D I F F E R E N T P R OC E S S E S : F O R O E D I P U S . "LOSE:' THE F I R ST STA K E OF R E P R E SE NTATI O N . HERE. THE WOMAN C A N NO LONGE R REPRESS. I T C O M P R O M I S E S W O M A N ' S R E LA T I O N T O C A S T R A T I O N AND TH E LAW: TO A BSORB. THE REAL O F THAT OTHE R BODY. AS OBJECT O F THE LOVER'S DESI RE. IF I T I N FL ECTS ALL PSYCHIC MOVEMENT ACCO R D I NG TO C I R C U LA R AND C LOS E D SC H E M A S . TO DEVOUR. A N YTHI NG. CONTI N U OUS. MATE R N I TY.. A TH I R D S E R I E S OF PROCESSES STA N DS I N TH E WAY O F R E P R E S S I O N : C O N C E R N I N G T H E WO M A N ' S R E LATION TO HER OWN BODY. WE WOULD H A V E TO SPEC I FY FURTH E R WHAT I S ONLY I NTIMATED H E R E : THAT T H E R E A L OF T H E BODY.. O F SYMBOLIC CASTRATION. E ROTIC E X P E R I ENCES. E M PTIN E S S . TO TAKE. WAS A LSO THE MATE R I A L OF A RCHAIC R E PRESSION. A N ORGAN WHICH I S BOTH DIGESTIVE AND V AG I N A L. F EM I N I N ITY EXPER I E NC E D A S REAL AND I M ME D I ATE. R E PR ESENTATI ON IS T H R E A T E N E D BY RUIN. E SPE­ C I A LLY IN T H E A DOLESCENT. FOR THE WOMAN E N JOYS H E R BODY AS S H E WOULD THE BODY OF A NOTH E R . P R E C OC I O U S S E X U A L I T Y " T U R N S " A R O U N D A SINGLE ORIFICE. I N OTH E R WORDS. NOTH I NG . A T BOTTOM . I T I S FEA R OF THE FEM I N I N E BODY AS A NON-REPRESSED A N D U N R E P R E S E NTABLE OBJ ECT. ETC. O N THE CONTRARY." ON T H E CONTRA RY." I T IS A P R E S U P POS E D MOV E M E N T OPPOSED TO THAT BY C A ST R A T I O N : WHERE THE JOUISSANCE O F T H E BODY LOSE S ITSELF "FOR" A D I SCOU RSE WHICH IS OTHE R . W HICH AT THE B EG I N N I N G OF L I FE WAS THE SUBSTANCE OF WORDS. H E N C E TH E S Y M PTOM S W H I C H SO OFTEN S I M U LATE THIS LOSS: "TH E R E IS NO LONGER . T H E R E STOR A T I O N O F T H E STA K E P R OC E E D E D B Y CHANCE. S U C H I S THE L E IM O T I F OF ALL FEMI N I N E A N A LYSIS. . I N CHARGING ITSELF W I T H I N T E N S I TY A N D I M PO R T A N C E A N D PRESENCE. S I M U LATANEOUSLY. ANXI ETY AND THE R E LATION TO THE BODY OF A N ALLEGED "CASTRATION. RE-I NCARNATES. BUT. W H ICH SHE H A S TO OCC U PY. I T IS AS IF "TO BECOME WOM A N . MORE G E N ERALLY. CAN ONLY BE I N S I STENT. W E WILL N O T TH E R EFORE QUESTION T H E T R U T H OF TH E CLI N IC A L OBSERVATIONS PRODUCED BY THE ENGLI S H SCHOOL: ALL EXPE R I ENCE OF C H I LD A N A LYSI S CON F I R M S T H E P RECOCITY OF THE "KNOWLEDGE" O F THE V AG I N A. H ETEROG E N EOUS T E R R I TO R I E S C O. TWO I NCOMPATIB LE. TO U ND ERSTAND. I T IS QUITE TRUE THAT THE VERY S M A LL G I R L EXPE R I E NCES H E R F E MI N I NI TY V E R Y EA RLY. IS AN OJ ECT I N EXCESS WHICH MUST BE "LOST:' THAT IS TO SAY. I N TAK I NG FORM AT PUBE RTY. W H I C H I T WOULD BE A M I STA K E TO SEE AS THE EXPRESSION IF THI S I N SATIABLE ORGAN-HOLE IS AT THE CENTER OF PRECOCIOUS SEXUA LITY. THE ORGANIZER OF DESIRE: WHICH.) HAPPENS TO HER A S IF I T CAME FROM A NOTHE R (WOMA N ) : EVERY OCCURRENCE IS THE FASCINATING ACTUA LIZATION OF THE' FEMI­ N I N ITY OF ALL WOM EN. FAR FROM FAVORING A POSSIBLE "MATURATION. TH E WOMA N C A NNOT DIFFERENTIATE H E R OWN BODY F ROM T H A T W H I C H W A S "TH E F I R ST OBJECT. WHICH C E A SELESSLY TENDS TO ABSORB. S I NCE IT MAINTA I N S E ROTI C I S M OUTSIDE THE R E P R ESENTA­ TION OF CASTRATION.

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TH ROUGH A R ESOU N D I NG V A N I TY. ONE C A N M A K E I T T H E MODEL OF E ROTIC. M YSTICAL. A N D N E U ROTIC EXPERI E NCES. THE ANOREXIC R E F U S A L OF FOOD IS A GOOD EXAMPLE OF THE D E S I R E TO REDUCE A N D T O D I SSOLVE H E R O W N F L E S H . T O TAKE H E R OWN BODY A S A C I P H E R . M A S OC H I S M A LSO M I M ES THE LACK. TH ROUGH PASSIVITY. I M POTE N C E A N D DOING NOTH I N G (" N E RIEN FAIRE"). T H E OBSE RVATIONS OF H E L E N E D E UTSCH A N D THOSE O F THE RECHERCHES
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IN

TH E

R E G I STER OF EROTIC FICTION: W H E R E THE F E M I N I N E O R I FICE. O. I S " F A LSE LY" R E PR E S E N T E D I N ITS

SUCCESSIVE M ETAMORPHOSES.

DESI R E

O N L Y T O TH I S

FLESH?" T H E W O M A N A FFORDS A G Ll M !"S E O F T H E R E A L BY V I R T U E O F H E R R E LATION T O N OTHING­

HERE. I WOULD RATH E R TU R N TO THE POETS. THOSE WHO HAVE WRITTEN I N T H E NOVELISTIC O R M A D E FILMS OUT OF THE FEMI N I N E DRAMA
("C I N EMA"'.

THAT I S TO SAY. TO THE T H I NG. AT T H I S M O M E NT. THE SYMBOLIC COLLAPSES I N TO T H E R E A L. FR E U D' A LSO SAYS THAT THE P E R V E R T C A N NOT SEE THE

SINCE TH E L I M ITATIONS O F THIS ARTICLE RULE OUT ANY D E TA I L E D C ON S I D E R A T I O N OF C L I N I C A L

CASTRATED BODY OF H I S MOTH E R . I N T H I S S E N S E . E V E R Y M A N I S A P E RV E RT. ON T H E O N E H A N D. H E E N J O Y S W I THOUT S A Y I N G SO. W I THOUT COM I NG TOO C LOSE-FOR T H E N H E WOULD H A V E TO TA K E U PO N

CASES.

TA K E FELLINI. TH E D I R ECTOR O F J U L I ETTE OF THE SPIRITS. A F I L M SO BAFFLING. N O DOUBT. BEC A U S E IT B R I NGS OUT TH E PRESENCE OF THE "DARK

H I MS E L F A T E R R I B L E A N X I ETY. OR E V E N H A TE-: H E ENJOYS BY PROXY THE THING HE GLIMPSES

THROUGH T H E MOTH E R . O N THE OTH E R H A N D. H E DOES NOT APPEAR T O U N D E RSTA N D THAT H E R

CONTINE NT' S O W E L L T H E D I M E NSION O F F E M I N IN­ ITY THAT LACAN TA K I N G SHAPE THE IN DESIGNATES FROM JOA N UP AS M ASQU E R A D E . TAKES

R E LATION T O T H E TH I N G I S S U B L I MATED. I T I S T H I S E V I L W H I C H H A S TO B E REPRESSED.

TERM

R I V I E RE. "

THIS HATS

PILING AND

O F C RAZY THI NGS. B A R OQ U E CON­ A F I L M L I K E DAYS OF WRATH'v LAYS B A R E A L L T H E M A SC U L I N E " D E F E N C ES" AGA I N ST F E M I N I N ITY A N D WOM A N ' S D I R EC T R ELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E MAN IS TERRORIZED RAISES BY THE THREAT THAT IN

FEATHERS.

STRANGE

STRUCTIONS WHICH RISE UP L I K E SO M A N Y S I LENT I N SI G N IAS. BUT WHAT WE M U ST S E E I S THAT THE OBJ ECTI V E OF S UC H A M A SQUERADE I S TO SAY

N OT H I NG. ABSOLUTE LY NOTHING. A N D IN ORDER TO PRODUCE THIS NOTH I N G T H E WOMAN USE S H E R OWN

F E M I N I N ITY

FOR

" H I S"

R E P R E S S ION.

O R D E R TO R E A S S U R E H I M A N D C O N V I N C E H I M . T H E

230

WOMA N A LWAYS A DV A N C E S F U RT H E R A LONG H E R O W N PATH S P E A K THE ST A N D BY EXPLA I N I NG H E R S E LF, TRUTH, HER BUT SHE W I S H I NG T O

SC R I B E D . FEM I N I NI TY

THE AND

STA K E NOT

IS

NOW

P R ECOC I O U S M A SC U L I N E

TH E

PENIS O R

OOES N O T U N DER­ WILL NOT AND

SEXUA LITY: P R ECOC I O U S F E M I N I N I TY B ECOM E S T H E MATERIAL OF R E P R ESSION. "ACCOR D I N G T O J O N ES" ONE OR S E V E R A L P E RIODS OF LATE NCY CORRES­ PON D TO THIS DECATHEXIS OF S E X U A LITY, P E R IODS D U R I NG WHICH T H E LITTLE GIRL AND THE W O M A N D I S E N TA N G L E T H E M S ELVES FROM TH E I R OWN

THAT

DISCOURSE

C A N NOT B E R E C E I V E D . FOR T H E FACT O F BYPASS­ I NG THE LAW OF R E P R ES S I O N P R E C I S E L Y B Y SAYI N G ALL, AND CONTA M I NATES MAKES TH E M O S T P R E C I O U S TRUTH ODIOUS AND C O N D E M N ­

I T S U SPECT,

ABLE. H E NCE M A SC U L I N E C E N S U RE. THE F R U ST R A T I O N S , WHICH HAVE I NT E R D I C T I O N S A N D CON­ WEIGHED BE ON WOMEN AND FOR ARBI­

BOD I ES A N D ITS PLEASURES. THIS I S W H Y P E R I O D S OF FRIGIDITY IN A N A LY S I S I ND E X OF CAN OFT E N BE

T E M PT

CONSI D E R E D MARK THE

AS

AN

PROGRESS: PATI E N T

THEY DE­

C E N TU R I ES

MAY

I ND E E D

ABSURD

MOMENT

WHEN

THE

TRARY, BUT THEY DO NOT M A TT E R . TH E M A I N THING IS THE FACT OF I M PO S I N G THE D E F I N ITIVE

CATH ECTS T H E V AG I N A L-O R A L SC H E MA S W H I C H TI LL THEN W E R E A LO N E CAPABLE O F PROV I D I N G ACCESS T O E ROTIC PLEASU RE.

A B A N D O N M E N T O F J O U I S S A N C E . T H E SCA N D A L C A N THEN COME T O A N E N D-TH E F E M I N I N E S E X B E A R S W I T N E S S T O C A STRATION .

THE

DE C I S I V E

STE P

BY

WHICH

THE

FEM I N I N E

U NCONSC I O U S I S M O D I F I E D LI ES, NOT SO M U C H I N THE A N A LYST, FOR HIS P A RT, C A N NOT DEFINE THE C H A N G E O F LOVE OBJECT" A S I N T H E C H A N G E IN THE U N C O N SC I O U S R E P R ESENTATIVE, PHALLIC R E P R E S E NTATIVES ARE MASCU­ S UBSTI­

F E M I N I N E C A STRATION S I M P LY A S T H E E F F ECT O F HIS STRUCTU RES. IF THE EXEMPLAR OF THE

LINE,

HYSTE R I C A L, N E U ROTIC WOMA N I S O N E W H O N EVER LETS U P WI S H I N G TO B E H E R SEX, I N V E R S E LY, I SN'T THE " A D U LT" W O M A N ONE WHO RECONSTRUCTS H E R SEXUALITY I N A F I E L D W H I C H G O E S B E Y O N D S E X ? T H E P R I N C I PLE OF A M A SC U L I N E L I B I DO U PH E L D BY

TUTED F O R T H E F I RST "CONCENTRIC" R E P R E S E N ­ TATI VE. T H E L A W A N D T H E PATE R N A L I D E A L S O F THE FA T H E R WHICH ARE ARTICU LATED NEW IN HER

D I SCOU R S E

CONSTITUTE

THE

R E P R E S E NTA­

TIVES CAPA B L E O F S U PPLANTING TH E MODELS OF A R C H A IC R E P R E S E NTATIONS (FE M I N I N E OED I P U S) '

F R E U D COULD B E C L A R I F I E D A S A TH I S "EXTRATE R RITOR I A LITY."

F U NCTION O F

L E T US N O T E THAT T H I S S U BSTITUTION D O E S N OT F E M I N I N E CASTRATION: H Y POTH ESES MUTI LATE THE W O MA N AND DEPR I V E HER OF A

P E N I S WH I C H S H E N E V E R H A D , BUT DEPRI VES H E R O F ONCE AGA I N , LET US TA K E AN E X A M PLE FROM T H E SENSE O F P R EC OC I O U S SEXUALITY. FE M I N I N I TY I S FORGOTT E N , I ND E E D RE PRESSED, AND THIS LOSS CONSTITUTES THE S Y M BOLIC CASTRATION O F T H E WOMAN,

LITERATU R E, K LOSSOW S K I ' S PORTRAITS O F WOM E N E A S I LY LEND TH E M SELVES WE TO A CLINICAL AT THE ANA­ THE

COM M E NTARY.

MIGHT B E SURPRISED

A STON I S H I N G L Y TOM I C A L AND

V I R I LE

ATTR I B U T E S ( BOTH WHICH

P S Y C H I C A L - 'N I T H

AUTHOR E N OOWS H I S H E RO I N E S A N D D E D U C E FROM THEM S O M E P E R V E R S I O N. I T IS A LSO POSSIBLE TO SEE IN THESE ATTRIB UTES THE M A T E R I A L OF A

SUBLIMATION AND M ETAPHOR

IN

A N A LY S I S

AND

MORE THE

S P EC I F I C A LLY,

IN

TH E

MORAL FABLE OUTLI N I NG A T Y P E OF P E R FECTED FEMINI NITY: T H E WOMA N WOULD "T R U E" BE WOMAN, AS T H E " F E M M E" WHO HAS

TRA NSFE R E N C E ,

( I , E"

SET OF U NCONSCI O U S E N U N C I ATION

MOD I FICATIONS P R O D U C E D BY THE

DRAWN

SHE

OF D I SCO U R S E O N T H E COUC H), THE D I M E N S I O N OF PLEA S U R E C A N E M E RGE.

" FORGOTT E N "

HER

F E M I N I N ITY,

AND

WHO

WOU LD

ENTRUST T H E J O U I S S A N C E A N D T H E R E PRESE NTA­ TION OF IT TO AN OTH E R . FOR THIS REASON, IN NO IN RECHERCH ES, TOROK SPEAKS OF ITS M A N I FESTA­ TION: "W H E N ONE OF MY PAT I E NTS HAS ' U N DE R ­

KLOSSOWSKI'S WAY TALK

H E RO I N E ,

ROBE RTE, HER

COULD BOD Y

ABOUT

H E R S E LF,

OR "THE

STOOD' A N I N TE R P R ETATION, WHEN. CONSEQUENT­ LY, AN I N H I BITION IS L I FTED, A FREQUENT

WORD THAT IT CONCEA LS.� I T IS SOMEON E E LSE'S TASK TO HOLD THE D I S C O U R S E O F F E M I N I N I TY, I N LOVE A N D/OR I N A NOVEL.

I NDICATION O F T H I S A DVANCE I S THAT THE PATI E N T D R E A MS A N D I N T H I S D R E A M S H E H A S A N O RG A S M " (A D E SC R I PT I O N OF ONE OF THESE DREAMS

UNDER T H E S I G N OF THIS FORG ETTING, A SECON D ECONOMY LONG E R OF THE D E S I R E, SAME, WHERE CAN THE STA K E IS NO DE-

FOLOWS)."

EFFECTIVELY

BE

TOROK,

BY

I N S I ST I N G

ON

THE

FACT

THAT

A

23 1

P L E A S U R E A RI S E S W H E N A N EW R E P R E S ENTATION IS E L A BORATED. TELLS US WHAT IS E S S E N TI A L

M UST

BE

E M P H A S I Z E D.

IN

R E S PO N S E A N A L Y ST

TO

THE

A N A LY S A N D'S ATES A S A R I LY

P H A NTASY. T H E

ENUNCI­

A BOUT T H I S P L EA S U R E . CONTRA R Y T O WHAT O N E M I G H T TH I N K . TH I S P L E A S U R E DOES NOT L I E I N THE L I FTI NG OF TENSION. AN I N H I B I TION. IN TH E TOO R E LEA S I NG O F LONG. ON TH E

C E R TA I N N U M B E R OF S I G N I F I E R S N ECES­ RELATING TO HIS OWN DESI R E AND HIS

L I STE N I NG-PLA C E . T H E S E WORDS A R E OTH E R : T H E A N A LYST'S D I F F E R E NT. M I R RO R . OF D I SC O U R S E AS SUCH IT IS IS NOT A R E FL E X I V E . BUT A

C O N TA I N E D THE BY

FOR

CONTRARY. EXPLICABLE

PLEASURE. THE CLICHE

FAR OF

FROM

BEING ("DE­

METAPHOR.

NOT

RELEASE

THE

PATl E NT'S

D I SC O U R S E .

A N D.

FO U L E M E Nr')" A R I S E S F R O M THE PUTTI NG I N PLACE

P R E C I S E LY. M ET A P H O R I S C A P A B LE OF E N G E N D E R ­ ING PLEASURE.

OF

NEW

R E P R E S E NTATI ONS. F I R ST

LET

US

NOTE

THAT

THESE THE

WERE

E N U N C I A TED IN

BY TH E OTH E R . V E RBALLY FI RST FREUD AND TH E N LAC A N A N A LYZED THE

A N A LYST. W H O .

I N T E R P R ETING. OF A

A R T I C U LA T E S

S O M ETH I NG

SEXUA LITY

MOTI V E S O F T H I S P L E A S U R E W I TH R E G A R D T O T H E JOKE. WE LAUGH WHEN WE PERCEIVE THAT THE

M A I NTA I N E D T I L L TH E N I N T H E STATE O F N A T U R E . I N T H E "DA R K . "

WORDS S P E A K A T E X T OTH E R T H A N T H A T W H I C H W E T H O U G H T. AND IF THE OTH E R L A U G H S. IF THE

H E R E . T H E R E FO R E .

P L E A S U R E I S T H E E FFECT O F

M I S A P P R E H ENSION P L A Y S ON O N E M O R E REGISTER. THE PLEASURE BECOMES KEENER STILL. WHAT

T H E WORD OF T H E OTH E R . M O R E S P EC I F I C A L LY. I T OCC U R S AT THE FOR A DV E NT WHAT IS OF A S T R U CT U R I N G IN THE

F U NCTION D O E S T H I S OTH E R TEXT. T H I S OTH E R E A R . H A V E ? I T H A S T H E F U NCTION O F E N G E N D E R I NG A M ET A P H O R . THAT IS TO SAY. OF S U BS T I T U T I N G

D I SCOU R S E .

ESS E N T I A L

A N A LY S I S OF A WOM A N I S N OT M A K I NG S E X U ALITY M O R E "CON S C I O U S" O R I N T E R PRET I N G IT. AT LEAST NOT I N THE SENSE N O R M A L LY GIVEN TO THIS TERM. THE ANA LYSrS WORD TA K E S ON A COMPLETELY

I T S E L F F O R T H E P R E C E D I NG TEXT A N D L I S TE N I NG­ PLACE. PLEASURE ARISES THE MOMENT THIS

M ET A P H O R I S PRODUCED. LACA N S A Y S THAT I T I S I DE NT I F I E D M ET A P H O R .7 WITH THE VERY M E A N I NG OF THE

D I F F E R E N T F U NCTI ON. I T N O LONG E R E X PLA I N S . BUT FROM THE SOLE FACT OF ARTICULATING. IT

STR UCTU RES. B Y V E R B A L L Y PUTTING I N PLACE A R E P R E S E NTATION O F C A S T R A TION. T H E A N A LYSrS WORD THIS MAKES TYPE S E X U A L I TY PASS I NTO DISCO U R S E . T H E R E FO R E IN WHAT THEN. DOES THIS M E A N I NG B E R E FT O F

S I G N I F I C A TI O N C O N S I ST? W E C A N D E F I N E I T A S T H E MEASURE OF THE E M PTY "SPACE" I NDUCED BY

OF

I N T E R P R ET A T I O N

RE PRESSES. A T L E A ST I N TH E S E N S E G I V E N TO T H E
W O R D H E RE.

R E P R E S S I O N . T H E M ETAPHOR. BY POS I NG I T S E L F A S THAT WHICH IS NOT S POKE N . H O L LOWS O U T A N D

D E S I G N ATES T H I S S P A C E . F R E U D S A I D T H A T T H E U N D ERSTOOD P E R H A PS C U L TU R A L IN THIS WAY. US TO I NTE R P R ETATION CAN LOCATE A C E RTA I N P L EA S U R E OF T H E JOKE L I E S I N T H E R E T U R N O F THE R E P R ESSED. DOES IT NOT R A TH E R. LIE

HELP AND

IN

S OC I A L

F U N CT I O N O F PSYCHO­

PUTTI NG T H E D I M EN S I O N OF REPRESSION I NTO P L A Y O N T H E LEVEL O F T H E T E X T ITSE1.F?

A N A LY S I S. T H E

F R E U D I A N T H EORY OF S E X U A LITY IN R E LATION TO ASK W H E TH E R PRE­

W A S D E V E LO P E D (MISE E N PLACE) WOM E N AND F E M I N I NI TY. WAS WE N OT CAN

I T IS T H I S P L E A S U R E O F THE JOKE THAT CAN B E EVOK E D I N R E LA T I O N TO A L L S U B L I M ATION. FO R I T I S A N O P E R AT I O N W H I C H C O N S I STS I N OPE N I NG U P N E W D I V I S I O N S A N D SPACES I N T H E M A T E R I A L THAT IT T R A N S FO R M S . IN THE TRANSFERENCE. THE

PSYCHOA N A LY S I S

A RT I C U L A T E D

C I S E L Y I N O R D E R T O R E P R E SS F E M I N I N I TY ( I N T H E S E N S E OF PRODUC I NG ITS S Y M BOLIC R E P R E S E NTA­ T I O N ) . AT THE S A M E T I M E . F R E U D'S R E S E R V ATIONS ABOUT JON E S WOU L D M A K E SENSE: T H E A TT E M PTS TO " M A K E" F E M I N I N I TY " S P E A K" W O U L D S U R E LY

PAT I E NrS ORGASM TOOK NOTE O F A N I NT E R P R ETA­ TION. S U R E LY T H I S OF AIR IS BEST R E P R E S E N T E D AS TWO A

J EOPARDIZE T H E V E R Y R E P R ESSION THAT F R E U D H A D K N O W N HOW TO A C H I E V E .

BREATH

B ETWE E N

SIGNIFI ERS.

S U D D E N LY O P E N E D U P B Y T H E M ETAPHOR?

LET U S RETU R N TO O U R E X A M PLE. W H A T PLEASU R E CAN THERE BE IN THE R E PRESSION THAT IS

T H E O R G A S M . LIKE A B U ST OF LAUGHTER. TESTI F I E S TO THE M E A N I NG-I N S I G N I F I C A NT-DF WE M U S T NOW OF " W I T" TRY TO IN THE A N A L­

PRODUCED AT T H E M O M E N T O F I NT E R P R ETATION? FI RST. LET U S S A Y THAT I N T E R PRETATION. A S I T IS A N A LYZED H E R E . DOES N OT CONSIST SO M UC H I N E X P LA I N I NG A N D COM M EN T I N G A S I N A RTICU LAT­ I N G . H E R E AGA I N . IT IS THE FORM OF WORDS W H I C H

YSrS WORD. THIS

R E D I SCOV E R AND

D I M E N SI O N

PLEAS U R E

JOUISSANCE.

PLEA S U R E A N D J O U I SSANCE

232

F E M I N I N E EROTIC PLEASURE VARI ES CONSIDE RAB­ LY IN ITS NATURE AND EFFECTS. THERE I S VARI ETY IN THE PLACES OF THE BODY CATH ECTED. IN THE LEVEL OF I NTENSITY. I N TH E OUTCOM E (ORGASM OR N OT > . AND IN THE E F F ECTS: A " S U CC E S S F U L"

TION.

DOES

NOT

THE

SUBLI MATED

SEX U A L

ACT

CONSTITUTE FOR THE WOM A N O N E OF THE WAYS O F PUTTING A N ECONOMY I NTO PLACE W H E R E : 1 . T H E S I G N I F I E R WOU LD BE ACTUALIZED I N THE RHYTH M . T H E PERIOD RETU RN O F THE P E N I S: 2. T H E STA K E WO ULD C O N S I ST O F T H E REPRESSED FEMININE

SEXUAL R E LATION CAN C A U S E C A L M OR A N X I ETY. LET US A LSO R E M E M B E R THAT A N E U ROSIS C A N N OT N ECESSARI LY BE I N F E R R E D FROM F R I G I D I TY; A N D T H AT. R E C I P R OC A L L Y . WOM EN PSYCHOTI C S I NTENSE AND VERY

DRIVES. ' o INSEPA RABLE F ROM T H E PENIS ITSELF; AND 3 . PLEASU R E WOULD BE THE M E A N I NG OF THE M ETAPHOR THROUGH WHICH THE PENIS "WOULD

I M MATU RE ORGA SMS.s

HAVE

VAG I N A L

REPRESS" T H E BODY. F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY.

LET HOW A R E WE TO M A K E S E N S E OF TH E E X U B E RANCE. THE BIZA R R E N ESS A N D THE PARADOXES OF THESE PLEA S U R ES? BY R E F E R R I NG LESS TO THE V A R I E ­ TIES OF FORM AND I N T E N S ITY THAN TO TH E I R

US

BE

MORE

PR ECISE:

THE

PEN IS.

ITS

THROBBING. ITS C A D E N C E A N D THE MOVE M E NTS O F LOVE- M A K I N G C O U L D B E PUR EST AND MOST SAID T O PRODUCE T H E FORM OF

E L E M E N TA R Y

SIGN I FY I N G A RTIC U LATION. THAT' O F A S E R I ES O F BLOWS W H I C H M A R K OUT THE SPACE OF TH E BODY.

FU NCTION I N T H E PSYC H IC ECONOMY. H E R E AGA I N . WE WILL D I ST I N G U I S H THE TWO T Y P E S AND OF SEXUAL SUBLI­

PLEAS U R E : MATED.

P R ECOC I O U S

THE

IT I S TH I S WHICH OPENS U P RHYTH M S A LL TH E MORE A M PLE AND I NTENSE. A JOUISSANCE ALL TH E MORE KEEN AND SERIOUS I N THAT THE P E N IS. THE OBJECT

THE FI RST WAS E A R L I E R SEEN TO BE T H E E FFECT OF THE EXPE R I E N C E OF ARCH A IC S E X U ALITY. EVEN I F IT I NVOLVES TWO PEOPLE. EVEN I F IT PRESENTS THE APPEARANCE OF AN A D ULT S E X U A LITY. OR RAISES TO IT

WHICH I S ITS I N STR U M E N T. IS SCA RC E LY A N YTH I NG.

BUT TO STATE TH I S I S TO STATE A PARADOX: THE PENIS PROD U C E S JOUISSANCE BECA U S E IT

M E R E LY

RE-ACTU A L IZES

THE

I N C A R N ATES A I M P LIES A

F I N I TU D E .

S U B L I M A TION A L W A Y S THE PHALLIC SIG­

H I G H EST PITCH I N ORGASM. THE JOUISSANCE THAT TH E WOM A N PLEA S U R E . FU RTH E R E R OTIC HAS OF H E RSELF. 9 I N THIS TYPE OF THE OTH E R'S LOOK A N D HIS C I RC U LA RITY THE DESIRE. OF THE

DE-IDEA LIZATION.

N I F I E R. DETAC H E D F R O M THE T E R R I FY I NG REPRE­ SENTATIONS OF T H E SUPE REGO WHICH RE VOLVE

R E I N FORCE

TH E

A ROU ND THE I M A G I N A R Y PHALLUS. M U ST APPEA R AS AN OBJ ECT O F NOT- M UCH- M E A N I NG. "

R E LA T I O N .

HENCE

A N X I ETY

THAT

A R I S E S B E FORE A N D AFTER T H E S E X U A L ACT. TH I S I N V E R S E LY. PLE A S U R E CAN B E STRUCTU R I NG I N ITS EFFECTS. THE SORT OF "G E N I US." O F I N S P I RATION WHICH TH E WOM A N D I SCOVERS AFTER LOVE. SHOWS THAT A N EVENT O F A N UNCONSCIOUS NATURE HAS OC C U R R E D. WHICH HAS E N A BL E D HER TO TAKE U P A C E RTA I N DI STA N C E F RO M T H E D A R K CONTI N E NT. STEP USUA LLY SUSPENDED D U R I NG CHI LD­ PLACE A FTER THE FI RST SEX U A L

HOOD.

TA KES

EXPER I E NCES OF A D U LTHOOD. IS IT A QUESTION OF U N CON S C I O U S GROUND CERTA I N HAS ETH I C PROCESSES? BEEN PROVI DED LIFE WORK. THE A

PREPARED. THIS

AND

U N DERTAKE

TO THE

EXTENT THAT ROMANTIC I D E A LIZATION IS SUCCESS­ FU LLY M O U R N E D ( R E L I N Q U I S H ED). TO THE EXTENT

WE WILL CALL S U B LI MATED PLEA S U R E THAT WHICH TA KES THE S A M E SURE WHILE FOR MS AS I N C ESTUOUS PLEA­ PRESU PPOS I NG AND

THAT THE D I M E N S ION OF THE G I FT PREDO M I NATES. THE PE N I S CAN OBJ ECTI FY. BY ITS VERY I N SIGN I F I ­ CANCE. THE " D I F F I C U LTY T O B E " OF T H E COU PLE. I N WHICH JOUISSANCE IS LOST. T H U S I T C A N NO

NON ETHELESS

CONFI R M I NG W O M E N ' S ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC. TH I S PLEASURE IS NO LON G E R DERIVED FROM

LONGER BE S E PA RATED I N ITS CONSISTENCY FROM THE MATE R I A L OF THIS HAS A R C H A IC. BEEN FEM I N I N E

FEM I N I N ITY AS SUCH. BUT FROM THE SIGNIFIER. MORE PRECI S E LY. FROM THE REPRESSION THAT IT BRINGS ABOUT: THIS IS WHY S U B L I M ATED PLEA S U R E IS

JOU I S S A N C E EMBODI ES RESTORES

WHICH

RENOUNCED. I T OF A SUDDEN

IT AS

LOST.

AND

ALL

I D ENTI FIED WITH THE PLEA S U R E DERIVED FROM THE JOKE.

IT A H U N D R E DFOLD. FOR IT DEPLOYS
T"'C'

TH IS JOUISSANCE IN DI R ECT PROPORTION TO FORGETTI NG. WHICH I S IN ITSELF I N FI N ITE.

SUCH A TRANSFORMATION ASSU M ES. ON THE ONE H A ND. THE FORGETTING OF PRECOCIOUS F E M I N I N ­ ITY. A N D ON TH E OTH E R . T H E SETTI NG I N PLACE OF A NEW REPRESE NTATI VE OR SIGN I F I E R OF CASTRATHUS. ETHICS I S I N D I SSOC I A B LE F ROM A 'CERTA I N ' RELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E DE-IDEA LIZATION THAT I T IMPLIES ALONE MAKES POS S I BLE TH E

233

OC C A S I O N A L C O M I N G TOGETH E R A N D B I N D I N G OF TWO P E RFECTLY THE D I ST I N C T . H E T E R OG E N E O U S SENSATION BODY IN A OF AN

JOUISSANCE

A N D THE

ORGASM

WHICH

IS

P RO­

D U C E D I N A S U B L I M A T E D ECONOMY. IN T H E FOR M E R . T H E R E S I D U E OF P L E A S U R E C O M E S T O A D E A D E N D . S I N C E TH E WOM A N A GA I N F I N DS H E RSELF POWER­ LESS TO M A I NTA I N T H E THIS FORM OF ORGA S M . UNCONSCIOUS ECONOMY. R E G I STERI NG PLE A S U R E BARS

SPACES.

V O L U PT U O U S THE WHOLE

A S P I R A T I ON

OF

SPAC E

A B SOLUTELY OTH E R A N D CONSEQU E NTLY. I N F I N ITE. C A N NOT S I M PLY B E E X P LA I N E D AS THE EFFECT OF THE PERCEPTION OF THE VAGI N A L C A VITY. IT

OUTS I D E

SIGNIFICANCE

(SIG NI FIANCE).

I M PL I E S THAT T H I S C A V I TY I S HOLLOWED OUT BY R E PRESSION. OP E R ATION. THAT IS TO SAY. BY A SYMBOLIC

ACCESS TO T H E S Y M BOLIC. S U B L I M ATION. O N T H E CONTR A R Y. T R A N S PO RTS N O T O N L Y P L E A S U R E B U T THE ORGASM I NTO M ETA P HOR. O R G A S M . E N D LESS­ LY R E N E W E D. AT B ROUGHT THE TO A OF W H I TE H EAT. IT

CONSEQUE NTLY.

PLEASURE.

FA R

FROM

BEING

EXPLODES BURSTS

M O M E NT

PLE A S U R E .

R E D U C E D T O T H E EXCITATION OF A N ORGAN. O N T H E C O N T R A RY. T R A N SPORTS THE WOM A N I N TO THE

I N T H E DOU B L E

SENSE O F THE

FRENCH

T E R M ECLATER: T H E S E N S E OF D E F LAGRATION A N D THAT O F A R E V E LATION. TH E R E I S T H E R E FORE A CONTI N U ITY OF THE A S C E N T OF P L E A S U R E A N D OF ITS A POG E E IN ORGASM: TH E ONE CARRIES THE

F I E L D OF T H E S IG N I F I E R. S U B L I M ATED PLEASURE. L I K E T H E DREAM AND HYPNONIS. L I K E THE POETIC ACT. M A RKS A M O M E N T W H E N THE U NCONSC IOUS

R E P R E S E NTATION T A K E S ON A N ABSOLUTE V A L U E : I N OTH E R WORDS. W H E N THE ACT OF A RTICULATING PRODUCES ON I TS OWN THE M E A N I NG OF DIS­

S I GN I FI E R T O ITS M A X I M U M I NC A N DESCENCE: T H E OTH E R M A R K S THE M O M E N T W H E N THE D I SCOURSE. IN EXPLODING COMES UNDER TO THE THE E FFECT OF OF ITS OWN OF

COU R S E . ( M E A N I NG NOT H I N G). SWEE P I NG A W A Y A L L SI G N I FICATION. I T L A Y S H O L D O F THE WOM A N A N D C A TC H E S RH Y T H M S . ' 2 HER IN ITS PROGRESSION AND ITS

FORCE .

POINT

B R E A K I NG.

COM I NG A PA RT. I T I S N O LONG E R A N YTH I NG.

TO

BREAK

ITSELF.

TO

D I SJOINT ITSELF. ITSELF

I N OTH E R A

WOR D S . FOR T H E M A N . E XC E PTIONS A S IDE. ' 3 T H I S TR A N S­ PORT A T I O N I N TO THE SIGNI FIER C A N NOT BE

TO

A RT I C U LA T E

THROUGH

M EA N I NG W H I C H E N D LESSLY ESCAPES. ORGASM I N DISCOURSE FEMI N I N E L E A DS US TO THE BE POI NT WHERE

PRODUCED I N S O V I O L E N T A N D R A D I C A L A WAY. I N FACT. HOW C O U L D H E A B A N DO N H I MSELF TO THAT WH I C H H E H I M S E L F CONTROLS. A N D FROM WHOSE PL A Y GAME HE GIVES JOUISSANCE. THE MOREOV E R . TH I S

JOUISSANCE C A N

U N D E RSTOOD A S

WRITING (ECRITURE). TO T H E POI NT W H E R E I T M U ST A PP E A R THAT T H I S J O U I S S A N C E A N D THE LITE R A R Y T E X T ( W H I C H I S A LSO W R ITTEN PRODUC E D FROM W I TH I N L I K E A N ORGASM A R E THE

(PLAY) AND

I NVOLVES A LSO

R I S K OF

DETU M ES­ A N X I ETY

DISCOURSE).

CENCE. 1 4

THE

V E R TIGO A N D

EFFECT O F T H E SAME M U R D E R O F T H E S I G N I F I E R .

A RO U S E D BY THE A B S O L UTE O F FEM I N I N E D E M A N D : T H E WOMA N E X PECTS A N D R E C E IVES A L L TH E R E I S O F T H E P E N I S AT T H E MOMENT OF LOVE I SN'T T H I S W H Y BATA I LLE. J A R R Y A N D JABES S P E A K OF W R I T I NG A S T H E J O U I SS A N C E O F A WOMA N7 A N D W H Y T H A T W H I C H S H E I S W R I T I N G I S T H E N A M E7'v

IF W E NO LON G E R C O N S I D E R WHAT I S PROPE R L Y CALLED PLE A S U RE. BUT THE ORGASM U S U A LLY

DESIGNATED A S "JO U I S S A NCE" BY THE A N A LYST. A S I M I LA R DISTINCTION M U ST BE MADE BETW E E N

M I C H E LE MONTRELA Y TRANSLATED BY PARVEEN ADA M S

NOTES

3

M A RGUERITE

DURAS.

LA RAVISSEMENT DE L O L V

STEIN. GA LLIMA RD. P. 54.
F. DOLTO. 'LA L I B I DO ET SON DESTIN FEMI N I N ,' LA

PSYCHANAL YSE. VI I . P U F.

4

P. KLOSSOWSKI. LES LOIS DE L·HOSPITALITE . P. 1 45.

W. GRANOFF AND F. PERRI ER. 'LE PROBLEME DE LA P E R V E RSION CHES LA FEMME ET LES IDEAUX

THE

'C H A N G E

OF

O B J E C T'

D E S I G NATES

THE

RENUNCIATION O F T H E FIRST LOVE OBJECT. THE MOTH ER. IN FAVO U R OF THE FATHER. ON T H I S

FEM I N I NS: LA PSYCHANALYSE. V I I . T H I S ARTICLE I S ESSENTIA L FOR THEORETICAL WORK O N FEM I N I N E SEXUALITY.

PROBLEM. CF J. LUQUET-PARAT. ' L E CHANGEMENT O·OBJET.

234

6

O P CIT,

p, 1 92

SEEN.

P R E S U P POSES WOM A N

AN PUTS

ECONOMY HERSELF

OF AT

DES I R E STA K E

WHERE THE

7

A

P R O POS

OF

M ETA P H O R , L.ETTER IN

CF THE

J,

L.AC A N ,

'THE

(ENJEU).

AGENCY OF THE ECRITS, A

UNCONSCIOUS: A, S H E R I DA N ) .

S E L EC T I O N

(TRANS,

'3

EXCEPT IN THE CASE OF ACTU A L. HOMOSEXUALITY. HOWEVER, W E MUST B E CAREFUL NOT TO SET UP TOO C L EA R - C U T A D I STINCTION B ET W E E N THE

T A V I S TO C K ,

1 9 7 7 A N D ' L. E S F O R M A T I O N S D E 1 9 !5 6-!57), O N PL.EASURE

L'INCONSCI E NT: S E M I N A I R E

BY THE SAME A UTHOR: 'PROPOS D I R ECTIFS POUR UN CONGRES S E U I L. , SUR LA S E X U A L.ITE IN F E M I N I NE: I N P R E P A R ATION, OF �ACQUES

SEXUALITY OF THE M A N A N D THAT O F T H E WOM A N , W I T HO U T P R E TE N D I N G TO S ETTLE THE WHOLE

ECRI TS, FEM I N I N E

( T R A N S L.ATION IN THE

PROBLEM OF BISEXUA L.ITY H E R E , L.ET U S ONL.Y SAY THAT EVERY MASC U L I N E SUBJ ECT I S CATHECTED AS THE OB�ECT A N D PRODUCT OF HIS MOTHE R : HE WAS 'PART OF THE MATERNAL. BODY. I N R E LATION

SEXUA LITY

SCHOOL

LACAN, J, ROSE AND J . M ITCHE L.L. M A C M I L.LAN.)

8

C F F, DOLTO, O P CIT.

TO

TH E

M A SC U L I N E THEN.

BODY

AND

U N C O N SC I O U S OF

C A TH E X I S

ONE

C O U L. D A L. S O S P E A K

9

CF

p, A U LA G N I E R . LE D ES I R ET LA PERVERSION. SEUIL..

'FEM I N I NITY' A S I M PLI E D I N MATE R N A L. F E M I N I N ITY. WOULD NOT THE SEXUAL. ACT B E STRUCTU R I NG FOR

'0

DRIVES

REPRESSED

BOTH

IN

THE

COURSE

OF

THE MAL.E SUBJECT TO THE EXTENT THAT. PUTTI NG I NTO PLAY THE REPR ESSION OF F E M I N I NITY, HE

EARL.I E R O E D I P A L. E X P E R I ENC ES,

AS W E L. L. AS IN

THE PRESENT, BY THE V E R Y FACT OF THE PRESENCE OF T H E PENIS.

WOUL.D PRODUCE EACH T I M E T H E COUPURE WHICH SEPARATES ' R E TU R N I NG' THE TO M A N FROM HER THE HIS MOTH ER, WHILE HIS

F EM I N I N ITY

OF

"

T H I S PARAGRA PH A N D THE FOL.L.OWING ONE WERE ADDEO TO THE E A R L I E R C RITIQ U E ARTICLE I N IT WAS NECESSARY ONL.Y TO C L.EA R UP A

PARTNER.

1 976,

M ISUNDER­

'4

O N THE QUESTION O F DETUMESCENCE CF LACAN, SEMINAIRE

STA N D I NG, SIGNIFIER R E L. A T I N G

SOMEONE

WHO

I DE A L.IZES THE THE FACT OF OF

1 9 67-68. S E E ALSO 'THE SIGNI FICATION

C O U L. D

INTERPRET TO AN

OF TH E PHA L.LUS: ECRITS A SELECTION, TAVISTOCK AND 'PROPOS DERECTI FS PUR U N CONGRES SUR LA SEXUALITE F E M I N I N E : ECRITS, S E U I L. .

� O U I SS A N C E

O P E R A TI O N

SUBLI MATION A N D TO T H E PUTTING I NTO PLAY OF T H E ' S I G N I F I E R' A S 'FRENZIED I D EA L. I ZATION' (C,

DAVID), I TA K E A S A T R I BUTE-NO DOUBT I N VOL.UN­ TARY-WHAT SOMEONE EXCL.A I M E D

A PROPOS O F

TRANSLATOR'S NOTES

T H I S A RTICL.E, ' S O T H E � O U I SSANCE OF T H E WOMAN IS PRODUCED B Y T H E OPERATIONS O F THE HOL.Y GHOST!' IT CAN H A P P E N I THE A RTICLE LA OF LA FEM I N ITE IS ITALICIZED IN THE FRENCH: C F J. LACAN, 'DI EU ET LA JOUISSANCE DE FEMME' I N SEMINAIRE XX.

'2

IF

THE

WOM A N .

AT

THE

M O M E N T OF

ORGAS M , I N 'WOMA N L I N ESS A S A MASQU E R ADE' IN PSYCHO· ANALYSIS AND FEMALE SEXUALITY, EO. H E N R I C K M,

IDENTIFIES H E RS E L F R A DICAL.LY WITH A N UNCON­ SC IOUS R E P R E S E NTATION, A RT I C ULATED BY THE

OTH ER, THEN DOES S H E NOT FINO HERSEL.F AGA I N PRECIS EL.Y I N T H E A R C H A IC SITUATION W H E R E T H E MATERNAL R EPRESENTATION WAS THE S O L. E

R UITENBEEK, NEW HAVEN, USA,

1 9 66.

"'

I N THE EARL.IER VERSIQN OF THIS ARTICLE WHICH A PPEARED I N CRITIQUE

ORGA NIZER O F PHA NTASY? ISN'T THE ORGASM. B Y T H I S FACT, A 'REGRESSIVE' PROCESS F O R H E R ? T H E R E P L. Y COULD BE IN THE A F F I R M ATIVE FOR

278 T H I S S E NTENCE E N DS

WITH 'SINCE IT CONSISTS IN CONFRONTING DES I R E W I T H A BODILY L.ACK ( W H I C H I S C A R N A L.):

ORGASMS OF T H E PSYCHOTIC OR N E U ROTIC (ACUTE HYSTERIA) TYPE, IN THESE CASES. PL.EASURE A N D ORGASM A R E NOTH I N G M O R E T H A N T H E M A N I FES­ TATION DIRECT OF, A MO N G OF OTH E R TH E THE T H I NGS. BY A THE SORT OF

,v

DI RECTOR C A R L. D R EYER. MADE IN

1 943,

v

THE

FRENCH

GIVES

D E FO U L E M E N T

WHICH

IS

A

SEIZURE

WOMAN

OTH ER'S ON THE THIS

D I R ECT I N VERS ION/P U N ON THE FRENCH WORD FOR REPRESSION: REFOU LEM ENT.

DISCOURSE, C ON T R A R Y , R E L.ATION IS

FOR

WOMAN, HER

WHO,

ASSUMES I N D I RECT

CASTRATION,

IT

PASSES OF

THROUGH T H E M A T E R N A L. HAVE

v,

NOM

PUNS ON

THE

FRENCH

NEGATIVE

NON

AND

( P A T E R N A L.) D I SCOU R S E . A

M ET A P H O R METAPHOR

THE

ALSO R E F E R S T O L E NOM D U P E R E (NAM E-QF-THE­ FATHER).

WHICH.

A S WE

2 S !5

FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOU RSE JACQUES H E N RIC:
ROLA N D BARTHES, IT
H IM S E L F S E U I Ll -BY T H E PARAOOX. W H E N A S ET OF

S E E M S T O M E THAT S I N C E

DEGREE ZERO OF
W I TH EACH

POS ITIONS TUTE TRUE, A

SEEMS

TO

CONSOLI DATE,

TO CONSTI­ THEN I T'S

W R I T I N G , M YT H O L O G I ES

AND

D E F I NITE

S OC I A L

SITUATION.

FOLLOW I NG BOOK I T H A S B E E N L E S S A N D L E S S E A S Y T O LOCA LI ZE YOU A S A WRITER. HOW, LOOKING BACK ON YOU R PAST WORK, DO YOU S I TU ATE YOU RSELF I N T H E H I STORY OF THOUGHT OF TH ESE LAST YEA RS? A N D TODAY , WHAT PLACE DO YOU FEEL YOU

SPONTA N EOUSLY AND

WITHOUT T H I N K I NG I

WANT TO OPT OUT. IN THAT I CON S I D E R MYSELF A N I NT E L L E C T U A L, I N T E L L EC T U A L SINCE IS THE FUNCTION OF THE

A LW A Y S T O O PT

OUT

WHEN

T H I N G S "BEG I N T O J E LL." A S TO T H E S ECOND PART OF YOUR QUESTION. HOW DO I SITUATE MYSELF NOW. I OON'T S E E MYSELF AT A L L A S SOM EO N E WHO I S TRYING TO BE A LW A Y S TRIES O R I G I N A L, TO BUT A S SOMEONE WHO UP FOR A C E RT A I N

OCCU PY I N T H E DISCUSS ION OF C U R R ENT I DEAS?

SPEAK IS

ROLAND BARTHES: I N THE FRAGM ENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOURSE,

M A R G I N A LITY.

WHAT

M O R E C O M P L I C A T E D TO

OF

A

D I SC O U R S E , WITH A

TH E R E

IS

AS

IT

EXPLA I N IS THAT I N MY C A S E TH E R E IS N E V E R A N Y GLORY I N TH E C LA I M TO B E M A RG I N A L. I T I S OON E G E N T LY IF POS S I B L E . A M A R G I N A LITY THAT

HAPPENS

A

FIGURE

GREEK

NAME,

TH E

ADJECTIVE A P P L I E D TO SOCRATES. SOCRATES WAS SA I D TO BE ATOPOS, THAT I S TO SAY "WITHOUT A PLACE , " UNCLASSIFIABLE. IT IS AN A DJ ECTI V E
I

P R E S E R V E S A SPECTS O F COU RTESY, TO T E N D E R ­ N E SS-WHY Non-A N D O N E YOU CA N'T PUT A TAG TO IN THE P R E S E N T C U R R EN T OF I DEAS.

U S U A LLY APPLY TO TH E BELOVED, SO THAT AS T H E SU PPOSE D LOV E R I N THE B OO K I DON'T S E E MYSELF AS ATOPOS, BUT ON TH E CONTRARY AS SOMEONE E XT R E M E LY B A N A l.., WITH A W E LL- K N O W N CASE

J. H.:
AND

WITH YOU THERE OFTEN S E E M S TO BE, QUITE E X P L I C I T LY, A DO U B L E AND

H ISTORY. W I THOUT TA K I N G SI DES O N W H ETH E R O R NOT I AM UNCLASSIFIA BLE. I M U ST A D M I T T H A T I IN FITS A N D STARTS, BY

CONTR A D I CTORY ATTITUDE. O N O N E H A N D YOU SHOW YOU R I NTER EST TO FO R TH E IN

H A V E A LWAYS WORK E D PHASES, TOU CH E D

MODERNS

( I NTRODUCTION

BRECHT .
. .

MOTORIZED SO TO S PEAK-SOMETH I NG I ON IN TH E
R.B. (ROLA N D BARTH ES BY

F R A N C E , TH E N EW NOVEL, TH E OT H E R HAND YOU

TEL QUEL
LIKE

) ON

RECALLING

236

TI M E THE CONTRADICTION G U AGES. I C A N HEAR T H E M T A K I NG FO R M . PAST "WRITI NGS" BUT TO FROM A THE TH E ARCH ETYP E OF PASSIONATE LOV E CAN RETU R N . H. RECOG N I Z I N G I N M Y S E L F A N D M A KING THE READER R EC O G N I Z E . WHICH PLACE. BUT I DON'T FEEL M Y B E H A V I O U R IS CLASSICS. FOR E X A M PLE. O N T H E THEORETICAL AND C RITICAL FOR A L E V E L. OF D I S­ R E LA T I ON S H I P STO R Y AND I M AG E . P A ST. THAT NOTION WH ICH OF FROM OF TONG UE. SEE. I CAN PROVIDE M Y S E L F WITH AN A L I B I FOR WORK THAT I S SOMEWHAT AHEAD OF ITS TI M E. OF THE NOVEL D I M E N SIONS I MAGI NARY W H I C H E X I ST E D I N R E A D A B L E LITERA­ TURE. AND FOR A LONG TI M E I F E LT MYSELF A LMOST J. LOVER'S D I SCOURSE THE READER. T H E N A P P E O F LA NGUAGE I S A N OBJECT OF A N A LYSIS.: THAT M EA N S GIVING A BRIEF ACCOUNT OF THE PROJECrS BACKGROU ND. S I M PLY THAT I H A V E . A LW A Y S A D M I T S T O A T A S T E FOR PLEASURE I N I T . LA NGUAGE.: I S N'T IT SOMEWHAT P R OVOCATI V E TO S P E A K ABOUT "LOVE" TODAY I N TH E T E R M S OF Y E STE R DA Y . I T I S THE DISCURSIVE I N A V E R Y W I D E S E N S E : THE DISCURSIVE. Irs VERY EASY FOR ME TO DETECT THOSE STER EO­ OF M A RG I N A L I TY. THE E LA BORATION OF LITTLE COLLECT I V E LAN­ WORKS. O L D T H I NGS RETURN. THERE ARE TASTES. SO I DEC I D E D TO HOLD A B Y M I LITATING 237 . W I T H O U T A N Y K I N D O F H Y POC R I SY. NA M E LY N E UROSIS PSYCHOSIS. T H I NG S HAVE N O T A LW A Y S BEEN SO A V A N T. SINCE LAC A N . A FORM WITH OF A TO M O R ROW'S I DO N ' T K N O W I F T H E R E I S A N U N D E RLYING COH E R ENCE. B U T LITTLE B Y L I TT L E I T BECO M E S BURDENSOME. FOR A WHILE I DON'T DARE SOMETH I NG . I N THE E N D OFTEN BEC A U S E OF AN INCIDENT I N MY PERSONAL LIFE. NOTION COURSE A N D THE BREAKS AWAY DISCURSIVE. TOUCH OF H U M O U R NATURA LLY. H. AND YOU K N OW W E A RE A C E R TA I N NUMBER WO R K I N G OF ON R ES E A R C H THE WO R K E R S . I MAKE USE OF TWO A R G U M E NT S : ADVANCES FI R S T O F A A SPIRAL EXTRICATE M Y S E LF. WITH CON S E Q U E N T L Y M A N N E RS. A KIND OF P R O FO U N D D I FFIC ULTY I N PUTTI N G U P WITH T H E STER EOTY PE.G A R D E P E R H A PS . V A L U E S. AT F I RST T H E R E'S A KIND OF LITERATURE OF THE HAPPENS WHEN ONE THEN. T H E I M AG I N A RY S U B J ECT IS A POOR R E LATION OF THOSE STRUCTU R E S BECAUSE HE IS NEITHER A LTOG E T H E R N E U ROTIC. IF YOU W I L L TO AVOID DEVELOPS P R I N C I PALLY I N T H E R EG I STER O F W H AT. A N D I MORE OR LESS T R Y TO THEORIZE M Y TASTE FOR THE PAST.: NO DOUBT.: FOR THE S U BJ E C T OF THE I M AGI N A RY . S T E R EO­ R E M A I N E D C L A N D E ST I N E . BUT OBVIOUSLY T H E Y DON'T RETURN TO T H E S A M E PLACE. LONG WITH VARIOUS MODERN A QU ESTION OF TACTICS. WE CALL THE I M AG I N A RY-AND I ANY M I S U N D E RSTA N DI NG ON THE PART OF WOU LD YOU E X P LA I N THE CON S I D E R M YS E L F A S U BJ ECT OF T H E I MA G I N A RY. A N D M Y WORK D U R I NG T H E DAY W H E N . A TASTE AS FOR THE TYPED LANGUAGES TYPES OF T H E NON-STEREOTYPE. B U T Irs REALLY T H E CRUX OF THE M A TT E R . I HAVE A L I V I NG R E LATION S H I P WITH T H E LITERA­ TITLE? T U R E OF T H E PAST B E C A U S E I T PROV I D E S M E WITH IMAGES AND E S TA B L I S H E S WITH THE ARE FOR ME A GOOD R. B. SO FA M I LI A R TO ME THROUG H MY WORK I N A PARTIC U L A R S P H E R E. TH EORY IS NOT FAR OFF. I FIND THE M ET A P H O R . W H AT I S T H E COH E R E N C E T H A T U N D E R LI ES TH E S E ATTI T U D E S ? R. AND I T WAS O N L Y WITH T H E PREASURE OF THE TEXT T H A T I C A M E OUT I NTO TH E OPEN. A L I TT L E OVER TWO Y E A R S AGO I S A I D TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD STUDY A CERTA I N TYPE O F D I SCOURSE: W H A T I P R E S U M E D T O BE THE A M OROUS DISCOU RSE.: LET'S GO BACK TO FRAGM ENTS OF A MY LOVE R . H I ST O R Y IN COURAGE TO BREAK WITH SUCH LANGUAGES. BY R ECOG N I Z I N G MY ATTAC H M E N T TO SUCH LITER ATU R E I AGITATE IN FAVOUR OF THE SUBJECT IN SO FAR AS THIS S U BJ E C T IS IN A SENSE E S S A Y I STS. M A K I N G I T C L E A R F R O M TH E START T H A T T H E LOVE R S I INTENDED D I S I N H E R I T E D. OR WHAT I WOU LD C A L L -S I N C E I'M FOND OF S T R UCTU R A L I S M TO D E FE N D T H E D E F I N I N G TH I NG S IN TERMS O F CON D UCT RATH E R T H A N TASTE-MY E V E N I NG R E A D I NG (WHAT I R E A D IN THE EVENI NG) WHICH ARE A LW A Y S THE S U R E OF TH E TEXT"? R. AND AT T H E H E IGHT O F "PLEA­ S H A M E FU LLY TOR N B E TW E E N S O M E O F M Y TASTES. Irs TRUE. ACCO R D I NG TO VICO'S I M AG E . B. PSYC H I C OTH E R S CRUSHED B Y T H O S E TWO G R E A T MORE THAN ATTENTION AND ANY OF S T R U CT U R E S HAVE WHICH A R R ES T E D THE MODE R N I TY. VERY IS MODERN T H E S E C O N D A R G U M ENT WORK ON THE A SSOCIATED THE LOV E R J. T H E STU DENT S P H E R E . NOR A LTOG ETH E R D I SC R ETELY S H O U L D B E LONG T O W H A T I S C A L L E D PASSION ATE LOVE. YOU PSYCHOTIC. ' " C L E A R TO ME AS YOU M A K E T H E M SOUN D NOW. ROM A NTIC LOVE. I HAD A S E M I N A R AT THE ECOLE DES HAUTES ETUDES. AS YOU SO WELL PUT IT. B.Y O U R TASTE FOR T R A D I TI O N A L LITE RATU R E . I F E E L M Y S E L F V E R Y M U C H I N T U N E.

NOT TH E IT FRAG M ENTS? R. W H E N P A S S I N G FROM S E M I N A R T O BOOK . I ' D SAY. STEM FROM ME. AND AT T H A T D I SCOURSE E X P L I C I T A N D P U R POSELY D E S I G N E D: IT I S NOT A BOOK ON M O M E N T T H O S E SORT OF S C R A P S OF MONOLOG U E A R E B R O K E N A N D W E P A S S TO A NOTH E R F I G U R E. D I SC O U R S E TOG ETH E R ) . WHICH TH E WELL-MADE LOVE COME FROM F R I E N DS. A N U N B E A R A B ­ LY LONG W A I T. TO THERE M E. PARTI C U LA R LY ALL T H A T N I ETZSC H E S A Y S A BOUT T H E N E E D F O R " D R A M ATIZI NG." WHO I S T H E R E FORE I N D I V I DU A L I Z E D AT T H E TION: BUT IT IS L E V E L OF T H E E N U N C I A ­ A C O M POS E D LIKE. LO V E R N EC E S S A R I LY M E . R E A D I NG THESE "WELL V E RY SUC­ TIONS.: T H A T'S T R U E. S I M U LATED. WITH BEEN CONVERSATIONS. N A T U R A L LY ON THAT POINT I COULD B E C O R N E R E D I NTO S A Y I N G T H A T I T W A S M E. W H I C H I S THE VE RITABLE A R C H ETYPE OF PASSIONATE LOVE . A MOROUS D I SCOURSE. N I ETZSCHE'S I N FLUENCE. I H A V E R E S PECTED T H E R A D I C A L D I SCONTI N U I TY OF T H I S STO R M OF LA N G U A G E R A G I N G IN TH E H E A D OF T H E LOV E R . IT IS WHY I CUT UP THE W H O L E I NTO THE A MOROUS D I SC O U R S E . B. SOME E L E M E NTS I'LL B E Q U I TE F R A N K A BOUT I T . ARE A LSO WHAT HAS BLANCE THAT M Y CONVICTION STO R Y . BUT WHERE THIS OF COURSE. . M Y S E L F. C E RTA I N "FRAG M E NTS" A R E R E A LLY T H E BEGI N N I NGS OF STO R I E S . TO W R I T E THE D I SCOU R S E OF A LOV E R . I T IS NO M O R E M E . S O I ' L L R E PLY WITH T H E C A N N I N ES S O F A NOR M A N AND S A Y I T I S ME AND IT I S NOT M E . IS A B EG I N N I N G . IF THE STORY N E V E R J E LLS. O F F R E E I NG ME FROM T H E M ETA LANGUAGE. I N A N Y C A S E TH E R E LATION­ SHIP B E TW E E N THE AUTHOR AND THE STAG E C H A R A C T E R HE D I R ECTS IS OF THE T Y P E I N FICTION. I TH E N C H O S E A S U P PORTING A M OROUS WORK D I SCOU R S E BUT THE TEXT A N D A N A LYSED THE IN THAT WORK. H. A M IS S E D R E N DEZ-VOUS. OR FROM C U LT U R A L F R AG M E N T S A R R A N G E D IN A L P H ABETIC A L O R D E R . I EVEN R E A C H E D THE POI N T O F CONFUS­ ING F I G U R E S FROM M Y OWN LIFE WITH THE F I G U R E S O F W E RT H E R . I H A V E BEEN P LA Y I N G WITH T H E I DE A FOR A LONG TI M E NOW. WAS EVEN IF I BOOK I S C O NC E R N E D. THE TITLE IS QUITE SOM E H A P P E N I NG. ST E N D H A L WHAT D I R ECTI N G THE F I G U R E S. THE IT I S THE IS NOT D ISCOURSE OF A LOV E R . A N D A C R I S I S IN T H E M I D D L E . I F YOU WILL A L LO W TH E C O M P A R I SO N THAN TH AT'S WHICH IS P E R H A PS A ITSELF. W H Y DO E S N 'T H E CONTI N U E? W H Y NOT A R E A L N O V E L? A R E A L A UTOBIOG R A PHY? G E N E RA LITY O F T H E SC I E NT I F I C K I N D ) . B E C A U S E T H A T WOU LD H A V E BEEN A KIND OF LIE VERY W R I TT E N " BEGIN­ (f W A SN'T A I M ING EITHER AT A N I NG S . T H E V I S I ON I H A V E O F T H E A MO R O U S D I SCOU R S E IS ESSENTI A L­ LY A F R AG M E NT A R Y ." FOR A DO PTING A M ETHOD OF " D R A MATIZATION. 5 0 ! MADE UP. SECOND D I S CO V E R Y : THE LISTEN E R S OF THE S E M I N A R PROJECTED T H E M S E LVES V E R Y STRONG­ LY I NTO I WHAT SAID WAS TO S A I D. F I RST OF ALL I NOTI C E D THAT I WAS PROJ ECTI NG OR MYSELF MY LI FE IN T E R M S OF MY PAST C E RTA I N OF THE EXPERI ENCE I N TO I N FA T U A T I O N . OF N I ETZSC H E . OF "CUTS" YOU FILM P E RS U A D E D T H AT LOV E R SUFFERS PUT R E C E I V E S N O B E N E F I T FROM T H E R ECON C I L IA T I O N . B EC A U S E OF A DOCT R I N E . AT A L L C O STS WITH A I W A NTED TO AVOI D L O V E STORY. A N D T H A T P A R A DO X I C A LLY ENOUGH H E I S N O T I N 2 3B . UNDER THE THOSE ONLY CONDI­ J." W H I C H HAD F O R M E THE E P I ST E M O LOG I C A L A DVA NTAGE V I S IO N . S I M ULATED A D I SC O U R S E W H I C H IS THE OF A LO V E R . AFTER THE AND P A S SIONATE AND THESE BE­ OF PLEAS U R E OF T H E T E XT I COU L D NO LONGE R E P I SO D E S CA USE OF ARE B R U S Q U E LY I N T E R R U PT E D BECAU S E B E A R A N Y " D I S S E RTATION" O N T H E SUBJ ECT. I T IS. CHARACTER. J E A LO U S Y .: EVEN SO. R . OTH E R S MY FROM GOETHE'S WERTH E R . O F PHYCHOA N A LYSIS. APPRECIABLE A T T H A T T I M E . : O N E D A Y P E R H A PS . I S TH E W A Y SOC I ETY P ROPOSES THAT T H E LOV E R S H O U L D R ECONC I LE H I M S E L F W I T H T H E LA N G U A G E OF T H E G R EAT O R P H E U S . B . W A S W E R T H E R B Y GOETHE. FLUTTE R I NG MOU R E D ROU N D THE HEAD OF LOV E R . D I SCONTI N UOUS.: TO YOU I CAN S A Y A N D YOU W I LL U N DE RSTA N D . A N D E N D. MAKES TEXT SOM E W H A T R O M A N T I C . BUTTERFLY THEY ARE E P I SO D E S IN OF LANGUAGE THE ENA­ M O D I F I E D H I M CON S I D E R A B LY. WHICH INTERVENE. BUT ON THE CONTRARY. WHO I AM NEVERTHE LESS OR (AS IF A D I SCOU R S E . W A S NOT TO W R I T E A T R E A T I S E O N T H E A M O ROUS D I SC O U R S E . H. BUT D U R I N G THE TWO Y E A R S OF THE S E M I N A R I BECA M E A W A R E OF A D O U B L E MOV E M E N T. T H E S T O R Y B EG I N S T O TAKE S H A PE A N D I S I M M E D I A T E LY I NT E R R U PTED. WHO SAYS "I" IN THESE A N A LY S I S O F A TYPE O F T H E DISC U RS I V E . THEY ARE V E R Y M U C H A PART O F T H I S BOOK. HON EST C O U R S E . B Y M A K I NG U P A STO R Y FO R HIMSELF IN WHICH THE HE PUTS H I M S ELF. . H E WHO S A Y S " I " I N T H E BOOK I S T H E "I" O F W R I T I NG. THE R E S U LT T H E N I S T H E D I SC O U R S E O F A SUBJ ECT WHO SAYS "I. I H A V E OFTEN WON D E R E D CESSFUL.SEMINAR WHICH WOULD BE THE OBJ ECTI VE J. CON F I D E D . ANY RESEM­ IS A R E A D I NGS O F THE M YSTICS.

S E PA­ A MOROUS SENTI M E N T I S F A R TIVE. REASON A B LY." ETC . EVEN THAT I C A N 'T S W E A R T O IT B E I N G CH RONOLOGICALLY A F I RST F I G U R E B E C A U S E ITS QUITE POS S I B L E THAT LOVE A T F I RST SIGHT O N LY FU NCTIO N S IN R ETROSP ECT. 50. B E LO N G I N G TO WHICH HE APPLIES TO H I MSELF IN A P R I M I TIVE FASHION. AND WHICH THE BOOKS VO UCH 50 T H E R E LATION I HAVE IN T H I S BOOK WITH PSYCHOAN A LYSIS IS V E R Y A M B IGUOUS: M AKES USE ITS A R E LATION W H I C H . HENCE DECI SION THAT FOR M E TO P U B L I S H TH I S BOOK W A S IN A C E RTA I N WAY TO SPEAK UP FOR A BY M A R G I N A L I TY NOT ON EVEN THE WHICH IN W R I T I NG A S M O R A L ITY TO D A Y 15 R E I N FO R C E D FASHION. IT DOES THE A LSO S P E A K IN TH E BOOK). OF T H E D E SC R I PTIONS. . A D A S H OF PSCYHO A N A LY S I S R. N O T FOR DI SCOU R S E I S FAR M O R E KITSCH T H A N A BOOK O N D R UGS. A S IN R E A D I NG YOU . I TRY TO EXPRESS THE P ROFOU N D PESSI M I S M O N E C A N H A V E I N T H A T R E S PECT SINCE THE LOVER'S D I SCOU R S E C A N N OT B E C O M E WRITING W I T H O U T E N O R M O U S J E TTI S O N I N G S FO R M ATIONS. I J. IT SEEKS MORE THE D E M ONSTRA­ ESSENTIAL LOVE" FROM "LOVI NG. W I T H T H E N . LOVE A S A N O R D E R O F A F F I R M A T I V E V A L U E S R E S I STANT T O A LL ATTACK. TO C R EATE. AS A LW A Y S . ITS A D I SCONTI N UOUS BOOK W H I C H PROTESTS I N A SMALL W A Y AGA I N ST THE LOVE STORY. O F THE M A R R I E D C O U P L E EVEN . FROM R A C I N E TO PROUST. TION. TO HE A 15 I N SOM ETH I N G W H I C H 1 5 STATE OF FOLLY. I HAVE TH E IS PROFOUN D CONVICTION THE THAT THE LOVE R M A RG I N A L. A BEING J.: N E V E R . H. LET U S SAY. P A R A NOIC. : WHAT 00 YOU M E A N WHEN YOU W R I TE: "I INCLUDE T H E M I N T H E BOOK BECAUSE THE LOV E R I PRESENT A M ON THE SIDE OF THE W R ITI NG. . F I G U R E THEN I S T H E MOTH E R . PSYC H O A N A LY S I S A DESC R I PTION HAS THE LEAST ATT E M P T E D OF A MOROUS STATE. T H I S TYPE OF LOV E R IS NOT C E N T E R E D ON EXCLUDE D FROM J E A LOUSY: J E A LO U S Y 15 NOT PASSIONATE LOV E BUT THE 50 IN A TO DEROGATO R Y R E I NTEGRATE RATE " B E I NG FASHION." TO "LOVE FULFI L L M EN T . IT DEVELOPED AS THE FRENCH LITERATU R E .: F I R ST A D I G R ESSION: I R E A L I Z E D THERE W E R E TWO TYPES OF LOV E R S . . A T O N E MOMENT I EVEN THOUGHT OF PLAC I N G A FIGU RE I N IT I A L AT TH E FO U N DA ­ R. TH E N I S A I D N O . BUT AS T H E S I M ULATED D I SCOU R S E O F THE LO V E R A D V A N C E D.: I S N'T IT A FOR M OF A U DAC I TY TO S P E A K A S YOU 00 A B O U T LOVE. : I T S TR U E T H A T I N M Y BOOK T H E R E I S W H A T I M IGHT T E R M AN " I N T E R E STING" R ELATION WITH T H E PSYC H O A N A LYTIC R E L A TI O N SEMINAR DI SCOURSE BECAUSE T H I S J . F O R E X A M PLE. H . I N F A C E OF T H E I NVAS I V E PSYC H O A N A LYT I C D I SCOU R S E ? B EG I N N I NG. M UC H CLOS E R NOTH I N G 00 W E S P E A K OF "MOON STR U C K LOVERS": FROM THE LOV E R'S POINT O F VIEW T H E STORY 15 I M POSSIBLE. H. AND T R A N S­ A N A LYTIC I D E A S BUT WHICH USES THEM L I K E T H E E L E M ENTS OF FICTION. W H I C H A R E NOT NECESS A R I LY C R E D I BLE. O R TO PAI NT. A IN I N VITING LOV E R TO C E RTA I N N O R M A L I TY. B . T H E Y E X I ST I N F R E UD. GUAGES. 15. OF PSYCHO­ R A TH E R FOR." 15 A SUBJ ECT WITH THE C U LT U R E OF TODAY. OR TO W R ITE FOR THE B E LO V E D . I N OTH E R A N A LYSTS. A M ONG THE MAJOR AT LAN­ LOV E R TE LLS H I M S E LF. BEW ITCH M E NT: FOR A LONG TI M E I H E S I TATED. E Q U I V A L E N T TO AT FI RST AN LOVE S I G HT. F O R ALTHOUGH EFFECTI V E LY IT S P E A K S OF THE A MOROUS S T A T E: . E N AMORATION. THERE I S A N OR M A LITY OF THE AMOROUS STATE IN PSYCHOA NA LYSIS W H I C H 1 5 I N FACT T H E R E V I N DICATION O F T H E COUPLE. I N LAC A N .THE LOVE STORY. H A V E I H A D SO ST R O N G L Y THE IMPRESSION THAT MARGINAL BOOK AMOROUS 239 . THEY WERE :' TO P I C A L ' T H E Y : ATTRACTED M E BY TH E I R EXTR E M E PERTI N E N C E . . B. T H A T I F O N E E XA M I N ES C U LTURE TODAY-IT I S A L S O ONE O F T H E T H E M E S OF THE BOOK-TH E R E I S N O O N E M A J O R L A N G U A G E WHICH T A K E S I N C H A R G E THE AMOROUS STATE. I W A S O B L I G E D TO M A K E U S E OF THOSE TO WRITE FOR T H E B E LOVED D E S C R I PT I O N S . O N E OF T H E FIGURES I N M Y BOOK D E A LS P R E C I S E LY WITH T H E LONGI NG. . AT THAT MOM ENT OFF THE THE LO V E R CAN ONLY CUT DIS­ G E R M A N ROM A N T I C I S M AND NOTA BLY IN T H E LIEDER OF SC H U B E RT AND SC H U M A N N ( ABOUT WHICH I H I MSELF FROM PSYCHOA N A LYTIC COURSE. ITS SOM ETH I N G THE E V O LV E D C O N C U R R E N T L Y W I T H T H E YOU KNOW V E R Y W E L L A N D T H E BOOK. T H E OTH E R TYPE DOES N O T E X I ST I N F R E N C H LITE RA­ TURE BUT H A S BEEN A D M I R A BLY P R ESENTED BY A F F I R M ATION O F A V A L U E . SO AT EACH TU R N I TRIED TO BREAK TH E B U I LD-UP O F T H E STO R Y . T H E J E A LO U S LOV E R . ONE. THE D R I V E THE LOVE R SO OFTEN FEELS IT SEEMS. THE T E M PTATIO N .

BUT I AM NOT C L E A R A BOUT IT AT A L L. WRITE MAJOR T R E A T I S E . PROTECTS H I M . BECA U S E THE OF ITS S U BJECT. A N D I C A N ONLY SA Y THAT I F E E L THE WRITING OF T H I S BOOK TO BE SOMETH I N G A P A RT. MORE MAJOR L l TOT I C . SYNTAX. LITERARY. BOOK V E RY A LONE. . I AM S U R E THAT IF N E XT Y E A R I G I V E M Y ATTE NTION TO C H A R ACTE R I STIC L I T E R A R Y FOR M . WHAT ONCE U S E D TO BE R B.: WHAT I S THE TITLE O F YOU R COU R S E AT TH E COLLEGE O F F R A N C E ? R B. ETH ICS W I L L BE BACK. MORAL CODES THAT ARE NOT T H E MORAL CODES OF FAITH. ' SORT OF MORA L CODE. NOT I NAUGURAL LECTU R E TO T H E COL­ COM M U N I T I E S AS W E KNEW T H E M AFTER TH E H I PPIE M OV E M E N T S . MORE OF E L L I PTIC. I W A S CONSCIOUS TO WHAT A POI NT SYNTAX COULD PROTECT TH E ONE WHO WAS S P E A K I N G . V E RY THIS OPEN. SYNTAX IS PRETTY SYNTA XIC. SCEPTI CISM. WORDS WITHOUT MANY IF I WERE A A P H I LOSOP H E R . H.W R I T I NG IS FU N D A M E NT A L L Y A QU ESTION OF ETH I C S . THE COU R S E ON TH E I DEA OF 1 010- PROTECT BOOK. I WOU LD L I K E TO R ETU R N T O IT . WHICH I S TO SAY THAT Irs NOT A VERY LYRIC TEXT. WOULD G I V E BUT W H E R E ATTE NTION I S GIVEN TO THE TU RN OF PHRASE. M Y B I GGEST DEFENSIVE WEAPON WAS PURE LANG U A G E . ROLA N D B A R T H E S I NT E R V I E W E D BY JACQU ES H E N R I C STAT E M E NTS RECORDED O N TAPE ON 4.E DG E D SWORD BECAUSE IT C A N A LSO B E A N I N S TR U M E NT OF OPPRESSION­ IT VERY OFTEN IS-BUT WHEN T H E SUBJ ECT IS VERY V U L N E R ABLE. TO I N C I TE T H E E M ERGENCE FROM TH E W R I T I N G OF AN ETH I C A L VANI S H I N G POI N T. .77 J . I HAD TO C A L L E D BY O R I E N T A L MONKS. TH AT'S WHEN W R I T I N G F U NCTIONS AS A N A M E OF A S T U D Y OF L I T E R A R Y A N A LYSIS. I AND I F I WANTED TO IT T H E I N V E NTIONS OR N EOLOGI SMS. I H A V E CENTERED RH YTH M Y . TO BUT I A LW A Y S AS GIVE SO H E L D I N THE N A M E OF TH E " I :' WHICH IS ALL THE SA M E A RISK. H A V I N G ITS MODELS RATH E R O N TH E S I D E O F AGNOST I C I S M .: Irs A V E R Y GOOD Q U E STION.: I H A V E LA U N C H E D A S E R I ES OF COURSES O N TRAN SLATI O N BY CATH E R I N E D U NCAN 240 . YOUR YOU I N S I ST E D ON TH I S PO I NT IN " L I V I N G TOGETH ER. U N D E R COV E R OF A LITE R A R Y A N A LYSIS I WOU LD T R Y TO D I S E N G A G E AN ETH I C IN THE BROADEST S E N S E OF T H E WOR D . G R O U P I NGS W H O R E A LLY L I V E TOGETH E R B U T EACH AT HIS OWN R H YTH M . T O P RO r E C T A DISCOU RSE IT S E E M S T O M E N O W T H A T W H E R E THE COU R S E I S CONC E R N E D I W I L L R E T U R N T O MATE R I A L THAT IS S P E C I F I C A L LY MYSELF R I G HTLY LEAVE S A I D. I DI O R H YTH M Y . OR TO PUT IT EVEN MORE D I G R ESS A N D." W H IC H S ETS OUT TO E X P LORE TH E UTO P I A OF C E RT A I N S M A LL G ROU PS. BUT THE U TO P I A OF A FFECTI VE LEGE OF F R A N C E . IT I S A DOU BLE.4. YOU P R EC I S E LY.

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A K I N D OF I NCOM PATI B I LITY BETWEEN OUR PHYSICAL PRESENCE D E G R E ES IN OF THE A WORLD AND THE DIFFERENT OF C A L EXPULSION FROM T H E E A R HTL Y P A R A D I S E I S P R E C E D E D BY A N A B R U PT D I SORDE R I N G OF SIGHT THAT C O M PLETELY C H A NGES T H E A P P E A R A N C E O F T H E W O R L D A S L I V E D B Y THE COUPLE: T H E I R EYES ARE O P E N E D." . THEY TRY TO H I D E T H E M SELVES. WHAT THIS I N VOLVES I S A N ASTO N I SH I NG SUCCES­ SION OF V I S U A L P H E N O M E N A . SATA N ' TH US BEG I N S THE CYCLE O F A H U M A N I TY DOO M E D LESS TO DEATH THAN TO D I S A PPE A R A N C E. A N D T O AVOID THE S I G H T OF GOD. T H I S TYPE OF N A R RATIVE O N LY A D A PTS J U D EO. THAT IS.M A R I E DO R V A L RATH E R FAITH F U LLY BY I M PARTING T H E LOGI STIC ROLE I N I T I A LLY HELD BY THE FI RST WOMA N TO SC I E N C E A N D T H E TEC H N I C A L M E D I A . THEY NOCT U R N A L A N E STH E S I A CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH K E E PS M A K I NG US LAPSE I N TO SHORT OR P ROLO N G E D . THE AND THE N A VIGATION O F BOD I E S 242 . SC I E N C E F I C T I O N N A R RATIVE. SEDUCERE-H E R E C O S M O. AND NOT. THE R E N E W A L OF SC I E N C E F I C T I O N I N T H E U N ITED STATES A N D I N THE BIG INDUSTRIAL COUNTRIES SEEMS TO BE A P PEA R I N G IN THE B I B LE AS THE SEDUCER OF W O M A N . THEY SEE THEY A R E N A KED. I N SOFA R A S ITS P R I N C I P A L T H E M E COMES D O W N TO S C I E N C E-TEC H N O LOGY-OTH E R WORLDS.MOV I NG G I R L ''I ' M NOT BEA UTI F U L.C H R I ST I A N V ERSION OF GENESIS DECISIVE BEGI N N I NG DEPARTUR E OF A H U M A NITY. WHO I N T U R N S E D U C E S M A N . SHOWS M O S T OF US TURNING I N C I RCLES L I K E T H E BLI N D BEFORE T H E VERY OBVIOU S N ESS OF TH E F A M I L I A R U N I VE R S E . WHICH M I LD MAY OR SERIOUS BRING STATES OF ABSENCE INDEED COVER U P TH E I R N A K E D N ESS. A S HAS SO OFTEN BEEN R E PE A T E D. OUR S U D D E N I M M E R­ SION IN OTH E R U N I V E R SES-PARALLEL. I ' M WORSE.D YN A M I C D I M E N S I O N : SEDUCTI O N I S A RITE O F PASSA G E FROM ONE U N I V E RSE TO A N O TH E R FOR WHICH I M PLIES A IN FACT. COLLA PS­ ING THE I N I T I A L S E PA RATION OF DAYS AND N I G HTS IN A PURE P H E N O M ENON OF SPEED. I N EFFECT. THAT B I F U RCATI N G -A N D HOLE WHICH US BE BLACK EXCESSIVE R A PI DITY O F T H I S PASSAGE. IN FACT. THE SEDUCTION-THE " L E A D I N G TA K E S ON A ASIDE" OF A BOUT. T H I S B E I NG ACCOM PLISHED FI RST AS A P H E NO M E N O N OF CONSCIOUSNESS: THE PHYSI­ L I N K E D T D T H A T OF R E L I G I O N AND SECTS. A SEXUAL I N NOVATI ON. BY V A R I O U S M EA N S. EVEN WOULD PUSH ONLY I NTER­ I N TO THE STI TIAL. TO THE E X P U LS I O N FROM T H E U N I V E R S E IT PREVIOUS­ LY I N H ABITED.

TH E AXIS M U NDI. IN F A CT. H E R E O N E MAY LAW OF R E C A L L H A N N A H A R E N DT ' S R E F L E C T I O N THAT "TERROR 1 5 T H E FULFI LLM E NT OF THE S I M U LA TA N EO U S W I T H SEDUCTION MOVEMENT. A N D F I N E R Y WERE U S E F U L I N CAMOUFLAGI NG PHYSIOLOG I C A L I D E N TI T Y . OF TH E I R P ROJECTION BUT A LSO OF THE I R COLLISION? WH E N A LA I N SCH LOKOFF ELABORATES ON THE REPLACE M E N T OF E ROTIC O R PORNO FIILMS BY HORROR F I L M S." THE E P I SODE I N GENESIS OF THE ONE R E V E A L S THAT TH E RITE OF PASSAGE ACCOM P L I S H M E N T LEADING FROM U N I V E R S E T O A N OTH E R PRODUCES NOT O N L Y A M ETAMORPHOS I S O F SIGHT BUT A N I M M EDIATE CAMOU FLAGE AND CAREFUL D I S S I M U LATION O F THE BODY. I NDEED SEXUAL I NDIFFERENCE. THE B U T TH I S WAY OF FOLLOWI N G FASHION. ALL ON LY BRI NGS TO LIGHT T H E VERY FOU N DATION OF EVERY M E A N S OF S EDUCTION: TO ATTRACT T H E L O O K I S TO C A PT U R E A N D T H U S D I V E RT T H E ATTENTION. I S N 'T THE "SIN" OF THE F I RST MAN COMMONLY CALLED T H E "FALL. A N OPTICAL I LLUSION I N A U N I V E R S E ITSELF P E R C E I V E D WHOLELY AS I LLUSORY A N D WHERE D I SS I M U LATION TRI U M PH S AS A SYNDROME OF MOVE M E NT. IN A WORLD W H E R E TECHNOLOGICAL PROGRESS CORRESPONDS TO THE UTI LIZATION A N D QUEST O F SUPER ROGATORY SPEEDS. ALL THAT H A S A PART I N THE MOV E M E N T OF M AN's LIFE. 2 M OV E M E N T A THIRD PA R T N E R . NO LONG E R IS TH E R E A COUP L E BUT A T R I LOG Y O F SORTS: THE SOLITARY MOVEM ENT OF SEDUCERE OR THE SEXUAL COU PLING THAT R E QU I R E S I NT E R D E P E N D E N T IMPLIES TERRITORIAL BODy. T H E HORROR FILM THEN SUCCEEDS AS A M ATTER O F COURSE THE E ROTIC F I L M A S A M O R E PERFECT F U L F I L L M E N T OF THE L A W OF MOV E M E NT. OF S E D UCTION. T H E LEADING A S I D E MASS SENSIBI LITY M UST NOT BE U N D E RESTI M ATED. M I STRESS OF PASSAGE. CONDUCTIVE. M A N N ER S . THE AND STATES THAT "SEX NO LONGE R EXISTS AND THAT FEAR H A S R EPLACED IT. T H E N . A SPACE-TI M E ESSEN­ TIALLY DIFFERENT S I N C E E X P E R I ENCED A S MOBILE. W H I L E G I R LS O F TODAY M A Y CONDESC E N D T O L E T GUYS "PICK TH E M UP. AND HENCE OF T E R ROR. T H E SEVERE DISCIPLINE A I M E D AT M A K I N G A CREATOR OF A RTEFACTS OUT OF TH E C H I LD. S H E H A S U P TILL NOW E FFECTI VELY ORGA N I ZE D A L L THAT I S SPEED. D A N C E . I N O R D E R TO ENJOY I N THE I R C O M P A N Y T H E SELF-INVOLUTION ASSOCIATED W I T H HITTING T H E ROAD. MORE LITERA L LY. THE S O L I TA R Y P L E A S U R E THAT T H E C I N E M ATOGRAPHIC MOTOR A FFORDS THE PO R N O F I L M V I E W E R A LR E A D Y A N NO U N C E S T H E F O R E ­ SHORTENING WHICH I S BEG I N N I NG A N D CAN BE COMPARED TO THAT O F T H E SC I E N C E F I C T I O N NARRATIVE I N R E LATION T O THE B I B L I C A L STORY: IT I M PLIES T H E DISAPPEARANCE OF HUMAN I NTER­ MEDIARIES A N D THE E M ERGENCE OF A SEXUALITY DIRECTLY CONCERNED WITH A TEC H N I C A L OBJECT. 3 DEPORTMENT. THE BODY OF WOM A N THUS CONFOU N D E D WITH A BODY OF COM M U N ICATIONS." T H E A N C I E N T S T H U S E ST A B L I S H I N G A D I R E C T R ELATION BETW E E N W H A T I S C O N V E NTIONALLY CALLED ORIGI N A L SIN AND T H I S TERRESTRIAL PULL W H I C H T H E Y C O N S I D E R E D TO BE T H E F I R ST NATURAL MOTOR OF T H E F R E E A CC E LE R ATION OF BOD I ES. " N A T U R E " A N D ITS W E A K N E S S E S . THEY STI LL S H R I N K AT THE THOUGHT O F B E I NG 'TA K E N I N " OR. THE I N STITUTIONS FOR THE EDUCATION OF LITTLE G I R LS H A D COMPA RABLE ENDS. THIS B E LOVED WHO A CCOR D I N G TO NOV A L I S 15 THE S U M M A R Y OF THE U N I VE RS E AND TH I S U N IVERSE WHICH 1 5 ONLY T H E EXTENSION O F T H E BELOVED. B U T A LSO T O H E R LACK O F P ERSONA L I NTELLIGENCE. M A N U A L WORK." SOMEWHAT A S THOUGH H ITCH ­ H I K ING. TRAN S FORMABLE. F R O M S O M ETH I N G I M M U T A B L E TOW A R D ANOTH E R REGION OF T I M E . ALL THAT CONCU R S OR COMPETES WITH IT. IGNORANCE. S O RIGOROUSLY R E SPECTED I N THE MOST I NDUSTR I A L­ IZED COU N T R I E S EVEN AS FAR AS TH E R E P U L S I V E ATTITUDES A N D P U N K OF THE LAST FEW YEARS.S E N S E S. G A V E T H ESE S U P POSEDLY I N NOCENT L A S S E S A G R EATER TECHNICAL RELIABI LITY FOR THE EXECUTION OF AN E N DLESSLY R E PEATED S E R I E S O F M A N E U V E R S INTENDED T O S U BJ UGATE THOSE AROUND THE M . A S THE C REATION OF A SECOND U N I VERSE WHICH WOULD DEPEND ENTI REL Y UPON T H I S I NITIAL RITE. OF B E I N G TOLD TO " G O GET LOST. FEAR I S P R E C I S E LY BECA USE THE LATTE R IS TRAVERSED IN A PHENO­ M ENON OF SPEED S U C H THAT THE ANTICI PATION OF A N ACC I D E NT OCCU R S I N STANTLY. OF C O N FO R M I NG T O U S A G E S A N D T O C O D E S . W H O W E R E TH E I R SOLE E FFECTIV E PROTECTION A GA I N ST 243 . IS AN IDEAL VECTOR BETWEEN M A N A N D THE NEW WORLD. PROVI DED T H E LATTER B E A MOTOR O R VECTO R OF MOVEM ENT." I N T H E B I B LI C A L N A R RATIVE. A N D PARTICULARLY THE CHOSEN PARTNERS. U N I V E R S A L H E A V I N E SS. POSSESSED OR POSSESSING BUT ATTRACTIVE. TH I S FORCE O F ATTRACTION I S IN FACT G R A V I TATION. AS A CONSTA N T R E F E R E N C E TO T H E MARVELOUS M EC H A N IC I TY O F T H E WOMAN'S VECTOR-BODY." I M PORTA N C E O F SUCH A MODIFICATION OF FORMERLY. I S I NSC R I B E D V E R Y P R EC I SE­ LY IN THE DYN A M I C O F THE WORLD: T H E R E WOM AN I S NOT POSSESSIVE.

W H I LE H A V I N G TOTA LLY FORGOTT E N W H AT THEY D I D A M O M E N T A G O . CLUDED. T H I S I S A P R E L U D E T O OTH E R U N I VE R S E S O F S P E E D ( F A S T OR SLOW). TlHROUGH 244 . M A Y D I E " I S C E RTAI N LY R E A L ENOUGH A N EVENT. MEAN LABOR. I NV I S I BLE TO TH E COMMON EYE. H E W I L L B E R E J ECTED. IN A N O L D COUPLE. S I M I LA R L Y . THE T I M E O F THE N A R RATIVE A PP E A R S T O BE I NCOMPATI B L E SO-C A L L E D " W A R M A R R I AGE" E P H E M E R A L I N MOST CASES. SLOW·MOTION. A TRUE E F F ECT OF A N A MO R P H O S I S . T H E CON­ FOR M I S M OF H A B I T C R E ATES A K I N D OF NARRATI V E TH E SUM MARY. THUS EACH T R I E S TO I N STALL T H E OTH E R IN A B E S I DES. B U SI N ES S . OR DRAG Q U E E N ) . I N V E RS E L Y . A N D T H E U N I VERSE OF W A R THAT W I LL I N STANTLY PUT M A N I NTO T H E WO M A N ' S P A S T . T H E REMARK CONTAI N S BOTH THE NOTI O N OF A V E STI S M . PARA DOXI C A L LY . A N D COMMON O N E D I SCOV E R S I N LOVER' MODALITIES A PENDU­ L U M E FFECT SUGGESTIVE OF THIS KIND OF LEADING ASIDE: THE S UFFRAGETTES O R T H E GROUPS FOR WOMEN'S LIBERATION NOTICEABLY A FT E R D EMONSTRATE MORE WARS. W I LL CONJUGAL B E D A COLD A N D DEFIN ITIVE HATRED FOR HER AWKWARD HUSBAND. IN THE VERY R A P­ PROC H E M E NT OF "LOVE M A K I NG" THE TEC H N I C A L EXPERTISE C R E ATES OF THE SEDUCER OR SEDUCTRESS THE I M M EDIATE NOT SEX OBJ ECTS. OF COMM UTATION P E R SONS D O E S N O T ABOLISH T H E I N A C C E S S I B I LITY WHICH PREVIOUSLY C R EATED T H E S E P A RATION OF D I STANCE AND A PA RTNESS. I T I S A N A RT W H I C H M UST B E CEASE LESSLY I N T R A N S FO R M ATION A N D WHICH DOESN'T ESCAPE T H E G E N E R A L LAW OF T H E WORLD: TO STA N D STI LL I S TO D I E . L I TT L E B Y L I TT L E THE T R A G I C C H ARAC­ TER OF THE N ECESSITY TO SEDUCE A ND TO KEEP ON SEDUCI NG IS REVEALED: IT IS LIKE AN WITH V I S I O N I T S E L F . W H A T T H E MOVE M E N T OF R O M A N T I C PASSIONS I N LlSZT'S FORMULA SHOWED. H I M S E L F A GREAT SEDUCER. ODORS. TRAVELO. CONFLICTS DEADLY TO M A LES. A N D IT BECOMES NECESSRY­ I N O R D E R TO S E E -TO I NTRODUCE. BUT BECAUSE THE TEC H N I C A L E X PLOIT OF T H E Y O U N G W O M A N THERE R E A C H E S ITS END. D E F E R R E D T I M E . BUT W H AT IS AIMED AT H ERE AG A I N IS THE R ELEGATION O F T H E PARTN E R . SO M E W H AT LIKE I N THE DISASTER F I L M S SHOT BY STUNTM E N REAL TIME. H Y M EN'S RITE O F P A S S A G E OFTEN SHE IS NO LONGER DRAW FROM HER TH E TECH N I C A L FATALITY A N D MORE P R EC I S E LY T H E TEC H N I Q U E OF WAR. EACH SPOUSE BECOMES I N V I S I B L E TO T H E OTH E R S I M PLY ON ACCOU N T O F T H E R E PETITION O F A L I M ITED N U M B E R OF SIGNS. WH E N T H E SOLDI E R HAS THE BAD IDEA OF R E T U R N I NG SAFE AND SOU N D TO T H E PRESENT OF H I S WIFE. TH E H A ST I L Y C O N ­ WILL B E U N D E R ST A N DA B LY. EXORBITANT I NFLATION O F TH E LAW O F MOV E M E N T A N D OF THE VECTORI A L F AC U LTIES OF T H E BODY. THE CHEAP D I S A P PE A R A N C E O F T H E PARTN E R OR PA RTN E R S I N S P A C E A N D TI M E : T O L E A D T H E M A S I D E I S TO L E A D T H E M TO NOT H I N G N ESS. THE GREAT H A B I TS SO MUCH A PA RT OF TH E DA I LY R EG I M E N T H A T T H E Y A R E A L R E A DY K NOWN A N D E XPECTED BY THE P A RTN E R . TH E CONTRADICTION. TH E D E N N ESS OF A C C I D E N T I M PL I E S SO M A N Y EVE NTS U N FO L D I N G I N SUCH A COMPRESS E D T I M E T H A T T H E C O M M O N E Y E C A NNOT R ECORD T H E M A L L A N D T H U S M E R E LY S U M M A RIZES TH E M . THAT OF T H E GREAT N A V IGATION O F THE SPECIES. COM PA RABLE TO THAT OF THE TRAN SVESTITE (ONE USED TO SPEAK IN FOR M E R A TIMES WORD MORE WHICH P R E C I S E L Y O F TRANS· A LSO S U GG ESTS TH E " M A N Y WOM E N H A V E LOVE D T H E M S E L V E S I N M E . F I N A LLY. ROMANTIC PERIODS D E V E LO P ON THE CONTR A R Y S I N C E THE "ANGLE O F T E M PORAL VISION" CHANGES TO SUCH A N EXTENT I N THE AGED THAT T H E Y C A N T A L K A BOUT A N E V E N T OF FORTY Y E A R S A G O A S I F I T H A D H A PP E N E D T H E S A M E D A Y . S H E H A S LED H E R SPOUSE T O H E R S I D E . PROSTI ­ TUTION OR DESTITUTION. THUS. THE YOUNG V I RG I N'S MOTILE P E R FOR M A N C E A L R E ADY A N NOUNCES THE CLAIM OF THE "WO M E N I N MOVEM ENT' OF M LF (THE FRENCH WOMEN'S L I B E RATION MOV E M ENT>: WE ARE R E D UCTION OF T H E S P E E D OF CONQU E ST A N D OF A R E C I P RO C A L I N VI S I B I LITY. TO A RAGON'S MOTTO WOMAN IS THE FUTURE OF MAN THE MLF OPPOSES ITS MAN IS THE PAST OF WOMAN.A MAN'S SOC I ETY WHICH CON D E M N E D TH E LIKE AN ACCELERATION OF THE I R R E S I ST I B L E DOW E R I E D GI RLS TO AN E A R LY M A R RIAGE A N D THE OTH E R S TO THE CONVENT. " S A I D F R A N Z LI SZT. WHICH C A N NOT B E P ROJ ECTED I N S I N C E THE S U D­ B E FO R E OR D U R I NG T H E R EVOLUTIONS A N D WARS. A D I SOR D E R I NG OF SIGHT. A S DESC R I B E D B Y COLON E L D E LA I R . NOT OUT OF MODESTY. I T I S A LWAYS EASY TO A N N I H I LATE T H E PARTN E R WITHOUT A S M UCH A S L E A V I N G H I M O R HER FOR A SECON D. A N D TO T H I S EXTENT THE S E D UCTIVE ACTI V I TY I NT E R F E R E S WITH T H E ROMA NTIC NOVELS C A N STOP A T T H E WEDDING. TH E SENTI M E NTAL. T H U S THE M I LITARY MOBI LIZA TION I S S U BSTITUTED FOR THE LOV E R S' " T R A N S PORT. 4 AS TIME PASSES." THE YOUNG W O M A N ' S "G I V I N G SOLDIER H ER S E L F TO THE MOBILIZED BECAUSE HE B E FO R E H I S DEPARTURE.

SEVENTY TO E I GHTY FOR SOME OF T H E M .JUST W H E N T H E A R M A M ENT O F T H E R A C E R A N D T H E R A C E T O A R M S A RE BECOM I NG PHENOMENA O F SOC I ETY. THE PHYSIOLOG I C A L I D ENTITY S E E M S TO D I S A P P E A R B E H I N D T H E A PP E A L OF A 'TEC H N I C A L VALORIZATION SUCH THAT M A N Y OF T H E S E WOM E N WILL CONTI N U E TO EXERCISE TH E I R F U NCTION IN FACT. WORLD. H E R E AGA I N . FROM THE C E L I N ESQUE PRODUCT OF M U RD E R OR S I M PLY AS A VECTOR OF VOYAGE GIVES WAY TO THE LIBERATION OF T H E NEW 245 . BECOM E H I S COMBAT F I NERY." SUCH EXAM PLE. L'HOM M E FATAL A L R E A D Y RECOGNIZES H I MSELF A S TH E PAST OF H I S WIFE: H I S S P A R K L I N G S H I ELD. TH E ACCELERATION O F THE RITE OF PASSAGE C L E A R L Y I M PL I E S T H E PRESENCE OF T H E T E R R I TO R I A L BODY A S THI R D PARTNER. A LL O F T H I S TAKES THE ULTIMATE FOR M OF A NEW. PROPOS I N G I N STE A D THOSE OF H I S ARMS S E R V A NT: "MY MAN K NOWS HOW TO TAKE CARE OF M Y A RMOR. OUTPUT MON A R C H S OR RATH E R "POLEM A RC HS" . TH E WO M E N OF TH E M L F DEVELOP A SI M I LA R ATTITU D E : THEY PREACH T H E PARTN E R'S LIB ERATION IN THE M A N N E R OF T H E OLD W I DOWS: CURE US OF LOVE I S O N E O F TH E I R S LOGA N S. " THE M YSTER Y WRITER AGATHA C H R I ST I E LO V E D TO R E P E AT.THE I N C R EA S E OF E N E RG Y AND THE SUPER C H A RACT E R C H I LD R E N WHENEVER WHO E X H I B I TS THE R E LICS IN OF HER WAR ACCELERATION O F T H E LOV E RS' T R A N S PORT. S H E C A N DEVOTE H E R S E LF TO COMPETITI V E S PO RT S . HARMFUL ALL W I L L SOON WITH THE SPEEDOMETER OF TH E R A C I NG-CA R. I N FLU­ ENCE AND MONEY. THE S URVIVORS AND O U T . A N A B R I DG M E N T O F THE U N I VERSE M A D E POSSIBLE B Y T H E S P E E D O F T H E ASSA U LT. TH E S E D UCTION O F WOMAN AS A M UR D E R . O R T O TH I S TELEGRA M -" I F T H E W A R I S LOST. ACHIEVING SPEED D I RECTLY T O M U R DE R A S A BY. BUT ALSO T H E D R I V E R'S GLANCE AT THE COM M A N D. CONC E R N E D ONLY T O F I N D TH E L I M I T O F H I S FORCE'S EXPAN­ SION. TO BETWEEN M ETA BOLICS A N D TEC H N IQ U E . THE SEDUCERE C A N N O MORE B E R E D U C E D TO SEXUAL COM M E R C E TH A N THE . M E RC I LESS SOC I A L RECORDS I N TH E CONVEYA NCE O F PASSENGERS ON TH E HIGH SEXUAL VOYAGE . TH E PETR U C H I O WIFE MARCH O R CONQ U E R O R CAN B E COM P A R E D TO A "H U M A N COM M E RCE. R I D OF T H E CORSET.6 THESE PERPETU A L A S S A U LTS A G A I N S T DISTANCE A LSO R EPRODU C E I N D E F I N I TE LY THE I N I T I A L RITE OF PASSAGE. FOR FREDERICK I I'S "TO SERVICES O F A M A I D . IT WAS NOT RARE EITHER T O S E E O N E O F T H E M R E A C H TH E S U M M I T O F TH E STATE H I E R A RC H Y. A N D T H E S E A R E S I G N I FICA NTLY AMONG T H E THEMES W H I C H H A V E C REATED TH E I R U N A N I M ITY. N O R . THAT AND WORKI NG TO SUCH A THEY WERE CONSIDERED STRUGG L E BETWEEN CLIQUES THAT H A V E BECO M E HOMOS E X U A L I N T H E PURSUIT O F POWER. AND CLI M B I N TO F A ST BY­ "MOST OF THE TIME LOVE IS A BY-PRODUCT OF VEHICLES. ABORTI O N . AT THE OUTSET O F THE 20TH C ENTURY. I N V E R S E LY." T H E H A ST E WITH WHICH A L E X A N D E R T H E G R E A T DROVE ON. WAS A C O M P ETITION RATH E R THAN AN O P PO S I T I O N AND SHE H US B A N D K I LL E D THE I S G I V E N THE O P PORTU N I TY . I N THE U N ITED STATES. HAS A GREAT FORCE OF SYMBOLIC TRANSCENDENCE SINCE IT REFERS UNTIL A V E R Y A D V A N C E D AGE. ACTI V I T I Y O F THE POLE­ IN S H A K E S P E A R E' S T H E TA M I N G ROUGHLY REFUSES OF THE HIS SHREW. BEING-ALL I NVOLVE A VERTIGINOUS FLDW OF TIME.P RODUCT O F LOVE. NO LONGE R G O I N G A BARELY D I SG U I SED H A T R E D ALIVE." IN THIS ABSURD IT. B EG I N N I N G O F H I G H L Y TECH NOLOGICAL WARFARE. ' A N D B Y THE CONTRAST I T OFFERS WITH TH E M AG N I FI C E N C E O F TH E I R F I N E R Y AND THE B R I L L I A N C E OF TH E I R A R M S O F S EDUCTION. USELESS. ONE IS STRUCK BY THE PHYSICAL A U ST E R I TY OF THE C E L E BRATED H I S EFFORTS WITH THOSE OF H I S E N E M I E S I N O R D E R T O COM P L E T E THE D E S T R U C T I O N OF HIS OWN PEOPLE B Y A N N I H I LATING T H E LAST R ESOU RCES O F TH E HOM E L A N D-WE F I N O OURSELVES NOT A T T H E OPPOSITE B U T RATH E R A T DELIRIOUS APOGEES O F T H E SEDUCTI V E ACTI VITY' ? COURTESANS." H E SAYS. HERE A S W E LL. T O SEE WOM EN OF THE H I G H EST RANK M EA S U R E THEM­ SELVES AGAI N ST P U B L I C WOM E N AND EMBARK ON VERITABLE M A R AT H O N S . THE FEMME FATALE I S R A R E LY A PR ETTY WOMA N : RATH E R S H E IS WORSE. A VALORI­ ZATION O F TH E RITES O F PASSAGE AND OF TH E I R NUMBER TO THE D E TR I M E N T O F THE BOD I E S IN THE THOSE W I DOWS WHO A S SU M E TH E I R B E R E A V E M E N T AS A P R I V I LEDGED POSITION. s A N D O F THEIR PRESENCE E S P E C I A LLY TH E I R O W N PROG E N Y . O R O F COMBAT AS THE EXISTENTIAL M EASURE OF THE WARRIOR'S EVEN. "SURELY H E CAN LACE UP YOU R CORSET. WHO W I L L K E E P O N GETTING PA I D FOR TH E I R S E R V I CES. LET THE NATION SUCC E E D I N G OR O P POS I NG L'HO M M E FATAL (THE PERISH"-I N WHICH H I T L E R D EC I D E S TO COM B I N E WARRIOR). TH E Y H A V E K I LLED TH E SPOUSE.J UST LIKE M E N . WOMA N I N H E R TURN W I L L A B A N DON THE CORSET . FOR E X A M PLE. TH E FATH E R A N D T H E C H I LD. NOU R I SH I NG FOR THO S E STI L L TH EMS ELVES. ADVANCE IS TO CONQUER. U N D ERSTAN DS AS C L A U S E W ITZ.

I N A R E C E NT I NT E R V I E W GIVEN TO TH E N EWSPAPER F R A NCE·SOI R . I N COLLECT I V E AND I ND I V I DUAL CONSC I ENCE. A N D M A C H I NATING TH E CATASTRO P H I C U N C E RTAINTIES WHICH STI R THE MOBILE. A RTE FACT IS NO LONGER SOM ETH I NG WHICH WOU L D NO LONGER B E D I SCON­ TINUOUS. R E LIGIONS. IT WOU L D TH U S SO M E HOW B E N O R M A L F O R TH E LIGHT OF MOTORS TO E XTI N G U I S H THAT OF R EASON ACTIVATION OF AS TH E I D E A L THE REIGN OF TH E ROOTLESS MAN. SCATTE R E D A N D THERE. S A PET ADDS: "I'M ON THE OTH E R S I DEI" THERE IS I ND E E D A TECH NO­ GENESIS. . A N D T H E R E LATIONS H I P I S ESTA B L I S H E D B E T W E E N A U N I SE X (TH E DEFI N ITIVE DISSI M ULATION OF PHYSIOLOG I C A L I DE NTITY) AND A TEC H N I C A L PSYC H IC N A T I V E LA N D" A N D T H E COM PLETELY N EW RUINS OF F A U ST I A N HERE C I V I L I ZA T I O N -" I TS DEBRIS VECTOR. M A K I NG S E DUCTION'S U TO P I A RITE OF R E SORTED TO E XC E PT A S A N ORNAMENT TO THE V E H ICLE IN B E A UT Y P A R A DES. . . FINA LLY. . FLY ON A LL MODELS. . . BUT TH E A S SU M PTION OF THE VAR IOUS RITES O F PASSAGE BY MASS PRODUCTION IS A A NOTH E R WAY. ON THE CONTRARY. T H E OF A U N I QU E AND ABANDONED P H E N O M E NO N PARAPHRASING I M PO R T A N T R A G E OT'S IN B L U E P R I NTS I R R E S I ST I B L E FORMU LA. TH E LATTER ITSELF B E I N G D E V E LOPED ACORD I N G TO T H E P R I N C I PL E O F L E A ST A C T I O N SO D E A R T O E N G I N E ERS. TH EY'RE PRIVI LEDGED. I'VE L I FT E D O F F WITH M UC H T O M Y WORLD OF ENTI RELY S U S P E N D E D ON T H E U LT I M ATE OPERATION W H I C H REGR ET. BEA UTY. CO M P L ET E L Y W H E N AT TH E O PE N I NG OF THE C E NTURY SPENGLER FORESAW TH E " R ETU R N OF SCI ENCE TO ITS I N ITIAL T R I LOGY THUS MODI FIED. . IDEAL ( M A R I N ETTI. . O N E C A N S A Y T H A T TH E TECHNOLOGI­ C A L R EVOLUTION H A S F I N A LLY B E E N USED ONLY TO I N STALL THE VERY FIXITY OF LIFE I N DIS PLACEMENT ITSELF. . TH E M U LTIPLIED M A N WHO MI NGLES WITH I RO N . COM P A N Y PI LOTS. L I V I N G OUT I LLUSORY DAYS AND NATURALLY VERY SYMBOLI STS WOM A N . . . I N S H O RT. AND WOU L D B E THE E N D O F A L L R ELIGION A N D P H I LOSOPHY. . LOGI C A L DON J U A N I S M . A DV E R T I Z I N G ENCES BETW E E N AND R E A LITY. 246 . THOSE A W A K E I N A COM MON WORLD") WOU L D C E A S E TO A PPLY. . D E F I N E S BOTH EVERY T R A N S PORT VEHICLE A N D. SCI ENCE A N D TECH NO­ LOGY WOULD ACTUALLY C R E ATE A NEW SOCI ETY WHOSE M E M BE R S WOULD ALL BECOME SLEEPERS. ." AND OF N UC L E A R DISSUASION. WITH U S B EG I N S S E PARATE WORLDS. . AS M Y ST E R I O U S . Irs TOO BAD. FEEDS ON ELECTRI­ C ITY . FORGOTT E N . TH E GREAT NUDE BODY OF AND FATAL" M A N AWAKENED A N D SENSOR OF R E A LITY. WE WILL TRANSFORM E DG A R ALLAN POE'S ("THOSE ASLEEP NEVERMORE I NTO A S H R I LL JOY. THE CONTACTS WITH T H E B O D Y OF THE B E LOVED OR THE T E R RITOR I A L BODY DISAPPEAR­ ING PRE DICTA BLY A S T H E DYNAMICS OF PASSAGE I NC REASE. " TH E P I LOT J EAN-MA R I E SAGET STATED: " A T THAT TI M E T O B E A TEST PI LOT WAS R E A LLY TO FLY I NTO TH E U N K NOWN . BY M ETAPHORS O R POLITICAL A N D M I LITARY PROPA­ GANDA.1 !S. AN OSC I LLATI NG T R I P FOR CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH WOU LD HAVE AS ABSO­ FLECTS T H E FASCI ST LA NGUAGE OF TH E FUTU R I ST ELITE AT THE BEGI N N I N G OF THE C E NTU RY: "TH E LUTE POLES ONLY B I RT H AND DEATH. ." CLIMB­ I N G I NTO H I S M I R A G E 4000. SINCE THEY HAVE TO MAKE T H R E S HOLD AN WOU LD E FFECTIVELY C A R R Y O U T F O R H U M A N ITY A RITE OF PASSAGE C O M PA R A B L E TO THAT IN COM PARISONS . NOW WE HAVE ANOTH E R F R U STRATION. BUT W E CAN'T FLY THE P L A N E S OF RIVAL COMPA N I ES BECAUSE NEVER OF COMMERCIAL AN C O M P ET I T I O N . ." MOB I L E W I TH I N A G R EAT N A T U R A L POWERS. . THE MOTTO O F J U L E S VERNE'S NAUTILUS. . THIS D I S A P P E A R A N C E OF WOMA N I N T H E PASSAGE LOGY A CONTI NUOUS PH ENOMENON TECH NO­ MAKE S E NSORY D E R A N G E M E NT A FATALITY OF THE TEC H N I C A L OBJECT CREATES A NEW M A SS LANGUAGE WHICH F A I T H F U L LY RE­ WOU L D P E R M A N ENT CON DITION. A F I N A L S U PPRESSION OF T H E D I F F E R ­ NATU R E A N D C U LTURE. W R I TT E N PROJECT-QR PROJECTION-QF T H E WEST TOWA R D A T E C H N O LOG I C A L AS THAT WITH BEYOND ABOUT 1 920. WAKING H ERACLITUS' AND SLEEP D I STI NCTION B E TW E E N ARE IN H EAT OF A P I E C E OF I R O N OR W OO D NOW A ROUSES U S MORE TH A N T H E S M I LE OR TEA R S OF A WOM AN. T H E R A I LWAYS A N D G R EAT PACKET BOATS AS FOSSIL­ IZED AS THE ROMAN ROA DS OR TH E G R EAT WALL OF C H I NA"-HE D I DN'T T H I N K THAT THESE R U I N S W E R E EARLIER THE L A T E N T FOR M S . M UC H AT EASE I N A SITUATION O F ''TOTAL PEACE. YOU C A N SEE THEN HOW MUCH WE DESPISE TH E TH E PROPAG A N D A C A R R I E D OUT I N DEFENSE O F A ESTH ETICS OF LA NDSCAPE . "ACCORD­ ING TO A C U R V E O F OPTI M A L D I ST R I BUTION OF T H E E X E RTION OF FO R C E S WHICH G U A R A NTEE EQUI L­ IBRIUM HENCE AND A TH E AVOI DANCE OF A CC I D E N T S . F. OF ITS ANCIENT S P EC I A L CONFRONTING E FFECTS TH E " M OB I L I S IN MOBI LE.TECH N I C A L S P E E D: THE S E D UCTION FEMININE OF THE MOTOR AND OF THE Q U E ST OF ALL TECHNOLOGICAL PROGRESS. L E A N I N G OVER THE FEMALE 1 9 1 0). ASPI R I N G T O A STATE O F V I G I L I N A WOR L D G I V E N A S C O M M O N (TH E PRECONDITION F O R T H E FORMATION OF M E A N I NG). A "LI FTING" OF M A C H I N E S WHICH TH E SUPPLA NTS THAT OF IS LOGISTIC SPOUSES.

A S WITH EVE R YTH I N G CONC E R N I NG T H E ATOM. TH E "MOT H E R . . . • CONTROL." IS SUFFERING A "POLA R JOURNALIST FROM L E M O N D E .W E A R E C U R R ENTLY REDI SCOV E R I NG T H E M YSTERY OF THE T E C H N O L OG I C A L VEHICLE. AS SOON AS HE SAW IT. WHICH WE OVER IT. A BIG WHAT DOCTOR CALLS BIKE. YOU S H O U L D K NOW ITS N A M E . CAPTAI N FOR LONG OC E A N . THE ROCKET MOVEMENT H E HAS APHASIC. SOM EON E STOP H I M ." HE H A S BECOM E PART A N D PARCEL OF THE BY I R R E S I ST I B L E R I T E OF PASSAGE: "FOLLOWED HIS FAITH F U L DOG. AN EX· REMARKED N UCLEAR A D M I N I ST R A T O R O F T H E P O L Y T E C H N I C I N ST I T U T E . THUS "C R U S H I N G A U TO M O B I L E IN THE NUCLEAR C I RC L E S. . SAILS E V E RY DAY S U R R O U N D E D BY G U LLS. SPARK L I N G B L U E WITH A LIGHTER ROOF. PLAY AN EGO'S FALSE R E PR E S ENTATI O N S LIGHT " . THAT OF A C E RTA I N PATH OF STEN COTTAGE. . ETC. IT'S A SENSITI V E M AC H I N E. F O R DS. A R E A L L Y BIG B I K E TO GO WHEREVER I WANT. BUT WHEN HE BRI NGS OUT HIS B E L A I R. I PUT THE ROCKET O N IT. SO IT COULD LOOK AT ME A S MUCH AS I LOOK AT IT. CAN NOT B E ASSESSED WITH ORDI N A RY WOR D S . SAD EYES. I'D L I K E TO K E E P O N R I D I NG. R U S H I N G TOWA R D S A BEYON D WITHOUT AN I D E NTITY FOR I T RESEMBLES NOTH ING AT ALL AND YET I S NOT NOT H I NGNESS: T H E NORTH P O L E . AND H A RDLY G E OG R A P H I C . HE I M A G I N E D ITS FI RST COLOR. I'D LI K E I T TO D R I V E ITSELF WHEN I'M TIRED. HAPPENING . AT A STUDYI NG BUT H E R E FOR E V E R . HE BRINGS TO M I N D C A PTA I N A H A TTE R A S.' HE SAYS. P R E C U RSOR H E ROS A S THE NORWEGI A N R O A L D A M U NDSEN OR TH E ITA L I A N U M B ERTO NOBILE. BUT THESE SOFT. THE TECH N I C I A N B E CO M E S T H E PRODUC ED." A J O U R N A L I ST WRITES ABOUT PARTIC ULAR. T O S E E K O U T . WANTS MOTORCYCLE. FAR MORE BLINDING AND FEARFUL THAN ITS S I O N A L ACCOM PA N I M E N T . I ' D L I K E IT TO SH I N E WITH ALL ITS LIGHTS AND C H R O M E FITTINGS." OF M E M BERS FIFTIES OF T H E CLUB" I N F I N I TELY P R OC E S S E S . H E R EPEATS I N THE A BSOLUTE OF T H E PLA NT'S CONTROL ROOM TH E S I M PL I F I E D GES­ T U R E S OF A PR I M A L MAGN ETIC R I T E W H O S E "MOB I L E WITHOUT MOB I LITY" A S YET T O B E C L A R I F I ED. SHOULD CON S U M E NOT H I NG. ' " V E R N E 'S H E RO. 1'0 PUT D I A LS ALL 247 . AS SUBLIM E HIS PASSION. DANIEL (AGE S I XT E E N . J U L E S OF SUCH REAL AFFIXED TO THE TIP OF THE HOOD. T H A N K S TO TH E SPEED A LO N E IT C A N G I V E OUR A S P I RATIONS. A N YW H E R E . J E T'AI ME. I'D WITH LIKE IT TO B E THE COLOR OF THE IN TH E DISTANCE AND M A D N ESS. 'AT NIGHT I J U ST LOOK AT IT. I SPEAK TO IT." TECH NOLOGI­ C A L FATALITY A PPEARS A S THE F I N A L S E D UCTION. FOR HIS PART." A P PR E H E N D LESS A S A CON S U M E R OBJECT TO B E DESI R E D O R REJ ECTED T H A N M O R E E S S ENTIALLY AS THE VECTOR OF D E S I R E S J UST A S OBSOLES­ CENT A S OUR DREAMS. ACC I D E NT A T ECLIPSING T H E I N F I N ITY O F D R E A M S (MARI N ETTIl. HIS WIFE RIDING IN T H E BACK WITH THE K I D. I N T H E EVENT O F A N ACCIDENT. FOR E X A M P L E .L A N D S C A P E " I N H A B I T E D BY T H E "SPI RIT OF M ETAMORPHOSIS. . H A V I N G 1'0 LIKE IT TO A R R IVED AT T H E E N D O F TH E P A T H . I ' D L I K E IT T O BE V E R Y FAST. T H E CAPTA I N W O U L D STA R T WALKING BACKWARDS. THAT'S HOW THEY D I D IT. C H EV R O L ETS.8 BUICKS. ''I'D L I K E A B I K E . • ATTEMPTED TO D E M O N STRATE W I T H H I S XENOGLOSSY THAT "A SUBJ ECT U N D E R H YPNOSI S C O U L D EXCEED THE MOST SLOW IN THE L I M I T O F HUMAN E X P E R I E N C E AND G O BACK I N TI M E WITHOUT TOO M UCH FATIG U E. WITHOUT EVER STOPPI N G . S O I COULD S E E ONLY WHAT I L I K E . T H E M E D I U M B E I N G I N THIS C A S E A M ERICAN C A R S OF THE FI FTI ES-CA D I LLACS. WHEN I T V I B RATES A N D GLOWS. THE EXPERTS K N OW THAT TH E Y C A N NOT R E A L LY M O N I TO R WITH IN A A COMPUTER R EACTOR WHAT OUT IS OF I N D U L G E T H E M SE L V E S A S I M I L A R ACTI V I TY. WHO G A Z E D AT H I M WITH H A TT E R A S WENT OUT WALKS. VICTIM H A V I NG OF T H E BECO M E " D U R I N G T H E W E E K H E D R I V E S H I S REG ULAR CAR. TO LIGHT UP EVERYTH I NG AT THE SAME TIME. YOU SEE. BUT A L S O DESE RTS. T O LOOK F O R . . AS A STRANGE PROCES­ OUTS I D E AS A OF H I STORY OF THE THE VEHICLE C O M PLETELY R EPLACES THE B E LOVED. YOU MUST SEE IT AT N I G HT. ITS CHROME FITTI N GS. A N D S I D E R E A L S PACE. THEN. HE D R EA M E D ABOUT T H E CAR FOR FI FTEEN YEARS. ' " THE DOCTOR VERY SOON . THEY A R E LIKE BLI N D MEN TU R N I N G IN A CI RCLE A S T H E Y T R Y T O M A K E A DECISION . T O DISCOVER. H E WOU LD PO I N T TO A FIXED SPOT I N THE SKY. 'BEFORE LEAVING THE GARAGE I PAT ITS FENDER. HE DRESSES TEDDY BOY STYLE. POW E R F U L CO M PA R E D CO M P UT E R TO REAL IS . COLONEL DE ROCHAS. I N VARIA BLY L E D H I M I N THE S A M E D I R ECTI ON. H A RRISBU RG: ''T H E R E A LITY O F TH E R EACTOR. T H E PHYSIC I A N DOM I N I Q U E A BOUT TH E PIGNON. AROUND 1 9 00. THIS AKIN TO ON E I R I C SPEED DELI RIOUS JOY OF ANTH ROPOMORPHIC B L U E P R I NTS. VICTI M FROM OF ALL AND A PARTNERS C A PTA I N HAVE D I SA PP E A R E D "TH I S S A D MECHANICS SCHOOL) AND ELECTRICITY A TECHNICAL HE TELLS A HATTE R A S. J U ST A LITTLE ATMOSPHE R E FROM TI M E T O T I M E .' HE ADDS. . BECAUSE I FELT IT N EEDED IT. " 9 "ALBERT LIVES TO THE F U L LEST ONE AS IN IN 1 950.

DES RISQUES D'ACCIDENT SPI ES: THE SLEEPERS. 1 977). THE M OT I V E OF T H I S S I NGULAR TOWA RD THE NORTH. F I N A LL Y K I LLS H ER: "MY B E LOVED. . ." M I SSION WITH W H I C H H E HAS B E E N SUDDENLY E N T R U STED. HE A N THROPOC ENTRIC SOCI ETY AS IGNOBLE A S IT W A S FOR THE M IDDLE AGES . I S A G EOG RA P H I C A L N A M E PASSAG E R. • . B ( M A Y. N UC L E A I R E S ( PA R I S : 80URGOIS. ADAMA. GET C E N T R A L ES 1 976). AND THOSE OF WOM E N AND LOST H E NCE­ FORTH M I N E A N D IN H E A V E N FOREVER. WO R K ." l O AND A G U ESSED WHY THE STROLL C O N S T A N T D I R EC T I O N . M A R R I ED. HE T H E N Q U I C K LY PUTS TO WOR K THE M A TE R I A L P ROOFS OF HIS I LL U SO R Y E X I S­ C H R I ST I A N I T Y WANTED TO SEE TENCE. . 1 9 77). . 248 ." TRAVERSES. CORI N N E THE POLiTI Q U E ( P A R I S : G A L I LE E. LES AVENTURES DU CAPITA I N E TIO N A L ESPIONAGE. COMES FROM TH E EARTH. ITS I N ITIAL M EA N I NG MAY H A V E B E E N "STEPPE" (COM EN­ TARY OF T H E J E RUSALEM BIBLE). W H I C H W I L L G I V E H I M THE C R E D I B I LITY N ECESSARY TO ACCOM PLISH TH E SINGULAR "WOMAN S A W THAT TH E TREE [OF KNOWLEDGE] WAS GOOD TO EAT A N D PLEASING TO LOOK AT. TH E REPETITION OF B A N A L ATTITUDES I S U S E D NOTABLY BY THE S E C R E T S E R V I C E S W H O H A V E CR EATED A VERY PARTICUAR CATEGORY O F 9 DOMI N I Q U E DANS LES PIGNON. PAU L V I R I L I O. WHICH ELUDES A L L LOCALIZATION. A N D M A Y LIVE H I S WHOLE HATTERAS ( P A R I S : HACHETTE). AS IF PAUL VI RILIO A LW A Y S TOOK UNDER THE I N FL U E N C E O F A MAGNETIC H ATT E R A S FORCE.. W H I C H IS A PURE MOTOR FUNCTION AND CAN B E P E R FO R M E D EQUALLY WELL B Y T H E IGNORANT OR A N I M A LS . M A N U A L LABOR BEING FOR IN E DG A R ALLAN POE'S "MORELLA" THE H US B A N D CON FESSES A PROPOS THE AGONY O F HIS WIFE: "I WAS Y E A R N I N G WITH A N I NTENSE AND DEVOU R I N G D E S I R E FOR THE MOM E N T OF M O R E L LA ' S D E A T H . IN L I BERATION ( F E B . P. . "GA R D E N " I S TRANSLATED "PARADISE" IN THE GREEK EDEN V E RS I O N AND THEN TRADI­ " C F.U N D E R STOO D OBSTI NACY. " P A U L V I R I LIO. PLACE D E L A CONCORDE. NO. ADA M . . W I THOUT A L E RT I N G T H E S U S P I ­ 2 TH E MAN. 1 979). . II VITESSE ET POLITI Q U E . . THE WOR K E R S BOD I ES. 9 8: "TH E P E R FO R M A NC E OF THE I NVADER RESEMBLES THAT O F HIS COUNTE R P A RT I N SPORTS.. " 3 . ." C H I LDREN [CONSTITUTED] THE I D E A L OBJECT O F TRA I N I NG. "M ETEM PSYCHOSE DU T I O N A LLY. . TH E R E IS A LW A Y S TH E DI FFERENCE 7 B ETWEEN T H E 'LI B E R A L' A N D THE ·AUTOMATIC·. VITESSE ET e C F. C I O N S O F H I S N E I G H BORS. " WEARY O F W A I T I NG. T H E SLEEPER HAS TO MOVE TO A FO R E I G N PLACE. O P. H I M S E LF. C I T. TRANSLATED BY J O H N JOH NSTON C A PTA I N JOHN I N V A R I A BLY W A L K E D NOTES LIFE WITHOUT B E I NG OF USE. . HE I S T H E R E A S A U S E LESS PAWN IN THE GAME OF INTERNA­ '0 J U LES V E R N E. U N LESS SOM E DAY HE R E C E I VES TH E ORDER TO REACTI VATE THE SERPENT SERVES AS MASK FOR A HOSTILE B E I NG WHICH A N C I E NT W I S DO M AND THEN A S SATA N . B R I S E DO U ' S I NTE R ES T I N G ARTICLE O N COLLECTORS O F C A R S O F THE 50'S A N D TH E I R 4 THIS KINO OF A NESTHE S I A OF FAMILIARS B Y M E ETINGS ON T H E F I RST T H U RSDAY N IGHT O F E A C H MONTH. H A V E C H I LDREN. .

I F THE PLATO N I C CONSIDERATION OF "EROS" I S A FULLER. I T BECOMES CLEAR TO WHAT DEGREE DIALECTI C A L OPPOSITION. THE STAGE OF E M P I R I C A L H Y POTH E S I S AND V E R I F I CATION WAS ONLY S U PPOSED. A LTHOUGH A M O R E F E RTI LE NOTION OF THE I M PORTA NCE AND PREVALENCE OF E ROTIC DRIVE AND PRESENCE IN ALL H U M A N E X P E R I E N C E . H E N C E .B E I NG O U R SEXUAL-BODI ES. WAS CARRIED O N WITHOUT A N Y REFERENCE TO THE "FLESH" OF BODIES. IT R E M A I N S N O N E T H E L E S S I N FECTED B Y T H E S A M E PROBLEM O F BEING AT IF O N E T H E N C A N B E G I N TO S P E A K OF T H E U PON T H E I R B EC O M I N G MOVEMENT A N D PLAY O F BODIES. ODDS WITH THE HIGHER STATUS OF T H E "EIDOS" TO WHICH IT IS DRAWN. LOVE OR PASSION A S MOVEM E NT WAS CON F I N E D TO THE TOPOS CONTROLLED B Y A S U B JECT. 249 . PHI LOSOPH I C O R OTHER. D I SC O U R S E TOWA R D A BEGI N N I NG WITH THIS R E A LISATION O N E MAY MOVE LACKING D I S CO U R S E O F T H E B O D Y W I T H U S. AND RICHNESS O F "BODY" A N D "BODI LY" EXPERIENCE. MOST OBVIOUSLY. THE D I SCOU R S E A B O U T T H I S I M P U LS E . WITHOUT FORCI N G T H E STA M P OF B E I N G (WHICH N I E TZSC H E R I GHTLY I N DI C AT E D A S T H E T R A P OF A L L TH I N K I N G A N D SPEAKINGI. GEN ERA LLY O N TH E G ROUNDS O F A N ARCHE: O F REASON. M O V E M E N T . E P I STEMOLOG I C A L L Y D E R I VED. THE ADDED DIFFICULTY IS THAT OF B E I N G W I TH I N OR O U TS I D E A P A R TI C U LA R T Y P E O F D I SC O U R S E . I N TRODUCING PASSION OR THR U ST A S FORCED U PON THE GRID OF A TELOS. LOVE­ STRIFE. T H E P R E ­ SOCRATIC PHI LOSOPHE R S P E R H A PS F I RST SPOKE OF LOVE IN TH E CONTEXT O F STRI FE. U PO N T H E P L A Y . IF W E ARE CONFRONTED B Y THE D I F F I C U LTY O F TA K I N G UP A DI S C O U R S E ON SEXUALITY FROM " W I T H I N" T H E R EG I O N O F TRADITI O N A L P H I LOSOPHY I T I S B EC A U S E O F T H E R I G I D B U T S T I C K Y G R I D I T H A S E N FO R C E D . THE I M PU L S E OF A S E X U A L NATURE OR FORCE IS S E E N SUBOR D I N ATED TO AN A RCHE:.DISCOU RSE A N D SEXUA LITY: TOWARD THE TEXT U R E OF E ROS A LTHOUGH IT IS NOT APPARENT THAT TRA DITIONA L PHI LOSOPHY H A S H A D M UC H OF VA L U E T O SAY ABOUT THE FROM THIS BODY AND REGA R D I N G S E X U A LITY. WHICH W I L L I N F I LTRATE ITS PA R T I C U L A R E P I STEMOLOG I C A L G R I D U PO N OUR SEEI NG. T H E P L A TO N I C D O C T R I N E M U ST ULTI MATELY FACE ITS OWNMOST I M POVER I S H M E N T I N THE RIGI DITY A N D STER I LITY OF CARTES I A N M I ND­ BODY DUALI SM. RATHER. SOON TO BECOME A LL-REASONABLE. IN SUCH A FASHION. R IC H E R D I SC O U R S E U PO N T H E POLY­ MORPHOUS C H A RACTER OF E ROTIC DRIVE AND ITS UPHOLDING O R I N FO R M I N G THE G R I D OF THE WORLD K N O W N TO M A N .

DERRIDA PHALLUS WITH THE DESIRE FOR CLOTURE MOVEM E N T HIS OF OF M I N D. B E T W E E N DION YSOS A N D C H RIST. SARTRE H A S P E R H A PS ONLY BEEN MORE BLU NT. LESS A LLUSIVE THAN DERRI DA. A L W A Y S A S R E A S O N A B L E . DE S'EXPRI MER PAR DES SYMBOLES ET DE VIVRE AU M I LIEU DES SYMBOLES. H A S GENET B E E N GIVEN A N ADEQUATE A N D E M PATH ETIC TREATMENT? IT WOULD B E A S E V E R E M I STAKE TO CONFUSE T H E RESPECTIVE T REATM E N T OF G E N ET BY D E R R I DA AND SARTRE I N A S M U C H A S BOTH D I F F E R I N SUBSTA N TI A L A N D PARTICULAR DETA I LS. BECOME FLACCID. ' DERRIDA SHOWS FORCEFU LLY THE EXTENT TO WHICH TH E A D M I RABLE E XC R E M ENT OF H EGEL IS STI L L AMONG US IN THE FOR M OF HIS CONSI DERATIONS A S TO THE G E N E RATION AND F I L I ATION OF THOUGHT. M UC H LESS TO WHICH WE COULD S P E A K AND SEE. SAME TI M E A TH R U ST TOWA RD A N D EXPRESSION. TH E FOR C E OF SA RTRE'S CRITIQUE AND A P P ROACH TO G E N ET AND HIS S E X U A L-LITE RARY EXPE R I E N C E 250 . D E R R I DA'S D I SCOURSE ABOUT H EGEL AND GENET M A Y B E TAKEN A S A SUGGESTION OR WARNING A BOUT THE INTRINSICALLY STU LTI FYING TENDENCY O F THOUGHT TO OVE RCOM E THE BODY. I S A T THE I R O N I C A LLY PA R A L L E L S A N D A LLEGED NON­ THE C O L L A P S E OF T H E H EGELI A N CONC E PTU A L I M POTE N C E I M PO T E N C E OF G E N ET'S EXPRESSIVE WORK.W H I C H ENTA ILS A TRUNCATED MOVEM ENT. PUI SQU'ELLE VEUT CE QU'ON NE PEUT VOULOI R. DE SE FA I RE SYMBOLE. IN FORC I N G THE FLESHY-SENSUAL PROSE AND POETRY O F GENET I N TO T H E CONCEPTUAL MOLD OF TH E PACKAGED "SYM BOL. SEXUALITY-PROC R EATION AND ITS I N STITUTION IN AND U P HOLDING. C U LT I V A T E D M A N .R U N RESULTS O F BOTH WRITERS' SUBJ ECT­ ING CAL THE M A N . I N A N Y CASE. H ETEROS E X U A L SPACE O F HEGELIAN " I N T E L L I G I B I L I TY " OR APPROBATIONS ONT L I E U SYM BOLI Q U E M E NT. FOR T H E "STUFF" OF THE R E L A T I O N S H I P O F T H E M A N . U LT I M A T E L Y . C E PETIT HOMME E NER­ G I Q U E ET ACTIF S'EST VOU E A A LA FOLLE ENTREPRISE DE DEVENIR CE QU'IL EST DE J A ET DE DE TRUI RE CE QU'IL NE PEUT EMPECHER D' ETRE. WILL NOT S U F F I C E . TO US IN ALL ITS M OV E M E NT. T H E D I A LECTIC OF C H I LO-BI RTH A N D FATH E R -DEATH. NO V U L N E R A B I LITY. M O V E M E N T IS S A C R I F I C E D TO T H E OVER-DOM I N A N T PRESENCE O F A W H A T IS P E R H A P S U LT I M A T E L Y ST R I K I N G A N D STRANGE ABOUT D E R R I DA'S TREATM ENT OF HEGEL­ GEN ET. THE ELABORATION OF THOUGHT-BODY M UST REMAIN WITHOUT PRESENT SEXUAL-EXPERI ENCE-BECOM E-LiTE RARY. FEEL IT RESPOND. A SON INSU. THE SCATTE RED R E M A I N S OF W H I C H POI NT T O THE POLA R O P POSITIONS OF A N I M POTENT. C'EST QU'ELLE RE VE QU'ELLE LE VEUT. BEING PASSED DOWN OR FALLING TO US A S SOLI DIFIED. H EG E L I A N SCH E M A S. T H E H O P E D-FOR OSC I L L A T I O N SOLI D I F I ES A N D T H E D U A L E RECTIONS. T H E I R COLLAPSE HAS L E FT ONLY THE R E S I D U E OF DI SCOURSE. C REATIVE MOVEM ENT. 2 A N E N R I C H E D B U T NON­ G E N E RATIVE. YET.W O R K . I MAGED FORM AND MOVEM E N T O F T H E D I V I N E .I N FORMED BY THE STATE. GENET A D E CID E . Y ET . PLAY. COLLAPSE I NTO TH E GENE RATION OF A N E M PTY DISCOURSE.P H A L L U S O F H E G E L. HENCE. TH E LATTER S E E M S T O T A K E MOVE MENT O R T H R U ST. T H A T O F REASON. AND FORCE. HOMOSEXUAL. O N E SHOULD O N LY HOPE TO GLI M PSE T H E I R COUNTER-FACING B E Y O N D O R A BO V E T H E S U R F A C E O F T H E I R E M E RG E N C E FOR DERRIDA AS T H R U STS O F I M M A N E N C E O R DEBRIS OR TRANSCENDENCE. IT C A N NOT OFFER TO US ANY LONGER ITS FACE U PON WHICH W E COULD GAZE.W O R K -G E N ET A N D SEEM H I S S E X U A L­ LITE R A R Y EXPRESSION TO A TYPE OF P H I LOSOPH I­ SCR UTI N Y N O N E TOO D I S T A N T I N S UBSTA NCE. D E R R I DA'S DISCOU RSE E M ERGES IN ITS RELIANCE U PO N G E N E T AS C O U N T E R-TH R U ST TO T H E T H O U G H T. IN SPITE OF T H E CONTRAST OF "SEX U A L" TH E M E S WITH CON C E PTUAL.G E N ET. SUBJ ECTED TO THE OVE R TH E FUNCTION A N D DESTI NY OF THE FORM E R W H E N T H E M A R G I N S O F PHILOSOPHI C A L ENDEA­ VO U R A R E P U S H E D TO OV E R F LO W . I N STALLS ITSELF U N I V E R S A L LY A T TH E EXPENSE OF T H E SC U LPTED. T H E FIGURE O F M A ti. DU JOUR 00 IL A CHOISI DE VOULOI R SON DESTIN. BEING. H E ONLY WEAKLY SUGGESTS THAT ONE MA Y N E E D TO R EC O N S I D E R THE RESEMBLANCE NOUS POU VON S A P R E S E N T COM P R E N D R E L'AVENTURE D E GENET. I N ORDER THAT PLAY R E M A I N A T T H E H EART OF THOUGHT­ BODY. THE HEGELI A N BODY HAS N O F L E S H . D E R R I D A H A S H I N T E D W E L L AT TH E I M POTE N C E OF PH I LOSO P H Y AS SO U N D I NG ITS DEATH-KNELL WITH THE C U L M I NATING PHI LOSOPHY OF H EG E L . VO U E E S PA R N A T U R E A DE M E U R E R S E S D E STR U C T I O N S E T S E S INEFFICACES. "I NCOM M U N ICABILITY" OF LITERARY SPACE WITH G E N ET LURKING IN THE W INGS. T H E I N A DEQUACY O F T H I S J U M P I S NOWH E R E MORE C L E A R LY EVI DENCED T H A N I N THE PERSON AND WOR K O F G E N ET H I M S E LF . I S T H A T D E R R I DA I M PLICITYLY ACC E PTS A DISJUNC­ TU R E OR D I SCONTI N UITY BETWE E N P H I LOSOP H Y A N D LITERATURE. A U S S I TOT SA VOLONT E SE VOLATI LISE DANS L'I MAGINAIRE." S A RTRE C LA I M S . THE LONG . DIVINE A N D H U M A N . HOWEVER. A D M I R A BLE EXC R E M E NT. YET.

FOR SARTRE. CAPABLE OF A N Y C A S E MAN THE AT L E A ST THE WORLD. I N HIS C H A R A CTERIZATION OF GENET AS U N A BLE. THAT NORMALCY HAS A S ITS REFERENCE THE SPEECH AND CATEGORIES O F N EG A T I N G AND A PP R O P R I A T I V E CONSCIOUS­ E N C LOS U R E A LWAYS BEYON D . G E N E T ' S BRI LLANTES ET V I L I B L E S . C'EST-A' O I R E LE LANGUAGE. T H E PLACE FOR SARTRE WHICH I S ONE OF MAGICAL T R A N S FO R MATION OF A TT E M PTS IN TO FILL ITSELF. D I S -C U R S I VE. IS ITS E L F S O L I D . VAGINA AS M AN'S THE PARTICULAR A N D TO A N Y D I SCOURSE I N G E N E R AL. EM PTY. F O L L OW I N G SUGGESTIONS O F EXISTENTIAL PSYC HOA N A LYSIS STA U N C H D E F E N D E R O F A PHYSICAL-RELIGIOUS VIEW TRADITIONAL ON BROA D OUTLI N E .W O R K-G E N E T I N FI LLING U P H O L E S I N B E I NG. C ' E S T LE SEXUAL-LITE RARY FASHION TH E PLAC E OF SYM BOL AND THE PECULIA R MOVEM E N T THAT PLACE VERTIGE. SEES FOR TH I S WHAT SARTRE OF G E N ET'S ULTI M ATELY SYMBOLIC AS THE PLACE INVOLVEM ENT: REMAINS I M PR I SO N E D B Y TH E CHUTE. N E I T H E R FOR G E N ET IN "SURPAS­ SI NG" HIS SITUATION. ONE M U ST NOT B E A R DOWN TOO DEE PLY I NTO TH E PLACE OF SEXUA L-SYMBOL FOR FEA R OF TH E BOTTO M L E S S IS PLU N G E IT MIGHT TOWA R D E XPRESSION. VIDE. T H E PLACE O F SYM BOL. SEXUAL A N D LITE RARY. LA NEGATION QUI MARQ U E NT L'EMOTION POETIQUE. CAN ONE E X PECT W I TH R E F U R B I S H E D H EG E L I A N C AT E GO­ OF THE S Y M BOL THE OR TH E OF THE PATHOS SYM BOL'S PASSION. C A N N OT A C H I E V E T H E E X P E R I E NCE I N I TS PARA LLELING M O V E M E N T OF THAT " L A C K . SARTRE HAS C E RTA I N LY BETRAYED THE POVERTY OF AT LEAST PART OF HIS PROJECT IN ONE SHORT C H A R ACTE RIZATION OF GEN ET: A N D ITS D I SCOU R S E ON SARTRE TO C A P­ SEXUALITY.PRODUCTI VE. P A R T I C I PATION L U ST.U P-TOWA RD. THE NOR M A LC Y OF PROSE FOR SA RTRE. G E N ETS NON-EXPRESSIVE PLACE OF DISCOURSE. RI ES. FOR A LL HIS E XTE N S I V E USE OF G E N E RA LIZED SARTRE M A R X I ST. IT MUST B E S A I D THAT I N TH E E N D SARTRE HAS ON LY MADE GENET MORE M A N AGEABLE FOR US. AND WITH PLA C E OF THE DEPTH TH E I R I NTERFACE7 SARTREAN LUCI DITY WOULD CON V I N C E DES SON A DOLESC ENCE. I F THE LUC I D PROSE OF KNOWING I S TO B E E N FORCED VERSUS TH E M U RKY. LE MANQUE. SC I O U S N E S S ACH I EVES I F. TIVATE. IN A LA RGER CONTEXT. A N D PROJ ECTS CAREFUL LAYI N G-OUT OF THE TH E CATEGO R I E S AND IN MOVEM ENTS O F H U M A N CON­ SITUATIONS W H I C H S A RT R E N ESS WHICH SARTRE LA I D OUT MOST EXTENSIVELY IN BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS. FALL I NTO NOT H I NGN ESS PROFF E R E D BY TH E POETRY OF EMOTION OR POETIC EMOTI O N . 4 ENTA I LS. WITH A DISCOURSE WHICH REMAINS THE LUC I D ITY O F A P P RO AC H I NG RADICAL RELATION TO CONSC I O U S N E S S AS ONE OF NEGATION. IN A TUMBLE TO THE BACK FA LLI NG­ RESTRICTED SENSE. T H E TOUCH I NG-SEIZI NG OF A B R E A ST AS AN ATTE M PT TO GET HOLO OF BEING. I T WOULO S H O W U S T H E A PPROP R I AT I V E .e THE FORCE OF E PI S T E M OLOGY H A S THE OPTI Q U E SARTR E A N A LT H O U G H THERE IS A C E R TA I N D E PTH AND OFTE N L I M ITED WITH IF NOT THE CRUSHED WHICH RICHNESS T O SARTR E'S TALK OF G E N ET A N D HIS WOR K . PERTA I N S TO LANGUAGE. I M POTENT. IL N'A P LUS AUCUN US THAT T H E P L A C E OF PASSION I N G E N E R A L A N D SEXUAL I N TE R C O U R S E IN ITS H ET E R OS E X U A L RAPPORT "NORMAL". THE T H R UST OF A PENIS IN AS PROJECT-U PON-TH E-WORLD.IS TO REDUCE TH E M TO THE LOC U S OF THE C O N SC I O U S N E S S FASH ION IS A LACK WHICH UP IN FUTILE MAKE I M A G I N A R Y OR E MOTI ONAL. NOR FOR U S I N B E I NG SPOKEN TO FROM THIS. LE NEANT. HOWEVER. ALTHOUGH THE S P I R I T OF TH E SARTREAN E N TER­ PRISE H A S CERTA I NLY BEEN TO CON S I D E R " E V E R Y HUMAN FACT' AS SIGNI FICATIVE. G RA S P I N G C H A R ACTER O F TH E CA RESS. I N E F F ECTUAL TO CARRY H I MSELF TOW A R D A PLACE W H I C H WOULD BE CON-STRUCTI VE. 3 DE PROSE AVEC PARTI C U L A R ITY CASE OF THE I S N O MORE THAN THE S P E C I A L ONTOLOGICAL.F I L L I N G . I N TO TH E NOTH I N G THAT H E R E T U R N S TOWARD.P L E N I T U D E" I N PR O S E . FOR TH E MOST P A R T.F R E U D I A N H I G H LY NOTI ONS. NON-C REATIVE. SARTRE U LT I M A T E L Y REMAINS THE M ETA­ OSC I L L A T O R Y . O N E WI LL NOT BE S U R P R I S E D BY THE RAPIDLY A N O EASI LY CONQUERE D NOTI O N S OF BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS I N TO TH E COURSE U PON SEXUA LITY A S WELL A S THE ABI LITY TO I N H A BIT THE PLACE OF SYM BOL W H I L E HANGING ON TO ANY VESTIGES OF CONCEPTUAL THOUGHT. I N B E I N G A N O NOTH INGNESS A R E S E E N 215 1 .H U M A N TH R U ST O F TH E VACUITY O F SA RTRE'S TREATM E N T OF SYMBOL­ PROSE I S STR I K I N G A N D I N STR UCTI V E AS TO THE I N A DEQUACY OF THIS APPROACH WITH RES PECT TO THE COMPLEXITY O F THE M A N . IS. I M PLICIT I S THE C H A RG E THAT GEN ET. I S S E E N BY SARTRE A S NON. ENTA I L. N U I T DU NON-SAVOI R: I L N E 'S'AGIT PAS D' U N E O'IMAGES POES I E APOLLI NIENNE Q U I JOU I R A I T STRONGLY H ETEROSEX U A L-CONCEPT UA L STA NCE I N H A BITING IN TOW A R D C R E A T I V I T Y . DEFUSED THE QU ESTI O N FORCE OF G E N ETS THROWING POSS I B I L I ITY OF ANY DIS­ PH ENOM E N A ARE VI EWED.

A N D I NCOM M U N I C A B I LITY UPON THE SPACE D E PTH A N D R I C H E S OF TH E PLACE OF T H E V E RTIGE 2152 . THROUGH F R E U D . M UT U A L L Y R E ST R I C T D I SC O U R S E . IT IS A P P A R E NT OUTLI N E R E S P O N S E T O A N D T H E N G O BEYOND O N E P R I M A RY QUESTION: THAT HE IS A W A R E OF I M PO S I N G A C E RTA IN G R I D OF S U B J ECT-OBJ ECT U PON G E N ET IN PARTI C U L A R A N D U PO N THE S E N S U A L-SYMBOLIC I N G E N E R A L.B O D Y . ONLY TO BE DOMESTI­ CATED BY AND AND I NTO A SCIENCE OF S E X U A LITY. IT H A S BEEN R ESTRICTIONS TA M E p I RO N I C A LLY BY A GROWING I NC I T E M E N T TO COM E OUT I NTO T H E OPEN. R EG I O N A L ONTOLOGY PERTA I N I NG TO SEXUA LITY. SUGGESTS EVEN I NTO TH E THAT ONE M IGHT N E E D TO P L U N G E I M AGI N A R Y I N P R OC H E . H I STOR I C A L-TH E O R E T I C A L." T H E ESSENTI A L QU ESTI O N S : I S T H E R E PRESSION O F S E X U A LITY A N D D I SCO U R S E A BOUT I T R E A LLY I N SARTRE. F I N A LLY BEYOND THEM. T H E STRE NGTH AND D E PTH OF F O U C A U LT ' S C O N FI N E M E N T. DUALISMS. MAIS POURQUOI D I SONS-NOUS. A T T H E END OF G E N ETS HIS LONG W O R K HE AND INTRODUCTION TO LA QU ESTION Q U E JE VOU D R A I S POSER N'EST PAS: PO U R Q U O I SO M M E S . H E HAS A T LEAST THE SENSE TO SEE.S I T U A ­ TION. DECREE OF T E N C E . L U C I DITY OF A P P R O P R I A T I V E C O N SC I O U S N E S S W H I C H FASHIONS T H E B A S I S A N D T H E PROSE O F ITS OWN MOST D I SCOU R S E TO THE OF I N VOL V E M E N T WITH TH E STRICT EXCLUSION N IGHT OF NON­ FOUC A U LTS TALK O F T H E POSSI B I LITY O F S E X U A L D I SCOU R S E I N T H I S CONTEXT I S THEN B A S E D U PO N TH E R E C I PROCAL I N T E R C H A N G E A N D ECONOMY OF REPRESSION AND TIVELY SUCH AND P R E D I C A TION WHICH AND R E S PE C ­ U PH O L D IS TO K NOWLEDGE.E P I ST E M OLOG I C A L "H U M A N . I S LUCIO ENOUGH TO SEE HIS OWN D I SCOU R S E AS ENSNARED TO EVIDENCE H I STOR I C A LLY? I S T H E MECHANISM O F POW E R I N SOC I ETI ES SUCH A S O U R S ESSENTIALLY OF THE R E P R E S S I V E O R D E R ? DOES THE C RI T I C A L OF AND A BO U T SEXUA LITY RUN D I S CO U R S E SOM E DEG R E E I N TH E G R I DS O F THE TRADITIONAL M I N D . REICH A N D OTH E RS. TANT DE PLUS RANCOE U R CONTRE NOTRE PASSE LE CONTRE NOTR E QUE PRESENT ET WORKS. AVEC TANT D E PASSION. O R D E R T O STOP F L E E I N G T H E "OBJ ECTI VE" B Y THE " S U BJ ECTI VE" "OBJECTI VE": AND CONTRE NOUS-MEM ES. H I ST O R I ­ C A L-POLITICAL. TH AT ONE M UST PUSH IN THE TWO D I R ECTI ONS AT ONCE. T H E P U TT I N G I N THE O P E N OF D I SC O U R S E A S TO S E X U A LITY H A S NOT BEEN S U BJECTED TO MERE R E ST R I C T I O N IN A F I L L O U T TH I S PURSUING THE COU R SE ON S E X U A LITY. FOR THE MOMENT. A FOUC A U LTS ATT E M PT I N SPITE OF T H E L I M ITATI O N S O F SARTRE'S VIEW TO AND DI SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. THE RECENT MODERN A G E I S E X POSED TO T H E SCI E N C E OF S E X U A LITY. FOUC A U LT SHOWS THE EXTENT TO W H I C H . THIS F U N C TI O N I N G IS IN THE DAY-LIGHT. A S WELL A S I NVOLV E D IN A R E VO L UTION OF PLEASURE. YET. T H O U G H T. S U B J ECT­ OBJECT. RATH E R . AND D I SCOU R S E O N S E X U A LITY A N D T H E R E P R ESSION OF S E X U A LITY IN TH E V E R Y LOC U S W H E R E SUCH TALK A PP E A R S TO BE IN THE OPEN. THE SPEAKS I M PO S E D OF ITS P U R I TA N I S M ' S PROHI BITION. IT I S N ECESSARY T O S E E THE H I STOR I C A L A S U PO N W E L L A S " P H I LOSO P H I C A L" ANY S U C H DISCOURSE AND SOLELY N EGATIVE SENSE. MOD E R N MICHEL FOUC A U LT HAVING I N EXIS­ D I SC O U R S E ON S E X U A LITY H A V E N O T SO M UC H B E E N RESTRICTED BY A RIGOUROUS P R I N C I P L E O F S E LECTION A N D TABDO BUT F I N A LLY D I F F U S E D A N D D E F U S E D BY BROAD D I S S E M I N ATION AND E M PLAC E M E N T BY THE WILL TO KNOW. YET. A N A LYSIS IS TO I N D I C ATE STI F L I N G THE OF R E ST R I C T I O N . I N D I F F I C U LTI E S OF DOING A DIS­ I N B RO A D OUTLI N E . Y E T . N O U S-SOM M E S TH E " S U BJECTI VE" BY T H E R E P R I M ES?7 FO U C A U LT C LA I M S AT L E AST TH R E E FAC ETS FOR CE JEU QU'AU DE CACHE-CACHE NE PRENDRA FIN HIS STRATEGY OF R E PLYI NG TO THIS Q U ESTIO N­ JOUR 00 NOUS A U RONS LE COU RAGE H I STO R I C A L.N O U S REPRIMES. WE HAVE H I NTED AT TH E NEED TO CON S I D E R SEXUALITY I N ITS "SYMBOLIC" D E PTH RATH E R T H A N AS A M E R E M E A N S TO T H E F U LFI LLMENT OF T H E O N TOLOG I C A L. THE CONFI N I N G CONTEXT OUT OF W H I C H IT M IGHT A R I SE. AT I SS U E FOR EACH LEVEL A R E D'ALLER JUSQU'AU BOUT DE NOUS-M � M E DANS LES DEUX DI RECTIONS A LA FOIS.E X P R E S S I V I T Y . S E X U A LITY I N I NTRODUC I NG TH E FI RST PAGES OF A CONTI NU­ I NG WORK ON A S E X U A LI T Y .WELL AS F U N C TI O N I NG IN TH E P A R TI C U L A R OF SEXUAL D I SC O U R S E . IN S P E A K I N G OF T H I S P E R PETUAL GAME OF H I D E AND S E E K W H I C H P H I LOSOPHICAL D I SCOU RSE I S COWA RDLY WONT TO P U R S U E . E V E N S I N C E THE E N D OF T H E S I XT E E NTH C E NTU RY. ALBEIT UNABLE TO CARRY OUT THAT A G A I N ST THE G R A I N O F G E N E R A L R E P R ESSION OR I N STALL I T S E LF AND FIND ITSELF SITUATED FROM W I TH I N THAT FIELD AND SOU RCE OF R E P R ESSION? S E E I NG CON S I STENTLY." IT WILL B E N E C E S S A R Y TO RETURN TO A N D DEPTH.

I N ST I T U T I O N S I M PLIES C LASSI FICATION A N D CON F I N E M ENT WHICH I S NONETH ELESS BROAD ENOUGH TO MAKE ROOM FOR " D I S P A R ATE" B E H A V I O U R . HAVE T R A N S FO R M E D D I SCOURSE I N THE O P E N OF A M O D E R N A LCH E M Y WHICH PROBES RATHER TH A N PA RTICI PATES WITH TH E H I DDEN SECRET: THE QU ESTION OF CONTROL IS MORE R I C H LY OUTL I N E D AS FOUCA U LT CONTRASTS "ARS EROTICA" WITH "SCI ENTIA SEXUA LIS. PLEASURE AND THE DEPTH IT ENTA I LS . OF U PO N FROM "T R U T H " SEXUALITY PLEA S U R E ITSELF. EVEN A LLOW I N G ROOM FOR A COM PLEXITY OF "PERVERSIONS" OF SEXUAL BEHAVIOURS AND ACTS.I N T E R I O R D U A L I S M .OF NON-KNOW I N G BEEN OF SEX U A L-SYMBOLIC-POTE NCY BY THE K N OW I NG EFFICIENT M A N AG E M E NT. ABSOLUTE LAWS OF OF TH I S THE I T S B E I N G TA M E D TH E N A TU R E. A FORG ETTI N G OF T I M E A N D LIM ITS. OF PLEASU R E AND TH E SEXUAL PLACE IS O UTDIS­ TA NCED BY THE SI LENT RESPONSE OF DOM I N ATION OF H E WHO LI STE N S TO THE S E X U A L CON FESSION OR WHO CATEGORIZES AND CLASS I F I E S IT. THEM THAT SEES READILY THE THE PO V E R T Y O F W E S T E R N SCI E NTIA S E X U A L I S TUAL GRID WHICH U PHOLDS S E X U A L D I SCOURSE IS BROA D E R THAN THE S TA I D . YET. RATH ER. I F L I N E A R I TY I S G I V E N U P FOR S P I R A LS OR CONC ENTRIC WEBS WHICH A LLOW "PERVE RSIONS" AT THE M A R G I N S OR EXTR E M ITIES. CE QUI EST PROPRE AUX SOClirr ES MODERNES. TA K E N A S A P R A X I S I N T H E M OST INTI MATE. FOUCA U LT I S N O T O N L Y CONC E R N E D T O SHOW THE E P I S T E M O LOG I C A L M ATTE R S AND M I S-M A N A G E M ENT BUT.PO L I T I C A L CONTROL PLEASURES. S E X U A LI T Y M U ST BE A F F I R M ED. ARS E ROTICA KNOWS NO REFERENCE TO C R I TERI A OF U T I L I TY. FILI ATION-G E N E RATION OF THE HEGELI A N SC HEMA. KNOW T H E SEXUA L E X P E R I E NCE DOM I N ATES A N D CRUSHES THE PLACE A N D DISCOURSE O F SEXUALI­ TY A N D ITS RICH POTE NTI A L OF I N D I V I DUATION A N D EXPRESS I O N TOWA RD ON O N E'S OWN MOST AND TE R M S AND AGE I S PLAG U E D BY I TS CON F I N E M E N T IN THE OPEN: A S SUCH IT I S I N VOLVED IN A VAST SYSTEM OF WHICH TA K E S IT O N E'S D E E PEST MOST P E R SO N A L SOC I O . . S F O U C A U LT "FORE" W I TH I N DISCUSSES SECRET THE AND OF BRI NGING TO THE SEXUALITY. I T I N HABITS TH E PLACE O F MASTERY OF A N D WITH R E S PONSE TO O N E'S BODY.LAW. ONE BY GIVING I N CORPORATE A N A LYSTI C CONCEP­ E X T E R I O R.D I S C R E E T M A R R I A G E . " P E R VERSIONS" STATUS. A N AND ITS M ENACES. I T I S A LAT E R A L A N D DEPTH PLUNGE I NTO THE S P A C E OF R I C H N ESS AND AB U N D A NCE OF LIFE. CE N'EST PAS QU'ELLES A l E NT VOU E LE SEXE A RESTER DANS L'OMBRE. IT IS A EXILE FOR DEATH RE PROACH TO AN EXC L U S I O N . EN LE FAISANT VALOIR COMME LE SECRET. T H E N EW P U R I TA N I S M AND STIFLING OF A DEEPER DIS­ C O U R S E W I T H SEXUA LITY I S SET U P BY M E DICAL­ SC I E N T I F I C P R I ESTS AS THE FORCE OF THE C H U RCH-C LERGY W A N ES. A N A LYSI S . ITS U N I Q U E AND PARTIC U L A R JOY A N D PLEA S U R E . CATEGO R I ES PERMISSION A N D TABOO. A CONTROL. S E X U A LITY V I EWED FROM THE GRID OF A D U LTS-C H I L D R E N . D I R ECT L I N E S OF H I NGES P R I M A R I LY ON I T S BEING OR B ECOM I NG THE BASTA R D FORM OF T H E RICHER ARS EROTICA -ALL BY WAY O F CEDI NG OVER THE PLACE OF SEXUALITY TO TH E G R E E D AND S E I Z U R E OF THE COURTROOM AND CON FESSION WHICH I S THE PLACE OF A VOWING THE S E C R ET. SEXUAL DISCOURSE MORE­ O V E R ." WHEREAS A RS EROTIC . RICH A N D COMPLEX D E PTHS AS EXPER­ IENCE. T H E PLACE OF SEXUA LITY AND DISCOURSE TO AND WITH THAT ASSERTED. OWN­ MOST G R A S P OF O N E'S T I M E-SPACE BY TOUC H I N G TH E TEXT U R E OF THE P L A C E OF THE POWER OF L I F E . OTH E R A N D GET ENTANGLED THE ONE WITH TH E OTH E R ACCO R D I NG TO COMPLEX M E C H A N I S M S OF EXC ITATION AND EXCITING EACH OTH E R ONWA RD.. . O N E'S OWN MOST RESPON S E WITH AND TO YET. IS R E P LA C E D BY THE PLEA S U R E OF PLA C E ARE ONLY COV E R E D OVER A N D M A NAGED BY A NEW PURITA N I S M . AND FABRIC. F O R IT T O T A K E I T S PLACE I N WEST E R N SOCIETY. AS M A N I FEST AND P R A CT I C E D IN E A STE R N RELIED AND . HE C LA I M S THAT EACH THE WESTE R N SCIENTIA E N G U L F M E N T IN THE I N VO L V E S POVERTY OF CLINICAL POW E R DO N O T N EGATE SEXUALIS ITS NOR S I M PLY V I E F O R TH E I R THEY "CHASE RES PECTIVE A FTER EACH CODI FICATION O F S E X U A L CONFESSION BASED ON THEORIES OF GENERAL SEX U A L C A U SALITY APPLIED TO THE WILL TO POS ITIONS. T O I N DI CATE T H E C R U C I A L LATE R A L S P R E A D OF SEXUALITY I N A N D THROUGH R E LATIONS OF A S OC I A L . THE DEPTH O F SEXUAL EXPE RI ENCE BECOMES G LOSSED OVER A S A TYPE OF LATENCY INTRINSIC TO S E X U A LITY BUT WHICH M U ST BE SER IOUSLY A N D BROADLY. SCI ENTIA SEXUALIS H A S TYPI F I E D WESTE R N "EXPE R I E NCE" A N D CON F I N E M ENT OF THE TR UTH OF SOIENT VOUEES A EN PARLER TOUJOURS." I RO N I C A LLY. C'EST Q U ' E LLES SE ARABIC-MOSLEM DRAWING THE COUNTRIES. T H U S A LLOWI NG A MORE BROUGHT TO THE FOR E OF DAYLIGHT LUCIDITY A N D 2153 .P O L I T I C A L PLEA S U R E OTH ER. S E X U A L DISCOURSE IN THE RECENT PARTI C U L A R EXPERI ENCE. . CON FESSED.

SCIENTIA S E X UALIS H A S ITS MOST A R D E NT COMPANION I N THE C L I N I C A N D TH E PSYCHOLOGI­ C A L-SEXUAL LITE R A T U R E IT U PHOLDS AND PRAC­ TIC E S .R E ACTION. ET M A T R I M O N I A LE . " A T TH E V E R Y L E A ST. FOR T H E C L I N I C WHICH THE H A S B ECO M E THE STAGE AND PIECES UPON SEXUALIS I N STALLS A N D E N FORCES A METHOD OF F R A G M E NTS OF THE INTER PRETATI ON. AS S UGGESTED B Y FOUCAULT A N D B ROUGHT OUT MORE CLEARLY I N HIS WORK ON MADN ESS AND TH E BI RTH OF CONFI N E M E N T A ND THE CLIN I C AND AS CONCRETELY CRITICIZED BY DELEUZE AND M E NT ORIG I N A I RE. ON SE CONDA M N E A M ECON N A ITRE LA PRODUCTION DE L'INCONSC I ENTE COLLECTIFS QUI LUI-MEME. ET SE PRODUIT LUI-MEME L'I DENTITE DE LA NATURE ET DE L'HOM M E . ET LES MECANISMES ARE AT LEAST TWO LEVELS I NVOLVED. DES M A C H I N E S D E S I R A NTES ET D U CORPS SANS ORGA N E S . ON A S UBSTITUE UN INCONSCIENT QUI N E POUVAIT PLUS QUE S'EXPRIMER (LE MYTHE. M A STERS OF THE TRUTH AND CONTROLL E R S OF A LT H O U G H THERE THE PLACE O F S E X U A LI T Y . BECOME MASTERS OF PARDON. "C L I N I C A L" A N D " POLITICO-SOC I A L. J U DGES OF ACTS WHO THEN CONDEMN OR J U STI FY. B E I NG RE-PLACED BY THE S PECTATORS OF SOCI ETY A N D A N A LYST: EN ENCADRANT LA VIE DE L' E N F A N T DANS L'OEDIPE. VALORISATION A D U L TE DE PRESSION ARE EXPENSE OF THE L I V E D. XX' MOINS DE LA HOWEVER. M I S E AU SILENCE ET PUDEURS AU I M PE RATIVES SI ECLE: DU LANGAGE: R U PT U R E L'AUTRE. SECONDLY.UNCONSCIOUS-SYMBOL: A NEW SENSE FOR S E X U A L S U R FACE M UST BE DEVELOPED A N D GIVEN U N NOUVEL I D E A L I S M E : A L'INCONSCIENT COM M E U S I N E . THE C L I N I C A L LEVEL A N D ITS STULTIFY­ I NG U S E O F A SEXUAL DISCOURSE I S AUGM ENTED AND MUTUA LLY I N T E R P E N ETRATED BY A POLITICO­ SOCIAL LEVEL.CONFESSION RATH E R T H A N E X PLOR ED IN ITS OWN " N I G H T OF N O N . THE STI FLING M A N N E R OF EXPOSING THAT D E PTH IS TH E UPHOLDING OF R I G I D CLASSI FICATION AS S E E N IN TH E P R A C T I C E OF H E A R I N G TH E AVOWALS OF COMPLEXES GROU N D E D I N A STE R I L E E P I STEMO­ LOGICAL PLACE.H E R M E N E UTIC RAPE OF THE SEXUAL BODY. SHATTER E D SEXUA L-S Y M BOLIC-PLACE HAVE B E E N STREWN. THAT PSYCHOA N A LYSIS A LONE CANNOT B R I N G-OUT THAT D E PTH A N D TEXT U R E BEGINS TO BE MORE E V I D E NT. S U PPOSE DEUX R U PTU R ES. A M E DI C A L. BUT THE A N A LYST I N PARTICULAR WHO RECORDS TH E S E X U A L CONFESSION. SI ON VEUT LA CENTR E R SUR LES MECANISMES DE R E P RESSION. D E L E U ZE­ G U ATTA RI TH ROW I NTO Q U E STION THE EPI STEMO­ LOGY AND A N C I ENT-TH EATRE OF PSYCHOANALYSIS WITH ITS SENSE WHICH OF RE-PRESENTATION ACCOMPLI S H E D AND AT EX­ TH E L'H I STO I R E DE LA S E X U A LITE.H. ' 2 G U A TTA R I . ESQUI V E OBLIGATOI RE DU CORPS. ' REGARDING A N D WITH THE PLACE OF SEXUA LITY. . MOREOVER. L' U N E A U COURS DU XVII' Snl:C LE: N A ISSANCE DES GRANDES PROH IBI­ TIONS. IT IS NOT LA SEULE SEXUA LITE IMPE RATIFS DE ALTOGETH ER C L E A R THAT THE I R WOR K I NG G R I D OF M A C H I N E . AND WISH I NG TO TOU C H J U OG E M E NT A R E C R U C I A L. YET. DELEUZE A N D G U A TT A R I S P E A K OF T H E THE POVERTY O F M UC H O F THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC D I SCOURSE ON S E X U A LITY IS W E LL SKETC H E D OUT I N THESE R E M A R K S . . SC I E NTI A U S E OF MYTH A N D SYSTEM BY PSYCHOA NA LYSIS. NOTA M M E NT TOUT LE JEU D U R E FOULE­ FIRST. T H E PLA YERS NO LONGER A LLOWED TH E I R PLEAS U R A BLE PLACE. O N A SUBSTITUE LA REPRESENTATION: A L'INCONSCIENT PRODUCTIF. ON A SU BSTITUE U N THEA ANTIQUE: A U X UN ITES DE PRODUCTION D E L'INCONSCIENT. A LB E I T N O T ALWAYS E V I D E NT. PORTENT A C R U S U R L'I NCON­ SCI E NT. AT THIS LEVEL ALSO CONTROL A N D FOLLOWING T H E ALLUSIVE S U GGESTION O F JOYCE AS TO RE-EMBOD I M E NT." THE RELATION M E NTION E D H E R E AS A N I D E NTITY M U ST B E FLESH E D-OUT AS THE PLACE OF I MPLOS I V E-EXPLOS I V E FUSION OF L I B I DO." T H E T W O I N TE R P R E N ETRATE A N D I N FORM A N D S U PPORT EAC H OTH E R .R EC O R D I N G . THIS DUE PRI M A R I LY TO THE CA PACITY OF SCI ENTIA SEX UALIS FOR D I S P E RSION AND LATERAL CON F I N E M E NT. EN FAISANT D E S R E LATIONS FAMILIALES L'UNIVERSE LLE M EDIATION DE L'ENFANCE.K N O W I N G . LA TRAGE DIE. THEY I N D ICATE A D I RECTION FOR E N RI C H E D D I SCOU RSE TO TA KE GREAT CONTR I BUTION OF PSYCHOANALYS I S T O A DISCOUSE ON S E X U A LITY. LE REVE .F E E D B A C K W I LL BE ULTI MATELY CAPABLE OF AVOI D I NG THE TRAP O F SCI E NTI A S E X U A L l S. PARTICULARLY IN TOUC H I NG T H E DEPTHS O F T H E UNCONSCIOUS. FOUC A U LT WRITES: AC ROSS T O THAT D E PTH OF S E X U A L EXPE R I ENCE W H I C H D. " H E N C E . THAT OF . DECENCE.P S Y C H O LOG I C A L D I SC O U R S E . CAR L ' I N CONSCIENT DANS EST ORPHELIN. .l ' O TEXTU RE. THAT PLACE WHICH I S THE PEC U L I A R I N DI V I D U A L'S FUSION WITH "NATU RE.S E X U A L-BODY. LAWRENCE SAW B E I NG SMOTH E R E D BY S E X U A L. THE SOCIETY I N GENERAL WHICH LISTE NS. THEY R I G HTLY C R I TICIZE TH E A BORTIVE D' A I L L E U R S Q U ' I N F L E X I O N 254 .

' 5 TH E CON F I N E M E N T O F T H E SICK.I D E NTITY. WATCH THE POET G I VE U P TH E P R I V I LEGE D PLACE A N D PAPER. THE TORTURE OF DA M I E N S. C A R E S S . A P E R H A PS PLACE. T H E STATUS OF HIS POETIC SPIRIT STI L L SHOWS ITSELF TO B E SCI ENTIA SEX U A LI S. H 6 LDE R L I N A N D ARTAUD. I N VO L V E DISPERSION WHICH ACTIVE: I N M Y H O U S E H E S A W A DRAWI NG OF A M A N AGES A N D CONTROLS AT E V E R Y L E V E L A N D S E E K S O U T E V E R Y F I B R E O F T H E H U M A N PLAC E .S Y M BOLIC. A R E A L L ALONG THE W A Y O F T H E CONTROL OF TH E FLESH O F I DENTITY O F N A T U R E A N D M A N . CLEAR. AND U LT I M A T E L Y R E ­ GREEK TEMPLE. E M BLEMATIC O F TH E SC H I ZOPH R E N I C DIVI SION POR A R Y AND F R A G M ENTATION IS THE OF THE CONTE M ­ THE RADICAL AN EXTENT T H E Y A R E W I LL I NG T O PUSH THEI R OWN NOTION OF THE STAT U S OF THE WORLD GULF BETW E E N UNCONSCIOUS A S A N O R P H A N W H I C H G E N ERATES CAR PENTER'S H A N DL I N G O F T H E EARTH. S O M E W H A T Q U I ET VOICE O F THE S I M PL E C A R PE N T E R ZI M M E R AS H E WRITES TO H 6 L D E R L I N ' S HER SON'S MO T H E R D U R I NG TH E AND YEARS OF G ROWI NG " M A D N ESS" FREQU E N T SI LENCE: T H E POSS I B I L I T I E S OF T H E N E W P U R I T A N I S M . S POKEN O N . AND CON F I N E M E N T I S QUITE IT IS NOT C L E A R TO WHAT GESTU R E I S TO CAPTIVATE. A C LOSETED V E RTI C A L " O P E N " LAT E R A L SPACE TO A N U N .E X PLOS I V E FO RCE O F LI B I D I N A L. VERSES ON A WOODEN BOARD WITH A PENCIL POLITICAL CONTROL H A V E FOLLOWED THE S A M E THE L I N E S OF LIFE A R E VARIOUS. I R E P L I E D T H A T I H A V E T O WORK FOR M Y THAT I AM NOT FORT U N ATE ENOUGH TO LIVI NG. F L E S H I S M A D E . A N D OVERLY POLITI C A L D I S PA RATE. '3 C R I TI C I S M DELEUZE AND G U ATTA R I .L I M I TE D . AND AS THE MOUNTA I NS' CONTO U R S .G E N E T I C M O V E M E N T O F P R I M I T I V E ­ DESPOT-CA P I TA L A N D U LTI MATE D I SSOLUTION I N TO SCH I ZOPH R E N I A O F CONTEM PO R A R Y SOCI ETY A N D ITS RETURN TO A N E W B U T D I S. J ECTED SIS. ' 6 P A T H STREWN W I T H H U M A N F L E S H . ETE R N A L R ECOM P E N S E . T H E N E W P U R I TA N I S M AS D I S P E R S IO N WILL ACCO M P L I S H MORE R A D I C A L V I E W TO T H E PLACE OF S E X U A L I T Y AND D I SC O U R S E FAC E S AND ARE OF TA K E N IN V I E W I NG FIGURES THE OF PA I N E D THE " M A D" H6 LDE R L I N N I ETZSC H E A LONG T H E FLESH­ STREWN PATH OF D I SSOLUTION O F T H E MO D E R N M O R E RADICALLY W H A T W A S A LWAYS AT I S S U E : A G E I NTO L I B I D I N A L SCH I ZOPH R E N I A . DESTRUCTIVE. M U T I L A T E D. L I B I D I N A L I M PU LS E A N D ITS H I STO R Y O F CON FRON­ TATION WITH PERSUASIVE. OUR I N DICATIONS A S TO TH I S . HE ASKED ME TO MAKE ONE L I K E IT I N WOOD. T H E OPEN D I SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. BOTH LESS AND MORE OF THAN A Q U ESTION OF MERE A VA I E NT A SE DESERRER .COURBE: C'EST LE MOMENT DE LA R E P R E SSION 00 LES M E C A N I S M E S COMMENCE ITSELF I N THE I DENTITY O F NATU R E A N D M A N . ALTHOUGH 255 . POW E R Y E T. .S A V A G E . FA M I LI A R TEXTU R E A N D S I TE O F H I S USU A L D I SCOU R S E . S PACE O F D I S P E R S I O N A N D DE-FUSION. U LT I M A TE L Y . 1 4 WE HEA R THE CALM. MAD.PLOS I O N OF TH E WOOD. LIVE I N P H I LOSOPHIC CALM LIKE H I M : I M M E DI ATELY H E REPLI ED. A N D PEACE. T H E I R OUTLI N I NG THE EX. A N D FA S H I O N THE FLESH OF HIS WORLD TH ROUGH P O ET I C DI SCOU RSE. C A R E F O R H I S F U M B L I N G WITH THE W OO D A N D OTH E R P A R T I A L OJECTS O F H I S-OUR F R AG M E NT E D W O R L D . THE M A D N E S S OF N I ETZSC H E . IT I S A QUESTIO N OF P U S H I N G T H E I R NOTI N OF DESI R I NG­ THE P R I M A R Y D I F F E R E N C E S B E T W E E N TH E TWO OF R E P R E S S IO N D I SC O U R S E R E G A R D I NG HANG ON S E X U A L I TY THE SOCIO­ MACH I N E S TO THE L I M I T : OF S E E I N G THE POSI T I V E SENSE OF THE D I S P E R S I O N OF L I B I D I N A L I M PU L S E EVEN U PO N AND BACK TOW A R D THE ANCIENT SORTS AND SEXUAL POLITICAL CA PACITY TO CONFI N E S E X U A L DE PTH TO A DE-LI M I T E D OR THEATRE O F SYM BOL-TRAGEDY : O F EXPLORING T H E SEARCH F O R A FULLNESS A N D D E PTH OF FLESH A S IT COUR S E S T H ROUGH A N D T R A C E S I T S E L F U PON LIFE. "OH BUT I A M A POOR C R E A T U R E : AND IN TH E SAME M I NUTE H E WROTE T H E FOLLOWI N G I F N ECESSA RY. D E L E U ZE OUTLI N E D AND THE G UATTA R I HAVE MORE PATH FULLY AS THE PERHAPS ONE B E G I N S TO S P E A K WITH H 6 LDE R L I N RATH ER T H A N J UST A BOUT H I M A S WE F E E L A N D HEAR TH E SC R A P I NG OF HIS PENCIL U PON THE FLESH-STREWN H I S TO R I C A L. CONTROL LED. PEN ETRATING ITS T E X T U R E A N D U N D E R M I N I NG I T S T I S S U E . S PECTATORSH I P.P L A C E D SENSE O F THE P R I M I TI V E . H I S NEGATIVE. Y O N D E R A GOD CAN COMPLETE WITH H A R M O N I ES. . C L A S S I F I E D. A S FOOTPATHS ARE. ON POU R R A I T D I R E Q U ' A U V I E U X D R O I T DE FAIRE MOURI R OU D E LAISSER VIVRE S'EST SUBSTITUE U N POUVO I R D E F A I RE V I V R E OU DE R E J ET E R DANS LA MORT. TH E OLD P U R I T A N I S M C E D E S G LA D L Y TO THE N EW: T H E OLD TASK OF CON F I N E M E N T WAS TI R I NG AND U NABLE TO COPE ULTI M A T E L Y WITH T H E I M PLOS I V E . W H A T H E R E W E ARE. ANA LY­ P U N I SH M E N T A N D SEXUAL D I SC O U R S E .

Y M ETA P H Y S I C A L.ACE O F PLAY WHICH I S L. NOT E A T A T TH E I R TA B L. AT L. Y O F TH E F L.E A­ S U R A B LE-THI S COMFORT APPEARS IN INCARNATE CLARITY IN THE CHORUS OF SATYRS .Y S O M ETH I N G L.YST. C E RTA I N L.D. THE SYMPATHETIC COM P A NION I N WHOM THE SUFFERING OF THE GOO IS R EPEATED. FOR OU R WOR L. A LTHOUGH U NABLE TO TOUCH I N A D EQ UATE FORM U L. H IG H E R . E S" -TH O S E O F THE TH I N K E R N I ETZSC H E 'S D I R ECTIO N .EUZE A N C I E N T.A B E L. I M P U L.A K E TERMED " M I ND­ FORG E D A N A L. THEY SEEM TO HAVE OVERLOOKED THE SENSE I N WHICH TH E HAS M YTHIC-DREAM-PLAY OF BEEN STI F L E D LIBIDINAL. D A L.Y O F A M ETAPHYSICAL. TAKING IT FURTHER THAN H 6L. SC U L. D SEEM TO HAVE O N L. R A T H E R . EVERY TRUE TRAGEDY IS TR A N SC E N D E N C E .AMMED THE DOOR I N TH E I R FAC E S : ZA R A TH U ST R A W I L L.. A R L. D E S I R E . T H R U ST U PO N O U R WORL.Y P U R S U E D T H E COM FORT. T H E SATYR WAS THE A RC H ETYPE OF MAN. N I ETZSCH E S P E A K S CONCRETEL. COU R S E A N D TH E LlB I D I N A L.L.SE AS MORE THAN A PROC R EATIV E D E PTH. N I ETZSCH E SPEAKS LUCI D LY AND I RO N I C AL. 256 .SE FROM I TS ETH E R E A L SPACE TO THE FLESH.Y. MOST C E NTRA L TO THE TRAGEDY OF H 6 LDERLl N'S OWNMOST A RTISTIC D I SSOLUTION IS P E R H A PS HIS FLE E I NG FROM AND DIS-PLACING HIS WO R L D TOWA R D A NOTH E R .Y BY THE SATYR OF G R E E K TRAGEDY. A SYMBOL OF THE S E X U A L O M N I POTE N C E OF NATURE W H I C H THE OF TH E S E X U A L POL. Y C E R T A I N G UATTA RI S E E TH E I R W A Y TO LIBERATING SEXUAL DISCOURSE FROM ITS MERE F A SC I N ATION A N D SUGGESTIONS TO FOL. E V E L. I B I D I N A L.U N ABLE TO FASH ION IT I NTO THE PLACE OF THE WHOLE A S EXPRESSIVE. I N DESTRUCTABLY POWERFUL A N D P\. TH EY. YET. A S S I F Y IT AS FINITE SENSE BOTH A WORK AND JOY OF A RT I S T I C C REATION. H 6LDER­ LlN'S DESPA I R OVER THIS FRAGMENTATION A LONG THE PATHS OF LIFE SEEKS COM FORT AND PA RT I C U L. I B I D I N A L. BUT IN TH E SAME SPIRIT AND OVE R AGAI NST TH E D I S SOLUTION OF A C E NTER WHICH NO L.EAST A S OPPOSED TO US-THAT LIFE AT THE BOTTOM OF TRAN SC E N D E NC E TOWAR D AN ABSOL. NO D E S POTIC PAR E N T TO OO M I NATE IT. COMFORT WHICH IS N E I TH E R HE P R O P E R L.L. E X AS NOTI O N S O F A WAY H6L D E R L I N THE AND L I B I D I N A L. D L. H E H A S BEAUTIFU LLY STRUGG LED WITH AND PARTIA LL.PTING W H I C H WE DO A N D A R E : IN A N I ETZSC H E S E E M S TO H A V E CLEARLY P U R S U E D A S I M I L. N I ETZSC H E STRIKES AT THE HEART O F THAT I D E NTITY O F M AN-NATURE T O W H I C H DELEUZE A N D GUATTARI ALL.T H E A T R E OF A N D GUATTAR I O F THE M YT H AND DREAM AS P E R H A PS FIXATION UPON P LE A S U R E OF DESI RING-MAC H I N E S . A N OTH E R WORLD. POI NTS TO THE PL.­ ITY A N D THE L I B I D I N A L.UDE AS THE ORPHAN WHICH IS TH E U NCONSCIOUS. D E M BOD I M E N T IS BOTH A PLUNGE FROM A N D TOWA R D OUR OWN F L E S H E D .Y B Y F R E U D THROUGH WHAT T H E POET BL. N I ETZSC H E H A S SL. ALL. NOR IS REALLY A COMFORT.BO D I E S AND A PARTI A L OBJECTS A N D FRAGM E NTATION WHICH IS THE D I S SO L U T I O N A N D C O N F I N E M E N T O F THE PLA C E O F S E X U A L-CREATIVE-SYMBOL. D E PTH OF TH E WORL. E S H I N T H E W O R L D AG A I N ST TH E PATH OF BEL.DER­ LIN. Y E T . R E A D Y A P H A L L I C .F E LT WORLD. S E X U A L. LIKE N I ETZSC H E . ALREADY A RECONCI LI ATION GOD'S I N THE HOPE FOR THE FLEEING TO FASHION H A R MO N Y IN C A PA C I TY PATH STRUCK U PON BY H 6L. O F T H E N I ETZSC H E .OW THI S O N E -THAT OF OUR BODIES. SPEAKS OF NO ABOVE OR S E N S E O F I N SC R I PTION A N D E M BODI M ENT. E .D GET TH E I R H A N D S ON T H I S " I D E A " .L. CAREFUL.L.Y-PRESENCE A N D RICH POWER OF NATURE. AND T H E POErs EXPRES­ SIVE DI SCOU RSE. TA K I N G U S C LOS E R T O A S E X U A L D I S­ IF TH E M ETAPHYSIC I A N S COUL. A N D POETIC. FOR THE N O T I O N O F S U B J ECT I S N O T THINGS. ONE WHO PROCLAIMS WISDOM FROM THE VERY H E A RT OF NATURE.. SPEAK OF TH E DEPTH O F L I B I D I N A L.D E S POT I C S E I Z U R E -T H E Y AND C L. FI XATION U PO N THE SACRED FAM I LY A N D A M ER E UTILITY O F P ROCREATION.UDED T O H E R E .UTE I N F I N ITE. STRUCK OUT A PATH TOWA R D POETICALLY TA K I NG U P ONE'S F L. N O SOURCE GROUN D FOR THE M ET A P H Y S IC I A N TO S T A N D U P O N . A N D M A R ROW OF TH E L I V E D. ' 7 ONE W O U L.IN. . THE EMBODIMENT OF HIS HIGH EST AND MOST I NTENSE EMOTIONS.ESH OF SYMBOL AS T H E PLACE OF T H E H U M A N : I NVOLVE W O U L. YET. WO R L D CHARACTERIZED MOST F UL. WORLD NOR A B E Y O N D THE WORLD.L.I NVESTED U NCON­ SCIOUS AND OF S E X U A L I M PUL. . DESPITE ALL THE CHA NGES OF A PPEAR­ A NCES.ON G E R HOLDS. H ENCE. I K E THAT I S A T STAK E . A T ISSUE.OW.A R PATH .Y C REATIVE FL. . . LOOK.S Y M BOLIC.D.A N D T H A T W O U L. T H E M ETAPHYSICAL COMFORT-WITH W H I C H I A M S UGGESTI NG LEAVES EVEN NOW.L. FLESH. THE U NCONSCIOUS HAS NO PA R ENTAGE. B E YO N D RAPID R E J ECTION B Y DEL.ATIONS OR V I E WS TO SEXUAL. THESE S E E M R E P L. M A N A C L.DERL. I F DELEUZE A N D GREEKS USED TO CONTEMPLATE WITH REVERENT WO N OE R . SUCH A S THESE RICH AND C O M P L. I N THE SENSE O F A CONSOLATION. THE ECSTATIC REVELER E N R A PTURED B Y THE PROXI M ITY OF H I S GOO. E M BO D I E D SATYR AS BOTH A R C HETYPE OF M A N A N D SYMBOL . E S H E D-OUT. A C E D A T THE L.

THE HORNED AGG RESSION OF T H E D I SSOL UTION OF SCH I ZOP H REN IC CAPITALI SM-TH E DISPERSION OF ALL-WOULD SEIZE ABUNDANT MOT H E R OF APHRODITE. G ENET. 11 OEDIPE (PARIS: LES EDITIONS D E M I N UIT1. A N D THE LOVE OF THAT PLACE. P. REFUSE LOVE OF H I S D E STI NY. A N AREA DE·LIM ITED.QUT E C S TA T I C A L L Y TH E H IG HEST E M OT I O N S AND R E C E PT I V I T Y E ROS. P. COM PLETING A C I RC LE. 2 J EAN. II CF. R E PEATI NG H I S SUFFERING IN EACH OF M A N'S ATTEMPTS TO AGGRESSION B Y THE WI NGS O F A FREE PLAY A MONG US. P.BEYOND THE I R COM PLEX ATTEM PT A T THE FUSION O F V I T A L I S M· M EC H A M I S M . 390. SC H I ZOPH R E N I C C A PITALI S M . 1 9761. 2 8 6. 7. C REATION M A N AGE FULLEST DESI R E S O F M A N . I BID" PP. (EMPHASIS A DD E O) 8 IBID. CONCR ETE. A N D W ITHOUT A NATURE. 49. 334. p. OF A P H RO D I T E RECEPTI VE. COMPAN ION. R E M I N D I N G ALL T H A T EROS I S THE AB AN DO N ED C H I LO OF A L L O F U S . IT I S THE PLAY OF T H E FLESH OF THE FACE WHICH STAR K LY. 3 1 5. TH E FACE-PLAY IS H A R DL Y MASCULI N E . P . FLESH O F H E R TH E PLACE O F N I ETZSCH E'S S A T Y R I S THE PLACE OF L I B I D I N A L· S Y M BOLIC PLAY. F O R TH E DANCE OF PLAYFUL EMBOD I M E NT. . 6. 57. p .. H E ED I NG T H E W H I S P E R OF T H E G ENTLY FLESH-SCU LPTE D E ROS AMID THE R A NT I N G . THE WORLD. TO R N M O V E M E NT OF AGED LINES STEELY. TH E N O U R I S H I N G . FREED FROM THE HORN E D DOMINANCE OF TRAGEDY I N T O T H E FULL P L A C E OF A L O V E O F THAT DESTI N Y. SCREA M I NG . H I S PLAYFUL. T H E SATYR M U ST B E TH E BECO M I N G O F H I S F L E S H . 1 9 5 2 8< 1 9701. BERNARD F R EC H T M A N SO PHICAL LIBRARY. JACQU E S D E R R I DA. O R F I X E D ESSENCE. GRATING OF F L E S H -T H E VOLUPTUOUS N ESS: T H E S E D UCTI VE GLANCE: T H E W R I N K LED. T H E SOFT F U S I O N POINT O F BOTH. 662. NATUR E . A L L. B E OR TOUCH A GOD. H A R DLY F E M I N I N E . S E X U A L. 1 9741. N I ETZSC H E'S PLAYFUL SATYR BECKONS. THE SATYR I S ODDLY THE COMPANION O F T H E GOD. ( E M P H A S I S A DDEO) 10 4 GI LLES D E LEUZE ET FELIX GUATTARI. THAT PLAY IS THE MOT H E R . WHICH IS HIS WORLD OF POWER. L'ANTI­ I BID. A LWA YS R E M E M B E R I NG THE MOI ST. SARTRE. IBID . E ROS TOUCHES BOTH. W H I C H FACES U S AROU ND. 1 9481. YET WITHOUT TIME AND TH E OFTEN FORGOTTEN PLAY O F O U R PLACE: T H E A M B I VALENT DESI R E A N D VIOLENCE OF PAN'S E M BODI M E NT S H R I E K OUR P R E D I CA M E N T I N TH E TI M E O F SCU LPTU R E BECOME M A C H I N E . A L L OF US. THE IS N OT PAN OF A PH RODITE'S E RO S ? ' 8 YET. TENDER. P..2 9 1 AND P. P. S M I LES OR L A U G H S WITH SOFT. 3 1 . TRAVE RSING A D I SSOLUTION FOUGHT T O THE LAST ROBERT V A N RODEN A LL E N NOTES 6 CF. A N D PLEASU R E . P L I A N T. 9 3 CF. U N AB A S H EDLY CRIES WITH US. 77 8< FF. 3 6 Be FF. Y E T E V E N SO U R C E OF THE T H R EAT. SAIN T G E N ET-COMEDIEN ET MARTYR ( P A R I S : G A L L I M A RD. M A N I S BOTH W I TH I N NATURE. N A K EDLY. CF. W A I T I N G DOM I N ATION AND REVENGE AGAI NST DESTIN Y. AS FLESH I NG. T H E E M OTIONS. THE PLACE OF MAN'S DESTI N Y TO BE H I S BODY AND LIVE I N T H E WORLD. THE PATH TO THAT WORLD WHICH WE FACE. 1 6. BORN OUT OF TH E C U TT I N G OFF OF AGGRESSION. P. AND VIOLATE HER AS AND ESCAPE HIS BODY A N D WORLD. BESPEAK FLESH FACE TA KING U P A N D B E I N G THE FLESH OF T H A T FORCE OF LIFE WHICH IS AT T H E BOTTOM OF ALL TH I NGS. 257 . 12 I B I D. THE FU LLNESS O F H I S PLACE. N I ETZSC H E TRANSFORMS T H E PLACE O F BY A FIRM DESIRE. P.. US.PA U L SARTRE. FLOATS F R E E LY . TRANSLATED BY (NEW YORK: P H I LO· IBID . A JOY WITH THE WORLD. AND TO U C H I N G T H E . FATH ER A PH RODITE T H REATENS PAN. S Y M BOLIC M OV E M E N T IS T H E PLAYFU LLY: F L E E I N G . PP. HISTOI RE DE LA SEXUALITE ( P R E M I E R TOMEI LA VOLONTE DE SAVOI R ( P A R I S : GALLI M A R D . TH E SATYR R EVELS A N D SPEAKS WISDOM FROM WITH I N AND WITHOUT I N O R D E R TO EROS CONTROL HER C H I LO. THE SATYR PLAYS IN TH E ARENA OF T H E TRAGIC. PAN. IT I S THE GOATS F A C E O F M A N . SARTRE. G LA S (PA R I S: EDITIONS GALI LEE. 7 M I C H E L FOUCAULT. IT I S THE PLAY OF C H I LD'S UNWORN PLACE I S THE D I SCOURSE SOUGHT.

DOWN THE STA I R S TOW A R D THE B A S E M E NT. R. R . 1 8 1 . T H E B I RTH OF TRAG E D Y ( A N D T H E CASE OF WAG N E R ) T R A N S . TH E COR PULENT M A N SQU EEZING LEGS OF R. 6 1 . THE CORPU LENT M A N TRIES TO I NTERCEPT H E R . 56. TH E CORPULENT MAN C A R R I E S R. G R E EC E : P . K A U F M A N N ( N EW YOR K : RANDOM HOUSE. 6 1 -62. 55. p . P HOTOG R A P H I C R E PRODUCTION OF THE STA T U E IS FOUND IN THE M U S E U M'S TRANSLATE D BY M IC H A E L H E l M I N H I S PAPER "WHAT IS S Y L VA N I A E M PHASIS) PHI LOSOPHY? -AGAI N?" (THE PENN­ STATE U N I V E R S ITY) . 101 54. 2 :5 8 . PP. H ITS THE COR P U L E N T M A N IN THE FACE. :59. THE CORPU LENT MAN PRETENDS TO FALL OVER. WHO STRUGG LES. THE A R M OF THE CORPULENT MAN ROU N D THE CALVES OF R:S LEGS.60. 17 FRI EDRICH N I ETZS H E . T H E CORPULENT M A N L I FTS R. AND TH ROWS H E R O V E R H I S SHOULDER. (MY P U B LICATION ENTITLED "NATIONAL ARCHA EO­ LO G I C A L MUSEUM OF ATHE NS" ( ATH E N S . 58. 16 1 9 7 :5 1 . Be 1 04. HANGING OVER H I S SHOULDER. SURVEILLER ET PUNIR (PA R I S : G A L L I MARD. 1 9 7 1 ) . K N E E LS AND SEIZES R. P. 1 1. FOUC A U LT. HOLDING H E R BAG AT ARM'S LENGTH. R . 59. P. 1 9 6 1 ) . BY HER A N K LES. STRUGG L I NG A N D H ITTING HIM WITH H E R FI STS-THE BOTTOM OF THE STA I R S I N FRONT OF A DOOR T H A T H E K I C K S O P E N . 57.1 1 .13 FOUCAULT. 1 :5 2 . PP. TU RNS BACK AND RETU R N S TO THE LANDING. BY WALTER 14 IBID . THE HANDS OF THE CORPU LENT M A N MOV I NG UP BE H I N D T H E K N E E S OVER THE SUSPEN D E R B E LT TOWARD R:S THIGHS A N D B UTTOCKS. 18 1 9. 1 8 1 2 THESE C LOSI NG R E M A R K S I N S P I R E D FROM T H E STR I K I NG "STATUE OF APH RODITE A N D P A N " I N LETTER OF APRIL CITED AND T H E NATI O N A L A RC HA EOLOGICAL M U S E U M O F ATH E N S . GALLI AS. ( E M PH A S I S ADDED) 1� CF.

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IT I N FACT H A S A LWAYS CONTROLLED L I F E THROUGH ITS E X P R E S S I V E . I M P R I NT ITS C H A RACTERS. SEXUAL. PROVOCATION. HERE R E I G N S CASTRATION. REIGN OF TH E CAPITALIST STATE U S E S R ETENTION. COD I F I E D M ASOC H I S M R ESIGNATION. LITTLE M O R E THAN A M A N U A L LABO R E R . I T P E R M E ATES O U R BOD I E S . MODELS. IT EXERCISES TH I S CONTROL U N DER ALL OF I TS VARIOUS G U I SES: T H E F A M I LY. HAR- S T R U G G L E A G A I N ST C A P I T A L I S T O P P R E S S I O N 260 . REEKING OF ROTT I N G BOD I ES. M UTI LATES OUR PLEA SU RES. ROBS US OF OUR VITAL F UNCTIONS. IT TURNS EACH OF U S I NTO A C R I PPLE. R U LES. AND DEATH U N H A P PY G R A T I F I C A T I O N . TO R I V ET I NTO OUR UNCONSCIOUS ITS M E C H A N I S M S FOR PROPAGATI NG SLAVERY. I S INDEED HORRI FYING. OPPRESSING. M A L E DOM I N A NCE. IT U N F A I L­ I N G LY P U R S U E S ITS A BJECT M I SSION OF CASTRAT­ ING. PROM U LGATE ITS PROG R A M S . EXTORTION S O A S T O USE IT A LONG WITH A MASSIVE R E I N FO R C E M E N T OF SOC I A L TERROR ( I N D I V I D U A L GUI LTI TO R E P R ESS. I N DUSTRIOUS B E I NG . T H E FORCES OF CA PITALIST OCC U PATION CONTIN­ UALLY REFINE TH E I R SYSTEM OF AGG R E S S I O N . T H E A R MY. EMOTION­ A L AND A FFECTI VE A S P ECTS. BUT I T H A S FORC E D US TO D I R ECT TH E R E VO L U T I O N A R Y TA K E S OVE R O U R ORGANS. AND MANGLI NG THE BODY. EXC LUDE AND N E UTRA LIZE A L L THOSE PRACTICES OF O U R WILL THAT DON'T AND R E PRODUCE SO TH I S THESE FOR M S OF DOM I N ATION. A N END PA R A LYZI NG A D M I N I STRATION. TH I S OLD O R D E R . ASSIGN ITS ROLES. A STR A N G E R TO H I S O W N D E S I R E S . .TO DESTROY S E X U A LITY TO PUT N ESSES A L L OF O U R " L I F E " P RODUCTI VITY UN D E R ITS O W N A LTHOUG H THE C A P I T A L I ST ORDER A PPEARS TO BE TOLERA NT. A N D PROFITA B I L I TY. P R I V ATE P R O P E RTY. IT N E U ROTIC. CUT OFF F R O M H I S OWN B O D Y . THE WOR K PLACE. ALL TH E BETTER TO I N SC R I BE ITS LAWS U PON O U R FLESH. TORT U R I NG. . CONSTR A I N I NG IT TO THE DICTATES OF ITS TOTA LITA R I A N ORGA N I ZATION B A S E D O N E X PLOITATI O N . D I SCOU RSE. P E R PETUATES ITSELF. REDUCING THE " S U B J ECT" TO A G U I LT. FORC I NG ITS ROOTS OF DEATH DEEP I N TO OUR S M A LLEST CREVIC ES. PROFIT. SC A R I F I CATION NORMS AND AND N E U ROSI S TO I M POSE ITS THOU S A N D-YEA R-OLD SAC R I F I C E .R I D D E N . SCHOOLS. STASIS.

TO L E R A T E D J O U I SSANC E -T H E H E IG H T O F C OG N I T I V E S E X U A L F U L F I LLM ENT-A N D POW E R . " S E LF. R EVOLTI NG A G A I NST THE T E R RO R I Z I N G FASC I S M OF NORMA LITY: A DOLESCENCE. A SEPA RATION B R I N G I N G G E N E R O U S R ETU R N S TO TH E M A N AG E R S OF O U R BO U RG E O I S SOCI ETY A S W E L L A S TO THOSE WHO PR ETE N D TO R E P R E S E N T THE M A SSES AND TO SPEAK IN TH E I R N A M E . COLLECTI V E L Y . OUR S E X U A L M E M BERS. M E M BR A N E S . IT I S A LONG THIS "PATH" THAT WE PROPOSE TO "WORK" TOWARDS T H E L I B E R ATION O F SOC I A L SPACE. R EG U LATE AND OCCUpy O U R M UCOUS POW E R BOD I E S HAS I N S E M I NATED C E N T U R I ES: H O M O S EX U A LS. O U R GUTS. F E D E R A L. THEY TO THE FO RM T H E CONTO U R S O F A N E W FISSURE. F R O M T H E "C I V I LI Z E D CROSS TH E SPACES OF A L I M ITLESS BODY. TO ESC A P E F RO M T H E SEDENTARY SLAUGHTER O F WANTI N G TH E F U N D A M ENTAL F R E E DOM TO ENTER HERE WE FIND PEOPLE WHO H AVE S H ORT­ INTO THESE REVOLUTI O N A R Y PRACTICES E NTA I LS OUR ESCAPING WE FROM TH E L I M ITS OF OUR OWN C I RCUITED T H E H A C K N E Y E D S E PA RATION BETWE EN "POLITICS" AND L I V E D E X P E R I ENCE. J UST SO THEY C A N TU R N TH E M I NTO PA RTS FOR TH E I R IGNOMI N I O U S MAC H I N E W H I C H PRODUCES C A PITAL. . PATR I A R C H A L EX PLOITA­ TION. EX PLOITATION AND THE F A M I LY. OUR E N E RGY ACCO R D I N G TO THEIR LAWS WITH TH E I R M INOR. A S TH EY EXIST EVERYWH E R E TH ROUGHOUT C A PITALIST I N F RACTIONS. REVOLT I N G A G A I NST TH E PATHOLOG I C A L A U T H O R I TY OF A D U LTS. R E A LITY TO TH E I M PERATI V E S OF T H E ESTA B L I S H E D O R D E R . TH E LINKS BETWEEN AND WE CAN NO LON G E R NOT "CO ME" O R HOLD BACK O U R SH IT. NOR W H I LE THEY USE O U R B R A I N AS A M E A N S OF PUN I S H M ENT P R OG R AM M E D BY A M B I E NT POWE R. EVER MORE S U BTLY B I N D I N G OUR E N E RG I ES. L I V I NG BODY. A MORE R A D ICA L AND DEFINITIVE C O N F R O N TA T I O N . THEY HAVE BEGUN. LIVE I N T H E W I L L F U L M O B I L I TY BEYOND S E X U A LITY. AC­ WE WANT TO FREE THE SPACE -TH E CONTEXT. E V E N A M O N G R A D I C A L G R O U PS. WE W A NT T O EXPLO D E T H E F R I G I D . THE LOC U S -O F THE BODY AND ITS OWN SPECIFIC CORDI NG FORCES SELVES. BODY'S SPACE TO S U BV E R S I O N A N D TO OPEN UP THE SPACE OF S U B V E R S I ON TO TH E " I M M E D IATE N E EDS OF T H E BODY. G E N E RATES ITS O W N F R E E DO M . OUR A NUSES. T H E ENTI R E SENTI E N T S U R FACE OF O U R BODY. TO W H I C H THESE R EVOLUTIONARY A R R A NG I N G TH E M ­ ARE " N E C E S S A R I LY" D E S I R E S FROM TH I S "FO R E I G N " G R I P. DESI R ES. WANTS MORTI F I E D BODY THAT MAKE CAPITALISM OUT O F O U R S O DESPERATELY TO SOCI ETY. HERE MALE TH E I R WE FIND WOMEN. B E YON D 26 1 . THE PORES O F OUR S K I N ." HERE WE FIND PEOPLE B EG I N N I NG TO QUESTION AND I N VESTIGATE THE VA R I O U S MODES BY W H I C H DESI R E IS P RO D U C E D. W E CAN N O LONG E R STA N D BY I D L Y W H I LE W E A R E ROBBED A " R E VOLUTI O N A R Y CONSCI O U S N ESS" I S NOTH I N G BUT A C H I M E RA A S L O N G A S IT R E M A I NS OUTS I D E OF A " R E V O L U TI O N A R Y BODY. O U R V E I N S . BETWEEN THE BODY A N D S U BJ ECT A S CONSC IO U S N E SS. T H E R E I S NO S E PA RATION B E T W E E N TH E T W O : I OPPRESS MYSELF BECAUSE THIS "I" I S THE PRODUCT OF A THE BODY SYSTEM OF OPPRESSION OPE RATING AC ROSS ALL FO R M S OF E X P E R I E N C E . THAT FOR R EVOLTI NG BEEN A G A I NST THE IN WE CAN N O LON G E R STAN D BY I DL Y W H I L E THEY CONTROL. O U R SALIVA. I N H I BITED. TO OPEN UP TH E W E CAN NO LONG E R STA N D BY I DLY W H I L E TH E Y U S E O U R NE RVOUS S Y S T E M A S A RELAY I N TH E SYSTEM OF CAPITA L I ST. .TH E R E W H E R E IT IS MOST D E E PLY ROOTED-I N THE L I V I N G FLESH OF O U R OWN BODY." A BODY WHICH OF OUR MOUTHS. HERE WE FIND PEOPLE P R E PA R I NG A GREAT U P R I SI N G OF L I F E A G A I N ST A L L O F T H E M A N I F ESTA­ TIONS OF D EATH W H I C H CONTI N U A LLY I N S I N UATE THEMSELVES I N TO OUR BODY." M U ST TURN TH E " S U B J ECT" W I TH I N O U R S E LV E S UPSI DE-DOWN: E SC A PE F R O M T H E STATE" AND S E D E N TA R Y .

T H E " E N LI G H T E N E D " P R O M I SC U I TY OF TH E BOURGEOI S I E : TH E PROGRESSION IS U N B RO K E N . CLEAR TH E NOTH I N G MORE THAN I N C R E A S E THE EFFICIENCY OF TH E " R E PRODUCTIVE" F U N CTION OF THE "OFF I C I A L" LIBIDO." THE DRIVING POWER BEHIND CA PITA LISM'S A POLOGIES." WE HAVE DEC I DED TO E XPLODE THE UNBEARABLE SECRET THAT POW E R USES AGAINST EVERYONE N O F U N D A M E NTA L D I F F E R E N C E B E TW E E N T H E " I M MACULATE CONCE PTION" A N D T H E PUBLICITY­ MINDED AND PROSTITUTE. FETISHES. W E W A N T T O R E D I SCOV E R SE NSATIONS AS B A S I C A S WE'RE NOT CONC E R N E D WITH SIM PLY B R E A K I NG THE P LE A S U R E I N B R E AT H I N G THAT H A S B E E N 262 . ONLY THE STRA­ TEGY C H ANGES. LIVE THEM COLLECTIVELY. ETC. BETWEEN CONJUGAL DUTY WHOSE LIVES I NCLUDE ANY SENSUAL. THE " U N M E NTIONABLE" HAS BECOME OUR PREOCCU PATION. OUR DESI RES. R E LEASE.TH E T E R R I TORY A N D R E P E RTORY OF NORMA LITY. AND CON F R O N T TH E M . WE U N D ERTOOK T O DETE R M I N E HOW TIONS SO THAT WE M IGHT D I SCOVER J U ST WHAT OU R LIVING BODY IS. ITS R U LES MAXIMUM WE W A N T TO F R E E . THE R E IS I NTE RACTION POLITICS F U N D A M ENTAL WISH TO BE "ALIVE. UNDER AND HOW THEY OF WERE TO GET R I D OF PROG R A M M ED TRA I N I NG. THI S IS HOW SOME OF U S H A V E COM E TO FEEL THE VITAL NEED TO FREE O U R S E LV E S "TOG E TH E R " DOWN T H I S OFFICI A L SEXUALITY AS O N E WOULD B R E A K DOWN TH E CONDITION OF ONE'S I M PR I SON­ MENT W I TH I N ANY STR UCTU RE. I NTIMATE LIFE E X P E R IENCES TH E M . WHAT WE WANT. PASSIONS C R U S H E D BY P R OG R A M E D SOC I A L PROFITABI LITY. WE STRIVE TO ELUCI DATE IN COMMON THE TH E M A N AG E R S OF "ADVANC E D" CAPITALISM DO MECHANISM B E H I N D ATT R A C T I O N . S POK E N FROM UN­ B E I NG "LIBERA LIZED" S E X U A L MORES AND THE EXTENTION OF " E ROTI C I S M " T H R O U G H A D V E R T I S I NG TO A L L SOCI A L L I F E STRUCTU R E D A N D CONTROLLED BY SPOK E N . BOU RGEOI S. D E STROY IT. U N I V E RSE OF O U R R E P R E S E NTATIONS. B R E A K DOWN TH E CONCRETE WALL THAT S E RVES TH E DOM I N A N T SOC I A L O R D E R BY S E PA R ATI NG FROM APPEARANCE. WE S T R I V E TO "SEXUALITY" IS J U ST A S MONSTROUS IN WHAT IT "PERMITS" AS IN WHAT IT RESTRI CTS. O U R LIVES AS R E F LECTED THROUGH OUR DESIRES WERE ENTI R E LY CONTROLLED BY T H E BASIC LAWS OF O U R B U R E A UC R ATIC. PRI VATE F R O M S OC I A L. TH E SAME RESTRICTIONS A PPLY. PHOBIAS. TO G ET RIO OF IT BECAUSE F I N A L A N A LYSIS IT FU NCTIONS AS AN I N F I N ITELY R E PEATI N G CASTRATION MAC H I N E DESIGNED TO W E STR I V E TO TA K E O U R PERSONAL. COM PLEMENT OF PLEASU R E . THE SA M E F R A G M E N TATION O F T H E BODY A S SOU RC E O F D E S I R E CONTI N U E S U N A BATED. WHAT WE DESIRE IS TO K I C K IN THE FACADE OVER S E X U A LITY A N D ITS R E P R E S E NTA­ IN O R D E R TO E X PLORE M UTUA LLY OUR I N DI V I D U A L H I STOR I ES. SUBWAYS. TO M AKE R E P U LS I O N . WE W A N T TO I N THE FROM THE G R I P OF THE FORCES T H A T OPPRESS AND R E PRESS O U R D E S I R E S . T H E S E REALM OF P R A CTIC E S FACT EXTEND TH E A N D "LACK" THAT F R U ST R A T I O N FACI LITATES T H E T R A N S FO R M ATION OF D E S I R E I N TO A COMPULSI V E CON S U M E R I S M A N D GUARAN­ TEES "TH E C REATION OF DEMAND. RATH E R THAN R E D UCE IN SEXUAL DISCON­ R E S I STANCE. OBSESSIONS. SCHOOLS. EXPLORE R E PRODUCE E V E RYWH E R E AND I N EVERYON E THE U NQU ESTIO N I N G OBEDI ENCE OF A SLAVE. CONFESSIONALS. TO D E STROY SEXUA LITY. WE C O N SC R I PT I V E AND CONTI N U A LLY CONFO R M TO THE STEREOTYPES OF AN OFFICIAL S E X U A LITY THAT CONTROLS EVERY SYSTEM . OUR MESSAGE. HOWEVER "FREE" THEY MAY HAVE A PP E A R E D TO U S . U N FETT E R AND R E LI EVE TH I S LIVING BODY S O A S TO F R E E A LL OF ITS E N E RGI ES. SEXUAL OR AFFECTIVE I N VOLV E M ENT WHATSOEVER-TH E SAME K I N O OF CONTROL IT EXERCISES OVE R A N Y R E A L SOCI A L ACTI ON T H A T PRODUCES OR R E P RODUCES FOR M S O F OPPRESSION. DISCOS. SEX SHOPS. CLEA R LY. WE CONFRONTED OUR INDIVIDUAL "E X P E R I E NCES" B Y R ECOGNIZING THAT. OUR POL I T I C A L T I M E-BOM B S OC I A L SINCE I N TH E R E A L M O F E X H I B I TS A TE NT. S E X U A L EXPE R I E N C E FROM T H E CONJ UGAL BED TO THE B O R D E L LO TO SAY NOTH I N G OF P U B LI C W E W A N T T O B E A B L E T O EXERCISE E A C H O F O U R VITAL FU NCTIONS EXPERI ENCING TH E I R FULL TOI L ETS. PRISONS. S U R PLUS V A L U E AND R E PRODUCE­ A B I L I TY . FACTO R I E S . ORGASM. AND J U D EO­ C H R I ST I A N SUBSUMED SOC I E T Y .

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WE TO L I B E RATE E N E R G I E S BODY. WITHOUT S H A M E." ASSA U LT E D BY T H E C A P I TA L I ST ESTA B L I S H M E NrS OPINION OF THE SPH I NCTER. EXPRESSING FINDING O U R S E LV E S . P R I N C I PLES: T H E POWE R L I N E S O F EXPLOITATION. WALK I NG. S P E A K I N G . GRATIFICATIONS. IN OUR RAVING. SURE IN PRODU C I N G PLEASURE A N D IN CREATING­ PLE A S U R E THAT H A S BEEN RUTH LESSLY STRA I GHT­ JACKETED C H A RG E BY THE E D UCATIONAL SYSTEM IN OF PRODUCI NG W O R K E R S-COM M A N D WE HAVE BEGUN AND SHALL CONTI N U E TO CON S U M E RS. DOGS. THIS IS THE O N LY A PPROACH THAT CAN TRULY STRE NGTH E N U S AGA I N ST A SYSTEM O F DOM I NA ­ TION THAT CONTI N U A LLY EXPANDS ITS POWERS O F "WE A K E N I NG" A N D " M O L D I NG" T H E ITS AXIOMS. M A S T E R A N D S L A V E . OF COURSE. N O T BECA USE OF NEED OR COM P E N SATION. H U M M I NG . WITH THE HAVE BEGUN WITH T H E THE R E VO L U T I O N A R Y BODY. IT I N SC R I B E S D I R ECTLY U PO N T H I S F L E S H ITS F U N D A M E NT A L W E WANT TO B E RID O F A L L ROLES AND I DENTITI E S B A S E D ON T H E P H A L L U S . G R E A T E R A N D LESSER. WE S E E K TO R I P O U T OF OURSELVES THE FESTERING R U MOR O F GUI LT THAT F O R THOUSANDS OF YEARS H A S B E E N AT T H E ROOT O F A L L OPPRESSION. BUT J UST FOR THE OF S H A K I N G O U R S E LVES. WE REALIZE HOW MANY OBSTAC LES WE HAVE INTO TO OVERCOM E TO MAKE O U R ASPI RATIONS SOM ETH I NG MORE T H A N THE DREAMS OF A G U Y H OC K E N G H E M TRANSLATED BY T O M GORA 264 . WE HAVE R E U N ITED "POLITIC A L" E N E RG I E S . CONSEQU ENTLY. BODY IN S I NG I N G ­ A L L WAYS PLEA­ A U TO N O M O U S . A FFECTIVE A N D ECSTATIC R E LATION S H I PS IS I N S E P A R A B LY LINKED MALE TO LIBERATING WOM E N D I G E S T I N G THAT H A S B E E N I NT E R R U PTED BY T H E RH YTH M OF PROFITA B I LITY A N D T H E ERSATZ FOOD I T PRODUCES: O R T H E PLEA S U R E I N S H I TTI NG AND P E D E R A S TY T H A T H A S B E E N SYSTE M A T I C A L L Y AND DESTROYING DOM I N A N C E A N D R O L E M OD E LS .D A Y R E A LITY WON'T TURN I NTO THE SLOW AGO N Y THAT C A P I TA L I S M AND B U R E A UC R A C Y TH E VARIOUS MODES O F L I B E RATION. THE N E U ROSI S OF ACC U M U LATION. POS S I BLE. THE PLEASURES WE OF SHEER WANT PLE A S U R E TO POSSESSED. TO A R RANGE D E S I R E S TO PRACTICE WITH T H E R E A LITY O F THE BODY A N D ITS FU NCTIONS BY COLLECTIVELY I N VESTIGATING ALL THAT EACH IS F R E E TO PLAY OUT ITS FANTA S I E S A N ECSTASI ES. T H E MYSTIQUE OF PROPERTY R E D I SCOVER AND PROPRI ETY. S E X U A L . TO A NO T H E R C I R C U LATE BODY: TO TRANSM I T V I BRATIONS. I T I S L I K E W I S E L I N K E D T O D E STROY I NG A L L FOR M S O F O P P R E S S I O N A N D " N O R M A LITY. WE A R E K E E N L Y AWA R E T H A T L I B E R A T I N G T H E BODY F O R S E N S U A L. A F F I L I ATING HIM TO I N D I V I D U A L TO ITS ORDER OF PROJ ECT AS A M O D E L Exi sTE N C E . W E WANT TO B E R I D O F T H E CATEGO R I E S O F M A N A N D WOM A N . TO AND THE E FFECTI V E SPACE OF ALL OPPRESSION. MOV I N G .E S P E C I A LLY S E X U A L ROLE MODELS. GAY AND S T R A I G H T. MOBI LE AND M U LT I P L E HUMAN R E D I SC O V E R V I B RATI NG. AND T E N D E R E M OTIONS WITHOUT R E F E R R I N G B A C K T O T A B L E S OF S U R PLUS V A L U E O R PO W E R STRUCTU R E S T H A T A RE N'T A LREADY I N T H E R U L E S OF THE GAME. WE W A N T I N ST E A D T O BE TRANSSEXUAL. ETC. WANT TO REDI SCOVER T H E C I E S . BEINGS WITH VARYING DIFFERENCES W H O CAN ECSTA­ PLEA S U R E WE INTERCHANGE D E S I R E S . PROD U C E A N E W S OC I ETAL R E A LITY I N W H I C H T H E G R E ATEST ECSTACY C O M B I N E S W I T H T H E G R EAT­ EST CONSC I O U S N E S S . S O T H A T WE M i G H T LiVE WiTHOUT G U I LT A N D W I THOUT I N H I B I TI NG A L L T H E S E N S U A L INTRA­ AND I NTERPERSONAL PRACTI C E S WE NEED SO OUR DAY-TO. POS S E S S O R AND S E L V E S JOYOU SLY. WE WANT TO THE PLEASURE IN S H A K I NG OUR­ W E WANT TO B E R I D OF S E X U A L SEGR EGATI O N .SMOTH E R E D BY THE FORCES O F OPPRESSION A N D POL L U T I O N : OR THE P L EA S U R E IN E A T I NG A N D SMALL AND M A R G I N A L M I NORITY . PRODUCTI V E SPACE O F "SUBVERSIVE" STRE NGTH WE S E E K TO OPEN O U R BODY TO OTH E R BODI ES. T H I S I S O U R O N LY C H A N C E TO F I G H T A GA I N ST THE OPPRESSIVE C A P I T A L I ST STATE WHERE IT WORKS D I R ECTLY.

I N C U R R I N G C E N S U R E A N D R E PRESSION. ETC. I N STEAD OF A MOUTH AND AN ANUS TO GET OUT OF ORDER WHY NOT HAVE O N E ALL·PU R POSE HOLE TO TION. W ITHOUT D E E P. N E R V E S . A LMOST WITHOUT LUNGS. I T H A S ITSELF S U S PE N D E D TO STOP T H E ORGANS ORGA N S E R ED. IT H A S ITSELF SEWN U P B Y ITS SADIST O R ITS W H O R E -T H E EYES. C H EST. BODY AND SOCI US. STOOD IN T E R M S O F PA I N . R ESTO R E D THERE ACTIVE IS D E STROY E D C A R RYI NG . " IT I S NOT J UST R A D I OPHONIC SWALLOW PART O F H I S O W N LARYN X WITH H I S FOOD.HOW TO M A K E YOU RSELF A BODY WITHOUT ORGA N S OESOP H A G U S . W I T H A TORN EVERYT H I N G I S S E A L E D TIGHT. BUT DIVI N E WHAT THE M I R A C LE S HAD BEEN BODY. M A K E AN A I R HOLE D I R ECT I NTO T H E LUNGS W H E R E I T SHOULD H A V E B E E N I N T H E F I R ST PLAC E . ( " RAYS") A LW A Y S . ALL SHE HAS L E FT IS THE SKIN AND BONES O F T H E DISORGANIZED WORDS2 T H E R E 80DY: IS THE THESE ARE HER VERY WHOSE C OQ U E TT I S H L Y 8 U TTO N S WITH FO U R PA R A N O I D BODY. HOLES. YOU W I LL NOT B E A L LOWE D TO E X P E R I M ENT I N PEACE. S H A TT E R E D W I TH O U T R I BS. AN E X PE R I M E NT A T I O N BUT A L S O B I O LOG I C A L A N D S C H I ZO ON POLITICAL. ' "FOR YOU C A N T I E M E U P I F YOU W I S H . THE ANUS. T H E U R ETH R A . T H E BWO: I T I S A LR E A D Y O N T H E W A Y A S SOON A S T H E BODY H A S H A D E N O U G H OF T H E O R G A N S A N D WA NTS T O P U T T H E M A S I D E . . TH E R E I S TH E D R U G G E D BODY. . S M OT H · IN THE M OUTH SO THAT D EFECATED I NTESTI N E S . 1 947 ARTA U D DECLARES WAR ON THE ORGANS: TO HAVE DONE WITH THE USED SOMETI MES J U DG E M E N T O F GOD. POLITICS AND E X P E R I M E NTA· I NT E R N A L STRUGGLE AGA I N ST THE ORGA NS. . HE A BLADDER. . FROM WERE FU NCTI O N I NG. ITS A LONG P R OC E S S I O N : T H E H Y PO C H O N D R I A C BODY EAT AND E L I M I N ATE? W E COULD SEAL U P NOSE A N D MOUTH. E V E N A T THE COST OF CATATO N I A . F I LL I N TH E STO M ACH. AND WITH TO O N NOV E M B E R 2 8 . :. 2 C1 !5 .3 ) .4 A N D T H E R E I S T H E M A S OC H I STIC BODY WHICH C A N NOT BE U N D E R· WHOSE ORGANS H A V E B E E N DESTROYED: ONCE T H E D E S T R UCTION I S ACCOM P LI S H E D NOTH I N G E L S E H A PP E N S -"M I S S X C L A I M S THAT S H E H A S LOST H E R B R A I N . THE B R E A ST S . S TO M A C H AND BOWELS. O R LOSE S T H E M . BUT TH E R E I S NOTH I N G M O R E U S E LESS THAN AN ORG A N . SKIN FLAY E D A S IF THE ORGA N S A R E A TTA C K E D BY OUTS I D E FORC E S AND R E STOR E D TO OUTS I D E E N E R G I E S ("HE LIVED FOR A LONG TI M E WITHOUT A STOM A C H . T H E EXPE R I M ENTAL SC H I ZO: ''THE H U M A N BODY I S SCA N DALOUSLY I N E FF I C I ENT. FOR W H AT IS I N VOLVED I S PRIMA R I LY T H E BWO. SODO M I Z E D . ADDING TH E NOSE SEWN U P.

T H E S Y S T E M OF T H E J U D G M E N T OF GOD. VITRIFIED. BOTH HAVE NOTH I N G BUT A BODY WITHOUT O RG A N S A N D T H E V I B R A T I O N S T H A T COM E OFF I T P I TY F O R W HOEV E R S I G N S H I M S E L F C A E S A R THE C RU C I F I E D F O R Y O U C A N NOT T R U S T H I M S I N C E H E DI DN'T E V E R C A L L H I M S E L F H E LIOGA B A L U S A N D S P I NOZA. OF F I LL I N G YOU R S E L F U P. S E D I M E N TATI O N S . SAME H E L I OG A B A L U S AND P E YOTE THE FO R M U LA : A N ARCHY AND U N ITY ONE A N D THE S A M E T H I N G . O F S E D I M E NTATION I M POSES FO R M S A N D F U NCTIONS O N IT. ECSTA S Y . P E Y OT E . WHY ARE THEY NECESSARY? D E P R ESSING E X A M P LES FOR A C H E E R F U L H E A RT. I F O N E S T A Y S AT THE L E V E L O F T H E O R G A N S -"TH E L I V E R THAT M A K E S T H E S K I N YELLOW. B EC A U S E BECAUSE HE H E C A N NOT BEAR T H E BWO. WHICH TION M A K E U P A N ORG A N I S M . T H E MAD PH I LO­ W A G E S H I S WA R A G A I NST T H E O R G A N S . THE ENEMY IS THE C A TATON I Z E D . ESS E N C E S . THAT G L AC I A L R E A LITY ON WHICH T H E S E A L L U V IO N S ." A N D I F O N E REMAINS T R A P P E D W I T H I N T H E ORG A N I S M W H I C H O R G A N I SM I S NOT T H E BODY A T A L L. T H E O RG A N I S M I S A L R E A DY P R E C I S E L Y T H A T. (SECRET SONG OF T H E YOUNG ROSIC R U C I A N S) WE G R A D U A LLY R E A LIZE THAT T H E BWO IS NOT T H E OPPOSITE O F T H E O R G A N S AT A LL . THE J UDGMENT OF GOD. B U T T H E O R G A N IZATION O F T H E O R G A N S THAT WE CALL THE ORG A N I S M . S I N C E T H E SUBJECT B E LONGS T O A STRATUM A N D D E P E N DS O N I T N O LESS T H A N T H E ORGA N I S M ? WE NOW A N S W E R : I T I S THE BWO. TO THIS D I F F I C U LT Y O F ATT A I N I N G T H I S W O R L D O F PRECEDENCE CROW N E D A N A RC H Y. ORGANISMS ARE E N E M I E S OF THE BODY · THE BWO I SN'T OPPO SE D TO T H E O RG A N S .A N D A S I G N I FICA­ AND A S U B J E C T -OC C U R . BUT WHO I S T H I S W E . E L E M E NTS. WHICH W E C A L L AN ORGA N I S M . T H E O RG A N I S M . S U BSTA N C E S . A S P I R AT E D BODI ES. " B I N D M E I F YOU W I LL. PLiCATIONS A N D C O M P R E S S I O N S COAGULATIONS. I N T E N SITI ES. TRA NSV ESTITE PANTHE. I N F I N I T E Z E RO. T H E ONE H I D I N G B E H I N D THE TERRIFYING P H I LOSOP H E R . WHICH OF COA G U LA­ BLOC KS T H E F L O W S A N D HOLDS U S I N O U R WORLD HERE. TO G I V E DREADFUL T H I NG. DOS E . I S P R EC I S E LY THE O P E R A T I O N S O F HE WHO M A K E S A N ORG A N I S M . I NTESTI N E W H I C H E X P E LS E XC R E MENT. O R M O D A L I T I E S . I T I S OPPOS E D TO THE ORGA N I S M . TH E J U DG · SOPH E R . OF A CC U M U LATION. M A SO . BUT A DEE PER U N ITY. MODO N AT U R. OR RE PRODUCTIONS: R E M I SSIONS. NOT AT A LL T H E OF TH E ONE. P L A N E OF C O N S I S ­ AS M E N T OF G O D . FORCES. I F T H E B W O I S A LSO F U L L O F G A I E T Y . YOU H A V E B E E N D E F EA T E D IN A G R EAT BATTLE. R E LATIONS A N D H I E R A R C H I ­ CAL AND DOM I N A N T ORGA N I ZATIONS. PRODUCTIONS THE WAYS OF B E I NG. BUT WHAT HE HAS R E A LLY HAD IT W I T H AND R E A LLY R E S E NTS IS T H E ORG A N I S M . W H I C H I S TO SAY A P H E N O M E NO N TION. O R G A N I S M IT N EV E R IS. A L O N E I T STA NDS. THE OTH E R H I DI N G U N DER THE G U I S E OF THE C H A STE L E N S G R I N D E R . T H E BWO DOE S N'T OPPOSE TH E O RG A N S . BUT WITH ITS "LEG I T I M ATE ORGANS" WHICH A R E TO BE C O M PO S E D A N D SET. AN O R G A N IZATION O F THE ORGANS. R E R E A D I NG H E L IO G A B A L U S A N D THE TARAH U M A RAS (FOR H E LIOG A B A L U S IS S P I NOZ A : SPI NOZA ORGA N I S M . W H I C H I S N O T M E ." UN ITY P R E C I S E L Y W H A T T H E TWO BOOKS O F ARTA U D S A Y : F U S I B I L I TY AS TENCY. I M MANENT RULE EXPE R I M E NTAT I O N : I N J ECTIONS O F P R U D E N C E . S A DO." W E N E V E R STOP B E I N G STRATI F I E D .). A N D I N N E E D OF N O ORGA NS. IT'S W I TH I N I T THAT THE O R G A N S ARE C O M PO S E D I NTO W H A T W E C A L L A N O RG A N I S M . HAVE ARE SPI NOZA. TRANSCEN­ H E L I OG A B A L U S A N D S P I NOZA A R E O N E A N D TH E SA M E T H I N G LONG L I V E THE ROSE H E L I OG A B A L U S AND S P I NOZA M A K E THE S A M E CHOICE LONG L I V E T H E C ROSS TH E C H A STE P H I LO SO P H E R W I THOUT N E E D A N D T H E C R U E L E M P E R O R W H I C H S H ITS ALL OV E R H A V E THE S A M E S E N S E O F T H E C I TY PUTT I N G A N A RC H Y IN U N ITY AND TH E O N E I N ANARCHY M U LTI PLICITY HOMO. T H E T H EOLOG I C A L SYSTEM. E M PT I E D BOD I E S I N STEAD OF F U L L O N E S . T H E BWO H O W L S : ''T H E Y'VE M A D E M E A N ORGA N I S M ! T H E Y H A V E B R O K E N M E U N D U LY'" 266 . TAKE THEIR WHICH OOCTOR S THE PROFIT AND POW E R FROM. V I BRATIONS. YOU HAVE DE PLETED YOU R S E L V E S INSTEAD SHOWN W I SDOM.WHY TH I S DREARY ARRAY OF SEWN. NOT T H E BWO BUT A STRA T U M ON T H E BWO. R I P S IT O P E N . IT IS TRUE THAT A R TA U D H EL I OG A B A L U S R E V I V E D . I T S E N E M I E S ARE NOT THE ORGANS. F R I S K Y DANC I NG ? WHY THESE E X A M P LES THEY ARE THEN. T H E BODY IS THE B O D Y . HAVE YOU NOT OF ENOUGH AS PRUDENCE? AS THE PRUDENCE. N U M B E RS : AND FINALLY H OU N DS IT. THIS IS WHAT E N D U R E S : T H E J U DG M E N T O F GOD W H I C H W E I G H S A N D E X E R C I S E S ITS W I L L ON IT. THE B R E AT H S . THE BRAIN B E S I EG E D BY SYPH I L I S . A N D A VOYAGE TO THE LA N D OF T H E TA RA H U M ARAS I S EXP E R I M E NTA TION. E U N U C H . T O T H E ORGA N I C O R G A N IZATION OF ORGANS. THE MATT E R W I T H O U T G O D S : P R I N C I PLES.I S U B STANTI A L I ST D E N C I E S ORGANIZED FOR THE P U R POSE O F U S E F U L WOR K .

D O E S N 'T KNOW FOR AT T H E BWO. THESE A R E THE F A N TA S I E S W H I C H I. T H R E AT. DEATH DOM I N A N T R E A LITY TO B E COM E A N O M A D I N T H E M A S K E D O N E .E X PE R I M E NT A L V I R T U E . ORG A N I S M SO THAT I T C A N R E C O NSTITUTE I T S E L F AT E A C H N E W D A W N . TH E H A L L U C I NATORY. A N D TO K E E P A S M A L L S U P P L Y E X P E R I M E NTATION. A R R A N G E M E NT . T H E U N ­ P R E PA R E D . FOR I T T A K E S M A N Y S T R A T A . I T KNOWS J U S T HOW FA R ITS BEING EXTENDS. W H I C H FREES T H E BWO. THE O B J ECT OF A P R O D U C TI O N ­ J U D G M E N T O F GOD. NAIL US TO A DOM I N A N T BECA U S E STRAT U M B E H I N D T H E FIRST ONE. " 7 W H A T ? I T M IG H T B E SOM ETH I N G E LS E . C I R C U ITS. HOW F A R I T H A S N'T G O N E YET OR H A SN'T T H E RIGHT TO GO WITHOUT F A L L I N G I NTO D A N G E R O U S TH A N A N I N TE N S I TY. ACID U N R E A L I TY SOON ONE LEAVES DON'T GO AT I T W I TH A H A M M E R BUT WITH A V E R Y FINE FILE. O N E STRATUM E MBEDDED I N A NOTH E R . S E N SA T I O N S . A LCOHOLIC A LSO D A N C E S O N T H E EDGE O F FALSEHOOD. S I G N I F I C A N C E A N D s U B J ECTI­ VATION. THE I L LUSORY. T E R R ITOR I E S A N D M E A S U R E D DETE R RI TOR I A LIZATIONS R EM I N I SC E NT OF K A FKA'S S U R V EYOR. TO MAKE UP THE R E A LITY? TEAR T H E C O N SC I O U S N E S S MEANS OF FROM THE S U BJ ECT T O M A K E I T A E X P L O R A TI O N . U N REALITY. T H E POWE R O R POT E N T I A LITY O F T H E BWO. B U T T O O P E N T H E BODY TO C O N N ECTI O N S WHICH P R E S U PPOSE A WHOLE THEREFORE F E E L I NG S DANGE M . K N OW S THOUG HTS A CC E PT. SOMETH I N G A W AITS US. N O O N E C O N SC I O U S N E S S . T H E R E'S A NOTH E R T H I N G : DON'T TH I N K THAT U N DO I N G T H E O RG A N I S M ANY MORE IS PARTICULARLY U N DO I N G I M M A N E NCE MAKES O RG A N I S M . T I M E. . AS A R E S U LT IT OSC I L LATES BETWEEN TWO POLES. HAVE C A N SAY "I A M A M A SOCH I ST:' N O O N E C A N S A Y "I A M A HOMOS E X U A L:' N O O N E C A N S A Y "I A M A D R U G A DDICT. LOOK I N TO YOU R C H I LD HOOD) W E SAY: Y O U D O N . A BOVE ALL. DON'T G E T THE RID OF THEM IS SO IT CONSIST EN C Y IN W H I C H I T U N FOLDS AND OPENS ITSELF TO E X PE R I M E NTATI O N . T H E D I F F I C U LT. TEAR T H E UNCONSCIOUS F R O M S I G N I FI C A N C E A N D I NTERPRETATION TO M A K E A T R U E PROD UCTI ON OUT OF IT. BIND IT O R PRODUC E TH E U NCONSCIO US!-TH l s I S C E RTA I N LY NO MORE N O LESS D I F F I C U LT T H A N T E A R I N G T H E BODY F R O M TH E ORGAN I S M . A N D NOT J U ST OF THE O RG A N I S M . SEARCH TH E 267 . K NOW W H A T Y O U A R E A N D YO U'LL O N LY KNOW BY E X P E R I M E N T I N G . YES. IT'S AND S U B J EC T-HOW POSSI B L E TO U N H I NG E TH E POINTS O F S U B J ECTI­ VATION WHICH FIX US. A N D W H I C H A LSO R E L E A S E S A D V E NTU ROUS S E N SATI ONS S H A M E LE S S AND PERC E PTIONS. WHAT COULD BE MORE F R E E DO M . NO. RUNS T H R O UGHOUT AND U N DOES A L L T H E STRATA AND T H E S U R FACES OF STRATI FICATIONS WHICH BLOCK IT. R E S ENT­ M EN T A N D GLUTTO N Y ALL TOGETH E R . WHICH INJU RIOUS DISTR I B UTIONS O F I NT E N S I T I ES. O N E TH E R E IS NO M A S OC H I ST. BUT SOM ETH I NG T H E O PPOSITE O F M I ST R U ST. . T H E U N. B U T A LSO W H A T COULD B E M O R E A MO R O U S ? M A K E P R U D E NC E T H E POLITIC A L. A N D W H I C H IS THE V E R Y M YSTERY O F A L L POETRY. B U T TH E R E I S A N OTH E R L E V E L I N T H E HUMAN WHERE WHICH BEI NG. SELF D E ST R U C T I O N . I F ONE IS NEVER THERE THROUGH IS A LW A Y S ATTA I N I NG A N OTH E R IT. O N LY I C A N K NOW I F I A M D R U N K. T H E I LL USORY. VOYAGE. P E R FECT TIONS. A S U BJ ECT.THE J U DG M E N T AND OF GOD TEARS IT AN IT FROM ITS A AND TH E N . I F YOU A R E C A PA B L E O F IT. FOR M L ESS ENTERED ONE. O N E CA N'T TELL I N ADVANCE. YOU EITH ER. TOO. ONE ONE D O E S N 'T EVEN K NO W I N IT IS NECESSARY TO R ETA I N E NO U G H OF TH E R ETROSPECT. A R TA U D C A R E F U LLY M EA S U R E S A N D WE IGHS H I S WO RDS: C O N SC I O U S N E S S " K N O W S W H A T IS GOOD FOR IT IT AND WHAT DOES WHAT IT HARM: AND AND I N ST I NCT. SA I D T H E CON S U L. T O U N DO TH E ORGA N I S M H A S N E V E R M E A N T T O K I LL YOU R S ELF. AS A LCOHOL. BUT FALSE PERCEPTIONS. P R U D E N C E I S T H E A RT COMMON TO A L L T H R E E : A N D I F IT H A PP E N S T H A T ONE BRUSHES A GA I N ST DEATH IN U N DO I N G THE ORG A N I S M .M A D E . C O N J U NC­ PASSAGES A N D I T CAN AND PROFITABLY ARE WITHOUT TO ITS TIERS A N D T H RE SHOLDS. T H E R E I S A P E R PETU A L A N D VIOLENT STR I F E B E TW E E N T H E PLA N E O F CONSIS­ TENCY. FOLD IT B A C K . LET EVERYONE I N V E NT HIS OWN P R U D E NC E . A FFECT T H E SICK HAD FA L S E HAVE M ENTATION. PSYC H I C D EATH BY AVOI DING ARE M EA N I N G AND BWO WHICH DOE S N 'T CONFRONT THIS PROBLEM A N D TH E R E I S N O G E N E R A L SOLUTION. A G A I NST THE BASE A S S E RTIONS O F PSYCHOA N A LY S I S (TO C O N SC I O U S N E S S SU RROUNDS OR A IT H A SN'T AN LIKE U N E L U C I DA T E D ON TH E EXTENSION. S IG N I FI C A N C E AND I NT E R P R ETATION AS S U R FACES O F STRATI FICATI O N U PON W H I C H I T FALLS BACK AND YIELDS TO J U D G M E N T AND THE PLANE OF CLOSE C L I N G T O T H E S O U L A S TH E O R G A N I S M D O E S T O THE E A S I LY BODY. AND B E L I E V E D I N TH E M . YOU I NT E R P R E T A T I O N GUA RDS A G A I N ST AS WHICH STRA N G E AND ONE SAFE­ RISKS THE M ADNESS." SOM E O N E . AN OBSCU R E . D RU GG E D. A N D IF THE BWO IS A L I M IT. I T IS T H E STRATI F I E D . S I G N I FICATION. G E N TL E EXPERI­ CASE. T H E V I R T U E O F LOV I NG. D I F F I C U LT T H A N TH E OTH E R STRATA. L I F E O R D E A T H : AN OEDIPAL G R E E D-WH ETH E R OR CRACKS OF ONE THE A B SO R B S W H I P. A PLA N E W H IC H N O R M A L CONSCIOUS­ N ESS NEVER ATTA I N S B U T WHICH C I G U R I A LLOWS U S TO R E A C H . DEPENDING FIND YOU R S E LF.

O N LY THEN D O E S THE BWO R E V E A L ITSELF FOR WHAT IT I S . AND ONE M UST KEEP SMALL RATIONS OF TO DO SITUATE YOURSELF S U B J ECTIVITY O N ONE'S DON K E Y MASK I N O R D E R TO BE A B L E TO COPE WITH THE DOM I N A N T R E A LITY. " H E A LTH". O N E D O E S N 'T ATTA I N TH E BWO AND ITS PLANE OF T H E M . B R E A K U P T H E STRATA WITHOUT P R U D E N C E . I N E V E R Y FACTORY. YOU WILL HAVE PROLIFERATE.) THE S A M E M U LT I P L E HORROR IS I N VOLVED IN S TA Y I NG S T R A T I F I E D . F I RST OF ALL. H A V I N G PRODUCED IT SOMEWHAT. THAT PASS THROUGH TO BWO. SEC U R E C E RTA I N CON N ECTIONS O F FLOWS H E R E AND T H E R E . BWOS. W H E N W H I C H FALL BACK DOWN O N YOU A L L THE H A R D E R ­ HOSPITAL HAVE OR C E M ET E R Y . H O W I T I S STRATI F I E D FOR US. T H E EXQUISITE POLITE NESS OF H OLDER L I N . C H I LE : WE HAVE THE MOST D EMO· 268 . TRY OUT CONTI N U A O F I N T E N S I · T I E S LITTLE BY LITTLE. W H O H E FELT G A V E H E R S E LF O V E R T O H E R FANTA S I E S TOO E A S I LY. I T S OWN "ORGAN I S M". E X P E R I M E N T WITH T H E OPPOR· T U N I T I E S I T OFFERS YOU. A L W A Y S BE POL I T E . THE ORG A N I S M A N D ITS DOCTORS. EVEN TO FORC E -O R E L S E Y O U D I S I NTEG RATE I N A S U I C I D A L OR MAD B R E A K DOWN A N D D I S R U PT T H E STRATA OPPOSE T H E M TO T H E I R OWN SYSTEM.OF M E A N I NG AND I N T E R P R ETATION. CONTI N U E. E I TH E R W I T H I N TH E M S E LV E S OR WITHOUT. (TH E R E PLAN. T H E R E A R E I N FACT M A N Y WAYS TO M I S S THE BWO. CANCEROUS B U R G EO N I N G M O N E Y . NOTH I NG D O N 'T H A PP E N S UP OR ON GET I T-TH E INTENSITIES THIS ON S U B J ECTIVATION: O R I E NT IT. PATIENTLY AND T E M PORA R I LY U N DO T H I S ORG A N I · ZATION OF THE THEY O RG A N S HAD WHICH WE C A LL IN THE AN ONE MANAGES FOR IN A RELEASE CONN ECT. S W I R L I NG. E I T H E R O N E DOESN'T M A N A G E TO TH E R E IS A BWO O F C A PI T A L I S M . E V E R Y SCHOOL. EXPERIENCE C E R E M O N I O U S . G I V E ME BACK SOM E M OO R I N GS!) S I N C E T H E Y D I D N 'T K NOW HOW TO P A Y O U T TH E I R NOM A D I C D E P E R S O N A L I ZATION. B U T A LSO T H E BWO OF T H E STATE W H I C H EITH E R F I N DS O R DO E S N 'T F I N D ITS REGU LATION I N INTERMEDIARY BO D I E S . KEEP CAPITALISM IT STRATI F I E D C I R C U LA T E: B LOC K E D . A BSORBS E V E RYTH I NG I N ITS T U M O R . IN US IN THE VERY PLACE WHERE WE ARE: R U N N I NG A I M LE S S L Y O R . SAID IS NOTH I N G BUT THE THE M I LITARY MAN R ELATION O F V I O L E N C E A N D R I V A L R Y A S W E L L A S ALLIANCES FO R M A T I O N S . W E C A N S A Y THAT EACH A N D E V E R Y ONE HAS ITS BWO TO R E A DY COV E R SOC I A L TO AND FI ELD. CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S . I N A DODD E R I N G S T U PO R ( FO R NOTHI N G N E S S IS STI L L T H E S U P R E M E S I G N I F I E R . TOTA L I T Y OF THE IN THE ENTERI N G M I S S E D T H E P L A N E . T H I S I S E V E N T H E R E ASON W H Y W E ENCO U N T E R T H E P A R A DO X BOD I E S OF THE L UG U B R IO U S THEY AND HAD E M PT I E D E M PTI E D OF RELATION. ITS C A N C E RO U S C EL L S PROLI F E R A T I N G E V E R Y · ­ W H E R E . EVERY H O U S E H OLD. CORRODE. J U ST A S S I L E N C E I S T H E G R E A TEST VACANT I N T E R P R ETATIONI I N STEAD O F R E P LACI NG T H E M B Y THE C I RC U MSTA NTI A L A RT O F AN E X P E R I M E NTA L POS I T I V I S M : T H E Y H A D LOST R E LATE T H E STRATA T O THE DE E P E R COLLECTIV E M AC H I N I C S E T· U P IN WHICH WE ARE TRAPPED: OVERT U R N T H E SET· U P V E R Y GE NTLY. TH E AND C O M PLI C I T I E S WITH AND OTH E R THEIR K L E I ST T O H I S YOU N G E R SI STER U L R I K E. PEOPLE. S U B J ECT T O S I G N I FICANCE. WHICH T H E Y TH E N SOUGH T FOR ALL T H E H A R D E R AND MORE D E S P E RATELY ( FOR P ITY'S S A K E . IS TH I S : W H A T YOU ACT U A L L Y ON A T H I NGS. H A LF D E A D A M ONG T H E S Y M BOLS OF POWE R A N D T H E I C O N S O F F U R N I S H BWOS. POS S I B L E M O M E NTS OF DETE R R I TO R I A LlZA· TION AND LINES OF RECEDENCE. CONJ U N CTION O F FLOWS. YOU WILL H AVE K ILLED Y O U R S E L F. S I G N I F I · C A N C E A N D I T S PSYCHOA N A LYST. INVADE TO RELEASE IT TH ROUGH TOO VIOLENT A G E STU R E . B R I NG I T I N TOU C H W I T H T H E PLACE OF C O N S I STENCY O N T H E OTH E R S I DE OF T H E S T R A T A . SCH IZO-POLITE SSE. I N SHORT. E V E N SITUATIONS FORC E Y O U TO IT. AND COMBINE. ACCOR D I N G TO A M E TI C U LOUS R E L ATION W I TH T H E STRATA T H A T O N E SUCCEEDS IN OPE N I N G UP C H A N N E LS OF OF R EC E D E N C E FLOWS AND M A K I NG AND AT THE BEGI N N I NG : TH E I R THEMSELVES LOO K I N G OF ORGANS I N ST E A D FO R T H E MOMENTS W H E N T H E Y COULD COM B I N AT I O N S ESCAPE. OR. B E POLITE. BE C ERTA I N STRATUM. A BWO O F THE A R M Y T A K E S O V E R T H E S T A T E . CONTI N U O U S I NT E N S I T I E S ORG A N I S M : F A L L E N . ALWAYS K E E P I N G A S M A L L P I E C E OF NEW T E R R I TO R Y A V A I LA BLE. M I M E THE STRATA. ON THE CONT R A R Y . FOR ITS OWN WE PRODUCE IT. IT I S I N A C O N S I STENCY BY W I LDLY DESTRATI FYI NG O N E S E LF . EVEN WHEN ACCO U N T OF T H E BWO I S CONSTANTLY OSC I L LAT· ING AND B ET W E E N THE S U R FACES WHICH STRATIFY I T THE P LA N E WHICH L I B E RATES IT. TION : S E E . LOOK FOR A PROPITIOUS SPOT. W E A R E A SOC I A L FO R M A · E X C E S S OF S I G N I F I C A N C E I NTERPRETATIO N . TH E I R EGOS. OR A PARTICULAR STRATIFYING MECHANSIM IN A FOR M ATION. CONN ECTION OF D E S I R E S . TH E P R OG R A M . M O N E Y P RO DU C I N G M O N E Y . C A PI T A L I T S E L F W I TH ITS E X P A N S I V E · I N FLATION M U ST C O N T R O L IT. W H I C H T H E M S E L V E S P R I SO N E R OF YOU R ORGA N I S M . BOU N D T O THE DOM I N A N T R E A LlTY­ AND YOU DON'T EVEN FEEL IT: ONE C A N LIVE L I K E THAT A N D B E CONTENT W I T H O N ESELF. FOR THOSE TIMES WHEN C I R C U MSTA N C E S REQU I R E IT.E I T H E R YOU REMAIN A OTH E R MECHANISMS B W O OF C A PITA L I S M W H I C H E I T H E R F I N D S O R DOESN'T FI N D I T S R E G U LATION I N THE STATE. IF YOU CON S I D E R A P A R TI C U L A R SOC I A L FOR M ATION. E N S N A R E D I N I T S R E C E N D E N C E .

-THE O N E S OPERATING I N R E LATION T O T H E OTH E R S . PROLIFE RATION IN A N I N C R EASINGLY A S P H Y X I A T I N G PSYCHOSOMATIC C I RCU IT'> I N S HORT. n. EYES. T E R R I F Y I N G CA RICATU R E S O F THE PLA N E OF CONSISTENCY OTHERS. OR S U P ERSTITION. I T HAS EARS F O R T H E P E O P L E A N D E Y E S F O R T H E TH E M . BUT TH E B W O OF CAPITAL I N FLATION BREAKS OUT ALL T H E MORE V I O LENTLY WHEN THE A I M I S TO B R I N G DOWN A SOC I A LIST GOV E R N M ENT: THE ARMY LO S E S ITS EARS AND ITS EYES.C R ATIC A R M Y I N THE WORLD. FALSE C O N S C I O U S N E S S . ETC . BWO OF THE PARTY. TOR I ALIZATION. B I O LO G I C A L . M A NAGE TO DESI R E THE ITS OWN PA RTY. ON THE AND COM B I N A ­ TO CONSTITUTION. DES I R E WENDS ITS WAY THROUGH THE U PON T H E BWO. T H E C I TY. C LOSE THEM OFF. E R RO R . EVERY STRATUM H A S ITS HOLES. N A Z I ECONOMY-NOT T O D I SCOVER T H E MAC H I N I C POTENTI A L OF DES I R E B UT TO E N S U R E T H E C LOS E D HOLD A N D POW E R O F A M E C H A N ISTIC D E S I R E : SUCH A R E THE C A N C E R O U S OR FASCI STIC BWOS. I T I S A PHENOME NON AND OF PHYSICAL. I NT E R ­ NOTH I N G T O D O WITH I D EOLOGY: P U R E M A TT E R . SILENCE AS TH E PSY C H I C A L SO C I A L M A TT E R . L I E S. H I S O R G A N S A R E D E F I N I T I V E L Y DESTROYE D WITHOUT ANY POSSI B LE R ESTORATION 2 J U LES COTARD: ETA RD S U R LES MALADIES CEREBRA· EXC E PT BY S I M ULACRUM: HE MONOLOG U E S AND L E S ET M E N TA L E S . W E B E L I E V E T H A T T H E STRATA T H EMSELVES E N G E N D E R BWOS. (TH E R E I S A B W O OF ITSELF M E C H A N I ST I C DESIRE PROLI F E RATION O F T H E SAME? C E R TA I N LY I T I S NOT A QUESTION OF I D EOLOGY. B R A I L L I E R E . SEVERAL POINTS OF VI EW: THE H YPOCHO N D R I AC SEMIOTEXT(E). FASC I S M I S DESI R E. T H E PO LICE DESI R E I TS BWO. 1 89 1 . A L L DES I R E I S D E S I R E O F BWO. BWO OF MONEY. 3. NOT I N ORDER TO R E A C H TH E DESTRATI F I E D PLA N E OF CONS I STE N C Y B U T I N O R D E R T O PLUG G I LLES DELEUZE A N D F E L I X G U ATTA R I TRA N S LATED BY SUZA N N E G U E RLAC NOTES TO HAVE DO N E WITH THE J U D G M E N T OF G O D . T H E A R M Y DESIRES I T S BWO. S U P R E M E I N TE R P R ETATI O N . VOL.-TH E R E IS A BWO OF THE F A M I LY. A N I N F I N ITY OF WORDS F O R A N I N FI N I TE AMOUNT OF MONEY. ETC. EXC E PT BY REACH ING THE PLA N E OF CON S I S T E N C Y WHICH STRATU M . C A N C E R I S D E S I R E . THE FACTORY. CO N S I D E R HOW THE N A Z I BWO R ECON­ STITUTES CAPITAL'S "O RG A N I S M " I N G E R M A NY. BWO OF TH E STATE. B LI N D SCA R R I N G . 6 1 . ALL THAT CAN BE DESI RED. TH E FA M I LY DESI R E S ITS BWO. COTA R D ACC U S E S H I MSELF I NSTEAD OF E N T E R I N G I NTO A D I A L OG U E WITH MORE OR LESS IMAGI NARY STRESSES T H E D I F F E R E NCE BETWE EN HYPOCHON­ DRIAC DELIRIUM AND PARANOI D D E L I R I UM FROM I N T E R LOCUTORS O R PE RSEC UTORS: H E I S N EGATI- 2159 . A WITHOUT OF EARS. TIONS P OS S I B L E C O N T R A R Y. HOW NAZISM ORGA N I Z E S ITSELF BY U N L E A S H I N G A BWO OF THE ARMY D I STI NCT FROM THE BWO OF THE IT I S THROUGH THE BWO THAT O N E DESIRES. YES. E V E N TO THE POI NT OF REMOVING T H E I R FORM AND A RTICU LATION -NOT TO MAKE "OT H E R" CONNECTIONS BUT. AND WITHOUT A CANCER I N T E R P R ET A T I O N . I T S L I N E S OF RECEDENCE AND M OV E M E N T S S W A LLO W E D OF UP DETE R R I ­ I N THESE DI SSOLVES T H E M AS I F I N ACID. I NTER­ DESIRE REPRESSION? MAKE HOW C A N DESI RE. T H E STATE DESI R E S I T S BWO. IF THE STRATA ARE A M A TT E R OF C O A G U L A T I O N . M AC H I N I ST. BWO OF TH E A R M Y . R E STORE AN "OR G A N I C A N D H E A LTHY" C A PITA LISM FROM THE DEPTHS O F UTTER TERROR. WITHOUT MOUTH. C R EATING STR A N G E ALLIANCES A N D R I V A L R I ES. COMPLEXITY OF ALLIANCES AND RIVALRI ES: TH I N K OF NAZISM THE FOR I N STA NCE-DON'T J UST GENERAL R E LATION BETW E E N N A Z I S M A N D C A PITA L I S M . Y E S . DEATH I N STI NCT. TH E R E I S DE S I R E E V E R Y TI M E T H E R E I S BWO O F O N E K I N D O R ANOTH E R . OF S E D I M E N TATION MATER I A L. I N THE ITS T U R N A BWO THAT DESTROYS TAKES OVER THE STATE TO E N S U R E T H E PROLIFE RATION O F T H E S A M E . U N LEASH ES. NOT I N ORDER TO U N DO TH E STRATA WITH THE NECESS A R Y PRECAUTIONS BUT TO S H U T T H E M U P AGA I N . DESIRE IS M I N A B L E A N A L Y S I S . BWO OF THE FA M I LY . S A I D THE C H I LEAN. P. T O B E HOLES. OF THE LOC K E D WITH I N E A C H OTH E R . AND YET NO LESS BWO THAN THE GO V E R N M E N T. 1 9 77. AS IT DOES THE HOW ABOLITION DOES OF D E S I R E I N C A N C EROUS BWOS. TH E BWO HAS PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S : T H E PSY C H O A N A LYST H I MSE LF. IS AND WILL BE. A L L A STRATUM N EE D S I S A Q U I C K S E D I M E N TATION WITH I N ITSELF. HAS BEEN. DESI R E E V E N I N C LUDES THAT I N TH E E M PT I E D B W O S . W H I C H IS STI L L PART O F THE J U OG M E N T OF G O D . BUT REMEMBER T H E BWO OF N A Z I S M A N D TH E R A V I N G B W O OF GERMAN CAPITALISM BEFORE THE NAZI TAKEOVER. NO. EX P E R I E N C E S. T H E SCHOOL. TO FO R M IN A ITS SPECIFIC TUMOR OR C E R TA I N THE FORM ATION OF BWO OF TH E PARTICULAR APPARATUS: DA NGERS: I T C A N NOT WARD OFF T H E E M PTI E D A N D CANCEROUS BOD I E S W H I C H S U M M O N I T.

MANY AS A D I A LECTICAL UNITY. CIT. G ROVE PRESS. WITHOUT G O D ) W H E R E A S THE P A R A N O I A C I S A " G R E A T ONTOLOGIST". " M I STER M A RG U L. 1 9 59. ORGANS. CON C E R N I NG H E LI OG A B A LUS." SHE SAID.E" XII. OR W A S IT M E L. 4 WILLIAM B U R ROUGHS. A RT A U D STI LL PRESE NTS US THE I D E NTITY O F THE ONE A N D T H E 7 A RT A U D . NAKED 131. SCH R I B E R ' S MEMOIRS. ST R A U S AND GI ROUX. P. PliCITY A S GOING B E YOND ALL OPPOSITION F RO M T H E B EG I N N I NG . O P . p. I N A M ERCOU R I 7 " N E G R O STREETS AT DOWN.D BOYS." H E LIOGABALUS. A N D A BOVE A L L C A N C E L I N G A N Y SUCH QUESTION. "VAGI N A S U N D E R E V E R Y A R M . ANY D I A LECTI C A L MOV E M E N T "NOTES ON A CASE OF P A R A NOIA". . FREUD. ADJUSTI NG H E R DA RK GLASSES. "R EDUCES" "BRINGING IT BACK" T O T H E O N E . A N TO N I N ARTAUD. H E M A K E S H E L I OG A B A L U S SOM E KIND OF H EG E L I A N . AND YET H E RE. O RG A N I S M . NEW YORK: FARRAR. C I T FRONTIERS BROKEN HOLLY GOLIGHTLY M E ETS THE WI L. NEW YORK: F R O M T H E B EG I N N I NG . C H I ST CROWNED IN SELECTED WRITINGS. O R T H E A N A R· SEMIOTEXTIE). O P . 6 A N TON I N A R TA U D.V I STIC IWITHOUT N A M E . LUNCH. QUOTED B Y S . HE DOESN'T SEE THE MULTI· DR. S. A VOYAGE TO THE LAND DF TARA H U M A RA S SELECTED WRITINGS. 1 7. 59. "THE BODY IS THE BODY. 270 . 1 9 76. I E S . P. O R NOT. A N D ONE THE M U L T I P L I C I TY IN WHICH S O U L . AGE.

A R TI F I C I A L C O I T A L T EC H N I Q U E S CAMERA IN HAND.JUSTED TO HER SIZE. A S TENSION ELEVATES. . HUMAN SEXUAL RESPONSE.LIGHT I L L U M I NATION A LLOWS OBSERVATION A N D RECORD­ ING WITHOUT D I STORTION. A N D A SEX. "A F I R ST STEP TOW A R D A N OPEN -DOOR POLICY. ELECTRODES IN POS I T I O N . M ASTERS A N D . THE G R I M A C E A N D CONTORTION OF A WOMAN'S FACE GRAPHICALLY EXPRESS THE I NCREMENT OF M YOTO N I C THE TENSION THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE THE PATI ENT IS WAITING IN KNEE-CHEST POSITION. STARTI N G WITH T H E ORGASM I C PLATFORM I N T H E O U T E R THIRD O F T H E VAGINA " . . AND THEY N EVER FA I L. " THE MACH I N E N E V E R ORGASMS. BODY. M E A S U RING AND RECORDING T H E ACTION. IN THE COLD 27 1 . T H E Y C L A I M I N THE PREFACE OF TH E I R STUDY. COLD. THE HUMAN ELEMENT H A SN'T A LTOG E T H E R ORGASM I C CONTRACTI O N S O F THE UTERUS HAVE BEEN RECORDED BY BOTH I NTRAUTE R I N E AND ABDOMI NALLY PLACED THAT ELECTRODES. M USCLES O F THE NECK A N D THE LONG M USCLES OF T H E ARM AND LEGS USUALLY CONTRACT I NTO I N VOLUNTARY SPASM ' " THE PHYSIOLOGICAL THEY A R E NOT H U M A N . SEPARATE PH ENOM ENON AT THAT. THEY HAVE BEEN A D. ARE ON THE SC E N E. ELECTR ICA LLY POWE R E D PLASTIC P E N I SES ARE READY FOR ACTION. HAVE BEEN VA STLY I M PROVED B Y RADIO PHYS I C I STS. IS WIDE OPEN.JOHN SON. THE CONTRACTIO N S WITH A L M O ST S I M U L TA N E O U S L Y THOSE ORGASM I C PLATFOR M . R A P I D I TY OF THRUST I N C R E A S ES. A T LAST. T H I S I S.DEFU N KT SEX "AT ORGASM. PLASTIC PENISES F UNCTION A S PLATE GLASS. YOU R I N T R E P I D REPOR­ TERS. A N I M PARTIAL A PPROACH TO H U M A N SEXUAL EXPERI ENCE CAN NOW