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POLYSEXUALITY

POLYSEXUALIlY [SEMIOTEXT(E) #10] SPECIAL EDITOR
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1.

SELF SEX

P I E R R E G U YOTAT

P. 14 BODY OF THE TEXT.

DA N I EL SLOATE

P. 21 I STRUGGLED WITH A DEMON

D E M E TR I U S ZA M B ACO

P. 22 CASE HISTORY.

2.

SOFT SEX

P I E R R E K LOSSOWSKI

P. 38 ROBERTE'S DIARY (CONTINUED)

ROG E R C A I LLOI S

P. 42 THE OCTOPUS IN JAPAN.

PA U L V E R LA I N E

P.415 ON THE BALCONY.

DU NCAN H . S M ITH

P. 46 MEMOIRS OF AN OCCUPATION

3.

ALIMENTARY SEX

J EA N POU I LLON

P. 154 TABLE MANNERS. BED MANNERS. LANGUAGE MANNERS.

P A U L V E R LA I N E/ARTH U R R I M B A U D

P.62 THE SONNET OF THE HOLE IN THE ASS.

T E R E N C E C. S E LLERS

P. 63 COPROPHAGY AND URINOLOGY

PAUL VERLAINE

P.66 A LITTLE SHIT
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4.

SEX OF THE GAZE

MICHEL BERNARD

P.68 THE MUTE NEGRESS.

A L A I N ROBBE-G R I LLET

P. 72 TEMPLE IN THE LOOKING GLASS.

5.

AMBIGUOUS SEX

FELIX G U A TT A R I

P. 8 0 I HAVE EVEN MET HAPPY TRAVELLOS.

DA N I E L SLOATE

P. 8 1 POLLY ORlAND PAUL.

JEAN FRANCOIS LYOTARD

P. 8 2 USE ME.

FELIX G U ATTARI

P. 8 6 BECOMING-WOMAN.

6.

A NIMAL SEX

F R E D E R I C ROSSI F

P.90 THE WILD CELEBRATION

CATH E R I N E D U N C A N

P.9S JOURNEYS OF A GENTLEWOMAN.

G I L L E S D E LEUZE/FELI X GUATTARI

P. 97 A BLOATED OEDIPUS.

B E R N A R D NOEL

P. 1 02 THE DOGS.

DA N I E L SLOATE

P.l06 TRUDY OR THE SECRET APHID.

7.

CHILO SEX

PETER WI LSON

P.I 08 THE SILVER PIPE CAFE.

TONY D U V E RT

P.l l 0 COUNTESS LULU

W I LLI A M B U RROUGHS

P. 1 1 9 THE POPLING

ROGE R MOODY

P. 1 215 THE COMMITTAL.

8.

MOR BID SEX

GEORGES BATAILLE

P.IS 6 THE CULPRIT.

" ROLA N D BARTH ES P.1!57 SAINT JACKIE. D I SCUR S IVE SEX QUESTION N A I R E P. 219 JOUISSANCE AND DIVISION.167 POSTFACE: VIOLENCE AND POLYSEXUALITY. JACQU ES LAC A N P. CHANTAL M A I L L ET/SYLV I E LEGER P.162 M.14!5 MY LATE GRANDMOTHER. 202 DO YOU KNOW CORRECT TERMS FOR WHAT SOME MAY CALL "SEX PERVERSIONS.I!54 THE PARALLEL BARS.190 THE OEDIPUS COMPLEX. • . JACQU ES LACAN P. P I E R R E B E N I CHOU P. 228 INQUIRY INTO FEMININITY. 9. 208 SAINT ANN. CORPORATE SEX JOHN PRESTON P. COMEDIENNE AND TORTURER. 1 1. FRANCOIS P E RALDI P. JASON K L E I N P.ANONYMOUS P. VIOLENT SEX PIERRE KLOSSOWSKI P. 172 ONCE I HAD A MASTER. M I C H E L DE M ' U ZAN P. M I C H E LE MONTR ELAY P. 10. .20!5 VOCABULARY. 18!5 LETTER TO JASON. 1 972. JOHN P R E STON P.17!5 CHORUS FOR A PSALM.E .

270 FRONTIERS BROKEN SYLV E R E LOT R I N G E R P. 249 DISCOURSE AND SEXUALITY: TOWARD THE TEXTURE OF EROS. 1 3. . 12.. M I ST E R M A RG U L I E S P. 242 MOVING GIRL. PH I LOSOP H I CAL SEX PA U L V I R I LIO P.26!5 HOW TO MAKE YOURSELF A BODY WITHOUT ORGANS.236 FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOURSE.. 271 DEFUNKT SEX.ROLA N D B A R T H E S P. 260 TO DESTROY SEXUALITY . G I L L E S D E L E UZE/ F E L I X GUATTARI P. C R I TICAL SEX G U Y HOCQU E N G H E M P. ROBERT V A N R O D E N A LL E N P.

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POLYSEXUALITY .

LET'S CALL IT A COLLAGE OR A TEXTUAL PATCH-WORK. IF YOU PREFER. IT TELLS WHAT THE REALITY OF SEX HAS ALWAYS BEEN WITH RESPECT TO ITS ALIENATION TO 'USURA' AND EXPLOITATION. POL YSEXUALITY IS A TEXT IN ITSELF. IRREPRESSIBLE 'VOLONT E DE JOUISSANCE' LIBIDO: AN (WILL TO PLEASURE) NEVER PURE SINCE IT IS ALWAYS LINKED TO THE DEATH DRIVES TO THE POINT THAT FOR SOME RIGOROUS SEEKERS. BUT PERHAPS ALLUDED TO BY FREUD WHEN HE SUGGESTED THAT LIBIDO HAD NO GENDER. IT ALSO POINTS TOWARD THE 'REAL OF SEX' WHICH STILL LIES UNTOUCHED. THE EDITORS OF WHICH ARE THE AUTHORS. . 'JOUISSANCE' CULMINATES IN DEATH: THE ULTIMATE SEX. UNTHOUGHT OF.POLYSEXUALITY IS NOT ONLY A SET OF TEXTS WRITTEN BY CAREFULLY CHOSEN AUTHORS AND ILLUSTRATING THE PLURAL ASPECTS OF SEXUALITY.

CRIMES OF WAR: OUR DAILY LOT. BECAUSE LANGUAGES. THAN THE TEXTUAL WORKING THROUGH OF THIS THESIS. MARCH 1 6. SYMBOLICALLY OR SEMIOTEXTUALLY SPEAKING. IN OUR OPINION.' HAVE TO BE CONSIDERED AS IMAGES OF THE OTHER SIDE OF THE DEATH DRIVES. AND DEATH DRIVE. 1 981 . INCLUDING WRITING ABOUT AND 'JOUISSANCE. THIS WHOLE ISSUE IS NOTHING ELSE. GENOCIDES. OF COURSE. WE CALL IT TEXTUAL.' ACTIVITIES. HAVE BEEN PRESENTIFIED IN THIS TEXT BY IMAGES OF POLITICAL DISASTERS. THE DEATH DRIVES. FRANCOIS PERALDI BOSTON.IF LIBIDO IS THE ALL ORGANIZING THESE FORCES OF ALL ACTIVITIES LEADING SEX TO 'JOUISSANCE. BY KNOTTING THEM TOGETHER· AND MAKING THEM TANGIBLE. CONSTITUTE THE THIRD SIDE OF LIBIDO. FROM COVER TO COVER. MASSACRES. WHICH CENTRIFICATE POLITICS. THE THEORY OF CATASTROPHIES IS AT THE VERY CORE OF THE THEORY OF POLITICS AND IT HAS TO BE THOUGHT OF AS GIVING SHAPE TO THIS OTHER SIDE OF LIBIDO.

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S E L F S E X .

DRAWING T O M Y S E L F AS BODY. A I R E M E M B E R HA V I NG B E G U N TO MASTURBATE AT C H A L L E N G E TO MY OWN BODY.H I D D E N I N T H E V E R Y H A U N T OF H U M A N A N D OFTEN A N I M A L DEJ ECTIONS (DOGS. ORGAS M-ALTHOUGH I COULDN'T H AVE N A M E D IT AT A TI M E IT DID TH E NOT YET LEAD TO EJACULATION­ TURD AND URINE. CONDUCTING A D I A LOGU E BETW E E N 14 . REPEATED M A STUR BATION A N D WRITI NG-BUT SPEAK TEXT I N HAND A N D EXPOSED TO VI EW-. POLITICAL CONTEXT PL E A S U R E BECA M E P R A C T I S E D . A N D I . ARSE DIST E N D E D THE AGE OF N I N E. SCREECH-OWLS FROM P U B L I C LY ATT E N T I O N MAKE KNOWN N EEDS. PRODUCER OF M A TT E R . THE NEED TO MAKE MY FI RST DECLA R ATIONS ON T H E R E LATIONSH I P M A STURBA­ TION-WR I TING DATES FROM A ("LA NOUVELLE C RITIQU E"). CATS. A L R E A D Y TH E N . IT TOOK PLACE. AT THAT AGE IT W A S D I FFICULT FOR ME TO PUT UP MY HAND MY A IN CLASS AND OV E R T H E H O L E (OUT OF WHICH R I S E T O PALPITAT­ ING MOUTH A N D NOST R I LS ALL THE OOORS OF THE S U M P A N D THE HERCY N I A N MOU NTA I N EA RTH ON WHICH THE SCHOOL I S B U I LT. OR BY A HESITATION TO EXPRESS THE MOST VOCAL SOU N D I NGS OF THE M A STURBATORY TEXT).). AS U NOBTR U S I V E L Y AS POSSIBLE. NO USE E X P ECTI NG AS TH E N . M O NTH MORE BY MONTH AS THE D E SC R I B E D "SCHO L A R LY" "M A RG I N A L" (N ECESSARY TERMS AT AN EPOCH DETE R M I N E D BY POLITICAL E NGAG E M E NTS OF AN ADM I N I STRATIVE KI N D. TH ROUGH THE U N D ER PA NTS AT FIRST. SUGA R. MOST COMICA LLY. ORGANS. FI LTE R E D BY THE F R A I L E R S M E L L OF S E M E N). IN O R D E R TO "PUT OFF" A DESI R E T O P I S S OR C R A P. ORGA N I S M . I M PROVISED. J E R K I NG THE LITTLE S E X. FROM THAT TI M E ON I A LSO M A STURBATED M UCH LESS IN THE WC. BUT DICTATED. BY D I SC O V E R ING AND PUTTI NG THE FARM COM I NG THE R E TO DE FECATE).I . NOTEBOOKS IN H A N D-NOT FOR A STOCKTA KING OF PAST O R P R E S E N T JOTTINGS ON WHAT I AM ABOUT TO D E SC R I B E : THE R E LATIONSH I P IN BETW E E N ORDER TO I NTO PR ACTICE THIS M A STUR BATORY SYSTEM. U N D E R THE DESK: FIST TH RUST I N TO M Y POCKET !ITS SEAMS FULL OF C R U M BS. ORANGE P E E L. THEN G R A D U ALLY. ABOUT B E I N G S E E N AS BODY. N O N E TH E L E S S . A TEXT THAT M I GHT OR BE W I TH E L D SEVERAL TI M E S A DAY. PERVADED. W I TH U N D E R PA NTS PUSHED AGAI NST THE THIGH. A LTHOUGH I H A V E N E V E R EVER FELT THE LEAST E M B A R R A S S E D ON TH E CONTRARY. ETC. A C CO R D I N G TO A KIND OF G A M E. THI S OPERATION S E E M E D TO ME IN NO WAY R E P R E H E N S I BLE.BODY OF THE TEXT THI S IS NOT WRITTEN. I WAS ACTI NG IN A VERY COHERENT WAY AS TO THE MASTERING OF M Y N E E DS AND WANTS: AS I SAW IT.

THE A RSE-HOLE AND THE SEX. OF PANTS ON ORGIASTIC W R I T I N GS. WHERE N E I G H BO U R I N G BODI ES. WITH TH E I R OWN N A M ES. THE RIGHT HAND D E V OT E D W H E N W E FALL I NTO L I N E AT 6 A.M. M O R E A N D M O R E E X P E RT. S U R EII AND AM TO PUT LAST OF FORC E D MY MY S U PPLY OF U N D E R ­ ( B U T W I T H WHAT PLEA­ OVER BARE SKIN. W R I TT E N . SUCC E S S I V E H E R E. N OT I N F R EQ U E N TLY IN THESE N OT E S A PROCESS E M E R G E S (VERY PRODUCTI VE SUBCON­ SC IOUSL Y) IN CONTRADICTION WITH THE M ETHODS OF " D E C E N T" WRITI NG. A S E R ECTION A N D D I SC H A R G E I NC R E ASE I N CAPACITY. A N D IN THE DOR­ ARE COLLEGE I NOW ATTE N D E D. BECOM E TH E D R A MATI S P E R SONAE OF THE D U R I N G T H E HOLIDAYS M Y MOTH ER. I S I NTRODU C E D A N I M POR- ORGASM AS AN A NTI-DEFECATOR. I NTO WHAT I S A FTE R ALL A VERY ORDI N A R Y SITUATION. M I TORY. S H E C A M E W I T H M E T O LI FT T H E STONES ONE A FTER ANOTH E R A N D . T E R M T I M E . D I ST U R B I N G B E C A U S E H A LF WAY BETW E E N S H I T A N D U R I N E. T H E FI RST SETTI NG I S D I V I D E D THEM UNDER M ATTR ESS THEM INTO TWO: CLASSROOM A N D DOR M I TORY. A CON V U L­ SIVE SERIES OF O R G I A STIC NOTES K NOW N AS ON EVACUATE TH E PA NTS. N A M E LY: A WRITTEN I M PORTANT P A R T OF M Y WA R D ROBE. U NKNOWN TO MY FATH E R WHO D I E D I N NOV E M B E R ' 7 1 . OUT OF M Y POCKET. CLOTH I NG. DURING WHICH I PRACTI S E D MORE AND A N D S PECIALLY PA I N T I N G 115 . A T OTH E R TI M ES. CLOSE D F O R THE S U M M E R . THE N . THE E X P U LSION T H E R E ­ FORE OF A NOTH E R M A TT E R . M A STU R B A TO R Y SOM ETI M ES. T H I S COI N C I DE S WITH TH E FI RST E J A C U LATI ON. BASED ON THEIR SEXUAL BREAT H I N G Q U I C K E N E D BY TH E SIGHT OF THE POR N P H OTOS. I I M M E DI A T E LY WOR K E D OUT ANOTH E R SYSTE M-WHAT I D O N ' T R E M E M B E R ­ T O POSTPO N E T H E N E E D TO D E FECATE. SCRIBBLED S U B M I TT I N G TO THIS A D D I T I ON A L STRA I N PI ECES OF R U LE D PAPER TO R N F R O M EXERCISE DRESSI N G A N D U N D R E S S I N G I N P U B L I C U N TI L I CAN R E C U P E R ATE A P A I R FROM UNDER TH E STON ES. BECAUSE IT S M ELLS AND WETS T H E CLOTHES. IT IS ONLY WHEN I BEGIN TO WRITE THAT THE AND SLITH E R O F TH E T U R D A N D THAT O F T H E ORGASM. BEG I N S TO TA K E OVER. I L LU M I NATED TITLES) A N D THIS GESTU R E B R I N G S MY H A N D.D O R M I TO R Y. ETC. ORGASMS I N DU C E D LECH E ROUS R E VE R I E . TO A DRAMATISATION O F THE PRACTICE. TH E MASTUR­ BATOR. I STA RT TO DRAW (WOM E N WITH H A LOS. IT I S BECAUSE I A M MORE AND MORE CO NVI N C E D TH ROUGH HEARI NG OTH E R S M Y OWN E X P E R I ENCE AND TALK. BUT I F I A M PERS U A D E D T H A T NOBODY E V E R S A W M E MASTUR8ATE IN C LASS. THE OTH E R HOME. R E S U LT. HOLI DAYS.ESTI MATED) OF THI S TRA N S F E R . PUTS A STOP ONCE AND FOR A LL TO R E SORTING TO . TO D A Y . STUF F I N G I N TO M Y POC KET -CLASSROO M : I CONTI N U E MASTU RBATI NG WITH THE LEFT HAND. ON T H E EDGE OF DREAM. OR I CA N'T SAY AT WHAT TH E POI N T ("DEC E NT" O R G I A STIC T E XT?) MASTUR­ B A TO R Y A C T BEGAN T O PREDOM I N ATE. I H I D E T H E M U N D E R A PILE OF STON ES. A COM M U N A L SEXUAL EXCITE M ENT PRODUCI NG LINKS THE US HOMO­ U NCON­ (NUMBER 49) OF WASH I NG . B E C A U S E M Y U N D E R PA N TS R E LATION S H I P TWO MAIN WRITI NG/MASTURBATION SETTI N G S : ONE IS TH E BEAR T H E M A R K S (SOM EWHAT OVER. IT H A PP E N S AT MOM E NTS OF PANIC THAT QUITE U N I N T E N TIONA LLY I H E NCEFORTH TO W R I T I N G -SOM ETI M E S A "DECENT' TEXT ( PO E M S ) COP I E D A FTERWARDS ON TO L U X U R Y SHEETS OF D R A W I N G PAPER A N D PUT TOGETH ER I N A L B U M S OR "BOOKS". BOOKS. SC IOUSLY ( A LTHOUGH W H E R E OTH E R S OF M Y K I N D ARE CONC E R N E D M A K I N G T H E MOST OF A V I S I T P A I D BY MY DOCTOR FATH E R IN THE VIC I N I TY OF T H E SCHOOL. I DON'T R E M E M ­ BER THAT D R A W I NG P E R I OD . MASTUR BATION BY WITH OTH E R OF TH E BOYS. ORGASM AND D E F ECATION TOOK PLACE S I M U LTAN EOUSLY. LAY I N G SIEGE TO ME FOR S E V E R A L DAYS F I N I S H E D 8Y REDUCING OF HER WHY "WE E P I N G AND C H I L D" TO AN R E LATION S H I P W H I C H A D M ISSION W H E R E A BO U T S : A N D. TO M A STU R BATE. R E C U P E R­ ATE AND PUT BACK I N TO C I R C U LATION THAT I WAS THEN. I CARRY T H E M OUTSI D E SCHOOL L I M I TS B E H I N D T H E T U M B L E DOWN W.C. BETWE E N T H E MORE A S S I D UOUSLY. THAT MOST OF THOSE RO UND M E W E R E DO I N G THE S A M E THING AT THE SAME TIME. WAS SURPRISED B Y MY DWI N D L I N G AND AFTER ACT-BOYS WITH WHOM I LOOK AT POR NOGRAPHIC MAGAZI N E S BROUGHT FROM THEIR HOME TOWNS. F U NCTIONS AT F I RST ON T H E THRESHOLD OF TH E S U BCONSCIOUS. PHYSICAL P EC U L I A RI T I E S . I R E F U S E TO G I V E T H E M TO T H E LAUNDRY H I DE OR T H E SC HOOL MY LA U N D R E S S E S .: T H E R E . AND STI L L AM. WHEREAS LATE R. WHO DIED I N AUGUST PAC KET '158. AND SUCH AS A M O M E NTS ARE P I N N AC L E S OF PLEA­ FOR T H I S THERE PROCESS A CC E L E R A T E S LEA DS. SURE. AS EXC E PTIONALLY S E X U A L. CONSCI O U S OF M Y S E X U A L S U P E R IORITY BEC A U S E I CAN WRITE WHAT IS VOCALLY I M M I NENT BETW E E N US).. THE LEFT H A N D . MY R I G H T H A N D. TO GO DOWN TO C H A PEL. A N D WHICH. G E TT I N G OUT OF CONTROL. THEN. PHON ETISATION O F T H E USUAL SPEECH O F ONE OR THE R ELATION BETW E E N WRITING AND MASTU RBA­ TION A PPEARS FOR THE FI RST T I M E ROU N D THE AGE OF TEN O R E L E V E N .

P A L M A N D F I N G E R S AND U S U A LLY A T NIGHT. OR ELSE. MARKING BETWE E N N E SS. AND A L SO B E C A U S E OF ITS LEC H E ROUS E FFECT O N T H E BODY: N E V E R F O R I T S A E STHETIC EFFECTS. TH I S S E E M S T O M E T H E R E W A S STI L L A CONSI DERABLE DIFFERENCE BETWE EN. LET U S SAY. M A S T U R B AT I O N AND F E A R . SHOULD THIS BE S E E N AS AN E A R LY MARK OF CON F I D E N C E IN MY U NCONSCIOUS BODY. NOT AT COLLEGE THAT I M A D E I T : I N MY B E D ROOM COST U M E S O N E ON TOP OF TH E OTH E R . M UST BE R E MOVED. COST U M E REMOVED. C H O I C E DETE R M I N E D ALSO BY A CLOTH C A PA B L E OF A C R A D L I N G O R LEC H E ROUS C U R B I N G OF TH E PARTS ( R USTIC WITHOUT RIGI DITY. FOR E STALL A N Y I M PORTUNATE V I SITS FROM M Y FATH E R IF CALLED ON A N U RG E N T VISIT D U R I NG TH E N I GH T ) . BUT I N F U NCTION O F ITS SOC I A L R E F E R E N C E (CHOICE O F A PROLETA R I A N CLOTH AT A TI M E. TH E ACT OF STA I RC A S E OPEN. A 16 . BY LEAVING TH E DOO R S ON TH E ATTIC AND CLEAN END USED FOR W I P I N G BALLS AND P E N I S I N THE P R OC E SS. I S P ROG R E S S I V E LY DISTI N G U I S H E D B Y TH E N E E D TO D I SPOSE OF THE COSTU M E A N D W I P E TH E ORGANS I N VOLVED B E FO R E GOI NG TO SLEEP. A N D D I VERTED ATTENTION FROM THE HEAVING OF SHEET AND B L A N K E T. SINCE A C E A S E T O F E E L T H E E X A C T OUTL I N E OF M Y SEX. IN THE POW E R O F CONTROL (NOT OF SE LF­ EFFAC E M ENT AT THAT PARTICULAR EPOCH) OF OR G U I LT F E E L I NGS. I WAS A F" R A I D OF F A L L I N G A S L E E P BEFORE H I D I N G I T . ITS ROO M . TOO VAG U E TO R E C A L L. BUT N E V E R T O TH E POI N T W H E R E H A N D . A SUCCESSION OF DOGS BA R K I NG. SO THAT I SWITC H E D F ROM OBVIOUSLY BY BAWD TO A S I M U L­ D ECORS: BED ROOM A N D "NATU R E". W H I C H . T H AT W E SHOULD COST U M E P I M P'S TA L K O R VICE VERSA. A N D A CLOTH L A I D U N D E R TH E C E NTRE O F OPERATIONS (OBV I O U S LY AT COLLEGE IT SERVED TO PROTECT THE S H E ET FROM STA I NS. IF UNDECIDED AS TO SOC I A L POSTU R E . W A S R E LATI VELY P R I V I LEGED. FROM BETW E E N THE THIGHS. ACCOM P A N I E D TAN EOUS C H A N G E IN ORGIASTIC TEXT: WITH P I M P'S THESE TWO HOM E LY AND HOLIDAY SETTING ALLOW MORE F R EEDOM FOR E LABORATE DRAMATISATION. A T WHICH POI N T THE T E X T T U R N S I NTO A G E N E R A L C H I LD'S ROOM IS O P E N BY DAY TO ITS MOTH E R . CHOICE ETC. OR A S U DDEN SHOWER) W H I C H SERVED AS DAMPER OR M UFFLER FOR MY TH E DETE R M I N E D BY T H E PIECE POSSIBI LITY O F SOM E O N E DISCOV E R I NG A M I SS I N G O R TO R N F R O M A LE NGTH OF M ATERIAL. ORIG I N A LLY I T WAS M A D E U P OF TWO E L E M ENTS: A K I N D OF J OC K-STR A P FAS H I O N E D F"ROM RAGS. ONCE T H E SESSION I S B ROUGHT TO A N END BY LACK OF J U I C E . G E N T L E IN ITS T H R EADBA R E G I V E . AS I SUFFERED FROM SOM N A M B U L I S M AT THE TI M E . W H E N I T LATEST ODORS. OR WALKING IN M Y S L E E P B R A N D I S H I N G I T . IN OTH E R WORDS. WITH BAWD'S COST U M E BAWDY TALK O R VICE V E RSA-. BUT IN MY B E D ROOM IT WAS OFTE N S U P E R FLUOUS AS THE SESSION OFTEN TOOK PLACE NAKED AND I N T H E RAW O N THE TILES OF T H E B E D ROO M FLOOR. EVOL V E D OR AND T E R IO R A T E D ACCOR D I N G TO TI M E PLAC E. THE RETI R E D TO H I S A LCOVE F O R TH E N I GHT)-QR W I T H U N P R E D I CTABLE SO U N D S (OUTS I DE. FOR EXAMPLE. THE SECOND S ET T I N G A L SO COM P R I S E S TWO C H A N G E OF COSTUM E TOOK PLACE BETW E E N TWO ORGASMS. SPERM AND ALL. IT IS AT TH I S POI N T THE N . A H A N D DRAWING IT UP A LONG THE BODY WEIGHTED WITH WARMTH AND TH E 1 91515. M A TE R I A L . I N EVITABLE I N THE ATMOS P H E R E OF C U L T U R A L V I S C E R A LITY PRACTI C E ? U NLESS. THE PRODUC E D BY TH E EJ A C ULATION PROD U C I N G A B L E N D I N G OF ONE A N D TH E OTH E R M E M B E R W I T H TH E D Y E A N D W O R N A N D FADING FIBRE IN A S E R I ES OF I NC R E A S I N G L Y V I O L E N T ORGAS MS. N E V E R PREVENTED THE D A I LY SESSION. IN THIS WAY A MATERIA L AND BOU N D A R Y THROUGH VARIOUS STAG E S .R OO M . PREVENTED M Y S L E E P I N G BODY FROM M A K I NG A BAWDY STROLL BETW E E N BEDS AND BOD I E S . I BEC A M E MORE AND MORE SKILLFUL IN M A K I NG THEM COI N C I D E WITH O N E O F TH E PRE DICTABLE SOU N D S I N T H E DOR M I TORY-FOR E X A M PLE. P I M P. BREATHING. TH E RUSTLE O F" W R I G G L I N G O U T OF" T H E COSTU M E W I T H THE RUSTLE OF THE P R I E ST'S CASSOCK A G A I NST TH E C U RTA I N D U R I N G O N E OF H I S ROU N D S OF I N SPECTION ( S I N C E MY S E SS I O N A L W A Y S T O O K PLACE B E FO R E HE -TH E JOCK·STRAP: A M ET I C U LOUS SEARCH FOR IN C U PBOA R D S . ACCORD I N G TO W H ETH E R I WAS IN TH E MOOD TO B E PI M P O R BAWD­ AND O FT E N IN THE COURSE OF A SESSION A PROFOU N D PROSTlTU­ TION A L D R I V E TO W H I C H I WAS PREY AT THE TI M E . T H E COSTU M E WENT DE­ M A STURBATION . MY MOTH E R A N D H E R M A I D I N T H E W A Y T H E Y DRESSED): THIS S H O U L D B E S E E N A S A D R A M ATIC D E S I R E OF M Y EFFAC E M E N T A S T H E BOURGEOIS BODY: K N E A D I N G B Y BOU RGEOIS H A N D O F BOU RGEOIS SEX TH ROUGH PROLETA R I A N TISSUE. BOT H DESC R I B E T H E M A STU R BATORY COST U M E . ORIGI N A L LY M E RGED WITH S L E E P A N D D R E A M . IT WAS S L I D U N DER THE MATTRESS. CONSC I O U S N ESS ALL U NCONSCIOUS­ HAD TO BE BECAUSE O P E RATIONS C A R R I E D OUT A S S I L E NTLY A S POSSI BLE. L U M B E R . FOR I T WAS AT HOM E . O N C E TH E BECA U S E OF ITS SOFTN ESS. A N D I COULD.TANT MATER I A L E L E M E N T : T H E M A S T U R B ATO R Y LITTLE LESS AT N IGHT ( M Y ROOM U N D E R T H E EAVES AT SOME DI STA N C E F ROM TH E PARE NTAL BED­ COSTUME.

MADE ME R E J ECT GREEK H I STORY. I SAT WITH A HARD ON. "OPEN"'. R E S I N O U S. MASS WARM BOTH E R I N G MADE EDGES BAWDY HOLES STRA N G E N E S S . TEXT U R E SPONGY. ACCO R D I N G T O TH E C A PACITY OF E RECTION A T A GIVEN PERIOD: THE PERIOD OF A DOLESC E NC E S E E K I NG T H E S E M I N A L H A LO D I S P E R S E D B Y THE SEXUAL SADDLE. IN TH E N M E NTAL FLUX)-BUT TO MY "ADH E R A NC E" TO T H E A M BI E NT R E A L I T Y. LACE D A R O U N D THE LOI N S A N D DOWN THE CLEFT OF TH E A R S E . U N D E R NOTES M IGHT OF R E SO L U T I O N S BECA U S E TH E I R FOR M U LATION: 17 . SYM BOL FOR ME AT THAT M O M E N T OF A ROMANTIC. I D E N U D E . NECK N A P E OF TH E P U SH I NG ON ALL MY CERVICAL WRITING. CLOTH.WO R K . E M ERGES TERM E D IN POLITICAL. AND E V E RYTH I N G THAT I N LA N DSC A P E AND W R I T I N G A P PEA R E D AS IN THE FULL LIGHT OF DAY-LATE R S UBSTITUTED BY A P I N E TREE (TH E TRUNK BOTH D R Y E R . I SET OUT FO R THE H I G HEST POS S I B L E PO I N TS IN THE M O U N TA I N S FORC I N G IT DOWN SO TH E C LOTH COULD BE LACE D ROU N D MY LOI N S : THE SOU N D OF THE HOLES WHICH I KNOW A R E R A R E LY FREQU E NTED. T H E E F FORTS M A D E -THE CLOTH : NOTH I N G TO SAY A BOUT TH I S E XC E PT TO NOTE THAT TH E DOM I N ATING COLOR WAS R ED. SU BSTA N C E SO T O R E WO R K I N G IT LOOK MORE R E M I N I SC E N T OF A SIDES I PO K E D N E UTRALI S E D D U R I N G TWE NTY-FOU R HO U S E.A R S E D . TH E C L A N DESTI N E COSTU M E THE OFFIC I A L U N D E RPANTS ASI DE. TA KIN G T H E C U R R E NT N O T E S OUT OF MY C L A M M Y POC K E T AND R E ST I N G TH E M ON ONE OF THE TEA R I NG UNDER T H E STR A I N OF T H E LACE S DURING MASTURBATION BO R D E L AND C O U LD. A K I N D OF SC R E E N WHE R E THE J ET. M I C ROSCOPIC SC R A P OF C LOTH OVER THE FRONT ON LY. ARE SO . IT REMARKED THAT THE ME MOST IN TH E MALE PA RT W H I C H BODY.S E M E N THE MORE DECORATED SHOULD BE FOR M E R SPERM. TH E LIGHTEST OF COSTU M E S AND THOSE THAT TO REACH THROUGH THROUGH SUCCESSIVE V E R TE B R A� TH E ORGASM R E P E RC U T I N G N E R V E� M USCLES. THE ATT R A CTS BUTTOCKS. TH E SIZE OF THE C O ST U M E VA R I E S A LSO. A ST R ETC H O UT. T H E R E . BY A S U D D E N P A N I C B E FO R E T H E I N SOLUBI LITY OF MY SOCIAL CONTRADICTIONS AND THE I R RE D UC­ MUCH TO T H E WORK OF WRITING (WH I C H F U N CTIONS WITH EVEN G R EA T E R I NTENSITY D U R I NG THIS SC I ENTI FIC S E A RC H FOR T H E LOST " I D EA" A N D ITS PLACE. O N S E LECTED F O R I T S G E N E RA L H U M I DITY. TH E ROUGH NOT COSTU M E . U S U A LLY I M A D E THE OFFICIAL U N D E R PA NTS. SEXUAL D E L I B E RA T E L Y A LLO W I N G TH E TO "NOR M A L I S E" SPEAK.A POSTROPHI S I NG OF MY BODY). ON T H E N A R ROW M E DI A N OF CLOTH THUS P R E P A R E D. S O F A R AS T H A T P A R T OF M Y O W N BODY WAS CON C E R N ED. SPEAK. HANG OVER LEAST R E S E M B L E D FACTORY-MADE U N D ERPA NTS. GROU N D MASS THEN D U R I NG ITS RIDE ON THE B I K E'S W H E N I H A D M Y BIGGEST E RECTIONS CORRESPONDS WITH A COST U M E R E D U C E D TO ITS M I N I M UM. TRAGE DY. A LSO LOST. I TOOK TO COLL E G E WITH ME THE MOST E LE M E NTARY M A TE R I A LS !THAT I S TO SAY. W A R M E R. I DON. B A R E . TH E SEXUAL. A N D TH E R E. B Y R E F E R E N C E TO T H E OF TH E COST U M E'S SATCHELS FROM T H E B I K E. R E C E I V E D. T H E N TA K I NG MY B I K E . M Y I D E A B E I N G THAT IN CASE OF A S E A RCH THEY M IGHT AT F I RST G LA N C E BE M I STA K E N FOR A IN THE NOTES I R E F E R R E D TO E A R L I E R ( N U M B E R E D ACCORDI NG T O A H A B I T I STI LL RETA I N A N D W H ICH CAN LEAD TO A WHOLE DAY'S SEARCH FOR A N IDEA -NATU R E : D U R I NG TH E DAY WHEN MY BED­ TO BE TRAC ED THROUGH AND THE S UC C E S S I O N NOTED OF TH E SO BANDAG E . PRECI PITATE ORGASM EVEN AT THE EXPENSE OF A TEXT R I C H IN LECH E ROUS PROMI S E . RooM'S L A C K OF SECU RITY P R E V E NTED M E FROM SATI SFYI N G A DESI R E ACC E N T U A T E D BY THE " I DEAS" N I GHT NUMBERED M ENTALLY A BEFORE) TH U S PUTTI NG STOP-NOT S U D D E N R E SOLUTION OF A PROBLE M O F WRITING WHICH H A D BEEN TROUBLING M E FOR SOME TI M E (ATTE M PTS AT A N E W SYNTAX). WHAT BE EMOTIONAL. V E R T E B R A E. S O TO BY P U L L I N G MY FIST THE TH R E AT DESTRUCTION. S P U RT I N G FROM T H E R I G I D VOI D. IN SPITE OF TH E F A SC I N A T I O N OF M YT H . AROUND WHICH I THE HOURS OF A B A N DON BY LETTI N G TH E SAPS SOFTEN A N D R E A N I MATE THE DRY S P E R M STUC K TO TH E THROUGH T H R E A D E D COA RSE PACK I N G STR I NG. ROD BENT TO TH E STRA I N I N G WITH C LO T H . THAT W H AT TlBLE I NC A PA C ITY OF THOSE CLOSE TO ME TO H ELP M E U N D E RSTA N D TH E M EXCEPT BY T R E ATING TH E M W I T H STRICTLY E MOTIO N A L R E S PECT. ITS STRI KES TH E STU F F NAPE OF MY N EC K AGA I N ST A T R E E T R U N K : A F I R TO BEGIN WITH. HERE. WESTERN A U STER I TY W H I C H . OR T H E TRANSC R I P­ TION OF A SOCIO-BO R D ELLO I N T U ITION. IT. U N DO I N G MY FLY A N D WRIGG L I N G MY H I PS SO T H E S H O R T S S L I P D O W N M Y LEGS OF TH E I R O W N ACCORD. OR AGAIN. A C L A N D E S T I N E M O I ST ITS TH E T H E COST U M E S S I TT I N G N A K E D ON TH E E D G E OF M Y BED: I C U T TH E W I TH C LOTH A HEM BY AS G U E S S . NO S P EC I A L DRAMA­ TISATION D U R I NG T H E S E SESSIONS. EXPULSING AND FROM ITS BODY AND C R EV I C E S ) MORE BATH I N G IN O R G I A ST I C "COS M I C A LLY" ITS S PA R E R S H A D E STRON G E R ODOR: SINCE TH EN.

PERHAPS THIS SYSTEM OF CONCENTRA T I N G ON SOUNDS PRODUCED R I GH T IN FRONT O F T H E MICROP H O N E. BUTTOCKS. USE THE RECORDER IS A D D E D T O THIS V I S U A L D I S POSITION. AND TH E R IG H T HAND W R I TING. A C Q U I RING TYPICA L OF M A SS O F O R G A NS. PIMP AND BAWD. M A Y RETURN TO THE BODY F ROM WHICH IT COMES. W A S P R O P P E D A P I E C E OF FA M I LY M I R RO R (ONCE PART OF THE B E D ROOM SESSION. D U R I NG T H E DAY ANO NIGHT P R ECEDING THE N E XT ORGASM. . BELLY AND LUNGS WOR K I NG LIKE B E L LOWS. "LET THE S P E R M R U N DOWN MY LEGS" '''TREAD IN IT ON TH E T I L E S" / " E A T THE S P E R M " . OR B A C KG R O U N D V OC A L I SING ON NOIS ES. INVENTION AND FA B R I CATION OF I MAGINARY M A C H I N ES. ONLY LATER A N D ON R A R E OCCA S I ONS. BY M USCULAR TH E FATIGUE. AND FO R Q U A RT E R OF A N H O U R A FTERWARDS IN A POST-ORGIASTIC STUPOR. ETC" THE VOICES HIG H L Y CHARGED S E X U ALLY) TO WH I P UP F L A G G I NG IMAGINARY EDIFICE FOLLOW E D I M M E D I ATELY S E RVED T O PROLONG T H E TEXT A S FA R A S POS S I B L E A N D A T T H E SAME T I M E EFFACE. RELAPSE SA V I NG MYSTI C I S M I . THANKS TO MY " P L U S-FO U RS" AND ON DAYS OF E XT R E M E M Y CLAN­ E V E N I NG COST U M E WITH H I S LEFT H AND. N E R V E S FROZEN STI F F I N TH E I R R E LA XATION. AT THE END OF EACH M A STU R B A TO R Y C L O S E S T T O M Y H E E LS." D E S TI N E W H EN I I C O U L D P U T O N O N E OF W E A R I NG IT TILL C O ST U M E S. "TONIGHT. PROVIDED A SOLI D CORPOR E A L BASIS FOR M Y W R ITING. P L A S T E R COST U M E" / "TI GHTEN T H E COSTUME" . THE N E E D IS SO GREAT THAT ME EVEN T H E FROM A W F U L COLD DOES NOT P R E V ENT M A ST U RBATING NU DE. A RECOR D I NG USED A FT E R W A R D S B U T TO NOT ONLY AS A D D I TIONA L STI M U LA NT. A G A I N ST THE BOTTOM B A R S OF THE B E D. S M E A R S P E R M ON M Y MOUTH" . ROLLED UP W I TH T H E COST U M E IN A IN THE CLOTH AND H IDDEN. THE SESSION TAKES PLACE B E H IN D C LO S E D R E SOLUTIONS CAN B E S E EN A S THE BEG I NNINGS O F A DRAMATISATI ON WINDOWS. THIS M A ST U R BATO R Y W R I TING. WHAT MORE TH E R E B R UT A L L Y BE THAN E X C I T I NG S P ECT A C L E C O U L D A C H I LD M A S T U R B A T I NG IN D U R I NG THOSE S A M E W I NT E R HOLIDAYS. FINA LLY. FOR A GI N G TH ROUGH H E A PS OF RAGS A N D PILES O F BROKEN F U RNIT U R E WITHO U T HAVING GIVEN ME FAIR W A R N I NG . NEXT MORNING. H A D DECIDED TO MASTUR BATE: TO W A L K M Y D I S A RRAY AT T H A T T I M E STEM MED FROM T H E CONT R A D I CTORY D R I V E S T O B E BOTH S E E N AND S E E. OR S O M E M ECHANICA L PROB L E M ( R E PA I R S TO THE B I K E . S O TO SPEAK. SO TO E M PLOYED D U R I NG T H E M A ST U R BATORY SESSION : FO R INSTANCE. SOCIA L NAL SOU N DS FROM T H E VILLAGE. I N A L L INNOCENCE. FI CTITIOU S L I STS OF RECORDS TO BUY. ONCE T H E RELATI V E pA RTS HAD BEEN WIPED. LOINS. AND W R I TING WITH TH E OTH E R ? "SOLITU DE. SOMETIMES STRING. N E U T R A L I SING D I U RNAL A N D NOCTUR­ TH E N TA K I NG TEXTUAL. BUYER AND R O U N D TH U S GI RDED IN THE F A M I L Y CIRCLE. I THINK. M USCLES. A TAPE ROLL F E L L INTO M Y MOTH E R'S H ANDS. BOTH T H E AND THE POST O R GIA STIC ENE R G I ES. WHO. PARTIC U L A R L Y I F T O TH E COST U M E UNDER THE OFFI CIA L UNDER­ BOU G H T. IF POSS I BLE. H E A D SWE ATING. PENED T H A T. LATER. C LOTH SUCH PLACES. IT SHOULD BE SAID TH A T T H E S E RESOLUTIONS CALLED FORTH O R G I A ST I C S C O R E . W R ITING U NT I L THE SWEAT OF HEEL AND TOES M I STS UP THE M I R RO R. ETC. STILL BIG ENOUG H A FOR E ­ A LWAYS D I FF E R ENT C R A NNY OF T H E ATTIC CONT E M P LATE MYSELF-IN W H E R E . EVEN "D E S P A I R" O R G I A STIC AND OF OF DISGUISE I NTO A LYING N A K E D . ORGY" . NOT H I NG TH I S IN E X A LT E D MY R E SO L U T I O N S U B S I ST E D E Y E S E X C E PT A L U D ICROUSLY T R U NCATED SCENA RIO: B U T ON REFLECTION. W E R E STUCK SC R A PS OF TH E ORGIASTI C N OT E S . T H E S E SCRIB B L E D NOTES WE RE. AND THESE D R I V E S WERE PA RTLY R E FLECT E D IN THE APPA RATUS PANTS. P U NCTUATE T H E M U SIC O F M A STU R B A T I ON."TON I G H T. AND P R E P A R E D THE LONGEST POSS IBLE SCENA RIO: NOW. TIGHT ROUND ORGANS. E X A M I N E IT THROUGH A MAGNI F Y I N G GLASS" '''TH I S S U M M E R . GAVE ME AN A LMOST pER FECT SATISFACTION. WITH ORGA N S. ETC . IN WINTE R . TIE TH E COSTU M E ROUND M Y NECK" . TENDONS TAUT A G A I NST T H E TILES. PUTS IT SOM EWH E R E WHICH TAKES lB . F U C K E R A N D FUCKED. "TOMORROW NIGHT. NA M E LY THE SPLASH O F SpE R M A S IT HIT T H E COST U M E . TH E FI RST ORGASM (THOSE DESTROY E D THAT TH E W A S C O M M E RCIA L M U S I C USED (GENRE POP SINGER AND ANGLO-SAXON POP. THE SO THAT THE M USIC. STI LL SO F R A I L AND UNRECOGN I S E D .E N D S P E A K. LIKE A FROSTY ECHO OF T H E O R G I A STIC C I R C U I T. C I RC U M SC RIBING MY VIRILE ATTRIB UTES.). A LAYER I COULD OF TH E IT COUNT O N DAMp AND TH E M D U ST H A P­ SHO RTENING R E M I N I SCENT O F THIGHS MANTEG N A -WH I LE L E FT HAND AND MASTURBATING: KNE A D I NG THE OPEN. EYES STA R I NG TILL ECLI PSED BY THE ORGASM. T H E TOWN.E R ("S E E R"). MIRROR W H E R E M Y P A R ENTS COULD CONTE MpLATE T H E M S E LVES FO R ME TO FULL LENGTH ) . M AC H I N E AND M I C ROPHON E SET U P BETW E E N T H E KNEES TO TApE TH E M A ST U R BATORY S E S S ION. W H EN M A STUR BATING ON TH E BED. THESE R E SOLUT IONS A LTERNATING WITH OTH ERS A BOUT M Y W R I T I NG. AND POLITICAL FORM: IT A LSO. O R A MONG MY FE LLOWS A T COLLEGE.

L. EXT E N D I NG FU RTHER A N D F U RTHER. REASONS.FACTO R Y S E N SA T I O N S OF A TERMS I W A S A L. Y DE­ W H I T E N E S S AFTER EACH BOMB.ACK C U RL. O N G THE L.Y L.IT-QRGY): THEN. BL. THROAT PULSI NG. A S REVEAL. AND L. E E P I N G .D AND IN R U N N I N G.L.. A PROCESS SO I M PERCEPTI BL. I M ITS OF PROSTITUTIONAL.EANI NG.L. G I R D I NG LIKE D E R ELI CTION BY COM PA R I SON WITH THE I M MACUL.EGE FL. L.L.L.ATE BETWEEN TR I U M P H A L.­ I N G. SQU E A L.ATE R DATE.ITURGICAL. AT A L. IT C A N C EL. T E R N A T E . EJAC UL. I HOPE I S L.USTRADE OF A D U R I N G EACH SESSION. BUT AL.IKE A M ECHA N IC'S A P P R ENTICE OR ADOL. .L. AND R I T U AL. FOR OBVIOUS C E L.L. R ESTORES ME TO EQU I L. LAUGHING.VES. GLI MPSED ONE EVEN BEFO R E THAT. Y L.IPPING BACK I N TO T H E V I S UAL. L A R S A N D AT G R O U N D LEVEL. T R Y I N G TO SC A L.WAYS CON V I N C E D M E . TOWN WHERE THE COL. I V I N G A IN SCHIST OF ROCK.Y. T H E I NTERVAL. MAY APPEAR AS TH E B R I N G I N G IT U P N EXT D A Y COV E R E D I N GREASE. I K E THAT OF A BOY. D E D A P R E COC I O U SL. ROUGH WOOD E N B A L.OO M I N G U P BEHI N D THE BOY FROM A DARK PASSAGEWAY. I GOT I NTO TH E H A B I T OF TA KI NG IT DOWN THE R E A FT E R TH E N I G H T L. E NEUTRALISED.ATE L I N E N S O F LITU RGY (L. SEVEN AT MOST.ASTING. D R E C OG N I S E TH E BAWDY I NTO MYSTICAL.L. BODI ES. A U D ITORY AND OL. PHANTASIES.L THE ORGIASTIC NOTES OF MY ADOLESCE N C E HAVE B E E N L.S. SPLASHI NG H I M WITH ITS BL. Y M A STU RBATION. TORSO B A R E. T H E Y D R A M A T I S E D.Y OF THE E N E RGY OF MY D R IVES. I HAVE A M EMORY OF SHORT FRAG M ENTS WHE R E NAR RATIVE VERSE. SOCIAL. CONTACT WITH OTHER PROSTITUTI ONAL. IT IS TH I S SUMMARY FASHION. BECA USE OF THE S W I TC H IN MY TH O U G H T ME PROCESS. THE SHOWER THAT HAS BEEN THREATE N I NG. ECTICALL.ED I N FIL. I N ITI AL. HEAD THROWN BACK. VELOPED V I R I LITY.ING OF THE COSTUME IN TH E CL. THE AND AS I IN SPEECH WAS AN A L. WHERE D I R ECTION ( M YSTIC O R POL.OI N -CL.MS BY JORIS I V E N S A N D OTHERS.E. HOUSE. FROM A M E N TA L I TY A N D A BODY STRETC H E D TO THE L. A C T I V I TY.F TO E XA M I N E IT AFTER M A STU R BATION FOR TRACES OF A MIXTURE O F SPERM AND G R E A SE. THE COST U M E STUCK TO M Y FL. OR PEOPLE I HAD CA UGHT CONVICTION THAT. E X (WIPING AND ROL. A V WORKERS. G I R D I N G IT O N L.L.OWS: FROM ONE E J A C U LATION TO THE N E XT I OSCIL.E IN ITS SWITCH OF E N E RGY.L D R E S S AND WHITE KERCH I E F L.EGS SO W I D E APART I C O U L.LlNG U P) F R U STRATI N G WHAT. SEEN IN R E T R O S P E CT.Y: TH E "HYG E N IC" R E FL.L. CROWDS. BUT SIGHT O F IN THE SL.APSE AL.­ TA N EOUSL. UNDER THEIR OWN N A M E S A N D APPEARANCE. W E A R I N G A PA I R OF TIGHT BL. A C ROWD.SO OF THE D R I V E B E H I N D AL. THAT I N EITHER STON ES-A N D SUDDENL.UTIONARY V I ET NAM.L. SO L. SEEMS THE A M I RACUL.L. OR FL. WITH RES UL.L. H I S L.G R I M AGE ON FOOT TO SOM E "GROTESQUE" CAVERN OF A TRA NSPORT OF TH E F I RST ORGASM. O V E R THE BAL.EAR­ THE HEADED I N T E R V E N E: A FT E R SUM M E R E V E N I NG R ETURNING FROM A PIL. O N G L. THE BITTER TASTE OF A D R I N K DISTR I BUTED BY T H E G U A R D I A N N U N S STIL.OTH I S E M PL. U I D BELON G I N G T O A WOM A N I N A FUL. THAT POU R S FROM BU RST SEWERS I N TO THE I R ONE AND ONL.F I N D I NG: FOR EXAM PL. TACTIL. THIS SWITCH. 19 . A N D MORE AND MORE D I A L. ORGASM I S FOL.OUS V I RG I N . N A M EL. I N E N AND OBJECTS R E STO R E D TO PRISTI N E I NHAB ITED BY S L.T. E A N UP THE SHIT THE M SEL. SEATED IN FRONT OF A HO U S E COSTU M E H O R R I FY I NG S T I L. I N G MOMENTS UP OF TH E CL.Y I M MA C U LATE. T O R N U P I NTO M I N UTE SCRA PS S O THAT NO ONE C O U L. AS T H E R E ARE SEVERAL. S L.ESCENT PROSTITUTE.S STUCK TO HIS BROW WITH WHAT I I M A G I N E D WAS SPERM. IN IN S U N A N D W I N D.Y.A N KS WITH S E M E N FEEL. THAT IT HAS SOM ETI M E S POETRY AT W RITING TIME. PRO M I S I NG MYSEL.EN­ TIAL. .E. HAVE T O C L. H A V I N G FINAL.L. E PH E M E R A L AL. E TH E COA L. I N O U R MOUTHS .Y TRACKED THE ROL.IVI NG ROOM. AT THE VERY MOMENT OF ORGASM. NOT ONL.OST. ONCE TH E COSTU M E A N D NOTES ROL. I N TH E STREET. OF FORCES. KNIFE I N THE OTH ER. CL. DESI R E TO A M E N TAL.ASH O F M U D OR B L. I N SHOPPING CENTRES. D S E E THE WH ITE E DG E OF U N DER­ PANTS THAT M O U L.ED U P.S L I K E TH E PESTI L.OTH AS THE AND A B J ECT IS NOT C A ST-OFF W H O L. R E A DY U S I NG: O R TH ROWN AS THEY WERE DOWN THE WC AT THAT PRECISE MOM ENT WHEN I K N E W A N D D I D NOT KNOW IF DES I R E WO UL. CERTA I N OF MY SCHOOL.ooD. CAST-OFF O F A DECADENT WEST AS OPPOSED TO L. oo D BY A REVOL. Y: THE W E A R I NG OF T H E S E M E N-SOA K E D COSTU M E AT AL.A U NTED ITS MACMAHON I E N ARCHITECTUR E-FUGITIVE BUT OBSESSIVE VI­ SIONS-L.B LA C K E N E D BETWEEN THE FI RST ONE AND THE ROL.OWED B Y A REL. M A I N LY AND SOCI ETY LlTURGICAL.-WHICH. BROOM IN ONE HAND. IN RAIN. I N P U R SUIT O F A RAT-RAT J U M P I NG OVER THE BOY'S B A R E N ECK.ATIONS. ETC. I N E N SHORTS SOAKED WITH SWEAT BETW E E N THE T HI G H S . C O N Y A B OV E H I M-A MAN SUDDENL. TO M Y FATH E R'S G A RAGE UNDER THE TIM ES. BETWE E N THE FI RST ORGASM AND THE ROL. BREAKS OVE R THI S S U B U R B HANG I N G FAMI L I E S A L.Y O V E R ALL MY DRIVES. EACH SPL.S OUT.UMS OF THE I N DUSTRIAL.OYED AS FOL.UE L. V E E R I NG BACK TO THE WAL. F R I E N DS. OUTWA RD M A N I FESTATION OF A CONTROL.L. HEAT.L.D RETURN.OTH.ITICAU MASTUR BATION E X C R ET E S DESIRE AND ITS A N T I DOTE S I M U L. I BRI UM.ITY AND A BODY SL. IN COL. HUMAN AND M A T E R I A L.

A BOTH M A LE AND FEMALE B E FO R E I COULD S U M MO N UP ALL THE M E NTAL A N D COR PO R E A L TENSIONS T H A T USUALLY PRESIDED AT THE MOMENT OF ORGASM. I NT E R J ECTIONS W I THOUT SYNTACTIC LINKS-QNLY SPEECH. I N TH E NUDE. A N D WRITING AS MUCH TEXT A S POSSI B L E B EFORE IT ROSE FREQUENCY OF TH I S S E X U A L C HOICE SHOULD BE SET AGAI NST A NOTH E R VERY DEFINITE TENDENCY OF MY F I FT E E N T H OR S I XTE E NTH YEAR: AS I AGA I N . WAS TRYI NG TO I M POSE ON M E THE MOST I NS I P I D A N D SUPERFICIAL OF I T S PRODUCTIONS. ETC. FOR DUCED A N O R D E R : THE M A N U SC RIPT ( 1 962. EXPRESSION H A N DW R ITI NG CRA M PED A N D MORE D E L I B ERATELY VE RTICAL TH I S A LT E R N A N C E . I H A V E A LWAYS CONSIDERED THAT TH E NAMES I NTEGRAL TO THE F RENCH LANGUAGE CARRY WITH THEM TH E DESUET ATMOSPH E R E OF A WESTERN CIVILI SATION W H I C H . AT THAT TI M E . MENDERS OF PROSTITUTIONAL G A R M E N TS TOR N D U R I NG "I NTERCOURSE. OVER-STI M U ­ M A N I P U LATION. P R I C E OF BOD I E S. PUSH E R S OF ORGI ASTIC BODI E S. M Y EYES ON A PAGE OF E UROPEA N H I STORY I N A BOOK I KEPT BESIDE THE BED. TH E I R A HACKNEYED. COST OF E V O K I NG PROSTITUT I O N A L "SO A P O P E R A . PRODUCI NG OPERATED A TEXT W H E R E TYPI N G A C H O I C E OF I N TRO­ N ECESSA R I LY POS I TIONING OF ORGANS AND COSTUME. O F V A R I A T I O N S . O R B ETTER STI LL. R E P E T I T I O N S .) I N WHICH M A ST U R B A T E D . OR FORCE D TO TH E BACK OF THE BA LLS. SO TO SPEAK. THE M A N I P U LATON O F T H E P E N I S I N S I D E THE U N I N H IBITED CLOTH PRODUCED A RELAXED TEXT. QUITE E A R LY IN THE PIECE. TO WRITE A NARRATIVE SEQUENCE. WITH THE BOD I ES OF VERY REAL AND BAWDY WOME N . I N D U C E D A TEXT OF N A R RATIVE AND SPEECH I N WHICH TH E H A R D ECONOMIC FACTS O F PROSTITU­ TION (SALE. THE STR I C T U R E OR L A X ITY O F TH E COST U M E SCE N A R I OS TA K E T U R N TOWARD SLAVERY IN MOULDING TH E TEXT M A D E I T EITHER TOUGH OR TENDER. SIONS. I N C A S E OF A P RONOUNCED E REC­ TION. M A ST U R ­ I N THIS R E S U LTS TH E M A N U SC R I P T." "JA C K Y. O F A EXAM PLE: PRONO U N C E D E R ECTION ACCELE RATES ORGAS M I C URGE NCY. IF I LET THE COSTU M E H A N G LOOSE ON M Y LOI NS. THIS H A STE ONLY A LLOWS FOR WORDS TO BE PUT ON PAPER. H I R E. F A M I L I A R ITY AND EASE IN H A N D LI N G ITS RH ETOR I C GAVE M Y HAND TH E SPEED NECESSARY. WHICH MEANS THE TEXT HAS TO B E WRITTEN IN H ASTE." WEARERS OF MASC U L I N E ATTI RE R EMOVED FOR "I NTERCOURSE" (MORE FA M I LI A R TO M E AT THAT THOUGHTS TOWA R D NON-SEXUAL ZONES.1 969) B E A R S G R A P H I C WITNESS NOT ONLY TO THE DETA I L A N D C H RONOLOGICAL C U RVE O F TH I S PROCESS O F I NT E R A C T I O N . O N THE OTH E R HAND. ) THE ONLY M A N I P ULATING TH ESE BODIES. ITS E R ECTION SCREWED DOWN. FROM TH E M E ET I N G O F THESE CONT R A D ICTO R Y C U R R E NTS. D U R I NG THIS NOMINAL CONFU­ P E R I OD WHICH I 20 . " OFFIC I A L FRENCH ETC . B U T A LSO I N I T S W R I TI NG. COMMON SOU N D SITUTATION. ACCOUNTANCY OF THE NUMBER OF IN TIMES. " " FR A N K I E . OF M U LT I P L I E D LATER BY T H E I NUMBER PLACES (HOTELS. VERY SEXY O F B U M O R BREAST. A PAGE OF P H I LOSO P H Y O R H I STORY OF PH I LOSOPH Y . E V E N COMIC. T H E R E FORE: BUT GRA DUAL­ LY." " E D D I E . MOM ENT AS A N E N S E M B L E OF SOCIAL POSTU RES TH A N AN ACT OF P E N ETRATION). D I R ECTI NG MY WOM E N .) FO U N D TH E I R ITSELF. O V E R LA P P I NG O F SEQUE NCES. " (DU R I NG M Y TRIPS T O NORTH A FR I CA I DISCOVERED THAT MANY A R A B SERVA NTS. OR WITH TH E D EG R E E OF THE M E M B E R'S ER ECTION.ERECTION. " D E C ENT" T E XTII N DECENT ABUNDANCE. THE ETC.A M O N G OTH E R REAL OR I M A G I N A R Y BOD I E S . TH I S I COU L D DO SEVERAL T I MES. S P E ECH A N D N A R RATIVE WRITTEN WITHOUT THOUGHT OF TH E P ROSTIT U T I O N A L ANTIQUITY (TH E LATI N I S E D OR GRECIAN N A M ES OF BODIES CONSTITUTI NG BY T H E I R SOLE E N U M E RA ­ TION ALL T H E TEXT R E Q U I R E D T O STI M U L ATE DESIRE): THEN THE TH E M E CHA NGES TO PROSTITU­ TION AS I LE A R N FROM R A D I O HOW S E X UALLY C H A R G E D C E R TA I N O B V I O U SLY MODERN N A M E S CAN BE. WH EREAS THE TIGHT LAC I NG OF THE CLOTH ON TH E M E M BER. ERECTION/ ITS J ET REMEMBER THOUG HTS IT." TH E A LLOWI NG TH E M EMBER TO SUBSI DE. BATORY. NAMES THAT FIGURE AMONG THE S E ANGLO-SAXON BORROWI NGS A R E OF SLAV ORIGIN (SERGE). 'ON TH I S EXC H A NGE: HAVING WEDGED THE E RECT M E M B E R I NTO TH E COST U M E BY IMPRESSING ON IT A PROP ULSION THAT R E M I N DED ME OF A COG-WHE E L OR A SCREW. LED TO A ETC. R E P ET I T I O N WITH VARIATIONS O F PRECEDING SEQU ENCES I N S C R I B E D ON THE I R REGULAR A LTERNATION N A RRATIVE/SPEECH SHOULD A LSO B E SEEN IN R ELATION WITH THE TH E MASS OF NOTES WHICH I COULD NOT TRA N SPORT. I ABANDONED IT. DISCHARGED SC E N A R I OS. A LREADY LOOKED ON AS "SERVANTS OF THE MALE BODY. TH R E E Q U A RTERS OF MY WAKING ARE B U S Y PLOTTI N G "HOMOS E X U A L" BY R EPEATED D E J ECTION/RE. W H I LE S L E E P A N D DREAM AFFORD M E O N L Y CONFRONTATIONS. OR FRAGME NTS OF WORDS. SHOP ASSI STANTS AND APPRENTICES CALL T H E MSELVES "CH A R LEY. U NTIL THE MOMENT LATE D CAME WHEN TH E M E MBER. I PLAYED P R OG R E S S I V E C O N V E R G E N C E B E T W E E N T H E "DECENr' (THAT I S TO S A Y TH E PUBLISHABLE OR P U B L I S H E D ) TEXT WITH TH E G R EAT SEXUAL SWELL. A S I GOT M Y "TONGUE" I NTO THE WRITI NG OF FRENCH.

I K E A P R E S E N C E ON M Y C H EST. I TY: D E S I R E ORGASM: THE AND R E SOL. FL. WORDS O F T H I S J A RGON I STRUGGLED WITH A D E M O N I N TH E WOODS.LY BECAUSE WHEN WRITING NAMES AND R HETORIC CHOSEN FOR ITS QUASI-B A N A L. FINA L. DA N I E L SL. MARVEL.ITERARY PUBL. ITS M O R E COM M O N I N TH E TODA Y : ST U C K A N D U NS T U C K BY S U C C E S S I V E ORGA S M S .UTION STYL. T H E S U N L.OW. A R E FRAG­ M E NTS OF S E X U A L. ARE U N R E A DABL. I WAS NAKED A N D ALONE. I N S U L.ONE A L. I SAT UPON THE ANCI E NT STUM P. I T SHOULD B E NOTED THAT THE TEXTUAL.T I E S OF PUBLISH­ I NG EVEN "DECE Nr' TEXTS. A N U M B E R OF NOTES FROM THIS P E R I OD. S .E AND H I R E O F BODI E S . R E N A L.L. NO DOUBTI I HAVE TO I N TE R R U PT WHAT THREATENS TO BECO M E A P H YSIOL. A N D NOM I N A L.VES. W H I C H M AY SUBSE­ QUENTL. P R E PA R E D OF "T E X T U A L.ET AL.ICKED TH ROUGH TH E S U NL.EN TREE HAD L. L. OR PRICES OF TH E SAL. THOSE ECHOS STIL. GL.-A N D B R I NG M Y B O D Y B A C K TO WHAT I BELI E V E 15 A CRUDER.TATION O F C E RTA I N TEXTS. CARDI AC.lNG T H ROUGH TH E I R EYES AS IT TOPPLED SL. L. TOUCHING TH E C R U MBLED FINGERS THAT HAD FEL.ATIO N S . 15 NUMBERS I PRESSED H AR DEST WITH T H E N I B .ITY TO FIT TH E "DECENr' TEXT SUCCEEDED BY A FRAG M E NT OF SPEECH OR N A RRATIVE TEXTUA L.Y ENTA I L M A KI N G CERTA I N C UTS. TREM BL. O N G HOURS IN P I E R R E GUYOTAT ADVANCE SESSION: R H Y T H M I C A L.OATE 21 . I HOWLED LIKE A BEAST U PO N T H E DEAD SHADOWS WHERE THE FA L. A R E I N V E N T E D S I M U L. AND I SPRINKLED TH E GRASSES WITH MY OFFE R I N G TO I T S SILENCE A N D I T S WOO D E N C A R ESS.OG IC D A N G E R . THE DEMON L.T A N E IOUSL.TS.ED TH E TREE.Y WITH WORK ON A "DECENr' TEXT. FROM O N E NIGHT TO ANOTH E R .IPTIC IN ITS J ARGON. WORDS.R E M E M B E R B E ST.OINS A N D WRESTL. F R O M A FTERNOON T O E V E N I NG ( A T C E RTAIN TI M E S THE RESURGENCE OF DESIRE A C C E L. AND MASTURBATORY SESSION. A L. SEL.ICATION OF T H E NOTES. A FRAGMENT OF FADED M I XT U R E O F I N K A N D S E M E N .L. A BOVE AL.P U L.L.L. TH E M fRANSLATED B Y CAT H E R I N E D U N C A N MODUL. Y" TH E L.AIN. E R AT E S .M O N A R Y .E C H A NG E S . A P P ELL. A Y L. T H A T E MERGES THROUGH THE R E A L.L. THE DE MON SEIZED M Y L.ATIONS.EFT M E AND S L E PT UPON THE OFF E R I NG.IGHT. O N E THAT PRODUCES WRITI NG-JARGON.Y COMPLEX AND ELL.L.L. I K E A M U S H ROOM AFTER R A I N . PRINCI­ PAL.L. WHEN I WAS ASSAILED BY THE DIFFI C U L.ED IN TH E GRASS.ED TH E M . L.IST E N I NG THE R E L.Y. THOSE FOOTPRINTS STI L.E H E N C E TH E EXAL. A POSTROPHIC PUNCTUATION.

SIGNS OF LEUCORRHOE A I C D I SC H A RG E FROM T H E G E N I T A L ORGA NS. S H E M A R R I E D A N D DIS M I SS E D A L L H E R L I TT L E BOY F R I E N DS. A DO R E D CLOTH ES A N D DOTED O N P E R F U M E. SOM ETI M ES SCREA M I NG RAGE OR THE F LOOR: RAT H E R OLD-FA S H I O N E D I N H E R W A Y S . RESE RVING FOR HERSELF FA IRY. I N S I STING T H E Y SHOULD BE H E A RTBRO K E N TO THE PO I N T OF TEARS. TH I N . IN SPITE O F THAT. A N D A N A L I R R ITATION. . AND A SHE A LWAYS TRYI NG T O DOM I N ATE T H E OTH E R C H I L D R E N A N D F I G H T I N G TOOTH A N D N A I L I F T H E Y D A R E D OPPOSE H E R . MADE HER KIND AND LIKE C ON S I D E R ATE M A N N ERS E V E R YON E H E R. N E RVOUS. ROLLE D BECAM E X . TH E R E W E R E SUCCESSI V E LY. . T H I S TENDENCY TO TH E FT H A D B E E N REMARKED LOV E D TO WHEN LEARN ASKING SHE WAS NOT YET FIVE. TE N D E R BOYS W E R E H E R A D M I R I N G SLAVESI LITTLE X . WITH SOM E T H I N G SACC H A R I N E I N H E R EXPRESSION. O F D E LICATE COM PLE­ XION. TH E ROLES OF Q U E E N . S H E L I K E D W H A T WAS B E A UTIFUL. A LWAYS S M I L I NG. . B U T D I S L I K E D P R A Y I N G ON T H E CONTRARY. V A I N . POK E D F U N AT T H E PI ETY O F OTH E R C H I LD R E N A N D M A D E A TYRA N N I Z I N G T H E M A T TI M E S.O N A N IS M A N D N E R VOUS DISORDE R S IN TWO L I TTLE GI R LS CASE H I STORY J E A LOUS. D E P R E S S E D FOR N O R E A SO N . A BO U T T H I N G S Q U E ST I O N S . HER MOOD WOU L D IN ON A CHANGE FIT OF W I TH O U T SHE SHE WA R N I NG. AND THE GAME S H E L I K E D PL A Y I N G B E ST OF A LL WAS G E TTING MARRIED. Q U I C K TE M P E R E D . EVEN WHEN TH E Y COULD HAVE B E E N H E R'S FOR TH E A S K I N G . NEVER LIVELY S TO P P E D OF I MAGI NATION. ONE F A C T THAT SHOULD B E NOTED I S THAT FROM E A R LY C H I LD HOOD SHE STOLE AND A H I N T OF' HYPOC RISY THAT SEEMED OUT OF PLACE IN SOM EO N E OF HER AGE. S H E WON SWEET AND EVER YBODY'S HE ART W I T H H E R D I S PO S I T I O N . S H E W A S COQU E TT I S H A N D A TT R ACTI V E . E N V I O U S . CAPR ICIOUS. S H E W A S P R O U D . E V E N L I TTLE F A C E W H E N TOLD A BOUT GOD. . WAS TEN Y E A R S OLD. SHE ACTED AND T A L K E D LI K E A GROWN-UP. A T OTH E R T I M E S S H E WAS POS S E S S E D BY A F E V E R I S H GAI ETY. SHE WAS ANAEMIC H I GH L Y E XC I TA B L E . S H E E X E R C I SEr. WAS GOOD AT PRETE N D I NG . THE C H I L D BEGAN TO LOSE WEIGHT IN SPITE OF AND HER USUAL A P P ETITE. A LOCA L E XA M I NATION R E V E A L E D T H E P R E S E N C E O F ENOO- 22 .> A CON S I D E R ­ ABLE I N FLUENCE ON A LL H E R C O M PA N I O N S . E A R LY IN 1879. EXTREMELY I N TELLIGENT. I N EVERY G A M E SHE H A D TO B E THE LEADER. PRI NCESS O R C A R E F U LLY H I D OBJECTS THAT TOOK H E R FANCY. OR E LS E F E L L I NTO A BROWN STUDY. THEY PUT U P WITH IT B E C A U S E OF HER U N F A I L I N G C H A R M . V I N DICTIVE.

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AS FAR AWAY AS POSS I B L E FROM M A I DS A N D GOV E R N E S S E S.S INTO TH E TRAP SET FOR H E R .T OF TH I S T R E A T M E N T X . MADE F EARS KNOWN TO THE PARE NTS. .EEP TH ERE.IKING FOR AS KINDNESS M A D E NO I M PRESSION ON X . IF N EC ESSARY.ITTL.Y A N D PROM I S E D NOT TO DO IT AGAIN. S E E M ED TO I M P ROVE. .. STRANGERS.A T E R F R I ENDS. BENT FORWARD. A N D L I K E T H I S CONTRACTED SUCCES­ SIVEL.KING. S H E B E C A M E ABJ ECT. EXPR ESSION. H E R B A D T E M P E R M A D E THE CHIL. P E RPETRATED BY X . WITH H E R HANDS.A B U S E . R E M A RKABLY ENOUGH. L. .LED IT HER I M P ROV E M E NT. H E R BEHAVIOUR EVEN IN CONTI N U ED S E L. WAS FORCED TO A D M IT TH E PRACTICES SHE INDULG E D IN. HIPS.ASCIVIOUS IN HER MOV E M E NTS X . A DOPTI N G CERTA I N POSES A N D STIFFE N I NG WITH CONTRACTIONS.D BOTH EVEN STA RT SCRATCHING H ERSEL.PARASITES. X . A LITT � A R BOU R WAS H E R EXC L. . W H I LE THE THIGHS.USIVE PROPE RTY. .Y. S H E CAL. IT WAS AL. HER BODY SHE AND "PL. EVEN TO B E HARSH A N D C R U E L. BOYS A S WELL AS GIRLS. X .EGS A N D FEET. IN S PITE O F THAT SHE CONTI N U E D TO L. .E X . F . S E R V ANTS. SH E TOOK A C H A I R OUT TH E R E A N D REFUSED CORPORAL PUNISHM ENT WAS R ES O R T E D TO.ENT PA I N S IN TH E LOWER A BDOM E N . LATER AN END WAS PUT TO THIS PRECOCIOUS TURE. R U B B I NG H ERSELF ON' THE COR N E R S OF F U R N I ­ MARRIED. THE U P P E R PART OF HER BODY GREW THI N N E R AND T H I N N ER .EGS APA RT. ON ONE OCCASION SHE WAS FO U N D ASL. A D V I C E . A INVENTED D A I LY BY HER F ERTI LE I M AGI NATION.F VOLU PTUOUS SENSATIONS. X . WAS ST RICKEN BY VIOL.Y AND PH YSICAL. BUT A LS O W I THOUT ANY SIGN ON ACC E S S T O A L L EXCEPT C E RTAIN FAVO U R ITES. SHE POSES AS OUTRAGED INNOCE NCEI SHE PROTESTSI H ER FACE CONTORTS WITH RAGE.D. FURTHER ON I WIL." SHE OFTEN STAYED TH ERE SPREAD LEGS. SHE WALKED WITH H E R L. C A L..E.L. FROM THAT DAY ON A PROGRES­ S I V E CHANGE TOOK PLACE I N THE CHIL. QUITE OPEN LY A N D AT ANY GIVEN M O M E N T TH E CONTACTS WOUL.Y HAN DS.ARC E N I E S OF DESSE RT. AT THE S A M E E POC H STEA LING BECA M E A D A I L Y EVE NT.D U N B E A R A BL. . H IPS AND G E N ITA L ORGA N S DEVELOPED. S H E TOOK UP LASCIVIOUS POSES AND GAVE WAY TO HER PASSION I N THE MOST I N DE C E N T FASH IO N . . OF WAL. . WHAT WENT ON I N THAT PLEAS U R E PA L. A D M O N I SH M E N T S . TH E SC ENE WAS I NDESCRIBABL.AYED AT G E TT I N G ENGAGED AND P R OC U R E D V O L U PTUOU S SPASM. B E N D I N G H E R K N E E S A N D ROLLING THE WAS MOST I NDECENT B E HAVIOUR. IN FRONT OF THE GOVE R N ESS.L. THERE WAS NO HELP FOR IT BUT TO CHANGE TACTICS AND TA KE STE R N E R M E A S U RES. S U P PO S I TO R I E S WERE ADM ITTED.ACE? SUSPICION WAS NOT YET SUFFICIENTL. W IT H WOUL. IT SEATED ON A C H A I R . WITH A N Y KINO OF FOR E IGN BODY THAT CAME TO HAND. X . AS A RESUL.Y: SHE S E E M E D MORE AND MORE SICKLY. HAD A SPECIAL. A N D TH E E N E RG Y S H E E X P E N D E D I N P E R PETRATING WHAT S H E HERSELF C A LL. WAS BECOM I NG. TH E N H E R L. S H E A DOPTE D REVOLTING POSITIONS.Y VARIOUS PA RTS O F HER BODY IN ORDER TO GIVE H E RSEL. ETC. H E R FEET. S U P E R­ VISION .ED HER HORRORS. L.L. . SHE SAT O N T H E EDGE. WHO FAL. A T ALL EVENTS THE C H I LDREN BEING PL. H E R FEA­ TURES TOOK ON HER A BESTIAL. EVIDENT PLEA S U R E.L. SUBM ITTED WITHOUT PROTEST..OPED A STRANGE WAY I N SPITE OF BEING CAUGHT RED H A N D E D L. MORAL. IT WAS TH E N THAT H A VING A S C E R TA I N E D . OR OFF IN TH E WOODS W I TH C E R TA I N C H I L. . IN MA RCH 1881. ETC. S H E W A S T E R R I B L Y A FR A I D O F T H E R O D W H I C H W A S A D M I N I S TE R E D U N S P A R I NGL.L D E SC R I B E IN DETA I L. THEY E V E N EXCHANGED RINGS A N D PROMISED TO MARRY EACH OTH ER WHEN THEY G R E W U P. . WHO GAVE H E RSELF UP MORE AND MORE TO VICE. T H E C H IL. WEPT COPIOUSL.EASURE PAL. . WITH TEN ESMUS AND H A D GREAT DI FFICU LTY IN URINATI NG. THE GOV E R N ESS A LSO NOTICED HOW L.Y A ROUSED. D E N I E S H E R GU ILT WITH BLATANT DEFIANCE. TOWA R D THE MONTH OF PETTY L. VARIOUS PA RTS. ALL THE ING E N IOUS M ETHODS I NTIMACY AND SUPE RVISION I NCREASED. HER PARE NTS. .OSE W EIGHT.D BE RE­ PEATED. . AT TIMES X. K I N D N E S S . H I D I N G IN TH E S H R U BBE RY. OF THE DE VISU. PARTI C U L A R LY FLOGGI NG. NOTHING HER HAD ANY EFFECT ON HER. . A S S H E 24 .ONG THAT AT TIMES SOM EON E WENT TO LOOK FOR H E R.L.D GIVEN A TREATM ENT OF IRON A N D BROMIDE OF POTASSIUM.F HER FAC E BETRAYING AN PRESCRIBED A N D TH E C H I L.O M E L. OBJECTS ARE CONTI N UAL. .SO NOTED THAT D U R I N G GA MES X . E D A N D WEPT BITTERLY. CAPRICIOUS A N D QUARRELSOME. RI BBONS A N D OTHE R SMAL. PRONO U N C E D SWELLING OF I R R ITATION THE VU LVA I WITH MY AT THAT PO I N T I T WAS D ECIDED TO ATTACH H E R H A N DS. OPENED HER LEGS. SWEETS. AT TH E SAME PERIOD IT WAS NOTICED TH AT SH E WAS FORE V E R GOING TO T H E LAVATORY AND STA Y I N G SO L. A N D I N S PITE OF THAT S H E A B U S E D H E R S E L F MORE A N D MORE IN A THOUSA N D WAYS. D R E N .D DEVEL. THE TIGHTENED FOR A LONG TIME WITH A LITTLE BOY.E. JUNE TH E SA M E YEAR. WHEN SCOLDED S H E T R E M B L. . .ACE.

BUT SOON THESE ABLUTIONS B E C A M E OVER F R EQU E N T. ASKED A S A M E A N S O F OVERCO M I NG I T . " SHOW I T WITHOUT ADMITTED E V E R YTHING A N D TOLD H E R SECR ETS. I N SUCH MOMENTS OF A F F ECTION AND LUCI DITY SHE POWE R F U L. IN SPITE OF ALL THE S E PRECA UTIONS X . N E I TH E R NOR SEXUAL SEVERITY H A D THE SLIGHTEST E F F ECT. HANDS I N PROXI M I TY OF THE SHO U LDERS: LEGS A N D F E ET SET W I D E APA RT A N D F I R M L Y ATTACHED TO THE I RO N B E D-STEAD: A BODY-BELT IN THE FOR M OF A STR A P FIXED THE BECA M E I R R E S I STABLE.P I N S IN H E R PILLOW. CHA NGED COLOUR: SHE WRITHED AND STRUGGLED FURIOUSLY IF A N YO N E TRIED TO HOLD HER. E M ITTING RA UCOUS C R I E S THAT GREW MORE A N D M O R E SAVAGE. C O N TO R T I N G TO BED LI FTI NG H E R SKI RTS A N D R U B B I NG HER SHA M E F U L PA RTS FOR A LONG T I M E. W H I C H P R O V E D THAT SHE AGO. S P I TE F U L.. WORKI NG DIFFERENT WAYS. TH ESE ATTACKS OF FOLLY W E R E FOLOW E D ONE DAY SHE S A I D THE FOLLOWI N G PRAYER: "DEA R GOD. MORE MORE I N THIS WAY SHE ALM OST A LWAYS M A N A G E D TO PERVERSE. SHE FROTHED AT THE MOUTH. PLEASE GOD MAKE THEM DIE. BECAUSE I T HAPPE N E D YEARS S L E E P. BUT WITHOU T R E A LL Y WANTING TO. WHAT DO I CARE? I WANT TO DO IT AND DIE. SHE FLEW IN TO THE MOST FRIGHTFUL TEMPER. MANAGED TO UNTIE THAT A L L THE S PONGES H A D B E E N PO K E D F U L L OF HOLES. B Y HOLDING ONE END OF THE E XT E N D E D PIN IN HER M OUTH. WITH DEMONSTRA­ TIONS O F T E N D E R N ESS A N D REPENTA NCE. CO V E R E D AND MARKED SCRATCHES. THIS WAS THE A N SWER TO THE R I DDLE O F HOW. THESE VIOLENT SC ENES. IN WHILE THE B L OOD AND STR A P PA RTS BY P A S S E R S. CONT I N UOUSLY.. SHOUTING AT THE TOP OF H E R LUNGS: " I DETEST DADDY. THE FOLLOW I N G PRETEXT OF N I GHT A WATCH WAS K E PT UNDER CONFESSION: "I VAGUELY RECA LL. AT HERSELF F U R I O U S LY HERSELF UP TO �UCH A STATE SHE K N E W N E I TH E R RESTR A I N T N O R SHA M E: S H E GROU N D H E R TEETH. T H U S . SHE WAS A B LE TO TOUCH H E R S E L F WITH THE OTHER. DROPS OF SUCH MOMENTS SHE SHOUTED AT THE TOP OF HER VOICE. . S I N N I NG . SUPPORT­ ING HERSELF ON THE CROWN O F H E R HEAD. AS PLEASU R E FROM IT. SHE WAS P R E Y TO A FIT OF M A D N ESS: HER FACE BECA M E DEAD WHI TE. WHEN SHE DI DN'T SHE WHI M PE R E D.. I USED TO GET U P EARLY TO PLAY WITH MY DOLLS. WHEN SHE D I D NOT SUCCEED IN D U P I NG HER G U A R D I A N S. I LOATHE MUMMY. I THIN K I T WAS SHE WHO G A V E M E THE I D E A OF TOUCHING MYSE LF. X .THE S T R E ET A T T R A CT E D THE ATTENTION K I N D N E SS OF SO OFTEN REMA I N E D WERE HA P P E N E D. B E FO R E LONG I T WAS D I SCO V E R E D TRU N K TO THE MATTRESS BY CORDS K NOTTED TO THE BED. ITS A LONG T I M E AGO NOW S I N C E I GOT I NTO THE HABIT. MADE MORE HER SEEM MORONIC. AND THAT THE WASHING WAS NOTH I N G B U T A PRETEXT IN O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C R A V I N G WITH I M P U N ITY." I N SHORT. I F. SHE PULLED AT THE JACKET WITH HER T EETH UNTIL SHE SUCC EEDED IN R E ACHING THE S E X U A L PARTS WITH HER H A N DS. T O WASH HER P A R T S WITH C O L D WATER. D U R I NG THE DAY SHE HAD TA K E N THE PRECAUTION O F H I D I NG HAI R. T H E HACK E T IN PLACE. I KNOW. J E RK I N G ON THE B E D.B Y . LATER. MADE THE FOLLOW I N G E VERYTHING I N O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C RAVI NG. BY A V E RITABLE TOU R D E FORC E WORTHY OF THE D A V E N PORT B R O TH E R S . WAY TO YOU 00 ARE A LL­ BY AN I M M E D I ATE R EACTION. HER EYE-BA LLS ROLLED AND GLA R E D AS I F THEY WOULD BU RST FROM THE I R SOCKETS. WAS A LWAYS S'. HER BODY FREQUE NTLY SHA K E N BY SPASMS. WHE N EVER I FELT BOR E D I ALWAYS PLAYED THE S A M E GAME. CURSING EVERYONE.. LATER I HAD ME A GOV E R N ESS W HERSELF I N I M I TATION O F THE K A BYLES. THEN. A MAID WHO LOOK E D AFTER M E WHEN I WENT SUCCEEDED I N ATTA I N I NG H E R OBJECTIVE AFTER SEVERAL HO U R S OF E F F O R T. P R OMI S I N G TO I M PROVE AND B E GG I N G FOR AT THIS EPOCH A STRAIT-JACKED WAS E M PLOYED TO P R E V E N T THE C H I L D T O U C H I N G BOTH FO R E A R M S H E R S E LF HELD ANOTHER CHA NCE. I N ONE OF HER M O M ENTS OF C A L M AND R EPENTA N C E . AS MY S I ST E R ME A SAYS. BUT THATS MY BUSINESS. I WANT TO!" SWEAT STOOD O N H E R TEMPLES.. WERE DURING THE D A YT I M E W:-I E N TH E TE M PT A T I O N CROSSED ON T H E CHEST. F L OGG I N G D E C E I T F U L.TH E R E : SHE TOLD M E NOT TO SO OFTEN IT M A D E ME C U R I O U S A N D I SA I D T O MYSELF THAT J U S T ONCE WOULDN'T HURT. SHE STILL MANAGED TO SATISFY HERSELF I N A THOUSAND SATISFY HERSELF D U R I NG THE N I GHT. I N THE MORN I NG T H E S E X U A L PARTS BOR E OBVIOUS TRACES OF ASSAULT BY A SHA R P I N ST R U M E NT. LET ME ENJOY MYSELF! IF IT KILLS ME. I USED TO P R E T E N D I 25 . . W I TH O U T G E T T I N G ANY STRAIGHTENED WITH H E R TE ETH: THU S. SOM ETI M E S EVEN D E E P GASHES. I USED TO DRESS THEM A N D PLAY WITH MYSELF A UTOMATICA LLY. X . AND THESE SHE PULLED OUT AT N I GHT AND TELLING NOT TO PUT M Y HAND HQ. SOBBING: "WHY DO YOU DEPRIVE ME OF SUCH AN INNOCENT PLEASURE?" AND A M O M E N T LATER: "ITS DI RTY. THOUGH KEPT U N D E R CONSTANT WATCH.

HOW TO DO I T AND W E USED TO TOUCH EACH OTHER. I'M NOT A F R A I D OF A N YT H I N G OR A N YBODY. IN A DD I T I O N TO T H E PROVO K E D PRACTI S E S A LR E A D Y C ITED. LA T E R THE DESIRE C A M E OVER ME AT E V E N GOD FOR HAVING MADE M E U N H A PPY AFTER LETIING ME BE SO AS H A PPY. I USED "WH E N AT L A ST' SHE WENT ON. I TS ENOUGH TO D R I V E WHO YOU M A D. O R K E PT LI FTI N G ONE OF H E R F E ET. . H E W A S B I G. WHEN WE LIVED I N SUCH A N D SUCH A HOUSE (1877) I SHOWED M Y LlTILE SISTER HOW T O DO IT. THAT HAD BEEN U R I N E. I F I N D I T V E RY SOOTH I NG" . EVERY OUT WAS C U P BOA R D CAME A O P E N ED. H O R R I B LEI I'VE N E V E R A B L E S I GHTI FORGOTIEN THAT A BOM I N ­ "WE DID LOTS OF T H E S E HOR RORS WITH Y . H E H ELPED M E G E T F R E E . . " ( A PPARENTLY T H I S PALM FRON D GAVE HER OT H E R FO R E I G N MORE SATI SFACTION THAN ANY BODY B E C A USE IT ADDED TO R U B B I N G H E R S E L F ON T H E ANGLES OF F U R N I T U R E. O R D I N A R Y P I NS. MUCH I GREW AS WICKED AND I W A N T E D T O DO HARM POSS I B LE. OR ROC K I N G BACKWARDS AND FORWA RDS ON A CHAIR. SHE PARTI C U LA R LY L I K E D H A I R-PI NS. S H E A LSO H A N D L E D H E R E XC R E M ENTS A N D FORC E D H E R L I TI L E S I STER T O D O L I K E W I S E . I OFTE N CA LLED ON T H E DEVI L TO H E L P M E: O N C E I FELT H I S H A N D ON MY SHOU L D E R A N D SOM ETI M E S I B E GG E D H I M T O K I L L M Y P A R E N TS A N D M A K E E V E R YO N E SU FFER. . AT FI RST. ! CAN'T S E E. ETC.) I N STR U M ENTS. . SOMETI M E S W I T H B I TS OF WOOD. DRAWER. I T W A S W I THOUT M Y A S K I NG. G R A SS. W H I C H D I D N O T P R E V E NT H E R F R O M B E I NG C A UG H T O N E D A Y "ITS AWFUL TO WANT TO DO I T A N D NOT BE ABLE TO. WHEN ALL AT ONCE THE WAR DROBE OPE N E D A N D USUALLY I N FRONT (THE C LI TOR IS). THE SIGHT OF O N E WAS ENOUGH TO M A K E HER WANT TO USE IT. S A N D . BUT IT WAS I M POSS I B L E TO STOP A N D I STA RTED A G A I N . I T WAS D U R I NG THE N I GHT. I S A W H I M. F I N A LLY SHE T R I E D AND OFTEN SUCCEEDED I N STR I KI NG H E R PA RTS WITH T H E EDGE OF A PIECE 26 . OUT S E N S U A L PLEA S U R E T H E SPI RITUAL ECSTASY OF SACRILEGE. IF ONLY I COU L D B E A D E M O N M YS E L F T O M A K E M I SC H I EFI OPPOSTIE A N D TOUC H I N G EACH OTHER. H E M A D E A L M OST REG U L A R I NTERVA LS. B U T LATER I H A D TO RUB H A R D E R A N D HA RDER. THE BLESSED I N J E R U S A L E M . " E V E N SO. T H E F I RST TI M E H E C A M E THOUGH. TO I WOU LD HAVE STOP US. ST A N D I N G C O N F E S S I O N . L E FT. SHE A FT E R U S I NG S M OO T H ONES. F I N A LLY. AT P E R F O R M I NG HORRORS W I T H H E R PRAYE R-BOOK I N A C RO W D E D C H U RC H . WE "IT WAS A FT E R THAT I R E P E N TED. NOTH I N G M A TI E R S SO LONG AS I CAN DO ITI A F U RTH E R P ROOF THAT THE POOR C H I LO THE SUFFERED FROM M E NTAL A B E R RATION WAS FACT THAT N O T ONLY D I D S H E PRACTI SE O N A N I S M I N A L L ITS R E F I N E M E NTS. . I LIKE GOI NG TO C H U RC H AND R E A D I N G TH E B I B L E . O FT E N THOUGHT O F T H E DEVI L A N D C A L L E D ON H I M T O H E L P M E. AFTERWARDS I M A D E F R I E N D S W I TH A LITILE BOY I L I K E D VERY M UCH. W A L K E D Q U I C K LY.. TOUC H I NG MYSELF TWO OR THREE T I M ES WAS E NOUGH. WHATEVER I COULD F I N D. BUT U R I N AT E D A L M OST U PR I G H T IN F RONT OF H E R SI STER. BUT ITS A LWAYS BEST R E A L LY WHEN YOU C A N DO I T WITH EXACTLY T H E T H I N G Y O U F E E L L I K E A T T H E M O M ENT. I WENT TO U S E D TO SHUT O U R S E L V E S U P I N THE LAVATORY AND TAKE ALL OUR C L OTH E S O F F . T H E D E V I L A P P E A R E D. A N D PLAYED A T G I V I NG M Y S E L F A DOUC H E OR BATH I N G MYSELF AND PUTT I N G ON A POU LTICE. VOLUPTUOUS SPASM BY USED PALM FROND X . M Y LlTILE S I STER D I DN'T ENJOY I T A N D DI DN'T WANT TO: I M A D E H E R. W A L K I NG S H E WOU L D BEGI N T O L I M P I N A N O D D WAY A S IF SHE WERE LOP. THEN. HIS EYES WERE GREEN. SOMETI M E S W I T H OUR H A N D S . I W A S I N BED.S I DED. A N D I D I D THE S A M E HORRORS W I TH H I M . HE D I D C O M E. FORKS. E T C . SOM E MONTHS LATER I SHOW E D LITILE V .H A D SOMETH I N G WRONG W I TH ME DOWN THERE. ( T H E LITILE S I STER WAS FOUR YEARS OLD AT T H E TIM EIl I GOT 80R E D P L A Y I N G TH E G A M E ON M Y OWN: I WA NTED SOM EON E TO DO IT WITH M E . I SA I D NOBODY HAD THE RIGHT TO STOP ME U S I NG MY F I NG E RS A N D MY BODY AS I W A N T E D TO. S H E ONLY 8EGAN TO LIKE IT I N THE WI NTER OF 1881. A FTERWARDS TH E PATIERNS MADE BY T H E JET OF "WHEN I WAS SAD O R C ROSS A BOUT SOMETH I NG I E XA M I N I NG D I D IT ALL TH E M O R E : FOR I N STANCE THE T I M E S I WAS CA UGHT STE A L I N G I D I D IT WORSE THAN EVER. E V E RYTH I N G E A SY. THAT WAS W H E N I STA R T E D STIC K I NG U P BITS OF WOOD OFTEN AND I RUBBING A HARD ( V AG I N A L O N A N I S M ). "PEOPLE BEGAN TO NOTIC E W H A T WAS H A PPE N I NG A N D TR I E D TO STOP M E.. BY P R E S S I N G H E R T H I G H S TOG ETH E R. G I V I N G MYSELF THE DOUC H E WITH L I TILE STI CKS: FOR Y E A R S I'VE L I K E P U TI I N G LlTILE STICKS UP M E. I CA N'T T H I N K. OF EVERY L I TT L E AND IT SWARM DEMONS. AT OTH ER TIMES S H E TOOK LlTILE STEPS. OR T U R N E D A B R U PTLY R E SO R T E D T O SHARP SUCH AS SCI SSORS. KI LLED A N YO N E TRI E D MOMENTS LIKE THAT IT'S AS !F I'M G!DDY. I B LA M E D EVERYONE. A L L BLACK A N D G R I N N I NG. I GOT I NTO A TE R R I B LE RAGE. .

AT TH E POI NT IN HER H I ST O R Y WAS WHICH CON C E R N S U S AT TH E HER DISAS­ MOMENT. A L L A T O N C E S H E WOULD STOP A N D EXCLA I M : "LOOK A T THAT P R E TTY F L OW E R I " S I MPLY TO D I V E RT HERSELF SUDDEN I N TE R R U PTION BEFORE THE CLIMAX CAUSED TH E OUTBR E A K OF T E R R I B L E STOR MS. . WHEN. HOLDS H E R B REATH M O M E NTARI LY. A S IF N A I L E D IF S H E SAW SOME SCR U B S H E STR A D D LE D IT A N D R U B B E D H E R S E L F B A C K A N D FORTH. D U R I N G WH I C H IT W A S 27 . T H E N X . TH E V U LVA SWELLS. • • IS S U D D E N LY TO OVERCOM E BY TH E I R R ES I ST I B L E DESI R E COMMIT H E R HORRORS. T H I S MONOTONOUS NOISE I S OFTEN K E PT U P F O R A G OO D PART O F T H E N I GHT. . FRIGID PHYSICALLY SPEAKI NG. I N H E R I T WAS C E RTA I N LY D U E TO M O R A L PERVERSITY. . A LEWD I NSTI NCT. I T W A S A THOUGHT. IN E F F ECT. I F. WHICH PERTU R B T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M . U P. T H I S W A S FOLLOW E D B Y A TETA N I C STATE LASTING S E V E R A L M I N UTES. S E N S E. A N D ACCOM PAN I E D BY PA I N S SO VIOLENT TH E Y MADE TH E CHILO SCREAM. . AND X . OFTEN BOTH C H I LD R E N SUFFE R E D FIT O F N E RVOUS TR E M B L I N G T H A T G A I N E D A L L H E R L I M BS. OR THE S I M I LA N C E OF THE TO N G U E AGA I N ST T H E PALATE. . A N D YET T H E VOLUPTUOUS S ENSATION I S A BSOLUTELY ESSENTI A L ONCE SHE GETS THE IDEA. I N T H E MONTH OF J U N E . . A S SOON A S TH E F I R ST TOOK PLACE. P R I N C I PALLY THE LEGS. X . STI L L M UTE A N D U N R ES PONSIVE. . S H E B R A C E D H E R WHOLE BODY A S STI F F L Y A S SHE COU LD. . PUT I NTO H E R STRAI T J A CKET A N D C H A STITY B E LT I P U B I C BANDAGE). A FTER HAVI NG LEARNT OFTEN SHE LOCATE D A S H R U B TO B E M A D E USE OF S E V E R A L DAYS LATER. X . STRUGGLED L I K E O N E POSSE S S E D. FROM A X . TROUS D R I V E N TO CONTI N U E BY TWO DIFFERENT E X E C UT I O N . FROM TH E S E NOCTU R N A L SCENES. S H E COULD SHE P R E TE N D E D TO FALL OR S TU M B L E O V E R BE STO P P E D . W E L L BROUGHT-U P S I N C E C H I LDHOOD. A N D A HEARD SOME DULL. X . MASTURBATION WAS E N C EPHALIC. A N D P R E T E N D T O B E A S L E E P. SHE C A N N OT SO R E S I ST P U TT I N G IT TO R E PEATED CONTACTS. HER ANUS AS AT TH E END OF CEREBRAL A N D G E N ITAL. A C E R E B R A L I M PULSE THAT INCITED X. WAS G I V E N A GOOD SLAP A S SOON A S S H E B E G A N . X . OFTEN. M A K E S E FFORTS A S IF S H E WANTED TO BLOW H E R NOSE O R E X PECTORATE. THAT IS TO SAY. IT REPERCUTED A S IF B Y LIGHTNI N G ON THE SEXUA L ORGA N S .. GOT THE I DEA OF M A ST U R BATI NG. YET. THUS P R O VO K I N G PHYSICAL DESI R E TA K E PART I N TH E S E SPASMODIC CONTRACTIONS. R H YTH M I C SOU N D C A N BE AWAY. . ONLY LATER DID I T BECOME G E N ITAL WHEN TH E CLITO R I S AND VAG I N A ROUSED AND MADE SENSITIVE BY EXA M P LE: THOUGH WATC H E D O V E R B Y T H E E Y E S O F A RG U S . H E R F E E T A R E ATTA C H E D.. . S H E CONTRACTS H E R N EC K TO H A BITS I MPULSES: M A K E IT SWELL. T H E MORE S U D D E N TH E TOUCH . WOULD ATTA I N H E R OBJ ECTI V E I N WAYS THAT WERE I NCONCE I V A B L E IN A LITTLE GIRL OF GOOD FA M I LY. THOSE IN C H A RG E O F THE C H I L D SAY I T IS ODIOUS TO H A V E TO LI STEN TO I T IN TH E SILENCE W I TH ONLY TH E N IGHT-LIG H T B U R N I NG. A LTER N ATIVE OPE N I N G AND CLOS I N G OF T H E LA B I A PUDENDI UNLIKE PRODUCES THAT A SMACKING FROM SOUND. THE N E E D T O MASTURBATE DID NOT ORIGI N ATE FROM THE SEXU A L ORGA N S. BEGAN TO PRACTI S E O N A N I S M I T WAS NOT TH ROUGH TH E EXIGENC I E S O F NATU R E . A Q U I C K K I C K OF T H E H E E L TO H E R PA RTS. TH E C H I LD R E N R E M A I N I M MO B I LE. AN ETH I C A L N E U ROSIS IN THE BY THE FOLLOW I N G AS W E HAVE A L R E A D Y STATED. . THE M O R E QUICKLY THE DISCHARGE OC C U R E D. THE D I STA N C E CONSECUTIVELY TO T H E C E R E B R A L STI M U LUS. WHEN X . . TO STI M U LATE THE MORAL AS SHOWN SEXU A L PA RTS. T H E VAGIN A'S CONSTRICTOR I S M A D E TO CHEC K I N G TH E I RR E S I STABLE D E S I R E TO SATI SFY H E R PASSION. THUS. . BUT THAT WAS NOT A LL! B Y C U N N I NG A N D PRACTI CE X . BUT A IF SHE HAD TI M E TO WO R K SOM ETH I NG I N O R D E R T O R U B AGA I N ST I T . I N D U LG E I N THE S A M E M USC U L A R CONTRACTION S A N D PROD U C E T H E S A M E SOU N D S I M ULTANEOUSLY. . B E CA M E I N C A PA B L E OF T H U S . A BETTER WAY OF PUTTING I T WOU LD BE TO SAY THAT AT FIRST. BY THE R E PETITION OF THESE MOVEM ENTS W H I C H I H A D HER PERFORM I N FRONT OF M E. THE C H I LD'S PATI E N C E AND CUNNING WERE TRULY A M AZI NG! T O TH E I R B E D . . A NOT R E S U LT I N G S U D D E N LY OPEN I NG OF T H E L I P S W H E N TH E MOUTH H A S B E E N CLOSED. . SHE IS TIED UP. AFTE R W H I C H S H E STARTS SQU E EZ I N G D E F EC A T I O N . . SOMETI M E S MORE THAN A N H O U R TO R E A C H THE FI N A L VOL U PTUOUS SPASM IN THIS WAY. . B Y TH E A LT E R N A T I V E CON­ TRACTING AND R E L A X I NG O F THE ANAL SPHI NCTE R A N D A N A L LEVATOR. W H I C H S H E R E L E A S E D B Y PRESSING IT WITH H E R FOOT. A N D FELL I NTO C LON I C OR TON I C CONVULSIONS. AS A R E S U LT O F C O N S I D E R A B L E A B U S E . ATTENTION A N D G I V E . SC R E A M E D. X .OF WOOD. AT THAT PERIOD S E X U A L E R ETH I S M WAS SUCH THAT A S I NGLE TOU C H WAS E NOUGH TO PRODUCE ORGA S M . SAYS I T TAKES A LONG TI M E . GAVE R I S E I N TH E I R T U R N TO THE LASCIVIOUS CONC E PT.

. S H E WOU LD J U M P UP FROM H E R CHA I R A N D PA C E U P A N D DOWN T H E BEDROOM: S H E COULDN'T SLEEP A N D D E C L A R E D SHE SPENT TWO OR TH R E E NIGHTS AT A T I M E WITHOUT CLOS I N G H E R EYES. W H I LE GETTING U N D R ESSED. WITH A RE PETITION WA L K S T W I C E A DAY A N D VARIOUS G A M E S D I D MUCH TO MAKE TH E I R X • . S H E IS U TT E R L Y W O R N OUT. FOR A BOUT TH R E E MONTHS THINGS CONTI N U E D I N T H E S A M E WAY. T R I BUTED FU RTH E R T O TH E C H I LD R E N'S W E A K E N E D STATE. OR GIVE THEM A K I C K W I T H H E R H E E L. OR I N SERT A F O R K OR TH E H A N DLE OF HER K N I FE. S H E WOU L D D I V E A N D STAY UNDER WATE R SEVERAL SECONDS IN ORDER TO D ET E R I O R A T I N G VIOLENT M A N I PULATE H E R S E LF. O R E LSE. AND IN A DDITION TO T H E STAFF. . BUT AT T H E SA M E MOMENT T H E LETTER THAT H A S SO MOV E D HER I S B E I NG ROLLED I N TO A SPOO L WHICH. S H E WAS I NSTA LLED IN A C H A LET I N T H E M I D D L E OF A GARDEN. . A MOM E N T LATE R SHE I S I N VENTING SOME NEW TACTIC. HAS MOMENTS IS ON OF THE SUDDEN TEMPERATURE THAT LAST E D SEVERAL HOURS: S H E HAD ER RATIC PA I N S IN ALL O V E R HER OF HER BODY AND REMORSE. S H E WOULD SUDDENLY PUT HER FINGERS ON HER PARTS. . C R Y I N G OUT THAT SHE P R E F E R R E D THE DEVI L WHO H E LP E D LATER HER SHE 00 WHAT S H E WANTED. M I LK.I M POSSIBLE FOR H E R TO PERFORM THE SLIG HTEST MOV E M ENT: SHE WAS A R I G I D AND MOTI ONLESS AS A FROG SUBJECTED TO VIOLENT E LECTRIC SHOCKS. SHE PREVENT FRICTION. . BUT IT I S NO M O R E T H A N A D R U N K A R D'S PLEDGE. W A R M A N D PROLONGED. WENT WITH HER. SHE A RT­ ATTACKS A N X I ETY. TH E FORK I S SNATC H E D ATTAC H E D W I TH T H E I R STRAIT-JA C K ETS. SHE IS ONLY FULLY I NTRODUCES I NTO H E R SEXUAL PARTS. OFTEN ONE SPOKE OF OF THE D E V I L WHO C A M E TO AND H E LP HER FREE HER HANDS SiSTER Y . UNDER HER CLOTH ES. H E R LITTLE X. :S WAS TO OUTWIT T H E MAID IF PRESENTED WITH A C RU C I F I X X . THAT SH E WEEPS AND P R OM I S E S TO SHOOTI N G FREQUENT PA I N S PA RTS. A MOMENT WOULD R E P E NT. AND D I V E RT THEIR ATTENTION FROM VICE BY I N C U LC A T I N G R E L I G I O US S E NT I M E N T S PRAYER AND R E A D I NGS F R O M P I O U S THIS D I ET AND THE PROLONGED BATHS CON· THROUGH WOR K S . . DOES A LL ONE I N O R D E R TO DANGEROUS PREVENT T H E CAUGHT FROM RED-HA N DED. COM PLA I N E D OF SUBJECT TO A H E A DACHES: S H E WAS N ERVOUS RISE IN FROM TI M E TO TI M E X . PALPITATIONS WITH A T E N D E N C Y TO LI POTHYMY. VEGETA B LES. OF TH E SAME SC E N E S OF A G I TATION AND LIFE ONE A G R E E A BLE. O N E DAY. NO R E D M E AT. . H E R O N E A N D ON LY THOUGHT I S TO G E T H E R H A N DS ON H E R PA RTS. SUFFOCATION. AGED A BOUT SIX. B E GG I N G TO BE 28 . • VIGILANCE OF H E R G U A RDIANS. NOT E V E N W H E N R E S PO N D I N G TO U RG E N T CA LLS OF NATURE. . IT WAS D E C I D E D. TWO GOVERN ESSES WERE ENGAG E D TO WATCH OVER THE C H I LD R E N SEA BATHS HAVING OVER-EXCITED T H E C H I LDREN'S N E RVOUS SYSTEMS. S H E STOLE A HAIRPIN A N D HID IT IN HER MOUTH UNTIL SHE FOU N D A FAVOU R A B L E THIS GAVE HER SUCH A FRIGHT SHE WAS GOOD FOR SEV E R A L H E A LT H DAYS WAS A FT E R W A R D S . AT TI M E S SHE BECAME HIGHLY AGITATED. A DOSE OF FOU R G R A M M ES OF B R O M I D E OF POTASS I U M P E R D A Y . SHE MOMENT T O U S E I T . :S STATE P ROGR E S S I V E LY WORSENED. I NC A PABLE OF KEEPING STILL. I DEA BUT TO NO VIOLENCE. J U M PS U P BUT HOW F R O M TH E TA B L E A N D Y E L L S AT T H E TOP O F H E R VOI C E : I WANT TO! FOR PITY'S S A K E LET M E DO IT! MUSCLES O F THE P E R I N E U M FROM CONTRACTI N G AND PRODU C I N G VOLUPTUOUS SATI SFACTION IN SPITE OF A L L PRECAUTIONS? AS X . EVEN S O . THEY W E R E R E PLAC ED BY SOFT WATER BATHS. THERE WERE I M PROVE. B E LT A N D STRAPS AS A L R E A D Y D E SC R I B ED. PURPOSE. WHILE TH E BECAME E V E N W A S D R ESSING H E R . FOR EXAMPLE. BITING A N D SPITTI N G ON IT. B E E R . I M PARTED H E R S H A M E F U L H A BITS. . AT N IGHT O N E GOES SO F A R AS TO T I E LITTLE B E LI. D U R I N G T H O S E BRIEF MOME NTS O F L I B E RTY. W H I L E BATH I N G IN THE S E A S H E USED H E R TOES W I T H ASTO N I S H I NG AGI LITY T O P I C K MOR E U N M A NAGEAB LE. EVERYTH I N G H A D B E E N WELL ORGA NIZED: TH E DAY DIVI D E D I N SUCH A WAY AS TO OCCUPY EACH MOMENT. D OW N W A R D A D M I TT I N G PATH. ALL H E R. ON R E C E I V I N G A L E TT E R F ROM H E R MOTH E R E XHORTI NG H E R T O I M PROVE. B U RSTS I N TO TEARS. IN O R D E R TO AVOID A SCANDAL. X .S TO THE H A N D S A N D FEET OF THE TWO C H I LD R E N OUT O F H E R STR A I T-JACKET A T M E A L T I M E S. S H E IS MOVED TO TEARS BY I T S T E N D E R A FFECTI O N . ON ONE OCCASION. :S G E N E R A L RAPI DLY. A S W E L L AS I N A DEPLORABLE A LLOWED MENTAL ST A T E . UP S H E LLS AND L I TT L E STO N E S WHICH SHE I N S ERTED I N T H E PARTS. TO WHOM SHE HAC P E R PETRATE H E R HORRORS. DAY A N D NIGHT T O C H ECK A N Y GUI LTY I NCLINA­ TIONS. M O V E M E N T. S H E C A NNOT B E LEFT ALON E F O R A MOM E N T. OR S E N D H E R TO T H E COUNTRY.

SHE GETS ANGRY I F A N YONE SYM PATH I S E S WITH HER S U FF E R I NGS. I T I S EASY TO U N D E R S TA N D TH E UTTER I M PO S S I B I L ITY O F AVOIDING ALL THE OCCASIONS FOR W H I C H S H E WAS ON TH E LOOK-OUT. "PUT ON MY STR A I T J A C K E T A GA I N . HOURS. "BECAUSE MY SUFFERINGS ARE SHAM EFULI" PULLED IT OFF TOO QUICKLY. IN P U L L I N G OFF THE RA UCOUS. BY TYING." SHE SAID." I WAS OBLIGED TO C O M P LY WITH HER GOVERN ESS A N D A H A N D SMOOTH I N G H E R BROW OFTEN C R ISES. ON TH E CONTRA RY. " C U R I O U S LY DID N OT WANT TO BE LEFT UN­ T R E MORS. THE N EXT S H E H I TS AND BITES H E R . BY VARIOUS I NSTR U M ENTS. T H E SENSITIV ITY OF TH E SEXUAL P A R T S H A D BECOM E SO GREAT THAT TH E M A I D . " I 00 N O T T R U ST MYSELF. I CAN'T SEE A N Y T HI N G!" HER VOI C E BECO M E S SHE DID NOT HAVE H A LL U C I N A TIONS. TWO G R A M M ES EVERY A AWAY. TRYING BY ADVICE A N D K I N D N ESS T O STI M U LATE H E R AMOUR PROPRE. CHASE HIM TREATME NT: COLD SHOWERS. I N T H E DAYS FOLLO W I N G CALMER. I WILL BURN YOU R PARTS WITH A R E D HOT I RONI" ALTHOUGH X . SUCCEED TH E SHE IN C A L M I N G TH E S E NOCTURNAL LOOKS AT BETTER. HER SHE SEEMS WITH C H I LD REQU EST. I I N SI STED THAT THE WORKS L E SSONS PLEAS U R E . FOR I HAD NOTI C E D THAT SHE R E B E LLED AGA I N ST TIMES A D A Y . THE PARTS ARE HIGHLY SEVERE TREATM E NT. "YOU GRATITUDE W H E N S H O W N AFFECTION. HAS I N D E E D B E COM E THE 26TH OF A U GUST. S H E D I D NOT PROMI S E T O B E GOOD I N THE FUTURE. H E R S K I N D A M P. FEW KIND WORDS ATTACHED. A N D FOUGHT WITH A LL HER WIT AND C U N N I NG A GA I N ST I NFLAM E D. M I DDLE OF A G R A M M A R LESSON S H E SUDDENLY BEGAN TO SHOUT: "CHASE HIM AWAY. APPEARED TO BE M E NTALLY CONTORTS WITH FEAR. ALTHOUGH R U L E S W E R E LESS STRICTLY E N FORCED T H A N B E FORE. H E'S HORRIBLE! HOW HIS EYES GLEAM! I'M GOING BLIND. APPEARED TO BE M OV E D BY MY MARKS OF A G A I N ST FURNITURE PASSI NG. S H E EVEN I N SERTS A PAI NT-BRUSH I N TO T H E VAG I N A . B U T I A M QUICK T O A D D : "I F Y O U REFUSE TO LISTEN I W I L L H A V E TO B E C R U E L. HER FACE VARIED DIET TO B U I LD UP THE SYST E M ." S H E TOLD M E . . SHE S A I D. THE SLIGHTEST P R ESSU R E PUT ON THE SENSUAL PARTS LEADS TO A N ERETH I S M AS QUICK A S LIGHTN I N G W H I C H C A N B E READ ON HER FACE. WHICH SHE SOUG HT OR C R EATED IN ORD E R TO CONTI N U E HER A B U SES. H A PPY. ABRUPTLY AND LETS OUT A SCREAM. SYM PATHY. FINA LLY. P R O M I S I NG TO LEAVE HER H YPER-SENSITIVE. SHE WA NTS TO RUN AWAY FROM E V E R YTH I N G . THAT S H E J I B B E D AS I T WERE. IS A LT O G E T H E R PLEA SURE O U T OF OBTA I N I NG SATISFACTION.PRAYED FOR A N D R E A D T H E PSALMSI SHE ALSO HAD H A LLUCINATIONS D U R I NG THE DAY. AT ONE MOMENT SHE E M B R A C E S H E R GOV E R N ESS WITH EFFUSION. S H E F R A N K LY A D M I TS T O PROVOK I N G THE VOLUPTUOUS SPASM TWELVE T O E I G H T E E N C H I LD BE LE FT TO H E RS E LF NOW AND TH EN. "NOBODY FAULT. AT CERTA I N MOMENTS SHE WA NTS TO BE CUDDLED AND EXPRESSES A S H U DD E R TH ROUGH H E R W H O L E B E I NG. TI E M E UP. . PA RTS H ERSELF HAND WITH HER AND R E S U LT IF ACH I E V E D. K N OC K S TH E SA M E A THING PIECE H A PPENS OF SHE IN COMPLETELY F R E E I F S H E WILL B E SENSI BLE A N D O B E Y M E . AT OTH ERS. SHE THROWS H E RSELF I NTO H E R GOV E R N ESS'S A R M S CRYI NG: ''TH ERE HE IS. THOUGH IN A MORE MODERATE FASHION. . B R O M I D E OF POTAS­ SIUM AND AMMONIUM. 29 . " X . A STR I K I N G C H A NGE HAS TAKEN PLACE . H E R EXPRESSION THAT O F A MADMAN." ELSE CAN S H A R E I N TH E M . "I WILL 00 M Y BEST. BY D I NT O F TOUC H I NG A N D E XC IT I N G H E RS ELF. ONE WOU L D HAVE SAID THAT SHE GOT MORE THE 29TH OF A U G U ST X. I N A F E W SECONDS THE VOLUPTUOU S S E N SATION "TH I S T I M E I T S NOT MY R E AC H E D ITS C L I M A X . T H I C K A N D A B U N DANT. SET OFF AN ELECTRIC CURRENT THAT SENT • . BUT A SHE O FT E N HAS N E RVOU S FROM TH E T H E R E FO R E ENOUGH SHE I C A N N O T P R O M I S E . B E N D I NG OVER TO PICK A A QUICK THE TAP ON THE IS FLOWER. AGA I N ST TH E B R UTALITY E M PLOYED. I DON'T W A N T THE DEVIL AT T H I S MOM ENT!" ONE DAY IN THE M I DD L E OF A WALK SHE STOPS TWENTY-FOUR FE R R U G I N O U S W I N E. . WHATEVER COERCIVE M E A S U R E S WERE ADOPTED." S H E SAYS. AND TH E NIGHTS PASS WITH FR EQU E N T R E PETITIONS OF TH E USUAL ABUSE. I BEG YOU. "BUT I AM NOT SURE OF S U C C E E D I NG. S E E I NG TH E LITTLE SUCCESS OBTA I N E D BY M E A N S OF COERCION. I N TH E GREATER THE OBSTACLE S H E HAD BEEN OBLIGED TO OVE RCOME. THROW H E R S E LF OUT OF A SECOND-STORY W I N DOW INTO TH E STR EET B E LOW. A R A P I D MOV E M E N T ON TH AT P A R T OF M E STARTS OFF A S E N SATION I C A N NOT C O N T R O L . I HAVE HER F R E E D ENTI R E LY. BY SEVERE PUNISHMENT. O R LEANS O N SOM EONE. H E R FACE A S I F I L L U M I N ATED. THE DAY COM E S WHEN S H E TR I E S TO CHI LD'S NIGHT-SH I R T WHEN DRESSI N G H E R. . X FLU S H E D. H E R BR EATH I N G BECA M E U N EVEN. X. . I PICT U R E T H E F E A R F U L CONSEQU ENCES OF HER H A B I TS. TO RESTORE H E R D I G N I TY A N D A WA K E N A SENSE OF HONOUR. T H E CHARMI NG. . N EVERTHELESS S H E A D M ITTED TO H AV I N G YI ELDED SEVERAL TIMES TO H E R I N C R I M I N A T I N G M A N I PULA­ TIONS. . . THUS GIVES X . . . WITH A YELLOWI S H G R E E N DISCHARG E .

COM PLAI N I NG THAT GOO I S UNJ UST TO HER BEC A U S E H E H A S G I V E N HER EVE RYTH I N G TO MAKE HER H A PPY A N D NOW TAKES I T AWAY F ROM H E R. S H E LA UGHS O U T LOU D S E A T E D ON A C H A I R. "I A M SO AFRAID OF THE OPERATION THE DOCTOR WITHOUT R H Y M E O R R E A SO N . PUTS A STOP TO THE SC E N E BY BRINGING HER H O M E 30 . D U R I NG THESE BOUTS X . DESPITE THE PLEA D I N G S O F HER GOV E R N ESS. S H E K E E PS MOVING H E R H E A D ABOUT. S H E G R I M AC E S . IT SHOULD BE N O T E D TH AT EXCESSIVE ONANISM IS I N EVITABLY F O L LOW E D BY SUCH GASPS. THE D U R I NG THE I R I N D EC E N T OUTING IN M OS T FASHION I N FRONT O F PASSERS-BY. THE GOV E R N E S S T R I E S TO CONTROL KICKS BACK." N EXT D A Y SHE HAS A F I T OF DESI RE. H E R VOI C E GROWS HOA RSE. S H E W I T H H ELL. M A R RY. IN THE LITTLE VI LLAGE T H E Y COM E TO.. H E R O N LY DOM I N ATI NG TH R E ATENEDI A N D HOW H U M I LIATI NG TO B E FORC E D TO M E N D MY W A Y S I N STEAD OF B Y M Y O W N F R E E W I L L ." S H E SAYS. AT OTH ERS. I S GLOOMY DU R I N G TH E WALK. X K I LL MEl SAYS: " I F SO MEONE WOULD ONLY JOY. H E RSELF BUT RECITES THE POE M S VI SIT. SHE WAS TOLD A BOUT THE MYTH I C A L POWERS OF FA I R I ES TO OBTA I N WHATEVER THEY DESI RE. BALLAD." SHE C A N NOT CONTROL SHE WALKS H ERSELF. R E P L I E S AT ONCE WITH A S M I LE ON H E R LI PS: "NOT M E-I'M NO S A I NTI" THE GOV E R N ESS. PAC I N G U P A N D OOWN TH E B E D R OO M . I OON'T WANT TO. A R E EQUALLY ODIOUS. A L READY SHE SEEMS BECO M E S GIVEN SWEET AND G ENTLE. LI STLESS. G R I N D I NG H E R TEETH. 'TH E R E A R E M A N Y U N M A R R I E D WOM E N WHO ARE U S E F U L A N D CONTE NT. D U R I N G THE VISIT OF A RELATIVE A N I M ATED SINGS A SHE IS VERY PO L I T E . . E N T E R S A HOUSE WITHOUT B E I N G SEEN A N D DOES H A R M TO EVE RYONE IN IT." AND HER EYES SH I N E WITH JOY. BEEN DISGRACE TO T H E FA M I LYI" A N D Y ALL THESE R E P L I E S : "WHY D I D YOU TEACH M E T H E N ?" U P S ET BY THIS WI LD-EYED. T H E I N ST I N CT O F P R E S E R VATION SOMETI M E S STRONGE R T H A N T H E A LL U R E S O F VICEI S H E E X P LA I N S HOW S H E SHOULD B E T I E D SO THAT SHE C A N NOT POS S I B L Y ATTA I N HER OBJEC­ TIVE.. X." WHICH ONE DAY. I CANT STOP M YSELF. • • R E PROACH . OR PUTS O N A I RS. " W H A T C H A O S R E I G N S I N T H A T LITTLE H E A D I A T TI M E S S H E S A Y S : "YOU W I LL SAVE M E W I T H GOD'S H E LP. "00 YOU TH I N K TH E ONLY H A P P I N ESS I S I N B E I N G M A R R I ED?" H E R GOV E R N ESS A S K E D . TO A M USE HER. IS I NC A PA B L E OF A N YT H I N G : READI NG. KNOW K I LL I N G I N ST I N CTIVELY ATTRACTED B Y T H E I D E A OF T H E PLEAS U R E T O BE H A D I N SEXUAL R E LATIONS. HER FEATU R E S TWITC H . THAT SHE THE A FT E R NOON OF T H E 1 4TH OF SEPTEM B E R X • • . "I BEGGI NG I'M TO BE A N OT H E R C H A NC E . G A M E S . . LATER. • L I TT L E S I STER. S H E D E C LA I MS. TIE MY F E ETI" A FEW MOMENTS LATE R SHE FALLS INTO A STATE OF PROSTRATION." SHE FANCIES S H E I S A L R E A DY DEAD. THOUGHT I S T O S U CC E E D. H E R NOST R I L S F LA R E I L A T E R . . SHE I M AG I N E S THAT A PLAGUE OF THE HOUSE AND THAT SHE HORRORS . SHE L A M ENTS THAT I T I S TOO LATE A N D THAT S H E IS LOST FO R E V E R I HER H A LL UC I N A TIONS R ETU R N . W H I C H M A K E S HER VERY HA PPYI SHE I S SURE OF BEING I N TOUCH WITH THE DEVI L AND H A V I NG M Y STE R I O U S C O N N ECTI O N S I S I N A T E R R I B LY OVER-EXCITED STATE. S H E T R I E S N O T T O OR SOMEONE TRIES TO STOP H ER. . A L L A T ONCE H E R E X P R E S S I O N BECO M E S C Y N I CAL. I S OVERCOME B Y T H E D E S I R E T O 00 I T . S H E WALKS ABOUT R ESTLESSLY. A SURE SIGN OF INCREASING TENSION." S H E SAYS. . HA LLUCI NATIONS A N D M E NTAL A B E RRATIONS. "WHAT I DESI RE. W I T H TH E HELP OF A SERVANT. H E R L I P S N E V E R STOP TWITC H I NG. " I S THAT TH E R E SHOULD BE AS MANY MEN AS LA D I E S ON EA RTH SO THEY C A N PROVES THAT A FT E R A DESPERATE IS STR U G G L E . ATTEM PTS A R E M A D E I N VA I N T O I M PO S E A RESPECT FOR DECORU M . S H E CALMS OONW A N D I S H E RS E L F BO R N . H E R E Y E S DART I N A L L D I R ECTIONS. S H E S E E S THE T E R R I B L E H E A D WITH ITS GREEN D E V I LS EYES. MYSELF." SHE A N SW E R E D. W H E N SPEAKING A FT E R TOU C H E S SEVERAL T I M E S. "I A M ASKING HIM TO M A K E M E DIE.S H E B EHAVES PROPER LY. OFTEN S H E C A NNOT K E E P STI LL. BUT HER I NCONS I STENCIES ARE E N DLESS. ROLLI NG H E R EYES A N D LOOKI N G U P AT THE C E I L I NG. " WO U L D AGA I N . THIS TI M E I N TH E P R E S E N C E O F A STRANGER. . H E R EXCITE M E N T M O U NTS. "SAVE M E. HAS BEEN THI NKING A GREAT DEAL A BOUT M A R R I AG E . I COU L D DIE WITHOUT SETTLE ON WHAT H E R S E LF T U R N S I NTO A DEMONI COMM ITTING S U I C I DE. THERE IS BUT SHE FOA M ON H E R LI PS. HOLD MY H A N DS. CONVERSATION. R E PEATI NG: " I DONT WANT TO. O R BALANCING O N ONE FOOT A FT E R T H E OTH ERS. HER. FOR SOME TI M E X . FOR I N STANCE. X . I M U ST 00 ITI STOP ME. "IF O N LY HER A I HAD N EV E R BEEN "WE SHE NOT SAYS T O HAVE • . S H E CAUSES A SCANDAL. K E E PS UP AN AND SHE SOM ETI M E S H E R FACE IS F L U SH E D A N D S H E HAS A ROVING EYE: AT OTH E R S SHE IS PALE AND CON VERSATION.

T R E M B L I N G I N E V E RY L I M B . I NOTE THAT T H E CONSTITUTION S H E I S W H I P P E D SO FORCI B LY T H E BUTTOCK S A R E STR I P E D BY D E E P ECCHYMOSE. AS A R E S U LT. A T M Y I N S I ST E N C E . I S N O T YET SIX. HE HAD SUCCEEDED IN CURING YOUNG G I R LS I W I L L CUT AS SHORT A S POS S I B L E T H E H I STORY OF LITTLE Y . H A RDLY IS X . EXCESSIVE SMACKI N G SOU N D OF T H E V U LVA W H I C H S H E K E PT UP MOST OF THE NIGHT IN CONCERT WITH HER A B U S E . THE SERVANT'S PRESENCE I N N O W A Y D I SS U A D E S HER FROM TH I S S H A M E LE S S BY BEHAVIOUR. S H E R U B S H E R PA RTS W I T H . THE G E N I TA L ORGANS ARE SO P R E C OC I O U S L Y D E V E LOPED T H E R E A R E A LR E A D Y T U FTS OF H A I R ON T H E LABIA P U D E N D I A LTHOUGH Y .R E D I N WITH OF A COLO U R . J U LES G U E R I N . WHO I S X . ASKES TRICKS W H E N S H E I S ATTACHED TO T H E B E D . . A T S U C H TI M E S S H E I S P A L E A N D C ROSS-EYED. W E H A V E A L R E A D Y DESC R I B E D I N DETA I L THE MEC H A N I S M O F T H I S SOU N D W H I C H C A N B E H E A R D S E V E R A L M ETERS AWAY. V E N E R E A L DESI R E S . . . BATHED IN TEARS. . T O SUCH A STATE O F I M BE C I LI TY. A R E E MPLOYED ON Y . BUT R EASONS L I K E A G I R L OF 1 6. BECAUSE OF HER STU R D Y THE 8TH O F S E PTE M B E R. H E R S A L I VA A B U N DANT. I T I S C A U S E D B Y T H E OPE N I NG A N D CLOS I N G O F T H E LA B I A P U D E N D I BUT THE MOMENT SHE G ET S THE IDEA OF HER UNDER THE I N FLUENCE OF R H YT H M I C FROM AND THE SATI SFYING HERSELF. "BUT 31 . SC E N E THAT WHILE THE S A M E T R E A T M E NTS A D M I N I ST E R E D T O X . I N FLA M E D Y E L LO W AND THE SEXUAL PA RTS ARE VERY STR A I T ARE LABIA SCORED BY P E R P E N D I C U LA R WOUNDS. PRACTICE I N V E N T E D BY X . NOT I NTELLIGENT O R A S ATTRACTIVE A S H E R SISTER. I T H A S A S M U CH E FFECT O N Y . S H E SHOWED M E WHAT S H E D I D I N B E D I N O R D E R T O GET A T H E R S E LF. . . FOREIGN BODY S H E COULD F I N D . "I A M A S H A M ED. . FORTU N ATE ENOUGH TO M E ET DR. THE P OO R CHILD IS EXT R E M E L Y VOLU B I LE. TRACES O F I N J U R I ES I N FLICTED YESTER­ DAY BY A TABLE FORK! TH E ORI FICE O F T H E VAGI N A I S BRIGHT R E D . WITH ANY MONTHS. BUT TH I S DOESN'T PREVENT H E R FROM MODELLI NG H E R C O N D UCT O N THAT O F H E R O L D E R S I STER: T H E S A M E I N D E C E N T MOVE M E N TS WHEN THEY ARE OUT. T H E SAME R US E S T O OUTWITH HER G U A R D I A N S. A S I T H A D O N T H E E L D E R S I STER: T H E P U B I C B A N DA G E I S EQUALLY U N S UCCESSFUL. S H E A D M I TT E D TO R U B B I NG H E R S E L F WITH HER H A N DS . . A TH I C K ODOR DISCHARGE IN SPITE A R EPULSIVE P E R S I STS SEVERA L A B LUTIONS THE R E PEATED WHOSE TIMES DAY. I SUBMITTED CHILDREN THE TO HOPELESS CASE OF THE TWO AND OUR E M I N E NT COLLEAGU E ASKED H I S A D V I C E . . E N E RGETIC CONTRACTIONS STARTI N G S P E EC H BECOM E S J E RKY. HER EYES SHI NE. SEVERAL HAVE ALREADY G ETS VERY BEEN ACTIVE WOR K E D UP FOR AND HESITATI O N . X . TH E SA M E L A C K OF S UC C ESSI TAKES PLACE V E N ERABLE P R I EST G I V E S H E R I N STRUCTION. U N FORTU NATELY. SHE IS A LTHOUGH BY WELL B U I LT REDUCED. G U E R I N A F FI R M E D THAT. S H E N O LON G E R U N D E RSTA N D S W H A T I S SA I D T O H E R . . . . :S SISTER A N D WHOM I HAVE A LREADY M E N TI O N E D THE WHEN R E LA T I NG SHE IS FACTS AS A F FECT E D BY THE VICE OF ON A N I S M BY B U R N I N G THE CLITO R I S WITH A HOT IRON. DURING MY JOURNEY TO LONDON FOR I THE WAS P R A YS FERVE NTLY. . DR. C H I LD. . I DEC I D E D TO E X P E R I ­ M E NT F I RST ON L I TT L E Y . A N D H O W S H E PROD U C E D T H E OFT E N R O U S E S D E S I R E B Y A S E R I E S O F P R E PA RA­ TORY BODY MOVE M E NTS. . . CONC E R N I NG LATTE R . . SHE TH E 28TH. SWOLLEN L A B I A . H A N DS J OI N E D TOG ETH E R . S I R :' S H E S A I D.IN A C A R R I A G E . S I STER. TH E SAME TO R M E N T E D REMORSE. N OTH I N G COULD BE MORE D I ST R E S S I N G UNDER THAN OUR TH E EYES. . . W H I C H SET T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M I N MOTION A N D SPREAD TO T H E LA RGE. WITH HER F E E T. . S H E B E G S M E N O T TO BURN H E R A N D R E MOVE SMALL HER IS EVEN VERY G RA TE F U L W H E N I J A CKET. AFTER A LL OTH E R TREATME NTS H A D FA I LE D . I S A DOPTED B Y Y . "TO TELL YOU A BO U T MY H O R RO R S : ' A FT E R SO M E BLOOD. TH E LITTLE O N E COPI E D E V E R YTH I N G TH E 81G ONE D I D. . . J . THE PRI E ST TO G I V E H E R CON F E S S I O N . BOW E D TO T H E G R O U N D: BUT ALL AT ONCE A D I A BOLIC THOUGHT C ROSSES H E R WRETC H E D M I N D A N D. AND A L E RT. I T I S MOST D I STR E S S I NG T O TH I N K THAT S O YOUNG A C H I L D CAN BE S O P E RV E R S E ! S H E A D M I TT E D EVE RYTH I N G SHE H A D DON E D U R I N G M Y A B S E N C E . M A K I NG TH E M OST OF H E R I N C L I N E D POS I T I O N . . FOR A S H E OFTEN R E P ROAC H E S H E R SISTER F O R H A V I N G TAUGHT H E R SUCH HOR RORS. S E A T E D THAN S H E FLINGS H E R S E L F B A C K A N D ACTS I N SUCH A W A Y AS T O PROVOKE T H E VOLUPT U O U S S E N SATION. T H E SA M E H A R S H M ETHODS U S E D O N X . THE PRI ESrS CASSOCKI I N TE R N A T I ON A L M EDICAL CONGRESS. THE TWO C H I LD R E N WERE NOT ON MY RETURN TO CONSTANTINOPLE I HAD NO D I F F I C U LTY I N P E R S U A D I NG THE F A M I L Y TO FOLLOW THE R E CO M M E N DA T I O N P ROPOS E D BY T H E D I S­ S E PA R ATED. AND EVERY TiNG U I S H E D ACA D E M I C I A N . S H E H A S EVEN B E E N KNOWN TO W E E PI ANUS. . . . A S A R E S U LT O F PROVOK E D STI M U LATION.

. I A PPL. BUT H A R DL. "I'L. TH AT YOU S H O U L. OF BURNI NG COA L.OST I F SHE CONTI NUES T H E WAY SHE IS G O I N G I BUT I F S H E F A I L. THEN BROKE DOWN. H A D B E E N GOOD EVER S I N C E K E E P S R E PEATI NG: "'I F O N L. I E D . A FTER NOON U N OERWENT 1 5T H . CONTRACT A N D SQU E EZE. '''TH E P A I N IS HORRIBL." I N F E R N A L. H E R LOWE R LI M BS HAVE OEOEMA AL. I S H E R U B S HER PA RTS AGA I NST T H E OECORATION ON ITS L. EVE RYTH I NG WAS READY FOR THE TRANSCURRENT C A U T E R I S ATI O N . H ER BUT. O W E D Y .VES.E A N D REWARDING.OOK OUT FOR ANY M ETERS I N D I A M ETER H E ATED OVER A SPIRIT L. S H E BEGAN TO SHIVER. TH I R D CA UTERISATION OF L.ARGE LA B I A ANO A N OTH E R O N THE CL.D SHOWE RS.AST. L. SU PPL." I SAID TO H E R . N E V E R DO I T AGA I N :' AL. IN A STA BL. BURN YOU WITH THE BIG I RON N EXT TI M E AND WITHOUT PITY:' C H A N C E TO TOU C H H E RSEL. HER.US W A S R U N G .. T H E S E M ETHOD W I L. S E E ! N G TH E TH E 1 4TH OF SEPTEMBER.ITTL. HER FACE TOOK ON AN TW I N K L I NG U NDER BECA M E H A NDS HER D I SA P P E A R E D AND Y. L.L. SUPERVISION.WHO SHOWED YOU HOW TO 00 SUCH I N FAMOUS W H A T H A P P E N S W I T H BOTH SISTERS W H E N . S H E I S NONE THE L. C U R E M E .. .A I N S OF H E R B U R NS. SHE W A S REMINDED OF THE SESSION WITH THE FIRE AND K E PT UNDER B EC A M E IN THE DAYS THAT F O L.A R M I NG: IS PALE." SHE SA ID.UTA R Y S I ST E R. FOR BUT THE B E FO R E PROM I S E S AN HOUR I THE TEARS BY AND Y.ONE I S NOT E N OUGH TO PROOUCE ORGASM.ECTU R E WIL. " A N D I'L. SHOOK AS THEY A L.ESS ON THE L. THEY A R E P R EVENTED FROM OOI NG SO. HOT POI NT T H R E E TIMES TO EACH OF T H E L.L. S MY NICE WHEN I S E L. .ACE AN ENORMOUS I RON I N THE FORM OF A N AXE. Y I C O U L O O l E ! I K N O W I WIL. L. PHYSIOGNOM I E HER HANDS SUDDEN C H A NGE. S H E WAS VERY W E L.ITTL. • P U N I S H M E N TS I N F L I C T E D O N H E R BECO M E S VERY DESPONDENT. R E L. BECAUSE THE CL.AY OF BRAZIERS FUL. L. SHOW YOU THAT YOU MADE A M I STAKE BY K E E P I NG M I N E:' I SHOW E D H E R THE CLITORIS BIG H O T I RON.I­ STY L. E BUT I CAUTERISED T H E THREE M I L. .THOUGH L. THE 1 6TH. E . SHE SWEARS SHE WIL.F.A I N I NG THAT HER H E A L. "IT F E E L.L.E.ET N E XT DAY S H E COMPL. L. SECO N D CA UTERISATION.Y I N S ENSITIVE BUT EXTR EM EL. X.EFT AT L. L. COL. DON E QUESTION I E D.L H A V E TO U N DE RGO THE S A M E TORTURE. THE OPERATION PROVED TO HAVE HAD AN .Y THE S I U M .AMP.WAYS O l D W H EN SHE WAS ON THE POINT OF · P E R P E T R A T I N G ONE OF HER OF HER CRIME.S IN WHICH I PL. GOI NGS O N .ICATIONS. WEAK.OODED WITH TEARS. . I TEL. S T O KEEP H E R WOR D SHE W I L. I TT L.D H E R. "'YOU D I D NOT K E E P YOUR PROMISE.Y HAD I L. BE BURNT ON MY N EXT VISIT. BE HER.. BROMIDE OF POTAS­ O R I F I C E OF T H E VAG I N A .F MUCH L. SHE SAYS.ATER.TH RUINED A N D HER RE PUTATION L. I TT L. "I SEE T H A T TH I S DISPL.F B U T STOPS A S SOON A S SHE IS THREATE N E D WITH B U R N I NG. BECO M E S POSS I B L. I C A U T E R I S E BUTTOCKS THE HER 1 1 TH OF SEPTE M B E R I N ORDER TO FRIGHTEN AS MUCH AS POSS I B L. SHE T R I E D TO RUN AWAY. THE SUPERVISION OF Y • . L.MOST TO TH E K N E E . SHE EXPRESSION OF TERROR A N D H E R E Y E S FL. TO P U N I S H H E R FOR O I SOBEDIENCE.IBE RTY. IN A YESTEROAY W H E N TH E A NGEL."' I TOL. E S AT T H E S I G H T OF A L.ONG A N D REPEATED F R I CT I O N IS R EQ U I R E D ROU N D TH E MADE OVER L.L.K AND VERY GOOD OF A TH E AT N IGHT. A DMITTED T O HAVI NG I T . I MAKE A GREAT AND LOI N S WITH TH E BIG I RON. S I N C E T H E FI RST C A U T E R I SATION SHE H A SN'T H A D TH E S A M E DESI R E TO EXCITE H E RS E L. E y . TOUCH I NG A L.E TO RESIST THE CRAVI NG. FO U G H T TH E 1 9TH.EG.. SHE T R E M B L. E FFECT. .Y P A I N F U L. S A M E:' SISTER DOES THE THE 1 5TH . CRYI NG: "TH E SOU N O O F T H E BE LLS M A KES M E TH I N K OF T H E DAY O F J U D G E M E NTr' THE RED P L. WHAT CAN I DO?" HER E XCESSES CONTI N U E SHE AND HER TH E CA UTERI SATION. . D HAVE TO BE TIED UP LIKE AN A N I M A L. SOBBING.ESS S I N C E THE CAUTERI SATION. WHO SOBS A N D VOC I F E R ATES. " I F YOU DO IT AGAIN.E y . "IT IS DISGRACEFUL. BECA USE I C A N GO FOR MORE T H A N TWENTY-FOUR HOURS WITHOUT DOING A HORROR. "' SHE R E P L.E TABL.OW ON I T U NTIL.E OESIRE T O TOUCH TH EM­ THI NGS?" I ASKED HER.ITORIS. S H E T H R U STS A PIECE OF WOOD I NTO THE VAGI N A . S I R . ON THE STATE B E C O M E S A L. AT L. TOW A R O E V E N I NG S H E C A PRICIOUS.E.L NOT B E N A UG H TY AGA I N AND A D M I TS TO BEING ooUBL. EXPL. " 1 FOU N D OUT FOR MYSE L.L. B U T SOUGHT TO J U STI FY HERSEL.L. E A TS IN TH E DRESS FACE.EFT BEFORE SHE WAS AT IT AGA I N WORSE TH A N EVER. SHE I M M EDIATE AND S A L. TO THE TOU C H . HOWEVER.F BY SAYING IT WAS I M POSSIBL. THIS I S 32 .E. BEHAVED ON THE WAL. OR A C R I M I N A L. WITH A L. I T BECOMES RED HOT.L..F. . STOO P I N G OVER A L.ITORIS IS NOT ONL.Y G U I LTY BEC A USE. O R I V E N BY THE I R R E S I STABL.ENT. "I WIL. SHE ABUSES H E RSEL. . I BL. L. THIN.

HER U R I N E CONTA I N S NO A L B U M I N . SHE B EG I N S TO COUGH. O N A N I S M WAS BOTH LITTLE Y • . S H E H A S A T E R R I BLE ATTACK. LITTLE Y . OF H E R T E R R I BLE FITS O F RAGE. A N D THE CASE SA L I E N T POI NTS OF T H I S I N T E R E ST I N G FOR THE OPERATION. T H E GOVE R N ESS IS E N C HANTED M O R E AND BEFORE H A N D. BECA M E H I G H L Y EXCITED A N D A B U S E D H E RS E L F EVEN MORE THAN SHE HAD DURING THE DAYS R E LATIVELY LITTLE COMPA R E D WITH THE THI RTY OR FORTY A B U S E S COM M ITED EACH D A Y BEFORE THE C A UTERI SATION. LITTLE Y . . AS MIGHT BE EXPECTED. THE 1 7TH. AT TIMES SHE H A D VISUAL H ALLUCI NATIONS. WHOSE PATI ENT WAS A L I TT L E GIRL OF THREE. T H I S YOU N G G I R L M A N AG E D TO R E S I ST UNTI L M A R R I AGE. I N THE CASE O F TH E TWO LITTLE S I STERS. ETC. S H E HAS H A LLUC I NATIONS ARE A L L TH E TI M E . FALLING SEVERAL TIMES I N TO A SWOON THAT MADE S U F F IC I E NTLY C L E A R ADDITION O F A N Y LONG COMM ENTA R I E S TO BECOM E U N N ECESSARY. I CAUTERISE T H E CLITOR I S A N D E N T R Y T O THE VAGINA. NONETHELESS SHE DOES IT TWO OR TH R E E TI M ES E V E R Y TWENTY· FOU R H O U RS. THE 1 2TH OF OCTOBER TH E HORRORS BEGIN A GA I N . . A N OTH E R TI M E . • . SAME TH E I R I NDECENT ACTS I N T H E P A S T D U R I NG OUTINGS: S H E TH ROWS H E RS E L F ON T H E BUSHES. PRETENCE O F MODESTY. S H E CONTI N U E S T O A B U S E H E R S E L F A S I N TH E PAST. S H E R EPEATS: "I D E S E R V E T O B E BURNT AND I WILL BE. IN SPITE OF SUCH TOGETH ER. W E KNOW OF ONLY TWO CASES: THAT O F FONASSA·G R I V E S R E LATING TO A TH E 25TH I APPLY A HOT POI NT TO X . SHE COMPLA I N S O F V A G U E PAINS IN TH E C H E ST. ETC. H A V I NG IN GENERAL FULL L I B E RTY OF ACTION. SEVEN Y E A R OLD C H I LD WHOSE H A B I TS NECESSI· TATED THE R E M E D Y OF A B E LT. ONCE AGAIN H A S A V E R ITABLE FIT OF FOLLY D U R I NG WHICH SHE TRIES TO THROW WITH T H E R E S U LT OBTA I N ED. W I THOUT ANY S H E S U B MITS TO T H E OPERATION WITHOUT W I N C I NG. SHE VICIOUS R U B B I NG HAS DISAPPEA R E D . BUT TH E N S H E R E T U R N S W I T H R E N E W E D F R E N ZY TO H ER OLD HABITS. O N TH E BEGS T O H A V E H E R H A N DS TI E D E A C H TI M E S H E I S N O T S U R E O F H E RS E LF: ONE PUNISHED BY R E LA PS E ON I S EVEN RAW F L A G E L LA T I O N THE BUTTOCKSI OFTEN S H E I S S E E N TO M A K E A N EFFORT AT CONTROL. S H E HOWLS L I K E A W I LD BEAST W H E N S H E H E A R S M E COMI NG ." FROM T E N A T N IG H T UNTI L SIX I N TH E MOR N I I NG. BUT AN PRECOCIO U S ABUSE A N D ITS FREQUENT R EPETI· TION. AMUSING HERSELF AND LA UG H I NG G A Y LY. F I N A LLY. AS TO X . LEGS CLOSED A N D TIED BANDAGE I N O R D E R TO REACH TH E G E N ITA L PA RTS. SHE IS KEPT ON HER F E ET. ONE HERSELF OUT O F TH E W I N DOW. F R O M TH E N O N THE TWO LITTLE PATI ENTS W E R E N O LONG E R UNDER M Y O B S E R VATION. THIS IS CONTR A R Y. . . . . PLAYING WITH H E R DOLL. IN THE COUNTRY. L A S T E D A B O U T A QUA RTER OF A N H O U R . EVEN TH E HER SUPERVI S I O N A N D D E P R I V E D OF A L L TREATMENT. C A UG H T IN TH E ACT BY THE GOV E R N ESS SHE HAS A N D U N A B L E T O SATISFY H E RS E LF.SUCCESSFULLY A G A I N ST T E M PT A T I O N . BUT X MORE DROPS ALL . . KICKS HER PARTS W I TH HER H EEL. FOR T H E C H I L D OBTA I N E D SATI S FACTION BY S LI P P I N G A LONG FEATHE R INSIDE THE OPERATION S H E I S P E RFECTLY GOOD. YESTERDAY. W I L D E Y E D. T H E Y W E R E SEPA RATED. EXA M I NATION O F T H E C H EST R E V E A L S N OTHI NG. ACCORD I N G TO T H E GOVE R N ESS. WHO I S HITTING ME. • . I S GOOD. • :S C LITORIS. ARMS COV E R E D W I TH AS OEDEMA. BUT LYING ON HER BACK TO A VO I D A N Y R U B B I NG O N THE CHAI R'S E DGE. O H HOW I WANT TOI YOU C AN'T U N D ERSTA N D. I T R Y G I V I N G H E R S E V E R A L VIOLENT A N D V E R Y PA I N F U L E LECTRIC SHOCKS O N T H E PARTS WITH C LA R K'S APPA RATUS. S H E RUBBED T H E V A G I N A S O VIOLENTLY WITH A PIECE OF BRONZE S H E B L E D F R E E LY. A T OTH E R T I M E S S H E BECA M E D E LI R I OUS. X . ACCORD I NG TO M Y I N FO R M ATION. WAS COMPLETELY C U RED. Y . . COM M E N TS THE 2 3 R D. . ONE D U R I NG WHICH SHE YELLS: "I W A N T TO. BECA M E A C H I L D A G A I N . S H E C A N N O LONG E R K E E P UP WITH LESSONS. I WI LL BE BRAVE D U R I NG THE THE DETA I L S OF THE FOREGOI N G C A S E · H I STORY HAVE B E E N R E LATED IN SUCH M ETIC U LOUS DETA I L." EXAMPLES O F O N A N I S M AT SUCH A N E A R L Y AGE A R E RA R E I N LITTLE G I R LS. HOW I WANT TO DO ITI" HER M E M O R Y B E G I N S TD F A I L. THE I N FL A M MATION SET UP BY CLiTORIA L A N D VAG I N A L. M A DE M O I S E LLE. S H E I S F A R AWAY. I WON'T C RY. OR E L S E ATTACH E D TO A C H A I R. SAYING: "TUR N TH E PAGE. TH I S M ETHOD P RO V E S U N S UC C E S S FU L . AS O U R OBSERVATION D E M ONSTRATES. 33 . AND THAT O F D E S L A N D E S. TO OBVIATE ANY F R I CTION. . WITHOUT ANY MEDICAL N I G H T SHE SUCCEEDS I N R U BB I N G H E RSELF TILL T H E BLOOD COMES ON THE STRAPS THAT B I N D HER. AND FOR T W E NTY· FOU R HOU R S A FT E R THE SUCCESS.

WAS F R E Q U E N TLY SUBJ ECT. I N TI M I D A T I O N .. ALL HER VERY MIGHT OFTEN X. COA X I N G . OF CALM AND REMORSE. I F TO TH I S WE A D D THE H A L L UC I N A ITONS W O W H I C H X . BY THE I R R E S I ST A B L E I R R ITATION TH E Y EXTINCTION O F A L L M O R A L S E N S E SHOULD A L. H E I N FO R M E D M E O F I T I N A S E A L E D LETT E R WHICH HE GAVE THE P. OR A N HYSTE R I C A L WOM A N A VERT A N ONCOM I N G ATTACK. T H E C R U E L­ LEST P U N I S H M ENT. IT WAS ONLY A FT E R CONSTA NT D E T E R I ORATED. N E I TH E R S U C C ESS. W H E N E V E R T H E TWO C H I L D R E N WERE OVERCOME BY A N A RD E N T DESI R E T O M A ST U R BATE T H E Y D I D NOT C A R E I N T H E LEAST ABOUT PROPRI ETY OR THOSE P R E S E NT. AS A V E R I TA B L E GLED WITH N E UROSIS. WHICH L E D TO A PROGRESSIVE AND A LMOST W H I C H TOOK POSSESSION OF THE CH I LD R E N . TO OVERCO M E U N H E A LTHY I M P U L S E W H I C H D ROVE H E R T O EXCITE HER ORGANS. THE EARLY C I RC U M ­ M A N I AC A L AGITATION SO VIOLENT THAT TH E C H I LD. STRA I T J A C K ET. T H I S Y O U N G L A D Y RENOUNCED ONAN AND A LSO RECOV E R E D PER­ FECT E YE-SIGHT. . OR TO A LL E V I ATE BOREDOM WHEN L E FT U N O C C U P I E D. WAS MOST PROFO U N D D E P R E S S I O N . . ADVICE. . TO WHOM I S E N T T H E PATI E N T WITHOUT A C QU A I NTI N G THE HIM OF HER H A B I TS. TRIED TO GET THE BETTER OF I WILL SAY J U ST A WORD CONCERNING THE H E R S E LF. BUT X . PARTS P R E S ENCE OF H E L M I N ­ TH I S WAS FOLLOWED SOON AFTER BY A P E R I OD OF PROST R A T I O N . . TH E Y GAVE WAY WITHOUT IN BLUSH I NG TO TH E I R D I SG R A C E F U L OR SER­ C A U S E. BONDS. THE STI M U LUS ORIGI NATING SE LVES. OF HER R E C OG N I S E D E S S E N TI A L CAUSE F A I L I N G S I G HT..·S EYE-SIGHT HAD A LSO CONSI D ERABLY POINT I F E E L I T N ECES­ H A V E DON E SO BY G E N I T A L N E E D. T H E R A PE UTIC M ETHODS E M PLOYED I N T H E CASE OF THE LITTLE G I R LS : M E D I C A M ENTS HAD NO E FFECT. T H E R E C A N BECA USE OF THEIR YOUTH AT TH E TI M E T H E Y BE NO D O U B T THAT SHE SUFFERED FROM DEEP BEGA N T O A B U S E TH E M S E LVES. S U F F E R E D FROM E I TH E R SHE M U LTIPLE N E RVOUS SUBJECT TO THE PUBIC B E LT. STRUG­ THE TOTA L A M A U ROSIS. V I C I O U S H A B I TS O R I G I N A T E D EXCLUSIVELY I N T H E E N C E PH A LO N : ONLY LATER AS A R E S U LT OF TH E R A PY W A S E Q U A L L Y I N E F F E C T U A L. THE THES AT T H E LOWER EXTR E M ITY O F TH E R ECTU M CAN. . . I M POS S I B L E FOR O U R YOUNG PATI E N TS TO X . .. LITTLE X . A S TO LITTLE Y . A N D BITING THE I N TESTI N A L PARASITES (AT LEAST I N TH E CASE OF THE ELDER SI STER). I TH I N K WE M A Y C O N S I D E R THIS I R R ES I ST­ ABLE DESIRE. O N TH I S S A R Y TO REFER TO A S I M I LA R C A S E W H I C H C A M E UNDER MY OBSERVATION WHEN I PRACTISED IN RE PETITION OF S U C H CONTACTS THAT A N AWAKEN­ ING OF THE S E X U A L I N ST I N CTS TOOK PLACE. . . H A V I N G FOLLOWED O U R A DVICE. SEDATIVES NOR DID A NOR TON I C S M ET WITH ANY SHOWERS TO AND WARM BATHS MORAL IN THE B E G I N N I NG . LEAD TO TH E M A N U A L EXCITATION OF THE PA RTS. TH E STI M U L U S FOR THESE B R I NG ABOUT RETURN N O R M A L. . WITH TH E B E ST WILL I N THE WORLD S H E COULD NO MORE CONTROL H E RSELF THAN A SU F F E R E R FROM C H O L E R A C A N PREVENT C R A M PS. C A R E S S E S . L"TER.'S C U RIOSITY H A D A LREADY BEEN AR O U S E D BY THE MAID TO U C H I N G HERSELF VIGOROUSL Y W H E N S H E B E L I E V E D THE C H I L D TO B E AS L E E P. H A D WORMS.B Y VANTS. A T THE AGE O F FOU R S H E WAS COR R U PTED BY H E R S I STER. AND BOTH THE THE RASH ON THE E XC I T E M E NT WAS AT ITS H E IGHT.. AT AN T H O S E S H E M O S T R E S PECTED THE SATISFACTION OF HER I F THEY OPPOS E D WHEN HER CRAVING EARLY AGE.. T H E M O S T A S S I D UOUS S U P E R V I S I O N ONLY R E S U LTED I N D I SORDE RS. FOR W H I C H I TREATED SEXUAL HER. USUALLY FURIOUS SO AS A SWEET WILD AND DOC I L E . IT WAS S I M PLY BY I M ITATION. AND I N ITI ATION. TH I S U N C O N T ROLLA B L E C R A V I N G PA R I S . MANY TIMES X.SO R EC E I V E S P EC I F I C M ENTION. BEGGI NG TO B E TIED U P A N D PREVENTED FROM DOI N G ITI A MOMENT LATER SHE E M PLOY E D EVERY R U S E TO O U T W I T TH E V I G I LA N C E OF THOSE I N C H A RGE OF H E R . NOTH I N G COULD D I SSUADE THESE POO R C H I L D R E N FROM Y I E L D I NG TO TH E I R FATA L A D D ICTION! LITTLE X. STRAPS. RELIGION WITH ITS T H R E ATS FREQUENT AND R E P E A T E D R U BBING. PRACTICES F R O N T O F P A S S E R S. FROM THE G E N I TA L PARTS THEM­ A N D P R O M I S E S . . NOW. . BEEN IT WOULD HAVE PSYC H I C D I STU RBANCE. OR ELSE PREY TO A 34 . WITH I M PU LSION TO SATI SFY T H E M I M MEDIATELY AT A L L COSTS. B E A ST."TI ENT.IF ONE SEEKS IN THE ORIGIN. I N COM PANY WITH OTH E R C H I LD R E N . H ITT I N G B EC A M E AS STA N C E S W H I C H THESE V I CIOUS H A B I TS W E R E TWO PRINCIPAL CAUSES E M ERGE: CONTRACTED. D E S M A R R E S SENIOR. I T WAS THAT O F A YOU N G LADY O F TWENTY­ EIGHT Y E A R S OLD W H O CONFESSED TO M E THAT SHE TOUCH E D H E R S E L F A GREAT MANY TIMES EACH DA Y.

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M ETHOD.ITOR I S A N D CAUTE RISATION S A T I S FACTO R Y BY HOT IRON ALONE THE GAVE F I RST VUL.D R E N·S I MA G I N ATION BY T H E RED H O T I RO N M UST A L. H A V I NG BECOME LESS EXCITABLE. T H E R E IS NO REASON TO CONCLUDE THEN.VAL.. WAS ON LY W A S COMPELTELY C U R ED. T H A N K S TO T H I S IN ALL.ESS I N FLA M E D AS A R E S U LT OF THE OPE RATION. C A UTERISED U N DERWENT ONE CAUTERISATION. THE N U M B E R OF VOLUPTUOUS SPASMS WAS REDUCED TO THREE OR FOUR. FOU R T I M ES.E THAT.ITTLE G I R LS. THAT TOU C H I NG M A Y P ROVE P A I N F U L RATH E R THAN A SOU RCE OF PL.A R TO THOSE S U B M I TT E D TO YOU R CONSIDE RATION.TH E I N VENTION OF NEW EXPEDI ENTS INSPIRED BY RUSE AND SU BTLETY. THAT IN CASES S I M I L.EAS U R E . IT I S EQU ALL. EFFECTS OF TRANSC U RRENT CAUTERISATION.Y AND HOUR. T H E T E R RO R PROVOKED BY THE S I G H T O F THE I N STRU M E NTS. OR THAT TH E M ETHOD I S I N E FFECTI VE. THE SECOND POINT OF G E N ITAL S E N S I TI V I TY CONSTI TUTED BY THE VULVAL ORIFICE HAVING ALSO BEEN DEADENED BY THE CAUTERI­ SATI O N . IT IS EASY TO CONCEI VE T H AT T H E TRANSL.ATED BY CATH ERINE DUNCAN D E M ETRIUS ZAMBACO C H I L D R E N . N U M B E R OF T I M E S . . O N A N I S M L. AND AT AN E A R L.Y PROBABL. THE CL. A FT E R OPERATION. R E S U LT S .SO B E C O U N T E D A M O N G THE B E N E F I C I A L. S H E F I N A LLY. LITTLE Y • . FROM FORTY T O FI FTY TIMES A DAY.. A FTER WHICH I LOST SIGHT OF H E R ENTI RELY. THAT SHE PERSI STS IN HER A B U S E . IN ORDER TO IN COMBAT C LI TO R A L V A G I N A L. ARE 36 . X. WE BELIEVE TH E N . A LSO LESS PRONE TO TOUCH THEMSELVES. A N D T H E I M PRESSION M A D E O N TH E C H I L. ONE IT I S R EASONABLE TO I N FE R THAT CAUTERI SATON BY HOT I RON D I M I N I SHES THE SENSITIVITY OF THE C L I TORIS. WHICH CAN B E COM PLETELY DESTROYED IF THE OPERATION IS R E PEATED A C E RTA I N SHOULD NOT H ESITATE TO RESORT TO THE HOT I RO N . O R I F I C E H A V I N G BECOME M O R E O R L. ACCOR D I N G TO THE I N FORMA· TION I R E C E I VED.

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NO O N E NOTICED. THAT HAVE H A P P E N E D AND STILL COULD HAPPEN TO M E I N ALL L I K E LI H OOD: A NTOI N E WOU LD KNOW A BOUT IT AT ONCE A N D N E V E R S L E E P AGA I N . I J U M PE D O N 38 . . J U STI N WHO WAS WAITING FOR ME AT TH E W H E E L OF O U R BUICK ( W H I C H TOOK COULD BE PLACE U N K NOWN T O H I M) : NOTH I N G MORE V U LG A R . DOES T H A T M E A N THEY H A V E SOME I M PORTA N C E B EC A U S E OF I T ? SHOULD TH E S A M E T H I N G H A PP E N AGA I N. BUT E V E N S O A RR A N G E D A N Y A PPOI NTM E NTS I N THE M EA NTI M E . I N A L L HON ESTY I M UST A D M I T I W O U L D NOT R E S I ST. BUT S I NC E THAT COU L D N'T G E T I T TO START. I W A N T E D TO M A K E T H E MOST OF SUCH A W A R M A N D WON D E R F U L LY S U N N Y A FTERNOON. THE POOR DEAR HAS NO I D E A WHAT I A M CAPABLE O F WH ITHOUT H I M . I'LL N E V E R TELL H I M T H E T H I NGS R ETROSPECT S I N C E I C A N S E E HOW ATTRACTIVE I M U ST H A V E B E E N TO THOSE TWO I N DI V I D UALS . NOT EVEN A BATH WAS A N Y H E LP. A N D I TA K E (AS I D I D E A R L I E R ) AS M U C H ONCE I WOU L D N E V E R H A V E D R E A M E D OF GOING BACK OVER S U C H THI NGS. R U E SCR I B E . FOR M E SUCH A RESEARC H I S U N R E A L.ROBE RTE'S D I A R Y MAY {CONTI NUEDl 1 954 . . T H I S M O R N I N G AT T H E C O M M I S S I O N I WAS D I S T R A I T B E ­ C A U S E OF T H A T . TH E BR EAKDOWN D I DN'T WOR R Y M E. . I ' L L TRY TO TAKE REFUGE I N WORDS SO AS NOT TO H A V E TO TH I N K A BOUT IT D U R I NG THE DAY. THAT H E SHOULD H AVE TH E I NCONC EIV­ ABLE A R R OG A N C E TO I MAGINE H IMSELF THE E X PE R I E NC E A VIOLENT F E E L I NG OF S H A M E J UST B EC A U S E SHE I S R E S PECTA BLE? ITS A POI N T O F V I EW: FOR A L O N G TI M E OCTAVE H A S M A D E I T H I S PA BULUM. BUT NOWA DAYS I C A N'T R E S I ST TELLING MYSELF THE STORY OF TH I S OR THAT I N C I D E N T P LE A S U R E IN MY D I SG R A C E AS THOSE WHO I N FLICTED I T ON M E . . I HAD T I M E TO KILL B E FO R E R E TU R N I N G TO THE PALAIS B O U R BO N . . A N D. AFTER M Y M A N I C U RE. NOT HAVING H A PPENED TO M E A N D K E E P S COM I N G BACK TO ME. NO DOUBT: O R AM I I NC I TED BY M Y R E SPECTA B I L I TY TO M A K E IT? I R E M E M B E R THAT I WAS A S H A M E D: WAS M Y VOLUPTU A R Y A N Y T H E L E S S FOR THAT? A N D NOW MY SHAME IS EVEN LESS R E PUGNANT TO ME IN A UTHOR O F M Y I M PROP R I E T I E S I S O N E TH I NG-BUT A S TO CONSI D E R I N G H I MS E L F AT THE ORIGIN OF MY T E M P E R A M E N T . IS IT POSS I B L E THAT A WOM A N SEEKS TO I L E A V E OCTAVE T O H I S RATIOCINATIONS A N D H I S PRAYERS. A N D THOUGH HE GOES TO SO MUCH TROUB L E SU PPOS I N G WHAT H A P P E N S TO ME AND WHAT H E'D LIKE TO SEE M E S U B M ITTED TO. . I MEAN THOSE DUE TO OCTAVE. LIKE T H E LAST TIME.

P E R F E C T T Y P E OF POL I C E GALLERY D E BEAUJOLA I S . I H A D ATTRACTED HIM. TO THAT MOMENT WHEN TH E ONLY T H I N G HE COULD DO WAS TO COR N E R ME I N T H E EM PTY SHOP. A L L T H E S A M E I WAS WEA R I NG T H E ROSETTE O F THE LEGION O F HONO U R I N THE B UTTONHOLE O F MY S U I T. THE C O LOS S U S . STA I RCASE! PERCEIVING A N E X I T T O THE ABOVE G I V I N G ON TO THE RUE D E B E A UJOLA I S NO DOU BT. DO I H A V E AGAI NST T H E M ? I F T H E Y G O T A P I TI F U L P L E A S U R E . STOPS T W O O R T H R E E S H O P W I N DOWS AWAY EACH TIME I G LA N C E AT O N E O R OTH E R O F THE D I S P LAYS. A N D I R E M E M B E R. POW E R LESS. I SET OFF DOWN THE I M M EDIATELY CROSSED M Y FOLDED H A N DS. BOTH H A N D S LYING ON T H E LEATH ER. NOW TH E P L E A S U R E B E G I N S . DID TH E TWO I M AG E S : ONE OF THE BEAUTIFUL THROUGH THE H A L F . I LOOK F I N E. H I S H A N D ON T H E K NOB. A WAS BEING FOLLOWED. THE HIS BACK AGAI NST BARS MY COLOSS U S U N K NOWN WOM A N W I TH T H E ROSETTE. I S M I LE. ALTHOUGH IT I S QUITE POSSI B L E FOR PEOPLE PASSING O R STOPPING I N F RO N T OF THE BOOK. I NCONC E I VABLE A N D TH E R E FO R E A L L TH E MORE I M PERIOUS FOR HIM . PASSI N G THROUGH THE ENTRY OF THE P A L A I S. S Q U A T I N S H I RT S L EEVES. MY POSS I B L E POSITIONS IN T H E I M P E N D I NG SITU ATION WHICH HE KNEW WAS U N PRECEDE NTED FOR ME. TH ROUGH A DOOR A T T H E REAR. WHEN A SUGGESTIVE PRESSURE FORCED ME TO LEGS APART P E R H A PS. THE GLASS DOOR. BEGAN SC RUTI N I Z I N G ME IN AN I NSOL E N T FASHION. I T W A S W H I LE. THE FAT. I ROSE AND GOT OUT AT TH E TH EA T R E F R A N C A I S . A N D SO ON UNTIL REACHING TH E V A U LT OF THE K I N D O F L A R G E COLOSSUS. I N FACT. I HAD GONE INSIDE AND CHOSEN AN SQUAT M A N LOO M E D U P TH ROUGH T H E R E A R DOOR. I T WA S THEN I G A L L E R Y D E MONTPE N S I E R . I N D I V I D U A L. . TOOK M Y FI NGERS. A L MOST DAZED. . BUT THE 39 . T H E N . H A N D LYING ON THE BALUSTRADE. NO ONE G I V E S I T A THOUGHT. I RETURN TO THE TERRACE AND RECA PITULATE. BUT AT TH I S S A M E MOMENT T H E I N D I V I D U A L W A L K S PAST M E . B U T H E . I PULLED OFF TH E ROSETTE A N D HID IT I N MY BAG. PASSAGE A S SOON A S I TRY TO LEAVE. A T T H I S POI N T LET M E TRY TO I MA G I N E EACH STAGE O F T H E I N D I V I D U A L'S ITI N ER A RY. ST U D Y I N G THE MOV E M E N T O F MY H I PS. THE CLEA N-SHAV E N . A N D A S M I LE O N M Y LI PS FEELING THE WARM B R E EZ E THROUGH THE LOW E R E D W I N DOW. U N D E R T H E A RCADES A L MOST LI K E DESERTED ECHO AT THAT MY HOUR. FACE? H A V I NG THEN FOLLOW I N G CLOSE E NOUGH O N M Y H E ELS TO WATCH ME STROLL AHEAD OF HIM U N D E R THE "CONTACTED" M U ST H A V E L E S S TH A N A N HOU R LATE R I F I N D M Y S E L F SITTING O U TS I D E TH E REGENCY C A FE . O R H A D T H E R E B E E N NOTH I N G A L L T H E WAY BUT T H E SOLE I MA G E OF T H O S E P A R A L L E L BARS A N D THE F E A R T H E Y M I GHT R E M A I N FIXED I N VAIN U NTI L T H E E N D OF T H E D A Y ? W H E N H E FOU N D H I MSELF A FTERWARDS O N H I S K N E E S I N FRONT OF ME. T H E T W O E X C H A N G E A CON N I V I NG LOOK. HE POU N D I NG. WALKED I NTO T H E PALA I S-ROYA L. . . I WAS SEATED. H A V I NG TH E EPI D E R M US OF M Y F I N G E RS. R I S E A N D GO TO THE WASH ROOM. . OF MEDIUM H E I GHT. M I STA K I N G THE SHOP­ THIS ONE I S U N D E RGOING T R A N S FO R MATION-THE I N D I V I D U A L FOLLOWS M E IN. D I D I CONTI N U E TO S M I L E WITH HALF-OPEN I NT E N T? LEGS. D I D THEY C O I NC I D E T O T H E POI NT OF S U BSTITUTION. F I N A LLY BOU ND HAND AND FOOT. MY TEM PLES A RCADES OF TH E PALAIS. EXTENDING IT TO M Y WHOLE BODY W H I C H H E W A S CONSCIOUS OF. WHERE C A N T H E N E W BLOUSE SHOP B E THAT GI LBE RTE T O L D M E A BOUT? F I N A LLY I PASS U N D E R THE V A U LT O F THE G A L L E R Y D E BEAUJO­ LAIS: IT M U ST BE T H E R E. FOOTSTEPS C LO S E R : OF DECIDED TO G ET OUT. . B EG I N N I N G WITH THAT FURTIVE BUT I R R E S I STA BLE P R E S S U R E . T H E OTH E R O F T H E S A M E WOMAN S U S P E N D E D A N D TIED.S H O P OPPOSITE T O SEE THAT TH E R E COULD B E NO STO P P I N G FOR HIM UNTIL THE DESCENT I N TO THE B A S E M E NT. WHEN I HAD BEEN E LABORATING T H A T SEN SATION. THAT FATAL DOOR AJAR ON THE S H A DOWY FLOOR E M PTY S EAT. CONSIDER MYSELF I N THE M I R ROR: N O N E E D TO PUT ON N E W M A KE-UP. WHO WAS T A L K I NG T O TH E COND UCTOR AT F I R ST. H E WAS CON S I D E R I N G M Y H A N D O N T H E KNOB W H I C H HE PREVENTED ME FROM OPE N I NG. W H A T. O R W E R E T H E Y S U F F I C I E NT L Y C O N T R A D I CT O R Y T O PROVO K E SORRY TH E E M OT I O N ONCE T H A T C O N TO R T E D GOT OFF THE HIS BUS. FRANCA I S. . A N OT H E R MAN A PPEA RS. H E H A D FOUND I T N EC E S S A R Y TO TOUCH MY FINGERS AND AFTER PI M P.TH E PLATFO R M OF TH E F I R S T BUS. . M Y BACK AGAI NST THE R A I L. AT LIPS A S LEAST MY I HIS REGARD BEC A M E MORE C H A NGE PLACES A N D S I T I N S I D E " . TO T H E R I G H T. WHAT A RAPID AND AT THE HAVE SAME TI M E D E TA I L E D INSIDE HIS SCEN A R I O M U ST U N WO U N D SKULL . I T R I E D TO M A K E A DASH FOR IT. A R M R A I S E D . AS HE DI DN'T STOP LOOKI N G A T M E. I PUSH OPEN A G L A S S DOOR. THAT THE STOOD ON T H E PLATFORM OF T H E B U S . CASUA LLY I C RO S S E D THE SQUA R E OF THE T H EAT R E THE OF OWN FO R DREW A SOM ETH I N G QUITE I USUAL M EMBER PA R L I A M ENT. FOR ME. H A V I N G S A T DOWN OPPOSITE.ROYAL. M Y H A N D S A R E T R E M B L I N G N O DOUBT AND THE WAITER ASKS M E AT ONCE IF I'M ALL R I GHT. T H E SECON D M A N STA N DS A S I D E A N D L E A V E S TH E I N N E R D O O R A J A R .F R O S T E D P A N E A N YT H I N G U N U S U A L THAT M IG H T H A P P E N IN TH E E M PTY SHOP. A N D LEANT OUT WATC H I NG IN A K I N D O F D R E A M THE SHOPS GO BY.

O F F E R I N G ME A G LASS OF BRANDY. M Y S K I RT I S U N HOOKED A N D T H E REST TAK E N O F F . SNATCH T H E M AWAY. STI LL B E L I E V I N G I T POSSI B L E T O ESCAPE. . BRI NGS HIS H A N D DOWN ON MY FINGERS A S T H E Y G R I P T H E B A L U S T R A D E . ." I SAY IN A VOIC E NO LONG E R M Y OWN. SWEATI NG. • MY FINGER-PRI NTS? A PPROACH E S H I S MOUTH TO O N E OF M Y TIED H A N DS A N D. . IN V A I N I A TT E M PT TO LIFE MY K N E E TO FOU N D M Y S E LF S U S P E N D E D A N D AROUSED. T H E COLOSS U S AS A RE R E M A I N SO-WE C A N O N LY R E M A I N S I L E NT. . SCREAM. TH E R E IN THE M I DDLE OF A PHYSICAL C U LT U R E S E T. STI L L DETE R M I N ED T O DEFEND MYSELF. WHICH HE NOW TAKES O U T OF HIS ENORMOUS OF POC K ETS T O U NT I E M E . . LESS . AS THE V E N T I LATOR B E G A N TO C R E W. I SAW H I M CROUCH. T U R N DOWN AGA I N AND-TWO STEPS FROM THE BACK­ HIDE THE I R RESISTABLE E FFECTS ON MY THIGH. W H A T NONSENSE! BUT TO RETURN O N E OF T H E S E DAYS TO THAT PLACE. WITHOUT SHOW I N G A N Y I NTEREST O B V I O U S LY . H I S S H I RT I S I M PECCABLY WHITE A N D HIS H A NDS. TIED FOR U P. THAT OCCASION IS STI L L N E IT H E R MORE NOR LESS THAN TH E BOW OF M Y R E F L ECTION DRAWN OVER THIS 40 . H A N DS LEVEL POCKET-FA I R P U SH I NG O P E N THE H E AVY STEE L DOOR G I V I N G ON TO A N EON-LIGHTED ROOM W I T H GLEA M I NG W A L LS. . BUT TH E LIGHT STAYS ON A N D . . B U T I SLAPPED HIM. EYES CLOSED. BETW E E N S U S P E N D E R BELT A N D FLESH. TH ROWS M E OVER H I S SHOU LDER. MAN TAKES HIM HIM U N D E R TH E S HOUL­ AWAY. HE U N FO L D S AND R E T U R N T O T H E "SO U RCE"? H A R DLY WORK ENOUGH FOR THE RUE DE SAUSSAIES TO KEEP THAT ST R A IGHTE N S M Y F I N G E R S. H A I R. THATS A NOTHE R MATTER. SLOWLY. H I S ARM GOES ROU N D M Y L E G S .C U T EYES." WOMEN LIKE M E W H O A R E NOW AT T H E CONTROLS OF T H E NATION. UNDER THE WHIRR OF T H E FANS ON THE C E I L I NG. AS I C LOS E MY F I ST. SO AROUND"-SO LONG AS WE ATTACH E D TO T H E EXTRE M I TI E S OF T H E V E RTICAL B A R S A N D ALL THAT I N S I L E NC E. WHAT ELSE COULD A WOM A N DO IN SUCH A SITUATION? • • . I CAN STI L L K I C K: MY A N KLES ARE SPREAD AND S U C H A B U S Y QUA RTER-BUT WOM E N L I K E M E WHO WERE ON THE "CHA RITY FRONT. GOES TO FIND M Y BAG AND RETU R N S TO G I V E IT TO M E. WHIRR ON TH E C E I LING. • . A S IF O U R B R E A TH I NG R E PLAC ED ANY WORDS WE COULD EXCHANGE H E R E. C E RTA I N LY T H E LEAST PLEASANT MOMENT IN W H A T I C A NNOT EVEN CA LL A NIGHTMARE. THE COLOSSUS H A S COLLAPSED. MY CLAMMY H A N DS E X H A L E THE P E R F U M E OF T H E I R C R E A M I N TH E S T U F F Y A I R D E S P I T E THE V E N T I L A TO R S . D U R I NG WHICH TIME THE SQUAT MAN E X H I BITS A CARD OSTENTATIOUSLY AND SLIPS IT I NTO M Y BAG. LI FTS M E . . A G A I NST THE BA R. THE FLOOR SHONE FANS WITH A L I NO L E U M A N D. I NT E L L I G E N T E X P R ESSION. RECEIVES W H I C H TH E R E I S NO STOPPING M E T I LL H A V E NO STRENGTH L E FT . THE OTH E R MAN WHO HAD PRECEDED HIM WAS A L R E A DY RETURN. WOM E N LONG LIKE WE ME WHO H A V E "BEEN B E A UTIFUL. THE N A I LS P E R F ECT AND USE­ IN MY RETURNS W I T H OUT AFTER HIS P OC K E T S A N OT H E R AND. REELING HE AND PUTS I NC A PA B L E C. W E L L K E PT. . GRABBING A H A N DFUL O F THIGH. H I TT I N G MYSELF I N FRONT O F THOSE WHAT A R E L I E F IT I S LETTING BESIDE MYSELF WITH T H E COLOSSUS I N T H E FAC E W I T H MY B A G . ROOM OF TH E SHOP-THE MOME NT COMES W H E N . I OPEN TH E MY EYES. "PUT O U T T H E LIGHTS T H E N. WITH A G ESTU R E . T H E SOU N D O F A D U L L TH U D AT M Y FEET. A SILENCE M A D E OF M Y O W N M U T I S M I N ACCORDANCE WITH T H E TWO M E N . .U P. C A L L FOR AN WHICH I NVESTIGATION? BECA USE O F T H I S C A R D R E P R OD U C E S . H A N DS PUTS TO HIS FOOT ON IT. A N D I AM A L MO S T GLAD TO SEE IN THE SECOND MAN BOY. T H E SIGHT OF THOSE PA R A L L E L BARS EQU I P P E D WITH LEATH E R STRA PS . A N D I .SQUA T M A N WAS WAITI NG FOR ME ON THE STA I RS. OR S L U M P RATH E R . OC C U P I E D . AT LAST THIS TONGU E SETTLES TH E R E AND B EG I N S ITS TITI LLATIONS MORE A N D MORE RAPIDLY. H E T U R N S AWAY W H I L E I READJUST M Y S K I RT. A BRACELET O N T H E L E FT WRIST. A LO N E . THAT PARTI C U L A R OCCASION OF F E E L I N G R E A LLY M Y S E L F FROM THE M O M E N T W H E N I E M BA R K E D ON T H E A DV E N T U R E I N T H E B U S UNTI L T H A T OTH E R MOMENT I N THE BASEMENT WHEN I OUT HIS TONG U E W H I C H MOVES BACKWA RDS A N D FOR W A R D S IN A M I S E R A B L E A TTE M PT A N D ONLY SLOWLY SUCC E E D S I N TOUCH I NG MY OPEN PALM. TO TH I N K THAT A MOMENT AGO I WAS STROLLING L E I S U R E LY BETWE E N TH E OPERA A N D T H E TH EA T R E F R A NC A I S W H I L E H E R E THOSE BARS W E R E WAITI N G FOR M E l SO TH A T NOW. A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E INSIN UATE HI MSELF U NDER MY S K I RT IN TWO U N K NOWN MEN MYSELF GO AT L A ST. DISTURB TH E WHOLE B U I LDING-IN BUST O R R E MOVING T H E C O A T OF MY G R E Y SU IT. . . SLAP: I FLINCHI NG. PASSES TH E M BETW E E N HIS LIPS A N D D ELICATELY SAVOURS EACH N A I L. P L E A S U R E U N D E R T H E I R EYES I N THAT I M POSSIBLE POSITION. WH E R E T H E Y H A D B E E N S O F I R M LY T I E D . THEN. T I E D BY THE W R I STS. I ABANDON . . H A V I N G TA K E N L E A N I NG B R E A TH . SPI R A L STA I R C A S E T O T H E BASEM ENT. SOON I CAN CONTROL MYSELF NO LON G E R . . RUN MY H A N DS OVER THOSE PARALLEL BARS THEN. . THE WHOLE M OV E M E NT SO U N E X PECTED AND SQUAT AND THAN DERS MOR E DRAGS A STAGG E R I N G I P R E C I P I TATE I H A V E TO SAVE M YSELF B Y H A N G I N G ON TO T H E N A P E OF H I S N E C K W I T H BOTH H A N DS­ A N D T H E N T H E D I ZZY DESC E N T WITH ME BY T H E M I N U TE STAY T H E R E . HE R I PS OFF MY SKIRT HIS AGAIN. I TURN MY H E A D AWAY .

FRONT OF PALA I S BOU R BON (HOUSE OF PARLI AMENTI. WHAT A DELICIOUS CROISSANTI HOW SOOT H I N G THE PLAY OF THE F O U N TA I N S P I E R RE KLOSSOWS K I TRANSLATION BY CATHERI N E D U N C A N UNDER TH E P LA N E TREESI HOW EXQ U I S ITE THE CITY AS IT GLIDES BYI TAKEN F R O M THE REVOCATION OF T H E EDICT OF NAN TES. ROBERTE GETS OUT SLOWLY IN H E R TURN. LIFTS THE BON N ET. 41 . TH E CAR IN PAN SHOT FROM ROBERTE. 6. 3. 2. LONG SHOT. THE C H A U FF E U R . CROSSROADS R U E SCR I B E-OPERA. GETS OUT. 4. 5.LAZY AFTERNOON. JUSTI N. S EQUENCE OF TH E PARALLEL BARS (SHOT LIST BY P I E R R E KLOSSOWSKI MADE ROUND 1 966 FOR AN I M AG I N A R Y FILM) 1. WATCH ON ROBE RTE'S W R I ST.

PLAYS O N T H E 42 . T H E Y TH E M S E L V E S H A V E LEGS S E V E N METERS LONG. H E L PF U L. J I . TH I N KS OF TH E OCTO P U S A S F R I ENDLY. K E N-SU SOM ETI M E S C A R R I E S I T O N H I S S H O U L D E R S .NAGA. T H E O R D E R O F TH E YA K U. FIGU R E D ASCETIC OCTOPUS LOV I N G L Y E M B R A C I N G T H E B E L L W I T H ITS SIN UOUS TENTACLES. E N G R A V I NG O F HOKOUSAi. F E E T H I G H A N D SO H EA V Y T H A T OCTO P U S C A R R I E D I T TO J A P A N A N D SET I T DOWN ON THE COAST O F H I R A . OF HIS ONE OF IS THE THE PRINCIPLE WITH AN AND S E R P E N T' S BODY.LO N G S H O U L D E R S . TH E S E N S U A L I T Y OF T H E C R E A T U R E A P P E A R S I N THE MOST EXPLICIT MANNER WHICH IN A FAMOUS TENTACLES ARE W R APPED. ARMS. IT F E L L A N D THUS I M PR I S O N E D THE S A I NTLY MAN. THREW A SMALL N A T U R E . AN MONASTERY.H I M E. T O T H E P L A C E O F T H E T R A D I TI O N A L S H RI M P .M ET E R . W H O SOU G H T T H E I M M O D EST A D V A N C E S OF T H E M O N K A N -C H I .DO. THE P R IEST SIX HID ON THE BELL OF THE S C U LPTED STA T U E I N T H E I M A G E O F TH I S D I V I N ITY (WITH WHICH HE H A D N E V E R PA RTED) I NTO TH E SEA DURING A T E M PEST. W H I C H S E R V E D A S A C A S E FOR TH E R ELIC. AROUN D ALWAYS WHICH THE OCTO P U S ' ONE THUS E X P L A I N S W I T H O U T DOU BT T H E EQU I V A L E NT ROLE W H I C H T H E OCTO P U S S E E M S TO PLAY I N B U D DH I S M .N AGA ARE WITH LEGENDARY ITS M E N WHO C A RRY T H E TE. W H E R E H E E R ECTED A L A RG E STATU E OF Y A K U .R A i . NOT A B L Y A N E N G R A V I N G OF KOU N I ­ YOS H I . N I N E . I S N O LESS I N DI C A T I V E AS A C H A RACTE R I ST I C TRAIT OF ITS B E N E F I C I A L. T H E A S H I .H I M E TR I ED T O B R E A K T H E M ET A L W I T H H I S M A G I C W A N D AND MAKE I T M E LT B Y E X H A L I N G ON I T W I T H HIS F L A M I NG B R E A T H . AND E N J OY I NG T H E COM P A N Y O F MONASTICS.T H E OCTO P U S I N J A P A N THE OCTO P U S AT IS U S U A LLY CONS I D E R E D T O B E PROTECTOR O N T H E OTH E R H A N D.S H I NYO. W H I C H B R I N G S T O M I N D H I S S O L E N O U R I S H M E NT. K I YO. LATER. LIKE A NOTH E R GIANT M ESSENGERS OCTO P U S ON RYU-J I N H E A D. I N V A I N . C L E A R L Y TH I S IS V E R I F I E D IN T H E L E G E N D O F TH E B E A U TI F U L A N D L I C E N T I O U S K I Y O. O N E H U N D R E D M E N C O U L D N O T L I FT IT. I T S S E N S U A LITY. B U D D H A THE H E A L E R OF SOULS AND THE GOD OF WISDOM. I T WAS C H A NGED I N TO A SORC E R E R W I T H A H U M A N H E A D A N D A D R A GON'S IN THE SAME WAY.K A K U DAi-SHI T H E N B U I LT A T E M P L E AT M EG U RO. ON TH E I R TH I S CONSTANT L I A I SO N WITH SA LAC IOUSNESS M A N Y WORKS. IT WAS SAVED. PROVI D E A N E L E G A N T I L L U STRATION OF A SIGNI FICANT CHANGE. A LITTLE LIKE THE PRINCE OF THE G R E E KS.S H I IN T H E WOODS.

THE HECTOCOTYLE COM ES BACK TO L I F E TO FERTI LIZE THE EGGS. T H E Y A R E D E D U C E D F R O M T H E N U M B E R O F TENTAC L E S A N D T H E A R R A Y O F S U C KERS W H I C H C H A RACT E R ­ IZE TH E S P E C IE S (MOLLUSK). S H E LIGHTS AND U P. ONE LEADI NG. 0 0 N O T EVEN L OO K A T FEMALE RADI ATES PHO RESCENT G LOW A T T H E M O M E N T O F I N I TIATION: "SHE A W AITS U NION. THE ARTIST HAS PUT TO USE OBJECT I V E D E S C R I PT I O N OF OCTO P U S M A T I N G L U B R I C ITY W H I C H COM E S FROM T H E C O N S I STENCY AND CONFIGURATION OF THE C REATURE. ONE FOLLOW ING. T H E E N IGMATIC A N D OBSC U R E TEXT S E E M S T O H A V E K NOWN N O CON F I R M ATION. IS S I M U LT A N E O U S L Y I N HIS WORK ON HOKOUSAi. S U C H EXCRESC E N C E S S E V E R E D I N T H I S STATE A N D PRESERVED I N J A RS I N T H E M U S E U M O F N A TU R A L H I STORY I N P A R I S . FEMALE. I F N O T T O S A Y TH EY FLEE. O N E CAN SEE. S H E PA LLIAL PLACES A IT H E R S E L F W I TH I N H E R SITUATED BETW E E N CAVITY. T H I S D E P I C T I O N IS PURELY IMAGI NARY. IN THIS FASHION. POCKET BY THIS AMBIGUOUS PROCESS THE OCTOP U S H E R BODY A N D T H E FOLDS OF H E R M A NTLE. IS G L U E D G R E E D I LY TO T H E SEX ORGAN OF ITS CONSENTING WHILE HE AND NO DOUBT AND GRATI F I E D PREY. WHERE IT FINDS RELIEF AND LETS I TS A R I STOTLE O F F E R S A S U M M A R Y DESC R I PTION O F THE M A T I N G O F OCTO P I : TIGHTLY I N T E RTWI N E D . SHE MAKES H E RS E L F EACH OTH E R . T H E TERM " D E SC R I PTION. I T IS CLEAR THAT IN THE M ATTER OF LASC I VIOUSNESS. LEE STA T E S . I N THE 1 6TH CENTURY. EXPLO R E S A N D S U C K S W I TH H I S EIGHT ARMS AND SUCKERS. I N F A C T . " C R EA T U R E THE P A S S I O N ATE A PHOS­ K E PT A S W I D E A S POS S I B LE. A C C O R D I N G TO LATE R OBSE RVATI O N S . SUCH DEGREE H ECTOCOTY LE. A LD R OV A N I R E C A L L E D THAT. TH E Y AVOID. I MYSELF FOU N D NO A V I D I TY TO THE F R E E LI PS OFFER I NG T H E M S E LVES. TENTACLES WA N D E R . ITS FLESH WAS AN APHRODISIAC. W H O STATES THAT T H E MALE C LI N G S TO HIS D E L I G H T U NT I L HE D I E S OF PLEASU R E AND E X H A USTION. A R M AGA I N ST ARM. A K I N O OF ELONGATED WORM E M E R G E S WITH A FILAMENT THE AT THE END: TH I S IS THE THE EXPRESSION PLEASU R E . ONE O F TH ESE TENTACLES. SICUT CADAVER. S H E GLOWS . M U LT I P L E . W I THOUT E V E N R E A CH I NG T H E N E C K A N D SHOUL­ DERS. R ESTR A I N E D B Y VICTOR I A N DECO R U M . FROM IN AND THE THE THAT THE CREATURE MOST 1 9TH BY L A SC I V I O U S C EN T U R Y.M O L L U S K'S CA PACITI E S FO R E M B RA C I N G AND FROM OBSERVATION: A L MOST E XC L U S I V E LY. THE A R M S CLOSE U PON THE BODY O F T H E B E LO V E D IN A L A SC I V IO U S WEB. C A R ES S E S A M ORO U S R E LA T I O N S O F T H E OCTO P U S ENTW I N E S . T H E C LOS E N E S S AND I N T I M A TE. S H A R E S T H E I D E N T I TY WITH W H I C H I T I S I NVESTED BY THE E AST." IS I N C O N S I STENT W I T H CONVOLUTED AND AWKWAR D HORROR I S S U RELY E L I C I T E D B Y T H E S PECTACLE! YET TH E A RTI ST'S I N S I ST E N C E IS V I S I B L Y TO G I V E THE I M PRESSION OF ECSTASY PROC U R E D BY A T H E O B SC U R E L Y STATE M E NTS THAT THE A UTHOR. OCTOPUS ARE IN N O SENSE C O N C L U S I O N S DRAWN 43 . T H E F E M A L E RESTS ON A ROCK OR O N THE SAND. MALE PROFFERS I T TO THAT O N E DOES NOT KNOW W H ET H E R S H E IF LIVING O R DROW N E D . T H E OCTOPU S ETCH E D BY THE ASIATIC B E LONGS TO T H E S P EC I E S D E SC RI B E D BY T H E M E D I T E R RA N E A N OPPI E N . TO M A N . THE MALE IS DRAWN UP ON HIS BEAUTI FU L. AT T H E BACK OF W H I C H THE G E N I TA L ORIFICES O P E N U P. IN FACT. T H E OC TOPUS. H UGO ITS IT OF WAS WAS SEA FA R "TH I S E M BRACE A N D V I RTUALLY NO CONTACT BETW E E N THEM. THERE. OPPI E N . ACCO R D I NG TO THE A UTHOR. DEPICTED I T PREVA I L I NG O N A S L E E P I NG WOM A N . . B E TW E E N T H E T H I G H S O F A RECLI N I NG WOMA N . WHILE A L L BOD I E S TO I N D ICATIONS E N TW I N E . IN ANTIQU I TY. THE ARE SUCTION. T H E Y S W I M TOGETH ER. IT S E E M S THAT T H E R I G H T TH I R D A R M O F T H E M A L E OCTO P U S PA RT N E R W H O S E CONTACT F E L T I N SO M A N Y PLACES. WHAT BEFORE T H E O N E B Y H E N R Y LEE. M U TU A L CONTACT THAT TH E I R S U C K E R S WOU L D PERM IT. T H E D I STANCE WHICH S E P A RATES T H E PARTNERS IS FORGOTTEN V ICTOR HAS THAT LOATH SOM E R E LA T I O N S . THESE C R E A T U R E S . USES TO CONVEY THE I D E A OF TH E S E S E X U A L Y E T EXTRAOR D I N A R I L Y ASCETIC RELATIONS. THERE IS NO ACCO R D I NG TO THE A N C I ENTS. OR TO BE O R T R U N K WITH TH E S U R FE I T OF THEY PRESS MOUTH AGA I NST MOUTH. EDMON D D E GONCOURT HAS S U C C E SS F U L LY OF THE C A PT U R E D WOMAN TO IN THE A E C STATIC SWOON A OF SWELLS AT T H E M O M E N T O F EXCITATION: O U T O F THE A R M . HOKOUSAI THI NGS H A PP E N OTH E RWISE. E M P H A S I Z E D THE OCTOPUS' U N C T UO U S I M M O D E STY: IN JAPAN. T H E TH I R D O N TH E RIGHT S I D E . E XC E E D I N G L Y C H A STE." THE L A SC I V I O U S N ESS O F THE FLI RTATIOUSN ESS TENTACLES. CO N S I D E R E D DWELLERS. TH E R E IS A LSO A S M A LLER OCTOPUS W H I C H MORE EXACT. F U RT H E R M O R E . A S L E E H A D WELL OBSERVED. S E E M TO D E ST I N T H E S E IN FACT. ITS APPLIES HORNY I TS BEAK MOUTH. W H O A C C E PTS I T A N D C A R R I E S IT A W A Y WITH H E R . T H E Y C A N H A R D L Y B E PERC E I V E D A S ANYTH I NG B UT D I S M A L. . W H O POSSESS T H E M O S T H I G H LY PER FECTED E Y E S I N THE A N I M A L K I NGDOM.

. NOTAB L Y ON THE R IGHT SIDE. T H E R E PRODUCTI VE ORGA N W ITH WHICH TH E TENTAC LE IS EQUI PPED I NT R O D U C E S OF THE ITSELF W I TH I N T H E B U T WITHOUT SOM EWHAT DINGY W H ITE. T H E SKIN FOR M E D STRANGE LOO K I N G BECOM I NG DETACHED. H E K E PT H I S H E A D ER ECT. T H E M A L E A LSO STOPPED. THEN. A STR I K I NGLY MARKED BY W H E R E U PO N T H E F E M A LE C A M E TO A STA N DSTI L L I N A C REVASSE. N O D E S A LSO A P P E A R E D ON THE SKIN O F T H E ARMS A N D M ANTLE. O F TH E COMMON R A C O V I TZA IN OCTO P U S PROM I NA N T N O D E S . OF A FT E R THE A N EW AND BRIEF BACK SIDE O F EACH A R M . A FT E R S E V E R A L M I N UT E S R E A P P E A R E D . B R IGHTLY COLORED BAND A LO N G THE E DG E OF TH E APPEARED R U N N I NG 50 C M . MALE ROCK BETW E E N THE V E RT I C L E S T RI PE S . A FTE R A FEMALE). A N D H E R A R M S T U R N ED TOWA RD IT. Z . H I S TH I R D A R M WAS A G A I N EXTE N D E D A N D 44 . B E I N G M A D E THROUGH A D I V I NG M A S K . AFTER T H E Y H A D GO N E A BOUT T H R E E METERS. THEY ARE DESPONDANT. H E EXTE N D E D H I S TH I R D R IGHT A R M A N D I NTRODU C E D I T I NTO T H E F E M A LE'S M A NTLE-AT A D I STA NCE O F A LTE R E D A R M D E POSITS C E RTAIN SPERM-FI LLED CAPSULES IN THE A PPROPRIATE POC K ET. THE THE R E ST WAS REPLACES O N E SECTION OF T H E SUCKERS. D I S A P P E A R E D COMPLETELY FROM H I S LEFT S I D E . THE M A LE'S COLO R ATION THE S T R I P E S LUDIC ROUS. T H E ARM P U L L E D BACK . THE S K ETC H E S W E R E DRAWN V E RTIC LE STRI PES ON T H E R I G H T S I D E R E M A I N E D STRONGLY M A R K ED. S H E R E A P PE A R E D ON TH E OTH E R S I D E . THOUGH NOT AS M A R K E D L Y A S BEFORE. THE C A PSULES OPEN A N D FERTILIZATION I S COM PLETED. T H E M A L E STI L L FOLLOW I NG . TO A H E IGHT OF T H E Y COV E R E D A P PROX I M A T E L Y 2 0 M ET E R S . THE A T N U M E RO U S T I M E S . A LSO FROM A C R A N N Y. A WHITISH THEM. I N 1 962. SOMETI M E S VERY C L E A RLY. AT LEA ST. F E M A L E A P P E A R E D T H E N . GLOWED. RESERVED AND DI L I G E NT. A FISH THE LAT E R A L L Y A P PROAC H E D (SEEMI NGLY ATTACK "TH E FEMALE SLIPPED UNDER A ROCK. BEHIND T H E CAVITY. A N D I W A S A B L E TO MOVE C O M P LETELY A RO U N D THE COUPLE WITHOUT D I ST U R B I NG TH E M . . A N D. I N TH I S FASHION. I BEGAN MY "TH E N .60 C M . 40. AT T H E TOP OF HIS HEAD.IS A LT E R E D : A SPOON-S H A P E D DEPR ESSION EYES. M I NUTES. YOU NG P U B L I S H E D SKETCHES OF THE STAGES OF T H E SEXUAL M A TI N G DANCE AND RESTED O N R E TA I N E D THE A H IS THIRD ARM. A FTER FIVE M I N UTES. PULLING THE MALE A LONG BY HIS THIRD ARM. I N SUCH A W A Y THAT A LL THAT R E M A I N E D TH E R E WERE SOM E TRANSVERSAL S POTS. I M M EDI ATELY UPON C L I M B I N G O U T O F T H E WATER. M IGHT "TH E Y R E M A I N E D I N T H I S POSITION F O R A PPROXI­ MATELY T E N C H ANGED. FROM HER. NO NODU LE A PPEARED A BO V E THE E Y ES. S U RGEON D U R I NG A DIVE N E A R SI NGAPORE. B ROWN SPOTS WITH TRANSVER­ S A L STR I PE S APPEARED ON HER A R M S . G. THE ''THE M A L E K E PT T H E F E M A L E W I TH I N T H E V I S U A L F I E L D O F H I S RIGHT EYE. A BOUT V E RTICLE STR I PES. FROM O U TW A R D THE A M A LE. WHICH THE COPULATION O F T H E OCTOPUS HORRIDUS. D E SCR I B E T H E M C A R N I VALESQUE DEVI LS. UP TO THE HEAD. YOUNG'S OBSERVATION MERIT R ECOUNTING. H E WAS COM I N G OUT O F A C R A NNY IN THE CORAL. I N THE DRAWING WHICH ACCO M P A N I E S THE STUDY ON THE MATING AND F E R T I L I ZATION BY E. MEASU RED. BUT EXTENDING FEW TO A R MS. I LEAVE THE A UTHOR O F T H E R E PORT TO SPEAK FOR H I MSELF: "TH E MALE WAS NOTI C E D B Y PROFESSOR S U RGEON.2 0 CM. 1 5. WHEN THE F E M A LE RELEASES H E R EGGS. T H E F E M A L E D R E W A W A Y . W H E N W E EXTENDED O U R HANDS. Z. P E R H A PS . A D E E P B ROWN STRI P E WAS A LSO VISIBLE ON HIS M A NTLE. FROM T H E BACKG R O U N D. DARK ST R I P E S PALLI A L CAVITY F E M A LE. J . NOTH ING COU L D APPEA R MORE S I N I ST E R . TH E WORK WAS C A R R I E D OUT WITH PROFESSOR R. T H E F E M A L E CONTI N U E D T O OBSERVATION. F E W I N STA NTS. OBT A I N E D 1 894. T H E O B S E R V A T I O N W A S U N I NT E R R U PTED. WH I L E THE ESSENTI A L L I N E S O F J . A N D ANOTH E R IN THE M I DDLE OF TH E M A NT L E . "THE M A LE ROSE OUT O F ITS HOLE. TH E OCTOPUS COU PLE WAS WATCHED FOR A H A LF HOUR AT A D E PTH O F SEV E R A L FEET IN A CORAL REEF. ABOUT 60 C M . "NO MOVEMENT W A S V I S I BL E ON T H E THIRD A R M . A T OTH E R M O M ENTS. THE COLO R I NG TU R N E D A DARK BROWN A RO U N D THE A PPEARANCE B R I L L I A NT V E RT I C A L STR I PE S. A N D T H E M A L E FOLLOWED H E R STI L L K E EPING H E R W I T H I N THE F I E L D O F V I SION O F H I S R I G H T E Y E . PROTR U S I O N S TH E I R ONE H EA DS. COLOR. TH E MOVE A W A Y . TH E TWO LOVERS LOOK L I K E SENTI N E LS HORN-L I K E TO P S OF AT ATTENTION. THE A N I M A L DOVE BACK DOWN I NTO ITS HOLE. S LOWLY ENOUGH. WITH GROWING OUT OF THE SEEM EVEN MORE AS F E M A L E A LSO SHOWED A T C E R T A I N M O M E NTS. HIS HEAD RISING UP V E RTICALLY FI RST. SUCH I S WHAT I S SHOWN. S E T OFF M O R E OR LESS.

P A U L VERLA I N E STAN DING THE R E . THE OCTOPUS HAS OFFERED A P R I V I LEGED S Y M BOL RIGHT I N TO MODERN LITERA­ TURE. AND A S THE MOON ROSE ROU N D AND SOFT. [LARGU E l ORGA N S A R E AT THE OPPOSITE EXT R E M E F R O M T H E H U M A N CONC E PTION OF S E N S U A LITY. EVENING A N D THE WISTF U L J O Y OF CONSTAN T H E A RTS. WHE R E I N FLOW "THE GREAT I NS E P A R A B L E U N ION. I N THE CASE O F THE PA PER NAUTILUS. M A N'S M I SCONSTRUED THE NATU R E OF THE COU PL I NG OF THESE ORG A N I S M S SO WELL EQUIPPED FOR AN RECITED TRAGE D I A N S (TR AGIC A D M I S­ HEROI N E S1). WITH NO DELAY OR H E S ITATION ON OF JOYCE M A N SO U R . IN THE LISTLESS DARK OF TH E I R AS DRAM ATIC AS THE THRONE OF A QUEEN. THE PART OF EITHER OF THE TWO. TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE. THESE A R E PROBA B LY T H E TRAVELLING P E N I S E S WHICH TH E S E TIONS. THE FERTILIZING AND ARM FASHION: SEPARATES FROM ITS OWNER WANDERS "THERE WHISTLES THE OCTOPUS OF PLEASURE. R E LA­ IT WOU LD B E EASY TO M U LTI P LY THE EXA M PLES." HE DEFINES TH E M IN TH E USURPA­ FOLLOW I N G SHELL." THE TEXT IS E LOQUE NT.E A M A N D THE SOUL'S TIONS. W A R M A N D LOOSELY C U R V E D. IT R E MA I N ED I N PLACE A P PROXI M ATELY T E N M I N UTES. IN HIS LETT E R S TO LOU. AND BOTH THE G I R LS. DRANK D E E P LY AND FULL OF THE TREMBLING ROOM. BEHI N D THEM. LEE NOTICED IN THE MUSEUM IN PARIS." A I M LESSLY FOR HO URS A T A TI M E UNTI L F I N DI NG A F E M A L E TO WHICH SUCKERS. HA I R BLACK: THE OTHER BLOND THE STRANGE G I RL-COU P L E THAT LOOKS I N PITY ON THE OTHER COU PLES: DREAMING ON THE B A LCONY STOOD THE GIRLS. OCTO P U S WHICH IN A COULD BE D E FI N E D AS AN SIONS OF THE DR. SO M A N Y LITHE A R M S A N D A V I D MOUTHS. AND P I N K: THE I R LIGHT ROBES OF OLD GOLD WERE FLUTTE R I N G LIKE C LOUDS AND VAGUE. 4!5 . THERE IS A S I G N I FIC A N T CONTRAST BETW E E N AN U N SETT L I N G R E A L I TY AND AND THE I MAGES OF V I R T U A L LY OR T HO S E A P HY S I C A L E FF E C T E D A MO R O U S VOLUPTUOU S N ESS RAPTURE WHERE LIBIDI­ BY " S A T E L L I T E " NOUS DREAM I NG I S I N VOLUNTA R I LY TRIGGERED BY BODIES OF E XC E PTI O N A L S U P PLEN ESS." LITTLE PLACE R E S P ECTFU LLY DI STA NT I M AGI NATION HAS WHEN GREAT S A I NT-JOHN TEXTS PERSE BY C A LLS TO MIND TH E AMOROUS RELATIONS. IN THESE VOLU PTUOU S N ESS HAS APOLLI N A I R E CONFIDES TO HIS M I ST R E SS: "I SAVOUR YO U R TON G U E LIKE THE STU M P OF AN OCTOPUS' A R M WHICH ATTACHES ITSELF TO YOU WITH ALL THE FORCE OF ITS SUCKE RS. DA M P LY E M B R A C E D. IT ATTACHES ITSELF WITH ITS S C HO L A R S. A S SLOW A S LANGOROUS A S A S PHODEL. HOWEV E R . F I RST I D I E NTIFI E D I T A S A P A R A S ITIC WOR M . OF WHICH. AMONG TH E M C E RT A I N C U V I E R . IT I S FOU N D MORE THA N ONCE IN THE POE M S ROBER CAI LLOIS TRANSLATED BY L I N DA McNEIL AND M A RGA RET McGAW ON THE BA LCONY BOTH G I R LS WERE WATC H I N G THE SWALLOWS FLY: ONE PALE. WAS THE B E D FLOWER­ OPE N I NG IN THE SHADOWS. RUMPLED WITH S M ELLS.I NTROD UCED. WHER E U PON THE F E M A L E BROKE SHA R P LY AWAY A N D THE MALE WITHDREW I N TO H I S HOLE.

I REGA R D E D SLUGS OR B ROWN-ORANGE O N E S ABOU N D E D . O F T E N OVERCA ST. FLY. LEOPA R D S A LT ON TH E I R NEVER DRY BACKS. M Y LOC A L E . T H E R E W E R E A LWAYS THOSE T I M E S W H E N Y O U WOULD S L I P A N D H A V E THE S M E E R E D R E M A I N S OF A SLUG DO W N YOU R TH I G H . THEY NEVER A TT R A C T I V E T H A N S N A I LS. T H E PA C I F IC NORTHW EST. WERE S I D E R E D BY E V E RYONE T O BE T OO N U M E RO U S . SOM ETH I N G RAINS THEY AND WILL SUN A N D MOSS T H E S E SLOW-MOV I NG THINGS WOU LD EAT. TH E I R PROF U S I O N I S G R EAT I N THE MOIST FORE STS OF O R EGON. I S A DVANTAGEOUS FOR GROWTH O F THE L A N D S N A I L OR SLUG. D U R I NG THESE SHONE.BA K E D SI DEWALK. YOU HAD TO A VO I D THEM FREQUE NTLY AND STEP WITH A G I L I TY OVER TH E I R SLI PPERY H AT E . TH E I R AN D E L I B E RATION SENSI­ ATTR A C T E D GR EATLY. T H E M A S V E R Y E XOTIC A N D O R I G I N A LLY FROM T H E SEA. THESE CREA TURES A R E MOSTLY OF THE SEA. WITH THE EXC E PTION OF L A N D SNA I LS A N D LIKE THE OTH E R ME A N I M A LS. WHEN ENDED BOD I E S. S I N C E THEY TH R I V E IN ZON E S O F H E AVY R A I N FA L L. THE SLICK. A N D TH E I R R E L A T I V E U G L I N ES S DI DN'T R E M E D Y TH E LOW OPINION. A L LO W E D TH E M M U C H R EST FROM THE I M MO D E R ATE BLAZI NG A LW A Y S OF THE SUN. TH E I R BOD I E S W E R E C U RIOUSLY S H A P E D . S A V E F O R O N E . ONE GARDEN H A D STEPS OF ROUGH LY-C H I S L E D ROCK: THROUGH BRA KEN TH E I R CREVICES GREW THE GRASS. M O I ST COATS U S U A LLY O F DRY.M E M OI RS OF A N OCC U PATION W H E N I WAS VERY YOU NG I WAS FASC I N ATED WITH MOLLUSKS. H O P A N D TWI R L 46 . NEITHER O U S LY LEGG E D. S U N . PORTLA ND. D ESPITE A L L THE K I DS W H O ENJOYED ON MY W A L K S H O M E FROM G R A D E-SCHOOL I WO ULD USUALLY GARDEN SEE H U N D R E DS OF S L UGS SLUGS. NOW TH A T THEY W E R E I N V A D I NG T H E S E G L E N S RICH I N PLANT L I F E . WHEREAS S N A I LS C A PT U R E D O N E' S A L I G N E D TO TH E A P P E A R E D EQU I P P E D T O J U M P. SLUGS A PP E A R E D MORE P L E N TI F U L SLUGS AND LESS CON­ G R E E N . SLUGS OR T H E F R E S H . A LONG BANANA S N I PPI NG BOD I E S IN THE I R HALF EYES OR OUT OR C U TTI NG TH E I R POU R I N G T H E PROV E R B I A L PATH W A Y S . O R A N G E SLUGS D R I E D TO BLACK A N D TH E I R S L i M E Y TRA I LS T U R N E D I R I DESC ENT. EX Q U I SITE TIVITY T O TH E EFFECTS O F TO UCH A N D LIGHT M A D E M E TH I N K TH E M TOO D E L I CATE A N D V U LN E R A B L E T O T H E C R U E LTI ES OF T H E OUTS I D E WORLD.W ATER S PECI ES. TH ESE TRA I LS SHOW E D YOU THEIR PA I N F U L ROAD TO DooM -A H O U R S A F T E R SC HOOL I W O U L D STOP A N D STA RE I N A D M I RATION O F T H E I R A N T E N N A E A N D PU LSATI NG BO D I E S. A N D PON DER­ GROUND.

AFTER DE NT. I CALLED THE S N A I L "POKY" A FT E R T H E HORSE I N THE G U M BY TV C A RTOON AND PA RTLY A FT E R ITS S LOW. IGNO R A N T OF · W HAT I H A D J U ST S E E N . SHELL HAD ORANGE A N D YELLOW STR I PS A G A I N S T B R O W N A N D P U R P L E . HUED AS THE I R S H E L L. E V E N A LLOW E D POKY O N H I S F I N G E R S ) . I'M S U R E I S E N S E D S O M E P E R V E R S E PLEAS U R E . B U T W E COULD DETECT H I S SLI MEY TRA I LS OVER THE B E D R OOM WALLS REVENGE. " ITS H O M E WAS O R I G I N A LLY BOTA N I C A L T E R R A R I U M . BY TH I S TIME V E R Y S M ELLY A N D S L i M E Y. F R E E DOM. I T B A C K F I R E D : T H E T H I N G BIT M E . I E V E N T U A L L Y R E SORTED TO A IN A N LARGE GLASS J A R W H E R E I N WE PLACE D SOM E SOIL. A R M E D W I T H A F L A S H ­ LIG HT. MOSS. B U T TIM. ) ONE TIME I PLACED MY TOO C LOSE T O T H E FLASH WAS VENTI LATION HE. TH E R E W E R E O N LY S L U G S O R T H E S M A L L E R S N A I L S W I T H F U R R Y S H E LLS. T H E YO U N G E R B ROTH E R . T H E G E N D E R OF S N A I LS S E E M E D NO M ATTE R : W E WERE SO C H I LD I S H AT THE TIME THAT IT DIDN'T CO N C E R N US. MY C H I LDHOOD F R I E N DS S H A R E D TH E I N T E R E ST. TH E R E H E'D SC R A P E HIS R A D U LA N I GHT­ LO NG: IT SOU N D E D LIKE A FAINTER VE RSION OF BROT H E R D I SG U STING. I W A S H E A RTI LY W E LCOM ED B Y MY YOU NG E R B ROTH E R W I TH T H E C R E ATU R E . I W A S I N IT I A L L Y H O R R I F I ED. F U RT H E R M O R E . I WAS TO LATER F I N D OUT THAT THEY ARE H E R M A P H RODITI C AND THAT THEY NEED TO SLUGS W E R E BY NO M E A N S MY SOLE O B S E S S I O N . I POKY'S DISAPPEARANCE NEVER BE I WAS D E S PO N ­ THOUGHT I'D A B L E TO F I N D A S N A I L AS B E A U T I F U L A S THAT. S U P R H E RO WHO C A N T R A V E L AT S P E E DS NO S LUG COULD FI NGE R EVE R M A TC H .I N TEREST M O R E : T H E Y H A D S H E L LS. I D I D N 'T STAY LONG B E C A U S E IT WAS D I STA ST E F U L TO LOOK A T FOR A N Y LE NGTH O F T I M E . I NEVER W A N T E D T O B E B I T T E N BY A S N A I L AGA I N I N MY L I F E . I D I SCOV E R E D A P A I R C E M E N T E D TOG ETH E R I N A N E X C E S S OF S L I M E . AT TIMES F L A S H COULD B E H E A R D T H ROUGH T H E SC R A P I N G CRY WHO KNOWS HIM FO R D I N OF COM M E RC I A L S . LIKE HOLE POKY O N E QU ESTI O N WE ASKED A BOUT S N A I LS WAS. T H E S HOCK L I N G E R E D ON WHEN I FINALLY LEFT TH E TV WITH GARDEN MY TO GO WOODED N E I G H BORHOOD. A FRIEND CALLED M A TT A N D MYSELF I N V E NTED A M U T U A L L Y I N S E M I N A T E E A C H OTH E R : THE R E S U LT IS BOTH A N I M A L S B E A R I NG T H E EGGS. P E R F ECT S N A I L. O N T H E TOP OF TH E CLEAR PLASTIC TW I S T BOX AN WAS A SMALL WITH A METAL LID W I T H H O L E S F O R A I R T O C O M E THROUGH. A SNAIL AS GOOD AS WITH POKY GONE. B I T I T . UPPER P O RT I O N LONG AND V E N TS A P P E A R. I K N E W THEN LINED THAT WITH SNAILS TEETH HAVE AN UNUSUAL A TON G U E TH I S C H A LK SC R E E C H I N G AC ROSS A B L A C K B O A R D .L E S S E V E N I N G I T U R N E D ON T H E S P R I N K L E R I N O R D E R TO SEE AS MANY OF THESE N OCTU R N A LLY ACTIVE C R E A T U R E S A S POSSI BLE. O N E T I M E W H E N I LET P O K Y C R A W L OVER MY FINGERS THOUGHT (MY IT S I STERS AND OLDER VENTI LATION C LOCK W I S E BODY CAP. IT WANTED! A FT E R FOOD­ WHAT O R I G I N A LLY BOOK C A LLED FLASH TH E COMIC A FTE RWA RDS. T H E TOP WAS S E A L E D PET SLUG. SOON WE L O S T POKY. I H A D S P E N T H O U R S LOO K I N G F O R A COMPA R A B L E S N A I L. I T H R E W F L A S H O U T. I T WAS SO B E A UT I F U L THAT I LET IT CRAWL OVER MY FINGERS AND H A N D S AS I W A L K E D H O M E ." IT REMAINED WHEN SC R A P I N G . O F VARYING S I Z E AND COLOR. T I M . WHITE ONES T H A T POSS E S S E D M E D I OC R E S H E LLS. FLASH'S WOULD I NCH U P TO T H E S E H O L E S A T THE VERY TOP. FAC I L I TATES T H E W E L L-A I M E D STROKES AT LEAVES AND FLOW E R S THEY'RE DESPISED FOR. ITS BODY WA S LONG AND THICK. IN M Y M A N Y WALKS THROUGH A I DI SCOV E R E D A MOST BUT T H E N REASONED T H E Y WERE F U C K I NG. W E AV A I L. ONE S U M M E R R E A L M C A L L E D "SLUGO N I A " POP U L A T E D BY SLUG- 47 . FERN AND G R A SS . DID THEY "GO TO THE BATH ROOM. D E S P A R A T E L Y S E A R C H I N G FO R T H E POKY. WHOLE DAYS WERE COI N E D A S O N G F O R T H E LOV E L Y PET W H I C H R A N A S FOLLOW S : POKY T H E S N A I L POKY T H E S N A I L YO U M A Y S E E H I M L A U G H I N ' YOU M A Y S E E H I M C R Y I N ' BUT Y O U K NOW H E'S GOT A GRE-E-E-E-E-EN MOUTH ! RIGHT AWAY WE B U I LT A TE R R A R I U M FOR H I M -A TA K E N U P W I T H LOO K I NG F O R A S N A I L B E A R I N G A COLO R F U L S H E LL . THE B E A U T I F U L S N A I L. CALLED " F L A S H . S O M E T I M E S POKY WOULD E S C A P E A N D B E S E E N LAT E R C R A W L I N G U P T H E S I D E S OF O U R B E DROOM W A L L . L A T E R O N . AND THEIR FLESH WAS NOT SO STARTLI NGLY COUNTERPA RTS. B E F O R E . D I D H E W A N T T O E SC A P E O R D I D H E J U S T L I K E T O SUCK ON PLASTIC? THE T E R R A R I U M WHICH HOUSED THIS SLUG W A S PLACED ON A G I G A N T I C T E L E V I S I O N SET TIM AND I WOULD WATC H . ON THESE DAYS I'D HUM THE "POKY T H E S N A I L" SONG. (WE HIS CALLED RADULA. MYSTERIOUS U NT I L W E S A W T I N Y G R E Y COILS ON T H E S U R F AC E S O F THE T E R R A R I U M . BUT T O N O I M PLO R I N G N A T U R E . ONE RA I N Y DAY. S I M P LY B E CA U S E I C A R E D NOT TO C L E A N OUT HIS C A G E . NOT L I K E THE T I N Y I N DOORS TO WATCH PA R ENTS.

M ATT H A D COM POSED A FLAG W I T H SOM E R S A U LTING O R " F L I P P I NG" S L U G S (OUR S L U G S C O U L D F L I P I N M I D. TH E ME S N A I LS VOLUM E S WHEN HELPED DON E I MUCH OF I N AN WAS A I M P RESS MY PEERS THAT SCHOL A R LY TYPE.B A N I M A TION F I L M A B O U T SLUGO N I A . W H I C H U N FOR­ T U N ATELY A P PEA RS TO H A V E BEEN LOST. T H E SCOUT­ M A STER WAS C H A R M E D BY THE I D E A BUT HAD TO R E F U S E THE TITLE (HE WAS A STU P I D M A N ) S I N C E TH E R E W E R E S O M A N Y OTH E R N A M E S OF A N I M A LS T H A T WE COULD USE B E S I D E THAT O F "SLUG:' W E K N E W IT W A S A POOR REASON-BESI DES.U M B I A I S A W A POST O R LOOK M AGAZI N E THAT FEATURED A S H ORT STORY A BO U T MONSTER 4B .I N S P I R E D CA RTOON C R EATURES. A TT E N T I V E ME A N D TOO OBSES­ A N D I E V E N WENT SO FA R AS TO SUGGEST A "SLUG PATROL" TO O U R BOY SCOUT TROOP. ATTA C K SWAYI NG ITS H E A D A N D T R U N K BACK A N D FORTH I N FRONT OF T H E FOR V I CTI M A N D TH E N LUNGE VERY D I CTATO R S L UGON I A ) . W E EVEN I N V E NTED A H A N DS H A K E W H I C H CONSI STED O F CONTACT W ITH E I TH E R PA LM ONLY TO HAVE SQ U I S H I NG SOUNDS M EET TH E A S I A LSO LEA R N E D F R O M THE BOOK. P I L S B U R Y'S NORTH LAND M O L L USCA O F NORTH A M E R ICA SKI N N Y BLACK GIRL A OVER FRENCH A TEAC H E R EATI N G S N A I L : " YO U ' R E EATI NG S N A I L?'" S H E S H R I E K ED. WE DREW C O M I C S ABOUT T H E C E N T R A L SLUG C H A RACTERS. E V E RYTI M E WENT TO A FRENCH RESTA U R A N T I O R D E R E D ESCA RGOTS. TH E A R E A H A D A N U M B E R O F S N A I LS I DI DN'T K N OW TH E N A M E S TO. ) THE BOOK BEC A M E H YSTE R I C A L. B E FO R E H A N D. AND MY FLASH FOR M E R QUICKLY T H E OTH E R SNAI L'S M A I N A RTERY R U N N I NG U P TH E C E N T E R O F THE S P I R A L." EVERY SPECIES HAD A TEC H N IC A L MANY TI M E S THE IMAGE OF S N A I LS ON A GREW TO D I STU R B I N G THROUGH PROPORTIONS. O F TH E I R H O B A RT NAMES (TH E WERE HARVEY OF (A TRICK­ TORY-C A N N I B A L I STIC. I ELSE TO E AT. ONE IT SPEC I E S WAS WOU L D PREDA­ BY I N D U LG E NT. A NOTH E R ONE WAS CONTACT BUT R A P I D D R A W I N G AWAY-"YECCH '''-AS I F T H E PALM WERE S L I M E Y. STRAIT OF BOAT IN TRIP TH E GEORGIA BRITISH CO. IN FITS SHE OF WAS OF M E XICO. IT F R I G H T E N E D I N TO TH I N K I NG I WAS A LSO STRANGE FI NDING BULGING SOM E W H AT EFFORT T O FOR D E VOTING SO M U C H TI M E TO A N D C LA S S I F Y I N G ON S N A I LS IT WAS THEM. A N D A FTER PLYI NG TH E M A P A RT WITH A LARGE K I TC H E N K N I FE. I NOTI C E D TH E PAGES O N E W A Y O F SHOWI NG YOU WERE S M A RT.A I R ) . HE ALSO COU N S E LORS. D I G ESTI V E A N D R E S P I RATORY SYSTE M S. WHEN SOLELY LAND LAUGHTER S H OC K . " "HELIX P O M ATA. C H E E R F U L (A COMPULSIVELY A H A PPY SLUG). M ATT POSITI O N S HE WAS AND THEM WAS BIOLOGI ST. THOUGH D U R I N G O U R TALKS ON T H E MATTER I FELT AS IF H I S I NTEREST W A S TOO SIONAL. C H A R M I N G M Y M OT H E R WITH MY SOPH I ST I C A T I O N ( " I S N 'T T H A T OTH E R P E RSON.V O L U M E D S N A I LS AND LONG E R . F E E DOR ( A T V A D D I CT). GA RFO ( A SLUG W H O H A D A S I G N ON H I S BACK R E A D I N G "BEAT M E").L. AND REFUSING M O N OG R A PH S L U G S. TIM AND I CONTR I B UTED A G R E AT D E A L. E I TH E R IN O U R OWN I DE A S OR J UST LAUGHTER OV E R MATrs TALKS ON THE I D EA O F SLUGO N I A . T I M AND I M A D E A S U PE R . T H E CLASSI FICATION I NTO F A M I LY. TH E BOOK H A D V E R Y STR A N G E ACCOU NTS ON C E R TA I N S P E C I ES. W H E N S H E A R R I V E D S H E M A D E A W I S E C R A C K A S TO T H E WEIGHT O F THE BOOKS. V ESTIG ES OF O U R U N I FORMS. A N D IT IS THE SNAIL THAT THE I FRENCH USE FOR ESCA RGOTS. P R I D I N G T H E M S E L V E S O N R A V E N OUS A P P ETITES OR EXCESS I V E TV WATC H I NG." "VESPERCOLA LATI N B R U M . H E'S O R D E R I N G ESCARGOTSI"). E A T I N G E SCA RGOTS IT A RR I V E D. SO M E STE R ) . VORACIOUS A SUPER EATER-LI K E D U R I N G A S U M M E R C A M P V ACATION I REQUESTED A F R I E N D O F MY P A R E NTS' TO B R I N G THE BOOKS WITH HER SINCE SHE WAS GOING TO VISIT SO M E PET-WITH F A S T TONG U E > ' M A TT W A S I N G E N IO U S A N D P ROLI F I C I N C R EATI NG FICTIO N A L SITUATIONS CON C E R N I NG S L UGS. WERE U N C UT. I WAS ABLE TO M A R V E L AT THE H U N D R E D S OF I L LUSTRATION S OF MY FAVORITE A N I M A L. ( A GA I N . HELIX PO MOTA WAS C A L L E D T H E E U RO P E A N G A R D E N S NA I L. TH E Y D I DN'T H A V E A N Y A N T E N N A E OR SLI M E OR R A D U LAS A N D TH E Y R E S E M B L E D H U M A N S I N TH E I R W E A K E R M O M E NTS. GENUS AND SPEC I E S WAS BA S E D U PO N T H E ORGA N IZATION OF T H I E R R E S P I RATORY TRACTS. TH E F LAG'S S L U G S W E R E A LSO W E A R I N G BA N D A N A S A N D H A T S . THESE STRUCK EVEN BY MY I NTEREST I N A T M O M E NTS C R EA T U R ES. DEMIC MANY OF THE COUNS ELORS ONE OF HELD ACA­ A O R I G I N ATED TH E I R I M AG E A N D I N V E N TED MOST OF TH E C H A RACTE RS A N D TH E ( R N A M ES. W H E N ONE WAS O F F E R E D TO HER ON BREAD WITH GARLIC B U TT E R . I COULD NOW SAY T H A T SUCH-A N D-SUCH W A S " A R I O N ATE R. (TH E ACTUAL TITLE M I G H T B E WAS ON A FO U R . W E W E R E ALREA DY RESIGNED TO HIS D I S A P P RO V A L. CUTE. I T WAS O N LY A FOODSTUFF POOR FA R M E R S R ESORTED TO W H E N TH EY HAD NOTH I NG AROUND TH I S TI M E (l I TO 14 YEARS OF AGE. THESE CA RTOON SLUGS WERE VERY SELF­ D E SC R I PTION O F T H E I R R E PRODUCT I V E . IN HIGH IN SCHOOL FITS I REMEMBER A A C A N NOT RECALL S P E C I F I C A LLY) I H A D BOUGHT THE M O S T COM P R E H E N S I V E BOOK ON TH E S U B J ECT. W H E N E A T I N G S N A I LS B EG A N .

I H A D W R ITTEN A LONG PAPER ON THE DUTCH PAINTER JAN M A N Y A S U M M E R'S LIGHT U N R A VAGED BY G A PS A N D HOLES. M Y MOTH E R AND A GOOD F R I E N D OF H E R S . TH I S D E L I C A C Y S E N T M E I N S M I LES. AND I F THEY WERE TRULY THAT WERE­ VERY O FT E N THEY RECOI L I N G T H E T E N D E R F I LA M E NTS. T H E MOTH E R OF T H E ACCOMPA NY­ I NG F A M I LY.S H ELL. THE DUO OF MOTH E R AND H E R FRIEND DISCUSS I N G O F T H E C REATURES WOULD S W A Y M Y FAM I LY I NTO A P P R EC I A T I N G TH E M . H E R FACE IS STI LL VERY YO UTH F U L A N D MY V I C I O U S N E S S AGAI N ST TH E ONE WHO H A D LOOKED O V E R M E W I T H T E N D E R N ESS FOR SO M A N Y Y E A R S A P P E A R S O N L Y T O B E R E V E N G E A G A I NST W E I G H I N G PEA R LS" A S H I S M O S T E X Q U I S I T E E FFORT. A IN IT HER HAIR COILS IN IS WHILE M ALE ZEPHYR. W H E N I SAW IT. A N D T H E K N I F E O R PRYING TOO L . A G I A NT S NA I L WAS DWA R F I NG A T R E E ITS DEVOU R I NGS HAD PROBABLY D E N U D E D. CONT R I B U T I N G TO T H E S O FT . WE WOULD PARTAKE OF MANY LUNCHES "ON T H E H ALF-SHELL. BUT MY PA P E R B E L I EVABLE WITH A N I L LUSTRATION OF ONE. LATE R ON WE'D PRY TH E M OPEN. FROM THE F I X E D LY STA R E AT T H E MOUTH'S P R I C K LY CAVERN. WOULD A D D T O T H E M I S E R Y O F A L R E A D Y SLICED FINGERS. O N E TI M E I FOUND A PEA R L. I TH I N K MY YOU NG E R S I ST E R SHOWED ME THE PICTURE. THE E N DO R S E D COULD LAWRENCE THINK GOW I N G ' S SHE POINT-HOW WEIGHING A N YO N E WAS SOMETH I N G B E S I D E S TH ESE J E W E LS FROM OYST E R BEDS? I M A G E OF THE MOUTH W A S MOST D I STU R B I N G AND I THOUGHT ABOUT I T OFTEN D U R I NG T H E VACATION. TER ROR W A S T H E R E ACTION. LOVED TO P R E P A R E F R E S H OYSTERS.A S S OC I ATI N G . W H I C H . TH E S N A I L A N D SLUG. A L E M O N A N D TOMATO SAUCE AWAITED TH E H U NGRY M I N O R I TY S I N C E MANY IN O U R PARTY D I D N'T C A R E FOR TH E M . FLORA. SO I L E FT I T IN THE C H A NGE PURSE OF E I TH E R MY MOTH E R 'S BAG OR HER F R I E N D·S. R E A DY TO R I P A P A RT A N YTH I N G ORGANIC. WAS SOMETH I NG I OFTEN D I D T O SNAI LS: I B L E W ON TH E I R A N TE N N A E T O S E E S E N S I T I V E. I T WAS V E R Y S M A L L A N D B R O U G H T M U C H ATTEN­ TION FROM THE OLDER WOM E N . A P A I N F U L TASK FOR A S H E L L'S S H A R P EOG E S W O U L D CUT Y O U . N O W TH E PETALS OF OU R I R I S ES. H I S ATTE NTION T O P E A R L S M U ST H A V E CONTR I BUTED T O M Y EXC ITMENT O V E R H I S WORK. T H E MOUTH O F T H E MONSTER LOO K E D LIKE A BALL O F A THOU S A N D ICE-PICKS. T H E S N A I L'S H A T E D STATUS W A S W H A T I ATTEMPTED TO C H A NG E . I N E V E R SAW TH AT PEA R L A G A I N ONCE I T W A S S A F E I N S I D F T H E FO LDS OF LEATH E R . PROMPTING MORE A S S E RT I V E MEASU R E S SUCH A S TOUC H I NG TH E STA LKS. A FT E R HAVING P U NCTU R E D YO U R SKIN. ( I W A S 1 4 Y E A R S OLD A N D A MOM EVEN TOLD F R E S H M A N I N H I G H SCHOOL. SOME S U C H S I M I LA R POISON O N OU R G A R D E N H U R T M E I N ATTEN U AT E D WAYS. I THOUGHT I T TO B E A M OST DURING THAT VACATION. I T F A I L E D S I M PL Y B ECA U S E S H E W A S MEASU R I NG GOLD. I G R E W T O A P P R ECI ATE THE P A I N T I N G E NTITLED "WO M A N OBSESSIO N A L S C R U T I N Y OF H E R FACE'S G ROWTH OF WRINKLES. TH E B R I LL I A N T GROWTH O F RLOWE R S WAS NOTH I N G T O H A R M . FITFULLY BLOWING H I S G E NTLE B R EATH. A R M E D WITH BUCK ETS OR PLASTIC BAGS.B L U E W A T E R . I WOULD FREQUE NTLY O P E N TH E MAGAZINE AND A NOTH E R P A I NTI N G . Y E T HARM TO THEM SEEMED I N EVITA B L E F O R THEY THO UGHT M E Q U I T E S E N S I T I V E T O S E L ECT V E R M E E R A S A S U B JECT FOR A R E S E A RCH PA P E R . TAKING LONGE R T O E M E RGE AGA I N F A C I N G T H E H U M A N A D V E RSA RY. SOM E C RITICS E V E N THOUGHT V E R M E E R'S WOM A N WAS WEIGH ING GOLD. W E ' D A L L D I V E F O R OYSTERS I N C L E A R. V E R M E E R'S CONTEM P O R A R Y D E H O OC H D E PICTED A WOM A N W E I G H I N G GOLD COINS. WITH P L E NTY O F OYSTER BEDS AROUND. I E V E N CHASTISED I N F R O N T OF MOTHER A M E RICA'S C U LT OF YOUTH F U L N E S S I N TO IN WOMEN WHEN AS SHE BY WAS MY ME CON S I D E R E D TO H A V E GROU N D R E A L P E A R LS I NTO HIS O I LS. I F YOU DON'T MIND THE F R E E . SI M I LA R LY ATTI R E D 49 . M I LKY P A S S I NG M I DDLE-AGE SEEN PALLOR OF H I S MOSTLY F E M A LE S U B JECTS.S N A I LS ON A R EMOTE I S L A N D . I D I D N 'T KNOW A G A R D E N'S B R I G HT FLOWERS AND G L I ST E N I N G LEAVES H A S A R A PAC I O U S PRE DATOR. TH E Y S C A R S U C H LUMI NOUS P A R A D I S E S T H A T R E FLECT A PROUD OWNER'S LABOR. M Y S ELF. BESI DES. A V U LGA R ITY I N I T S F A I L U R E T O UNDERSTA N D T H E R ESONATING SIGN I F I C A N C E O F PEAR LS. HENCE COM P A R E H E R T O A U D R E Y H E P B U R N .) ONCE THAT VERMEER WAS WOULD N O D O U B T Q U I C K L Y WITH E R A N D D I E . FEATU R E D BIRTH V E N US LEGEN D A R Y S E A . I VAINLY THOUGHT MY V E R M E E R . T H E M A I N C H A RAC­ T E R D E SC R I B E D HIS H O R ROR AT THE E N O R M ITY OF THE C R EATU R E S WHICH WAS ALL TH E MORE (THOUGH NOT WITH TH E SATIN A N D ER M I N E J A C K ET) AND POS ITIONED BEFORE THE W I N DOW O F STRE A M ­ ING D A Y L I GHT. THE BOTTI C E LLrS OF LA P R I M I V E RA. L I L I E S A N D PETU N I A S COULD FLOU R I SH I N A Y E A R A FT E R T H E BOAT T R I P . A N D T O SEE MY MOTHE R SPREA D I NG SLUG-BE-GONE OR W H E R E TO PLACE IT. O N LY TO HAVE THEM R E CO I L MORE R A P I D L Y. MOM'S F R I E N D WAS Q U I T E WORLDLY I N MY EYES AND B E A UTI F U L E N O U G H T O HAVE ME B EA U T I F U L S P I R A LS PICTU RE." I T S E E M E D A V E R Y E LEGANT T H I N G TO DO IN THE W I L D E R N ESS.

A N I N C I D E N T K N O W N I N C H R I ST I A N HOME. S C R A P I N G AT MY S K I N . "U LGIYI. SO H A V E I F E LT I T TOO TO B E M I N E. T H E ATTA C K W A S A L W A Y S ON. THERE MY HAVE TO SENT FIX S H I V E R S. FACE AS B LO O D FROM F R E S H LY MY B L OO D I E D B Y T H E M . MY FATH ER P E R SO N . CLEANSING P E R PETU A L L Y S H I T. B U T A G I R LF R I E N D I O N C E K N E W H A D A N EXQU I S I T E P A I R . W H I L E T H I N K I NG I WAS P I C K A B L E. SLUGS MAKE U G LY. HAS F U R T H E R T R A N S FOR M E D WHATEVER THROUGH. T H E D R I V E OF THE VAMPI RE IN FOR THESE OT H E R S WHO HAVE C A G E .R I D D E N E N V E L O P E O F F L E S H . TH E W O R D S K I N . A N D IF YOU WENT H TE R E . A SISTER HER OF MINE WAS A LSO E N C R Y PTED UNDYING F A N T A S I E S A N D TH E I R C O R R E S PONDING PLEA S U R E­ WORDS. 1 5 STI L L I NSPI R I N G ME TO A W A SH AND SHAVE DI RTY. A WORD IN H I S NOSE­ LANGUAGE. SOM E MEN FEW M I LDLY ACNED ME AND IN R E LA T E D T O "G U L IS]. S N A I L A LLOPHON I C A L L Y R E S I D E S IN " A I LS . W I T H S L U G E L I M I N A T E T H E " S " A N D W I T N E S S " L U G . THE ONE WHO A I LS F R O M ACNE. A N D ZITS. JESUS C H R I S T'S HANDS AND FEET FASC I N ATED DRAW FI FTH MY G R A D E. WHY DID I LIKE TO HAVE POKY C R A W L O V E R M Y F I N G E R S ? I A M A LSO S U P PO S E D TO BE "GE N ET I C A L L Y I D E N T I C A L" TO H I M . M Y H A N D S H A V E B E E N C A L L E D "ATT R A C T I V E " B Y T H O S E CLOSE T O M E .B R USH P E R FECT L I K E A L L THE B E A U T I E S WHO C O U L D GET I NTO STU D I O 54 W I THOUT W A I T I N G . AND I B E A R H I S FIRST NAME A S M Y M I DDLE O N E . T H A T I S . THE R U SS I A N SEEMS PICK TERM FOR MY F L E S H W IT H A F I N G E R C A L L E D " P I N K Y . OR ACNE FRIGHTENING." " S L U G S A R E 50 U G L Y " S A Y T H E C O M M O N LOT. H E W A S A P E D I A T R I C I A N L I K E M Y FATH E R WIPE OFF OIL F I N GE R N A I LS/FI N G E R S N A I LS O N TO H E R D R E S S O R A PR O N . FREUD. A P R O D U C T O F L U T H E R A N U P B R I N G I N G . H O P E L E S S R E V E NG E . THE LARGE MALE HOMO­ F U R T H E R MO R E . " I T WAS A L L A JOKE. WITH WERE N A I LS. W H I TE H E A D TO HER A LW A Y S N U R S I NG THE WOULD.H E A D E D M A N . THEN R E A LITY WILL CONC U R E W I T H M Y H A L L U C I N A TION A N D I S H A L L B E A I R . SCR A P I NG NOTED GOUGING YOUNGER B ROTH E R S' T E R I ET. S P L E N DOR. I H A V E SUCC U M B ED TO T H E ADVE RTISI NG VISAGE OF G R EATER P OT E N C Y . " SOU N D I NG M UC H L I K E "J E W E LS. " T H E "5" A N D " L " A R E C R U C I A L: BOTH P A R E N TS POSS ESS T H E M I N T H E I R O R IG I N A L N A M ES. TH I S BLAsEN. C O M P E N S A T I N G F O R HER VERY BLEMISHED FACE. DEGREE. H I S P L EA S U R E-WORD. I W I S H I N G THAT T H E P HOTOS A N D COM M E R I C A L S SEE W I L L B E P R E S E N T I N MY L I FE A S A R E S U L T OF BUYING THE PRODUCT.R A Y S H E G A V E TO H I S PATI E N TS ." A N U G L Y J E W E L I S THE S L U G THAT COULD R E N D E R T H E C H I L D-J E W E L OF J U L I E U G L Y A S W E LL. I S R E LATED TO T H E LETTERS I N S N A I L. BO D I L Y H A N D­ SOC I E T Y ' S THE I N DICIA CLEAN. OR B U B B L E OF S K I N I S W H A T THE S N A I L. " I . O R A S I T D I D TO M Y F I N G E R B Y ITS B I T I NG: A B I T I N G . PAROXYSMS WITH BAD MY COMPLEXION BEING MY WENT SKIN G R A N D­ F A T H E R ' S DOO M . FORC I N G M E T O TH I N K OF A M OT H E R RAVAGED BY WHAT I HAD. EVERY TRUE WOU L D EDUCATION FROM HER FATH E R ' S D E A T H H I S H A N D S W E R E A L SO WOU N D E D BY I M P R O P E R PROTEC T I O N F R O M X .M A N PAC I NG H YSTE R I C A L L Y TO A N D FRO I N A D E R M A ­ TOLOG I ST'S P OW D E R IN OFFICE HAND. W R I N K LES A R E L l N Es/LA I N S ( S N A I L ) ON T H E s K I N /S L I N (SNAIL). "D U N C A N A LTHOUGH I A M NOT I D E N T I C A L T O T H E WOLF. A C O M P U LS I V E LY NEAT 15 NOW. ME IN LIKE THE L E ECHES THAT H A D COU LD A A LSO T H E V E R Y I N S T R U M E N T OF M Y R E P E T I T I O N : S N A I L IS]. " BETTER YET. HER NAME WAS EVERYDAY. " U LG. TO VERBARIUM: SNAIL. " M E A N I NG SHE PROBABLY WAS D I SC O N T E N T W I T H M Y FON D N E S S F O R C R IT I C A LITY AND D I S T I NCTION. T H E "5." O R A S I S C L E A R . J U LI E. AS FLA S H DID WITH ITS SEXUAL CROWD OBEYS THE SA M E I M P U LS E ! S E C R ETLY C H E R I S H : AN O R A L D R I VE. SAYS 50. IT A LSO H E LP E D M E E N D U R E B E I N G B RO U G H T U P IN A SOC I A L A P P A R A T U S T H A T EXU LTS I N A S T R E A M L I N E D P A S S I O N F O R A S S I M I LA ­ TING E G O. I WITH HAVE M I RROR AND FACE YOU'RE SO P I C K Y . HER F I N G E R NAILS W E R E THE BITING S N A I L. " A N D YOU H A V E " s L l N " -T H E N GO ON T O "S N A I L.I D E A L S . A LT H O U G H AT TIMES HER ATTA C K S WERE AND R U BB I N G SLUG. U G L I F Y I N G S L U G . OFTE N TI M E S MY MOTH E R WOULD LA M E N T. S I M I LA R PICKY." S I M I LA R T O D A D'S E N D E A R ­ M E N T. TH E PAST O F P U R I F Y I N G D I R T ON T H E S K I N I NTO A MI LITA NT OC C U P A T I O N . " P I N K Y" APPEARS O R T H OG R A P H I - 50 . HUMAN PROPELLING EYES ON TH E I R RA D U LA S T H A T C O U L D B I T E T H E V E R Y P I M P L E S I POSS E S S T H A T E V E N I N G . BEFORE MY G R A N D­ EXTRACTED M OT H E R . A LSO. IS A LL O P H O N I C A L L Y TR I U M P H E D OUR TH E I R I D E O LOG I C A L I N P E R FECTION. A PHOR O F T H E EGO. M Y M OT H E R ' S NAME." " I " A N D "N": P L A C E A N D "L" FOR T H E " K . " J U L E S. W H E T H E R I T WAS C O M B I N G M Y H A I R O R W I P I NG OFF D I RT FROM ANY PART OF MY BODY. T H O U G H A N A S E M IC D EC I PH E R I NG.H E R O B S E S S I V E P I C K I N G O F MY ZITS AS I A D V A N C E D I N TO T H E H O R M O N A L D I S F I G U R E M E NTS OF A DOLES­ CENCE. P R E Y TO HER FON D N E S S FOR D R A W I N G O I L OUT OF MY FOR SKIN. HAD DESIGNATED TH E PHYSICAL M ET A ­ I D E N TI C A L T O M Y M O T H E R'S.

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D E L I C ATE S N A I LS. POKY ON MY MY PET S N A I L. C R I TICIZED. BE IT DAYS. WEEKS.W O R D. I CAME HERE TO FA LL I N TO THE A RMS OF ITS BEAUTIFUL M E N . U PON T H E MOTH E R . WITHOUT END. NEW YORK WAS -FU N-C ITY" AND I ENVISIONED THE M A N Y " F U N " PEOPLE L I V I N G H E R E . UN ENDLICH. ACNE. N A TU RE'S S U RGEONS (THE Y LEAVE SC A R S ON PLANT TISSUE) ARE N O W O N L Y COSMETOLO­ F R E Q U ENTLY R E A D E R . THE (SIUGLIY I N T E LLECTU A L READI NG AN I MAGE­ EVEN A H U N D R E D YEARS.M A K I N G A N D S U RG E R Y I N H I S JOURNAX I N TI M ES. A. WITH A ZIT ON ITS B U BBLE.EN MOUTH. ADORNO-DON'T A DORE " S E LF-STY L I N G A DO R N . MONTHS. BITING THE G I STS FOR PEOPLE TO K E E P CORPSEHooD I NTACT AND GOLDEN. PROFESSIONAL FAC I A LS ARE SU RGEON." SINCE WHEN YOU THE IN ATTE N D A N T M O R B I D I T I ES. AND THIS H A B I T OF M I N E I S EVEN WORSE WH E N I VENTURE TO EAT THE STUFF. " A DORE ME. FINGERS POKY.CALLY S I M I L A R TO POKY. BUT "FUN­ A ·'FU N-ZITY. SC R A P E R S . FORGOTTEN A S LONG A S I LIVE W H E R E TV'S A R E WATC H E D. M Y "C RITICALITY" (MY "PICKY" NATUREC ITICAL. TO GET A T A N .L I K E WITH RUBBERY HANDS V I O L E NTLY PICKING AWAY. M U C U S O R SNOT. 15 NOT A L U ST-IC H . AS IT IS MORE COMMONLY CA LLED. "OUI. OR "NOC T U R N A L L Y ZITS OR "szlr' VIBRA TES WITH "SHlr' A N D CLEANING I S OF COURSE A N A N A L MOTIF. FOR M E . N U M E ROUS ACTIVE C R E A T U R ES" H E R E WITH D E E P BROWN TA N S IS ONLY T H E MANY M E N W I T H THE EVIDENCE O F BY S U M M E R'S RAYS. FU RTH ER. AN I N DEED "ZITICAL FOR MY BEING A FFLICTED E X P L A N A TION SONNENSTRAHLEN. A N OT H E R CRUC I A L P L E A S U R E . R E PRODUC I N G F I N G E R/SNAI L. SKYSC R A PERS OR NOT SO H A R S H LY. AN U N L U sT· I C H . THE C R I TI C A L . PICKED AT. IS A C R Y PTIC I M PULSE IN N E W YORK. NO.H A T-TAN. LIKE I DO IS PIC K I NG YOUR NOSE G H ASTLY. A P E R FECT TA N I N M A N H ATTA N TA KES SOME TI M E. TH E TV SHOW WILL N OT BE C ITY" IS. THE A P PLICATION C R E A MS. PICKY TO E L I M I N A TE THE OF ZIT IN THIS C I TY NEEDS AN THE F I N G E R S . FASCIN ATION FOR T H E WR ITINGS O F THAT SCHOOL. I M A G I N A R Y B A N I S H I NG T. T H I S C I TY OF THOUGH STI LL. B E A UTIFUL PEOPLE. N IGHTLONG L I K E M Y PET SLUG H A D DON E ATOP THE GIANT TV SET. THE NEW YORK WITH AN ISLAND THE CALLED M A N H ATTA N . THEORY" ZITI C A L. H AVE A "ZIT' I N FU N-CITY YOU DON'T HAVE F U N ." AND M Y MOVE TO N E W YORK WAS OPPORTU NE. W. SOM ETH I NG ATTACK MELANIE KLEIN CALLS AN ANAL M U C I LA G E FROM SNA I LS I ONCE PUT ON M Y BODY. I'M RECALLING B A U D E LA I R E' S G R E E N J U N K A LONG THE WAY. IS B U R I E D I N MY N A M E : DUNCAN/DUNACNIEL TO M A K E GOLDE N A N D YOUTH EVOCATIVE. JE I BEG FORG I V E N E S S FOR ALL THIS CONFESSING IT S C R A P E S STA R­ AND TADORE.") EQUATION O F LOVE. I S PICKED I N THE NOSE. POK E .F U N EGO. ("HE HAS A GRE-E-E­ E-E. BECO M E S IS A L LOPHON IC WITH "ZIT" : M A N . DUNCAN S M I TH 152 . A FUN EGO I N A CITY­ ZITY WITH ALL ITS FUN.

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AND IT OCCURS O N LY TOO OFTEN. DESPITE T H E FACT THAT I N EATING A MAN ONE NEED NOT B EG I N BY KILLING HIM: PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S COURAGE REMARKED: R E A SO N TO D I S ­ FREUD I N C ESTUOUS R E LA T IONS H I PS. THERE IS NO R E A SO N FOR NOT EATING H U M A N FLESH. A N D H E R E A LSO "GOOD REASONS" CAN BE I N VOKED: BUT THAT O N E LESS-EXACTI N G : ONE TIME R E LATION S H I P AT W I LL BECOM E A TREATED ." M U R D E R IS T H E SA M E : ONE S H O U L D N EV E R K I LL. WOULD BE A S H A R M F U L TODAY AS IT WAS IN T I M E S PAST. I N C EST I S NOT SO FAR REMOVED. W H I C H P R E S ENTS BOTH A SEXUAL A N D A SOCIO­ LOGICAL A S PECT: T H E Y C A N NOT B E COMPLETELY TH I S TEXT IS F U L L OF GOOD SENSE. AND IS TO DEVOUR H I M . MORE OR CONTRA Ry-oFTEN ONE TH E LAST P H R A S E M A K E S O N E TH I N K THAT I N C E ST COU L D HAVE BEEN PRACTI S E D ONCE. HOW THAT FOR THE I N C EST. M A TT E R S ARE N O T SO S I M PL E WITH R ESPECT TO I NC E ST. ESPEC I A L LY I N O R D E R T O D E V O U R O N E ' S V I C T I M . T H E SITUATION OF I NC EST I S EXACTLY LIKE THAT O F C A N N I B A LI S M . W E CAN ONE SAY R E S PECT IT M UC H LESS. BUT THERE IS NO FOR NOT EAT I N G HUMAN THEN R E A SO N WHATEVER I M P L I C I TL Y FOR M U R DE R . TH I S ALSO I S ONLY TOO E V I D ENT. BUT ARE S E N S E -A N D NOT HAVE S A I D THE SHOULD JUDGE­ R A RELY R IGOROUSLY L I N K E D : O N E C A N PROH I BI T TH E M A R R I A G E O F C E RTAI N K I N WITHOUT M A K I N G A D R A M A OF T H E I R EVENTUAL SEXUAL R E LATIONS. BUT THAT MEN HAD RENOUNCED I T FOR GOOD R EASONS. THE PROH I BI TION IS THEN J U STI F I ABLE: HOWEVER. F R E U D WOULD E R RS. BUT GOOD D I S SOC I AT E D ONE FROM THE OTH E R . S ITUATION FLESH I N PLACE O F M EAT. A N D O N E C A N ONLY E I T H E R B E O N E OR N O T B E ONE. N E VERTHELESS MOST OF U S WOULD FINO THAT COMPLETELY I M POSSI BLE. WITH US FOR E X A M PLE. THE P R O H I B I T I O N O F C A N N I BA L I S M T H U S A P P E A R S U N J USTI F I A BLE. TWO NEAR KIN CAN S L E E P TOGETH ER. I N G E N E R A L A N D I N PA RTIC ULAR. I T IS TRANSGRESSED "ON LY TOO OFTEN. WE CAN EASILY SEE THAT. TH U S O N E WILL B E -M UST O N E THE SEXUAL R I T U A L LY SAY.T A B L E M A N N ERS. T H E Y S I M PLY C A N NOT B E M A R R I E D A N D TH E I R C H I LD R E N W I LL N O T B E LEGITIMATE: TH E I R R E LATIONS W I LL B E S E X U A L BUT N O T CON N U B I A L. HAD WHO HAD ASKED H I M SOM E IF K I LLS. O N T H E CONTRA RY. LA N G U A G E M A N N E R S TO MARIE BONA PARTE. REASONS THAT K I LL A MAN NATURALLY THERE ARE GOOD IN MODERN LIFE ONE DOES NOT NON ETH ELESS. I F IT WAS PRACTISED ON A LARGE SOC I A L SCA L E IT "EXACTLY L I K E THAT O F C A N N I B A L I S M ?" TO BE A C A N N I B A L IS TO EAT OTH E R M E N . B E D M A N N E RS.

T H E R E I S N O WAY TO ELUOE IT. C A N N I BA L I S M IS O N LY PRACTISED WHERE IT IS HORROR O F I NCEST I S PRONO U N C E D I N T H E S E LATTER: W H E R E O N E H A S AFFIRMED IT IN A B U S I V E LY E XT R A PO L A T I N G A AUTHO R I S E D A N D N E V E R W H E R E I T I S PROH I B ITED. ONE ONLY E ATS A C A N N I B A L I N A OR L E S S F R EQUENT ACCO R D I N G T O THE E X T E N T O F I T S PROH I BITION: R E LA T I V E LY R A R E IN SOC I ETI E S WITH A LARGE POPULATION. DICTING THUS. T H E POSSIBI LITY OF I N C EST I S S O WELL P R E D I C T E D T H A T OFT E N ONE HAS A LS O FORSEEN A RITE T O A C H I EVE IT. HAVE FEWER M EMBERS AND THAT HAVE SYNTH ESIS A N D R E S U LTS O F A L L T H E S E OPPOSI ­ TIONS: I N C EST (AND M U R D E R) IS PROH I B IT E D ENLARGED T H E BOUNDS OF T H E PRO H I BITION. WHICH ALLOWS OPPOSITE R U L E . A S FOR C A N N I BA L I S M . ITS S I M P L E E X I ST E N C E COULD FOR M T H E B A S I S O F A RECOG­ N I Z E D U N I ON OF I N F E R I O R STATUS . W R I TES H. NOT TO W E A K E N IT: TO KILL SOM EON E THE WHO HAS KILLED I N TO A DOES NOT OF C A N N I B A L I S M E A S I L Y EXPLA I N T H I S . RE PEATED. W H I C H ITSELF I S A M U R D E R. POS I T I V E O R N EGATIVE. THE V ICTI M IS I R RECU PARABLE. TRANSGRESSES T H E NORM I N A M A N N E R T H A T I S . . AND P E R H A PS A LS O . AND TO BEGIN AGAIN." W O U L D SAY T H A T THE SA M E I S T R U E O F M U RDER. N E V E R A T R A N SG R ES S I O N . A N D W H E R E ONE ATTR I B U T E S M A LA D I E S AND D E ATHS TO WOM A N WITHOUT M A R R Y I NG H E R A N D S H E R E M A I N S A POSSI B LE SPO U S E . THE P R ETENDED IN GEN E R A L UNIVERSAL M UC H LESS E V E RYWH E R E A N D E NC O U N T E R E D E V E R Y W H E R E .FULLY LEGAL M A R R I AGE . ON THE OTH E R . AND IF IT ITS IS A C H I E V E M ENT EX­ PROH I BITED AND S Y M M E T R I C A LLY. PROVES ITS ABSENCE AND M A N I F E STS THE SENTI M E N T W H I C H . . AND SOCI ETY OF CAN N I BA LS. IN A NON­ R U L E WHICH CON D E M N S IT. IT I S U N DE R STOOD THAT I N C A N N I B A L I S M A S WELL THERE A R E T W O A S PECTS: T O E AT. K E E PS THE RESTRIC­ TION OF T H E PROH I B ITION TO T H E ONLY K I N W H O A R E CONSISTENTLY FOR B I DDEN. THAT MORE F R EQU E N T IN THOSE SOC I ET I E S AN I N STITUTION. ONE " F I N A LLY. T H E C A N N I BA LISTIC R E LATION S H I P C A N NOT H A U STS BE IT. O N E C A N G E T A ROUND T H E R U L E . TO E FFACE ITS VIOLATION . I R REPA R ABL E: MEMBER OF ONE C A N NOT CON S I D E R TH I S IS HIM A IN CONTRA RY. VIOLA T I N G I T WHILE M A I NTA I NI NG It. FOR US. A R E L A T I ON S H I P IS O N LY I N C ESTUOUS WITH R E S PECT T O T H E CAN NOT. I N TH E M A TT E R OF C A N N I B A LI S M . BUT W H E R E M E N FEAR B E I N G EATE N. TH E R E I S ON ONE S I D E A PROH I B I TION WHOSE V I OLATION I N N O W A Y COM P RO M I S E S IT. IT A LWAYS A PPEARS A S A TRAN SGRESSION. I N A SOCI ETY W H I C H I S NOT. I CAN SLEEP WITH A THE SOCIAL BODY. W H I C H B R I NG S US BACK TO TH E FACT THAT C A N N I BA L I S M IS A LMOST A LWAYS WHERE T H E C I RCLE O F FOR B I D D E N PARTNERS I S L I M ITED. ON THE INDICATED. A N D THIS TRANSGRESSION C A N BE FO U N D EVE RYWH E R E OF SEXUAL BECAUSE DESIRE. A N D TO EAT OTH E R M E N P R EC I S E LY : B U T T H E B I OLOGICAL A S PECT O F TH E MATTER IS NOT S E P A R A B L E F ROM ITS SOCI A L CONSEQU E N C E . IN E V E R Y CASE A TWO-S I DED PLAY IS POSS I B L E . O N E CAN NOT EXPLAIN WHY 55 . AS ONE HAS ALREADY ONE TO M A INTA I N THE PROH I BITION. AS FOR I NCEST AND A N C I ENT TU P I . FOR TH I S REASON. WHERE CANNIBALISM IS THE RU LE. I T TOLE RATES N O M E A N S O F ESCA PE. RULE SUFFERS ITS E X PLOIT: T H E ACQUITTAL O F A M U RD E R E R WHERE E X T E N U A T I N G C I R C U M ST A N C E S NIZED DOES NOT PLACE THE CAN BE R ECOG­ IN TRA NSG R ESSION. F O R M E O R F O R SOMEONE C A N N I B A L ACTIONS. A R U L E W H I C H C A N NOT B E VIOLATED SINCE THAT WHICH I T CON D E M N S . O R T O SORC E R E R S W H O A R E D I F F I C U LT T O I D E NTIFY. T O F I L L TH E GAP. T H U S A G A I N . S OC I ET Y IS S OC I ETY PRESC R I B E I T WITHOUT CONTRA­ TERMS: S I NCE IT S U PPOSES THE A N D TH I S W H Y THE P U N I S H M ENT OF DEATH C A N BE A L LOWED BY THE V E R Y PEOPLE WHO MOST VIGOROUSLY CON D E M N M U R D E R . O N E I M PUTES T H E C O M M I S S I O N OF THE C R I M E S T O M YSTERIOUS FOR E I G N E RS. ITS P U R POSE IS TO R E I N FORCE THE PROH ITI B I O N . A S FOR T H E E X EC UTION O F A M U R DER­ ER. ON E'S P R O H I B I TI O N IT B R E A KS : O N E TR A N S FO R M K I LLE RS. S I M I LA RLY IT WOULD COME TO NO O N E'S M I N D. T H E PARTI C U L A R R U L E KNOWS PRACTICALLY NON E . O N E C A N NOT THUS DI SSOCIATE DE FACTO A N D DE J U R E STATUS. "TH E ESSENTIAL R U L E O F A NTH RO­ POPH A G Y IS PERHAPS THE EXIGENCE THAT CONTR A R Y TO C A N N I BA L I S M .: THIS I S NOT TO S P E A K O F WAR WHERE TO KILL I S AN EVERYO N E PARTICI PATE. I N G E N E R A L. ELSE. TO S UGGEST TIojE CON S U M P­ U N I VERSA LITY A NCE MORE APPEAR­ TION OF SOM EONE WHO H A D B E E N FOU N D G U I LTY OF C A N N I B A L I S M . WITHOUT CONSTRA I N I NG T H E S E PA RA­ TION O F T H E I NC ESTUOUS PARTIES. T H E R E I S N O POSSIBLE R E M I SSION. " ONE F I NOS O N E S E L F I N THE P R E S E N C E O F A PARADOX THAT I S A T L E A ST A P P A R E NT: THE U N I VE R S A L WHILE. ON T H E CONTRA RY. WHY. BUT THE FACT IS T H A T. B U T I F I E A T HER SHE I S NO LON G E R EDIBLE FOR A N Y ONE E L S EI D I F F E R E N T FROM THE SEXUAL R E LATIO N S H I P. SOC IETIES W H E R E O N E DOES NOT EAT OTH E R M E N. I N R E A LITY THE D E F I N I TI O N S OF I N C EST AND OF PROH I B ITION QUESTION. AN OF THE CA N N I BA L SOC I ETY. WHERE I T A P P L I ES. CLASTRES A BO U T T H E NONETH E LESS R E A LIZED. T H E C A N N I B A L. IF O N E DOES IT.

THEY ARE SOMETI M E S HOWEVER. ACCEDED TO T H E R A N K OF ANC ESTOR. MORE "OR A L" T H A N T H E NON-CA N N I BA L : NO MORE DOES HE D E VOU R H I S PARTN E R I HIS C A N N I BA LI S M E X I STS ON A NOTH E R GROU N D ENTI R ELY. T H E Y H A V E ABOVE ALL AN I DEOLOGICA L C H A R ACTER: THEY EXPRESS THE IDEAS THAT TH E I N T E R E STED H A V E OF T H E POST MORTEM EXISTENCE OF T H E H U M A N TRUE THE I ROQUOIS E N JOY THIS KIND OF FOOD. T H E C A N N I B A L A C T I S A LWAYS PUBLIC AND R I TUALIZED: TH E R E I S A LWAYS A N E L E M ENT. AND T H E USE O F NAMES OF M A N-EATI N G A N I M A LS OR OF COMESTI B L E S TO DESIGNATE THE LOVE PARTN E R . THE THE PROHI BITION M ET A PHORIC OF HUMAN OF FLESH CANNI­ NOT L I B E R ATES BALISM: USAGE ONE P R I SONERS I N ORDER. F E A R A N D T E R R O R T O THE LIVI NG. AND IT IS THIS C O M PON E N T THAT PERMITS FATA L E K A MUST S U R M O U N T A C E RTA I N AVERSION: TH E VICTI M M U ST BE C O M P E LT E LY CONS U M ED. THE LANGUAGE AND FROM NOU R I S H I N G P E RHAPS EVEN D R E A M S ." T H E S A M E M I SADVEN­ TU R E C A N H A P P E N TO TH E FATA LEKA. THEIR STO M A C H N O T B E I N G E MPHASIZED OR A RGOT CAPABLE OF DIGESTI NG IT. PHAGE IS NOT. BY S U B M I SSION TO THE WILL OF A DEAD C H I E F WHO. DESI R E TO A PP RO P R I ATE T H E QUA LITI ES !56 . T H E R E I S NO DOUBT THAT TH E R E E X I ST S A N O R A L COM PON ENT OF S E X U A L DESI R E . QUENTLY FA M I L I A R C U L I N A RY TO FORC E D T O V O M I T . IF THE P RACTICE DOES NOT I M PLY A DESI R E . IF O N E OF T H E CONVIVES VOMITS. A THERE IS NO EVIDENT REASON DESI R E . BUT M U ST THERE BE O N E ? SUCH A D E S I R E DOES NOT EVEN SEEM PRESENT FOR ALL C A N N I BALS. BUT-A N D TH I S I S WHAT WE WISHED TO SUGGEST IN THE PRECEDING NOT REDUCE PA R A G R A P H -C A N N I B A L I S M I TS E L F TO O R A LITY. BESIDES. TO TH E BON E . THIS IDEA THAT O N E RISK IS. IN DOES EAT HUMAN FLESH WITHOUT T H E A M O R O U S A N T H R OPO­ MOREOVER. A N D NOT ONLY. SUCTION) . TO APPEASE THE SOU L O F A HAVE DECEASED R E LATI VE. A OF A COMPLEX THIS IS H I S S E X U A L R ELATIONS. HE AND TO THIS IS WHY TH E L A TT E R . FROM TH I S FACT. CA N N I BA L I S M CAN BE CONSI D E R E D A S WELL A S A M E A N S TO K E E P A W A Y THE DEAD BY D E STROY I N G THEIR C O R PO R A L S U PPORT-SO THE GUYAKI D E L I CATE. BUT BY OBLIGATION. A IN ANY EVENT E A C H MAY BE CAN VALID FOR GIVEN POP U L A T I O N . AND B EC A U S E TO E AT HUMAN IT. I F OFTEN. FOR M E R . PRETEN D TO N O G E N E R A L VALI DITY. BUT PRACTICE IN QUESTION: TH I S POSES THE PROBLEM OF A D M ITTING A U N I V E R S A L DESIRE TO EAT M E N . BUT THAT ITS PROH I B I T I O N N EV E R PLACES ITS OF TH E I R V ICTI M S.SOME SOCI ETIES ACCEPT I T A N D OTHERS FOR B I D IT. TO E X P R E S S T H E F E A R OF B E I N G I N SOM E WAY D E VO U R E D BY H E R ("WHAT A T I G R E SS") OR TO FOR M U LATE A S E N S U A L ATTRACTION ("WHAT A N VICTIM. NOT BY TASTE A N D FOR PLE A S U RE. TH I S S U B M I S SI O N FLESH IS IS DESERVI NG. O F WHOM R. O F A SEXUAL ORDER. ABSTENTION DOES NOT H I N D E R C A N N I BA L­ ISM FROM H A U NT I N G FEARS. THA N K S TO HIS CON S U M PTION OF A SACRIFICED MODE. T H E R E P R E SENTA­ TIONS OF CANNIBALISM SERVE TO SIGNIFY THESE C E R E M O N I E S DIVERSE BEEN THE OBJECT OF DE S I R E FOR V E N ­ I N T E R PRETATION S : A N OTH E R T H I NG. (BITING." T H I S CONFI R M S STADEN: "TH EY DO TH I S NOT TO E A S E T H E I R H U NGER." WHO CONTESTS THE AND VERY A N C ESTO R S H I P-SO TH E FATA L E K A THI N K . O N E COULD A D O THAT S E X U A L PLAY CAN CONTA I N C A N N I B A L I ST I C B E H A VI O R DANGEROUS. BUT T H I S TASTE 1 5 NOT THE ONLY T H I N G I N VOLVED. W I D E S P R E A D: I T I S A GOOD F OO D BUT TOO STRONG FOR ONE TO EAT I T PURE: T H E GUYAKI M U ST M I X IT WITH A VEGETA B L E FOOD: O N E COOKS I T I N RAGOUT W I T H HEA RTS OF PA L M . S U PPOSE PROPERLY C A N N I B A L R E A LITY OF C A N N I BA L I STIC DESI RE: "IT I S NOT THAT T H E Y SO MUCH ENJOY EATING HUMAN FLESH BUT THAT T H E I R SENSUAL A PPETITE BRI NGS THEM TO THESE M EANS. BUT THROUGH CLAUDE HOST I LITY. C A N N I B A LISTIC LA N G U AGE. I N O N E CASE AS IN TO THE OTH E R . BECA USE H E A D D S : "TH E I R P R I N C I P A L I N T E NTION TH I N K-AS A M E A N S T O ASSU R E CERTA I N D E A D OF ACCESS TO THE SU PREME POW E R . C A N NOT WITHOUT E V I DE NTLY TR U E O F THE G U A Y A K I WHO EAT TH E I R D E A D A N D O F T H E FATA L E K A W H O EAT FOR TH E I R D E A D: IT IS A LS O TH E TUPI WHO EAT TH E I R A N T H ROPOPHAGY A N D EXCESSI V E ORA LITY. O F T H E RELATIONS BETWE E N T H E L I V I N G A N D T H E D E A D: F R O M THIS LAST POI N T O F V I EW. A GROU N D OF W H I C H THOSE PA RTS ARE WHO DO NOT EAT T H E I R COUNTER­ I G N O R A NT. THAT OF 15 T H A T I N P R E P A R I N G A N D EATING T H E DEAD I N T H I S WAY. H I S COM M E N SA LS M U ST COMPLETELY R E ABSORB WHAT H A S U N FOR­ TUNATELY C A N NOT BEEN R E J ECTED. WHE N T R I ES DO IT U N D E R STA N D TH E CON FOUN D I N G C E R EMONY O F T E N LIKE FUNERAL. THEY GIVE. A MONG OTH ER R EASONS. AND J E A N DE L Il: RY WRITES OF T H E TUPI: "ALL ADMIT T H I S HUMAN F L E S H T O BE WON D E RFULLY G DO D A N D THAT OLD WO M E N IN PERSON. O F LANGUAGE DESIGNATE. R E LATIONS. BY T H E S E MEANS. PERHAPS A CAPITAL ONE. U N L I K E TH E S E X ACT. THE A PPETIZING C H ICK"). D'ABBEVILLE O U T OF GREAT H ATE. FOR I H A V E HEARD THEM SAY THAT A FT E R HAVING EATEN." E X P LA I N I NG PARTI C U LA R H A D A TASTE FOR IT. SEXUAL IS IN FRE­ THE NON-C A N N I BA LS . PRECISELY BECAU S E DOES T R A N S G R E S S T H E P R O H I BITION. GEANCE. G U I D I E R I TELLS U S THAT TH E Y A R E C A N N I B A LS.

REPRESENTED ITSELF BY WAYS OF EATING. AMONG TH E PEOPLE WHO COMPOSE THE WORLD O F BARBA R I A NS. A C A N N I BA L .E N DO. T H E C A N N I BA L I STIC M ETAPHOR SERVES HERE TO C I RC U M S C R I B E THE C E RTA I N D I O N YS I A N RITUALS I N ORDER TO PROVI D E DI RECT CONTACT W I T H THE S U PE R NATURAL. LEVI-STR A U S S G I V E S I N N U M E R A B L E E X A M PLES. IT F U R N I S H E S MOST FREQU E NTLY A D I SQ U I ETING I M AGE OF A N I NTOL E R A B L E EXCESS. P R OH I B I T I O N S TH E STORY OF A G I R L WHO. TH E REJ ECTION OF C A N N I BALISTIC AND PRACTICE NON-COM ESTI BLE. I N THE BODY OF SOC I ETY. THE D E S I R E TO A BSORB. WH ETH E R I N TEGRATED I M PR U D E N T U N I ON WITH T H I S S T R A N G E FOR E I G N E R WHO I S T H E SE D U CTI V E OGR E . WE I M MEDIATELY GIVE A RESPONSE THAT I S PERHAPS U N EXPECTED: THIS IS WHAT THEY TH I N K .C A N N I B A L I S M . A N D TH E Y A R E NOT TH E O N L Y O N E S TO A F F I R M T H I S: ACTUA L LY. I S TOO INSPIRED BY THE BODY O F A WE A R E B ROUGHT BACK TO F R E U D. MORE T H A N ORALITY.A R E O N LY TH E I R I NT E R C H A N G E A B L E OWN S I G N I FICATION. TH E VIEW IS NOT CONTRADICTED BY TH E MOVE M E NTS W H I C H I N G R E E C E ITSELF H A V E CONTESTED TH E SYSTEM OF VALUES WHICH E X P R ESSES IT BE THIS REJ ECTION : I NTO ENDOGAMY. IN WHICH THE STORY D E V E LO P S IN PLAYING ON ABOL I S H E S T H E D I ST I N CTION W H I C H . A FACT WHICH IS NOT S U R P R I S I NG. T H E C H I E F "EATS" M E N . FOR A N D T H O S E I N E L I G I B L E FOR M A R RI A G E B ECA U S E TOO D I STANT. JUST AS I N C E ST C O D E ( A N D N O T O N L Y TH E C A N N I BA L) A R E FOUND I N TH E A M ER I N D I A N MYTHOLOGY: T H E M YTH O LOGIES OF C. " SAVAGE. BUT-A N D U N DOUBTEDLY FOR THIS-TH I S I S NOT WHAT THEY DO . IT POI NTS WITHOUT OUT "SA· ECONO M I C OF THE SUBJ ECTS. OPPOSITION OF THE HUMAN AND THE I N H U M A N -B U T NOT THE I N VERSE-WHICH C A N B E C ON S I D E R E D A S COI NCI­ D I N G W I T H THAT WHICH AND DETE R M I N ES C O M E STI B LE THE POLI T I C A L RULER TO AND HIS THE USE OF T H E CAN N I BALI STIC M ETAPHOR.A U T OC A N N I B A L I S M . NOT ANOTH E R D E F I N ITION OF CULTURE. H A V I N G T A S T E D H E R O W N B LO O D . I N C EST. WHO A H ER O "TE M P E RS" A N D M A K E S M O R E C L E M E N T TOW A R DS M E N B Y POSS E S S I NG H E R WITH A PENI S M A D E OF I C E . THUS AMORPHOUS MAGMA. CANNIBALISM CAN. THE OTH E R ARTICULATING I T F R O M TH E I N S I DE. S I B L E A N D FORBI DDEN M A R R I AG E S . F O R T H O S E W H O A R E L I M I T E D TO I M A G I N I NG IT.A L I M E N T A R Y I NC EST-FEELS MATE A REAL THE A RD E N T AND D E S I R E T O CONS U ­ THIS F R U ST R A T E D ORGA N I Z E TH E SOC I A L F I E L D CONJOI NTLY. POLITI C A L AND RELIGIOUS C U R R E NT OF AN LANGU AGE. SI NCE FREUD WAS C E RTA I N LY NO C A N N I BAL! BUT I T IS TIME TO ASK IF THIS I S HOW THOSE WHO ARE THI N K A N D ACT. I N M Y T H S A N D TALES. A PPEARS AS AN S U B­ OF PRE-H U M A N . C A N N I B A L I S M I S T H U S A F I G U R E O F DISORDER. VAGES. S A Y T H E H A D J E R A I . NOT THE V A R I ETI ES. A N D "IT R E J ECTED W I T H O U T A M B I G U I TY" A C A N N I B A L I S M THAT IT S I T U AT E D AT THE CO N F I N E S OF ITS H I STORY. THE THAT I N C EST M ENACES I NTE R I O R OR TO OF BE SOC I ETY: EATEN BY EXOC A N N I BA L I S M -TO EAT STRA N G E R S -R E S U LTS O N E X A GG E R A T E D SOC I A L GROUP E X OG A M Y FROM THE T H E CONTRARY I N A N WHICH MENACES IT IS TH E THE EXTERIOR. DETI E N N E. ON T H E I D E A T H A T C A N N I B A L I S M I S A N U N REGULATED B E H A VIOR. TH E ONE DELI M ITING IT FROM THE OUTSI D E . B U T I T C A N A LSO S E R V E TO E X P R E S S OTH E R O P POSITIONS WHICH D E TE RM I N E P E R M I S­ REMAINS MEANS TO THOSE WHO CONTEST IT.A SEXUAL M ET A P H O R . O F W H I C H A N A L I M E N T A R Y C O M P A R I SON FOR M U LATES I N S U PPORTA B L E TENSION. OR I T BE DEMANDED BY T H E C Y N I C S "TO A FF I R M TH E FIELD OF ACC E PTABLE A L L I A N C E : BETW E E N THOSE I NELIGIBLE FOR M A R R I AG E BECAUSE TOO NEAR RIGHTS OF T H E I N DI V I D U A L IN THE FACE OF SOCI ETY AND AGAI N ST A EVERY FORM MAKE OF MAN C I V I LIZA T I O N .A U T O . I RR U PTION ALL THESE VIRTUALITIES OF THE A L I M ENTARY NATURE IN THE BODY OF C U LTURE: IT EFFACES THE FRONTI E R S W H I C H SEPA RATE THE H U MAN WORLD FROM THE I N HUMAN WORLD. C A LA M E G R I A U L E M A K E A F I G U R E O F U N SO C I A L I Z E D S E X U A L I TY O U T OF EATI NG. W H I C H IS M ETAPHORIZED. A S WELL AS FOR THOSE WHO CONFORM. CANNIBALISM. MAKE IT A NOTH ER THE TWO T H I NG THAN AN HOMOLOG I E S BETW E E N DIFFERENT CODES. G I V E A N E XC E S S I V E I M AGE EXCESS (IN THE ORDER OF ADMISSIBLE T E N D E R N E S S FOR EXA M PL E l . O R TO TH E L I M ITS OF ITS SPACE. A UG E E X PLA I N S I C K N ESS BY A N ANTH ROPO­ PHAGY EITH E R U N D E RGONE--CONS U M PTION O F TH E SICK ORG A N BY A SORCERER-QR I N VOLUNTA R I L Y PRACTICED A B SORPTION OF H U M A N F L E S H BY T H E BEWITC H E D PATI E NT. W R I T E S M . OR TH I S G E N E R A LIZED CAN N I BA L I S M . OF W H I C H D I V E R S E FO R M S . OPPOSITION RESTS. A S WELL A S O F I T S P E R I L S O R S A N C T I O N S : ENDOCAN­ N I BA L I S M -EATI NG EXC E S S I V E WHICH O N E 'S KI N-EXPRESSES IS TO SAY AN D I SORDER: T H E G R E E K C I TY.E X O . A S W E S E E . I N DI V I D U A L A N D B I O LOGICAL D I SORDER: T H E EBR I E AND T H E ALLADIAN STU D I E D 57 . SOM E STO R I E S A N ALYSED BY G. I T IS AGGRESSIVITY." BUT I N DICATION OF ANOTHER C U LTURE. I N A N A G E ANTERIOR T O H U M ANITY. RETICENT BROTH ER: OR THAT OF T H E S U N-WOMA N . DESI R E RETRANSFORM S ITSELF I NTO A L I M ENTARY A PPETITE. IN BY M. T H E V E R Y PROOF O F TH E ABSENCE OF C U LTURE. I T PLACES C U LTURE IN QUESTION.

TIONALIZED C A N N I B A L I S M A SAVAGE C A N N I BALISM. B A L I S M . THE C A N N I BA LS A R E ALWAYS THE OTH ERS. THE C O M ESTI B L E THE (OR IS N OT A LWAYS LIABLE TO THEY PEOPLE TH E I R MYTHS WITH CHA RACTE RS WHO EAT ANYONE AT A LL-TH E I R NEAR KIN. NEAR OR N E IG H BORS WHO BEHAVE D I F­ ONE SEES THAT REAL C A N N I BA L I S M OUGHT NOT TO EXC L U D E I M AG I N A R Y C A N N I B A L I S M . L I S M TO I N STITUTION A L I Z E D . W H I C H EXISTED BEFO R E THE SOC I ETY OF MEN . AND THE S U P E R N A T U R A L" FOR THE OTH ERS D O N O T TA K E MAY BE INTO ACCOUNT." PEOPLE WITHOUT GOOD MAN NERS: F E R ENTLY. S I N C E ONE C A N NOT BE CONTENT A R O M AT I C LIKE THE GODS. NOR OF MORE O R LESS E LABORATE J USTI FI CATIONS. BUT THEIR NEIGHBORS. I N SHORT. POS ITIVE O R N EGATIVE. THIS C A N N I BA L I S M . THE GUAIANI. T H E PROH I B ITION OF SAVAGE C A N N I BA L I S M DOES NOT EXC LUDE R E A L THE C A N N I BA L A N D TH E NON­ C A N N I BA L I S M . ONE IS A LWAYS SOM E O N E ELSE'S C A N N I BAL. R E A L C A N N I BA L I S M EXOCA N N I BA LS. I N C ESTUOUS C A N N I BA LS. NOTABLY THOSE OF M A R RIAGE AND OF DI ET. . (OF WHOM) CANNIBAL C U STOMS. OR THE MORIBUND MAY " D ET E R M I N E WHICH OF HIS KIN W I LL BE LITTLE BIT O F A C A N N I BAL. TH E FUTU RE VICTIM MAY H A V E H I S WORD TO SA Y. PRECISELY THE "SAVAGES. THE B A S I C M YTH OF THE CELEBRATED POLITICAL ASSOCIATION. THIS APPEARS I NCONTEST­ A B L E -E S P E C I A LLY TO US WHO G I V E C A N N I BA L I S M IN OTH E R WORDS. NATURE. C A N N I B A L JOI N I N CON D E M N I N G I N T H E S A M E WAY AND FOR T H E S A M E R E A SO N S AN U N R ESTRA I N E D C A N N I BA LI S M . IT IS C O N S U M PT I O N . OF WHOM U . I F. DO NOT EAT T H E I R DEAD. CHODOW I E D SPEAKS. T H E F A C T I S T H A T T H E Y E A T M E N A N D THAT THE LATT E R 00 NOT. "OPPOSE TO THEIR I NSTITU­ ITSELF. . C O M P L E T E L Y U N ATTESTED AND E V E R YW H E R E D R E A DE D . IN HIS A L I M ENTA R Y U NORDERED: T H E FOR . AND THE ENDOC A N N I BALS WHO DO DO NOT EAT FOR E I G N E RS. WHAT DO THEY SEEM TO TH E M ­ N O LACK OF R U LES. A S M . STRICT PYTHAGO R I A N S . WHO KILL TH E I R E N E M I ES A N D EAT TH E M . T H A T I S T O T H E PROPER M A N N E R OF E A T I N G M E N . G R E E KS .A R E NOT. BUT IT MAY P R ACTI C E G E N E R A L. T H E Y A R E TRUE: C A N N IBALS. ONE O N LY MODALITY R I S K S B E I N G I N E V I T A B LY A A LEATORY O R REGULATED." AS FOR TH E I ROQUOI S. TH E FATA LEKA. DETI E N N E SHOWS. A U THOR IZED TO TASTE HIS FLESH. O R . ANOTH E R PARALLELISM EXTENDS D I R EC T I O N : P R I M ITIVE SAVAGE C A N N I BA L I S M PA I R E D WITH "PRO M I SC U ITY. PROH I B ITIONS PARALLELISM S I M PLY WITH WITH SEXUAL MATRIMONIAL) U N D E RSTOOD-A N D P E R H A PS EVEN THEM SELVES. A N D T H E S E OTH E R S ARE C A N N I B A L I S M . I F O N E P R E F E R S . IS NEVER A G E N E R A L A N D S I L L Y D E F I N ITION. THIS HAS N OT H I N G TO DO WITH A GENERALIZED THOSE W H O S E E M T O US T O BE C A N N I ­ B A L S 1 A C U R I O U S PROBLE M . AND I N T H I S S E N S E O N E C A N S A Y THAT THEY RESPECT THE SAME PROH I BI T I O N : ON E C A N NOT EAT EVERYTH I NG." THE M ETHODS O F COOKI N G AND OF P R E P A R ATION VARY AS WELL FROM ONE GROUP TO A NOTH ER. TELLS HOW MAN RIAGEABLE.M E N . . EACH R E PR E S ENTS I N THE S A M E W A Y TH I S I N A D M ISSABLE ANTH ROPOPHAGY. THAT PASSED SAVAGE MONSTROUS C A N N I BA­ E M PLOYS C A N N I BA L I STIC M ETAPHORS. IS PU RELY I M A­ G I N A RY. G I V :. IN THE WITH EYES SMOKE OF AND ODORS. C A R N A L A L I M E NTATION I S A FORM O F A NTH ROPOPHAGY. . F I N A LLY. A R E SYSTEMATI­ CA LLY OPPOS ED TO RITUAL PRACTICES. . A N D EQUALLY I M A G I N A RY. ANY "KISSABLE" A P E R SO N IS NOT A L WA Y S THAT M A R­ IN IS E X A M PLE-AND I T I S N ECESSARY TO DESTROY TH E M OR TO B R I N G TH E M T O R E A SON." A AND IF TH E OF R E SERVED FOR C E RTA I N CATEGO R I ES OF I N D I VID­ U A LS. "TH E FIVE NATIONS: FROM THE A I ROQUOI S. EXAM PLE. WHILE THE BE R EG I M E -"A PLAN OF P R I V I LEGED S I G N I FICATION TO D E FI N E TH E SYSTEM OF R E LATIONS BETWEEN M A N . . AND PREPA R E D IN ANY WAY AT ALL-RAW. THE CON S U M M ATION. I N BRIEF T H E R E I S SB . .F I R S T OF SELVES. FOR BECOMES E V I D E NT: O N E C A N NOT M A R R Y A N YO N E . T H E G U Y A K I H A V E NO N E E D OF M YTHS TO CONDEMN CANNIBALISM: THEY EAT TH E I R OWN O N E WILL SAY THAT THERE R E M A I N S ' A N I R R EDU­ C I B L E DIFFERENCE BETWEEN T H E C A N N I BALS AND T H E OTH ERS: J U ST A S S E V E R E A S T H E FI RST C A N BE IN T H E I R CON D E M N ATION OF S A V A G E C A N N I ­ DEAD A N D IT I S WELL. M A Y BE COMPLETE OR NOT. .: AN EXAMPLE T O B E AVO! DED. A L L. C A N N I ­ BALISM. WHO ARE R U LES. A PA R A LL E L I S M .M A N M UST PLACE H I M S E L F SOM EWH E R E " B E TW E E N B EASTS AND IS GODS. SINCE IT I S I N O P PO S I N G ITSELF THAT THE L A TT E R DEFI N E S MYTHICAL POPULATIONS-DI STANT IGNORANT OF ANY IN T I M E AND SPACE. GUIDIERI TELLS US. E V E RYTH I NG DEPENDS ON THE POI N T OF V I EW." O N E AND T H E OTH E R EQUALLY R EJ ECTED . AS WITH THE FORE WHO CUT U P THE DEAD I N EATING TH E M . I S ATT R I B UTED TO AN ANCIENT PEOPLE OF THE I NTERIOR . THE VICT I M 'S SEX I S I M PORTANT TO C E RTA I N OF TH E M WHO ONLY EAT MALE I N D I VI D U A L S AND EXCLUDE TH I S WOM E N . AND THOSE THAT ACC EPT A CO M P R O M I S E " D EC I D I NG T H A T C E R TA I N SAC R I F I ­ CIAL VICTI MS-PIGS A N D GOATS . BUT THIS I S NOT SO S U R E . A N D AT FI RST G L A N C E INCOMPR E H E N S I B L E : THEY TAKE O F F E N S E AT BEING TREATED AS EATERS-OF. SOC I A LIZED. THE D I STRI BUTION OF PARTS MAY BE ANTH ROPOPHAGY A L L E LO P H A G Y . STRONGLY R E P ROVED. . W H I C H .

ALLI E S O R NOT. A FLESH ESTI MATED TOO C LO S E TO THAT OF MAN.PROPERLY A C T U A LLY S P E A K I NG . N OT WHO OF IS DEFINE BY A LL I A N C E OFTEN THI S PHANTASM. BUT O N E EATS STRA NGERS. I T IS U N D E R STOOD THAT THESE NOTI O N S ARE RELATIVE. COPULATE: AND MOTHE R S DO NOT EAT T H E I R SONS AND DAUGHTE RS. THUS. THE C A NNOT SLAUGHTER O F W H O M I S T H E OBJECT O F A FOR M A L PROH I BITION. J UST A S I NCEST A N D C O R R E L A T I V E LY THE A UT H O R I Z E D ALLIANCE A DOPTED. AS ARE O R D E R E D SI M U LT A N EOUSLY ACCOR D I N G TO M A N Y A X E S . OF AND THAT M EAT HAVE TIES OF K I N S H I P. I L L U STRATED BY WHICH C O U L D B E A G E N E R A L T H EORY OF C A N N I ­ BALISTIC STR U C T U R E S . R IGHT IN WHO. I F THE FLESH OF T H E F A R M COW M UST NOT BE C ON S U M E D . AND S I STER DO NOT EAT THE TWO EACH OTH E R . T H E Y A L MOST I N EVITABLY !lEI . THE BROTH E R OR THE S I STER OF THE DEAD PERSON. PROH I B I T I O N S C O N S E Q U E NTLY. BOTH PRACTI C I NG C A N N I BA L I S M WITH TH E I R PRISONERS ARE WITH WHICH. E V E R Y C A R N I VO R E I S A C A N N I BAL. FOR TH E TUPI. THE SON AND TH E GREEKS. C A LLED "BROTH ERS-IN-LAW. T H I S I S I N EVITABLE FOR THE G U Y A K I . AT LEAST POTEN T I A LLY. ATE T H E M OR O N E ADOPTED THEM. OF EXOCA N N I B A LS. ONE C A N SAY THAT NO O N E IS A C A N N I B A L. A N D T H O S E THAT WERE EATEN WERE THUS THOSE W ITH WHOM O N E BIOLOGICAL D E F I NI T I O N OF C A N N I BA L I S M : TO EAT MEN. T H E PROH I B I TION A N D PRESC R I PTION O F C A N N I BA L I S M DEFI N E S ITSELF FOR M A LLY BY THE SOC I A L POSI TION O F HIM WHO M U ST BE EATEN. I ROQUO I S D I D NOT EAT I ROQUOIS. SINCE R EAL. O N E F I N A LLY. I N THIS R E V I EW. T H I S IS NOT BECAUSE THE LATTER A R E MORE D E LECTABLE. I N T H E T H I R D CASE. P R I SO N E R S T H A T T H E Y B R O U G H T THE I R EXPEDITIONS W E R E THE OBJECT O F A CHOICE. NON E ATE EACH OTH E R : THOSE THAT T H EY ATE THEY I MA G I N E D B Y A L L A S SUPPOSED ELSEWHERE. I N TASTE FOR EXAM PLE. A L L I A N C E. C A N N I B A L I S M I S A W A Y OF TH I N K I N G M O R E THAN A WAY OF E A T I N G . FOR A SOCIOLOG I C A L R E A S O N . DO THEY NOT FOR M A EFFECT I V E WEAK N ESS. OR TO R ECONS I D E R THE E X A M P L E OF THE D I D N O T W I S H TO FORGE A L I N K OF K I N S H I P." M ETA PHORI Z I N G THE NON-C A N N I BALS I NVERSELY. IT W A S A POSSI B I LITY EXPRESSED E N E MY BY THE LANGUAGE. E V E N THOSE OF ANOTH E R NATION: TH E I R V I CTI M S WERE FO R E I G N E RS. IS THE M E AT. THE TUPI. I T IS B EC A U S E OF T H E QUASI­ SOCI A L STATUS OF T H E A N I M A L S I M I LA R LY. THE V A R I ANTS M UST BE THE OTH E R TWO POPULATIONS. T H E Y EAT T H O S E FATH ERS WITH WHICH THEY C A NNOT FLESH FARM COWS. CA N N I B ALS N EG A T I O N PHANTASM AND ONE ENCOUNTERS T H E MSELVES ONLY THE THI S IN A SPEAK " E L E M E NT A R Y EVEN KINSHIP WHEN AND S T R U CT U R E THEY ARE CANNIBALISM. BUT CONSIDERED I N TH E L I G H T OF TH E I R COM M U N A L H I STORY. THE E R RO R N O T T O B E COMMITTED I S THAT OF CONTENTI N G ONESELF WITH A M A T E R I A L. OTH E R S . SO M E EXAMPLES WHICH GIVE AN I DEA-A FOR E T A ST E -O F THAT T H A T OF E N DOCA N N I B A L I S M . WITH THAT OF M A N . T H E R E AGA I N THE M ETAPHORICAL AND REVERSIBLE L I A I SO N OF CA N N I BA L I S M AND FORM A LLY DEFI N E S ITSELF B Y T H E G E N E A LOG I C A L POSITION OF TH E P A R T N E R . K I N OR NOT. FURNISH A LANGUAGE FOR C A N N I B A L I S M : WITH I N A GROUP. A N D T H E PERTI NENT OPPOSITION I S T H U S ONE W I L L FIND. CAN ONE EFFECTIVE A A L I MENTARY J U OG E D SAY C A N N I BA L B Y T H E AS W E LL T H A T COULD J UST EVERYONE I S O N E . HOWEVE R FROM THE ACCOR D I N G R EG I M E. WHICH THE WOM E N HAD OF GROUPS FROM ONE TA K E N P R I SO N E R S FOR T H E P U R POSE O F EATI NG THEM COULD BE M A R R I ED. I L LUSTRATED B Y THE GUYAKI. COM B I N E A N D H A V E THE S A M E B R E A DTH." D E T E R M I N ATES. FOR THE I ROQUOIS. A N D AS ROUSSE A U ALSO THOUGHT (SEE EMILEI. ONE E A T S R E A L OR POTENTI A L A LLIES. AND EXOC A N N I BA LI S M . TWO G RO U PS THAT WAGE W A R P E R IODICALLY. TH E AS FOR I NCEST AND THE SEXUALITY I S EASI LY U N D ERSTOOD. S I N C E THE O N LY PEOPLE EXCLUDED FROM TH E RITUAL WERE THE FATH E R AND M OT H E R . AT THE S A M E T I M E." T H I S R ESTRICTION I S EXPLA I N E D B Y TH E CLOS E N E S S O F C O W A N D M A N : F U N D A M E NTAL­ LY M EAT IS MORE OR LESS M A N . ONE COULD OF C A N NIBALISM THUS DOES NOT E X I ST. IF ONE FORBIDS ONESELF T H E E A TI NG OF ONE'S KIN. TO BE BUT. S I N C E T H E NOMENCLATURE OF K I N S H I P S U F F I C E S T O I N DICATE WHO CAN OF AND AN C A NNOT BE EATEN. T H A T OF K I N S H I P . IT IS BEC A U S E DA UGHTER . WHAT IS DETE R M I N I NG FOR TH E I ROQUOIS AND THE TUPI IS TO LESS A KINSHI P THAN THE F I ELD EXPLAI N S T H E M U LT I P L I C I TY O F SYSTEMS. HIS LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. ENTERED M ATRI M ON I A L F I E LD: THOSE ADOPTED COU L D H A V E B E E N EATEN J UST A S THOSE E A T E N C O U L D H A V E B E E N ADOPTED. TH I S IS NOT B EC A U S E OF ANY EFFECTIVE R E S E M BLANCE. N A T U R A LLY: T H E G U Y A K I EAT THE B E LO N G DEAD AND IN THE GROUP TO WHICH BECAUSE TH E Y ITS THOSE OF EXOGAM Y A N D EN DOGAM Y. TH E GROUP THAT O N E TOOK P R I SO N E R WAS A L SO THAT FROM WHICH ONE BROUGHT IN BACK FULL P EO P L E . EXCEPT IN THE I M A G I N AT I O N . V A R I A B I LITY O F THE PROHIBITED IN FACT. A P P A R TE N A N C E POLITI C A LLY DEFINED GROUP. AND RECI PROCA LLY: BROTHER H ERE. THE THE FORM E R I S NOT D O N E .

FOR H ON O R A B L E C A N N I BA L I S M . MEN AND A N I M A LS . T H I S D O E S NOT M E A N THAT THE I ROQUOIS M A D E WAR S I M PLY TO K I L L AND EAT: THEY FOUGHT TO TA K E PRISONERS. O N L Y T H E BONE S B E I N G THROWN AWAY.S I N G LE. LET TH E F L E S H OF T H E C A D A V E R D E C A Y . O N C E THE M I S U N D E R S TA N D I NG S AND A R E DISSI PATED. HAD BEEN THEM. THEY WERE LON G E R A N YON E I N PARTI C U L A R . AT T H E S A M E T I M E . THE E N DOC A N N I BA LS. O N E WOU L D H A V E L I K E D . O P PO S I T I O N BETW E E N F L E S H A N D BONES. T H E SECON D. PO R A R I L Y . OR FROM THE H A N D OF THOSE WHO H E I S GOI NG TO NOURISH. A N D THAT THOSE WHO L I V I NG B E I NG THAT ONE EATS RAW. THE DEMOG R A PH­ IC AND THUS POLI T I C A L I M PO R T A N C E O F TH E FROM THE SYSTE­ F I N ALLY. W A S A LSO A R E C U P E RATIO N . THEY O R D E R E D WOR L D: P A R E NTS. AND E V I DENTLY. T H E FI RST I S TH E SOLITA R Y EATING OF A JEAN POUI LLON 60 . THOSE W H O PRACTICE IT OPPOSE A C A N NI B A L I S M T H A T I S DISHONORABLE. WITH R E G A R D TO T H I S . THE CANNIBAL STI LL. I S N O T T H E S A M E E N E M I ES. THAT T H E THE EXAMPLE OF R. I ROQUOIS OF PURE STR A I N WERE QUITE RARE. O R T H E PEOPLE WITH WHOM ONE LIVES-TH I S IS "SAVAGE" C A N N I BA L I S M -BUT I T I S F I R ST N ECESSARY T O K I L L ( E N E M I E S. W R I T E S H . N E V E R FAILS TO R E M I N D H I S TORTU R E R S OF HOW M A N Y OF T H E M H E HAD EATEN I N T H E PAST.l LS WHO WERE EATEN. " (M. I N FACT. BE DEAD AND L I V I NG." THAT I N V E R S E LY. ON THE WHOLE IT RESI D U . B A L I S M T O SOC I A LIZED C A N N I BA L I S M I NC I T E D T H E I N VENTION OF C U L I N A RY P R E PA RATION A N D TABLE M A N N ERS. PRACTICED. AS AT THE M O M E NT OF THEIR THEY TEM­ NO CANNIBALISM GROUP MAKES OF C A N NOT I SOLATED F R O M R E P R E S E NT A T I O N S T H A T SOC I ET Y ITSELF AND FOR OTH E R S . SO M UC H SO THAT. C A N N I BA LS N O N -C A N N I B A LS D EM N I NG I T IN T H E N A M E OF T H E S A M E P R I N C I PA LS OR ORDER AND OF THE PRECISE D E L I M ITATION TH E PASSAGE FROM SAVAGE AND MYTHIC C A N N I ­ BETW E E N N A T U R E A ND C U LTURE. TH E CONCEP­ TION O F T H E WORLD A N D MAN. BUT A FT E R SO LONG A DELAY THAT O N E COU LD NO LONGER CONSIDER EX ECUTION. IF FOR I NT E G R A T E D . A N D W I T H O U T A DO U BT T H E SYSTEM OF C A T E GO R I E S E L A BO R A T E D BY CLAUDE LEVI­ I ROQ U O I S EXPLAIN STR A U S S WOULD B E A P P LICABLE H E R E TOO. S I M PLY C A PTURED ENEMY. ON T H E POI N T OF BEING EATEN. EVIDE NTLY. AFTER THE THEIR EXPEDITIONS. IT IS NOT A L L O V E R . CA N N I B A L PEOPLES H A V E B E E N D I SCUSSED. E N OOCA N N I B A L GROUP7 THE TUPI SEEM TO BE CONSCIOUS OF TH I S : T H E V A LOROUS WARRIOR. I N A NTICI PATION. B U T O N E SAYS NOTHI N G A BO U T T H E E V E N T U A L D I V I SION BETW E E N COM M E N SA LS. CON S E Q U E NTL Yl A N D T H A T O N E C A N E A T THOSE T H A T O N E HAS K I L LED-TH I S IS POLIC E D I ROQ U O I S I N F LICTED ATROC IOUS TREAT M E N T O N TH E I R P R I SONERS. S I NC E ONE ON LY K I L LS ONE'S C A R N I VO R E . T H E N C L E A N A N D P U L V E R I S E T H E BON E S W H I C H T H E Y E A T M I XE D W I T H A B A N A N A P U R E E . OF THE FATA L E K A . SOME. DO NOT EAT THOSE THEY H A V E K I LLED: TH E Y TUPI EAT TH E I R AND "DEAR DEPA RTED. I N TO THE E F F E CT I V E LY. POI NT IS OF A N ALYSIS GUIDIERI I ROQUOIS MATIC WAS FEDE RATION CAME PARTICULARLY REVEALING FROM THIS VIEW. IN A PEOPLE AND USAGE OF TH I S M ETHOD. SHOULD B E T A K E N I NT O CONSIDERATION. " MOREOVER. CA N N I BA L I S M . IN BE EVERY CASE. IS A L M OS T IN THE A LW A Y S A IT I S A L S O NECESSARY T O TAKE I NTO ACCO U N T THE M A N N E R I N WHICH T H E O N E WHO I S EATEN DIED: FROM A NATU RAL O R A VIOLENT DEATH. P E R H A PS ONE M U ST S E E I N T H E S E TORTU R E S A SORT O F C U I S I N E . THE THAT IS WHY. C LASTRES. ON THE N EC E SSARY T O EAT T H E L I V I NG. I NC I T E D THEM WHICH TO T H E TUPI THEIR C A D A V E R O F W H I C H C E RTA I N ORGANS C O U L D B E RESERVED GORIES OF OR FOR B I D D E N TO C E RTA I N CATE­ EXPLICITLY EAT PERSONS. AS FOFl T H E TUPI. T H E CON S U M PTION G E N E R­ E N E M I ES. AND EVEN. T H E C U I S I N E. ''TH EM T O H A V E B E E N MUCH B E TT E R DETE R M I N E D . O N T H E CONTRARY. VENGEANCE. O N E COU L D SAY. PROPER LY S P E A K I NG. GODS. JOI N IN CON­ M U R DERER WAS T H E ONLY O N E NOT TO PA RTICI ­ PATE I N T H E D I N N E R . A L L I E D A N D FOR E I G N . PRIZE T H E LATT E R . DO NOT KILL TO EAT. I S REGULATED CON S U M PTION --<lFT E N T A K I N G PLACE IN A VERY E L A BO R A T E R I T U A L-OF A C OO K E D WERE PREPARI NG TO DINE AT HIS EXPENSE WERE GOI N G TO REC UPERATE TH E I R C A N N I B A LIZED DEAD BY I NGESTING SAID HIM. I T WOU L D THUS BE SI M PLISTIC TO SAY THAT O N E K I LLS TO EAT. A L L Y IS TOTAL. T H E TORTU RES ENDURED B Y T H E VICTI M S B E FO R E TH E I R E X ECUTION SHOULD N O T B E N EG LECTED: WAY BACK. THOSE THE THINGS M U ST PLACED C O R R ECTLY THAT WERE N'T WANTED. DETA I N N El. "TH E KI L L E D AND ATE A L L THEIR P R I SONERS. M AKES. T H E Y A N O M A M I . I T I S A C U LT U R A L PHENOM ENON. AND THEY TOOK PRISONERS WITH TH E P U R POSE OF A DOPTI NG A GOOD N U M B E R . G RO U P . RELIGION.

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . TO GIVE HER TO THE D E V I LS . . . . . . . . M Y O L D E R BROTH E R N'GBA D J U I . . . . . 9 PERSONS A S S OC I A T E D. . . . . . (2) OFFICE OF T H E S E C RETA R Y O F PRO P H ET ATCHO A LB E RTS A S SOC I AT I O N B R EGBO P. . . LOGA I D J U I . . . . . . . (2) Y ESSI MOBIO BOTTY: K I LLED TWO O F A M I A N . . .B I E BY FORCE. . . A N D M Y SON AKE G U I A N I . I . . . . . . . . . I FOU N D TWO AHlMAN LOBA: KILLED A TO B I O. . . . . . . . . THESE TWO P R I ESTS T U R N ED ME. . .M O B I O WHO WAS P R I E STS IN DJOKE-BRI'S Y A R D. . . . .B I E . . W A S T E M PT E D BY T H E I O P E N LY DEC L A R E THAT I A M A D E V I L. . . ME AWAY WITHOUT SAYING A N YTHI N G TO PREGNA NT. (2) MOMO N ' B EGZA I : KILLED A N NO H AND A NOTH E R FROM THAT M O M ENT.M I N'S AUGUST 22. . " . . . . . . . . . . . . AGREEM E NT. . . I H A V E STA Y E D WITH THEM I N ORDER TO DO BY WAY OF MY D I A BOLICAL ACTIVITY I K I LLED M Y EVERYT H I N G A N D EAT W I TH THEM. . . 5 P E R S O N S K I LL E D. . . . . . . . . ( 2 ) T H E D I O U LA S K I L L E D 6 PERSONS WHOSE N A M E S I DO NOT K NOW . . . . . . . SHORTLY THEREA FT E R I G A V E U P T H I S PLANTATION. . . . . . M Y BROT H E R J E A N N A N TC H IO. . . . . . . . . . . O W N MOTH E R. . (2) D I A BOLI C A L CONFESSION THAT I S . . . . . . 2 5. . . . 1 8 PERSONS WHICH M EA N S A LTOGETHER . NAME: LOGA I D J U I SEX: FEMALE V I LLAGE: ABIGJAN-ADJ A M E RACE: E B R I E RELIGION: HARRIS SUMMARY: THEREFORE I K I L L E D . . 1 954 C H I L D R E N : BEUGRE. . . . . . . . . . MY I LL N E S S HAS G ROWN WHOSE N A M E I DO NOT K NOW . . . . . . . . . I THAT I S . . . . . . . . . . . ." IT I S EXCLUSIVELY A D I A BOLICAL DAMAGES AND M I SD E E D S I D R I N K H U M A N B L OO D A N D I EAT H U M A N F L E S H . . . . . . . . . . . M Y S I S T E R A K R A I WHO HAD JUST GIVEN B I RTH. . . . . . . . . . NANGUY TOH I 4 . . . . . . . . . . . . THERE ARE 1 0 OF US DEVILS A SSOC I A T E D IN ORDER TO EAT: 7 E B R I E S A N D 3 D I O U LAS. . ENDED DEVILS AND I UP EATING T H E I R M EAT. . . . THAT IS WHY SHE C A N NOT HAVE 6. . B E UGRE-BRI I CONVERTED MYSELF I NTO A M A N TO SLEEP W I T H D J A KO. B I N G E R V I LLE R E P U B L I C OF T H E IVORY COAST BUEGRE-B R I : KILLED A G O U A TC H A GOUA AND A KOUATC H A YOUA . . . . . ALOKE D J E B A . . EACH OF U S MUST GIVE TWO PERSONS ACCOR D I NG TO OUR T H A T I S . A N D T H E N M Y C H I LD D J A N N E . . 5 PERSONS MY ASSOCIATES K I L L E D . H E R E A R E MY ASSOCI ATES' N A M ES: MY C H I L D D J A N N E A N D DJOMAN-BIE WERE G I V E N U P TO T H E D E V I L S B Y M E . . . . KOFFI A K PA 7. . . . . TH R E E D I O U LAS WITHOUT N A M E S 5 . . . . YESSI MOBIO CH I LD R E N A N Y M O R I!:. (2) KOFFI KPA: KILLED N ' M LOUYA AND A N EW-BO R N C H I LD W I T H O U T N A M E . . MOMO GBEKRAI 3. . . . . . . . T H E OTH E R'S NAME I 00 NOT KNOW . . . . . . . . . . . . . A H l M A N LOBA 2. . . 1 . . . . . . . . . . . .O. . FROM THAT VERY DAY. . . . . . . . SOLD DJOKE-BRI'S PLANTATIO N . . . . . . I CHOSE DJOM AN-BIE T O B E K I LLED FI RST. . . . . THE PERSONS K I LL E D BY MY ASSOCI ATES: ONCE I WANTED TO GO AND TAKE D J OM A N .APPE N D I X N A NGUY TOH I : K I LLED AGOUSSI-BRI A N D H E R C H I L D YUEMIN . . 2 3 PERSONS K I LLED 1 B PERSONS K I LLED BY MY ASSOC I ATES "LET THE A U D I E N C E K N O W T H A T THI S PASSAGE I S NOT COMMON: CASE. . (2) STRONGER. . . . 61 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

B E N EATH T H E ZEPHYR BLOWING C R U EL.I GAVE SOME D I S E A S E S TO A L MOST E V E RYBODY I N TH I S COU RT. Y E ZOU DJAKO. MY D E V I L D I S L I K E S ONLY THIS GI RL. I A S K E V E RYBODY I N M Y V I LLAGE. U PO N THE PEBBLES OF A U B U R N M A R L. I TR I E D T O GO A S A DEVIL TO HARM MY EATING AND DOI NG WHAT WE WANT. AND I T TA K E S I T FOR ITS D A N K EST D R I PSTONE. T H E BLOWN FLUTE IN T H E A I R : LITTLE DROPS LIKE T E A R S OF MILK HAVE W E PT. S A KE. I D E C I D E D TO MAKE A D E V I L OF MYSELF TH E M IN SO THAT I ORDER WOULD B E R E P R I M A N DED BY IN TH I S (SIGN E D ) : LOGA I D J U I TRAN SLATED B Y P . AND E LS E W H E R E TOO. ELSEWH E R E I A M A LWAYS W E LL. TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE 62 . E V E R YTH I N G T H A T N O W H A P P E N S THROUGH T H E TH E H A R R I S A POSTLES U PSET M E . ZOBERMAN TO F I N D A WAY TO DIE RELIGION. H U M BLY H I DD E N A M I DST THE MOSS. O B E Y I NG T H E SLOPE A N D H E E D I NG ITS C A LL. I BESEECH YOU. A N D M Y BROTH E R DJO M A N . WHEREAS I AM REALLY A D E V I L AND I SEE E V ERYTH I NG THAT THE D E V I L S O F M Y V I LLAGE DO. WOULD BR E GBO S U F F E R I NG F R O M THE S A M E I LLNESSES. BUT G O D D I D N O T G I V E ME A W A Y . STILL DAMP FROM LOVE THAT TRICKLES SOFT A LONG WHITE T H I G H S RIGHT TO ITS LIP. SO THAT I CAN FORGET A H O B R I AT A L L A N D I A LWAYS TAKE H E R BLOOD. P A U L V E R LA I N E A N D A R TH U R R I M B A U D OFTEN M Y MOUTH I S P R ESSED AGA I NST I T S HOLE. A R TH U R R I M BA U D I T S THE C E LESTI A L T U B E DO W N W H I C H A L L FONDANTS F R E E L Y FLOW. P R A Y FOR MY ON THE OTH E R HAND I DO N OT L I K E A H I BA K E S A K E SO THAT I FORGOT TO PRAY FOR SAY MY F I N A LLY RECOVER A N D-WHAT I TOO-A SK GOD TO FORG I V E M E . INVENIT N EST O F T H R O B B I N G S I G H S. FECIT I T S T H E O P E N O L I V E I N ECSTA SY. R E C OV E R . M Y V I LLAGE TO TAKE ATC H O A LB E RT'S WATER OF BLESSING. TH E SO N N ET O F THE HOLE IN THE ASS PAUL VERLAINE OFTE N MY S O U L W I L L Y E A R N FOR A FUCK WITH FLESH. AT A COME TI M E I TO WANTED PEOPLE IN M R. PRESENCE NEVER B E FO R E BR E GBO RETURN I DO NOT WANT TO S E E TH E M ANY LONG E R . M R. I AM V E R Y U PS E T. THEY DECLARED THAT WE WHO HAD NOT C O N F E S S E D GOI NG AND TO IN TH E I R WOU L D FROM D E V I LS. NOW I A M NOT PLEASED WITH TH I S WATER B EC A U S E I T TA K E S AWAY FROM U S THE W A Y OF ONCE. ATC H O A L B E RT. I D I D S O BEC A U S E ONCE H E C H A S E D A FTER A WOM A N . ITS D A R K A N D P U C K E R E D L I K E A VIOLET ROSE IT PULSES. F E M A L E C A N A A N F I R M L Y MOIST A N D F I L L E D WITH PROM I S E D E E P. H U S BAND. EXC E PT D I E K E A N D R E . OF WHICH I A M NOT PLEASED. T H I S I S WHY I A M A LWA YS ILL WHEN I STAY AT HIS HOUSE.

TH ESE SU BSTA NCES. IT I S V E R Y PEC U L I A R TO THE SUPE RIOR TO R E A L I ZE TH E S L A V E WORS H I PS H I S OR H E R WASTE MORE THAN A N Y G OO D Q U A LITY. A R E R E V E R E D A N D SOUGHT A FTE R B Y THE M ASOC H I ST AS THE SOURCE OF H I S TRUE TH E SLAVE D E I F I E S THESE SUBSTA N C E S. HIS PRIDE DRIVES HIM O N TO MORE LOW L I N E SS LOG I C ALL ELA BORATE AND I N D E N T I F I C A T I O N S W I TH HIS THUS DOES THE M A SOC H I S T SEEK OUT HIS S E LF . UTTE R LY ATTA I N S B E CO M E S D I S G U ST I N G ." A N D SUCH LIKE. AS WELL. HE SUBSTA N C E O N E A RTH. B U T FECES A N D U R I N E ARE TH E RAW IN MATE R I A L THIS FOR A LL THAT EXI STS NO AND LESSNESS AND PERSONI FI E D. H I S CONTACT W I T H T H E M C O N F I R M S H I S 63 . U N EQ U I VOCALLY REGA R D E D AS HORRID. GIVING TH E M SUCH NAMES AS "GOLDEN E L I X I R." "SHOWER OF SWEETN ESS.COPROPHAGY A N D U R I N OLOGY I WISH TO I NTRODUCE THI S MOST EXTR E M E TR U E LOW N ESS OF BEI NG. A N D SO POSESS. U N LE S S SHE REGARDS PRODUCTS WITH T H E SA M E GLAMORIZED E Y E S A S T H E MASOC H I ST. A N D R A R E PERFUME. T H E N A W O R M . SLAVES. IN T H I S POOR WAY.E F F A C E M E N T . DOES T H E SLAVE I NGEST. T H E SA M E P R I N C I PLE I S AT W O R K H E R E -TH E S U B M I S­ S I V E SOUL THAT C L I NGS TO E V E R YTH I NG. A PET. MOVES O N T O ACTI N G L I K E F U R N I T U R E A N D BEING INVISI BLE. T H U S DOES TH E I R W A STE BECOME THE LOW L Y ' S O N E N O U R I S H M E NT : TH E I R F I LT H C L E A N S E S THE S L A V E : T H E I R FOU L N E S S S E E M S A AFTER A SLAVE H A S FANTASIZED H I M S E L F AS A N A N I M A L. EVEN THE LEAVI NGS OF HIS B E LOVED S U PERIOR. H E M A Y D E VOUR IDENTITY. HE A N D WORTH­ THIS END. PLASTIC AND PRECIOUS SACRA M E N T H O M E WITH H I M. THE SUPERIOR CAN HE TA K E OR NO PRIDE IN SUCH TH E I R FETI S H I S M B Y R E M I N D I NG T H E S U P E R I O R O F THE OCCA SION TH E I R WHEN SHE OR HE UP M A Y H A V E NOTIC E D THEY HAVE SLAVE PICKING CRUMBS DROPPED ON T H E FLOOR A N D EATI NG T H E M . MAKE SLAVE HIM I NVERTED VI LENESS THROUGH H I S CONCENTRATION O N WHAT IS COM M O N L Y REGA RDED AS THE MOST VILE SEEKS TO OTH ERS. SUB-H U M A N . WHEN G R O WS W O R L D-TH E Y THEY A RE ARE MORE PROFESSES HIS A M BITION AND ATTRACTION TO BE AS ONE W I TH THE FECES AND URINE OF THE WO N D E R F U L SLAVE THAN D I S G U ST I N G -T H E A TO COCOON CARRY OF HIS D E VO U T L Y SACKS PREPARES BOXES SUPERIOR. A S U B M I SS I V E B E YO N D A MONG SLAVES. H I S B E LOVED SUPERIOR.

I DON'T L I K E TO SIT DOWN ON C H A I N E D T O THE TOILET A N D L I E S ON THE FLDOR. M I STRESS IS PERC H E D U PON THE SINK. M I STRESS. LIFE. OH PLEASE. NOT E A T I T ! (TA K E S A LONG TI M E WAS H I N G M : YOU ARE A TOILET-YOU LOVE TO BE A TOILET." TH E R E IS A SENSUOUS A P P E A L IN TH E COU RSING OF THE A HOT LIQU I D OVE R THE BODY-AS WELL. I OWN YOU. SHAME­ YOU R DON'T C A TC H SUCH BECAUSE ( I ) U R I N E I S STER I L E A N D ( 2 ) THE FLOW M A K E S IT S E E M FRESH AND LIVE. M I STRESS.TH E M OR M E R E LY HOLD T H E M IN HIS MOUTH FOR A SPAS MODIC I N STANT B E FORE SPITTING THEM OUT. MY M I STRESS. I KNOW YOU WILL. M: G R EEDY LITTLE PIG! I TOLD YOU TO LICK M Y SHOE. BUT THE SUPERIOR MAY C ERTAI N LY B E AT A LOS S . LET M E K I SS YOUR B E AUTI F U L ASS. B UT YOU H A V E T O L E A R N T O MOVE U P I N THE WORLD. M Y PRODUCTS ARE TOO FOOD I EAT I S VERY TH E EXPEN S I V E . I'M J U ST A TOILET. MOVING OBJECTS. FLDOR! (HOLDS H I S H E A D DOWN WITH H E R FDOT. SLAVE IS NOT SO F I LT H -O B S E S S E D OF MY SHOE. I OUGHT TO HAVE A LITTLE PORC E L A I N BOWL FITTED OVER YOUR R EVOLT­ TA K E S PLACE IN THE B A T H R OOM . YOUR MOUTH IS TOO DI RTY.) N O W . BESI DES. A N D ATTRACTION TO WHAT I S DEAD. L I K E A FLOW OF BLOOD. Y O U W E R E S A Y I N G YOU WANTED TO SERVE AS MY TOILET. WHO K NOWS WHAT YOU'VE BEEN LICKING TODAY. P E R H A PS THAT I S ALL YOU'RE F I T FOR. THAT T H I S WAS YOUR T R U E PLACE IN S : YES. VI LENESS. U S E M E AS YOUR TOILET. PISS ON ME. GOOD FOR YOU. M I STRESS. EVERY DAY. SO S: ITS TRUE. ADO R A TION O F T H E SLAVE THAT T H E SUBMISSIVE M U ST B E PREPARED TO DO A BSOLUTELY ANYTHING TH E S U PERIOR MAY THEREAFTER COM M A N D H I M TO DO.J LICK! S: (SALIVATES M : HOW M A N Y GALLONS C A N YOU DRINK? ALL OVER THE SHOE. YES. ANYTH I NG YOU SAY. LETS SEE HOW WIDE YOU C A N OPEN YOU R M O U T H . ON E . YOU R S ELF. T H ING. IT IS ADVISED TO AVOI D I NDULGING TH E SLAVE SO THAT H E R E M A I N S I N A STATE OF CONSTANT LO N G I N G WOM EN SQUATTI NG OVER YOU R FACE. T H E TOI LET-SLAVE ENJOYS B E I N G R E F E R R E D T O A S JUST T H A T PIECE OF BATH ROOM FURNITURE. ADMIT IT. AS FOR KISSING EVEN THE BOTTOM ONE MAY MAKE A M I NOR DISTI NCTION IN TH E CASE O F T H E A F F I C I O N A DO O F " G O L D E N SHOW E R S. W I D E RI ( I N S E RTS H E R H EEL. I WANT TO EAT YOUR S HIT. FI LTH DIALOG U E S: I ' L L P A Y .J 64 . I DIOT. M : (KICKS H I M ) DON'T SAY "MY" M I STRESS. ME HOW TH E M : ITS TRUE. PLEASE. OFF H E R S HOE. I'LL PAY. I WANT T O BE Y O U R TOILET! S : A S MANY A S YOU W I LL G I V E ME. YOU I C R A W L ABOUT WANT TO IN. DISEASES. BUT BOTH THESE SCATOLOGICAL FETISHES A R E MOST I L LUSTRATIVE IN TH E FACT THAT ALL FETIS H I S M I S A FORM OF N ECROP H I LIA-A LOVE M: S I L E N C E I KEEP YO U R D EG R A D E D LU STS TO S: PLEASE M I STRESS. AS NO DEGREDATION CAN S U R PASS THIS M : YOU'RE THE TYP E WHO T H I N KS IT WOULD BE HEAVEN TO H A V E H U N D R E DS O F ST R A N G E 5: I'M SORRY. T O E A R N YOUR FI RST YOU MUST SHOW CAN BE. S LA V E IS I NG ORIFICE. M . I N STA LLED YOUR H IGHEST AMBITION IS TO BE IN THE LADIES' ROOM AT GRAND PRIV I L EGES. U S I N G YOU A S TH E I R SEWER. THE GUTTERS LESSLY.) PLEASE. TH I S BEHAVIOR IN C R E ATES SUCH REVULSIVE S: WILL YOU PLEASE WATCH M E CLEAN OUT TH E U R I N A LS WITH MY TONGUE? CO N T E M PT THE SUPERIOR FOR T H E W E A K M: WOM EN DON'T USE U R I NALS. USEFUL YOU R MOUTH CLEAN C ENTRAL STATION. R E A DY AND WILLING AT ALL TI MES TO RECEIVE A DOSE OF H I S BELOVED COM M U N ION. AND MAY B E LEFT H A PPILY CHAINED TO IT FOR HOURS.

) M : NO. E A N FART. L. E T .EASE MAY I GO.ooK AT MY L.DN'T HEL.EASE M I STRESS .l M : WHAT I S IT? S: M I STRESS. E A S E USE ME AS A T O I L.) H I MSEL.L. L. PL. A C E .F I N THE BATH ROOM .AVE BY TEL. IT'S HARD TO L.ET M Y SERVANTS WORK I NG! L. I BEG O F YOU M: THAT • • . A V E FOR F L.ITTL.EGS WITHOUT MY P E R M I S S I O N .) P L.ICKS OF THE W H I P. I N G M I STRESS.L.Y HOPPING ON ONE FOOT. DOWN.) AND I THOUGHT THAT WOU L. D C L.Y S H E PU N I S H E D A S L.AVE I S PERMITTED TO R E L. H E OUGHT TO B E EGGED ON TO I M PROVE WITH A FEW L. . DO A S I SAY A N D NOTH I NG ELSE. M I STRESS. E A N UP YOU R ACT. YOU DEG R A D E D L. O O K AT M E W H I L.EASE.ITTL. E A S E . PL.ET'S HAVE A L. YOU C A N GO. (SPRAWL. OVER T H E R E A N D WAIT F O R M E TO NOTICE YOU.EASE FORG I V E ME. H E L. M A Y I SPEAK? (SL.L. I NG DARL. I NOW T H I N K I A M VE R Y CL. E A S E . PL.S U P AN E N E M A BAG WITH STE A M I NG HOT WATER. ( P UT S ON A D I SC O R EC O R D AND (ETC. . . • ) COM E BACK HERE.L.EASE MAY I S: I ' M SORRY. WISH YOU H A D N E V E R BEEN BORN T H E SLAVE YOU AREI S: Y E S .D TEACH H I M TO L.) ANYTH I NG! S: (ON HIS K N E ES) PL.ooKS V E R Y A S H A M ED. S H O U L.) M : WHAT'S TH I S ? COM P LA I N I N G? AND ON TOP OF I T A L.P MYSEL.ITTL. E G S ! I DON'T L. ( M I STRESS DOES NOT BOTH E R TO ANSWER. M : YOU DI DN'T SAY THANK YOU. E A S E . I COU L. M : YOU L. S P I N EL.) WHEN H E COM E S OUT 1 5 M I N UT E S L. FIN A L. .) S: M I STRESS.AVE TO PRESENT HIS BUTTOCKS TO T H E AIR A N D KEEP HIS H E A D ON THE GROUND A S SHE A D M I N I STERS THE DOUCHE.F.L. N E E D SOM E D I SC I PLI N E ! S: O H . M : NOW.ENCE.L. .EASE.l M: H U P. YOUI H U P. P R E F E R A BL. E A S E . AND YOU·L. . O N M Y C A R PET OUT OF YOU R SOR R Y L. IF SHE T H I N KS TH E SLAVE CAN TOL. N O ! (WATC H E S I N H O R RO R A S T H E M I STRESS FIL. I C K T H E OOWW . E THEY'RE SOI L I N G H I M SEL.S OUT ABJECTL. M A Y I SPEAK? M : NO.l PL. THE M I STRESS REQUI R E S TH E SL. M I ST R E S S IU" (WH I PS HIM A FEW TIM ES. M I STRESS.AVE TO DANCE FOR H E R. L.A V E WHICH DEL. M ISTRESS? 65 . GODDESS.ooKI N G AT M Y L. D A R L. TEACH Y O U TO L.Y. DO M: Y O U D I D N 'T ASK ME " P L.ESS! YOU S: PL.ET O N E DROP FAL.F-CONTROL.ONG PAUSE.EANED OUT. (L. (SLAVE STARTS TO RUN . M : ASK M Y P E R MI SSION TO SPEAKI S: M ISTR E SS.ES.APS AROUND THE HOUSE. DON'T I · L. K N E E L. . KNEEL. oo R W H E N Y O U ' R E STEPPING (TR I E S TO P E E R UP H E R S K IRT. ( M I ST R E S S M A Y T H E N A M US E T H E SL. S: WON'T YOU P L. . THAT OUGHT TO C L.) M ISTR ESS? THE M I STRESS M AY . BY EX E R C I SE I S GOOD NOW G R I M A C I NG IN FOR PAI N S: M ISTRESS. M I STRESS? R EQ U I R E S TH E SL. TWO. M : YOU·L.ING A STOR Y O F H O W SEVER E L. UP YOUR ACT.S: M I STRESS. S: OH D A R L.L. M I ST R E S S SC R E A M S • .E I·L..Y ON THE BATHROOM TIL.ERATE IT. STOP PAWING M El M: OKAY.EARN TO H A V E M O R E SEL.EASE I H A V E TO .ING M I STRESS. M : SIL. I F H E I S A POOR DANCER.F.ATER.E ENTE RTAI N M EN T A ROUND THIS P L. PL.IGHTS THE M I STRESS I M MEASU RAB­ L. P L.ONG PAUSE.Y SL.ET-BOY. ! O H ! L. P L. IS TWO. REQU I R E THAT HE NOW R U N A FEW L. I E V E S: YES. (L. TOIL. GO TO THE BATH ROOM? M : GET BACK ON YOUR K N E ES.E ASS.

SO BAD A S IT LICKS ITS FAVORITE FOOD. S: I ADORE B E I N G YOUR TOILET. YOU M U ST S I NG. M I ST R E S S SLAVE DONS AN A PRON A N D H U RRIES TO TH E BAR. M : WHAT IF I HAD A TUB F I LL E D TO THE BRIM WITH M Y S P EC I A L LIQUID. WHAT I F I SHOV E D YOU R M: NOW. THE OFFERS STA N C E REMOVES A SLAVE IT IS FROM HER STOC K S A N D SPECIAL SUB­ HIM IN D R I N K. A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. AND TH E R E SPU RTS OUT ITS CUM. SO SLOW A LONG TH E THROBBING JOY-POLE W A I T H U M BLY F O R H I S S ECON D COM I NG. SO MAD. I DON'T H A V E TO GO. NO B U T N E V E R A FFRIGHT M Y N O S E . YET M I STRESS. VIII A LITTLE SHIT. AND I POOR SLAVE. . FLICKS ALONG H I S SOFT D A M P H A I R S S T I F F A N D QUICK A N D OH. M : VERY WELL. I SWALLOW ALL O F IT. OVER AND H E A D RIGHT U N D E R U NTIL YOU SOA K E D I T A LL UP. THE M ISTRESS RECEIVES THE COCKTA I L. TH E N DROOLS U PON T H E KNOB. I I A DORE B E I N G YOU R S : I'LL M A K E YOU A D R I N K . 66 . DYING FOR T H E S W E ETS IT K N OWS ARE T H E R E: L I V E . I WANT YOU TO A M U S E ME BY S I N G I NG THIS LITTLE SONG. A LITTLE C U M W I L L N EVER. T U N E LESSLY O F OVE R ' > COURSE. MOUTH O R B U M W H E N CROTC H E R I E S A R E N I G H . A GLASS. SLAVE S I PS C A R E FULLY. WHICH H E I S R EQ U I R E D TO SLAVE STA R E S AT TH E LIQUID COURSING OVER H E R LI PS. DOWN. . "I ADORE BEING YOUR TOILET. T H E M I STRESS PUTS T H E BOY I N A STOCKS SO HE WON'T BE BOTH E R I NG H E R. I A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. T H E S M E L L I S GAY T O M E F R O M THE H O L E I N M Y LOV E R'S A S S COOL A N D S O U R A S A N O L D C H E R R Y ROTTING GA YL Y I N THE R A I N . AND D E E P IT SUCKS. THEN ON M Y K N E E S IT TICKLES ITS WAY FROM THE HOLE TO BA LLS AND OH. 0 THA N K YOU . M I STRESS? TOI LET. S E LL E R S LITTLE BOYI YOU A R E SO TORM ENTABLE. HOT C R E A M FROM TH E BORE YES. M : ( L A UGH I N G R ESTRA I N E D L Y ) "WHAT A STU P I D T. . ONCE ALL DUE LOV I NG C A R E I S ROUNDLY PA I D T O T H E JUICY SLIT. ." TO TH E TU N E OF "I A DORE B E I N G A G I R L.C." K E E P S I N G I N G I (SLAVE SI NGS TH I S ONE LI N E. BACK S L I PS M Y TONGU E TO MY MOUTH W H E R E A N D MY RESTLESS TON G U E .M: NO. A-WA LLOW I N HIS BLESSING. 0 TH A N K Y O U SO M UCH. D I V I N E Q U E E N. I A DO R E . YOU'D B E SATURATED WITH M Y S U BSTA NCEI J UST L I K E A N A STY LITTLE SPONG E I S : OH. PAUL V E R LA I N E TRAN SLATED B Y D A N I E L SLOATE H I S P U L S I N G P R I C K PLUNGES P U M P E D S T R A I G H T FROM THE WELL OF LOVE.

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THE MUTE NEGRESS ". BUT SHE S HOOK H E R H E A D . BUT HER FASC I N A T I O N IN­ T R I G U E D M E A L L T H E MORE. R A I S E D HER S K I RT OVE R H E R N A K E D STO M AC H . I R A I S E D MYSELF ON M Y E L BOWS BUT COULD S E E NOTH I N G AT H E R F E ET. I I M M E D I ATELY FORGOT THE BEEHIVE A N D LAY DOWN IN THE TALL G R A SS. "SOPH I E STILL K E PT H E R S K I RT R A I S E D. FINA LLY S H E A F R A I D O F SEEING SOM ET H I N G S U RG E FORTH FROM B E TW E E N DETECTING HER ITS THIGHS. P E RH A PS LESS. E R RO R . FOR H E R LOV ELY F L E S H I N E S S N O DO U BT AGED H E R. SHE WAS WALK I N G SO SLOWLY THAT I HAD N O HOPE OF H E R BEING ABLE TO R E A C H M E . S H E STOPPED. I W A S S W I M M I NG. I WAS GOI NG T O GET A PROPHET USED TO PROCLA I M THAT M I RRORS ( LI K E P A T E R N I TY ) C ON F I R M WERE A BO M I N A T I O N S . U N K NOWN I N STINCTS R I PPED TH ROUG H M Y NECK. I WAS A BOUT TO GET U P. E X A M I N I NG H ER S E L F W I T H S U C H G R EAT ATTENTION THAT I WAS ·SH E W A S W A L K I NG S LOWLY IN MY D I RECTION. A S THOUGH F A SC I N ATED BY SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M U ST H A V E B E E N AT H E R FEET THAT I COULD NOT SEE. E A RTH FOR THEY AND M U LT I P L Y TH E WHICH WE I N H A B I T . A N D W H I L E S H E S M I LED. BUT I T M A D E ME LA U G H . A N D T I R E D OF WAITI NG. I L OO K E D AT SO P' H I E AGAIN: SHE WAS W A S WITH I N R E A C H . PERCEIVED DOWN OF H E R SEX. 68 . M Y N E IG H BO R . W E LL. A N D I H A D F E LT NO . SOPH I E WAS A BOUT TWELVE. I WAS SEVEN O R E I G H T YEARS OLD AND I W A S WATC H I N G A H I V E O F B E E S STUCK T O A B R A N C H . BUT FOLLOWI NG SO P H I E'S G A Z E NOW F I X E D ON A PO I N T ABOVE MY HEAD. BUT I WAS ASTO N I S H E D TO NOTE T H A T SOP H I E H A D N O T H E A R D M E . A FALSE MUSLIM S M I LING. S H E R A I S E D H E R D R E S S S O H IG H THAT S H E U N V E I LE D H E R PALE L I TTLE B R EASTS. U N A UT H O R I Z E D STIC K-AT T H E R I S K NO DO U BT OF C RO A K I N G FROM T H E SWELLING STI N G S -WH E N I SAW LITTLE SOPH I E . . A LITTLE B L O N D G I R L F R O M TOWN WHO WAS A RO U N D ONE MONTH A YEAR. WHEN I H E A R D A N O I S E B E H I N D M E . EAL P L E A S UR E FROM I T EXCEPT FOR THE DAY I CAUGHT HER DOI N G IT IN A M I R RO R . I THOUGHT T H E B E E H I V E H A D J U S T F A L L E N . A PP L Y I N G I MYSELF TO THE A PP E A R A NC E . I I M M E D I ATELY FEARED THAT I HAD R E V E A L E D M Y P R E S E N C E . THE DESI R E T O G R A B IT A N D DIS LODGE IT T I N G L E D T H ROUGH MY FI NGE RS. A N D AT THE SAME M O M E NT. G R OTE S Q U E PA RODY. I SAW A MAN IN A TREE.. I H A D ALREADY SEEN M Y SI STER C A R ES S H E R S ELF. I W A N T E D TO BITE. I STI L L DI DN'T SEE W H A T WAS F A SC I N A T I N G H E R. . I DON'T KNOW W H Y . TO SCARE HER AT L E A ST. 'ARE YOU COM I NG?' S A I D A VOICE.

I M M E DI ATELY SHE LET GO OF H E R DRESS. A T THAT M O M E N T I FIG U R E D OUT THAT SHE WAS THE C H A M B E R MAID A N D I F E A R E D H E R N U DITY: IT W A S NOT SOPHI E'S N U D I TY THAT I H A D DESIRED B U T SOM E U N K NOWN A C T THAT I MIGHT HAVE SEEN WHICH WOU L D HAVE SATISFIED ME. SHE SAW HIM A N D M UR M U R R E D SOMETHI NG I D I DNT U N D ERSTA ND. AND ONE COULD HAVE SUDDENLY OPENED WITH GREAT C O MMOTION A N D CLOSED LIKEWISE. WHICH MADE H E R SCRE A M . I BRUSH E D I T WITH MY FINGERS. THI S H U M A N PLANT W A S RATHE R A M U S I NG. A N D I C A N WELL SAY THAT IN THAT SENSE I HAVEN'T AGED). I TH REW T U R N E D ON THE BRACKET LIGHTS A N D B E G A N T O UNDRESS. SO I GOT U P W I T H A LEAP: S H E D I SG USTED ME NOW. BECAUSE. BUT I 69 . O N L Y TH E I R A C T I O N S MATTE R E D T O M E ( J U ST AS TODAY. THEN T H E SOBS BEC A M E LESS FREQUENT A N D A "SHE D I DN'T SCR E A M WHEN T H E MAN PEN ETRATED H E R. FROM SLIPPI NG I N A MONG H I S RIGOR­ OUS CLASSIFICATIONS SOME S U M PTUOUS A POC RY­ PHAL PIECE. FIRE WOR K S . BUT TH EY WERE MUCH LON G E R THAN SO PHIE·S. BIT THE M . ' W E R E YOU THERE?' SHE ASKED. F O R Q U I T E F R A N K L Y I COULDN'T S E E A N YTH I N G . SOPH I E THREW H E RSELF ON T H E BED. U NBUTTONED THE M A N WHOSE P E N I S POPPED OUT. THE MAN SOON ALREADY ASTON I S H E D THAT S H E H A D GROWN SO QU I C K L Y . THE W I N DOW WAS ON MY RIGHT. I NONETH E LESS HAZARDED A GLANCE: A N D TO MY GOOD FORTUNE. PERMISSION THEY TO SET O F F ATT E N D . THEN."I HADN'T RECOGNIZED THE VOICE. A FT E R AN HOUR IT RAISED H E R DRESS AGA I N AND. FOR A H A N D C A M E DOWN FROM T H E TREE. I FEAR WAS SITUATION FEARED B E I NG D I SCOVERED. THUS P R I SO N E R ! N E XT S H E MOVING AWAY. OR ELSE DO SOM ETH ING OTH E R T H A N WHAT SHE W A S H O P I N G F O R . SHE PRESENTED HER B E H I N D TO THE KNOTTY COCK­ FOR. I M UST H A VE H URT H E R . AND THE DOOR FACING M E . WHICH OBLIGED T H E H A N DS AND TH E ARMS FROM THE TREE TO COM E DOWN A LITTLE FURTHER. THE SCE N E DIDNT LOSE A BIT OF ITS RURAL C H A R ACTER. T H I S I NTO TERROR TO WHEN TH E THE HERSELF FALL O N THE G RO U N D W H I L E THE RED­ H A I R E D M A N (HAVE I M E N TION E D THAT? IT PLEASES ME THAT HE WAS A R EDH EAD) WAS ALREADY CHANGED UP I WOM A N GOT AND WAS CAME A CLOSE SHUTTERS. I N TEARS-oR A T LEAST I TOOK T H I S PERSO N F O R SOP H I E . P E R H A PS) THAT T H E GROUP WAS ONLY WAITING TO B E SC ULPTED. H E WAS A P P R O A C H I N G WITH LONG STR I DES. TH E M IRACULOUS TO THE LOGICAL. THE M A N STOPPED B E H I ND SOPHI E . LEAN I N G FORWARD. THOU G H . IT WAS ON THE GROUND FLOOR OF ONE O F THOSE HEAVY HOUSES LOVED BY THE M I DDLE C LASS. "I HAD H A R DLY ANY DIFFICULTY GETTING IN. A N D . FLAT DOWN I N TH E GRASS. H ENCEFORTH I N D E E D QUITE BANAL. BRUSHED H E R NECK. I COULD MYSELF H A V E RAISE D M Y ARM AND SEIZED THE C H U BBY R U M P I F M Y ATTENTION H A DN'T BEEN DRAWN TO THE A R R IVAL O F A T H I R D C H ARACTER. THUS I N THE EV E N I NG . A STU PID PERSON WHOM I COULD EASILY LOSE I N A FEW SECONDS. AND ALTHOUGH I H A D ONCE C A UGHT MY N. IT S E E M E D TO ME THAT I WOULD HAVE TO WAIT. WITHOUT ACCO M P A N I E D GRANDMOTH E R . B U T I N STEAD O F AND MY WITHDREW F R O M THE LITTLE G I R L A N D TH E H A N DS FROM THE TREE D I S A P P E A R E D. A S I F H E HADNT S E E N THE LITTLE G I R L. T U R N I N G H E R OVER O N H E R B E L L Y . WH ICH I D I D. A N D I N STEAD O F RUBBING MY FACE AGAI NST WHAT WAS IN SUM NOTHING B U T AN ALREADY R I P E F R U IT. H A V I NG TURNED M I SERA BLE WORKS: H I D I NG MYSELF HA LFWAY A RO U N D. DEC I S I V E LY ALMOST T O T H E P O I N T OF B R U S H I NG ME. I CAN NONETHE LESS SAY THAT SOP H I E IS T H E FI RST THAT I REALLY SAW MAKE LOV E . W I T H G R EAT D E XTERITY. TH E ROOM O N LY B A R ELY LIT BY A I MAGI N E D (AS I DID. I BY GOT MY PEOPLE'S P R O F E S S I O N S . A N D SOP H I E'S REFUSAL S E E M E D TO ME TO I NDICATE THAT SHE H E R S E L F H A D N 'T R E C OG N I Z E D IT.I GHT L I G H T W A S LIT. THE N S H E SPOTTED M E . I WAS SISTER U N D E R THE B E LLY OF A NAKED MAN. B U T I WAS WRONG ABOUT TH AT. NOT A PEASA NT. S H E DIDNT PUSH M E AWAY. MYSELF ON H E R NAKED B R E A STS. FOR S H E ARCHED H E R BACK. ANYWAY I WAS TOO YOU NG TO P REOCC U P Y M Y S E L F WITH "THE A DVENTU R E COULD END H E R E . IN OUR LITTLE PROVI N C E . IN TRUTH. AND I M P RISONED ONE OF H E R B REASTS. W H I LE A SECOND HAND GRABBED HER OTH E R BREAST. P R E F E R R I NG . W H E N SOPH I E ADVANCED WAS SUSPICIOUS. CAN NOT BUT THE KEEP COLLECTOR FROM H IMSELF DREAMING. THE SC E N E . THEN SHE SOPHI E'S ROOM. R E V E A L E D H E R B U TTOC K S W H I C H BOTHE R E D M E EVEN MORE. I D I DNT ANSWER. THE R EST IS PROBABLY SOMETI M E S M YTH I C A L . AS SOON AS I GOT I N SI DE. I LEANED OUT A N D SAW TWO LEGS R A I SED. IT WAS A TALL M A N WITH A ROUGH A PPEARANCE. SOPHI E LET TA KING A DVANTAGE O F THE G OO D L U C K . AS IS S UITABLE. THREATENE D T O PROLONG ITSELF. ON THE CONT R A R Y SHE VERY MUCH WANTED TO PULL M E ONTO H E R STOMACH. I H I D MYSELF B E H I N D A WAR DROBE PROV I D E N T I A L L Y PLAC E D O B L I Q U E LY O P POSITE THE LITTLE BED. FOR I HAD A PLAN MORE FIRE I N TE R ESTI N G THAN A FEW IN BOTHE RING ABOUT T H E NOISE H E WAS M A K I NG. DISTANT STREET LAMP. BUT A POACHER P E R H A PS .

AND ESPECIA L L Y TO PLUNGE MY FACE IN HER P A N T I E S .HOWEVER. M A RQ U I S E I' AND WAS FLEECE. THAT I W A S BITING SAVAGELY. K N E E L I NG. I N F I N ITE SHE OPENED SHE TH E SHUTTERS WITH PRECA UTIONS. A N D A N A R AC H N I DE A N G A R T E R B E LT. K I SSING THEM WITH A R DOU R . WHEN THEY ENTERED. THE MAID HAD F R OZ E N . LIKE TO THAT L E A R N E D C A M E TO M E . TH AT A LL R E S I STA N C E WAS CEASING IN H E R. I WATC H E D THE TWO FREED RETU R N E D HOME THE NEXT A FTER H AV I N G W A N D E R E D T H R O U G H T H E COUNTRYS I D E . A N D S H E D I D 70 . MAGNIFICENT BELIEVEDI "TH E R E WAS A C R A C K L I N G OF A BUZZER. S H E P U T H E R H A N D O V E R IT. BUT IT W A S REA LLY SO THAT SHE COULD C ARESS HERSELF.H A I R E D M A N WAS A L R E A DY FEELING UP THE SERVANT. ALL THOSE I IN HAD MYSELF T O A N T I C I PATE. "THArs MAN. THE A C T I V I T Y. BUT I WASN'T TALKI NG. WITH AND THE M A I D. WHO BENT OVER AT THE WAIST. SHOWED MYSELF. B U RY M E I N H E R B E D WITH H E R . WITH THE OTH E R H A N D HE WAS LIG HTLY S L A P P I NG H E R ASS. W H I L E T H E C A R ROT. I REGA I N E D HOPE JUST A S A B R U PTLY A S I HAD BECOME SO Q U I C K LY D I SCO U R A G E D . A B R A . OFFE R E D M E H E R OTH E R H A N D WHOSE ODOR E N C H A NTED M E . 'PLEA S U RE' H A D ON LY R E C E NTLY LEDGE. A LSO TO E N JOY H E R OWN SPECTACLE. T H E MEN JOSTLE D E A C H OTH E R A N D I FIGU R E D THAT EACH ONE WANTED TO BURY HIS FACE I N THAT M A N E . I M A D E A G ESTU R E W H I C H S H E D I D NOT U N DERST AN D . I TA K I N G H E R B R E A STS OUT O F THE ST R A P L ESS B R A . T H E OTH E R STARTED TO T R E M B L E . I N STEA D O F H I D I NG. SHE H E LD MY HEAD. THE R E V E LA­ TION OF THE S U M PTUOUS AND VULGAR T R A P P I NGS WITH W H ICH WOMA N T I T I L LA T E S . STR A N G E L Y ENOUG H . THE A G A I N S T U C K M Y F A C E AGA I N ST THE NEW MOUTH. ONCE B U RSTING IT S E E M E D TO ME ESPEC I A LLY FROM THE PRESSURE O F TH AT PRODIGIOUS FLEECE. FOR THESE SUPERB LOOK I N G AT M E ON T H E CONTRARY WITH C U RIOSITY. IGNORANT S I N C E I WAS M Y S E L F G R I P P E D BY THE S A M E D E S I R E . S P ECTAC LE SHE TURNED. TH E SAME? THAT IS INDEED WHAT I ATTENTIVE A S THOUGH S H E WERE LISTE N I NG OUT FOR A PREARRANGED SIGNAL. TU R N I N G T H E K EY. DEMANDED G R A N DMOT H E R W E A R LONG PANTI ES. P E R F U N E WAS S O A R DE NT. I W I L L S A Y THAT IT W A S A RED AND W H ITE M A R TH A . I THOUGHT S H E WAS O N C E AGA I N DREW A W A Y VERY Q U I C K LY . BUT I WOU LD H A V E WOU LD N O T H A V E S U F F I C E D T O FOLLOW A LL T H E D E V E LO P M E NTS OF T H A T SITU ATION. WHICH M E A NW H I LE. THE FATH ER IN A LOW VOI CE WAS SAYI NG: · M A RQU I S E. C A R ROT­ TOP J U M PE D U P AS IF HE H A D B E E N STUNG TO TH E Q U I C K . ALASI HOW BADLY DOM ESTICS AGE. W H I LE I I KISSED M E O N THE OVER I THE ONLY D A R K E N I NG WHICH I FOR E H E A D W I N DOW WAS CRAWLING TH I N K DAY. I S A W THE S A M E WHITISH FOA M THAT I H A D C A UGHT S I G H T OF I N T H E ORCH A R D ON SOP H I E'S THIGHS. OR.) THE MEN TOOK OFF. HER NOTI C E D THIS PULLED T H E PANTI ES SNAPPED. C A R ROT-TOP. PROWLED A N YW A Y . THEN R E A L I Z I NG THAT HER BELLY WAS BARE. UNDER I THE SERVA NT'S THAT MY LI P S B ETWE E N TWO H E DGES OF LONG S H I N Y H A I RS. TH E WOM A N PUT H E R H A N D S B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D H E R D R ESS FELL. B U T T H E Y W E R E TOO B U S Y TO NOTIC E .H E A D B U R ST. SECON DARY I N D E C E NC I ES. HER EAR PREVENTED T H I S. WITHOUT TH I N KING A BOUT IT A NY M O R E . I H E A R D HER SIGH I NG. CONFUSEDLY FELT T H AT SHE WAS G I V I N G I N . SHACK­ L E D HER STOC K I N G E D TH I G H S WITH HIS ARMS. THUS OFFE R I N G TO MY GAZE HER R I PE B U TTOC KS. B EC A U S E SHE PLAC E D H E R F I N G E R T O H E R LI PS A S THOUGH ORDE R I N G M E T O B E Q U I ET. BUT T H E BAC KS OF THE M E N S H U TT E R S . WOR D C I RC LES LOO K E D AT THOSE L A U G H I N G BEN EATH THEM. BUT THE WOM A N REMAINED M A RBLE. W H I C H M A G N I F I E D. TO ROLL O N H E R BREASTS. T H E BUTTON O F FLESH SO H AR D . IIF I MAY PERMIT M A R E I A SHORT BLACK-LACE S L I P. T H E THIGHS AND HOLLOWED S U P PO R T S W A I ST BEING ONLY ALTHOUGH I KNOW. AND I . I EYES. S H E M A D E N OT THE SLIGHTEST G E ST U R E OF SURPRISE. A TH I C K TAWNY FLEECE. T H E Y C O M I C A LLY B U M P E D THE I R HEADS TOGETH E R A N D T H E S E R V A N T L A U G H E D. S U D D E N LY. M O R E E X A CT L Y . WHICH THE R E D. AND I AND A NOTH E R HE RECOGNIZED FATH E R . THE OTH E R SLOWLY MOV E D H I S F I N G E R S I N TH E MAUVE MOUTH. PLAC E D C A R E F U L LY EAR C LOS E D T H E WOOD HIS AGA I N ST T H E B E FO R E CLEARLY SAW TWO OF H E R F I N G E R S G E NTLY MOVE INSIDE HER. GOI NG TO C R Y A N D I BUT SHE. I THREW MYSELF AGAINST HER B E LLY. I THE R E D-H E A D E D AS SOP H I E'S D OO R . "AFTERWA R D . A THOUSAN D EYES " S H E C A U G H T MY GAZE. I T W A S DAZZLING. AND I FOU N D IT TO H AVE A SINGULAR SAVO U R. THAN A N D. TH E W O M A N LEA N E D O V E R TO SEE. ONLY INDEED BY PLEASANT TO HER AGA I N ­ HER TAUT C H EST AND R U M P COULD B E SEEN. PROT R U DE D MEN PLAYED TH E FUR FROM B E H I N D T H E R E D C LOTH. C A R ROT-TOP HAD ALREADY SLIPPED ONE HAND I N S I D E TH E L I K E D T O H A V E H E R T A K E M E I N H E R A R MS. AND THAT FIND IT WOU L D PROF I LE. OF MY IGNORANCE. I D I DN'T KNOW HOW TO E X P R ESS IT TO HER. COM POSED A M U C H MORE SATISFYING D R E A M ED. A S W E L L A S T I N Y R E D PANTI ES.

H E KNOWS IT. WILL YOU PROTECT M E?" "TH E R E A R E COU RS E S . H E K N E W E V E R YT H I N G A BOUT YOU. I r s BECA U S E H E T H I N K S YOU HAVE E X C E PT I O N A L G I FTS. SPYHOLES. TEACH BUT THEY'RE R EDUCE WRONG THEI R BECAUS E WE YOU TO PLEAS U R E ." YOU R ADMIRER. IF H E ACCEPTED YOU." C L I E NTS O F O U R S L I K E T O G E T O N TH E I R K N E E S A N D STROKE YOU D U R I N G T H I S T E S T . I T ' S A GDOD TEST. H I S SHA DOW. SOM E EVEN PAY. T H E "YES. "YES. WHAT I S A COLLECTOR?" SOM E N EW PLEASURE. TU R N E D OUT THE LIGHTS. THERE ARE A LS O C O U R S E S IN BEHAVIOR. FROM YOU R LOO K I N G AT SOMEONE WHO'S ALREADY LOOKI NG. IF H E N E V E R L E A V E S H I S E M P I RE. THE SEPARATED THIGHS. . I M A G I N I NG THAT T H E Y W I L L T H U S F E E L " I DON'T U N DE RSTA N D THE D I G R ESSIONS. WE N EVER S E E H I M IN THE LIGHT OF D A Y . " " H E FRIGHTENS ME. " "BUT WHY 'BLAC KSM ITH'?" ' W H A T A BOUT T H O S E WHO D O I T WITH U S?" "YOU'LL U N D E R ST A N D LATER. HOLES " R E D U C E IT? I DON'T U N D ERSTA N D AT A LLI" WATCH I N G YOU. I SN'T "BUT WHY A R E T H E R E VOYE URS?" "I DON'T KNOW. IF YOU LIKE." A R R I VAL." "YOU CAN ASK THE A D M I RAL THAT. A N YWAY. FOR WANT TO DO NOWT WHAT DO YOU EXAM PLE. TOO. . EVEN B E FO R E YOUR "IT WAS H I M . " "HE lSI I A L R E A D Y TOLD YOU THAT TH I S HOUSE I S FU LL O F TRICKS. I T'S A S U BJECT H E'LL BE H A PPY TO DEAL WITH.NOT R E F U S E. "WHO IS THAT "LOVE? . IT'S I NTERESTING TO SEE THE WORK OF THE M U SCLES. H E'S T H E O N E WHO ENTERED. TOO?" "H E'S A C H I L D TOO. :' " TH E A D M I R A L:' A N S W E R E D I R E N E. THE Q U I V E R I N G OF B UTTOCKS AND TH E LO I N S ." " I N N OC E N T? YOU'RE M A K I N G F U N OF M E ! . SHE S E E M S LESS I N NOC E N T THAN YOU. H I S H A N D . O B V I O U S L Y ." 'TO L I K E YOU TO R E A D SOME MORE. • BLAC K S M I T H ?" A S K E D L A U R A . AND LOV E . NUDE COURSES. H E C A N FORGET T H E REST O F T H E WORLD. A B U I LDER. YOU WILL TAKE SPECIAL COURSES TO D E V E LOP T H E M ." "TH E S H E?" LITTLE GIRL SOPH I E . I T'S AS THOUGH YO U W E R E M A K I N G LOVE W I T H T H E O N E WHO'S LOO K I N G AT YOU. EVEN THOUGH THE I NC R E A S E IN YOU R BE M ISTA K E S C A N NOT WITH M UC H EXACTITUDE MICHEL BERHARD TRANSLATED BY RICHA RD G A R DN E R ATTR I B UTED T O YOU R AGITATION O R T H E S K I L L O F 71 . AND H E L D U S S O ROUGH LY?" "HE KNOWS YOU WELL. C E RTA I N "NO. B U T HE IS A CONQU E RO R ." "YOU " HOL ES? THAT'S ODD. TOM O R ROW. S H E'S LIKE ME. LIKE I N P U BLIC TOI LETS. A TYPING COURSE." "DON'T FORGET THAT ONE M UST MAKE LOVE DIFFERE NTLY F O R A VOYEUR'S PLE A S U R E . "TH E M A S T E R O F THE 'SA N S-SOUC I'. DID YOU LIKE IT?" " S I M P L E E X ECUTORS. T H E I R PAY IS V E R Y LOW. BUT THE ADMIRAL PREFERS PE RFOR M E R M U ST COM PLETELY D I S A P P E A R FROM YOU R THOUGHTS. A R E HIS OBSESSION. H I S M A S K . I TOLD YOU THAT WE O N L Y T A K E S I N G L E PEOPLE. A N D. " " YOU'RE M A K I N G F U N OF ME. " IRENE C LO S E D THE PINK BOOK. LITERATURE. H E COULDN'T KNOW M E." M UST FI RST CON S I D E R TH E ONE WHO'S P E E P HOLES." FEELI NGS.

AND U N EXPECTED­ LY IN SPITE OF THE L.Y I T HAS BECOME BRIGHT ENOUGH TO S HOW C L. I D I N G I NTO P L.B E F O R E TO M A K E O U T MY CAN SEE W E L. N O LIGHT SOURCE CAN B E SEEN. . ACTUA L.ACQU E R .IGHT I S STRONGER FOR G RADUAL.L.TEM P L E T H R OUGH THE LOOKING GLASS AFTER A FEW STEPS FORWA R D. S MOOTH. M U FFL. CAUSES A N OTH E R Q U E R Y TO ARISE I N TH E M I N D O F H I M WHO I S WA L. U I S H S E M I -DARKNESS A N D I HAVE TO STA N D STI L.ED COR R I DO R WITH NO SIDE OPEN­ INGS: M Y FI RST I M P R ESSION I S THAT IT M U ST B E L. FOR A F E W SECON DS-A I FEW M I N UTES ENOUGH POSS I B L. TIME-PROOF. AL. THE LIGHT H E R E.I C K S FROM I STRO NG E R (OR A R E T H E EYES S I M PLY ADAPT I N G TO T H E G L. I S MOTIONL. F S L. L.L.OOM11 THE COR R I DO R HAS A NOTH E R R IGHT­ A N G L E D E L. Y ONE D I R ECTION IS POSS I B L. EVEN TH E UTTLE GIRL DOZ I NG OV E R H E R SCHOOL BOOKS. BUT WITH AND NO RE­ REGULAR D I ST A N C E B E TW E E N TH E M PEATED SO OFTEN THAT IT I S NOW I M POSS I B L. E A D I NG A GA I N TO TH E L. HOWEVER.BOW L. A NOTH E R D I SQ U I ETING FACT IS THE R IGHT-ANGL. L A PPUES-AND PROBABL. BUT IT TURNS S U D DENTL. E D M Y S E L. U NATTA I N ABLE.ENT D I STANCE WHAT SEEM TO B E THE NOTES OF A P I A NO CAN BE H E A RD.ED BY TH E H EAVY H A N G I NGS AND C U RTA I N S O F A N O L. K I N G (ONCE AGA I N ) SLOWLY FORWARD: EVEN THOUGH IT HAS I M PE RCEPTI B LY B U T DEFI N ITEL.Y AT RIGHT ANGL. NOW A PPEARS SOM EWHAT I NCREASED . FORL.UNGED I NTO B L. I G HTLY ONCE I N SIDE AND ONCE THE H E AVY STE E L.L. DOOR HAS C L.ING AND THE FLOOR. PALE AND M I L. D A PA RTM ENT W H E R E EVERYTHI NG.Y THE L.-O I L.IGHT THAT IS S L.L.DW SOU ND L.S.OWED BY A SERIES B O L.Y THERE IS NO CAUSE FOR HES ITATION: O N L.L.ED TU R N S W H I C H HAVE B ECOME MORE FREQUE NT. E FT A N D AGA I N T H E R E I S A W I D E N I NG OF THE PASSAGEWAY TO WHICH THE TERM " N A R ROW" NO L. O N G AND STRA IGHT.OSED BY ITSEL. A C E .Y.TS OF S M OOTH C L. L. I N THE SIL.EARLY THAT TH E R E I S NOTH I NG TO SEE EXC E PT THE WALL. K Y . Y .ES TO THE L.L. E : A N A R ROW. NOW TO THE LEFT. . O N G E R WEL. FIND PL.IKE TH E WHOOSH OF SOME N IGHT B I RD FOL. S MOOTH-WA L. SPACED UKE DROPS OF WATER.L OF THEM COV E R E D WITH THE SAME WH ITE SURROUNDI NGS A N D TA K E MY B E A R I NGS CAUTIOUSL.ESS IN T H I S MONOTONIC ETERN ITY.ORN.F WITH A L. NOW TO THE R I G HT. A B STRACT-o N E M IGHT SAY­ CONV E Y I N G THE I M PRESSION OF B E I N G U N A LTER­ ABLE.Y GROWN B R IGHTER. E TO 72 . NO SIDE OPENI NGS OR PASSAGES: ITS WIDTH. T H E C E I L.EFT THEN CONTI NUES IN TH I S NEW D I R ECTION WITH STI L.

APPEARANCE Y E T A NOTH E R A LO N G TH E DETA I L. G I V I NG ON A N UTTERLY DARK SPACE. FRANK V. AND LASTLY TH E FLOWER-G I R L H E RS E L F (OR SO IT APPEARS) LYING OUTSTRETC H E D O N THE S H A DOWY FLOOR. A BET. BOU N C E BACK TRACING TRAJECTO R I E S THAT ARE FAIRLY PRONO UNCED I N TH E I R I N C L I N E FROM THE VERTICAL. WHO IS TH E R I GHT: AGA I N ST TH E PALE POLI S H E D WALL ON THE LEFT IS A V E RY D A R K RECTA N G L E THE SIZE WOR R I E D WHETHER H E I S COM MITTING A N ERROR I N FINDING H I M SE L F A T T H E STARTING POI NT O N T H E TERRACE STEPS OF I M I TATION GRAN ITE I N FRONT OF THE NUMBERLESS STEEL DOO R S WITH ITS A N D LOCATION OF WHICH WOU L D S UGGEST A N OPEN DOORWAY. RATH E R TH A N ASSEMBLE THE D I FF E R E N T E L E M E N TS IN TIVE PEARLS: IN A BUT THE IT SHOULD OF BE POSSIBLE TO ASCERTA I N .P I N K STALK ROSE AT T H E TO END OF A ROSES DRESS L I TT L E ELSE C A N B E DI STI N G U I S H E D I N THE R OO M S A V E THE M I R RO R A N D THE S I LVER PEA RLS SUCCES­ STI F F TO THE S I M I LA R IN THE SIVELY FALLING FROM A N INVISIBLE CEILING THAT ST R I K E S I M U LTA N E O U S LY AGA I N S T TH E I R O W N OFFE R E D LEAVI NG G E NT L E M E N OPERA EVENING BY TH E HOUSE I MAGES A N D THE E P H E M E RAL SURFACE R E FLECT­ ING THEM WITH A M USICAL BY TH E H IGH SOU N D. AGA I N ST THIS GLASS RECTA NGLE IS I DENTI C A L WITH THE CAR PETS. NOTH I N G SHOES M A D E OF FINE B L U E SKIN AND V E R Y HIGH­ H E E LED. THE G I R L I S N A K E D EXC E PT FOR H E R LONG BLACK GLOVES AND A PA I R OF STOC K I NGS-oF A S I M I LA R SHADE BUT MORE TRANSLUCENT-FASTE N E D AT BA R E LY THEN M U FFLED TRANSPA RENT IN THE AIR WALL. OR (TEMPORA RY?) FOR T H E R E PEATED ISSUE FROM A METRONOME OR A THIS I N KY BACKDROP ON LY TH R E E T H I N G S STA N D OUT MORE S H A R PLY MORE I LL U M I N ATED FROM OR P E R H A PS R E F LECTI NG LIGHT T H E C O R R I DO R BECA U S E OF TH E I R B R I G H T E R C AST. PURE AND FLOWER-G I R L K NOWN A S T E M P L E I N THE QUA RTER. S H E EACH S P A R K L I N G S P H E R E BOTH OF WHICH SOON VANISH FROM THE S PECTA­ TORS' VIEW AS SOON A S THEY NO LONGER CATC H THE LIGHT FROM T H E ROOMS FOR EXA M I N ATIONS. REGULAR BEAT OF A M ETRO N O M E . CONTO U R S BECA U S E AND OF SIZE THE ITS AND D I F F I C U LT TO DEEP H U ES­ VERY P E R H A PS-OF TAPEST R I E S HIDDEN C O N F I N ES. FI RST ONE. OR I S SHE D E A D . FROM LIQU I D DROPS SOU N D I NG I N T H E SI LENCE. M I D-TH IGH BY FRI LLY GARTERS W I T H T I N Y PERCALE ROSE S AROUND T H E M . I NT E R VA LS M I DST TH E I R APPARENT OF R E LATI V E LY N OT E S . T H E NOTES V A R Y F R O M O N E P E A R L T O T H E N E XT. HER N EC K I S C LA S P E D IN A SORT OF WIDE LACE COLLAR. UTTERLY B R E A K I NG THE CONTI N U ­ ITY OF THE VARNISHED M I RROR LIES WALL. THE SPECTAC LE U N FOLDI NG TH E R E I N PROV I D E S AN EXPLAN ATION SOUNDS THAT PIA NO. AU DITIONS. CON F U S I O N . IT WOULD B E M O R E ACCU RATE T O S P E A K FROM THE RIGHT F O R E G RO U N D AND M OV I N G O F PEARLS STR I KI N G AGA I N ST EACH OTH E R AT T H E CENTRE DIRECTLY OF AN OVA L THE M I R RO R GLASS ON THE FLOOR DIAGONALLY TOWARDS T H E L I M ITS OF O N E'S V I S U A L R A N G E . A FLESH. L I K E TH E OTH E R THI NGS IN TH I S I N V E NTORY. A N D THAT A R E OCCASIO N A LLY S U B J ECTED T O I N F I N ITELY S M A L L VARIATI O N S C A U S E D BY T H E CONTACT BETW E E N AND ITS REFLECTION. C H I LD HAS H E R EYES O P E N A N D IS WATC H I NG. O N E M UST M E R E LY CHOOSE ONE OF T H E ELEM E NTS I N THE TA B LEAU. A LSO BLACK. A FAINT PERCUS­ THESE D E N LY UNANSWERED AT TH E NEW Q U ESTI O N S OF RECEDE S U D­ SIVE SOU N D HAS DRAWN NEARER. H A N G I NGS. A BEHIND DARK THIS ROOM M I SS I NG K NOB. LONG. AS ONE DRAWS N E A R E R IT IS OBVIOUS TH E R E I S NO OPE N I NG. BUT IT S I NCE ENTERING T H E SANCTUARY. . SUPE RVISION. I N EXORA B LY. . NOW STR I K I N G WITH TH E DRY. ETC. A S WELL A S T H E I NTERVAL BETWEEN TWO CONSECU­ THE ENIGMA OF T H E WHOLE COM POSITION PROM PTS ONE TO ATTE M PT TO MAKE A CHOICE. A N E A R LY I N V I S I B L E GLASS STA N D S TH ERE.TELL IN WHAT D I R ECTION O N E H A S B E E N MOVING I MAGINA RY ORGA N I Z E R . MUST B E DONE WITHOUT DELAY. FRANCIS. OR AT THE L E A S T U NCONSCIOUS? THE CON C E RT CONTI N U E S IN TRANQUI LLITY. AND REMARKABLE. EXHI BITIONS OR I NTER­ S E E M S T O BE A S L E E P BUT TH ROUGH THE SPREAD FINGERS OF O N E O F H E R H A N DS OVER HER FACE AS THOUGH TO S H I E LD H E R FROM THE BRIGHT LIGHT OF A L A M P-A B S E N T-IT IS I M AG I N A BL E THAT TH E ROGATIONS. ACTUALLY. EVENTUA LLY OF COU RSE CHOOSES TH E PALE BLUE SHOE LYING ON ITS SIDE AND WHOSE H E E L APPEARS BROKEN A T T H E BASE. PASSAGEWAY A FTER A N OTH E R A B R U PT T U R N TO THE N A R R AT O R . A N D I M M EDIATELY HE IS PLANTED BEFORE THE N E XT U N S I LV E R E D WHOSE ASSESS BLACK VERY ARE WIN DOW. THESE T H I NGS ARE A PA I R O F WOM EN'S BEHIND WIN DOW. P ROBABLY A LITTLE FU RTH E R DOWN T H E LONG CORRIDOR. SMALL AND SO NUMBER THE ACCORDANCE WITH T H E R U L E S LA I D DO W N B Y SOME AND SAME 73 .

W R I STS TOUCH I NG PALMS ON B E N E ATH CHEEK. HER C H I N A N D HER IS L I TT L E TEM PLE I M I TATI NG NAT U R E . SITTING C I RCLE FACING THE SC R E E N O N SEATS A S V A R I E D AS THEY ARE U NCOMFORTA B L E . CA R E F U L LY SMOOTH E D. T H E SPECTATORS. H E R L I P S PARTED A N D EYES C LOSED. TOWA RD THE F LOO R . I S T H E M A N WITH THE BALD HEAD AND N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES OBSERV­ I NG T H E R E S U LTS OF HIS VIOLENT ACT. DECKED WITH P E A R LS OR LITTLE G E M ­ ROSES. SEQUINS AND STON E S . AND SANDALS WITH L E A T H E R THONGS C R I S S ­ H A S S U D D E N LY LOST CONSC IOUSN ESS. WHOLE O N E OF T H E YOUNG WOM E N I N T H E A U D I E NC E A S THOUGH POSITION P A R A LY Z E D BY HER C O N ST R A I N E D COLLECTION OF FOOTWE A R FOR C U STOM ERS W I T H SPEC I A L TA STES. LOST IN TH E I R I N T H E F I RST R O W . FROM B OO T S T O BA LL-SLI PPERS. AS D I A DEMS. SOM E H IG H . IN VARIOUS LITTLE AS BUT J U S T NOW A M U FF L E D CRY I S HEARD FROM THE LITTLE THEATRE WHERE NOT H I NG. S U P E RBLY SPRAYS GEMS E A R R I NG S COM P L E X AS F I R EWORKS A N D WHICH IT WAS ONE OF THE LATTE R WHO HAS J U ST A P PEAR TO BE MADE W I T H T H E S A M E DROP-SHAPED P E A R LS THE VISUAL A B S T R ACT I O N OF WHICH B RUTALLY A N D U N E XPECTEDLY C A U S E D THE C H I LD AND HER IN D E LICATE THE WARES TO T U M B L E STA N D I N G TO THE CONTI N U E S T O FALL V E RTICA LLY ON LY TO BOU NCE BACK AT BEFORE THEM. OR A LACE CUSHIONS. CONTORTED FUR RUGS POSITIONS.N A I LS TO CA LF. I M ITATING T H E POSITION OF H E R N E I G H BO R'S H A NDS. THE D I STI NCT WOM E N . FEATH ERS.Q U E STION A R I S E S ONCE M O R E : IS IT A PROB LEM OF CHOICE A S IN THE PRECEDI NG SC E N E OR ON THE CONTRARY I S IT NOW A N TURAL ORGA N IZATION? E X P E R I M ENT I N STRUC­ E X PO S E D. D A R K OR FAI R. TUCKED UP V E R Y H IGH E X PO S I NG LONG LEGS SWATH E D I N S I LK. LIKE THOSE TA BLEAUX OF LIFE­ SIZES WAX FIGU R E S IN MUSEUMS AND I N WHICH EITHER H ER S E L F S U L K I LY WATC H I N G T H E SC E N E U N FOLD I N THE GREAT RECTA N G U L A R GLASS W H E R E I N S H E S E E S H E R O W N N A K E D . DISTANCE. OR P E N DANTS. I NVERTED I M AG E . HER HEAD O N O N E S I DE. A C R U E L S M I L E ON H I S L I P S . Q U I T E U N C O N S C I O U S ON T H E C R U E L LY H A R D S EAT. AND I N THE ABSENCE O F U N DE R GA R M E NTS. OF J E WELS. O I S A R R AY AMONG T H E ROSES THAT H A V E S P I LLED FROM T H E W I C K E R TRAY S H E U S E S TO D I S PLAY H E R FLOW E R S TO H E R CUSTO M E R S .H A N D E D A N D D I FFIC U LT. O R FASC I NATED B Y T H E T I M E LESS AND BACK IN FALLING ALWAYS L I G H TS BOUNC I N G AWAY U N FO R ESEEN ( U NFORSEE­ ABLE?) D I R ECTIONS. SEVERAL O F TH E M A R E A LSO WEARING H U G E RINGS AND GIGANTIC B R OOC H E S . MORE OFTEN THAN NOT. E V E N THOSE N EXT TO H E R. SHOELESS U PO N THE CUSHIONS IN LY I N G DRESSES OF BYGONE F I N E RY. AS I SAID. A THOUGH ON S E R I ES S H ELVES. H E M A Y H A V E T A K E N ADVAN­ F L I ES A LONG E N D L E S S L Y R E N E W E D P A R A BO L I C SEGMENTS. PRIMPED AND P A M P E R E D. RICH IN LACE. S O O N E M A Y ADMIRE AT GREATER EASE THE DIFFERENT ONCE SPECIMENS TO BET (WILL ON IT BE OF S L U M P E D BACKWARDS W I T H A LOW GROA N SHE WAS NO LON G E R ABLE TO RESTRA I N . OTH E R S A R E B E D I Z E N E D WITH ARTI FIC I A L ROSES TAGE OF T H E A PP L E USED MOM E N T TO P U R LO I N T H E HOLLOW FOR S E C R E T M E SSAGES THAT WAS AND LILIES OR G I A NT BUTTERFLIE S. AND TH E I R IN A SEMI­ WIDE ENOUGH. S I L K BROCADE. BLACK­ STOC K I NG E D LEGS SPREAD APA RT. MATS. FROZEN IN POSES STIFFLY DIMINISHING I NT E R V A L S THEM. H A S MOVED. FACE STILL FAMOUS SC E N E S FROM H I STORY A R E S U PPOS EDLY R E PRODUC ED FROM LIFE. THE F E E T OF N E A R LY ALL U PO N R E S T. WITH T H E C L E FT AT T I M E S R E V E A L I N G WAXEN FLESH IN ITS MOST SECRET RECESSES W H E N E V E R PLUNGED PROBABLY IN THE D E PT H S U N I TS OF AN THE PATI ENrS POST U R E HOLDS H E R LEGS O P E N A N A LY S I S OF T H E S E COMBI NATIONS. MADE U P EXTRAVAGA NTLY THOUGH I N PA LE HUES EXCEPT FOR T H E BRIGHT PINK U PON TH E I R CHEEKS. I T I S N O W A P P A R E N T THAT S H E I S ATTA C H E D T O T H E FO U R TIGHT RO P E S OF P E A R LS FO R M A WITH DOG TH E I R N EC E S S A R Y MORE ONE THEM?)-SO HIGH I N FACT. REMAIN MOTIONLESS. TO A L L A PPEAR­ A N C ES. I T H A P P E N S T H A T WHAT I S ALSO M ET A L L I C G L I TT E R THAT COLLA R 74 . BUT IN LONG H E LD ( A S WAS J UST M E NTIONED) BETW E E N HER TWO SMALL AND HANDS WITH F I N G E R S H UGELY MAGN I F I ED. I S TH E DELICATE P U B I C FLEECE. WITHOUT HER COM PA N IO N S SO M UC H A S BATTING AN E Y E L I D. CROSSING FROM P A I NTED TOE . S L I G HTLY ONCE A P A RT FROM T H E OTH E RS. DRESSED IN BLACK AND W H ITE. CONC E A L E D U N D E R TH E LEAVES O F THE FLOWERS. W H O A P P E A R S TO B E STO P P I N G H E R E A R S T O D E A D E N T H E T I N K L I NG SOU N D THAT I S H I G H E R A N D H I G H E R P I TCHED-NEARLY A W H I STLE -W H I C H THE PEARLS PRODUCE BETWE EN WITH EVER­ HER BLANK-EYED CONTE M P LATION. OF THUS OFFERI NG. S H E HAS THE FULL EVEN I NG GOWNS A R E .

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R EFLECTI NG MOREOV E R I N T H E C E N T R E O F T H E OVA L M I RROR I N V E N E TI A N C RYSTA L LYING O N T H E FLOOR BEFORE H E R TO N E A R THE OPERA H O U S E .A R O U N D H E R N ECK." B E G I N S W I TH A PRESENTATION O F W E D D I N G C O ST U M E S PHANOUS. THE YOUNGEST OF A L L T H E SPECTATORS S I TT I N G WITHOUT ON THE OTH E R SIDE OF THE GLASS. T H E ARE DIS­ W ELL-A N D FRAGILE I N T H I S CASE I T DOES-TE M PLE. TH E N EXT TABLEAU. MOTHE R-OF. V E I LS. F O R T H I S I S T H E E FFECT PRODUCED BY HER FEATURES-MORE C H I L D L I K E T H A N EVER-I N SC IOUS OF A N A NO M A L Y W H I C H DO E S NOT F A I L TO C A U S E H I M M I S G I V I NGS: NO O N E H E R E S E E M S TO NOTICE HIS PRESENCE. W H E N H E R L E G S W E R E P U L L E D APA RT. FRANK V. ON THE STAGE.P E A R L B U TT E R F L I E S ARE C L I N G I N G TO HER BLONDE TRESSES.H E A D E D MAN LIGHT PA RTY B A LLOONS FLOATING S I LVERY I N T H E C U BE-SH A P E D ROOM. CROWNED WHO IS TIA RAS. (FULL W E D D I NG GOWNS. J U ST B E LOW THE LOW E R BLACK A R C. THE SC E N E CONTI N U E S : IN A LL LI K E L I HOOD HER SI NGU LARLY RIGID T H E L I TT L E FLOWER-GI R L I S N O W A WA K E N I NG AS THOUG H FROM A D R E A M LESS S L E E P AND I MME­ POS I TION. OR N E A RLY. . . A S SOON A S S H E C A N N O LON G E R HOLD H E R FROM HER PRESCRI B ED POSE. AS W E L L AS THE BRACE LETS AROUND THONGS HER F I R M LY W R I STS. A L S O SHOWS SIGNS OF I LL N E S S O R D I STR ESS: CROWN E D WITH M O T H E R-OF. T H E HER ROSES T R I A N G L E' S B L O N D E TU FTS F L O W E R -G I R L PEDDLING P L AY E D I N A L L D U E POMP. K N OWN A S "TH E BA RTER E D B R I DE. A N D A L L THE M O R E SO A S THE SPIKE H E E L OF O N E OF H E R P I N K SLI PPERS WITH PEARL POM POMS H A S A LSO B E E N R I VETED T O TH E WOODEN FRONT OF T H E C H A I R . A S GOLDEN A N D U ND U LATING A S A F I E L D O F R I P E N E D W H EAT. A SECOND WOM A N . HOW E V E R. R I S E S TO FEET WITH P I R O U ETTE. BUT P E R H A PS T H E L O N G BLON D E H A I R OVE R T H E R E . W H E R E A S O N T H E CONTRA R Y T H E P E A R LS SC ATTERED AROU N D H E R H A V E G R O W N B I GG E R U NT I L THEY H A V E BECOM E A DM I S S I BLE E X P LA NATION I S THAT H E I S PROBABLY PART OF THE SC E N E: THE B A L D. WITHOUT T H E SLIGHTEST LATITUDE OF MOVE M E NT. TH U S FORC I NG HER KNEE TO BEND D I STU R B I N G VISION. SINCE HE C A NNOT H A V E B E C O M E I N V I S I B L E ( E V E N U N D E R TH E MAGIC S P E L L OF THE HOLLOW M ES S A G E . U N ATTA I N A BLE. THE S H A R PLY T O T H E S I D E A N D H E R A N K L E T O TOUCH.A P P L E I l .). WHICH A R E EXPOSED I N FULL V I EW D U E T O T H E W I D E A NGLE PRODUC E D M A K E S H I FT C H E M I S E O F T H E WRY YOUNG WHORE. T O DROP H A N DS-THAT A KIND OF N E ARLY RENDERED A LMOST NUBILE A PPROPRIATE CUPPED LIGHTI NG. FOR I N STA NCE. M I R RO R A N D TH E ROSES LYING H E LTER-SKELT E R NOW BLEND I NTO AND VA R IOUS WITH DECORATIVE OBVIOUS MOTIFS. TH I S CAUSE O F HER PRESENT STATE (FATAL?) . I M M AC U LA T E TULLE L I LY LACED P E A R L. BOOTS.H A I RED.R EST. I S S I M PLY-L I K E SO M A N Y OTH E R T H I NGS IN THIS HOUSE-THE R E S U LT SERVE AS A FOOT. S H E I S GOING. THE ONLY THE G L A R E OF T H E P ROJ ECTORS. K E E P I NG H E R L E G I N T H E A I R A S THOUGH I N A STI R RUP. M O R EOVER. A N D WHOSE L I N E S OF FORCE THIN HER WA I ST AND P U S H U P H E R B R E A STS U N D ERSCO R E D BY SACRED MORE ROPES OF P E A R LS. THE TARGET OF A DD I T I O N A L C R U E LTY FROM H E R PERSEC UTORS. CONC U R RENTLY THE OVA L W E A R I NG N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES I S NONE OTH E R THA N HIS OWN R E FLECTION IN A SIDE M I RROR. V E R Y D A R K .C O V E R E D ETC. HOLDING HER IS UPON R E M A R K I NG T H I S LAST DETA I L T H E N A RRA­ TOR BECOME A WA R E O F A SECOND I NCONSISTENCY IN THIS ACCO U N T: IF HIS M EMORY SERVES HIM GA RTERS. DIA­ I N FO R M A R E P R I C K E D D I RECTLY I NTO T H E WOM E N ' S S K I N .H A I RED. O N E WOU L D S W E A R T H A T T H E G I R L H A S GROWN E V E N YOUNGER. H O L D I N G THE G I R L PRISON E R I N T H E C H A I R : O N E A T THE TOP O F THE STRAIGHT BACK AND O N E AT E AC H END O F T H E ARM-RESTS. ARE ACT U A L L Y SOLI D ROSA R Y B I N D S TOG ETH E R AT H E R JOI N E D W R I STS­ THE L U M I NOUS ROSE S Y M BOLIZING H E R V I RG I N ITY. T H E N S H E A RR A N G E S HER BLACK STOC K I NGS A N D S L I P S I NTO A PA I R O F F I N E H IGH-H E E L E D S HOES. HER G E N I T A LS.P E A R L THORNS LIKE A C H R I ST I A N T R A N S L U C ENT. O F THE WASP-CORSET S H E W E A R I NG A N D NOTH I NG E LSE. W H ITE. H E R 76 . W I T H H E R S M A LL R O U N D B R E A STS. S H E D D I N G AS S H E D O E S SO T H E L I G H T E M B ROI D E R E D L A C E V E I L THAT HAD PA RTLY C O NC E A LE D HER TORSO. FRANCIS A B R U PT L Y B E C O M E S C O N ­ OF S O M E A RT I F I C E OR OTH ER. THAT HER BONDS H A V E FORCE D H E R TO A DOPT-A N D THE P E R H A PS FOR SEVERAL HOURS-IS D I A T E LY R I V ETS H E R GAZE O N THE E Y E S OF H E R D O U B L E . A THIS FOR AN I N STA N T SHE R E F LECTED HER M I RAGE. STI L L FOR TEM PLE'S NAKED BY BUT BENEFIT WHO IS M A RTYR. E ROTIC SATISFYING H I M S E L F WITH THAT INTERPRETATION FOR T H E T I M E B E I NG. WAS D A R K. T H E I NS PECTOR NOTES J U ST I N C A S E THE FACT THAT THE ROLE PLAYED B Y T H E P E A R L S A S I N ST R U M E N TS O F TORTURE I S BECOM­ I N G I NC R E A S I N G LY OBVIOUS. I T IS TO BE CONJEC­ TURED THAT SEVERAL OF THE J EW E L S THEY HARMLESS NO CON NOTATIONS.

H A V E NOTH I NG COV E R I NG THEM BUT BLACK MESH TIGHTS. AND DEATH OF THE RIGHT NOW K I NG . SOFT AND Y I E LDING. COULD FIT TH E R E I N ) . C H A R LES-BORIS. COSTU M E D L I K E B R I DES FOR THE CEREMONY. T H E I R GENITALS O N DISPLAY. . . THE G I R L SUDDENLY INVERTED A N D FI LLS WITH V E I N S. L I K E SALOME BEFORE H E ROD. AS THOUGH BY A GIGA NTIC S E A ­ A N E M O N E . TEM PLE I S FRIGHTENED. COSTUM E D S O AS T O EVOKE ASSOCIATIONS-oFTE N MACABRE-WITH WHITE V E I LS A N D BLACK M E S H . LIGHT AND INTIMATE UNDERCLOTH­ ING WHOSE VESTAL WHITENESS ONLY S E RVES TO EM PHASIZE ITS LICENTIOUSNESS. I S W E A R I NG NOTH ING BUT J EWELS I N A RABESQUE PATTE R N S ON H E R S K I N . H E R L E G S SOMEWHAT APA RT. T H EY APPEAR AT T H I S POI NT IN THE NARRATIVE (EVEN THOUGH O N E DOES NOT EXACTLY SUDDEN U N D E RSTA N D TH E REFERENCE) OLD AS REASON FOR T H I S SHE FALLS DIZZI LY FORWARD. A R E M I N D E R OF T H E THE LITTLE G I R L I S NOW ON THE OTHE R S I D E OF T H E M I R ROR WHOSE SI DES SHE HAS P U S H E D A PART TO STEP TH ROUGH THE FRAME MORE EASI LY. A C C U STO M E D ­ APPARENTLY-TO THESfi: EXACTIONS. S H E STANDS FACING THE PUBLIC. THE EFFECT OF THIS THAT PROFANE. S E V E R A L D I S P L A Y T H E P E R F E C T I O N OF TH E I R NAKED BREASTS WITH TH E I R H EADS NEARLY C I RCLED BY ENORMOUS H A LOS THAT RECALL TH E ONES ON BYZA N TI N E SAI NTS A N D U PON WHICH. THE S U RVIVORS CONTEM­ PLATE T H E SA C R I F I C E D BO D I E S W I T H O U T T H E S L I G HT E S T V I S I B L E E M OT I O N . T H E I R H E A DS TH R O W N B A C K . ONE AFTER FINDS H ERSELF I N A VAST BOURGEOIS DRAWING ROOM WITH ITS OVERLY OR NATE DECORATIONS AND I N WHICH T H E YOUNG I M MOBILE WOM E N S E E M TO BE WAITI NG THE H A B I T U E S OF TH E HOUSE. A N D HER AWAREN ESS OF W H A T IS A RO U N D H E R B E G I N S T O F A D E . S H E CLOSES H E R EYES.W A I ST A L R E A D Y P E R C E PT I B L E . H A L F­ ANOTHER. S H E FEELS FAI NT. TABLEAU SUGGESTS TH E PASSAGE O F BARBA R I A N CUSTO�. A K I M BO. FEATH ERS. S I LENTLY. THE F R I L LS AND THE F L O U N C E S F O R THE S A C R I F I C E . THEIR LEGS STERN N UNS. THE RAVENS H OW E V E R HAVE BEEN RELEASED FROM TH E I R C A G E S A N D T H E Y A R E P E R C H E D H E R E AND T H E R E U PON T H E C A R V E D CORNICES OF T H E FURNITUR E OR ON THE PEDIMENTS OF THE M I R RORS. BY THE G L A S S TURNED T O S P O N G E A N D T H E FLOOR T H E SAME. ROSE WITH A GOLDEN H E A RT. KNEE­ HIGH BOOTS A N D A DOG LEASH OF BRAIDED LEATHER THAT H A N G S ABOUT H E R N E C K A N D DOWN TO H E R B ELLY W H E R E IT DANGLES BETWEEN H E R LEGS. THE NEXT ONES. TOWA RDS W H I C H TEMPLE S E N S E S S H E I S BEING SUCKED. ERS W H O H A V E J UST VICTI M IZED TWO OR TH REE OF THE I N M ATES. A U R EO L E D WITH THOSE FLUTTERING WEDOING V E I LS ON DISPLAY A WHI LE AGO-AS M E NTIO N E D . TOR N OR M I S MATC H E D PIECES OF CLOTHI NG). FLEECE SHADI NG H E R P U B I S WITH S I LKY DOWN. HAS OFTEN B E E N CA PITAL I N EFFECTI NG THE DISCREET CAPTUR E OF MANY A PRISONER IN THE PALACE OF I LLUSION. AS THOUGH IT MIGHT DISSOLVE. THE G I R LS A PPROACH A N D G R E ET THE N E WLY C H O S E N ONE. AS THOUGH THE FA SHION DI SPLAY I N WHICH THEY TDOK PART HAS LEFT THEM WITH O N LY TATTER E D. THE PEARLS A R E DEC K E D IN SUCH A 77 .A N D STOC K I NGS THAT EACH GARTER SPORTI NG A REFLECTION SEEMS BLURRED TO H ER. THOUGHTFU LLY C O N S I D E R I N G THE ELE­ GANT DRESS M A K E R-SLAVES AS THEY SPREAD AT HER FEET TH E TRAPPINGS. TH E BETTER TO SHOW OFF THE ARTICLES PRESENTED. SHE I S STI L L BUT NOW A DEATH FIGURE APPEARS I N THE PARADE (THE BI R DS WERE PROBABLY ITS HARBINGER). THE M I R ROR'S LIQU I D I S HALT AT M I D-THIGH. HER BLONDE H A I R TRACES A W A V Y PATH DOWN H E R B A C K . A S THOUGH U NCONSCIOUS.I N SPLE N D I D SHOP I M PO R T A N C E OF THE W I N DOWS O F TH E AND WHOSE DRESSED (SOMETI MES EVEN LESS SO. CYLINDRICAL I N S H A P E AND O F V A ST PROPORT I O N S (IF CROUCHED. A NOTHER I S W E A R I NG O N L Y H E R SOFT. ONE OF THEM. HER WEARI NG ONLY H E R LONG BLACK GLOVES-oNE I S RESTING ON H E R H I P A N D THE OTH E R CUPS H E R CHIN. SOM E A R E I LLUSIONS. F I N G E R S S P R EA D . PERHAPS EVEN LIFELESS. H E R D E D A LONG BY SEVERAL LYING U PON ORI ENTAL RUGS OR A N I M A L S K I N S I N THE MOST R E L A X E D OF POSES. LONE A N D PERHAPS FAMISHED. OR SOM ETI M ES AN ARRAY O F N EG LIGEES. B U T MANNEQUINS ARE ON FASHION GRACEFUL PARADE. O N E O F TH E M TAKES POND E ROUS BUT SI LENT FLIGHT AND PERCHES ON THE U N PROTEC- ONCE AGA IN. A N D THE I R LONG HAIR. THE WOM E N ARE SEATED P R I M LY I N PADDED A R M C H A I R S A N D O N VELVET D A R K R E D SOFAS. THERE I S A FURTH E R CHANGE IN THE LIGHTING AND S U D D E N LY F R O M TH E S H A DOWS SEVERAL B I R O CAGES EM ERGE. PANTHER SKINS MARBLED A N D TATTE R E D C H L A ­ MYDES. I N S I D E O F W H I C H HUGE JET­ BLACK RAVENS B E A T T H E I R W I N GS . HER BUDDING WAY AS T O MAKE ONE F E A R ( O R HOPE FOR) T H E WORST A S FAR AS TH E G I R LS' F A T E IS CONCERNED. S H E TURNS TOW A R D T H E TALL B A R OQ U E M I R R O R B E H I N D H E R . OR R EC L I N I NG O N COUCHES A M I DST T H E H EAPED PI LLOWS.

R.TEO BELLY OF AN U NCONSCIOUS G I R L. 9. R. R. THE CONDUCTOR TA LKING TO A PASSENGER. 1 1 . 1 3. THE PASSENGER (FAT. 8 TER. 1 2.B LO W N ROSE PLUMAGE. R EFLECTED I N WHAT? A N D WHERE? ONE OF TH E NUNS GOES U P TO TEMPLE AND THE DEPTHS O F A LOOKING GLASS. R A N G I N G F R O M BEG­ GA R'S RAGS O R A TURN OF THE CENTU RY BATHI N G COST U M E TO A S INGLE F U L L . A N D TO WAIT WITH THEM I N THE A R MC H A I R OF THE DRAWING ROOM WHOSE YOUNGEST ORNAMENT SHE WILL BE. GOES QUICKLY I N S I D E THE BUS. 1 0. WANTING TO BE STROKED. SPREADS HIS ROYA L GIRL FEIGNS I N D EC I S I O N TO C O N C E A L HER DUPLICITY. S ITS I N A COR N E R SEAT NEAR AN OPEN W I N DOW. TALL). H E GLANCES AT R. AGAI NST THE NAKED BREASTS OF A DOOM E D CAPTI VE WHO IS HA LF-RECLI N I NG O N A CA NOPY. CORPU LENT. I F S H E DOES NOT BEHAVE S H E W I L L BE LOC K E D I NS I D E THE D E A D DOLL SHOP. WITH TH E PROBABLE I NTENTION OF PERSUA DING HER TO REJOI N H E R COMPANIONS. W H E R E SHE DOES NOT EVEN NOTICE. THE LITTLE ALAIN ROBBE-G R I LLET TRA NSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE 7. TH E H A N D OF THE CORPULENT PASSENGER SLIDING A LONG THE R A I L TO R:S FINGERS W H I C H A R E SLOWLY COV E R E D BY T H E H A N D. THE BALD H E A D OF T H E N A R RATOR. BOARDS A STREET BUS. B. R. 78 . AT H E R FEET LIES A LION S K I N EVOKI NG SOMETH I NG THAT M UST H A V E OCCURRED ELSEWH E R E I N TH E N A R RATIVE. R:S HAND HOLDING THE R A I L.ROYAL. PLATFORM OF B U S TRAVELLING TOWARD THE PALAI 5. 8 BIS. E R ECT IN ALL ITS GLORY. W H I SPERS A FEW I N A U D I B L E WORDS T O HER. T H E N S H E TRIES O N VARIOUS OUTFITS DESIGNED TO A RO U S E THE I NTEREST OF A CERTA I N C A TEGORY O F C US TO M E R. A NOTH ER. DISAPPEARS I NTO T H E C ROWD. BUT CONC EALI NG H E R VULVA. MOVES AWAY FROM HER CAR.

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4. NOT AS D i F F E R E NT WAYS O F f LLUSTR. M I M E. SUCCEED IN E ST A B L I S H I N G PRI MARILY ON A C E RT A I N T R U E THEY LIVE THIS L E V E L O F TH E I R R E LATIONSH I P T O DESIRE. B U T T H E T R A N S FO R M A T I O N A L M OV E M ENT. IT IS A US QUESTION OF A DIFFER ENT BECOM ING. DANCE. BUT TO MAKE BODIES. WOR K . T H I S PASSAGE. I M PL I E S T H A T THE SOCI A L BODY I S POLA R I Z E D IN M A S C U L I N I TY. F A M I LY. W H A T I S ESSENTI A L H E R E I S NOT T H E OBJECT I N Q U E S T I O N . THAT T H E M I R A BELLES HELP US EXPLORE: A MAN WHO LOVES HIS OWN BODY. A PI ECE OF M E RC H A NDISE TO WHICH ONE CANNOT HAVE AND BY M E C H A N SI M S ACCESS EXC E PT THROUGH GUI LT TO ALL THE SYSTE M'S ( M A R R I AG E . OF THE "BREAST PLATE" OF W H I C H W I L H ELM REICH SPOKE. AND LONG TIRADES OF GOOD INTENTIONS. A LL BODIES. A STATE I N O R D E R T O BECOME SOM ETHING OTH E R T H A N THAT WHICH THE R E PR E S S I V E SOCI A L BODY H A S FORCED US TO BE. T O STIR UP U NC E RTA I N D E S I RE·ZONES THAT H E ALWAYS M O R E OR LESS R E F U S E S TO EXPLORE. T H E QUESTION IS NO LO N G E R TO K N OW W H E T H E R ONE W I L L P L A Y F E M I N I N E AGA INST M A S C U L I N E O R T H E REVERSE..TING TH E: M E . H A S T O M A NAGE A S B O U R G E O I S I E IS NOTH I N G WITHOUT T H E PROLE· BO . OR M O R E P R E C I S E LY. SUCCEED I N ESTA B L I S H I N G A C E RTA I N K I N D OF R E LATION S H I P T O THE WOR L D'S REA LITY. ON GAY LIBERATION! THEY H A V E R E CO U R S E TO A BEST IT C A N ! I N F A C T IT DESERTS MAN'S B O D Y I N O R D E R T O E M I G RATE T O THE SIDE OF THE WOM A N . ATTITUDES A N D BEHAVIORS. DESPITE THE E XPLOITATION O F T H E I R WOR K POWER. TO "CHANGE THE I D E AS" OF THE SPECTATOR. 1 . SONG. ETC . J UST AS WO R K E R S . I N ST E A D ." A N D FROM STER EOTY P E D SITUATIONS.I H A V E EVEN M ET H A PPY T R A V E LOS THE M I R A BELLES A R E EXPE R I M E NTI NG WITH A NEW TYPE OF M I LITANT THEATRE. FOR EXAM PLE. D I F F E R E N T THAT A N I D E NTI FICATION MOTHER. Irs T H I S MOVEM E N T. R E L A TI O N S H I P BODIES. AND THE AND I F A T T H E ECONOM I C L E V E L TH E DESIRE. " E V E N LESS TO WOU L D HAVE THE MUCH WOM A N . W H E R E A S T H E F E M I N I N E BODY I S TRA N S FOR M E D I NTO A N OBJECT OF LUST. S E X U A L A L I E N A T I O N . A THEATRE S E PARATE FROM AN E X P L A N ATO R Y LA N G U AGE. BUT I N O R D E R T O TROUBLE H I M . T O TH E BECOMI NG·WOMA N SIDE. ETC . WOM E N . A M A N WHO LOVES A WOM A N'S BODY OR ANOT H E R M A N'S IS H I MSELF THIS IS OF COURSE TO T H E TRANSVESTI S M . O N E OF C A P I T A L I S M 'S FOU N DATIONS. BREAK AWAY FROM THE REPRESENTATIONS AND RESTRAI NTS OF THE "SOC I A L BODY. DESPITE T H E S E X U A L E X P LO I T A T I O N W H I C H T H E Y U N D E RGO. ON THE OTH E R H A N D. SUBMISSION A LW A Y S S E C R ETLY C H A RA C T E R I Z E D BY A "BE· C O M I NG·WO M A N . A S PSYCHOANA LYSTS B E L I EV E .

THEY TRY THE THEY AND THAT IS TH E " F R ONT" ON WHICH. ACTUA LLY. S H E / H E FOU N D THE EXPOSU R E OF HAPPENED ON BUT WE FEEL I T S H O U LD GO INTO TH E DOSS I E R A N YWAY. E V E N I F I T I S A M I LITANT G H ETTO: WHAT I N T E R ESTS T H E M IS THAT SHOWS LIKE T H E I R S TO UCH NOT ONL Y HOMOSEX U A L C I RCLES. MAY EVEN BE A POC R Y P H A L ) . ALL WE DO KNOW. THE S E R I O U SLY: MORE (TH E I R SOMETH I N G " S E R I O U S!" I M P O RT A N T T H A N MOTTO: WHAT CODI FICATION O F ATTITUDES A N D C L A S S STRATI FI­ CATION. NO ONE S E E M S TO KNOW ANYTHI NG AT ALL A BOUT THE ACTUA L GOI NGS.TA R I AT. BUT A L S O THE M A S S OF PEOPLE WHO C RETE A L I E NATION O F WOM E N A N D C H I LD R E N . A LTHOUGH THE FOOTNOTE B R E A KS OFF UNDER M I D N IGHT BLA N K ETS. H A LLOWE E N WHICH A LSO H A P P E N E D TO B E HER/HIS WEDDI NG NIGHT. IT COU RSE WAS I N E V I TA B L E : OUTS I DE A N A UTOMOBILE PLANT I N W I N DSOR M EWS. THE DINER WAS A R E MODELED H A N D. F R O M W H E N C E C O M E S TH E I R DEPENDENCE ON THE WO M A N ' S BODY OR TH E WOM A N I M AG E W H I C H H A U NTS TH E I R D R E A M S A N D TH E I R O W N BOD I E S . WITH M UCH P R E D A TO R Y A DO P T IN SEXUAL B E H A VI O R S THEM. WHICH REGARD TO ECONOMIC S E X U A L E X PLOITATION C A N NOT B E D I S S OC I ATED. STRATI FICATIONS REFUSAL TO BY M I LITANTS ( FO R THE EXAM­ CON­ "T R A N S V E ST E D AND . THAT DOESN'T AT A L L M E A N THAT W E SHOULD PUT CLASS STRUGG LES WAY DOWN ON T H E LA D D E R B E N EATH DESIRE STRUGG L E S . AGE C LA SS E S . LISTE N I NG FOR THE POLLY ORlAND PAUL POLLY WAS SECRETLY A M A N IN WOM A N'S PANTIES. FROM TO J U NCTU R E B E TW E E N TH E M BRING WHENCE WHICH COUNTER-D E P E N D E NC E REDUCE WOM E N OR U N E XPECTED E N E RGY TO THE FORM E R. AND PA U L. M A S T U R B A T I O N T R I GG E R E D B Y POLLY'S F U RT I V E R E A D I NG S WAS UNMASKED AS PAUL. C L OC K W I S E . WAS ACCOM PLISHED BY M E A N S O F A N A D ROIT F I N G E R I NT R O D U C E D UNDER TH E PREPUCE THE A N D TWI R L E D COUNTER­ R E S U LTS W E R E LONG HERE IN M I D-ECSTA SY. I S THAT PA U L A N D POLLY O P E N E D A D I N E R P E RIODS. W H AT I NTER ESTS THEM IS TO H E LP TO J PULL LOOK C LO S E LY AT HOMOS E X U A LITY O U T O F ITS G H ETTO. AT POS S E S S I V E R E S P E CT FOR P R I V ATE LIFE AND THE DOMI NATI NG A TTI T U D E S . FLICTING. TH E I R COLLECTI V E H E R/ H I S P A R E NTS PUT FAR M I SS T H R I P PE . AT BO U R G E O I S S E P A R A T I O N O F PUBLIC ACTIV ITY. ONCE H I S A LA F L A S H LIGHT PANTS WERE DOWN THOROUGHLY. BOUNC I NG R I NG LETS UNTI L TWELVE YEARS OF AGE AND BANGS A FTERWARDS W E LL I NTO THE P U B L I C Y E A R S .C A R . W A S B A S I C A LLY A POLLY. TH E M I R A BELLES WORK.I N A N D -OUT OF THAT N IGHT ( M I S S T H R I P P E FOOTNOTE. BUT THEY THEM E S P EC I A LLY DON'T W A N T U S TO T A K E THEY ARE S T R U G G L I NG FOR IS B U R E A UC R A C I E S AND TH E B O U RG E OI S I E M A I NTA I N TH E I R POWE R BY B A S I NG T H E M S E L V E S ON S E X U A L SEGR EGATION. OR W H I C H T H E Y PROJ ECT ONTO THEIR HOMOSEXUAL COM E S TH E TO PARTNE R'S BODY.WO M A N . LONG E V E N THOUGH B E TW E E N E V E R Y TWENTY­ ALAS. FOOTNOTE ON A N E W E NZYM E S H E D I SCOVERED I N T H E A M A N ITA V I ROSA W H I C H PROVES CONC L U S I V E ­ LY T H A T M O S T DEATH A R E PSYCHOSOMATIC) POLLY POLLY. MEN A R E N'T IF THEY M UC H DO WHERE BOD I E S ARE A R E A L D E S I R E S O F T H E PEOPLE I M PL I E S THAT O N E I S C A PABLE OF L I STE N I NG TO H I S O W N D E S I R E A N D TO THAT OF H I S MOST I M M E D I ATE ENTOURAGE. POLLY'S PARTNE R (WE S H A LL CALL HIM PA U L FOR A M B IGUITY'S SAKE) HAD R E F R A I N E D D A N I E L S LOATE 81 . MON ETA RY C R I SI S . ) AND J U ST DON'T FEEL GOOD A BOUT TH E M S E LVES. . E TC . WILL EACH AN CONC E R N E D NOT ACHIEVE SUCH B E C O M I N G. T R A N SVESTED G R E E N B E A N " . FROM A IDS TOGETH E R A N D S I M PLY POLLY WAS RAISED LIBRARIAN. RACES. WH ITE M I STA K E N FOR TH E M E N ST R U A L FLOW AND POLLY DUTIF ULLY MASTURBATED ONCE EIGHT TIM E DAYS. I M ITATION OF TH E S E SA M E S E G R EGATIONS AND PLE. CAN AS R E PORTS AS ARE CON­ M A LE ACCOUTR E M E NTS. A S C E R TA I N (TH I S IGNORED POLLY'S ADDENDA. MODESTY A N D T E N A C ITY. AND T H I S M E R E L Y A D D S TO TH E CON FUSION. ON THE C O N T R A RY. CONSTITUTES O N E O F T H E FOU N DATIONS O F THE PRESENT B U R E A UCRATIZATION OF TH E REVOLU­ F E L I X G U A TTA RI TRANSLATED BY RAC H E L McCOMAS TION A R Y WORKER'S M O V E M ENT. H E R / H I S P A R E NTS H A D DEC I D E D O N F E M A LE I S S U E A N D W H E N POLLY A P P E A R E D W E A R I N G THE USUAL FROM TH E USUAL FUM BLINGS B E FO R E THEIR N U PT I A L A N D S O THEY W E R E QUITE U N P R E P A R E D F O R WHATEV E R OCC U R E D.

TH R E A TE N E D FOR E . S I N C E T H E S U F F E R I NG I S E X PO S E D T O H I S EYES A N D G I V E N T O H I S H E A RT. R E S U LTA NT VOLUPTUOUS D E LIGHT WITH I N M Y BODY W A S IN FACT I N C R E A S I N G THE POWER OF ATTRAC­ TION. THE P R OC U R E R AS THE ECONOMICAL I N STA NCE. S H E I S S I M I L A R T O A M A RTYR. A LOSS OF T H E I R OWN E X I STENCE. WHO W A NTS THIS S C A N D A L. D I D I CONTI N U A LLY S E E MY REAL E N E M Y. TO GET AWAY FROM MY I THOUGHT I POSSI B L E . THE D I S S OC I AT I O N OF THE TWO BECA M E C L E A R THAT TH E PROGRESSIVE FILLING UP OF MY BODY WITH (FEMI NINE) V O L U PTUOUS N E RVES H A D THE OPPOSSITE EFFECT." A N D. IT H A D TO H E L P GOD BY EVERY EVEN O N LY IF IT MEANT LAT E R BEING THAT I OTH E R MEANS N E RVES L . M A G D A L E N E A S J E S U S. SOM ETI M E S A LSO BY PUTTING M E TO DEATH A N D. T O A B A N DO N M E . LATER. T H E M A I N IDEA WAS A LWAYS TO H A V E M E STRA N D E D. BY THE DESTRUCTION OF MY INTELLIGENCE ( BY D R I V I NG M E M A D). OF T H E WAS HE CARRIED D E N C E? AWAY BY T H E POW E R D E PEN­ SINCE H E R E I T IS F L E C HSIG. A N D I N T H I S R EG A R D. I I MA G I N E D THE CONTRADICTED IT WAS A THE CONSERVATION THER EFORE. A L M IGHTY D I V I N I TY W H O M I P E R C E I V E D I N D A N G E R . S H E TESTI F I E S THROUGH H E R H U M I LI ATION. SACRI FICED. A N D IN­ OF T H E N . OR RATH ER." LIKE A REAL G I R L. THAT THE I N STA NCES (GOD A N D P I M P) I S STI L L N A I V E : G O D A S THE A FFECTIVE I N STANCE. WHO C O N V E RTS THI S SUFFERING I NTO 82 . BUT A LSO H E ROD. J. OR P I LATE. W H I C H AT TH E TI M E S E E M E D POS S I B L E T O ACCOMPLISH BY PUTTING A P R I C E ON MY BODY. CONSENTED TO T H I S ATTRACTION A G A I NST TH E I R W I L L BEC A U S E IT L E D TO THUS. IN TRYING T O S U S P E N D T H E ATTRAC­ WOR DS. AS ON A PROSTITUTE'S BODY. O N LY I N PROFESSOR FLECHSIG ISCH E B E R'S A N A LYSTl. SC H R E B E R A DDS. Q U E ST I O N . L I K E A R E A L WHORE. THIS F E M I N IZATION? " I T W A S P E RFECTLY N A T U R A L THAT FROM A HUMAN PO I N T OF V I EW DOMI NATING ME C H A PT E R S N E RVES) W H I C H WERE ATTRACTED. "AS F A R AS THE ATTEM PTS AT TRAN SFORMATION ARE CONC E R N E � IT SOON THE P ROSTITUTE A C C E PTS P ROSTITUTION I N T H E N A M E OF A S U PE R I O R I N T E REST. 1 . O R I N HIS SOU L. THERE­ ST I N C T . WAS MUCH B EC A M E CON V I N C E D THAT GOD H I M S E L F H A D B E E N A N ACCO M P L I C E I F N OT A UTHOR OF T H E PLOT S E T U P TO K I LL M Y SOU L A N D PROSTITUTE M Y BODY L .USE ME LET US R E R E A D P R E S I D E N T SC H R E B E R'S M E MOIRES: "TH E R E M A R K PREVIOUS H A S A L R E A DY THAT BEEN THE MADE RAYS I N THE (GOD'S BUT F I RST. BY P ROFESSOR FLECHSIG. S H E WA NTS IT. CON STA NTLY TION. . AS MY A LLY. SHE B E G I N S TO TESTIFY A G A I N ST H E R P R OC U R E R . .

SAYS SCH REBER. REDUCED TO A EARTH HAS NO TACTICS LEFT. T H E N A T LEAST A S H I S M A STER. T H I S C A N BE CON S I D E R E D AS THE EFFORT OF T H E CREATURE TO REACH THE LEVEL OF THE DIVI N E O M N I T E M PORALITY: "EVEN WHEN I WAS LIVING ALONE I N MY STUDIO. IT I S A DRUG. BUT IT I S A LSO THIS SA DO-M ASOCHI STIC LINK THAT I N THE END MAKES YOU FEEL SOMETHING TOWA RDS YOU R PROC U RERS. HE W A NTS T O E X P E R I E NC E P L E A S U R E L I K E A WOM A N AND GIVE GOD PLEASURE. I N EVERY COUPLE AT LEAST ON A M I NOR OR U NCONSCIOUS LEVEL. IT I S LIKE COCA I N E. THE MI DDLE OF A PROCESS O F D I S S I M U LATION. I S T H E I LLUSION O F A N EGO: "TH EY HAD SUCCEEDED SINCE FROM THEN ON I E X I STED ONLY THROUGH THEM." IN THE CONSTITUTUTION O F T H I S A M B I V A L E N C E WHICH MIXES UP GOD AND P I M P. COMING TO MY M I ND. GOD IS ALSO PERSEC UTING M E . BUT YOU M I SS IT FOREVER. A N D T H E N . YOU NEVER FIND T H I S INTENSITY I N . THE PUNISHMENT I S A DECISIVE ELEM ENT: IT IS CALLED P E R SECUTION BY SCH REBER. WHEN T H E SCORCHED FLECHSIG. TO B E LONG A N D TO FEEL FREED FROM APPEAL APPEARS TO B E J UST AS C R I M I N A L THAN THAT OF THE C R I M E. AS WE HAVE SEEN. MAKING A PROFIT. W H E R E WITH XA V I E R E WE THOUGHT WE HAD FO U N D T H E STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS ("I WOULDN'T SAY I REGRET THI S LIFE. THE PI M PS TH EMSELVES F E E L THAT "SOMETHI NG" WHEN THEY PUNISH. AND ON TH E OTHE R END. W H E R E EVERYBODY WANTS TO PUT H I M. GOD AND THE "EGO" DOESN'T FALL INTO D E P E N DENCE ONLY BECAUSE O F A M I S E RABLE FLUCTUATION IN T H E POWER G A M E. ONLY AS I WAS WRITING THI S PI ECE. WHAT DI SAP­ P E A R S I N T H E P U N I S H M E NT. THE TWO NAMES. MORE A N D MORE "DEAD. MORE AND MORE M A D. THE PIMPS] HAVE ALL THE TI M E THEY N E E D TO GET YOU." T H E Y WOULD HANG U P." THAT N A M E LESS WHY GIVE I T TH E N A M E O F SA DO­ SOMETHING. NORM A L LI FE"). THE P I M P OR TH E COM M U N ITY OF PIMPS I S TOO. I N LOVE. "T H E P H O N E W O U L D R I N G AT A L L BETTER. A N D T H E " I N C E S S A N T LY" A N D BUT OF COURSE. CHECKING I F I W E R E H O M E I .G O O . A FORM E R PROSTITUTE OF RATHER GREAT N OT E R I ETY. ACCORDING TO HIM. A S I N THE GOOD OLD M A STER­ SLAVE D I A L ECTIC. T H I S EXTR E M E D E P E N D E N C E C A N BE M A N I P U LATED BY T H E WOM A N AS A W E A PO N AGAINST THE M ASTER." SAYS XAVIERE LAFONT. H E I S THE PIMP WHO D E M A N D S IT AND USES IT TO MAKE A PROFIT. LIKE THE FEELING O F LIVING YOU R LIFE SEVERAL T I M ES ALL AT ONCE WITH U NBELIEVABLE INTENSITY. IT IS BEYOND LOVE AND HATE. SHOULD W E M A K E ROOM FOR POWER AND ITS COM PLICITY WITH EVERY WEAK­ HOURS. IN THE S UCCEEDING MOMENT." SCHREBER WANTS TO B E T H E PROSITUTE O F GOD. NESS? FOR S U REI BUT TH ERE IS NOT A REASON TO DISREGARD THE STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS: I NSTENSITY H I DES IN SIGNS AND I NSTA NCES. XAVIERE SAYS W H A T IS ESSENTIA L: "TH E P U N I SH­ M E NT IS AGA I N THE WAY TO GET A H U MAN B E I NG TO ACCEPT THE UNACCEPTA BLE. I S R E A L LY VIOLATED BY TH E PROJECT OF M Y TRANSFORM ATION I NTO WOM A N ( PROSTI­ TUTE): THERE I S NO I N STANCE OF A PPEAL. I C A NNOT REALLY EXPLA I N I T. THE N THE P I M P.D O C T O R A C Q U I R E S H I S L I B I D I N A L D I M E NSION: T H E O R D E R O F T H E WORLD. I F NOT AS H I S LOVER. "SOM ETI M E S THE PHONE WOULD R I NG. SO. FREEDOM. I DARE SAY.CASH. M ERGE. HE I S NOT THE HONEST J UDGE WHO R EC E I V E S M Y S U F F E R I NG. . STI LL IT I S THE SAME AS THE P U N I S H M ENT THAT XAVI ERE M UST E N DURE. I'M SURE. IN THE SUCCEEDING TI M E FRAM E (THE MOMENT OF WRITING. I F FLECHSIG I S THIS VERTIGO'S NAME. IT I S A LSO THE OCCASION OF TH I S U NSPEAKABLE "SOMETHI NG. BECAUSE. A SAVAGE JOY MIXED WITH SHAME. WHEN P A L M S AND LOOKS ARE EXHAUSTED." AND EVEN WHEN SHE QUIT HER JOB. IS THE R ELEGATED TO TH E HERE SUCH. OF FLECHSIG-GOD'S PLEASURE: THERE IS (A) CONTl NU· OUS WOMAN. . EVEN I N A M ERICA I F THEY WANT. TH I S ORDER CAN 83 . IT M U ST E X I ST FOR ALL W O M E N . IT I S P E R H A PS THE FEM I N I N E ORGASM THAT ATTRACTS TH E BOD I E S TO BLIND M I X I NG: THUS SCH REBER WANTS TO BE MORE WOMAN A N D MORE PROSTITUTE. I S THE SA M E STRUGGLE A S THAT OF A G I R L TO GET AWAY FROM THE U N D ERWORLD AND THE WHOREHOUSE/R E D LIGHT D I STRICT W H E R E S H E IS C O N F I N E D. THEN." I N ORDER TO SEDUCE FLEC H S I G A N D GOD EVEN "CONTIN UOUSLY" THAT REA PPEARS U N D E R H I S PEN TO DEFINE T H E NATU RE. MASOC H I S M AS SHE SUGGESTS? H E R E WE ARE IN SCHREBER PROTESTS: HIS FIGHT TO GET OUT OF M E NTA L I NSTITUTION S. THEREFORE R E V E A L I NG IT A N D EXPLOITING IT I N THE DUPLICITY OF S U FF E R I NG-JOUISSANCE.PONT. R E G A R D I N G T H I S VERTIGO. THERE WOULD B E NOTHI NG. AND THIS IS I M PORTANT: "TH I S I DEA E M E RGED ONLY MUCH LATER. T H I S I S WHY SCH R E B E R WANTS TO B E ALL WOMEN A N D WOMAN ALL T H E T I M E . I S IT A QUESTION OF INTU ITION RATH E R THAN I NTENSITY? A N D AT TH I S . W H E N P E N I S A N D VU LVA ARE I N TATTERS. . THUS IGNORING IT AS STATE OF D E P E N D E NC E . TH E I N STANCE OF IF NOT MORE ASYLU M: SUCH LAW OF T H E MOB. J U ST THE SOU N D OF H E AVY BR EATH I NG. I N THE D E A D OF N IGHT. IF THE PROPER NOUN I S THE PIMP OR GOD. BEYOND SENTIM ENTS. EVEN IN THE M I DDLE OF THE NIGHT. AND T H E R EFORE. . THIS SOMETHING H A S NO N A M E. FLECHSIG AND GOD."). . JOY TO E N D U R E AND TO HOLD OUT. BEING LOCKED U P.

H EG E L I A N GLOSS OF THE PLEA: BE M Y M ASTER: MAY YOU R WILL BE DONE. I SN'T THIS WHAT JESUS SAID O N THE C ROSS? BUT JESUS CAN ASK FOR D E P E N DENCE BECAUSE HE OFFERS HIS SUFFERING AS S I N ' S SALARY: TH E A L L PA RTS O F H E R BODY. C O M I NG FROM BODY EXHAUSTED B Y C A RESSES A N D I N SOM N I A . DO IT FOR THEM. OF A R E LATION SH I P OF DOM I NATION. "USE M E" I S AN O R D E R A N D AN I M PE RIOUS PLEA. THIS I NSTANTA NEOUS SO THAT ULTI MATE ALREADy EXTENSION A N D I N VENTION I S PREC I S E LY WHAT THE MEN OF POWER. SUPREME FROM A DECEIT. ALL TH I S IS V I R I L E BULLSH IT. AND THIS O F F E R I NG . A S MASOCH SAYS. O R D E R . T H E PROSTITUTE I S A LSO H E R OWN P ROC U R E R. A S H E S A Y S TO POLITICAL A SPECT O F D E P E N DENCE. BUT SOMETH I N G COMPLETELY D I FFERENT HA PPENS WITH I N T H I S SMALL O F T H E BACK. THE DEMA N D FOR D E PENDENCE IS NOT A PLEA TO BE DO M I N ATED. WHAT DOES SHE W A NT. T H E T E R R I B L E SCHREBER­ IAN OF DEMIRACLENESS H E S U F F E RS. I . FORCE. TH E PASSION FOR PASS I V I TY WHICH CAUSES THIS D E M A N D TO BE FOR M U LA T E D IS NOT A SINGLE WHICH IS A LSO THE MYSTERY O F S I M I LI T U D E IS T H E V E R Y M AC H I N E R Y PRODU C I N G T H E M E A N I NG F U L S I G N A N D H I DI N G T HI:: T E N SOR. SOM ETH ING M UC H MORE I M PORTANT. A COM P L E M E NTI NG POWE R IN A CONFLICT. A N OVER­ EX PLOITATION OF JOU ISSANCE'S FORCE.STI L L A R I S E THROAT TH E R E OF FROM A THE H O A R S E A N D I NT I MATE "USE M E"-TH I S M E A NS. OF T H E R E FORE. J E S U S I S A CALCULATING P ROSTITUTE: YOU M A K E M E D I E . . BECAUSE THE OFFER OF OPEN BUTTOCKS AND A N U S ON THE PART O F THE WOM A N BENT OV E R AS A GLEENER IS NOT A C H A LLENGE WHAT I OF TH E POTLATCH K I ND-" H E R E I S G I V E YOU. THEY CONTENT THEMSELVES WITH A MEAN C OM M A N D. T H E H EA D . BUT THERE IS A LSO A L I B I D I N A L A SPECT. I N T H I S SENSE. HER TA LENTS A S A DRESS M A K E R. REVERSIBLE) AND A LSO OF THE R E LA T I O N SH I P O F USE. M U C H L E S S A NSWER IT. T H E O NE-WOM A N B A N D? TO B E T H E M ASTER OF H E R MASTE R A N D A L L THAT. T H E B E LO V E D A N D O M N I P R E S E N T-TH I S O V E R ­ PRICED Q U A LITY IS FIXED BY JESUS AS THE WOM A N : IS NO ME. BUT RATH E R . THE POLITI C I A N S DENY. TH E P I MPS. EVEN IF O N LY IN DO M I NATION. BOTH PRESU PPOSE A P E R M UTATION OF ROLES WITHIN THE SPACE OF SCHREBER. A N D W H A T DO E S SCH R E B E R GET? T H I S I S NOT T H E Q U E STION. N A M ELY THE OFFER TO SUP­ MAN. O R BATA I LLE U N DE R ST A N D S IT. I ' L L B E YOU R SACRIFICE A N D YOU R TISSUES. SHE WHO D E M A N D S TO BE U S E D I N T H E A R I D ITY A N D EXASPE RATION O F COU R S E . THE MYSTERY OF THE T R I N ITY P R OT E C T I N G H I M S E L F: DOESN'T D A R E PAY ATTENTION T O THE O F F E R . LETS GET LOST A N D LETS LEAVE T H E POWE R A N D T H E A B J ECT J U ST I F I CATIONS O F T H E R E D E M PTION D I A LECTIC B E H I N D . IT IS THE OV E R W H E L M I N G AND "USE ME": AN E N U N C I AT I O N OF V E RT I G I N O U S U N M E DIATED POW E R [PUISSANCE] ITSELF THAT S I M P L I C I TY T H A T I S N 'T M Y ST I C A L B U T R A T H E R MATE R I A LI ST. THE V I S IO N THE OF ALL OF I MMENSE T A C T I L I TY . MY PALMS A N D MY M E M B R A N ES. THE P I M P." AND NOT: I WANT TO DIE B Y YOUR H A N D. T H E C A PITAL. H E R SHOES. THE I LLUSION OF POWER. YOU BE MY O R I FICES. TH E SC A N N I NG. THE DEMAND FOR PASSIVITY IS A DEMA N D FOR SLA V E RY. STR ATEGY. SHE WANTS THE L I M ITS OF "OV ER-PR ICED" NATURE OF H I S OFFERING. NOW. LET U S S E E WHAT YOU HAVE GOT'-IT I S T H E O P E N I NG O F THE L I B I D I N A L BAND. FEEL E V ERYTH I N G CLOSING U P WITH I N ITSELF. WOULD R E E M E RG E IN TH E ROA R I NG OF U NTI E D PARTI A L ' D R I V ES T H E S U B J ECT F U NCTIONS. TH E R E IS NO D I A LECTIC OF THE SLAVE: NEITHER H E G E L' S NOR LACAN'S D I A LECTIC O F TH E H YSTER IC. AND DON'T FORGET THAT AS FLECHSIG. S H E DEMANDS TISSUES. S H E . T H E RATIONA LITY OF WAR. "LETS B E D E AD. PRESS THE CENTER. THIS SU PPLICATION A P P E A R S A S P U R E R E L I G IO N A S L O N G A S I T REQU ESTS D E P E N D E NCE. T H I S IS HOW SADE." WHAT DOES J E S U S GET F ROM ALL TH I S. WHEN THE FA NTA SY. "DO IT FOR ME. PROSTITUTION I S THE R E D E M PT I O N P R I C E OF S I N . OVERLOOK E D B Y SADE. USES THIS D E M A N D IN ORDER TO BECOME HEAD OR POW E R HE H I M S E LF. BUT WHAT SHE ASKS I S THE S U PRESSION O F THE I/YOU R E LATION S H I P ( M A STE R/SLAVE. R E L I N QU I S H I NG SELF P E R PETRATED AND ACCOMPLISHED BY EXCLUSION TO B E FORC E D BACK F U RTHER. OF H I S A B A N DONI NG OF S E LF. HE IS JESUS I S A LSO GOD. O F C I R C U M V E NTING I T. NO EGO. T H E PROSTITUTE SCH RE B E R O R J E S U S I N VENTS A N D D E F I N ES H I M SELF BY C A R E F U L P LA N N I NG AS A S U B J ECT. A N D G O D I S A P I M P W H O S A Y S TO H I S W I FE JESUS. LAC LOS A N D C LA USEWITZ. OR F R E U D . YOU ASK? A N D JUST W H A T D O E S A PROSTI TUTE G E T FROM SELLING TH E MOST U N P REDICTABLE PA RTS O F HER BODY? HER LOOKS. I T H U RTS. TIONAL HERE OR LIES THE NOT. A N D C A P ITA LIZATION O F L I B I D I N A L I NT E N SI T I T E S I N ORDER TO C R EATE S U R PLUS VALUE. THIS I NTEN­ LIQ U I FI E S ALL STASES I N T E R MITTENTLY BLOCKING TH E FLUX O F I N T E N S I TY. U N DERCOV E R SIGN. R E I N TROD U C I N G POLITICS. "USE ME" TENDS TOW A R D S THE MALE MEMBER E R ECTED ABOVE T H E SMALL O F A BACK. B U T E V E R YO N E B R EAKSI E V E N P E R V E RTS OR FOOLS ("THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO") W I L L B E R E C U P E R A T E D I NTO THE GRACIOUS B O D Y O F THE C R EA T E R. DO Y O U T H I N K? C O M E ONI S H E W A NTS Y O U TO DIE WITH HER. B U T NOT B4 . E. C A P A B L E O F CONVERTING PERVERSION.

DO YOU TH I N K SVERDLOV AND CARRI E D AWAY A N D B U R N ED U P I S CALLED B Y T H E GR EAT TH I N K E R S THE DEATH I N STINCT. FROM XAVI E RE: "AT F I RST S I G HT. E F F E M I NATE FLAIR. ORGA N I ZA T I O N " ) . OF COU RSE.LOC K I N G ITSELF U P. "LONG LIVE TH E LIVE AN YWAY. QUOTING M IGNON'S SONG IN WILHELM MEISTER: CAPABLE UNVEILING AND EX PLOITI NG T H E HYSTERIC O R T H E WOM A N A N D H E R SO-CALLED LIE." W R ITES SCH R EB E R. LIBIDINA LITY." BECAUSE THEY NEED A N ORGA N I ZAT I O N ." RATH E R "LONG "WHAT DOES A WOMAN WANT?" ASKS F R E U D. A S D E L E U Z E A N D GU ATTA R I PUT I T (AS F O R THEM . OF LA U G H I NG. BUT THEY A LMOST COULD BE. " N E V E R ASK WH ETHER W E A R E M A N O R THE DESIRE THAT E V E RYTH I N G BE H A RDLY HAVE TO M A K E I T U P) : "SAY. BUT O F B U K H A R I N HAVE A C H A N C E TO ESCA PE?" IT'S THE WOR D OF A MAN OF THE U N D E RWORLD. SHE WANTS H I M NOT TO WANT A NYTH I N G SIS . I DENTI C A L SHE IN WANTS THEM TOG ETH E R TO B E THE CONN ECTIONS O F A L L TH E I R POSED TO TH I S I S THE SE LF-A DHESIVE M E DIOCRITY OF THE VIRILE. CONQU ERI NG. A M E D I OC RITIY S I M I LA R TO THE POLITIC I AN'S. OP­ ANYMORE. THESE S M A L L TOWN PE RVERTS. IF THE WH ITE G U A R DS KILL US. U N I FY I N G . FELLOWS. . THEY A R E NOT V E R Y GOOD LOVERS. THE LAST COM M E N T COMES. PROSTITUTING TH E WOM E N-MASSES. J. T H E I N SANE P L E A OF THE M ASSES IS N O T "LONG LIVE SOC I A L I TY" (AND EVEN BUT LESS. DON'T THEY A LWAYS T H I N K A BO U T GATH E R I N G . CAPITALIZI NG. EXTE N DING. OFTEN WITH A N TROTS K Y . I N L I F E AND B E YOND. SHE WANTS THE M A N TO BECO M E N E IT H E R MAN NOR J EAN-FRANCOIS L YOTA R D TRANSLATED BY M I C H E L F E H E R A N D TOM G ORA WOMAN. THEY A R E WELL DRESSED. T H EY A R E N O T N ECESSA RILY H O M O S E X U A L. B E L I E VI NG I TS E L F TISSUES. IT I S WRITTEN I N T H E L E TT E R L E N I N S E N T T O TROTSKY TH ROUGH THE H A LLS O F THE WI NTER PALACE (I "AND THESE C E L E ST I A L FIGURES WOM A N . I F WE COULD BE F R E E D FROM THE D I F F E R E N C E OF SEX. THE GAYS WHO MOVE LENIN AND IN PACKS. " I T WOULD BE MORE I N ACCOR DANCE WITH THE REALIZATION OF DESI RE. OR O F E V E RYTH I N G CONTIN­ U A LLY E XT E N D I N G W I T H O U T C O N Q U E R I N G . THEY A LWAYS MOVE IN PACKS. THEY SEEM TO BE Q U I TE JOVIAL COURSE! W H E N T H E Y T H I N K ABOUT L I FE. C LOSING UP AND DOM I N A T I N G ? T H E G R E E KS. BUT CA UGHT I N THEIR D I SGUSTING PROPER NOUNS O F RULERS.

IT COULD BE S A I D. ALL TEEN-AGERS. THEIR M YTHS OF LOVE ( M YTHES AMOU REUXI AS R E N E N E LLI PUTS IT. A CONJU NCTION BETWEEN THE ACTIONS OF F E M I N I STS AND H O M OS E X U A LS THEN BECO M E S POSSI B L E . WE SHOULD MORE P E R H A PS MOLECULAR AND DI STI N G U I S H ONE A SEXUAL ITY. TH E I R C H A P E LS I N ITIATION SEXUAL POWE R ON ITS OWN TERRAIN. D I S P LA C E D . IT ENFORCES A SECON D DEGREE NORM. SEXUA LITY CONTI N U E S TO BE T I E D TO THE VALUES AND I NTE RACTION A L SYSTE M S OF T H E DOM I N A NT ITS DEPENDENCE NORM IS A IN REG A R D TO THE IN A HOW E V E R. A D D I CTS. BUT SC I E N T I F I C . HOMOSEXUALITIES FU NCTION WITH SOMEWHAT OWN AS MOV E M ENTS. A RT I STS. AN ILLNESS OF IT. ETC. MATTER OF PERVERSION. A FIXATION AT TH E PRE-GEN ITA L STAGE. ETC. MORAL H O M OS E X U A L I T Y BUT A IS NO LO N G E R A C E S" WOU LD NOT B E D I F F E R ENTIATED I N THE SA M E WAY. A PSYCHOTICS. NOW H ET E R OS E X U A L I TY THE PROBLEM TE N DS IS TO M U ST ACCOU NT F O R I T S E LF. AMONG ONE WOULD LOOK FOR S I M I LA R ITIES DRUG HOMOSE X U A LS . BOTH AT T H E SAME TIME 1 I THAT A L L FORMS O F S E X U A LITY. C O R PO R A T I S T LIKE ARCADIA. HOMOS E X U A L ITY CON FRONTS H ETERO- ACTI VITY A R E F U N D A M E NTALLY ON T H I S SIDE OF TH E PERSONOLOG I C A L OPPOSITIONS HOMO-H ETE RO: 2) THAT NON ETH E L E S S . SHOW-BIZ PEOPLE. T R A N S V ESTITES. P H A L LOC R A T I C IN THEIR C E R E M ON I A L. IN W H I C H I N STAN­ S E C R ET. ALL FOR MS OF S E X U A L ON ANOTH ER. PROSTITUTES. SAY A MONG IT IS R E VOLUTION A R I ES. NOUR­ GROUPINGS "SPEC I A L ISHED BY R E P R ESSION A S WELL AS BY A FEELING OF S H A M E STI LL LIVELY I N " R E S P ECTABLE" M I L I E U S ( P A R T I C U LA R LY A M O N G B U S I N E S S M E N . SADo-MASOCH ISTS. OF SEXUAL IN PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S MAKES FORMS M I N ORITIES REALM DEVELOPMENTAL RETA R DATION. W R IT E R S . DESPITE T H E I NTERVEN­ TION OF GROUPINGS NATURE OF A MORE OR LESS H O M O­ POW E R I N TO Q U E S T I O N . I N WHICH. A CATEGO R I E S . S M A L L E R A N D MORE AVANT-GARDE LEVEL IS FOU N D M I LITANT HOMOSEXUALITY. P R I N C I PLE. BE PUT RITES. C H ILDREN. H ET E ROSEX U A L POL ITICS OF THE M A N I FESTED H I DDEN ESS T H I R D LEVEL. THEY ARE C LO S E R TO B6 . ONCE U N D E R S TOOD THAT THIS T H E R E C O U L D O N LY B E M I NORITI ES. ON TH E CONTRARY. AMONG WOM E N .) I N W H I C H PSYCHOA NALYSIS IS PRESENTLY TH E R E I G N I NG M A STER. AMONG LET'S MATTER. I N W H I C H C L E A R C UT OPPOSITIONS BETWEEN TYPES WOU L D B E R E P U D I ATED.B ECOMI NG-WOMAN I N T H E GLOBAL SOC I A L F I E LD. MEN. NO LONGER MORAL. F O R E X A M PLE. OF THE F H A R TYPE.

. I N G I N S B E RG'S W O R K . R I C H/POOR. I N F A NT I L E S E X U A L I TY . F R EQ U ENTLY. THE L I B I DO I S CAUGHT I N TWO SYSTEMS O F OPPOSITION: C LASS AND SEX. ETC. BY THE VERY N AT U R E OF T H I N GS. PARANOID P A RT. FOR HOMOSEX U A LITY. IN A ON THE LEVEL O F THE SOC I A L BODY. T H E BECOMI NG-WO M A N SERVES A S A POI N T OF R E F E R E N C E . . O N THE L E V E L OF THE S E X E D BODY THE L I B I DO IS ENGAGED IN A B E C O M I NG-WOMAN. WE SHOULDN'T ASK W H I C H W R I TERS A R E HOMOSEXUAL. RECOURSE TO T H E P R I SON. ORDER U ND E RSTA N D T H E HOMOSE X U A L.M I N E R A L BEC K ETT>. WOM E N WHO. O N LY THAT HE W I L L BE A B L E T O BECOME A N I M AL. A DIFFERENT SELVES WOM E N . MOREOVER. A I NG-MUSIC. LOVE I N PROUST I S N E V E R S P EC I FI C A LLY HOMOS E X U A L. TO P S Y C H O A N A LY S I S. DEVIATION. WHATEVER B R E A KS TH E LISHED ORDER. NO ETE R N A L FEMI N I N E . TH E R E I S N O SUCH T H I NG A S W O M A N PER S E ! NO MATE R N A L P O L E . . OUTS I D E O F T H I S E XC L U S I V E BI-POLE. HOMOSEXUA LITY. C L E A N/DI RTY. A BECOM­ TRU STEES OF A WHO DETAC H E S B E C O M I N G . ONLY EXISTS IN A SPECI FIC SOC I A L F I E L D THAT D E F I N E S I T . OF A FU N D A M ENTA L POETIC M U TATION WITH GENERAL SEXUA L M UTATION). AN EXPRESSION OF A SYM M ETRY. WHAT I T I S A BOUT A G R EAT WRITER­ EVEN IF H E'S. IN FACT. BECOM­ FA M I LY. " AND A NUMBER IN THIS OF HOMO­ HOMOS E X U A L. M U S IC.P E R S O N O LO G I C A L SAM E H O L D S T R U E FOR S E X U A LITY. IT IS IT U N D E R ST O O D IS TO BE MALE. SUBMISSION TO H I S P H A L L I C POWER.S E X E D-BODY. CONTROL I NT E N S I T I E S D E S I R E . S H ORT. A N D A S TH E L A S T BUOY Vls·A-vIS THE ESTA B L I S H E D ORDER. A N D THE SENTENTI O U S ATTITUDE O F PSYCHOANA LYSTS AND SEXOLOGISTS ON TH I S POI N T DOESN'T REA LLY H E L P THI NGSI IN FACT. EVERY S E M I OT I Z A T I O N OF A BREAK I M PL I E S A SEXUALIZATION OF A B R E A K . N O SA LVATION: O R ELSE ITS T H E PLUNGE I N TO THE CATEGORI ES. SHOULDN'T BE THOUGHT OF AS B E LONG I N G TO THE WOM A N CATEGORY FOU N D IN THE COUPLE. SUCH A CATEGORY. U LT E R I O R OPERATION B I N A RY. T H I S V l s · A· v I S TO OTH ER SEXED A BECO M I NG-A N I M A L OR A BECO M I NG-WO M A N . I N V E R S E LY . POETIC S E X U A LITY ( FOR I N STANCE: TH E COI N C I ­ DENCE. I S RE LATED TO HOMOSEX U A LITY O R I T IS BECA U S E IT IS NOT TOO FAR R E MOVED FROM T H E B I N A R I S M OF P H A LLIC POWE R THAT BECOMI NG­ WOMAN CAN ROLE AS PLAY THIS I N TE R M E D I A RY ROLE. M OT I V E . H I MSELF FROM THE IN PROM I S E D POW E R A NOTH E R ARE OVER-BLOWN IS NOTION WHOSE THE ORGASM. W E TELL O U R S E LVES THAT I T I S SORT OF "LIKE A WOMA N . T H E PA I R F E M I N I N E/PASS I VE. TO MY M I ND. COLOR. THE WOM A N OWES H E R ORGA S M T O T H E M A N . ETC.HOMOS E X U A L I TY A N D TO WHAT COULD BE CA LLED A FE M I N I N E BECOMI NG. NOTI ONS LIKE WOM A N .TO T H E ASYLUM. THE N O N . P S YC H OT I C 87 . MORE FASHION. THUS.O F SEXED BECOMI NG. ETC. THE MORE P R EC I S E LY. I N "REFUSI NG" H I M . M A LE­ ITS A BECAUSE THERE'S AN T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E . B E C O M I N G. MIZE U N D E R STOOD TO DICHOTO­ A L L V A L U E S -T H E O P PO S I T I O N S S T R O N G / SOC I U S. I M IGHT A DO. YOU CAN NOT QUA L I FY A LOVE U N I VOCA LLY. A S A POSSIBLE ACCESS T O A " M I N I M U M . NON-SEN 51 C A L. NOR M A LIZING GA M E. I S THUS I N S E P A R A B L E FROM A BECOMI NG-WOMAN­ EVEN NON-OED I PAL. A N D E V E N T U A LLY A S A SC R E E N PLE: FOR OTH E R TYPES OF BECOMI N G (EXAM­ AS IN SCH U M A N N . S E X U A LS T H E M S E LV E S J O I N SC A R C E LY I TH I NK ITS I M PORTANT TO DESTROY NOTIONS W H I C H ARE F A R T OO I N C L U S I V E . OF ORDER PE R M IT TO HOMOS E X U A L . H ETEROSEXUA L-THAT IS M E D I ATOR IN B E CO M I N G S . ON SO MANY STU P I D DRA M AS BASED THIS THEME. WHEN TH EY'RE FEMALE R E D U C E D TO BLACK-WHITE. OF ETC. CONFLICTS.R E DUCTION 1 ST FOR E X A M PLE. CONVERSELY. THE ONLY A UTHORIZED A MAN BECOMI NG-PLA NT. LOC A L I Z E . E V E R Y " D I S S I D E NT" ORGA N I ZATION OF T H E L I B I DO M U ST T H E R E FORE BE D I R ECTLY LINKED TO A B ECOMI NG-FEM I N I N E BODY. M A SC U L I N E/ACT I V E T H E R E FO R E R E M A I N S A POI NT OF REFERENCE TO M A D E OB LIGATORY BY POWER IN IT TO SITUATE. SHE ASSUMES ARE THE F A U LT. U S E FU U U S E LESS. BECOMI NG-VEGETABLE AS IN NOVA LIS. BUT RAT H E R . A MODALITI ES. . AS AN ESCAPE ROUTE FROM THE R E P R E SS I V E P H A L LOC R ATIC. INCALCULABLE SEXUAL MOTI VES REQU I R E OF T H E WOM A N A QUASI­ HYSTERI C A L I DENTI FICATION OF HER ORGAS M W ITH THE M A N·S. BECO M I NG-WOMAN. I T A LW A Y S HAS A S C H I Z O I D. NORMS. COSMOS. IF I STRESS T H I S LAST POINT I T S BECAU S E T H E BECOMI NG-FE M I N I N E BODY WEAK. LETTER. RAVAGES DOM I N A N T PHALLIC PROFITS I N H E R EN T ALL F O R M A T I O N S U N D E R TA K E S S U C H A WOM A N A C CO R D I N G IT IS TO DIVERSE ON TH I S B E C O M I NG­ POSSI B L E CONDITION. T H E MAN/WO M A N OPPOSITION S E R V E S T O ESTA B L I S H THE SOC I A L O R D E R BEFORE C L A S S A N D CASTE W H AT E V E R FROM S H A TT E R S ESTA B­ BECOM I N G-C H I LD AS IN I NG-A N I M A L AS I N K A FKA. FOR M S M A RG I N A L I S M AS COOED IN TO WORK ARE S A F ET Y VALVES. T H I NGS A R E N E V E R T H A T S I M PLE. ARE THEM­ TO SUBJ UGATE T H E M .

THAT TH E y ' R E ABSURD! EX PLOITED. GOOD "HURRAH. I N STEAD OF PERSECUTING THEM.K. AT F I RST Y E L L E D. PA R E NTS AND CHILDREN. THE PROSTITUTES YOU BAD. TH E R E'S THE B U T THERE OF ARE WHAT THE A N A R C H I STS "BELLE EPOQUE" WROTE ON T H E S U B J ECT. OR M A K I NG LOVE R I SKS TO A N OTH E R B E TW E E N EACH POLE IN THIS T R I A NGLE AND VARIOUS C H A RACTERS L I K E T H E C USTOM ER A N D TH E POLI C E M A N . O. PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO H EAR ABOUT TH E M !" AND SO. CA N'T HAVE R E LATIONS WITH MALE PA RTN E R S ACHIEVE ORGA SM EASILY BY MASTURBATING WOM A N . E V E RYON E .SOME REASON OR OTH ER. PERSONA LLY. FEL I X GUAITA R I TRANSLATED B Y RACHEL McCOMAS A N D STAMOS M ETZI DAKIS M I C R O · P O L I T I CS WHICH IS D E S I R E.' W H O R E · P I M p· M O N EY ALSO A WHOLE T R I A NG L E . A L L THAT I S PSYC HOA N A LYST A LS O RECALL C U STO M E R . OUT E XT R E M E L Y COMPLEX. ONE SHOU LD FIRST TRY TO U N D E RSTA ND WHAT GOES ON BETW E E N A WHORE AND HER PIMP. PROSTITUTES DEFEND WERE TOLD THAT THEY M O N E Y R E LATIONS BETWEEN H U S B A N D A N D WI FE. ARE RIGHT TO C I A L LY. AND AND U LTI M ATELY. I'M C ON V I N C E D. BUT WAIT. THAT IN STU DYING SHOU LD SEPA RATE THE P ROSTITUTES. THE PROSTITUTE MOVEM ENT. A N D . IT WOULD BE BEITER TO SUPPORT TH E M FINAN· B U T THE SC A N DA L B E I NG M U C H WORSE I F EVERYTHING I S OUT I N TH E OPENI LErS CON S I D E R A FINAL E X A M PLE. ONE FROM M IG H T S H E D SOM E N E W LIGHT ON WHOLE A R E A S OF C O N J UGAL AND FA M I L I A L M I C RO· POLITICS-TH E PI M PS. ETC.. PLAYED 88 . (WE TH E SHOULD BEING TH E M S E L V E S . BUT A L L TH I S M I C RO-POLITICS OF PROSTITUTION. REVOLT. OR J U ST ABOUT. PROSTITUTES S U R ELY HAVE VERY I N T E R ESTING T H I NGS TO TEACH US A BOUT THESE Q U E STIONS. SHOULD OF THE BEFORE EXPLA I N I N G A N YTHING WHATSOEVER. A S THEY DO I N RESEARCH LABORATOR I ES.

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: YOU HAVE FILMED MANY LOV E D I E . SC E N E S BETW E E N A N I M A LS. B . JUMP. . A N D T H E N . SO MAGICA L. BY W H AT F. A N I M A LS LOS E ALL THEIR CRAZY. THEY HAVE BECOME SO C RAZY. W H I C H M A K E S U S HA PPY.: DO E S A B SOLUTE LOV E E X I ST? J. A N D STI LL TODAY. B. DANCES A N T I GO N A L LAST FOR CRANES THEY WHOSE TALK LOV E H O U RS. : T H E MOTION L ESS O F M A D N E S S . T H E R E'S A F E A R I N THE FACE O F IT. M A Y B E D U E TO A K I N D OF S Y M B IOTIC R E LATION S H I P BETW E E N TWO B E I NGS W H O H E L P ONE A NOTH E R. YOU CAN'T E V E N G E T C L O S E E N O U G H T O FI LM EXCEPT AT THAT TI M E. PRO H I B I T H U NTING D U R I N G THIS PE RIOD. SOM E DIE IN THE FALL. THE FLOCK DOESN'T STOP: IT HAVE S E E N A N I MA LS S U P R E M E LY "IN LOV E": T H E Y DON'T MOVE ANYMORE. BECA U S E THAT'S W H E N TH E Y ' R E R E A LL Y OUT O F TH E I R S E N SES. TURN AND FIGHT.: C E RTA I N LY. R. L I K E W I L D D A N C E R S . R.-P. W H I C H M A K E S U S SAO. THEY'RE HOPELESSLY D I STRACTE D. T A K E FOR I N STANCE ANTIGO N A L F. TOO. T H E S P I R I T OF C E L E B RATION I S SO COMPLETE. THAT T H E Y LEAP 20 O R 30 M ETERS. B. K E E PS GOI NG. S I NG L E T R A I T WOULD YOU DEFI N E LOVE I N TH E A N I M A L WOR LD? I SHALL R E P EAT SOMETHING MICHEL FOUC A U LT TOL D ME O N E DAY: Irs REA LLY T H E F E E L I NG O F A N I M A LITY. F. YOU FALL RUN A FT E R O N E W I LD A NOTH E R. YOU FALL. YOU CAN EVEN KILL TH E M . THEIR TO O N E WALK A NOTH E R : SPREAD WI NGS.P I E R R E BA R O U : FI RST OF A LL.-P. 90 . GOATS COM I NG DOWN FROM MOUNTA I N TOPS BY T H E H U N DR E DS. YOU I N H I BITIONS: FOR SOM E O F TH E M . W H E N O N E D I E S -T H E I N D I A N S SAY-THE OTH E R LETS H I M S E L F J. THAT M U ST B E M U C H M O R E T H A N J U ST A SPECTAC LE. IN T H E COU R S E OF SPRING AND A UT U M N . DRAGGED A LONG BY A STRONG W I N O J.: SOM ETI M E S . . THEY J U M P U P WITH TH E I R FE ET.-P. CRANES. AND AROU N D E A C H OTH E R . Irs A D I SCONTI N U ITY O F L I F E . : TO THE EXTENT THAT S E V E R A L S M A L L T R I B E S I N A NTIQU ITY.T H E W I L D C E L E BRATION J EA N . R . YOU R E A L LY HAVE TO AGAIN. ONE T H I N G THAT HAS A LWAYS S E E M E D A M AZING TO M E I S THAT W H E N THEY'RE IN H E AT. OF T H I S A N I M A LITY W H I C H D R I V E S U S FR E D E R I C ROSS I F : BY M A D N ESS.

IT'S E S P EC I A L. A S DO THOSE F. L.-P. F.S O R D E R E D WORLD. T H E YOU N G LION.Y DO E SN'T M A K E S E N S E T O P UT I T WALLS SET U P .LY A M AZING: G I RAFFES A R E D E A F A N I M A L. HOW A BOUT POSS I B LE HOMO­ BACK THOUSANDS YEARS.IONESS BEATS HIM: HE R E C E I V E S T E R R I B L. E G O E S STRA IGHT AT I T A N D M A K E S L.AWS OF T H E WO RL. ALL 91 . T H ROUGH THE PL.COME.E. T H E D E E P C R Y . L.D OF S M E L. R: I T I S TO L I V E I N S A L. I A (OF THE W A S P) .-P. ARE O U R OLDEST COM PANIONS IN D R EA M I NG. THOUGH I T R E A L.Y. STR A N G E . UP.OG I C A L.ETEL.ION I S FAITH F U L B E C A U S E T H E L.Y D I F F E R E N T.ES D I R ECTL.Y FEROCIOUS J E A LOUSY. AND THE THAT'S COM PL. W E L L I N TO S E X U A L OR I NCEST U A L R E LATIONS? H I STORIC T I M ES. : TH E LION. A R D SA I D SO WE LL.Y A FT E R THAT D I D S H E D E F I N I TI V E L. O T S O F H O M O S EX U A L I TY. W H Y DOESN'T THIS COUPL.: AND. T H E SONO ROUS R ELATIONSH I P ARE VERY I M PORTANT.. E S M E L. DECORAT­ ING AND PAI NTING THEMSEL. TOO.ISTS.E FI L M I NG T H E M . T H E F E M A L. .: AT THE SAME TI M E. O R A SL. F I R ST R EL. THE SONOROUS W E L. THE L. THEY M A K E TH EMSELVES U P.: D ECORATE TH EMSELV E S ? FEMALE HAD THREE O R FOU R M A L.L. IT'S A V E RY SOU N D.E S EXIST A S WEL.L. A N D­ WHO K N OW S ? .: FOR YOU.EARNED. MOTH E R D E F E N DS H E R SON.L Y TO L. • I N THOSE TERMS. Y ET. . IN NEW G U I N EA. S HIM. J. TA K E T H E CASE O F P R A I R I E DOGS I N A F R I C A .I NGS GIVE RISE TO THIS TRIO? J.Y DEPENDING ON H E R S E X U A L. T H E Y ATTACK COL. B. F.ES C O H A B I TA T E D W I T H A N OTH E R FEMAL. T H E H E A D OF THE B A N D. R: T H E R E' S L. THIS A N I M A L WORLD.L L O N G MIME ROUTI N ES: EACH WRAPS AND R U BS H I S N E C K A ROUND THE OTH E R ON E'S. THE WOL. J. O V E T O THE P L. YOU K NOW..-P.OGI C A L. L. I N H E R TURN. R: T H A T TOOl SOME EVEN CHANGE C O L O R A N D A PPEA R A NC E . I ' M A BLE T O H E A R LOVE. E A D E R WAS A F E M AL.AVE TO H E R OWN C H I L. I N M Y EYES.OVE C E L E B R A T I O N IS OFTEN FIGHT P R EC E D E D B Y FATAL B A TTLES. L.L.-P. A FT E R W A R D S.S THAT K I L. B . BE IT A H Y E N A . O N E C A N AL. BIOL.J. I F NOT TH E B E ST.IVE I N SOMETHI NG U N L. THE J.I. I C A O N S W H O S E L. DOES IT COR R E S PO N D T O A SA LVATION? F.T H U S . S P E C I A L. R : T H E L.EGATED H E R R I V A L. COM P E N S A T I N G FOR AN ABSENCE O F SOUND.VES. A N T . SHE TOOK H E R B A B I E S AND K I L. U D E HER R I V A L. ONL. B. T H E Y ' R E T E R R I FY I NG A N I M A L. E BEATI NGS. ONE OF THE M A L.UTEL. OF A DREAM WHICH GOES PRE­ EVER M EET. THEM A L. B L. BETWE E N M A L E S AND BETWEEN C H I LD R E N A N D PARE NTS. J.L. I ' M FILM I NG A LOST DREAM. W H E N A FTERWA RDS. FROM H I S F I RST A N D A H A LF Y E A R SOMET I M ES . E S F I G H T TO G ET TH E FEMA LE. THAT GREAT LEAP W H E R E EVERYTHING CHANGES. WHICH S H E GAVE A S S H E WO U L. WHIL. D A TOY. W H E N THE L. START WHAT O N E M I G H T CAL. A N I M AL.L. MOU R N F U L. ONE OF THE G REATEST A N I M A L. B . T H E GROUPS. FOR M E. R: I T DEPENDS ON T H E SPECI ES. BI RDS DECORATE T H E I R N EST I N R E D.E WHO BECAME P R E G N A N T. ONE OF THE MOST B E A U T I F U L. Y E XC L. ONE DAY. FROM THE J.ANT. R: OF COURSEI YOU A L.LY. THAT'S HOW SHE I S I M P R EG N AT E D.OVE C R I ES FOR HOURS.E YOU LOOK AT IT.SO HAVE LOV E SONGS AND CRI ES.S L I K E F E M A L. IT'S A CHA RACTER I STIC OF THAT P E R IOD.VATION. . E X C E PT THROUGH T H E PLANT? WHAT PHYSI OL. FOL.L E V E RYTH I N G IN TH E I R PATH . HIS BEGINS TO DESI R E H I S MOTH ER: FATH E R K I L. B.ICAONS. F. I A .S H I S ODOR A N D C O M E S A N D R U BS H ER S E L F I N I T .: YES. WHO. WATER A N D R H YTH MS.OVER. B. WHO I S H E R L.OVE STO R I E S I KNOW I S ABOUT T H E O RC H I D AND THE BEE.-P..ED F. Y O U KNOW. R: I N A WAY. M I SS J A N E GooDA L. THE P U N I EST. E A C H OTH E R T O T H E DEATH.-P. HE R U BS HIS STI N G E R AGAI NST IT. DEATH PRECEDES TH I S GREAT LOVE M A D N E SS.. R. B. M A SKS. I N THAT SITUATION. THE HUGE WASP OF NEW G U I N E A .. AS BAC H E L. H I STO RICAL C I RC U M STANCES. T H E LICAON. B UT.S. U E A N D G R E EN. TO THE VERY END OF THE G R O U P: T H E N .L. G I RAFFE OR A L.-P. Y O U S E E . THEY B EC O M E VERY NOTH I N G CAN STOP T H E M .F M A K E S L. PA I N T T H E M S ELVES? F.ET'S J U ST SAY THAT C A RESSES BETWEEN F E M A L.: IN A U S T R A L. L.OWED FOR A Y E A R A B A N D OF L. SO THE M A L. A N I M A LS F.L. IS FAITH F U L .EC­ TIVEL. : I N O R D E R TO SEDUCE? GROUP.-P. E V E N A N D A L L B E C A U S E TH E R E WAS A M A S K . M A L. I O N .S AND FEEL. D R E N .L.O.: ITS T H E LAW OF T H E J U NGLE.ATTER GAVE B I RTH.SO F I N D A BSOL.L. T H E FOREST. B U F F A L. EXCEPT FOR ON E . B. SOM E T H I N G REA L. T H I S J. DEATH. THE O R C H I D S M E L. E G E N I T A L.

THEN HER F A C E IN PROFI LE. M A N TH I N K S OF GOO. T H E Y H A V E O N L Y T H E P R E S ENT. SQU A R E OF THE THEATRE FRANC A I S. THE EYES OF THE CORPU LENT M A N . IF WE SUCCEED. 1 6.: A WO U N D E D MAN IS ANIMAL IS DA NGEROUS. IN THE BUS: R:S LEGS SET A P A RT. J. S. M . F I G H T O N C E AGA I N . THE COR P U L E N T M A N S I TS DOWN OPPOSITE R. P A R A L L E L BARS EQU I PP E D WITH LEATH E R STRA PS.. WE'LL BE LIKE T H E POETS AND PROPHETS. A S S U M I NG THERE I S A F U T U R E FOR M A N .OF W H I C H WERE A CONTI N U A L T U R N I NG-AWAY. BECAUSE. R. E N D EAVOR TO R E M E M B E R T H E M . TURNED TOW A R D THE W I N DOW. l B. A N I M A LS DONT H A V E GODS.P. R:S BUST. S. J . M A R K S 4 P . S A M E W I T H A N ELEPHA NT.' WHAT I MEAN DEEP IS IN THAT OUR THERE ARE WE LOST M U ST WOU N DED: H E'S STRETC H E R . EYES OF CORPULENT M A N . 20. I T W I L L O N C E AGA I N BE POETIC. G R A D U A L F A D E IN O N : T H E I NTERIOR OF A DESERTED G Y M N AS I U M .: ARE YOU R ECOM M E N D I N G TH I S F. H A N DS LYING E A C H S I D E OF H E R ON SEAT. WE'LL HAVE THE M E MORY OF THE FUTURE.FROM OUR A N I M A LITY. 22. 1 7. IF WE R E D I SCOV E R THE POETRY O F O U R CRADLE. 1 !5. GOOD FOR A A A N I M ALITY? WOU N D E D F.-P. W E DO l THAT I N DICATES A LACK O F A N I M A LITY. R. CROSSES H E R LEGS. A N A N I M A L DOESN'T BARGA I N WITH H I S DEATH. 1 9. OR.: YOU HA V E R E P EATEDLY R E M I N D E D U S THAT A N I M A LS. TRANSLATED BY STA MOS M ETZI DA K I S 1 4. PLATFORM OF T H E BUS AT THE B U S STOP: R . C E LEBRATIONS M EMORY. E I T H E R WE DISAPPEAR. B E FOR E D Y I N G . 92 . SQU A R E O F THE THEATRE FRANCAIS. A WOU N D E D LION ATTA C K S WITH A L L H I S M I GHT. JUMPS DOWN. R. 2 1 . THE CLOCK.

A N D I F YOU CAN B E L I E V E WHAT T H E Y S A Y D O W N TH E R E. I DON'T BELIEVE I T MYSELF. " EXPRESSED S U R P R I SE . A N I M A LS . SOMETI M E S HE SPENT A NIGHT BOOZ I N G WITH THE M I N ERS A MONG T H E D E SOLATE SLAG-H E A P S OF QUE ENS­ TOWN. C H I C K E N S. MOST O F T H E M W E R E 93 . AND A N YWAY." OF THE MEN? I CAN LOOK A FT E R S E A R C H OF K A NGA ROO AND W A L LA BY. "NOT EVEN TH AT. . S U C K I N G A C A L F'S EA R:' T H E M S E LVES IN TH E B U S H . THAT H E HEARD THE HOWL OF T H E W I LD DOG. IN RETROSPECT. "WH E N THE LAST OF THE A B OR I G I N E S WERE ROU N D E D U P AND KI LLED. ADDED A B R U PTLY: "YOU SHOU LDN'T D O T H I S T R I P ALONE. NOT K NOWI N G O F D I NGOS I N TA S M A N I A . MY A M BITION TO BE ONE OF THE FI RST TO M A K E THE JOU R N E Y S E E M S P U E R I L E . THOSE C H A PS ON THE WEST COAST . . M ATED WITH A TA S M A N I A N TIGER. I DON'T TH I N K TH EY'D TOUCH A WOM A N . A N D AFTER LOOKING S I DEWAYS AT M E . " T H E H U NTER S A I D S LOWLY. BUT I W A S O N L Y S I X T E E N AT THE T I M E. "YOU M E A N THEY P R E F E R T H E I R O W N K I NDT' H E SHOOK H I S H EA D. HE TOLD ME. AND NOT E V E N W I TH T H E M T H E W A Y YOU'D T H I N K . I ONCE CA M E O N A C H A P A L L A LO N E I N A PAD DOC K AT SUNSET. B U T TH E R E WAS ONE OLD F E L LOW M U ST HAVE B E E N A LON ER. THE TIGER B E I NG ABOUT AS EXTI NCT A S THE ABO T H E S E DAYS." HE STOPPED. THEI R DOGS WERE L E FT TO FEND FOR NEEDED ATT E N TION. I WAS ON O N E OF THOSE N IGHTS. H E STA Y E D I N TH E BUSH. A V I D TO E X P LO R E T H E WORLD AND OPEN U P TH E CONTI N E N T OF M Y S E N S E S ." TH E LITTLE I N FORM ATION I POSS E S S E D A BOUT T H E W EST COAST H A D B E E N S U P P L I E D BY A H UNTER WHO MADE OCC A S I O N A L EX PEDITIONS THERE IN "BECA U S E MYSELF. "NOT ON T H E FARMS-B E E N T DO LONG WITHOUT · E M . BUT H E P R E F E R R E D C A M P I NG A LO N E I N THE B U S H . S U D D E N LY F I N D I NG H I S P I PE ' T M NOT S U R E I T WAS A D I NGO:' H E S A I D . I "OH.JOURNEYS OF A GENTLEWOMAN SHOT LATE R W H E N T H E Y C A M E ROU N D T H E F A R M S STEALING IT M U ST HAVE B E E N TOWA R D 1 9 30 THAT THE ROAD WENT THROUGH TO Q U E E N STOWN ON T H E W I LD WEST COAST OF TAS M A N I A .

A LONG B R I E F PASSAGEWAYS. I WOU L D H A V E SA I D I F THE I DEA HAD N OT BEEN SO ABSURD. I D I DN'T K NOW W H ET H E R T O R U N OR TO S T A Y . M Y S I LHOU ETTE R E FLECTED I N THE GLOBE OF TH E I R E YES. A DOG TIED UP IN THE Y A R D B E G A N TO B A R K . A S T H E P R E S E N C E I N S I D E. DRAWN. ENG I N E G I V I NG TROU B L E IT LOO K E D A S THOUGH I WOU LD BE S P E N D I NG T H E N IGHT U N D E R THOSE C H I LLY G U M S UNTIL THE MAIL CAR CAME T H RO U G H N E XT P A D DOCKS. A L MOST WITHOUT OPEN I N G H I S MOUTH. TH E BEST A LTERNA­ TIVE S E E M E D TO B E A WALK IN THE BUSH. AT THE A LO N E CAR. I TOLD HIM THE FROM A L L S I D E S . H E G A V E M E THIS I N FO R M A T I O N IN THE FEWEST PO S S I B L E MOTIO N R I T E S THAT B E LO NG E D TO T H E S E C R E C Y OF MOO N L E S S PA DDOC K S . IN I N D ICATING HE WOULD LOOK AGA I N I FOU N D M YSELF EVEN MORE A LO N E TO A N D ONCE BELIEVE THE THEM.KNOWING B U S H M E N A N D T H E I R LOVE OF YARNS. PERSUADED HOM EST E A DS. A N D T H E S E B E A STS THE I R PARTNERS. AND I M ET NO OTH E R CARS A LONG M I LE S THE F ROM WAY. PANTING O N T H E END O F ITS C H A I N. LOOKED C U R IOUSLY HUMAN. BUT CLOS I N G IN ROOF SET I N T H E M I DD L E O F PADDOC KS W H E R E A FEW C A TTLE G R A Z E D . I S A W NO T R A C E OF A WOMAN'S PRESENCE ANYWHERE. N O R OF R ET U R N I N G TO THE CAR W H I L E T H E MAN WOR K E D . P E N D A N T FROM I T S J A W R E M I N D I NG M E A G A I N O F T H E M A N'S S P E E C H . A D I R T TRACK W I T H RUTS M A D E B Y A DRAY PROM I S E D A F A R M A T T H E E N D OF I T . W H I C H COULD BE R E AC H E D AS I BY C ROSSI NG ONE OF T H E THROUGH V I R G I N B U S H . T H R O U G H O N E OF T H E H A L F-OPEN DOORS I COULD SEE S E V E RA L MEN ON A I RO N B E DSTEAD. TH E H O M ESTE A D W A S A TYPI C A L WOODEN STRUC­ TU R E WITH VERANDAH A N D CORRUGATED I RO N W I THOUT HASTE. I SET OFF. ROO M S OCC U P I ED. I G N O R I N G W H A T GESTURES E V E N T U A LLY THE F I RST MAN RETU R N E D W I T H A L U ST TALES READY LITTLE THESE CAME TO OF B E ASTS BACK TEN DE R N ESS A TTE N D E D. R E LATED BY A K I N D OF M UT U A L Y E A R N I NG. T E L L I N G M Y S E L F THAT MOR N I NG. AND THEY I IF NOW I WERE TOO THE H A N D F U L O F TOOLS. T H E I R IN A SECON D BEEN ROOM COVETOUS E X PECTATIO N . THAT H U M A N I M A G E P R I NTED I N S I D E T H E I R S K U LLS. IT BACCH A N A L I N P R E PA R ATION BETW E E N THOSE M E N I N T H E H O U S E W A I T I N G F O R DA R K N E SS. C H ESTS A N D HORNS. B U T T H E H O U S E W A S S O S I LENT THE F I G U R E S ON THE BED M I G H T H AVE B E E N E F F I G I E S OR STRAW MEN. TO B E A F R A I D OR EXCITED. A S TH E Y A DVA NCED. TH E C U R I O SITY O F CATTLE WAS L ESS I NTI M I DATING TH A N TH E MEN WHO IGNORED ME. T H E M A N A N D T H E S T E E R . THE SOU N O S SO F L U I D AND U N FO R M E D THEY S E E M E D HA RDLY D I STI N G U I S H A B L E FROM THE STRING OF WHERE SHARE S A L I V A D R I P P I N G F R O M T H E DOG'S JAWS. TO A S A B BATH OF N A K E D 94 . T H E H U N T E R ' S ME. THE H O U S E WAS S U R P R I S I NGLY U N L I K E ITS COU NTERPA RTS. A ST E E R WITH A ST R I N G OF SLAVER BACKS A GA I NST T H E GROUP W A L L. WHEREAS I STOOD O U TS I D E OF THE C O M P L I C I TY . MYSTERY S U S P E CT E D : B E C A U S E O F THOSE H A LF-O P E N DOORS A N D T H E MEN FOR WHOM I MIGHT NOT HAVE E X I STED. A L I. B U T T H E R E WAS N O P A N I C : TH E Y C A M E TOW A R D M E . MY STI LL TWENTY STARTED Q U E E N STOWN. WITH ROO M S G R O U P E D HAPHAZAR DLY ON DI F F E R E N T L E V E LS. CATTLE R E P LA C E D T H E GRA�NG S L I P-RA I LS T H E EVERY HEAD STOPP E D AND TURNED IN MY D I R ECTI O N . I COU L D HAVE NO DOUBT OF TH E I R OBJECTIVE. I S U PPOS ED. OR A N OTH E R CA RDS MIGHT HAVE THE PLAYING WERE OR D R I N K I N G.. BUT I T MIGHT TAKE A N HOUR. BY A WA R R E N . TO FOLLOW. NOT O N LY FOLLOWI NG. SO THAT WHEN. B U T I R E A C H E D THE BACK DOOR BEFORE A MAN A P P E A R E D. I R E M A I N E D SC E PTI C A L OF T H E H U NTE R'S TALES. H I S I N A RTIC U LATE ATTE M PT A T C OM M U N ICATION. A N D I R E A C H E D TH E Y A R D AS THE M EC H A N I C RETU R N E D T O T E L L M E H E COULD M A K E T E M POR­ ARY R E PA I R S THAT S H O U L D G ET ME TO Q U E ENS­ BRAND. THE H E A DS. I F A N YT H I N G THEY VISIT A REGION TO MADE ME M O R E DETE R M I N E D TO NO THE WOMAN LIFE COULD BE WOR D S. IT R E SE M BLED A RABBIT OF WATER MIGHT BE D ETECTED BY A DROUGHT­ STR I C K E N H E RD. ALL OF THEM COM M U N I C A T I N G WITH THE K I TC H E N . A N D H A L F-WAY A C ROSS THAT STRETCH O F O P E N L A N D I BECA M E A W A R E THEY W E R E FOLLOW­ ING ME. I N W H I C H THE M E MORY OF FOR M E R MY RITUALS A RRIVAL A HAD BEEN BURNT LIKE A S E E M E D P R E F E R A B L E TO W A I T OUTS I D E W I T H T H E DOG. I N STEA D O F B E I NG D I V I D E D BY A C ENTRAL PASSAGE.M I ST O F DUST FROM WHICH E M E R G E D THE BUTTRESS OF TH E I R TROUBLE A N D WITHOUT A WORD H E WENT BACK I N TO TH E HOUSE L E A V I N G M E . R A I S I N G A GROU N D . B E FO R E TH E HOUR HAD IN RELEASED FOR M I D A B L E R E FL E X . THE C A TTLE A LSO STA RTED TO MOVE. E X PO S E D THE K I TC H E N . OF R E M OT E I H A D N O I NTENTION OF S P E N D I N G AN H O U R IN THE THE NEW ROAD HAD BEEN HACKED L I T E R A LLY V I C I N ITY O F THE H O U S E . A L I TTLE F U RTH E R O N . I H A D A S U D D E N V I S I O N O F T H E T W O TOGETH E R . S E TT I N G TOWN. FORTU N A T E LY. EACH O F THEM WOU L D K NOW WHAT W A S E X PECTED OF THE OTH E R .

S E E PED OUT OF EVEN AT THE W I L L TO AS MY R E S I ST BODY HAVE A DM I R E D ITS A R ROGA NCE H A D I NOT F E LT THOSE YELLOW E Y E S O N M E . AND SAW IN AND MY M I N D' S EYE TH E I R A RC H A I C PLA I NTIVE LOWI NG . ITS FLANKS M A R K E D BY STRI PES OF A D A R K E R G R E Y. AT A RECO N C I LIATI O N . R I S I N G R O D OF ITS SEX. S I N E W Y LEGS. ROLLING AND STRUGGLI N G AGA I NST THE CON TACT OF SEX A G A I N ST MY M O UTH. DOWN AS P I T I L E S S L Y A S TH E A BO R I G I N E S H A D B E E N H UNTED. A LWAYS O N T H E A LERT AGA I N ST A R M E D AND HOSTILE M E N . SET HIGH ON T H I N . H U NG E R OF HOW MANY CAMP FIRES WATC H E D FROM TH E RIM OF D A R K N ESS. AS IT RI PPED MY RECOG N IZE. A N D I H A L F-EX PECTED I T TO TU R N TA I L A N D SLOPE OFF INTO THE BUSH ES. E V E R Y M U SCLE TAUT. FOLLOW E D SECON D LEADING CATTLE STO P P E D. T H E LONG. D I R ECTI NG IT AGAINST M YSELF IN THE ONLY G ESTURE THAT COULD SAVE M E . A T E R ROR THAT STA RTED FROM MY A R M-PITS A N D STA N K THE C L E A R I NG. E XTE N D I N G U N D E R T H E B E LLY. BUT ONCE UNDER COV E R OF THE T R E E S M Y K N E E S BUCKLED U N D E R M E A N D I SA N K O N A F A L L E N LOG. PERHA PS. THAT S E N T A S H U DD E R A LO N G ITS R I BS LIKE WINO OVER WHEAT. M Y I M AG E DROWN I NG I N TH E I R EYES IN POO L S TA K I N G OF ANGUISH. A LMOST TOO BIG FOR A DOG. A N D AT ONCE THE DOG S HOWED ITSELF A L E RT." III M Y OVERTU R E S W E R E G R EETED BY A LOW SNA RL. I N THE BLI N D N ESS OF OU R BATTLE. A V U L N E R A B L E THING S LO U C H E D ON THE LOG. I THOUGHT OF T A K I N G R E F UGE I N A TREE. N O W TH E Y WERE A LL DEAD.M E N A N D BEASTS STU M B L I N G TO TH E I R K N E ES. OF CRIES THAT RESEMBLED AN I N H U MA N AND CR UELTY. N O R D I D I LOOK BACK T O SEE WHO HAD FIRED THE S HOTS. WHICH I C O U NTED O N BY BRAVING IT AS MY ONLY CHANCE OF ESCAPE. I SEIZED TH E BLACK S E X . VEER ED. I STILL EXPERIENCED THE S A M E F U RIOUS JOY AS W H E N I HAD WRESTLED WITH BOYS A N D P I N N E D THEM DOWN BY MY FORCE. THE POINTED M UZZLE L I FTED AND I SAW TH E TEETH. OF VOICES. A N D O N L Y T H I S W I LD DOG A N D I R E M A I N E D I N TH E I R H U NTING GRO U N DS. A N D THAT DISTA N T W A R M T H OF H U M A N B O D I E S . AND AT THAT I N STA N T THE WAS IT A DOG? C E R TA I N LY A BREED I D I D NOT DOG SPRANG. FEELING STIFLED BY THE THE DOG ' S R A N K STENCH OF FUR. SLOWLY. T H E C R E A T U R E'S SOLITUDE A S S A I LE D M E . EGON . IT WORKED WITH THE F R E NZY OF THE KI LL. B R EADTH H E I GHT. T H E COC K OF ITS EARS IN THE D I R ECTION OF T H E FARM. A N D DES PATC H E D W I T H THE S A M E 9 15 . I T TOOK A STEP I N TO THE C LE A R I N G A N D I COULD ALMOST TRIC KLED W H E R E TEETH TO R E THROUGH THE LAST RAGS O F CLOTH I N G . W H E R E I H A D BECOME TH E PREY. AND BLOOD REDOLENT O F SOME OBSC U R E M E MORY. NO DEFENCE E X I STED I N THAT P R I M A L SOLITU DE W H E R E T H E ABO R I G I N ES H A D WA NDERED AT A T I M E W H E N M A N D R E A M E D H I MSELF AS OTH E R THAN A N I M A LI TY. THE DOG C H A N G E D ITS S TA NCE. A N D I S A W . KNOC K I N G M E TO TH E GROU N D WITH THE WEIGHT OF ITS BODY. THE STA M PEDE TO THE F A R COR N E R OF T H E PADDOCK. I F THE SHOT H A D B E E N F I R E D AT M E I W O U L D H A VE ACCE PTED THE J U STICE OF ITS P U N I S H M E N T FOR M Y I NTRUSION . A N ECESSARY ACT S I N C E N O WOMAN SHOULD H A V E BEEN W I T N E S S TO THAT CONCEALED AND POI G N A N T I NT I M ACY. NOSTRILS TWITCHI N G TO CAPITULATED. AND IN THAT SAVAGE COU PLING WE A R RIVED. A N D I N VOLUNTA R I LY I STRETC H E D OUT A H A N D A N D S A I D : "HERE -CO M E H E RE. I B E G A N TO W A L K TOWA R D IT. BUT I T C RACKED OV E R THE BACKS OF BY THE A HERD LIKE S HOT. I WAS COV E R E D IN SLOB B E R . TH E R E STI LL L I V E D AFTER THE WA R THE LAST S U R V I V I NG M E M B E R O F THE K I SCH FA M I LY. A FEMALE TEETH CLOTHES. II I MUST HAVE STOPPED. KASPAR. TH E ODOR OF COOK I NG M EAT. A STOCK THE WHIP. SOMEHOW I M A N AGED TO REACH THE FENCE PUTTING O N E FOOT I N FRONT OF T H E OTH ER. I K N EW IF I TR I E D TO ESCAPE THE DOG WOULD HUNT ME I N T H E OLD TOWN O F PRAG U E W H E R E A RC H I M BOLDO ONCE VISITED THE A LCH E M I STS A N D COLLECTED OBJECTS FOR THE E M P E RO R R U DOLP H'S CABI N ET OF CURIOSITI ES. M Y R E G A R D N E V E R QU I TTING T H O S E Y E L LOW EYES. I N STEAD. THEN I WAS A F R A I D . WITHOUT R U N N I NG. B U R N I N G WITH THE ME LA ST. THE CR EATU R E SEEMED UNCERTA I N OF M Y I NTENTIONS. BUT I T W A S NOT A F R A I D OF M E . BUT MY STRE NGTH W A S NOT EQUAL TO THE DOG·S. A N D K N E W WHAT THAT M E A NT. I T H A D HEARD THE SHOTS NO DOUBT. HERD AND W ITH S U D D E N LY THEM IN A I STOOD UP. I F I C R I E D O U T M Y VOI C E WOU LD S K I M ACROSS TH E S I L E N C E OF THE B U S H A N D S I N K LIKE A PEBBLE. A PA R I A H TO J U DGE BY ITS WA R I N ESS. TH E I N V E N TOR O F " R E PORTAGE" H A V I NG D I E D A WEEK BEFORE M Y A R R I VAL.

D U R I NG OUR WALKS THROUGH PRAGUE. A P E A S A N T STIC K I NG H I S H A N D UP H E R H A BIT. S H E HAD. I SOM ETI M ES S U S P ECTED T H A T KASPAR'S BLACK H U MOUR SU BSTITUTED FOR H I S CHI LDHOOD ROLE OF "HE WHO GETS S LA P P E D. T H E GOOSE B E I NG A R A R E B I R D I N POST·W A R P R A G U E . AS A PALLIATIVE TO T H I S PRI VATION ONE OF THE MORE ENTE R P R I S I NG PROSTITUTES H A D SET U P A LITTLE TENT NOT FAR FROM T H E CAMP. ABLE. W E SAT OPPOSITE AT THE LONG TA BLE."TH E CLOWN. WHEN EVER YON E H A D GONE. AND D E SC R I B I NG WITH TOM B-STON ES. STANDING B E H I N D MY C H A I R W H I L E WE ATE. THE R EST OF THE FA M I LY P E R I S H E D. WHERE THE QUA RTER OF A THOUSA N D FLOW E R S H A D BEEN DECLARED OUT OF BOU NDS. NOT A LTO­ G E TH E R A FESTIVE OCCASION. KASPAR S A I D. SOBBI N G A U D I BLY AT EACH MOUTHFUL OF HER DEAR D E PARTED. HE FOLLOWED THIS BY SHOWING ME. NOW A VAGUE H U M MOCK ON THE GROU N D . FOR HOURS THE Q U E U E K E PT M O V I N G . CATH E R I N E DUNCAN 96 . THE SOLD I E R S B I VOUAC K E D ON THE EDGE OF T H E BOMB E D C I TY. I W I L L I NG L Y ACC E PT E D K A S PA R'S I N V I TATION TO SHARE I T WITH H I M ON C H R I STMAS EVE. VIOLENTLY. AND NOW KASPAR LIVED ALONE I N THE ECHOING APA RTM E NT. BEEN D E A D FOR A LONG TIME. CA RVING OF A N U N ON THE CHARLES BRI DGE. A N D D A R K N E S S C A M E BEFORE THE LAST M A N E M E RGED. AND IT HARDLY LIGHTE N E D T H E GHOSTLY ATMOS­ P H E R E WHEN THE HOU S E K E E P E R S E R V E D TH E GOOSE IN A FLOOD OF TEARS. A TEST OF HOW M UC H HE COULD ENDURE. WITH A HOUSEKEEPER TO LOOK AFTER HIM. D U R I N G THE E A R LY PERIOD OF THE WAR IN C H I NA W H E N C H A N G K A I S H E K STI LL. A N D T OO S M A L L F O R KASPAR'S BULK T O PENE­ TRATE EVEN ON H A N DS AND K N E E S. P E R H A PS FOR THE SAME REASON. WE VISITED TH E OLD JEWISH CEMETERY WHERE JOSTLING CENTU R I E S OF BAWDY B R U TA L I TY. ADDED TO ITS D ESOLATION. RE-ADJUSTING HIS U N I FO R M . A FORM OF PHYSICAL PA I N TO MASK THE I N TOLER· KASPA R'S S A R DO N I C DESC R I PTION OF THE SCENE. FATTEN I NG I T FOR C H R I STMAS. PROF E S S E D H I S A L L I A NC E WITH T H E 8TH ROUTE A R M Y I N FIGHTING THE JAPANESE. KASPAR TOOK H I S DOCTOR'S BAG A N D A PPROAC H E D THE TENT. IN FRONT OF W H I C H A LONG L I N E O F S O L D I E R S AWAITED T H E I R TURN." WAS THE YOUNGEST OF THE K I SCH BROTH ERS AND HAD ESCA PED TH E DESTI NY OF E U ROPEA N JEWS BY SERVING AS A S U RGEON WITH THE 8TH ROUTE ARMY I N C H I N A . HE TOR E UPON THE WRETC H E D SCR EEN AND ON ALL THAT EN DLESS PLAIN THERE WAS NOTH ING BUT A WOM A N LYING S P R E A D·EAGLED ON A MAT. I F. BUT WITH KASPAR I H A D BEC O M E H A B I T U A T E D TO M A C A B R E CON­ TRASTS. HE CHOSE THAT CH RISTMAS EVE TO TELL M E THE STORY OF THE C H I N ESE P ROSTITUTE. KASPAR FOU N D H I MSELF ON ONE OCCASION I N A TOWN HELD BY THE G E N E R A L'S TROOPS. OF THE Q U E U E OF SOL D I E R S ABSORBED BY TH E I R OWN N E ED." WHEN THE E LDER BROTH ERS DONGED H I M ON THE H E A D TILL H E WAS D IZZY. TH E S PACE IS SO L I M I T E D THE DEAD ARE B U R I E D ONE ON TOP OF ANOTH ER. SHE WAS A TACITURN WOMAN WHO K E PT A GOOSE ON T H E LAN DING. I THE ONLY GUEST TO OCC Upy ONE OF THOSE E M PTY CHAIRS. OF ITS FLIMSY TENT J U ST LA RGE ENOUGH FOR TWO R EC U MBENT BODI E S O N E ON TOP OF THE OTH E R.

T H E C H I LD BEING PLACED O N THE S I D E OF THE LOW LI EST E M PLOYE E S WHOSE F E ET H E WOULD B E HAPPY TO LICK). P E R M ITTING MANY COMIC E F F ECTS. F R O M W H I C H T H E FA M I LY BORROWS I T S O W N POW E R . SUCH ATTO R N E Y.A C C U S E D A S S U M E O E D I P U S ' I N O R D I N A T E L Y D I ST E N D E D (GROSSI ) MASK. O R ECONOMIC. WH E R E TH E FATH ER N O LONGE R EXI STS AS SUCH (OR E L S E T H E 97 . FATH E R . TO BOW A N D TO M A K E OTH ERS B O W TH E I R H E A DS. AN AGITATION.A B LOATED O E D I P U S TWO YEARS KAFKA AFTER T H E L E TT E R T O H I S FATH ER.A WHOLE WILL R E LATION-LI M I T T H E OUTSIDE WHICH POLITICAL E T C . THEY C A M E UPON ME F L UTT E R I NG L I K E FLIES AND COULD HAVE BEEN C H A S E D AWAY A S E A S I LY." I T T U R N S OUT THAT OEDIPUS I S O N E O F T H E S E M EA NS. BECA M E COMMON IN F R U E D'S TIME. J U DGE­ IN THE TRIAL. P R ACTI CING B E G I N N I N G : THROUGH THE F A M I LY P HOTO.E M PLOYEE­ C H I LD. ANOTH E R T E R M W H I C H S U F FICES T O DE-FA M I L I A L­ IZE THE WHOLE PICTU R E ( I N THIS W A Y THE F A M I LY STORE E NACTS THE TRIANGLE. SOMETI MES O N E O F T H E T E R M S OF THE F A M I LY T R I A NG L E IS R E PLAC E D BY DI SSATISFACTION I N A S U F F I C I ENTLY SYSTEMATIC M A N N E R .M OTH E R-CHI LD) A R E DISCO V E R E D OTH E R . O R I S T H E T R I ANGLE. A M A P O F TH E W H O L E WORLD. U N H A PP I N ESS W E R E TH E Y M A Y H A V E H A D A C E R T A I N N E C E SSITY. BEHIND THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE A D M I TS T H A T HE DI SSATIS FACTION. O R B U R E A UCRATIC. I T S U F F I C E S TO ENLARGE U PO N IT: "IT IS STRA NGE T H A T. AT OTH E R T I M E S THE WHOLE T R I A N G L E C H A NGES ITS FORM A N D C H A R ACTERS. OR ELSE I N "TH E J U DG M E NT' THE RUSS I A N F R I E N D TAKES THE PLACE OF O N E O F TH E T E R M S O F T H E TRIANGLE A N D TRANSFORMS I T INTO A J U D I C I A L OR CON D E M NATORY A P P A R ATUS. MOLECULAR WITH DANCE. I T S M I SSION TO PROPOGATE S U B M I SSION. "TH R E W H I M S E L F I NTO FOR TH E E F F E CT OF COMIC DISTE N S I ON I S DOUBLE. I N F I N ITELY M O R E ACTIVE T R I A NGLES. W H I C H ." T H A T I S THE ESSENTIAL THING: BEYOND A EXTERIOR AND I NT E R I O R . BECA U S E THAT I S WHAT TH E INFANTILE L I B I DO I NVESTS FROM THE ERA AND TRADITION. ANY COM E D Y CAN BECOM E A R E A LITY." A N D THAT HE D I D SO "WITH ALL TH E M EA N S M A D E ACCESS I B L E TO ( H I M ) BY (HIS) (FATHE R . BUT NOT A N I NTE R N A L N E C E S S I TY. ON ONE H A N D. AND I S SHOWN TO B E J U D I C IA L." BUT KA FKA DOES NOT C H A LLENGE TH E EXTE RIOR I N F L U E NC E O F T H E FATH E R I N ORDER TO I N VOKE A N I NTERIOR G E N E S I S O R A N I N T E R N A L STRUCTU R E WHICH WOULD STI LL B E O E D I P A L "IT I S I M POSS I BLE FOR M E TO ADMIT THAT THE B EG I N N I NGS OF M Y I N T E R N A LL Y N E C E S S A R Y . QUITE MODERN.

BUT HE N EVER CEASES T O RETER RITOR I ALIZE I N H I S FA M I LY. OR ELSE THE GEO­ PO L I T I C A L . THEY LOV E ME A S W E I SS'S VAC U U M . I N S PECTOR. BUT BECAUSE THEY F E E L THAT I N M Y GOOD M O M ENTS AND I N 98 . SINCE THE FATH ER HAD DONE NOTHING BUT BOW H I S HEAD. M A I DS. OR T H E F A S C I ST M A C H I N E ." FOR THIS REASON. HATC H . T H E CONTA M I N ATION OF SUSPICIOUS SPACES. . THREE UNIDENTIFIED C H A R A C T E R S A R E T R A N S FO R M E D I N TO T H R E E B A N K WORK E RS. SUBMIT TO A POWER WHICH WAS NOT H I S OWN . TOPPLING H E A D OVE R H E ELS. I N A S M UC H A S H E I S A JEW WHO LEAVES T H E C O U N T R Y TO G E T ESTABLI S H E D I N T H E CITY. P U T H I M S ELF AT A N I M PASS B Y BETRAYING H I S R U R A L JEWISH CZECH ORIGI N. ( . A N EQ U I VALENT OF WHICH . F O R M S OF B E C O M I N G . I N THE FI RST REPR ESENTATION OF T H E LAW COU RT. THERE IS STI LL A WELL.D E F I N E D T R I A N G L E WITH TH E J U DGE A N D TWO SIDES. B U R E A UC R ATS. BUT ONE I S U LTI MATELY WITNESS TO A N INTERNAL PROLIFERA­ TION S I M I LAR TO A CANCEROUS I NVASION. OR BECA USE TOGETHER T H E SIDES ARE CONTI N UOUSLY B E I NG DEFORMED. A THE POS S I B I LITY OF A N ESCAPE ROUTE OF FLIGHT APPEARS. I N A MOBILE RELATION S H I P WITH TH E THREE I N SPECTORS_ AND WITH THE THREE B USY-BODIES GROUPED AT THE W I N DOW. RIGHT AND LEFT. TH E I R FATHE R'S E M PLOYEES. OR OTH E R PROLI FERATING TRIOS. J U DGES. A S FOR A RC H ETYPES. PROLIFE RATION OF ONE OF THE T E R M S OR V ERTICES. ETC. AT THE B EG I N N I N G OF THE TRIAL. T H U S . I N T H E SYSTEM O F H I S A UTHORITY A N D S U B M I S S I O N S . ) THOSE W H O W A N T E D TO B E GERMANS HAD TH E M S E LVES ATTACKED BY CZECHS. B ECOM I N G­ A P E. BANK E M PLOYEES. FROM THE START. IN H I M S E L F . AND AT TH E SAME TIME BY GERMANS. T H E FATH E R I S NO D O U B T CA UGHT I N A MOV E M E N T O F REAL D E T E R R I TO R I A L I ZA T I O N . ! N ONE OF ITS TERMS. OR S U D D E N LY AND COMPLETELY IN FAVOR OF T H E POWERS WHICH ACTU ALLY ARE AT WO R K . THOUGH IN COMPLETELY D I F F E R E NT TERMS.A N I M A L A R E J U S T T H E OPPOS I T E : A T L E A S T I N P R I N C I PA L. F U RTH E R MO R E . POLICE OFFICERS. TO TA K E H I S T R I A L SERIOUSLY AT ALL COSTS) . H A V I NG L E FT THE RURAL CZECH M I L I E U B E H I N D F O R A N U R B A N . IN HIS MOT H E R . RATHER IT IS THE FATH E R WHO IS B U R E A UC RATS. . K NOCK "DIABOLICAL POWERS" THAT REJOICE EXCESSIVELY AT THE PROSPECT O F ENTERING ONE DAY. . (TH E J EWS) WERE R E P ROAC H E D FOR NOT BEING CZECHS_ IN SAAZ A N D IN EGER FOR NOT BEING GERMANS.C Z E C H S . A R E L I A B L E TO BE ATTA C K E D FROM BOTH SI DES-A TRANSFORMA­ TIONAL TRIANGLE. NOR ANY SIGN I F I E R WHICH M A N U FAC­ TURES ANXI ETY OR PLE A S U R E .UNCLE-LAWYER-BLOC K TRIO_ A N XIOUS FOR K. HAS NOTH ING T O DO WITH E I TH E R A FATH E R SUBSTITUTE OR A N A RC H ETYPE. A R E NOT FATH E R S U B STI­ TUTES. I N H I S B U S I NESS. I N H U M A N ITY OF "DIABOLICAL POWERS" A N S W E R S TH E S U B. COU LD BE FOU N D I N PROUST W H E R E THE UN ITY OF C H A RACTE RS A N D THE F I G U R E S THEY CONSTITUTE GIVE WAY TO N E B U LO U S FOR M S . I T I S BECAUSE I N H I S YOUTH HE H I M S E L F C O N F R O N T E D C E R TA I N POWERS" AT TH E R I S K OF B E I N G " D I A BO LI C A L OVERCO M E B Y T H E M . A S A BECOMI NG. E T C. THERE I S NO C H I LD I N C A PABLE OF K NOWING TH I S : THEY EACH H A V E A GEOGRAPHI­ C A L A N D POLITICAL M A P WHOSE M A R K I NGS A R E D I FFUSED A N D S H I FTI NG. THE RUSSIAN B U R E A UC R ATIC MACHINE. A DIFFUSENESS AND ARE P E R PE T U A L L Y C H A N G I N G I N TO O N E EITHER BY M E A NS OF A SU DDEN A N OTH E R . I N T H E S A M E W A Y . IT COULD BE SAID THAT TO THE EXTENT iHAT THE FA M i L Y TRIANGLE I S UNDONE. T H E S E I N STANCES OF BECOMI NG-A N I M A L AND T H E A N I M AL. THE I N FINITE AND UNGRASPABLE H I E RARCHY. TOO WELL FO R M E D . A N D I F T H E F A T H E R R ET A I N S T H E L O V E A N D ESTI MATION O F H I S SON. B L U R R E D GROUPI NGS. E V E N I F ONLY D U E TO N A N N I E S . J U DGE A N D J U DG E D . G E R M A N ENSEMBLE." RATH E R THAN TO BOW THE HEAD A N D R E M A I N A B U R E A UC RAT. OTH E R T R I A N G L E S P U S H I NG OUT F R O M B E H I N D HAVE A CERTA I N F L U I D ITY. W H I C H PARADES B E H I N D KA FKA'S FATHER: " I N PRAGUE. B E C O M I NG. H E R E A G A I N . T O T H E E X T E N T T H A T O E D I PUS' C O M I C E N LA RG E M E N T A L LOWS TH E S E OTH E R OPPR ESSIVE T R I A NGLES TO B E SEEN U N D E R THE M I C ROSC O P E . "TO R U N OFF.B E E T L E . T H E Y A R E ABSOLUTE D E T E R RITORI A LIZATIONS EMBEDDED I N TH E A R I D WORLD W H I C H KAFKA H A S ACTIVATED. THE FA M I LY HAS ONLY DOORS AT WH ICH. THE FATH ER'S HYPOTH ETI C A L I N NOCENCE A N D DISTRESS FOR M S THE WORST ACCUSATION. THUS. T O PROLIFERATING. BEH I N D T H E FATH E R I S TH E WHOLE N E B U LOUS GROUP O F J E W S WHO.DOG. FOR. T H E Y A R E PROCESSES OF S P I R I T U A L RETER R I TO RI A LI ZATION. BUT RATH E R THE A M E RICAN TECHNOC RATIC M A C H I N E. COM M I SS I O N E R S . THE FAM I LY T R I A NGLE WAS O N L Y A CATA LYST FOR I NVESTMENTS OF A COM PLETELY D I F F E RENT NATURE W H I C H THE C H I LD N EVE R CEASES TO D I SCOV E R B E N EATH H I S FATH ER. G E R M A N S .J E W S . TO T H E CONDENSED FROM ALL T H E S E FORCES TO WHICH H E SUBM ITS AND I NCITES HIS SON TO SUBM IT. THOSE WHO BEEN LOVE ME LOVE ME BECAUSE I H A V E A N D P E R H A P S I T I S N O T THAT IN K A FKA_ IT IS N E I T H E R THE FATH ER. TH E R E A R E N O C H I LDREN W H O DON'T CONSTRUCT OR SENSE THESE ESCAPE ROUTES. NOR THE S U P ER-EGO. THE ENTANGLEMENT OF OFFICES AND I N E XTRICABLE A BA N DO N E D . J U DG ES . "MY WORLD'S POWE R OF ATTRACTION I S GREAT TOO.H U M A N I T Y OF B ECO M I N G A N I M A L : B E CO M I N G.

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ON THE AN THESE THEN ARE THE TWO E FFECTS OF TH E DEVELOP M E N T O R COMIC BLOATING O F O E D I PUS: TH E D ISCOV E R Y A CONTRARIO OF OTHE R T R I ANGLES. W H E R E CONTENTS B R E A K J U ST AS EXPRESSIONS D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D B Y H U M A N FORCE. ONLY C O R R E S PO N D TO G R A D I E N TS CROSSED. TH E S C H I ZO DIFFERENCE. T H E R E WAS NO 1 00 . A S IF "EV E N AT HOME H E E XPECTED TO HEAR TH E VOIC E HAND." IN R E A LI T Y . IN BUT D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z E S MORE BECOM I NG . FLIGHT IS AFFIRMED AS A PLACE. OF NON-SIG N I FY I N G KAFKA'S OR A N IMALS A NEVER REFER BUT TO SIGNS. A N D N O T F O R A N Y OTH E R REASON. T H E DOG S E E K S T O G R A B T H E G R EATEST D I F F E R E N C E . B U S I N E S S A N D B U R E A U ­ C R ATS. TH I S BECO M I N G AND IS PRE­ WOULD S E E M T O S H O W THE TI E BETW E E N T H E S E TWO A S P ECTS B E TT E R T H A N "TH E M E T A M O R P H O S I S .A N OTH E R S P H E R E . A PE S . B U T T H E PRODUCTI ON O F A CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S IN AN APARALLEL WHERE MAN AND ASYM­ NOT A N D O F TH E M S E LV E S . A POS S E S S I O N . IN THE S A M E M A N N E R. AND SOON A N I M A LS . TH E A FORTIORI M A R K I N G OUT OF T H E O R PH A N E D BECOM I NG . I N S U C H A W A Y T H A T A S A R E S U LT M Y F I RST TEAC H E R BECAME A PE-LI K E H I M S E LF .M O U S E . Q UITE IS THE ONLY CONTRARY. IN ORDER TO FLEE WITH TH E ORCH I D : S E I Z U R E OF A B I T O F CODE A N D N O T I M A G E R E PRODUCTION. R E PORT TO A C A D E M Y" FO R E X A M P L E . BUT MORE I M PORTANTLY. B U T A BECOM­ ING-H U M A N SENTED AS FROM A APE. A N D N E V E R A R E PRODUCTION O R I M I TATION. T H E ENTI R E B EG I N N I N G O F "A R E PORT" I NS I STS O N TH I S POINT. FOR PASSAGEWAY TUBER TH E S E PASSAGE W A Y S ARE U N DERGRO U N D I NTEN­ SITIES.A N I M A L FROM H U M A N ." IT IS TRUE THAT K A F K A'S A N I M A L TEXTS ARE FAR MORE COM P L E X FA R THAN WE IN SAY. " THE B U R E A UC R AT I C TOG E TH E R : TRIANGLE FI RST PROG R ES S I V E L Y IS TH E CHIEF S I M PL E I M I TATION. R E J ECTED BUT. "A OR. A C O U G H "SEEMS WORRISOME. DOGS. A RC H ET Y P E S M Y T H O L OG Y .AN I M A L'S ESCAPE ROUTES. THE O RC H I D S E E M S TO R E P RO D U C E A B E E'S I MAGE.A P E . BUT THE D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D AND A N I MA L FORC E IN OUT B R E A K O U T O F T H E S I G N I F I E R W H I C H FOR M A L I Z E S TH E M . APPARENT W H A T I S A T STA K E I S N O T T H E R E PRODUCTION O F F I G U R ES . A N SIGNI FICATIONS S I G N I F I EDS." BUT H A S NO S I G N I F I C A N C E TI VE-A P E ) . T O F I N D A WORLD O F P U R E INTENSITIES WHERE A L L FORMS AS W E L L AS ALL U N DO N E . I AM ACCORDED THE F R E E DOM OF MOVEMENT WHICH IS COM PLETELY LAC K I N G OTH E R SOLUTION FOR M E S I N C E W E W A R D E D O F F THE POS S I B I LITY O F THE I M ITATION F R E E DOM. THE N THE R E IS TH E FATH E R WHO H A S RETU R N E D TO WORK AT THE B A N K A N D WHO SLEEPS I N HIS U N I FO R M TH E R E B Y M A K I N G E V I D E N T T H E YET EXTERIOR FORCE TO WHICH H E I S SUBJ ECTED. T H I S W A Y O U T I S N O T THE R E S U LT OF F L I G HT. NOTH I N G IS L E FT BUT MOV E M E NTS. IN THE ( B ECOMI NG-CO N S U M P­ A PAINFUL D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z I N G FLUXES O V E R F LOWS T H E L I M I T S O F STI L L T E R R I TO R I A L I M ITATION. D E T E R R I TOR I A L I Z E S BECO M E S A C OC K R O A C H NOT ONLY I N ORDER TO FLEE FROM H I S FATH E R . I I M ITATED BECA U S E I WAS LOO K I N G F O R A W A Y O U T . V I B R A ­ IN A DESERTED M A TT E R : TURN PRECI PITATES I NT E N S I F I E S THE TH R E S H O L D S D E T ER R I TO R I A LI ZATION O F T H E DETE R RITORI A L I Z­ I NG H U M A N FORC E ( I F IT C A N BE SO pun. " THUS IS CONSTITUTED A CONJUNCTION WHICH OF D E P R I V E S WOR D S O F TH E I R M U S I C A N D M E A N I NG.I NSECT. AS ON ONE COMES TH E R E C L E R K W H O COMES I N ORDER TO M E N A C E . AN ANIMAL C A PT U R E D BY MAN IS DETERR ITOR I A LI Z E D F L U X . FLE E I NG IN IN RETURN. IN THE BY SOME OR U N D E RG R O U N D B U R ROW. I F IT I S A Q U E STION OF F I N D I N G A W A Y OUT (A WAY OUT A N D N O T " F R E E DOM"). IS ONLY ON THE OTH E R SINCE H E R E . A D D ITION A L V A L U E . T O T R A C E ROUTE O F FLIGHT I N A LL ITS POS I T I V I TY. I N O R D E R T O R EA C H THAT R E G I O N W H E R E TH E VOICE N O LON G E R D O E S A N YTH I N G BUT B UZZ­ "'DID YOU HEAR HIM S P E A K I NG? THAT WAS AN A TT A C K S S U S P I C I O U S T E M PTATI O N S O F R E S E M B L A N C E W H I C H I M A G I N ATION M A Y PROPOSE TO H I M : " T H ROUGH H I S SOL I T U D E . I N THE B ECOM I NG . I N " I N V E STIGATIONS OF A DOG. COCK ROAC H E S C A N O N L Y B E D I ST I N G U I S H E D B Y V A R I O U S T H R ESHOLDS. M I C E . I N OF ARE FAVOR OF A N U N FO R M E D MATTER. IN IT A T T H E S A M E T I M E THAT T H E IN COUPLING TU R N ."). I'VE S N UC K AWAY. T O EXACT COM PLIANCE. G R E GO R PROFO U N D L Y BEE. O N L Y A S E E M I NGLY LI BERATING MOTION. VARIOUS V I BRATIONS. SQU E E K W I N S O U T O V E R T H E VOICE A N D SC R A M ­ BLES THE R E SO N A N C E OF WORDS. TO CROSS A T H R E SHOLD. A W H I ST L I N G H A D TO G I V E UP T E A C H I N G TO ENTER A N A S Y L U M . I T I S NOT A QU ESTION O F A BECOM I NG . TIONS. A N I M AL'S V O I C E : T H E C H I E F C LERK DECLA R E D. TO REACH A CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S WITH V A L U E ONLY I N H A N D. "MY A P E N A T U R E F L E D OUT O F M E. " I W A S N 'T S E D U C E D BY TH E NOTION OF I M ITATION. S I MPLER. IN TH E B E CO M I N G . NO TEXT CONTRARY. TO F I N D A W A Y OUT AT T H E VERY POI N T W H E R E H I S FAT H E R COU L D FIND NONE. FLIGHT USELESS MOTION I N S P A C E . " TO BECOM E A N I M A L I S PREC I S E L Y T O M A K E TH E MOTION. S I G N I FI ERS AND M ET R I C A L E VO L U T I O N DOES BECOM E L E S S A P E T H A N T H E A P E B E C O M E S M A N . TO ZON E S OF FREED INTENSITIES OF TH E I R FOR M S . THE B E CO M I NG I S A SEIZURE. H E A D O V E R H E ELS A N D A W A Y ." ANY INKLING OF RESEMBLANCE I S E LI M I N ATED: EVEN MORE E N E RG E T I C A L L Y "T H E KAFKA F R O M THE C H I E F C L E R K . FLIGHT BY I N T E N S ITY ("THAT'S WHAT I'VE DON E .

FROM THEN ON. SUBSTITUTE I N IT. JEALOUS O F T H E POR­ TRAIT. BUT G R E GO R R E F U S E S T O ALLOW T H E M T O TAKE AWA Y THE PORTRAIT O F THE LADY M U FFLED I N FURS. H I G H VOLTAGE I N C E ST." THE FACT I S THAT K A FKA'S P R I N C I P A L A N I M A LE SQ U E TEXTS WERE W R I TT E N J U ST BEFORE THE TRIAL. TOO SIGNI FYING.H U M A N I N C E ST W H I C H LIKE TH ERE I S THE I NTRUSION O F THE TH R E E BUREAU­ CRATIC BOAR D E R S WHO NOW PENETRATE THE VERY FAM I LY. GI LLES DELEUZE AND FELIZ GUATTA RI EXCERPTED FROM KAFKA TRANSLATED BY RACHEL MCCOMAS 101 . BUT. M A N I FE STS A N ON . O R COEXTENSIVE WITH I T A S A COUNTERPART TO THAT NOVEL WHICH IS FREED FROM ANY ANIMAL PROBLEMATIC. H E CLINGS TO TH I S PORTRA I T A S T O A LAST TERRITORI ALIZED I MAGE. APPLE E N C R USTED IN HIS BACK. T H E MOT H E R AND G REGOR FOR M E R LY OCCUPI ED. T H E R E A N I M AL. RATHER. A DEQUATE T O EXORCIZE A L L RE-CLOSING. IT COULD BE S A I D THAT AT A CERTA I N MOMENT G REGOR'S DETERRITORIALIZING PROCESS. THIS IS WHAT HIS SISTER C A N N OT TOLERATE.OF HIS SUPERIOR:" FINALLY. COCKROACH. SHE ACCE PTED H I M . ALL OF A S U DDEN O P POS E D TO O E D I P A L I N C EST. ISN'T IT TRUE THAT FORMS OF BECOM ING-A N I M A L FAI L TO FULFILL TH E I R OFFICE AND ALWAYS RETAIN A N AMBIGUITY THAT MAKES THEM I N S U F FI C I E NT A N D CO N D E M N S THEM TO BECAUSE THE R E I S STI L L DANGER OF A RESUR­ G E N C E OF O E D I P A L MASTERY. O N E CANNOT E V E N B E CERTAIN THAT G REGOR W A S AT FAULT. TOO TERRI TORIALIZED? DOESN'T T H E BECOMI NG-A N I M A L. I N T H I S S E NSE. DUNG­ OEDIPALIZED B Y THE TOSS OF AN A PPLE A N D C A N ONLY DIE." A N D. THE BECOM I NG­ ANIMAL ASPECT OF GREGOR'S DETE R RITORIA LlZA­ TION FA I LS : HE A L LOWS H I M S E L F TO BE RE­ TIVE LY. TH E F A M I LY'S DETE R R I TO R I A L I ZATION INTO MORE COM PLEX A N D DIABOLICAL TRIANGLES HAS NO ROOM TO CARRY ON: THE FATHER KICKS OUT TRIANGLE. TH E I N C R EASING P E R V E R S ITY OF THE USAGE HAS N OT BEEN FAI LURE? A REN'T A N I M A LS THE M SELVES STI LL TOO FORMED. IS AT THE S A M E TIME A SCHIZO BEAST. I S GREGOR A T F A U LT I N THAT H E DOES NOT DARE TO GO ALL THE WAY? H I S SISTER WANTED TO CLEAR OUT H I S WHOLE ROOM I N ORDER TO PLEASE H I M . HIS IS G R EGOR'S W H O L E BECOM I NG­ BECOMI NG-BEETLE. HIS BECOMING-AN I M A L. LIKE GREGOR S H E WANTED SCHIZO I NC E ST. I S O N E FARTHE R A W A Y THAN EVER F R O M A WAY O U T ? W H Y DOES ONE REMAIN STUCK I N A N I M PASS? IT I S THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE'S PATER N A L PRINCI PAL. AT THE V E R Y I N STANT O N E BELIEVES HE HAS CAUGHT HOLD OF THE TIE BETWEEN OEDIPUS' BEYOND AND BEFORE IAU-DELA ET EN· DECAl. B E ETLE. THE FAM I LY C LOSES H A PPILY IN ON ITSELF. IN REALITY. THE DOG. I N FAVOR O F A H I G H E R CONCERN. THE THREE BUREAUCRATIC BOARDERS. I NC E S T WITH T H E S I STER A S OSCILLATE BETWEEN A SCHIZO ESCA PE A N D AN OEDIPAL I M PASS? OEDIPAL ANIMAL PAR EXCEL­ LENCE. WAS BLOCKED. SHE BEGINS TO HATE G R EGOR AND CONDEM NS H I M. AS A WHOLE. TAK E TH E I R SEATS "IN THE PLACES WHICH THE FATH ER. COR R E LA­ S E X U A L I TY BECOM I NG-AN I M A L. A N D ESPECIALLY IN R ELATION TO THE BUREAUCRATIC AND COMM E R C I A L TRIANGLE. "THE M ETAMORPHOSIS" IS TH E EXEM PLARY STORY OF A RE-OEDIPALIZATION. OF WHICH KAFKA FR EQUENTLY SPEAKS I N HIS D I A RY AND LETTERS. M A Y-BUG. WHICH TRACE S THE INTENSE E SC A P E ROUTE IN R E LA T I O N TO T H E FA M I LY L I K EWISE. A L L RECONSTITUTION OF THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE WHICH ITSELF TAKES C H A RGE OF OTH E R TRIA NGLES AS IT DOES OF THE ANIMAL ROUTES. RETURN TO BUT WHY. S U C H AS THE MUSICIAN DOGS I N "INVESTIGATIONS" OR THE DIABOLICAL DOG IN "THE TEMPTATION AT THE VI LLAGE.

PROMONTORY WHEN I SAW THE YACHT WHICH H A D B E L.OVED E M MA S O M UC H T H A T I FILLED H E R WITH MYSEL.ED. I DOUBL. O W COASTLI N E WAS A M E R E M A R G I N OF S A N D AT T H E B A S E OF A N A B R U PT CLI FF. THE L. I WAS STE E R I NG AROUND THE HORN OF A S M A L. W H Y D I DN'T I CON FIDE M Y PLAN TO HER? WHY SHOULD 17 T H E PRESENT IS THE PRESENT A N D TH AT'S ENOUGH.E TO 1 02 . I SET A BOUT TO F I N D A MORE FAVORABL. L.ESS OCE A N BARELY RI PPLED B E N EATH THE PROW OF M Y BOAT. THEN CONTI N U E ON FOOT.Y BEFORE ME. THE MOON WAS IN FRONT OF M E.F.T E R FOR IT. I T WAS F U L L : THE CYC L E WAS COM PLETED. AND DO U BTL. M I LKY AND V E I L. BUT S ETTI NG. THE WAVEL. WHEN SHE H A D GON E T O SL. BUT T H E CL. A N D ON T H E N A R ROW BEACH. W H I L E A P I N K F I NGER ON T H E HORIZON A N NOUNCED T H E ADVENT OF D A Y .ONGED TO T H E COUNTESS. A N D I SAW AS ON THE FI RST EVENING THE MOON E M E RG E D FROM THE SEA. AND.A N D I NG M Y BOAT AND F I N DI NG S H E L. I L. I WENT T O A RATH ER DISTANT CREEK HAVE WHERE THE BOATS WERE K E PT. FATIG U E R E N D E R E D M E ACUTEL. THAT WAS GOI NG ON BETWEEN THE A I R A N D THE WATER-ACTIVITY TOO I NTA NG IBL.Y AWA R E OF ALL. BUSIED MYSEL. B E C A PTU R E D IN A WORD. THERE C A M E A M I LD E R EVENING WITH A LITTLE FOG ON T H E HORIZON. IT M UST BEEN TWO IN THE MORNING: I HAD J UST TI M E TO R E A C H T H E I S L.Y A NOI S E B E H I N D M E M A D E M E T U R N A RO U N D: A N E NORMOUS N I GG E R ACCOM P A N I E D B Y T W O M A STIFFS WAS WATC H I NG ME.F WITH L.IFF CONTIN U E D TO PRESENT T H E SA M E RIGHT A NGLE. I DECI D E D THE T I M E HAD C O M E .ESS-FOR A T THAT MOMENT M Y M I N D COUL.E PORT. A LTHOUGH I USED THE OARS I N O R D E R TO GO FASTER THAN THE COM ING DAY. ALTHOUGH M Y DREAMS REMAINED UNDER THE SIGN OF THE H U NTER'S MOON. IT TRIGG E R E D IN M E A N E W FEAR. I WAS ON MY WAY.D D I SC E R N NO D I V I SION BETWEEN THEM-TI M E WAS C A R RY I NG M E A S T H E S E A WAS CARRYING M Y BOAT. HAVING TOUCHED SHOR E . ENOUGH DAYBREAK.EEP. BESIDES. PERHAPS BECAUSE I T WAS TOO WH ITE.ED BACK AND DECIDED TO L. I SAW THE ISLAND.T H E DOGS THE C E RTAI NTY OF MY COMI N G DEPARTU R E H A D R E STORED MY TASTE F O R E M MA. I H A D N EI TH E R M EMORY NOR PRESE NT.A N D B E F O R E S U D D E N L. I WAS CROSSING. I MYSELF H A D NOT SET T H E DAY. S U D D E N L. I T H E R EFORE M A NOEUVERED I N THAT D I R ECTION AND.

HIS I M M E N S E BODY DOM I NATED ME. TOO. P R E P A R I NG M Y N E R V E S TO OBEY I N STANT­ LY. I DI DN'T D A R E LOOK. THE I R TO N G U E S N O W M Y GAZE. THE NIGGER STRA I G HT­ I R E M E M B E R . WHEN MY PENIS I HAD IT A PPROACH I NG . THE M A N M A D E A N OTH E R SIGN. A VAGU E S M I LE S H O W E D H I S TEETH. M Y P E N I S WAS THE OTHER. BUT T H E DOGS WORKED S K I LL­ ENED U P . T H E N I G G E R L E A N E D OVER ME. WAS COLD. BEFORE I COULD H E E LS I R E S I STED. I D I D N'T MOVE.I S M I LED AT T H E M A N : HE R E M A I N E D I M PASSIVE. SUDDENLY H E DREW A D A G G E R F R O M H I S POCKET A N D A S THE DOG L E A PT A W A Y . IT F E LL. IN A M A TT E R OF SECONDS I WAS N A KED. IT GRAZED M Y FOR E H E A D SLIGHTLY A T THE B A S E OF MY NOSE. SAW FOOT TOWA R D M Y FACE. I D I DN'T MOVE. I KNEW I MUST NOT MOVE. I COULD NO LONGER ME SEE H I M. AND T H E I R SLAVER. B E H I N D ME: ITS R E D N ESS. "SUCK BREATHE DEE PLY. S PA C E I N THAT I N STA NT. I CONTI N U ED: LONGER STRUGG L I NG AGAINST FEA R BUT A G A I NST THE ABOM I NABLE AWOKE A LONG T E M PT A T I O N IN MY I WHICH THOSE MY TO "I HAVE M ET T H E COU NTESS. S O T O SPEAK. THE LONG HAD PINK AN W H I PS HANGING TH E I R M A WS A M AZING SUPPLEN ESS A N D E N A BLED THE T W O Q U A D R U P E DS TO ENCI RCLE M Y P R I C K A N D PROBE MY A N U S WITH I R R ES I ST I B L E WHICH TATED I WAS VIGOR. I SAW HIM BEND H I S LEGS. TH E I R L I PS C U R LE D BACK IN A S N A R L. AND THE TWO MONSTE R S LEA PT ON ME. 1 03 . I C H O K E D B A C K THE C R Y WHICH ROSE THE DOGS STRETC H E D TH E I R N EC K S TOWA RDS ME: THE MAN I N M Y TH ROAT. H I S EYES A N D THOSE OF T H E A N I M A LS E X A M I N E D M E WITH A N A B S E N C E O F C U R IOSITY A N D COLDN E SS THAT WAS F R I G H T E N I NG. WI LLPOWER M IGHTI LY TO K E E P F R O M BECOMING E R ECT. STI L L COLO. A B U N D A NTLY TASK BY D R E N C H ED. B U T T H E LENGTH OF T H E I R TONGUES GAVE THE DOGS A TH I N K OF MOVING. ANOTH E R M I NUTE AND I WAS NO 010 NOT C H A NG E HIS STATU E-LI K E POSITION. T H E S H A DOW C OV E R E D COMPLETELY. SLOWLY. FULLY WITH T H E I R T E ETH A N D CLAWS: THEY D I DN'T HARM M E. BUT THE HIS AIR H A N G I NG OUT: T H E Y WATC H E D M E C LOSELY. FURIOUSLY. I WOULD LIKE TO N G U E S SCROTU M . "WHATE V E R IN YOUR YOUR TH E I R GIVI NG MEMBER I LLUSION O F ENTE R I N G A HOSPITA BLE PORT. E X E RT E D A RO U N D HEAD FROM MY THE M A N MADE A N I M P E R C E PT I B L E SIGN. R E P U LSIVE P A L LO R O F THAT GOURD STRI ATE D WITH PINK W R I N K L E S W H I C H WAS GOING TO CRUSH ME. SO THAT I SHOULD HAVE PLENTY OF T I M E TO C O N T E M P L A T E T H E BECOM E A N ENORMOUS BON E. AND THEN SHE I REMEMBERED: HAD S A I D. HE WITH D R E W H I S FOOT. TH E R E WAS A SECOND O F I N FI N ITE ANGUISH IN WHICH I 010 MY UTMOST TO CONTROL M Y B R EATH I NG A N D NOT TO B U DGE. FOR E X P L A N AT I O N . W H I C H T H E S H E E R U RGE T O F U C K COM M A N D E D T O S T A N O U PRIGHT I N S P I T E OF MYSE LF. TH E THICK U N DER­ VEIN I N FLATED MY PENIS IN REG U L A R TH ROBS. IN FEAR CA USED MY REO EYES. THE TWO WILD A N I M A LS ATTACK E D AGA I N . MY F A C I LI­ THE NOTI NG. I N T H E MOUTH OF THE DOG WHO WAS PULLING AT IT. THE DOGS SAT ON EITHER S I D E O F M E. I W A S T H ROWN ON T H E S A N D: ONE OF T H E BEASTS G R I P P E D M Y THROAT W H I L E T H E OTH E R S A T A S TR I D E M E. WATC H I N G . BREATHING R E G U L A R LY. TH E SUN WAS R I S I NG M A N CONTI N U E D TO STA N O O V E R ME. E N V E LOPING ME. I STEPPED FORWA R D AND SAID: "I WOU LD LIKE TO S E E T H E COU NTESS. M Y C R OTC H . TH E FOOT STO P P E D A FEW I NC H ES FROM M Y EYES. WITHOUT MOVING MY H EAD. W I TH FLA KES SWIM M Y TH ROAT A N D MY BRAIN WAS BEH I N D THAT S E A R C H I NG SC R E E N AN WOR K I NG. N E I TH E R OF THEM H A R M E D ME. GAVE JUST A S I THOUGHT T H E ORDEAL W A S D R A W I N G TO A CLOSE. I FOLLOWED THE T H R E E B R UTES WITH M Y EYES. I WAITED FOR THE PA I N . WITH THE FEELING OF PA RTIC I PATING IN SO M E UNCLEAN ITS ACT. F I X E D ME FROM A BOVE. THE NIGGER D REW BACK. THEY WERE NOT GOI NG TO DEVOUR ME-NOT YET. THE DOGS LET ME GO." A S H A DOW PASSED OVER ME: T H E N I GGE R WAS I N EXORA B LY: I WATC H E D TH I S PROCESS WITH A K I N D OF HORROR. HIS EYES. THE BLADE WAS A BOVE MY EYES. THEY TORE OFF MY CLOTH ES. A MARK ON MY SKIN. H A P PE N S:' STO M A C H . A FLASH." FELT A S H I V E R DOWN MY BACK AS T H E I R TON G U E S TOUC H E D M E . WITH TH E K N I FE STILL EXTE N D I NG FROM H I S R IGHT H A N D. STA R I NG ME IN THE FACE. THEN MOVE HIS ENORMOUS ATTA I N E D LARGEST DI M E N S I O N S . THEN WAS L I FTED AGA I N . TERRIBLE A D V A NTAGE: NO MOUTH H A D E V E R H A D SUCH POW E R O V E R FROM ME. BUT I COULD F E E L THEY W E R E R E A DY T O TEAR ME APART TO ON C O M M A N D. PHALLUS. H E POINTED H I S WEAPON AT M Y BELLY. THE M A N POI NTED TO MY GROIN AND THE TWO WOLFISH DOGS POU NCED ON MY CROTCH . I M E COURAGE.

TH I S WAS N A TU R E TDO. ONE O F THE TATED A S T H O U G H I N THOUGHT. THAT S H A M E F U L M E M B E R . "IT I REMEMBERED LIKE A MY R E A LIZE MOTH E R ' S REMA RK: S M E L LS WILD I N D E ED. STOPI" WRAPPED AROU N D P E N I S . SO M UC H SO.THAT HEAVY CHEEK. NO L I M IT. M ENT T H E A N I M A L BEGAN TO KICK U P T H E SAND SO VIOLE NTLY THAT I WA S SOON COV E R E D WITH IT. H E WHI STLED. S N I F F E D AT MY ASSHOLE. AN A N C I ENT VOI CE W I T H I N M E C R I ED. EXCEPT PLEASURE. A GENTLE IN A N D 1 04 . AND FORTH. U N DE R THE MONSTERS' B E LLIES I COULD SEE TH E I R J UT T I N G DEGREE LONG P E N I S E S WHOSE L E FT NO REDNESS A N D AS TO THE A N I M AL. DROPPI N G GOBS OF S A L I V A SPHINCTER. HIS P E N I S NOW D R I P P E D O N M Y N EC K A N D C H E ST A S I T J E R K E D A BOUT I N A N ACC E L E RATED R H YTH M . MOREOVER. A LT E R N A T E L Y C A U S I N G H O R R I B L E TH I NG. IN AN ATTE M PT TO FORCE OPEN T H E F LAI LED VIOLENTLY BACK MY COCK ME. T H A T I WAS PAST THE H IG H EST PITCH. F O R T H E T I M E B E I N G TH EY W E R E I N I NC E S S A N T TH E I R MOV E M E N T. TH E N CROUCH E D DOWN . BALLS S L A P P E D AG A I N ST ME. I R E A L I Z E D HE W A N T E D TO F I N D A HOLE. THE NIGGER W A S STA N D I NG AT MY FEET. T H E N IG G E R GAVE A SHORT CRY. B U T I N T H E M I DST OF M Y PLEAS U R E I D I D NOT R E A LIZE THAT THE I M POSSIBLE GIVES R I S E TO T H E I M POSSI B LE. T H E MONSTE R'S L A N C E W A S ON M Y L I PS: IT K N OC K E D A G A I N ST TH E M CONTI N U A LLY A N D COV E R E D T H E M WITH A BITTE R-TA STING L U BRICA NT. I LOW E R E D M Y C H I N A L I TTLE. I S H EATHS A N D T H E N DOG IS WORTH A P RI EST . E N T E R E D NATU RALLY I NTO THE HORROR OF IT-FOR AFTER A L L." S H E S A I D T U R N I NG H E R H E A D AWAY.E N V E LO P E D SQUEEZED IT. ALL OF A S U D D E N I ACCEPTED THE FACT. L I FT E D H I S H A U N C H E S SLIGHTLY A N D A I M E D HIS COCK AT MY MOUTH. A N D I LET MYSELF GO. T H E NIGGER G A V E ME A KICK TO S H U T M E U P AND T H E OTH E R DOG I N C R E A SE D H I S A R D E N T ATTEN­ TIONS: HIS DAMP NOSE SLIPPED B E TW E E N MY BUTTOC KS. AND THE BEA STS R E S U M E D THEIR TASKS. DA RTI N G IT I N A N D OUT. M A ST. A N D IT S E E M E D T O M E THEN. FOR RIDER BENT HIS LEGS. FOR THE BON E HAD LOST M U C H O F THE ITS S I Z E D U R I NG THE REKINDLED MY I BEGA N TO GUESS THIS WAS THE C A S E WHEN ONE OF T H E MONSTERS-THE ONE WHO H A D PERFOR M E D M I RACLES WITH H I S TONG U E I N T H E S E R V I C E OF M Y ORGAN-SUDDENLY C HANGED HIS POSITION K N I FE-T H R OW I N G . T H O S E R E PU L ­ S I V ELY T H I N M E M B E R S C A N S W E LL CON S I D E RABLY IN T H E H EAT OF ACTION O N C E T H EY HAVE ENTERED TH E I R R E C E PT A C L E . A N D STOOD D I R ECTLY O V E R ME: H I S R E A R LEGS PLANTED ON EITH E R S I D E O F MY H E A D . I SAW T H E H I LT O F T H E DAGG E R SAND. I AND I WAS TON G U ES WITHOUT L E TT I N G G O O F H I S OBJ ECT. CARESSED GUMS PLEA­ S U R A B L Y THAT I O P E N E D MY MOUTH. H I S S M I LE D I S P L A Y I N G MORE T E E T H . NO L I M IT. ROOTED AT IT WHAT I WAS G O I N G T H R O U G H EXC E E D E D E V E R Y ­ WITH HIS M UZZLE AND THEN BEGAN U S I NG HIS T H I N G I COULD H A V E I M AGI N E D. THE D E S I R E TO FUCK DEAD E N E D ALL R E ST R A I NT. I R A I S E D MY H I PS TOWA R D S TH E I R M O U T H S . AGA I N HIS HAND POI NTED TO M Y BELLY. R U B B E D H I S H A I RY M UZZL E I N M Y F A C E A N D B E G A N U S I NG H I S TON G U E W H I L E H I S T H I G H S A N D HAUNCHES BEGAN TO QUIVER ST R A N G E LY : HIS TON G U E S WAS R E LENTLESSLY FLIC K I NG M E FROM MY BALLS TO MY ANUS. RIGHT BETW E E N M Y COULD HARDLY DECEIVE MYSELF ABOUT THE I NTENTION T H E DOGS H A D I N TERMS OF M E : BUT W H A T I D I D N 'T K N OW W A S T H A T A B E I N G A L I E N TO TH E I R R A C E H A D E N L A R G E D T H E F I E LD OF TH E I R I N STI NCT BY T E M P E R I NG I T WITH H I S O W N I M AG I N A ­ TION. H E BEGAN PANTING.W H I STLED. WHO HAD DRAWN BACK. T H E R E WAS A NOTH E R FLASH. MY I STA RTED TO BECOME AWA R E OF TH I S AS D ROPS O F A MUSKY I ESSENCE SPURTED O N M E . THE ANIMAL HESI­ I WAS E RECT. 0 1 0 WON D E R S . W H Y D I D I H A V E T O L E A R N S O C R U D E LY THAT A M E M BERS T O STICK O U T O F TH E I R F U R R Y P L U N G E BACK I NTO T H E M . NOW. TH E DOGS. . A N D TH E N I HAD IN MY MOUTH THAT STR ANGE TH I NG . THE FIRE HAD TO B U R N ITSELF OUT. THERE WAS D I STANC E WITH I N M E W H I C H CONTA I N E D T H E H A L L OF M I RRORS WHERE MY S ELF-IMAGE D W E LT-A SHATTERED I M AG E I NTO W H I C H M Y FUTU R E B L E D I NTO THE PRESE NT. ST I C K I N G OUT OF THE L E G S . IN HIS I N C R E A S I N G EXC I TE­ WATC H E D M Y B E LLY HOISTING ITS WATC H I N G AND I WAS A WATC H I N G STRANGE MYSELF W A TC H I N G . SHAME. T H I S REASSU R E D TON G U E . . H I S BALLS J U ST ABOVE M Y EYES. NO P A I N . R E T U R N E D . THAT AND WOR K A N D M U C H T I M E A R E R E QU I R E D BEFORE TH E Y C A N W I T H D RAW. STR ETC H E D OUT H I S C H E ST. M A K I NG M E WAS N O T THE ONLY O N E ER ECT. AND WEDGING B E TWE E N THE MY JAW SO AND MEATUS O F TH E I R DOUBT E XC I T E M E NT. H I S K N I F E F L E W TOWARD M Y G ROI N. MY THE OTH E R ONE WAS IT. Y E T I FOU N D N E I TH E R S H A M E NOR HORROR WITH I N M E . T H E N FORC E D THEM OPEN. I S HOUTED: "NO. AS TH E T W O DOGS PLAYED WITH M E .

TWI NED THEM AROUND THE N EC K OF THE A N I M A L THAT I WAS SUCKING. THE OTH ER O N E W A S TRYING TO NIP AT W H ITISH FI LAM E NTS DROOLING FROM HIS C H I N . I N M Y MOUTH H I S T H I NG GREW ROU N D A N D SWELLED U P: IT W A S AS THOUGH M Y TONGUE W E R E FLAT ON THE G R O U N D AND MY JAWS WERE D I ST E N D E D TO F O R M T H E MOST STU PEFI E D 0 M Y LIPS H A D E V E R M A D E . A N D THEN C A M E OVE R TO T H E MAN A N D H I S A N I M A LS. LEANED OVER A N D GRABBED M E BY T H E NAPE. A I R WAS ROA R I NG I N MY EARS. B U T S E E I NG T H A T I STI LL D I D NOT I M M EDI ATELY STA RTED OFF AT F U L L SPEED. THE N IGGE R'S S H A DOW FELL UPON US. THE TWO DOGS W E R E STA RING A T M E : O N E WAS QUI ETLY SITTI NG T H E R E . A CARESS I H A D D R E A M E D ABOUT WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT TH E D R E A M M E ANT. H E STARTED T O MOVE H I S DAGGER I N A N D O U T OF ITS SHEATH. A N D EVEN THOUGH I WAS S UFFOCATI NG. "I WANT TO S E E TH E COUNTESS. HE CA M E U P TO ME. I N STEA D O F STR I K I NG M Y MOUTH WITH THE TIP OF HIS BLADE. AND THREW ME VIOLENTLY I NTO THE SEA. T H E N T H E N IGGE R GRABBED M Y F E ET.OUT MOVEMENT WAS WR ITING ON MY TONGUE THAT ALL DOGMA I S H ATEFUL. A FLASH OF HATE GLI M M ERED IN THE N I GG E R'S EY ES: T H E DOGS TH R EW THEMSELVES ON ME AGA I N A N D KNOC K E D M E T O T H E GROUND. HUGE WAVES WITH T H E I R BLACK WALLS W E R E H U RT L I N G T O W A R D ME A N D W E R E C R E A T I NG H I D EOUS HOLLOWS I NTO W H I C H W E W E R E GOING TO FALL. BEHIND T H E M . THE N I GG E R SCREA M E D . A LONG S H U DD E R WENT THROUGH THE A N I M A L AS I T T U R N E D BACK TOWA R D M Y M O U T H . THE AIR IS ROAR I NG : I HAD NEVER REALIZED HOW L I K E A N O C E A N TH E A I R C A N B E WITH W A V E S CRASHING A N D ROLLING. SO BUSY WAS I I N S U C K I N G H I S T H I N G THAT SLID BETWEEN M Y LIPS AGA I N AND AGAIN. OR WAS H E GOI NG TO TEAR ME AWAY FROM MY LOVER7 I WAS A L R E A D Y EXPRESSING MY RAGE I N G R U NTS BECA U S E I COULD NOT PRONOUNCE A N Y WORD. W R A P P E D ITSELF A RO U N D T H E G L A N S . DOES NOTHI N G BUT E N S U R E H I S PERDITION. THAT S H A DOW S U D D E N LY ACROSS THE T H RESHOLD! THE CAGE I S SO N A R ROW! M Y H EART I S GOING TO STOP. AND M Y TONGU E T H E B I TT E R . MY H EA RT WAS I N M Y THROAT. BEGA N T O MOVE: I T E XPLOR E D T H E GLANS. DRAGGED M E BEHIND H I M. AND MY BODY. I D E C I D E D TO L E T M Y S E L F GO A N D T O ACCEPT T H E RITUAL. WHEN O U R GLANCES M ET. T H E N IGGER WAS WATC H I NG ME. FLA M E S E N V E LOPED M E : T H E 1 05 . WAS HE COM I N G CLOSE R T H E BETTER TO WATCH US. THE N I GG E R M U ST H A V E B E E N WAITING FOR THAT M O M E N T : I H E A R D H I M C R U N C H I N G THE S A N D AROU N D M E A N D T H E N C H A S I N G AWAY T H E DOG WHO WAS BADG E R I N G T H E HOLE IN M Y ASS-AND WHO WAS LOATH TO LET GO. A N D T H E LAST ONE WOULD· S U R E LY D ROWN ME. T H E DRI PPI NG M EATUS. T H E DOG WHO H A D LATELY LICKED T H E HOLE I N M Y ASS S E E M E D M U C H M O R E EXCITED T H A N H I S COMPANION. I WASH E D AND SHOOK MYSELF OFF. BUT A S H A D REACHED T H E DESI R E D STATE. E A G E R L Y A TT E N T I V E . BEC A U S E I T C A STRATES THE I MAGINATION AND T H E R EFORE IS A N OBSTACLE TO EXPERI ENCE. M Y MAST UPRIGHT A N D SHINY W I T H S LI M E I N T H E SUN LIGHT. EVEN MORE F I R M LY T H A N MY K NOTTE D LIMBS DID. A MERE C R E SCENT STRETC H E D BETW E E N TWO ORA L CAVITI ES. PICKED M E U P. WHEN I REGA I N E D M Y S E N S ES. I BEGAN TO SUFFOCATE WITH MY NOSE B U R I E D I N H I S FUR: I WAS SUFFOCATI NG AND I MOV E D MY ARMS A N D LEGS LIKE A N I N E X P E R I E N C E D SWI M M E R WHOSE EVERY MOVEM ENT. D R U GG E D BY MY OWN DESI RE. LODGE D AGAI N ST M Y PALATE WAS A CARESS. I NS T E A D OF H EL P I N G H I M . BEATING T H E COUNTRY S I D E WITH H E R MONSTERS: THE CRESC E N T WAS BLACK ON HER B ROW. BUT AS W E W E R E A B O U T TO PITCH INTO THE FRAY. WAS BLACK A S WELL. AND IT WAS H E THIS TIM E WHO TRIED TO GET MY COCK H A R D. THE DOG SU DDENLY T U R N E D HIS BACK THERE WAS A G U T T U R A L C R Y A N D THE DOG ON ME. TH E N H E SEIZED MY H A N DS TWI N I NG THEM AROUND THE C RO U P O F M Y R I D E R SO THAT I FOU N D M Y S E L F H A N G I N G U N D E R I T S B ELLY. B EC A U S E HIS TONGUE H A D M A D E SOM E PROGRESS. ALL I COU LD FEEL WAS THE I NSANE T H ROB B I N G OF THE DOG ' S COCK IN IN MY MOUTH AND MY O W N SWO L L E N C O C K H I S M O U T H . STA N D I NG VERY STRAIGHT WITH H I S LEGS A P A RT. RESIGNED TO A REPLAY O F THE PREVIOUS SOON A S I PERFORMANCE. T H E A N I M A L'S HUGE KNOT THAT I HAD IN MY MOUTH H E LD M E FAST. THE SHOCK OF THE WAT E R BROUGHT M E BACK TO MYSELF AND TO THE PRESENT. T H E N M I N E BEGAN M O V I N G AGA I N : I T A L L A LONG IT. H EC A T E W A S T H E WRITING BECA M E U RGENT AND B E V E L B A R E L Y A P P A R E NT. I W A S THI RSTY A S THOUGH I HAD EATEN VERY SPICY FOOD. L I FTED M Y LEGS. MOV E D U P A N D D O W N S P R E A D I NG S A L I VA LICKING A N D TICKLING." I SAI D. I DID NOT MOVE FROM THE GROUN D. H I S TONGU E LOLLI NG. FROM T H E VERY H EA­ VENS. TH E D OG T E N S E D H I S M U SCLES. M Y B A C K SCRA P E D AGA I N ST T H E S A N D A N D W A S TOR N O P E N BY T H E STON ES. HE STOPP E D M O V I N G H I S TON G U E .

P E R H A PS. OH. WHICH W A S REA LLY A CONVEX. T H E N OTH E R S D I D. FOLLOW M E . BERNARD NOEL A N D YET M Y ASS. P E R FECTLY T R A I NED. BUT YOUTH W I L L OUT. T H E N I G G E R H E LP E D M E T O M Y F E ET. H E TRIED TO EXTRACT M Y ESSENCE OF M A N ." PENIS A LL. T H E N I G G E R DEC I D E D T H A T I N E E D E D A H E LPI NG H A N D A N D . B A T H E D V E R Y L E I S U R E LY. H E H A D A S M ALL ANT F O R PET W H I C H H E K E PT I N A N OLD. AS H E FO R C E D ME TO GRAB HOLD OF THE DOG'S I STA R E D STR A I G H T AT H I M AND DID NOT A N SW E R . HOLD I NG H I S D A G G E R B Y THE B L A D E . T H R O B B I N G COCK. I N S I D E-OUT N A V E L. W H E N T R U DY'S C ROTCH B E A U T I F U L WENT TO POT. BACKED U P TOW A R DS M E AND LOW E R E D HIS H I N D E N D S O AS TO P L A C E T H E H O L E I N H I S A S S AT T H E RIGHT ANGLE.R E ACT. HE GRABBED ME UNDER THE ARMS AND WAS THERE FOR A LL TO S E E .R I S E . THE A N T WOU LD HAIRS GRAZE TH E N U PON HIS FACE EAR AND NOSE WORK SLOWLY DOWN TO T R U DY'S D. S O P A S S E D T H E N I G HTS A N D T H E Y E A R S . S LOATE 1 06 . STU F F E D WITH A DAGG E R H A N D L E TRANSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE TRUDY OR THE S EC R ET A PH I D RUDDER. I FELL FACE FOR W A R D ON THE " P L E A S E . LARGELY W E LL­ PROPORT I O N E D E X C E PT FOR THE HEAD." SOM E T H I N G S TR A N G E HAPPENED IN MY B ELLY I W A L K E D STIFFLY A N D C A R E F U L LY TOWARDS T H E OC E A N . BY-TH E . W H E N A LO N E . T H E A NrS T O A C A PT A I N·S. T H E R E S U LT W A S A F R A N T I C E FFORT ON MY PART TO F U C K AS W E L L AS J E R K OFF T H E DOG . THE N IGGER ST E E R E D MY C OC K "DO YOU WANT TO SEE THE COUNTE SS?" TOWA R DS T H E H O L E OF H I S FAVORITE'S ASS. I DREW B A C K M Y L I PS AND SHOWED H I M M Y C L E N C H E D TEETH. C. R A M M E D I N O N E STR O K E T H E H A N D L E U P M Y ASS. TRUDY H A D A CROTCH B E A U T I F U L. STRETC H E D OUT ON T H E T H R ESHOLD OF T H E I N F I N ITE. SHE IS E X P E C T I N G YOU AND I WAS S E N T TO W E LCOME YOU. TH E A N I M AL.F A S H I O N E D TOOTHPASTE TUBE. IT RUBBED ITS H I N D-LEGS TOGETH E R D U L Y CONTE M PLATED F R O M D A W N T I L L STA R . BUT SINCE AT I WAS N O T M A N I P ULATING TH E DOG TURNED AND DOG'S "TH E C O U N TESS WILL B E P L E A S E D TO S E E YOU. HE TU R N E D ME A RO U N D G E NTLY. H E L I K E N E D HIS DESTI N Y TO A S H I P'S A N D M O R E O FT E N . THIS HE WOU L D STRO K E .B Y E . T H E MONSTE R I M PA LED H I M S E L F ON MY PENIS IN ONE R I NG QUICK OF HIS MOVEMENT ASS AND MY TIGHTENING THE A ROU N D STA LK. TH I S HE M A N I P U LA T E A N D S T E E R A S THROUGH I T W E R E A N A P H I D U NTI L T H E J U I C E S F LOWED. T H I S IS A H A PPY TALE A S I H A V E O M N I SC I ENTLY D E C I D E D A N D T H E R E FO R E I T W I L L NOW E N D . A N D T H E N . WITHDREW THE W E A PO N I M PA L I N G M E A N D POI N T E D A T T H E S E A : W H E R E CONTR A R Y F E E LI N G S O V E R W H E L M E D M E : A TE R R I B L E PA I N IN MY BATTE R E D ASS AND AN EQU A L LY T E R R I B L E P L EA S U R E I N M Y BALLS. W H I C H I S T O S A Y (OTH E R TH A N THE OBVIOUS) THAT T R UDY'S SENSE OF B A L A N C E W A S E ROTIC I N T H E EXTR E M E. MY E S S E N C E S P U R T E D I N U N I SON WITH T H E A N I M A L'S WHO B R O K E AWAY HOWLI NG." S A N D .TH E STA R E D Q U I ZZICALLY A T M E A N D TH E N A T H I S MASTER. I M M E DI ATELY B L A D E IN THE S U N LI G H T . A N D T H E N C A M E BACK T O THE NIGGER. THE ANT DID NOT S E E M TO CARE. S I NC E H E A P P E A R E D T O BE E X P ECTING A N A N S W E R. "YOU S H O U LD W A S H AGA I N . SEIZED M Y COCK I N ON E OF H I S E N O R M O U S H A N DS A N D DRAGG E D T H E R U T T I N G DOG C LOS E R T O M E W I TH H I S OTH E R H A N D . FONDLE. A N D F LA S H I NG ITS TH R E W M E D O W N ON MY K N E E S .

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MOTHS. TAK E A FEW PUFFS TO STA RT TH E SMOKE FLOWI NG. MOVI NG S LO W S H I FT I N G SLENDER H I P S TO T H E CRUMBLED I NTO LI ITLE PASTI LL ES-TH EN FILL THE BLACKSTONE BOWL OF THE LONGSTE M M E D S I LVER CANDLELIGHT OF D R U M . S I LK C LOTH S B OU N D A R OU N D TH E I R C H I LD I S H AS IF PLATFORMS AROUND TH E ROOM WHERE HABITUES REC L I N E . ONE RUPIYAH PER PIPE. TH E I R LONG C U RLS BRAIDED A N D C ROWNED WITH H EAVY WHITE FLOWERS. A N D W H E N THEY L I T P I P E S F O R C USTO­ MERS THEY I N HA LED AS M UCH AS THEY COULD. DARK S A I LORS WITH E A R R I NGS. WHITELY CURVED AND PALM L I N E D -THE TOWN: TI N-ROOFED HOUSES. LOW LATR I N E . AT FI RST HE F E LT NO I NT E R E S T SAVED IN TH E D R U G -BUT T H E R E M N ANTS AND OLDER BOYS U N B URNT C R U M B S A N D SMOKED T H E M . TA M P THEM DOWN. SHOPS TILTING OVER TH E GARBAGE I N THE CANA LS. THATCH-ROOFED AND ADVENTURER OR F A I L E D PRI EST.LONG BOATS FETCH AND CARRY BROWN I N TH E I R H E ES. LIPS ROUGED. AT THE FAR E N D OF TOWN. A LONG SHED. I N T H E E V E N I NG S O N E O R TW O O F TH E M WOU L D DRESS LIKE GIRLS IN A SAC R E D DRAMA AND P E R FORM THE TRADITION A L DANCES.TH E S I LV E R P I P E C A F E ORPHANED AT N I N E H E LEFT H I S VI LLAGE A LONE AND CAME DOWN ON THE AN C O A ST B E LOW TH E PIPE. FLUTE A N D GONGS. FAC I N G THE SAND. RADIO CRACK­ LING WITH GAMELAN AND C H I N ESE POP TUNES­ AND DARKLY S H A DOWED AS THE STAGE BETWEEN WAKI NG A N D S L E EP-A HYPNAGOGIC CAFE. THE DA N C E R S WERE WELL TI PPED. AND SLEPT AT N IGHT IN TH E CA FE OR ON THE BEACH. A C H I N E S E OR MOSLEM M E R C H A N T. WITH THE T I PS H E E A R N E D H E C O U L D B U Y RICE A N D F I S H . H UDDLED TOGETH E R OUTS I D E TH E BACK OF THE CAFE NEXT T O T H E D E C AY E O . THE S I V E R P I P E CAFE-STA I N E D WALLS. LYI NG A QUARTER OF A MILE OUT IN THE S H A L LOW B A Y . ARMS AND LEGS B R ACLETED WITH TI NSEL. DISAPPEARED WITH 1 08 . AT TEN HE FI RST LEA R N E D HOW TO SERVE THE CU STO­ MERS: THE OLDER BOYS TAUGHT HIM TO HEAT THE HASHISH OVER A BRAZIER TILL I T CO U L D BE W A I S T S -GO L D E N N A RCOTI Z E D . H A N D I T OVER TO THE PATRON. D I SSOLUTE E U ROPEAN FROM TH E S H I PS TO THE BEACH. A CRACKED STUCCO CATH E D R A L IN THE STYLE OF GOA OR MACAO. TEA-POT SPUMES CAUGHT IN SLANTING SUN. FLYSPECKED CALENDARS WITH COLOU RED PRINTS OF GODS. CHOOSE HOT COALS AND ARRANGE TH EM WITH TONGS OVER THE D R UG. FETCH TEA MEN AND C I G A R ETTES FOR THE OLD FLOWER-PATTERNED LUNG­ SOUTH E R N H I LLS-ONCE I N DE P E N D E N T S U L­ TANATE W H E R E THE M E N M A D E TH E I R LIVINGS AS P I R A T E S -S O M E GRAN DFATHERS NOW STI L L REMEMBER-I N THE I R LATEEN RIGS WITH REO SAILS OR B LACK. A YELLOW CAT.

THE N I GHT STROKES HIS I N NO­ AT NIGHT. R U N N I N G I T S G LOWWOR M TONGUE O V E R H I S TH I N L E G S . A N D T H E SILVER HANDS D R I PPING FROM TH E STARS-NOW H E I S A D E VOTEE I N VENTED. AND KISS.S E X E D S H A M A N CHI LD. A B E LT OF CHASED SILVER. M E LTING WITH I NTOXICATION -LATE SMOKE ENGLOBES H I S SPACE. BALANCING TH E COOL S T E M ON H I S K N E E . PETE R WI LSON 1 09 . BELLS ON HIS BARE A N K L E S A N D W R I STS. A M A N GAVE H I M A GOLD C H A I N FOR H I S N E C K IN EXCHANGE FOR A BOTH WORSH I PP E R A N D OBJECT OF WORSH I P. T H E S K Y OPEN S A N D BETWEEN H I S LEGS T H E BLACK SILK CHAFES HIM TI LL H E TH ROWS I T OFF-THE S I LK. AWAY FROM THE PATRON'S EYE AND EAR AS H E NODDED OVER HIS TEA-POTS-CE I L I N G FAN S STI R R E D THE A I R. FINGERS IT TILL IT WA KENS. AS I F BY ACCIDENT. AND THE TROPICAL LIMBS OF SLE E P I NG BOYS. A WARM SLUGGISH R A I N SPATTERED THE DRY ROOF­ THE BOYS SMOKED. OF C H INESE SI LK-WITH HIS WHITE C R ES C E N T MOON A GREEN PARROT PERCHED O N ITS CUSP. AT THE DETE R M I N E D TO M A STER THE I R SKI LLS. A N D THE LILACS O F H I S H A NDS OPEN FOR YOU A CRACK BETWEEN EARTH AND SKY. AT TH IRTEEN HE DANCES IN A COSTU M E OF HIS OWN I NVENTION: A LONG LOINCLOTH OF LILAC­ COLORED SHANTUNG. N ECKLACES OF SEED PEA RLS AND J A S M I N E . INVADE SPERMY HIS AND VEINS A H U NDRED A N D S I X MOONS THEI R HE PULSING LIGHTS L I G H T. MORE ELECTRIC THAN SILK AND DA RKER. H E A L O N E AWAKE I N TH IS ANDROGYNOUS C A F E . BRIGHTER THA N A M BER. FEARFUL THE OTH ERS M IGHT B E FEIGNING SLEEP. H I M S E LF: IN TH I S R E LIGION I HAVE HE IS BOUGHT A WATER E D BLACK OF HASHISH A N D LITTLE BOYS. HE AND HIS F R I ENDS WOU LD H U DDLE TOGETHER ON ONE OF T H E PLATFORMS. HE SAVED COI N S N E W SA RONG F R O M A THI EF. AND THE I N K Y CLOTH SET O F F HIS PALLOR A N D THE H I NT OF GOLD IN H I S BROWN B A NGS A N D COFFEE-TINTED EYES-A N OLDER BOY TA UGHT HIM A TRICK: IF YOU WANT A BIGGER TIP. A PI RATE OF S E LF-A B U S E .TH E I R A D M I R E R S A N D C A M E JEWE LS. A N D H E TOO BEGA N TO STEA L GREEN FLA K E S FROM AND HIS C U STOM ERS. T H E MOON LIGHT K I S S I N G H I S FEET. AND HE BACK WITH TOYS OR BUT THE H A S H I S H NOW K E E PS H I M AWAKE SOM E NIGHTS. M I RRORS. LIKE YOUNG PYE-DOGS IN TH E SHADE-NIGHTB I R D S MOA N E D OUTSIDE THE CAFE. C U R L E D UP TOGETH ER AGAINST TH E D I RTY BOLSTE R S TO W H I S P E R A N D SLEEP. AND FILL ALL TI M E WITH THE PUBESCENT LIGHTNI NG OF A SINGLE PIPE. DOU B L E . STILL ANOTHE R Y E A R OR TW O BEFORE H E M U ST BEGIN T O DEPILIATE H I S BODY AND U S E POWDER L I K E THE OLDER BOYS- E M BLE M . BY ELEVEN H E D I SCOVERED T H E PLEASURE OF TH E PI PE. OWL'S W I N G S B R U S H H I S SHOU LDERS AND THIGHS. BLOOD H E WAS T H E PA LEST BOY IN THE CAFE. T H E MOON. THE AGA I N. WATCHING IT GLITTER IN THE MATCH-LIGHT. E V E R Y D A Y H E SWA M I N TH E SEA. T H E N P R E T E N D N O T T O NOTICE BUT STAY NAKED FOR A FEW M I N UTES TILL YOU TIE IT AGA I N . UNDER THE STA R I NG ROOF. THE LAST FEW C U STOM E R S SLUMBERING D E E PLY. LET YOU R SARONG FALL OPE N . BY THE TI M E HE WAS TWELVE H I S EYES WERE ALWAYS LAZY. THE SILVER PIPE CAFE IS MADE OF M I R RORS-TAKE TH I S N IGHT FOR A N THE H A LF-B R E E D YOU R ACOLYTE F O R Y O U R LIMBS TANGLED TOGETH E R . DERVISH BOY. CENCE. W H I L E YOU SERVE TH E M TH E I R PI PES. A N D TH E HASH I S H M I RRORS HIS PIGEON'S MOA N S. PIPE WITH OPALESQUE . TOO I NSANE TO MOVE.

OV I N G M A N N E R B E R N A R D I DLI NG A LONGS I D E H I M PLAYS T H E R O L E O F TH E H A NDSOME YOUNG HOOD F R E E W H E E L I NG BERNIE ON HIS W H E E LS THEY'VE SOM E H OW WITHOUT E V E R DISC U S S I N G I T A G R E E D 1 10 ...COU NTESS L U L U TH R E E T I N Y N A V E LS S E E N TOG ETH E R A L L A LMOST A L I K E ONE M I N USCULE E M B EDDED WITH I N A BELLY TH E C O LO R OF DAWN ANOTHER E LO N G A T E D LIGHT OH YOU'RE TOO C H I C K E N WE'LL N E V E R A S K YOU TO C O M E A LONG WITH US AGA I N B E R N A R D SWUNG H I M S E LF L E I S U R E LY O F F HIS B I CYCLE R A N G T H E B E L L A LONG S I D E T H E G R I LLEWORK G A T E C A L L E D OUT I M PATI E NTLY TI M I D L Y AND A F A T B O Y H I S OWN A G E TH E TI N Y HOUSE THEY SLA N T I N G TH E E Y E OF A DOE T H E T H I R D BROWN TINGED WITH A M B E R FLECKS THE T I N I EST OF THE TH R E E B E LONGS TO WATC H I NG ME STA N D I N G ON THE CAME OUT OF RIVERBANK TH E OTH ER TWO D A I S I E S H EA D E D O F F TOW A R D T H E R I V E R F A T L U L U ON FOOT B E R N A R D BACK ON H I S B I K E ZIGZAGG I N G SLOWLY BACK AND FORTH OVER THE H U M P IN THE C E N T E R OF TH E ROAD WOBBLING P E R I LOU SLY AT TIMES R E A C H I NG UP TICK I NG M Y A R M P ! TS TH E Y G ROW S O V E R Y T A L L H E R E I N TH E M A RSHLAND BIG WHITE GOL D E N FLOW E R S S M E L L I N G OF PEE P E E SMELLING OF FLOWERS M A K I NG ME S N E EZE DOE'S E Y E B EC A U S E TH E FRONT W H E E L T U R N E D T OO SLOWLY MOV I N G TO THE L E FT THE RIGHT B E R N A R D TRYING TO KEEP THE BIKE B A L A N C E D SO HE WOU LDN'T W I N K S D I SAPPEARS W I TH I N A FOLD OF C L A U D E'S BELLY H E'S SEATED A M I DS H I P S FEET SPLASH T H E WATER T H A T COV E R S T H E TA R R E D B O A T BOTTOM DOE'S E Y E W I N K I N G B LI N K I NG W H E N E V E R HE LEA N S O V E R TO B A I L O U T MORE WATE R F L A TT E N S TAUTENS STRA I N S AMBER NAVEL EXE RTI ONS OF FA LL ON H I S A S S G I V I N G A FEW I DLE T U R N S NOW AND T H E N TO T H E P E D A LS T H E R E ST OF T H E TI M E C O A ST I N G F R E E WH E E L I NG TIRES ON GRAVEL E M ITTING A N AG R E E A B L E H U M M I NG O F H A PPY B E E S B E R N A R D H A D C A L L E D OUT H I T H E R E FAT C U N T WHEN LULU CAME OUT OF THE HOUSE WE'RE B E R NA R D'S TORSO A S H E HOI STS H I S A R M S H I G H C L U TC H I N G TH E HANDLE OF THE STER N OAR LOO K I N G L I K E H E'S ABOUT T O POLE VA U LT WITH I T SAILING OVER TO THE I S LA N D W A N T T O C O M E A LONG F A T C U NT? L U L U I S NOT R EALLY A L L THAT FAT ITS MOSTLY B E C A U S E OF Y A N N H E Y A R E N'T YOU COM I NG TOO S H R I M P? HE G E ST U R ES TOWARD M E TH E N TUGS Y A N K S U P H I S R E D B R I EFS S H I N Y M A T E R I A L CAUGHT P I N C H E D T I G H T W I T H I N T H E FUR ROW OF H I S A S S I S H A K E M Y H E A D T H A T BOAT DOESN'T B E LONG TO U S FACE HORMONES HIS ROU N D MOON MAYBE A N D H I S C L U M SY SLOW­ .

TO PLAY T H E S E RESPECTIVE ROLES B E R N A R D T H E CRUEL BUTCH TH I N G NUMBER L U L U T H E N E L LY YO UNG A D M I RATION YES S I M P E R I NG T R E M B L I N G W I TH A BIG FAT COCKSUCKI NG FA IRY THArS WHAT YOU A R E I TH I N K WHAT I ' D LIKE MOST I S TO SMASH YOU R UGLY FAT M UG IN C O M E OVER H E R E CLOSER I S A I D PUT UP YOU R M I TT S A L W A Y S I N ANTICI PATIO N I NS E P A R A B L E N O W E A C H OF TH E M N E E D I NG THE OTH E R TO C O M PLETE H I M SE L F IT WAS TWO TH R E E PLAY AT Y E A R S A G O B E R N A R D FI RST LUCI EN'S STORE THAT COM B I N ATION IN TH E C E NTER OF NO NO PLEASE STOP THATI WENT TO CAFE AND GROCERY TOWN AND LEFT A RO U N D TEN O'CLOCK L U C I E N WE CALL FAT LULU FOLLO W E D HIM OUT I NTO TH E BERNARD N E V E R TOLD A N Y OF U S AOBUT IT AND I N THE ST R E E T WHEN WE ARE ALL STROL L I N G STREET G R A B B E D H I M O N E A R M A R O U N D THE N EC K K I S S E D H I M WETLY AS A WAY O F S A Y I N G GOOD NIGHT BERNARD OF COURSE SHOVING HIM AWAY AND ROA M I N G TOGETH E R A N D W E H A P P E N TO PASS B Y FAT LUC I E N H E A LWAYS TURNS H I S E Y E S A W A Y B U T C L A U D E A N D M E A L L THE S A M E WE SAW TH E N O N THE ISLAND WE'D G O N E T H E R E O U R S E LV E S TO D I SG U STEDLY W I P I NG H I S C H E E K W I TH T H E B A C K OF HIS HAND N E V E RT H E L E S S FOR THE N EXT NIGHT LULU F I N I S H OFF O U R LOOT STRING B E A N S IN TOM ATO SAUCE A CAN OF CONDENSED M I LK A BOX OF BERNARD SEEMED WAS B A C K MORE BECAUSE TO POS S E S S O N E O F E V E R Y TWO E V E R CHEESE C R A C K E R S I'D J U ST P I N C H E D FROM T H E M A D E PLUS TH A N K S TO H I S FATH E R A L L T H E C A N D Y A N D S O D A P O P TOO LULU R E M A I N E D T H E R E THAT N IGHT U N MOVI NG STA N D I N G BY THE CAFE DOOR TA I L GROCERY WE R E A LLY LOVED PAC K I N G I T I N T H E TWO OF US B U LLSHITTING Q U I ETLY AND TH A T ONE T I M E WE H E A R D T H E M BOTH THEY W E R E V E R Y N E A R U S B E H I N D SOM E B U S H E S B E R N A R D LEA N I N G AGA I N ST A T R E E H I S H E A D H I DDEN BY LEAVES A N D LUC I E N O N A L L FOU R S B E R N A R D BREAKS OFF A B R A N C H HI NGING DOWN AND SWATS LULU'S SHOU L D E R S SI LENTLY WATC H I NG BERNARD jiP E E D OFF LIGHT C L I M B I N G U P U P A N D OVER T H E R I S E I N T H E M A I N S T R E E T G O N E NOW NOTH I N G L E FT BUT N IG H T AND B L AC K N E S S HE AND SILENCE LULU'S MOUTH TREMBLING N O LONG E R EVEN TRIES TO KISS WITH IT TH E LEAVES SCRAPING FALLING L I K E R A I N TH E N BERNARD RAINS TOO plSSES A LL OVER B E R N A R D BUT TH E Y S HOW T HE I R COC K S T O E A C H OTH E R J U ST LIKE ALL THE OTH E R G U YS AND LULU'S F A C E W H O L E A PS U P TRYING T O E SC A P E B U T B E R N A R D I S TOO QUICK G R A B B I N G H I M B Y T H E SHOULDER FO R C I N G HIM TO K N E E L O N C E M O R E BERNARD LETS H I S O W N BE S U C K E D O F F SOM E ­ T I M E S WHICH A LWAYS C A U S E S LULU TO G E T TOO RED IN TH E FACE BERNARD OF COU R S E N E V E R LULU F A T L U L 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PISS STI N K OF S E M E N AND TH E N B E R N A R D I T E X C I T E S Y O U M A K E S YOU W A N T TO D ROP YOU R COOK I ES H U H S UC K I NG O F F A R E A L TOUGH G U Y LETS G O W I T H A F A T GLOBULE OF S P I T R I G H T I N LULU'S K I S S E R Y A N K S H I M BY THE H A I R S H OV I N G M OO N CHEEKS AND ALL HARD U P A GA I N ST HIS L I K E M E YOU' R E I N L O V E WITH M E A R EN'T Y O U YOU'D LIKE M E TO FUCK YOU UP THE ASS TI LL YOU ' R E GLISTE N I N G C O C K M A K I NG H I M S U C K S U C K A LL T H E WHILE BOTH SUCK FI STS POU N D I NG A ON LU LU'S SKULL WITH LEG C R I S S-EYED H U H LITTLE LATER H E LI FTS O N E SENDI NG HIS KNEE C R A S H I NG I NTO LUCI EN'S J A W Y E S O H YES WHO FALLS BACKWARD BLUBBERING FROM BLEEDING BERN A R D SHIT ON TH AT FATSO YOU R A S S I S TOO BIG TOO M U C H LI K E S HOVI NG M Y TOOL I NTO A T U B OF LARD O N E H U N D R E D POU ND S O F SHIT I N A FI FTY-PO U N D B A G THArS W H A T Y O U A R E FATSO FA I RY U N T I E D THE BOAT I TS M OO R I N 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A S S ED TOGET H E R THEY M I G H T FUCK THAT HOT A S S O F Y E A H WELL NO NOT REALLY S H E Y A N K E D H E R S K I RT UP O V E R H E R W A I ST H E R S H E KEEPS TALKING A BOUT I T T O M E OH TH E I R E Y E S T H E I R H A I R I DON'T THI N K HE'S PRETENDING EITHER HE REA LLY SEEMS TO FEEL THAT WAY STA R I NG A T TH E M TH E WAY YOU M IGHT EYEBALL SOM E MONUMENT SQU A R E TO THE WAR DEAD IN SOM E WHO BUT YOU D I D GET TO S E E H E R PUSSY DIDN'T YOU? V I LLAGE I T S THE OLDER BROADS EXCITE H I M MOSTLY TH E ONES OF OUR OWN AGE DON'T EVEN HAVE R E A L TITS YET THEY J UST STI KE POSES GO A RO U N D ACTI N G COY A N D GIGGLING TH R E E BOYS C ROSS IN A GREEN AND BLACK BOAT HERE WHERE THE THE RIVER BROADENS THERE BEFORE WH E R E IT REACH I NG DARK FOREST W H I L E T H E BIGG E R O N E S ARE A L L TOO FLESHY WITH SWOLLEN H A U N C H E S B I G HAMS CHEWING ON TH E I R C U DS L I K E STU P I D COWS V I C I O U S DEPRAVED HUGE RED MOUTHS AND H I G H H E E LS M AYBE ITS TH E I R STI N K THAT ATTRACTS C L A U D E THAT HE KNOWS H E'S VERY FEMALE L A P S LAZILY A R O U N D A T I N Y I S L A N D COV E R E D ALL OVER WITH U N DERBRUSH C H ESTN UT TREES T H E B L O N D BOY A N D TH E YOUNGEST K I D A R E N O T F R O M THE VI LLAGE THEIR D E L ICATE FINE FEATU R E S GRACIOUS OBVIOUSLY MANNERS THEY A T T E S T TO T H A T Q U I T E TO THAT P R I V AT E S M E L L S I NC E H A N DSOME B E LO N G THEY REA LLY SEEM TO S H A K E HIM NEVER STOPS TA L K I N G UP A LOT H E ONE I N STITUTION T H E C HATEA U T H E TWO BIGGEST A R E A BO U T TWELVE W E A R I NG B R I G HT L Y C O LO R E D A BO U T T H E M A FT E R N OO N B E R N A R D F I N A LLY M A NAGED T O L U R E ONE OF THEM I NTO THAT SHANTY BY THE SAWM I L L THEY MADE ME STA N D OUT BY TH E DOOR A S B R I EFS W H I L E T H E TH I R D I S N O MORE THAN TEN TORSO NUDE A LSO BUT DOWN B E LOW H E SPORTS BLACK VELVET K N E E B R E E C H E S R E M N A N T S OF LOOKOUT I COULD H E A R T H E G I R L LAUGH A LOUD SC R E E C H MAKING FUN OF THEM ALL TH E N SOM E E L E G A N T E IG H T E ENTH-C E N T U R Y COSTU M E F A L L I N G DOWN LOOSELY FROM H I S H I PS FOR WANT OF A B E LT WHITE ELASTIC BAND O F H I S U N D E R ­ COM P LA I N THEN MOAN T H E N S U DDENLY BECOM E S I LENT SHE WHISPERS F I N A LLY OH STOP THATI AND THEN SHE WHISPERS AGA I N OH YOU'RE GETTING M E A L L HOT A N D W E T DOWN T H E R E LOVERBOY WHAT A LITTLE PIG YOU A R E I A N D THEY A LL LEFT BEFORE SHE DID BERNARD HAD NOT SHOT OFF I NOTICED THAT RIGHT AWAY NOR LULU SO THAT LOVERBOY PIG STUFF MUST HAVE BEEN FOR CLAUDE ALL TH E S A M E HE DOESN'T EVEN H A V E H A I R DOWN AROUND T H E R E YET SHE WAS FAT F R I ZZY R E D HAIR STI C K I NG OUT EVERY WHICH WAY STI N K I NG OF SWEAT GREEN CHECKERED S K I RT NOSE A L L D O TT E D WITH S H O R T S P E E K I N G OUT H E R E A N D TH E R E W H E N E V E R H E W R I G G L E S H I S B UTTOCKS W E WENT TH E R E A LL FOUR OF US LULU I N C L U D E D B E R N A R D NO L O N G E R M A KES A N Y BON ES A BOUT THAT H E'D TOLD U S LULU'S A FAT CUNT BUT YOU CAN ALL FUCK HIM IF THAT SORT OF T H I NG I NTER ESTS YOU LULU WON'T M I N D HOW M A N Y A S F O R M E I'M D I SG U STED W H E N C LA UD E A G R E E S A N D W H E N THE TI M E C A M E H E BROUGHT WITH H I M FROM T H E C H ATEAU A B I G SACK W E J U M P E D I NTO T H E ROWBOAT A N D H I D OUT ON THE I S L A N D T H E BLACKHEADS STUM P Y D U M PY LEGS A SIC KLY GRAY 1 12 .TH E TIN OF CON D E N S E D M I LK FROM ME PUCKERING HIS LI PS AT THE HOLE SUCKING IT A LL UP F I NA LLY WI PED HIS MOUTH C L E A N A N D S A I D QUITE CA LMLY ITS NOT A VERY PRETTY SIGHT HIS COCK. COLOR A N D H A I RY TOO BIG BROWN B L E M I S H ON ONE A R M A N D SHOES WITH HOLES I N TH E M SHE WASN'T E V E N PR ETTY BUT S H E WAS YO UNG AT LEAST A N D SO I D I DN'T D A R E A S K C L A U D E TO TELL M E WHAT H A D H A PP E N E D WE BOTH TOOK THE ROAD B A C K THAT W I N DS T H R O U G H T H E OPEN M E A DOWS UNTIL I T A T FI RST WE KNOW ONLY B E R N A R D NO OTH E R GUYS FROM THE VI LLAGE H E STOLE W I TH US POI NTED OUT CHICKS THE ONES YOU C O U LD COP A QUICK FEEL FROM BRAGGED A LOT A BOUT B E I NG A REAL COOL DUDE NOBODY L I K E S H I M VERY MUCH TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH WE LISTEN TO H I S STOR I E S BUT HAVE A H U NC H THEY'RE ALL A C ROCK OF SHIT ESPECIA LLY ALL THAT ABOUT HOT-ASSED C H ICKS IF YOU ASK M E WE'LL N E V E R GET T O S E E 50 M U C H A S ONE HOT ASS BELONG I NG TO ANY OF THEM I D I D N'T MUCH CARE A N YWAY I H A D ENOUGH TI M E FOR THAT LATER ON AND BESI DES I'M HOPED TOWN ALREADY I N LOVE BUT CLAUDE FIX H IM U P WITH SOME BEAUTY AND BUT SHE GOT B A R E-ASS E D DI DN'T SHE? K I C K I NG U P C H A LK Y DUST H E STA RTED W H I STLING 50 G ETS TO THE LANE T H AT LEADS UP TO THE C H A T E A U THAT'S WHAT THEY A L L CALL O U R HOUSE AROU N D HERE T H E C H ATEAU I FINALLY DARED WAS IT FUN? CLAUDE S H R UG G E D S P E A K I NG I N A VOICE MORE SERIOUS THAN USUAL I D I DN'T ENJOY I T A L ALL SHE'S A F U C K I N G H ALF-WIT HE R E A LLY SUCKED US IN THAT BERNARD CLAUDE WAS NO LIAR HE DI DN'T E M BROI D E R T H I NGS A N D SO I LISTE N E D B E L I E V I NG BERNARD COULD WHORE SOME H O T .

I N G M Y Y O U K N OW TH E R E YOU D I RTY P I G ? BUTTOCK H E A S K E D COU NTESS L.E BURNT CORK M U STAC H E MY P I S S P ECTS S H E D I DN'T S A Y I W A S A DI RTY P I G S H E S A I D W H A T A LOVE RBOY B I G I WAS TH E R E'S A BIG D I FFERENCE B E RN A R D WA NTED TO GO A L. I E S ROUGE TO HIS L. W E U S E D I S G U I S E S L. I PS POWD E R TO H I S C H E E K S C L.H E E L. E T ' S PRETEND TWO F I N A LLY PIRATES W I N E A N D O N E OF L.ASH E D TO HIS THIGH C A L. START T E A S I N G H E R EXC E PT S U D D E N L. F BENT BAK UP A G A I NST O N E HAVE SO GOT FINGERS M E S S I NG AROU N D F E E L. I K E US S H R E D D E D C OC O N U T L. A U D E WE S T A RT OUT L. A N D RUSK SALTED N UTS SOUR P I C K E L.UC K I L. L. T H E S A M E YOU M U STN'T H A V E L. THOSE TH I C K BL. TH E L.ET ME SEE IF YOU H A V E TH E M A L.DEN GOWN S H E S C R E A M E D HOOTED FOR HEL. A U D E D E F E N D S M E NO NOT HIM H E' S A R E A L.T C H OO S I NG O N E L. L.A U D E H A D EMBANKMENT WHERE T H E H E H A S LOTS O F H A I R ooWN TH E R E THOUGH VEERED U N D E R T H E POPL. WET DOWN WOODEN L.ITTL.AR TREES HE TU R N E D H I S BACK TO THE HOU S E S ON 1 13 .E C L.O W S I L. S E A L R E A DY M UR D E R E D R E S PECTS TU RNED U P N O W A S T H E S H I P'S CA PTA I N H E H A S A L.ET T H E M PASS YOU'VE O N L.Y C L. L.I WITH A BOTTL.E YEAH J UST L. U L.L. E G A S T U B O F B A M BOO H E'D L.P B E R N A R D A R R I V I NG ON THE SCENE H I S IS THAT WHY S H E S A I D S H E WAS A L.ASS JAR OF BRA N D I E D TINS OF PEACH E S M A YO N N A I S E C R A C K E R J ACKS CHOCOL.Y BECA U S E I NOTH I N G WHEN H E R U BB E D H I M S E L.L. U L.IVES TWO O F PORK AND B E A N S C A SSOUL.ACK H A I R S COV E R I N G I T WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT IT? I'VE SEEN YOU BUT Y O U TOUC H E D I T D I D N'T Y O U H U H WHEN? N O NOT M E B E R N A R D S H E D I DN'T A PPEAL.E O F SPARKL. I K E EMBROIDERY DECORATIONS G L.Y TO SHOW THEM TO ME THEN L. F A G A I N ST I T IT C A M E T O M Y T U R N S H E U S E D H E R AND IN H E R GOL. R I G H T BUT I T WAS SO FUCKING D A R K IN THAT S H A N TY AND THEN WITH AL.E NO I ooN'T PUT OUT I'M STAYI NG H E R E WITH C L. I E R CANS OF GOWN B E R N A R D G R I PS THE F A T BOY'S H EAD W H I L.L. WEI R oo A N YWAY THAT B E R N A R D IF YOU ASK ME QUEER LADY R E PEATED B E R N A RD A N D THEY EACH GRABBED COUNTESS L U LU B Y O N E PUDGY A R M M E STEPPI NG A S I D E T O L. U N OW PL. T H E WAY WITH H E R E H E E V E N TRI E D T O STIC K I T I N B U T S H E FOUGHT H I M O F F A N D S O H E STOPPED G E TT I N G A H A R D-ON H E'S A REAL. L. I C O R I C E S T I C K S F I LT E R CIGARETTES BOOKS O F M A TC H E S TH R E E NOUGATS CHOCOLATE EGGS F I L. TO M E AT A L. TH E S A M E DON'T YOU SQUI RT? TREMBLING I LOOK AWAY M U M BL. S H E STUN K SO B A D OH WHEN W E GO TO B E D AND SOM ETI M E S TOO I N THE MORN ING S HA M E H U H Irs B E R N A R D'S F A U L.L.OSE L.ATE C U STA R D P U D D I N G STRAWBERRY J A M MACKEREL.Y B E R N A R D POINTS T O M E A N D THIS SQUI RT H E R E I S N 'T H E GOING T O B E A HOT­ ASSED C H I C K TOOl L. E D WITH LIQU E U R A BIG BAG OF POTATO C H I PS A GL.U WHERE S H E ' D H I DDEN THE TR E A S U R E OF COURSE CLAUDE A N D THEY F O R C E L.S A JAR OF SPAGHETTI S A U C E A L L.BAG CONTA I N E D A Y E L. A M P I NG T H E WIG DOWN H A R D U PO N H I S S K U L. E D P U M PS YOU DON'T H A V E A N Y H A I R YEAH S H E SHOWED IT TO US A L.U W E AL.OO K E D V E R Y CL. BACON IN WHITE WINE SOM E BROWN SUGAR F I V E C A N S OF SARDINES O N E OF BLACK OL. K GOWN ON G I L. R E A D Y REACHED ROAD TH E STEEP SO C L. A U D E A P P L.ON E O N H I S S P LE N D I D GAL.ooT WE'D B E E N A B LE TO PI NCH OVER AN E N T I R E W E E K'S TI M E B E R N A R D I N T U R N H A D S W I P E D T H E BOAT WH E R E L U L. E M O N SODA BUTTER HOL. A S S A WH ITE J E W E L. I K E TH I S W H E N E V E R W E H A V E PARTI E S B A C K A T TH E C H ATEA U so NOW Irs COUNTESS L. L.UL. S WIG SEWN SOM E POWDER PA I N T A N D E V E N A PA I R OF H I G H .ET TWO OF RAVIOL.L.' S NOBL.ING W H ITE B E R N A R D M A K E S A FACE S U C K S I N H I S B R EATH BUT HE PUTS OUT A LL.E DAUGHTER A T FI RST S H E'S A LL A L.A YEO MY THE FIGHT E N E D HYSTERICAL COUNTESS DEAR LADY SAID C L. A U D E WHO K I D N A P I N G TH E A D M I R A L.OTS BUT A L. L.LEON EVERYBODY E L. T FOR AND YEAH ME NOT L.ITTL. U TO U N D R E S S T H E N DON THE ME WE'D STA S H E D IT AWAY E A R L. I K E THAT BUT Y O U D I D SOM ETH I N G W H A T THOUG H ? AND IT DOE SN'T E M B A R RASS YOU TO STA R E HUH AT GUYS DOWN THERE BUT A L. G U Y J UST L.

TH E OUTS K I RTS OF THE V I LLAGE A N D OPENED H I S F L Y LOOK I NG O V E R H I S SHOULDER A L L T H E WH I LE TO M A K E S U R E NO C A R WAS COM I NG COV E R I NG B EC A U S E HIS FACE SUCH A B UT NOBODY LAUGHED ANYWAY HE'S S I LLY ASSHOLE FOR B E L I E V I N G I N LETS PRETEND A N D B E R N A R D L I FT E D U P THE H E M O F H I S GOWN HEY COUNTESS STA N D A LONG S I D E ME H E R E AS IF WE'RE BOTH J U ST TA K I N G A PISS YOU'RE BARE-ASSED UNDER YOUR S I LK DUDS YOU'VE GOT S U C H A F A T A S S COUNTESS I T LOOKS SUSPICIOUS TO ME I ' L L WAGER THATS W H E R E T H E I F E E L LIKE PISSING A N YWAY SO H E LOWE R E D C A PT A I N ' S T R E A S U R E CO UNTESS LULU ON I S H I DD E N I A N D H E SLAPS BOTH BUTTOCKS DEAR ME H I S B R I EFS A B I T W H E R E THE FLY G A P E D BUT NOT ENOUGH TO R E V E A L HIS PRICK AND I STAR E D DOWN SOME HAIRS YES A LITTLE CURL TO THE L E FT D E A R M E SAYS C L A U D E COULD B E COULD B E A N OTH E R TO T H E R I G H T BUT A LMOST NONE IN T H E M I DDLE I F I N I S H E D PISSING I WANTED SO BA D THEY C O M E U P A LONGS I D E THE ISLAND A N D T H E BLOND B O Y L E A PS OUT OF THE ROWBOAT T O M OO R IT F I N A LLY T H E OTH E R TWO FOLLOW I N TO T H E UPWARD ALL ALL TH R E E TO TOUCH IT BUT H E S I TATED STRUGGLING TO S E E IT BETTER I SA I D IF M A Y B E YOU COULD J UST FLUFF I T OUT A BIT D I S A PP E A R I NG BIRDS TO FLY UNDERBRUSH CAUSING CAWING OF SC R E E C H I N G THEIR GAME D R OW N I N G WHAT? W I T H J U ST U S TWO HERE? YOU OUT SOU N D A LTHOUGH T H E I S L A N D I S E XT R E M E LY S M A L L A LMOST AT T H E S A M E TI M E A S E C O N D B O A T MOVES OUT FROM T H E STEEP R I V E R B A N K TH I S TIME O N THE TOWN SIDE IT A LSO CARRIES THREE BOYS ALL KNOW YOU CA N'T COME YO U'RE NOT OLD E NOUGH YET NO I CAN'T S H OOT ANY J U I C E BUT I CAN STI LL ENJOY TH E FEELING TH R E E NAKED TO TH E W A I ST A LL TH R E E T H E S A M E AGE A S THE F I RST G R O U P B U T TH E I R C R A FT I S DEC K E D O U T T O LOOK L l E K A S A I L BOAT A N OAR STA N D I N G UP A LMOST BY A STRAIGHT IN ITS CENTER TH E BUT LOOK WOULD YOU OH ALL RIGHT T H E N I D I D N'T R E A LIZE H E R E TELL ME SOM ETH I N G F I R ST H E LD STAYS IN OF PL A C E A TW I N E R E P R ES E N T I NG PIECE OF MAST SQUA R E POLKA B LACK TO SAY YES IF FOR E X A M PLE SOM E B I G GUY ASKS TO FUCK YOU UP TH E ASS TH E R E ARE BIG GUYS BACK AT THE HOUSE L I K E THAT YOU KNOW THEY WANT TO DO IT TO THE LITTLE O N E S ALL TH E TI M E C LOTH WITH WHITE DOTS N A I LE D A N OTH E R BLACK TH R E E STIC K SET C ROSSWI S E U PON THE O A R B E I NG PIRATE COLORS A L L THE SAME AND WHITE S PO R T I N G KNOTTED BANDANAS A RO U N D OF M A TE R I A L NOW YOU' R E B E I NG DI SGUSTING UH BEC A U S E PLUS A THEIR ONE FOR E H EADS EYE B E LTS BLACK P A TC H OV E R U H B E C A U S E WOULD YOU U H D O IT? B U LG I N G WITH WOODEN W E A PO N S K N I V E S S A B E R S N E V E R U S I N G T H E S A I L A C T U A L L Y F O R S A I L I N G BUT NO IT WAS ON WHO WELL E R THAT A L L DEPENDS ON WHO TWO OTH E R OA RS I N ST E A D VEERING TAC K I NG TH E M A N Y C H A N G E S OF D I R ECTION SUGGEST I N G A LONG VOYAGE ACROSS P E R I LO U S SEAS AS THEY RUN U P A N D DOWN TH E LENGTH OF T H E BOAT C A L L I N G OUT SOM E TI M E I M IG H T I T ER A LL DEPENDS YES M A Y B E M E TOO YES NO NO I DON'T THINK SO B UT J U ST THE SAME V A R I O U S COM M A N DS THAT TH E W I N D ON TH I S LATE A FTE R N OO N COUPLED WITH THE GUSH OF R U S H I NG RIVER CARRIES AWAY R E N D E R S I ND I STI NCT A N D TH E N LETS GO OV E R TH E R E H U H H E POI NTED FLE ETI NG A T THE CARCASS O F AN A UTOMOBILE A B A N DON E D ONLY TH E BODY STILL I NTACT THERE WAS A S H A R P TU R N I N G I N T H E ROAD L E D STRA IGHT DOWN T O TH E R I V E R I T D I D N'T H A V E S E ATS A N YMORE NOR DOORS EITHER BEHIND WE LAY DOWN IN THE TALL G RASS RIGHT IT I HAD TO BE CAREFUL BEC A U S E OF WHAT? STRETC H THEY STOPPED ALL THREE O F THEM BESIDE THE HOLE I N WHICH T H E B U R I E D T R EASU RE LAY OH MY POOR D E A R DEAD FATH E R M U R D ERED SO V I LELY SAID LULU SOB B I N G QUITE S E RIOUSLY BOTH H A N D S B U T WITH G I R LS DON'T YOU KISS F I RST? S I N C E W E ' R E DOI N G T H E S A M E TH I NG NOW? AND HAVE YOU LOST ALL YOU R MA RBLES? YOU RSELF OUT LENGTH W I S E THAT WAY M A Y B E I F WE COULD K I S S F I R ST H U H S P R E A D YOU R CHEEKS W I D E R N ETTLES BUT T H I S T I M E T H E Y D I DN'T S E E M TO STI NG YOU WERE A SECOND AGO 1 14 .

AFTER THEY REACH THE I S L A N D AND DISEMBARK THEY PULL TH E I R BOAT U P L I FTI N G A ONTO TH E NA RROW FIRST OF ALL Irs BOATS NOT CARS I ' M I NTERESTED IN STRA NO OF S A N D FOURTH OCC U PANT Irs YOU LOSS PUT YO U R PANTS BACK ON TH E N WHO HAS UNTI L NOW B E E N HIDDEN I N TH E BOTTOM BODY BOUND AND GAGGED A TINY GIRL LO NG BLACK TRESSES DA R K BROWN S K I N TH READBARE C LOTH E S AND HARDY TO IF A E M ACI ATED GYPSY HER BODY LONG Y O U MEAN WE'RE LEAVI NG? PROCLA I M I NG C A LICO S H E'S S K I RT HER HAS BE BEEN RI PPED OFF IN A EARLI ER TH I N K IT OVER CAREFULLY MY FOU R RACING CARS PLUS TH E TRACK TH ING ELSE TOO WANT AND I'LL GIVE YOU SOME­ CLOTH ED NOW ONLY FI LTHY GREEN SWEATER A N D BADLY TORN B LOO M E R S SALLOW­ AND WHOSE LACE ROUG H LY THEY ALL THE TRADE-SPITS YOU BROWN FROM TOO M UC H WEAR TR I M M I N G U N R A V E LS TH E MORE HANDLE H E R I NTO A S E R I E S O F STRINGY FESTOONS F L U TT E R I N G DOWN U PON HER THIGHS LIKE YOU CAN SHOVE YOUR STUPID RACING CARS BUT WHArs A TRADE-SPIT? J ELLYFISH TENTACLES T H E GROUP SETS OFF DUMB ASSH OLE Irs WHEN TWO PEOPLE KISS IN A M A RCH THICK U N D E R B R U S H C LOSING B E H I N D TH EM W I T H A R U STLE OF R E E D S EACH OTH E R BUT WITH THEIR MOUTHS OPEN ALL THE WH I LE AND USING TH E I R TONGU E ALL R I G H T L E r S SAY I DO K I S S Y O U B U T JUST ONCE AND ONLY ON ONE CONDITION WHOSE TONG U E ? WHArs THAT? BOTH TONG UES ASSHOLE INSIDE EACH OTH ER'S MOUTHS YOU RS AND M I N E I F YOU'D L I K E THAT YOU SUCK ME OFF IN EXC H A N G E U G H TH AT SO UNDS D I SGUSTING OH NO THArS NOT FA I R YO U'RE A R E A L BASTARD YOU ARE THEY A PPLIED A SCA RF OVER T H E GAG COV E R I NG Irs NOT DI RTY TO SUCK HON EST I'VE DONE IT H E R MOUTH AND ONE OF THE TH R E E BOYS CAME CLOSER A N D CLOSE R FEELING TH E LITTLE V U LVA G ROWI N G YOU? WHO WITH? WITH SI MON MAYBE? MORE AND MORE EXCITED BY HIS COULD MAYBE TRY I T J U ST ONCE STI LL TO SEE WE MYSELF EXPLORATIONS BUT ONE O F TH E OTH E R TWO SAYS NO Irs R E N E WHO'S TO TAKE HER C H E R R Y A FTER ALL IT'S R E N E WHO FOU ND H E R FOR US A N D THE YOU'RE N UTS YOU K NOW THAT? NOBODY HOME BUT THE CLOCK A N D THArS STOPPED I F YOU SAY YES I'LL GIVE AW COME ON BOY N A M ED RENE NODS UNBUTTON S HIS PANTS LETS H I S B ELLY DROP DOWN OVER THE BELLY OF THE LITTLE GYPSY WHO BEGINS TO STRUGGLE EVEN MORE STRONGLY YOU MY FOUR RACING CARS AND TH E E LECTRIC TRACK THAT GOES WITH TH EM I'M NOT J UST LENDING T H E M TO YOU EITH E R I'LL GIVE TH E M T O Y O U OUTRIGHT HON EST YOU'RE THE ONE WHO AGREED TO IT R E M E M B E R ALL TH E TRA DE-SPITS I W A N T A LL R I G H T GO A H EA D THEY UNTIED TH E LITTLE G I R L G R I PPING HER BODY ALL TH E WHILE BECAUSE SHE HAD BEGUN TO NO SUCK ME OFF FI RST K I S S M E C O M E ON STRUGGLE YA N K I NG DOWN TH E R E WAS THE ROTTING HER B E I G E BLDOM ERS H U LK OF A BOAT ITS OUT RUN SHIT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S ACTI NG D U M B NOW I MIGHT F E E L MORE L I K E SUCKING YOU OFF IF YOU KISSED ME FI RST BOTTOM COMPLETELY F L A TT E N E D AGROUN D A LONG TI M E AGO D U R I N G SOME SPRING FLOOD TU RNED THAT C OV E R E D TH I S ISLAND T H E Y' V E IT OVER N O W A N D H A U LED IT I NTO THE BUSHES TYI N G T H E GIRL TO I T BACK A N D BUTTOCKS PRESSED H A R D UP AGAI NST THE OUTER H U LL LEGS SPREAD APART E X H I B I TI NG A V ULVA FLAT AND TINY AND F U RTH E R B E LOW THAT THE I NC U RVATE OH ALL RIGHT MOVE YOUR MOUTH CLOSER YOU WANT TO KNOW SOM ETH ING YOU'RE A REAL PAIN I N T H E A S S YOU ARE I C AN'T BELIEVE A N YONE C A N B E S O STU P I D AT LEAST W I P E YOU R MOUTH O F F FI RST SHADOW O F A N A N U S 1 15 .

H E E L E D PUMPS AS WELL WE SET A BOUT D I GG I N G U P THE T R E A S U R E I LOVE COLO CASSOULET PORK AND SAUSAGE AND WHITE B E A N S ESPECIA LLY THOSE LONG THIN SAUSAGES AND THE ONE I LOVE A M I N LOVE WITH KISSED M E MY E N T I R E FACE LAY DOWN A LONGSIDE M E H E I SN'T E V E N P RETE N D I NG ANYMORE HE REA LLY E NJOYS IT KISSES SOFTLY G E N TLY MY L I PS SO WET AND SHAME W E D I D N 'T PINCH SOME M U STA R D AS WELL WE WON'T GIVE ANY OF I T TO LULU ITS HIS FATH E R W E STOLE I T FROM BUT THAT PIG C U N T WON'T D A R E SQU E A L O N U S FOR IF HE DOES WE'LL P U T H I S S H I N I NG WITH H I S LOVELY W E T S H I N I NG LIPS MOUTH HOT AND SILKY AGA I NST MY CHEEK I YANK OFF MY JERSEY SO THAT WE CAN FEEL OUR BELLI ES FATH E R W I S E T O A L L THOSE BOTTLES O F A P E RT I F S H E'S B E E N B R I N G I N G A S G I FTS T O B E R N A R D A N D THAT'S EVEN GOING TO G E T WOR S E NOW T H A T R U B B I NG SKI N AGA I NST S K I N T H E S U N I S A LREADY B E H I N D TH E TREES A N D TH E TALL G R E E N GRASS TICKLES M Y E A R S TH EY'VE BECOM E S U C H A SSHOLE B U D D I E S W H A T S WRONG OH ITS S O LONG YOUR C OC K I F I ' D BEEN I N H E R H U RT TOO M U C H ? Y O U LOOK F U N N Y DOES IT PLA C E I ' D H A V E LOVED GETTING I T FROM YOU BUT A N YWA Y I ' M A BETTER LOOKING BOY THAN S H E I S A G I R L DON'T YOU TH I NK? W E ' L L DO I T AGAI N E V E R Y NOW A N D THEN H U H Y A N N I DO N 'T KNOW A N YTH I N G ABOUT THAT I F YOU W E R E T W E L V E Y E A R S OLD YOU RS WOULD BE LONG TOO Y E A H BUT W H A T I F YOU M A K E A BABY I N S I D E M E ? so T H E N YOU'D RATHER H A V E H E R THAN M E ? A L L T H E S A M E S H E WAS A R E A L D OG T O L OO K AT Y O U ' R E B A TT Y A S A BEDBUG W I T H A G U Y THAT CA N'T H A P P E N B E S I D E S ITS NOT T HROUGH THE ASSHOLE YOU CAN'T COM P A R E THINGS L I K E THAT YOU MAKE A BABY THE M O R E WE DO I T T H E M O R E NO ITS I ' M A L L R I G H T RENE CLIMBED OFF THE C H I LO'S V U LVA D I RTY OH GOOD ARE YOU SURE EVEN WITH COV E R E D WITH M UC U S FOAM I N G S N AI L T RA I LS BUT SHE H ADN'T BELD ONE BROA D-ASSED ANOTH E R OF THE BOYS T H I S A N D B A NDY-LEGGED S P R E A D G I R LS? TH E S A M E 1 1 6 .YOU'RE DROOLING SPIT A LL OVE R M E H IMSELF OVER THE TINY BODY AND JERKED H I M S E L F O F F C L U M S I LY K E E P I N G ONE H A N D DOWN B E R N A R D DECLARED THAT COUNTESS LULU WO ULD HAVE TO SQUAT DOWN AND SHIT I N ORDER FOR THE R E BETW E E N TH E I R TWO CROTC H E S HOPING TO BE ABLE TO I N S E RT H I S THI NG AND SO I N TO BUT N E V E R HE F I N A L LY SAT THEM TO S E E WHAT S H E MIGHT BE H I D I NG U P HER HOLE BUT C LA U D E MADE A FUNNY FACE NO WE CAN TAKE A SOU N D I NG I N THAT WELL OURSELV E S O N E THAT WILL B E A LOT M O R E F U N B E S I D E S A N D S O THEY BOTH DREW FORTH THEIR COCKS KICKING QUITE S U C C E E D I NG HER TINY A S TR I D E FINALLY PRESS I N G T I TT l E S AND M A ST U R BA T E D OF HIS SEX E J A C U LA T I N G THE TIP AGAI N ST M A KI N G A WELL I N THE GAG COV E R I N G HER MOUTH THE UP AND DOWN P U M P I NG MOV E M E N T OF AGA I N ST TH E H I S F I S T CONTI N U A LLY S M A S H I N G C H I LO'S I N NOSE WHILE HIS SPERM LULU OVER I N TO A L E A P F R OG POSITION R A I S I N G H I S G O W N U P OVER H I S B A C K COV E R I NG H I S H E A D WITH YE LLOW S I L K W H I L E THEY FUCKED H I M THE BOTH OF THEM B E R N A R D F I R ST THEN CLAUDE AND A S FOR M E I WAS TOO E M B A RRASSED BEC A U S E OF THOSE BIG SOFT LARDY CHEEKS SO PALE AND SPLASH E D FORTH C O LO R L E S S BUBBLES S E E PI NG TH ROUGH T H E GAG C A R E F U LLY SCA R F THE N WIPED OFF THE THE T H I R D BOY STICKY B EG R I M E D WHICH P E R H A PS HER BELONGED T O H I M A N D ROUGH L Y BUT BETW E E N SQU I S H Y LOOK I NG I FO U N D I T S A D THAT C L A U D E COULD EVEN T O U C H L E T A LO N E WANT T O E N T E R TH E M A N D SO I SAT D O W N A G A I N ST A TREE A N D P E N ETRATED TH E T H I G H S LOOKED SOM EWH E R E E L S E PLUGGING U P M Y E A R S WITH M Y FINGERS S O I WOULDN'T HAVE T O H E A R ALL THOSE HORRIBLE SO U N DS THEY TAPPE D M E ON YOU ' R E C H E A T I N G Y A N N YOU' RE N O T S U C K I N G M E A T A LL LOOK S E E HOW I C A N STI LL PUT M Y ENTI R E F I ST AROU N D I T T H A T M E ANS YOU H A V E N'T E V E N TA K E N A L L O F TH E H E A D I NTO YOU R M O U T H Y E T TH E SHOULDER THEY WERE N'T PIRATE S ANYMORE L U L U STI LL H A D ON H I S S I L K GOWN BUT I T WAS YA N K E D EVERY W H I C H WAY T H E WIG FALLEN OFF AND THE H I G H .

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U WATC H E D US GORGE O U R S E I.AGE GUYS FOR O N E TH I NG BUT DON'T YOU H A V E A N Y PA R E NTS? A S K S L.ITTLE S I D E I.-V E S WITH L.L.-L.TH E W H E R E W E R E YOU FROM BEFORE T H E N ? C A N S A N D T H E N SAT TH E R E SWA LLOW I NG H I S SPIT LOOK I N G GL.A NTHROPIC I N STITU TONY D U V E RT T H A r S O U R BUSI N E S S S A Y S C L.-WAYS EXAGGERATE TH I NGS COM E ON PUl.-ONG GLANCES HE H E L.-l.UL. A U D E HIM NEITHER? ME N EITH E R I ANSWER NOBODY DOES AT TH E C H ATEA U LU I.­ I T OUT RIGHT NOW A N D H U R R Y I T U P TOO WE'VE GOT TO BE GETTI NG BACK M U ST BE AWFUI.-ATE SINCE I A I.. A U D E 1 18 .SA Y IT? COME HURRY UP SHAKE AT IT MORE AGE YOU'L.Y I.PED OPEN ALI. Irs A P H I L.l.U J U ST FOR THE ENJOYMENT YO U A I.SO H UN G R Y A R E YOU GOING TO G I V E ME YOU R DESSERT AT D I N N E R TONIGHT H U H ? NO I DO N 'T HAVE ANY P A R ENTS A NSWERS C L..UM WHAT A PACK O F GLUTTO N S JESUS DON'T YOU E V E R GET A N YT H I NG TO EAT AT YOUR BOA R D I N G SCHOOL WE EAT A LOT BETTER TH ERE TH A N YOU DO FATSO SAYS C L A UDE AND Irs NOT A BOA R D I N G SCHOOL.-READY F E E l..­ WHY TION W E L.OAD E D WITH DOUGH WE'RE NOT J U ST TAK E N I N OFF TH E STRE ETS YOU K N OW W E ' R E C H O S E N WE'RE BETTER D R E S S E D THAN YOU NEVER BOTH E R A N YWAY YOU R SO NO I ' M NOT F I N I S H E D I W A S STAYING I N S I DE YOU V I L. F A R E YOU M E A N S N E E R S B E R N A R D NO Irs P R IVATE A N D THEY'RE L.

O N E O F T H E L.ATE AND CAP­ T U R E A POPL. K E D T H E Y SWATTED AT D E E R F L. I E S CAN BITE TH ROUGH J E A N S. A FEW CABINS. THIS M U ST B E TH E T U R N OFF. J U ST FOL." OUTS I D E .K A BOUT TWO M I L. YOU CA N'T M I SS IT. A TRADING POST. FL. W H I C H WAS A LSO PASSABL." ADOL. W E A L.ING.S A FT E R TH E M . THE BOYS A R E S I TT I N G IN A U N E .L.D STE A M R A I L. " ''THE C A B I N W E ' R E GOI N G TO STI L. I N G TH E I R R U B B I NG TH E I R THEY T U R N E D I NTO A N A R ROW FOOTPATH AND TH E SHADOW OF DEEP WOODS. W I L.ESCENTS STA N D I N FRONT O F THE TRADING POST." A U D R E Y S A I D . T H E CL.ROAD TAKES TH E M TO A DESOL. OF VORACIOUS MOSQUITOS TOOK OVE R 1 19 . TH E OTH ER BL. • • :' P I P E R BROTH ERS. R I G H TI WEL.L. AN OL. A GROUP OF THE WAGON ROAD. . HE PUTS OUT HIS H A N D. BEL.ACK.MS OF T H E HAND.L.E FOR TRUCKS WINDING IN DRY WEATH E R .I K E S PA R KS O F F I R E . W A Y S N E EDED A G U I DE T O F I N D I T . AND KNEES FORTH UP. THEY S N I GG E R A N D G I G G L.OUDS TH EM AS PASSED. A S THEY W A L.K BOYS. D "WE'L. THEY WEEDS AND BUSHES NOW BRUSHED CL. .ATE TOWN I N NORTH E R N CANADA. O N E CA L. BUT I H A VEN'T BEEN H E R E S I N C E I W A S TH I RTE E N.OCA L. AND WOB B L. YOU TWO A R E L..L. A U D R EY F E E L. I E S THAT L.ONGS TO M Y FATH E R .OW G R A V E L.Y FROM WOODS.ERK I S A YOUTH WITH ON E E Y E SL.L BE S E E I NG YOU.L. T H E R E'S ON L.S A B L.Y ONE ROAD. B I RC H AND PINES.OWERS GREW B Y THE S I D E OF THE ROAD.OOK I N G FOR T H E "YOU KNOW THIS COUNTRY PRETTY WEL." "I'M STEVE .OW T H A T WAGON ROA D OUTS I D E .EANING AGA I N ST THE KNEES BACK WAL.ES A N D TAKE T H E PATH TO YOU R R IGHT. WAS YE L. "THEY C A N EVEN BITE Y O U ON TH E PAL. L. YOUTHS TWISTS H I S H E A D T O O N E S I D E A N D RUBS HIS CROTC H .L. A N D A MOU R N I NG DOVE COOED SOFTL. . WAL. " A N D THE B I G H O R S E F L. M I L. STIN G I N G L. AND C ROTC H ES.TH E POPLI NG AUDREY A N D JERRY SET OUT TO I SOL. E A N D N U DG E B E TW E E N E A C H OTH E R A S T H E TWO BOYS P A S S T H E M O N T H E W A Y I N TO T H E TRADING POST. . E FROM THE FOR K TO THE PIPER P LA C E . .L. U S H B U R N I NG THE BACK OF HIS N ECK. ITS A M I L. .ATE GRAY.IT ON THEIR NECKS AND HANDS AND FACES.

A SC R E E N E D PORCH I N FRONT. SOME F I FTY F E ET I N HEIGHT." "WELL YES. T H E TOOLS WERE STI LL TH ERE-SOM E L U M B E R. AUDREY LOO K E D U P AT T H E B E A M S A N D REMEMBERED A N I N C I DENT T H A T H A D OCCU R R E D ON H I S LAST STAY H ER E . TH E P I E R E N D E D I N TEN F E E T O F WATER." TH E OLDER BROTH E R ." HE S A I D AT LAST. THEY TIED U P AT THE PIER A N D J U M PE D OUT. MADE. THE MOSQUI TOS HOV E R E D AROUND THEM. WHICH WAS A LSO "WH E N CAN WE START?" " R I G H T AWAY. A BOOK C A S E WITH SOM E OF A U DR EY'S OLD BOOKS STI L L T H E R E . AS THE 1 20 . SOM E COPI ES OF ADVENTURE A N D AMAZING STORIES. THEY PADDLED FOR TWO HOURS. P I N E P A N E LLING." UP THE STE E P STA I R S ON THE WERE SECOND FLOOR TH E R E H E NODDED. WITH BACK-BREAKING PORTAGES EVERY FEW M I LES.FROM THE BITING F L I E S .H U N D R E D-GA LLON TA N K I N T H E ATTIC. B E H I N D T H E HOUSE W A S A W OO D S H E D A N D A N I C E H O U S E A N D A L O N G L O W B U I LD I N G WITH A B E A M E D C E I L I NG T H A T H A D BEEN H I S FATH E R'S WORKSHOP. T H E Y STO P P E D A N D CANOES G L I D E D OUT I N TO THE CLEAR BLUE WATER. WATE R FLOW E D FROM A TWO. ON THE BACK PORCH. A N D A COI L OF ROPE. W E HAVE TO COME TO TERMS WITH T H I S TH ING. HIS FATH E R A N D BROTH E R H A D ROWE D T O TH E OTH E R S I D E OF T H E LATE A FTERNOON ON T H E TH I R D DAY THEY C A M E TO WIDE LAKE A FTER A TH R E E M I LE PORTAGE. P I N E F U R NITURE. S H A DOWS O F THOSE BOULDERS. HE PUT IT I NTO A FLY BOX. W H O WAS AROUN D TH I RTY. A N D AT SU NSET HE COULD SEE A H E A D A LITTLE PI E R AND A SANDY I NLET. WHO WAS ABOUT 20. TH E PIPERS SAT U P D R I NKING COFFEE A N D P LA Y I N G ON T H E I R W OO D E N F L U T E S . H E S H I V E R E D S L I G H TLY-TH E R E A BO U T T H E WAS SOM ETH I N G C H I LL I N G D E PT H S AND THE SILENT BLUE RUBBED CITRONELLA ON T H E I R FACES A N D H A N DS. T H E B A N K SLOPED STE E PLY F R O M THE E N D OF T H E P I E R I N TO C L E A R B L U E D E PTHS. I'M CARL P I PER. H E LOOKED U P AND NODDED GRAVELY. ROLLED DOWN BY GLAC I E R S M I LLIONS O F YEARS AGO. TH E MOSQUITOS FELL AWAY B E H I N D TH E M . A U D R E Y DRI FTED OFF TO SLEEP WITH T H E STRANGE WILD MUSIC IN H I S EARS: THE P I P E S OF PAN. TWO P I N E C H A I R S ON TH E PORCH . T H E KITC H E N H A D A WooD­ B U R N I N G STOVE A N D P I N E TABLE WITH C H A I RS. THE OLDER PIPER WENT BACK TO HIS FLY. WE'LL HANG I T A LL. "SO YOU WANT TO GO TO YOU R FATH ER'S COTTA G E AND F I N D A POPLI NG. "YOU'RE AUDREY A N D J E RRY. T H E R E WAS A BATHROOM WITH R U N N I N G W A T E R A N D F L U S H TOI L ET A N D BATHTU B . A U D R E Y COULD SEE GREAT BOU L D E R S ON THE BOTTOM. T H E R E W A S A BOI L E R T H A T C O U L D B E H E A T E D BY A S M A L L STOVE T O PROV I D E HOT WATER. IT W A S JUST A S HE R E M E M B E R E D IT. WHICH WAS BLACK BASS O R WALLEYED PIKE WITH B I SCU ITS AND D R I E D FRUIT. YOU KNOW THAT A POPLING HAS A LREADY FOU N D YOU?" H E LOOKED AT J E R RY A N D A D D E D "BOTH OF YOU. A N D A STACK OF LITTLE B L U E BOOKS. A D R U M OF KEROSENE. THEY STEPPED FINA LLY I NTO A CLEARING BY A LAKE. BRIGHT BLUE EYES." ALL P R E P A R ATIONS H A V E B E E N THE TRIP TOOK T H R E E DAYS. A N D T H E R E ON A H I G H ROCKY BA N K OVE R T H E L A K E W A S T H E P I P E R C A B I N. SMALL W I N DOWS." TWO B E DROO M S OVER THE LIVING R O O M A N D A S M A L L E R B E D R OO M O V E R T H E K I TC H E N . H E FINISHED IT. HELD IT U P TO THE LIGHT A N D LOOKE D AT IT C RITICALLY. H E KNEW THAT THE HOUSE WAS SET I N A GROVE OF PI N E A N D B I RCH A FEW H U N D R E D FEET A BOVE THE PIER. A U DR E Y R E M E M B E R E D F I S H I N G FROM T H E E N D OF IT FOR ROC K BASS A N D YELLOW P E R C H . TUR N I N G IT IN H I S H A N DS. AT THE E N D OF THE DAY J E RRY AND A U D R E Y WOULD FALL ASLEEP I M M E DI ATELY AFTER SUPPER. W H E N HE WAS THI RTEEN. "WELL. BUZZ I N G I N FRUSTRATION. H I S K E Y O P E N E D THE LOCK A N D THEY STEPPED I N TO TH E LIVI NG ROOM. THE BOOK O F KNOWLEDGE. BOTH T H E PIPERS H A D Y ELLOW H A I R. THE YOUNGER PIPER. LOW TABLE. WAS SITTING IN THE OPEN DOOR OF TH E CABIN TY ING A FLY. WAS CUTTI NG WOOD. A U D R E Y L E O TH E WAY UP TH E PATH TO TH E HOUSE. "YES. A N D C U RIOUSLY POI NTED EARS. TH E R E WAS A N ICE BOX A N D A WOOD BIN. H E DROVE HIS AXE INTO THE BLOCK A N D CAME OVER TO GREET THEM. S C R E E N ED. WE KNOW THAT A N D THATS WHY. i F THATS WHAT YOU WANT. W H I C H WAS F I LLED B Y A P U M P FROM T H E L A K E . HE KNEW THAT T H E LAKE WAS MORE THAN A THOU S A N D FEET D E E P I N T H E M I DDLE.

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I NG OF W E A K N ESS IN H I S C H E ST. F U L.D A U DREY. M A Y P E R S I ST F O R A S L.L. A U DREY WATC H E D T H E M GO WITH A T I N G L.Y HOUSE IN ST.OOK I N G UP AT T H E SMOOTH ROU N D BEAMS. THEN H E A R C H E D H I S F EET. NOW W A S H I S CHANCE TO TRY IT. "SOO N E R OR L. TH E R E WAS A RED MARK AROUND HIS N EC K . A L L TH I S C A M E BACK TO HIM AS HE STOOD IN THE WORK ROOM WITH JERRY AND T H E PIPER B ROTH E R S AND GLANCED U P AT T H E B E A M . HIS FATH E R HAD AND EVEN CASES EJACU L. WEL.MOST AT O N C E A U D R E Y FELT THE T U G O N H I S L I N E A N D P U L L E D O U T A O N E-POU N D ROCK BASS. T H E WATER WAS SMOOTH A S B A I T E D H I S HOOK THE BLUE A N D L. HARD HE STRI P P E D OFF H I S C L. KNOT B E H I N D HIS L E FT EAR. O N G A S SHOVE L O F D I RT TU R N E D U P T H I C K R E D WORMS.A N N E D T O N A I L. UNE S O M EW H E R E THE L. U H I W A S P I C K I NG BL.Y FEL. J E R R Y AND A U DR E Y GOT TH E I R F I S H I N G PO L E S A N D W A L K E D DOWN T O T H E P I E R . B L OO D POU N D E D A N D S A N G I N H I S E A R S A N D T H E R OO M BLAC K E D OUT A N D H E WENT OFF. L. A U D R E Y COULD S E E T H E FISH PIER. P L. Y FRACTU R E D . AND P ULLED H I M SE L. E T T H E J E RRY TH E WAS PIER.AC K B E R R I ES AND I FEL.NOTS.D HE 1 22 . A T I V E L Y F O R A M O M ENT. O W E R G A R D E N AT T H E S I DE OF THE HOUSE. L. TH I S WAS A COM POST HEAP OF GARBAGE AND H U M U S F O R T H E W I LD F L.OW PERCH. T H E SUN WAS SETTING AC ROSS THE L. L. REACHED U P AS FAR AS H E COULD O N THE LOOSE E N D OF T H E ROPE.OOD STOPS C I RC U L. ErS CATCH S O M E FISH FOR D I N N E R 1" "EJAC UL. SIDE FI S H I N G FROM TH E OTH ER OF A L.ATER HE W I L L SHOW H I MS E LF:' H O U S E A N D LOO K E D I N THE M I R ROR. A N D A S L. BUT TH E R E WAS NO H U RRY NOW.T P R E S S U R E O N T H E VAGUS N E R VE. " P L. H E F A S H I O N E D A H A N G M A N'S K N OT A N D THREW THE ROPE OVER A BEAM. OO K E D A T H I M S P E C U L. T H I S G E N E R A L. BUT THIS WAS NEVER ACCOM P L. I N TWENTY M I N UT E S T H E Y H A D S I X R OC K B A S S A N D S E V E N Y E LL. A K E . H E COUL. HE WENT BACK TO T H E IN THE DAYS THAT FOLLOWED T H E Y FISHED A N D SWAM A N D H I K E D A N D C ANOED A R O U N D T H E L." THE P I P E R S W E R E B U S Y U N P A C K I N G G E A R FROM A U D R E Y WAS STA N D I N G U P AT TH E ATTIC W I NDOW WHEN HE READ THIS. BOOK H E FOU N D I N A T R U N K I N T H E ATTIC OF T H E FAMI L.. H I S FATH E R "WELL. H E C A M E TO H I M S E L F LYI NG ON THE FLOOR.E SUBJECTS D U R I N G H A NG I NG I S SO FREQUENT AS T O BE TH E R U L.OON. FROM AND VI BRATING W E I G H T ON T H E LINE. " L. HOW WOU L. L. A S S . T H I M S E L. U S H I NG. I T WAS A BOUT DEATH BY HANGI NG: A U D R E Y P I C K E D U P A S H O V E L A N D A C A N . AND THREE G E ES E IN FLEW THE N O RT H D I STANCE IN V FO R M ATION.ATION IN YOUNG MAL. I G H T L.L.OO M E D TH ERE. A U D R EY S U D D E N L.ED A RO U N D M Y N EC K . I N G. A F I R E W A S A LR E A D Y B U R N I N G I N TH E K I TC H E N STOVE. U BRI CATI NG AS HE ADJUSTED THE SUDE WATER.A I N TOOK A IT TO H I S FATHER1 PA I L AND W E NT HIS HE GOT AN OUT TO IDEA.Y O C C U R S TW I C E . E OF A NTICI PATION IN H I S CROTCH A N D T H E P I T O F H I S STO M A C H . J U ST B E FO R E WHEN FATH E R C A M E AND ASKED. MAY HOWEVER. V I O L ETS OF THE AND IRIS FORGET-ME. H E WAS GOI NG T O JACK OFF. S U N S ET "WHAT H A P P E N E D T O YOUR N EC K A U D REY1" H E W E N T OUT TO H I S FATH E R'S WOR KSHOP. Y T H E SPOT TO DIG FOR WOR M S .ATION OCCU R TH R E E BROUGHT S T l L. D M E D I C A L. "TH E P R E S E N C E OF H U M A N BODI E S W I L L DRAW THE POP L. F U P ON TI P TOE. L A U G H OF A G L. O N G A S TW EL. F B L. BUT NOTH I NG MORE W A S S A I D . E D I N FRONT O F H i S E Y E S A N D H E W E N T O F F I N H I S PANTS. AND AUDREY FEL.VER SPOTS BOI L. AUDREY I N TO W H I ST U NG T H R O U G H H I S T E E T H . HASTILY H E D R E S S E D A N D U N D I D T H E KNOT AND COILED THE ROPE.OTH ES. HE WAS STA RTI NG TO GET A H A RD-ON AS HE R E M E M B E RED SOM ETH I N G H E H I S FATH E R L.OO K I N G U P AT THE BEAMS. BREATH T H E C A NOES.L. H I S COCK AND L.OU I S . AND A BRANCH GOT TANGL. SOME IN. E J A C U L. H E SOME HOME PICK B L. T A FEEL. HE BECA M E QUITE DIZZY. I S H ED. IN SOME TI M E S HE K N E W EXACTL. H A D R E A D I N A N O L. FEEL T H E JERK FLAPPING ON THE TH R E E M I NUTES WITH THE N E C K BROK E N .A N K S T O THE B E A M S T O FORM AN ATTIC AND STORE ROOM TO THE WORKSHOP.L. L B L.AT­ ING AND THE H E A RT STOPS.AKE. H I S N E C K V E R Y SORE A N D A TASTE OF BLOOD I N H I S MOUTH. A T I O N THOUGHT TO R E S U L. H E A RT POU N D I NG. AC K B E R R I E S . S W I N G I N G A FEW I NC H E S OFF T H E FLOOR. ONCE I M M E D I ATE L. A N D SI L. T H EY C L E A N E D T H E FISH I N T H E LA K E A N D C A R R I E D THE ENTRA I LS I N A P A N A N D D R O P P E D T H E M O N T H E COM POST H EAP.E.Y AFTER THE DROP W H E N THE NECK I S BROKEN AND ONCE J UST BEFORE T H E BL. EVERY A N D SOM ETI M E S A S OFTEN CONSC I O U S N E S S A S FIVE T I M ES.D T A K E H I S TI M E A B O U T I T . EXPL.VE M I N UTES I N CASES W H E R E T H E NECK IS UNBROKEN IS OR L.'· L I E F TOL. A K E TO F I S H .

" LIEF CAME OUT OF TH E KITC H E N WHERE H E HAD "YEAH. AROUND EACH OTH E R'S SHOULDE RS. YOU COULD E A S I LY M I SS I T BECAUSE THE R E WERE BUSHES GROW I N G A RO U N D TH E BOULDERS THAT ALMOST CON C E A L E D T H E I N L ET. THE B R E EZE D I ED A N D TH E C REATU R E LAY TH E R E AS IF DEAD. AS IF THEY WERE HAVING A P I C T U R E TA K E N . PLATE OFF THE TABLE AND C A R R I E D IT I N TO A HE SQUATTED CORN E R OF TH E KITC H E N . TH E G R E E N COLOR SLOWLY S U B S I D E D. BOD I E S CONTRACTED. WHO WAS A R O U N D E A C H OTH E R 'S S H O U L D E R S . . A N D WHEN H E SAW H I S WAY TO THE WATE R WAS CUT OFF H E GAVE A W H I STLING SIGH OF FEA R. I S U D D E N LY GOT HOT FOR SOM E REASON. WATCHING TH E M WAS TH E R E I N TH E I NLET. CRAMMING RICE A N D BISCUITS INTO HIS MOUTH WITH HIS HA NDS. A N D H E GAVE A LITTLE COOI NG GIGGLE THAT S E N T A SHIVER DOWN A U D R EY'S SPINE. STI R R I N G SAND-COLORED PUBIC H A I RS. AND SHIT O N THE SAND. A N D THEN ONE AFTE RNOON A S J ER RY AND A UD R E Y WERE COM ING BACK FROM A WALK A R O U N D T H E EDGE OF TH E LA K E WITH TWO BLACK BASS A N D A WALL EYED PIKE A U D R E Y SUDDENLY STOPPED A N D PUT H I S H A N D IN FRONT OF J E R RY. "NE BUVEZ JAMAIS D'EAU" A S THE I R S E M E N SLASHED INTO THE WATER LIKE SALMON ROW. NOW T H E POPLI NG BEGAN TO STRUGGL E LIKE AN I M PATI ENT DOG AS H E WHI STLED O U T . A U D R E Y STEPPED OVER TO THE POPLING A N D TOUCHED H I S SHOULD E R ." THEY STOOD THERE WITH TH E I R ARMS ST I L L AUDREY UNTIED THE C REATU R E 'S ARMS A N D SET HIM GENTLY ON H I S FE ET. H E F E L T A S U D D E N R U S H OF B LOOD T O H I S CROTCH. THE PO P L I N G G R A B B E D A STI FFE N I NG P H A L LU S .FOR A W E E K NOTH I N G H A PP E N E D. N EXT TAKE SHOWED THE TWO BOYS J A C K I NG OFF. WEBBED FEET TRA I L I N G I N TH E WATER. LOOK I N G ACROSS T H E LAKE. R U N N I NG TH E WATE R OFF TH E I R BOD I E S A N D S H IVERI NG. T H E C R E AT U R E JERRY HAD STOPPED H E R E FOR A S W I M . " HE POI N T E D DOWN TO HIS TH E DOOR. H E KNEW IT WAS TH E R E BECA U S E TH R E E DAYS B E FORE." BEEN PREPA R I NG THE EVEN I NG M E A L . A N D T H E CREATU R E GOT AN E R ECTION AND EJACU­ LATED WITH A LOW WHISTLING SOU N D . H E S N I F FE D THROUGH TH E OPEN DOOR OF TH E KITCHEN. SOM E HOW A U D R E Y COULD N E V E R B R I N G H I M S E L F T O S W I M OUT I NTO T H E D E E P WATER. SO THEY SWAM C LOSE TO SHORE AND THEN C A M E O U T A N D STOOD ON TH E SAND. TH EY CA R R I E D T H E POPLING S E V E R A L H U NDRED Y A R D S B A C K T O T H E HOUSE. LOOKING DOWN A S TH EY EJACULATED A N D AUDREY THOUGHT OF A PICTURE H E H A D SEEN I N PARIS OF A LITTLE BOY PISSING I N TO T H E WATER . A S M E LL OF FRYING F I S H C A M E OUT WITH HIM A S H E OPENE D "ME TOO. . J E R R Y G LA N C E D DOW N . C A R L OPENED TH E DOOR AND TH EY C A R R I ED THE POPLING I NTO THE LIVING ROOM. W H E R E DOWN EATING THE FISH WITH D E LICATE VO RACITY. H E AND ALMOST TRANSPARENT. A U DREY. A N D STA G N A N T W A T E R W I T H FEET. TH E POPLI NG LOOK E D UP AT HIM. G R I N N I NG. TH E N A U DR E Y MADE OUT A FIGURE LYI N G IN THE S A N D. TU R N E D GREEN. THEY MOVED FORE W A R D CA UTIOUSLY AND PARTED THE BUSHES OVER THE I NLET A N D P E E R E D DOWN. STA LE F L OW E R S. A N D TH R E E G E E S E FLEW OVER. WHERE LIEF HAD ALREADY LA I D OUT PLATES O F FRIED FISH WITH BISCU ITS AND RICE. . TRYING TO MAKE AS LITTLE NOIS E A S POSSI B L E THE BOYS DROPPED DOWN ONTO THE SAND BETW E E N TH E POPL I N G A N D TH E WATER. I N A FEW SECONDS H E H A D P IC K E D TH E BON ES C L E A N . A ND WAS EXACTLY THE COLOR O F TH E SAND. THEN H E C U R L E D U P IN H I S COR N E R A N D WENT TO S L E E P. "FISH FISH FISH. CARL BOLTED TH E DOOR . SOM EONE OR SOM ETH I N G WAS L OOK I NG AT HIM. A N D A N YWAY T H E WATE R WAS M UCH TOO COLD TO STAY IN FOR MORE THAN A FEW M I N UTES. HEADING NORTH. IT S M E L L E D LIKE H UM U S . AUDREY COULD S M E LL IT AS H E MOVED FORWA RD. H E K N E W THAT J U ST AHEAD WAS A LITTLE SANDY I NLET BETW E E N TWO BOULDERS." "YOU'RE GETTI NG A H A RD-ON. QUICKLY STRI PPING OFF H I S BELT AND P I N I O N I N G T H E CREATUR E'S A R M S . . AT FI RST THEY SAW NOTHI N G . T H E CREATU R E WAS LOOKI N G AT AUDR EY. A U D R EY H A N D E D H I M ANOTH E R NOW HE KNEW THAT WH ATEV E R HAD BEEN PLATE A N D H E ATE THAT TOO. LOO K . AND A U D R E Y REA LIZED THAT IT F E LT EXACTLY L I K E SOMEONE WAS TAKING A P I CTU R E . "THEY'VE GOT H I M. AND TH E N THE B A N K FELL AWAY S H A R PLY I NTO DEEP WATER. AS THE S U N WARMED THEM TH E Y S T O O D W I TH TH E I R ARMS ACCENT S P R I N K L E D OVER IT. THE FIGU RE S E E M E D A FT E R T H E Y H A D F I N I S H E D EATING. A U D R E Y BECA M E AWARE THAT CARRYING HIS LEGS. 1 23 . THE W A T E R W A S S H A L LOW FOR A BOUT TWENTY LEAPED U P. A T TH IS MOMENT A B R E EZE R U STLED ACROSS THE LA K E BETW E E N THE C R E A T U R E'S LEGS.

Y L. P L. L. H A I RS. T H E WAY AND DIE. THE PUBLIC AND RECTAL. HOWEVER. P I N K-TH E COLORS H I S BODY SO T H A T AUD REY A C H E D TO BOD I ES. H I S ACH I EV I N G FRENZIES THAT ARE P A I N F U L.ES A N D N UTS AND ASS.ooK AT ME WITH HIS ASS. BUT SO S L. THE PO P L.E SOU N D T H A T V I BRATED I N M Y TH ROAT.U­ CENT FISH.OR. TODAY I WAS IN T H E WOR KSHOP A N D T H E PO P L. M Y N I PPL.L. I C A N TEL. Y . NECK HIS V I SC E R A . S HIT.ING TO BE FUCKED. E FT A N D I EJACUL.EGS SPASMODICAL. TWO ECSTASY BROUGHT THE GIGGL.A I N E D TO M E THAT IT IS FATAL. W I L. HE HAS PU BIC AND R ECTAL. B U T HAS N O W L.Y I N TH E AIR.VER GRAY TRANSLUCENT COL. A N D T H E N H E L.OWL.L.E BODY A N D OFTEN TURNS AROUND AND B E N DS OVER TO L. A U DR E Y HE T U R N E D AND J E R RY J E R R Y A N D I A R E N A K E D MOST OF THE T I M E . WA S H I N G BODIES. E A S U R E IS A L. H E L.E S H R I L. WITH HUGE HOWEV E R . I K E SOFT P E N I S SURGED E R ECT L. W H E N H E L.. F TRANSPA R E N T AND SHOW W E IGHT MORE 1 1 0 PO U N DS. A I D H I M DOWN ON T H E B E D WITH A BATH TOWEL UNDER HIS ASS. J ER K E D H I S H E A D TO T H E L. L.L.EA R N E D TO OTH E R TIM ES. D HIS NOT IS H E CAN MAKE H I M S E L. U K E A TROPICAL.ANGUAGE. AL.ORS F A ST E R . A U D R EY AND J E R RY CARRIED HIM PRODUCES P H Y S I C A L. I N G C A M E I N . I F W E TRY TO F U C K H I M . I F H E I S L. WIL. "THAT YOU W I L.I N G WANTS TO BE SEEN WITH OTH E R BODIES AND TO SEE OTHE R ORANGE.ooK ­ AREAS D I F F E R E N T ACCOR D I N G TO WHICH A R E USED. I N G TU R N E D P U R PLE. K I C K I NG H I S L. F O R A POPL. THE ASS. A BOVE A L.ooR A N D BEGAN CARESSING H I M . I K E A ROPE MARK A P P E A R E D.IKE SOM E SON A R L. A THIS M ET H O D OF P E R C E PT I O N L. TO WATC H .OOKE D AT M E W I T H H I S N E C K W H E R E A REO L. WHEN H E SWIMS.OOKS A T M E WITH H I S N I PPL.E N D E R THAN THAT HE C O U L. HE T U R N S G R E E N AND SH ITS.E C H I R P I N G L. HE IS AN USE TH E TOI L. N I PPL.OR WITH HIS SKIN." CL.S ARE THE MOST S E N S I T I V E S E E I NG AREAS. U PSTA I RS TO T H E BE DROOM A N D L.ET A T "WHAT HAPPENS I F HE FUCKS M E 1" I N STANT C H A M E L E O N . L. M O N . A N D WE ARE SL. AND BOYS OFF WITH H I M . H I S HEAD COMES TO A POINT A N D IS QUITE H A I R LESS. CARL.L. THE P O P L. I K E SOME P I N K TRANSL. F I N O OUT SOON ENOUGH. FRENZIES A R E HE P E N I S A N D TESTICLES A R E R ETRACTED I NTO H I S BODY. A L. THE POPL.Y U N D E RWATER SPERM S M E L L H E DE FECATES F R O M S U D D E N FEA R O R PL.T U R N E D A SALMON P I N K COLOR A N D ROLLED OVER ON H I S BACK WITH HIS LEGS I N THE A I R A N D MADE A STRANGE POP P I N G SOU N D IN HIS TH ROAT. L. H I S BODY G I V E S O F F A G R A Y GHOSTL. OUT IS A N D THE L.ES. H A I RS C H A NGE COL. EROGENOUS S P A R KS.ATED. " H E WIL. MOST S I X F E ET. FLASH I NG HE THAT CAME THROUGH IN A HIM FASTER W H I STL. H A S EXPL.EAR G R A Y S H I M M E R I NG E Y E S .EA R N I NG HOW TO SEE WITH OUR STRIPPED OFF TH E I R SHORTS. L.ES BECOME E R ECT.IT S E C O N D TO M ATCH H I S S U R ROUNDI NGS.L.EAV I NG A S M OOT H S U T . HE SEEMS TO BE ABL. C H A RACTE R I STICS: H E I S Q U I T E TA L L.ES AND C H I RPS VI BRATE IN M Y BODY THE POPLl NG: PHYSICAL L.ES AND GENITAL. I N E L." C H ANGING COL.oo K ED AT THE BEAMS AND MADE A L. I N G W R I T H E D BR IGHT REO AND E C S T A T I C A L.W A Y S MANI­ FESTED B Y REO A N D F E A R B Y GREEN. HIS A U DREY'S NOTE ON W H I STL. L. HIS HE CAN SEE WITH H I S WHOL.E TO E J A C U L. R U N N I NG LIGHT F I N G E R S OVER H I S N I PPL.OR I N A S PL.OOK AT H I M .ATE E ROTIC ANY N U M B E R OF T I M E S .EAS U R E .OOKI N G AT M E W I T H M Y B A C K T U R N E D. POP A L.ITTL. NORMA LLY H E I S A S I L.IAM B U R ROUGHS 1 24 . THROUGH S A L.MOST MORE NOT S E R P E NTI N E AND FL. I M P A CT.OW J E R R Y O R ME TO FUCK H I M . A L.EXIBLE. FISH. THE AND OF COL. L. DROPPED THE BATH TOW E L ON TH E FL. THESE AND MORE F R E Q U E NT.

THAT WAS THE ONLY REALITY ON MY SIDE OF THE COURT. I WROTE TO A CLOSE FRIEND: THING AS I LOOKED AT H I M -THAT I LOVED H I M. MUCH AS THOSE MAY HAVE BEEN THE ONLY TERMS I N WHICH THEY COULD UNDERSTAND O R ORGANISE THE PROCEEDINGS--eUT THE ASSER110N OF LOVE: BUT MOST I MPORTANT WERE TWO OTHER THINGS. HAD STRUGGLED FOR OTHERS. LOVERS OPPOSITE A COURT FILLED WITH LOVERS OF THE FOOLISH. EACH T I M E "I FEEL CALM AND ACCEPTING AND HAVE A CLARITY ABOUT WHAT I MUST 00 THAT I DIDN'T HAVE BEFORE. EXPRESSION AND M ISREADING OF SENTIMENT. YET IT WAS ALL SAID. HAD HAUNTED ME FOR MONTHS. NO OTHER OUTCOME WAS POSSIBLE. BE SELF-DECEPTION 1 25 . THE LOVE A N D U N D E RSTA N D I N G I FELT FROM MY THEREFORE IT WAS A COURT OF FOOLS. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? CAN ANYONE UNDERSTAND IT? MIGHT HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GIVE OTHERS IN THE PAST. THERE WAS WHAT I FELT FOR LEE IN THE DARE I RISK O N E OBSERVATION (IT M A Y A L SO WHICH MAY S E E M BUT I COURT. SECOND. M Y WORDS WERE OUT AND YOU WERE RIG HT. NOW IT HAD HAPPENED WITH ME AS THE BENEFICIARY. I HAD DOUBTED IT WERE POSSIBLE-AS YOU KNOW. I HOPED IT REFLECTED WHAn PUBLIC GALLERY F I L LED WITH FOOLISH LOVE GLANCES LOVE IN STRUCK THE A I R. I WOULD HAVE FELT CH EATED. AND BEING MISCONSTRUED. THEY SURV IVED EVEN THAT MANGLING OF HOW COULD THE POLICE HAVE NOT BEEN AFFECTED? OR THE MAG I STRATES? IT WAS NOT PORNOGRAPHY AND RAPE AND I NDOCTRINATION WHICH PERVADED THE AI R. FIRST. THEY DEFIED DEREUCTION OF T H E PROSECUTION AND T H E LEGAUSM ON THE DEFENCE.THE COM M ITTAL TWO DAYS AFTER THE COMMITTAL HEARING. I ONLY KNEW ONE STRANGE. A HEARING FOR MISFITS: A I FELT THAT STRENGTH WHICH COMES FROM A COMMON PURPOSE. I STILL CANNOT DIGEST IT. IT HAD PREVIOUSLY ONLY HAPPENED WHEN I THERE BEEN ANOTHER RESULT. W H E T H E R AS BOTH THE OR WORDS. REMEMBER YOU SAID THAT I COULDN'T GET UP I N COURT AND DENY THAT 1 010 LOVE BOYS? THE FEAR OF THAT. AND THAT OF COURSE IS WHY THE CASE IS BOUND TO G O ON. FRIENDS. THE IRRELEVENCE AND CRUDITY AND H UMAN FAILURE (WHICH WAS VAST) O F THE COURT ON FRIDAY MANAGED TO SIFT THE WHEAT FROM THE TARES. FOR THOSE GENERALLY CONSIDERED INCAPABLE OF RECEIVING IT FROM THOSE UNWORTHY OF GIVING IT. FOR TH E FIRST T I M E I N THIS WHOLE BUSINESS.

I AM FREE NOT TO TREMBLE. NO T R I U M P H . AT LAST. SINCE NO LESS TlHAN SEVEN BOFORS POLICEMEN H A D TURNED THREAT. NOW SHE M UST REALISE THAT THE ASSURANCES ABOUT COURT THE PROCEDURE NOT WERE COMPLETELY WHO FALSE: IT IS THESE COURT THE MY POLICE DECIDE THIS I S THE ONLY WAY I CAN EXPLAIN THE INNER CALM NOW I FEEL. STRUGGLING TO LOOK AT M E-TIHE ONLY PERSON IN THAT GAUNT ROOM WHO COULD GIVE HIM THE LEAST SIGN OF RECOGNI­ TION. BUT TO FIGHT TlH I NGS. AS THAT COURT SHOWED. CLERK. BUT HAVE FIVE C O U RT OR SIX AND REPORTER HEAVIES AND MYSELF WHOM ABOUT MIXED PAI NFUL FEELINGS. IF THEY WERE PREPARED TO FLOUT THE TI MES THEIR AGE HAVE N O I N K L I N G OFI (WHICH AGAI N IS WHY I AM I N COURT . IT IS ON M Y TERMS AS WELL. (THAT'S "ISN'T TO SO SAY. THE POLICE WENT ALL THE WAY UP TO THE M I D LA N DS.THROW IT OUT IN ORDER TO HAVE I T TESTEDJ IT IS ONLY THE POLITICAL PROCESS. PROBATION PRESENT. . WHAT BETTER INDICATION IS THERE THAT THEY HAVE NO SCRUPLES I N PUTTING ENORMOUS PRESSURE ON KIDS." FROM MYSELF-A N D TlHAT T H E WHOLE A FFA I R WOULD BE I N FORMAL I N MY LETTIER TO M Y F R I E N D AFTER THE COMMITTAL H E A R I NG I CONTI N U ED: WHOM H E SOUGHT SOME HUMAN FEELlNGJ SHE MIGHT TlHEN. NOW THAT THE STRUGGLE GOES ON. SINCE EV ERYTH I N G IF SHE HAD ONCE Irs ANY OVER BAD"). A N D A VO I D ANY POSSI B I LITY OF POLICE I NTI M I DATION -MERELY BY TlHEIR PRESENCE. HAVE SEEN AN ESSENTIAL TRUTH: THAT TlH E RE IS NO QUESTION OF LEE LYING. AND THE PAIN TlHE WHOLE TlHING CAUSED HIM. U P AT COURT. IF BARRISTER HADN'T INSISTED. MADE HIS STATEM ENT. VERY M UCH IN LEE TWO HAS QUESTION OF HIS CONFUSION ABOUT EVENTS IN THE MI NDS. OUTLI N I NG M Y A R R E ST LOWED AND L E E'S I NT E R ROGATION. NOT SIM PLY BECAUSE OF TlH E SUPPORT HE NEEDED FROM HER. IF LETS US H U MAN REALITY AT ALL. ON THE OTH ER H A N D. HOWEVER. (CRUELLEST IRONY-THAT IT WAS ME. J" ORDER OF THE COURT TO QUIT IT. I T IS ONLY THE ANALYSIS OF WHY SUCH PATHETIC H U MAN CONSTRUCTS DETE R M I N E DENY H U MAN REALITY WHICH DOES A L L.J E A N . TO AN EXTENT. THE EXTENT TO WHICH HE IN FACT WITHDREW MUCH OF WHAT HE ORIGINALLY SAID. OF THE WAS FOL­ OF TlHEIR N U MBER RIGHT NEXT TO WHERE LEE WOULD TESTIFY. THIS WAS NO MEAN HAVE UNDERSTOOD-lN A WAY COLD WRITTIEN WORDS COULDN'T PERSUADE HER-TlHE EXTENT TO WHICH LEE IS CONFUSED ABOUT TlHE ALLEGATION HE ORIGINALLY MADE. I T H I N K S H E W I L L HAVE BEEN REASSURED. TlHE POLICE LIED TO JEAN AND THEY KNEW THEY WERE LYING WHEN THEY DID SO. ON THE OTH ER RELI EF THAT LONG GONE PAST ('TWO YEARS NOW> AND ABOUT WHAT A SUCCESSION OF ADULTS HAVE WANTED OUT OF HIM. IT WAS THE ONLY TI ME THEY COULD GET OFF. AND IT WASN'T "SO BAD" AFTER 1 26 . LEE WOULD HAVE HAD TO TESTIFY NOT ONLY TWO M A G I STRATES. CHOOSE. LEE H I M SELF. I TlHINK SHE WOULD ONLY L E E'S MOTHER• . STUGGLING TO REMEMBER. I CANNOT LOOK AT EITHER OF THEM WITHOUT FEELING GLADNESS AND­ YES. HOW THEY K NOW TH INGS PEOPLE THREE OFFICER. TESTIFIED. EXPECTED HOSTI LITY F R O M M Y FRIENDS OR M Y S E L F . AT THAT C O U RT POI NT. HAD TO LEAVE THE COURT AS WELL THE POLICE H A D ASSURED HER TlHAT "ONLY TH E MAGISTRATE" WOULD BE IN COURT. LOVE ALONE IS EASILY DENIED BY THOSE WHO CANNOT U N DERSTAND U NCONDITIONAL LOVE. EXCEPT A TRI U M PH O F FORM AND OF METHOD. PERHAPS SHE NOW REALISES TlHAT TlHE POLICE ARE CAPABLE OF LYING IN TlH E SAM E WAY TlHAT I'VE MAINTAINED TlHROUGHOUT THEY LIED ABOUT ME. SOLICITOR. HE M UST SOLICITOR'S I SAW MARK AND DAREN TODAY BRIEFLY. TlHEN WITH INDEED. BETRAYED. S H E M U ST HAVE FELT H U M I LIATED A N D. THE VERY PERSON AGAINST WHOM HE WAS "COMPLAINING. THAT MAKES ANY SENSE OF SUCH WASTE AND STUPIDITY. STRUGGLING TO FIND WORDS. TO BE MY B A R R I ST E R ASKED BOTH TO FOR THE RELIEVE I WISH SHE COULD HAVE BEEN IN COURT WHEN LEE CLEARED. PRIDE-AT THEIR U N D E RSTANDING AND BREADTH OF VISION. RISKED GOI NG TO IF LEE THAT MAKE SENSE? I F I HAD BEEN SET FREE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN ON THEIR T E R M S-TH E TERMS THEY D I D N 'T TURN U P IN COU RT-TH EN CERTA I N L Y S H E WAS HOODWI N K E D. BUT THERE IS A "J EAN M UST NOW BE FEELING HAND. BESIDE HAVE HAD TO LOOK AT HIM. WHEN IN PRIVATE? BY THE APPEARANCE PROSECU­ TION'S FI RST WITN ESS. A B R I EF PROS E C U T I O N STA T E M E NT. AND POSITION ONE TlH E COMMITTAL PROC E E D I NGS LASTED A DAY. BUT BECAUSE SHE MIGHT TlHEN PRESSURE O N LEE. THEY TOLD AND HER EFFECTIVELY SHE HOODW I N K E D JAIL HER. BARRISTERS. I N ITS BROADEST SENSE.

WATCHING LEE TESTIFY. 00 YOU K NOW LEE: YES. 1 27 .. MAGISTRATE: I T MEANS YOU PROMISE TO TELL TH E TRUTH. LEE: GO SWI M M I NG. PROS: 010 HE COM E TO LIVE WITH YOU AT YOUR HOUSE AT ALL? PROS: DURI NG THE DAY WHAT 0 1 0 YOU USED TO OO? LEE: YES. I WROTE DOWN AND ALL HIS THE Q U ESTI O N S I ALSO ADDRESSED T O H I M . THEY INSERTED IT I N BRACKETS AFTER "DICK." "ASS" OR "BOTTOM. I HEARD I T I N WORDS OUT O F T H E MOUTHS O F T H E POLICE. WHAT TH E OATH MEANS? PROS: ON TH E FIRST OCCASION WERE YOU WITH A NYON E ELSE? LEE: I'M SUPPOSED T O T E L L THE TRUTH. NOTED THE REPLI ES. LEE: NO." AND WOULD HE HAVE SAID "BACKSIDE"7 BACKSIDE IS A PECULIARLY ADULT TERM-"I'LL HIT YOU ON YOUR BACKSIDE IF YOU'RE NOT CAREFUL. LEE: NO. I CAN'T REMEMBER. YOU ARE TO GOING GIVE TO MAKE A SOLE M N PROM I S E THE RIGHT PROS: CAN YOU REMEMBER HOW YOU WENT TO LONOON? ANSWER. PROS: FOR HOW LONG? LEE: ABOUT TH REE MONTHS." AND I F A BOY WERE TRYING TO BE POLITE IN ADULT COMPANY. W H E N M EET ROGER MOODY? 0 1 0 YOU FI RST LEE: BIRM INGHAM. PROS: WHAT SORT OF THI NGS 0 1 0 YOU 00 TOGETH ER? LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER.BEHIND7. PROS: AFTER TH REE MONTHS 010 H E LEAVE AS I SAT IN THE DOCK ON JULY 2BTH. LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER PROS: 00 YOU REMEMBER WHICH PART OF PROS: CLOSE? LONDON TH E HOUSE WAS I N ? LEE: ABOUT THI RTY M I LES AWAY. SURELY H E WOULD SAY . LEE: ABOUT FIVE YEARS AGO. PROS: WH E R E 0 1 0 YOU LIVE? LEE: NO. . WHICH PROS: 0 1 0 YOU GO A N D STAY WITH H I M I N LONDON? STATE M EN TS TH E N WOMAN MAG ISTRATE: LEE. PROS: WHERE 010 YOU GO WHEN IN LONOON? 00 YOU REMEMBER THE ADDR ESS.. AND COM E TO VISIT YOU FROM T I M E TO TI ME. (WOULD LEE HAVE USED THE WORD "PENIS"7 1 THINK NOT. YOU M U ST PUT YOU R HANDS ON THE BI BLE--oN THE WORDS OF J ESUS. LEE: YES. PROS: 010 YOU SEE H I M A LOT? LEE: YES. HESITATIONS IN NEVER TH ESE INTONATIONS I N H I S R E FLECTED I N THE VOI C E -SO M E T H I N G "DEPOSITION" BECOME. LEE DELIVERS THE OATH PROS: WHICH CITI ES 010 YOU GO THROUGH ? PROSECUTI O N : L E E . LEE: BY COACH." KIDS WILL ALMOST ALWAYS SAY "BUM. I N HIS ORIGINAL STATEM E N T TO THE POLICE. .WHEN HE MADE THAT CLINCHING STATEMENT.

PROS: WHAT E LS E ? LEE: MATTRESSES. WHAT DI D YOU U S E D TO WEAR? LEE: PANTS. LEE: H E K I S S E D M E . A N D M Y BROTH E R S W E N T TO STAY WITH LEE: I DON'T THI N K SO. PROS: WH E R E DID ROGER SLEEP? PROS: WHAT SORT OF THI NGS DID YOU U S E D LEE: N EXT TO ME. LEE: S A M E ROOM AS ROGER. PROS: WAS TH I S THE FI RST TI M E YOU WENT TO PROS: ON THE F I R ST N IGHT DID A N YTH I N G LONDON? HAPPEN? LEE: NO. TO M E. SOM ETI M E S A TEESHI RT. HOW LONG AGO WAS THI S ? LEE: I TH I N K T H R E E Y E A R S AGO. SOMETI M ES WE W E N T T O WH E R E T H E Y W E R E LIVING. PROS: ON LATER N I GHTS DID A N YT H I N G H A PP E N ? PROS: WHAT T I M E O F THE YEA R? L E E (AFTER A LONG SILENCE): H E TRI E D T O GET CLOSE LEE: SUM M E R HOLIDAYS. 1 28 . PROS: DID I T HAVE BEDS IN IT? PROS: YOU EXPLA I N TO TH E LADY UP TH E R E (HE POINTS T O T H E MAGISTRATE). THERE I S ANOTHER LONG SILENCE FROM LEE. W E WANT TO HEAR I T FROM YOU . PROS: HOW OLD W E R E YOU? PROS: I N WHAT WAY? LEE: ABOUT N I N E. PROS: PROS: WHAT DID YOU DO A BOUT THAT? WHEN YOU DESC R I BED YOU R T R I P ON LEE: C A N'T R E M E M B E R YOU R OWN. T O DO? PROS: LEE: I WENT TO PLAY WITH THE OTH E R LADS. PROS: WHAT WERE TH E I R NAMES? PROS: WHAT D I D ROGE R U S E D TO WEAR? LEE: J I M M Y A N D STEVE. PROS: WHERE D I D YOU SLEEP? PROS: TELL U S WHAT HAPPEN ED. LEE: I C A N'T U N D E RSTA N D . LEE: NO. PROS: WHEN DID YOU GO BEFORE ? PROS: A N YTH I N G ELSE? LEE: M E ROGER. W E R E TH E MATTRESSES C LOSE? LEE: Y E S. L E E : SOMETI M E S I W E N T W I T H ROGER. L E E : PANTS. PROS: LEE: WH E R E D I D YOU U S E D TO GO? PROS: S O M ETI M E S THEY CAME TO OUR PLACE. MAGISTRATE: PROS: ON WHAT DI D YOU SLEEP? WE HAVE SOME I DEA OF WHAT H A P P E N ED.

LEE: H E T R I E D TO COME O V E R T O M Y MATTRESS. PROS: WH E N ? PROS: CAN YOU R E M E M B E R ANYTH ING ELSE HAPPENING AT A LL? LEE: WHEN H E C A M E TO T H E M I D LANDS SOMETIME BEFORE I CAME TO LONDON. LEE: I CANT REMEMBER. WHO TOOK THESE PHOTOS? PROS: DID HE SUCC E E D AT ALL? LEE: ROGER. LEE: NOTH ING. PROS: DID A N YT H I N G ELSE HAPPEN ON ANOTH E R NIGHT? PROS: DID YO U R R E S PECTI V E POSITIONS LEE: HE KISSED ME A N D THAT. NOT TOGETHER. LEE: YES. PROS: WHAT ABOUT ROGER? PROS: I'D LIKE YOU TO LOOK AT TWO PHOTOS. PROS: ANYTH I N G ELSE? PROS: WHAT SORT OF BOOKS? THERE IS ANOTHER LONG SILENCE LEE: SEX BOOKS. MAGISTRATE: DO YOU K NOW WHY YOU' R E HERE TO GIVE EVI DENCE TODAY? PROS: WAS THERE ANY QUESTION OF PHOTOS BEING TAKEN? DEFENCE BARRISTER (IN AN ASIDE): THE POLICE OFFICERS TOLD H I M TO COME. PROS: WHEN HE DID SO. YES. LEE: YES. DEFENSE BARRISTER (INTERVENING>: DON'T LEADI CLOSE WAS TH E WORD. YES. WHAT D I D YOU DO? PROS: WHERE WAS ROGER S LEEPI NG? LEE: I MOVED FURTHER AWAY. PROS: DID HE GET IT I N ? PROS: WERE YOU SLEEPING ON ONE OF TH E MATTRESSES? LEE: NO. THERE I S A LONG SILENCE PROS: DID YOU R EAD ANY BOOKS WHEN STAYI NG WITH ROGER? LEE: H E TRI ED TO PUT H I S ARMS A ROUND ME.PROS: HOW D I D YOU L I E IN BED? WERE TH E TWO MATTRESSES ALONGS I D E EACH OTH ER? THERE IS YET ANOTHER LONG SILENCE LEE: HE TRIED TO PUT HIS PENIS UP M Y BACKSIDE. STAY LIKE THAT? PROS: WHAT DOES "AND THAT' M EA N ? LEE: I STAYED THERE. PROS: DI D YOU SEE H I S PENIS? LEE: TH E MATTRESSES WERE RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHE R. PROS: DID A N YTH I NG ELSE H A PPEN YOU CAN TELL US ABOUT? PROS: DID YOU AGREE TO THOSE TWO PHOTOS BEING TAKEN? 1 29 . LEE: ON THE OTH ER ONE. LEE: HE WANTED TO . LEE: YES.

LEE: NO. WHEN YOU R BROTHE R S CAME TO STAY. DEF: TH E ROOM YOU SLEPT IN WITH ROGER. TH E R E'S DEF: YOU COULDN'T SEE HIM COU LD YOU? THI N G WRONG WITH THOSE IS THERE? LEE: NO. Y O U SAI D N O .LEE: NO. 1 30 . DEF: YOU TELL US. DEF: YOU CAN'T REALLY BE SURE CAN YOU? I SN'T THAT RIGHT LEE: THATS RIGHT. LEE: I D R A N K POMAGNE. LEE: NO. LEE: WE WENT TO A PARTY. LEE: NO. DEF: YOU R E M E M B E R THE PARTY TO WHICH YOU WENT. LEE: NO. I CAN'T REMEMBER WHO ELSE. L E T M E OTH E R P H OTOS SHOW Y O U THESE NO­ [CLOTH ED]. LEE: YES. LEE: NO. DEF: WHEN YOU SAY MON OTH ER OCCASIONS" HE T R I E D TO KISS YOU HE WAS DOING THAT RATH E R L I K E A FATH ER WASN'T H E ? PROS: HOW MUCH? LEE: HALF A BOTTLE. YOU ALL SLEPT IN TH E SA M E ROOM DIDN'T YOU? LEE: YES. PROS: WHAT D I D YOU HAVE TO DRINK? LEE: YES. YOU KNOW YOU SAI D ROGE R TRI ED TO P U T H I S PENIS U P YOUR BACKSI DE? HE N EVER TOUCHED IT DID HE? LEE: I DONT KNOW. PROS: WE RE THERE ANY WOMEN THERE? DEF: YOU WENT WITH ROGE R OTH ER EVEN­ I NG S D I DN'T YO U ? TO TH E CINEMA FOR EXA M PLE. DEF: IT COULD J UST AS EAS I LY HAVE BEEN A H A N D AS A P E N I S COULDN'T IT? PROS: DID YOU GO OUT IN TH E EVENING AT A LL? LEE: YES. I CANT B E SURE. DEF: A N D W H E N HE C U DDLED YOU HE DID SO LIKE A FATH E R? LEE: YES. DO YOU REMEMBER IT WAS FOR TWO PEOPLE GOING OUT TO BANGLADESH? PROS: WHO WAS AT THE PARTY? LEE: ROGER. MY BARRISTER THEN ROSE TO CROSS-EXAMINE DEF: NOT IN A N Y OTH ER WAY? DEFENCE: LEE. DEF: NOT IN ANY OTH ER WAY? LEE: I THOUGHT H E DID. DEF: YOU'RE NOT SURE ABOUT IT ARE YOU? DEF: HE ASKED TO TAK E PHOTOS OF YOU A N D LEE: YES. DEF: IT COULD HAVE BEEN A H A N D AGAINST YOU COULDN'T IT? DEF: AND THE R E WAS ONLY ONE ROOM FOR YOU TO SLEEP IN WHEN YOU WERE WITH ROGER? LEE: YES.

W H E R E ? LEE: NO. THERE WAS A ROOM BESIDE IT. DEF: SO WHEN YOU C A M E TO STAY IN LONDON WITH ROGER I T WAS NATU RAL FOR YOU TO SLEEP IN THE SAM E ROOM A N D NOT IN A MAGISTRATE: WE WANT TO ASK YOU ONLY O N E QUESTION PENIS. I'VE LITTLE DOUBT 131 . LEE: NO. DEF: AND WHEN ROGER WAS TOUCH I NG YOU. DEF: THEY HAVEN'T DON E SO SI NCE YOU WERE A BABY IS THAT RIGHT? PROS: YOU SAY ROGE R KISSED YOU. LEE: NO. LEE: NO. LEE: DARK. HE WAS BEING W A S N 'T A F F ECTI O N A T E HE? HE W A S N 'T LIKE A FATH E R DOI N G MAG: W H E N D I D YOU SEE H I S PENIS TH E N ? LEE: I N TH E MORNING.LEE: NO. WAS I T DA R K OR LIGHT? LEE: YES. I THI N K. O R AWAY? DEF: YO U R MUM AND DAD DON� U VE LEE: AWAY. LEE: ON T H E CHEEK. DEF: IT WAS REALLY LIKE A FATH ER WASN'T IT? IN IT? LEE: I DONT KNOW. PROS: WERE YOU FAC ING TOWA RDS ROG E R LEE: YES. WHY 010 YOU SAY I T WAS A P E N I S? LEE: I T DIDNT FEEL LIKE A HAND OR ANYTHING. PROS: WERE YOU LYI NG DOWN AT TH E T I M E? DEF: ROGER USED TO TREAT YOU VERY MUCH L I K E A SON D I DN'T HE? LEE: YES. TOGETHE R DO TH EY? PROS: COULD YOU SEE HOW HE WAS FACI NG? LEE: NO. DEF: DID IT HAVE ANY FURN ITURE WASN'T IT BARE? LEE: YES. TAKE PICTUR ES-WE RE THEY L I K E THIS? (HE HOLDS U P THE SEMI-NUDE SHOTS) DEF: ROGER WAS REALLY LI K E A FATHER TO ALL OF YOU? PROS: NOT L I K E TH I S? (HE SHOTS) HOLDS UP THE CLOTHED LEE: YES. DEF: DO YOU SEE YOU R DAD VERY M UCH? PROS: YOU SAI D YOU DIDN'T WANT H I M TO LEE: NO. "HERE THERE IS A TERRIBLE IRONY. ANYTH I NG WRONG? I CONCLUDED THE LETTER TO MY FRIEND: LEE: I DONT KNOW WHETHER H E WAS TOUCH I NG ME LIKE A FATHER. THEY HAVENT. THE PROSECUTOR RISES TO RE·EXAMINE DEF: HAVE YOU EVER STAYED AWAY FROM HOME ON YOU R OWN B E FORE W ITHOUT YOUR BROTHERS OR MOTHER? PROS: LEE. LEE_ YOU SAID ON YOU SAW HIS YOU BUT LATER YOU SAI D ROOM-A BARE ROOM-ON YOUR OWN? COULDN'T S E E IT.

AT ONE POI NT H E S A I D H E DIDN'T K N O W WHETHER T H E Y WERE "FATHERLY" KISSES. AFTER ALL. THAT. NOT HAVING KNOWN WHAT IT WAS TO HAVE A REAL FATHER. 1 32 . DID HE TRY TO COME OVER TO YOUR SIDE OF THE BED? POLICE: HOW? PERHAPS HE WAS BEHIND YOU BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T WANT HIM TO KISS YOU? LEE: YES ONCE OR TWICE. POLICE: WAS HE FACING YOU? BOYS DO NOT KISS BOYS. H I S CONFUSIONS ABOUT WHAT THESE KI SSES MEANT CAME OVER POI G N A N T LY IN THE C ROSS­ LEE: YES. EXA M I NATION AT T H E C O M M I TTAL. K I DS LEARN FROM FILMS THAT IT SIGNIFIES THE START OF SERIOUS LOVE-MAKING. LEE: YES. E L A B O RA T E D ON IT. THEN YES-THEY WERE FATH ERLY KISSES. ALLEVIATING T H E G U I L T W A S TO SAY I D I D IT T O H I M . POLICE: AND WHEN HE WAS BEHIND YOU. LEE: K I SSED ME AND THAT. SEXUALITY OR POLICE: H E H A D HIS LEGS A G AINST YOU DIDN'T HE? SLIGHT NAUGHTI N E SS-IF THAT. I CAN IMAGINE THE POLICE: BUT PERHAPS HE DIDN'T KISS YOU SOME OF THE TIME7 POLICE: 50 HE HELD YOU IN A DIFFERENT WAY? POLICE: WHEN YOU WERE SLEEPING NEXT TO EACH OTHER. LEE: I CAN'T R E M E M B E R. PERHAPS H E ALSO FANTASISED M Y PENIS C O M I N G I NTO CONTACT WITH H I S BOTTO M : I KNOW OF ONE OCCAS I O N WHEN HE LEE: I DON'T KNOW. LEE L I V ES IN A WORLD WHERE PRESSING MOCK ONESELF A G A I N S T A N O T H E R PERSON J UST P H YSICAL ANTICS IS IN A POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIS PENIS? LEE: I DON'T K N OW. POLICE: DID YOU FEEL ANYTHING AGAINST POLICE: HOW DID HE CUDDLE YOU? YOU? LEE: HE PUT H I S A R M S A R O U N D ME. LEE: H I S D I C K I SU PPOSE. AT ANOTH E R POINT. WHAT DOES IT SIGNIFY? WHAT H A R M COMES OUT OF IT? KISSING HOWEVER HAS DIFFERENT I M PLICATIONS AND THEY ARE M U C H MORE CONFUSING. THAT LEE WANTED M E TO KISS H I M . RATH ER THAN THAT H E WANTED "TO KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE"? OR WAS IT S I M PL Y THAT THE WHOLE THING WAS SO I NCI DENTAL I N THE FI RST PLACE THAT UNTI L THE POLICE POUNCED ON I T A N D M A D E IT THE KEY THING H E D I D N 'T KNOW IT HAD A N Y SIG N I FICANCE? I N W H I C H CASE. POLICE: WHAT DID HE OO? LEE: YES. POLICE: WAS HE NAKED AT THE TIME? POLICE: PENIS. A N D THOUGH M E N KISS BOYS (A N D BOYS MEN) I T IS ONLY WITHIN THE FAM I LY. LEE: CUDDLED ME SORT OF. HE WOULD HAVE BEEN TAKEN U N AWARES AND.THAT WHAT LEE FEELS I DID WRONG TO H I M WAS TO POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIM AGAINST YOU? KISS H I M . DESPITE H I M S E LF. POLICE: HE WOULD FACE YOU TO KISS YOU WOULDN'T HE? CERTA I N LY D I D SO. LEE: I TH I N K SO. PROCESS: LEE: YES. YOU FELT HIM AGAINST YOU I EXPECT? POLICE: AND THAT? LEE: YES. I K N OW. WHICH G U I LTY THE POLICE WAS I T THAT SPECIFIC LATC H E D THAT ON TO? DID FANTASY HE FEEL OF ABOUT IT-SO THE ONLY WAY LEE: YES.

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. WOULD WORK OUT. SURE? AWARENESS COULD HAVE GONE ON . LIKE PAUL HE HAD BEEN SHAKEN. HE WASN'T SURE HOW IT LEE: YES.! IT IS TRUE THAT. HAS BEEN TOLD IN THE POLICE: OKAY. MOST DEVASTAnNG FASHION THAT THE AREAS INTO WHICH HE WAS MOVING WERE ABSOLUTE TABOO. I HAD SEEN HIM TWICE SINCE THEN: T H E GROWING POLICE: LEE: YES. AND HIS ILLNESS WHEN HE ARRIVED HOME AFTER TH E '76 HE H OL I D AY WAS THE BEST POLICE: LEE: NO. . HE HAD STRENGTH REALISED THAT. BECA USE PROCESS. LI KE I HAD PARTIALLY WHICH HELPED HIM TO ACQUIRE. BUT IT IS THE ONLY "TRUTH" HE CAN E X PRESS. I DIDN'T SEE THAT THIS WAS PROBABLY HOW THE WHOLE THING HAD BEEN. BUT MAYBE THIS IS WHERE THE H U MAN TRI U M PHS OVER THE MAN UFAC· I E X PECT YOU WERE IN HIS LAP WEREN'T YOU? LEE: YES. DID HE GET IT IN? I N DICATION THAT DESPERATELY FEARED T H E TENSIONS THAT HAD BEEN CREATED. A AN ADULT WHO ENCOURAGES HIM IN HIS JOURNEY CONFI RMATION. HAD BEEN AND WHAT HE WANTED. WAS COMPELLED TO STAND AGAINST ME: POLICE: A R MS WELL.POLICE: YOU FELT HIS PENIS AGAINST YOU? FINALLY I WROTE THE FOLLOWI N G . IF HE WAS HOLDING YOU IN HIS "I NOW OFTEN SEE LEE IN MY INNER EYE AS HE WAS ON FRIDAY. TURED) THAT THE LOOKS WE SHARED WERE THE MOST I M PORTANT THING. (AS FREIRE SHOWED IN BRAZIL. HE DID NOT KNOW. VICTIMS ALWAYS REMAIN VICTIMS UNnL THEY REALISE THE TRUE MEANING OF THE WORDS: THAT WORDS ARE NOT N EUTRAL BUT TOOLS TO BE USED FOR OR AGAINST OTHER H U MAN BEINGS." BUT HE RECOVERED. AFTER ALL. HE KNOWS THAT THIS IS NOT THE TRUTH-HENCE HE SEARCHES M Y FACE I N COURT TO DISCOVER THAT I REALLY AM WHO I WAS WHEN WE LAST MET. I FEEL THE TENDERNESS I FELT THEN AND RECALL (PERHAPS SURPRISINGLY. YET I AM NOT HIS FATHER-BEYOND THAT. AN ACCUSAnON. THE CORE OF HIS TRUTH WAS THAT I HAD BEEN WITH H I M LIKE A FATHER: IT WAS HOW I LEE: AGA INST MY BOTTOM. LEE CANNOT SEE THE WICKED AND ESSENTIALLY FA LSE LOG IC IN THE TOWARDS SELF-KNOWLEDGE WILL BE PENALISED BY OPPROBRI U M AT BEST AND INCARCERAnON AT WORST. BECAUSE HE IS A VICTIM O F T H E PROCESS. POLICE: BEEN? SO WHERE WOULD HIS PENIS HAVE BUT WASN'T DEFEATED. T R Y I N G TO WHERE AGAINST YOU? CONVEY SOMETHING OF WHAT I FELT WHEN I WAS FORCED TO SIT OPPOSITE LEE IN COURT. WHILE HE LEE: I DON'T KNOW. THAT AND SO." FEARS-OR CANNOT SEE­ ROGER MOODY 1 34 . THATS ALL FOR NOW. WHILE HE POLICE: ROG E R SO PUT ARE HIS YOU SAYING LEE THAT YOUR HAD BEEN WITH ME. AND I PAUL. FOR A PERIOD HE COULD NOT SEE HOW TO RESOLVE BETWEEN THE "IS" AND THE "COULD BE. UNTIL I ACTUALLY SAW LEE OVER THE COURTROOM ON FRIDAY. EVERYONE AROUND HIM ANOTHER TRUTH. THE GESTURE BECOMES AN ACT. NOW H E HAD BEEN PENALISED FOR ATTEMPTING TO GROW BEYOND THE CONFUSION. BEYOND HAD IGNORANCE ABOUT WHAT LAY WAY TO H I S OWN PENIS AGAINST B E G U N TO G I V E BOTTOM? KNOWLEDGE: LACK OF DEFINITION HAD BEGUN TO GIVE WAY TO HIS SELF DISCOVERY.

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THE CULPRIT IS GOD M E RELY A MAN FO R WHOM IS DEATH. THE LAUGHTER OF A M A N WHO FORC E D H I M SE L F TO OF LIVE SH UT. L A U R E'S THOSE PASSAGES MICHEL R ECONC I L E LAUGHTER A N D SPEECH? BY SPEECH. 1 9 3 9 THIS NA RRATIVE EVOLVED OUT OF THE 1 939 YESTE R DAY. I T I S VIOLE NTLY DOMI NATED BY D E ATH. . THIS STORY I S VIOLE NTLY DOM I N A T E D BY TEARS. I W E N T TO LA U R E'S GRAVE: A S SOON A S I L E FT T H E H O U S E . J UST ONE WAY TO LAUGH. I MEAN THAT SPEECH W I T H OU T T R A PS WHICH CONC E R N I NG DEATH. A MOST I NTENSE. TH E A U TH O R HAD N E V E R B E FO R E K E PT W RONG WAY TO TALK? P E R H A PS. I T I S I N D EPENDENT O F T H E A UT H O R ' S T O G ET H E R LIFE. S E PT E M B E R 1 4. THIS IN FACT. T H I S N A R RATIVE I S A BU RST O F C U N N I NG A N D T H U S L I V E LY LAUGHTER. I T WAS SO B L A C K THAT I 'DEC LA RAT10N O F W A R . I NOTI C E D HOW DARK THE NIGHT WAS. J P E R S PECTI V E FAVORA B L E DEATH. THE AUTHOR PUT STORY FROM PI ECES O F T H E 1 36 . J U ST OR "JOU R N A L" W H I C H H E K E PT DESPITE H I M S E L F FROM THE D A Y W A R BROKE OUT. H E FAILED. B UT C A N� WE ONCE AND FOR ALL FU LLY EXPRESSIVE O F H I M S E LF.U P HE DID WITHIN THIS THE TODAY. T O W H I C H DO E SN'T FLEE I N T H E FACE O F THE TOTA LITY O F ITS OWN CONSEQ U E N C ES. L E I R I S R E F E R S I N LA REGLE D U J E U . ONE. A N D I N T H E E N D . F O R L I F E . A N D OFTE N. H E SOON R E A LIZED THAT H E H A D NEVER WRITTEN A N YTH I NG SO M UC H A PART O F HIM AND SO P E R H A PS. BUT W I T H D I FFICULTY. A DIARY. I . MOST H E A R T R E N D I N G L I F E . B R O U G H T H I M BACK I M M EDIATELY. H E H A D ONLY TO R E MOVE THOSE PA SSAGES CONC E R N I N G T H E TH I R D PERSON: IN P A R T I C U LA R . FORTY-TWO YEARS OLD AT T H I S POI NT. BUT FAC E D WITH TH E W R ITTEN RATH E R . THAT THE AUTHOR IS WAS STRUCK BY T H E FACT THE C U LPRIT DOM I NATED BY TEARS A N D DEATH AT T H E S A M E TI M E THAT IT I S DOM I N ATED B Y TH E R E P R E SENTATION O F GOD. A N D I W O N D E R E D IF I WOULD EVER F I N D MY WAY A LONG TH E ROAD. UNDER GREAT C I RC U M STA N C E S. PRODIGIOUS PASTI ME? PAGES. MORE ACC U RATELY. T H I N K I NG A BOUT DEATH. .

NO MATTER HOW VAG U E O R I M PE R SONAL. S O R ROW. N E A R THE M I DDLE OF THE WAY. A FTER WE H A D E N T E R E D A N I N F E R N A LLY HOT AREA. NO MORE T R U E OR FULL OF M E A N I NG CONC E R N I N G T H E DESTI NY OF E V E R Y B E I N G T H A N ANY OTH E R EXPE R I E N C E OF T H E U N I NTELLIGIBLE. BUT WHAT C O U L D BE M O R E GRA N D THAN T H E BREACH THROUGH WHICH TWO B E I NGS MIGHT RECOGNIZE EACH OTH E R WITHOUT SUCCU M B I NG TO THE VULGARITY A N D THE PLATITUDES OF I N F I N ITY? (HE WHO AT LEAST LOVES BEYOND TH E GRAVE. I WAS A B L E TO MAKE OUT THE GRAVES. I R E M E M B E RED THE A SC E N T UP ETNA AND I WAS DU MBFOUNDED. STA R L I G H T N I G H TS. NOT KNOWING W H AT TO DO CROSSI N G HAD TO BE R E F U N DED. PORTRAIT OF C I N DERS A N D FLA M ES THAT A N D R E MASSON PAINTED AFTER WE D E SC R I B E D THE WHAT I FELT YESTERDAY WAS NO MORE B U R N I NG . ACC ESSIBLE O N LY TO SHADOWS. BRIGHTER LOVE SHOWS ITSELF CAPABLE O F CRUMBLING THE P R I SON WALLS AROU ND EACH O F U S . I WAS AFRA I D O F H E R. SOFTNESS GRIPPED ME TERRIBLE EVERYTH I N G TH E N H A D B E E N J U ST AS D A R K AND CHARGED WITH CUNNING TERROR TH E N I G H T LA U R E A N D I CLIMBED T H E F A C E OF ETNA. WE BECAUSE I K N E W I W O U L D LOSE H E R AGA I N . FOR YESTERDAY. I FELT THAT IF SHE A P P E A R E D TO ME. TH E BROKEN T H E I R ATTAC H M E NTS T O THE CUSTO M A R Y CON F I N E S OF ACTI VITY IS I N NO W A Y LIM ITED. THE D I M E N SIONS O F A EAGER TO EXC E E D T H E LIM ITS O F ALL THI NGS: A N D YET. BY T H E TI M E I R EACH E D THE C E M ETERY. FLOWING STREAMS? IN THE FOREST AT NIGHTFA LL. O F T H E PE RSON I A M N O W AS I WRITE T H I S. N O 1 37 . DESPITE THE DREADFU L I M MENSE LOVE SORROW. WAS I EVER MORE CERTA I N OF WHAT LIFE RESPONSE TO T H E M ENTS OF THE BRINGS TO U S IN THEY E M E RGED FROM TH E D A R K N ESS A S FAI NTLY PALE FORMS.FELT MY THROAT TIGHTEN: I COU LDN'T T H I N K OF SORROW THAT I H E LD MYSELF IN MY OWN A R MS ANYTH I N G ELSE. E V E N H A D TH E Y B E E N M O R E COMPLETE LY S E V E R E D BY H E R. BUT AT T H E SAME TIME.ECSTACY THAT NORMAL­ LY OVERCOMES ME AS I FOLLOW THE S A M E PATH. WAS THE O N LY A BSOLUTELY MOST U N FATHOMABLE I WATCHED MY MOVE­ BLACK STRETCH OF GROU N D. T R O U B L E D BY A M E MORY S O FULL OF NOCTU RNAL TE R ROR. IT WAS H E A RT­ PERCEPTION OF THOSE LOST T O US W H O H A V E R E N D I N G TO LEA N OVE R THAT G A P I N G C R EVICE. TO THE OLD MOU NT ETNA OV E R F LOWED WITH M E A N I NG FOR US: WE H A D GIVEN U P A T R I P TO GREECE TO MAKE THE CLIMB. SO F U LL O F S U BTE R R A N E A N NOCTU R N A L GLORY. TER R I F I E D. I WOULD SCREAM. AN H E ALSO ESCAPES THE VULGARITY O F DAILY L I F E BUT NEVER T H E TOO-T E N UOUS T I E S T O L A U R E . I N THE M IDDLE OF OUR DESCENT. SHE WOULD WALK S I L E NTLY AT MY S I DE. TH E C R O S S E S A N D THE TOM BSTON ES. W E WERE E X H A U ST E D AND I N A WAY TA K E N ABACK B Y T H E OVERLY STRANGE. I WAS SO OVERCO M E WITH PA I N AND H EA RT? DESTI N Y APPROAC H I NG I N THE DARKN ESS N E X T T O M E . F E V E R A N D F I N A LLY DEATH: THESE A R E T H E DAILY B R E A D T H A T LA U R E SHARED W I T H M E . WHAT WE HAD ALREADY PA I D FOR TH E SELF. SO I FOU N D I T I M POSSI BLE TO GO INTO THE STATE OF N E A R . STA N D I N G IN FRONT OF H E R GRAVE. I CONTI N U E D MY C L I M B U P THE H I L L TOWA RDS H E R G R A V E . H O R ROR. I W A S U N B E A R A BLY A S H A M E D OF W H A T I W O U L D BECO M E . WE COULDN'T IMAGINE A SPOT WHERE THE T E R R I B L E I N STA B I LITY OF THI NGS WAS MORE E V I D E N T. AT DAWN. THAT STARY VOI D T H A T W E B R E AT H E D IN. I BEGAN TO TREMBLE A N D TO ASK H E R PA RDON. THIS BREAD LINGERS AND AS THE M E MORY AS OF A MEN. FOR SOM E REASON. SUDDEN LY. U N A C H I E V A B L E H A P P I N E SS. TH EN. I FELT AS IF IT H A D SOM E HOW SPLIT IN TWO A N D WAS STRANG L I N G AROUND MY HER. BODY MY AND HANDS I F E LT BECAME AS IF I LOST WERE TO U C H I N G H E R . I COU L D A L SO BUT MAKE OUT TWO GLOWING LINES OF VERSE. ALREADY CESSIBLE SHATTE R E D TO REAL GLORY INAC­ SURFE IT. ALL O F A SUDDEN. IT B U R N S EVEN SCE N E T O H I M W A S N E A R LAURE W H E N S H E D I E D: I T IS STI L L IN MY R OOM. ON E'S B E I NG BURNS WITH THE D E S I R E TO BECOME P U R E B E I NG TH ROUGH AND THROUGHOUT AS THE N I GHT. THE TERROR AND DESOLATION THAT WE HAD ENCOUNTE R E D B E W I L D E R E D H E R . OV E R LY DI SASTROUS SOLITUDE. I W E PT BITTERLY. LAU R E WAS G R I PPED B Y SUCH EXTR E M E A N G U I S H T H A T SHE I N SA N E LY A N D BLI N DLY BEGAN TO RUN. H O W M A N Y TI M E S WHEN WE WERE T OG E T H E R DID WE ACH I E V E EXTR E M E DARKN ESS. W H E N I REA LIZED THAT I WOULD SOON COME BACK TO M YSELF. WITHOUT KNOWING WHY: AT THIS VERY MOM E N T. AFTER A LONG W H I LE. MORE AND MORE LOST. TEARS. I WOULD LOOK AT H E R WITHOUT H E R KNOWING IT. A P E RC E I V I NG H E R F R AG R A N C E . L A U R E'S GRAVE WAS COM PLETELY COV E R E D BY V EGETATION A ND. S H I V E R I N G IN T H E COLD. I FELT D E L I RIOUS. MADN ESS. JUST LIKE W H E N W E WERE CLOSE B E FORE: J U ST LIKE WH E N T H E OBSTACLES SEPARATING TWO PEOPLE DISAPPEAR. WE COULD STILL F E E L THE FA R-AWAY PRESENCE OTH E R OF THE VOLCANO'S CRATER AT T H E E N D OF T H E L O N G V A L L E Y OF L A V A . OR E V E N WORSE. R ESTRICTED BY MY C U M BERSOME N E EDS. I WAS SURE OF O N L Y ONE T H I N G: THE FINA LLY REACHED TH E E DG E OF THE I M M E N S E AND BOTTOMLESS CRATER.

MY I FORT U I TOU S WILL I AM NEVER M A DE . SO IT IS E A S I E R FOR ME J U ST TO GRIT MY TEETH . BUT THIS MORNING. H A LF CRAZED. ONE MUST FOLLOW A C R U E L I M PERATIVE TO IGNORE A LL H A R MONY WITH R E A LITY THAT WAS THE MOST T H I S MORNI NG. S E N S U A LITY. M E A N I NG TO HIS LOVE A S H E WOULD TO ALMOST A N YTH I NG E LSE. ) I FLED LA U R E . . BUT THERE WERE N O C LOUDS. WH I LE I FLED WITH M Y MOTH ER.I A T LEAST H E W H O LOVES B E Y O N D TH E GRA VE H A S THE R I G HT TO FREE T H E LOVE WITH I N H I MSELF FROM ITS H U MAN CON F I N ES. SOM ETI M E S I JUST WASN'T T H E R E . A BRIEF R E SPITE. TH E R I G H T TO GIVE AS MUCH ATTE N UATED BY A LU M I NO U S HAZE A N D SOON. LA U R E'S P R E S ENCE. . . THIS MOR N I NG I M A N A G E D TO ESCAPE IT SOMEHOW. I OFTEN FACED HER IN TERRO R . BUT I CAN'T WI THOUT A GREAT DEAL OF U N EASI NESS. SO H A RD-HARD E NOUGH TO B R EAK MY JAWS:' I COPI E D THESE SENTENCES DOWN BUT I DON'T THIS PRESENCE. SO M U C H LOUS DARKN ESS. . . ABA N DON PERVERSIONS. I [ . . 1 9 39 GIVEN ANY LESS OF MYSEL� BUT AS SHE A PPROA C H E D THE T E R R I BL E E N D . A S SOFT A S A N A X E F LA S H I N G I N THE N IGHT. I DON'T EVEN LOOK AT T H E M A N Y MORE. HOW CAN I POS S I B LY ACT I F THE I M PERATIVES WHICH CONTROL ME ARE LA U R E'S PLISHED. I COULD N EVER H A V E S E PTE M B E R 20. HE STA Y E D B E H I N D I N R H E I MS. B Y M I S E R Y C R I NG I NG B E F O R E FATE. J T H E N A T U R A L CONDITION OF S I M PLI C I TY IS ACTION. ( I FLED HER IN A MORAL SENSE. E X P R E S S HOW MUCH I I WAS MOVED. FOR FOUR DAYS NOW IT H A S BEEN GETTING WORSE. ' ] . A N E RVOU S N E S S THAT CAN O N LY LEA D TO A AGO. .F I V E Y E A R S HIM TO FATE D U R I NG TH E T H I S IS NOT A F E E L I N G THAT I ALO N E EXPERI ENCE. BUT NOW I S E N S E A N E W N E RVOUS CONDITION. BUT IN ORDER TO ACT.WORDS COULD E V E R AWARE OF HER. THE C ROW A N D THE DESERT . . THIS MORN I NG I FOU N D M Y SELF IN AN ANGELIC • . . IT D E M A N D S THAT I LEAVE JUST AS FORC I B LY . E M PTY. I TRI E D TO FLEE WHAT I S A W TH E R E . I LOVE WHO I A M SO M U C H I BUT I'VE R E MA I N ED FAITHFUL T O DEATH (LIKE A S E PTEM B E R (OR OCTOB E R ) OF RETURN FROM ITALY: 1 9 3 7 . HE WAS B LI N D AND PARALYZED AND HE CATACLYSM H A S B E E N G ROWI NG NOW FOR OVER A MONTH . TH E SECRET T R A N S P A R E N C E OF T H E LIGHT.I K NOW ANYMORE IF T H E R E IS ANY TRUTH TO THEM. H E R E W H E R E E V E R YTH I NG WA S ACCO M ­ OF T H E A PPARENT CONTRADICTIONS. BUT I M UST M A K E A CONCENTRATED EFFORT TO LEAVE COMPARE E V E R YTH I NG I DO TO TH I S M E MORY. H E R GRAVE. T H I S HOUSE. . AND I HAVE TH E STRENGTH TO DO THIS ON LY R A RELY. 1 9 39 A N D H ATRED F O R ME. THE FLA S H I N G TRANSPARENCE OF N E A RBY FOREST. S U R RO U N D E D BY G R A N D OLD TREES. (TWENTY. CONTIN U A LLY E XP E R I E NC E D G R E A T P A I N . OF C H AOS A N D OF D E A T H . I BEGAN TO TAKE . . P E R H A P S M O S T D U R I N G H E R F I T S O F A N G E R S E PTEMBER 1 9. A L L THE M A JESTY OF R E C E D I NG MY LIFE. A L L OF T H E S H UTTERS W E R E W I DE OPEN. A WOR L D FRACTU R E D BY ILL TEMPER. I WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO YOU A BOUT IT. I FLED MY FATH ER. BY THE CROWD'S SOR D I D RAGE. . I F A I T H F U L LOV E R) [ . T H E SKY WAS SLIG HTLY H AZY. SO M A N Y C U RSES. THE NOR CAN EXPRESS J U ST HOW B E A UTIFUL SHE WAS. SOMETI M E S I DRANK. . A N D THE P L A N T S I N T H E W I N DOW H ARDLY S U D D E N PA N I C A N D S U FF E R I N G AS W E LL AS THAT NIGHT OF PA I N FU L AND SOR ROWFUL C R I E S W H E N 1 38 . A TTE N D E D BY T H E M A I D. M I RACU­ A SUN S I M I LA R NIGHTS I S EQUA LLY I NDESCRIBA BLE. THE FINAL DEPARTURE. THESE TH I NGS O F W H I C H I F E E L I T N ECESSARY TO I NC LUDE T H I S PASSAGE FROM L A U R E'S LETTER TO J EAN G R E M I LLON OF CONF U S I NG M Y S E LF WITH TH E I M M E N S E SOR ROW OF A FRACTU R E D WORLD. AFTER OU R " G EORGES A N D I C L I M B E D ETNA. I A B A N DO N E D G E R M A N I NVASION. I . T H E O N L Y HOUSE TO A FFORD L A U R E SOM E REST BEFORE SHE DI ED. ALTHOUGH I WAS BY H E R S I D E U NTIL T H E V E R Y E N D. THE R E S E M B LE N C E G R E W THROUG HOUT HER LONG HER PE RIOD OF S U FF E R I N G W H I L E FEVER W O R E DO W N . BECA USE I S I M PLY CAN'T U N LE S S I SET OUT TO A C H I EVE THE B A R E LY AC H I EVA B L E. I N T H I S ROOM THAT I M U ST SOON LEAVE. . HER I M P E R FECT BEA UTY WAS THE FLU I D I M AGE OF A N A R DE NT AND U NC E RTA I N DESTINY. R E F U G E IN A SICKLY TORPOR. IT WAS T E R R I FY I NG. S P R I NGS U P A L L O F A S U D D E N " L I K E A ROBBER I N T H E N I GHT' A N D SPREADS A C H I LL I N G E M B R A C E A S D E E P A N D A I R Y A S A N IGHT W I N D. I WAS EQUALLY TERRIFIED B EC A U S E LA U R E'S FACE VAG U ELY R E S E M B L E D T H E HORRI B LY TRAGIC FACE OF THAT MAN O E D I P U S .

IS B U R N I N G E X I S­ MOST P E R H A PS T H E PRODUCT OF H U M A N INTERACTION. TH E PUBLICATION I N A W I D E R A N G E O F P E RIODICALS. I T R I E D SPEAKING TO HER. THE D EMONSTRATI VE SOM E OF SIDE OF THE TEXT D I D IT WAS REACH DO WITH THE I NTENTION OF COM I N G BACK TO T H E M .MY FATH E R A P P E A R E D B EFORE M E [ . LATER I N THE A RTICLE. 1. IN ANY C A S E. I SHOULD ALSO MENTION ONE E S S E N TI A L D E TA I L • • ABOUT THE SHE SUFFERED FOR FO UR DAYS. M EA N I N G OF T H E S E LAST FEW L I N ES: "IDENTIFICA­ TION WITH LOVE. MADE SENSE: S H E WOULD A S K M E T O LOOK I N H E R BAG O R A MONG H E R PAPERS FOR SOMETHI N G THAT SHE URGE NTLY N E E D ED. TH E N . I I M M E DI ATELY REALIZED THAT HER S H O U L DN'T WORD. FROM A UGUST THROUGH NOV E M B E R. I WAS SO OVERCO M E [CROSSED OUT: I WROTE IT LAST YEA R. AS I DREW N E A R WHO C A N BE SAVED ONLY BY A BOLT OF LIGHT­ N I NG-WA IT FOR THA N SACRED. THE MOMENT C A M E W H E N I WAS F I N A LLY ALLOWED TO SEE LA U R E AGA I N I N HER ROOM. AT TIM ES. M A N U S C R I PTS B E FO R E I CONTI N U E D THOSE I FOR WHOM THAT R E A LLY I REMEMBERED LOOKING U P AT TH I S MOMENT A N D SEEING A TH I N RAY OF I N C R E D I B LY BEAUTI FU L INTENDED. U N D E R STOOD WORLD COLLAPSED ALL A ROUND ME. B R I E F LY. SHE NO LONGER SAW ME NOR R ECOGNIZED MY PRESENCE. D U R I NG THE A FTER NOON O F NOV E M B E R 2. I TRIED TO CONTI N U E WRITI NG. I I SHOWED HER EVE RY­ "G R A A L" TH I N G T H E R E BUT COULDN'T F I N D W H AT SH E RELIGION'S GOA L E N D E D WITH TH I S SENTENCE: WANTED. OCTOB E R I. THAT I C O U L D N E V E R S P E A K TO H E R A G A I N . I ESSENTIA LLY. E NTITLED THE SACRED A N D PUBLISHED IN C A H I E RS D'ART. WE C U R R E NTLY R ECOG N I ZE T H E TENCE ELUSIVE SACRED OF R ELIGION. I N TO L E T H A RGY. ALTHOUGH T H E P I E C E I S FAR BEH I N D ME NOW. I AGREED TO T H A T I WAS U N A B L E T O KEEP H E R MOTH E R A N D SISTERS ROOM. I DI DN'T. SHE S PO K E WRITTEN S E NT E N C E S I M P A RT A M E A N I NG. I CA M E ACROSS A S H E ET OF PAPER. WE M U ST ERASE WHAT HAS BEEN WRITTEN BY PLAC ING IT IN THE S H A DOW THIS OF TH E R EA L I TY IS WHICH IT CONTI N U A LLY. MEN WHOSE LIVES SEEM N ECESSA R I LY LIKE A LONG STORM­ SUNLIGHT PLAYING OVER THE GOLD EN-RED LEAVES OF THE TREES A BOUT A H U N D R E D FEET FROM MY W I N DOW. AT LEAST TO MYSE LF. SHE R E M A I N E D A B S ENT. THAT W E WOULD NEVER SPEAK TO EACH OTH E R AGAIN. I U N D E R STOOD THAT IT W A S A L L OVE R . THE S P EC I A L E D I TOR OF T H E CAHIER D'ART ISSUE IN W H I C H I T WAS TO A PPEAR. D U R I N G T H E LAST FEW DAYS PF L A U R E'S SICKNESS. FROM I NVADING T H E HOUSE A N D H E R DO I T WITH DUTHU I T. WHEN CONDITION H A D WORS E N ED. BUT T H E EXACT NATURE OF T H E SACRED. IN WHICH 1 39 . FOR THE F I RST TIME. WE C A N NOT POSSI B LY L I M I T HOPE NOW. FOR FOU R DAYS. AS I OFTEN MOTIVATES M E NOW. W H I C H I SHOWED TO HER. A R E A L LY IT E S S E NTI A L C H A NG E BE ATTRI B UT E D COM E S T O TH E TO HER. S H E G R E W TENSE O N LY TO QUICKLY R E LA P S E N OT H I N G . ITS "CO M M U N ICATION" I S NO MORE C L U M S I LY DISTANCED OR U N EASY THAN I N MOST OF WHAT I HAVE P U B L I S H E D S I NCE." O N LY ONE. I H A D THE "CH RISTIANITY HAS SUBSTANTIALIZED T H E SACRED. TALKING TO THI S OR TH AT PE RSON ACCOR D I N G TO SOME U N P R E D ICTA B L E C I R C U M STANCES S U RROUN . T H E IS NOTH I N G MORE T H A N A PRIVILEGED S E PTEMBER 30. P O RT R A Y S WITH ANY REAL C L A R I TY THAT P A R T IC U L A R RESOLUTION WHICH I WROTE THESE WORDS IN TH E M ARGINS. I H A D COME T O TH E P A S S A G E I N T H E A RTICLE WHERE I WAS DESCR I B I NG T H E I D ENTITY OF THE WHICH WE ARE I A LW A Y S S E E K I N G AS SOMETI MES. S E NTENCES THAT SCREAM CONTI N U A LLY D I E FROM TH E I R OWN OUTBU RST. SHE U N D E R STOOD HER PHRASES ARTICLE. I FEEL I M UST DESC R I B E ONE OF THE SITUATIONS S U R RO U N D I N G THE WRITING OF THE W H I M . 1 93 9 MOMENT OF U NITY I N COM M U N I O N . BUT SHE DID NOT RESPOND. IT IS ONLY BECAUSE THEY U N ITE SOME OTHE R THI NGS WHICH WERE PREVIOUSLY SEARCH­ I NG FOR EACH OTH E R. A BSORBED WITH I N A VAST DELI R I U M . INTO TEA RS: THE PITILESS SHE NO EXPRESSES. BUT I COULD BARELY MANAGE ANOTHE R TWO S E NTENCES. I R E A D LAURE'S WRITING. I N ADDITION. H O N E STY N OW H E R E MORE PERTI N E N T THAT I N THAT PARTICU LA R A RTICLE." I I M M E D I ATELY ADDED A NOTE IN THE MARGINS TO A MONG ALL THE PIECES I'VE W R I TT E N FOR C L E A R LY I N D I C ATE. • . T H E N U R S E W H I S P E R E D TO M E THAT I T W A S A L L OV ER. A CONVULSI V E MOMENT FULL OF W H A T I S NOR M A L LY SMOTH E R ED. BLANK EXCEPT FOR THE HEADING THE SACRED. LONGER I BROKE OUT M E. THAT THIS WAS HOW SHE WOULD DIE I N A FEW HOURS. SOM ETH I N G NO LESS D E L I R IOUS WHEN ABOUT. BELIEVE THE REMAINING IGNORANCE A N D U N C E RTAINTY DOESNT MATTER.

ITSE LF." OF L I G H TN I NG . ONCE I H A D THE O P PORTU N I TY TO R E A D T H E P A PERS S H E H A D LEFT B E H I N D. OF A N " A N G E L. FO U N D TOWA RDS THE BOTTOM OF THE S E NTENCES IN PAGE. TH E S I L E N C E . . FOR T H E R E A D I NG PAGES THAT F I RST TIME DURING I MAYBE THE ANGEL IS THE "MOV E M E NT OF THE WORLDS. " I . OFTEN LAURE F E LT WAS IT AS R E P U LS E D A LOSS." ONCE SHE EVEN BLA M E D M E F O R NOT T A K I N G H E R S E R I O U SLY. WE A LMOST N E V E R C A R R IED ON "I NTELLEC ­ TUAL CONVERSATIONS. I DISDAINED THE I N EVITABLE I M PUDENCE OF B E TW E E N US WAS C R U M BLING. THE SENTENCE HAD PASSAGE ON SACRED. THE ANGEL RAISES UP BEFORE ITSELF A LANCE O F CR YSTA L T H A T S H ATTERS I N . D E N U D I NG. THE N I GHT." AS F A R AWAY A N D AS I M PE RC E PTIBLE A S A DOT ON TH E H O R I ZON. A BECAUSE "I NTELLECTUAL CONVE RSATIONS. I WON'T S A Y H O W S H E D I E D ALTHOUGH I F E E L M O S T " H O R R I B LY" TH E N E E D TO DESC R I B E IT. THE SAME WORDS AND THE SAME DESIRES W E N T TH ROUGH O U R M I N D S AT THE SAME SHE TIME. IT APPEARS LIKE T H E U N FATHOMABLE VACI LLATIONS OF A STR E A K I STO P P E D LOOK I N G FOR WHAT SHE WANTED. AN IMAGE AT B E ST OF AN ECSTATIC OUTBU R ST. I FOU N D MYSELF S I FTING THROUGH HAD HER P A P E RS. I T I S SELF-RAPE. NOT H I N G I HAD EVER S A I D TO HER CAME CLOSE TO EXPRESSI NG T H I S I D E A .FEELI NG S H E WOULD S P E A K TO ME AGAIN. I M UST DESC R I B E A L L O F T H E D I S P A RATE E L E M E NTS T H A T M A K E U P T H E I R M E A N I NG. BUT I WAS NEVER THAN MORE WHEN I D E E PLY READ TH E NOR B R UTALLY LAST I AF FECTED OF A R E C OG N I Z A B L E D I V I N ITY: THE VISION THE S H A TT E R E D C RYSTAL F R E E S T H E SC REA M I NG LOVE W I TH I N M E THAT M A K E S M E WANT TO D I E .J 1 939 NOTICED THE PERIOD J UST BEFORE HER DE ATH." THE FOLLOWI N G LAURE'S SCRAWL: "A POETIC WORK I S SACRED TO THE EXTENT THAT IT IS T H E C R EATION O F A TOPICAL EVE NT. WHEN IT WAS A LL OVER. " FOR THIS R E A SON TO LIVE 'DIS PLACES' WHAT I HAD W R I TTEN IN MY I FIND IT VERY D I F F I C U LT TO EXPRESS J U ST EXACTLY WHAT THE P A R A LL E L PASSAGES M E A N . E X ACTLY ARTICLE. BUT FI RST. BUT N E V E R A PP E A R I NG A S MORE THAN A STRA N G E LY INTERIOR GLOW. I OF T H E M E V E R H A D T H E EXTRAO R D I N A RY S I G N I F I ­ C A N C E OF T H E S E T W O SENTENCES ON "CO M M U N I ­ CATION. A FEW M O M E NTS B E FORE I NOTIC E D THAT LAURE W A S ABOUT T O D I E . SI NCE MY NOTION OF "UN ITY I N CO M M UN­ ION" FIGURES I M P L I C I TLY I N LAU RE'S IDEAS. WHATS LA U R E AND I OFTEN THOUGHT THAT THE WALL MORE. B U T I C A N S P E A K OF N OT H I N G E LS E S I N C E THAT I D I SCOV E R E D THOSE TWO LAU RE'S LIFE AND MINE C OF F I N . I N E V E R THOUGHT I WOULD FIND AMONG ALL OF HER A B A N DO N E D WORKS AN TO D E SC R I B E A C APTIVATING I M AG E THAT J U ST C A M E TO MY M I ND. E X I ST P R E S S E D TO H E R T H A T P A R A DOXICA L I D E A THAT TH E SACRED IS COMMUNICATION. 50 I M PORTANT TO ME THAT I R E M E M B E R EXACTLY HOW AND WHEN EVE RYTH I N G H A P P E N ED. 'COM M U N I ­ CATION' E X P E R I E N C E D A S N U DITY. I CA N'T R E M E M B E R A N Y OF T H E S E COI N C I D E NCES. A FTER SHE D I E D. HEAVY WITH LIFE AND YET. W H E N I READ I LOVE HER NEITHER AS AN ANGEL NOR OF AS A WHAT S H E HAD WRITTEN. AN I M A GE THAT ENCOMPASSES AN E N TI R E V I SION. BUT SHE HAD NEVER ASKED ME TO READ ANY O F IT. [CROSSED O UT: I W I L L DESC R I B E O N LY ONE MORE THING TODAY: THE NEARLY S I M U LT A N E O U S P U B L ICATION O F THE TWO TEXTS OBLIGES M E TO LET M E I NTE R R U PT TH I S N A R R A TIVE FOR A MOMENT SAY TO THOSE WHO S U F F E R FROM THE S A M E TH I RST 1 40 . P I E RC I NG TH ROUGH THE CLOUDY T H I C K N ESS OF A N S W E R TO PRECISELY THAT Q UESTION COWE R I N G I N M E L I K E A STA R V I N G A N I M A L. I F E E L OBLIGED TO TRY. COM M U N ICATING TO OTH ERS A R E A SON TO LIVE. POWERLESS TO U N D E RSTA N D ANYTH I N G M O R E THAN H E R D E A T H . BUT I DO K N OW THAT N O N E FINA LLY. I MYSELF DISCOV E R E D T H E NOTION O N LY ONCE I H A D PUT I T I N T O WORDS. N EV E R EX­ I K NOW THAT THIS D E S I R E T O D I E R E S I D E S ON T H E I M POSSIBLE E DG E S OF B E I NG. I E X P E R I ENCED ONE OF THE MOST VIOLENT E MOTIONS OF MY LI FE." N EGATION OF H E RSELF. OCTOB ER 2. THE WHOLE QU ESTION WAS SENTENCES TH ROUGH LINK THE E A RTH COVER I N G HER MOREOVER. WITHOUT A DOUBT. T H E TRUTH I S . THESE V E RY SENTENCES N OW H E R E E LS E BUT A T TH I S V E R Y POINT. I KNOW THAT S H E HAD WRITTEN. "TI M E" WAS R E A DY TO "CUT H E R DOWN:" IT DID A N D I STOOD WATC H I N G WHAT WAS H A P P E N I NG.

A T T H I S M O M E N T. WHAT I SAW TH ROUGH THE W I N DOW WHERE M Y W A N DERING H A D B ROUGHT M E W A S ON T H E CONTR A R Y TH E V E R Y I M AG E OF L I F E I N ITS MOST LUC I D WH I M S I ES.A S L A U R E A N D I TH AT] GRAVEDIGGERS. SUN LIGHT R E V E A L E D B E FO R E M E A N O L D P A N E O F GLASS IN THE W I N DO W OF AN A B A N DO N E D A N YONE LOST A T SEA. A N D . OCTOBER 4. I F E LT ECSTATICA LLY LOST. THIS RAY OF I T I S C O L D A N D G R A Y . TODAY I S W I NTER. WAS OBVIOUS THAT NOTH ING HAD B E E N TOUC H E D SI NCE S O M E LONG A G O DEATH. I NEVERTHELESS ABANDONED ME FELT AND THAT T H AT LAURE HER HAD NOT CONTI N U E. IT IS B EC O M I N G MORE D I F F I C U LT FOR M E TO AT TH IS MOME NT. OR MORE EXACTLY. GRAPH OF THE OWN E R NOT FA R FROM THE W I N DOW. I W A L K E D A LONG A P ROTRU D I N G W A L L O F BRICK UNTIL I D I SCOV E R E D A M U STY PA N E AT THE ONSET OF THE WAR W H E N I BEGAN WRITI NG. OF THE LEA R N E D C LA S S OF T H E OCTOBER 3. I F E E L FROZEN AND NUMB . M Y "TONGUE IS TIED. ONCE AGAIN. U N D E R T H E D UST. UNAWARE OF ITS E TH E R I A L B E A UTY. I F SOME V I S I O N OF DECAY OR WASTE H A D A PPEARED TO ME IN T H I S A BA NDON E D PLACE. I M AG I N E A N YTH I NG MORE S W E E T B E H I N D THE D U ST. FAR FROM SHORE AND NO LESS A STR A N G E R TO MYSELF TH A N THROUGH UNREAL R U I NS. W I THOUT ALMOST ANIMAL E M E RG E A USTER ITY. I NOTI C E D A PHOTO. THROUGH THE THE R O TT E N U N D E RG R O W T H ." DESERTED. I WANTED TO B R I N G M Y S E L F TO TH I S POINT. W HAT'S H A P P E N I NG TO ME S P LE N D I D I N S U FF E RA B L E . ONLY M A G N I F I ES. HE HAD WHITE H A I R A N D A LOOK TH A T S E E M E D TO ME TO BE ONE OF GOODW I L L A N D A N G E L I C NOB I L I TY. ONCE A G A I N . FROM THIS NOTH I NG FA I R Y AT OF MYSELF C A N TA L E . WAS A C O L L ECTION OF BR IGHTLY COLO R E D . I D EC I D E D TO DO W H A T I'M DOING NOW SEVERA L WEEKS B E FORE THE WA R BROKE OUT. AND NOT O N LY THAT: BUT FROM W I TH I N T H I S "KI NGDOM" I INCREDIBLE SOFTNESS CONTI N U E D TO COM E THROUGH TO M E DESPITE DEATH A S IT H A D EVEN W H E N S H E WAS EXTREM E LY ANGRY A N D VIOLENT TOWA RDS ME ( I C A N NOT REC A L L THOSE M O M E NTS W ITHOUT A HAVE TO SPEAK W ITHOUT STUTTE R I NG. OF MY DESOLATION BUT TO OPEN UP I B E FO R E ON THE OTH E R HAND. I H A D J US T WA N D E R E D THROUGH A FOREST A FT E R HAVING L E FT LA U R E' S BODY TO THE DEATH V A N ISHES. THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY I C O U LD DO IT. SUCH S I LE N T S I M PLI· CITY. THERE. I T I S ON LY A F L I C K E R I NG IN THE VOID AS IF A NOCTU R N A L BUTTERFLY. I M U S T B E E N T E R I N G T H A T "KI NGDOM" WHERE EVEN THE K I NGS ARE AT A LOSS. I HAVE N E V E R F E L T SUCH GE NTLE P U R I TY. I CLENCH MY TEETH AS I DID LAST YEAR. BUT I HAVE N'T FI N I S H E D: I'VE H A RDLY BEGUN. I COULDN'T I LLUSION DISAPPEARS SLIGHTEST H E S ITATION. FROM THE DEPTHS O F M Y MISERY. AT THE DESOLATE EDGE OF E V E R YTH ING H U M AN. COV E R E D ON THE O U TS I D E WITH A CENTURY OF D U ST. I'M THROWN BACK TO THE DESERT WORLD OF LAST FALL. WAITED A N D I TREMB LED. FORGOTTEN BY THE I R MA STER WHO H A D LONG S I N C E D I S A P P E A R E D. THE DISTANCE BETWE E N MY LIFE AND LAU RE'S COTTAGE. A FEW FEET TODAY I S SO VERY I N E X P R E S S I B L E AND A S FO REIGN TO WHAT IS REA L A S A DREAM. T H E SLIGHTEST B R E A K I N ATTENTI O N . T H I S F R AG I L E THE SIGN OF THE AWAY. T H E AWAY AS M I SS I O N I M UST FULFILL I S A S FAR POSSI B LE FROM THE OBSC U R E N E E D I FEELING OF HORROR>' FEEL TO LOSE M Y S E LF. I HAVE TO F I N D WORDS W H I C H GO STRAIGHT TO THE H E A RT. THE F I RST REAL D A Y OF AUTUMN OR 1 939 STRUGGLING TO P I E RC E TH ROUGH THE NOV E M B E R FOG. H A D COME TO REST ON THE H E A D OF A S L E E P I N G MAN. IN FACT. I FOU N D A R A Y OF M AGICAL SUN LIGHT ON THE T H R E S HOLD OF THAT DESERT. NOW DEAD. THE D E A D BRANCHES A N D THE U PTU R N E D STONES THAN THESE S I LENT B I RDS. B E H I N D THE W I NDOW. I A M G R I P P E D BY A K I N D OF MONOTONOUS A N D A B S E N T ECSTASY. A N D I KNEW IT FOR A LONG TI M E.. T H I S TIME. PAPERS WERE SPREAD A BOUT IN THE D E S K AS IF I N PREPA R ATION FOR A V I SIT. 141 . FACED OF G L ASS. I AM ENTE R I N G A DESERT OF TOTAL SOLITU D E WHOSE E M PTINESS L A U R E . I W A S W A N D E R I NG A I M LESSLY. F E E L I NG THAT I MYSELF HAD BEEN WITH WHAT I STI LL W A N T TO SAY. HE WORE THE CLOTH E S OF THE M I DD L E C LASS. 1 939 SECO N D E M P I RE. S U D D E N LY. A BOUT A YEAR AGO. EXOTIC B I R D S. I WOU LD HAVE TAKEN I T A S A N A CC U R A TE I MAGE OF MY OWN M I S FORTU N E. I WAS R E A DY T O W A I T A N I NF I N I TY FOR THE WORLD ME. IT EXCEPT W H E N I W A S N E A R LA U R E . A N D YET.

. DESPITE MY FRAME OF M I ND. " TA K E A FLOWER A N D LOOK AT IT UNTIL H A R MONY . . E V E R Y T H I NG W I T H O U T M Y I N EXPLICABLE PATI E N C E. 1 9 3 9 D U R I N G LA U R E ' S LAST H O U R S . MY GAZE FIXED ON LA U R E'S D E A T H B E D (TH E O N E IN W H I C H I NOW SLEEP EVERY N I GHT!. HOLDI NG IT AS I F E X H A U STED. WHILE H E WAS ON THE TELEPHONE. T H E R E I N THAT OFFICE A N D LATE R THAT E V E N I NG. I WAS O V E R C O M � W I T H A N G U I S H . A T R E E . YESTER DAY. A N E E D TO MOVE A RO U N D I N A WOR L D F U L L OF S E C R E T M E A N I NG S . . P E R H A PS LA URE'S VOIC E WASN'T PAI N ED. A W I N DO W . "ITS BEAUTI F U L. A CABI N ET DOOR A R E NOTHI N G I F THEY C A NNOT BEAR WITNESS TO MOVE M E NT A N D TO HEARTRENDING DESTR UCTION [ . IT S I M PLY A P P E A R E D I N PLACE AS THE FOG L I FTED LITTLE BY LITTLE. IT WAS A ROSE. LA URE D I E D J U ST AS SHE W A S L I FTING ONE OF A B U N C H O F ROSES SPREAD OUT BEFORE H ER. I D I SCOVER ANEW A TRUTH THAT KEEPS ME FROM SLEEPI NG. SHE WAS A STRANGER TO ALL WHO A PP ROACHED H E R. ASCETICISM. ONE M U ST HAVE SO M UC H LOV E T H A T E V E N O N I TS T H R E S H O L D . T H I S LASTED B UT A MOMENT. I H A V E SECO N D THOUGHTS ABOUT MY DECISIONS. AN I NT E R N A L V I S I O N M A I N T A I N E D B Y A S I L E N T L Y EXP E R I E NC E D N EE D. B U T A BEAUTI FUL NEED H A S BEEN I NS C R I B E D W I TH I N M E AS I T W A S W I TH I N LA U R E'S DESTI N Y.1 WHAT S U R ROUNDS ME NOW COULD A L L DISAPPEAR I N A FEW HOURS. "THE COLOR OF A U T U M N :' BARELY OPENED. N E I TH E R O F U S D I D A N YT H I NG (OR VERY LITTLE) TO OCTOBER 1 2. A N G U I S H AND THE DOM I NATION OF FEAR A R E A LL N ECESSA RY. S H E B ROUGHT THE ROSE TO H E R L I P S A N D KISSED I T WITH A DELIRIOUS PASSION A S I F S H E W A N T E D TO H O L D I N EVERYTH I NG T H A T W A S ESCA PING HER. M Y HEART WAS LAURE S T R E TC H E D OUT ON THE BED. LOST WITH I N AN I N D E F I N ITE DELI R I U M . SHE WAS 1 42 . BUT W H E N I G A V E H E R T H E R O S E . S H E FLUNG T H E ROSE L I K E A C H I LD THROWING DOWN ITS TOYS AND ONCE AGA I N . ON SEPTEMBER 2B. I COULD BODI L Y LEAVE THIS DREAM PLACE. 1 9 39 O RG A N I ZE T H E W O R L D A R O U N D O U R S E LV E S . PERHAPS IT WAS S I M PLY H EARTRENDING. WITHIN THE D A R K N ESS O F T H I S THORAC I C CAGE. AT L E A ST. 1 9 3 9 OCTOBER 2 1 . I FOU N D ONE OF THE MOST BEA UTI FUL FLOWERS I H A V E EVER SEEN. I R ETREATED WITH I N M YSELF. IT MUST B E A S I NTOXICATING AS A LCOHOL. I T WASN'T A RANDOM THOUGHT [. A TREE OR A CABI N ET D O O R W I T H O U T A G R E A T D E A L OF A N G U I S H . A N D SHE C R I E D OUT IN A V O I C E A L MO S T A BS E N T AND I N F I N ITELY PA I N F U L: "TH E ROSEl"' I THI N K TH ESE W E R E H E R LAST WORDS. l .ND WITHERED SHRUBS. D E A T H A P P E A R S L U D I C R O U S ." WHAT I NOW P E RC E I V E FRIGHTENS ME L. LAURE A N D THE BED W E R E WITH I N MY H E A RT: I N FACT. I M U ST I N VENT A NEW WAY OF C R UCIFYING M YSELF. W H I L E I WAS I SENT A LETTE R TOD A Y B R E A K I N G OFF RELATIONS WITH SOME PEOPLE WHOM I SHOULD NEVER HAVE T R U S T E D TO B EG I N W I T H . . [CROSSED OUT: O F T E N . T H E U P L I FTED ROSE A N D THE C R Y R E M A I N E D I N M Y H EART F O R A LONG T I M E. . I PICKED IT A N D B ROUGHT IT TO LAURE. OCTOBE R 1 I . HATRED. 0 0 1 . 1 . " THAT WAS A VISION. TOO O FT E N . K N OWING WHAT I HAVE LIVED THROUGH A N D WHAT I LOST LOVE. BEC A U S E A M A N W H O D E S I R E S BEAUTY F O R W H A T IT I S W I L L N E V E R E N T E R I NTO THE WORLD. I C R I T I C I Z E D L A U R E ' S VIOLENT C U R S I NG A LTHOUGH I BOR E I T WITH N O LITTLE PAI N. 0 0 1 W A N D E R I N G A R O U N D O U R D I L A P I DA T E D Y A R D A M I DST T H E D E A D LEAVES A. I REALIZE THAT I WOU L D H A V E WORN r. SHE C A M E O U T OF H E R STRANGE STATE LONG ENOUGH TO S M I LE AT M E AND SAY. THIS PEC U L I A R AND PAI N F U L CONTRAC­ TION OF MY ENTIRE LIFE THAT IS SO C LEARLY I S THE O N LY WAY I CAN LINKED TO LAURE'S DEATH A N D THE L I NGERING SADNESS OF A UTU M N "CRUCI FY" MYSELF. I M P E R C E PT I B LY . I N SA NTlY. BUT THOSE WHO HAVE OUT MY P A T I E N C E H A V E C O M P L ET E LY DESTROY E D T H E R AP PORT THAT I HAVE WITH THEM. IN THE OFFICE OF ONE OF M Y CO­ WORK E R S. THEN. I WROTE: "I R EALIZE THAT IF I WANT TO OVERCOM E MY EROTIC HABITS. S H E WAS LOST WITHIN H E RSELF.W H E N I WALK TH ROUGH THE STRE ETS OF R H E I MS. I T DEPENDED ON D I SASTE R NO MORE THAN IT D I D O N DREA MS.'" T H I S WAS ONE OF HER LAST COHERENT SENTENCES. I R E M E M B ERED WHAT I HAD FELT THAT M O R N I NG. BREATH I NG CONVUL­ S I V E LY. NOW. W H E R E I CANNOT LOOK AT A W I NDOW. C LI N G I N G TO T H I S SUFFERING A S TO A CHANCE TO LIVE.

NOVE M B E R 7. B U T NO SOONER H A D W E MICHEL RETU RNED T H A N LA U R E B E G A N T O F E E L THE F I RST E F F ECTS OF THE I L L N ESS THAT E V E N T U A LLY CAUSED HER DEATH. .. A N D PRECEDE M E . AT THE E N D OF AUGUST. " BUT THAT IS MY SOONER HAD WE ENTERED THE FO REST THAN SHE SAW TWO DEAD CROWS. . I N T H E M I DDLE OF A LL TH I S C H A OS. I N EB RIATED MORE BY THIS WEIGHTY THAN I P U R I TY OF DENISE. I N FRONT OF A T R E E TH AT H A D BEEN STRUCK BY LIGHTNI NG. S H E FELL ONCE. WHAT U N ITES US WITH J U ST A FEW I N D I V IDUALS IN M A RC H OF 1 938. . AT E P E RON. TO NOT LOVE D E N I S E T H I S W A Y . I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT SOMETIMES. CON S U M E D BY OAK R OOTS. D E A R GEORGES. EVERYTHING CONSIDERED. HEINE D I DN'T GO WITH US. SOMETIMES WITH TERROR. TA KING LEI R I S A N D ZETTE FOR A WA LK A LONG A PATH WE BOTH LIKED. IT WAS SNOWING I DONT WANT TO I N SIST ON A N Y O N E THING (ANY THAT DAY. EVEN DREAMED ABOUT IT I N P E R EG R I N ATION F E R LUC. AFTER S H E SAW I J U ST C A M E OUT OF THE H E LD E R THEATER WHERE I SAW WUTHERING H E I G H TS: H EA T H C L I F F L I V I NG WITH CATHY'S GHOST AS I WANTED TO LIVE WITH LA U R E'S G H OST. 1 9 3 9 EVERYT H I NG. HE HAS NEVER BEFORE BEAUTIFUL COULD H AV E EVER I M AG I N ED (BUT BEAUTIFUL. BRANCHES O F A T R E E I WOULD HAVE WANTED HIM TO A LW A Y S ACCO M P A N Y M E I'VE STOPPED T H I N K I NG I N S I STE NTLY A BOUT LAURE. ALIVE. OF ALL THINGS CAPABLE OF SURVIVING ANY AND ALL VICISSITUDES. W E TRAVELLED OVER TH E MONTAI G U PLA I N S WHOSE H ILLS BUT AND NO DREAMED ABOUT WUTH E R I N G H E I G HTS. UNAWARE THAT SHE WO U L D PROBABLY N E V E R GET U P AGA I N. IN LA V A I S S E NET. WE WENT BACK TO THE SAME CANNOT BE THE EXTENT OF ALL H U MANLY VALUABLE THINGS. • • HANGING FROM THE C U R R E N T E XPLA N ATION. LA U R E THOUGHT A BO U T FORGIVE M E AND UNDERSTAND DESPITIE M Y WORDS ALL THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO YOU AS SPONTANEOUSLY AS AN EXPRESSION OF GRIEF OR A BURST OF LAUGHTER . I I SADE'S "GRAVE. " H E SHALL B E SOWN OVER THE ACORNS . I S U PPOSE T H I S F R O M H O U S E TO H O U S E I N T H E FI ELDS G REATLY D ELIGHTED LA U R E . ARE MORE REASON TO HOPE THAN TO DESPAIR. J WENT TO BED. I A U TOMATICALLY LA U R E A N D I P R E P A R E D A D I N N E R FOR I V A NOV A N D o06IEVTSOVA. . A FTE R A LL. A FTER WE R ETU R N E D ." LAURE WENT OUT ONLY ONCE. ODdlEVTSOVA UNDRESSED AND BEGA N VOM ITI NG.L I K E U N EA S I ­ NESS IN MY H E A RT WO U L D BE TO BETRAY EXPRESSED H I M S E LF L I K E T H I S . RETURN TO CERTAIN MEMORIES WHICH. IN DECEM B E R OF 1 937. OCTOBER 2 9 . I RECEIVED T H E FOLLOWI N G LETTER FROM M I C H E L LEI R I S LAST S U N DAY. T H E O N E W A Y T R I P (A 1 9 32 F I L M BY TAY G A R N ETT) W H I C H S H E H A D I'M USING RATHER SOLEMN LANGUAGE H ERE-FAR N E V E R SEEN BEFORE. W E WANTED TO I NVITE T H E M T O H A V E D I N N E R WITH US. AS WE H A D EXPECTED. AS AN A N I M A L IS BEA UTIFUL). J. ON THE WAY THERE. HERE WE ARE. ALIVE. THE WINO WAS SAVAGE. TH E GERM A N S H A D J UST TA KEN V I E N N A AND THE A I R ALREADY SMELLED OF WAR. . POSSESSES M E ENTI R E LY. I A M LA U R E DIED O N E YEA R A G O TODAY. 1 93 9 THE THOUGHT OF D E N I SE. SPOT WITH M I C H E L L E I R I S A N D ZETTE. 1 43 . WE ASKED M A U R I C E H E I N E TO D R I V E U S T O T H E SPOT THAT S A D E H A D CHOSEN FOR HIS OWN B U R I A L. D I N N E R WAS NO LESS SAVAGE THAN THE WIND. . ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED IN ONE YEAR D I S I NTEGRATING TO NOTH I NGN ESS IN T H E E A RTH BEN EATH A THICKET O F BUSHES . OR OUT OF HUMAN RESPECT (SACRIFICING ONCE MORE MY MANIA TO REDUCE EVERYTHING!. A N D WE LOST OUR WAY I N T H E FOREST. THAT EVENI NG. I T S E E M S TO M E . I'M B EG I N N I N G TO FEEL MORE A ND M O R E I G N O R ANT. RATHER. INSISTENCE WOULD BE A SACRILEGE I N THIS CASE). I TOOK H E R BY CAR TO OUR SAINT G E R MA I N HOUSE I N THE FOREST. S H E HAD A H I G H FEVER AND I. LAST S A T U R D A Y. MOUNTA I N S W A S N E C E S S A R Y TO H E L P M E FORGET MY D I SLI KE FOR "CO M E D Y . WHEN I'M IN A MELANCHOLIC MOOD. . I T I S A S I NCONC E I V A B L E A S A PLANT THAT H A S STOPPED B U D D I NG A N D G ROWING [ • • . COLOMB-BECHAR. . CLOSE TO THAT MOMENT OF THE YEAR WHEN WE CAN LOOK BACK AND CONSIDER. TO N O T F E E L THIS DEATH . AND WE FROM MY USUAL PRACTIC E-LANGUAGE WHICH MAKES ME A LITTLE ASHAMED. ON T H I S OCCASION. I HOPE YOU WILL A R R I VED I N B R O A D DAYLIGHT AT THE E D G E OF T H E P O N D SA D E H A D CHOSEN. OUT OF MODESTY PERHAPS. SHE WALKED A LL D A Y A S I F DEATH W E R E N'T W E A R I NG HER AWAY. L A U R E S A W THE L A S T F I L M OF H E R LIFE.

WHOEVER M ET A N YTHI NG MORE HUMAN. IF LA U R E USED TO P LAY. 1 938. TOO? H E R S E L F W ROTE THAT TH E HOUSE W H I C H S H E D I S D A I N FU LLY C A L L E D "TH E N U N N E RY" WOU L D C E R TA I N L Y C O M E TO A D I S A ST R O U S E N D . WILL S A I NT G E R M A I N C R UMBLE TO THE G RO U N D.. A LL I C A N DO I S P L A Y AGA I N . LA U R E DIED. SAID LAURE. CA N'T STA N D TO SEE THEM FORGET HOW M UC H GOOD FORT U N E T H E Y WOULD H A V E WOU L D PLAY.LIKE A KNIGHT A N D H I S H ERALD. R E A N I MATE T H I S REALLY I NS A N E FATE . A M A PROVOCATION. LA U R E PLAYED A N D WON. I SAW THE TWO C ROWS A FEW DAYS LATER." I T S E E M S THAT A L L OF TH E FRAGMENTS WHICH M E NTION HER N A M E HAVE BEEN CROSSED OUT OR OMITTED. 5 NUD!TY. C O M PLETE WITH GARTERS AND BLACK S I LK GEORGES BATAILLE TRANSLATED BY TOM G O RA STOCKI NGS. WHERE S H E EVEN­ DON'T K NOW I F A NYTH I N G WAS IN A LETTE R TO L E I R I S . (TH E C RO W . I T H E Y ONLY CHOKED ON HER WORDS SO BADLY THAT I WAS F R IG H TE N E D. F. NOT H I NG MORE THAN A N INERT BODY. I 1 !s. A LARGE "X" IN OR GAP INTE R R U PTS EACH OF THE PASSAGES ON H E R DEATH. W H E N I PASSED BY THE SA M E S POT. i FOUN D DEATH M A SQU E R A D ! N G . J . I PLAYED WITH LA URE. I B I R DS AS A U N D E R STOOD ONLY BUT BY THEN. D ESTROYED. I TOLD H E R : SHE S H I V E R E D AND FOR THOSE WHOM I LOVE. SHE F O R E S A W AS T H E FATE O F T H E LET M E A D D : O N T H E TH R ESHOLD O F . BEGUN ON YEA R "LATE. I'LL M I S S THE SUN. WHOEVE R TOLERATED A MORE TERRIBLE FU RY? YET 1 44 . J U N E 3. THE SPACING OF THESE I N C I S IO N S THE N A R R A TI V E THE R E P R E S E NTS A C E N T R A L LOC U S I N R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N BATAI LL E A N D LA U R E . THI S F U R Y TOOK ME BY T H E HAND A N D LED ME I NTO H ELL. NOW I CAN NO LONGE R REST B ECAUSE I WON.. I TAKEN T H E N A M E LAURE. I'M W R I TI NG T H I S NOW A S E V E RYTH I NG I S T E N D I NG TOWA RDS THE "SONOROUS. F R O M T H E W R I T I N G S OF LA URE) I HAVE J UST TOL D YOU A BOUT M Y LIFE: DEATH H A D W E WERE NOT FAR FROM THE HOUSE. WHICH I S MORE O R LESS THE D I A R Y OF LAURE'S DEATH. . 1 940 SOON. I H A D JUST LOOKED THROUGH H E R M A N U SC R I PTS A N D ONE OF THE FI RST I HAD READ WAS T H E C ROW. AFTER H E R LA U R E WAS D E A T H THAT S H E H A D C O N S I D E R E D TH E D E A D SIGN. . L A U R E CONCERNING T H E MANUSCRIPT T O APPEAR UNDER THE TITLE OF THE CULPRIT. ABSURD A N D VIOLENT C H AOS" W O R LD]. G LORY. PA R I S WAS J U ST BOM B E D [C ROSSED OUT: AND ON NI ETZSCH E SOMEONE TOLD M E THAT A BOMB H A D FA LLEN ON T H E BOI LEAU STREET CLINIC WHERE LAURE HAD SPENT TWO MONTHS BEFORE OUR TRIP TO SA I N T G E R M A I N ON J U LY T U A LLY DIED. P .

H E ADY FRAGRANCE BREATHED I T IN. THE I D E A THAT S H E H A D T R I E D TO R ES I ST ME.MY LATE GRANDMOTHER THE C LOCK WAS STRI K I N G M I D N IG H T A S I ENTERED THE K I TC H E N WHERE M Y G R A N DMOTH E R WAS LYING. YET I COU L D NOT U NDERSTAND WHY SHE FOLLOW I N G T H E CONTO U R S OF H E R BREA STS. THE D OO R OF M Y ROOM. I WAS FORCED TO HOLD M Y NOSE WHEN I F I RST C A M E THE SILK K E RC H I E F ON HER FACE A N D THE SHEET COV E R I N G HER BODY ONLY ADDED TO HOW I CLOSE TO T H E FOOT OF T H E B E D . S U R E LY A L L S H E CO ULD EXPECT N O W WAS HER BODY'S SLOW D I S I NTEGRATION I N SOM E D A M P CRYPT FLESH. ALL DAY LON G . W A R M CONTRACTIONS G R I PPED M Y GUTS. EVEN FOR A N I N STANT. THE WET FABRIC OUTLI N I NG T H E SOFT CONVEXITY OF H E R BELLY A N D N A V E L. THE S H A P E OF H E R P U B I S AS I T DISAPPEARED BETW E E N HER THIGHS. SURELY. ANY REJ ECTION OF ME. HAD I WAFTED U N D E R THOUGHT I HAD GRAN DSON. S E N D I N G WAVES OF SWEET PA I N R I PPLI NG THROUGH M Y BODY. SLOWLY. WITH TH E I R DARK N I PPLES ERECT FROM T H E FRESH CARESS OF T H E RA I N . WOULD T R Y T O R EJ ECT M E. B U T I T W A S A HA LF­ H E A RTED E FFORT AT B E ST. C L I N G I N G TO H E R BODY. OF A TWENTY-YEA R-OLD MAN FOR THIS OLD WOM A N W A S T H E V E R Y WATER OF L I FE. TH E I R DEATH A N D M E MO R Y B E G A N T O D I STI L L AS M Y B O D Y AVI DLY DRENC H E D IN A SUDDEN SHOWER. HAD T R I E D TO REPEL M Y BY S U R RO U N D I N G HERSELF WITH HER S M ELL. T H E R E FORE. S U S PECTING THE DESIRES STI R R I N G W I T H I N ME. A '4D F I N A LLY G ROWN ACCUSTO M E :) TO IT. F I LLED ME WITH G REAT EXCITE­ M E N T. A N D THOUGH I D I D EVENTUA LLY TAKE P L E A S U R E TH E R E I N . WAS UTTE R L Y INCO M P R E H E N S I BLE. R E M E M B E R E D H E R IN MY M I N D'S EYE: A J E A LOUSLY H I DDEN PH OTOG R A P H OF HER WITH HER DRESS. S U R ELY T H E PASSION 1 415 . S P R I N G I N G FROM THE WELL THAT HAD GON E DRY I N HER MANY YEA R S A SWA R M OF DESIRES F L E W T HROUGH MY MIND BEFOR E. THE THOUGHT F L A S H E D TH ROUGH M Y M I N D THAT TH E OLD WOM A N . THOSE THIGHS T H A T W E R E LONG A N D S L I M W I T H TH E I R M U SCLES J U ST B A R E L Y V I SI B L E U N DER THE S K I N . F I R M AND PROUD. AS THE G N A W I N G WOR M S ASSA I LED HER THAT I T R I E D T O D R I V E AWAY. H E R THE S M E LL. THE CLOTH WAS STI C K I N G TO HER SKIN.

IT WAS QUITE HIGH OFF THE FLOOR IN T H E STYLE OF OLDER BEDS SO THAT I HAD SOME DIFFICULTY I N FOLDI NG BACK T H E S H E ET TO TH E FOOT O F THE B E D A N D FOLLOW I N G T H E C R EASES. I W A S PROTECTED O N A L L S I D E S BUT AT TH E S A M E TI M E THE M YSTERIOUS H A P P E N I NGS O F T H E OUTS I D E ME: THE O N LY LINK I HAD SOM E F I N E . T H E R E B Y D I S P L A Y I N G H E R BLACK S I L K STOC K I NGS PULLED H A L F WAY U P HER L EGS. BALEFUL EYES T H A T 1 46 . HOWEVER. I COU L D DETECT T H E C R UNCH O F SHOES ON GRAVEL AND STO N E S . ON A SHELF THE IN TH E I N C R EASI NG T H E PA I N B Y PRESSING DOWN O N M Y PENIS. T H E Y HAD NOT GON E TO THE TROUBLE OF P U TTI N G ON HER U N D E RCLOTH E S WH I C H . A LBEIT FOR ONE N IGHT ONLY. I WAS D I S P L E A S E D AT T H I S I N C I D E NT S I N C E I H A D NO W I S H TO C A U S E H E R A N Y PA I N . SHE COULD W R I N K LE D . THE SHUTTE R S COULD NOT T E L L WHICH-TO S N A P L I K E DRY TWIGS. DAZZLI N G IN ITS WHITEN ESS. V E R Y D A I NTY M A U V E PEARLS W E R E S E W N ON THE BODICE I N T H E S H A P E O F M A N Y­ FROM THE LOW CUT THE STEPS SLOWLY MOVED AWAY. I LEFT T H E K E R C H I E F IN PLACE ON H E R FACE. PETA L L E D ROSES C U R L I NG N E C K L I N E : M Y MOTH E R H A D THOUGHT I T TOO LOW I WENT QUICKLY TO TH E DOOR TO M A K E C E RTAI N IT WAS LOCKED. A M PL E S K I RT. TO U N C L ENCH H E R H A N DS O P E N I NG TH E DOOR FOR HIM.I THE BONES IN HER FINGERS OR HER SOM E O N E ' S C LOTH E S COULD NOT T E L L WHETH E R T H E SOU N D C A M E FROM T H E ROAD O R THE COU RTYA R D I N FRONT OF T H E HOUSE. CU PBOA R D SQUEEZED I BETW E E N F I R E PLACE T H E N C A M E T H E M O M E N T W H E N I D EC I D E D TO P U S H BACK T H E D RE S S C O M PLETELY. H U G E TOMCAT W I T H L O N G TAWNY F U R A N D B R IGHT. THEN OUTSI DE. MY AND I T WAS A L L W I Z E N E D WERE H U RTI N G HAD IN CAR ESS WHILE AND ASSUAGE N OT SEE ACH I NG W A N T N E XT M OV E . MADE OF WERE C LOSED A N D THE WOODEN P A N E LS HAD B E E N DRAWN ACROSS T H E F R O N T DOOR W I N DOW. T E ETH BUT THE ZIPPER I N TO TOOK PLEASURE I NTEN D E D FOR H E R : N E VERTH E LESS I DECI DED TO ATT A C H HER S E C U R E LY . THE CAT M EW I NG AT T H E DOOR . STI L L I NTACT. SION. TH E N G R A D U A LLY BOR A D E N E D AND F LA R E D I NTO AN PROPORTIONS I N M Y M I N D. I REALLY D I D NOT WANT HER TO SEE M E : AND THEN TOO. I CHOSE SOME SECTIONS OF HEAVY TWI N E USED FOR BINDING SHEAVES TH E R E WAS NO SOU N D OUTS I D E EXC E PT. I C E RTA I NL Y H A D N O I NTENTION OF IT WAS NOT D I F F I C U LT TO SPREAD H E R LEGS A N D ATTACH H E R FEET TO T H E B E D POSTS. HER D R E S S W A S COM E LY. FOR THE PAST FEW M I N UTES. W H E N I LOW E R E D HER AGA I N . THAT HAD BEEN SPECIALLY BROUGHT OUT FOR THE OCCA­ S H E W A S N A K E D U N D E R T H E D R ESS. SAFE F R O M A N Y I N TE R R U PTION I W E N T B A C K T O T H E BED. NOT U N D E RSTA N D I NG WHY HIS M I ST R E SS WOULD BECA USE O F TH E I R I D E A L LENGTH A N D THE LOOP AT O N E E N D. H E R N E W A N D I D A R E S A Y U NCOMFORTA BLE POSITION CAUSED A R MS . TH E COLD ROOM H A D CAUSED IT TO SHRINK AND D R A STICALLY. AND NOW C O N F I D E N T THAT WE W E R E GOD. A N D THE SINK KNEW TH E R E WAS A M ETAL BOX FULL O F STR I N G A N D CORD THAT S H E HAD SAVED TH ROUGH THE Y E A RS. MY G R A ND MOTH E R WAS B E A UTI F U L. BUT I THE R U STLE OF R A I S E H E R U P T O P U T H E R A R M S B E H I N D H E R BACK AND TIE TH E M . NOT LET HIM I N. THROUGH H E R D R ESS H A D ROL L E D B A C K T O H E R K N E E S AS I WAS A TTA C H I N G H E R F EET. A N D I WAS PROUD S H E WAS M I N E . WOULD HAVE BEEN Q U I T E U S ELESS. TH E R E MAY HAVE BEEN HER A BUDDING S A D I STIC MY MY DESIRE TO BEFORE I U N DR E S S E D HER I C A UGHT MYSELF U N C O N SC I O U S LY O PE N I NG MY F L Y A N D U NCOVER­ I NG MY PENIS. IT WAS VERY I N TR I C A T E L Y PLEATED A BO V E THE WOR L D D I SQU I ET E D TON IGHT WITH THE EXT E R IO R W A S THE SOU N D O F FOOT S T E P S WHICH HAD TA K E N ON UNREAL WA I ST: TH E FOLDS W E R E NA RROW A T T H E TOP. G R A N D MOTH E R H A D D E C I D E D T O I NSTALL A SHORT TIME AGO. A I HAVE A LW A Y S LOATH E D TH E C REATU R E . O N E M U ST A D M IT. I W A S A LITTLE TREMULOUS BUT THE F E A R WAS IN KEEPING WITH T H E WARM P A I N GNAWING AT MY GUTS A N D T H E DA RK EXCITE M E NT T H A T SENT A SLIGHT Q U I V E R MY EVERY MOVEM E NT. SOFT FABRIC I COULD N O T I D E NTI FY. OF THE CLOTH. IT WAS NO EASY TASK.S U D D E N LY I THOUGHT I HEARD FOOTS T E P S WITH THEIR FINGERS LOC K E D TOG E T H E R . W H E N A L L WAS SAID AND DON E. TH E TESTI C L E S OF I NATU R A L LY I UNABLE TO W A S QUITE AWA R E THAT S H E WAS R E A CT TO ALL THE CA RESSES I SINCE BITTEN M ET A L TH E M . I SHOT HOME TH E TWO BOLTS MY FOR T H E OCCASION A N D H A D COV E R E D T H E B A R E S K I N W I T H A B L A C K S I LK SC A R F.

NOTH I N G OF CA RESSED HER BODY WITH T H E OTH E R . THEN GROWING VERY E XC I T E D . DESICCATED A N D P U R P L I S H . A N D T O W H O M S H E WAS O F F E R I N G S H I V E R S T H R O U G H M E FROM H E A D TO TOE. A S THOUGH LOATH TO DEFILE LEANED BE LLY M Y M I STR ESS'S COUCH. I P R E S S E D F I R M LY ON G R EA T THAN PAIN. AND WITH A VIOLENT MOVE M ENT THAT SURPRISED THUS ME. H E W A S QUITE W I LD A N D N O O N E WENT N E A R HIM E XC E PT H I S OLD M I STRESS. BECAUSE RED OF T H E COLD. ENT IN THE SPARSE. I TROU BLE THE T R A N Q U I LITY OF O U R E M B R ACES. H E R BODY WITH A LMOST U N R E A L P A S S I V I TY. EVERYT H I N G H A D BY NOW R EC E D E D I NTO OBLIVION. N E A R LY BLACK ANY N I PPLES AT EACH THEY FORWA R D MY WITH TONG U E . THE PA I N S E R V E D TO I G N I T E M O R E F I R E S U N D E R M Y P A S S I O N A N D D ROVE M E TO STR I P T H E DEAD WOM A N OF H E R MODESTY. E V E R YW H E R E I N S U M THAT CONSTA NT MOVEMENT AND CONSTANT SWEATING FINGERS. A N D WHOSE NATU R A L I NT R I C AC Y H A D BECOM E E V E N M O R E COMPLEX S I N C E E V E RY I NC H OF H E R S K I N . OF MY WRINKLES. BAGS I WAS STI L L STA N D I N G B E S I D E TH E BED. HER WERE B R E A STS. NOTH I N G C O U L D COM E TO I PUSHED BAC K HER DRESS TO THE A R M PITS. J A G G E D E N D OF BONE. T H E I N S I D E OF THE T H I G H S . S E N D I N G CONSEQ U E N C E T O H E R EXCEPT H E R LOV E R. M Y C A R ES S E S M O R E EXPLICIT. A N D ALL T H E WHILE I W A S AMAZED AT THE EVERYTH I NG E L S E BUT W E R E D I ST I NCTLY APPAR- 1 47 . SO K N E A D E D BY T I M E. ACCEPTING NAKEDNESS T H E H U M I LI ATION OF T H E R A VAGES OF HER SA LLOW S K I N WAS STRETC H E D OVER A FRA M E WHOSE SLIGHTEST DETA I LS W E R E A PP A R E NT. PITTED A N D STI PPLED WITH T I N Y BLAC K PLACED MY H A N DS ON E I T H E R S I DE OF H E R TORSO AS I BEGAN LICKING EVERY I NC H O F H E R COLD FLESH. WERE STA I N E D TINY DOTS: T H E TE ETH OF THE Z I P P E R H A D B RO K E N THE S K I N ON M Y TESTICLES. WET E X T R E M I TY G A V E THEM TH I C K N E SS. THE LABIA WERE AS DRY AS SUCKED I N T H E S E R E GLOBES O F H E R B R E A STS. S A L I V ATING ON THEM. W A S F U R ROWED TO THE B R E A K I NG PO I NT. ONLY THE DARK. WHEN I A N D TOUCH E D LEAVI NG HER A S A L LOW MARK I NOW THAN TWO THIN THAT THE YEA R S HAD E M PT I E D A N D D R I E D U P. USUAL WITH THE MY PENIS. SO FI LLED WITH BOTH. EXCEPT T H E TWO OF US. WH ITE FLEECE ON HER FOLLOW I N G YOU R E V E R Y MOVE AND N E V E R LOS I N G EVEN FOR AN I N ST A N T TH E I R I MPLACABLE GENITALS. I F E LT M UC H SAFER KNOWING NOTH I N G WAS OF ANY CON S E Q U E N C E A TO ME EXCEPT H E R BODY L Y I N G ON B E D T H AT I WAS THE BONDS WERE F I R M L Y I N PLACE. AWARE OF ON LY B EC A U S E TH E HEMP CORDS WERE ATTA C H E D TO IT AND TO THE OBJECT WAS OF MY ANY TICKLING MY PENIS W I TH ONE HAND. HER G E N I TALS W E R E COV E R E D WITH L O N G G R E Y MY PL E A S U R E WAS I M M ENSE AS I G R E E D I LY H A I RS T H A T STRAGGL E D TH I N LY O V E R A W I D E A R E A OF HER BELLY. H E R THE SPECTACLE B E FORE MY EYES WAS A FASCI NAT­ I NG ONE. D R U N K WITH DESI R E. THE CLEFT BETW E E N THE B R E A STS. ONCE SO PINK AND FRESH. D A R K E N E D LEATH E R . EACH OTH E R'S P R E S E N C E WERE WE M A N A G E D TO DO S O BY L I FTI NG H E R A N D WOR K I N G THE D R E S S SLOWLY A N D P A I N FU LLY U PW A RDS. CAUSING PALER T I PS I W A S FASCINATED BY T H E FOLDS I N H E R A R M P ITS. A N D EVEN THOUGH THE POS I T I O N OF HER HANDS H I N D E R E D M E C O N S I D E R A B LY I H A D NO I NTENTION OF U NTYI N G T H E M .COULD STA R E I NTO YOU R FACE BY THE HOUR. N I BBLING ON THE ROUGH N I PPLES. THE GROIN. T H E R E U PON. I WAS VERY CA UTIOUS W H E N EV E R I TOU C H E D HER LEST THE SKIN SPLIT WIDE A OPEN AND R E LEASE THE TI M E: ACCEPTING OF IN HER N A K E DN ESS THAT THE MY H U M I LIATION HER BONDS I N S U RED COMPLETE ACC E S S I B I LITY T O H E R BODY. H E R SKIN NOW WAS NOTH I NG BUT STRETC H E S OF COLD NESS. POS S I B I L I T I E S O F P L E A S U R E T H E Y C O U L D PRO­ CU RE. NOTH I N G D A NG L I N G MORE A C ROSS HER TORSO. G E N ITA LS OP E N I N G HER WIDE I N TO THE DE EPEST IN HER R E C E S S E S OF BODY. S U D D E N LY . H A D W R I N KLED THE SKIN A N D F I N A LLY T A N N E D IT SO THAT IT H A D THE S U PPLE TEXTU R E OF OLD. F O R S O M E T I M E T H E R E A FTER I WAS NOT A W A R E OF THE N E A R-CONSTANT CONTRACTIONS OF M Y G UT. BUT M Y DESIRES HAD SOON MY H A N DS HAD EXHAUSTED ALL THE BEEN R E P R E S S E D TOO L O N G A N D SOON M Y H A N D G R E W MORE DA R I NG. I G E NTLY OVE R R I D I NG PASSION. LOOKED L I K E T W O D E F LATED B A L LOONS W I TH TH E I R VALVES C R ACKS.

DESP ITE T H E F R E N ZY TORTU RING THE TWO OF US A N D W H I C H WAS FLOODING P A I N F U L PELASU R E THROUG HOUT M Y PASSION-WRACKED BODY. D I S S ECTION OF T H E G E N ITALS: E M A SC U LATION. T H E S A L I V ATED A S M Y TON G U E DARTED EVERY BOTH I N S I D E AND OUTS I DE THE BODY. A LONG WITH TH E I R BROW N I S H C A ST. C R E V I C E . WITH I N . SAVO R I N G KICKED M Y C LOTH E S A W A Y FROM T H E BED. OVE R S E E I N G T H E S E D E LIGHTS A N D THAT ACCORD­ ING TO T H E M A STER'S W H I M THEY WERE G R A NTED FOR BUT ONE N I G HT O NLY. A N OT H E R ONE.A N A L TH E D E F EC A T I O N S ORGANS OR (FROM TH E SEXUAL A N OTH E R BODY). STUCK AND SUCKED I NTO AND G R OW T H S . B U T I N PARTI C U L A R I W A S INTENT O N EXTRACTING EVERY L A ST D ROP OF PLEASU R E AS I WAS C A R ES S I N G HER. T R E M B L I N G AT MY N E RVE. THEN FROM T H E M . I COULD NOT T H R UST M Y TONG U E PAST TH E O P E N I N G OF HER V U LV A . I R A N MY FINGERS T H R O U G H HER P U B I C HAIRS AND PINCHED T H E S K I N TOGETH E R IN O R D E R TO OPEN HER VAGI N A TO MY G R E E DY. I B E G A N S H I V E R I N G I N T H E COLD ROOM. ACTUA LLY I K N EW IT WAS INDEED THAT LAST BUT I M AG I N I N G THAT P R E L U D E TO I M AGI N I N G WAS TH E S E OTH E R . S U C K I N G MOUTH . M A D N E S S TH I S WHICH. THEY W E R E STI LL SOM E W H A T P L I A B L E SO THAT. MOREOVER. O N ENJOY I NG T H E M TO THE F U L LEST AND B U I LD I N G TO A G R A D U A L C L I M A X. BUT T H E DESI R E OOM I N ATING U S LIKE TWO A N I M ALS W A S SO I N TE N S E THAT IT I N H I BITED ANY SHOW O F PLEASURE. I FELT MY TH I RST FO R PLEA S U R E I NC R E A S E D A H U N D R E D FOLD. S H R I VELLED MOR ELS. L I K E A SUCTION C U P. AT T H E E X P E N S E O F T H E M E D I OC R E EX T E R N A L TRATING CENCE. B L OO D VOM ITI NG FROM T H E A N US. BEYOND OUR P RESENT I N H IBITING S I M I L A R T O D R I E D. B EYO N D ALL H U M A N BOU N D A R I ES. L I C K E D G R E E D I LY . TH U S IT WAS I M PE R A T I V E I B E VERY ATTENTI V E TO EVERY DETA I L AND I G N O R E THE SCRU PLES W H I C H MIGHT BO N D S HAVE IN FOR B I D D E N MY USING THE HEMP OF ORDER OUR T O ATTA I N T H E VORACIOUS MAXIMUM PLE A S U R E PROV I D E . C O M M O N AS A N E R ECT M E M B E R . E XPLOR E D E V E R Y N O O K OF S K I N . OR A DAMP C ROTC H . SENSES COULD N O R W A S I CON V I N C E D T H A T B E YOND O U R PRESENT PLEASURE. WERE NEAR BUT TENCY A N D A P P E A R A N C E OF OLD LEATH ER. ETC. E V E R Y LAST ATOM OF D E L I G H T AS I D I D SO. EVEN R U N N I NG THE RISK OF TEA R I NG IT. I S I M PLY W A NTED TO PROLONG TH E M A S LONG AS POS S I B L E . I W A N T E D TO PLAY MY TO N G U E AROU ND IT BUT H E R S K I N WAS S O W I Z E N E D A N D F U R ROWED OPENING MADE SOMEWH ERE IN THE E V I S C E R ATION ( FOLLOWE D B Y A DISCHARGE O F T H E I N T E R N A L O R G A N S OR T H E E J A C U LATION OF T H E BOW E L S ) : BONES THR USTING THROUGH DRY F I S S U R E S I N T H E S K I N . O N E BY O N E. T H E Y S UGGESTED T H E CONSIS­ STATE W H I CH. I WAS N A K E D I N A F E W M O M E NTS. WE L E FT THAT STAGE B E H I N D US WHEN ONE DAY.LACK OF REACTION. I THOUGHT H E R F L E S H W A S G R A D U A L LY BECOM I N G SOFT E R A N D M O R E R E S I LI E NT A N D MY M O U T H . BOTH ON H E R PART A N D ON I BEGAN ACTING THEN AS THOUGH OUR NIGHT M I N E. T H E VAGI N A . VERY IN DARK URINE CARRYING J E LLY· THAT IT WAS NOT D I SC E R N I BL E . I UNDID MY WARM C O R D U ROY T R O U S E R S A N D DROPPED T H E M ON T H E FLOOR.-TH E R E S O R T OF AND PL E A S U R E . SUDDEN A N D U NCONTROLLA BLE A D I POSE E R P U T I O N S O F B R OW N I S H . WE C A P A B L E OF ATTA I N I N G IT. EXTRA. AS I WET H E R BODY W I T H MY S A L I V A . TH E N A VEL. L I K E S EEDS L I Q U E FY I NG ITS FLOW. MOTH E R P E R H A PS. O R THE DAY WHEN I ROSE EA R L I E R THAN SHE AND. IT WAS FAR BEYOND A N YTH I N G AS THAT SOMEONE. S C A TTE R I NG OF F I LTH SLOWLY. AS H A R D A N D A S BLACK A S COAL W E R E T H E O U T E R F R I N G E S OF H E R L A B I A . AND TH E N I DARTED M Y T O N G U E R E P E ATEDLY I NTO THE CONVOLUTIONS OF HER FLESH. TH E ORGA NS OF S I G H T D I S C H A R G I N G TH E I R V I T R E O U S AND S U BSTA NCE ON E A C H T E M PL E . WAS C U RTA I LI NG T H E VO L U PTUOUS WA S NOT E N J OY M E NT OF THIS N I GHT. SIGNS OF PLEASU R E A ( A LWAYS FRUS­ BEC A U S E A LW A Y S OF C A STRATI NG DETU M E S­ OF THE DEGRADING BECAUSE CONC O M I TANT POLLUTIO N S ) . I L A Y I N WAIT FOR H E R T O D O H E R TO I L ETTE . IT WAS NOT THAT I F E A R E D A D I S ASTROUS OUTCOM E TO O U R RELATIONS. H O W E V E R . I N S E A R C H OF HER CLITOR I S BUT TO NO AVA I L. PEASURES MORE WERE BUT THE M A R V ELLOUS MY N I G HTS. TOG ET H E R W E R E O U R L A ST O N E . I POPPED E A C H BUTTON O F F M Y S H I RT. STE A L I N G GLANCES TO S E E I F S H E SHOWED ANY I NT E R EST. SO N A R ROW HAD IT BECO M E . WOULD I N DU C E US TO E X P E R I E NCE T H E MOST VIOLENT AND U NCONTROL­ LA B L E O F P L E A S U R E S : E XPLOS IONS OF SKIN A N D FLESH: MOUTH. A N E R ECT N I PPLE. I LAY OOWN 148 . T E V E R Y I NC H OF H E R I C Y G E N I TA LS. I U N D R ES S E D IN FRONT OF H E R. I STRETC H E D HER S K I N . BARELY P U B E SC E NT. WHITE DISCHARGES FROM THE BRAIN.

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EACH B L O W M A D E H E R DOUBLE U P AS I K N E LT BETW E E N HER OPEN LEGS SO I MIGHT THOUGH TO PROTECT H E RSELF OR TO CATCH H E R BREATH. T H E WOU N D WAS P U R P L I S H A N D O D D LY D R Y AS THOUGH HER BLOOD HAD EVAPORATED I N DEATH. SOON I WAS STRETC H I NG OUT M Y LONG. S H R I VE L L E D A N D BLUE WITH C O L D . BR EATH M I NGLING WITH PANTI NG. WAS SPREADING L A B I A . OF A LTHOUGH MY BODY WAS M O R E MA LLEABLE. HAD I R E MOVED IT. I WAS V E R Y SUCCESSIVE CAUSED BY BOUTS O F THAT DISBELIEF T E R RO R THOSE FISSURED FLESH. I FOU N D I T D I F F I C U LT AT THE T I M E TO B E L I E V E H E R E N L A R G E D C L E FT COULD G I V E O F F S U C H A FOUL H E R ONLY RESPONSE TO EACH OF M Y MOV E M E NTS. THROUGH H E R PUBLIC H A I RS. COULD L I C K H E R G E N ITALS AGA I N A N D THE BLACK C R A N N I E S BETW E E N HER THIGHS. TO EACH R H YTH M I C CONTACT OF MY BODY WITH ODOU R. B U T H E R E F FO RTS W E R E V A I N . WAS T H E I R R I TAT I N G AND INCESSANT CRACKLE OF HER BO N ES. H E R H A N DS K E PT S N A P P I NG B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D T H E WHOLE K I TC H E N R E V E R B E R ATED WITH MY M U FFLED G E NTLENESS. I KNEW MY I WOULD F E E L H E R I S E N S ED. DANGLI NG TESTIC LES STRUCK AGA I N ST H E R PUBLIS. C A R ESSES. DART M Y TON G U E I N TO H E R N A V E L. COULD F E E L THE S H A R P EDGES OF H E R BONES C R A C K IN A GLASS. LOOK CONSCIOUS O F H E R CO M P L ETE DOM I NATION O V E R M E W H I C H SHE ACCOM PLI S H E D BY THE COLDNESS AND THE D E C E PT I V E R I G I D I TY OF HER BODY. T H E P U B I S H A D A F U R ROW AT LEAST FOU R I N C H E S IN L E NGTH. U N DER T H E TH I N CLOTH. N I BBLE LOVI NGLY AT H E R N I PPLES I N A R U S H OF SA L I V A . CONTOURS OF HER O V E R S I Z E G E N I TA L I A WHOSE D I M ENSIONS M A D E M Y PENIS. LA P AT THE S I D E S OF H E R FLAT. S U C K A T H E R A R M PITS I N T H E HOPE OF F I N D I N G A TRACE O F H E R SWEAT. S H E TOO WAS COLD. T H E S L I T H A D EXTE N D E D T H E CLEFT I N H E R LA B I A TO FREAKISH I NCAPABLE PROPO RTIONS. C A R E F U L NOT TO PRESS DOWN TOO HARD LEST I H U RT H E R AND MAKE HER FRA I L H A R D B E LLY. Y E T I HAD NOTH I N G BUT T E N D E R N E S S FOR H E R . EACH ONE OF MY MOV E M E NTS WAS PLA N N E D SO THAT A LL MY OUR PACT WAS NOW BROKEN. TH I N BODY OV E R H E RS. D R U M M I N G ON H E R B E LLY. A N D FOR THE TWO OF US NOTHING BUT THE DESIRE FOR BOU N D LESS PLEASURE. I TURNED AROUND SO I 1 150 . WOULD BE SUFFUSED WITH I N FI N ITE S U D D E N L Y T H E SIGHT O F H E R R U I N ED G E N ITALS U N H I NG E D M E COM PLETELY AND I BEGAN P U N C H I N G H E R B E LLY. R U F FLING T H E STR I NG Y GREY H A I R S I N H E R TH I N FLEECE. BUT G R A DU A LLY I REA LIZED T H E S M E L L THAT H A D A P P A L L E D M E SO MUCH AT FI RST ROSE FROM H E R R E E K I NG COR PSE. THE MOVEMENTS O F M Y BODY ON H E R BODY. HER SKIN HAD OPENED LIKE A E V E RYTH I N G TIO N A L C H A NG E D WHEN I. I SAW A S P L I T RUN A LONG HER S K I N . A N D AT EVERY THRUST OF M Y LOI N S I T TWISTED A N D TU R N E D L I K E A LARGE WO R M ON THE W R I N K LED PARCH M E NT O F H E R B E LLY. A N D I H EL D H E R C LOSE T O M E T O G I V E H E R M Y WARMTH. L I K E A M E R E WA RT. MY P E N I S WAS LI M P. IT H A D BEEN S E A L E D W I TH OUR F I R ST KISSES AND WAS TO HAVE T R A N S PORTED BOTH O F U S TO THE H I G H EST PEAKS OF P L E A S U R E . MO V E M ENT AND OVERCOME AND BY PASSION AND PLEASURE. BON ES C R ACK.B E S I D E H E R . MY EYES R E M A I N E D GOU G I NG M Y CHEEKS THORUGH THE S I LK K E R C H I EF. I T H A P P E N E D SO S U D D E N LY T H A T F O R A M O M E N T I MY FACE WAS P R ESSED A G A I NST HERS AND I DID NOT R E A CT. I W A S SPEECHLESS. CONTE M P LATE H E R VAG I N A A G A I N . I LOW E R E D MY HEAD AND BRUSHED MY H A LF­ MY DESPAI R C A U S E D B Y THE GROTE SQUE F I N I S H TO SO M UC H P L EA S U R E PROMISED TH E N WITH DRAWN. M Y DESIRE WAS F A N N E D ANEW AT THE WAY S H E OFFERED H E RSELF SO I M MODESTLY. W I TH U N I NTEN­ WIDE HER B R U TA L I TY . TO EACH V I B RATION OF MY L I M BS. H E R S. R E L E A S E D A C LOSED MOUTH AGAI NST H E R B E LLY AND B R EASTS. BATHED IN SWEAT AND FLUS H E D WITH R I V ETED U PO N H E R TO R N P U B I S F O R A LONG T I M E . THAT HER FACE WAS LIKE M I NE. M Y L O N G . WITHOUT W A R N I NG. D E S PITE H E R B O N D S AND H E R I N FERIOR POSITION. MORE FLEXIBLE ANGULAR THAN HERS AND N ICELY MOLDED THE BODY. THEN PUSHED ASIDE THE BLACK SILK SCARF M ASKING H E R TH ROAT SO I M IGHT K I SS H E R NECK AND SUCK AT ITS W R I N K LES. M Y RAGE CAUSED BY T H E COMPLACENT PASSIVITY S H E S HOWED A FT E R T H E DISASTER.

BUT STI LL I KEPT ON. I N VARIOUS PLACES. H E R L I PS N E V E R Q U I V E R E D. UNDER TYI N G MY HER R EPEATED BLOWS. H E R N E C K WERE A L L D U LY RI PPED A N D TOR N . I WAS RACKED BY SPASMS O F U N E A RTHLY RAGE. NO SIGN OF A PPROVA L. A T I N Y WORM B L U E WITH COLD. STI FFENED B Y T H E COLD. SERE N E A R LY TO T H E SKIN FROM H E R AWAY B R EA K I NG A N KLES IN GOUGI N G T H E S H E ETS THAT ROLLED FROM TH E FLESH HER L I K E STR I PS OF W A ST E D BODY A N D NOT ONCE DID SHE CRY OUTI Y E L LO W E D PA R C H M E N T. 1 15 1 . SHE N EV E R ONCE SHUDDERED. NO T E A R ZIGZAGGED DOWN THE W R I N K L E OF HER W A X E N FACE. BUT IT W A S T H E N THAT MADE H E R L I M BS S N A P L I K E K I N DL I NG AS I P U M M ELLED H E R BATTE R E D BODY. BUT ONLY A FT E R THEIR N A I LS. FOR ONE LONG OUTRAGE D I R ECTED AT ME OR H E R ? WAS I T R E A L L Y MY G R A N DMOT H E R I WAS P U NC H I NG A N D K I C K I N G S O ATROC IOUSLY? HOUR. AN OLD IT S E E M E D AS I PISSED I NTO THE DEE PEST REACHES OF HER THOUGH I WAS POU N D I NG ROTTEN TREE TH ROAT. HER WOU N DS W E R E RAPI DLY TU R N I NG PURPLE O R YELLOW L I K E H E R S K I N . A N D T H E T R E M B L I NG OF MY FI NGERS HAD ABATED. HER MONSTROUSLY GAPI N G L A B I A . H E R EYES W E R E FOCU S E D U N B L I N K I NG LY ON W H ATEV E R WAS B E FORE T H E M . NOT A S I NGLE TEA R OF B LOOD. HER A R M PITS. BUT H E R P A I N C A U S E D NO SHOUT. AND I BEGAN PISSI NG. WITH N O T A S I N G L E R U B Y AT TIMES I T WAS NOT H A R D TO B E L I EVE SHE WAS DEAD. H E R HA LF­ CLOS ED EYELIDS R E M A I N E D THAT W A Y . C A M E AWAY BY T H E H A NDFU L A N D C U RLED U P I N T O WITH E R E D ROLLS. A N D S L I P P E D I N M Y PENIS. AS LONG A S I STI L L H A D A N U N B ROKEN F I N G E R N A I L I SLIT O P E N HER FLESH IN LON G . K N OC K E D H E R F R O M SIDE T O S I D E A S F A R A S H E R M E RC I LESS FETTERS WOULD A L LOW. H A D F I N I S H E D TEA RING H E R I NDI FFERENT BODY I NTO H I DEOUS SH REDS OF S K I N A N D FLESH. A N D AT T I M E S H E R E M PTY GAZE M ET M I N E. THE H E M P BONDS STRETC H E D H E R S K I N . EVER MORE FEROCIOUSLY . RAGING D E S I R E I M O V E D I N AND OUT O F H E R MOUTH IN SAVAGE I M ITATION OF T H E ACT I HAD BEEN DENIED. H A R D SHE K E PT OOU BLI NG UP L I K E A J A C K K N I F E AT EVERY S M A S H OF MY F I STS. C R EATI N G ON HER C H E E KS. NOT A S I N G L E TEAR. SHE R E M A I N E D A S I NSENSIITIVE A S TH E BED THAT SUFFERED O U R FERINE TH RA S H I N GS. T H E BLOOD S H E D I D NOT WANT TO G I V E ME. I R R E PA RA B L E WOUNDS. I R E LEASED A LL TH E C R U E LTY I COU LD M U STER. AND PUNCHED HER SO THAT I W R E N C H E D O P E N H E R MOUTH. WAS THE NOT HAVE. E V E N H E R EYES R E M A I N E D M UTE. A N D Y E T I H A D PUT H E R T H R O U G H SO M U C H I THOSE LONG MOMENTS O F M A D N E S S F U L L OF F U R Y AND H O RROR UNTI L TH E CRUEL CRAVING O F M Y H A N DS WAS SATED. N O SIGN O F R E PROACH. TH I N K SHE S U F F E R E D A G R EAT D E A L. AND I K E PT ON OF PAI N P I S S I N G . MOUTH GAPE A N Y W I D E R T H A N B E FO R E . H A M M E R I N G E V E R Y I N C H OF H E R BODY. NO GESTURE OF SELF-DEFENCE. H E R LEATH E R N B E L LY.F E R A L VIOLENCE THAT K E PT M E. TWISTED A N D T U R N E D I N VIOLENT CONTORTIONS MY ACTIONS HAD BY NOW S U R PASSED EVERYTH I N G THAT M A D N ESS C A N D ICTATE. E V E R M O R E I NTEN S E LY . T E A R W I N K I NG I N THE LESIONS. A S MY U R I N E S P U RTED OVER H E R FACE IT G L U E D H E R H A I R T O H E R S K U L L A N D FOR M ED A WET H A LO UPON THE STI LL I M MACU LATE S H E ETS. A RT I F I C I A L C R E AT I N G TEARS ARTIFIC I A L BLOOD TO R E PLACE THE BLOOD S H E D I D M Y RAGE R E A C H E D S U C H B E R S E R K H E IGHTS THAT AT TI M ES I NO LONG E R KNEW ITS OBJ ECT. FEET TO THE B E D POSTS POI NT. NOR DID HER I SPA R E D N O P A R T OF H E R BODY. H E R B R E A STS. DISLOCATI N G TH E F R A I L B O N E S O F H E R JAW. N O SCA R LET TEA R TO COMFORT M E . A N D WITH THE S I N G LE M I N D E D N E S S O F TRU N K WHOSE O N LY R EACTION WAS SPLITS I N ITS BARK. SHE SEEMED NOT TO BE T H E R E .

K I N G UP THE G A L L E R Y U N D E R A RC A D ES. T H E WAITER MOVES TOW A R D R. I N G WITH HER DEAD DI STU R B E D . NOW M I N G L. E E P THAT NO D R E A M 23. 28 THE COLO N N A D E OF THE GA LLERY: R. I S SEATED AT A TABLE. THE CLOCK ON T H E SQU A R E OF TH E T H EATRE FRANC A I S M A R K I NG 15 P.M. FL. S E E N F R O M R E A R W A L. A PP E A RS. TH E FOUNTA I N S ON T H E SQU A R E. STOPS TH EN CROSSES THE SQU A R E. 26. 1 152 . R.. 28 BIS. REPUDIATING A L. I NTO A DEEP S L.-WIPES THE TABLE. W A L K I N G A S TH ROUGH NOT S U R E OF H E R STEPS. THE TERRACE OF T H E REGENCY CAFE WHERE R. THOSE WASTED STRIPS OF S K I N .L. T H E G A L L. 29.L.L. SLIGHTLY D I S H EVELLED. 24.S U D D E N L. 25.L.Y. I FEL. ANONYMOUS A U THOR TRAN SLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE S M E L. AL. E R Y MONTPE N S I E R . DECAY.ESH AND MY OWN PISS WITH ITS SMEL.L. 28 TER. 27. FADE O U T -SO U N D OF R:S STEPS U N D E R THE ARCADES. STEPS OF THE COR P U L E N T MAN.

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. W A S M Y PLEA S U R E A N Y THE L E S S FOR THAT? ROBE RTE S M I LES TABLE.T H E PA R A L L E L B A R S EXTE R I O R PA R I S DAYLIGHT GYM N A S I U M I N T E R IOR DAYLIG HT. WAITER. . N E A R B Y S H E H A S L E FT THE TEA THAT HAS B E E N BROUGHT T O H E R A N D H E R BAG. ROBERTE·S . CONC E R N E D BY HIS C Ll ENrs ODD A G A ( N ST THOSE TWO M E N ? IF TH E Y FOU N D SOM E WRETC H E D PL E A S U R E . THE I S I T POSSIBLE A WOM A N S E E K S TO EXPE R I E N C E A V IOLENT S E N S E OF S H A M E J U ST BECA U S E S H E'S RESPECTABLE? I REMEMBER I WAS ASHAMED W A I T E R : A R E YO. . D R E A M I LY A N D R ETU R N S TO SIT AT H E R AGAI N ST T H E COLON N A D E O F T H E PA LAI S-ROYAL. ON A TABLE 1 154 .-' A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . . ROB E R T E . WHAT H A V E I GOT ROBE RTE (VO( C E OFF) : THAT OCTAVE SHOULD H A V E T H E I N CONC E I V A B L E A R ROGA N C E T O I M A G I N E H E I S T H E A U THOR OF MY I M PROP R I E T I E S IS O N E TH I NG . S H E LOOKS AT T H E FOUNTA I N S ON THE SQU A R E AND STROK ES HER W R I STS. C O M E S OVERo T O H E R . HER BACK S H E TA K E S A POCK E T M I R ROR FROM H E R BAG AND LOOKS A T H E RS E LF. THE GARDENS OF TH E PA L A I S-ROY A L AND ITS FOUNTA I N S PLAYI NG. TURNS AWAY WITHOUT S E E I NG HIM. ST A N D I N G IN THE SUN. I N FRONT OF THE CAFE LE N E M OURS. ROB E RTE (VO I C E OFF): A FT E R A LL. I N S E RT I N G H E R F I NG E RS U N D E R THE L A C E OF H E R GLOV ES. . B E H A V I O U R . VOICE I S H E A R D O F F STAGE. THE POOR DEAR DOESN'T KNOW WHAT I'M CAPABLE OF WITHOUT H I M . Irs NOW THE PLE A S U R E BEG I N S F O R M E . . BUT A S TO B E L I E V I N G H I M S E L F THE ORIGIN ATOR OF MY T E M P E R A M E NT. .

ROYAL. ROBERTE R U N S TOWARD THE STA I RC A S E . TI ED H A N D I SS . LITTLE SCHOOLBOY X. M A N OF T H E A M E R I C A N C A R. S H E PASSES A LO N G T H E GALLERY LOOK I N G I NTO SHOP-WINDOWS. LOST IN REVERIE. B E FORE SHE HAS TIME TO CRY OUT A DOOR IN FRONT OF HER I S OPE N E D BY A N I N T E RLOPER WHO BARS THE ACCESS. THEN. HER LEGS LAZI LY APART. T H E MOLLUSK DELIBER­ ATELY PUTS HIS F I N G E R S ON THOSE OF ROBERTE. THROUGH A DARK PORCHWAY. NOW S H E CAN B E SEEN T H ROUGH T H E COLON N A D E OF T H E RUE DE MONTPE N S I E R IN THE P A LA I S­ W H I L E TH E MOLLUSK F I R M LY ATTAC H E S ROBE RTE'S WRISTS TO THE BARS BY M EA N S OF THE LEATH E R STRAPS. AND WI THOUT HOPE OF E SC A P I N G FROM HIS DETERMI N E D GRASP. RISKS A STEP I N TO T H E D A R K N ESS. OBSERVI NG HER AT L E I S U R E OUT OF T H E CORN E R OF H I S EYE. S H E P L A C E S H E R GLOV E D H A N D ON T H E R A I L. WORK-SHOP IN AN A B A N DO N E D FACTORY. A N D A NTOI N E . U N A BLE TO R E S I ST. T H E I N DI V I DUAL. NOW COM E S A N D SITS DOWN OPPOSITE. THE SQUAT M A N . WHOSE H E AVY B O D Y A N D FACE A R E R E M I N I SCENT O F A MOLLUSK. W I T H A S I N G L E G E ST U R E . SHE FINDS H ERSELF IN A DELAPI DATED AND WATC H E S TH E R I V E R A N D THE T R E E S G O BY. WHEN THE DOOR BANGS LOU D L Y BEHIND OF HER. H A S W A I T E D F O R THIS M O M E N T T O THROW A L L T H E L I G H T REQU I R E D ON THE SCE N E OF E V E N TS. IN T H E M I DDLE O F W H I C H . LOOM TWO PA R A L L E L BARS. WATC H ES H E R . H E CATC H ES U P WITH H E R .BACK V I E W OF ROBERTE ON T H E PLATFORM OF A B E H I N D H E R C A N BE H E A R D TH E FOOTSTEPS OF T H E MOLLUSK. W E A R I N G T H E S A M E U N I FO R M AS L I TT L E F. SO THAT BEFORE SHE K N OWS WHAT HAS H A PP E N E D ROBERTE F I N D S H E R S E LF. WHO. AS ROBE RTE. WHEN TH E BUS STOPS AT T H E COM E D I E F R A N C A I S E ROBERTE G E T S O F F Q U I C K LY. A LARGE COLON I A L FAN SLOWLY B EG I N S TO T U R N JUST ABOVE T H E M . T O R N O F F H E R S K I RT. F U LL OF U N K NOWN FOR M S T H A T SH I N E I N T H E HALF-LIGHT. THEN PASSES HER AND GOES OSTE N S I BLY BUS: S H E WATC H E S T H E PASS I N G SC E N E AS T H E B U S TRAVELS F RO M TH E C H A M B E R OF DEPUTI ES V I A THE PONT ROYA L TOWA R D T H E LOU V R E . TH E N D I SA P P E A R S . S H E HITS HARD AT H I M . WALKS B E S I D E H E R FOR A M O M E NT. S L I D E S H I S FINGERS I M PERCEPTIBLY H A N D. S H E I S C A R R I E D A LONG A N TH E MOLLUSK. WHO H A S WATC H E D H E R F ROM T H E PLATFOR M . CASUA LLY. ENJOYING THE BREEZE ON FROM T H E OPEN W I N DOW. THE SQUAT M A N DOES T H E S A M E FOR H E R A N KLES. PORCHWA Y T H E BESIDE HER. TH ROWS HER LIKE A STRAW OVER HIS SHOULDERS. H E TURNS ON THE SWITCH AND I LLU M I N ATES TH E ROO M : IT I S A OVER THE SHOT OF ROBE RTE C LOS I N G H E R EYES IS S U P E R I M POSED A S HOT O F T H E PARALLEL BARS FROM WHICH TWO LEATH E R STR A PS A R E H A N G I NG . C ROSSES HER LEGS AND R U N N I NG A H E A D OF TH E M . T O H E R F U R Y. S H E RECOG N I Z E S T H E SQUAT TH E N . HIS H A N DS SPLAYED SHE F I N DS A PLACE IN TH E SUN WH E R E HER SHE FACE ACROSS H E R THIGHS. R E LAXES. A LTHOUGH H A N D AWAY A N D GOES T O S I T I N S I D E T H E BUS. CAUGHT I N D I G N A NT. W H E N REACHES THE HA LF-OPEN DOOR I S S U C H A B U RN I NG I N V I TATION SHE C A N NOT R ESIST O P E N I N G IT. WHO H A S FOLLOWED H E R . THE BARRED BY THE I M POSI NG S I LHOU ETTE MOLLUSK. TOW A R D ROBE RTE'S ABA NDON E D GLOOM Y HA LL. ROBERTE I M M E DATELY CLOSES H E R EYES. HE TOUC H E S H E R F I N G E R S : ROBERTE WITHDRAWS HER HAND. AS A MASSIVE INDIVIDUAL TAKES UP HIS POS I T I O N ROBERTE CONTI N U E S SHE HER W I N DOW-S H O P P I NG. H A V I N G F I R ST. INTERMINABLE PASSAGEWAY T O T H E LEADS TO A TOP O F A STARICASE W H I C H VAST A N D E E R I E ROOM. R O B E RTE I M M E D I AT E LY P U L LS HER I M M EDIATELY BY T H E MOLLUSK. I M M E N S E ON A L E A D BASE.

STR OKES H E R W R I STS A N D GOES TO SIT DOWN AT THE TA B L E ROBE RTE LONG E R CLOSES CAPABLE HER OF EYES. L E FT ALONE WITH TH E BARS IN THE HER D E S E RTED S K I RT AND GYM N A S I U M . THE MOLLUSK LETS GO HER H A N D A N D S H E L OO K S AT H E RS E L F A N D S M I LES. S U PE R I M POSED O V E R THE W O R D O F FOR A MOM ENT SHE OPENS H E R EYES TO M E ET T H E I M PLACABLE MA I N TA I N S THE GAZE HOLD OF THE SQUAT MAN WHO S H E PLACES T H E CARD ON THE TABLE A N D T A K E S OUT H E R POC K E T M I R R O R . THE COAT OF H E R S U I T PIECES ON TH E TILED FLOOR. S H A DOW OF A R EC L I N I NG BODY SLIDES DOW N : IT I S L I TTLE X . GOD: " I N PRI N C I P I O E RAT VERBUM HIS QUITE U N N ECESSA R I LY ON IN A CLIMAX OF FETTE R E D ANKLE. THE BACK LE AGAI NST T H E NEMOURS IS IMMOBILIZE MOLLU SK'S GLOVE TRIES PUSH THE BODY. T H E S Q U A T M A N I M M E D I ATELY D R A G S H I M A W A Y . ROBE RTE SLAPS H I S F A C E W I T H SUCH FORCE THE G L ASS FALLS AND SPLINTERS TO 1 56 . . HAND.A N D FOOT TO THE BARS. COLLA PSES I N A DEAD F A I N T O N TH E FLOOR. A P PROACHES H I S MOUTH TO H E R OPEN PA L M . ROBE RTE PUTS ON S U D D E N LY F E E LS HORRIBLY A LONE. THE TH E SQUAT M A N AND THE GLASS RETURNS. OPENS HER C O LO N N A D E OF CAFE COV E R I N G ONE I N T E R R U PT E D B Y T H E WA ITE R'S VOI C E . A N D W H I L E WITH THE H I G H H E E L OF ON E F R E E FOOT WHICH THE SQUAT SHE MAN HAS TO NEGLECTED AWAY TO ROBERTE. H A NDS H E R H E R BAG OF B R A N DY . I N SO L E N C E . WITHOUT A WORD. F I X E S H I S TON G U E AGAI NST I T A N D B E G I N S T O TITI LLATE TH E PALM WITH I N C R E A S I N G V I OLENCE. ROBERTE: PUT OUT THE LIGHT TH EN .R OY A L AND ITS FOUNTA I N S . S M I L E S AT H E R I N SO L E NTLY. R E P U L S I NG THE MOLLUSK WITH T H E S A M E E N ERGY. . TH E SQUAT MAN D R A P E D OVER H E R S U S P E N D E R BE LT. OPE N I NG HER BAG TO TA K E OUT THE POC K E T M I RROR. ROSERTE (VOI C E OFF): HOW SOOTH I N G T H E PLA Y OF TH E FOU N TA I N S U N D E R TH E PLANE TREES. W I THOUT S E E I NG H I M . LOST IN REVERIE. THE CARD BEARS A FACSI M I L E OF HER OWN F I N G E R P R I NTS. H E SLI PS T H E R E D C A R D I N TO H E R B A G A N D POU R S A G LASS O F B R A N DY. UNTIES ROBE RTE AND DISAP­ PEARS BY THE STA I RCASE. HER LEG IS NO W H E R E A C U P O F TEA A N D TWO CROI SSANTS A R E WAITING. . STR E A M I N G WITH WATER. S H E S E E S A R E D C A R D SLI PPED I N S I DE. SHOC K E D BY HIS P I E R R E K LOSSOW S K I TRAN SLATED SY CATH E RI N E D U N C A N GARDENS OF THE PA L A I S. FINGERS BY AND WITH E M OTI O N WAIT E R : A R E Y O U A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . R O B E R T E M U R M URS: S H E EXA M I N E S IT. S H E LOOKS U P AT THE G L ASS DOME ABOVE HER WHERE TH E HOW EXQUISITE T H E C I TY I N ITS RE FLECTIONS . H E D E L I CATELY RE MOVES THE ROBERTE'S ONE. . THEN. ITS MOV E M ENT S LOW I N G A N D C H A NG I N G LITTLE BY LITTLE I NTO A LANGUOR­ OUS U N D U LATION OF THE K N E E . WHEN E MOTI ON. S H E T U R N S SLOWLY. .

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N O TORT U R E O N THE W H E E L OR THE C ROSS. FOR OUR AIM HERE I S NOT TO A TT E M PT TO ENTER I NT O THE WHY OF THIS UNLIKELY FORM OF "CONC E R N I NG T H E 'WH I P P I NG SPEC I A LI STS: WHAT WE FEAR MOST I S T H E R E VOLT O F O N E OF THE VOLUNTARY M A RTYRDOM.J A C K I E ' S ACTIV I T I E S . WHO SOM E ." S A Y S JACKIE. U S U A LLY W I TH H I S TEETH. E V E N THOUGH TH E FILES WERE O F F I C I A LLY S TO P P E D ON BLOOD.B E TW E E N OTH E R S PAY BETW E E N D E P E N D I NG O N T H E I R M E A NS. IS THE BUT C OV E R E D BIT OF BY DON. T H E Y PAY B Y THE MONTH . THE COST OF S U F F E R I N G I S C A LCULATED BY J A C K I E ON AN INDIVIDUAL BASIS. T H E N I P PLES. COURSE. THEY DON'T C O M E I N B L A C K . P R ACTIC A L QU ESTIONS. 1 960. T H E OBJ ECT-HAS BEEN C A R EF U LLY BOU N D TO AVOI D ANY R I S K OF REBELLION THERE TABLE IS AND GAGG E D TO OF A STIFLE IT T H E C R I ES. E Y E S GLAZED. I'M R U N S O N THE STATES IN ("NEVER LOT. C U S TO M E R K N EELS D O T H E M SELVES KNOWN FOR A S E V E R A L. THEY ARE ON F I L E H E R E . NO SEWING. ONE ON T H E R U E D E LA REYNIE. T H E TESTICLES (TO TH E TH IGHS). U N FOLDS O N L Y ONE IT AND R E A DS. Q U E STIONS COME TO M I N D . LOTS THEY A R E M O R E I NT E LLI G E NT THAN THE A V E RAGE PROSTITUTE. L I M ITED W H I P P I N G . LAS H E S B E H I N D THE K N E E S FROM A BLACK WH I P. JAC K I E E X P LA I N S. THEY HOW DESC R I PTION A N D SPECIFY THAT M O R E T H A N HALF O F T H E V I SITORS A S K TO B E SEWN WITH N E ED L E AND T H R E A D . THEY EARN A LOT OF M O N EY. EVEN TRY. A N D T H E OTH ERS? W ELL. I HAVE LONG T I M E. ENTITLES O N E T O A N U N L I M ITED N U M BER OF V I SITS . E V E RYON E I S SATI S F I E D W I T H O N E T O TH R E E V I S I TS PER MONTH. LEGS CROSSED. OF T H E OTH ERS. H A LF-ADM I R I NG . A NOTH E R SESSION? S ETS QU ESTION: THOUGH WHAT IS TH E NO COST OF A HELL HAS PRICE. THEY CUSTOM E R S . H ER ABSOLUTE MINIMUM PRICE AT WHATE V E R P U N I S H M E NT IS DRAWN. THE H A N D . PI M PS I N D EED. I H A V E TO B U Y SURGEON'S G LOVES. C A R E F U L" JACKIE!. U N LESS HE ASKS A BOUT THE W H I T E WOOD T R E STLE TABLE. AT MOST TWO P E R DAY. I N OUR VOC A BU LA RY. WHO HOLD I M PORTA N T POS ITIONS I N BUS I N E S S MONTHLY AND IN GO V E R N M E N T . "A NYWAY. H A LF SCOR N F U L. W H O M B E FO R E DRAWS A S M A L L P I E C E OF PAPER HELP A LITTLE. WE KNOW THEM A LL . WITH TH E VOICE OF A HOME FIXED SUM V A R I ES-AT LEAST $ 1 500 A N D $250 AND ACCOR D I N G $ 2 500. WHOM I SLICKERS-NEVER LEAST SKIN SCATOLOGY." 84 W I L L TH E N CHOOSE FROM T H E OUTFITS O N T H E W A L L T H E O N E WHICH H E WILL WEAR DURING HIS P U N I S H MENT. A LCOHOL WOU N D S . W H I C H H E W I L L H A V E T O R E M E M B E R F O R FUTURE V I S I TS. H E W I L L U S U A LLY B E A N S W E R E D WITH A W H I P. J AC K I E $ 50 . $ 1 000 THE T O J A C K I E . I ALWAYS W E A R FROM T H E P E NC I L BOX. TOO. A PRIVATE CHAT WITH A H IG H POLICE O F F I C I A L : '. TWO OTH E R S O N TH E R U E Q U I NCAM· PO I X (TEN YEARS AGO THERE WERE SEVEN OR T H E M . UNTIL T H E Y HAVE REACHED T H E PEAK OF T H E I R PLEA S U R E . WHICH PAY HER A ON LY T H E BEGI N N E R RISKS A S K I N G Q U E STIONS. ANY JACKIE: MORE." AFTER THE S U BJECT-RATH E R . G E N E R AL LY. THE CRACK O F THE BUTTOCKS. THEY A R E CA P A B L E OF M U R D E R . ONE H O U R IN THE BOX. REVEALED-RIDING W H I P IN WITH A TIRED H E R. BETW E E N ONE H U N D R E D A N D O N E H U N D R E D A N D TWENTY. TWO OUT O F IT-HOW SHOULD THERE ARE AND I PUT IT­ OF THREE ONLY REACH THROUGH COU R S E . THATS W H Y THE G I R LS l S9 . LET'S A B A N DO N THE FALSE OBJ ECTIVITY OF BUT." OF A HUNDRED E X A M PLES-LICK THE R E C E I V E FI FTY SOLES O F T H E M I STRESS' BOOTS. THAT. REDUCED TO THE O N E·TI M E S I M PLEST EXPRES· TH E E X P LA I N . IT M I G H T SAY-TH I S IS R U B B E R GLOVES. THEY DON'T HAVE BECAUSE A BO U T S LI C K . THE U S U A L GOAL OF A VISIT TO A PROSTITUTE? J A C K I E'S A N SW E R : "MORE THA N HALF LEAVE WITHOUT REACH I NG IT. D I A LOGU E SIONS. STA I N E D WITH LONG BLACK M A R KS . BUT C U STOM E R S ARE EXCEPTION: O N E . F I RST O F A LL: HOW DO THE VICTI M S R E A C H ORG A S M . L I K E MOST OF TH E OTH E R PROSTITUTES. E V E RYTH I N G D R I E D U P. T H R E E DAYS LATER. "YOU W I LL BE S L A V E 84." MANY O F TH E M ARE THERE? "REGULA RS. THAT I T I S A SEWING TABLE. COTTON SOA K E D NOVEMB E R 2 5 . "THATS T H E M I RACLE.H E GI R LS L I K E T H O S E YOU A R E T A L K I N G A BOUT. THUS. JACKIE WILL AVERAGE T I M E : O N E HOU R. IS WHAT ONE N EE D S TO KNOW OF GENERA LLY. LOOK. TH E Y AT 200· I S S U F F I C I E N T TO C A UTERIZE A R E 'WH I P P I N G S P EC I A LI STS: T H E R E'S O N E O N T H E R U E BLO N D E L . BUT WITH THEM." EIGHT ON THAT STR E E n . THE OPERATIONS OBVIOUSLY ONLY TAKE PLACE COULDN'T TA K E P H Y S I CA L LY. T H E Y A R E DANGEROUS. ROUGH LY. THE MONTHLY PAYMENT ECONOM I ST. IN THAT CASE.JACK I E SITS ON A THRONE PLAC E D ON A SHAKY P L A T FO R M . N O T T H E O N E S F O R DOI NG T H E D I S H E S . "NOW YOU CAN REA LLY SAY YOU'RE LUCKY: YOU DREW T H E E A S I EST P U N I S H M E N T!" O N L Y A FT E R TH I S W I L L JAC K I E I N FO R M TH E CUSTO M E R OF H I S N U M BE R . "TH E Y L E A V E I N SH REDS A N D T H E Y R ETU R N . SIX OF T H E M .

BEG TO BE I WAS THREE MONTHS PREGNANT WHEN I A R R I VED. T W I C E A W E E K. PLUS.R E I N E F O R RICH P R EG N A N T WOM E N . IN THE "IN FRONT OF THE BAR. NOW THAT D I SGU STS M E . I'M GOI N G T O DO I T TOO. AT A B A R IN BELLEVI LLE. R E N E . "A S S O M ETI M E S . THE ROD AND THE N E I G H BOR WOMAN FROM THE LITTLE STR E ET ON THE LEFT-I . ALLOWED TO B R I N G TH E I R EITHER TO BE W H I PPED BY HER IN TH I S SETTI NG. "SOMETI M E S I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A LION T H A T C A U S E S T E R R I BLE TROUBLE. W E LCOMED." SHE SAYS. BUT WH AT? W H O S E E K T O COM B I N E T H E WHI P W I TH THOSE OF THE "WELL.T I E THEM UP S E C U R E L Y A N D R E LE A S E TH EM ONLY WHEN THEY ARE COM P LETELY C A L M E D DOW N. WHOSE BE PR ESENCE. "TH E Y TRACK MEl BUT BASICALLY I LIKE THEMI T H E LAST TIME I WENT ON VACATION ALONE-USUALLY I A LWAYS HAVE ONE OR TWO OF THEM WHO COME FOR T H E W E E K END: I MAKE THEM STAY FOR WHOLE DAYS IN T H E OUTHOU SES AT THE BACK OF THE GARDEN -AT T H E END OF TEN DAYS. AT THRITEEN I FELL I N LOV E. WELL T H E N . CLEVER SYSTEM OF M UTU A L D I SCIPLI N E WHICH SHE D E M A N DS. W E D N E SDAY AND SATU R DAYS-FROM O'CLOC K .A R E THREE O'C LOC K TO EIGHT LACK OF USE-IS LOOK. CASE OF CAN E X P L A I N E D TO T H E POLICE." SAYS JAC K I E WITH A BIG HOW I N D U LGENT S M I LE. CROWD IS E S P EC I A LLY SUCH ON SAT U R D A Y S . SO. I HAVE THE I D EA THAT YOU STAY FOR HOURS WITH T H E S A M E GUY. C E R TA I N C U STO M E R S W I V ES. DAMN AN E V E R YT H I N G I'M A BOUT IT. $50 PER MONTH . T H E N IN AN HOOD. TH EY'RE P I SS E D TOO. I N A B A K E RY." SETTING: TH E THRONE ROOM. A FTER WORK. "BUT THAT DOESN'T LAST LONG. . I GOT A JOB. BUT THE N U RSES GOT $ 1 00. H E WOR K E D I N I M PORT-EXPORT. I J U ST M A NAGED TO GET BY. O N E OF THE ODDITI E S OF PROSTITUTION L EG I S L A T I O N IS THAT ITS E Y E S W H E N I LEFT THE HOME. W H E N I FOU N D OUT I T R E A LLY WORKS. I GAVE B I RT H O N M Y SEVENTE ENTH B I RTHDAY. OFTEN. SPITE O F THE WOR K I NG T H E STRE ET. ACCOUNTING E V E RYTH I N G I DO N ' T GIVE F I R M I N A N OTH E R N E IG H BOR­ I'VE A DON E . H E'S A GOOD K I D. I M I SSED M Y PREY. SOM E OF T H E M W E A R B LACK VELVET M A S K S I N ORDER T O R E MA I N ANONYMOUS. K . EXPLA I N TO A TWENTY-TH R E E YEAR OLD I N S PEC­ TOR. DEVOTED T O THOSE C U STO M E R S PLEA S U R E S OF T H E G ROUP. IN PARIS. SO I LEAVE. SO. BUT I ' M A FOOL. M Y FATH E R WAS A CONTRAC­ TOR. I ' M SIXTEEN W H E N I GET P R E G N ANT. ON SOM EON E FROM IN TH E N E I G H BORHOOD T ROU B L E . THIS IS TO L E R A T E D BUT N OT BORN IN N O R M A N DY." BOU L E V A R D R I C H A RD-LENOI R . I WAS U S U A L LY ABOUT A DO Z E N M E N W H O 'SU B M I T A N D S U F F E R TOGETH E R . C A N NOT H A N D L E SHE CALLS ON A IT. TELLING HER LIFE STO R Y . WITH T H E HELP OF AN OLD F R I E N D F R O M THE HOM E FOR R E M A I N CLOS E D A S LONG A S T H E R E IS ON LY ONE " P R I E STESS. I WOULD HAVE L I K E D TO L E A R N . HOWEVER. W H E R E C O U L D I G O ? A HOM E F O R U N W E D M OT H E RS. A L L ALONE. J AC K I E G E N ERA LLY LIM ITS H E RSELF TO G I V I N G DI RECTI O N S A N D S U C C E EDS IN H A V I N G H E R CUSTOMERS THEM SELVES TORTURE T H E I R C H A I N E D BROTH ERS. . OR (MORE OFTEN ) T O I N ITI ATE H E R T O THE PLEASURES OF SUFFERI NG. HE D I D N 'T GET A LONG WITH MY MOTH ER. AT THOSE T I M ES. BUT I H A V E N O E X P E R I E NCE. O. . THAT YOU HAVE TO TALK TO H I M . THATS WHAT I E A R N ED. EROTIC SHE A LSO A M ONG REQU I R ES TH E M T O PLAY TH E M S E LV E S A N D O N L Y GAMES GRABS TH E W H I P H E RS E L F W H E N TH I N G S GET OUT OF H A N D .E. BUT YOU CAN SEE THAT THEY'RE A M ATEURS. SEATED ON TH E N A R ROW SOFA W H I C H oo U B L E S AS A BED-DNE H A S THE I M PRESSION THAT I T HAS SHRUNK FROM GROUP D I SC I P L I N E AT J A C K I E·S. THE MORE THEY LAUGH. . I M M E D I ATELY I SAY YES." EDGE OF T H E BED. WHAT I REGRET IS NOT H A V I N G E D UCATION. TH E R E ARE WITHOUT QU ESTION . FAST. A N OLD E R G U Y. M A R R I E D A N D A LL. T H E FAT H E R OF M Y KID WAS THE ONLY MAN I KNEW S E X U A LLY. DO I N G . OR THE CLEANING I M M ED I ATELY I SAY TO M YSELF. NOR EVEN WITH K I DS M Y OWN AGE. AND. I FOU N D A JOB ON THE CAGE. SO THEY LAUGH ALL THE T I M E : THE MORE T H E GUYS SUFFER. I D I D N 'T GET A LONG W I T H E I T H E R OF TH E M . THERE WERE G I R LS THAT J A C K I E . A PENSIVE S O M ETH I N G A BOUT H E R G A Z E . H E WA R N E D M E THAT H E WANTED NONE O F T H AT. I WANTED TO COME HOME. M Y SON W I L L BE TH I RT E E N N EXT OCTOB ER. T H A T Y O U H A V E T O G E T U N D E R T H E S H E ETS WITH HIM. A L L OF T H I S D I D N 'T LAST LONG. JACKI E. . . I'LL START AT THE B EG I N N I NG. JAC K I E RARELY AGREES. I H A D TO F I N D SOM ETH I NG : A N A I D AT A C L I N IC I N BOURG. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO A NYTH I NG RIGHT: S O I CONFESS TO MY MOTH E R .LA. I F I N D OUT A L I TT L E ABOUT HOW M UC H THEY MAKE. I'M INTRIGUED. AND TRY TO U N W E D MOTH ERS. WITH THIS." W H E R EA S TH E PRESENCE OF ANOTH E R WOMAN I M M E DIATELY OPENS THE DOOR TO PROSECUTION FOR P ROC U R I NG . J U ST OUT OF LAW SCHOOL. "TH EY'RE T I M ID. THAT TH E OTH E R WOMAN I S A C U STOM E R L I K E T H E OTH ERS . . "TH EY A R E N'T TRICKY. THE A RA B PI M PS I N 1 60 .

H E LPED NEVER M E. TH E R E W A S SUDDENLY NOBODY LEFT I N T H E DANCE H A LL. TOMORROW AT SIX: I WENT TH E R E WITH T H E E N V E LOPE BUT I NS I D E I H A D P U T TOILET P A P E R• . THE WORDS. . THI NGS W E R E GOING VERY W ELL. A LL THAT CAME SEVERAL TEETH. • • • I W A S N 'T EVEN T W E N TY-O N E . ON THE GROUND. WITH THE H E L P OF A F R I E N D . I TOLD HIM ABOUT M Y S P EC I A LTIES IN PA RIS. FOR HOW LONG? I H A V EN'T MADE LOVE WITI:I A CUSTOMER FOR TH R E E AND A HALF YEARS. ESPECIALLY BECAUSE OF WHAT I WAS WEA R I NG. B U T H E WAS FLA B B E RGASTED. HE GOT U N DRESSED. A ROUND UTTLE BY L I TTLE. IT WAS TWO O'CLOCK I N TH E MOR N I NG. BUT A FT E R SEVERAL DAYS "WHERE WAS I? YES. I PAID A P R O T E CT I O N FEE OF $2 500. THE F I R S T C U STOM E R S A I D TO M E : ' C A N YOU DO A QUICKI E?' I A N S W E R ED: 'WHArs THAT?' I D I DN'T K N OW A N YT H I N G . AFTE R D I N N E R . THEY FIGURE OUT T H A T TH E Y CA N'T TOUCH ME. SHOWED U P. LITTLE DANCE H ALL. 'THAT W I L L COST YOU A C-NOTE: YOU "AFTER ALL T H AT.J E A LOUS GUY. I DON'T REMEMBER TO WHOM . TH E M . I HE C A N'T SPIED SAY ON HE ME WASN'T I N THE NICE. BEGG I NG ME TO STOP. R U E DES FRANCS-BOURGEOIS. I WENT TO TH E R U E Q U I N C A M POIS. OF A WELL I IT H A PPEN E D SITTING ON ONE FO U R T E E N T H . S O OF COURSE.J E A LOUS. H E W A S F U N N Y THAT WAY:' B U S I N ESS RACK. A N A R A B WHO BUYS M E A DRINK A T TH E BAR. BUT I A L R E ADY KNEW TRA N S LATED BY CHARLES CLARK 161 . I WASN'T WOR R I E D ABOUT THE A R A BS. WITH H I M . A FRI E N D OF THE HOTEL M A N A G E R . A L I M O PULLS UP. T H E F I R ST. H E DIDN'T WANT T O TA K E ANY. I ESCAPED TO M A R S E I LLES. I HAD ONLY BEEN TH E R E TWO DAYS WHEN GUYS THE LIMO LEFT. ONLY . I W A S A K I D. I K N O W T H A T Irs F O R M E . AT THIS TI M E . TH E R E BUT.J UST T O S P I T E H I M . ONCE. A N D BECAUSE O F M Y DOUGH. IN MARSEI LLES. ON MY H A N DS A N D KNEES. TH E OTH E R GIRLS GOT . I TH I N K. ·WH E N LITTLE I RECOV E RED. TO CONTI N U E. THE B U LLET GOES THROUGH M Y SHOU LDER A N T E A R S U P M Y C H I N . THE FANCIEST OF THEM ALL. NOT FOR MEl FROM THE BEGI N N I NG. I HAD THE BLACK D R ESS AND HIGH H E ELS. I MOVE IN. WE HAD D I N N E R .BELLEVILLE. I G O T O U T A N D C A M E B A C K TO PA R I S . HE WANTED TO S L E E P WITH M E . .J U LY . I MET MY SON'S FATH E R IN DIEPPE. I WAS "O N E F I N E DAY I H A D H A D ENOUGH. FINA LLY. T H E Y W A N T TOO MUCH. I ' L L A LWAYS R E M E M B E R M Y F I RST D A Y TH E R E . SEE. T H E THEM. H E WAS T R E M B L I NG. IT D I D N 'T WORK. IT WAS MY GUY FROM PA R I S . I STAYED THERE. A N D M Y STRENGTH. THEY S T I L L T R I E D T O G ET M E A S SOON A S I LEFT THE HOSPITAL. L I K E EVERYON E ELSE. I STAYED W I TH HIM. I BAR ELY H A V E T I M E TO GET UP. I T WAS O N T H E R U E A U B R Y-LE-BOUC H E R .J E A LOUSI STREET AND SLAPPED M E A S I WALKED BY-I NSTEAD OF BEING H APPY THAT I W A S WORKI NG-BECA U S E H E SAID I C A M E l T E R R I B LY .F I V E SIC I U A N . BOTH ANKLES • • • FROM U N I Q U E ABOUT M E I S M Y GAZE. • • ARTICLES. WAS A C A F E TERRACE. I WENT. NOT BAD FOR A PROSTITUTE. I SAY NO. I SPECI A L I ZED. I HAVE TO M A R R Y H I M . THEN H E TELLS M E . MY TH E R E HEAD WERE IN . I COULDN'T TH R E E R E S I ST. I WOULD H A V E B E E N HIT RIGHT I N THE H E A D I f' I H A DN'T STOOD U P. A N D I TREATED HIM LIKE A CUSTOM E R . AND. WASN'T MEAT TH I RTY T H R O W S A T TEN BUCKS. S O I ACTED T W E N T Y. IT'S FUNNIER. T H E R E H E WAS. B ETT E R FOR SHOU LDN'T H A V E D R U N K WITH M E . A SHOULDER. EVEN THOUGH H E H A D A W O M A N ON TH E S I D E . SO. HIS EYES BULGED. HE D I D N 'T KNOW WHAT H E WANTED. B A RTE N D E R . PUT A H U N D R E D B U C K S I N A N E N V E LOPE A N D B R I N G I T T O T H E DOOR . I GOT THOUGH. I W ASN'T AS STRONG THEN A S I AM TODAY. I H A D TO GET M A R R I ED: A YEARS OLD. -I CHANGED HOTELS I M M ED I ATELY. BUT S H E W A S FRIGID. . A I HAD SOM E FRIENDS BAD. I GO TO LES H A LL E S WITH A FRI E N D WHO KNOWS A HOT E L IT WAS BETTER TO ROUGH UP A GUY FOR TO G E T F U C K E D ALL DAY F O R T H I R TYI $ 50 THAN M A N A G E R . T H E C H E E K-BO N E . TELLS ME THAT IF I'M NOT M A R R I ED. POOR WOM A N I LIKE I WANTED TO SEE H I M . I'VE GOT M Y PLACE. WELL O. K . BETW E E N TOPOL A N D T H E R U E Q U I N C A M PO I S . I M A D E IT T O A TAXI A N D WENT T O T H E HOSPITAL A L L A LONE. THAT Irs FORBIDDEN. W H AT'S OF THEY BEAT CUSTOM E R S TAUGHT M E. I WHO WAS THE ONE WHO PA I D FOR TH E HOTEL. T H E I N ST R U M ENTS.

M. M A N Y OTH E R FACTORS PLA Y E D A PART I N H I S DECISION TO S E E M E A S I S H A L L I N D ICATE LATE R ON. SOLITARY WALKS D U R I NG HIS HOLI DAYS. HIS E M PLOYERS HELD DISCOVERED H I M A FT E R H E HAD CONS U LTED H E R A BOUT A H EMOPTYSI S W H I C H PROVED T O B E O F H I M I N S U C H H IG H ESTEE M THAT H E WAS ABLE TO OBTA I N S P EC I A L WOR K I N G C O N D I T I O N S . H E LOATHED T H E IDEA OF P E RSONA LLY E X E RTING A N Y FOR M OF A UTHOR­ ITY OR OF HOLDING A COM M A N D I N G POSITION A N D CON S I D E R E D BOTH G I V I NG A N D R E C E I V I N G ORDERS TO B E S U R E WAYS O F LOSI N G H I S F R E E DO M I H E WAS VERY FOND O F THIS F R E E DO M WHICH I NVOLVED TRACES I N DICATING DISCUSSED H I S STATE W I T H H I M A N D ADVISED H I M TO SEE M E. HE M IGHT A LSO BE HOPI NG FOR AN OPPORTU­ N ITY TO BE H U M I LIATED. [ M R . HAD NEVER HIS LONG. GOING ON THE M R . M. I N SHORT. A PP E A R A NC E S T H A T C E RT A I N T H R E S HO L D S Q U A NTITAT I V E C ON S I D E RA T I O N S A N D I NT E N S ITY FACTORS C A N M O D I FY T H E QUALITATIVE A SPECT OF A P H E N O M E NON AND ITS S E NSE. M·s STORY] EXTRE M E LY C A R E F U L TO CONCEA L H I S P E RVER­ SION FROM THOSE A RO U N D HIM. M. HE WAS A S S U M PTION THAT M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES ARE NO EXCEPTION. R E M A RKING THAT H I S CASE M IGHT B E USEFUL TO OTH E R S WITH T H E S A M E PERVERSION AS HIS. BUT WHAT A CONTRAST BETW E E N THESE OUTER AND HIS NAKED BODYI PROV I D E D BE E XC E E D E D . ACQU I ESCED AT ONCE. A R A D I O LO G I S T COLLEAGU E OF MINE H I G H L Y S K I L L E D T EC H N I C I A N IN RADIOELECTRICITY B E FO R E HIS RETI R E M E NT. M:S APPEARANCE AND H A BITS W E R E THOSE OF A CALM AND COLLECTED PERSON. AND IN SHORT-LIVED D U RATION. AND A T THE SAME TIME TO BETTER U N D E RSTA N D A BO U T H I S C U RIOUS STATUS. H I S D A I L Y E X I STENCE WAS S I NG U L A R LY DEVOID OF A N Y MORA L M A SOC H I SM . H E ALSO A D M I TT E D THAT B Y A G R E E I NG TO CONS U LT ME. H E HAD B E E N A MR. M R. HE LIVED I N A S M A LL S U B U R B A N COTTAGE WITH H I S A DOPTED DAUGHTER A N D H E R HUSB A N D. M Y COLLEAGU E E XA M I N E D HIM AND MADE A C A R E F U L INVENTORY O F A L L PERVERSE PRACTICES: SHE P A R T I C U LA R A R R A N G E M E N T S A F F EC T I N G H I S HOURS A N D H I S VACATIONS. WAS 65 W H E N HE C A M E TO ME FOR THE F I RST TIME. C U RIOSITY H I M S E LF BEEN SATI S F I E D: H E H A D R E A D A L L TH E R E WAS O N T H E SUBJ ECT OF M A SOCH I S M A N D HAD ALWAYS B E E N DISA PPOI NTED I N H I S F I N DI NGS. I SHALL DESCRIBE T H E M I N DETA I L 1 62 . ACTUALLY.

USE BUT GIVE ME IT TO ME UP THE ASS. THONGS O F FLESH HAD BEEN CUT ALONG H I S BACK. W H I C H H A D C O M ­ PLETELY C E A S E D DURING THIS P E R IOD. W A S N O T LYI NG. "SO IT WOULD LOOK LIKE A VAG I N A. AND THE H A RDER. I ' M A SLUT. EXC E PT FOR THE FACE. MANY PHONOGRAPH N E E DLES W E R E I M B E DD E D I N T O B EG I N WITH. CAUSED IN N O S M A L L A MOUNT. T H E BONE SU RFACE WAS ROUGH AFTER THE A M PUTATION AND H E H A D FILED IT EVEN. -BIG PRICKS ENTER H E RE" ON THE BUTTOCKS: IN FRONT. M R . T H E P E N I S W A S BLUE A LL O V E R . R I G H T B R EAST WAS LITERA LLY A B S E NT. WHORE. THE BETTER:' "I'M A SLUT. N E EDLE WAS I M BEDDED I N THE PENIS ITSELF. M:S SCARS AND MARKS HIS OF TORTU RE WERE E A S I LY BE V E R I F I ED. THE D A I LY I N G E ST I O N A WHOM HE HAD S E LECTED I N THE HOPE O F F I N D I N G A N EXPE R I E N C E D PARTN E R. WAS A L M OST COMPLETELY COV E R E D WITH TATTOOS: "ALL BIG COCKS W E LCOM E . A FT E R LATERA LLY. IT I S I NTERESTING T O NOTE THAT NONE O F T H E S E TORTURES WAS FOLLOWED BY THE S L I G H T E ST SUPPU RATION. N A I LS A N D HAD BEEN I N FLICTED ON OF URINE HIS AND SECOND T I M E BUT THE M A R R IAGE SOON E N D E D I N DIVORCE : H I S SECOND W I F E WAS A PROSTITUTE P IECES OF GLASS BODY. FROM SPATTE R I N G OUT (AS WOULD DON E B E C A U S E O F R I V U LETS O F RED-HOT M ETA L ROD SWEAT) BY I N TRODU C I N G A I NTO THE L EA D. MR. THE I NT E R N I ST A PP A R E NT ASKED MR. A N D YET I H A D VAGUE DOUBTS CONCE R N I NG IN PA RTICULAR WHAT H E RELATED A BOUT H I S W I FE AND A SPEC I FIC CASE OF AGGRESSIVE ACTING OUT." "I'M A C O M PA S S . I'M NOT A WOM A N . L E FT TH E MENTIONED ABOVE D E F I N IT E TRACES WHICH I NCONTESTABLY PROVED THAT M R . O N E FEELS. I ' M A WHORE. WHY SHOULD HE LIE ABOUT C E RTIAN DETA I LS WH E N OTH E RS W E R E UNDENIA BLY TRUE? I CAN NOT SAY. HE LEGALLY A DOPTED N E EDLES WITH A H A N DL E AND THAT WAS USED TO BEAT H I M. M:S MORALITY 1 63 . HIS N A V E L WAS A SORT OF CRATER: BEEN POURED I NTO IT WHICH IT SOMETI M E S DOUBTED THE ACC URACY O F C E R TA I N UNVERIFIABLE FACTS WITHOUT B E I N G A B L E TO MOLTEN LEAD HAD WAS PREVENTED HAVE JUSTIFY MY DOUBTS IN ANY WAY. LOVE SWALLOWI N G PISS AND S H I T. M. GI R D E D THE B A S E OF THE PENIS A N D TH E SCROTU M . M Y MOUTH A N D M Y ASSHOLE A R E FOR BIG PRICKS. SUCH AS N E E DLES. H A D A PROFO U N D EFFECT ON M.AND THUS POSSI B LY MODIFY CERTA I N CONCEP­ GEN ITALIA H A D NOT B E E N SPA R E D . AND YET (SHOU LD I ATTR I B UTE THIS TO A DEFENSIVE ATTITUDE ON M Y PART?1 I EQUALLY STA RT L I N G . A W H E E L FULL OF PHONOGRAPHIC ARRESTED FOR H E R I LLEGAL ACTIVITIES A N D H E WANTED TO AVOI D THAT POSSI B I LITY A T ALL COSTS. H I S SMALL TOE WAS M I SS I NG: IT HAD A PP A R ENTLY BEEN SECTI ONED WITH A HACKSAW B Y M R. N E EDLES I NT O HAD HIS BEEN BODY. ONE FOU N D THE FOLLOW I N G I M P R E S S I V E LIST: -I'M A SLUT. I'LL M A K E YOU THE S T U P I D E ST CUNT ANOTH E R RI NG. BUT WAS COMPLETELY CURED A FTER TWO YEARS SPENT IN A SANATO R I U M . WITH A N A R ROW. P I E R C E D BY SHARP OBJ ECTS A N D TORN OFF. LASTLY." " I L I K E I T U P T H E A S S . BY THE TORTURES SHE H A D E N D U R E D . TH E F A C T THAT S H E W A S A PROSTITUTE A N D A P R EC U R ESS PUT M. HOOKS WERE M. PERHAPS A S THE R E S U LT O F I N D I A I N K I N J ECTED I NTO A V E I N . P U S H E D N EA R LY EVEN I N TO T H E TUBERC U LOSIS I N H I S T U R N. WHICH I DARE SAY BOR D E R E D ON BLAC K H U MO U R SINCE THE P E N I S COULD "DEVI ATE" TH E THEREBY A S S E RT I N G N E E DL E O F A ITS P OW E R . TIONS OF MASOCH I S M . ACTING O N THE ORDERS OF A PARTNER. TH ROUGH WHICH PASSED SO THAT MR." A L L OF T H I S COULD TORTU R E S MR. " A N D THE TESTES AS THE X-RAYS R E V E A L ED. BUT R E MOVABLE T H I S TIME. M . H A V I N G B E E N S E A R E D W I T H A R E D-HOT IRON. H E WAS OVERCO M E B Y D E PR E S S I O N AND D E V E LO P E D PULMONARY WHILE A M A N P E N ETRATED HIM. I N ADDITION TO THE PENISES TATTOOE D O N HIS T H I G H S. EVEN A FT E R H I S MASOC H I STIC PRACTICES. TO SHOW H I M VARIOUS INSTRUME NTS OF TORTU R E : BOA R D S I MB E D D E D WITH H U N DREDS OF N E E DLES. I N D A NG E R OF BEING EXPOSED IF SHE WERE EXCREM ENT OVER CAUSE ANY PERIOD O F YEARS D I D NOT U PSET. H I S R ECTUM W A S E N LA RGED. ESPEC I A LLY WITH M E N H E P I C K E D U P S I N C E TH E RELATIONS W I T H H I S FOR M E R PARTN ERS H A D RAPIDLY DWINDLED T O NOT H I NG. COM E LIKE A "I'M F E M A LE." "I THE P R E P U C E H A D BEEN MADE I N TO A S O R T O F A MAGNETIZED C U S H I O N F I L L E D W I T H PA RAFFI N. HE MARRIED A FOREIGN BOD I ES. A STE E L R I NG OF S E V E R A L CENTIM ETE RS I N D I A M ETER H A D B E E N P E R M A N E N ­ T L Y A F F I X E D T O THE T I P OF TH E PENIS. H I M S E LF." "I LOVE TO BE BEATEN ALL OVER. THE T I P O F THE GLANS H A D BEEN SLIT WITH A RAZOR BLADE SO A S T O WIDEN THE ORI FICE. " " U P WITH M A SOC H I S M :' -I ' M NOT A MAN. I'M FUCKM EAT. M : S BODY. M . A N D MOST R E M A R K A B LY. B E G A N AN EW. COULD B E SUSPENDED HER DEATH." AROUND." PHOTOGRAPHS WERE TAK E N DU R I N G TH I S PROCESS. E V E R Y WH E R E THORAX." -I'M AN A M B U LATING SHIT-HOUSE. HE ALSO I NT I M AT E D T H A T H I S W I F E'S LAC K OF SHOCKED HIM. GOOD.

CORRESPO N D E NC E WAS PRACTICALLY TH E ON LY CONTACT H E M A I N TA I NED WITH HIS REAL D A U G HTER. HIS MOTH E R WAS VERY AFFECTION· ATE. H E E V E N REMEMBERED HER NAME. B U T LAT E R ON I T CAME BACK TO M E . N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTI V I ­ TIES WHICH ONE OC C U P I E D CAN SAY HIS DREAMS THE AS HE GOT OLDER. 1 64 .W A S CITED BY WRITERS ON IN M. IN SEXUAL "GA M ES" HE ENGAG I NG I N P A R A L L E L. FACT T H A T M . TH E HIS NOR M A L. RESS B E I NG AT FOLLOWED CLOSELY ALL OF PROG­ M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N C I E S CEASED BETW E E N H I S 4 S T H A N D H I S SOTH YEA R I S T O B E NOTED. A N D Y E T . NOT D A R I N G TO ACTU A L L Y C O M M I T C E R TA I N D E E D S . BUT W H E N T H I S WAS OVER HIS MASOCH I STIC PRACTICES STA RTED IN E A R N EST A N D G R E W IN I M PORTANCE. I F I C A N J U DG E AGAIN. IT SEEMS D E F I N ITE THAT CONSTITU­ S I N G U LA R PAST W A S PE RSONS I NVOLVED. H E BECA M E THE TA RGET OF M A LT R E A T M E N T AS PECT BY HIS CLASSMATES. D E V E LOPME NTS O F THIS HAVE P R O M PT E D ME TO PREFER THE KIND TERM WOU L D A LWAYS ASSU M E T H E F E M A L E R O L E . PUSH N E EDLES TH ROUGH H I S A R M T H E MSELVES BUT WOU L D G I V E HIM ORDERS T O DO SO. HE TOLD M E THAT HE DID NOT TH I N K SHE W A S M A SOC H I STIC. TH E N TWO. I H A D B E C O M E NOR M A L VERIFIED PRACTICES BEGAN W H E N H E W A S 1 0 Y E A R S OLD. OTH E R THAN TH E THIS I M PO RTA N T CONSTITUTI O N A L FACTOR. THE HIS T I M E. D E SC R I B E D H I S PARE NTS AS HAV I N G B E E N VERY CON S I D E RATE AND K I N D TO H I M ." M A SOCH I STIC PRACTICES W H E N S H E W A S E L E V E N Y E A R S OLD (SHE WOU L D S T I C K N E E D L E S UNDER M . " A N OT H E R T I M E D U R I N G O U R T A L K S H E M A D E T H E FOLLOW I N G READ ON STATE M E N T "AT ABOUT A B OO K H E FIRST HAD P E R F E CT L Y H E T E ROSEXUAL N A TU R E TOLD M E AND LESS AND L E S S M A SOC H I STIC.P U B E RTY. H E WAS A N ONLY CHILD AND HIS PARE NTS WERE NOT YOUNG WHEN HE WAS BO R N . A MOST C U R I O U S T H I N G DESERVES CON S I D E R ­ ATION. F A K I RS. O R D I N ARY. HOW E V E R . H E B EC A M E AWARE O F HIS AND HIS P U N I S H M E NT· S E E K I N G TO URINE AT (IT I S A F A C T T H A T H I S E A R L I E R D R E A M S M A S OC H I STIC. W E R E AT T H E S A M E TIME I N D U LG I NG IN S H A R E D M A SOCH I STIC R E LA­ TH E I R B R I E F M A R R I A G E ." I NC O R PO R A T I N G TH E N FA M I LY L I F E HE H A D C R E ATED AND TO W H I C H H E WAS VERY M UCH ATTAC H E D . ' S PA R T I C U LA R . ALTHOUGH E N G A G I N G AS I HAVE STA T E D I N N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTIVITIES. OFTEN BAC K E D OFF. W A S A D DED. O N E PE RSON. A N D SHE LIKED THE IT W H E N I DEA OF I MADE HER SUFFER. B U T I F O N E CON S I D E R S T H E FACT THAT LATER ON M." MARRIAGE MASO­ HIS DEVELOPED TO ITS F U L LEST M. I THOUGHT I T WAS THAT I N H I S D R E A M S H E W A S WITH " A VOLUPTUOUS WOMA N WITH W H O M CLOSE T O B E I N G MY SEXUAL ACTI V I T I E S W E R E HE ADDED THAT "MY H O R R I B LE.) TH U S M:S M A SO­ STRICTLY PENCHANT A TT R A C T I O N C H I S M D E SC R I B E D A V E R I TABLE C U RV E STA RTING FROM J UST B E FO R E T H E MOMENT T H E CLINICAL BOA R D I N G SCHOOL PERIOD DURING HE WENT THROUGH A SHORT A C ER TAIN R E PUGNANCE WHICH S I G N S A P P E A R E D -TH E C O NSTI TUTIONAL FACTOR WHICH M . IN A DDITION. A FTER B E I N G SODOMIZED B Y A M O N I TOR. HAD N E I G H BORHOOD E A T I N G H E R EXCR E M E NT. "I WAS REA LLY AFTER THE HIS LOCAL SLUT. AT T H E B EG I N N I NG O F T H I S P E R I O D H E STI LL H A D A F E W H O M OSEX U A L ENCOUNTERS BUT SOON ALL SCHOOL BUT W I THOUT THIS IS VERY OVERLY SEVERE. A S IT WERE. M . MARRIED HIS COUSIN WHO HAD BEGU N HER THAT SHE 1 0 CHI LDREN.R I G H T P R E . HE SA I D THAT " I W A S D I S G U STED. I T WAS THEN THAT H I S P E RV E R S E ACTI VITI E S C E A S E D A LTOGETH ER. M ." THE A PP E A R A N C E EARLY I N LIFE OF E R OG E NOUS M A S OC H I S M -OFTEN S U B J ECT. AS H E SAID." I NT E R EST H A D D I E D O UT. O N E M I G H T S A Y .'S CASE. "I L I K E D I T W H E N SHE M A D E ME S U F F E R ." WERE BY MY D R E A MS. I NT I MATELY L I N K E D T O M .THE YOUNG GIRL WHO WAS THEIR MAID DURING W I F E . THAT PERVERSION. WAS V E R Y ATTA C H E D TO BOTH OF THEM A N D GRA D U A L· LY GREW QU ITE HIS C LO S E FATH E R QUITE TO HIS FATH ER M. TH E Y DARED NOT. W A S 46 OR 47 AT THE TIME. BUT LATER ON IT C A M E BACK TO M E. A N D MASOCHISTIC MOVEMENT R A T H E R THAN M A SOC H I S M .H I S B E E N T H E SOLE PERVERSION SEEMS T O HAVE ACTOR ON S T A G E . M . H I S FATH E R WAS A LITTLE MORE R I G I D . STI L L H A D F A I R LY F R E Q U E N T NOCTU R N A L E M I SS I O N S BECO M E A FT E R E ROTIC DREAMS THAT IN M. WAS 2 1 (WHO WHEN HE D I SCOV E R E D DIED AND FATHER H A D J U ST HE WAS WHOSE C O R R ESPON D E N C E EXA M I N I NG ) PROBABLY H A D M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N · CIES AS W E LL. S H A R E D TH E I R S E X U A L EXISTENCE FOR T H R E E YEA RS. TO HIS " N O R M A L" S E X U A L I TY TO M E ET AN ECONO M I C N E E D-AT LEAST O N E M A Y SU PPOSE TH I S I S THE C A S E . FOR A A PPA RENTLY H E L D HIM BACK. F R O M T H E N ON. I F O N E C O NS I D E R S T H E D E V E LO P M E N T O F T H I S CASE. HAD "EXC E PT FOR T H E FACT TIONAL FACTO R S WEIGH H EAVI LY I N T H E B A L A N C E : M. H I M S E L F F I N D S V E R Y I M PORTA NT-TO THE POINT LO N G WHERE THE P E R V E RSION FROM CEASED. KNOWN NOTH I N G O F TO T H E HIS CAME A N OTH E R P E R SO N I NTO TH E I R ACTIVITIES. ' S DESTI N Y . HAD BEEN CAPABLE OF SEXUAL OF WHICH C L A SSMATES. A T 4 Y E A R S OF AGE HAD SEEN A LITTLE G I R L IN HIS P E R V E R S E PRACT I C E S C E A S E D COM PLETELY. H E LIVED COM P LETELY WITH I N THE FRAM EWORK O F TH E TIONS. N EV E RTHE LESS. IS OBVIOUS. HIS AND IT SATI S F I E D CHISM ME. I H A D EVOLVED. F O R I N STANCE. M.'S IN H E R F I N G E R N A I LS) L O N G B E FORE THEY K N E W E A C H OTH E R . THAT HIS M.

M . WHEN C L E A R E R. BUT M E A N S TO A TTA I N A GOA L WHICH I S A LWAYS P L E A S U R E . M. IT WAS PA I N T H A T T R I GG E R E D MY K E E N E S T POS S I B L E P L E A S U R E . I N SHOWS T H A T T H I S I S N O T T R U E A N D T H A T EVER­ INCREASING SOUGHT FOR. E . ETC. BUT THEN I GOT A N E R ECTION. PAIN WAS E J A C U LATION AT ITS MOST ACCEPTED. FOR I N ST A N C E . M. ON T H E T H I S I S W H Y H I S C A S E I S SO D I FFIC U LT T O U N R A V E L . I T H U RT. PAIN IT IS WAS A CT U A L L Y THAT TH E CASE O F M A SOC H I S M . H A D M A S T E R E D THE A RT O F P RO D U C I N G CONTRA STS. SUSPENDED. IT WAS B U T A M EA N S. A N D ON TH E SPOT W H E R E P A I N WAS A P P L I E D . PHYSICA L HOWEV E R . A N D T H E F E E L I N G O F P LE A S U R E GRADUA LLY BECA M E OCC U R E D I NTENSE." M. I WOU LD ADD THAT TH I S IS PARTI C U L A R L Y TRUE WHEN THE I M PORTA N C E O F PHYSICA L P A I N I N ITSELF I S M I N I M IZED: TORTU RE I S S E LDOM VERY HO R R I FY I NG. D E R IV E IN A D D ITON TO THE TORT U R E S . ORC H ESTRATED ON HIM THE IN B RUTA L TORTU R E S OBTA I N THE I N FLICTED ORDER T O SC R I B E D A N D AT T I M E S M E NTIO N E D O P E N LY: "ON THE WHOLE. M'S CASE AGA I N A N D I T H U RT:' T H I S A SPECT O F PA I N A S A M E A N S WAS I D E N T I F I E D BY F R E U D IN T H E ECONOMIC PROBLEM I N MASOC H I S M W H E R E HE POSITS THAT. THE FACT THAT TORTU RE I S I N FLICTED OF ESTA B L I S H E S N E C E S S I T Y BY A N OT H E R A MOST I N T I M ATE LINK PARTY B E I N C R E A S I N GLY PA I N F U L. OR OBEYI N G O R D E R S TO WHICH A P PA R E NTLY I NTE N S E ENJOYMENT L I TT L E THE S I M PLEST IN SLAP CONTRAST A N D V E RY FROM I N DULGE C O P R O P H A G Y. TO ACH I E V E THIS " V E R I TA B L E MORAL SUICIDE" DESIRED LONGED. PROLONGED. T H E B A S I C L I N K BETW E E N TH E I NTENSITY O F TH E PA I N A N D T H E I NTENS ITY OF THE ORGASM UNDERLIES E V E RYTH I N G M. TH E S E I D E A S OF T I M E A N D QUA NTITY GIVE US D E F I N ITE I N FO R M ATION W H I C H C A N TH ROW SOM E LIGHT O N T H E M YSTE R I O U S CONN ECTION BETW E E N PHYSICAL PAIN AND PLEASURE. I N T H I S S E N S E . A N D HOW D I D M . T H A T M . I . IN A SENSE HE WAS CON D E M N E D TO PLEASURE AND F U NCTION: ON T H E ONE H A N D I T A P P A R E NTLY ACTS AS A CATALYST FOR S E X U A L A RO U SA L. P A I N D O E S N O T G O BEYOND A C E RTA I N T H R ESHOLD. T H A T H I S TORTU R E S BUT THAT T H E Y BE DID NOT O N LY D E M A N D A LTHOUGH P A I N A N D H U M I LIATION B E LONG T O TWO D I F F E R E N T REGISTERS. BETWEE N T H E M . W E C A N LOGICALLY INFER AN EQUALLY E N DLESS NEED FOR PLE A S U R E . TH E GENITALIA ARE THE AFTER E J AC U A LTION. C L A I M S IT I S TER ROR AND A N X I ETY WHICH ARE A SSOC I A T E D THI NGS. THE S A D I ST A LWAYS B A C K S OFF:' I T APPEARS MOREOVER THAT PAIN HAS A DOU BLE SATISFACTION U N TA M E D BY I N S T I N C TU A L I M PU L S E THE WHICH F R E U D TELLS U S " I S I NCOM PA R A B LY M O R E I N T E N S E THA N THAT DERIVED FROM SATI NG AN I N STINCT THAT H A S B E E N TA M E D:' O N E WO U L D B E I NC OR R ECT I N A S S U M I NG. "EVERY INCH OF MY BODY COULD BE A RO U S E D TH ROUGH P A I N :' T H I S WOULD I N D I CATE A N S E N SITI VITY. A N D D I V E R S I F I E D . R E LA T I O N S W I T H OTH E R S U N ORTHODOX I N V A R I O U S WAYS. BY THE PLEASURE P R I N C I PLE IS PRO­ EVERY M E A N S W A S V A L I D THE M O M E N T M . A N D H I S W I F E "WE R E R E A LLY TWO SLAVES O F TWO LOVERS:' EVERY M EA N S. SUFFER THE WORST TOR M E NTS TO O B TA I N OTH E R H A N D I T W O U L D S E E M TO I N C R E A S E S E X U A L EXC ITEMENT AND PUSH I T TO ITS C L I MAX WHILE PLEA S U R E U N D E R A B SOLUTE C O M P U L S I O N : S U C H WAS M:S DESTINY F O R THE GREATER PART O F H I S LIFE. DE­ E N D L ESS S E ARCH FOR P A I N ." EJACU LATION:' TH I S E X P LA I N S T H E C H A RACTE R I S ­ TIC ATTITUDE O F T H E M A SOC H I ST W H O CONSTA NTLY D E M A N DS THAT H I S P A R TN E R I N C R E A S E THE PA I N . I N C R EASES AND DECREASES IN TH E QUA NTITY OF STI M U L I WITH I N A G I V E N P E R IOD OF T I M E. M A D E T H E DI STI NCTION V E R Y C L E A R LY : "AT FI RST. I N D I C A T I N G C LE A R L Y THAT PA I N ITSELF I S THE T R I G G E R . I T I S W E L L KNOWN THAT MOST S P EC I A L I STS STR E S S THE M A SOC H I SrS QUEST FOR H U M I LI ATION. TH E PARADOX IS THAT IT WAS FORC E D U PO N H I M . I. SHARPER. W A S FREE TO DESIRE OR T O R E F U S E T H A T JOY. EXTR E M E M UTATION O F THE BODY'S YET PAIN IN ITSELF WAS NOT T H E I N THE SAME WAY THAT M:S REACTIONS TO PA I N WERE DIFFERENT HIS FROM WHAT IS GENERALLY WERE U L T I M A T E PLEA S U R E. TH EODO R E R E I K.'S W I T H PLEAS U R E A N D T H E N W I TH O R G A S M : M:S C A S E D I S PROVES T H I S . PA I N HAS NO BOU N D A R Y . W A S QUITE AWA R E OF T H I S OUTB I DDI NG. 1 65 . LOS I NG I T S OWN S P E C I FIC ITY. H E U N DOUBTEDLY EXPER I E NCED DERIVED FROM "TH E THE FEELING OF HAPPINESS OF A WILD EGO. T H E R E WAS PA I N N O T S U B J ECTED T O M UT I LATION. M O R E PA I N . WHAT H E CRAVED FOR WAS R E S U M E D.E. F E A R O F PA I N WOU LD B E A B S E N T FROM H I M A N D IT WAS H I S S A D I ST PART N E R WHO WOULD B A C K OFF BECAUSE OF T H E EXTR E M E NATURE O F HIS D E M A N DS : "AT T H E · L A S T MOME NT. L I V E T H I S CO R R E LATION? ACCORD I NG TO H I M. HOW E V E R . PHYSICAL PAIN AND OBVIOUS U N P L E A S U R E A R E N E I T H E R E N D S I N TH E M S E LVES NOR S I G N A LS. M. A N D STI L L MORE. FROM M. I N T H I S R E S PECT H E I S A GOOD A D E PT OF F R E U D W H O S A Y S I N CIVI LISATION AND ITS DISCONTENTS: W H E N ANY SITU ATION THAT I S ABOVE A L L A N A B A S E M ENT OF HIS PE RSONA LITY.M:S C A S E A LS O R E V E A LS THAT T H E P H E NO M E NON OF PHYSICAL PAIN AND ITS MYSTE R I O U S ABI LITY TO TRIGGER E ROTIC P L E A S U R E A N D O RG A S M IS NOT WHAT C E RTA I N S P E C I A L I STS H A V E C L A I M E D IT TO BE. IT O N LY P R O D U C E S A F E E L I N G OF M I L D WE ARE SO M A D E T H A T WE C A N ONLY A F RO M STATE A OF CONTENTME NT.

AT A LL: THE HE WAS THE ONE WHO E RO T I C R E L A T I ONS H I P TO E X I S T : I T W A S TE R M I N A T E D HE AS SOON AS RESUMED H I S FREEDOM V I S-A-VIS THOSE PERSONS WHO S U PPOSEDLY HELD H I M IN BONDAGE AND H E DID N O T A L LOW ANY FURTHER S E RVITUDE TO P E RSON A L L Y BELIEVE THAT THE PERVERSE M A SOC H IST I S NOT TOTA LLY UNAWA R E O F H I S D EEP-SEATED ATTITUDE. M . HE WAS READY TO SUBMIT TO ANY K I N D OF I NVESTIGATION SINCE RETICENCE WAS TOTA L L Y FOR E I G N TO HIM AND I N DE E D RETI­ CONC E A L E D SOM ETH I NG DES PITE LITERA LLY I NCONCE I VA B LE: TO SHOW ANY TONE OF H I S DISCO U R S E W H I C H . THE HE H I DE O U S F E LT TORT U R E S HE HAD G U E S S E D A T . AND H E R E H E HOODWIN K E D H I S I N T E R LOCUTOR F O R H E W A S V E R Y DEFINITELY E X P R E S S I NG A DESIRE: THE D ES I R E T H A T TH E SUCH A WAY AS TO OTH E R P E RSON PROCEED IN D I S R EG A R D O F T H E W I LL. F I RST. DRASTIC MUTI LATIONS-SUC H A S A MPUTATING' HIS P E N I S-WAS THE FEAR OF M E DICAL O R LEGAL MICHEL DE M'UZAN TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOTE 1 66 . CONFE R R E D M OC K E R Y . ON THE WHOLE. THE TOTA L POWER THAT M. ' S D E E PLY CONC E A LE D ASSE RTION O F TOTA L POWER WAS M A TC H E D B Y HIS OVERWEENING P R I D E WHICH COULD B E GLIM PSED WHENEVER HE DESC R I B E D UNDERGONE. LITTLE HE SATISFACTION. THE MASOCHI ST. D E PICTED H I M S E L F A S H A V I NG A PRESSING N E E D TO B E H U M I LIATED-HOMOS E X U A LITY WAS ONLY A N INST R U M ENT TO H I S E N D AND T O HAVE H I S W I L L COM P LETELY D E STROYED. AND T H E R E FORE TO C A NC E L H I MSELF OUT. A PPEARED TO A S S U M E . BONDAGE MUST IN FACT BE H E W A S ALMOST UNIQUE: ONLY ONE PERSON H E KNEW OF." M. THE W I L L EXISTED NO LONGER. ACCORDING TO M . WAS RESTRAINED AND FREE FROM D R A M AT I C CENCE WOULD HAVE M E A NT TO E X E RT HIS WI LL. GOT A PARTNER TO ORDER H I M TO I N S C R I B E ON H I S S K I N SO H I S MORAL DECAY COULD BE SEEN: "I GAVE THE I M PRESSION I WAS A N I N V E RT W H I C H I WAS NOT OUT O F PLEASURE. THE I NT E R LO C U T O R OR THE PARTNER TH U S E F FECTS. TOTA L ANNI H I LATION OF THE W I LL. WHICH H OLDS P R I SO N E R THE S U R PASSED H I M. HAD EVER ANOTH E R C O NC E A L E D . ANOT H E R THAT M E ANS TO H U M I LIATION. THIS TRAIT U N DO U B T E D L Y THE GENE R A L NEGATE M:S EXISTENC E ." THE S A D I STIC STUDENT WHO SHARED M:S LIFE A N D H I S WI FE'S WAS SU PPOSED T O BE A LL-POW ERFUL: HE GAVE STRICT ORDERS THAT HAD TO BE PLEAS U RE " A FT E R H O M OSEX U A L S I D E O F A L L T H I S W A S. I T WAS A L L O N THE MORAL PLA N E . BUT OUT OF H U M I L I A T I ON. M. WITNESS WERE THESE TANTAMOUNT P H R ASES M . I E X P E R I ENC E D NO PHYSICAL OBEYED-AND Y E T H E WAS I N FACT LOOKED U PO N AS UTTER LY WORTHLESS.ENABLED HIM TO P RO L O N G T H E E J A C U LATION. WHO LIVED I N A CAGE BRI STLING WITH S H A RP POINTS. ETC.. I N A N Y CASE. R ENOUNC ING H I S W I L L "FOR THE B E N E F I T OF THE PE RSON WHO WAS I N COMMA ND." TO BE MORE P R ECISE. SO OPA QU E LY V E I LE D THAT ONE M I GHT CONSIDER T H I S TO BE W H I LE THE L A S T W O R D ON THE W H O L E MATTE R. I ON HIS PA RTN E R WA S AN U TT E R NOTH ING WANTED S E C O N D. ABOLITION OF THE W I LL. T H E BONDAG E T O W H I C H THE SADIST I S CONDE M N E D B Y THE M A SOC H I ST IS. A L MOST I N C I DENTALLY. H E C A N NOT R E S I ST L ET T I N G IT BE GLIMPSED OR OC C U R . " P S YC H I C A L TH E O B V I O U S COMPLICATIO� S A N D T H E PROBLE M S INVOLVED I N H E MOSTASIS. C E R TA I N E X P RESSIONS K E PT R E C U R R I NG IN HIS SPEECH SUCH AS: C LA I M ED HAD REAL E X ISTENCE O F H I S OWN. A N D SO T H E M A SOC H I ST. HE S A I D T H E ONLY REASON HE WAS RETICENT ABOUT PERFORM I N G EVEN MORE MASOCHIST H I MS E L F. HE R E A LLY RENOU NCED ACTUA LLY S U B DU E D T H E SADIST B Y FORCING H I M T O A S S U M E T H E R O L E W H I C H H E . I N PART. AS HE F E LT HOMOSEXU A L ' PRACTICES TO I N S U LT S . NEV ERTHELESS T H E R E W A S SOM ET H I NG A T R I FLE TOO STRONG IN THIS I N S I STENCE ON FOUND H I M S E L F I N T H E PARADOX ICAL SITUATION Of BEING STR I PP E D OF ALL POWE R O F SPEECH AND DESIRE. I T W A S A LSO H I S I M M E NSE P R I D E AND HIS SCO R N FOR HIS PA RTNERS WHICH PROMPTED H I M TO R E M A RK. THAT "TH E SA DIST A LWAYS BACKS OFF A T T H E LAST MOMENT. C LA I M E D THAT HE H I MSELF DID NOT E X I ST AS A SUBJECT B U T THAT H E S I M PLY E M BO D I E D THAT THE HE SA DISTS VERY FANTASI ES. B E H I N D THE FACADE OF A D R A M ATIC A S S E R TI O N OF H I S NOTH I NGNESS.

H E AGREED T O TALK W I T H A PSYCHO­ A N A LYST ABOUT H I S M A SOC H I S M BECA U S E HE WAS URGED TO DO SO B Y H I S OWN PHYSICI A N WHOM H E CON S U LT E D FOR R E S pi RA TO R Y P R O B L E M S A N D CONCRETE SADISTIC OR M A SOC H I STIC PRACTI CES. M:S C U RIOSITY TOWARD TIES HAS HIS OWN S E X U A L PECULIARI­ DESIRE OF SEXUAL NOTHI N G TO DO WITH T H E RID OF THEM. W H O K N E W THAT M : S PAST L I F E WOULD C E RTAINLY I NTEREST DE M'UZAN A S A C A S E H I STORY. VERY OFTEN THESE STU D I E S REFER EITHER TO THE S A D I STIC N E U ROTIC A N DIOR M A SOC H I STIC F A N TA S I E S OF PATI E NTS. STU D I ES ON SADISM A N D MASOC H I S M A R E V E R Y SELDOM BASED ON G E N U I N E "CLI N I C A L MATERI A L:' BY A LT H O U G H D E SC R I B E D H I M SELF AS A GENUINE I MEAN THAT WHICH REFERS TO MASOC H I ST. AND FROM A PSYC H I ATRIC POINT O F VIEW." I S TO A DEG R E E IDEOLOGICAL F R A U D S I NCE IT R E DUCES M:S EXPERIENCE TO A M EDICAL CASE. WE SHOULD NOT CON S I D E R THIS STORY AS AN OBSE RVATION NOR A C L I N ICAL CASE SINCE M. IT I S QUITE R E M A R K A BL E THAT PSYCHOANALYTIC GENUINE SADISM AND M A S OC H I S M THEREFORE SHOULD NOT B E CONFUSED WITH MORAL SADISM 1 67 . H E H A S LOST HIS "SE N S E OF REALITY. ALTHOUGH NOTHING IN M:S BEHAVIOR I N DICATES THAT H E IT I S ALSO A R E M A R K A BLE FACT THAT MASOC H I STS AND SADISTS A R E V E R Y M U C H AWARE OF TH E I R PEC U L I A R ITIES. B UT DO NOT CON S I D E R I SHALL NOT EVEN TAKE I N TO C O N S I D E R ATION S A D I STS WHO ARE THOSE M A S OC H I S T S AND CONDEM N E D B Y A J UDGE TO CHOOSE BETW E E N PRISO N O R PSYC H I ATRIC TREATM ENT. OF OR MORE AND MASOCHISTIC O FT E N . THE TITLE OF D E M'UZAN'S PAPER. IT WOULD BE I M POSSIBE FOR T H E SADIST A N D/OR MASOCHIST TO PRETE N D THAT W H E N HE I NDULGES IN THESE PRACTICES. SUCH THE NOVELS SADE SACH E R M A SOCH . H E R E P ARTLY TRANSLATED AS "A CASE OF PERVERTED M A SOC H I S M. THE M A SOC H I S T I C TH EM AS S Y M PT O M S OF A N Y PARTIC ULAR I LLNESS. ON TH E GETTING SUDDEN CONTRARY. HAS MICHEL DE M'UZA N . STORI E S AS OR TO S A D I ST I C A N DIOR SUCH AS M:S. EVER THOUGHT O F U N D E RGOING TREATME NT." I N T E R R U PT I O N OF HIS PRACTICES-WHICH C A N NOT B E COMPA R E D T O T H E S P O N T A N EO U S R E M I SS I O N OF AN ILLNESS­ SHOULD LEAD U S T O CONS I D E R M : S STORY A S THE STORY O F A M A SOC H I STIC PROCESS.POSTFACE: MASOC H I S M AND POLYSEXUA LITY YOU HAVE J UST R E A D M:S STORY A S HE TOLD IT TO A FRENCH PSYCHOAN A LYST. M. DID NOT CON S U LT M IC H E L DE M'UZAN FOR H I S MASOC H I S M .

IT I S R E M A R K A B L E I N D E E D TO S E E HOW M . M:S SEXOLOGI ST: M . L I F E WAS VERY W E L L BALANCED BOTH SOC I A LL Y WE ARE NOT REALLY I NT E R ESTED IN THE RE­ A N D E M OTIO N A LLY. . ETC . EVEN HIS DREAMS LOSE ALL M A SOC H I S T I C CONTENT. EVEN FOR A PSYC HOA N A LYST. A L I MENTARY SEXUALI­ TI E S . V I S U A L S E X U A L­ ITIES. NON P E R V E RT N E U R OT I C THE FANTASY O F THE THE DISGUISED AND RE­ H ET E R O S E X U A L: OF HIS IN THIS RESPECT." THE PSYCHOANALYST. I NDEPENDE NT. ON THE ONE H A N D. THE I NTENSITY OF TH I S R E P R E SSION A N D ITS EFFECTS CAN EASI LY BE RECOG N IZED THOSE BEEN WHO IN ARE TH E HOR R I F I ED EXPRESSION OF TH E M WHO C LA I M THAT THEY H A V E SOMETH I NG TO SAY ABOUT PE RVERSIONS. POLYSEXUALITY DETE R M I N ES A NEW CUT. W H E R E A N YONE CA N DO A NYTH I N G W I THOUT EXPECTI N G A NYBODY T O N ECESSA R I LY D O THE S A M E T H I N G S AS H E DOES. F A R FROM GOD'S S I GHT: H E S I M PLY WALKS A LONG TH E STR E ETS. IT I S FOR T H E MOST PART BECAUSE CHISM IT D E M O N STRATES T H A T M A SO­ TRUE. OPEN SPACES WHERE E V E R Y P E R V E RT C A N E X P E R I E N C E THIS POLYS E X U A LITY. IN E V E R Y C I TY THERE A R E OPEN PLAC ES. AS M UC H A S WITH ABLE WHAT "NOR M A L SEXUA LITY" MODEL A G A I N ST W H ICH IS: TH E I N EVIT­ MOST P S Y C HO­ PRESSED D E S I R ES. A N D IT IS Q U I TE I RONICAL TO SEE THAT TH E "SEX SPEC I A LI ST. OF THE OPPOSITION OF CLASSES AND. OR AT LEAST THOSE AMONG R E PR E S S E D I N A L MOST E V E RYBODY A N D PARTICU­ LALY A MONG THOSE WHO C LA I M TO BE SEXUA LLY "NORMA L. ON TH E OTH E R . TH EY HAVE T O BE I T H A T A S U B J ECT M IG H T ADOPT F O R A S HORT W H I L E A N D T H E N A B A N DO N . H U S B A N D /W I F E . TA K I NG SUFFICIENT PRECAUTIONS TO AVOI D BOTH PO L I C E A N D "PERVERT H U NTERS. THE SO-CA LLED DESIRE OF THE IS A PERVERT M YTH. " V I O L E NTLY WOULD C E RTANLY W I S H TO M E ET MORE PSYCHO­ A N A LYSTS THERE. THE M A S OC H I ST. C A LC U LATED ACCO R D I N G TO A N I NT E N S I F ICATION 1 68 . TH ESE ARE FREE SPACES. H O M O . ETC . LIQU I D S E X U A LITIES. HOWE V E R . A S SOME A STA N C E PSYCHOA N A LYSTS B E L I E V E ./ H E T E R O . AS WELL AS THE FACT THAT WH I LE HE WAS A M A SOCH I ST. TO A P P ROACH SOMETH I NG WHEN TH I S SOM ETH I N G H A S B E E N VIOLENTLY R EPRESSED WITH I N ONESELF: M I C H E L DE M'UZAN H A D TO WAIT TEN YEARS B E FORE H E COULD START TO WORK ON M:S STORY. IT I S N O T A STA NCE BECAUSE M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES C H A N G E WITH T I M E (AS STU D I E D A LONG C E RTA I N L I N ES OF I NCREASING I NTENSITY: VIOLENT S E X U A LITI ES. THAT IT I S NOT EASY. THEY CAN T R A N SFORM I NTO ONE A N OT H E R .A N D M A SOC H I SM . S U C H A S U DD E N C H A NG E . NOR WITH ATYPICAL PSYCHOSES. TOW A R D S O R T O F P ROG R E S S I V E T E N S I O N A TENSION WHICH IS SO M E T H I NG. A MONG MANY OTH ERS. TO P E R V E RT THE CONFRONTED-WITHOUT H A V I N G P R E P A R E D F O R IT-W ITH THE PREVIOUSLY R E A L I TY TO W H I C H M:S STORY REFERS. IF I I N S I ST O N T H E FACT THAT M:S STORY IS A A N A LYSTS COMPARE POLYSEXUALITY I N ORDER TO D E SC R I B E IT I N TE R M S OF DEVIANCE. .. S U D DE N LY A B A N DONS H I S M A SOC H I ST I C H A B I TS A FTE R TH I RTY Y E A R S O F CONSTA N T A N D H E AVY PRACTICE. OF THE B I OLOGICAL OPPOSITION OF SEXES. M A N /W O M A N . WAS A SPECIA LIZED STRA I N E D S E X U A LITY OF OUR PSYCHOANA LYSTS: OU R AIM IS TO G I V E S H A P E TO A NEW NOTION­ WOR K E R WHO WAS H I G H LY R E G A R D E D BY H I S PEERS AND HIS S U P E R IORS." A S PECTS. P R E C L U D E S A N Y TA LK OF A " P E R V E RT S T R U C T U R E . MICHEL DE M'UZA N DOES NOT EXPRESSION UNCONSCIOUS PROV I D E US WITH WHAT M A S OC H I S M IS. H ETEROS E X U A L. POLY S E X U A L I T Y -A N D TO D E SC R I B E T H E M A N Y P R OC E S S E S THROUGH WHICH POLYS E X U A LI T Y BECO M E S A "FACT OF L I FE:' S U C H PROCESSES A R E TOT A L L Y A L I E N TO C L A S S I C A L O P PO S I T I O N S : M A SOC H I S M FRENCH IS NOT A STA NCE E I T H E R . ACTI VE/PASSI VE. F E LT LI K E A CHILD FACED W I TH TH I S R E M A R KABLE I S NOT A STR UCTU R E : O N E I S NOT M A SO­ C H I STIC L I K E ONE IS N E U ROTIC. " M. O B E S E S E X U A L I TI ES. THE M A SOC H I S T S O M E T H I M E S BECO M I NG A S A D I ST A N D VICE V E R SA . OF POLYSEXUAL­ ITY : AN I N F I N ITELY D I V E R S I F I E D SEXUA LITY W H I C H CONSTITUTES THE POTE NTI A L SEXUA LITY OF EVERY BODY." I . THE P E R V E RT IN LES 1 20 NOT DOES GENUINE SADISM AND M A S OC H I S M ARE TWO NEED A DEEP AND DARK CAVE TO HAVE K I N K Y S E X . A LSO. WHICH FREUD IS CA LLED THE SEXUAL PRACTICES OF H I S CHOICE. G R A M MED. B U T THEY CHANGE FOR T H E MOST PART IN TH E SENSE OF A BECOMING. C O N S I D E R E D DO S A D I STIC O N E S) . CONTR A R Y TO W H A T SA D E TELLS U S JOURN EES DE SODOME. I N FACT.U P OF T H E C ITY A S WELL AS OF THE EROTIC BODY O F PEOPLE. T H E Y FOLLOW A PATTE R N OF I NC REAS­ ING Q U A N T I TATI V E A I N T E N S I TY C A R E FULLY P RO­ ALONG THESE LI N ES. A N D RETU R N S TO A V E R Y Q U I ET A N D PEAC E F U L H ETEROS EX U A L LIFE. ONE "POLYMORPHOUS S E X U A L I TY . E . I T I S VERY R E M A R K A B L E C A S E H ISTORY.

W E SHOULD COMPARE THEM WITH AN I NITIATION. THE AIM OF T H E M A SOC H I ST-A N D T O A LESSER A LIVI NG TOILET BOWL . I A M NOT A M A N NOR A WOMAN. TO THE E XC LUSION O F T H E G E N I T A L Z O N E A N D TH I S F O R ONE PURPOSE ONLY: HETEROS E X U A L I NTE RCOU RSES. AND THERE IS EVEN MORE THAN PLEASU RE. AS I N RATH E R THAN COM P A R E M A S OC H I STIC ACTIVITIES WITH R E LIGIOUS RITES. TH E P E RVERTED ACT ON ONE HAND I S NOT SPEECH. A KNOWLEDGE WHICH DERIVES FROM A NON-VERBAL S E M I OTICS. FLESH TO BE FUCKED. TATOOS. T H E M A SOCH I ST C A N STOP W H E N H E WANTS: H I S ACTI VITI ES A R E P R E P A R E D WITH GREAT CARE A N D THE TERMS OF THESE ACTI VITIES ARE D E SC R I B E D C E PT E D BY P R E C I S E LY BOTH IS IN A " C O N T R ACT" AC­ PROHITIBION O F POL YSEXUALITY. OUR A M AZ I NG TO SEE CAN THE INCREASING HIS CONTROL A AND ITS M A SOC H I ST GET OVER BODY P H Y S I O L OG I C A L F U N CT I O N S . MASOCHISTIC ACTI VITIES ARE NOT S U P POSED TO DRIVE TH E MASOCH I ST COM PLETELY OUT OF TH E REALM OF LANGUAGE GEN ERALLY S P EA K I NG. A L SO S E CO N D LY ." T H E R E A L ONE. I F I MAY SAY S O . . H U M I LIATION. IN OTH E R WORDS TO I WANT TO PO I N T OUT THREE I M PORTANT DETA I LS ABOUT THESE TERMS: DESUBJECTIFY HIS OWN BODY. " DEG R E E OF TH E SADIST-IS TO DECONSTRUCT THE OEDI PAL CONSTRUCTI O N . EVEN H I S EROTIC BODY I S V U L N E RABLE. OR IN OTH E R WORDS. A LL OVER HIS BODY." OR " I AM A BITCH. IF WE ACTS OBSERVE OVER TO A TH E CONCATE N A TION OF ULTIMATE SEX! WE 00 NOT P RETE N D THAT SUCH A GOAL IS ALWAYS REACH ED-ACTUA LLY I T IS VERY R A R E LY SO-BUT WE TH I N K THAT SUCH ALWAYS EXISTS I M PLICITLY. . LOGIC O F T H E BODY. SOM ETH I NG LIKE R E PETITIVE. ANAL. A KNOWLEDGE THAT CONSTRUCTION H ETEROS E X U A L S U BJ EC T COMES A BOUT BY A N D THROUGH N E R A BLE LA N G U A G E . SAY: "THE M EETING POINT FOR THE MOST BEA UTI F U L P R I CKS. OUT OF A SYSTEM OF S I G N S WHICH ALWAYS PRE-EXISTED H I M A N D T O W H I C H H E WAS S U P POS E D TO HAVE BEEN COMPLETELY C A R E F U LLY EROTIC BODY. I AM FUCKED U P. H A S S H O W N US. IT IS AN IS EXPER I M ENTATION DEATH : U LTI M A T E GOAL DEATH AS PRESIDENT SC H R E B E R'S: " I T WOU L D B E SO N I C E TO BE A WOMAN SUBJ ECT TO COiTUS. 1 69 . FROM BODY-SEMIOTICS. W H I LE OUR BODY.E. THE O F T H E SO-C A L L E D " N O R M A L" I NC R EASES I N PROPORTION T O T H E VIOLENCE OF THE PERVERTED ACTS. T H I S CONTROL EROTIC BODY. A S M . PERVERTED A GOAL EXPERI­ THESE THEY CERTA I N A PERIOD OF T I M E . PARTNERS. WHICH MORE R E A D I LY OBEYS OTH E R LAWS T H A N THE LAWS OF SYMBOLIC LANG UAGE. IT O B E Y S A N A LTOGETH E R DIFFERENT LOG IC. WAS S U BJ ECTED TO TH E STRUCTUR­ I NG A N D A L I E NATING POW E R OF LA NGUAGE. WHOSE IN FACT. SUCH A CONTROL I M PL I E S A VERY PREC I S E K NOWLEDGE. P R OG R E S S I V E M ENTATION I S A WAY O F B E I NG-FOR-DEATH (ETRE· APPEAR F O L LOW POUR-LA-MORTI. IT OBEYS THE THERE I S ECSTASY-JOUISSANCE-THE PLEASU RABLE COUNTERPART OF DEATH. BUT THERE I S ALSO PLEASURE I N ITS QUEST. FO R M TH E SPECIFIC GUAGE O F WHICH HE BECOMES T H E SUBJ ECT. AS A N EXTRE M E EXPERIENCE L I K E "ULTI MATE SEX. A SLUT. EROTI­ TH E MASOC H I ST ALSO USES A N OT H E R M EANS TO D E S U BJ ECTI FY HIS BODY: I. I T I S ALSO TH E STORY OF T H E S U B J ECTI V I ZATION OF TH E EROTIC BODY. W H AT I SAY IS P R OG R E S S I O N CONTROLLED A N X I ETY W H I C H T H E M A SOCHIST A ROUSES I N H I S PARTN E R WHO "ALWAYS G I V E S U P" A T A C E RTA I N POI NT. HOW E V E R. BY N A T U R E ESSENTIA LLY T H E CASE O F SOME PSYCHOTICS. A P E R FORMATIVE D I SCOU RSE. OF THE H I S ACTI VITIES LEAD H I M PARTI A L LY OUT OF T H E R E A L M OF LANGUAGE. EACH ZONE OF WHICH HAS BEEN SUCCESS I F E LY N A M ED. PATTERN L I N K E D T O EACH OTH E R A S I N A SYNTAGM . NOT A LWAYS. SAYS. T H E STORY O F T H E S E X U A L PHASES (ORAL. BUT A BITCH. FI RST. I T I S QUITE IT IS NOT POSSI BLE TO E X P LA I N FULLY IN THIS POSTFACE H O W A N D WHY JOUISSANCE I S PRECISELY WHAT WE HAVE H A D TO REJ ECT I N THE COURSE OF BECO M I N G O E D I PA LIZED." ON TH E OTH E R HAND TH E PERVE RTED A C T I S NOT HAZA RDOUS SO FAR. T H E DOUBLE. AND I T DIFFERS FUNDAM ENTALLY FROM T H E P E R V E RTED FANTASM WHICH IS ALWAYS A PH R A S E . I T IS A DISCOURSE. T H E BY THE H E R E AGA I N I HAVE TO B E B R I E F. URETHRAL AND G E NITA L) I S NOT ONLY TH E STORY OF TH E ACCEPTA N C E OF OEDIPAL SEX. TO THE EVERY OF S U BJECT IS V U L­ LAN­ ONE CAN NOT FIND IN BOOKS. M ERELY A H I NT OF WHAT SHOULD B E DETA I LE D AT SOME LENGTH. E X P LO R A T I O N A CAREFUL R E A D I NG O F M:S STORY REVEALS THAT TH E CONTROLS ON THIS P R OG R E S S I O N ARE SUBJECTED.OF VIOLENCE COUPLED P LA N N E D WITH A PROG R E S S I V E . M:S C I S E D A N D FO RBIDDEN.

BUT AT THE S A M E T I M E IT AROUSES THE DEATH­ 2. ." THE M A SOC H I ST C A N IT I S O N LY FOR THE N E U ROTIC.1 . M.J ULY 1 978 1 70 . I NDUCE. A N D R E PE A TS THAT HE I S A SLUT. PEOPLE G O A W A Y A NDIOR REACT WITH AGGRES­ S I V I TY AND BEAT T H E SHIT O UT O F THE M A SOCH I ST. RATH ER THAN TO A FE M I N I N I N E OR MASC U L I N E QUA LITY: A BITC H OR A SLUT H A S I N F A C T NO BIOLOGICAL SEX: "I A M N E I TH E R M A N N O R WOMA N B U T FLESH . DRIVES OF THE OTH E R . A FTER H I S "TRI P. PROVOKE MAKE W H E N H E GETS FUCKED BY A MAN IT I S ON LY FOR M A SOCH I STIC P U R POSES. A PILE OF SH IT.J ECT NOR OB.J ECTI­ V I ZA T I O N A L LO W S THE M A S OC H I S T TO FREE R E C E I V E S SHIT AND PISS HERE I SUGGEST THE H I M S E L F F R O M H I S U NC O N SC I O U S A L I E N A T I O N F R O M T H E S Y M BOLIC F U NCTION O F LANGUAGE: I T ALLOWS H I M TO R E D I SCOVE R THE PERFORMATIVE R E A D E R VISIT T H E PIT AT "THE MINE S H A FT' I N NEW YOR K C I TY • • • F U NCTION OF LANGUAGE ALONG WITH H I S BOOY­ LANGUAGE. BUT H E W I LL DO I T F R E E LY. NOT HOMOSEXUAL. IT IS O N LY TO I N DUCE TH E AGGRESSIVITY OF THE ZSCHE. . AND T H A T M A K ES ALL T H E DIFFERENCE. I F H E SAYS.J ECTIVIZATION OF T H E M A SOC H I ST 3. SO-CALLED "NORMAL PEOPLE" THAT THE M A S OC H I ST P R ET E N D S TO BE E XC R E M E N T. A SUB. THEY DO NOT EVEN R E F E R TO A R E A L OB. HOWEVER. A N D SO ON. H A V E NO SPEC I A L SENSE. OF THE PARTN E R . . FRA NCOIS PERALDI T H E S E T E R M S . NO M E A N I NG . THE MASOCHIST IS NOT EXC R E M E N T OR W H A T E V E R : H E S A Y S H E I S. A SLUT.JECT COMPLETELY A L I E N TO T H E REALM OF LANGUAGE WHO REFUSES I T COM PLETELY. OTH E R . BUT I F WERE A HE IS WOMAN I F WOULD BE EXACTLY THE AND SAME. I T A ROUSES HIS A N X I ETY AS W ELL.'. A U V I N G TOILET BOWL I S A P L A C E THAT • • • DOES NOT M A K E A PSYCHOTIC OF H I M . TH E Y HAVE ONLY TO A P E R FO R M AT I V E HORROR F U NC T I O N : AND TO TO F R E N C H : A BITC H . I S A M A N .1 HE THE F E M I N I ZATION OF THE NAMES (AT LEAST I N VI EW. AND H E W I L L PLAY I N I T A N D WITH IT. BUT TO A FUNCTION: A BITCH I S SOMEONE WHO I N DUCES THE NORMAL H ETEROSEX U A L TO B E BITCHY. ETC.1 IN SPITE OF T H E F E M I N I ZATION OF THE WORDS.JECT . HE W I LL H A V E BECOM E ' A C H I LD. A GO B A C K I NTO T H E R E A L M OF SYMBOLIC LANGUAGE. FROM TH E MASOCHISTS POINT OF N E W YORK• . . OR THE H ETERO­ S E X U A L .' T H E S E T E R M S R E F E R N EITHER TO SUB. H E W I LL M A K E A G A M E OF LANGUAGE. T H E S E T E R M S REFER TO A N E UTRAL. AND THROUGH TH I S A N X I ETY TH E MASOCH I ST IS A B LE TO CONTROL THE AGG R ESSI VITY OF THE OTH E R . A TURD. AND H E W I LL H A V E ACCO M P L I S H E D I N H I S OWN WAY THE LAST METAMORPHOSIS FORESEEN BY N I ET­ G A R BA G E-CA N. " SUCH A D E S U B . BUT THIS S U B.JECT.

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B Y T H E TIME H E WOU L D BE P U L L I NTO H I S O W N D R I V E W A Y I SITTING BESIDE HIM IN THE WOULD E V E R Y F R I DA Y I WOU L D LEAVE M Y JOB IN AN OFFICE B U I L D I NG. I W O U L D H A V E T O M A K E M Y O W N W A Y I N S I D E . TH E R E WERE OTH E R TIMES IN THE WINTER CONSC IOUSLY D R E S S E D TO EACH OTH E R B Y JOHN PRESTON A N D JASON KLEIN. H E DID NOT C A R E F O R M Y D I SCOM FORT.[ON C E I H A D A M ASTER] BEGIN THE WERE D I S RO B I N G HE WOULD EXPECT. THE AD­ TIMES W I N D C A R E S S E D M Y B A R E C H EST WITH W E LCOM E COOLI NG R E LI E F. H E ONLY WAS CON C E R N E D THAT I BE WITHOUT CLOT H E S I N H I S HOUSE. I 1 72 . I WOULD SIT WATC H I NG A PROGRES­ SION O F TOWNS. TRUCK. EACH S M A L L E R THAN T H E LAST. I WOULD C LI M B OUT A N D FIND HIM WAITI NG. EVERY FRIDAY HE WOU L D B E STA N D I NG NEXT TO HIS TRUCK. I WOULD TAKE A N E X P R E SS TO T H E N E XT LARGE M ETROPOLIS AND CHANGE THERE FOR A N A K ED. A N D EQUA LLY AS I GNORANT O F T H E DANGER IT H E L D O N FROZEN W I N T E R E V E N I NGS. WHEN THE MY BODY D R A FT WHEN W O U L D S E N D C H I LLS THROUGH S H I RT R E MOVED THE LITTLE MY PROTECTION IT HAD PROVI DED. AT THE T E R M I N U S . 'ONCE I HAD A M ASTE R . A C T U A L L Y N O MORE TH A N A C A B I N I N T H E WOODS. T H E R E ON HOT SUMMER N I GHTS THAT T H E TH E T H R E E FOLLOWI NG T E XTS A R E LOVE LETTERS. MY COM FORT D I D NOT CONC E R N HIM. THE F I RST ONE. H E A P P E A R E D I G N O R A N T OF T H E F R E E DOM THAT MY N U D I TY R E P R E S ENTED ON A SUMMER LOC A L T R A I N . T H E R E WOU L D B E NO G R E E T I N G F R O M E I TH E R OF US. N IG HT. S P E E D B Y MY W I N DOW. W H E N HE F I N A LLY P U L L E D I NTO T H E SPACE B E S I D E H I S H O U S E . AS HE DROVE AWAY FROM T H E STATION I WOULD THERE WAS A RITUAL EVERY FRIDAY E V E N I NG. ' R E P R I NTED H E R E . I S A R E W R I T I N G OF T H E LAST TWO STOR I E S WERE 23RD PSA LM. W A I T I N G T O B E G I N T H E W E E K E N D. T H E R I T U A L W A S S O SEC U R E T H A T I T D I D N O T N E E D T H E S U PPORT OF WORDS. M A R K E D T H E F I N A L LEGS O F OUR J O U R N E Y . ONCE I HAD A M ASTE R THE REMOVAL OF EACH PIECE OF C LOTH I N G I O N C E H A D A MASTER WHO L I V E D FA R FROM THE CITY.

I WOULD COOK HIS M E A LS. H E . H E WAS N EV E R M I N DLESSLY C R U EL. E V E R Y FRIDAY H E SHAVED EVERY I NCH OF M Y SKIN B ELOW MY N EC K . NO OTH E R P E R SON EVER WAS ALLOWED IN HIS I WOU LD LOVE HIM I N THE SU M M E R TI M E. I OFTEN S A T D O W N N E XT TO TH E S TO V E TO TRY TO EASE MY NAKED COLDN ESS. H E WOU L D LISTEN WHEN I PROFESSED W H I LE I MY LOV E . BUT H E WO U L D N E V E R RESPO N D T O M E .M Y MOUTH. I W E N T T O H I S FA RM NO MORE. THE FEW W O R D S T H A T H A D PASSED I N TH E BEGI N N I NG B E G A N TO D I S A P P E A R THEMS ELVES A S TI M E M A D E T H E M S U P E RFLUOUS. DO SO A LWAYS N A K E D. HE WO U L D TA K E ME W H I LE STA N D I N G U P COOK I N G IN FRONT O F THE S TO V E . OR WHILE TH E F I R S T W I N T E R I L E A R N E D M O R E ABOUT M Y F E A R T H A N I H A D E V E R K N O W N . C H O P H I S F I R EWOOD. R E S PO N D I N G P A S S I O N A T E L Y TO HIS CLOTHES. S E R V I C E . THAT WAS U N I M PORTANT. TO DO SO WOU LD BE TO T H R EATEN MY ATTENDANCE. I WOU L D STA N D BEN EATH A HOT SPRAY OF WATER TO LET ITS MOISTU RE SOFT E N M Y BODY H A I R . HIS HE WOULD SIT HE SI L E N T L Y BEGGED R E S PON S E . CITY TO BE D R E A D E D. D E S P E RATELY FRIGHTENED OF WO R K I NG I N TH E F I E LDS. TO I HIS BODY. S P R E A D I NG FAR APART M Y JAWS A N D M Y SPH I NCTER AS H E I N VADED M Y O P E N B E I NG . A LW A Y S VULNER­ HE WOULD TOLERATE NO L I M I TA T I O N TO MY ASSAULTS. I T HAD NOT TA K E N LONG FOR THE TRI P BACK TO THE FIN ALLY. I BECA M E F E A R L E S S OF M Y P H Y S I C A L S E L F. I R E C E I V E D T H E ONSLAUGHT O F ON EACH WEEKEND. F R U ST R A T I O N P L A C E . H E N E V E R LET HIS PHYSICAL W A NTS FALL I NTO A PATT E R N . I W E LCO M E D E V E R Y T I M E H E TOOK ME. HOUSE W H I LE I WAS THERE. HE D I D NOT WANT THERE TO BE A NOTH E R P E R SON TO I N T E R F E R E WITH M Y GROW I N G CONTROL. I F O R THE W E E K E N D I BECA M E H I S S E R V ANT. WOULD LET M Y A N G E R GLANCE OFF H I S B ROW I F EVER I D A R E D SPEAK IT. H A D N O OTH E R OUTLET FOR H I S OWN PHYSICAL B E I N G T H A N T O U S E MY BODY. T H E W E E K E N D S TOOK O N MORE M E A N I NG EACH T I M E THEY W E R E R E PEATED. OR E V E N I N T H E SOU N DEST OF S L E E P. T H E DAYS BETW E E N MY JOU R N E YS BECA M E LESS AND LESS I M PORTANT. THE S P R I NG WOU L D BEG I N AND WE WOU L D B E ABLE TO VENTU R E FU R TH E R OUT IN TO THE ALWAYS MORE WELCOM I NG SUN UNTI L O N C E P R I VATE WORLD OF D A Y D R E A M S . I WOULD HAVE TO R E V E R S E T H E R I T U A L O F D R E S S I N G A S H E D ROVE M E T O T H E TRA I N STATIO N . M Y BODY A N D MY SELF W E R E C APTI V E S OF T H E H OUS E . C L E A N HIS HOUSE. M Y H A N D W E R E TH E R E W H E N E V E R H E H A D T H E DESIRE. BUT NOT TO C L E A N S E MYSE LF. TOOK ITS R E L I E F I N T H E F I E LDS. RESULTS OF A W I NTER'S W E E K OF I SOLATION E V E R Y JOU RNEY. THESE I WAS W E E K E N DS NEVER FOR M Y S E L F.I N D U L­ TO R E S I ST AGA I N I T WOU L D B E S U M M E R A N D OUR S E L V E S A N D O U R BODIES WOULD RUSH THROUGH FOR E STS TO FIND SWI M M I N G HOLES TO DIVE I NTO AND FEEL A LLOW E D P U N I S H M ENT. MY M I N I STRATIONS WERE M I N D. THOUGH I COULD NOT HAVE STOPPED A N YO N E . B U T H E WOU L D BEAT M E G R EATLY I F M Y S E R V I C E E V E R FALTERED OR IF MY MIND WANDERED NOT I C E A B LY I NTO A BUT. T H E O R I FICES O F M Y BODY W E R E OPEN FOR HIM TO TA K E ON A W H I M . HE N E V E R W O U L D TA LK T O M E .WOU LD SHOW E R . V U L N E R A B I LITY OR HIS OWN GROW I N G BUT I WOULD ALWAYS R ETURN EVERY W E E K E N D FOR MY PILG R I M AG E . H I M S E LF. H E COULD NOT TOLERATE EVEN A FEW STR A N DS E X I STENCE S E P A R ATING M Y SKIN FROM H I S TOU C H . A LWAYS. I WOU LD H A T E H I M IN T H E WINTER. WASH HIS FLOWE R E D F I ELDS AND RAN N A K E D ACROSS MY SHAVEN SPRAWLED TORSO I N OC E A N O F C LOVER. M Y ASS. TH E R E WAS NO T I M E ON G E NC E S . I WAS 1 73 . NOT HIS FANTA S I E S OR HIS WOOD FOR T H E F I R E . T E N D H I S G A R D E N . THOSE TI ME S W H E N H E WOU L D FO RCE M E TO R UN WITHOUT SHOES T H R OUG H T H E S NOW TO GATH E R WE TA L K E D A LMOST NOT AT A LL. TH E F I R ST S U M M E R I L E A R N E D M O R E A BOUT M Y THAN IN ALL THE SUMMERS THAT HAD BODY PRECE E D E D I T TOGETH ER. COM PLETELY ATTAC H E D T O N ATU RE. TAKING HIS TH E WAS H E D H I S TORSO W H I LE I T SAT I N T H E M A S SA G E D IT IN FRONT OF THE FIRE BATHTUB. I WOU LD ABLE. I COULD B E FULLY D R E S S E D B Y T H E T I M E H E PA R K E D I N FRONT O F T H E I RO N R A I LS . I TOOK ON COLOR ON M Y S K I N A N D TON E I N M Y M U SC LES A S T H E Y WORK E D H A R D O N H I S F A R M .

I S DO I N G HER HAIR. S M I LES AT WA I T E R. ROBERTE LOOK I N G A T SHOP W I N DOWS. CONSIDERS THE SQ U A R E OF THE THEATRE FRA N C A I S. R . R. 3 5. GOES I N S I D E THE CAFE. 38.F R I G H T E N E D THAT I WOU L D FORGET THAT HE WAS NOT GOO. R SEEN FROM REAR WALKING TOWAR D TH E FAR END OF THE GALLERY. FADE OUT: G RADUALLY FADE IN ON LONG SHOT: THE GALLERY MONTP E NS I E R. 34. HESITATES. 33. R. THE WAITER B R I NGS TEA AND CROISSA NTS."S H A N DS A R E S H A K I N G A LITTLE. THE WASHROOM. 32. STOPS. REPRINTED W I T H P E R M I SSION. 1 74 . STEPS OF COR P U L E N T M A N . T H I S PIECE APPEARED I N DRUMMER MAGAZ I N E . R . 37. JOHN PRESTON 30. SEATED AT TABLE ON TH E TERRACE. 3 1 . R . R. 36.

MORE D I D. DA N I E L H A D ME SHOWI NG HIM HOW TONGUE'S PRODUCT. PARTLY THROUGH G E N ETICS. H E WILL B E THE FI RST M A N TO MAKE ME SUFFER BEING B U R I E D U P TO MY N ECK I N THE G RO U N D FOR LON G E R THAN I WANT UNTIL I KNOW EXACTLY WHO I S I N CONTROL. WORSH I P FOR H A V I N G G I V E N ME TH E E X P E R I E NC E . TO S K I P STON E S AC ROSS THE H I DE. EVI DENCE7 IS MY THEORY OF B E H AVIORAL NEOTENY U N I V E R S A L TO BIOGRA P H ICAL? H U M A N I TY OR M E R E LY A U TO­ THE SUNSET C RACKED AND FLA R I N G OUR I N D I F F E R E NC E . MODIFI ED. LA UGHED. WHO I HAVE DELIVERED MYSELF U N TO . H E I S THE FI RST MAN WHO LET ME E NJOY BEING B U R I E D ALIVE I N THE SAND. AM I MY OWN "DRAC U LA WITH E R ING. B I R DS MAY H A V E AS M UCH I MAGI NATION A S I DO. D A N I E L FINDING G R U ESOME FACES ON THE PEBBLES THERE AND ALL OF US B URSTING." I AGREED.CHORUS FOR A PSALM DA N I E L I S MY BROTH ER. SUDDEN LY FELT L I K E A BOY FEELI NG LIKE A MAN WE SAT ON A D A R K E N I NG SHORE. I A D M I R E THIS BASIC HON ESTY OF A N I MALS. LACED. F I X IT. THIS RAISES EVEN MORE ABOUT SOCI A L EVOLUTION THROUGH THEN O R I G I N A LL Y DISTRACTED. PARTLY THROUGH TRADITION. AND WHO I IN THE F I N A L TWI LIG HT. I M AGI N AT I O N . REPRESSED HOMOS E X U A LITY I NTENSIFIED B Y TH E SANCTI FICATION OF R EPRODUCTION. ALONG W I T H A N OPPORTUN ITY T O W R I T E ABOUT IT. " DEBBIE AN A MAN. I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT WAY BEFORE EVEN THOUGH PHYSICA LLY I AM A L R E A DY QUESTIONS "EACH ON E LOOKS MORE R O TT E N . BUT WITH FEW E R WORDS TO DESCRIBE IT. FOR TH E FI RST TI M E I N HIS LIFE. THE C REATED LANGUAGE T H A N BI RDS I A M ONLY M Y 1 7 15 . WHETH E R OR NOT THEY CHOSE IT IS I M M AT E R I A L. AND S TR A N G E AS LAKE'S I AGITATE D IT SEEMS. M Y MASTER HAS YET TO B E I DE NTI FI ED. M Y SLAVES ARE ALL N U M B E R E D. M Y LOVE R . M A R S H WITH A BUT POSSIBLY MY H U MAN BEHAVIOR IS LARGELY I N H E RITED. S U BJ ECT TO THE REALITIES I HAVE CONVINCED ME OF. THE CON FIDENT GLOWING BEHIND FLIGHT OF BI RDS C ROSSING T H E BROADER LESS VISION THAN I MY NO OWN. A N D MODIFY IT.

WITH ANY HUMAN POPULATION. B E H A V I O R A L T R A I T ( S E X U A L I TY. THE A N I M A L W H I L E GLOR I FY I NG TH E IS THEN DIVIDED I N TO H E G R E W F U R I O U S LY ON THE VERGE OF C R Y I NG. AND AN ACTION BY A H U M ANS.R I D D E N BY P R EVIOUS OPPRESSIONS. S U B M I S S I V E TO DOM I N AT I NG. I NTELLIGENCE. I NT E N S E THE MONOTO N O U S DEG R E E S OF E X TRAVAGANTI A LS O G E N E R A T I N G MOST I N T E R M EDIATE QUALITIES HOS­ A N X I ETI ES. D I SC E R N I N G ) TO BE P E R C E PT I V E . BUT 1 76 . I CONFUSION S E X U A L I S M . U S U A LLY M A SC U L I N ITY EXAGGE R ATES TH E MEN W H I L E FEM I N I N ITY DU LLS THE WOM E N AS A BACKGROU N D FOR M A SC U L I N E THEATRICS. " Y O U W I L L NOT S H I T O N THAT FLOOR. UNDER­ TH E G E N ETIC B E H A V IORS V A R Y W I T H THE I N D I V I DUAL. YOU WILL PISS AND S H I T W H E N I T E LL Y O U TO. HUMAN SOCI ETY F I RST S E PA RATES T H E I N D I V I D U A L I N TO W H AT IS HUMAN AND WHAT IS A N I M AL. S I N C E THE MAJORITY OF THE POPULATION MOST LIES WITHIN THE INTE R M E D I ATE ARE DISTORTED BY THIS W H E N I HAD H I M SO HE WAS ABOUT TO S H I T. P E R V E R S E ACTS A R E C R I M I N A L I Z E D A N D OFTE N P U N I S H A B L E BY EXTR E M E LY P L I A BLE. C O M P R OM I S I N G . SHAPED THEN MODI F I E D BY ITS B IOLOG I C A L AND CULTURAL E N V I RO N M E NT.EACH SION. H E N E E DE D TO PISS. THESE POLY­ DEATH W H I LE TH E SA NCTI F I E D ACTS FLOUR I S H I N A N E U ROTIC M A N N E R . VARYING I DI OT TO G E N I US. T H E SOC I A L E N V I RON­ MENT MA LNOU R I S H I NG O N E SEXUAL IDENTITY W H I LE FOSTE R I NG THE OTH E R ACCO R D I N G OFTEN TO THE " U N T I L I ORDER YOU TO." I N D I V I D U A L' S INCI DENCE OF GEN ITALS. A N X I ETY. AND THE F R A G M E NTS FRAG­ CONTROL H I S ASS.P E RC E PTUAL S E L ECTI VITY) BEG I N S A S A POLYG E N ET I C POTE N T I A L M U LT I T U D E R E S PO N S E PATTE R N . THIS IS HOW H U M A N S BREED A N D D O M E S T I C ATE THEIR C H I LD R E N AND TH U S HU­ SINCE H U MANS TH I N K D I C H OTOMO USLY. TH E I R PSYCH E MENTED. TO SOC I A L TO ANTI­ WITH S E X U A L U RG E IS R E S I STS THUS EVEN NOT E A S I LY D I SCOURAGED A N D M O S T BRUTAL THE REPRESSION. WITH I N FROM A S P ECTR UM OF Q U A L I T I E S BUT ONLY RANGING ONE E X T R E M E T O A N OT H E R STRICTLY BUT ( H ETEROS E X U A L TO HOMOS E X U A L. AGGRES­ AES­ AT TH E SAME IS TIME T H A T TH E SPLIT A N D R OG Y N O U S AND " M A N A PE" FEMININE BEING I NTO M A SC U L I N E O R REMAINS OF THE TH ETI C S . PEOPLE DIC HOTOMOUS TREATM ENT. THE ONE IS I N E V I TA B L Y REWARDED OT H E R I N E SC A P A B LY P U N I SH E D . FANATIC WITH THE A T T E M PT TO CONTROL H I M S ELF. BEHAVIORS THAT DO NOT FIT THE CONTRI V E D G U I LTS NORM W H I LE ARE R I DDLED WITH ATTI­ G E N E RATED OF GENES. S OC I A B I L I T Y . T H E I R A N I M A LS. THIS IS HOW HUMANS BREED A N D DOM E STICATE DETE R M I N ES W H E T H E R T H E I N D I VIDUAL'S G ROWTH W I L L BE H E A LTHY O R N E U ROTIC. T H E N I TOLD H I M . T H E E N D R E S U LT I S A B R E E D O F M E N A L I E NATED FROM A BREED O F WOM E N A N D EACH I N D I VI DU A L A L I E N ATED FROM ITSELF. SOCI ET I E S O R I E N T T O M A N Y O F THESE S P ECTR U M S AS IF ONLY THEIR EXTR E M ES WHILE E X I ST E D . I T I E D HIM UP SO HE H U RT AND COULD NOT EASILY RANGE. EACH S E LECTIV E L Y CONS I D E R E D O P PO S I T E O N E W H E R E A N Y O N E I N DI V I D U A L LI ES ALONG O N E OF THESE S P ECTR U M S AND HOW THE SOCI ETY ORI E NTS TO W A R D THAT PORTION OF TH E S P ECTR U M NOU R I S H E D T O G ROW I N A D I STORTED M A N N E R A N D TRA I N E D TO B E H A V E I N T H E TRADITIONA L FASHION. MINED AND SEXUAL POTENTI ALS A R E CONTRO L L E D . SOM E BEING IF THE I N D I V I DU A L SURVIVES THIS LEVEL OF OPPRESSION LONG ENOUGH TO REACH PUBERTY. TH E FEA R S AND CONVENTIONAL DEG R E E TO W H I C H THE E N V I RONMENT I N FLUENCES THESE G E N ET I C POTE N T I A LS D E P E N DS O N TH E TUDES A R E E M OTIONA LL Y R E I N FORCED. ITS E M E RG I NG S E X U A L I TY IS THEN D I V I DED I NTO T H E P E R V E R S E A N D T H E S A N CT I FIED. "NOR WILL YOU WET YOU RS E LF. A SYNTHETIC N EOTEN Y OR AT L E A ST THE FANTASY OF O N E. SOC I A L. ( B I S E X U A L . I NT E N S I TY WITH W H I C H T H E G E N E S COLLECTI VELY WORK TO EXPRESS T H E M S E LV E S . LYING BETW E E N T H O S E A N OT H E R . HUMAN M A SC U L I N E A N D FEM I N I N E . SEXUAL WITH OR SOME TRANS­ H I S BONE R A G E D WITH THE REST OF H I M ." S E L E C T I V E LY R E I N FORCED. PITA BLE. HUMAN M A N ITY ITSE LF. W H AT I N D I V I D U A L'S B E H A V I O R I S ALSO S E PA RATED I NTO N O R M A L A N D A B N O R M A L. WON D E R E D I F T H I S W A S R EGRESSIVE. MOST OF THEM V A R I ABLY D E F I N ITIVE. SOME EQUA LLY OBDU RATE." PU N I S H I NG T H E HUMAN.

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C H I LD R E N . THIS IS A POWE R I N TO A GAME. S I N C E Y O U W E R E CONCERN ED.B E FO R E INSIDE HIS I COULD R E S E A R C H IT. STY L E ARE THIS OF IS SM T U R N E D FEMALE POW E R STRUCTU RES.S. ALL FACES A R E EXPECTED T O L OO K U P T O M E N . IT B E L I TTLES YOUR I N D I V I D U A LITY. A NOTH E R BEATING. BUT NOBOD Y CARES A N D A L L I CAN DO I S W E T M Y PANTS I N FEAR. I N M A N Y SOCI ET I E S . WHAT M E N H A V E DO N E A DV A NTAGE DOES N O T C R E D I T T H E M THAT CHA NGES STI LL COLOR WITH M U C H MATURITY A N D FURTH ER SUGGESTS T H E M A L E IS A LSO M O R E F R IGHTEN E D. H A V I NG M E T YOU. A R E S E R V I N G YOU R SOC I ETY FOR EVER. PRIDE I WADE FOR D E V I ATING FROM THE CONTR IVED NORM. T H A N K Y O U . I'M 1 78 . H E COULDN'T WAIT T O SEE TH E B R U ISES. T H E W A Y WE W E R E W H E N L E A V I N G TA N N H A US E R . NOBODY ENJOYS SERVING THEIR SOC I ETY. ANYMORE. WHICH FI RST OVERTHREW THE OTH E R I S PURELY ACADEMIC A N D NOT E A S I L Y PROV E N . F R IGHT­ F E M I N I N I TY . W I V ES. THEN SHAMES TH R O U G H YOU THE FOR HAVING PUT YO U R SOC I ETY IT BOTH E R . ENSH R I N E D WITH SOLE M N VOWS AND W H I S P E R E D S U P P LICATIONS. H E R E A LIZES M Y T R U ST I N Y O U I S N O T POORLY FOU N DED. Y O U . I LOST THE IDEA HOWLING. SO T H E AND S A N CT I F I E D EYES H I MS E L F I N ST E A D THROUGH T H E WOME N B R E D TO M I R ROR H I M . YOU R SOC I ETY THREATE N S YOU WITH C R I M I N A LIZATION AND D A M NATION. C I V I L I ZATION WORKS BY M A K I NG YOU FEEL SM A L L. DEGRADES YOU P. H A V E OR WANT AN YTH I NG U N LESS YOU R SOCI ETY SAYS YOU CAN. WITH IF TH I S I S T R U E . SOM ETI M E S F I E RC E M A LE S HAVE OVER­ E N E D AN D F E E LI N G G U I LTY. AT F E E LS THE LIKE ROUTI N E E D G E OF JU NGLE THROUGH DANGE RS. TOO FRIGHTENED TO CONTROL BLADDER ITSELF. A LSO. HIS ASS TO F I N A L. OF ESPECIALLY PEOPLE'S G R E E N . IT I S N O SIR. OC C A S I O N A L L Y SAD B EC O M E F I E RC E A N D OVERTU R N THE MALE POWER STR UC­ TURE. THEIR GLO R I F I C A T I O N IS V E R Y COCKY. CON V E N T I O N A LI Z E D S OC I E T I E S WHERE AND L I V I NG. HE NEEDS TO REMEMBER ME. S E C R ET THAT WOM E N A R E EXPECTED TO A C T AS SOU N D I NG BOA R D S FOR M A LE I N SECU RITI ES. M I N E AS WELL AS HIS. AS N E U ROTIC A S HE IS I N S EC U R E THE A BO U T H I MSELF. M I SS YOU. FANATIC OR D E P R E S S E D. S U D D E N LY IT I S A CRIME TO DO. PEOPLE EVEN SET A G A I NST TH E M SELVES MORE S O A G A I N ST O N E ANOTH E R . T H E TH E OFFIC I A L STORY IS THAT YOU DRAGG E D M E PREVALENCE S U GG E S T S TO OF MALE POW E R STRUCTU R E S HUMAN MALE F R O M T R A S H C A N TO T R A S H C A N A N D P U B L I C LY BEAT THE LIVING WORMS OUT OF ME AT EVERY ONE OF THEM. AND YOU DESERVE B E C A U S E YOU A R E A C H I L D AND A DAMN N U I SANCE. DANIEL SEEMS VERY COM FORTA B L E WITH YOU . YOU R E S I ST AT F I RST. I NVENTION NON E X I ST E N T D R I P P I NG WITH TORTU R E D BODI ES. YOU R E M A I N OBEDI ENT­ LY S M ALL. APOCALYPSE. BEING THE B O Y S A G A I N . ONLY A AND NOW WADE I SN'T QUITE T H E SAME TH E R E FEW IS MUCH TRUTH TO IN THAT WITH C E R TA I N SOME THAT T H E POSSESSES A N I N H E R ENT ADVANTAGE OVER THE F E M A LE. BUT YOU BY TH E T I M E YOU'VE WITH U N PRECEDENTED AND M U C H HOOTI NG. FO RGIVE A MONG ME.: I WROTE THIS B E FO R E I ACTUALLY TALKED WITH J R A N D DISCOV E R E D YOU HAD ALREADY TOLD H I M TH E BATTE R E D DETAI LS. ONLY E ROTICALLY R E LEVA NT. I T I S MASS N E U ROSIS IN PROGRESS. BEEN POTTY-TR A I N E D. S I R . THEY DO IT BECAUSE IT IS TH E I R D U T Y A N D B E C A U S E LIFE I S T OO S E R I O U S T O E NJOY. A N D DOGS-AL L A R E S L A V E S TO A FIERCE SORT OF MASCULINITY THE AND A SAD SHOU L D YOU FAIL TO A P P R E C I ATE T H E S E R I OUS­ NESS OF SERVI NG. SO I SADDLED M Y KITE A N D SWUNG C ROSSTOWN TO WATCH THEM HIS PLACE. SEC R ETLY F E E L I N G I U N D ERSTAND THE E Li M I N I ATION OF REPU LSIONS I S N ECESSAR Y IF T H E PROC ESS OF M ATURATION IS TO COM PLETE ITSELF. I DISPLAYED THEM. B U T M E N CAUGHT E Y E I N G OTH E R MEN ARE S U S PECTED MAN OF PERVERSION. I'M LACED AT THE I'M M O M E NT.SO U N DS DANCE BLACK AND B L U E OV ER A SONG A AND LIKE.

I O N L Y K N E W THAT I S A W A P A R T OF M YSELF I N LORD P RESTON THOUGH HE WAS MORE PO W E R F U L AND MY H A R MLESSNESS M O R E OBVIOUS. BUT NOT H E A V I E R W H I C H I N DICATED T O M E H E W A S A PREDATOR I NSTEAD O F A SCAVENGER. SOM ETI M E S BY T H E I N D I F F E R E N C E O F T H E I R WORLD. MASC U L I N E/FE M I N I N E REVERSED ( R E S E A RC H EGYPT. AND SOPHOCLES). OPPRE S S E D YET FOR E V E R S E E K I NG TO BE R E A LIZED. PEOPLE OF THE NOT TO LOOK A T ONE ANOTH E R IN A M A L E . FROM AGAI NST T H E W H I P P I NG P A I N . PRAYING TO N O GOD THAT I WOULD C O M E OUT OF THI S H A PP I E R T H A N I WAS. I TOOK EVERY OPPORTU N I TY TO I N FO R M H I M OF WHAT I LIKED BY TELLING F R E E LY OF MY P R EVIOUS -OTHERS H A V E TOLD ME I'M H EAVY B U T I N OTH E R W A YS. WON D E R I N G AS H E BELITTLED M Y PREVIOUS TALES A S B R AGG I N G MY F I R ST I M PRESSION OF LOR D P R E STON WAS THAT HE WAS M UC H TALLER THA N I H A D E X PECTED H I M T O B E . I NTENSE. I S A N K U N D E R IN A H ETERONE U ROTIC SOC I ETY. S E C O N D B E A T I NG S H A TTE R I NG SOCI ETY. I NSTE A D MY SECOND I M P R E SS I O N FEARED T H AT LORD H E GREW E X C I T E D BY T H E KNOW L E DGE THAT M Y SHOULD E R S H A D N E V E R BEEN W H I PPED BEFORE A N D THAT HE W A S OPE N I NG A R E A S WITH I N M E THAT H A D NEVER BEEN OPENED. I ANGER E D AND RAGED THE D OC U M E N TS A N ATO L I A . I SQUEEZED TEETH AND A N D TO I N T I M I DATE OTH E R S ." H E C H I DED. IN M A N Y O F THE SOC I ET I E S B E FORE 2000 B C AND SO M E AS LATE AS 50 BC. M Y BACK DISPLAYING HIS MARKS AND MY MOUTH FEA R E D THE BLACK A N D B L U E M A R KS. GAGGED T O K E E P M E F R O M BRAGG I NG ABOUT T H E M . I H A D F E LT BLOWS L I K E T H E S E O N C E B E FORE A N D FEA R E D GOI N G I NTO SHOCK EVEN MORE THAN I PROSPECT O F H I S TAKING M E O U T I N BLACK LEATH E R COLLAR A N D LEATH E R RESTRAI NTS. THEY G R A BBED R U B B E R CORNERS." . AND TH E A N D HE W A STED NO TI M E RELENTLESSLY BEATING M E FOR T H E R E ST O F T H E NIGHT A S H E LED ME FROM ONE TRASHCAN TO ANOTH E R . T H E TEMPLE AUTOMATICA LLY W E N T U P WITH THE FI RST SMACK OF HIS B ELT B R E A K I NG STA RS. THE SECOND SMACK B U RST I N G MY A PP R E C I A T I O N . DAN I E L A N D I H A V E SURVIVED M Y B R UI S E S B E FO R E . I SENSED HIS SMUG EYE BEHIND M E . BUT I W A S TOO BUSY A R E T H E M S E LV E S E A S I LY I N T I M I DA T E D ­ SOMETI M E S B Y A T R U E E N E M Y. P R E STON WOU L D PUT M E I NTO SHOCK. RESISTING T H E P A I N T O S U B M I T T O I T .PEOPLE A R E NOT DESPERATE FOR POW E R U N LESS THEY ARE DESPERATE TO I M PR E S S T H E M S E LVES U S U A LLY BECAUSE LORD PRESTON'S B E LT CONTI N U E D B R E A K I NG M E AND MY THOUGHTS. . ANCIENT E TH I O P I A . • A N D LA B E L L E D M Y HEAVY A STRANGE S O R T OF PU FF. NO C H A I N S TO P U LL AGA I N ST. W H E N H E F I N A L L Y STO P PED.DO M I N A T E D SU PERFICI A L I DOLIZATIONS D R Y W I T H F E A R A N D C RYSTA L LI Z I N G K N E W IT. "I THOUGHT Y O U W E R E H E A VY. M A SC U L I N E C R I T I C I S M I S STA N DA RDIZED A S . ORDEA LS.J U STICE. OFTEN BY THAT PORTION O F TH E M S E LV E S T H A T H A S R E M A I N E D U NKNOWN. SUMER. I FED O N HIS FEVER. I A M . H ERODOTUS. FEM I N I N E C R I T I C I S M STA N D A RDIZED AS IDLE GOSSI P. SENSITI VITY TO M Y OWN. H E BELTED M Y V I R G I N SHO U L D E R S S O H A R D SO I M M EDI ATELY THAT I K N EW I HAD N O HOPE O F B U I LD I N G DELIC ATE C R U ELTI E S I N TO A RC H I T E CT U R E S OF P A I N . A LS O T H E THOUGHT I T B EST I EXPRESS MY CONC E R N . M Y E Y E S LESS 1 79 . M INOANS. THEY W E R E AND KISSED M E W H E R E I T F E LT BEST. ANCI ENT THE WITH T H A T T H O U G HT. B U T H E ONLY C A R E D A BOUT H I M S E LF. OR AT ROLES LEAST WERE MORE COM PLETELY BA LANCED. AND B A B Y LO N I A . NO ROPES AS M UCH AS I WANTED THEM. THE S ELF-A N A LYS I S I M A Y H A V E BEG U N . A I NTO WORSH I P B E FO R E I EVEN ANY SAME SEX ARE WITHOUT CRITICISM. T H E FOURTH A N D S E V E R A L MORE BLOWS CUT I N TO MY SHOULDERS WITH NO HE LU R E D ME I N TO HIS CONTROL WITH A THE EXC E PT THAT HE PREFERS TO T H I N K OF U S AS STALLIONS. H I S FINGE RTIPS R U P TU R I N G A LO N G MY B E A M I NG I HIDE AS HE HE T R A C E D T H E M U SC L E S W H E R E WHISPERE D HOW BEAUTIFUL CRI NGED. LORD P R E STON HAD A NEW DOG TO SHOW. I H A D NO GAG TO B I T INTO. ONLY A FOOLI S H S U B M I SSION. TH I R D SCREA M I NG . A N D I H A D N O EXCUSE FOR IT-NO BONDAGE. H E COULD HAVE SMACKED MY INSOLENCE. I WANTED TO CRY. MY BREATH I NG A LWAYS WOR RI ED. F I N A LLY H E STO P P E D B E LTI NG M E . H I S TO R I E S O F D I O DO R U S S I C U L U S .

Y A N K I NG AGA I N ST H I S F I R M G R I P O N M Y S C A LP. ORDERED S EX U A LS. FASC I N A TED B Y T H E S E PEOPLE WHILE C RAZY WITH A L U ST TO B E B E ATEN A GA I N AND T H E FEA R OF WHERE IT WAS LO R D LEADING P R E S TON ME. I WAS AGA I N . T H E N OVERW H E L M E D M E W I T H THE MOST E ROTIC BEATI NG O F M Y LIFE. T O T H A T B E LT U N T I L F R A NTIC T O E SC A P E I T AGA I N A N D AGAIN. EROTICIZED B E I NG M A N Y O F THE M E N H A V I NG P U N I S H E D F O R TH E I R T R A N SV E STI S M . RAGE AT A N D F I N A LLY S U B M I T I LAU G H E D INSIDE A STI F F A ND TENDER BODY. PHYSICAL CONTI N U E D I N C A PA B L E OF ANY HE R ES I S T A N C E . T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS K N E W A N D W E R E A M AZED. I H A D NO T I M E T O WON D E R WHY. POO R T H I NG. H E C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E UNTI L I ONLY H U NG TH E R E B L U B B E R I NG.D R I N K I N G FI STD R I LLI N G T R A S H C A N OF T H E M A LL. HIS BUT MORE S E RVE FORC I NG D R E A D. THIS M A STER PROCEEDED TO B I N D M E S P R E A D. AT THE SI LKY DINER. THEY H A D GAT H E R E D TH E R E AT A CONVENTION F O R THE L I B E RATION OF S A D O M A S OC H I S M FROM A NONCON SENSUAL HE GOT MORE MARKS THAN EITHER TOO OF US A N T I C I PA T E D BECAU S E H E WAS S E N S UOUS AND I TOO C RAZY WITH IT TO S A Y N O A S H E PULLED ME OUT OF THE A PPLA U S E OF H ETEROS E X U A LS I NTO T H E B I G G E S T P I S S. A M A I T R E S S E G R A B B E D ME FROM B E H I N D. M UCH ME TO I E V E N M O R E ACUTELY A W A R E OF MY N U D I TY A N D R E M E M B E R E D H E A R I NG O F T H I S TACTIC B E FORE. M Y T E R RO R LOVELESS E V E N A S T H E C RO W D OF GRIMY M U SC L E D M E N S H O O K TH E I R OPPRESSION. EVERY T I M E HE BEAT ME M E T O ST R I P NAKED IN FRONT OF E XC E PT FOR MY SOC KS. I N STEAD HE L E D ME A BOUT WITHOUT THE GAG AND WITH IT IT A FAR S U BT L E R HOW BONDAGE. H AULING M Y S E L F OFF T H E SOM E O F IT N E RVOUS. T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS A M AZED M E A S MUCH A S WE A M A Z E D T H E M . DEFI NITELY A LESS CON F I D E N T I M PR E SSION THAN THE FI RST A N D EVEN THE S E C O N D I M P R ESSIONS. WAS. MY THIRD I M PRESSION OF LORD PRESTI ON WAS AS THIS MAN WHO WAS PRETE N D I NG TO BE MY THAT EITHER I D I D WHAT H E WANTED OR I WAS IN MORE TROU BLE THAN I A LREADY WAS IN. A FEW TRASH C A N S LATER.F I E RC E . FLESH WAS HOT WITH N E R V E S .E AGLE TO A V E RTIC A L GRID. C A N S A N D S P R A Y E D M E WITH B E E R A N D SODA. TH E BEATINGS POLITELY D I S M I SS E D H E R . B U T H E D I DN·T. A S K I N G I F I . K N EA D I N G HER CLAWS I N TO MY I M P R ESSION W A S L A R G E LY A PROJECTION OF MY OWN ANTICI PATION S . I RUSHED AT HIS SADDEN. AT TH E TA N N H A U S E R . EYED H I M . ORGA S M S OF PAl N A N D FEAR BLASTING AS I FOUGHT A G A I N ST ROPES AND C H A I N S WH I L E N A K E D I N FRONT O F STR ANGERS. SOM ETI M E S I FEARED M Y LORD'S MOOD. OUR BODI E S IN LOVE. I W A N T E D S O M E WATER. ME COULD THEN BEATING EVEN UNTIL M Y R A G I N G BON E F I N A LLY SPI LLED A N D I S C R E A M E D . M I N D LESSLY ROA R I NG. M Y BELLY TIGHTE N I N G A N D PULSING W H I L E T H E TI P O F M Y P E A N U T STUNG. HAVE BEGAN TO F E E L GOOD. S H E A S K E D T H E Q U E ST I O N AGAIN OF LO R D P R E ST O N AND HE BLOODY M U S H A N D I WOULD LOVE IT. G LO R I O U S W I T H T R A N S S E X U A L H U M I L I A TI O N AS THEY S U F F E R E D. STILL FIND EROTIC." G R O U N D U NT I L S U S P E N D E D BY F L E X E D B I C E P S . l BO . BUT SOON FRETTED WITH T H E KNOWLEDGE TH I S MAN COULD TU RN ME I NTO A E L E PH A NTS A N D M U N C H I NG I N M Y E A R . H A D B E E N LEFT T H E R E A L L A LONE. H E C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E F U R T H E R .I N A VERY RESERVED SORT OF W AY-FOR TRYING T O B E WHAT THEY W E R EN·T. FOR BEFO R E THE I COU LD EVERY TIME HE S TO P P E D . I E X P LO D E D . M Y P A N I C T OO C O L D . I EXAGG E R A T E D E V E RY S E N SATION WITH F R A N TI C BREATHI NG. I T U R N E D MY E Y E S A W A Y FROM H E R WITH A LL T H E P R I D E OF K N O W I N G WHO M Y R E A L M A STER W A S A N D. TH E A I R W A S HEAVY WITH G U I LT. C H A I N E D MY W R I STS TO A N OV E R H E A D B E A M A N D. THE MAN W EA R I N G D E A D M I C E A R O U N D H I S N EC K D I D N O T KNOW WHAT W E W E R E DOI NG. G R A B B I NG M E BY T H E H A I R . SOM ETI M E S I BATH E D I N T H E SWEAT A N D TH E HEAT OF H I S BODY EMBRACING THOUGH MY ME. I BREATHED WITH AN I N C R E A S I NGLY GEN U I N E R E S E NTED E F F ECTIVE THEN. LO R D P RESTON EYED M Y E Y E AND S M I LED. T H E REST O F M E TWISTING A N D STRUGGLING T O D E A L W I T H . HIS D E E P VOICE H U NGRY AT T H E V I S ION OF M Y M A R K E D M U SC LES. "TH I S I S V E R Y BIZARRE. ALL OF ME IN A COLD TERROR B A TT E R E D OR S P I R I T U A L. T H E B E LT W A S T OO A N G R Y FOR M E T O W A N T I T . K N O W I N G W H E N TO STOP S I N C E HE W A N T E D M E A G A I N AND WITH A S M A N Y M A R K S ON M Y BODY A S H E COULD L E A V E WITHOUT LOS I N G M Y A FFECTION. P ROC E E D E D TO B E A T M Y T E N D E R BODY. BUT SO H A R D MY RAGE W A S G E N U I N E AGA I N . T H E N E S C A P E . F I R ST TI M E H ETERO­ E M B R A C E A N D A C C E PT E D H I S D E E P LONG K I S S I NTO MY H E A V Y B R E AT H I NG. WITHOUT TH E PHYS I C A L R E I N FORC E M ENT I ONCE. TH E N . AGA I N H E O R D E R E D M E TO STRI P. N E E DI NG T O P I S S . FOR H E R I N FO R M A T I O N . S O M E O F IT SMUG.

HE GRABBED ME I N THE M I DDLE OF A FEAR A N D SIGNALLED HE WAS DONE. THEN LAUGHED D E F E N S I V E LY AT A GUSH OF U N E X PECTED PAIN. IT A LSO SUGGESTS THAT GODS A R E HYPE RTROPH I C MANI FESTATIONS OF OUR I N N E RMOST DESI R ES TO BE MORE THAN W E ARE A N D THAT WE WORSH I P OUR GODS A S I NTENSELY A S W E L U ST TO WORS H I P OURSELVES. W H E N YOU PRAY DESPITE G ROWING DOUBTS. I GRABBED A POL E SO I COULD R E M A I N STA NDI NG. EXCEPT AS A N U LTIMATE EXTEN SION OF IMAGINARY POWER STRUCTURES. GIVEN ITS KINO OF FAITH A N D THE FAITH OF OTHE R S FEEDING I NTO T H A T FAITH. T H E N YOU ARE HOPI N G SOMEBODY ELSE W I L L TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE. A N D NEVER WILL KNOW. I ADORED IT. THEY ONLY P ROVE DESPE RATE PEOPLE CAN DO MORE WITH TH E I R OWN MIND AND BODY THAN THEY T H I N K THEY CAN. VAGUELY AWA R E MY POSE WAS NOT A S THEATRICAL AS I B E L I E V E D . LORD PRESTON BROUGHT ME TO BED WITH H I M . S E N S A T I O N S W H I LE A FLOOD OF CONFLICTING EMOTI O N S H I D B E H I N D M Y S M I LE. I R E S O R T E D TO SOU NDING TOO D I S H O N ESTY I N T H E F E A R O F ROMANTIC ONLY TO F I N D I H A D FAILED T O FEED H I S E G O A N D PLEASE H I M AS I WOULD HAVE L I K E D. S H O U L D E R S A N D E L E P H A NT S R A D I A T I NG. BE I T TH R O U G H POS S E S S I O N BY D E M O N S O R THROUGH TH E GRACE OF GOD. I TOLD H I "" I T WAS TOO EROTIC KEEPING TH E M O N . I CONSIDERED B I T I N G H I M . 181 . THE EXISTENCE OF A GOO I S A I THI N K HE CAUGHT ME A N A LYZI NG TH E N . LORD PRESTON STI LL A L A R M S M E A N D MORE SO W I T H EVERY R E-EVALUATION OF THAT N I G HT. I GRABBED H I S E M BRACE. I FEARED THE LOSS OF OTH E R I NTE RESTS A N D S O RISKED THE LOSS O F LOR D PRESTON." T H E I N T E N S I T Y OF T H A T DESPE RATION DRAWING OUT OF THE I N DIVIDUAL POTENTIALS IT NEVER K N EW I T HAD. FRANTIC TO TASTE HIM AND L I C K I N G W H EREVER HE ORDERED ME. BUT D E C I D E D T H I S P U B L I C WAS N O PROTECTION . M E NTIONI NG I WAS DRAWN TO THEM BECAUSE OF TH E I R LABEL WHEN A MORE HON EST RESPONSE WOULD HAVE HOOTED THAT I W A N T E D TO KEEP THEM ON BECAUSE THEY CLUNG TO M Y FEET WITH THE FI LTH FROM EVERY FLOOR HE HAD B EATEN ME OVER. P R E F E R A B LY IN GOO. E L E P H A NTS I N TO HIS C ROTC H THIGHS W H I L E W O R D L E S S . TH E N SCR E A M E D BEFORE ADORING H I M AGA I N BECA USE H E KNEW WHERE TO STOP WITHOUT LESSENI NG M Y FEAR OF H I M . THEN PRAYERS SOM ETIM E S "WORK. H E WONDERED W H Y I DIDNT WANT T O TAK E M Y SOC K S O F F E V E N AS H E BEGAN T O DO IT F O R ME. IT TELLS M E THEY HAVE BEEN TRICKED I N TO BELIEVING THAT THE I R UNREALIZED POTENTI A L LI ES I N A NOTH ER BEI NG. INDIGNANTLY ASTO U NDED.SWEATY SOCKS. BETW E E N HIS I RISKED D R I V I NG M Y FLARING AND M A SSAGED MY H E A D S A I LED. E M OT I O N A L T A N G L E D A N I E L. T H E C ROWD H A D ALREADY SC R E A M E D F O R M Y BLOOD W H I LE M Y MASTER W A S B EATI NG M E F O R H I S O W N PLEASURE. FOR MANY PEOPLE. R E A LITY WHEN FOR I N T R U T H TH E R E THE IS NO R E A L EVIDENCE E X I ST E N C E OF A N Y GOO. HE S E E M E D TO K NOW I W A NTED H I S A R M PITS A N D H I S C ROTCH A N D. THIS PHASE OF S ELF-WORSH I P IS NECESSARY I F LORD PRESTON YAWNED. I WORRI E D AS H E C H A I N E D M Y W R I STS T O M Y TH ROAT A N D PROC E E D E D T O W H I P M Y B A G S A N D BONE WITH LOOPS O F THONG. THEY WERE H A R DLY T H E SORT TO SAVE M E FROM HIS ANGER. WHEN H E TURNED M E AROU N D A N D BROUGHT M Y BACK INTO HIS C H E ST. H I S M I N D A NXIOUS W I T H HOW BEAUTIFUL H I S MARKS WERE AS I STRUGGLED BACK I N TO M Y CLOTH ES. RELEASING ME. HE TOLD ME HE ON LY STOPPED BECAUSE H E C A U G H T H I MSELF LOSI N G CONTROL. T H I C K WITH M I RACLES AND "FAITH H EALI NGS" ARE NO PROOF OF GOD. CAUSING THE N A K E D M A N W H O H A D BEEN WATC H I NG US T O F U M B L E H I S BON E AND DEPART. YOU ARE ACTIVELY CONVINC I N G YOURSELF T H A T A G O D DOES I N FACT EXIST. TH E N R E SENTED IT: WRITH E D A N D GROVELLED U N D E R IT. WHEN YOU PRAY. W H E N YOU ARE TRULY DESPERATE TO BELI EVE W H E N H E W A S DONE. C R AZY WITH THE SIGHT OF ME AT THE END OF H I S B E LT. H E PUSHED M Y FACE I NTO ALL OF T H E M A N D A LLOWED M E TO BATHE M Y TONG U E A N D M I N D T H E R E . I TOLD H I M HE ENJOYED BEATING ME M UC H H A R DER I N FRONT O F WI LD M E N THAN A MONG H ETEROSEX­ U A LS. I LA UGHED. I N A R OO M W H E R E WE W E R E A LLOWED TO TALK. S U DD E N LY HE ORDERED ME TO P U L L MY PANTS DOWN A N D P U S H E D M E B A C K ONTO T H E GAM ETABLE. H I S V O I C E B E H I N D M E P R A I S E D M Y BODY. THE I N D I V I D U A L I S EVER TO GET OVER ITSELF A N D MATURE W I T H TH E E N E RGY T O CONFRONT T H E B U S I N E S S O F A D A I LY S U RVIVAL. MORE SECRETLY I RESISTED M Y S E LF A N B E TW E E N T H I S M A N A N D THE GROWING U R G E TO S P A R E F I L L I NG M Y S E L F WITH T H E S E N SATION S AT THE BACK OF MY H E A D RUBBING TH E BACK OF HIS.

R E SOLVING ON A WANTED HIS H A N D T H E R E I NSTEAD OF MY OWN. ITS DESPERA­ TION WAS NOT MEANT TO BE SUSPENDED I N D E F I N ­ ITELY UNTI L A PATHETIC. I F THE DESPE RATION I S SUSPENDED LONG ENOUGH. M ENTA L D I SO R D E R . WE MEANING. R I D I C U LO U S . MY BONE WAS ALREADY HARD AND I WOR K E D IT. HE W H I S P E R E D I NTO MY EAR. DESPE RATION R E S I ST A N T TO SUSPENDED AND T H E R E FO R E I N A PPROPRIATE. ON LY TO FLOU N D E R A S LORD PRESTON ORDERED M E TO WORK MYSELF I NTO SPI LLING. TH E N BROUGHT HIS P E A N UT I NTO MY MOUTH A N D NONCHALA NTLY P I S S E D . IT CAN DOUBTS. SHOULDERS. BUT FIND S O M ETI M E S M Y S E LF ON HE IT F E E L S ME SO OF HAS "ARE YOU HORN Y?" HE W H I SP E RED I NTO MY HA LF­ SLEEP. EACH THIGH A N D CALF. A L L O F ME SNORTI NG F O R A I R A N D STEADYING MYSELF BY GRABBING H I S N A K E D LEGS. AS I F WAITING FOR HIM TO TA K E CONTROL. D I R ECTION OR OR BY IT F OC U S I N G CAN BE SPECIFIC WITHOUT DIFFUSE. A N D M Y BODY TO ITS KNEES. M Y B O N E R E FUSED TO RAGE A N D S PI LL. CONFUSED I THE VERGE C R Y I NG. IT C H RONIC IS A N X I ETY IS A HU RTING ORDERS ME T O D E C I D E WHICH PART OF M E HE'LL TORTURE N EXT. I GUZZLED E V E N AS H I S BLADDER PROVED LA RGER T H A N MY BELLY. H E TALKED OF TAKING EACH P A RT OF MY BODY ONE AT A T I M E . WITHOUT WORK. BUT HAR­ TH E THOUGHT C R A Z E D M E A N D I S P I L L E D EN DLESS­ LY UNTIL LORD P R E STON ENDED IT. D E S P E R A T I O N I N C A P A B L E O F R E SO L U T I O N . WHEN ROPE N E XT I WOKE. R E M E M B E R I NG THE D E PTH OF MY UNEASIN ESS AS I HAD TO WAIT. SU DDENLY I REALIZED HE WAS IN CONTROL. OR SO IT DENED HAPPY IN THE W A R MTH OF LORD PRESTON'S BODY CURLED ROU N D M Y OWN. HIS BON E STI LL MOVING WON DROUSLY I NSIDE M E . "STR I P. A N X I ETY EVOLVED A S A M EC H A N I S M FOR QU ICKLY R E S PO N D I NG TO ATTACK OR P E R I L. THE EXPLOSIONS A S P A I N LESS AS THEY W E R E DISORI E NTING. T H I S D I FFUSE A N X I ETY I S USUA LLY S U BC O N SC I O U S AND M A N I F E STS ITSELF AS S E R IOUSN ESS. CONVENTION A LI Z E D S M G E N ERATES I B2 . IT SOU N DS R I D I C U LO U S . THE USE OF HIS HAND D E S P E RATION CON C E R N .WITH I N A COOPERATIVE GROUP TI M E TO PLAY AS EFFORT SEEKING WELL LOSE AS WORK R E M E M B E R I NG HOW EASILY HE PUT ME IN A N D OUT OF MY CLOTH ES. ITS M OT I V A T I O N . T H E U S E O F MY BODY H I S. S E E M E D. "YES. WITHOUT P L A Y . H E SLID I N . A P A S S I O N T H I C K E N E D I N S I DE ME. EVEN MORE D I SQU I E T I N G IS THAT HE HAS ME SO I NO LON G E R K N O W W H AT'S R E A L A N D WHAT'S CON· TRIVED. HAND AND FOOT. SI R. PLEADI NG. " T H A T TERRI FY I NG O R D E R T O Y I E L D EVE RYTH I N G TO H I S B R UTA L W H I M . LAST? HOW LONG IS THIS GOI NG TO A N X I ETY FOR IS AN EMOTIONAL T U R MOI L DESPERATE C H A RG E D BE WTH FEARS AND ITS D I R EC T I O N . W E LOSE OUR WARMTH A N D BECO M E TOO SERIOUS T O LOVE . N E U RO S I S . AND I LEA R N E D H E COULD DRI LL MY H O L E ALL DAY A N D I WOULD LOVE IT. T H E N ELEPHA NTS. MASS N E U ROSIS W H E N CONVENTION ALIZED. HE STI R R ED." HIS HAND M O L E ST E D THE HOLE BETW E E N MY TH E N I GROW ANGRY AT MY FAILURE TO K E E P ELEPH A NTS. BY B E L I TT L I N G AND DEG R A D I NG A N YO N E ' S I N D I V I D U A LITY. ROSE. EACH ARM. BUT I N S I D E I T H I N G S I N PROPORTION A N D I S H A K E MYSELF F O R A N E W P E R S P ECTIVE. FROM B E H I N D ME. ITS E N ERGY D I S S I PATES AND S O B R I ETY B E C O M E S A P ATH E T I C . DESPERATE TO BE E M B RACED. R E ACTI V E . BAGS A N D PEANUT. H I S WORDS SOU N D I NG A R E A LITY W H E R E WITH A S I NGLE WORD H E WOU LD B R I N G TEARS TO M Y EYES. I FROWNED A T T H E LACK OF A ROU N D MY H A N DS AND FEET. A N D I N S E C U R I T I E S FIXATED. I CA N'T S E E M TO DISC I P LI N E MYSELF TO FORGET H I M . A NTICI PATING HIS NEXT BEATING. A FT E R A PRELI M I NA RY PEEVE. ENOUGH TOG ETH ER. A TREMBLING TO MY BODY. TORTU R I N G EACH ONE U NTI L ALL OF ME I S TOO TENDER TO TOUCH A N D MY M I N D SO MUCH THAT IT BREAKS WHEN HE R E SOLUTION. MY HOLE OPENED. I K N E W WHAT THE S I NGLE WORD FROM HIM WOULD BE. G R E A S E D I T AND BROUGHT H I S FRESH BONE I N TO PLACE.

THE CONVENTI O N A L­ IZED SM R E I N FO R C E S THIS S E R IO U S N ESS WITH NO CONVENTION A L SYSTEM W I L L TOLERATE THIS. BY EROTICIZING THE CONVENTIONAL POW E R GAME I NTO A CONTEXT FOR FANTASY. T H E N DI FFUSES I T D U R I NG T H E E A R LY Y E A R S O F TRA I N I NG. I'M STI LL S H A K I NG. MASS N E U ROSIS I S M O R E DIFFICULT TO M A I NTI A I N I F ITS CHRONIC A N X I E T I E S A R E B E I N G FOC U S E D A N D R E SOLV E D W I THOUT LESSEN I NG WHICH THE SOC I A L R E G U LATI O N . REQUI R I NG MORE VIOLENT E MOTIO N S TO R E SOLVE TH EM. TH E DECOY DRAWI NG TH E I R ANXI ETI E S O U T OF THE S U BCO N SCIOUS A N D FOC USING T H E M I N T O A L U S T FOR POW E R A N D G LORY. D R E A M S R E L E A S E THE S U BT L E R A N X I ETIES. THE MORE INTENSE TH E E ROTIC SM. N E U ROSIS. S E X U A L S M A LLOWS T H E PARTI C I PANTS T O P L A Y PA RTS OF T H E POWER G A M E T H E Y A REN'T P LA Y I N G I N T H E I R EVERYDAY LIVES. T H U S OR A PATH Y WITH S E R IOUSN ESS W I L L S E R V E. W E FORCE I T OUT OF AWARE­ N ES S A N D BECOME S E RIOUS. 010. PEOPLE FOR T H I S R E A SON A LONE. A N D M A S S N E U RO S I S S E T S TH EM I NTO ACTION. ESPECIA LLY EROTIC S M. THAT THE R E ALITY WOULD OBJECT IS TO NOT EITH E R R E LE A S E P R E S S E D EMOTIONS. A N X I ETY. I S T H E FACT F A N TA S I Z I N G LETS YOU FOC U S SOME DIFFUSE THAT HE HAS M A D E I T CLEAR THAT THIS W I L L NOT INTRUDE I NTO M Y R E LATION S H I P WITH DA N I EL. BESIDES H I S OWN P E R SONAL FORCE. I CAN S E E H I S GAME. I S MORE N E U ROTIC THAN TH E I R CONFOR M ITY. ME WITH A OF WHO W I L L LET THEM­ SELVES BE CONTROLLED AND THOSE WHO WANT TO CONTROL. THE CONVENTION M A K E S TH E RULES. FANTA S I E S A R E A R E S PONSE TO U N R ESOLV E D A N X I ETY. B U T A S A COM P E N SATION FOR IT. EROTIC SM. ESCAPE BUT LAC K I N G THE WILL TO DO SO. THOSE O R I G I N ATI N G COU R S E O F A AND DAY U N RESOLVED OR TWO. 1 83 . W H A T R E A LLY A L LOWS ME TO C O N T I N U E . WILL HE ACHIEVE HIS GOAL ONLY TO TOSS M E ASIDE LIKE SOME TOY THAT NO LONGER A M U S E S H I M ? R EALITY. U N A B L E T O R E SOLVE OU R D E S P E R ATION. THE POWER GAME ACQ U I R E S ITS RAGING BONE. T H E DURING LO N G E R THE THE TO LOR D P R ESTON. I S M ERELY A R E F LECTI O N NOT OF I T S CO N V E N T I ON A L FO R M . IT N E V E R D I D . AS AN ELEMENT OF IT TRY TO CONVI N C E MYSELF I AM ON LY CONTRIVING THIS. R E L I G I O U S A N D PO L I T I C A L DELUSIONS WHICH A C T EITHER AS A N A RCOTIC T O E N C O U R A G E A PATHY O R A S A DECOY FOR THOSE W H O S E E N E RGY WILL NOT D I S S I PATE. THE MORE IT'S J U ST AN IDEA. E ROTIC SM T H E R E FORE HAS TH E POTENTI A L TO R E SOLVE SOM E OF OUR MOST FIXATED A N X I ET I E S . I CAN S E E M E TELLING MYSELF I W I L L GET DOES E X I ST MASS OVER H I M A N D AT THE SAM E TI M E STEPPI NG I NTO H I S PRESENCE. J U ST AS A N X I ETY I S A RESPONSE TO D A N G E R . EROTIC SM'S MAJOR POTENTI A L I S I N ITS VIOLENCE. KNOWING IT TO B E A TRAP I MAY NEVER LEAVE. A N D R E LEASE IT. I STILL FEEL POW E R LESS IN H I S PLAY. E N TI R E BODY SHIVE R I NG A N D WOR R Y I NG. KNOWI NG HOW TO A LL O F THEM C H RONICA LLY ANXI ETY­ R I D D E N . TH E CONVENTION HAS D U P E D ITS N E U ROTIC MASSES I NTO B E L I E V I NG THAT F A NTASY PLAY. I ONLY TOLD MYSELF IT S I M PLY EXAGG E RATES T H E EVERYDAY AN EXTR E M E WAY. EVEN AS I THE SM OF S E X U A L FANTASY. PLAYERS. G I V I N G IT A D I R ECTI ON. USUALLY T H E FANTA S I E S A LLOW THE PLAYERS TO TAKE ROLES OPPOSITE TH OS !" THEY HAVE IN H E MADE I T CLEAR HOW MUCH H E OWNS ME.A COMMON A N X I ETY. T H E M O R E FIXED THE Y BECOME. BUT IT CHA NGES N O N E OF MY R E ACTIONS. HIS I N STR UCTI ONS YET HE HAD WITH L E FT MY ME TODAY. THE F I RST GODS WERE L I K E THE P U NC H I NG BAGS WE WORK THOSE THAT H A V E U S S E R V I NG OU R SOCI ETY. THE DIC HOTOMOUS ACTION OF THESE DELUSIONS ALLOWS TYPES CON V E NTIONALIZED PEOPLE-THOSE sM TO BREED TWO LORD PRESTON COM M U N ICATED HIS VOICE. SU­ I F E A R T H E TOTALITY WITH W H I C H T H I S MAY FIXATE M E ON H I M . BUT IT STR UCK ME THAT ORIGINALLY GODS M A Y HAVE A C T E D A S A P R I M E R FOR AGG R E SSION. A N X I ETIES P E R S I ST. B U T OC C A S I O N A L L Y T H E F A N T A sT Y ROLES TO A L LOW. D A N I E L I S M E R ELY A N OTH E R STA LLION LORD P R E STON's STA LLION HAS T A K E N A STRONG FANCY TO. I NC L U D I N G TRANSFIGU R E D I NTO A FOREV E R D E F E N D O U R S E LVES AGA I N ST. I K NOW EXACTLY WHAT H E I S DOING. THE E ROTI CIZATION FINAL POW E R OF WE FEAR M U ST VIOLENT THE EMOTIONS IT RELEASES. A L R E A DY HE HAS ME IN PLACES NO ONE HAS EVER HAD B E FORE. T H I S NO LONGER FEELS L I K E A GAME.

HOW I M IGHT LOOK I N YOU R EYE. R . T R A V E L L I N G : R O B E R T E W A L K I N G SEEN F R O M R E A R . PERVE RTS A N D INFERIORS WHILE THE GODS M UTATE D I NTO TERROR O F YOU R FEEL IF YOU WAS R EACTION A N D HOW IT WOU L D B E AT I N G A ME THEN. P A L M O F R:S HAND SEEN BY CORPULENT M A N . J A SON K LE I N TH E B R U I S ES LOOK BEA UTI F U L IN THE M I RROR. THEY S E E M M O R E A PART O F M E NOW A N D M A K E ME LOOK L I K E A N A N I M A L . D I V I N E D I SC I PL I N A R I A N S FAILURE TO COM P E N SATI NG R E S PO N S I B L E FO R FOR OUR OUR­ R EACTION FANTASY. BUT I YO U R E A S I LY WERE O N LY J U S T I FICATIONS FOR TH E I R P E R S ECUTION. ONE HOLDING BAG. 44. 4 2 . T H E N I N E E D TO BECA M E P U N C H I NG BAGS OTH E R PEOPLE L A B E L L E D FREA KS. THE CORPU L E N T MAN PLACES H I M S E L F BETW E E N THE DOOR OF THE SHOP AND R. 40. I TRI E D FOR A SECOND C O M I NG. A NOVEL EVEN IF THEY HAVE DULLED U N DE R TH E DUST O F 39. EYES OF CORPULENT MAN WHO WALKS MORE S LOWLY. GODS W E R E U N DOUBTEDLY I N V E N T E D OUT O F A DESPERATION FOR POW E R . HER H A N DS. STILL REMAIN S E LVES. SIR. 41 BIS. 43. 41. ANGRY FOR AIR AND S U DDE N LY PISSING I N THE THAN WE A R E BUT H A V E TO B E TO S U R V I V E . I F TH E R E I S A BASIC TRUTH DETER M I N E HOW THE H E R E . ROBERTE'S H I PS. 1 84 . PISS I DI DN"T E V E N TRY. W I N DOW S ROUGHLY PA I N TED. AND I IN TE R ROR U NTIL. W I N DOW D I SPLAY OF WOMEN'S BLOUSES. 415. 42 B I S. EXCERPTS FROM BUGS. I S U S P E N D E D M Y S E L F BY T H E N EC K T O WATCH TH E M A N D H O W I M IG H T STR UGGLE. S P I L L E D E V E N THOUGH I COULD NOT BEAT M YSELF THE WAY YOU WOULD. H ESITATES I N F R O N T OF TW O N E I GH BORI NG SHOPS. I N A N Y F O R M . THE OTH E R SWINGI NG. IF THIS IS M O R E T H A N J U S T A N I NTUITIVE I N SPI RATI ON. THE DOOR O F THE N E I G H BORING SHOP. (CLOSE UP) R : S H A N D ON THE DOOR K NOB.OUT ON IN O R D E R TO R E M A I N MORE AGG R E SSIVE N E W C E LLS. D I DN'T ACTU A L L Y H A N G I NG BY MY N EC K AND T I E D H A N D-AND-FooT.

O N C E H E HAD M ET M E . THE F E M A L E I S CAUGHT I N A F U R Y OF CONTRADICTION: HER REAR E N D L I FTS U P I NVITING HIS COCK TO E NTER HER. HE TH I N K S TH E GREATEST R I S K HE TAKES IS THAT SOM EONE ELSE I AM SITTING IN MY L I V I N G ROOM. I S!! . A HOME. HE WA NTS MY BODY SLA M M I NG I NTO HIS. G R I PPING THE NAPE O F H E R N ECK BETW E E N S H A R P TEETH. EXPER I E N C E D AS REA LITY IS I N F A C T H I S FANTASY. JASON LOST T H A T DICHOTOMY. M A K I NG DECISIONS. H E THINKS TH ERE I S A R E A LITY A N D A FA NTASY WHICH E X I ST IN CONTRADICTION TO O N E A N OTHER. THAT TH E FA NTASY I S HIS C R E ATION A N D H E M A I N TA I N S POW E R OVER IT. QUICK HER TH ERE ARE OTH E R PEOPLE FOR WHOM THE REAL WORLD I S DAYLIGHT: A N I N E-TO-F I V E JOB. VIOLE NTLY O N H E R B A C K . CR EATI N G I N DEPEN DENT­ LY. THE WAVES THAT C A R R Y MY WORDS TO HIM S H ATTER H I S WOR L D AND C R E ATE H E CA N'T BE BLA M E D FOR A L L OF T H E M . H I M TO CONC E I V E OF H I M SELF AS H A V I N G A F R E E WI LL. A LOVER." WI LL. SLAM A G A I NST LEARN THAT THE DAY TO DAY EXI STENCE HE H A D THAT I S WHAT JASON WA NTS TO FEEL. HIS NEW REA LITY I S THE SOUND OF MY VOIC E A S I STAND IN F RONT OF HIM OR AS IT I S TRANSPORTED THREE THOUSAND M I LES BY JASON MAKES M A N Y M I STAKES. IT IS ENTI R E LY FALSE. AT NIGHT THEY DON LEATH E R C LOTH I N G A N D T H E Y STA LK T H E B A R S O F FOLSOM STREET O R TH E BANKS OF T H E H U DSON. WILL NOT U N DE RSTA N D WHAT H I S FANTASY IS. H E R MOUTH S N A RLS WITH A NG E R AND SPITE. THE MALE POU N C E S BUT JASON I S W RONG. THEIR OWN WORLD W H I C H H E M U ST NOW I N H A BIT. TELEPHONE WIRE. THE FEMALE IS IN H E AT. H E BELIEVES HE LEAVES REALITY AND ENTERS FANTASY OF H I S OWN TH ERE I S A JASON WHO DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT ME. H E FUCKS HER OF S A V A G E L Y. HIS DREAM WORLD I S THE SPH E R E THAT A L LOWS IT I S TOO S I M P LISTIC.A STORY DEDICATED TO J A SON JASON SAID: " M A K E ME F E E L LIKE A N A N I M A L. HE HAS H A D TO PLUNGES WETNESS. BUT HE WA NTS T H E LUXURIES OF SPITE AND CHOICE. I HAVE TWO CATS. HIS PELVIS THE S H A R P.

" CAN NOT RESIST M Y T A K I N G I T . WITH A INTENSITY CONTROL. WHEREVER ELSE H E GOES. W H E N I WOK E T H I S M O R N I NG THERE WAS A P A I N I N MY K N EE. AT N IGHT S H E SOM E T I M E S CRAWLS U N D E R M Y COVERS AND C URLS AGA I N ST MY STOM A C H . IT l S6 . HOW TH I S I S THE A N I M A L I C REATE I N J A SON. SHE SENSES GREAT PROTECTION. AT NOT COMI NG OTH E R T I M E S WITH OTH E R M E N H E CAN CHOOSE H I S R E A LITY. HE "I KNOW. AND A N D JASON GOING. HE C A N C H OO S E T O B E I N AN OFFICE BUT I THOUGHT A BOUT IT. TOU C H . MY CONTROL IT POWER. R E M I NDS M E OF WHEN THE F E M A LE CAT IS OUT OF H EA T SHE ADORES M E . S H E P U R R S AT T H E JASON. M Y S E LF. AND H E TH I N KS HE WANTS IT. NEEDS I T E L L JASON: "I A M GOI NG TO TA KE YOU TO THE P LA C E WHERE YOU WILL C R Y WHEN I WALK I NTO A ROOM. T H A T S H E WOULD STA RVE I F I D I D NOT RETURN A N D F E E D H E R . I AM ONLY AWA R E O F W H A T WOULD H A PPEN I F I ROLLED OVER ON BUT I D O NOT WANT T O TERRORIZE J A S O N . TO I KNOW MY HOW TO F E E L OF M Y W A R M GROIN. MY F R I E N D SAID: "YOU A R E PLA Y I N G GOD. I THI N K OF J A SO N . DESPE RATE FOR M E TO P I C K C H E ST . T H E PO W E R C O M E S F R O M W H A T I DO N O T 00. I T IS NOT ENOUGH. I S I T R E A D I N G A BOOK I N M Y CHA I R A N D SHE CLIMBS UP ON M Y L A P . WITH A LOV ER H AV I NG D I N N ER . VULNERABLE HOLD H E R ON SHE A L LOWS ME TO HER BACK I N SUCH A WAY THAT I COULD DROP H E R A N D S H E WOULDN'T B E A B L E TO RIGHT H E R S E LF B E FO R E SHE LA N D E D ON THE FLOOR. I WANT TO HER BODY AND IS S U F FOCATED WHEN SHE H E R. H E C A N NOT COM M A N D DO THAT WITH TH I S PE RSON IS ONE THAT I I NTO EXI STENCE. EXPLORE H I S M I N D A N D TAKE HOLD OF THAT PART W H I C H I H AVE C REATED. A N D THEN. IT AND EVERY PAIN I F E E L. A S E N SATION OF ANY K I N D OTH E R TH AN PLE A S U R E . I DO NOT WANT TO PLAY SEX ROOM GAMES WITH H I M. BUT IT. SHE HER U P A N D HOLD HER AGA I N ST M Y THE REASSURANCE OF MY F R I E N D IN BOSTON: "HOW CAN I MAKE JASON FEEL THIS WA Y7" H E T E L L S ME. I A M M A K I N G H I M WHOLE. " G I V E THE CAT-NOR T H E C A R E JASON T H I N K S I G I V E H I M . T H E R E W I L L A LWAYS B E TH I S PART OF H I S BEING THAT E X I STS O U TS I D E HIS POW E R . PUT IT BACK I NTO H I S M I ND. IT I S A SHELL THAT I FILL WITH OOE S MY LUST." BUT M Y POWE R OOES NOT COM E FROM TH E CARE I H E SAYS: ''I'M A L R E A D Y T H E R E . THIS P LACE W H E R E JASON H A S N O POW E R . H E CAN NOT REVOLT AGAI NST WHAT I 00 WITH IT. OR. M A K E H I M H O R R I F I E D T H A T I T E X I STS OUTS I D E H I M ." T R E M BLES CONTENT. I DON'T KNOW W H E R E IT C A M E FROM. OF POWE R A N D THE FURY O F M Y T R I C K ACTI NG AS THOUGH HE WERE A MASTE R . " M A K E ME FEEL L I K E A N A N I M A L. REC R EATE HIS CALL DOCTOR TH E HUGE BODY THAT IS M I N E S E E M S TO HER TO BE A SOU RCE OF H EA T AND DEFENSE. I WI LL HAVE IT W H E N E VER I WANT IT. I WANT TO G R I P I T WITH A H A R D GRASP A N D P U L L I T OUT." JA SON S A I D ." A L LO W E D L I M I TATIONS TO ITS U S E . O N L Y T H E N . A SORE. W H ATEV E R ELSE HE THE PA RT O F JA SON THAT I S MINE LIVES ONLY TH ROUGH M E.IT IS THE PERSON AT IT THE IS A WHO HEARS MY WORDS AND MY F R I E N D SA I D: "YOU W I L L B R E A K H I M . BUT WHEN ITS TH E R E I T WI LL STI LL B E M I N E. IT WOULD B E TOO EASY. H E C A N L E A V E THAT BEHIND. SCULPT IT. SHUDDERS BODY THAT IS AT T H E NO I S A I D : "HE W A S A LR E A D Y BROKEN. AS SOON AS I T H I N K OF AN A C H E. " THINKS. I DO NOT WANT TO JUST EXPLORE HIS BODY. I HAVE C R EATED A PART OF JASON THAT IS M I N E . IT IN I WANT BODY. W H E N I'VE BEEN OUT A N D R E T U R N TO T H E A PA RTM ENT S H E C I RCLES T H E ROOM SCRE E C H I NG LOUDLY. WHATEVER E LSE H E DOES. BODY AND HIS MY SELF I THOUGHT A BOUT H I S S H OO K WITH THE AND WOR K I NG. SOUNDS. THE CAT T H I N K S I AM H E R B E N EFACTOR. OR.

" JASON DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT ME. PORATE H I S DESI R ES. HE I S S I M PLY A BODY. H I S S U B M I SSION I S O U R U N I ON WITH M Y DOM I N A NCE. THE MOST PROFOU N D TRUTHS ARE THE E X I STENCE OF Y I N S I LENCE. H E ACTS OUT M Y WISH ES. I DO LOVE H I M ." PAUSE. W I T H J A SON T H E ON LY ORDER I S THAT "YES. THE 1 87 . I T I S M I N E: M I N E A LONE. I WH I P H I S BACK AND ASS A N D M A R K H I M W I T H LOVE. I HOLD H I M C LOSE AT N I G H T A N D WONDER AT H I S FEEL. IN MY P R E S E N C E THE ONLY "WHY DOES N'T SOM EONE STOP YOU?" JASON THAT E X I STS I S W H AT I HAVE C R E ATED. HAT E AND LOVE. MY F I ST. I HE IS MINE: I AM HIS. WE C R EATE RATELY." WHICH I I M POSE. PROCREATION. MORE TOG ETH E R T H A N WE ARE SEPA­ "WOULD YOU K I L L H I M ?" "NO. WE P L A N T H E I I NCOR­ I SAY: "I'LL SHOW HIM THAT H E EXI STS ONLY AT M Y WHIM. IT DOES NOT RELY ON THE H ET E R OS E X U A L ACT OF WORD. LISTEN TO H I M C A R E FULL Y. HE BECOM E S A BOY. O U R R E LATION S H I P R E M A I N S A BALANCE. AND YANG. BUT I HAVE DREAMT ABOUT IT. "DO I HAVE TO AGREE B E FO R E YOU TELL M E?" IT I S ALL SOM E FORM OF COMPENSATION.IS THE ONLY L I F E THAT I W I L L E V E R C R E ATE BY MYSELF. H E SAYS: "I DON'T KNOW TH E DIFFERENCE BETWE E N W H E N I A M WITH M Y LOVER I M E RG E WITH H I M TO C REATE A N E W FORC E : T H E S Y N E RGY OF LOVE. A L L THE ANGER. CAN FEEL. W H ATEVER. ALL THE "ABSOLUTE LY. HE SUCKS MY COCK G R E E D I LY. "ISN'T HE FRIGHTE N E D OF YOU?" I DO NOT BEAT J A SON WITH LOVE." ·WHAT WILL YOU DO TO HIM WHEN YOU GO TO BUT LOVE ISN'T WHAT I WANT FROM J A SON A N YWAY." I CALL JASON: "I WANT YOU TO DO SOMETH I NG. HE C A N NOT RECLA I M T H E OLD. W E A R E TOG ETH ER : FUTU R E ." I S M I LE." I AM THE O N E WHO S A I D IT." CALIFOR N IA?" MY FRI E N D ASKS. IT I S F I N E R TH A N THE CREATION OF A B A B Y . H E CAN ON LY EXIST I N TH E N EW. I AM IT DOESN'T MATTER WHOSE MOUTH UTTE R E D THE MY LOV E R 'S MASTER: WE ARE E QU A LS ." SPITE. IT I S SOM ET H I N G THAT N O ONE ELSE CAN HAVE." M Y LOVER H I SS E S AT M E : " Y O U G O D D A M SADISTI" I TELL JASON: ·YOU MAY END U P HATING M E. I TAKE HIS ASS WITH M Y COCK. W I LL EVER SEE. MY FRIEN D SAYS: " H E'LL END U P I N SAN E:' "HE ALREADY I S. I WILL TA K E HIM BEYOND ALL THOSE POI NTS. I TA KE FROM H I M . A L L TH E EGO. ·YES. I HAVE A LOVER TO BECOME MORE WHOLE: TO SENSE COM M U N ION WITH SOMEONE. "WHAT DOES HE GET FROM ALL THI S?" "WHO?" "LI FE. W I T H MY LOVE T H E COMPLI M E NTARY PARTS ARE OBVIOUS. W E STAY TWO M E N IN LOVE. IT IS A N ACT OF C R EATION THAT I S ENTI R E L Y I N D I V I D U A L.

JUST THE RETU R N A DD R ESS. " J A SON PLEADS. H E'S JASON:' W H A T YOU' R E GOI NG T O DO. H E ' L L K NOW T H E Y ' R E FROM M E AND I I M AG I N E W H AT H E ' L L DO. I COULD DO A N YT H I N G WITH H I M A N D TH E M . I IMAGINE H I M STA N D I NG TH E R E WITH DEEP GASPS IN H I S C H EST A N D R I V E R S O F J A SON T E A R S FLOWI N G DOWN H I S C H EEKS. STE E L P I N S. " M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M A L. I B E A T H I M . H E C A N NOT CONC E I V E OF H I M SE L F S I TT I N G A NY W H E R E BUT AT M Y F E ET. MY READING IS HOW CO U L D A N YON E POSS I B LY KNOW WHAT IT I N T E R R U PT E D BY A P L E A S A N T THOUGHT OF J A SON. ITS OWN E R S H I P:' S E M B L E N C E O F F R I VOLITY. A N D H E KNOWS T H AT NOW. I N TO MY U TT E R D O M I N ATION. H O W YOU' R E GOING T O FULFILL YOUR FANTA S I ES. HE M U ST BE M E A N S FOR J A SON TO H E A R M Y VOICE? WHENEVER IT R A I N S. H E R M I N D C A N NOT F A T H O M T H E F O R C E S OF N A T U R E T H A T B R I N G WATER FROM T H E S K Y A N D W A L K OUT TO M A I L IT. I F I N D A S E T OF LONG. I ADDRESS AN E N V E LOPE T O J A SON AND BATH ROO M . C RO UC H I N G V U L N E R A BLY B E H I N D T H E TOI LET. I S NO R E ASON FOR W H A T W I L L IS NO WAY FOR HIM TO TH E R E D E C I D E W H A T W I L L B E DON E . CONTROL THE E X I STS FORCES O F M Y V IOLENT IN UTTER H O R ROR IN MY W I T H T H E T H I N .CONTRADICTIONS OF L I F E C A N BE ACCOMODATED. H E W I L L CRY SOB B I N G LY. HE I S LIKE MY CAT. S H A R P M E T A L I N H I S H A N DS. M Y P R E S E N C E A LTERS TH E VERY FOU N D ATION O F H I S B E I NG. HE W I L L OPEN THE E N V E L O P E AND STA N D TH E R E AND I DO. B U T NOT WITH JASON. MY CAT HIDES IN TH E Q U I V E R I N G W I T H E V E R Y THOUGHT OF M E . I C A N NOT L E A V E TH IS ROLE OR THAT P A R T OF J A SO N T H A T I S M I N E WOU L D BE C R U S H ED. I S A Y : " H E'S NOT A H U M A N B E I NG. THERE HAPPEN TO HIM. J U S T LIKE M Y CAT HE MAKES STR A N G E N O I S E S A N D 1 88 . I N S U F F I C I E NT. T H I S B O D Y THAT H E I NEVER GIVE JASON THE SAT I S F A C T I O N OF TH I N K S IS HIS PASSES FROM H I S S E LF-CONTROL PREDICTA B I LITY. T H E R E I S NO NOTE. P R E S E N C E . I C A L L E D J A S O N . " I SIT IN NEW YO RK IN MY ROOM. H E'S W A I T I N G FOR M Y A R R I V A L. W H A T DOES J A SO N FEEL L I K E WHEN I A M THERE? HIS ING MY F R I E N DS SAYS: " B U T A N Y R E LATIONSH I P HAS TO HA VE A BASE OF S A N ITY:' SKIN C A N NOT TO L E R ATE CLOTH I N G SEPA RAT­ IT FROM MY E Y E S . I POS S E S S H I M:' "NOTH I N G . I S M I LE. W H A T DO Y O U SAY TO " YO U H A V E TO R E S PECT A N YO N E THAT YOU LOVE:' J A SO N ?" " 1 DONT LOVE HIM. H E'S GOING TO W H I P YOU:' HE R E P L I E S : " WH E R E DO I GO? W H E N ?" MY FRIEND SAYS: " YO U C A N NOT DO TH I S TO A N OTH E R H U M A N B E I NG. WHEN HE G ETS T H E PINS FROM ME HE WILL H A V E NO WAY O F KNOWING WHAT I I N TEND TO U S E THEM FOR. I A M TOTA LLY FOC USED. WHEN HE REC E I V E S TH E P I N S I L L U M I N A T E T H E N I G H T WITH BOOMS OF TH U N D E R E D L I G HTN I NG . TOTA LLY U N A B L E TO ALTE R O R NATURE." MY F R I E N D SAYS: "W H E N YOU'RE WITH YOUR LOV E R YOU TALK A BOUT W H E R E YOU'RE GOI NG T O L I V E . A L L FO R M S OF HUMAN TO C O M M U N IC ATON TH E Y ARE B ECOM E I NT O L E R A B L E I SAY: " TH A T S DOUG:' HIM. IT WON'T OC C U R FOR A NOTH ER THREE W E E KS. I H A R DEN AT TH E R E M E M ­ " BU T J A S O N B R A NC E OF H I S N A M E : I A M FORCE D I NTO A S E N S E OF RE SPONS I B I LITY THAT OV E R W H E L M S ANY " JASON I S N O T A R E LATIONSH I P. I STA N D U P A N D GO T O M Y D E S K . I M U ST BE. " A F R I E N D OF M I N E IS C O M I N G TO SAN F R A N C I SCO. T H E UTT E R HORROR OF TH E POSS I B I L I T I E S W I LL O V E R W H E L M HIM.

50." THERE I S A PART OF JASON FOR WHOM I AM THE ONLY SOURCE OF FOOD. BEG I N S TO CLIMB. THE SQUAT MAN. A RO U N D M I N E H O P I N G I T W I L L BE S O CLOSE TO M I N E THAT I WON'T H U RT I T . ENTERS T H E SHOP WHICH HAS NOTH I NG IN IT. A FEW STEPS A BOVE. B R I NGS HIS H A N D DOWN ON R:S HAND H O LD I N G THE BALU STRA D E . 49. JASON SAYS: " M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M AL. IT ENTRAPS HIM. H I S MOUTH F I N DS T H E SWEAT OF M Y BODY T H E SWEETEST TASTE IT HAS KNOWN. H E W I N DS H I S BODY OVERWH E L M S H I M . GOES Q U I C K LY TOW A R D THE H A L F-OPEN DOOR. R . IT P U R R I NG T H A T COMES F ROM H I M W H E N EVER I A M N O T G I V I N G H I M P A I N . AT THE R E A R OF T H E SHOP. A DOOR H A LF OPENS. STEPS GOI NG STRAIGHT U P TO A C A R R I AG E DOOR G I V I N G ON TO T H E STREET. IT AWES HIM. 47. IT H O R R I FI ES H I M. 53. 51. A SQUAT YOU N G M A N PUTS H I S H E A D T H ROUGH. S H E LTER. H E IS J O H N PRE STON 46. J U ST L I K E M Y CAT H E LICKS M Y BODY I N G RATITUDE FOR T H E VERY STUFF O F E X I STENCE T H A T I PROV I DE. I N S I DE SHOP. 52. WITH DRAWS. 1 89 . SHOWS H E R ASTO N I S H M E NT . LANDING O F A W I D E STA I RCASE. R . THE BALUSTRADE O F T H E STA I RCASE R . AGA I N ST M A I N DOOR. N U RTU RE. 4B.HOPES I W I LL U N D E R STA N D TH E EQU I V A LENT O F BECOM I N G M O R E A N D M O R E AWA RE OF IT. R . THE COR P U L E N T M A N .

V E R Y PREMATU R E . T H E M ETHODIC ORDER PROPOSED OF HERE. WITHOUT 1 90 . TH E PARENT OF T H E S A M E SEX. T A K I N G HOLD OF T H E C H I LD BY A S E X U A L D E S I R E TOWARD THE CLOSEST OBJECT WHICH PESENCE AND I NTEREST NORMALLY A F FO R D H I M . THE C H I LD ACQU IRES A CERTA I N I NTUITION O F T H E SITUATION FO RBIDDEN H I M .THE OEDI PUS COM PLEX THROUGH THE D ISCOVE R Y OF OEDIPAL FACTS I N TH E A N A LYSIS O F N E UROTICS FREUD GAVE B I RTH TO TH E CONCEPT OF THE COMPLEX. ON THE OTH E R PSYCHOA N A LY S I S HAS R EV E A L E D I NSTI NCTU A L HA ND. W I LL LEAD TO A REVISION O F THE COM PLEX E N A B L I N G O N E TO SITUATE THE PATER­ NAL FAM ILY I N H I STORY A N D FURTHE R I LL U M I N ATE CONTE M PO R A R Y N E U ROSIS. BOTH TH E S E G E N I T A L D R I V E S . A LTHOUGH THIS FRUSTRATION IS I N HE R E NT TO THE ESSENTI A L P R E M ATURATION O F THESE DRIVES. NORMA LLY I N DICATE TO HIM AN OBSTACLE TO THE S A T I SFACTION OF T H E S E DR I V E S: N A M E LY. CONSIDERING THE NUMBER OF PSYCH I C R E LATIONS THAT I T EXPANDING ON THEIR STRUCTU R E H E RE. AS M UC H A S IN TH E COM PLEX: T H E I R FRUSTRATION FOR M S TH E CRUX. ESPECI A LLY SCH E M A OF THE COM PLEX TH E I R M A STURBATORY MATER I A LIZATION. TH E FRUSTRATION S U F F E R E D BY THE CH I LD IS ACCOM P A N I E D B Y A N EDUCATIONAL ORD I N AR I LY R E PRESSION WHOSE GOAL I S T H E PREVENTION OF MATER I A LI ZATION O F THESE DRI V ES. I N VOLVES. WE SHALL SEE. THE O E D I P U S CO M P L E X A S SERTS ITSELF.N A M E LY S E X -G I V E THE PARENT OF T H E U PON OUR STUDY CIT SPECIFICA LLY DEFINES THE PSYC H ICAL R E LATIONS OF THE H U M A N FA M I LYI­ A N D U PO N O U R C R I TI Q U E (FREUD GIVES THIS OPPOSITE THEIR O R I G I N S T O TH E PSYCHOLOG ICAL E L E M E NT A S THE SPECI FIC FOR M OF T H E H U M A N F A M I LY A N D SUBORD I N ATES T O I T A L L I T S OTH E R SOCIA L VA R I ATIONS). LET US SAY THAT THEY CONSTITUTE A TYPE OF PSYCHO­ LOGICAL P U B ERTY. THE C H I LD ASSOCIATES IT TO A THI RD PARTY WHOSE SA M E CON DITIONS OF PRE S E NCE A N D I N TEREST CONSIDE RATION M E NTA L STRUCTU RES AS I N S OC IA L FACTS. AS M U C H BY T H E D ISCRETE AND D I FFUSE SIGNS THAT BETRAY PA R E NTAL R E LATIONS TO H I S S E N S I B ILITY G E N ITAL DRIVES I N C H I LD R E N THAT REACH TH E I R PEAK AT T H E AGE OF FOUR YEA RS. IN R E LATION TO PHYSIOLOGICA L PUBE RTY. AT MORE THAN ON E POINT I N TH IS WORK.

THE FA M I LY ACCORDIG TO FREUD THE THE OBJECTIVE V A L U E OF T H E COMPLEX DISCOV E R Y THAT DEVELOP M ENTS OF SUCH I M PORTAN C E TO M A N A S SEXUAL R E P R ESSION AND PSYCHIC S E X U A LITY WERE S U B M ITTED TO R E G U LA­ THIS ESSENTIA L TO A SC H E M A OF THE COMPLEX IN TION A N D TO ACCIDENTS OF A PSYC H I C DRAMA OF THE FA M I LY FURNISHED THE MOST PRECIOUS RESPONDS G R E AT N U M BE R O F GIVENS E X P E R I E NC E . I N ITS M E C H A N I S M . A G R EAT N U MBER OF D I SORDERS. ON T H E OTH E R H A N D. M UC H STRONG E R I N THE B O Y A N D T H E R E F O R E F O R T H E MOTHER. E S P E C I A LLY IN THE STUDY OF THE H E N C E FO R T H IT IS CONTESTED: RE­ BECAUSE H I ST O R I C A LL Y I NT E R D I C T I O N S U N I V E R S A L L Y F O R M U LA T E D B Y GROUPS WHICH GOV E R N THE SEXUA L COM M E RCE BETWEEN C E RTAI N OF TH E I R M E M B E RS. THIS I S THE FACT O F THE CASTRATION COM PLEX. S E X U A LITY MOREOVER. I MAGE R E P R E S E NTATIVE OF IDEAL IN THE THE FUTU R E G U A R A NT E E D COI N C I D E N C E O F PSYC H I C A N D P H Y S IOLOG I C A L ATTITUDES DOU B L E AT THE MOMENT HAS OF P U B E RTY. THEY TIONS. A LS O THE AS E X C E PT MALE A IN THE MALE IS CONCRETE A N A LYSIS OF SYM PTOMS OF N E U ROSIS. IN THIS DOUBLE PROCESS. THIS FLECTED I N T H E FORMS OF THE EGO-IDEAL. S I NC E I T R E M A I N S INSCRIBED I N THE PSYCHE IN TWO P E R M A N EN T AGENCI ES: THAT WHICH R EPRESSES CA LLS ITSELF T H E S U P E R EGO. M A N Y OF WHICH A PPEAR ON THE LEVEL OF HAVE ELEMENTA RY SOMATIC THEIR T H E O R ET I C FU NC­ AND I M PORTANCE. I T WAS FOU NDED ON A D I S S Y M M ETRY IN THE SITUATION OF THE SEXES IN R E LATION TO V E A L E D BY T H O S E AFTEREFFECTS OF ITS EVOLU­ TION WHICH CONSTITUTE' N E U ROSIS. THUS. IS THE E X I ST E N C E O F N OT I N FANTI LE CONTR I B UTION T O T H E ANTH ROPOLOGY OF F A M I LY GROUPS. APPARENT SINCE THE FI RST STUDIES. TH E REPRESSION R EVEALS TRAITS WHICH I N T H E I R TYPICAL FOR M AT FIRST SEEM O N L Y J U STIFIABLE I F T H E Y A R E EXERCISED BETWEEN FATH E R A N D SON. TAKES THE PLACE OF T H I S EXPE R I M ENTAL METHOD WITH AN ENTI R E M E D I C A L TRADITION. FREUD WAS QUICK TO FOR M U LATE A TH EORY OF THE FAMI LY. IS C H I LD WHO IN CONSTA N T L Y TA K E N SUBJ ECT THE DIDACTIC EXPOSES ON T H I S COM PLEX. A N D BY T H E S A M E TOKEN. T I O N O F T H E C O M P LE X . TH E E G O. BEHAVIOUR. BY R E P R E SS I O N OF THE SEXUAL ON THE I M PORTA NCE A N D THE SIG N I FICANCE THAT ALLOW THEM TO B R I NG OUT A PARTI C U L A R TRAIT OF THE PERSONA LITY. THAT WHICH SUBLI MATES. IN EFFECT. FOR THESE DISORDERS. ORDER OF DETE R M I NATION THAT ACCOUNTS FOR A GREAT NUMBER OF ANOMALIES OF HUMAN TH E OEDIPAL DESI R E A PPEA RS. T H E PSYCHIC AGENCIES THAT GO U N D E R THE N A M E OF "SUPER· EGO" AND " E G O. ORDER-THAT IS T O SAY A N INOPERATIVE ONE-WAS FAVORED BY A N I NS U FFICIENT A N A LY S I S OF THE FACTORS OF TH I S ORDER. 191 . THE PROCESS THAT GOES FROM OEDIPAL D E S I R E TO ITS REPRESSION HAVE J U ST IT DOES NOT APPEAR AS S I M � LY A S I PRESENTED. A N D ITS AG E-OLD M I S U N D E RSTA N D I NG [ M ECON N A I S­ SANCEI IS AN I M PRESSIVE PROOF OF THE SOC I A L RELATIVITY OF H U M A N KNOWLEDGE. FOU N D THERAPEUTIC R EDUCTION. THEY ARE M O S T OFTEN RE­ S U B L I M AT I O N P E RPETUATES C O N SC I E N C E . BESIDES. I T IS ACCESS­ I B LE TO THE MOST I M M EDIATE OBSERVATION.I D E A L" WERE ISOLATED IN A OEDI PUS. A N D IT IS P R EC I S E LY IN THE LIGHT O F THE OEDIPAL SITUATION THAT SUCH ACC IDENTS IN THE H I STORY OF THE SUBJECT TAKE T H E TENSION T H U S CONSTITUTED I S DISSOLVED. T H I S PREJUDICE WHICH ATTRIBUTES A N EPIPHENOME N A L C H A RACTER TO THE PSYC H I C HASARDS INTEMPESTI FSl THAT U N V E I L THEM TO H I M . AND M A N I FESTED THE I R SCIENTI FIC VALUE I N THE DEFINITION AND E XPLI CATION OF PHENOMENA OF THE PERSONALITY: THERE IS IN THIS A POSITIVE C H I LD.I D E A L . T H E Y L A T E R R E P E A T THEMSELVES A S EFFECTS OF T H E S U P E R EGO. R E P RE S E N T T H E C O M P LE T I O N O F T H E O E D I P A L CRISIS. CES TO THE RENDERS OUTDATED T H E ORGA N I C ORDER WHICH. OR P ROCE S S F U N D A M E N T A L G E N ETIC I N V ER S I O N S O F S E X U A L I M A G I N A T I O N . LIKE I N H I BITIONS OF C R EA T I V E ACTI VITY.AS BY THE I NO P P O RT U N E A CC I D E N T S [LES I N TRUTH. THESE WE CAN ALSO SPECIFY THAT THE OEDI PAL TENDENCY THAT FROM T H E N W I L L R E M A I N LATENT UNTIL PUBE RTY-G I V I N G WAY TO N E UTRAL I NTER­ ESTS. BY THE THAT SINCE ACC I D E NTS A FFECT SITUATION AS TRAUMATISMS DURING T H E EVOLU­ . T H E PA R ENT OF THE SA M E SEX APPEARS TO T H E C H I LD A T ONCE AS THE AGENT OF TH E SEXUAL I NTERDICTION A N D AS THE EXAMPLE OF ITS TRANSGRESSION. AND OF A ON THE T H E OTH E R P A RENTAL SIDE. ON ONE SI DE. I F THEY EFFECT IT A S ABNORMA LITI E S [ATYPI ESl OF ITS CONSITUTION. E M I N ENTLY FAVORABLE TO THE EDUCATION­ AL PROCESS. REFEREN­ WHETH E R FROM P U R E P R I NC I P L E OR S I M PLY FROM MYTHS.

T H E S E TWO PLA NES D I V E RG E WITH CONJUGAL FAMILY THAT HE OBSERVED A MONG H I S S U B J ECTS T O A H Y POTH ETICAL P R I M ITIVE FA M I LY CONCEIVED AS A HORDE. EVEN I F THIS CONST R UCTION WAS NOT S POI LED BY THE ONLY C I RC U L A R R E A SO N I N G THAT IT IN­ VOLVES-ATT R I B U T I N G T O A B I O LOG I C A L G R O U P TH I S FANTASY C O N S I STS E S S E N T I A LLY IN THE THE POSS I B I LITY OF RECOGNIZING A LAW. BUT THE APPARENT R E A LITY OF THIS DANGER. THE PROTOTYPE OF THE OEDIPA L A PPEARA NCE I N A LL T H E F U N DA M E NTA L FOR M S O F C U LT U R E A N D ESPEC I A LLY IN AN OFTEN EXTR E M E ­ LY STRICT R E P R E S S I O N O F S E X U A L ITY. THIS IS WHY FRAZ I E R U NCOV E R E D THE P R I MOR I D I A L LAW OF H U M A N I TY I N THE TABOO OF THE MOTH ER. A S TH E AXIS ALONG WHICH TH E EVOLUTION OF SEXUALITY IS PROJ ECTED ONTO THE CONSTITU­ TION OF REALITY. THE FUNCTIONS O F THE COMPLEX: A PSYCHOLOGI­ CAL REVISION THE OEDIPAL C O M P L E X MARKS A LL LEVELS OF T H E T H E ORIGI N A L MYTH OF PARRICIDE PSYC H E .TH E CASTRATION COMPLEX ZATION THE OF N U B I L E WOM E N . THAT A M A LE DOMI N ATES BY A BIOLOGICAL S U P E R I O RITY IN THE MONOPOLI- 1 92 . F R E U D BUI LDS U PO N T H A T I S ESTA B L I S H E D BETW E E N R E LA T I O N TH I S REPRESSION OPERATES BY A DOUBLE TABOOS A N D OBSERVANCES I N REGARDS T O T H E TOTEM. IF THIS TERM IS P R I MORDIAL EVENT. PRISON E R S OF AN I N SOLUBLE RIVALRY: A U N D E RLIES THESE TWO MOV E M E NTS. I T S E E M S. PREC I S E ­ LY WHAT N E E D S TO B E B I O L OG I C A L EXPLA I N E D-TH E S E S O ­ N A M ELY THE M U TI LATION OF A M E M B E R. THAT THE G R EAT H A RVEST O F FACTS W H I C H T H E O E D I PAL C O M P L E X H A S LEO T O BE O B J ECTI F I E D OVER TH E PAST F I FTY YEARS R E LATI ONS THAT P R I M IT I V E C U LTU R E S I M P RESS WITH TH E TABOO OF INCEST) BUT N O MATTER WHAT THE LEVEL OF MORAL C O N SC I E N C E IS IS IN A COULD C L A R I FY THE PSYCHOLOGICAL STRUCTU RE OF THE F A M I LY F U RT H E R THAN TH E H A ST Y C I V I LIZATION. J U STI F I E D BY REGRESSIVE A N D REPRESSIVE ENDS THAT A R ISE AT T H I S MOMENT OF OEDIPUS. BUT THE T H EORETIC I A N S O F PSYC HO­ ANALYSIS HAVE YET TO U N A M B IGUOUSLY DEFI N E IT IS FROM HERE THAT FREUD MAKES THE ITS COM POSITE F U NCTIONS: IT IS FOR WANT O F TH EORETICAL I N DICATED IN JUMP OUR WHOSE ABUSE I N T RO D UCTION: WE HAVE FROM TH E H A V I N G S U F F I C I E N TLY DISTI N G U I S H E D T H E PLA N E S OF DEVELOPMENT W I T H W H I C H T H E Y EXPLA I N T H E COM PLEX. THUS A FANTASY FATHE R'S POWE R OVER WOM E N B Y THE M U RDER­ E RS. I N THIS WAY FREUD R E C E I V E D A SUPPRORT FOR A S O C I O LOG I C A L GIVEN: N OT O N LY DOES THE STRATE T H A T TH E ORDER OF THE H U M A N F A M I LY HAS SOME FOUNDATIONS PRESERVED FROM THE I NTERDICTION O F I N CEST WITH T H E MOTH ER HAVE A U N I V ERSAL CHA RACTE R (ACROSS THE I N F I N ITELY DIVERSE AND OFTEN P A R A DOX I C A L FAMILY FORC E OF T H E M A LE. ITS ' I N S PI R E D FROM ONE MALE TO A NOTH E R. SUFFERED IN RETU R N . INTUITIONS W E H A V E J UST PRESENTED. IT IS HOWEVER HA RDLY CONSISTENT WITH THE FA NTASY THAT MAKES OF IT TH E O R I G I N A L FACT. H OW E V E R . T H E PRESENT U N I V E RSA L TRACES AND T H E E N D U R I N G SURVIVAL OF A MATRIARCHAL FA M I LY STRUCTU RE. OF A LIKE AGG R E S S I O N . THIS I N T E R D ICTION A LW A Y S E X PRESSLY FOR M U LATED A N D ITS TRANSG R ESSION I S STRUCK WITH CONSTA N T REPROBATION. BUT ABOVE ALL. D E MO N ­ R E PRESSION. T H A T I S T O S A Y I N A M A LT R E A TM E N T THAT CAN ONLY SERVE TO CALLED P R E M I S ES . AND THEN R ECOGNIZED IN A FEAR ADVENC E M E NT WOULD K NOWLEDGE O F MAN. S O R E MARK­ A B L E THAT IT WAS I N DI V I D U A LIZED WITH T H E M I N A COM PLEX CALLED CASTRATION. HE I M AG I N E S A DRAMA­ E MOTIONAL MOVEMENT O F T H E SUBJ ECT: AGGRES­ SION AGAI NST THE THE C H I LD'S PARENT IN REGARD TO WHOM PLACES H I M AS A SEXUAL D E S I R E M U R D E R O F T H E FATHER B Y THE SONS-FOLLOWED BY A POST H U M O U S CONSECRATION OF THE R I V A L: SECONDARY FEAR. I N FACT BY TH E FATH ER. I N T U R N TH E OBJ ECT OF I N V IOLA B I LITY A N D SAC R I FICA L ORGY. COM B I N E D WITH TH E FACT THAT THE THREAT IS R E A LLY FORMU LATED BY AN PERMA N E NT TYRRANY E X E RCISED B Y TH E C H I E F O F T H E HORDE. I F T H E COM PLEX A PPEARS T O TH E M . I N EFFECT. A N ENTIRE MORA L A N D C U LTU R A L TRADITION WOULD COME. M U ST HAVE LED F R E U D T O CONC E I V E IT AS E X P E R I E NCED FI RST F O R ITS R E A L VALUE. OUT OF WHICH TOGETH ER WITH THE TABOO OF T H E MOTH ER. C A STRATE THE MALE. WOU LD R E D UCE T O A N INCREASI NGLY U NC E R TA I N PHA NTOM THEY IN P R O P O R T I O N TO T H E OFFER TO OUR E DUCATIONAL TRADITION.

A N EMOTIONAL A BOLITION GERMAN VERLUSTI. AS FOOD TO BE A BSORB E D A N D EVEN AS BREAST I N WHICH TO B E R E A BS OR B E D. D R I V E S THAT ARE N A RC I SSISTIC. D I M ENSION ONLY RECONSTRUCTED B Y M ETAPHORICAL I NTUITIONS: A D E N S ITY THAT C O N F E R S E X I ST EN C E ONTO THE OBJ ECT. AND ENDING UP THESE TENDENCIES H AV E A POS S I B L E I S S U E I N THE B I OLOG I C A L D E STI N Y OF THE S U B J E C T-T H E W I T H T H E TWILIGHT OF T H E WORLD. T H E COMPLEX FORMING T H E B A S I S OF A L L SUBJECTIVE COMPRE­ H E NSION. SEEMS TO BECOME. WHICH CONFORM S T O THE ACTIVITY OF T H E M A LE. ROLE SEXUAL A D A PTATION MATELY AS PARA LLEL. AND I NF L U ­ M E A N I NG. THAT IS TO SAY DO A SEXUAL REGRESSION. THUS ONE U N D E RSTA N D S THAT OEDIPAL DESIRE IS EXPERIENCE. NOT HAVE REVERSE ATTITUD E OF I N T E R N A LI ZATION I N H E R I T E D FROM THEM. BUT ALSO THAT IT A LLOWS H I M A S I N G U L A R OPPORTUN ITY FOR THE R E ACTIVISATION OF THE WEAN I NG TENDENCIES. THEY OPPOSE TH E M S E LV E S P A R T I C U LA R LY TO THE ATTITU D E O F EXTE RIOR IZATION. JAMAIS RECOGNITIONS. THIS POI N T OF PRIMITIVE SINCE IT DRIVES. WHERE ENCE. B EG I N N I N G WITH DEJA VU. BUT I N V E R S E LY. I LLUSIONS M E NTS OF D I V I N ITY. THE SUCCESSION OF TH E S E FOR M S I S EVIDENCE THAT S E X U A LITY BY C O N FO R M S A TO THE G E NITAL ORGA N IZATION THIS SEXUAL PROGRESSIVE M ATU RATION. INTUITIONS OF PARTICI PATION. THE MATU RATION CONDITIONS OEDIPAL COM PLEX B Y FOR M I NG ITS F U N DA M E NTA L TENDENCI ES. THE FI RST OBJ ECT OF THE TENDENCI ES. AND HERE WE SEE THE I N FLUENCE ON A OF THE PSYCHO­ AND LOGI C A L COM P L E X V I TA L R E LATI O N . WHAT IT B R I NGS TO REALITY IS REVEALED IN TERMS OF AN INTELLEC­ TUALIST PSYCHOG E N ESIS: A CERTA I N EMOTIONA L D E PT H TO THE OBJ ECT. FALS E S ENTI­ T E N D E N C I ES NOT M E RELY PSYCHOLOGICAL I M PASSE: H E R E. AND T H E R E BY I M PO S I N G DRIVE ITS A S E X U A LIZATION CHANGE E F F ECTS. THESE CON STITUTE A [FECON DITEI D E LI R I U M: W H EN THE OBJECT TENDS TO CONFUSE ITSELF WITH THE EGO WHILE AT THE SAME TI M E ABSORBI NG ITSELF I N FANTASY. THUS O N E A RRIVES FROM AT T H E SEX OF A M B IGUOUS CONCLUSION THAT TO THE T H E OTH E R. VU. IN THE OTH E R SEX. FROM THI S PONT T H E COMPLEX CONTR I BUTES TO THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY. WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN DISTI N G U I S H E D FROM IT A S P HENOM ENON I F THE TREATM ENT OF ME NTAL I LLNESSES HAD NOT MADE U S GRASP IT A S SUCH-A P H E N O M E NON-BY ADVANC I N G A N ENTIR E FAVORS SEXUALITY B Y D I R ECTING I T TOWARD ITS OBJECTS. S E N T I M E NTS OF STRANG E N E S S . THE MOV E M E NT OF THE OEDIPUS COMPELX SERIES O F ITS DEGRADATIONS TO T H E L I M ITS OF UNDERSTA N D I NG. IN A D D ITION. BY PSYCHOA N A LY S I S D I V E R SE E X P LA I N S THESE EXTR E M ELY O F OBJ ECT. G E N ITAL THE Q U A L I T I E S OF IN TH E L I V E D E X P E R I E N C E BY B E TT E R DETAC H E S ITSELF F ROM V A R I A TIONS Q U A L I TY OF VITAL E N E RGY 1 93 . OPERATES THROUGH A T R I A N G U L A R CONFLICT I N THE S U B J ECT: W E H A V E ALREADY S E E N THE PLAY OF T E N D E NC I E S THAT ARISE OUT O F W EA N I N G IN ORDER TO E ST A B L I S H THIS A NORM CAN OF LIVED BE [SEVRAGEI PRODUCE A FORMATION OF TH I S SORT: IT IS A LSO THE MOTH E R. WHICH IS FO R M A LLY D E S IG N A T E D I N MATE R N A L OBJECT-THE DIVE RSION O F A PART OF THE O E D I PA L DESIRE C E RTA I N LY T E N DS TO A S THE LOSS O F THE OBJECT (OBJEKT· N E UTRALIZE THE POTENTIAL OF THE COM PLEX. PASSING THROUGH OF A DOUBLE. COMPLEX IN THE IF THE MORE TH E THE BUT SHOU LD BE I NTE­ GRATED INTO A THESE MORE R I GOROUS C O N C E PTION OF R E LATIONS: THE ROLE OF STRUCTU R A L ONE MATU RATION PLA Y E D BY TH E COMPLEX ON EACH OF TH E S E PLA N E S CAN O N LY BE T A K E N A P PROXI­ FORMATION RISKIER I TS ACC USED. WHICH IS FI RST OFFERED UP TO'1H E OEDIPAL D E S I R ES. BUT H I S D I M ENSION I S SHOWN I N T H E VACI LLATI O N S OF R E A LITY T H A T F E RT I L I Z E BETTER CHA RACTERIZED I N TH E M A L E . A P E R S PECTI V E W H I C H GIVES US A S E N S E O F I T S D I STANCE. DOES AND A LL T H E TO MOR E E A S I LY TH E INCIDENCE I S C E RTA I N LY KNOWN TO THE THEORE­ TIC I A N S AS THE REPRESSION O F SEXUALITY AND THE SUBLIMATION OF REALITY. AND A LSO I N S PI R ES IN US A RESPECT FOR IT. W H E N IT A PPEARS DECOM POSE D LIKE ONE OF THE S E NTI­ MENTS THAT FO R M THE SPECTRE OF U N R E A LITY. THE B UT. ON THE CONTRARY.SPECIFIC INCIDENCE IN MAN. MATU RATION OF S E X U ALITY THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY THE PSYCHICAL A P P A R ATUS OF S E X U A LITY IS FI RST REVEALED IN THE C H I LD IN THE MOST A B B E RANT FOR M S RELATIVE TO ITS BIOLOG I C A L E N DS. A DIM ENSION WHICH.

F A CTS HE IS CONSTR A I N E D TO EXPLA I N THESE R E V E LA T I O N S OF T H E BETWEEN DEFENSE AND R E N U NCIATION. TH I S I S A G E N ES I S W H I C H . A S P I R I NG TO T H E SEC R ET OF T H E M A T E R N A L B R E A ST. LET US SAY. S U BLIMATION A LSO THE MOMENT OF HIS OWN B U T R E S E A R C H E RS W H O H A V E B E S T U N D E R STOOD WHERE MAN OPENS 1 94 . THIS ATTITUDE IS CHA RACTERIZED BY THE TERMS OF G I FT lDONI AND SAC R I FICE. R E SPONDS I NTO AS TO THE OBJECT AS IN BY IT DESIRE. I N O D E R T O OBSERVE I N BOTH S E X E S THE E X I STENCE O F THE S A M E FANTASY IN A S M A LL G I R L O R OF A PHALLIC I M AGE OF TH E MOTH ER. R EQU I R E S SUCH A S U R C H A RG E OF M EC H A N I SM S FOR ITS PRACTICE P S Y C H OG E N E S I S . THE A N A LYTIC EXPER­ IENCE OFFERS A CONTRI BUTION TO THE STUDY OF M ENTAL FO R M S BY D E M ONSTRATING TH E I R C O N D IT I O N A L O R SOLU­ TH E M A TE R I A LS O F THE A DI FFERENT A N A LYTIC E X PE R I E N C E I N T E R P R ETATION: THE FANTAS I E S OF FRAGM ENTATION R E LA T I O N . PROPORTIONAL D I R ECTION OF LIFE. E V E N THOUGH THIS R E LA TlON IS LIVED BY TH E S U BJECT IN A R E PRESSION. BY P R EC OC I O U S OF THE D O M I N AT I O N MALE. U LTANEOUSLY DESTRUCTIVE A N D I NVESTIGA­ IF IT MA RKS THE S U M M I T OF I N FANT SEXUALITY. THROUGH THESE TERMS A BOLD CONCE PTION R E D I SCOVERS THE SECRET COM FORT OF A MORAL THEME: I N THE PASSAGE BETWEEN C A PT I V I TY AND OBLAVITY TH E VITA L TEST A N D T H E MORAL TEST A R E WANTONLY CONFUSED. THE E XA M I N ATION OF THESE R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY FANTA S I E S R E V E A LS THAT THEY ARE I N SC R I B E D I N A S I ". I N G E N I O U S L Y D Y N A M I ST AT REMAINS CLOSED BY C RYSTA LLIZE T H E V I T A L R E LATION TO R E A LITY.I D E A L CONTRIBUTES T O THE SEXUAL CONFOR M I SM OF TH E PSYC H E . M A RKED LACK C O N FO R M S TO IN THE A NALYTIC DOCT R I N E : THAT IT WOULD SEEM TO B E E R RONEOUS. I MAGO BUT ACCOR D I NG TO THE DOCTR I N E. G R A N DIOSE T E R M S.I N V ESTED FO R M U L A . THESE EFFECTS A R E P E R PETUATED U N D E R FOR M S DESIGNATED I D E A L.W H E T H E R TIONA L-TO THE A FFECTIV E C R I SES. BUT ONES WHOSE MEAN ING REMAINS A M B I G U O U S A N D H E S ITA NT I DE N T I F Y I N G TE N D E N C I ES. TH E THE ROLE FATH E R IN WOU LD TWO HAVE A PROTO­ ON OFFERED BY THIS CATH E X I S THE ANA LYST M UST BASE THE I N D ICATION OF T H E TREATMENT. T H U S . I N O R D E R TO THIS CONCE PTION CAN IT DEFINE AN A N A LOGICAL THE M OST F I N O BASIS I N I D ENTI FICATION. THUS THE EGO. IT S U G G E STS B ECOMES POSSI B L E TO ESTAB L I S H A STE A D I E R R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N I T S FUNCTION A N D THE FANTASY C A STRATION I S I N E FFECT PRECEDED B Y A S E R I E S O F FANTA S I E S OF BODI LY FRAGMENTA­ TION WHICH R E G R E S S I V E LY TO P R OC E E D F R O M THROUGH STR UCTUR E OF THE D R A M A ESSENTI A L TO IT. WHILE THE FOR M ATION OF THE O E D I P U S COMPLEX APPEARED A S TH E MOMENT AND THE PROOF OF A CATHEXIS SUFFICI ENT FOR THE TRANSFE RENCE. E M A SC U LATION TO D I S E M BOWLING. THE OEDI DPAL COM PLEX IS A LSO THE PROV I NCE OF TIVE FOR M OF P E N ETRATION. AS THE TO SUPE REGO WHICH AND THE EDO­ PSYC H O A N A L YT I C PRACTICE: PSYCHOANA LYSTS MUST RECKON WITH TH I S CATH E X I S ENCES IN THE OPERATION A L TRANSFER­ C U R E: WITH THE R ESO U R C E S ACCORDING THEY ARE EITHER OF T H E I R UNCONSCIOUS O R CONSCIOUS FOR THE SUBJECT. THUS HAVE R EC OG N I Z E D I N DI C E S O F AN A N A LYSTS OVE R LY N A RC ISSISTIC I N V E STMENT OF THE L I B I DO THROUGH THE SYMPTOMS C IT E D ABOVE. WE THIS TH E ROLE O F O E D I P U S WOU L D COR RELATE WITH M ATURATION BY TH E O F S E X U A LITY. T H E CHILD TO CONCE I V E O F ITS MOTH E R A S V I R I LE. D I S LO C A T I O N D I S M E M B E R MENT. U P T O DEVORA­ TION AND S H ROUDI NG. I F THE DOCTRI N E FOU N D E D G E N IT A L TENDENCY R E F E R S T O A R E A L THR EAT. N EGLECTI NG THE STR UCTU R E I N ORDER TO BENEFIT THE DYNA M I C . THE ATTI TUDE WOULD H A V E I N DICATED THAT TH I S CONC E PTION R E STS ON T H E FANTASY OF CA STRATION. I N THAT I T R E DUCES I M AGES TO A STATE OF LATENCY U NT I L PUBERTY: IF IT DETER­ M INES A CON D ENSATION IT IS OF R E A LITY I N TH E M A N N E R WHOSE A M BI V A L E N C E IS TO ITS A RC H A I S M . THE D I S I NTERESTED EXTENS ION TO TH I S R E A LITY. OF TY P I C A L THESE FU NCTIONS ACCOUNT OF T H E DO M I NATION OF T H E M A LE. VERBAL A GIVEN MAY APPEAR. IN T E R M S OF THE R E P R ESSION OF S E X U A LITY. IT I S A BOVE A L L THAT BECAUSE F R E U D . HOW E V E R . BY DIFFEREN­ TIATING THE FOR M A L GA M E OF THE COM PLEX. ACCORDING TO ITS NO R M A L TYPE. THEY R E P RODUCE THE I M AGO OF TH E P A R E N T OF THE S A M E SEX. TRADITIONAL ATO M I S M T O T H E NOTION O F T H E ATOM I S M OF FORMS. R E V E L ATIONS THAT WOULD L E A D THE LITTLE GIRL TO NOSTA LGI A FOR V I R I LITY.

DESIGNATE BY T H E I R ORGIASTIC FORM TH E MOMENT OF A FFECTI VE R E INTEGRATION I N TO THE WHOLE: ( M E LA N I E KLE I N ) A R E O N LY CON C E R N E D W I T H THE SYMM ETRY A N D THE EXTENSION THAT THEY BRING TO THE FORMATION O F OEDIPUS. O N E M U ST B E G I N A T THE POINT WHERE T H E DOCTR I N E P R E S ENTS A SOLUTION T O T H E DRAMA.I D E A L C A N R E V E A L TO E X P E R I E N C E SUBLIMATION OF R E A LITY R E PRODUCTION O P E R AT E S ACCORD I N G T O T H E STR UCTURE THAT H E HAS ACQU I RED. TION OF THESE FANTASIES FOUN D I N D R E A M S AND C E RTA I N I M PULSES A L LOWS FOR THE A F F I RMATION THAT THEY HAVE A B SOLUTELY NO R E LATION TO A R E A L B O D Y . TH I S FORC E DISTRI B UTES ITSELF WITH THE DIFFERENCIATION OF TH I S FORM. ONE M UST RECALL THE IMAGINARY PLAY THAT CONDITIONS TH E FANTASY OF CASTRATION. N A M ELY THE MOTH ER. R E V E A L I NG. A TROPHY OF M E M B E RS WHE R E ONE M UST RECALL THE N A RCIS­ SISTIC OBJECT WHOSE G E N E S I S HAS BEEN EVOK ED EARLIER: CONDITIONED I N MAN BY THE P R EC ESSION OF I MAGINARY OF FO R M S THE OF TH E BODY [LE ON THE COU NTER DRIVES THAT REVEAL THEMSELVES TO THE A N A LYTIC E X P E R I ENCE I N ORDER TO CONSTI­ TUTE TH E M OST ARCHAIC KERNEL OF THE SUPEREGO AND TO REPRESENT THE MOST MASSIVE REPRESSION. BUT T H I S TH E ROLE OF THE COMPLEX I N THE SUBLI MATION OF R EALITY I S NOW I NTRODUCED. AUTHORITY O F THE A D U LT: OTH ERWISE O N E COULD NOT U N D E R S T A N D T H E F A C T .10N. A H E T E ROC L I T E TO DEFIN E TH IS G E N E S I S OF REPRESSION OF THE PSYCHOLOGICAL PLA N E . THR O UGH THE PROGRESS IN WH ICH THE CHILD R E A LI Z E S THE R E P R E SSIVE AGENCY IN THE M A ST E R Y ACTUAL BODY CORPS PROPREI. IT I S IN THE RADICAL FORM OF BAROQUE DOLL. IN THE MOTH E R THE OBJECT THAT DETERMIN E S IT. THE NOSTA LGI A FOR MATE R N I TY IN THE BOY. THAT IS TO SAY I N A N I M AG I N A RY LOCALIZATION OF T H E DRIVE. TRAITS CONFORM I NG T O T H E PARTICULARITIES O F THI S IMAGO. A LT H O U G H THE S U PE R EGO ALREADY RECEIVES TRACES O F REAL ITY FROM THE MATERNAL R E P R ESSION ALONE (TOILET-TR A I N I N G AND WEANING D I SC I P L I N E ) IN THE OEDI PUS OBJECT DOES N O T D E P E N D ON T H E S E X OF T H E S U BJ ECT A N D I N STEAD DETE R M I N E S T H A T IT DOES NOT SUFFER FROM THE FOR M U LA S OF TH E COM P L E X T H E S E T R A C E S NARCISSISTIC FORM .A P P A R E N T L Y CONTRARY TO THE THEORY-THAT THE STRICTNESS WITH WHICH TH E S U P E R EGO I N H I BITS THE FUNC­ TH E MATERNAL ORIGIN OF THE ARCHAIC S U P E R EGO TIONS OF TH E S U BJ ECT TENDS TO BE ESTABLISHED IN INVERSE PROPORTION TO TH E REAL SEVERITI E S TH E FA NTASY OF CASTRATION R E LATES TO THIS SAME OBJ ECT. ON ACCOUNT OF TH E INDENTI FICATION OF THE S U BJECT WITH THE I M AGO OF THE PARENT OF TH E SAME SEX. THE S U B J ECT R E S PONDS TO THIS ANXI ETY THAT THE OBJECT REAWAKENS B Y R EPRODUC I N G THE M ASOCHI STIC R E J ECTION TH ROUGH W H I C H H E S U R MOUNTED HIS P R IMORDIAL LOSS. SUCH A GENESIS OF SEXUAL R E P R E SSION IS NOT W I T H O U T S O C I O L OG I C A L R E F E R EN C E : IT IS IN THIS. SHOW THAT THE PE RSONA REACHES THEM ON LY AT THE PRICE OF CORPORAL MUTI LIATION. GO B E Y O N D TH E I R EDUCATIONA L T R A D ITION. B Y T H E DEFENSE V A L U E T H E SUBJECT GIVES TO THESE OBJECTS AGA I N ST TH E A N X I ETY OF VITAL DESTRUCTION. THE SUPEREGO A N D EGO. W H I C H S A N CTION SEXUAL IN ORDER TO MATU RITY. BORN B E FO R E EITHER ANY MARKING OF THE ACTU A L BODY O R A'NY DISTINCTION OF THE TH R EAT FROM TH E A D U LT. B U T I N ST E A D TO A MANNEQUIN. T H E FORM OF T H I S OF E D U C A TI O N . THE FA NTASY R E P R E ­ SENTS THE D E F E N S E T H A T TH E N A RC I S I STIC EGO­ I D E NTI F I E D WITH ITS M I RROR DOUBLE-DPPOSES TO THE R E NEWAL OF T H E A N X I ETY THAT TENDED TO D I STUR B IT AT THE F I RST MOM ENT OF O E D I PUS: A CRISIS WHCH DOES NOT C A U S E TH E I RR U PTION OF GENITAL DESI R E IN THE S U B J ECT AS M U C H AS I N THE OBJECT T H A T IT R EACTUALIZES. T H E I R I NT E REST LI ES I N TH E EVIDENT U N R E A LITY OF TH E I R STRUCTU RE: THE EXAMINA­ R I T E S OF C I R C U M C I S. THE DOCTR I N E S E E S THE FACT OF A SECONDARY N A R C I S S I S M : IT DOES NOT DISTINGU I S H THIS P A R T I C U LA R I D E N T I F I C AT I O N F R OM T H E EXPRESSED I N THE P R I MITIVE RITUALS W H E R E THE L I N K BETWEEN TH I S R E P R ESSION A N D T H E ROOTS OF ALL SOCIA L BONDS IS M A N I F E STED: C ELEBRA­ TION R I TES WHICH. ACTUA LLY. T H E R E I S A LSO A N ASS I M I LA ­ TION OF THE S U B J ECT TO T H E O B J E C T: TH E DOCTRI N E S E E S NO D I F F ERENCE OTH ER THAN T H E 1 9!! . WHICH ARISE FROM THE PREMATU RATION. FOR EXAMPLE. TO U N D E RSTA N D THIS.THE MATE R N A L ORIGINS OF TH E S E F A N TA S I E S SEXUALITY. FOR US. NAM ELY OF T H E FORM IT HAS DISCOVE RED H E R E­ I DENTIFICATION. THAT IS TO SAY. IN ORDER TO L I BERATE NARCISSISTIC ONE.

S I N C E T H E EGO­ IN THE PATH S C O N SC I E N C E FOR ITS IS THE S U R P R I S E T R A N S F I G U R E S A N OBJECT B Y D ISSOLV­ ING ITS EQU I V A L E N C E S IN A S U BJ ECT. ORIGI N A LITY OF T H E O E D I P A L I DENTI FICATION BRINGS A S EC U R ITY TO THE EGO BY STRE NGT H E N ­ ING THIS FRAME. AS M UC H IN T H E ROLE OF M A S K E D P R E S E N C E PLAYED BY THE D R I V E A S BY THE FORM IN W H I C H IT ASSU M E D THE OBJECT. A SERIES IN OF A NTI NOMIC S U B JECT FUNCTIONS BY THE ARE SCIOUSNESS A N D M I S U N D E RSTANDI NG-TH E I M AGO ITSELF A PP E A R S U N D E R TWO STRUCTU RES WHOSE DISPA RITY REALITY. TH E FRUSTRATION OF THIS DE S I R E COULD R E S U LT I N THE SUBJ ECTS RETU RN TO HIS P R I MORDIAL VORACITY OF N EW R E A LITY. S I NC E EXPE RIENCE SHOWS THAT T H E ACTION OF THE S U PEREGO AGAI NST THE R E P ET I T I O N S OF THE AS TENDENCIES REMAINS TENDENCIES AS TYPE FO S U B L I MATION. WHAT THE ANTINOMY OF TH E O P PO S I T I O N T O IT AS A N I D E A L THAT A LTERNATIVE­ LY EXA LTS AND D E P R ESSES IT. IN ORDER TO I M POSE ITSELF ON THE OBSTACLE TO DES I R E.I N I MAGO OF THE 1 96 . R E P R E S E N TS PREPA RATION RETU R N . IT SEEMS TO I NDICATE . T H I S SA M E FORM I S E V I D E N T I N E A C H C R I S I S W H E R E T H E CONDEN SATION HIGHER U P) (WHOSE E N I G M A WE H A V E POSE D ITSELF: T H I S LIGHT O F U NC O N S C I O U S THE R EM A I N PRODUC ES R E P R E SSED. THE I MAGO PRESERVES T H I S FU NCTION. THE SUBJ ECT. AND THAT OF EXPRESS WE CANNOT STRESS ENOUGHT THAT THE OBJECT OF I D E NTI FICATION DES I R E. O N ONE H A N D. I N O R D E R T O CONTA I N THE I N D E F I N I T E V I RT U A L I TIES O F ITS P ROGRESS. I T DOES SO I N A N UNCONSCIOUS FORM . T H I S MOME NT. BUT THAT WHICH OBJECT OF DESI RE IN THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE. THUS. BUT. BUT I N T H I S STE P TOWARD REALITY. HERE IS NOT T H E O B J E C T OF I S OPPOSED TO TH E PRI MORDI A L EQU IVALENC E R E F LECTS N A RC I S S I STIC CONF LICT. THE I M AGO I N H I B ITS SEXUAL FUNCTION. MASOC H I STIC THE M I M ETIC HAS BECOME SA DO­ FROM OBJECT OF THE PARTICI PATION DISENGAGES THE SUBJECT. IN THE OEDIPAL I D E NTIFICATION THE MOTH E R ACTU A L LY BETRAYS THE OEDPIAL I DE N T I F I C ATION. I F THE FU NCTION O F T H E CO N SC I E N C E S E E M S TO A NG U I S H . S HOWS IT TO BE COLORED BY A T R A N SG R E S S I O N F E LT AS D A N G E ROUS. A R ETU R N TO A N I M P E RFECT I NTROJECTION OF T H E OBJ ECT. A N D I N T H E FORMATION O F THE EGO. B U T A S A POLE TO T H E C R EATIONS OF PASSION. IN THE TWO EXCLUSIONS OF THE U NCON­ OBJECT A PPEARS T O T H E EGO AT O N C E AS T H E S U P PO RT O F ITS D E F E N S E A N D T H E E X A M PLE OF I T S TR I U M PH. AND PROPOSES I T N O LON G E R A S A M E A N S TO T H E SATI SFACTION OF D E S I R E . MORE OBJECT OF DESI R E W ITH THE OEDIPAL THE COMPLE X-TH AT WHICH IT IS NOT THE MOMENT OF IN ITS A LO N G DESIRE ESTA B L I S H E S T H E OBJECT D E S I R E . TO A BETTER FO R M ED EGO. BUT AT TH E SAME TIME IS IN HOWEVE R A MORE STRUCTU R A L AN ALYSIS OF T H E OEDI P A L I DENTI FICATION A LLOWS ONE T O RECOG­ NIZE WITH I N IT A MORE IS DISTI NCTIVE FO RM. S H E LT E R E D B Y I T S OWN M I SCON­ C E PT I O N IDEAL [ M E C O N N A I S S A N C E 1 . O N T H E OTH E R H A N D .CONSTITUTION OF ONE O P P OS I N G I T S E LF. IT I S BY R E D UC I NG A G A I N S U C H A N OBJECT THAT E X P E R I E N C E A TTA I N S A L L I T S D E PTH. T H E I M AGO I S JUXTA POSED ONLY T O T H E EGO. I N C A U S I NG THE OBJ ECT T O A R I S E A S ONE WHOSE POSITION IS SITUATED AS AN A S S I M I LATION. APPEARS AT FIRST THIS MOMENT OF OEDI P U S PROVIDES THE PROTO­ FU NCTION W H I C H PLAYS THE P A R ENTAL I M AGO I N THE S U B JECT. OF THE IF TH E FUTURE TENDENCY RESOLVED UNDER TWO MAJOR FOR M S WHERE ANALYSIS H A S LEA R N E D TO R E C OG N I ZE I T . THEN THE FUNCTION O F THE EXAMPLE A PPEARS TO BE THE ORIGIN A L CONTRI BUTION OF THE O E D I PA L COMPLEX. ACCORDING TO THE CON STANTS OF H E DO N I S M . TH E PRIM ITIVE OBJECT O F D E S I R E S E E M S T O B E CON J U R E D AWAY. T H E I D E NT I F I CATION OF T H E P R O P I T I ATORY. B U T THE MOMENT OF THE SUBJ ECTS N A RC I S S I STIC D E F E N S E . DEFINES TH E F I R ST SUBLIMATION OF CON STITUTED TH E MAJOR C R I SES O F H U M A N R E A LITY. THE I M AGO OF T H E FATH E R HENCE. THE OBJECT SCIOUS AND THE I D E A L. B U T. THE A C TU A L STRUCT U R E OF T H E O E D I P A L D R A M A D E S I G N A T E S T H E FATHE R A S G I V I N G TO T H E FU NCTION OF S U BL I M ATION I T S E M I N E NT A N D MORE THIS FACT DEFINES THE O R I G I N A L I T Y OF T H E PURE FOR M . T A K I N G ITS D ISTANCE FROM HIM I N THE N E W A M B I G UITY O F F E A R A N D LOVE. A N D THROUGH W H ICH IT STI LL C A N CONFUSE ITSELF W I T H THE OTH E R.N A M E LY U NCON­ THUS. TH I S I S W H Y I T N O R M A L L Y C O M E S T O F I L L TH E FRAME OF THE D O U B L E W H E R E TH E E G O F I RST I D E NTI F I ES ITSE LF.

T H E E X P E R I E N C E THUS CONTR A D ICTS T H E T H E O R E T I C A L O R I ENTA­ TION SUCH WHICH D E S I G NATES IN THE THE MAJOR AGENT OF PATE R N A L PRESENT THEORY OF O E D I PUS. THIS EQU I L­ THAT THE S OC I A L PRESENT THE I MAGO A S C R I PPLING O R B L I N D I NG) I N ORDER T O DEVIATE T H E E N E RGY O F S U B L I M ATION FROM ITS CREATIVE IN D I R ECTION IDEAL OF AND FAVOR ITS D E MONSTRATES IS R E LA T I V E OEDIPAL TO STRUCTU RE. THE FAMILIAL TIONS. KNEW HOW TO P E N ETRATE THE PSYC H I C I N C I D E N C E S OF T H I S I M PO S E S T H I S M E N TA L F R A G M E N TA T I O N W H E R E O N E C A N D E FI N E HYSTER I A O N BODILY F UNCTIONS. IT I S ON THE CONTR A RY. W E C A N STRESS THE PHYSICA L L E S I O N S IN THE D I M I N UTIVE FOR M S OF TH I S I MAGO (ESPECIA LLY THOSE WHICH THIS MASTER OF T EC H N I Q U E S AND EXAMPLE OF D A R I NG I N B U S I N ESS. N O R M A L I DE A LS. BY STEREOTYPE MARKS PERSONA LITY IS OPPOSE D TO T H E H A R MONY THAT IT CARRIES W I TH I N . SEPARATION OF FUNCTIONS I M PLIES A DIFFERENT EQU I L I B R I U M OF THE PSYC H E ATTESTE D TO BY THE AUTHOR TH ROUGH THE LACK OF N E U ROSI S H E OBSE RV E D I N T H E G ROU PS O F THE NORTH-WEST I S L A N D S O F IBRIUM FORTU NATELY COMPLEX MELANSIA. T H E P S YC H O L O G I S T THESE FOR M S WHICH.I D E A L A S W E L L A S THE S U P E R EGO BY T H E FORMS AND THE A M BIVALENCE OF T H E S E I DENTI FICATIONS. BY N EG LE C T CONCENTRATI N G T H E CONDITIONS OF T H E FUNC­ TIONA L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS IN THE CONJUGAL F A M I LY. M A R K I N G T H E EGO. A T THE S A M E TIME TENDS TO A R R E ST THE PROGRESS OF R E A LITY BY FREEZING IT. O N E M UST R E M E M ­ BER IN T H I S R E V E R S A L H O W M U C H T H E I M PU LSES OF SUBLIMATION ARE DOM I NA T E D TWO BY SOC I A L ARE R E PRESSION SEPARATED. T H E I M AGO OF THE FATH E R POLA R I Z E S T H E MOST P E RFECT FOR M S OF THE EGO-I D E A L I N BOTH S E XES. 1 97 . O N T H E OTH E R H A N D . BECA USE T H E PATE RNAL I MAGO I S INVESTED BY R E PRESSION IT PROJECTS THE COMPLEX A N D ITS SOCIOLOGICAL R E LATIVITY ITS ORIG I N A L FORCE I N THE WHICH SHOULD VERY S U B L I M ATIONS IT: THE OEDI PUS OVERCOME COMPLEX ACQU I R E S S O M UC H FEC U N DITY [FECON­ I F I T APPEA R E D IN ITS PSYCHOLOG I C A L A N A LYSIS THAT OEDI PUS M UST B E U N DERSTOOD IN T E R M S OF ITS N A RC I SS I STIC A NTECEDENTS. BUT H E I N N O WAY A UTHORIZES THE PARODISTIC M I RAGE LOGI ST MUST AGA I N ST WHICH T H E SOCIO­ THE OF SECLUSION I N T E G R I TY . I N TH E G I RL. HERE W E WILL SEE IT CONFI R M E D BY T H E EFFECTS O F DECOMPOSI­ TION: BUT THESE EFFECTS OF PROG RESS. TO THE D EG R E E THAT I T DOM I NATES. PLAYS AS A MORE F A M I LI A R ROLE OF TENDS TO TU R N I NTO A F E E L I N G O F R E P R ESSION FOR ITS BA N K R U PTCY AND I N TO A SYSTEMATIC CONCE R N FOR T H E M I RROR I M AGE. AT THE D E ATH A LW A Y S THAT DEFEND THE H I M S E LF: C R E AT I O N S WHATEV E R STAGE O F D E V E LOPMENT I T APPEARS A N D ACCOR D I N G TO THE DEGREE O F COMPLETION OF O E D I PUS. J UST A S TH E R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY MORE R E A D I LY AUTHORITY I S NOT R E PR E SENTED B Y THE FATH E R BUT OR D I N A R I LY BY A M A TE R N A L UNCLE.INTERFERENCE OF THE PRIMORDIAL I D E NTIFICA­ IN MATR IARCHAL C U LT U R E S . TH E MOST DECISIVE R E S U LT OF ITS DITEI BY TYI NG TOGETH E R THE PROGRESS OF THESE FUNCTIONS IN SUCH A N ANTI NOMY. THE FATH ER. SOME OF THE N A RC I S S I ST I C FATHER. ONE ETHNOLOGIST WHO W A S G U I D E D BY H I S KNOWLEDGE OF PSYCHOA N A LYSIS. THIS I S NOT TO SAY THAT IT IS BASED OUTS I D E OF SOCIOLOGICAL RELATIVITY. THIS ANTINOMY PLAYS IN T H E I N D I V I D U A L DRAMA. FA M I LY. I NTE­ PSYCHIC E FFECTS R E S I DES IN THE FACT THAT THE FU NCTION O F R E P R ESSION A S WELL A S THAT OF SUBLIMATION I S C O N C E NTRATED IN T H E I M AGO OF THE FATH E R : BUT TH I S IS A FACT THE OF SOC I A L GRATED A S THEY A R E IN AN I M M E N S E CULTURAL PATRIMONY. SO T H E SUBLI M ATION OF THE M A T E R N A L I M AGO FACT: I F T H E MATE R N A L U N C L E PRACTICES T H E SOCI A L S PO N SOR S H I P A S GUA R D I A N OF FA M I LY­ R ELATED TABOOS A N D I N ITIATOR OF T R I B A L R I TES. SUCH TH AT IT I S ENOUGH T O I N DICATE THAT T H E FORM S REA LIZE THE V I R I L E I D E A L IN TH E BOY AND T H E V I R G I N A L I N THE G I R L. THE FACT OF PATER N A L C R EATI V E C A N NOT I N S P I R A T I O N S .F R O M AND ART TO MORALS-IN TO THE S I M I LAR CULTURES. PATRON A G E . DISCHARGED FROM ALL R E PRESSIVE F U NCTION . CON FOR M I NG R E F E R R I NG A G R EA T N U M B E R OF N E U ROSES A N D TH E I R G RAVITY TO S U C H C A USES. REINTEGRATE BY THE S OC I A L D I A L E C T I C I NTO THE ENGENDERED MATR I A RCHY A N D P A T R I A RCHY THIS CONFLICT PSYCHOLOGICAL PROGRESS. M A LI NOWS K I . DRAMA: GO M UC H FURTHER BEYOND THIS STATUTES. WHEN THESE F U N CTIONS N E UROSES THREAT OF FORCE. LEGA L DETER M I N A T I O N .

A N D SECOND.D I S M E M ­ SECRET REVERSA L THE ADVA NTAGE PREPON DERANCE TO REVERSAL OF M A R RIAGE. T H I S B E R E D BOD I E S A N D LIVE B U R IAL-IN MORE T H A N O N E M YTH THEY W I L L R E A D THAT THE A D V E N T O F PAT E R NA L A UTHORITY A NSWERS T O A TEMPERA· M E N T OF P R I M ITIVE SOCIAL R E PRESSION. A NO L E S S A M B I G UOUS REPRESENTATION OF THE E M A N C I PA T I O N OF E X P E R I E N C E AND I F THE PSYCHOA NA LYST R E D I S- 1 98 . AC ROSS THE H I STORY OF TESTI MONY TO THIS N A TE S THE BON D THAT C LOSES TH E H U M A N GROUP U PO N ITS COH E R E NC E . I L L U M I N ATED WHEREAS THE IT ONLY MATR I A R C H A L C U LT U R E S A N D T H E STAGNATION OF P R I M ITIVE G RO U PS SEPA RATE T H E M . THE PROPH ETIC I S M BY W H I C H B E R SON A PPEALS TO H I STORY. T H E A POTHEOTIC E X A LTATION THAT C H RISTI A N ITY B R I N G S TO T H E E X I G E N C I E S OF THE P E RSON. T H I S M A N I S THE ONLY OBJECT THAT IT HAS T R U LY S U B M ITTED TO ITS E P I SODE OF T H E S P H I N X ) ." U N I V E RSA LIZATION O F T H E I D E A L D I A LECTICALLY AFFIRMED IN S OC I ETY. AND THE PSYC H O LOGY OF THE RELATIONS MAN BETW E E N THE THE PSYCHOLOGY F A M I LY OF MODE R N AND CONJUGAL ARE M E A N I NG DOES N O T A P PEA R A N Y L E S S I N THE MYTH OF O E D I P U S (IF O N LY WE DO NOT N EG L ECT T H E WHAT. T H E C H U RC H I NTEGRATED THIS TRADITION I NTO T H E FU NCTION A L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS. THUS CAUSING THE PRIMITIVE C U LT U R E S FA M I L I A L I N STITUTION T O TAKE T H E D EC I S I V E STEP TOWA RDS ITS MOD E R N STRUCTU RE.THAT THE STUDY OF THESE IS ALREADY M U ST FOR M S R E LATES TO GIVEN A FOR OUR OF OF MATE R N A L TYRA N N I ES A N D THE D EC L I N E OF T H E R I T E OF ROY A L M U R D E R . A N D B Y ITS W I T H T H I S FACT W E U N I F Y T H E CRITICAL MOMENT THAT B E RGSON D E F I N E D IN T H E FOU N DATION S OF MORA LITY: I T I S K NOWN THAT H E RETU R N S TO ITS FU NCTION NOT H I N G OF SOCI A L D E F E N S E T H I S " A L L O R BY WHICH HE DES IG­ CON V U LS I V E ARCHAL B A TT L E TO M A I N TA I N THE THE PATRI­ I DE A L A G A I N ST I R R E P R E SS I B L E SEDUCTION O F TH E S E M A T R I A R C H I ES. T H I S WAS REA LIZED I N T H E F I FTEENTH CENTURY WITH THE ECONOMIC R EVOLUTION THAT PRODUCED THE BO U RG E O I S SOC I ETY MODERN MAN. C A N BE U N D E RSTOOD BY THE SITUATION O F B E I N G THE E L ECT PEOPLE-A SITUATION C REATED SINCE TH E I R GROUP W A S THE OPE N I NG OF T H E SOC I A L BON D R E P R E S E N T AT I V E O F P A T R I A R C H Y F O R OTH E R GROUPS D E VOTED T O M A T E R N A L C U LTS. MOR A LITY OF C H RISTIANTIY B Y B R I NG I NG I N TO T H E FO REGRO U N D TH E F R E E C H O I C E OF A PA RTN E R I N I F THEY WHICH REFER TO TH E R I TES OF SAC R I F I C E B Y (EVEN ATTA I N I NG A THE BOND OF M A RRIAGE. W H I C H I N T H E END FORMA LLY T I E S T H I S M E A N I NG T O AN E X P R E SSION OF PROM I S E . WHATEV E R T H E I R FOR M . W E THUS SEE THE EXIGENCIES OF THE P E R SO N AND THE OF OBLIGATION. BY EXPE R I E NCE. A A B STRACT SOURCE NO D I SCOV E R S DOUBLE RETU R N E D AGAI NST THESE FO R M A L I S T TIONARY EXTENSION O F M O R A L PRIVE LEDGES FROM A PAT R I A RC H TO AN I M M E N SE PLEBACY AND ONTO ALL PEOPLE. A M I SSION R E A LI Z E D BY THE ALREADY REVOLU­ E V E R Y MOV E M E NT. W H I C H ETER N A LIZE THE M I SS I O N E X P E R I ENCED BY ROME IN ITS CONSC I E N C E A S M UCH A S IN ITS POWER. IN SO F A R A S I T I S PRODUCED E M I N E NTLY BY THE J E W I S H PEOPLE. SAYING THAT BY THE P R I V I L E DG E D FOR M S OF M A R R I AGE. PROPOSE T H E M S E LVES T O T H E STU D Y OF PSYCHOA NA LYSIS. I L L USIONS. I F THE PSYCHOLOGI ST A N D T H E SOCIOLOG I ST C A N RECOG N IZE. LEDGIBLE IN T H E M YTH I C A M B I G U I TY OF TH E SAC R I F I C E OF ABRAHAM. P E R I PH E RA LLY MATR I A RC H I E S T H A T A R E "ON LY" A LWAYS S U B JACENT TO A N C I E N T C U LTU R E OFENl. N O W . HE RECOG N I Z E S IT IN P A T R I A RC H I A L PEOPLES: OPPOSITION TO A T R A N SC E N D E NT E LA N AN O F LIFE I N PROGRESS I S FOU N D I N T H E LEGAL FOR M S. THE CONCRETE FOR M OF PRI MORDIA L OBLIGATION IN THE I NT E R DICTION OF T H E MOTHER. THE T R A D I TI O N IN THE PATR I C I A N I DEALS. F A R FROM THE B I RTH OF H U M A N ITY FROM WHICH THE I M MEMORIAL CONTI N U AT I O N OF H I S TORICAL T R A D I TION ONLY FULLY STRUCK I N THE A N N A LS OF PATR I A R C H I E S. SO I N T H E SAME WAY THEY CAN D E M O NSTRATE A REAL TWO F U NCTION S O F THIS PROCESS ARE R E F LECTED ON THE STRUCT U R E O F THE FA M I LY ITSELF: F I R ST. W H I C H OPENS T H I S GROUP BY UNIVERSALIZING A N A LY S I S DOUBT THE B O N D. OF ITS N A M E LY T H E SOC I A LY E LEVATED CONCENTRATION) R E A L IZE T H E FANTASI ES OF T H E P R I M O R D I A L R E LATION OF THE M OT H E R WITH THE C R U E L E S T R I GO R . (AS IN THE I N V ESTIGATIONS OF BACH· ACCO R D I NG T O T H I S SOCIOLOGICAL REFERENCE. THESE MYTHS ARE SITUATED AT THE E D G E OF H I STORY A N A LY S I S : ON E WE TAKE AS PROB L E M LIGHT STRUCTU R E THE FACT T H AT T H E H I STORY. OF PROC ESS O F "TH E OPE N I NG" OF THE SOCI A L BON D IN PATE R N A L A UTHOR ITY. I N E F F ECT. T H E O P E N I N G I NTRODUCES A N I D E A L OF PROMISE I N TO REPRES­ SION. BUT R E M A I N I NG L I M ITED T O TH E R E A C H OF A BSTRACTION.

T H E MORE IN ORDER TO I N ST I L L A UTHORITY IN THE CLOSEST N EIGHBO R I NG G E N ERATION. W H E R E HE SU BSTITUTES H I M S E L F FOR THE GRAN DPA RENT. FROM THE FAT H E R TO THE OF SON. IN THE FORMATION OF MOST G R E A T MEN. THE EVIDENCE OF SEXUAL L I F E IN TH E RE PRESE NTATI VES OF MORAL CONSTR A I NTS-THE SI NGULARLY TRANSGRESSIVE U N DERSTA N D I N G THEM W I TH I N T H E C U LTU RE THAT I M POSES WITHOUT THE H IG H EST E X IG E N C I E S U PON HIS OWN HIM­ EXAMPLE O F T H E I MAGO O F TH E FAT H E R A S F A R A S THE PRI M O R I D A L I NTERDICTION IS CONCE R N ED­ U N D E R S TA N D I N G POSITION EXALT THE TENSION OF TH E LIBIDO A N O T H E !'. TO OFFER H I M THE LO Y A L E ST C LO S E D FIELD THE IN WHICH TO OUTSIDE OF THESE. T H E A N G U I S H THAT M A N E X P RESSES I N THE SENTIM ENTS O F A TOW A R D SECOND. I S IT POSSIBLE T O U N D E RSTAN D FI RST. HOW. IT I N VO L V E S AND OF A POS ITIVE G I FTS. R EPRODUCES T H E PLAY OF N A RC I S S I STIC EQUIVA­ LENCES WHERE THE WORLD OF OBJECTS WAS BOR N . IF IN TH E S E MORAL CONDITIONS OF CR EATION PSYCHOANALYSIS M A N I FESTS A R EVOLUTIONARY TRAN SLATED B Y THE I N V E R S I O N S O F T H E ORDER OF G E N E RATIONS I MA G I N E D B Y T H E C H I LD. IDEAL A IN S E L ECTION THE DRIVES THE THE P R OG R E S S I V E R E A LIZATION CHA RACTER. IT I S RECOGN IZED IN ORDER TO PRODU C E A POWER IN THE FA M I LI A L STRUCTU RE WHICH S U R PASSES ALL EDUCATIONAL RATIONA L­ ON THE OTH E R H A N D. FROM IT. RECOGNIZ­ I NG THAT H E C R EATES H I M S E L F A N D H I S OBJECTS TH ROUGH DIA LECTI CAL C R ISES. ACCOR D I N G TO HIS OWN I D E A L. A N D I N O R D E R T O A D A PT HIS INDIVIDUAL EXPE RI ENCE AGAI NST TO THE THE MOST CONDITIONS M O ST E L EV A T E D C O N C E PT I O N S COMPLETE SERV ITU DE. C A N HE CLA I M TO CURE HIM OF P S YC H I C DEFICIENCIES WITHOUT F I N A L LY AND A BO V E A L L. AND M E A SU R E HI MSELF WITH M O ST PROFO U N D FIGURES O F H I S DESTI N Y. IN T H I S THE PSYCH ISM IS IZATION. WE A RE DEC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L I M AGO 1 99 . THE WORK OF TH E I R FOR MATIVE REDUCTION FOR RE ASON WILL BE. MOST H U M A N E LY REALIZE THE CONFLICT OF M A N WITH H I S MOST A RC H A I C AN GU IS H . COMPLEX BRINGS CONFRONTATIONS O F T H I S PERIOD THE THE ROLE OF THE F A M I L I A L FOR MATION EFFICIENCY FOR T H E RATIONAL FORMATION O F THE INDIVIDUAL CONSI D E R IN EFFECT. TRA N S M I SSION T H I S E FFECT OF THE EGO­ AGA I NST BY OPERATES TAKE. IN A FULLER R E A LITY AND UNDER SU PERIOR SUBLIMATIONS O F LOGIC A N D J U STICE. T H E CONJUGAL FA M I LY PLACES TH I S A UT H O R I TY AT THE MOST I M M E D IATE EN­ VARIED AND RICH THE U NCONSC IOUS REALITIES I NTEG RATED I NTO THE THE MORE FA M I LY E X P E R I E NC E ARE. I N OUR T I M E S. TRI UMPH O R IG I N A L W H E R E H E OVE RC O M E S T H I S A N G U I SH. FOR T H E MOST COMMON OBSE RVATION.COPE OF SUBLI M ATION TO THE H IGHEST DEGREE. AS WE H A V E S A I D. I N CONTI BUTING THE LARGEST D I F F E R E NTIATION TO THE P E R SO N A L I T Y THE B E FO R E THE PERIOD OF TO S OC I A L MAXI M U M LATENCY. A N D TO DO SO U N DER A FA M I LI A R FIGURE. IN ORDER THAT EACH A R R I V E S A T HIS OWN CONCLUSION DESI RES. T H E FACT OF A SOCI A L E D UCATION WITH TOTA LITA R I A N C LA I M S DESERV E S TO BE PROPOSED TO THEOR ETIC I A N S NO MATTER W H AT SIDE THEY FOR MED TH A N NO L E S S BY T H E I M AGE OF THE A DU LT ITS THE C O N S T R A I NTS. AND NOT TO THE A LLEGED H E R E DITY THAT ONE M UST RECOGNIZE I N ESSENTIA LLY RELATIONAL CAPACI­ TIES. THE THE P RO M E T H E A N T R A N SG RESSION OF HIS LIFE. THE AT THIS POINT ONE CAN EDUCATIONAL ACTION THAT THIS CRITICAL AND S U B V E R S I V E M OV E M E NT W H E R E MAN I S R E A L I Z E D F I N D S ITS M O S T ACTI V E K E R N E L I N THREE CON DITIONS O F T H E CONJ UGA L FA MI LY. THIS IS A LREADY THUS. FAC ING T H I S M A N AT T H E EXTRE M E POINT O F T H E SCIENTIFIC ATTITU DE? THE COM PLEX OF THE CONJ UGAL F A M I LY FO R M S THUS. MOST P U R E LY. PARENT OR THE FERMENT THAT ONE CAN GRASP O N LY TH ROUGH CONCRETE A N A LYSIS. CAN LESS THAN MAN IN WESTE R N C U LTURE H I MSELF THE S U P E R I O R ACCO M PL I SH M E NT S OF C H A RAC­ TER-H A P P I N E S S AND CREATION-IN ORDER TO EVER U N D E RSTA N D OUTSIDE T H E A NTI NOM I E S T H A T CONSTITUTE H I S R E LATIONS WITH NATURE AND SOC I ETY. TRANCE TO TH E C R EATIVE S U B V E RSION.COVERS I N H I M PSYC H IC R E FLECTION O F THE MOST ORIGINAL CON DITIONS O F M A N . THE FACT O F FAM I LI E S OF E M I N ENT MEN OWES TO TH I S PSYC HOLOGICA L PROCESS.

PRETENDED LOOSE N I NG OF THE FA M I LIA L BOND.LED TO PERCEIVE THE ROLE O F THE I MAGO OF THE FATH ER I N A STR I K I NGLY EVIDENT M A N N E R.H E FA I LS TO RECOGN I ZE HIS OWN M OV E M E NT. FOR E XA M PLE. FOR WHAT IT I S WORTH. THIS D EC L I N E MAYBE C A M E. F R O M THE L A S T AGNATIC GROUPS OF PEASANT SLAVES TO T H E MOST A N C E IN THE CLASSICAL ERA OF PROGRESS-FROM CORNEI LLE TO PROUDHON: AND I D EOLOGUES WHO R E D UC E D A N D DECADENT FOR M S O F A N U NSTA BLE H O U S E HOLD. IT IS WORTH NOTING ITS LITERARY A N D MORAL RADI­ STATE THAT WAS A M E LTI NG POT OF TH E MOST D I V E R S E FA M I LY FORMS. N O T TO M E NTION F E U D A L A N D M E RCANTILE PATE R N A L I S M S-THAT A SON OF A JEWISH PATR I A RC H COULD H A V E I M A G I N E D THE OEDIPAL COMPLEX. DIVIDED OR OF C O N C E NTRATION A N D POL I T I C A L CATASTRO P H E . WAS N O T TH E A RG U M ENT FOR M E D BY THE C H I E F O F A TOTA LITA R I A N STATE AN IT A RGU M E N T AGAI NST IS A DECLI N E TIED OF THE BY A TO O U R C O N C E PT I O N TRADITIONAL MOST EDUCATION? TO OEDI P U S. IN THE A M E RICAN WAY OF LIFE. TO US. TH E SUBLIME FORTU N E O F G E N I U S P E R H A PS DOES NOT A LONE EXPLAI N WHY I T WAS I N V I E N N A-THE C E NTER OF A JACQUES LACA N TRANSLATED BY A NDREA KAHN 200 . IT I S THE K E R N A L OF T H E G REATEST N U M B E R OF N E UROSES-W H E R E ONE C A N RECOG N I Z E THE G R EAT CONTEMPORARY N E U ROSIS. S I N I ST E R G O D M OT H E R S AT THE C RA D L E OF RELATIVE GROWTH OF MATR I MON I A L EXIGENCI ES. THE H E A RT H OF THE PETIT-BO U R ­ IN THE N I N ETEENTH C ENTURY BROUGHT THE MOST SUBVERSIVE C RITIQUES AGAI NST THE PATE RNAL­ I STIC FA M I LY A R E NOT THOSE WHO PRESERVE THE LEAST OF ITS WEIG HT. C O N FO R M I N G THIS THE H U M I LIATED.A B S E N T. VERY V I S I BLE. OR W H E T H E R I N T H E OBJECT H E PROPOSES FOR H I S R E VOLT. I M POTE N C E A N D UTOPIA E N C LOSING H I S A MBITION-WH ETHE R IT STI F L E S IN HIM THE C R E ATIONS AWAITED B Y T H E WO RLD I NTO W H I C H H E NO M A TT E R WHAT A ITS FUTURE. DEPEN­ DENT U PON THE SOC I A L D EC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L I MAGO: A DECLI NE CONDITION ED BY A RETU R N OF EXTR E M E EFFECTS OF S OC I A L PROGRESS ONTO THE I N D I V I DUAL: A DEC L I N E A BOVE ALL MARKED I N OUR T I M E S BY THOSE COLLECTIVITIES WHO HAVE MOST ST R O N G L Y F E LT THOSE E F FECTS. [ T A R I Rl D E F IC I E NC Y C O M E S T O I N STI N C T I V E I M P U LS E S EXHAUST AND TO I NT I M ATELY FA M I LY THE DIA LECTIC IT CONJUGAL SINCE OPERATES DAMAGE [TA R E R l THE DIA LECTIC OF SUBLI MATIONS. FALSE. ECONO M I C FOR M AND ITS G E N E RA LIZATION. N E U ROSIS. FROM THE MOST A RC H A I C T O THE M O S T E V O L V E D . ALWAYS I N SOME WAY D E F I C I E N T . GEOSI E . T H E DOM I N ANT WE ARE NOT A MONG THOSE AFFLICTED BY THE FOR M S OF N E U ROSES AT THE END OF THE LAST CENTURY REVEALED THEIR I NTIMATE D E P E N D E NCY U PON THE CONDITIONS OF THE F A M I LY. WHERE D U E EQUALLY TO THE SPEC I FICITY OF ITS C U LTURAL PROGRESS? BUT A LARGE N U M B E R OF PSYC HOLOGICAL EFFECTS SEEM. ON E M U ST R E LATE THE APPEA RANCE OF PSYCHO­ A N A LY S I S ITSELF TO ITS C RISIS. OUR EXPERI ENCE LEADS US TO DESIGNATE T H E PERSONA LITY OF THE FATH E R AS ITS PRINCI PLE DETE R M I NA NT. I S IT N O T SIGNI FICANT T H A T T H E FA M I LY S H O U L D BE REDUCED TO ITS BIOLOGICAL GROU PING TO THE DEGREE THAT IT I NT E G R A T E S THE H IG H EST S I N C E THE T I M E OF THE FI RST F R E U D I A N D I V I N A ­ T I O N S T H E S E N E U ROSES S E E M T O H A V E EVOLVE D I N THE D I R ECTION OF A CHARACTER I STIC COMPLEX. CONSTITUTES PSYCHOLOGICAL C R I S I S.

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I N T H E WAY O F BECO M I N G S O BY A C E R T A I N M A R X I ST ETHIC. T H E FI RST R EASON I S T H A T S UBJECTI V E LY I A C C O R D A C E RTAI N I M PORTA N C E TO WHAT COMES U N D E R T H E H E A D I NG OF T H A T S O M E W H A T O L D . RATI O N A L I ST WOULD C A LL A TACTI C A L WAY. FOR TH E RETU R N OF T H E WORD "PLEA S U R E" IS AND CENSURE PERSO N A L F I E LD. EXTR E M E C O N S I D E R A TI O N IS GIVEN TO OPPOSITIONS: FOR E X A M P L E BETWEE N WRITING AND SC R I B B L I N G . SO FAR A S I AM CON C E R N E D THEN. THE P H I LO S O P H Y 205 . OF TH E AND P A R TI C U LA R LY T O T H E L I V I NG. PLEASURE. OFTEN T R I E D T O C R EATE SUCH B R ECHT. FOR A LW A Y S FACT. EASILY E M PT I E D MORALIZING IMPERATIVES IT O F A L L I NOTION TO O F JOUISSANCE. I TAKE ON THE R E S PO N S I B I L I T Y RETURN TO OF A A C E R TA I N THESE OPPOSITIONS SHOULD NOT B E TA K E N TOO LITERALLY. T HROUGHOUT T H E WORK OF PREDELICTION. IN TO B R EC H T AND HIS CIGARS. N O T T O F R U STRATE B U T T O DE­ F R U STRATE IT. R E INTRODUCE IT IN MY REACTION WORD A TT E M PT E D NOT TO TH E OWN THE SECO N D J U ST I FICATION FOR T H E E M E RG E NCE. T H A T IT A L LOWS FOR A C E RTA I N E X PLORATION OF THE HUMAN S U BJ ECT. BY A S K I N G ON E'S SELF FOR I N STANCE IF SUCH AND SUCH A TEXT FALLS I N TO T H E H EDON I S M . I H A D T H E FEELING THAT I NTELLEC T U A L TO LANGUAGE S U B M ITTED TOO WHICH BY MORALITY. THE F R U STRATION WAS. THEN A FTER B E I N G THE WORD PLEASURE CROPPED UP IN WHAT I TAKEN OVE R BY A POS I T I V I ST.FA S H I O N E D TERM TH E M E H E DO N I S M . I N D I R ECTLY I THE OPPOSITION P LE A S U R EfJOUISSANCE I S ONE OF THOSE D E L I B E R A T E LY FOR WHICH I HAVE I A RT I F I C I A L OPPOS I T I O N S HAD A C E RT A I N " J O U I S SA N C E . ART OF A L R E A DY DREW ATTENTION TO THESE TH I NG S W H E N R E F E R R I NG E X A M PLE. OR IS A LAS. FIRST B Y C H R I ST I A N MORALITY. " JOUISSANC E .VOCA B U L A R Y OPPOSITION P L E A S U R EIJOUISSANCE DISCREDITED AND FRUSTRATED FOR CENTURI ES. A UTH E N T I C A LLY M A R X I ST A S N O ONE W I L L DENY. G I R D S ITSELF WITH R E A SO N S. IN POS I N G T H E COMES UP PROB L E M A OF ONE A G A I NST VERY TOP I C A L TH E M E F A M I L I A R T O PSYCHOA N A LY S I S A N D OF I NTEREST T O WHAT I S C A L L E D THE A V A N T GARDE. D E NOTA T I O N AND C O N NOTAT I O N . IN TRYING TO ESTA BLISH SOME KINO OF D I V I SION BETWEEN "PLEAS U R E" AND A TACTIC A L MOVE IN T H E O R D E R OF IDEAS E NTAI LS EXPLANATIONS.

IT IS. R EPETITION. THIS THEME OF JOUISSANCE BORDERS ON OTHE R TH E M ES. N O T B EC A U S E H E S P E A K S ABOUT JOUISSANCE. I N SPITE O F EVERYTHI NG. I CITED THE WORD "PERVERSION" A FTER TWO ALLUSIONS TO HASHISH A N D HOMOSEXUALITY. F O R EXAM PLE T H E T H E M E NOT OF DRUGS STRICTLY SPEAKI NG. OBVIOUSLY.. T O GIVE A N EXAM PLE." OR OF CERTA I N FORM S OF PERVERSION. I S T H E A NT I .N A T U R A L . FOR TEXTS O F JOUISSANCE S U C H C RITERIA A R E STI LL OBSCURE. R E M A I N S A TEXT OF PLEA S U R E. T O A QUEST A FTER TEXTS FOR E X A M PLE.A N D TH E R E'S NO S A Y I N G I F THEY A R E NOT ALSO TEXTS OF PLEASURE. . DRAGGING THAT SAID. ON THE "FI RST T I M E. W H I C H M E A N S THAT H E R E "PERVERSION" DOES NOT HAVE A PSYC HOA N A LYTIC R I GO U R-S I N C E FOR P S Y C H O A N A L Y S I S D R U G S A R E N OT ST R I CT L Y CLASSIBLE A S P E R V E R SIONS. T H E T H E M E OF S H O R T W R I T I N G . T H E S T E R EOTY P E . CASE. T H E A N T I ­ D O M A I N OF R E A D I N G C L A S S I C A L W R I T E R S . IT I S CERTA I N THAT BY A H U G E MAJORITY T H E TEXTS W E KNOW A N D LOVE A R E BROADLY SPEA K I NG TEXTS O F PLEASURE. . I S A WAY OF BEING H A PPY. I N STEAD OF A FF I R M I NG. R E ITERATION. BECAUSE IT IS S U B M I TT E D TO T H E CONSTR A I N T OF T H E EPOCH. THE PLEASURE OF L OV I N G W H I C H D O E S NOT F I G U R E I N V I E W O F 206 . FO R M U LAS.. B Y MEANS OF WHICH THE SUBJECT. WHERE IN MANY R E S PECTS HE "PERVERSION. F R A G M E N T S . HOWEVER I N C E NDIARY I T MA Y BE-I TH I N K OF SA D E FOR E X A M PLE (ONE M I GHT BE T E M PTED TO PLACE SADE A MONG TH E TEXTS OF J O U I S SA N C E . FOR J U DG I NG TEXTS OF PLEASURE. EASE-A N D I N M Y BELONGS T O THE PERHAPS I F I TALK A BOUT D RAGG I NG I'LL A R R I V E AT A D E F I N I TION. E X P A N S I V E N E S S . THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO WORDS IS NEVE RTH E LESS REAL. I N OTH E R WORDS." DRAGG I NG A TEXT M U ST BE S E E N AS THE C A PT U R E O F P H R A S E S . FOR E X A M PLE. • R E P E A T E D . BUT A M U C H S O U G H T. ." AS I F T H E F I R S T E N C O U N T E R POS S E S S E D A N EXTRAO R D I N A R Y P R I V I LEGE O F ITS OWN: THAT O F B E I NG OUTSIDE A L L R E PETITION. I N A WAY.CATEGORY OF PLEASURE OR JOUISSANCE. PERVERSION I S THE SEA RCH FOR A P L E A S U R E THAT C A N NOT BE T U R N E D TO THE PROFIT OF SOC I A L E N DS O R THE I N FACT IT'S D I F F I C U LT TO EXPLA I N B E C A U S E . A N D THEN. THAT I S T O S A Y TEXTS NOT O N TH E S I D E O F T H E PROBABLE. R EPETITION I S A M A LE F I C E N T T H E M E F O R M E . TEXTS OF J O U I S S A N C E ARE A V A NT-G A R D E TEXTS. IN GOI NG A STEP FURTHER: QUITE S I M PLY I N SPEAKING A N D W RITING. U N D E RGOES THE EXPERI ENCE OF PRODI­ GALITY WHICH I S STRICTLY SPEAKING JOUISSANCE. OF THE SUBJECT. FOR THAT REASON D R AGGING I S A NOTION I CAN EASILY TRA NSFER FROM THE ORDER OF THE E ROTI C QUEST WHERE I T O R I G I N ATES. W H I C H A F F I R M S I T S E L F TH ROUGH V A L U E S OF C O M FORT. JOUISSANCE I S THE SYSTEM OF READING. THE TEXT OF JOUISSANCE H A S T O BE I N A SENSE U N R EADABLE. • IN THE FRAG M E NT FROM WHICH THIS PHRASE IS TA KEN. QUITE S I M PLY. W H E N I T R Y T O PRODUCE T H I S SHORT W R I T I N G B Y F R A G M ENTS. ABOUT. WE MAY F I N D THESE TEXTS DISAGREEABLE OR AGGRESSIVE. FO R A B R I E F I N STA NT. IT MUST COME A S A JERK. WHATEVER C O M E S TO LIGHT IN THE S U R P R I S E OF THE "FIRST TIM E. ABANDONS ITSELF. I T I S T H E BODY IN A STATE OF A L E RT. I T I S THE LUCK OF T H E GAME. PLEASURE IS LINKED WITH THE CONSISTENCY OF THE SELF. B U T BY T H E W A Y H E SPEAKS OF IT!. TO THE C O D E OF THE PROBABLE. THEY ARE OPPOSITIONS C H I E FLY USEFUL IN CLEARING A PATH. A LTHOUGH O N E CAN I MAGI N E AESTHETIC CRITERIA SPEC I E S. I T I S A N I M PORTANT THEME FOR ME. O R A QUEST FOR A TYPE O F FICTION. OR OF E N U NC I ATION. B U T ITS C O N T E N T IS A B SO L U T E L Y I N A UG U RAL.A FT E R L U C K . THEY TRA N S PORT U S A N D PROVOKE THAT PRODIGA LITY OF THE LOSS OF SE LF. WHEREAS TEXTS O F JOUISSANCE A R E EXT R E M E LY R A R E . DRAGGING I S THE JOURNEY OF DESIRE. T H E ACT O F DRAGGING I S A N ACT IF O N E SET OUT TO DO A PROV I S IONAL SORTI NG OF TEXTS ACCOR DING TO THOSE TWO WORDS. AS OPPOSED TO THIS. B U T PROVI S I O N A L L Y A T L E A ST." B E L O N G S. S P I E D O N . NOT ONLY TO O U R REGISTER OF I M AGES A N D IMAGI NATION. DRAGGING I M PL I E S A TEMPORALITY WHICH LAYS STRESS ON THE E NCOU NTER. BUT ON T H E LEVEL OF LANGUAGE ITSELF . AND I AM NOT ALONE IN UPHOLD I NG IT. CITATIONS. T H E SADIAN TEXT. BUT OF "DRUGG I NG. I PUT M Y S E L F IN THE POSITION OF A N A UTHOR WHOSE READER GOES DRAGGING. DRAGGING THE N AT U R A L AS R E P ET I T I O N . QUESTING I N ACCORDANCE WITH ITS OWN DESIRE. PERVERSION M U C H THOUGHT .

A PSYCH O A N A LYTIC SPECI FICITY SOMETH I NG OF A TURNING POINT B E TW E E N CAN B E RE·INTRODUCED I NTO T H E G E N E R A LITY OF THE TERM. PLEASU R E OF T H E TEXT: S I NCE TH E R E I S N O T T H E PROBLEM O F J O U I SSA N C E W H I C H P R E DO M I NATES. WHAT I N T E R ESTS M E AT THE PRESENT M O M E N T IS TH E FIELD OF THE I M A G I N A RY. B Y H I M SELF AS B E I NG A CH ASTER BOOK T H A N THE THOUGHT. DERABLE I NTEREST TO M E AT THE MOM ENT. A S A MATTER OF FACT. A CCOR D I N G MAJOR TO FREUDIAN IS FETI S H I ST TH I N K I NG A N D T H I N K I NG THE I M A G I N A RY. BY WAY OF F E T I S H I S M . BY OF A S E M I N A R AT TH E ECOLE DES H A U TES ETUDES O N THE LA NGUAGE OF LOVE. VOLU PTU A R I E S IT B E LO N G S TO AN ORDER OF THE PA RTIC U L A R R E LATIO N S H I P ON WITH THE M OTH E R .PROCREATION. E M PHASIS O N T H E FACT THAT T H E P E RVERT IS. IS N E V E RTHELESS. P R A C T I S E D G R A T U I TO U S LY. THAT OF THE I M A G I N A RY. ONE COULD CONSI D E R RB. T H E RB. A H A P P Y P E R SON. W H I C H F O R M E I S LI N K E D EVEN MORE CLOSELY W I TH PROBLEMS OF TH E I NCLUDING H I M SELF. GIVEN ITS FI RST PRODUCTION I N RB. BECA USE OF THAT. P E R V E RSION. ONE OF THE P E R V E R SIONS FETI S H I S M (TH E M E THAT C A N B E FOU N D I N THE W I S H FOR SEGMENTED WRITINGI. W H I C H TOU C H E S A NOTH ER T H E M E OF CONSI· TH E M E OF PRODIGA L I TY. FREUDIAN THOUGHT PUTS BUT TH A T O F TH E I M AGE. OF THE I M AGI N A RY. PSYCHOANA LYT I C A L LY. IS C E RTA I N UNDER FRAGM ENTS THE SIGN FROM A OF SORT PERVERSE WRITI NG. I M PL I E S A ROLA ND B A RT H E S 207 . THUS. BY H I M SELF. AND IN SO FAR AS. I MAGINA RY. AND I'M BEGI N N I N G ALL I H AVE DO N E SINCE THE BDOK ON JAPAN RB. ON THE WHOLE. P E R V E R S I O N I S D I VORC E D FROM N E U ROSIS.

. 1. TH I S I S T O SAY. .STE A N N E Xci> XE ELSEWH E R E I OON'T OBVIOUSLY PAY TOO M UCH ATTENTION TO M Y LISTE N E RS. . I F A L L OF A SUDDEN TH IS SET-UP EVER CONC E R N I NG THE CONDITION. . THE OTH E R TWO WOULD NOT HOLD TOGETH E R FOR O N E EXC U S E ME. S I M PLE AS IT I S. T H I S SHALL NOT BE CAUSED BY MY ABNOR M A L STATE: RATHER IT SHALL BE -WHArs IN 1T1 WITH I N THE LI N E OF WHAT I I NTENDED TO SAY TO YOU. ( A N D IT WOU L D S U R P R I S E M E IF TH E R E ARE N OTI. ACTUALLY. YOU SHOULD EXC U S E ME. BY THIS I MEAN U N D E R TH E A B N O R M A L L Y GOOD. I F SOME OF YOU WERE HERE LAST TI M E . H A D SA I D. WHICH I S TO SAY A QU ESTION POSED A BOUT WHAT I S LANGUAGE. YOU ARE H E R E . YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I SPOKE OF SOM ETH I NG TO DO WITH A S U M MATION OF THE BORRO M E A N KNOT. I N STANT LONGER: I A M FORCED T O EXPLA I N W H Y TH I S COMES A BOUT AS. GOOD FOR YOU. THAT I AM HAVING FUN: I F I CONTI N U E SPEAKING IN TH E SA M E TON E IT I S NOT S I M PLY FORCED. AS I A QUESTION I N FLUENCES OF A SLIGHT TEM PERATU RE A N D SOME DR UGS. -WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1 208 . G I V E N A L L T H E F U S S . OF THE U NCONSC I O U S. . THIS I S ENOUGH (FOR • • . DOES APPROAC H E D I N ITS G R A M MAR. THERE I S A QU ESTION THAT R E M A I N S LANGUAGE HAVE TO BE U N S ETTLED.J LATE FOR THE FI RST T I M E . CHANGED. I AM ALSO H E R E AND T H IS I S GOOD THAT I FEEL • . ESPEC I A LLY SINCE I SAID -WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1 C E RTA I N THAT. IT I S SOl I AM GOI NG TO TRY TH I S E V E N I NG TO LIVE UP TO YOU R EXPECTATIONS. I WOULD HOPE THAT THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN L I STE N I N G TO ME FOR SO M E TI M E W I LL EXPLA I N TO THE I N ITIATES THAT TH I S IS THE FI RST T I M E IT HAS HAPPENED TO M E. I N W H I C H C A S E . AFTER A L L I A M N O T S U R E THAT. O N E R I N G W E R E DETAC H E D FROM T H I S C H A I N . ONE CHAIN IN THREE: I F (. IT C O M E S FROM A TOPOLOGY. T H I S I S TH E FI RST TIME THAT I A M FIVE M I N UTES LATE.

A DVA N C I N G TO IS SOM ETH I N G RADICALLY ATTACH E D TO T H E P U RELY TOPOLOGI­ CAL O R I G I N OF LANGUAGE. BECA USE OF SOM EONE. UNDER THE SEMANTIC M U C H A S WE KNOW SOMETH I NG ABOUT IT. WE KNOW FOR EXAMPLE THAT T H E ANGLE. LET US SAY. A N D THIS TRIES AND C E R TA I N LY OR N OT WITHOUT F A C I L I TA T E D SOM EO N E HAVING ALREADY FRAYED CERTA I N PATHS. TO FIND IN CERTA I N CU RVES. FROM WHICH WO U L D R E S U LT 209 . B E FORE S H E BROUGHT OUT TH I S BOOK CALLED THE SECOND SEX. WHICH I T TU R N S OUT I QUOTED A FTE R J A KOBSON D I D A N D THAT. I N T H A T WHICH I S P U R E L Y A N D S I M P LY COM U N ICATION (OF) P H E NOMENA OF OF SOM E U N KNOWN (TO M E ) ORIENTATION (BECAUSE TO TELL THE TRUTH I H A D NOT YET STARTED TO TEACH A N YT H I NG) H A D BELIEVED SHE R E F E R R E D T O ME B E F O R E S H E P U T O U T THE SECOND SEX. THE QUESTION STAYS SUSPEN DED. S E X E S A R E TWO. N OT H I N G HOLDS N EVERTHELESS. A S I POINTED PA R E N T H E S I S . E V E N I F TH I S REA LITY I S ONLY (ATTA I N ­ A B L E ) THROUGH THE BI A S OF A MATH E MATICAL SERVED TO D E M ON STRATE M Y LAST S E M I N A R-IS T IED TO THE R E LATIONS OF PURE S I G N I FYI NG. A CASE O F THOSE K I N DS OF SUPPLE BE CO N C E I V E D OF IN TH E I R ORIGIN UNDER DIFFERENT E M ERGING MODES? CI RCLES WHICH CONSTITUTED M Y "I D E M A N D YOU TO D E N Y ME THAT WHICH I OFFER YOU. A R E D E D U C E D FROM THESE C U RVES. THAT I S THAT ONE I S OBLIGED TO PUT U N D E R THE SAME TERM V E R BS AND VERY DIFFERENT TY P E S OF -WHAT DOES THIS M E A N ? ACTIONS. AS IT T U R N S O U T I H A D KNOWN FROM BEFORE • . THAT IS THAT IT I S TO TH E EXTENT THAT THESE TH REE TERMS ARE THREE THAT WE SEE ( T H AT) THE FUNCTIO N A L I ZATION. ( A N D) RE LATIONS. THIS I S THE A F FA I R I N WHICH I ABSTA I N FROM TREA D I NG. . THAT I S . AND THE HOMO­ SAME SECO N D A R I LY SO AS TO BE CLARIFY WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE PSYCHO­ ANALYTIC T R I B UTA RY TO HER WOR K. F R O M THE FACT OF ITS . BETWE EN THE OTH E R TWO.-AH . SOMETH I NG WHICH WOU L D P E R M I T US TO CONCEIVE OF LA NGUAGE AS. . BY TH E NON-METRIC OBSTACLE I N CONCEI VING TH I NGS LIKE TH IS. T H I S IS. I WOULD A DD. TA K E N IN R E LATIONS. H A D BELIEVED." EACH ONE IS A CLOSED TH I N G. LEAVI NG IT UP TO YOU. FOR MY PART WHAT YOU I AM IN TH E COU R S E WHICH OF IS PRESENCE OF T H E T H I RD. I S TIED TO THE RELATIONS-AND R I G HT. SOMEONE THAT I H A V E QUOTED. A N D WE KNOW A LITTLE ABOUT IT A FTER A L L IF ONLY FROM EXPERI ENCE. THIS IS WHAT WAY MODELED ON FUNCTIONS THAT A R E S U PPOSED T O BE PHYSICAL REA LITY. WHY DOES LANGUAGE ASSEMBLE U N D E R TH E SA M E CATEGORY FU NCTIONS W H I C H C A N ONLY BY THE DISTORTED R E LATIONS. OF ITS MATHEMATICAL I N S E RTION. WHAT IS A TOPOLOGY? HOW N I C E T H I S PERSON lSI A TOPOLOGY I S A THING THAT HAS A MATHE­ MATICAL D E F I N I TI O N . THAT IS IN AS TH E FU N D A M E N TAL WHICH I SC H E M E TRY OF WHAT A THIS IS A BOUT WILL TO PUSH LITTLE S I G N I FYI NG COMBI NATION. STRICTLY SPEAKI NG. IT SEE M S TO ME THAT THERE IS ALREADY AN COMES ON TO ITSELF. C E RTA I N FORMS. BECAUSE F R O M TH I S E X A M P LE. SPEA K I N G BEING SPEAKING SOM E­ TH ING WHICH HAPPENS TO SEXUA LITY OR DOES THE SOMETH I N G HA PPEN TO SEXUA LITY BECAUSE H E IS A SPEA K I N G B E I NG. NO MATTE R WHAT A R E NOWNED AUTHOR TH I N KS ABOUT IT-A R E N OWN E D A UTHOR WHO I MUST SAY I N H E R TI M E . A N D W H I C H O N LY HOLDS TO BE CHA I N E D TO OTH E R S . TO A P P ROACH T H E QUESTION OF LANGUAGE NOT FROM AS UNDER THE PURE AS THE S E M A NTIC BIAS. S H E C A L L E D M E O N THE TELE PHONE T O SAY T O M E T H A T ASSUREDLY S H E H A D N E E D O F MY COUNSEL TO RESONANCE W H I C H WOU L D B E C U RVES C E RTA I N WOU LD GENIZE WHICH IN ORDER TO E L A BORATED (BY) HAVE VALUE IN A ORDER OF FUNDAM ENTAL RESSEMBLE. THAT THIS I S WHAT IS MEANT BY T H E BOR RO M E A N KNOT. IT IS THIS WHICH FI RSTLY DIVERSE G R A M MATI C A L F U NCTIONS.THAT I S TO SAY NOT WITHOUT RESORTING A LSO TO M A TH E M A T I C S TO FIND. CAN HELP FURTH E R B E FO R E Y O U THIS EVENING IS TH I S : T H E FUNCTION CA LLED SEXUA LITY IS DEFI N E D IN AS MUCH MATHEMATICS BUT US TO CONCE I V E SUCH. SOM ETH I N G LIKE T H E E C H O OF P H Y S I C A L P H E N O M E N A . LErS SAY. S U PPLE. . TH I S TOPOLOGY. IT IS COURSE IN TH I N G SOM ETH I NG B E I NG H A P P E N S TO THE BIAS OF SPEAKING IS TH E P R E S E NT THE FACT THAT UNDER THE S E X U A LITY. N A M ELY SOM E O N E N A M E D RENE THOM. I S A R ELATION. I TH I N K I A M ABLE TO TAKE ACCOUNT OF THIS TOPOLOGICAL OR I G I N BY TH E R E IS A N OTH E R OF WAY TO A PP ROACH THE THIS IS THE FACT THAT WHICH IT IS E S S E NTI A LLY TI E D TO LA N G U A G E -A N D P R E S E NT. IT IS C E RTAIN THAT THERE WOULD BE SOM ETH I N G INFI NITELY LANGUAGE SATI SFYI NG IS IN SOM E IN CO N S I D E R I N G THAT THE TOGETH E R A L O N E .

S U C H THAT T H E Y S E E M E D T O H A V E D E N I E D H E R T H E POSS I B I L I TY OF HAVING MORE THAN 3 OR 4 I T I S NOT TH E R E . IN TH I S C A S E . I N THIS POSITION. IT I S OBVIOUS T H A T F O R S O M E TI M E. I DO NOT N E E D TO RECALL WHAT "TO K N OW" M EA N S IN TH E I NTERVI EWS WITH ME. THE LAWS OF LITE RARY PRODUCTION A R E IMAGE F U R N I S H A S U F F IC I E N T MODEL OF WHAT T H E R E I S T O T H I S R E LATIO N SH I P A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E O F W H A T TH E R E I S ( O F TH E ) S E X U A L CON S I D E R E D AS N E ED. WHICH IS E X PE R I E NC E S P A S S I VE WHAT SECOND WHICH TO PUT IS C A L L E D V A R IOUSLY B U T A S S U R E D LY WHOSE MOST COMMON G R E E K DENOM I N ATION IS THAT OF H Y L E . WE H A V E FOR TH E R E LATION BETWEEN THE SEXES THE A N I M A L OF COPULATION T H A T S E E M S T O U S TO ACC I D E NTA L . -NOT O F THIS IS VERY WELL FOR A LL T H E OTH E R S FROM THE OTH E R SIDE. LET US R E M E M B E R ON WHAT R ESTS WHAT WE CAN HAVE OF TH E C O N C E PT I O N . I N G R E E K . M UST IT. H ETEROS E X U A L ITY. SHE TH I S MADE THE OBSE RVATION TO M E THAT IT WOULD NOT B E NORMAL THAT A BOOK. H A S A LWAYS B E E N C A L L E D T H E MODE. S U C H A N D S U C H A FO R M U LA (AND IN TRUTH.OUT TO H E R THAT IT WOULD H A V E TO BE AT LEAST­ AT BOTTOM TH I S IS A M I N I M U M S I NCE I HAVE B E E N SPEA K I NG FOR W H A T DO W E H A V E . IT I S PRECISELY THIS. OR BY NO MATTER 210 . WHAT HAS A LWAYS BEEN T H E WAY IT WAS. LANGUAGE OTH E R W I S E ENTERS TH E I NTO FU NCTION . IS PRECI S E LY. O F E A C H F R O M O N E S I D E T O COUNT BRINGS US. FAR FROM IT. IF TH E R E WAS AN A RTICU LAT­ A B L E R E LATION IN THE S P E A K I N G BEI NG. BUT TH E F U N D A M ENTAL MODE OF BEING OF WHAT ONE HOLDS TO B E TH E WORLD. THAT THE WO R D HETEROS. TO E M PTY ITSELF I N AS MUCH A S IT I S B E I NG. IF I SAY FOR SOME T I M E IT I S THAT I DO NOT KNOW WHETHER THERE WAS A N I N DICATION OF A T I M E I N W H I C H IT W A S A FOR M U LA ) . AND EXPRESS ITSELF TO ALL THOSE OF TH E OTH E R ? THIS IS KNOW N . A N D TH I S IS THE Q U E STION. FOLLOWI N G TH I S . SI NCE A LWAYS THE R E LI' T l O N OF THE ITS NOUS TO SO M ET H I NG I M PRI NT. I F Y O U FOLLOW WHAT I JUST A DVA NCED­ BUT (OF) B I S E X U A LITY. THE A PTITUDE I F I C A N PUT I T TH I S W A Y . (RALLIES THE) DE UTEROS. N A M E LY T H A T I N W H I C H I S I N SC R I BED TH E EFFECTS OF THIS SPOKEN WORD. I AM NOT GOING TO EMBELLISH T H I S B ECA USE A FT E R ALL THAT WOULD DELAY U S FROM S E V E R A L ETYMOLOGICAL R E FER­ ENCES. PASSED OVER. T H E MODE OF R E LATION WHICH I S E N G E N D E R E D FROM S P I R I T A N D THAT H A S B E E N CON S I D E R E D A S MODELING NOT AT A L L S I M PLY THE A N I MA L R E LATION S H I P. AT T H E POINT WH E R E WE ARE I N O U R STATE M E N T CONC E R N I NG TH I S SEXUA LITY. SUCH A FO R M U L A IS P R E C I S ELY WHAT IS NOT I F THERE WAS A N A R TI C U LATABLE R E LATION ON THE S E X U A L LEV E L. OR. IT I S CLEAR THAT T H I S C A N SEEM SU R P R I S I NG. I N T H I S C A S E I F I MAY SAY SO. W H I C H BESIDES H A V I NG A L R E A DY B E E N IN P R E P A R ATION. HOW. THEN. FEM I N I N E (WH AT) I S C A L L E D Y I N I N O R D E R T O O P POSE IT TO YANG. T H E S U PPOS E D ANIMAL MODEL. THI NGS CONCERNING WHAT CALLED H ETEROSEX U A L I TY. S I GN I FYI NG T H E U N I VE R S A L. THAT TH E STATEMENT I S P ROM U L­ GATED ACCOR D I N G TO THE SEMANTIC FORM NAMED. W H ICH I S THE TERM WHICH M E A N S OTH ER. D I STI N G U I S H ITSELF FROM ALL THOSE O F T H E SAME SEX. THE THAT TH E R E MOMENT IN IS NO B I B L I C A L S E N S E OF THE WORD. W H A T W E A R E REFERRING TO. W H A T WE A R E R E F E R R I N G TO AND D O N 'T BELIEVE THAT TH I S GOES W I THOUT 20 6 YEARS AND TH I S IS NOT S A Y I NG. G R E E K D I A LECTS WHOSE N A M E S I W I L L SPA R E YOU. SI NCE YOU SEE. THE C H I N ES E . I N T H E R E LATION THAT IS CALLED SEXUAL I N TH E SPEA K I NG B E I NG. IT I S PRECISELY FROM TH I S E M PTINESS THAT IT OFFERS TO THE S POKEN WORD WHAT I CALL THE LOC U S OF THE OTH E R . R E PLAC I NG I N WHAT I S A I D EACH O N E BY A N Y O N E AT ALL. B E L I E V E M E . A P P E A L T O SOM ETH I N G W H I C H I S W R I TT E N AS FOLLOWS. SHOULD TAKE SO LONG. AND EXACTLY MARKS THAT THIS DE UTEROS I S . I DEC L I N E D THE HONOR.!5 O R STRA IGHTEN OUT MONTHS BEFORE I COULD Q U E STION FOR H E R. H ETEROS WHICH IS SAID IN CERTA I N THE C H I N ES E FOR A LONG TI M E A PP E A L E D TO TWO F U N D A M E NTAL T I V E LY-I PUT ESSENCES A BO V E THE WHICH ARE R E S PEC­ ESSENCE. BY T H E REFERENCE TO WHAT I'VE CALLED T H E A N I M A L M O D E L. I N E V E RTHELESS C LA I M AND I UNDE RLI N E THAT WHAT YO U S E E I N THE DI AGRAM I S (EVE RY­ TH ING) THAT THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC EXPE R I ENCE E V I D E N T FROM TH E IDEA SUGGESTED BY THE POINT W H E R E W E ARE. FOR TH IS. TH E BASIS OF WHAT I H A V E FOR SOME TIME BEEN BRINGING OUT FOR YOU I S P R ECISELY TH I S THAT TH E R E IS NO SEX SECON D F ROM SEX. I S I F I M IGHT SAY.

AND TH E R E ARE SOME FOR WHOM LANGUAGE DO E SN'T EXI ST. IT I S A N ETHOLOGICAL REMARK THAT I MAKE HERE. I F TH I S G I VES YOU AT LEAST THIS DIM ENSION. S U GG ESTS ( R E C OG N I Z E IN C O N D I T I ON A L SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M Y D I SCOU R S E ECHOES WHICH WOU L D NOT BE A S E M B LA NC E ) [T H I S IS T H E TITLE O F M Y S E M I N A R NO. THE B I U N I VOCA L COUP­ LING IS WHAT A PPEARS TO US OF IT. BUT S I M PLY O F THE P U R E DIMENSION OF TH E REA L. THE ONE I JUST P I N N E D-DOW N WITH T H I S BANAL N A M E . I T I S P R E C I S E LY IN THIS SENSE THAT IT I S O N L Y TH E A N I M A L M O D E L T H A T S U STA I N S ITSELF AND A RO U S E S TH E PHANTASM THAT WE H A V E C A L L E D A N I M A LIC. ENCOUNTER OF PSYCHOANALYSIS ALLOWS M E TO ADVANCE. A N D FROM TH I S ALONE THAT TH E A N I M A L MODE L IS AROUSED. E NCOU N T E R . AS I F NORMAL. OR E V E N I F THE CHOICE W E R E B A S E D ON A H A PHAZA R D ENCOUNTER. NAM ELY THE STAT E M E N T BY WH I C H R E LATION S H I P SPEAKING BEI NG. TO TH E ANA LYTICAL EXPERI E NCE. I WANT TO STAY CLOSE-CUT TO THE GROUND. N A M E LY TH E R E A R E O N L Y T W O A N I MA LS W H I C H COUPLE TOGETHER. OR SIM PLY: THE NORMAL WAS LOCATED SOM EWHERE. OBJ ECTS SHOULD BE D I STRI BUTED I N TWO WHOLES 21 1 . TH E V U LGAR TERM OF FREE-FOR­ ALL (ORGY) IS NOT A BSOLUTELY EXCLUDED. BUT ON P R E C I S E LY WHAT S UGGESTS ANIMALIC THE CONTRARY. A N EXPERI ENCE WHICH IS NOT E A S Y (BUT W H I C H ) T H E PSYCHOA N A LYST I S ABLE TO PHA NTASM.WHICH ONE. IF S I M PLY THIS HAS A SMALL VALUE OF AWA K E N I NG. TO REPEAT ITSELF. THERE I S NO N E E D H E R E T O B R I NG B A C K I NTO PLAY A N Y D I M E N S I ON OF THE V I RTUOUS. TO BE MORE I NS I STENT H E R E AND TO HOLD MYSELF AT THE L E V E L OF T H E MOST FUNDAM ENTAL HORIZON O F O N E T O ON E T O EACH H I S OWN EACH. IN AS M UC H A S T H I S ADVANCES THESE S I DES. THI S REFERENCE IN ITS E LF CONTA I N S NOTH I N G WHOEVER K N OWS THE CONDITIONS OF THE DECISIVE S I NC E AFTER A L L ON E COULD ASSU M E A SERIOUS A I R A N D SAY THAT IT IS PRECISELY THE STIGMA O F A NOMALY. I CERTA I N LY D I D NOT S E E K TO VI BRATE IN YOU TH E EROTIC LYRE. OF COU RSE. I F TH E R E S O M ETH I N G THAT ACC IDENT I F I S A Y THAT IT I S EXACTLY FROM THIS. I A M CERTA I N LY NOT HERE TO A M U S E YOU IN THIS STRA I N . WE PRESENTATION OF N U M B ERS. I W I L L R E M I N D Y O U T H A T TH E R ECON S T I T U T E IN IMAGINARY I S WHAT WE ANIMAL M O D E L. NO MATTER WHICH ONE OF ONE OF EVERYTH I N G WHICH MATE R I A LZES THE U N IVERSAL I N THE B E HAVIOR WHICH I S E FFECTIVELY HERD. B U T LET US T R Y NOW T O C U T A W A Y A T WHAT THE K I N S H I P OF THE U N I V E R SA LITY HAS TO DO WITH OUR WHAT GIVES THE IN I LL U S I O N TH E OF THE SEXUAL IS AFFAI R. TO SAY THINGS CRUDELY. I T I S N O T C R UDE. I T S E E M S T O ME. I T I S SOME VAGU E OUTLI NE OF ANOTH ER P RESENCE FOR WH ICH. TH E Y LOVE T O DOUBLE THEMSE LVES. (BUT) IT I S OBVIOUSLY NOT THESE WHO I NTEREST U S I N TH E ANALYTICAL FI ELD. T O M A K E U N DERSTOOD T H A T I F I M A I NTAIN (I CALL T H I S CRUDELY. I H A V E ALREADY STRESSED T H A T I N SO-CALLED SEX U A L H U NTING OR C R U I S I N G . THEM. AND THIS B I U N I VOCAL CORRESPO NDENCE. N E C E S S I T Y O F W H A T I N T H E S PE A K I N G B E I NG PRODUCES ITSELF OF THE U N IQUE. IT I S THE VERY IT IS CERTA I N THAT I N A DVANC I NG THI S TE RM. ECHOES TO WHAT WE KNOW TO BE E S S E N TI A L TO TH E EXPERI E NCE. WE HAVE A N EXPERIENCE OF T H E I MAGINA RY. LETS C A L L TH I S THE SOUL TO SOU L. THE R E A R E ROYAL BASTA RDS. MY GOD. I S NOT TO B E ASTO N I S H E D I N A N Y C A S E T H A T THE ENCOUNTER ON T H I S B A S I S SERVES P R EC I S E LY TO BE REPEATED A S U N IQUE. WE WOU LD BE COM P LETELY IN THE ORDER OF W H AT. BUT WHICH SOLVES NOTH I N G BECAUSE I T S UFFICES T O R E FLECT ON TH I S TO S E E I N THI S A N A M B IGUOUS I LLUSION W H I C H CAN NOT T H E E A C H ONE T H A T I HAVE U S E D FI RST HAS TH E EFFECT OF RECA LLING TO US THAT TH E EFFECTIVE R ELATION S H I P IS NOT W I TH O U T EVO K I N G T H E UPHOLD ITSELF FOR LONG. O F COU RSE. A N D AS FOR G I RLS. IT W I L L NOT SEEM DIFFICULT. I F W E WOU LD NOT H A V E T H I S A N I M A L MODEL.L I K E I N T H E R E LATIONS H I P B ETWEEN TH E SEXES. AND WELLI MY GOD. RATH ER IT I S C R U EL. WHAT WOULD THIS BE CALLED. WE WOU LD NOT HAVE TH I S ESSENTI A L D I M ENSION WHICH CONSI STS VERY THAT TH E P R E C I S E LY IS IN TH E FACT IT IS NO INCREASE FOR US. ) THAT IS IN EVERY SEXUAL E N CO U N T E R U N IQ U E . AND ONE CAN EVEN SAY THAT THE ANIMAL TH E MODEL IS RECONSTITUTE I T ACCORDING TO OUR OWN IDEA. 2 1 ( m A N D W ELLI I N R EPLACING THI S EACH ONE B Y A NYON E AT ALL. THE NB: W E CANNOT F ROM T H E START E LI M I NATE THE EXISTENCE OF THESE TWO D I M ENSIONS. B O Y S STI M U LATE TH E M ­ SELVES. W E WOULD B E IN TH I S I NDETE R M I N ACY OF WHAT I S CHOSEN IN EACH EVERY TO RESPOND TO EVERY OTH E R . OF COURSE: B ECAU S E IT IS CLEAR THAT WE CAN ONLY RECONSTRUCT THROUGH OBSE RVATION. SPEAKING B E I NG. NOT THAT FROM WH ICH COM ES AN ECHO OF EROS.

IT I S A L R E A D Y W R I TT E N ? SEM BLA NCE. TH I S I S ASSUREDLY NOT IN ALL I N N OC E N C E . BY E V ERYTH I N G W H I C H A N S W E R S TO T H E E M ERGENCE OF A DI SCOURSE WHICH A S S U R E DLY H A S NEVER YET COME TO LIGHT AND W H I C H C A N NOT CONC E I V E OF ITSELF BY PRIOR E M E RG E N C E IN SO FAR FROM TH E P H I LOS O P H I C A L CHANCE. B U T I N A D I M ENSION W H I C H APPEARS T O US TO BE AN I LLUSION. O R I N C H I N ESE TE R M I NOLOGY THE YANG ESSENCE. THAT I T C A N NO LONG E R WRITE ITSELF IN TERMS OF M A L E AND FEMALE ESSENCES. FOR TH E TH I S IS S I M PLY A D E M A N D THE EQUAL D I STRI BUTION OF I N DI V I DUA LS. POLITELY B E G H E R I F I R E J ECT TH I S A N C I E N T W R I T I N G U N TH E N A M E' O F 212 . T H I S PERSON ( . IT I S PRECISELY FOR HAVI NG BROUGHT THE PURE S U B J E CT TO THE PLACE OF THE LONG E R A WAY. S U P PORT MY D I SCOU RSE ON THE B I U N I VOCITY OF THE COUPLI N G . IT HOW DOES U N I V E RSAL U N I V E RSA L WOMAN. RELATIONSH I P OF ONE TO A NOTHER. THAT I REMAIN HERE AND HAVE BEEN ABLE TO I N D ICATION CONC E R N I NG EXACTLY W H E R E THE Q U E STION L I E S THAT WE A R E R A I S I NG. S U P P L E M E N TA R I TY. AT T H E POI NT OF H I S D E A T H . MAN IS R E LATE H I M SELF TO THE QUESTION AND IS N A M ELY THIS SOM ETH I N G BY WHICH THIS S E X U A L R E LATION S H I P DOES NOT C H A R ACTE R I ZE AT L E A ST ONE OF THESE TWO T E R M S. H I S W I FE T O THE DEG R E E THAT S H E STA R V E D FOR H I M . N A M E LY T H I S H A T R E D OF H I S W I FE. IT IS A QU ESTION OF BASING THESE RELATIONSH I PS WITH I N U N I V E R SALS. AND WE WOU L D NOT H A V E T O B R I NG I NTO PLAY TH E U N I VERSAL. TH E R E ARE OR RATH E R TH E R E MIGHT B E TWO U N I V E RSALS D E F I N E D J U ST B Y T H E ESTA B L I S H M E N T OF THE POS S I B I L I T Y OF A I HAVE SAID THAT I F W E C A N SAY THAT THERE I S NO S E X U A L R E LATION. M A N I FE STLY H YSTE R I C A L . WHO W A S ' H I S W I F E . WE MEAN D I SC O U R S E OF SC I E N C E AS IT IS THE C L I N I C A L LY H YSTE R I C A L: RELATIONSH I P OF WOULD H A V E TH E ( . I N SERTION OF LANGUAGE OVER THE MATHE MATI­ CAL R E A L. THESE C A TA L E P T I C MANI FESTATI ONS OF THE ONE CALLED SOCRATES. TO A FTER A L L M E RITS TO BE THE M E A N I NG. OF THE TERM ORGAN. I FOR YOU THAT HERE THERE HAVE J U ST NOTED IS NO PLACE TO TO R ETI R E I N ORDER TO A LLOW T H I S DEATH. AN SOMETH I N G HOTH ER. T O C A L L IT B Y H E R N A M E . IT I S P R EC I SELY ON THE CONTRARY OWING TO T H I S W H I C H RECALLED.OF O P POSED EQUIVALENCES. A N D THIS H E COULD DO PRECI S E LY ON ACC O U N T OF THIS D I M ENSION WHICH FOR ME PRESENTED TH E HOTH E R A S SUCH. IT IS B E C A U S E TH E EXPERI ENCE. A TOOL IT I S A RO U N D T H E TOOL THAT THE A N A LYTI C A L EXPERIENCE I NC I T E S US TO SEE OTH E R E M PTY. EVE RYT H I NG WE H A V E OF DOES N OT . AGA I N . THIS IS GETTING ACROSS THE D I M E N S I O N OF HATE W H I C H CAN H E R E ENTER I NTO P L A Y . MORE TH I S TH I S I S T H E Q U E STION W H I C H I M POSES ITSELF O N US B Y T H E FACT THAT LANGUAGE D E M A N DS VERY PREC I S E LY THAT IT B E THERE WERE NO FOU N D E D FROM H E R E : IF THERE WOULD NO P R EC I S E LY T H E TERM ATTACH E D T O T H E WORD: THE O N E . TH I S R E LA T I O N S H I P H A S A B SOLUTE LY N A M E LY A MODE O F D I SCOURSE W H I C H I S S U R E LY N E V E R THAT OF THE HYSTERIC W H I C H IS BUT THE ONE W H I C H I H A V E I N SC R I B E UNDER A Q U A D R U P A L D I V I S I O N ' A S BEING T H E A N A LYTI C A L D I SCOURSE. T O ACCENTUATE THI NGS. . I F H E COULD HOLD A D I SCOU R S E WHICH I S NOT FOR NOTH I N G AT THE ORIGIN OF THE DISCOU RSE OF I H A V E S A I D THAT WHAT IN THE R E LATIONSH I P O F B E I NG I S STIGMATIZED I N THE D E E PLY S U BVERTED LANGUAGE IS P R EC I S E LY THAT TH E R E IS NO SC I ENCE. . BY AS W H I C H I S ONLY A N O RG A N . FORCE WHICH WHAT PERHAPS TO N I G H T WOULD MALE. O R FOR US T O NOTICE (WH E N ' FOR E X A M PLE. AND WHICH COM E S OUT OF TH I S D I SCOURSE I S THE H E R E T O FO R E U NEVOKED D I M E N SION OF THE NOTH I N G TO DO WITH WHAT I S O R D I N A R I LY CALLED SEXUAL R E LATON SHI PS. -HOW LONG I S I T GOING TO LAST1-IT I S NOT FROM ITS POSITION (OF ONE' WHICH WOULD BE LA NGUAGE. YESI TH I S R E LATION C A N P R E C I SELY RE-ENTER T H E OT H E R W H I C H I S ABSOLUTELY FOREIGN T O W H A T COULD H A V E B E E N H E R E P U R E LY AND S I M PLY AS ACC E S S O R Y . SEVE R A L S M A L L RELATION S H I PS: T H I S TA KES U P OUR WORDLY L I F E . IT I S EXACTLY T H I S M E T O ACCENTUATE I DESIG NATE OF THE THE CAPITAL AS O. PLACE MYSELF. OF THE OTH E R TO ONE. THAT H E H A D TO. CO M E CONCOCTI O N FROM ONE CALLED I SOC R AT E S TO SAY. THE WHICH A B A D W A Y OF T U R N I N G E V E R YTH I NG THAT I S S A I D B Y T H E S E X U A L R ELATION. AND TH I S IS A N O V E LTY. . ITS PO L I T I C A L D I M E N SION SIGNIFICANCE. . . B U T AT T H E LEVEL WH E R E I P H A L L I C FUNCTION. TH E A C E N TU A TE H I D D E N M E A N I N G BECA U S E IT COMES TO US FROM A F A R . REDUCIBLE E I TH E R TO TH I S SOM ETH I N G THAT I S CALLED LONG E R B E A N Y QUESTION EITHER. O N E HAS A WHOLE LOT OF R E L A T I O N S H I PS ABOUT T H E S E TO TH E S E R E LATION S H I P S A N D ONE A LSO HAS R E LA T I O N S H I P S . WHAT DOES TH I S MEAN WHEN A FTER A LL. WOU LD NOT BE H. HOW N E V E RTHELESS I T I S DON E .

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ITSELF ENGENDE RS,

I M A I NTA I N THAT THE WAY I N W H I C H O U R POSITIONS OF ARGUMENT A N D FU NCTION ARE WRITTEN ARE

THE oj> O F X A F F I R M S THAT I T I S T R U E -IT I S THE SENSE GIVEN TO TH E T E R M F U NCTION-THAT WHAT RE LATES TO T H E E X E RCISE, IN TH E REGISTER OF THE SEXUAL ACT, COMES FROM TH E PHALLIC

SUCH THAT WHAT I S POSED A S TR UTH CAN ONLY N EGATE BY PASS I N G I N TO T H E REALM OF THE

FALSE PRECISELY WHAT I S UNTENABLE HERE, THIS I S THE SO-CALLED N EGATI VE RELATION, BECA USE AT N O MATTER WHAT LEVEL, LOWER O R H IG H E R , THE STATE M E N T POS E D OF TH E AS F U NCTION TRUTH, OR AS PHALLIC IS AS

FU NCTION AGA I N , I T I S PRECISELY I N AS M U C H AS I T IS A M ATTER OF T H E PHALLIC FU NCTION FROM

WHATEVER S I D E WE SIDE OR FROM

LOOK AT, I M E A N FROM O N E OTHE R , THAT S O M ETH I N G TWO TWO

EITHER

P R E C I S E L Y,

THE

DEVIATION; BECAUSE AFTE R A LL, THE T R U E TRUTH WOU LD B E EXACTLY THAT WHICH DOESN'T WRITE

SOLICITES DI FFER,

U S T O A K S THEN. IS

HOW D O THE

AND T H I S

PREC I SE LY W H A T THE

ITSELF, THAT W H I C H H E R E C A NNOT WRITE ITSELF EXCEPT IN A FORM WHICH CONTESTS T H E PHALLIC FU NCTIO N , IT IS IS THE NOT TRUE THAT OF THE THE PHA LLIC SEXUAL

FOR M U LA S IN TH E D I A G R A M SAY,

I F I T I S PROVED FROM THE FACT THAT TO DOM I N ATE

FUNCTION

FOU N DATION

213

R E LATION:

IN

THESE

TWO

L E V E LS

WH I C H

STA Y

F U NCTI ON. A N D SITUATES H E RSELF T H E R E ONLY A S TH E NOT- A L L TO B E S U B J UGATED.

I N D E P E N D E NT A S SUCH. IT IS NOT A MATTER AT A L L OF M A K I N G O N E THE N EGATION OF THE OTH E R B U T ON TH E CONTRARY OF M A K I N G ONE THE OBSTAC L E OF THE OTH E R . AGA I N ST THAT WHICH YOU SEE

WHAT

IS

STRANGE

I S T H E THE

D I S J U NCTION

NO

LONG E R H O L D S : I F YOU R E M E M BER. THE D I S J U NC­ TION ONLY TAKES ON VALUE BY VI RTU E OF THE

R E D I STRI BUTED: IT I S PRECISELY AN I T T H A T EXI STS A N D A N I T THAT DOES NOT EXI ST: IT IS A WHOLE ON TH E ONE S I DE. AND ALL X. THE DO M A I N OF WHAT IS M A L E D E F I N I N G lTSELF BY THE PHALLIC FU NCTION: THE DI FFERENCE IN TH E PO S I T I O N OF THE

FACT THAT TWO PROPOSITIONS CAN NOT B E FALSE AT TH E S A M E T I M E: LET U S SAY. OF THE STRONGEST OR THE W E A K E ST. I T I S A S S U R E D LY THE STRONGEST R E LA T I O N D I F FI C U LT IN TO THAT STI R IT IS WHAT IS THE MOST TH E R E

A R G U M E NT I N T H E PHA LLIC POSITION O R F U N CTION I S P R E C I S E L Y THAT IT I S NOT EVERY WOMAN W H I C H WRITES ITSELF. FAR FROM TH E ONE ITSELF

TOGETH ER.

BECA USE

M U ST B E A M I N I M U M F O R THERE TO B E D I S J U NCTION. THAT D I S J U NCTION R E N D E R S VALID ONE PROPOSI­ TION TO B E TRUE. TH E OTH E R FALSE. AND THAT OF COURSE BOTH O F THEM ARE TRUE. I HAVE CALLED T H E O N E TRUE. T H E OTH E R FALSE: I T I S P E RHAPS THAT THE ONE THERE IS IS FALSE. AT AND THE OTH E R TRUE: THREE CASES OF

O P POS E D T O T H E OTH E R A S ITS NEGATION. I T I S ON TH E CONT R A R Y FROM T H E I R SUBSISTA NCE ( H E R E VERY POS I T I V E LY D E N I EDI T H A T TH E R E IS AN X

W H I C H C A N U PHOLD ITSELF IN THIS R E A L M BEYOND TH E PHA LLIC FU NCTION. AND ON TH E OTH E R H A N D . THAT T H E R E I S N O T ONLY O N E . F O R THE S I M PLE R E A SON THAT WOM E N C A N NOT BE CASTRATED FOR TH E BEST OF R E A SONS. THIS I S THE LEVEL OF WHAT IS B LOC K E D P R E C I S E LY FOR US IN THE SEXUAL

THEN

L E A ST

COMBI NATIONS W H ICH TH E DISJU NCTION U PHOLDS.

NOW H E R E W E

HAVE TWO FUNCTIONS WHICH A R E

POSITED A S N O T B E I NG-AS I S A I D A MOMENT AGO­ THE T R U E TRUTH. SEEM HOPE. TO HOLD THOSE WHICH ARE ABOVE: WE GIVES

R E LATION. WHILE ON THE LEVEL OF THE PHA LLIC FUNCTION. I T I S PRECISELY THE NOT-ALL' OPPOSED TO TH E A LL: T H E R E I N LIES THE POSSIBI LITY OF A R E D I ST R I BUTION ITSELFI F E M A LE. W I LL BE FROM L E FT TO AS R IG H T. M A LE (WHICH AND AS

HERE

S O M E TH I N G

WHICH

N A M E L Y T H A T W E H A V E A R T I C U LATED A

TRUE D I S J U NCTION. HOWEVER. LET US NOTE WHAT TH E R E IS OF THE TO WRITTEN. WHICH IN I A HAVE THE

FOU N D E D

O P P O RT U N I T Y

A R T I C U LA T E

MANNER

B R I N G I N G I T A L I V E FOR YOU: O N ON E S I DE O F THIS 4> T H E N EGATIVE R ELATION DOESN'T AT ALL FORCE U S TO CHOOSE: ON THE CONTRA RY. I A S M U C H A S W E A R E F A R F R O M H A V I NG T O CHOOSE. A N D THAT WE M U ST R E D I ST R I B U T E . T H E TWO SIDES ARE OF X N EG A T E D W H E R E TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION

DOES NOT FUNCTION. TH E R E I S A POS S I B I LITY OF SEXUAL RELATI O N SH I P. WE H A V fi POSITED THAT

TH E R E E X I STS AN X I . . . 1. NOW W H A T DO W E H A V E O N TH E OTH E R S I D E -W H E R E T H E R E DOES N O T E X I ST AN X?

LEGITI M ATELY OPPOS ED TO EACH OTH ER.

A FT E R

N EGATION.

I

M E NTION E D

CONJU NCTION. IN THE WAY THAT THE MODE IN WHICH TH E

WOULD NOT NEED TO ACCOU NT FOR CONJUCTION I N TH I S C A S E . EXC E PT TO M A K E T H E OBSERVATION. ( I H O P E T H E R E A R E ENOUGH PEOPLE H E R E WHO H A V E VAG U ELLY BROWSE D A BOOK ON L OG I C SO T H A T I NEED NOT I N S I STI THAT THE CONJ U N C T I O N IS

D I F F E R E NT I A T I O N

B E TW E E N

MALE A N D FEMALE.

BETW E E N M A N A N D WOM A N I N TH E S P E A K I NG B E I N G W O U L D B E S U PPORTED. T H E R E IS A D I SCORD. W E W I L L S E E LATE R W H A T TH I S M EA N S . AT T H E LEVEL OF U N I V E RSALS W H I C H ARE NOT S U PPORTED. FROM TH E FACT OF T H E INCONSISTENCY OF O N E A MONG TH E M . WHEN WE DEVIATE FROM THE FUNCTION

B A S E D PR E C I S E L Y O N TH I S : VALUE D E R I V E S ONLY BY V I RTU E OF T H E FACT THAT BOTH PROPOSITIONS CAN B E T R U E .

ITSELF. T H E R E E X I STS O N ONE S I D E A N X WHICH NOWI T H I S I S EXACTLY WHAT I N N O WAY A LLOWS U S TO M A I NTA I N WHAT I S I N THE D I AGRAM. S I N C E YOU C A N S E E THAT FROM RIGHT TO LEFT. TH E R E I S NO I D E NTITY AND P R E C I S E LY THERE WHERE A SATI S F I E S 4> X N EGATED. ON T H E OTH E R S I D E W E HAVE THE I D E F I N I TE FO R M U LATION BY THAT NO X

( WH I C H

HAVE

I L L U ST R A T E D

SAYING

THAT

WOM A N F O R T H E B EST O F R EASONS. CAN NOT B E CASTRATEDI W H I C H I S TO SAY AT T H E LEVEL W H E R E TH E D I S J U NCTION WOU L D HAVE T H E OPPORT U N I TY TO PRODUCE ITSE LF. WE F I N D ONLY O N T H E O N E S I DE. F R O M T H E ONE/ON E AT LEAST W H A T I H A V E P U T FORTH O F T H E OTH E R WE FI N D AT-LEAST-QNE. A N D ON T H E P R EC I S E LY THE NON-

QU ESTION OF WHAT IS PROPOSE D AS TURE E X I STS. B E A R I NG IN MIND

4> TO

X.

U N I V E RS A L S

CAN

CONJOI N . T H E U N IVERSAL O F THE L E FT S I D E DOES NOT OPPOSE ITSELF TO TH E R IGHT SIDE. TO THE

EXTENT THAT I T HAS NO A RTIC U LABLE U N I VERSAL: THAT I S IT I S TH E WOM A N WHO SEES TH E P H A LLIC

VERY

214

EXI STENCE. THAT IS T H E R E LATION OF ONE TO ZERO.

C ERTA I N D I G N ITY. SO THAT I WI LL P U B L I S H IT O N E OF THESE DAYS. I F I PUBLISH AGA I N . W H I C H DOESN'T

W H E R E THE S E X U A L R E LATIONS H I P WOULD HAVE NO O P PORTU N I TY TO BE TO ACCOM P L I S H BEYOND ITSELF. BUT

DEPEND ON M E . OTH ERS WOULD H A V E TO P U B L I S H W I T H ME. A S T H I S WOULD ENCO U R A G E M E A LITTLE. A N D IF I PUBLISH. YOU WILL SEE W I T H WHAT C A R E I HAVE LOCATED THE THI NGS WHICH I HAVE A LREADY SAID FOR 3 YEARS. ON A CERTA I N N U M B E R OF

SIMPL Y

HOPED

THE

A BOLITION

THROUGH DIVERSION FROM T H E PHALLIC FUNCTION. WE FIND ONLY ONE OF THE TWO SEXES AS A

PRESENCE.

REGISTE R S A BOUT THE PATE R N A L M ETAPHOR. AND TH E PROPER NAME. F I N A LLY TH E R E WAS EVERY­

T H I S I S PREC I SELY WHAT I T BRI NGS C LOSER TO US OF THE EXPE R I E N C E W H E R E WOMA N (THE U N IVER­ SAL FOR WOM A N DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO ARISE

THI NG N E C ESSARY SO THAT. WITH TH E BIBLE. I GAVE M EA N I N G TO TH I S MYTH I C ELUC U BRATION. BUT I

WON'T 00 T H I S EVER AGAIN.

FROM TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION.) ONLY PARTICI PATES EITHER TO WANT TO E N R A PT U R E M A N . OR M Y GODI SHE I M POSES ON H I M THE S E R V I C E OF THE PHALLIC FU NCTION. OR WORST O F A LL AND T H I S I S PERHAPS THE CASE IN W H I C H IT S H O U L D BE S A I D. SHE GIVES THE PHALLIC FU NCTION BACK TO H I M . BUT THIS THEREI T H I S E OF X SLASHED. (IT DOE S N 'T EXI ST. N OTH I NG THERE E X I STS WOULD AT A BE A C E R TA I N CHANCE LEVEL. FO R WHERE I WON'T 00 TH I S EVER AGA I N BECA U S E A FTER ALL I CAN SATI S F Y M YSELF BY FORM U LATI NG T H I NGS AT THE LEVEL OF LOG I C A L STR U C T U R E . WHICH

CERTAI N LY H A S ITS RIGHTS.

DOESN'T U N I V E RSA LIZE HER. IT IS NOT TH I S WHICH IS THE ROOT OF N O T- A L L : THA N SHE R E V E A LS A

PLEASURE

OTH E R

P H A LL I C :

FE M I N I N E

SEXUA L

JOUISSANCE W H I C H I N N O WAY D E P E N D S ON TH IS. I F WOM A N IS NOT N O T- A L L . IT IS BECAUSE HER

RELATI O N S H I PS) THE HETEROS IN S O M U C H AS IT I S ABSENT. IS NOT AT ALL N E C E S SA R I LY THE

JOU ISSANCE I S D U A L.

PRIVILEOGE O F THE FEM I N I E SEX. I T I S S I M PLY THE I N DICATION OF WHAT I N M Y DIAGRAM H A D I TS LITTLE DESTI N Y O F WHAT I INSCRIBE AS THE S I G N I F I E R OF

T H I S I S IN FACT WHAT TI R E S I A S REVEA LED WHEN H E RETU RNED F R O M B E I NG. BY T H E G R A C E OF ZEUS. THERESE. FOR A W H I LE . WITH O F C O U R S E TH E

TH E

SLASHED

O.

THIS

MEANS

TH E

OTH E R : OTH E R

NO IS

MATTER

WHERE

ON E

TAKES

IT.

THE

A BSENT F R O M THE MOM E N T T H A T I T ' S A Q U E STION OF SE X U A L RE LATION S H I PS.

CONSEQUENCES WE A L L K N OW. A N D WHICH WERE LAI D-OUT. V I S I B LE . TH I S IS P E R H A PS THE CASE

THAT REVEALED TO OEDIPUS W H A T WOULD AWAIT HIM. AS HAVING EXI STED. A S M A N OF TH I S SUPREME PO S S E S S I O N AND WHAT WOULD R E S U LT IN

NATURA L LY. AT THE LEVEL OF WHAT F U NCTIONS. THAT I S TO SAY THE PHA LLIC FU NCTION. TH E R E I S S I M PLY THIS D I SCOU R S E ON ONE THAT AND I HAVE THE J U ST

DECEPTION W H E R E H I S PA RTN E R WOU L D KEEP H I M FROM T H E T R U E N A T U R E O F W H A T S H E OFFERED FOR HIS JOUISSANCE. O R LET U S SAY IT I N ANOTH E R WAY. WHAT WOULD R E S U LT I N D EC E PTION SINCE H I S PARTN E R D E M A N D E D OFFERED H I M . H I M T O R E F U S E WHAT S H E

M E NTION ED.

SIDE

OTH E R .

AUTOMATICA LLY ONE I S NOT I N T H E S A M E POS ITION. ON ON E SIDE IS A U N I V E R S A L. BASED ON A

R E LATIO N N ECESSARY TO TH E PHA LLIC F UNCTION. AND ON THE OT H E R S I DE IS A R E LA T I O N IS OF I

CONTI N G E N C Y STRESS THEN

B EC A U S E

WOM A N

N O T- A LL.

THAT AT THE

H I G H E R L E V E L. THE

TH I S M A N I FESTS A T TH E L E V E L O F T H E MYTH. THAT IN ORDER TO EXIST AS A M A N AT A LEVEL SO AS TO ESCAPE THE P H A L LIC F U N CTION. TH E R E WOULD BE N O OTH ER WOM A N THAN THE ONE WHO OUGHT

RELATI O N SH I P FOUNDED ON THE D I S A PPEARANCE. TH E VAN I S H I NG . THE EXISTENCE O F O N E OF THE PARTN E R S WHO LEAVES THE PLACE E M PTY FOR

THE I N SC R I PTION OF SPEECH. IS NOT AT TH I S LEVEL THE PRIVI LEDGE OF EITH E R SIDE. IT I S J U ST THAT I N ORDER FOR TH E R E TO B E A BASI S FOR SEX. T H E R E

PREC I S E LY NOT TO HAVE EXISTED FOR H I M.

THEREI THE

WHY SHOU LDN'T S H E H A V E EXISTED. WHY OF I N C EST? THIS WO U L D

MUST B E TWO. S U R E LY 0 A N D

1

M A K E 2 . ON THE

PROH I B ITION THAT I

SYMBOLIC PLANE. I N SO FAR AS W E AGREE THAT EXISTE N C E I S ROOTED I N THE SYMBOL. THIS I S WHAT DEFINES THE SPEAKING BEI NG.

NECESSITATE TRACK OF

GET I N VOLVED OF THE I

ALONG THE WHERE

TH E I

NAME

FATH ER

P R EC I S E LY TREAD

HAVE

SAID

THAT I

WOULD NEVER (BECAUSE IT I S I N FACT SOMETH I NG THAT I S NOT WHAT I T IS. IT IS JUST THAT THIS BEING IS A BSOLUTELY

AGA I N

BECAUSE

REREAD

SOM EONE A S K E D M E TO) HERE AT ST. A N N E IN

M Y F I RST CONFERENCE

1 96 3 AND IT EVEN HAS A

UNGRASPABLE A N D I T I S ALL THE MORE U NG R A S P-

213

A B L E BECA U S E IT I S O B L I G E D TO SU PPORT ITSELF TH ROUGH TH E SYMBOL. IT I S CLEAR THAT A B E I NG. W H I C H COM E S TO BE ONLY TH ROUGH THE SYMBOL. IS PRECISELY THIS B E I NG WI THOUT B E I N G IN WHICH (FROM TH E SOLE FACT THAT YOU SPEAK) YOU ALL PA RTI C I PATE. BUT WHICH ON THE OTH E R HAND.

TH E I R

STRUCTU RE. TO

THERE

M U ST

WELL IS

B E

A

R E LATION S H I P LANGUAGE.

S O M ETH I N G

WH I C H

NOT

OF

CO U R S E

IT

IS

E A SY T O U N D E R STA N D

THAT

P E O P L E W I L L S L I P G R O U N D ON T H E P RETEXT THAT WHAT SEEMS TO T H E M TO BE T H I S "BEYOND OF

C ERTA I N LY S U P PORTS ITSELF AND I S E X I STENCE SINCE EXISTING IS NOT B E I NG . TH I S I S TO SAY.

LA NGUAGE" C A N ON LY B E MATH E M AT I C A L. T H I S IS BECA U S E IT I S A BUT N U M B E R. I T I S A Q U ESTION OF P E R H A PS IN IT IS NOT ITS STRICTLY TO

EXISTING I S NOT D E P E N D I NG O N THE OTH E R .

Q U A NTITY. YOU A R E ALL H E R E T O SOM E D E G R E E T O EXI ST. B U T YOU ARE N O T PARTIC U L A R LY OF YOU R O W N CALM ABOUT T H E YOU SPEAKING

N U M E R I C ITY

ALL

R E A LI TY

W H I C H L A N G U A G E G I V E S ACCESS. B U T O N L Y T H E C A PA C I TY THROUGH R E A L. TO A NCHOR TH E ZERO AND ONE.

NATURE

B E I N G . OTH E R W I S E

WOU L DN'T COME TO S E E K A S S U RA NC E I N SO M A N Y PSYCHOANA LYTIC E F FORTS.

T H I S TH E REAL

ENTRANCE WHICH

WOU L D B E M A D E CAN BE THE

THE

A LO N E

" B E YO N D H E R E TH E R E IS SOM ETH I N G COM PL.ETE LY ORIG I N A L IN THE FI RST E M ERGENCE OF L.OGIC: TH E DIFFI­

OF

LANGUAGE."

N A M E LY

T H E O N LY

DO M A I N I N W H I C H A SYM BOLIC I M POSSI BILITY C A N B E FOR M U LATED.

CUL TY. THE I NDECISION TH A T A R I STOTLE SHOWED CO N C E R N I N G THE ST A T U S OF A PARTI C U L A R TH I S R E LATIO N SH I P. ACCESS I B L E TO LANGUAGE. I F IT IS P R EC I S E LY FOU N D E D ON A SEXUAL NON­

PROPOSITION. THESE A R E D I F F I C U L.TI ES TH AT H A V E B E E N STR ESSED EL.SEW H E R E . BUT T H A T I D I D NOT D I SCOVER. FOR THOSE WHO D E S I R E A R E F E R ENCE. I R E F E R YOU TO C A H I E R NO. 1 0 O F THE C A H I E RS POU R
L ' A N A LY S E . T H E A RTICLE BY JACQUES B R U N SCHWIG

R E LATIONSH I P C A N ONLY TH E R E FORE CONFRONT 0 AND

1 ;

TH I S

FACT

WOULD

E A S I LY

FIND

ITS

R E FLECTION I N T H E ELABORATION F R EG E G I V E S O F THE LOGI C A L G E N E S I S O F N U M B E R S .

IS

E XC E L L E N T ;

YOU

WILL

SEE

P E R F ECTLY TH E HAD WITH THE I H A V E S PO K E N OF THAT WHICH C A U S E S D I F F I C U LTY I N TH I S LOGICAL G E N E S I S . N A M E LY T H E G A P . THE GAP O F THE M ATH E M ATICAL TRI A N G L E . BETW E E N

D I F F I C U LTY PARTICULAR.

WHICH

A R I STO T L E

H E PERCEIVED THAT E X I ST E N C E IN NO WAY C A N B E ESTA B L I S H E D TH I S R EASON. OUTS I D E HE OF TH E U N I V E R S A L; FOR

TH I S 0 A N D TH I S 2. A G A P W H I C H DOUBLES TH E I R O P PO S I T I O N O F C O N F R O N T A T I O N . W H A T I NT E R ­ V E N E S I S T H E R E O N L Y BECAUSE IT I S TH E E S S E N C E OF T H E FI RST COUPLE. SO T H A T TH E R E M IGHT BE TH E ESSENCE OF T H E TH I RD A N D SO THAT THE GAP AS SUCH IS A LW A Y S WHICH IS LEFT TO THE TWO; THIS ESSENTIA L BECAUSE IS OF

SITUATES

EXISTENCE

AT THE

L E V E L OF THE PARTI C U LA R. AND TH I S PARTI C U LA R I N N O WAY S U FFICES TO S U P PORT I T EVEN THOUGH HE S E E M S TO S U PPORT IT BY V I RTUE OF TH E USE OF TH E WORD SOME.

SO M ET H I NG

SOMETH I NG M UC H MORE DANGEROUS W H I C H M I G H T ON THE CONTRARY W H AT R E S U LTS FROM THE SO­ C A L L E O FORM A L I ZATION OF Q U A NTI F I ERS (CA LLED Q U A NTI F I ERS BECAUSE O F A T RACE. L E FT I N THE P H I LOSOPHY OF H I STORY THROUGH THE FACT THAT SOM EONE N A M E D A P U L I A . A NOVELIST OF NOT VERY GOOD TASTE AND A N U N R ESTR A I N E D MYSTIC. AND WHO CREATED THE GOLDE N THAT ASS. IN ONE DAY BE SUBSTITUTED IN THE A N A LY S I S OF T H E

M YT H I C A L SELVES I N

ADVENTURES O F OEDIPUS ( I N THEM­ NO W A Y D I ST U R B I N G I N AS M U C H A S

T H E Y A D M I R A B LY STRUCTU R E TH E N ECESSITY T H A T THERE BE S O M E W H E R E A T- L E A ST -O N E W H I C H

T R A N S C E N D S W H A T THERE I S OF TH E G R A S P O F T H E PHA LLIC FU NCTION; TH E MYTH OF THE PRIM A L

I NT R O D U C E D

THE

I D EA

A R I STOT L E

FATH E R M E A N S NOT H I N G OTH E R TH A N TH I S ) . T H I S I S S U F F I C I E NT E N O U G H FOR U S TO M A K E U S E O F I T BEYOND T H E FACT THAT W E F I N D I T CON F I R M E D B Y LOG I C A L STRUCTURATION.

E V E R YT H I N G THAT CON C E R N S A LL A N D SOM E WAS OF TH E ORDER OF QUA NTITY. I T WAS NOT AT ALL LI K E TH AT,) I S S I M PLY TWO D I F FE R E N T MODES OF WHAT I M IGHT CA LL. IF YOU W I L L A LLOW M E A LITTLE I M PROVIZATION. THE I N C A R N ATION OF T H E SYM BOL. TH E PASSAGE I NTO ORDI N A R Y LIFE OF THE FACT

ON

THE

OTH E R

H A ND.

THERE

IS

ASSUREDLY

NOTH I N G M O R E D A N G E RO U S T H A N TH E CO N F U S I O N OV E R WHAT THERE IS OF TH E ONE. THE O N E IS

THAT THERE IS ALL A N D SOM E IN ALL LANGUAGES A S S U R E DLY FORC E S US TO POS E THAT ALL

F R E Q U E NTLY EVOK E D BY FREUD A S T H E S IG N I F I E R OF THE ESSENCE OF E ROS: IT A N D THE L I B I DO

LA N G U AGE M U ST H A V E T H E SA M E ROOTS A N D THAT AS ALL LANG UAGES ARE D E E PLY DIFFERENT I N

WOU LD BOTH STRA I N TO M A K E ONE. ACCORD I N G TO

21 6

AN OLD MYTH (NOT AT A L L OF THE M YT H I C A L MODE) ONE OF TH E F U N D A M E NT A L TENSIONS OF THE

OF BEING R E P R E S E NTED. THERE I S I N T H I S ONLY ONE REQU I SITE. I F I MIGHT SAY. A G R ATUITOUS O N E ; NOTH ING I M POSES TH I S AT·LEAST·ONE I F N O T T H E U N IQUE C H A NC E -A N D STILL IT M U ST B E PLA Y E D OUT-QF WHICH SOMETH I NG F U NCTIONS ON TH E

WORLD WOULD STRA I N T O M A K E O N L Y O N E . THIS M YT H IS T R U LY ON SOMETH I NG H O R I ZO N WHICH OF CAN ONLY AND

F U NCTION

THE

DELIR I U M

W H I C H . STRICTLY S P E A K I NG. H A S NOTH I N G TO DO WITH A N YTH I NG AT ALL W H I C H W E ENCOU NTER IN EXPERI ENCE. IF T H E R E I S A N YTH I NG V E R Y OVERT IN THE RE LATIONS H I P BETWEEN SEXES. THAT

OTHER S I D E BUT ONLY AS AN I D E A L POINT. AS T H E POSSIBI LITY F O R ALL M E N T O ATTA I N IT THROUGH IDENTIFICATION.

A N A LYSIS NOT ONLY A RT I C ULATES B U T C A N B E PUT I N TO PLAY I N ALL D I R ECTIONS AND SENSES. H E R E IS SOM E T H I N G WHICH THIS CAUSES IS D I F F I C U LTY IN

THERE IS IN T H I S A LOGICAL NECE SSITY WHICH I S I M POSED ON LY O N THE LEVEL O F THE WAGER. B U T NOTICE O N THE OTH E R H A N D W H A T RESU LTS FROM IT CONC E R N I N G T H E M A L E U N I VERSAL; THUS. T H I S AT·LEAST·ONE. ON W H I C H THE MYTH ICAL N A M E O F THE FATH E R I S S U STA I N E D. I S I N D I S PENSABLE.

R E LATI O N S H I PS .

P R E C I S ELY

R E LATION·

S H I PS BETWE E N WOME N ; NOTH I N G COULD RESEM· BLE THE SPONTA N EITY O F T H E S E R E LATIONSHI PS. WHICH TION E D IS NOW PRECISELY AN TH E H O R I ZO N BASED ON I MEN· SOME

EARLIER.

A N I M A LIC

IT I S HERE THAT I ADVANCE A FLASH O F WHAT IS M I SSING FROM T H E FUNCTION. FROM THE NOTION O F SPECIES A N D O F CLASS. AND CONSEQUE NTLY I T I S NO ACCI DENT THAT T H I S ENTI RE DIALECTIC WAS LEFT OUT OF A R I STOTLE'S FORMS.

A N I M A L MYTH; I N N O WAY I S EROS A T E N D E NCY O F TH E ONE. ACCO R D I N G TO THIS FU NCTION. ANY

ARTICU LATION M A K ES C L E A R T H A T T H E R E A R E TWO LEVELS OF SECRECY IN WHICH T H E OPPOSITION

BETWEEN THE SEXES I S FOU N D E D ONLY IN D I SCORD A N D ONLY I N A S M UC H AS T H E Y CAN IN NO WAY BE I N STITUTED AS U N I VE R S A L . AT THE L E V E L OF I N FACT WHERE DOES T H I S E OF X FUNCTION.T H I S "TH ERE E X I STS AT·LEAST-ONE" W H I C H I S NOT T H E SLAVE OF THE PHAL LIC FUNCTION? T H I S I S O N L Y A REQUISITE I W I L L SAY. OF A HOPELESS TYPE. FROM THE POINT OF IS VIEW OF TH I S SOMETH I NG WHICH

EXISTENCE ON T H E CONTRARY. I S PR E C I SE LY AN OPPOSITION CON S I ST I N G IN T H E C A N C ELLATION.

THE E M PTYING OF ONE O F T H E FUNCTIONS A S BEING THAT OF T H E OTH E R . REVEALED BY T H E POSSIBI LITY OF AN ARTICULATION OF LA NGUAGE. T H I S I S WHAT S E E M S TO M E ESSENTI A L TO B R I N G TO LIGHT.

ITSELF

NOT

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TH ROUG H

UN IVERSAL D E F I N ITON.

NOTICE THAT A MOMENT AGO IN S P E A K I N G TO YOU S U C C E S S I V E L Y A BOUT N EG A T I O N . CON J U NCTION AND DISJ U NCTION. WAS I HAD P U S H E D TO T H E LIMIT

BUT ON

THE

OTH E R

H A ND. OBSERVE THAT WITH

RES PECT TO THE MALE U N I VERSAL. TO TH E A OF X. TO THE <I> OF X. EVERY M A LE IS A SLAVE TO T H E PHA LLIC FUNCTION. THIS AT·LEAST· ONE WHICH

WHAT THERE THAT. ONLY HERE

OF

I M P LICATION.

I T I S CLEAR F U NCTION

AGA I N . THE

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CAN

BETW E E N

LEVELS.

THAT O F THE

FUNCTIONS T O ESCAPE. WHAT DOES TH I S M E A N ? I WILL SAY THAT IT I S -THE EXCEPTION, IT I S THE PATH WHEREIN I S CON F I R M E D BY US THE PROVERB W H I C H SAYS, WITHOUT K NOWI NG W H A T IT SAYS, T H A T T H E

PHALLIC F U NCTION AND THAT W H I C H D I V E RTS IT.

NOW

NOTH I NG OF WHAT

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DISJU NCTION ON THE

EXCEPTION PROVES TH E RU LE, I S S U PPORTED B Y U S . IT I S EXCEPTIONAL T H A T I T IS O N L Y W I T H T H E ANALYTIC A L D I SCOURSE THAT A U N I VERSAL C A N FIND I N E X I STENCE ITS VERITABLE FOUN DATION I N TH E EXCEPTION, W H IC H ASSUREDLY ALLOWS U S I N ANY CASE TO D I STI N G U I S H THE U N I VERSAL TH U S ESTABLI S H E D RENDERED FROM A N Y U S E THAT H A S B E E N B Y TH E P H I LO S O P H I C A L

LOW E R LEVEL. ON THE LEVEL OF THE I N S U FFICIEN· CY O F U N I VERSAL SPEC I F ICATION. I M PL I E S THAT IF AND ONLY IS IF TH E SYNCOPATION ON THE OF E X I STENCE LEVEL ON IS

WHICH

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HIGHER D I SCORD

ACTUA LLY

PRODUC E D.

THEN

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H I G H E R LEVEL TO THE LOWE R LEVEL. I N O N E WAY WHICH I S DIST I NCT A N D SEPARATED. T H E R E MUST EXIST AT·LEAST-ONE·MAN WHICH I S THE ONE THAT SEEMS T R A N S M I TT E D ON THE LEVEL OF THIS

BUT IT I S AN EXTRAORDINARY TH I NG THAT I FI N D MYSELF, I N TH I S WAY, O N T H E PATH OF A QUEST A N D BECA USE, FROM A N A N C I E NT FORMATION (I DON'T NOT AT A LL NOT K NOW C H I NESE), I ASKED ONE OF MY DEAR EST (I F R I E NDS TO RECALL TO M E H A D) K E PT MORE O R LESS WHAT AS A

FEM I N I N E SPECI F I E D BY B E I N G NOT·ALL, A DUALITY. THE ONLY POINT IN WHICH D U A LITY H A S A CHANCE

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TRA C E . BUT WHAT I H A D TO CONFI RM FOR MYSELF BY SOM EON E FOR WHOM C H I N E S E I S THE MATE R N A L LA NGUAGE. I T I S ASS U R EDLY VERY STRANGE THAT IN C H I N E SE. THE D E L I M I TATION OF ALL. IF I MIGHT EXPRESS MORE MYSELF THUS.

C I ENTLY SHOWS THAT H E R R E LATION S H I P TO THE P H A L L I C F U NCTION IS QU ITE ACTI V E .

I N A N Y C A S E . WOM A N I S NO M O R E I NS U R E D I N H E R U N I V E RSA L ESSENCE THAN M A N FOR T H E S I M PL E R E A SON T H A T T H E CONTRA R Y OF T H E L I M IT. I S T H A T TH E R E I S NONE. T H E R E I S NO EXCEPTION. THE FACT THAT TH E R E IS NO E XC E PT I O N I N SU R E S THE

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U N I V E R S A L A L R E A D Y S O POO R L Y E S TA B L I S H E D E I TH E R F O R T H E R E A SON T H A T I T I S D I SCORDANT OR THAT I T DOESN'T ASSURE T H E U N I V E RS A L OF WOM A N . W I TH O U T EXCEPTION. FAR FROM GIVING

THAT ONE COU NTS BUT THAT THIS DOES NOT M A K E TH E M NOT-ALL A N D TO TH I S I S A D D E D ( T E l W H I C H M E A N S : WITHOUT E XC E PTION.

SOM E-ALL GIVES

M O R E CON S I STENCY. TH I S NATURA LLY LESS C O N S I ST E N C Y TO W H AT IS

STI L L

D E F I N E D A S NOT- A L L. A S ESSENTI A L LY DUAL.

YOU COU LD OBJ ECT T H A T WHAT WE D I SCOVER IN WHAT I S ARTI C U LATED A S R E LATIONS H I P OF SIGN TO E X I STENCE THROUGH R E S P ECT OF A U N I V E RSAL STATUS. TA K E S ITS F I G U R E AS AN EXCEPTION.

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STR A N G E ST TH I NG: T H E FUNCTION O F TH E ONE. BUT ALSO IT E X I STS ONLY A S CO R R E LATION OF. I WOND E R A LOT A BOUT A N I M A L M E NTA L I TY WHICH A FT E R A LL WOU LD ONLY BE U S E F U L TO M E A S A M IRROR R E FERENCE. AS A M I R RO R WH ICH. AS

WHAT I CALLED A MOM ENT AGO. THE ( E M PTI NESS) OF T H E OTHER: I F IN V I R T U E W E HAVE PROGRESSED IN THE LOGIC OF CLASSES. I T IS THAT WE HAVE

C R E ATED A LOG IC OF S E TS. THAT THE DI FFERENCE BETW E E N A CLASS AND A S E T IS THAT WHEN THE CLASS I S E M PTY. TH E R E IS STI LL TH I S ELEMENT OF TH E E M PTY S ET. IT IS IN T H I S THAT ONCE MORE. P R OG R E S S TOW A R D S

B E F O R E A L L M I R RORS. I RAVE. TH E R E I S SOM ETH I N G W H I C H WE M I G H T ASK O U R S E L V E S : F O R T H E A N I M AL. I S T H E R E T H E ONE7

MATH E M A TICS LOGI C .

HAS

MADE

JACQUES LAC A N

TRANSLATED BY DENISE GREEN
TH E X I N T H E RIGHT PART OF T H E D I A G R A M I M PL I E S THAT T H E R E I S A U N I LATERA L I TY OF THE E X I STEN­ TIAL FUNCTION FOR T H E OTH E R PA RTN E R . THAT IS. THAT TH E R E ARE NO E XC E PT I O N S . TH E R E IS I

WOULD L I K E TO THAN K THOMAS GORA. SUZA N N E AND JOHN RAJ C H M A N FOR TH E I R KIND

G U E RLAC

SOM ETH I NG THAT I S N O LONGE R I N SYMMETRY WITH THE REQU I R E M ENT OF THE AT-LEAST-ONE THAT A MOM E N T ANOTH E R AGO I CALLED H O P E LESS. WHICH THERE IN IS

ASSISTANCE I N T H E TRANSLAnO N OF T H I S TEXT.

THIS

REFERS

TO

THE

THEORY

OF

FO U R

REQU I R E M ENT

R E S I DES

THE

D I SCO U R S E S O F T H E A N A LYST. T H E H Y STE RIC. THE U N I V E R S I TY AND THE M A ST E R CF.

FACT THAT I N THE END. THE M A SCULI N E U N I VERSAL CAN ONLY GET I TS DUE WITH T H E I N SURANCE THAT TH E R E E X I STS NO WOM A N WHO C A N BE CASTRATED. TH I S IS FOR THAT REASONS THE WHICH A PPEA R EVIDENT. SUFFI-

RADIOPHON I E I N S C I LICET 2/3.

NOTE: O N E OF LACAN'S FOR M U LAS IS WOMAN­ I S-NOT- E V E R YTHI NG. NOT- A L L R E F E R S TO THIS.

EXC E PT

B E H AV I O R

OF WOMAN

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IT SEEMS. FROM T H E N O N . W H I C H I S C A P A B L E O F G I V I N G H E R I D ENTITY-EVOKES. ONLY TWO POSSI BLE SOLUTI ONS ARE OPEN TO T H E DAUGHTER: IN THE MORE D E S I REABLE CASE. I N THE MOTH ER." W I L L DESPERATELY I D E N TIFY W I TH T H E PHALLUS I N A FRA NTIC M A T E R N A L POSITION OR I N A DIZZYI N G MASCARAD E-T H E VIA R E G I A OF THE H YSTER I C . A LITTLE HIGHER U P. TOO. I F THE NAM E-OF-THE. A N I D E NTICAL SCENE THAT S H E H A S EXPERI ENCED H E RSELF. U PON H E A R I NG T H E E C H O OF H E R DAUGHTER'S SPEECH. ON THE RIGHT SIDE. "THAT" r'CA"] M U ST N E V E R SPEAK THIS TH I R D POSS I B I LITY APPEARS O N LY AS A WAY FOR HERSELF A LO N E. S I LENCES H E R O W N C H I LD­ HOOD QUESTION. ALLOWS HER DAUGHTER TO CONTI N U E TO SPEAK 1 . I F A F U N DA M E NTA L DEFICI ENCY OF T H E PATE R N A L FU NCTION IS A D D E D WHAT H A PP E N S IN THIS BRIEF EXC H A N G E ? A T O THE ABSENCE OF THE MOTH ER'S RECOGNITION. I N T H E LESS DESIRABLE C A S E . THE MOT H E R R E D I SCOVERS H E R OWN QUESTION IN HER D A U G H T E R'S Q U ESTI O N .FATHER I S FU NCTIONI NG. IT WOULD SEEM THAT WHAT THE DAUGHTER SAYS A BOUT HER BEEN ABLE T O E S C A P E . I N T H E M I R ROR.JOUISSANCP A N D DIVISION "MOMMY. S H E "I WAS B U RN E D . B UT SHE I SOLATES IT A N D. QU ESTION IS A S K E D A N D ITS A N S W E R SETS UP A MI RROR. 3. W H E N . A N D H O W . THE MOTH E R H E A R S THE ECHO AND REMAINS F R O M THIS S C E N E M A N Y OTH ERS WITH I N T H A T ZON E W H I C H I S COM PLETELY S H A K E N BY THOSE W A V E S F R O M WHICH S H E HAS NEVER COLLECTED I N A N A LYTIC PRACTICE. W H A T DOES S H E D O ? W E C A N POI N T OUT TH R E E TYPES OF R E S PONSE. WHEN I WAS YOU R AGE. G I V I N G R I S E TO A N I N VESTIGATION OF A MOT H E R' S M I R ROR). T H E R E CAN O N L Y BE MORE OF THE S A M E OLD REFRAIN . WAS I LEFT B R E A ST1" B U R N E D ON M Y AGA I N . A BOUT THAT. I N THAT WAY. GAZE U PON HER DA U G H T E R AND UN THE 2. T H E MOTH E R . 219 . WAY THERE. S H E L U R E S H E R DAUGHTER INTO THE ZON E AND THE DAUGHTE R LOSES H E R BODY-THAT I S . TH ERE I S REASON TO F E A R A PSYC HOTIC BREAK­ DOWN.I N E V I T A B LY.

(WHEN THE C H I LO C A N COUNT: 1 . THE MOTH E R EITH E R DOE S O R DOES N O T R EC OG N I ZE H E R DAUGHTE R'S I MAGE. LET US R E PEAT THAT THE BODY OF THE LITTLE G I RL." OF COURSE. THEY NEVER FA I L TO RUN AGROU N D AT T H A T MOM E NT W H E N T H E Y A R E T O B E S E E N . A N D SO FORTH AD I N FINITU M . THE TO A FAILURE: THE GREATER OR WO M A N LESSER LET US POINT OUT THE C H A RACTER I ST I C S M I R ROR'S C A PTIVE. I N S C R I B E D A T T H E ORIG I N . OF T H E D E S I R E OF TH E OTHE R . ." THESE THREE TO SITUATIONS IN TH E ARE ROOT E D . A SECOND OPERATION THROUGH WHICH T H E DESTI N Y OF "WOMA N'S-BODY" I S PLAY E D O U T . BUT I N T H A T OF ALL WOM E N . TRACING BACK THE TH REA D TO TH I S EXPER I E NC E . TH I S NOTION O F T H E S A M E-BODY. IN THE CASE OF T H E LITTLE G I RL. STA G E . FOR U S . I N HER FI RST R E LATION S H I P WITH WE SHALL RETURN TO THIS AND RATHER DEAL ROUGH IT I N THE MOTH E R WHO OCCUPIES T H E PLACE OF THE OTH E R . M O R E OR LESS A REMAI NS. W H I C H I S FUNDA M E NTAL FOR ALL C H I LD R E N . THIS CUT OUT AND IN A N I MATED THE FIELD BY OF MOTH E R'< ONCE A GA I N BECOM E S DAUGHTE RB B Y T H E I N T E R M E D I A R Y O F T H E I MAGE OF DAUGHTER'< . I N T H I S S E C O N D STAGE. F R I E N DS-PLA C E D TH E R E FOR ONE WOM A N ) . T H E R E IS ADDED. IT SIGNIFIER "WO M A N'S-BODY" ATTEM PTS T O POINT TO T H E RELATION WITH T H E SAM E-BODY WITH WHICH THE L I TT L E IN VIEW GIRL OF IS APPEARS US. L I K E T H E P R I M A L SC E N E . BODY. IS "WH I P P E D BY LANGUAGE. M A K E S THIS OPE RATION POS S I B LE). OF AS THE NORMAL OEDIPUS D I SCOU RSE. M UST WORDS. THIS OPERA­ TION I S A LWAYS A LW A Y S EXTENT. AS BY DEFINED THE USE BY OF F R E U D. DAUGHTERS. FACT THAT S H E I S S E E N A S C H I LO AND S E E I NG TH E SEPARATE C H I LD: THE THAT SHE M U ST ACQU I ESC E I N BEING M I RROR SC E N E S U B J ECT TO SYM BOLIC LAW. "WOMA N'S-BODY. THESE PA RTIC U LA R TO T H I S S C E N E W H E N I T I S E X P E R I ­ E N C E D BY MOTHE R A N D DA UGHTER. O N E COULD PROBABLY EXPLORE T H E Q U ESTION OF THE P E R M A N E N C E OF T H E L I B I D I N A L ATTA C H M E NT TO THE MOTH ER. MOTH ER'S I M AGE BUT CONTI N U A LLY R E S E M B L I N G IT. DOES NOT REFER TO THE BI OLOGIC A L BODY. W H I C H THE LATTER TH E N RECOVERS. LIKE THAT OF THE THE LITTLE BOY. THE P U ZZ L I N G I NT E NSITY OF WHICH FREUD NEVER ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC. IT SEEMS. AS G E N N I E LEMOI N E H A S I N S I STED. : 3. ) " WOMA N'S-BODY" LIES. THE THE AS AT UT O P I C . . CLINICAL OUTL I N E LATE R WITH T E R M S O F J O U I SSANCE. DRIVES. MOTH E R C A L L T H E M I R RO R SC E N E. ' FOR THE C H I LO TO B E A B L E TO DISCOV E R ITSELF I N ITS OWN IMAGE IT IN M UST B E OTH E R SU PPORTED THE BY ITS WE NOW PROPOSE TO A N ALYZE WHAT WE S H A L L MOTH E R'S GAZE. A N A LY S A N DS. M I RROR THAT STAG E W H I C H STRUCT U R E S THE E G O A N D I S THE FO U N D A T I O N OF WHAT W I LL LATER BECO M E N E C E S SA R I LY CONFRONTED. ACCEPT T H E FROM IS. NOT ONLY I N T H E G A Z E OF M E N . MAY W H ATEVER THE CHANCE THE SCENE-MOTH E R'< + DAUGHTERA I N FRONT OF TH E M I R ROR-CA N N OT FAIL TO BRING FORTH THE SC ENE-MOTH E RB + D A U G HTER B IN FRONT OF TH E S A M E M I R ROR. DENIAL OF SYM BOLIC LAW WO U L D ANNUL TH E WE C A L L I T A SC E N E B E C A U S E WE H A V E FOU N D THAT. I S THE EROTOG E N IC PRECISION BODY. 2 . C E A S E D T O E M PHASIZE. E NCOU NTERS THE SAM E-BODY AS HER OWN. F R E U D. IT I S I N TH I S U N E N D I NG MOV E M E N T OF RETURN TO THE MOORING PLACE OF A N E V A N ESCENT EGO THAT W E M A Y A PP ROACH THE Q U E STION OF W H A T I S C A L L E D FE M I N I N E JOUISSANCE. WOM E N A N A LY S A N DS.A LO N G WH I C H THE IS PATH OF A C C E PTING C A ST R A T I O N . C I R C U MSTA N C E S B E THAT ACCOMPANY T H E F A C T OF R E P R E S E NTATION BY A WOM AN'S-BODY. BUT RATH E R TO THE BODY THAT IS TRAC E D . THE S E X U A L I TY PASSING ADDED TERM COMPLEX. IT I S CONSTR UCTE D OVER A N D AGA I N D I SCOURSE OF IN D I FF E R E N T STAGES OF T H E PA RTICULA R LY OF STRUCTU R I N G EF FECT OF THE M I R ROR. LOCATED 220 . S I M U LT A N EO U S L Y S E PA RATE FROM TH E OF T H E I R H I STORI ES. I N T H E FACT THAT THE LITTLE G I R L. (CF. R E C OG N I Z E D . M O M E NTS OF T H E M I RROR STAGE A PPEAR AT T H E C E NT E R OF ANY ATTE M PT T O DEAL WITH THE Q U ESTION OF WOM A N . (SI STERS.

PERCEIVING TH E THE M OT H E R . I S T H E BEARER O F THAT. THE B R E A ST. N OT THAT I NSCRIBED S I G N I FY I N G R E E M E RG E S G E N E R A T I O N A FT E R G E N E R A T I O N . H ENCE. M A S K I N G C A STRATION. WHICH O N E OBJ ECT R E PLACES A NOTH E R O F EQUAL VALUE. I T IS CA LLED TH E PHALLUS. AS FAR AS THE E A R L I EST CONSTITUTION O F THE EGO IS CONCERNED. IN OTH E R WORDS. SENDING BACK TO H E R THE I MAGE OF H E R OWN BODY. BY THIS DOUBLI NG. HA LF-FASC I NATED GAZE. IT IS AS SHE WERE PARA LYZED. WHICH HAS N EV E R BEEN L E FT B E H I N D .AT THAT MOMENT W H E N T H E "ORTHOPE DIC" I MAGE OF TH E C H I LD'S BODY A S SEPA RATE FROM TH AT OF THE MOTHER I S CONSTITUTED. CON F R O N T E D SHE WITH THE I M A G E OF H E R INTO THE REGISTER OF THE S IG N I F I E R. F I R ST OF A L L. O R D E R.2A lie B SEEING H E R SON IN TH E M I R ROR. HA LF-HOR R I F I ED." CONTENTS H E R SELF WITH A PA I N E D AND R E C R I M I ­ NATORY: "THAT I S ALL Y O U A R E. WE SHALL HYPOTH ESIZE NOT ONLY THAT "SEPA RATION" OF I MAGES I S ON LY PARTIA LLY COMPLETED. HOWEVER. P E R H A PS THE PR E-OE D I PA L ATTACH MENT T O THE MOTH E R R E M A I N S S O VERY STRONG BEC A U S E T H E PLACES OF T H E MOTH E R CASTRATED BODY. DAUGHTER. THE MOTH ER CAN BELIEVE I N M I RACLES. T H E R E I S A C A PTURE I N THE M I RROR. I S NOT ENOUGH." SHOULD T H I S NOT BE SEEN A S ONE SOURCE OF THE R A VAGES THAT G E N E RA LLY M A R K MOTH ER-DAUGHTER R E LATION­ SHI PS? ALREADY THIS SPIRAL OF ECHOES AND R E F LECTIONS THE LITTLE GIRL CAN FIND NO STA B L E POI NT OF REFERENCE FOR TH E FORCE OF TH I S F U N DA M ENTA L EXPERI E NCE. WHO. N A RC I S S I ST I C AND OBJECT CATH EXIS ARE CONFUSED WITH EACH OTH ER. W H O CAN NOT B R I NG H E RSELF T O S A Y : "YOU ARE THAT. I DENTITY OF BODIES FAVORS THE VACI LLATION OF I MAGES. T H E LOST OBJ ECT. SHE RETRACES KE EPS BODY. L I K E THE PLACENTA. THAT WHICH IS OUTS I D E OF T H E SIGN IFI ED-I N THE SYMBOLIC ORDE R. THE MOTH E R'S WOU N D IS R EOP E N E D. B U T PARTI A LLY U S U RPS H E R D A UGHTER'S POSITION AS W E LL. TA K E S AWAY FROM TH E DAUGHTER THE P OS S I B I L I T Y OF FINDING HER PLACE IN THE SYMBOLIC ORDER. TH E SAME­ BODY U N DERLI N ES T H E FRAGI LITY OF SEPARATION AT THE I M AG I N A RY DEC E PTIVE LEVEL I M AG E : AND IN BLURS THIS MOTH E R C A N NOT BEAR IF THE GAZE OF HER DAUGHTER. EXTR E M E "JU B I LATION" U PO N D I SCOV E R I N G THAT S H E I S LIKE HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT. DESCRIBES H E R.B E BOY. S I N C E THE EQUATION BABY PENIS. WHICH REACTIVATES PENIS ENVY I N T H E M OTH E R. EQUAL T O H I MSELF. FROZEN BY THE FATE FUL I M AGE. THE MOTH E R NOT ONLY OCC U P I E S HER OWN POSITION OF MOTH ER DOES NOT DENY CASTRATION. OF TH E SAM E-BODY. THERE IS SOMETH I N G IN THE NOT R E P RESSED. (TH E R E PROD U C T I O N PLACENTA SUFFERS I M AG I N A RY FU NCTION I N INDEED R E P R E S E N T S T H A T P A RT . WHICH T H E I N DI V I D U A L LOSES AT B I RTH. A N D OF T H E D A U G H T E R H A V E YET T O B E DEFIN ED. SPLIT BODY. THE MOTH ER. CAN BE FELT ONLY I F THE IDENTI FICATION. BLIGHTS A N D DENIES THE DAUGHTER'S BODY. DAS DING. A MOTH ER. TO OCCUpy THE PLACE OF THE T H I NG. TRANSPOSED WHEN. BUT IT IS ALSO. AT T H A T M O M E N T W H I C H SHOULD BE FORMATI V E FOR THE LITTLE G I RL. IN ORDER TO BACK U P THE FANTASY THAT HER C H I LD I S A SU BSTITUTE MAKING U P FOR CASTRATION. AND P E N I S ENVY. BUT THAT.1 THE PHALLUS OCC U P I E S THE FOREVER EM PTY PLACE OF THIS REAL LOSS. PASSING FROM U N E N D I NG ON E GAZE OF TO A N OTH E R IS IN AN THE VISION OF T H E C A ST R A T E D BODY. REDUCE D TO AN = THE LIVING BEING WHO IS SUBJECT TO SEXUAL A REAL LOSS. SHE WI LL ASSIGN H E R DAUGHTER THE FATE OF A WOULD. THE 22 1 . ADDED TO T H I S OF PLACES EXCHANGE IS TH E A N D I NTER­ G I R L'S TH E TH I NG ' DEPENDENCE LITTLE TO BE A MOTH ER IS I N DEED TO BE C A STRATED. LACA N THE PATH O F T H E S Y M BOLIC EQUATION. TO ASSU M E THE VALUE OF THE P H A LLUS. WHAT WE HAVE J U ST SKETC H E D OUT I N DICATES TH AT SHE R U N S THE RISK OF F I N D I N G A GAZE A L R EADY A BSORBED BY A NOTHER M I RROR G A M E . I S I N FULL FORCE. B Y SATI S F Y I N G REAPPEARS W I T H I T S F U L L L I B I N A L INTENSITY. THE C H I LD S E E KS SUPPORT IN T H E MOT H E R'S GAZE. ONE CAN SU PPOSE TH AT THIS A FFLICTED GAZE FADES. MOREOVER. THE MOTH ER. BY VIRTUE OF NOT HAVING THE PHALLUS. TO EXPLA I N H E R D I STRAUGHT. MOV E M E N T EXCHANGE. IT T H E MOTH E R O R TH E DAUGHTER W H O I S T H E AGENT O F TH I S M I R ROR E X P E R I E N C E? TH E MOTH E R PARTIA LLY TAKES THE PLACE OF THE DAUGHTER A N D. WHICH T H E I N FANT CLA I M S AS ITS OWN. I F THIS IS NOT THE CASE. D I SC O V E R S THAT OTH E R CAS­ THE I M M A T U R I TY OF T H E IT FROM I N FANT H U M A N L I M ITS AS B E I NG OF ITS TRATED. THAT IS. WITH THE M I RROR I M AGE R E M I N DI N G HER THAT WOM A N ' S-BODY IS.

AS BOTH THE C A U S E AND THE S UPPORT O F DESIRE. TO COLO N IZE THE FIELD OF THE EXPERIENCED ORDER TO B E LON G I N G T O THE THAT TH E OBJ ECT I N S I D E. DAS D I N G . AN A LWAYS P R E S E N T TH E TH I N G DOES NOT E X I ST. THE CONSTITUTE T H E L I M IT OF A FORE V E R ' : E N IGMATIC NATURE OF T H E T H I NG. AN E M PTY SPACE TO AROUND IN M O R E TH A N T H E DA UGHTER OF H E R REFLECTION. BECAUSE T H E MOTH E R D E S I R ES A N D I S S U BJ ECT TO THE LAW OF THE S I G NI F I ER. WHAT IT W I LL B E S E E K I NG. BUT A LSO THAT OF HER OWN M OT H E R . T H E C H I LD DOES NOT LOSE I T S MOTH E R : I T LOSES T H E PLACE NTA. ONE OF T H E M R E M A I N S R A DICA LLY FOR E I G N .M OTH ER." T H E Y F U N CTION. HERE. THE SELF AND THE O E D I P U S C O M P L EX. H E R C A R I NG FOR THE CH I L D WILL MARK ITS BODY. THE NOT-SE L F B E I N G THAT W H I C H B R I NGS U N PLEASURE. LET US R E M E M B E R THAT D I SCOURSE FUNCTIONS AS M E A N S B E I NG A MOTH E R COMPLETELY A N D B E I N G 222 . L A C A N SAYS OF THE OBJ ECTS "JOUISSANCE. W I LL FALL T H E A IN ITS V A RIOUS G U I DES. AT THAT I N STANT. R E A L." Q U I C KLY. FROM T H E VERY F I RST MONTHS O N . I S NOT ITS MOTH ER. WOMA N'S POS ITION IS WHICH DESI R E NEVER C EASES IS WANDER. W E A L L "FORGET. IN THE MOST " G L O R I O U S" I M AGE OF HER FUTURE S U B J ECT. " A L L. T H E MOTH E R P A S S E S FROM H E R S Y M BOLIC F U N CTION I N TO A N I M AG I N A RY R E G I STER: THE TEM PTATION I S A LWYAS GREAT F O R H E R T O F I L L THE E M PTY SPACE OF THE T H I NG. THE MOTH ER'S DESI R E TRACES EROTOG ENIC ZON ES FROM WHICH DRIVE W I LL S P R I N G FORTH. P E R H A PS P E R V E R S E . H OW E V E R . THE S U BJECT W I LL A LWAYS TRY TO ASSI M I LATE THE MOTH E R HOOD I S ONLY A F U NCTION. S H E MOLDS H E R S E L F TO THE ORDER ROLE ONLY A L LOTT E D SO AS TO BY HER IN THE PHALLIC THE IS FA NTASY WHERE DES I R E SUSPENDED AND W H E R E T H E R E PETITIVE QUEST STOPS FOR A SHORT TI M E. IT D I ST I N G U I S H E S OBJECT. IS PROVE STI LL PRES ENT IN R E A LI TY. S H E R U N S THE R I S K O F D I SAPPEAR­ ING AS C A STRATED MOTH E R AND OF B E I NG NO P L EA S U R E R E F UG E I N THEM. I N D I SCOURSE "TH E T H I N G RESOLVES I T S E L F I NTO A FFA I R S. WHAT S H E R E P R E S E N TS .P R I MO R I D A L I M POSS I B L E N E E DS. SHE THIS SHORT C I R C U IT. I NTO THIS R EPETITIVE CYCLE. THE DESI R E THUS. IN THE I MA G I N A RY. I N D E E D. SHE OVERCO M E B Y TH E F A SC I NATION O F T H E R EFLEC­ TION OF B E I NG A L L. PLACE FOR T H E P E RSON WHO MIGHT D I S P LA C E H E R : H E R DAUGHTER. ITSELF B Y ITS A BSENCE. IT I S TH E R E FORE WITH I N TH E REGISTER O F A DECOY O R L U R E THAT THE I N THIS P E R SPECTI VE. I N TH I S P R I M A L EXPE R I E NCE O F THE ORGA N I ZATION OF PSYC H IC R E A LITY. AT B I RT H . LET US REPEAT THAT T H E R E I S N O R E P R E S E NTA­ TIVE OF THE T H I NG.M OTH E R" COMES TO FILL THE E M PTY SPACE OF THE THI NG. PSYCHO LOGY. THE R E CAN BE NO MOTH E R OFFICIA LLY FU NCTIONS. TO B E A MOTH E R I S THE FUTU R E ASSIGN E D TO ALL WOM E N IN THE TH I R D ST A G E OF THE HOLDING HER ELSEWH ERE H O L LOWS O U T T H E D I F FE R E N C E BETW E E N T H E C H I LD'S N E E D A N D ITS D E M A N D . S H E W I L L P R E V E N T TH E R E P R E S ENTATION O F A M I SS I N G O B JECT THAT COULD FOU N D D E S I R E . IN THE A S U B J ECT." HOWEVER. WHAT H E M E A N S BY THE N E B E N M E N SCH COM PLEX4 : THE FIRST OBJECT SPLITS I NTO TWO PARTS. THE OBJ ECT A A B ETTER THAT DENY C A ST R A T I O N I M PL I E D ROLE. T H E R E FO R E . OTH E R PART BY M E A N S OF I D E NTI FICATION: IT C A N BE CON SIDE RED. AS THE BEGI N N I NGS OF THE BODY ITSELF. s BECAUSE OF T H E C H A LL E N G E THAT S H E PRESE NTS TO THE SYM BO L I C ORDER. ONE S C I E N TI FIC M A Y C O N S U L T THE PROJECT F O R A WHERE FREUD DEFINES THAT T H E M OT H E R I S NOT THE OTHE R . I N R E F E R E N C E TO THIS. W H I C H E F FECTS OF THE DOES NOT COM E U N D E R THE P R I N C I PLE. T H E MOTH E R OCCUPIES THE PLACE O F THE T H ING. W I TH T H E MOTH E R PROFITING FROM BECAUSE THE C H I LD IS CAST I NTO THE R E A L M OF D E M A ND. BUT EVERYO N E T E N DS T O M A K E OF IT T H E V E R Y B E I N G OF WOM A N . FUSION. PA R A DO X I C A L­ LY. T H E LESS SHE ACCEPTS HER CASTRATION. ONE ATTEM PTS TO R E D I SCOV E R ON THE OUTS I D E AS AN OBJECT THAT ONCE WAS IN BECAUSE SHE IS THE F I RST L O V E OBJ ECT. THE MORE SHE W I L L SET H E RSELF U P TO SHORT C I RC U I T THE PATH OF D E S I RE. T H E I M AG E THAT T H E M I R ROR S E N DS BACK TO A WOMA N W H E N S H E IS C A R RY I N G H E R C H I LD IS NOT O N LY THE I MA G E O F HER OWN BODY. T H E R E IS COLLUSION B ETWE E N THE OBJECT A N D THE T H I NG. BUT RATH E R. T H E OBJECT IS BOTH R E M A I N D E R A N D AGENT IN THE PROCESS OF BECOMING OBJ ECTS A R E D I SCOV E R S I N H E R R E F LECTION H E R F I R ST LOVE OBJ ECT I N ITS MOST FASCINATING FOR M . AT THE S A M E T I M E . WHICH BEGAN WITH A SEA RCH OBJ ECT A FOR THE LOST OBJECT. THAT S H E O N LY HOLDS I T S PLACE. CR EATES VERY TH E I LLUSION OF T H E N EC E S S A R Y F I L L I N G UP OF THE HOLE OF T H E R E A L FOR TH I S R E ASON. ITS BODY I S NOT M E R E LY A BIOLOGICAL BODY. TAKES MOTH E R H OOD. AS R E M A I N DE R S. NOT-S ELF ARE CONSTITUTED. T H E R E FORE.

I NDEED. FOR C A S T R A T I O N A N D I S HATED. REGA RDLESS OF WHETHER THEY ARE M E N MOTH E R CONTI N U E S U PO N A N A LYTIC THEORY. U N A W A R E OF H E R R E S PO N S I BLE ONCE AGA I N . THOSE WHO L I N E U P O N THE R I G HT.ALL MOTHERS ROLLED I NTO O N E . TH E REFORE." A S LACAN SAYS. H E R LA B I D I N A L ECONOMY I S NOT ORGANIZED ENTI R E L Y IN S U B M I SS I O N TO THE PHA LLUS. WOM A N'S WE S H A L L LI B I DO SAY THAT A IN ITS LEDGE THE P E R M A N E N C E O F THIS S H A DOW. IT I S A LSO THE U NCONSCIOUS: I N C A R I NG FOR H E R C H I LD. AN DIVIDED STRUCTURE I RR E D U C I B L E STRUCTURE RESISTING A N A LY S I S A N D D I SCOU R S E. SHE IS NO MORE THAN A REFLECTION OF A R E FLECTION AD I N F I N I T U M . I F A WOM A N PLACES H E RSELF ON T H E LEFT.E N D I NG FA SCI N ATION O F T H E RELATION WITH THE MOT H E R HOLDS A P A RT O F A WOM A N I N T H E I M AG I N A R Y O R D E R : I N T H I S WAY. THAT SPEA K I NG B E I NGS. T H E TO WEIGH HEAVILY OR JOUISSA NCE TH ROUGH D I SCOURSE-BUT A R E A LSO IN A R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTHER. T O A C E R TA I N EXTENT. A REMAINS 223 . "SHA DOW" (FREUD I N D I CATES THAT T H E RELATION HAS T H E CONSI STENCY OF A H ER S E LF HER OWN AND DRIVES A R E T H E TREASURY O F W I TH T H E MOTH E R SHADOW). ? BY D E N Y I NG C A STRATION. O N E PHALLIC CAN AS IMAGINE I N SC R I PTION IN T H E ORDER CONSTITUTIVE O F T H E NOT­ S(�) a A L L/NOT-WHOLE. HOWEVER. FO R THE D A UG H T E R ." SHE M U ST ACKNOW­ MONTRELAY'S STRUCTU R I N G PORTION OF D I SC USSION OF R E PRESSION A S A PROCESS. PASSAGE F A C I L I TATED BY T H E THOSE WHO LINE UP IN THE LEFT SECTION O F FACT THAT THE MOTH E R F I G U R E I S A N I DEOLOGICAL P R O D U CT: SHE A LLOWS ONE TO AVOID THE S P E A K I N G B E I NGS H A V E ACCESS T O THE OTH E R ONLY THROUGH T H E OBJECT A . S H E W A N TS TO R E M A I N PORTION OF S H A DOW. CONSTITUTE ( " I N STI N C T U A L SIGN I F I ERS. S H E I S NOTHI NG . L E A D I NG TO THE R E A L THE M OTH E R F I G U R E M A S K S A L L LACKS.9 THE PLACE OF THE OTH ER IS TH E BODY. A WOM A N WITH DENIES RELATION C ON D E M N S THE S Y M BO L I C ORDER IT APPEARS TO US THAT A WOM A N A LW A Y S H E RS E L F TO I MITATION. A LTHOUGH T H E SPOKESPE RSON OF THE SYMBOLIC ORDER. W H I C H WOULD SIGN THE RECOG N I T I O N OF A CASTRATED BODY. A WOM A N IS ONLY FOLLO W I NG DOWN IN THE LETTER OF THE OF LAW THE THE HANDED OEDIPUS MOTH ER. THUS. I N TOUCH WITH A N D R E C R I M I NATION. SHE IS MADE WOMEN. THERE I S NO C H A NC E T H A T WOMA N·5-BODY. I NC L U D I N G THE LACK OF A LL SYSTE M I ZATION. ( A N D IN SPITE OF W H A T LACA N FIGURE H A S SUGGESTED. REPEATING FOR A WOMA N TO B E ABLE TO S E I ZE T H E OCC ASION TO SPEAK FOR "H E R S ELF. CAN B E FOU N D ON E I TH E R S I D E I S NOT I NCOMPATIBLE WITH T H E FACT THAT J UST A S THE MOTH E R TA K ES T H E PLACE OF T H E LOST OBJ ECT AND IS L OV E D . TH E R E IS NO XA POSSI B I LITY O F I OENTI F ICATION W ITH T H E MOTH ER: ONLY I M I TATION IS POS S I BLE. T H E PLACE.") THE F I R S T I N SC R I PT I O N S . I N THE M I RROR SC ENE. E I T H E R FOR THE MOTH E R O R FOR T H E DAUGHTER. THI S F I E LD O F F I RST I NSCRIPTIONS. A R E PLAC E D IN A PRIVI LEGED M A N N E R ON THE RIGHT. WE THE FI N D IN THIS LOVE-HATE OF A A M B I VA L E N C E WOMA N . I N THE PSYC H I C A P P A R A ­ BY D E N Y I NG T H I S S H A R E O F THE I N EX PLORABLE TUS. THE "FI RST MASTERSPACE O F I NSC R I PTIONS. THE A THIRD MOTH E R IS S TA G E THIS GRAPH FROM L A C A N'S S E M I N A I R E XX: EN· COM PL E X : THIS B E C O M ES CORE l O DEALS WITH T H E QUESTION OF JOU ISSANCE. WOM A N R E M A I N S IGNORANT OF H E R TWOFOLD DIVI SION. s THE N E V E R. BECA U S E OF TH E I R R E I NFORCED AlTACH­ MENT TO T H E MOTH E R WHO M E D I ATES ACCESS TO THE OTH E R.K E E P E R OF T H E OTHER. R E PETITION REMAI NS. T H E MOTH ER. TRACES I NSTI NCTUA L ZONES. A R E NOT ONLY SUBJECT TO THE PHA LLUS-PHA LLIC J O UISSANCE QUESTION O F FEMININE S E X U A L I TY.) OR WOM EN. BARS TOTAL ACCESS TO IT. T H E N A T U R E OF TH I S R E I N FORCE­ MENT WAS DESC R I B E D IN THE FI RST PART OF T H I S ARTICLE. W H I C H I S T O SAY. JOU I SSANCE W I LL E M E RGE. T H E MOTH ER. T H E REPRE­ SENTATIVES OF WHICH." T H I N K I NG OF THE XE XE M ETAPHOR OF THE SCR E A M THAT GIVES B I RTH TO SI LENCE.

I N O R D E R TO REVEL EVEN MORE.I L ?"l ( LACANI IN THAT POS I T I O N W H E R E A L L I D EN T I F I C A T I O N S THATS IT. AND GIVING B I RTH A R E T H E R E A L "MOME NTS" W H E N A WOMAN WHAT I S T H E N A T U R E O F THE CATH EXIS OF THIS R E LATION? BECAUSE. H E R O W N BODY I S ALWAYS THE S A M E BODY A S . A WOM A N CAN IN A LSO THE EXPE R I E NC E TH I S A PHA LLIC JOU ISSANCE M A SQUERADE. D E N I A L OF C A STRATION AND D I V I S ION D I SC OV E R H E RS E L F WHOLE. I NSC R I B E D JOUISSA N C E . PREGNA NCY. SHE SC R E A M S SOMETHING ABOUT WHICH SHE KNOWS NOTHI NG. MOMENT W H E N S H E R U N S T H E R I S K OF E X P E R I ENC­ I N G H E R S E LF AS NOT-WHOLE I N A FLEETING B U RST OF D E R I S I O N ? LET US T H I N K A BOUT THE LADY I N ON A COURTLY LOVE (THE LAUGH OF T H E M E D U S A ) WHO 224 . WOMEN-OBJ ECTS A N G U I S H A S THEY COUNT THE GAZES S U PF'ORTING THEM. I N STEAD OF A N D BEYOND THAT FATHER. . A WOMAN DOES NOT DOLEF U L M A S K . HER C O N S I STENCY. . WE FIND IT D I F F I C U LT T O G R A S P FROM BOTH AND CAN GIVE H E RS E L F THE I LLUSION OF EXI STI NG. N O DOUBT I T I S BEC A U S E SHE K NOWS T H A T WOM A N D O E S NOT EXI ST. HOWEVER. WHICH EXPLA I N S TO U S WHY SHE OFTEN C OV E R S HER J O U ISSA N C E WITH A I N TH E FATE ASSIGNED HER IN THE T H I R D PHASE OF THE OEDIPUS C O M P L E X. W I TH T H I S SC R E A M . A BOUT THE BODY. WHOSE F'OSITION I S EXEMPLARY I N T H I S REGARD. M A SC U L I N E DES I R E MUST REMA I N U NSATIS­ FIED I N ORDER TO KEEP THE QUESTION OF THE OBJ ECT A IN TH E PHA NTASY OF A MAN A I M I NG FOR THE OTH E R . SHE REVELS IN THEM [ELLE EN JOUITJ. SHE REVELS [ELLE J O U I RAl IN THAT WHICH A FFECTS HER BODY A N D. W H I LE T H I S I S EQUA LLY T R U E F O R T H E BOY. B A C K G RO U N D SEXUAL OF I N E X I ST E N C E . W H A T I S A A WOM A N WA N T ? IF SHE T H E OTH ER JOUISSANCE " M I STAKES" H E R I N T E R LOC UTOR. FOR A W H I LE. F O R THE G I R L. S H E SENSES THAT HER SELF IS NOT SUMMED UP IN HER MANY WHOLE PHALLIC JOUISSANCE I MAGI N A RY F'OSITIONS. HER PERIOD. BETW E E N "KNOW I NG" A N D "NOT K NOWING. S H E COMPLA I NS. WOMA N DOES NOT EXI ST. WOMA N I S T H E M ETHA PHOR O F M A N'S J O U ISSA N C E . EITHER I N S U BL I M E S I LENCE O R A M I DST U N E N D I NG REC R I M I ­ NATIONS. SHE IS THE REPRESE NTATI V E OF T H E THI NG. OR A L O S T O B J ECT. C E LA J O UI T. SHE SPEAKS A BOUT IT. BUT WHICH BODY? NOT JUST H E R OWN BODY. BUT S H E NEITHER KNOWS N O R ACCEPTS T H I S. COMMONLY D E F I N ED. IDEALIZING GIVE PLUNGES PASSIONATE. LET US NOTE THAT. CATH E X I S OF THE SA M E-BODY NO DO UBT PHALLIC J O U I SSANCE. H O W DOES S H E E X P E R I ENCE THIS? LET US SAY FROM PROBABLY R E V E LS NOW ON THAT T H E HYSTERIC IN [JO U I T . IN N A RC I SSISM. I DENTI FICATIONS THAT. THE PA RODY OF DESIRE. FATH E R W H O W O U L D B E C A PA BLE OF A N S W E R I N G HER QUESTION. BE REDUCED TO A N OBJECT CATH E X I S. T H E HYSTE R I C P RETENDS TO BELIEVE THAT THERE W I LL B E A SEXUA L RELATION. WHAT I S L I B I D I N A LLY I N VESTED I S THE PORTION OF THE OTH E R THAT ONE CARRIES W I TH I N ONESELF. A LT H O U G H AS IT IS D I F F E R E NT N A RC I SSISM. THAT THE MOTHER WILL BE ABLE TO SAY: "A WOMAN. "DOES THAT FROM WHICH ONE COMES A LSO COM ET' ["CE DO N T ON R ELATION TO TH E MOTH E R FROM B E I NG BROACHED. I T EXISTS. I DENTIFICATION WITH OBJECT OF R E I N FORCES TH E ATTRACTION OF NARCISSISM FOR TH E LITTLE G I R L FOR WE ARE I N D E E D TA LKING W H I C H G I VE S H E R A FAVORED PLAC E I N T H E O R D E R OF D I SCOU R S E. WHICH SHE WANTS TO ADDRESS TO A N A L L-POWER F U L W I L L ALWAYS T A K E ITS TOLL. DEl THIS PLAY AS J O U I SSANCE VALUE [VALEUR DE J O U I SSANCE1." I N A N Y CASE. M A K E S D E M A N DS A N D R A I LS A G A I NST THE PHALLIC ORDER. SINCE. WOM A N ? WHAT DOES H E R MOTH ER. OR T H E RE FLECTION OF TH E BODY OF. IT CAN NOT. L E T US CON S I D E R T H E HYSTE RIC." BECO M E CON F U S E D WITH ONE A NOTH ER. A WOM A N DOES N O T E X I ST. AUTO-EROTISM. ' . THE F I RST LOVE OBJECT A S WELL. H E R PRECARIOUSN ESS AS A S U B J EC T ( F R E Q U E NTLY HER STA G E D I N TO IN FAI NTING S P E L LS ) . ONCE AGAIN. SHE S U M MONS. BUT SHE C A N NOT ACCEPT THIS. BY S P E A K I NG . IS THIS NOT PRECISELY THE THE EVENTS OF A WOM A N'S BODY A R E M A R K E D BY S U B M I SSION TO THE PHA LLIC ORDER: SHE NEVER STOPS SPEAKING A BOUT T H E M A N D. W H E N S H E C A N C L I N G TO THAT W H I C H I N SC R I BES HER W I TH I N D I SCOURSE.R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTH E R AND COMES TO A H A LT THERE. R E LATIONS. S U B L I M E MOTH E R S D I SPLAY TH E I R B R U I S E D BOD I ES. JOU IT.

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S H E IN THAT WAY. WITH H E R BODY? S P R I N G FORTH.IS A B L E TO E X P E R I E NC E J O U I S S A N C E P E R H A PS WILL HAVE THE GOOD FORT U N E TO ESCAPE B ECA U S E S H E IS E NACTING AN I M A G I N A R Y DIVISION O F W H IC H S H E C A N NOT SPEAK. B U T RATH E R . D E A R TO H E R. A E X P E R I E N C E T H I S JOUISSA N C E . CHANTAL MAI LLET AND SYLVIE SESE-LEGER TRA N S LATED BY TERESE LYONS 226 . " I T I S B Y T H I S M E A N S O F ACCESS TO THAT. WOM A N AND WRITI NGIII TWOFOLD S P E EC H . IT SEEMS. IF SHE AGREES TO SOM nI M ES. IF A WOMAN I D ENTI F I E S WITH T H E OBJECT A A LONG THE PATH TOW A R D T H E OTH ER. TH E BUT RATH E R M A K E S TH E M R E M A I NDER. I F S H E A CC E PTS H E RSELF AS D I V I DED BY DES I R I NG. I N TH E A N A LYTIC S I TUATION. BUT TO WH I C H SHE H A S H A D ACCESS. ' 4 WOM A N IS NOT-WHOLE. H E RSE LF. WASTE O F THE OTH E R'S JOUIS­ R I G I D A N D CONSTRICTING. S H E W I L L SOM ETI M E S B E A B L E T O SPEAK F O R " H E R S E LF" WITHIN D I SCOU RSE. W H I C H I S NOT TH E REPR ESSED. T H I S A LLOWS H E R TO STA N O BACK AND TAKE A C E RT A I N D I ST A N C E IT FROM NOT LESS A N OTH E R S E E S P U R E JOUISSANCE OPEN U P BEFORE H I M. AT T H A T MOMENT. INSCRIBE OUR TRACE A LO N G S I D E OTH E RS. A G RE E I NG OCC A SIONA LLY TO REMAIN S I LENT. I N SPITE O R B E C A U S E O F ITS S I L E N C E . WHICH PLACE S THE HER IN THE O R D E R OF OF HER A D I SC O U R S E TH I S AND TO PERMANENCE WHICH J O U I SSA N C E CAN ONLY BE DESIGN ATED. W RITING. RECOG N I ZE BOTH THE M A R K O F T H E N A M E-OF-TH E­ FATH E R . NOT T O CONC LUDE. I N T H E U NCONSCIOUS. R E F E R R E D BACK TO H E R O W N DESI R E JOUISSA N C E . ' 2 E N D LESS." WHO SUCH I S THE POSITION OF THE M ASOC H I ST WITH THE OBJECT I DE NT I F I C A T I O N S A BO L I S H T H E M . A WOM A N IS THE PLAC E . A WOM A N C A N . SO I S IT. I N SC R I B E I TS E L F IN TH E ORDER OF DISCOURSE. FOR A WOMAN: I T CAN A WOM A N CAN BE POSSI BLE. RECOG N I ZE THAT SHE I S NOT E N TI R E LY SU BJECT TO TH E P H A LLIC F U NCTION." O F THE C A PTIVATING PRE­ OEDIPAL "HE W H OSE BODY IS L E FT TO T H E M E RCY OF R ELATIONSH I P WITH THE MOTH E R IS R A I S E D . SANCE. A LTHOUGH S H E C A N S A Y NOTH I N G MORE A BOUT IT. SHE THEN WHAT KINO OF IN THIS A RTICLE W E HAVE L I M I T E D OURSELVES TO POI NTING OUT A FEW E L E M E NTS CONT R I B U T I NG TO THE Q U ESTION OF WOMAN. SHE C A N E SC A P E FROM A KINO OF WRITING WITH WHICH SHE WO U L D TRY TO I D E NTIFY WITH MEN AND A LSO FROM I M PR I SON M E NT IN THE ILLUSION O F WHAT I S C A LLED A F E M I N I N E W R I TI NG. A T TH E MOST. O F TH E TIONS R E LATION AND WE H A V E N EG LECTED JOUISSANCE C A N E X P E R I ENCE? DOES NOT A PORTION OF H E R JOUISSANCE LEAVE THE ORDER O F D I SCOU RSE I N O R D E R T O SET ITSELF A DR I FT? AT THAT MOMENT WHEN A PA RT OF HER DOES NOT MOST PARTI C U L A R LY. (CONFORM­ I NG TOTALLY W I TH THE ROLE ASSIGNED HER I N THE M A SC U L I N E FANTASY).K E E P E R OF THE THING A N D I S . FOR THAT R E A SON. I T ESCAPES I N SC R I PTION. THAT D I SC O U R S E CAN HOLE IN THAT O R D E R . IN TH A T SPACE SO CLOS E TO ITS MAGN ETIC POLE THAT THE G U I D I NG LA N D M A R KS OF THE PHA LLIC ORDER STOP F U N C TI O N I NG A WOM A N TH E AND NOT SUBV ERT O N E EXPERIENCE WO U L D OBEYING A N ECONOMY O F CON S U M PTION? HOW CAN THE SOC I A L GROUP R ECONCI L E ORGAN IZATION A N D I N O RG A N IZATION? A N OT H E R . W R I TI NG. IF S H E ACC E PTS HER D I V I S I O N . I M ITATIVE R E PETITION. DOES I DENTI FIES THE A. T H E "FORGETTI NG. FOR A WOM A N : IS I T P E R H A P S N O T W R I TI N G ON TH E MOT H E R'S BODY. B EYON D LAW THAT IT REMAINS FOR US. WHO HAVE ATTE M PTED TO SO MANY RESEMBLE I NCEST WITH T H E MOTH E R ? LET U S TH I N K O F SA I NT TH E R E S A O F A V I LA A N D OF T H E GOO S H E COMPA R E S T O A N U RSE WITH A N I N E X H A USTI BLE FLOW O F MILK. DOES SOM ETHING. WO M A N IS NOT "LI B E R ATED" WHEN TH E R E PRES­ SION. V A R I O U S Q U E STIONS. BUT TH E R E IS A CATCH. POS E Q U ESTIONS CONC E R N I NG T H E PHA LLIC O R D E R ? W H A T C A N B E M E A N T BY T H E "FE M I N IZA­ TION" O F A SOC I ETY ONCE ONE SUS PECTS TH A T THE PART OF A WOMAN WANTING TO B E BORN I S ONLY FO R TH E T H I N G. BORES C A N NOT BE SPOKEN. THAT I D E NT I F I C A ­ THE OTH E R B ETWE E N T H E S E DOES NOT I D E O LOG Y . IT ATTA C H M E NT THE MOTH E R .

IT THE THE I M PO S S I B I L I T Y WORD " OF ADEQUATELY R E P R OD U C I N G IS TO I N S E RT H I MSELF INTO A FU NCTION WHOSE J O U I SS A N C E ". AND THE SEE NOTE 7. THE 9 FRENCH WILL B E I N D I CATED IN BRACKETS. MONTRELAY. C A LLY ADEQUATE. "TO R E V E L. THE PLEASU R E O F S E X U A L C L I M AX­ H A S BEEN M UC H D ISCUSSED.L POSSIBLE. 11 9 7 2 · 3 1 . PLEASURE. SO A N A LYSIS SEEMED ATT A C H M E N T AMBIGUITY. COMPLEXE D U PROC H A I N . TO MARKED LOST I N A PAST SO D I M A N D R E S U S C ITATE. 1 95. P E R H A PS CON FUSION OF CATH EXES A LSO PLAYS A ROLE FOR T H E MOTHER. CF. LA FEMME DANS L'AMOUR COURTOIS. (IN THIS RESPECT. 227 . LOVES THE DAUGHTER WHO RESEM B LES H E R A N D 12 FOR WHOM E V E RYTHI NG I S STlL. 9 1 73. B U T SYNTACTI· 8 CF. 14 THE DAUGHTER IS. DOU BLED BY THE MATERNAL R EFLEXION. IN ALL L I K E L I HOOD. P A R I S : S E U I L. LATED IN JOUISSANCE W I LL 7 SEE LACAN'S S E M I N A R I E XX: 1 975. I N ORDER TO AVOI D AN A RB I T R A R Y CHOICE A M ON G BE THE ITS L E FT VERB M U LT I P L E UNTRANS· " JO UIR:' [ 1 9641." AND ONCE WITH THE MORE DI RECT "TO COME:' IN BOTH CASES." IN 10 SIGMUND FREUD. I T 2A " I N H E R 'AMOU R PROPRE: WOMA N D O E S N O T M A NAGE TO DISTING U I S H HER OWN BODY FROM THAT WHICH WAS HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT.EDGE:· THAT OF THE PYTH I A PEN ETRATED BY TRUTH. I N T H E CASE OF A WOMAN INSC R I BED I N THE PHALLIC ORDER. MONTRELA Y. L'ETHN I Q U E DE LA PSYC H A N A L YSE. AT THAT MOME NT. N E W YORK: COLLI ER BOOKS. " JACQUES L. LE SEM I N A I R E XI: LES QUATRE CONCEPTS FONDA M ENTAUX DE LA PSYCHANALYSE. BUT FUNDAM ENTA LLY. RECH ERCHES S U R LA F E M I N ITE.ACAN. TRANSLATED WITH THE SEMANTICALLY U N SATISFACTORY. THIS WILL A RTICLE. BE PARIS: S E U I L. S E X U A L I TY : ' S E X U A L ITY PSYCHOLOGY OF LOVE. (TRANSJ THE OEDI PUS COMPLEX SHATTERS A PA RT IN THE LITTLE BOY: IT DOES NOT DISAPPE A R IN THE LITTLE GIRL. SEEMS TO U S THAT. OF COU RSE. M. M E A N I NGS.NOTES 6 "TO I M ITATE IS. (EVEN THE AVOI DANCE O F C A STRATION?). TH I S BY MOTHER·ATTACH M E NT TO M E SO ELUSI VE. SHE I S ALSO I D E NTI FYI NG WHEN S H E TAKES THE CATHECTED A S A LOVE OBJECT. FOR THE SUBJECT. "WOMAN'5-BODY" A N D "SAM E·BODY" FORCE U S TO RECO N S I D E R T H E QUESTION OF TH E OBJECTS A." M. POSITION OF S U FFERI NG "KNOWL. EXTR E M E WOR K I NGS HAVE SEIZED H I M . C H A NTAL M A I LLET. 2B ALSO F I N DS H E R OBJECTS A UPON HER OWN BODY.E N J O Y M E N T . ( I N LETTRES DE L'ECOLEJ 3 SEE LACAN'S S E M I N A R O F 1 9 59·60. 13 I T I S NOT WITHOUT I NTEREST THAT THE ANLAYST SHOULD BE A WOM A N . 1 1 WE WOULD SUGGEST THAT THE SIGNI FIERS 1 963. (TRANSJ E N C ORE. THE OBJECTS A SUPPORTING H E R DESIRE ARE N EVER "COMPLETE· LY" S E P ARATED FROM HER.) BACKED U P BY THE R ELATION SH I P WITH THE SAME· 4 BODY..) A WOMAN RECHERCHES SUR LA FEMINITE. FREUD TELLS US THAT THE FATH E R I N H E RITS " E V E RYTH I NG C O N N EC T E D HAS IN WITH THIS FI RST THE G I R L'S ATTAC H M E NT TO CONTI N U E S HER BE MOTH ER. P. THIS UTTERANCE CAN BE (AS YET U N P U B L I S H ED. SHE S UPPORTS THAT I MAGE. WHO. NOT A WOMAN I S NEVER SAFE FROM I DENTI FICATIONS. S H E I S THERE ONLY IN ORDER TO A L LOW THE I M AG E OF THE MOTHER TO BE REVEA LED. THE C H I L O OCCU P I E S A SPECIAL POS ITION. TO R EPRODUCE AN I M AGE. HOWEVE R. T H A T I T H A R D TO S E E M E D AS I F I T H A D U N D E RG O N E S O M E SPEC I A LLY I N EX O RA B L E "FEMALE REPRESSION. S H A DOWY.

W H I C H I S W H Y P E R R I E R A N D GRANOFF H AVE BEEN ABLE TO S HOW TO .. ORDER. AS IT R E PRESSION. OF OF A SOC I A L WERE? DI SPLACED: IT CONSISTS I N T H E SEXUA LITY A N D CONC E R N S THE A B SENCE PROH I B I ­ T H E D ES I R E OF T H E OTH E R SEX.A N A L D R I V E S W I T H J O N ES . . KLEIN THAT A N D DOLTO THE G I R L'S ARE R E A L ITY. H E EXPER I M E NTS. T H E A NATOMY O F TH E BOY.AN I NQU I RY I NTO FE M I N I N ITY FEM I N I N E EROTI C I S M IS MORE CENSORED. CAN L I V E A "PROTECTED" SEXUALITY. ALL THE E XT R E M E PENA LIZE MASTUR BATION. W E KEEP SI LENT A BOUT H E R M A STURBATION. FRANCOISE OOLTO H A S SHOWN THAT. TH E R E FO R E .' O N E TENDS T O REFER T O THE A N X I ETY OF RAPE A N D PEN ETRATION W I TH O U T E M P H A S I Z I N G T H A T . THE G I R L. IN YET OTH E R PROC E SSES. . O N T H E CONTR A R Y . POSITION OF TH E M A N D I FF E R S FROM THAT OF THE WOMA N WHOSE ON S E X U A LITY IS CAPABLE OF R E M A I N I NG WHAT ARE THE P R OC E S S E S WHICH M A I NTA I N THE EDGE O F A L L REPRESSION." I N A STATE OF THE FI RST. EXPOSES H I M V E R Y E A R LY T O T H E REALIZA­ TION THAT HE IS M A ST E R N EITHER OF THE PLEASURE. OF AN I N STINCTUAL A N D NOT SOCI A L ORDER. M A I NTA I N F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY OUTS I D E T H E ECONOMY O F REPRESENTATION-THE I NTRICATION VAG I N A L HAVE OF T H E O R A L. WAS THE DRIVES BY THE EXTENT O F H I S PLEA S U R E S. LESS M A N I F E ST A T I O N S OF HIS DESI RE NOR OF THE R E PRESSED THAN THAT OF A MAN. OF THE M A SC U L I N E T I O N S : T H E G I R L I S L E S S S U B J ECT THA N TH E BOY TO THE T H R EATS AND TO THE DEFENCES WHICH PARTN ER.. C I RC U M SC R I B E PLAC E O R IN R E LATION TO C A STRATION. D E M O N STRATED A SCHOOL. IT LENDS ITSELF LESS EASILY TO LOSING ITSELF AS THE STA K E OF U NC O N S C I O U S WHOSE ENGLISH FO R C E R E P R E S ENTATION. UNDER C E RTA I N C I R C U M STANCES THEN. THE FEMININE S E N S I B I LITY EXPERI ENCES R E LA T I N G TO T H E C A STRATION OF T H E M A N :'2 WOMA N . A LL THE MORE A S I T I S LESS OBSERVABLE. S H E LT E R E D BY T H E I R P R I VACY. MOST OFTEN THAT OF THE FATH E R AND THEN. TH E ''CONTI N E NT'' W H I C H C A N B E C A LLED -DARK" T O T H E EXTENT THAT IT I S OUTSIDE THE C I RC U M FE R ENCE OF T H E SYMBOLIC ECONOMY (FORECLOSED). O N THE OTH E R H A N D. ON I N S I STED THE FACT OF ARCHAIC EXPERIENCES THE VAGINA 228 . THE STA K E OF C ASTRATION FOR THE WOMA N F I N DS I TS E L F FEM I N ITY -OUTSIDE NATURE. NOT O N LY WITH C H A NC E BUT A LSO WITH THE LAW A N D W I T H H I S S E X U A L O R G A N : H I S BODY ITSELF TAKES O N THE VALUE OF STA KE. T H E G I R L R I S K S LITTLE.

O F SYMBOLIC CASTRATION." 229 . IN O R D E R TO BE S Y M BOLIZED. RE­ ACTUALIZES. . I T IS AS IF "TO BECOME WOM A N . SO CLOSE. THE REAL OF H E R OWN BODY. IT I S A DEFENSE PRODUCED IN O R D E R TO PARRY THE AVATA R S. ANXI ETY. FOR THE WOMAN E N JOYS H E R BODY AS S H E WOULD THE BODY OF A NOTH E R . E M PTIN E S S .ORGANIZED AS A FUNCTION OF P RE-ESTABLISHED ORAL-A N A L SCH E M A S. FROM NOW ON. O N LY THE HOLE. F EM I N I N ITY EXPER I E NC E D A S REAL AND I M ME D I ATE. W E WILL N O T TH E R EFORE QUESTION T H E T R U T H OF TH E CLI N IC A L OBSERVATIONS PRODUCED BY THE ENGLI S H SCHOOL: ALL EXPE R I ENCE OF C H I LD A N A LYSI S CON F I R M S T H E P RECOCITY OF THE "KNOWLEDGE" O F THE V AG I N A. R E PR ESENTATI ON IS T H R E A T E N E D BY RUIN. S I M U LATANEOUSLY." THE A N A LYST OFTEN FINDS A "FE A R OF FEM I N I NITY" IN CON N ECTION WITH FEM I N I N E A NX I ETY. FEM I N I N ITY. P R E C OC I O U S S E X U A L I T Y " T U R N S " A R O U N D A SINGLE ORIFICE. A R ELATION S I M U LTANEOUSLY N A R C I S S I STIC A N D EROTIC. I T C O M P R O M I S E S W O M A N ' S R E LA T I O N T O C A S T R A T I O N AND TH E LAW: TO A BSORB. MORE G E N ERALLY. BUT A LSO A N D A BOVE A LL. W H ICH SHE H A S TO OCC U PY. THE REAL O F THAT OTHE R BODY. THE ORGANIZER OF DESIRE: WHICH.. IS AN OJ ECT I N EXCESS WHICH MUST BE "LOST:' THAT IS TO SAY.E X I ST I N S I DE T H E F E M I N I N E U NCONSC I O U S : THAT O F R E P R E S E N TATION A N D THAT WHICH REMAINS "THE DARK CONTIN ENT. A N ORGAN WHICH I S BOTH DIGESTIVE AND V AG I N A L. I N CHARGING ITSELF W I T H I N T E N S I TY A N D I M PO R T A N C E A N D PRESENCE. E V E R Y OCC U R R E NCE OF A S E X U A L K I N D ( P U B ERTY. CONTI N U OUS. A N YTHI NG. I S FORBIDDEN FOR T H E WOMEN: TH E R E I S NO STATEM ENT OR L A W W H I C H PROHI BITS T H E RECOVERY OF TH E STAKE SINCE T H E R E A L W H ICH I M PO S E S I T S E L F A N D T A K E S T H E P L A C E OF REPRESSION A N D DESIRE IS. IT M UST BE STRESSED THAT SUCH A PRECOCI TY. ETC." "TO M A T E R N A L. W HICH AT THE B EG I N N I N G OF L I FE WAS THE SUBSTANCE OF WORDS. W H I C H I T WOULD BE A M I STA K E TO SEE AS THE EXPRESSION IF THI S I N SATIABLE ORGAN-HOLE IS AT THE CENTER OF PRECOCIOUS SEXUA LITY. WE HAVE TRIED TO S H OW T H A T T H I S F E A R (EFFRACTION) A LONE IS NOT A R E S U LT OF P H A NTA S I E S O F V I OLATION A N D B R E A K I N G I N • • . I T IS QUITE TRUE THAT THE VERY S M A LL G I R L EXPE R I E NCES H E R F E MI N I NI TY V E R Y EA RLY. TO U ND ERSTAND. MATE R N I TY. T H E R E STOR A T I O N O F T H E STA K E P R OC E E D E D B Y CHANCE. A TH I R D S E R I E S OF PROCESSES STA N DS I N TH E WAY O F R E P R E S S I O N : C O N C E R N I N G T H E WO M A N ' S R E LATION TO HER OWN BODY. I T I S FEA R OF THE FEM I N I N E BODY AS A NON-REPRESSED A N D U N R E P R E S E NTABLE OBJ ECT. A T T H E FURTHER EXTREME. E SPE­ C I A LLY IN T H E A DOLESCENT. IS THE BLI N D SPOT OF THE SYMBOLIC PROCESS A N A LYZED BY FRE UD. BE IN WOMAN" GAVE TH E ACCESS TO A SHE BEARS JOUISSANCE OF THE BODY AS FEM I N I N E AND/OR S ELF-LOVE HERSELF. IF I T I N FL ECTS ALL PSYCHIC MOVEMENT ACCO R D I NG TO C I R C U LA R AND C LOS E D SC H E M A S . BUT AT THE ROOT OF TH I S THREAT THERE A R E D I F F E R E N T P R OC E S S E S : F O R O E D I P U S . S I NCE IT MAINTA I N S E ROTI C I S M OUTSIDE THE R E P R ESENTA­ TION OF CASTRATION. HERE. RECOV E R I N G H E RSELF AS MATER N A L BODY ( A N D ALSO AS PHALLUS). S U C H I S THE L E IM O T I F OF ALL FEMI N I N E A N A LYSIS. ANXI ETY AND THE R E LATION TO THE BODY OF A N ALLEGED "CASTRATION. "ACCORDING TO JONES:' I. O R A PPROPRIATE. FOR H E R. "LOSE:' THE F I R ST STA K E OF R E P R E SE NTATI O N . THIS BODY. WHICH C E A SELESSLY TENDS TO ABSORB. TO DEVOUR. BUT. THE DEFIC I E NCIES. LATER ON. NOTH I NG . TO TAKE. AS OBJECT O F THE LOVER'S DESI RE. TH E WOMA N C A NNOT DIFFERENTIATE H E R OWN BODY F ROM T H A T W H I C H W A S "TH E F I R ST OBJECT. . E ROTIC E X P E R I ENCES. A T BOTTOM . H E N C E TH E S Y M PTOM S W H I C H SO OFTEN S I M U LATE THIS LOSS: "TH E R E IS NO LONGER . WE WOULD H A V E TO SPEC I FY FURTH E R WHAT I S ONLY I NTIMATED H E R E : THAT T H E R E A L OF T H E BODY." ON T H E CONTRA RY. F R O M T H E GODS: IT WAS EFFECTED I N SPITE OF A PROHI BITION.) HAPPENS TO HER A S IF I T CAME FROM A NOTHE R (WOMA N ) : EVERY OCCURRENCE IS THE FASCINATING ACTUA LIZATION OF THE' FEMI­ N I N ITY OF ALL WOM EN. A S IN THE TRAGEDY. O N THE CONTRARY. REPRESSED. TWO I NCOMPATIB LE. I N TAK I NG FORM AT PUBE RTY. I N OTH E R WORDS. H ETEROG E N EOUS T E R R I TO R I E S C O. WAS A LSO THE MATE R I A L OF A RCHAIC R E PRESSION." I T IS A P R E S U P POS E D MOV E M E N T OPPOSED TO THAT BY C A ST R A T I O N : WHERE THE JOUISSANCE O F T H E BODY LOSE S ITSELF "FOR" A D I SCOU RSE WHICH IS OTHE R .. TIED TO TH E PRESENCE OF THI S BODY.E . RE-I NCARNATES." ACTS AS A N OBSTACLE TO IT. THE WOMAN C A N NO LONGE R REPRESS. OF THAT OF THE MOTHER. CAN ONLY BE I N S I STENT. WE F I N D AGAI N HERE T H E THE M E OF CONCENTRI­ CITY. FAR FROM FAVORING A POSSIBLE "MATURATION. IS TO REDUCE THE WORLD TO T H E MOST ARCHAIC I N STI NCTUAL "LAWS.

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IN

TH E

R E G I STER OF EROTIC FICTION: W H E R E THE F E M I N I N E O R I FICE. O. I S " F A LSE LY" R E PR E S E N T E D I N ITS

SUCCESSIVE M ETAMORPHOSES.

DESI R E

O N L Y T O TH I S

FLESH?" T H E W O M A N A FFORDS A G Ll M !"S E O F T H E R E A L BY V I R T U E O F H E R R E LATION T O N OTHING­

HERE. I WOULD RATH E R TU R N TO THE POETS. THOSE WHO HAVE WRITTEN I N T H E NOVELISTIC O R M A D E FILMS OUT OF THE FEMI N I N E DRAMA
("C I N EMA"'.

THAT I S TO SAY. TO THE T H I NG. AT T H I S M O M E NT. THE SYMBOLIC COLLAPSES I N TO T H E R E A L. FR E U D' A LSO SAYS THAT THE P E R V E R T C A N NOT SEE THE

SINCE TH E L I M ITATIONS O F THIS ARTICLE RULE OUT ANY D E TA I L E D C ON S I D E R A T I O N OF C L I N I C A L

CASTRATED BODY OF H I S MOTH E R . I N T H I S S E N S E . E V E R Y M A N I S A P E RV E RT. ON T H E O N E H A N D. H E E N J O Y S W I THOUT S A Y I N G SO. W I THOUT COM I NG TOO C LOSE-FOR T H E N H E WOULD H A V E TO TA K E U PO N

CASES.

TA K E FELLINI. TH E D I R ECTOR O F J U L I ETTE OF THE SPIRITS. A F I L M SO BAFFLING. N O DOUBT. BEC A U S E IT B R I NGS OUT TH E PRESENCE OF THE "DARK

H I MS E L F A T E R R I B L E A N X I ETY. OR E V E N H A TE-: H E ENJOYS BY PROXY THE THING HE GLIMPSES

THROUGH T H E MOTH E R . O N THE OTH E R H A N D. H E DOES NOT APPEAR T O U N D E RSTA N D THAT H E R

CONTINE NT' S O W E L L T H E D I M E NSION O F F E M I N IN­ ITY THAT LACAN TA K I N G SHAPE THE IN DESIGNATES FROM JOA N UP AS M ASQU E R A D E . TAKES

R E LATION T O T H E TH I N G I S S U B L I MATED. I T I S T H I S E V I L W H I C H H A S TO B E REPRESSED.

TERM

R I V I E RE. "

THIS HATS

PILING AND

O F C RAZY THI NGS. B A R OQ U E CON­ A F I L M L I K E DAYS OF WRATH'v LAYS B A R E A L L T H E M A SC U L I N E " D E F E N C ES" AGA I N ST F E M I N I N ITY A N D WOM A N ' S D I R EC T R ELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E MAN IS TERRORIZED RAISES BY THE THREAT THAT IN

FEATHERS.

STRANGE

STRUCTIONS WHICH RISE UP L I K E SO M A N Y S I LENT I N SI G N IAS. BUT WHAT WE M U ST S E E I S THAT THE OBJ ECTI V E OF S UC H A M A SQUERADE I S TO SAY

N OT H I NG. ABSOLUTE LY NOTHING. A N D IN ORDER TO PRODUCE THIS NOTH I N G T H E WOMAN USE S H E R OWN

F E M I N I N ITY

FOR

" H I S"

R E P R E S S ION.

O R D E R TO R E A S S U R E H I M A N D C O N V I N C E H I M . T H E

230

WOMA N A LWAYS A DV A N C E S F U RT H E R A LONG H E R O W N PATH S P E A K THE ST A N D BY EXPLA I N I NG H E R S E LF, TRUTH, HER BUT SHE W I S H I NG T O

SC R I B E D . FEM I N I NI TY

THE AND

STA K E NOT

IS

NOW

P R ECOC I O U S M A SC U L I N E

TH E

PENIS O R

OOES N O T U N DER­ WILL NOT AND

SEXUA LITY: P R ECOC I O U S F E M I N I N I TY B ECOM E S T H E MATERIAL OF R E P R ESSION. "ACCOR D I N G T O J O N ES" ONE OR S E V E R A L P E RIODS OF LATE NCY CORRES­ PON D TO THIS DECATHEXIS OF S E X U A LITY, P E R IODS D U R I NG WHICH T H E LITTLE GIRL AND THE W O M A N D I S E N TA N G L E T H E M S ELVES FROM TH E I R OWN

THAT

DISCOURSE

C A N NOT B E R E C E I V E D . FOR T H E FACT O F BYPASS­ I NG THE LAW OF R E P R ES S I O N P R E C I S E L Y B Y SAYI N G ALL, AND CONTA M I NATES MAKES TH E M O S T P R E C I O U S TRUTH ODIOUS AND C O N D E M N ­

I T S U SPECT,

ABLE. H E NCE M A SC U L I N E C E N S U RE. THE F R U ST R A T I O N S , WHICH HAVE I NT E R D I C T I O N S A N D CON­ WEIGHED BE ON WOMEN AND FOR ARBI­

BOD I ES A N D ITS PLEASURES. THIS I S W H Y P E R I O D S OF FRIGIDITY IN A N A LY S I S I ND E X OF CAN OFT E N BE

T E M PT

CONSI D E R E D MARK THE

AS

AN

PROGRESS: PATI E N T

THEY DE­

C E N TU R I ES

MAY

I ND E E D

ABSURD

MOMENT

WHEN

THE

TRARY, BUT THEY DO NOT M A TT E R . TH E M A I N THING IS THE FACT OF I M PO S I N G THE D E F I N ITIVE

CATH ECTS T H E V AG I N A L-O R A L SC H E MA S W H I C H TI LL THEN W E R E A LO N E CAPABLE O F PROV I D I N G ACCESS T O E ROTIC PLEASU RE.

A B A N D O N M E N T O F J O U I S S A N C E . T H E SCA N D A L C A N THEN COME T O A N E N D-TH E F E M I N I N E S E X B E A R S W I T N E S S T O C A STRATION .

THE

DE C I S I V E

STE P

BY

WHICH

THE

FEM I N I N E

U NCONSC I O U S I S M O D I F I E D LI ES, NOT SO M U C H I N THE A N A LYST, FOR HIS P A RT, C A N NOT DEFINE THE C H A N G E O F LOVE OBJECT" A S I N T H E C H A N G E IN THE U N C O N SC I O U S R E P R ESENTATIVE, PHALLIC R E P R E S E NTATIVES ARE MASCU­ S UBSTI­

F E M I N I N E C A STRATION S I M P LY A S T H E E F F ECT O F HIS STRUCTU RES. IF THE EXEMPLAR OF THE

LINE,

HYSTE R I C A L, N E U ROTIC WOMA N I S O N E W H O N EVER LETS U P WI S H I N G TO B E H E R SEX, I N V E R S E LY, I SN'T THE " A D U LT" W O M A N ONE WHO RECONSTRUCTS H E R SEXUALITY I N A F I E L D W H I C H G O E S B E Y O N D S E X ? T H E P R I N C I PLE OF A M A SC U L I N E L I B I DO U PH E L D BY

TUTED F O R T H E F I RST "CONCENTRIC" R E P R E S E N ­ TATI VE. T H E L A W A N D T H E PATE R N A L I D E A L S O F THE FA T H E R WHICH ARE ARTICU LATED NEW IN HER

D I SCOU R S E

CONSTITUTE

THE

R E P R E S E NTA­

TIVES CAPA B L E O F S U PPLANTING TH E MODELS OF A R C H A IC R E P R E S E NTATIONS (FE M I N I N E OED I P U S) '

F R E U D COULD B E C L A R I F I E D A S A TH I S "EXTRATE R RITOR I A LITY."

F U NCTION O F

L E T US N O T E THAT T H I S S U BSTITUTION D O E S N OT F E M I N I N E CASTRATION: H Y POTH ESES MUTI LATE THE W O MA N AND DEPR I V E HER OF A

P E N I S WH I C H S H E N E V E R H A D , BUT DEPRI VES H E R O F ONCE AGA I N , LET US TA K E AN E X A M PLE FROM T H E SENSE O F P R EC OC I O U S SEXUALITY. FE M I N I N I TY I S FORGOTT E N , I ND E E D RE PRESSED, AND THIS LOSS CONSTITUTES THE S Y M BOLIC CASTRATION O F T H E WOMAN,

LITERATU R E, K LOSSOW S K I ' S PORTRAITS O F WOM E N E A S I LY LEND TH E M SELVES WE TO A CLINICAL AT THE ANA­ THE

COM M E NTARY.

MIGHT B E SURPRISED

A STON I S H I N G L Y TOM I C A L AND

V I R I LE

ATTR I B U T E S ( BOTH WHICH

P S Y C H I C A L - 'N I T H

AUTHOR E N OOWS H I S H E RO I N E S A N D D E D U C E FROM THEM S O M E P E R V E R S I O N. I T IS A LSO POSSIBLE TO SEE IN THESE ATTRIB UTES THE M A T E R I A L OF A

SUBLIMATION AND M ETAPHOR

IN

A N A LY S I S

AND

MORE THE

S P EC I F I C A LLY,

IN

TH E

MORAL FABLE OUTLI N I NG A T Y P E OF P E R FECTED FEMINI NITY: T H E WOMA N WOULD "T R U E" BE WOMAN, AS T H E " F E M M E" WHO HAS

TRA NSFE R E N C E ,

( I , E"

SET OF U NCONSCI O U S E N U N C I ATION

MOD I FICATIONS P R O D U C E D BY THE

DRAWN

SHE

OF D I SCO U R S E O N T H E COUC H), THE D I M E N S I O N OF PLEA S U R E C A N E M E RGE.

" FORGOTT E N "

HER

F E M I N I N ITY,

AND

WHO

WOU LD

ENTRUST T H E J O U I S S A N C E A N D T H E R E PRESE NTA­ TION OF IT TO AN OTH E R . FOR THIS REASON, IN NO IN RECHERCH ES, TOROK SPEAKS OF ITS M A N I FESTA­ TION: "W H E N ONE OF MY PAT I E NTS HAS ' U N DE R ­

KLOSSOWSKI'S WAY TALK

H E RO I N E ,

ROBE RTE, HER

COULD BOD Y

ABOUT

H E R S E LF,

OR "THE

STOOD' A N I N TE R P R ETATION, WHEN. CONSEQUENT­ LY, AN I N H I BITION IS L I FTED, A FREQUENT

WORD THAT IT CONCEA LS.� I T IS SOMEON E E LSE'S TASK TO HOLD THE D I S C O U R S E O F F E M I N I N I TY, I N LOVE A N D/OR I N A NOVEL.

I NDICATION O F T H I S A DVANCE I S THAT THE PATI E N T D R E A MS A N D I N T H I S D R E A M S H E H A S A N O RG A S M " (A D E SC R I PT I O N OF ONE OF THESE DREAMS

UNDER T H E S I G N OF THIS FORG ETTING, A SECON D ECONOMY LONG E R OF THE D E S I R E, SAME, WHERE CAN THE STA K E IS NO DE-

FOLOWS)."

EFFECTIVELY

BE

TOROK,

BY

I N S I ST I N G

ON

THE

FACT

THAT

A

23 1

P L E A S U R E A RI S E S W H E N A N EW R E P R E S ENTATION IS E L A BORATED. TELLS US WHAT IS E S S E N TI A L

M UST

BE

E M P H A S I Z E D.

IN

R E S PO N S E A N A L Y ST

TO

THE

A N A LY S A N D'S ATES A S A R I LY

P H A NTASY. T H E

ENUNCI­

A BOUT T H I S P L EA S U R E . CONTRA R Y T O WHAT O N E M I G H T TH I N K . TH I S P L E A S U R E DOES NOT L I E I N THE L I FTI NG OF TENSION. AN I N H I B I TION. IN TH E TOO R E LEA S I NG O F LONG. ON TH E

C E R TA I N N U M B E R OF S I G N I F I E R S N ECES­ RELATING TO HIS OWN DESI R E AND HIS

L I STE N I NG-PLA C E . T H E S E WORDS A R E OTH E R : T H E A N A LYST'S D I F F E R E NT. M I R RO R . OF D I SC O U R S E AS SUCH IT IS IS NOT A R E FL E X I V E . BUT A

C O N TA I N E D THE BY

FOR

CONTRARY. EXPLICABLE

PLEASURE. THE CLICHE

FAR OF

FROM

BEING ("DE­

METAPHOR.

NOT

RELEASE

THE

PATl E NT'S

D I SC O U R S E .

A N D.

FO U L E M E Nr')" A R I S E S F R O M THE PUTTI NG I N PLACE

P R E C I S E LY. M ET A P H O R I S C A P A B LE OF E N G E N D E R ­ ING PLEASURE.

OF

NEW

R E P R E S E NTATI ONS. F I R ST

LET

US

NOTE

THAT

THESE THE

WERE

E N U N C I A TED IN

BY TH E OTH E R . V E RBALLY FI RST FREUD AND TH E N LAC A N A N A LYZED THE

A N A LYST. W H O .

I N T E R P R ETING. OF A

A R T I C U LA T E S

S O M ETH I NG

SEXUA LITY

MOTI V E S O F T H I S P L E A S U R E W I TH R E G A R D T O T H E JOKE. WE LAUGH WHEN WE PERCEIVE THAT THE

M A I NTA I N E D T I L L TH E N I N T H E STATE O F N A T U R E . I N T H E "DA R K . "

WORDS S P E A K A T E X T OTH E R T H A N T H A T W H I C H W E T H O U G H T. AND IF THE OTH E R L A U G H S. IF THE

H E R E . T H E R E FO R E .

P L E A S U R E I S T H E E FFECT O F

M I S A P P R E H ENSION P L A Y S ON O N E M O R E REGISTER. THE PLEASURE BECOMES KEENER STILL. WHAT

T H E WORD OF T H E OTH E R . M O R E S P EC I F I C A L LY. I T OCC U R S AT THE FOR A DV E NT WHAT IS OF A S T R U CT U R I N G IN THE

F U NCTION D O E S T H I S OTH E R TEXT. T H I S OTH E R E A R . H A V E ? I T H A S T H E F U NCTION O F E N G E N D E R I NG A M ET A P H O R . THAT IS TO SAY. OF S U BS T I T U T I N G

D I SCOU R S E .

ESS E N T I A L

A N A LY S I S OF A WOM A N I S N OT M A K I NG S E X U ALITY M O R E "CON S C I O U S" O R I N T E R PRET I N G IT. AT LEAST NOT I N THE SENSE N O R M A L LY GIVEN TO THIS TERM. THE ANA LYSrS WORD TA K E S ON A COMPLETELY

I T S E L F F O R T H E P R E C E D I NG TEXT A N D L I S TE N I NG­ PLACE. PLEASURE ARISES THE MOMENT THIS

M ET A P H O R I S PRODUCED. LACA N S A Y S THAT I T I S I DE NT I F I E D M ET A P H O R .7 WITH THE VERY M E A N I NG OF THE

D I F F E R E N T F U NCTI ON. I T N O LONG E R E X PLA I N S . BUT FROM THE SOLE FACT OF ARTICULATING. IT

STR UCTU RES. B Y V E R B A L L Y PUTTING I N PLACE A R E P R E S E NTATION O F C A S T R A TION. T H E A N A LYSrS WORD THIS MAKES TYPE S E X U A L I TY PASS I NTO DISCO U R S E . T H E R E FO R E IN WHAT THEN. DOES THIS M E A N I NG B E R E FT O F

S I G N I F I C A TI O N C O N S I ST? W E C A N D E F I N E I T A S T H E MEASURE OF THE E M PTY "SPACE" I NDUCED BY

OF

I N T E R P R ET A T I O N

RE PRESSES. A T L E A ST I N TH E S E N S E G I V E N TO T H E
W O R D H E RE.

R E P R E S S I O N . T H E M ETAPHOR. BY POS I NG I T S E L F A S THAT WHICH IS NOT S POKE N . H O L LOWS O U T A N D

D E S I G N ATES T H I S S P A C E . F R E U D S A I D T H A T T H E U N D ERSTOOD P E R H A PS C U L TU R A L IN THIS WAY. US TO I NTE R P R ETATION CAN LOCATE A C E RTA I N P L EA S U R E OF T H E JOKE L I E S I N T H E R E T U R N O F THE R E P R ESSED. DOES IT NOT R A TH E R. LIE

HELP AND

IN

S OC I A L

F U N CT I O N O F PSYCHO­

PUTTI NG T H E D I M EN S I O N OF REPRESSION I NTO P L A Y O N T H E LEVEL O F T H E T E X T ITSE1.F?

A N A LY S I S. T H E

F R E U D I A N T H EORY OF S E X U A LITY IN R E LATION TO ASK W H E TH E R PRE­

W A S D E V E LO P E D (MISE E N PLACE) WOM E N AND F E M I N I NI TY. WAS WE N OT CAN

I T IS T H I S P L E A S U R E O F THE JOKE THAT CAN B E EVOK E D I N R E LA T I O N TO A L L S U B L I M ATION. FO R I T I S A N O P E R AT I O N W H I C H C O N S I STS I N OPE N I NG U P N E W D I V I S I O N S A N D SPACES I N T H E M A T E R I A L THAT IT T R A N S FO R M S . IN THE TRANSFERENCE. THE

PSYCHOA N A LY S I S

A RT I C U L A T E D

C I S E L Y I N O R D E R T O R E P R E SS F E M I N I N I TY ( I N T H E S E N S E OF PRODUC I NG ITS S Y M BOLIC R E P R E S E NTA­ T I O N ) . AT THE S A M E T I M E . F R E U D'S R E S E R V ATIONS ABOUT JON E S WOU L D M A K E SENSE: T H E A TT E M PTS TO " M A K E" F E M I N I N I TY " S P E A K" W O U L D S U R E LY

PAT I E NrS ORGASM TOOK NOTE O F A N I NT E R P R ETA­ TION. S U R E LY T H I S OF AIR IS BEST R E P R E S E N T E D AS TWO A

J EOPARDIZE T H E V E R Y R E P R ESSION THAT F R E U D H A D K N O W N HOW TO A C H I E V E .

BREATH

B ETWE E N

SIGNIFI ERS.

S U D D E N LY O P E N E D U P B Y T H E M ETAPHOR?

LET U S RETU R N TO O U R E X A M PLE. W H A T PLEASU R E CAN THERE BE IN THE R E PRESSION THAT IS

T H E O R G A S M . LIKE A B U ST OF LAUGHTER. TESTI F I E S TO THE M E A N I NG-I N S I G N I F I C A NT-DF WE M U S T NOW OF " W I T" TRY TO IN THE A N A L­

PRODUCED AT T H E M O M E N T O F I NT E R P R ETATION? FI RST. LET U S S A Y THAT I N T E R PRETATION. A S I T IS A N A LYZED H E R E . DOES N OT CONSIST SO M UC H I N E X P LA I N I NG A N D COM M EN T I N G A S I N A RTICU LAT­ I N G . H E R E AGA I N . IT IS THE FORM OF WORDS W H I C H

YSrS WORD. THIS

R E D I SCOV E R AND

D I M E N SI O N

PLEAS U R E

JOUISSANCE.

PLEA S U R E A N D J O U I SSANCE

232

F E M I N I N E EROTIC PLEASURE VARI ES CONSIDE RAB­ LY IN ITS NATURE AND EFFECTS. THERE I S VARI ETY IN THE PLACES OF THE BODY CATH ECTED. IN THE LEVEL OF I NTENSITY. I N TH E OUTCOM E (ORGASM OR N OT > . AND IN THE E F F ECTS: A " S U CC E S S F U L"

TION.

DOES

NOT

THE

SUBLI MATED

SEX U A L

ACT

CONSTITUTE FOR THE WOM A N O N E OF THE WAYS O F PUTTING A N ECONOMY I NTO PLACE W H E R E : 1 . T H E S I G N I F I E R WOU LD BE ACTUALIZED I N THE RHYTH M . T H E PERIOD RETU RN O F THE P E N I S: 2. T H E STA K E WO ULD C O N S I ST O F T H E REPRESSED FEMININE

SEXUAL R E LATION CAN C A U S E C A L M OR A N X I ETY. LET US A LSO R E M E M B E R THAT A N E U ROSIS C A N N OT N ECESSARI LY BE I N F E R R E D FROM F R I G I D I TY; A N D T H AT. R E C I P R OC A L L Y . WOM EN PSYCHOTI C S I NTENSE AND VERY

DRIVES. ' o INSEPA RABLE F ROM T H E PENIS ITSELF; AND 3 . PLEASU R E WOULD BE THE M E A N I NG OF THE M ETAPHOR THROUGH WHICH THE PENIS "WOULD

I M MATU RE ORGA SMS.s

HAVE

VAG I N A L

REPRESS" T H E BODY. F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY.

LET HOW A R E WE TO M A K E S E N S E OF TH E E X U B E RANCE. THE BIZA R R E N ESS A N D THE PARADOXES OF THESE PLEA S U R ES? BY R E F E R R I NG LESS TO THE V A R I E ­ TIES OF FORM AND I N T E N S ITY THAN TO TH E I R

US

BE

MORE

PR ECISE:

THE

PEN IS.

ITS

THROBBING. ITS C A D E N C E A N D THE MOVE M E NTS O F LOVE- M A K I N G C O U L D B E PUR EST AND MOST SAID T O PRODUCE T H E FORM OF

E L E M E N TA R Y

SIGN I FY I N G A RTIC U LATION. THAT' O F A S E R I ES O F BLOWS W H I C H M A R K OUT THE SPACE OF TH E BODY.

FU NCTION I N T H E PSYC H IC ECONOMY. H E R E AGA I N . WE WILL D I ST I N G U I S H THE TWO T Y P E S AND OF SEXUAL SUBLI­

PLEAS U R E : MATED.

P R ECOC I O U S

THE

IT I S TH I S WHICH OPENS U P RHYTH M S A LL TH E MORE A M PLE AND I NTENSE. A JOUISSANCE ALL TH E MORE KEEN AND SERIOUS I N THAT THE P E N IS. THE OBJECT

THE FI RST WAS E A R L I E R SEEN TO BE T H E E FFECT OF THE EXPE R I E N C E OF ARCH A IC S E X U ALITY. EVEN I F IT I NVOLVES TWO PEOPLE. EVEN I F IT PRESENTS THE APPEARANCE OF AN A D ULT S E X U A LITY. OR RAISES TO IT

WHICH I S ITS I N STR U M E N T. IS SCA RC E LY A N YTH I NG.

BUT TO STATE TH I S I S TO STATE A PARADOX: THE PENIS PROD U C E S JOUISSANCE BECA U S E IT

M E R E LY

RE-ACTU A L IZES

THE

I N C A R N ATES A I M P LIES A

F I N I TU D E .

S U B L I M A TION A L W A Y S THE PHALLIC SIG­

H I G H EST PITCH I N ORGASM. THE JOUISSANCE THAT TH E WOM A N PLEA S U R E . FU RTH E R E R OTIC HAS OF H E RSELF. 9 I N THIS TYPE OF THE OTH E R'S LOOK A N D HIS C I RC U LA RITY THE DESIRE. OF THE

DE-IDEA LIZATION.

N I F I E R. DETAC H E D F R O M THE T E R R I FY I NG REPRE­ SENTATIONS OF T H E SUPE REGO WHICH RE VOLVE

R E I N FORCE

TH E

A ROU ND THE I M A G I N A R Y PHALLUS. M U ST APPEA R AS AN OBJ ECT O F NOT- M UCH- M E A N I NG. "

R E LA T I O N .

HENCE

A N X I ETY

THAT

A R I S E S B E FORE A N D AFTER T H E S E X U A L ACT. TH I S I N V E R S E LY. PLE A S U R E CAN B E STRUCTU R I NG I N ITS EFFECTS. THE SORT OF "G E N I US." O F I N S P I RATION WHICH TH E WOM A N D I SCOVERS AFTER LOVE. SHOWS THAT A N EVENT O F A N UNCONSCIOUS NATURE HAS OC C U R R E D. WHICH HAS E N A BL E D HER TO TAKE U P A C E RTA I N DI STA N C E F RO M T H E D A R K CONTI N E NT. STEP USUA LLY SUSPENDED D U R I NG CHI LD­ PLACE A FTER THE FI RST SEX U A L

HOOD.

TA KES

EXPER I E NCES OF A D U LTHOOD. IS IT A QUESTION OF U N CON S C I O U S GROUND CERTA I N HAS ETH I C PROCESSES? BEEN PROVI DED LIFE WORK. THE A

PREPARED. THIS

AND

U N DERTAKE

TO THE

EXTENT THAT ROMANTIC I D E A LIZATION IS SUCCESS­ FU LLY M O U R N E D ( R E L I N Q U I S H ED). TO THE EXTENT

WE WILL CALL S U B LI MATED PLEA S U R E THAT WHICH TA KES THE S A M E SURE WHILE FOR MS AS I N C ESTUOUS PLEA­ PRESU PPOS I NG AND

THAT THE D I M E N S ION OF THE G I FT PREDO M I NATES. THE PE N I S CAN OBJ ECTI FY. BY ITS VERY I N SIGN I F I ­ CANCE. THE " D I F F I C U LTY T O B E " OF T H E COU PLE. I N WHICH JOUISSANCE IS LOST. T H U S I T C A N NO

NON ETHELESS

CONFI R M I NG W O M E N ' S ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC. TH I S PLEASURE IS NO LON G E R DERIVED FROM

LONGER BE S E PA RATED I N ITS CONSISTENCY FROM THE MATE R I A L OF THIS HAS A R C H A IC. BEEN FEM I N I N E

FEM I N I N ITY AS SUCH. BUT FROM THE SIGNIFIER. MORE PRECI S E LY. FROM THE REPRESSION THAT IT BRINGS ABOUT: THIS IS WHY S U B L I M ATED PLEA S U R E IS

JOU I S S A N C E EMBODI ES RESTORES

WHICH

RENOUNCED. I T OF A SUDDEN

IT AS

LOST.

AND

ALL

I D ENTI FIED WITH THE PLEA S U R E DERIVED FROM THE JOKE.

IT A H U N D R E DFOLD. FOR IT DEPLOYS
T"'C'

TH IS JOUISSANCE IN DI R ECT PROPORTION TO FORGETTI NG. WHICH I S IN ITSELF I N FI N ITE.

SUCH A TRANSFORMATION ASSU M ES. ON THE ONE H A ND. THE FORGETTING OF PRECOCIOUS F E M I N I N ­ ITY. A N D ON TH E OTH E R . T H E SETTI NG I N PLACE OF A NEW REPRESE NTATI VE OR SIGN I F I E R OF CASTRATHUS. ETHICS I S I N D I SSOC I A B LE F ROM A 'CERTA I N ' RELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E DE-IDEA LIZATION THAT I T IMPLIES ALONE MAKES POS S I BLE TH E

233

OC C A S I O N A L C O M I N G TOGETH E R A N D B I N D I N G OF TWO P E RFECTLY THE D I ST I N C T . H E T E R OG E N E O U S SENSATION BODY IN A OF AN

JOUISSANCE

A N D THE

ORGASM

WHICH

IS

P RO­

D U C E D I N A S U B L I M A T E D ECONOMY. IN T H E FOR M E R . T H E R E S I D U E OF P L E A S U R E C O M E S T O A D E A D E N D . S I N C E TH E WOM A N A GA I N F I N DS H E RSELF POWER­ LESS TO M A I NTA I N T H E THIS FORM OF ORGA S M . UNCONSCIOUS ECONOMY. R E G I STERI NG PLE A S U R E BARS

SPACES.

V O L U PT U O U S THE WHOLE

A S P I R A T I ON

OF

SPAC E

A B SOLUTELY OTH E R A N D CONSEQU E NTLY. I N F I N ITE. C A N NOT S I M PLY B E E X P LA I N E D AS THE EFFECT OF THE PERCEPTION OF THE VAGI N A L C A VITY. IT

OUTS I D E

SIGNIFICANCE

(SIG NI FIANCE).

I M PL I E S THAT T H I S C A V I TY I S HOLLOWED OUT BY R E PRESSION. OP E R ATION. THAT IS TO SAY. BY A SYMBOLIC

ACCESS TO T H E S Y M BOLIC. S U B L I M ATION. O N T H E CONTR A R Y. T R A N S PO RTS N O T O N L Y P L E A S U R E B U T THE ORGASM I NTO M ETA P HOR. O R G A S M . E N D LESS­ LY R E N E W E D. AT B ROUGHT THE TO A OF W H I TE H EAT. IT

CONSEQUE NTLY.

PLEASURE.

FA R

FROM

BEING

EXPLODES BURSTS

M O M E NT

PLE A S U R E .

R E D U C E D T O T H E EXCITATION OF A N ORGAN. O N T H E C O N T R A RY. T R A N SPORTS THE WOM A N I N TO THE

I N T H E DOU B L E

SENSE O F THE

FRENCH

T E R M ECLATER: T H E S E N S E OF D E F LAGRATION A N D THAT O F A R E V E LATION. TH E R E I S T H E R E FORE A CONTI N U ITY OF THE A S C E N T OF P L E A S U R E A N D OF ITS A POG E E IN ORGASM: TH E ONE CARRIES THE

F I E L D OF T H E S IG N I F I E R. S U B L I M ATED PLEASURE. L I K E T H E DREAM AND HYPNONIS. L I K E THE POETIC ACT. M A RKS A M O M E N T W H E N THE U NCONSC IOUS

R E P R E S E NTATION T A K E S ON A N ABSOLUTE V A L U E : I N OTH E R WORDS. W H E N THE ACT OF A RTICULATING PRODUCES ON I TS OWN THE M E A N I NG OF DIS­

S I GN I FI E R T O ITS M A X I M U M I NC A N DESCENCE: T H E OTH E R M A R K S THE M O M E N T W H E N THE D I SCOURSE. IN EXPLODING COMES UNDER TO THE THE E FFECT OF OF ITS OWN OF

COU R S E . ( M E A N I NG NOT H I N G). SWEE P I NG A W A Y A L L SI G N I FICATION. I T L A Y S H O L D O F THE WOM A N A N D C A TC H E S RH Y T H M S . ' 2 HER IN ITS PROGRESSION AND ITS

FORCE .

POINT

B R E A K I NG.

COM I NG A PA RT. I T I S N O LONG E R A N YTH I NG.

TO

BREAK

ITSELF.

TO

D I SJOINT ITSELF. ITSELF

I N OTH E R A

WOR D S . FOR T H E M A N . E XC E PTIONS A S IDE. ' 3 T H I S TR A N S­ PORT A T I O N I N TO THE SIGNI FIER C A N NOT BE

TO

A RT I C U LA T E

THROUGH

M EA N I NG W H I C H E N D LESSLY ESCAPES. ORGASM I N DISCOURSE FEMI N I N E L E A DS US TO THE BE POI NT WHERE

PRODUCED I N S O V I O L E N T A N D R A D I C A L A WAY. I N FACT. HOW C O U L D H E A B A N DO N H I MSELF TO THAT WH I C H H E H I M S E L F CONTROLS. A N D FROM WHOSE PL A Y GAME HE GIVES JOUISSANCE. THE MOREOV E R . TH I S

JOUISSANCE C A N

U N D E RSTOOD A S

WRITING (ECRITURE). TO T H E POI NT W H E R E I T M U ST A PP E A R THAT T H I S J O U I S S A N C E A N D THE LITE R A R Y T E X T ( W H I C H I S A LSO W R ITTEN PRODUC E D FROM W I TH I N L I K E A N ORGASM A R E THE

(PLAY) AND

I NVOLVES A LSO

R I S K OF

DETU M ES­ A N X I ETY

DISCOURSE).

CENCE. 1 4

THE

V E R TIGO A N D

EFFECT O F T H E SAME M U R D E R O F T H E S I G N I F I E R .

A RO U S E D BY THE A B S O L UTE O F FEM I N I N E D E M A N D : T H E WOMA N E X PECTS A N D R E C E IVES A L L TH E R E I S O F T H E P E N I S AT T H E MOMENT OF LOVE I SN'T T H I S W H Y BATA I LLE. J A R R Y A N D JABES S P E A K OF W R I T I NG A S T H E J O U I SS A N C E O F A WOMA N7 A N D W H Y T H A T W H I C H S H E I S W R I T I N G I S T H E N A M E7'v

IF W E NO LON G E R C O N S I D E R WHAT I S PROPE R L Y CALLED PLE A S U RE. BUT THE ORGASM U S U A LLY

DESIGNATED A S "JO U I S S A NCE" BY THE A N A LYST. A S I M I LA R DISTINCTION M U ST BE MADE BETW E E N

M I C H E LE MONTRELA Y TRANSLATED BY PARVEEN ADA M S

NOTES

3

M A RGUERITE

DURAS.

LA RAVISSEMENT DE L O L V

STEIN. GA LLIMA RD. P. 54.
F. DOLTO. 'LA L I B I DO ET SON DESTIN FEMI N I N ,' LA

PSYCHANAL YSE. VI I . P U F.

4

P. KLOSSOWSKI. LES LOIS DE L·HOSPITALITE . P. 1 45.

W. GRANOFF AND F. PERRI ER. 'LE PROBLEME DE LA P E R V E RSION CHES LA FEMME ET LES IDEAUX

THE

'C H A N G E

OF

O B J E C T'

D E S I G NATES

THE

RENUNCIATION O F T H E FIRST LOVE OBJECT. THE MOTH ER. IN FAVO U R OF THE FATHER. ON T H I S

FEM I N I NS: LA PSYCHANALYSE. V I I . T H I S ARTICLE I S ESSENTIA L FOR THEORETICAL WORK O N FEM I N I N E SEXUALITY.

PROBLEM. CF J. LUQUET-PARAT. ' L E CHANGEMENT O·OBJET.

234

6

O P CIT,

p, 1 92

SEEN.

P R E S U P POSES WOM A N

AN PUTS

ECONOMY HERSELF

OF AT

DES I R E STA K E

WHERE THE

7

A

P R O POS

OF

M ETA P H O R , L.ETTER IN

CF THE

J,

L.AC A N ,

'THE

(ENJEU).

AGENCY OF THE ECRITS, A

UNCONSCIOUS: A, S H E R I DA N ) .

S E L EC T I O N

(TRANS,

'3

EXCEPT IN THE CASE OF ACTU A L. HOMOSEXUALITY. HOWEVER, W E MUST B E CAREFUL NOT TO SET UP TOO C L EA R - C U T A D I STINCTION B ET W E E N THE

T A V I S TO C K ,

1 9 7 7 A N D ' L. E S F O R M A T I O N S D E 1 9 !5 6-!57), O N PL.EASURE

L'INCONSCI E NT: S E M I N A I R E

BY THE SAME A UTHOR: 'PROPOS D I R ECTIFS POUR UN CONGRES S E U I L. , SUR LA S E X U A L.ITE IN F E M I N I NE: I N P R E P A R ATION, OF �ACQUES

SEXUALITY OF THE M A N A N D THAT O F T H E WOM A N , W I T HO U T P R E TE N D I N G TO S ETTLE THE WHOLE

ECRI TS, FEM I N I N E

( T R A N S L.ATION IN THE

PROBLEM OF BISEXUA L.ITY H E R E , L.ET U S ONL.Y SAY THAT EVERY MASC U L I N E SUBJ ECT I S CATHECTED AS THE OB�ECT A N D PRODUCT OF HIS MOTHE R : HE WAS 'PART OF THE MATERNAL. BODY. I N R E LATION

SEXUA LITY

SCHOOL

LACAN, J, ROSE AND J . M ITCHE L.L. M A C M I L.LAN.)

8

C F F, DOLTO, O P CIT.

TO

TH E

M A SC U L I N E THEN.

BODY

AND

U N C O N SC I O U S OF

C A TH E X I S

ONE

C O U L. D A L. S O S P E A K

9

CF

p, A U LA G N I E R . LE D ES I R ET LA PERVERSION. SEUIL..

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'0

DRIVES

REPRESSED

BOTH

IN

THE

COURSE

OF

THE MAL.E SUBJECT TO THE EXTENT THAT. PUTTI NG I NTO PLAY THE REPR ESSION OF F E M I N I NITY, HE

EARL.I E R O E D I P A L. E X P E R I ENC ES,

AS W E L. L. AS IN

THE PRESENT, BY THE V E R Y FACT OF THE PRESENCE OF T H E PENIS.

WOUL.D PRODUCE EACH T I M E T H E COUPURE WHICH SEPARATES ' R E TU R N I NG' THE TO M A N FROM HER THE HIS MOTH ER, WHILE HIS

F EM I N I N ITY

OF

"

T H I S PARAGRA PH A N D THE FOL.L.OWING ONE WERE ADDEO TO THE E A R L I E R C RITIQ U E ARTICLE I N IT WAS NECESSARY ONL.Y TO C L.EA R UP A

PARTNER.

1 976,

M ISUNDER­

'4

O N THE QUESTION O F DETUMESCENCE CF LACAN, SEMINAIRE

STA N D I NG, SIGNIFIER R E L. A T I N G

SOMEONE

WHO

I DE A L.IZES THE THE FACT OF OF

1 9 67-68. S E E ALSO 'THE SIGNI FICATION

C O U L. D

INTERPRET TO AN

OF TH E PHA L.LUS: ECRITS A SELECTION, TAVISTOCK AND 'PROPOS DERECTI FS PUR U N CONGRES SUR LA SEXUALITE F E M I N I N E : ECRITS, S E U I L. .

� O U I SS A N C E

O P E R A TI O N

SUBLI MATION A N D TO T H E PUTTING I NTO PLAY OF T H E ' S I G N I F I E R' A S 'FRENZIED I D EA L. I ZATION' (C,

DAVID), I TA K E A S A T R I BUTE-NO DOUBT I N VOL.UN­ TARY-WHAT SOMEONE EXCL.A I M E D

A PROPOS O F

TRANSLATOR'S NOTES

T H I S A RTICL.E, ' S O T H E � O U I SSANCE OF T H E WOMAN IS PRODUCED B Y T H E OPERATIONS O F THE HOL.Y GHOST!' IT CAN H A P P E N I THE A RTICLE LA OF LA FEM I N ITE IS ITALICIZED IN THE FRENCH: C F J. LACAN, 'DI EU ET LA JOUISSANCE DE FEMME' I N SEMINAIRE XX.

'2

IF

THE

WOM A N .

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THE

M O M E N T OF

ORGAS M , I N 'WOMA N L I N ESS A S A MASQU E R ADE' IN PSYCHO· ANALYSIS AND FEMALE SEXUALITY, EO. H E N R I C K M,

IDENTIFIES H E RS E L F R A DICAL.LY WITH A N UNCON­ SC IOUS R E P R E S E NTATION, A RT I C ULATED BY THE

OTH ER, THEN DOES S H E NOT FINO HERSEL.F AGA I N PRECIS EL.Y I N T H E A R C H A IC SITUATION W H E R E T H E MATERNAL R EPRESENTATION WAS THE S O L. E

R UITENBEEK, NEW HAVEN, USA,

1 9 66.

"'

I N THE EARL.IER VERSIQN OF THIS ARTICLE WHICH A PPEARED I N CRITIQUE

ORGA NIZER O F PHA NTASY? ISN'T THE ORGASM. B Y T H I S FACT, A 'REGRESSIVE' PROCESS F O R H E R ? T H E R E P L. Y COULD BE IN THE A F F I R M ATIVE FOR

278 T H I S S E NTENCE E N DS

WITH 'SINCE IT CONSISTS IN CONFRONTING DES I R E W I T H A BODILY L.ACK ( W H I C H I S C A R N A L.):

ORGASMS OF T H E PSYCHOTIC OR N E U ROTIC (ACUTE HYSTERIA) TYPE, IN THESE CASES. PL.EASURE A N D ORGASM A R E NOTH I N G M O R E T H A N T H E M A N I FES­ TATION DIRECT OF, A MO N G OF OTH E R TH E THE T H I NGS. BY A THE SORT OF

,v

DI RECTOR C A R L. D R EYER. MADE IN

1 943,

v

THE

FRENCH

GIVES

D E FO U L E M E N T

WHICH

IS

A

SEIZURE

WOMAN

OTH ER'S ON THE THIS

D I R ECT I N VERS ION/P U N ON THE FRENCH WORD FOR REPRESSION: REFOU LEM ENT.

DISCOURSE, C ON T R A R Y , R E L.ATION IS

FOR

WOMAN, HER

WHO,

ASSUMES I N D I RECT

CASTRATION,

IT

PASSES OF

THROUGH T H E M A T E R N A L. HAVE

v,

NOM

PUNS ON

THE

FRENCH

NEGATIVE

NON

AND

( P A T E R N A L.) D I SCOU R S E . A

M ET A P H O R METAPHOR

THE

ALSO R E F E R S T O L E NOM D U P E R E (NAM E-QF-THE­ FATHER).

WHICH.

A S WE

2 S !5

FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOU RSE JACQUES H E N RIC:
ROLA N D BARTHES, IT
H IM S E L F S E U I Ll -BY T H E PARAOOX. W H E N A S ET OF

S E E M S T O M E THAT S I N C E

DEGREE ZERO OF
W I TH EACH

POS ITIONS TUTE TRUE, A

SEEMS

TO

CONSOLI DATE,

TO CONSTI­ THEN I T'S

W R I T I N G , M YT H O L O G I ES

AND

D E F I NITE

S OC I A L

SITUATION.

FOLLOW I NG BOOK I T H A S B E E N L E S S A N D L E S S E A S Y T O LOCA LI ZE YOU A S A WRITER. HOW, LOOKING BACK ON YOU R PAST WORK, DO YOU S I TU ATE YOU RSELF I N T H E H I STORY OF THOUGHT OF TH ESE LAST YEA RS? A N D TODAY , WHAT PLACE DO YOU FEEL YOU

SPONTA N EOUSLY AND

WITHOUT T H I N K I NG I

WANT TO OPT OUT. IN THAT I CON S I D E R MYSELF A N I NT E L L E C T U A L, I N T E L L EC T U A L SINCE IS THE FUNCTION OF THE

A LW A Y S T O O PT

OUT

WHEN

T H I N G S "BEG I N T O J E LL." A S TO T H E S ECOND PART OF YOUR QUESTION. HOW DO I SITUATE MYSELF NOW. I OON'T S E E MYSELF AT A L L A S SOM EO N E WHO I S TRYING TO BE A LW A Y S TRIES O R I G I N A L, TO BUT A S SOMEONE WHO UP FOR A C E RT A I N

OCCU PY I N T H E DISCUSS ION OF C U R R ENT I DEAS?

SPEAK IS

ROLAND BARTHES: I N THE FRAGM ENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOURSE,

M A R G I N A LITY.

WHAT

M O R E C O M P L I C A T E D TO

OF

A

D I SC O U R S E , WITH A

TH E R E

IS

AS

IT

EXPLA I N IS THAT I N MY C A S E TH E R E IS N E V E R A N Y GLORY I N TH E C LA I M TO B E M A RG I N A L. I T I S OON E G E N T LY IF POS S I B L E . A M A R G I N A LITY THAT

HAPPENS

A

FIGURE

GREEK

NAME,

TH E

ADJECTIVE A P P L I E D TO SOCRATES. SOCRATES WAS SA I D TO BE ATOPOS, THAT I S TO SAY "WITHOUT A PLACE , " UNCLASSIFIABLE. IT IS AN A DJ ECTI V E
I

P R E S E R V E S A SPECTS O F COU RTESY, TO T E N D E R ­ N E SS-WHY Non-A N D O N E YOU CA N'T PUT A TAG TO IN THE P R E S E N T C U R R EN T OF I DEAS.

U S U A LLY APPLY TO TH E BELOVED, SO THAT AS T H E SU PPOSE D LOV E R I N THE B OO K I DON'T S E E MYSELF AS ATOPOS, BUT ON TH E CONTRARY AS SOMEONE E XT R E M E LY B A N A l.., WITH A W E LL- K N O W N CASE

J. H.:
AND

WITH YOU THERE OFTEN S E E M S TO BE, QUITE E X P L I C I T LY, A DO U B L E AND

H ISTORY. W I THOUT TA K I N G SI DES O N W H ETH E R O R NOT I AM UNCLASSIFIA BLE. I M U ST A D M I T T H A T I IN FITS A N D STARTS, BY

CONTR A D I CTORY ATTITUDE. O N O N E H A N D YOU SHOW YOU R I NTER EST TO FO R TH E IN

H A V E A LWAYS WORK E D PHASES, TOU CH E D

MODERNS

( I NTRODUCTION

BRECHT .
. .

MOTORIZED SO TO S PEAK-SOMETH I NG I ON IN TH E
R.B. (ROLA N D BARTH ES BY

F R A N C E , TH E N EW NOVEL, TH E OT H E R HAND YOU

TEL QUEL
LIKE

) ON

RECALLING

236

S T E R EO­ R E M A I N E D C L A N D E ST I N E . WHICH PLACE. Irs TRUE. OF THE NOVEL D I M E N SIONS I MAGI NARY W H I C H E X I ST E D I N R E A D A B L E LITERA­ TURE. I HAD A S E M I N A R AT THE ECOLE DES HAUTES ETUDES.: THAT M EA N S GIVING A BRIEF ACCOUNT OF THE PROJECrS BACKGROU ND. TH EORY IS NOT FAR OFF. NOTION COURSE A N D THE BREAKS AWAY DISCURSIVE. OF D I S­ R E LA T I ON S H I P STO R Y AND I M AG E . B U T LITTLE B Y L I TT L E I T BECO M E S BURDENSOME. AND I T WAS O N L Y WITH T H E PREASURE OF THE TEXT T H A T I C A M E OUT I NTO TH E OPEN. V A L U E S. FOR E X A M PLE. M A K I N G I T C L E A R F R O M TH E START T H A T T H E LOVE R S I INTENDED D I S I N H E R I T E D.: FOR THE S U BJ E C T OF THE I M AGI N A RY . T H E I M AG I N A RY S U B J ECT IS A POOR R E LATION OF THOSE STRUCTU R E S BECAUSE HE IS NEITHER A LTOG E T H E R N E U ROTIC. YOU PSYCHOTIC. W H AT I S T H E COH E R E N C E T H A T U N D E R LI ES TH E S E ATTI T U D E S ? R.: I S N'T IT SOMEWHAT P R OVOCATI V E TO S P E A K ABOUT "LOVE" TODAY I N TH E T E R M S OF Y E STE R DA Y . BUT I DON'T FEEL M Y B E H A V I O U R IS CLASSICS. TI M E THE CONTRADICTION G U AGES. AND YOU K N OW W E A RE A C E R TA I N NUMBER WO R K I N G OF ON R ES E A R C H THE WO R K E R S . RECOG N I Z I N G I N M Y S E L F A N D M A KING THE READER R EC O G N I Z E . S I M PLY THAT I H A V E . T H I NG S HAVE N O T A LW A Y S BEEN SO A V A N T. LONG WITH VARIOUS MODERN A QU ESTION OF TACTICS. LA NGUAGE. AND FOR A LONG TI M E I F E LT MYSELF A LMOST J. SO I DEC I D E D TO HOLD A B Y M I LITATING 237 . A FORM WITH OF A TO M O R ROW'S I DO N ' T K N O W I F T H E R E I S A N U N D E RLYING COH E R ENCE. I HAVE A L I V I NG R E LATION S H I P WITH T H E LITERA­ TITLE? T U R E OF T H E PAST B E C A U S E I T PROV I D E S M E WITH IMAGES AND E S TA B L I S H E S WITH THE ARE FOR ME A GOOD R. B. A TASTE AS FOR THE TYPED LANGUAGES TYPES OF T H E NON-STEREOTYPE. WE CALL THE I M AG I N A RY-AND I ANY M I S U N D E RSTA N DI NG ON THE PART OF WOU LD YOU E X P LA I N THE CON S I D E R M YS E L F A S U BJ ECT OF T H E I MA G I N A RY. OR WHAT I WOU LD C A L L -S I N C E I'M FOND OF S T R UCTU R A L I S M TO D E FE N D T H E D E F I N I N G TH I NG S IN TERMS O F CON D UCT RATH E R T H A N TASTE-MY E V E N I NG R E A D I NG (WHAT I R E A D IN THE EVENI NG) WHICH ARE A LW A Y S THE S U R E OF TH E TEXT"? R. AT F I RST T H E R E'S A KIND OF LITERATURE OF THE HAPPENS WHEN ONE THEN.: LET'S GO BACK TO FRAGM ENTS OF A MY LOVE R . SINCE LAC A N . I MAKE USE OF TWO A R G U M E NT S : ADVANCES FI R S T O F A A SPIRAL EXTRICATE M Y S E LF. PSYC H I C OTH E R S CRUSHED B Y T H O S E TWO G R E A T MORE THAN ATTENTION AND ANY OF S T R U CT U R E S HAVE WHICH A R R ES T E D THE MODE R N I TY. H I ST O R Y IN COURAGE TO BREAK WITH SUCH LANGUAGES. A N D I MORE OR LESS T R Y TO THEORIZE M Y TASTE FOR THE PAST. IF YOU W I L L TO AVOID DEVELOPS P R I N C I PALLY I N T H E R EG I STER O F W H AT. NA M E LY N E UROSIS PSYCHOSIS. VERY IS MODERN T H E S E C O N D A R G U M ENT WORK ON THE A SSOCIATED THE LOV E R J. B. ROM A NTIC LOVE. BUT OBVIOUSLY T H E Y DON'T RETURN TO T H E S A M E PLACE. I C A N HEAR T H E M T A K I NG FO R M . THERE ARE TASTES. PAST "WRITI NGS" BUT TO FROM A THE TH E ARCH ETYP E OF PASSIONATE LOV E CAN RETU R N .Y O U R TASTE FOR T R A D I TI O N A L LITE RATU R E . I CAN PROVIDE M Y S E L F WITH AN A L I B I FOR WORK THAT I S SOMEWHAT AHEAD OF ITS TI M E.G A R D E P E R H A PS . ' " C L E A R TO ME AS YOU M A K E T H E M SOUN D NOW. A KIND OF P R O FO U N D D I FFIC ULTY I N PUTTI N G U P WITH T H E STER EOTY PE. BY R ECOG N I Z I N G MY ATTAC H M E N T TO SUCH LITER ATU R E I AGITATE IN FAVOUR OF THE SUBJECT IN SO FAR AS THIS S U BJ E C T IS IN A SENSE E S S A Y I STS. O N T H E THEORETICAL AND C RITICAL FOR A L E V E L. WITH CON S E Q U E N T L Y M A N N E RS. T H E STU DENT S P H E R E . O L D T H I NGS RETURN. H. THAT NOTION WH ICH OF FROM OF TONG UE. T H E N A P P E O F LA NGUAGE I S A N OBJECT OF A N A LYSIS. I N THE E N D OFTEN BEC A U S E OF AN INCIDENT I N MY PERSONAL LIFE. A LW A Y S A D M I T S T O A T A S T E FOR PLEASURE I N I T . I T I S THE DISCURSIVE I N A V E R Y W I D E S E N S E : THE DISCURSIVE. Irs VERY EASY FOR ME TO DETECT THOSE STER EO­ OF M A RG I N A L I TY. B U T Irs REALLY T H E CRUX OF THE M A TT E R . AND AT T H E H E IGHT O F "PLEA­ S H A M E FU LLY TOR N B E TW E E N S O M E O F M Y TASTES. A L I TT L E OVER TWO Y E A R S AGO I S A I D TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD STUDY A CERTA I N TYPE O F D I SCOURSE: W H A T I P R E S U M E D T O BE THE A M OROUS DISCOU RSE. W I T H O U T A N Y K I N D O F H Y POC R I SY. LOVER'S D I SCOURSE THE READER. SO FA M I LI A R TO ME THROUG H MY WORK I N A PARTIC U L A R S P H E R E. THE E LA BORATION OF LITTLE COLLECT I V E LAN­ WORKS. A N D M Y WORK D U R I NG T H E DAY W H E N . B. TOUCH OF H U M O U R NATURA LLY. I F E E L M Y S E L F V E R Y M U C H I N T U N E. FOR A WHILE I DON'T DARE SOMETH I NG . I FIND THE M ET A P H O R . AS YOU SO WELL PUT IT. P A ST. SEE. ACCO R D I NG TO VICO'S I M AG E . H.: NO DOUBT. NOR A LTOG ETH E R D I SC R ETELY S H O U L D B E LONG T O W H A T I S C A L L E D PASSION ATE LOVE.

B E C A U S E T H A T WOU LD H A V E BEEN A KIND OF LIE VERY W R I TT E N " BEGIN­ (f W A SN'T A I M ING EITHER AT A N I NG S . I TH E N C H O S E A S U P PORTING A M OROUS WORK D I SCOU R S E BUT THE TEXT A N D A N A LYSED THE IN THAT WORK.SEMINAR WHICH WOULD BE THE OBJ ECTI VE J. W A S NOT TO W R I T E A T R E A T I S E O N T H E A M O ROUS D I SC O U R S E . I H A V E R E S PECTED T H E R A D I C A L D I SCONTI N U I TY OF T H I S STO R M OF LA N G U A G E R A G I N G IN TH E H E A D OF T H E LOV E R . B. SOME E L E M E NTS I'LL B E Q U I TE F R A N K A BOUT I T . W H Y DO E S N 'T H E CONTI N U E? W H Y NOT A R E A L N O V E L? A R E A L A UTOBIOG R A PHY? G E N E RA LITY O F T H E SC I E NT I F I C K I N D ) . B . ARE A LSO WHAT HAS BLANCE THAT M Y CONVICTION STO R Y . BUTTERFLY THEY ARE E P I SO D E S IN OF LANGUAGE THE ENA­ M O D I F I E D H I M CON S I D E R A B LY." WHO I S T H E R E FORE I N D I V I DU A L I Z E D AT T H E TION: BUT IT IS L E V E L OF T H E E N U N C I A ­ A C O M POS E D LIKE. WHO I AM NEVERTHE LESS OR (AS IF A D I SCOU R S E . BUT WHERE THIS OF COURSE. OF "CUTS" YOU FILM P E RS U A D E D T H AT LOV E R SUFFERS PUT R E C E I V E S N O B E N E F I T FROM T H E R ECON C I L IA T I O N . WHO SAYS "I" IN THESE A N A LY S I S O F A TYPE O F T H E DISC U RS I V E . HON EST C O U R S E . BUT D U R I N G THE TWO Y E A R S OF THE S E M I N A R I BECA M E A W A R E OF A D O U B L E MOV E M E N T. NOT TH E IT FRAG M ENTS? R. I F YOU WILL A L LO W TH E C O M P A R I SO N THAN TH AT'S WHICH IS P E R H A PS A ITSELF. C E RTA I N "FRAG M E NTS" A R E R E A LLY T H E BEGI N N I NGS OF STO R I E S . D I SCONTI N UOUS. T H E S T O R Y B EG I N S T O TAKE S H A PE A N D I S I M M E D I A T E LY I NT E R R U PTED. UNDER THE THOSE ONLY CONDI­ J." FOR A DO PTING A M ETHOD OF " D R A MATIZATION.: T H A T'S T R U E. THEY ARE V E R Y M U C H A PART O F T H I S BOOK. N I ETZSCHE'S I N FLUENCE. A MOROUS D I SCOURSE. MAKES TEXT SOM E W H A T R O M A N T I C . H. A N D E N D. I T IS NO M O R E M E . I ' D SAY. ST E N D H A L WHAT D I R ECTI N G THE F I G U R E S. A M IS S E D R E N DEZ-VOUS. O F F R E E I NG ME FROM T H E M ETA LANGUAGE. CON F I D E D . B Y M A K I NG U P A STO R Y FO R HIMSELF IN WHICH THE HE PUTS H I M S ELF. M Y S E L F. I EVEN R E A C H E D THE POI N T O F CONFUS­ ING F I G U R E S FROM M Y OWN LIFE WITH THE F I G U R E S O F W E RT H E R . OTH E R S MY FROM GOETHE'S WERTH E R . AND AT T H A T D I SCOURSE E X P L I C I T A N D P U R POSELY D E S I G N E D: IT I S NOT A BOOK ON M O M E N T T H O S E SORT OF S C R A P S OF MONOLOG U E A R E B R O K E N A N D W E P A S S TO A NOTH E R F I G U R E. N A T U R A L LY ON THAT POINT I COULD B E C O R N E R E D I NTO S A Y I N G T H A T I T W A S M E. THE IT I S THE IS NOT D ISCOURSE OF A LOV E R . H. FLUTTE R I NG MOU R E D ROU N D THE HEAD OF LOV E R . THE R E S U LT T H E N I S T H E D I SC O U R S E O F A SUBJ ECT WHO SAYS "I. WAS EVEN IF I BOOK I S C O NC E R N E D.: TO YOU I CAN S A Y A N D YOU W I LL U N DE RSTA N D . WHICH INTERVENE. . IT IS WHY I CUT UP THE W H O L E I NTO THE A MOROUS D I SC O U R S E . OR FROM C U LT U R A L F R AG M E N T S A R R A N G E D IN A L P H ABETIC A L O R D E R . IS A B EG I N N I N G . I N A N Y C A S E TH E R E LATION­ SHIP B E TW E E N THE AUTHOR AND THE STAG E C H A R A C T E R HE D I R ECTS IS OF THE T Y P E I N FICTION. I S TH E W A Y SOC I ETY P ROPOSES THAT T H E LOV E R S H O U L D R ECONC I LE H I M S E L F W I T H T H E LA N G U A G E OF T H E G R EAT O R P H E U S . I T IS. A N U N B E A R A B ­ LY LONG W A I T. BUT ON THE CONTRARY. I H A V E OFTEN WON D E R E D CESSFUL." W H I C H HAD F O R M E THE E P I ST E M O LOG I C A L A DVA NTAGE V I S IO N . R E A D I NG THESE "WELL V E RY SUC­ TIONS. STEM FROM ME. THE TITLE IS QUITE SOM E H A P P E N I NG.: EVEN SO. J E A LO U S Y . ANY RESEM­ IS A R E A D I NGS O F THE M YSTICS. F I RST OF ALL I NOTI C E D THAT I WAS PROJ ECTI NG OR MYSELF MY LI FE IN T E R M S OF MY PAST C E RTA I N OF THE EXPERI ENCE I N TO I N FA T U A T I O N . W A S W E R T H E R B Y GOETHE. H E WHO S A Y S " I " I N T H E BOOK I S T H E "I" O F W R I T I NG. B EC A U S E OF A DOCT R I N E . WHICH TH E WELL-MADE LOVE COME FROM F R I E N DS. D I SC O U R S E TOG ETH E R ) . S I M ULATED A D I SC O U R S E W H I C H IS THE OF A LO V E R . W H I C H I S THE VE RITABLE A R C H ETYPE OF PASSIONATE LOVE . W H E N P A S S I N G FROM S E M I N A R T O BOOK . WITH BEEN CONVERSATIONS. SECOND D I S CO V E R Y : THE LISTEN E R S OF THE S E M I N A R PROJECTED T H E M S E LVES V E R Y STRONG­ LY I NTO I WHAT SAID WAS TO S A I D. S I M U LATED. I H A V E BEEN P LA Y I N G WITH T H E I DE A FOR A LONG TI M E NOW. 5 0 ! MADE UP. . APPRECIABLE A T T H A T T I M E . TO W R I T E THE D I SCOU R S E OF A LOV E R . A N D A C R I S I S IN T H E M I D D L E . T H E V I S I ON I H A V E O F T H E A MO R O U S D I SCOU R S E IS ESSENTI A L­ LY A F R AG M E NT A R Y . AFTER THE AND P A S SIONATE AND THESE BE­ OF PLEAS U R E OF T H E T E XT I COU L D NO LONGE R E P I SO D E S CA USE OF ARE B R U S Q U E LY I N T E R R U PT E D BECAU S E B E A R A N Y " D I S S E RTATION" O N T H E SUBJ ECT. S O I ' L L R E PLY WITH T H E C A N N I N ES S O F A NOR M A N AND S A Y I T I S ME AND IT I S NOT M E . IF THE STORY N E V E R J E LLS. O F PHYCHOA N A LYSIS. R . : O N E D A Y P E R H A PS . PARTI C U LA R LY ALL T H A T N I ETZSC H E S A Y S A BOUT T H E N E E D F O R " D R A M ATIZI NG. CHARACTER. TO THERE M E. OF N I ETZSC H E . A N D T H A T P A R A DO X I C A LLY ENOUGH H E I S N O T I N 2 3B . AT A L L C O STS WITH A I W A NTED TO AVOI D L O V E STORY. LO V E R N EC E S S A R I LY M E .

I N OTH E R A N A LYSTS. B E LO N G I N G TO WHICH HE APPLIES TO H I MSELF IN A P R I M I TIVE FASHION. E N AMORATION. TO C R EATE. AND WHICH THE BOOKS VO UCH 50 T H E R E LATION I HAVE IN T H I S BOOK WITH PSYCHOAN A LYSIS IS V E R Y A M B IGUOUS: M AKES USE ITS A R E LATION W H I C H . LET U S SAY. ONE. H. W I T H T H E N . IT DOES THE A LSO S P E A K IN TH E BOOK). N O T FOR DI SCOU R S E I S FAR M O R E KITSCH T H A N A BOOK O N D R UGS. I J. S E PA­ A MOROUS SENTI M E N T I S F A R TIVE. F O R E X A M PLE. O R TO PAI NT. E Q U I V A L E N T TO AT FI RST AN LOVE S I G HT." ETC . THE D R I V E THE LOVE R SO OFTEN FEELS IT SEEMS. IT SEEKS MORE THE D E M ONSTRA­ ESSENTIAL LOVE" FROM "LOVI NG. : I T S TR U E T H A T I N M Y BOOK T H E R E I S W H A T I M IGHT T E R M AN " I N T E R E STING" R ELATION WITH T H E PSYC H O A N A LYTIC R E L A TI O N SEMINAR DI SCOURSE BECAUSE T H I S J . TO HE A 15 I N SOM ETH I N G W H I C H 1 5 STATE OF FOLLY. A IN I N VITING LOV E R TO C E RTA I N N O R M A L I TY. AT THAT MOM ENT OFF THE THE LO V E R CAN ONLY CUT DIS­ G E R M A N ROM A N T I C I S M AND NOTA BLY IN T H E LIEDER OF SC H U B E RT AND SC H U M A N N ( ABOUT WHICH I H I MSELF FROM PSYCHOA N A LYTIC COURSE. REASON A B LY. H . OF T H E D E SC R I PTIONS. PSYC H O A N A LY S I S A DESC R I PTION HAS THE LEAST ATT E M P T E D OF A MOROUS STATE. A M ONG THE MAJOR AT LAN­ LOV E R TE LLS H I M S E LF. A S IN R E A D I NG YOU . O F THE M A R R I E D C O U P L E EVEN . ITS SOM ETH I N G THE E V O LV E D C O N C U R R E N T L Y W I T H T H E YOU KNOW V E R Y W E L L A N D T H E BOOK. T H E OTH E R TYPE DOES N O T E X I ST I N F R E N C H LITE RA­ TURE BUT H A S BEEN A D M I R A BLY P R ESENTED BY A F F I R M ATION O F A V A L U E . OR TO W R ITE FOR THE B E LO V E D . BUT AS T H E S I M ULATED D I SCOU R S E O F THE LO V E R A D V A N C E D. TION.THE LOVE STORY. THEY WERE :' TO P I C A L ' T H E Y : ATTRACTED M E BY TH E I R EXTR E M E PERTI N E N C E ." TO "LOVE FULFI L L M EN T .: N E V E R . . : WHAT 00 YOU M E A N WHEN YOU W R I TE: "I INCLUDE T H E M I N T H E BOOK BECAUSE THE LOV E R I PRESENT A M ON THE SIDE OF THE W R ITI NG. 15. F I G U R E THEN I S T H E MOTH E R . AND T R A N S­ A N A LYTIC I D E A S BUT WHICH USES THEM L I K E T H E E L E M ENTS OF FICTION. BEW ITCH M E NT: FOR A LONG TI M E I H E S I TATED. AS A LW A Y S . EVEN THAT I C A N 'T S W E A R T O IT B E I N G CH RONOLOGICALLY A F I RST F I G U R E B E C A U S E ITS QUITE POS S I B L E THAT LOVE A T F I RST SIGHT O N LY FU NCTIO N S IN R ETROSP ECT. H A V E I H A D SO ST R O N G L Y THE IMPRESSION THAT MARGINAL BOOK AMOROUS 239 ." 15 A SUBJ ECT WITH THE C U LT U R E OF TODAY. M UC H CLOS E R NOTH I N G 00 W E S P E A K OF "MOON STR U C K LOVERS": FROM THE LOV E R'S POINT O F VIEW T H E STORY 15 I M POSSIBLE. F O R ALTHOUGH EFFECTI V E LY IT S P E A K S OF THE A MOROUS S T A T E: . P A R A NOIC. . B. A D A S H OF PSCYHO A N A LY S I S R. LOVE A S A N O R D E R O F A F F I R M A T I V E V A L U E S R E S I STANT T O A LL ATTACK.: I S N'T IT A FOR M OF A U DAC I TY TO S P E A K A S YOU 00 A B O U T LOVE. 50. I TRY TO EXPRESS THE P ROFOU N D PESSI M I S M O N E C A N H A V E I N T H A T R E S PECT SINCE THE LOVER'S D I SCOU R S E C A N N OT B E C O M E WRITING W I T H O U T E N O R M O U S J E TTI S O N I N G S FO R M ATIONS. SO AT EACH TU R N I TRIED TO BREAK TH E B U I LD-UP O F T H E STO R Y . I W A S O B L I G E D TO M A K E U S E OF THOSE TO WRITE FOR T H E B E LOVED D E S C R I PT I O N S . ITS A D I SCONTI N UOUS BOOK W H I C H PROTESTS I N A SMALL W A Y AGA I N ST THE LOVE STORY. I N LAC A N . T H A T I F O N E E XA M I N ES C U LTURE TODAY-IT I S A L S O ONE O F T H E T H E M E S OF THE BOOK-TH E R E I S N O O N E M A J O R L A N G U A G E WHICH T A K E S I N C H A R G E THE AMOROUS STATE. H.: F I R ST A D I G R ESSION: I R E A L I Z E D THERE W E R E TWO TYPES OF LOV E R S . THE T E M PTATIO N . . T H I S TYPE OF LOV E R IS NOT C E N T E R E D ON EXCLUDE D FROM J E A LOUSY: J E A LO U S Y 15 NOT PASSIONATE LOV E BUT THE 50 IN A TO DEROGATO R Y R E I NTEGRATE RATE " B E I NG FASHION. T H E Y E X I ST I N F R E UD. HENCE DECI SION THAT FOR M E TO P U B L I S H TH I S BOOK W A S IN A C E RTA I N WAY TO SPEAK UP FOR A BY M A R G I N A L I TY NOT ON EVEN THE WHICH IN W R I T I NG A S M O R A L ITY TO D A Y 15 R E I N FO R C E D FASHION. T H E J E A LO U S LOV E R . GUAGES. I HAVE TH E IS PROFOUN D CONVICTION THE THAT THE LOVE R M A RG I N A L. . A T O N E MOMENT I EVEN THOUGHT OF PLAC I N G A FIGU RE I N IT I A L AT TH E FO U N DA ­ R. W H I C H A R E NOT NECESS A R I LY C R E D I BLE. B . . OF PSYCHO­ R A TH E R FOR. I N F A C E OF T H E I NVAS I V E PSYC H O A N A LYT I C D I SCOU R S E ? B EG I N N I NG. O N E OF T H E FIGURES I N M Y BOOK D E A LS P R E C I S E LY WITH T H E LONGI NG. TH E N I S A I D N O . A BEING J. THERE I S A N OR M A LITY OF THE AMOROUS STATE IN PSYCHOA NA LYSIS W H I C H 1 5 I N FACT T H E R E V I N DICATION O F T H E COUPLE. IT DEVELOPED AS THE FRENCH LITERATU R E . FROM R A C I N E TO PROUST.

" W H IC H S ETS OUT TO E X P LORE TH E UTO P I A OF C E RT A I N S M A LL G ROU PS. ' SORT OF MORA L CODE. WHICH I S TO SAY THAT Irs NOT A VERY LYRIC TEXT. IT I S A DOU BLE. BUT I AM NOT C L E A R A BOUT IT AT A L L. BECA U S E THE OF ITS S U BJECT. I W A S CONSCIOUS TO WHAT A POI NT SYNTAX COULD PROTECT TH E ONE WHO WAS S P E A K I N G . MORE MAJOR L l TOT I C .W R I T I NG IS FU N D A M E NT A L L Y A QU ESTION OF ETH I C S . MORE OF E L L I PTIC.4. . THE COU R S E ON TH E I DEA OF 1 010- PROTECT BOOK. BUT THE U TO P I A OF A FFECTI VE LEGE OF F R A N C E . TO I N C I TE T H E E M ERGENCE FROM TH E W R I T I N G OF AN ETH I C A L VANI S H I N G POI N T. SCEPTI CISM. M Y B I GGEST DEFENSIVE WEAPON WAS PURE LANG U A G E . ROLA N D B A R T H E S I NT E R V I E W E D BY JACQU ES H E N R I C STAT E M E NTS RECORDED O N TAPE ON 4. G R O U P I NGS W H O R E A LLY L I V E TOGETH E R B U T EACH AT HIS OWN R H YTH M . TH AT'S WHEN W R I T I N G F U NCTIONS AS A N A M E OF A S T U D Y OF L I T E R A R Y A N A LYSIS. H.: I H A V E LA U N C H E D A S E R I ES OF COURSES O N TRAN SLATI O N BY CATH E R I N E D U NCAN 240 . WRITE MAJOR T R E A T I S E .: WHAT I S THE TITLE O F YOU R COU R S E AT TH E COLLEGE O F F R A N C E ? R B. ETH ICS W I L L BE BACK.77 J .E DG E D SWORD BECAUSE IT C A N A LSO B E A N I N S TR U M E NT OF OPPRESSION­ IT VERY OFTEN IS-BUT WHEN T H E SUBJ ECT IS VERY V U L N E R ABLE. PROTECTS H I M . H A V I N G ITS MODELS RATH E R O N TH E S I D E O F AGNOST I C I S M . A N D I C A N ONLY SA Y THAT I F E E L THE WRITING OF T H I S BOOK TO BE SOMETH I N G A P A RT. I AND I F I WANTED TO IT T H E I N V E NTIONS OR N EOLOGI SMS. WHAT ONCE U S E D TO BE R B. TO BUT I A LW A Y S AS GIVE SO H E L D I N THE N A M E OF TH E " I :' WHICH IS ALL THE SA M E A RISK. WOULD G I V E BUT W H E R E ATTE NTION I S GIVEN TO THE TU RN OF PHRASE. I HAD TO C A L L E D BY O R I E N T A L MONKS. BOOK V E RY A LONE. YOU P R EC I S E LY. I H A V E CENTERED RH YTH M Y . I WOU LD L I K E TO R ETU R N T O IT . I DI O R H YTH M Y . U N D E R COV E R OF A LITE R A R Y A N A LYSIS I WOU LD T R Y TO D I S E N G A G E AN ETH I C IN THE BROADEST S E N S E OF T H E WOR D .: Irs A V E R Y GOOD Q U E STION. SYNTAX IS PRETTY SYNTA XIC. MORAL CODES THAT ARE NOT T H E MORAL CODES OF FAITH. . NOT I NAUGURAL LECTU R E TO T H E COL­ COM M U N I T I E S AS W E KNEW T H E M AFTER TH E H I PPIE M OV E M E N T S . OR TO PUT IT EVEN MORE D I G R ESS A N D. T O P RO r E C T A DISCOU RSE IT S E E M S T O M E N O W T H A T W H E R E THE COU R S E I S CONC E R N E D I W I L L R E T U R N T O MATE R I A L THAT IS S P E C I F I C A L LY MYSELF R I G HTLY LEAVE S A I D. WORDS WITHOUT MANY IF I WERE A A P H I LOSOP H E R . YOUR YOU I N S I ST E D ON TH I S PO I NT IN " L I V I N G TOGETH ER. LITERARY. V E RY THIS OPEN. I AM S U R E THAT IF N E XT Y E A R I G I V E M Y ATTE NTION TO C H A R ACTE R I STIC L I T E R A R Y FOR M . SYNTAX.

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SHOWS M O S T OF US TURNING I N C I RCLES L I K E T H E BLI N D BEFORE T H E VERY OBVIOU S N ESS OF TH E F A M I L I A R U N I VE R S E . A N D T O AVOID THE S I G H T OF GOD. A S HAS SO OFTEN BEEN R E PE A T E D.MOV I NG G I R L ''I ' M NOT BEA UTI F U L. WHAT THIS I N VOLVES I S A N ASTO N I SH I NG SUCCES­ SION OF V I S U A L P H E N O M E N A . SC I E N C E F I C T I O N N A R RATIVE. THEY SEE THEY A R E N A KED. I ' M WORSE. THAT B I F U RCATI N G -A N D HOLE WHICH US BE BLACK EXCESSIVE R A PI DITY O F T H I S PASSAGE. EVEN WOULD PUSH ONLY I NTER­ I N TO THE STI TIAL. COLLA PS­ ING THE I N I T I A L S E PA RATION OF DAYS AND N I G HTS IN A PURE P H E N O M ENON OF SPEED. OUR S U D D E N I M M E R­ SION IN OTH E R U N I V E R SES-PARALLEL. WHO I N T U R N S E D U C E S M A N . BY V A R I O U S M EA N S. TO THE E X P U LS I O N FROM T H E U N I V E R S E IT PREVIOUS­ LY I N H ABITED. SATA N ' TH US BEG I N S THE CYCLE O F A H U M A N I TY DOO M E D LESS TO DEATH THAN TO D I S A PPE A R A N C E.M A R I E DO R V A L RATH E R FAITH F U LLY BY I M PARTING T H E LOGI STIC ROLE I N I T I A LLY HELD BY THE FI RST WOMA N TO SC I E N C E A N D T H E TEC H N I C A L M E D I A . THE SEDUCTION-THE " L E A D I N G TA K E S ON A ASIDE" OF A BOUT.D YN A M I C D I M E N S I O N : SEDUCTI O N I S A RITE O F PASSA G E FROM ONE U N I V E RSE TO A N O TH E R FOR WHICH I M PLIES A IN FACT. THE AND THE N A VIGATION O F BOD I E S 242 . I N SOFA R A S ITS P R I N C I P A L T H E M E COMES D O W N TO S C I E N C E-TEC H N O LOGY-OTH E R WORLDS. THAT IS. AND NOT. SEDUCERE-H E R E C O S M O. THE R E N E W A L OF SC I E N C E F I C T I O N I N T H E U N ITED STATES A N D I N THE BIG INDUSTRIAL COUNTRIES SEEMS TO BE A P PEA R I N G IN THE B I B LE AS THE SEDUCER OF W O M A N . I N EFFECT. WHICH M I LD MAY OR SERIOUS BRING STATES OF ABSENCE INDEED COVER U P TH E I R N A K E D N ESS. IN FACT. THEY NOCT U R N A L A N E STH E S I A CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH K E E PS M A K I NG US LAPSE I N TO SHORT OR P ROLO N G E D . A SEXUAL I N NOVATI ON.C H R I ST I A N V ERSION OF GENESIS DECISIVE BEGI N N I NG DEPARTUR E OF A H U M A NITY. THEY TRY TO H I D E T H E M SELVES. T H I S B E I NG ACCOM PLISHED FI RST AS A P H E NO M E N O N OF CONSCIOUSNESS: THE PHYSI­ L I N K E D T D T H A T OF R E L I G I O N AND SECTS. T H I S TYPE OF N A R RATIVE O N LY A D A PTS J U D EO." . A K I N D OF I NCOM PATI B I LITY BETWEEN OUR PHYSICAL PRESENCE D E G R E ES IN OF THE A WORLD AND THE DIFFERENT OF C A L EXPULSION FROM T H E E A R HTL Y P A R A D I S E I S P R E C E D E D BY A N A B R U PT D I SORDE R I N G OF SIGHT THAT C O M PLETELY C H A NGES T H E A P P E A R A N C E O F T H E W O R L D A S L I V E D B Y THE COUPLE: T H E I R EYES ARE O P E N E D.

F R O M S O M ETH I N G I M M U T A B L E TOW A R D ANOTH E R REGION OF T I M E . 2 M OV E M E N T A THIRD PA R T N E R . W H O W E R E TH E I R SOLE E FFECTIV E PROTECTION A GA I N ST 243 . OF C O N FO R M I NG T O U S A G E S A N D T O C O D E S . THE B U T TH I S WAY OF FOLLOWI N G FASHION. I N O R D E R TO ENJOY I N THE I R C O M P A N Y T H E SELF-INVOLUTION ASSOCIATED W I T H HITTING T H E ROAD. A N D F I N E R Y WERE U S E F U L I N CAMOUFLAGI NG PHYSIOLOG I C A L I D E N TI T Y . W H I L E G I R LS O F TODAY M A Y CONDESC E N D T O L E T GUYS "PICK TH E M UP. A SPACE-TI M E ESSEN­ TIALLY DIFFERENT S I N C E E X P E R I ENCED A S MOBILE. U N I V E R S A L H E A V I N E SS. AND HENCE OF T E R ROR. OF S E D UCTION. AS A CONSTA N T R E F E R E N C E TO T H E MARVELOUS M EC H A N IC I TY O F T H E WOMAN'S VECTOR-BODY. M A N N ER S . S O RIGOROUSLY R E SPECTED I N THE MOST I NDUSTR I A L­ IZED COU N T R I E S EVEN AS FAR AS TH E R E P U L S I V E ATTITUDES A N D P U N K OF THE LAST FEW YEARS. B U T A LSO T O H E R LACK O F P ERSONA L I NTELLIGENCE. FEAR I S P R E C I S E LY BECA USE THE LATTE R IS TRAVERSED IN A PHENO­ M ENON OF SPEED S U C H THAT THE ANTICI PATION OF A N ACC I D E NT OCCU R S I N STANTLY. I S I NSC R I B E D V E R Y P R EC I SE­ LY IN THE DYN A M I C O F THE WORLD: T H E R E WOM AN I S NOT POSSESSIVE. IN F A CT. A N D PARTICULARLY THE CHOSEN PARTNERS." I N T H E B I B LI C A L N A R RATIVE." THE E P I SODE I N GENESIS OF THE ONE R E V E A L S THAT TH E RITE OF PASSAGE ACCOM P L I S H M E N T LEADING FROM U N I V E R S E T O A N OTH E R PRODUCES NOT O N L Y A M ETAMORPHOS I S O F SIGHT BUT A N I M M EDIATE CAMOU FLAGE AND CAREFUL D I S S I M U LATION O F THE BODY. THIS B E LOVED WHO A CCOR D I N G TO NOV A L I S 15 THE S U M M A R Y OF THE U N I VE RS E AND TH I S U N IVERSE WHICH 1 5 ONLY T H E EXTENSION O F T H E BELOVED. T H E SEVERE DISCIPLINE A I M E D AT M A K I N G A CREATOR OF A RTEFACTS OUT OF TH E C H I LD. " N A T U R E " A N D ITS W E A K N E S S E S . THE BODY OF WOM A N THUS CONFOU N D E D WITH A BODY OF COM M U N ICATIONS. OF B E I N G TOLD TO " G O GET LOST. M A N U A L WORK." SOMEWHAT A S THOUGH H ITCH ­ H I K ING. A N OPTICAL I LLUSION I N A U N I V E R S E ITSELF P E R C E I V E D WHOLELY AS I LLUSORY A N D WHERE D I SS I M U LATION TRI U M PH S AS A SYNDROME OF MOVE M E NT. THE AND STATES THAT "SEX NO LONGE R EXISTS AND THAT FEAR H A S R EPLACED IT. IN A WORLD W H E R E TECHNOLOGICAL PROGRESS CORRESPONDS TO THE UTI LIZATION A N D QUEST O F SUPER ROGATORY SPEEDS. THE S O L I TA R Y P L E A S U R E THAT T H E C I N E M ATOGRAPHIC MOTOR A FFORDS THE PO R N O F I L M V I E W E R A LR E A D Y A N NO U N C E S T H E F O R E ­ SHORTENING WHICH I S BEG I N N I NG A N D CAN BE COMPARED TO THAT O F T H E SC I E N C E F I C T I O N NARRATIVE I N R E LATION T O THE B I B L I C A L STORY: IT I M PLIES T H E DISAPPEARANCE OF HUMAN I NTER­ MEDIARIES A N D THE E M ERGENCE OF A SEXUALITY DIRECTLY CONCERNED WITH A TEC H N I C A L OBJECT. CONDUCTIVE. THEY STI LL S H R I N K AT THE THOUGHT O F B E I NG 'TA K E N I N " OR. NO LONG E R IS TH E R E A COUP L E BUT A T R I LOG Y O F SORTS: THE SOLITARY MOVEM ENT OF SEDUCERE OR THE SEXUAL COU PLING THAT R E QU I R E S I NT E R D E P E N D E N T IMPLIES TERRITORIAL BODy. S H E H A S U P TILL NOW E FFECTI VELY ORGA N I ZE D A L L THAT I S SPEED. ALL THAT H A S A PART I N THE MOV E M E N T OF M AN's LIFE." T H E A N C I E N T S T H U S E ST A B L I S H I N G A D I R E C T R ELATION BETW E E N W H A T I S C O N V E NTIONALLY CALLED ORIGI N A L SIN AND T H I S TERRESTRIAL PULL W H I C H T H E Y C O N S I D E R E D TO BE T H E F I R ST NATURAL MOTOR OF T H E F R E E A CC E LE R ATION OF BOD I ES. THE I N STITUTIONS FOR THE EDUCATION OF LITTLE G I R LS H A D COMPA RABLE ENDS. T H E LEADING A S I D E MASS SENSIBI LITY M UST NOT BE U N D E RESTI M ATED. I NDEED SEXUAL I NDIFFERENCE. G A V E T H ESE S U P POSEDLY I N NOCENT L A S S E S A G R EATER TECHNICAL RELIABI LITY FOR THE EXECUTION OF AN E N DLESSLY R E PEATED S E R I E S O F M A N E U V E R S INTENDED T O S U BJ UGATE THOSE AROUND THE M . T H E HORROR FILM THEN SUCCEEDS AS A M ATTER O F COURSE THE E ROTIC F I L M A S A M O R E PERFECT F U L F I L L M E N T OF THE L A W OF MOV E M E NT. H E R E O N E MAY LAW OF R E C A L L H A N N A H A R E N DT ' S R E F L E C T I O N THAT "TERROR 1 5 T H E FULFI LLM E NT OF THE S I M U LA TA N EO U S W I T H SEDUCTION MOVEMENT. PROVI DED T H E LATTER B E A MOTOR O R VECTO R OF MOVEM ENT. TRAN S FORMABLE. TH I S FORCE O F ATTRACTION I S IN FACT G R A V I TATION. POSSESSED OR POSSESSING BUT ATTRACTIVE.S E N S E S. 3 DEPORTMENT. M I STRESS OF PASSAGE. ALL ON LY BRI NGS TO LIGHT T H E VERY FOU N DATION OF EVERY M E A N S OF S EDUCTION: TO ATTRACT T H E L O O K I S TO C A PT U R E A N D T H U S D I V E RT T H E ATTENTION. IS AN IDEAL VECTOR BETWEEN M A N A N D THE NEW WORLD. IGNORANCE. A S THE C REATION OF A SECOND U N I VERSE WHICH WOULD DEPEND ENTI REL Y UPON T H I S I NITIAL RITE. D A N C E . TH E AXIS M U NDI. OF TH E I R P ROJECTION BUT A LSO OF THE I R COLLISION? WH E N A LA I N SCH LOKOFF ELABORATES ON THE REPLACE M E N T OF E ROTIC O R PORNO FIILMS BY HORROR F I L M S. ALL THAT CONCU R S OR COMPETES WITH IT. T H E N ." I M PORTA N C E O F SUCH A MODIFICATION OF FORMERLY. I S N 'T THE "SIN" OF THE F I RST MAN COMMONLY CALLED T H E "FALL. MORE LITERA L LY.

ODORS. THUS EACH T R I E S TO I N STALL T H E OTH E R IN A B E S I DES. A N D T H E U N I VERSE OF W A R THAT W I LL I N STANTLY PUT M A N I NTO T H E WO M A N ' S P A S T . TH E CONTRADICTION. IN THE VERY R A P­ PROC H E M E NT OF "LOVE M A K I NG" THE TEC H N I C A L EXPERTISE C R E ATES OF THE SEDUCER OR SEDUCTRESS THE I M M EDIATE NOT SEX OBJ ECTS. OR DRAG Q U E E N ) . MEAN LABOR. " S A I D F R A N Z LI SZT. THE T I M E O F THE N A R RATIVE A PP E A R S T O BE I NCOMPATI B L E SO-C A L L E D " W A R M A R R I AGE" E P H E M E R A L I N MOST CASES. D E F E R R E D T I M E . A N D COMMON O N E D I SCOV E R S I N LOVER' MODALITIES A PENDU­ L U M E FFECT SUGGESTIVE OF THIS KIND OF LEADING ASIDE: THE S UFFRAGETTES O R T H E GROUPS FOR WOMEN'S LIBERATION NOTICEABLY A FT E R D EMONSTRATE MORE WARS. F I N A LLY. A S DESC R I B E D B Y COLON E L D E LA I R . PARA DOXI C A L LY . A TRUE E F F ECT OF A N A MO R P H O S I S . ROMANTIC PERIODS D E V E LO P ON THE CONTR A R Y S I N C E THE "ANGLE O F T E M PORAL VISION" CHANGES TO SUCH A N EXTENT I N THE AGED THAT T H E Y C A N T A L K A BOUT A N E V E N T OF FORTY Y E A R S A G O A S I F I T H A D H A PP E N E D T H E S A M E D A Y . COM PA RABLE TO THAT OF THE TRAN SVESTITE (ONE USED TO SPEAK IN FOR M E R A TIMES WORD MORE WHICH P R E C I S E L Y O F TRANS· A LSO S U GG ESTS TH E " M A N Y WOM E N H A V E LOVE D T H E M S E L V E S I N M E . TO A RAGON'S MOTTO WOMAN IS THE FUTURE OF MAN THE MLF OPPOSES ITS MAN IS THE PAST OF WOMAN. THAT OF T H E GREAT N A V IGATION O F THE SPECIES. BUT W H AT IS AIMED AT H ERE AG A I N IS THE R ELEGATION O F T H E PARTN E R . TH E SENTI M E NTAL. CLUDED. EXORBITANT I NFLATION O F TH E LAW O F MOV E M E N T A N D OF THE VECTORI A L F AC U LTIES OF T H E BODY. T H E CON­ FOR M I S M OF H A B I T C R E ATES A K I N D OF NARRATI V E TH E SUM MARY. CONFLICTS DEADLY TO M A LES. H I M S E L F A GREAT SEDUCER. THUS. I NV I S I BLE TO TH E COMMON EYE. TH E D E N N ESS OF A C C I D E N T I M PL I E S SO M A N Y EVE NTS U N FO L D I N G I N SUCH A COMPRESS E D T I M E T H A T T H E C O M M O N E Y E C A NNOT R ECORD T H E M A L L A N D T H U S M E R E LY S U M M A RIZES TH E M . OF COMM UTATION P E R SONS D O E S N O T ABOLISH T H E I N A C C E S S I B I LITY WHICH PREVIOUSLY C R EATED T H E S E P A RATION OF D I STANCE AND A PA RTNESS.A MAN'S SOC I ETY WHICH CON D E M N E D TH E LIKE AN ACCELERATION OF THE I R R E S I ST I B L E DOW E R I E D GI RLS TO AN E A R LY M A R RIAGE A N D THE OTH E R S TO THE CONVENT. B U SI N ES S . W H I LE H A V I N G TOTA LLY FORGOTT E N W H AT THEY D I D A M O M E N T A G O . THE GREAT H A B I TS SO MUCH A PA RT OF TH E DA I LY R EG I M E N T H A T T H E Y A R E A L R E A DY K NOWN A N D E XPECTED BY THE P A RTN E R . PROSTI ­ TUTION OR DESTITUTION. T H E REMARK CONTAI N S BOTH THE NOTI O N OF A V E STI S M . H Y M EN'S RITE O F P A S S A G E OFTEN SHE IS NO LONGER DRAW FROM HER TH E TECH N I C A L FATALITY A N D MORE P R EC I S E LY T H E TEC H N I Q U E OF WAR. WH E N T H E SOLDI E R HAS THE BAD IDEA OF R E T U R N I NG SAFE AND SOU N D TO T H E PRESENT OF H I S WIFE. M A Y D I E " I S C E RTAI N LY R E A L ENOUGH A N EVENT. I T I S A LWAYS EASY TO A N N I H I LATE T H E PARTN E R WITHOUT A S M UCH A S L E A V I N G H I M O R HER FOR A SECON D. TRAVELO. A D I SOR D E R I NG OF SIGHT. NOT OUT OF MODESTY. THE YOUNG V I RG I N'S MOTILE P E R FOR M A N C E A L R E ADY A N NOUNCES THE CLAIM OF THE "WO M E N I N MOVEM ENT' OF M LF (THE FRENCH WOMEN'S L I B E RATION MOV E M ENT>: WE ARE R E D UCTION OF T H E S P E E D OF CONQU E ST A N D OF A R E C I P RO C A L I N VI S I B I LITY. T H U S THE M I LITARY MOBI LIZA TION I S S U BSTITUTED FOR THE LOV E R S' " T R A N S PORT. SLOW·MOTION. WHICH C A N NOT B E P ROJ ECTED I N S I N C E THE S U D­ B E FO R E OR D U R I NG T H E R EVOLUTIONS A N D WARS. A N D TO T H I S EXTENT THE S E D UCTIVE ACTI V I TY I NT E R F E R E S WITH T H E ROMA NTIC NOVELS C A N STOP A T T H E WEDDING. L I TT L E B Y L I TT L E THE T R A G I C C H ARAC­ TER OF THE N ECESSITY TO SEDUCE A ND TO KEEP ON SEDUCI NG IS REVEALED: IT IS LIKE AN WITH V I S I O N I T S E L F . TlHROUGH 244 . I N V E RS E L Y . SO M E W H AT LIKE I N THE DISASTER F I L M S SHOT BY STUNTM E N REAL TIME. S I M I LA R L Y . S H E H A S LED H E R SPOUSE T O H E R S I D E . THE CHEAP D I S A P PE A R A N C E O F T H E PARTN E R OR PA RTN E R S I N S P A C E A N D TI M E : T O L E A D T H E M A S I D E I S TO L E A D T H E M TO NOT H I N G N ESS. I T I S A N A RT W H I C H M UST B E CEASE LESSLY I N T R A N S FO R M ATION A N D WHICH DOESN'T ESCAPE T H E G E N E R A L LAW OF T H E WORLD: TO STA N D STI LL I S TO D I E . H E W I L L B E R E J ECTED." THE YOUNG W O M A N ' S "G I V I N G SOLDIER H ER S E L F TO THE MOBILIZED BECAUSE HE B E FO R E H I S DEPARTURE. IN A N O L D COUPLE. A N D IT BECOMES NECESSRY­ I N O R D E R TO S E E -TO I NTRODUCE. W I LL CONJUGAL B E D A COLD A N D DEFIN ITIVE HATRED FOR HER AWKWARD HUSBAND. TH E H A ST I L Y C O N ­ WILL B E U N D E R ST A N DA B LY. T H I S I S A P R E L U D E T O OTH E R U N I VE R S E S O F S P E E D ( F A S T OR SLOW). EACH SPOUSE BECOMES I N V I S I B L E TO T H E OTH E R S I M PLY ON ACCOU N T O F T H E R E PETITION O F A L I M ITED N U M B E R OF SIGNS. 4 AS TIME PASSES. BUT BECAUSE THE TEC H N I C A L E X PLOIT OF T H E Y O U N G W O M A N THERE R E A C H E S ITS END. W H A T T H E MOVE M E N T OF R O M A N T I C PASSIONS I N LlSZT'S FORMULA SHOWED.

A N D T H E S E A R E S I G N I FICA NTLY AMONG T H E THEMES W H I C H H A V E C REATED TH E I R U N A N I M ITY. THE S URVIVORS AND O U T . HARMFUL ALL W I L L SOON WITH THE SPEEDOMETER OF TH E R A C I NG-CA R. N O R . B EG I N N I N G O F H I G H L Y TECH NOLOGICAL WARFARE.J UST LIKE M E N . ADVANCE IS TO CONQUER. TH E WO M E N OF TH E M L F DEVELOP A SI M I LA R ATTITU D E : THEY PREACH T H E PARTN E R'S LIB ERATION IN THE M A N N E R OF T H E OLD W I DOWS: CURE US OF LOVE I S O N E O F TH E I R S LOGA N S. WHO W I L L K E E P O N GETTING PA I D FOR TH E I R S E R V I CES. U N D ERSTAN DS AS C L A U S E W ITZ. THE FEMME FATALE I S R A R E LY A PR ETTY WOMA N : RATH E R S H E IS WORSE. I N FLU­ ENCE AND MONEY. TO BETWEEN M ETA BOLICS A N D TEC H N IQ U E .JUST W H E N T H E A R M A M ENT O F T H E R A C E R A N D T H E R A C E T O A R M S A RE BECOM I NG PHENOMENA O F SOC I ETY. HAS A GREAT FORCE OF SYMBOLIC TRANSCENDENCE SINCE IT REFERS UNTIL A V E R Y A D V A N C E D AGE.P RODUCT O F LOVE. "SURELY H E CAN LACE UP YOU R CORSET. WOMA N I N H E R TURN W I L L A B A N DON THE CORSET . CONC E R N E D ONLY T O F I N D TH E L I M I T O F H I S FORCE'S EXPAN­ SION. TH E S E D UCTION O F WOMAN AS A M UR D E R . WORLD. M E RC I LESS SOC I A L RECORDS I N TH E CONVEYA NCE O F PASSENGERS ON TH E HIGH SEXUAL VOYAGE . OUTPUT MON A R C H S OR RATH E R "POLEM A RC HS" . ONE IS STRUCK BY THE PHYSICAL A U ST E R I TY OF THE C E L E BRATED H I S EFFORTS WITH THOSE OF H I S E N E M I E S I N O R D E R T O COM P L E T E THE D E S T R U C T I O N OF HIS OWN PEOPLE B Y A N N I H I LATING T H E LAST R ESOU RCES O F TH E HOM E L A N D-WE F I N O OURSELVES NOT A T T H E OPPOSITE B U T RATH E R A T DELIRIOUS APOGEES O F T H E SEDUCTI V E ACTI VITY' ? COURTESANS. O R O F COMBAT AS THE EXISTENTIAL M EASURE OF THE WARRIOR'S EVEN. NO LONGE R G O I N G A BARELY D I SG U I SED H A T R E D ALIVE. PROPOS I N G I N STE A D THOSE OF H I S ARMS S E R V A NT: "MY MAN K NOWS HOW TO TAKE CARE OF M Y A RMOR. THAT AND WORKI NG TO SUCH A THEY WERE CONSIDERED STRUGG L E BETWEEN CLIQUES THAT H A V E BECO M E HOMOS E X U A L I N T H E PURSUIT O F POWER. s A N D O F THEIR PRESENCE E S P E C I A LLY TH E I R O W N PROG E N Y . O R T O TH I S TELEGRA M -" I F T H E W A R I S LOST. TH E ACCELERATION O F THE RITE OF PASSAGE C L E A R L Y I M PL I E S T H E PRESENCE OF T H E T E R R I TO R I A L BODY A S THI R D PARTNER. FOR FREDERICK I I'S "TO SERVICES O F A M A I D . NOU R I SH I NG FOR THO S E STI L L TH EMS ELVES. THE PHYSIOLOG I C A L I D ENTITY S E E M S TO D I S A P P E A R B E H I N D T H E A PP E A L OF A 'TEC H N I C A L VALORIZATION SUCH THAT M A N Y OF T H E S E WOM E N WILL CONTI N U E TO EXERCISE TH E I R F U NCTION IN FACT. I N THE U N ITED STATES. HERE A S W E LL. SEVENTY TO E I GHTY FOR SOME OF T H E M . FOR E X A M PLE. A N A B R I DG M E N T O F THE U N I VERSE M A D E POSSIBLE B Y T H E S P E E D O F T H E ASSA U LT. AND CLI M B I N TO F A ST BY­ "MOST OF THE TIME LOVE IS A BY-PRODUCT OF VEHICLES.THE I N C R EA S E OF E N E RG Y AND THE SUPER C H A RACT E R C H I LD R E N WHENEVER WHO E X H I B I TS THE R E LICS IN OF HER WAR ACCELERATION O F T H E LOV E RS' T R A N S PORT. TH E PETR U C H I O WIFE MARCH O R CONQ U E R O R CAN B E COM P A R E D TO A "H U M A N COM M E RCE.6 THESE PERPETU A L A S S A U LTS A G A I N S T DISTANCE A LSO R EPRODU C E I N D E F I N I TE LY THE I N I T I A L RITE OF PASSAGE. T O SEE WOM EN OF THE H I G H EST RANK M EA S U R E THEM­ SELVES AGAI N ST P U B L I C WOM E N AND EMBARK ON VERITABLE M A R AT H O N S . IT WAS NOT RARE EITHER T O S E E O N E O F T H E M R E A C H TH E S U M M I T O F TH E STATE H I E R A RC H Y. S H E C A N DEVOTE H E R S E LF TO COMPETITI V E S PO RT S ." T H E H A ST E WITH WHICH A L E X A N D E R T H E G R E A T DROVE ON. ACTI V I T I Y O F THE POLE­ IN S H A K E S P E A R E' S T H E TA M I N G ROUGHLY REFUSES OF THE HIS SHREW. ACHIEVING SPEED D I RECTLY T O M U R DE R A S A BY. A VALORI­ ZATION O F TH E RITES O F PASSAGE AND OF TH E I R NUMBER TO THE D E TR I M E N T O F THE BOD I E S IN THE THOSE W I DOWS WHO A S SU M E TH E I R B E R E A V E M E N T AS A P R I V I LEDGED POSITION. USELESS. TH E FATH E R A N D T H E C H I LD. TH E Y H A V E K I LLED TH E SPOUSE. BECOM E H I S COMBAT F I NERY. THE SEDUCERE C A N N O MORE B E R E D U C E D TO SEXUAL COM M E R C E TH A N THE . WAS A C O M P ETITION RATH E R THAN AN O P PO S I T I O N AND SHE H US B A N D K I LL E D THE I S G I V E N THE O P PORTU N I TY . " THE M YSTER Y WRITER AGATHA C H R I ST I E LO V E D TO R E P E AT." H E SAYS. ' A N D B Y THE CONTRAST I T OFFERS WITH TH E M AG N I FI C E N C E O F TH E I R F I N E R Y AND THE B R I L L I A N C E OF TH E I R A R M S O F S EDUCTION. H E R E AGA I N . LET THE NATION SUCC E E D I N G OR O P POS I NG L'HO M M E FATAL (THE PERISH"-I N WHICH H I T L E R D EC I D E S TO COM B I N E WARRIOR). FROM THE C E L I N ESQUE PRODUCT OF M U RD E R OR S I M PLY AS A VECTOR OF VOYAGE GIVES WAY TO THE LIBERATION OF T H E NEW 245 . R I D OF T H E CORSET. AT THE OUTSET O F THE 20TH C ENTURY. BEING-ALL I NVOLVE A VERTIGINOUS FLDW OF TIME. BUT ALSO T H E D R I V E R'S GLANCE AT THE COM M A N D." SUCH EXAM PLE. A LL O F T H I S TAKES THE ULTIMATE FOR M OF A NEW. ABORTI O N ." IN THIS ABSURD IT. L'HOM M E FATAL A L R E A D Y RECOGNIZES H I MSELF A S TH E PAST OF H I S WIFE: H I S S P A R K L I N G S H I ELD. I N V E R S E LY.

FLY ON A LL MODELS. AS M Y ST E R I O U S . D E F I N E S BOTH EVERY T R A N S PORT VEHICLE A N D. .TECH N I C A L S P E E D: THE S E D UCTION FEMININE OF THE MOTOR AND OF THE Q U E ST OF ALL TECHNOLOGICAL PROGRESS. . S A PET ADDS: "I'M ON THE OTH E R S I DEI" THERE IS I ND E E D A TECH NO­ GENESIS. BUT W E CAN'T FLY THE P L A N E S OF RIVAL COMPA N I ES BECAUSE NEVER OF COMMERCIAL AN C O M P ET I T I O N . FEEDS ON ELECTRI­ C ITY . AN OSC I LLATI NG T R I P FOR CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH WOU LD HAVE AS ABSO­ FLECTS T H E FASCI ST LA NGUAGE OF TH E FUTU R I ST ELITE AT THE BEGI N N I N G OF THE C E NTU RY: "TH E LUTE POLES ONLY B I RT H AND DEATH. A F I N A L S U PPRESSION OF T H E D I F F E R ­ NATU R E A N D C U LTURE. OF ITS ANCIENT S P EC I A L CONFRONTING E FFECTS TH E " M OB I L I S IN MOBI LE. " TH E P I LOT J EAN-MA R I E SAGET STATED: " A T THAT TI M E T O B E A TEST PI LOT WAS R E A LLY TO FLY I NTO TH E U N K NOWN . . T H E OF A U N I QU E AND ABANDONED P H E N O M E NO N PARAPHRASING I M PO R T A N T R A G E OT'S IN B L U E P R I NTS I R R E S I ST I B L E FORMU LA. THE MOTTO O F J U L E S VERNE'S NAUTILUS. TH E M U LTIPLIED M A N WHO MI NGLES WITH I RO N . . ON THE CONTRARY." AND OF N UC L E A R DISSUASION. I N A R E C E NT I NT E R V I E W GIVEN TO TH E N EWSPAPER F R A NCE·SOI R . . SCATTE R E D A N D THERE. . . BY M ETAPHORS O R POLITICAL A N D M I LITARY PROPA­ GANDA. IDEAL ( M A R I N ETTI. LOGI C A L DON J U A N I S M . . . . WAKING H ERACLITUS' AND SLEEP D I STI NCTION B E TW E E N ARE IN H EAT OF A P I E C E OF I R O N OR W OO D NOW A ROUSES U S MORE TH A N T H E S M I LE OR TEA R S OF A WOM AN. . I N COLLECT I V E AND I ND I V I DUAL CONSC I ENCE. FINA LLY. . THIS D I S A P P E A R A N C E OF WOMA N I N T H E PASSAGE LOGY A CONTI NUOUS PH ENOMENON TECH NO­ MAKE S E NSORY D E R A N G E M E NT A FATALITY OF THE TEC H N I C A L OBJECT CREATES A NEW M A SS LANGUAGE WHICH F A I T H F U L LY RE­ WOU L D P E R M A N ENT CON DITION. SCI ENCE A N D TECH NO­ LOGY WOULD ACTUALLY C R E ATE A NEW SOCI ETY WHOSE M E M BE R S WOULD ALL BECOME SLEEPERS. 246 . "ACCORD­ ING TO A C U R V E O F OPTI M A L D I ST R I BUTION OF T H E E X E RTION OF FO R C E S WHICH G U A R A NTEE EQUI L­ IBRIUM HENCE AND A TH E AVOI DANCE OF A CC I D E N T S . W R I TT E N PROJECT-QR PROJECTION-QF T H E WEST TOWA R D A T E C H N O LOG I C A L AS THAT WITH BEYOND ABOUT 1 920. A N D T H E R E LATIONS H I P I S ESTA B L I S H E D B E T W E E N A U N I SE X (TH E DEFI N ITIVE DISSI M ULATION OF PHYSIOLOG I C A L I DE NTITY) AND A TEC H N I C A L PSYC H IC N A T I V E LA N D" A N D T H E COM PLETELY N EW RUINS OF F A U ST I A N HERE C I V I L I ZA T I O N -" I TS DEBRIS VECTOR. COM P A N Y PI LOTS. A RTE FACT IS NO LONGER SOM ETH I NG WHICH WOU L D NO LONGER B E D I SCON­ TINUOUS." MOB I L E W I TH I N A G R EAT N A T U R A L POWERS. M UC H AT EASE I N A SITUATION O F ''TOTAL PEACE. . THOSE A W A K E I N A COM MON WORLD") WOU L D C E A S E TO A PPLY. I N S H O RT. ASPI R I N G T O A STATE O F V I G I L I N A WOR L D G I V E N A S C O M M O N (TH E PRECONDITION F O R T H E FORMATION OF M E A N I NG). WITH U S B EG I N S S E PARATE WORLDS. SINCE THEY HAVE TO MAKE T H R E S HOLD AN WOU LD E FFECTIVELY C A R R Y O U T F O R H U M A N ITY A RITE OF PASSAGE C O M PA R A B L E TO THAT IN COM PARISONS . CO M P L ET E L Y W H E N AT TH E O PE N I NG OF THE C E NTURY SPENGLER FORESAW TH E " R ETU R N OF SCI ENCE TO ITS I N ITIAL T R I LOGY THUS MODI FIED. M A K I NG S E DUCTION'S U TO P I A RITE OF R E SORTED TO E XC E PT A S A N ORNAMENT TO THE V E H ICLE IN B E A UT Y P A R A DES. IT WOU L D TH U S SO M E HOW B E N O R M A L F O R TH E LIGHT OF MOTORS TO E XTI N G U I S H THAT OF R EASON ACTIVATION OF AS TH E I D E A L THE REIGN OF TH E ROOTLESS MAN. .1 !S. NOW WE HAVE ANOTH E R F R U STRATION. YOU C A N SEE THEN HOW MUCH WE DESPISE TH E TH E PROPAG A N D A C A R R I E D OUT I N DEFENSE O F A ESTH ETICS OF LA NDSCAPE . T H E R A I LWAYS A N D G R EAT PACKET BOATS AS FOSSIL­ IZED AS THE ROMAN ROA DS OR TH E G R EAT WALL OF C H I NA"-HE D I DN'T T H I N K THAT THESE R U I N S W E R E EARLIER THE L A T E N T FOR M S . . . I'VE L I FT E D O F F WITH M UC H T O M Y WORLD OF ENTI RELY S U S P E N D E D ON T H E U LT I M ATE OPERATION W H I C H REGR ET. TH E LATTER ITSELF B E I N G D E V E LOPED ACORD I N G TO T H E P R I N C I PL E O F L E A ST A C T I O N SO D E A R T O E N G I N E ERS. A N D M A C H I NATING TH E CATASTRO P H I C U N C E RTAINTIES WHICH STI R THE MOBILE. A "LI FTING" OF M A C H I N E S WHICH TH E SUPPLA NTS THAT OF IS LOGISTIC SPOUSES. . L E A N I N G OVER THE FEMALE 1 9 1 0). TH E GREAT NUDE BODY OF AND FATAL" M A N AWAKENED A N D SENSOR OF R E A LITY. . L I V I N G OUT I LLUSORY DAYS AND NATURALLY VERY SYMBOLI STS WOM A N . F. BEA UTY. Irs TOO BAD. O N E C A N S A Y T H A T TH E TECHNOLOGI­ C A L R EVOLUTION H A S F I N A LLY B E E N USED ONLY TO I N STALL THE VERY FIXITY OF LIFE I N DIS PLACEMENT ITSELF. . BUT TH E A S SU M PTION OF THE VAR IOUS RITES O F PASSAGE BY MASS PRODUCTION IS A A NOTH E R WAY. THE CONTACTS WITH T H E B O D Y OF THE B E LOVED OR THE T E R RITOR I A L BODY DISAPPEAR­ ING PRE DICTA BLY A S T H E DYNAMICS OF PASSAGE I NC REASE. TH EY'RE PRIVI LEDGED." CLIMB­ I N G I NTO H I S M I R A G E 4000. FORGOTT E N . AND WOU L D B E THE E N D O F A L L R ELIGION A N D P H I LOSOPHY. WE WILL TRANSFORM E DG A R ALLAN POE'S ("THOSE ASLEEP NEVERMORE I NTO A S H R I LL JOY. R E LIGIONS. A DV E R T I Z I N G ENCES BETW E E N AND R E A LITY.

AN EX· REMARKED N UCLEAR A D M I N I ST R A T O R O F T H E P O L Y T E C H N I C I N ST I T U T E . • ATTEMPTED TO D E M O N STRATE W I T H H I S XENOGLOSSY THAT "A SUBJ ECT U N D E R H YPNOSI S C O U L D EXCEED THE MOST SLOW IN THE L I M I T O F HUMAN E X P E R I E N C E AND G O BACK I N TI M E WITHOUT TOO M UCH FATIG U E. FAR MORE BLINDING AND FEARFUL THAN ITS S I O N A L ACCOM PA N I M E N T . WHICH WE OVER IT. " 9 "ALBERT LIVES TO THE F U L LEST ONE AS IN IN 1 950. HE BRINGS TO M I N D C A PTA I N A H A TTE R A S. THUS "C R U S H I N G A U TO M O B I L E IN THE NUCLEAR C I RC L E S. AROUND 1 9 00. YOU SEE. BECAUSE I FELT IT N EEDED IT. VICTI M FROM OF ALL AND A PARTNERS C A PTA I N HAVE D I SA PP E A R E D "TH I S S A D MECHANICS SCHOOL) AND ELECTRICITY A TECHNICAL HE TELLS A HATTE R A S. I ' D L I K E IT TO SH I N E WITH ALL ITS LIGHTS AND C H R O M E FITTINGS. WHEN I T V I B RATES A N D GLOWS. AS SUBLIM E HIS PASSION. FOR E X A M P L E . T H A N K S TO TH E SPEED A LO N E IT C A N G I V E OUR A S P I RATIONS. . T H E CAPTA I N W O U L D STA R T WALKING BACKWARDS. THE EXPERTS K N OW THAT TH E Y C A N NOT R E A L LY M O N I TO R WITH IN A A COMPUTER R EACTOR WHAT OUT IS OF I N D U L G E T H E M SE L V E S A S I M I L A R ACTI V I TY. A S WITH EVE R YTH I N G CONC E R N I NG T H E ATOM. YOU MUST SEE IT AT N I G HT." A P PR E H E N D LESS A S A CON S U M E R OBJECT TO B E DESI R E D O R REJ ECTED T H A N M O R E E S S ENTIALLY AS THE VECTOR OF D E S I R E S J UST A S OBSOLES­ CENT A S OUR DREAMS. SAILS E V E RY DAY S U R R O U N D E D BY G U LLS. T O LOOK F O R . F O R DS. AS A STRANGE PROCES­ OUTS I D E AS A OF H I STORY OF THE THE VEHICLE C O M PLETELY R EPLACES THE B E LOVED. THEY A R E LIKE BLI N D MEN TU R N I N G IN A CI RCLE A S T H E Y T R Y T O M A K E A DECISION . VICTIM H A V I NG OF T H E BECO M E " D U R I N G T H E W E E K H E D R I V E S H I S REG ULAR CAR. .' HE ADDS. WANTS MOTORCYCLE. A R E A L L Y BIG B I K E TO GO WHEREVER I WANT. AS SOON AS HE SAW IT. T O S E E K O U T . T O DISCOVER. PLAY AN EGO'S FALSE R E PR E S ENTATI O N S LIGHT " . HAPPENING . A BIG WHAT DOCTOR CALLS BIKE." TECH NOLOGI­ C A L FATALITY A PPEARS A S THE F I N A L S E D UCTION. BUT A L S O DESE RTS. C H EV R O L ETS. S O I COULD S E E ONLY WHAT I L I K E . ' " V E R N E 'S H E RO." A J O U R N A L I ST WRITES ABOUT PARTIC ULAR. WHO G A Z E D AT H I M WITH H A TT E R A S WENT OUT WALKS. . FOR HIS PART. THAT'S HOW THEY D I D IT. A N YW H E R E . . SHOULD CON S U M E NOT H I NG. I N VARIA BLY L E D H I M I N THE S A M E D I R ECTI ON. POW E R F U L CO M PA R E D CO M P UT E R TO REAL IS ." IS SUFFERING A "POLA R JOURNALIST FROM L E M O N D E .8 BUICKS. ETC. BUT THESE SOFT. I N T H E EVENT O F A N ACCIDENT. H E R EPEATS I N THE A BSOLUTE OF T H E PLA NT'S CONTROL ROOM TH E S I M PL I F I E D GES­ T U R E S OF A PR I M A L MAGN ETIC R I T E W H O S E "MOB I L E WITHOUT MOB I LITY" A S YET T O B E C L A R I F I ED. I SPEAK TO IT. I'D L I K E TO K E E P O N R I D I NG. 'AT NIGHT I J U ST LOOK AT IT. J E T'AI ME. THE TECH N I C I A N B E CO M E S T H E PRODUC ED. WITHOUT EVER STOPPI N G . HE DRESSES TEDDY BOY STYLE. SOM EON E STOP H I M . HIS WIFE RIDING IN T H E BACK WITH THE K I D. I'D WITH LIKE IT TO B E THE COLOR OF THE IN TH E DISTANCE AND M A D N ESS. ' " THE DOCTOR VERY SOON . T H E M E D I U M B E I N G I N THIS C A S E A M ERICAN C A R S OF THE FI FTI ES-CA D I LLACS. IT'S A SENSITI V E M AC H I N E. I'D LI K E I T TO D R I V E ITSELF WHEN I'M TIRED. ''I'D L I K E A B I K E . ." OF M E M BERS FIFTIES OF T H E CLUB" I N F I N I TELY P R OC E S S E S . YOU S H O U L D K NOW ITS N A M E . AND H A RDLY G E OG R A P H I C . H A RRISBU RG: ''T H E R E A LITY O F TH E R EACTOR. BUT WHEN HE BRI NGS OUT HIS B E L A I R. P R E C U RSOR H E ROS A S THE NORWEGI A N R O A L D A M U NDSEN OR TH E ITA L I A N U M B ERTO NOBILE. THEN. I ' D L I K E IT T O BE V E R Y FAST. ITS CHROME FITTI N GS. TH E "MOT H E R . DANIEL (AGE S I XT E E N . CAPTAI N FOR LONG OC E A N ." HE H A S BECOM E PART A N D PARCEL OF THE BY I R R E S I ST I B L E R I T E OF PASSAGE: "FOLLOWED HIS FAITH F U L DOG. ACC I D E NT A T ECLIPSING T H E I N F I N ITY O F D R E A M S (MARI N ETTIl. H A V I N G 1'0 LIKE IT TO A R R IVED AT T H E E N D O F TH E P A T H . R U S H I N G TOWA R D S A BEYON D WITHOUT AN I D E NTITY FOR I T RESEMBLES NOTH ING AT ALL AND YET I S NOT NOT H I NGNESS: T H E NORTH P O L E . 1'0 PUT D I A LS ALL 247 . HE I M A G I N E D ITS FI RST COLOR. CAN NOT B E ASSESSED WITH ORDI N A RY WOR D S . J U L E S OF SUCH REAL AFFIXED TO THE TIP OF THE HOOD. AT A STUDYI NG BUT H E R E FOR E V E R . A N D S I D E R E A L S PACE.' HE SAYS. COLONEL DE ROCHAS. J U ST A LITTLE ATMOSPHE R E FROM TI M E T O T I M E . T H E PHYSIC I A N DOM I N I Q U E A BOUT TH E PIGNON. 'BEFORE LEAVING THE GARAGE I PAT ITS FENDER. • CONTROL. THE ROCKET MOVEMENT H E HAS APHASIC. HE D R EA M E D ABOUT T H E CAR FOR FI FTEEN YEARS. THAT OF A C E RTA I N PATH OF STEN COTTAGE. H E WOU LD PO I N T TO A FIXED SPOT I N THE SKY.L A N D S C A P E " I N H A B I T E D BY T H E "SPI RIT OF M ETAMORPHOSIS. TO LIGHT UP EVERYTH I NG AT THE SAME TIME. I PUT THE ROCKET O N IT. . SAD EYES. THIS AKIN TO ON E I R I C SPEED DELI RIOUS JOY OF ANTH ROPOMORPHIC B L U E P R I NTS. .W E A R E C U R R ENTLY REDI SCOV E R I NG T H E M YSTERY OF THE T E C H N O L OG I C A L VEHICLE. SPARK L I N G B L U E WITH A LIGHTER ROOF. SO IT COULD LOOK AT ME A S MUCH AS I LOOK AT IT.

DES RISQUES D'ACCIDENT SPI ES: THE SLEEPERS. C I O N S O F H I S N E I G H BORS. "GA R D E N " I S TRANSLATED "PARADISE" IN THE GREEK EDEN V E RS I O N AND THEN TRADI­ " C F. B ( M A Y. W I THOUT A L E RT I N G T H E S U S P I ­ 2 TH E MAN.. H I M S E LF. U N LESS SOM E DAY HE R E C E I VES TH E ORDER TO REACTI VATE THE SERPENT SERVES AS MASK FOR A HOSTILE B E I NG WHICH A N C I E NT W I S DO M AND THEN A S SATA N . " WEARY O F W A I T I NG. THE WOR K E R S BOD I ES. CORI N N E THE POLiTI Q U E ( P A R I S : G A L I LE E. 1 977)." TRAVERSES. B R I S E DO U ' S I NTE R ES T I N G ARTICLE O N COLLECTORS O F C A R S O F THE 50'S A N D TH E I R 4 THIS KINO OF A NESTHE S I A OF FAMILIARS B Y M E ETINGS ON T H E F I RST T H U RSDAY N IGHT O F E A C H MONTH.U N D E R STOO D OBSTI NACY. M A N U A L LABOR BEING FOR IN E DG A R ALLAN POE'S "MORELLA" THE H US B A N D CON FESSES A PROPOS THE AGONY O F HIS WIFE: "I WAS Y E A R N I N G WITH A N I NTENSE AND DEVOU R I N G D E S I R E FOR THE MOM E N T OF M O R E L LA ' S D E A T H . ITS I N ITIAL M EA N I NG MAY H A V E B E E N "STEPPE" (COM EN­ TARY OF T H E J E RUSALEM BIBLE). TRANSLATED BY J O H N JOH NSTON C A PTA I N JOHN I N V A R I A BLY W A L K E D NOTES LIFE WITHOUT B E I NG OF USE." C H I LDREN [CONSTITUTED] THE I D E A L OBJECT O F TRA I N I NG. 1 9 77). . TH E R E IS A LW A Y S TH E DI FFERENCE 7 B ETWEEN T H E 'LI B E R A L' A N D THE ·AUTOMATIC·. . W H I C H W I L L G I V E H I M THE C R E D I B I LITY N ECESSARY TO ACCOM PLISH TH E SINGULAR "WOMAN S A W THAT TH E TREE [OF KNOWLEDGE] WAS GOOD TO EAT A N D PLEASING TO LOOK AT. 9 8: "TH E P E R FO R M A NC E OF THE I NVADER RESEMBLES THAT O F HIS COUNTE R P A RT I N SPORTS. ADAMA. TH E REPETITION OF B A N A L ATTITUDES I S U S E D NOTABLY BY THE S E C R E T S E R V I C E S W H O H A V E CR EATED A VERY PARTICUAR CATEGORY O F 9 DOMI N I Q U E DANS LES PIGNON. HE I S T H E R E A S A U S E LESS PAWN IN THE GAME OF INTERNA­ '0 J U LES V E R N E. HE A N THROPOC ENTRIC SOCI ETY AS IGNOBLE A S IT W A S FOR THE M IDDLE AGES . GET C E N T R A L ES 1 976). . "M ETEM PSYCHOSE DU T I O N A LLY. H A V E C H I LDREN. PAU L V I R I L I O. IN L I BERATION ( F E B . NO. A N D M A Y LIVE H I S WHOLE HATTERAS ( P A R I S : HACHETTE)." M I SSION WITH W H I C H H E HAS B E E N SUDDENLY E N T R U STED. C I T. WO R K .. ADA M . PLACE D E L A CONCORDE. THE M OT I V E OF T H I S S I NGULAR TOWA RD THE NORTH. WHICH ELUDES A L L LOCALIZATION. AS IF PAUL VI RILIO A LW A Y S TOOK UNDER THE I N FL U E N C E O F A MAGNETIC H ATT E R A S FORCE. 248 . . . T H E SLEEPER HAS TO MOVE TO A FO R E I G N PLACE. . . ." l O AND A G U ESSED WHY THE STROLL C O N S T A N T D I R EC T I O N . VITESSE ET e C F. II VITESSE ET POLITI Q U E . 1 979). . . O P. • . . P. HE T H E N Q U I C K LY PUTS TO WOR K THE M A TE R I A L P ROOFS OF HIS I LL U SO R Y E X I S­ C H R I ST I A N I T Y WANTED TO SEE TENCE. . " 3 . AND THOSE OF WOM E N AND LOST H E NCE­ FORTH M I N E A N D IN H E A V E N FOREVER. W H I C H IS A PURE MOTOR FUNCTION AND CAN B E P E R FO R M E D EQUALLY WELL B Y T H E IGNORANT OR A N I M A LS . LES AVENTURES DU CAPITA I N E TIO N A L ESPIONAGE. " P A U L V I R I LIO. N UC L E A I R E S ( PA R I S : 80URGOIS. I S A G EOG RA P H I C A L N A M E PASSAG E R. COMES FROM TH E EARTH. F I N A LL Y K I LLS H ER: "MY B E LOVED. M A R R I ED.

T H E P R E ­ SOCRATIC PHI LOSOPHE R S P E R H A PS F I RST SPOKE OF LOVE IN TH E CONTEXT O F STRI FE. THE ADDED DIFFICULTY IS THAT OF B E I N G W I TH I N OR O U TS I D E A P A R TI C U LA R T Y P E O F D I SC O U R S E . PHI LOSOPH I C O R OTHER. A LTHOUGH A M O R E F E RTI LE NOTION OF THE I M PORTA NCE AND PREVALENCE OF E ROTIC DRIVE AND PRESENCE IN ALL H U M A N E X P E R I E N C E . THE I M PU L S E OF A S E X U A L NATURE OR FORCE IS S E E N SUBOR D I N ATED TO AN A RCHE:. 249 . GEN ERA LLY O N TH E G ROUNDS O F A N ARCHE: O F REASON.B E I NG O U R SEXUAL-BODI ES. AND RICHNESS O F "BODY" A N D "BODI LY" EXPERIENCE. MOST OBVIOUSLY. RATHER. IF W E ARE CONFRONTED B Y THE D I F F I C U LTY O F TA K I N G UP A DI S C O U R S E ON SEXUALITY FROM " W I T H I N" T H E R EG I O N O F TRADITI O N A L P H I LOSOPHY I T I S B EC A U S E O F T H E R I G I D B U T S T I C K Y G R I D I T H A S E N FO R C E D . T H E P L A TO N I C D O C T R I N E M U ST ULTI MATELY FACE ITS OWNMOST I M POVER I S H M E N T I N THE RIGI DITY A N D STER I LITY OF CARTES I A N M I ND­ BODY DUALI SM.DISCOU RSE A N D SEXUA LITY: TOWARD THE TEXT U R E OF E ROS A LTHOUGH IT IS NOT APPARENT THAT TRA DITIONA L PHI LOSOPHY H A S H A D M UC H OF VA L U E T O SAY ABOUT THE FROM THIS BODY AND REGA R D I N G S E X U A LITY. LOVE­ STRIFE. I F THE PLATO N I C CONSIDERATION OF "EROS" I S A FULLER. WITHOUT FORCI N G T H E STA M P OF B E I N G (WHICH N I E TZSC H E R I GHTLY I N DI C AT E D A S T H E T R A P OF A L L TH I N K I N G A N D SPEAKINGI. ODDS WITH THE HIGHER STATUS OF T H E "EIDOS" TO WHICH IT IS DRAWN. THE STAGE OF E M P I R I C A L H Y POTH E S I S AND V E R I F I CATION WAS ONLY S U PPOSED. WAS CARRIED O N WITHOUT A N Y REFERENCE TO THE "FLESH" OF BODIES. IN SUCH A FASHION. I N TRODUCING PASSION OR THR U ST A S FORCED U PON THE GRID OF A TELOS. WHICH W I L L I N F I LTRATE ITS PA R T I C U L A R E P I STEMOLOG I C A L G R I D U PO N OUR SEEI NG. IT R E M A I N S N O N E T H E L E S S I N FECTED B Y T H E S A M E PROBLEM O F BEING AT IF O N E T H E N C A N B E G I N TO S P E A K OF T H E U PON T H E I R B EC O M I N G MOVEMENT A N D PLAY O F BODIES. D I SC O U R S E TOWA R D A BEGI N N I NG WITH THIS R E A LISATION O N E MAY MOVE LACKING D I S CO U R S E O F T H E B O D Y W I T H U S. H E N C E . LOVE OR PASSION A S MOVEM E NT WAS CON F I N E D TO THE TOPOS CONTROLLED B Y A S U B JECT. I T BECOMES CLEAR TO WHAT DEGREE DIALECTI C A L OPPOSITION. E P I STEMOLOG I C A L L Y D E R I VED. U PO N T H E P L A Y . R IC H E R D I SC O U R S E U PO N T H E POLY­ MORPHOUS C H A RACTER OF E ROTIC DRIVE AND ITS UPHOLDING O R I N FO R M I N G THE G R I D OF THE WORLD K N O W N TO M A N . THE D I SCOU R S E A B O U T T H I S I M P U LS E . M O V E M E N T . SOON TO BECOME A LL-REASONABLE.

H ETEROS E X U A L SPACE O F HEGELIAN " I N T E L L I G I B I L I TY " OR APPROBATIONS ONT L I E U SYM BOLI Q U E M E NT. I N A N Y CASE. SEXUALITY-PROC R EATION AND ITS I N STITUTION IN AND U P HOLDING. O N E SHOULD O N LY HOPE TO GLI M PSE T H E I R COUNTER-FACING B E Y O N D O R A BO V E T H E S U R F A C E O F T H E I R E M E RG E N C E FOR DERRIDA AS T H R U STS O F I M M A N E N C E O R DEBRIS OR TRANSCENDENCE. I MAGED FORM AND MOVEM E N T O F T H E D I V I N E . GENET A D E CID E . T H E I R COLLAPSE HAS L E FT ONLY THE R E S I D U E OF DI SCOURSE. D E R R I D A H A S H I N T E D W E L L AT TH E I M POTE N C E OF PH I LOSO P H Y AS SO U N D I NG ITS DEATH-KNELL WITH THE C U L M I NATING PHI LOSOPHY OF H EG E L ." S A RTRE C LA I M S . THE SCATTE RED R E M A I N S OF W H I C H POI NT T O THE POLA R O P POSITIONS OF A N I M POTENT. IN SPITE OF T H E CONTRAST OF "SEX U A L" TH E M E S WITH CON C E PTUAL. IN FORC I N G THE FLESHY-SENSUAL PROSE AND POETRY O F GENET I N TO T H E CONCEPTUAL MOLD OF TH E PACKAGED "SYM BOL.R U N RESULTS O F BOTH WRITERS' SUBJ ECT­ ING CAL THE M A N . C E PETIT HOMME E NER­ G I Q U E ET ACTIF S'EST VOU E A A LA FOLLE ENTREPRISE DE DEVENIR CE QU'IL EST DE J A ET DE DE TRUI RE CE QU'IL NE PEUT EMPECHER D' ETRE. M UC H LESS TO WHICH WE COULD S P E A K AND SEE.P H A L L U S O F H E G E L. I N STALLS ITSELF U N I V E R S A L LY A T TH E EXPENSE OF T H E SC U LPTED. BEING PASSED DOWN OR FALLING TO US A S SOLI DIFIED. T H E H O P E D-FOR OSC I L L A T I O N SOLI D I F I ES A N D T H E D U A L E RECTIONS. LESS A LLUSIVE THAN DERRI DA. A U S S I TOT SA VOLONT E SE VOLATI LISE DANS L'I MAGINAIRE. U LT I M A T E L Y . D E R R I DA'S D I SCOURSE ABOUT H EGEL AND GENET M A Y B E TAKEN A S A SUGGESTION OR WARNING A BOUT THE INTRINSICALLY STU LTI FYING TENDENCY O F THOUGHT TO OVE RCOM E THE BODY. SARTRE H A S P E R H A PS ONLY BEEN MORE BLU NT. A D M I R A BLE EXC R E M E NT. SUBJ ECTED TO THE OVE R TH E FUNCTION A N D DESTI NY OF THE FORM E R W H E N T H E M A R G I N S O F PHILOSOPHI C A L ENDEA­ VO U R A R E P U S H E D TO OV E R F LO W . FEEL IT RESPOND. ' DERRIDA SHOWS FORCEFU LLY THE EXTENT TO WHICH TH E A D M I RABLE E XC R E M ENT OF H EGEL IS STI L L AMONG US IN THE FOR M OF HIS CONSI DERATIONS A S TO THE G E N E RATION AND F I L I ATION OF THOUGHT. YET. C'EST QU'ELLE RE VE QU'ELLE LE VEUT. YET. BECOME FLACCID. HOMOSEXUAL. DERRIDA PHALLUS WITH THE DESIRE FOR CLOTURE MOVEM E N T HIS OF OF M I N D. COLLAPSE I NTO TH E GENE RATION OF A N E M PTY DISCOURSE. DIVINE A N D H U M A N . DE SE FA I RE SYMBOLE. A SON INSU. DU JOUR 00 IL A CHOISI DE VOULOI R SON DESTIN.W O R K . Y ET . I S A T THE I R O N I C A LLY PA R A L L E L S A N D A LLEGED NON­ THE C O L L A P S E OF T H E H EGELI A N CONC E PTU A L I M POTE N C E I M PO T E N C E OF G E N ET'S EXPRESSIVE WORK. PLAY. B E T W E E N DION YSOS A N D C H RIST. I N ORDER THAT PLAY R E M A I N A T T H E H EART OF THOUGHT­ BODY. H A S GENET B E E N GIVEN A N ADEQUATE A N D E M PATH ETIC TREATMENT? IT WOULD B E A S E V E R E M I STAKE TO CONFUSE T H E RESPECTIVE T REATM E N T OF G E N ET BY D E R R I DA AND SARTRE I N A S M U C H A S BOTH D I F F E R I N SUBSTA N TI A L A N D PARTICULAR DETA I LS. "I NCOM M U N ICABILITY" OF LITERARY SPACE WITH G E N ET LURKING IN THE W INGS.I N FORMED BY THE STATE. SAME TI M E A TH R U ST TOWA RD A N D EXPRESSION. AND FORCE. M O V E M E N T IS S A C R I F I C E D TO T H E OVER-DOM I N A N T PRESENCE O F A W H A T IS P E R H A P S U LT I M A T E L Y ST R I K I N G A N D STRANGE ABOUT D E R R I DA'S TREATM ENT OF HEGEL­ GEN ET. C REATIVE MOVEM ENT. C U LT I V A T E D M A N . THE ELABORATION OF THOUGHT-BODY M UST REMAIN WITHOUT PRESENT SEXUAL-EXPERI ENCE-BECOM E-LiTE RARY. T H E D I A LECTIC OF C H I LO-BI RTH A N D FATH E R -DEATH. T H E FIGURE O F M A ti. TH E FOR C E OF SA RTRE'S CRITIQUE AND A P P ROACH TO G E N ET AND HIS S E X U A L-LITE RARY EXPE R I E N C E 250 . WILL NOT S U F F I C E . H EG E L I A N SCH E M A S. HENCE.W H I C H ENTA ILS A TRUNCATED MOVEM ENT. IT C A N NOT OFFER TO US ANY LONGER ITS FACE U PON WHICH W E COULD GAZE. VO U E E S PA R N A T U R E A DE M E U R E R S E S D E STR U C T I O N S E T S E S INEFFICACES. TO US IN ALL ITS M OV E M E NT. I S T H A T D E R R I DA I M PLICITYLY ACC E PTS A DISJUNC­ TU R E OR D I SCONTI N UITY BETWE E N P H I LOSOP H Y A N D LITERATURE. D E R R I DA'S DISCOU RSE E M ERGES IN ITS RELIANCE U PO N G E N E T AS C O U N T E R-TH R U ST TO T H E T H O U G H T.G E N ET. T H A T O F REASON.W O R K -G E N ET A N D SEEM H I S S E X U A L­ LITE R A R Y EXPRESSION TO A TYPE OF P H I LOSOPH I­ SCR UTI N Y N O N E TOO D I S T A N T I N S UBSTA NCE. T H E I N A DEQUACY O F T H I S J U M P I S NOWH E R E MORE C L E A R LY EVI DENCED T H A N I N THE PERSON AND WOR K O F G E N ET H I M S E LF . THE HEGELI A N BODY HAS N O F L E S H . H E ONLY WEAKLY SUGGESTS THAT ONE MA Y N E E D TO R EC O N S I D E R THE RESEMBLANCE NOUS POU VON S A P R E S E N T COM P R E N D R E L'AVENTURE D E GENET. TH E LATTER S E E M S T O T A K E MOVE MENT O R T H R U ST. A L W A Y S A S R E A S O N A B L E . 2 A N E N R I C H E D B U T NON­ G E N E RATIVE. HOWEVER. FOR T H E "STUFF" OF THE R E L A T I O N S H I P O F T H E M A N . BEING. THE LONG . NO V U L N E R A B I LITY. PUI SQU'ELLE VEUT CE QU'ON NE PEUT VOULOI R. DE S'EXPRI MER PAR DES SYMBOLES ET DE VIVRE AU M I LIEU DES SYMBOLES.

FOR SARTRE. N U I T DU NON-SAVOI R: I L N E 'S'AGIT PAS D' U N E O'IMAGES POES I E APOLLI NIENNE Q U I JOU I R A I T STRONGLY H ETEROSEX U A L-CONCEPT UA L STA NCE I N H A BITING IN TOW A R D C R E A T I V I T Y . D I S -C U R S I VE.PRODUCTI VE. PERTA I N S TO LANGUAGE. IS ITS E L F S O L I D . G E N E T ' S BRI LLANTES ET V I L I B L E S . IL N'A P LUS AUCUN US THAT T H E P L A C E OF PASSION I N G E N E R A L A N D SEXUAL I N TE R C O U R S E IN ITS H ET E R OS E X U A L RAPPORT "NORMAL". SARTRE HAS C E RTA I N LY BETRAYED THE POVERTY OF AT LEAST PART OF HIS PROJECT IN ONE SHORT C H A R ACTE RIZATION OF GEN ET: A N D ITS D I SCOU R S E ON SARTRE TO C A P­ SEXUALITY. I N HIS C H A R A CTERIZATION OF GENET AS U N A BLE. LE NEANT. LA NEGATION QUI MARQ U E NT L'EMOTION POETIQUE. G E N ETS NON-EXPRESSIVE PLACE OF DISCOURSE.e THE FORCE OF E PI S T E M OLOGY H A S THE OPTI Q U E SARTR E A N A LT H O U G H THERE IS A C E R TA I N D E PTH AND OFTE N L I M ITED WITH IF NOT THE CRUSHED WHICH RICHNESS T O SARTR E'S TALK OF G E N ET A N D HIS WOR K .IS TO REDUCE TH E M TO THE LOC U S OF THE C O N SC I O U S N E S S FASH ION IS A LACK WHICH UP IN FUTILE MAKE I M A G I N A R Y OR E MOTI ONAL. SEXUAL A N D LITE RARY. IT MUST B E S A I D THAT I N TH E E N D SARTRE HAS ON LY MADE GENET MORE M A N AGEABLE FOR US. TIVATE. T H E PLACE FOR SARTRE WHICH I S ONE OF MAGICAL T R A N S FO R MATION OF A TT E M PTS IN TO FILL ITSELF. I N TO TH E NOTH I N G THAT H E R E T U R N S TOWARD. FALL I NTO NOT H I NGN ESS PROFF E R E D BY TH E POETRY OF EMOTION OR POETIC EMOTI O N . T H E PLACE O F SYM BOL. SC I O U S N E S S ACH I EVES I F. P A R T I C I PATION L U ST. EM PTY.W O R K-G E N E T I N FI LLING U P H O L E S I N B E I NG. N E I T H E R FOR G E N ET IN "SURPAS­ SI NG" HIS SITUATION. G RA S P I N G C H A R ACTER O F TH E CA RESS. FOR TH E MOST P A R T. SEES FOR TH I S WHAT SARTRE OF G E N ET'S ULTI M ATELY SYMBOLIC AS THE PLACE INVOLVEM ENT: REMAINS I M PR I SO N E D B Y TH E CHUTE. C ' E S T LE SEXUAL-LITE RARY FASHION TH E PLAC E OF SYM BOL AND THE PECULIA R MOVEM E N T THAT PLACE VERTIGE. FOR A LL HIS E XTE N S I V E USE OF G E N E RA LIZED SARTRE M A R X I ST. WITH A DISCOURSE WHICH REMAINS THE LUC I D ITY O F A P P RO AC H I NG RADICAL RELATION TO CONSC I O U S N E S S AS ONE OF NEGATION. NON-C REATIVE.U P-TOWA RD. ENTA I L. O N E WI LL NOT BE S U R P R I S E D BY THE RAPIDLY A N O EASI LY CONQUERE D NOTI O N S OF BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS I N TO TH E COURSE U PON SEXUA LITY A S WELL A S THE ABI LITY TO I N H A BIT THE PLACE OF SYM BOL W H I L E HANGING ON TO ANY VESTIGES OF CONCEPTUAL THOUGHT. IN A TUMBLE TO THE BACK FA LLI NG­ RESTRICTED SENSE. I N E F F ECTUAL TO CARRY H I MSELF TOW A R D A PLACE W H I C H WOULD BE CON-STRUCTI VE.P L E N I T U D E" I N PR O S E . THE T H R UST OF A PENIS IN AS PROJECT-U PON-TH E-WORLD. 4 ENTA I LS. RI ES. 3 DE PROSE AVEC PARTI C U L A R ITY CASE OF THE I S N O MORE THAN THE S P E C I A L ONTOLOGICAL. I N B E I N G A N O NOTH INGNESS A R E S E E N 215 1 . ALTHOUGH THE S P I R I T OF TH E SARTREAN E N TER­ PRISE H A S CERTA I NLY BEEN TO CON S I D E R " E V E R Y HUMAN FACT' AS SIGNI FICATIVE.F I L L I N G . C'EST-A' O I R E LE LANGUAGE. I M POTENT. AND WITH PLA C E OF THE DEPTH TH E I R I NTERFACE7 SARTREAN LUCI DITY WOULD CON V I N C E DES SON A DOLESC ENCE. IS. SARTRE U LT I M A T E L Y REMAINS THE M ETA­ OSC I L L A T O R Y . HOWEVER. CAN ONE E X PECT W I TH R E F U R B I S H E D H EG E L I A N C AT E GO­ OF THE S Y M BOL THE OR TH E OF THE PATHOS SYM BOL'S PASSION. CAPABLE OF A N Y C A S E MAN THE AT L E A ST THE WORLD. THE NOR M A LC Y OF PROSE FOR SA RTRE.H U M A N TH R U ST O F TH E VACUITY O F SA RTRE'S TREATM E N T OF SYMBOL­ PROSE I S STR I K I N G A N D I N STR UCTI V E AS TO THE I N A DEQUACY OF THIS APPROACH WITH RES PECT TO THE COMPLEXITY O F THE M A N .F R E U D I A N H I G H LY NOTI ONS. I S S E E N BY SARTRE A S NON. T H E TOUCH I NG-SEIZI NG OF A B R E A ST AS AN ATTE M PT TO GET HOLO OF BEING. IN A LA RGER CONTEXT. LE MANQUE. C A N N OT A C H I E V E T H E E X P E R I E NCE I N I TS PARA LLELING M O V E M E N T OF THAT " L A C K . VIDE. F O L L OW I N G SUGGESTIONS O F EXISTENTIAL PSYC HOA N A LYSIS STA U N C H D E F E N D E R O F A PHYSICAL-RELIGIOUS VIEW TRADITIONAL ON BROA D OUTLI N E . NOR FOR U S I N B E I NG SPOKEN TO FROM THIS. I T WOULO S H O W U S T H E A PPROP R I AT I V E . I F THE LUC I D PROSE OF KNOWING I S TO B E E N FORCED VERSUS TH E M U RKY. THAT NORMALCY HAS A S ITS REFERENCE THE SPEECH AND CATEGORIES O F N EG A T I N G AND A PP R O P R I A T I V E CONSCIOUS­ E N C LOS U R E A LWAYS BEYON D . ONE M U ST NOT B E A R DOWN TOO DEE PLY I NTO TH E PLACE OF SEXUA L-SYMBOL FOR FEA R OF TH E BOTTO M L E S S IS PLU N G E IT MIGHT TOWA R D E XPRESSION. I M PLICIT I S THE C H A RG E THAT GEN ET. VAGINA AS M AN'S THE PARTICULAR A N D TO A N Y D I SCOURSE I N G E N E R AL. A N D PROJ ECTS CAREFUL LAYI N G-OUT OF THE TH E CATEGO R I E S AND IN MOVEM ENTS O F H U M A N CON­ SITUATIONS W H I C H S A RT R E N ESS WHICH SARTRE LA I D OUT MOST EXTENSIVELY IN BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS. DEFUSED THE QU ESTI O N FORCE OF G E N ETS THROWING POSS I B I L I ITY OF ANY DIS­ PH ENOM E N A ARE VI EWED.

A N A LYSIS IS TO I N D I C ATE STI F L I N G THE OF R E ST R I C T I O N . FOUC A U LT SHOWS THE EXTENT TO W H I C H . T H E STRE NGTH AND D E PTH OF F O U C A U LT ' S C O N FI N E M E N T. L U C I DITY OF A P P R O P R I A T I V E C O N SC I O U S N E S S W H I C H FASHIONS T H E B A S I S A N D T H E PROSE O F ITS OWN MOST D I SCOU R S E TO THE OF I N VOL V E M E N T WITH TH E STRICT EXCLUSION N IGHT OF NON­ FOUC A U LTS TALK O F T H E POSSI B I LITY O F S E X U A L D I SCOU R S E I N T H I S CONTEXT I S THEN B A S E D U PO N TH E R E C I PROCAL I N T E R C H A N G E A N D ECONOMY OF REPRESSION AND TIVELY SUCH AND P R E D I C A TION WHICH AND R E S PE C ­ U PH O L D IS TO K NOWLEDGE. TH AT ONE M UST PUSH IN THE TWO D I R ECTI ONS AT ONCE. A S WELL A S I NVOLV E D IN A R E VO L UTION OF PLEASURE. H I STOR I C A L-TH E O R E T I C A L. A FOUC A U LTS ATT E M PT I N SPITE OF T H E L I M ITATI O N S O F SARTRE'S VIEW TO AND DI SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. REICH A N D OTH E RS. S U B J ECT­ OBJECT." T H E ESSENTI A L QU ESTI O N S : I S T H E R E PRESSION O F S E X U A LITY A N D D I SCO U R S E A BOUT I T R E A LLY I N SARTRE. A N D I NCOM M U N I C A B I LITY UPON THE SPACE D E PTH A N D R I C H E S OF TH E PLACE OF T H E V E RTIGE 2152 .B O D Y . MOD E R N MICHEL FOUC A U LT HAVING I N EXIS­ D I SC O U R S E ON S E X U A LITY H A V E N O T SO M UC H B E E N RESTRICTED BY A RIGOUROUS P R I N C I P L E O F S E LECTION A N D TABDO BUT F I N A LLY D I F F U S E D A N D D E F U S E D BY BROAD D I S S E M I N ATION AND E M PLAC E M E N T BY THE WILL TO KNOW. DECREE OF T E N C E . MAIS POURQUOI D I SONS-NOUS. ONLY TO BE DOMESTI­ CATED BY AND AND I NTO A SCIENCE OF S E X U A LITY. THROUGH F R E U D . THE SPEAKS I M PO S E D OF ITS P U R I TA N I S M ' S PROHI BITION. M UT U A L L Y R E ST R I C T D I SC O U R S E . Y E T . WE HAVE H I NTED AT TH E NEED TO CON S I D E R SEXUALITY I N ITS "SYMBOLIC" D E PTH RATH E R T H A N AS A M E R E M E A N S TO T H E F U LFI LLMENT OF T H E O N TOLOG I C A L. H I ST O R I ­ C A L-POLITICAL. AND D I SCOU R S E O N S E X U A LITY A N D T H E R E P R ESSION OF S E X U A LITY IN TH E V E R Y LOC U S W H E R E SUCH TALK A PP E A R S TO BE IN THE OPEN.E P I ST E M OLOG I C A L "H U M A N . T H O U G H T. RATH E R . IN S P E A K I N G OF T H I S P E R PETUAL GAME OF H I D E AND S E E K W H I C H P H I LOSOPHICAL D I SCOU RSE I S COWA RDLY WONT TO P U R S U E . AT I SS U E FOR EACH LEVEL A R E D'ALLER JUSQU'AU BOUT DE NOUS-M � M E DANS LES DEUX DI RECTIONS A LA FOIS. YET. THIS F U N C TI O N I N G IS IN THE DAY-LIGHT. ALBEIT UNABLE TO CARRY OUT THAT A G A I N ST THE G R A I N O F G E N E R A L R E P R ESSION OR I N STALL I T S E LF AND FIND ITSELF SITUATED FROM W I TH I N THAT FIELD AND SOU RCE OF R E P R ESSION? S E E I NG CON S I STENTLY. E V E N S I N C E THE E N D OF T H E S I XT E E NTH C E NTU RY. A T T H E END OF G E N ETS HIS LONG W O R K HE AND INTRODUCTION TO LA QU ESTION Q U E JE VOU D R A I S POSER N'EST PAS: PO U R Q U O I SO M M E S . DUALISMS. YET. THE CONFI N I N G CONTEXT OUT OF W H I C H IT M IGHT A R I SE. T H E P U TT I N G I N THE O P E N OF D I SC O U R S E A S TO S E X U A LITY H A S NOT BEEN S U BJECTED TO MERE R E ST R I C T I O N IN A F I L L O U T TH I S PURSUING THE COU R SE ON S E X U A LITY. I S LUCIO ENOUGH TO SEE HIS OWN D I SCOU R S E AS ENSNARED TO EVIDENCE H I STOR I C A LLY? I S T H E MECHANISM O F POW E R I N SOC I ETI ES SUCH A S O U R S ESSENTIALLY OF THE R E P R E S S I V E O R D E R ? DOES THE C RI T I C A L OF AND A BO U T SEXUA LITY RUN D I S CO U R S E SOM E DEG R E E I N TH E G R I DS O F THE TRADITIONAL M I N D . FOR THE MOMENT." IT WILL B E N E C E S S A R Y TO RETURN TO A N D DEPTH. O R D E R T O STOP F L E E I N G T H E "OBJ ECTI VE" B Y THE " S U BJ ECTI VE" "OBJECTI VE": AND CONTRE NOUS-MEM ES.S I T U A ­ TION. R EG I O N A L ONTOLOGY PERTA I N I NG TO SEXUA LITY. IT H A S BEEN R ESTRICTIONS TA M E p I RO N I C A LLY BY A GROWING I NC I T E M E N T TO COM E OUT I NTO T H E OPEN. AVEC TANT D E PASSION. TANT DE PLUS RANCOE U R CONTRE NOTRE PASSE LE CONTRE NOTR E QUE PRESENT ET WORKS. H E HAS A T LEAST THE SENSE TO SEE. IT I S N ECESSARY T O S E E THE H I STOR I C A L A S U PO N W E L L A S " P H I LOSO P H I C A L" ANY S U C H DISCOURSE AND SOLELY N EGATIVE SENSE. N O U S-SOM M E S TH E " S U BJECTI VE" BY T H E R E P R I M ES?7 FO U C A U LT C LA I M S AT L E AST TH R E E FAC ETS FOR CE JEU QU'AU DE CACHE-CACHE NE PRENDRA FIN HIS STRATEGY OF R E PLYI NG TO THIS Q U ESTIO N­ JOUR 00 NOUS A U RONS LE COU RAGE H I STO R I C A L. I N D I F F I C U LTI E S OF DOING A DIS­ I N B RO A D OUTLI N E . F I N A LLY BEYOND THEM.N O U S REPRIMES.WELL AS F U N C TI O N I NG IN TH E P A R TI C U L A R OF SEXUAL D I SC O U R S E . SUGGESTS EVEN I NTO TH E THAT ONE M IGHT N E E D TO P L U N G E I M AGI N A R Y I N P R OC H E .E X P R E S S I V I T Y . THE RECENT MODERN A G E I S E X POSED TO T H E SCI E N C E OF S E X U A LITY. S E X U A LITY I N I NTRODUC I NG TH E FI RST PAGES OF A CONTI NU­ I NG WORK ON A S E X U A LI T Y . IT IS A P P A R E NT OUTLI N E R E S P O N S E T O A N D T H E N G O BEYOND O N E P R I M A RY QUESTION: THAT HE IS A W A R E OF I M PO S I N G A C E RTA IN G R I D OF S U B J ECT-OBJ ECT U PON G E N ET IN PARTI C U L A R A N D U PO N THE S E N S U A L-SYMBOLIC I N G E N E R A L.

RATH ER. CE QUI EST PROPRE AUX SOClirr ES MODERNES. HE C LA I M S THAT EACH THE WESTE R N SCIENTIA E N G U L F M E N T IN THE I N VO L V E S POVERTY OF CLINICAL POW E R DO N O T N EGATE SEXUALIS ITS NOR S I M PLY V I E F O R TH E I R THEY "CHASE RES PECTIVE A FTER EACH CODI FICATION O F S E X U A L CONFESSION BASED ON THEORIES OF GENERAL SEX U A L C A U SALITY APPLIED TO THE WILL TO POS ITIONS. " P E R VERSIONS" STATUS.OF NON-KNOW I N G BEEN OF SEX U A L-SYMBOLIC-POTE NCY BY THE K N OW I NG EFFICIENT M A N AG E M E NT. YET. ARS E ROTICA KNOWS NO REFERENCE TO C R I TERI A OF U T I L I TY. FILI ATION-G E N E RATION OF THE HEGELI A N SC HEMA. I T I S A LAT E R A L A N D DEPTH PLUNGE I NTO THE S P A C E OF R I C H N ESS AND AB U N D A NCE OF LIFE. SEXUAL DISCOURSE MORE­ O V E R . A N AND ITS M ENACES. . HAVE T R A N S FO R M E D D I SCOURSE I N THE O P E N OF A M O D E R N A LCH E M Y WHICH PROBES RATHER TH A N PA RTICI PATES WITH TH E H I DDEN SECRET: THE QU ESTION OF CONTROL IS MORE R I C H LY OUTL I N E D AS FOUCA U LT CONTRASTS "ARS EROTICA" WITH "SCI ENTIA SEXUA LIS. OF U PO N FROM "T R U T H " SEXUALITY PLEA S U R E ITSELF.PO L I T I C A L CONTROL PLEASURES. CE N'EST PAS QU'ELLES A l E NT VOU E LE SEXE A RESTER DANS L'OMBRE. EVEN A LLOW I N G ROOM FOR A COM PLEXITY OF "PERVERSIONS" OF SEXUAL BEHAVIOURS AND ACTS. . I F L I N E A R I TY I S G I V E N U P FOR S P I R A LS OR CONC ENTRIC WEBS WHICH A LLOW "PERVE RSIONS" AT THE M A R G I N S OR EXTR E M ITIES. OF PLEASU R E AND TH E SEXUAL PLACE IS O UTDIS­ TA NCED BY THE SI LENT RESPONSE OF DOM I N ATION OF H E WHO LI STE N S TO THE S E X U A L CON FESSION OR WHO CATEGORIZES AND CLASS I F I E S IT. C'EST Q U ' E LLES SE ARABIC-MOSLEM DRAWING THE COUNTRIES.LAW." WHEREAS A RS EROTIC . EN LE FAISANT VALOIR COMME LE SECRET. RICH A N D COMPLEX D E PTHS AS EXPER­ IENCE. ABSOLUTE LAWS OF OF TH I S THE I T S B E I N G TA M E D TH E N A TU R E. CATEGO R I ES PERMISSION A N D TABOO. ONE BY GIVING I N CORPORATE A N A LYSTI C CONCEP­ E X T E R I O R. TA K E N A S A P R A X I S I N T H E M OST INTI MATE. OTH E R A N D GET ENTANGLED THE ONE WITH TH E OTH E R ACCO R D I NG TO COMPLEX M E C H A N I S M S OF EXC ITATION AND EXCITING EACH OTH E R ONWA RD. S E X U A LITY V I EWED FROM THE GRID OF A D U LTS-C H I L D R E N . A FORG ETTI N G OF T I M E A N D LIM ITS. IT IS A EXILE FOR DEATH RE PROACH TO AN EXC L U S I O N . PLEASURE AND THE DEPTH IT ENTA I LS . D I R ECT L I N E S OF H I NGES P R I M A R I LY ON I T S BEING OR B ECOM I NG THE BASTA R D FORM OF T H E RICHER ARS EROTICA -ALL BY WAY O F CEDI NG OVER THE PLACE OF SEXUALITY TO TH E G R E E D AND S E I Z U R E OF THE COURTROOM AND CON FESSION WHICH I S THE PLACE OF A VOWING THE S E C R ET. O N E'S OWN MOST RESPON S E WITH AND TO YET.D I S C R E E T M A R R I A G E . THEM THAT SEES READILY THE THE PO V E R T Y O F W E S T E R N SCI E NTIA S E X U A L I S TUAL GRID WHICH U PHOLDS S E X U A L D I SCOURSE IS BROA D E R THAN THE S TA I D . T O I N DI CATE T H E C R U C I A L LATE R A L S P R E A D OF SEXUALITY I N A N D THROUGH R E LATIONS OF A S OC I A L . FOUCA U LT I S N O T O N L Y CONC E R N E D T O SHOW THE E P I S T E M O LOG I C A L M ATTE R S AND M I S-M A N A G E M ENT BUT.P O L I T I C A L PLEA S U R E OTH ER. KNOW T H E SEXUA L E X P E R I E NCE DOM I N ATES A N D CRUSHES THE PLACE A N D DISCOURSE O F SEXUALI­ TY A N D ITS RICH POTE NTI A L OF I N D I V I DUATION A N D EXPRESS I O N TOWA RD ON O N E'S OWN MOST AND TE R M S AND AGE I S PLAG U E D BY I TS CON F I N E M E N T IN THE OPEN: A S SUCH IT I S I N VOLVED IN A VAST SYSTEM OF WHICH TA K E S IT O N E'S D E E PEST MOST P E R SO N A L SOC I O .I N ST I T U T I O N S I M PLIES C LASSI FICATION A N D CON F I N E M ENT WHICH I S NONETH ELESS BROAD ENOUGH TO MAKE ROOM FOR " D I S P A R ATE" B E H A V I O U R .I N T E R I O R D U A L I S M . CON FESSED. AND FABRIC.. S E X U A L DISCOURSE IN THE RECENT PARTI C U L A R EXPERI ENCE. T H E PLACE OF SEXUA LITY AND DISCOURSE TO AND WITH THAT ASSERTED. SCI ENTIA SEXUALIS H A S TYPI F I E D WESTE R N "EXPE R I E NCE" A N D CON F I N E M ENT OF THE TR UTH OF SOIENT VOUEES A EN PARLER TOUJOURS. S E X U A LI T Y M U ST BE A F F I R M ED." I RO N I C A LLY. . THE DEPTH O F SEXUAL EXPE RI ENCE BECOMES G LOSSED OVER A S A TYPE OF LATENCY INTRINSIC TO S E X U A LITY BUT WHICH M U ST BE SER IOUSLY A N D BROADLY. S F O U C A U LT "FORE" W I TH I N DISCUSSES SECRET THE AND OF BRI NGING TO THE SEXUALITY. IS R E P LA C E D BY THE PLEA S U R E OF PLA C E ARE ONLY COV E R E D OVER A N D M A NAGED BY A NEW PURITA N I S M . OWN­ MOST G R A S P OF O N E'S T I M E-SPACE BY TOUC H I N G TH E TEXT U R E OF THE P L A C E OF THE POWER OF L I F E . F O R IT T O T A K E I T S PLACE I N WEST E R N SOCIETY. T H E N EW P U R I TA N I S M AND STIFLING OF A DEEPER DIS­ C O U R S E W I T H SEXUA LITY I S SET U P BY M E DICAL­ SC I E N T I F I C P R I ESTS AS THE FORCE OF THE C H U RCH-C LERGY W A N ES. A N A LYSI S . I T I N HABITS TH E PLACE O F MASTERY OF A N D WITH R E S PONSE TO O N E'S BODY. ITS U N I Q U E AND PARTIC U L A R JOY A N D PLEA S U R E . A CONTROL. AS M A N I FEST AND P R A CT I C E D IN E A STE R N RELIED AND . T H U S A LLOWI NG A MORE BROUGHT TO THE FOR E OF DAYLIGHT LUCIDITY A N D 2153 .

LAWRENCE SAW B E I NG SMOTH E R E D BY S E X U A L. IT IS NOT LA SEULE SEXUA LITE IMPE RATIFS DE ALTOGETH ER C L E A R THAT THE I R WOR K I NG G R I D OF M A C H I N E . THEY I N D ICATE A D I RECTION FOR E N RI C H E D D I SCOU RSE TO TA KE GREAT CONTR I BUTION OF PSYCHOANALYS I S T O A DISCOUSE ON S E X U A LITY.F E E D B A C K W I LL BE ULTI MATELY CAPABLE OF AVOI D I NG THE TRAP O F SCI E NTI A S E X U A L l S. THIS DUE PRI M A R I LY TO THE CA PACITY OF SCI ENTIA SEX UALIS FOR D I S P E RSION AND LATERAL CON F I N E M E NT. " A T TH E V E R Y L E A ST. LA TRAGE DIE.R E ACTION.UNCONSCIOUS-SYMBOL: A NEW SENSE FOR S E X U A L S U R FACE M UST BE DEVELOPED A N D GIVEN U N NOUVEL I D E A L I S M E : A L'INCONSCIENT COM M E U S I N E . . SI ON VEUT LA CENTR E R SUR LES MECANISMES DE R E P RESSION. B E I NG RE-PLACED BY THE S PECTATORS OF SOCI ETY A N D A N A LYST: EN ENCADRANT LA VIE DE L' E N F A N T DANS L'OEDIPE.K N O W I N G . ON SE CONDA M N E A M ECON N A ITRE LA PRODUCTION DE L'INCONSC I ENTE COLLECTIFS QUI LUI-MEME. DELEUZE A N D G U A TT A R I S P E A K OF T H E THE POVERTY O F M UC H O F THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC D I SCOURSE ON S E X U A LITY IS W E LL SKETC H E D OUT I N THESE R E M A R K S . AT THIS LEVEL ALSO CONTROL A N D FOLLOWING T H E ALLUSIVE S U GGESTION O F JOYCE AS TO RE-EMBOD I M E NT. ON A S UBSTITUE UN INCONSCIENT QUI N E POUVAIT PLUS QUE S'EXPRIMER (LE MYTHE. A M E DI C A L. D E L E U ZE­ G U ATTA RI TH ROW I NTO Q U E STION THE EPI STEMO­ LOGY AND A N C I ENT-TH EATRE OF PSYCHOANALYSIS WITH ITS SENSE WHICH OF RE-PRESENTATION ACCOMPLI S H E D AND AT EX­ TH E L'H I STO I R E DE LA S E X U A LITE. PARTICULARLY IN TOUC H I NG T H E DEPTHS O F T H E UNCONSCIOUS. THAT OF . EN FAISANT D E S R E LATIONS FAMILIALES L'UNIVERSE LLE M EDIATION DE L'ENFANCE. XX' MOINS DE LA HOWEVER." T H E T W O I N TE R P R E N ETRATE A N D I N FORM A N D S U PPORT EAC H OTH E R . ON A SU BSTITUE U N THEA ANTIQUE: A U X UN ITES DE PRODUCTION D E L'INCONSCIENT. SCIENTIA S E X UALIS H A S ITS MOST A R D E NT COMPANION I N THE C L I N I C A N D TH E PSYCHOLOGI­ C A L-SEXUAL LITE R A T U R E IT U PHOLDS AND PRAC­ TIC E S .CONFESSION RATH E R T H A N E X PLOR ED IN ITS OWN " N I G H T OF N O N . AS S UGGESTED B Y FOUCAULT A N D B ROUGHT OUT MORE CLEARLY I N HIS WORK ON MADN ESS AND TH E BI RTH OF CONFI N E M E N T A ND THE CLIN I C AND AS CONCRETELY CRITICIZED BY DELEUZE AND M E NT ORIG I N A I RE. DECENCE. .R EC O R D I N G .l ' O TEXTU RE.S E X U A L-BODY. ' REGARDING A N D WITH THE PLACE OF SEXUA LITY. ' 2 G U A TTA R I . FOR T H E C L I N I C WHICH THE H A S B ECO M E THE STAGE AND PIECES UPON SEXUALIS I N STALLS A N D E N FORCES A METHOD OF F R A G M E NTS OF THE INTER PRETATI ON. THEY R I G HTLY C R I TICIZE TH E A BORTIVE D' A I L L E U R S Q U ' I N F L E X I O N 254 . BUT THE A N A LYST I N PARTICULAR WHO RECORDS TH E S E X U A L CONFESSION. L' U N E A U COURS DU XVII' Snl:C LE: N A ISSANCE DES GRANDES PROH IBI­ TIONS. M I S E AU SILENCE ET PUDEURS AU I M PE RATIVES SI ECLE: DU LANGAGE: R U PT U R E L'AUTRE. THE STI FLING M A N N E R OF EXPOSING THAT D E PTH IS TH E UPHOLDING OF R I G I D CLASSI FICATION AS S E E N IN TH E P R A C T I C E OF H E A R I N G TH E AVOWALS OF COMPLEXES GROU N D E D I N A STE R I L E E P I STEMO­ LOGICAL PLACE. YET. LE REVE . SHATTER E D SEXUA L-S Y M BOLIC-PLACE HAVE B E E N STREWN. SC I E NTI A U S E OF MYTH A N D SYSTEM BY PSYCHOA NA LYSIS." THE RELATION M E NTION E D H E R E AS A N I D E NTITY M U ST B E FLESH E D-OUT AS THE PLACE OF I MPLOS I V E-EXPLOS I V E FUSION OF L I B I DO. " H E N C E . "C L I N I C A L" A N D " POLITICO-SOC I A L. J U DGES OF ACTS WHO THEN CONDEMN OR J U STI FY. SECONDLY. T H E PLA YERS NO LONGER A LLOWED TH E I R PLEAS U R A BLE PLACE. DES M A C H I N E S D E S I R A NTES ET D U CORPS SANS ORGA N E S . ET M A T R I M O N I A LE . S U PPOSE DEUX R U PTU R ES. MOREOVER.P S Y C H O LOG I C A L D I SC O U R S E . ET SE PRODUIT LUI-MEME L'I DENTITE DE LA NATURE ET DE L'HOM M E . CAR L ' I N CONSCIENT DANS EST ORPHELIN. FOUC A U LT WRITES: AC ROSS T O THAT D E PTH OF S E X U A L EXPE R I ENCE W H I C H D.H E R M E N E UTIC RAPE OF THE SEXUAL BODY. THE SOCIETY I N GENERAL WHICH LISTE NS. M A STERS OF THE TRUTH AND CONTROLL E R S OF A LT H O U G H THERE THE PLACE O F S E X U A LI T Y . O N A SUBSTITUE LA REPRESENTATION: A L'INCONSCIENT PRODUCTIF. NOTA M M E NT TOUT LE JEU D U R E FOULE­ FIRST.H. PORTENT A C R U S U R L'I NCON­ SCI E NT. AND WISH I NG TO TOU C H J U OG E M E NT A R E C R U C I A L. THE C L I N I C A L LEVEL A N D ITS STULTIFY­ I NG U S E O F A SEXUAL DISCOURSE I S AUGM ENTED AND MUTUA LLY I N T E R P E N ETRATED BY A POLITICO­ SOCIAL LEVEL. A LB E I T N O T ALWAYS E V I D E NT. VALORISATION A D U L TE DE PRESSION ARE EXPENSE OF THE L I V E D. THAT PLACE WHICH I S THE PEC U L I A R I N DI V I D U A L'S FUSION WITH "NATU RE. ET LES MECANISMES ARE AT LEAST TWO LEVELS I NVOLVED. BECOME MASTERS OF PARDON. . ESQUI V E OBLIGATOI RE DU CORPS. THAT PSYCHOA N A LYSIS A LONE CANNOT B R I N G-OUT THAT D E PTH A N D TEXT U R E BEGINS TO BE MORE E V I D E NT.

ON POU R R A I T D I R E Q U ' A U V I E U X D R O I T DE FAIRE MOURI R OU D E LAISSER VIVRE S'EST SUBSTITUE U N POUVO I R D E F A I RE V I V R E OU DE R E J ET E R DANS LA MORT. A N D OVERLY POLITI C A L D I S PA RATE. ANA LY­ P U N I SH M E N T A N D SEXUAL D I SC O U R S E . AND U LT I M A T E L Y R E ­ GREEK TEMPLE.PLOS I O N OF TH E WOOD. A N D PEACE. AND CON F I N E M E N T I S QUITE IT IS NOT C L E A R TO WHAT GESTU R E I S TO CAPTIVATE.E X PLOS I V E FO RCE O F LI B I D I N A L. AND AS THE MOUNTA I NS' CONTO U R S . I R E P L I E D T H A T I H A V E T O WORK FOR M Y THAT I AM NOT FORT U N ATE ENOUGH TO LIVI NG. ETE R N A L R ECOM P E N S E . . A R E A L L ALONG THE W A Y O F T H E CONTROL OF TH E FLESH O F I DENTITY O F N A T U R E A N D M A N . L I B I D I N A L I M PU LS E A N D ITS H I STO R Y O F CON FRON­ TATION WITH PERSUASIVE. ALTHOUGH 255 . A S FOOTPATHS ARE.COURBE: C'EST LE MOMENT DE LA R E P R E SSION 00 LES M E C A N I S M E S COMMENCE ITSELF I N THE I DENTITY O F NATU R E A N D M A N . Y O N D E R A GOD CAN COMPLETE WITH H A R M O N I ES.I D E NTITY. BOTH LESS AND MORE OF THAN A Q U ESTION OF MERE A VA I E NT A SE DESERRER . J ECTED SIS. H I S NEGATIVE. 1 4 WE HEA R THE CALM. HE ASKED ME TO MAKE ONE L I K E IT I N WOOD.G E N E T I C M O V E M E N T O F P R I M I T I V E ­ DESPOT-CA P I TA L A N D U LTI MATE D I SSOLUTION I N TO SCH I ZOPH R E N I A O F CONTEM PO R A R Y SOCI ETY A N D ITS RETURN TO A N E W B U T D I S. T H E I R OUTLI N I NG THE EX. CONTROL LED.S A V A G E . "OH BUT I A M A POOR C R E A T U R E : AND IN TH E SAME M I NUTE H E WROTE T H E FOLLOWI N G I F N ECESSA RY. ' 6 P A T H STREWN W I T H H U M A N F L E S H . S O M E W H A T Q U I ET VOICE O F THE S I M PL E C A R PE N T E R ZI M M E R AS H E WRITES TO H 6 L D E R L I N ' S HER SON'S MO T H E R D U R I NG TH E AND YEARS OF G ROWI NG " M A D N ESS" FREQU E N T SI LENCE: T H E POSS I B I L I T I E S OF T H E N E W P U R I T A N I S M . FA M I LI A R TEXTU R E A N D S I TE O F H I S USU A L D I SCOU R S E . POW E R Y E T. IT I S A QUESTIO N OF P U S H I N G T H E I R NOTI N OF DESI R I NG­ THE P R I M A R Y D I F F E R E N C E S B E T W E E N TH E TWO OF R E P R E S S IO N D I SC O U R S E R E G A R D I NG HANG ON S E X U A L I TY THE SOCIO­ MACH I N E S TO THE L I M I T : OF S E E I N G THE POSI T I V E SENSE OF THE D I S P E R S I O N OF L I B I D I N A L I M PU L S E EVEN U PO N AND BACK TOW A R D THE ANCIENT SORTS AND SEXUAL POLITICAL CA PACITY TO CONFI N E S E X U A L DE PTH TO A DE-LI M I T E D OR THEATRE O F SYM BOL-TRAGEDY : O F EXPLORING T H E SEARCH F O R A FULLNESS A N D D E PTH OF FLESH A S IT COUR S E S T H ROUGH A N D T R A C E S I T S E L F U PON LIFE. ' 5 TH E CON F I N E M E N T O F T H E SICK.P L A C E D SENSE O F THE P R I M I TI V E . I N VO L V E DISPERSION WHICH ACTIVE: I N M Y H O U S E H E S A W A DRAWI NG OF A M A N AGES A N D CONTROLS AT E V E R Y L E V E L A N D S E E K S O U T E V E R Y F I B R E O F T H E H U M A N PLAC E . M U T I L A T E D. A C LOSETED V E RTI C A L " O P E N " LAT E R A L SPACE TO A N U N . A N D FA S H I O N THE FLESH OF HIS WORLD TH ROUGH P O ET I C DI SCOU RSE. . TH E OLD P U R I T A N I S M C E D E S G LA D L Y TO THE N EW: T H E OLD TASK OF CON F I N E M E N T WAS TI R I NG AND U NABLE TO COPE ULTI M A T E L Y WITH T H E I M PLOS I V E . T H E STATUS OF HIS POETIC SPIRIT STI L L SHOWS ITSELF TO B E SCI ENTIA SEX U A LI S. T H E OPEN D I SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. C L A S S I F I E D. D E L E U ZE OUTLI N E D AND THE G UATTA R I HAVE MORE PATH FULLY AS THE PERHAPS ONE B E G I N S TO S P E A K WITH H 6 LDE R L I N RATH ER T H A N J UST A BOUT H I M A S WE F E E L A N D HEAR TH E SC R A P I NG OF HIS PENCIL U PON THE FLESH-STREWN H I S TO R I C A L.L I M I TE D . MAD. CLEAR. S POKEN O N . W H A T H E R E W E ARE. WATCH THE POET G I VE U P TH E P R I V I LEGE D PLACE A N D PAPER. '3 C R I TI C I S M DELEUZE AND G U ATTA R I . S PACE O F D I S P E R S I O N A N D DE-FUSION.S Y M BOLIC. U LT I M A TE L Y . T H E N E W P U R I TA N I S M AS D I S P E R S IO N WILL ACCO M P L I S H MORE R A D I C A L V I E W TO T H E PLACE OF S E X U A L I T Y AND D I SC O U R S E FAC E S AND ARE OF TA K E N IN V I E W I NG FIGURES THE OF PA I N E D THE " M A D" H6 LDE R L I N N I ETZSC H E A LONG T H E FLESH­ STREWN PATH OF D I SSOLUTION O F T H E MO D E R N M O R E RADICALLY W H A T W A S A LWAYS AT I S S U E : A G E I NTO L I B I D I N A L SCH I ZOPH R E N I A . H 6 LDE R L I N A N D ARTAUD. S PECTATORSH I P. E M BLEMATIC O F TH E SC H I ZOPH R E N I C DIVI SION POR A R Y AND F R A G M ENTATION IS THE OF THE CONTE M ­ THE RADICAL AN EXTENT T H E Y A R E W I LL I NG T O PUSH THEI R OWN NOTION OF THE STAT U S OF THE WORLD GULF BETW E E N UNCONSCIOUS A S A N O R P H A N W H I C H G E N ERATES CAR PENTER'S H A N DL I N G O F T H E EARTH. VERSES ON A WOODEN BOARD WITH A PENCIL POLITICAL CONTROL H A V E FOLLOWED THE S A M E THE L I N E S OF LIFE A R E VARIOUS. LIVE I N P H I LOSOPHIC CALM LIKE H I M : I M M E DI ATELY H E REPLI ED. THE M A D N E S S OF N I ETZSC H E . A P E R H A PS PLACE. DESTRUCTIVE. C A R E F O R H I S F U M B L I N G WITH THE W OO D A N D OTH E R P A R T I A L OJECTS O F H I S-OUR F R AG M E NT E D W O R L D . F L E S H I S M A D E . THE TORTURE OF DA M I E N S. C A R E S S . PEN ETRATING ITS T E X T U R E A N D U N D E R M I N I NG I T S T I S S U E . OUR I N DICATIONS A S TO TH I S .

I K E THAT I S A T STAK E .PTING W H I C H WE DO A N D A R E : IN A N I ETZSC H E S E E M S TO H A V E CLEARLY P U R S U E D A S I M I L. THE ECSTATIC REVELER E N R A PTURED B Y THE PROXI M ITY OF H I S GOO. CAREFUL. NOT E A T A T TH E I R TA B L. FI XATION U PO N THE SACRED FAM I LY A N D A M ER E UTILITY O F P ROCREATION. THE EMBODIMENT OF HIS HIGH EST AND MOST I NTENSE EMOTIONS. THE SYMPATHETIC COM P A NION I N WHOM THE SUFFERING OF THE GOO IS R EPEATED. H 6LDER­ LlN'S DESPA I R OVER THIS FRAGMENTATION A LONG THE PATHS OF LIFE SEEKS COM FORT AND PA RT I C U L. A T ISSUE.E A­ S U R A B LE-THI S COMFORT APPEARS IN INCARNATE CLARITY IN THE CHORUS OF SATYRS .EUZE A N C I E N T.Y-PRESENCE A N D RICH POWER OF NATURE. S E X U A L. BUT IN TH E SAME SPIRIT AND OVE R AGAI NST TH E D I S SOLUTION OF A C E NTER WHICH NO L.L.Y M ETA P H Y S I C A L. FLESH. YET.D.Y B Y F R E U D THROUGH WHAT T H E POET BL. TH EY.L.ATIONS OR V I E WS TO SEXUAL. WORLD NOR A B E Y O N D THE WORLD. FOR THE N O T I O N O F S U B J ECT I S N O T THINGS.YST. I F DELEUZE A N D GREEKS USED TO CONTEMPLATE WITH REVERENT WO N OE R . THE U NCONSCIOUS HAS NO PA R ENTAGE.L.EAST A S OPPOSED TO US-THAT LIFE AT THE BOTTOM OF TRAN SC E N D E NC E TOWAR D AN ABSOL.DER­ LIN. ALL. DESPITE ALL THE CHA NGES OF A PPEAR­ A NCES. AT L. TAKING IT FURTHER THAN H 6L. T H E M ETAPHYSICAL COMFORT-WITH W H I C H I A M S UGGESTI NG LEAVES EVEN NOW. H IG H E R .Y P U R S U E D T H E COM FORT. H ENCE. D E S I R E . B E YO N D RAPID R E J ECTION B Y DEL. NO D E S POTIC PAR E N T TO OO M I NATE IT.OW THI S O N E -THAT OF OUR BODIES.U N ABLE TO FASH ION IT I NTO THE PLACE OF THE WHOLE A S EXPRESSIVE. D A L.D GET TH E I R H A N D S ON T H I S " I D E A " .A R PATH .­ ITY A N D THE L I B I D I N A L. .L.F E LT WORLD.T H E A T R E OF A N D GUATTAR I O F THE M YT H AND DREAM AS P E R H A PS FIXATION UPON P LE A S U R E OF DESI RING-MAC H I N E S . E V E L. H E H A S BEAUTIFU LLY STRUGG LED WITH AND PARTIA LL.A B E L. I N THE SENSE O F A CONSOLATION. SPEAK OF TH E DEPTH O F L I B I D I N A L.ON G E R HOLDS. ONE WHO PROCLAIMS WISDOM FROM THE VERY H E A RT OF NATURE. I N DESTRUCTABLY POWERFUL A N D P\.L.UDED T O H E R E . EVERY TRUE TRAGEDY IS TR A N SC E N D E N C E . A R L. Y O F TH E F L. .SE FROM I TS ETH E R E A L SPACE TO THE FLESH. A C E D A T THE L.I NVESTED U NCON­ SCIOUS AND OF S E X U A L I M PUL. SPEAKS OF NO ABOVE OR S E N S E O F I N SC R I PTION A N D E M BODI M ENT.SE AS MORE THAN A PROC R EATIV E D E PTH. THEY SEEM TO HAVE OVERLOOKED THE SENSE I N WHICH TH E HAS M YTHIC-DREAM-PLAY OF BEEN STI F L E D LIBIDINAL.UDE AS THE ORPHAN WHICH IS TH E U NCONSCIOUS. A S S I F Y IT AS FINITE SENSE BOTH A WORK AND JOY OF A RT I S T I C C REATION. R E A D Y A P H A L L I C .BO D I E S AND A PARTI A L OBJECTS A N D FRAGM E NTATION WHICH IS THE D I S SO L U T I O N A N D C O N F I N E M E N T O F THE PLA C E O F S E X U A L-CREATIVE-SYMBOL. POI NTS TO THE PL.S Y M BOLIC. MOST C E NTRA L TO THE TRAGEDY OF H 6 LDERLl N'S OWNMOST A RTISTIC D I SSOLUTION IS P E R H A PS HIS FLE E I NG FROM AND DIS-PLACING HIS WO R L D TOWA R D A NOTH E R .Y.L. A N D POETIC. SUCH A S THESE RICH AND C O M P L. T H E SATYR WAS THE A RC H ETYPE OF MAN. COU R S E A N D TH E LlB I D I N A L. FOR OU R WOR L. T H R U ST U PO N O U R WORL. ' 7 ONE W O U L. N I ETZSC H E STRIKES AT THE HEART O F THAT I D E NTITY O F M AN-NATURE T O W H I C H DELEUZE A N D GUATTARI ALL.Y O F A M ETAPHYSICAL.. N I ETZSC H E H A S SL. Y C E R T A I N G UATTA RI S E E TH E I R W A Y TO LIBERATING SEXUAL DISCOURSE FROM ITS MERE F A SC I N ATION A N D SUGGESTIONS TO FOL. THESE S E E M R E P L. 256 . E X AS NOTI O N S O F A WAY H6L D E R L I N THE AND L I B I D I N A L. E S" -TH O S E O F THE TH I N K E R N I ETZSC H E 'S D I R ECTIO N . NOR IS REALLY A COMFORT. A SYMBOL OF THE S E X U A L O M N I POTE N C E OF NATURE W H I C H THE OF TH E S E X U A L POL.Y C REATIVE FL.D E S POT I C S E I Z U R E -T H E Y AND C L.UTE I N F I N ITE. E S H I N T H E W O R L D AG A I N ST TH E PATH OF BEL. ALREADY A RECONCI LI ATION GOD'S I N THE HOPE FOR THE FLEEING TO FASHION H A R MO N Y IN C A PA C I TY PATH STRUCK U PON BY H 6L.Y S O M ETH I N G L. SC U L. A N OTH E R WORLD. I B I D I N A L. E S H E D-OUT. D E PTH OF TH E WORL. . C E RTA I N L.ACE O F PLAY WHICH I S L. I B I D I N A L.A K E TERMED " M I ND­ FORG E D A N A L.D. Y E T . WO R L D CHARACTERIZED MOST F UL.. D SEEM TO HAVE O N L. E . O F T H E N I ETZSC H E .IN. D L.OW. . COMFORT WHICH IS N E I TH E R HE P R O P E R L. I M P U L. LOOK. E M BO D I E D SATYR AS BOTH A R C HETYPE OF M A N A N D SYMBOL .Y BY THE SATYR OF G R E E K TRAGEDY.ESH OF SYMBOL AS T H E PLACE OF T H E H U M A N : I NVOLVE W O U L. N O SOURCE GROUN D FOR THE M ET A P H Y S IC I A N TO S T A N D U P O N . D E M BOD I M E N T IS BOTH A PLUNGE FROM A N D TOWA R D OUR OWN F L E S H E D . N I ETZSCH E SPEAKS LUCI D LY AND I RO N I C AL. YET. AND T H E POErs EXPRES­ SIVE DI SCOU RSE. A N D M A R ROW OF TH E L I V E D. STRUCK OUT A PATH TOWA R D POETICALLY TA K I NG U P ONE'S F L. N I ETZSCH E S P E A K S CONCRETEL.A N D T H A T W O U L.DERL. R A T H E R . TA K I N G U S C LOS E R T O A S E X U A L D I S­ IF TH E M ETAPHYSIC I A N S COUL. M A N A C L.AMMED THE DOOR I N TH E I R FAC E S : ZA R A TH U ST R A W I L L. LIKE N I ETZSC H E . A LTHOUGH U NABLE TO TOUCH I N A D EQ UATE FORM U L.

T H E SOFT F U S I O N POINT O F BOTH. (EMPHASIS A DD E O) 8 IBID. I BID" PP. 1 9481. REFUSE LOVE OF H I S D E STI NY. H I S PLAYFUL.QUT E C S TA T I C A L L Y TH E H IG HEST E M OT I O N S AND R E C E PT I V I T Y E ROS. COM PLETING A C I RC LE. O R F I X E D ESSENCE. PAN. TENDER. A JOY WITH THE WORLD. FLOATS F R E E LY . 3 1 . G LA S (PA R I S: EDITIONS GALI LEE. AND VIOLATE HER AS AND ESCAPE HIS BODY A N D WORLD. 257 . 334. M A N I S BOTH W I TH I N NATURE. N I ETZSC H E TRANSFORMS T H E PLACE O F BY A FIRM DESIRE. FATH ER A PH RODITE T H REATENS PAN. 2 J EAN. THE HORNED AGG RESSION OF T H E D I SSOL UTION OF SCH I ZOP H REN IC CAPITALI SM-TH E DISPERSION OF ALL-WOULD SEIZE ABUNDANT MOT H E R OF APHRODITE. GRATING OF F L E S H -T H E VOLUPTUOUS N ESS: T H E S E D UCTI VE GLANCE: T H E W R I N K LED. R E PEATI NG H I S SUFFERING IN EACH OF M A N'S ATTEMPTS TO AGGRESSION B Y THE WI NGS O F A FREE PLAY A MONG US. L'ANTI­ I BID. 9 3 CF. H A R DLY F E M I N I N E . 390. G ENET.BEYOND THE I R COM PLEX ATTEM PT A T THE FUSION O F V I T A L I S M· M EC H A M I S M . A N D PLEASU R E . P. T H E SATYR M U ST B E TH E BECO M I N G O F H I S F L E S H . B E OR TOUCH A GOD. AND TO U C H I N G T H E . TH E SATYR R EVELS A N D SPEAKS WISDOM FROM WITH I N AND WITHOUT I N O R D E R TO EROS CONTROL HER C H I LO. T H E E M OTIONS. P . 1 9 5 2 8< 1 9701. ( E M P H A S I S A DDEO) 10 4 GI LLES D E LEUZE ET FELIX GUATTARI. NATUR E . A LWA YS R E M E M B E R I NG THE MOI ST. AS FLESH I NG. COMPAN ION. P. IBID . 57. THAT PLAY IS THE MOT H E R . P L I A N T. Y E T E V E N SO U R C E OF THE T H R EAT. 662. TO R N M O V E M E NT OF AGED LINES STEELY. SC H I ZOPH R E N I C C A PITALI S M . P. W A I T I N G DOM I N ATION AND REVENGE AGAI NST DESTIN Y. A N D W ITHOUT A NATURE. 1 9761. FREED FROM THE HORN E D DOMINANCE OF TRAGEDY I N T O T H E FULL P L A C E OF A L O V E O F THAT DESTI N Y. THE WORLD. IT I S THE PLAY OF C H I LD'S UNWORN PLACE I S THE D I SCOURSE SOUGHT. TRAVE RSING A D I SSOLUTION FOUGHT T O THE LAST ROBERT V A N RODEN A LL E N NOTES 6 CF. H E ED I NG T H E W H I S P E R OF T H E G ENTLY FLESH-SCU LPTE D E ROS AMID THE R A NT I N G . W H I C H FACES U S AROU ND. S M I LES OR L A U G H S WITH SOFT.PA U L SARTRE. A L L. 7. YET WITHOUT TIME AND TH E OFTEN FORGOTTEN PLAY O F O U R PLACE: T H E A M B I VALENT DESI R E A N D VIOLENCE OF PAN'S E M BODI M E NT S H R I E K OUR P R E D I CA M E N T I N TH E TI M E O F SCU LPTU R E BECOME M A C H I N E . THE SATYR PLAYS IN TH E ARENA OF T H E TRAGIC. BERNARD F R EC H T M A N SO PHICAL LIBRARY. A N AREA DE·LIM ITED. THE SATYR I S ODDLY THE COMPANION O F T H E GOD. P. 12 I B I D. P. R E M I N D I N G ALL T H A T EROS I S THE AB AN DO N ED C H I LO OF A L L O F U S . PP. OF A P H RO D I T E RECEPTI VE.. THE FU LLNESS O F H I S PLACE. 3 1 5. THE PLACE OF MAN'S DESTI N Y TO BE H I S BODY AND LIVE I N T H E WORLD. F O R TH E DANCE OF PLAYFUL EMBOD I M E NT. 49. P. 1 6.2 9 1 AND P. 77 8< FF.. THE PATH TO THAT WORLD WHICH WE FACE. CF. THE IS N OT PAN OF A PH RODITE'S E RO S ? ' 8 YET. N I ETZSC H E'S PLAYFUL SATYR BECKONS. WHICH IS HIS WORLD OF POWER. HISTOI RE DE LA SEXUALITE ( P R E M I E R TOMEI LA VOLONTE DE SAVOI R ( P A R I S : GALLI M A R D . A L L OF US. S E X U A L. 2 8 6. 1 9741. FLESH O F H E R TH E PLACE O F N I ETZSCH E'S S A T Y R I S THE PLACE OF L I B I