POLYSEXUALITY

POLYSEXUALIlY [SEMIOTEXT(E) #10] SPECIAL EDITOR

FRANOIS PERALDI

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1981

SEMIOTEXT(E)

HELiNE POTTER, DIANA SILVERMAN, DUNCAN SMITH, PAT STEIR.

C 1995

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1981,

EDITED BY CANADIAN

PSYCHOANALYST FRANOIS PERALDI, W HO DIED OF AIDS ON MARCH

21, 1993.

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SELF SEX

P I E R R E G U YOTAT

P. 14 BODY OF THE TEXT.

DA N I EL SLOATE

P. 21 I STRUGGLED WITH A DEMON

D E M E TR I U S ZA M B ACO

P. 22 CASE HISTORY.

2.

SOFT SEX

P I E R R E K LOSSOWSKI

P. 38 ROBERTE'S DIARY (CONTINUED)

ROG E R C A I LLOI S

P. 42 THE OCTOPUS IN JAPAN.

PA U L V E R LA I N E

P.415 ON THE BALCONY.

DU NCAN H . S M ITH

P. 46 MEMOIRS OF AN OCCUPATION

3.

ALIMENTARY SEX

J EA N POU I LLON

P. 154 TABLE MANNERS. BED MANNERS. LANGUAGE MANNERS.

P A U L V E R LA I N E/ARTH U R R I M B A U D

P.62 THE SONNET OF THE HOLE IN THE ASS.

T E R E N C E C. S E LLERS

P. 63 COPROPHAGY AND URINOLOGY

PAUL VERLAINE

P.66 A LITTLE SHIT

.

4.

SEX OF THE GAZE

MICHEL BERNARD

P.68 THE MUTE NEGRESS.

A L A I N ROBBE-G R I LLET

P. 72 TEMPLE IN THE LOOKING GLASS.

5.

AMBIGUOUS SEX

FELIX G U A TT A R I

P. 8 0 I HAVE EVEN MET HAPPY TRAVELLOS.

DA N I E L SLOATE

P. 8 1 POLLY ORlAND PAUL.

JEAN FRANCOIS LYOTARD

P. 8 2 USE ME.

FELIX G U ATTARI

P. 8 6 BECOMING-WOMAN.

6.

A NIMAL SEX

F R E D E R I C ROSSI F

P.90 THE WILD CELEBRATION

CATH E R I N E D U N C A N

P.9S JOURNEYS OF A GENTLEWOMAN.

G I L L E S D E LEUZE/FELI X GUATTARI

P. 97 A BLOATED OEDIPUS.

B E R N A R D NOEL

P. 1 02 THE DOGS.

DA N I E L SLOATE

P.l06 TRUDY OR THE SECRET APHID.

7.

CHILO SEX

PETER WI LSON

P.I 08 THE SILVER PIPE CAFE.

TONY D U V E RT

P.l l 0 COUNTESS LULU

W I LLI A M B U RROUGHS

P. 1 1 9 THE POPLING

ROGE R MOODY

P. 1 215 THE COMMITTAL.

8.

MOR BID SEX

GEORGES BATAILLE

P.IS 6 THE CULPRIT.

ANONYMOUS

P.14!5 MY LATE GRANDMOTHER.

9.

VIOLENT SEX

PIERRE KLOSSOWSKI

P.I!54 THE PARALLEL BARS.

P I E R R E B E N I CHOU

P.1!57 SAINT JACKIE. COMEDIENNE AND TORTURER.

M I C H E L DE M ' U ZAN

P.162 M.

FRANCOIS P E RALDI

P.167 POSTFACE: VIOLENCE AND POLYSEXUALITY.

10.

CORPORATE SEX

JOHN PRESTON

P. 172 ONCE I HAD A MASTER.

JASON K L E I N

P.17!5 CHORUS FOR A PSALM.

JOHN P R E STON

P. 18!5 LETTER TO JASON.

JACQU ES LACAN

P.190 THE OEDIPUS COMPLEX.

1 1.

D I SCUR S IVE SEX

QUESTION N A I R E

P. 202 DO YOU KNOW CORRECT TERMS FOR WHAT SOME MAY CALL "SEX PERVERSIONS."

ROLA N D BARTH ES

P.20!5 VOCABULARY.

JACQU ES LAC A N

P. 208 SAINT ANN.E .

.

972.

CHANTAL M A I L L ET/SYLV I E LEGER

P. 219 JOUISSANCE AND DIVISION.

M I C H E LE MONTR ELAY

P. 228 INQUIRY INTO FEMININITY.

ROLA N D B A R T H E S

P.236

FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOURSE.

12.

PH I LOSOP H I CAL SEX

PA U L V I R I LIO

P. 242

MOVING GIRL.

ROBERT V A N R O D E N A LL E N

P. 249

DISCOURSE

AND SEXUALITY: TOWARD THE

TEXTURE OF EROS.

1 3.

C R I TICAL SEX

G U Y HOCQU E N G H E M

P. 260

TO DESTROY SEXUALITY ...

G I L L E S D E L E UZE/ F E L I X GUATTARI

P.26!5

HOW TO MAKE YOURSELF A BODY WITHOUT ORGANS.

M I ST E R M A RG U L I E S

P. 270

FRONTIERS BROKEN

SYLV E R E LOT R I N G E R

P. 271

DEFUNKT SEX.

POLYSEXUALITY

POLYSEXUALITY IS NOT ONLY A SET OF TEXTS WRITTEN BY CAREFULLY CHOSEN AUTHORS AND ILLUSTRATING THE PLURAL ASPECTS OF SEXUALITY.

POL YSEXUALITY IS A TEXT IN ITSELF, THE EDITORS OF WHICH ARE THE AUTHORS. LET'S CALL IT A COLLAGE OR A TEXTUAL PATCH-WORK, IF YOU PREFER.

IT TELLS WHAT THE REALITY OF SEX HAS ALWAYS BEEN WITH RESPECT TO ITS ALIENATION TO 'USURA' AND EXPLOITATION.

IT ALSO POINTS TOWARD THE 'REAL OF SEX' WHICH STILL LIES UNTOUCHED, UNTHOUGHT OF, BUT PERHAPS ALLUDED TO BY FREUD WHEN HE SUGGESTED THAT LIBIDO HAD NO GENDER. IRREPRESSIBLE 'VOLONT E DE JOUISSANCE'

LIBIDO:

AN

(WILL TO PLEASURE)

NEVER PURE SINCE IT IS ALWAYS LINKED TO THE DEATH DRIVES TO THE POINT THAT FOR SOME RIGOROUS SEEKERS, 'JOUISSANCE' CULMINATES IN DEATH: THE ULTIMATE SEX.

IF

LIBIDO

IS

THE ALL

ORGANIZING THESE

FORCES

OF

ALL

ACTIVITIES

LEADING SEX

TO

'JOUISSANCE,'

ACTIVITIES,

INCLUDING

WRITING ABOUT

AND

'JOUISSANCE,' HAVE TO BE CONSIDERED AS IMAGES OF THE OTHER SIDE OF THE DEATH DRIVES.

THE DEATH DRIVES, WHICH CENTRIFICATE POLITICS, HAVE BEEN PRESENTIFIED IN THIS TEXT BY IMAGES OF POLITICAL DISASTERS, MASSACRES, GENOCIDES, CRIMES OF WAR: OUR DAILY LOT. THE THEORY OF CATASTROPHIES IS AT THE VERY CORE OF THE THEORY OF POLITICS AND IT HAS TO BE THOUGHT OF AS GIVING SHAPE TO THIS OTHER SIDE OF LIBIDO.

FROM COVER TO COVER, THIS WHOLE ISSUE IS NOTHING ELSE, IN OUR OPINION, THAN THE TEXTUAL WORKING THROUGH OF THIS THESIS. WE CALL IT TEXTUAL, BECAUSE LANGUAGES, OF COURSE, CONSTITUTE THE THIRD SIDE OF LIBIDO, AND DEATH DRIVE, BY KNOTTING THEM TOGETHER AND MAKING THEM TANGIBLE,

SYMBOLICALLY OR SEMIOTEXTUALLY SPEAKING.

FRANCOIS PERALDI

BOSTON, MARCH 1 6, 1 981

BODY OF THE TEXT

THI S IS NOT WRITTEN. BUT DICTATED. I M PROVISED. NOTEBOOKS IN H A N D-NOT FOR A STOCKTA KING OF PAST O R P R E S E N T JOTTINGS ON WHAT I AM ABOUT TO D E SC R I B E : THE R E LATIONSH I P IN BETW E E N ORDER TO I NTO PR ACTICE THIS M A STUR BATORY SYSTEM. I WAS ACTI NG IN A VERY COHERENT WAY AS TO THE

MASTERING OF M Y N E E DS AND WANTS: AS I SAW IT. ORGAS M-ALTHOUGH I COULDN'T H AVE N A M E D IT AT A TI M E IT DID TH E NOT YET LEAD TO EJACULATION TURD AND URINE. REPEATED

M A STUR BATION

A N D WRITI NG-BUT

SPEAK TEXT I N HAND A N D EXPOSED TO VI EW-; NO USE E X P ECTI NG AS TH E N . A TEXT THAT M I GHT OR BE

W I TH E L D

SEVERAL TI M E S A DAY. THI S OPERATION S E E M E D TO ME IN NO WAY R E P R E H E N S I BLE. IT TOOK PLACE. AS U NOBTR U S I V E L Y AS POSSIBLE. U N D E R THE DESK: FIST TH RUST I N TO M Y POCKET !ITS SEAMS FULL OF C R U M BS. ORANGE P E E L, SUGA R. ETC.). J E R K I NG THE LITTLE S E X. TH ROUGH THE U N D ER PA NTS AT FIRST. THEN G R A D U ALLY. M O NTH MORE BY MONTH AS THE

D E SC R I B E D

"SCHO L A R LY"

"M A RG I N A L"

(N ECESSARY TERMS AT AN EPOCH DETE R M I N E D BY POLITICAL E NGAG E M E NTS OF AN ADM I N I STRATIVE KI N D. OR BY A HESITATION TO EXPRESS THE MOST VOCAL SOU N D I NGS OF THE M A STURBATORY TEXT). N O N E TH E L E S S . THE NEED TO MAKE MY FI RST

DECLA R ATIONS ON T H E R E LATIONSH I P M A STURBA TION-WR I TING DATES FROM A ("LA NOUVELLE C RITIQU E"). POLITICAL CONTEXT

PL E A S U R E

BECA M E

P R A C T I S E D . W I TH

U N D E R PA NTS PUSHED AGAI NST THE THIGH. FROM THAT TI M E ON I A LSO M A STURBATED M UCH LESS IN THE WC. A C CO R D I N G TO A KIND OF G A M E. A

R E M E M B E R HA V I NG B E G U N TO MASTURBATE AT

C H A L L E N G E TO MY

OWN

BODY; ARSE DIST E N D E D

THE AGE OF N I N E. IN O R D E R TO "PUT OFF" A DESI R E T O P I S S OR C R A P. AT THAT AGE IT W A S D I FFICULT FOR ME TO PUT UP MY HAND MY A IN CLASS AND

OV E R T H E H O L E (OUT OF WHICH R I S E T O PALPITAT ING MOUTH A N D NOST R I LS ALL THE OOORS OF THE S U M P A N D THE HERCY N I A N MOU NTA I N EA RTH ON WHICH THE SCHOOL I S B U I LT. PERVADED. FI LTE R E D BY THE F R A I L E R S M E L L OF S E M E N). A N D I - H I D D E N I N T H E V E R Y H A U N T OF H U M A N A N D OFTEN A N I M A L DEJ ECTIONS (DOGS. CATS. SCREECH-OWLS FROM

P U B L I C LY ATT E N T I O N

MAKE

KNOWN

N EEDS.

DRAWING

T O M Y S E L F AS

BODY. ORGA N I S M .

PRODUCER OF M A TT E R . A LTHOUGH I H A V E N E V E R EVER FELT THE LEAST E M B A R R A S S E D ON TH E

CONTRARY. ABOUT B E I N G S E E N AS BODY. ORGANS. A L R E A D Y TH E N . BY D I SC O V E R ING AND PUTTI NG

THE FARM COM I NG THE R E TO DE FECATE)- I . MOST COMICA LLY. CONDUCTING A D I A LOGU E BETW E E N

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THE

A RSE-HOLE

AND

THE

SEX.

BETWE E N T H E

MORE A S S I D UOUSLY. AS EXC E PTIONALLY S E X U A L. IT IS ONLY WHEN I BEGIN TO WRITE THAT THE AND

SLITH E R O F TH E T U R D A N D THAT O F T H E ORGASM.

M A STU R B A TO R Y SOM ETI M ES. G E TT I N G OUT OF CONTROL. ORGASM AND D E F ECATION TOOK PLACE S I M U LTAN EOUSLY. AND SUCH AS A M O M E NTS ARE P I N N AC L E S OF PLEA FOR T H I S THERE

PROCESS

A CC E L E R A T E S

LEA DS. A S E R ECTION A N D D I SC H A R G E I NC R E ASE I N CAPACITY. TO A DRAMATISATION O F THE PRACTICE.

SURE.

R E S U LT. B E C A U S E M Y U N D E R PA N TS

R E LATION S H I P TWO MAIN

WRITI NG/MASTURBATION SETTI N G S : ONE IS TH E

BEAR T H E M A R K S (SOM EWHAT OVER- ESTI MATED) OF THI S TRA N S F E R . I R E F U S E TO G I V E T H E M TO T H E LAUNDRY H I DE OR T H E SC HOOL MY LA U N D R E S S E S . A N D IN THE DOR

ARE

COLLEGE I NOW ATTE N D E D. T E R M T I M E . THE OTH E R HOME. HOLI DAYS. T H E FI RST SETTI NG I S D I V I D E D

THEM

UNDER

M ATTR ESS THEM

INTO TWO: CLASSROOM A N D DOR M I TORY.

M I TORY,

THEN.

STUF F I N G

I N TO

M Y POC KET -CLASSROO M : I CONTI N U E MASTU RBATI NG WITH THE LEFT HAND. THE RIGHT HAND D E V OT E D

W H E N W E FALL I NTO L I N E AT 6 A.M. TO GO DOWN TO C H A PEL. I CARRY T H E M OUTSI D E SCHOOL L I M I TS

B E H I N D T H E T U M B L E DOWN W.C.: T H E R E . I H I D E T H E M U N D E R A PILE OF STON ES. IT H A PP E N S AT MOM E NTS OF PANIC THAT QUITE U N I N T E N TIONA LLY I

H E NCEFORTH TO W R I T I N G -SOM ETI M E S A "DECENT' TEXT ( PO E M S ) COP I E D A FTERWARDS ON TO L U X U R Y SHEETS OF D R A W I N G PAPER A N D PUT TOGETH ER I N A L B U M S OR "BOOKS", A T OTH E R TI M ES. A CON V U L SIVE SERIES OF O R G I A STIC NOTES K NOW N AS ON

EVACUATE TH E PA NTS. S U R EII AND AM TO PUT

LAST OF FORC E D MY

MY S U PPLY OF U N D E R ( B U T W I T H WHAT PLEA OVER BARE SKIN. OF

PANTS ON

ORGIASTIC

W R I T I N GS.

W R I TT E N .

SCRIBBLED

S U B M I TT I N G

TO

THIS

A D D I T I ON A L

STRA I N

PI ECES OF

R U LE D PAPER TO R N F R O M EXERCISE

DRESSI N G A N D U N D R E S S I N G I N P U B L I C U N TI L I CAN R E C U P E R ATE A P A I R FROM UNDER TH E STON ES.

BOOKS. WHERE N E I G H BO U R I N G BODI ES. WITH TH E I R OWN N A M ES. PHYSICAL P EC U L I A RI T I E S . CLOTH I NG. ETC.. BECOM E TH E D R A MATI S P E R SONAE OF THE

D U R I N G T H E HOLIDAYS M Y MOTH ER. WHO DIED I N AUGUST PAC KET '158. WAS SURPRISED B Y MY DWI N D L I N G AND AFTER

ACT-BOYS WITH WHOM I LOOK AT POR NOGRAPHIC MAGAZI N E S BROUGHT FROM THEIR HOME TOWNS. A COM M U N A L SEXUAL EXCITE M ENT PRODUCI NG LINKS THE US HOMO U NCON

(NUMBER

49)

OF

WASH I NG .

LAY I N G SIEGE TO ME FOR S E V E R A L DAYS F I N I S H E D 8Y REDUCING OF HER WHY "WE E P I N G AND C H I L D" TO AN

R E LATION S H I P W H I C H

A D M ISSION

W H E R E A BO U T S :

A N D.

SC IOUSLY ( A LTHOUGH W H E R E OTH E R S OF M Y K I N D ARE CONC E R N E D

M A K I N G T H E MOST OF A V I S I T P A I D BY MY DOCTOR FATH E R IN THE VIC I N I TY OF T H E SCHOOL. CLOSE D F O R THE S U M M E R . S H E C A M E W I T H M E T O LI FT T H E STONES ONE A FTER ANOTH E R A N D . U NKNOWN TO MY FATH E R WHO D I E D I N NOV E M B E R ' 7 1 . R E C U P E R ATE AND PUT BACK I N TO C I R C U LATION THAT

WAS

THEN.

AND

STI L L

AM.

CONSCI O U S OF M Y S E X U A L S U P E R IORITY BEC A U S E I CAN WRITE WHAT IS VOCALLY I M M I NENT BETW E E N US). N OT I N F R EQ U E N TLY IN THESE N OT E S A

PROCESS

E M E R G E S (VERY PRODUCTI VE SUBCON

SC IOUSL Y) IN CONTRADICTION WITH THE M ETHODS OF " D E C E N T" WRITI NG. N A M E LY: A WRITTEN

I M PORTANT P A R T OF M Y WA R D ROBE.

PHON ETISATION O F T H E USUAL SPEECH O F ONE OR THE R ELATION BETW E E N WRITING AND MASTU RBA TION A PPEARS FOR THE FI RST T I M E ROU N D THE AGE OF TEN O R E L E V E N . I STA RT TO DRAW (WOM E N WITH H A LOS. I L LU M I NATED TITLES) A N D THIS GESTU R E B R I N G S MY H A N D. MY R I G H T H A N D. TH E MASTUR BATOR. OUT OF M Y POCKET. I I M M E DI A T E LY WOR K E D OUT ANOTH E R SYSTE M-WHAT I D O N ' T R E M E M B E R T O POSTPO N E T H E N E E D TO D E FECATE, THE N . THE LEFT H A N D . M O R E A N D M O R E E X P E RT. BEG I N S TO TA K E OVER. TO M A STU R BATE. T H I S COI N C I DE S WITH TH E FI RST E J A C U LATI ON. THE E X P U LSION T H E R E FORE OF A NOTH E R M A TT E R . D I ST U R B I N G B E C A U S E H A LF WAY BETW E E N S H I T A N D U R I N E. A N D WHICH. BECAUSE IT S M ELLS AND WETS T H E CLOTHES. PUTS A STOP ONCE AND FOR A LL TO R E SORTING TO - D O R M I TO R Y, SUCC E S S I V E H E R E. MASTUR BATION BY WITH OTH E R OF TH E BOYS. BASED ON THEIR SEXUAL

BREAT H I N G Q U I C K E N E D BY TH E SIGHT OF THE POR N P H OTOS. TO D A Y . OR I CA N'T SAY AT WHAT TH E POI N T

("DEC E NT"

O R G I A STIC

T E XT?)

MASTUR

B A TO R Y A C T BEGAN T O PREDOM I N ATE. BUT I F I A M PERS U A D E D T H A T NOBODY E V E R S A W M E MASTUR8ATE IN C LASS. IT I S BECAUSE I A M MORE AND MORE CO NVI N C E D TH ROUGH HEARI NG OTH E R S M Y OWN E X P E R I ENCE AND

TALK. THAT MOST OF THOSE

RO UND M E W E R E DO I N G THE S A M E THING AT THE SAME TIME.

ORGASMS

I N DU C E D

LECH E ROUS

R E VE R I E . F U NCTIONS AT F I RST ON T H E THRESHOLD OF TH E S U BCONSCIOUS. ON T H E EDGE OF DREAM. WHEREAS LATE R. I NTO WHAT I S A FTE R ALL A VERY ORDI N A R Y SITUATION. I S I NTRODU C E D A N I M POR-

ORGASM AS AN A NTI-DEFECATOR. I DON'T R E M E M BER THAT D R A W I NG P E R I OD . DURING WHICH I PRACTI S E D MORE AND

A N D S PECIALLY

PA I N T I N G

115

TANT MATER I A L

E L E M E N T : T H E M A S T U R B ATO R Y

LITTLE LESS AT N IGHT ( M Y ROOM U N D E R T H E EAVES AT SOME DI STA N C E F ROM TH E PARE NTAL BED

COSTUME. W H I C H . ONCE T H E SESSION I S B ROUGHT

TO A N END BY LACK OF J U I C E . M UST BE R E MOVED. SPERM AND ALL. FROM BETW E E N THE THIGHS. ITS

ROO M . W A S R E LATI VELY P R I V I LEGED. A N D I COULD. BY LEAVING TH E DOO R S ON TH E ATTIC AND

CLEAN END USED FOR W I P I N G BALLS AND P E N I S I N THE P R OC E SS. IN OTH E R WORDS. TH E ACT OF

STA I RC A S E OPEN. FOR E STALL A N Y I M PORTUNATE V I SITS FROM M Y FATH E R IF CALLED ON A N U RG E N T VISIT D U R I NG TH E N I GH T ) . T H E COSTU M E WENT DE

M A STURBATION . ORIGI N A L LY M E RGED WITH S L E E P A N D D R E A M . I S P ROG R E S S I V E LY DISTI N G U I S H E D B Y TH E N E E D TO D I SPOSE OF THE COSTU M E A N D W I P E TH E ORGANS I N VOLVED B E FO R E GOI NG TO SLEEP. MARKING BETWE E N N E SS. IN THIS WAY A MATERIA L AND BOU N D A R Y

THROUGH

VARIOUS

STAG E S .

EVOL V E D OR AND

T E R IO R A T E D

ACCOR D I N G

TO TI M E

PLAC E.

ORIG I N A LLY I T WAS M A D E U P OF TWO E L E M ENTS: A K I N D OF J OC K-STR A P FAS H I O N E D F"ROM RAGS. A N D A CLOTH L A I D U N D E R TH E C E NTRE O F OPERATIONS (OBV I O U S LY AT COLLEGE IT SERVED TO PROTECT THE S H E ET FROM STA I NS. BUT IN MY B E D ROOM IT WAS OFTE N S U P E R FLUOUS AS THE SESSION OFTEN TOOK PLACE NAKED AND I N T H E RAW O N THE TILES OF T H E B E D ROO M FLOOR.

CONSC I O U S N ESS ALL

U NCONSCIOUS HAD TO BE

BECAUSE

O P E RATIONS

C A R R I E D OUT A S S I L E NTLY A S POSSI BLE. I BEC A M E MORE AND MORE SKILLFUL IN M A K I NG THEM

COI N C I D E WITH O N E O F TH E PRE DICTABLE SOU N D S I N T H E DOR M I TORY-FOR E X A M PLE. TH E RUSTLE O F" W R I G G L I N G O U T OF" T H E COSTU M E W I T H THE RUSTLE OF THE P R I E ST'S CASSOCK A G A I NST TH E C U RTA I N D U R I N G O N E OF H I S ROU N D S OF I N SPECTION ( S I N C E MY S E SS I O N A L W A Y S T O O K PLACE B E FO R E HE

-TH E

JOCKSTRAP:

M ET I C U LOUS

SEARCH FOR

IN

C U PBOA R D S . M A TE R I A L .

L U M B E R - R OO M . CHOICE

ETC.

THE

RETI R E D TO H I S A LCOVE F O R TH E N I GHT)-QR W I T H U N P R E D I CTABLE SO U N D S (OUTS I DE. A SUCCESSION OF DOGS BA R K I NG. OR A S U DDEN SHOWER) W H I C H SERVED AS DAMPER OR M UFFLER FOR MY

TH E

DETE R M I N E D

BY T H E PIECE

POSSIBI LITY O F SOM E O N E

DISCOV E R I NG A

M I SS I N G O R TO R N F R O M A LE NGTH OF M ATERIAL. AND A L SO B E C A U S E OF ITS LEC H E ROUS E FFECT O N T H E BODY: N E V E R F O R I T S A E STHETIC EFFECTS.

BREATHING. A N D D I VERTED ATTENTION FROM THE HEAVING OF SHEET AND B L A N K E T. O N C E TH E

BECA U S E OF ITS SOFTN ESS. FOR EXAMPLE. BUT I N F U NCTION O F ITS SOC I A L R E F E R E N C E (CHOICE O F A PROLETA R I A N CLOTH AT A TI M E.

COST U M E REMOVED. A H A N D DRAWING IT UP A LONG THE BODY WEIGHTED WITH WARMTH AND TH E

1 91515. W H E N I T

LATEST ODORS. IT WAS S L I D U N DER THE MATTRESS. AS I SUFFERED FROM SOM N A M B U L I S M AT THE TI M E . I WAS A F" R A I D OF F A L L I N G A S L E E P BEFORE H I D I N G I T . OR WALKING IN M Y S L E E P B R A N D I S H I N G I T . TH I S

S E E M S T O M E T H E R E W A S STI L L A CONSI DERABLE DIFFERENCE BETWE EN. LET U S SAY. MY MOTH E R

A N D H E R M A I D I N T H E W A Y T H E Y DRESSED): THIS S H O U L D B E S E E N A S A D R A M ATIC D E S I R E OF M Y EFFAC E M E N T A S T H E BOURGEOIS BODY: K N E A D I N G B Y BOU RGEOIS H A N D O F BOU RGEOIS SEX TH ROUGH PROLETA R I A N TISSUE. M A S T U R B AT I O N AND

F E A R . TOO VAG U E TO R E C A L L. N E V E R PREVENTED THE D A I LY SESSION. SHOULD THIS BE S E E N AS AN E A R LY MARK OF CON F I D E N C E IN MY U NCONSCIOUS

BODY. IN THE POW E R O F CONTROL (NOT OF SE LF

EFFAC E M ENT AT THAT PARTICULAR EPOCH) OF OR G U I LT F E E L I NGS. I N EVITABLE I N THE ATMOS P H E R E OF C U L T U R A L V I S C E R A LITY PRACTI C E ? U NLESS. THE PRODUC E D BY TH E

EJ A C ULATION PROD U C I N G A B L E N D I N G OF ONE A N D TH E OTH E R M E M B E R W I T H TH E D Y E A N D W O R N A N D FADING FIBRE IN A S E R I ES OF I NC R E A S I N G L Y

V I O L E N T ORGAS MS. C H O I C E DETE R M I N E D ALSO BY A CLOTH C A PA B L E OF A C R A D L I N G O R LEC H E ROUS C U R B I N G OF TH E PARTS ( R USTIC WITHOUT RIGI DITY. G E N T L E IN ITS T H R EADBA R E G I V E . ACCORD I N G TO W H ETH E R I WAS IN TH E MOOD TO B E PI M P O R BAWD AND O FT E N IN THE COURSE OF A SESSION A

PROFOU N D

PROSTlTU

TION A L D R I V E TO W H I C H I WAS PREY AT THE TI M E . PREVENTED M Y S L E E P I N G BODY FROM M A K I NG A BAWDY STROLL BETW E E N BEDS AND BOD I E S .

THE

SECOND

S ET T I N G

A L SO

COM P R I S E S

TWO

C H A N G E OF COSTUM E TOOK PLACE BETW E E N TWO ORGASMS. P I M P. SO THAT I SWITC H E D F ROM OBVIOUSLY BY BAWD TO A S I M U L

D ECORS: BED ROOM A N D "NATU R E".

ACCOM P A N I E D

TAN EOUS C H A N G E IN ORGIASTIC TEXT: WITH P I M P'S THESE TWO HOM E LY AND HOLIDAY SETTING ALLOW MORE F R EEDOM FOR E LABORATE DRAMATISATION. IT IS AT TH I S POI N T THE N . T H AT W E SHOULD COST U M E P I M P'S TA L K O R VICE VERSA. WITH BAWD'S COST U M E BAWDY TALK O R VICE V E RSA-. OR ELSE. IF UNDECIDED AS TO SOC I A L POSTU R E . BOT H

DESC R I B E T H E M A STU R BATORY COST U M E . FOR I T WAS AT HOM E . NOT AT COLLEGE THAT I M A D E I T : I N MY
B E D ROOM

COST U M E S O N E ON TOP OF TH E OTH E R . BUT N E V E R T O TH E POI N T W H E R E H A N D . P A L M A N D F I N G E R S

AND

U S U A LLY

A T NIGHT.

SINCE

C E A S E T O F E E L T H E E X A C T OUTL I N E OF M Y SEX; A T WHICH POI N T THE T E X T T U R N S I NTO A G E N E R A L

C H I LD'S ROOM IS O P E N BY DAY TO ITS MOTH E R . A

16

A POSTROPHI S I NG OF

MY BODY). U S U A LLY I M A D E

THE

OFFICIAL

U N D E R PA NTS. A C L A N D E S T I N E M O I ST ITS TH E

T H E COST U M E S S I TT I N G N A K E D ON TH E E D G E OF M Y BED: I C U T TH E W I TH C LOTH A HEM BY AS G U E S S - WO R K . TH E ROUGH NOT

COSTU M E . SEXUAL

D E L I B E RA T E L Y A LLO W I N G TH E TO "NOR M A L I S E" SPEAK. IT,

MASS

WARM

BOTH E R I N G MADE

EDGES BAWDY HOLES

STRA N G E N E S S . SU BSTA N C E

SO T O

R E WO R K I N G

IT LOOK

MORE

R E M I N I SC E N T OF A SIDES I PO K E D

N E UTRALI S E D D U R I N G

TWE NTY-FOU R

HO U S E.

AROUND WHICH I

THE

HOURS OF A B A N DON BY LETTI N G TH E SAPS SOFTEN A N D R E A N I MATE THE DRY S P E R M STUC K TO TH E

THROUGH

T H R E A D E D COA RSE

PACK I N G

STR I NG. A N D TH E R E. ON T H E N A R ROW M E DI A N OF CLOTH THUS P R E P A R E D. I SAT WITH A HARD ON.

CLOTH. T H E N TA K I NG MY B I K E . I SET OUT FO R THE H I G HEST POS S I B L E PO I N TS IN THE M O U N TA I N S

FORC I N G IT DOWN SO TH E C LOTH COULD BE LACE D ROU N D MY LOI N S : THE SOU N D OF THE HOLES

WHICH I KNOW A R E R A R E LY FREQU E NTED. T H E R E . TA KIN G T H E C U R R E NT N O T E S OUT OF MY C L A M M Y POC K E T AND R E ST I N G TH E M ON ONE OF THE

TEA R I NG UNDER T H E STR A I N OF T H E LACE S DURING MASTURBATION BO R D E L AND C O U LD. B Y R E F E R E N C E TO T H E OF TH E COST U M E'S

SATCHELS FROM T H E B I K E. U N DO I N G MY FLY A N D WRIGG L I N G MY H I PS SO T H E S H O R T S S L I P D O W N M Y LEGS OF TH E I R O W N ACCORD. I D E N U D E . S O TO BY P U L L I N G MY FIST

THE

TH R E AT

DESTRUCTION. PRECI PITATE ORGASM EVEN AT THE EXPENSE OF A TEXT R I C H IN LECH E ROUS PROMI S E . TH E SIZE OF THE C O ST U M E VA R I E S A LSO.

SPEAK. TH E C L A N DESTI N E COSTU M E THE OFFIC I A L U N D E RPANTS

ASI DE.

ACCO R D I N G T O TH E C A PACITY OF E RECTION A T A GIVEN PERIOD: THE PERIOD OF A DOLESC E NC E

S E E K I NG T H E S E M I N A L H A LO D I S P E R S E D B Y THE SEXUAL SADDLE. GROU N D MASS THEN D U R I NG ITS RIDE ON THE B I K E'S

W H E N I H A D M Y BIGGEST E RECTIONS CORRESPONDS WITH A COST U M E R E D U C E D TO ITS M I N I M UM. A

ST R ETC H O UT. B A R E - A R S E D , O N

S E LECTED F O R I T S G E N E RA L H U M I DITY.

M I C ROSCOPIC SC R A P OF C LOTH OVER THE FRONT ON LY. LACE D A R O U N D THE LOI N S A N D DOWN THE CLEFT OF TH E A R S E . A K I N D OF SC R E E N WHE R E THE J ET. S P U RT I N G FROM T H E R I G I D VOI D. ROD BENT TO TH E STRA I N I N G WITH C LO T H . ITS STRI KES TH E STU F F

NAPE OF MY N EC K AGA I N ST A T R E E T R U N K : A F I R TO BEGIN WITH, SYM BOL FOR ME AT THAT M O M E N T OF A ROMANTIC. WESTERN A U STER I TY W H I C H . IN SPITE OF TH E F A SC I N A T I O N OF M YT H . MADE ME R E J ECT

GREEK H I STORY. TRAGE DY. AND E V E RYTH I N G THAT I N LA N DSC A P E AND W R I T I N G A P PEA R E D AS IN THE FULL LIGHT OF DAY-LATE R S UBSTITUTED BY A P I N E TREE (TH E TRUNK BOTH D R Y E R . W A R M E R. R E S I N O U S- S E M E N THE MORE

DECORATED SHOULD BE

FOR M E R

SPERM.

HERE. IT

REMARKED THAT THE ME MOST IN TH E MALE

PA RT W H I C H BODY. THE

ATT R A CTS

BUTTOCKS. R E C E I V E D. S O F A R AS T H A T P A R T OF M Y O W N BODY WAS CON C E R N ED. NO S P EC I A L DRAMA TISATION D U R I NG T H E S E SESSIONS.

"OPEN"'.

EXPULSING AND

FROM ITS BODY AND

C R EV I C E S ) MORE

BATH I N G IN

O R G I A ST I C

"COS M I C A LLY"

ITS S PA R E R S H A D E

STRON G E R ODOR: SINCE TH EN. T H E E F FORTS M A D E -THE CLOTH : NOTH I N G TO SAY A BOUT TH I S E XC E PT TO NOTE THAT TH E DOM I N ATING COLOR WAS R ED. TEXT U R E SPONGY. I TOOK TO COLL E G E WITH ME THE MOST E LE M E NTARY M A TE R I A LS !THAT I S TO SAY. TH E LIGHTEST OF COSTU M E S AND THOSE THAT TO REACH THROUGH THROUGH SUCCESSIVE V E R TE B R A TH E ORGASM R E P E RC U T I N G N E R V E

M USCLES, NECK

N A P E OF TH E

P U SH I NG ON ALL MY

CERVICAL WRITING.

V E R T E B R A E.

HANG

OVER

LEAST R E S E M B L E D FACTORY-MADE U N D ERPA NTS. M Y I D E A B E I N G THAT IN CASE OF A S E A RCH THEY M IGHT AT F I RST G LA N C E BE M I STA K E N FOR A IN THE NOTES I R E F E R R E D TO E A R L I E R ( N U M B E R E D ACCORDI NG T O A H A B I T I STI LL RETA I N A N D W H ICH CAN LEAD TO A WHOLE DAY'S SEARCH FOR A N IDEA -NATU R E : D U R I NG TH E DAY WHEN MY BED TO BE TRAC ED THROUGH AND THE S UC C E S S I O N NOTED OF TH E SO

BANDAG E .

RooM'S L A C K OF SECU RITY P R E V E NTED M E FROM SATI SFYI N G A DESI R E ACC E N T U A T E D BY THE

" I DEAS" N I GHT

NUMBERED

M ENTALLY A

BEFORE) TH U S

PUTTI NG

STOP-NOT

S U D D E N R E SOLUTION OF A PROBLE M O F WRITING WHICH H A D BEEN TROUBLING M E FOR SOME TI M E (ATTE M PTS AT A N E W SYNTAX). OR T H E TRANSC R I P TION OF A SOCIO-BO R D ELLO I N T U ITION; OR AGAIN. BY A S U D D E N P A N I C B E FO R E T H E I N SOLUBI LITY OF MY SOCIAL CONTRADICTIONS AND THE I R RE D UC

MUCH TO T H E WORK OF WRITING (WH I C H F U N CTIONS WITH EVEN G R EA T E R I NTENSITY D U R I NG THIS

SC I ENTI FIC S E A RC H FOR T H E LOST " I D EA" A N D ITS PLACE. A LSO LOST. IN TH E N M E NTAL FLUX)-BUT TO MY "ADH E R A NC E" TO T H E A M BI E NT R E A L I T Y. WHAT BE

EMOTIONAL. E M ERGES TERM E D IN

POLITICAL. TH E

SEXUAL. ARE

SO . THAT W H AT

TlBLE I NC A PA C ITY OF THOSE CLOSE TO ME TO H ELP M E U N D E RSTA N D TH E M EXCEPT BY T R E ATING TH E M W I T H STRICTLY E MOTIO N A L R E S PECT. I DON. U N D E R

NOTES

M IGHT OF

R E SO L U T I O N S

BECA U S E

TH E I R

FOR M U LATION:

17

"TON I G H T.

ORGY"

"TOMORROW

NIGHT.

USE

THE

RECORDER IS A D D E D T O THIS V I S U A L D I S POSITION. M AC H I N E AND M I C ROPHON E SET U P BETW E E N T H E KNEES TO TApE TH E M A ST U R BATORY S E S S ION.

P L A S T E R COST U M E"

/ "TI GHTEN T H E COSTUME" ,

"LET THE S P E R M R U N DOWN MY LEGS" '''TREAD IN IT ON TH E T I L E S" / " E A T THE S P E R M " , NEXT MORNING. E X A M I N E IT THROUGH A MAGNI F Y I N G GLASS" '''TH I S S U M M E R . S M E A R S P E R M ON M Y MOUTH" , "TONIGHT. TIE TH E COSTU M E ROUND M Y NECK" , ETC . . THESE R E SOLUT IONS A LTERNATING WITH OTH ERS A BOUT M Y W R I T I NG. FI CTITIOU S L I STS OF RECORDS TO BUY. OR S O M E M ECHANICA L PROB L E M ( R E PA I R S TO THE B I K E . INVENTION AND FA B R I CATION OF I MAGINARY M A C H I N ES. ETC.). PERHAPS THIS SYSTEM OF

CONCENTRA T I N G ON SOUNDS PRODUCED R I GH T IN FRONT O F T H E MICROP H O N E. NA M E LY THE SPLASH O F SpE R M A S IT HIT T H E COST U M E . A RECOR D I NG USED A FT E R W A R D S B U T TO NOT ONLY AS A D D I TIONA L

STI M U LA NT.

P U NCTUATE T H E M U SIC O F

M A STU R B A T I ON.

THE

SESSION

TAKES

PLACE

B E H IN D

C LO S E D

R E SOLUTIONS CAN B E S E EN A S THE BEG I NNINGS O F A

DRAMATISATI ON

WINDOWS.

N E U T R A L I SING

D I U RNAL A N D NOCTUR

TH E N

TA K I NG TEXTUAL. SOCIA L

NAL SOU N DS FROM T H E VILLAGE. T H E TOWN. OR B A C KG R O U N D V OC A L I SING ON NOIS ES. THE SO THAT THE M USIC.

AND POLITICAL FORM: IT A LSO. I THINK. PROVIDED A SOLI D CORPOR E A L BASIS FOR M Y W R ITING. STI LL SO F R A I L AND UNRECOGN I S E D . FINA LLY. IT SHOULD BE SAID TH A T T H E S E RESOLUTIONS CALLED FORTH

O R G I A ST I C

S C O R E . S O TO

SPEAK. M A Y RETURN TO THE BODY F ROM WHICH IT COMES. ONLY LATER A N D ON R A R E OCCA S I ONS.

AND P R E P A R E D THE LONGEST POSS IBLE SCENA RIO: NOW. TH E FI RST ORGASM (THOSE DESTROY E D THAT TH E

W A S C O M M E RCIA L M U S I C USED (GENRE POP SINGER AND ANGLO-SAXON POP. ETC" THE VOICES HIG H L Y CHARGED S E X U ALLY) TO WH I P UP F L A G G I NG

IMAGINARY

EDIFICE

FOLLOW E D

I M M E D I ATELY S E RVED T O PROLONG T H E TEXT A S FA R A S POS S I B L E A N D A T T H E SAME T I M E EFFACE. IF POSS I BLE. BY M USCULAR TH E FATIGUE. BOTH T H E AND THE POST

O R GIA STIC ENE R G I ES. IN WINTE R . THE N E E D IS SO GREAT THAT ME EVEN T H E FROM A W F U L COLD DOES NOT

P R E V ENT

M A ST U RBATING

NU DE.

EVEN

"D E S P A I R" O R G I A STIC AND OF

OF

DISGUISE I NTO A

LYING N A K E D . TENDONS TAUT A G A I NST T H E TILES. AND FO R Q U A RT E R OF A N H O U R A FTERWARDS IN A POST-ORGIASTIC STUPOR. WITH ORGA N S. M USCLES. N E R V E S FROZEN STI F F I N TH E I R R E LA XATION. LIKE A FROSTY ECHO OF T H E O R G I A STIC C I R C U I T.

RELAPSE

SA V I NG

MYSTI C I S M I . NOT H I NG

TH I S IN

E X A LT E D MY

R E SO L U T I O N

S U B S I ST E D

E Y E S E X C E PT A

L U D ICROUSLY

T R U NCATED SCENA RIO: B U T ON REFLECTION. WHAT MORE TH E R E B R UT A L L Y BE THAN E X C I T I NG S P ECT A C L E C O U L D A C H I LD M A S T U R B A T I NG IN

D U R I NG THOSE S A M E W I NT E R HOLIDAYS. THANKS TO MY " P L U S-FO U RS" AND ON DAYS OF E XT R E M E M Y CLAN E V E N I NG

COST U M E WITH H I S LEFT H AND. AND W R I TING WITH TH E OTH E R ?

"SOLITU DE." D E S TI N E W H EN I

I C O U L D P U T O N O N E OF W E A R I NG IT TILL

C O ST U M E S.

H A D DECIDED TO MASTUR BATE: TO W A L K

M Y D I S A RRAY AT T H A T T I M E STEM MED FROM T H E CONT R A D I CTORY D R I V E S T O B E BOTH S E E N AND S E E- E R ("S E E R"). PIMP AND BAWD. BUYER AND

R O U N D TH U S GI RDED IN THE F A M I L Y CIRCLE. O R A MONG MY FE LLOWS A T COLLEGE. GAVE ME AN

A LMOST pER FECT SATISFACTION. PARTIC U L A R L Y I F T O TH E COST U M E UNDER THE OFFI CIA L UNDER

BOU G H T. F U C K E R A N D FUCKED. AND THESE D R I V E S WERE PA RTLY R E FLECT E D IN THE APPA RATUS

PANTS. TIGHT ROUND ORGANS. LOINS. BUTTOCKS. C I RC U M SC RIBING MY VIRILE ATTRIB UTES. SO TO

E M PLOYED D U R I NG T H E M A ST U R BATORY SESSION : FO R INSTANCE. W H EN M A STUR BATING ON TH E BED. A G A I N ST THE BOTTOM B A R S OF THE B E D- E N D

S P E A K. W E R E STUCK SC R A PS OF TH E ORGIASTI C N OT E S . AT THE END OF EACH M A STU R B A TO R Y

C L O S E S T T O M Y H E E LS. W A S P R O P P E D A P I E C E OF FA M I LY M I R RO R (ONCE PART OF THE B E D ROOM

SESSION. T H E S E SCRIB B L E D NOTES WE RE. ONCE T H E RELATI V E pA RTS HAD BEEN WIPED. ROLLED UP W I TH T H E COST U M E IN A IN THE CLOTH AND H IDDEN.

MIRROR W H E R E M Y P A R ENTS COULD CONTE MpLATE T H E M S E LVES FO R ME TO FULL LENGTH ) . STILL BIG ENOUG H A FOR E

A LWAYS

D I FF E R ENT C R A NNY OF T H E ATTIC

CONT E M P LATE

MYSELF-IN

W H E R E . D U R I NG T H E DAY ANO NIGHT P R ECEDING THE N E XT ORGASM. A LAYER I COULD OF TH E IT COUNT O N DAMp AND TH E M D U ST H A P

SHO RTENING

R E M I N I SCENT O F THIGHS

MANTEG N A -WH I LE L E FT HAND AND

MASTURBATING: KNE A D I NG THE

OPEN.

A C Q U I RING TYPICA L OF

M A SS O F O R G A NS.

C LOTH

SUCH

PLACES.

SOMETIMES

STRING. BELLY AND LUNGS WOR K I NG LIKE B E L LOWS. H E A D SWE ATING. EYES STA R I NG TILL ECLI PSED BY THE ORGASM. AND TH E R IG H T HAND W R I TING.

PENED T H A T. FOR A GI N G TH ROUGH H E A PS OF RAGS A N D PILES O F BROKEN F U RNIT U R E WITHO U T HAVING GIVEN ME FAIR W A R N I NG . THIS M A ST U R BATO R Y

W R I TING. W R ITING U NT I L THE SWEAT OF HEEL AND TOES M I STS UP THE M I R RO R. LATER. A TAPE

ROLL F E L L INTO M Y MOTH E R'S H ANDS. WHO. I N A L L INNOCENCE. PUTS IT SOM EWH E R E WHICH TAKES

lB

F I N D I NG: FOR EXAM PL.E. H A V I N G FINAL.L.Y TRACKED THE ROL.L. TO M Y FATH E R'S G A RAGE UNDER THE

TIM ES. HEAT.

IN IN

S U N A N D W I N D. A C ROWD.

IN

RAIN.

IN

COL.D AND IN

R U N N I N G.

S L. E E P I N G .

HOUSE. I GOT I NTO TH E H A B I T OF TA KI NG IT DOWN THE R E A FT E R TH E N I G H T L. Y M A STU RBATION.

CONTACT WITH OTHER PROSTITUTI ONAL. BODI ES. I N TH E STREET. I N SHOPPING CENTRES. ETC.-WHICH. SEEN IN R E T R O S P E CT. MAY APPEAR AS TH E

B R I N G I N G IT U P N EXT D A Y COV E R E D I N GREASE. G I R D I N G IT O N L.IKE A M ECHA N IC'S A P P R ENTICE OR ADOL.ESCENT PROSTITUTE. PRO M I S I NG MYSEL.F TO E XA M I N E IT AFTER M A STU R BATION FOR TRACES OF A MIXTURE O F SPERM AND G R E A SE.

OUTWA RD M A N I FESTATION OF A CONTROL. I HOPE I S L.ASTING. EXT E N D I NG FU RTHER A N D F U RTHER. A N D MORE AND MORE D I A L. ECTICALL.Y O V E R ALL MY

DRIVES.

I N ITI AL.L.Y. ORGASM

I S FOL.L.OWED B Y A

REL.APSE

AL.L THE ORGIASTIC NOTES OF MY ADOLESCE N C E HAVE B E E N L.OST. T O R N U P I NTO M I N UTE SCRA PS S O THAT NO ONE C O U L. D R E C OG N I S E TH E BAWDY

I NTO MYSTICAL. AND L.ITURGICAL. PHANTASIES. THIS SWITCH. AT THE VERY MOMENT OF ORGASM. FROM A M E N TA L I TY A N D A BODY STRETC H E D TO THE L. I M ITS OF PROSTITUTIONAL. DESI R E TO A M E N TAL.ITY AND A BODY SL.IPPING BACK I N TO T H E V I S UAL.. TACTIL.E. A U D ITORY AND OL.FACTO R Y S E N SA T I O N S OF A

TERMS I W A S A L. R E A DY U S I NG: O R TH ROWN AS THEY WERE DOWN THE WC AT THAT PRECISE MOM ENT

WHEN I K N E W A N D D I D NOT KNOW IF DES I R E WO UL.D RETURN. I HAVE A M EMORY OF SHORT FRAG M ENTS WHE R E NAR RATIVE VERSE. THE AND AS I IN SPEECH WAS AN A L. T E R N A T E . M A I N LY AND

SOCI ETY LlTURGICAL.L.Y I M MA C U LATE. A PROCESS SO I M PERCEPTI BL.E IN ITS SWITCH OF E N E RGY. OF FORCES. CROWDS. AND R I T U AL.S. THAT IT HAS

SOM ETI M E S POETRY AT

W RITING

TIME.

E PH E M E R A L

AL.WAYS CON V I N C E D M E . NOT ONL.Y OF THE E N E RGY OF MY D R IVES. BUT AL.SO OF THE D R I V E B E H I N D AL.L. HUMAN AND M A T E R I A L. A C T I V I TY. IT IS TH I S

SUMMARY

FASHION.

T H E Y D R A M A T I S E D.

UNDER

THEIR OWN N A M E S A N D APPEARANCE. CERTA I N OF MY SCHOOL. F R I E N DS. OR PEOPLE I HAD CA UGHT

CONVICTION THAT. ONCE TH E COSTU M E A N D NOTES ROL.L.ED U P. R ESTORES ME TO EQU I L. I BRI UM. BUT

SIGHT O F IN THE SL.UMS OF THE I N DUSTRIAL. TOWN WHERE THE COL.L.EGE FL.A U NTED ITS MACMAHON I E N ARCHITECTUR E-FUGITIVE BUT OBSESSIVE VI SIONS-L. I K E THAT OF A BOY. GLI MPSED ONE

EVEN BEFO R E THAT. BETWE E N THE FI RST ORGASM AND THE ROL.L. I N G MOMENTS UP OF TH E CL.OTH. CL.EAR THE

HEADED

I N T E R V E N E:

A FT E R

SUM M E R E V E N I NG R ETURNING FROM A PIL.G R I M AGE ON FOOT TO SOM E "GROTESQUE" CAVERN OF A

TRA NSPORT OF TH E F I RST ORGASM. BECA USE OF THE S W I TC H IN MY TH O U G H T ME PROCESS. SEEMS THE A

M I RACUL.OUS V I RG I N . THE BITTER TASTE OF A D R I N K DISTR I BUTED BY T H E G U A R D I A N N U N S STIL.L. I N O U R MOUTHS . . . TORSO B A R E. W E A R I N G A PA I R OF TIGHT BL.UE L. I N E N SHORTS SOAKED WITH SWEAT BETW E E N THE T HI G H S . SEATED IN FRONT OF A HO U S E

COSTU M E H O R R I FY I NG

S T I L. L.

G I R D I NG

LIKE

D E R ELI CTION

BY

COM PA R I SON

WITH

THE I M MACUL.ATE L I N E N S O F LITU RGY (L.IT-QRGY): THEN. AT A L.ATE R DATE. THE COST U M E STUCK TO M Y FL.A N KS WITH S E M E N FEEL.S L I K E TH E PESTI L.EN TIAL. CAST-OFF O F A DECADENT WEST AS OPPOSED TO L. I N E N AND OBJECTS R E STO R E D TO PRISTI N E

I NHAB ITED BY S L. A V WORKERS. H I S L.EGS SO W I D E APART I C O U L. D S E E THE WH ITE E DG E OF U N DER PANTS THAT M O U L. D E D A P R E COC I O U SL. Y DE

W H I T E N E S S AFTER EACH BOMB. EACH SPL.ASH O F M U D OR B L. oo D BY A REVOL.UTIONARY V I ET NAM. A S REVEAL.ED I N FIL.MS BY JORIS I V E N S A N D OTHERS.

VELOPED V I R I LITY. HEAD THROWN

BACK. THROAT

PULSI NG. BL.ACK C U RL.S STUCK TO HIS BROW WITH WHAT I I M A G I N E D WAS SPERM. OR FL. U I D BELON G I N G T O A WOM A N I N A FUL.L D R E S S AND WHITE KERCH I E F L.EANI NG. LAUGHING. O V E R THE BAL.L.USTRADE OF A

D U R I N G EACH SESSION. AS T H E R E ARE SEVERAL. EJAC UL.ATIONS. SEVEN AT MOST. T H E I NTERVAL.

ROUGH

WOOD E N

B A L. C O N Y

A B OV E H I M-A

MAN

SUDDENL. Y L.OO M I N G U P BEHI N D THE BOY FROM A DARK PASSAGEWAY. BROOM IN ONE HAND. KNIFE I N THE OTH ER. I N P U R SUIT O F A RAT-RAT J U M P I NG OVER THE BOY'S B A R E N ECK. SPLASHI NG H I M WITH ITS BL.ooD. V E E R I NG BACK TO THE WAL.L. SQU E A L. I N G. T R Y I N G TO SC A L. E TH E COA L- B LA C K E N E D

BETWEEN THE FI RST ONE AND THE ROL.L.ING OF THE COSTUME IN TH E CL.OTH I S E M PL.OYED AS FOL.L.OWS: FROM ONE E J A C U LATION TO THE N E XT I OSCIL.L.ATE BETWEEN TR I U M P H A L. SO L. O N G THE L.OI N -CL.OTH AS THE AND A B J ECT IS NOT

C A ST-OFF

W H O L. E

NEUTRALISED.

WITH

RES UL.T. THAT I N

EITHER

STON ES-A N D SUDDENL.Y. THE SHOWER THAT HAS BEEN THREATE N I NG. BREAKS OVE R THI S S U B U R B HANG I N G FAMI L I E S A L. O N G L. I V I N G A IN SCHIST OF ROCK. WHERE

D I R ECTION ( M YSTIC O R POL.ITICAU MASTUR BATION E X C R ET E S DESIRE AND ITS A N T I DOTE S I M U L.

TA N EOUSL.Y: TH E "HYG E N IC" R E FL. E X (WIPING AND ROL.LlNG U P) F R U STRATI N G WHAT. FOR OBVIOUS

C E L. L A R S A N D

AT G R O U N D

LEVEL. HAVE T O C L. E A N UP THE SHIT THE M SEL.VES. THAT POU R S FROM BU RST SEWERS I N TO THE I R ONE AND ONL.Y L.IVI NG ROOM.

SOCIAL. REASONS. IT C A N C EL.S OUT. N A M EL. Y: THE W E A R I NG OF T H E S E M E N-SOA K E D COSTU M E AT AL.L.

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A M O N G OTH E R

REAL

OR

I M A G I N A R Y BOD I E S .

'ON TH I S EXC H A NGE: HAVING WEDGED THE E RECT M E M B E R I NTO TH E COST U M E BY IMPRESSING ON IT A PROP ULSION THAT R E M I N DED ME OF A COG-WHE E L OR A SCREW. I ABANDONED IT. D I R ECTI NG MY

WOM E N . VERY SEXY O F B U M O R BREAST. A LREADY LOOKED ON AS "SERVANTS OF THE MALE BODY." WEARERS OF MASC U L I N E ATTI RE R EMOVED FOR

"I NTERCOURSE" (MORE

FA M I LI A R TO M E AT THAT

THOUGHTS TOWA R D NON-SEXUAL ZONES. M Y EYES ON A PAGE OF E UROPEA N H I STORY I N A BOOK I KEPT BESIDE THE BED. O R B ETTER STI LL. A PAGE OF P H I LOSO P H Y O R H I STORY OF PH I LOSOPH Y .

MOM ENT AS A N E N S E M B L E OF SOCIAL POSTU RES TH A N AN ACT OF P E N ETRATION). PUSH E R S OF

ORGI ASTIC BODI E S. MENDERS OF PROSTITUTIONAL G A R M E N TS TOR N D U R I NG "I NTERCOURSE." TH E

A LLOWI NG TH E M EMBER TO SUBSI DE. A N D WRITING AS MUCH TEXT A S POSSI B L E B EFORE IT ROSE

FREQUENCY OF TH I S S E X U A L C HOICE SHOULD BE SET AGAI NST A NOTH E R VERY DEFINITE TENDENCY OF MY F I FT E E N T H OR S I XTE E NTH YEAR: AS I

AGA I N . TH I S I COU L D DO SEVERAL T I MES. U NTIL THE MOMENT LATE D CAME WHEN TH E M E MBER. OVER-STI M U M A N I P U LATION. ERECTION/ ITS J ET

REMEMBER THOUG HTS

IT. TH R E E Q U A RTERS OF MY WAKING ARE B U S Y PLOTTI N G "HOMOS E X U A L"

BY

R EPEATED

D E J ECTION/RE- ERECTION.

DISCHARGED

SC E N A R I OS. W H I LE S L E E P A N D DREAM AFFORD M E O N L Y CONFRONTATIONS. I N TH E NUDE. WITH THE BOD I ES OF VERY REAL AND BAWDY WOME N . QUITE E A R LY IN THE PIECE. A BOTH M A LE AND FEMALE

B E FO R E I COULD S U M MO N UP ALL THE M E NTAL A N D COR PO R E A L TENSIONS T H A T USUALLY PRESIDED AT THE MOMENT OF ORGASM. O N THE OTH E R HAND. THE STR I C T U R E OR L A X ITY O F TH E COST U M E

SCE N A R I OS TA K E

T U R N TOWARD SLAVERY IN

MOULDING TH E TEXT M A D E I T EITHER TOUGH OR TENDER. E V E N COMIC. IF I LET THE COSTU M E H A N G LOOSE ON M Y LOI NS. THE M A N I P U LATON O F T H E P E N I S I N S I D E THE U N I N H IBITED CLOTH PRODUCED A RELAXED TEXT. S P E ECH A N D N A R RATIVE WRITTEN WITHOUT THOUGHT OF TH E P ROSTIT U T I O N A L

ANTIQUITY (TH E LATI N I S E D OR GRECIAN N A M ES OF BODIES CONSTITUTI NG BY T H E I R SOLE E N U M E RA TION ALL T H E TEXT R E Q U I R E D T O STI M U L ATE

DESIRE): THEN THE TH E M E CHA NGES TO PROSTITU TION AS I LE A R N FROM R A D I O HOW S E X UALLY

C H A R G E D C E R TA I N O B V I O U SLY MODERN N A M E S CAN BE. TH E I R A HACKNEYED. COMMON SOU N D

SITUTATION; WH EREAS THE TIGHT LAC I NG OF THE CLOTH ON TH E M E M BER. ITS E R ECTION SCREWED DOWN. OR FORCE D TO TH E BACK OF THE BA LLS. I N D U C E D A TEXT OF N A R RATIVE AND SPEECH I N WHICH TH E H A R D ECONOMIC FACTS O F PROSTITU TION (SALE. H I R E. P R I C E OF BOD I E S. COST OF

E V O K I NG

PROSTITUT I O N A L

"SO A P O P E R A . "

(DU R I NG M Y TRIPS T O NORTH A FR I CA I DISCOVERED THAT MANY A R A B SERVA NTS. SHOP ASSI STANTS AND APPRENTICES CALL T H E MSELVES "CH A R LEY." "JA C K Y." " E D D I E . " " FR A N K I E . " OFFIC I A L FRENCH ETC . ) THE ONLY

M A N I P ULATING TH ESE BODIES. ACCOUNTANCY OF THE NUMBER OF IN TIMES. THE ETC.) FO U N D TH E I R ITSELF.

NAMES THAT FIGURE AMONG

THE S E ANGLO-SAXON BORROWI NGS A R E OF SLAV ORIGIN (SERGE). I H A V E A LWAYS CONSIDERED THAT TH E NAMES I NTEGRAL TO THE F RENCH LANGUAGE CARRY WITH THEM TH E DESUET ATMOSPH E R E OF A WESTERN CIVILI SATION W H I C H . AT THAT TI M E . WAS TRYI NG TO I M POSE ON M E THE MOST I NS I P I D A N D SUPERFICIAL OF I T S PRODUCTIONS.

EXPRESSION

H A N DW R ITI NG

CRA M PED A N D MORE D E L I B ERATELY VE RTICAL

TH I S

A LT E R N A N C E . OF

M U LT I P L I E D

LATER

BY T H E I

NUMBER

PLACES (HOTELS. LED TO A

ETC.)

I N WHICH

M A ST U R B A T E D .

R E P ET I T I O N

WITH

VARIATIONS O F PRECEDING SEQU ENCES I N S C R I B E D ON THE I R REGULAR A LTERNATION N A RRATIVE/SPEECH SHOULD A LSO B E SEEN IN R ELATION WITH THE TH E MASS OF NOTES WHICH I COULD NOT

TRA N SPORT.

PRODUCI NG OPERATED

A TEXT W H E R E TYPI N G A C H O I C E OF I N TRO

N ECESSA R I LY

POS I TIONING OF ORGANS AND COSTUME. OR WITH TH E D EG R E E OF THE M E M B E R'S ER ECTION. FOR

DUCED A N O R D E R : THE M A N U SC RIPT ( 1 962- 1 969) B E A R S G R A P H I C WITNESS NOT ONLY TO THE DETA I L A N D C H RONOLOGICAL C U RVE O F TH I S PROCESS O F I NT E R A C T I O N . B U T A LSO I N I T S W R I TI NG. O F A

EXAM PLE: PRONO U N C E D E R ECTION ACCELE RATES ORGAS M I C URGE NCY. WHICH MEANS THE TEXT HAS TO B E WRITTEN IN H ASTE; THIS H A STE ONLY A LLOWS FOR WORDS TO BE PUT ON PAPER. OR FRAGME NTS OF WORDS. I NT E R J ECTIONS W I THOUT SYNTACTIC LINKS-QNLY SPEECH. T H E R E FORE: BUT GRA DUAL LY. A S I GOT M Y "TONGUE" I NTO THE WRITI NG OF FRENCH. SO TO SPEAK. F A M I L I A R ITY AND EASE IN H A N D LI N G ITS RH ETOR I C GAVE M Y HAND TH E SPEED NECESSARY. I N C A S E OF A P RONOUNCED E REC TION. TO WRITE A NARRATIVE SEQUENCE. I PLAYED

P R OG R E S S I V E C O N V E R G E N C E B E T W E E N T H E "DECENr' (THAT I S TO S A Y TH E PUBLISHABLE OR P U B L I S H E D ) TEXT WITH TH E G R EAT SEXUAL SWELL. FROM TH E M E ET I N G O F THESE CONT R A D ICTO R Y C U R R E NTS. BATORY. " D E C ENT" T E XTII N DECENT ABUNDANCE. M A ST U R I N THIS

R E S U LTS

TH E

M A N U SC R I P T. O F V A R I A T I O N S . R E P E T I T I O N S . O V E R LA P P I NG O F SEQUE NCES. SIONS. ETC. D U R I NG THIS NOMINAL CONFU P E R I OD WHICH I

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R E M E M B E R B E ST. FROM O N E NIGHT TO ANOTH E R . F R O M A FTERNOON T O E V E N I NG ( A T C E RTAIN TI M E S THE RESURGENCE OF DESIRE A C C E L. E R AT E S .

SEL.VES. A R E I N V E N T E D S I M U L.T A N E IOUSL.Y WITH WORK ON A "DECENr' TEXT. W H I C H M AY SUBSE

QUENTL.Y ENTA I L M A KI N G CERTA I N C UTS. FINA L.L.Y. A N U M B E R OF NOTES FROM THIS P E R I OD. WHEN I WAS ASSAILED BY THE DIFFI C U L.T I E S OF PUBLISH I NG EVEN "DECE Nr' TEXTS. L.ET AL.ONE A L.ITERARY PUBL.ICATION OF T H E NOTES. ARE U N R E A DABL.E

H E N C E TH E

EXAL.TATION O F C E RTA I N TEXTS. NO

DOUBTI I HAVE TO I N TE R R U PT WHAT THREATENS TO BECO M E A P H YSIOL.OG IC D A N G E R - P U L.M O N A R Y .

CARDI AC. R E N A L.-A N D B R I NG M Y B O D Y B A C K TO WHAT I BELI E V E

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A CRUDER. ITS

M O R E COM M O N I N TH E

TODA Y : ST U C K A N D U NS T U C K BY S U C C E S S I V E ORGA S M S . A L. L. T H A T E MERGES THROUGH THE

R E A L. I TY: D E S I R E ORGASM: THE

AND

R E SOL.UTION

STYL.E C H A NG E S . A FRAGMENT OF

FADED M I XT U R E O F I N K A N D S E M E N . A R E FRAG M E NTS OF S E X U A L. WORDS. I N S U L.TS. A POSTROPHIC PUNCTUATION. OR PRICES OF TH E SAL.E AND H I R E O F BODI E S . A N D NOM I N A L. A P P ELL.ATIONS. PRINCI PAL.LY BECAUSE WHEN WRITING NAMES AND

R HETORIC CHOSEN FOR ITS QUASI-B A N A L.ITY TO FIT TH E "DECENr' TEXT SUCCEEDED BY A FRAG M E NT OF SPEECH OR N A RRATIVE TEXTUA L.L.Y COMPLEX AND ELL.IPTIC IN ITS J ARGON. I T SHOULD B E NOTED THAT THE TEXTUAL. AND MASTURBATORY SESSION. A BOVE AL.L. O N E THAT PRODUCES WRITI NG-JARGON.
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NUMBERS I PRESSED H AR DEST WITH T H E N I B .

P R E PA R E D OF

"T E X T U A L. L. Y" TH E

L. O N G

HOURS

IN

P I E R R E GUYOTAT

ADVANCE

SESSION:

R H Y T H M I C A L. S . TH E M fRANSLATED B Y CAT H E R I N E D U N C A N

MODUL.ATIO N S .

WORDS O F T H I S J A RGON

I STRUGGLED WITH A D E M O N I N TH E WOODS. I SAT UPON THE ANCI E NT STUM P. TOUCHING TH E C R U MBLED FINGERS THAT HAD FEL.L.ED TH E TREE. MARVEL.L.lNG T H ROUGH TH E I R EYES AS IT TOPPLED SL.OW.

I WAS NAKED A N D ALONE.

I HOWLED LIKE A BEAST U PO N T H E DEAD SHADOWS WHERE THE FA L.L.EN TREE HAD L.AIN.

AND I SPRINKLED TH E GRASSES WITH MY OFFE R I N G TO I T S SILENCE A N D I T S WOO D E N C A R ESS.

THOSE ECHOS STIL.L. TREM BL.ED IN TH E GRASS. THOSE FOOTPRINTS STI L.L. FL.ICKED TH ROUGH TH E S U NL.IGHT. THE DEMON L.EFT M E AND S L E PT UPON THE OFF E R I NG. GL.IST E N I NG THE R E L. I K E A M U S H ROOM AFTER R A I N . THE DE MON SEIZED M Y L.OINS A N D WRESTL.ED TH E M . T H E S U N L. A Y L. I K E A P R E S E N C E ON M Y C H EST. DA N I E L SL.OATE

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O N A N IS M A N D N E R VOUS DISORDE R S IN TWO L I TTLE GI R LS

CASE H I STORY

J E A LOUS. E N V I O U S . V I N DICTIVE. Q U I C K TE M P E R E D . HER MOOD WOU L D IN ON A CHANGE FIT OF W I TH O U T SHE SHE WA R N I NG. ROLLE D BECAM E

X . . . WAS TEN Y E A R S OLD. O F D E LICATE COM PLE XION. TH I N . N E RVOUS. EXTREMELY I N TELLIGENT.

SOM ETI M ES SCREA M I NG

RAGE OR

THE

F LOOR:

RAT H E R OLD-FA S H I O N E D I N H E R W A Y S . SHE ACTED AND T A L K E D LI K E A GROWN-UP. A LWAYS S M I L I NG. WITH SOM E T H I N G SACC H A R I N E I N H E R EXPRESSION.

D E P R E S S E D FOR N O R E A SO N . A T OTH E R T I M E S S H E WAS POS S E S S E D BY A F E V E R I S H GAI ETY. OR E LS E F E L L I NTO A BROWN STUDY. S H E W A S COQU E TT I S H A N D A TT R ACTI V E . A DO R E D CLOTH ES A N D DOTED O N P E R F U M E. ONE F A C T THAT SHOULD B E NOTED I S THAT FROM E A R LY C H I LD HOOD SHE STOLE AND

A H I N T OF' HYPOC RISY THAT SEEMED OUT OF PLACE

IN SOM EO N E OF HER AGE. MADE HER KIND AND LIKE

C ON S I D E R ATE

M A N N ERS

E V E R YON E

H E R. S H E W A S P R O U D . V A I N . CAPR ICIOUS. I N EVERY G A M E SHE H A D TO B E THE LEADER. RESE RVING FOR HERSELF FA IRY. TH E ROLES OF Q U E E N . PRI NCESS O R

C A R E F U LLY H I D OBJECTS THAT TOOK H E R FANCY. EVEN WHEN TH E Y COULD HAVE B E E N H E R'S FOR

TH E A S K I N G . T H I S TENDENCY TO TH E FT H A D B E E N REMARKED LOV E D TO WHEN LEARN ASKING SHE WAS NOT YET FIVE. AND A SHE

A LWAYS TRYI NG T O DOM I N ATE T H E OTH E R

C H I L D R E N A N D F I G H T I N G TOOTH A N D N A I L I F T H E Y D A R E D OPPOSE H E R . S H E E X E R C I SEr;> A CON S I D E R ABLE I N FLUENCE ON A LL H E R C O M PA N I O N S . IN SPITE O F THAT.

A BO U T T H I N G S Q U E ST I O N S .

NEVER LIVELY

S TO P P E D

OF

I MAGI NATION. S H E L I K E D W H A T WAS B E A UTIFUL. B U T D I S L I K E D P R A Y I N G ON T H E CONTRARY. POK E D F U N AT T H E PI ETY O F OTH E R C H I LD R E N A N D M A D E A

TYRA N N I Z I N G T H E M A T TI M E S.

THEY PUT U P WITH IT B E C A U S E OF HER U N F A I L I N G C H A R M . S H E WON SWEET AND EVER YBODY'S HE ART W I T H H E R D I S PO S I T I O N . E V E N L I TTLE

F A C E W H E N TOLD A BOUT GOD.

TE N D E R

BOYS W E R E H E R A D M I R I N G SLAVESI LITTLE X . . . WAS GOOD AT PRETE N D I NG . AND THE GAME S H E L I K E D PL A Y I N G B E ST OF A LL WAS G E TTING MARRIED.

E A R LY IN 1879. THE C H I L D BEGAN TO LOSE WEIGHT IN SPITE OF AND HER USUAL A P P ETITE. SHE WAS

ANAEMIC

H I GH L Y

E XC I TA B L E . TH E R E W E R E

SUCCESSI V E LY. S H E M A R R I E D A N D DIS M I SS E D A L L H E R L I TT L E BOY F R I E N DS. I N S I STING T H E Y SHOULD BE H E A RTBRO K E N TO THE PO I N T OF TEARS.

SIGNS OF LEUCORRHOE A I C D I SC H A RG E FROM T H E G E N I T A L ORGA NS. A N D A N A L I R R ITATION. A LOCA L E XA M I NATION R E V E A L E D T H E P R E S E N C E O F ENOO-

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PARASITES.

C A L.O M E L.

S U P PO S I TO R I E S

WERE

ADM ITTED, AT THE S A M E E POC H STEA LING BECA M E A D A I L Y EVE NT. CAPRICIOUS A N D QUARRELSOME, H E R B A D T E M P E R M A D E THE CHIL.D U N B E A R A BL.E. THE GOV E R N ESS A LSO NOTICED HOW L.ASCIVIOUS IN HER MOV E M E NTS X . . . WAS BECOM I NG. AT TIMES X... W IT H WOUL.D BOTH EVEN STA RT SCRATCHING H ERSEL.F HER FAC E BETRAYING AN

PRESCRIBED A N D TH E C H I L.D GIVEN A TREATM ENT OF IRON A N D BROMIDE OF POTASSIUM. AS A RESUL.T OF TH I S T R E A T M E N T X . . . S E E M ED TO I M P ROVE. JUNE TH E SA M E YEAR.

TOWA R D THE MONTH OF

PETTY L.ARC E N I E S OF DESSE RT. SWEETS. RI BBONS A N D OTHE R SMAL.L. OBJECTS ARE CONTI N UAL.L.Y

HAN DS.

P E RPETRATED BY X . . . WHO FAL.L.S INTO TH E TRAP SET FOR H E R .

EVIDENT PLEA S U R E. QUITE OPEN LY A N D AT ANY GIVEN M O M E N T TH E CONTACTS WOUL.D BE RE

PEATED. T H E C H IL.D DEVEL.OPED A STRANGE WAY I N SPITE OF BEING CAUGHT RED H A N D E D L.ITTL.E X . . . D E N I E S H E R GU ILT WITH BLATANT DEFIANCE; SHE POSES AS OUTRAGED INNOCE NCEI SHE PROTESTSI H ER FACE CONTORTS WITH RAGE; TH E SC ENE WAS I NDESCRIBABL.E. FROM THAT DAY ON A PROGRES S I V E CHANGE TOOK PLACE I N THE CHIL.D. MORAL.L.Y AND PH YSICAL.L.Y: SHE S E E M E D MORE AND MORE SICKLY. AT TH E SAME PERIOD IT WAS NOTICED TH AT SH E WAS FORE V E R GOING TO T H E LAVATORY AND STA Y I N G SO L.ONG THAT AT TIMES SOM EON E WENT TO LOOK FOR H E R; ON ONE OCCASION SHE WAS FO U N D ASL.EEP TH ERE. IT WAS AL.SO NOTED THAT D U R I N G GA MES X .. . HAD A SPECIAL. L.IKING FOR AS KINDNESS M A D E NO I M PRESSION ON X . . . WHO GAVE H E RSELF UP MORE AND MORE TO VICE. THERE WAS NO HELP FOR IT BUT TO CHANGE TACTICS AND TA KE STE R N E R M E A S U RES. EVEN TO B E HARSH A N D C R U E L. IF N EC ESSARY. OF WAL.KING; SHE WALKED WITH H E R L.EGS APA RT. B E N D I N G H E R K N E E S A N D ROLLING THE WAS MOST I NDECENT B E HAVIOUR. HIPS. IT

SEATED ON A

C H A I R . S H E A DOPTE D REVOLTING POSITIONS; SHE SAT O N T H E EDGE. OPENED HER LEGS. BENT

FORWARD. A N D L I K E T H I S CONTRACTED SUCCES SIVEL.Y VARIOUS PA RTS O F HER BODY IN ORDER TO GIVE H E RSEL.F VOLU PTUOUS SENSATIONS.

H I D I N G IN TH E S H R U BBE RY. OR OFF IN TH E WOODS W I TH C E R TA I N C H I L. D R E N . AS FAR AWAY AS

POSS I B L E FROM

M A I DS A N D GOV E R N E S S E S; A

LITT A R BOU R WAS H E R EXC L.USIVE PROPE RTY. SH E TOOK A C H A I R OUT TH E R E A N D REFUSED

CORPORAL

PUNISHM ENT

WAS

R ES O R T E D

TO.

PARTI C U L A R LY FLOGGI NG. X . . . SUBM ITTED WITHOUT PROTEST. BUT A LS O W I THOUT ANY SIGN ON

ACC E S S T O A L L EXCEPT C E RTAIN FAVO U R ITES. BOYS A S WELL AS GIRLS. S H E CAL.LED IT HER

I M P ROV E M E NT. S H E B E C A M E ABJ ECT; H E R FEA TURES TOOK ON HER A BESTIAL. EXPR ESSION. HER BODY SHE AND

"PL.EASURE

PAL.ACE." SHE OFTEN STAYED TH ERE

SPREAD

LEGS. THE

TIGHTENED

FOR A LONG TIME WITH A LITTLE BOY. WHAT WENT ON I N THAT PLEAS U R E PA L.ACE? SUSPICION WAS NOT YET SUFFICIENTL.Y A ROUSED. A T ALL EVENTS THE C H I LDREN BEING PL.AYED AT G E TT I N G ENGAGED AND

P R OC U R E D

V O L U PTUOU S

SPASM.

WHEN

SCOLDED S H E T R E M B L. E D A N D WEPT BITTERLY. S H E W A S T E R R I B L Y A FR A I D O F T H E R O D W H I C H W A S A D M I N I S TE R E D U N S P A R I NGL.Y; A N D I N S PITE OF THAT S H E A B U S E D H E R S E L F MORE A N D MORE IN A THOUSA N D WAYS; WITH H E R HANDS. H E R FEET. WITH A N Y KINO OF FOR E IGN BODY THAT CAME TO HAND; R U B B I NG H ERSELF ON' THE COR N E R S OF F U R N I

MARRIED.

THEY E V E N

EXCHANGED

RINGS

A N D PROMISED TO MARRY EACH OTH ER WHEN THEY G R E W U P.

LATER

AN

END

WAS

PUT

TO

THIS

PRECOCIOUS

TURE. A DOPTI N G CERTA I N POSES A N D STIFFE N I NG WITH CONTRACTIONS, ETC. ETC. FURTHER ON I WIL.L D E SC R I B E IN DETA I L. ALL THE ING E N IOUS M ETHODS

I NTIMACY AND SUPE RVISION I NCREASED.

IN MA RCH 1881, X . . . WAS ST RICKEN BY VIOL.ENT PA I N S IN TH E LOWER A BDOM E N , WITH TEN ESMUS AND H A D GREAT DI FFICU LTY IN URINATI NG; IT WAS TH E N THAT H A VING A S C E R TA I N E D , OF THE DE VISU, A

INVENTED D A I LY BY HER F ERTI LE I M AGI NATION. A N D TH E E N E RG Y S H E E X P E N D E D I N P E R PETRATING

WHAT S H E HERSELF C A LL.ED HER HORRORS.

PRONO U N C E D SWELLING OF

I R R ITATION THE

VU LVA I

WITH MY

AT THAT PO I N T I T WAS D ECIDED TO ATTACH H E R H A N DS, TH E N H E R L.EGS A N D FEET. R E M A RKABLY ENOUGH. THE U P P E R PART OF HER BODY GREW THI N N E R AND T H I N N ER . W H I LE THE THIGHS. H IPS AND G E N ITA L ORGA N S DEVELOPED. IN FRONT OF THE GOVE R N ESS. HER PARE NTS. S E R V ANTS.

VARIOUS

PA RTS,

MADE

F EARS KNOWN TO THE PARE NTS. X . . . WAS FORCED TO A D M IT TH E PRACTICES SHE INDULG E D IN, WEPT COPIOUSL.Y A N D PROM I S E D NOT TO DO IT AGAIN. IN S PITE O F THAT SHE CONTI N U E D TO L.OSE W EIGHT. K I N D N E S S , A D V I C E , A D M O N I SH M E N T S , S U P E R VISION , NOTHING HER HAD ANY EFFECT ON HER. X . . . L.A T E R

F R I ENDS, STRANGERS. S H E TOOK UP LASCIVIOUS POSES AND GAVE WAY TO HER PASSION I N THE MOST I N DE C E N T FASH IO N . H E R BEHAVIOUR EVEN IN

CONTI N U ED

S E L. F - A B U S E , A S S H E

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THE

S T R E ET

A T T R A CT E D

THE

ATTENTION K I N D N E SS

OF

SO OFTEN REMA I N E D WERE

HA P P E N E D. T H E HACK E T IN PLACE. IN WHILE THE B L OOD

AND

STR A P PA RTS BY

P A S S E R S- B Y . T H U S .

N E I TH E R

NOR

SEXUAL

SEVERITY H A D THE SLIGHTEST E F F ECT.

CO V E R E D

AND

MARKED

SCRATCHES. SOM ETI M E S EVEN D E E P GASHES. F L OGG I N G D E C E I T F U L. MADE MORE HER SEEM MORONIC. MORE MORE I N THIS WAY SHE ALM OST A LWAYS M A N A G E D TO

PERVERSE.

S P I TE F U L.

THOUGH KEPT U N D E R CONSTANT WATCH. SHE STILL MANAGED TO SATISFY HERSELF I N A THOUSAND

SATISFY HERSELF D U R I NG THE N I GHT. WHEN SHE DI DN'T SHE WHI M PE R E D. E M ITTING RA UCOUS C R I E S THAT GREW MORE A N D M O R E SAVAGE. J E RK I N G ON THE B E D. WORKI NG

DIFFERENT WAYS. WHEN SHE D I D NOT SUCCEED IN D U P I NG HER G U A R D I A N S. SHE FLEW IN TO THE MOST FRIGHTFUL TEMPER. SHE FROTHED AT THE MOUTH. CHA NGED COLOUR: SHE WRITHED AND STRUGGLED FURIOUSLY IF A N YO N E TRIED TO HOLD HER. AT

HERSELF

F U R I O U S LY

HERSELF UP TO UCH A STATE SHE K N E W N E I TH E R RESTR A I N T N O R SHA M E: S H E GROU N D H E R TEETH. CURSING EVERYONE. SHOUTING AT THE TOP OF H E R LUNGS: " I DETEST DADDY. I LOATHE MUMMY. PLEASE GOD MAKE THEM DIE," I N SHORT. SHE WAS P R E Y TO A FIT OF M A D N ESS: HER FACE BECA M E DEAD WHI TE. HER EYE-BA LLS ROLLED AND GLA R E D AS I F THEY WOULD BU RST FROM THE I R SOCKETS. DROPS OF

SUCH MOMENTS SHE SHOUTED AT THE TOP OF HER VOICE. SOBBING: "WHY DO YOU DEPRIVE ME OF SUCH AN INNOCENT PLEASURE?" AND A M O M E N T LATER:

"ITS DI RTY. I KNOW. BUT THATS MY BUSINESS. LET ME ENJOY MYSELF! IF IT KILLS ME. WHAT DO I CARE? I WANT TO DO IT AND DIE. I WANT TO!"

SWEAT STOOD O N H E R TEMPLES. THESE VIOLENT SC ENES. TH ESE ATTACKS OF FOLLY W E R E FOLOW E D

ONE DAY SHE S A I D THE FOLLOWI N G PRAYER: "DEA R GOD. I F. AS MY S I ST E R ME A SAYS. WAY TO YOU 00 ARE A LL

BY

AN

I M M E D I ATE

R EACTION.

WITH

DEMONSTRA

TIONS O F T E N D E R N ESS A N D REPENTA NCE. I N SUCH MOMENTS OF A F F ECTION AND LUCI DITY SHE

POWE R F U L. S I N N I NG . "

SHOW

I T WITHOUT

ADMITTED E V E R YTHING A N D TOLD H E R SECR ETS. P R OMI S I N G TO I M PROVE AND B E GG I N G FOR

AT THIS EPOCH A STRAIT-JACKED WAS E M PLOYED TO P R E V E N T THE C H I L D T O U C H I N G BOTH FO R E A R M S H E R S E LF HELD

ANOTHER CHA NCE.

CONT I N UOUSLY.

WERE

DURING

THE

D A YT I M E

W:-I E N

TH E

TE M PT A T I O N

CROSSED ON T H E CHEST. HANDS I N PROXI M I TY OF THE SHO U LDERS: LEGS A N D F E ET SET W I D E APA RT A N D F I R M L Y ATTACHED TO THE I RO N B E D-STEAD: A BODY-BELT IN THE FOR M OF A STR A P FIXED THE

BECA M E I R R E S I STABLE. X . .. ASKED A S A M E A N S O F OVERCO M I NG I T . T O WASH HER P A R T S WITH C O L D WATER. BUT SOON THESE ABLUTIONS B E C A M E OVER F R EQU E N T. B E FO R E LONG I T WAS D I SCO V E R E D

TRU N K TO THE MATTRESS BY CORDS K NOTTED TO THE BED. IN SPITE OF ALL THE S E PRECA UTIONS X .. .. BY A V E RITABLE TOU R D E FORC E WORTHY OF THE D A V E N PORT B R O TH E R S . MANAGED TO UNTIE

THAT A L L THE S PONGES H A D B E E N PO K E D F U L L OF HOLES. AND THAT THE WASHING WAS NOTH I N G B U T A PRETEXT IN O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C R A V I N G

WITH I M P U N ITY. I N ONE OF HER M O M ENTS OF C A L M AND R EPENTA N C E . X ... MADE THE FOLLOW I N G

E VERYTHING I N O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C RAVI NG. I N THE MORN I NG T H E S E X U A L PARTS BOR E OBVIOUS TRACES OF ASSAULT BY A SHA R P I N ST R U M E NT. THE FOLLOW I N G PRETEXT OF N I GHT A WATCH WAS K E PT UNDER

CONFESSION:

"I VAGUELY RECA LL. BECAUSE I T HAPPE N E D YEARS

S L E E P.

W H I C H P R O V E D THAT SHE

AGO. A MAID WHO LOOK E D AFTER M E WHEN I WENT

SUCCEEDED I N ATTA I N I NG H E R OBJECTIVE AFTER SEVERAL HO U R S OF E F F O R T. C O N TO R T I N G

TO BED LI FTI NG H E R SKI RTS A N D R U B B I NG HER

SHA M E F U L PA RTS FOR A LONG T I M E. I THIN K I T WAS SHE WHO G A V E M E THE I D E A OF TOUCHING MYSE LF, LATER I HAD ME A GOV E R N ESS W

HERSELF I N I M I TATION O F THE K A BYLES. HER BODY FREQUE NTLY SHA K E N BY SPASMS. THEN. SUPPORT ING HERSELF ON THE CROWN O F H E R HEAD. SHE PULLED AT THE JACKET WITH HER T EETH UNTIL SHE SUCC EEDED IN R E ACHING THE S E X U A L PARTS WITH HER H A N DS. D U R I NG THE DAY SHE HAD TA K E N THE PRECAUTION O F H I D I NG HAI R- P I N S IN H E R PILLOW. AND THESE SHE PULLED OUT AT N I GHT AND

TELLING

NOT TO PUT M Y HAND

HQ. WAS A LWAYS S'.TH E R E : SHE

TOLD M E NOT TO SO OFTEN IT M A D E ME C U R I O U S A N D I SA I D T O MYSELF THAT J U S T ONCE WOULDN'T HURT. ITS A LONG T I M E AGO NOW S I N C E I GOT I NTO THE HABIT. I USED TO GET U P EARLY TO PLAY WITH MY DOLLS. I USED TO DRESS THEM A N D PLAY WITH MYSELF A UTOMATICA LLY. WHE N EVER I FELT BOR E D I ALWAYS PLAYED THE S A M E GAME. BUT WITHOU T R E A LL Y WANTING TO. W I TH O U T G E T T I N G ANY

STRAIGHTENED WITH H E R TE ETH: THU S. B Y HOLDING ONE END OF THE E XT E N D E D PIN IN HER M OUTH. SHE WAS A B LE TO TOUCH H E R S E L F WITH THE OTHER. THIS WAS THE A N SWER TO THE R I DDLE O F HOW. AS

PLEASU R E FROM IT. LATER. I USED TO P R E T E N D I

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H A D SOMETH I N G WRONG W I TH ME DOWN THERE. A N D PLAYED A T G I V I NG M Y S E L F A DOUC H E OR BATH I N G MYSELF AND PUTT I N G ON A POU LTICE. I USED

"WH E N AT L A ST' SHE WENT ON. "PEOPLE BEGAN TO NOTIC E W H A T WAS H A PPE N I NG A N D TR I E D TO STOP M E. I GOT I NTO A TE R R I B LE RAGE. I SA I D NOBODY HAD THE RIGHT TO STOP ME U S I NG MY F I NG E RS A N D MY BODY AS I W A N T E D TO. I B LA M E D EVERYONE.

WHATEVER I COULD F I N D. G R A SS. S A N D . E T C . G I V I N G MYSELF THE DOUC H E WITH L I TILE STI CKS: FOR

Y E A R S I'VE L I K E P U TI I N G LlTILE STICKS UP M E. BUT ITS A LWAYS BEST R E A L LY WHEN YOU C A N DO I T WITH EXACTLY T H E T H I N G Y O U F E E L L I K E A T T H E M O M ENT. LA T E R THE DESIRE C A M E OVER ME AT

E V E N GOD FOR HAVING MADE M E U N H A PPY AFTER LETIING ME BE SO AS H A PPY. MUCH I GREW AS WICKED AND I

W A N T E D T O DO

HARM

POSS I B LE.

O FT E N THOUGHT O F T H E DEVI L A N D C A L L E D ON H I M T O H E L P M E. HE D I D C O M E. I S A W H I M. H E M A D E

A L M OST REG U L A R I NTERVA LS. AT FI RST. TOUC H I NG MYSELF TWO OR THREE T I M ES WAS E NOUGH.

E V E RYTH I N G E A SY. H E H ELPED M E G E T F R E E . T H E F I RST TI M E H E C A M E THOUGH. I T W A S W I THOUT M Y A S K I NG. I T WAS D U R I NG THE N I GHT. I W A S I N BED. WHEN ALL AT ONCE THE WAR DROBE OPE N E D A N D

USUALLY I N

FRONT

(THE C LI TOR IS), B U T LATER I

H A D TO RUB H A R D E R A N D HA RDER. WHEN WE LIVED I N SUCH A N D SUCH A HOUSE (1877) I SHOWED M Y LlTILE SISTER HOW T O DO IT. ( T H E LITILE S I STER WAS FOUR YEARS OLD AT T H E TIM EIl I GOT 80R E D P L A Y I N G TH E G A M E ON M Y OWN: I WA NTED SOM EON E TO DO IT WITH M E . M Y LlTILE S I STER D I DN'T ENJOY I T A N D DI DN'T WANT TO: I M A D E H E R. S H E ONLY 8EGAN TO LIKE IT I N THE WI NTER OF 1881.

T H E D E V I L A P P E A R E D. H E W A S B I G. A L L BLACK A N D G R I N N I NG. HIS EYES WERE GREEN. THEN. DRAWER. EVERY OUT WAS

C U P BOA R D CAME A

O P E N ED. OF

EVERY L I TT L E

AND IT

SWARM

DEMONS.

H O R R I B LEI I'VE N E V E R A B L E S I GHTI

FORGOTIEN THAT A BOM I N

"WE

DID

LOTS OF T H E S E

HOR RORS

WITH

Y .. .

WE

"IT

WAS

A FT E R

THAT

R E P E N TED.

WENT

TO

U S E D TO SHUT O U R S E L V E S U P I N THE LAVATORY AND TAKE ALL OUR C L OTH E S O F F . ST A N D I N G

C O N F E S S I O N . BUT IT WAS I M POSS I B L E TO STOP A N D I STA RTED A G A I N . I OFTE N CA LLED ON T H E DEVI L TO H E L P M E: O N C E I FELT H I S H A N D ON MY SHOU L D E R A N D SOM ETI M E S I B E GG E D H I M T O K I L L M Y P A R E N TS A N D M A K E E V E R YO N E SU FFER. IF ONLY I COU L D B E A D E M O N M YS E L F T O M A K E M I SC H I EFI

OPPOSTIE A N D TOUC H I N G EACH OTHER. SOMETI M E S W I T H OUR H A N D S . SOMETI M E S W I T H B I TS OF WOOD. AFTERWARDS I M A D E F R I E N D S W I TH A LITILE BOY I L I K E D VERY M UCH. A N D I D I D THE S A M E HORRORS W I TH H I M . SOM E MONTHS LATER I SHOW E D LITILE

V . .. HOW TO DO I T AND W E USED TO TOUCH EACH OTHER.

" E V E N SO. I LIKE GOI NG TO C H U RC H AND R E A D I N G TH E B I B L E . I F I N D I T V E RY SOOTH I NG" . . . W H I C H D I D N O T P R E V E NT H E R F R O M B E I NG C A UG H T O N E D A Y

"ITS AWFUL TO WANT TO DO I T A N D NOT BE ABLE TO. I TS ENOUGH TO D R I V E WHO YOU M A D. TO I WOU LD HAVE STOP US. AT

P E R F O R M I NG HORRORS W I T H H E R PRAYE R-BOOK I N A C RO W D E D C H U RC H .

KI LLED

A N YO N E

TRI E D

MOMENTS LIKE THAT IT'S AS !F I'M G!DDY. ! CAN'T

S E E. I CA N'T T H I N K. I'M NOT A F R A I D OF A N YT H I N G OR A N YBODY. NOTH I N G M A TI E R S SO LONG AS I CAN DO ITI

F U RTH E R

P ROOF

THAT

THE

POOR

C H I LO THE

SUFFERED

FROM

M E NTAL A B E R RATION

WAS

FACT THAT N O T ONLY D I D S H E PRACTI SE O N A N I S M I N A L L ITS R E F I N E M E NTS. BUT U R I N AT E D A L M OST U PR I G H T IN F RONT OF H E R SI STER. A FTERWARDS TH E PATIERNS MADE BY T H E JET OF

"WHEN

I WAS SAD O R C ROSS A BOUT SOMETH I NG I

E XA M I N I NG

D I D IT ALL TH E M O R E : FOR I N STANCE THE T I M E S I WAS CA UGHT STE A L I N G I D I D IT WORSE THAN EVER. THAT WAS W H E N I STA R T E D STIC K I NG U P BITS OF WOOD OFTEN AND I RUBBING A HARD ( V AG I N A L O N A N I S M ). THAT HAD BEEN

U R I N E. S H E A LSO H A N D L E D H E R E XC R E M ENTS A N D FORC E D H E R L I TI L E S I STER T O D O L I K E W I S E .

IN

A DD I T I O N TO T H E PROVO K E D

PRACTI S E S A LR E A D Y C ITED. VOLUPTUOUS SPASM BY

USED

PALM

FROND

X . . .

THE

BLESSED I N J E R U S A L E M . " ( A PPARENTLY T H I S PALM FRON D GAVE HER OT H E R FO R E I G N MORE SATI SFACTION THAN ANY BODY B E C A USE IT ADDED TO

R U B B I N G H E R S E L F ON T H E ANGLES OF F U R N I T U R E. BY P R E S S I N G H E R T H I G H S TOG ETH E R. OR ROC K I N G BACKWARDS AND FORWA RDS ON A CHAIR. OUT

S E N S U A L PLEA S U R E T H E SPI RITUAL ECSTASY OF SACRILEGE.) I N STR U M ENTS. F I N A LLY. SHE A FT E R U S I NG S M OO T H ONES.

W A L K I NG S H E WOU L D BEGI N T O L I M P I N A N O D D WAY A S IF SHE WERE LOP- S I DED. O R K E PT LI FTI N G ONE OF H E R F E ET. AT OTH ER TIMES S H E TOOK LlTILE STEPS. W A L K E D Q U I C K LY. OR T U R N E D A B R U PTLY

R E SO R T E D T O SHARP

SUCH AS SCI SSORS. FORKS. O R D I N A R Y P I NS. ETC. SHE PARTI C U LA R LY L I K E D H A I R-PI NS. THE SIGHT OF O N E WAS ENOUGH TO M A K E HER WANT TO USE IT.

L E FT. F I N A LLY SHE T R I E D AND OFTEN SUCCEEDED I N STR I KI NG H E R PA RTS WITH T H E EDGE OF A PIECE

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OF WOOD. W H I C H S H E R E L E A S E D B Y PRESSING IT WITH H E R FOOT.

I N D U LG E I N THE S A M E M USC U L A R CONTRACTION S A N D PROD U C E T H E S A M E SOU N D S I M ULTANEOUSLY. YET. TH E C H I LD R E N R E M A I N I M MO B I LE. A S IF N A I L E D

IF S H E SAW SOME SCR U B S H E STR A D D LE D IT A N D R U B B E D H E R S E L F B A C K A N D FORTH. THE C H I LD'S PATI E N C E AND CUNNING WERE TRULY A M AZI NG!

T O TH E I R B E D . A N D P R E T E N D T O B E A S L E E P. X . . . SAYS I T TAKES A LONG TI M E . SOMETI M E S MORE

THAN A N H O U R TO R E A C H THE FI N A L VOL U PTUOUS SPASM IN THIS WAY. I F. A FTER HAVI NG LEARNT

OFTEN SHE LOCATE D A S H R U B TO B E M A D E USE OF S E V E R A L DAYS LATER.

FROM TH E S E NOCTU R N A L SCENES. X . . . WAS G I V E N A GOOD SLAP A S SOON A S S H E B E G A N . S H E COULD

SHE

P R E TE N D E D

TO

FALL

OR

S TU M B L E O V E R

BE

STO P P E D . U P.

BUT A

IF

SHE

HAD

TI M E

TO

WO R K

SOM ETH I NG I N O R D E R T O R U B AGA I N ST I T . A L L A T O N C E S H E WOULD STOP A N D EXCLA I M : "LOOK A T THAT P R E TTY F L OW E R I " S I MPLY TO D I V E RT

HERSELF

SUDDEN

I N TE R R U PTION

BEFORE

THE CLIMAX CAUSED TH E OUTBR E A K OF T E R R I B L E STOR MS. T H E N X . . . SC R E A M E D. STRUGGLED L I K E O N E POSSE S S E D. A N D FELL I NTO C LON I C OR TON I C CONVULSIONS.

ATTENTION A N D G I V E . A Q U I C K K I C K OF T H E H E E L TO H E R PA RTS.

BUT THAT WAS NOT A LL! B Y C U N N I NG A N D PRACTI CE X . . . WOULD ATTA I N H E R OBJ ECTI V E I N WAYS THAT WERE I NCONCE I V A B L E IN A LITTLE GIRL OF GOOD FA M I LY. W E L L BROUGHT-U P S I N C E C H I LDHOOD. I N H E R I T WAS C E RTA I N LY D U E TO M O R A L PERVERSITY. A LEWD I NSTI NCT. S E N S E. AN ETH I C A L N E U ROSIS IN THE BY THE FOLLOW I N G

AS W E HAVE A L R E A D Y STATED. WHEN X . . . BEGAN TO PRACTI S E O N A N I S M I T WAS NOT TH ROUGH TH E EXIGENC I E S O F NATU R E . THAT IS TO SAY. THE N E E D T O MASTURBATE DID NOT ORIGI N ATE FROM THE

SEXU A L ORGA N S. I T W A S A THOUGHT. A C E R E B R A L I M PULSE THAT INCITED X... TO STI M U LATE THE

MORAL

AS

SHOWN

SEXU A L PA RTS. STI L L M UTE A N D U N R ES PONSIVE. A BETTER WAY OF PUTTING I T WOU LD BE TO SAY THAT AT FIRST. MASTURBATION WAS E N C EPHALIC. ONLY LATER DID I T BECOME G E N ITAL WHEN TH E CLITO R I S AND VAG I N A ROUSED AND MADE SENSITIVE BY

EXA M P LE: THOUGH WATC H E D O V E R B Y T H E E Y E S O F A RG U S . X

.

IS

S U D D E N LY TO

OVERCOM E

BY

TH E

I R R ES I ST I B L E

DESI R E

COMMIT H E R

HORRORS.

SHE IS TIED UP. PUT I NTO H E R STRAI T J A CKET A N D C H A STITY B E LT I P U B I C BANDAGE). H E R F E E T A R E ATTA C H E D. A N D YET T H E VOLUPTUOUS S ENSATION I S A BSOLUTELY ESSENTI A L ONCE SHE GETS THE IDEA. SHE C A N N OT SO R E S I ST P U TT I N G IT TO

R E PEATED CONTACTS. GAVE R I S E I N TH E I R T U R N TO THE LASCIVIOUS CONC E PT. THUS. X . . . AT TH E POI NT IN HER H I ST O R Y WAS WHICH CON C E R N S U S AT TH E HER DISAS

MOMENT. TROUS

D R I V E N TO CONTI N U E BY TWO DIFFERENT

E X E C UT I O N .

S H E CONTRACTS H E R N EC K TO

H A BITS

I MPULSES:

M A K E IT SWELL. HOLDS H E R B REATH M O M E NTARI LY. M A K E S E FFORTS A S IF S H E WANTED TO BLOW H E R NOSE O R E X PECTORATE. AFTE R W H I C H S H E STARTS SQU E EZ I N G D E F EC A T I O N . HER ANUS AS AT TH E END OF

CEREBRAL A N D G E N ITAL.

OFTEN. A S SOON A S TH E

F I R ST TOOK PLACE. IT

REPERCUTED A S IF B Y LIGHTNI N G ON THE SEXUA L ORGA N S . AND X . . . B E CA M E I N C A PA B L E OF

T H U S . B Y TH E A LT E R N A T I V E CON

TRACTING AND R E L A X I NG O F THE ANAL SPHI NCTE R A N D A N A L LEVATOR. BY THE R E PETITION OF THESE MOVEM ENTS W H I C H I H A D HER PERFORM I N FRONT OF M E. T H E VAGIN A'S CONSTRICTOR I S M A D E TO

CHEC K I N G TH E I RR E S I STABLE D E S I R E TO SATI SFY H E R PASSION.

WHEN. FRIGID PHYSICALLY SPEAKI NG. X . . . GOT THE I DEA OF M A ST U R BATI NG. S H E B R A C E D H E R WHOLE BODY A S STI F F L Y A S SHE COU LD. P R I N C I PALLY THE LEGS. THUS P R O VO K I N G PHYSICAL DESI R E

TA K E PART I N TH E S E SPASMODIC CONTRACTIONS. WHICH PERTU R B T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M . TH E V U LVA SWELLS. A N D A HEARD SOME DULL. R H YTH M I C SOU N D C A N BE AWAY. IN E F F ECT. THE

D I STA N C E

CONSECUTIVELY TO T H E C E R E B R A L STI M U LUS. AT THAT PERIOD S E X U A L E R ETH I S M WAS SUCH THAT A S I NGLE TOU C H WAS E NOUGH TO PRODUCE ORGA S M . T H E MORE S U D D E N TH E TOUCH . THE M O R E QUICKLY THE DISCHARGE OC C U R E D. I N T H E MONTH OF J U N E . AS A R E S U LT O F C O N S I D E R A B L E A B U S E . FROM A X . . .

A LTER N ATIVE OPE N I N G AND CLOS I N G OF T H E LA B I A PUDENDI UNLIKE PRODUCES THAT A SMACKING FROM SOUND. A NOT

R E S U LT I N G

S U D D E N LY

OPEN I NG OF T H E L I P S W H E N TH E MOUTH H A S B E E N CLOSED. OR THE S I M I LA N C E OF THE TO N G U E

AGA I N ST T H E PALATE. T H I S MONOTONOUS NOISE I S OFTEN K E PT U P F O R A G OO D PART O F T H E N I GHT. THOSE IN C H A RG E O F THE C H I L D SAY I T IS ODIOUS TO H A V E TO LI STEN TO I T IN TH E SILENCE W I TH ONLY TH E N IGHT-LIG H T B U R N I NG. OFTEN BOTH C H I LD R E N

SUFFE R E D

FIT O F N E RVOUS TR E M B L I N G

T H A T G A I N E D A L L H E R L I M BS. A N D ACCOM PAN I E D BY PA I N S SO VIOLENT TH E Y MADE TH E CHILO

SCREAM. T H I S W A S FOLLOW E D B Y A TETA N I C STATE LASTING S E V E R A L M I N UTES. D U R I N G WH I C H IT W A S

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I M POSSIBLE FOR H E R TO PERFORM THE SLIG HTEST MOV E M ENT: SHE WAS A R I G I D AND MOTI ONLESS AS A FROG SUBJECTED TO VIOLENT E LECTRIC SHOCKS.

UP

S H E LLS

AND

L I TT L E

STO N E S

WHICH

SHE

I N S ERTED I N T H E PARTS. O R E LSE. W H I LE GETTING U N D R ESSED. S H E STOLE A HAIRPIN A N D HID IT IN HER MOUTH UNTIL SHE FOU N D A FAVOU R A B L E

THIS GAVE HER SUCH A FRIGHT SHE WAS GOOD FOR SEV E R A L H E A LT H DAYS WAS A FT E R W A R D S . X . . :S G E N E R A L RAPI DLY. SHE

MOMENT T O U S E I T . S H E WOU L D D I V E A N D STAY UNDER WATE R SEVERAL SECONDS IN ORDER TO

D ET E R I O R A T I N G VIOLENT

M A N I PULATE H E R S E LF.

COM PLA I N E D OF SUBJECT TO A

H E A DACHES: S H E WAS N ERVOUS RISE IN FROM TI M E TO TI M E X . . . HAS MOMENTS IS ON OF THE

SUDDEN

TEMPERATURE THAT LAST E D SEVERAL HOURS: S H E HAD ER RATIC PA I N S IN ALL O V E R HER OF HER BODY AND

REMORSE. D OW N W A R D

A D M I TT I N G PATH.

THAT

SH E

WEEPS AND

P R OM I S E S TO

SHOOTI N G FREQUENT

PA I N S

PA RTS.

THERE

WERE

I M PROVE. BUT IT I S NO M O R E T H A N A D R U N K A R D'S PLEDGE. A MOM E N T LATE R SHE I S I N VENTING SOME NEW TACTIC. O N E DAY. FOR EXAMPLE. ON R E C E I V I N G A L E TT E R F ROM H E R MOTH E R E XHORTI NG H E R T O I M PROVE. S H E IS MOVED TO TEARS BY I T S T E N D E R A FFECTI O N . BUT AT T H E SA M E MOMENT T H E LETTER THAT H A S SO MOV E D HER I S B E I NG ROLLED I N TO A SPOO L WHICH. UNDER HER CLOTH ES. SHE A RT

ATTACKS

A N X I ETY.

SUFFOCATION.

PALPITATIONS WITH A T E N D E N C Y TO LI POTHYMY. AT TI M E S SHE BECAME HIGHLY AGITATED. I NC A PABLE

OF KEEPING STILL. S H E WOU LD J U M P UP FROM H E R CHA I R A N D PA C E U P A N D DOWN T H E BEDROOM: S H E COULDN'T SLEEP A N D D E C L A R E D SHE SPENT TWO OR TH R E E NIGHTS AT A T I M E WITHOUT CLOS I N G H E R EYES. S H E IS U TT E R L Y W O R N OUT. A S W E L L AS I N A DEPLORABLE A LLOWED MENTAL ST A T E . SHE IS ONLY

FULLY I NTRODUCES I NTO H E R SEXUAL PARTS. S H E C A NNOT B E LEFT ALON E F O R A MOM E N T. NOT E V E N W H E N R E S PO N D I N G TO U RG E N T CA LLS OF NATURE. AT N IGHT O N E GOES SO F A R AS TO T I E LITTLE B E LI.S TO THE H A N D S A N D FEET OF THE TWO C H I LD R E N

OUT O F H E R

STR A I T-JACKET A T M E A L

T I M E S. EVEN S O . D U R I N G T H O S E BRIEF MOME NTS O F L I B E RTY. H E R O N E A N D ON LY THOUGHT I S TO G E T H E R H A N DS ON H E R PA RTS. OR I N SERT A F O R K OR TH E H A N DLE OF HER K N I FE. ON ONE OCCASION. TH E FORK I S SNATC H E D

ATTAC H E D W I TH T H E I R STRAIT-JA C K ETS. B E LT A N D STRAPS AS A L R E A D Y D E SC R I B ED. M O V E M E N T. DOES A LL ONE I N O R D E R TO DANGEROUS PREVENT T H E

CAUGHT FROM

RED-HA N DED. SHE

PREVENT FRICTION.

ALL

H E R.

B U RSTS

I N TO TEARS. J U M PS U P

BUT HOW

F R O M TH E TA B L E A N D Y E L L S AT T H E TOP O F H E R VOI C E : I WANT TO! FOR PITY'S S A K E LET M E DO IT!

MUSCLES O F THE P E R I N E U M FROM CONTRACTI N G AND PRODU C I N G VOLUPTUOUS SATI SFACTION IN

SPITE OF A L L PRECAUTIONS? AS X . . :S STATE P ROGR E S S I V E LY WORSENED. IT

WAS D E C I D E D. IN O R D E R TO AVOID A SCANDAL, OR S E N D H E R TO T H E COUNTRY. S H E WAS I NSTA LLED IN A C H A LET I N T H E M I D D L E OF A GARDEN. H E R LITTLE X. . . OFTEN ONE SPOKE OF OF THE D E V I L WHO C A M E TO AND H E LP HER

FREE

HER

HANDS

SiSTER Y . . .

AGED A BOUT SIX. TO WHOM SHE HAC

P E R PETRATE H E R HORRORS.

I M PARTED H E R S H A M E F U L H A BITS. WENT WITH HER. AND IN A DDITION TO T H E STAFF. TWO GOVERN ESSES WERE ENGAG E D TO WATCH OVER THE C H I LD R E N SEA BATHS HAVING OVER-EXCITED T H E C H I LDREN'S N E RVOUS SYSTEMS. THEY W E R E R E PLAC ED BY SOFT WATER BATHS. W A R M A N D PROLONGED. A DOSE OF FOU R G R A M M ES OF B R O M I D E OF POTASS I U M P E R D A Y . M I LK. VEGETA B LES. B E E R . NO R E D M E AT.

DAY A N D NIGHT T O C H ECK A N Y GUI LTY I NCLINA TIONS. EVERYTH I N G H A D B E E N WELL ORGA NIZED: TH E DAY DIVI D E D I N SUCH A WAY AS TO OCCUPY EACH MOMENT. AND D I V E RT THEIR ATTENTION FROM VICE BY I N C U LC A T I N G R E L I G I O US S E NT I M E N T S PRAYER AND R E A D I NGS F R O M P I O U S

THIS

D I ET

AND

THE

PROLONGED

BATHS

CON

THROUGH WOR K S .

T R I BUTED FU RTH E R T O TH E C H I LD R E N'S W E A K E N E D STATE. FOR A BOUT TH R E E MONTHS THINGS

CONTI N U E D I N T H E S A M E WAY. WITH A RE PETITION WA L K S T W I C E A DAY A N D VARIOUS G A M E S D I D MUCH TO MAKE TH E I R X

.

OF

TH E

SAME

SC E N E S

OF

A G I TATION

AND

LIFE ONE

A G R E E A BLE. I DEA

BUT

TO

NO

VIOLENCE.

PURPOSE.

:S

WAS TO OUTWIT T H E MAID IF PRESENTED WITH A C RU C I F I X X

. .

VIGILANCE OF

H E R G U A RDIANS. WHILE TH E

BECAME E V E N

W A S D R ESSING H E R . S H E WOULD SUDDENLY PUT HER FINGERS ON HER PARTS. OR GIVE THEM A K I C K W I T H H E R H E E L. W H I L E BATH I N G IN THE S E A S H E USED H E R TOES W I T H ASTO N I S H I NG AGI LITY T O P I C K

MOR E U N M A NAGEAB LE. BITING A N D SPITTI N G ON IT. C R Y I N G OUT THAT SHE P R E F E R R E D THE DEVI L WHO H E LP E D LATER HER SHE

00 WHAT S H E WANTED. A MOMENT

WOULD R E P E NT. B E GG I N G TO BE

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PRAYED FOR A N D R E A D T H E PSALMSI SHE ALSO HAD H A LLUCINATIONS D U R I NG THE DAY. I N TH E

GREATER THE OBSTACLE S H E HAD BEEN OBLIGED TO OVE RCOME.

M I DDLE OF A G R A M M A R LESSON S H E SUDDENLY BEGAN TO SHOUT: "CHASE HIM AWAY. CHASE HIM TREATME NT: COLD SHOWERS. B R O M I D E OF POTAS SIUM AND AMMONIUM. HOURS. TWO G R A M M ES EVERY A

AWAY, I DON'T W A N T THE DEVIL AT T H I S MOM ENT!" ONE DAY IN THE M I DD L E OF A WALK SHE STOPS

TWENTY-FOUR

FE R R U G I N O U S W I N E.

ABRUPTLY AND

LETS OUT A SCREAM. HER FACE

VARIED DIET TO B U I LD UP THE SYST E M . I N T H E DAYS FOLLO W I N G CALMER. X. . . APPEARED TO BE M E NTALLY

CONTORTS WITH FEAR. SHE THROWS H E RSELF I NTO H E R GOV E R N ESS'S A R M S CRYI NG: ''TH ERE HE IS. H E'S HORRIBLE! HOW HIS EYES GLEAM! I'M GOING BLIND. I CAN'T SEE A N Y T HI N G!" HER VOI C E BECO M E S

SHE

DID NOT HAVE

H A LL U C I N A TIONS.

N EVERTHELESS S H E A D M ITTED TO H AV I N G YI ELDED SEVERAL TIMES TO H E R I N C R I M I N A T I N G M A N I PULA TIONS. THOUGH IN A MORE MODERATE FASHION. BY D I NT O F TOUC H I NG A N D E XC IT I N G H E RS ELF. T H E SENSITIV ITY OF TH E SEXUAL P A R T S H A D BECOM E SO GREAT THAT TH E M A I D . IN P U L L I N G OFF THE

RA UCOUS. H E R EXPRESSION THAT O F A MADMAN. AT ONE MOMENT SHE E M B R A C E S H E R GOV E R N ESS

WITH EFFUSION. THE N EXT S H E H I TS AND BITES H E R . SHE WA NTS TO RUN AWAY FROM E V E R YTH I N G .

FINA LLY.

THE

DAY

COM E S

WHEN

S H E TR I E S TO

CHI LD'S NIGHT-SH I R T WHEN DRESSI N G H E R. SET OFF AN ELECTRIC CURRENT THAT SENT
. .

THROW H E R S E LF OUT OF A SECOND-STORY W I N DOW INTO TH E STR EET B E LOW. AT CERTA I N MOMENTS SHE WA NTS TO BE CUDDLED AND EXPRESSES

S H U DD E R

TH ROUGH H E R W H O L E B E I NG. X

FLU S H E D. H E R

BR EATH I N G BECA M E U N EVEN. H E R S K I N D A M P. H E R FACE A S I F I L L U M I N ATED; I N A F E W SECONDS THE VOLUPTUOU S S E N SATION "TH I S T I M E I T S NOT MY R E AC H E D ITS C L I M A X . SHE S A I D. "YOU

GRATITUDE W H E N S H O W N AFFECTION. AT OTH ERS. ON TH E CONTRA RY. SHE GETS ANGRY I F A N YONE SYM PATH I S E S WITH HER S U FF E R I NGS. "NOBODY

FAULT."

ELSE CAN S H A R E I N TH E M ." S H E SAYS. "BECAUSE MY SUFFERINGS ARE SHAM EFULI"

PULLED IT OFF TOO QUICKLY. A R A P I D MOV E M E N T ON TH AT P A R T OF M E STARTS OFF A S E N SATION I C A N NOT C O N T R O L . " X . . . HAS I N D E E D B E COM E

THE 26TH OF A U GUST. S E E I NG TH E LITTLE SUCCESS OBTA I N E D BY M E A N S OF COERCION. BY TYING. BY VARIOUS I NSTR U M ENTS. BY SEVERE PUNISHMENT. I HAVE HER F R E E D ENTI R E LY. TRYING BY ADVICE A N D K I N D N ESS T O STI M U LATE H E R AMOUR PROPRE. TO RESTORE H E R D I G N I TY A N D A WA K E N A SENSE OF HONOUR. I PICT U R E T H E F E A R F U L CONSEQU ENCES OF HER H A B I TS. P R O M I S I NG TO LEAVE HER

H YPER-SENSITIVE. THE SLIGHTEST P R ESSU R E PUT ON THE SENSUAL PARTS LEADS TO A N ERETH I S M AS QUICK A S LIGHTN I N G W H I C H C A N B E READ ON HER FACE. THUS GIVES X . . . B E N D I NG OVER TO PICK A A QUICK THE TAP ON THE IS

FLOWER. PA RTS

H ERSELF HAND

WITH

HER

AND

R E S U LT IF

ACH I E V E D; K N OC K S

TH E

SA M E A

THING PIECE

H A PPENS OF

SHE IN

COMPLETELY F R E E I F S H E WILL B E SENSI BLE A N D O B E Y M E . B U T I A M QUICK T O A D D : "I F Y O U REFUSE TO LISTEN I W I L L H A V E TO B E C R U E L. I WILL BURN YOU R PARTS WITH A R E D HOT I RONI" ALTHOUGH X . . . APPEARED TO BE M OV E D BY MY MARKS OF

A G A I N ST

FURNITURE

PASSI NG. O R LEANS O N SOM EONE. I T I S EASY TO U N D E R S TA N D TH E UTTER I M PO S S I B I L ITY O F

AVOIDING ALL THE OCCASIONS FOR W H I C H S H E WAS ON TH E LOOK-OUT. WHICH SHE SOUG HT OR C R EATED IN ORD E R TO CONTI N U E HER A B U SES.

SYM PATHY. S H E D I D NOT PROMI S E T O B E GOOD I N THE FUTURE. "I WILL 00 M Y BEST." S H E TOLD M E . "BUT I AM NOT SURE OF S U C C E E D I NG. AND

TH E NIGHTS PASS WITH FR EQU E N T R E PETITIONS OF TH E USUAL ABUSE. BUT A SHE O FT E N HAS N E RVOU S FROM TH E

T H E R E FO R E ENOUGH SHE

I C A N N O T P R O M I S E . " C U R I O U S LY DID N OT WANT TO BE LEFT UN

T R E MORS.

FEW

KIND

WORDS

ATTACHED. " I 00 N O T T R U ST MYSELF." SHE SAID. "PUT ON MY STR A I T J A C K E T A GA I N ; TI E M E UP. I BEG YOU." I WAS OBLIGED TO C O M P LY WITH HER

GOVERN ESS A N D A H A N D SMOOTH I N G H E R BROW OFTEN C R ISES. H A PPY. SUCCEED TH E SHE IN C A L M I N G TH E S E NOCTURNAL LOOKS AT BETTER. HER SHE SEEMS WITH

C H I LD

REQU EST. ALTHOUGH R U L E S W E R E LESS STRICTLY E N FORCED T H A N B E FORE. I I N SI STED THAT THE

WORKS

L E SSONS

PLEAS U R E . S H E F R A N K LY A D M I TS T O PROVOK I N G THE VOLUPTUOUS SPASM TWELVE T O E I G H T E E N

C H I LD BE LE FT TO H E RS E LF NOW AND TH EN. FOR I HAD NOTI C E D THAT SHE R E B E LLED AGA I N ST

TIMES A D A Y . S H E EVEN I N SERTS A PAI NT-BRUSH I N TO T H E VAG I N A . THE PARTS ARE HIGHLY

SEVERE TREATM E NT. THAT S H E J I B B E D AS I T WERE. AGA I N ST TH E B R UTALITY E M PLOYED. A N D FOUGHT WITH A LL HER WIT AND C U N N I NG A GA I N ST

I NFLAM E D. WITH A YELLOWI S H G R E E N DISCHARG E . T H I C K A N D A B U N DANT.

WHATEVER COERCIVE M E A S U R E S WERE ADOPTED. ONE WOU L D HAVE SAID THAT SHE GOT MORE THE 29TH OF A U G U ST X. . . IS A LT O G E T H E R

PLEA SURE O U T OF OBTA I N I NG SATISFACTION. T H E

CHARMI NG. A STR I K I N G C H A NGE HAS TAKEN PLACE .

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S H E B EHAVES PROPER LY. D U R I N G THE VISIT OF A RELATIVE A N I M ATED SINGS A SHE IS VERY PO L I T E . K E E PS UP AN AND SHE

SOM ETI M E S H E R FACE IS F L U SH E D A N D S H E HAS A ROVING EYE: AT OTH E R S SHE IS PALE AND

CON VERSATION. BALLAD. H E RSELF BUT

RECITES THE

POE M S VI SIT.

LI STLESS. OFTEN S H E C A NNOT K E E P STI LL. PAC I N G U P A N D OOWN TH E B E D R OO M . O R BALANCING O N ONE FOOT A FT E R T H E OTH ERS. W H E N SPEAKING

A FT E R

TOU C H E S

SEVERAL

T I M E S.

I S GLOOMY

DU R I N G TH E WALK. H E R VOI C E GROWS HOA RSE. A SURE SIGN OF INCREASING TENSION. LATER.

S H E D E C LA I MS. OR PUTS O N A I RS. HER FEATU R E S TWITC H . S H E G R I M AC E S . S H E LA UGHS O U T LOU D

S E A T E D ON A C H A I R. S H E K E E PS MOVING H E R H E A D ABOUT. ROLLI NG H E R EYES A N D LOOKI N G U P AT THE C E I L I NG. COM PLAI N I NG THAT GOO I S UNJ UST TO HER BEC A U S E H E H A S G I V E N HER EVE RYTH I N G TO MAKE HER H A PPY A N D NOW TAKES I T AWAY F ROM H E R. "I A M ASKING HIM TO M A K E M E DIE." S H E SAYS. "I A M SO AFRAID OF THE OPERATION THE DOCTOR

WITHOUT R H Y M E O R R E A SO N . D U R I NG THESE BOUTS X . . . IS I NC A PA B L E OF A N YT H I N G : READI NG.

CONVERSATION. G A M E S . A R E EQUALLY ODIOUS. A L L A T ONCE H E R E X P R E S S I O N BECO M E S C Y N I CAL. H E R EXCITE M E N T M O U NTS. X... I S OVERCOME B Y T H E

D E S I R E T O 00 I T . S H E T R I E S N O T T O OR SOMEONE TRIES TO STOP H ER. H E R O N LY DOM I N ATI NG

TH R E ATENEDI A N D HOW H U M I LIATI NG TO B E FORC E D TO M E N D MY W A Y S I N STEAD OF B Y M Y O W N F R E E W I L L . " W H A T C H A O S R E I G N S I N T H A T LITTLE H E A D I A T TI M E S S H E S A Y S : "YOU W I LL SAVE M E W I T H GOD'S H E LP." AND HER EYES SH I N E WITH JOY. AT OTH ERS. SHE L A M ENTS THAT I T I S TOO LATE A N D THAT S H E IS LOST FO R E V E R I HER H A LL UC I N A TIONS R ETU R N .

THOUGHT I S T O S U CC E E D. H E R E Y E S DART I N A L L D I R ECTIONS. H E R L I P S N E V E R STOP TWITC H I NG. H E R NOST R I L S F LA R E I L A T E R . S H E CALMS OONW A N D I S H E RS E L F BO R N . " WO U L D AGA I N . "IF O N LY HER A I HAD N EV E R BEEN "WE

SHE NOT

SAYS T O HAVE
.

L I TT L E

S I STER.

BEEN

DISGRACE

TO T H E

FA M I LYI" A N D Y ALL THESE

R E P L I E S : "WHY D I D YOU TEACH M E T H E N ?" U P S ET BY THIS

WI LD-EYED. S H E S E E S THE T E R R I B L E H E A D WITH ITS GREEN D E V I LS EYES. SHE I M AG I N E S THAT A PLAGUE OF THE HOUSE AND THAT SHE

HORRORS
.

R E PROACH . X K I LL MEl

SAYS: " I F SO MEONE WOULD ONLY JOY. I COU L D DIE WITHOUT

SETTLE

ON

WHAT

H E R S E LF T U R N S I NTO A DEMONI

COMM ITTING S U I C I DE."

SHE

FANCIES

S H E I S A L R E A DY DEAD. THAT SHE

THE A FT E R NOON OF T H E 1 4TH OF SEPTEM B E R X

E N T E R S A HOUSE WITHOUT B E I N G SEEN A N D DOES H A R M TO EVE RYONE IN IT. W H I C H M A K E S HER VERY HA PPYI SHE I S SURE OF BEING I N TOUCH WITH THE DEVI L AND H A V I NG M Y STE R I O U S C O N N ECTI O N S

I S I N A T E R R I B LY OVER-EXCITED STATE. S H E WALKS ABOUT R ESTLESSLY. G R I N D I NG H E R TEETH. HER. THE

GOV E R N E S S T R I E S TO CONTROL KICKS BACK. THERE IS

BUT SHE

FOA M ON H E R LI PS. S H E

W I T H H ELL. IT SHOULD BE N O T E D TH AT EXCESSIVE ONANISM IS I N EVITABLY F O L LOW E D BY SUCH

GASPS. R E PEATI NG: " I DONT WANT TO. I OON'T WANT TO. I CANT STOP M YSELF. I M U ST 00 ITI STOP ME. HOLD MY H A N DS. TIE MY F E ETI" A FEW MOMENTS LATE R SHE FALLS INTO A STATE OF PROSTRATION.

HA LLUCI NATIONS A N D M E NTAL A B E RRATIONS.

FOR SOME TI M E X . . . HAS BEEN THI NKING A GREAT DEAL A BOUT M A R R I AG E . A L READY SHE SEEMS

BECO M E S GIVEN

SWEET

AND

G ENTLE. "I

BEGGI NG I'M

TO

BE

A N OT H E R

C H A NC E .

KNOW

K I LL I N G

I N ST I N CTIVELY ATTRACTED B Y T H E I D E A OF T H E PLEAS U R E T O BE H A D I N SEXUAL R E LATIONS.

MYSELF." S H E SAYS. "SAVE M E."

WHICH ONE DAY. FOR I N STANCE. TO A M USE HER. SHE WAS TOLD A BOUT THE MYTH I C A L POWERS OF FA I R I ES TO OBTA I N WHATEVER THEY DESI RE. "WHAT I DESI RE." SHE A N SW E R E D. " I S THAT TH E R E SHOULD BE AS MANY MEN AS LA D I E S ON EA RTH SO THEY C A N

PROVES

THAT

A FT E R

DESPERATE IS

STR U G G L E . T H E I N ST I N CT O F P R E S E R VATION SOMETI M E S STRONGE R

T H A N T H E A LL U R E S O F

VICEI S H E E X P LA I N S HOW S H E SHOULD B E T I E D SO THAT SHE C A N NOT POS S I B L Y ATTA I N HER OBJEC TIVE. BUT HER I NCONS I STENCIES ARE E N DLESS.

M A R RY."

N EXT D A Y SHE HAS A F I T OF DESI RE. THIS TI M E I N TH E P R E S E N C E O F A STRANGER. ATTEM PTS A R E

M A D E I N VA I N T O I M PO S E A RESPECT FOR DECORU M .

"00 YOU TH I N K TH E ONLY H A P P I N ESS I S I N B E I N G

M A R R I ED?" H E R GOV E R N ESS A S K E D . 'TH E R E A R E M A N Y U N M A R R I E D WOM E N WHO ARE U S E F U L A N D CONTE NT."

SHE

C A N NOT CONTROL SHE WALKS

H ERSELF. THE

D U R I NG THE I R I N D EC E N T

OUTING

IN

M OS T

FASHION I N FRONT O F PASSERS-BY. DESPITE THE PLEA D I N G S O F HER GOV E R N ESS. IN THE LITTLE

VI LLAGE T H E Y COM E TO. S H E CAUSES A SCANDAL. X . . . R E P L I E S AT ONCE WITH A S M I LE ON H E R LI PS: "NOT M E-I'M NO S A I NTI" THE GOV E R N ESS. W I T H TH E HELP OF A SERVANT. PUTS A STOP TO THE SC E N E BY BRINGING HER H O M E

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IN A C A R R I A G E . H A RDLY IS X . . . S E A T E D THAN S H E FLINGS H E R S E L F B A C K A N D ACTS I N SUCH A W A Y AS T O PROVOKE T H E VOLUPT U O U S S E N SATION. THE SERVANT'S PRESENCE I N N O W A Y D I SS U A D E S HER FROM TH I S S H A M E LE S S BY BEHAVIOUR. SHE TH E 28TH. FOR A

S H E OFTEN R E P ROAC H E S H E R SISTER F O R H A V I N G TAUGHT H E R SUCH HOR RORS. BUT TH I S DOESN'T

PREVENT H E R FROM MODELLI NG H E R C O N D UCT O N THAT O F H E R O L D E R S I STER: T H E S A M E I N D E C E N T MOVE M E N TS WHEN THEY ARE OUT, TH E SAME

TO R M E N T E D

REMORSE,

ASKES

TRICKS W H E N S H E I S ATTACHED TO T H E B E D , T H E SAME R US E S T O OUTWITH HER G U A R D I A N S. THE

PRI E ST TO G I V E H E R CON F E S S I O N . N OTH I N G COULD BE MORE D I ST R E S S I N G UNDER THAN OUR TH E EYES. SC E N E THAT WHILE THE

S A M E T R E A T M E NTS A D M I N I ST E R E D T O X . . . , TH E SA M E L A C K OF S UC C ESSI

TAKES

PLACE

V E N ERABLE P R I EST G I V E S H E R I N STRUCTION, X . . . BATHED IN TEARS, H A N DS J OI N E D TOG ETH E R , DURING MY JOURNEY TO LONDON FOR I THE WAS

P R A YS FERVE NTLY, BOW E D TO T H E G R O U N D: BUT ALL AT ONCE A D I A BOLIC THOUGHT C ROSSES H E R WRETC H E D M I N D A N D, M A K I NG TH E M OST OF H E R I N C L I N E D POS I T I O N , S H E R U B S H E R PA RTS W I T H . . . THE PRI ESrS CASSOCKI

I N TE R N A T I ON A L

M EDICAL CONGRESS.

FORTU N ATE ENOUGH TO M E ET DR. J U LES G U E R I N . I SUBMITTED CHILDREN THE TO HOPELESS CASE OF THE TWO AND

OUR

E M I N E NT

COLLEAGU E

ASKED H I S A D V I C E . DR. J . G U E R I N A F FI R M E D THAT, AFTER A LL OTH E R TREATME NTS H A D FA I LE D , HE HAD SUCCEEDED IN CURING YOUNG G I R LS

I W I L L CUT AS SHORT A S POS S I B L E T H E H I STORY OF LITTLE Y . . . WHO I S X . . :S SISTER A N D WHOM I HAVE A LREADY M E N TI O N E D THE WHEN R E LA T I NG SHE IS FACTS AS

A F FECT E D BY THE VICE OF ON A N I S M BY B U R N I N G THE CLITO R I S WITH A HOT IRON.

CONC E R N I NG

LATTE R .

NOT

I NTELLIGENT O R A S ATTRACTIVE A S H E R SISTER. U N FORTU NATELY. THE TWO C H I LD R E N WERE NOT

ON

MY

RETURN

TO

CONSTANTINOPLE

HAD

NO

D I F F I C U LTY I N P E R S U A D I NG THE F A M I L Y TO FOLLOW THE R E CO M M E N DA T I O N P ROPOS E D BY T H E D I S

S E PA R ATED. AS A R E S U LT, TH E LITTLE O N E COPI E D E V E R YTH I N G TH E 81G ONE D I D, AND EVERY

TiNG U I S H E D ACA D E M I C I A N . I DEC I D E D TO E X P E R I M E NT F I RST ON L I TT L E Y . . .

PRACTICE I N V E N T E D BY X . . . I S A DOPTED B Y Y . . . THE G E N I TA L ORGANS ARE SO P R E C OC I O U S L Y

D E V E LOPED T H E R E A R E A LR E A D Y T U FTS OF H A I R ON T H E LABIA P U D E N D I A LTHOUGH Y . . . I S N O T YET SIX. T H E SA M E H A R S H M ETHODS U S E D O N X . . . A R E E MPLOYED ON Y . . . BECAUSE OF HER STU R D Y

THE 8TH O F S E PTE M B E R, T R E M B L I N G I N E V E RY L I M B , THE P OO R CHILD IS EXT R E M E L Y VOLU B I LE, BUT

R EASONS L I K E A G I R L OF 1 6. S H E B E G S M E N O T TO BURN H E R A N D R E MOVE SMALL HER IS EVEN VERY G RA TE F U L W H E N I J A CKET. I NOTE THAT T H E

CONSTITUTION S H E I S W H I P P E D SO FORCI B LY T H E BUTTOCK S A R E STR I P E D BY D E E P ECCHYMOSE. I T H A S A S M U CH E FFECT O N Y . . . A S I T H A D O N T H E E L D E R S I STER: T H E P U B I C B A N DA G E I S EQUALLY U N S UCCESSFUL. I N FLA M E D Y E L LO W AND THE SEXUAL PA RTS ARE VERY

STR A I T ARE

LABIA

SCORED

BY

P E R P E N D I C U LA R

WOUNDS. TRACES O F I N J U R I ES I N FLICTED YESTER DAY BY A TABLE FORK! TH E ORI FICE O F T H E VAGI N A I S BRIGHT R E D . I T I S MOST D I STR E S S I NG T O TH I N K THAT S O YOUNG A C H I L D CAN BE S O P E RV E R S E ! S H E A D M I TT E D EVE RYTH I N G SHE H A D DON E D U R I N G M Y A B S E N C E . "I A M A S H A M ED, S I R :' S H E S A I D, "TO TELL YOU A BO U T MY H O R RO R S : ' A FT E R SO M E

BLOOD- R E D I N WITH OF A

COLO U R .

A TH I C K ODOR

DISCHARGE IN SPITE A

R EPULSIVE

P E R S I STS SEVERA L

A B LUTIONS THE

R E PEATED WHOSE

TIMES

DAY.

C H I LD.

V E N E R E A L DESI R E S , A S A R E S U LT O F PROVOK E D STI M U LATION, SEVERAL HAVE ALREADY G ETS VERY BEEN ACTIVE WOR K E D UP FOR AND

HESITATI O N , S H E A D M I TT E D TO R U B B I NG H E R S E L F WITH HER H A N DS , WITH HER F E E T, WITH ANY

MONTHS,

FOREIGN BODY S H E COULD F I N D . A T M Y I N S I ST E N C E , S H E SHOWED M E WHAT S H E D I D I N B E D I N O R D E R T O GET A T H E R S E LF, A N D H O W S H E PROD U C E D T H E

OFT E N R O U S E S D E S I R E B Y A S E R I E S O F P R E PA RA TORY BODY MOVE M E NTS. AND A L E RT, SHE IS A LTHOUGH BY WELL B U I LT

REDUCED,

EXCESSIVE

SMACKI N G SOU N D OF T H E V U LVA W H I C H S H E K E PT UP MOST OF THE NIGHT IN CONCERT WITH HER

A B U S E , T O SUCH A STATE O F I M BE C I LI TY, S H E N O LON G E R U N D E RSTA N D S W H A T I S SA I D T O H E R . A T S U C H TI M E S S H E I S P A L E A N D C ROSS-EYED.

S I STER. W E H A V E A L R E A D Y DESC R I B E D I N DETA I L THE MEC H A N I S M O F T H I S SOU N D W H I C H C A N B E

H E A R D S E V E R A L M ETERS AWAY. I T I S C A U S E D B Y T H E OPE N I NG A N D CLOS I N G O F T H E LA B I A P U D E N D I BUT THE MOMENT SHE G ET S THE IDEA OF HER UNDER THE I N FLUENCE OF R H YT H M I C FROM AND THE

SATI SFYING

HERSELF,

HER

EYES

SHI NE,

E N E RGETIC

CONTRACTIONS

STARTI N G

S P E EC H BECOM E S J E RKY, H E R S A L I VA A B U N DANT. S H E H A S EVEN B E E N KNOWN TO W E E PI

ANUS, W H I C H SET T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M I N MOTION A N D SPREAD TO T H E LA RGE. SWOLLEN L A B I A . "BUT

31

WHO

SHOWED

YOU

HOW TO 00 SUCH

I N FAMOUS

W H A T H A P P E N S W I T H BOTH SISTERS W H E N , O R I V E N BY THE I R R E S I STABL.E OESIRE T O TOUCH TH EM

THI NGS?" I ASKED HER. " 1 FOU N D OUT FOR MYSE L.F. S I R , "' SHE R E P L. I E D . "IT F E E L. S MY NICE WHEN I

S E L.VES, THEY A R E P R EVENTED FROM OOI NG SO.

CONTRACT A N D SQU E EZE. S A M E:'

SISTER

DOES THE THE 1 5TH , S H E T H R U STS A PIECE OF WOOD I NTO THE VAGI N A , L.ATER, STOO P I N G OVER A L.ITTL.E TABL.E,

EVE RYTH I NG WAS READY FOR THE TRANSCURRENT C A U T E R I S ATI O N . SU PPL.ICATIONS. R E L.ENT. FOR BUT THE B E FO R E PROM I S E S AN HOUR I THE TEARS BY AND Y. . . I

S H E R U B S HER PA RTS AGA I NST T H E OECORATION ON ITS L.EG. HOWEVER, SHE ABUSES H E RSEL.F MUCH L.ESS S I N C E THE CAUTERI SATION, TOUCH I NG A L.ONE I S NOT E N OUGH TO PROOUCE ORGASM, L.ONG A N D REPEATED F R I CT I O N IS R EQ U I R E D ROU N D TH E

MADE

OVER

L.ECTU R E WIL.L. BE

HER.

EXPL.A I N I NG THAT

HER

H E A L.TH

RUINED

A N D HER RE PUTATION L.OST I F SHE CONTI NUES T H E WAY SHE IS G O I N G I BUT I F S H E F A I L. S T O KEEP H E R WOR D SHE W I L. L. BE BURNT ON MY N EXT VISIT. "IT IS DISGRACEFUL. TH AT YOU S H O U L. D HAVE TO BE TIED UP LIKE AN A N I M A L. IN A STA BL.E, OR A C R I M I N A L.. .. I TEL.L. HER. COL.D SHOWE RS, BROMIDE OF POTAS

O R I F I C E OF T H E VAG I N A , BECAUSE THE CL.ITORIS IS NOT ONL.Y I N S ENSITIVE BUT EXTR EM EL.Y P A I N F U L. TO THE TOU C H . AT L.AST, THE SUPERVISION OF Y
. .

BECO M E S POSS I B L.E A N D REWARDING.

THE

1 6TH, SECO N D CA UTERISATION. I A PPL.Y THE

S I U M . BUT H A R DL.Y HAD I L.EFT BEFORE SHE WAS AT IT AGA I N WORSE TH A N EVER.

HOT POI NT T H R E E TIMES TO EACH OF T H E L.ARGE LA B I A ANO A N OTH E R O N THE CL.ITORIS. TO P U N I S H H E R FOR O I SOBEDIENCE, I C A U T E R I S E BUTTOCKS

THE HER

1 1 TH OF SEPTE M B E R I N ORDER TO FRIGHTEN AS MUCH AS POSS I B L. E . I MAKE A GREAT

AND LOI N S WITH TH E BIG I RON. SHE SWEARS SHE WIL.L NOT B E N A UG H TY AGA I N AND A D M I TS TO BEING ooUBL.Y G U I LTY BEC A USE, SHE SAYS, S I N C E T H E FI RST C A U T E R I SATION SHE H A SN'T H A D TH E S A M E DESI R E TO EXCITE H E RS E L.F, "I SEE T H A T TH I S

DISPL.AY OF BRAZIERS FUL.L. OF BURNI NG COA L.S IN WHICH I PL.ACE AN ENORMOUS I RON I N THE FORM OF A N AXE. I BL.OW ON I T U NTIL. I T BECOMES RED HOT. SHE T R E M B L. E S AT T H E S I G H T OF A L. L. T H E S E

M ETHOD W I L. L. C U R E M E , BECA USE I C A N GO FOR MORE T H A N TWENTY-FOUR HOURS WITHOUT DOING A HORROR."

I N F E R N A L. GOI NGS O N . "'YOU D I D NOT K E E P YOUR PROMISE," I SAID TO H E R . " A N D I'L.L. SHOW YOU THAT YOU MADE A M I STAKE BY K E E P I NG M I N E:' I SHOW E D H E R THE CLITORIS BIG H O T I RON. WITH A L. I TT L. E BUT I CAUTERISED T H E THREE M I L.L.I

STY L.ET

N E XT DAY S H E COMPL.A I N S OF H E R B U R NS. S H E I S NONE THE L.ESS ON THE L.OOK OUT FOR ANY

M ETERS I N D I A M ETER H E ATED OVER A SPIRIT L.AMP. " I F YOU DO IT AGAIN,"' I TOL.D H E R. "I WIL.L. BURN YOU WITH THE BIG I RON N EXT TI M E AND WITHOUT PITY:'

C H A N C E TO TOU C H H E RSEL.F B U T STOPS A S SOON A S SHE IS THREATE N E D WITH B U R N I NG.

S E E ! N G TH E TH E 1 4TH OF SEPTEMBER, THE OPERATION PROVED TO HAVE HAD AN

.

P U N I S H M E N TS I N F L I C T E D O N H E R BECO M E S VERY DESPONDENT; SHE

I M M EDIATE

AND

S A L.UTA R Y

S I ST E R,

X...

E FFECT. L. I TT L. E y ,

H A D B E E N GOOD EVER S I N C E

K E E P S R E PEATI NG: "'I F O N L. Y I C O U L O O l E ! I K N O W I WIL.L H A V E TO U N DE RGO THE S A M E TORTURE, WHAT CAN I DO?" HER E XCESSES CONTI N U E SHE AND HER

TH E CA UTERI SATION, '''TH E P A I N IS HORRIBL.E," SHE SA ID, "I'L.L. N E V E R DO I T AGA I N :' AL.THOUGH L.EFT AT L.IBE RTY, S H E WAS VERY W E L. L. BEHAVED ON THE WAL.K AND VERY GOOD OF A TH E AT N IGHT, H ER BUT, ON THE

STATE

B E C O M E S A L.A R M I NG:

IS PALE, THIN,

WEAK, H E R LOWE R LI M BS HAVE OEOEMA AL.MOST TO TH E K N E E .

A FTER NOON U N OERWENT

1 5T H ,

PHYSIOGNOM I E HER HANDS

SUDDEN

C H A NGE;

SHOOK AS THEY A L.WAYS O l D W H EN SHE WAS ON THE POINT OF P E R P E T R A T I N G ONE OF HER OF HER CRIME, IN A

YESTEROAY W H E N TH E A NGEL.US W A S R U N G , S H E BEGAN TO SHIVER, HER FACE TOOK ON AN

TW I N K L I NG U NDER BECA M E

H A NDS HER

D I SA P P E A R E D AND Y.,. SHE

EXPRESSION OF TERROR A N D H E R E Y E S FL.OODED WITH TEARS, SHE T R I E D TO RUN AWAY, CRYI NG: "TH E SOU N O O F T H E BE LLS M A KES M E TH I N K OF T H E DAY O F J U D G E M E NTr'

THE RED

P L. E A TS IN TH E

DRESS

FACE. DON E

QUESTION I E D,

A DMITTED T O HAVI NG

I T , B U T SOUGHT TO

J U STI FY HERSEL.F BY SAYING IT WAS I M POSSIBL.E TO RESIST THE CRAVI NG. SHE W A S REMINDED OF THE SESSION WITH THE FIRE AND K E PT UNDER B EC A M E IN THE DAYS THAT F O L. L. O W E D Y . . . FO U G H T TH E 1 9TH, TH I R D CA UTERISATION OF L.ITTL.E y , . .

WHO SOBS A N D VOC I F E R ATES.

SUPERVISION,

TOW A R O

E V E N I NG S H E

C A PRICIOUS, THEN BROKE DOWN, SOBBING. THIS I S

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SUCCESSFULLY

A G A I N ST

T E M PT A T I O N .

SHE

VICIOUS R U B B I NG HAS DISAPPEA R E D . THE 1 2TH OF OCTOBER TH E HORRORS BEGIN A GA I N . LITTLE Y

. .

BECA M E A C H I L D A G A I N . PLAYING WITH H E R DOLL. AMUSING HERSELF AND LA UG H I NG G A Y LY. S H E

HOWLS L I K E A W I LD BEAST W H E N S H E H E A R S M E COMI NG . I T R Y G I V I N G H E R S E V E R A L VIOLENT A N D V E R Y PA I N F U L E LECTRIC SHOCKS O N T H E PARTS WITH C LA R K'S APPA RATUS. AS MIGHT BE EXPECTED, TH I S M ETHOD P RO V E S U N S UC C E S S FU L . O N TH E

BEGS T O H A V E H E R H A N DS TI E D E A C H TI M E S H E I S N O T S U R E O F H E RS E LF: ONE PUNISHED BY R E LA PS E ON I S EVEN RAW

F L A G E L LA T I O N

THE

BUTTOCKSI OFTEN S H E I S S E E N TO M A K E A N EFFORT AT CONTROL. NONETHELESS SHE DOES IT TWO OR TH R E E TI M ES E V E R Y TWENTY FOU R H O U RS. H A V I NG IN GENERAL FULL L I B E RTY OF ACTION. THIS IS

CONTR A R Y, ACCORD I N G TO T H E GOVE R N ESS, Y . . . BECA M E H I G H L Y EXCITED A N D A B U S E D H E RS E L F EVEN MORE THAN SHE HAD DURING THE DAYS

R E LATIVELY LITTLE COMPA R E D WITH THE THI RTY OR FORTY A B U S E S COM M ITED EACH D A Y BEFORE THE C A UTERI SATION. T H E GOVE R N ESS IS E N C HANTED M O R E AND

BEFORE H A N D.

THE 1 7TH, X . . . ONCE AGAIN H A S A V E R ITABLE FIT OF FOLLY D U R I NG WHICH SHE TRIES TO THROW

WITH T H E R E S U LT OBTA I N ED. BUT X MORE DROPS ALL

. .

PRETENCE O F MODESTY. ONE

HERSELF OUT O F TH E W I N DOW. YESTERDAY, S H E RUBBED T H E V A G I N A S O VIOLENTLY WITH A PIECE OF BRONZE S H E B L E D F R E E LY. I CAUTERISE T H E CLITOR I S A N D E N T R Y T O THE VAGINA. F R O M TH E N O N THE TWO LITTLE PATI ENTS W E R E N O LONG E R UNDER M Y O B S E R VATION. T H E Y W E R E SEPA RATED. ACCORD I NG TO M Y I N FO R M ATION, LITTLE Y . . . WAS COMPLETELY C U RED. AS TO X . . . , S H E CONTI N U E S T O A B U S E H E R S E L F A S I N TH E PAST. S H E I S F A R AWAY, IN THE COUNTRY. WITHOUT ANY MEDICAL

N I G H T SHE SUCCEEDS I N R U BB I N G H E RSELF TILL T H E BLOOD COMES ON THE STRAPS THAT B I N D HER. A N OTH E R TI M E . C A UG H T IN TH E ACT BY THE

GOV E R N ESS SHE HAS

A N D U N A B L E T O SATISFY H E RS E LF, OF H E R T E R R I BLE FITS O F RAGE,

ONE

D U R I NG WHICH

SHE YELLS: "I W A N T TO, O H HOW I

WANT TOI YOU C AN'T U N D ERSTA N D. M A DE M O I S E LLE. HOW I WANT TO DO ITI" HER M E M O R Y B E G I N S TD F A I L. S H E C A N N O LONG E R K E E P UP WITH LESSONS. S H E HAS H A LLUC I NATIONS ARE A L L TH E TI M E . EVEN TH E HER

SUPERVI S I O N A N D D E P R I V E D OF A L L TREATMENT.

ARMS

COV E R E D W I TH AS

OEDEMA.

SAME TH E I R

I NDECENT ACTS

I N T H E P A S T D U R I NG

OUTINGS: S H E TH ROWS H E RS E L F ON T H E BUSHES. KICKS HER PARTS W I TH HER H EEL. ETC. HER U R I N E CONTA I N S NO A L B U M I N . COM M E N TS

THE 2 3 R D. S H E R EPEATS: "I D E S E R V E T O B E BURNT AND I WILL BE. I WI LL BE BRAVE D U R I NG THE

THE

DETA I L S

OF

THE

FOREGOI N G C A S E H I STORY

HAVE B E E N R E LATED IN SUCH M ETIC U LOUS DETA I L. A N D THE CASE SA L I E N T POI NTS OF T H I S I N T E R E ST I N G FOR THE

OPERATION, I WON'T C RY." FROM T E N A T N IG H T UNTI L SIX I N TH E MOR N I I NG, S H E H A S A T E R R I BLE ATTACK, FALLING SEVERAL TIMES I N TO A SWOON THAT

MADE

S U F F IC I E NTLY C L E A R

ADDITION O F A N Y LONG COMM ENTA R I E S TO BECOM E U N N ECESSARY.

L A S T E D A B O U T A QUA RTER OF A N H O U R . AT TIMES SHE H A D VISUAL H ALLUCI NATIONS, A T OTH E R

T I M E S S H E BECA M E D E LI R I OUS, W I L D E Y E D, SAYING: "TUR N TH E PAGE, WHO I S HITTING ME. ETC."

EXAMPLES O F O N A N I S M AT SUCH A N E A R L Y AGE A R E RA R E I N LITTLE G I R LS, W E KNOW OF ONLY TWO CASES: THAT O F FONASSAG R I V E S R E LATING TO A

TH E 25TH I APPLY A HOT POI NT TO X

:S C LITORIS.

SEVEN Y E A R OLD C H I LD WHOSE H A B I TS NECESSI TATED THE R E M E D Y OF A B E LT, W I THOUT ANY

S H E S U B MITS TO T H E OPERATION WITHOUT W I N C I NG. AND FOR T W E NTY FOU R HOU R S A FT E R THE

SUCCESS, FOR T H E C H I L D OBTA I N E D SATI S FACTION BY S LI P P I N G A LONG FEATHE R INSIDE THE

OPERATION S H E I S

P E RFECTLY GOOD. BUT TH E N

S H E R E T U R N S W I T H R E N E W E D F R E N ZY TO H ER OLD HABITS. F I N A LLY. TO OBVIATE ANY F R I CTION. SHE IS KEPT ON HER F E ET, LEGS CLOSED A N D TIED

BANDAGE I N O R D E R TO REACH TH E G E N ITA L PA RTS; AND THAT O F D E S L A N D E S. WHOSE PATI ENT WAS A L I TT L E GIRL OF THREE. IN SPITE OF SUCH

TOGETH ER, OR E L S E ATTACH E D TO A C H A I R, BUT LYING ON HER BACK TO A VO I D A N Y R U B B I NG O N THE CHAI R'S E DGE. SHE COMPLA I N S O F V A G U E PAINS IN TH E C H E ST, SHE B EG I N S TO COUGH, BUT AN

PRECOCIO U S

ABUSE

A N D ITS FREQUENT R EPETI

TION, T H I S YOU N G G I R L M A N AG E D TO R E S I ST UNTI L M A R R I AGE.

EXA M I NATION O F T H E C H EST R E V E A L S N OTHI NG.

I N THE CASE O F TH E TWO LITTLE S I STERS, AS O U R OBSERVATION D E M ONSTRATES, O N A N I S M WAS BOTH

LITTLE Y

. .

I S GOOD. THE I N FL A M MATION SET UP BY

CLiTORIA L A N D VAG I N A L.

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ONE

SEEKS IN

THE

ORIGIN.

THE

EARLY C I RC U M

M A N I AC A L AGITATION SO VIOLENT THAT TH E C H I LD. USUALLY FURIOUS SO AS A SWEET WILD AND DOC I L E . H ITT I N G B EC A M E AS

STA N C E S

W H I C H THESE V I CIOUS H A B I TS W E R E TWO PRINCIPAL CAUSES E M ERGE:

CONTRACTED.

B E A ST.

A N D BITING

THE I N TESTI N A L PARASITES (AT LEAST I N TH E CASE OF THE ELDER SI STER). AND I N ITI ATION. AT AN

T H O S E S H E M O S T R E S PECTED THE SATISFACTION OF HER

I F THEY OPPOS E D WHEN HER

CRAVING

EARLY AGE. LITTLE X . . . H A D WORMS. FOR W H I C H I TREATED SEXUAL HER. NOW. AND BOTH THE THE RASH ON THE

E XC I T E M E NT WAS AT ITS H E IGHT.

PARTS

P R E S ENCE OF H E L M I N

TH I S WAS FOLLOWED SOON AFTER BY A P E R I OD OF PROST R A T I O N . OF CALM AND REMORSE. THE

THES AT T H E LOWER EXTR E M ITY O F TH E R ECTU M CAN. BY THE I R R E S I ST A B L E I R R ITATION TH E Y

EXTINCTION O F A L L M O R A L S E N S E SHOULD A L.SO R EC E I V E S P EC I F I C M ENTION. W H E N E V E R T H E TWO C H I L D R E N WERE OVERCOME BY A N A RD E N T DESI R E T O M A ST U R BATE T H E Y D I D NOT C A R E I N T H E LEAST ABOUT PROPRI ETY OR THOSE P R E S E NT. TH E Y GAVE WAY WITHOUT IN BLUSH I NG TO TH E I R D I SG R A C E F U L OR SER

C A U S E. LEAD TO TH E M A N U A L EXCITATION OF THE PA RTS. BUT X . . .'S C U RIOSITY H A D A LREADY BEEN AR O U S E D BY THE MAID TO U C H I N G HERSELF

VIGOROUSL Y W H E N S H E B E L I E V E D THE C H I L D TO B E AS L E E P. A S TO LITTLE Y . . .. A T THE AGE O F FOU R S H E WAS COR R U PTED BY H E R S I STER. I N COM PANY WITH OTH E R C H I LD R E N .

PRACTICES

F R O N T O F P A S S E R S- B Y

VANTS. I F TO TH I S WE A D D THE H A L L UC I N A ITONS W O W H I C H X . . . WAS F R E Q U E N TLY SUBJ ECT. T H E R E C A N

BECA USE

OF

THEIR

YOUTH

AT

TH E

TI M E T H E Y

BE

NO D O U B T THAT

SHE

SUFFERED FROM

DEEP

BEGA N T O A B U S E TH E M S E LVES. BEEN

IT WOULD HAVE

PSYC H I C D I STU RBANCE.

I M POS S I B L E FOR O U R YOUNG PATI E N TS TO X . . .S EYE-SIGHT HAD A LSO CONSI D ERABLY POINT I F E E L I T N ECES

H A V E DON E SO BY G E N I T A L N E E D. IT WAS S I M PLY BY I M ITATION. OR TO A LL E V I ATE BOREDOM WHEN L E FT U N O C C U P I E D. IT WAS ONLY A FT E R CONSTA NT

D E T E R I ORATED. O N TH I S

S A R Y TO REFER TO A S I M I LA R C A S E W H I C H C A M E UNDER MY OBSERVATION WHEN I PRACTISED IN

RE PETITION OF S U C H CONTACTS THAT A N AWAKEN ING OF THE S E X U A L I N ST I N CTS TOOK PLACE. WITH I M PU LSION TO SATI SFY T H E M I M MEDIATELY AT A L L COSTS. I TH I N K WE M A Y C O N S I D E R THIS I R R ES I ST ABLE DESIRE. TH I S U N C O N T ROLLA B L E C R A V I N G

PA R I S . I T WAS THAT O F A YOU N G LADY O F TWENTY EIGHT Y E A R S OLD W H O CONFESSED TO M E THAT

SHE TOUCH E D H E R S E L F A GREAT MANY TIMES EACH DA Y. WHICH L E D TO A PROGRESSIVE AND A LMOST

W H I C H TOOK POSSESSION OF THE CH I LD R E N . AS A V E R I TA B L E GLED WITH N E UROSIS. ALL HER VERY MIGHT OFTEN X... STRUG THE

TOTA L A M A U ROSIS.

TO OVERCO M E

U N H E A LTHY I M P U L S E W H I C H D ROVE H E R T O EXCITE HER ORGANS. WITH TH E B E ST WILL I N THE WORLD S H E COULD NO MORE CONTROL H E RSELF THAN A SU F F E R E R FROM C H O L E R A C A N PREVENT C R A M PS. OR A N HYSTE R I C A L WOM A N A VERT A N ONCOM I N G ATTACK.

D E S M A R R E S SENIOR. TO WHOM I S E N T T H E PATI E N T WITHOUT A C QU A I NTI N G THE HIM OF HER H A B I TS. OF HER

R E C OG N I S E D

E S S E N TI A L

CAUSE

F A I L I N G S I G HT. H E I N FO R M E D M E O F I T I N A S E A L E D LETT E R WHICH HE GAVE THE P."TI ENT.

L"TER.

H A V I N G FOLLOWED O U R A DVICE. T H I S Y O U N G L A D Y RENOUNCED ONAN AND A LSO RECOV E R E D PER

FECT E YE-SIGHT. MANY TIMES X... TRIED TO GET THE BETTER OF I WILL SAY J U ST A WORD CONCERNING THE

H E R S E LF. BEGGI NG TO B E TIED U P A N D PREVENTED FROM DOI N G ITI A MOMENT LATER SHE E M PLOY E D EVERY R U S E TO O U T W I T TH E V I G I LA N C E OF THOSE I N C H A RGE OF H E R .

T H E R A PE UTIC M ETHODS E M PLOYED I N T H E CASE OF THE LITTLE G I R LS : M E D I C A M ENTS HAD NO E FFECT. N E I TH E R S U C C ESS. SEDATIVES NOR DID A NOR TON I C S M ET WITH ANY

SHOWERS TO

AND

WARM

BATHS MORAL

IN

THE

B E G I N N I NG .

TH E

STI M U L U S

FOR

THESE

B R I NG

ABOUT

RETURN

N O R M A L.

V I C I O U S H A B I TS O R I G I N A T E D EXCLUSIVELY I N T H E E N C E PH A LO N : ONLY LATER AS A R E S U LT OF

TH E R A PY

W A S E Q U A L L Y I N E F F E C T U A L.

ADVICE.

COA X I N G . C A R E S S E S . I N TI M I D A T I O N . T H E C R U E L LEST P U N I S H M ENT. RELIGION WITH ITS T H R E ATS

FREQUENT AND R E P E A T E D R U BBING. THE STI M U LUS ORIGI NATING SE LVES. FROM THE G E N I TA L PARTS THEM

A N D P R O M I S E S . NOTH I N G COULD D I SSUADE THESE POO R C H I L D R E N FROM Y I E L D I NG TO TH E I R FATA L A D D ICTION!

LITTLE

X. . .

S U F F E R E D FROM E I TH E R SHE

M U LTIPLE N E RVOUS SUBJECT TO THE PUBIC B E LT. STRA I T J A C K ET. STRAPS. BONDS. T H E M O S T A S S I D UOUS S U P E R V I S I O N ONLY R E S U LTED I N

D I SORDE RS.

WAS

MOST PROFO U N D D E P R E S S I O N . OR ELSE PREY TO A

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TH E I N VENTION OF NEW EXPEDI ENTS INSPIRED BY RUSE AND SU BTLETY.

A LSO LESS PRONE TO TOUCH THEMSELVES.

IT I S EQU ALL.Y PROBABL.E THAT. THE CL.ITOR I S A N D CAUTE RISATION S A T I S FACTO R Y BY HOT IRON ALONE THE GAVE F I RST VUL.VAL. O R I F I C E H A V I N G BECOME M O R E O R L.ESS I N FLA M E D AS A R E S U LT OF THE OPE RATION. THAT TOU C H I NG M A Y P ROVE P A I N F U L RATH E R THAN A SOU RCE OF PL.EAS U R E .

R E S U LT S .

A FT E R

OPERATION. FROM FORTY T O FI FTY TIMES A DAY. THE N U M B E R OF VOLUPTUOUS SPASMS WAS REDUCED TO THREE OR FOUR. ACCOR D I N G TO THE I N FORMA TION I R E C E I VED. LITTLE Y
. .

T H A N K S TO T H I S IN ALL. S H E

F I N A LLY. T H E T E R RO R PROVOKED BY THE S I G H T O F THE I N STRU M E NTS. A N D T H E I M PRESSION M A D E O N TH E C H I L.D R E NS I MA G I N ATION BY T H E RED H O T I RO N M UST A L.SO B E C O U N T E D A M O N G THE B E N E F I C I A L. EFFECTS OF TRANSC U RRENT CAUTERISATION.

M ETHOD. WAS ON LY

W A S COMPELTELY C U R ED. FOU R T I M ES. X...

C A UTERISED

U N DERWENT

ONE CAUTERISATION. A FTER WHICH I LOST

SIGHT OF H E R ENTI RELY. T H E R E IS NO REASON TO CONCLUDE THEN. THAT SHE PERSI STS IN HER

A B U S E . OR THAT TH E M ETHOD I S I N E FFECTI VE.

WE

BELIEVE

TH E N .

THAT

IN

CASES

S I M I L.A R

TO

THOSE S U B M I TT E D TO YOU R CONSIDE RATION. ONE IT I S R EASONABLE TO I N FE R THAT CAUTERI SATON BY HOT I RON D I M I N I SHES THE SENSITIVITY OF THE C L I TORIS. WHICH CAN B E COM PLETELY DESTROYED IF THE OPERATION IS R E PEATED A C E RTA I N SHOULD NOT H ESITATE TO RESORT TO THE HOT I RO N . AND AT AN E A R L.Y AND HOUR. IN ORDER TO IN

COMBAT

C LI TO R A L

V A G I N A L. O N A N I S M

L.ITTLE G I R LS.

N U M B E R OF T I M E S . THE SECOND POINT OF G E N ITAL S E N S I TI V I TY CONSTI TUTED BY THE VULVAL ORIFICE HAVING ALSO BEEN DEADENED BY THE CAUTERI SATI O N . IT IS EASY TO CONCEI VE T H AT T H E
TRANSL.ATED BY CATH ERINE DUNCAN

D E M ETRIUS ZAMBACO

C H I L D R E N . H A V I NG BECOME LESS EXCITABLE. ARE

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ROBE RTE'S D I A R Y
MAY

{CONTI NUEDl

1 954

. . . NOT EVEN A BATH WAS A N Y H E LP, LIKE T H E LAST TIME. IS IT POSS I B L E THAT A WOM A N SEEKS TO

I L E A V E OCTAVE T O H I S RATIOCINATIONS A N D H I S PRAYERS, THAT H E SHOULD H AVE TH E I NCONC EIV ABLE A R R OG A N C E TO I MAGINE H IMSELF THE

E X PE R I E NC E A VIOLENT F E E L I NG OF S H A M E J UST B EC A U S E SHE I S R E S PECTA BLE? ITS A POI N T O F

V I EW: FOR A L O N G TI M E OCTAVE H A S M A D E I T H I S PA BULUM. FOR M E SUCH A RESEARC H I S U N R E A L. NO DOUBT: O R AM I I NC I TED BY M Y R E SPECTA B I L I TY TO M A K E IT? I R E M E M B E R THAT I WAS A S H A M E D: WAS M Y VOLUPTU A R Y A N Y T H E L E S S FOR THAT? A N D NOW MY SHAME IS EVEN LESS R E PUGNANT TO ME IN

A UTHOR O F M Y I M PROP R I E T I E S I S O N E TH I NG-BUT A S TO CONSI D E R I N G H I MS E L F AT THE ORIGIN OF MY T E M P E R A M E N T . . . THE POOR DEAR HAS NO I D E A WHAT I A M CAPABLE O F WH ITHOUT H I M . A N D THOUGH HE GOES TO SO MUCH TROUB L E SU PPOS I N G WHAT H A P P E N S TO ME AND WHAT H E'D LIKE TO SEE M E S U B M ITTED TO, I'LL N E V E R TELL H I M T H E T H I NGS

R ETROSPECT S I N C E I C A N S E E HOW ATTRACTIVE I M U ST H A V E B E E N TO THOSE TWO I N DI V I D UALS . . .

THAT HAVE H A P P E N E D AND STILL COULD HAPPEN TO M E I N ALL L I K E LI H OOD: A NTOI N E WOU LD KNOW A BOUT IT AT ONCE A N D N E V E R S L E E P AGA I N ,

DOES T H A T M E A N THEY H A V E SOME I M PORTA N C E B EC A U S E OF I T ? SHOULD TH E S A M E T H I N G H A PP E N AGA I N, I N A L L HON ESTY I M UST A D M I T I W O U L D NOT R E S I ST. A N D I TA K E (AS I D I D E A R L I E R ) AS M U C H

ONCE I WOU L D N E V E R H A V E D R E A M E D OF GOING BACK OVER S U C H THI NGS. I MEAN THOSE DUE TO OCTAVE. BUT NOWA DAYS I C A N'T R E S I ST TELLING MYSELF THE STORY OF TH I S OR THAT I N C I D E N T

P LE A S U R E

IN

MY

D I SG R A C E

AS

THOSE

WHO

I N FLICTED I T ON M E ,

AFTER M Y M A N I C U RE, R U E SCR I B E , J U STI N WHO WAS WAITING FOR ME AT TH E W H E E L OF O U R BUICK

( W H I C H TOOK COULD BE

PLACE U N K NOWN T O H I M) : NOTH I N G MORE V U LG A R , BUT S I NC E THAT

COU L D N'T G E T I T TO START, TH E BR EAKDOWN D I DN'T WOR R Y M E, I HAD T I M E TO KILL B E FO R E R E TU R N I N G TO THE PALAIS B O U R BO N , A N D, NOT HAVING

H A PPENED TO M E A N D K E E P S COM I N G BACK TO ME, I ' L L TRY TO TAKE REFUGE I N WORDS SO AS NOT TO H A V E TO TH I N K A BOUT IT D U R I NG THE DAY. T H I S M O R N I N G AT T H E C O M M I S S I O N I WAS D I S T R A I T B E C A U S E OF T H A T , NO O N E NOTICED, BUT E V E N S O

A RR A N G E D A N Y A PPOI NTM E NTS I N THE M EA NTI M E , I W A N T E D TO M A K E T H E MOST OF SUCH A W A R M A N D WON D E R F U L LY S U N N Y A FTERNOON. I J U M PE D O N

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TH E PLATFO R M OF TH E F I R S T BUS, A N D LEANT OUT WATC H I NG IN A K I N D O F D R E A M THE SHOPS GO BY, WHEN A SUGGESTIVE PRESSURE FORCED ME TO

LEGS APART P E R H A PS. A N D A S M I LE O N M Y LI PS FEELING THE WARM B R E EZ E THROUGH THE

LOW E R E D W I N DOW. D I D I CONTI N U E TO S M I L E WITH HALF-OPEN I NT E N T? LEGS. AT LIPS A S LEAST MY I HIS REGARD BEC A M E MORE

C H A NGE PLACES A N D S I T I N S I D E "

, AS HE DI DN'T

STOP LOOKI N G A T M E, I ROSE AND GOT OUT AT TH E TH EA T R E F R A N C A I S , PASSI N G THROUGH THE ENTRY OF THE P A L A I S- ROYAL, I SET OFF DOWN THE

I M M EDIATELY CROSSED M Y

FOLDED

H A N DS. A L L T H E S A M E I WAS

WEA R I NG T H E ROSETTE O F THE LEGION O F HONO U R I N THE B UTTONHOLE O F MY S U I T. I T WA S THEN I

G A L L E R Y D E MONTPE N S I E R . U N D E R T H E A RCADES A L MOST LI K E DESERTED ECHO AT THAT MY HOUR, FOOTSTEPS C LO S E R : OF

DECIDED TO G ET OUT. A N D I R E M E M B E R. I PULLED OFF TH E ROSETTE A N D HID IT I N MY BAG. CASUA LLY I C RO S S E D THE SQUA R E OF THE T H EAT R E

THE

OF

OWN FO R

DREW A

SOM ETH I N G

QUITE I

USUAL

M EMBER

PA R L I A M ENT, I N D I V I D U A L, A

WAS

BEING

FOLLOWED,

THE FAT,

FRANCA I S, WALKED I NTO T H E PALA I S-ROYA L. A N D SO ON UNTIL REACHING TH E V A U LT OF THE

K I N D O F L A R G E COLOSSUS, THE

CLEA N-SHAV E N ,

P E R F E C T T Y P E OF POL I C E

GALLERY D E BEAUJOLA I S . . . A T T H I S POI N T LET M E TRY TO I MA G I N E EACH STAGE O F T H E I N D I V I D U A L'S ITI N ER A RY. I H A D ATTRACTED HIM. H E H A D FOUND I T N EC E S S A R Y TO TOUCH MY FINGERS AND AFTER

PI M P, STOPS T W O O R T H R E E S H O P W I N DOWS AWAY EACH TIME I G LA N C E AT O N E O R OTH E R O F THE

D I S P LAYS, WHERE C A N T H E N E W BLOUSE SHOP B E THAT GI LBE RTE T O L D M E A BOUT? F I N A LLY I PASS U N D E R THE V A U LT O F THE G A L L E R Y D E BEAUJO LAIS: IT M U ST BE T H E R E, TO T H E R I G H T, BUT AT TH I S S A M E MOMENT T H E I N D I V I D U A L W A L K S PAST M E . I PUSH OPEN A G L A S S DOOR, M I STA K I N G THE SHOP THIS ONE I S U N D E RGOING T R A N S FO R MATION-THE I N D I V I D U A L FOLLOWS M E IN. ALTHOUGH IT I S QUITE POSSI B L E FOR PEOPLE PASSING O R STOPPING I N F RO N T OF THE BOOK- S H O P OPPOSITE T O SEE

THAT TH E R E COULD B E NO STO P P I N G FOR HIM UNTIL THE DESCENT I N TO THE B A S E M E NT. B EG I N N I N G WITH THAT FURTIVE BUT I R R E S I STA BLE P R E S S U R E . WHAT A RAPID AND AT THE HAVE SAME TI M E D E TA I L E D INSIDE HIS

SCEN A R I O

M U ST

U N WO U N D

SKULL . . . O R H A D T H E R E B E E N NOTH I N G A L L T H E WAY BUT T H E SOLE I MA G E OF T H O S E P A R A L L E L

BARS A N D THE F E A R T H E Y M I GHT R E M A I N FIXED I N VAIN U NTI L T H E E N D OF T H E D A Y ? W H E N H E FOU N D H I MSELF A FTERWARDS O N H I S K N E E S I N FRONT OF ME. F I N A LLY BOU ND HAND AND FOOT, POW E R LESS. DID TH E TWO I M AG E S : ONE OF THE BEAUTIFUL

THROUGH THE

H A L F - F R O S T E D P A N E A N YT H I N G

U N U S U A L THAT M IG H T H A P P E N IN TH E E M PTY SHOP, NO ONE G I V E S I T A THOUGHT, THE GLASS DOOR, THE HIS BACK AGAI NST BARS MY

COLOSS U S

U N K NOWN WOM A N W I TH T H E ROSETTE. T H E OTH E R O F T H E S A M E WOMAN S U S P E N D E D A N D TIED, D I D THEY C O I NC I D E T O T H E POI NT OF S U BSTITUTION, O R W E R E T H E Y S U F F I C I E NT L Y C O N T R A D I CT O R Y T O PROVO K E SORRY TH E E M OT I O N ONCE T H A T C O N TO R T E D GOT OFF THE HIS BUS,

PASSAGE A S SOON A S I TRY TO LEAVE, H I S H A N D ON T H E K NOB. T H E N , TH ROUGH A DOOR A T T H E REAR, A N OT H E R MAN A PPEA RS, OF MEDIUM H E I GHT,

S Q U A T I N S H I RT S L EEVES. T H E T W O E X C H A N G E A CON N I V I NG LOOK. T H E SECON D M A N STA N DS A S I D E A N D L E A V E S TH E I N N E R D O O R A J A R .

FACE?

H A V I NG

THEN FOLLOW I N G CLOSE E NOUGH O N M Y H E ELS TO WATCH ME STROLL AHEAD OF HIM U N D E R THE "CONTACTED" M U ST H A V E

L E S S TH A N A N HOU R LATE R I F I N D M Y S E L F SITTING O U TS I D E TH E REGENCY C A FE , MY TEM PLES

A RCADES

OF TH E

PALAIS,

H A V I NG

TH E EPI D E R M US OF M Y F I N G E RS.

HE

POU N D I NG. M Y H A N D S A R E T R E M B L I N G N O DOUBT AND THE WAITER ASKS M E AT ONCE IF I'M ALL R I GHT. I S M I LE, R I S E A N D GO TO THE WASH ROOM, CONSIDER MYSELF I N THE M I R ROR: N O N E E D TO PUT ON N E W M A KE-UP, I LOOK F I N E, W H A T, I N FACT, DO I H A V E AGAI NST T H E M ? I F T H E Y G O T A P I TI F U L P L E A S U R E . . . FOR ME, NOW TH E P L E A S U R E B E G I N S . I RETURN TO THE TERRACE AND RECA PITULATE. WHEN I HAD

BEEN E LABORATING T H A T SEN SATION, EXTENDING IT TO M Y WHOLE BODY W H I C H H E W A S CONSCIOUS OF, ST U D Y I N G THE MOV E M E N T O F MY H I PS, MY

POSS I B L E POSITIONS IN T H E I M P E N D I NG SITU ATION WHICH HE KNEW WAS U N PRECEDE NTED FOR ME,

I NCONC E I VABLE

A N D TH E R E FO R E A L L TH E

MORE

I M PERIOUS FOR HIM . . . TO THAT MOMENT WHEN TH E ONLY T H I N G HE COULD DO WAS TO COR N E R ME I N T H E EM PTY SHOP. I T W A S W H I LE, A L MOST DAZED. H E WAS CON S I D E R I N G M Y H A N D O N T H E KNOB W H I C H HE PREVENTED ME FROM OPE N I NG, THAT THE

STOOD ON T H E PLATFORM OF T H E B U S , M Y BACK AGAI NST THE R A I L, A R M R A I S E D , H A N D LYING ON THE BALUSTRADE, THE C O LOS S U S . WHO WAS

T A L K I NG T O TH E COND UCTOR AT F I R ST. TOOK M Y FI NGERS. I HAD GONE INSIDE AND CHOSEN AN

SQUAT M A N LOO M E D U P TH ROUGH T H E R E A R DOOR. THAT FATAL DOOR AJAR ON THE S H A DOWY FLOOR

E M PTY S EAT, B U T H E . H A V I N G S A T DOWN OPPOSITE. BEGAN SC RUTI N I Z I N G ME IN AN I NSOL E N T FASHION. I WAS SEATED. BOTH H A N D S LYING ON T H E LEATH ER.

STA I RCASE!

PERCEIVING

A N E X I T T O THE

ABOVE G I V I N G ON TO THE RUE D E B E A UJOLA I S NO DOU BT. I T R I E D TO M A K E A DASH FOR IT. BUT THE

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SQUA T M A N WAS WAITI NG FOR ME ON THE STA I RS. BRI NGS HIS H A N D DOWN ON MY FINGERS A S T H E Y G R I P T H E B A L U S T R A D E . A N D I . STI LL B E L I E V I N G I T POSSI B L E T O ESCAPE. SNATCH T H E M AWAY. T U R N DOWN AGA I N AND-TWO STEPS FROM THE BACK

HIDE

THE

I R RESISTABLE

E FFECTS

ON

MY THIGH.

"PUT O U T T H E LIGHTS T H E N." I SAY IN A VOIC E NO LONG E R M Y OWN. D U R I NG WHICH TIME THE SQUAT MAN E X H I BITS A CARD OSTENTATIOUSLY AND SLIPS IT I NTO M Y BAG. BUT TH E LIGHT STAYS ON A N D . EYES CLOSED. UNDER THE WHIRR OF T H E FANS ON THE C E I L I NG. I ABANDON
. .

ROOM OF TH E SHOP-THE MOME NT COMES W H E N . STI L L DETE R M I N ED T O DEFEND MYSELF. H I TT I N G

MYSELF I N FRONT O F THOSE WHAT A R E L I E F IT I S LETTING BESIDE MYSELF WITH

T H E COLOSSUS I N T H E FAC E W I T H MY B A G . I SAW H I M CROUCH. OR S L U M P RATH E R . . . A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E INSIN UATE HI MSELF U NDER MY S K I RT IN

TWO U N K NOWN MEN MYSELF GO AT

L A ST.

P L E A S U R E U N D E R T H E I R EYES I N THAT I M POSSIBLE POSITION. T H E SOU N D O F A D U L L TH U D AT M Y FEET. I OPEN TH E MY EYES. THE COLOSSUS H A S COLLAPSED. MAN TAKES HIM HIM U N D E R TH E S HOUL AWAY. TIED FOR U P.

BETW E E N S U S P E N D E R BELT A N D FLESH. GRABBING A H A N DFUL O F THIGH. H I S ARM GOES ROU N D M Y L E G S . LI FTS M E . TH ROWS M E OVER H I S SHOU LDER. THE WHOLE M OV E M E NT SO U N E X PECTED AND

SQUAT AND THAN

DERS MOR E

DRAGS A

STAGG E R I N G I

P R E C I P I TATE I H A V E TO SAVE M YSELF B Y H A N G I N G ON TO T H E N A P E OF H I S N E C K W I T H BOTH H A N DS A N D T H E N T H E D I ZZY DESC E N T WITH ME BY T H E

M I N U TE

STAY T H E R E .

A LO N E . C E RTA I N LY T H E LEAST PLEASANT MOMENT IN W H A T I C A NNOT EVEN CA LL A NIGHTMARE. A N D I AM A L MO S T GLAD TO SEE IN THE SECOND MAN BOY.

SPI R A L STA I R C A S E T O T H E BASEM ENT. THE OTH E R MAN WHO HAD PRECEDED HIM WAS A L R E A DY

RETURN.

SLOWLY. H A I R.

H A N DS LEVEL

POCKET-FA I R

P U SH I NG O P E N THE H E AVY STEE L DOOR G I V I N G ON TO A N EON-LIGHTED ROOM W I T H GLEA M I NG W A L LS. THE FLOOR SHONE FANS WITH A L I NO L E U M A N D. AS THE V E N T I LATOR B E G A N TO

C R E W- C U T

EYES.

I NT E L L I G E N T

E X P R ESSION. H I S S H I RT I S I M PECCABLY WHITE A N D HIS H A NDS. WHICH HE NOW TAKES O U T OF HIS

ENORMOUS

OF

POC K ETS T O U NT I E M E . W E L L K E PT. A BRACELET O N T H E L E FT WRIST. H E T U R N S AWAY W H I L E I READJUST M Y S K I RT. GOES TO FIND M Y BAG AND RETU R N S TO G I V E IT TO M E. O F F E R I N G ME A G LASS OF BRANDY. B U T I SLAPPED HIM. THEN. WITH A G ESTU R E . HE R I PS OFF MY SKIRT HIS AGAIN. H A N DS PUTS TO HIS FOOT ON IT.

WHIRR ON TH E C E I LING. TH E R E IN THE M I DDLE OF A PHYSICAL C U LT U R E S E T- U P. T H E SIGHT OF THOSE PA R A L L E L BARS EQU I P P E D WITH LEATH E R

STRA PS . . . TO TH I N K THAT A

MOMENT AGO I WAS

STROLLING L E I S U R E LY BETWE E N TH E OPERA A N D T H E TH EA T R E F R A NC A I S W H I L E H E R E THOSE BARS W E R E WAITI N G FOR M E l SO TH A T NOW. T I E D BY THE W R I STS. MY CLAMMY H A N DS E X H A L E THE P E R F U M E OF T H E I R C R E A M I N TH E S T U F F Y A I R D E S P I T E THE V E N T I L A TO R S . LESS . . . THE N A I LS P E R F ECT AND USE IN MY

RETURNS W I T H OUT AFTER

HIS

P OC K E T S A N OT H E R

AND. SLAP: I

FLINCHI NG.

RECEIVES

W H I C H TH E R E

I S NO STOPPING M E T I LL

H A V E NO STRENGTH L E FT . . . WHAT ELSE COULD A WOM A N DO IN SUCH A SITUATION?

.

SCREAM.

WITHOUT

SHOW I N G

A N Y I NTEREST

O B V I O U S LY .

DISTURB TH E WHOLE B U I LDING-IN

BUST O R R E MOVING T H E C O A T OF MY G R E Y SU IT. M Y S K I RT I S U N HOOKED A N D T H E REST TAK E N O F F . I CAN STI L L K I C K: MY A N KLES ARE SPREAD AND

S U C H A B U S Y QUA RTER-BUT WOM E N L I K E M E WHO WERE ON THE "CHA RITY FRONT." WOMEN LIKE M E

W H O A R E NOW AT T H E CONTROLS OF T H E NATION. WOM E N LONG LIKE WE ME WHO H A V E "BEEN B E A UTIFUL. SO AROUND"-SO LONG AS WE

ATTACH E D TO T H E EXTRE M I TI E S OF T H E V E RTICAL B A R S A N D ALL THAT I N S I L E NC E. A SILENCE M A D E OF M Y O W N M U T I S M I N ACCORDANCE WITH T H E TWO M E N . A S IF O U R B R E A TH I NG R E PLAC ED ANY WORDS WE COULD EXCHANGE H E R E. T H E COLOSS U S

AS

A RE

R E M A I N SO-WE C A N O N LY R E M A I N S I L E NT. C A L L FOR AN WHICH I NVESTIGATION? BECA USE O F T H I S C A R D R E P R OD U C E S

. .

MY

FINGER-PRI NTS?

A PPROACH E S H I S MOUTH TO O N E OF M Y TIED H A N DS A N D. AS I C LOS E MY F I ST. HE U N FO L D S AND

R E T U R N T O T H E "SO U RCE"? H A R DLY WORK ENOUGH FOR THE RUE DE SAUSSAIES TO KEEP THAT

ST R A IGHTE N S M Y F I N G E R S. PASSES TH E M BETW E E N HIS LIPS A N D D ELICATELY SAVOURS EACH N A I L. H A V I N G TA K E N L E A N I NG B R E A TH . REELING HE AND PUTS

I NC A PA B L E C. OC C U P I E D . . . W H A T NONSENSE! BUT TO RETURN O N E OF T H E S E DAYS TO THAT PLACE. RUN MY H A N DS OVER THOSE PARALLEL BARS

THEN.

SWEATI NG.

A G A I NST THE BA R.

WH E R E T H E Y H A D B E E N S O F I R M LY T I E D . . . THATS A NOTHE R MATTER. THAT PARTI C U L A R OCCASION OF F E E L I N G R E A LLY M Y S E L F FROM THE M O M E N T W H E N I E M BA R K E D ON T H E A DV E N T U R E I N T H E B U S UNTI L T H A T OTH E R MOMENT I N THE BASEMENT WHEN I

OUT HIS TONG U E W H I C H MOVES BACKWA RDS A N D FOR W A R D S IN A M I S E R A B L E A TTE M PT A N D ONLY

SLOWLY SUCC E E D S I N TOUCH I NG MY OPEN PALM. AT LAST THIS TONGU E SETTLES TH E R E AND B EG I N S ITS TITI LLATIONS MORE A N D MORE RAPIDLY. I TURN MY H E A D AWAY . . . SOON I CAN CONTROL MYSELF NO LON G E R . IN V A I N I A TT E M PT TO LIFE MY K N E E TO

FOU N D M Y S E LF S U S P E N D E D A N D AROUSED. THAT OCCASION IS STI L L N E IT H E R MORE NOR LESS THAN TH E BOW OF M Y R E F L ECTION DRAWN OVER THIS

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LAZY AFTERNOON. WHAT A DELICIOUS CROISSANTI HOW SOOT H I N G THE PLAY OF THE F O U N TA I N S

P I E R RE KLOSSOWS K I TRANSLATION BY CATHERI N E D U N C A N

UNDER TH E P LA N E TREESI HOW EXQ U I S ITE THE CITY AS IT GLIDES BYI TAKEN F R O M THE REVOCATION OF T H E EDICT OF NAN TES.

S EQUENCE OF TH E PARALLEL BARS

(SHOT LIST BY P I E R R E KLOSSOWSKI MADE ROUND

1 966 FOR AN I M AG I N A R Y FILM)

1.

LONG SHOT. CROSSROADS R U E SCR I B E-OPERA.

2.

TH E CAR IN

PAN SHOT FROM ROBERTE.

3.

JUSTI N. THE C H A U FF E U R . GETS OUT. LIFTS THE BON N ET.

4.

ROBERTE GETS OUT SLOWLY IN H E R TURN.

5.

FRONT OF PALA I S BOU R BON (HOUSE OF PARLI AMENTI.

6.

WATCH ON ROBE RTE'S W R I ST.

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T H E OCTO P U S I N J A P A N
THE OCTO P U S AT IS U S U A LLY CONS I D E R E D T O B E PROTECTOR O N T H E OTH E R H A N D. I T S S E N S U A LITY. I S N O LESS I N DI C A T I V E AS A C H A RACTE R I ST I C TRAIT OF ITS

B E N E F I C I A L.

T H E O R D E R O F TH E

YA K U- S H I NYO- R A i . B U D D H A THE H E A L E R OF SOULS AND THE GOD OF WISDOM. THREW A SMALL

N A T U R E . C L E A R L Y TH I S IS V E R I F I E D IN T H E L E G E N D O F TH E B E A U TI F U L A N D L I C E N T I O U S K I Y O- H I M E. W H O SOU G H T T H E I M M O D EST A D V A N C E S OF T H E M O N K A N -C H I . THE P R IEST SIX HID ON THE BELL OF THE

S C U LPTED STA T U E I N T H E I M A G E O F TH I S D I V I N ITY (WITH WHICH HE H A D N E V E R PA RTED) I NTO TH E SEA DURING A T E M PEST. IT WAS SAVED. LATER. AN

MONASTERY.

F E E T H I G H A N D SO H EA V Y T H A T

OCTO P U S C A R R I E D I T TO J A P A N A N D SET I T DOWN ON THE COAST O F H I R A - DO. J I - K A K U DAi-SHI T H E N B U I LT A T E M P L E AT M EG U RO. W H E R E H E E R ECTED A L A RG E STATU E OF Y A K U - S H I IN T H E WOODS. W H I C H S E R V E D A S A C A S E FOR TH E R ELIC.

O N E H U N D R E D M E N C O U L D N O T L I FT IT. IT F E L L A N D THUS I M PR I S O N E D THE S A I NTLY MAN. K I YO- H I M E

TR I ED T O B R E A K T H E M ET A L W I T H H I S M A G I C W A N D AND MAKE I T M E LT B Y E X H A L I N G ON I T W I T H HIS

F L A M I NG B R E A T H . I N V A I N . I T WAS C H A NGED I N TO A SORC E R E R W I T H A H U M A N H E A D A N D A D R A GON'S

IN

THE

SAME

WAY. OF HIS

ONE

OF IS THE

THE

PRINCIPLE WITH AN

AND

S E R P E N T' S

BODY.

LIKE

A NOTH E R

GIANT

M ESSENGERS OCTO P U S ON

RYU-J I N H E A D.

FIGU R E D ASCETIC

OCTOPUS LOV I N G L Y E M B R A C I N G T H E B E L L W I T H ITS SIN UOUS TENTACLES.

K E N-SU

SOM ETI M E S C A R R I E S I T O N H I S S H O U L D E R S . T O T H E P L A C E O F T H E T R A D I TI O N A L S H RI M P . W H I C H B R I N G S T O M I N D H I S S O L E N O U R I S H M E NT. T H E A S H I - N AGA ARE WITH LEGENDARY ITS M E N WHO C A RRY T H E TE- NAGA. ARMS. ON TH E I R TH I S CONSTANT L I A I SO N WITH SA LAC IOUSNESS M A N Y WORKS. NOT A B L Y A N E N G R A V I N G OF KOU N I YOS H I . PROVI D E A N E L E G A N T I L L U STRATION OF A SIGNI FICANT CHANGE.

N I N E - M ET E R - LO N G

S H O U L D E R S . T H E Y TH E M S E L V E S H A V E LEGS S E V E N METERS LONG. AROUN D ALWAYS WHICH THE OCTO P U S ' ONE THUS

E X P L A I N S W I T H O U T DOU BT T H E EQU I V A L E NT ROLE W H I C H T H E OCTO P U S S E E M S TO PLAY I N B U D DH I S M . TH E S E N S U A L I T Y OF T H E C R E A T U R E A P P E A R S I N THE MOST EXPLICIT MANNER WHICH IN A FAMOUS

TENTACLES

ARE

W R APPED.

TH I N KS OF TH E OCTO P U S A S F R I ENDLY. H E L PF U L. A LITTLE LIKE THE PRINCE OF THE G R E E KS. AND

E N J OY I NG T H E COM P A N Y O F MONASTICS.

E N G R A V I NG

O F HOKOUSAi.

PLAYS O N T H E

42

M O L L U S K'S

CA PACITI E S

FO R

E M B RA C I N G

AND

FROM OBSERVATION: A L MOST E XC L U S I V E LY, T H E Y A R E D E D U C E D F R O M T H E N U M B E R O F TENTAC L E S A N D T H E A R R A Y O F S U C KERS W H I C H C H A RACT E R IZE TH E S P E C IE S (MOLLUSK), IN FACT. THE ARE

SUCTION. T H E OC TOPUS, B E TW E E N T H E T H I G H S O F A RECLI N I NG WOMA N , IS G L U E D G R E E D I LY TO T H E SEX ORGAN OF ITS CONSENTING WHILE HE AND NO DOUBT AND

GRATI F I E D

PREY,

C A R ES S E S

A M ORO U S

R E LA T I O N S O F T H E OCTO P U S

ENTW I N E S , EXPLO R E S A N D S U C K S W I TH H I S EIGHT ARMS AND SUCKERS. THE A R M S CLOSE U PON THE BODY O F T H E B E LO V E D IN A L A SC I V IO U S WEB,

E XC E E D I N G L Y C H A STE. TO M A N . T H E Y C A N H A R D L Y B E PERC E I V E D A S ANYTH I NG B UT D I S M A L.

W I THOUT E V E N R E A CH I NG T H E N E C K A N D SHOUL DERS. WHERE IT FINDS RELIEF AND LETS I TS

A R I STOTLE O F F E R S A S U M M A R Y DESC R I PTION O F THE M A T I N G O F OCTO P I : TIGHTLY I N T E RTWI N E D ,

TENTACLES WA N D E R . TH E R E IS A LSO A S M A LLER OCTOPUS W H I C H MORE EXACT. ITS APPLIES HORNY I TS

BEAK

MOUTH, OR TO BE O R T R U N K WITH
TH E S U R FE I T OF

THEY PRESS MOUTH AGA I NST MOUTH, A R M AGA I N ST ARM. IN THIS FASHION. ONE LEADI NG, ONE

FOLLOW ING, T H E Y S W I M TOGETH ER. T H I S D E P I C T I O N IS PURELY IMAGI NARY. I MYSELF FOU N D NO

A V I D I TY TO THE F R E E LI PS OFFER I NG T H E M S E LVES. THE ARTIST HAS PUT TO USE

OBJECT I V E

D E S C R I PT I O N OF OCTO P U S M A T I N G

L U B R I C ITY W H I C H COM E S FROM T H E C O N S I STENCY AND CONFIGURATION OF THE C REATURE. WHAT

BEFORE T H E O N E B Y H E N R Y LEE. F U RT H E R M O R E . T H E TERM " D E SC R I PTION," IS I N C O N S I STENT W I T H CONVOLUTED AND AWKWAR D

HORROR I S S U RELY E L I C I T E D B Y T H E S PECTACLE! YET TH E A RTI ST'S I N S I ST E N C E IS V I S I B L Y TO G I V E THE I M PRESSION OF ECSTASY PROC U R E D BY A

T H E O B SC U R E L Y

STATE M E NTS THAT THE A UTHOR. R ESTR A I N E D B Y VICTOR I A N DECO R U M , USES TO CONVEY THE I D E A OF TH E S E S E X U A L Y E T EXTRAOR D I N A R I L Y ASCETIC RELATIONS. ACCO R D I NG TO THE A UTHOR, IT S E E M S THAT T H E R I G H T TH I R D A R M O F T H E M A L E OCTO P U S

PA RT N E R W H O S E CONTACT F E L T I N SO M A N Y PLACES.

IS S I M U LT A N E O U S L Y

I N HIS WORK ON HOKOUSAi. EDMON D D E GONCOURT HAS S U C C E SS F U L LY OF THE C A PT U R E D WOMAN TO IN THE A E C STATIC SWOON A OF

SWELLS AT T H E M O M E N T O F EXCITATION: O U T O F THE A R M , A K I N O OF ELONGATED WORM E M E R G E S WITH A FILAMENT THE AT THE END: TH I S IS THE THE

EXPRESSION PLEASU R E ,

SICUT

CADAVER.

SUCH

DEGREE

H ECTOCOTY LE.

MALE

PROFFERS

I T TO

THAT O N E DOES NOT KNOW W H ET H E R S H E IF LIVING O R DROW N E D .

FEMALE. W H O A C C E PTS I T A N D C A R R I E S IT A W A Y WITH H E R . S H E PA LLIAL PLACES A IT H E R S E L F W I TH I N H E R SITUATED BETW E E N

CAVITY,

POCKET

BY

THIS

AMBIGUOUS

PROCESS

THE

OCTOP U S

H E R BODY A N D T H E FOLDS OF H E R M A NTLE. AT T H E BACK OF W H I C H THE G E N I TA L ORIFICES O P E N U P. THERE. THE HECTOCOTYLE COM ES BACK TO L I F E TO FERTI LIZE THE EGGS. O N E CAN SEE. LEE STA T E S .

S H A R E S T H E I D E N T I TY WITH W H I C H I T I S I NVESTED BY THE E AST. I T IS CLEAR THAT IN THE M ATTER OF LASC I VIOUSNESS, T H E OCTOPU S ETCH E D BY THE

ASIATIC B E LONGS TO T H E S P EC I E S D E SC RI B E D BY T H E M E D I T E R RA N E A N OPPI E N , W H O STATES THAT T H E MALE C LI N G S TO HIS D E L I G H T U NT I L HE D I E S OF PLEASU R E AND E X H A USTION.

S U C H EXCRESC E N C E S S E V E R E D I N T H I S STATE A N D PRESERVED I N J A RS I N T H E M U S E U M O F N A TU R A L H I STORY I N P A R I S . T H E E N IGMATIC A N D OBSC U R E TEXT S E E M S T O H A V E K NOWN N O CON F I R M ATION. I N F A C T . A C C O R D I N G TO LATE R OBSE RVATI O N S ,

OPPI E N , IN ANTIQU I TY, E M P H A S I Z E D THE OCTOPUS' U N C T UO U S I M M O D E STY: IN JAPAN, HOKOUSAI

THI NGS H A PP E N OTH E RWISE.

DEPICTED I T PREVA I L I NG O N A S L E E P I NG WOM A N . I N THE 1 6TH CENTURY, A LD R OV A N I R E C A L L E D THAT.

WHILE A L L BOD I E S TO

I N D ICATIONS E N TW I N E .

S E E M TO D E ST I N T H E S E IN FACT. THERE IS NO

ACCO R D I NG TO THE A N C I ENTS, ITS FLESH WAS AN APHRODISIAC, CO N S I D E R E D DWELLERS. FROM IN AND THE THE THAT THE CREATURE MOST 1 9TH BY L A SC I V I O U S C EN T U R Y, H UGO ITS IT OF WAS WAS SEA FA R "TH I S

E M BRACE A N D V I RTUALLY NO CONTACT BETW E E N THEM. TH E Y AVOID, I F N O T T O S A Y TH EY FLEE. T H E C LOS E N E S S AND I N T I M A TE. M U LT I P L E . M U TU A L

CONTACT THAT TH E I R S U C K E R S WOU L D PERM IT. T H E D I STANCE WHICH S E P A RATES T H E PARTNERS IS

FORGOTTEN

V ICTOR HAS

THAT

LOATH SOM E R E LA T I O N S , "

C R EA T U R E THE

P A S S I O N ATE A PHOS

K E PT A S W I D E A S POS S I B LE. THESE C R E A T U R E S . W H O POSSESS T H E M O S T H I G H LY PER FECTED E Y E S I N THE A N I M A L K I NGDOM. 0 0 N O T EVEN L OO K A T

FEMALE

RADI ATES

PHO RESCENT G LOW A T T H E M O M E N T O F I N I TIATION: "SHE A W AITS U NION. SHE MAKES H E RS E L F

EACH OTH E R . T H E F E M A L E RESTS ON A ROCK OR O N THE SAND. THE MALE IS DRAWN UP ON HIS

BEAUTI FU L,

S H E LIGHTS AND

U P, S H E GLOWS . . ." THE L A SC I V I O U S N ESS O F THE

FLI RTATIOUSN ESS

TENTACLES. A S L E E H A D WELL OBSERVED. ONE O F TH ESE TENTACLES, T H E TH I R D O N TH E RIGHT S I D E .

OCTOPUS ARE IN N O SENSE C O N C L U S I O N S DRAWN

43

IS

A LT E R E D :

SPOON-S H A P E D

DEPR ESSION

EYES. A D E E P B ROWN STRI P E WAS A LSO VISIBLE ON HIS M A NTLE. BEHIND T H E CAVITY. A N D ANOTH E R IN THE M I DDLE OF TH E M A NT L E . THE THE R E ST WAS

REPLACES O N E SECTION OF T H E SUCKERS. T H E R E PRODUCTI VE ORGA N W ITH WHICH TH E TENTAC LE IS EQUI PPED I NT R O D U C E S OF THE ITSELF W I TH I N T H E B U T WITHOUT

SOM EWHAT

DINGY

W H ITE.

DARK

ST R I P E S

PALLI A L

CAVITY

F E M A LE.

GLOWED. S E T OFF M O R E OR LESS. SOMETI M E S VERY C L E A RLY. FROM T H E BACKG R O U N D. AT T H E TOP OF HIS HEAD. T H E SKIN FOR M E D STRANGE LOO K I N G

BECOM I NG DETACHED.

SUCH I S WHAT I S SHOWN. AT LEA ST. I N THE DRAWING WHICH ACCO M P A N I E S THE STUDY ON THE MATING AND F E R T I L I ZATION BY E. G. O F TH E COMMON R A C O V I TZA IN OCTO P U S

PROM I NA N T N O D E S . N O D E S A LSO A P P E A R E D ON THE SKIN O F T H E ARMS A N D M ANTLE, NOTAB L Y ON THE R IGHT SIDE.

OBT A I N E D

1 894. THE
''THE M A L E K E PT T H E F E M A L E W I TH I N T H E V I S U A L F I E L D O F H I S RIGHT EYE. A FTER FIVE M I N UTES, H E EXTE N D E D H I S TH I R D R IGHT A R M A N D I NTRODU C E D I T I NTO T H E F E M A LE'S M A NTLE-AT A D I STA NCE O F

A LTE R E D A R M D E POSITS C E RTAIN SPERM-FI LLED CAPSULES IN THE A PPROPRIATE POC K ET. WHEN

THE F E M A LE RELEASES H E R EGGS. THE C A PSULES OPEN A N D FERTILIZATION I S COM PLETED.

40- 60 C M .
I N 1 962. J . Z. YOU NG P U B L I S H E D SKETCHES OF THE STAGES OF T H E SEXUAL M A TI N G DANCE AND RESTED O N R E TA I N E D

THE A H IS

THIRD

ARM.

WHITISH THEM.

COLOR. MALE

ROCK

BETW E E N

THE

V E RT I C L E

S T RI PE S .

WHICH THE

COPULATION O F T H E OCTOPUS HORRIDUS. NOTH ING COU L D APPEA R MORE S I N I ST E R . TH E TWO LOVERS LOOK L I K E SENTI N E LS HORN-L I K E TO P S OF AT ATTENTION. A N D. WITH GROWING OUT OF THE SEEM EVEN MORE AS

F E M A L E A LSO SHOWED A T C E R T A I N M O M E NTS. A T OTH E R M O M ENTS. B ROWN SPOTS WITH TRANSVER S A L STR I PE S APPEARED ON HER A R M S .

PROTR U S I O N S TH E I R ONE

H EA DS. M IGHT

"TH E Y R E M A I N E D I N T H I S POSITION F O R A PPROXI MATELY T E N C H ANGED. M I NUTES. THE M A LE'S COLO R ATION THE S T R I P E S

LUDIC ROUS.

D E SCR I B E T H E M

C A R N I VALESQUE DEVI LS. THEY ARE DESPONDANT. MEASU RED. RESERVED AND DI L I G E NT. THE

A T N U M E RO U S T I M E S .

D I S A P P E A R E D COMPLETELY FROM H I S LEFT S I D E . . . I N SUCH A W A Y THAT A LL THAT R E M A I N E D TH E R E WERE SOM E TRANSVERSAL S POTS, WH I L E THE

ESSENTI A L L I N E S O F J . Z . YOUNG'S OBSERVATION MERIT R ECOUNTING. TH E WORK WAS C A R R I E D OUT WITH PROFESSOR R. S U RGEON D U R I NG A DIVE N E A R SI NGAPORE. TH E OCTOPUS COU PLE WAS WATCHED FOR A H A LF HOUR AT A D E PTH O F SEV E R A L FEET IN A CORAL REEF. THE S K ETC H E S W E R E DRAWN

V E RTIC LE STRI PES ON T H E R I G H T S I D E R E M A I N E D STRONGLY M A R K ED.

"NO MOVEMENT W A S V I S I BL E ON T H E THIRD A R M . T H E O B S E R V A T I O N W A S U N I NT E R R U PTED, B E I N G M A D E THROUGH A D I V I NG M A S K . A N D I W A S A B L E TO MOVE C O M P LETELY A RO U N D THE COUPLE WITHOUT D I ST U R B I NG TH E M .

I M M EDI ATELY UPON C L I M B I N G O U T O F T H E WATER. I LEAVE THE A UTHOR O F T H E R E PORT TO SPEAK FOR H I MSELF:

"TH E MALE WAS NOTI C E D B Y PROFESSOR S U RGEON; H E WAS COM I N G OUT O F A C R A NNY IN THE CORAL. HIS HEAD RISING UP V E RTICALLY FI RST. NO NODU LE A PPEARED A BO V E THE E Y ES. I BEGAN MY "TH E N . T H E F E M A L E D R E W A W A Y , S LOWLY ENOUGH, PULLING THE MALE A LONG BY HIS THIRD ARM.

AFTER T H E Y H A D GO N E A BOUT T H R E E METERS, T H E ARM P U L L E D BACK . T H E F E M A L E CONTI N U E D T O

OBSERVATION.

W H E N W E EXTENDED O U R HANDS.

THE A N I M A L DOVE BACK DOWN I NTO ITS HOLE, THEN. A FT E R S E V E R A L M I N UT E S R E A P P E A R E D . TH E

MOVE A W A Y . A N D T H E M A L E FOLLOWED H E R STI L L K E EPING H E R W I T H I N THE F I E L D O F V I SION O F H I S R I G H T E Y E . H E K E PT H I S H E A D ER ECT, THOUGH NOT AS M A R K E D L Y A S BEFORE.

F E M A L E A P P E A R E D T H E N . A LSO FROM A C R A N N Y. ABOUT 60 C M . FROM O U TW A R D THE A M A LE. BUT EXTENDING FEW TO A R MS. A FISH THE

LAT E R A L L Y

A P PROAC H E D

(SEEMI NGLY

ATTACK

"TH E

FEMALE

SLIPPED

UNDER

A ROCK. A FTE R A

FEMALE). A N D H E R A R M S T U R N ED TOWA RD IT.

F E W I N STA NTS. S H E R E A P PE A R E D ON TH E OTH E R S I D E . T H E M A L E STI L L FOLLOW I NG . I N TH I S FASHION.

"THE M A LE ROSE OUT O F ITS HOLE. TO A H E IGHT OF

T H E Y COV E R E D

A P PROX I M A T E L Y

2 0 M ET E R S .

1 5- 2 0

CM.

P E R H A PS , A

STR I K I NGLY

MARKED

BY

W H E R E U PO N T H E F E M A LE C A M E TO A STA N DSTI L L I N A C REVASSE. T H E M A L E A LSO STOPPED, A BOUT

V E RTICLE

STR I PES.

B R IGHTLY COLORED BAND A LO N G THE E DG E OF TH E

APPEARED

R U N N I NG

50 C M .

FROM

HER. OF

A FT E R THE

N EW

AND

BRIEF

BACK SIDE O F EACH A R M . UP TO THE HEAD. THE COLO R I NG TU R N E D A DARK BROWN A RO U N D THE

A PPEARANCE

B R I L L I A NT

V E RT I C A L

STR I PE S, H I S TH I R D A R M WAS A G A I N EXTE N D E D A N D

44

I NTROD UCED.

WITH

NO DELAY OR H E S ITATION ON

OF

JOYCE

M A N SO U R .

IN

HIS

LETT E R S

TO

LOU.

THE PART OF EITHER OF THE TWO. IT R E MA I N ED I N PLACE A P PROXI M ATELY T E N M I N UTES. WHER E U PON THE F E M A L E BROKE SHA R P LY AWAY A N D THE MALE WITHDREW I N TO H I S HOLE." THE TEXT IS E LOQUE NT. IN THESE VOLU PTUOU S N ESS HAS

APOLLI N A I R E CONFIDES TO HIS M I ST R E SS:

"I SAVOUR YO U R TON G U E LIKE THE STU M P OF AN

OCTOPUS' A R M WHICH ATTACHES ITSELF TO YOU WITH ALL THE FORCE OF ITS SUCKE RS."

LITTLE

PLACE

R E S P ECTFU LLY DI STA NT I M AGI NATION HAS WHEN GREAT S A I NT-JOHN TEXTS PERSE BY C A LLS TO MIND TH E

AMOROUS

RELATIONS.

M A N'S

M I SCONSTRUED THE NATU R E OF THE COU PL I NG OF THESE ORG A N I S M S SO WELL EQUIPPED FOR AN

RECITED

TRAGE D I A N S

(TR AGIC A D M I S

HEROI N E S1).

WHE R E I N

FLOW "THE GREAT

I NS E P A R A B L E U N ION. I N THE CASE O F THE PA PER NAUTILUS. OCTO P U S WHICH IN A COULD BE D E FI N E D AS AN

SIONS OF THE DR,E A M A N D THE SOUL'S TIONS." HE DEFINES TH E M IN TH E

USURPA

FOLLOW I N G

SHELL.

THE

FERTILIZING AND

ARM

FASHION:

SEPARATES

FROM

ITS OWNER

WANDERS "THERE WHISTLES THE OCTOPUS OF PLEASURE."

A I M LESSLY FOR HO URS A T A TI M E UNTI L F I N DI NG A F E M A L E TO WHICH SUCKERS. IT ATTACHES ITSELF WITH ITS S C HO L A R S. AMONG TH E M

C E RT A I N

C U V I E R . F I RST I D I E NTIFI E D I T A S A P A R A S ITIC WOR M . THESE A R E PROBA B LY T H E TRAVELLING P E N I S E S WHICH TH E S E TIONS. LEE NOTICED IN THE MUSEUM IN PARIS. R E LA

IT WOU LD B E

EASY TO M U LTI P LY THE EXA M PLES,

THERE IS A S I G N I FIC A N T CONTRAST BETW E E N AN U N SETT L I N G R E A L I TY AND AND THE I MAGES OF

V I R T U A L LY OR T HO S E

A P HY S I C A L E FF E C T E D

A MO R O U S

VOLUPTUOU S N ESS

RAPTURE

WHERE

LIBIDI

BY " S A T E L L I T E "

NOUS DREAM I NG I S I N VOLUNTA R I LY TRIGGERED BY BODIES OF E XC E PTI O N A L S U P PLEN ESS. SO M A N Y LITHE A R M S A N D A V I D MOUTHS.

[LARGU E l ORGA N S A R E AT THE OPPOSITE EXT R E M E F R O M T H E H U M A N CONC E PTION OF S E N S U A LITY. OF WHICH. HOWEV E R . THE OCTOPUS HAS OFFERED A P R I V I LEGED S Y M BOL RIGHT I N TO MODERN LITERA TURE. IT I S FOU N D MORE THA N ONCE IN THE POE M S

ROBER CAI LLOIS

TRANSLATED BY L I N DA McNEIL AND M A RGA RET McGAW

ON THE BA LCONY
BOTH G I R LS WERE WATC H I N G THE SWALLOWS FLY: ONE PALE. HA I R BLACK: THE OTHER BLOND THE STRANGE G I RL-COU P L E THAT LOOKS I N PITY ON THE OTHER COU PLES: DREAMING ON THE B A LCONY STOOD THE GIRLS.

AND P I N K: THE I R LIGHT ROBES OF OLD GOLD WERE FLUTTE R I N G LIKE C LOUDS AND VAGUE.

BEHI N D THEM. AND BOTH THE G I R LS. A S SLOW A S LANGOROUS A S A S PHODEL. AND A S THE MOON ROSE ROU N D AND SOFT. DRANK D E E P LY AND FULL OF THE TREMBLING ROOM.

IN

THE

LISTLESS

DARK

OF TH E I R

AS DRAM ATIC AS THE THRONE OF A QUEEN. RUMPLED WITH S M ELLS. WAS THE B E D FLOWER

OPE N I NG IN THE SHADOWS.

EVENING A N D THE WISTF U L J O Y OF CONSTAN T H E A RTS. P A U L VERLA I N E STAN DING THE R E . DA M P LY E M B R A C E D. W A R M A N D LOOSELY C U R V E D. TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE,

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M E M OI RS OF A N OCC U PATION
W H E N I WAS VERY YOU NG I WAS FASC I N ATED WITH MOLLUSKS. THESE CREA TURES A R E MOSTLY OF THE SEA. WITH THE EXC E PTION OF L A N D SNA I LS A N D LIKE THE OTH E R ME A N I M A LS. TH E I R AN D E L I B E RATION SENSI

ATTR A C T E D

GR EATLY.

EX Q U I SITE

TIVITY T O TH E EFFECTS O F TO UCH A N D LIGHT M A D E M E TH I N K TH E M TOO D E L I CATE A N D V U LN E R A B L E T O T H E C R U E LTI ES OF T H E OUTS I D E WORLD.

SLUGS OR T H E F R E S H - W ATER S PECI ES. M Y LOC A L E . T H E PA C I F IC NORTHW EST. I S A DVANTAGEOUS FOR GROWTH O F THE L A N D S N A I L OR SLUG. S I N C E THEY TH R I V E IN ZON E S O F H E AVY R A I N FA L L.

TH E I R PROF U S I O N I S G R EAT I N THE MOIST FORE STS OF O R EGON. D ESPITE A L L THE K I DS W H O ENJOYED

ON MY W A L K S H O M E FROM G R A D E-SCHOOL I WO ULD USUALLY GARDEN SEE H U N D R E DS OF S L UGS SLUGS. A LONG BANANA

S N I PPI NG BOD I E S IN

THE I R HALF

EYES OR

OUT

OR

C U TTI NG

TH E I R

POU R I N G T H E

PROV E R B I A L

PATH W A Y S .

LEOPA R D

S A LT ON TH E I R

NEVER

DRY BACKS. I REGA R D E D

SLUGS OR B ROWN-ORANGE O N E S ABOU N D E D . ONE GARDEN H A D STEPS OF ROUGH LY-C H I S L E D ROCK: THROUGH BRA KEN TH E I R CREVICES GREW THE GRASS.

T H E M A S V E R Y E XOTIC A N D O R I G I N A LLY FROM T H E SEA. NOW TH A T THEY W E R E I N V A D I NG T H E S E G L E N S RICH I N PLANT L I F E . PORTLA ND. O F T E N OVERCA ST. A L LO W E D TH E M M U C H R EST FROM THE I M MO D E R ATE BLAZI NG A LW A Y S OF THE SUN. SOM ETH I N G RAINS THEY AND WILL SUN

A N D MOSS T H E S E SLOW-MOV I NG THINGS

WOU LD EAT. YOU HAD TO A VO I D THEM FREQUE NTLY AND STEP WITH A G I L I TY OVER TH E I R SLI PPERY

H AT E .

WHEN

ENDED

BOD I E S. T H E R E W E R E A LWAYS THOSE T I M E S W H E N Y O U WOULD S L I P A N D H A V E THE S M E E R E D R E M A I N S OF A SLUG DO W N YOU R TH I G H . D U R I NG THESE

SHONE. O R A N G E SLUGS D R I E D TO BLACK A N D TH E I R S L i M E Y TRA I LS T U R N E D I R I DESC ENT. TH ESE TRA I LS SHOW E D YOU THEIR PA I N F U L ROAD TO DooM -A

H O U R S A F T E R SC HOOL I W O U L D STOP A N D STA RE I N A D M I RATION O F T H E I R A N T E N N A E A N D PU LSATI NG BO D I E S. THE SLICK. M O I ST COATS U S U A LLY O F

DRY. S U N - BA K E D SI DEWALK.

SLUGS

A PP E A R E D

MORE

P L E N TI F U L SLUGS

AND

LESS CON

G R E E N . TH E I R BOD I E S W E R E C U RIOUSLY S H A P E D . NEITHER O U S LY LEGG E D. S A V E F O R O N E . A N D PON DER GROUND. THEY NEVER

A TT R A C T I V E T H A N

S N A I LS.

WERE

S I D E R E D BY E V E RYONE T O BE T OO N U M E RO U S . A N D TH E I R R E L A T I V E U G L I N ES S DI DN'T R E M E D Y TH E LOW OPINION. WHEREAS S N A I LS C A PT U R E D O N E' S

A L I G N E D TO TH E

A P P E A R E D EQU I P P E D T O J U M P. FLY. H O P A N D TWI R L

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I N TEREST M O R E : T H E Y H A D S H E L LS, O F VARYING S I Z E AND COLOR. AND THEIR FLESH WAS NOT SO STARTLI NGLY COUNTERPA RTS. HUED AS THE I R S H E L L- L E S S

E V E N I N G I T U R N E D ON T H E S P R I N K L E R I N O R D E R TO SEE AS MANY OF THESE N OCTU R N A LLY ACTIVE

C R E A T U R E S A S POSSI BLE. A R M E D W I T H A F L A S H LIG HT. I D I SCOV E R E D A P A I R C E M E N T E D TOG ETH E R I N A N E X C E S S OF S L I M E . I W A S I N IT I A L L Y H O R R I F I ED.

ONE

RA I N Y

DAY.

IN

M Y M A N Y WALKS THROUGH A I DI SCOV E R E D A MOST

BUT T H E N REASONED T H E Y WERE F U C K I NG, I D I D N 'T STAY LONG B E C A U S E IT WAS D I STA ST E F U L TO LOOK A T FOR A N Y LE NGTH O F T I M E . T H E S HOCK L I N G E R E D ON WHEN I FINALLY LEFT TH E TV WITH GARDEN MY TO GO

WOODED

N E I G H BORHOOD. THE

B E A U T I F U L S N A I L,

SHELL

HAD ORANGE A N D

YELLOW STR I PS A G A I N S T B R O W N A N D P U R P L E . ITS BODY WA S LONG AND THICK. NOT L I K E THE T I N Y

I N DOORS

TO

WATCH

PA R ENTS,

WHITE ONES T H A T POSS E S S E D M E D I OC R E S H E LLS. I T WAS SO B E A UT I F U L THAT I LET IT CRAWL OVER MY FINGERS AND H A N D S AS I W A L K E D H O M E . I CALLED THE S N A I L "POKY" A FT E R T H E HORSE I N THE G U M BY TV C A RTOON AND PA RTLY A FT E R ITS S LOW.

IGNO R A N T OF W HAT I H A D J U ST S E E N .

AFTER DE NT. I

POKY'S

DISAPPEARANCE NEVER BE

WAS

D E S PO N

THOUGHT I'D

A B L E TO F I N D A

S N A I L AS B E A U T I F U L A S THAT. I H A D S P E N T H O U R S LOO K I N G F O R A COMPA R A B L E S N A I L. BUT T O N O

I M PLO R I N G N A T U R E . I W A S H E A RTI LY W E LCOM ED B Y MY YOU NG E R B ROTH E R W I TH T H E C R E ATU R E . W E

AV A I L. TH E R E W E R E O N LY S L U G S O R T H E S M A L L E R S N A I L S W I T H F U R R Y S H E LLS. WHOLE DAYS WERE

COI N E D A S O N G F O R T H E LOV E L Y PET W H I C H R A N A S FOLLOW S : POKY T H E S N A I L POKY T H E S N A I L YO U M A Y S E E H I M L A U G H I N ' YOU M A Y S E E H I M C R Y I N ' BUT Y O U K NOW H E'S GOT A GRE-E-E-E-E-EN MOUTH ! RIGHT AWAY WE B U I LT A TE R R A R I U M FOR H I M -A

TA K E N U P W I T H LOO K I NG F O R A S N A I L B E A R I N G A COLO R F U L S H E LL . ON THESE DAYS I'D HUM THE

"POKY T H E S N A I L" SONG. D E S P A R A T E L Y S E A R C H I N G FO R T H E POKY. P E R F ECT S N A I L. A SNAIL AS GOOD AS

WITH POKY GONE.

E V E N T U A L L Y R E SORTED TO A IN A N

LARGE GLASS J A R W H E R E I N WE PLACE D SOM E SOIL. MOSS. FERN AND G R A SS , T H E TOP WAS S E A L E D

PET SLUG. CALLED " F L A S H , " ITS H O M E WAS

O R I G I N A LLY BOTA N I C A L T E R R A R I U M . O N T H E TOP OF TH E CLEAR PLASTIC TW I S T BOX AN WAS A SMALL

WITH A METAL LID W I T H H O L E S F O R A I R T O C O M E THROUGH. S O M E T I M E S POKY WOULD E S C A P E A N D B E S E E N LAT E R C R A W L I N G U P T H E S I D E S OF O U R B E DROOM W A L L . O N E T I M E W H E N I LET P O K Y C R A W L OVER MY FINGERS THOUGHT (MY IT S I STERS AND OLDER

VENTI LATION C LOCK W I S E BODY

CAP;

UPPER

P O RT I O N LONG

AND

V E N TS

A P P E A R.

FLASH'S

WOULD

I NCH

U P TO T H E S E

H O L E S A T THE

VERY TOP. TH E R E H E'D SC R A P E HIS R A D U LA N I GHT LO NG: IT SOU N D E D LIKE A FAINTER VE RSION OF

BROT H E R

D I SG U STING. B U T TIM. T H E

YO U N G E R B ROTH E R . E V E N A LLOW E D POKY O N H I S F I N G E R S ) . I T B A C K F I R E D : T H E T H I N G BIT M E . I K N E W THEN LINED THAT WITH SNAILS TEETH HAVE AN UNUSUAL A TON G U E TH I S

C H A LK SC R E E C H I N G AC ROSS A B L A C K B O A R D . D I D H E W A N T T O E SC A P E O R D I D H E J U S T L I K E T O SUCK ON PLASTIC? THE T E R R A R I U M WHICH HOUSED THIS SLUG W A S PLACED ON A G I G A N T I C T E L E V I S I O N SET TIM AND I WOULD WATC H . AT TIMES F L A S H COULD B E H E A R D T H ROUGH T H E SC R A P I N G CRY WHO KNOWS HIM FO R D I N OF COM M E RC I A L S . F R E E DOM, (WE HIS

CALLED

RADULA.

FAC I L I TATES T H E W E L L-A I M E D STROKES AT LEAVES AND FLOW E R S THEY'RE DESPISED FOR. I NEVER

W A N T E D T O B E B I T T E N BY A S N A I L AGA I N I N MY L I F E . SOON WE L O S T POKY, B U T W E COULD DETECT H I S SLI MEY TRA I LS OVER THE B E D R OOM WALLS

REVENGE. IT WANTED! A FT E R

FOOD

WHAT

O R I G I N A LLY BOOK

C A LLED

FLASH

TH E

COMIC

A FTE RWA RDS.

S U P R H E RO WHO C A N T R A V E L AT S P E E DS NO S LUG COULD FI NGE R EVE R M A TC H . ) ONE TIME I PLACED MY

TOO C LOSE T O T H E FLASH WAS

VENTI LATION HE, LIKE

HOLE POKY

O N E QU ESTI O N WE ASKED A BOUT S N A I LS WAS. DID THEY "GO TO THE BATH ROOM." IT REMAINED

WHEN

SC R A P I N G .

B E F O R E . B I T I T . I'M S U R E I S E N S E D S O M E P E R V E R S E PLEAS U R E . L A T E R O N , I T H R E W F L A S H O U T, S I M P LY B E CA U S E I C A R E D NOT TO C L E A N OUT HIS C A G E . BY TH I S TIME V E R Y S M ELLY A N D S L i M E Y.

MYSTERIOUS

U NT I L W E S A W T I N Y G R E Y COILS ON

T H E S U R F AC E S O F THE T E R R A R I U M . F U RT H E R M O R E , T H E G E N D E R OF S N A I LS S E E M E D NO M ATTE R : W E WERE SO C H I LD I S H AT THE TIME THAT IT DIDN'T

CO N C E R N US. I WAS TO LATER F I N D OUT THAT THEY ARE H E R M A P H RODITI C AND THAT THEY NEED TO

SLUGS W E R E BY NO M E A N S MY SOLE O B S E S S I O N . MY C H I LDHOOD F R I E N DS S H A R E D TH E I N T E R E ST. T I M . A FRIEND CALLED M A TT A N D MYSELF I N V E NTED A

M U T U A L L Y I N S E M I N A T E E A C H OTH E R : THE R E S U LT IS BOTH A N I M A L S B E A R I NG T H E EGGS. ONE S U M M E R

R E A L M C A L L E D "SLUGO N I A " POP U L A T E D BY SLUG-

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I N S P I R E D CA RTOON C R EATURES. TH E Y D I DN'T H A V E A N Y A N T E N N A E OR SLI M E OR R A D U LAS A N D TH E Y R E S E M B L E D H U M A N S I N TH E I R W E A K E R M O M E NTS. THESE CA RTOON SLUGS WERE VERY SELF

D E SC R I PTION O F T H E I R R E PRODUCT I V E . D I G ESTI V E A N D R E S P I RATORY SYSTE M S. T H E CLASSI FICATION I NTO F A M I LY. GENUS AND SPEC I E S WAS BA S E D

U PO N T H E ORGA N IZATION OF T H I E R R E S P I RATORY TRACTS. TH E BOOK H A D V E R Y STR A N G E ACCOU NTS ON C E R TA I N S P E C I ES. ONE IT SPEC I E S WAS WOU L D PREDA BY

I N D U LG E NT.

P R I D I N G T H E M S E L V E S O N R A V E N OUS

A P P ETITES OR EXCESS I V E TV WATC H I NG. WE DREW C O M I C S ABOUT T H E C E N T R A L SLUG C H A RACTERS. SO M E STE R ) . O F TH E I R H O B A RT NAMES (TH E WERE HARVEY OF (A TRICK

TORY-C A N N I B A L I STIC.

ATTA C K

SWAYI NG ITS H E A D A N D T R U N K BACK A N D FORTH I N FRONT OF T H E FOR V I CTI M A N D TH E N LUNGE VERY

D I CTATO R

S L UGON I A ) .

F E E DOR ( A T V A D D I CT). GA RFO ( A SLUG W H O H A D A S I G N ON H I S BACK R E A D I N G "BEAT M E"). C H E E R F U L (A COMPULSIVELY A H A PPY SLUG). AND MY FLASH FOR M E R

QUICKLY

T H E OTH E R

SNAI L'S M A I N A RTERY

R U N N I NG U P TH E C E N T E R O F THE S P I R A L.

( A GA I N .

VORACIOUS A SUPER

EATER-LI K E

D U R I N G A S U M M E R C A M P V ACATION I REQUESTED A F R I E N D O F MY P A R E NTS' TO B R I N G THE BOOKS WITH HER SINCE SHE WAS GOING TO VISIT SO M E

PET-WITH

F A S T TONG U E > '

M A TT W A S

I N G E N IO U S A N D P ROLI F I C I N C R EATI NG FICTIO N A L SITUATIONS CON C E R N I NG S L UGS. HE ALSO

COU N S E LORS. TH E A R E A H A D A N U M B E R O F S N A I LS I DI DN'T K N OW TH E N A M E S TO. W H E N S H E A R R I V E D S H E M A D E A W I S E C R A C K A S TO T H E WEIGHT O F THE BOOKS. DEMIC MANY OF THE COUNS ELORS ONE OF HELD ACA A

O R I G I N ATED TH E I R I M AG E A N D I N V E N TED MOST OF TH E C H A RACTE RS A N D TH E ( R N A M ES. TIM AND I

CONTR I B UTED A G R E AT D E A L. E I TH E R IN O U R OWN I DE A S OR J UST LAUGHTER OV E R MATrs TALKS ON THE I D EA O F SLUGO N I A . T I M AND I M A D E A S U PE R - B A N I M A TION F I L M A B O U T SLUGO N I A . W H I C H U N FOR T U N ATELY A P PEA RS TO H A V E BEEN LOST. M ATT

POSITI O N S HE WAS

AND

THEM

WAS

BIOLOGI ST. THESE

STRUCK EVEN

BY

MY

I NTEREST I N A T M O M E NTS

C R EA T U R ES.

THOUGH

D U R I N G O U R TALKS ON T H E MATTER I FELT AS IF H I S I NTEREST W A S TOO SIONAL. A TT E N T I V E ME A N D TOO OBSES

A N D I E V E N WENT SO FA R AS TO SUGGEST A "SLUG PATROL" TO O U R BOY SCOUT TROOP. T H E SCOUT M A STER WAS C H A R M E D BY THE I D E A BUT HAD TO R E F U S E THE TITLE (HE WAS A STU P I D M A N ) S I N C E TH E R E W E R E S O M A N Y OTH E R N A M E S OF A N I M A LS T H A T WE COULD USE B E S I D E THAT O F "SLUG:' W E K N E W IT W A S A POOR REASON-BESI DES. W E W E R E ALREA DY RESIGNED TO HIS D I S A P P RO V A L.

IT F R I G H T E N E D

I N TO TH I N K I NG I WAS

A LSO STRANGE FI NDING BULGING SOM E W H AT EFFORT T O

FOR D E VOTING SO M U C H TI M E TO A N D C LA S S I F Y I N G ON S N A I LS IT WAS THEM. TH E ME

S N A I LS

VOLUM E S WHEN

HELPED DON E I

MUCH

OF

I N AN WAS A

I M P RESS

MY

PEERS THAT

SCHOL A R LY TYPE.

B E FO R E H A N D. M ATT H A D COM POSED A FLAG W I T H SOM E R S A U LTING O R " F L I P P I NG" S L U G S (OUR S L U G S C O U L D F L I P I N M I D- A I R ) ; TH E F LAG'S S L U G S W E R E A LSO W E A R I N G BA N D A N A S A N D H A T S . V ESTIG ES OF O U R U N I FORMS. W E EVEN I N V E NTED A H A N DS H A K E W H I C H CONSI STED O F CONTACT W ITH E I TH E R PA LM ONLY TO HAVE SQ U I S H I NG SOUNDS M EET TH E A S I A LSO LEA R N E D F R O M THE BOOK. HELIX PO MOTA WAS C A L L E D T H E E U RO P E A N G A R D E N S NA I L. A N D IT IS THE SNAIL THAT THE I FRENCH USE FOR

ESCA RGOTS.

E V E RYTI M E

WENT TO A

FRENCH

RESTA U R A N T I O R D E R E D ESCA RGOTS. C H A R M I N G M Y M OT H E R WITH MY SOPH I ST I C A T I O N ( " I S N 'T T H A T

OTH E R P E RSON; A NOTH E R ONE WAS CONTACT BUT R A P I D D R A W I N G AWAY-"YECCH '''-AS I F T H E PALM WERE S L I M E Y.

CUTE. H E'S O R D E R I N G ESCARGOTSI"). W H E N E A T I N G S N A I LS B EG A N . I T WAS O N LY A FOODSTUFF POOR FA R M E R S R ESORTED TO W H E N TH EY HAD NOTH I NG

AROUND

TH I S TI M E

(l I

TO 14

YEARS OF

AGE.

ELSE

TO

E AT.

IN

HIGH IN

SCHOOL FITS

REMEMBER A

C A N NOT RECALL S P E C I F I C A LLY) I H A D BOUGHT THE M O S T COM P R E H E N S I V E BOOK ON TH E S U B J ECT. P I L S B U R Y'S

NORTH LAND M O L L USCA O F NORTH A M E R ICA

SKI N N Y

BLACK

GIRL A

OVER

FRENCH A

TEAC H E R

EATI N G

S N A I L : " YO U ' R E

EATI NG

S N A I L?'" S H E S H R I E K ED. W H E N ONE WAS O F F E R E D TO HER ON BREAD WITH GARLIC B U TT E R . IN FITS SHE OF WAS

OF

M E XICO.

(TH E ACTUAL TITLE M I G H T B E WAS ON A FO U R - V O L U M E D S N A I LS AND

LONG E R . )

THE

BOOK

BEC A M E

H YSTE R I C A L. AND

REFUSING

M O N OG R A PH S L U G S. WHEN

SOLELY

LAND

LAUGHTER

S H OC K . E A T I N G E SCA RGOTS

IT A RR I V E D. I

NOTI C E D TH E PAGES

O N E W A Y O F SHOWI NG YOU WERE S M A RT.

WERE U N C UT, A N D A FTER PLYI NG TH E M A P A RT WITH A LARGE K I TC H E N K N I FE. I WAS ABLE TO M A R V E L AT THE H U N D R E D S OF I L LUSTRATION S OF MY FAVORITE A N I M A L. I COULD NOW SAY T H A T SUCH-A N D-SUCH W A S " A R I O N ATE R." "VESPERCOLA LATI N B R U M . " "HELIX P O M ATA." EVERY SPECIES HAD A TEC H N IC A L MANY TI M E S THE IMAGE OF S N A I LS ON A GREW TO

D I STU R B I N G THROUGH

PROPORTIONS. STRAIT OF

BOAT IN

TRIP

TH E

GEORGIA

BRITISH

CO.L.U M B I A I S A W A POST O R LOOK M AGAZI N E THAT FEATURED A S H ORT STORY A BO U T MONSTER

4B

S N A I LS ON A R EMOTE I S L A N D . T H E M A I N C H A RAC T E R D E SC R I B E D HIS H O R ROR AT THE E N O R M ITY OF THE C R EATU R E S WHICH WAS ALL TH E MORE

(THOUGH NOT WITH TH E SATIN A N D ER M I N E J A C K ET) AND POS ITIONED BEFORE THE W I N DOW O F STRE A M ING D A Y L I GHT, I T F A I L E D S I M PL Y B ECA U S E S H E W A S MEASU R I NG GOLD. A V U LGA R ITY I N I T S F A I L U R E T O UNDERSTA N D T H E R ESONATING SIGN I F I C A N C E O F PEAR LS. SOM E C RITICS E V E N THOUGHT V E R M E E R'S WOM A N WAS WEIGH ING GOLD. BUT MY PA P E R

B E L I EVABLE WITH A N I L LUSTRATION OF ONE. I TH I N K MY YOU NG E R S I ST E R SHOWED ME THE PICTURE.

W H E N I SAW IT. TER ROR W A S T H E R E ACTION. A G I A NT S NA I L WAS DWA R F I NG A T R E E ITS DEVOU R I NGS HAD PROBABLY D E N U D E D. T H E MOUTH O F T H E MONSTER LOO K E D LIKE A BALL O F A THOU S A N D ICE-PICKS. R E A DY TO R I P A P A RT A N YTH I N G ORGANIC. THE

E N DO R S E D COULD

LAWRENCE THINK

GOW I N G ' S SHE

POINT-HOW WEIGHING

A N YO N E

WAS

SOMETH I N G B E S I D E S TH ESE J E W E LS FROM OYST E R BEDS?

I M A G E OF THE MOUTH W A S MOST D I STU R B I N G AND I THOUGHT ABOUT I T OFTEN D U R I NG T H E VACATION. I WOULD FREQUE NTLY O P E N TH E MAGAZINE AND

A NOTH E R

P A I NTI N G . THE

BOTTI C E LLrS OF

LA

P R I M I V E RA. FROM THE

F I X E D LY STA R E AT T H E MOUTH'S P R I C K LY CAVERN.

FEATU R E D

BIRTH

V E N US

LEGEN D A R Y S E A - S H ELL. I THOUGHT I T TO B E A M OST DURING THAT VACATION. M Y MOTH E R AND A GOOD F R I E N D OF H E R S . T H E MOTH E R OF T H E ACCOMPA NY I NG F A M I LY. LOVED TO P R E P A R E F R E S H OYSTERS. WITH P L E NTY O F OYSTER BEDS AROUND. WE WOULD PARTAKE OF MANY LUNCHES "ON T H E H ALF-SHELL." I T S E E M E D A V E R Y E LEGANT T H I N G TO DO IN THE W I L D E R N ESS. MOM'S F R I E N D WAS Q U I T E WORLDLY I N MY EYES AND B E A UTI F U L E N O U G H T O HAVE ME B EA U T I F U L S P I R A LS PICTU RE. A IN IT HER HAIR COILS IN IS

WHILE

M ALE

ZEPHYR.

FLORA,

FITFULLY BLOWING H I S G E NTLE B R EATH. W H I C H . I F YOU DON'T MIND THE F R E E - A S S OC I ATI N G . WAS

SOMETH I NG I OFTEN D I D T O SNAI LS: I B L E W ON TH E I R A N TE N N A E T O S E E S E N S I T I V E, AND I F THEY WERE TRULY THAT WERE

VERY

O FT E N

THEY

RECOI L I N G T H E T E N D E R F I LA M E NTS. TH I S D E L I C A C Y S E N T M E I N S M I LES. PROMPTING MORE A S S E RT I V E MEASU R E S SUCH A S TOUC H I NG TH E STA LKS, O N LY TO HAVE THEM R E CO I L MORE R A P I D L Y, HENCE

COM P A R E H E R T O A U D R E Y H E P B U R N . W E ' D A L L D I V E F O R OYSTERS I N C L E A R- B L U E W A T E R . A R M E D WITH BUCK ETS OR PLASTIC BAGS. LATE R ON WE'D PRY TH E M OPEN. A P A I N F U L TASK FOR A S H E L L'S S H A R P EOG E S W O U L D CUT Y O U . A N D T H E K N I F E O R PRYING TOO L . A FT E R HAVING P U NCTU R E D YO U R SKIN.

TAKING

LONGE R T O E M E RGE

AGA I N F A C I N G T H E

H U M A N A D V E RSA RY. M Y S ELF.

WOULD A D D T O T H E M I S E R Y O F A L R E A D Y SLICED FINGERS. A L E M O N A N D TOMATO SAUCE AWAITED TH E H U NGRY M I N O R I TY S I N C E MANY IN O U R PARTY D I D N'T C A R E FOR TH E M . O N E TI M E I FOUND A PEA R L; I T WAS V E R Y S M A L L A N D B R O U G H T M U C H ATTEN TION FROM THE OLDER WOM E N . I D I D N 'T KNOW A G A R D E N'S B R I G HT FLOWERS AND G L I ST E N I N G

LEAVES H A S A R A PAC I O U S PRE DATOR. TH E S N A I L A N D SLUG. TH E Y S C A R S U C H LUMI NOUS P A R A D I S E S T H A T R E FLECT A PROUD OWNER'S LABOR. A N D T O SEE MY MOTHE R SPREA D I NG SLUG-BE-GONE OR

W H E R E TO PLACE IT. SO I L E FT I T IN THE C H A NGE PURSE OF E I TH E R MY MOTH E R 'S BAG OR HER

F R I E N DS. I N E V E R SAW TH AT PEA R L A G A I N ONCE I T W A S S A F E I N S I D F T H E FO LDS OF LEATH E R .

SOME S U C H S I M I LA R POISON O N OU R G A R D E N H U R T M E I N ATTEN U AT E D WAYS. N O W TH E PETALS OF OU R I R I S ES. L I L I E S A N D PETU N I A S COULD FLOU R I SH I N

A Y E A R A FT E R T H E BOAT T R I P . I H A D W R ITTEN A LONG PAPER ON THE DUTCH PAINTER JAN

M A N Y A S U M M E R'S LIGHT U N R A VAGED BY G A PS A N D HOLES. T H E S N A I L'S H A T E D STATUS W A S W H A T I ATTEMPTED TO C H A NG E . I VAINLY THOUGHT MY

V E R M E E R . H I S ATTE NTION T O P E A R L S M U ST H A V E CONTR I BUTED T O M Y EXC ITMENT O V E R H I S WORK. BESI DES, THE DUO OF MOTH E R AND H E R FRIEND

DISCUSS I N G O F T H E C REATURES WOULD S W A Y M Y FAM I LY I NTO A P P R EC I A T I N G TH E M . TH E B R I LL I A N T GROWTH O F RLOWE R S WAS NOTH I N G T O H A R M . Y E T HARM TO THEM SEEMED I N EVITA B L E F O R THEY

THO UGHT M E Q U I T E S E N S I T I V E T O S E L ECT V E R M E E R A S A S U B JECT FOR A R E S E A RCH PA P E R . ( I W A S 1 4 Y E A R S OLD A N D A MOM EVEN TOLD F R E S H M A N I N H I G H SCHOOL.) ONCE THAT VERMEER WAS

WOULD N O D O U B T Q U I C K L Y WITH E R A N D D I E . I E V E N CHASTISED I N F R O N T OF MOTHER A M E RICA'S C U LT OF YOUTH F U L N E S S I N TO IN WOMEN WHEN AS SHE BY WAS MY

ME

CON S I D E R E D TO H A V E GROU N D R E A L P E A R LS I NTO HIS O I LS. CONT R I B U T I N G TO T H E S O FT . M I LKY

P A S S I NG

M I DDLE-AGE

SEEN

PALLOR OF H I S MOSTLY F E M A LE S U B JECTS. I G R E W T O A P P R ECI ATE THE P A I N T I N G E NTITLED "WO M A N

OBSESSIO N A L S C R U T I N Y OF H E R FACE'S G ROWTH OF WRINKLES. H E R FACE IS STI LL VERY YO UTH F U L A N D MY V I C I O U S N E S S AGAI N ST TH E ONE WHO H A D LOOKED O V E R M E W I T H T E N D E R N ESS FOR SO M A N Y Y E A R S A P P E A R S O N L Y T O B E R E V E N G E A G A I NST

W E I G H I N G PEA R LS" A S H I S M O S T E X Q U I S I T E E FFORT. V E R M E E R'S CONTEM P O R A R Y D E H O OC H D E PICTED A WOM A N W E I G H I N G GOLD COINS. SI M I LA R LY ATTI R E D

49

H E R O B S E S S I V E P I C K I N G O F MY ZITS AS I A D V A N C E D I N TO T H E H O R M O N A L D I S F I G U R E M E NTS OF A DOLES CENCE.

A N D ZITS.

S N A I L A LLOPHON I C A L L Y R E S I D E S

IN

" A I LS . " I . THE

ONE WHO A I LS F R O M ACNE. HER F I N G E R NAILS W E R E THE BITING S N A I L, ME IN LIKE THE L E ECHES THAT H A D COU LD A A LSO T H E V E R Y I N S T R U M E N T OF M Y R E P E T I T I O N : S N A I L IS]. WITH WERE N A I LS, JESUS C H R I S T'S HANDS AND FEET

FASC I N ATED DRAW

FI FTH MY

G R A D E. FACE AS

B LO O D

FROM

F R E S H LY MY

B L OO D I E D B Y T H E M , A N I N C I D E N T K N O W N I N C H R I ST I A N HOME. BEFORE MY G R A N D

EXTRACTED M OT H E R , DEGREE,

W H I TE H E A D TO HER

A LW A Y S N U R S I NG THE

WOULD.

EVERY

TRUE WOU L D

EDUCATION FROM HER

FATH E R ' S D E A T H H I S H A N D S W E R E A L SO WOU N D E D BY I M P R O P E R PROTEC T I O N F R O M X - R A Y S H E G A V E TO H I S PATI E N TS . H E W A S A P E D I A T R I C I A N L I K E M Y FATH E R

WIPE

OFF

OIL

F I N GE R N A I LS/FI N G E R S N A I LS O N TO H E R D R E S S O R A PR O N . T H E ATTA C K W A S A L W A Y S ON, W H E T H E R I T WAS C O M B I N G M Y H A I R O R W I P I NG OFF D I RT FROM ANY PART OF MY BODY. A C O M P U LS I V E LY NEAT

15

NOW.

WHY

DID

LIKE

TO

HAVE

POKY

C R A W L O V E R M Y F I N G E R S ? I A M A LSO S U P PO S E D TO BE "GE N ET I C A L L Y I D E N T I C A L" TO H I M . MY FATH ER

P E R SO N , A P R O D U C T O F L U T H E R A N U P B R I N G I N G . 1 5 STI L L I NSPI R I N G ME TO A W A SH AND SHAVE DI RTY,

SAYS 50, AND I B E A R H I S FIRST NAME A S M Y M I DDLE O N E . M Y H A N D S H A V E B E E N C A L L E D "ATT R A C T I V E " B Y T H O S E CLOSE T O M E . B U T A G I R LF R I E N D I O N C E K N E W H A D A N EXQU I S I T E P A I R , C O M P E N S A T I N G F O R HER VERY BLEMISHED FACE. HER NAME WAS

EVERYDAY.

CLEANSING

P E R PETU A L L Y

S H I T- R I D D E N E N V E L O P E O F F L E S H . TH I S BLAsEN, OR B U B B L E OF S K I N I S W H A T THE S N A I L- H E A D E D M A N , FREUD, HAD DESIGNATED TH E PHYSICAL M ET A

I D E N TI C A L T O M Y M O T H E R'S, FORC I N G M E T O TH I N K OF A M OT H E R RAVAGED BY WHAT I HAD, A

PHOR O F T H E EGO.

H O P E L E S S R E V E NG E . IT A LSO H E LP E D M E E N D U R E B E I N G B RO U G H T U P IN A SOC I A L A P P A R A T U S T H A T EXU LTS I N A S T R E A M L I N E D P A S S I O N F O R A S S I M I LA TING E G O- I D E A L S . HAS F U R T H E R T R A N S FOR M E D WHATEVER THROUGH. PAROXYSMS WITH BAD MY COMPLEXION BEING MY WENT

SKIN

G R A N D

F A T H E R ' S DOO M . SO H A V E I F E LT I T TOO TO B E M I N E. TH E W O R D S K I N , T H O U G H A N A S E M IC D EC I PH E R I NG. I S R E LATED TO T H E LETTERS I N S N A I L, T H E "5." " I " A N D "N": P L A C E A N D "L" FOR T H E " K . " A N D YOU H A V E " s L l N " -T H E N GO ON T O "S N A I L. " T H E "5" A N D " L " A R E C R U C I A L: BOTH P A R E N TS POSS ESS T H E M I N T H E I R O R IG I N A L N A M ES. A LSO, W R I N K LES A R E L l N Es/LA I N S ( S N A I L ) ON T H E s K I N /S L I N (SNAIL).

TH E PAST O F P U R I F Y I N G D I R T ON T H E S K I N I NTO A MI LITA NT OC C U P A T I O N . I H A V E SUCC U M B ED TO T H E ADVE RTISI NG VISAGE OF G R EATER P OT E N C Y , I

W I S H I N G THAT T H E

P HOTOS

A N D COM M E R I C A L S

SEE W I L L B E P R E S E N T I N MY L I FE A S A R E S U L T OF BUYING THE PRODUCT. THEN R E A LITY WILL

CONC U R E W I T H M Y H A L L U C I N A TION A N D I S H A L L B E A I R - B R USH P E R FECT L I K E A L L THE B E A U T I E S WHO

C O U L D GET I NTO STU D I O 54 W I THOUT W A I T I N G . A N D IF YOU WENT H TE R E , THE LARGE MALE HOMO

F U R T H E R MO R E , W I T H S L U G E L I M I N A T E T H E " S " A N D W I T N E S S " L U G , " BETTER YET, " U LG." O R A S I S C L E A R . "U LGIYI." " S L U G S A R E 50 U G L Y " S A Y T H E C O M M O N LOT. SLUGS MAKE U G LY, AS FLA S H DID WITH ITS

SEXUAL

CROWD

OBEYS

THE

SA M E

I M P U LS E

S E C R ETLY C H E R I S H : AN O R A L D R I VE. T H E D R I V E OF THE VAMPI RE IN FOR THESE OT H E R S WHO HAVE

C A G E , O R A S I T D I D TO M Y F I N G E R B Y ITS B I T I NG: A B I T I N G . U G L I F Y I N G S L U G , S C R A P I N G AT MY S K I N . M Y M OT H E R ' S NAME, J U LI E, IS A LL O P H O N I C A L L Y

TR I U M P H E D OUR

TH E I R

I D E O LOG I C A L I N

P E R FECTION, BO D I L Y H A N D

SOC I E T Y ' S THE

I N DICIA

CLEAN,

S P L E N DOR. SOM E MEN

FEW

M I LDLY

ACNED ME

AND IN

R E LA T E D T O "G U L IS]," S I M I LA R T O D A D'S E N D E A R M E N T, " J U L E S, " SOU N D I NG M UC H L I K E "J E W E LS." A N U G L Y J E W E L I S THE S L U G THAT COULD R E N D E R T H E C H I L D-J E W E L OF J U L I E U G L Y A S W E LL.

THERE MY

HAVE TO

SENT FIX

S H I V E R S. HUMAN

PROPELLING

EYES

ON

TH E I R

RA D U LA S T H A T C O U L D B I T E T H E V E R Y P I M P L E S I POSS E S S T H A T E V E N I N G .

OFTE N TI M E S MY MOTH E R WOULD LA M E N T, "D U N C A N A LTHOUGH I A M NOT I D E N T I C A L T O T H E WOLF- M A N PAC I NG H YSTE R I C A L L Y TO A N D FRO I N A D E R M A TOLOG I ST'S P OW D E R IN OFFICE HAND, I WITH HAVE M I RROR AND FACE YOU'RE SO P I C K Y . " M E A N I NG SHE PROBABLY WAS

D I SC O N T E N T W I T H M Y FON D N E S S F O R C R IT I C A LITY AND D I S T I NCTION. W H I L E T H I N K I NG I WAS P I C K A B L E, T H A T I S . P R E Y TO HER FON D N E S S FOR D R A W I N G O I L OUT OF MY FOR SKIN. A SISTER HER OF MINE WAS A LSO

E N C R Y PTED

UNDYING

F A N T A S I E S A N D TH E I R C O R R E S PONDING PLEA S U R E WORDS. H I S P L EA S U R E-WORD. A WORD IN H I S NOSE LANGUAGE, SCR A P I NG

NOTED

GOUGING

YOUNGER

B ROTH E R S'

T E R I ET,

THE

R U SS I A N SEEMS PICK

TERM

FOR MY

F L E S H W IT H A F I N G E R C A L L E D " P I N K Y . " I T WAS A L L A JOKE, A LT H O U G H AT TIMES HER ATTA C K S WERE

AND

R U BB I N G SLUG,

S I M I LA R PICKY,

TO

VERBARIUM:

SNAIL,

OR

ACNE

FRIGHTENING.

" P I N K Y"

APPEARS

O R T H OG R A P H I -

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CALLY S I M I L A R TO POKY. POK E . POKY ON MY

MY

PET S N A I L. FINGERS POKY. PICKY

TO

E L I M I N A TE

THE OF

ZIT

IN

THIS

C I TY

NEEDS

AN THE

F I N G E R S . THE

A P PLICATION

C R E A MS.

R E PRODUC I N G

F I N G E R/SNAI L. FU RTH ER. M U C U S O R SNOT. AS IT IS MORE COMMONLY CA LLED. I S PICKED I N THE NOSE. SOM ETH I NG ATTACK MELANIE KLEIN CALLS AN ANAL

M U C I LA G E FROM SNA I LS I ONCE PUT ON M Y BODY. PROFESSIONAL FAC I A LS ARE SU RGEON- L I K E WITH RUBBERY HANDS V I O L E NTLY PICKING AWAY.

U PON T H E MOTH E R . LIKE I DO IS

PIC K I NG YOUR NOSE G H ASTLY. D E L I C ATE

S N A I LS. N A TU RE'S S U RGEONS (THE Y LEAVE SC A R S ON PLANT TISSUE) ARE N O W O N L Y COSMETOLO

F R E Q U ENTLY

R E A D E R . AND THIS H A B I T OF M I N E I S EVEN WORSE WH E N I VENTURE TO EAT THE STUFF. BITING THE

G I STS FOR PEOPLE TO K E E P CORPSEHooD I NTACT AND GOLDEN. I'M RECALLING B A U D E LA I R E' S

G R E E N J U N K A LONG THE WAY. ("HE HAS A GRE-E-E E-E- EN MOUTH.")

EQUATION O F LOVE- M A K I N G A N D S U RG E R Y I N H I S JOURNAX I N TI M ES.

A N OT H E R

CRUC I A L

P L E A S U R E - W O R D.

ACNE. IS

B U R I E D I N MY N A M E : DUNCAN/DUNACNIEL

TO M A K E GOLDE N A N D YOUTH EVOCATIVE. TO GET A T A N . IS A C R Y PTIC I M PULSE IN N E W YORK. THE NEW YORK WITH AN ISLAND THE CALLED M A N H ATTA N . OR "NOC T U R N A L L Y

ZITS OR "szlr' VIBRA TES WITH "SHlr' A N D CLEANING I S OF COURSE A N A N A L MOTIF. M Y "C RITICALITY" (MY "PICKY" NATUREC ITICAL. BECO M E S IS A L LOPHON IC WITH "ZIT" :

M A N - H A T-TAN.

N U M E ROUS

ACTIVE C R E A T U R ES" H E R E WITH D E E P BROWN TA N S IS ONLY T H E MANY M E N W I T H THE EVIDENCE O F BY S U M M E R'S RAYS. THE

C R I TI C A L . THEORY"

ZITI C A L. AN

I N DEED

"ZITICAL FOR MY

BEING

A FFLICTED

E X P L A N A TION

SONNENSTRAHLEN. A P E R FECT TA N I N M A N H ATTA N TA KES SOME TI M E, BE IT DAYS. WEEKS, MONTHS.

FASCIN ATION FOR T H E WR ITINGS O F THAT SCHOOL. THE (SIUGLIY I N T E LLECTU A L READI NG AN I MAGE

EVEN A H U N D R E D YEARS.

I M A G I N A R Y B A N I S H I NG T. W. ADORNO-DON'T A DORE " S E LF-STY L I N G A DO R N . " A DORE ME. "OUI. JE I BEG FORG I V E N E S S FOR ALL THIS CONFESSING IT S C R A P E S STA R AND

TADORE."

AND M Y MOVE TO N E W YORK WAS OPPORTU NE. I CAME HERE TO FA LL I N TO THE A RMS OF ITS BEAUTIFUL M E N . NEW YORK WAS -FU N-C ITY" AND I ENVISIONED THE M A N Y " F U N " PEOPLE L I V I N G H E R E . BUT "FUN A 'FU N-ZITY." SINCE WHEN YOU

THE IN

ATTE N D A N T M O R B I D I T I ES. T H I S C I TY OF THOUGH

STI LL.

SKYSC R A PERS OR NOT SO H A R S H LY.

SC R A P E R S .

N IGHTLONG L I K E M Y PET SLUG H A D DON E ATOP THE GIANT TV SET. TH E TV SHOW WILL N OT BE

C ITY" IS. FOR M E .

FORGOTTEN A S LONG A S I LIVE W H E R E TV'S A R E WATC H E D. UN ENDLICH. C R I TICIZED, PICKED AT. WITHOUT END.

H AVE A "ZIT' I N FU N-CITY YOU DON'T HAVE F U N . AN

U N L U sT I C H .

A. NO- F U N

EGO.

WITH

ZIT ON

ITS

B U BBLE, 15 NOT A L U ST-IC H . A FUN EGO I N A CITY ZITY WITH ALL ITS FUN. B E A UTIFUL PEOPLE. DUNCAN S M I TH

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T A B L E M A N N ERS, B E D M A N N E RS, LA N G U A G E M A N N E R S

TO MARIE

BONA PARTE, HAD

WHO HAD ASKED H I M SOM E

IF

K I LLS, I N G E N E R A L A N D I N PA RTIC ULAR, TH I S ALSO I S ONLY TOO E V I D ENT. O N T H E CONTRA RY, THERE IS NO R E A SO N FOR NOT EATING H U M A N FLESH. THE P R O H I B I T I O N O F C A N N I BA L I S M T H U S A P P E A R S U N J USTI F I A BLE. DESPITE T H E FACT THAT I N EATING A MAN ONE NEED NOT B EG I N BY KILLING HIM:

PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S COURAGE REMARKED:

R E A SO N TO D I S FREUD

I N C ESTUOUS

R E LA T IONS H I PS,

T H E SITUATION OF I NC EST I S EXACTLY LIKE THAT O F C A N N I B A LI S M . REASONS THAT K I LL A MAN NATURALLY THERE ARE GOOD

IN MODERN LIFE ONE DOES NOT

NON ETH ELESS. W E CAN ONE SAY

R E S PECT IT M UC H LESS. HOW THAT FOR THE I N C EST, AND IS

TO DEVOUR H I M , BUT THERE IS NO

FOR NOT EAT I N G HUMAN

THEN

R E A SO N

WHATEVER

I M P L I C I TL Y

FOR

M U R DE R ,

S ITUATION

FLESH I N PLACE O F M EAT. N E VERTHELESS MOST OF U S WOULD FINO THAT COMPLETELY I M POSSI BLE. I N C EST I S NOT SO FAR REMOVED. AND IT OCCURS O N LY TOO OFTEN. WE CAN EASILY SEE THAT, I F IT WAS PRACTISED ON A LARGE SOC I A L SCA L E IT

"EXACTLY L I K E THAT O F C A N N I B A L I S M ?"

TO BE A C A N N I B A L IS TO EAT OTH E R M E N . A N D O N E C A N ONLY E I T H E R B E O N E OR N O T B E ONE. M A TT E R S ARE N O T SO S I M PL E WITH R ESPECT TO I NC E ST,

WOULD BE A S H A R M F U L TODAY AS IT WAS IN T I M E S PAST.

W H I C H P R E S ENTS BOTH A SEXUAL A N D A SOCIO LOGICAL A S PECT: T H E Y C A N NOT B E COMPLETELY

TH I S

TEXT

IS

F U L L OF GOOD SENSE. F R E U D WOULD E R RS.

BUT GOOD

D I S SOC I AT E D

ONE

FROM

THE

OTH E R ,

BUT

ARE

S E N S E -A N D

NOT HAVE S A I D THE SHOULD JUDGE

R A RELY R IGOROUSLY L I N K E D : O N E C A N PROH I BI T TH E M A R R I A G E O F C E RTAI N K I N WITHOUT M A K I N G A D R A M A OF T H E I R EVENTUAL SEXUAL R E LATIONS. WITH US FOR E X A M PLE, TWO NEAR KIN CAN S L E E P TOGETH ER, T H E Y S I M PLY C A N NOT B E M A R R I E D A N D TH E I R C H I LD R E N W I LL N O T B E LEGITIMATE: TH E I R R E LATIONS W I LL B E S E X U A L BUT N O T CON N U B I A L. TH U S O N E WILL B E -M UST O N E THE SEXUAL R I T U A L LY SAY, MORE OR

CONTRA Ry-oFTEN

ONE

TH E LAST P H R A S E M A K E S O N E TH I N K THAT I N C E ST COU L D HAVE BEEN PRACTI S E D ONCE, BUT THAT

MEN HAD RENOUNCED I T FOR GOOD R EASONS. THE PROH I BI TION IS THEN J U STI F I ABLE: HOWEVER, I T IS TRANSGRESSED "ON LY TOO OFTEN." M U R D E R IS T H E SA M E : ONE S H O U L D N EV E R K I LL, ESPEC I A L LY I N O R D E R T O D E V O U R O N E ' S V I C T I M , A N D H E R E A LSO "GOOD REASONS" CAN BE I N VOKED: BUT THAT O N E

LESS-EXACTI N G : ONE TIME

R E LATION S H I P AT W I LL BECOM E A

TREATED

FULLY LEGAL M A R R I AGE . T H U S A G A I N . ITS S I M P L E E X I ST E N C E COULD FOR M T H E B A S I S O F A RECOG N I Z E D U N I ON OF I N F E R I O R STATUS . IN E V E R Y CASE A TWO-S I DED PLAY IS POSS I B L E . WHICH ALLOWS

OPPOSITE R U L E . T H E POSSIBI LITY OF I N C EST I S S O WELL P R E D I C T E D T H A T OFT E N ONE HAS A LS O

FORSEEN A RITE T O A C H I EVE IT. T O F I L L TH E GAP. AND P E R H A PS A LS O , AS ONE HAS ALREADY

ONE TO M A INTA I N THE PROH I BITION, TO E FFACE ITS VIOLATION . . . AND TO BEGIN AGAIN. ON THE

INDICATED. WITHOUT CONSTRA I N I NG T H E S E PA RA TION O F T H E I NC ESTUOUS PARTIES. T H E C A N N I B A L. I N A SOCI ETY W H I C H I S NOT, TRANSGRESSES T H E NORM I N A M A N N E R T H A T I S . ON T H E CONTRA RY. I R REPA R ABL E: MEMBER OF ONE C A N NOT CON S I D E R TH I S IS HIM A IN

CONTRA RY. I N TH E M A TT E R OF C A N N I B A LI S M . O N E C A N NOT THUS DI SSOCIATE DE FACTO A N D DE J U R E STATUS. IT I S U N DE R STOOD THAT I N C A N N I B A L I S M A S WELL THERE A R E T W O A S PECTS: T O E AT. A N D TO EAT OTH E R M E N P R EC I S E LY : B U T T H E B I OLOGICAL A S PECT O F TH E MATTER IS NOT S E P A R A B L E F ROM ITS SOCI A L CONSEQU E N C E . I CAN SLEEP WITH A

THE

SOCIAL

BODY.

WHY.

SOC IETIES W H E R E O N E DOES NOT EAT OTH E R M E N. BUT W H E R E M E N FEAR B E I N G EATE N. A N D W H E R E ONE ATTR I B U T E S M A LA D I E S AND D E ATHS TO

WOM A N WITHOUT M A R R Y I NG H E R A N D S H E R E M A I N S A POSSI B LE SPO U S E . F O R M E O R F O R SOMEONE

C A N N I B A L ACTIONS. O N E I M PUTES T H E C O M M I S S I O N OF THE C R I M E S T O M YSTERIOUS FOR E I G N E RS. O R T O SORC E R E R S W H O A R E D I F F I C U LT T O I D E NTIFY.

ELSE. B U T I F I E A T HER SHE I S NO LON G E R EDIBLE FOR A N Y ONE E L S EI D I F F E R E N T FROM THE SEXUAL R E LATIO N S H I P. T H E C A N N I BA LISTIC R E LATION S H I P C A N NOT H A U STS BE IT. RE PEATED. AND IF IT ITS IS A C H I E V E M ENT EX PROH I BITED AND

S Y M M E T R I C A LLY,

WHERE

CANNIBALISM

IS

THE

RU LE, T H E R E I S N O WAY TO ELUOE IT. POS I T I V E O R N EGATIVE. I T TOLE RATES N O M E A N S O F ESCA PE. W R I TES H. CLASTRES A BO U T T H E

NONETH E LESS R E A LIZED, T H E R E I S N O POSSIBLE R E M I SSION. THE V ICTI M IS I R RECU PARABLE. ONE

" F I N A LLY."

W O U L D SAY T H A T THE SA M E I S T R U E O F M U RDER. BUT THE FACT IS T H A T. AS FOR I NCEST AND

A N C I ENT TU P I . "TH E ESSENTIAL R U L E O F A NTH RO POPH A G Y IS PERHAPS THE EXIGENCE THAT

CONTR A R Y TO C A N N I BA L I S M . O N E C A N G E T A ROUND T H E R U L E . VIOLA T I N G I T WHILE M A I NTA I NI NG It.: THIS I S NOT TO S P E A K O F WAR WHERE TO KILL I S AN

EVERYO N E PARTICI PATE. " ONE F I NOS O N E S E L F I N THE P R E S E N C E O F A PARADOX THAT I S A T L E A ST A P P A R E NT: THE U N I VE R S A L WHILE, RULE SUFFERS ITS

E X PLOIT: T H E ACQUITTAL O F A M U RD E R E R WHERE E X T E N U A T I N G C I R C U M ST A N C E S NIZED DOES NOT PLACE THE CAN BE R ECOG IN

TRA NSG R ESSION,

WHERE

I T A P P L I ES. T H E

PARTI C U L A R R U L E KNOWS PRACTICALLY NON E . I N R E A LITY THE D E F I N I TI O N S OF I N C EST AND OF

PROH I B ITION

QUESTION. A S FOR T H E E X EC UTION O F A M U R DER ER, W H I C H ITSELF I S A M U R D E R. ITS P U R POSE IS TO R E I N FORCE THE PROH ITI B I O N . NOT TO W E A K E N IT: TO KILL SOM EON E THE WHO HAS KILLED I N TO A DOES NOT OF

C A N N I B A L I S M E A S I L Y EXPLA I N T H I S .

R E L A T I ON S H I P

IS

O N LY

I N C ESTUOUS

WITH

R E S PECT T O T H E CAN NOT, DICTING THUS, ON E'S

P R O H I B I TI O N

IT B R E A KS : O N E

TR A N S FO R M K I LLE RS.

S OC I ET Y IS

S OC I ETY

PRESC R I B E I T WITHOUT CONTRA TERMS: S I NCE IT S U PPOSES THE

A N D TH I S

W H Y THE

P U N I S H M ENT OF

DEATH C A N BE A L LOWED BY THE V E R Y PEOPLE WHO MOST VIGOROUSLY CON D E M N M U R D E R . S I M I LA RLY IT WOULD COME TO NO O N E'S M I N D. IN A NON

R U L E WHICH CON D E M N S IT. IT A LWAYS A PPEARS A S A TRAN SGRESSION, A N D THIS TRANSGRESSION C A N BE FO U N D EVE RYWH E R E OF SEXUAL BECAUSE DESIRE. AN OF THE

CA N N I BA L

SOC I ETY.

TO S UGGEST TIojE CON S U M P

U N I VERSA LITY A NCE MORE

APPEAR

TION OF SOM EONE WHO H A D B E E N FOU N D G U I LTY OF C A N N I B A L I S M . ONE ONLY E ATS A C A N N I B A L I N A

OR L E S S F R EQUENT ACCO R D I N G T O

THE E X T E N T O F I T S PROH I BITION: R E LA T I V E LY R A R E IN SOC I ETI E S WITH A LARGE POPULATION, AND

SOCI ETY OF CAN N I BA LS. W H I C H B R I NG S US BACK TO TH E FACT THAT C A N N I BA L I S M IS A LMOST A LWAYS

WHERE T H E C I RCLE O F FOR B I D D E N PARTNERS I S L I M ITED, THAT MORE F R EQU E N T IN THOSE SOC I ET I E S

AN I N STITUTION. N E V E R A T R A N SG R ES S I O N .

HAVE

FEWER

M EMBERS

AND THAT HAVE

SYNTH ESIS A N D R E S U LTS O F A L L T H E S E OPPOSI TIONS: I N C EST (AND M U R D E R) IS PROH I B IT E D

ENLARGED T H E BOUNDS OF T H E PRO H I BITION. FOR TH I S REASON. THE P R ETENDED IN GEN E R A L UNIVERSAL M UC H LESS

E V E RYWH E R E A N D E NC O U N T E R E D E V E R Y W H E R E . C A N N I BA L I S M IS O N LY PRACTISED WHERE IT IS

HORROR

O F I NCEST I S

PRONO U N C E D I N T H E S E LATTER: W H E R E O N E H A S AFFIRMED IT IN A B U S I V E LY E XT R A PO L A T I N G A

AUTHO R I S E D A N D N E V E R W H E R E I T I S PROH I B ITED. I N G E N E R A L. TH E R E I S ON ONE S I D E A PROH I B I TION WHOSE V I OLATION I N N O W A Y COM P RO M I S E S IT. ON THE OTH E R . A R U L E W H I C H C A N NOT B E VIOLATED SINCE THAT WHICH I T CON D E M N S . IF O N E DOES IT. PROVES ITS ABSENCE AND M A N I F E STS THE

SENTI M E N T W H I C H , FOR

US. K E E PS THE

RESTRIC

TION OF T H E PROH I B ITION TO T H E ONLY K I N W H O A R E CONSISTENTLY FOR B I DDEN.

A S FOR C A N N I BA L I S M . O N E CAN NOT EXPLAIN WHY

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SOME SOCI ETIES ACCEPT I T A N D OTHERS FOR B I D IT. BUT THAT ITS PROH I B I T I O N N EV E R PLACES ITS

OF

TH E I R

V ICTI M S. A

IN

ANY

EVENT E A C H

MAY BE CAN

VALID

FOR

GIVEN

POP U L A T I O N .

BUT

PRACTICE IN QUESTION: TH I S POSES THE PROBLEM OF A D M ITTING A U N I V E R S A L DESIRE TO EAT M E N . BUT M U ST THERE BE O N E ? SUCH A D E S I R E DOES NOT EVEN SEEM PRESENT FOR ALL C A N N I BALS.

PRETEN D TO N O G E N E R A L VALI DITY. T H E Y H A V E ABOVE ALL AN I DEOLOGICA L C H A R ACTER: THEY

EXPRESS THE IDEAS THAT TH E I N T E R E STED H A V E OF T H E POST MORTEM EXISTENCE OF T H E H U M A N

TRUE THE I ROQUOIS E N JOY THIS KIND OF FOOD. AND J E A N DE L Il: RY WRITES OF T H E TUPI: "ALL ADMIT T H I S HUMAN F L E S H T O BE WON D E RFULLY G DO D A N D THAT OLD WO M E N IN

PERSON. O F T H E RELATIONS BETWE E N T H E L I V I N G A N D T H E D E A D: F R O M THIS LAST POI N T O F V I EW. CA N N I BA L I S M CAN BE CONSI D E R E D A S WELL A S A M E A N S TO K E E P A W A Y THE DEAD BY D E STROY I N G THEIR C O R PO R A L S U PPORT-SO THE GUYAKI

D E L I CATE."

E X P LA I N I NG

PARTI C U LA R H A D A TASTE FOR IT. BUT T H I S TASTE

1 5 NOT THE ONLY T H I N G I N VOLVED. BECA USE H E

A D D S : "TH E I R P R I N C I P A L I N T E NTION

TH I N K-AS A M E A N S T O ASSU R E CERTA I N D E A D OF ACCESS TO THE SU PREME POW E R . THAT OF

15 T H A T I N

P R E P A R I N G A N D EATING T H E DEAD I N T H I S WAY. TO TH E BON E . THEY GIVE. BY T H E S E MEANS. F E A R A N D T E R R O R T O THE LIVI NG." T H I S CONFI R M S STADEN: "TH EY DO TH I S NOT TO E A S E T H E I R H U NGER. BUT THROUGH CLAUDE HOST I LITY. D'ABBEVILLE O U T OF GREAT H ATE." WHO CONTESTS THE AND VERY

A N C ESTO R S H I P-SO TH E FATA L E K A THI N K . I N O N E CASE AS IN TO THE OTH E R . A THERE IS NO EVIDENT

REASON DESI R E .

S U PPOSE

PROPERLY C A N N I B A L

R E A LITY OF C A N N I BA L I STIC DESI RE: "IT I S NOT THAT T H E Y SO MUCH ENJOY EATING HUMAN FLESH BUT THAT T H E I R SENSUAL A PPETITE BRI NGS THEM TO THESE M EANS. FOR I H A V E HEARD THEM SAY THAT A FT E R HAVING EATEN. THEY ARE SOMETI M E S

HOWEVER.

IF

THE

P RACTICE

DOES

NOT

I M PLY

DESI R E . ABSTENTION DOES NOT H I N D E R C A N N I BA L ISM FROM H A U NT I N G FEARS. THE LANGUAGE AND FROM

NOU R I S H I N G

P E RHAPS EVEN D R E A M S . O F LANGUAGE DESIGNATE. SEXUAL IS IN FRE THE

NON-C A N N I BA LS . QUENTLY FA M I L I A R

C U L I N A RY TO

FORC E D T O V O M I T .

THEIR

STO M A C H N O T B E I N G

E MPHASIZED OR A RGOT

CAPABLE OF DIGESTI NG IT." T H E S A M E M I SADVEN TU R E C A N H A P P E N TO TH E FATA LEKA. O F WHOM R. G U I D I E R I TELLS U S THAT TH E Y A R E C A N N I B A LS. NOT BY TASTE A N D FOR PLE A S U RE. BUT BY OBLIGATION. BY S U B M I SSION TO THE WILL OF A DEAD C H I E F WHO. THA N K S TO HIS CON S U M PTION OF A SACRIFICED

MODE.

R E LATIONS.

AND T H E USE O F NAMES OF M A N-EATI N G A N I M A LS OR OF COMESTI B L E S TO DESIGNATE THE LOVE

PARTN E R . TO E X P R E S S T H E F E A R OF B E I N G I N SOM E WAY D E VO U R E D BY H E R ("WHAT A T I G R E SS") OR TO FOR M U LATE A S E N S U A L ATTRACTION ("WHAT A N

VICTIM. ACCEDED TO T H E R A N K OF ANC ESTOR. TH I S S U B M I S SI O N FLESH IS IS DESERVI NG. AND B EC A U S E TO E AT HUMAN IT. THE

A PPETIZING C H ICK"). O N E COULD A D O THAT S E X U A L PLAY CAN CONTA I N C A N N I B A L I ST I C B E H A VI O R

DANGEROUS.

(BITING. SUCTION) . T H E R E I S NO DOUBT THAT TH E R E E X I ST S A N O R A L COM PON ENT OF S E X U A L DESI R E . AND IT IS THIS C O M PON E N T THAT PERMITS

FATA L E K A MUST S U R M O U N T A C E RTA I N AVERSION:

TH E VICTI M M U ST BE C O M P E LT E LY CONS U M ED. IF

O N E OF T H E CONVIVES VOMITS. H I S COM M E N SA LS M U ST COMPLETELY R E ABSORB WHAT H A S U N FOR TUNATELY C A N NOT BEEN R E J ECTED. THIS IDEA THAT O N E RISK IS.

C A N N I B A LISTIC LA N G U AGE. BUT-A N D TH I S I S WHAT WE WISHED TO SUGGEST IN THE PRECEDING NOT REDUCE

PA R A G R A P H -C A N N I B A L I S M I TS E L F TO O R A LITY. PHAGE IS NOT. IN

DOES

EAT

HUMAN

FLESH

WITHOUT

T H E A M O R O U S A N T H R OPO

MOREOVER. W I D E S P R E A D: I T I S A GOOD F OO D BUT TOO STRONG FOR ONE TO EAT I T PURE: T H E GUYAKI M U ST M I X IT WITH A VEGETA B L E FOOD: O N E COOKS I T I N RAGOUT W I T H HEA RTS OF PA L M . BESIDES. U N L I K E TH E S E X ACT. T H E C A N N I B A L A C T I S A LWAYS PUBLIC AND R I TUALIZED: TH E R E I S A LWAYS A N E L E M ENT. PERHAPS A CAPITAL ONE. A OF A COMPLEX THIS IS

H I S S E X U A L R ELATIONS. MORE

"OR A L" T H A N T H E NON-CA N N I BA L : NO MORE DOES HE D E VOU R H I S PARTN E R I HIS C A N N I BA LI S M E X I STS ON A NOTH E R GROU N D ENTI R ELY. A GROU N D OF

W H I C H THOSE PA RTS ARE

WHO DO NOT EAT T H E I R COUNTER I G N O R A NT. HE AND TO THIS IS WHY TH E

L A TT E R . FOR M E R .

WHE N

T R I ES DO IT

U N D E R STA N D TH E CON FOUN D I N G

C E R EMONY O F T E N

LIKE

FUNERAL.

C A N NOT

WITHOUT

E V I DE NTLY TR U E O F THE G U A Y A K I WHO EAT TH E I R D E A D A N D O F T H E FATA L E K A W H O EAT FOR TH E I R D E A D: IT IS A LS O TH E TUPI WHO EAT TH E I R

A N T H ROPOPHAGY A N D EXCESSI V E ORA LITY. FROM TH I S FACT. THE THE PROHI BITION M ET A PHORIC OF HUMAN OF FLESH CANNI NOT

L I B E R ATES BALISM:

USAGE ONE

P R I SONERS I N ORDER. A MONG OTH ER R EASONS. TO APPEASE THE SOU L O F A HAVE DECEASED R E LATI VE.

PRECISELY

BECAU S E

DOES

T R A N S G R E S S T H E P R O H I BITION. T H E R E P R E SENTA TIONS OF CANNIBALISM SERVE TO SIGNIFY

THESE C E R E M O N I E S DIVERSE

BEEN THE OBJECT OF DE S I R E FOR V E N

I N T E R PRETATION S :

A N OTH E R T H I NG. A N D NOT ONLY. I F OFTEN. O F A SEXUAL ORDER.

GEANCE. DESI R E TO A PP RO P R I ATE T H E QUA LITI ES

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SEXUAL

M ET A P H O R .

CANNIBALISM

CAN.

IN

BY M. A UG E E X PLA I N S I C K N ESS BY A N ANTH ROPO PHAGY EITH E R U N D E RGONE--CONS U M PTION O F TH E SICK ORG A N BY A SORCERER-QR I N VOLUNTA R I L Y PRACTICED A B SORPTION OF H U M A N F L E S H BY T H E BEWITC H E D PATI E NT. POLITI C A L AND RELIGIOUS

C U R R E NT OF AN

LANGU AGE. G I V E A N E XC E S S I V E I M AGE EXCESS (IN THE ORDER OF

ADMISSIBLE

T E N D E R N E S S FOR EXA M PL E l . I N M Y T H S A N D TALES. IT F U R N I S H E S MOST FREQU E NTLY A D I SQ U I ETING

I M AGE OF A N I NTOL E R A B L E EXCESS. SOM E STO R I E S A N ALYSED BY G. C A LA M E G R I A U L E M A K E A F I G U R E O F U N SO C I A L I Z E D S E X U A L I TY O U T OF EATI NG. A S WELL A S O F I T S P E R I L S O R S A N C T I O N S : ENDOCAN N I BA L I S M -EATI NG EXC E S S I V E WHICH O N E 'S KI N-EXPRESSES IS TO SAY AN

D I SORDER: T H E G R E E K C I TY. W R I T E S M . DETI E N N E. REPRESENTED ITSELF BY WAYS OF EATING. A N D "IT R E J ECTED W I T H O U T A M B I G U I TY" A C A N N I B A L I S M THAT IT S I T U AT E D AT THE CO N F I N E S OF ITS

H I STORY. I N A N A G E ANTERIOR T O H U M ANITY. O R TO TH E L I M ITS OF ITS SPACE. AMONG TH E PEOPLE WHO COMPOSE THE WORLD O F BARBA R I A NS. TH E VIEW IS NOT CONTRADICTED BY TH E MOVE M E NTS W H I C H I N G R E E C E ITSELF H A V E CONTESTED TH E SYSTEM OF VALUES WHICH E X P R ESSES IT BE THIS REJ ECTION : I NTO

ENDOGAMY. THE

THAT

I N C EST

M ENACES

I NTE R I O R OR TO

OF BE

SOC I ETY: EATEN BY

EXOC A N N I BA L I S M -TO

EAT

STRA N G E R S -R E S U LTS O N E X A GG E R A T E D SOC I A L GROUP E X OG A M Y FROM THE

T H E CONTRARY I N A N WHICH MENACES IT IS TH E THE

EXTERIOR.

CANNIBALISM.

WH ETH E R

I N TEGRATED

I M PR U D E N T U N I ON WITH T H I S S T R A N G E FOR E I G N E R WHO I S T H E SE D U CTI V E OGR E . T H E C A N N I BA L I STIC M ETAPHOR SERVES HERE TO C I RC U M S C R I B E THE

C E RTA I N D I O N YS I A N RITUALS I N ORDER TO PROVI D E DI RECT CONTACT W I T H THE S U PE R NATURAL. OR I T BE DEMANDED BY T H E C Y N I C S "TO A FF I R M TH E

FIELD OF ACC E PTABLE A L L I A N C E : BETW E E N THOSE I NELIGIBLE FOR M A R R I AG E BECAUSE TOO NEAR

RIGHTS OF T H E I N DI V I D U A L IN THE FACE OF SOCI ETY AND AGAI N ST A EVERY FORM MAKE OF MAN C I V I LIZA T I O N . " SAVAGE. FOR

A N D T H O S E I N E L I G I B L E FOR M A R RI A G E B ECA U S E TOO D I STANT. B U T I T C A N A LSO S E R V E TO E X P R E S S OTH E R O P POSITIONS WHICH D E TE RM I N E P E R M I S

REMAINS

MEANS TO

THOSE WHO CONTEST IT. A S WELL AS FOR THOSE WHO CONFORM. I T PLACES C U LTURE IN QUESTION. NOT ANOTH E R D E F I N ITION OF CULTURE.

S I B L E A N D FORBI DDEN M A R R I AG E S . OPPOSITION OF THE HUMAN AND THE I N H U M A N -B U T NOT THE

I N VERSE-WHICH C A N B E C ON S I D E R E D A S COI NCI D I N G W I T H THAT WHICH AND DETE R M I N ES C O M E STI B LE THE POLI T I C A L RULER TO AND HIS

THE USE OF T H E CAN N I BALI STIC M ETAPHOR. TH E REJ ECTION OF C A N N I BALISTIC

AND

PRACTICE

NON-COM ESTI BLE. OPPOSITION

RESTS. A S W E S E E . ON T H E I D E A T H A T C A N N I B A L I S M I S A N U N REGULATED B E H A VIOR. OF W H I C H D I V E R S E FO R M S - A U T O - E N DO- E X O - C A N N I B A L I S M - A R E O N LY TH E I R I NT E R C H A N G E A B L E OWN S I G N I FICATION. NOT THE V A R I ETI ES. IT POI NTS WITHOUT OUT "SA

ECONO M I C

OF

THE

SUBJ ECTS. O F W H I C H A N A L I M E N T A R Y C O M P A R I SON FOR M U LATES I N S U PPORTA B L E TENSION. T H E C H I E F "EATS" M E N . S A Y T H E H A D J E R A I . A N D TH E Y A R E NOT TH E O N L Y O N E S TO A F F I R M T H I S: ACTUA L LY. I T IS AGGRESSIVITY. MORE T H A N ORALITY. THE D E S I R E TO A BSORB. W H I C H IS M ETAPHORIZED.

VAGES."

BUT

I N DICATION

OF ANOTHER

C U LTURE. T H E V E R Y PROOF O F TH E ABSENCE OF C U LTURE. OR TH I S G E N E R A LIZED CAN N I BA L I S M . A PPEARS AS AN S U B OF

PRE-H U M A N .

I RR U PTION

ALL

THESE

VIRTUALITIES

OF

THE

A L I M ENTARY

NATURE IN THE BODY OF C U LTURE: IT EFFACES THE FRONTI E R S W H I C H SEPA RATE THE H U MAN WORLD FROM THE I N HUMAN WORLD. JUST AS I N C E ST

C O D E ( A N D N O T O N L Y TH E C A N N I BA L) A R E FOUND I N TH E A M ER I N D I A N MYTHOLOGY: T H E M YTH O LOGIES OF C. LEVI-STR A U S S G I V E S I N N U M E R A B L E E X A M PLES. IN WHICH THE STORY D E V E LO P S IN PLAYING ON

ABOL I S H E S T H E D I ST I N CTION W H I C H . I N THE BODY OF SOC I ETY. MAKE IT A NOTH ER THE TWO T H I NG THAN AN

HOMOLOG I E S

BETW E E N

DIFFERENT

CODES.

THUS

AMORPHOUS

MAGMA.

P R OH I B I T I O N S

TH E STORY OF A G I R L WHO. H A V I N G T A S T E D H E R O W N B LO O D - A U T OC A N N I B A L I S M - A L I M E N T A R Y I NC EST-FEELS MATE A REAL THE A RD E N T AND D E S I R E T O CONS U THIS F R U ST R A T E D

ORGA N I Z E TH E SOC I A L F I E L D CONJOI NTLY. TH E ONE DELI M ITING IT FROM THE OUTSI D E . THE OTH E R

ARTICULATING I T F R O M TH E I N S I DE.

I N C EST.

DESI R E RETRANSFORM S ITSELF I NTO A L I M ENTARY A PPETITE. I S TOO INSPIRED BY THE BODY O F A WE A R E B ROUGHT BACK TO F R E U D. A FACT WHICH IS NOT S U R P R I S I NG. SI NCE FREUD WAS C E RTA I N LY NO C A N N I BAL! BUT I T IS TIME TO ASK IF THIS I S HOW THOSE WHO ARE THI N K A N D ACT. WE I M MEDIATELY GIVE A RESPONSE THAT I S PERHAPS U N EXPECTED: THIS IS WHAT THEY TH I N K . BUT-A N D U N DOUBTEDLY FOR THIS-TH I S I S NOT WHAT THEY DO .

RETICENT BROTH ER: OR THAT OF T H E S U N-WOMA N . A C A N N I BA L . WHO A H ER O "TE M P E RS" A N D M A K E S M O R E C L E M E N T TOW A R DS M E N B Y POSS E S S I NG H E R WITH A PENI S M A D E OF I C E . F O R T H O S E W H O A R E L I M I T E D TO I M A G I N I NG IT. C A N N I B A L I S M I S T H U S A F I G U R E O F DISORDER. I N DI V I D U A L A N D B I O LOGICAL D I SORDER: T H E EBR I E AND T H E ALLADIAN STU D I E D

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F I R S T OF SELVES.

A L L.

WHAT

DO

THEY SEEM

TO TH E M

N O LACK OF R U LES. POS ITIVE O R N EGATIVE. NOR OF MORE O R LESS E LABORATE J USTI FI CATIONS. THIS HAS N OT H I N G TO DO WITH A GENERALIZED

THOSE W H O S E E M T O US T O BE C A N N I

B A L S 1 A C U R I O U S PROBLE M . A N D AT FI RST G L A N C E INCOMPR E H E N S I B L E : THEY TAKE O F F E N S E AT BEING TREATED AS EATERS-OF- M E N . THE C A N N I BA LS A R E ALWAYS THE OTH ERS. A N D T H E S E OTH E R S ARE

C A N N I B A L I S M . W H I C H . C O M P L E T E L Y U N ATTESTED AND E V E R YW H E R E D R E A DE D . IS PU RELY I M A

G I N A RY.

PRECISELY THE "SAVAGES." PEOPLE WITHOUT GOOD MAN NERS: F E R ENTLY. NEAR OR N E IG H BORS WHO BEHAVE D I F ONE SEES THAT REAL C A N N I BA L I S M OUGHT NOT TO EXC L U D E I M AG I N A R Y C A N N I B A L I S M . SINCE IT I S I N O P PO S I N G ITSELF THAT THE L A TT E R DEFI N E S

MYTHICAL

POPULATIONS-DI STANT IGNORANT OF ANY

IN T I M E AND

SPACE. WHO ARE

R U LES. NOTABLY THOSE OF M A R RIAGE AND OF DI ET. I N SHORT. I N C ESTUOUS C A N N I BA LS. TH E FATA LEKA. GUIDIERI TELLS US. "OPPOSE TO THEIR I NSTITU

ITSELF. O R . I F O N E P R E F E R S . T H E PROH I B ITION OF SAVAGE C A N N I BA L I S M DOES NOT EXC LUDE R E A L THE C A N N I BA L A N D TH E NON

C A N N I BA L I S M .

TIONALIZED C A N N I B A L I S M A SAVAGE C A N N I BALISM. . . . THIS C A N N I BA L I S M . W H I C H EXISTED BEFO R E THE SOC I ETY OF MEN . . . I S ATT R I B UTED TO AN ANCIENT PEOPLE OF THE I NTERIOR . . . (OF WHOM) CANNIBAL C U STOMS. STRONGLY R E P ROVED. A R E SYSTEMATI CA LLY OPPOS ED TO RITUAL PRACTICES." AS FOR TH E I ROQUOI S. OF WHOM U . CHODOW I E D SPEAKS.

C A N N I B A L JOI N I N CON D E M N I N G I N T H E S A M E WAY AND FOR T H E S A M E R E A SO N S AN U N R ESTRA I N E D C A N N I BA LI S M . EACH R E PR E S ENTS I N THE S A M E

W A Y TH I S I N A D M ISSABLE ANTH ROPOPHAGY. AND I N T H I S S E N S E O N E C A N S A Y THAT THEY RESPECT THE SAME PROH I BI T I O N : ON E C A N NOT EAT EVERYTH I NG. THE C O M ESTI B L E THE (OR IS N OT A LWAYS LIABLE TO

THEY PEOPLE TH E I R MYTHS WITH CHA RACTE RS WHO EAT ANYONE AT A LL-TH E I R NEAR KIN. IT IS

C O N S U M PT I O N . PROH I B ITIONS

PARALLELISM S I M PLY WITH

WITH

SEXUAL

MATRIMONIAL)

U N D E RSTOOD-A N D P E R H A PS EVEN THEM SELVES. AND PREPA R E D IN ANY WAY AT ALL-RAW. FOR

BECOMES E V I D E NT: O N E C A N NOT M A R R Y A N YO N E . ANY "KISSABLE" A P E R SO N IS NOT A L WA Y S THAT M A R IN IS

E X A M PLE-AND I T I S N ECESSARY TO DESTROY TH E M OR TO B R I N G TH E M T O R E A SON. T H A T I S T O T H E PROPER M A N N E R OF E A T I N G M E N . THE B A S I C M YTH OF THE CELEBRATED POLITICAL ASSOCIATION. "TH E FIVE NATIONS: FROM THE A I ROQUOI S. TELLS HOW MAN

RIAGEABLE. ANOTH E R

PARALLELISM

EXTENDS

D I R EC T I O N : P R I M ITIVE

SAVAGE

C A N N I BA L I S M

PA I R E D WITH

"PRO M I SC U ITY." O N E

AND

T H E OTH E R EQUALLY R EJ ECTED . . . A N D EQUALLY I M A G I N A RY. A PA R A LL E L I S M . F I N A LLY. THAT

PASSED

SAVAGE

MONSTROUS C A N N I BA

E M PLOYS C A N N I BA L I STIC M ETAPHORS.

L I S M TO I N STITUTION A L I Z E D . SOC I A LIZED. C A N N I BALISM. T H E G U Y A K I H A V E NO N E E D OF M YTHS TO CONDEMN CANNIBALISM: THEY EAT TH E I R OWN O N E WILL SAY THAT THERE R E M A I N S ' A N I R R EDU C I B L E DIFFERENCE BETWEEN T H E C A N N I BALS AND T H E OTH ERS: J U ST A S S E V E R E A S T H E FI RST C A N BE IN T H E I R CON D E M N ATION OF S A V A G E C A N N I

DEAD A N D IT I S WELL. BUT THEIR NEIGHBORS. THE GUAIANI. WHO KILL TH E I R E N E M I ES A N D EAT TH E M . G I V :;: AN EXAMPLE T O B E AVO! DED. T H E Y A R E TRUE: C A N N IBALS.

B A L I S M ; T H E F A C T I S T H A T T H E Y E A T M E N A N D THAT THE LATT E R

00 NOT. THIS APPEARS I NCONTEST

A B L E -E S P E C I A LLY TO US WHO G I V E C A N N I BA L I S M IN OTH E R WORDS. R E A L C A N N I BA L I S M EXOCA N N I BA LS. IS NEVER A G E N E R A L A N D S I L L Y D E F I N ITION; BUT THIS I S NOT SO S U R E . A S M . DETI E N N E SHOWS. ONE IS A LWAYS SOM E O N E ELSE'S C A N N I BAL; E V E RYTH I NG DEPENDS ON THE POI N T OF V I EW. I F. IN HIS A L I M ENTA R Y

U NORDERED: T H E

FOR . EXAM PLE.

DO NOT EAT T H E I R DEAD. AND THE ENDOC A N N I BALS WHO DO DO NOT EAT FOR E I G N E RS; THE VICT I M 'S SEX I S I M PORTANT TO C E RTA I N OF TH E M WHO ONLY EAT MALE I N D I VI D U A L S AND EXCLUDE TH I S WOM E N . WHILE THE BE

R EG I M E -"A PLAN OF P R I V I LEGED S I G N I FICATION TO D E FI N E TH E SYSTEM OF R E LATIONS BETWEEN M A N . NATURE. AND THE S U P E R N A T U R A L" FOR THE

OTH ERS

D O N O T TA K E MAY BE

INTO ACCOUNT; BUT IT MAY

P R ACTI C E

G E N E R A L.

G R E E KS - M A N M UST PLACE H I M S E L F SOM EWH E R E " B E TW E E N B EASTS AND IS GODS," A AND IF TH E OF

R E SERVED FOR C E RTA I N CATEGO R I ES OF I N D I VID U A LS; THE CON S U M M ATION. M A Y BE COMPLETE OR NOT; THE D I STRI BUTION OF PARTS MAY BE

ANTH ROPOPHAGY A L L E LO P H A G Y . ONE

O N LY

MODALITY

R I S K S B E I N G I N E V I T A B LY A

A LEATORY O R REGULATED; TH E FUTU RE VICTIM MAY H A V E H I S WORD TO SA Y. AS WITH THE FORE WHO CUT U P THE DEAD I N EATING TH E M , OR THE MORIBUND MAY " D ET E R M I N E WHICH OF HIS KIN W I LL BE

LITTLE BIT O F A C A N N I BAL, S I N C E ONE C A N NOT BE CONTENT A R O M AT I C LIKE THE GODS. IN THE WITH EYES SMOKE OF AND

ODORS.

STRICT

PYTHAGO R I A N S . C A R N A L A L I M E NTATION I S A FORM O F A NTH ROPOPHAGY. AND THOSE THAT ACC EPT A CO M P R O M I S E " D EC I D I NG T H A T C E R TA I N SAC R I F I CIAL VICTI MS-PIGS A N D GOATS - A R E NOT.

A U THOR IZED TO TASTE HIS FLESH." THE M ETHODS O F COOKI N G AND OF P R E P A R ATION VARY AS WELL FROM ONE GROUP TO A NOTH ER. I N BRIEF T H E R E I S

SB

PROPERLY A C T U A LLY

S P E A K I NG . IS THE

M E AT. OF

AND

THAT

M EAT

HAVE

TIES OF K I N S H I P. AT THE S A M E T I M E. T H E Y EAT T H O S E FATH ERS WITH WHICH THEY C A NNOT

FLESH

FARM COWS. THE

C A NNOT

SLAUGHTER O F W H O M I S T H E OBJECT O F A FOR M A L PROH I BITION." T H I S R ESTRICTION I S EXPLA I N E D B Y TH E CLOS E N E S S O F C O W A N D M A N : F U N D A M E NTAL LY M EAT IS MORE OR LESS M A N . A N D AS ROUSSE A U ALSO THOUGHT (SEE EMILEI. E V E R Y C A R N I VO R E I S A C A N N I BAL. AT LEAST POTEN T I A LLY.

COPULATE:

AND MOTHE R S DO NOT EAT

T H E I R SONS AND DAUGHTE RS. AND RECI PROCA LLY: BROTHER H ERE. AND S I STER DO NOT EAT THE TWO EACH OTH E R . PROH I B I T I O N S

C O N S E Q U E NTLY.

COM B I N E A N D H A V E THE S A M E B R E A DTH. S I N C E T H E NOMENCLATURE OF K I N S H I P S U F F I C E S T O I N DICATE WHO CAN OF AND AN C A NNOT BE EATEN. ONE COULD OF

C A N NIBALISM THUS DOES NOT E X I ST. EXCEPT IN THE I M A G I N AT I O N . CA N N I B ALS N EG A T I O N PHANTASM AND ONE ENCOUNTERS T H E MSELVES ONLY THE THI S IN A

SPEAK

" E L E M E NT A R Y EVEN KINSHIP WHEN AND

S T R U CT U R E THEY ARE

CANNIBALISM." D E T E R M I N ATES.

N OT

WHO OF IS

DEFINE

BY

A LL I A N C E

OFTEN

THI S

PHANTASM.

SINCE R EAL.

FURNISH A LANGUAGE FOR C A N N I B A L I S M : WITH I N A GROUP. THE TUPI. K I N OR NOT. ALLI E S O R NOT. NON E ATE EACH OTH E R : THOSE THAT T H EY ATE THEY

I MA G I N E D B Y A L L A S

SUPPOSED ELSEWHERE. ONE C A N SAY THAT NO O N E IS A C A N N I B A L. TO BE BUT. HIS LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.

C A LLED "BROTH ERS-IN-LAW." M ETA PHORI Z I N G THE NON-C A N N I BALS I NVERSELY. I ROQUO I S D I D NOT EAT I ROQUOIS. E V E N THOSE OF ANOTH E R NATION: TH E I R V I CTI M S WERE FO R E I G N E RS; HOWEVE R FROM THE

ACCOR D I N G R EG I M E. OTH E R S . CAN ONE

EFFECTIVE A

A L I MENTARY

J U OG E D SAY

C A N N I BA L B Y T H E AS W E LL T H A T

COULD

J UST

EVERYONE I S O N E .

P R I SO N E R S T H A T T H E Y B R O U G H T

THE I R

EXPEDITIONS W E R E THE OBJECT O F A CHOICE. O N E F I N A LLY. THE E R RO R N O T T O B E COMMITTED I S THAT OF CONTENTI N G ONESELF WITH A M A T E R I A L. ATE T H E M OR O N E ADOPTED THEM. A N D T H O S E THAT WERE EATEN WERE THUS THOSE W ITH WHOM O N E

BIOLOGICAL D E F I NI T I O N OF C A N N I BA L I S M : TO EAT MEN. OR TO R ECONS I D E R THE E X A M P L E OF THE

D I D N O T W I S H TO FORGE A L I N K OF K I N S H I P. I N T H E T H I R D CASE. ONE E A T S R E A L OR POTENTI A L A LLIES. T H I S I S I N EVITABLE FOR THE G U Y A K I . S I N C E THE O N LY PEOPLE EXCLUDED FROM TH E RITUAL WERE THE FATH E R AND M OT H E R . THE SON AND TH E

GREEKS. A FLESH ESTI MATED TOO C LO S E TO THAT OF MAN. I F THE FLESH OF T H E F A R M COW M UST NOT BE C ON S U M E D . TH I S IS NOT B EC A U S E OF ANY

EFFECTIVE R E S E M BLANCE. I N TASTE FOR EXAM PLE. WITH THAT OF M A N . I T IS B EC A U S E OF T H E QUASI SOCI A L STATUS OF T H E A N I M A L S I M I LA R LY. IF ONE FORBIDS ONESELF T H E E A TI NG OF ONE'S KIN. BUT O N E EATS STRA NGERS. T H I S IS NOT BECAUSE THE LATTER A R E MORE D E LECTABLE. IT IS BEC A U S E

DA UGHTER . THE BROTH E R OR THE S I STER OF THE DEAD PERSON. FOR TH E TUPI. IT W A S A POSSI B I LITY EXPRESSED E N E MY BY THE LANGUAGE; WHICH THE WOM E N HAD OF

GROUPS

FROM

ONE

TA K E N

P R I SO N E R S

FOR T H E

P U R POSE O F EATI NG THEM

COULD BE M A R R I ED. FOR THE I ROQUOIS. TH E GROUP THAT O N E TOOK P R I SO N E R WAS A L SO THAT FROM WHICH ONE BROUGHT IN BACK FULL P EO P L E . R IGHT IN WHO. THE

THE FORM E R I S NOT D O N E . FOR A SOCIOLOG I C A L R E A S O N . C A N N I B A L I S M I S A W A Y OF TH I N K I N G M O R E THAN A WAY OF E A T I N G . THUS. J UST A S I NCEST A N D C O R R E L A T I V E LY THE A UT H O R I Z E D ALLIANCE

A DOPTED.

ENTERED

M ATRI M ON I A L F I E LD: THOSE ADOPTED COU L D H A V E B E E N EATEN J UST A S THOSE E A T E N C O U L D H A V E B E E N ADOPTED. T H E R E AGA I N THE M ETAPHORICAL AND REVERSIBLE L I A I SO N OF CA N N I BA L I S M AND

FORM A LLY DEFI N E S ITSELF B Y T H E G E N E A LOG I C A L POSITION OF TH E P A R T N E R . T H E PROH I B I TION A N D PRESC R I PTION O F C A N N I BA L I S M DEFI N E S ITSELF

FOR M A LLY BY THE SOC I A L POSI TION O F HIM WHO M U ST BE EATEN. TH E AS FOR I NCEST AND THE

SEXUALITY I S EASI LY U N D ERSTOOD.

A L L I A N C E.

V A R I A B I LITY O F THE

PROHIBITED

IN FACT. WHAT IS DETE R M I N I NG FOR TH E I ROQUOIS AND THE TUPI IS TO LESS A KINSHI P THAN THE

F I ELD EXPLAI N S T H E M U LT I P L I C I TY O F SYSTEMS.

A P P A R TE N A N C E

POLITI C A LLY

DEFINED

GROUP. A N D T H E PERTI NENT OPPOSITION I S T H U S ONE W I L L FIND. I N THIS R E V I EW. SO M E EXAMPLES WHICH GIVE AN I DEA-A FOR E T A ST E -O F THAT T H A T OF E N DOCA N N I B A L I S M . I L LUSTRATED B Y THE GUYAKI. AND EXOC A N N I BA LI S M . I L L U STRATED BY

WHICH C O U L D B E A G E N E R A L T H EORY OF C A N N I BALISTIC STR U C T U R E S . THE V A R I ANTS M UST BE

THE OTH E R TWO POPULATIONS. I T IS U N D E R STOOD THAT THESE NOTI O N S ARE RELATIVE. AS ARE

O R D E R E D SI M U LT A N EOUSLY ACCOR D I N G TO M A N Y A X E S . T H A T OF K I N S H I P . N A T U R A LLY: T H E G U Y A K I EAT THE B E LO N G DEAD AND IN THE GROUP TO WHICH BECAUSE TH E Y ITS

THOSE OF EXOGAM Y A N D EN DOGAM Y. TWO G RO U PS THAT WAGE W A R P E R IODICALLY. BOTH PRACTI C I NG C A N N I BA L I S M WITH TH E I R PRISONERS ARE

WITH

WHICH.

OF

EXOCA N N I B A LS. BUT CONSIDERED I N TH E L I G H T OF TH E I R COM M U N A L H I STORY. DO THEY NOT FOR M A

EFFECT I V E WEAK N ESS. T H E Y A L MOST I N EVITABLY

!lEI

S I N G LE. E N OOCA N N I B A L GROUP7 THE TUPI SEEM TO BE CONSCIOUS OF TH I S : T H E V A LOROUS WARRIOR. ON T H E POI N T OF BEING EATEN. N E V E R FAILS TO R E M I N D H I S TORTU R E R S OF HOW M A N Y OF T H E M H E HAD EATEN I N T H E PAST. A N D THAT THOSE WHO

L I V I NG

B E I NG

THAT

ONE

EATS

RAW;

CA N N I B A L

PEOPLES H A V E B E E N D I SCUSSED. B U T O N E SAYS NOTHI N G A BO U T T H E E V E N T U A L D I V I SION BETW E E N COM M E N SA LS. O N T H E CONTRARY. T H E SECON D. I S REGULATED CON S U M PTION --<lFT E N T A K I N G PLACE IN A VERY E L A BO R A T E R I T U A L-OF A C OO K E D

WERE PREPARI NG TO DINE AT HIS EXPENSE WERE GOI N G TO REC UPERATE TH E I R C A N N I B A LIZED DEAD BY I NGESTING SAID HIM. VENGEANCE. I NC I T E D THEM WHICH TO T H E TUPI THEIR

C A D A V E R O F W H I C H C E RTA I N ORGANS C O U L D B E RESERVED GORIES OF OR FOR B I D D E N TO C E RTA I N CATE

EXPLICITLY

EAT

PERSONS. T H E CON S U M PTION G E N E R

E N E M I ES. W A S A LSO A R E C U P E RATIO N .

A L L Y IS TOTAL. O N L Y T H E BONE S B E I N G THROWN AWAY; THE CANNIBAL STI LL. IS A L M OS T IN THE A LW A Y S A

IT I S A L S O NECESSARY T O TAKE I NTO ACCO U N T THE M A N N E R I N WHICH T H E O N E WHO I S EATEN DIED: FROM A NATU RAL O R A VIOLENT DEATH. OR FROM THE H A N D OF THOSE WHO H E I S GOI NG TO NOURISH. THE E N DOC A N N I BA LS. EVIDE NTLY. DO NOT KILL TO EAT. AND EVEN. S I NC E ONE ON LY K I L LS ONE'S

C A R N I VO R E .

SOME.

O P PO S I T I O N

BETW E E N F L E S H A N D BONES. PRIZE T H E LATT E R . T H E Y A N O M A M I . LET TH E F L E S H OF T H E C A D A V E R D E C A Y . T H E N C L E A N A N D P U L V E R I S E T H E BON E S W H I C H T H E Y E A T M I XE D W I T H A B A N A N A P U R E E . T H E C U I S I N E. PROPER LY S P E A K I NG. I S N O T T H E S A M E

E N E M I ES. DO NOT EAT THOSE THEY H A V E K I LLED: TH E Y TUPI EAT TH E I R AND "DEAR DEPA RTED." THAT I N V E R S E LY. IT IS NOT

A L L O V E R . A N D W I T H O U T A DO U BT T H E SYSTEM OF C A T E GO R I E S E L A BO R A T E D BY CLAUDE LEVI

I ROQ U O I S

EXPLAIN

STR A U S S WOULD B E A P P LICABLE H E R E TOO. WITH R E G A R D TO T H I S . T H E TORTU RES ENDURED B Y T H E VICTI M S B E FO R E TH E I R E X ECUTION SHOULD N O T B E N EG LECTED: WAY BACK. AFTER THE THEIR EXPEDITIONS. ON THE

N EC E SSARY T O EAT T H E L I V I NG. O R T H E PEOPLE WITH WHOM ONE LIVES-TH I S IS "SAVAGE"

C A N N I BA L I S M -BUT I T I S F I R ST N ECESSARY T O K I L L ( E N E M I E S. CON S E Q U E NTL Yl A N D T H A T O N E C A N E A T THOSE T H A T O N E HAS K I L LED-TH I S IS POLIC E D

I ROQ U O I S

I N F LICTED ATROC IOUS

TREAT M E N T O N TH E I R P R I SONERS; P E R H A PS ONE M U ST S E E I N T H E S E TORTU R E S A SORT O F C U I S I N E . PRACTICED. O N E COU L D SAY. I N A NTICI PATION.

CA N N I BA L I S M . AT T H E S A M E T I M E . T H I S D O E S NOT M E A N THAT THE I ROQUOIS M A D E WAR S I M PLY TO K I L L AND EAT: THEY FOUGHT TO TA K E PRISONERS. AND THEY TOOK PRISONERS WITH TH E P U R POSE OF A DOPTI NG A GOOD N U M B E R ; I N FACT. I ROQUOIS OF PURE STR A I N WERE QUITE RARE. THE DEMOG R A PH IC AND THUS POLI T I C A L I M PO R T A N C E O F TH E FROM THE SYSTE

F I N ALLY. AND E V I DENTLY. RELIGION. TH E CONCEP TION O F T H E WORLD A N D MAN. SHOULD B E T A K E N I NT O CONSIDERATION. THAT T H E THE EXAMPLE OF R. OF THE

FATA L E K A . M AKES. POI NT IS OF

A N ALYSIS

GUIDIERI

I ROQUOIS MATIC WAS

FEDE RATION

CAME

PARTICULARLY REVEALING FROM THIS VIEW. IN BE EVERY CASE. IN A PEOPLE AND

USAGE OF TH I S M ETHOD; ON THE WHOLE IT RESI D U ,l LS WHO WERE EATEN. THOSE

THE

THINGS

M U ST

PLACED

C O R R ECTLY

THAT WERE N'T WANTED.

AS FOFl T H E TUPI. THEY

O R D E R E D WOR L D: P A R E NTS. A L L I E D A N D FOR E I G N . GODS. MEN AND A N I M A LS . BE DEAD AND L I V I NG. "TH E

KI L L E D AND ATE A L L THEIR P R I SONERS. BUT A FT E R SO LONG A DELAY THAT O N E COU LD NO LONGER CONSIDER EX ECUTION. HAD BEEN THEM. AS AT THE M O M E NT OF THEIR THEY TEM NO

CANNIBALISM GROUP MAKES OF

C A N NOT

I SOLATED F R O M

R E P R E S E NT A T I O N S T H A T SOC I ET Y ITSELF AND FOR OTH E R S . " (M.

S I M PLY

C A PTURED

ENEMY; IF

FOR

I NT E G R A T E D . I N TO THE

E F F E CT I V E LY.

DETA I N N El. I T I S A C U LT U R A L PHENOM ENON.

PO R A R I L Y .

G RO U P .

THEY WERE

LON G E R A N YON E I N PARTI C U L A R ; O N E WOU L D H A V E L I K E D . W R I T E S H . C LASTRES. ''TH EM T O H A V E B E E N MUCH B E TT E R DETE R M I N E D . " MOREOVER. THE

THAT

IS

WHY.

FOR

H ON O R A B L E

C A N N I BA L I S M .

THOSE W H O PRACTICE IT OPPOSE A C A N NI B A L I S M T H A T I S DISHONORABLE. SO M UC H SO THAT. O N C E THE M I S U N D E R S TA N D I NG S AND A R E DISSI PATED. JOI N IN CON

M U R DERER WAS T H E ONLY O N E NOT TO PA RTICI PATE I N T H E D I N N E R . I T WOU L D THUS BE SI M PLISTIC TO SAY THAT O N E K I LLS TO EAT.

C A N N I BA LS

N O N -C A N N I B A LS

D EM N I NG I T IN T H E N A M E OF T H E S A M E P R I N C I PA LS OR ORDER AND OF THE PRECISE D E L I M ITATION

TH E PASSAGE FROM SAVAGE AND

MYTHIC C A N N I

BETW E E N N A T U R E A ND C U LTURE.

B A L I S M T O SOC I A LIZED C A N N I BA L I S M I NC I T E D T H E I N VENTION OF C U L I N A RY P R E PA RATION A N D TABLE M A N N ERS. T H E FI RST I S TH E SOLITA R Y EATING OF A JEAN POUI LLON

60

APPE N D I X

N A NGUY TOH I : K I LLED AGOUSSI-BRI A N D H E R C H I L D YUEMIN . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ( 2 ) T H E D I O U LA S K I L L E D 6 PERSONS WHOSE N A M E S I DO NOT K NOW . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . (2)

OFFICE OF T H E S E C RETA R Y O F PRO P H ET ATCHO A LB E RTS A S SOC I AT I O N B R EGBO P.O. 2 5. B I N G E R V I LLE R E P U B L I C OF T H E IVORY COAST

BUEGRE-B R I :

KILLED

A G O U A TC H A

GOUA

AND

A KOUATC H A YOUA . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . (2) KOFFI KPA: KILLED N ' M LOUYA AND A N EW-BO R N

C H I LD W I T H O U T N A M E . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . (2) Y ESSI MOBIO BOTTY: K I LLED TWO O F A M I A N - M I N'S

AUGUST 22,

1 954

C H I L D R E N : BEUGRE, T H E OTH E R'S NAME I 00 NOT KNOW . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . (2)

D I A BOLI C A L CONFESSION THAT I S , NAME: LOGA I D J U I SEX: FEMALE V I LLAGE: ABIGJAN-ADJ A M E RACE: E B R I E RELIGION: HARRIS SUMMARY: THEREFORE I K I L L E D . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 5 PERSONS MY ASSOCIATES K I L L E D . , . . . . . . . . . . . . . 1 8 PERSONS WHICH M EA N S A LTOGETHER . . . . . . . . . . 2 3 PERSONS K I LLED 1 B PERSONS K I LLED BY MY ASSOC I ATES

"LET THE A U D I E N C E K N O W T H A T THI S PASSAGE I S NOT COMMON: CASE." IT I S EXCLUSIVELY A D I A BOLICAL DAMAGES AND M I SD E E D S

I D R I N K H U M A N B L OO D A N D I EAT H U M A N F L E S H . I , LOGA I D J U I , W A S T E M PT E D BY T H E I O P E N LY DEC L A R E THAT I A M A D E V I L. ENDED DEVILS AND I

UP EATING T H E I R M EAT, FROM THAT VERY

DAY, I H A V E STA Y E D WITH THEM I N ORDER TO DO BY WAY OF MY D I A BOLICAL ACTIVITY I K I LLED M Y EVERYT H I N G A N D EAT W I TH THEM.

O W N MOTH E R, M Y O L D E R BROTH E R N'GBA D J U I , M Y BROT H E R J E A N N A N TC H IO, M Y S I S T E R A K R A I WHO HAD JUST GIVEN B I RTH, A N D M Y SON AKE G U I A N I . THERE ARE

1 0 OF

US

DEVILS

A SSOC I A T E D

IN

ORDER TO EAT: 7 E B R I E S A N D 3 D I O U LAS, EACH OF U S MUST GIVE TWO PERSONS ACCOR D I NG TO OUR

T H A T I S , 5 P E R S O N S K I LL E D.

AGREEM E NT.

H E R E A R E MY ASSOCI ATES' N A M ES:

MY C H I L D D J A N N E A N D DJOMAN-BIE WERE G I V E N U P TO T H E D E V I L S B Y M E . I CHOSE DJOM AN-BIE T O B E K I LLED FI RST, A N D T H E N M Y C H I LD D J A N N E .

1 . A H l M A N LOBA
2. MOMO GBEKRAI 3, NANGUY TOH I 4 . TH R E E D I O U LAS WITHOUT N A M E S 5 . B E UGRE-BRI

I CONVERTED MYSELF I NTO A M A N TO SLEEP W I T H D J A KO- B I E , THAT IS WHY SHE C A N NOT HAVE

6. KOFFI A K PA 7, YESSI MOBIO

CH I LD R E N A N Y M O R I!:.

I THAT I S , 9 PERSONS A S S OC I A T E D.

SOLD

DJOKE-BRI'S

PLANTATIO N .

SHORTLY

THEREA FT E R I G A V E U P T H I S PLANTATION.

THE PERSONS K I LL E D BY MY ASSOCI ATES:

ONCE I WANTED TO GO AND TAKE D J OM A N - B I E BY FORCE. TO GIVE HER TO THE D E V I LS . I FOU N D TWO

AHlMAN

LOBA:

KILLED

A TO B I O- M O B I O

WHO

WAS

P R I E STS IN DJOKE-BRI'S Y A R D. THESE TWO P R I ESTS T U R N ED ME. ME AWAY WITHOUT SAYING A N YTHI N G TO

PREGNA NT, ALOKE D J E B A . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . , (2) MOMO N ' B EGZA I : KILLED A N NO H AND A NOTH E R

FROM THAT M O M ENT, MY I LL N E S S HAS G ROWN

WHOSE N A M E I DO NOT K NOW , . . "

. . . . . , . . . . . . . . . (2)

STRONGER.

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I GAVE SOME D I S E A S E S TO A L MOST E V E RYBODY I N TH I S COU RT. EXC E PT D I E K E A N D R E . Y E ZOU DJAKO. A N D M Y BROTH E R DJO M A N .

AT A COME

TI M E I TO

WANTED PEOPLE IN M R.

M Y V I LLAGE TO

TAKE

ATC H O A LB E RT'S WATER OF

BLESSING. NOW I A M NOT PLEASED WITH TH I S WATER B EC A U S E I T TA K E S AWAY FROM U S THE W A Y OF

ONCE.

TR I E D T O GO A S A

DEVIL TO HARM

MY

EATING AND DOI NG WHAT WE WANT.

H U S BAND. BUT G O D D I D N O T G I V E ME A W A Y . I D I D S O BEC A U S E ONCE H E C H A S E D A FTER A WOM A N . OF WHICH I A M NOT PLEASED. T H I S I S WHY I A M A LWA YS ILL WHEN I STAY AT HIS HOUSE. WHEREAS I AM REALLY A D E V I L AND I SEE E V ERYTH I NG THAT THE D E V I L S O F M Y V I LLAGE DO. AND E LS E W H E R E TOO.

ELSEWH E R E I A M A LWAYS W E LL. M R. ATC H O A L B E RT. I BESEECH YOU. P R A Y FOR MY ON THE OTH E R HAND I DO N OT L I K E A H I BA K E S A K E SO THAT I FORGOT TO PRAY FOR SAY MY F I N A LLY RECOVER A N D-WHAT I TOO-A SK GOD TO FORG I V E M E . S A KE. SO THAT I CAN FORGET

A H O B R I AT A L L A N D I A LWAYS TAKE H E R BLOOD. MY D E V I L D I S L I K E S ONLY THIS GI RL.

E V E R YTH I N G T H A T N O W H A P P E N S THROUGH T H E TH E H A R R I S A POSTLES U PSET M E . THEY DECLARED THAT WE WHO HAD NOT C O N F E S S E D GOI NG AND TO IN TH E I R WOU L D FROM D E V I LS.

PRESENCE NEVER

B E FO R E

BR E GBO RETURN

I DO NOT WANT TO S E E TH E M ANY LONG E R . I A S K

E V E RYBODY I N M Y V I LLAGE.

R E C OV E R .

WOULD

BR E GBO S U F F E R I NG F R O M THE S A M E I LLNESSES. I AM V E R Y U PS E T. I D E C I D E D TO MAKE A D E V I L OF MYSELF TH E M IN SO THAT I ORDER WOULD B E R E P R I M A N DED BY IN TH I S (SIGN E D ) : LOGA I D J U I TRAN SLATED B Y P . ZOBERMAN

TO F I N D A

WAY TO DIE

RELIGION.

TH E SO N N ET O F THE HOLE IN THE ASS

PAUL VERLAINE OFTE N MY S O U L W I L L Y E A R N FOR A FUCK WITH FLESH. AND I T TA K E S I T FOR ITS D A N K EST D R I PSTONE. ITS D A R K A N D P U C K E R E D L I K E A VIOLET ROSE IT PULSES. H U M BLY H I DD E N A M I DST THE MOSS. STILL DAMP FROM LOVE THAT TRICKLES SOFT A LONG WHITE T H I G H S RIGHT TO ITS LIP. INVENIT N EST O F T H R O B B I N G S I G H S.

FECIT

I T S T H E O P E N O L I V E I N ECSTA SY, T H E BLOWN FLUTE IN T H E A I R :

LITTLE DROPS LIKE T E A R S OF MILK HAVE W E PT. B E N EATH T H E ZEPHYR BLOWING C R U EL. U PO N THE PEBBLES OF A U B U R N M A R L. O B E Y I NG T H E SLOPE A N D H E E D I NG ITS C A LL. A R TH U R R I M BA U D

I T S THE C E LESTI A L T U B E DO W N W H I C H A L L FONDANTS F R E E L Y FLOW, F E M A L E C A N A A N F I R M L Y MOIST A N D F I L L E D WITH PROM I S E D E E P.

P A U L V E R LA I N E A N D A R TH U R R I M B A U D OFTEN M Y MOUTH I S P R ESSED AGA I NST I T S HOLE. TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE

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COPROPHAGY A N D U R I N OLOGY
I WISH TO I NTRODUCE THI S MOST EXTR E M E TR U E LOW N ESS OF BEI NG. IT I S V E R Y PEC U L I A R TO THE SUPE RIOR TO R E A L I ZE TH E S L A V E WORS H I PS H I S OR H E R WASTE MORE THAN A N Y G OO D Q U A LITY. THE SUPERIOR CAN HE TA K E OR NO PRIDE IN SUCH TH E I R

FETI S H I S M B Y R E M I N D I NG T H E S U P E R I O R O F THE OCCA SION TH E I R WHEN SHE OR HE UP M A Y H A V E NOTIC E D THEY HAVE

SLAVE

PICKING

CRUMBS

DROPPED ON T H E FLOOR A N D EATI NG T H E M . T H E SA M E P R I N C I PLE I S AT W O R K H E R E -TH E S U B M I S S I V E SOUL THAT C L I NGS TO E V E R YTH I NG. EVEN THE LEAVI NGS OF HIS B E LOVED S U PERIOR.

SLAVES.

U N LE S S

SHE

REGARDS

PRODUCTS WITH T H E SA M E GLAMORIZED E Y E S A S T H E MASOC H I ST. T H U S DOES TH E I R W A STE BECOME THE LOW L Y ' S O N E N O U R I S H M E NT : TH E I R F I LT H

C L E A N S E S THE S L A V E : T H E I R FOU L N E S S S E E M S A AFTER A SLAVE H A S FANTASIZED H I M S E L F AS A N A N I M A L. A PET. T H E N A W O R M . SUB-H U M A N . A N D R A R E PERFUME. IN T H I S POOR WAY. AS WELL. DOES T H E SLAVE I NGEST. A N D SO POSESS. H I S B E LOVED SUPERIOR.

MOVES O N T O ACTI N G L I K E F U R N I T U R E A N D BEING INVISI BLE. HIS PRIDE DRIVES HIM O N TO MORE LOW L I N E SS LOG I C ALL

ELA BORATE AND

I N D E N T I F I C A T I O N S W I TH HIS

THUS

DOES

THE

M A SOC H I S T

SEEK

OUT

HIS

S E LF - E F F A C E M E N T . MAKE SLAVE HIM

I NVERTED

VI LENESS THROUGH H I S CONCENTRATION O N WHAT IS COM M O N L Y REGA RDED AS THE MOST VILE

SEEKS TO OTH ERS. A

S U B M I SS I V E

B E YO N D

A MONG SLAVES. HE

A N D WORTH THIS END. HE

SUBSTA N C E O N E A RTH. B U T FECES A N D U R I N E ARE TH E RAW IN MATE R I A L THIS FOR A LL THAT EXI STS NO AND

LESSNESS AND

PERSONI FI E D. UTTE R LY

ATTA I N S

B E CO M E S

D I S G U ST I N G .

WHEN

G R O WS

W O R L D-TH E Y THEY A RE

ARE

MORE

PROFESSES HIS A M BITION AND ATTRACTION TO BE AS ONE W I TH THE FECES AND URINE OF THE

WO N D E R F U L SLAVE

THAN

D I S G U ST I N G -T H E A TO COCOON CARRY OF HIS

D E VO U T L Y SACKS

PREPARES BOXES

SUPERIOR.

PLASTIC

AND

PRECIOUS SACRA M E N T H O M E WITH H I M. TH ESE SU BSTA NCES. U N EQ U I VOCALLY REGA R D E D AS HORRID. A R E R E V E R E D A N D SOUGHT A FTE R B Y THE M ASOC H I ST AS THE SOURCE OF H I S TRUE TH E SLAVE D E I F I E S THESE SUBSTA N C E S. GIVING

TH E M SUCH NAMES AS "GOLDEN E L I X I R." "SHOWER OF SWEETN ESS." A N D SUCH LIKE. H E M A Y D E VOUR

IDENTITY. H I S CONTACT W I T H T H E M C O N F I R M S H I S

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TH E M OR M E R E LY HOLD T H E M IN HIS MOUTH FOR A SPAS MODIC I N STANT B E FORE SPITTING THEM OUT. TH I S BEHAVIOR IN C R E ATES SUCH REVULSIVE

S: WILL YOU PLEASE WATCH M E CLEAN OUT TH E U R I N A LS WITH MY TONGUE?

CO N T E M PT

THE

SUPERIOR

FOR T H E W E A K

M: WOM EN DON'T USE U R I NALS, I DIOT.

ADO R A TION O F T H E SLAVE THAT T H E SUBMISSIVE M U ST B E PREPARED TO DO A BSOLUTELY ANYTHING TH E S U PERIOR MAY THEREAFTER COM M A N D H I M TO DO. BUT THE SUPERIOR MAY C ERTAI N LY B E AT A LOS S . AS NO DEGREDATION CAN S U R PASS THIS M : YOU'RE THE TYP E WHO T H I N KS IT WOULD BE HEAVEN TO H A V E H U N D R E DS O F ST R A N G E
5: I'M SORRY, M I STRESS. I'M J U ST A TOILET,

ON E . IT IS ADVISED TO AVOI D I NDULGING TH E SLAVE SO THAT H E R E M A I N S I N A STATE OF CONSTANT LO N G I N G

WOM EN SQUATTI NG OVER YOU R FACE, EVERY DAY, U S I N G YOU A S TH E I R SEWER. ADMIT IT,

VI LENESS. T H E TOI LET-SLAVE ENJOYS B E I N G R E F E R R E D T O A S JUST T H A T PIECE OF BATH ROOM FURNITURE. AND MAY B E LEFT H A PPILY CHAINED TO IT FOR HOURS, R E A DY AND WILLING AT ALL TI MES TO RECEIVE A DOSE OF H I S BELOVED COM M U N ION. M : (KICKS H I M ) DON'T SAY "MY" M I STRESS. I OWN YOU, T H ING. AS FOR KISSING EVEN THE BOTTOM ONE MAY MAKE A M I NOR DISTI NCTION IN TH E CASE O F T H E A F F I C I O N A DO O F " G O L D E N SHOW E R S." TH E R E IS A SENSUOUS A P P E A L IN TH E COU RSING OF THE A HOT LIQU I D OVE R THE BODY-AS WELL, SLAVE IS NOT SO F I LT H -O B S E S S E D OF MY SHOE, YOUR MOUTH IS TOO DI RTY. WHO K NOWS WHAT YOU'VE BEEN LICKING TODAY, THE GUTTERS LESSLY. DISEASES. YOU I C R A W L ABOUT WANT TO IN,
SO

S: ITS TRUE. OH PLEASE, PLEASE, LET M E K I SS YOUR B E AUTI F U L ASS, MY M I STRESS,

SHAME YOU R

DON'T

C A TC H

SUCH

BECAUSE ( I ) U R I N E I S STER I L E A N D ( 2 ) THE FLOW M A K E S IT S E E M FRESH AND LIVE, L I K E A FLOW OF BLOOD. BUT BOTH THESE SCATOLOGICAL FETISHES A R E MOST I L LUSTRATIVE IN TH E FACT THAT ALL FETIS H I S M I S A FORM OF N ECROP H I LIA-A LOVE M: S I L E N C E I KEEP YO U R D EG R A D E D LU STS TO S: PLEASE M I STRESS, U S E M E AS YOUR TOILET,

PISS ON ME. I WANT TO EAT YOUR S HIT.

A N D ATTRACTION TO WHAT I S DEAD.

YOU R S ELF, BESI DES, GOOD FOR YOU.

M Y PRODUCTS ARE TOO FOOD I EAT I S VERY

TH E

EXPEN S I V E .

FI LTH DIALOG U E

S: I ' L L P A Y , I'LL PAY.

M , I KNOW YOU WILL. I OUGHT TO HAVE A LITTLE PORC E L A I N BOWL FITTED OVER YOUR R EVOLT TA K E S PLACE IN THE B A T H R OOM . S LA V E IS I NG ORIFICE. I DON'T L I K E TO SIT DOWN ON

C H A I N E D T O THE TOILET A N D L I E S ON THE FLDOR. M I STRESS IS PERC H E D U PON THE SINK.

MOVING OBJECTS. LETS SEE HOW WIDE YOU C A N OPEN YOU R M O U T H . W I D E RI ( I N S E RTS H E R H EEL.J LICK!

S: (SALIVATES M : HOW M A N Y GALLONS C A N YOU DRINK?

ALL

OVER

THE

SHOE,)

PLEASE,

M I STRESS, I WANT T O BE Y O U R TOILET!

S : A S MANY A S YOU W I LL G I V E ME, M I STRESS,

M: G R EEDY

LITTLE

PIG! I TOLD YOU TO LICK M Y

SHOE, NOT E A T I T ! (TA K E S A LONG TI M E WAS H I N G M : YOU ARE A TOILET-YOU LOVE TO BE A TOILET. OFF H E R S HOE.) N O W , Y O U W E R E S A Y I N G YOU WANTED TO SERVE AS MY TOILET, THAT T H I S WAS YOUR T R U E PLACE IN S : YES, YES, ANYTH I NG YOU SAY. LIFE, P E R H A PS THAT I S

ALL YOU'RE F I T FOR, B UT YOU H A V E T O L E A R N T O MOVE U P I N THE WORLD, T O E A R N YOUR FI RST YOU MUST SHOW CAN BE, ME HOW TH E

M : ITS TRUE, I N STA LLED

YOUR H IGHEST AMBITION IS TO BE IN THE LADIES' ROOM AT GRAND

PRIV I L EGES, USEFUL

YOU R

MOUTH

CLEAN

C ENTRAL STATION.

FLDOR! (HOLDS H I S H E A D DOWN WITH H E R FDOT.J

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S: M I STRESS,

P L. E A S E ,

IT'S

HARD

TO

L. I C K T H E OOWW . . .

M : SIL.ENCE. TOIL.ET-BOY. KNEEL. OVER T H E R E A N D WAIT F O R M E TO NOTICE YOU. ( M I ST R E S S M A Y T H E N A M US E T H E SL.AVE BY TEL.L.ING A STOR Y O F H O W SEVER E L.Y S H E PU N I S H E D A S L. A V E FOR

F L. oo R W H E N Y O U ' R E STEPPING (TR I E S TO P E E R UP H E R S K IRT,)

M : WHAT'S TH I S ? COM P LA I N I N G? AND ON TOP OF I T A L. L. ! O H ! L.ooKI N G AT M Y L. E G S ! I DON'T L.ET M Y SERVANTS WORK I NG! L. O O K AT M E W H I L. E THEY'RE

SOI L I N G

H I M SEL.F,)

AND

THOUGHT

THAT

WOU L.D TEACH H I M TO L.EARN TO H A V E M O R E SEL.F-CONTROL..

S: OH D A R L. I NG DARL.ING M I STRESS. PL.EASE MAY I S: I ' M SORRY, GODDESS, I COU L.DN'T HEL.P MYSEL.F, PL.EASE FORG I V E ME. (SPRAWL.S OUT ABJECTL.Y ON THE BATHROOM TIL.ES.) M : NO. GO TO THE BATH ROOM?

M : GET BACK ON

YOUR

K N E ES,

S P I N EL.ESS! YOU

S: PL.EASE. PL.EASE MAY I GO. ( M I STRESS DOES NOT BOTH E R TO ANSWER.l PL.EASE I H A V E TO . . .

N E E D SOM E D I SC I PLI N E !

S: O H , N O ! (WATC H E S I N H O R RO R A S T H E M I STRESS FIL.L.S U P AN E N E M A BAG WITH STE A M I NG HOT WATER.) P L. E A S E , P L. E A S E , DON'T I L. L. DO

M: Y O U

D I D N 'T

ASK

ME

" P L. E A S E .

M I ST R E S S IU"

(WH I PS HIM A FEW TIM ES.)

ANYTH I NG!

S: (ON HIS K N E ES) PL.EASE. D A R L. I N G M I STRESS.

M : YOUL.L. DO A S I SAY A N D NOTH I NG ELSE. STOP PAWING M El

M: OKAY. YOU C A N GO. (SLAVE STARTS TO RUN . . . M I ST R E S S SC R E A M S

.

COM E

BACK

HERE.

K N E E L. DOWN. THE M I STRESS REQUI R E S TH E SL.AVE TO PRESENT HIS BUTTOCKS TO T H E AIR A N D KEEP HIS H E A D ON THE GROUND A S SHE A D M I N I STERS THE DOUCHE. M : YOU DI DN'T SAY THANK YOU. M : NOW. THAT OUGHT TO C L. E A N UP YOU R ACT. L.ET'S HAVE A L.ITTL.E ENTE RTAI N M EN T A ROUND THIS P L. A C E . ( P UT S ON A D I SC O R EC O R D AND (ETC. FIN A L.L.Y SL.AVE I S PERMITTED TO R E L. I E V E S: YES. M I STRESS?

R EQ U I R E S TH E SL.AVE TO DANCE FOR H E R. I F H E I S A POOR DANCER. H E OUGHT TO B E EGGED ON TO I M PROVE WITH A FEW L.ICKS OF THE W H I P.)

H I MSEL.F I N THE BATH ROOM .) WHEN H E COM E S OUT

1 5 M I N UT E S L.ATER. H E L.ooKS V E R Y A S H A M ED.)

S: M I STRESS. M I STRESS. I BEG O F YOU

M: THAT
.

S H O U L. D

C L. E A N FART.

UP

YOUR

ACT.

YOU

DEG R A D E D

L.ITTL.E

IL.L. TEACH Y O U TO

L.ooK AT MY L.EGS WITHOUT MY P E R M I S S I O N . M : YOU L.ET O N E DROP FAL.L. O N M Y C A R PET OUT OF YOU R SOR R Y L.ITTL.E ASS. AND YOUL.L. WISH YOU H A D N E V E R BEEN BORN T H E SLAVE YOU AREI S: Y E S . M I STRESS. (L.ONG PAUSE.) M ISTR ESS?

THE M I STRESS M AY , IF SHE T H I N KS TH E SLAVE CAN TOL.ERATE IT. REQU I R E THAT HE NOW R U N A FEW L.APS AROUND THE HOUSE. P R E F E R A BL.Y HOPPING ON ONE FOOT.

M : ASK M Y P E R MI SSION TO SPEAKI

S: M ISTR E SS. M A Y I SPEAK?

M : NO. (L.ONG PAUSE.l M: H U P. TWO. YOUI H U P. IS TWO. BY EX E R C I SE I S GOOD NOW G R I M A C I NG IN FOR PAI N S: M ISTRESS. M A Y I SPEAK?

(SL.A V E

WHICH DEL.IGHTS THE M I STRESS I M MEASU RAB L.Y.l M : WHAT I S IT?

S: M I STRESS. I NOW T H I N K I A M VE R Y CL.EANED OUT. PL.EASE M I STRESS . . .

S: WON'T

YOU

P L. E A S E

USE

ME

AS

T O I L. E T .

M ISTRESS?

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M: NO. I DON'T H A V E TO GO.

S: I

ADORE

B E I N G YOUR TOILET. I I

A DORE B E I N G

YOU R S : I'LL M A K E YOU A D R I N K . M I STRESS?

TOI LET.

A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. I

A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. I A DO R E . . .

M : VERY WELL. M I ST R E S S SLAVE DONS AN A PRON A N D H U RRIES TO TH E BAR. THE M ISTRESS RECEIVES THE COCKTA I L. THE OFFERS STA N C E REMOVES A SLAVE IT IS FROM HER STOC K S A N D SPECIAL SUB

HIM IN

D R I N K.

A GLASS. WHICH

H E I S R EQ U I R E D TO

SLAVE STA R E S AT TH E LIQUID COURSING OVER H E R LI PS. T H E M I STRESS PUTS T H E BOY I N A STOCKS SO HE WON'T BE BOTH E R I NG H E R.

DOWN. SLAVE S I PS C A R E FULLY.

M : WHAT IF I HAD A TUB F I LL E D TO THE BRIM WITH M Y S P EC I A L LIQUID. WHAT I F I SHOV E D YOU R

M: NOW. I WANT YOU TO A M U S E ME BY S I N G I NG THIS LITTLE SONG. YOU M U ST S I NG. "I ADORE BEING YOUR TOILET." TO TH E TU N E OF "I A DORE B E I N G A G I R L." K E E P S I N G I N G I (SLAVE SI NGS TH I S ONE LI N E. T U N E LESSLY O F OVE R ' > COURSE. OVER AND

H E A D RIGHT U N D E R U NTIL YOU SOA K E D I T A LL UP. YOU'D B E SATURATED WITH M Y S U BSTA NCEI J UST L I K E A N A STY LITTLE SPONG E I

S : OH.

YET

M I STRESS.

0 TH A N K Y O U SO M UCH.

D I V I N E Q U E E N. 0 THA N K YOU . . .

M : ( L A UGH I N G

R ESTRA I N E D L Y ) "WHAT A

STU P I D T.C. S E LL E R S

LITTLE BOYI YOU A R E SO TORM ENTABLE.

VIII
A LITTLE SHIT. A LITTLE C U M W I L L N EVER. NO B U T N E V E R A FFRIGHT M Y N O S E . MOUTH O R B U M W H E N CROTC H E R I E S A R E N I G H . AND D E E P IT SUCKS. DYING FOR T H E S W E ETS IT K N OWS ARE T H E R E: L I V E . HOT C R E A M FROM TH E BORE YES. T H E S M E L L I S GAY T O M E F R O M THE H O L E I N M Y LOV E R'S A S S COOL A N D S O U R A S A N O L D C H E R R Y ROTTING GA YL Y I N THE R A I N . ONCE ALL DUE LOV I NG C A R E I S ROUNDLY PA I D T O T H E JUICY SLIT. BACK S L I PS M Y TONGU E TO MY MOUTH W H E R E A N D MY RESTLESS TON G U E . SO MAD. FLICKS ALONG H I S SOFT D A M P H A I R S S T I F F A N D QUICK A N D OH. SO BAD A S IT LICKS ITS FAVORITE FOOD. AND TH E R E SPU RTS OUT ITS CUM; AND I POOR SLAVE. A-WA LLOW I N HIS BLESSING. I SWALLOW ALL O F IT. THEN ON M Y K N E E S IT TICKLES ITS WAY FROM THE HOLE TO BA LLS AND OH. SO SLOW A LONG TH E THROBBING JOY-POLE W A I T H U M BLY F O R H I S S ECON D COM I NG. PAUL V E R LA I N E TRAN SLATED B Y D A N I E L SLOATE H I S P U L S I N G P R I C K PLUNGES P U M P E D S T R A I G H T FROM THE WELL OF LOVE. TH E N DROOLS U PON T H E KNOB.

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THE MUTE NEGRESS

". . . I WAS SEVEN O R E I G H T YEARS OLD AND I W A S WATC H I N G A H I V E O F B E E S STUCK T O A B R A N C H . THE DESI R E T O G R A B IT A N D DIS LODGE IT T I N G L E D T H ROUGH MY FI NGE RS. I WAS GOI NG T O GET A PROPHET USED TO PROCLA I M THAT M I RRORS ( LI K E P A T E R N I TY ) C ON F I R M WERE A BO M I N A T I O N S . E A RTH FOR THEY

AND

M U LT I P L Y TH E

WHICH WE

I N H A B I T . G R OTE S Q U E PA RODY.

E R RO R .

U N A UT H O R I Z E D

STIC K-AT T H E R I S K NO DO U BT OF C RO A K I N G FROM T H E SWELLING STI N G S -WH E N I SAW LITTLE SOPH I E . M Y N E IG H BO R . A LITTLE B L O N D G I R L F R O M TOWN WHO WAS A RO U N D ONE MONTH A YEAR.

"SOPH I E STILL K E PT H E R S K I RT R A I S E D. E X A M I N I NG H ER S E L F W I T H S U C H G R EAT ATTENTION THAT I WAS

SH E W A S W A L K I NG S LOWLY IN MY D I RECTION. A S THOUGH F A SC I N ATED BY SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M U ST H A V E B E E N AT H E R FEET THAT I COULD NOT SEE. I I M M E D I ATELY FORGOT THE BEEHIVE A N D LAY DOWN IN THE TALL G R A SS. SHE WAS WALK I N G SO SLOWLY THAT I HAD N O HOPE OF H E R BEING ABLE TO R E A C H M E . I W A S S W I M M I NG. I W A N T E D TO BITE. U N K NOWN I N STINCTS R I PPED TH ROUG H M Y NECK. SOPH I E WAS A BOUT TWELVE. P E RH A PS LESS. FOR H E R LOV ELY F L E S H I N E S S N O DO U BT AGED H E R. FINA LLY S H E

A F R A I D O F SEEING SOM ET H I N G S U RG E FORTH FROM B E TW E E N DETECTING HER ITS THIGHS. A PP L Y I N G I MYSELF TO THE

A PP E A R A NC E .

PERCEIVED

DOWN OF H E R SEX. I DON'T KNOW W H Y . BUT I T M A D E ME LA U G H . I I M M E D I ATELY FEARED THAT I HAD

R E V E A L E D M Y P R E S E N C E . BUT I WAS ASTO N I S H E D TO NOTE T H A T SOP H I E H A D N O T H E A R D M E . I R A I S E D MYSELF ON M Y E L BOWS BUT COULD S E E NOTH I N G AT H E R F E ET. A N D T I R E D OF WAITI NG. I WAS A BOUT TO GET U P. TO SCARE HER AT L E A ST. WHEN I H E A R D A N O I S E B E H I N D M E . I THOUGHT T H E B E E H I V E H A D J U S T F A L L E N . BUT FOLLOWI NG SO P H I E'S G A Z E NOW F I X E D ON A PO I N T ABOVE MY HEAD. I SAW A MAN IN A TREE. I L OO K E D AT SO P' H I E AGAIN: SHE WAS

W A S WITH I N R E A C H . I STI L L DI DN'T SEE W H A T WAS F A SC I N A T I N G H E R. BUT HER FASC I N A T I O N IN

T R I G U E D M E A L L T H E MORE. S H E STOPPED. A N D AT THE SAME M O M E NT. R A I S E D HER S K I RT OVE R H E R N A K E D STO M AC H . W E LL. I H A D ALREADY SEEN M Y SI STER C A R ES S H E R S ELF. A N D I H A D F E LT NO .. EAL P L E A S UR E FROM I T EXCEPT FOR THE DAY I CAUGHT HER DOI N G IT IN A M I R RO R . A FALSE MUSLIM

S M I LING. A N D W H I L E S H E S M I LED. S H E R A I S E D H E R D R E S S S O H IG H THAT S H E U N V E I LE D H E R PALE

L I TTLE B R EASTS. 'ARE YOU COM I NG?' S A I D A VOICE. BUT SHE S HOOK H E R H E A D .

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"I HADN'T RECOGNIZED THE VOICE. A N D SOP H I E'S REFUSAL S E E M E D TO ME TO I NDICATE THAT SHE H E R S E L F H A D N 'T R E C OG N I Z E D IT. THE SC E N E . H ENCEFORTH I N D E E D QUITE BANAL. THREATENE D T O PROLONG ITSELF. W H E N SOPH I E ADVANCED

WAS SUSPICIOUS. IT S E E M E D TO ME THAT I WOULD HAVE TO WAIT. OR ELSE DO SOM ETH ING OTH E R

T H A N WHAT SHE W A S H O P I N G F O R . A N D I N STEAD O F RUBBING MY FACE AGAI NST WHAT WAS IN SUM

NOTHING B U T AN ALREADY R I P E F R U IT. I BRUSH E D I T WITH MY FINGERS. THEN. T U R N I N G H E R OVER O N H E R B E L L Y . R E V E A L E D H E R B U TTOC K S W H I C H BOTHE R E D M E EVEN MORE. I M UST H A VE H URT H E R . FOR S H E ARCHED H E R BACK. SO I GOT U P W I T H A LEAP: S H E D I SG USTED ME NOW.

DEC I S I V E LY ALMOST T O T H E P O I N T OF B R U S H I NG ME. FLAT DOWN I N TH E GRASS. I NONETH E LESS

HAZARDED A GLANCE: A N D TO MY GOOD FORTUNE. FOR A H A N D C A M E DOWN FROM T H E TREE. BRUSHED H E R NECK. AND I M P RISONED ONE OF H E R B REASTS. I COULD MYSELF H A V E RAISE D M Y ARM AND SEIZED THE C H U BBY R U M P I F M Y ATTENTION H A DN'T BEEN DRAWN TO THE A R R IVAL O F A T H I R D C H ARACTER. IT WAS A TALL M A N WITH A ROUGH A PPEARANCE. NOT A PEASA NT. BUT A POACHER P E R H A PS . ANYWAY I WAS TOO YOU NG TO P REOCC U P Y M Y S E L F WITH

"THE A DVENTU R E COULD END H E R E . THE R EST IS PROBABLY SOMETI M E S M YTH I C A L . CAN NOT BUT THE KEEP COLLECTOR FROM

H IMSELF

DREAMING. FROM SLIPPI NG I N A MONG H I S RIGOR OUS CLASSIFICATIONS SOME S U M PTUOUS A POC RY PHAL PIECE. THUS I N THE EV E N I NG . IN OUR LITTLE PROVI N C E . PERMISSION THEY TO SET O F F ATT E N D . FIRE WOR K S . I BY GOT MY

PEOPLE'S

P R O F E S S I O N S . O N L Y TH E I R A C T I O N S

MATTE R E D T O M E ( J U ST AS TODAY. A N D I C A N WELL SAY THAT IN THAT SENSE I HAVEN'T AGED). H E WAS A P P R O A C H I N G WITH LONG STR I DES. WITHOUT

ACCO M P A N I E D

GRANDMOTH E R . A STU PID PERSON WHOM I COULD EASILY LOSE I N A FEW SECONDS. WH ICH I D I D. FOR I HAD A PLAN MORE FIRE I N TE R ESTI N G THAN A FEW IN

BOTHE RING ABOUT T H E NOISE H E WAS M A K I NG. A S I F H E HADNT S E E N THE LITTLE G I R L; B U T I WAS WRONG ABOUT TH AT. BECAUSE. H A V I NG TURNED

M I SERA BLE

WORKS:

H I D I NG

MYSELF

HA LFWAY A RO U N D. SHE SAW HIM A N D M UR M U R R E D SOMETHI NG I D I DNT U N D ERSTA ND. W H I LE A SECOND HAND GRABBED HER OTH E R BREAST. THI S H U M A N PLANT W A S RATHE R A M U S I NG. THE M A N STOPPED B E H I ND SOPHI E . I M M E DI ATELY SHE LET GO OF H E R DRESS. A N D . W I T H G R EAT D E XTERITY. U NBUTTONED THE M A N WHOSE P E N I S POPPED OUT. THEN SHE

SOPHI E'S ROOM.

"I HAD H A R DLY ANY DIFFICULTY GETTING IN. IT WAS ON THE GROUND FLOOR OF ONE O F THOSE HEAVY HOUSES LOVED BY THE M I DDLE C LASS. AS SOON AS I GOT I N SI DE. I H I D MYSELF B E H I N D A WAR DROBE PROV I D E N T I A L L Y PLAC E D O B L I Q U E LY O P POSITE THE LITTLE BED. THE W I N DOW WAS ON MY RIGHT. AND THE DOOR FACING M E . A FT E R AN HOUR IT

RAISED H E R DRESS AGA I N AND. LEAN I N G FORWARD. WHICH OBLIGED T H E H A N DS AND TH E ARMS FROM THE TREE TO COM E DOWN A LITTLE FURTHER. SHE PRESENTED HER B E H I N D TO THE KNOTTY COCK FOR. IN TRUTH. THE SCE N E DIDNT LOSE A BIT OF ITS RURAL C H A R ACTER. AND ONE COULD HAVE

SUDDENLY OPENED WITH GREAT C O MMOTION A N D CLOSED LIKEWISE. SOPH I E THREW H E RSELF ON T H E BED. I N TEARS-oR A T LEAST I TOOK T H I S PERSO N F O R SOP H I E . F O R Q U I T E F R A N K L Y I COULDN'T S E E A N YTH I N G . TH E ROOM O N LY B A R ELY LIT BY A

I MAGI N E D (AS I DID. P E R H A PS) THAT T H E GROUP WAS ONLY WAITING TO B E SC ULPTED.

DISTANT STREET LAMP. THEN T H E SOBS BEC A M E LESS FREQUENT A N D A "SHE D I DN'T SCR E A M WHEN T H E MAN PEN ETRATED H E R. AND ALTHOUGH I H A D ONCE C A UGHT MY N,I GHT L I G H T W A S LIT. I

LEANED OUT A N D SAW TWO LEGS R A I SED. BUT TH EY WERE MUCH LON G E R THAN SO PHIES. I WAS

SISTER U N D E R THE B E LLY OF A NAKED MAN. I CAN NONETHE LESS SAY THAT SOP H I E IS T H E FI RST THAT I REALLY SAW MAKE LOV E . THE MAN SOON

ALREADY ASTON I S H E D THAT S H E H A D GROWN SO QU I C K L Y . P R E F E R R I NG . AS IS S UITABLE. TH E

M IRACULOUS TO THE

LOGICAL.

B U T I N STEAD O F AND MY

WITHDREW F R O M THE LITTLE G I R L A N D TH E H A N DS FROM THE TREE D I S A P P E A R E D. SOPHI E LET

TA KING A DVANTAGE O F THE G OO D L U C K . I FEAR WAS

SITUATION

FEARED B E I NG D I SCOVERED. T H I S I NTO TERROR TO WHEN TH E THE

HERSELF FALL O N THE G RO U N D W H I L E THE RED H A I R E D M A N (HAVE I M E N TION E D THAT? IT PLEASES ME THAT HE WAS A R EDH EAD) WAS ALREADY

CHANGED UP I

WOM A N

GOT

AND WAS

CAME A

CLOSE

SHUTTERS.

THUS

P R I SO N E R ! N E XT S H E

MOVING AWAY. THE N S H E SPOTTED M E . ' W E R E YOU THERE?' SHE ASKED. I D I DNT ANSWER. I TH REW

T U R N E D ON THE BRACKET LIGHTS A N D B E G A N T O UNDRESS. A T THAT M O M E N T I FIG U R E D OUT THAT SHE WAS THE C H A M B E R MAID A N D I F E A R E D H E R N U DITY: IT W A S NOT SOPHI E'S N U D I TY THAT I H A D DESIRED B U T SOM E U N K NOWN A C T THAT I MIGHT HAVE SEEN WHICH WOU L D HAVE SATISFIED ME.

MYSELF ON H E R NAKED B R E A STS. BIT THE M . WHICH MADE H E R SCRE A M . S H E DIDNT PUSH M E AWAY. THOU G H . ON THE CONT R A R Y SHE VERY MUCH

WANTED TO PULL M E ONTO H E R STOMACH. BUT I

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HOWEVER.

THE

MAID

HAD

F R OZ E N .

HER

EAR

PREVENTED T H I S; C A R ROT-TOP. K N E E L I NG. SHACK L E D HER STOC K I N G E D TH I G H S WITH HIS ARMS. THE OTH E R SLOWLY MOV E D H I S F I N G E R S I N TH E MAUVE MOUTH. I S A W THE S A M E WHITISH FOA M THAT I H A D C A UGHT S I G H T OF I N T H E ORCH A R D ON SOP H I E'S THIGHS. TH E SAME? THAT IS INDEED WHAT I

ATTENTIVE A S THOUGH S H E WERE LISTE N I NG OUT FOR A PREARRANGED SIGNAL. STR A N G E L Y

ENOUG H . I REGA I N E D HOPE JUST A S A B R U PTLY A S I HAD BECOME SO Q U I C K LY D I SCO U R A G E D . TH E

WOM A N

PUT H E R

H A N D S B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D

H E R D R ESS FELL. I T W A S DAZZLING. THE R E V E LA TION OF THE S U M PTUOUS AND VULGAR T R A P P I NGS WITH W H ICH WOMA N T I T I L LA T E S . MAGNIFICENT

BELIEVEDI

"TH E R E WAS A C R A C K L I N G OF A BUZZER. C A R ROT TOP J U M PE D U P AS IF HE H A D B E E N STUNG TO TH E Q U I C K . T H E OTH E R STARTED TO T R E M B L E . BUT THE WOM A N REMAINED M A RBLE. IIF I MAY PERMIT

M A R E I A SHORT BLACK-LACE S L I P. A B R A . A N D A N A R AC H N I DE A N G A R T E R B E LT. A S W E L L A S T I N Y R E D PANTI ES. W H I C H M A G N I F I E D. I N STEA D O F H I D I NG. A TH I C K TAWNY FLEECE. COM POSED A M U C H MORE SATISFYING D R E A M ED. S P ECTAC LE SHE TURNED. THAN A N D. ALL THOSE I IN HAD

MYSELF T O A N T I C I PATE. I W I L L S A Y THAT IT W A S A RED AND W H ITE M A R TH A . AND THAT FIND IT WOU L D

PROF I LE. ONLY

INDEED

BY

PLEASANT TO

HER

AGA I N

HER TAUT C H EST AND R U M P COULD B E SEEN. T H E THIGHS AND HOLLOWED S U P PO R T S W A I ST BEING ONLY

ALTHOUGH I KNOW. ALASI HOW BADLY DOM ESTICS AGE,) THE MEN TOOK OFF. AND I . WITHOUT TH I N KING A BOUT IT A NY M O R E . SHOWED MYSELF. S H E M A D E N OT THE SLIGHTEST G E ST U R E OF SURPRISE.

SECON DARY I N D E C E NC I ES.

FOR THESE

SUPERB

LOOK I N G AT M E ON T H E CONTRARY WITH C U RIOSITY. "THArs MAN. WHEN THEY ENTERED. I THE R E D-H E A D E D AS SOP H I E'S D OO R . THEN R E A L I Z I NG THAT HER BELLY WAS BARE. S H E P U T H E R H A N D O V E R IT. BUT IT W A S REA LLY SO THAT SHE COULD C ARESS HERSELF. AND I

AND

A NOTH E R HE

RECOGNIZED

FATH E R . PLAC E D

C A R E F U L LY EAR

C LOS E D T H E WOOD

HIS

AGA I N ST T H E

B E FO R E

CLEARLY SAW TWO OF H E R F I N G E R S G E NTLY MOVE INSIDE HER.

TU R N I N G T H E K EY. W H I L E T H E C A R ROT- H A I R E D M A N WAS A L R E A DY FEELING UP THE SERVANT. WHO

BENT OVER AT THE WAIST. THUS OFFE R I N G TO MY GAZE HER R I PE B U TTOC KS. A THOUSAN D EYES

" S H E C A U G H T MY GAZE. OFFE R E D M E H E R OTH E R H A N D WHOSE ODOR E N C H A NTED M E . I D I DN'T KNOW HOW TO E X P R ESS IT TO HER. BUT I WOU LD H A V E

WOU LD N O T H A V E S U F F I C E D T O FOLLOW A LL T H E D E V E LO P M E NTS OF T H A T SITU ATION; C A R ROT-TOP HAD ALREADY SLIPPED ONE HAND I N S I D E TH E

L I K E D T O H A V E H E R T A K E M E I N H E R A R MS. B U RY M E I N H E R B E D WITH H E R . TO ROLL O N H E R BREASTS. AND ESPECIA L L Y TO PLUNGE MY FACE IN HER

P A N T I E S . WITH

THE OTH E R H A N D HE WAS LIG HTLY

S L A P P I NG H E R ASS. THE FATH ER IN A LOW VOI CE WAS SAYI NG: M A RQU I S E. M A RQ U I S E I' AND WAS

FLEECE. I M A D E A G ESTU R E W H I C H S H E D I D NOT U N DERST AN D . B EC A U S E SHE PLAC E D H E R F I N G E R T O H E R LI PS A S THOUGH ORDE R I N G M E T O B E Q U I ET. BUT I WASN'T TALKI NG. S U D D E N LY. I THREW MYSELF AGAINST HER B E LLY. SHE H E LD MY HEAD. I

TA K I N G H E R B R E A STS OUT O F THE ST R A P L ESS B R A .

K I SSING

THEM

WITH

A R DOU R . WITH

AND

THE

M A I D. WHICH

M E A NW H I LE. PROT R U DE D MEN

PLAYED

TH E

FUR

FROM

B E H I N D T H E R E D C LOTH. THE A C T I V I T Y. WHICH THE R E D- H E A D B U R ST.

CONFUSEDLY FELT T H AT SHE WAS G I V I N G I N . TH AT A LL R E S I STA N C E WAS CEASING IN H E R. HER

NOTI C E D

THIS

PULLED T H E

PANTI ES

SNAPPED.

P E R F U N E WAS S O A R DE NT. T H E BUTTON O F FLESH SO H AR D . THAT I W A S BITING SAVAGELY. I H E A R D HER SIGH I NG. I THOUGHT S H E WAS O N C E AGA I N DREW A W A Y VERY Q U I C K LY . OF MY IGNORANCE. ONCE

B U RSTING IT S E E M E D TO ME ESPEC I A LLY FROM THE PRESSURE O F TH AT PRODIGIOUS FLEECE. T H E MEN JOSTLE D E A C H OTH E R A N D I FIGU R E D THAT EACH ONE WANTED TO BURY HIS FACE I N THAT M A N E .

GOI NG TO C R Y A N D I BUT SHE. IGNORANT

S I N C E I WAS M Y S E L F G R I P P E D BY THE S A M E D E S I R E . T H E Y C O M I C A LLY B U M P E D THE I R HEADS TOGETH E R A N D T H E S E R V A N T L A U G H E D. B U T T H E Y W E R E TOO B U S Y TO NOTIC E . I EYES. WOR D C I RC LES LOO K E D AT THOSE L A U G H I N G BEN EATH THEM. THE

A G A I N S T U C K M Y F A C E AGA I N ST THE NEW MOUTH.

"AFTERWA R D . I N F I N ITE

SHE

OPENED SHE

TH E

SHUTTERS

WITH

PRECA UTIONS. W H I LE I I

KISSED

M E O N THE OVER I THE ONLY

D A R K E N I NG WHICH I

FOR E H E A D W I N DOW

WAS

CRAWLING TH I N K DAY.

'PLEA S U RE'

H A D ON LY R E C E NTLY

LEDGE.

LIKE

TO

THAT

L E A R N E D C A M E TO M E . AND I FOU N D IT TO H AVE A SINGULAR SAVO U R. I WATC H E D THE TWO FREED

RETU R N E D

HOME THE

NEXT

A FTER H AV I N G

W A N D E R E D T H R O U G H T H E COUNTRYS I D E . OR. M O R E E X A CT L Y . PROWLED A N YW A Y . UNDER I THE SERVA NT'S THAT MY

LI P S B ETWE E N TWO H E DGES OF LONG S H I N Y H A I RS. TH E W O M A N LEA N E D O V E R TO SEE. A LSO TO E N JOY H E R OWN SPECTACLE. BUT T H E BAC KS OF THE M E N

S H U TT E R S .

DEMANDED

G R A N DMOT H E R W E A R LONG PANTI ES. A N D S H E D I D

70

NOT R E F U S E."

YOU R

ADMIRER.

THERE

ARE

A LS O C O U R S E S

IN

BEHAVIOR, LITERATURE, AND LOV E . " IRENE C LO S E D THE PINK BOOK. "WHO IS THAT "LOVE?
.

BLAC K S M I T H ?" A S K E D L A U R A .

:'

" TH E A D M I R A L:' A N S W E R E D I R E N E, "TH E M A S T E R O F THE 'SA N S-SOUC I'."

"DON'T

FORGET

THAT

ONE

M UST

MAKE

LOVE

DIFFERE NTLY F O R A VOYEUR'S PLE A S U R E . "

"BUT WHY 'BLAC KSM ITH'?"

' W H A T A BOUT T H O S E WHO D O I T WITH U S?"

"YOU'LL U N D E R ST A N D LATER,

DID YOU LIKE IT?"

" S I M P L E E X ECUTORS. T H E I R PAY IS V E R Y LOW, SOM E EVEN PAY, I M A G I N I NG THAT T H E Y W I L L T H U S F E E L

" I DON'T U N DE RSTA N D THE D I G R ESSIONS; WHAT I S A COLLECTOR?"

SOM E

N EW

PLEASURE, TEACH

BUT

THEY'RE R EDUCE

WRONG THEI R

BECAUS E

WE

YOU

TO

PLEAS U R E . " "HE lSI I A L R E A D Y TOLD YOU THAT TH I S HOUSE I S FU LL O F TRICKS; SPYHOLES, A R E HIS OBSESSION." "YOU " HOL ES? THAT'S ODD, LIKE I N P U BLIC TOI LETS," M UST FI RST CON S I D E R TH E ONE WHO'S P E E P HOLES, HOLES " R E D U C E IT? I DON'T U N D ERSTA N D AT A LLI"

WATCH I N G YOU, I T'S AS THOUGH YO U W E R E M A K I N G LOVE W I T H T H E O N E WHO'S LOO K I N G AT YOU; T H E

"YES,

IF

YOU

LIKE.

BUT

THE

ADMIRAL

PREFERS

PE RFOR M E R M U ST COM PLETELY D I S A P P E A R FROM YOU R THOUGHTS, A N D, O B V I O U S L Y , FROM YOU R

LOO K I N G AT SOMEONE WHO'S ALREADY LOOKI NG."

FEELI NGS, TOO." "TH E S H E?" LITTLE GIRL SOPH I E , S H E'S LIKE ME, I SN'T "BUT WHY A R E T H E R E VOYE URS?"

"I DON'T KNOW, SHE S E E M S LESS I N NOC E N T THAN YOU."

"YOU CAN ASK THE A D M I RAL THAT, I T'S A S U BJECT H E'LL BE H A PPY TO DEAL WITH."

" I N N OC E N T? YOU'RE M A K I N G F U N OF M E ! . , . A N YWAY, H E COULDN'T KNOW M E. "

" YOU'RE

M A K I N G F U N OF ME. H E'S T H E O N E WHO

ENTERED, TU R N E D OUT THE LIGHTS, AND H E L D U S S O ROUGH LY?"

"HE

KNOWS

YOU

WELL.

EVEN

B E FO R E

YOUR "IT WAS H I M ; H I S H A N D , H I S SHA DOW, H I S M A S K , WE N EVER S E E H I M IN THE LIGHT OF D A Y . B U T HE IS A CONQU E RO R , A B U I LDER. IF H E N E V E R L E A V E S H I S E M P I RE, H E C A N FORGET T H E REST O F T H E WORLD."

A R R I VAL, H E K N E W E V E R YT H I N G A BOUT YOU, I TOLD YOU THAT WE O N L Y T A K E S I N G L E PEOPLE, IF H E

ACCEPTED YOU. I r s BECA U S E H E T H I N K S YOU HAVE E X C E PT I O N A L G I FTS; YOU WILL TAKE SPECIAL

COURSES TO D E V E LOP T H E M . " " H E FRIGHTENS ME. WILL YOU PROTECT M E?" "TH E R E A R E COU RS E S , TOO?" "H E'S A C H I L D TOO, H E KNOWS IT. "YES. NUDE COURSES. A TYPING COURSE. FOR WANT TO DO NOWT WHAT DO YOU

EXAM PLE, IT'S I NTERESTING TO SEE THE WORK OF THE M U SCLES, THE Q U I V E R I N G OF B UTTOCKS AND TH E LO I N S , THE SEPARATED THIGHS, C E RTA I N "NO, TOM O R ROW,"

'TO L I K E YOU TO R E A D SOME MORE,"

C L I E NTS O F O U R S L I K E T O G E T O N TH E I R K N E E S A N D STROKE YOU D U R I N G T H I S T E S T , I T ' S A GDOD TEST, EVEN THOUGH THE I NC R E A S E IN YOU R BE

M ISTA K E S

C A N NOT

WITH

M UC H

EXACTITUDE

MICHEL BERHARD
TRANSLATED BY RICHA RD G A R DN E R

ATTR I B UTED T O YOU R AGITATION O R T H E S K I L L O F

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TEM P L E T H R OUGH THE LOOKING GLASS

AFTER A FEW STEPS FORWA R D. AND U N EXPECTED LY IN SPITE OF THE L.IGHT THAT IS S L. I G HTLY

ONCE I N SIDE AND ONCE THE H E AVY STE E L. DOOR HAS C L.OSED BY ITSEL.F WITH A L.DW SOU ND L.IKE TH E WHOOSH OF SOME N IGHT B I RD FOL.L.OWED BY A SERIES B O L.TS OF S M OOTH C L.I C K S FROM
I

STRO NG E R (OR A R E T H E EYES S I M PLY ADAPT I N G TO T H E G L.OOM11 THE COR R I DO R HAS A NOTH E R R IGHT A N G L E D E L.BOW L. E A D I NG A GA I N TO TH E L. E FT A N D AGA I N T H E R E I S A W I D E N I NG OF THE PASSAGEWAY TO WHICH THE TERM " N A R ROW" NO L. O N G E R

WEL.L.-O I L. E D M Y S E L. F

S L. I D I N G

I NTO

P L. A C E .

FIND

PL.UNGED I NTO B L. U I S H S E M I -DARKNESS A N D I HAVE TO STA N D STI L.L. FOR A F E W SECON DS-A
I

FEW

M I N UTES ENOUGH

POSS I B L. Y - B E F O R E TO M A K E O U T MY

CAN

SEE

W E L. L

A PPUES-AND PROBABL.Y THE L.IGHT I S STRONGER FOR G RADUAL.L.Y I T HAS BECOME BRIGHT ENOUGH TO S HOW C L.EARLY THAT TH E R E I S NOTH I NG TO SEE EXC E PT THE WALL.S. T H E C E I L.ING AND THE FLOOR. AL.L OF THEM COV E R E D WITH THE SAME WH ITE

SURROUNDI NGS A N D

TA K E MY B E A R I NGS CAUTIOUSL.Y.

ACTUA L.L.Y THERE IS NO CAUSE FOR HES ITATION: O N L. Y ONE D I R ECTION IS POSS I B L. E : A N A R ROW.

L.ACQU E R . S MOOTH. A B STRACT-o N E M IGHT SAY CONV E Y I N G THE I M PRESSION OF B E I N G U N A LTER ABLE. U NATTA I N ABLE. TIME-PROOF.

S MOOTH-WA L.L.ED COR R I DO R WITH NO SIDE OPEN INGS: M Y FI RST I M P R ESSION I S THAT IT M U ST B E

L. O N G AND STRA IGHT. BUT IT TURNS S U D DENTL.Y AT RIGHT ANGL.ES TO THE L.EFT THEN CONTI NUES IN TH I S NEW D I R ECTION WITH STI L. L. NO SIDE OPENI NGS OR PASSAGES: ITS WIDTH. HOWEVER. NOW A PPEARS SOM EWHAT I NCREASED . . . I N THE SIL.ENT D I STANCE WHAT SEEM TO B E THE NOTES OF A P I A NO CAN BE H E A RD. FORL.ORN. SPACED UKE DROPS OF WATER. M U FFL.ED BY TH E H EAVY H A N G I NGS AND C U RTA I N S O F A N O L. D A PA RTM ENT W H E R E EVERYTHI NG. EVEN TH E UTTLE GIRL DOZ I NG OV E R H E R SCHOOL BOOKS. I S MOTIONL.ESS IN T H I S MONOTONIC ETERN ITY. THE LIGHT H E R E. PALE AND M I L. K Y . CAUSES

A N OTH E R Q U E R Y TO ARISE I N TH E M I N D O F H I M WHO I S WA L. K I N G (ONCE AGA I N ) SLOWLY FORWARD: EVEN THOUGH IT HAS I M PE RCEPTI B LY B U T DEFI N ITEL.Y

GROWN B R IGHTER. N O LIGHT SOURCE CAN B E SEEN. A NOTH E R D I SQ U I ETING FACT IS THE R IGHT-ANGL.ED TU R N S W H I C H HAVE B ECOME MORE FREQUE NT. NOW TO THE R I G HT. NOW TO THE LEFT. BUT WITH AND NO RE

REGULAR

D I ST A N C E

B E TW E E N

TH E M

PEATED SO OFTEN THAT IT I S NOW I M POSS I B L. E TO

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IN

WHAT D I R ECTION O N E H A S B E E N MOVING

I MAGINA RY ORGA N I Z E R . O N E M UST M E R E LY CHOOSE ONE OF T H E ELEM E NTS I N THE TA B LEAU, BUT IT

S I NCE ENTERING T H E SANCTUARY.

MUST B E DONE WITHOUT DELAY. A FAINT PERCUS THESE D E N LY UNANSWERED AT TH E NEW Q U ESTI O N S OF RECEDE S U D SIVE SOU N D HAS DRAWN NEARER. NOW STR I K I N G WITH TH E DRY, REGULAR BEAT OF A M ETRO N O M E , I N EXORA B LY.

APPEARANCE

Y E T A NOTH E R A LO N G TH E

DETA I L.

AND

REMARKABLE.

PASSAGEWAY A FTER

A N OTH E R A B R U PT T U R N TO THE N A R R AT O R , FRANK V. FRANCIS, WHO IS

TH E R I GHT: AGA I N ST TH E PALE POLI S H E D WALL ON THE LEFT IS A V E RY D A R K RECTA N G L E THE SIZE

WOR R I E D WHETHER H E I S COM MITTING A N ERROR I N FINDING H I M SE L F A T T H E STARTING POI NT O N T H E TERRACE STEPS OF I M I TATION GRAN ITE I N FRONT OF THE NUMBERLESS STEEL DOO R S WITH ITS

A N D LOCATION OF WHICH WOU L D S UGGEST A N OPEN DOORWAY.

ACTUALLY. AS ONE DRAWS N E A R E R IT IS OBVIOUS TH E R E I S NO OPE N I NG. A N E A R LY I N V I S I B L E GLASS STA N D S TH ERE. UTTERLY B R E A K I NG THE CONTI N U ITY OF THE VARNISHED M I RROR LIES WALL. A BEHIND DARK THIS ROOM

M I SS I NG K NOB. EVENTUA LLY OF COU RSE CHOOSES TH E PALE BLUE SHOE LYING ON ITS SIDE AND

WHOSE H E E L APPEARS BROKEN A T T H E BASE. A N D I M M EDIATELY HE IS PLANTED BEFORE THE N E XT

U N S I LV E R E D WHOSE ASSESS BLACK

VERY ARE

WIN DOW, P ROBABLY A LITTLE FU RTH E R DOWN T H E LONG CORRIDOR.

CONTO U R S BECA U S E

AND OF

SIZE THE ITS AND

D I F F I C U LT TO DEEP H U ES

VERY

P E R H A PS-OF TAPEST R I E S

HIDDEN

C O N F I N ES. AGA I N ST

THIS GLASS

RECTA NGLE

IS

I DENTI C A L

WITH

THE

CAR PETS.

H A N G I NGS.

FI RST ONE, G I V I NG ON A N UTTERLY DARK SPACE. THE SPECTAC LE U N FOLDI NG TH E R E I N PROV I D E S AN EXPLAN ATION SOUNDS THAT PIA NO, OR (TEMPORA RY?) FOR T H E R E PEATED ISSUE FROM A METRONOME OR A

THIS I N KY BACKDROP ON LY TH R E E T H I N G S STA N D OUT MORE S H A R PLY MORE I LL U M I N ATED FROM OR P E R H A PS

R E F LECTI NG

LIGHT

T H E C O R R I DO R

BECA U S E OF TH E I R B R I G H T E R C AST.

FROM LIQU I D DROPS SOU N D I NG I N T H E

SI LENCE. IT WOULD B E M O R E ACCU RATE T O S P E A K FROM THE RIGHT F O R E G RO U N D AND M OV I N G O F PEARLS STR I KI N G AGA I N ST EACH OTH E R AT T H E CENTRE DIRECTLY OF AN OVA L THE M I R RO R GLASS ON THE FLOOR

DIAGONALLY TOWARDS T H E L I M ITS OF O N E'S V I S U A L R A N G E . THESE T H I NGS ARE A PA I R O F WOM EN'S

BEHIND

WIN DOW.

NOTH I N G

SHOES M A D E OF FINE B L U E SKIN AND V E R Y HIGH H E E LED, LONG. A FLESH- P I N K STALK ROSE AT T H E TO END OF A ROSES DRESS L I TT L E

ELSE C A N B E DI STI N G U I S H E D I N THE R OO M S A V E THE M I R RO R A N D THE S I LVER PEA RLS SUCCES

STI F F TO THE

S I M I LA R IN

THE

SIVELY FALLING FROM A N INVISIBLE CEILING THAT ST R I K E S I M U LTA N E O U S LY AGA I N S T TH E I R O W N

OFFE R E D LEAVI NG

G E NT L E M E N OPERA

EVENING BY TH E

HOUSE

I MAGES A N D THE E P H E M E RAL SURFACE R E FLECT ING THEM WITH A M USICAL BY TH E H IGH SOU N D, PURE AND

FLOWER-G I R L K NOWN A S T E M P L E I N THE QUA RTER, AND LASTLY TH E FLOWER-G I R L H E RS E L F (OR SO IT APPEARS) LYING OUTSTRETC H E D O N THE S H A DOWY FLOOR, L I K E TH E OTH E R THI NGS IN TH I S I N V E NTORY. THE G I R L I S N A K E D EXC E PT FOR H E R LONG BLACK GLOVES AND A PA I R OF STOC K I NGS-oF A S I M I LA R SHADE BUT MORE TRANSLUCENT-FASTE N E D AT

BA R E LY THEN

M U FFLED

TRANSPA RENT IN THE AIR

WALL,

BOU N C E

BACK

TRACING

TRAJECTO R I E S THAT ARE FAIRLY PRONO UNCED I N TH E I R I N C L I N E FROM THE VERTICAL, A N D THAT A R E OCCASIO N A LLY S U B J ECTED T O I N F I N ITELY S M A L L VARIATI O N S C A U S E D BY T H E CONTACT BETW E E N AND ITS REFLECTION,

M I D-TH IGH BY FRI LLY GARTERS W I T H T I N Y PERCALE ROSE S AROUND T H E M . HER N EC K I S C LA S P E D IN A SORT OF WIDE LACE COLLAR, A LSO BLACK. S H E

EACH S P A R K L I N G S P H E R E

BOTH OF WHICH SOON VANISH FROM THE S PECTA TORS' VIEW AS SOON A S THEY NO LONGER CATC H THE LIGHT FROM T H E ROOMS FOR EXA M I N ATIONS, AU DITIONS, SUPE RVISION, EXHI BITIONS OR I NTER

S E E M S T O BE A S L E E P BUT TH ROUGH THE SPREAD FINGERS OF O N E O F H E R H A N DS OVER HER FACE AS THOUGH TO S H I E LD H E R FROM THE BRIGHT LIGHT OF A L A M P-A B S E N T-IT IS I M AG I N A BL E THAT TH E

ROGATIONS, ETC.

C H I LD HAS H E R EYES O P E N A N D IS WATC H I NG. OR I S SHE D E A D . . . OR AT THE L E A S T U NCONSCIOUS?

THE CON C E RT CONTI N U E S

IN

TRANQUI LLITY. T H E

NOTES V A R Y F R O M O N E P E A R L T O T H E N E XT, A S WELL A S T H E I NTERVAL BETWEEN TWO CONSECU

THE ENIGMA OF T H E WHOLE COM POSITION PROM PTS ONE TO ATTE M PT TO MAKE A CHOICE, A BET, RATH E R TH A N ASSEMBLE THE D I FF E R E N T E L E M E N TS IN

TIVE

PEARLS: IN A

BUT THE

IT

SHOULD OF

BE

POSSIBLE

TO

ASCERTA I N , CON F U S I O N , I NT E R VA LS

M I DST

TH E I R

APPARENT OF

R E LATI V E LY N OT E S .

SMALL AND SO

NUMBER THE

ACCORDANCE WITH T H E R U L E S LA I D DO W N B Y SOME

AND

SAME

73

Q U E STION A R I S E S ONCE M O R E : IS IT A PROB LEM OF CHOICE A S IN THE PRECEDI NG SC E N E OR ON THE CONTRARY I S IT NOW A N TURAL ORGA N IZATION? E X P E R I M ENT I N STRUC

E X PO S E D.

CA R E F U L LY

SMOOTH E D.

PRIMPED

AND

P A M P E R E D. DECKED WITH P E A R LS OR LITTLE G E M ROSES. I S TH E DELICATE P U B I C FLEECE. D A R K OR FAI R. WITH T H E C L E FT AT T I M E S R E V E A L I N G WAXEN FLESH IN ITS MOST SECRET RECESSES W H E N E V E R

PLUNGED

PROBABLY

IN

THE

D E PT H S U N I TS

OF

AN

THE

PATI ENrS POST U R E HOLDS H E R LEGS O P E N

A N A LY S I S OF T H E S E COMBI NATIONS. THE

D I STI NCT WOM E N .

AND TH E I R IN A SEMI

WIDE ENOUGH.

SITTING

C I RCLE FACING THE SC R E E N O N SEATS A S V A R I E D AS THEY ARE U NCOMFORTA B L E . LOST IN TH E I R

I N T H E F I RST R O W . I M ITATING T H E POSITION OF H E R N E I G H BO R'S H A NDS. W H O A P P E A R S TO B E STO P P I N G H E R E A R S T O D E A D E N T H E T I N K L I NG SOU N D THAT I S H I G H E R A N D H I G H E R P I TCHED-NEARLY A W H I STLE -W H I C H THE PEARLS PRODUCE BETWE EN WITH EVER HER

BLANK-EYED CONTE M P LATION. O R FASC I NATED B Y T H E T I M E LESS AND BACK IN FALLING ALWAYS L I G H TS BOUNC I N G AWAY

U N FO R ESEEN

( U NFORSEE

ABLE?) D I R ECTIONS. T H E SPECTATORS. AS I SAID. REMAIN MOTIONLESS. FROZEN IN POSES STIFFLY

DIMINISHING

I NT E R V A L S

THEM.

W R I STS TOUCH I NG PALMS ON

B E N E ATH CHEEK.

HER C H I N A N D HER IS L I TT L E TEM PLE

I M I TATI NG NAT U R E . LIKE THOSE TA BLEAUX OF LIFE SIZES WAX FIGU R E S IN MUSEUMS AND I N WHICH

EITHER

H ER S E L F S U L K I LY WATC H I N G T H E SC E N E U N FOLD I N THE GREAT RECTA N G U L A R GLASS W H E R E I N S H E S E E S H E R O W N N A K E D . I NVERTED I M AG E . BLACK STOC K I NG E D LEGS SPREAD APA RT. FACE STILL

FAMOUS SC E N E S FROM H I STORY A R E S U PPOS EDLY R E PRODUC ED FROM LIFE.

MADE U P EXTRAVAGA NTLY THOUGH I N PA LE HUES EXCEPT FOR T H E BRIGHT PINK U PON TH E I R CHEEKS. DRESSED IN BLACK AND W H ITE. BUT IN LONG

H E LD ( A S WAS J UST M E NTIONED) BETW E E N HER TWO SMALL AND HANDS WITH F I N G E R S H UGELY MAGN I F I ED. SHOELESS U PO N THE CUSHIONS IN

LY I N G

DRESSES OF BYGONE F I N E RY. RICH IN LACE. S I L K BROCADE. FEATH ERS. SEQUINS AND STON E S .

O I S A R R AY AMONG T H E ROSES THAT H A V E S P I LLED FROM T H E W I C K E R TRAY S H E U S E S TO D I S PLAY H E R FLOW E R S TO H E R CUSTO M E R S . SOM E H IG H - H A N D E D A N D D I FFIC U LT.

SEVERAL O F TH E M A R E A LSO WEARING H U G E RINGS AND GIGANTIC B R OOC H E S . OF J E WELS. OR P E N DANTS. AS

D I A DEMS. S U P E RBLY

SPRAYS

GEMS

E A R R I NG S

COM P L E X

AS

F I R EWORKS

A N D WHICH

IT

WAS

ONE

OF

THE

LATTE R

WHO

HAS

J U ST

A P PEAR TO BE MADE W I T H T H E S A M E DROP-SHAPED P E A R LS THE VISUAL A B S T R ACT I O N OF WHICH

B RUTALLY A N D U N E XPECTEDLY C A U S E D THE C H I LD AND HER IN D E LICATE THE WARES TO T U M B L E STA N D I N G TO THE

CONTI N U E S T O FALL V E RTICA LLY ON LY TO BOU NCE BACK AT

BEFORE THEM. TOWA RD THE

F LOO R .

DISTANCE.

S L I G HTLY

ONCE

A P A RT FROM T H E OTH E RS. I S T H E M A N WITH THE BALD HEAD AND N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES OBSERV I NG T H E R E S U LTS OF HIS VIOLENT ACT. A C R U E L S M I L E ON H I S L I P S . H E M A Y H A V E T A K E N ADVAN

F L I ES A LONG E N D L E S S L Y R E N E W E D P A R A BO L I C SEGMENTS.

OTH E R S A R E

B E D I Z E N E D WITH

ARTI FIC I A L ROSES

TAGE OF T H E A PP L E USED

MOM E N T TO P U R LO I N T H E HOLLOW FOR S E C R E T M E SSAGES THAT WAS

AND LILIES OR G I A NT BUTTERFLIE S.

CONC E A L E D U N D E R TH E LEAVES O F THE FLOWERS. THE F E E T OF N E A R LY ALL U PO N R E S T. IN VARIOUS LITTLE AS BUT J U S T NOW A M U FF L E D CRY I S HEARD FROM THE LITTLE THEATRE WHERE NOT H I NG. TO A L L A PPEAR A N C ES. H A S MOVED.

CONTORTED FUR RUGS

POSITIONS. OR A LACE

CUSHIONS.

MATS. OF

THUS

OFFERI NG. A

THOUGH

ON

S E R I ES

S H ELVES.

WHOLE O N E OF T H E YOUNG WOM E N I N T H E A U D I E NC E A S THOUGH POSITION P A R A LY Z E D BY HER C O N ST R A I N E D

COLLECTION OF FOOTWE A R FOR C U STOM ERS W I T H SPEC I A L TA STES. FROM B OO T S T O BA LL-SLI PPERS. AND SANDALS WITH L E A T H E R THONGS C R I S S

H A S S U D D E N LY LOST CONSC IOUSN ESS.

CROSSING FROM P A I NTED TOE - N A I LS TO CA LF.

WITHOUT HER COM PA N IO N S SO M UC H A S BATTING AN E Y E L I D. E V E N THOSE N EXT TO H E R. S H E HAS

THE FULL EVEN I NG GOWNS A R E . MORE OFTEN THAN NOT. TUCKED UP V E R Y H IGH E X PO S I NG LONG LEGS SWATH E D I N S I LK. S O O N E M A Y ADMIRE AT GREATER EASE THE DIFFERENT ONCE SPECIMENS TO BET (WILL ON IT BE OF

S L U M P E D BACKWARDS W I T H A LOW GROA N SHE WAS NO LON G E R ABLE TO RESTRA I N . HER HEAD O N O N E S I DE. H E R L I P S PARTED A N D EYES C LOSED. Q U I T E U N C O N S C I O U S ON T H E C R U E L LY H A R D S EAT. I T I S N O W A P P A R E N T THAT S H E I S ATTA C H E D T O T H E FO U R TIGHT RO P E S OF P E A R LS FO R M A WITH DOG TH E I R

N EC E S S A R Y

MORE

ONE

THEM?)-SO HIGH I N FACT. AND I N THE ABSENCE O F U N DE R GA R M E NTS. I T H A P P E N S T H A T WHAT I S ALSO

M ET A L L I C

G L I TT E R

THAT

COLLA R

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A R O U N D H E R N ECK. AS W E L L AS THE BRACE LETS AROUND THONGS HER F I R M LY W R I STS. ARE ACT U A L L Y SOLI D

ROSA R Y B I N D S TOG ETH E R AT H E R JOI N E D W R I STS THE L U M I NOUS ROSE S Y M BOLIZING H E R V I RG I N ITY. THE TARGET OF A DD I T I O N A L C R U E LTY FROM H E R PERSEC UTORS.

H O L D I N G THE

G I R L PRISON E R I N

T H E C H A I R : O N E A T THE TOP O F THE STRAIGHT BACK AND O N E AT E AC H END O F T H E ARM-RESTS.

ON THE STAGE. HOW E V E R. THE SC E N E CONTI N U E S : IN A LL LI K E L I HOOD HER SI NGU LARLY RIGID T H E L I TT L E FLOWER-GI R L I S N O W A WA K E N I NG AS THOUG H FROM A D R E A M LESS S L E E P AND I MME

POS I TION.

WITHOUT T H E

SLIGHTEST

LATITUDE OF

MOVE M E NT. THAT HER BONDS H A V E FORCE D H E R TO A DOPT-A N D THE P E R H A PS FOR SEVERAL HOURS-IS

D I A T E LY R I V ETS H E R GAZE O N THE E Y E S OF H E R D O U B L E . THE YOUNGEST OF A L L T H E SPECTATORS S I TT I N G WITHOUT ON THE OTH E R SIDE OF THE GLASS. TH I S

CAUSE O F HER

PRESENT STATE (FATAL?) . . .

A N D A L L THE M O R E SO A S THE SPIKE H E E L OF O N E OF H E R P I N K SLI PPERS WITH PEARL POM POMS H A S A LSO B E E N R I VETED T O TH E WOODEN FRONT OF T H E C H A I R . K E E P I NG H E R L E G I N T H E A I R A S THOUGH I N A STI R RUP. TH U S FORC I NG HER KNEE TO BEND

D I STU R B I N G VISION. A THIS

FOR

AN

I N STA N T SHE

R E F LECTED HER

M I RAGE.

R I S E S TO

FEET WITH

P I R O U ETTE. S H E D D I N G AS S H E

D O E S SO T H E L I G H T E M B ROI D E R E D L A C E V E I L THAT HAD PA RTLY C O NC E A LE D HER TORSO. THE

S H A R PLY T O T H E S I D E A N D H E R A N K L E T O TOUCH. OR N E A RLY. HER G E N I T A LS. WHICH A R E EXPOSED I N FULL V I EW D U E T O T H E W I D E A NGLE PRODUC E D

M A K E S H I FT C H E M I S E O F T H E WRY YOUNG WHORE. T H E N S H E A RR A N G E S HER BLACK STOC K I NGS A N D S L I P S I NTO A PA I R O F F I N E H IGH-H E E L E D S HOES. MOTHE R-OF- P E A R L B U TT E R F L I E S ARE C L I N G I N G TO HER BLONDE TRESSES.

W H E N H E R L E G S W E R E P U L L E D APA RT.

J U ST

B E LOW

THE

LOW E R BLACK

A R C.

HOLDING

HER IS UPON R E M A R K I NG T H I S LAST DETA I L T H E N A RRA TOR BECOME A WA R E O F A SECOND I NCONSISTENCY IN THIS ACCO U N T: IF HIS M EMORY SERVES HIM

GA RTERS.

O F THE

WASP-CORSET S H E

W E A R I NG A N D NOTH I NG E LSE. A N D WHOSE L I N E S OF FORCE THIN HER WA I ST AND P U S H U P H E R B R E A STS U N D ERSCO R E D BY SACRED MORE ROPES OF P E A R LS. T H E ARE DIS

W ELL-A N D FRAGILE

I N T H I S CASE

I T DOES-TE M PLE. T H E HER ROSES

T R I A N G L E' S

B L O N D E TU FTS

F L O W E R -G I R L

PEDDLING

P L AY E D I N A L L D U E POMP. R EFLECTI NG MOREOV E R I N T H E C E N T R E O F T H E OVA L M I RROR I N V E N E TI A N C RYSTA L LYING O N T H E FLOOR BEFORE H E R TO

N E A R THE OPERA H O U S E . WAS D A R K- H A I RED. V E R Y D A R K - H A I RED. BUT P E R H A PS T H E L O N G BLON D E

H A I R OVE R T H E R E . A S GOLDEN A N D U ND U LATING A S A F I E L D O F R I P E N E D W H EAT. I S S I M PLY-L I K E SO M A N Y OTH E R T H I NGS IN THIS HOUSE-THE R E S U LT

SERVE AS A FOOT- R EST. U N ATTA I N A BLE.

FRANK

V.

FRANCIS

A B R U PT L Y B E C O M E S C O N

OF S O M E A RT I F I C E OR OTH ER. FOR I N STA NCE. O N E WOU L D S W E A R T H A T T H E G I R L H A S GROWN E V E N YOUNGER. F O R T H I S I S T H E E FFECT PRODUCED BY HER FEATURES-MORE C H I L D L I K E T H A N EVER-I N

SC IOUS OF A N A NO M A L Y W H I C H DO E S NOT F A I L TO C A U S E H I M M I S G I V I NGS: NO O N E H E R E S E E M S TO NOTICE HIS PRESENCE. SINCE HE C A NNOT H A V E

B E C O M E I N V I S I B L E ( E V E N U N D E R TH E MAGIC S P E L L OF THE HOLLOW M ES S A G E - A P P L E I l . THE ONLY

THE G L A R E OF T H E P ROJ ECTORS. W H E R E A S O N T H E CONTRA R Y T H E P E A R LS SC ATTERED AROU N D H E R H A V E G R O W N B I GG E R U NT I L THEY H A V E BECOM E

A DM I S S I BLE E X P LA NATION I S THAT H E I S PROBABLY PART OF THE SC E N E: THE B A L D- H E A D E D MAN

LIGHT PA RTY B A LLOONS FLOATING S I LVERY I N T H E C U BE-SH A P E D ROOM. CONC U R RENTLY THE OVA L

W E A R I NG N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES I S NONE OTH E R THA N HIS OWN R E FLECTION IN A SIDE M I RROR.

M I R RO R A N D TH E ROSES LYING H E LTER-SKELT E R NOW BLEND I NTO AND VA R IOUS WITH DECORATIVE OBVIOUS MOTIFS. E ROTIC

SATISFYING

H I M S E L F WITH THAT INTERPRETATION

FOR T H E T I M E B E I NG. T H E I NS PECTOR NOTES J U ST I N C A S E THE FACT THAT THE ROLE PLAYED B Y T H E P E A R L S A S I N ST R U M E N TS O F TORTURE I S BECOM I N G I NC R E A S I N G LY OBVIOUS. I T IS TO BE CONJEC TURED THAT SEVERAL OF THE J EW E L S THEY

HARMLESS

NO

CON NOTATIONS.

TH E

N EXT

TABLEAU.

K N OWN

A S "TH E

BA RTER E D

B R I DE." B E G I N S W I TH A PRESENTATION O F W E D D I N G C O ST U M E S PHANOUS. V E I LS. (FULL W E D D I NG GOWNS. W H ITE. DIA

I N FO R M A R E P R I C K E D D I RECTLY I NTO T H E WOM E N ' S S K I N . A SECOND WOM A N . M O R EOVER. A L S O SHOWS SIGNS OF I LL N E S S O R D I STR ESS: CROWN E D WITH M O T H E R-OF- P E A R L THORNS LIKE A C H R I ST I A N

T R A N S L U C ENT;

I M M AC U LA T E

TULLE L I LY

LACED

P E A R L- C O V E R E D ETC.).

BOOTS.

CROWNED WHO IS

TIA RAS. STI L L

FOR TEM PLE'S NAKED BY BUT

BENEFIT WHO IS

M A RTYR. S H E I S GOING. A S SOON A S S H E C A N N O LON G E R HOLD H E R FROM HER PRESCRI B ED POSE. T O DROP H A N DS-THAT A KIND OF

N E ARLY

RENDERED

A LMOST

NUBILE

A PPROPRIATE

CUPPED

LIGHTI NG. W I T H H E R S M A LL R O U N D B R E A STS. H E R

76

W A I ST A L R E A D Y

P E R C E PT I B L E .

HER

BUDDING

WAY AS T O MAKE ONE F E A R ( O R HOPE FOR) T H E WORST A S FAR AS TH E G I R LS' F A T E IS CONCERNED.

FLEECE SHADI NG H E R P U B I S WITH S I LKY DOWN. S H E STANDS FACING THE PUBLIC. H E R L E G S SOMEWHAT APA RT. THOUGHTFU LLY C O N S I D E R I N G THE ELE GANT DRESS M A K E R-SLAVES AS THEY SPREAD AT HER FEET TH E TRAPPINGS. THE F R I L LS AND THE F L O U N C E S F O R THE S A C R I F I C E . SHE I S STI L L

BUT NOW A DEATH FIGURE APPEARS I N THE PARADE (THE BI R DS WERE PROBABLY ITS HARBINGER).

COSTUM E D S O AS T O EVOKE ASSOCIATIONS-oFTE N MACABRE-WITH WHITE V E I LS A N D BLACK M E S H . TEM PLE I S FRIGHTENED. S H E TURNS TOW A R D T H E TALL B A R OQ U E M I R R O R B E H I N D H E R . HER

WEARI NG ONLY H E R LONG BLACK GLOVES-oNE I S RESTING ON H E R H I P A N D THE OTH E R CUPS H E R CHIN. F I N G E R S S P R EA D - A N D STOC K I NGS THAT EACH GARTER SPORTI NG A

REFLECTION SEEMS BLURRED TO H ER. AS THOUGH IT MIGHT DISSOLVE. S H E CLOSES H E R EYES. A N D HER AWAREN ESS OF W H A T IS A RO U N D H E R B E G I N S T O F A D E . S H E FEELS FAI NT. THE M I R ROR'S LIQU I D I S

HALT AT M I D-THIGH.

ROSE WITH A GOLDEN H E A RT.

THERE I S A FURTH E R CHANGE IN THE LIGHTING AND S U D D E N LY F R O M TH E S H A DOWS SEVERAL B I R O CAGES EM ERGE. CYLINDRICAL I N S H A P E AND O F V A ST PROPORT I O N S (IF CROUCHED. THE G I R L

SUDDENLY INVERTED A N D FI LLS WITH V E I N S. PANTHER SKINS

MARBLED

A N D TATTE R E D C H L A

MYDES. TOWA RDS W H I C H TEMPLE S E N S E S S H E I S BEING SUCKED. AS THOUGH BY A GIGA NTIC S E A A N E M O N E . BY THE G L A S S TURNED T O S P O N G E A N D T H E FLOOR T H E SAME. SOFT AND Y I E LDING.

COULD FIT TH E R E I N ) . I N S I D E O F W H I C H HUGE JET BLACK RAVENS B E A T T H E I R W I N GS . LONE A N D

PERHAPS FAMISHED; T H EY APPEAR AT T H I S POI NT IN THE NARRATIVE (EVEN THOUGH O N E DOES NOT EXACTLY SUDDEN U N D E RSTA N D TH E REFERENCE) OLD AS REASON FOR T H I S SHE FALLS DIZZI LY FORWARD. HER BLONDE H A I R TRACES A W A V Y PATH DOWN H E R B A C K . . .

A R E M I N D E R OF T H E THE LITTLE G I R L I S NOW ON THE OTHE R S I D E OF T H E M I R ROR WHOSE SI DES SHE HAS P U S H E D A PART TO STEP TH ROUGH THE FRAME MORE EASI LY. AND

DEATH OF THE RIGHT NOW

K I NG . C H A R LES-BORIS. B U T MANNEQUINS ARE ON

FASHION

GRACEFUL PARADE. COSTU M E D L I K E B R I DES FOR THE CEREMONY. TH E BETTER TO SHOW OFF THE ARTICLES PRESENTED. S I LENTLY. ONE AFTER

FINDS H ERSELF I N A VAST BOURGEOIS DRAWING ROOM WITH ITS OVERLY OR NATE DECORATIONS AND I N WHICH T H E YOUNG I M MOBILE WOM E N S E E M TO BE WAITI NG THE H A B I T U E S OF TH E HOUSE. H A L F

ANOTHER. THE G I R LS A PPROACH A N D G R E ET THE N E WLY C H O S E N ONE. A U R EO L E D WITH THOSE

FLUTTERING WEDOING V E I LS ON DISPLAY A WHI LE AGO-AS M E NTIO N E D - I N SPLE N D I D SHOP I M PO R T A N C E OF THE W I N DOWS O F TH E AND WHOSE

DRESSED (SOMETI MES EVEN LESS SO. AS THOUGH THE FA SHION DI SPLAY I N WHICH THEY TDOK PART HAS LEFT THEM WITH O N LY TATTER E D. TOR N OR M I S MATC H E D PIECES OF CLOTHI NG). THE WOM E N ARE SEATED P R I M LY I N PADDED A R M C H A I R S A N D O N VELVET D A R K R E D SOFAS. OR R EC L I N I NG O N COUCHES A M I DST T H E H EAPED PI LLOWS. SOM E A R E

I LLUSIONS.

HAS OFTEN

B E E N CA PITAL I N

EFFECTI NG THE DISCREET CAPTUR E OF MANY A PRISONER IN THE PALACE OF I LLUSION.

THE

NEXT ONES.

H E R D E D A LONG

BY SEVERAL

LYING U PON ORI ENTAL RUGS OR A N I M A L S K I N S I N THE MOST R E L A X E D OF POSES. THEIR LEGS

STERN N UNS. H A V E NOTH I NG COV E R I NG THEM BUT BLACK MESH TIGHTS. FEATH ERS. A N D THE I R LONG HAIR. OR SOM ETI M ES AN ARRAY O F N EG LIGEES.

A K I M BO.

T H E I R H E A DS TH R O W N B A C K . T H E I R

GENITALS O N DISPLAY. A S THOUGH U NCONSCIOUS. PERHAPS EVEN LIFELESS. THE EFFECT OF THIS

THAT PROFANE. LIGHT AND INTIMATE UNDERCLOTH ING WHOSE VESTAL WHITENESS ONLY S E RVES TO EM PHASIZE ITS LICENTIOUSNESS. ONE OF THEM.

TABLEAU SUGGESTS TH E PASSAGE O F BARBA R I A N CUSTO. ERS W H O H A V E J UST VICTI M IZED TWO OR TH REE OF THE I N M ATES. THE S U RVIVORS CONTEM PLATE T H E SA C R I F I C E D BO D I E S W I T H O U T T H E S L I G HT E S T V I S I B L E E M OT I O N . A C C U STO M E D APPARENTLY-TO THESfi: EXACTIONS.

L I K E SALOME BEFORE H E ROD. I S W E A R I NG NOTH ING BUT J EWELS I N A RABESQUE PATTE R N S ON H E R S K I N ; A NOTHER I S W E A R I NG O N L Y H E R SOFT. KNEE HIGH BOOTS A N D A DOG LEASH OF BRAIDED

LEATHER THAT H A N G S ABOUT H E R N E C K A N D DOWN TO H E R B ELLY W H E R E IT DANGLES BETWEEN H E R LEGS; S E V E R A L D I S P L A Y T H E P E R F E C T I O N OF TH E I R NAKED BREASTS WITH TH E I R H EADS NEARLY C I RCLED BY ENORMOUS H A LOS THAT RECALL TH E ONES ON BYZA N TI N E SAI NTS A N D U PON WHICH. THE RAVENS H OW E V E R HAVE BEEN RELEASED

FROM TH E I R C A G E S A N D T H E Y A R E P E R C H E D H E R E AND T H E R E U PON T H E C A R V E D CORNICES OF T H E FURNITUR E OR ON THE PEDIMENTS OF THE

M I R RORS. O N E O F TH E M TAKES POND E ROUS BUT SI LENT FLIGHT AND PERCHES ON THE U N PROTEC-

ONCE AGA IN. THE PEARLS A R E DEC K E D IN SUCH A

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TEO BELLY OF AN U NCONSCIOUS G I R L. A NOTH ER. WANTING TO BE STROKED. SPREADS HIS ROYA L

GIRL

FEIGNS

I N D EC I S I O N

TO C O N C E A L

HER

DUPLICITY. T H E N S H E TRIES O N VARIOUS OUTFITS DESIGNED TO A RO U S E THE I NTEREST OF A CERTA I N C A TEGORY O F C US TO M E R. R A N G I N G F R O M BEG GA R'S RAGS O R A TURN OF THE CENTU RY BATHI N G COST U M E TO A S INGLE F U L L - B LO W N ROSE

PLUMAGE. E R ECT IN ALL ITS GLORY. AGAI NST THE NAKED BREASTS OF A DOOM E D CAPTI VE WHO IS

HA LF-RECLI N I NG O N A CA NOPY. AT H E R FEET LIES A LION S K I N EVOKI NG SOMETH I NG THAT M UST H A V E OCCURRED ELSEWH E R E I N TH E N A R RATIVE. BUT

CONC EALI NG H E R VULVA. I F S H E DOES NOT BEHAVE S H E W I L L BE LOC K E D I NS I D E THE D E A D DOLL SHOP. W H E R E SHE DOES NOT EVEN NOTICE. R EFLECTED I N

WHAT? A N D WHERE?

ONE

OF

TH E

NUNS

GOES

U P TO TEMPLE

AND

THE DEPTHS O F A LOOKING GLASS. THE BALD H E A D OF T H E N A R RATOR.

W H I SPERS A FEW I N A U D I B L E WORDS T O HER. WITH TH E PROBABLE I NTENTION OF PERSUA DING HER TO REJOI N H E R COMPANIONS. A N D TO WAIT WITH THEM I N THE A R MC H A I R OF THE DRAWING ROOM WHOSE YOUNGEST ORNAMENT SHE WILL BE. THE LITTLE

ALAIN ROBBE-G R I LLET

TRA NSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE

7.

R. MOVES AWAY FROM HER CAR. DISAPPEARS I NTO T H E C ROWD.

B.

R. BOARDS A STREET BUS.

8 BIS.

PLATFORM OF B U S TRAVELLING TOWARD THE PALAI 5- ROYAL.

8 TER.

THE CONDUCTOR TA LKING TO A PASSENGER.

9.

THE PASSENGER (FAT. CORPU LENT. TALL). H E GLANCES AT R.

1 0.

R:S HAND HOLDING THE R A I L.

1 1 . TH E H A N D OF THE CORPULENT PASSENGER SLIDING A LONG THE R A I L TO R:S FINGERS W H I C H A R E SLOWLY COV E R E D BY T H E H A N D.

1 2.

R. GOES QUICKLY I N S I D E THE BUS.

1 3.

R. S ITS I N A COR N E R SEAT NEAR AN OPEN W I N DOW.

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I H A V E EVEN M ET H A PPY T R A V E LOS

THE M I R A BELLES A R E EXPE R I M E NTI NG WITH A NEW TYPE OF M I LITANT THEATRE. A THEATRE S E PARATE FROM AN E X P L A N ATO R Y LA N G U AGE. AND LONG TIRADES OF GOOD INTENTIONS. FOR EXAM PLE. ON GAY LIBERATION! THEY H A V E R E CO U R S E TO
A

BEST IT C A N ! I N F A C T IT DESERTS MAN'S B O D Y I N O R D E R T O E M I G RATE T O THE SIDE OF THE WOM A N . OR M O R E P R E C I S E LY. T O TH E BECOMI NGWOMA N SIDE. W H A T I S ESSENTI A L H E R E I S NOT T H E OBJECT I N Q U E S T I O N . B U T T H E T R A N S FO R M A T I O N A L M OV E M ENT. Irs T H I S MOVEM E N T. T H I S PASSAGE. THAT T H E M I R A BELLES HELP US EXPLORE: A MAN WHO LOVES HIS OWN BODY. A M A N WHO LOVES A WOM A N'S BODY OR ANOT H E R M A N'S IS H I MSELF THIS IS OF COURSE
TO T H E

TRANSVESTI S M . SONG. M I M E. DANCE. ETC .. NOT AS D i F F E R E NT WAYS O F f LLUSTR.4.TING TH E: M E . TO "CHANGE THE I D E AS" OF THE SPECTATOR. BUT I N O R D E R T O TROUBLE H I M . T O STIR UP U NC E RTA I N D E S I REZONES THAT H E ALWAYS M O R E OR LESS R E F U S E S TO EXPLORE. T H E QUESTION IS NO LO N G E R TO K N OW W H E T H E R ONE W I L L P L A Y F E M I N I N E AGA INST M A S C U L I N E O R T H E REVERSE. BUT TO MAKE BODIES. A LL BODIES. BREAK AWAY FROM THE REPRESENTATIONS AND RESTRAI NTS OF THE "SOC I A L BODY." A N D FROM STER EOTY P E D SITUATIONS. ATTITUDES A N D BEHAVIORS. OF THE "BREAST PLATE" OF W H I C H W I L H ELM REICH SPOKE. S E X U A L A L I E N A T I O N . O N E OF C A P I T A L I S M 'S FOU N DATIONS. I M PL I E S T H A T THE SOCI A L BODY I S POLA R I Z E D IN M A S C U L I N I TY. W H E R E A S T H E F E M I N I N E BODY I S TRA N S FOR M E D I NTO A N OBJECT OF LUST. A PI ECE OF M E RC H A NDISE TO WHICH ONE CANNOT HAVE AND BY M E C H A N SI M S ACCESS EXC E PT THROUGH GUI LT TO ALL THE SYSTE M'S ( M A R R I AG E . F A M I LY. WOR K . ETC . 1 . SUBMISSION

A LW A Y S S E C R ETLY C H A RA C T E R I Z E D BY A "BE C O M I NGWO M A N . " E V E N LESS TO WOU L D HAVE

THE

MUCH WOM A N .

D I F F E R E N T THAT A N I D E NTI FICATION

MOTHER. A S PSYCHOANA LYSTS B E L I EV E . I N ST E A D . IT IS A

US

QUESTION OF A DIFFER ENT BECOM ING. A STATE I N O R D E R T O BECOME SOM ETHING OTH E R T H A N THAT WHICH THE R E PR E S S I V E SOCI A L BODY H A S FORCED US TO BE. J UST AS WO R K E R S . DESPITE THE E XPLOITATION O F T H E I R WOR K POWER. SUCCEED I N ESTA B L I S H I N G A C E RTA I N K I N D OF R E LATION S H I P T O THE WOR L D'S REA LITY. WOM E N . DESPITE T H E S E X U A L E X P LO I T A T I O N W H I C H T H E Y U N D E RGO. SUCCEED IN E ST A B L I S H I N G
PRI MARILY ON

A C E RT A I N T R U E
THEY LIVE THIS L E V E L O F TH E I R

R E LATIONSH I P T O DESIRE.
R E L A TI O N S H I P BODIES.

AND THE

AND

I F A T T H E ECONOM I C L E V E L TH E

DESIRE. ON THE OTH E R H A N D. H A S T O M A NAGE A S

B O U R G E O I S I E IS NOTH I N G WITHOUT T H E PROLE

BO

TA R I AT,

MEN

A R E N'T IF THEY

M UC H DO

WHERE

BOD I E S

ARE A

R E A L D E S I R E S O F T H E PEOPLE I M PL I E S THAT O N E I S C A PABLE OF L I STE N I NG TO H I S O W N D E S I R E A N D TO THAT OF H I S MOST I M M E D I ATE ENTOURAGE. THAT DOESN'T AT A L L M E A N THAT W E SHOULD PUT CLASS STRUGG LES WAY DOWN ON T H E LA D D E R B E N EATH DESIRE STRUGG L E S . ON THE C O N T R A RY, WILL EACH AN

CONC E R N E D

NOT

ACHIEVE

SUCH

B E C O M I N G- WO M A N , F R O M W H E N C E C O M E S TH E I R DEPENDENCE ON THE WO M A N ' S BODY OR TH E

WOM A N I M AG E W H I C H H A U NTS TH E I R D R E A M S A N D TH E I R O W N BOD I E S , OR W H I C H T H E Y PROJ ECT ONTO THEIR HOMOSEXUAL COM E S TH E TO PARTNE R'S BODY, FROM TO

J U NCTU R E

B E TW E E N

TH E M

BRING

WHENCE WHICH

COUNTER-D E P E N D E NC E REDUCE WOM E N OR

U N E XPECTED E N E RGY TO THE FORM E R.

THEY

TRY

THE THEY AND THAT IS TH E " F R ONT" ON WHICH. WITH M UCH

P R E D A TO R Y A DO P T IN

SEXUAL

B E H A VI O R S THEM,

WHICH

REGARD

TO

ECONOMIC

S E X U A L E X PLOITATION C A N NOT B E

D I S S OC I ATED,

MODESTY A N D T E N A C ITY. TH E M I R A BELLES WORK. BUT THEY THEM E S P EC I A LLY DON'T W A N T U S TO T A K E THEY ARE S T R U G G L I NG FOR IS

B U R E A UC R A C I E S AND TH E B O U RG E OI S I E M A I NTA I N TH E I R POWE R BY B A S I NG T H E M S E L V E S ON S E X U A L SEGR EGATION, AGE C LA SS E S , RACES, THE

S E R I O U SLY: MORE (TH E I R

SOMETH I N G " S E R I O U S!"

I M P O RT A N T T H A N MOTTO:

WHAT

CODI FICATION O F ATTITUDES A N D C L A S S STRATI FI CATION, I M ITATION OF TH E S E SA M E S E G R EGATIONS AND PLE, STRATI FICATIONS REFUSAL TO BY M I LITANTS ( FO R THE EXAM CON

"T R A N S V E ST E D

AND
. .

MON ETA RY C R I SI S . T R A N SVESTED G R E E N B E A N " . W H AT I NTER ESTS THEM IS TO H E LP TO

PULL

LOOK C LO S E LY

AT

HOMOS E X U A LITY O U T O F ITS G H ETTO, E V E N I F I T I S A M I LITANT G H ETTO: WHAT I N T E R ESTS T H E M IS THAT SHOWS LIKE T H E I R S TO UCH NOT ONL Y HOMOSEX U A L C I RCLES. BUT A L S O THE M A S S OF PEOPLE WHO

C RETE A L I E NATION O F WOM E N A N D C H I LD R E N . AT POS S E S S I V E R E S P E CT FOR P R I V ATE LIFE AND THE DOMI NATI NG A TTI T U D E S , AT

BO U R G E O I S S E P A R A T I O N O F PUBLIC ACTIV ITY, E TC , )

AND

J U ST DON'T FEEL GOOD A BOUT TH E M S E LVES.

CONSTITUTES O N E O F T H E FOU N DATIONS O F THE PRESENT B U R E A UCRATIZATION OF TH E REVOLU F E L I X G U A TTA RI

TRANSLATED BY RAC H E L McCOMAS

TION A R Y WORKER'S M O V E M ENT. LISTE N I NG FOR THE

POLLY ORlAND PAUL

POLLY WAS SECRETLY A M A N IN WOM A N'S PANTIES. H E R / H I S P A R E NTS H A D DEC I D E D O N F E M A LE I S S U E

A N D W H E N POLLY A P P E A R E D W E A R I N G THE USUAL

FROM

TH E

USUAL

FUM BLINGS

B E FO R E

THEIR

N U PT I A L A N D S O THEY W E R E QUITE U N P R E P A R E D

F O R WHATEV E R OCC U R E D. FLICTING. ACTUA LLY.

CAN AS

R E PORTS AS

ARE

CON

M A LE ACCOUTR E M E NTS. TH E I R COLLECTI V E

H E R/ H I S P A R E NTS PUT

FAR

M I SS T H R I P PE .
FROM A

IDS TOGETH E R A N D S I M PLY POLLY WAS RAISED

LIBRARIAN,

A S C E R TA I N

(TH I S

IGNORED POLLY'S

ADDENDA.

FOOTNOTE ON A N E W E NZYM E S H E D I SCOVERED I N T H E A M A N ITA V I ROSA W H I C H PROVES CONC L U S I V E

LY T H A T M O S T DEATH A R E PSYCHOSOMATIC) POLLY

POLLY. BOUNC I NG R I NG LETS UNTI L TWELVE YEARS OF AGE AND BANGS A FTERWARDS W E LL I NTO THE P U B L I C Y E A R S . M A S T U R B A T I O N T R I GG E R E D B Y POLLY'S F U RT I V E R E A D I NG S

WAS UNMASKED AS

PAUL.

AND

PA U L, ONCE H I S

LA

F L A S H LIGHT

PANTS WERE DOWN THOROUGHLY. W A S B A S I C A LLY A POLLY. A LTHOUGH THE FOOTNOTE B R E A KS OFF

UNDER M I D N IGHT BLA N K ETS. WAS ACCOM PLISHED BY M E A N S O F A N A D ROIT F I N G E R I NT R O D U C E D UNDER TH E PREPUCE THE A N D TWI R L E D COUNTER R E S U LTS W E R E LONG

HERE

IN

M I D-ECSTA SY. NO ONE S E E M S TO KNOW

ANYTHI NG AT ALL A BOUT THE ACTUA L GOI NGS- I N

A N D -OUT OF THAT N IGHT ( M I S S T H R I P P E FOOTNOTE.

C L OC K W I S E .

WH ITE

M I STA K E N FOR TH E M E N ST R U A L FLOW AND POLLY DUTIF ULLY MASTURBATED ONCE EIGHT TIM E DAYS, LONG E V E N THOUGH B E TW E E N E V E R Y TWENTY

ALAS.

MAY

EVEN

BE

A POC R Y P H A L ) .

ALL WE DO

KNOW, AND T H I S M E R E L Y A D D S TO TH E CON FUSION.

S H E / H E FOU N D THE EXPOSU R E OF HAPPENED ON

BUT WE FEEL I T S H O U LD GO INTO TH E DOSS I E R

A N YWAY. I S THAT PA U L A N D POLLY O P E N E D A D I N E R

P E RIODS, IT

COU RSE

WAS

I N E V I TA B L E :

OUTS I DE A N A UTOMOBILE PLANT I N W I N DSOR M EWS. THE DINER WAS A R E MODELED H A N D- C A R .

H A LLOWE E N WHICH A LSO H A P P E N E D TO B E HER/HIS WEDDI NG NIGHT, POLLY'S PARTNE R (WE S H A LL CALL HIM PA U L FOR A M B IGUITY'S SAKE) HAD R E F R A I N E D

D A N I E L S LOATE

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USE ME
LET US R E R E A D P R E S I D E N T SC H R E B E R'S M E MOIRES: "TH E R E M A R K PREVIOUS H A S A L R E A DY THAT BEEN THE MADE RAYS I N THE (GOD'S BUT F I RST. WHO W A NTS THIS S C A N D A L. THIS

F E M I N IZATION? " I T W A S P E RFECTLY N A T U R A L THAT FROM A HUMAN PO I N T OF V I EW DOMI NATING ME

C H A PT E R S

N E RVES) W H I C H WERE ATTRACTED. CONSENTED TO T H I S ATTRACTION A G A I NST TH E I R W I L L BEC A U S E IT L E D TO THUS. A LOSS OF T H E I R OWN E X I STENCE. A N D IN OF

T H E N . O N LY I N PROFESSOR FLECHSIG ISCH E B E R'S A N A LYSTl. O R I N HIS SOU L. D I D I CONTI N U A LLY S E E MY REAL E N E M Y. AS MY A LLY. I I MA G I N E D THE

CONTRADICTED IT WAS A

THE

CONSERVATION THER EFORE.

A L M IGHTY D I V I N I TY W H O M I P E R C E I V E D I N D A N G E R . TH R E A TE N E D FOR E . BY P ROFESSOR FLECHSIG. THERE

ST I N C T .

Q U E ST I O N .

CON STA NTLY TION. IN

TRYING T O S U S P E N D T H E ATTRAC WOR DS. TO GET AWAY FROM MY

I THOUGHT I POSSI B L E . IT

H A D TO H E L P GOD BY EVERY EVEN O N LY IF IT MEANT LAT E R BEING THAT I

OTH E R

MEANS

N E RVES L . . J. T H E M A I N IDEA WAS A LWAYS TO H A V E M E STRA N D E D. T O A B A N DO N M E . W H I C H AT TH E TI M E S E E M E D POS S I B L E T O ACCOMPLISH BY PUTTING A P R I C E ON MY BODY. AS ON A PROSTITUTE'S BODY.

SACRI FICED.

WAS

MUCH

B EC A M E CON V I N C E D THAT GOD H I M S E L F H A D B E E N A N ACCO M P L I C E I F N OT A UTHOR OF T H E PLOT S E T U P TO K I LL M Y SOU L A N D PROSTITUTE M Y BODY L . . 1 .

SOM ETI M E S A LSO BY PUTTING M E TO DEATH A N D. LATER. BY THE DESTRUCTION OF MY INTELLIGENCE ( BY D R I V I NG M E M A D)." A N D. L I K E A R E A L WHORE. SC H R E B E R A DDS. "AS F A R AS THE ATTEM PTS AT TRAN SFORMATION ARE CONC E R N E IT SOON THE P ROSTITUTE A C C E PTS P ROSTITUTION I N T H E

N A M E OF A S U PE R I O R I N T E REST. S H E WA NTS IT. A N D I N T H I S R EG A R D. S H E I S S I M I L A R T O A M A RTYR; S H E TESTI F I E S THROUGH H E R H U M I LI ATION. M A G D A L E N E A S J E S U S. SHE B E G I N S TO TESTIFY A G A I N ST H E R P R OC U R E R . THE D I S S OC I AT I O N OF THE TWO

BECA M E C L E A R THAT TH E PROGRESSIVE FILLING UP OF MY BODY WITH (FEMI NINE) V O L U PTUOUS

N E RVES

H A D THE OPPOSSITE

EFFECT. THAT THE

I N STA NCES (GOD A N D P I M P) I S STI L L N A I V E : G O D A S THE A FFECTIVE I N STANCE. S I N C E T H E S U F F E R I NG I S E X PO S E D T O H I S EYES A N D G I V E N T O H I S H E A RT; THE P R OC U R E R AS THE ECONOMICAL I N STA NCE.

R E S U LTA NT VOLUPTUOUS D E LIGHT WITH I N M Y BODY W A S IN FACT I N C R E A S I N G THE POWER OF ATTRAC TION," LIKE A REAL G I R L. OR RATH ER. OF T H E WAS HE

CARRIED D E N C E?

AWAY

BY T H E

POW E R

D E PEN

SINCE H E R E I T IS F L E C HSIG. BUT A LSO H E ROD. OR P I LATE. WHO C O N V E RTS THI S SUFFERING I NTO

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MAKING A PROFIT. THUS IGNORING IT AS

STATE

OF

D E P E N D E NC E . IS THE

R ELEGATED

TO TH E HERE

SUCH. THEN. IN THE S UCCEEDING MOMENT. IN THE SUCCEEDING TI M E FRAM E (THE MOMENT OF WRITING. AND THIS IS I M PORTANT: "TH I S I DEA E M E RGED ONLY MUCH LATER. COMING TO MY M I ND. I DARE SAY. ONLY AS I WAS WRITING THI S PI ECE."). THE TWO NAMES. FLECHSIG AND GOD. M ERGE. TH E I N STANCE OF IF NOT MORE

ASYLU M: SUCH

LAW OF T H E

MOB.

XAVIERE SAYS W H A T IS ESSENTIA L: "TH E P U N I SH M E NT IS AGA I N THE WAY TO GET A H U MAN B E I NG TO ACCEPT THE UNACCEPTA BLE. BUT IT I S A LSO THIS SA DO-M ASOCHI STIC LINK THAT I N THE END MAKES YOU FEEL SOMETHING TOWA RDS YOU R PROC U RERS. THIS SOMETHING H A S NO N A M E. IT IS BEYOND LOVE AND HATE. BEYOND SENTIM ENTS. A SAVAGE JOY MIXED WITH SHAME. JOY TO E N D U R E AND TO HOLD OUT. TO B E LONG A N D TO FEEL FREED FROM

APPEAL APPEARS TO B E J UST AS

C R I M I N A L THAN THAT OF THE C R I M E. THE N THE P I M P- G O O - D O C T O R A C Q U I R E S H I S L I B I D I N A L D I M E NSION: T H E O R D E R O F T H E WORLD. SAYS SCH REBER. I S R E A L LY VIOLATED BY TH E PROJECT OF M Y TRANSFORM ATION I NTO WOM A N ( PROSTI TUTE): THERE I S NO I N STANCE OF A PPEAL. GOD IS ALSO PERSEC UTING M E . HE I S NOT THE HONEST J UDGE WHO R EC E I V E S M Y S U F F E R I NG. H E I S THE PIMP WHO D E M A N D S IT AND USES IT TO MAKE A PROFIT. THEREFORE R E V E A L I NG IT A N D EXPLOITING IT I N THE DUPLICITY OF S U FF E R I NG-JOUISSANCE.

FREEDOM. IT M U ST E X I ST FOR ALL W O M E N . I N EVERY COUPLE AT LEAST ON A M I NOR OR U NCONSCIOUS LEVEL. I C A NNOT REALLY EXPLA I N I T. IT I S A DRUG. LIKE THE FEELING O F LIVING YOU R LIFE SEVERAL T I M ES ALL AT ONCE WITH U NBELIEVABLE INTENSITY. THE PI M PS TH EMSELVES F E E L THAT "SOMETHI NG" WHEN THEY PUNISH. I'M SURE." THAT N A M E LESS WHY GIVE I T TH E N A M E O F SA DO

SOMETHING.

MASOC H I S M AS SHE SUGGESTS? H E R E WE ARE IN SCHREBER PROTESTS: HIS FIGHT TO GET OUT OF M E NTA L I NSTITUTION S. W H E R E EVERYBODY WANTS TO PUT H I M. I S THE SA M E STRUGGLE A S THAT OF A G I R L TO GET AWAY FROM THE U N D ERWORLD AND THE WHOREHOUSE/R E D LIGHT D I STRICT W H E R E S H E IS C O N F I N E D. BECAUSE. AS WE HAVE SEEN. THE MI DDLE OF A PROCESS O F D I S S I M U LATION. I F FLECHSIG I S THIS VERTIGO'S NAME, THE P I M P OR TH E COM M U N ITY OF PIMPS I S TOO. WHAT DI SAP P E A R S I N T H E P U N I S H M E NT. R E G A R D I N G T H I S VERTIGO. I S T H E I LLUSION O F A N EGO: "TH EY HAD SUCCEEDED SINCE FROM THEN ON I E X I STED ONLY THROUGH THEM,"

SCHREBER WANTS TO B E T H E PROSITUTE O F GOD. HE W A NTS T O E X P E R I E NC E P L E A S U R E L I K E A WOM A N AND GIVE GOD PLEASURE. I F NOT AS H I S LOVER. T H E N A T LEAST A S H I S M A STER. T H I S I S WHY SCH R E B E R WANTS TO B E ALL WOMEN A N D WOMAN ALL T H E T I M E . A N D T H E " I N C E S S A N T LY" A N D

BUT OF COURSE. A S I N THE GOOD OLD M A STER SLAVE D I A L ECTIC. T H I S EXTR E M E D E P E N D E N C E C A N BE M A N I P U LATED BY T H E WOM A N AS A W E A PO N AGAINST THE M ASTER. I N LOVE. IT I S P E R H A PS THE FEM I N I N E ORGASM THAT ATTRACTS TH E BOD I E S TO BLIND M I X I NG: THUS SCH REBER WANTS TO BE MORE WOMAN A N D MORE PROSTITUTE. AND T H E R EFORE. MORE AND MORE M A D. MORE A N D MORE "DEAD." I N ORDER TO SEDUCE FLEC H S I G A N D GOD EVEN

"CONTIN UOUSLY" THAT REA PPEARS U N D E R H I S PEN

TO DEFINE T H E NATU RE. ACCORDING TO HIM. OF

FLECHSIG-GOD'S PLEASURE: THERE IS (A) CONTl NU OUS WOMAN. T H I S C A N BE CON S I D E R E D AS THE EFFORT OF T H E CREATURE TO REACH THE LEVEL OF THE DIVI N E O M N I T E M PORALITY: "EVEN WHEN I WAS LIVING ALONE I N MY STUDIO." SAYS XAVIERE LAFONT. A FORM E R PROSTITUTE OF RATHER GREAT N OT E R I ETY. "T H E P H O N E W O U L D R I N G AT A L L

BETTER. SO, I S IT A QUESTION OF INTU ITION RATH E R THAN I NTENSITY? A N D AT TH I S . .PONT. W H E R E WITH XA V I E R E WE THOUGHT WE HAD FO U N D T H E

STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS ("I WOULDN'T SAY I REGRET THI S LIFE. BUT YOU M I SS IT FOREVER. IT I S LIKE COCA I N E. YOU NEVER FIND T H I S INTENSITY I N . . . NORM A L LI FE"). SHOULD W E M A K E ROOM FOR POWER AND ITS COM PLICITY WITH EVERY WEAK

HOURS. CHECKING I F I W E R E H O M E I . . . THE PIMPS] HAVE ALL THE TI M E THEY N E E D TO GET YOU. EVEN I N A M ERICA I F THEY WANT." AND EVEN WHEN SHE QUIT HER JOB. "SOM ETI M E S THE PHONE WOULD

R I NG. EVEN IN THE M I DDLE OF THE NIGHT. AND ON TH E OTHE R END. THERE WOULD B E NOTHI NG. J U ST THE SOU N D OF H E AVY BR EATH I NG. A N D T H E N .

NESS? FOR S U REI BUT TH ERE IS NOT A REASON TO DISREGARD THE STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS: I NSTENSITY H I DES IN SIGNS AND I NSTA NCES. IF THE PROPER NOUN I S THE PIMP OR GOD. IT I S A LSO THE OCCASION OF TH I S U NSPEAKABLE "SOMETHI NG."

T H E Y WOULD HANG U P."

IN THE CONSTITUTUTION O F T H I S A M B I V A L E N C E WHICH MIXES UP GOD AND P I M P, GOD AND

THE "EGO" DOESN'T FALL INTO D E P E N DENCE ONLY BECAUSE O F A M I S E RABLE FLUCTUATION IN T H E POWER G A M E. I N THE D E A D OF N IGHT, WHEN P A L M S AND LOOKS ARE EXHAUSTED. W H E N P E N I S A N D VU LVA ARE I N TATTERS. WHEN T H E SCORCHED

FLECHSIG. THE PUNISHMENT I S A DECISIVE ELEM ENT: IT IS CALLED P E R SECUTION BY SCH REBER. STI LL IT I S THE SAME AS THE P U N I S H M ENT THAT XAVI ERE M UST E N DURE. BEING LOCKED U P. REDUCED TO A

EARTH HAS NO TACTICS LEFT. TH I S ORDER CAN

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FROM A

THE

H O A R S E A N D I NT I MATE "USE M E"-TH I S M E A NS.

T H E B E LO V E D A N D O M N I P R E S E N T-TH I S O V E R PRICED Q U A LITY IS FIXED BY JESUS AS THE

WOM A N :

IS

NO ME. NO EGO. PROSTITUTION I S THE

R E D E M PT I O N P R I C E OF S I N . I N T H I S SENSE. J E S U S I S A CALCULATING P ROSTITUTE: YOU M A K E M E D I E . I T H U RTS. B U T E V E R YO N E B R EAKSI E V E N P E R V E RTS OR FOOLS ("THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO") W I L L B E R E C U P E R A T E D I NTO THE GRACIOUS B O D Y O F THE C R EA T E R. I . E. . T H E C A PITAL. A N D G O D I S A P I M P W H O S A Y S TO H I S W I FE JESUS. A S H E S A Y S TO

POLITICAL A SPECT O F D E P E N DENCE. BUT THERE IS A LSO A L I B I D I N A L A SPECT. OVERLOOK E D B Y SADE. THE DEMAND FOR PASSIVITY IS A DEMA N D FOR

SLA V E RY. THE DEMA N D FOR D E PENDENCE IS NOT A PLEA TO BE DO M I N ATED. TH E R E IS NO D I A LECTIC OF THE SLAVE: NEITHER H E G E L' S NOR LACAN'S

D I A LECTIC O F TH E H YSTER IC. BOTH PRESU PPOSE A P E R M UTATION OF ROLES WITHIN THE SPACE OF

SCHREBER. "DO IT FOR ME. DO IT FOR THEM." WHAT DOES J E S U S GET F ROM ALL TH I S. YOU ASK? A N D JUST W H A T D O E S A PROSTI TUTE G E T FROM SELLING TH E MOST U N P REDICTABLE PA RTS O F HER BODY? HER LOOKS. HER TA LENTS A S A DRESS M A K E R. H E R SHOES. A N D W H A T DO E S SCH R E B E R GET? T H I S I S NOT T H E Q U E STION. T H E PROSTITUTE SCH RE B E R O R J E S U S I N VENTS A N D D E F I N ES H I M SELF BY C A R E F U L P LA N N I NG AS A S U B J ECT. EVEN IF O N LY IN

DO M I NATION. ALL TH I S IS V I R I L E BULLSH IT. "USE ME" TENDS TOW A R D S THE MALE MEMBER E R ECTED

ABOVE T H E SMALL O F A BACK. THE I LLUSION OF POWER. OF A R E LATION SH I P OF DOM I NATION. BUT SOMETH I N G COMPLETELY D I FFERENT HA PPENS WITH I N T H I S SMALL O F T H E BACK. SOM ETH ING M UC H MORE I M PORTANT. N A M ELY THE OFFER TO SUP MAN.

PRESS THE CENTER. T H E H EA D . WHEN THE

FA NTA SY. C A P A B L E O F CONVERTING PERVERSION. O F C I R C U M V E NTING I T. AND DON'T FORGET THAT AS

FLECHSIG. THE P I M P. USES THIS D E M A N D IN ORDER TO BECOME HEAD OR POW E R HE H I M S E LF. HE IS

JESUS I S A LSO GOD. T H E PROSTITUTE I S A LSO H E R OWN P ROC U R E R. THE MYSTERY OF THE T R I N ITY

P R OT E C T I N G

H I M S E L F:

DOESN'T D A R E PAY

ATTENTION T O THE O F F E R . M U C H L E S S A NSWER IT. TH E PASSION FOR PASS I V I TY WHICH CAUSES THIS D E M A N D TO BE FOR M U LA T E D IS NOT A SINGLE

WHICH IS A LSO THE MYSTERY O F S I M I LI T U D E IS T H E V E R Y M AC H I N E R Y PRODU C I N G T H E M E A N I NG F U L S I G N A N D H I DI N G T HI:: T E N SOR. U N DERCOV E R SIGN.

FORCE. A COM P L E M E NTI NG POWE R IN A CONFLICT. BUT RATH E R . IT IS THE OV E R W H E L M I N G AND "USE ME": AN E N U N C I AT I O N OF V E RT I G I N O U S

U N M E DIATED

POW E R

[PUISSANCE]

ITSELF THAT

S I M P L I C I TY T H A T I S N 'T M Y ST I C A L B U T R A T H E R MATE R I A LI ST. I ' L L B E YOU R SACRIFICE A N D YOU R TISSUES. YOU BE MY O R I FICES. MY PALMS A N D MY M E M B R A N ES. LETS GET LOST A N D LETS LEAVE T H E POWE R A N D T H E A B J ECT J U ST I F I CATIONS O F T H E R E D E M PTION D I A LECTIC B E H I N D . "LETS B E D E AD." AND NOT: I WANT TO DIE B Y YOUR H A N D. A S MASOCH SAYS. TIONAL HERE OR LIES THE NOT. SUPREME FROM A DECEIT. THIS I NTEN

LIQ U I FI E S ALL STASES I N T E R MITTENTLY BLOCKING TH E FLUX O F I N T E N S I TY. BECAUSE THE OFFER OF OPEN BUTTOCKS AND A N U S ON THE PART O F THE WOM A N BENT OV E R AS A GLEENER IS NOT A

C H A LLENGE WHAT I

OF TH E

POTLATCH

K I ND-" H E R E I S

G I V E YOU.

LET U S S E E WHAT YOU HAVE

GOT'-IT I S T H E O P E N I NG O F THE L I B I D I N A L BAND. AND THIS O F F E R I NG . THIS I NSTANTA NEOUS

SO THAT

ULTI MATE ALREADy

EXTENSION A N D I N VENTION I S PREC I S E LY WHAT THE MEN OF POWER. TH E P I MPS. THE POLITI C I A N S DENY. THEY CONTENT THEMSELVES WITH A MEAN

C OM M A N D.

C O M I NG

FROM

BODY

EXHAUSTED B Y C A RESSES A N D I N SOM N I A . WOULD R E E M E RG E IN TH E ROA R I NG OF U NTI E D PARTI A L ' D R I V ES T H E S U B J ECT F U NCTIONS. H EG E L I A N GLOSS OF THE PLEA: BE M Y M ASTER: MAY YOU R WILL BE DONE. T H I S IS HOW SADE. OR F R E U D . O R BATA I LLE U N DE R ST A N D S IT. R E I N TROD U C I N G POLITICS. A N D

C A P ITA LIZATION O F L I B I D I N A L I NT E N SI T I T E S I N ORDER TO C R EATE S U R PLUS VALUE. A N OVER

EX PLOITATION OF JOU ISSANCE'S FORCE.

"USE M E" I S AN O R D E R A N D AN I M PE RIOUS PLEA. BUT WHAT SHE ASKS I S THE S U PRESSION O F THE I/YOU R E LATION S H I P ( M A STE R/SLAVE. REVERSIBLE) AND A LSO OF THE R E LA T I O N SH I P O F USE. OF

T H E R E FORE. O R D E R . STR ATEGY. T H E RATIONA LITY OF WAR. LAC LOS A N D C LA USEWITZ.

NOW. WHAT DOES SHE W A NT. SHE WHO D E M A N D S TO BE U S E D I N T H E A R I D ITY A N D EXASPE RATION O F

COU R S E . THIS SU PPLICATION A P P E A R S A S P U R E R E L I G IO N A S L O N G A S I T REQU ESTS D E P E N D E NCE. I SN'T THIS WHAT JESUS SAID O N THE C ROSS? BUT JESUS CAN ASK FOR D E P E N DENCE BECAUSE HE OFFERS HIS SUFFERING AS S I N ' S SALARY: TH E

A L L PA RTS O F H E R BODY. S H E . T H E O NE-WOM A N B A N D? TO B E T H E M ASTER OF H E R MASTE R A N D A L L THAT. DO Y O U T H I N K? C O M E ONI S H E W A NTS Y O U TO DIE WITH HER. SHE WANTS THE L I M ITS OF

"OV ER-PR ICED" NATURE OF H I S OFFERING. OF H I S A B A N DONI NG OF S E LF. T H E T E R R I B L E SCHREBER IAN OF DEMIRACLENESS H E S U F F E RS. R E L I N QU I S H I NG SELF P E R PETRATED AND ACCOMPLISHED BY

EXCLUSION TO B E FORC E D BACK F U RTHER. S H E DEMANDS TISSUES. TH E SC A N N I NG. THE V I S IO N THE OF ALL OF

I MMENSE

T A C T I L I TY .

FEEL

E V ERYTH I N G CLOSING U P WITH I N ITSELF. B U T NOT

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LOC K I N G ITSELF U P, OR O F E V E RYTH I N G CONTIN U A LLY E XT E N D I N G W I T H O U T C O N Q U E R I N G . OP

ANYMORE. I DENTI C A L

SHE IN

WANTS

THEM

TOG ETH E R

TO B E

THE

CONN ECTIONS

O F A L L TH E I R

POSED TO TH I S I S THE SE LF-A DHESIVE M E DIOCRITY OF THE VIRILE, OF LA U G H I NG, B E L I E VI NG I TS E L F

TISSUES. " I T WOULD BE MORE I N ACCOR DANCE WITH THE REALIZATION OF DESI RE, I N L I F E AND B E YOND, I F WE COULD BE F R E E D FROM THE D I F F E R E N C E OF SEX." W R ITES SCH R EB E R, QUOTING M IGNON'S SONG IN
WILHELM MEISTER:

CAPABLE

UNVEILING

AND

EX PLOITI NG T H E

HYSTERIC O R T H E WOM A N A N D H E R SO-CALLED LIE. A M E D I OC RITIY S I M I LA R TO THE POLITIC I AN'S. IT I S WRITTEN I N T H E L E TT E R L E N I N S E N T T O TROTSKY TH ROUGH THE H A LLS O F THE WI NTER PALACE (I

"AND

THESE

C E L E ST I A L

FIGURES WOM A N . "

N E V E R ASK WH ETHER W E A R E M A N O R THE DESIRE THAT E V E RYTH I N G BE

H A RDLY HAVE TO M A K E I T U P) : "SAY, IF THE WH ITE G U A R DS KILL US, DO YOU TH I N K SVERDLOV AND

CARRI E D AWAY A N D B U R N ED U P I S CALLED B Y T H E GR EAT TH I N K E R S THE DEATH I N STINCT. BUT O F

B U K H A R I N HAVE A C H A N C E TO ESCA PE?" IT'S THE WOR D OF A MAN OF THE U N D E RWORLD. THE LAST COM M E N T COMES, OF COU RSE, FROM XAVI E RE: "AT F I RST S I G HT, THEY SEEM TO BE Q U I TE
JOVIAL

COURSE! W H E N T H E Y T H I N K ABOUT L I FE, DON'T THEY A LWAYS T H I N K A BO U T GATH E R I N G , U N I FY I N G ,

CAPITALIZI NG, CONQU ERI NG, EXTE N DING, C LOSING UP AND DOM I N A T I N G ? T H E G R E E KS, THE GAYS WHO MOVE LENIN AND IN PACKS,

FELLOWS. THEY A R E WELL DRESSED, OFTEN WITH A N

TROTS K Y ,

E F F E M I NATE FLAIR. T H EY A R E N O T N ECESSA RILY H O M O S E X U A L, BUT THEY A LMOST COULD BE.

PROSTITUTING TH E WOM E N-MASSES. BUT CA UGHT I N THEIR D I SGUSTING PROPER NOUNS O F RULERS. T H E I N SANE P L E A OF THE M ASSES IS N O T "LONG LIVE SOC I A L I TY" (AND EVEN BUT LESS, "LONG LIVE TH E LIVE

AN YWAY, THEY A R E NOT V E R Y GOOD LOVERS. THEY A LWAYS MOVE IN PACKS," BECAUSE THEY NEED A N ORGA N I ZAT I O N , THESE S M A L L TOWN PE RVERTS, A S D E L E U Z E A N D GU ATTA R I PUT I T (AS F O R THEM . . J.

ORGA N I ZA T I O N " ) , LIBIDINA LITY."

RATH E R

"LONG

"WHAT DOES A WOMAN WANT?" ASKS F R E U D. SHE WANTS THE M A N TO BECO M E N E IT H E R MAN NOR

J EAN-FRANCOIS L YOTA R D
TRANSLATED BY M I C H E L F E H E R A N D TOM G ORA

WOMAN. SHE WANTS H I M NOT TO WANT A NYTH I N G

SIS

B ECOMI NG-WOMAN
I N T H E GLOBAL SOC I A L F I E LD. HOMOSEXUALITIES FU NCTION WITH SOMEWHAT OWN AS MOV E M ENTS. TH E I R C H A P E LS I N ITIATION SEXUAL POWE R ON ITS OWN TERRAIN. NOW

H ET E R OS E X U A L I TY THE PROBLEM TE N DS IS TO

M U ST

ACCOU NT F O R I T S E LF; P H A L LOC R A T I C IN

THEIR

C E R E M ON I A L.

D I S P LA C E D . BE PUT

RITES. THEIR M YTHS OF LOVE ( M YTHES AMOU REUXI AS R E N E N E LLI PUTS IT. DESPITE T H E I NTERVEN TION OF GROUPINGS NATURE OF A MORE OR LESS H O M O

POW E R

I N TO Q U E S T I O N ;

P R I N C I PLE. A CONJU NCTION BETWEEN THE ACTIONS OF F E M I N I STS AND H O M OS E X U A LS THEN BECO M E S POSSI B L E .

C O R PO R A T I S T

LIKE

ARCADIA.

SEXUA LITY CONTI N U E S TO BE T I E D TO THE VALUES AND I NTE RACTION A L SYSTE M S OF T H E DOM I N A NT ITS DEPENDENCE NORM IS A IN REG A R D TO THE IN A HOW E V E R. WE SHOULD MORE P E R H A PS MOLECULAR AND DI STI N G U I S H ONE A

SEXUAL ITY.

H ET E ROSEX U A L POL ITICS OF THE

M A N I FESTED H I DDEN ESS

T H I R D LEVEL. A CATEGO R I E S .

IN W H I C H I N STAN

S E C R ET.

NOUR

GROUPINGS

"SPEC I A L

ISHED BY R E P R ESSION A S WELL AS BY A FEELING OF S H A M E STI LL LIVELY I N " R E S P ECTABLE" M I L I E U S ( P A R T I C U LA R LY A M O N G B U S I N E S S M E N . W R IT E R S . SHOW-BIZ PEOPLE. ETC,) I N W H I C H PSYCHOA NALYSIS IS PRESENTLY TH E R E I G N I NG M A STER. IT ENFORCES A SECON D DEGREE NORM. NO LONGER MORAL. BUT SC I E N T I F I C . MORAL H O M OS E X U A L I T Y BUT A IS NO LO N G E R A

C E S" WOU LD NOT B E D I F F E R ENTIATED I N THE SA M E WAY. I N W H I C H C L E A R C UT OPPOSITIONS BETWEEN TYPES WOU L D B E R E P U D I ATED. I N WHICH. ON TH E CONTRARY. AMONG ONE WOULD LOOK FOR S I M I LA R ITIES DRUG

HOMOSE X U A LS . T R A N S V ESTITES.

A D D I CTS. SADo-MASOCH ISTS. PROSTITUTES. AMONG WOM E N . MEN. C H ILDREN. A RT I STS. ALL TEEN-AGERS. AMONG LET'S

MATTER.

MATTER OF PERVERSION. AN ILLNESS OF IT. A

PSYCHOTICS. SAY A MONG IT IS

R E VOLUTION A R I ES. OF SEXUAL IN

PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S

MAKES

FORMS

M I N ORITIES REALM

DEVELOPMENTAL RETA R DATION. A FIXATION AT TH E PRE-GEN ITA L STAGE. ETC.

ONCE

U N D E R S TOOD THAT

THIS

T H E R E C O U L D O N LY B E M I NORITI ES. F O R E X A M PLE. IT COULD BE S A I D. BOTH AT T H E SAME TIME 1 I THAT A L L FORMS O F S E X U A LITY. ALL FOR MS OF S E X U A L

ON ANOTH ER. S M A L L E R A N D MORE AVANT-GARDE LEVEL IS FOU N D M I LITANT HOMOSEXUALITY. OF THE F H A R TYPE. HOMOS E X U A L ITY CON FRONTS H ETERO-

ACTI VITY A R E F U N D A M E NTALLY ON T H I S SIDE OF TH E PERSONOLOG I C A L OPPOSITIONS HOMO-H ETE RO: 2) THAT NON ETH E L E S S . THEY ARE C LO S E R TO

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HOMOS E X U A L I TY A N D TO WHAT COULD BE CA LLED A FE M I N I N E BECOMI NG.

POETIC

S E X U A LITY

( FOR

I N STANCE:

TH E

COI N C I

DENCE. I N G I N S B E RG'S W O R K . OF A FU N D A M ENTA L POETIC M U TATION WITH GENERAL SEXUA L M UTATION). IN A

ON THE LEVEL O F THE SOC I A L BODY. THE L I B I DO I S CAUGHT I N TWO SYSTEMS O F OPPOSITION: C LASS AND SEX. IT IS IT U N D E R ST O O D IS TO BE MALE.

MORE

FASHION.

E V E R Y " D I S S I D E NT"

ORGA N I ZATION OF T H E L I B I DO M U ST T H E R E FORE BE D I R ECTLY LINKED TO A B ECOMI NG-FEM I N I N E BODY. AS AN ESCAPE ROUTE FROM THE R E P R E SS I V E

P H A L LOC R ATIC. MIZE

U N D E R STOOD

TO

DICHOTO

A L L V A L U E S -T H E O P PO S I T I O N S S T R O N G /

SOC I U S. A S A POSSIBLE ACCESS T O A " M I N I M U M - O F SEXED BECOMI NG. A N D A S TH E L A S T BUOY VlsA-vIS THE ESTA B L I S H E D ORDER. IF I STRESS T H I S LAST POINT I T S BECAU S E T H E BECOMI NG-FE M I N I N E BODY

WEAK. R I C H/POOR. U S E FU U U S E LESS. C L E A N/DI RTY. ETC.

CONVERSELY. O N THE L E V E L OF THE S E X E D BODY THE L I B I DO IS ENGAGED IN A B E C O M I NG-WOMAN.

SHOULDN'T BE THOUGHT OF AS B E LONG I N G TO THE WOM A N CATEGORY FOU N D IN THE COUPLE. THE

MORE P R EC I S E LY. T H E BECOMI NG-WO M A N SERVES A S A POI N T OF R E F E R E N C E . A N D E V E N T U A LLY A S A SC R E E N PLE: FOR OTH E R TYPES OF BECOMI N G (EXAM AS IN SCH U M A N N . BECOM

FA M I LY. ETC. SUCH A CATEGORY. I M IGHT A DO. ONLY EXISTS IN A SPECI FIC SOC I A L F I E L D THAT D E F I N E S I T . TH E R E I S N O SUCH T H I NG A S W O M A N PER S E ! NO MATE R N A L P O L E , NO ETE R N A L FEMI N I N E . . . T H E MAN/WO M A N OPPOSITION S E R V E S T O ESTA B L I S H THE SOC I A L O R D E R BEFORE C L A S S A N D CASTE W H AT E V E R FROM S H A TT E R S ESTA B

BECOM I N G-C H I LD AS IN

I NG-A N I M A L AS I N

K A FKA.

BECOMI NG-VEGETABLE AS IN

NOVA LIS.

B E C O M I N G- M I N E R A L

BEC K ETT>.

CONFLICTS. NORMS,

I N V E R S E LY .

WHATEVER

B R E A KS

TH E

LISHED ORDER. I S RE LATED TO HOMOSEX U A LITY O R I T IS BECA U S E IT IS NOT TOO FAR R E MOVED FROM T H E B I N A R I S M OF P H A LLIC POWE R THAT BECOMI NG WOMAN CAN ROLE AS PLAY THIS I N TE R M E D I A RY ROLE. T H I S V l s A v I S TO OTH ER SEXED A BECO M I NG-A N I M A L OR A BECO M I NG-WO M A N . ETC. EVERY S E M I OT I Z A T I O N OF A BREAK I M PL I E S A

SEXUALIZATION OF A B R E A K . THUS. TO MY M I ND, WE SHOULDN'T ASK W H I C H W R I TERS A R E HOMOSEXUAL. BUT RAT H E R . WHAT I T I S A BOUT A G R EAT WRITER EVEN IF H E'S, IN FACT. H ETEROSEXUA L-THAT IS

M E D I ATOR IN

B E CO M I N G S .

ORDER

U ND E RSTA N D T H E

HOMOSE X U A L. W E TELL O U R S E LVES THAT I T I S SORT OF "LIKE A WOMA N . " AND A NUMBER IN THIS OF HOMO

HOMOS E X U A L.

S E X U A LS

T H E M S E LV E S J O I N

SC A R C E LY I TH I NK ITS I M PORTANT TO DESTROY NOTIONS W H I C H ARE F A R T OO I N C L U S I V E . NOTI ONS LIKE WOM A N .

NOR M A LIZING GA M E. T H E PA I R F E M I N I N E/PASS I VE. M A SC U L I N E/ACT I V E T H E R E FO R E R E M A I N S A POI NT OF REFERENCE TO M A D E OB LIGATORY BY POWER IN IT TO SITUATE. LOC A L I Z E . OF

ORDER

PE R M IT TO

HOMOS E X U A L . . . T H I NGS A R E N E V E R T H A T S I M PLE. WHEN TH EY'RE FEMALE R E D U C E D TO BLACK-WHITE. M A LE ITS A BECAUSE THERE'S AN

T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E .

CONTROL

I NT E N S I T I E S

D E S I R E . OUTS I D E O F T H I S E XC L U S I V E BI-POLE. N O SA LVATION: O R ELSE ITS T H E PLUNGE I N TO THE

CATEGORI ES. M OT I V E .

U LT E R I O R OPERATION

B I N A RY- R E DUCTION 1 ST FOR E X A M PLE.

NON-SEN 51 C A L. RECOURSE TO T H E P R I SON.TO T H E ASYLUM. TO P S Y C H O A N A LY S I S. OF ETC. DEVIATION. ARE THEM

TO SUBJ UGATE T H E M .

YOU CAN NOT QUA L I FY A LOVE U N I VOCA LLY. LOVE I N PROUST I S N E V E R S P EC I FI C A LLY HOMOS E X U A L. I T A LW A Y S HAS A S C H I Z O I D. PARANOID P A RT. A

DIFFERENT SELVES WOM E N .

FOR M S

M A RG I N A L I S M AS

COOED IN

TO

WORK ARE

S A F ET Y

VALVES.

S H ORT.

THE

ONLY A UTHORIZED A MAN

BECOMI NG-PLA NT. A I NG-MUSIC.

BECO M I NG-WOMAN. A BECOM

TRU STEES OF A WHO DETAC H E S

B E C O M I N G - S E X E D-BODY. H I MSELF FROM THE IN

PROM I S E D POW E R A NOTH E R ARE OVER-BLOWN IS NOTION WHOSE THE ORGASM. RAVAGES DOM I N A N T

PHALLIC

PROFITS

I N H E R EN T

ALL

F O R M A T I O N S U N D E R TA K E S S U C H A WOM A N A C CO R D I N G IT IS TO DIVERSE ON TH I S

B E C O M I NG POSSI B L E CONDITION.

INCALCULABLE

SEXUAL MOTI VES REQU I R E OF T H E WOM A N A QUASI HYSTERI C A L I DENTI FICATION OF HER ORGAS M W ITH THE M A NS. AN EXPRESSION OF A SYM M ETRY, A

MODALITI ES. MOREOVER.

O N LY

THAT

HE

W I L L BE A B L E T O BECOME

A N I M AL. COSMOS. LETTER. COLOR. M U S IC.

SUBMISSION TO H I S P H A L L I C POWER. THE WOM A N OWES H E R ORGA S M T O T H E M A N . I N "REFUSI NG" H I M .

HOMOSEXUA LITY. BY THE VERY N AT U R E OF T H I N GS. I S THUS I N S E P A R A B L E FROM A BECOMI NG-WOMAN EVEN NON-OED I PAL. THE N O N - P E R S O N O LO G I C A L SAM E H O L D S T R U E FOR S E X U A LITY.

SHE

ASSUMES ARE

THE

F A U LT. ON

SO

MANY

STU P I D

DRA M AS

BASED

THIS

THEME.

A N D THE

SENTENTI O U S ATTITUDE O F PSYCHOANA LYSTS AND SEXOLOGISTS ON TH I S POI N T DOESN'T REA LLY H E L P THI NGSI IN FACT. F R EQ U ENTLY. WOM E N WHO. FOR

HOMOSEX U A LITY. I N F A NT I L E

S E X U A L I TY .

P S YC H OT I C

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SOME REASON OR OTH ER, CA N'T HAVE R E LATIONS WITH MALE PA RTN E R S ACHIEVE ORGA SM EASILY BY MASTURBATING WOM A N , OR M A K I NG LOVE R I SKS TO A N OTH E R

B E TW E E N

EACH

POLE

IN

THIS

T R I A NGLE

AND

VARIOUS C H A RACTERS L I K E T H E C USTOM ER A N D TH E POLI C E M A N . PROSTITUTES S U R ELY HAVE VERY I N T E R ESTING T H I NGS TO TEACH US A BOUT THESE Q U E STIONS, A N D , I N STEAD OF PERSECUTING THEM. IT WOULD BE BEITER TO SUPPORT TH E M FINAN

B U T THE

SC A N DA L

B E I NG M U C H

WORSE I F EVERYTHING I S OUT I N TH E OPENI LErS CON S I D E R A FINAL E X A M PLE, THE PROSTITUTE

MOVEM ENT. E V E RYON E , OR J U ST ABOUT, AT F I RST Y E L L E D, REVOLT. GOOD "HURRAH, BUT WAIT, THE PROSTITUTES YOU BAD. ARE RIGHT TO

C I A L LY, A S THEY DO I N RESEARCH LABORATOR I ES. I'M C ON V I N C E D, PERSONA LLY, THAT IN STU DYING

SHOU LD SEPA RATE THE P ROSTITUTES, O.K.. BUT

A L L TH I S

M I C RO-POLITICS OF PROSTITUTION, ONE

FROM

M IG H T S H E D SOM E N E W LIGHT ON WHOLE A R E A S OF C O N J UGAL AND FA M I L I A L M I C RO POLITICS-TH E

PI M PS, PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO H EAR ABOUT TH E M !" AND SO, PROSTITUTES DEFEND WERE TOLD THAT THEY

M O N E Y R E LATIONS BETWEEN H U S B A N D A N D WI FE, PA R E NTS AND CHILDREN, AND AND U LTI M ATELY, (WE TH E

SHOULD BEING

TH E M S E L V E S , ETC.

THAT

TH E y ' R E ABSURD!

EX PLOITED.

A L L THAT I S

PSYC HOA N A LYST A LS O RECALL

C U STO M E R .

SHOULD OF THE

BEFORE EXPLA I N I N G A N YTHING WHATSOEVER, ONE SHOU LD FIRST TRY TO U N D E RSTA ND WHAT GOES ON BETW E E N A WHORE AND HER PIMP. TH E R E'S THE B U T THERE OF ARE

WHAT

THE

A N A R C H I STS

"BELLE EPOQUE" WROTE ON T H E S U B J ECT.'

W H O R E P I M p M O N EY ALSO A WHOLE

T R I A NG L E .

FEL I X GUAITA R I TRANSLATED B Y RACHEL McCOMAS A N D STAMOS M ETZI DAKIS

M I C R O P O L I T I CS WHICH IS

D E S I R E. OUT

E XT R E M E L Y

COMPLEX,

PLAYED

88

T H E W I L D C E L E BRATION

J EA N - P I E R R E BA R O U : FI RST OF A LL, BY W H AT

F. R.: SOM ETI M E S . T H E R E'S A F E A R I N THE FACE O F IT.

S I NG L E T R A I T WOULD YOU DEFI N E LOVE I N TH E A N I M A L WOR LD?

SHALL

R E P EAT

SOMETHING

MICHEL

FOUC A U LT

TOL D ME O N E DAY: Irs

REA LLY T H E F E E L I NG O F

A N I M A LITY, OF T H I S A N I M A LITY W H I C H D R I V E S U S FR E D E R I C ROSS I F : BY M A D N ESS. ONE T H I N G THAT HAS A LWAYS S E E M E D A M AZING TO M E I S THAT W H E N THEY'RE IN H E AT, A N I M A LS LOS E ALL THEIR CRAZY. W H I C H M A K E S U S HA PPY. W H I C H M A K E S U S SAO. T H E S P I R I T OF C E L E B RATION I S SO COMPLETE. YOU FALL RUN A FT E R O N E W I LD A NOTH E R. YOU FALL, YOU

I N H I BITIONS: FOR SOM E O F TH E M , YOU CAN'T E V E N G E T C L O S E E N O U G H T O FI LM EXCEPT AT THAT TI M E, BECA U S E THAT'S W H E N TH E Y ' R E R E A LL Y OUT O F TH E I R S E N SES. THEY'RE HOPELESSLY D I STRACTE D. YOU CAN EVEN KILL TH E M . YOU R E A L LY HAVE TO

AGAIN.

GOATS COM I NG

DOWN

FROM

MOUNTA I N TOPS BY T H E H U N DR E DS, JUMP, TURN AND FIGHT. THEY HAVE BECOME SO C RAZY. SO

MAGICA L. THAT T H E Y LEAP 20 O R 30 M ETERS. SOM E DIE IN THE FALL. THE FLOCK DOESN'T STOP: IT

HAVE S E E N A N I MA LS S U P R E M E LY "IN LOV E": T H E Y DON'T MOVE ANYMORE.

K E E PS GOI NG. DRAGGED A LONG BY A STRONG W I N O

J.-P. B.: DO E S A B SOLUTE LOV E E X I ST? J.-P. B . : T H E MOTION L ESS O F M A D N E S S ,

, ,

F. R.: C E RTA I N LY. T A K E FOR I N STANCE ANTIGO N A L

F. R . : TO THE EXTENT THAT S E V E R A L S M A L L T R I B E S I N A NTIQU ITY. A N D STI LL TODAY. PRO H I B I T H U NTING D U R I N G THIS PE RIOD. IN T H E COU R S E OF SPRING AND A UT U M N .

CRANES. DANCES

A N T I GO N A L LAST FOR

CRANES THEY

WHOSE TALK

LOV E

H O U RS. THEIR

TO O N E WALK

A NOTH E R :

SPREAD

WI NGS.

AND

AROU N D E A C H OTH E R . THEY J U M P U P WITH TH E I R FE ET. L I K E W I L D D A N C E R S . A N D T H E N , W H E N O N E D I E S -T H E I N D I A N S SAY-THE OTH E R LETS H I M S E L F

J.-P.

B.:

YOU

HAVE

FILMED

MANY

LOV E

D I E . TOO. Irs A D I SCONTI N U ITY O F L I F E . M A Y B E D U E TO A K I N D OF S Y M B IOTIC R E LATION S H I P BETW E E N TWO B E I NGS W H O H E L P ONE A NOTH E R.

SC E N E S BETW E E N A N I M A LS. THAT M U ST B E M U C H M O R E T H A N J U ST A SPECTAC LE.

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J.-P. B . : TH E LION, TOO,

IS FAITH F U L

I N THOSE TERMS, L.ET'S J U ST SAY THAT C A RESSES BETWEEN F E M A L.E S EXIST A S WEL.L. A S DO THOSE

F. R : T H E L.ION I S FAITH F U L B E C A U S E T H E L.IONESS

BEATS HIM: HE R E C E I V E S T E R R I B L. E BEATI NGS.

BETWE E N

M A L E S AND BETWEEN C H I LD R E N A N D

PARE NTS, T H E YOU N G LION, FROM H I S F I RST A N D A H A LF Y E A R SOMET I M ES , UP, HIS BEGINS TO DESI R E H I S MOTH ER: FATH E R K I L. L. S HIM. AND THE

THAT'S COM PL.ETEL.Y D I F F E R E N T.

J.-P. B.:

ITS T H E LAW OF T H E J U NGLE.

MOTH E R D E F E N DS H E R SON, WHO I S H E R L.OVER. YOU K NOW, THE L.OVE C E L E B R A T I O N IS OFTEN FIGHT

P R EC E D E D

B Y FATAL B A TTLES, A N I M A LS

F. R: I N A WAY. TA K E T H E CASE O F P R A I R I E DOGS I N

A F R I C A , L.ICAONS. Y O U KNOW, T H E Y ' R E T E R R I FY I NG A N I M A L.S THAT K I L.L E V E RYTH I N G IN TH E I R PATH .

E A C H OTH E R T O T H E DEATH. M A L. E S F I G H T TO G ET TH E FEMA LE. DEATH PRECEDES TH I S GREAT LOVE M A D N E SS, THAT GREAT LEAP W H E R E EVERYTHING CHANGES, A FT E R W A R D S, THEY B EC O M E VERY

NOTH I N G CAN STOP T H E M . T H E Y ATTACK COL.L.EC TIVEL.Y, BE IT A H Y E N A , B U F F A L.O, G I RAFFE OR A L. I O N . Y ET, ONE OF THE G REATEST A N I M A L.

MOU R N F U L. THEY M A K E TH EMSELVES U P, DECORAT ING AND PAI NTING THEMSEL.VES.

S P E C I A L.ISTS, I F NOT TH E B E ST. I N M Y EYES, M I SS J A N E GooDA L.L., FOL.L.OWED FOR A Y E A R A B A N D OF L. I C A O N S W H O S E L. E A D E R WAS A F E M AL.E. T H I S

J.-P. B.: D ECORATE TH EMSELV E S ?

FEMALE HAD THREE

O R FOU R

M A L.ES D I R ECTL.Y

DEPENDING ON H E R S E X U A L.LY. ONE DAY, ONE OF THE M A L.ES C O H A B I TA T E D W I T H A N OTH E R FEMAL.E WHO BECAME P R E G N A N T. T H E LICAON, T H E H E A D OF THE B A N D, F I R ST R EL.EGATED H E R R I V A L. TO THE VERY END OF THE G R O U P: T H E N , W H E N THE L.ATTER GAVE B I RTH, SHE TOOK H E R B A B I E S AND K I L.L.ED

F.

R.:

IN

A U S T R A L. I A .

IN

NEW

G U I N EA.

BI RDS

DECORATE T H E I R N EST I N R E D, B L. U E A N D G R E EN.

J.-P. B.: YES, B UT, PA I N T T H E M S ELVES?

F. R: T H A T TOOl SOME EVEN CHANGE C O L O R A N D

A PPEA R A NC E .

THEM A L.I.., EXCEPT FOR ON E , THE P U N I EST, WHICH S H E GAVE A S S H E WO U L. D A TOY. O R A SL.AVE TO H E R OWN C H I L. D R E N . ONL.Y A FT E R THAT D I D S H E D E F I N I TI V E L. Y E XC L. U D E HER R I V A L. FROM THE

J.-P. B , : I N O R D E R TO SEDUCE?

GROUP. Y O U S E E , O N E C A N AL.SO F I N D A BSOL.UTEL.Y FEROCIOUS J E A LOUSY.

F. R: OF COURSEI YOU A L.SO HAVE LOV E SONGS AND

CRI ES. IT'S A CHA RACTER I STIC OF THAT P E R IOD. THE WOL.F M A K E S L.OVE C R I ES FOR HOURS. THE

J.-P.

B.:

AT

THE

SAME

TI M E,

IT'S

V E RY

SOU N D, THE SONOROUS W E L.COME, T H E SONO ROUS R ELATIONSH I P ARE VERY I M PORTANT. SOM E T H I N G REA L.LY A M AZING: G I RAFFES A R E D E A F A N I M A L.S

O R D E R E D WORLD.

F. R: I T DEPENDS ON T H E SPECI ES, T H E GROUPS.

ONE OF THE MOST B E A U T I F U L. L.OVE STO R I E S I KNOW I S ABOUT T H E O RC H I D AND THE BEE, THE HUGE WASP OF NEW G U I N E A . THE O R C H I D S M E L.L.S L I K E F E M A L. E G E N I T A L. I A (OF THE W A S P) , SO THE M A L. E G O E S STRA IGHT AT I T A N D M A K E S L. O V E T O THE P L. A N T . HE R U BS HIS STI N G E R AGAI NST IT.

WHO, I N THAT SITUATION, START WHAT O N E M I G H T CAL.L L O N G MIME ROUTI N ES: EACH WRAPS AND

R U BS H I S N E C K A ROUND THE OTH E R ON E'S, A N D WHO K N OW S ? - T H U S , COM P E N S A T I N G FOR AN

ABSENCE O F SOUND.

J.-P. B.: FOR YOU, THIS A N I M A L WORLD, W H E N

A FTERWA RDS, T H E F E M A L. E S M E L.L.S H I S ODOR A N D C O M E S A N D R U BS H ER S E L F I N I T , I N H E R TURN. THAT'S HOW SHE I S I M P R EG N AT E D, T H ROUGH THE PL.ANT. STR A N G E . . . W H Y DOESN'T THIS COUPL.E

YOU LOOK AT IT, DOES IT COR R E S PO N D T O A SA LVATION?

F. R: I T I S TO L I V E I N S A L.VATION, IT'S E S P EC I A L.L Y TO

L.IVE I N SOMETHI NG U N L.EARNED. FOR M E, A N I M AL.S, AS BAC H E L. A R D SA I D SO WE LL., ARE O U R OLDEST COM PANIONS IN D R EA M I NG. WHIL.E FI L M I NG T H E M , I ' M FILM I NG A LOST DREAM, OF A DREAM WHICH GOES PRE

EVER M EET, E X C E PT THROUGH T H E PLANT? WHAT PHYSI OL.OGI C A L., BIOL.OG I C A L. L.AWS OF T H E WO RL.D OF S M E L.L.S AND FEEL.I NGS GIVE RISE TO THIS TRIO?

J.-P.

B.:

AND,

HOW A BOUT POSS I B LE HOMO

BACK

THOUSANDS

YEARS,

W E L L I N TO

S E X U A L OR I NCEST U A L R E LATIONS?

H I STORIC T I M ES. I ' M A BLE T O H E A R LOVE, T H E D E E P C R Y , DEATH, T H E FOREST, WATER A N D R H YTH MS,

F.

R: T H E R E' S L. O T S O F H O M O S EX U A L I TY, E V E N

A N D A L L B E C A U S E TH E R E WAS A M A S K ,

M A SKS,

THOUGH I T R E A L.L.Y DO E SN'T M A K E S E N S E T O P UT I T

WALLS SET U P , H I STO RICAL C I RC U M STANCES, ALL

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OF W H I C H WERE A CONTI N U A L T U R N I NG-AWAY- FROM OUR A N I M A LITY.

J.-P. S.: YOU HA V E R E P EATEDLY R E M I N D E D U S

THAT A N I M A LS. B E FOR E D Y I N G . F I G H T O N C E AGA I N .

J .- P.

S.:

ARE

YOU

R ECOM M E N D I N G

TH I S
F.
R.: A WO U N D E D MAN IS ANIMAL IS DA NGEROUS. GOOD FOR A A

A N I M ALITY?

WOU N D E D F. R.' WHAT I MEAN DEEP IS IN THAT OUR THERE ARE WE LOST M U ST

WOU N DED:

H E'S

STRETC H E R . A WOU N D E D LION ATTA C K S WITH A L L H I S M I GHT. S A M E W I T H A N ELEPHA NT. M A N TH I N K S OF GOO. A N I M A LS DONT H A V E GODS. T H E Y H A V E O N L Y T H E P R E S ENT. A N A N I M A L DOESN'T BARGA I N WITH H I S DEATH. W E DO l THAT I N DICATES A LACK O F A N I M A LITY.

C E LEBRATIONS

M EMORY.

E N D EAVOR TO R E M E M B E R T H E M . IF WE SUCCEED. WE'LL BE LIKE T H E POETS AND PROPHETS. IF WE

R E D I SCOV E R THE POETRY O F O U R CRADLE. WE'LL HAVE THE M E MORY OF THE FUTURE. BECAUSE.

E I T H E R WE DISAPPEAR. OR. A S S U M I NG THERE I S A F U T U R E FOR M A N . I T W I L L O N C E AGA I N BE POETIC. TRANSLATED BY STA MOS M ETZI DA K I S

1 4. THE COR P U L E N T M A N S I TS DOWN OPPOSITE R.

1 !5. THE EYES OF THE CORPU LENT M A N .

1 6. G R A D U A L F A D E IN O N : T H E I NTERIOR OF A DESERTED G Y M N AS I U M . P A R A L L E L BARS EQU I PP E D WITH

LEATH E R STRA PS.

1 7.

IN THE BUS: R:S LEGS SET A P A RT. H A N DS LYING E A C H S I D E OF H E R ON SEAT.

l B. EYES OF CORPULENT M A N .

1 9.

R. CROSSES H E R LEGS.

20.

R:S BUST. THEN HER F A C E IN PROFI LE. TURNED TOW A R D THE W I N DOW.

2 1 . PLATFORM OF T H E BUS AT THE B U S STOP: R . JUMPS DOWN. SQU A R E OF THE THEATRE FRANC A I S.

22.

THE CLOCK. SQU A R E O F THE THEATRE FRANCAIS. M A R K S 4 P . M .

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JOURNEYS OF A GENTLEWOMAN
SHOT LATE R W H E N T H E Y C A M E ROU N D T H E F A R M S STEALING IT M U ST HAVE B E E N TOWA R D 1 9 30 THAT THE ROAD WENT THROUGH TO Q U E E N STOWN ON T H E W I LD WEST COAST OF TAS M A N I A . IN RETROSPECT. MY A M BITION TO BE ONE OF THE FI RST TO M A K E THE JOU R N E Y S E E M S P U E R I L E . BUT I W A S O N L Y S I X T E E N AT THE T I M E. A V I D TO E X P LO R E T H E WORLD AND OPEN U P TH E CONTI N E N T OF M Y S E N S E S . C H I C K E N S, B U T TH E R E WAS ONE OLD

F E L LOW M U ST HAVE B E E N A LON ER, H E STA Y E D I N TH E BUSH, A N D I F YOU CAN B E L I E V E WHAT T H E Y S A Y D O W N TH E R E, M ATED WITH A TA S M A N I A N TIGER. I DON'T BELIEVE I T MYSELF, THE TIGER B E I NG ABOUT AS EXTI NCT A S THE ABO T H E S E DAYS, AND A N YWAY, THOSE C H A PS ON THE WEST COAST . . ." HE

STOPPED, A N D AFTER LOOKING S I DEWAYS AT M E , ADDED A B R U PTLY: "YOU SHOU LDN'T D O T H I S T R I P ALONE."

TH E LITTLE I N FORM ATION I POSS E S S E D A BOUT T H E W EST COAST H A D B E E N S U P P L I E D BY A H UNTER WHO MADE OCC A S I O N A L EX PEDITIONS THERE IN "BECA U S E MYSELF." OF THE MEN? I CAN LOOK A FT E R

S E A R C H OF K A NGA ROO AND W A L LA BY. SOMETI M E S HE SPENT A NIGHT BOOZ I N G WITH THE M I N ERS

A MONG T H E D E SOLATE SLAG-H E A P S OF QUE ENS TOWN, BUT H E P R E F E R R E D C A M P I NG A LO N E I N THE B U S H . I WAS ON O N E OF THOSE N IGHTS, HE TOLD ME, THAT H E HEARD THE HOWL OF T H E W I LD DOG. I

"OH. I DON'T TH I N K TH EY'D TOUCH A WOM A N , " T H E H U NTER S A I D S LOWLY. "NOT ON T H E FARMS-B E E N T DO LONG WITHOUT E M . "

EXPRESSED S U R P R I SE . NOT K NOWI N G O F D I NGOS I N TA S M A N I A .

"YOU M E A N THEY P R E F E R T H E I R O W N K I NDT'

H E SHOOK H I S H EA D, S U D D E N LY F I N D I NG H I S P I PE ' T M NOT S U R E I T WAS A D I NGO:' H E S A I D . "WH E N THE LAST OF THE A B OR I G I N E S WERE ROU N D E D U P AND KI LLED, THEI R DOGS WERE L E FT TO FEND FOR NEEDED ATT E N TION. "NOT EVEN TH AT. A N I M A LS .

AND NOT E V E N W I TH T H E M T H E W A Y YOU'D T H I N K . I ONCE CA M E O N A C H A P A L L A LO N E I N A PAD DOC K AT SUNSET. S U C K I N G A C A L F'S EA R:'

T H E M S E LVES

IN TH E B U S H . MOST O F T H E M W E R E

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KNOWING B U S H M E N A N D T H E I R LOVE OF YARNS. I R E M A I N E D SC E PTI C A L OF T H E H U NTE R'S TALES. I F A N YT H I N G THEY VISIT A REGION TO MADE ME M O R E DETE R M I N E D TO NO THE WOMAN LIFE COULD BE

WOR D S. A L MOST WITHOUT OPEN I N G H I S MOUTH. THE SOU N O S SO F L U I D AND U N FO R M E D THEY S E E M E D HA RDLY D I STI N G U I S H A B L E FROM THE STRING OF

WHERE SHARE

S A L I V A D R I P P I N G F R O M T H E DOG'S JAWS. PANTING O N T H E END O F ITS C H A I N.

PERSUADED HOM EST E A DS.

OF

R E M OT E

I H A D N O I NTENTION OF S P E N D I N G AN H O U R IN THE THE NEW ROAD HAD BEEN HACKED L I T E R A LLY V I C I N ITY O F THE H O U S E . N O R OF R ET U R N I N G TO THE CAR W H I L E T H E MAN WOR K E D . TH E BEST A LTERNA TIVE S E E M E D TO B E A WALK IN THE BUSH. W H I C H COULD BE R E AC H E D AS I BY C ROSSI NG ONE OF T H E

THROUGH V I R G I N B U S H . AND I M ET NO OTH E R CARS A LONG M I LE S THE F ROM WAY. SO THAT WHEN. MY STI LL TWENTY STARTED

Q U E E N STOWN.

ENG I N E

G I V I NG TROU B L E IT LOO K E D A S THOUGH I WOU LD BE S P E N D I NG T H E N IGHT U N D E R THOSE C H I LLY G U M S UNTIL THE MAIL CAR CAME T H RO U G H N E XT

P A D DOCKS. CATTLE

R E P LA C E D T H E GRANG

S L I P-RA I LS T H E EVERY HEAD

STOPP E D

AND

TURNED IN

MY D I R ECTI O N . T E L L I N G M Y S E L F THAT

MOR N I NG. FORTU N A T E LY. A L I TTLE F U RTH E R O N . A D I R T TRACK W I T H RUTS M A D E B Y A DRAY PROM I S E D A F A R M A T T H E E N D OF I T .

TH E C U R I O SITY O F CATTLE WAS L ESS I NTI M I DATING TH A N TH E MEN WHO IGNORED ME. I SET OFF.

TH E H O M ESTE A D W A S A TYPI C A L WOODEN STRUC TU R E WITH VERANDAH A N D CORRUGATED I RO N

W I THOUT

HASTE.

THE

C A TTLE

A LSO STA RTED TO

MOVE. A N D H A L F-WAY A C ROSS THAT STRETCH O F O P E N L A N D I BECA M E A W A R E THEY W E R E FOLLOW ING ME. NOT O N LY FOLLOWI NG. BUT CLOS I N G IN

ROOF SET I N T H E M I DD L E O F PADDOC KS W H E R E A FEW C A TTLE G R A Z E D . A DOG TIED UP IN THE Y A R D B E G A N TO B A R K . B U T I R E A C H E D THE BACK DOOR BEFORE A MAN A P P E A R E D. I TOLD HIM THE

FROM A L L S I D E S . R A I S I N G A GROU N D - M I ST O F DUST FROM WHICH E M E R G E D THE BUTTRESS OF TH E I R

TROUBLE A N D WITHOUT A WORD H E WENT BACK I N TO TH E HOUSE L E A V I N G M E . I S U PPOS ED. TO FOLLOW.

C H ESTS A N D HORNS. M Y S I LHOU ETTE R E FLECTED I N THE GLOBE OF TH E I R E YES. I COU L D HAVE NO

DOUBT OF TH E I R OBJECTIVE. THAT H U M A N I M A G E P R I NTED I N S I D E T H E I R S K U LLS. A S T H E P R E S E N C E

I N S I D E. THE H O U S E WAS S U R P R I S I NGLY U N L I K E ITS COU NTERPA RTS. I N STEA D O F B E I NG D I V I D E D BY A C ENTRAL PASSAGE. IT R E SE M BLED A RABBIT

OF WATER

MIGHT BE

D ETECTED

BY

DROUGHT

STR I C K E N H E RD. B U T T H E R E WAS N O P A N I C : TH E Y C A M E TOW A R D M E . DRAWN. I WOU L D H A V E SA I D I F THE I DEA HAD N OT BEEN SO ABSURD. BY A

WA R R E N . WITH ROO M S G R O U P E D HAPHAZAR DLY ON DI F F E R E N T L E V E LS. A LONG B R I E F PASSAGEWAYS. ALL OF THEM COM M U N I C A T I N G WITH THE K I TC H E N . T H R O U G H O N E OF T H E H A L F-OPEN DOORS I COULD SEE S E V E RA L MEN ON A I RO N B E DSTEAD. T H E I R IN A SECON D BEEN ROOM

COVETOUS E X PECTATIO N . I D I DN'T K NOW W H ET H E R T O R U N OR TO S T A Y . TO B E A F R A I D OR EXCITED. THE H E A DS. A S TH E Y A DVA NCED. LOOKED C U R IOUSLY HUMAN. A ST E E R WITH A ST R I N G OF SLAVER

BACKS

A GA I NST T H E GROUP

W A L L.

P E N D A N T FROM I T S J A W R E M I N D I NG M E A G A I N O F T H E M A N'S S P E E C H . H I S I N A RTIC U LATE ATTE M PT A T C OM M U N ICATION. I H A D A S U D D E N V I S I O N O F T H E T W O TOGETH E R . T H E M A N A N D T H E S T E E R . R E LATED BY A K I N D OF M UT U A L Y E A R N I NG. EACH O F THEM WOU L D K NOW WHAT W A S E X PECTED OF THE OTH E R . WHEREAS I STOOD O U TS I D E OF THE C O M P L I C I TY . OR

A N OTH E R CA RDS

MIGHT

HAVE THE

PLAYING WERE

OR

D R I N K I N G.

A L I..

ROO M S

OCC U P I ED.

B U T T H E H O U S E W A S S O S I LENT THE

F I G U R E S ON THE BED M I G H T H AVE B E E N E F F I G I E S OR STRAW MEN. I S A W NO T R A C E OF A WOMAN'S

PRESENCE ANYWHERE.

I G N O R I N G W H A T GESTURES E V E N T U A LLY THE F I RST MAN RETU R N E D W I T H A L U ST TALES READY LITTLE THESE CAME TO OF B E ASTS BACK

TEN DE R N ESS

A TTE N D E D. T H E H U N T E R ' S ME. AND THEY I IF NOW I WERE TOO THE

H A N D F U L O F TOOLS. AT THE A LO N E CAR. IN

I N D ICATING HE WOULD LOOK AGA I N I FOU N D M YSELF EVEN MORE A LO N E

TO

A N D ONCE

BELIEVE THE

THEM.

E X PO S E D

THE

K I TC H E N .

MYSTERY

S U S P E CT E D :

B E C A U S E O F THOSE H A LF-O P E N DOORS A N D T H E MEN FOR WHOM I MIGHT NOT HAVE E X I STED. IT

BACCH A N A L I N P R E PA R ATION BETW E E N THOSE M E N I N T H E H O U S E W A I T I N G F O R DA R K N E SS. A N D T H E S E B E A STS THE I R PARTNERS. I N W H I C H THE M E MORY OF FOR M E R MY RITUALS A RRIVAL A HAD BEEN BURNT LIKE A

S E E M E D P R E F E R A B L E TO W A I T OUTS I D E W I T H T H E DOG. A N D I R E A C H E D TH E Y A R D AS THE M EC H A N I C RETU R N E D T O T E L L M E H E COULD M A K E T E M POR ARY R E PA I R S THAT S H O U L D G ET ME TO Q U E ENS

BRAND.

B E FO R E

TH E

HOUR

HAD IN

RELEASED

FOR M I D A B L E

R E FL E X .

S E TT I N G

TOWN. BUT I T MIGHT TAKE A N HOUR. H E G A V E M E THIS I N FO R M A T I O N IN THE FEWEST PO S S I B L E

MOTIO N R I T E S THAT B E LO NG E D TO T H E S E C R E C Y OF MOO N L E S S PA DDOC K S . TO A S A B BATH OF N A K E D

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M E N A N D BEASTS STU M B L I N G TO TH E I R K N E ES. OF CRIES THAT RESEMBLED AN I N H U MA N AND

CR UELTY. I F I C R I E D O U T M Y VOI C E WOU LD S K I M ACROSS TH E S I L E N C E OF THE B U S H A N D S I N K LIKE A PEBBLE. I THOUGHT OF T A K I N G R E F UGE I N A TREE. AND SAW IN AND MY M I N D' S EYE TH E I R A RC H A I C

PLA I NTIVE LOWI NG .

I F THE SHOT H A D B E E N F I R E D AT M E I W O U L D H A VE ACCE PTED THE J U STICE OF ITS P U N I S H M E N T FOR M Y I NTRUSION . A N ECESSARY ACT S I N C E N O WOMAN SHOULD H A V E BEEN W I T N E S S TO THAT CONCEALED AND POI G N A N T I NT I M ACY. BUT I T C RACKED OV E R THE BACKS OF BY THE A HERD LIKE S HOT. A STOCK THE WHIP.

B R EADTH

H E I GHT.

NO DEFENCE

E X I STED I N

THAT P R I M A L SOLITU DE W H E R E T H E ABO R I G I N ES H A D WA NDERED AT A T I M E W H E N M A N D R E A M E D H I MSELF AS OTH E R THAN A N I M A LI TY. N O W TH E Y

WERE A LL DEAD. A N D O N L Y T H I S W I LD DOG A N D I R E M A I N E D I N TH E I R H U NTING GRO U N DS. W H E R E I H A D BECOME TH E PREY.

FOLLOW E D

SECON D

LEADING

CATTLE STO P P E D. M Y I M AG E DROWN I NG I N TH E I R EYES IN POO L S TA K I N G OF ANGUISH. HERD AND W ITH S U D D E N LY THEM IN A I STOOD UP. A N D AT ONCE THE DOG S HOWED ITSELF A L E RT. I B E G A N TO W A L K TOWA R D IT. SLOWLY.

VEER ED.

THE

STA M PEDE TO THE F A R COR N E R OF T H E PADDOCK. SOMEHOW I M A N AGED TO REACH THE FENCE

PUTTING O N E FOOT I N FRONT OF T H E OTH ER. M Y R E G A R D N E V E R QU I TTING T H O S E Y E L LOW EYES. THE CR EATU R E SEEMED UNCERTA I N OF M Y I NTENTIONS. A N D I H A L F-EX PECTED I T TO TU R N TA I L A N D SLOPE OFF INTO THE BUSH ES, WHICH I C O U NTED O N BY BRAVING IT AS MY ONLY CHANCE OF ESCAPE.

WITHOUT R U N N I NG. N O R D I D I LOOK BACK T O SEE WHO HAD FIRED THE S HOTS. BUT ONCE UNDER

COV E R OF THE T R E E S M Y K N E E S BUCKLED U N D E R M E A N D I SA N K O N A F A L L E N LOG.

I N STEAD. THE DOG C H A N G E D ITS S TA NCE. E V E R Y M U SCLE TAUT. A N D I S A W . E XTE N D I N G U N D E R T H E B E LLY, T H E LONG. R I S I N G R O D OF ITS SEX. II I MUST HAVE STOPPED. AND AT THAT I N STA N T THE WAS IT A DOG? C E R TA I N LY A BREED I D I D NOT DOG SPRANG. KNOC K I N G M E TO TH E GROU N D WITH THE WEIGHT OF ITS BODY. I N THE BLI N D N ESS OF OU R BATTLE. FEELING STIFLED BY THE THE DOG ' S R A N K STENCH OF FUR, AS IT RI PPED MY

RECOG N IZE. A LMOST TOO BIG FOR A DOG. SET HIGH ON T H I N . S I N E W Y LEGS. ITS FLANKS M A R K E D BY

STRI PES OF A D A R K E R G R E Y. A PA R I A H TO J U DGE BY ITS WA R I N ESS. T H E COC K OF ITS EARS IN THE D I R ECTION OF T H E FARM. I T H A D HEARD THE SHOTS NO DOUBT. A N D K N E W WHAT THAT M E A NT. A LWAYS O N T H E A LERT AGA I N ST A R M E D AND HOSTILE M E N . BUT I T W A S NOT A F R A I D OF M E . A V U L N E R A B L E THING S LO U C H E D ON THE LOG. A FEMALE

TEETH

CLOTHES. ROLLING AND STRUGGLI N G AGA I NST THE CON TACT OF SEX A G A I N ST MY M O UTH. I STILL

EXPERIENCED THE S A M E F U RIOUS JOY AS W H E N I HAD WRESTLED WITH BOYS A N D P I N N E D THEM DOWN BY MY FORCE. BUT MY STRE NGTH W A S NOT EQUAL TO THE DOGS. IT WORKED WITH THE F R E NZY OF THE KI LL. I WAS COV E R E D IN SLOB B E R , AND BLOOD

REDOLENT O F SOME OBSC U R E M E MORY. I T TOOK A STEP I N TO THE C LE A R I N G A N D I COULD ALMOST

TRIC KLED W H E R E TEETH TO R E THROUGH THE LAST RAGS O F CLOTH I N G . S E E PED OUT OF EVEN AT THE W I L L TO AS MY R E S I ST BODY

HAVE A DM I R E D ITS A R ROGA NCE H A D I NOT F E LT THOSE YELLOW E Y E S O N M E . B U R N I N G WITH THE

ME

LA ST.

H U NG E R OF HOW MANY CAMP FIRES WATC H E D FROM TH E RIM OF D A R K N ESS. NOSTRILS TWITCHI N G TO

CAPITULATED. I SEIZED TH E BLACK S E X . D I R ECTI NG IT AGAINST M YSELF IN THE ONLY G ESTURE THAT COULD SAVE M E . AND IN THAT SAVAGE COU PLING WE A R RIVED. PERHA PS. AT A RECO N C I LIATI O N .

TH E ODOR OF COOK I NG M EAT. A N D THAT DISTA N T W A R M T H OF H U M A N B O D I E S . OF VOICES. THAT S E N T A S H U DD E R A LO N G ITS R I BS LIKE WINO OVER

WHEAT. T H E C R E A T U R E'S SOLITUDE A S S A I LE D M E . A N D I N VOLUNTA R I LY I STRETC H E D OUT A H A N D A N D S A I D : "HERE -CO M E H E RE." III

M Y OVERTU R E S W E R E G R EETED BY A LOW SNA RL. THE POINTED M UZZLE L I FTED AND I SAW TH E TEETH. THEN I WAS A F R A I D . A T E R ROR THAT STA RTED FROM MY A R M-PITS A N D STA N K THE C L E A R I NG. I K N EW IF I TR I E D TO ESCAPE THE DOG WOULD HUNT ME

I N T H E OLD TOWN O F PRAG U E W H E R E A RC H I M BOLDO ONCE VISITED THE A LCH E M I STS A N D COLLECTED OBJECTS FOR THE E M P E RO R R U DOLP H'S CABI N ET OF CURIOSITI ES. TH E R E STI LL L I V E D AFTER THE

WA R THE LAST S U R V I V I NG M E M B E R O F THE K I SCH FA M I LY. EGON . TH E I N V E N TOR O F " R E PORTAGE" H A V I NG D I E D A WEEK BEFORE M Y A R R I VAL. KASPAR.

DOWN

AS

P I T I L E S S L Y A S TH E A BO R I G I N E S H A D

B E E N H UNTED. A N D DES PATC H E D W I T H THE S A M E

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"TH E CLOWN." WAS THE YOUNGEST OF THE K I SCH BROTH ERS AND HAD ESCA PED TH E DESTI NY OF E U ROPEA N JEWS BY SERVING AS A S U RGEON WITH THE 8TH ROUTE ARMY I N C H I N A . THE R EST OF THE FA M I LY P E R I S H E D. AND NOW KASPAR LIVED ALONE I N THE ECHOING APA RTM E NT. WITH A HOUSEKEEPER TO LOOK AFTER HIM. SHE WAS A TACITURN WOMAN WHO K E PT A GOOSE ON T H E LAN DING. FATTEN I NG I T FOR C H R I STMAS. T H E GOOSE B E I NG A R A R E B I R D I N POSTW A R P R A G U E . I W I L L I NG L Y ACC E PT E D K A S PA R'S I N V I TATION TO SHARE I T WITH H I M ON C H R I STMAS EVE.

ABLE. P E R H A PS FOR THE SAME REASON. HE CHOSE THAT CH RISTMAS EVE TO TELL M E THE STORY OF THE C H I N ESE P ROSTITUTE,

D U R I N G THE E A R LY PERIOD OF THE WAR IN C H I NA W H E N C H A N G K A I S H E K STI LL. PROF E S S E D H I S A L L I A NC E WITH T H E 8TH ROUTE A R M Y I N FIGHTING THE JAPANESE. KASPAR FOU N D H I MSELF ON ONE OCCASION I N A TOWN HELD BY THE G E N E R A L'S TROOPS. THE SOLD I E R S B I VOUAC K E D ON THE EDGE OF T H E BOMB E D C I TY. WHERE THE QUA RTER OF A THOUSA N D FLOW E R S H A D BEEN DECLARED OUT OF BOU NDS, AS A PALLIATIVE TO T H I S PRI VATION ONE OF THE MORE ENTE R P R I S I NG PROSTITUTES H A D SET U P A LITTLE TENT NOT FAR FROM T H E CAMP, IN FRONT OF W H I C H A LONG L I N E O F S O L D I E R S AWAITED T H E I R TURN.

W E SAT OPPOSITE AT THE LONG TA BLE. I THE ONLY GUEST TO OCC Upy ONE OF THOSE E M PTY CHAIRS. AND IT HARDLY LIGHTE N E D T H E GHOSTLY ATMOS P H E R E WHEN THE HOU S E K E E P E R S E R V E D TH E GOOSE IN A FLOOD OF TEARS. STANDING B E H I N D MY C H A I R W H I L E WE ATE. SOBBI N G A U D I BLY AT EACH MOUTHFUL OF HER DEAR D E PARTED. NOT A LTO G E TH E R A FESTIVE OCCASION. BUT WITH KASPAR I H A D BEC O M E H A B I T U A T E D TO M A C A B R E CON TRASTS. I F. D U R I NG OUR WALKS THROUGH PRAGUE. WE VISITED TH E OLD JEWISH CEMETERY WHERE JOSTLING CENTU R I E S OF BAWDY B R U TA L I TY, TH E S PACE IS SO L I M I T E D THE DEAD ARE B U R I E D ONE ON TOP OF ANOTH ER. AND D E SC R I B I NG WITH TOM B-STON ES. HE FOLLOWED THIS BY SHOWING ME. CA RVING OF A N U N ON THE CHARLES BRI DGE, A P E A S A N T STIC K I NG H I S H A N D UP H E R H A BIT. I SOM ETI M ES S U S P ECTED T H A T KASPAR'S BLACK H U MOUR SU BSTITUTED FOR H I S CHI LDHOOD ROLE OF "HE WHO GETS S LA P P E D." WHEN THE E LDER BROTH ERS DONGED H I M ON THE H E A D TILL H E WAS D IZZY. A TEST OF HOW M UC H HE COULD ENDURE, A FORM OF PHYSICAL PA I N TO MASK THE I N TOLER

KASPA R'S S A R DO N I C DESC R I PTION OF THE SCENE, OF ITS FLIMSY TENT J U ST LA RGE ENOUGH FOR TWO R EC U MBENT BODI E S O N E ON TOP OF THE OTH E R. OF THE Q U E U E OF SOL D I E R S ABSORBED BY TH E I R OWN N E ED. ADDED TO ITS D ESOLATION. FOR HOURS THE Q U E U E K E PT M O V I N G . A N D D A R K N E S S C A M E BEFORE THE LAST M A N E M E RGED. RE-ADJUSTING HIS U N I FO R M . WHEN EVER YON E H A D GONE, KASPAR TOOK H I S DOCTOR'S BAG A N D A PPROAC H E D THE TENT, NOW A VAGUE H U M MOCK ON THE GROU N D . A N D T OO S M A L L F O R KASPAR'S BULK T O PENE TRATE EVEN ON H A N DS AND K N E E S. VIOLENTLY. HE TOR E UPON THE WRETC H E D SCR EEN AND ON ALL THAT EN DLESS PLAIN THERE WAS NOTH ING BUT A WOM A N LYING S P R E A DEAGLED ON A MAT. S H E HAD, KASPAR S A I D. BEEN D E A D FOR A LONG TIME.

CATH E R I N E DUNCAN

96

A B LOATED O E D I P U S

TWO YEARS KAFKA

AFTER T H E

L E TT E R T O H I S FATH ER. "TH R E W H I M S E L F I NTO

FOR TH E E F F E CT OF COMIC DISTE N S I ON I S DOUBLE. ON ONE H A N D. BEHIND THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE

A D M I TS T H A T

HE

DI SSATIS FACTION." A N D THAT HE D I D SO "WITH ALL TH E M EA N S M A D E ACCESS I B L E TO ( H I M ) BY (HIS)

(FATHE R - M OTH E R-CHI LD) A R E DISCO V E R E D OTH E R . I N F I N ITELY M O R E ACTIVE T R I A NGLES. F R O M W H I C H T H E FA M I LY BORROWS I T S O W N POW E R . I T S M I SSION TO PROPOGATE S U B M I SSION. TO BOW A N D TO M A K E OTH ERS B O W TH E I R H E A DS. BECA U S E THAT I S WHAT TH E INFANTILE L I B I DO I NVESTS FROM THE

ERA AND TRADITION." I T T U R N S OUT THAT OEDIPUS I S O N E O F T H E S E M EA NS. W H I C H . QUITE MODERN. BECA M E COMMON IN F R U E D'S TIME. P E R M ITTING

MANY COMIC E F F ECTS. I T S U F F I C E S TO ENLARGE U PO N IT: "IT IS STRA NGE T H A T. P R ACTI CING

B E G I N N I N G : THROUGH THE F A M I LY P HOTO. A M A P O F TH E W H O L E WORLD. SOMETI MES O N E O F T H E T E R M S OF THE F A M I LY T R I A NG L E IS R E PLAC E D BY

DI SSATISFACTION I N A S U F F I C I ENTLY SYSTEMATIC M A N N E R . ANY COM E D Y CAN BECOM E A R E A LITY." BUT KA FKA DOES NOT C H A LLENGE TH E EXTE RIOR I N F L U E NC E O F T H E FATH E R I N ORDER TO I N VOKE A N I NTERIOR G E N E S I S O R A N I N T E R N A L STRUCTU R E WHICH WOULD STI LL B E O E D I P A L "IT I S I M POSS I BLE FOR M E TO ADMIT THAT THE B EG I N N I NGS OF M Y I N T E R N A LL Y N E C E S S A R Y .

ANOTH E R T E R M W H I C H S U F FICES T O DE-FA M I L I A L IZE THE WHOLE PICTU R E ( I N THIS W A Y THE F A M I LY STORE E NACTS THE TRIANGLE. FATH E R - E M PLOYEE C H I LD. T H E C H I LD BEING PLACED O N THE S I D E OF THE LOW LI EST E M PLOYE E S WHOSE F E ET H E WOULD B E HAPPY TO LICK); OR ELSE I N "TH E J U DG M E NT' THE RUSS I A N F R I E N D TAKES THE PLACE OF O N E O F TH E T E R M S O F T H E TRIANGLE A N D TRANSFORMS I T INTO A J U D I C I A L OR CON D E M NATORY A P P A R ATUS. AT OTH E R T I M E S THE WHOLE T R I A N G L E C H A NGES ITS FORM A N D C H A R ACTERS. AND I S SHOWN TO B E J U D I C IA L. O R ECONOMIC. O R B U R E A UCRATIC, O R I S T H E T R I ANGLE, J U DGE IN
THE TRIAL.

U N H A PP I N ESS W E R E

TH E Y M A Y H A V E H A D A C E R T A I N N E C E SSITY. BUT NOT A N I NTE R N A L N E C E S S I TY. THEY C A M E UPON ME F L UTT E R I NG L I K E FLIES AND COULD HAVE BEEN

C H A S E D AWAY A S E A S I LY." T H A T I S THE ESSENTIAL THING: BEYOND A EXTERIOR AND I NT E R I O R . AN

AGITATION.

MOLECULAR WITH

DANCE.A

WHOLE WILL

R E LATION-LI M I T

T H E OUTSIDE

WHICH

POLITICAL E T C . SUCH ATTO R N E Y- A C C U S E D

A S S U M E O E D I P U S ' I N O R D I N A T E L Y D I ST E N D E D
(GROSSI ) MASK.

WH E R E

TH E

FATH ER N O LONGE R EXI STS AS SUCH (OR E L S E T H E

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UNCLE-LAWYER-BLOC K TRIO_ A N XIOUS FOR K. TO TA K E H I S T R I A L SERIOUSLY AT ALL COSTS) . OR OTH E R PROLI FERATING TRIOS. BANK E M PLOYEES. POLICE OFFICERS. J U DGES. OR ELSE THE GEO PO L I T I C A L . G E R M A N S - C Z E C H S - J E W S . W H I C H PARADES B E H I N D KA FKA'S FATHER: " I N PRAGUE. (TH E J EWS) WERE R E P ROAC H E D FOR NOT BEING CZECHS_ IN SAAZ A N D IN EGER FOR NOT BEING GERMANS. ( . . . ) THOSE W H O W A N T E D TO B E GERMANS HAD TH E M S E LVES ATTACKED BY CZECHS. AND AT TH E SAME TIME BY GERMANS." FOR THIS REASON. THE FATH ER'S HYPOTH ETI C A L I N NOCENCE A N D DISTRESS FOR M S THE WORST ACCUSATION. SINCE THE FATH ER HAD DONE NOTHING BUT BOW H I S HEAD. SUBMIT TO A POWER WHICH WAS NOT H I S OWN . P U T H I M S ELF AT A N I M PASS B Y BETRAYING H I S R U R A L JEWISH CZECH ORIGI N. T H U S . TOO WELL FO R M E D . THE FAM I LY T R I A NGLE WAS O N L Y A CATA LYST FOR I NVESTMENTS OF A COM PLETELY D I F F E RENT NATURE W H I C H THE C H I LD N EVE R CEASES TO D I SCOV E R B E N EATH H I S FATH ER. IN HIS MOT H E R . IN H I M S E L F . J U DG ES . COM M I SS I O N E R S . B U R E A UC R ATS. E T C. . A R E NOT FATH E R S U B STI TUTES. RATHER IT IS THE FATH E R WHO IS

B U R E A UC RATS. THE I N FINITE AND UNGRASPABLE H I E RARCHY. T H E CONTA M I N ATION OF SUSPICIOUS SPACES. A N EQ U I VALENT OF WHICH . THOUGH IN COMPLETELY D I F F E R E NT TERMS. COU LD BE FOU N D I N PROUST W H E R E THE UN ITY OF C H A RACTE RS A N D THE F I G U R E S THEY CONSTITUTE GIVE WAY TO N E B U LO U S FOR M S . T O PROLIFERATING. B L U R R E D GROUPI NGS. I N T H E S A M E W A Y . BEH I N D T H E FATH E R I S TH E WHOLE N E B U LOUS GROUP O F J E W S WHO. H A V I NG L E FT THE RURAL CZECH M I L I E U B E H I N D F O R A N U R B A N . G E R M A N ENSEMBLE. A R E L I A B L E TO BE ATTA C K E D FROM BOTH SI DES-A TRANSFORMA TIONAL TRIANGLE. THERE I S NO C H I LD I N C A PABLE OF K NOWING TH I S : THEY EACH H A V E A GEOGRAPHI C A L A N D POLITICAL M A P WHOSE M A R K I NGS A R E D I FFUSED A N D S H I FTI NG. E V E N I F ONLY D U E TO N A N N I E S . M A I DS. TH E I R FATHE R'S E M PLOYEES. ETC. A N D I F T H E F A T H E R R ET A I N S T H E L O V E A N D ESTI MATION O F H I S SON. I T I S BECAUSE I N H I S YOUTH HE H I M S E L F C O N F R O N T E D C E R TA I N POWERS" AT TH E R I S K OF B E I N G " D I A BO LI C A L

OVERCO M E B Y T H E M .

F U RTH E R MO R E . T O T H E E X T E N T T H A T O E D I PUS' C O M I C E N LA RG E M E N T A L LOWS TH E S E OTH E R OPPR ESSIVE T R I A NGLES TO B E SEEN U N D E R THE M I C ROSC O P E . HATC H . A THE POS S I B I LITY OF A N ESCAPE ROUTE OF FLIGHT APPEARS. TO T H E

CONDENSED FROM ALL T H E S E FORCES TO WHICH H E SUBM ITS AND I NCITES HIS SON TO SUBM IT. THE FA M I LY HAS ONLY DOORS AT WH ICH. FROM THE START. K NOCK
"DIABOLICAL POWERS" THAT REJOICE EXCESSIVELY AT THE PROSPECT O F ENTERING ONE DAY.

I N H U M A N ITY OF "DIABOLICAL POWERS" A N S W E R S TH E S U B- H U M A N I T Y OF B ECO M I N G A N I M A L : B E CO M I N G- B E E T L E . B E C O M I NG- DOG. B ECOM I N G A P E. "TO R U N OFF. TOPPLING H E A D OVE R H E ELS." RATH E R THAN TO BOW THE HEAD A N D R E M A I N A B U R E A UC RAT. I N S PECTOR. J U DGE A N D J U DG E D . H E R E A G A I N . TH E R E A R E N O C H I LDREN W H O DON'T CONSTRUCT OR SENSE THESE ESCAPE ROUTES. T H E S E I N STANCES OF BECOMI NG-A N I M A L AND T H E A N I M AL. A S A BECOMI NG. HAS NOTH ING T O DO WITH E I TH E R A FATH E R SUBSTITUTE OR A N A RC H ETYPE. FOR. I N A S M UC H A S H E I S A JEW WHO LEAVES T H E C O U N T R Y TO G E T ESTABLI S H E D I N T H E CITY. T H E FATH E R I S NO D O U B T CA UGHT I N A MOV E M E N T O F REAL D E T E R R I TO R I A L I ZA T I O N ; BUT HE N EVER CEASES T O RETER RITOR I ALIZE I N H I S FA M I LY. I N H I S B U S I NESS. I N T H E SYSTEM O F H I S A UTHORITY A N D S U B M I S S I O N S . A S FOR A RC H ETYPES. T H E Y A R E PROCESSES OF S P I R I T U A L RETER R I TO RI A LI ZATION. F O R M S OF B E C O M I N G - A N I M A L A R E J U S T T H E OPPOS I T E : A T L E A S T I N P R I N C I PA L. T H E Y A R E ABSOLUTE D E T E R RITORI A LIZATIONS EMBEDDED I N TH E A R I D WORLD W H I C H KAFKA H A S ACTIVATED. "MY WORLD'S POWE R OF ATTRACTION I S GREAT TOO. THOSE WHO BEEN LOVE ME LOVE ME BECAUSE I H A V E A N D P E R H A P S I T I S N O T THAT

IN K A FKA_ IT IS N E I T H E R THE FATH ER. NOR THE S U P ER-EGO. NOR ANY SIGN I F I E R WHICH M A N U FAC TURES ANXI ETY OR PLE A S U R E . BUT RATH E R THE A M E RICAN TECHNOC RATIC M A C H I N E. THE RUSSIAN B U R E A UC R ATIC MACHINE. OR T H E F A S C I ST M A C H I N E . IT COULD BE SAID THAT TO THE EXTENT iHAT THE FA M i L Y TRIANGLE I S UNDONE. ! N ONE OF ITS TERMS. OR S U D D E N LY AND COMPLETELY IN FAVOR OF T H E POWERS WHICH ACTU ALLY ARE AT WO R K . OTH E R T R I A N G L E S P U S H I NG OUT F R O M B E H I N D HAVE A CERTA I N F L U I D ITY. A DIFFUSENESS AND ARE P E R PE T U A L L Y C H A N G I N G I N TO O N E EITHER BY M E A NS OF A SU DDEN A N OTH E R .

PROLIFE RATION OF ONE OF THE T E R M S OR V ERTICES. OR BECA USE TOGETHER T H E SIDES ARE CONTI N UOUSLY B E I NG DEFORMED. THUS. AT THE B EG I N N I N G OF
THE TRIAL.

THREE

UNIDENTIFIED

C H A R A C T E R S A R E T R A N S FO R M E D I N TO T H R E E B A N K WORK E RS. I N A MOBILE RELATION S H I P WITH TH E THREE I N SPECTORS_ AND WITH THE THREE B USY-BODIES GROUPED AT THE W I N DOW. I N THE FI RST REPR ESENTATION OF T H E LAW COU RT. THERE IS STI LL A WELL- D E F I N E D T R I A N G L E WITH TH E J U DGE A N D TWO SIDES. RIGHT AND LEFT. BUT ONE I S U LTI MATELY WITNESS TO A N INTERNAL PROLIFERA TION S I M I LAR TO A CANCEROUS I NVASION. THE ENTANGLEMENT OF OFFICES AND I N E XTRICABLE

A BA N DO N E D .

THEY LOV E ME A S W E I SS'S VAC U U M . BUT BECAUSE THEY F E E L THAT I N M Y GOOD M O M ENTS AND I N

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A N OTH E R S P H E R E , I AM ACCORDED THE F R E E DOM OF MOVEMENT WHICH IS COM PLETELY LAC K I N G

OTH E R SOLUTION FOR M E S I N C E W E W A R D E D O F F THE POS S I B I LITY O F THE I M ITATION F R E E DOM,"). IS ONLY ON THE OTH E R SINCE

H E R E . " TO BECOM E A N I M A L I S PREC I S E L Y T O M A K E TH E MOTION, T O T R A C E ROUTE O F FLIGHT I N A LL ITS POS I T I V I TY, TO CROSS A T H R E SHOLD, TO REACH A CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S WITH V A L U E ONLY I N

H A N D,

APPARENT

W H A T I S A T STA K E I S N O T T H E R E PRODUCTION O F F I G U R ES , B U T T H E PRODUCTI ON O F A CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S IN AN APARALLEL WHERE MAN AND ASYM NOT

A N D O F TH E M S E LV E S , T O F I N D A WORLD O F P U R E INTENSITIES WHERE A L L FORMS AS W E L L AS ALL U N DO N E , S I G N I FI ERS AND

M ET R I C A L

E VO L U T I O N

DOES

BECOM E L E S S A P E T H A N T H E A P E B E C O M E S M A N . THE B E CO M I NG I S A SEIZURE, A POS S E S S I O N , A N

SIGNI FICATIONS S I G N I F I EDS, I N OF

ARE

FAVOR OF A N U N FO R M E D MATTER,

A D D ITION A L V A L U E , A N D N E V E R A R E PRODUCTION O R I M I TATION. " I W A S N 'T S E D U C E D BY TH E NOTION OF I M ITATION, I I M ITATED BECA U S E I WAS LOO K I N G F O R A W A Y O U T , A N D N O T F O R A N Y OTH E R REASON." IN R E A LI T Y , AN ANIMAL C A PT U R E D BY MAN IS

DETERR ITOR I A LI Z E D F L U X , OF NON-SIG N I FY I N G KAFKA'S OR A N IMALS A NEVER REFER BUT TO

SIGNS.

A RC H ET Y P E S

M Y T H O L OG Y ,

ONLY

C O R R E S PO N D TO G R A D I E N TS CROSSED, TO ZON E S OF FREED INTENSITIES OF TH E I R FOR M S , W H E R E CONTENTS B R E A K J U ST AS EXPRESSIONS

D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D B Y H U M A N FORCE, T H E ENTI R E B EG I N N I N G O F "A R E PORT" I NS I STS O N TH I S POINT, BUT THE D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D AND A N I MA L FORC E IN

OUT

B R E A K O U T O F T H E S I G N I F I E R W H I C H FOR M A L I Z E S TH E M . TIONS, NOTH I N G IS L E FT BUT MOV E M E NTS, V I B R A IN A DESERTED M A TT E R :

TURN

PRECI PITATES

I NT E N S I F I E S

THE

TH R E S H O L D S

D E T ER R I TO R I A LI ZATION O F T H E DETE R RITORI A L I Z I NG H U M A N FORC E ( I F IT C A N BE SO pun. "MY A P E N A T U R E F L E D OUT O F M E, H E A D O V E R H E ELS A N D A W A Y , I N S U C H A W A Y T H A T A S A R E S U LT M Y F I RST TEAC H E R BECAME A PE-LI K E H I M S E LF , AND SOON

A N I M A LS , M I C E , DOGS, A PE S , COCK ROAC H E S C A N O N L Y B E D I ST I N G U I S H E D B Y V A R I O U S T H R ESHOLDS, VARIOUS V I BRATIONS, IN THE BY SOME OR U N D E RG R O U N D B U R ROW. FOR

PASSAGEWAY

TUBER

TH E S E PASSAGE W A Y S ARE U N DERGRO U N D I NTEN SITIES. IN TH E B E CO M I N G - M O U S E , A W H I ST L I N G

H A D TO G I V E UP T E A C H I N G TO ENTER A N A S Y L U M . " THUS IS CONSTITUTED A CONJUNCTION WHICH OF

D E P R I V E S WOR D S O F TH E I R M U S I C A N D M E A N I NG, I N THE B ECOM I NG - A P E , A C O U G H "SEEMS WORRISOME," BUT H A S NO S I G N I F I C A N C E TI VE-A P E ) . IN THE ( B ECOMI NG-CO N S U M P A PAINFUL

D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z I N G

FLUXES

O V E R F LOWS

T H E L I M I T S O F STI L L T E R R I TO R I A L I M ITATION. IN THE S A M E M A N N E R, THE O RC H I D S E E M S TO R E P RO D U C E A B E E'S I MAGE, IN BUT D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z E S MORE

BECOM I NG - I NSECT,

SQU E E K W I N S O U T O V E R T H E VOICE A N D SC R A M BLES THE R E SO N A N C E OF WORDS. G R E GO R

PROFO U N D L Y BEE, IN

IT A T T H E S A M E T I M E THAT T H E IN COUPLING

TU R N ,

D E T E R R I TOR I A L I Z E S

BECO M E S A C OC K R O A C H NOT ONLY I N ORDER TO FLEE FROM H I S FATH E R , BUT MORE I M PORTANTLY, TO F I N D A W A Y OUT AT T H E VERY POI N T W H E R E H I S FAT H E R COU L D FIND NONE, IN ORDER TO FLEE

WITH TH E ORCH I D : S E I Z U R E OF A B I T O F CODE A N D N O T I M A G E R E PRODUCTION. I N " I N V E STIGATIONS OF A DOG," ANY INKLING OF RESEMBLANCE I S E LI M I N ATED: EVEN

MORE

E N E RG E T I C A L L Y "T H E

KAFKA

F R O M THE C H I E F C L E R K , B U S I N E S S A N D B U R E A U C R ATS, I N O R D E R T O R EA C H THAT R E G I O N W H E R E TH E VOICE N O LON G E R D O E S A N YTH I N G BUT B UZZ "'DID YOU HEAR HIM S P E A K I NG? THAT WAS AN

A TT A C K S

S U S P I C I O U S T E M PTATI O N S O F

R E S E M B L A N C E W H I C H I M A G I N ATION M A Y PROPOSE TO H I M : " T H ROUGH H I S SOL I T U D E , T H E DOG S E E K S T O G R A B T H E G R EATEST D I F F E R E N C E , TH E S C H I ZO DIFFERENCE,

A N I M AL'S V O I C E : T H E C H I E F C LERK DECLA R E D,"

IT IS TRUE THAT K A F K A'S A N I M A L TEXTS ARE FAR MORE COM P L E X FA R THAN WE IN SAY, "A OR, ON THE AN

THESE

THEN

ARE

THE

TWO

E FFECTS

OF

TH E

DEVELOP M E N T O R COMIC BLOATING O F O E D I PUS: TH E D ISCOV E R Y A CONTRARIO OF OTHE R T R I ANGLES, TH E A FORTIORI M A R K I N G OUT OF T H E O R PH A N E D BECOM I NG - AN I M A L'S ESCAPE ROUTES, NO TEXT

CONTRARY,

S I MPLER.

R E PORT

TO

A C A D E M Y" FO R E X A M P L E , I T I S NOT A QU ESTION O F A BECOM I NG - A N I M A L FROM H U M A N , B U T A BECOM ING-H U M A N SENTED AS FROM A APE; TH I S BECO M I N G AND IS PRE

WOULD S E E M T O S H O W THE TI E BETW E E N T H E S E TWO A S P ECTS B E TT E R T H A N "TH E M E T A M O R P H O S I S , " THE B U R E A UC R AT I C TOG E TH E R : TRIANGLE FI RST PROG R ES S I V E L Y IS TH E CHIEF

S I M PL E

I M I TATION;

I F IT I S A

Q U E STION OF F I N D I N G A W A Y OUT (A WAY OUT A N D N O T " F R E E DOM"), T H I S W A Y O U T I S N O T THE R E S U LT OF F L I G HT, Q UITE IS THE ONLY CONTRARY, R E J ECTED BUT, AS ON ONE

COMES

TH E R E

C L E R K W H O COMES I N ORDER TO M E N A C E . T O EXACT COM PLIANCE; THE N THE R E IS TH E FATH E R WHO H A S RETU R N E D TO WORK AT THE B A N K A N D WHO SLEEPS I N HIS U N I FO R M TH E R E B Y M A K I N G E V I D E N T T H E YET EXTERIOR FORCE TO WHICH H E I S SUBJ ECTED. A S IF "EV E N AT HOME H E E XPECTED TO HEAR TH E VOIC E

HAND,

FLIGHT

USELESS

MOTION I N S P A C E , O N L Y A S E E M I NGLY LI BERATING MOTION; FLE E I NG IN IN RETURN, FLIGHT IS AFFIRMED AS A

PLACE, FLIGHT BY I N T E N S ITY ("THAT'S

WHAT I'VE DON E , I'VE S N UC K AWAY, T H E R E WAS NO

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OF HIS SUPERIOR:" FINALLY,

ALL OF A S U DDEN

O P POS E D TO O E D I P A L I N C EST, M A N I FE STS A N ON - H U M A N

I N C E ST W H I C H LIKE

TH ERE I S THE I NTRUSION O F THE TH R E E BUREAU CRATIC BOAR D E R S WHO NOW PENETRATE THE VERY FAM I LY, SUBSTITUTE I N IT, TAK E TH E I R SEATS "IN THE PLACES WHICH THE FATH ER, T H E MOT H E R AND G REGOR FOR M E R LY OCCUPI ED," A N D, COR R E LA

S E X U A L I TY

BECOM I NG-AN I M A L. BUT. JEALOUS O F T H E POR TRAIT. SHE BEGINS TO HATE G R EGOR AND

CONDEM NS H I M. FROM THEN ON, THE BECOM I NG ANIMAL ASPECT OF GREGOR'S DETE R RITORIA LlZA TION FA I LS : HE A L LOWS H I M S E L F TO BE RE

TIVE LY, T H E R E A N I M AL, HIS

IS G R EGOR'S W H O L E BECOM I NG

BECOMI NG-BEETLE, M A Y-BUG, DUNG

OEDIPALIZED B Y THE TOSS OF AN A PPLE A N D C A N ONLY DIE. APPLE E N C R USTED IN HIS BACK.

B E ETLE, COCKROACH, WHICH TRACE S THE INTENSE E SC A P E ROUTE IN R E LA T I O N TO T H E FA M I LY

L I K EWISE, TH E F A M I LY'S DETE R R I TO R I A L I ZATION INTO MORE COM PLEX A N D DIABOLICAL TRIANGLES HAS NO ROOM TO CARRY ON: THE FATHER KICKS OUT

TRIANGLE, A N D ESPECIALLY IN R ELATION TO THE BUREAUCRATIC AND COMM E R C I A L TRIANGLE,

THE THREE BUREAUCRATIC BOARDERS. RETURN TO

BUT WHY, AT THE V E R Y I N STANT O N E BELIEVES HE HAS CAUGHT HOLD OF THE TIE BETWEEN OEDIPUS' BEYOND AND BEFORE IAU-DELA ET EN DECAl, I S O N E FARTHE R A W A Y THAN EVER F R O M A WAY O U T ? W H Y DOES ONE REMAIN STUCK I N A N I M PASS? IT I S THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE'S PATER N A L PRINCI PAL. THE FAM I LY C LOSES H A PPILY IN ON ITSELF, O N E CANNOT E V E N B E CERTAIN THAT G REGOR W A S AT FAULT. RATHER. ISN'T IT TRUE THAT FORMS OF

BECOM ING-A N I M A L FAI L TO FULFILL TH E I R OFFICE AND ALWAYS RETAIN A N AMBIGUITY THAT MAKES THEM I N S U F FI C I E NT A N D CO N D E M N S THEM TO

BECAUSE THE R E I S STI L L DANGER OF A RESUR G E N C E OF O E D I P A L MASTERY. TH E I N C R EASING P E R V E R S ITY OF THE USAGE HAS N OT BEEN

FAI LURE? A REN'T A N I M A LS THE M SELVES STI LL TOO FORMED, TOO SIGNI FYING, TOO TERRI TORIALIZED? DOESN'T T H E BECOMI NG-A N I M A L. AS A WHOLE.

A DEQUATE T O EXORCIZE A L L RE-CLOSING, A L L RECONSTITUTION OF THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE WHICH ITSELF TAKES C H A RGE OF OTH E R TRIA NGLES AS IT DOES OF THE ANIMAL ROUTES. I N T H I S S E NSE, "THE M ETAMORPHOSIS" IS TH E EXEM PLARY STORY OF A RE-OEDIPALIZATION. IT COULD BE S A I D THAT AT A CERTA I N MOMENT G REGOR'S DETERRITORIALIZING PROCESS, HIS BECOMING-AN I M A L, WAS BLOCKED, I S GREGOR A T F A U LT I N THAT H E DOES NOT DARE TO GO ALL THE WAY? H I S SISTER WANTED TO CLEAR OUT H I S WHOLE ROOM I N ORDER TO PLEASE H I M . BUT G R E GO R R E F U S E S T O ALLOW T H E M T O TAKE AWA Y THE PORTRAIT O F THE LADY M U FFLED I N FURS, H E CLINGS TO TH I S PORTRA I T A S T O A LAST TERRITORI ALIZED I MAGE, IN REALITY, THIS IS WHAT HIS SISTER C A N N OT TOLERATE. SHE ACCE PTED H I M . LIKE GREGOR S H E WANTED SCHIZO I NC E ST. H I G H VOLTAGE I N C E ST. I NC E S T WITH T H E S I STER A S

OSCILLATE BETWEEN A SCHIZO ESCA PE A N D AN OEDIPAL I M PASS? OEDIPAL ANIMAL PAR EXCEL

LENCE. THE DOG, OF WHICH KAFKA FR EQUENTLY SPEAKS I N HIS D I A RY AND LETTERS, IS AT THE S A M E TIME A SCHIZO BEAST, S U C H AS THE MUSICIAN

DOGS I N "INVESTIGATIONS" OR THE DIABOLICAL DOG IN "THE TEMPTATION AT THE VI LLAGE." THE FACT I S THAT K A FKA'S P R I N C I P A L A N I M A LE SQ U E TEXTS WERE W R I TT E N J U ST BEFORE THE TRIAL. O R

COEXTENSIVE WITH I T A S A COUNTERPART TO THAT NOVEL WHICH IS FREED FROM ANY ANIMAL

PROBLEMATIC, I N FAVOR O F A H I G H E R CONCERN,

GI LLES DELEUZE AND FELIZ GUATTA RI EXCERPTED FROM KAFKA

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T H E DOGS
THE C E RTAI NTY OF MY COMI N G DEPARTU R E H A D R E STORED MY TASTE F O R E M MA. ALTHOUGH M Y DREAMS REMAINED UNDER THE SIGN OF THE H U NTER'S MOON. W H Y D I DN'T I CON FIDE M Y PLAN TO HER? WHY SHOULD 17 T H E PRESENT IS THE PRESENT A N D TH AT'S ENOUGH. BESIDES. I MYSELF H A D NOT SET T H E DAY. B E C A PTU R E D IN A WORD. I WAS ON MY WAY; I H A D N EI TH E R M EMORY NOR PRESE NT; I WAS CROSSING. AND DO U BTL.ESS-FOR A T THAT MOMENT M Y M I N D COUL.D D I SC E R N NO D I V I SION BETWEEN THEM-TI M E WAS C A R RY I NG M E A S T H E S E A WAS CARRYING M Y BOAT.

THERE C A M E A M I LD E R EVENING WITH A LITTLE FOG ON T H E HORIZON. A N D I SAW AS ON THE FI RST EVENING THE MOON E M E RG E D FROM THE SEA. I T WAS F U L L : THE CYC L E WAS COM PLETED. I DECI D E D THE T I M E HAD C O M E . I L.OVED E M MA S O M UC H T H A T I FILLED H E R WITH MYSEL.F. AND. WHEN SHE H A D GON E T O SL.EEP. I WENT T O A RATH ER DISTANT CREEK HAVE WHERE THE BOATS WERE K E PT. IT M UST BEEN TWO IN THE MORNING: I HAD J UST TI M E TO R E A C H T H E I S L.A N D B E F O R E

S U D D E N L.Y BEFORE ME. I SAW THE ISLAND. W H I L E A P I N K F I NGER ON T H E HORIZON A N NOUNCED T H E ADVENT OF D A Y . THE L. O W COASTLI N E WAS A M E R E M A R G I N OF S A N D AT T H E B A S E OF A N A B R U PT CLI FF. I SET A BOUT TO F I N D A MORE FAVORABL.E PORT. BUT T H E CL.IFF CONTIN U E D TO PRESENT T H E SA M E RIGHT A NGLE. I WAS STE E R I NG AROUND THE HORN OF A S M A L. L. PROMONTORY WHEN I SAW THE YACHT WHICH H A D B E L.ONGED TO T H E COUNTESS. IT TRIGG E R E D IN M E A N E W FEAR. PERHAPS BECAUSE I T WAS TOO WH ITE; I DOUBL.ED BACK AND DECIDED TO L. A N D ON T H E N A R ROW BEACH. THEN CONTI N U E ON FOOT. I T H E R EFORE M A NOEUVERED I N THAT D I R ECTION AND. HAVING TOUCHED SHOR E . BUSIED MYSEL.F WITH L.A N D I NG M Y BOAT AND F I N DI NG S H E L.T E R FOR IT. S U D D E N L.Y A NOI S E B E H I N D M E M A D E M E T U R N A RO U N D: A N E NORMOUS N I GG E R ACCOM P A N I E D B Y T W O M A STIFFS WAS WATC H I NG ME.

ENOUGH

DAYBREAK.

THE WAVEL.ESS OCE A N BARELY RI PPLED B E N EATH THE PROW OF M Y BOAT. A LTHOUGH I USED THE OARS I N O R D E R TO GO FASTER THAN THE COM ING DAY. THE MOON WAS IN FRONT OF M E. BUT S ETTI NG. M I LKY AND V E I L.ED. FATIG U E R E N D E R E D M E ACUTEL.Y AWA R E OF ALL. THAT WAS GOI NG ON BETWEEN THE A I R A N D THE WATER-ACTIVITY TOO I NTA NG IBL.E TO

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I S M I LED AT T H E M A N : HE R E M A I N E D I M PASSIVE. H I S EYES A N D THOSE OF T H E A N I M A LS E X A M I N E D M E WITH A N A B S E N C E O F C U R IOSITY A N D COLDN E SS THAT WAS F R I G H T E N I NG. TH E SUN WAS R I S I NG

M A N CONTI N U E D TO STA N O O V E R

ME.

WITHOUT

MOVING MY H EAD, I FOLLOWED THE T H R E E B R UTES WITH M Y EYES,

B E H I N D ME:

ITS R E D N ESS, E N V E LOPING ME. GAVE

JUST A S I THOUGHT T H E ORDEAL W A S D R A W I N G TO A CLOSE, THE M A N POI NTED TO MY GROIN AND THE TWO WOLFISH DOGS POU NCED ON MY CROTCH . I

M E COURAGE. I STEPPED FORWA R D AND SAID:

"I WOU LD LIKE TO S E E T H E COU NTESS."

FELT A S H I V E R DOWN MY BACK AS T H E I R TON G U E S TOUC H E D M E . I C H O K E D B A C K THE C R Y WHICH ROSE

THE DOGS STRETC H E D TH E I R N EC K S TOWA RDS ME: THE MAN

I N M Y TH ROAT. THEY WERE NOT GOI NG TO DEVOUR ME-NOT YET. ANOTH E R M I NUTE AND I WAS NO

010

NOT

C H A NG E

HIS

STATU E-LI K E

POSITION. I CONTI N U ED:

LONGER STRUGG L I NG AGAINST FEA R BUT A G A I NST THE ABOM I NABLE AWOKE A LONG T E M PT A T I O N IN MY I WHICH THOSE MY TO

"I HAVE M ET T H E COU NTESS, I WOULD LIKE

TO N G U E S SCROTU M ,

M Y C R OTC H . PHALLUS. E X E RT E D

A RO U N D HEAD

FROM MY

THE M A N MADE A N I M P E R C E PT I B L E SIGN. AND THE TWO MONSTE R S LEA PT ON ME, BEFORE I COULD

H E E LS

R E S I STED.

WI LLPOWER

M IGHTI LY TO K E E P F R O M BECOMING E R ECT. B U T T H E LENGTH OF T H E I R TONGUES GAVE THE DOGS A

TH I N K OF MOVING, I W A S T H ROWN ON T H E S A N D: ONE OF T H E BEASTS G R I P P E D M Y THROAT W H I L E T H E OTH E R S A T A S TR I D E M E, N E I TH E R OF THEM H A R M E D ME, BUT I COULD F E E L THEY W E R E R E A DY T O TEAR ME APART TO ON C O M M A N D. IN FEAR CA USED MY REO EYES.

TERRIBLE A D V A NTAGE: NO MOUTH H A D E V E R H A D SUCH POW E R O V E R FROM ME. THE LONG HAD PINK AN W H I PS

HANGING

TH E I R

M A WS

A M AZING

SUPPLEN ESS A N D E N A BLED THE T W O Q U A D R U P E DS TO ENCI RCLE M Y P R I C K A N D PROBE MY A N U S WITH I R R ES I ST I B L E WHICH TATED I WAS VIGOR. AND T H E I R SLAVER. W I TH

FLA KES

SWIM

M Y TH ROAT A N D MY BRAIN WAS

BEH I N D THAT S E A R C H I NG

SC R E E N AN

WOR K I NG,

FOR

E X P L A N AT I O N , WATC H I N G ,

A B U N D A NTLY TASK BY

D R E N C H ED, MY

F A C I LI THE

NOTI NG. P R E P A R I NG M Y N E R V E S TO OBEY I N STANT LY. AND THEN SHE I REMEMBERED: HAD S A I D. "WHATE V E R IN YOUR YOUR

TH E I R

GIVI NG

MEMBER

I LLUSION O F ENTE R I N G A HOSPITA BLE PORT.

H A P PE N S:' STO M A C H ,

"SUCK

BREATHE

DEE PLY.

S PA C E

I N THAT I N STA NT. M Y P E N I S WAS THE OTHER, W H I C H T H E S H E E R U RGE T O F U C K COM M A N D E D T O S T A N O U PRIGHT I N S P I T E OF MYSE LF. TH E THICK U N DER VEIN I N FLATED MY PENIS IN REG U L A R TH ROBS,

BREATHING R E G U L A R LY."

S H A DOW

PASSED

OVER

ME:

T H E N I GGE R WAS

I N EXORA B LY: I WATC H E D TH I S PROCESS WITH A K I N D OF HORROR. WITH THE FEELING OF PA RTIC I PATING IN SO M E UNCLEAN ITS ACT. WHEN MY PENIS I HAD IT

A PPROACH I NG . HIS I M M E N S E BODY DOM I NATED ME, HIS EYES, STI L L COLO, F I X E D ME FROM A BOVE. I SAW HIM BEND H I S LEGS, THEN MOVE HIS ENORMOUS

ATTA I N E D

LARGEST

DI M E N S I O N S ,

SAW

FOOT TOWA R D M Y FACE, SLOWLY, SO THAT I SHOULD HAVE PLENTY OF T I M E TO C O N T E M P L A T E T H E

BECOM E A N ENORMOUS BON E, S O T O SPEAK, I N T H E MOUTH OF THE DOG WHO WAS PULLING AT IT. T H E N I G G E R L E A N E D OVER ME; A VAGU E S M I LE S H O W E D H I S TEETH. SUDDENLY H E DREW A D A G G E R F R O M H I S POCKET A N D A S THE DOG L E A PT A W A Y , H E POINTED H I S WEAPON AT M Y BELLY.

R E P U LSIVE P A L LO R O F THAT GOURD STRI ATE D WITH PINK W R I N K L E S W H I C H WAS GOING TO CRUSH ME. TH E FOOT STO P P E D A FEW I NC H ES FROM M Y EYES. TH E R E WAS A SECOND O F I N FI N ITE ANGUISH IN

WHICH I 010 MY UTMOST TO CONTROL M Y B R EATH I NG A N D NOT TO B U DGE. HE WITH D R E W H I S FOOT. THE DOGS LET ME GO, A FLASH, A MARK ON MY SKIN. I WAITED FOR THE PA I N . I DI DN'T D A R E LOOK. THE NIGGER STRA I G HT I R E M E M B E R . THE M A N M A D E A N OTH E R SIGN. THE TWO WILD A N I M A LS ATTACK E D AGA I N . FURIOUSLY, THEY TORE OFF MY CLOTH ES. I D I DN'T MOVE. I KNEW I MUST NOT MOVE. BUT T H E DOGS WORKED S K I LL ENED U P , STA R I NG ME IN THE FACE, WITH TH E K N I FE STILL EXTE N D I NG FROM H I S R IGHT H A N D. I D I D N'T MOVE. THE BLADE WAS A BOVE MY EYES. IT F E LL. IT GRAZED M Y FOR E H E A D SLIGHTLY A T THE B A S E OF MY NOSE. THEN WAS L I FTED AGA I N .

FULLY WITH T H E I R T E ETH A N D CLAWS: THEY D I DN'T HARM M E. IN A M A TT E R OF SECONDS I WAS N A KED. THE DOGS SAT ON EITHER S I D E O F M E, TH E I R L I PS C U R LE D BACK IN A S N A R L, THE I R TO N G U E S

N O W M Y GAZE. TOO. WAS COLD. THE NIGGER D REW BACK. I COULD NO LONGER ME SEE H I M. BUT THE HIS AIR

H A N G I NG OUT: T H E Y WATC H E D M E C LOSELY. T H E

S H A DOW

C OV E R E D

COMPLETELY.

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W H I STLED; T H E R E WAS A NOTH E R FLASH; H I S K N I F E F L E W TOWARD M Y G ROI N. NO P A I N . I LOW E R E D M Y C H I N A L I TTLE. I SAW T H E H I LT O F T H E DAGG E R SAND. RIGHT BETW E E N M Y

COULD

HARDLY

DECEIVE

MYSELF

ABOUT

THE

I NTENTION T H E DOGS

H A D I N TERMS OF M E : BUT

W H A T I D I D N 'T K N OW W A S T H A T A B E I N G A L I E N TO TH E I R R A C E H A D E N L A R G E D T H E F I E LD OF TH E I R I N STI NCT BY T E M P E R I NG I T WITH H I S O W N I M AG I N A TION.

ST I C K I N G OUT OF THE

L E G S . THE NIGGER W A S STA N D I NG AT MY FEET. H I S S M I LE D I S P L A Y I N G MORE T E E T H .

H E WHI STLED. TH E DOGS. WHO HAD DRAWN BACK. R E T U R N E D . AGA I N HIS HAND POI NTED TO M Y BELLY. AND THE BEA STS R E S U M E D THEIR TASKS. FOR THE BON E HAD LOST M U C H O F THE ITS S I Z E D U R I NG THE REKINDLED MY

I BEGA N TO GUESS THIS WAS THE C A S E WHEN ONE OF T H E MONSTERS-THE ONE WHO H A D PERFOR M E D M I RACLES WITH H I S TONG U E I N T H E S E R V I C E OF M Y ORGAN-SUDDENLY C HANGED HIS POSITION

K N I FE-T H R OW I N G . SHAME. M A ST. I AND I WAS

TON G U ES

WITHOUT L E TT I N G G O O F H I S OBJ ECT. A N D STOOD D I R ECTLY O V E R ME: H I S R E A R LEGS PLANTED ON EITH E R S I D E O F MY H E A D . H I S BALLS J U ST ABOVE M Y EYES. HIS P E N I S NOW D R I P P E D O N M Y N EC K A N D C H E ST A S I T J E R K E D A BOUT I N A N ACC E L E RATED R H YTH M . MOREOVER. IN HIS I N C R E A S I N G EXC I TE

WATC H E D M Y B E LLY HOISTING ITS WATC H I N G AND I WAS A WATC H I N G STRANGE

MYSELF

W A TC H I N G .

THERE

WAS

D I STANC E WITH I N M E W H I C H CONTA I N E D T H E H A L L OF M I RRORS WHERE MY S ELF-IMAGE D W E LT-A

SHATTERED I M AG E I NTO W H I C H M Y FUTU R E B L E D I NTO THE PRESE NT.

M ENT T H E A N I M A L BEGAN TO KICK U P T H E SAND SO VIOLE NTLY THAT I WA S SOON COV E R E D WITH IT. T H E N IG G E R GAVE A SHORT CRY. THE ANIMAL HESI

I WAS E RECT. ALL OF A S U D D E N I ACCEPTED THE FACT. THE FIRE HAD TO B U R N ITSELF OUT. I R A I S E D MY H I PS TOWA R D S TH E I R M O U T H S . ONE O F THE

TATED A S T H O U G H I N THOUGHT. TH E N CROUCH E D DOWN , R U B B E D H I S H A I RY M UZZL E I N M Y F A C E A N D B E G A N U S I NG H I S TON G U E W H I L E H I S T H I G H S A N D HAUNCHES BEGAN TO QUIVER ST R A N G E LY : HIS

TON G U E S WAS R E LENTLESSLY FLIC K I NG M E FROM MY BALLS TO MY ANUS; MY THE OTH E R ONE WAS IT.

BALLS S L A P P E D AG A I N ST ME. H E BEGAN PANTING. I R E A L I Z E D HE W A N T E D TO F I N D A HOLE. I S HOUTED: "NO. STOPI"

WRAPPED

AROU N D

P E N I S - E N V E LO P E D

SQUEEZED IT. 0 1 0 WON D E R S . A N D I LET MYSELF GO. E N T E R E D NATU RALLY I NTO THE HORROR OF IT-FOR AFTER A L L. TH I S WAS N A TU R E TDO. NO L I M IT. AN A N C I ENT VOI CE W I T H I N M E C R I ED. NO L I M IT. EXCEPT PLEASURE.

T H E NIGGER G A V E ME A KICK TO S H U T M E U P AND T H E OTH E R DOG I N C R E A SE D H I S A R D E N T ATTEN TIONS: HIS DAMP NOSE SLIPPED B E TW E E N MY

BUTTOC KS. S N I F F E D AT MY ASSHOLE. ROOTED AT IT WHAT I WAS G O I N G T H R O U G H EXC E E D E D E V E R Y WITH HIS M UZZLE AND THEN BEGAN U S I NG HIS

T H I N G I COULD H A V E I M AGI N E D. A N D IT S E E M E D T O M E THEN. AS TH E T W O DOGS PLAYED WITH M E . T H A T I WAS PAST THE H IG H EST PITCH; T H I S REASSU R E D

TON G U E , DA RTI N G IT I N A N D OUT. DROPPI N G GOBS OF S A L I V A SPHINCTER. IN AN ATTE M PT TO FORCE OPEN T H E F LAI LED VIOLENTLY BACK

MY COCK

ME. B U T I N T H E M I DST OF M Y PLEAS U R E I D I D NOT R E A LIZE THAT THE I M POSSIBLE GIVES R I S E TO T H E I M POSSI B LE.

AND FORTH, THE D E S I R E TO FUCK DEAD E N E D ALL R E ST R A I NT.

MY I STA RTED TO BECOME AWA R E OF TH I S AS D ROPS O F A MUSKY I ESSENCE SPURTED O N M E . M A K I NG M E WAS N O T THE ONLY O N E ER ECT; FOR

RIDER

BENT

HIS

LEGS.

STR ETC H E D OUT H I S

C H E ST, L I FT E D H I S H A U N C H E S SLIGHTLY A N D A I M E D HIS COCK AT MY MOUTH. "IT I REMEMBERED LIKE A MY

R E A LIZE

MOTH E R ' S

REMA RK:

S M E L LS

WILD

I N D E ED. U N DE R THE MONSTERS' B E LLIES I COULD SEE TH E I R J UT T I N G DEGREE LONG P E N I S E S WHOSE L E FT NO REDNESS A N D AS TO THE

A N I M AL," S H E S A I D T U R N I NG H E R H E A D AWAY. T H E MONSTE R'S L A N C E W A S ON M Y L I PS: IT K N OC K E D A G A I N ST TH E M CONTI N U A LLY A N D COV E R E D T H E M WITH A BITTE R-TA STING L U BRICA NT, T H E N FORC E D THEM OPEN. AND WEDGING B E TWE E N THE MY JAW SO AND

MEATUS O F TH E I R

DOUBT

E XC I T E M E NT. T H O S E

R E PU L

S I V ELY T H I N M E M B E R S C A N S W E LL CON S I D E RABLY IN T H E H EAT OF ACTION O N C E T H EY HAVE ENTERED TH E I R R E C E PT A C L E ; SO M UC H SO.THAT HEAVY

CHEEK,

CARESSED

GUMS

PLEA

S U R A B L Y THAT I O P E N E D MY MOUTH. A N D TH E N I HAD IN MY MOUTH THAT STR ANGE TH I NG . THAT AND

WOR K A N D M U C H T I M E A R E R E QU I R E D BEFORE TH E Y C A N W I T H D RAW. F O R T H E T I M E B E I N G TH EY W E R E I N I NC E S S A N T TH E I R MOV E M E N T, A LT E R N A T E L Y C A U S I N G

H O R R I B L E TH I NG. THAT S H A M E F U L M E M B E R ,

Y E T I FOU N D N E I TH E R S H A M E NOR HORROR WITH I N M E . W H Y D I D I H A V E T O L E A R N S O C R U D E LY THAT A

M E M BERS T O STICK O U T O F TH E I R F U R R Y P L U N G E BACK I NTO T H E M . I

S H EATHS A N D T H E N

DOG IS WORTH A P RI EST . . . NOW, A GENTLE IN A N D

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OUT MOVEMENT WAS WR ITING ON MY TONGUE THAT ALL DOGMA I S H ATEFUL, BEC A U S E I T C A STRATES THE I MAGINATION AND T H E R EFORE IS A N OBSTACLE TO EXPERI ENCE,

A I R WAS ROA R I NG I N MY EARS. MY H EA RT WAS I N M Y THROAT. A N D EVEN THOUGH I WAS S UFFOCATI NG, ALL I COU LD FEEL WAS THE I NSANE T H ROB B I N G OF THE DOG ' S COCK IN IN MY MOUTH AND MY O W N SWO L L E N C O C K H I S M O U T H . H EC A T E W A S

T H E WRITING BECA M E U RGENT AND B E V E L B A R E L Y A P P A R E NT, AND

M Y TONGU E T H E B I TT E R ,

BEATING T H E COUNTRY S I D E WITH H E R MONSTERS: THE CRESC E N T WAS BLACK ON HER B ROW. AND MY BODY, A MERE C R E SCENT STRETC H E D BETW E E N TWO ORA L CAVITI ES, WAS BLACK A S WELL. THAT S H A DOW S U D D E N LY ACROSS THE T H RESHOLD! THE CAGE I S SO N A R ROW! M Y H EART I S GOING TO STOP. THE AIR IS ROAR I NG : I HAD NEVER REALIZED HOW L I K E A N O C E A N TH E A I R C A N B E WITH W A V E S CRASHING A N D ROLLING. FROM T H E VERY H EA VENS, HUGE WAVES WITH T H E I R BLACK WALLS W E R E H U RT L I N G T O W A R D ME A N D W E R E C R E A T I NG H I D EOUS HOLLOWS I NTO W H I C H W E W E R E GOING TO FALL. A N D T H E LAST ONE WOULD S U R E LY D ROWN ME.

BEGA N T O MOVE: I T E XPLOR E D T H E GLANS, T H E DRI PPI NG M EATUS, TH E D OG T E N S E D H I S M U SCLES, E A G E R L Y A TT E N T I V E . HE STOPP E D M O V I N G H I S TON G U E , T H E N M I N E BEGAN M O V I N G AGA I N : I T A L L A LONG IT, W R A P P E D ITSELF A RO U N D T H E G L A N S . MOV E D U P A N D D O W N S P R E A D I NG S A L I VA LICKING A N D TICKLING. A LONG S H U DD E R WENT THROUGH THE A N I M A L AS I T T U R N E D BACK TOWA R D M Y M O U T H . BUT AS W E W E R E A B O U T TO PITCH INTO THE FRAY, THE N IGGE R'S S H A DOW FELL UPON US. WAS HE COM I N G CLOSE R T H E BETTER TO WATCH US, OR WAS H E GOI NG TO TEAR ME AWAY FROM MY LOVER7 I WAS A L R E A D Y EXPRESSING MY RAGE I N G R U NTS BECA U S E I COULD NOT PRONOUNCE A N Y WORD, SO BUSY WAS I I N S U C K I N G H I S T H I N G THAT SLID BETWEEN M Y LIPS AGA I N AND AGAIN.

WHEN I REGA I N E D M Y S E N S ES, THE TWO DOGS W E R E STA RING A T M E : O N E WAS QUI ETLY SITTI NG T H E R E , H I S TONGU E LOLLI NG; THE OTH ER O N E W A S TRYING TO NIP AT W H ITISH FI LAM E NTS DROOLING FROM HIS C H I N . BEHIND T H E M , STA N D I NG VERY STRAIGHT WITH H I S LEGS A P A RT. T H E N IGGER WAS WATC H I NG ME. WHEN O U R GLANCES M ET, HE CA M E U P TO ME, LEANED OVER A N D GRABBED M E BY T H E NAPE, PICKED M E U P, DRAGGED M E BEHIND H I M, AND THREW ME VIOLENTLY I NTO THE SEA, THE SHOCK OF THE WAT E R BROUGHT M E BACK TO MYSELF AND TO THE PRESENT. I W A S THI RSTY A S THOUGH I HAD EATEN VERY SPICY FOOD. I WASH E D AND SHOOK MYSELF OFF, A N D THEN C A M E OVE R TO T H E MAN A N D H I S A N I M A LS.

LODGE D AGAI N ST M Y PALATE WAS A CARESS, A CARESS I H A D D R E A M E D ABOUT WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT TH E D R E A M M E ANT. I N M Y MOUTH H I S T H I NG GREW ROU N D A N D SWELLED U P: IT W A S AS THOUGH M Y TONGUE W E R E FLAT ON THE G R O U N D AND MY JAWS WERE D I ST E N D E D TO F O R M T H E MOST STU PEFI E D 0 M Y LIPS H A D E V E R M A D E . I BEGAN TO SUFFOCATE WITH MY NOSE B U R I E D I N H I S FUR: I WAS SUFFOCATI NG AND I MOV E D MY ARMS A N D LEGS LIKE A N I N E X P E R I E N C E D SWI M M E R WHOSE EVERY MOVEM ENT, I NS T E A D OF H EL P I N G H I M , DOES NOTHI N G BUT E N S U R E H I S PERDITION,

"I WANT TO S E E TH E COUNTESS," I SAI D. THE N I GG E R M U ST H A V E B E E N WAITING FOR THAT M O M E N T : I H E A R D H I M C R U N C H I N G THE S A N D AROU N D M E A N D T H E N C H A S I N G AWAY T H E DOG WHO WAS BADG E R I N G T H E HOLE IN M Y ASS-AND WHO WAS LOATH TO LET GO. B EC A U S E HIS TONGUE H A D M A D E SOM E PROGRESS. T H E N T H E N IGGE R GRABBED M Y F E ET, L I FTED M Y LEGS, TWI NED THEM AROUND THE N EC K OF THE A N I M A L THAT I WAS SUCKING, TH E N H E SEIZED MY H A N DS TWI N I NG THEM AROUND THE C RO U P O F M Y R I D E R SO THAT I FOU N D M Y S E L F H A N G I N G U N D E R I T S B ELLY. T H E A N I M A L'S HUGE KNOT THAT I HAD IN MY MOUTH H E LD M E FAST, EVEN MORE F I R M LY T H A N MY K NOTTE D LIMBS DID. A FLASH OF HATE GLI M M ERED IN THE N I GG E R'S EY ES: T H E DOGS TH R EW THEMSELVES ON ME AGA I N A N D KNOC K E D M E T O T H E GROUND. T H E DOG WHO H A D LATELY LICKED T H E HOLE I N M Y ASS S E E M E D M U C H M O R E EXCITED T H A N H I S COMPANION. H E STARTED T O MOVE H I S DAGGER I N A N D O U T OF ITS SHEATH, AND IT WAS H E THIS TIM E WHO TRIED TO GET MY COCK H A R D. RESIGNED TO A REPLAY O F THE PREVIOUS SOON A S I PERFORMANCE. I D E C I D E D TO L E T M Y S E L F GO A N D T O ACCEPT T H E RITUAL. BUT A S H A D REACHED T H E DESI R E D STATE, I N STEA D O F STR I K I NG M Y MOUTH WITH THE TIP OF HIS BLADE. THE DOG SU DDENLY T U R N E D HIS BACK THERE WAS A G U T T U R A L C R Y A N D THE DOG ON ME. D R U GG E D BY MY OWN DESI RE, I DID NOT MOVE FROM THE GROUN D, M Y MAST UPRIGHT A N D SHINY W I T H S LI M E I N T H E SUN LIGHT. THE N I GG E R SCREA M E D . B U T S E E I NG T H A T I STI LL D I D NOT

I M M EDI ATELY STA RTED OFF AT F U L L SPEED. M Y B A C K SCRA P E D AGA I N ST T H E S A N D A N D W A S TOR N O P E N BY T H E STON ES; FLA M E S E N V E LOPED M E : T H E

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R E ACT.

HE

GRABBED

ME

UNDER

THE

ARMS

AND

WAS THERE

FOR

A LL TO S E E . A N D F LA S H I NG ITS

TH R E W M E D O W N ON MY K N E E S . SEIZED M Y COCK I N ON E OF H I S E N O R M O U S H A N DS A N D DRAGG E D T H E R U T T I N G DOG C LOS E R T O M E W I TH H I S OTH E R H A N D . TH E A N I M AL. P E R FECTLY T R A I NED. I M M E DI ATELY

B L A D E IN THE S U N LI G H T .

T H E N I G G E R H E LP E D M E T O M Y F E ET.

BACKED U P TOW A R DS M E AND LOW E R E D HIS H I N D E N D S O AS TO P L A C E T H E H O L E I N H I S A S S AT T H E RIGHT ANGLE. THE N IGGER ST E E R E D MY C OC K

"DO YOU WANT TO SEE THE COUNTE SS?"

TOWA R DS T H E H O L E OF H I S FAVORITE'S ASS. AS H E FO R C E D ME TO GRAB HOLD OF THE DOG'S

I STA R E D STR A I G H T AT H I M AND DID NOT A N SW E R . A N D T H E N . S I NC E H E A P P E A R E D T O BE E X P ECTING A N A N S W E R. I DREW B A C K M Y L I PS AND SHOWED H I M M Y C L E N C H E D TEETH.

T H R O B B I N G COCK. T H E MONSTE R I M PA LED H I M S E L F ON MY PENIS IN ONE R I NG QUICK OF HIS MOVEMENT ASS AND MY

TIGHTENING

THE

A ROU N D

STA LK. H E TRIED TO EXTRACT M Y ESSENCE OF M A N . BUT SINCE AT I WAS N O T M A N I P ULATING TH E DOG TURNED AND DOG'S

"TH E C O U N TESS WILL B E P L E A S E D TO S E E YOU. SHE IS E X P E C T I N G YOU AND I WAS S E N T TO W E LCOME YOU."

PENIS

A LL.TH E

STA R E D

Q U I ZZICALLY A T M E A N D TH E N A T H I S MASTER. T H E N I G G E R DEC I D E D T H A T I N E E D E D A H E LPI NG H A N D A N D . HOLD I NG H I S D A G G E R B Y THE B L A D E . R A M M E D I N O N E STR O K E T H E H A N D L E U P M Y ASS. "YOU S H O U LD W A S H AGA I N ." SOM E T H I N G S TR A N G E HAPPENED IN MY B ELLY I W A L K E D STIFFLY A N D C A R E F U L LY TOWARDS T H E OC E A N . B A T H E D V E R Y L E I S U R E LY, A N D T H E N C A M E BACK T O THE NIGGER. HE TU R N E D ME A RO U N D G E NTLY. WITHDREW THE

W E A PO N I M PA L I N G M E A N D POI N T E D A T T H E S E A :

W H E R E CONTR A R Y F E E LI N G S O V E R W H E L M E D M E : A TE R R I B L E PA I N IN MY BATTE R E D ASS AND AN

EQU A L LY T E R R I B L E P L EA S U R E I N M Y BALLS. T H E R E S U LT W A S A F R A N T I C E FFORT ON MY PART TO

F U C K AS W E L L AS J E R K OFF T H E DOG . MY E S S E N C E S P U R T E D I N U N I SON WITH T H E A N I M A L'S WHO B R O K E AWAY HOWLI NG. I FELL FACE FOR W A R D ON THE " P L E A S E . FOLLOW M E ."

S A N D . STRETC H E D OUT ON T H E T H R ESHOLD OF T H E I N F I N ITE. BERNARD NOEL

A N D YET M Y ASS. STU F F E D WITH A DAGG E R H A N D L E

TRANSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE

TRUDY

OR

THE S EC R ET A PH I D
RUDDER. THIS HE WOU L D STRO K E . FONDLE.

TRUDY H A D A CROTCH B E A U T I F U L. LARGELY W E LL PROPORT I O N E D E X C E PT FOR THE HEAD. WHICH W A S REA LLY A CONVEX. I N S I D E-OUT N A V E L. TH I S HE

M A N I P U LA T E A N D S T E E R A S THROUGH I T W E R E A N A P H I D U NTI L T H E J U I C E S F LOWED. S O P A S S E D T H E N I G HTS A N D T H E Y E A R S . W H E N T R U DY'S C ROTCH B E A U T I F U L WENT TO POT. THE ANT DID NOT S E E M TO CARE. OH. IT RUBBED ITS H I N D-LEGS TOGETH E R

D U L Y CONTE M PLATED F R O M D A W N T I L L STA R - R I S E . T H E N OTH E R S D I D. H E H A D A S M ALL ANT F O R PET W H I C H H E K E PT I N A N OLD- F A S H I O N E D TOOTHPASTE TUBE. H E L I K E N E D HIS DESTI N Y TO A S H I P'S A N D

M O R E O FT E N . P E R H A PS. W H E N A LO N E . BUT YOUTH W I L L OUT. BY-TH E - B Y E . T H I S IS A H A PPY TALE A S I H A V E O M N I SC I ENTLY D E C I D E D A N D T H E R E FO R E I T W I L L NOW E N D .

T H E A NrS T O A C A PT A I NS. W H I C H I S T O S A Y (OTH E R TH A N THE OBVIOUS) THAT T R UDY'S SENSE OF

B A L A N C E W A S E ROTIC I N T H E EXTR E M E. THE A N T WOU LD HAIRS GRAZE TH E N U PON HIS FACE EAR AND NOSE

WORK

SLOWLY

DOWN

TO

T R U DY'S

D. C. S LOATE

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TH E S I LV E R P I P E C A F E

ORPHANED AT N I N E H E LEFT H I S VI LLAGE A LONE AND CAME DOWN ON THE AN C O A ST B E LOW TH E

PIPE.

CHOOSE

HOT

COALS

AND

ARRANGE

TH EM

WITH TONGS OVER THE D R UG. TA M P THEM DOWN. TAK E A FEW PUFFS TO STA RT TH E SMOKE FLOWI NG. H A N D I T OVER TO THE PATRON. ONE RUPIYAH PER PIPE. FETCH TEA MEN AND C I G A R ETTES FOR THE OLD FLOWER-PATTERNED LUNG

SOUTH E R N H I LLS-ONCE

I N DE P E N D E N T S U L

TANATE W H E R E THE M E N M A D E TH E I R LIVINGS AS P I R A T E S -S O M E GRAN DFATHERS NOW STI L L

REMEMBER-I N THE I R LATEEN RIGS WITH REO SAILS OR B LACK. LYI NG A QUARTER OF A MILE OUT IN THE S H A L LOW B A Y - LONG BOATS FETCH AND CARRY

BROWN

I N TH E I R

H E ES. DARK S A I LORS WITH E A R R I NGS. A C H I N E S E OR MOSLEM M E R C H A N T. D I SSOLUTE E U ROPEAN

FROM TH E S H I PS TO THE BEACH. WHITELY CURVED AND PALM L I N E D -THE TOWN: TI N-ROOFED HOUSES. SHOPS TILTING OVER TH E GARBAGE I N THE CANA LS. A CRACKED STUCCO CATH E D R A L IN THE STYLE OF GOA OR MACAO. AT THE FAR E N D OF TOWN. FAC I N G THE SAND. A LONG SHED. THATCH-ROOFED AND

ADVENTURER OR F A I L E D PRI EST. WITH THE T I PS H E E A R N E D H E C O U L D B U Y RICE A N D F I S H . AND SLEPT AT N IGHT IN TH E CA FE OR ON THE BEACH. AT FI RST HE F E LT NO I NT E R E S T SAVED IN TH E D R U G -BUT T H E R E M N ANTS AND

OLDER

BOYS

U N B URNT

C R U M B S A N D SMOKED T H E M . H UDDLED TOGETH E R OUTS I D E TH E BACK OF THE CAFE NEXT T O T H E

D E C AY E O . THE S I V E R P I P E CAFE-STA I N E D WALLS. TEA-POT SPUMES CAUGHT IN SLANTING SUN. LOW

LATR I N E . A N D W H E N THEY L I T P I P E S F O R C USTO MERS THEY I N HA LED AS M UCH AS THEY COULD. I N T H E E V E N I NG S O N E O R TW O O F TH E M WOU L D DRESS LIKE GIRLS IN A SAC R E D DRAMA AND P E R FORM THE TRADITION A L DANCES. TH E I R LONG C U RLS BRAIDED A N D C ROWNED WITH H EAVY WHITE FLOWERS. LIPS ROUGED. ARMS AND LEGS B R ACLETED WITH TI NSEL. S I LK C LOTH S B OU N D A R OU N D TH E I R C H I LD I S H AS IF

PLATFORMS AROUND TH E ROOM WHERE HABITUES REC L I N E . A YELLOW CAT. FLYSPECKED CALENDARS WITH COLOU RED PRINTS OF GODS. RADIO CRACK LING WITH GAMELAN AND C H I N ESE POP TUNES

AND DARKLY S H A DOWED AS THE STAGE BETWEEN WAKI NG A N D S L E EP-A HYPNAGOGIC CAFE. AT TEN HE FI RST LEA R N E D HOW TO SERVE THE CU STO

MERS: THE OLDER BOYS TAUGHT HIM TO HEAT THE HASHISH OVER A BRAZIER TILL I T CO U L D BE

W A I S T S -GO L D E N N A RCOTI Z E D .

MOTHS.

MOVI NG

S LO W

S H I FT I N G

SLENDER

H I P S TO T H E

CRUMBLED I NTO LI ITLE PASTI LL ES-TH EN FILL THE BLACKSTONE BOWL OF THE LONGSTE M M E D S I LVER

CANDLELIGHT OF D R U M .

FLUTE A N D GONGS. THE

DA N C E R S WERE WELL TI PPED. DISAPPEARED WITH

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TH E I R A D M I R E R S A N D C A M E JEWE LS. AND HE

BACK

WITH TOYS OR

BUT THE H A S H I S H NOW K E E PS H I M AWAKE SOM E NIGHTS, TOO I NSANE TO MOVE, UNDER THE STA R I NG ROOF, AT THE

DETE R M I N E D TO M A STER THE I R

SKI LLS. BY ELEVEN H E D I SCOVERED T H E PLEASURE OF TH E PI PE. A N D H E TOO BEGA N TO STEA L GREEN FLA K E S FROM AND HIS C U STOM ERS. HE SAVED COI N S N E W SA RONG F R O M A THI EF. OF C H INESE SI LK-WITH HIS WHITE

C R ES C E N T

MOON

A GREEN

PARROT PERCHED O N ITS CUSP, A N D T H E SILVER HANDS D R I PPING FROM TH E STARS-NOW H E I S A D E VOTEE I N VENTED, H I M S E LF: IN TH I S R E LIGION I HAVE HE IS

BOUGHT A WATER E D

BLACK

OF HASHISH A N D LITTLE

BOYS.

BLOOD H E WAS T H E PA LEST BOY IN THE CAFE. AND THE I N K Y CLOTH SET O F F HIS PALLOR A N D THE H I NT OF GOLD IN H I S BROWN B A NGS A N D COFFEE-TINTED EYES-A N OLDER BOY TA UGHT HIM A TRICK: IF YOU WANT A BIGGER TIP. LET YOU R SARONG FALL OPE N . AS I F BY ACCIDENT. W H I L E YOU SERVE TH E M TH E I R PI PES. T H E N P R E T E N D N O T T O NOTICE BUT STAY NAKED FOR A FEW M I N UTES TILL YOU TIE IT AGA I N . E V E R Y D A Y H E SWA M I N TH E SEA. A M A N GAVE H I M A GOLD C H A I N FOR H I S N E C K IN EXCHANGE FOR A

BOTH WORSH I PP E R A N D OBJECT OF WORSH I P. T H E S K Y OPEN S A N D BETWEEN H I S LEGS T H E BLACK

SILK CHAFES HIM TI LL H E TH ROWS I T OFF-THE S I LK, AND THE TROPICAL LIMBS OF SLE E P I NG BOYS, MORE ELECTRIC THAN SILK AND DA RKER, BRIGHTER THA N A M BER. T H E MOON. INVADE SPERMY HIS AND VEINS A H U NDRED A N D S I X MOONS THEI R HE PULSING LIGHTS L I G H T, PIPE

WITH

OPALESQUE .

THE

AGA I N, BALANCING TH E COOL S T E M ON H I S K N E E , WATCHING IT GLITTER IN THE MATCH-LIGHT, AND

KISS. BY THE TI M E HE WAS TWELVE H I S EYES WERE ALWAYS LAZY. M E LTING WITH I NTOXICATION -LATE

SMOKE ENGLOBES H I S SPACE, OWL'S W I N G S B R U S H H I S SHOU LDERS AND THIGHS, H E A L O N E AWAKE I N TH IS ANDROGYNOUS C A F E , T H E MOON LIGHT K I S S I N G H I S FEET, R U N N I N G I T S G LOWWOR M TONGUE O V E R H I S TH I N L E G S . THE N I GHT STROKES HIS I N NO

AT NIGHT. THE LAST FEW C U STOM E R S SLUMBERING D E E PLY. HE AND HIS F R I ENDS WOU LD H U DDLE

TOGETHER ON ONE OF T H E PLATFORMS. AWAY FROM THE PATRON'S EYE AND EAR AS H E NODDED OVER HIS TEA-POTS-CE I L I N G FAN S STI R R E D THE A I R. A WARM SLUGGISH R A I N SPATTERED THE DRY ROOF THE BOYS SMOKED. C U R L E D UP TOGETH ER AGAINST TH E D I RTY BOLSTE R S TO W H I S P E R A N D SLEEP.

CENCE, FINGERS IT TILL IT WA KENS. A PI RATE OF S E LF-A B U S E , A N D TH E HASH I S H M I RRORS HIS

PIGEON'S MOA N S, FEARFUL THE OTH ERS M IGHT B E FEIGNING SLEEP. M I RRORS. THE SILVER PIPE CAFE IS MADE OF M I R RORS-TAKE TH I S N IGHT FOR A N THE H A LF-B R E E D YOU R ACOLYTE F O R Y O U R

LIMBS TANGLED TOGETH E R . LIKE YOUNG PYE-DOGS IN TH E SHADE-NIGHTB I R D S MOA N E D OUTSIDE THE CAFE. AT TH IRTEEN HE DANCES IN A COSTU M E OF HIS OWN I NVENTION: A LONG LOINCLOTH OF LILAC COLORED SHANTUNG, A B E LT OF CHASED SILVER, N ECKLACES OF SEED PEA RLS AND J A S M I N E , BELLS ON HIS BARE A N K L E S A N D W R I STS. STILL ANOTHE R Y E A R OR TW O BEFORE H E M U ST BEGIN T O DEPILIATE H I S BODY AND U S E POWDER L I K E THE OLDER BOYS-

E M BLE M . DERVISH

BOY,

DOU B L E - S E X E D S H A M A N

CHI LD, A N D THE LILACS O F H I S H A NDS OPEN FOR YOU A CRACK BETWEEN EARTH AND SKY, AND FILL ALL TI M E WITH THE PUBESCENT LIGHTNI NG OF A SINGLE PIPE.

PETE R WI LSON

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COU NTESS L U L U

TH R E E T I N Y N A V E LS S E E N TOG ETH E R A L L A LMOST A L I K E ONE M I N USCULE E M B EDDED WITH I N A BELLY TH E C O LO R OF DAWN ANOTHER E LO N G A T E D LIGHT

OH YOU'RE TOO C H I C K E N WE'LL N E V E R A S K YOU TO C O M E A LONG WITH US AGA I N B E R N A R D SWUNG

H I M S E LF L E I S U R E LY O F F HIS B I CYCLE R A N G T H E B E L L A LONG S I D E T H E G R I LLEWORK G A T E C A L L E D OUT I M PATI E NTLY TI M I D L Y AND A F A T B O Y H I S OWN A G E TH E TI N Y HOUSE THEY

SLA N T I N G TH E E Y E OF A

DOE T H E T H I R D

BROWN TINGED WITH A M B E R FLECKS THE T I N I EST OF THE TH R E E B E LONGS TO WATC H I NG ME STA N D I N G ON THE

CAME

OUT

OF

RIVERBANK

TH E

OTH ER

TWO D A I S I E S

H EA D E D O F F TOW A R D T H E R I V E R F A T L U L U ON FOOT B E R N A R D BACK ON H I S B I K E ZIGZAGG I N G SLOWLY BACK AND FORTH OVER THE H U M P IN THE C E N T E R OF TH E ROAD WOBBLING P E R I LOU SLY AT TIMES

R E A C H I NG UP TICK I NG M Y A R M P ! TS TH E Y G ROW S O V E R Y T A L L H E R E I N TH E M A RSHLAND BIG WHITE

GOL D E N FLOW E R S S M E L L I N G OF PEE P E E SMELLING OF FLOWERS M A K I NG ME S N E EZE DOE'S E Y E

B EC A U S E TH E FRONT W H E E L T U R N E D T OO SLOWLY MOV I N G TO THE L E FT THE RIGHT B E R N A R D TRYING TO KEEP THE BIKE B A L A N C E D SO HE WOU LDN'T

W I N K S D I SAPPEARS W I TH I N A FOLD OF C L A U D E'S BELLY H E'S SEATED A M I DS H I P S FEET SPLASH T H E WATER T H A T COV E R S T H E TA R R E D B O A T BOTTOM DOE'S E Y E W I N K I N G B LI N K I NG W H E N E V E R HE LEA N S O V E R TO B A I L O U T MORE WATE R F L A TT E N S TAUTENS STRA I N S AMBER NAVEL EXE RTI ONS OF

FA LL ON H I S A S S G I V I N G A FEW I DLE T U R N S NOW AND T H E N TO T H E P E D A LS T H E R E ST OF T H E TI M E C O A ST I N G F R E E WH E E L I NG TIRES ON GRAVEL

E M ITTING A N AG R E E A B L E H U M M I NG O F H A PPY B E E S B E R N A R D H A D C A L L E D OUT H I T H E R E FAT C U N T WHEN LULU CAME OUT OF THE HOUSE WE'RE

B E R NA R D'S TORSO A S H E HOI STS H I S A R M S H I G H C L U TC H I N G TH E HANDLE OF THE STER N OAR

LOO K I N G L I K E H E'S ABOUT T O POLE VA U LT WITH I T

SAILING

OVER TO THE

I S LA N D W A N T T O C O M E

A LONG F A T C U NT? L U L U I S NOT R EALLY A L L THAT FAT ITS MOSTLY B E C A U S E OF Y A N N H E Y A R E N'T YOU COM I NG TOO S H R I M P? HE G E ST U R ES TOWARD M E TH E N TUGS Y A N K S U P H I S R E D B R I EFS S H I N Y M A T E R I A L CAUGHT P I N C H E D T I G H T W I T H I N T H E FUR ROW OF H I S A S S I S H A K E M Y H E A D T H A T BOAT DOESN'T B E LONG TO U S FACE HORMONES HIS ROU N D MOON

MAYBE A N D H I S C L U M SY SLOW

..,OV I N G M A N N E R B E R N A R D I DLI NG A LONGS I D E H I M PLAYS T H E R O L E O F TH E H A NDSOME YOUNG HOOD F R E E W H E E L I NG BERNIE ON HIS W H E E LS THEY'VE

SOM E H OW WITHOUT E V E R DISC U S S I N G I T A G R E E D

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TO PLAY T H E S E RESPECTIVE ROLES B E R N A R D T H E CRUEL BUTCH TH I N G NUMBER L U L U T H E N E L LY YO UNG A D M I RATION

YES

S I M P E R I NG T R E M B L I N G W I TH

A BIG FAT COCKSUCKI NG FA IRY THArS WHAT YOU A R E I TH I N K WHAT I ' D LIKE MOST I S TO SMASH YOU R UGLY FAT M UG IN C O M E OVER H E R E CLOSER I S A I D PUT UP YOU R M I TT S

A L W A Y S I N ANTICI PATIO N I NS E P A R A B L E N O W E A C H OF TH E M N E E D I NG THE OTH E R TO C O M PLETE

H I M SE L F

IT WAS

TWO TH R E E PLAY AT

Y E A R S A G O B E R N A R D FI RST LUCI EN'S STORE THAT COM B I N ATION IN TH E C E NTER OF

NO

NO

PLEASE

STOP THATI

WENT TO CAFE

AND

GROCERY

TOWN AND LEFT A RO U N D TEN O'CLOCK L U C I E N WE CALL FAT LULU FOLLO W E D HIM OUT I NTO TH E

BERNARD N E V E R TOLD A N Y OF U S AOBUT IT AND I N THE ST R E E T WHEN WE ARE ALL STROL L I N G

STREET G R A B B E D H I M O N E A R M A R O U N D THE N EC K K I S S E D H I M WETLY AS A WAY O F S A Y I N G GOOD NIGHT BERNARD OF COURSE SHOVING HIM AWAY AND

ROA M I N G TOGETH E R A N D W E H A P P E N TO PASS B Y FAT LUC I E N H E A LWAYS TURNS H I S E Y E S A W A Y B U T C L A U D E A N D M E A L L THE S A M E WE SAW TH E N O N THE ISLAND WE'D G O N E T H E R E O U R S E LV E S TO

D I SG U STEDLY W I P I NG H I S C H E E K W I TH T H E B A C K OF HIS HAND N E V E RT H E L E S S FOR THE N EXT NIGHT LULU

F I N I S H OFF O U R LOOT STRING B E A N S IN TOM ATO SAUCE A CAN OF CONDENSED M I LK A BOX OF

BERNARD SEEMED

WAS B A C K

MORE

BECAUSE

TO POS S E S S O N E O F

E V E R Y TWO E V E R

CHEESE C R A C K E R S

I'D J U ST P I N C H E D FROM T H E

M A D E PLUS TH A N K S TO H I S FATH E R A L L T H E C A N D Y A N D S O D A P O P TOO LULU R E M A I N E D T H E R E THAT N IGHT U N MOVI NG STA N D I N G BY THE CAFE DOOR TA I L

GROCERY WE R E A LLY LOVED PAC K I N G I T I N T H E TWO OF US B U LLSHITTING Q U I ETLY AND TH A T ONE T I M E WE H E A R D T H E M BOTH THEY W E R E V E R Y N E A R U S B E H I N D SOM E B U S H E S B E R N A R D LEA N I N G AGA I N ST A T R E E H I S H E A D H I DDEN BY LEAVES A N D LUC I E N O N A L L FOU R S B E R N A R D BREAKS OFF A B R A N C H HI NGING DOWN AND SWATS LULU'S SHOU L D E R S

SI LENTLY

WATC H I NG

BERNARD

jiP E E D

OFF

LIGHT C L I M B I N G U P U P A N D OVER T H E R I S E I N T H E M A I N S T R E E T G O N E NOW NOTH I N G L E FT BUT N IG H T AND B L AC K N E S S HE AND SILENCE LULU'S MOUTH

TREMBLING

N O LONG E R

EVEN TRIES TO KISS

WITH IT TH E LEAVES SCRAPING FALLING L I K E R A I N TH E N BERNARD RAINS TOO plSSES A LL OVER

B E R N A R D BUT TH E Y S HOW T HE I R COC K S T O E A C H OTH E R J U ST LIKE ALL THE OTH E R G U YS AND

LULU'S F A C E W H O L E A PS U P TRYING T O E SC A P E B U T B E R N A R D I S TOO QUICK G R A B B I N G H I M B Y T H E SHOULDER FO R C I N G HIM TO K N E E L O N C E M O R E

BERNARD

LETS H I S O W N BE S U C K E D O F F SOM E

T I M E S WHICH A LWAYS C A U S E S LULU TO G E T TOO RED IN TH E FACE BERNARD OF COU R S E N E V E R

LULU F A T L U L U P I S S STILL STR E A M I N G DOWN H I S CHEEKS W H I L E B E R N A R D STARTS P U M P I NG A W A Y ON H I S O W N M A CH I N E GETTING M O R E A N D M RO E

TOUCH E S L U L U D O W N TH E R E H E P U T S O N H I S MOST D I SG U STED M A N N E R IF HE SO M UC H A S SEES I T A N D HE P U R POSELY NEVER THE WASHES FAT BOY HIS OWN COCK EVEN

E X C I T E D H E STARTS T A L K I N G F A S T A N D L O W F I LT H Y D I SG U S T I N G S TO M A C H - TU R N I N G TH I N G S SOME

B E FO R E H A N D

BUT

DOESN'T

S E E M TO MIND H E L I K E S SUCKING SO M UC H

LITTLE GYPSY G I R L H I S GANG HAD BEATEN UP A N D TH EN GANG-FUCKED L U L U WATC H I NG BERNA RD

H EY

FATSO

WANT T O KNOW SOM ETH I N G

FATSO

GROW H A R D MOVES H I S MOUTH N E A R E R G R A S P I N G FISHLI K E B E R N A R D SLAPPING H I M H A R D A C ROSS BOTH C H E E K S B U T LUC I EN BEGS I N S I STS NOSTRI LS

TH I N K YO U'RE A R E A L Q U E E R C U N T FATSO

YES

Q U I V E R F LA R I N G W I D E LIKE A FRIGHTEN E D M A R E'S STI NK O F PISS STI N K OF S E M E N AND TH E N B E R N A R D

I T E X C I T E S Y O U M A K E S YOU W A N T TO D ROP YOU R COOK I ES H U H S UC K I NG O F F A R E A L TOUGH G U Y

LETS G O W I T H A F A T GLOBULE OF S P I T R I G H T I N LULU'S K I S S E R Y A N K S H I M BY THE H A I R S H OV I N G M OO N CHEEKS AND ALL HARD U P A GA I N ST HIS

L I K E M E YOU' R E I N L O V E WITH M E A R EN'T Y O U YOU'D LIKE M E TO FUCK YOU UP THE ASS TI LL YOU ' R E

GLISTE N I N G C O C K M A K I NG H I M S U C K S U C K A LL T H E WHILE BOTH SUCK FI STS POU N D I NG A ON LU LU'S SKULL WITH LEG

C R I S S-EYED H U H

LITTLE LATER H E

LI FTS O N E

SENDI NG HIS KNEE C R A S H I NG I NTO LUCI EN'S J A W Y E S O H YES WHO FALLS BACKWARD BLUBBERING FROM BLEEDING

BERN A R D SHIT ON TH AT FATSO YOU R A S S I S TOO BIG TOO M U C H LI K E S HOVI NG M Y TOOL I NTO A T U B OF LARD O N E H U N D R E D POU ND S O F SHIT I N A FI FTY-PO U N D B A G THArS W H A T Y O U A R E FATSO FA I RY

U N T I E D THE

BOAT

I TS M OO R I N G

A N D S A I L E D OF L U L U R U N N I NG AFTER C L A U D E A N D M E W E D I DN'T F E E L M UC H L I K E TALK I N G W E J UST STA R E D A T E A C H OTH E R I M A D E A FULLY OH-LA-LA GESTU R E WITH O N E H A N D A N D C L A U D E GRABBED

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TH E TIN OF CON D E N S E D M I LK FROM ME PUCKERING HIS LI PS AT THE HOLE SUCKING IT A LL UP F I NA LLY WI PED HIS MOUTH C L E A N A N D S A I D QUITE CA LMLY ITS NOT A VERY PRETTY SIGHT HIS COCK,

COLOR A N D H A I RY TOO BIG BROWN B L E M I S H ON ONE A R M A N D SHOES WITH HOLES I N TH E M SHE WASN'T E V E N PR ETTY BUT S H E WAS YO UNG AT LEAST A N D SO I D I DN'T D A R E A S K C L A U D E TO TELL M E WHAT H A D H A PP E N E D WE BOTH TOOK THE ROAD B A C K

THAT W I N DS T H R O U G H T H E OPEN M E A DOWS UNTIL I T A T FI RST WE KNOW ONLY B E R N A R D NO OTH E R GUYS FROM THE VI LLAGE H E STOLE W I TH US POI NTED OUT CHICKS THE ONES YOU C O U LD COP A QUICK FEEL FROM BRAGGED A LOT A BOUT B E I NG A REAL COOL DUDE NOBODY L I K E S H I M VERY MUCH TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH WE LISTEN TO H I S STOR I E S BUT HAVE A H U NC H THEY'RE ALL A C ROCK OF SHIT ESPECIA LLY ALL THAT ABOUT HOT-ASSED C H ICKS IF YOU ASK M E WE'LL N E V E R GET T O S E E 50 M U C H A S ONE HOT ASS BELONG I NG TO ANY OF THEM I D I D N'T MUCH CARE A N YWAY I H A D ENOUGH TI M E FOR THAT LATER ON AND BESI DES I'M HOPED TOWN ALREADY I N LOVE BUT CLAUDE FIX H IM U P WITH SOME BEAUTY AND BUT SHE GOT B A R E-ASS E D DI DN'T SHE? K I C K I NG U P C H A LK Y DUST H E STA RTED W H I STLING
50

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TO

THE

LANE

T H AT

LEADS

UP

TO

THE

C H A T E A U THAT'S WHAT THEY A L L CALL O U R HOUSE AROU N D HERE T H E C H ATEAU

FINALLY

DARED

WAS

IT

FUN?

CLAUDE

S H R UG G E D S P E A K I NG I N A VOICE MORE SERIOUS THAN USUAL I D I DN'T ENJOY I T A L ALL SHE'S A

F U C K I N G H ALF-WIT HE R E A LLY SUCKED US IN THAT BERNARD CLAUDE WAS NO LIAR HE DI DN'T

E M BROI D E R T H I NGS A N D SO I LISTE N E D B E L I E V I NG

BERNARD COULD WHORE SOME

H O T - A S S ED

TOGET H E R THEY M I G H T

FUCK THAT HOT A S S O F Y E A H WELL NO NOT REALLY S H E Y A N K E D H E R S K I RT UP O V E R H E R W A I ST

H E R S H E KEEPS TALKING A BOUT I T T O M E OH TH E I R E Y E S T H E I R H A I R I DON'T THI N K HE'S PRETENDING EITHER HE REA LLY SEEMS TO FEEL THAT WAY

STA R I NG A T TH E M TH E WAY YOU M IGHT EYEBALL SOM E MONUMENT SQU A R E TO THE WAR DEAD IN SOM E WHO

BUT YOU D I D GET TO S E E H E R PUSSY DIDN'T YOU?

V I LLAGE

I T S THE

OLDER

BROADS

EXCITE H I M MOSTLY TH E ONES OF OUR OWN AGE DON'T EVEN HAVE R E A L TITS YET THEY J UST STI KE POSES GO A RO U N D ACTI N G COY A N D GIGGLING

TH R E E BOYS C ROSS IN A GREEN AND BLACK BOAT HERE WHERE THE THE RIVER BROADENS THERE BEFORE WH E R E IT

REACH I NG

DARK

FOREST

W H I L E T H E BIGG E R O N E S ARE A L L TOO FLESHY WITH SWOLLEN H A U N C H E S B I G HAMS CHEWING ON TH E I R C U DS L I K E STU P I D COWS V I C I O U S DEPRAVED HUGE RED MOUTHS AND H I G H H E E LS M AYBE ITS TH E I R STI N K THAT ATTRACTS C L A U D E THAT HE KNOWS H E'S VERY FEMALE

L A P S LAZILY A R O U N D A T I N Y I S L A N D COV E R E D ALL OVER WITH U N DERBRUSH C H ESTN UT TREES T H E

B L O N D BOY A N D TH E YOUNGEST K I D A R E N O T F R O M THE VI LLAGE THEIR D E L ICATE FINE FEATU R E S

GRACIOUS OBVIOUSLY

MANNERS THEY

A T T E S T TO T H A T Q U I T E TO THAT P R I V AT E

S M E L L S I NC E

H A N DSOME

B E LO N G

THEY REA LLY SEEM TO S H A K E HIM NEVER STOPS TA L K I N G

UP A LOT H E ONE

I N STITUTION T H E C HATEA U T H E TWO BIGGEST A R E A BO U T TWELVE W E A R I NG B R I G HT L Y C O LO R E D

A BO U T T H E M

A FT E R N OO N B E R N A R D F I N A LLY M A NAGED T O L U R E ONE OF THEM I NTO THAT SHANTY BY THE SAWM I L L THEY MADE ME STA N D OUT BY TH E DOOR A S

B R I EFS W H I L E T H E TH I R D I S N O MORE THAN TEN TORSO NUDE A LSO BUT DOWN B E LOW H E SPORTS BLACK VELVET K N E E B R E E C H E S R E M N A N T S OF

LOOKOUT I COULD H E A R T H E G I R L LAUGH A LOUD SC R E E C H MAKING FUN OF THEM ALL TH E N

SOM E E L E G A N T E IG H T E ENTH-C E N T U R Y COSTU M E F A L L I N G DOWN LOOSELY FROM H I S H I PS FOR WANT OF A B E LT WHITE ELASTIC BAND O F H I S U N D E R

COM P LA I N THEN

MOAN T H E N S U DDENLY BECOM E

S I LENT SHE WHISPERS F I N A LLY OH STOP THATI AND THEN SHE WHISPERS AGA I N OH YOU'RE GETTING M E A L L HOT A N D W E T DOWN T H E R E LOVERBOY WHAT A LITTLE PIG YOU A R E I A N D THEY A LL LEFT BEFORE SHE DID BERNARD HAD NOT SHOT OFF I NOTICED THAT RIGHT AWAY NOR LULU SO THAT LOVERBOY PIG STUFF MUST HAVE BEEN FOR CLAUDE ALL TH E S A M E HE DOESN'T EVEN H A V E H A I R DOWN AROUND T H E R E YET SHE WAS FAT F R I ZZY R E D HAIR STI C K I NG OUT EVERY WHICH WAY STI N K I NG OF SWEAT GREEN CHECKERED S K I RT NOSE A L L D O TT E D WITH

S H O R T S P E E K I N G OUT H E R E A N D TH E R E W H E N E V E R H E W R I G G L E S H I S B UTTOCKS

W E WENT TH E R E A LL FOUR OF US LULU I N C L U D E D B E R N A R D NO L O N G E R M A KES A N Y BON ES A BOUT THAT H E'D TOLD U S LULU'S A FAT CUNT BUT YOU CAN ALL FUCK HIM IF THAT SORT OF T H I NG

I NTER ESTS YOU LULU WON'T M I N D HOW M A N Y A S F O R M E I'M D I SG U STED W H E N C LA UD E A G R E E S A N D W H E N THE TI M E C A M E H E BROUGHT WITH H I M FROM T H E C H ATEAU A B I G SACK W E J U M P E D I NTO T H E ROWBOAT A N D H I D OUT ON THE I S L A N D T H E

BLACKHEADS STUM P Y D U M PY LEGS A SIC KLY GRAY

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BAG

CONTA I N E D

Y E L. L.O W

S I L. K

GOWN ON

G I L. T FOR AND

YEAH ME

NOT L.OTS BUT A L.ITTL.E YEAH J UST L. I K E

EMBROIDERY DECORATIONS

G L. A S S A WH ITE

J E W E L. S WIG

SEWN

SOM E

POWDER

PA I N T A N D E V E N A PA I R OF H I G H - H E E L. E D P U M PS

YOU DON'T H A V E A N Y H A I R

YEAH S H E SHOWED IT TO US A L. L. R I G H T BUT I T WAS SO FUCKING D A R K IN THAT S H A N TY AND THEN WITH AL.L. THOSE TH I C K BL.ACK H A I R S COV E R I N G I T

WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT IT?

I'VE SEEN YOU

BUT Y O U TOUC H E D I T D I D N'T Y O U H U H

WHEN?

N O NOT M E B E R N A R D

S H E D I DN'T A PPEAL. TO

M E AT A L.L. S H E STUN K SO B A D

OH WHEN W E GO TO B E D AND SOM ETI M E S TOO I N THE MORN ING

S HA M E H U H Irs B E R N A R D'S F A U L.T C H OO S I NG O N E L. I K E THAT BUT Y O U D I D SOM ETH I N G W H A T THOUG H ?

AND

IT

DOE SN'T

E M B A R RASS YOU TO STA R E HUH

AT

GUYS DOWN THERE

BUT A L. L. T H E S A M E YOU

M U STN'T H A V E L.OO K E D V E R Y CL.OSE L.Y BECA U S E I NOTH I N G WHEN H E R U BB E D H I M S E L. F A G A I N ST I T IT C A M E T O M Y T U R N S H E U S E D H E R AND IN H E R GOL.DEN GOWN S H E S C R E A M E D HOOTED FOR HEL.P B E R N A R D A R R I V I NG ON THE SCENE H I S IS THAT WHY S H E S A I D S H E WAS A L. L. WET DOWN WOODEN L. E G A S T U B O F B A M BOO H E'D L.ASH E D TO HIS THIGH C A L. F BENT BAK UP A G A I NST O N E HAVE SO GOT

FINGERS M E S S I NG AROU N D F E E L. I N G M Y Y O U K N OW

TH E R E YOU D I RTY P I G ?

BUTTOCK H E A S K E D COU NTESS L.UL.U WHERE S H E ' D H I DDEN THE TR E A S U R E OF COURSE CLAUDE A N D THEY F O R C E L. U L. U TO U N D R E S S T H E N DON THE ME WE'D STA S H E D IT AWAY E A R L. I E R CANS OF

GOWN B E R N A R D G R I PS THE F A T BOY'S H EAD W H I L.E C L. A U D E A P P L. I E S ROUGE TO HIS L. I PS POWD E R TO H I S C H E E K S C L. A M P I NG T H E WIG DOWN H A R D U PO N H I S S K U L. L. W E U S E D I S G U I S E S L. I K E TH I S W H E N E V E R W E H A V E PARTI E S B A C K A T TH E C H ATEA U so NOW Irs COUNTESS L. U L.U W E AL.L. START T E A S I N G H E R EXC E PT S U D D E N L.Y B E R N A R D POINTS T O M E A N D THIS SQUI RT H E R E I S N 'T H E GOING T O B E A HOT ASSED C H I C K TOOl L.UC K I L.Y C L. A U D E D E F E N D S M E NO NOT HIM H E' S A R E A L. G U Y J UST L. I K E US

S H R E D D E D C OC O N U T L. I C O R I C E S T I C K S F I LT E R CIGARETTES BOOKS O F M A TC H E S TH R E E NOUGATS CHOCOLATE EGGS F I L. L. E D WITH LIQU E U R A BIG BAG OF POTATO C H I PS A GL.ASS JAR OF BRA N D I E D TINS OF

PEACH E S

M A YO N N A I S E

C R A C K E R J ACKS

CHOCOL.ATE C U STA R D P U D D I N G STRAWBERRY J A M MACKEREL. BACON IN WHITE WINE SOM E BROWN SUGAR

F I V E C A N S OF SARDINES O N E OF BLACK

OL.IVES TWO O F PORK AND B E A N S C A SSOUL.ET TWO OF RAVIOL.I WITH A BOTTL.E O F SPARKL.ING W H ITE

B E R N A R D M A K E S A FACE S U C K S I N H I S B R EATH BUT HE PUTS OUT A LL. TH E S A M E DON'T YOU SQUI RT? TREMBLING I LOOK AWAY M U M BL.E NO I ooN'T PUT OUT I'M STAYI NG H E R E WITH C L. A U D E WE S T A RT OUT L. E T ' S PRETEND TWO F I N A LLY PIRATES

W I N E A N D O N E OF L. E M O N SODA BUTTER HOL.L. A N D RUSK SALTED N UTS SOUR P I C K E L.S A JAR OF

SPAGHETTI S A U C E A L L. TH E L.ooT WE'D B E E N A B LE TO PI NCH OVER AN E N T I R E W E E K'S TI M E B E R N A R D I N T U R N H A D S W I P E D T H E BOAT WH E R E L U L. U N OW PL.A YEO MY THE FIGHT E N E D HYSTERICAL COUNTESS DEAR LADY SAID C L. A U D E WHO

K I D N A P I N G TH E A D M I R A L.' S NOBL.E

DAUGHTER A T

FI RST S H E'S A LL A L.ON E O N H I S S P LE N D I D GAL.LEON EVERYBODY E L. S E A L R E A DY M UR D E R E D

R E S PECTS

TU RNED U P N O W A S T H E S H I P'S CA PTA I N H E H A S A L.ITTL.E BURNT CORK M U STAC H E MY P I S S P ECTS

S H E D I DN'T S A Y I W A S A DI RTY P I G S H E S A I D W H A T A LOVE RBOY B I G I WAS TH E R E'S A BIG D I FFERENCE B E RN A R D WA NTED TO GO A L.L. T H E WAY WITH H E R E H E E V E N TRI E D T O STIC K I T I N B U T S H E FOUGHT H I M O F F A N D S O H E STOPPED G E TT I N G A H A R D-ON H E'S A REAL. WEI R oo A N YWAY THAT B E R N A R D IF YOU ASK ME

QUEER LADY R E PEATED B E R N A RD A N D THEY EACH GRABBED COUNTESS L U LU B Y O N E PUDGY A R M M E STEPPI NG A S I D E T O L.ET T H E M PASS

YOU'VE O N L.Y TO SHOW THEM TO ME THEN L.ET ME SEE IF YOU H A V E TH E M A L. R E A D Y REACHED ROAD TH E STEEP

SO

C L.A U D E H A D EMBANKMENT

WHERE T H E H E H A S LOTS O F H A I R ooWN TH E R E THOUGH

VEERED

U N D E R T H E POPL.AR

TREES HE TU R N E D H I S BACK TO THE HOU S E S ON

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TH E OUTS K I RTS OF THE V I LLAGE A N D OPENED H I S F L Y LOOK I NG O V E R H I S SHOULDER A L L T H E WH I LE TO M A K E S U R E NO C A R WAS COM I NG

COV E R I NG B EC A U S E

HIS

FACE SUCH A

B UT

NOBODY

LAUGHED ANYWAY

HE'S

S I LLY ASSHOLE

FOR B E L I E V I N G I N LETS PRETEND A N D B E R N A R D L I FT E D U P THE H E M O F H I S GOWN HEY COUNTESS

STA N D A LONG S I D E ME H E R E AS IF WE'RE BOTH J U ST TA K I N G A PISS

YOU'RE

BARE-ASSED

UNDER

YOUR

S I LK

DUDS

YOU'VE GOT S U C H A F A T A S S COUNTESS I T LOOKS SUSPICIOUS TO ME I ' L L WAGER THATS W H E R E T H E

I F E E L LIKE PISSING A N YWAY SO

H E LOWE R E D

C A PT A I N ' S T R E A S U R E CO UNTESS LULU ON

I S H I DD E N I A N D H E SLAPS BOTH BUTTOCKS DEAR ME

H I S B R I EFS A B I T W H E R E THE FLY G A P E D BUT NOT ENOUGH TO R E V E A L HIS PRICK AND I STAR E D DOWN SOME HAIRS YES A LITTLE CURL TO THE L E FT

D E A R M E SAYS C L A U D E COULD B E COULD B E

A N OTH E R TO T H E R I G H T BUT A LMOST NONE IN T H E M I DDLE I F I N I S H E D PISSING I WANTED SO BA D

THEY C O M E U P A LONGS I D E THE ISLAND A N D T H E BLOND B O Y L E A PS OUT OF THE ROWBOAT T O M OO R IT F I N A LLY T H E OTH E R TWO FOLLOW I N TO T H E UPWARD ALL ALL TH R E E

TO TOUCH IT BUT H E S I TATED STRUGGLING TO S E E IT BETTER I SA I D IF M A Y B E YOU COULD J UST FLUFF I T OUT A BIT

D I S A PP E A R I NG BIRDS TO FLY

UNDERBRUSH CAUSING CAWING OF SC R E E C H I N G THEIR GAME

D R OW N I N G WHAT? W I T H J U ST U S TWO HERE? YOU

OUT

SOU N D

A LTHOUGH T H E I S L A N D I S E XT R E M E LY S M A L L A LMOST AT T H E S A M E TI M E A S E C O N D B O A T MOVES OUT FROM T H E STEEP R I V E R B A N K TH I S TIME O N THE TOWN SIDE IT A LSO CARRIES THREE BOYS ALL

KNOW YOU CA N'T COME YO U'RE NOT OLD E NOUGH YET

NO I CAN'T S H OOT ANY J U I C E BUT I CAN STI LL ENJOY TH E FEELING

TH R E E NAKED TO TH E W A I ST A LL TH R E E T H E S A M E AGE A S THE F I RST G R O U P B U T TH E I R C R A FT I S

DEC K E D O U T T O LOOK L l E K A S A I L BOAT A N OAR STA N D I N G UP A LMOST BY A STRAIGHT IN ITS CENTER TH E BUT LOOK WOULD YOU

OH ALL RIGHT T H E N I D I D N'T R E A LIZE H E R E TELL ME SOM ETH I N G F I R ST

H E LD STAYS

IN OF

PL A C E A

TW I N E

R E P R ES E N T I NG PIECE OF

MAST

SQUA R E POLKA

B LACK TO

SAY YES IF FOR E X A M PLE SOM E B I G GUY ASKS TO FUCK YOU UP TH E ASS TH E R E ARE BIG GUYS BACK AT THE HOUSE L I K E THAT YOU KNOW THEY WANT TO DO IT TO THE LITTLE O N E S ALL TH E TI M E

C LOTH

WITH

WHITE

DOTS

N A I LE D

A N OTH E R BLACK TH R E E

STIC K

SET C ROSSWI S E U PON THE O A R B E I NG PIRATE COLORS A L L THE SAME

AND

WHITE

S PO R T I N G KNOTTED

BANDANAS A RO U N D

OF

M A TE R I A L NOW YOU' R E B E I NG DI SGUSTING UH BEC A U S E PLUS A

THEIR ONE

FOR E H EADS EYE B E LTS

BLACK

P A TC H

OV E R

U H B E C A U S E WOULD YOU U H D O IT?

B U LG I N G WITH WOODEN W E A PO N S K N I V E S S A B E R S N E V E R U S I N G T H E S A I L A C T U A L L Y F O R S A I L I N G BUT

NO IT WAS ON WHO

WELL E R THAT A L L DEPENDS

ON WHO

TWO OTH E R OA RS I N ST E A D VEERING TAC K I NG TH E M A N Y C H A N G E S OF D I R ECTION SUGGEST I N G A LONG VOYAGE ACROSS P E R I LO U S SEAS AS THEY RUN U P A N D DOWN TH E LENGTH OF T H E BOAT C A L L I N G OUT

SOM E TI M E I M IG H T I T ER A LL DEPENDS

YES M A Y B E M E TOO YES NO NO I DON'T THINK SO

B UT J U ST THE SAME

V A R I O U S COM M A N DS THAT TH E W I N D ON TH I S LATE A FTE R N OO N COUPLED WITH THE GUSH OF R U S H I NG RIVER CARRIES AWAY R E N D E R S I ND I STI NCT A N D

TH E N LETS GO OV E R TH E R E H U H

H E POI NTED

FLE ETI NG

A T THE CARCASS O F AN A UTOMOBILE A B A N DON E D ONLY TH E BODY STILL I NTACT THERE WAS A S H A R P TU R N I N G I N T H E ROAD L E D STRA IGHT DOWN T O TH E R I V E R I T D I D N'T H A V E S E ATS A N YMORE NOR DOORS EITHER BEHIND WE LAY DOWN IN THE TALL G RASS RIGHT IT I HAD TO BE CAREFUL BEC A U S E OF WHAT? STRETC H THEY STOPPED ALL THREE O F THEM BESIDE THE HOLE I N WHICH T H E B U R I E D T R EASU RE LAY OH MY POOR D E A R DEAD FATH E R M U R D ERED SO V I LELY SAID LULU SOB B I N G QUITE S E RIOUSLY BOTH H A N D S B U T WITH G I R LS DON'T YOU KISS F I RST? S I N C E W E ' R E DOI N G T H E S A M E TH I NG NOW? AND HAVE YOU LOST ALL YOU R MA RBLES? YOU RSELF OUT LENGTH W I S E THAT WAY M A Y B E I F WE COULD K I S S F I R ST H U H S P R E A D YOU R CHEEKS W I D E R

N ETTLES BUT T H I S T I M E T H E Y D I DN'T S E E M TO STI NG

YOU WERE A SECOND AGO

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AFTER THEY REACH THE I S L A N D AND DISEMBARK THEY PULL TH E I R BOAT U P L I FTI N G A ONTO TH E NA RROW

FIRST OF ALL Irs BOATS NOT CARS I ' M I NTERESTED IN

STRA NO OF S A N D

FOURTH OCC U PANT Irs YOU LOSS PUT YO U R PANTS BACK ON TH E N

WHO HAS UNTI L NOW B E E N HIDDEN I N TH E BOTTOM BODY BOUND AND GAGGED A TINY GIRL LO NG

BLACK TRESSES DA R K BROWN S K I N TH READBARE C LOTH E S AND HARDY TO IF A E M ACI ATED GYPSY HER BODY LONG

Y O U MEAN WE'RE LEAVI NG?

PROCLA I M I NG C A LICO S H E'S S K I RT

HER HAS

BE

BEEN

RI PPED OFF IN A

EARLI ER

TH I N K IT OVER CAREFULLY MY FOU R RACING CARS PLUS TH E TRACK TH ING ELSE TOO WANT AND I'LL GIVE YOU SOME

CLOTH ED

NOW

ONLY

FI LTHY GREEN

SWEATER A N D

BADLY TORN B LOO M E R S SALLOW AND WHOSE LACE ROUG H LY THEY

ALL THE TRADE-SPITS YOU

BROWN FROM TOO M UC H WEAR TR I M M I N G U N R A V E LS TH E

MORE

HANDLE H E R I NTO A S E R I E S O F STRINGY FESTOONS F L U TT E R I N G DOWN U PON HER THIGHS LIKE

YOU CAN SHOVE YOUR STUPID RACING CARS BUT WHArs A TRADE-SPIT?

J ELLYFISH TENTACLES

T H E GROUP SETS OFF DUMB ASSH OLE Irs WHEN TWO PEOPLE KISS

IN A M A RCH THICK U N D E R B R U S H C LOSING B E H I N D TH EM W I T H A R U STLE OF R E E D S

EACH OTH E R BUT WITH THEIR MOUTHS OPEN ALL THE WH I LE AND USING TH E I R TONGU E

ALL R I G H T L E r S SAY I DO K I S S Y O U B U T JUST ONCE AND ONLY ON ONE CONDITION WHOSE TONG U E ?

WHArs THAT?

BOTH

TONG UES

ASSHOLE

INSIDE

EACH

OTH ER'S

MOUTHS YOU RS AND M I N E I F YOU'D L I K E THAT YOU SUCK ME OFF IN EXC H A N G E U G H TH AT SO UNDS D I SGUSTING OH NO THArS NOT FA I R YO U'RE A R E A L BASTARD YOU ARE THEY A PPLIED A SCA RF OVER T H E GAG COV E R I NG Irs NOT DI RTY TO SUCK HON EST I'VE DONE IT H E R MOUTH AND ONE OF THE TH R E E BOYS CAME CLOSER A N D CLOSE R FEELING TH E LITTLE V U LVA G ROWI N G YOU? WHO WITH? WITH SI MON MAYBE? MORE AND MORE EXCITED BY HIS COULD MAYBE TRY I T J U ST ONCE STI LL TO SEE WE

MYSELF

EXPLORATIONS BUT ONE O F TH E OTH E R TWO SAYS NO Irs R E N E WHO'S TO TAKE HER C H E R R Y A FTER ALL IT'S R E N E WHO FOU ND H E R FOR US A N D THE

YOU'RE N UTS YOU K NOW THAT? NOBODY HOME BUT THE CLOCK A N D THArS STOPPED I F YOU SAY YES I'LL GIVE AW COME ON

BOY N A M ED

RENE

NODS

UNBUTTON S

HIS

PANTS

LETS H I S B ELLY DROP DOWN OVER THE BELLY OF THE LITTLE GYPSY WHO BEGINS TO STRUGGLE EVEN MORE STRONGLY

YOU MY FOUR RACING

CARS AND TH E E LECTRIC TRACK THAT GOES WITH TH EM I'M NOT J UST LENDING T H E M TO YOU EITH E R I'LL GIVE TH E M T O Y O U OUTRIGHT HON EST

YOU'RE THE ONE WHO AGREED TO IT R E M E M B E R ALL TH E TRA DE-SPITS I W A N T A LL R I G H T GO A H EA D THEY UNTIED TH E LITTLE G I R L G R I PPING HER BODY ALL TH E WHILE BECAUSE SHE HAD BEGUN TO NO SUCK ME OFF FI RST K I S S M E C O M E ON

STRUGGLE YA N K I NG DOWN TH E R E WAS THE ROTTING

HER B E I G E BLDOM ERS H U LK OF A BOAT ITS OUT RUN SHIT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S ACTI NG D U M B NOW I MIGHT F E E L MORE L I K E SUCKING YOU OFF IF YOU KISSED ME FI RST

BOTTOM

COMPLETELY

F L A TT E N E D

AGROUN D A LONG TI M E AGO D U R I N G SOME SPRING FLOOD TU RNED THAT C OV E R E D TH I S ISLAND T H E Y' V E

IT OVER N O W A N D H A U LED IT I NTO THE

BUSHES TYI N G T H E GIRL TO I T BACK A N D BUTTOCKS PRESSED H A R D UP AGAI NST THE OUTER H U LL LEGS SPREAD APART E X H I B I TI NG A V ULVA FLAT AND TINY AND F U RTH E R B E LOW THAT THE I NC U RVATE OH ALL RIGHT MOVE YOUR MOUTH CLOSER YOU

WANT TO KNOW SOM ETH ING YOU'RE A REAL PAIN I N T H E A S S YOU ARE I C AN'T BELIEVE A N YONE C A N B E S O STU P I D AT LEAST W I P E YOU R MOUTH O F F FI RST

SHADOW O F A N A N U S

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YOU'RE DROOLING SPIT A LL OVE R M E

H IMSELF

OVER

THE

TINY

BODY

AND

JERKED

H I M S E L F O F F C L U M S I LY K E E P I N G ONE H A N D DOWN B E R N A R D DECLARED THAT COUNTESS LULU WO ULD HAVE TO SQUAT DOWN AND SHIT I N ORDER FOR THE R E BETW E E N TH E I R TWO CROTC H E S HOPING TO BE ABLE TO I N S E RT H I S THI NG AND SO I N TO BUT N E V E R HE F I N A L LY SAT

THEM TO S E E WHAT S H E MIGHT BE H I D I NG U P HER HOLE BUT C LA U D E MADE A FUNNY FACE NO WE CAN TAKE A SOU N D I NG I N THAT WELL OURSELV E S O N E THAT WILL B E A LOT M O R E F U N B E S I D E S A N D S O THEY BOTH DREW FORTH THEIR COCKS KICKING

QUITE

S U C C E E D I NG HER TINY

A S TR I D E FINALLY PRESS I N G

T I TT l E S

AND

M A ST U R BA T E D OF HIS SEX

E J A C U LA T I N G

THE

TIP

AGAI N ST M A KI N G A WELL I N THE GAG

COV E R I N G HER MOUTH THE UP AND DOWN P U M P I NG MOV E M E N T OF AGA I N ST TH E H I S F I S T CONTI N U A LLY S M A S H I N G C H I LO'S I N NOSE WHILE HIS SPERM

LULU OVER

I N TO A L E A P F R OG POSITION R A I S I N G

H I S G O W N U P OVER H I S B A C K COV E R I NG H I S H E A D WITH YE LLOW S I L K W H I L E THEY FUCKED H I M THE BOTH OF THEM B E R N A R D F I R ST THEN CLAUDE AND A S FOR M E I WAS TOO E M B A RRASSED BEC A U S E OF THOSE BIG SOFT LARDY CHEEKS SO PALE AND

SPLASH E D

FORTH

C O LO R L E S S

BUBBLES

S E E PI NG TH ROUGH T H E GAG C A R E F U LLY SCA R F THE N WIPED OFF THE

THE T H I R D BOY STICKY B EG R I M E D

WHICH

P E R H A PS HER

BELONGED T O H I M A N D ROUGH L Y BUT BETW E E N

SQU I S H Y LOOK I NG I FO U N D I T S A D THAT C L A U D E COULD EVEN T O U C H L E T A LO N E WANT T O E N T E R TH E M A N D SO I SAT D O W N A G A I N ST A TREE A N D

P E N ETRATED

TH E T H I G H S

LOOKED SOM EWH E R E E L S E PLUGGING U P M Y E A R S WITH M Y FINGERS S O I WOULDN'T HAVE T O H E A R ALL THOSE HORRIBLE SO U N DS THEY TAPPE D M E ON

YOU ' R E C H E A T I N G Y A N N YOU' RE N O T S U C K I N G M E A T A LL LOOK S E E HOW I C A N STI LL PUT M Y ENTI R E F I ST AROU N D I T T H A T M E ANS YOU H A V E N'T E V E N TA K E N A L L O F TH E H E A D I NTO YOU R M O U T H Y E T

TH E SHOULDER THEY WERE N'T PIRATE S ANYMORE L U L U STI LL H A D ON H I S S I L K GOWN BUT I T WAS YA N K E D EVERY W H I C H WAY T H E WIG FALLEN OFF AND THE H I G H - H E E L E D PUMPS AS WELL

WE SET A BOUT D I GG I N G U P THE T R E A S U R E I LOVE COLO CASSOULET PORK AND SAUSAGE AND WHITE B E A N S ESPECIA LLY THOSE LONG THIN SAUSAGES

AND THE ONE I LOVE A M I N LOVE WITH KISSED M E MY E N T I R E FACE LAY DOWN A LONGSIDE M E H E I SN'T E V E N P RETE N D I NG ANYMORE HE REA LLY E NJOYS IT KISSES SOFTLY G E N TLY MY L I PS SO WET AND

SHAME W E D I D N 'T PINCH SOME M U STA R D AS WELL WE WON'T GIVE ANY OF I T TO LULU ITS HIS FATH E R W E STOLE I T FROM BUT THAT PIG C U N T WON'T D A R E SQU E A L O N U S FOR IF HE DOES WE'LL P U T H I S

S H I N I NG WITH H I S LOVELY W E T S H I N I NG LIPS MOUTH HOT AND SILKY AGA I NST MY CHEEK I YANK OFF MY JERSEY SO THAT WE CAN FEEL OUR BELLI ES

FATH E R W I S E T O A L L THOSE BOTTLES O F A P E RT I F S H E'S B E E N B R I N G I N G A S G I FTS T O B E R N A R D A N D THAT'S EVEN GOING TO G E T WOR S E NOW T H A T

R U B B I NG SKI N AGA I NST S K I N T H E S U N I S A LREADY B E H I N D TH E TREES A N D TH E TALL G R E E N GRASS TICKLES M Y E A R S

TH EY'VE BECOM E S U C H A SSHOLE B U D D I E S

W H A T S WRONG OH ITS S O LONG YOUR C OC K I F I ' D BEEN I N H E R H U RT TOO M U C H ?

Y O U LOOK F U N N Y

DOES IT

PLA C E I ' D H A V E LOVED GETTING I T FROM YOU BUT A N YWA Y I ' M A BETTER LOOKING BOY THAN S H E I S A G I R L DON'T YOU TH I NK? W E ' L L DO I T AGAI N E V E R Y NOW A N D THEN H U H Y A N N I DO N 'T KNOW A N YTH I N G ABOUT THAT I F YOU W E R E T W E L V E Y E A R S OLD YOU RS WOULD BE LONG TOO Y E A H BUT W H A T I F YOU M A K E A BABY I N S I D E M E ? so T H E N YOU'D RATHER H A V E H E R THAN M E ? A L L T H E S A M E S H E WAS A R E A L D OG T O L OO K AT Y O U ' R E B A TT Y A S A BEDBUG W I T H A G U Y THAT CA N'T H A P P E N B E S I D E S ITS NOT T HROUGH THE ASSHOLE YOU CAN'T COM P A R E THINGS L I K E THAT YOU MAKE A BABY THE M O R E WE DO I T T H E M O R E NO ITS I ' M A L L R I G H T

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G I R LS?

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R I G H T NOW

LI STEN DON'T SQUI R M SO MUCH YOU'RE G I V I N G ME: A H A R D TI M E I'M .JUST ABOUT READY TO COME A N D A FTERWA RD Y O U CAN D O WH ATEVE R Y O U W A N T

A N D TON IGHT WE: C A N

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T H E: T H R E E PIRATES H ELD A LONG CONSULTATION SQUATTING ON THE G R A S S A D I STANCE AWAY FROM THE R U I N E D BOAT W H E:RE T H E I R VICTI M R E: M A I N E D BOU N D MORE A N D G A G G E D THE: AND D I SC USSION GROWING UNTIL F I N A LLY THE

SHUT UP I C A N'T CONCENTRATE IF YOU SECOND THAT'S I T OR SO MORE AND THERE

ONE AH

MORE CONFUSE:D

N O W Irs M Y TURN

MOST ROBUST O F THE T H R E E GOT UP AND WENT OVER AND RAPED THE: LITTLE: GYPSY ONCE MORE WHO B Y THIS TIME SCA RCE:LY STRUGG L E D TH E N THE OTH ER TWO I M I TATE:D T H E I R L E A D E R RENE B E: N T DOWN OVER THE ROPES WHICH

C R I SSC R O S S E D T H E G I R L'S T I N Y B R E ASTS A N D SEEMED EITHER TO B E U NTYI NG T H E M O R ELSE

MOVING THEM H I G H E R U P TO TIGHTEN A RO U N D HER AFTERWARD I'D L I K E T O DO I T T O YOU TOO NECK THEY S ET SA I L ALL T H R E E OF T H E M

L E A V I N G T H E I S L A N D NO LONGER P LA Y I N G OH NO I ' M OLDER T H A N YOU SO I COULD HAVE A K I D I F SOMEBODY F U C K S M E Irs N O T T H E S A M E TH I NG AS WITH YOU YOU K NOW S P R E: A D YOUR CHEEKS WIDER CLAUDE I C A N 'T

SEEM TO F I N D T H E HOLE

BUT YOU .J U ST TOLD ME THAT IN T H E ASSHOLE STOP I T NOW BABY I CAN SEE I DON'T WANT YOU TO MAKE A YOU D I D N 'T TELL ME THE

THAT'S YOUR WORRY

N OW

I CAN'T REACH I T YOU'RE A REAL BUDDY YOU A R E ONCE Y O U SHOOT O F F Y O U DON'T G I V E A D A M N

WHOLE STORY B E FO R E

OH S H I T Y O U N E V E R U N D E R ST A N D A N YT H I NG YOU DON'T HAVE TO WOR R Y I TOLD YOU THAT ALREADY

W E L L W H A T D O YOU W A N T M E TO DO H U H ?

GO

A H E A D I ' L L H E L P Y O U B U T .J UST TH I S ONE TI M E TRY STICKING I T IN YES THERE Irs A LMOST I N NOW PUSH

NO I DON'T BELIEVE YOU IF I C A N'T FUCK YOU AS WELL

IT

FURTH E R

MAKE

IT

HARD

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K E E: P

SLIDING OUT

H E GIVES M E H I S POTATO C H I PS HIS NOUGAT CANDY I G I V E HIM MY RAVIOLI E XC E PT FOR ONE C A N A N D M Y S H A R E OF TH E C I G A R ETTES FROM T I M E T O TI M E

DO YOU LIKE I T TOO C A N YOU F E E L IT?

WHAT 00 YOU T H I N K I A M SOME HOT-ASSED C H I C K OR SOM E FAGGOT H U H ? DOES TH I N K I NG I M I G H T L I K E IT M A K E Y O U A L L H O T T O D R O P YOU R COO K I E S O R SOMETH I NG ?

.J U ST FOR KICKS W E TOSS O U R O L I V E PITS AT LULU A S W E BULLS H I T AND B E R N A R D A LO N E EATS ALL F I V E CANS OF S A R D I N E: S W I T H TOM A TO SAUCE AND T H E M A YONN A I S E MOPPING U P T H E R E M A I N S WITH H I S FINGERS L I C K I N G T H E M HE H A SN'T R EBUTTON E D H I S F L Y A N D I N T H E C ENTER O F H I S B R I EFS THERE'S A BIG STA I N OF WETN ESS SOM ETH I N G ROUND LIKE A R I N G STANDS OUT Irs HIS FOR E S K I N STRA I N I N G

NO NOT THAT

L I K E IT TOO

BUT ONLY BECAUSE I

BECA U S E Irs YOU I ' M DOI NG IT WITH LOVE YOU

FORWA R D THROUGH T H E F A B R I C L I K E A T I N Y HOSE NOZZLE:

SHIT YOU'RE

A LWAYS COM I NG

OUT WITH

STUPID

ASS EO T H I NGS

LIKE THAT FOR C H RI S S A K E S YOU

SOUND LIKE SOM E SILLY CUNT O R SOMETH I NG M E E:VEN I F I TH I N K SUCH THI NGS I N EVER ALL RIGHT I'LL LET YOU DO I T TO ME TONIGHT ONLY YOU WON'T TELL A NYBODY ELSE PROMISE? BUT WH E N YOU FEEL THEM WHEN YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEBODY I PROM I S E B U T N O T TON I G H T RIGHT NOW I F I DO Irs OBVIOUS A I N'T IT SO W H Y DO I HAVE TO

OR E LS E TAK E A W A Y YOU R COCK FROM M I N E

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UP

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IT

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TION W E L. F A R E YOU M E A N S N E E R S B E R N A R D NO Irs P R IVATE A N D THEY'RE L.OAD E D WITH DOUGH WE'RE NOT J U ST TAK E N I N OFF TH E STRE ETS YOU K N OW W E ' R E C H O S E N WE'RE BETTER D R E S S E D THAN YOU

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NO I ' M NOT F I N I S H E D

I W A S STAYING I N S I DE YOU

V I L.L.AGE GUYS FOR O N E TH I NG BUT DON'T YOU H A V E A N Y PA R E NTS? A S K S L.UL.U

J U ST FOR THE ENJOYMENT

YO U A I.-WAYS EXAGGERATE TH I NGS COM E ON PUl.-l. I T OUT RIGHT NOW A N D H U R R Y I T U P TOO WE'VE GOT TO BE GETTI NG BACK M U ST BE AWFUI.-L.Y I.-ATE SINCE I A I.-READY F E E l.- SO H UN G R Y A R E YOU GOING TO G I V E ME YOU R DESSERT AT D I N N E R TONIGHT H U H ?

NO I DO N 'T HAVE ANY P A R ENTS A NSWERS C L. A U D E

HIM NEITHER?

ME

N EITH E R

ANSWER

NOBODY

DOES

AT

TH E

C H ATEA U LU I.- U WATC H E D US GORGE O U R S E I.-V E S WITH L.ITTLE S I D E I.-ONG GLANCES HE H E L.PED OPEN ALI.- TH E W H E R E W E R E YOU FROM BEFORE T H E N ?

C A N S A N D T H E N SAT TH E R E SWA LLOW I NG H I S SPIT LOOK I N G GL.UM WHAT A PACK O F GLUTTO N S JESUS DON'T YOU E V E R GET A N YT H I NG TO EAT AT YOUR BOA R D I N G SCHOOL WE EAT A LOT BETTER TH ERE TH A N YOU DO FATSO SAYS C L A UDE AND Irs NOT A BOA R D I N G SCHOOL. Irs A P H I L.A NTHROPIC I N STITU TONY D U V E RT T H A r S O U R BUSI N E S S S A Y S C L. A U D E

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TH E POPLI NG
AUDREY A N D JERRY SET OUT TO I SOL.ATE AND CAP T U R E A POPL.ING. AN OL.D STE A M R A I L.ROAD TAKES TH E M TO A DESOL.ATE TOWN I N NORTH E R N CANADA. A TRADING POST. A FEW CABINS. A GROUP OF THE WAGON ROAD, W H I C H WAS A LSO PASSABL.E FOR TRUCKS WINDING IN DRY WEATH E R . WAS YE L.L.OW G R A V E L. B I RC H AND PINES. W I L. D "WE'L.L BE S E E I NG YOU, M I L.K BOYS."

ADOL.ESCENTS STA N D I N FRONT O F THE TRADING POST. THEY S N I GG E R A N D G I G G L. E A N D N U DG E

B E TW E E N

E A C H OTH E R A S T H E TWO BOYS P A S S T H E M O N T H E W A Y I N TO T H E TRADING POST. O N E O F T H E L.OCA L. YOUTHS TWISTS H I S H E A D T O O N E S I D E A N D RUBS HIS CROTC H . A U D R EY F E E L.S A B L. U S H B U R N I NG THE BACK OF HIS N ECK.

FL.OWERS GREW B Y THE S I D E OF THE ROAD, A N D A MOU R N I NG DOVE COOED SOFTL.Y FROM WOODS. A S THEY W A L. K E D T H E Y SWATTED AT D E E R F L. I E S THAT L.IT ON THEIR NECKS AND HANDS AND FACES.

STIN G I N G L.I K E S PA R KS O F F I R E .

T H E CL.ERK I S A YOUTH WITH ON E E Y E SL.ATE GRAY. TH E OTH ER BL.ACK. HE PUTS OUT HIS H A N D.

"THEY C A N EVEN BITE Y O U ON TH E PAL.MS OF T H E HAND," A U D R E Y S A I D . " A N D THE B I G H O R S E F L. I E S CAN BITE TH ROUGH J E A N S."

"I'M

STEVE

. . .

YOU

TWO A R E

L.OOK I N G

FOR T H E

"YOU KNOW THIS COUNTRY PRETTY WEL.L.

:'

P I P E R BROTH ERS, R I G H TI WEL.L. J U ST FOL.L.OW T H A T WAGON ROA D OUTS I D E . YOU CA N'T M I SS IT. T H E R E'S ON L.Y ONE ROAD. WAL.K A BOUT TWO M I L.ES A N D TAKE T H E PATH TO YOU R R IGHT. ITS A M I L. E FROM THE FOR K TO THE PIPER P LA C E . . . " ''THE C A B I N W E ' R E GOI N G TO STI L.L. BEL.ONGS TO M Y FATH E R , BUT I H A VEN'T BEEN H E R E S I N C E I W A S TH I RTE E N. W E A L. W A Y S N E EDED A G U I DE T O F I N D I T . . . THIS M U ST B E TH E T U R N OFF."

OUTS I D E , THE BOYS A R E S I TT I N G IN A U N E , L.EANING AGA I N ST THE KNEES BACK WAL.L., AND KNEES FORTH UP, AND WOB B L. I N G TH E I R R U B B I NG TH E I R

THEY T U R N E D I NTO A N A R ROW FOOTPATH AND TH E SHADOW OF DEEP WOODS. THEY WEEDS AND BUSHES NOW

BRUSHED CL.OUDS

TH EM

AS

PASSED,

AND

C ROTC H ES. O N E CA L.L.S A FT E R TH E M .

OF

VORACIOUS

MOSQUITOS

TOOK OVE R

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FROM THE

BITING

F L I E S . T H E Y STO P P E D A N D

CANOES G L I D E D OUT I N TO THE CLEAR BLUE WATER, A U D R E Y COULD SEE GREAT BOU L D E R S ON THE BOTTOM, SOME F I FTY F E ET I N HEIGHT. H E S H I V E R E D S L I G H TLY-TH E R E A BO U T T H E WAS SOM ETH I N G C H I LL I N G D E PT H S AND THE SILENT BLUE

RUBBED CITRONELLA ON T H E I R FACES A N D H A N DS. THE MOSQUI TOS HOV E R E D AROUND THEM. BUZZ I N G I N FRUSTRATION.

THEY STEPPED FINA LLY I NTO A CLEARING BY A LAKE. A N D T H E R E ON A H I G H ROCKY BA N K OVE R T H E L A K E W A S T H E P I P E R C A B I N. TH E MOSQUITOS FELL AWAY B E H I N D TH E M . THE YOUNGER PIPER, WHO WAS ABOUT 20, WAS CUTTI NG WOOD, H E DROVE HIS AXE INTO THE BLOCK A N D CAME OVER TO GREET THEM.

S H A DOWS O F THOSE BOULDERS. ROLLED DOWN BY GLAC I E R S M I LLIONS O F YEARS AGO. HE KNEW THAT T H E LAKE WAS MORE THAN A THOU S A N D FEET D E E P I N T H E M I DDLE.

THEY PADDLED FOR TWO HOURS. A N D AT SU NSET HE COULD SEE A H E A D A LITTLE PI E R AND A SANDY I NLET. H E KNEW THAT THE HOUSE WAS SET I N A GROVE OF PI N E A N D B I RCH A FEW H U N D R E D FEET A BOVE THE PIER. THEY TIED U P AT THE PIER A N D J U M PE D OUT. TH E P I E R E N D E D I N TEN F E E T O F WATER. A U DR E Y R E M E M B E R E D F I S H I N G FROM T H E E N D OF IT FOR ROC K BASS A N D YELLOW P E R C H . T H E B A N K SLOPED STE E PLY F R O M THE E N D OF T H E P I E R I N TO C L E A R B L U E D E PTHS. A U D R E Y L E O TH E WAY UP TH E PATH TO TH E HOUSE.

"YOU'RE AUDREY A N D J E RRY. I'M CARL P I PER."

TH E OLDER BROTH E R . W H O WAS AROUN D TH I RTY. WAS SITTING IN THE OPEN DOOR OF TH E CABIN TY ING A FLY. H E LOOKED U P AND NODDED GRAVELY. BOTH T H E PIPERS H A D Y ELLOW H A I R. BRIGHT BLUE EYES. A N D C U RIOUSLY POI NTED EARS. THE OLDER PIPER WENT BACK TO HIS FLY. H E FINISHED IT. HELD IT U P TO THE LIGHT A N D LOOKE D AT IT C RITICALLY, TUR N I N G IT IN H I S H A N DS. HE PUT IT I NTO A FLY BOX.

IT W A S JUST A S HE R E M E M B E R E D IT. A SC R E E N E D PORCH I N FRONT. TWO P I N E C H A I R S ON TH E PORCH . H I S K E Y O P E N E D THE LOCK A N D THEY STEPPED I N TO TH E LIVI NG ROOM, P I N E P A N E LLING, SMALL W I N DOWS, P I N E F U R NITURE. LOW TABLE, A BOOK C A S E WITH SOM E OF A U DR EY'S OLD BOOKS STI L L T H E R E . THE BOOK O F KNOWLEDGE. SOM E COPI ES OF ADVENTURE A N D AMAZING STORIES. A N D A STACK OF LITTLE B L U E BOOKS. T H E KITC H E N H A D A WooD B U R N I N G STOVE A N D P I N E TABLE WITH C H A I RS.

"WELL," HE S A I D AT LAST. "SO YOU WANT TO GO TO YOU R FATH ER'S COTTA G E AND F I N D A POPLI NG. YOU KNOW THAT A POPLING HAS A LREADY FOU N D YOU?"

H E LOOKED AT J E R RY A N D A D D E D "BOTH OF YOU,"

"WELL YES, WE KNOW THAT A N D THATS WHY. WE'LL HANG I T A LL. W E HAVE TO COME TO TERMS WITH T H I S TH ING,"

UP

THE

STE E P STA I R S ON THE WERE

SECOND FLOOR

TH E R E H E NODDED, "YES. i F THATS WHAT YOU WANT."

TWO B E DROO M S OVER THE LIVING

R O O M A N D A S M A L L E R B E D R OO M O V E R T H E K I TC H E N . T H E R E WAS A BATHROOM WITH R U N N I N G W A T E R A N D F L U S H TOI L ET A N D BATHTU B . WATE R FLOW E D FROM A TWO- H U N D R E D-GA LLON TA N K I N T H E ATTIC, W H I C H WAS F I LLED B Y A P U M P FROM T H E L A K E . T H E R E W A S A BOI L E R T H A T C O U L D B E H E A T E D BY A S M A L L STOVE T O PROV I D E HOT WATER, ON THE BACK PORCH, WHICH WAS A LSO

"WH E N CAN WE START?"

" R I G H T AWAY. MADE."

ALL

P R E P A R ATIONS H A V E B E E N

THE TRIP TOOK T H R E E DAYS. WITH BACK-BREAKING PORTAGES EVERY FEW M I LES, AT THE E N D OF THE DAY J E RRY AND A U D R E Y WOULD FALL ASLEEP I M M E DI ATELY AFTER SUPPER. WHICH WAS BLACK BASS O R WALLEYED PIKE WITH B I SCU ITS AND D R I E D FRUIT. TH E PIPERS SAT U P D R I NKING COFFEE A N D P LA Y I N G ON T H E I R W OO D E N F L U T E S , A U D R E Y DRI FTED OFF TO SLEEP WITH T H E STRANGE WILD MUSIC IN H I S EARS: THE P I P E S OF PAN,

S C R E E N ED, TH E R E WAS A N ICE BOX A N D A WOOD BIN.

B E H I N D T H E HOUSE W A S A W OO D S H E D A N D A N I C E H O U S E A N D A L O N G L O W B U I LD I N G WITH A B E A M E D C E I L I NG T H A T H A D BEEN H I S FATH E R'S WORKSHOP. T H E TOOLS WERE STI LL TH ERE-SOM E L U M B E R, A D R U M OF KEROSENE. A N D A COI L OF ROPE. AUDREY LOO K E D U P AT T H E B E A M S A N D REMEMBERED A N I N C I DENT T H A T H A D OCCU R R E D ON H I S LAST STAY H ER E . W H E N HE WAS THI RTEEN, HIS FATH E R A N D BROTH E R H A D ROWE D T O TH E OTH E R S I D E OF T H E

LATE A FTERNOON ON T H E TH I R D DAY THEY C A M E TO WIDE LAKE A FTER A TH R E E M I LE PORTAGE. AS THE

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L. A K E TO F I S H . A U DREY WATC H E D T H E M GO WITH A T I N G L. E OF A NTICI PATION IN H I S CROTCH A N D T H E P I T O F H I S STO M A C H . H E WAS GOI NG T O JACK OFF. BUT TH E R E WAS NO H U RRY NOW. H E COUL.D T A K E H I S TI M E A B O U T I T .

EXPL.A I N TOOK A

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PICK

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WHEN

FATH E R C A M E AND ASKED.

S U N S ET

"WHAT

H A P P E N E D T O YOUR N EC K A U D REY1"

H E W E N T OUT TO H I S FATH E R'S WOR KSHOP. L.OOK I N G UP AT T H E SMOOTH ROU N D BEAMS. H I S FATH E R

"WELL. U H I W A S P I C K I NG BL.AC K B E R R I ES AND I FEL.L. AND A BRANCH GOT TANGL.ED A RO U N D M Y N EC K . "

P L.A N N E D T O N A I L. P L.A N K S T O THE B E A M S T O FORM AN ATTIC AND STORE ROOM TO THE WORKSHOP. BUT THIS WAS NEVER ACCOM P L. I S H ED. L.OO K I N G U P AT THE BEAMS. A U D R EY S U D D E N L.Y FEL. T A FEEL.I NG OF W E A K N ESS IN H I S C H E ST. HE WAS STA RTI NG TO GET A H A RD-ON AS HE R E M E M B E RED SOM ETH I N G H E H I S FATH E R L. OO K E D A T H I M S P E C U L. A T I V E L Y F O R A M O M ENT. AND AUDREY FEL. T H I M S E L. F B L. U S H I NG.

BUT NOTH I NG MORE W A S S A I D . A L L TH I S C A M E BACK TO HIM AS HE STOOD IN THE WORK ROOM WITH

JERRY AND T H E PIPER B ROTH E R S AND GLANCED U P AT T H E B E A M .

H A D R E A D I N A N O L. D M E D I C A L. BOOK H E FOU N D I N A T R U N K I N T H E ATTIC OF T H E FAMI L.Y HOUSE IN ST. L.OU I S . I T WAS A BOUT DEATH BY HANGI NG:

A U D R E Y P I C K E D U P A S H O V E L A N D A C A N . " L. ErS CATCH S O M E FISH FOR D I N N E R 1"

"EJAC UL.ATION IN YOUNG MAL.E SUBJECTS D U R I N G H A NG I NG I S SO FREQUENT AS T O BE TH E R U L.E. T H I S G E N E R A L.L.Y O C C U R S TW I C E . ONCE I M M E D I ATE L.Y AFTER THE DROP W H E N THE NECK I S BROKEN AND ONCE J UST BEFORE T H E BL.OOD STOPS C I RC U L.AT ING AND THE H E A RT STOPS. MAY HOWEVER. IN SOME TI M E S HE K N E W EXACTL. Y T H E SPOT TO DIG FOR WOR M S . TH I S WAS A COM POST HEAP OF GARBAGE AND

H U M U S F O R T H E W I LD F L. O W E R G A R D E N AT T H E S I DE OF THE HOUSE. SOME IN. V I O L ETS OF THE AND IRIS FORGET-ME- NOTS. HIS FATH E R HAD

AND

EVEN

CASES

EJACU L.ATION

OCCU R

TH R E E

BROUGHT

S T l L. L

B L.OO M E D

TH ERE.

EVERY

A N D SOM ETI M E S A S OFTEN CONSC I O U S N E S S

A S FIVE T I M ES. F U L. L.

M A Y P E R S I ST F O R A S L. O N G A S

SHOVE L O F D I RT TU R N E D U P T H I C K R E D WORMS. A U D R E Y COULD S E E T H E FISH PIER. FEEL T H E JERK FLAPPING ON THE

TH R E E M I NUTES WITH THE N E C K BROK E N . A N D A S L. O N G A S TW EL.VE M I N UTES I N CASES W H E R E T H E NECK IS UNBROKEN IS OR L. I G H T L. Y FRACTU R E D . FROM

AND VI BRATING W E I G H T ON

T H E LINE. J E R R Y AND A U DR E Y GOT TH E I R F I S H I N G PO L E S A N D W A L K E D DOWN T O T H E P I E R .

E J A C U L. A T I O N

THOUGHT TO

R E S U L.T

P R E S S U R E O N T H E VAGUS N E R VE."

THE

P I P E R S W E R E B U S Y U N P A C K I N G G E A R FROM

A U D R E Y WAS STA N D I N G U P AT TH E ATTIC W I NDOW WHEN HE READ THIS. HE BECA M E QUITE DIZZY. A N D SI L.VER SPOTS BOI L. E D I N FRONT O F H i S E Y E S A N D H E W E N T O F F I N H I S PANTS. WEL.L.. NOW W A S H I S CHANCE TO TRY IT. H E A RT POU N D I NG. BREATH

T H E C A NOES. T H E SUN WAS SETTING AC ROSS THE L. A K E . AND THREE G E ES E IN FLEW THE N O RT H D I STANCE IN V

FO R M ATION. L A U G H OF A G L. A S S . UNE

S O M EW H E R E

THE

L.OON. T H E WATER WAS SMOOTH A S B A I T E D H I S HOOK THE BLUE A N D L. E T T H E J E RRY TH E WAS PIER.

AUDREY I N TO

W H I ST U NG T H R O U G H H I S T E E T H . H E F A S H I O N E D A H A N G M A N'S K N OT A N D THREW THE ROPE OVER A BEAM. HARD HE STRI P P E D OFF H I S C L.OTH ES. H I S COCK AND L. U BRI CATI NG AS HE ADJUSTED THE

SUDE

WATER. SIDE

FI S H I N G

FROM

TH E

OTH ER

OF

A L.MOST AT O N C E A U D R E Y FELT THE T U G O N H I S L I N E A N D P U L L E D O U T A O N E-POU N D ROCK BASS. I N TWENTY M I N UT E S T H E Y H A D S I X R OC K B A S S A N D S E V E N Y E LL.OW PERCH. T H EY C L E A N E D T H E FISH I N T H E LA K E A N D C A R R I E D THE ENTRA I LS I N A P A N A N D D R O P P E D T H E M O N T H E COM POST H EAP. A F I R E W A S A LR E A D Y B U R N I N G I N TH E K I TC H E N STOVE.

KNOT B E H I N D HIS L E FT EAR. REACHED U P AS FAR AS H E COULD O N THE LOOSE E N D OF T H E ROPE. AND P ULLED H I M SE L. F U P ON TI P TOE. THEN H E

A R C H E D H I S F EET. S W I N G I N G A FEW I NC H E S OFF T H E FLOOR. B L OO D POU N D E D A N D S A N G I N H I S E A R S A N D T H E R OO M BLAC K E D OUT A N D H E WENT OFF.

H E C A M E TO H I M S E L F LYI NG ON THE FLOOR. H I S N E C K V E R Y SORE A N D A TASTE OF BLOOD I N H I S MOUTH. HASTILY H E D R E S S E D A N D U N D I D T H E KNOT AND COILED THE ROPE. HE WENT BACK TO T H E

IN

THE

DAYS THAT FOLLOWED T H E Y FISHED A N D

SWAM A N D H I K E D A N D C ANOED A R O U N D T H E L.AKE.

"TH E P R E S E N C E OF H U M A N BODI E S W I L L DRAW THE POP L. I N G,' L I E F TOL.D A U DREY. "SOO N E R OR L.ATER HE W I L L SHOW H I MS E LF:'

H O U S E A N D LOO K E D I N THE M I R ROR. TH E R E WAS A RED MARK AROUND HIS N EC K . HOW WOU L.D HE

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FOR A W E E K NOTH I N G H A PP E N E D, A N D THEN ONE AFTE RNOON A S J ER RY AND A UD R E Y WERE COM ING BACK FROM A WALK A R O U N D T H E EDGE OF TH E LA K E WITH TWO BLACK BASS A N D A WALL EYED PIKE A U D R E Y SUDDENLY STOPPED A N D PUT H I S H A N D IN FRONT OF J E R RY. H E K N E W THAT J U ST AHEAD WAS A LITTLE SANDY I NLET BETW E E N TWO BOULDERS. YOU COULD E A S I LY M I SS I T BECAUSE THE R E WERE BUSHES GROW I N G A RO U N D TH E BOULDERS THAT ALMOST CON C E A L E D T H E I N L ET. H E KNEW IT WAS TH E R E BECA U S E TH R E E DAYS B E FORE, H E AND

ALMOST

TRANSPARENT.

A ND WAS

EXACTLY THE

COLOR O F TH E SAND, WEBBED FEET TRA I L I N G I N TH E WATER. A T TH IS MOMENT A B R E EZE R U STLED ACROSS THE LA K E BETW E E N THE C R E A T U R E'S

LEGS, STI R R I N G SAND-COLORED PUBIC H A I RS. A N D T H E CREATU R E GOT AN E R ECTION AND EJACU

LATED WITH A LOW WHISTLING SOU N D . THE B R E EZE D I ED A N D TH E C REATU R E LAY TH E R E AS IF DEAD.

TRYING TO MAKE AS LITTLE NOIS E A S POSSI B L E THE BOYS DROPPED DOWN ONTO THE SAND BETW E E N TH E POPL I N G A N D TH E WATER. T H E C R E AT U R E

JERRY HAD STOPPED H E R E FOR A S W I M . THE W A T E R W A S S H A L LOW FOR A BOUT TWENTY

LEAPED U P. A N D WHEN H E SAW H I S WAY TO THE WATE R WAS CUT OFF H E GAVE A W H I STLING SIGH OF FEA R, TU R N E D GREEN, AND SHIT O N THE SAND. AUDREY COULD S M E LL IT AS H E MOVED FORWA RD, QUICKLY STRI PPING OFF H I S BELT AND P I N I O N I N G T H E CREATUR E'S A R M S . IT S M E L L E D LIKE H UM U S , STA LE F L OW E R S, A N D STA G N A N T W A T E R W I T H FEET, AND TH E N THE B A N K FELL AWAY S H A R PLY I NTO DEEP WATER. SOM E HOW A U D R E Y COULD

N E V E R B R I N G H I M S E L F T O S W I M OUT I NTO T H E D E E P WATER, A N D A N YWAY T H E WATE R WAS M UCH TOO COLD TO STAY IN FOR MORE THAN A FEW M I N UTES. SO THEY SWAM C LOSE TO SHORE AND THEN C A M E O U T A N D STOOD ON TH E SAND, R U N N I NG TH E WATE R OFF TH E I R BOD I E S A N D S H IVERI NG. AS THE S U N WARMED THEM TH E Y S T O O D W I TH TH E I R ARMS

ACCENT S P R I N K L E D OVER IT. TH EY CA R R I E D T H E POPLING S E V E R A L H U NDRED Y A R D S B A C K T O T H E HOUSE. TH E G R E E N COLOR SLOWLY S U B S I D E D. T H E CREATU R E WAS LOOKI N G AT AUDR EY, WHO WAS

A R O U N D E A C H OTH E R 'S S H O U L D E R S , LOOK I N G ACROSS T H E LAKE. A N D TH R E E G E E S E FLEW OVER, HEADING NORTH. A U D R E Y BECA M E AWARE THAT

CARRYING HIS LEGS, A N D H E GAVE A LITTLE COOI NG GIGGLE THAT S E N T A SHIVER DOWN A U D R EY'S

SPINE. C A R L OPENED TH E DOOR AND TH EY C A R R I ED THE POPLING I NTO THE LIVING ROOM. CARL BOLTED TH E DOOR .

SOM EONE OR SOM ETH I N G WAS L OOK I NG AT HIM. H E F E L T A S U D D E N R U S H OF B LOOD T O H I S CROTCH. J E R R Y G LA N C E D DOW N . G R I N N I NG.

"THEY'VE GOT H I M." "YOU'RE GETTI NG A H A RD-ON. A U DREY." LIEF CAME OUT OF TH E KITC H E N WHERE H E HAD "YEAH. I S U D D E N LY GOT HOT FOR SOM E REASON." BEEN PREPA R I NG THE EVEN I NG M E A L . A S M E LL OF FRYING F I S H C A M E OUT WITH HIM A S H E OPENE D "ME TOO. LOO K . " HE POI N T E D DOWN TO HIS TH E DOOR. NOW T H E POPLI NG BEGAN TO STRUGGL E LIKE AN I M PATI ENT DOG AS H E WHI STLED O U T . . . "FISH FISH FISH." THEY STOOD THERE WITH TH E I R ARMS ST I L L AUDREY UNTIED THE C REATU R E 'S ARMS A N D SET HIM GENTLY ON H I S FE ET. H E S N I F FE D THROUGH TH E OPEN DOOR OF TH E KITCHEN. WHERE LIEF HAD ALREADY LA I D OUT PLATES O F FRIED FISH WITH BISCU ITS AND RICE. THE PO P L I N G G R A B B E D A

STI FFE N I NG P H A L LU S .

AROUND EACH OTH E R'S SHOULDE RS, AS IF THEY WERE HAVING A P I C T U R E TA K E N , AND A U D R E Y

REA LIZED THAT IT F E LT EXACTLY L I K E SOMEONE WAS TAKING A P I CTU R E . N EXT TAKE SHOWED THE TWO BOYS J A C K I NG OFF, BOD I E S CONTRACTED,

LOOKING DOWN A S TH EY EJACULATED A N D AUDREY THOUGHT OF A PICTURE H E H A D SEEN I N PARIS OF A LITTLE BOY PISSING I N TO T H E WATER . . . "NE BUVEZ JAMAIS D'EAU" A S THE I R S E M E N SLASHED INTO THE WATER LIKE SALMON ROW.

PLATE OFF

THE TABLE

AND C A R R I E D IT I N TO A HE SQUATTED

CORN E R OF TH E KITC H E N , W H E R E

DOWN EATING THE FISH WITH D E LICATE VO RACITY, CRAMMING RICE A N D BISCUITS INTO HIS MOUTH

WITH HIS HA NDS. I N A FEW SECONDS H E H A D P IC K E D TH E BON ES C L E A N . A U D R EY H A N D E D H I M ANOTH E R

NOW

HE

KNEW

THAT

WH ATEV E R

HAD

BEEN

PLATE A N D H E ATE THAT TOO. THEN H E C U R L E D U P IN H I S COR N E R A N D WENT TO S L E E P.

WATCHING TH E M WAS TH E R E I N TH E I NLET. THEY MOVED FORE W A R D CA UTIOUSLY AND PARTED THE BUSHES OVER THE I NLET A N D P E E R E D DOWN. AT FI RST THEY SAW NOTHI N G . TH E N A U DR E Y MADE OUT A FIGURE LYI N G IN THE S A N D. THE FIGU RE S E E M E D

A FT E R T H E Y H A D F I N I S H E D

EATING, A U D R E Y

STEPPED OVER TO THE POPLING A N D TOUCHED H I S SHOULD E R . TH E POPLI NG LOOK E D UP AT HIM,

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T U R N E D A SALMON P I N K COLOR A N D ROLLED OVER ON H I S BACK WITH HIS LEGS I N THE A I R A N D MADE A STRANGE POP P I N G SOU N D IN HIS TH ROAT. HIS

HE

CAN

SEE

WITH

H I S WHOL.E

BODY

A N D OFTEN

TURNS AROUND AND B E N DS OVER TO L.ooK AT ME WITH HIS ASS. A THIS M ET H O D OF P E R C E PT I O N L. I K E SOFT

P E N I S SURGED E R ECT L. I K E SOME P I N K TRANSL.U CENT FISH. A U D R EY AND J E R RY CARRIED HIM

PRODUCES

P H Y S I C A L.

I M P A CT.

EROGENOUS S P A R KS. I C A N TEL.L. I F H E I S L.OOKI N G AT M E W I T H M Y B A C K T U R N E D.

U PSTA I RS TO T H E BE DROOM A N D L. A I D H I M DOWN ON T H E B E D WITH A BATH TOWEL UNDER HIS ASS. THE P O P L. I N G W R I T H E D BR IGHT REO AND E C S T A T I C A L. L. Y . S HIT. A U DR E Y HE T U R N E D AND J E R RY

J E R R Y A N D I A R E N A K E D MOST OF THE T I M E . A N D WE ARE SL.OWL.Y L.EA R N I NG HOW TO SEE WITH OUR

STRIPPED OFF TH E I R SHORTS. DROPPED THE BATH TOW E L ON TH E FL.ooR A N D BEGAN CARESSING H I M . R U N N I NG LIGHT F I N G E R S OVER H I S N I PPL.ES A N D N UTS AND ASS. THE PO P L. I N G TU R N E D P U R PLE. WA S H I N G

BODIES. THE ASS. N I PPL.ES AND GENITAL.S ARE THE MOST S E N S I T I V E S E E I NG AREAS. OUT IS A N D THE L.ooK AREAS

D I F F E R E N T ACCOR D I N G TO WHICH

A R E USED. A BOVE A L.L.. THE POPL.I N G WANTS TO BE SEEN WITH OTH E R BODIES AND TO SEE OTHE R

ORANGE. THROUGH

S A L. M O N .

P I N K-TH E COLORS

H I S BODY SO T H A T AUD REY A C H E D TO

BOD I ES. W H E N H E L.OOKS A T M E WITH H I S N I PPL.ES. M Y N I PPL.ES BECOME E R ECT. TODAY I WAS IN T H E WOR KSHOP A N D T H E PO P L. I N G C A M E I N . H E L.oo K ED AT THE BEAMS AND MADE A L.ITTL.E C H I R P I N G

L.OOK AT H I M . K I C K I NG H I S L.EGS SPASMODICAL. L.Y I N TH E AIR. THE AND OF COL.ORS F A ST E R . FLASH I NG HE THAT CAME THROUGH IN A HIM

FASTER W H I STL.E

S H R I L. L. TWO

ECSTASY

BROUGHT

THE

GIGGL.E SOU N D T H A T V I BRATED I N M Y TH ROAT. A N D T H E N H E L.OOKE D AT M E W I T H H I S N E C K W H E R E A REO L. I N E L. I K E A ROPE MARK A P P E A R E D. AND

BOYS OFF WITH H I M .

J ER K E D H I S H E A D TO T H E L. E FT A N D I EJACUL.ATED. HIS
A U DREY'S NOTE ON

W H I STL.ES AND C H I RPS VI BRATE

IN

M Y BODY

THE

POPLl NG:

PHYSICAL

L.IKE SOM E SON A R L.ANGUAGE.

C H A RACTE R I STICS: H E I S Q U I T E TA L L. A L. MOST S I X F E ET. BUT SO S L.E N D E R THAN THAT HE C O U L. D HIS NOT IS H E CAN MAKE H I M S E L. F TRANSPA R E N T AND SHOW

W E IGHT

MORE

1 1 0 PO U N DS.

NECK

HIS V I SC E R A . U K E A TROPICAL. FISH. HE SEEMS TO BE ABL.E TO E J A C U L.ATE E ROTIC ANY N U M B E R OF T I M E S . A L.MOST MORE NOT

S E R P E NTI N E AND FL.EXIBLE. H I S HEAD COMES TO A POINT A N D IS QUITE H A I R LESS. HOWEVER. HE HAS PU BIC AND R ECTAL. H A I RS. WHEN H E SWIMS. H I S

ACH I EV I N G

FRENZIES THAT ARE

P A I N F U L. TO WATC H . THESE AND MORE F R E Q U E NT.

FRENZIES A R E HE

P E N I S A N D TESTICLES A R E R ETRACTED I NTO H I S BODY. L.EAV I NG A S M OOT H S U T . NORMA LLY H E I S A S I L.VER GRAY TRANSLUCENT COL.OR. WITH HUGE

HOWEV E R .

W I L. L.

AL.L.OW J E R R Y O R ME TO FUCK H I M . I F W E TRY TO F U C K H I M . HE T U R N S G R E E N AND SH ITS. CARL. H A S EXPL.A I N E D TO M E THAT IT IS FATAL. F O R A POPL.ING TO BE FUCKED. " H E WIL.L. POP A L. L. T H E WAY AND DIE."

CL.EAR G R A Y S H I M M E R I NG E Y E S . H I S BODY G I V E S O F F A G R A Y GHOSTL.Y U N D E RWATER SPERM S M E L L H E DE FECATES F R O M S U D D E N FEA R O R PL.EAS U R E . B U T HAS N O W L.EA R N E D TO OTH E R TIM ES. HE IS AN USE TH E TOI L.ET A T

"WHAT HAPPENS I F HE FUCKS M E 1"

I N STANT C H A M E L E O N . "THAT YOU W I L. L. F I N O OUT SOON ENOUGH."

C H ANGING COL.OR I N A S PL.IT S E C O N D TO M ATCH H I S S U R ROUNDI NGS. P L. E A S U R E IS A L.W A Y S MANI

FESTED B Y REO A N D F E A R B Y GREEN. THE PUBLIC AND RECTAL. H A I RS C H A NGE COL.OR WITH HIS SKIN. WIL.L.IAM B U R ROUGHS

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THE COM M ITTAL

TWO DAYS AFTER THE COMMITTAL HEARING, I WROTE TO A CLOSE FRIEND:
THING AS I LOOKED AT H I M -THAT I LOVED H I M. THAT WAS THE ONLY REALITY ON MY SIDE OF THE COURT. EACH T I M E "I FEEL CALM AND ACCEPTING AND HAVE A CLARITY ABOUT WHAT I MUST 00 THAT I DIDN'T HAVE BEFORE. THE IRRELEVENCE AND CRUDITY AND H UMAN FAILURE (WHICH WAS VAST) O F THE COURT ON FRIDAY MANAGED TO SIFT THE WHEAT FROM THE TARES. REMEMBER YOU SAID THAT I COULDN'T GET UP I N COURT AND DENY THAT 1 010 LOVE BOYS? THE FEAR OF THAT. AND BEING MISCONSTRUED. HAD HAUNTED ME FOR MONTHS. YET IT WAS ALL SAID. M Y WORDS WERE OUT AND YOU WERE RIG HT. THEY SURV IVED EVEN THAT MANGLING OF HOW COULD THE POLICE HAVE NOT BEEN AFFECTED? OR THE MAG I STRATES? IT WAS NOT PORNOGRAPHY AND RAPE AND I NDOCTRINATION WHICH PERVADED THE AI R. MUCH AS THOSE MAY HAVE BEEN THE ONLY TERMS I N WHICH THEY COULD UNDERSTAND O R ORGANISE THE PROCEEDINGS--eUT THE ASSER110N OF LOVE: BUT MOST I MPORTANT WERE TWO OTHER THINGS. FIRST. THE LOVE A N D U N D E RSTA N D I N G I FELT FROM MY THEREFORE IT WAS A COURT OF FOOLS. A HEARING FOR MISFITS: A I FELT THAT STRENGTH WHICH COMES FROM A COMMON PURPOSE. I HAD DOUBTED IT WERE POSSIBLE-AS YOU KNOW. IT HAD PREVIOUSLY ONLY HAPPENED WHEN I THERE BEEN ANOTHER RESULT. I WOULD HAVE FELT CH EATED. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? CAN ANYONE UNDERSTAND IT? MIGHT HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GIVE OTHERS IN THE PAST. LOVERS OPPOSITE A COURT FILLED WITH LOVERS OF THE FOOLISH. NO OTHER OUTCOME WAS POSSIBLE. HAD STRUGGLED FOR OTHERS. NOW IT HAD HAPPENED WITH ME AS THE BENEFICIARY. I HOPED IT REFLECTED WHAn PUBLIC GALLERY F I L LED WITH FOOLISH LOVE GLANCES LOVE IN STRUCK THE A I R. W H E T H E R AS BOTH THE

OR

WORDS. THEY

DEFIED

DEREUCTION OF T H E PROSECUTION AND T H E LEGAUSM ON THE DEFENCE. AND THAT OF COURSE IS WHY THE CASE IS BOUND TO G O ON.

EXPRESSION AND M ISREADING OF SENTIMENT.

FOR THOSE GENERALLY CONSIDERED INCAPABLE OF RECEIVING IT FROM THOSE UNWORTHY OF GIVING IT.

FRIENDS. FOR TH E FIRST T I M E I N THIS WHOLE BUSINESS.

SECOND. THERE WAS WHAT I FELT FOR

LEE

IN THE

DARE I

RISK O N E OBSERVATION (IT M A Y A L SO

WHICH

MAY S E E M BUT I

COURT. I STILL CANNOT DIGEST IT. I ONLY KNEW ONE

STRANGE.

BE SELF-DECEPTION

1 25

THROW IT OUT IN ORDER TO HAVE I T TESTEDJ IT IS ONLY THE POLITICAL PROCESS. I N ITS BROADEST SENSE. THAT MAKES ANY SENSE OF SUCH WASTE AND STUPIDITY. AS THAT COURT SHOWED. LOVE ALONE IS EASILY DENIED BY THOSE WHO CANNOT U N DERSTAND U NCONDITIONAL LOVE. I T IS ONLY THE ANALYSIS OF WHY SUCH PATHETIC H U MAN CONSTRUCTS DETE R M I N E DENY H U MAN REALITY WHICH DOES

A L L.

(THAT'S "ISN'T

TO SO

SAY.

SINCE EV ERYTH I N G IF SHE HAD

ONCE

Irs
ANY

OVER

BAD"),

EXPECTED

HOSTI LITY F R O M M Y FRIENDS OR M Y S E L F . I T H I N K S H E W I L L HAVE BEEN REASSURED. ON THE OTH ER H A N D. S H E M U ST HAVE FELT H U M I LIATED A N D. TO AN EXTENT.

BETRAYED, THE POLICE WENT ALL THE WAY UP TO THE M I D LA N DS. THEY TOLD AND HER EFFECTIVELY SHE HOODW I N K E D JAIL HER. IF

LETS US

H U MAN REALITY AT ALL.

RISKED GOI NG TO

IF LEE

THAT MAKE SENSE? I F I HAD BEEN SET FREE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN ON THEIR T E R M S-TH E TERMS THEY

D I D N 'T TURN U P IN COU RT-TH EN CERTA I N L Y S H E WAS HOODWI N K E D.

CHOOSE.

NO T R I U M P H . EXCEPT A TRI U M PH O F FORM

AND OF METHOD. NOW THAT THE STRUGGLE GOES ON. HOWEVER. IT IS ON M Y TERMS AS WELL.

NOW SHE M UST REALISE THAT THE ASSURANCES ABOUT COURT THE PROCEDURE NOT WERE COMPLETELY WHO FALSE: IT IS THESE

COURT

THE MY

POLICE

DECIDE

THIS I S THE ONLY WAY I CAN EXPLAIN THE INNER CALM NOW I FEEL. I AM FREE NOT TO TREMBLE. BUT TO FIGHT

TlH I NGS. TlHEN WITH

INDEED.

IF

BARRISTER HADN'T INSISTED.

LEE WOULD HAVE HAD TO TESTIFY NOT ONLY TWO M A G I STRATES. BARRISTERS. SOLICITOR. CLERK. PROBATION PRESENT. HE
M UST

SOLICITOR'S
I SAW MARK AND DAREN TODAY BRIEFLY. IT WAS THE ONLY TI ME THEY COULD GET OFF. I CANNOT LOOK AT EITHER OF THEM WITHOUT FEELING GLADNESS AND YES. PRIDE-AT THEIR U N D E RSTANDING AND BREADTH OF VISION. HOW THEY K NOW TH INGS PEOPLE THREE

OFFICER. BUT HAVE FIVE

C O U RT OR SIX AND

REPORTER HEAVIES

AND

MYSELF WHOM

ABOUT

MIXED

PAI NFUL FEELINGS.

TlHE POLICE LIED TO JEAN AND THEY KNEW THEY WERE LYING WHEN THEY DID SO. PERHAPS SHE NOW REALISES TlHAT TlHE POLICE ARE CAPABLE OF LYING IN TlH E SAM E WAY TlHAT I'VE MAINTAINED TlHROUGHOUT THEY LIED ABOUT ME. IF THEY WERE PREPARED TO FLOUT THE

TI MES THEIR AGE HAVE N O I N K L I N G OFI (WHICH AGAI N IS WHY I AM I N COURT . . J"

ORDER OF THE COURT TO QUIT IT. AND POSITION ONE TlH E COMMITTAL PROC E E D I NGS LASTED A DAY. A B R I EF PROS E C U T I O N STA T E M E NT. OUTLI N I NG M Y A R R E ST LOWED AND L E E'S I NT E R ROGATION. OF THE WAS FOL OF TlHEIR N U MBER RIGHT NEXT TO WHERE LEE WOULD TESTIFY. WHAT BETTER INDICATION IS THERE THAT THEY HAVE NO SCRUPLES I N PUTTING ENORMOUS PRESSURE ON KIDS. WHEN IN PRIVATE?

BY

THE

APPEARANCE

PROSECU

TION'S FI RST WITN ESS. LEE H I M SELF.

AT THAT C O U RT

POI NT. TO BE

MY

B A R R I ST E R ASKED BOTH TO

FOR THE RELIEVE

WISH SHE COULD HAVE BEEN IN COURT WHEN LEE

CLEARED.

TESTIFIED. NOT SIM PLY BECAUSE OF TlH E SUPPORT HE NEEDED FROM HER. BUT BECAUSE SHE MIGHT TlHEN

PRESSURE O N LEE. A N D A VO I D ANY POSSI B I LITY OF POLICE I NTI M I DATION -MERELY BY TlHEIR PRESENCE. SINCE NO LESS TlHAN SEVEN BOFORS POLICEMEN H A D TURNED THREAT. U P AT COURT. THIS WAS NO MEAN

HAVE UNDERSTOOD-lN A WAY COLD WRITTIEN WORDS COULDN'T PERSUADE HER-TlHE EXTENT TO WHICH LEE IS CONFUSED ABOUT TlHE ALLEGATION HE ORIGINALLY MADE. THE EXTENT TO WHICH HE IN FACT WITHDREW MUCH OF WHAT HE ORIGINALLY SAID. AND THE PAIN TlHE WHOLE TlHING CAUSED HIM. I TlHINK SHE WOULD ONLY

L E E'S MOTHER .J E A N . HAD TO LEAVE THE COURT AS WELL THE POLICE H A D ASSURED HER TlHAT "ONLY TH E MAGISTRATE" WOULD BE IN COURT. BESIDE

HAVE

HAD

TO

LOOK

AT

HIM.

STRUGGLING TO

FIND

WORDS.

STUGGLING

TO

REMEMBER.

STRUGGLING TO

LOOK AT M E-TIHE ONLY PERSON IN THAT GAUNT ROOM WHO COULD GIVE HIM THE LEAST SIGN OF RECOGNI TION. (CRUELLEST IRONY-THAT IT WAS ME. THE VERY PERSON AGAINST WHOM HE WAS "COMPLAINING," FROM

MYSELF-A N D TlHAT T H E WHOLE A FFA I R WOULD BE I N FORMAL

I N MY LETTIER TO M Y F R I E N D AFTER THE COMMITTAL H E A R I NG I CONTI N U ED:

WHOM H E SOUGHT SOME HUMAN FEELlNGJ SHE MIGHT TlHEN. AT LAST. HAVE SEEN AN ESSENTIAL TRUTH: THAT TlH E RE IS NO QUESTION OF LEE LYING. BUT THERE IS A

"J EAN

M UST

NOW

BE

FEELING HAND.

VERY

M UCH

IN LEE

TWO HAS

QUESTION

OF HIS CONFUSION ABOUT EVENTS IN THE

MI NDS. ON

THE

OTH ER

RELI EF THAT

LONG GONE PAST ('TWO YEARS NOW> AND ABOUT WHAT A SUCCESSION OF ADULTS HAVE WANTED OUT OF HIM.

MADE HIS STATEM ENT. AND IT WASN'T "SO BAD" AFTER

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WHEN HE MADE THAT CLINCHING STATEMENT. I HEARD I T I N WORDS OUT O F T H E MOUTHS O F T H E POLICE. (WOULD LEE HAVE USED THE WORD "PENIS"7 1 THINK NOT. I N HIS ORIGINAL STATEM E N T TO THE POLICE. THEY INSERTED IT I N BRACKETS AFTER "DICK." AND WOULD HE HAVE SAID "BACKSIDE"7 BACKSIDE IS A PECULIARLY ADULT TERM-"I'LL HIT YOU ON YOUR BACKSIDE IF YOU'RE NOT CAREFUL." KIDS WILL ALMOST ALWAYS SAY "BUM." "ASS" OR "BOTTOM." AND I F A BOY WERE TRYING TO BE POLITE IN ADULT COMPANY. SURELY H E WOULD SAY . ..BEHIND7. ..

PROS: FOR HOW LONG?

LEE: ABOUT TH REE MONTHS.

PROS: 010 YOU SEE H I M A LOT?

LEE: YES.

PROS: WHAT SORT OF THI NGS 0 1 0 YOU 00

TOGETH ER?

LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER.

PROS: AFTER TH REE MONTHS 010 H E LEAVE

AS I SAT IN THE DOCK ON JULY 2BTH. WATCHING LEE TESTIFY,

AND COM E TO VISIT YOU FROM T I M E TO TI ME.

WROTE

DOWN AND

ALL HIS

THE

Q U ESTI O N S I ALSO

ADDRESSED T O H I M . NOTED THE

REPLI ES.

LEE: YES.

HESITATIONS IN NEVER TH ESE

INTONATIONS I N H I S R E FLECTED I N THE

VOI C E -SO M E T H I N G "DEPOSITION" BECOME. WHICH

PROS: 0 1 0 YOU GO A N D STAY WITH H I M I N

LONDON?

STATE M EN TS TH E N

WOMAN

MAG ISTRATE:

LEE,

00 YOU

K NOW

LEE: YES.

WHAT TH E OATH MEANS?

PROS: ON TH E FIRST OCCASION WERE YOU

WITH A NYON E ELSE?

LEE: I'M SUPPOSED T O T E L L THE TRUTH. LEE: NO.

MAGISTRATE: I T MEANS YOU PROMISE TO TELL

TH E TRUTH. YOU ARE TO GOING GIVE TO MAKE A SOLE M N PROM I S E THE RIGHT

PROS: CAN YOU REMEMBER HOW YOU WENT

TO LONOON?

ANSWER, YOU M U ST PUT YOU R HANDS ON THE BI BLE--oN THE WORDS OF J ESUS,

LEE: BY COACH. LEE DELIVERS THE OATH

PROS: WHICH CITI ES 010 YOU GO THROUGH ? PROSECUTI O N : L E E , W H E N

M EET ROGER MOODY?

0 1 0 YOU FI RST
LEE: BIRM INGHAM.

LEE: ABOUT FIVE YEARS AGO.

PROS: WHERE 010 YOU GO WHEN IN LONOON?

00 YOU REMEMBER THE ADDR ESS.

PROS: WH E R E 0 1 0 YOU LIVE?

LEE: NO. I CAN'T REMEMBER. LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER

PROS: 00 YOU REMEMBER WHICH PART OF PROS: CLOSE?

LONDON TH E HOUSE WAS I N ?

LEE: ABOUT THI RTY M I LES AWAY.

LEE: NO.

PROS: 010 HE COM E TO LIVE WITH YOU AT

YOUR HOUSE AT ALL?

PROS: DURI NG THE DAY WHAT 0 1 0 YOU USED

TO OO?

LEE: YES.

LEE: GO SWI M M I NG.

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PROS:

WHAT E LS E ?

LEE: MATTRESSES.

L E E : SOMETI M E S I W E N T W I T H ROGER.

PROS:

WH E R E DID ROGER SLEEP?

PROS:

WHAT SORT OF THI NGS DID YOU U S E D

LEE: N EXT TO ME.

T O DO?

PROS:
LEE: I WENT TO PLAY WITH THE OTH E R LADS.

W E R E TH E MATTRESSES C LOSE?

LEE: Y E S.

PROS:
LEE:

WH E R E D I D YOU U S E D TO GO?

PROS:
S O M ETI M E S THEY CAME TO OUR PLACE. SOMETI M ES WE W E N T T O WH E R E T H E Y W E R E LIVING.

WHAT DI D YOU U S E D TO WEAR?

LEE: PANTS. SOM ETI M E S A TEESHI RT.

PROS:

WHAT WERE TH E I R NAMES?

PROS:

WHAT D I D ROGE R U S E D TO WEAR?

LEE: J I M M Y A N D STEVE.

L E E : PANTS.

PROS:

WAS TH I S THE FI RST TI M E YOU WENT TO

PROS:

ON THE

F I R ST N IGHT DID

A N YTH I N G

LONDON?

HAPPEN?

LEE: NO.

LEE: H E K I S S E D M E .

PROS:

WHEN DID YOU GO BEFORE ?

PROS:

A N YTH I N G ELSE?

LEE: M E ROGER.

A N D M Y BROTH E R S W E N T TO STAY WITH

LEE: I DON'T THI N K SO.

PROS: PROS:

WHAT DID YOU DO A BOUT THAT?

WHEN YOU DESC R I BED YOU R T R I P ON

LEE: C A N'T R E M E M B E R

YOU R OWN, HOW LONG AGO WAS THI S ?

LEE: I TH I N K T H R E E Y E A R S AGO,

PROS:

ON

LATER

N I GHTS

DID

A N YT H I N G

H A PP E N ?

PROS:

WHAT T I M E O F THE YEA R?

L E E (AFTER A LONG SILENCE): H E TRI E D T O GET CLOSE

LEE: SUM M E R HOLIDAYS.

TO M E.

PROS:

HOW OLD W E R E YOU?

PROS:

I N WHAT WAY?

LEE: ABOUT N I N E.

LEE: I C A N'T U N D E RSTA N D .

PROS:

WHERE D I D YOU SLEEP?

PROS:

TELL U S WHAT HAPPEN ED.

LEE: S A M E ROOM AS ROGER.

THERE I S ANOTHER LONG SILENCE FROM LEE.

PROS:

DID I T HAVE BEDS IN IT?

PROS:

YOU EXPLA I N TO TH E LADY UP TH E R E

(HE POINTS T O T H E MAGISTRATE). LEE: NO.

MAGISTRATE: PROS:
ON WHAT DI D YOU SLEEP?

WE HAVE SOME I DEA OF WHAT

H A P P E N ED, W E WANT TO HEAR I T FROM YOU .

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PROS: HOW D I D YOU L I E IN BED? WERE TH E

TWO MATTRESSES ALONGS I D E EACH OTH ER?

THERE IS YET ANOTHER LONG SILENCE

LEE: HE TRIED TO PUT HIS PENIS UP M Y BACKSIDE.

DEFENSE BARRISTER (INTERVENING>: DON'T LEADI

CLOSE WAS TH E WORD, NOT TOGETHER.

PROS: DI D YOU SEE H I S PENIS?

LEE: TH E MATTRESSES WERE RIGHT NEXT TO EACH

OTHE R.

LEE: YES.

PROS: DID HE GET IT I N ? PROS: WERE YOU SLEEPING ON ONE OF TH E

MATTRESSES? LEE: NO.

LEE: YES.

PROS: WHEN HE DID SO, WHAT D I D YOU DO?

PROS: WHERE WAS ROGER

S LEEPI NG?

LEE: I MOVED FURTHER AWAY.

LEE: ON THE OTH ER ONE.

PROS:

DID

A N YT H I N G

ELSE

HAPPEN

ON

ANOTH E R NIGHT?

PROS:

DID

YO U R

R E S PECTI V E

POSITIONS

LEE: HE KISSED ME A N D THAT.

STAY LIKE THAT?

PROS: WHAT DOES "AND THAT' M EA N ?

LEE: I STAYED THERE. YES. LEE: NOTH ING.

PROS: WHAT ABOUT ROGER? PROS: I'D LIKE YOU TO LOOK AT TWO PHOTOS.
LEE: H E T R I E D TO COME O V E R T O M Y MATTRESS. WHO TOOK THESE PHOTOS?

PROS: DID HE SUCC E E D AT ALL?

LEE: ROGER.

LEE: I CANT REMEMBER.

PROS: WH E N ?

PROS: CAN YOU R E M E M B E R ANYTH ING ELSE

HAPPENING AT A LL?

LEE: WHEN H E C A M E TO T H E M I D LANDS SOMETIME

BEFORE I CAME TO LONDON.

THERE I S A LONG SILENCE

PROS:

DID

YOU

R EAD

ANY

BOOKS

WHEN

STAYI NG WITH ROGER? LEE: H E TRI ED TO PUT H I S ARMS A ROUND ME. LEE: YES.

PROS: ANYTH I N G ELSE? PROS: WHAT SORT OF BOOKS?

THERE IS ANOTHER LONG SILENCE LEE: SEX BOOKS.

MAGISTRATE:

DO

YOU

K NOW

WHY

YOU' R E

HERE TO GIVE EVI DENCE TODAY?

PROS: WAS THERE ANY QUESTION OF PHOTOS

BEING TAKEN?

DEFENCE BARRISTER (IN AN ASIDE): THE POLICE

OFFICERS TOLD H I M TO COME. LEE: HE WANTED TO . YES.

PROS: DID A N YTH I NG ELSE H A PPEN YOU CAN

TELL US ABOUT?

PROS:

DID

YOU

AGREE

TO

THOSE

TWO

PHOTOS BEING TAKEN?

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LEE: NO.

DEF: IT COULD J UST AS EAS I LY HAVE BEEN A

H A N D AS A P E N I S COULDN'T IT?

PROS: DID YOU GO OUT IN TH E EVENING AT

A LL?
LEE: YES.

LEE: WE WENT TO A PARTY.

DEF: YOU R E M E M B E R THE PARTY TO WHICH

YOU WENT. DO YOU REMEMBER IT WAS FOR TWO PEOPLE GOING OUT TO BANGLADESH?

PROS: WHO WAS AT THE PARTY?

LEE: ROGER. I CAN'T REMEMBER WHO ELSE.

LEE: NO.

PROS: WE RE THERE ANY WOMEN THERE?

DEF: YOU WENT WITH ROGE R OTH ER EVEN

I NG S D I DN'T YO U ? TO TH E CINEMA FOR EXA M PLE.

LEE: NO.

PROS: WHAT D I D YOU HAVE TO DRINK?

LEE: YES.

LEE: I D R A N K POMAGNE.

DEF: WHEN YOU SAY MON OTH ER OCCASIONS"

HE T R I E D TO KISS YOU HE WAS DOING THAT RATH E R L I K E A FATH ER WASN'T H E ?

PROS: HOW MUCH?

LEE: HALF A BOTTLE.

LEE: YES.

MY BARRISTER THEN ROSE TO CROSS-EXAMINE

DEF: NOT IN A N Y OTH ER WAY?

DEFENCE: LEE, YOU KNOW YOU SAI D ROGE R

TRI ED TO P U T H I S PENIS U P YOUR BACKSI DE? HE N EVER TOUCHED IT DID HE?
LEE: I DONT KNOW.

LEE: NO.

DEF: A N D W H E N HE C U DDLED YOU HE DID SO

LIKE A FATH E R?

LEE: YES.

DEF: YOU TELL US. DEF: NOT IN ANY OTH ER WAY?

LEE: I THOUGHT H E DID. LEE: NO.

DEF: YOU'RE NOT SURE ABOUT IT ARE YOU?

DEF: HE ASKED TO TAK E PHOTOS OF YOU A N D

LEE: YES.

Y O U SAI D N O . L E T M E OTH E R P H OTOS

SHOW Y O U THESE NO

[CLOTH ED]. TH E R E'S

DEF: YOU COULDN'T SEE HIM COU LD YOU?

THI N G WRONG WITH THOSE IS THERE?

LEE: NO.

LEE: NO.

DEF: YOU CAN'T REALLY BE SURE CAN YOU?

I SN'T THAT RIGHT
LEE: THATS RIGHT. I CANT B E SURE.

DEF: TH E ROOM YOU SLEPT IN WITH ROGER.

WHEN YOU R BROTHE R S CAME TO STAY, YOU ALL SLEPT IN TH E SA M E ROOM DIDN'T YOU?

LEE: YES.

DEF: IT COULD HAVE BEEN A H A N D AGAINST

YOU COULDN'T IT?

DEF: AND THE R E WAS ONLY ONE ROOM FOR

YOU TO SLEEP IN WHEN YOU WERE WITH ROGER?

LEE: YES.

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LEE: NO, THERE WAS A ROOM BESIDE IT,

DEF: IT WAS REALLY LIKE A FATH ER WASN'T

IT? IN IT?
LEE: I DONT KNOW.

DEF:

DID

IT

HAVE

ANY

FURN ITURE

WASN'T IT BARE?

LEE: YES.

THE PROSECUTOR RISES TO REEXAMINE

DEF: HAVE YOU EVER STAYED AWAY FROM

HOME ON YOU R OWN B E FORE W ITHOUT YOUR BROTHERS OR MOTHER?

PROS: LEE, WHY 010 YOU SAY I T WAS A P E N I S?

LEE: I T DIDNT FEEL LIKE A HAND OR ANYTHING.

LEE: NO.

PROS: WERE YOU LYI NG DOWN AT TH E T I M E?

DEF: ROGER USED TO TREAT YOU VERY MUCH

L I K E A SON D I DN'T HE?

LEE: YES.

PROS: WERE YOU FAC ING TOWA RDS ROG E R

LEE: YES.

O R AWAY?

DEF:

YO U R

MUM

AND

DAD

DON

U VE

LEE: AWAY.

TOGETHE R DO TH EY?

PROS: COULD YOU SEE HOW HE WAS FACI NG?

LEE: NO. LEE: NO.

DEF:

THEY

HAVEN'T

DON E

SO

SI NCE

YOU

WERE A BABY IS THAT RIGHT?

PROS: YOU SAY ROGE R KISSED YOU. W H E R E ?

LEE: NO, THEY HAVENT.

LEE: ON T H E CHEEK.

DEF: DO YOU SEE YOU R DAD VERY M UCH? PROS: YOU SAI D YOU DIDN'T WANT H I M TO
LEE: NO.

TAKE PICTUR ES-WE RE THEY L I K E THIS? (HE

HOLDS U P THE SEMI-NUDE SHOTS)

DEF: ROGER WAS REALLY LI K E A FATHER TO

ALL OF YOU?

PROS: NOT L I K E TH I S? (HE

SHOTS)

HOLDS UP THE CLOTHED

LEE: YES.

LEE: NO.

DEF: SO WHEN YOU C A M E TO STAY IN LONDON

WITH ROGER I T WAS NATU RAL FOR YOU TO SLEEP IN THE SAM E ROOM A N D NOT IN A

MAGISTRATE: WE WANT TO ASK YOU ONLY O N E

QUESTION PENIS. LEE_ YOU SAID ON YOU SAW HIS YOU BUT LATER YOU SAI D

ROOM-A BARE ROOM-ON YOUR OWN?

COULDN'T S E E IT. WAS I T DA R K OR LIGHT?

LEE: YES.

LEE: DARK, I THI N K.

DEF: AND WHEN ROGER WAS TOUCH I NG YOU,

HE WAS BEING W A S N 'T A F F ECTI O N A T E HE? HE W A S N 'T LIKE A FATH E R DOI N G

MAG: W H E N D I D YOU SEE H I S PENIS TH E N ?

LEE: I N TH E MORNING.

ANYTH I NG WRONG?
I CONCLUDED THE LETTER TO MY FRIEND: LEE: I DONT KNOW WHETHER H E WAS TOUCH I NG ME
LIKE A FATHER.

"HERE THERE IS A TERRIBLE IRONY. I'VE LITTLE DOUBT

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THAT WHAT LEE FEELS I

DID WRONG TO H I M WAS TO

POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIM AGAINST YOU?

KISS H I M . H I S CONFUSIONS ABOUT WHAT THESE KI SSES MEANT CAME OVER POI G N A N T LY IN THE C ROSS LEE: YES.

EXA M I NATION

AT T H E C O M M I TTAL. AT ONE POI NT H E

S A I D H E DIDN'T K N O W WHETHER T H E Y WERE "FATHERLY" KISSES. AT ANOTH E R POINT. THAT. NOT HAVING KNOWN WHAT IT WAS TO HAVE A REAL FATHER. THEN YES-THEY WERE FATH ERLY KISSES. LEE L I V ES IN A WORLD WHERE PRESSING MOCK ONESELF A G A I N S T A N O T H E R PERSON J UST P H YSICAL ANTICS IS IN A

POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIS PENIS?

LEE: I DON'T K N OW.

SEXUALITY

OR

POLICE: H E H A D HIS LEGS A G AINST YOU

DIDN'T HE?

SLIGHT NAUGHTI N E SS-IF THAT. AFTER ALL. WHAT DOES IT SIGNIFY? WHAT H A R M COMES OUT OF IT? KISSING HOWEVER HAS DIFFERENT I M PLICATIONS AND THEY ARE M U C H MORE CONFUSING. K I DS LEARN FROM FILMS THAT IT SIGNIFIES THE START OF SERIOUS LOVE-MAKING.

LEE: I TH I N K SO.

POLICE: WAS HE FACING YOU?

BOYS DO NOT KISS BOYS. A N D THOUGH M E N KISS BOYS (A N D BOYS MEN) I T IS ONLY WITHIN THE FAM I LY. THAT LEE WANTED M E TO KISS H I M . I K N OW. PERHAPS H E ALSO FANTASISED M Y PENIS C O M I N G I NTO CONTACT WITH H I S BOTTO M : I KNOW OF ONE OCCAS I O N WHEN HE LEE: I DON'T KNOW.

POLICE: HE WOULD FACE YOU TO KISS YOU

WOULDN'T HE?

CERTA I N LY D I D SO. WHICH G U I LTY THE POLICE

WAS I T THAT SPECIFIC LATC H E D THAT ON TO? DID

FANTASY HE FEEL OF

ABOUT

IT-SO

THE

ONLY

WAY

LEE: YES.

ALLEVIATING T H E G U I L T W A S TO SAY I D I D IT T O H I M . RATH ER THAN THAT H E WANTED "TO KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE"? OR WAS IT S I M PL Y THAT THE WHOLE THING WAS SO I NCI DENTAL I N THE FI RST PLACE THAT UNTI L THE POLICE POUNCED ON I T A N D M A D E IT THE KEY THING H E D I D N 'T KNOW IT HAD A N Y SIG N I FICANCE? I N W H I C H CASE. HE WOULD HAVE BEEN TAKEN U N AWARES AND. DESPITE H I M S E LF. PROCESS: LEE: YES. E L A B O RA T E D ON IT. I CAN IMAGINE THE

POLICE: BUT PERHAPS HE DIDN'T KISS YOU

SOME OF THE TIME7

POLICE: 50 HE HELD YOU IN A DIFFERENT

WAY?

POLICE: WHEN YOU WERE SLEEPING NEXT TO

EACH OTHER. DID HE TRY TO COME OVER TO YOUR SIDE OF THE BED?

POLICE: HOW? PERHAPS HE WAS BEHIND YOU

BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T WANT HIM TO KISS YOU?

LEE: YES ONCE OR TWICE.

POLICE: WHAT DID HE OO?

LEE: YES.

LEE: K I SSED ME AND THAT.

POLICE: AND WHEN HE WAS BEHIND YOU. YOU

FELT HIM AGAINST YOU I EXPECT?

POLICE: AND THAT?

LEE: YES. LEE: CUDDLED ME SORT OF.

POLICE: DID YOU FEEL ANYTHING AGAINST POLICE: HOW DID HE CUDDLE YOU?
YOU?

LEE: HE PUT H I S A R M S A R O U N D ME.

LEE: H I S D I C K I SU PPOSE.

POLICE: WAS HE NAKED AT THE TIME?

POLICE: PENIS.

LEE: I CAN'T R E M E M B E R.

LEE: YES.

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POLICE:

YOU FELT HIS PENIS AGAINST YOU?

FINALLY

WROTE

THE

FOLLOWI N G , T R Y I N G TO

WHERE AGAINST YOU?

CONVEY SOMETHING OF WHAT I FELT WHEN I WAS FORCED TO SIT OPPOSITE LEE IN COURT, WHILE HE

LEE: I DON'T KNOW.

WAS COMPELLED TO STAND AGAINST ME:

POLICE:
A R MS

WELL, IF HE WAS HOLDING YOU IN HIS

"I NOW OFTEN SEE LEE IN MY INNER EYE AS HE WAS ON FRIDAY. I FEEL THE TENDERNESS I FELT THEN AND RECALL (PERHAPS SURPRISINGLY. BUT MAYBE THIS IS WHERE THE H U MAN TRI U M PHS OVER THE MAN UFAC

E X PECT

YOU

WERE

IN

HIS

LAP

WEREN'T YOU?

LEE: YES.

TURED) THAT THE LOOKS WE SHARED WERE THE MOST I M PORTANT THING. LIKE PAUL HE HAD BEEN SHAKEN,

POLICE:
BEEN?

SO WHERE WOULD HIS PENIS HAVE

BUT WASN'T DEFEATED. AND I PAUL, HE HAD STRENGTH

REALISED THAT, LI KE I HAD PARTIALLY

WHICH

HELPED HIM TO ACQUIRE. THE CORE OF HIS TRUTH WAS THAT I HAD BEEN WITH H I M LIKE A FATHER: IT WAS HOW I

LEE: AGA INST MY BOTTOM.

HAD BEEN AND WHAT HE WANTED. YET I AM NOT HIS FATHER-BEYOND THAT, HE DID NOT KNOW. WHILE HE

POLICE:
ROG E R

SO PUT

ARE HIS

YOU

SAYING

LEE

THAT YOUR

HAD BEEN WITH ME, BEYOND HAD

IGNORANCE ABOUT WHAT LAY WAY TO H I S OWN

PENIS

AGAINST

B E G U N TO G I V E

BOTTOM?

KNOWLEDGE: LACK OF DEFINITION HAD BEGUN TO GIVE WAY TO HIS SELF DISCOVERY. HE WASN'T SURE HOW IT

LEE: YES.

WOULD WORK OUT. AND HIS ILLNESS WHEN HE ARRIVED HOME AFTER TH E '76 HE H OL I D AY WAS THE BEST

POLICE:
LEE: NO.

DID HE GET IT IN?

I N DICATION

THAT

DESPERATELY

FEARED T H E

TENSIONS THAT HAD BEEN CREATED. FOR A PERIOD HE COULD NOT SEE HOW TO RESOLVE BETWEEN THE "IS" AND THE "COULD BE." BUT HE RECOVERED. AFTER ALL, I HAD SEEN HIM TWICE SINCE THEN: T H E GROWING

POLICE:
LEE: YES.

SURE?

AWARENESS COULD HAVE GONE ON . . .

NOW H E HAD BEEN PENALISED FOR ATTEMPTING TO GROW BEYOND THE CONFUSION; HAS BEEN TOLD IN THE

POLICE:

OKAY. THATS ALL FOR NOW.

MOST DEVASTAnNG FASHION THAT THE AREAS INTO WHICH HE WAS MOVING WERE ABSOLUTE TABOO; THAT

AND

SO.

THE

GESTURE

BECOMES AN

ACT.

AN

ADULT WHO ENCOURAGES HIM

IN

HIS JOURNEY

CONFI RMATION, AN ACCUSAnON. LEE CANNOT SEE THE WICKED AND ESSENTIALLY FA LSE LOG IC IN THE

TOWARDS SELF-KNOWLEDGE WILL BE PENALISED BY OPPROBRI U M AT BEST AND INCARCERAnON AT WORST. HE KNOWS THAT THIS IS NOT THE TRUTH-HENCE HE SEARCHES M Y FACE I N COURT TO DISCOVER THAT I REALLY AM WHO I WAS WHEN WE LAST MET. BUT IT IS THE ONLY "TRUTH" HE CAN E X PRESS. BECA USE

PROCESS, BECAUSE HE IS A VICTIM O F T H E PROCESS. (AS FREIRE SHOWED IN BRAZIL. VICTIMS ALWAYS REMAIN VICTIMS UNnL THEY REALISE THE TRUE MEANING OF THE WORDS: THAT WORDS ARE NOT N EUTRAL BUT

TOOLS TO BE USED FOR OR AGAINST OTHER H U MAN BEINGS.! IT IS TRUE THAT. UNTIL I ACTUALLY SAW LEE OVER THE COURTROOM ON FRIDAY, I DIDN'T SEE THAT THIS WAS PROBABLY HOW THE WHOLE THING HAD BEEN.

EVERYONE AROUND HIM ANOTHER TRUTH."

FEARS-OR CANNOT SEE

ROGER MOODY

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RATH E R .

T H I N K I NG

A BOUT

DEATH.

ONE.

PRODIGIOUS PASTI ME?

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DO E SN'T FLEE I N T H E FACE O F THE TOTA LITY O F ITS OWN CONSEQ U E N C ES.

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TODAY. THAT

THE

AUTHOR IS

WAS STRUCK BY T H E

FACT

THE

C U LPRIT

DOM I NATED BY TEARS A N D

DEATH AT T H E S A M E TI M E THAT IT I S DOM I N ATED B Y TH E R E P R E SENTATION O F GOD. I . . . J

P E R S PECTI V E FAVORA B L E

DEATH.

UNDER GREAT

C I RC U M STA N C E S.

BUT W I T H

D I FFICULTY. A N D I N T H E E N D . H E FAILED. F O R L I F E . A MOST I NTENSE. A N D OFTE N. MOST H E A R T R E N D I N G L I F E . B R O U G H T H I M BACK I M M EDIATELY. S E PT E M B E R

1 4. 1 9 3 9

THIS

NA RRATIVE

EVOLVED

OUT

OF THE

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YESTE R DAY. I W E N T TO LA U R E'S GRAVE: A S SOON A S I L E FT T H E H O U S E . I NOTI C E D HOW DARK THE NIGHT WAS. A N D I W O N D E R E D IF I WOULD EVER F I N D MY WAY A LONG TH E ROAD. I T WAS SO B L A C K THAT I

'DEC LA RAT10N O F W A R . I T I S I N D EPENDENT O F T H E A UT H O R ' S T O G ET H E R LIFE. THIS IN FACT. THE AUTHOR PUT

STORY

FROM

PI ECES O F T H E

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FELT

MY

THROAT TIGHTEN: I COU LDN'T T H I N K OF

SORROW

THAT

H E LD MYSELF IN

MY OWN A R MS

ANYTH I N G ELSE. SO I FOU N D I T I M POSSI BLE TO GO INTO THE STATE OF N E A R - ECSTACY THAT NORMAL LY OVERCOMES ME AS I FOLLOW THE S A M E PATH. AFTER A LONG W H I LE. N E A R THE M I DDLE OF THE WAY. MORE AND MORE LOST. I R E M E M B E RED THE A SC E N T UP ETNA AND I WAS DU MBFOUNDED.

WITHOUT KNOWING WHY: AT THIS VERY MOM E N T. I FELT AS IF IT H A D SOM E HOW SPLIT IN TWO A N D WAS STRANG L I N G AROUND MY HER. BODY MY AND HANDS I F E LT BECAME AS IF I LOST WERE

TO U C H I N G H E R . SUDDEN LY. A

P E RC E I V I NG H E R F R AG R A N C E . SOFTNESS GRIPPED ME

TERRIBLE

EVERYTH I N G TH E N H A D B E E N J U ST AS D A R K AND CHARGED WITH CUNNING TERROR TH E N I G H T LA U R E A N D I CLIMBED T H E F A C E OF ETNA.

JUST LIKE W H E N W E WERE CLOSE B E FORE: J U ST LIKE WH E N T H E OBSTACLES SEPARATING TWO

PEOPLE DISAPPEAR. TH EN. W H E N I REA LIZED THAT I WOULD SOON COME BACK TO M YSELF. TO THE OLD

MOU NT ETNA OV E R F LOWED WITH M E A N I NG FOR US: WE H A D GIVEN U P A T R I P TO GREECE TO MAKE THE CLIMB. WHAT WE HAD ALREADY PA I D FOR TH E

SELF. R ESTRICTED BY MY C U M BERSOME N E EDS. I BEGAN TO TREMBLE A N D TO ASK H E R PA RDON. I W E PT BITTERLY. NOT KNOWING W H AT TO DO

CROSSI N G

HAD TO BE

R E F U N DED.

AT DAWN. WE

BECAUSE I K N E W I W O U L D LOSE H E R AGA I N . I W A S U N B E A R A BLY A S H A M E D OF W H A T I W O U L D BECO M E . O F T H E PE RSON I A M N O W AS I WRITE T H I S. OR E V E N WORSE. I WAS SURE OF O N L Y ONE T H I N G: THE

FINA LLY REACHED TH E E DG E OF THE I M M E N S E AND BOTTOMLESS CRATER. W E WERE E X H A U ST E D AND I N A WAY TA K E N ABACK B Y T H E OVERLY STRANGE. OV E R LY DI SASTROUS SOLITUDE. IT WAS H E A RT

PERCEPTION

OF THOSE

LOST T O US W H O H A V E

R E N D I N G TO LEA N OVE R THAT G A P I N G C R EVICE. THAT STARY VOI D T H A T W E B R E AT H E D IN. TH E

BROKEN T H E I R ATTAC H M E NTS T O THE CUSTO M A R Y CON F I N E S OF ACTI VITY IS I N NO W A Y LIM ITED.

PORTRAIT OF C I N DERS A N D FLA M ES THAT A N D R E MASSON PAINTED AFTER WE D E SC R I B E D THE WHAT I FELT YESTERDAY WAS NO MORE B U R N I NG . NO MORE T R U E OR FULL OF M E A N I NG CONC E R N I N G T H E DESTI NY OF E V E R Y B E I N G T H A N ANY OTH E R EXPE R I E N C E OF T H E U N I NTELLIGIBLE. NO MATTER HOW VAG U E O R I M PE R SONAL. ON E'S B E I NG BURNS WITH THE D E S I R E TO BECOME P U R E B E I NG TH ROUGH AND THROUGHOUT AS THE N I GHT. IT B U R N S EVEN

SCE N E T O H I M W A S N E A R LAURE W H E N S H E D I E D: I T IS STI L L IN MY R OOM. I N THE M IDDLE OF OUR

DESCENT. A FTER WE H A D E N T E R E D A N I N F E R N A LLY HOT AREA. WE COULD STILL F E E L THE FA R-AWAY PRESENCE OTH E R OF THE VOLCANO'S CRATER AT T H E

E N D OF T H E L O N G V A L L E Y OF L A V A . WE

COULDN'T IMAGINE A SPOT WHERE THE T E R R I B L E I N STA B I LITY OF THI NGS WAS MORE E V I D E N T. ALL O F A SUDDEN. LAU R E WAS G R I PPED B Y SUCH EXTR E M E A N G U I S H T H A T SHE I N SA N E LY A N D BLI N DLY BEGAN TO RUN. THE TERROR AND DESOLATION THAT WE HAD ENCOUNTE R E D B E W I L D E R E D H E R .

BRIGHTER

LOVE SHOWS ITSELF CAPABLE O F

CRUMBLING THE P R I SON WALLS AROU ND EACH O F U S . BUT WHAT C O U L D BE M O R E GRA N D THAN T H E BREACH THROUGH WHICH TWO B E I NGS MIGHT

RECOGNIZE EACH OTH E R WITHOUT SUCCU M B I NG TO THE VULGARITY A N D THE PLATITUDES OF I N F I N ITY? (HE WHO AT LEAST LOVES BEYOND TH E GRAVE. FOR

YESTERDAY. I CONTI N U E D MY C L I M B U P THE H I L L TOWA RDS H E R G R A V E . T R O U B L E D BY A M E MORY S O FULL OF NOCTU RNAL TE R ROR. BUT AT T H E SAME TIME. SO F U LL O F S U BTE R R A N E A N NOCTU R N A L GLORY. AN

H E ALSO ESCAPES THE VULGARITY O F DAILY L I F E BUT NEVER T H E TOO-T E N UOUS T I E S T O L A U R E .

E V E N H A D TH E Y B E E N M O R E COMPLETE LY S E V E R E D BY H E R. S O R ROW. H O R ROR. TEARS. MADN ESS.

ALREADY CESSIBLE

SHATTE R E D TO REAL

GLORY

INAC

SURFE IT. F E V E R A N D F I N A LLY DEATH: THESE A R E T H E DAILY B R E A D T H A T LA U R E SHARED W I T H M E . THIS BREAD LINGERS AND AS THE M E MORY AS OF A

MEN.

ACC ESSIBLE

O N LY TO

SHADOWS. S H I V E R I N G IN T H E COLD. BY T H E TI M E I R EACH E D THE C E M ETERY. I FELT D E L I RIOUS. I WAS AFRA I D O F H E R. I FELT THAT IF SHE A P P E A R E D TO ME. I WOULD SCREAM. TER R I F I E D. DESPITE THE

DREADFU L

I M MENSE LOVE

SORROW.

THE

D I M E N SIONS O F A

EAGER TO EXC E E D T H E

LIM ITS O F ALL THI NGS: A N D YET. H O W M A N Y TI M E S WHEN WE WERE T OG E T H E R DID WE ACH I E V E

EXTR E M E DARKN ESS. I WAS A B L E TO MAKE OUT THE GRAVES. TH E C R O S S E S A N D THE TOM BSTON ES.

U N A C H I E V A B L E H A P P I N E SS. STA R L I G H T N I G H TS. FLOWING STREAMS? IN THE FOREST AT NIGHTFA LL. SHE WOULD WALK S I L E NTLY AT MY S I DE. I WOULD LOOK AT H E R WITHOUT H E R KNOWING IT. WAS I EVER MORE CERTA I N OF WHAT LIFE RESPONSE TO T H E M ENTS OF THE BRINGS TO U S IN

THEY E M E RGED FROM TH E D A R K N ESS A S FAI NTLY PALE FORMS. I COU L D A L SO BUT MAKE OUT TWO

GLOWING

LINES OF VERSE.

L A U R E'S GRAVE

WAS COM PLETELY COV E R E D BY V EGETATION A ND. FOR SOM E REASON. WAS THE O N LY A BSOLUTELY

MOST U N FATHOMABLE I WATCHED MY

MOVE

BLACK STRETCH OF GROU N D. STA N D I N G IN FRONT OF H E R GRAVE. I WAS SO OVERCO M E WITH PA I N AND

H EA RT?

DESTI N Y

APPROAC H I NG I N THE DARKN ESS N E X T T O M E . N O

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WORDS COULD E V E R AWARE OF HER.

E X P R E S S HOW MUCH I

I WAS

MOVED. T H I S HOUSE. S U R RO U N D E D BY G R A N D OLD TREES, T H E O N L Y HOUSE TO A FFORD L A U R E SOM E REST BEFORE SHE DI ED, A BRIEF R E SPITE, THE

NOR CAN

EXPRESS J U ST HOW

B E A UTIFUL SHE WAS; HER I M P E R FECT BEA UTY WAS THE FLU I D I M AGE OF A N A R DE NT AND U NC E RTA I N DESTINY. THE FLA S H I N G TRANSPARENCE OF

N E A RBY FOREST, H E R GRAVE. THE C ROW A N D THE DESERT . , . SO M A N Y C U RSES, SO M U C H LOUS DARKN ESS, BUT THIS MORNING, M I RACU A SUN

S I M I LA R NIGHTS I S EQUA LLY I NDESCRIBA BLE.I A T LEAST H E W H O LOVES B E Y O N D TH E GRA VE H A S THE R I G HT TO FREE T H E LOVE WITH I N H I MSELF FROM ITS H U MAN CON F I N ES. TH E R I G H T TO GIVE AS MUCH

ATTE N UATED BY A LU M I NO U S HAZE A N D SOON, THE FINAL DEPARTURE, TH E SECRET T R A N S P A R E N C E

OF T H E LIGHT, OF C H AOS A N D OF D E A T H , A L L THE M A JESTY OF R E C E D I NG MY LIFE, MY I FORT U I TOU S WILL I AM NEVER M A DE ,

M E A N I NG TO HIS LOVE A S H E WOULD TO ALMOST A N YTH I NG E LSE.

S E N S U A LITY, ABA N DON

PERVERSIONS.

THESE

TH I NGS O F W H I C H

I F E E L I T N ECESSARY TO I NC LUDE T H I S PASSAGE FROM L A U R E'S LETTER TO J EAN G R E M I LLON OF

CONF U S I NG M Y S E LF WITH TH E I M M E N S E SOR ROW OF A FRACTU R E D WORLD, A WOR L D FRACTU R E D BY ILL TEMPER, BY THE CROWD'S SOR D I D RAGE, B Y M I S E R Y C R I NG I NG B E F O R E FATE. I LOVE WHO I A M SO M U C H I BUT I'VE R E MA I N ED FAITHFUL T O DEATH (LIKE A

S E PTEM B E R (OR OCTOB E R ) OF RETURN FROM ITALY:

1 9 3 7 . AFTER OU R

" G EORGES A N D I C L I M B E D ETNA. IT WAS T E R R I FY I NG. I WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO YOU A BOUT IT. BUT I CAN'T WI THOUT A GREAT DEAL OF U N EASI NESS; I

F A I T H F U L LOV E R) [ , , ' ] .

LA U R E'S P R E S ENCE, A S SOFT A S A N A X E F LA S H I N G I N THE N IGHT, S P R I NGS U P A L L O F A S U D D E N " L I K E A ROBBER I N T H E N I GHT' A N D SPREADS A C H I LL I N G E M B R A C E A S D E E P A N D A I R Y A S A N IGHT W I N D. BUT I M UST M A K E A CONCENTRATED EFFORT TO LEAVE

COMPARE E V E R YTH I NG I DO TO TH I S M E MORY. SO IT IS E A S I E R FOR ME J U ST TO GRIT MY TEETH . . . SO H A RD-HARD E NOUGH TO B R EAK MY JAWS:'

COPI E D

THESE

SENTENCES

DOWN BUT I

DON'T

THIS PRESENCE; IT D E M A N D S THAT I LEAVE JUST AS FORC I B LY . I . , ,I

K NOW ANYMORE IF T H E R E IS ANY TRUTH TO THEM. I DON'T EVEN LOOK AT T H E M A N Y MORE. BECA USE I S I M PLY CAN'T U N LE S S I SET OUT TO A C H I EVE THE B A R E LY AC H I EVA B L E. AND I HAVE TH E STRENGTH TO DO THIS ON LY R A RELY.

I WAS EQUALLY TERRIFIED B EC A U S E LA U R E'S FACE VAG U ELY R E S E M B L E D T H E HORRI B LY TRAGIC FACE OF THAT MAN O E D I P U S , E M PTY, H A LF CRAZED. THE R E S E M B LE N C E G R E W THROUG HOUT HER LONG HER

PE RIOD OF S U FF E R I N G W H I L E

FEVER W O R E

DO W N , P E R H A P S M O S T D U R I N G H E R F I T S O F A N G E R S E PTEMBER

1 9, 1 9 39

A N D H ATRED F O R ME. I TRI E D TO FLEE WHAT I S A W TH E R E , I FLED MY FATH ER, (TWENTY- F I V E Y E A R S HIM TO FATE D U R I NG TH E

T H I S IS NOT A F E E L I N G THAT I ALO N E EXPERI ENCE. A N E RVOU S N E S S THAT CAN O N LY LEA D TO A

AGO,

A B A N DO N E D

G E R M A N I NVASION, WH I LE I FLED WITH M Y MOTH ER. HE STA Y E D B E H I N D I N R H E I MS, A TTE N D E D BY T H E M A I D. HE WAS B LI N D AND PARALYZED AND HE

CATACLYSM H A S B E E N G ROWI NG NOW FOR OVER A MONTH . . .

CONTIN U A LLY E XP E R I E NC E D G R E A T P A I N , ) I FLED LA U R E . ( I FLED HER IN A MORAL SENSE. I OFTEN

FACED HER IN TERRO R , ALTHOUGH I WAS BY H E R S I D E U NTIL T H E V E R Y E N D; I COULD N EVER H A V E S E PTE M B E R 20.

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GIVEN

ANY

LESS

OF

MYSEL

BUT

AS

SHE

A PPROA C H E D THE T E R R I BL E E N D , I BEGAN TO TAKE . . . BUT NOW I S E N S E A N E W N E RVOUS CONDITION. FOR FOUR DAYS NOW IT H A S BEEN GETTING WORSE. THIS MOR N I NG I M A N A G E D TO ESCAPE IT SOMEHOW. THIS MORN I NG I FOU N D M Y SELF IN AN ANGELIC
. .

R E F U G E IN A SICKLY TORPOR, SOMETI M E S I DRANK, SOM ETI M E S I JUST WASN'T T H E R E . I [ . . . J

T H E N A T U R A L CONDITION OF S I M PLI C I TY IS ACTION. BUT IN ORDER TO ACT, ONE MUST FOLLOW A C R U E L I M PERATIVE TO IGNORE A LL

H A R MONY WITH

R E A LITY THAT WAS THE MOST

T H I S MORNI NG. I N T H I S ROOM THAT I M U ST SOON LEAVE, H E R E W H E R E E V E R YTH I NG WA S ACCO M

OF T H E

A PPARENT

CONTRADICTIONS. HOW CAN I POS S I B LY ACT I F THE I M PERATIVES WHICH CONTROL ME ARE LA U R E'S

PLISHED. A L L OF T H E S H UTTERS W E R E W I DE OPEN. T H E SKY WAS SLIG HTLY H AZY, BUT THERE WERE N O C LOUDS. A N D THE P L A N T S I N T H E W I N DOW H ARDLY

S U D D E N PA N I C A N D S U FF E R I N G AS W E LL AS THAT NIGHT OF PA I N FU L AND SOR ROWFUL C R I E S W H E N

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MY FATH E R A P P E A R E D B EFORE M E [ .

1.

WE C U R R E NTLY R ECOG N I ZE T H E TENCE ELUSIVE SACRED OF R ELIGION, IS

B U R N I N G E X I S MOST

P E R H A PS T H E

PRODUCT OF H U M A N INTERACTION. T H E IS NOTH I N G MORE T H A N A PRIVILEGED

S E PTEMBER 30. OCTOB E R

I,

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MOMENT OF U NITY I N COM M U N I O N . A CONVULSI V E MOMENT FULL OF W H A T I S NOR M A L LY SMOTH E R ED," I I M M E D I ATELY ADDED A NOTE IN THE MARGINS TO

A MONG

ALL

THE

PIECES

I'VE

W R I TT E N

FOR

C L E A R LY

I N D I C ATE,

AT

LEAST TO MYSE LF. TH E

PUBLICATION

I N A W I D E R A N G E O F P E RIODICALS.

M EA N I N G OF T H E S E LAST FEW L I N ES: "IDENTIFICA TION WITH LOVE."

O N LY ONE, E NTITLED THE SACRED A N D PUBLISHED IN C A H I E RS D'ART, P O RT R A Y S WITH ANY REAL

C L A R I TY THAT P A R T IC U L A R

RESOLUTION WHICH I WROTE THESE WORDS IN TH E M ARGINS, AS I OFTEN

MOTIVATES M E NOW. ALTHOUGH T H E P I E C E I S FAR BEH I N D ME NOW, ITS "CO M M U N ICATION" I S NO MORE C L U M S I LY DISTANCED OR U N EASY THAN I N MOST OF WHAT I HAVE P U B L I S H E D S I NCE. IN ANY C A S E, THE D EMONSTRATI VE SOM E OF SIDE OF THE TEXT D I D IT WAS REACH

DO WITH THE I NTENTION OF COM I N G BACK TO T H E M

,

LATER I N THE A RTICLE. I DI DN'T. I N ADDITION. I R E A D LAURE'S WRITING. M A N U S C R I PTS B E FO R E I CONTI N U E D

THOSE I

FOR

WHOM THAT

R E A LLY I REMEMBERED LOOKING U P AT TH I S MOMENT A N D SEEING A TH I N RAY OF I N C R E D I B LY BEAUTI FU L

INTENDED.

BELIEVE

THE

REMAINING

IGNORANCE A N D U N C E RTAINTY DOESNT MATTER, WE C A N NOT POSSI B LY L I M I T HOPE NOW. MEN WHOSE LIVES SEEM N ECESSA R I LY LIKE A LONG STORM

SUNLIGHT PLAYING OVER THE GOLD EN-RED LEAVES OF THE TREES A BOUT A H U N D R E D FEET FROM MY W I N DOW. I TRIED TO CONTI N U E WRITI NG. BUT I COULD BARELY MANAGE ANOTHE R TWO S E NTENCES. TH E N . THE MOMENT C A M E W H E N I WAS F I N A LLY ALLOWED TO SEE LA U R E AGA I N I N HER ROOM. AS I DREW N E A R

WHO C A N BE SAVED ONLY BY A BOLT OF LIGHT N I NG-WA IT FOR THA N SACRED. SOM ETH I N G NO LESS D E L I R IOUS

WHEN ABOUT.

R E A L LY IT

E S S E NTI A L C H A NG E BE ATTRI B UT E D

COM E S T O TH E

TO

HER.

I M M E DI ATELY

REALIZED

THAT

HER

S H O U L DN'T WORD. WHEN

CONDITION H A D WORS E N ED. I T R I E D SPEAKING TO HER, BUT SHE DID NOT RESPOND. SHE S PO K E

WRITTEN

S E NT E N C E S

I M P A RT A

M E A N I NG. IT IS ONLY BECAUSE THEY U N ITE SOME OTHE R THI NGS WHICH WERE PREVIOUSLY SEARCH I NG FOR EACH OTH E R. S E NTENCES THAT SCREAM CONTI N U A LLY D I E FROM TH E I R OWN OUTBU RST, WE M U ST ERASE WHAT HAS BEEN WRITTEN BY PLAC ING IT IN THE S H A DOW THIS OF TH E R EA L I TY IS WHICH IT

CONTI N U A LLY, A BSORBED WITH I N A VAST DELI R I U M . SHE NO LONGER SAW ME NOR R ECOGNIZED MY

PRESENCE. I U N D E R STOOD THAT IT W A S A L L OVE R . THAT I C O U L D N E V E R S P E A K TO H E R A G A I N . THAT THIS WAS HOW SHE WOULD DIE I N A FEW HOURS, THAT W E WOULD NEVER SPEAK TO EACH OTH E R AGAIN. T H E N U R S E W H I S P E R E D TO M E THAT I T W A S A L L OV ER. LONGER I BROKE OUT M E. INTO TEA RS: THE PITILESS SHE NO

EXPRESSES.

H O N E STY

N OW H E R E

MORE

PERTI N E N T THAT I N THAT PARTICU LA R A RTICLE.

U N D E R STOOD

WORLD

COLLAPSED ALL A ROUND ME. I WAS SO OVERCO M E [CROSSED OUT: I WROTE IT LAST YEA R, FROM A UGUST THROUGH NOV E M B E R, I AGREED TO T H A T I WAS U N A B L E T O KEEP H E R MOTH E R A N D SISTERS ROOM. FROM I NVADING T H E HOUSE A N D H E R

DO I T WITH

DUTHU I T, THE S P EC I A L E D I TOR OF T H E CAHIER D'ART ISSUE IN W H I C H I T WAS TO A PPEAR. I SHOULD ALSO MENTION ONE E S S E N TI A L D E TA I L

ABOUT

THE

SHE SUFFERED FOR FO UR DAYS. FOR FOU R DAYS. SHE R E M A I N E D A B S ENT, TALKING TO THI S OR TH AT PE RSON ACCOR D I N G TO SOME U N P R E D ICTA B L E

C I R C U M STANCES S U RROUN .

ESSENTIA LLY, I FEEL I M UST DESC R I B E ONE OF THE SITUATIONS S U R RO U N D I N G THE WRITING OF THE

W H I M . AT TIM ES. S H E G R E W TENSE O N LY TO QUICKLY R E LA P S E N OT H I N G . I N TO L E T H A RGY. SHE U N D E R STOOD HER PHRASES

ARTICLE. D U R I N G T H E LAST FEW DAYS PF L A U R E'S SICKNESS, D U R I NG THE A FTER NOON O F NOV E M B E R 2, I H A D COME T O TH E P A S S A G E I N T H E A RTICLE WHERE I WAS DESCR I B I NG T H E I D ENTITY OF THE WHICH WE ARE I A LW A Y S S E E K I N G AS

SOMETI MES.

B R I E F LY.

MADE SENSE: S H E WOULD A S K M E T O LOOK I N H E R BAG O R A MONG H E R PAPERS FOR SOMETHI N G THAT SHE URGE NTLY N E E D ED. I I SHOWED HER EVE RY

"G R A A L"

TH I N G T H E R E

BUT

COULDN'T

F I N D W H AT SH E

RELIGION'S GOA L

E N D E D WITH TH I S SENTENCE:

WANTED. FOR THE F I RST TIME, I CA M E ACROSS A S H E ET OF PAPER. BLANK EXCEPT FOR THE HEADING THE SACRED. W H I C H I SHOWED TO HER. I H A D THE

"CH RISTIANITY HAS SUBSTANTIALIZED T H E SACRED. BUT T H E EXACT NATURE OF T H E SACRED. IN WHICH

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FEELI NG S H E WOULD S P E A K TO ME AGAIN, A FTER SHE D I E D, ONCE I H A D THE O P PORTU N I TY TO R E A D T H E P A PERS S H E H A D LEFT B E H I N D. I KNOW THAT S H E HAD WRITTEN, BUT SHE HAD NEVER ASKED ME TO READ ANY O F IT. I N E V E R THOUGHT I WOULD FIND AMONG ALL OF HER A B A N DO N E D WORKS AN

TO

D E SC R I B E

C APTIVATING

I M AG E

THAT

J U ST

C A M E TO MY M I ND, AN I M A GE THAT ENCOMPASSES AN E N TI R E V I SION, AN IMAGE AT B E ST OF AN

ECSTATIC OUTBU R ST, OF A N " A N G E L," AS F A R AWAY A N D AS I M PE RC E PTIBLE A S A DOT ON TH E H O R I ZON, P I E RC I NG TH ROUGH THE CLOUDY T H I C K N ESS OF

A N S W E R TO PRECISELY THAT Q UESTION COWE R I N G I N M E L I K E A STA R V I N G A N I M A L.

THE N I GHT, BUT N E V E R A PP E A R I NG A S MORE THAN A STRA N G E LY INTERIOR GLOW, IT APPEARS LIKE

T H E U N FATHOMABLE VACI LLATIONS OF A STR E A K I STO P P E D LOOK I N G FOR WHAT SHE WANTED. "TI M E" WAS R E A DY TO "CUT H E R DOWN:" IT DID A N D I STOOD WATC H I N G WHAT WAS H A P P E N I NG, HEAVY WITH LIFE AND YET, POWERLESS TO U N D E RSTA N D ANYTH I N G M O R E THAN H E R D E A T H . I WON'T S A Y H O W S H E D I E D ALTHOUGH I F E E L M O S T " H O R R I B LY" TH E N E E D TO DESC R I B E IT. OCTOB ER 2, WHEN IT WAS A LL OVER, I FOU N D MYSELF S I FTING THROUGH HAD HER P A P E RS, FOR T H E R E A D I NG PAGES THAT F I RST TIME DURING I MAYBE THE ANGEL IS THE "MOV E M E NT OF THE WORLDS." OF L I G H TN I NG . THE ANGEL RAISES UP BEFORE

ITSELF A

LANCE O F CR YSTA L T H A T S H ATTERS I N

.

TH E S I L E N C E . " I .

.J

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NOTICED

THE

PERIOD J UST BEFORE

HER

DE ATH. W H E N I READ I LOVE HER NEITHER AS AN ANGEL NOR OF AS A

WHAT S H E HAD WRITTEN,

I E X P E R I ENCED ONE OF

THE MOST VIOLENT E MOTIONS OF MY LI FE. BUT I WAS NEVER THAN MORE WHEN I D E E PLY READ TH E NOR B R UTALLY LAST I AF FECTED OF A

R E C OG N I Z A B L E

D I V I N ITY:

THE

VISION

THE

S H A TT E R E D C RYSTAL F R E E S T H E SC REA M I NG LOVE W I TH I N M E THAT M A K E S M E WANT TO D I E .

THE

SENTENCE HAD

PASSAGE

ON

SACRED.

N EV E R

EX I K NOW THAT THIS D E S I R E T O D I E R E S I D E S ON T H E I M POSSIBLE E DG E S OF B E I NG, B U T I C A N S P E A K OF N OT H I N G E LS E S I N C E THAT I D I SCOV E R E D THOSE TWO LAU RE'S LIFE AND MINE C OF F I N . E X I ST

P R E S S E D TO H E R T H A T P A R A DOXICA L I D E A THAT TH E SACRED IS

COMMUNICATION.

MYSELF

DISCOV E R E D T H E NOTION O N LY ONCE I H A D PUT I T I N T O WORDS. A FEW M O M E NTS B E FORE I NOTIC E D THAT LAURE W A S ABOUT T O D I E . WITHOUT A DOUBT, NOT H I N G I HAD EVER S A I D TO HER CAME CLOSE TO EXPRESSI NG T H I S I D E A . THE WHOLE QU ESTION WAS

SENTENCES TH ROUGH

LINK

THE

E A RTH

COVER I N G

HER

MOREOVER,

THESE

V E RY

SENTENCES

N OW H E R E E LS E BUT A T TH I S V E R Y POINT.

50 I M PORTANT TO ME THAT I R E M E M B E R EXACTLY

HOW AND WHEN EVE RYTH I N G H A P P E N ED. WHATS LA U R E AND I OFTEN THOUGHT THAT THE WALL

MORE. WE A LMOST N E V E R C A R R IED ON "I NTELLEC TUAL CONVERSATIONS." ONCE SHE EVEN BLA M E D M E F O R NOT T A K I N G H E R S E R I O U SLY. T H E TRUTH I S , I DISDAINED THE I N EVITABLE I M PUDENCE OF

B E TW E E N

US WAS C R U M BLING, THE SAME WORDS

AND THE SAME DESIRES W E N T TH ROUGH O U R M I N D S AT THE SAME SHE TIME. OFTEN LAURE F E LT WAS IT AS R E P U LS E D A LOSS, A

BECAUSE

"I NTELLECTUAL CONVE RSATIONS."

N EGATION OF H E RSELF, I CA N'T R E M E M B E R A N Y OF T H E S E COI N C I D E NCES, BUT I DO K N OW THAT N O N E

FINA LLY, FO U N D

TOWA RDS

THE

BOTTOM OF THE S E NTENCES IN

PAGE,

OF T H E M E V E R H A D T H E EXTRAO R D I N A RY S I G N I F I C A N C E OF T H E S E T W O SENTENCES ON "CO M M U N I CATION."

THE

FOLLOWI N G

LAURE'S

SCRAWL:

"A POETIC WORK I S SACRED TO THE EXTENT THAT IT IS T H E C R EATION O F A TOPICAL EVE NT, 'COM M U N I CATION' E X P E R I E N C E D A S N U DITY. I T I S SELF-RAPE, D E N U D I NG, COM M U N ICATING TO OTH ERS A R E A SON TO LIVE, ITSE LF. " FOR THIS R E A SON TO LIVE 'DIS PLACES' WHAT I HAD W R I TTEN IN MY

FIND

IT

VERY

D I F F I C U LT

TO

EXPRESS

J U ST

EXACTLY WHAT THE P A R A LL E L PASSAGES M E A N . I F E E L OBLIGED TO TRY, BUT FI RST, I M UST DESC R I B E A L L O F T H E D I S P A RATE E L E M E NTS T H A T M A K E U P T H E I R M E A N I NG.

E X ACTLY

ARTICLE, SI NCE MY NOTION OF "UN ITY I N CO M M UN ION" FIGURES I M P L I C I TLY I N LAU RE'S IDEAS,

[CROSSED O UT: I W I L L DESC R I B E O N LY ONE MORE

THING TODAY: THE NEARLY S I M U LT A N E O U S

P U B L ICATION O F THE TWO TEXTS OBLIGES M E TO LET M E I NTE R R U PT TH I S N A R R A TIVE FOR A MOMENT SAY TO THOSE WHO S U F F E R FROM THE S A M E TH I RST

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A S L A U R E A N D I TH AT]

GRAVEDIGGERS. I W A L K E D A LONG A P ROTRU D I N G W A L L O F BRICK UNTIL I D I SCOV E R E D A M U STY PA N E

AT THE ONSET OF THE WAR W H E N I BEGAN WRITI NG, I WANTED TO B R I N G M Y S E L F TO TH I S POINT. THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY I C O U LD DO IT. A N D I KNEW IT FOR A LONG TI M E. I D EC I D E D TO DO W H A T I'M DOING NOW SEVERA L WEEKS B E FORE THE WA R BROKE OUT. BUT I HAVE N'T FI N I S H E D: I'VE H A RDLY BEGUN. FACED

OF

G L ASS,

COV E R E D

ON

THE

O U TS I D E

WITH

CENTURY OF D U ST. I F SOME V I S I O N OF DECAY OR WASTE H A D A PPEARED TO ME IN T H I S A BA NDON E D PLACE. I WOU LD HAVE TAKEN I T A S A N A CC U R A TE I MAGE OF MY OWN M I S FORTU N E. I W A S W A N D E R I NG A I M LESSLY. F E E L I NG THAT I MYSELF HAD BEEN

WITH WHAT I STI LL W A N T TO SAY, M Y "TONGUE IS TIED."

DESERTED. I WAS R E A DY T O W A I T A N I NF I N I TY FOR THE WORLD ME, OF MY DESOLATION BUT TO OPEN UP I

B E FO R E ON THE OTH E R HAND, W HAT'S H A P P E N I NG TO ME

S P LE N D I D

I N S U FF E RA B L E .

WAITED A N D I TREMB LED. WHAT I SAW TH ROUGH THE W I N DOW WHERE M Y W A N DERING H A D B ROUGHT M E W A S ON T H E CONTR A R Y TH E V E R Y I M AG E OF L I F E I N ITS MOST LUC I D WH I M S I ES. THERE, A FEW FEET

TODAY I S SO VERY I N E X P R E S S I B L E AND A S FO REIGN TO WHAT IS REA L A S A DREAM. W I THOUT ALMOST ANIMAL E M E RG E A USTER ITY, FROM THIS NOTH I NG FA I R Y AT OF MYSELF C A N

TA L E . T H I S F R AG I L E THE SIGN OF THE

AWAY. B E H I N D THE W I NDOW, WAS A C O L L ECTION OF BR IGHTLY COLO R E D , EXOTIC B I R D S. I COULDN'T

I LLUSION

DISAPPEARS

SLIGHTEST H E S ITATION, T H E SLIGHTEST B R E A K I N ATTENTI O N .

I M AG I N E A N YTH I NG MORE S W E E T B E H I N D THE D U ST. THE D E A D BRANCHES A N D THE U PTU R N E D STONES THAN THESE S I LENT B I RDS, FORGOTTEN BY THE I R MA STER WHO H A D LONG S I N C E D I S A P P E A R E D. IT

EXCEPT W H E N I W A S N E A R LA U R E , I HAVE N E V E R F E L T SUCH GE NTLE P U R I TY, SUCH S I LE N T S I M PLI CITY. A N D YET, T H I S TIME. I T I S ON LY A F L I C K E R I NG IN THE VOID AS IF A NOCTU R N A L BUTTERFLY,

WAS OBVIOUS THAT NOTH ING HAD B E E N TOUC H E D SI NCE S O M E LONG A G O DEATH. U N D E R T H E D UST, PAPERS WERE SPREAD A BOUT IN THE D E S K AS IF I N PREPA R ATION FOR A V I SIT. I NOTI C E D A PHOTO..

UNAWARE OF ITS E TH E R I A L B E A UTY, H A D COME TO REST ON THE H E A D OF A S L E E P I N G MAN.

GRAPH OF THE OWN E R NOT FA R FROM THE W I N DOW. HE HAD WHITE H A I R A N D A LOOK TH A T S E E M E D TO ME TO BE ONE OF GOODW I L L A N D A N G E L I C NOB I L I TY. HE WORE THE CLOTH E S OF THE M I DD L E C LASS, OR MORE EXACTLY, OF THE LEA R N E D C LA S S OF T H E

OCTOBER 3.

1 939

SECO N D E M P I RE.

IT

IS

B EC O M I N G

MORE

D I F F I C U LT

FOR

M E TO

AT TH IS MOME NT, FROM THE DEPTHS O F M Y MISERY. I NEVERTHELESS ABANDONED ME FELT AND THAT T H AT LAURE HER HAD NOT

CONTI N U E. I

M U S T B E E N T E R I N G T H A T "KI NGDOM"

WHERE EVEN THE K I NGS ARE AT A LOSS. AND NOT O N LY THAT: BUT FROM W I TH I N T H I S "KI NGDOM" I

INCREDIBLE

SOFTNESS CONTI N U E D TO COM E THROUGH TO M E DESPITE DEATH A S IT H A D EVEN W H E N S H E WAS EXTREM E LY ANGRY A N D VIOLENT TOWA RDS ME ( I C A N NOT REC A L L THOSE M O M E NTS W ITHOUT A

HAVE TO SPEAK W ITHOUT STUTTE R I NG.

IN FACT, I

HAVE TO F I N D WORDS W H I C H GO STRAIGHT TO THE H E A RT. T H E AWAY AS M I SS I O N I M UST FULFILL I S A S FAR

POSSI B LE

FROM THE OBSC U R E N E E D I

FEELING OF HORROR>'

FEEL TO LOSE M Y S E LF. I AM ENTE R I N G A DESERT OF TOTAL SOLITU D E WHOSE E M PTINESS L A U R E , NOW DEAD, ONLY M A G N I F I ES. OCTOBER 4. A BOUT A YEAR AGO, I FOU N D A R A Y OF M AGICAL SUN LIGHT ON THE T H R E S HOLD OF THAT DESERT. TODAY I S W I NTER. THE F I RST REAL D A Y OF AUTUMN OR 1 939

STRUGGLING TO P I E RC E TH ROUGH THE NOV E M B E R FOG, THROUGH THE THE R O TT E N U N D E RG R O W T H , THIS RAY OF

I T I S C O L D A N D G R A Y . A N D , I'M THROWN

BACK TO THE DESERT WORLD OF LAST FALL. ONCE AGAIN, I F E E L FROZEN AND NUMB . FAR FROM SHORE AND NO LESS A STR A N G E R TO MYSELF TH A N

THROUGH

UNREAL

R U I NS,

SUN LIGHT R E V E A L E D B E FO R E M E A N O L D P A N E O F GLASS IN THE W I N DO W OF AN A B A N DO N E D

A N YONE LOST A T SEA. ONCE A G A I N , I A M G R I P P E D BY A K I N D OF MONOTONOUS A N D A B S E N T ECSTASY. I CLENCH MY TEETH AS I DID LAST YEAR. S U D D E N LY. THE DISTANCE BETWE E N MY LIFE AND LAU RE'S

COTTAGE. A T T H I S M O M E N T, I F E LT ECSTATICA LLY LOST, AT THE DESOLATE EDGE OF E V E R YTH ING

H U M AN. I H A D J US T WA N D E R E D THROUGH A FOREST A FT E R HAVING L E FT LA U R E' S BODY TO THE

DEATH V A N ISHES.

141

W H E N I WALK TH ROUGH THE STRE ETS OF R H E I MS, I D I SCOVER ANEW A TRUTH THAT KEEPS ME FROM SLEEPI NG. THIS PEC U L I A R AND PAI N F U L CONTRAC TION OF MY ENTIRE LIFE THAT IS SO C LEARLY I S THE O N LY WAY I CAN LINKED TO LAURE'S DEATH A N D THE L I NGERING SADNESS OF A UTU M N "CRUCI FY" MYSELF.

HOLDI NG IT AS I F E X H A U STED, A N D SHE C R I E D OUT IN A V O I C E A L MO S T A BS E N T AND I N F I N ITELY PA I N F U L: "TH E ROSEl"' I THI N K TH ESE W E R E H E R LAST WORDS. T H E R E I N THAT OFFICE A N D LATE R THAT E V E N I NG, T H E U P L I FTED ROSE A N D THE C R Y R E M A I N E D I N M Y H EART F O R A LONG T I M E. P E R H A PS LA URE'S VOIC E WASN'T PAI N ED, PERHAPS IT WAS S I M PLY H EARTRENDING. I R E M E M B ERED WHAT I HAD FELT THAT M O R N I NG; " TA K E A FLOWER A N D LOOK AT IT UNTIL H A R MONY . . . " THAT WAS A VISION, AN I NT E R N A L V I S I O N M A I N T A I N E D B Y A S I L E N T L Y EXP E R I E NC E D N EE D. I T WASN'T A RANDOM THOUGHT [. 0 0 1 .

ON SEPTEMBER 2B, I WROTE: "I R EALIZE THAT IF I WANT TO OVERCOM E MY EROTIC HABITS, I M U ST I N VENT A NEW WAY OF C R UCIFYING M YSELF. IT MUST B E A S I NTOXICATING AS A LCOHOL." WHAT I NOW P E RC E I V E FRIGHTENS ME L. . l .

OCTOBE R 1 I , 1 9 3 9

OCTOBER 2 1 , 1 9 3 9

D U R I N G LA U R E ' S

LAST H O U R S , W H I L E

I WAS

I SENT A LETTE R TOD A Y B R E A K I N G OFF RELATIONS WITH SOME PEOPLE WHOM I SHOULD NEVER HAVE T R U S T E D TO B EG I N W I T H . TOO O FT E N . I H A V E SECO N D THOUGHTS ABOUT MY DECISIONS. [CROSSED OUT: O F T E N , I C R I T I C I Z E D L A U R E ' S VIOLENT C U R S I NG A LTHOUGH I BOR E I T WITH N O LITTLE PAI N, C LI N G I N G TO T H I S SUFFERING A S TO A CHANCE TO LIVE. NOW, K N OWING WHAT I HAVE LIVED THROUGH A N D WHAT I LOST LOVE, I REALIZE THAT I WOU L D H A V E WORN
r. 0 0 1

W A N D E R I N G A R O U N D O U R D I L A P I DA T E D Y A R D A M I DST T H E D E A D LEAVES A.ND WITHERED SHRUBS, I FOU N D ONE OF THE MOST BEA UTI FUL FLOWERS I H A V E EVER SEEN. IT WAS A ROSE, "THE COLOR OF A U T U M N :' BARELY OPENED. DESPITE MY FRAME OF M I ND. I PICKED IT A N D B ROUGHT IT TO LAURE. S H E WAS LOST WITHIN H E RSELF. LOST WITH I N AN I N D E F I N ITE DELI R I U M . BUT W H E N I G A V E H E R T H E R O S E . SHE C A M E O U T OF H E R STRANGE STATE LONG ENOUGH TO S M I LE AT M E AND SAY, "ITS BEAUTI F U L.'" T H I S WAS ONE OF HER LAST COHERENT SENTENCES. THEN, S H E B ROUGHT THE ROSE TO H E R L I P S A N D KISSED I T WITH A DELIRIOUS PASSION A S I F S H E W A N T E D TO H O L D I N EVERYTH I NG T H A T W A S ESCA PING HER. T H I S LASTED B UT A MOMENT; S H E FLUNG T H E ROSE L I K E A C H I LD THROWING DOWN ITS TOYS AND ONCE AGA I N , SHE WAS A STRANGER TO ALL WHO A PP ROACHED H E R, BREATH I NG CONVUL S I V E LY.

E V E R Y T H I NG W I T H O U T M Y

I N EXPLICABLE PATI E N C E. BUT THOSE WHO HAVE OUT MY P A T I E N C E H A V E C O M P L ET E LY DESTROY E D T H E R AP PORT THAT I HAVE WITH THEM.1

WHAT S U R ROUNDS ME NOW COULD A L L DISAPPEAR I N A FEW HOURS. AT L E A ST. I COULD BODI L Y LEAVE THIS DREAM PLACE. B U T A BEAUTI FUL NEED H A S BEEN I NS C R I B E D W I TH I N M E AS I T W A S W I TH I N LA U R E'S DESTI N Y, A N E E D TO MOVE A RO U N D I N A WOR L D F U L L OF S E C R E T M E A N I NG S , W H E R E I CANNOT LOOK AT A W I NDOW, A TREE OR A CABI N ET D O O R W I T H O U T A G R E A T D E A L OF A N G U I S H . N E I TH E R O F U S D I D A N YT H I NG (OR VERY LITTLE) TO

OCTOBER 1 2, 1 9 39

O RG A N I ZE T H E W O R L D A R O U N D O U R S E LV E S . IT S I M PLY A P P E A R E D I N PLACE AS THE FOG L I FTED LITTLE BY LITTLE. I T DEPENDED ON D I SASTE R NO MORE THAN IT D I D O N DREA MS. BEC A U S E A M A N W H O D E S I R E S BEAUTY F O R W H A T IT I S W I L L N E V E R E N T E R I NTO THE WORLD. I N SA NTlY, ASCETICISM, HATRED, A N G U I S H AND THE DOM I NATION OF FEAR A R E A LL N ECESSA RY; ONE M U ST HAVE SO M UC H LOV E T H A T E V E N O N I TS T H R E S H O L D , D E A T H A P P E A R S L U D I C R O U S . A W I N DO W , A T R E E , A CABI N ET DOOR A R E NOTHI N G I F THEY C A NNOT BEAR WITNESS TO MOVE M E NT A N D TO HEARTRENDING DESTR UCTION [ . . . 1 .

YESTER DAY,

IN THE OFFICE OF ONE OF M Y CO

WORK E R S, WHILE H E WAS ON THE TELEPHONE, I WAS O V E R C O M W I T H A N G U I S H . I M P E R C E PT I B LY , I R ETREATED WITH I N M YSELF, MY GAZE FIXED ON LA U R E'S D E A T H B E D (TH E O N E IN W H I C H I NOW SLEEP EVERY N I GHT!. LAURE A N D THE BED W E R E WITH I N MY H E A RT: I N FACT, M Y HEART WAS LAURE S T R E TC H E D OUT ON THE BED. WITHIN THE D A R K N ESS O F T H I S THORAC I C CAGE, LA URE D I E D J U ST AS SHE W A S L I FTING ONE OF A B U N C H O F ROSES SPREAD OUT BEFORE H ER. SHE WAS

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NOVE M B E R 7,

1 93 9

THE THOUGHT OF D E N I SE, ALIVE, POSSESSES M E ENTI R E LY. I N T H E M I DDLE OF A LL TH I S C H A OS, I A M

LA U R E DIED O N E YEA R A G O TODAY.

ALIVE,

I N EB RIATED MORE

BY

THIS

WEIGHTY THAN I

P U R I TY

OF

DENISE, I RECEIVED T H E FOLLOWI N G LETTER FROM M I C H E L LEI R I S LAST S U N DAY. HE HAS NEVER BEFORE

BEAUTIFUL

COULD

H AV E

EVER I M AG I N ED (BUT BEAUTIFUL, I T S E E M S TO M E , AS AN A N I M A L IS BEA UTIFUL). TO NOT LOVE D E N I S E T H I S W A Y , TO N O T F E E L THIS DEATH - L I K E U N EA S I NESS IN MY H E A RT WO U L D BE TO BETRAY

EXPRESSED H I M S E LF L I K E T H I S .

COLOMB-BECHAR. OCTOBER 2 9 . 1 9 3 9

EVERYT H I NG. I T I S A S I NCONC E I V A B L E A S A PLANT THAT H A S STOPPED B U D D I NG A N D G ROWING [

.

J.

D E A R GEORGES.

IN DECEM B E R OF 1 937, WE ASKED M A U R I C E H E I N E TO D R I V E U S T O T H E SPOT THAT S A D E H A D CHOSEN FOR HIS OWN B U R I A L. " H E SHALL B E SOWN OVER THE ACORNS . . . .. CON S U M E D BY OAK R OOTS.

HERE WE ARE. CLOSE TO THAT MOMENT OF THE YEAR WHEN WE CAN LOOK BACK AND CONSIDER. SOMETIMES WITH TERROR. ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED IN ONE YEAR

D I S I NTEGRATING TO NOTH I NGN ESS

IN T H E E A RTH

BEN EATH A THICKET O F BUSHES . . . IT WAS SNOWING

I DONT WANT TO I N SIST ON A N Y O N E THING (ANY

THAT DAY, A N D WE LOST OUR WAY I N T H E FOREST. THE WINO WAS SAVAGE. A FTER WE R ETU R N E D ,

INSISTENCE WOULD BE A SACRILEGE I N THIS CASE); RATHER. I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT SOMETIMES. WHEN I'M IN A MELANCHOLIC MOOD. I A U TOMATICALLY

LA U R E A N D I P R E P A R E D A D I N N E R FOR I V A NOV A N D o06IEVTSOVA. AS WE H A D EXPECTED, D I N N E R WAS NO LESS SAVAGE THAN THE WIND. ODdlEVTSOVA UNDRESSED AND BEGA N VOM ITI NG.

RETURN TO CERTAIN MEMORIES WHICH. EVERYTHING CONSIDERED. ARE MORE REASON TO HOPE THAN TO DESPAIR.

WHAT

U N ITES

US

WITH

J U ST A

FEW

I N D I V IDUALS

IN M A RC H OF

1 938, WE WENT BACK TO THE SAME

CANNOT BE THE EXTENT OF ALL H U MANLY VALUABLE THINGS. OF ALL THINGS CAPABLE OF SURVIVING ANY AND ALL VICISSITUDES.

SPOT WITH M I C H E L L E I R I S A N D ZETTE. HEINE D I DN'T

GO WITH US. ON T H I S OCCASION, AT E P E RON. L A U R E

S A W THE L A S T F I L M OF H E R LIFE. T H E O N E W A Y T R I P (A
1 9 32

F I L M BY TAY G A R N ETT) W H I C H S H E H A D

I'M

USING

RATHER

SOLEMN

LANGUAGE

H ERE-FAR

N E V E R SEEN BEFORE. SHE WALKED A LL D A Y A S I F DEATH W E R E N'T W E A R I NG HER AWAY, AND WE

FROM MY USUAL PRACTIC E-LANGUAGE WHICH MAKES ME A LITTLE ASHAMED, OUT OF MODESTY PERHAPS. OR OUT OF HUMAN RESPECT (SACRIFICING ONCE MORE MY MANIA TO REDUCE EVERYTHING!. I HOPE YOU WILL

A R R I VED I N B R O A D DAYLIGHT AT THE E D G E OF T H E P O N D SA D E H A D CHOSEN. TH E GERM A N S H A D J UST TA KEN V I E N N A AND THE A I R ALREADY SMELLED OF WAR. THAT EVENI NG, LA U R E THOUGHT A BO U T

FORGIVE M E AND UNDERSTAND DESPITIE M Y WORDS ALL THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO YOU AS

SPONTANEOUSLY AS AN EXPRESSION OF GRIEF OR A BURST OF LAUGHTER .

TA KING LEI R I S A N D ZETTE FOR A WA LK A LONG A PATH WE BOTH LIKED. W E WANTED TO I NVITE T H E M T O H A V E D I N N E R WITH US. B U T NO SOONER H A D W E

MICHEL

RETU RNED T H A N LA U R E B E G A N T O F E E L THE F I RST E F F ECTS OF THE I L L N ESS THAT E V E N T U A LLY

CAUSED HER DEATH. S H E HAD A H I G H FEVER AND

I. . . J

WENT

TO

BED,

UNAWARE

THAT

SHE

WO U L D

PROBABLY N E V E R GET U P AGA I N. AFTER S H E SAW I J U ST C A M E OUT OF THE H E LD E R THEATER WHERE I SAW WUTHERING H E I G H TS: H EA T H C L I F F L I V I NG WITH CATHY'S GHOST AS I WANTED TO LIVE WITH LA U R E'S G H OST. LAST S A T U R D A Y, IN LA V A I S S E NET, I I SADE'S "GRAVE," LAURE WENT OUT ONLY ONCE, AT THE E N D OF AUGUST, I TOOK H E R BY CAR TO OUR SAINT G E R MA I N HOUSE I N THE FOREST. S H E FELL ONCE, I N FRONT OF A T R E E TH AT H A D BEEN STRUCK BY LIGHTNI NG. ON THE WAY THERE, W E TRAVELLED OVER TH E MONTAI G U PLA I N S WHOSE H ILLS BUT AND NO

DREAMED

ABOUT

WUTH E R I N G

H E I G HTS,

EVEN

DREAMED ABOUT IT I N P E R EG R I N ATION

F E R LUC.

I S U PPOSE T H I S

F R O M H O U S E TO H O U S E I N T H E

FI ELDS

G REATLY

D ELIGHTED

LA U R E .

MOUNTA I N S W A S N E C E S S A R Y TO H E L P M E FORGET MY D I SLI KE FOR "CO M E D Y . " BUT THAT IS MY

SOONER HAD WE ENTERED THE FO REST THAN SHE SAW TWO DEAD
CROWS,
.

HANGING

FROM

THE

C U R R E N T E XPLA N ATION. A FTE R A LL, I'M B EG I N N I N G TO FEEL MORE A ND M O R E I G N O R ANT.

BRANCHES O F A T R E E I WOULD HAVE

WANTED

HIM

TO

A LW A Y S

ACCO M P A N Y M E I'VE STOPPED T H I N K I NG I N S I STE NTLY A BOUT LAURE. A N D PRECEDE M E .

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LIKE A KNIGHT A N D H I S H ERALD.

(TH E C RO W .

THI S F U R Y TOOK ME BY T H E HAND A N D LED ME I NTO H ELL.

F R O M T H E W R I T I N G S OF

LA URE) I HAVE J UST TOL D YOU A BOUT M Y LIFE: DEATH H A D W E WERE NOT FAR FROM THE HOUSE. I SAW THE TWO C ROWS A FEW DAYS LATER. W H E N I PASSED BY THE SA M E S POT. I TOLD H E R : SHE S H I V E R E D AND FOR THOSE WHOM I LOVE.
I

TAKEN T H E N A M E LAURE.

A M A PROVOCATION. I
T H E Y ONLY

CHOKED ON HER WORDS SO BADLY THAT I WAS F R IG H TE N E D. I B I R DS AS A U N D E R STOOD ONLY BUT BY THEN. AFTER H E R LA U R E WAS D E A T H THAT S H E H A D C O N S I D E R E D TH E D E A D SIGN. NOT H I NG MORE THAN A N INERT BODY. I H A D JUST LOOKED THROUGH H E R M A N U SC R I PTS A N D ONE OF THE FI RST I HAD READ WAS T H E C ROW.

CA N'T STA N D TO SEE THEM FORGET HOW M UC H GOOD FORT U N E T H E Y WOULD H A V E

WOU L D PLAY.
IF

LA U R E USED TO P LAY. I PLAYED WITH LA URE. NOW I CAN NO LONGE R REST B ECAUSE I WON. A LL I C A N DO I S P L A Y AGA I N . R E A N I MATE T H I S REALLY I NS A N E FATE . . .

LA U R E PLAYED A N D WON. LA U R E DIED. J U N E 3. 1 940 SOON. SAID LAURE. I'LL M I S S THE SUN. PA R I S WAS J U ST BOM B E D [C ROSSED
OUT:

AND
ON NI ETZSCH E

SOMEONE TOLD M E THAT A BOMB H A D FA LLEN ON T H E BOI LEAU STREET CLINIC WHERE LAURE HAD SPENT TWO MONTHS BEFORE OUR TRIP TO SA I N T G E R M A I N ON J U LY T U A LLY DIED. I 1 !s. 1 938. WHERE S H E EVEN DON'T K NOW I F A NYTH I N G WAS IN A LETTE R TO L E I R I S . L A U R E

CONCERNING T H E MANUSCRIPT T O APPEAR UNDER THE TITLE OF THE CULPRIT. WHICH I S MORE O R LESS THE
D I A R Y OF LAURE'S DEATH. BEGUN ON YEA R "LATE," I T S E E M S THAT A L L OF TH E FRAGMENTS WHICH M E NTION HER N A M E HAVE BEEN CROSSED OUT OR OMITTED.

D ESTROYED. WILL S A I NT G E R M A I N C R UMBLE TO THE G RO U N D. TOO? H E R S E L F W ROTE THAT TH E HOUSE W H I C H S H E D I S D A I N FU LLY C A L L E D "TH E N U N N E RY" WOU L D C E R TA I N L Y C O M E TO A D I S A ST R O U S E N D . I'M W R I TI NG T H I S NOW A S E V E RYTH I NG I S T E N D I NG TOWA RDS THE "SONOROUS. ABSURD A N D VIOLENT C H AOS" W O R LD]. SHE F O R E S A W AS T H E FATE O F T H E LET M E A D D : O N T H E TH R ESHOLD O F
.

LARGE

"X"
IN

OR

GAP

INTE R R U PTS

EACH

OF THE

PASSAGES ON H E R DEATH. THE SPACING OF THESE I N C I S IO N S THE N A R R A TI V E THE R E P R E S E NTS A

C E N T R A L LOC U S I N

R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N

BATAI LL E A N D LA U R E .

P . F.

G LORY. i FOUN D DEATH M A SQU E R A D ! N G ... 5 NUD!TY.

C O M PLETE

WITH

GARTERS

AND

BLACK S I LK GEORGES BATAILLE

TRANSLATED BY TOM G O RA

STOCKI NGS. WHOEVER M ET A N YTHI NG MORE HUMAN, WHOEVE R TOLERATED A MORE TERRIBLE FU RY? YET

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MY LATE GRANDMOTHER

THE C LOCK WAS STRI K I N G M I D N IG H T A S I ENTERED THE K I TC H E N WHERE M Y G R A N DMOTH E R WAS LYING.

OF A TWENTY-YEA R-OLD MAN FOR THIS OLD WOM A N W A S T H E V E R Y WATER OF L I FE. S P R I N G I N G FROM THE WELL THAT HAD GON E DRY I N HER MANY YEA R S

SWA R M

OF

DESIRES

F L E W T HROUGH

MY

MIND

BEFOR E. S U R E LY A L L S H E CO ULD EXPECT N O W WAS HER BODY'S SLOW D I S I NTEGRATION I N SOM E D A M P CRYPT FLESH. AS THE G N A W I N G WOR M S ASSA I LED HER

THAT I T R I E D T O D R I V E AWAY. B U T I T W A S A HA LF H E A RTED E FFORT AT B E ST. W A R M CONTRACTIONS G R I PPED M Y GUTS. S E N D I N G WAVES OF SWEET PA I N R I PPLI NG THROUGH M Y BODY.

SURELY. T H E R E FORE. ANY REJ ECTION OF ME. H E R THE S M E LL. ALL DAY LON G , THE D OO R OF M Y ROOM, HAD I WAFTED U N D E R THOUGHT I HAD GRAN DSON. WAS UTTE R L Y INCO M P R E H E N S I BLE.

A '4D

F I N A LLY G ROWN ACCUSTO M E :) TO IT. A N D THOUGH I D I D EVENTUA LLY TAKE P L E A S U R E TH E R E I N . I WAS FORCED TO HOLD M Y NOSE WHEN I F I RST C A M E THE SILK K E RC H I E F ON HER FACE A N D THE SHEET COV E R I N G HER BODY ONLY ADDED TO HOW I

CLOSE TO T H E FOOT OF T H E B E D .

R E M E M B E R E D H E R IN MY M I N D'S EYE: A J E A LOUSLY H I DDEN PH OTOG R A P H OF HER WITH HER DRESS.

SLOWLY. TH E I R

DEATH

A N D M E MO R Y B E G A N T O D I STI L L AS M Y B O D Y AVI DLY

DRENC H E D IN A SUDDEN SHOWER. C L I N G I N G TO H E R BODY, THE CLOTH WAS STI C K I N G TO HER SKIN.

H E ADY

FRAGRANCE

BREATHED I T IN. THE THOUGHT F L A S H E D TH ROUGH M Y M I N D THAT TH E OLD WOM A N . S U S PECTING THE DESIRES STI R R I N G W I T H I N ME. HAD T R I E D TO REPEL M Y BY S U R RO U N D I N G HERSELF WITH HER S M ELL. THE I D E A THAT S H E H A D T R I E D TO R ES I ST ME. EVEN FOR A N I N STANT. F I LLED ME WITH G REAT EXCITE M E N T, YET I COU L D NOT U NDERSTAND WHY SHE

FOLLOW I N G T H E CONTO U R S OF H E R BREA STS. F I R M AND PROUD. WITH TH E I R DARK N I PPLES ERECT

FROM T H E FRESH CARESS OF T H E RA I N ; THE WET FABRIC OUTLI N I NG T H E SOFT CONVEXITY OF H E R BELLY A N D N A V E L. THE S H A P E OF H E R P U B I S AS I T DISAPPEARED BETW E E N HER THIGHS. THOSE

THIGHS T H A T W E R E LONG A N D S L I M W I T H TH E I R M U SCLES J U ST B A R E L Y V I SI B L E U N DER THE S K I N .

WOULD T R Y T O R EJ ECT M E. S U R ELY T H E PASSION

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S U D D E N LY

THOUGHT

HEARD

FOOTS T E P S

WITH

THEIR

FINGERS

LOC K E D TOG E T H E R .

THEN

OUTSI DE. I COU L D DETECT T H E C R UNCH O F SHOES ON GRAVEL AND STO N E S . BUT I THE R U STLE OF

R A I S E H E R U P T O P U T H E R A R M S B E H I N D H E R BACK AND TIE TH E M . W H E N I LOW E R E D HER AGA I N . H E R N E W A N D I D A R E S A Y U NCOMFORTA BLE POSITION CAUSED A R MS - I THE BONES IN HER FINGERS OR HER

SOM E O N E ' S

C LOTH E S

COULD

NOT T E L L

WHETH E R T H E SOU N D C A M E FROM T H E ROAD O R THE COU RTYA R D I N FRONT OF T H E HOUSE. I W A S A LITTLE TREMULOUS BUT THE F E A R WAS IN KEEPING WITH T H E WARM P A I N GNAWING AT MY GUTS A N D T H E DA RK EXCITE M E NT T H A T SENT A SLIGHT Q U I V E R MY EVERY MOVEM E NT. THE SHUTTE R S

COULD

NOT T E L L WHICH-TO S N A P L I K E

DRY TWIGS. I WAS D I S P L E A S E D AT T H I S I N C I D E NT S I N C E I H A D NO W I S H TO C A U S E H E R A N Y PA I N .

THROUGH

H E R D R ESS H A D ROL L E D B A C K T O H E R K N E E S AS I WAS A TTA C H I N G H E R F EET. T H E R E B Y D I S P L A Y I N G H E R BLACK S I L K STOC K I NGS PULLED H A L F WAY U P HER L EGS. HER D R E S S W A S COM E LY. MADE OF

WERE C LOSED A N D THE WOODEN P A N E LS HAD B E E N DRAWN ACROSS T H E F R O N T DOOR W I N DOW. I W A S PROTECTED O N A L L S I D E S BUT AT TH E S A M E TI M E THE M YSTERIOUS H A P P E N I NGS O F T H E OUTS I D E ME: THE O N LY LINK I HAD

SOM E F I N E . SOFT FABRIC I COULD N O T I D E NTI FY. IT WAS VERY I N TR I C A T E L Y PLEATED A BO V E THE

WOR L D

D I SQU I ET E D

TON IGHT WITH THE EXT E R IO R W A S THE SOU N D O F FOOT S T E P S WHICH HAD TA K E N ON UNREAL

WA I ST: TH E FOLDS W E R E NA RROW A T T H E TOP. TH E N G R A D U A LLY BOR A D E N E D AND F LA R E D I NTO AN

PROPORTIONS I N M Y M I N D.

A M PL E S K I RT. V E R Y D A I NTY M A U V E PEARLS W E R E S E W N ON THE BODICE I N T H E S H A P E O F M A N Y FROM THE LOW CUT

THE STEPS SLOWLY MOVED AWAY.

PETA L L E D

ROSES

C U R L I NG

N E C K L I N E : M Y MOTH E R H A D THOUGHT I T TOO LOW I WENT QUICKLY TO TH E DOOR TO M A K E C E RTAI N IT WAS LOCKED. I SHOT HOME TH E TWO BOLTS MY FOR T H E OCCASION A N D H A D COV E R E D T H E B A R E S K I N W I T H A B L A C K S I LK SC A R F.

G R A N D MOTH E R H A D D E C I D E D T O I NSTALL A SHORT TIME AGO. AND NOW C O N F I D E N T THAT WE W E R E GOD. MY G R A ND MOTH E R WAS B E A UTI F U L. A N D I WAS PROUD S H E WAS M I N E . A LBEIT FOR ONE N IGHT ONLY.

SAFE F R O M A N Y I N TE R R U PTION I W E N T B A C K T O T H E BED.

IT WAS QUITE HIGH OFF THE FLOOR IN T H E STYLE OF OLDER BEDS SO THAT I HAD SOME DIFFICULTY I N FOLDI NG BACK T H E S H E ET TO TH E FOOT O F THE B E D A N D FOLLOW I N G T H E C R EASES. STI L L I NTACT. OF THE CLOTH. DAZZLI N G IN ITS WHITEN ESS. THAT HAD BEEN SPECIALLY BROUGHT OUT FOR THE OCCA S H E W A S N A K E D U N D E R T H E D R ESS. T H E Y HAD NOT GON E TO THE TROUBLE OF P U TTI N G ON HER

U N D E RCLOTH E S WH I C H . O N E M U ST A D M IT. WOULD HAVE BEEN Q U I T E U S ELESS.

SION. I LEFT T H E K E R C H I E F IN PLACE ON H E R FACE. W H E N A L L WAS SAID AND DON E. I REALLY D I D NOT WANT HER TO SEE M E : AND THEN TOO. TH E R E MAY HAVE BEEN HER A BUDDING S A D I STIC MY MY DESIRE TO BEFORE I U N DR E S S E D HER I C A UGHT MYSELF

U N C O N SC I O U S LY O PE N I NG MY F L Y A N D U NCOVER I NG MY PENIS. TH E COLD ROOM H A D CAUSED IT TO SHRINK AND D R A STICALLY. MY AND I T WAS A L L W I Z E N E D WERE H U RTI N G HAD IN

CAR ESS WHILE

AND

ASSUAGE N OT SEE

ACH I NG W A N T N E XT M OV E .

SHE

COULD

W R I N K LE D . TH E

TESTI C L E S OF I

NATU R A L LY I UNABLE TO

W A S QUITE AWA R E THAT S H E WAS R E A CT TO ALL THE CA RESSES I

SINCE BITTEN

M ET A L TH E M .

T E ETH BUT

THE

ZIPPER

I N TO

TOOK

PLEASURE

I NTEN D E D FOR H E R : N E VERTH E LESS I DECI DED TO ATT A C H HER S E C U R E LY . ON A SHELF THE IN TH E

I N C R EASI NG T H E PA I N B Y PRESSING DOWN O N M Y PENIS.

CU PBOA R D

SQUEEZED I

BETW E E N

F I R E PLACE T H E N C A M E T H E M O M E N T W H E N I D EC I D E D TO P U S H BACK T H E D RE S S C O M PLETELY.

A N D THE SINK

KNEW TH E R E WAS A M ETAL BOX

FULL O F STR I N G A N D CORD THAT S H E HAD SAVED TH ROUGH THE Y E A RS. I CHOSE SOME SECTIONS OF HEAVY TWI N E USED FOR BINDING SHEAVES

TH E R E WAS NO SOU N D OUTS I D E EXC E PT. FOR THE PAST FEW M I N UTES. THE CAT M EW I NG AT T H E DOOR . NOT U N D E RSTA N D I NG WHY HIS M I ST R E SS WOULD

BECA USE O F TH E I R I D E A L LENGTH A N D THE LOOP AT O N E E N D.

NOT LET HIM I N. I C E RTA I NL Y H A D N O I NTENTION OF IT WAS NOT D I F F I C U LT TO SPREAD H E R LEGS A N D ATTACH H E R FEET TO T H E B E D POSTS. IT WAS NO EASY TASK. HOWEVER. TO U N C L ENCH H E R H A N DS O P E N I NG TH E DOOR FOR HIM. A I HAVE A LW A Y S

LOATH E D TH E

C REATU R E .

H U G E TOMCAT W I T H

L O N G TAWNY F U R A N D B R IGHT. BALEFUL EYES T H A T

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COULD

STA R E

I NTO

YOU R

FACE

BY

THE

HOUR.

ENT

IN

THE

SPARSE.

WH ITE

FLEECE

ON

HER

FOLLOW I N G YOU R E V E R Y MOVE AND N E V E R LOS I N G EVEN FOR AN I N ST A N T TH E I R I MPLACABLE

GENITALS. A N D WHOSE

NATU R A L I NT R I C AC Y H A D

BECOM E E V E N M O R E COMPLEX S I N C E E V E RY I NC H OF H E R S K I N . SO K N E A D E D BY T I M E. W A S F U R ROWED TO THE B R E A K I NG PO I NT. ONCE SO PINK AND FRESH. H E R SKIN NOW WAS NOTH I NG BUT STRETC H E S OF

COLD NESS. H E W A S QUITE W I LD A N D N O O N E WENT N E A R HIM E XC E PT H I S OLD M I STRESS.

S U D D E N LY . AND WITH A VIOLENT MOVE M ENT THAT SURPRISED THUS ME. I P R E S S E D F I R M LY ON G R EA T THAN PAIN. USUAL WITH THE MY PENIS. OF MY

WRINKLES. DESICCATED A N D P U R P L I S H .

CAUSING PALER

T I PS

I W A S FASCINATED BY T H E FOLDS I N H E R A R M P ITS. THE GROIN. THE CLEFT BETW E E N THE B R E A STS. T H E I N S I D E OF THE T H I G H S . E V E R YW H E R E I N S U M THAT CONSTA NT MOVEMENT AND CONSTANT SWEATING

FINGERS.

BECAUSE RED

OF T H E

COLD. WERE

STA I N E D

TINY

DOTS: T H E

TE ETH OF THE Z I P P E R H A D B RO K E N THE S K I N ON M Y TESTICLES. F O R S O M E T I M E T H E R E A FTER I WAS NOT A W A R E OF THE N E A R-CONSTANT CONTRACTIONS OF M Y G UT. THE PA I N S E R V E D TO I G N I T E M O R E F I R E S U N D E R M Y P A S S I O N A N D D ROVE M E TO STR I P T H E DEAD WOM A N OF H E R MODESTY.

H A D W R I N KLED THE SKIN A N D F I N A LLY T A N N E D IT SO THAT IT H A D THE S U PPLE TEXTU R E OF OLD.

D A R K E N E D LEATH E R .

EVERYT H I N G H A D BY NOW R EC E D E D I NTO OBLIVION. EXCEPT T H E TWO OF US. NOTH I N G C O U L D COM E TO

PUSHED

BAC K

HER

DRESS

TO THE

A R M PITS.

TROU BLE THE T R A N Q U I LITY OF O U R E M B R ACES. SO FI LLED WITH BOTH. EACH OTH E R'S P R E S E N C E WERE WE

M A N A G E D TO DO S O BY L I FTI NG H E R A N D WOR K I N G THE D R E S S SLOWLY A N D P A I N FU LLY U PW A RDS. A N D EVEN THOUGH THE POS I T I O N OF HER HANDS

H I N D E R E D M E C O N S I D E R A B LY I H A D NO I NTENTION OF U NTYI N G T H E M . I F E LT M UC H SAFER KNOWING

NOTH I N G

WAS

OF

ANY

CON S E Q U E N C E A

TO

ME

EXCEPT H E R

BODY L Y I N G ON

B E D T H AT I WAS

THE BONDS WERE F I R M L Y I N PLACE.

AWARE OF ON LY B EC A U S E TH E HEMP CORDS WERE ATTA C H E D TO IT AND TO THE OBJECT WAS OF MY ANY

TICKLING

MY

PENIS

W I TH

ONE

HAND.

G E NTLY

OVE R R I D I NG

PASSION.

NOTH I N G

OF

CA RESSED

HER

BODY WITH T H E OTH E R . S E N D I N G

CONSEQ U E N C E T O H E R EXCEPT H E R LOV E R. D R U N K WITH DESI R E. A N D T O W H O M S H E WAS O F F E R I N G

S H I V E R S T H R O U G H M E FROM H E A D TO TOE.

H E R BODY WITH A LMOST U N R E A L P A S S I V I TY. H E R THE SPECTACLE B E FORE MY EYES WAS A FASCI NAT I NG ONE. G E N ITA LS OP E N I N G HER WIDE I N TO THE DE EPEST IN HER

R E C E S S E S OF

BODY. ACCEPTING

NAKEDNESS T H E H U M I LI ATION OF T H E R A VAGES OF HER SA LLOW S K I N WAS STRETC H E D OVER A FRA M E WHOSE SLIGHTEST DETA I LS W E R E A PP A R E NT. I WAS VERY CA UTIOUS W H E N EV E R I TOU C H E D HER LEST THE SKIN SPLIT WIDE A OPEN AND R E LEASE THE TI M E: ACCEPTING OF IN HER N A K E DN ESS THAT THE MY

H U M I LIATION

HER

BONDS

I N S U RED

COMPLETE ACC E S S I B I LITY T O H E R BODY.

J A G G E D E N D OF

BONE.

BUT M Y

DESIRES HAD

SOON

MY

H A N DS

HAD

EXHAUSTED

ALL

THE

BEEN R E P R E S S E D TOO L O N G A N D SOON M Y H A N D G R E W MORE DA R I NG. M Y C A R ES S E S M O R E EXPLICIT.

POS S I B I L I T I E S O F P L E A S U R E T H E Y C O U L D PRO CU RE.

HER WERE

B R E A STS. NOTH I N G

D A NG L I N G MORE

A C ROSS

HER

TORSO. BAGS

I WAS STI L L STA N D I N G B E S I D E TH E BED. A S THOUGH LOATH TO DEFILE LEANED BE LLY M Y M I STR ESS'S COUCH. WHEN I A N D TOUCH E D LEAVI NG HER A S A L LOW MARK I

NOW THAN TWO THIN

THAT THE YEA R S HAD E M PT I E D A N D D R I E D U P. ONLY THE DARK. N E A R LY BLACK ANY N I PPLES AT EACH THEY

FORWA R D MY

WITH

TONG U E .

WET

E X T R E M I TY G A V E

THEM

TH I C K N E SS.

T H E R E U PON.

THEN

GROWING

VERY

E XC I T E D .

LOOKED L I K E T W O D E F LATED B A L LOONS W I TH TH E I R VALVES C R ACKS. PITTED A N D STI PPLED WITH T I N Y BLAC K

PLACED MY H A N DS ON E I T H E R S I DE OF H E R TORSO AS I BEGAN LICKING EVERY I NC H O F H E R COLD

FLESH.

HER

G E N I TALS W E R E COV E R E D WITH L O N G G R E Y

MY

PL E A S U R E

WAS

I M M ENSE

AS

G R E E D I LY

H A I RS T H A T STRAGGL E D TH I N LY O V E R A W I D E A R E A OF HER BELLY. THE LABIA WERE AS DRY AS

SUCKED

I N T H E S E R E GLOBES O F H E R B R E A STS.

N I BBLING ON THE ROUGH N I PPLES. S A L I V ATING ON THEM. A N D ALL T H E WHILE I W A S AMAZED AT THE

EVERYTH I NG E L S E BUT W E R E D I ST I NCTLY APPAR-

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LACK OF REACTION. BOTH ON

H E R PART A N D ON

BEGAN

ACTING

THEN

AS

THOUGH

OUR

NIGHT

M I N E. DESP ITE T H E F R E N ZY TORTU RING THE TWO OF US A N D W H I C H WAS FLOODING P A I N F U L PELASU R E THROUG HOUT M Y PASSION-WRACKED BODY.

TOG ET H E R W E R E O U R L A ST O N E . ACTUA LLY I K N EW IT WAS INDEED THAT LAST BUT I M AG I N I N G THAT P R E L U D E TO I M AGI N I N G WAS

TH E S E OTH E R .

PEASURES MORE

WERE

BUT

THE

M A R V ELLOUS MY

N I G HTS;

BUT T H E DESI R E OOM I N ATING U S LIKE TWO A N I M ALS W A S SO I N TE N S E THAT IT I N H I BITED ANY SHOW O F PLEASURE. IT WAS FAR BEYOND A N YTH I N G AS

THAT

SOMEONE.

MOTH E R

P E R H A PS.

OVE R S E E I N G T H E S E D E LIGHTS A N D THAT ACCORD ING TO T H E M A STER'S W H I M THEY WERE G R A NTED FOR BUT ONE N I G HT O NLY. I FELT MY TH I RST FO R PLEA S U R E I NC R E A S E D A H U N D R E D FOLD.

C O M M O N AS A N E R ECT M E M B E R . A N E R ECT N I PPLE. OR A DAMP C ROTC H . WE L E FT THAT STAGE B E H I N D US WHEN ONE DAY. BARELY P U B E SC E NT. I

U N D R ES S E D IN FRONT OF H E R. STE A L I N G GLANCES TO S E E I F S H E SHOWED ANY I NT E R EST; O R THE DAY WHEN I ROSE EA R L I E R THAN SHE AND. T R E M B L I N G AT MY N E RVE. I L A Y I N WAIT FOR H E R T O D O H E R TO I L ETTE .

TH U S IT WAS I M PE R A T I V E I B E VERY ATTENTI V E TO EVERY DETA I L AND I G N O R E THE SCRU PLES W H I C H MIGHT BO N D S HAVE IN FOR B I D D E N MY USING THE HEMP OF

ORDER OUR

T O ATTA I N T H E VORACIOUS

MAXIMUM

PLE A S U R E PROV I D E .

SENSES

COULD

N O R W A S I CON V I N C E D T H A T B E YOND O U R PRESENT PLEASURE. BEYOND OUR P RESENT I N H IBITING S I M I L A R T O D R I E D. S H R I VELLED MOR ELS. AS H A R D A N D A S BLACK A S COAL W E R E T H E O U T E R F R I N G E S OF H E R L A B I A . WITH I N . H O W E V E R . THEY W E R E STI LL SOM E W H A T P L I A B L E SO THAT. A LONG WITH TH E I R BROW N I S H C A ST. T H E Y S UGGESTED T H E CONSIS

STATE W H I CH. AT T H E E X P E N S E O F T H E M E D I OC R E EX T E R N A L TRATING CENCE. SIGNS OF PLEASU R E A ( A LWAYS FRUS

BEC A U S E A LW A Y S

OF

C A STRATI NG

DETU M E S OF THE

DEGRADING

BECAUSE

CONC O M I TANT POLLUTIO N S ) . WAS C U RTA I LI NG T H E VO L U PTUOUS WA S NOT E N J OY M E NT OF THIS N I GHT.-TH E R E S O R T OF AND PL E A S U R E . WERE NEAR BUT

TENCY A N D A P P E A R A N C E OF OLD LEATH ER.

A N OT H E R ONE.

I R A N MY FINGERS T H R O U G H HER P U B I C HAIRS AND PINCHED T H E S K I N TOGETH E R IN O R D E R TO OPEN HER VAGI N A TO MY G R E E DY. S U C K I N G MOUTH . AND TH E N I DARTED M Y T O N G U E R E P E ATEDLY I NTO THE CONVOLUTIONS OF HER FLESH.

M A D N E S S TH I S

WHICH.

WE

C A P A B L E OF ATTA I N I N G IT. WOULD I N DU C E US TO E X P E R I E NCE T H E MOST VIOLENT AND U NCONTROL LA B L E O F P L E A S U R E S : E XPLOS IONS OF SKIN A N D FLESH: MOUTH. EXTRA- A N A L TH E D E F EC A T I O N S ORGANS OR (FROM TH E

SEXUAL

A N OTH E R BODY); I STRETC H E D HER S K I N . EVEN R U N N I NG THE RISK OF TEA R I NG IT. I N S E A R C H OF HER CLITOR I S BUT TO NO AVA I L. I W A N T E D TO PLAY MY TO N G U E AROU ND IT BUT H E R S K I N WAS S O W I Z E N E D A N D F U R ROWED

OPENING

MADE

SOMEWH ERE

IN

THE

E V I S C E R ATION ( FOLLOWE D B Y A DISCHARGE O F T H E I N T E R N A L O R G A N S OR T H E E J A C U LATION OF T H E

BOW E L S ) :

BONES THR USTING THROUGH

DRY

F I S S U R E S I N T H E S K I N ; WHITE DISCHARGES FROM THE BRAIN; VERY IN DARK URINE CARRYING J E LLY

THAT IT WAS NOT D I SC E R N I BL E . MOREOVER. I COULD NOT T H R UST M Y TONG U E PAST TH E O P E N I N G OF HER V U LV A . SO N A R ROW HAD IT BECO M E .

L I K E S EEDS L I Q U E FY I NG

ITS FLOW; TH E ORGA NS OF S I G H T D I S C H A R G I N G TH E I R V I T R E O U S

AND

S U BSTA NCE ON E A C H T E M PL E ; D I S S ECTION OF T H E G E N ITALS: E M A SC U LATION; B L OO D VOM ITI NG FROM T H E A N US. T H E VAGI N A . TH E N A VEL; SUDDEN A N D U NCONTROLLA BLE A D I POSE E R P U T I O N S O F B R OW N I S H . S C A TTE R I NG OF F I LTH

SLOWLY.

AS

WET H E R

BODY W I T H MY S A L I V A . I

THOUGHT H E R F L E S H W A S G R A D U A L LY BECOM I N G SOFT E R A N D M O R E R E S I LI E NT A N D MY M O U T H . L I K E A SUCTION C U P. STUCK AND SUCKED I NTO AND

G R OW T H S ; T H E

S A L I V ATED A S M Y TON G U E

DARTED

EVERY

BOTH I N S I D E AND OUTS I DE THE BODY. ETC.

C R E V I C E . E XPLOR E D E V E R Y N O O K OF S K I N . L I C K E D G R E E D I LY ; T E V E R Y I NC H OF H E R I C Y G E N I TA LS.

IT WAS NOT THAT I F E A R E D A D I S ASTROUS OUTCOM E TO O U R RELATIONS; I S I M PLY W A NTED TO PROLONG TH E M A S LONG AS POS S I B L E . B EYO N D ALL H U M A N BOU N D A R I ES. B U T I N PARTI C U L A R I W A S INTENT O N EXTRACTING EVERY L A ST D ROP OF PLEASU R E AS I WAS C A R ES S I N G HER, I UNDID MY WARM

C O R D U ROY T R O U S E R S A N D DROPPED T H E M ON T H E FLOOR. I POPPED E A C H BUTTON O F F M Y S H I RT. O N E BY O N E. I WAS N A K E D I N A F E W M O M E NTS. THEN

FROM T H E M . O N ENJOY I NG T H E M TO THE F U L LEST AND B U I LD I N G TO A G R A D U A L C L I M A X. SAVO R I N G

KICKED M Y C LOTH E S A W A Y FROM T H E BED.

E V E R Y LAST ATOM OF D E L I G H T AS I D I D SO.

I B E G A N S H I V E R I N G I N T H E COLD ROOM. I LAY OOWN

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B E S I D E H E R . S H E TOO WAS COLD. A N D I H EL D H E R C LOSE T O M E T O G I V E H E R M Y WARMTH.

COULD L I C K H E R G E N ITALS AGA I N A N D THE BLACK C R A N N I E S BETW E E N HER THIGHS. DART M Y TON G U E I N TO H E R N A V E L. LA P AT THE S I D E S OF H E R FLAT.

SOON I WAS STRETC H I NG OUT M Y LONG. TH I N BODY OV E R H E RS. C A R E F U L NOT TO PRESS DOWN TOO HARD LEST I H U RT H E R AND MAKE HER FRA I L

H A R D B E LLY. N I BBLE LOVI NGLY AT H E R N I PPLES I N A R U S H OF SA L I V A . S U C K A T H E R A R M PITS I N T H E HOPE OF F I N D I N G A TRACE O F H E R SWEAT.

BON ES C R ACK.

MY P E N I S WAS LI M P. A N D AT EVERY THRUST OF M Y LOI N S I T TWISTED A N D TU R N E D L I K E A LARGE WO R M ON THE W R I N K LED PARCH M E NT O F H E R B E LLY. M Y L O N G . DANGLI NG TESTIC LES STRUCK AGA I N ST H E R PUBLIS. R U F FLING T H E STR I NG Y GREY H A I R S I N H E R TH I N FLEECE. I T H A P P E N E D SO S U D D E N LY T H A T F O R A M O M E N T I MY FACE WAS P R ESSED A G A I NST HERS AND I DID NOT R E A CT. HER SKIN HAD OPENED LIKE A E V E RYTH I N G TIO N A L C H A NG E D WHEN I. W I TH U N I NTEN WIDE HER

B R U TA L I TY .

WAS

SPREADING

L A B I A . WITHOUT W A R N I NG. THROUGH H E R PUBLIC H A I RS. I SAW A S P L I T RUN A LONG HER S K I N .

COULD

F E E L THE

S H A R P EDGES OF H E R BONES

C R A C K IN A GLASS. T H E P U B I S H A D A F U R ROW AT LEAST FOU R I N C H E S IN L E NGTH; T H E WOU N D WAS P U R P L I S H A N D O D D LY D R Y AS THOUGH HER BLOOD HAD EVAPORATED I N DEATH. MY EYES R E M A I N E D

GOU G I NG M Y CHEEKS THORUGH THE S I LK K E R C H I EF. HAD I R E MOVED IT. I KNEW MY I WOULD F E E L H E R I S E N S ED.

BR EATH

M I NGLING

WITH

PANTI NG;

U N DER T H E TH I N CLOTH. THAT HER FACE WAS LIKE M I NE. BATHED IN SWEAT AND FLUS H E D WITH

R I V ETED U PO N H E R TO R N P U B I S F O R A LONG T I M E ; T H E S L I T H A D EXTE N D E D T H E CLEFT I N H E R LA B I A TO FREAKISH I NCAPABLE PROPO RTIONS. I W A S SPEECHLESS. MO V E M ENT AND OVERCOME AND BY

PASSION AND PLEASURE.

OF

A LTHOUGH MY BODY WAS M O R E MA LLEABLE. MORE FLEXIBLE ANGULAR THAN HERS AND N ICELY MOLDED THE BODY. I WAS V E R Y

SUCCESSIVE CAUSED BY

BOUTS O F THAT

DISBELIEF

T E R RO R THOSE

FISSURED

FLESH.

CONTOURS OF

HER

O V E R S I Z E G E N I TA L I A WHOSE D I M ENSIONS M A D E M Y PENIS. S H R I VE L L E D A N D BLUE WITH C O L D . LOOK

CONSCIOUS O F H E R CO M P L ETE DOM I NATION O V E R M E W H I C H SHE ACCOM PLI S H E D BY THE COLDNESS AND THE D E C E PT I V E R I G I D I TY OF HER BODY.

L I K E A M E R E WA RT.

D E S PITE H E R B O N D S AND H E R I N FERIOR POSITION.

I FOU N D I T D I F F I C U LT AT THE T I M E TO B E L I E V E H E R E N L A R G E D C L E FT COULD G I V E O F F S U C H A FOUL

H E R ONLY RESPONSE TO EACH OF M Y MOV E M E NTS. TO EACH R H YTH M I C CONTACT OF MY BODY WITH

ODOU R.

BUT G R A DU A LLY I

REA LIZED T H E S M E L L

THAT H A D A P P A L L E D M E SO MUCH AT FI RST ROSE FROM H E R R E E K I NG COR PSE.

H E R S. TO EACH V I B RATION OF MY L I M BS. WAS T H E I R R I TAT I N G AND INCESSANT CRACKLE OF HER

BO N ES. Y E T I HAD NOTH I N G BUT T E N D E R N E S S FOR H E R . A N D FOR THE TWO OF US NOTHING BUT THE DESIRE FOR BOU N D LESS PLEASURE. EACH ONE OF MY MOV E M E NTS WAS PLA N N E D SO THAT A LL MY

OUR PACT WAS NOW BROKEN. IT H A D BEEN S E A L E D W I TH OUR F I R ST KISSES AND WAS TO HAVE

T R A N S PORTED BOTH O F U S TO THE H I G H EST PEAKS OF P L E A S U R E .

C A R ESSES. THE MOVEMENTS O F M Y BODY ON H E R BODY. WOULD BE SUFFUSED WITH I N FI N ITE S U D D E N L Y T H E SIGHT O F H E R R U I N ED G E N ITALS U N H I NG E D M E COM PLETELY AND I BEGAN P U N C H I N G H E R B E LLY. EACH B L O W M A D E H E R DOUBLE U P AS I K N E LT BETW E E N HER OPEN LEGS SO I MIGHT THOUGH TO PROTECT H E RSELF OR TO CATCH H E R BREATH. B U T H E R E F FO RTS W E R E V A I N . H E R H A N DS K E PT S N A P P I NG B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D T H E WHOLE K I TC H E N R E V E R B E R ATED WITH MY M U FFLED

G E NTLENESS.

CONTE M P LATE H E R VAG I N A A G A I N . M Y DESIRE WAS F A N N E D ANEW AT THE WAY S H E OFFERED H E RSELF SO I M MODESTLY.

D R U M M I N G ON H E R B E LLY. I LOW E R E D MY HEAD AND BRUSHED MY H A LF MY DESPAI R C A U S E D B Y THE GROTE SQUE F I N I S H TO SO M UC H P L EA S U R E PROMISED TH E N WITH DRAWN; M Y RAGE CAUSED BY T H E COMPLACENT PASSIVITY S H E S HOWED A FT E R T H E DISASTER. R E L E A S E D A

C LOSED MOUTH AGAI NST H E R B E LLY AND B R EASTS. THEN PUSHED ASIDE THE BLACK SILK SCARF

M ASKING H E R TH ROAT SO I M IGHT K I SS H E R NECK AND SUCK AT ITS W R I N K LES. I TURNED AROUND SO I

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F E R A L VIOLENCE THAT K E PT M E.

FOR ONE

LONG

OUTRAGE D I R ECTED AT ME OR H E R ? WAS I T R E A L L Y MY G R A N DMOT H E R I WAS P U NC H I NG A N D K I C K I N G S O ATROC IOUSLY?

HOUR. H A M M E R I N G E V E R Y I N C H OF H E R BODY.

I WAS RACKED BY SPASMS O F U N E A RTHLY RAGE; I R E LEASED A LL TH E C R U E LTY I COU LD M U STER. TH I N K SHE S U F F E R E D A G R EAT D E A L. SHE R E M A I N E D A S I NSENSIITIVE A S TH E BED THAT SUFFERED O U R FERINE TH RA S H I N GS.

BUT H E R P A I N C A U S E D NO SHOUT. NO GESTURE OF SELF-DEFENCE. E V E N H E R EYES R E M A I N E D M UTE. NO SIGN OF A PPROVA L. N O SIGN O F R E PROACH.

NOT A S I N G L E TEAR. NOT A S I NGLE TEA R OF B LOOD.

HER WOU N DS W E R E RAPI DLY TU R N I NG PURPLE O R YELLOW L I K E H E R S K I N . WITH N O T A S I N G L E R U B Y

AT TIMES I T WAS NOT H A R D TO B E L I EVE SHE WAS DEAD.

T E A R W I N K I NG I N THE LESIONS. N O SCA R LET TEA R TO COMFORT M E .

SHE

N EV E R

ONCE

SHUDDERED.

NOR

DID

HER I SPA R E D N O P A R T OF H E R BODY; H E R B R E A STS. HER A R M PITS. HER MONSTROUSLY GAPI N G L A B I A .

MOUTH GAPE A N Y W I D E R T H A N B E FO R E . H E R HA LF CLOS ED EYELIDS R E M A I N E D THAT W A Y . H E R EYES W E R E FOCU S E D U N B L I N K I NG LY ON W H ATEV E R WAS B E FORE T H E M . A N D AT T I M E S H E R E M PTY GAZE M ET M I N E.

H E R LEATH E R N B E L LY. H E R N E C K WERE A L L D U LY RI PPED A N D TOR N . BUT STI LL I KEPT ON. E V E R M O R E I NTEN S E LY . EVER MORE FEROCIOUSLY .

H E R L I PS N E V E R Q U I V E R E D. NO T E A R ZIGZAGGED DOWN THE W R I N K L E OF HER W A X E N FACE.

AS LONG A S I STI L L H A D A N U N B ROKEN F I N G E R N A I L I SLIT O P E N HER FLESH IN LON G . I R R E PA RA B L E

WOUNDS. UNDER TYI N G MY HER R EPEATED BLOWS. THE H E M P BONDS STRETC H E D H E R S K I N . I N VARIOUS PLACES. C A M E AWAY BY T H E H A NDFU L A N D C U RLED U P I N T O WITH E R E D ROLLS.

FEET TO THE

B E D POSTS POI NT. SERE

N E A R LY TO T H E SKIN FROM H E R AWAY

B R EA K I NG A N KLES IN

GOUGI N G T H E S H E ETS THAT

ROLLED

FROM TH E

FLESH HER

L I K E STR I PS OF W A ST E D BODY

A N D NOT ONCE DID SHE CRY OUTI

Y E L LO W E D

PA R C H M E N T.

TWISTED A N D T U R N E D I N

VIOLENT CONTORTIONS

MY ACTIONS HAD BY NOW S U R PASSED EVERYTH I N G THAT M A D N ESS C A N D ICTATE. BUT IT W A S T H E N

THAT MADE H E R L I M BS S N A P L I K E K I N DL I NG AS I P U M M ELLED H E R BATTE R E D BODY. K N OC K E D H E R F R O M SIDE T O S I D E A S F A R A S H E R M E RC I LESS FETTERS WOULD A L LOW. AND PUNCHED HER SO

THAT I W R E N C H E D O P E N H E R MOUTH. DISLOCATI N G TH E F R A I L B O N E S O F H E R JAW. A N D S L I P P E D I N M Y PENIS. A T I N Y WORM B L U E WITH COLD.

H A R D SHE K E PT OOU BLI NG UP L I K E A J A C K K N I F E AT EVERY S M A S H OF MY F I STS. AND I BEGAN PISSI NG.

SHE

SEEMED

NOT TO

BE T H E R E . AN OLD

IT

S E E M E D AS

PISSED

I NTO

THE

DEE PEST

REACHES

OF

HER

THOUGH

I WAS POU N D I NG

ROTTEN TREE

TH ROAT.

A N D WITH THE

S I N G LE M I N D E D N E S S O F

TRU N K WHOSE O N LY R EACTION WAS SPLITS I N ITS BARK.

RAGING D E S I R E I M O V E D I N AND OUT O F H E R MOUTH IN SAVAGE I M ITATION OF T H E ACT I HAD BEEN

DENIED. A N D Y E T I H A D PUT H E R T H R O U G H SO M U C H I THOSE LONG MOMENTS O F M A D N E S S F U L L OF F U R Y AND H O RROR UNTI L TH E CRUEL CRAVING O F M Y H A N DS WAS SATED. A N D T H E T R E M B L I NG OF MY FI NGERS HAD ABATED. BUT ONLY A FT E R THEIR N A I LS. A S MY U R I N E S P U RTED OVER H E R FACE IT G L U E D H E R H A I R T O H E R S K U L L A N D FOR M ED A WET H A LO UPON THE STI LL I M MACU LATE S H E ETS.

STI FFENED B Y T H E COLD. H A D F I N I S H E D TEA RING H E R I NDI FFERENT BODY I NTO H I DEOUS SH REDS OF S K I N A N D FLESH. AND I K E PT ON OF PAI N P I S S I N G . C R EATI N G ON HER C H E E KS. A RT I F I C I A L C R E AT I N G

TEARS

ARTIFIC I A L BLOOD TO R E PLACE THE BLOOD S H E D I D M Y RAGE R E A C H E D S U C H B E R S E R K H E IGHTS THAT AT TI M ES I NO LONG E R KNEW ITS OBJ ECT; WAS THE NOT HAVE. T H E BLOOD S H E D I D NOT WANT TO G I V E ME.

1 15 1

S U D D E N L.Y. REPUDIATING A L.L. DECAY. AL.L. THOSE WASTED STRIPS OF S K I N . FL.ESH AND MY OWN PISS WITH ITS SMEL.L. NOW M I N G L. I N G WITH HER DEAD

DI STU R B E D .

ANONYMOUS A U THOR TRAN SLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE

S M E L.L.. I FEL.L. I NTO A DEEP S L. E E P THAT NO D R E A M

23. T H E G A L L. E R Y MONTPE N S I E R .

24. R. S E E N F R O M R E A R W A L. K I N G UP THE G A L L E R Y U N D E R A RC A D ES.

25. FADE O U T -SO U N D OF R:S STEPS U N D E R THE ARCADES.

26. STEPS OF THE COR P U L E N T MAN.

27. THE CLOCK ON T H E SQU A R E OF TH E T H EATRE FRANC A I S M A R K I NG 15 P.M.

28

THE COLO N N A D E OF THE GA LLERY: R. SLIGHTLY D I S H EVELLED. A PP E A RS. W A L K I N G A S TH ROUGH NOT S U R E OF H E R STEPS. STOPS TH EN CROSSES THE SQU A R E.

28 BIS.

TH E FOUNTA I N S ON T H E SQU A R E.

28 TER.

THE TERRACE OF T H E REGENCY CAFE WHERE R. I S SEATED AT A TABLE.

29. T H E WAITER MOVES TOW A R D R.-WIPES THE TABLE.

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T H E PA R A L L E L B A R S
EXTE R I O R PA R I S DAYLIGHT GYM N A S I U M I N T E R IOR DAYLIG HT. N E A R B Y S H E H A S L E FT THE TEA THAT HAS B E E N BROUGHT T O H E R A N D H E R BAG. S H E LOOKS AT T H E FOUNTA I N S ON THE SQU A R E AND STROK ES HER

W R I STS, I N S E RT I N G H E R F I NG E RS U N D E R THE L A C E OF H E R GLOV ES. THE GARDENS OF TH E PA L A I S-ROY A L AND ITS

FOUNTA I N S PLAYI NG. ROBERTES . VOICE I S H E A R D O F F STAGE. ROB E RTE (VO I C E OFF): A FT E R A LL. WHAT H A V E I GOT ROBE RTE (VO( C E OFF) : THAT OCTAVE SHOULD H A V E T H E I N CONC E I V A B L E A R ROGA N C E T O I M A G I N E H E I S T H E A U THOR OF MY I M PROP R I E T I E S IS O N E TH I NG . . . . BUT A S TO B E L I E V I N G H I M S E L F THE ORIGIN ATOR OF MY T E M P E R A M E NT, THE POOR DEAR DOESN'T KNOW WHAT I'M CAPABLE OF WITHOUT H I M . THE I S I T POSSIBLE A WOM A N S E E K S TO EXPE R I E N C E A V IOLENT S E N S E OF S H A M E J U ST BECA U S E S H E'S RESPECTABLE? I REMEMBER I WAS ASHAMED W A I T E R : A R E YO,-' A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . . . WAITER. CONC E R N E D BY HIS C Ll ENrs ODD A G A ( N ST THOSE TWO M E N ? IF TH E Y FOU N D SOM E WRETC H E D PL E A S U R E . . . Irs NOW THE PLE A S U R E BEG I N S F O R M E .

B E H A V I O U R , C O M E S OVERo T O H E R .

W A S M Y PLEA S U R E A N Y THE L E S S FOR THAT? ROBE RTE S M I LES TABLE. ROB E R T E . ST A N D I N G IN THE SUN, HER BACK S H E TA K E S A POCK E T M I R ROR FROM H E R BAG AND LOOKS A T H E RS E LF. TURNS AWAY WITHOUT S E E I NG HIM,

D R E A M I LY

A N D R ETU R N S TO SIT AT H E R

AGAI N ST T H E COLON N A D E O F T H E PA LAI S-ROYAL. I N FRONT OF THE CAFE LE N E M OURS, ON A TABLE

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BACK

V I E W OF ROBERTE ON T H E PLATFORM OF A

B E H I N D H E R C A N BE H E A R D TH E FOOTSTEPS OF T H E MOLLUSK. WHO H A S FOLLOWED H E R . H E CATC H ES U P WITH H E R . WALKS B E S I D E H E R FOR A M O M E NT. THEN PASSES HER AND GOES OSTE N S I BLY

BUS: S H E WATC H E S T H E PASS I N G SC E N E AS T H E B U S TRAVELS F RO M TH E C H A M B E R OF DEPUTI ES

V I A THE PONT ROYA L TOWA R D T H E LOU V R E .

THROUGH A DARK PORCHWAY. S H E P L A C E S H E R GLOV E D H A N D ON T H E R A I L. AS A MASSIVE INDIVIDUAL TAKES UP HIS POS I T I O N ROBERTE CONTI N U E S SHE HER W I N DOW-S H O P P I NG. PORCHWA Y T H E

BESIDE HER.

THEN. W H E N

REACHES THE

HA LF-OPEN DOOR I S S U C H A B U RN I NG I N V I TATION SHE C A N NOT R ESIST O P E N I N G IT. CASUA LLY. AS ROBE RTE. LOST IN REVERIE. SHE FINDS H ERSELF IN A DELAPI DATED AND

WATC H E S TH E R I V E R A N D THE T R E E S G O BY. T H E I N DI V I DUAL. WHOSE H E AVY B O D Y A N D FACE A R E

R E M I N I SCENT O F A MOLLUSK. S L I D E S H I S FINGERS I M PERCEPTIBLY H A N D. TOW A R D ROBE RTE'S ABA NDON E D

GLOOM Y HA LL. RISKS A STEP I N TO T H E D A R K N ESS. WHEN THE DOOR BANGS LOU D L Y BEHIND OF HER. THE

BARRED

BY THE

I M POSI NG

S I LHOU ETTE

MOLLUSK.

HE TOUC H E S H E R F I N G E R S : ROBERTE WITHDRAWS HER HAND.

B E FORE

SHE

HAS

TIME

TO CRY

OUT

DOOR

IN

FRONT OF HER I S OPE N E D BY A N I N T E RLOPER WHO BARS THE ACCESS. S H E RECOG N I Z E S T H E SQUAT

TH E N . U N A BLE TO R E S I ST. T H E MOLLUSK DELIBER ATELY PUTS HIS F I N G E R S ON THOSE OF ROBERTE.

M A N OF T H E A M E R I C A N C A R.

ROBERTE R U N S TOWARD THE STA I RC A S E . CAUGHT I N D I G N A NT. R O B E RTE I M M E D I AT E LY P U L LS HER I M M EDIATELY BY T H E MOLLUSK. WHO. A LTHOUGH

H A N D AWAY A N D GOES T O S I T I N S I D E T H E BUS.

S H E HITS HARD AT H I M . TH ROWS HER LIKE A STRAW OVER HIS SHOULDERS. HIS H A N DS SPLAYED

SHE

F I N DS

PLACE

IN

TH E

SUN

WH E R E HER

SHE FACE

ACROSS H E R THIGHS.

R E LAXES.

ENJOYING

THE

BREEZE

ON

FROM T H E OPEN W I N DOW. HER LEGS LAZI LY APART.

AND

WI THOUT

HOPE

OF

E SC A P I N G

FROM

HIS

DETERMI N E D GRASP. S H E I S C A R R I E D A LONG A N TH E MOLLUSK. WHO H A S WATC H E D H E R F ROM T H E PLATFOR M . NOW COM E S A N D SITS DOWN OPPOSITE. OBSERVI NG HER AT L E I S U R E OUT OF T H E CORN E R OF H I S EYE. INTERMINABLE PASSAGEWAY T O T H E LEADS TO A TOP O F A

STARICASE W H I C H

VAST A N D E E R I E

ROOM. F U LL OF U N K NOWN FOR M S T H A T SH I N E I N T H E HALF-LIGHT.

ROBERTE I M M E DATELY CLOSES H E R EYES.

C ROSSES

HER

LEGS

AND

R U N N I NG A H E A D OF TH E M . THE

SQUAT M A N . H A S

W A I T E D F O R THIS M O M E N T T O THROW A L L T H E L I G H T REQU I R E D ON THE SCE N E OF E V E N TS. H E TURNS ON THE SWITCH AND I LLU M I N ATES TH E ROO M : IT I S A

OVER THE SHOT OF ROBE RTE C LOS I N G H E R EYES IS S U P E R I M POSED A S HOT O F T H E PARALLEL BARS FROM WHICH TWO LEATH E R STR A PS A R E H A N G I NG .

WORK-SHOP

IN

AN

A B A N DO N E D

FACTORY. IN T H E

M I DDLE O F W H I C H . I M M E N S E ON A L E A D BASE. LOOM TWO PA R A L L E L BARS.

WHEN TH E BUS STOPS AT T H E COM E D I E F R A N C A I S E ROBERTE G E T S O F F Q U I C K LY.

A LARGE COLON I A L FAN SLOWLY B EG I N S TO T U R N JUST ABOVE T H E M .

NOW S H E CAN B E SEEN T H ROUGH T H E COLON N A D E OF T H E RUE DE MONTPE N S I E R IN THE P A LA I S

W H I L E TH E MOLLUSK F I R M LY ATTAC H E S ROBE RTE'S WRISTS TO THE BARS BY M EA N S OF THE LEATH E R STRAPS. THE SQUAT M A N DOES T H E S A M E FOR H E R A N KLES. H A V I N G F I R ST. W I T H A S I N G L E G E ST U R E . T O R N O F F H E R S K I RT.

ROYAL. LITTLE SCHOOLBOY X. W E A R I N G T H E S A M E U N I FO R M AS L I TT L E F. A N D A NTOI N E . WATC H ES H E R . TH E N D I SA P P E A R S .

S H E PASSES A LO N G T H E GALLERY LOOK I N G I NTO SHOP-WINDOWS.

SO THAT BEFORE SHE K N OWS WHAT HAS H A PP E N E D ROBERTE F I N D S H E R S E LF. T O H E R F U R Y. TI ED H A N D

I SS

A N D FOOT TO THE

BARS. THE COAT OF H E R S U I T

PIECES

ON

TH E

TILED

FLOOR,

TH E

SQUAT

MAN

D R A P E D OVER H E R S U S P E N D E R BE LT.

S M I L E S AT H E R I N SO L E NTLY.

A N D W H I L E WITH THE H I G H H E E L OF ON E F R E E FOOT WHICH THE SQUAT SHE MAN HAS TO NEGLECTED AWAY TO ROBERTE. LOST IN REVERIE. THE BACK LE AGAI NST T H E NEMOURS IS

IMMOBILIZE MOLLU SK'S GLOVE

TRIES

PUSH

THE

BODY. H E D E L I CATELY RE MOVES THE ROBERTE'S ONE. HAND. OPENS HER

C O LO N N A D E

OF

CAFE

COV E R I N G ONE

I N T E R R U PT E D B Y T H E WA ITE R'S VOI C E .

FINGERS

BY

AND

WITH

E M OTI O N WAIT E R : A R E Y O U A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . .

A P PROACHES H I S MOUTH TO H E R OPEN PA L M . F I X E S H I S TON G U E AGAI NST I T A N D B E G I N S T O TITI LLATE TH E PALM WITH I N C R E A S I N G V I OLENCE.

S H E T U R N S SLOWLY. W I THOUT S E E I NG H I M . STR OKES H E R W R I STS A N D GOES TO SIT DOWN AT THE TA B L E

ROBE RTE LONG E R

CLOSES CAPABLE

HER OF

EYES.

HER

LEG

IS

NO

W H E R E A C U P O F TEA A N D TWO CROI SSANTS A R E WAITING.

R E P U L S I NG THE

MOLLUSK

WITH T H E S A M E E N ERGY. ITS MOV E M ENT S LOW I N G A N D C H A NG I N G LITTLE BY LITTLE I NTO A LANGUOR OUS U N D U LATION OF THE K N E E . OPE N I NG HER BAG TO TA K E OUT THE POC K E T

M I RROR. S H E S E E S A R E D C A R D SLI PPED I N S I DE.

R O B E R T E M U R M URS:

S H E EXA M I N E S IT,

ROBERTE: PUT OUT THE LIGHT TH EN . . .

THE

CARD

BEARS

FACSI M I L E

OF

HER

OWN

F I N G E R P R I NTS. S U PE R I M POSED O V E R THE W O R D O F FOR A MOM ENT SHE OPENS H E R EYES TO M E ET T H E I M PLACABLE MA I N TA I N S THE GAZE HOLD OF THE SQUAT MAN WHO S H E PLACES T H E CARD ON THE TABLE A N D T A K E S OUT H E R POC K E T M I R R O R . GOD: " I N PRI N C I P I O E RAT VERBUM

HIS

QUITE

U N N ECESSA R I LY ON IN A CLIMAX OF

FETTE R E D

ANKLE.

WHEN

E MOTI ON. THE

MOLLUSK LETS GO HER H A N D A N D S H E L OO K S AT H E RS E L F A N D S M I LES.

COLLA PSES I N A DEAD F A I N T O N TH E FLOOR. T H E S Q U A T M A N I M M E D I ATELY D R A G S H I M A W A Y . THEN. WITHOUT A WORD. UNTIES ROBE RTE AND DISAP

PEARS BY THE STA I RCASE. H E SLI PS T H E R E D C A R D I N TO H E R B A G A N D POU R S A G LASS O F B R A N DY. ROSERTE (VOI C E OFF): HOW SOOTH I N G T H E PLA Y OF TH E FOU N TA I N S U N D E R TH E PLANE TREES.

L E FT

ALONE

WITH

TH E

BARS

IN

THE HER

D E S E RTED S K I RT AND

GYM N A S I U M .

ROBE RTE

PUTS ON

S U D D E N LY F E E LS HORRIBLY A LONE. S H E LOOKS U P AT THE G L ASS DOME ABOVE HER WHERE TH E

HOW EXQUISITE T H E C I TY I N ITS RE FLECTIONS . . .

S H A DOW OF A R EC L I N I NG BODY SLIDES DOW N : IT I S L I TTLE X . THE TH E SQUAT M A N AND THE GLASS RETURNS. H A NDS H E R H E R BAG OF B R A N DY . SHOC K E D BY HIS P I E R R E K LOSSOW S K I
TRAN SLATED SY CATH E RI N E D U N C A N

GARDENS

OF

THE

PA L A I S- R OY A L

AND

ITS

FOUNTA I N S . STR E A M I N G WITH WATER,

I N SO L E N C E , ROBE RTE SLAPS H I S F A C E W I T H SUCH FORCE THE G L ASS FALLS AND SPLINTERS TO

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SAINTE

J ACKIE,

C O M E DIENNE

AND

TORTURER
LET THE M A N OF V I C E TALK, YOU'LL BE T A K E N FOR A RIDE, HE WILL MAKE YOU SWA LLOW ALL OF HIS D R UG WHICH SETS ITS O W N DOS E ; A R O U L ETTE

W H E E L W H I C H CHOOSES W H E R E TO STOP, OBVIOUS LY A LWAYS O N E SPOT AWAY FROM T H E W I N N I NG SHE . . . HAS SEEN E V E R Y T H I NG. HEARD SO IS

FANTA S I ES, H I S M Y T H S , H I S LIES, H I S P R E J U DICES, LET'S GAG HIM. HIS TWO OBJECTIVE ACCOMPLICES. TH E PROSTITUTE AND T H E COP. TELL E N OUGH AS IT IS. THEY DON'T C H A N G E THE FACTS. TH E Y OON'T GET DELI RIOUS. THEY A R E P ROS.

N U M BE R .

EVERYTH I N G W H AT. SHE

A N D U N D E RSTOOD SHE KNOWS

NOTH I NG? WHAT SHE

TALKS.

TA L K I NG A BO UT. S H E KNOWS. STOP.

W H Y T H E PROSTITUTE? IN W H A T SENSE I S SHE MORE QUALI F I E D THAN THE D R U G DEALER O R CROU P I E R T O S P E A K A BOUT V I C E ? DON'T A LL T H R E E PLAY A S I M I LA R ROL E : TO FU R N I S H TH E M A N OF VICE WITH THE OBJECT OF HIS P L E A S U R E? U N OO U BTEDLY.

J A C K I E : T H I RTY Y E A R S OLD N E XT OCTOB E R , 5'5",

143 LBS. SOM ETH I NG H EAVY ABOUT H E R FACE, H E R

GAZE, H E R G A I T. G R E E N EYES. SHORT BLACK H A I R . P R E TT Y ? AN ABSURD QUESTIO N WHICH NO

CUST<.. M E R H A S E V E R ASKED H I M S E LF. S H I N Y R E D BOOTS. L A C E D T O T H E K N E E . 3" H E E LS. A BLACK SLICKER COAT W H I C H S H E HAS WOR N FROM T H E B EG I N N I N G AND WHICH HAS EA R N E D HER TH E

A N D. IN A LL TH R E E C A S E S . O N E F I N DS THE OBJECT DEPRIVED OF I TS F I R ST D E ST I N A T I O N AND

PLEASURE M A D E U N N AT U R A L : LOSS ENTERS I NTO T H E PLEASU R E OF TH E G A M B L E R . J U ST AS ' N E E D' ENTERS I NTO THAT OF T H E A D D ICT. J U ST AS THE S U P R E M E H U M I LIATION -OF PAYI NG TO B E LOV ED ENTERS INTO THAT O F THE JOH N . VICE I S A LWAYS THE S A M E : IT H A PP E N S W H E N M I SFORT U N E I S GOOD. OF COURSE. BUT THE OOM A I N O F PROSTITUTION.

N I C K N A M E : SLICK-JAC K I E . A PHOTO T A C K E D ON T H E WALL: A WOM A N OF ABOUT FI FTY. B LOND, BOOTS. FITTED LEATH E R OUTFIT. 'HER FOOT ON A C H A I R . AN A N I M A L TA M E R'S W H I P IN H E R H A N D . S I G N E D: "TO JACK I E W I T H BEST REGARDS. JOAN." "SH E'S DUTCH. SH E'S I N N E W YORK. YOU SEE HER IN A L L O F THE MAGAZIN ES. IN BOOKS TOO. SH E'S A STA R? S H E'S B E E N OOI NG S/M FOR TWENTY Y E A R S . S H E'S E V E N SENT M E C U STOM ERS. S H E WRITES M E T O EXPLA I N W H E N T H E Y OON'T S P E A K F R E N C H . N E I T H E R DOES SHE. BUT I H A V E A CUSTO M E R WHO T R A N SLATES

SEXUAL DEVIATION. I S T H E O N LY PLACE WHERE A D I RECT RELATION S H I P IS I N VOLVED. T H E PROSTI

TUTE OOES MORE T H A N FU R N I S H A N OBJ ECT. SHE IS THAT O B J ECT. LIVING M A TT E R WHICH L I ST E N S . A

RECORDS.

R ESPONDS,

Q U ESTIONS.

DECI DES.

157

HER

LETTERS.

SHE

M IGHT

COME

SEE

ME

HERE.

FOR C H I L D R E N -ODDLY. O N E OF W H I C H IS A F A K E M A D E OF R U B B E R I . COM PLETE T H E S E T . A L L O F T H E OTH E R S M A L L E R PROPS-A N D TH E R E A R E M A N Y

S H E'S TER R I BLY WELL K N O W N . SHE'S A STAR:'

TUESDAY. 3: 1 0 P.M. THE DOO RBELL R I NGS. JACKIE GOES TO OPEN. SOUNDS AT THE DOOR. JACKIE

A R E A R R A N G E D IN THE OTH E R ROOM. THATS LATE R .

R E T U R N S TO TH E KITC H E N WHERE S H E HAS LEFT US. THE PHOTOG R A P H E R A N D ME. "YOU'RE LUCKY. HE'S ON E OF TH E BEST. AND HE LIKES TO BE

STI L L

NOTH I NG.

SECONDS

FEEL

LIKE

HOURS.

S U D D E N LY. T H E H E ELS O F T H E BOOT STR I K ES. T H E TOR N SH I RT R A S P S L I K E FABRIC I N A D E S I G N E R'S WORK ROOM. OTH E R . ARE NOW BOTH H E E LS. THE ONE A FT E R OF THE THE TH E

PHOTOGRAPHED. GIVE TH E N J O I N M E

ME TI M E TO P R E PA R E H I M .

I N T H E ROOM ON T H E LE FT. THIS

S H REDDING

C LOTH I N G

MIGHT NOT BE BAD. HE'S W EA R I NG HIS RAGS. J UST PUT ON A MASK OR A HOOD I F YOU DON'T WANT H I M T O S E E YOU R FAC E." S H E LAUGHS.

C U STOM E R S L A V E .

D E L I BERATELY OR

N OT.

S H A R P POINT M A K E S A

LONG R E D M A R K ON T H E

BACK. S O F T M O A N S . A S I G N A L P E R H A PS?

SHE

CALLS

US

TWO

M I N UTES

LATER.

SHE

IS IN

F I N ALLY. J A C K I E' S MOUTH E M I TS A SOU ND. "SOl ITS L I K E THAT! YOU D A R E TO COM E IN RAGS TO S E E

FRONT O F T H E DOOR. A T H E R FE ET. H A N DS A N D F E E T BOU N D W I T H A S I N G L E CORD. F A C E AGAI NST THE FLOOR. A M A N OF A BOUT SI XTYFIVE. ORDINARY G R E E N I S H G R A Y HE I S S H I RT

YOUR M I STRESSI THATS THE WAY Y O U W A N T ITI I N RAGSI" S H E I S S U D D E N LY A N I MATED; S H E P U M M E LS T H E POOR M A N W I TH K I C K S A N D SLA PS. PU LLS OFF HIS LAST S H RE D S O F CLOTH I NG. TA K E S DOWN A C O U NTS OPENS OUT THI RTY LASHES MAKES IN A TIRED IT.

W E A R I NG

AN

WITH PANTS OF TH E S A M E COLOR A N D FABRIC. HE I S B A L D . SHE I S I N F R O N T O F US. PULLING A PACKAGE B E H I N D HER. WE ENTER TH E TORT U R E ROOM. SHE T U R N S TOWA RDS US. AND IN A P E N ETRATI NG VOI C E A N NOUNCES: "H E'S B E LG I A N." TH E A B S U R DITY O F T H I S C O N F I D E N C E . G I V E N TH E S I TUATION. D O E S NOT E V E N M A K E US S M I L E . T H E TRUTH IS THAT WE A R E T E R R I FIED. DEATHLY S I L E N C E .

W H I P. VOIC E .

THE CAGE.

HIM

ENTER

H E A D FI RST. LOC K S I T WITH A K E Y. "I'M K E E P I NG H I M U N T I L E I G H T O'CLOCK TON I GHT." S H E SAYS. A S I F TO EXC U S E H E RS E L F FOR I N T E R R U PTING THE S E S S I O N .

I N F I V E M I N UTES T H E YOU N G C H I LD R E N W I L L L E A V E S C H OO L . T H E F R E SH M E N A N EW WILL BE D I S M I SS E D IN

A N HOUR E A R L I E R . WE H A D EXAM I N E D T H I S S A M E ROOM WITHOUT A N YO N E I N I T . A G R A N D-G UIGNOL SET WHICH GAVE US A FEW GOOD LAUGHS.

VINCENNES.

AND

CUSTOM E R

WILL COME.

T R E M B L I NG. TO R I N G J A C K I E'S D OO R . H E W I L L G I V E T H E N A M E O F A F R I E N D WHO SENT H I M . H E W I L L B E A S K E D I F H E I S "AWA R E OF W H A T I S DON E H E R E . " T H E N H E W I L L B E POLITELY A S K E D T O WAIT I N A LARGE. E M PTY ROOM. N EXT. HE W I L L BE BROUGHT TO T H E F I RST ROOM . THERE H E WILL FIND. H A N G I N G ON N A I LS I N T H E W A L L . AT L E A S T THI RTY S L I C K E R S . COATS. G A R T E R S . B E LTS. B R A S . A N D PA NTI E S M A D E O F B L A C K LEATH ER. O N A R A C K . A L L OF T H E BOOTS AND S H O E S -I N CL U D I NG WITH STI LETTO A P A I R OF BRIGHT R E D 1 2. ON THE

OBVIOUSLY T H E ATMOSPH E R E H A S CHANGED: THE MOTIONLESS BODY OF TH I S NICE MAN. T I E D AT OU R F E ET. J A C K I E'S P R E P A R A TI O N S -I N P A R T I C U L A R . H E R I NSPECTIONS OF TH E W H E E L'S FUNCTIONING. WHICH SEEMS TO LEAVE SOM ETH I N G TO

BE

D E S I R E D-THE S E E M I NGLY OBLIGATORY M UTENESS: ALL OF THIS A B R U PTLY M A KES THE D I FFERENT

A PPA RATUSES REAL.

P U M PS THE BIG C RO S S . AN X. TEN FEET H IGH. WITH

H E E LS . S I Z E

S H E LV E S O F A S M A L L BOOKCA SE-FROM W H I C H I S A B S E N T A L L O F TH E SC A N D I N A V I A N POR N OG R A P H Y W H I C H M A K E S S E XSHOP PROFITA B L E -A L L O F T H E S M A L L E R OBJ ECTS: D I LDOS OF E V E R Y SIZE AND

D A NGLING

R I NGS F O R W R I STS A N D A N K LES. THE

W H E EL. OPERATED WITH A C R A NK. W H I C H C A N PULL TH E L I M BS OF TH E VICTI M UNTIL H E I S QUA RTERED. TH E I RO N CAGE. TH R E E F E ET H IG H . TWE N TY I NC H E S D E E P. W H E R E T H E VICTI M M A Y BE 'PU N I S H E D' FOR FIVE HOURS ST R A I G H T . THE WHICH STRA N G E BULKY

S H A P E . CLI PS. LEATH E R STRI PS. L I TT L E W H I PS ( T H E OTH E R S A R E I N TH E TORTUR E ROO M ) . A BOWL FOR WASHI NG. N EEDLES. THR E A D ) . SEWING AS FIVE MANY OR (AN U T E N S I LS (TE N KINDS OF

WOODEN

C O N T R A PT I O N

I M P R I SO N S TH E

D I FFE R E NT Q U A L I T I E S O F SIX PA I RS OF H A N DC U F F S

N EC K A N D A R M S ( U N DOU BTEDLY A R E P RODUCTION M A D E BY A HORROR MOV I E SET DESIG N E R . BUT T H I S ONE WORKS!). F I N A LLY. THE CLASSIC COMMODE.

M A R K E D ' P EGI'

I RO N WORK E R

FROM T H E R U E

D E S PETITS-C H A M PS. W H O M A K E S TH E M . H A D TH E I D E A OF M A R K I NG TH E M SO A S TO SUGGEST T H E I N I T I A L S O F TH E POLIC E J U D I C I A I R E J . F I N A LLY. A

C H A I R FOR W H I C H DECENCY-AS IF IT W E R E N E EDED A T TH I S POI NTI-FO R B I D S EXPLA I N I NG T H E EXACT USE. SOME WHI PS. ABOUT F I FTEEN. ON THE WALLS ( W H I PS FOR DOGS. FOR HORSES. FOR WILD A N I M ALS.

BLACK LACQU E R P E N C I L BOX FI LLED WITH S M A L L P I EC E S O F PA P E R . FOLDED I N QUARTE RS.

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JACK I E SITS ON A THRONE PLAC E D ON A SHAKY P L A T FO R M . LEGS CROSSED. IS THE BUT C OV E R E D BIT OF BY

DON,

EVEN

TRY.

OF

T H E OTH ERS. TWO OUT O F IT-HOW SHOULD THERE ARE AND I PUT IT OF

THREE ONLY REACH THROUGH COU R S E , WHOM I

SLICKERS-NEVER

LEAST

SKIN

SCATOLOGY. WHO

SOM E .

REVEALED-RIDING W H I P IN WITH A TIRED H E R. LOOK. THE

H A N D . E Y E S GLAZED. C U S TO M E R K N EELS

D O T H E M SELVES KNOWN FOR A

S E V E R A L. I

HAVE

LONG T I M E. W H O M

B E FO R E

DRAWS A S M A L L P I E C E OF PAPER

HELP A

LITTLE.

BUT WITH THEM, I

ALWAYS W E A R

FROM T H E P E NC I L BOX. U S U A LLY W I TH H I S TEETH. U N FOLDS O N L Y ONE IT AND R E A DS. IT M I G H T SAY-TH I S IS

R U B B E R GLOVES, N O T T H E O N E S F O R DOI NG T H E D I S H E S . THEY DON'T C O M E I N B L A C K . I H A V E TO B U Y SURGEON'S G LOVES."

OF A

HUNDRED

E X A M PLES-LICK THE R E C E I V E FI FTY

SOLES O F T H E M I STRESS' BOOTS;

LAS H E S B E H I N D THE K N E E S FROM A BLACK WH I P; ONE H O U R IN THE BOX.

A NOTH E R SESSION? S ETS

QU ESTION: THOUGH

WHAT

IS

TH E NO

COST

OF

HELL

HAS

PRICE.

J AC K I E $ 50 .

H ER

ABSOLUTE

MINIMUM

PRICE

AT

WHATE V E R

P U N I S H M E NT

IS

DRAWN.

JACKIE WILL

AVERAGE T I M E : O N E HOU R. NO SEWING, N O TORT U R E O N THE W H E E L OR THE C ROSS. L I M ITED W H I P P I N G . D I A LOGU E SIONS. REDUCED TO THE O N ETI M E S I M PLEST EXPRES TH E

E X P LA I N . H A LF-ADM I R I NG . H A LF SCOR N F U L. "NOW YOU CAN REA LLY SAY YOU'RE LUCKY: YOU DREW

T H E E A S I EST P U N I S H M E N T!" O N L Y A FT E R TH I S W I L L JAC K I E I N FO R M TH E CUSTO M E R OF H I S N U M BE R .

BUT

C U STOM E R S

ARE

EXCEPTION: O N E . AT MOST TWO P E R DAY. A N D T H E OTH ERS? W ELL. T H E Y PAY B Y THE MONTH .

W H I C H H E W I L L H A V E T O R E M E M B E R F O R FUTURE V I S I TS. "YOU W I LL BE S L A V E 84." 84 W I L L TH E N

CHOOSE FROM T H E OUTFITS O N T H E W A L L T H E O N E WHICH H E WILL WEAR DURING HIS P U N I S H MENT.

SIX OF T H E M , WHO HOLD I M PORTA N T POS ITIONS I N BUS I N E S S MONTHLY AND IN GO V E R N M E N T . WHICH PAY HER A

ON LY T H E BEGI N N E R RISKS A S K I N G Q U E STIONS. H E W I L L U S U A LLY B E A N S W E R E D WITH A W H I P. U N LESS HE ASKS A BOUT THE W H I T E WOOD T R E STLE TABLE. STA I N E D WITH LONG BLACK M A R KS . IN THAT CASE. JAC K I E E X P LA I N S, WITH TH E VOICE OF A HOME

FIXED SUM

V A R I ES-AT LEAST $ 1 500 A N D $250 AND

ACCOR D I N G $ 2 500. $ 1 000 THE

T O J A C K I E - B E TW E E N OTH E R S PAY BETW E E N

D E P E N D I NG O N T H E I R

M E A NS.

THUS. THE

COST OF S U F F E R I N G I S C A LCULATED BY J A C K I E ON AN INDIVIDUAL BASIS. THE MONTHLY PAYMENT

ECONOM I ST, THAT I T I S A SEWING TABLE.

ENTITLES O N E T O A N U N L I M ITED N U M BER OF V I SITS . LET'S A B A N DO N THE FALSE OBJ ECTIVITY OF BUT, E V E RYON E I S SATI S F I E D W I T H O N E T O TH R E E V I S I TS PER MONTH. ANY JACKIE: MORE. "A NYWAY. THEY HOW

DESC R I PTION A N D SPECIFY THAT M O R E T H A N HALF O F T H E V I SITORS A S K TO B E SEWN WITH N E ED L E AND T H R E A D . G E N E R AL LY, T H E N I P PLES, T H E TESTICLES (TO TH E TH IGHS). THE CRACK O F THE BUTTOCKS. THE OPERATIONS OBVIOUSLY ONLY TAKE PLACE

COULDN'T

TA K E

P H Y S I CA L LY."

MANY O F TH E M ARE THERE? "REGULA RS. BETW E E N ONE H U N D R E D A N D O N E H U N D R E D A N D TWENTY."

AFTER THE S U BJECT-RATH E R . T H E OBJ ECT-HAS BEEN C A R EF U LLY BOU N D TO AVOI D ANY R I S K OF REBELLION THERE TABLE IS AND GAGG E D TO OF A STIFLE IT T H E C R I ES.

PRIVATE

CHAT WITH

H IG H POLICE O F F I C I A L :

',H E GI R LS L I K E T H O S E YOU A R E T A L K I N G A BOUT. WE KNOW THEM A LL . THEY ARE ON F I L E H E R E . L I K E MOST OF TH E OTH E R PROSTITUTES, E V E N THOUGH TH E FILES WERE O F F I C I A LLY S TO P P E D ON

BLOOD,

COURSE. I'M

R U N S O N THE STATES IN

("NEVER

LOT, TOO.

C A R E F U L"

JACKIE!. A LCOHOL

WOU N D S .

COTTON

SOA K E D

NOVEMB E R 2 5 ,

1 960. I N OUR VOC A BU LA RY. TH E Y

AT 200 I S S U F F I C I E N T TO C A UTERIZE

A R E 'WH I P P I N G S P EC I A LI STS: T H E R E'S O N E O N T H E R U E BLO N D E L . TWO OTH E R S O N TH E R U E Q U I NCAM PO I X (TEN YEARS AGO THERE WERE SEVEN OR

T H E M . "THATS T H E M I RACLE." S A Y S JACKIE. "TH E Y L E A V E I N SH REDS A N D T H E Y R ETU R N . T H R E E DAYS LATER, E V E RYTH I N G D R I E D U P."

EIGHT ON THAT STR E E n . ONE ON T H E R U E D E LA REYNIE. THEY EARN A LOT OF M O N EY. PI M PS I N D EED.

THAT.

ROUGH LY,

IS

WHAT

ONE

N EE D S

TO

KNOW OF

GENERA LLY.

THEY

DON'T

HAVE

BECAUSE

A BO U T

S LI C K - J A C K I E ' S

ACTIV I T I E S .

LOTS

THEY A R E M O R E I NT E LLI G E NT THAN THE A V E RAGE PROSTITUTE.

Q U E STIONS COME TO M I N D . P R ACTIC A L QU ESTIONS, FOR OUR AIM HERE I S NOT TO A TT E M PT TO ENTER I NT O THE WHY OF THIS UNLIKELY FORM OF

"CONC E R N I NG T H E 'WH I P P I NG SPEC I A LI STS: WHAT WE FEAR MOST I S T H E R E VOLT O F O N E OF THE

VOLUNTARY M A RTYRDOM. F I RST O F A LL: HOW DO THE VICTI M S R E A C H ORG A S M . THE U S U A L GOAL OF A VISIT TO A PROSTITUTE? J A C K I E'S A N SW E R : "MORE THA N HALF LEAVE WITHOUT REACH I NG IT. THEY

CUSTOM E R S . UNTIL T H E Y HAVE REACHED T H E PEAK OF T H E I R PLEA S U R E . T H E Y A R E DANGEROUS. THEY A R E CA P A B L E OF M U R D E R . THATS W H Y THE G I R LS

l S9

T I E THEM UP S E C U R E L Y A N D R E LE A S E TH EM ONLY WHEN THEY ARE COM P LETELY C A L M E D DOW N."

SETTING: TH E THRONE ROOM. JACKI E. SEATED ON TH E N A R ROW SOFA W H I C H oo U B L E S AS A BED-DNE H A S THE I M PRESSION THAT I T HAS SHRUNK FROM

GROUP D I SC I P L I N E AT J A C K I ES. W E D N E SDAY AND SATU R DAYS-FROM O'CLOC K - A R E THREE O'C LOC K TO EIGHT

LACK

OF

USE-IS LOOK.

TELLING

HER

LIFE

STO R Y .

PENSIVE

S O M ETH I N G

A BOUT H E R G A Z E . . .

DEVOTED T O THOSE C U STO M E R S PLEA S U R E S OF T H E G ROUP. TH E R E ARE

WITHOUT QU ESTION . . . BUT WH AT?

W H O S E E K T O COM B I N E T H E WHI P W I TH THOSE OF THE

"WELL. O. K . .

I'LL START AT THE B EG I N N I NG. I WAS

U S U A L LY ABOUT A DO Z E N M E N W H O 'SU B M I T A N D S U F F E R TOGETH E R . T W I C E A W E E K. SOM E OF T H E M W E A R B LACK VELVET M A S K S I N ORDER T O R E MA I N ANONYMOUS. THIS IS TO L E R A T E D BUT N OT

BORN IN N O R M A N DY. M Y FATH E R WAS A CONTRAC TOR. HE D I D N 'T GET A LONG WITH MY MOTH ER. I

D I D N 'T GET A LONG W I T H E I T H E R OF TH E M . NOR EVEN WITH K I DS M Y OWN AGE. SO. AT THRITEEN I FELL I N LOV E. A N OLD E R G U Y. M A R R I E D A N D A LL. R E N E . H E WOR K E D I N I M PORT-EXPORT. I ' M SIXTEEN W H E N I GET P R E G N ANT. H E WA R N E D M E THAT H E WANTED NONE O F T H AT. BUT I ' M A FOOL. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO A NYTH I NG RIGHT: S O I CONFESS TO MY MOTH E R .

W E LCOMED. J AC K I E G E N ERA LLY LIM ITS H E RSELF TO G I V I N G DI RECTI O N S A N D S U C C E EDS IN H A V I N G H E R CUSTOMERS THEM SELVES TORTURE T H E I R C H A I N E D BROTH ERS. EROTIC SHE A LSO A M ONG REQU I R ES TH E M T O PLAY TH E M S E LV E S A N D O N L Y

GAMES

GRABS TH E W H I P H E RS E L F W H E N TH I N G S GET OUT OF H A N D . "SOMETI M E S I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A LION

T H A T C A U S E S T E R R I BLE TROUBLE. SO I LEAVE. A L L ALONE. IN PARIS. I FOU N D A JOB ON THE

CAGE." SHE SAYS. "TH E Y TRACK MEl BUT BASICALLY I LIKE THEMI T H E LAST TIME I WENT ON VACATION ALONE-USUALLY I A LWAYS HAVE ONE OR TWO OF THEM WHO COME FOR T H E W E E K END: I MAKE THEM STAY FOR WHOLE DAYS IN T H E OUTHOU SES AT THE BACK OF THE GARDEN -AT T H E END OF TEN DAYS. I WANTED TO COME HOME. I M I SSED M Y PREY."

BOU L E V A R D R I C H A RD-LENOI R . I N A B A K E RY. T H E N IN AN HOOD. DO I N G . ACCOUNTING E V E RYTH I N G I DO N ' T GIVE F I R M I N A N OTH E R N E IG H BOR I'VE A DON E . DAMN AN E V E R YT H I N G I'M

A BOUT

IT. WHAT I

REGRET IS

NOT H A V I N G

E D UCATION. I WOULD

HAVE L I K E D TO L E A R N .

"A S S O M ETI M E S . C E R TA I N C U STO M E R S W I V ES. BEG TO BE

WAS

THREE

MONTHS

PREGNANT

WHEN

A R R I VED. A L L OF T H I S D I D N 'T LAST LONG. W H E R E C O U L D I G O ? A HOM E F O R U N W E D M OT H E RS. I GAVE B I RT H O N M Y SEVENTE ENTH B I RTHDAY. M Y SON W I L L BE TH I RT E E N N EXT OCTOB ER. H E'S A GOOD K I D.

ALLOWED TO B R I N G

TH E I R

EITHER TO BE

W H I PPED BY HER IN TH I S SETTI NG. OR (MORE OFTEN ) T O I N ITI ATE H E R T O THE PLEASURES OF SUFFERI NG. JAC K I E RARELY AGREES. O N E OF THE ODDITI E S OF PROSTITUTION L EG I S L A T I O N IS THAT ITS E Y E S

W H E N I LEFT THE HOME. I H A D TO F I N D SOM ETH I NG : A N A I D AT A C L I N IC I N BOURG- LA- R E I N E F O R RICH P R EG N A N T WOM E N . $50 PER MONTH . THATS WHAT I E A R N ED. BUT THE N U RSES GOT $ 1 00. SO. WITH T H E HELP OF AN OLD F R I E N D F R O M THE HOM E FOR

R E M A I N CLOS E D A S LONG A S T H E R E IS ON LY ONE " P R I E STESS." W H E R EA S TH E PRESENCE OF

ANOTH E R WOMAN I M M E DIATELY OPENS THE DOOR TO PROSECUTION FOR P ROC U R I NG . AND TRY TO

U N W E D MOTH ERS. I GOT A JOB. A FTER WORK. AT A B A R IN BELLEVI LLE. WITH THIS. I J U ST M A NAGED TO GET BY.

EXPLA I N TO A TWENTY-TH R E E

YEAR OLD I N S PEC

TOR. J U ST OUT OF LAW SCHOOL. THAT TH E OTH E R WOMAN I S A C U STOM E R L I K E T H E OTH ERS . . . OFTEN. HOWEVER. CROWD IS E S P EC I A LLY SUCH ON SAT U R D A Y S . IN THE

"IN

FRONT

OF

THE

BAR.

THERE

WERE

G I R LS

THAT J A C K I E .

SPITE O F THE

WOR K I NG T H E STRE ET. I'M INTRIGUED. I F I N D OUT A L I TT L E ABOUT HOW M UC H THEY MAKE. AND.

CLEVER SYSTEM OF M UTU A L D I SCIPLI N E WHICH SHE D E M A N DS. C A N NOT H A N D L E SHE CALLS ON A IT. AT THOSE T I M ES. OR THE CLEANING

I M M ED I ATELY I SAY TO M YSELF. I'M GOI N G T O DO I T TOO. BUT I H A V E N O E X P E R I E NCE. T H E FAT H E R OF M Y KID WAS THE ONLY MAN I KNEW S E X U A LLY. PLUS. I HAVE THE I D EA THAT YOU STAY FOR HOURS WITH T H E S A M E GUY. THAT YOU HAVE TO TALK TO H I M . T H A T Y O U H A V E T O G E T U N D E R T H E S H E ETS WITH HIM. NOW THAT D I SGU STS M E . W H E N I FOU N D OUT I T R E A LLY WORKS. FAST. THE ROD AND THE

N E I G H BOR

WOMAN FROM THE LITTLE STR E ET ON THE LEFT-I .E. ON SOM EON E FROM IN TH E N E I G H BORHOOD T ROU B L E . WHOSE BE

PR ESENCE.

CASE

OF

CAN

E X P L A I N E D TO T H E POLICE.

"TH EY

A R E N'T TRICKY." SAYS JAC K I E WITH

BIG

HOW

I N D U LGENT S M I LE. "TH EY'RE T I M ID. SO THEY LAUGH ALL THE T I M E : THE MORE T H E GUYS SUFFER. THE MORE THEY LAUGH. TH EY'RE P I SS E D TOO. BUT YOU CAN SEE THAT THEY'RE A M ATEURS."

EDGE OF T H E BED. WELL T H E N . I M M E D I ATELY I SAY YES.

"BUT THAT DOESN'T LAST LONG. THE A RA B PI M PS I N

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BELLEVILLE, T H E Y W A N T TOO MUCH, SO, I GO TO LES H A LL E S WITH A FRI E N D WHO KNOWS A HOT E L

IT WAS BETTER TO ROUGH UP A GUY FOR TO G E T F U C K E D ALL DAY F O R T H I R TYI

$ 50

THAN

M A N A G E R , I ' L L A LWAYS R E M E M B E R M Y F I RST D A Y TH E R E . I T WAS O N T H E R U E A U B R Y-LE-BOUC H E R , BETW E E N TOPOL A N D T H E R U E Q U I N C A M PO I S . I W A S A K I D. THE F I R S T C U STOM E R S A I D TO M E : ' C A N YOU DO A QUICKI E?' I A N S W E R ED: 'WHArs THAT?' I D I DN'T K N OW A N YT H I N G . BUT A FT E R SEVERAL DAYS "WHERE WAS I? YES, IN MARSEI LLES. OF A WELL I IT

H A PPEN E D SITTING ON

ONE

FO U R T E E N T H

.J U LY .

WAS

A C A F E TERRACE.

LITTLE

DANCE

H ALL. IT WAS TWO O'CLOCK I N TH E MOR N I NG. A L I M O PULLS UP. I K N O W T H A T Irs F O R M E . I BAR ELY H A V E T I M E TO GET UP. THE B U LLET GOES THROUGH M Y SHOU LDER A N T E A R S U P M Y C H I N . I WOULD H A V E B E E N HIT RIGHT I N THE H E A D I f' I H A DN'T STOOD U P.

THI NGS W E R E GOING VERY W ELL. S O OF COURSE, TH E OTH E R GIRLS GOT .J E A LOUS.

-I CHANGED HOTELS I M M ED I ATELY, WITH THE H E L P OF A F R I E N D , I WENT TO TH E R U E Q U I N C A M POIS. I HAD ONLY BEEN TH E R E TWO DAYS WHEN GUYS

THE

LIMO

LEFT.

IT

WAS

MY

GUY

FROM

PA R I S .

STAYED THERE, ON THE GROUND, ON MY H A N DS A N D KNEES. TH E R E W A S SUDDENLY NOBODY LEFT I N T H E DANCE H A LL. I M A D E IT T O A TAXI A N D WENT T O T H E HOSPITAL A L L A LONE.

SHOWED U P. T H E F I R ST, A N A R A B WHO BUYS M E A DRINK A T TH E BAR, TELLS ME THAT IF I'M NOT

M A R R I ED, I HAVE TO M A R R Y H I M . I SAY NO. THEN H E TELLS M E , 'THAT W I L L COST YOU A C-NOTE: YOU "AFTER ALL T H AT, IT'S FUNNIER, B ETT E R FOR

SHOU LDN'T H A V E D R U N K WITH M E . PUT A H U N D R E D B U C K S I N A N E N V E LOPE A N D B R I N G I T T O T H E DOOR , R U E DES FRANCS-BOURGEOIS, TOMORROW AT SIX: I WENT TH E R E WITH T H E E N V E LOPE BUT I NS I D E I H A D P U T TOILET P A P E R .J UST T O S P I T E H I M , I WENT, I COULDN'T TH R E E R E S I ST. TH E M . IT D I D N 'T WORK. MY TH E R E HEAD WERE IN
.

ARTICLES. THEY S T I L L T R I E D T O G ET M E A S SOON A S I LEFT THE HOSPITAL. I G O T O U T A N D C A M E B A C K TO PA R I S . I PAID A P R O T E CT I O N FEE OF

$2 500,
I GOT

THOUGH, I DON'T REMEMBER TO WHOM . . . SEE, AT THIS TI M E ,

W A S N 'T

EVEN

T W E N TY-O N E .

A ROUND

UTTLE BY L I TTLE, I SPECI A L I ZED. T H E I N ST R U M ENTS, T H E THEM. W H AT'S

OF

THEY

BEAT

CUSTOM E R S TAUGHT M E. THE WORDS, A LL THAT CAME

SEVERAL TEETH, T H E C H E E K-BO N E , A SHOULDER, BOTH ANKLES

FROM

U N I Q U E ABOUT M E I S M Y GAZE. A N D M Y STRENGTH. WELL O. K . . I MOVE IN. I'VE GOT M Y PLACE. AND,

WH E N LITTLE

RECOV E RED, B A RTE N D E R ,

H A D TO GET M A R R I ED: A YEARS OLD,

FINA LLY, THEY FIGURE OUT T H A T TH E Y CA N'T TOUCH ME, THAT Irs FORBIDDEN. FOR HOW LONG? I H A V EN'T MADE LOVE WITI:I A CUSTOMER FOR TH R E E AND A HALF YEARS. NOT BAD FOR A PROSTITUTE. ONCE, I MET MY SON'S FATH E R IN DIEPPE. L I K E EVERYON E ELSE, HE WANTED TO S L E E P WITH M E . ESPECIALLY BECAUSE OF WHAT I WAS WEA R I NG, I TH I N K. A N D BECAUSE O F M Y DOUGH. H E DIDN'T WANT T O TA K E ANY, B U T H E WAS FLA B B E RGASTED. S O I ACTED

T W E N T Y- F I V E

SIC I U A N , A FRI E N D OF THE HOTEL M A N A G E R . WITH H I M , I WASN'T WOR R I E D ABOUT THE A R A BS. I STAYED W I TH HIM, I HE C A N'T SPIED SAY ON HE ME WASN'T I N THE NICE. ONLY

.J E A LOUSI

STREET AND

SLAPPED M E A S I WALKED BY-I NSTEAD OF BEING H APPY THAT I W A S WORKI NG-BECA U S E H E SAID I C A M E l T E R R I B LY .J E A LOUS GUY. EVEN THOUGH H E H A D A W O M A N ON TH E S I D E , BUT S H E W A S FRIGID, POOR WOM A N I

LIKE I WANTED TO SEE H I M . WE HAD D I N N E R . I TOLD HIM ABOUT M Y S P EC I A LTIES IN PA RIS. HIS EYES

BULGED. H E WAS T R E M B L I NG. AFTE R D I N N E R , I WAS "O N E F I N E DAY I H A D H A D ENOUGH, I ESCAPED TO M A R S E I LLES. H E LPED NEVER M E. A I HAD SOM E FRIENDS BAD. TH E R E BUT, I WHO WAS THE ONE WHO PA I D FOR TH E HOTEL. THE FANCIEST OF THEM ALL. HE GOT U N DRESSED. A N D I TREATED HIM LIKE A CUSTOM E R . T H E R E H E WAS, BEGG I NG ME TO STOP, TO CONTI N U E, HE D I D N 'T KNOW WHAT H E WANTED. H E W A S F U N N Y THAT WAY:'

B U S I N ESS RACK,

WASN'T

MEAT

TH I RTY T H R O W S

A T TEN

BUCKS, NOT FOR MEl FROM THE BEGI N N I NG, I HAD THE BLACK D R ESS AND HIGH H E ELS. I W ASN'T AS STRONG THEN A S I AM TODAY, BUT I A L R E ADY KNEW

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[ M R . Ms STORY] EXTRE M E LY C A R E F U L TO CONCEA L H I S P E RVER SION FROM THOSE A RO U N D HIM. H E HAD B E E N A MR. M. WAS 65 W H E N HE C A M E TO ME FOR THE F I RST TIME. A R A D I O LO G I S T COLLEAGU E OF MINE H I G H L Y S K I L L E D T EC H N I C I A N IN RADIOELECTRICITY B E FO R E HIS RETI R E M E NT. HIS E M PLOYERS HELD

DISCOVERED H I M A FT E R H E HAD CONS U LTED H E R A BOUT A H EMOPTYSI S W H I C H PROVED T O B E O F

H I M I N S U C H H IG H ESTEE M THAT H E WAS ABLE TO OBTA I N S P EC I A L WOR K I N G C O N D I T I O N S . AND IN

SHORT-LIVED D U RATION. M Y COLLEAGU E E XA M I N E D HIM AND MADE A C A R E F U L INVENTORY O F A L L PERVERSE PRACTICES: SHE

P A R T I C U LA R A R R A N G E M E N T S A F F EC T I N G H I S HOURS A N D H I S VACATIONS. H E LOATHED T H E IDEA OF P E RSONA LLY E X E RTING A N Y FOR M OF A UTHOR ITY OR OF HOLDING A COM M A N D I N G POSITION A N D CON S I D E R E D BOTH G I V I NG A N D R E C E I V I N G ORDERS TO B E S U R E WAYS O F LOSI N G H I S F R E E DO M I H E WAS VERY FOND O F THIS F R E E DO M WHICH I NVOLVED

TRACES

I N DICATING

DISCUSSED H I S STATE W I T H H I M A N D ADVISED H I M TO SEE M E. M R. M. ACQU I ESCED AT ONCE.

R E M A RKING THAT H I S CASE M IGHT B E USEFUL TO OTH E R S WITH T H E S A M E PERVERSION AS HIS. H E ALSO A D M I TT E D THAT B Y A G R E E I NG TO CONS U LT ME. HE M IGHT A LSO BE HOPI NG FOR AN OPPORTU N ITY TO BE H U M I LIATED. AND A T THE SAME TIME TO BETTER U N D E RSTA N D A BO U T H I S C U RIOUS STATUS. HAD NEVER HIS

LONG. SOLITARY WALKS D U R I NG HIS HOLI DAYS. HE LIVED I N A S M A LL S U B U R B A N COTTAGE WITH H I S A DOPTED DAUGHTER A N D H E R HUSB A N D. I N SHORT. H I S D A I L Y E X I STENCE WAS S I NG U L A R LY DEVOID OF A N Y MORA L M A SOC H I SM .

C U RIOSITY

H I M S E LF

BEEN

SATI S F I E D: H E H A D R E A D A L L TH E R E WAS O N T H E SUBJ ECT OF M A SOCH I S M A N D HAD ALWAYS B E E N DISA PPOI NTED I N H I S F I N DI NGS. ACTUALLY. M A N Y OTH E R FACTORS PLA Y E D A PART I N H I S DECISION TO S E E M E A S I S H A L L I N D ICATE LATE R ON. BUT WHAT A CONTRAST BETW E E N THESE OUTER AND HIS NAKED BODYI PROV I D E D BE E XC E E D E D .

A PP E A R A NC E S

T H A T C E RT A I N

T H R E S HO L D S

Q U A NTITAT I V E C ON S I D E RA T I O N S A N D I NT E N S ITY FACTORS C A N M O D I FY T H E QUALITATIVE A SPECT OF A P H E N O M E NON AND ITS S E NSE. GOING ON THE

M R . M:S APPEARANCE AND H A BITS W E R E THOSE OF A CALM AND COLLECTED PERSON. HE WAS

A S S U M PTION THAT M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES ARE NO EXCEPTION. I SHALL DESCRIBE T H E M I N DETA I L

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THUS

POSSI B LY

MODIFY

CERTA I N

CONCEP

GEN ITALIA H A D NOT B E E N SPA R E D ,

TIONS OF MASOCH I S M . MANY PHONOGRAPH N E E DLES W E R E I M B E DD E D I N T O B EG I N WITH, M R . M : S BODY, EXC E PT FOR THE FACE, WAS A L M OST COMPLETELY COV E R E D WITH TATTOOS: "ALL BIG COCKS W E LCOM E , " A N D THE TESTES AS THE X-RAYS R E V E A L ED. T H E P E N I S W A S BLUE A LL O V E R , PERHAPS A S THE R E S U LT O F I N D I A I N K I N J ECTED I NTO A V E I N . THE T I P O F THE GLANS H A D BEEN SLIT WITH A RAZOR BLADE SO A S T O WIDEN THE ORI FICE. A STE E L R I NG OF S E V E R A L CENTIM ETE RS I N D I A M ETER H A D B E E N P E R M A N E N T L Y A F F I X E D T O THE T I P OF TH E PENIS, A FT E R

LATERA LLY, WITH A N A R ROW, -BIG PRICKS ENTER H E RE" ON THE BUTTOCKS: IN FRONT, I N ADDITION TO THE PENISES TATTOOE D O N HIS T H I G H S, ONE FOU N D THE FOLLOW I N G I M P R E S S I V E LIST: -I'M A SLUT," " I L I K E I T U P T H E A S S , " " U P WITH M A SOC H I S M :' -I ' M NOT A MAN, I'M NOT A WOM A N , I ' M A SLUT, I ' M A WHORE, I'M FUCKM EAT," -I'M AN A M B U LATING SHIT-HOUSE," "I

THE P R E P U C E H A D BEEN

MADE I N TO A S O R T O F A MAGNETIZED

C U S H I O N F I L L E D W I T H PA RAFFI N.

N E EDLE WAS I M BEDDED I N THE PENIS ITSELF, WHICH I DARE SAY BOR D E R E D ON BLAC K H U MO U R SINCE THE P E N I S COULD "DEVI ATE" TH E THEREBY A S S E RT I N G N E E DL E O F A ITS P OW E R .

LOVE SWALLOWI N G PISS AND S H I T," "I LOVE TO BE BEATEN ALL OVER, AND THE H A RDER, THE BETTER:' "I'M A SLUT, USE BUT GIVE ME IT TO ME UP THE ASS," "I'M A

C O M PA S S ,

WHORE, COM E

LIKE A "I'M

F E M A LE, I'LL M A K E YOU THE S T U P I D E ST CUNT

ANOTH E R RI NG, BUT R E MOVABLE T H I S TIME, GI R D E D THE B A S E OF THE PENIS A N D TH E SCROTU M .

GOOD,"

AROUND, M Y MOUTH A N D M Y ASSHOLE A R E FOR BIG PRICKS." A L L OF T H I S COULD TORTU R E S MR. M:S SCARS AND MARKS HIS OF TORTU RE WERE E A S I LY BE V E R I F I ED. L E FT TH E

MENTIONED

ABOVE

D E F I N IT E

TRACES WHICH I NCONTESTABLY PROVED THAT M R . M. W A S N O T LYI NG. AND YET (SHOU LD I ATTR I B UTE THIS TO A DEFENSIVE ATTITUDE ON M Y PART?1 I

EQUALLY

STA RT L I N G ,

R I G H T B R EAST WAS

LITERA LLY A B S E NT, H A V I N G B E E N S E A R E D W I T H A R E D-HOT IRON, P I E R C E D BY SHARP OBJ ECTS A N D TORN OFF. HIS N A V E L WAS A SORT OF CRATER: BEEN POURED I NTO IT WHICH IT

SOMETI M E S DOUBTED THE ACC URACY O F C E R TA I N UNVERIFIABLE FACTS WITHOUT B E I N G A B L E TO

MOLTEN LEAD HAD WAS PREVENTED HAVE

JUSTIFY MY DOUBTS IN ANY WAY. WHY SHOULD HE LIE ABOUT C E RTIAN DETA I LS WH E N OTH E RS W E R E UNDENIA BLY TRUE? I CAN NOT SAY, A N D YET I H A D VAGUE DOUBTS CONCE R N I NG IN PA RTICULAR WHAT H E RELATED A BOUT H I S W I FE AND A SPEC I FIC CASE OF AGGRESSIVE ACTING OUT.

FROM

SPATTE R I N G OUT (AS

WOULD

DON E

B E C A U S E O F R I V U LETS O F RED-HOT M ETA L ROD

SWEAT) BY I N TRODU C I N G A

I NTO THE L EA D. THONGS O F FLESH HAD BEEN CUT ALONG H I S BACK, TH ROUGH WHICH PASSED SO THAT MR. HOOKS WERE

M. COULD B E SUSPENDED HER DEATH, CAUSED IN N O S M A L L A MOUNT, O N E FEELS, BY THE TORTURES SHE H A D E N D U R E D , H A D A PROFO U N D EFFECT ON M. H E WAS OVERCO M E B Y D E PR E S S I O N AND D E V E LO P E D PULMONARY

WHILE A M A N P E N ETRATED HIM. H I S SMALL TOE WAS M I SS I NG: IT HAD A PP A R ENTLY BEEN SECTI ONED

WITH A HACKSAW B Y M R. M . H I M S E LF, ACTING O N THE ORDERS OF A PARTNER. T H E BONE SU RFACE WAS ROUGH AFTER THE A M PUTATION AND H E H A D FILED IT EVEN. N E EDLES I NT O HAD HIS BEEN BODY, P U S H E D N EA R LY EVEN I N TO T H E

TUBERC U LOSIS I N H I S T U R N, BUT WAS COMPLETELY CURED A FTER TWO YEARS SPENT IN A SANATO R I U M .

E V E R Y WH E R E

THORAX. H I S R ECTUM W A S E N LA RGED, "SO IT WOULD LOOK LIKE A VAG I N A." PHOTOGRAPHS WERE TAK E N DU R I N G TH I S PROCESS. IT I S I NTERESTING T O NOTE THAT NONE O F T H E S E TORTURES WAS FOLLOWED BY THE S L I G H T E ST SUPPU RATION, EVEN A FT E R

H I S MASOC H I STIC PRACTICES, W H I C H H A D C O M PLETELY C E A S E D DURING THIS P E R IOD, B E G A N

AN EW, ESPEC I A LLY WITH M E N H E P I C K E D U P S I N C E TH E RELATIONS W I T H H I S FOR M E R PARTN ERS H A D RAPIDLY DWINDLED T O NOT H I NG. HE MARRIED A

FOREIGN BOD I ES,

SUCH AS N E E DLES, N A I LS A N D HAD BEEN I N FLICTED ON OF URINE HIS AND

SECOND T I M E BUT THE M A R R IAGE SOON E N D E D I N DIVORCE : H I S SECOND W I F E WAS A PROSTITUTE

P IECES OF GLASS BODY. THE D A I LY

I N G E ST I O N A

WHOM HE HAD S E LECTED I N THE HOPE O F F I N D I N G A N EXPE R I E N C E D PARTN E R. TH E F A C T THAT S H E W A S A PROSTITUTE A N D A P R EC U R ESS PUT M. I N D A NG E R OF BEING EXPOSED IF SHE WERE

EXCREM ENT OVER CAUSE ANY

PERIOD O F YEARS D I D NOT U PSET. THE I NT E R N I ST

A PP A R E NT

ASKED MR. M . TO SHOW H I M VARIOUS INSTRUME NTS OF TORTU R E : BOA R D S I MB E D D E D WITH H U N DREDS OF N E E DLES, A W H E E L FULL OF PHONOGRAPHIC

ARRESTED FOR H E R I LLEGAL ACTIVITIES A N D H E WANTED TO AVOI D THAT POSSI B I LITY A T ALL COSTS. HE ALSO I NT I M AT E D T H A T H I S W I F E'S LAC K OF SHOCKED HIM. HE LEGALLY A DOPTED

N E EDLES WITH A H A N DL E AND THAT WAS USED TO BEAT H I M. LASTLY, A N D MOST R E M A R K A B LY, MR. M:S

MORALITY

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YOUNG

GIRL

WHO

WAS

THEIR

MAID

DURING

W I F E . ALTHOUGH E N G A G I N G AS I HAVE STA T E D I N N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTIVITIES. W E R E AT T H E S A M E TIME I N D U LG I NG IN S H A R E D M A SOCH I STIC R E LA

TH E I R B R I E F M A R R I A G E . M . W A S 46 OR 47 AT THE TIME. I T WAS THEN THAT H I S P E RV E R S E ACTI VITI E S C E A S E D A LTOGETH ER. F R O M T H E N ON. H E LIVED COM P LETELY WITH I N THE FRAM EWORK O F TH E

TIONS; "I L I K E D I T W H E N SHE M A D E ME S U F F E R . A N D SHE LIKED THE IT W H E N I DEA OF I MADE HER SUFFER," I NC O R PO R A T I N G TH E N

FA M I LY L I F E HE H A D C R E ATED AND TO W H I C H H E WAS VERY M UCH ATTAC H E D . KNOWN NOTH I N G O F TO T H E HIS

CAME

A N OTH E R

P E R SO N I NTO TH E I R ACTIVITIES. O N E PE RSON. TH E N TWO. S H A R E D TH E I R S E X U A L EXISTENCE FOR T H R E E YEA RS. I F O N E C O NS I D E R S T H E D E V E LO P M E N T O F T H I S CASE. IT SEEMS D E F I N ITE THAT CONSTITU

S I N G U LA R

PAST W A S

PE RSONS

I NVOLVED. CORRESPO N D E NC E WAS PRACTICALLY TH E ON LY CONTACT H E M A I N TA I NED WITH HIS REAL D A U G HTER. HE TOLD M E THAT HE DID NOT TH I N K SHE W A S M A SOC H I STIC. HAD "EXC E PT FOR T H E FACT

TIONAL FACTO R S WEIGH H EAVI LY I N T H E B A L A N C E : M. MARRIED HIS COUSIN WHO HAD BEGU N HER

THAT SHE

1 0 CHI LDREN."

M A SOCH I STIC PRACTICES W H E N S H E W A S E L E V E N Y E A R S OLD (SHE WOU L D S T I C K N E E D L E S UNDER

M . D E SC R I B E D H I S PARE NTS AS HAV I N G B E E N VERY CON S I D E RATE AND K I N D TO H I M . H E WAS A N ONLY CHILD AND HIS PARE NTS WERE NOT YOUNG WHEN HE WAS BO R N . HIS MOTH E R WAS VERY AFFECTION ATE; H I S FATH E R WAS A LITTLE MORE R I G I D . M . WAS V E R Y ATTA C H E D TO BOTH OF THEM A N D GRA D U A L LY GREW QU ITE HIS C LO S E FATH E R QUITE TO HIS FATH ER M,'S IN

H E R F I N G E R N A I LS) L O N G B E FORE THEY K N E W E A C H OTH E R . IN A DDITION. THAT HIS M. WAS 2 1 (WHO WHEN HE

D I SCOV E R E D DIED AND

FATHER

H A D J U ST HE WAS

WHOSE

C O R R ESPON D E N C E

EXA M I N I NG ) PROBABLY H A D M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N CIES AS W E LL. OTH E R THAN TH E THIS I M PO RTA N T

CONSTITUTI O N A L

FACTOR.

FACT T H A T M , ' S

PA R T I C U LA R . RESS B E I NG AT

FOLLOWED CLOSELY ALL OF

PROG

M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N C I E S CEASED BETW E E N H I S 4 S T H A N D H I S SOTH YEA R I S T O B E NOTED. AT T H E B EG I N N I NG O F T H I S P E R I O D H E STI LL H A D A F E W H O M OSEX U A L ENCOUNTERS BUT SOON ALL

SCHOOL

BUT W I THOUT THIS IS VERY

OVERLY

SEVERE.

O R D I N ARY. O N E M I G H T S A Y . N EV E RTHE LESS. M. A T 4 Y E A R S OF AGE HAD SEEN A LITTLE G I R L IN HIS

P E R V E R S E PRACT I C E S C E A S E D COM PLETELY. A N D Y E T . A MOST C U R I O U S T H I N G DESERVES CON S I D E R ATION; M . STI L L H A D F A I R LY F R E Q U E N T NOCTU R N A L E M I SS I O N S BECO M E A FT E R E ROTIC DREAMS THAT IN M. HAD

N E I G H BORHOOD E A T I N G H E R EXCR E M E NT. H E E V E N REMEMBERED HER NAME. HE SA I D THAT " I W A S

D I S G U STED. B U T LAT E R ON I T CAME BACK TO M E . " A N OT H E R T I M E D U R I N G O U R T A L K S H E M A D E T H E FOLLOW I N G READ ON STATE M E N T "AT ABOUT A B OO K H E FIRST HAD

P E R F E CT L Y

H E T E ROSEXUAL

N A TU R E TOLD M E

AND LESS AND

L E S S M A SOC H I STIC.

F A K I RS;

I THOUGHT I T WAS

THAT I N H I S D R E A M S H E W A S WITH " A VOLUPTUOUS WOMA N WITH W H O M CLOSE T O B E I N G MY SEXUAL ACTI V I T I E S W E R E HE ADDED THAT "MY

H O R R I B LE. BUT LATER ON IT C A M E BACK TO M E," THE A PP E A R A N C E EARLY I N LIFE OF E R OG E NOUS M A S OC H I S M -OFTEN S U B J ECT- W A S CITED BY WRITERS ON IN M,'S CASE; TH E HIS

NOR M A L,"

I NT E R EST H A D D I E D O UT; I H A D EVOLVED; I F I C A N J U DG E AGAIN," WERE BY MY D R E A MS. I H A D B E C O M E NOR M A L

VERIFIED

PRACTICES BEGAN W H E N H E W A S 1 0 Y E A R S OLD. H E B EC A M E AWARE O F HIS AND HIS P U N I S H M E NT S E E K I N G TO URINE AT

(IT I S A F A C T T H A T H I S E A R L I E R D R E A M S M A S OC H I STIC,) TH U S M:S M A SO

STRICTLY

PENCHANT

A TT R A C T I O N

C H I S M D E SC R I B E D A V E R I TABLE C U RV E STA RTING FROM J UST B E FO R E T H E MOMENT T H E CLINICAL

BOA R D I N G SCHOOL PERIOD DURING

HE

WENT THROUGH A SHORT A C ER TAIN R E PUGNANCE

WHICH

S I G N S A P P E A R E D -TH E C O NSTI TUTIONAL FACTOR WHICH M . H I M S E L F F I N D S V E R Y I M PORTA NT-TO THE POINT LO N G WHERE THE P E R V E RSION FROM CEASED. FOR A

A PPA RENTLY H E L D HIM BACK. BUT W H E N T H I S WAS OVER HIS MASOCH I STIC PRACTICES STA RTED IN

E A R N EST A N D G R E W IN I M PORTANCE. A FTER B E I N G SODOMIZED B Y A M O N I TOR. H E BECA M E THE TA RGET OF M A LT R E A T M E N T AS PECT BY HIS CLASSMATES. IS OBVIOUS. THE HIS

T I M E- R I G H T

P R E - P U B E RTY- H I S B E E N T H E SOLE

PERVERSION

SEEMS T O

HAVE

ACTOR ON S T A G E . B U T I F O N E CON S I D E R S T H E FACT THAT LATER ON M. HAD BEEN CAPABLE OF

SEXUAL

OF

WHICH

C L A SSMATES. HOW E V E R . OFTEN BAC K E D OFF. NOT D A R I N G TO ACTU A L L Y C O M M I T C E R TA I N D E E D S ; TH E Y DARED NOT. F O R I N STANCE. PUSH N E EDLES TH ROUGH H I S A R M T H E MSELVES BUT WOU L D G I V E HIM ORDERS T O DO SO. IN SEXUAL "GA M ES" HE

ENGAG I NG I N P A R A L L E L. N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTI V I TIES WHICH ONE OC C U P I E D CAN SAY HIS DREAMS THE AS HE GOT

OLDER.

THAT

PERVERSION.

I NT I MATELY L I N K E D T O M , ' S DESTI N Y . W A S A D DED. A S IT WERE. TO HIS " N O R M A L" S E X U A L I TY TO M E ET AN ECONO M I C N E E D-AT LEAST O N E M A Y SU PPOSE TH I S I S THE C A S E . D E V E LOPME NTS O F THIS HAVE P R O M PT E D ME TO PREFER THE KIND TERM

WOU L D A LWAYS ASSU M E T H E F E M A L E R O L E . AS H E SAID. "I WAS REA LLY AFTER THE HIS LOCAL SLUT. HIS AND IT

SATI S F I E D CHISM

ME."

MARRIAGE

MASO HIS

DEVELOPED TO

ITS F U L LEST

M. A N D

MASOCHISTIC MOVEMENT R A T H E R THAN M A SOC H I S M .

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M:S C A S E A LS O R E V E A LS THAT T H E P H E NO M E NON OF PHYSICAL PAIN AND ITS MYSTE R I O U S ABI LITY TO TRIGGER E ROTIC P L E A S U R E A N D O RG A S M IS NOT WHAT C E RTA I N S P E C I A L I STS H A V E C L A I M E D IT TO BE. TH EODO R E R E I K. FOR I N ST A N C E . C L A I M S IT I S TER ROR AND A N X I ETY WHICH ARE A SSOC I A T E D

THI NGS." M. H A D M A S T E R E D THE A RT O F P RO D U C I N G CONTRA STS. I.E. I N C R EASES AND DECREASES IN

TH E QUA NTITY OF STI M U L I WITH I N A G I V E N P E R IOD OF T I M E. TH E S E I D E A S OF T I M E A N D QUA NTITY GIVE US D E F I N ITE I N FO R M ATION W H I C H C A N TH ROW SOM E LIGHT O N T H E M YSTE R I O U S CONN ECTION BETW E E N PHYSICAL PAIN AND PLEASURE. FROM M.'S

W I T H PLEAS U R E A N D T H E N W I TH O R G A S M : M:S C A S E D I S PROVES T H I S . I N D I C A T I N G C LE A R L Y THAT PA I N ITSELF I S THE T R I G G E R . T H E B A S I C L I N K BETW E E N TH E I NTENSITY O F TH E PA I N A N D T H E I NTENS ITY OF THE ORGASM UNDERLIES E V E RYTH I N G M. DE

E N D L ESS S E ARCH FOR P A I N . W E C A N LOGICALLY INFER AN EQUALLY E N DLESS NEED FOR PLE A S U R E . M. ORC H ESTRATED ON HIM THE IN B RUTA L TORTU R E S OBTA I N THE

I N FLICTED

ORDER T O

SC R I B E D A N D AT T I M E S M E NTIO N E D O P E N LY: "ON THE WHOLE. IT WAS PA I N T H A T T R I GG E R E D MY

K E E N E S T POS S I B L E P L E A S U R E . H E U N DOUBTEDLY EXPER I E NCED DERIVED FROM "TH E THE FEELING OF HAPPINESS OF A WILD EGO."

EJACU LATION:' TH I S E X P LA I N S T H E C H A RACTE R I S TIC ATTITUDE O F T H E M A SOC H I ST W H O CONSTA NTLY D E M A N DS THAT H I S P A R TN E R I N C R E A S E THE PA I N . M. W A S QUITE AWA R E OF T H I S OUTB I DDI NG. F E A R O F PA I N WOU LD B E A B S E N T FROM H I M A N D IT WAS H I S S A D I ST PART N E R WHO WOULD B A C K OFF BECAUSE OF T H E EXTR E M E NATURE O F HIS D E M A N DS : "AT T H E L A S T MOME NT. THE S A D I ST A LWAYS B A C K S OFF:' I T APPEARS MOREOVER THAT PAIN HAS A DOU BLE

SATISFACTION U N TA M E D BY

I N S T I N C TU A L

I M PU L S E

THE

WHICH F R E U D TELLS U S " I S I NCOM PA R A B LY M O R E I N T E N S E THA N THAT DERIVED FROM SATI NG AN

I N STINCT THAT H A S B E E N TA M E D:' O N E WO U L D B E I NC OR R ECT I N A S S U M I NG, HOW E V E R , T H A T M . W A S FREE TO DESIRE OR T O R E F U S E T H A T JOY. TH E

PARADOX IS THAT IT WAS FORC E D U PO N H I M . IN A SENSE HE WAS CON D E M N E D TO PLEASURE AND

F U NCTION: ON T H E ONE H A N D I T A P P A R E NTLY ACTS AS A CATALYST FOR S E X U A L A RO U SA L; ON T H E

T H I S I S W H Y H I S C A S E I S SO D I FFIC U LT T O U N R A V E L . SUFFER THE WORST TOR M E NTS TO O B TA I N

OTH E R H A N D I T W O U L D S E E M TO I N C R E A S E S E X U A L EXC ITEMENT AND PUSH I T TO ITS C L I MAX WHILE

PLEA S U R E U N D E R A B SOLUTE C O M P U L S I O N : S U C H WAS M:S DESTINY F O R THE GREATER PART O F H I S LIFE.

LOS I NG I T S OWN S P E C I FIC ITY. I N T H I S S E N S E . PA I N HAS NO BOU N D A R Y . "EVERY INCH OF MY BODY

COULD BE A RO U S E D TH ROUGH P A I N :' T H I S WOULD I N D I CATE A N S E N SITI VITY. EXTR E M E M UTATION O F THE BODY'S YET PAIN IN ITSELF WAS NOT T H E I N THE SAME WAY THAT M:S REACTIONS TO PA I N WERE DIFFERENT HIS FROM WHAT IS GENERALLY WERE

U L T I M A T E PLEA S U R E. IT WAS B U T A M EA N S. M. M A D E T H E DI STI NCTION V E R Y C L E A R LY : "AT FI RST. A N D ON TH E SPOT W H E R E P A I N WAS A P P L I E D . I T H U RT. BUT THEN I GOT A N E R ECTION. M O R E PA I N . A N D STI L L MORE. A N D T H E F E E L I N G O F P LE A S U R E GRADUA LLY BECA M E OCC U R E D I NTENSE. SHARPER. WHEN C L E A R E R. PAIN WAS E J A C U LATION AT ITS MOST

ACCEPTED.

R E LA T I O N S W I T H OTH E R S

U N ORTHODOX I N V A R I O U S WAYS. I T I S W E L L KNOWN THAT MOST S P EC I A L I STS STR E S S THE M A SOC H I SrS QUEST FOR H U M I LI ATION. I WOU LD ADD THAT TH I S IS PARTI C U L A R L Y TRUE WHEN THE I M PORTA N C E O F

PHYSICA L P A I N I N ITSELF I S M I N I M IZED: TORTU RE I S S E LDOM VERY HO R R I FY I NG. TH E GENITALIA ARE

THE

AFTER

E J AC U A LTION. T H E R E WAS PA I N

N O T S U B J ECTED T O M UT I LATION. P A I N D O E S N O T G O BEYOND A C E RTA I N T H R ESHOLD. ETC. M'S CASE

AGA I N A N D I T H U RT:' T H I S A SPECT O F PA I N A S A M E A N S WAS I D E N T I F I E D BY F R E U D IN T H E ECONOMIC

PROBLEM I N MASOC H I S M W H E R E HE POSITS THAT. I N

SHOWS T H A T T H I S I S N O T T R U E A N D T H A T EVER INCREASING SOUGHT FOR. PHYSICA L HOWEV E R . PAIN IT IS WAS A CT U A L L Y THAT

TH E

CASE

O F M A SOC H I S M .

PHYSICAL

PAIN

AND

OBVIOUS

U N P L E A S U R E A R E N E I T H E R E N D S I N TH E M S E LVES NOR S I G N A LS. BUT M E A N S TO A TTA I N A GOA L WHICH I S A LWAYS P L E A S U R E . M . T H A T H I S TORTU R E S BUT THAT T H E Y BE DID NOT O N LY D E M A N D

A LTHOUGH P A I N A N D H U M I LIATION B E LONG T O TWO D I F F E R E N T REGISTERS. THE FACT THAT TORTU RE I S I N FLICTED OF ESTA B L I S H E S N E C E S S I T Y BY A N OT H E R A MOST I N T I M ATE LINK PARTY

B E I N C R E A S I N GLY PA I N F U L. PROLONGED. SUSPENDED.

BETWEE N

T H E M . A N D HOW D I D M . L I V E T H I S CO R R E LATION? ACCORD I NG TO H I M. WHAT H E CRAVED FOR WAS

R E S U M E D. A N D D I V E R S I F I E D . I N T H I S R E S PECT H E I S A GOOD A D E PT OF F R E U D W H O S A Y S I N CIVI LISATION

AND ITS DISCONTENTS: W H E N ANY SITU ATION THAT I S

ABOVE A L L A N A B A S E M ENT OF HIS PE RSONA LITY, TO ACH I E V E THIS " V E R I TA B L E MORAL SUICIDE"

DESIRED LONGED.

BY THE

PLEASURE

P R I N C I PLE

IS

PRO

EVERY M E A N S W A S V A L I D THE M O M E N T M . A N D H I S W I F E "WE R E R E A LLY TWO SLAVES O F TWO LOVERS:'

EVERY M EA N S. I . E .

IT O N LY P R O D U C E S A F E E L I N G OF M I L D WE ARE SO M A D E T H A T WE C A N ONLY A F RO M STATE A OF

CONTENTME NT. D E R IV E

IN A D D ITON TO THE TORT U R E S . OR OBEYI N G O R D E R S TO WHICH A P PA R E NTLY

I NTE N S E

ENJOYMENT L I TT L E

THE

S I M PLEST IN

SLAP

CONTRAST A N D

V E RY

FROM

I N DULGE

C O P R O P H A G Y.

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HIM

TO

P RO L O N G T H E E J A C U LATION.

" P S YC H I C A L TH E O B V I O U S

COMPLICATIO S A N D T H E PROBLE M S INVOLVED I N H E MOSTASIS. I T W A S A LSO H I S I M M E NSE P R I D E AND HIS SCO R N FOR HIS PA RTNERS WHICH PROMPTED H I M TO R E M A RK. A L MOST I N C I DENTALLY. THAT "TH E SA DIST A LWAYS BACKS OFF A T T H E LAST MOMENT," THE S A D I STIC STUDENT WHO SHARED M:S LIFE A N D H I S WI FE'S WAS SU PPOSED T O BE A LL-POW ERFUL: HE GAVE STRICT ORDERS THAT HAD TO BE

PLEAS U RE "

A FT E R

H O M OSEX U A L S I D E O F A L L T H I S W A S. ACCORDING TO M .. ANOT H E R THAT M E ANS TO H U M I LIATION. AS HE

F E LT

HOMOSEXU A L ' PRACTICES TO I N S U LT S . WITNESS

WERE THESE

TANTAMOUNT

P H R ASES M . GOT A

PARTNER TO ORDER H I M TO

I N S C R I B E ON H I S S K I N SO H I S MORAL DECAY COULD BE SEEN: "I GAVE THE I M PRESSION I WAS A N I N V E RT W H I C H I WAS NOT OUT O F PLEASURE. BUT OUT OF H U M I L I A T I ON. I E X P E R I ENC E D NO PHYSICAL

OBEYED-AND Y E T H E WAS I N FACT LOOKED U PO N AS UTTER LY WORTHLESS. M. C LA I M E D THAT HE

H I MSELF DID NOT E X I ST AS A SUBJECT B U T THAT H E S I M PLY E M BO D I E D THAT THE HE SA DISTS VERY FANTASI ES. LITTLE HE

SATISFACTION. I T WAS A L L O N THE MORAL PLA N E ." M. D E PICTED H I M S E L F A S H A V I NG A PRESSING N E E D TO B E H U M I LIATED-HOMOS E X U A LITY WAS ONLY A N INST R U M ENT TO H I S E N D AND T O HAVE H I S W I L L COM P LETELY D E STROYED. C E R TA I N E X P RESSIONS K E PT R E C U R R I NG IN HIS SPEECH SUCH AS:

C LA I M ED

HAD

REAL

E X ISTENCE O F H I S OWN. AND H E R E H E HOODWIN K E D H I S I N T E R LOCUTOR F O R H E W A S V E R Y DEFINITELY E X P R E S S I NG A DESIRE: THE D ES I R E T H A T TH E SUCH A WAY AS TO

OTH E R P E RSON PROCEED IN

D I S R EG A R D O F T H E W I LL. TOTA L ANNI H I LATION OF THE W I LL. THE W I L L EXISTED NO LONGER. ABOLITION OF THE W I LL. ETC. THIS TRAIT U N DO U B T E D L Y THE GENE R A L

NEGATE M:S EXISTENC E . HE WAS READY TO SUBMIT TO ANY K I N D OF I NVESTIGATION SINCE RETICENCE WAS TOTA L L Y FOR E I G N TO HIM AND I N DE E D RETI

CONC E A L E D

SOM ETH I NG

DES PITE

LITERA LLY

I NCONCE I VA B LE:

TO

SHOW ANY

TONE OF H I S DISCO U R S E W H I C H . ON THE WHOLE. WAS RESTRAINED AND FREE FROM D R A M AT I C

CENCE WOULD HAVE

M E A NT TO E X E RT

HIS WI LL.

AND T H E R E FORE TO C A NC E L H I MSELF OUT. THE I NT E R LO C U T O R OR THE PARTNER

TH U S

E F FECTS. NEV ERTHELESS T H E R E W A S SOM ET H I NG A T R I FLE TOO STRONG IN THIS I N S I STENCE ON

FOUND

H I M S E L F I N T H E PARADOX ICAL SITUATION Of BEING STR I PP E D OF ALL POWE R O F SPEECH AND DESIRE. A N D SO T H E M A SOC H I ST. B E H I N D THE FACADE OF A D R A M ATIC A S S E R TI O N OF H I S NOTH I NGNESS.

R ENOUNC ING H I S W I L L "FOR THE B E N E F I T OF THE PE RSON WHO WAS I N COMMA ND."

TO

BE

MORE

P R ECISE. F I RST.

HE

R E A LLY

RENOU NCED

ACTUA LLY S U B DU E D T H E SADIST B Y FORCING H I M T O A S S U M E T H E R O L E W H I C H H E . THE MASOCHI ST. A PPEARED TO A S S U M E . THE TOTA L POWER THAT M. CONFE R R E D M OC K E R Y . I ON HIS PA RTN E R WA S AN U TT E R

NOTH ING WANTED S E C O N D.

AT A LL: THE

HE

WAS THE ONE WHO

E RO T I C

R E L A T I ONS H I P TO E X I S T : I T W A S TE R M I N A T E D HE

AS SOON AS

RESUMED H I S FREEDOM V I S-A-VIS THOSE PERSONS WHO S U PPOSEDLY HELD H I M IN BONDAGE AND H E DID N O T A L LOW ANY FURTHER S E RVITUDE TO

P E RSON A L L Y

BELIEVE

THAT THE

PERVERSE M A SOC H IST I S NOT TOTA LLY UNAWA R E O F H I S D EEP-SEATED ATTITUDE. I N A N Y CASE. H E C A N NOT R E S I ST L ET T I N G IT BE GLIMPSED OR

OC C U R . M , ' S D E E PLY CONC E A LE D ASSE RTION O F TOTA L POWER WAS M A TC H E D B Y HIS OVERWEENING P R I D E WHICH COULD B E GLIM PSED WHENEVER HE DESC R I B E D UNDERGONE. THE HE H I DE O U S F E LT TORT U R E S HE HAD

G U E S S E D A T . T H E BONDAG E T O W H I C H THE SADIST I S CONDE M N E D B Y THE M A SOC H I ST IS. I N PART, SO OPA QU E LY V E I LE D THAT ONE M I GHT CONSIDER T H I S TO BE W H I LE THE L A S T W O R D ON THE W H O L E MATTE R. BONDAGE MUST IN FACT BE

H E W A S ALMOST UNIQUE:

ONLY ONE PERSON H E KNEW OF. WHO LIVED I N A CAGE BRI STLING WITH S H A RP POINTS. HAD EVER

ANOTH E R

C O NC E A L E D ,

WHICH

H OLDS

P R I SO N E R

THE

S U R PASSED H I M. HE S A I D T H E ONLY REASON HE WAS RETICENT ABOUT PERFORM I N G EVEN MORE

MASOCHIST H I MS E L F.

DRASTIC MUTI LATIONS-SUC H A S A MPUTATING' HIS P E N I S-WAS THE FEAR OF M E DICAL O R LEGAL

MICHEL DE M'UZAN

TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOTE

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POSTFACE: MASOC H I S M AND POLYSEXUA LITY

YOU HAVE J UST R E A D M:S STORY A S HE TOLD IT TO A FRENCH PSYCHOAN A LYST, M, HAS MICHEL DE M'UZA N , STU D I ES ON SADISM A N D MASOC H I S M A R E V E R Y

SELDOM BASED ON G E N U I N E "CLI N I C A L MATERI A L:' BY

A LT H O U G H

D E SC R I B E D

H I M SELF AS A

GENUINE

MEAN

THAT

WHICH

REFERS

TO

MASOC H I ST, WE SHOULD NOT CON S I D E R THIS STORY AS AN OBSE RVATION NOR A C L I N ICAL CASE SINCE M, DID NOT CON S U LT M IC H E L DE M'UZAN FOR H I S MASOC H I S M , H E AGREED T O TALK W I T H A PSYCHO A N A LYST ABOUT H I S M A SOC H I S M BECA U S E HE WAS URGED TO DO SO B Y H I S OWN PHYSICI A N WHOM H E CON S U LT E D FOR R E S pi RA TO R Y P R O B L E M S A N D

CONCRETE SADISTIC OR M A SOC H I STIC PRACTI CES. VERY OFTEN THESE STU D I E S REFER EITHER TO THE S A D I STIC N E U ROTIC A N DIOR M A SOC H I STIC F A N TA S I E S OF

PATI E NTS, STORI E S AS

OR TO S A D I ST I C A N DIOR SUCH AS M:S, OF OR MORE AND

MASOCHISTIC O FT E N , SUCH

THE

NOVELS

SADE

SACH E R M A SOCH .

W H O K N E W THAT M : S PAST L I F E WOULD C E RTAINLY I NTEREST DE M'UZAN A S A C A S E H I STORY, THE TITLE OF D E M'UZAN'S PAPER, H E R E P ARTLY TRANSLATED AS "A CASE OF PERVERTED M A SOC H I S M," I S TO A DEG R E E IDEOLOGICAL F R A U D S I NCE IT R E DUCES M:S EXPERIENCE TO A M EDICAL CASE, ALTHOUGH NOTHING IN M:S BEHAVIOR I N DICATES THAT H E IT I S ALSO A R E M A R K A BLE FACT THAT MASOC H I STS AND SADISTS A R E V E R Y M U C H AWARE OF TH E I R PEC U L I A R ITIES. B UT DO NOT CON S I D E R I SHALL NOT EVEN TAKE I N TO C O N S I D E R ATION S A D I STS WHO ARE

THOSE

M A S OC H I S T S

AND

CONDEM N E D B Y A

J UDGE

TO CHOOSE

BETW E E N

PRISO N O R PSYC H I ATRIC TREATM ENT.

EVER THOUGHT O F U N D E RGOING TREATME NT. M:S C U RIOSITY TOWARD TIES HAS HIS OWN S E X U A L PECULIARI DESIRE OF

SEXUAL

NOTHI N G TO DO WITH T H E RID OF THEM. ON TH E

GETTING SUDDEN

CONTRARY, THE M A SOC H I S T I C

TH EM AS S Y M PT O M S OF A N Y PARTIC ULAR I LLNESS. AND FROM A PSYC H I ATRIC POINT O F VIEW, IT WOULD BE I M POSSIBE FOR T H E SADIST A N D/OR MASOCHIST TO PRETE N D THAT W H E N HE I NDULGES IN THESE PRACTICES, H E H A S LOST HIS "SE N S E OF REALITY."

I N T E R R U PT I O N

OF

HIS

PRACTICES-WHICH C A N NOT B E COMPA R E D T O T H E S P O N T A N EO U S R E M I SS I O N OF AN ILLNESS

SHOULD LEAD U S T O CONS I D E R M : S STORY A S THE STORY O F A M A SOC H I STIC PROCESS. IT I S QUITE R E M A R K A BL E THAT PSYCHOANALYTIC

GENUINE

SADISM

AND

M A S OC H I S M THEREFORE

SHOULD NOT B E CONFUSED WITH MORAL SADISM

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CONTR A R Y TO W H A T SA D E TELLS U S JOURN EES DE SODOME. THE P E R V E RT

IN

LES

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NOT

DOES

GENUINE

SADISM

AND

M A S OC H I S M

ARE

TWO

NEED A DEEP AND DARK CAVE TO HAVE K I N K Y S E X . F A R FROM GOD'S S I GHT: H E S I M PLY WALKS A LONG TH E STR E ETS. TA K I NG SUFFICIENT PRECAUTIONS TO AVOI D BOTH PO L I C E A N D "PERVERT H U NTERS."

A S PECTS. A MONG

MANY OTH ERS. OF POLYSEXUAL

ITY : AN I N F I N ITELY D I V E R S I F I E D SEXUA LITY W H I C H CONSTITUTES THE POTE NTI A L SEXUA LITY OF EVERY BODY.

IN

E V E R Y C I TY THERE

A R E OPEN

PLAC ES. OPEN

SPACES WHERE E V E R Y P E R V E RT C A N E X P E R I E N C E THIS POLYS E X U A LITY. WHICH FREUD IS CA LLED THE SEXUAL PRACTICES OF H I S CHOICE. ONE

"POLYMORPHOUS

S E X U A L I TY . "

V I O L E NTLY

WOULD C E RTANLY W I S H TO M E ET MORE PSYCHO A N A LYSTS THERE. OR AT LEAST THOSE AMONG

R E PR E S S E D I N A L MOST E V E RYBODY A N D PARTICU LALY A MONG THOSE WHO C LA I M TO BE SEXUA LLY "NORMA L." I . E . H ETEROS E X U A L. THE I NTENSITY OF TH I S R E P R E SSION A N D ITS EFFECTS CAN EASI LY BE RECOG N IZED THOSE BEEN WHO IN ARE TH E HOR R I F I ED EXPRESSION OF

TH E M WHO C LA I M THAT THEY H A V E SOMETH I NG TO SAY ABOUT PE RVERSIONS. TH ESE ARE FREE

SPACES. A LSO. W H E R E A N YONE CA N DO A NYTH I N G W I THOUT EXPECTI N G A NYBODY T O N ECESSA R I LY D O THE S A M E T H I N G S AS H E DOES. THE SO-CA LLED DESIRE OF THE IS A PERVERT M YTH. TO P E R V E RT THE

CONFRONTED-WITHOUT H A V I N G P R E P A R E D F O R IT-W ITH THE

PREVIOUSLY

R E A L I TY TO W H I C H M:S STORY REFERS.

NON P E R V E RT N E U R OT I C

THE

FANTASY O F THE THE DISGUISED AND RE

H ET E R O S E X U A L: OF HIS

IN

THIS

RESPECT.

MICHEL

DE M'UZA N DOES NOT

EXPRESSION

UNCONSCIOUS

PROV I D E US WITH WHAT M A S OC H I S M IS. AS M UC H A S WITH ABLE WHAT "NOR M A L SEXUA LITY" MODEL A G A I N ST W H ICH IS: TH E I N EVIT MOST P S Y C HO

PRESSED D E S I R ES.

IF

I N S I ST O N

T H E FACT THAT

M:S

STORY

IS A

A N A LYSTS COMPARE POLYSEXUALITY I N ORDER TO D E SC R I B E IT I N TE R M S OF DEVIANCE. I T I S VERY

R E M A R K A B L E C A S E H ISTORY. IT I S FOR T H E MOST PART BECAUSE CHISM IT D E M O N STRATES T H A T M A SO

TRUE. HOWE V E R . THAT IT I S NOT EASY. EVEN FOR A PSYC HOA N A LYST. TO A P P ROACH SOMETH I NG WHEN TH I S SOM ETH I N G H A S B E E N VIOLENTLY R EPRESSED WITH I N ONESELF: M I C H E L DE M'UZAN H A D TO WAIT TEN YEARS B E FORE H E COULD START TO WORK ON M:S STORY. A N D IT IS Q U I TE I RONICAL TO SEE THAT TH E "SEX SPEC I A LI ST." THE PSYCHOANALYST. F E LT LI K E A CHILD FACED W I TH TH I S R E M A R KABLE

I S NOT A STR UCTU R E : O N E I S NOT M A SO

C H I STIC L I K E ONE IS N E U ROTIC. IT I S R E M A R K A B L E I N D E E D TO S E E HOW M . S U D DE N LY A B A N DONS H I S M A SOC H I ST I C H A B I TS A FTE R TH I RTY Y E A R S O F

CONSTA N T A N D H E AVY PRACTICE. A N D RETU R N S TO A V E R Y Q U I ET A N D PEAC E F U L H ETEROS EX U A L LIFE. EVEN HIS DREAMS LOSE ALL M A SOC H I S T I C

CONTENT. S U C H A S U DD E N C H A NG E . AS WELL AS THE FACT THAT WH I LE HE WAS A M A SOCH I ST. M:S

SEXOLOGI ST: M . THE M A S OC H I ST.

L I F E WAS VERY W E L L BALANCED BOTH SOC I A LL Y WE ARE NOT REALLY I NT E R ESTED IN THE RE A N D E M OTIO N A LLY. P R E C L U D E S A N Y TA LK OF A " P E R V E RT S T R U C T U R E . " M. WAS A SPECIA LIZED

STRA I N E D S E X U A LITY OF OUR PSYCHOANA LYSTS: OU R AIM IS TO G I V E S H A P E TO A NEW NOTION

WOR K E R WHO WAS H I G H LY R E G A R D E D BY H I S PEERS AND HIS S U P E R IORS.

POLY S E X U A L I T Y -A N D TO D E SC R I B E T H E M A N Y P R OC E S S E S THROUGH WHICH POLYS E X U A LI T Y

BECO M E S A "FACT OF L I FE:' S U C H PROCESSES A R E TOT A L L Y A L I E N TO C L A S S I C A L O P PO S I T I O N S :

M A SOC H I S M FRENCH

IS

NOT A STA NCE

E I T H E R . A S SOME A STA N C E

PSYCHOA N A LYSTS B E L I E V E .

M A N /W O M A N . H U S B A N D /W I F E . H O M O - / H E T E R O - . ACTI VE/PASSI VE. ETC . . . I N FACT. TH EY HAVE T O BE

I

T H A T A S U B J ECT M IG H T ADOPT F O R A S HORT W H I L E A N D T H E N A B A N DO N . IT I S N O T A STA NCE BECAUSE M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES C H A N G E WITH T I M E (AS

STU D I E D

A LONG

C E RTA I N

L I N ES OF

I NCREASING

I NTENSITY: VIOLENT S E X U A LITI ES. V I S U A L S E X U A L ITIES. LIQU I D S E X U A LITIES. A L I MENTARY SEXUALI TI E S . O B E S E S E X U A L I TI ES. ETC . C O N S I D E R E D

DO S A D I STIC O N E S) . THEY CAN T R A N SFORM I NTO ONE A N OT H E R . THE M A SOC H I S T S O M E T H I M E S

BECO M I NG A S A D I ST A N D VICE V E R SA . B U T THEY CHANGE FOR T H E MOST PART IN TH E SENSE OF A BECOMING. T H E Y FOLLOW A PATTE R N OF I NC REAS ING Q U A N T I TATI V E A I N T E N S I TY C A R E FULLY P RO

ALONG THESE LI N ES. POLYSEXUALITY DETE R M I N ES A NEW CUT- U P OF T H E C ITY A S WELL AS OF THE EROTIC BODY O F PEOPLE. I NDEPENDE NT. ON THE ONE H A N D. OF THE OPPOSITION OF CLASSES AND. ON TH E OTH E R . OF THE B I OLOGICAL OPPOSITION OF SEXES.

G R A M MED. TOW A R D

S O R T O F P ROG R E S S I V E T E N S I O N A TENSION WHICH IS

SO M E T H I NG.

C A LC U LATED ACCO R D I N G TO A N I NT E N S I F ICATION

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VIOLENCE

COUPLED P LA N N E D

WITH

PROG R E S S I V E . OF THE

H I S ACTI VITIES LEAD H I M PARTI A L LY OUT OF T H E R E A L M OF LANGUAGE. OUT OF A SYSTEM OF S I G N S WHICH ALWAYS PRE-EXISTED H I M A N D T O W H I C H H E WAS S U P POS E D TO HAVE BEEN COMPLETELY

C A R E F U LLY EROTIC BODY.

E X P LO R A T I O N

A CAREFUL R E A D I NG O F M:S STORY REVEALS THAT TH E CONTROLS ON THIS P R OG R E S S I O N ARE

SUBJECTED. T H E STORY O F T H E S E X U A L PHASES (ORAL. ANAL. URETHRAL AND G E NITA L) I S NOT ONLY TH E STORY OF TH E ACCEPTA N C E OF OEDIPAL SEX. I T I S ALSO TH E STORY OF T H E S U B J ECTI V I ZATION OF TH E EROTIC BODY. OR IN OTH E R WORDS. T H E

DOUBLE. FI RST. T H E M A SOCH I ST C A N STOP W H E N H E WANTS: H I S ACTI VITI ES A R E P R E P A R E D WITH GREAT CARE A N D THE TERMS OF THESE ACTI VITIES ARE D E SC R I B E D C E PT E D BY P R E C I S E LY BOTH IS IN A " C O N T R ACT" AC

PROHITIBION O F POL YSEXUALITY.

PARTNERS. A L SO

S E CO N D LY . T H E BY THE H E R E AGA I N I HAVE TO B E B R I E F; W H AT I SAY IS

P R OG R E S S I O N

CONTROLLED

A N X I ETY W H I C H T H E M A SOCHIST A ROUSES I N H I S PARTN E R WHO "ALWAYS G I V E S U P" A T A C E RTA I N POI NT. A S M . SAYS. NOT A LWAYS. HOW E V E R. AS A N EXTRE M E EXPERIENCE L I K E "ULTI MATE SEX." T H E R E A L ONE. H A S S H O W N US.

M ERELY A H I NT OF WHAT SHOULD B E DETA I LE D AT SOME LENGTH.

MASOCHISTIC ACTI VITIES ARE

NOT S U P POSED TO

DRIVE TH E MASOCH I ST COM PLETELY OUT OF TH E REALM OF LANGUAGE GEN ERALLY S P EA K I NG. AS I N

RATH E R THAN COM P A R E M A S OC H I STIC ACTIVITIES WITH R E LIGIOUS RITES. BY N A T U R E ESSENTIA LLY

T H E CASE O F SOME PSYCHOTICS. TH E P E RVERTED ACT ON ONE HAND I S NOT SPEECH. AND I T DIFFERS FUNDAM ENTALLY FROM T H E P E R V E RTED FANTASM WHICH IS ALWAYS A PH R A S E . SOM ETH I NG LIKE

R E PETITIVE. W E SHOULD COMPARE THEM WITH AN I NITIATION. WHOSE IN FACT. IT IS AN IS EXPER I M ENTATION DEATH :

U LTI M A T E

GOAL

DEATH AS

PRESIDENT SC H R E B E R'S: " I T WOU L D B E SO N I C E TO BE A WOMAN SUBJ ECT TO COiTUS." ON TH E OTH E R HAND TH E PERVE RTED A C T I S NOT HAZA RDOUS SO FAR. IF WE ACTS OBSERVE OVER TO A TH E CONCATE N A TION OF

ULTIMATE SEX! WE 00 NOT P RETE N D THAT SUCH A

GOAL IS ALWAYS REACH ED-ACTUA LLY I T IS VERY R A R E LY SO-BUT WE TH I N K THAT SUCH ALWAYS EXISTS I M PLICITLY. PERVERTED A GOAL

EXPERI

THESE THEY

CERTA I N A

PERIOD OF T I M E . P R OG R E S S I V E

M ENTATION I S A WAY O F B E I NG-FOR-DEATH (ETRE

APPEAR

F O L LOW

POUR-LA-MORTI. BUT THERE I S ALSO PLEASURE I N ITS QUEST. AND THERE IS EVEN MORE THAN PLEASU RE.

PATTERN L I N K E D T O EACH OTH E R A S I N A SYNTAGM ; I T IS A DISCOURSE. A P E R FORMATIVE D I SCOU RSE. WHICH MORE R E A D I LY OBEYS OTH E R LAWS T H A N THE LAWS OF SYMBOLIC LANG UAGE. IT O B E Y S A N A LTOGETH E R DIFFERENT LOG IC; IT OBEYS THE

THERE I S ECSTASY-JOUISSANCE-THE PLEASU RABLE

COUNTERPART OF DEATH.

LOGIC O F T H E BODY, I F I MAY SAY S O . I T I S QUITE IT IS NOT POSSI BLE TO E X P LA I N FULLY IN THIS POSTFACE H O W A N D WHY JOUISSANCE I S PRECISELY WHAT WE HAVE H A D TO REJ ECT I N THE COURSE OF BECO M I N G O E D I PA LIZED. W H I LE OUR BODY. OUR A M AZ I NG TO SEE CAN THE INCREASING HIS CONTROL A AND ITS

M A SOC H I ST

GET OVER

BODY

P H Y S I O L OG I C A L

F U N CT I O N S .

T H I S CONTROL

EROTIC BODY. WAS S U BJ ECTED TO TH E STRUCTUR I NG A N D A L I E NATING POW E R OF LA NGUAGE. THE O F T H E SO-C A L L E D " N O R M A L"

I NC R EASES I N PROPORTION T O T H E VIOLENCE OF THE PERVERTED ACTS. SUCH A CONTROL I M PL I E S A VERY PREC I S E K NOWLEDGE. A KNOWLEDGE THAT

CONSTRUCTION

H ETEROS E X U A L S U BJ EC T COMES A BOUT BY A N D THROUGH N E R A BLE LA N G U A G E . TO THE EVERY OF S U BJECT IS V U L LAN

ONE CAN NOT FIND IN BOOKS. A KNOWLEDGE WHICH DERIVES FROM A NON-VERBAL S E M I OTICS, FROM

BODY-SEMIOTICS.

FO R M

TH E

SPECIFIC

GUAGE O F WHICH HE BECOMES T H E SUBJ ECT. EVEN H I S EROTIC BODY I S V U L N E RABLE. EACH ZONE OF WHICH HAS BEEN SUCCESS I F E LY N A M ED. EROTI TH E MASOC H I ST ALSO USES A N OT H E R M EANS TO D E S U BJ ECTI FY HIS BODY: I.E.

H U M I LIATION.

M:S

C I S E D A N D FO RBIDDEN. TO THE E XC LUSION O F T H E G E N I T A L Z O N E A N D TH I S F O R ONE PURPOSE ONLY: HETEROS E X U A L I NTE RCOU RSES.

TATOOS, A LL OVER HIS BODY, SAY: "THE M EETING POINT FOR THE MOST BEA UTI F U L P R I CKS," OR " I AM A BITCH, I AM FUCKED U P, I A M NOT A M A N NOR A WOMAN, BUT A BITCH. A SLUT, FLESH TO BE FUCKED,

THE

AIM

OF T H E M A SOC H I ST-A N D T O A LESSER

A LIVI NG TOILET BOWL . . . "

DEG R E E OF TH E SADIST-IS TO DECONSTRUCT THE OEDI PAL CONSTRUCTI O N . IN OTH E R WORDS TO I WANT TO PO I N T OUT THREE I M PORTANT DETA I LS ABOUT THESE TERMS:

DESUBJECTIFY HIS OWN BODY.

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THE F E M I N I ZATION OF THE NAMES (AT LEAST I N

VI EW. H A V E NO SPEC I A L SENSE. NO M E A N I NG . THEY DO NOT EVEN R E F E R TO A R E A L OB.JECT . . . TH E Y HAVE ONLY TO A P E R FO R M AT I V E HORROR F U NC T I O N : AND TO TO

F R E N C H : A BITC H . A SLUT. ETC.'. M. I S A M A N . BUT I F WERE A HE IS WOMAN I F WOULD BE EXACTLY THE AND

SAME.

NOT HOMOSEXUAL.

HOWEVER.

I NDUCE.

PROVOKE

MAKE

W H E N H E GETS FUCKED BY A MAN IT I S ON LY FOR M A SOCH I STIC P U R POSES.

PEOPLE G O A W A Y A NDIOR REACT WITH

AGGRES

S I V I TY AND BEAT T H E SHIT O UT O F THE M A SOCH I ST. BUT AT THE S A M E T I M E IT AROUSES THE DEATH

2.1

IN SPITE OF T H E F E M I N I ZATION OF THE WORDS.

DRIVES OF THE OTH E R . I T A ROUSES HIS A N X I ETY AS W ELL. AND THROUGH TH I S A N X I ETY TH E MASOCH I ST IS A B LE TO CONTROL THE AGG R ESSI VITY OF THE OTH E R .

T H E S E T E R M S REFER TO A N E UTRAL. RATH ER THAN TO A FE M I N I N I N E OR MASC U L I N E QUA LITY: A BITC H OR A SLUT H A S I N F A C T NO BIOLOGICAL SEX: "I A M N E I TH E R M A N N O R WOMA N B U T FLESH . . . "

SUCH A D E S U B .J ECTIVIZATION OF T H E M A SOC H I ST

3.' T H E S E T E R M S R E F E R N EITHER TO SUB.J ECT NOR

OB.JECT. BUT TO A FUNCTION: A BITCH I S SOMEONE WHO I N DUCES THE NORMAL H ETEROSEX U A L TO B E BITCHY. A U V I N G TOILET BOWL I S A P L A C E THAT

DOES NOT M A K E A PSYCHOTIC OF H I M . A SUB.JECT COMPLETELY A L I E N TO T H E REALM OF LANGUAGE WHO REFUSES I T COM PLETELY. BUT THIS S U B.J ECTI V I ZA T I O N A L LO W S THE M A S OC H I S T TO FREE

R E C E I V E S SHIT AND PISS

HERE I SUGGEST THE

H I M S E L F F R O M H I S U NC O N SC I O U S A L I E N A T I O N F R O M T H E S Y M BOLIC F U NCTION O F LANGUAGE: I T ALLOWS H I M TO R E D I SCOVE R THE PERFORMATIVE

R E A D E R VISIT T H E PIT AT "THE MINE S H A FT' I N NEW YOR K C I TY

F U NCTION OF LANGUAGE ALONG WITH H I S BOOY LANGUAGE. A FTER H I S "TRI P," THE M A SOC H I ST C A N IT I S O N LY FOR THE N E U ROTIC. OR THE H ETERO S E X U A L . SO-CALLED "NORMAL PEOPLE" THAT THE M A S OC H I ST P R ET E N D S TO BE E XC R E M E N T. A GO B A C K I NTO T H E R E A L M OF SYMBOLIC LANGUAGE. BUT H E W I LL DO I T F R E E LY. AND H E W I L L PLAY I N I T A N D WITH IT. H E W I LL M A K E A G A M E OF LANGUAGE. AND H E W I LL H A V E ACCO M P L I S H E D I N H I S OWN WAY THE LAST METAMORPHOSIS FORESEEN BY N I ET

G A R BA G E-CA N. THE MASOCHIST IS NOT EXC R E M E N T OR W H A T E V E R : H E S A Y S H E I S. AND T H A T M A K ES ALL T H E DIFFERENCE. I F H E SAYS. A N D R E PE A TS THAT HE I S A SLUT. A TURD. A PILE OF SH IT. A N D SO ON. IT IS O N LY TO I N DUCE TH E AGGRESSIVITY OF THE

ZSCHE. HE W I LL H A V E BECOM E ' A C H I LD.

OTH E R . OF THE PARTN E R . FRA NCOIS PERALDI T H E S E T E R M S . FROM TH E MASOCHISTS POINT OF N E W YORK .J ULY

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M ASTER]
BEGIN THE WERE D I S RO B I N G HE WOULD EXPECT. T H E R E ON HOT SUMMER N I GHTS THAT T H E

TH E T H R E E FOLLOWI NG T E XTS A R E LOVE LETTERS. THE F I RST ONE. 'ONCE I HAD A M ASTE R , ' R E P R I NTED H E R E . I S A R E W R I T I N G OF T H E LAST TWO STOR I E S WERE 23RD PSA LM. THE AD

TIMES

W I N D C A R E S S E D M Y B A R E C H EST WITH W E LCOM E COOLI NG R E LI E F. MY COM FORT D I D NOT CONC E R N HIM. TH E R E WERE OTH E R TIMES IN THE WINTER

CONSC IOUSLY

D R E S S E D TO EACH OTH E R B Y JOHN PRESTON A N D JASON KLEIN.

WHEN THE MY BODY

D R A FT
WHEN

W O U L D S E N D C H I LLS THROUGH S H I RT R E MOVED THE LITTLE

MY

PROTECTION IT HAD PROVI DED. H E DID NOT C A R E F O R M Y D I SCOM FORT.

ONCE I

HAD A M ASTE R
THE REMOVAL OF EACH PIECE OF C LOTH I N G

I O N C E H A D A MASTER WHO L I V E D FA R FROM THE CITY.

M A R K E D T H E F I N A L LEGS O F OUR J O U R N E Y . B Y T H E TIME H E WOU L D BE P U L L I NTO H I S O W N D R I V E W A Y I SITTING BESIDE HIM IN THE

WOULD E V E R Y F R I DA Y I WOU L D LEAVE M Y JOB IN AN OFFICE B U I L D I NG. I WOULD TAKE A N E X P R E SS TO T H E N E XT LARGE M ETROPOLIS AND CHANGE THERE FOR A

N A K ED.

TRUCK. W A I T I N G T O B E G I N T H E W E E K E N D.

W H E N HE F I N A LLY P U L L E D I NTO T H E SPACE B E S I D E H I S H O U S E . A C T U A L L Y N O MORE TH A N A C A B I N I N T H E WOODS. I W O U L D H A V E T O M A K E M Y O W N W A Y I N S I D E . H E A P P E A R E D I G N O R A N T OF T H E F R E E DOM THAT MY N U D I TY R E P R E S ENTED ON A SUMMER

LOC A L T R A I N . I WOULD SIT WATC H I NG A PROGRES SION O F TOWNS. EACH S M A L L E R THAN T H E LAST. S P E E D B Y MY W I N DOW. AT THE T E R M I N U S . I WOULD C LI M B OUT A N D FIND HIM WAITI NG. EVERY FRIDAY HE WOU L D B E STA N D I NG NEXT TO HIS TRUCK. T H E R E WOU L D B E NO G R E E T I N G F R O M E I TH E R OF US. T H E R I T U A L W A S S O SEC U R E T H A T I T D I D N O T N E E D T H E S U PPORT OF WORDS.

N IG HT. A N D EQUA LLY AS I GNORANT O F T H E DANGER IT H E L D O N FROZEN W I N T E R E V E N I NGS. H E ONLY

WAS CON C E R N E D THAT I BE WITHOUT CLOT H E S I N H I S HOUSE.

AS

HE

DROVE AWAY FROM T H E STATION I WOULD

THERE

WAS

RITUAL EVERY

FRIDAY

E V E N I NG.

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SHOW E R .

BUT

NOT TO C L E A N S E

MYSE LF;

CITY TO BE D R E A D E D. I WOULD HAVE TO R E V E R S E T H E R I T U A L O F D R E S S I N G A S H E D ROVE M E T O T H E TRA I N STATIO N . I COULD B E FULLY D R E S S E D B Y T H E T I M E H E PA R K E D I N FRONT O F T H E I RO N R A I LS .

THAT WAS U N I M PORTANT. I WOU L D STA N D BEN EATH A HOT SPRAY OF WATER TO LET ITS MOISTU RE

SOFT E N M Y BODY H A I R . E V E R Y FRIDAY H E SHAVED EVERY I NCH OF M Y SKIN B ELOW MY N EC K . H E COULD NOT TOLERATE EVEN A FEW STR A N DS E X I STENCE S E P A R ATING M Y SKIN FROM H I S TOU C H .

TH E

F I R ST S U M M E R I L E A R N E D M O R E A BOUT M Y THAN IN ALL THE SUMMERS THAT HAD

BODY

PRECE E D E D I T TOGETH ER. I F O R THE W E E K E N D I BECA M E H I S S E R V ANT. I WOULD COOK HIS M E A LS. C L E A N HIS HOUSE. WASH HIS FLOWE R E D F I ELDS AND

RAN N A K E D ACROSS MY SHAVEN

SPRAWLED

TORSO I N OC E A N O F C LOVER. I BECA M E F E A R L E S S OF M Y P H Y S I C A L S E L F. I TOOK ON COLOR ON M Y S K I N A N D TON E I N M Y M U SC LES A S T H E Y WORK E D H A R D O N H I S F A R M . I W E LCO M E D E V E R Y T I M E H E TOOK ME. R E S PO N D I N G P A S S I O N A T E L Y TO HIS

CLOTHES. T E N D H I S G A R D E N . C H O P H I S F I R EWOOD. I WOU LD ABLE. DO SO A LWAYS N A K E D. A LW A Y S VULNER

HE

WOULD

TOLERATE

NO

L I M I TA T I O N

TO

MY

ASSAULTS. S P R E A D I NG FAR APART M Y JAWS A N D M Y SPH I NCTER AS H E I N VADED M Y O P E N B E I NG .

S E R V I C E . T H E O R I FICES O F M Y BODY W E R E OPEN FOR HIM TO TA K E ON A W H I M - M Y MOUTH. M Y ASS. M Y H A N D W E R E TH E R E W H E N E V E R H E H A D T H E DESIRE. H E N E V E R LET HIS PHYSICAL W A NTS FALL I NTO A PATT E R N . HE WO U L D TA K E ME W H I LE STA N D I N G U P COOK I N G IN FRONT O F THE S TO V E . OR WHILE

TH E F I R S T W I N T E R I L E A R N E D M O R E ABOUT M Y F E A R T H A N I H A D E V E R K N O W N . I OFTEN S A T D O W N N E XT TO TH E S TO V E TO TRY TO EASE MY NAKED

COLDN ESS. M Y BODY A N D MY SELF W E R E C APTI V E S OF T H E H OUS E . D E S P E RATELY FRIGHTENED OF

WO R K I NG I N TH E F I E LDS. OR E V E N I N T H E SOU N DEST OF S L E E P.

THOSE TI ME S W H E N H E WOU L D FO RCE M E TO R UN WITHOUT SHOES T H R OUG H T H E S NOW TO GATH E R

WE TA L K E D A LMOST NOT AT A LL. MY M I N I STRATIONS WERE M I N D. TO I HIS BODY. NOT HIS FANTA S I E S OR HIS

WOOD FOR T H E F I R E . H E . H I M S E LF. H A D N O OTH E R OUTLET FOR H I S OWN PHYSICAL B E I N G T H A N T O U S E MY BODY. I R E C E I V E D T H E ONSLAUGHT O F ON EACH WEEKEND. TAKING HIS TH E

WAS H E D H I S TORSO W H I LE I T SAT I N T H E M A S SA G E D IT IN FRONT OF THE FIRE

BATHTUB.

F R U ST R A T I O N

P L A C E . TOOK ITS R E L I E F I N T H E F I E LDS.

RESULTS OF A W I NTER'S W E E K OF I SOLATION E V E R Y JOU RNEY.

H E WAS N EV E R M I N DLESSLY C R U EL. B U T H E WOU L D BEAT M E G R EATLY I F M Y S E R V I C E E V E R FALTERED OR IF MY MIND WANDERED NOT I C E A B LY I NTO A BUT. A LWAYS. THE S P R I NG WOU L D BEG I N AND WE WOU L D B E ABLE TO VENTU R E FU R TH E R OUT IN TO THE ALWAYS MORE WELCOM I NG SUN UNTI L O N C E

P R I VATE WORLD OF D A Y D R E A M S . TH E R E WAS NO T I M E ON G E NC E S . THESE I WAS W E E K E N DS NEVER FOR M Y S E L F- I N D U L TO R E S I ST

AGA I N I T WOU L D B E S U M M E R A N D OUR S E L V E S A N D O U R BODIES WOULD RUSH THROUGH FOR E STS TO FIND SWI M M I N G HOLES TO DIVE I NTO AND FEEL

A LLOW E D

P U N I S H M ENT; TO DO SO WOU LD BE TO T H R EATEN MY ATTENDANCE.

COM PLETELY ATTAC H E D T O N ATU RE.

NO

OTH E R

P E R SON

EVER

WAS

ALLOWED

IN

HIS

I WOU LD LOVE HIM I N THE SU M M E R TI M E.

HOUSE W H I LE I WAS THERE. THOUGH I COULD NOT HAVE STOPPED A N YO N E . HE D I D NOT WANT THERE TO BE A NOTH E R P E R SON TO I N T E R F E R E WITH M Y GROW I N G CONTROL. V U L N E R A B I LITY OR HIS OWN GROW I N G BUT I WOULD ALWAYS R ETURN EVERY W E E K E N D FOR MY PILG R I M AG E .

I WOU LD H A T E H I M IN T H E WINTER.

T H E W E E K E N D S TOOK O N MORE M E A N I NG EACH T I M E THEY W E R E R E PEATED. THE FEW W O R D S T H A T H A D PASSED I N TH E BEGI N N I NG B E G A N TO D I S A P P E A R THEMS ELVES A S TI M E M A D E T H E M S U P E RFLUOUS. T H E DAYS BETW E E N MY JOU R N E YS BECA M E LESS AND LESS I M PORTANT.

HE N E V E R W O U L D TA LK T O M E . H E WOU L D LISTEN WHEN I PROFESSED W H I LE I MY LOV E . HIS HE WOULD SIT HE

SI L E N T L Y

BEGGED

R E S PON S E .

WOULD LET M Y A N G E R GLANCE OFF H I S B ROW I F EVER I D A R E D SPEAK IT. BUT H E WO U L D N E V E R

RESPO N D T O M E .

I T HAD NOT TA K E N LONG FOR THE TRI P BACK TO THE

FIN ALLY.

W E N T T O H I S FA RM

NO MORE.

WAS

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T H I S PIECE

APPEARED I N DRUMMER

MAGAZ I N E .

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JOHN PRESTON

30. R. S M I LES AT WA I T E R.

3 1 . R."S H A N DS A R E S H A K I N G A LITTLE.

32. R . GOES I N S I D E THE CAFE.

33. THE WASHROOM. R. I S DO I N G HER HAIR.

34. R . SEATED AT TABLE ON TH E TERRACE. THE WAITER B R I NGS TEA AND CROISSA NTS.

3 5. R . CONSIDERS THE SQ U A R E OF THE THEATRE FRA N C A I S.

36.

FADE OUT: G RADUALLY FADE IN ON LONG SHOT: THE GALLERY MONTP E NS I E R. R SEEN FROM REAR WALKING TOWAR D TH E FAR END OF THE GALLERY.

37. ROBERTE LOOK I N G A T SHOP W I N DOWS. HESITATES. STOPS.

38. STEPS OF COR P U L E N T M A N .

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DA N I E L I S MY BROTH ER. M Y LOVE R . H E I S THE FI RST MAN WHO LET ME E NJOY BEING B U R I E D ALIVE I N THE SAND. M Y SLAVES ARE ALL N U M B E R E D. M Y MASTER HAS YET TO B E I DE NTI FI ED. H E WILL B E THE FI RST M A N TO MAKE ME SUFFER BEING B U R I E D U P TO MY N ECK I N THE G RO U N D FOR LON G E R THAN I WANT UNTIL I KNOW EXACTLY WHO I S I N CONTROL. WHO I HAVE DELIVERED MYSELF U N TO . AND WHO I IN THE F I N A L TWI LIG HT. DA N I E L H A D ME SHOWI NG HIM HOW TONGUE'S PRODUCT. S U BJ ECT TO THE REALITIES I HAVE CONVINCED ME OF. B I R DS MAY H A V E AS M UCH I MAGI NATION A S I DO. BUT WITH FEW E R WORDS TO DESCRIBE IT. F I X IT. A N D MODIFY IT. I A D M I R E THIS BASIC HON ESTY OF A N I MALS. WHETH E R OR NOT

THEY CHOSE IT IS I M M AT E R I A L.

WORSH I P FOR H A V I N G G I V E N ME TH E E X P E R I E NC E . ALONG W I T H A N OPPORTUN ITY T O W R I T E ABOUT IT.

TO S K I P STON E S AC ROSS THE

H I DE. AND S TR A N G E AS

LAKE'S I

AGITATE D

IT SEEMS.

SUDDEN LY FELT L I K E A BOY FEELI NG LIKE A MAN WE SAT ON A D A R K E N I NG SHORE. D A N I E L FINDING G R U ESOME FACES ON THE PEBBLES THERE AND ALL OF US B URSTING. LACED. FOR TH E FI RST TI M E I N HIS LIFE. I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT WAY BEFORE EVEN THOUGH PHYSICA LLY I AM A L R E A DY QUESTIONS "EACH ON E LOOKS MORE R O TT E N . " DEBBIE AN A MAN. THIS RAISES EVEN MORE

ABOUT

SOCI A L EVOLUTION

THROUGH THEN

O R I G I N A LL Y

DISTRACTED.

MODIFI ED.

LA UGHED.

REPRESSED HOMOS E X U A LITY I NTENSIFIED B Y TH E SANCTI FICATION OF R EPRODUCTION. AM I MY OWN

"DRAC U LA WITH E R ING." I AGREED.

EVI DENCE7 IS MY THEORY OF B E H AVIORAL NEOTENY U N I V E R S A L TO BIOGRA P H ICAL? H U M A N I TY OR M E R E LY A U TO

THE

SUNSET C RACKED AND FLA R I N G

OUR

I N D I F F E R E NC E . THE CON FIDENT

GLOWING

BEHIND

FLIGHT OF BI RDS C ROSSING T H E BROADER LESS VISION THAN I MY NO OWN. MORE D I D.

M A R S H WITH A BUT POSSIBLY MY H U MAN BEHAVIOR IS LARGELY I N H E RITED. PARTLY THROUGH TRADITION. PARTLY THROUGH G E N ETICS.

I M AGI N AT I O N . THE

C REATED

LANGUAGE T H A N

BI RDS

I A M ONLY M Y

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EACH SION.

B E H A V I O R A L T R A I T ( S E X U A L I TY. I NTELLIGENCE. S OC I A B I L I T Y .

AGGRES AES

AT

TH E

SAME IS

TIME

T H A T TH E SPLIT

A N D R OG Y N O U S

AND

" M A N A PE" FEMININE

BEING

I NTO M A SC U L I N E O R REMAINS OF THE

TH ETI C S - P E RC E PTUAL S E L ECTI VITY) BEG I N S A S A POLYG E N ET I C POTE N T I A L M U LT I T U D E R E S PO N S E PATTE R N . AND AN ACTION BY A

H U M ANS.

W H AT

I N D I V I D U A L'S B E H A V I O R I S ALSO S E PA RATED I NTO N O R M A L A N D A B N O R M A L. BEHAVIORS THAT DO NOT FIT THE CONTRI V E D G U I LTS NORM W H I LE ARE R I DDLED WITH ATTI

G E N E RATED OF GENES.

SHAPED

THEN

MODI F I E D

BY

ITS

B IOLOG I C A L AND

CULTURAL

E N V I RO N M E NT. TH E

FEA R S

AND

CONVENTIONAL

DEG R E E TO W H I C H THE E N V I RONMENT I N FLUENCES THESE G E N ET I C POTE N T I A LS D E P E N DS O N TH E

TUDES A R E E M OTIONA LL Y R E I N FORCED.

I NT E N S I TY WITH W H I C H T H E G E N E S COLLECTI VELY WORK TO EXPRESS T H E M S E LV E S . SOM E BEING

IF

THE

I N D I V I DU A L

SURVIVES

THIS

LEVEL

OF

OPPRESSION LONG ENOUGH TO REACH PUBERTY. ITS E M E RG I NG S E X U A L I TY IS THEN D I V I DED I NTO T H E P E R V E R S E A N D T H E S A N CT I FIED. P E R V E R S E ACTS A R E C R I M I N A L I Z E D A N D OFTE N P U N I S H A B L E BY

EXTR E M E LY P L I A BLE. SOME EQUA LLY OBDU RATE. MOST OF THEM V A R I ABLY D E F I N ITIVE.

WITH

ANY

HUMAN

POPULATION.

THESE

POLY

DEATH W H I LE TH E SA NCTI F I E D ACTS FLOUR I S H I N A N E U ROTIC M A N N E R . A N X I ETY- R I D D E N BY P R EVIOUS OPPRESSIONS. MINED AND SEXUAL POTENTI ALS A R E CONTRO L L E D . UNDER TH E

G E N ETIC

B E H A V IORS V A R Y W I T H THE I N D I V I DUAL. WITH I N FROM A S P ECTR UM OF Q U A L I T I E S

BUT ONLY RANGING

ONE

E X T R E M E T O A N OT H E R

STRICTLY

BUT

( H ETEROS E X U A L TO HOMOS E X U A L. S U B M I S S I V E TO DOM I N AT I NG. SOC I A L. VARYING I DI OT TO G E N I US. TO SOC I A L TO ANTI WITH

S E X U A L U RG E IS R E S I STS THUS EVEN

NOT E A S I LY D I SCOURAGED A N D M O S T BRUTAL THE REPRESSION. I NT E N S E

THE

MONOTO N O U S DEG R E E S OF

E X TRAVAGANTI

A LS O G E N E R A T I N G

MOST

I N T E R M EDIATE

QUALITIES HOS

A N X I ETI ES.

( B I S E X U A L . C O M P R OM I S I N G . PITA BLE. D I SC E R N I N G ) TO BE

P E R C E PT I V E .

LYING

BETW E E N T H O S E A N OT H E R .

T H E E N D R E S U LT I S A B R E E D O F M E N A L I E NATED FROM A BREED O F WOM E N A N D EACH I N D I VI DU A L A L I E N ATED FROM ITSELF. EACH S E LECTIV E L Y

CONS I D E R E D

O P PO S I T E O N E

W H E R E A N Y O N E I N DI V I D U A L LI ES ALONG O N E OF THESE S P ECTR U M S AND HOW THE SOCI ETY ORI E NTS TO W A R D THAT PORTION OF TH E S P ECTR U M

NOU R I S H E D T O G ROW I N A D I STORTED M A N N E R A N D TRA I N E D TO B E H A V E I N T H E TRADITIONA L FASHION. THIS IS HOW HUMANS BREED A N D DOM E STICATE

DETE R M I N ES W H E T H E R T H E I N D I VIDUAL'S G ROWTH W I L L BE H E A LTHY O R N E U ROTIC.

T H E I R A N I M A LS. THIS IS HOW H U M A N S BREED A N D D O M E S T I C ATE THEIR C H I LD R E N AND TH U S HU

SINCE

H U MANS

TH I N K

D I C H OTOMO USLY.

HUMAN

M A N ITY ITSE LF.

SOCI ET I E S O R I E N T T O M A N Y O F THESE S P ECTR U M S AS IF ONLY THEIR EXTR E M ES WHILE E X I ST E D . THE ONE IS

I N E V I TA B L Y

REWARDED

OT H E R

I N E SC A P A B LY P U N I SH E D . S I N C E THE MAJORITY OF THE POPULATION MOST LIES WITHIN THE INTE R M E D I ATE ARE DISTORTED BY THIS W H E N I HAD H I M SO HE WAS ABOUT TO S H I T. I T I E D HIM UP SO HE H U RT AND COULD NOT EASILY

RANGE.

PEOPLE

DIC HOTOMOUS TREATM ENT. TH E I R PSYCH E MENTED. AND THE F R A G M E NTS

FRAG

CONTROL H I S ASS. T H E N I TOLD H I M . " Y O U W I L L NOT S H I T O N THAT FLOOR."

S E L E C T I V E LY

R E I N FORCED. H E N E E DE D TO PISS.

HUMAN SOCI ETY F I RST S E PA RATES T H E I N D I V I D U A L I N TO W H AT IS HUMAN AND WHAT IS A N I M AL.

"NOR WILL YOU WET YOU RS E LF."

PU N I S H I NG T H E HUMAN. THE

A N I M A L W H I L E GLOR I FY I NG TH E IS THEN DIVIDED I N TO H E G R E W F U R I O U S LY ON THE VERGE OF C R Y I NG.

HUMAN

M A SC U L I N E A N D FEM I N I N E . T H E SOC I A L E N V I RON MENT MA LNOU R I S H I NG O N E SEXUAL IDENTITY W H I LE FOSTE R I NG THE OTH E R ACCO R D I N G OFTEN TO THE " U N T I L I ORDER YOU TO. YOU WILL PISS AND S H I T W H E N I T E LL Y O U TO."

I N D I V I D U A L' S INCI DENCE OF

GEN ITALS. SEXUAL

WITH OR

SOME TRANS H I S BONE R A G E D WITH THE REST OF H I M . FANATIC WITH THE A T T E M PT TO CONTROL H I M S ELF. I

CONFUSION

S E X U A L I S M . U S U A LLY M A SC U L I N ITY EXAGGE R ATES TH E MEN W H I L E FEM I N I N ITY DU LLS THE WOM E N AS A BACKGROU N D FOR M A SC U L I N E THEATRICS.

WON D E R E D I F T H I S W A S R EGRESSIVE. A SYNTHETIC N EOTEN Y OR AT L E A ST THE FANTASY OF O N E. BUT

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I COULD R E S E A R C H IT, I LOST THE

IDEA

HOWLING, BUT NOBOD Y CARES A N D A L L I CAN DO I S W E T M Y PANTS I N FEAR,

A NOTH E R BEATING, M I N E AS WELL AS HIS, TOO FRIGHTENED TO CONTROL

BLADDER

ITSELF, HIS ASS TO F I N A L.

FO RGIVE A MONG

ME,

I'M

LACED

AT THE I'M

M O M E NT.

BEING

THE B O Y S A G A I N ,

SEC R ETLY F E E L I N G

I U N D ERSTAND THE E Li M I N I ATION OF REPU LSIONS

I S N ECESSAR Y IF T H E PROC ESS OF M ATURATION IS TO COM PLETE ITSELF. THEIR GLO R I F I C A T I O N IS

V E R Y COCKY, T H E W A Y WE W E R E W H E N L E A V I N G TA N N H A US E R , A LSO. S I N C E Y O U W E R E CONCERN ED. DANIEL SEEMS VERY COM FORTA B L E WITH YOU ,

ONLY E ROTICALLY R E LEVA NT.

H A V I NG M E T YOU. H E R E A LIZES M Y T R U ST I N Y O U I S N O T POORLY FOU N DED.

M I SS YOU, C I V I L I ZATION WORKS BY M A K I NG YOU FEEL SM A L L. IT B E L I TTLES YOUR I N D I V I D U A LITY, DEGRADES YOU P.S.: I WROTE THIS B E FO R E I ACTUALLY TALKED WITH J R A N D DISCOV E R E D YOU HAD ALREADY TOLD H I M TH E BATTE R E D DETAI LS. H E COULDN'T WAIT T O SEE TH E B R U ISES, SO I SADDLED M Y KITE A N D SWUNG C ROSSTOWN TO WATCH THEM HIS PLACE. I DISPLAYED THEM, PRIDE I WADE

FOR D E V I ATING FROM THE CONTR IVED NORM. THEN SHAMES TH R O U G H YOU THE FOR HAVING PUT YO U R SOC I ETY IT

BOTH E R .

AND

YOU

DESERVE

B E C A U S E YOU A R E A C H I L D AND A DAMN N U I SANCE, S U D D E N LY IT I S A CRIME TO DO, H A V E OR WANT

AN YTH I NG U N LESS YOU R SOCI ETY SAYS YOU CAN. YOU R E S I ST AT F I RST, BUT YOU BY TH E T I M E YOU'VE

WITH

U N PRECEDENTED

AND

M U C H HOOTI NG. T H A N K Y O U , S I R .

BEEN

POTTY-TR A I N E D,

A R E S E R V I N G YOU R

SOC I ETY FOR EVER.

NOBODY ENJOYS SERVING THEIR SOC I ETY. FANATIC OR D E P R E S S E D, THEY DO IT BECAUSE IT IS TH E I R D U T Y A N D B E C A U S E LIFE I S T OO S E R I O U S T O E NJOY, ENSH R I N E D WITH SOLE M N VOWS AND W H I S P E R E D S U P P LICATIONS,

HE NEEDS TO REMEMBER ME.

W I V ES, C H I LD R E N , A N D DOGS-AL L A R E S L A V E S TO A FIERCE SORT OF MASCULINITY THE AND A SAD

SHOU L D YOU

FAIL TO A P P R E C I ATE T H E S E R I OUS

NESS OF SERVI NG, YOU R SOC I ETY THREATE N S YOU WITH C R I M I N A LIZATION AND D A M NATION. F R IGHT

F E M I N I N I TY .

OC C A S I O N A L L Y

SAD

B EC O M E

F I E RC E A N D OVERTU R N THE MALE POWER STR UC TURE, SOM ETI M E S F I E RC E M A LE S HAVE OVER

E N E D AN D F E E LI N G G U I LTY, YOU R E M A I N OBEDI ENT LY S M ALL. THIS IS A POWE R I N TO A GAME. STY L E ARE THIS OF IS SM

T U R N E D FEMALE POW E R STRUCTU RES. WHICH FI RST OVERTHREW THE OTH E R I S PURELY ACADEMIC A N D NOT E A S I L Y PROV E N .

CON V E N T I O N A LI Z E D S OC I E T I E S WHERE AND

L I V I NG,

PEOPLE EVEN

SET

A G A I NST

TH E M SELVES

MORE S O A G A I N ST O N E

ANOTH E R . I T I S MASS N E U ROSIS IN PROGRESS.

I N M A N Y SOCI ET I E S , ALL FACES A R E EXPECTED T O L OO K U P T O M E N , B U T M E N CAUGHT E Y E I N G OTH E R MEN ARE S U S PECTED MAN OF PERVERSION, SO T H E AND

S A N CT I F I E D

EYES

H I MS E L F

I N ST E A D

THROUGH T H E WOME N B R E D TO M I R ROR H I M . IT I S N O SIR, S E C R ET THAT WOM E N A R E EXPECTED TO A C T AS SOU N D I NG BOA R D S FOR M A LE I N SECU RITI ES, T H E TH E OFFIC I A L STORY IS THAT YOU DRAGG E D M E PREVALENCE S U GG E S T S TO OF MALE POW E R STRUCTU R E S HUMAN MALE

F R O M T R A S H C A N TO T R A S H C A N A N D P U B L I C LY BEAT THE LIVING WORMS OUT OF ME AT EVERY ONE OF THEM, ANYMORE. ONLY A AND NOW WADE I SN'T QUITE T H E SAME TH E R E FEW IS MUCH TRUTH TO IN THAT WITH C E R TA I N

SOME

THAT T H E

POSSESSES A N I N H E R ENT ADVANTAGE OVER THE F E M A LE. WITH IF TH I S I S T R U E , WHAT M E N H A V E DO N E A DV A NTAGE DOES N O T C R E D I T T H E M

THAT

CHA NGES STI LL

COLOR

WITH M U C H MATURITY A N D FURTH ER SUGGESTS T H E M A L E IS A LSO M O R E F R IGHTEN E D, AS N E U ROTIC A S HE IS I N S EC U R E THE A BO U T H I MSELF, OF ESPECIALLY

PEOPLE'S G R E E N . Y O U - SO U N DS DANCE

BLACK

AND B L U E OV ER A SONG A AND

LIKE, AT

F E E LS THE

LIKE

ROUTI N E

E D G E OF

JU NGLE

THROUGH DANGE RS.

I NVENTION

NON E X I ST E N T

D R I P P I NG WITH TORTU R E D BODI ES, APOCALYPSE. I'M

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LORD PRESTON'S B E LT CONTI N U E D B R E A K I NG M E AND MY THOUGHTS. I SQUEEZED TEETH AND

A N D TO I N T I M I DATE OTH E R S . THEY

G R A BBED R U B B E R CORNERS. PRAYING TO N O GOD THAT I WOULD C O M E OUT OF THI S H A PP I E R T H A N I WAS. I WANTED TO CRY. BUT I W A S TOO BUSY

A R E T H E M S E LV E S E A S I LY I N T I M I DA T E D

SOMETI M E S B Y A T R U E E N E M Y. SOM ETI M E S BY T H E I N D I F F E R E N C E O F T H E I R WORLD. OFTEN BY THAT PORTION O F TH E M S E LV E S T H A T H A S R E M A I N E D U NKNOWN. OPPRE S S E D YET FOR E V E R S E E K I NG TO BE R E A LIZED.

RESISTING T H E P A I N T O S U B M I T T O I T .

F I N A LLY H E STO P P E D B E LTI NG M E . H I S FINGE RTIPS R U P TU R I N G A LO N G MY B E A M I NG I HIDE AS HE HE

T R A C E D T H E M U SC L E S W H E R E WHISPERE D HOW BEAUTIFUL

CRI NGED.

THEY W E R E AND

KISSED M E W H E R E I T F E LT BEST. I S A N K U N D E R IN A H ETERONE U ROTIC SOC I ETY. PEOPLE OF THE NOT TO LOOK A T ONE ANOTH E R IN A M A L E - DO M I N A T E D SU PERFICI A L I DOLIZATIONS D R Y W I T H F E A R A N D C RYSTA L LI Z I N G K N E W IT. A I NTO WORSH I P B E FO R E I EVEN ANY

SAME SEX ARE WITHOUT

CRITICISM.

S E C O N D B E A T I NG S H A TTE R I NG

SOCI ETY. M A SC U L I N E C R I T I C I S M I S STA N DA RDIZED A S .J U STICE; FEM I N I N E C R I T I C I S M STA N D A RDIZED AS IDLE GOSSI P. IN M A N Y O F THE SOC I ET I E S B E FORE 2000 B C AND SO M E AS LATE AS 50 BC. THE

S ELF-A N A LYS I S I M A Y H A V E BEG U N . I O N L Y K N E W THAT I S A W A P A R T OF M YSELF I N LORD P RESTON THOUGH HE WAS MORE PO W E R F U L AND MY

H A R MLESSNESS M O R E OBVIOUS.

MASC U L I N E/FE M I N I N E REVERSED ( R E S E A RC H EGYPT. OR AT

ROLES LEAST

WERE MORE

COM PLETELY BA LANCED. ANCI ENT THE WITH T H A T T H O U G HT. I ANGER E D AND RAGED

THE

D OC U M E N TS A N ATO L I A .

FROM

AGAI NST T H E W H I P P I NG P A I N . B U T H E ONLY C A R E D A BOUT H I M S E LF. W H E N H E F I N A L L Y STO P PED.

SUMER. AND

B A B Y LO N I A .

M INOANS.

ANCIENT

E TH I O P I A ;

A LS O T H E

THOUGHT I T B EST I EXPRESS MY CONC E R N .

H I S TO R I E S O F D I O DO R U S S I C U L U S . H ERODOTUS. AND SOPHOCLES). "I THOUGHT Y O U W E R E H E A VY." H E C H I DED.

I SENSED HIS SMUG EYE BEHIND M E . WON D E R I N G AS H E BELITTLED M Y PREVIOUS TALES A S B R AGG I N G MY F I R ST I M PRESSION OF LOR D P R E STON WAS THAT HE WAS M UC H TALLER THA N I H A D E X PECTED H I M T O B E . BUT NOT H E A V I E R W H I C H I N DICATED T O M E H E W A S A PREDATOR I NSTEAD O F A SCAVENGER. I TOOK EVERY OPPORTU N I TY TO I N FO R M H I M OF WHAT I LIKED BY TELLING F R E E LY OF MY P R EVIOUS -OTHERS H A V E TOLD ME I'M H EAVY B U T I N OTH E R W A YS."
. .

A N D LA B E L L E D M Y HEAVY A STRANGE S O R T OF PU FF.

I NTENSE. I A M .

ORDEA LS. H E COULD HAVE SMACKED MY INSOLENCE. I NSTE A D MY SECOND I M P R E SS I O N FEARED T H AT LORD H E GREW E X C I T E D BY T H E KNOW L E DGE THAT M Y SHOULD E R S H A D N E V E R BEEN W H I PPED BEFORE A N D THAT HE W A S OPE N I NG A R E A S WITH I N M E THAT H A D NEVER BEEN OPENED. I FED O N HIS FEVER.

P R E STON WOU L D PUT M E I NTO SHOCK. H E BELTED M Y V I R G I N SHO U L D E R S S O H A R D SO I M M EDI ATELY THAT I K N EW I HAD N O HOPE O F B U I LD I N G DELIC ATE C R U ELTI E S I N TO A RC H I T E CT U R E S OF P A I N . T H E TEMPLE AUTOMATICA LLY W E N T U P WITH THE FI RST SMACK OF HIS B ELT B R E A K I NG STA RS. THE SECOND SMACK B U RST I N G MY A PP R E C I A T I O N . AND TH E

A N D HE W A STED NO TI M E RELENTLESSLY BEATING M E FOR T H E R E ST O F T H E NIGHT A S H E LED ME FROM ONE TRASHCAN TO ANOTH E R . LORD P R E STON HAD A NEW DOG TO SHOW.

TH I R D SCREA M I NG . I H A D NO GAG TO B I T INTO. NO C H A I N S TO P U LL AGA I N ST. NO ROPES AS M UCH AS I WANTED THEM. T H E FOURTH A N D S E V E R A L MORE BLOWS CUT I N TO MY SHOULDERS WITH NO HE LU R E D ME I N TO HIS CONTROL WITH A THE EXC E PT THAT HE PREFERS TO T H I N K OF U S AS

STALLIONS.

SENSITI VITY TO M Y OWN. A N D I H A D N O EXCUSE FOR IT-NO BONDAGE. ONLY A FOOLI S H S U B M I SSION. I H A D F E LT BLOWS L I K E T H E S E O N C E B E FORE A N D FEA R E D GOI N G I NTO SHOCK EVEN MORE THAN I

PROSPECT O F

H I S TAKING M E O U T I N

BLACK

LEATH E R COLLAR A N D LEATH E R RESTRAI NTS. M Y BACK DISPLAYING HIS MARKS AND MY MOUTH

FEA R E D THE BLACK A N D B L U E M A R KS. DAN I E L A N D I H A V E SURVIVED M Y B R UI S E S B E FO R E .

GAGGED T O K E E P M E F R O M BRAGG I NG ABOUT T H E M . MY BREATH I NG A LWAYS WOR RI ED. M Y E Y E S LESS

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F I E RC E . I N STEAD HE L E D ME A BOUT WITHOUT THE GAG AND WITH IT IT A FAR S U BT L E R HOW BONDAGE. M UCH ME TO I

E V E N M O R E ACUTELY A W A R E OF MY N U D I TY A N D R E M E M B E R E D H E A R I NG O F T H I S TACTIC B E FORE. I BREATHED WITH AN I N C R E A S I NGLY GEN U I N E

R E S E NTED E F F ECTIVE

THEN. WAS. HIS

BUT

MORE S E RVE

FORC I NG

D R E A D. M Y BELLY TIGHTE N I N G A N D PULSING W H I L E T H E TI P O F M Y P E A N U T STUNG. N E E DI NG T O P I S S . I W A N T E D S O M E WATER.

WITHOUT TH E

PHYS I C A L R E I N FORC E M ENT I ONCE.

STILL FIND EROTIC.

MY

THIRD

I M PRESSION

OF

LORD

PRESTI ON

WAS

AS

THIS

MAN

WHO

WAS

PRETE N D I NG TO

BE

MY

THAT EITHER I D I D WHAT H E WANTED OR I WAS IN MORE TROU BLE THAN I A LREADY WAS IN. THIS

M A STER PROCEEDED TO B I N D M E S P R E A D- E AGLE TO A V E RTIC A L GRID. A M A I T R E S S E G R A B B E D ME FROM B E H I N D. K N EA D I N G HER CLAWS I N TO MY

I M P R ESSION W A S L A R G E LY A PROJECTION OF MY OWN ANTICI PATION S . BUT SOON FRETTED WITH T H E KNOWLEDGE TH I S MAN COULD TU RN ME I NTO A

E L E PH A NTS A N D M U N C H I NG I N M Y E A R . A S K I N G I F I . POO R T H I NG. H A D B E E N LEFT T H E R E A L L A LONE. I T U R N E D MY E Y E S A W A Y FROM H E R WITH A LL T H E P R I D E OF K N O W I N G WHO M Y R E A L M A STER W A S A N D. FOR H E R I N FO R M A T I O N . EYED H I M . S H E A S K E D T H E Q U E ST I O N AGAIN OF LO R D P R E ST O N AND HE

BLOODY M U S H A N D I WOULD LOVE IT. DEFI NITELY A LESS CON F I D E N T I M PR E SSION THAN THE FI RST A N D EVEN THE S E C O N D I M P R ESSIONS.

TH E N .

FEW TRASH C A N S LATER. TH E BEATINGS

POLITELY D I S M I SS E D H E R . T H E N OVERW H E L M E D M E W I T H THE MOST E ROTIC BEATI NG O F M Y LIFE. H E C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E UNTI L I ONLY H U NG TH E R E B L U B B E R I NG. PHYSICAL CONTI N U E D I N C A PA B L E OF ANY HE R ES I S T A N C E . HAVE

BEGAN TO F E E L GOOD. ORGA S M S OF PAl N A N D FEAR BLASTING AS I FOUGHT A G A I N ST ROPES AND

C H A I N S WH I L E

N A K E D I N FRONT O F STR ANGERS.

SOM ETI M E S I FEARED M Y LORD'S MOOD; SOM ETI M E S I BATH E D I N T H E SWEAT A N D TH E HEAT OF H I S BODY EMBRACING THOUGH MY ME. ALL OF ME IN A COLD TERROR B A TT E R E D

OR

S P I R I T U A L. ME

COULD THEN

BEATING

EVEN

UNTIL M Y

R A G I N G BON E F I N A LLY SPI LLED A N D I S C R E A M E D . M I N D LESSLY ROA R I NG. H E C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E F U R T H E R . B U T H E D I DNT. K N O W I N G W H E N TO STOP S I N C E HE W A N T E D M E A G A I N AND WITH A S M A N Y M A R K S ON M Y BODY A S H E COULD L E A V E WITHOUT LOS I N G M Y A FFECTION.

FLESH

WAS

HOT WITH

N E R V E S . I EXAGG E R A T E D E V E RY S E N SATION WITH F R A N TI C BREATHI NG. OUR BODI E S IN LOVE. HIS

D E E P VOICE H U NGRY AT T H E V I S ION OF M Y M A R K E D M U SC LES.

AT THE SI LKY DINER. THE MAN W EA R I N G D E A D M I C E A R O U N D H I S N EC K D I D N O T KNOW WHAT W E W E R E DOI NG. AT TH E TA N N H A U S E R , T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS K N E W A N D W E R E A M AZED. THEY H A D GAT H E R E D TH E R E AT A CONVENTION F O R THE L I B E RATION OF S A D O M A S OC H I S M FROM A NONCON SENSUAL

HE

GOT

MORE

MARKS

THAN

EITHER TOO

OF

US

A N T I C I PA T E D

BECAU S E

H E WAS

S E N S UOUS

AND I TOO C RAZY WITH IT TO S A Y N O A S H E PULLED ME OUT OF THE A PPLA U S E OF H ETEROS E X U A LS

I NTO T H E B I G G E S T P I S S- D R I N K I N G FI STD R I LLI N G T R A S H C A N OF T H E M A LL. AGA I N H E O R D E R E D M E TO STRI P. C H A I N E D MY W R I STS TO A N OV E R H E A D B E A M A N D. G R A B B I NG M E BY T H E H A I R . P ROC E E D E D TO B E A T M Y T E N D E R BODY. BUT SO H A R D MY RAGE W A S G E N U I N E AGA I N . Y A N K I NG AGA I N ST H I S F I R M G R I P O N M Y S C A LP. M Y T E R RO R LOVELESS E V E N A S T H E C RO W D OF GRIMY M U SC L E D M E N S H O O K TH E I R

OPPRESSION. T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS A M AZED M E A S MUCH A S WE A M A Z E D T H E M . EROTICIZED B E I NG M A N Y O F THE M E N

H A V I NG

P U N I S H E D F O R TH E I R

T R A N SV E STI S M . G LO R I O U S W I T H T R A N S S E X U A L H U M I L I A TI O N AS THEY S U F F E R E D- I N A VERY

RESERVED SORT OF W AY-FOR TRYING T O B E WHAT THEY W E R ENT. TH E A I R W A S HEAVY WITH G U I LT.

C A N S A N D S P R A Y E D M E WITH B E E R A N D SODA. T H E B E LT W A S T OO A N G R Y FOR M E T O W A N T I T ; M Y P A N I C T OO C O L D . I E X P LO D E D . H AULING M Y S E L F OFF T H E

SOM E O F IT N E RVOUS. S O M E O F IT SMUG.

LO R D P RESTON EYED M Y E Y E AND S M I LED. "TH I S I S V E R Y BIZARRE."

G R O U N D U NT I L S U S P E N D E D BY F L E X E D B I C E P S . T H E REST O F M E TWISTING A N D STRUGGLING T O D E A L W I T H . T H E N E S C A P E . RAGE AT A N D F I N A LLY S U B M I T

LAU G H E D

INSIDE

STI F F

A ND TENDER

BODY.

T O T H A T B E LT U N T I L F R A NTIC T O E SC A P E I T AGA I N A N D AGAIN.

FASC I N A TED B Y T H E S E PEOPLE WHILE C RAZY WITH A L U ST TO B E B E ATEN A GA I N AND T H E FEA R OF WHERE IT WAS LO R D LEADING P R E S TON ME. FOR BEFO R E THE I COU LD

EVERY

TIME

HE

S TO P P E D .

RUSHED

AT

HIS

SADDEN. ORDERED S EX U A LS.

F I R ST TI M E H ETERO

E M B R A C E A N D A C C E PT E D H I S D E E P LONG K I S S I NTO MY H E A V Y B R E AT H I NG. EVERY T I M E HE BEAT ME

M E T O ST R I P NAKED

IN

FRONT OF

E XC E PT FOR MY SOC KS. I WAS

AGA I N . I H A D NO T I M E T O WON D E R WHY.

l BO

HE GRABBED ME I N THE M I DDLE OF A FEAR A N D SIGNALLED HE WAS DONE. RELEASING ME. I GRABBED A POL E SO I COULD R E M A I N STA NDI NG. VAGUELY AWA R E MY POSE WAS NOT A S THEATRICAL AS I B E L I E V E D . S H O U L D E R S A N D E L E P H A NT S R A D I A T I NG. H I S V O I C E B E H I N D M E P R A I S E D M Y BODY. H I S M I N D A NXIOUS W I T H HOW BEAUTIFUL H I S MARKS WERE AS I STRUGGLED BACK I N TO M Y CLOTH ES. I N A R OO M W H E R E WE W E R E A LLOWED TO TALK. HE TOLD ME HE ON LY STOPPED BECAUSE H E C A U G H T H I MSELF LOSI N G CONTROL. C R AZY WITH THE SIGHT OF ME AT THE END OF H I S B E LT. I TOLD H I M HE ENJOYED BEATING ME M UC H H A R DER I N FRONT O F WI LD M E N THAN A MONG H ETEROSEX U A LS. THEN LAUGHED D E F E N S I V E LY AT A GUSH OF U N E X PECTED PAIN. MORE SECRETLY I RESISTED M Y S E LF A N B E TW E E N T H I S M A N A N D THE GROWING U R G E TO S P A R E

F I L L I NG M Y S E L F WITH T H E S E N SATION S AT THE BACK OF MY H E A D RUBBING TH E BACK OF HIS.

LORD PRESTON BROUGHT ME TO BED WITH H I M . H E WONDERED W H Y I DIDNT WANT T O TAK E M Y SOC K S O F F E V E N AS H E BEGAN T O DO IT F O R ME. I TOLD H I "" I T WAS TOO EROTIC KEEPING TH E M O N . M E NTIONI NG I WAS DRAWN TO THEM BECAUSE OF TH E I R LABEL WHEN A MORE HON EST RESPONSE WOULD HAVE HOOTED THAT I W A N T E D TO KEEP THEM ON BECAUSE THEY CLUNG TO M Y FEET WITH THE FI LTH FROM EVERY FLOOR HE HAD B EATEN ME OVER. I R E S O R T E D TO SOU NDING TOO D I S H O N ESTY I N T H E F E A R O F ROMANTIC ONLY TO F I N D I H A D

FAILED T O FEED H I S E G O A N D PLEASE H I M AS I WOULD HAVE L I K E D. I FEARED THE LOSS OF OTH E R I NTE RESTS A N D S O RISKED THE LOSS O F LOR D PRESTON.

E M OT I O N A L T A N G L E

D A N I E L. LORD PRESTON STI LL A L A R M S M E A N D MORE SO W I T H EVERY R E-EVALUATION OF THAT N I G HT. FOR MANY PEOPLE. THE EXISTENCE OF A GOO I S A I THI N K HE CAUGHT ME A N A LYZI NG TH E N . S U DD E N LY HE ORDERED ME TO P U L L MY PANTS DOWN A N D P U S H E D M E B A C K ONTO T H E GAM ETABLE. I WORRI E D AS H E C H A I N E D M Y W R I STS T O M Y TH ROAT A N D PROC E E D E D T O W H I P M Y B A G S A N D BONE WITH LOOPS O F THONG. I ADORED IT. TH E N R E SENTED IT: WRITH E D A N D GROVELLED U N D E R IT. TH E N SCR E A M E D BEFORE ADORING H I M AGA I N BECA USE H E KNEW WHERE TO STOP WITHOUT LESSENI NG M Y FEAR OF H I M . WHEN YOU PRAY. YOU ARE ACTIVELY CONVINC I N G YOURSELF T H A T A G O D DOES I N FACT EXIST. W H E N YOU PRAY DESPITE G ROWING DOUBTS. T H E N YOU ARE HOPI N G SOMEBODY ELSE W I L L TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE. W H E N YOU ARE TRULY DESPERATE TO BELI EVE W H E N H E W A S DONE. I GRABBED H I S E M BRACE. FRANTIC TO TASTE HIM AND L I C K I N G W H EREVER HE ORDERED ME. HE S E E M E D TO K NOW I W A NTED H I S A R M PITS A N D H I S C ROTCH A N D- SWEATY SOCKS. H E PUSHED M Y FACE I NTO ALL OF T H E M A N D A LLOWED M E TO BATHE M Y TONG U E A N D M I N D T H E R E . WHEN H E TURNED M E AROU N D A N D BROUGHT M Y BACK INTO HIS C H E ST. BETW E E N HIS I RISKED D R I V I NG M Y FLARING AND M A SSAGED MY H E A D S A I LED. E L E P H A NTS I N TO HIS C ROTC H THIGHS W H I L E W O R D L E S S . T H I C K WITH M I RACLES AND "FAITH H EALI NGS" ARE NO PROOF OF GOD. THEY ONLY P ROVE DESPE RATE PEOPLE CAN DO MORE WITH TH E I R OWN MIND AND BODY THAN THEY T H I N K THEY CAN. IT TELLS M E THEY HAVE BEEN TRICKED I N TO BELIEVING THAT THE I R UNREALIZED POTENTI A L LI ES I N A NOTH ER BEI NG. BE I T TH R O U G H POS S E S S I O N BY D E M O N S O R THROUGH TH E GRACE OF GOD. IT A LSO SUGGESTS THAT GODS A R E HYPE RTROPH I C MANI FESTATIONS OF OUR I N N E RMOST DESI R ES TO BE MORE THAN W E ARE A N D THAT WE WORSH I P OUR GODS A S I NTENSELY A S W E L U ST TO WORS H I P OURSELVES. THIS PHASE OF S ELF-WORSH I P IS NECESSARY I F LORD PRESTON YAWNED. CAUSING THE N A K E D M A N W H O H A D BEEN WATC H I NG US T O F U M B L E H I S BON E AND DEPART. INDIGNANTLY ASTO U NDED. I LA UGHED. THE I N D I V I D U A L I S EVER TO GET OVER ITSELF A N D MATURE W I T H TH E E N E RGY T O CONFRONT T H E B U S I N E S S O F A D A I LY S U RVIVAL. P R E F E R A B LY IN GOO. THEN PRAYERS SOM ETIM E S "WORK." T H E I N T E N S I T Y OF T H A T DESPE RATION DRAWING OUT OF THE I N DIVIDUAL POTENTIALS IT NEVER K N EW I T HAD. A N D NEVER WILL KNOW. GIVEN ITS KINO OF FAITH A N D THE FAITH OF OTHE R S FEEDING I NTO T H A T FAITH. R E A LITY WHEN FOR I N T R U T H TH E R E THE IS NO R E A L EVIDENCE E X I ST E N C E OF A N Y GOO.

EXCEPT AS A N U LTIMATE EXTEN SION OF IMAGINARY POWER STRUCTURES.

S E N S A T I O N S W H I LE A

FLOOD OF CONFLICTING EMOTI O N S H I D B E H I N D M Y S M I LE. I CONSIDERED B I T I N G H I M . BUT D E C I D E D T H I S P U B L I C WAS N O PROTECTION . T H E C ROWD H A D ALREADY SC R E A M E D F O R M Y BLOOD W H I LE M Y MASTER W A S B EATI NG M E F O R H I S O W N PLEASURE. THEY WERE H A R DLY T H E SORT TO SAVE M E FROM HIS ANGER.

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A COOPERATIVE GROUP TI M E TO PLAY AS

EFFORT SEEKING WELL LOSE AS WORK

R E M E M B E R I NG HOW EASILY HE PUT ME IN A N D OUT OF MY CLOTH ES. I K N E W WHAT THE S I NGLE WORD FROM HIM WOULD BE.

ENOUGH

TOG ETH ER.

WITHOUT

WORK.

WE

MEANING.

WITHOUT P L A Y . W E LOSE OUR WARMTH A N D BECO M E TOO SERIOUS T O LOVE . "STR I P. "

T H A T TERRI FY I NG O R D E R T O Y I E L D EVE RYTH I N G TO H I S B R UTA L W H I M . WHEN ROPE N E XT I WOKE. I FROWNED A T T H E LACK OF A ROU N D MY H A N DS AND FEET. BUT HAR TH E THOUGHT C R A Z E D M E A N D I S P I L L E D EN DLESS LY UNTIL LORD P R E STON ENDED IT. OR SO IT

DENED HAPPY IN THE W A R MTH OF LORD PRESTON'S BODY CURLED ROU N D M Y OWN. HE STI R R ED. ROSE. TH E N BROUGHT HIS P E A N UT I NTO MY MOUTH A N D NONCHALA NTLY P I S S E D . I GUZZLED E V E N AS H I S BLADDER PROVED LA RGER T H A N MY BELLY. A L L O F ME SNORTI NG F O R A I R A N D STEADYING MYSELF BY GRABBING H I S N A K E D LEGS.

S E E M E D.

EVEN MORE D I SQU I E T I N G IS THAT HE HAS ME SO I NO LON G E R K N O W W H AT'S R E A L A N D WHAT'S CON

TRIVED. I CA N'T S E E M TO DISC I P LI N E MYSELF TO FORGET H I M . R I D I C U LO U S . IT SOU N DS R I D I C U LO U S . BUT FIND S O M ETI M E S M Y S E LF ON HE IT F E E L S ME SO OF

HAS

"ARE YOU HORN Y?" HE W H I SP E RED I NTO MY HA LF SLEEP.

CONFUSED

THE

VERGE

C R Y I NG. DESPERATE TO BE E M B RACED.

"YES. SI R."

HIS

HAND

M O L E ST E D

THE

HOLE

BETW E E N

MY

TH E N

GROW

ANGRY

AT

MY

FAILURE

TO K E E P

ELEPH A NTS. G R E A S E D I T AND BROUGHT H I S FRESH BONE I N TO PLACE. A FT E R A PRELI M I NA RY PEEVE. MY HOLE OPENED. H E SLID I N . AND I LEA R N E D H E COULD DRI LL MY H O L E ALL DAY A N D I WOULD LOVE IT. THE EXPLOSIONS A S P A I N LESS AS THEY W E R E DISORI E NTING. A P A S S I O N T H I C K E N E D I N S I DE ME. ON LY TO FLOU N D E R A S LORD PRESTON ORDERED M E TO WORK MYSELF I NTO SPI LLING. MY BONE WAS ALREADY HARD AND I WOR K E D IT. BUT I N S I D E I

T H I N G S I N PROPORTION A N D I S H A K E MYSELF F O R A N E W P E R S P ECTIVE. LAST? HOW LONG IS THIS GOI NG TO

A N X I ETY FOR

IS

AN

EMOTIONAL T U R MOI L DESPERATE C H A RG E D BE WTH FEARS AND ITS

D I R EC T I O N . IT CAN

DOUBTS.

R E ACTI V E .

R E SOLVING ON A

WANTED HIS H A N D T H E R E I NSTEAD OF MY OWN. M Y B O N E R E FUSED TO RAGE A N D S PI LL. AS I F WAITING FOR HIM TO TA K E CONTROL. SU DDENLY I REALIZED HE WAS IN CONTROL. THE USE OF HIS HAND

D E S P E RATION CON C E R N ; D I R ECTION OR OR

BY IT

F OC U S I N G CAN BE

SPECIFIC WITHOUT

DIFFUSE. ITS

M OT I V A T I O N .

DESPE RATION R E S I ST A N T TO

SUSPENDED

AND

T H E R E FO R E

I N A PPROPRIATE. T H E U S E O F MY BODY H I S. FROM B E H I N D ME. HE W H I S P E R E D I NTO MY EAR. HIS BON E STI LL MOVING WON DROUSLY I NSIDE M E . H I S WORDS SOU N D I NG A R E A LITY W H E R E WITH A S I NGLE WORD H E WOU LD B R I N G TEARS TO M Y EYES. A TREMBLING TO MY BODY. A N D M Y BODY TO ITS KNEES. PLEADI NG. H E TALKED OF TAKING EACH P A RT OF MY BODY ONE AT A T I M E . SHOULDERS. T H E N ELEPHA NTS. BAGS A N D PEANUT. EACH ARM. EACH THIGH A N D CALF. HAND AND FOOT. TORTU R I N G EACH ONE U NTI L ALL OF ME I S TOO TENDER TO TOUCH A N D MY M I N D SO MUCH THAT IT BREAKS WHEN HE

R E SOLUTION. T H I S D I FFUSE A N X I ETY I S USUA LLY S U BC O N SC I O U S AND M A N I F E STS ITSELF AS

S E R IOUSN ESS. I F THE DESPE RATION I S SUSPENDED LONG ENOUGH. ITS E N ERGY D I S S I PATES AND

S O B R I ETY B E C O M E S A P ATH E T I C . D E S P E R A T I O N I N C A P A B L E O F R E SO L U T I O N . A N D I N S E C U R I T I E S FIXATED.

A N X I ETY EVOLVED A S A M EC H A N I S M FOR QU ICKLY R E S PO N D I NG TO ATTACK OR P E R I L. ITS DESPERA TION WAS NOT MEANT TO BE SUSPENDED I N D E F I N ITELY UNTI L A PATHETIC. IT C H RONIC IS A N X I ETY IS A

HU RTING

ORDERS ME T O D E C I D E WHICH PART OF M E HE'LL TORTURE N EXT.

M ENTA L

D I SO R D E R .

N E U RO S I S ;

MASS

N E U ROSIS W H E N CONVENTION ALIZED.

R E M E M B E R I NG THE D E PTH OF MY UNEASIN ESS AS I HAD TO WAIT. A NTICI PATING HIS NEXT BEATING.

BY

B E L I TT L I N G

AND

DEG R A D I NG

A N YO N E ' S

I N D I V I D U A LITY. CONVENTION A LI Z E D S M G E N ERATES

I B2

A COMMON A N X I ETY. T H E N DI FFUSES I T D U R I NG T H E E A R LY Y E A R S O F TRA I N I NG. U N A B L E T O R E SOLVE OU R D E S P E R ATION. W E FORCE I T OUT OF AWARE N ES S A N D BECOME S E RIOUS. THE CONVENTI O N A L IZED SM R E I N FO R C E S THIS S E R IO U S N ESS WITH

NO CONVENTION A L SYSTEM W I L L TOLERATE THIS. MASS N E U ROSIS I S M O R E DIFFICULT TO M A I NTI A I N I F ITS CHRONIC A N X I E T I E S A R E B E I N G FOC U S E D A N D R E SOLV E D W I THOUT LESSEN I NG WHICH THE SOC I A L R E G U LATI O N . T H U S OR A PATH Y WITH

S E R IOUSN ESS W I L L S E R V E.

R E L I G I O U S A N D PO L I T I C A L DELUSIONS WHICH A C T EITHER AS A N A RCOTIC T O E N C O U R A G E A PATHY O R A S A DECOY FOR THOSE W H O S E E N E RGY WILL NOT D I S S I PATE. TH E DECOY DRAWI NG TH E I R ANXI ETI E S O U T OF THE S U BCO N SCIOUS A N D FOC USING T H E M I N T O A L U S T FOR POW E R A N D G LORY.

PEOPLE

FOR T H I S

R E A SON

A LONE. TH E CONVENTION HAS D U P E D ITS N E U ROTIC MASSES I NTO B E L I E V I NG THAT F A NTASY PLAY.

ESPECIA LLY EROTIC S M. I S MORE N E U ROTIC THAN TH E I R CONFOR M ITY.

THE DIC HOTOMOUS ACTION OF THESE DELUSIONS ALLOWS TYPES CON V E NTIONALIZED PEOPLE-THOSE sM TO BREED TWO LORD PRESTON COM M U N ICATED HIS VOICE. HIS I N STR UCTI ONS YET HE HAD WITH L E FT MY ME TODAY. ME WITH A

OF

WHO

W I L L LET THEM

SELVES BE CONTROLLED AND THOSE WHO WANT TO CONTROL. PLAYERS. THE POWER GAME ACQ U I R E S ITS

RAGING

BONE.

E N TI R E

BODY

SHIVE R I NG A N D WOR R Y I NG. I'M STI LL S H A K I NG. I CAN S E E H I S GAME. I K NOW EXACTLY WHAT H E I S DOING. BUT IT CHA NGES N O N E OF MY R E ACTIONS. I STILL FEEL POW E R LESS IN H I S PLAY. KNOWI NG HOW TO

A LL

O F THEM

C H RONICA LLY

ANXI ETY

R I D D E N . THE CONVENTION M A K E S TH E RULES. A N D M A S S N E U RO S I S S E T S TH EM I NTO ACTION.

ESCAPE BUT LAC K I N G THE WILL TO DO SO. EVEN AS I THE SM OF S E X U A L FANTASY. EROTIC SM. I S M ERELY A R E F LECTI O N NOT OF I T S CO N V E N T I ON A L FO R M . AS AN ELEMENT OF IT TRY TO CONVI N C E MYSELF I AM ON LY CONTRIVING THIS. I CAN S E E M E TELLING MYSELF I W I L L GET

DOES

E X I ST

MASS

OVER H I M A N D AT THE SAM E TI M E STEPPI NG I NTO H I S PRESENCE. KNOWING IT TO B E A TRAP I MAY NEVER LEAVE.

N E U ROSIS. B U T A S A COM P E N SATION

FOR IT. BY

EROTICIZING THE CONVENTIONAL POW E R GAME I NTO A CONTEXT FOR FANTASY. S E X U A L S M A LLOWS T H E PARTI C I PANTS T O P L A Y PA RTS OF T H E POWER G A M E T H E Y A REN'T P LA Y I N G I N T H E I R EVERYDAY LIVES. USUALLY T H E FANTA S I E S A LLOW THE PLAYERS TO TAKE ROLES OPPOSITE TH OS !" THEY HAVE IN

H E MADE I T CLEAR HOW MUCH H E OWNS ME. WILL HE ACHIEVE HIS GOAL ONLY TO TOSS M E ASIDE LIKE SOME TOY THAT NO LONGER A M U S E S H I M ?

R EALITY.

B U T OC C A S I O N A L L Y T H E

F A N T A sT Y ROLES TO A L LOW. SU I F E A R T H E TOTALITY WITH W H I C H T H I S MAY FIXATE M E ON H I M . A L R E A DY HE HAS ME IN PLACES NO ONE HAS EVER HAD B E FORE. T H I S NO LONGER FEELS L I K E A GAME. IT N E V E R D I D . I ONLY TOLD MYSELF IT

S I M PLY EXAGG E RATES T H E EVERYDAY AN EXTR E M E WAY. THAT THE R E ALITY WOULD OBJECT IS TO

NOT

EITH E R

R E LE A S E

P R E S S E D EMOTIONS. FANTA S I E S A R E A R E S PONSE TO U N R ESOLV E D A N X I ETY. J U ST AS A N X I ETY I S A RESPONSE TO D A N G E R .

010. W H A T R E A LLY

A L LOWS

ME

TO C O N T I N U E .

BESIDES H I S OWN P E R SONAL FORCE. I S T H E FACT F A N TA S I Z I N G LETS YOU FOC U S SOME DIFFUSE THAT HE HAS M A D E I T CLEAR THAT THIS W I L L NOT INTRUDE I NTO M Y R E LATION S H I P WITH DA N I EL.

A N X I ETY. G I V I N G IT A D I R ECTI ON. A N D R E LEASE IT. D R E A M S R E L E A S E THE S U BT L E R A N X I ETIES. THOSE O R I G I N ATI N G COU R S E O F A AND DAY U N RESOLVED OR TWO. T H E DURING LO N G E R THE THE

TO LOR D P R ESTON.

D A N I E L I S M E R ELY A N OTH E R

STA LLION LORD P R E STON's STA LLION HAS T A K E N A STRONG FANCY TO.

A N X I ETIES P E R S I ST. T H E M O R E FIXED THE Y BECOME. REQUI R I NG MORE VIOLENT E MOTIO N S TO R E SOLVE TH EM.

EROTIC SM'S MAJOR POTENTI A L I S I N ITS VIOLENCE. THE MORE INTENSE TH E E ROTIC SM. THE MORE

IT'S

J U ST

AN

IDEA.

BUT

IT

STR UCK

ME

THAT

ORIGINALLY GODS M A Y HAVE A C T E D A S A P R I M E R FOR AGG R E SSION. THE E ROTI CIZATION FINAL POW E R OF WE FEAR M U ST

VIOLENT THE EMOTIONS IT RELEASES. E ROTIC SM T H E R E FORE HAS TH E POTENTI A L TO R E SOLVE SOM E OF OUR MOST FIXATED A N X I ET I E S . I NC L U D I N G

TRANSFIGU R E D

I NTO A

FOREV E R D E F E N D O U R S E LVES AGA I N ST. THE F I RST GODS WERE L I K E THE P U NC H I NG BAGS WE WORK

THOSE THAT H A V E U S S E R V I NG OU R SOCI ETY.

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OUT ON

IN O R D E R TO R E M A I N MORE AGG R E SSIVE

N E W C E LLS. THEY S E E M M O R E A PART O F M E NOW A N D M A K E ME LOOK L I K E A N A N I M A L . I S U S P E N D E D M Y S E L F BY T H E N EC K T O WATCH TH E M A N D H O W I M IG H T STR UGGLE. HOW I M IGHT LOOK I N YOU R EYE. ANGRY FOR AIR AND S U DDE N LY PISSING I N THE

THAN WE A R E BUT H A V E TO B E TO S U R V I V E . IF THIS

IS M O R E T H A N J U S T A N I NTUITIVE I N SPI RATI ON. I F

TH E R E I S A BASIC TRUTH DETER M I N E HOW THE

H E R E . T H E N I N E E D TO BECA M E

P U N C H I NG BAGS

OTH E R PEOPLE L A B E L L E D FREA KS. PERVE RTS A N D INFERIORS WHILE THE GODS M UTATE D I NTO

TERROR O F YOU R FEEL IF YOU WAS

R EACTION A N D HOW IT WOU L D B E AT I N G A ME THEN. BUT I YO U R E A S I LY

WERE O N LY

J U S T I FICATIONS FOR TH E I R P E R S ECUTION. D I V I N E D I SC I PL I N A R I A N S FAILURE TO COM P E N SATI NG R E S PO N S I B L E FO R FOR OUR OUR

R EACTION

FANTASY.

S P I L L E D E V E N THOUGH I COULD NOT BEAT M YSELF THE WAY YOU WOULD. PISS I DI DN"T E V E N TRY. AND I IN TE R ROR U NTIL. STILL

REMAIN

S E LVES. I N A N Y F O R M . GODS W E R E U N DOUBTEDLY I N V E N T E D OUT O F A DESPERATION FOR POW E R .

D I DN'T

ACTU A L L Y

H A N G I NG BY MY N EC K AND T I E D H A N D-AND-FooT. I TRI E D FOR A SECOND C O M I NG.

SIR.

J A SON K LE I N TH E
B R U I S ES

LOOK

BEA UTI F U L

IN

THE

M I RROR.
EXCERPTS FROM BUGS. A NOVEL

EVEN IF THEY HAVE DULLED U N DE R TH E DUST O F

39. T R A V E L L I N G : R O B E R T E W A L K I N G SEEN F R O M R E A R .

40.

EYES OF CORPULENT MAN WHO WALKS MORE S LOWLY.

41.

ROBERTE'S H I PS. HER H A N DS. ONE HOLDING BAG. THE OTH E R SWINGI NG.

41

BIS.

P A L M O F R:S HAND SEEN BY CORPULENT M A N .

4 2 . R . H ESITATES I N F R O N T OF TW O N E I GH BORI NG SHOPS.

42 B I S.

W I N DOW D I SPLAY OF WOMEN'S BLOUSES.

43. THE CORPU L E N T MAN PLACES H I M S E L F BETW E E N THE DOOR OF THE SHOP AND R.

44. (CLOSE UP) R : S H A N D ON THE DOOR K NOB.

415. THE DOOR O F THE N E I G H BORING SHOP. W I N DOW S ROUGHLY PA I N TED.

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A STORY DEDICATED TO J A SON

JASON SAID: " M A K E ME F E E L LIKE A N A N I M A L." WI LL. THAT TH E FA NTASY I S HIS C R E ATION A N D H E M A I N TA I N S POW E R OVER IT. HE TH I N K S TH E

GREATEST R I S K HE TAKES IS THAT SOM EONE ELSE I AM SITTING IN MY L I V I N G ROOM. I HAVE TWO CATS. THE FEMALE IS IN H E AT. THE MALE POU N C E S BUT JASON I S W RONG. WILL NOT U N DE RSTA N D WHAT H I S FANTASY IS.

VIOLE NTLY O N H E R B A C K . G R I PPING THE NAPE O F H E R N ECK BETW E E N S H A R P TEETH. THE F E M A L E I S CAUGHT I N A F U R Y OF CONTRADICTION: HER REAR E N D L I FTS U P I NVITING HIS COCK TO E NTER HER. H E R MOUTH S N A RLS WITH A NG E R AND SPITE. H E FUCKS HER OF S A V A G E L Y. HIS PELVIS THE S H A R P. QUICK HER

TH ERE ARE OTH E R PEOPLE FOR WHOM THE REAL WORLD I S DAYLIGHT: A N I N E-TO-F I V E JOB. A HOME. A LOVER. AT NIGHT THEY DON LEATH E R C LOTH I N G

A N D T H E Y STA LK T H E B A R S O F FOLSOM STREET O R TH E BANKS OF T H E H U DSON. O N C E H E HAD M ET M E . JASON LOST T H A T DICHOTOMY. HE HAS H A D TO

PLUNGES WETNESS.

SLAM

A G A I NST

LEARN THAT THE DAY TO DAY EXI STENCE HE H A D THAT I S WHAT JASON WA NTS TO FEEL. EXPER I E N C E D AS REA LITY IS I N F A C T H I S FANTASY. HIS DREAM WORLD I S THE SPH E R E THAT A L LOWS IT I S TOO S I M P LISTIC. HE WA NTS MY BODY SLA M M I NG I NTO HIS. BUT HE WA NTS T H E LUXURIES OF SPITE AND CHOICE. H I M TO CONC E I V E OF H I M SELF AS H A V I N G A F R E E WI LL. M A K I NG DECISIONS. CR EATI N G I N DEPEN DENT LY. IT IS ENTI R E LY FALSE. HIS NEW REA LITY I S THE SOUND OF MY VOIC E A S I STAND IN F RONT OF HIM OR AS IT I S TRANSPORTED THREE THOUSAND M I LES BY JASON MAKES M A N Y M I STAKES. TELEPHONE WIRE. THE WAVES THAT C A R R Y MY

WORDS TO HIM S H ATTER H I S WOR L D AND C R E ATE H E CA N'T BE BLA M E D FOR A L L OF T H E M . H E THINKS TH ERE I S A R E A LITY A N D A FA NTASY WHICH E X I ST IN CONTRADICTION TO O N E A N OTHER. H E BELIEVES HE LEAVES REALITY AND ENTERS FANTASY OF H I S OWN TH ERE I S A JASON WHO DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT ME. THEIR OWN WORLD W H I C H H E M U ST NOW I N H A BIT.

I S!!

IT

IS

THE

PERSON AT IT THE IS A

WHO

HEARS

MY

WORDS

AND

MY F R I E N D SA I D: "YOU W I L L B R E A K H I M ."

T R E M BLES CONTENT.

SOUNDS. SHUDDERS BODY THAT IS

AT T H E NO I S A I D : "HE W A S A LR E A D Y BROKEN. I A M M A K I N G H I M WHOLE."

A L LO W E D

L I M I TATIONS TO ITS U S E . IT I S A SHELL THAT I FILL WITH OOE S MY LUST. M Y S E LF. MY CONTROL IT POWER. AND A N D JASON GOING. AT

NOT

COMI NG

OTH E R T I M E S WITH OTH E R M E N H E CAN CHOOSE H I S R E A LITY. HE C A N C H OO S E T O B E I N AN OFFICE

BUT I THOUGHT A BOUT IT. BODY AND HIS MY SELF

I THOUGHT A BOUT H I S S H OO K WITH THE

AND

WOR K I NG. WITH

A LOV ER H AV I NG D I N N ER . WITH A

INTENSITY CONTROL.

OF

POWE R A N D THE

FURY O F M Y

T R I C K ACTI NG AS THOUGH HE WERE A MASTE R . H E C A N NOT COM M A N D DO THAT WITH TH I S PE RSON IS ONE THAT I

I NTO

EXI STENCE.

THIS

P LACE

W H E R E JASON H A S N O POW E R . " M A K E ME FEEL L I K E A N A N I M A L." JA SON S A I D .

W H E N I WOK E T H I S M O R N I NG THERE WAS A P A I N I N MY K N EE. I DON'T KNOW W H E R E IT C A M E FROM. BUT IT. IT AND EVERY PAIN I F E E L. R E M I NDS M E OF

WHEN

THE

F E M A LE

CAT

IS

OUT

OF

H EA T

SHE

ADORES M E . I S I T R E A D I N G A BOOK I N M Y CHA I R A N D SHE CLIMBS UP ON M Y L A P . S H E P U R R S AT T H E

JASON. AS SOON AS I T H I N K OF AN A C H E. A SORE. A S E N SATION OF ANY K I N D OTH E R TH AN PLE A S U R E . I THI N K OF J A SO N . IT IN I WANT BODY. TO I KNOW MY HOW TO

F E E L OF M Y W A R M GROIN. AT N IGHT S H E SOM E T I M E S CRAWLS U N D E R M Y COVERS AND C URLS AGA I N ST MY STOM A C H . SHE SENSES GREAT PROTECTION.

REC R EATE

HIS

CALL

DOCTOR

TH E HUGE BODY THAT IS M I N E S E E M S TO HER TO BE A SOU RCE OF H EA T AND DEFENSE. W H E N I'VE BEEN OUT A N D R E T U R N TO T H E A PA RTM ENT S H E C I RCLES T H E ROOM SCRE E C H I NG LOUDLY. DESPE RATE FOR M E TO P I C K C H E ST . TOU C H . SHE HER U P A N D HOLD HER AGA I N ST M Y THE REASSURANCE OF MY

F R I E N D IN BOSTON: "HOW CAN I MAKE JASON FEEL THIS WA Y7" H E T E L L S ME.

NEEDS

I T E L L JASON: "I A M GOI NG TO TA KE YOU TO THE P LA C E WHERE YOU WILL C R Y WHEN I WALK I NTO A ROOM." BUT M Y POWE R OOES NOT COM E FROM TH E CARE I H E SAYS: ''I'M A L R E A D Y T H E R E . " G I V E THE CAT-NOR T H E C A R E JASON T H I N K S I G I V E H I M . T H E PO W E R C O M E S F R O M W H A T I DO N O T 00. THE CAT T H I N K S I AM H E R B E N EFACTOR. I AM ONLY AWA R E O F W H A T WOULD H A PPEN I F I ROLLED OVER ON BUT I D O NOT WANT T O TERRORIZE J A S O N . IT WOULD B E TOO EASY. AND H E TH I N KS HE WANTS IT. I T IS NOT ENOUGH. I DO NOT WANT TO PLAY SEX ROOM GAMES WITH H I M; H E C A N L E A V E THAT BEHIND. I DO NOT WANT TO JUST EXPLORE HIS BODY. I WANT TO HER BODY AND IS S U F FOCATED WHEN SHE H E R. OR. HOW TH I S I S THE A N I M A L I C REATE I N J A SON.

VULNERABLE HOLD H E R ON

SHE

A L LOWS

ME TO

HER BACK I N SUCH A WAY THAT I

COULD DROP H E R A N D S H E WOULDN'T B E A B L E TO RIGHT H E R S E LF B E FO R E SHE LA N D E D ON THE

FLOOR. OR. T H A T S H E WOULD STA RVE I F I D I D NOT RETURN A N D F E E D H E R .

EXPLORE H I S M I N D A N D TAKE HOLD OF THAT PART W H I C H I H AVE C REATED. I WANT TO G R I P I T WITH A H A R D GRASP A N D P U L L I T OUT. SCULPT IT. M A K E H I M H O R R I F I E D T H A T I T E X I STS OUTS I D E H I M . A N D THEN. O N L Y T H E N . PUT IT BACK I NTO H I S M I ND. BUT WHEN ITS TH E R E I T WI LL STI LL B E M I N E. I WI LL HAVE IT W H E N E VER I WANT IT. WHATEVER E LSE H E DOES. WHEREVER ELSE H E GOES. W H ATEV E R ELSE HE

THE

PA RT O F JA SON

THAT I S

MINE

LIVES ONLY

TH ROUGH M E. MY F R I E N D SAID: "YOU A R E PLA Y I N G GOD. "

THINKS. T H E R E W I L L A LWAYS B E TH I S PART OF H I S BEING THAT E X I STS O U TS I D E HIS POW E R . HE "I KNOW."

CAN NOT RESIST M Y T A K I N G I T . H E CAN NOT REVOLT AGAI NST WHAT I 00 WITH IT. I HAVE C R EATED A PART OF JASON THAT IS M I N E . IT

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IS THE ONLY L I F E THAT I W I L L E V E R C R E ATE BY MYSELF. IT I S SOM ET H I N G THAT N O ONE ELSE CAN HAVE. CAN FEEL, W I LL EVER SEE. IT IS A N ACT OF C R EATION THAT I S ENTI R E L Y I N D I V I D U A L. IT DOES NOT RELY ON THE H ET E R OS E X U A L ACT OF

WORD, YES." I AM THE O N E WHO S A I D IT.

PROCREATION. I T I S M I N E: M I N E A LONE, IT I S F I N E R TH A N THE CREATION OF A B A B Y .

MY FRIEN D SAYS: " H E'LL END U P I N SAN E:'

"HE ALREADY I S."

M Y LOVER H I SS E S AT M E : " Y O U G O D D A M SADISTI" I TELL JASON: YOU MAY END U P HATING M E." I S M I LE. H E SAYS: "I DON'T KNOW TH E DIFFERENCE BETWE E N W H E N I A M WITH M Y LOVER I M E RG E WITH H I M TO C REATE A N E W FORC E : T H E S Y N E RGY OF LOVE. I DO LOVE H I M . I HOLD H I M C LOSE AT N I G H T A N D WONDER AT H I S FEEL. I WH I P H I S BACK AND ASS A N D M A R K H I M W I T H LOVE. H I S S U B M I SSION I S O U R U N I ON WITH M Y DOM I N A NCE. HE BECOM E S A BOY. W E STAY TWO M E N IN LOVE. HE SUCKS MY COCK G R E E D I LY. I TAKE HIS ASS WITH M Y COCK, MY F I ST. W H ATEVER. W E A R E TOG ETH ER : FUTU R E . I HE IS MINE: I AM HIS. WE P L A N T H E I I NCOR I SAY: "I'LL SHOW HIM THAT H E EXI STS ONLY AT M Y WHIM." WHAT WILL YOU DO TO HIM WHEN YOU GO TO BUT LOVE ISN'T WHAT I WANT FROM J A SON A N YWAY. HAT E AND LOVE."

CALIFOR N IA?" MY FRI E N D ASKS.

LISTEN

TO H I M

C A R E FULL Y.

PORATE H I S DESI R ES. H E ACTS OUT M Y WISH ES. WE C R EATE RATELY. MORE TOG ETH E R T H A N WE ARE SEPA

"WOULD YOU K I L L H I M ?"

"NO. BUT I HAVE DREAMT ABOUT IT." JASON DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT ME.

"ISN'T HE FRIGHTE N E D OF YOU?"

I DO NOT BEAT J A SON WITH LOVE. HE I S S I M PLY A BODY. I TA KE FROM H I M . A L L TH E EGO, ALL THE

"ABSOLUTE LY."

SPITE, A L L THE ANGER. I WILL TA K E HIM BEYOND ALL THOSE POI NTS. IN MY P R E S E N C E THE ONLY "WHY DOES N'T SOM EONE STOP YOU?"

JASON THAT E X I STS I S W H AT I HAVE C R E ATED. HE C A N NOT RECLA I M T H E OLD. H E CAN ON LY EXIST I N TH E N EW. "WHAT DOES HE GET FROM ALL THI S?" "WHO?"

"LI FE." I CALL JASON: "I WANT YOU TO DO SOMETH I NG."

PAUSE.

"DO I HAVE TO AGREE B E FO R E YOU TELL M E?"

IT I S ALL SOM E FORM OF COMPENSATION. THE MOST PROFOU N D TRUTHS ARE THE E X I STENCE OF Y I N

S I LENCE.

AND

YANG. W I T H

MY

LOVE T H E COMPLI M E NTARY

PARTS ARE OBVIOUS, O U R R E LATION S H I P R E M A I N S A BALANCE. W I T H J A SON T H E ON LY ORDER I S THAT

"YES."

WHICH I I M POSE. I HAVE A LOVER TO BECOME MORE WHOLE: TO SENSE COM M U N ION WITH SOMEONE. I AM

IT DOESN'T MATTER WHOSE MOUTH UTTE R E D THE

MY

LOV E R 'S

MASTER:

WE

ARE

E QU A LS .

THE

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CONTRADICTIONS OF L I F E C A N BE ACCOMODATED. B U T NOT WITH JASON. I H A R DEN AT TH E R E M E M

" BU T J A S O N

B R A NC E OF H I S N A M E : I A M FORCE D I NTO A S E N S E OF RE SPONS I B I LITY THAT OV E R W H E L M S ANY

" JASON I S N O T A R E LATIONSH I P. ITS OWN E R S H I P:'

S E M B L E N C E O F F R I VOLITY. I A M TOTA LLY FOC USED. I M U ST BE. I C A N NOT L E A V E TH IS ROLE OR THAT

P A R T OF J A SO N T H A T I S M I N E WOU L D BE C R U S H ED. I C A L L E D J A S O N . " A F R I E N D OF M I N E IS C O M I N G TO SAN F R A N C I SCO. H E'S GOING TO W H I P YOU:'

HE R E P L I E S : " WH E R E DO I GO? W H E N ?" MY FRIEND SAYS: " YO U C A N NOT DO TH I S TO

A N OTH E R H U M A N B E I NG." MY F R I E N D SAYS: "W H E N YOU'RE WITH YOUR LOV E R YOU TALK A BOUT W H E R E YOU'RE GOI NG T O L I V E ,

I S A Y : " H E'S NOT A H U M A N B E I NG. H E'S JASON:'

W H A T YOU' R E GOI NG T O DO. H O W YOU' R E GOING T O FULFILL YOUR FANTA S I ES. W H A T DO Y O U SAY TO

" YO U H A V E TO R E S PECT A N YO N E THAT YOU LOVE:'

J A SO N ?"

" 1 DONT LOVE HIM. I POS S E S S H I M:'

"NOTH I N G . I B E A T H I M . "

SIT

IN

NEW

YO RK

IN

MY

ROOM.

MY

READING

IS

HOW

CO U L D

A N YON E

POSS I B LY

KNOW

WHAT

IT

I N T E R R U PT E D BY A P L E A S A N T THOUGHT OF J A SON. H E'S W A I T I N G FOR M Y A R R I V A L. IT WON'T OC C U R FOR A NOTH ER THREE W E E KS. I S M I LE. HE M U ST BE

M E A N S FOR J A SON TO H E A R M Y VOICE?

WHENEVER

IT

R A I N S,

MY

CAT

HIDES

IN

TH E

Q U I V E R I N G W I T H E V E R Y THOUGHT OF M E . I STA N D U P A N D GO T O M Y D E S K . I F I N D A S E T OF LONG. STE E L P I N S. I ADDRESS AN E N V E LOPE T O J A SON AND

BATH ROO M , C RO UC H I N G V U L N E R A BLY B E H I N D T H E TOI LET. H E R M I N D C A N NOT F A T H O M T H E F O R C E S OF N A T U R E T H A T B R I N G WATER FROM T H E S K Y A N D

W A L K OUT TO M A I L IT. T H E R E I S NO NOTE. JUST THE RETU R N A DD R ESS. WHEN HE REC E I V E S TH E P I N S

I L L U M I N A T E T H E N I G H T WITH BOOMS OF TH U N D E R E D L I G HTN I NG .

H E ' L L K NOW T H E Y ' R E FROM M E AND I I M AG I N E W H AT H E ' L L DO. " M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M A L, " J A SON PLEADS.

HE W I L L OPEN THE

E N V E L O P E AND STA N D TH E R E AND I DO. HE I S LIKE MY CAT, TOTA LLY U N A B L E TO ALTE R O R NATURE. CONTROL THE E X I STS FORCES O F M Y V IOLENT IN UTTER H O R ROR IN MY

W I T H T H E T H I N . S H A R P M E T A L I N H I S H A N DS. H E W I L L CRY SOB B I N G LY. I IMAGINE H I M STA N D I NG TH E R E

WITH DEEP GASPS IN

H I S C H EST A N D R I V E R S O F

J A SON

T E A R S FLOWI N G DOWN H I S C H EEKS.

P R E S E N C E . THERE HAPPEN TO HIM.

I S NO R E ASON FOR W H A T W I L L IS NO WAY FOR HIM TO

TH E R E

D E C I D E W H A T W I L L B E DON E . T H I S B O D Y THAT H E I NEVER GIVE JASON THE SAT I S F A C T I O N OF TH I N K S IS HIS PASSES FROM H I S S E LF-CONTROL

PREDICTA B I LITY. WHEN HE G ETS T H E PINS FROM ME HE WILL H A V E NO WAY O F KNOWING WHAT I I N TEND TO U S E THEM FOR. I COULD DO A N YT H I N G WITH H I M A N D TH E M . A N D H E KNOWS T H AT NOW. T H E UTT E R HORROR OF TH E POSS I B I L I T I E S W I LL O V E R W H E L M HIM.

I N TO MY U TT E R D O M I N ATION. M Y P R E S E N C E A LTERS TH E VERY FOU N D ATION O F H I S B E I NG.

W H A T DOES J A SO N FEEL L I K E WHEN I A M THERE?

HIS ING MY F R I E N DS SAYS: " B U T A N Y R E LATIONSH I P HAS TO HA VE A BASE OF S A N ITY:'

SKIN C A N NOT TO L E R ATE CLOTH I N G SEPA RAT IT FROM MY E Y E S . H E C A N NOT CONC E I V E OF

H I M SE L F S I TT I N G A NY W H E R E BUT AT M Y F E ET. A L L FO R M S OF HUMAN TO C O M M U N IC ATON TH E Y ARE B ECOM E

I NT O L E R A B L E I SAY: " TH A T S DOUG:'

HIM.

I N S U F F I C I E NT.

J U S T LIKE M Y CAT HE MAKES STR A N G E N O I S E S A N D

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W I LL

U N D E R STA N D TH E

EQU I V A LENT O F

BECOM I N G M O R E A N D M O R E AWA RE OF IT. IT AWES HIM. IT H O R R I FI ES H I M. IT ENTRAPS HIM. IT

P U R R I NG T H A T COMES F ROM H I M W H E N EVER I A M N O T G I V I N G H I M P A I N . J U ST L I K E M Y CAT H E LICKS M Y BODY I N G RATITUDE FOR T H E VERY STUFF O F E X I STENCE T H A T I PROV I DE. H E W I N DS H I S BODY

OVERWH E L M S H I M .

A RO U N D M I N E H O P I N G I T W I L L BE S O CLOSE TO M I N E THAT I WON'T H U RT I T . H I S MOUTH F I N DS T H E SWEAT OF M Y BODY T H E SWEETEST TASTE IT HAS KNOWN. JASON SAYS: " M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M AL."

THERE I S A PART OF JASON FOR WHOM I AM THE ONLY SOURCE OF FOOD. S H E LTER. N U RTU RE. H E IS J O H N PRE STON

46.

R . ENTERS T H E SHOP WHICH HAS NOTH I NG IN IT.

47.

R . SHOWS H E R ASTO N I S H M E NT .

4B.

THE COR P U L E N T M A N . I N S I DE SHOP. AGA I N ST M A I N DOOR.

49. AT THE R E A R OF T H E SHOP. A DOOR H A LF OPENS. A SQUAT YOU N G M A N PUTS H I S H E A D T H ROUGH. WITH DRAWS.

50. R . GOES Q U I C K LY TOW A R D THE H A L F-OPEN DOOR.

51.

LANDING O F A W I D E STA I RCASE. STEPS GOI NG STRAIGHT U P TO A C A R R I AG E DOOR G I V I N G ON TO T H E STREET.

52. THE BALUSTRADE O F T H E STA I RCASE R . BEG I N S TO CLIMB.

53. THE

SQUAT

MAN.

FEW

STEPS

A BOVE.

B R I NGS

HIS

H A N D DOWN

ON

R:S

HAND

H O LD I N G

THE

BALU STRA D E .

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THROUGH THE D ISCOVE R Y OF OEDIPAL FACTS I N TH E A N A LYSIS O F N E UROTICS FREUD GAVE B I RTH TO TH E CONCEPT OF THE COMPLEX. CONSIDERING THE NUMBER OF PSYCH I C R E LATIONS THAT I T

EXPANDING ON THEIR STRUCTU R E H E RE. LET US SAY THAT THEY CONSTITUTE A TYPE OF PSYCHO LOGICAL P U B ERTY. V E R Y PREMATU R E . WE SHALL SEE. IN R E LATION
TO

PHYSIOLOGICA L

PUBE RTY.

I N VOLVES. AT MORE THAN ON E POINT I N TH IS WORK. THE O E D I P U S CO M P L E X A S SERTS ITSELF. BOTH

TH E S E G E N I T A L D R I V E S . T A K I N G

HOLD OF T H E

C H I LD BY A S E X U A L D E S I R E TOWARD THE CLOSEST OBJECT WHICH PESENCE AND I NTEREST NORMALLY A F FO R D H I M - N A M E LY S E X -G I V E THE PARENT OF T H E

U PON OUR STUDY CIT SPECIFICA LLY DEFINES THE PSYC H ICAL R E LATIONS OF THE H U M A N FA M I LYI A N D U PO N O U R C R I TI Q U E (FREUD GIVES THIS

OPPOSITE

THEIR

O R I G I N S T O TH E

PSYCHOLOG ICAL E L E M E NT A S THE SPECI FIC FOR M OF T H E H U M A N F A M I LY A N D SUBORD I N ATES T O I T A L L I T S OTH E R SOCIA L VA R I ATIONS). T H E M ETHODIC ORDER PROPOSED OF HERE. AS M UC H A S IN TH E

COM PLEX: T H E I R FRUSTRATION FOR M S TH E CRUX. A LTHOUGH THIS FRUSTRATION IS I N HE R E NT TO THE ESSENTI A L P R E M ATURATION O F THESE DRIVES. THE C H I LD ASSOCIATES IT TO A THI RD PARTY WHOSE SA M E CON DITIONS OF PRE S E NCE A N D I N TEREST

CONSIDE RATION

M E NTA L STRUCTU RES AS I N

S OC IA L FACTS. W I LL LEAD TO A REVISION O F THE COM PLEX E N A B L I N G O N E TO SITUATE THE PATER NAL FAM ILY I N H I STORY A N D FURTHE R I LL U M I N ATE CONTE M PO R A R Y N E U ROSIS.

NORMA LLY I N DICATE TO HIM AN OBSTACLE TO THE S A T I SFACTION OF T H E S E DR I V E S: N A M E LY. TH E PARENT OF T H E S A M E SEX.

TH E

FRUSTRATION S U F F E R E D BY THE CH I LD IS ACCOM P A N I E D B Y A N EDUCATIONAL

ORD I N AR I LY

R E PRESSION WHOSE GOAL I S T H E PREVENTION OF MATER I A LI ZATION O F THESE DRI V ES. ESPECI A LLY SCH E M A OF THE COM PLEX TH E I R M A STURBATORY MATER I A LIZATION. ON THE OTH E R PSYCHOA N A LY S I S HAS R EV E A L E D I NSTI NCTU A L HA ND. THE C H I LD ACQU IRES A CERTA I N

I NTUITION O F T H E SITUATION FO RBIDDEN H I M . AS M U C H BY T H E D ISCRETE AND D I FFUSE SIGNS THAT BETRAY PA R E NTAL R E LATIONS TO H I S S E N S I B ILITY

G E N ITAL DRIVES I N C H I LD R E N THAT REACH TH E I R PEAK AT T H E AGE OF FOUR YEA RS. WITHOUT

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BY

THE

I NO P P O RT U N E

A CC I D E N T S

[LES

I N TRUTH. T H I S PREJUDICE WHICH ATTRIBUTES A N EPIPHENOME N A L C H A RACTER TO THE PSYC H I C

HASARDS

INTEMPESTI FSl

THAT

U N V E I L THEM TO

H I M . IN THIS DOUBLE PROCESS. T H E PA R ENT OF THE SA M E SEX APPEARS TO T H E C H I LD A T ONCE AS THE AGENT OF TH E SEXUAL I NTERDICTION A N D AS THE EXAMPLE OF ITS TRANSGRESSION.

ORDER-THAT IS T O SAY A N INOPERATIVE ONE-WAS FAVORED BY A N I NS U FFICIENT A N A LY S I S OF THE FACTORS OF TH I S ORDER. A N D IT IS P R EC I S E LY IN THE LIGHT O F THE OEDIPAL SITUATION THAT SUCH ACC IDENTS IN THE H I STORY OF THE SUBJECT TAKE

T H E TENSION T H U S CONSTITUTED I S DISSOLVED. ON ONE SI DE. BY R E P R E SS I O N OF THE SEXUAL

ON THE I M PORTA NCE A N D THE SIG N I FICANCE THAT ALLOW THEM TO B R I NG OUT A PARTI C U L A R TRAIT OF THE PERSONA LITY. THESE WE CAN ALSO SPECIFY THAT THE OEDI PAL

TENDENCY THAT FROM T H E N W I L L R E M A I N LATENT UNTIL PUBE RTY-G I V I N G WAY TO N E UTRAL I NTER ESTS. E M I N ENTLY FAVORABLE TO THE EDUCATION AL PROCESS; AND OF A ON THE T H E OTH E R P A RENTAL SIDE. BY THE THAT

SINCE

ACC I D E NTS

A FFECT

SITUATION AS TRAUMATISMS DURING T H E EVOLU , T I O N O F T H E C O M P LE X . T H E Y L A T E R R E P E A T THEMSELVES A S EFFECTS OF T H E S U P E R EGO. I F THEY EFFECT IT A S ABNORMA LITI E S [ATYPI ESl OF ITS CONSITUTION. THEY ARE M O S T OFTEN RE

S U B L I M AT I O N P E RPETUATES C O N SC I E N C E .

I MAGE

R E P R E S E NTATIVE OF

IDEAL IN THE THE FUTU R E

G U A R A NT E E D

COI N C I D E N C E O F PSYC H I C A N D P H Y S IOLOG I C A L ATTITUDES DOU B L E AT THE MOMENT HAS OF P U B E RTY. THIS

FLECTED I N T H E FORMS OF THE EGO-IDEAL. THUS. LIKE I N H I BITIONS OF C R EA T I V E ACTI VITY. OR

P ROCE S S

F U N D A M E N T A L G E N ETIC

I N V ER S I O N S O F S E X U A L I M A G I N A T I O N . A G R EAT N U MBER OF D I SORDERS. M A N Y OF WHICH A PPEAR ON THE LEVEL OF HAVE ELEMENTA RY SOMATIC THEIR T H E O R ET I C FU NC AND

I M PORTANCE. S I NC E I T R E M A I N S INSCRIBED I N THE PSYCHE IN TWO P E R M A N EN T AGENCI ES: THAT WHICH R EPRESSES CA LLS ITSELF T H E S U P E R EGO. THAT WHICH SUBLI MATES. TH E E G O- I D E A L . THEY

TIONS.

FOU N D

THERAPEUTIC R EDUCTION.

R E P RE S E N T T H E C O M P LE T I O N O F T H E O E D I P A L CRISIS. THE FA M I LY ACCORDIG TO FREUD

THE THE OBJECTIVE V A L U E OF T H E COMPLEX

DISCOV E R Y

THAT

DEVELOP M ENTS

OF

SUCH

I M PORTAN C E TO M A N A S SEXUAL R E P R ESSION AND PSYCHIC S E X U A LITY WERE S U B M ITTED TO R E G U LA

THIS

ESSENTIA L TO A

SC H E M A

OF

THE

COMPLEX IN

TION A N D TO ACCIDENTS OF A PSYC H I C DRAMA OF THE FA M I LY FURNISHED THE MOST PRECIOUS

RESPONDS

G R E AT

N U M BE R O F GIVENS

E X P E R I E NC E . S E X U A LITY MOREOVER. IS

THE

E X I ST E N C E O F N OT

I N FANTI LE

CONTR I B UTION T O T H E ANTH ROPOLOGY OF F A M I LY GROUPS. E S P E C I A LLY IN THE STUDY OF THE

H E N C E FO R T H IT IS

CONTESTED: RE

BECAUSE

H I ST O R I C A LL Y

I NT E R D I C T I O N S U N I V E R S A L L Y F O R M U LA T E D B Y GROUPS WHICH GOV E R N THE SEXUA L COM M E RCE BETWEEN C E RTAI N OF TH E I R M E M B E RS. BESIDES. FREUD WAS QUICK TO FOR M U LATE A TH EORY OF THE FAMI LY. I T WAS FOU NDED ON A D I S S Y M M ETRY IN THE SITUATION OF THE SEXES IN R E LATION TO

V E A L E D BY T H O S E AFTEREFFECTS OF ITS EVOLU TION WHICH CONSTITUTE' N E U ROSIS. I T IS ACCESS I B LE TO THE MOST I M M EDIATE OBSERVATION. A N D ITS AG E-OLD M I S U N D E RSTA N D I NG [ M ECON N A I S

SANCEI IS AN I M PRESSIVE PROOF OF THE SOC I A L RELATIVITY OF H U M A N KNOWLEDGE. T H E PSYCHIC AGENCIES THAT GO U N D E R THE N A M E OF "SUPER EGO" AND " E G O- I D E A L" WERE ISOLATED IN A

OEDI PUS. APPARENT SINCE THE FI RST STUDIES. THE PROCESS THAT GOES FROM OEDIPAL D E S I R E TO ITS REPRESSION HAVE J U ST IT DOES NOT APPEAR AS S I M LY A S I PRESENTED. A LS O THE AS E X C E PT MALE A IN THE MALE IS

CONCRETE A N A LYSIS OF SYM PTOMS OF N E U ROSIS. AND M A N I FESTED THE I R SCIENTI FIC VALUE I N THE DEFINITION AND E XPLI CATION OF PHENOMENA OF THE PERSONALITY: THERE IS IN THIS A POSITIVE

C H I LD.

IS

C H I LD

WHO IN

CONSTA N T L Y

TA K E N

SUBJ ECT

THE

DIDACTIC EXPOSES ON T H I S COM PLEX.

ORDER OF DETE R M I NATION THAT ACCOUNTS FOR A GREAT NUMBER OF ANOMALIES OF HUMAN TH E OEDIPAL DESI R E A PPEA RS. IN EFFECT. M UC H STRONG E R I N THE B O Y A N D T H E R E F O R E F O R T H E MOTHER. ON T H E OTH E R H A N D. I N ITS M E C H A N I S M . TH E REPRESSION R EVEALS TRAITS WHICH I N T H E I R TYPICAL FOR M AT FIRST SEEM O N L Y J U STIFIABLE I F T H E Y A R E EXERCISED BETWEEN FATH E R A N D SON. THIS I S THE FACT O F THE CASTRATION COM PLEX.

BEHAVIOUR. A N D BY T H E S A M E TOKEN. FOR THESE DISORDERS. CES TO THE RENDERS OUTDATED T H E ORGA N I C ORDER WHICH. REFEREN WHETH E R

FROM

P U R E P R I NC I P L E OR S I M PLY FROM MYTHS.

TAKES THE PLACE OF T H I S EXPE R I M ENTAL METHOD WITH AN ENTI R E M E D I C A L TRADITION.

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ZATION THE

OF

N U B I L E WOM E N . F R E U D BUI LDS U PO N T H A T I S ESTA B L I S H E D BETW E E N

R E LA T I O N

TH I S

REPRESSION

OPERATES

BY

DOUBLE

TABOOS A N D OBSERVANCES I N REGARDS T O T H E TOTEM. I N T U R N TH E OBJ ECT OF I N V IOLA B I LITY A N D SAC R I FICA L ORGY. HE I M AG I N E S A DRAMA

E MOTIONAL MOVEMENT O F T H E SUBJ ECT: AGGRES SION AGAI NST THE THE C H I LD'S PARENT IN REGARD TO WHOM PLACES H I M AS A

SEXUAL D E S I R E

M U R D E R O F T H E FATHER B Y THE SONS-FOLLOWED BY A POST H U M O U S CONSECRATION OF THE

R I V A L: SECONDARY FEAR. SUFFERED IN RETU R N . OF A LIKE AGG R E S S I O N . THUS A FANTASY

FATHE R'S POWE R OVER WOM E N B Y THE M U RDER E RS. PRISON E R S OF AN I N SOLUBLE RIVALRY: A

U N D E RLIES THESE TWO MOV E M E NTS. S O R E MARK A B L E THAT IT WAS I N DI V I D U A LIZED WITH T H E M I N A COM PLEX CALLED CASTRATION. IF THIS TERM IS

P R I MORDIAL EVENT. OUT OF WHICH TOGETH ER WITH THE TABOO OF T H E MOTH ER. A N ENTIRE MORA L A N D C U LTU R A L TRADITION WOULD COME.

J U STI F I E D BY REGRESSIVE A N D REPRESSIVE ENDS THAT A R ISE AT T H I S MOMENT OF OEDIPUS. IT IS

HOWEVER HA RDLY CONSISTENT WITH THE FA NTASY THAT MAKES OF IT TH E O R I G I N A L FACT.

EVEN I F THIS CONST R UCTION WAS NOT S POI LED BY THE ONLY C I RC U L A R R E A SO N I N G THAT IT IN

VOLVES-ATT R I B U T I N G T O A B I O LOG I C A L G R O U P TH I S FANTASY C O N S I STS E S S E N T I A LLY IN THE THE POSS I B I LITY OF RECOGNIZING A LAW. PREC I S E LY WHAT N E E D S TO B E B I O L OG I C A L EXPLA I N E D-TH E S E S O N A M ELY THE

M U TI LATION OF A M E M B E R. T H A T I S T O S A Y I N A M A LT R E A TM E N T THAT CAN ONLY SERVE TO

CALLED

P R E M I S ES .

C A STRATE THE MALE. BUT THE APPARENT R E A LITY OF THIS DANGER. COM B I N E D WITH TH E FACT THAT THE THREAT IS R E A LLY FORMU LATED BY AN

PERMA N E NT TYRRANY E X E RCISED B Y TH E C H I E F O F T H E HORDE. WOU LD R E D UCE T O A N INCREASI NGLY U NC E R TA I N PHA NTOM THEY IN P R O P O R T I O N TO T H E OFFER TO OUR

E DUCATIONAL TRADITION. M U ST HAVE LED F R E U D T O CONC E I V E IT AS E X P E R I E NCED FI RST F O R ITS R E A L VALUE. AND THEN R ECOGNIZED IN A FEAR

ADVENC E M E NT

WOULD

K NOWLEDGE O F MAN. BUT ABOVE ALL. T H E PRESENT U N I V E RSA L TRACES AND T H E E N D U R I N G SURVIVAL OF A MATRIARCHAL FA M I LY STRUCTU RE. ITS '

I N S PI R E D FROM ONE MALE TO A NOTH E R. I N FACT BY TH E FATH ER. THE PROTOTYPE OF THE OEDIPA L

A PPEARA NCE I N A LL T H E F U N DA M E NTA L FOR M S O F C U LT U R E A N D ESPEC I A LLY IN AN OFTEN EXTR E M E LY STRICT R E P R E S S I O N O F S E X U A L ITY. D E MO N

R E PRESSION.

I N THIS WAY FREUD R E C E I V E D A SUPPRORT FOR A S O C I O LOG I C A L GIVEN: N OT O N LY DOES THE

STRATE T H A T TH E ORDER OF THE H U M A N F A M I LY HAS SOME FOUNDATIONS PRESERVED FROM THE

I NTERDICTION O F I N CEST WITH T H E MOTH ER HAVE A U N I V ERSAL CHA RACTE R (ACROSS THE I N F I N ITELY DIVERSE AND OFTEN P A R A DOX I C A L FAMILY

FORC E OF T H E M A LE.

I T S E E M S. H OW E V E R . THAT THE G R EAT H A RVEST O F FACTS W H I C H T H E O E D I PAL C O M P L E X H A S LEO T O BE O B J ECTI F I E D OVER TH E PAST F I FTY YEARS

R E LATI ONS THAT P R I M IT I V E C U LTU R E S I M P RESS WITH TH E TABOO OF INCEST) BUT N O MATTER WHAT THE LEVEL OF MORAL C O N SC I E N C E IS IS IN A

COULD C L A R I FY THE PSYCHOLOGICAL STRUCTU RE OF THE F A M I LY F U RT H E R THAN TH E H A ST Y

C I V I LIZATION.

THIS

I N T E R D ICTION

A LW A Y S

E X PRESSLY FOR M U LATED A N D ITS TRANSG R ESSION I S STRUCK WITH CONSTA N T REPROBATION. THIS IS WHY FRAZ I E R U NCOV E R E D THE P R I MOR I D I A L LAW OF H U M A N I TY I N THE TABOO OF THE MOTH ER.

INTUITIONS W E H A V E J UST PRESENTED.

THE FUNCTIONS O F THE COMPLEX: A PSYCHOLOGI CAL REVISION

THE OEDIPAL C O M P L E X MARKS A LL LEVELS OF T H E T H E ORIGI N A L MYTH OF PARRICIDE PSYC H E . BUT THE T H EORETIC I A N S O F PSYC HO

ANALYSIS HAVE YET TO U N A M B IGUOUSLY DEFI N E IT IS FROM HERE THAT FREUD MAKES THE ITS COM POSITE F U NCTIONS: IT IS FOR WANT O F

TH EORETICAL I N DICATED IN

JUMP OUR

WHOSE ABUSE I N T RO D UCTION:

WE HAVE FROM TH E

H A V I N G S U F F I C I E N TLY DISTI N G U I S H E D T H E PLA N E S OF DEVELOPMENT W I T H W H I C H T H E Y EXPLA I N T H E COM PLEX. I F T H E COM PLEX A PPEARS T O TH E M . I N EFFECT. A S TH E AXIS ALONG WHICH TH E EVOLUTION OF SEXUALITY IS PROJ ECTED ONTO THE CONSTITU TION OF REALITY. T H E S E TWO PLA NES D I V E RG E WITH

CONJUGAL FAMILY THAT HE OBSERVED A MONG H I S S U B J ECTS T O A H Y POTH ETICAL P R I M ITIVE FA M I LY

CONCEIVED

AS A HORDE. THAT A M A LE DOMI N ATES

BY A BIOLOGICAL S U P E R I O RITY IN THE MONOPOLI-

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INCIDENCE

IN

MAN.

THIS

POI N T

OF

PRIMITIVE SINCE IT

DRIVES. DOES

AND

A LL T H E TO

MOR E

E A S I LY TH E

INCIDENCE I S C E RTA I N LY KNOWN TO THE THEORE TIC I A N S AS THE REPRESSION O F SEXUALITY AND THE
SUBLIMATION OF REALITY.

NOT

HAVE

REVERSE

ATTITUD E OF I N T E R N A LI ZATION I N H E R I T E D FROM THEM. D R I V E S THAT ARE N A RC I SSISTIC. THUS O N E A RRIVES FROM AT T H E SEX OF A M B IGUOUS CONCLUSION THAT TO THE T H E OTH E R. COMPLEX IN THE IF THE MORE TH E THE

BUT

SHOU LD

BE

I NTE

GRATED INTO A THESE

MORE R I GOROUS C O N C E PTION OF R E LATIONS: THE ROLE OF

STRUCTU R A L

ONE

MATU RATION PLA Y E D BY TH E COMPLEX ON EACH OF TH E S E PLA N E S CAN O N LY BE T A K E N A P PROXI

FORMATION RISKIER I TS

ACC USED.

ROLE

SEXUAL

A D A PTATION

MATELY AS PARA LLEL.

SEEMS TO BECOME.

MATU RATION OF S E X U ALITY

THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY

THE PSYCHICAL A P P A R ATUS OF S E X U A LITY IS FI RST REVEALED IN THE C H I LD IN THE MOST A B B E RANT FOR M S RELATIVE TO ITS BIOLOG I C A L E N DS. AND

HERE

WE

SEE

THE

I N FLUENCE ON A

OF THE

PSYCHO AND

LOGI C A L

COM P L E X

V I TA L

R E LATI O N .

FROM THI S PONT T H E COMPLEX CONTR I BUTES TO THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY. WHAT IT B R I NGS TO REALITY IS REVEALED IN TERMS OF AN INTELLEC TUALIST PSYCHOG E N ESIS: A CERTA I N EMOTIONA L D E PT H TO THE OBJ ECT. A DIM ENSION WHICH.

THE SUCCESSION OF TH E S E FOR M S I S EVIDENCE THAT S E X U A LITY BY C O N FO R M S A TO THE G E NITAL

ORGA N IZATION THIS SEXUAL

PROGRESSIVE

M ATU RATION. THE

MATU RATION

CONDITIONS

OEDIPAL COM PLEX B Y FOR M I NG ITS F U N DA M E NTA L TENDENCI ES. BUT I N V E R S E LY. T H E COMPLEX

FORMING T H E B A S I S OF A L L SUBJECTIVE COMPRE H E NSION. WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN DISTI N G U I S H E D FROM IT A S P HENOM ENON I F THE TREATM ENT OF ME NTAL I LLNESSES HAD NOT MADE U S GRASP IT A S SUCH-A P H E N O M E NON-BY ADVANC I N G A N ENTIR E

FAVORS SEXUALITY B Y D I R ECTING I T TOWARD ITS OBJECTS.

THE

MOV E M E NT

OF

THE

OEDIPUS

COMPELX

SERIES O F ITS DEGRADATIONS TO T H E L I M ITS OF UNDERSTA N D I NG.

OPERATES THROUGH A T R I A N G U L A R CONFLICT I N THE S U B J ECT: W E H A V E ALREADY S E E N THE PLAY OF T E N D E NC I E S THAT ARISE OUT O F W EA N I N G

IN

ORDER

TO

E ST A B L I S H THIS

NORM CAN

OF

LIVED BE

[SEVRAGEI PRODUCE A FORMATION OF TH I S SORT: IT IS A LSO THE MOTH E R. THE FI RST OBJ ECT OF THE TENDENCI ES. AS FOOD TO BE A BSORB E D A N D EVEN AS BREAST I N WHICH TO B E R E A BS OR B E D. WHICH IS FI RST OFFERED UP TO'1H E OEDIPAL D E S I R ES. THUS ONE U N D E RSTA N D S THAT OEDIPAL DESIRE IS

EXPERIENCE.

D I M ENSION

ONLY

RECONSTRUCTED B Y M ETAPHORICAL I NTUITIONS: A D E N S ITY THAT C O N F E R S E X I ST EN C E ONTO THE

OBJ ECT. A P E R S PECTI V E W H I C H GIVES US A S E N S E O F I T S D I STANCE. AND A LSO I N S PI R ES IN US A

RESPECT FOR IT. BUT H I S D I M ENSION I S SHOWN I N T H E VACI LLATI O N S OF R E A LITY T H A T F E RT I L I Z E

BETTER CHA RACTERIZED I N TH E M A L E . BUT ALSO THAT IT A LLOWS H I M A S I N G U L A R OPPORTUN ITY FOR THE R E ACTIVISATION OF THE WEAN I NG TENDENCIES. THAT IS TO SAY DO A SEXUAL REGRESSION. THESE CON STITUTE A

[FECON DITEI D E LI R I U M: W H EN THE OBJECT TENDS TO CONFUSE ITSELF WITH THE EGO WHILE AT THE SAME TI M E ABSORBI NG ITSELF I N FANTASY. W H E N IT A PPEARS DECOM POSE D LIKE ONE OF THE S E NTI MENTS THAT FO R M THE SPECTRE OF U N R E A LITY. B EG I N N I N G WITH DEJA VU. S E N T I M E NTS OF STRANG E N E S S . VU. PASSING THROUGH OF A DOUBLE. FALS E S ENTI

T E N D E N C I ES

NOT

M E RELY

PSYCHOLOGICAL I M PASSE: H E R E. IN A D D ITION. THEY OPPOSE TH E M S E LV E S P A R T I C U LA R LY TO THE

ATTITU D E O F EXTE RIOR IZATION. WHICH CONFORM S T O THE ACTIVITY OF T H E M A LE.

JAMAIS

RECOGNITIONS.

I LLUSIONS

M E NTS OF D I V I N ITY. ON THE CONTRARY. IN THE OTH E R SEX. WHERE ENCE. INTUITIONS OF

PARTICI PATION. AND I NF L U M E A N I NG. AND ENDING UP

THESE TENDENCIES H AV E A POS S I B L E I S S U E I N THE B I OLOG I C A L D E STI N Y OF THE S U B J E C T-T H E

W I T H T H E TWILIGHT OF T H E WORLD. A N EMOTIONAL A BOLITION GERMAN

VERLUSTI.

WHICH

IS

FO R M A LLY D E S IG N A T E D I N

MATE R N A L OBJECT-THE DIVE RSION O F A PART OF THE O E D I PA L DESIRE C E RTA I N LY T E N DS TO

A S THE

LOSS O F THE OBJECT (OBJEKT

N E UTRALIZE THE POTENTIAL OF THE COM PLEX. AND T H E R E BY I M PO S I N G DRIVE ITS A S E X U A LIZATION CHANGE E F F ECTS. THE B UT. BY PSYCHOA N A LY S I S D I V E R SE E X P LA I N S THESE EXTR E M ELY

O F OBJ ECT.

G E N ITAL THE

Q U A L I T I E S OF IN TH E

L I V E D E X P E R I E N C E BY

B E TT E R

DETAC H E S

ITSELF

F ROM

V A R I A TIONS

Q U A L I TY OF VITAL E N E RGY

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I NTO AS TO

THE

OBJECT AS IN

BY IT

DESIRE.

THE

D I S I NTERESTED EXTENS ION TO TH I S R E A LITY.

VERBAL A GIVEN

MAY

APPEAR. THESE EFFECTS A R E P E R PETUATED U N D E R FOR M S DESIGNATED I D E A L. AS THE TO SUPE REGO WHICH AND THE EDO

PSYC H O A N A L YT I C

PRACTICE: PSYCHOANA LYSTS MUST RECKON WITH TH I S CATH E X I S ENCES IN THE OPERATION A L TRANSFER C U R E: WITH THE R ESO U R C E S

ACCORDING

THEY

ARE

EITHER

OF T H E I R

UNCONSCIOUS O R CONSCIOUS FOR THE SUBJECT. LET US SAY. THEY R E P RODUCE THE I M AGO OF TH E P A R E N T OF THE S A M E SEX. THUS THE EGO- I D E A L CONTRIBUTES T O THE SEXUAL CONFOR M I SM OF TH E PSYC H E . I MAGO BUT ACCOR D I NG TO THE DOCTR I N E. TH E THE ROLE FATH E R IN WOU LD TWO HAVE A PROTO ON

OFFERED BY THIS CATH E X I S THE ANA LYST M UST BASE THE I N D ICATION OF T H E TREATMENT. THUS HAVE R EC OG N I Z E D I N DI C E S O F AN

A N A LYSTS

OVE R LY N A RC ISSISTIC I N V E STMENT OF THE L I B I DO THROUGH THE SYMPTOMS C IT E D ABOVE. WHILE THE FOR M ATION OF THE O E D I P U S COMPLEX APPEARED A S TH E MOMENT AND THE PROOF OF A CATHEXIS SUFFICI ENT FOR THE TRANSFE RENCE.

OF

TY P I C A L

THESE

FU NCTIONS

ACCOUNT OF T H E DO M I NATION OF T H E M A LE.

IN T E R M S OF THE R E P R ESSION OF S E X U A LITY. WE THIS TH E ROLE O F O E D I P U S WOU L D COR RELATE WITH M ATURATION BY TH E O F S E X U A LITY. THE ATTI TUDE WOULD H A V E I N DICATED THAT TH I S CONC E PTION R E STS ON T H E FANTASY OF CA STRATION. I F THE DOCTRI N E

FOU N D E D

G E N IT A L TENDENCY

R E F E R S T O A R E A L THR EAT. IT I S A BOVE A L L THAT BECAUSE F R E U D . I N G E N I O U S L Y D Y N A M I ST AT REMAINS CLOSED BY

C RYSTA LLIZE T H E V I T A L R E LATION TO R E A LITY. ACCORDING TO ITS NO R M A L TYPE. THIS ATTITUDE IS CHA RACTERIZED BY THE TERMS OF G I FT lDONI AND SAC R I FICE. G R A N DIOSE T E R M S. BUT ONES WHOSE MEAN ING REMAINS A M B I G U O U S A N D H E S ITA NT

I DE N T I F Y I N G TE N D E N C I ES. TRADITIONAL

ATO M I S M T O T H E

NOTION O F T H E

ATOM I S M OF FORMS. T H U S . I N O D E R T O OBSERVE I N BOTH S E X E S THE E X I STENCE O F THE S A M E FANTASY IN A S M A LL G I R L O R OF A PHALLIC I M AGE OF TH E MOTH ER. F A CTS HE IS CONSTR A I N E D TO EXPLA I N THESE R E V E LA T I O N S OF T H E

BETWEEN DEFENSE AND R E N U NCIATION. THROUGH THESE TERMS A BOLD CONCE PTION R E D I SCOVERS THE SECRET COM FORT OF A MORAL THEME: I N THE PASSAGE BETWEEN C A PT I V I TY AND OBLAVITY TH E VITA L TEST A N D T H E MORAL TEST A R E WANTONLY CONFUSED.

BY

P R EC OC I O U S OF THE

D O M I N AT I O N

MALE.

R E V E L ATIONS THAT

WOULD L E A D THE LITTLE GIRL TO NOSTA LGI A FOR V I R I LITY. T H E CHILD TO CONCE I V E O F ITS MOTH E R A S V I R I LE. TH I S I S A G E N ES I S W H I C H . I N O R D E R TO

THIS

CONCE PTION

CAN IT

DEFINE

AN

A N A LOGICAL THE M OST

F I N O BASIS I N I D ENTI FICATION. R EQU I R E S SUCH A S U R C H A RG E OF M EC H A N I SM S FOR ITS PRACTICE

P S Y C H OG E N E S I S . M A RKED LACK

C O N FO R M S

TO

IN

THE

A NALYTIC

DOCT R I N E :

THAT IT WOULD SEEM TO B E E R RONEOUS.

N EGLECTI NG THE STR UCTU R E I N ORDER TO BENEFIT THE DYNA M I C . HOW E V E R . THE A N A LYTIC EXPER

IENCE OFFERS A CONTRI BUTION TO THE STUDY OF M ENTAL FO R M S BY D E M ONSTRATING TH E I R C O N D IT I O N A L O R SOLU TH E M A TE R I A LS O F THE A DI FFERENT A N A LYTIC E X PE R I E N C E I N T E R P R ETATION: THE FANTAS I E S OF FRAGM ENTATION

R E LA T I O N - W H E T H E R

TIONA L-TO THE A FFECTIV E C R I SES. BY DIFFEREN TIATING THE FOR M A L GA M E OF THE COM PLEX. IT

S U G G E STS

B ECOMES POSSI B L E TO ESTAB L I S H A STE A D I E R R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N I T S FUNCTION A N D THE

FANTASY C A STRATION I S I N E FFECT PRECEDED B Y A S E R I E S O F FANTA S I E S OF BODI LY FRAGMENTA TION WHICH R E G R E S S I V E LY TO P R OC E E D F R O M THROUGH

STR UCTUR E OF THE D R A M A ESSENTI A L TO IT.

D I S LO C A T I O N

D I S M E M B E R MENT.

E M A SC U LATION TO D I S E M BOWLING. U P T O DEVORA TION AND S H ROUDI NG. THE E XA M I N ATION OF THESE R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY FANTA S I E S R E V E A LS THAT THEY ARE I N SC R I B E D I N A S I ", U LTANEOUSLY DESTRUCTIVE A N D I NVESTIGA IF IT MA RKS THE S U M M I T OF I N FANT SEXUALITY. THE OEDI DPAL COM PLEX IS A LSO THE PROV I NCE OF TIVE FOR M OF P E N ETRATION. A S P I R I NG TO T H E

SEC R ET OF T H E M A T E R N A L B R E A ST. E V E N THOUGH THIS R E LA TlON IS LIVED BY TH E S U BJECT IN A

R E PRESSION.

I N THAT I T R E DUCES I M AGES TO A

STATE OF LATENCY U NT I L PUBERTY: IF IT DETER M INES A CON D ENSATION IT IS OF R E A LITY I N TH E

M A N N E R WHOSE A M BI V A L E N C E IS TO ITS A RC H A I S M .

PROPORTIONAL

D I R ECTION OF LIFE. S U BLIMATION

A LSO THE

MOMENT OF HIS OWN B U T R E S E A R C H E RS W H O H A V E B E S T U N D E R STOOD

WHERE

MAN

OPENS

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MATE R N A L

ORIGINS

OF TH E S E

F A N TA S I E S

SEXUALITY, DESIGNATE BY T H E I R ORGIASTIC FORM TH E MOMENT OF A FFECTI VE R E INTEGRATION I N TO THE

WHOLE:

( M E LA N I E KLE I N ) A R E O N LY CON C E R N E D W I T H THE SYMM ETRY A N D THE EXTENSION THAT THEY BRING TO THE FORMATION O F OEDIPUS. R E V E A L I NG. FOR EXAMPLE. THE NOSTA LGI A FOR MATE R N I TY IN THE BOY. FOR US. T H E I R I NT E REST LI ES I N TH E EVIDENT U N R E A LITY OF TH E I R STRUCTU RE: THE EXAMINA

R I T E S OF C I R C U M C I S.10N. W H I C H S A N CTION SEXUAL

IN

ORDER TO

MATU RITY, SHOW

THAT THE PE RSONA REACHES THEM ON LY AT THE PRICE OF CORPORAL MUTI LIATION.

TION OF THESE FANTASIES FOUN D I N D R E A M S AND C E RTA I N I M PULSES A L LOWS FOR THE A F F I RMATION THAT THEY HAVE A B SOLUTELY NO R E LATION TO A R E A L B O D Y . B U T I N ST E A D TO A MANNEQUIN. A H E T E ROC L I T E

TO DEFIN E TH IS G E N E S I S OF REPRESSION OF THE PSYCHOLOGICAL PLA N E . ONE M UST RECALL THE

IMAGINARY PLAY THAT CONDITIONS TH E FANTASY OF CASTRATION. IN THE MOTH E R THE OBJECT THAT DETERMIN E S IT. IT I S IN THE RADICAL FORM OF

BAROQUE DOLL, A TROPHY OF

M E M B E RS WHE R E ONE M UST RECALL THE N A RCIS SISTIC OBJECT WHOSE G E N E S I S HAS BEEN EVOK ED EARLIER: CONDITIONED I N MAN BY THE P R EC ESSION OF I MAGINARY OF FO R M S THE OF TH E BODY [LE ON THE

COU NTER DRIVES THAT REVEAL THEMSELVES TO THE A N A LYTIC E X P E R I ENCE I N ORDER TO CONSTI TUTE TH E M OST ARCHAIC KERNEL OF THE

SUPEREGO AND TO REPRESENT THE MOST MASSIVE REPRESSION. TH I S FORC E DISTRI B UTES ITSELF WITH THE DIFFERENCIATION OF TH I S FORM. THAT IS TO SAY. THR O UGH THE PROGRESS IN WH ICH THE CHILD R E A LI Z E S THE R E P R E SSIVE AGENCY IN THE

M A ST E R Y

ACTUAL

BODY

CORPS

PROPREI. B Y T H E DEFENSE V A L U E T H E SUBJECT GIVES TO THESE OBJECTS AGA I N ST TH E A N X I ETY OF VITAL DESTRUCTION. WHICH ARISE FROM THE

PREMATU RATION.

AUTHORITY O F THE A D U LT: OTH ERWISE O N E COULD NOT U N D E R S T A N D T H E F A C T - A P P A R E N T L Y CONTRARY TO THE THEORY-THAT THE STRICTNESS WITH WHICH TH E S U P E R EGO I N H I BITS THE FUNC

TH E MATERNAL ORIGIN OF THE ARCHAIC S U P E R EGO

TIONS OF TH E S U BJ ECT TENDS TO BE ESTABLISHED IN INVERSE PROPORTION TO TH E REAL SEVERITI E S

TH E FA NTASY OF CASTRATION R E LATES TO THIS SAME OBJ ECT. BORN B E FO R E EITHER ANY MARKING OF THE ACTU A L BODY O R A'NY DISTINCTION OF THE TH R EAT FROM TH E A D U LT. T H E FORM OF T H I S

OF

E D U C A TI O N .

A LT H O U G H

THE

S U PE R EGO

ALREADY RECEIVES TRACES O F REAL ITY FROM THE MATERNAL R E P R ESSION ALONE (TOILET-TR A I N I N G AND WEANING D I SC I P L I N E ) IN THE OEDI PUS

OBJECT DOES N O T D E P E N D ON T H E S E X OF T H E S U BJ ECT A N D I N STEAD DETE R M I N E S T H A T IT DOES NOT SUFFER FROM THE FOR M U LA S OF TH E

COM P L E X T H E S E T R A C E S NARCISSISTIC FORM .

GO

B E Y O N D TH E I R

EDUCATIONA L T R A D ITION. THE FA NTASY R E P R E SENTS THE D E F E N S E T H A T TH E N A RC I S I STIC EGO I D E NTI F I E D WITH ITS M I RROR DOUBLE-DPPOSES TO THE R E NEWAL OF T H E A N X I ETY THAT TENDED TO D I STUR B IT AT THE F I RST MOM ENT OF O E D I PUS: A CRISIS WHCH DOES NOT C A U S E TH E I RR U PTION OF GENITAL DESI R E IN THE S U B J ECT AS M U C H AS I N THE OBJECT T H A T IT R EACTUALIZES. N A M ELY THE MOTH ER. THE S U B J ECT R E S PONDS TO THIS ANXI ETY THAT THE OBJECT REAWAKENS B Y R EPRODUC I N G THE M ASOCHI STIC R E J ECTION TH ROUGH W H I C H H E S U R MOUNTED HIS P R IMORDIAL LOSS. BUT T H I S TH E ROLE OF THE COMPLEX I N THE SUBLI MATION OF R EALITY I S NOW I NTRODUCED. TO U N D E RSTA N D THIS. O N E M U ST B E G I N A T THE POINT WHERE T H E DOCTR I N E P R E S ENTS A SOLUTION T O T H E DRAMA, NAM ELY OF T H E FORM IT HAS DISCOVE RED H E R E I DENTIFICATION. ACTUA LLY, ON ACCOUNT OF TH E INDENTI FICATION OF THE S U BJECT WITH THE I M AGO OF THE PARENT OF TH E SAME SEX, THE SUPEREGO A N D EGO- I D E A L C A N R E V E A L TO E X P E R I E N C E SUBLIMATION OF R E A LITY

R E PRODUCTION

O P E R AT E S

ACCORD I N G T O T H E

STR UCTURE THAT H E HAS ACQU I RED. THAT IS TO SAY I N A N I M AG I N A RY LOCALIZATION OF T H E DRIVE.

TRAITS CONFORM I NG T O T H E PARTICULARITIES O F THI S IMAGO.

SUCH A GENESIS OF SEXUAL R E P R E SSION IS NOT W I T H O U T S O C I O L OG I C A L R E F E R EN C E : IT IS

IN

THIS.

THE

DOCTR I N E S E E S

THE

FACT OF

SECONDARY N A R C I S S I S M : IT DOES NOT DISTINGU I S H THIS P A R T I C U LA R I D E N T I F I C AT I O N F R OM T H E

EXPRESSED I N THE P R I MITIVE RITUALS W H E R E THE L I N K BETWEEN TH I S R E P R ESSION A N D T H E ROOTS OF ALL SOCIA L BONDS IS M A N I F E STED: C ELEBRA TION R I TES WHICH. IN ORDER TO L I BERATE

NARCISSISTIC ONE. T H E R E I S A LSO A N ASS I M I LA TION OF THE S U B J ECT TO T H E O B J E C T: TH E

DOCTRI N E S E E S NO D I F F ERENCE OTH ER THAN T H E

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CONSTITUTION OF ONE O P P OS I N G I T S E LF.

MORE

OBJECT OF DESI R E W ITH THE OEDIPAL

THE

COMPLE X-TH AT WHICH

IT

IS

NOT

THE

MOMENT OF IN ITS

A LO N G

DESIRE

ESTA B L I S H E S T H E OBJECT

D E S I R E . TO A BETTER FO R M ED EGO. ACCORDING TO THE CON STANTS OF H E DO N I S M . TH E FRUSTRATION OF THIS DE S I R E COULD R E S U LT I N THE SUBJ ECTS RETU RN TO HIS P R I MORDIAL VORACITY OF

N EW R E A LITY. B U T THE MOMENT OF THE SUBJ ECTS N A RC I S S I STIC D E F E N S E .

T H I S MOME NT. I N C A U S I NG THE OBJ ECT T O A R I S E A S ONE WHOSE POSITION IS SITUATED AS AN

A S S I M I LATION. A N D I N T H E FORMATION O F THE EGO. A R ETU R N TO A N I M P E RFECT I NTROJECTION OF T H E OBJ ECT. IN ORDER TO I M POSE ITSELF ON THE

OBSTACLE TO DES I R E. S HOWS IT TO BE COLORED BY A T R A N SG R E S S I O N F E LT AS D A N G E ROUS. THE

SUBJ ECT. T H E I M AGO I S JUXTA POSED ONLY T O T H E EGO. IN THE TWO EXCLUSIONS OF THE U NCON

OBJECT A PPEARS T O T H E EGO AT O N C E AS T H E S U P PO RT O F ITS D E F E N S E A N D T H E E X A M PLE OF I T S TR I U M PH. TH I S I S W H Y I T N O R M A L L Y C O M E S T O F I L L TH E FRAME OF THE D O U B L E W H E R E TH E E G O F I RST I D E NTI F I ES ITSE LF. A N D THROUGH W H ICH IT STI LL C A N CONFUSE ITSELF W I T H THE OTH E R. THE OBJECT

SCIOUS AND THE I D E A L.

ORIGI N A LITY OF T H E O E D I P A L I DENTI FICATION

BRINGS A S EC U R ITY TO THE EGO BY STRE NGT H E N ING THIS FRAME. BUT AT TH E SAME TIME IS IN

HOWEVE R A MORE STRUCTU R A L AN ALYSIS OF T H E OEDI P A L I DENTI FICATION A LLOWS ONE T O RECOG NIZE WITH I N IT A MORE IS DISTI NCTIVE FO RM. WHAT THE ANTINOMY OF TH E

O P PO S I T I O N T O IT AS A N I D E A L THAT A LTERNATIVE LY EXA LTS AND D E P R ESSES IT.

APPEARS

AT

FIRST

THIS

MOMENT OF OEDI P U S PROVIDES THE PROTO

FU NCTION W H I C H PLAYS THE P A R ENTAL I M AGO I N THE S U B JECT; O N ONE H A N D. THE I M AGO I N H I B ITS SEXUAL FUNCTION. BUT. S I NC E EXPE RIENCE SHOWS THAT T H E ACTION OF THE S U PEREGO AGAI NST THE R E P ET I T I O N S OF THE AS TENDENCIES REMAINS TENDENCIES AS

TYPE FO S U B L I MATION. AS M UC H IN T H E ROLE OF M A S K E D P R E S E N C E PLAYED BY THE D R I V E A S BY THE FORM IN W H I C H IT ASSU M E D THE OBJECT. T H I S SA M E FORM I S E V I D E N T I N E A C H C R I S I S W H E R E T H E CONDEN SATION HIGHER U P) (WHOSE E N I G M A WE H A V E POSE D ITSELF: T H I S LIGHT O F

U NC O N S C I O U S

THE

R EM A I N

PRODUC ES

R E P R E SSED. I T DOES SO I N A N UNCONSCIOUS FORM . O N T H E OTH E R H A N D . THE I MAGO PRESERVES T H I S FU NCTION. B U T. S H E LT E R E D B Y I T S OWN M I SCON C E PT I O N IDEAL [ M E C O N N A I S S A N C E 1 . S I N C E T H E EGO IN THE PATH S C O N SC I E N C E FOR ITS IS THE

S U R P R I S E T R A N S F I G U R E S A N OBJECT B Y D ISSOLV ING ITS EQU I V A L E N C E S IN A S U BJ ECT. AND

PROPOSES

I T N O LON G E R A S A

M E A N S TO T H E

SATI SFACTION OF D E S I R E . B U T A S A POLE TO T H E C R EATIONS OF PASSION. IT I S BY R E D UC I NG A G A I N S U C H A N OBJECT THAT E X P E R I E N C E A TTA I N S A L L I T S D E PTH.

R E P R E S E N TS

PREPA RATION RETU R N . THUS.

OF THE IF TH E

FUTURE

TENDENCY

RESOLVED

UNDER TWO MAJOR FOR M S WHERE ANALYSIS H A S LEA R N E D TO R E C OG N I ZE I T - N A M E LY U NCON THUS. A SERIES IN OF A NTI NOMIC S U B JECT FUNCTIONS BY THE ARE

SCIOUSNESS A N D M I S U N D E RSTANDI NG-TH E I M AGO ITSELF A PP E A R S U N D E R TWO STRUCTU RES WHOSE DISPA RITY REALITY. DEFINES TH E F I R ST SUBLIMATION OF

CON STITUTED

TH E

MAJOR

C R I SES O F H U M A N R E A LITY. I N O R D E R T O CONTA I N THE I N D E F I N I T E V I RT U A L I TIES O F ITS P ROGRESS; I F THE FU NCTION O F T H E CO N SC I E N C E S E E M S TO A NG U I S H . AND THAT OF

EXPRESS WE CANNOT STRESS ENOUGHT THAT THE OBJECT OF I D E NTI FICATION DES I R E. HERE IS NOT T H E O B J E C T OF I S OPPOSED TO TH E

PRI MORDI A L

EQU IVALENC E R E F LECTS N A RC I S S I STIC CONF LICT. THEN THE FUNCTION O F THE EXAMPLE A PPEARS TO BE THE ORIGIN A L CONTRI BUTION OF THE O E D I PA L COMPLEX.

BUT THAT

WHICH

OBJECT OF DESI RE IN THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE. T H E I D E NT I F I CATION OF T H E P R O P I T I ATORY. MASOC H I STIC THE M I M ETIC HAS BECOME SA DO FROM

OBJECT

OF

THE

PARTICI PATION

DISENGAGES

THE SUBJECT. T A K I N G ITS D ISTANCE FROM HIM I N THE N E W A M B I G UITY O F F E A R A N D LOVE. BUT I N T H I S STE P TOWARD REALITY. TH E PRIM ITIVE OBJECT O F D E S I R E S E E M S T O B E CON J U R E D AWAY.

THE I M AGO OF T H E FATH E R

HENCE. THE A C TU A L STRUCT U R E OF T H E O E D I P A L D R A M A D E S I G N A T E S T H E FATHE R A S G I V I N G TO T H E FU NCTION OF S U BL I M ATION I T S E M I N E NT A N D MORE

THIS

FACT

DEFINES

THE

O R I G I N A L I T Y OF T H E

PURE

FOR M . IN THE OEDIPAL I D E NTIFICATION THE MOTH E R ACTU A L LY BETRAYS THE

OEDPIAL I DE N T I F I C ATION. IT SEEMS TO I NDICATE - I N

I MAGO OF THE

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OF

THE

PRIMORDIAL

I D E NTIFICA

IN

MATR IARCHAL

C U LT U R E S .

THE

FAMILIAL

TIONS. M A R K I N G T H E EGO- I D E A L A S W E L L A S THE S U P E R EGO BY T H E FORMS AND THE A M BIVALENCE OF T H E S E I DENTI FICATIONS. I N TH E G I RL. J UST A S TH E R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY MORE R E A D I LY

AUTHORITY I S NOT R E PR E SENTED B Y THE FATH E R BUT OR D I N A R I LY BY A M A TE R N A L UNCLE. ONE

ETHNOLOGIST WHO W A S G U I D E D BY H I S KNOWLEDGE OF PSYCHOA N A LYSIS. M A LI NOWS K I . KNEW HOW TO P E N ETRATE THE PSYC H I C I N C I D E N C E S OF T H I S

I M PO S E S T H I S

M E N TA L F R A G M E N TA T I O N W H E R E

O N E C A N D E FI N E HYSTER I A O N BODILY F UNCTIONS. SO T H E SUBLI M ATION OF THE M A T E R N A L I M AGO

FACT: I F T H E MATE R N A L U N C L E PRACTICES T H E SOCI A L S PO N SOR S H I P A S GUA R D I A N OF FA M I LY R ELATED TABOOS A N D I N ITIATOR OF T R I B A L R I TES. THE FATH ER. DISCHARGED FROM ALL R E PRESSIVE F U NCTION . PLAYS AS A MORE F A M I LI A R ROLE OF

TENDS TO TU R N I NTO A F E E L I N G O F R E P R ESSION FOR ITS BA N K R U PTCY AND I N TO A SYSTEMATIC

CONCE R N FOR T H E M I RROR I M AGE.

PATRON A G E . TO THE D EG R E E THAT I T DOM I NATES. T H E I M AGO OF THE FATH E R POLA R I Z E S T H E MOST P E RFECT FOR M S OF THE EGO-I D E A L I N BOTH S E XES. SUCH TH AT IT I S ENOUGH T O I N DICATE THAT T H E FORM S REA LIZE THE V I R I L E I D E A L IN TH E BOY AND T H E V I R G I N A L I N THE G I R L. O N T H E OTH E R H A N D . W E C A N STRESS THE PHYSICA L L E S I O N S IN THE D I M I N UTIVE FOR M S OF TH I S I MAGO (ESPECIA LLY THOSE WHICH THIS

MASTER

OF

T EC H N I Q U E S

AND

EXAMPLE OF D A R I NG I N B U S I N ESS.

SEPARATION

OF

FUNCTIONS

I M PLIES

DIFFERENT EQU I L I B R I U M OF THE PSYC H E ATTESTE D TO BY THE AUTHOR TH ROUGH THE LACK OF

N E U ROSI S H E OBSE RV E D I N T H E G ROU PS O F THE NORTH-WEST I S L A N D S O F IBRIUM FORTU NATELY COMPLEX MELANSIA. THIS EQU I L THAT THE S OC I A L

PRESENT THE I MAGO A S C R I PPLING O R B L I N D I NG) I N ORDER T O DEVIATE T H E E N E RGY O F S U B L I M ATION FROM ITS CREATIVE IN D I R ECTION IDEAL OF AND FAVOR ITS

D E MONSTRATES IS R E LA T I V E

OEDIPAL

TO

STRUCTU RE. BUT H E I N N O WAY A UTHORIZES THE PARODISTIC M I RAGE LOGI ST MUST AGA I N ST WHICH T H E SOCIO THE OF

SECLUSION I N T E G R I TY .

SOME

OF THE

N A RC I S S I ST I C FATHER. AT

THE

D E ATH

A LW A Y S THAT

DEFEND THE

H I M S E LF: C R E AT I O N S

WHATEV E R STAGE O F D E V E LOPMENT I T APPEARS A N D ACCOR D I N G TO THE DEGREE O F COMPLETION OF O E D I PUS. A T THE S A M E TIME TENDS TO A R R E ST THE PROGRESS OF R E A LITY BY FREEZING IT. BY

STEREOTYPE

MARKS

PERSONA LITY IS OPPOSE D TO T H E H A R MONY THAT IT CARRIES W I TH I N - F R O M AND ART TO MORALS-IN TO THE

S I M I LAR

CULTURES.

CON FOR M I NG

R E F E R R I NG A G R EA T N U M B E R OF N E U ROSES A N D TH E I R G RAVITY TO S U C H C A USES. T H E E X P E R I E N C E THUS CONTR A D ICTS T H E T H E O R E T I C A L O R I ENTA TION SUCH WHICH D E S I G NATES IN THE THE MAJOR AGENT OF PATE R N A L

PRESENT THEORY OF O E D I PUS. O N E M UST R E M E M BER IN T H I S R E V E R S A L H O W M U C H T H E I M PU LSES OF SUBLIMATION ARE DOM I NA T E D TWO BY SOC I A L ARE

R E PRESSION SEPARATED.

WHEN

THESE

F U N CTIONS

N E UROSES

THREAT OF

FORCE.

IT I S ON THE CONTR A RY. BECA USE T H E PATE RNAL I MAGO I S INVESTED BY R E PRESSION IT PROJECTS THE COMPLEX A N D ITS SOCIOLOGICAL R E LATIVITY ITS ORIG I N A L FORCE I N THE WHICH SHOULD VERY S U B L I M ATIONS IT: THE OEDI PUS

OVERCOME

COMPLEX ACQU I R E S S O M UC H FEC U N DITY [FECON I F I T APPEA R E D IN ITS PSYCHOLOG I C A L A N A LYSIS THAT OEDI PUS M UST B E U N DERSTOOD IN T E R M S OF ITS N A RC I SS I STIC A NTECEDENTS. THIS I S NOT TO SAY THAT IT IS BASED OUTS I D E OF SOCIOLOGICAL RELATIVITY. TH E MOST DECISIVE R E S U LT OF ITS DITEI BY TYI NG TOGETH E R THE PROGRESS OF THESE FUNCTIONS IN SUCH A N ANTI NOMY. THIS ANTINOMY PLAYS IN T H E I N D I V I D U A L DRAMA. HERE W E WILL

SEE IT CONFI R M E D BY T H E EFFECTS O F DECOMPOSI TION: BUT THESE EFFECTS OF PROG RESS. I NTE

PSYCHIC E FFECTS R E S I DES IN THE FACT THAT THE FU NCTION O F R E P R ESSION A S WELL A S THAT OF SUBLIMATION I S C O N C E NTRATED IN T H E I M AGO OF THE FATH E R : BUT TH I S IS A FACT THE OF SOC I A L

GRATED A S THEY A R E IN AN I M M E N S E CULTURAL PATRIMONY. DRAMA: GO M UC H FURTHER BEYOND THIS STATUTES.

N O R M A L I DE A LS.

LEGA L

DETER M I N A T I O N . FA M I LY.

THE

FACT

OF

PATER N A L

C R EATI V E C A N NOT

I N S P I R A T I O N S . T H E P S YC H O L O G I S T THESE FOR M S WHICH. BY

N EG LE C T

CONCENTRATI N G T H E CONDITIONS OF T H E FUNC TIONA L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS IN THE CONJUGAL F A M I LY. REINTEGRATE BY THE S OC I A L D I A L E C T I C I NTO THE

ENGENDERED MATR I A RCHY A N D P A T R I A RCHY

THIS

CONFLICT

PSYCHOLOGICAL PROGRESS.

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THAT

THE

STUDY OF THESE IS ALREADY M U ST

FOR M S R E LATES TO GIVEN A FOR OUR OF OF

MATE R N A L TYRA N N I ES A N D THE D EC L I N E OF T H E R I T E OF ROY A L M U R D E R . WHATEV E R T H E I R FOR M . THESE MYTHS ARE SITUATED AT THE E D G E OF

H I STORY A N A LY S I S :

ON E

WE

TAKE

AS

PROB L E M LIGHT

STRUCTU R E

THE

FACT

T H AT T H E

H I STORY. F A R FROM THE B I RTH OF H U M A N ITY FROM WHICH THE I M MEMORIAL CONTI N U AT I O N OF

H I S TORICAL T R A D I TION ONLY FULLY STRUCK I N THE A N N A LS OF PATR I A R C H I E S. I L L U M I N ATED WHEREAS THE IT ONLY

MATR I A R C H A L C U LT U R E S A N D T H E STAGNATION OF P R I M ITIVE G RO U PS SEPA RATE T H E M .

P E R I PH E RA LLY

MATR I A RC H I E S

T H A T A R E "ON LY" A LWAYS S U B JACENT TO A N C I E N T C U LTU R E OFENl. (AS IN THE I N V ESTIGATIONS OF BACH ACCO R D I NG T O T H I S SOCIOLOGICAL REFERENCE.

THE PROPH ETIC I S M BY W H I C H B E R SON A PPEALS TO H I STORY. IN SO F A R A S I T I S PRODUCED E M I N E NTLY BY THE J E W I S H PEOPLE. C A N BE U N D E RSTOOD BY THE SITUATION O F B E I N G THE E L ECT PEOPLE-A

SITUATION C REATED SINCE TH E I R GROUP W A S THE OPE N I NG OF T H E SOC I A L BON D R E P R E S E N T AT I V E O F P A T R I A R C H Y F O R OTH E R

GROUPS D E VOTED T O M A T E R N A L C U LTS. A N D B Y ITS W I T H T H I S FACT W E U N I F Y T H E CRITICAL MOMENT THAT B E RGSON D E F I N E D IN T H E FOU N DATION S OF MORA LITY: I T I S K NOWN THAT H E RETU R N S TO ITS FU NCTION NOT H I N G OF SOCI A L D E F E N S E T H I S " A L L O R BY WHICH HE DES IG CON V U LS I V E ARCHAL B A TT L E TO M A I N TA I N THE THE PATRI

I DE A L

A G A I N ST

I R R E P R E SS I B L E

SEDUCTION O F TH E S E M A T R I A R C H I ES. W E THUS SEE THE EXIGENCIES OF THE P E R SO N AND THE

OF

OBLIGATION."

U N I V E RSA LIZATION O F T H E I D E A L D I A LECTICALLY AFFIRMED IN S OC I ETY. AC ROSS THE H I STORY OF TESTI MONY TO THIS

N A TE S THE BON D THAT C LOSES TH E H U M A N GROUP U PO N ITS COH E R E NC E . HE RECOG N I Z E S IT IN

P A T R I A RC H I A L

PEOPLES:

OPPOSITION TO A T R A N SC E N D E NT

E LA N
AN

O F LIFE I N

PROGRESS I S FOU N D I N T H E LEGAL FOR M S. W H I C H ETER N A LIZE THE M I SS I O N E X P E R I ENCED BY ROME IN ITS CONSC I E N C E A S M UCH A S IN ITS POWER. A M I SSION R E A LI Z E D BY THE ALREADY REVOLU

E V E R Y MOV E M E NT. W H I C H OPENS T H I S GROUP BY UNIVERSALIZING A N A LY S I S DOUBT THE B O N D. A A B STRACT SOURCE NO

D I SCOV E R S

DOUBLE

RETU R N E D AGAI NST THESE

FO R M A L I S T

TIONARY EXTENSION O F M O R A L PRIVE LEDGES FROM A PAT R I A RC H TO AN I M M E N SE PLEBACY AND ONTO ALL PEOPLE.

I L L USIONS. BUT R E M A I N I NG L I M ITED T O TH E R E A C H OF A BSTRACTION. N O W . I F THE PSYCHOLOGI ST A N D T H E SOCIOLOG I ST C A N RECOG N IZE. BY EXPE R I E NCE. THE CONCRETE FOR M OF PRI MORDIA L OBLIGATION IN THE I NT E R DICTION OF T H E MOTHER. SO I N T H E SAME WAY THEY CAN D E M O NSTRATE A REAL

TWO F U NCTION S O F THIS PROCESS ARE R E F LECTED ON THE STRUCT U R E O F THE FA M I LY ITSELF: F I R ST. THE T R A D I TI O N IN THE PATR I C I A N I DEALS. OF

PROC ESS O F "TH E OPE N I NG" OF THE SOCI A L BON D IN PATE R N A L A UTHOR ITY. SAYING THAT BY THE

P R I V I L E DG E D FOR M S OF M A R R I AGE. A N D SECOND. T H E A POTHEOTIC E X A LTATION THAT C H RISTI A N ITY B R I N G S TO T H E E X I G E N C I E S OF THE P E RSON. T H E C H U RC H I NTEGRATED THIS TRADITION I NTO T H E

FU NCTION A L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS. T H E O P E N I N G I NTRODUCES A N I D E A L OF PROMISE I N TO REPRES SION.

MOR A LITY OF C H RISTIANTIY B Y B R I NG I NG I N TO T H E FO REGRO U N D TH E F R E E C H O I C E OF A PA RTN E R I N

I F THEY WHICH

REFER TO TH E

R I TES OF SAC R I F I C E B Y (EVEN ATTA I N I NG A

THE

BOND

OF

M A RRIAGE.

THUS

CAUSING THE

PRIMITIVE

C U LT U R E S

FA M I L I A L I N STITUTION T O TAKE T H E D EC I S I V E STEP TOWA RDS ITS MOD E R N STRUCTU RE. OF ITS N A M E LY T H E

SOC I A LY E LEVATED CONCENTRATION) R E A L IZE T H E FANTASI ES OF T H E P R I M O R D I A L R E LATION OF THE M OT H E R WITH THE C R U E L E S T R I GO R - D I S M E M

SECRET REVERSA L THE ADVA NTAGE

PREPON DERANCE TO REVERSAL

OF

M A R RIAGE. T H I S

B E R E D BOD I E S A N D LIVE B U R IAL-IN MORE T H A N O N E M YTH THEY W I L L R E A D THAT THE A D V E N T O F PAT E R NA L A UTHORITY A NSWERS T O A TEMPERA M E N T OF P R I M ITIVE SOCIAL R E PRESSION. LEDGIBLE IN T H E M YTH I C A M B I G U I TY OF TH E SAC R I F I C E OF ABRAHAM. W H I C H I N T H E END FORMA LLY T I E S T H I S M E A N I NG T O AN E X P R E SSION OF PROM I S E . T H I S

WAS REA LIZED I N T H E

F I FTEENTH CENTURY WITH

THE ECONOMIC R EVOLUTION THAT PRODUCED THE BO U RG E O I S SOC I ETY MODERN MAN. AND THE PSYC H O LOGY OF

THE

RELATIONS MAN

BETW E E N THE

THE

PSYCHOLOGY F A M I LY

OF

MODE R N

AND

CONJUGAL

ARE

M E A N I NG DOES N O T A P PEA R A N Y L E S S I N THE MYTH OF O E D I P U S (IF O N LY WE DO NOT N EG L ECT T H E

WHAT. I N E F F ECT. PROPOSE T H E M S E LVES T O T H E STU D Y OF PSYCHOA NA LYSIS. T H I S M A N I S THE ONLY OBJECT THAT IT HAS T R U LY S U B M ITTED TO ITS

E P I SODE OF T H E S P H I N X ) . A NO L E S S A M B I G UOUS REPRESENTATION OF THE E M A N C I PA T I O N OF

E X P E R I E N C E AND I F THE PSYCHOA NA LYST R E D I S-

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COVERS I N H I M PSYC H IC R E FLECTION O F THE MOST ORIGINAL CON DITIONS O F M A N . C A N HE CLA I M TO CURE HIM OF P S YC H I C DEFICIENCIES WITHOUT

F I N A L LY

AND

A BO V E

A L L.

THE

EVIDENCE

OF

SEXUAL L I F E IN TH E RE PRESE NTATI VES OF MORAL CONSTR A I NTS-THE SI NGULARLY TRANSGRESSIVE

U N DERSTA N D I N G THEM W I TH I N T H E C U LTU RE THAT I M POSES WITHOUT THE H IG H EST E X IG E N C I E S U PON HIS OWN HIM

EXAMPLE O F T H E I MAGO O F TH E FAT H E R A S F A R A S THE PRI M O R I D A L I NTERDICTION IS CONCE R N ED

U N D E R S TA N D I N G

POSITION

EXALT THE TENSION OF TH E LIBIDO A N O T H E !';COPE OF SUBLI M ATION TO THE H IGHEST DEGREE.

FAC ING T H I S M A N AT T H E EXTRE M E POINT O F T H E SCIENTIFIC ATTITU DE?

THE COM PLEX OF THE CONJ UGAL F A M I LY FO R M S THUS. I N OUR T I M E S. CAN LESS THAN MAN IN WESTE R N C U LTURE H I MSELF THE S U P E R I O R ACCO M PL I SH M E NT S OF C H A RAC TER-H A P P I N E S S AND CREATION-IN ORDER TO

EVER

U N D E RSTA N D

OUTSIDE T H E A NTI NOM I E S T H A T CONSTITUTE H I S R E LATIONS WITH NATURE AND SOC I ETY. HOW.

MOST H U M A N E LY REALIZE THE CONFLICT OF M A N WITH H I S MOST A RC H A I C AN GU IS H . TO OFFER H I M THE LO Y A L E ST C LO S E D FIELD THE IN WHICH TO

OUTSIDE OF THESE. I S IT POSSIBLE T O U N D E RSTAN D FI RST. T H E A N G U I S H THAT M A N E X P RESSES I N THE SENTIM ENTS O F A TOW A R D SECOND. THE THE P RO M E T H E A N T R A N SG RESSION OF HIS LIFE. AND

M E A SU R E

HI MSELF WITH

M O ST

PROFO U N D

FIGURES O F H I S DESTI N Y. A N D I N O R D E R T O A D A PT HIS INDIVIDUAL EXPE RI ENCE AGAI NST TO THE THE MOST

CONDITIONS M O ST

E L EV A T E D

C O N C E PT I O N S

COMPLETE SERV ITU DE.

TRI UMPH

O R IG I N A L

W H E R E H E OVE RC O M E S T H I S A N G U I SH. RECOGNIZ I NG THAT H E C R EATES H I M S E L F A N D H I S OBJECTS TH ROUGH DIA LECTI CAL C R ISES.

I N CONTI BUTING THE LARGEST D I F F E R E NTIATION TO THE P E R SO N A L I T Y THE B E FO R E THE PERIOD OF TO S OC I A L MAXI M U M

LATENCY.

COMPLEX

BRINGS

CONFRONTATIONS O F T H I S PERIOD THE THE ROLE OF THE F A M I L I A L FOR MATION

EFFICIENCY FOR T H E RATIONAL FORMATION O F THE INDIVIDUAL CONSI D E R IN EFFECT. THE AT THIS POINT ONE CAN EDUCATIONAL ACTION

THAT

THIS CRITICAL AND S U B V E R S I V E M OV E M E NT W H E R E MAN I S R E A L I Z E D F I N D S ITS M O S T ACTI V E K E R N E L I N THREE CON DITIONS O F T H E CONJ UGA L FA MI LY.

R EPRODUCES T H E PLAY OF N A RC I S S I STIC EQUIVA LENCES WHERE THE WORLD OF OBJECTS WAS BOR N . IN A FULLER R E A LITY AND UNDER SU PERIOR

SUBLIMATIONS O F LOGIC A N D J U STICE. T H E MORE IN ORDER TO I N ST I L L A UTHORITY IN THE CLOSEST N EIGHBO R I NG G E N ERATION. A N D TO DO SO U N DER A FA M I LI A R FIGURE. T H E CONJUGAL FA M I LY PLACES TH I S A UT H O R I TY AT THE MOST I M M E D IATE EN VARIED AND RICH THE U NCONSC IOUS REALITIES

I NTEG RATED I NTO THE THE MORE

FA M I LY E X P E R I E NC E ARE. THE WORK OF TH E I R

FOR MATIVE

REDUCTION FOR RE ASON WILL BE.

TRANCE TO TH E C R EATIVE S U B V E RSION. FOR T H E MOST COMMON OBSE RVATION. THIS IS A LREADY THUS. IF IN TH E S E MORAL CONDITIONS OF CR EATION PSYCHOANALYSIS M A N I FESTS A R EVOLUTIONARY

TRAN SLATED B Y THE I N V E R S I O N S O F T H E ORDER OF G E N E RATIONS I MA G I N E D B Y T H E C H I LD. W H E R E HE SU BSTITUTES H I M S E L F FOR THE GRAN DPA RENT. PARENT OR THE

FERMENT THAT ONE CAN GRASP O N LY TH ROUGH CONCRETE A N A LYSIS. IT I S RECOGN IZED IN ORDER TO PRODU C E A POWER IN THE FA M I LI A L STRUCTU RE WHICH S U R PASSES ALL EDUCATIONAL RATIONA L

ON

THE

OTH E R

H A N D.

IN

T H I S THE

PSYCH ISM

IS

IZATION. T H E FACT OF A SOCI A L E D UCATION WITH TOTA LITA R I A N C LA I M S DESERV E S TO BE PROPOSED TO THEOR ETIC I A N S NO MATTER W H AT SIDE THEY

FOR MED TH A N

NO L E S S BY T H E I M AGE OF THE A DU LT ITS THE C O N S T R A I NTS. TRA N S M I SSION T H I S E FFECT OF THE EGO

AGA I NST BY

OPERATES

TAKE. IN ORDER THAT EACH A R R I V E S A T HIS OWN CONCLUSION DESI RES. FROM IT. ACCOR D I N G TO HIS OWN

I D E A L. MOST P U R E LY. AS WE H A V E S A I D. FROM THE FAT H E R TO THE OF SON; IT I N VO L V E S AND OF A POS ITIVE G I FTS. IDEAL A IN

S E L ECTION

THE

DRIVES

THE THE

P R OG R E S S I V E

R E A LIZATION

CHA RACTER. THE FACT O F FAM I LI E S OF E M I N ENT MEN OWES TO TH I S PSYC HOLOGICA L PROCESS. AND NOT TO THE A LLEGED H E R E DITY THAT ONE M UST RECOGNIZE I N ESSENTIA LLY RELATIONAL CAPACI TIES. IN THE FORMATION OF MOST G R E A T MEN. WE A RE DEC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L I M AGO

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LED TO PERCEIVE THE ROLE O F THE I MAGO OF THE FATH ER I N A STR I K I NGLY EVIDENT M A N N E R. IT IS WORTH NOTING ITS LITERARY A N D MORAL RADI

STATE

THAT

WAS

M E LTI NG POT

OF

TH E

MOST

D I V E R S E FA M I LY FORMS, FROM THE MOST A RC H A I C T O THE M O S T E V O L V E D . F R O M THE L A S T AGNATIC GROUPS OF PEASANT SLAVES TO T H E MOST

A N C E IN THE CLASSICAL ERA OF PROGRESS-FROM CORNEI LLE TO PROUDHON: AND I D EOLOGUES WHO

R E D UC E D A N D DECADENT FOR M S O F A N U NSTA BLE H O U S E HOLD, THE H E A RT H OF THE PETIT-BO U R

IN THE N I N ETEENTH C ENTURY BROUGHT THE MOST SUBVERSIVE C RITIQUES AGAI NST THE PATE RNAL I STIC FA M I LY A R E NOT THOSE WHO PRESERVE THE LEAST OF ITS WEIG HT.

GEOSI E , N O T TO M E NTION F E U D A L A N D M E RCANTILE PATE R N A L I S M S-THAT A SON OF A JEWISH

PATR I A RC H COULD H A V E I M A G I N E D THE OEDIPAL COMPLEX, FOR WHAT IT I S WORTH, T H E DOM I N ANT

WE

ARE

NOT

A MONG THOSE

AFFLICTED

BY

THE

FOR M S OF N E U ROSES AT THE END OF THE LAST CENTURY REVEALED THEIR I NTIMATE D E P E N D E NCY U PON THE CONDITIONS OF THE F A M I LY.

PRETENDED LOOSE N I NG OF THE FA M I LIA L BOND. I S IT N O T SIGNI FICANT T H A T T H E FA M I LY S H O U L D BE REDUCED TO ITS BIOLOGICAL GROU PING TO THE DEGREE THAT IT I NT E G R A T E S THE H IG H EST

S I N C E THE T I M E OF THE FI RST F R E U D I A N D I V I N A T I O N S T H E S E N E U ROSES S E E M T O H A V E EVOLVE D I N THE D I R ECTION OF A CHARACTER I STIC COMPLEX, WHERE D U E EQUALLY TO THE SPEC I FICITY OF ITS

C U LTURAL PROGRESS? BUT A LARGE N U M B E R OF PSYC HOLOGICAL EFFECTS SEEM. TO US, DEPEN

DENT U PON THE SOC I A L D EC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L I MAGO: A DECLI NE CONDITION ED BY A RETU R N OF EXTR E M E EFFECTS OF S OC I A L PROGRESS ONTO THE I N D I V I DUAL: A DEC L I N E A BOVE ALL MARKED I N OUR T I M E S BY THOSE COLLECTIVITIES WHO HAVE MOST ST R O N G L Y F E LT THOSE E F FECTS, ECONO M I C

FOR M AND ITS G E N E RA LIZATION. IT I S THE K E R N A L OF T H E G REATEST N U M B E R OF N E UROSES-W H E R E ONE C A N RECOG N I Z E THE G R EAT CONTEMPORARY N E U ROSIS. OUR EXPERI ENCE LEADS US TO

DESIGNATE T H E PERSONA LITY OF THE FATH E R AS ITS PRINCI PLE DETE R M I NA NT, ALWAYS I N SOME WAY D E F I C I E N T - A B S E N T, FALSE. C O N FO R M I N G THIS THE H U M I LIATED, DIVIDED OR OF

C O N C E NTRATION A N D POL I T I C A L CATASTRO P H E . WAS N O T TH E A RG U M ENT FOR M E D BY THE C H I E F O F A TOTA LITA R I A N STATE AN IT A RGU M E N T AGAI NST IS A DECLI N E TIED OF THE BY A

TO O U R C O N C E PT I O N

TRADITIONAL MOST

EDUCATION? TO

OEDI P U S, [ T A R I Rl

D E F IC I E NC Y C O M E S T O I N STI N C T I V E I M P U LS E S

EXHAUST AND TO

I NT I M ATELY FA M I LY

THE

DIA LECTIC IT

CONJUGAL

SINCE

OPERATES

DAMAGE [TA R E R l THE DIA LECTIC OF SUBLI MATIONS. S I N I ST E R G O D M OT H E R S AT THE C RA D L E OF

RELATIVE GROWTH

OF MATR I MON I A L EXIGENCI ES,

VERY V I S I BLE, FOR E XA M PLE, IN THE A M E RICAN WAY OF LIFE,

N E U ROSIS, I M POTE N C E A N D UTOPIA E N C LOSING H I S A MBITION-WH ETHE R IT STI F L E S IN HIM THE

C R E ATIONS AWAITED B Y T H E WO RLD I NTO W H I C H H E NO M A TT E R WHAT A ITS FUTURE, THIS D EC L I N E MAYBE C A M E, OR W H E T H E R I N T H E OBJECT H E PROPOSES FOR H I S R E VOLT- H E FA I LS TO RECOGN I ZE HIS OWN M OV E M E NT.

CONSTITUTES

PSYCHOLOGICAL

C R I S I S.

ON E M U ST R E LATE THE APPEA RANCE OF PSYCHO A N A LY S I S ITSELF TO ITS C RISIS, TH E SUBLIME

FORTU N E O F G E N I U S P E R H A PS DOES NOT A LONE EXPLAI N WHY I T WAS I N V I E N N A-THE C E NTER OF A

JACQUES LACA N

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3. T R A N S VE S T I T E

C . R E C E I V I N G S E X U A L STI M ULATION BY RUBBING A

PRACTICES?

G A I N ST SO M EON E OR SOME TH E R E WAS A TI M E WHEN A N YTH I N G BUT TH E THING

M I S S I O N A R Y POSITION W A S CONSI D E R E D I M MO R A L A N D P E R V E R S E . S U R P R I S I N G L Y . TH I S ATTITU DE I S STI LL H E L D BY M A N Y PEOPLE TODAY. H O W FA M I LI A R A R E YOU WITH SO-C A L L E D " P ER V E R S I O N S ?" D O YOU KNOW T H E M BY T H E I R P R O P E R N A M E S OR H A V E YO U B E E N TRA I N E D T O R ECOI L AT T H E V E R Y M E NTION OF A S E X PRACTICE THAT IS OUT OF TH E O R D I N A RY? TO TEST T H E ACC U RACY OF YOU R KNOWLEDGE, M ATCH THE F O L LOW I N G TERMS WITH TH E I R C O R R ECT

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OPPOSITION P L E A S U R EIJOUISSANCE

DISCREDITED

AND

FRUSTRATED FOR CENTURI ES.

FIRST B Y C H R I ST I A N MORALITY, THEN A FTER B E I N G THE WORD PLEASURE CROPPED UP IN WHAT I TAKEN OVE R BY A POS I T I V I ST, RATI O N A L I ST

WOULD C A LL A TACTI C A L WAY. I H A D T H E FEELING THAT I NTELLEC T U A L TO LANGUAGE S U B M ITTED TOO WHICH BY

MORALITY, THE F R U STRATION WAS. OR IS A LAS, I N T H E WAY O F BECO M I N G S O BY A C E R T A I N M A R X I ST ETHIC.

EASILY E M PT I E D

MORALIZING

IMPERATIVES

IT O F A L L I

NOTION TO

O F JOUISSANCE. R E INTRODUCE IT IN MY

REACTION WORD

A TT E M PT E D NOT TO

TH E OWN

THE SECO N D J U ST I FICATION FOR T H E E M E RG E NCE. FOR TH E RETU R N OF T H E WORD "PLEA S U R E" IS

AND

CENSURE

PERSO N A L F I E LD. N O T T O F R U STRATE B U T T O DE F R U STRATE IT.

T H A T IT A L LOWS FOR A C E RTA I N E X PLORATION OF THE HUMAN S U BJ ECT. IN TRYING TO ESTA BLISH

SOME KINO OF D I V I SION BETWEEN "PLEAS U R E" AND A TACTIC A L MOVE IN T H E O R D E R OF IDEAS E NTAI LS EXPLANATIONS, G I R D S ITSELF WITH R E A SO N S. T H E FI RST R EASON I S T H A T S UBJECTI V E LY I A C C O R D A C E RTAI N I M PORTA N C E TO WHAT COMES U N D E R T H E H E A D I NG OF T H A T S O M E W H A T O L D - FA S H I O N E D TERM TH E M E H E DO N I S M , OF TH E AND P A R TI C U LA R LY T O T H E L I V I NG. I N D I R ECTLY I THE OPPOSITION P LE A S U R EfJOUISSANCE I S ONE OF THOSE D E L I B E R A T E LY FOR WHICH I HAVE I A RT I F I C I A L OPPOS I T I O N S HAD A C E RT A I N " J O U I S SA N C E , " JOUISSANC E , IN POS I N G T H E COMES UP PROB L E M A OF

ONE

A G A I NST

VERY

TOP I C A L TH E M E

F A M I L I A R T O PSYCHOA N A LY S I S

A N D OF I NTEREST T O WHAT I S C A L L E D THE A V A N T GARDE.

ART

OF

A L R E A DY DREW ATTENTION TO THESE TH I NG S W H E N R E F E R R I NG E X A M PLE. IN TO B R EC H T AND HIS CIGARS, FOR

A LW A Y S

FACT.

T HROUGHOUT T H E

WORK OF

PREDELICTION.

OFTEN T R I E D T O C R EATE SUCH

B R ECHT, A UTH E N T I C A LLY M A R X I ST A S N O ONE W I L L DENY, EXTR E M E C O N S I D E R A TI O N IS GIVEN TO

OPPOSITIONS: FOR E X A M P L E BETWEE N WRITING AND SC R I B B L I N G . D E NOTA T I O N AND C O N NOTAT I O N .

PLEASURE. SO FAR A S I AM CON C E R N E D THEN. I TAKE ON THE R E S PO N S I B I L I T Y RETURN TO OF A A C E R TA I N

THESE OPPOSITIONS SHOULD NOT B E TA K E N TOO LITERALLY, BY A S K I N G ON E'S SELF FOR I N STANCE IF SUCH AND SUCH A TEXT FALLS I N TO T H E

H EDON I S M ,

THE

P H I LO S O P H Y

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CATEGORY OF PLEASURE OR JOUISSANCE. THEY ARE OPPOSITIONS C H I E FLY USEFUL IN CLEARING A PATH. IN GOI NG A STEP FURTHER: QUITE S I M PLY I N SPEAKING A N D W RITING.

FOR J U DG I NG TEXTS OF PLEASURE. FOR TEXTS O F JOUISSANCE S U C H C RITERIA A R E STI LL OBSCURE.

DRAGGING

THAT SAID. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO WORDS IS NEVE RTH E LESS REAL. AND I AM NOT ALONE IN UPHOLD I NG IT. PLEASURE IS LINKED WITH THE CONSISTENCY OF THE SELF. OF THE SUBJECT. W H I C H A F F I R M S I T S E L F TH ROUGH V A L U E S OF C O M FORT. E X P A N S I V E N E S S . CASE. T O GIVE A N EXAM PLE. EASE-A N D I N M Y BELONGS T O THE

PERHAPS I F I TALK A BOUT D RAGG I NG I'LL A R R I V E AT A D E F I N I TION. I T I S A N I M PORTANT THEME FOR ME. DRAGGING I S THE JOURNEY OF DESIRE. I T I S T H E BODY IN A STATE OF A L E RT. QUESTING I N ACCORDANCE WITH ITS OWN DESIRE. A N D THEN. DRAGGING I M PL I E S A TEMPORALITY WHICH LAYS STRESS ON THE E NCOU NTER. ON THE "FI RST T I M E." AS I F T H E F I R S T E N C O U N T E R POS S E S S E D A N EXTRAO R D I N A R Y P R I V I LEGE O F ITS OWN: THAT O F B E I NG OUTSIDE A L L R E PETITION. R EPETITION I S A M A LE F I C E N T T H E M E F O R M E . R E ITERATION. T H E S T E R EOTY P E . DRAGGING THE N AT U R A L AS R E P ET I T I O N . I S T H E A NT I - N A T U R A L . T H E A N T I

D O M A I N OF R E A D I N G C L A S S I C A L W R I T E R S . AS OPPOSED TO THIS. JOUISSANCE I S THE SYSTEM OF READING. OR OF E N U NC I ATION. B Y MEANS OF WHICH THE SUBJECT. I N STEAD OF A FF I R M I NG. ABANDONS ITSELF. U N D E RGOES THE EXPERI ENCE OF PRODI GALITY WHICH I S STRICTLY SPEAKING JOUISSANCE.

R EPETITION. T H E ACT O F DRAGGING I S A N ACT IF O N E SET OUT TO DO A PROV I S IONAL SORTI NG OF TEXTS ACCOR DING TO THOSE TWO WORDS. IT I S CERTA I N THAT BY A H U G E MAJORITY T H E TEXTS W E KNOW A N D LOVE A R E BROADLY SPEA K I NG TEXTS O F PLEASURE. WHEREAS TEXTS O F JOUISSANCE A R E EXT R E M E LY R A R E - A N D TH E R E'S NO S A Y I N G I F THEY A R E NOT ALSO TEXTS OF PLEASURE. WE MAY F I N D THESE TEXTS DISAGREEABLE OR AGGRESSIVE. B U T PROVI S I O N A L L Y A T L E A ST. FO R A B R I E F I N STA NT. THEY TRA N S PORT U S A N D PROVOKE THAT PRODIGA LITY OF THE LOSS OF SE LF.
. .

R E P E A T E D . B U T ITS C O N T E N T IS A B SO L U T E L Y I N A UG U RAL.

FOR THAT REASON D R AGGING I S A NOTION I CAN EASILY TRA NSFER FROM THE ORDER OF THE E ROTI C QUEST WHERE I T O R I G I N ATES. T O A QUEST A FTER TEXTS FOR E X A M PLE. O R A QUEST FOR A TYPE O F FICTION. I N OTH E R WORDS. WHATEVER C O M E S TO LIGHT IN THE S U R P R I S E OF THE "FIRST TIM E."

DRAGG I NG

TEXT

M U ST BE S E E N

AS THE

C A PT U R E O F P H R A S E S . CITATIONS. THIS THEME OF JOUISSANCE BORDERS ON OTHE R TH E M ES. F O R EXAM PLE T H E T H E M E NOT OF DRUGS STRICTLY SPEAKI NG. BUT OF "DRUGG I NG." OR OF CERTA I N FORM S OF PERVERSION.

FO R M U LAS.

F R A G M E N T S . T H E T H E M E OF S H O R T W R I T I N G . OBVIOUSLY. W H E N I T R Y T O PRODUCE T H I S SHORT W R I T I N G B Y F R A G M ENTS. I PUT M Y S E L F IN THE POSITION OF A N A UTHOR WHOSE READER GOES DRAGGING. I T I S THE LUCK OF T H E GAME. BUT A M U C H S O U G H T- A FT E R L U C K . ABOUT; S P I E D O N . I N A WAY. PERVERSION M U C H THOUGHT

...

TEXTS

OF J O U I S S A N C E

ARE

A V A NT-G A R D E

TEXTS. THAT I S T O S A Y TEXTS NOT O N TH E S I D E O F T H E PROBABLE. HOWEVER I N C E NDIARY I T MA Y BE-I TH I N K OF SA D E FOR E X A M PLE (ONE M I GHT BE T E M PTED TO PLACE SADE A MONG TH E TEXTS OF J O U I S SA N C E . WHERE IN MANY R E S PECTS HE

"PERVERSION. QUITE S I M PLY. I S A WAY OF BEING H A PPY."

B E L O N G S. N O T B EC A U S E H E S P E A K S ABOUT JOUISSANCE. B U T BY T H E W A Y H E SPEAKS OF IT!. I N SPITE O F EVERYTHI NG. T H E SADIAN TEXT. BECAUSE IT IS S U B M I TT E D TO T H E CONSTR A I N T OF T H E EPOCH. TO THE C O D E OF THE PROBABLE. R E M A I N S A TEXT OF PLEA S U R E. THE TEXT OF JOUISSANCE H A S T O BE I N A SENSE U N R EADABLE. IT MUST COME A S A JERK. NOT ONLY TO O U R REGISTER OF I M AGES A N D IMAGI NATION. BUT ON T H E LEVEL OF LANGUAGE ITSELF
. .

IN THE FRAG M E NT FROM WHICH THIS PHRASE IS TA KEN. I CITED THE WORD "PERVERSION" A FTER TWO ALLUSIONS TO HASHISH A N D HOMOSEXUALITY. W H I C H M E A N S THAT H E R E "PERVERSION" DOES NOT HAVE A PSYC HOA N A LYTIC R I GO U R-S I N C E FOR P S Y C H O A N A L Y S I S D R U G S A R E N OT ST R I CT L Y CLASSIBLE A S P E R V E R SIONS. PERVERSION I S THE SEA RCH FOR A P L E A S U R E THAT C A N NOT BE T U R N E D TO THE PROFIT OF SOC I A L E N DS O R THE

I N FACT IT'S D I F F I C U LT TO EXPLA I N B E C A U S E . A LTHOUGH O N E CAN I MAGI N E AESTHETIC CRITERIA

SPEC I E S. IT IS. FOR E X A M PLE. THE PLEASURE OF L OV I N G W H I C H D O E S NOT F I G U R E I N V I E W O F

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PROCREATION. VOLU PTU A R I E S

IT

B E LO N G S

TO

AN

ORDER

OF THE

PA RTIC U L A R

R E LATIO N S H I P ON

WITH

THE

M OTH E R .

P R A C T I S E D G R A T U I TO U S LY.

W H I C H TOU C H E S

A NOTH ER T H E M E OF CONSI

TH E M E OF PRODIGA L I TY.

DERABLE I NTEREST TO M E AT THE MOM ENT. THAT OF THE I M A G I N A RY. A S A MATTER OF FACT. T H E RB. IS

N E V E RTHELESS.

PSYCH O A N A LYTIC SPECI FICITY

SOMETH I NG

OF

TURNING

POINT

B E TW E E N

CAN B E REINTRODUCED I NTO T H E G E N E R A LITY OF THE TERM. THUS. A CCOR D I N G MAJOR TO FREUDIAN IS

FETI S H I ST TH I N K I NG A N D T H I N K I NG THE I M A G I N A RY. BECA USE OF THAT. ONE COULD CONSI D E R RB. B Y H I M SELF AS B E I NG A CH ASTER BOOK T H A N THE

THOUGHT.

ONE

OF THE

P E R V E R SIONS

FETI S H I S M (TH E M E THAT C A N B E FOU N D I N THE W I S H FOR SEGMENTED WRITINGI. AND IN SO FAR AS.

PLEASU R E OF T H E TEXT: S I NCE TH E R E I S N O T T H E PROBLEM O F J O U I SSA N C E W H I C H P R E DO M I NATES.

PSYCHOANA LYT I C A L LY. P E R V E R S I O N I S D I VORC E D FROM N E U ROSIS. FREUDIAN THOUGHT PUTS

BUT TH A T O F TH E I M AGE. OF THE I M AGI N A RY.

E M PHASIS O N T H E FACT THAT T H E P E RVERT IS. ON THE WHOLE. A H A P P Y P E R SON.

WHAT I N T E R ESTS M E AT THE PRESENT M O M E N T IS TH E FIELD OF THE I M A G I N A RY. GIVEN ITS FI RST

PRODUCTION I N RB. BY H I M SELF. AND I'M BEGI N N I N G ALL I H AVE DO N E SINCE THE BDOK ON JAPAN RB. BY OF A S E M I N A R AT TH E ECOLE DES H A U TES ETUDES O N THE LA NGUAGE OF LOVE. W H I C H F O R M E I S LI N K E D EVEN MORE CLOSELY W I TH PROBLEMS OF TH E

I NCLUDING H I M SELF. IS

C E RTA I N UNDER

FRAGM ENTS THE SIGN

FROM A

OF

SORT

PERVERSE WRITI NG.

I MAGINA RY.

P E R V E RSION.

BY

WAY

OF F E T I S H I S M .

I M PL I E S A

ROLA ND B A RT H E S

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ELSEWH E R E I OON'T OBVIOUSLY PAY TOO M UCH

ATTENTION TO M Y LISTE N E RS. I F SOME OF YOU WERE HERE LAST TI M E . ( A N D IT WOU L D S U R P R I S E M E IF TH E R E ARE N OTI. YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I

SPOKE OF SOM ETH I NG TO DO WITH A S U M MATION OF THE BORRO M E A N KNOT. ONE CHAIN IN THREE: I F

(. . .J LATE FOR THE FI RST T I M E . . .

O N E R I N G W E R E DETAC H E D FROM T H I S C H A I N . THE OTH E R TWO WOULD NOT HOLD TOGETH E R FOR O N E

EXC U S E ME. T H I S I S TH E FI RST TIME THAT I A M FIVE M I N UTES LATE. YOU ARE H E R E . I AM ALSO H E R E AND T H IS I S GOOD THAT I FEEL
. .

I N STANT LONGER:

I A M FORCED T O EXPLA I N W H Y

TH I S COMES A BOUT AS. AFTER A L L I A M N O T S U R E THAT. G I V E N A L L T H E F U S S . S I M PLE AS IT I S. THIS I S ENOUGH (FOR

.

GOOD FOR YOU. BY THIS I MEAN U N D E R TH E

A B N O R M A L L Y GOOD.

1. TH I S

I S T O SAY. AS I

A QUESTION

I N FLUENCES OF A SLIGHT TEM PERATU RE A N D SOME DR UGS. I F A L L OF A SUDDEN TH IS SET-UP EVER

CONC E R N I NG THE CONDITION.

H A D SA I D. OF

THE U NCONSC I O U S. WHICH I S TO SAY A QU ESTION POSED A BOUT WHAT I S LANGUAGE.

CHANGED. I WOULD HOPE THAT THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN L I STE N I N G TO ME FOR SO M E TI M E W I LL

EXPLA I N TO THE I N ITIATES THAT TH I S IS THE FI RST T I M E IT HAS HAPPENED TO M E. ACTUALLY. THERE I S A QU ESTION THAT R E M A I N S LANGUAGE HAVE TO BE U N S ETTLED. DOES

APPROAC H E D I N ITS G R A M MAR. I N W H I C H C A S E . IT I S SOl I AM GOI NG TO TRY TH I S E V E N I NG TO LIVE UP TO YOU R EXPECTATIONS. ESPEC I A LLY SINCE I SAID -WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1 C E RTA I N THAT. IT C O M E S FROM A TOPOLOGY.

THAT I AM HAVING FUN: I F I CONTI N U E SPEAKING IN TH E SA M E TON E IT I S NOT S I M PLY FORCED. YOU

SHOULD EXC U S E ME. T H I S SHALL NOT BE CAUSED BY MY ABNOR M A L STATE: RATHER IT SHALL BE -WHArs IN 1T1

WITH I N THE LI N E OF WHAT I I NTENDED TO SAY TO YOU. -WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1

208

-AH . WHAT IS A TOPOLOGY? HOW N I C E T H I S PERSON lSI A TOPOLOGY I S A THING THAT HAS A MATHE MATICAL D E F I N I TI O N ; IT IS THIS WHICH FI RSTLY

DIVERSE G R A M MATI C A L F U NCTIONS.

IT

SEE M S

TO

ME

THAT

THERE

IS

ALREADY

AN

COMES ON TO ITSELF. ( A N D) RE LATIONS.

BY TH E NON-METRIC

OBSTACLE I N CONCEI VING TH I NGS LIKE TH IS. THAT I S THAT ONE I S OBLIGED TO PUT U N D E R THE SAME TERM V E R BS AND VERY DIFFERENT TY P E S OF

-WHAT DOES THIS M E A N ?

ACTIONS. WHY DOES LANGUAGE ASSEMBLE U N D E R TH E SA M E CATEGORY FU NCTIONS W H I C H C A N ONLY

BY THE DISTORTED R E LATIONS. T H I S IS. STRICTLY SPEAKI NG. A CASE O F THOSE K I N DS OF SUPPLE

BE

CO N C E I V E D

OF

IN

TH E I R

ORIGIN

UNDER

DIFFERENT E M ERGING MODES?

CI RCLES WHICH CONSTITUTED M Y "I D E M A N D YOU TO D E N Y ME THAT WHICH I OFFER YOU;" EACH ONE IS A CLOSED TH I N G. S U PPLE. A N D W H I C H O N LY HOLDS TO BE CHA I N E D TO OTH E R S . N OT H I N G HOLDS N EVERTHELESS. THE QUESTION STAYS SUSPEN DED; IT IS C E RTAIN THAT THERE WOULD BE SOM ETH I N G INFI NITELY LANGUAGE SATI SFYI NG IS IN SOM E IN CO N S I D E R I N G THAT THE

TOGETH E R A L O N E . TH I S TOPOLOGY. F R O M THE FACT OF ITS . . . OF ITS MATHEMATICAL I N S E RTION. I S TIED TO THE RELATIONS-AND R I G HT. THIS IS WHAT

WAY MODELED ON

FUNCTIONS THAT A R E S U PPOSED T O BE PHYSICAL REA LITY. E V E N I F TH I S REA LITY I S ONLY (ATTA I N A B L E ) THROUGH THE BI A S OF A MATH E MATICAL

SERVED TO D E M ON STRATE

M Y LAST S E M I N A R-IS

T IED TO THE R E LATIONS OF PURE S I G N I FYI NG. THAT IS THAT IT I S TO TH E EXTENT THAT THESE TH REE TERMS ARE THREE THAT WE SEE ( T H AT) THE

FUNCTIO N A L I ZATION.

FOR

MY

PART

WHAT YOU

AM

IN

TH E

COU R S E WHICH

OF IS

PRESENCE OF T H E T H I RD. THAT I S . BETWE EN THE OTH E R TWO. I S A R ELATION. THAT THIS I S WHAT IS MEANT BY T H E BOR RO M E A N KNOT.

A DVA N C I N G

TO

IS

SOM ETH I N G

RADICALLY ATTACH E D TO T H E P U RELY TOPOLOGI CAL O R I G I N OF LANGUAGE. I TH I N K I A M ABLE TO TAKE ACCOUNT OF THIS TOPOLOGICAL OR I G I N BY

TH E R E

IS

A N OTH E R OF

WAY

TO

A PP ROACH THE

THIS IS

THE

FACT

THAT WHICH

IT

IS

E S S E NTI A LLY

TI E D

TO

LA N G U A G E -A N D P R E S E NT. IT IS

COURSE IN

TH I N G

SOM ETH I NG B E I NG

H A P P E N S TO THE BIAS OF

SPEAKING IS TH E

P R E S E NT

THE

FACT THAT

UNDER

THE

S E X U A LITY. BECA USE OF

SOM EONE. SOMEONE THAT I H A V E QUOTED. WHICH I T TU R N S OUT I QUOTED A FTE R J A KOBSON D I D A N D THAT. AS IT T U R N S O U T I H A D KNOWN FROM BEFORE
. .

SPEA K I N G

BEING

SPEAKING

SOM E

TH ING WHICH HAPPENS TO SEXUA LITY OR DOES THE SOMETH I N G HA PPEN TO SEXUA LITY BECAUSE H E IS A SPEA K I N G B E I NG. THIS I S THE A F FA I R I N WHICH I ABSTA I N FROM TREA D I NG. LEAVI NG IT UP TO YOU.

N A M ELY SOM E O N E N A M E D RENE THOM. A N D THIS TRIES AND C E R TA I N LY OR N OT WITHOUT F A C I L I TA T E D

SOM EO N E HAVING

ALREADY

FRAYED

CERTA I N PATHS. TO A P P ROACH T H E QUESTION OF LANGUAGE NOT FROM AS UNDER THE PURE AS THE S E M A NTIC BIAS. THAT IS IN AS

TH E

FU N D A M E N TAL WHICH I

SC H E M E TRY

OF

WHAT A

THIS

IS

A BOUT

WILL

TO

PUSH

LITTLE

S I G N I FYI NG

COMBI NATION. CAN HELP

FURTH E R B E FO R E Y O U THIS EVENING IS TH I S : T H E FUNCTION CA LLED SEXUA LITY IS DEFI N E D IN AS

MUCH

MATHEMATICS BUT

US TO

CONCE I V E

SUCH.

UNDER

THE

SEMANTIC

M U C H A S WE KNOW SOMETH I NG ABOUT IT. A N D WE KNOW A LITTLE ABOUT IT A FTER A L L IF ONLY FROM EXPERI ENCE; WE KNOW FOR EXAMPLE THAT T H E

ANGLE.THAT I S TO SAY NOT WITHOUT RESORTING A LSO TO M A TH E M A T I C S TO FIND. TO FIND IN

CERTA I N CU RVES. LET US SAY. C E RTA I N FORMS. I WOULD A DD. A R E D E D U C E D FROM THESE C U RVES; SOMETH I NG WHICH WOU L D P E R M I T US TO CONCEIVE OF LA NGUAGE AS. LErS SAY. SOM ETH I N G LIKE T H E E C H O OF P H Y S I C A L P H E N O M E N A .

S E X E S A R E TWO.

NO

MATTE R

WHAT

R E NOWNED AUTHOR TH I N KS

ABOUT IT-A R E N OWN E D A UTHOR WHO I MUST SAY I N H E R TI M E . B E FORE S H E BROUGHT OUT TH I S BOOK CALLED THE SECOND SEX. H A D BELIEVED. BECAUSE

F R O M TH I S E X A M P LE. I N T H A T WHICH I S P U R E L Y A N D S I M P LY COM U N ICATION (OF) P H E NOMENA OF

OF SOM E U N KNOWN (TO M E ) ORIENTATION (BECAUSE TO TELL THE TRUTH I H A D NOT YET STARTED TO TEACH A N YT H I NG) H A D BELIEVED SHE R E F E R R E D T O ME B E F O R E S H E P U T O U T THE SECOND SEX. S H E C A L L E D M E O N THE TELE PHONE T O SAY T O M E T H A T ASSUREDLY S H E H A D N E E D O F MY COUNSEL TO

RESONANCE W H I C H WOU L D B E C U RVES C E RTA I N WOU LD GENIZE WHICH IN ORDER TO

E L A BORATED (BY) HAVE VALUE IN A

ORDER

OF

FUNDAM ENTAL RESSEMBLE. TA K E N IN

R E LATIONS. AND THE HOMO SAME

SECO N D A R I LY SO AS TO

BE

CLARIFY WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE PSYCHO ANALYTIC T R I B UTA RY TO HER WOR K. A S I POINTED

PA R E N T H E S I S .

FROM

WHICH

WO U L D

R E S U LT

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OUT TO H E R THAT IT WOULD H A V E TO BE AT LEAST AT BOTTOM TH I S IS A M I N I M U M S I NCE I HAVE B E E N SPEA K I NG FOR

W H A T DO W E H A V E . W H A T WE A R E R E F E R R I N G TO AND D O N 'T BELIEVE THAT TH I S GOES W I THOUT

20 6

YEARS

AND

TH I S

IS

NOT

S A Y I NG. W H A T W E A R E REFERRING TO. I S I F I M IGHT SAY. T H E S U PPOS E D ANIMAL MODEL. WE H A V E FOR TH E R E LATION BETWEEN THE SEXES THE A N I M A L OF COPULATION T H A T S E E M S T O U S TO

ACC I D E NTA L - !5 O R STRA IGHTEN OUT

MONTHS BEFORE I COULD Q U E STION FOR H E R. SHE

TH I S

MADE THE OBSE RVATION TO M E THAT IT WOULD NOT B E NORMAL THAT A BOOK. W H I C H BESIDES H A V I NG A L R E A DY B E E N IN P R E P A R ATION. SHOULD TAKE SO LONG; THE LAWS OF LITE RARY PRODUCTION A R E

IMAGE

F U R N I S H A S U F F IC I E N T MODEL OF WHAT T H E R E I S T O T H I S R E LATIO N SH I P A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E O F W H A T TH E R E I S ( O F TH E ) S E X U A L CON S I D E R E D AS N E ED.

S U C H THAT T H E Y S E E M E D T O H A V E D E N I E D H E R T H E POSS I B I L I TY OF HAVING MORE THAN

OR

4
I T I S NOT TH E R E . FAR FROM IT. B E L I E V E M E . WHAT HAS A LWAYS BEEN T H E WAY IT WAS. I DO NOT N E E D TO RECALL WHAT "TO K N OW" M EA N S IN TH E

I NTERVI EWS WITH ME. FOLLOWI N G TH I S . I DEC L I N E D THE HONOR.

TH E BASIS OF WHAT I H A V E FOR SOME TIME BEEN BRINGING OUT FOR YOU I S P R ECISELY TH I S THAT TH E R E IS NO SEX SECON D F ROM SEX. THE THAT TH E R E MOMENT IN IS NO

B I B L I C A L S E N S E OF THE WORD. SI NCE A LWAYS THE R E LI' T l O N OF THE ITS NOUS TO SO M ET H I NG I M PRI NT. WHICH IS

E X PE R I E NC E S

P A S S I VE

WHAT

SECOND

WHICH TO PUT IS

C A L L E D V A R IOUSLY B U T A S S U R E D LY WHOSE MOST COMMON G R E E K DENOM I N ATION IS THAT OF H Y L E . H A S A LWAYS B E E N C A L L E D T H E MODE. T H E MODE OF R E LATION WHICH I S E N G E N D E R E D FROM S P I R I T A N D THAT H A S B E E N CON S I D E R E D A S MODELING NOT AT A L L S I M PLY THE A N I MA L R E LATION S H I P. BUT TH E F U N D A M ENTAL MODE OF BEING OF WHAT ONE HOLDS TO B E TH E WORLD. THE C H I N ES E . IN TH I S C A S E . A P P E A L T O SOM ETH I N G W H I C H I S W R I TT E N AS FOLLOWS.

LANGUAGE OTH E R W I S E

ENTERS TH E

I NTO

FU NCTION .

OR.

THI NGS

CONCERNING

WHAT

CALLED H ETEROSEX U A L I TY. IT I S PRECISELY THIS. THAT THE WO R D HETEROS. W H ICH I S THE TERM

WHICH M E A N S OTH ER. I N G R E E K . IS PRECI S E LY. I N THIS POSITION. I N T H E R E LATION THAT IS CALLED SEXUAL I N TH E SPEA K I NG B E I NG. TO E M PTY ITSELF I N AS MUCH A S IT I S B E I NG. IT I S PRECISELY FROM TH I S E M PTINESS THAT IT OFFERS TO THE S POKEN WORD WHAT I CALL THE LOC U S OF THE OTH E R .

N A M E LY T H A T I N W H I C H I S I N SC R I BED TH E EFFECTS OF THIS SPOKEN WORD. I AM NOT GOING TO

EMBELLISH T H I S B ECA USE A FT E R ALL THAT WOULD DELAY U S FROM S E V E R A L ETYMOLOGICAL R E FER ENCES; HOW. H ETEROS WHICH IS SAID IN CERTA I N THE C H I N ES E FOR A LONG TI M E A PP E A L E D TO TWO F U N D A M E NTAL T I V E LY-I PUT ESSENCES A BO V E THE WHICH ARE R E S PEC ESSENCE.

G R E E K D I A LECTS WHOSE N A M E S I W I L L SPA R E YOU. (RALLIES THE) DE UTEROS. AND EXACTLY MARKS

THAT THIS DE UTEROS I S . I N T H I S C A S E I F I MAY SAY SO. PASSED OVER.

FEM I N I N E

(WH AT) I S C A L L E D Y I N I N O R D E R T O O P POSE IT TO YANG.

IT I S CLEAR THAT T H I S C A N SEEM SU R P R I S I NG. IT I S OBVIOUS T H A T F O R S O M E TI M E. S U C H A N D S U C H A FO R M U LA (AND IN TRUTH. IF I SAY FOR SOME T I M E IT I S THAT I DO NOT KNOW WHETHER THERE WAS A N I N DICATION OF A T I M E I N W H I C H IT W A S A FOR M U LA ) . SUCH A FO R M U L A IS P R E C I S ELY WHAT IS NOT I F THERE WAS A N A R TI C U LATABLE R E LATION ON

THE S E X U A L LEV E L. IF TH E R E WAS AN A RTICU LAT A B L E R E LATION IN THE S P E A K I N G BEI NG. M UST IT. A N D TH I S IS THE Q U E STION. D I STI N G U I S H ITSELF

FROM ALL THOSE O F T H E SAME SEX. AND EXPRESS ITSELF TO ALL THOSE OF TH E OTH E R ? THIS IS

KNOW N . I N E V E RTHELESS C LA I M AND I UNDE RLI N E THAT WHAT YO U S E E I N THE DI AGRAM I S (EVE RY TH ING) THAT THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC EXPE R I ENCE

E V I D E N T FROM TH E IDEA SUGGESTED BY THE POINT W H E R E W E ARE. BY T H E REFERENCE TO WHAT I'VE CALLED T H E A N I M A L M O D E L. THE A PTITUDE I F I C A N PUT I T TH I S W A Y . O F E A C H F R O M O N E S I D E T O COUNT

BRINGS US.

FOR TH IS. LET US R E M E M B E R ON WHAT R ESTS WHAT WE CAN HAVE OF TH E C O N C E PT I O N . -NOT O F THIS IS VERY WELL

FOR A LL T H E OTH E R S FROM THE OTH E R SIDE.

H ETEROS E X U A L ITY.

SI NCE

YOU SEE. THEN. THAT TH E STATEMENT I S P ROM U L GATED ACCOR D I N G TO THE SEMANTIC FORM

NAMED. I F Y O U FOLLOW WHAT I JUST A DVA NCED BUT (OF) B I S E X U A LITY. AT T H E POINT WH E R E WE ARE I N O U R STATE M E N T CONC E R N I NG TH I S SEXUA LITY.

S I GN I FYI NG T H E U N I VE R S A L. R E PLAC I NG I N WHAT I S A I D EACH O N E BY A N Y O N E AT ALL. OR BY NO MATTER

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WHICH ONE.

NO

MATTER

WHICH

ONE

OF ONE OF

EVERYTH I N G WHICH MATE R I A LZES THE U N IVERSAL I N THE B E HAVIOR WHICH I S E FFECTIVELY HERD- L I K E I N T H E R E LATIONS H I P B ETWEEN TH E SEXES. I H A V E ALREADY STRESSED T H A T I N SO-CALLED SEX U A L H U NTING OR C R U I S I N G . B O Y S STI M U LATE TH E M SELVES. A N D AS FOR G I RLS. TH E Y LOVE T O DOUBLE THEMSE LVES. IN AS M UC H A S T H I S ADVANCES

THESE S I DES. WE WOU LD BE COM P LETELY IN THE ORDER OF W H AT. WHAT WOULD THIS BE CALLED.

S U GG ESTS

( R E C OG N I Z E

IN

C O N D I T I ON A L

SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M Y D I SCOU R S E ECHOES WHICH WOU L D NOT BE A S E M B LA NC E ) [T H I S IS T H E TITLE O F M Y S E M I N A R NO. 2 1

( m A N D W ELLI I N R EPLACING

THI S EACH ONE B Y A NYON E AT ALL. W E WOULD B E IN TH I S I NDETE R M I N ACY OF WHAT I S CHOSEN IN EACH EVERY TO RESPOND TO EVERY OTH E R .

THEM. OF COU RSE. IT I S A N ETHOLOGICAL REMARK THAT I MAKE HERE. BUT WHICH SOLVES NOTH I N G BECAUSE I T S UFFICES T O R E FLECT ON TH I S TO S E E I N THI S A N A M B IGUOUS I LLUSION W H I C H CAN NOT

T H E E A C H ONE T H A T I HAVE U S E D FI RST HAS TH E EFFECT OF RECA LLING TO US THAT TH E EFFECTIVE R ELATION S H I P IS NOT W I TH O U T EVO K I N G T H E

UPHOLD ITSELF FOR LONG.

TO BE MORE I NS I STENT H E R E AND TO HOLD MYSELF AT THE L E V E L OF T H E MOST FUNDAM ENTAL

HORIZON O F O N E T O ON E T O EACH H I S OWN EACH. AND THIS B I U N I VOCAL CORRESPO NDENCE. ECHOES TO WHAT WE KNOW TO BE E S S E N TI A L TO TH E

EXPERI E NCE. I WANT TO STAY CLOSE-CUT TO THE GROUND. TO TH E ANA LYTICAL EXPERI E NCE. I W I L L R E M I N D Y O U T H A T TH E R ECON S T I T U T E IN IMAGINARY I S WHAT WE ANIMAL M O D E L. WE

PRESENTATION OF N U M B ERS.

THE

NB: W E CANNOT F ROM T H E START E LI M I NATE THE EXISTENCE OF THESE TWO D I M ENSIONS. AND ONE CAN EVEN SAY THAT THE ANIMAL TH E MODEL IS

RECONSTITUTE I T ACCORDING TO OUR OWN IDEA. OF COURSE: B ECAU S E IT IS CLEAR THAT WE CAN ONLY RECONSTRUCT THROUGH OBSE RVATION. BUT ON

P R E C I S E LY

WHAT

S UGGESTS

ANIMALIC

THE CONTRARY. WE HAVE A N EXPERIENCE OF T H E I MAGINA RY. A N EXPERI ENCE WHICH IS NOT E A S Y (BUT W H I C H ) T H E PSYCHOA N A LYST I S ABLE TO

PHA NTASM. I F W E WOU LD NOT H A V E T H I S A N I M A L MODEL. OR E V E N I F THE CHOICE W E R E B A S E D ON A H A PHAZA R D ENCOUNTER. THE B I U N I VOCA L COUP LING IS WHAT A PPEARS TO US OF IT. N A M E LY TH E R E A R E O N L Y T W O A N I MA LS W H I C H COUPLE TOGETHER. WE WOU LD NOT HAVE TH I S ESSENTI A L D I M ENSION WHICH CONSI STS VERY THAT TH E P R E C I S E LY IS IN TH E FACT IT IS NO

INCREASE FOR US. TO SAY THINGS CRUDELY. IT W I L L NOT SEEM DIFFICULT. I T S E E M S T O ME. T O M A K E U N DERSTOOD T H A T I F I M A I NTAIN (I CALL T H I S

CRUDELY. I T I S N O T C R UDE. RATH ER IT I S C R U EL. AND WELLI MY GOD. ) THAT IS IN EVERY SEXUAL

E N CO U N T E R

U N IQ U E .

E NCOU N T E R .

I F TH E R E

S O M ETH I N G THAT

ACC IDENT I F I S A Y THAT IT I S EXACTLY FROM THIS. A N D FROM TH I S ALONE THAT TH E A N I M A L MODE L IS AROUSED. LETS C A L L TH I S THE SOUL TO SOU L. ENCOUNTER OF

PSYCHOANALYSIS ALLOWS M E TO ADVANCE. I T I S SOME VAGU E OUTLI NE OF ANOTH ER P RESENCE FOR WH ICH. MY GOD. TH E V U LGAR TERM OF FREE-FOR ALL (ORGY) IS NOT A BSOLUTELY EXCLUDED. THI S REFERENCE IN ITS E LF CONTA I N S NOTH I N G

WHOEVER

K N OWS

THE

CONDITIONS

OF

THE

DECISIVE S I NC E AFTER A L L ON E COULD ASSU M E A SERIOUS A I R A N D SAY THAT IT IS PRECISELY THE STIGMA O F A NOMALY. AS I F NORMAL, OR SIM PLY: THE NORMAL WAS LOCATED SOM EWHERE.

SPEAKING B E I NG. I S NOT TO B E ASTO N I S H E D I N A N Y C A S E T H A T THE ENCOUNTER ON T H I S B A S I S SERVES P R EC I S E LY TO BE REPEATED A S U N IQUE. THERE I S NO N E E D H E R E T O B R I NG B A C K I NTO PLAY A N Y D I M E N S I ON OF THE V I RTUOUS. IT I S THE VERY

IT IS CERTA I N THAT I N A DVANC I NG THI S TE RM. THE ONE I JUST P I N N E D-DOW N WITH T H I S BANAL N A M E . I CERTA I N LY D I D NOT S E E K TO VI BRATE IN YOU TH E EROTIC LYRE. IF S I M PLY THIS HAS A SMALL VALUE OF AWA K E N I NG. I F TH I S G I VES YOU AT LEAST THIS DIM ENSION. NOT THAT FROM WH ICH COM ES AN ECHO OF EROS. BUT S I M PLY O F THE P U R E DIMENSION OF TH E REA L. I A M CERTA I N LY NOT HERE TO A M U S E YOU IN THIS STRA I N .

N E C E S S I T Y O F W H A T I N T H E S PE A K I N G B E I NG PRODUCES ITSELF OF THE U N IQUE. TO REPEAT

ITSELF. I T I S P R E C I S E LY IN THIS SENSE THAT IT I S O N L Y TH E A N I M A L M O D E L T H A T S U STA I N S ITSELF AND A RO U S E S TH E PHANTASM THAT WE H A V E

C A L L E D A N I M A LIC. O F COU RSE. THE R E A R E ROYAL BASTA RDS. AND TH E R E ARE SOME FOR WHOM

LANGUAGE DO E SN'T EXI ST. (BUT) IT I S OBVIOUSLY NOT THESE WHO I NTEREST U S I N TH E ANALYTICAL FI ELD.

B U T LET US T R Y NOW T O C U T A W A Y A T WHAT THE K I N S H I P OF THE U N I V E R SA LITY HAS TO DO WITH OUR

WHAT

GIVES

THE IN

I LL U S I O N TH E

OF

THE

SEXUAL IS

AFFAI R.

NAM ELY

THE

STAT E M E N T

BY

WH I C H

R E LATION S H I P

SPEAKING

BEI NG.

OBJ ECTS SHOULD BE D I STRI BUTED I N TWO WHOLES

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OF O P POSED EQUIVALENCES. I FOR YOU THAT HERE THERE

HAVE J U ST NOTED IS NO PLACE TO

TO R ETI R E I N ORDER TO A LLOW T H I S DEATH. ITS PO L I T I C A L D I M E N SION SIGNIFICANCE. FOR TH E TH I S IS S I M PLY A

D E M A N D THE EQUAL D I STRI BUTION OF I N DI V I DUA LS. THAT I REMAIN HERE AND HAVE BEEN ABLE TO

I N D ICATION

CONC E R N I NG

EXACTLY W H E R E THE Q U E STION L I E S THAT WE A R E R A I S I NG.

S U P PORT MY D I SCOU RSE ON THE B I U N I VOCITY OF THE COUPLI N G . TH E R E ARE OR RATH E R TH E R E

MIGHT B E TWO U N I V E RSALS D E F I N E D J U ST B Y T H E ESTA B L I S H M E N T OF THE POS S I B I L I T Y OF A

I HAVE SAID THAT I F W E C A N SAY THAT THERE I S NO S E X U A L R E LATION. TH I S I S ASSUREDLY NOT IN ALL I N N OC E N C E . IT IS B E C A U S E TH E EXPERI ENCE.

RELATIONSH I P OF ONE TO A NOTHER. OF THE OTH E R TO ONE. TH I S R E LA T I O N S H I P H A S A B SOLUTE LY

N A M E LY A MODE O F D I SCOURSE W H I C H I S S U R E LY N E V E R THAT OF THE HYSTERIC W H I C H IS BUT THE ONE W H I C H I H A V E I N SC R I B E UNDER A Q U A D R U P A L D I V I S I O N ' A S BEING T H E A N A LYTI C A L D I SCOURSE. AND WHICH COM E S OUT OF TH I S D I SCOURSE I S THE H E R E T O FO R E U NEVOKED D I M E N SION OF THE

NOTH I N G TO DO WITH WHAT I S O R D I N A R I LY CALLED SEXUAL R E LATON SHI PS. O N E HAS A WHOLE LOT OF R E L A T I O N S H I PS ABOUT T H E S E TO TH E S E R E LATION S H I P S A N D ONE A LSO HAS

R E LA T I O N S H I P S .

SEVE R A L S M A L L RELATION S H I PS: T H I S TA KES U P OUR WORDLY L I F E . B U T AT T H E LEVEL WH E R E I

P H A L L I C FUNCTION.

PLACE MYSELF. IT IS A QU ESTION OF BASING THESE RELATIONSH I PS WITH I N U N I V E R SALS. IT HOW DOES U N I V E RSAL U N I V E RSA L WOMAN. MAN IS R E LATE H I M SELF TO THE QUESTION AND IS N A M ELY THIS SOM ETH I N G BY WHICH THIS

S E X U A L R E LATION S H I P DOES NOT C H A R ACTE R I ZE AT L E A ST ONE OF THESE TWO T E R M S. MORE

TH I S

TH I S I S T H E Q U E STION W H I C H I M POSES ITSELF O N US B Y T H E FACT THAT LANGUAGE D E M A N DS VERY PREC I S E LY THAT IT B E THERE WERE NO FOU N D E D FROM H E R E : IF THERE WOULD NO

P R EC I S E LY T H E TERM ATTACH E D T O T H E WORD: THE O N E . -HOW LONG I S I T GOING TO LAST1-IT I S NOT FROM ITS POSITION (OF ONE' WHICH WOULD BE

LA NGUAGE.

REDUCIBLE E I TH E R

TO TH I S SOM ETH I N G THAT I S CALLED

LONG E R B E A N Y QUESTION EITHER. AND WE WOU L D NOT H A V E T O B R I NG I NTO PLAY TH E U N I VERSAL. YESI TH I S R E LATION C A N P R E C I SELY RE-ENTER T H E OT H E R W H I C H I S ABSOLUTELY FOREIGN T O W H A T COULD H A V E B E E N H E R E P U R E LY AND S I M PLY AS ACC E S S O R Y . FORCE WHICH WHAT PERHAPS TO N I G H T WOULD

MALE. O R I N C H I N ESE TE R M I NOLOGY THE

YANG ESSENCE. IT I S P R EC I SELY ON THE CONTRARY OWING TO T H I S W H I C H RECALLED. TO A FTER A L L M E RITS TO BE THE M E A N I NG. TH E

A C E N TU A TE

H I D D E N M E A N I N G BECA U S E IT COMES TO US FROM A F A R . OF THE TERM ORGAN. IT I S EXACTLY T H I S

M E T O ACCENTUATE I DESIG NATE OF THE

THE CAPITAL AS

O.

BY AS

W H I C H I S ONLY A N O RG A N . T O ACCENTUATE THI NGS. AGA I N . A TOOL IT I S A RO U N D T H E TOOL THAT THE A N A LYTI C A L EXPERIENCE I NC I T E S US TO SEE

OTH E R

E M PTY. AN

SOMETH I N G HOTH ER.

S U P P L E M E N TA R I TY. WOU LD NOT BE

H. THE

WHICH

A B A D W A Y OF

T U R N I N G E V E R YTH I NG THAT I S S A I D B Y T H E S E X U A L R ELATION. AND TH I S IS A N O V E LTY. THIS IS

GETTING ACROSS THE D I M E N S I O N OF HATE W H I C H CAN H E R E ENTER I NTO P L A Y . O R FOR US T O NOTICE (WH E N ' FOR E X A M PLE. EVE RYT H I NG WE H A V E OF DOES N OT . BY

E V ERYTH I N G W H I C H A N S W E R S TO T H E E M ERGENCE OF A DI SCOURSE WHICH A S S U R E DLY H A S NEVER YET COME TO LIGHT AND W H I C H C A N NOT CONC E I V E OF ITSELF BY PRIOR E M E RG E N C E IN SO FAR FROM TH E

P H I LOS O P H I C A L CHANCE. CO M E

CONCOCTI O N FROM ONE

CALLED I

SOC R AT E S TO SAY.

M A N I FE STLY

H YSTE R I C A L . WE

MEAN

D I SC O U R S E OF SC I E N C E

AS IT IS THE

C L I N I C A L LY H YSTE R I C A L: RELATIONSH I P OF

WOULD H A V E TH E ( . . . ,

I N SERTION OF LANGUAGE OVER THE MATHE MATI CAL R E A L.

THESE

C A TA L E P T I C

MANI FESTATI ONS OF THE ONE CALLED SOCRATES. I F H E COULD HOLD A D I SCOU R S E WHICH I S NOT FOR NOTH I N G AT THE ORIGIN OF THE DISCOU RSE OF I H A V E S A I D THAT WHAT IN THE R E LATIONSH I P O F B E I NG I S STIGMATIZED I N THE D E E PLY S U BVERTED LANGUAGE IS P R EC I S E LY THAT TH E R E IS NO

SC I ENCE. IT I S PRECISELY FOR HAVI NG BROUGHT THE PURE S U B J E CT TO THE PLACE OF THE

LONG E R A WAY. HOW N E V E RTHELESS I T I S DON E . B U T I N A D I M ENSION W H I C H APPEARS T O US TO BE AN I LLUSION. THAT I T C A N NO LONG E R WRITE ITSELF IN TERMS OF M A L E AND FEMALE ESSENCES. WHAT DOES TH I S MEAN WHEN A FTER A LL. IT I S A L R E A D Y W R I TT E N ?

SEM BLA NCE. A N D THIS H E COULD DO PRECI S E LY ON ACC O U N T OF THIS D I M ENSION WHICH FOR ME

PRESENTED TH E

HOTH E R A S SUCH. N A M E LY T H I S

H A T R E D OF H I S W I FE. T O C A L L IT B Y H E R N A M E . T H I S PERSON ( . . . WHO W A S ' H I S W I F E . H I S W I FE T O THE DEG R E E THAT S H E STA R V E D FOR H I M . THAT H E H A D TO. AT T H E POI NT OF H I S D E A T H . POLITELY B E G H E R

I F I R E J ECT TH I S A N C I E N T W R I T I N G U N TH E N A M E' O F

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TH E A N A LYTIC DISCO U R S E , YOU COULD OBJECT-A MORE THAN VALID O B J ECTI O N -T H A T I MYSELF

EQUALLY FUNCTON

THE DOES

TWO NOT

P A R T N E R S, MAKE THEM

THE

PHA LLIC IT

D I F F E R E NT,

W R I T E I T A LSO, S I N C E I N A N Y C A S E WHAT I J U ST P U T B A C K ONE MORE TI M E O N TH E P A G E I S SOMETH I NG WHICH CLAI M S TO S U P PO R T A W R I TI N G , THE

REMAINS N O LESS C L E A R T H A T F I R ST OF A L L THAT WE MUST SEARCH FOR THE DIFFE R E NCE ELSE

WHERE.

N ETWORK O F T H E S E X U A L A F F A I R , AND NEVERTHELESS, T H I S W R I T I N G ONLY A UTHORIZES ITSE LF, ONLY TA K E S ITS FOR M , FROM A VERY IT IS HERE THAT THESE FO R M U LAS THE M E R IT

QUESTIO N I NG

FROM

BOTH

SI DES;

LEFT SIDE

ITSELF OPPOS I N G T H E R I GHT, THE

HIGHER LEVEL

SPECIFIC WRITING, N A M ELY WHAT H A S PERMITTED THE I N TRODUCTION IN LOGI C OF AN I R R U PTION,

ITSELF OPPOSING T H E LOWER LEVEL; WHAT DOES TH I S M E A N ? WHAT THIS M E A N S D E S ERVES TO BE

N A M E LY A M A TH E M ATICAL TOPOLOGY. I T I S ONLY FROM TH I S THE E X I STENCE O F THE THAT WE FOR M U LATION OF FOR ANY A

SOU NDED, OR I NVESTIGATED; BUT F I RST, I SHALL SHOW HOW THEY C A N D E M O N STRATE A C E RTA I N SUPPORT.

TOPOLOGY

COULD,

P R O POS I T I O N , PROPOSITION

IMAGINE

THAT WE C A N MAKE IS TO SAY,

F U NCTIO N . THAT

SOM E

IT

IS

PLA I N

THAT A

IT

IS

NOT

BEC A U S E MADE I NTO

H A VE THE

T H I N G W H I C H SPECI F I E S I T S E L F F R O M THE E MPTY PLACE THAT O N E LEAVES H E R E A N D IN FUNCTION OF WHICH TH E A R G U M E NT DETE R M I N E S ITSELF.

E M P LO Y E D I R R U PTION

FO R M U LA T I O N MATHEMATICS

FROM

OF

LOGIC THAT I IN THE SAME

MYSELF TA KE THIS WAY; M Y

ALL TOGETH E R

FI RST OBSERVATIONS WILL CONSI ST OF

H E R E , I CAN POI NT OUT TO YOU PRECI S E LY WHAT I HAVE BOR ROWE D F ROM THE TRADITION OF

SHOW I NG THAT, I N EFFECT, THE M A N N E R I N WHICH I USE THIS IS SUCH IN THAT IT OF IS IN NO WAY

MATHEMATICAL I NSCR I PTION,

I N S O FA R A S I T I S

T R A N S L ATA B L E

TERMS

P R O PO S I T I O N A L

SU BSTITUTED FOR T H E F I R ST FORMS-I DON'T SAY FOR M A LI ZATION -OUTL I N E D SYLLOGISTICS; B Y A R I STOTLE IN HIS

LOGIC. I M E A N THAT MODE I N W H I C H TH E VARIA BLE, OR WHAT IS CALLED THE V A R I A BLE, N A M ELY, THAT WHICH OCCUPIES A PLACE IN AN A RG U M ENT, IS

CONSEQU ENTLY T H I S I N SC R I PTION

SOMETH I NG WHICH H E R E IS COM PLETELY SPEC I F I E D BY THE Q U A D R U PL E FORM UNDER WHICH TH E

U N DER THE TERM F U NCTION/A R G U M E N T WOULD BE ABLE TO OFFER US AN EASY TERM TO SPECIFY

RELATION OF TH E ARG U M EN T TO T H E FUNCTION IS POSED.

SEXUAL OPPOSITION. WHAT I S REQU I RED? I T WOULD SUFFICE THAT T H E R E S PE C T I V E F U N CTIONS O F

M A LE A N D F E M A L E BE D I STI N G U I S H E D A S Y I N A N D YANG.

I N ORDER TO M E RELY I NTRODUCE WHAT IT I S ABOUT, I WILL R E M I N D YOU THAT IN PROPOSITIONAL LOGIC,

IT

IS

PRECI SELY

BECAUSE

TH E

F U NCTION

IS

WE

HAVE

AT THE

F I RST LEVEL 4 F U N D A M E NTA L

U N IQUE, THAT I T I S A LWAYS A BOUT T H E F OF X, THAT IT I S ENGENDERED, A S YOU KNOW, A S IT I S NOT

R E LA TI O N S : N EGATION, C O N J U N CT I O N , D I S J U NC TION AND I M PLICATION. THERE ARE OTH ERS, BUT

POSSIBLE, FROM THE SOLE FACT THAT YOU A R E H E R E , T H A T Y O U A T L E AST M UST H A V E A SMALL I DEA OF WHAT T H E DI FFICULTY OF COPULATION

THESE CO M E FI RST, AND ALL OTH E R S G O BACK TO TH EM,

ITSELF ENGENDE RS,

I M A I NTA I N THAT THE WAY I N W H I C H O U R POSITIONS OF ARGUMENT A N D FU NCTION ARE WRITTEN ARE

THE oj> O F X A F F I R M S THAT I T I S T R U E -IT I S THE SENSE GIVEN TO TH E T E R M F U NCTION-THAT WHAT RE LATES TO T H E E X E RCISE, IN TH E REGISTER OF THE SEXUAL ACT, COMES FROM TH E PHALLIC

SUCH THAT WHAT I S POSED A S TR UTH CAN ONLY N EGATE BY PASS I N G I N TO T H E REALM OF THE

FALSE PRECISELY WHAT I S UNTENABLE HERE, THIS I S THE SO-CALLED N EGATI VE RELATION, BECA USE AT N O MATTER WHAT LEVEL, LOWER O R H IG H E R , THE STATE M E N T POS E D OF TH E AS F U NCTION TRUTH, OR AS PHALLIC IS AS

FU NCTION AGA I N , I T I S PRECISELY I N AS M U C H AS I T IS A M ATTER OF T H E PHALLIC FU NCTION FROM

WHATEVER S I D E WE SIDE OR FROM

LOOK AT, I M E A N FROM O N E OTHE R , THAT S O M ETH I N G TWO TWO

EITHER

P R E C I S E L Y,

THE

DEVIATION; BECAUSE AFTE R A LL, THE T R U E TRUTH WOU LD B E EXACTLY THAT WHICH DOESN'T WRITE

SOLICITES DI FFER,

U S T O A K S THEN. IS

HOW D O THE

AND T H I S

PREC I SE LY W H A T THE

ITSELF, THAT W H I C H H E R E C A NNOT WRITE ITSELF EXCEPT IN A FORM WHICH CONTESTS T H E PHALLIC FU NCTIO N , IT IS IS THE NOT TRUE THAT OF THE THE PHA LLIC SEXUAL

FOR M U LA S IN TH E D I A G R A M SAY,

I F I T I S PROVED FROM THE FACT THAT TO DOM I N ATE

FUNCTION

FOU N DATION

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R E LATION:

IN

THESE

TWO

L E V E LS

WH I C H

STA Y

F U NCTI ON. A N D SITUATES H E RSELF T H E R E ONLY A S TH E NOT- A L L TO B E S U B J UGATED.

I N D E P E N D E NT A S SUCH. IT IS NOT A MATTER AT A L L OF M A K I N G O N E THE N EGATION OF THE OTH E R B U T ON TH E CONTRARY OF M A K I N G ONE THE OBSTAC L E OF THE OTH E R . AGA I N ST THAT WHICH YOU SEE

WHAT

IS

STRANGE

I S T H E THE

D I S J U NCTION

NO

LONG E R H O L D S : I F YOU R E M E M BER. THE D I S J U NC TION ONLY TAKES ON VALUE BY VI RTU E OF THE

R E D I STRI BUTED: IT I S PRECISELY AN I T T H A T EXI STS A N D A N I T THAT DOES NOT EXI ST: IT IS A WHOLE ON TH E ONE S I DE. AND ALL X. THE DO M A I N OF WHAT IS M A L E D E F I N I N G lTSELF BY THE PHALLIC FU NCTION: THE DI FFERENCE IN TH E PO S I T I O N OF THE

FACT THAT TWO PROPOSITIONS CAN NOT B E FALSE AT TH E S A M E T I M E: LET U S SAY. OF THE STRONGEST OR THE W E A K E ST. I T I S A S S U R E D LY THE STRONGEST R E LA T I O N D I F FI C U LT IN TO THAT STI R IT IS WHAT IS THE MOST TH E R E

A R G U M E NT I N T H E PHA LLIC POSITION O R F U N CTION I S P R E C I S E L Y THAT IT I S NOT EVERY WOMAN W H I C H WRITES ITSELF. FAR FROM TH E ONE ITSELF

TOGETH ER.

BECA USE

M U ST B E A M I N I M U M F O R THERE TO B E D I S J U NCTION. THAT D I S J U NCTION R E N D E R S VALID ONE PROPOSI TION TO B E TRUE. TH E OTH E R FALSE. AND THAT OF COURSE BOTH O F THEM ARE TRUE. I HAVE CALLED T H E O N E TRUE. T H E OTH E R FALSE: I T I S P E RHAPS THAT THE ONE THERE IS IS FALSE. AT AND THE OTH E R TRUE: THREE CASES OF

O P POS E D T O T H E OTH E R A S ITS NEGATION. I T I S ON TH E CONT R A R Y FROM T H E I R SUBSISTA NCE ( H E R E VERY POS I T I V E LY D E N I EDI T H A T TH E R E IS AN X

W H I C H C A N U PHOLD ITSELF IN THIS R E A L M BEYOND TH E PHA LLIC FU NCTION. AND ON TH E OTH E R H A N D . THAT T H E R E I S N O T ONLY O N E . F O R THE S I M PLE R E A SON THAT WOM E N C A N NOT BE CASTRATED FOR TH E BEST OF R E A SONS. THIS I S THE LEVEL OF WHAT IS B LOC K E D P R E C I S E LY FOR US IN THE SEXUAL

THEN

L E A ST

COMBI NATIONS W H ICH TH E DISJU NCTION U PHOLDS.

NOW H E R E W E

HAVE TWO FUNCTIONS WHICH A R E

POSITED A S N O T B E I NG-AS I S A I D A MOMENT AGO THE T R U E TRUTH. SEEM HOPE. TO HOLD THOSE WHICH ARE ABOVE: WE GIVES

R E LATION. WHILE ON THE LEVEL OF THE PHA LLIC FUNCTION. I T I S PRECISELY THE NOT-ALL' OPPOSED TO TH E A LL: T H E R E I N LIES THE POSSIBI LITY OF A R E D I ST R I BUTION ITSELFI F E M A LE. W I LL BE FROM L E FT TO AS R IG H T. M A LE (WHICH AND AS

HERE

S O M E TH I N G

WHICH

N A M E L Y T H A T W E H A V E A R T I C U LATED A

TRUE D I S J U NCTION. HOWEVER. LET US NOTE WHAT TH E R E IS OF THE TO WRITTEN. WHICH IN I A HAVE THE

FOU N D E D

O P P O RT U N I T Y

A R T I C U LA T E

MANNER

B R I N G I N G I T A L I V E FOR YOU: O N ON E S I DE O F THIS 4> T H E N EGATIVE R ELATION DOESN'T AT ALL FORCE U S TO CHOOSE: ON THE CONTRA RY. I A S M U C H A S W E A R E F A R F R O M H A V I NG T O CHOOSE. A N D THAT WE M U ST R E D I ST R I B U T E . T H E TWO SIDES ARE OF X N EG A T E D W H E R E TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION

DOES NOT FUNCTION. TH E R E I S A POS S I B I LITY OF SEXUAL RELATI O N SH I P. WE H A V fi POSITED THAT

TH E R E E X I STS AN X I . . . 1. NOW W H A T DO W E H A V E O N TH E OTH E R S I D E -W H E R E T H E R E DOES N O T E X I ST AN X?

LEGITI M ATELY OPPOS ED TO EACH OTH ER.

A FT E R

N EGATION.

M E NTION E D

CONJU NCTION. IN THE WAY THAT THE MODE IN WHICH TH E

WOULD NOT NEED TO ACCOU NT FOR CONJUCTION I N TH I S C A S E . EXC E PT TO M A K E T H E OBSERVATION. ( I H O P E T H E R E A R E ENOUGH PEOPLE H E R E WHO H A V E VAG U ELLY BROWSE D A BOOK ON L OG I C SO T H A T I NEED NOT I N S I STI THAT THE CONJ U N C T I O N IS

D I F F E R E NT I A T I O N

B E TW E E N

MALE A N D FEMALE.

BETW E E N M A N A N D WOM A N I N TH E S P E A K I NG B E I N G W O U L D B E S U PPORTED. T H E R E IS A D I SCORD. W E W I L L S E E LATE R W H A T TH I S M EA N S . AT T H E LEVEL OF U N I V E RSALS W H I C H ARE NOT S U PPORTED. FROM TH E FACT OF T H E INCONSISTENCY OF O N E A MONG TH E M . WHEN WE DEVIATE FROM THE FUNCTION

B A S E D PR E C I S E L Y O N TH I S : VALUE D E R I V E S ONLY BY V I RTU E OF T H E FACT THAT BOTH PROPOSITIONS CAN B E T R U E .

ITSELF. T H E R E E X I STS O N ONE S I D E A N X WHICH NOWI T H I S I S EXACTLY WHAT I N N O WAY A LLOWS U S TO M A I NTA I N WHAT I S I N THE D I AGRAM. S I N C E YOU C A N S E E THAT FROM RIGHT TO LEFT. TH E R E I S NO I D E NTITY AND P R E C I S E LY THERE WHERE A SATI S F I E S 4> X N EGATED. ON T H E OTH E R S I D E W E HAVE THE I D E F I N I TE FO R M U LATION BY THAT NO X

( WH I C H

HAVE

I L L U ST R A T E D

SAYING

THAT

WOM A N F O R T H E B EST O F R EASONS. CAN NOT B E CASTRATEDI W H I C H I S TO SAY AT T H E LEVEL W H E R E TH E D I S J U NCTION WOU L D HAVE T H E OPPORT U N I TY TO PRODUCE ITSE LF. WE F I N D ONLY O N T H E O N E S I DE. F R O M T H E ONE/ON E AT LEAST W H A T I H A V E P U T FORTH O F T H E OTH E R WE FI N D AT-LEAST-QNE. A N D ON T H E P R EC I S E LY THE NON-

QU ESTION OF WHAT IS PROPOSE D AS TURE E X I STS. B E A R I NG IN MIND

4> TO

X.

U N I V E RS A L S

CAN

CONJOI N . T H E U N IVERSAL O F THE L E FT S I D E DOES NOT OPPOSE ITSELF TO TH E R IGHT SIDE. TO THE

EXTENT THAT I T HAS NO A RTIC U LABLE U N I VERSAL: THAT I S IT I S TH E WOM A N WHO SEES TH E P H A LLIC

VERY

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EXI STENCE. THAT IS T H E R E LATION OF ONE TO ZERO.

C ERTA I N D I G N ITY. SO THAT I WI LL P U B L I S H IT O N E OF THESE DAYS. I F I PUBLISH AGA I N . W H I C H DOESN'T

W H E R E THE S E X U A L R E LATIONS H I P WOULD HAVE NO O P PORTU N I TY TO BE TO ACCOM P L I S H BEYOND ITSELF. BUT

DEPEND ON M E . OTH ERS WOULD H A V E TO P U B L I S H W I T H ME. A S T H I S WOULD ENCO U R A G E M E A LITTLE. A N D IF I PUBLISH. YOU WILL SEE W I T H WHAT C A R E I HAVE LOCATED THE THI NGS WHICH I HAVE A LREADY SAID FOR 3 YEARS. ON A CERTA I N N U M B E R OF

SIMPL Y

HOPED

THE

A BOLITION

THROUGH DIVERSION FROM T H E PHALLIC FUNCTION. WE FIND ONLY ONE OF THE TWO SEXES AS A

PRESENCE.

REGISTE R S A BOUT THE PATE R N A L M ETAPHOR. AND TH E PROPER NAME. F I N A LLY TH E R E WAS EVERY

T H I S I S PREC I SELY WHAT I T BRI NGS C LOSER TO US OF THE EXPE R I E N C E W H E R E WOMA N (THE U N IVER SAL FOR WOM A N DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO ARISE

THI NG N E C ESSARY SO THAT. WITH TH E BIBLE. I GAVE M EA N I N G TO TH I S MYTH I C ELUC U BRATION. BUT I

WON'T 00 T H I S EVER AGAIN.

FROM TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION.) ONLY PARTICI PATES EITHER TO WANT TO E N R A PT U R E M A N . OR M Y GODI SHE I M POSES ON H I M THE S E R V I C E OF THE PHALLIC FU NCTION. OR WORST O F A LL AND T H I S I S PERHAPS THE CASE IN W H I C H IT S H O U L D BE S A I D. SHE GIVES THE PHALLIC FU NCTION BACK TO H I M . BUT THIS THEREI T H I S E OF X SLASHED. (IT DOE S N 'T EXI ST. N OTH I NG THERE E X I STS WOULD AT A BE A C E R TA I N CHANCE LEVEL. FO R WHERE I WON'T 00 TH I S EVER AGA I N BECA U S E A FTER ALL I CAN SATI S F Y M YSELF BY FORM U LATI NG T H I NGS AT THE LEVEL OF LOG I C A L STR U C T U R E . WHICH

CERTAI N LY H A S ITS RIGHTS.

DOESN'T U N I V E RSA LIZE HER. IT IS NOT TH I S WHICH IS THE ROOT OF N O T- A L L : THA N SHE R E V E A LS A

PLEASURE

OTH E R

P H A LL I C :

FE M I N I N E

SEXUA L

JOUISSANCE W H I C H I N N O WAY D E P E N D S ON TH IS. I F WOM A N IS NOT N O T- A L L . IT IS BECAUSE HER

RELATI O N S H I PS) THE HETEROS IN S O M U C H AS IT I S ABSENT. IS NOT AT ALL N E C E S SA R I LY THE

JOU ISSANCE I S D U A L.

PRIVILEOGE O F THE FEM I N I E SEX. I T I S S I M PLY THE I N DICATION OF WHAT I N M Y DIAGRAM H A D I TS LITTLE DESTI N Y O F WHAT I INSCRIBE AS THE S I G N I F I E R OF

T H I S I S IN FACT WHAT TI R E S I A S REVEA LED WHEN H E RETU RNED F R O M B E I NG. BY T H E G R A C E OF ZEUS. THERESE. FOR A W H I LE . WITH O F C O U R S E TH E

TH E

SLASHED

O.

THIS

MEANS

TH E

OTH E R : OTH E R

NO IS

MATTER

WHERE

ON E

TAKES

IT.

THE

A BSENT F R O M THE MOM E N T T H A T I T ' S A Q U E STION OF SE X U A L RE LATION S H I PS.

CONSEQUENCES WE A L L K N OW. A N D WHICH WERE LAI D-OUT. V I S I B LE . TH I S IS P E R H A PS THE CASE

THAT REVEALED TO OEDIPUS W H A T WOULD AWAIT HIM. AS HAVING EXI STED. A S M A N OF TH I S SUPREME PO S S E S S I O N AND WHAT WOULD R E S U LT IN

NATURA L LY. AT THE LEVEL OF WHAT F U NCTIONS. THAT I S TO SAY THE PHA LLIC FU NCTION. TH E R E I S S I M PLY THIS D I SCOU R S E ON ONE THAT AND I HAVE THE J U ST

DECEPTION W H E R E H I S PA RTN E R WOU L D KEEP H I M FROM T H E T R U E N A T U R E O F W H A T S H E OFFERED FOR HIS JOUISSANCE. O R LET U S SAY IT I N ANOTH E R WAY. WHAT WOULD R E S U LT I N D EC E PTION SINCE H I S PARTN E R D E M A N D E D OFFERED H I M . H I M T O R E F U S E WHAT S H E

M E NTION ED.

SIDE

OTH E R .

AUTOMATICA LLY ONE I S NOT I N T H E S A M E POS ITION. ON ON E SIDE IS A U N I V E R S A L. BASED ON A

R E LATIO N N ECESSARY TO TH E PHA LLIC F UNCTION. AND ON THE OT H E R S I DE IS A R E LA T I O N IS OF I

CONTI N G E N C Y STRESS THEN

B EC A U S E

WOM A N

N O T- A LL.

THAT AT THE

H I G H E R L E V E L. THE

TH I S M A N I FESTS A T TH E L E V E L O F T H E MYTH. THAT IN ORDER TO EXIST AS A M A N AT A LEVEL SO AS TO ESCAPE THE P H A L LIC F U N CTION. TH E R E WOULD BE N O OTH ER WOM A N THAN THE ONE WHO OUGHT

RELATI O N SH I P FOUNDED ON THE D I S A PPEARANCE. TH E VAN I S H I NG . THE EXISTENCE O F O N E OF THE PARTN E R S WHO LEAVES THE PLACE E M PTY FOR

THE I N SC R I PTION OF SPEECH. IS NOT AT TH I S LEVEL THE PRIVI LEDGE OF EITH E R SIDE. IT I S J U ST THAT I N ORDER FOR TH E R E TO B E A BASI S FOR SEX. T H E R E

PREC I S E LY NOT TO HAVE EXISTED FOR H I M.

THEREI THE

WHY SHOU LDN'T S H E H A V E EXISTED. WHY OF I N C EST? THIS WO U L D

MUST B E TWO. S U R E LY 0 A N D

M A K E 2 . ON THE

PROH I B ITION THAT I

SYMBOLIC PLANE. I N SO FAR AS W E AGREE THAT EXISTE N C E I S ROOTED I N THE SYMBOL. THIS I S WHAT DEFINES THE SPEAKING BEI NG.

NECESSITATE TRACK OF

GET I N VOLVED OF THE I

ALONG THE WHERE

TH E I

NAME

FATH ER

P R EC I S E LY TREAD

HAVE

SAID

THAT I

WOULD NEVER (BECAUSE IT I S I N FACT SOMETH I NG THAT I S NOT WHAT I T IS. IT IS JUST THAT THIS BEING IS A BSOLUTELY

AGA I N

BECAUSE

REREAD

SOM EONE A S K E D M E TO) HERE AT ST. A N N E IN

M Y F I RST CONFERENCE

1 96 3 AND IT EVEN HAS A

UNGRASPABLE A N D I T I S ALL THE MORE U NG R A S P-

213

A B L E BECA U S E IT I S O B L I G E D TO SU PPORT ITSELF TH ROUGH TH E SYMBOL. IT I S CLEAR THAT A B E I NG. W H I C H COM E S TO BE ONLY TH ROUGH THE SYMBOL. IS PRECISELY THIS B E I NG WI THOUT B E I N G IN WHICH (FROM TH E SOLE FACT THAT YOU SPEAK) YOU ALL PA RTI C I PATE. BUT WHICH ON THE OTH E R HAND.

TH E I R

STRUCTU RE. TO

THERE

M U ST

WELL IS

B E

R E LATION S H I P LANGUAGE.

S O M ETH I N G

WH I C H

NOT

OF

CO U R S E

IT

IS

E A SY T O U N D E R STA N D

THAT

P E O P L E W I L L S L I P G R O U N D ON T H E P RETEXT THAT WHAT SEEMS TO T H E M TO BE T H I S "BEYOND OF

C ERTA I N LY S U P PORTS ITSELF AND I S E X I STENCE SINCE EXISTING IS NOT B E I NG . TH I S I S TO SAY.

LA NGUAGE" C A N ON LY B E MATH E M AT I C A L. T H I S IS BECA U S E IT I S A BUT N U M B E R. I T I S A Q U ESTION OF P E R H A PS IN IT IS NOT ITS STRICTLY TO

EXISTING I S NOT D E P E N D I NG O N THE OTH E R .

Q U A NTITY. YOU A R E ALL H E R E T O SOM E D E G R E E T O EXI ST. B U T YOU ARE N O T PARTIC U L A R LY OF YOU R O W N CALM ABOUT T H E YOU SPEAKING

N U M E R I C ITY

ALL

R E A LI TY

W H I C H L A N G U A G E G I V E S ACCESS. B U T O N L Y T H E C A PA C I TY THROUGH R E A L. TO A NCHOR TH E ZERO AND ONE.

NATURE

B E I N G . OTH E R W I S E

WOU L DN'T COME TO S E E K A S S U RA NC E I N SO M A N Y PSYCHOANA LYTIC E F FORTS.

T H I S TH E REAL

ENTRANCE WHICH

WOU L D B E M A D E CAN BE THE

THE

A LO N E

" B E YO N D H E R E TH E R E IS SOM ETH I N G COM PL.ETE LY ORIG I N A L IN THE FI RST E M ERGENCE OF L.OGIC: TH E DIFFI

OF

LANGUAGE."

N A M E LY

T H E O N LY

DO M A I N I N W H I C H A SYM BOLIC I M POSSI BILITY C A N B E FOR M U LATED.

CUL TY. THE I NDECISION TH A T A R I STOTLE SHOWED CO N C E R N I N G THE ST A T U S OF A PARTI C U L A R TH I S R E LATIO N SH I P. ACCESS I B L E TO LANGUAGE. I F IT IS P R EC I S E LY FOU N D E D ON A SEXUAL NON

PROPOSITION. THESE A R E D I F F I C U L.TI ES TH AT H A V E B E E N STR ESSED EL.SEW H E R E . BUT T H A T I D I D NOT D I SCOVER. FOR THOSE WHO D E S I R E A R E F E R ENCE. I R E F E R YOU TO C A H I E R NO. 1 0 O F THE C A H I E RS POU R
L ' A N A LY S E . T H E A RTICLE BY JACQUES B R U N SCHWIG

R E LATIONSH I P C A N ONLY TH E R E FORE CONFRONT 0 AND

1 ;

TH I S

FACT

WOULD

E A S I LY

FIND

ITS

R E FLECTION I N T H E ELABORATION F R EG E G I V E S O F THE LOGI C A L G E N E S I S O F N U M B E R S .

IS

E XC E L L E N T ;

YOU

WILL

SEE

P E R F ECTLY TH E HAD WITH THE I H A V E S PO K E N OF THAT WHICH C A U S E S D I F F I C U LTY I N TH I S LOGICAL G E N E S I S . N A M E LY T H E G A P . THE GAP O F THE M ATH E M ATICAL TRI A N G L E . BETW E E N

D I F F I C U LTY PARTICULAR.

WHICH

A R I STO T L E

H E PERCEIVED THAT E X I ST E N C E IN NO WAY C A N B E ESTA B L I S H E D TH I S R EASON. OUTS I D E HE OF TH E U N I V E R S A L; FOR

TH I S 0 A N D TH I S 2. A G A P W H I C H DOUBLES TH E I R O P PO S I T I O N O F C O N F R O N T A T I O N . W H A T I NT E R V E N E S I S T H E R E O N L Y BECAUSE IT I S TH E E S S E N C E OF T H E FI RST COUPLE. SO T H A T TH E R E M IGHT BE TH E ESSENCE OF T H E TH I RD A N D SO THAT THE GAP AS SUCH IS A LW A Y S WHICH IS LEFT TO THE TWO; THIS ESSENTIA L BECAUSE IS OF

SITUATES

EXISTENCE

AT THE

L E V E L OF THE PARTI C U LA R. AND TH I S PARTI C U LA R I N N O WAY S U FFICES TO S U P PORT I T EVEN THOUGH HE S E E M S TO S U PPORT IT BY V I RTUE OF TH E USE OF TH E WORD SOME.

SO M ET H I NG

SOMETH I NG M UC H MORE DANGEROUS W H I C H M I G H T ON THE CONTRARY W H AT R E S U LTS FROM THE SO C A L L E O FORM A L I ZATION OF Q U A NTI F I ERS (CA LLED Q U A NTI F I ERS BECAUSE O F A T RACE. L E FT I N THE P H I LOSOPHY OF H I STORY THROUGH THE FACT THAT SOM EONE N A M E D A P U L I A . A NOVELIST OF NOT VERY GOOD TASTE AND A N U N R ESTR A I N E D MYSTIC. AND WHO CREATED THE GOLDE N THAT ASS. IN ONE DAY BE SUBSTITUTED IN THE A N A LY S I S OF T H E

M YT H I C A L SELVES I N

ADVENTURES O F OEDIPUS ( I N THEM NO W A Y D I ST U R B I N G I N AS M U C H A S

T H E Y A D M I R A B LY STRUCTU R E TH E N ECESSITY T H A T THERE BE S O M E W H E R E A T- L E A ST -O N E W H I C H

T R A N S C E N D S W H A T THERE I S OF TH E G R A S P O F T H E PHA LLIC FU NCTION; TH E MYTH OF THE PRIM A L

I NT R O D U C E D

THE

I D EA

A R I STOT L E

FATH E R M E A N S NOT H I N G OTH E R TH A N TH I S ) . T H I S I S S U F F I C I E NT E N O U G H FOR U S TO M A K E U S E O F I T BEYOND T H E FACT THAT W E F I N D I T CON F I R M E D B Y LOG I C A L STRUCTURATION.

E V E R YT H I N G THAT CON C E R N S A LL A N D SOM E WAS OF TH E ORDER OF QUA NTITY. I T WAS NOT AT ALL LI K E TH AT,) I S S I M PLY TWO D I F FE R E N T MODES OF WHAT I M IGHT CA LL. IF YOU W I L L A LLOW M E A LITTLE I M PROVIZATION. THE I N C A R N ATION OF T H E SYM BOL. TH E PASSAGE I NTO ORDI N A R Y LIFE OF THE FACT

ON

THE

OTH E R

H A ND.

THERE

IS

ASSUREDLY

NOTH I N G M O R E D A N G E RO U S T H A N TH E CO N F U S I O N OV E R WHAT THERE IS OF TH E ONE. THE O N E IS

THAT THERE IS ALL A N D SOM E IN ALL LANGUAGES A S S U R E DLY FORC E S US TO POS E THAT ALL

F R E Q U E NTLY EVOK E D BY FREUD A S T H E S IG N I F I E R OF THE ESSENCE OF E ROS: IT A N D THE L I B I DO

LA N G U AGE M U ST H A V E T H E SA M E ROOTS A N D THAT AS ALL LANG UAGES ARE D E E PLY DIFFERENT I N

WOU LD BOTH STRA I N TO M A K E ONE. ACCORD I N G TO

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AN OLD MYTH (NOT AT A L L OF THE M YT H I C A L MODE) ONE OF TH E F U N D A M E NT A L TENSIONS OF THE

OF BEING R E P R E S E NTED. THERE I S I N T H I S ONLY ONE REQU I SITE. I F I MIGHT SAY. A G R ATUITOUS O N E ; NOTH ING I M POSES TH I S ATLEASTONE I F N O T T H E U N IQUE C H A NC E -A N D STILL IT M U ST B E PLA Y E D OUT-QF WHICH SOMETH I NG F U NCTIONS ON TH E

WORLD WOULD STRA I N T O M A K E O N L Y O N E . THIS M YT H IS T R U LY ON SOMETH I NG H O R I ZO N WHICH OF CAN ONLY AND

F U NCTION

THE

DELIR I U M

W H I C H . STRICTLY S P E A K I NG. H A S NOTH I N G TO DO WITH A N YTH I NG AT ALL W H I C H W E ENCOU NTER IN EXPERI ENCE. IF T H E R E I S A N YTH I NG V E R Y OVERT IN THE RE LATIONS H I P BETWEEN SEXES. THAT

OTHER S I D E BUT ONLY AS AN I D E A L POINT. AS T H E POSSIBI LITY F O R ALL M E N T O ATTA I N IT THROUGH IDENTIFICATION.

A N A LYSIS NOT ONLY A RT I C ULATES B U T C A N B E PUT I N TO PLAY I N ALL D I R ECTIONS AND SENSES. H E R E IS SOM E T H I N G WHICH THIS CAUSES IS D I F F I C U LTY IN

THERE IS IN T H I S A LOGICAL NECE SSITY WHICH I S I M POSED ON LY O N THE LEVEL O F THE WAGER. B U T NOTICE O N THE OTH E R H A N D W H A T RESU LTS FROM IT CONC E R N I N G T H E M A L E U N I VERSAL; THUS. T H I S ATLEASTONE. ON W H I C H THE MYTH ICAL N A M E O F THE FATH E R I S S U STA I N E D. I S I N D I S PENSABLE.

R E LATI O N S H I PS .

P R E C I S ELY

R E LATION

S H I PS BETWE E N WOME N ; NOTH I N G COULD RESEM BLE THE SPONTA N EITY O F T H E S E R E LATIONSHI PS. WHICH TION E D IS NOW PRECISELY AN TH E H O R I ZO N BASED ON I MEN SOME

EARLIER.

A N I M A LIC

IT I S HERE THAT I ADVANCE A FLASH O F WHAT IS M I SSING FROM T H E FUNCTION. FROM THE NOTION O F SPECIES A N D O F CLASS. AND CONSEQUE NTLY I T I S NO ACCI DENT THAT T H I S ENTI RE DIALECTIC WAS LEFT OUT OF A R I STOTLE'S FORMS.

A N I M A L MYTH; I N N O WAY I S EROS A T E N D E NCY O F TH E ONE. ACCO R D I N G TO THIS FU NCTION. ANY

ARTICU LATION M A K ES C L E A R T H A T T H E R E A R E TWO LEVELS OF SECRECY IN WHICH T H E OPPOSITION

BETWEEN THE SEXES I S FOU N D E D ONLY IN D I SCORD A N D ONLY I N A S M UC H AS T H E Y CAN IN NO WAY BE I N STITUTED AS U N I VE R S A L . AT THE L E V E L OF I N FACT WHERE DOES T H I S E OF X FUNCTION.T H I S "TH ERE E X I STS ATLEAST-ONE" W H I C H I S NOT T H E SLAVE OF THE PHAL LIC FUNCTION? T H I S I S O N L Y A REQUISITE I W I L L SAY. OF A HOPELESS TYPE. FROM THE POINT OF IS VIEW OF TH I S SOMETH I NG WHICH

EXISTENCE ON T H E CONTRARY. I S PR E C I SE LY AN OPPOSITION CON S I ST I N G IN T H E C A N C ELLATION.

THE E M PTYING OF ONE O F T H E FUNCTIONS A S BEING THAT OF T H E OTH E R . REVEALED BY T H E POSSIBI LITY OF AN ARTICULATION OF LA NGUAGE. T H I S I S WHAT S E E M S TO M E ESSENTI A L TO B R I N G TO LIGHT.

ITSELF

NOT

EVEN

S U STA I N E D

TH ROUG H

UN IVERSAL D E F I N ITON.

NOTICE THAT A MOMENT AGO IN S P E A K I N G TO YOU S U C C E S S I V E L Y A BOUT N EG A T I O N . CON J U NCTION AND DISJ U NCTION. WAS I HAD P U S H E D TO T H E LIMIT

BUT ON

THE

OTH E R

H A ND. OBSERVE THAT WITH

RES PECT TO THE MALE U N I VERSAL. TO TH E A OF X. TO THE <I> OF X. EVERY M A LE IS A SLAVE TO T H E PHA LLIC FUNCTION. THIS ATLEAST ONE WHICH

WHAT THERE THAT. ONLY HERE

OF

I M P LICATION.

I T I S CLEAR F U NCTION

AGA I N . THE

I M PLICATION TWO

CAN

BETW E E N

LEVELS.

THAT O F THE

FUNCTIONS T O ESCAPE. WHAT DOES TH I S M E A N ? I WILL SAY THAT IT I S -THE EXCEPTION, IT I S THE PATH WHEREIN I S CON F I R M E D BY US THE PROVERB W H I C H SAYS, WITHOUT K NOWI NG W H A T IT SAYS, T H A T T H E

PHALLIC F U NCTION AND THAT W H I C H D I V E RTS IT.

NOW

NOTH I NG OF WHAT

IS

DISJU NCTION ON THE

EXCEPTION PROVES TH E RU LE, I S S U PPORTED B Y U S . IT I S EXCEPTIONAL T H A T I T IS O N L Y W I T H T H E ANALYTIC A L D I SCOURSE THAT A U N I VERSAL C A N FIND I N E X I STENCE ITS VERITABLE FOUN DATION I N TH E EXCEPTION, W H IC H ASSUREDLY ALLOWS U S I N ANY CASE TO D I STI N G U I S H THE U N I VERSAL TH U S ESTABLI S H E D RENDERED FROM A N Y U S E THAT H A S B E E N B Y TH E P H I LO S O P H I C A L

LOW E R LEVEL. ON THE LEVEL OF THE I N S U FFICIEN CY O F U N I VERSAL SPEC I F ICATION. I M PL I E S THAT IF AND ONLY IS IF TH E SYNCOPATION ON THE OF E X I STENCE LEVEL ON IS

WHICH

PRODUCED

HIGHER D I SCORD

ACTUA LLY

PRODUC E D.

THEN

TH E

LOWE R LEVEL IS REQU I R E D A N D VICE VE RSA.

COMMON

ON

THE

OTH E R

H AND. THE

IT

IS

ONCE

AGAIN OF

TH E TH E

TRADITION O F T H E SO-CA LLED U N I VERSAL,

F U N CT I O N I N G

OF

R E LA T I O N S H I P

H I G H E R LEVEL TO THE LOWE R LEVEL. I N O N E WAY WHICH I S DIST I NCT A N D SEPARATED. T H E R E MUST EXIST ATLEAST-ONEMAN WHICH I S THE ONE THAT SEEMS T R A N S M I TT E D ON THE LEVEL OF THIS

BUT IT I S AN EXTRAORDINARY TH I NG THAT I FI N D MYSELF, I N TH I S WAY, O N T H E PATH OF A QUEST A N D BECA USE, FROM A N A N C I E NT FORMATION (I DON'T NOT AT A LL NOT K NOW C H I NESE), I ASKED ONE OF MY DEAR EST (I F R I E NDS TO RECALL TO M E H A D) K E PT MORE O R LESS WHAT AS A

FEM I N I N E SPECI F I E D BY B E I N G NOTALL, A DUALITY. THE ONLY POINT IN WHICH D U A LITY H A S A CHANCE

EVIDENTLY

217

TRA C E . BUT WHAT I H A D TO CONFI RM FOR MYSELF BY SOM EON E FOR WHOM C H I N E S E I S THE MATE R N A L LA NGUAGE. I T I S ASS U R EDLY VERY STRANGE THAT IN C H I N E SE. THE D E L I M I TATION OF ALL. IF I MIGHT EXPRESS MORE MYSELF THUS.

C I ENTLY SHOWS THAT H E R R E LATION S H I P TO THE P H A L L I C F U NCTION IS QU ITE ACTI V E .

I N A N Y C A S E . WOM A N I S NO M O R E I NS U R E D I N H E R U N I V E RSA L ESSENCE THAN M A N FOR T H E S I M PL E R E A SON T H A T T H E CONTRA R Y OF T H E L I M IT. I S T H A T TH E R E I S NONE. T H E R E I S NO EXCEPTION. THE FACT THAT TH E R E IS NO E XC E PT I O N I N SU R E S THE

ANCIENT

A R T I C U LATION

NOU N C E D AS (TC H I A U :

ONE

MIGHT

SAY

FOR E X A

I(
'l

IS

QUESTION OF THE WHICH IS P RO

E : ALL

TH E M S E LVES: (MEl GO J E N N T E l MEl I N S I STS ON TH E FACT THAT IT IS IN FACT TH E R E . AND IF YOU DOUBT IT. TH E N U M E R I C A L (GOI SHOWS YOU V E RY WELL

.& 15

ORGE

U N I V E R S A L A L R E A D Y S O POO R L Y E S TA B L I S H E D E I TH E R F O R T H E R E A SON T H A T I T I S D I SCORDANT OR THAT I T DOESN'T ASSURE T H E U N I V E RS A L OF WOM A N . W I TH O U T EXCEPTION. FAR FROM GIVING

THAT ONE COU NTS BUT THAT THIS DOES NOT M A K E TH E M NOT-ALL A N D TO TH I S I S A D D E D ( T E l W H I C H M E A N S : WITHOUT E XC E PTION.

SOM E-ALL GIVES

M O R E CON S I STENCY. TH I S NATURA LLY LESS C O N S I ST E N C Y TO W H AT IS

STI L L

D E F I N E D A S NOT- A L L. A S ESSENTI A L LY DUAL.

YOU COU LD OBJ ECT T H A T WHAT WE D I SCOVER IN WHAT I S ARTI C U LATED A S R E LATIONS H I P OF SIGN TO E X I STENCE THROUGH R E S P ECT OF A U N I V E RSAL STATUS. TA K E S ITS F I G U R E AS AN EXCEPTION.

IF

ALL

OF

THIS

STA Y S

WITH

YOU

AS

PROP. CAN

NECESSARY

FOR

E V E RYTH I N G

THAT

WE

A TTE M PT TO U S E A S A STEPLA D D E R . THEN W E M UST S E R IOUSLY QU ESTION THE I R R U PT I O N OF T HE

STR A N G E ST TH I NG: T H E FUNCTION O F TH E ONE. BUT ALSO IT E X I STS ONLY A S CO R R E LATION OF. I WOND E R A LOT A BOUT A N I M A L M E NTA L I TY WHICH A FT E R A LL WOU LD ONLY BE U S E F U L TO M E A S A M IRROR R E FERENCE. AS A M I R RO R WH ICH. AS

WHAT I CALLED A MOM ENT AGO. THE ( E M PTI NESS) OF T H E OTHER: I F IN V I R T U E W E HAVE PROGRESSED IN THE LOGIC OF CLASSES. I T IS THAT WE HAVE

C R E ATED A LOG IC OF S E TS. THAT THE DI FFERENCE BETW E E N A CLASS AND A S E T IS THAT WHEN THE CLASS I S E M PTY. TH E R E IS STI LL TH I S ELEMENT OF TH E E M PTY S ET. IT IS IN T H I S THAT ONCE MORE. P R OG R E S S TOW A R D S

B E F O R E A L L M I R RORS. I RAVE. TH E R E I S SOM ETH I N G W H I C H WE M I G H T ASK O U R S E L V E S : F O R T H E A N I M AL. I S T H E R E T H E ONE7

MATH E M A TICS LOGI C .

HAS

MADE

JACQUES LAC A N

TRANSLATED BY DENISE GREEN

TH E X I N T H E RIGHT PART OF T H E D I A G R A M I M PL I E S THAT T H E R E I S A U N I LATERA L I TY OF THE E X I STEN TIAL FUNCTION FOR T H E OTH E R PA RTN E R . THAT IS. THAT TH E R E ARE NO E XC E PT I O N S . TH E R E IS I

WOULD L I K E TO THAN K THOMAS GORA. SUZA N N E AND JOHN RAJ C H M A N FOR TH E I R KIND

G U E RLAC

SOM ETH I NG THAT I S N O LONGE R I N SYMMETRY WITH THE REQU I R E M ENT OF THE AT-LEAST-ONE THAT A MOM E N T ANOTH E R AGO I CALLED H O P E LESS. WHICH THERE IN IS

ASSISTANCE I N T H E TRANSLAnO N OF T H I S TEXT.

THIS

REFERS

TO

THE

THEORY

OF

FO U R

REQU I R E M ENT

R E S I DES

THE

D I SCO U R S E S O F T H E A N A LYST. T H E H Y STE RIC. THE U N I V E R S I TY AND THE M A ST E R CF.

FACT THAT I N THE END. THE M A SCULI N E U N I VERSAL CAN ONLY GET I TS DUE WITH T H E I N SURANCE THAT TH E R E E X I STS NO WOM A N WHO C A N BE CASTRATED. TH I S IS FOR THAT REASONS THE WHICH A PPEA R EVIDENT. SUFFI-

RADIOPHON I E I N S C I LICET 2/3.

NOTE: O N E OF LACAN'S FOR M U LAS IS WOMAN I S-NOT- E V E R YTHI NG. NOT- A L L R E F E R S TO THIS.

EXC E PT

B E H AV I O R

OF WOMAN

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JOUISSANCP A N D DIVISION
"MOMMY, W H E N , A N D H O W , WAS I LEFT B R E A ST1" B U R N E D ON M Y AGA I N , ONLY TWO POSSI BLE SOLUTI ONS ARE OPEN TO T H E DAUGHTER: IN THE MORE D E S I REABLE CASE, I F THE NAM E-OF-THE- FATHER I S FU NCTIONI NG, S H E "I WAS B U RN E D , TOO, ON THE RIGHT SIDE, A LITTLE HIGHER U P, WHEN I WAS YOU R AGE." W I L L DESPERATELY I D E N TIFY W I TH T H E PHALLUS I N A FRA NTIC M A T E R N A L POSITION OR I N A DIZZYI N G MASCARAD E-T H E VIA R E G I A OF THE H YSTER I C ; I N T H E LESS DESIRABLE C A S E , I F A F U N DA M E NTA L DEFICI ENCY OF T H E PATE R N A L FU NCTION IS A D D E D WHAT H A PP E N S IN THIS BRIEF EXC H A N G E ? A T O THE ABSENCE OF THE MOTH ER'S RECOGNITION, TH ERE I S REASON TO F E A R A PSYC HOTIC BREAK DOWN.

QU ESTION IS A S K E D A N D ITS A N S W E R SETS UP A MI RROR, G I V I N G R I S E TO A N I N VESTIGATION OF A MOT H E R' S M I R ROR). GAZE U PON HER DA U G H T E R AND UN THE

2. THE MOTH E R

H E A R S THE

ECHO

AND

REMAINS

F R O M THIS S C E N E

M A N Y OTH ERS

WITH I N T H A T ZON E W H I C H I S COM PLETELY S H A K E N BY THOSE W A V E S F R O M WHICH S H E HAS NEVER

COLLECTED I N A N A LYTIC PRACTICE, IT WOULD SEEM THAT WHAT THE DAUGHTER SAYS A BOUT HER

BEEN ABLE T O E S C A P E , S H E L U R E S H E R DAUGHTER INTO THE ZON E AND THE DAUGHTE R LOSES H E R

BODY-THAT I S , A BOUT THAT, I N T H E M I R ROR, W H I C H I S C A P A B L E O F G I V I N G H E R I D ENTITY-EVOKES, I N THE MOTH ER, A N I D E NTICAL SCENE THAT S H E H A S EXPERI ENCED H E RSELF. W H A T DOES S H E D O ? W E C A N POI N T OUT TH R E E TYPES OF R E S PONSE.

WAY THERE. FROM T H E N O N , T H E R E CAN O N L Y BE MORE OF THE S A M E OLD REFRAIN ,

3. THE MOT H E R R E D I SCOVERS H E R OWN QUESTION IN HER D A U G H T E R'S Q U ESTI O N - I N E V I T A B LY, IT

SEEMS; B UT SHE I SOLATES IT A N D, I N THAT WAY, ALLOWS HER DAUGHTER TO CONTI N U E TO SPEAK 1 . T H E MOTH E R , U PON H E A R I NG T H E E C H O OF H E R DAUGHTER'S SPEECH, S I LENCES H E R O W N C H I LD HOOD QUESTION; "THAT" r'CA"] M U ST N E V E R SPEAK THIS TH I R D POSS I B I LITY APPEARS O N LY AS A WAY FOR HERSELF A LO N E.

219

A LO N G WH I C H

THE IS

PATH

OF

A C C E PTING C A ST R A T I O N , IT SEEMS, OF AS THE NORMAL OEDIPUS

D I SCOU RSE, OF T H E D E S I R E OF TH E OTHE R . I S THE EROTOG E N IC PRECISION BODY, AS BY DEFINED THE USE BY OF F R E U D. THE THE

AS AT

UT O P I C , THE

S E X U A L I TY

PASSING

ADDED

TERM

COMPLEX, (CF. F R E U D. )

" WOMA N'S-BODY" LIES. FOR U S . I N T H E FACT THAT THE LITTLE G I R L. I N HER FI RST R E LATION S H I P WITH

WE

SHALL

RETURN

TO

THIS AND

RATHER DEAL

ROUGH IT I N

THE MOTH E R WHO OCCUPIES T H E PLACE OF THE OTH E R , E NCOU NTERS THE SAM E-BODY AS HER OWN.

CLINICAL

OUTL I N E

LATE R

WITH

T E R M S O F J O U I SSANCE. LET US R E PEAT THAT THE BODY OF THE LITTLE G I RL. LIKE THAT OF THE THE LITTLE BOY. IS "WH I P P E D BY

LANGUAGE." THESE THREE TO SITUATIONS IN TH E ARE ROOT E D , STA G E , IT

SIGNIFIER

"WO M A N'S-BODY"

ATTEM PTS T O POINT TO T H E RELATION WITH T H E SAM E-BODY WITH WHICH THE L I TT L E IN VIEW GIRL OF IS

APPEARS

US,

M I RROR

THAT

STAG E W H I C H STRUCT U R E S THE E G O A N D I S THE FO U N D A T I O N OF WHAT W I LL LATER BECO M E

N E C E S SA R I LY

CONFRONTED.

TH I S

NOTION O F T H E S A M E-BODY, O N E COULD PROBABLY EXPLORE T H E Q U ESTION OF THE P E R M A N E N C E OF T H E L I B I D I N A L ATTA C H M E NT TO THE MOTH ER, THE P U ZZ L I N G I NT E NSITY OF WHICH FREUD NEVER

ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC, (WHEN THE C H I LO C A N COUNT: 1 , 2 .

. .

: 3, I N S C R I B E D A T T H E ORIG I N , M A K E S

THIS OPE RATION POS S I B LE).

C E A S E D T O E M PHASIZE. '

FOR THE C H I LO TO B E A B L E TO DISCOV E R ITSELF I N ITS OWN IMAGE IT IN M UST B E OTH E R SU PPORTED THE BY ITS

WE

NOW PROPOSE TO A N ALYZE

WHAT

WE S H A L L

MOTH E R'S GAZE, M UST

WORDS,

MOTH E R

C A L L T H E M I R RO R SC E N E.

ACCEPT T H E FROM IS,

FACT THAT S H E I S S E E N A S C H I LO AND S E E I NG TH E

SEPARATE C H I LD:

THE

THAT

SHE

M U ST ACQU I ESC E I N BEING M I RROR SC E N E

S U B J ECT TO SYM BOLIC LAW.

DENIAL

OF

SYM BOLIC

LAW

WO U L D

ANNUL

TH E

WE C A L L I T A SC E N E B E C A U S E WE H A V E FOU N D THAT. L I K E T H E P R I M A L SC E N E , IT I S CONSTR UCTE D OVER A N D AGA I N D I SCOURSE OF IN D I FF E R E N T STAGES OF T H E PA RTICULA R LY OF

STRUCTU R I N G EF FECT OF THE M I R ROR.

A N A LY S A N DS,

WOM E N A N A LY S A N DS. TRACING BACK THE TH REA D TO TH I S EXPER I E NC E , W H I C H I S FUNDA M E NTAL FOR ALL C H I LD R E N . T H E R E IS ADDED. IN THE CASE OF T H E LITTLE G I RL, A SECOND OPERATION THROUGH WHICH T H E DESTI N Y OF "WOMA N'S-BODY" I S PLAY E D O U T . I N T H I S S E C O N D STAGE. THE MOTH E R EITH E R DOE S O R DOES N O T R EC OG N I ZE H E R DAUGHTE R'S I MAGE, S I M U LT A N EO U S L Y S E PA RATE FROM TH E OF T H E I R H I STORI ES, THEY NEVER FA I L TO RUN

AGROU N D AT T H A T MOM E NT W H E N T H E Y A R E T O B E S E E N , R E C OG N I Z E D , NOT ONLY I N T H E G A Z E OF M E N , BUT I N T H A T OF ALL WOM E N , (SI STERS, DAUGHTERS, F R I E N DS-PLA C E D TH E R E FOR ONE WOM A N ) . IT I S I N TH I S U N E N D I NG MOV E M E N T OF RETURN TO THE

MOORING PLACE OF A N E V A N ESCENT EGO THAT W E M A Y A PP ROACH THE Q U E STION OF W H A T I S C A L L E D FE M I N I N E JOUISSANCE.

MOTH ER'S I M AGE BUT CONTI N U A LLY R E S E M B L I N G IT. AS G E N N I E LEMOI N E H A S I N S I STED. THIS OPERA TION I S A LWAYS A LW A Y S EXTENT. M O R E OR LESS A REMAI NS. THE TO A FAILURE: THE GREATER OR

WO M A N LESSER

LET

US

POINT

OUT

THE

C H A RACTER I ST I C S

M I R ROR'S C A PTIVE.

THESE

PA RTIC U LA R TO T H I S S C E N E W H E N I T I S E X P E R I E N C E D BY MOTHE R A N D DA UGHTER.

M O M E NTS OF T H E M I RROR STAGE A PPEAR AT T H E C E NT E R OF ANY ATTE M PT T O DEAL WITH THE

Q U ESTION

OF

WOM A N , MAY

W H ATEVER

THE

CHANCE

THE SCENE-MOTH E R'< + DAUGHTERA I N FRONT OF TH E M I R ROR-CA N N OT FAIL TO BRING FORTH THE SC ENE-MOTH E RB + D A U G HTER B IN FRONT OF TH E S A M E M I R ROR. A N D SO FORTH AD I N FINITU M .

C I R C U MSTA N C E S

B E THAT ACCOMPANY T H E

F A C T OF R E P R E S E NTATION BY A WOM AN'S-BODY.

"WOMA N'S-BODY," OF COURSE, DOES NOT REFER TO THE BI OLOGIC A L BODY, BUT RATH E R TO THE BODY THAT IS TRAC E D , THIS CUT OUT AND IN A N I MATED THE FIELD BY OF MOTH E R'< ONCE A GA I N BECOM E S DAUGHTE RB B Y

T H E I N T E R M E D I A R Y O F T H E I MAGE OF DAUGHTER'< , W H I C H THE LATTER TH E N RECOVERS.

DRIVES.

BODY,

LOCATED

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AT THAT MOMENT W H E N T H E "ORTHOPE DIC" I MAGE OF TH E C H I LD'S BODY A S SEPA RATE FROM TH AT OF THE MOTHER I S CONSTITUTED. THE C H I LD S E E KS SUPPORT IN T H E MOT H E R'S GAZE. WHAT WE HAVE J U ST SKETC H E D OUT I N DICATES TH AT SHE R U N S THE RISK OF F I N D I N G A GAZE A L R EADY A BSORBED BY A NOTHER M I RROR G A M E . I DENTITY OF BODIES FAVORS THE VACI LLATION OF I MAGES. TH E SAME BODY U N DERLI N ES T H E FRAGI LITY OF SEPARATION AT THE I M AG I N A RY DEC E PTIVE LEVEL I M AG E : AND IN BLURS THIS

MOTH E R

C A N NOT

BEAR IF

THE

GAZE

OF

HER

DAUGHTER;

IT IS AS

SHE

WERE

PARA LYZED.

FROZEN BY THE FATE FUL I M AGE. ONE CAN SU PPOSE TH AT THIS A FFLICTED GAZE FADES. BLIGHTS A N D DENIES THE DAUGHTER'S BODY. THE MOTH ER. W H O CAN NOT B R I NG H E RSELF T O S A Y : "YOU ARE THAT." CONTENTS H E R SELF WITH A PA I N E D AND R E C R I M I NATORY: "THAT I S ALL Y O U A R E." SHOULD T H I S NOT BE SEEN A S ONE SOURCE OF THE R A VAGES THAT G E N E RA LLY M A R K MOTH ER-DAUGHTER R E LATION SHI PS?

ALREADY

THIS

SPIRAL OF

ECHOES AND R E F LECTIONS THE LITTLE GIRL CAN FIND NO STA B L E POI NT OF REFERENCE FOR TH E FORCE OF TH I S F U N DA M ENTA L EXPERI E NCE. AS FAR AS THE E A R L I EST CONSTITUTION O F THE EGO IS CONCERNED. CAN BE FELT ONLY I F THE

IDENTI FICATION. AT T H A T M O M E N T W H I C H SHOULD BE FORMATI V E FOR THE LITTLE G I RL. THE MOTH E R NOT ONLY OCC U P I E S HER OWN POSITION OF

MOTH ER DOES NOT DENY CASTRATION. I F THIS IS NOT THE CASE. WITH THE M I RROR I M AGE R E M I N DI N G HER THAT WOM A N ' S-BODY IS. F I R ST OF A L L. A

MOTH ER. B U T PARTI A LLY U S U RPS H E R D A UGHTER'S POSITION AS W E LL. P E R H A PS THE PR E-OE D I PA L

ATTACH MENT T O THE MOTH E R R E M A I N S S O VERY STRONG BEC A U S E T H E PLACES OF T H E MOTH E R

CASTRATED BODY. THE MOTH ER. IN ORDER TO BACK U P THE FANTASY THAT HER C H I LD I S A SU BSTITUTE MAKING U P FOR CASTRATION. SHE WI LL ASSIGN H E R DAUGHTER THE FATE OF A WOULD- B E BOY.

A N D OF T H E D A U G H T E R H A V E YET T O B E DEFIN ED. THERE IS SOMETH I N G IN THE NOT R E P RESSED. O R D E R. N OT THAT

I NSCRIBED

S I G N I FY I N G

R E E M E RG E S G E N E R A T I O N A FT E R G E N E R A T I O N . PASSING FROM U N E N D I NG ON E GAZE OF TO A N OTH E R IS IN AN

THE

VISION

OF T H E

C A ST R A T E D

BODY.

WHICH

REACTIVATES PENIS ENVY I N T H E M OTH E R. I S NOT ENOUGH. HOWEVER. TO EXPLA I N H E R D I STRAUGHT. HA LF-HOR R I F I ED. HA LF-FASC I NATED GAZE.

MOV E M E N T

EXCHANGE.

IT T H E

MOTH E R O R TH E DAUGHTER W H O I S T H E AGENT O F TH I S M I R ROR E X P E R I E N C E? TH E MOTH E R PARTIA LLY TAKES THE PLACE OF THE DAUGHTER A N D. BY THIS DOUBLI NG. TA K E S AWAY FROM TH E DAUGHTER THE P OS S I B I L I T Y OF FINDING HER PLACE IN THE

SYMBOLIC ORDER. T H E R E I S A C A PTURE I N THE M I RROR. ADDED TO T H I S OF PLACES EXCHANGE IS TH E A N D I NTER G I R L'S

TH E TH I NG '

DEPENDENCE

LITTLE

TO BE A MOTH ER IS I N DEED TO BE C A STRATED. BUT IT IS ALSO. BY VIRTUE OF NOT HAVING THE PHALLUS. TO ASSU M E THE VALUE OF THE P H A LLUS. THAT IS. TO OCCUpy THE PLACE OF THE T H I NG. T H E LOST OBJ ECT. DAS DING. THAT WHICH IS OUTS I D E OF T H E SIGN IFI ED-I N THE SYMBOLIC ORDE R. I T IS CA LLED TH E PHALLUS.

EXTR E M E "JU B I LATION"

U PO N D I SCOV E R I N G THAT

S H E I S LIKE HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT. WE SHALL HYPOTH ESIZE NOT ONLY THAT "SEPA RATION" OF

I MAGES I S ON LY PARTIA LLY COMPLETED. BUT THAT. MOREOVER. N A RC I S S I ST I C AND OBJECT CATH EXIS ARE CONFUSED WITH EACH OTH ER.2A lie B

SEEING H E R SON IN TH E M I R ROR. THE MOTH ER CAN BELIEVE I N M I RACLES. S I N C E THE EQUATION BABY PENIS. REDUCE D TO AN
=

THE

LIVING

BEING

WHO

IS

SUBJECT TO SEXUAL A REAL LOSS. (TH E

R E PROD U C T I O N PLACENTA

SUFFERS

I M AG I N A RY FU NCTION I N

INDEED

R E P R E S E N T S T H A T P A RT .

WHICH O N E OBJ ECT R E PLACES A NOTH E R O F EQUAL VALUE. I S I N FULL FORCE. M A S K I N G C A STRATION.

EQUAL T O H I MSELF. WHICH T H E I N DI V I D U A L LOSES AT B I RTH.1 THE PHALLUS OCC U P I E S THE FOREVER EM PTY PLACE OF THIS REAL LOSS. TRANSPOSED

WHEN.

CON F R O N T E D SHE

WITH

THE

I M A G E OF H E R

INTO THE REGISTER OF THE S IG N I F I E R.

DAUGHTER.

D I SC O V E R S THAT OTH E R CAS THE I M M A T U R I TY OF T H E IT FROM I N FANT H U M A N L I M ITS AS B E I NG OF ITS

TRATED. SPLIT BODY. SENDING BACK TO H E R THE I MAGE OF H E R OWN BODY. OF TH E SAM E-BODY. THE MOTH E R'S WOU N D IS R EOP E N E D. SHE RETRACES

KE EPS BODY.

PERCEIVING TH E THE M OT H E R .

H ENCE.

WHO.

LACA N

THE PATH O F T H E S Y M BOLIC EQUATION. AND P E N I S ENVY. WHICH HAS N EV E R BEEN L E FT B E H I N D .

DESCRIBES H E R. I S T H E BEARER O F THAT. L I K E THE PLACENTA. WHICH T H E I N FANT CLA I M S AS ITS OWN. IN OTH E R WORDS. THE B R E A ST. B Y SATI S F Y I N G

REAPPEARS W I T H I T S F U L L L I B I N A L INTENSITY. THE

22 1

P R I MO R I D A L I M POSS I B L E

N E E DS. FUSION.

CR EATES VERY

TH E

I LLUSION

OF

T H E N EC E S S A R Y F I L L I N G UP OF THE HOLE OF T H E R E A L FOR TH I S R E ASON, I N D I SCOURSE "TH E T H I N G RESOLVES I T S E L F I NTO A FFA I R S."

Q U I C KLY.

H OW E V E R .

BECAUSE T H E MOTH E R D E S I R ES A N D I S S U BJ ECT TO THE LAW OF THE S I G NI F I ER. H E R C A R I NG FOR THE CH I L D WILL MARK ITS BODY. THE DESI R E

THUS, T H E MOTH E R OCCUPIES THE PLACE O F THE T H ING. TO B E A MOTH E R I S THE FUTU R E ASSIGN E D TO ALL WOM E N IN THE TH I R D ST A G E OF THE

HOLDING

HER

ELSEWH ERE

H O L LOWS O U T T H E

D I F FE R E N C E BETW E E N T H E C H I LD'S N E E D A N D ITS D E M A N D . AT THE S A M E T I M E . THE SELF AND THE

O E D I P U S C O M P L EX.

W E A L L "FORGET." HOWEVER.

NOT-S ELF ARE CONSTITUTED. THE NOT-SE L F B E I N G THAT W H I C H B R I NGS U N PLEASURE. I N R E F E R E N C E TO THIS. ONE S C I E N TI FIC M A Y C O N S U L T THE PROJECT F O R A WHERE FREUD DEFINES

THAT T H E M OT H E R I S NOT THE OTHE R . THAT S H E O N LY HOLDS I T S PLACE.

PSYCHO LOGY.

WHAT H E M E A N S BY THE N E B E N M E N SCH COM PLEX4 : THE FIRST OBJECT SPLITS I NTO TWO PARTS. ONE OF T H E M R E M A I N S R A DICA LLY FOR E I G N . DAS D I N G . THE S U BJECT W I LL A LWAYS TRY TO ASSI M I LATE THE

MOTH E R HOOD I S ONLY A F U NCTION. BUT EVERYO N E T E N DS T O M A K E OF IT T H E V E R Y B E I N G OF WOM A N . AT B I RT H . T H E C H I LD DOES NOT LOSE I T S MOTH E R : I T LOSES T H E PLACE NTA. WHAT IT W I LL B E S E E K I NG. T H E R E FO R E . I S NOT ITS MOTH ER. BUT RATH E R. WHAT S H E R E P R E S E N TS .

OTH E R PART BY M E A N S OF I D E NTI FICATION: IT C A N BE CON SIDE RED. FROM T H E VERY F I RST MONTHS

O N . AS THE BEGI N N I NGS OF THE BODY ITSELF. I N TH I S P R I M A L EXPE R I E NCE O F THE ORGA N I ZATION OF PSYC H IC R E A LITY. ONE ATTEM PTS TO R E D I SCOV E R ON THE OUTS I D E AS AN OBJECT THAT ONCE WAS IN BECAUSE SHE IS THE F I RST L O V E OBJ ECT, T H E MOTH E R P A S S E S FROM H E R S Y M BOLIC F U N CTION I N TO A N I M AG I N A RY R E G I STER: THE TEM PTATION I S A LWYAS GREAT F O R H E R T O F I L L THE E M PTY SPACE OF THE T H I NG. TO COLO N IZE THE FIELD OF THE

EXPERIENCED ORDER TO

B E LON G I N G T O THE THAT TH E OBJ ECT

I N S I D E. IS

PROVE

STI LL

PRES ENT IN R E A LI TY.

R E A L. T H E LESS SHE ACCEPTS HER CASTRATION. THE MORE SHE W I L L SET H E RSELF U P TO SHORT

C I RC U I T THE PATH OF D E S I RE. AN A LWAYS P R E S E N T TH E TH I N G DOES NOT E X I ST. IT D I ST I N G U I S H E S OBJECT. S H E W I L L P R E V E N T TH E R E P R E S ENTATION O F A M I SS I N G O B JECT THAT COULD FOU N D D E S I R E . ITSELF B Y ITS A BSENCE. IT I S TH E R E FORE WITH I N TH E REGISTER O F A DECOY O R L U R E THAT THE I N THIS P E R SPECTI VE. W I TH T H E MOTH E R PROFITING FROM BECAUSE THE C H I LD IS CAST I NTO THE R E A L M OF D E M A ND. ITS BODY I S NOT M E R E LY A BIOLOGICAL BODY. THE MOTH ER'S DESI R E TRACES EROTOG ENIC ZON ES FROM WHICH DRIVE W I LL S P R I N G FORTH. T H E I M AG E THAT T H E M I R ROR S E N DS BACK TO A WOMA N W H E N S H E IS C A R RY I N G H E R C H I LD IS NOT O N LY THE I MA G E O F HER OWN BODY, BUT A LSO THAT OF HER OWN M OT H E R . AT THAT I N STANT. SHE THIS SHORT C I R C U IT. THE R E CAN BE NO

MOTH E R OFFICIA LLY FU NCTIONS.

PLACE FOR T H E P E RSON WHO MIGHT D I S P LA C E H E R : H E R DAUGHTER.

I NTO THIS R EPETITIVE CYCLE. WHICH BEGAN WITH A SEA RCH OBJ ECT
A

FOR

THE

LOST OBJECT. W I LL

FALL T H E
A

IN ITS V A RIOUS G U I DES. T H E OBJECT

IS

BOTH R E M A I N D E R A N D AGENT IN THE PROCESS OF BECOMING OBJ ECTS

A

R E D I SCOV E R S I N H E R R E F LECTION H E R F I R ST LOVE OBJ ECT I N ITS MOST FASCINATING FOR M . IN THE

S U B J ECT.

AS

R E M A I N DE R S.

THE

CONSTITUTE T H E L I M IT OF A FORE V E R ' :

E N IGMATIC NATURE OF T H E T H I NG. PA R A DO X I C A L LY, IN THE MOST " G L O R I O U S" I M AGE OF HER

FUTURE S U B J ECT. L A C A N SAYS OF THE OBJ ECTS "JOUISSANCE. W H I C H E F FECTS OF THE DOES

NOT COM E U N D E R THE P R I N C I PLE. TAKES

MOTH E R H OOD. S H E R U N S THE R I S K O F D I SAPPEAR ING AS C A STRATED MOTH E R AND OF B E I NG NO

P L EA S U R E

R E F UG E I N THEM." T H E Y F U N CTION. T H E R E FORE. AS BOTH THE C A U S E AND THE S UPPORT O F DESIRE. LET US REPEAT THAT T H E R E I S N O R E P R E S E NTA TIVE OF THE T H I NG. AN E M PTY SPACE TO AROUND IN

M O R E TH A N T H E DA UGHTER OF H E R REFLECTION. s

BECAUSE OF T H E C H A LL E N G E THAT S H E PRESE NTS TO THE SYM BO L I C ORDER. WOMA N'S POS ITION IS

WHICH

DESI R E

NEVER

C EASES IS

WANDER.

P E R H A PS P E R V E R S E . I N D E E D. S H E MOLDS H E R S E L F TO THE ORDER ROLE ONLY A L LOTT E D SO AS TO BY HER IN THE PHALLIC THE IS

FA NTASY

WHERE

DES I R E

SUSPENDED

AND

W H E R E T H E R E PETITIVE QUEST STOPS FOR A SHORT TI M E. T H E R E IS COLLUSION B ETWE E N THE OBJECT A N D THE T H I NG. IN THE I MA G I N A RY, THE OBJ ECT
A A

B ETTER THAT

DENY

C A ST R A T I O N

I M PL I E D

ROLE.

SHE

OVERCO M E B Y TH E F A SC I NATION O F T H E R EFLEC TION OF B E I NG A L L- M OTH ER. HERE, " A L L- M OTH E R"

COMES TO FILL THE E M PTY SPACE OF THE THI NG. LET US R E M E M B E R THAT D I SCOURSE FUNCTIONS AS

M E A N S B E I NG A MOTH E R COMPLETELY A N D B E I N G

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ALL MOTHERS ROLLED I NTO O N E . THUS. THERE I S NO C H A NC E T H A T WOMA N5-BODY. W H I C H WOULD SIGN THE RECOG N I T I O N OF A CASTRATED BODY.

JOU I SSANCE

W I LL E M E RGE. E I T H E R FOR THE MOTH E R O R FOR T H E DAUGHTER. FO R THE D A UG H T E R . TH E R E IS NO

XA

POSSI B I LITY O F I OENTI F ICATION W ITH T H E MOTH ER: ONLY I M I TATION IS POS S I BLE." T H I N K I NG OF THE

XE

XE

M ETAPHOR OF THE SCR E A M THAT GIVES B I RTH TO SI LENCE. O N E PHALLIC CAN AS IMAGINE I N SC R I PTION IN T H E

ORDER

CONSTITUTIVE

O F T H E NOT

S()
a

A L L/NOT-WHOLE. ? BY D E N Y I NG C A STRATION. WOM A N R E M A I N S IGNORANT OF H E R TWOFOLD DIVI SION. I N THE M I RROR SC ENE. SHE IS NO MORE THAN A

REFLECTION OF A R E FLECTION AD I N F I N I T U M . W H I C H I S T O SAY. S H E I S NOTHI NG . TH E REFORE. A WOM A N IS ONLY FOLLO W I NG DOWN IN THE LETTER OF THE OF LAW THE
THE

HANDED OEDIPUS
MOTH ER.

THE A

THIRD MOTH E R IS

S TA G E

THIS

GRAPH

FROM

L A C A N'S S E M I N A I R E

XX:

EN

COM PL E X : THIS

B E C O M ES

CORE l O DEALS WITH T H E QUESTION OF JOU ISSANCE.

PASSAGE

F A C I L I TATED

BY T H E

THOSE

WHO

LINE

UP

IN

THE

LEFT SECTION O F

FACT THAT THE MOTH E R F I G U R E I S A N I DEOLOGICAL P R O D U CT: SHE A LLOWS ONE TO AVOID THE

S P E A K I N G B E I NGS

H A V E ACCESS T O THE OTH E R

ONLY THROUGH T H E OBJECT A . THOSE WHO L I N E U P O N THE R I G HT, HOWEVER, A R E NOT ONLY SUBJECT TO THE PHA LLUS-PHA LLIC
J O UISSANCE

QUESTION O F

FEMININE

S E X U A L I TY.

L E A D I NG TO

THE R E A L THE M OTH E R F I G U R E M A S K S A L L LACKS. I NC L U D I N G THE LACK OF A LL SYSTE M I ZATION. ( A N D IN SPITE OF W H A T LACA N FIGURE H A S SUGGESTED. T H E TO WEIGH HEAVILY

OR

JOUISSA NCE TH ROUGH D I SCOURSE-BUT A R E A LSO

IN A R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTHER, THAT SPEA K I NG B E I NGS. REGA RDLESS OF WHETHER THEY ARE M E N

MOTH E R

CONTI N U E S

U PO N A N A LYTIC THEORY.)

OR

WOM EN. CAN B E FOU N D ON E I TH E R

S I D E I S NOT I NCOMPATIBLE WITH T H E FACT THAT J UST A S THE MOTH E R TA K ES T H E PLACE OF T H E LOST OBJ ECT AND IS L OV E D . SHE IS MADE WOMEN. BECA U S E OF TH E I R R E I NFORCED AlTACH MENT TO T H E MOTH E R WHO M E D I ATES ACCESS TO THE OTH E R. A R E PLAC E D IN A PRIVI LEGED M A N N E R ON THE RIGHT. T H E N A T U R E OF TH I S R E I N FORCE MENT WAS DESC R I B E D IN THE FI RST PART OF T H I S ARTICLE. I F A WOM A N PLACES H E RSELF ON T H E LEFT, S H E W A N TS TO R E M A I N PORTION OF S H A DOW. U N A W A R E OF H E R

R E S PO N S I BLE ONCE AGA I N .

FOR C A S T R A T I O N A N D I S HATED. WE THE FI N D IN THIS LOVE-HATE OF A

A M B I VA L E N C E WOMA N . AN

DIVIDED

STRUCTURE

I RR E D U C I B L E

STRUCTURE

RESISTING

A N A LY S I S A N D D I SCOU R S E. s

THE N E V E R- E N D I NG FA SCI N ATION O F T H E RELATION WITH THE MOT H E R HOLDS A P A RT O F A WOM A N I N T H E I M AG I N A R Y O R D E R : I N T H I S WAY. T H E MOTH ER. A LTHOUGH T H E SPOKESPE RSON OF THE SYMBOLIC ORDER. BARS TOTAL ACCESS TO IT.9

THE PLACE OF THE OTH ER IS TH E BODY. THE "FI RST MASTERSPACE O F I NSC R I PTIONS." A S LACAN SAYS. IT I S A LSO THE U NCONSCIOUS: I N C A R I NG FOR H E R C H I LD, T H E MOTH ER. T H E PLACE- K E E P E R OF T H E OTHER. TRACES I NSTI NCTUA L ZONES. T H E REPRE SENTATIVES OF WHICH. I N THE PSYC H I C A P P A R A

BY

D E N Y I NG T H I S S H A R E O F THE

I N EX PLORABLE

TUS, CONSTITUTE ( " I N STI N C T U A L SIGN I F I ERS.")

THE

F I R S T I N SC R I PT I O N S .

"SHA DOW"

(FREUD I N D I CATES THAT T H E RELATION HAS T H E CONSI STENCY OF A H ER S E LF HER OWN AND

DRIVES A R E T H E TREASURY O F

W I TH T H E MOTH E R SHADOW). A

WOM A N WITH

DENIES

RELATION C ON D E M N S

THE

S Y M BO L I C

ORDER

IT

APPEARS

TO

US

THAT

WOM A N

A LW A Y S

H E RS E L F TO

I MITATION.

R E PETITION

REMAI NS, T O A C E R TA I N EXTENT,

I N TOUCH WITH

A N D R E C R I M I NATION.

THI S F I E LD O F F I RST I NSCRIPTIONS. I NDEED, H E R LA B I D I N A L ECONOMY I S NOT ORGANIZED ENTI R E L Y IN S U B M I SS I O N TO THE PHA LLUS. REPEATING

FOR A WOMA N TO B E ABLE TO S E I ZE T H E OCC ASION TO SPEAK FOR "H E R S ELF." SHE M U ST ACKNOW

MONTRELAY'S STRUCTU R I N G PORTION OF

D I SC USSION OF R E PRESSION A S A PROCESS. WOM A N'S WE S H A L L LI B I DO SAY THAT A IN ITS

LEDGE THE P E R M A N E N C E O F THIS S H A DOW.

REMAINS

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R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTH E R AND COMES TO A H A LT THERE.

B A C K G RO U N D SEXUAL

OF

I N E X I ST E N C E ,

HER

PERIOD,

R E LATIONS,

PREGNA NCY,

AND GIVING

B I RTH A R E T H E R E A L "MOME NTS" W H E N A WOMAN WHAT I S T H E N A T U R E O F THE CATH EXIS OF THIS R E LATION? BECAUSE. WE FIND IT D I F F I C U LT T O G R A S P FROM BOTH AND CAN GIVE H E RS E L F THE I LLUSION OF EXI STI NG,

W H E N S H E C A N C L I N G TO THAT W H I C H I N SC R I BES HER W I TH I N D I SCOURSE. SHE REVELS [ELLE J O U I RAl IN THAT WHICH A FFECTS HER BODY A N D, I N O R D E R TO REVEL EVEN MORE, SHE SPEAKS A BOUT IT.

A LT H O U G H AS IT IS

D I F F E R E NT

N A RC I SSISM,

COMMONLY D E F I N ED,

AUTO-EROTISM, IT CAN NOT. HOWEVER, BE REDUCED TO A N OBJECT CATH E X I S, LET US NOTE THAT, IN N A RC I SSISM, WHAT I S L I B I D I N A LLY I N VESTED I S THE PORTION OF THE OTH E R THAT ONE CARRIES W I TH I N ONESELF. W H I LE T H I S I S EQUA LLY T R U E F O R T H E BOY, CATH E X I S OF THE SA M E-BODY NO DO UBT

PHALLIC J O U I SSANCE, I NSC R I B E D JOUISSA N C E . ' ,

WOM A N

CAN IN

A LSO THE

EXPE R I E NC E TH I S A

PHA LLIC

JOU ISSANCE

M A SQUERADE, THE

PA RODY OF DESIRE,

I DENTIFICATION

WITH

OBJECT OF

R E I N FORCES TH E ATTRACTION OF NARCISSISM FOR TH E LITTLE G I R L FOR WE ARE I N D E E D TA LKING

W H I C H G I VE S H E R A FAVORED PLAC E I N T H E O R D E R OF D I SCOU R S E.

A BOUT THE BODY. BUT WHICH BODY? NOT JUST H E R OWN BODY, SINCE, F O R THE G I R L, H E R O W N BODY I S ALWAYS THE S A M E BODY A S , OR T H E RE FLECTION OF TH E BODY OF, THE F I RST LOVE OBJECT A S WELL. WOMA N DOES NOT EXI ST. H E R PRECARIOUSN ESS AS A S U B J EC T ( F R E Q U E NTLY HER STA G E D I N TO IN FAI NTING

S P E L LS ) , IDEALIZING GIVE

PLUNGES

PASSIONATE,

I DENTI FICATIONS THAT, FOR A W H I LE,

HER C O N S I STENCY. S H E SENSES THAT HER SELF IS NOT SUMMED UP IN HER MANY

WHOLE PHALLIC JOUISSANCE

I MAGI N A RY F'OSITIONS, WHICH EXPLA I N S TO U S WHY SHE OFTEN C OV E R S HER

J O U ISSA N C E

WITH

I N TH E FATE ASSIGNED HER IN THE T H I R D PHASE OF THE OEDIPUS C O M P L E X, A WOMAN DOES NOT

DOLEF U L M A S K . S H E COMPLA I NS, M A K E S D E M A N DS A N D R A I LS A G A I NST THE PHALLIC ORDER, EITHER I N S U BL I M E S I LENCE O R A M I DST U N E N D I NG REC R I M I NATIONS. D E N I A L OF C A STRATION AND D I V I S ION

D I SC OV E R

H E RS E L F

WHOLE,

BUT S H E

NEITHER

KNOWS N O R ACCEPTS T H I S. L E T US CON S I D E R T H E HYSTE RIC, WHOSE F'OSITION I S EXEMPLARY I N T H I S REGARD, SHE SC R E A M S SOMETHING ABOUT WHICH SHE KNOWS NOTHI NG. W I TH T H I S SC R E A M , WHICH SHE WANTS TO ADDRESS TO A N A L L-POWER F U L

W I L L ALWAYS T A K E ITS TOLL. S U B L I M E MOTH E R S D I SPLAY TH E I R B R U I S E D BOD I ES, WOMEN-OBJ ECTS A N G U I S H A S THEY COUNT THE GAZES S U PF'ORTING THEM.

FATH E R W H O W O U L D B E C A PA BLE OF A N S W E R I N G HER QUESTION, SHE S U M MONS, I N STEAD OF A N D BEYOND THAT FATHER, WOM A N ? WHAT DOES H E R MOTH ER. W H A T I S A A WOM A N WA N T ? IF SHE T H E OTH ER JOUISSANCE

" M I STAKES" H E R I N T E R LOC UTOR, N O DOUBT I T I S BEC A U S E SHE K NOWS T H A T WOM A N D O E S NOT

EXI ST, BUT SHE C A N NOT ACCEPT THIS.

WOMA N I S T H E M ETHA PHOR O F M A N'S J O U ISSA N C E . H O W DOES S H E E X P E R I ENCE THIS?

LET US SAY FROM PROBABLY R E V E LS

NOW ON THAT T H E HYSTERIC IN

[JO U I T . . . DEl

THIS

PLAY

AS

J O U I SSANCE

VALUE

[VALEUR

DE

J O U I SSANCE1,

BETW E E N "KNOW I NG" A N D "NOT K NOWING," I N A N Y CASE, M A SC U L I N E DES I R E MUST REMA I N U NSATIS FIED I N ORDER TO KEEP THE QUESTION OF THE

OBJ ECT A IN TH E PHA NTASY OF A MAN A I M I NG FOR THE OTH E R , OR A L O S T O B J ECT, SHE IS THE

REPRESE NTATI V E OF T H E THI NG. "DOES THAT FROM WHICH ONE COMES A LSO COM ET'
["CE DO N T ON

R ELATION TO TH E MOTH E R FROM B E I NG BROACHED. ONCE AGAIN, T H E HYSTE R I C P RETENDS TO BELIEVE THAT THERE W I LL B E A SEXUA L RELATION, THAT THE MOTHER WILL BE ABLE TO SAY: "A WOMAN,

JOU IT, C E LA J O UI T- I L ?"l ( LACANI

IN

THAT

POS I T I O N W H E R E A L L I D EN T I F I C A T I O N S

THATS IT, I T EXISTS,"

BECO M E CON F U S E D WITH ONE A NOTH ER, A WOM A N DOES N O T E X I ST; IS THIS NOT PRECISELY THE

THE EVENTS OF A WOM A N'S BODY A R E M A R K E D BY S U B M I SSION TO THE PHA LLIC ORDER: SHE NEVER STOPS SPEAKING A BOUT T H E M A N D, BY S P E A K I NG , SHE REVELS IN THEM
[ELLE EN JOUITJ.

MOMENT W H E N S H E R U N S T H E R I S K OF E X P E R I ENC I N G H E R S E LF AS NOT-WHOLE I N A FLEETING B U RST OF D E R I S I O N ? LET US T H I N K A BOUT THE LADY I N

ON

COURTLY LOVE (THE LAUGH OF T H E M E D U S A ) WHO

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A B L E TO

E X P E R I E NC E J O U I S S A N C E

P E R H A PS

WILL

HAVE

THE

GOOD

FORT U N E

TO

ESCAPE

B ECA U S E S H E IS E NACTING AN I M A G I N A R Y DIVISION O F W H IC H S H E C A N NOT SPEAK. BUT TO WH I C H SHE H A S H A D ACCESS. ' 2

E N D LESS. I M ITATIVE R E PETITION.

WO M A N

IS

NOT "LI B E R ATED"

WHEN

TH E R E PRES

SION. T H E "FORGETTI NG." O F THE C A PTIVATING PRE OEDIPAL "HE W H OSE BODY IS L E FT TO T H E M E RCY OF R ELATIONSH I P WITH THE MOTH E R IS

R A I S E D . A T TH E MOST. T H I S A LLOWS H E R TO STA N O BACK AND TAKE A C E RT A I N D I ST A N C E IT FROM NOT LESS

A N OTH E R S E E S P U R E JOUISSANCE OPEN U P BEFORE H I M." WHO SUCH I S THE POSITION OF THE M ASOC H I ST WITH THE OBJECT

I DE NT I F I C A T I O N S A BO L I S H T H E M .

D E A R TO

H E R.

DOES

I DENTI FIES THE

A.

TH E

BUT RATH E R

M A K E S TH E M

R E M A I NDER.

WASTE

O F THE

OTH E R'S JOUIS

R I G I D A N D CONSTRICTING. ' 4 WOM A N IS NOT-WHOLE. SO I S IT.

SANCE. IF A WOMAN I D ENTI F I E S WITH T H E OBJECT A

A LONG THE PATH TOW A R D T H E OTH ER. (CONFORM I NG TOTALLY W I TH THE ROLE ASSIGNED HER I N THE M A SC U L I N E FANTASY). SHE THEN WHAT KINO OF

IN THIS A RTICLE W E HAVE L I M I T E D OURSELVES TO POI NTING OUT A FEW E L E M E NTS CONT R I B U T I NG TO THE Q U ESTION OF WOMAN. V A R I O U S Q U E STIONS. O F TH E TIONS R E LATION AND WE H A V E N EG LECTED

JOUISSANCE C A N

E X P E R I ENCE? DOES NOT A

PORTION OF H E R JOUISSANCE LEAVE THE ORDER O F D I SCOU RSE I N O R D E R T O SET ITSELF A DR I FT? AT THAT MOMENT WHEN A PA RT OF HER DOES NOT

MOST PARTI C U L A R LY. THAT I D E NT I F I C A THE OTH E R

B ETWE E N T H E S E DOES NOT

I D E O LOG Y .

I N SC R I B E I TS E L F IN TH E ORDER OF DISCOURSE. A WOM A N IS THE PLAC E - K E E P E R OF THE THING A N D I S . H E RSE LF. R E F E R R E D BACK TO H E R O W N DESI R E

JOUISSA N C E . I N SPITE O R B E C A U S E O F ITS S I L E N C E .

POS E Q U ESTIONS CONC E R N I NG T H E PHA LLIC

O R D E R ? W H A T C A N B E M E A N T BY T H E "FE M I N IZA TION" O F A SOC I ETY ONCE ONE SUS PECTS TH A T THE PART OF A WOMAN WANTING TO B E BORN I S ONLY

FO R TH E T H I N G.

IN TH A T SPACE SO CLOS E TO ITS MAGN ETIC POLE THAT THE G U I D I NG LA N D M A R KS OF THE PHA LLIC ORDER STOP F U N C TI O N I NG A WOM A N TH E AND NOT SUBV ERT O N E EXPERIENCE WO U L D

OBEYING A N ECONOMY O F CON S U M PTION? HOW CAN THE SOC I A L GROUP R ECONCI L E ORGAN IZATION A N D I N O RG A N IZATION?

A N OT H E R .

DOES

SOM ETHING.

B EYON D

LAW THAT

IT

REMAINS

FOR

US.

WHO

HAVE

ATTE M PTED TO SO MANY

RESEMBLE I NCEST WITH T H E MOTH E R ? LET U S TH I N K O F SA I NT TH E R E S A O F A V I LA A N D OF T H E GOO S H E COMPA R E S T O A N U RSE WITH A N I N E X H A USTI BLE FLOW O F MILK.

INSCRIBE

OUR

TRACE

A LO N G S I D E

OTH E RS. NOT T O CONC LUDE.

A E X P E R I E N C E T H I S JOUISSA N C E .

WOM A N

AND

WRITI NGIII TWOFOLD S P E EC H . BUT

TH E R E IS A CATCH. W R I TI NG. FOR A WOMAN: I T CAN A WOM A N CAN BE POSSI BLE. IT SEEMS. IF SHE AGREES TO SOM nI M ES. I F S H E A CC E PTS H E RSELF AS D I V I DED BY DES I R I NG.

RECOG N I ZE BOTH THE M A R K O F T H E N A M E-OF-TH E FATH E R . WHICH PLACE S THE HER IN THE O R D E R OF OF HER A

D I SC O U R S E TH I S

AND
TO

PERMANENCE WHICH

J O U I SSA N C E

CAN

ONLY

BE

DESIGN ATED.

IT

ATTA C H M E NT

THE

MOTH E R .

BORES

C A N NOT BE SPOKEN. I T ESCAPES I N SC R I PTION. I N TH E A N A LYTIC S I TUATION. " I T I S B Y T H I S M E A N S O F ACCESS TO THAT. I N T H E U NCONSCIOUS. W H I C H I S NOT TH E REPR ESSED. THAT D I SC O U R S E CAN

HOLE IN THAT O R D E R . W RITING. FOR A WOM A N : IS I T P E R H A P S N O T W R I TI N G ON TH E MOT H E R'S BODY. B U T RATH E R . WITH H E R BODY?

S P R I N G FORTH. A LTHOUGH S H E C A N S A Y NOTH I N G MORE A BOUT IT. A WOM A N C A N . AT T H A T MOMENT. RECOG N I ZE THAT SHE I S NOT E N TI R E LY SU BJECT TO TH E P H A LLIC F U NCTION. FOR THAT R E A SON. IF S H E ACC E PTS HER D I V I S I O N . S H E W I L L SOM ETI M E S B E A B L E T O SPEAK F O R " H E R S E LF" WITHIN D I SCOU RSE. A G RE E I NG OCC A SIONA LLY TO REMAIN S I LENT. S H E

IN THAT WAY. SHE C A N E SC A P E FROM A

KINO OF

WRITING WITH WHICH SHE WO U L D TRY TO I D E NTIFY WITH MEN AND A LSO FROM I M PR I SON M E NT IN THE

ILLUSION O F WHAT I S C A LLED A F E M I N I N E W R I TI NG.

CHANTAL MAI LLET AND SYLVIE SESE-LEGER TRA N S LATED BY TERESE LYONS

226

NOTES

"TO

I M ITATE

IS.

OF COU RSE.

TO

R EPRODUCE

AN

I M AGE, BUT FUNDAM ENTA LLY. FOR THE SUBJECT. IT

THE THE I M PO S S I B I L I T Y WORD
"

OF ADEQUATELY

R E P R OD U C I N G

IS

TO

I N S E RT H I MSELF

INTO A

FU NCTION WHOSE

J O U I SS A N C E "- E N J O Y M E N T .

EXTR E M E

WOR K I NGS HAVE SEIZED H I M . " JACQUES L.ACAN. LE

SEM I N A I R E XI: LES QUATRE CONCEPTS FONDA M ENTAUX DE LA PSYCHANALYSE.

PLEASURE.

THE

PLEASU R E O F S E X U A L C L I M AX

H A S BEEN M UC H D ISCUSSED. I N ORDER TO AVOI D AN A RB I T R A R Y CHOICE A M ON G BE THE ITS L E FT VERB M U LT I P L E UNTRANS

" JO UIR:'

[ 1 9641. P A R I S : S E U I L, 9 1 73.

M E A N I NGS. LATED IN

JOUISSANCE

W I LL

SEE

LACAN'S S E M I N A R I E XX: 1 975. (TRANSJ

E N C ORE.

11 9 7 2 3 1 .

THIS WILL

A RTICLE. BE

PARIS: S E U I L,

HOWEVE R.

TRANSLATED

WITH

THE

SEMANTICALLY

U N SATISFACTORY. B U T SYNTACTI

CF. M. MONTRELA Y. RECH ERCHES S U R LA F E M I N ITE.

C A LLY ADEQUATE. "TO R E V E L." AND ONCE WITH THE MORE DI RECT "TO COME:' IN BOTH CASES. THE

FRENCH WILL B E I N D I CATED IN BRACKETS. (TRANSJ

THE OEDI PUS COMPLEX SHATTERS A PA RT IN THE LITTLE BOY: IT DOES NOT DISAPPE A R IN THE LITTLE GIRL.. FREUD TELLS US THAT THE FATH E R I N H E RITS

" E V E RYTH I NG

C O N N EC T E D HAS IN

WITH

THIS

FI RST

THE

G I R L'S

ATTAC H M E NT TO CONTI N U E S

HER BE

MOTH ER.

TH I S BY

MOTHERATTACH M E NT TO M E SO ELUSI VE. S H A DOWY. SO

A N A LYSIS

SEEMED

ATT A C H M E N T AMBIGUITY.

TO

MARKED

LOST I N A PAST SO D I M A N D R E S U S C ITATE. T H A T I T

H A R D TO

S E E M E D AS I F I T H A D U N D E RG O N E S O M E SPEC I A LLY I N EX O RA B L E "FEMALE REPRESSION."

IN

10

SIGMUND FREUD.
AND THE

SEE NOTE 7.

S E X U A L I TY : '

S E X U A L ITY

PSYCHOLOGY OF LOVE. N E W YORK: COLLI ER BOOKS.

1 1

WE

WOULD

SUGGEST

THAT

THE

SIGNI FIERS

1 963. P.

1 95.

"WOMAN'5-BODY" A N D "SAM EBODY" FORCE U S TO RECO N S I D E R T H E QUESTION OF TH E OBJECTS A. I T

2A

" I N H E R 'AMOU R PROPRE: WOMA N D O E S N O T M A NAGE TO DISTING U I S H HER OWN BODY FROM THAT WHICH WAS HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT." M. MONTRELAY.

SEEMS TO

U S THAT.

I N T H E CASE

OF A WOMAN

INSC R I BED I N THE PHALLIC ORDER. THE OBJECTS A SUPPORTING H E R DESIRE ARE N EVER "COMPLETE LY" S E P ARATED FROM HER. (IN THIS RESPECT. THE C H I L O OCCU P I E S A SPECIAL POS ITION.) A WOMAN

RECHERCHES SUR LA FEMINITE.

2B

ALSO F I N DS H E R OBJECTS A UPON HER OWN BODY. P E R H A PS CON FUSION OF CATH EXES A LSO PLAYS A ROLE FOR T H E MOTHER. WHO. AT THAT MOME NT, DOU BLED BY THE MATERNAL R EFLEXION.

LOVES THE DAUGHTER WHO RESEM B LES H E R A N D

12

FOR WHOM E V E RYTHI NG I S STlL.L POSSIBLE. (EVEN THE AVOI DANCE O F C A STRATION?).

CF.

C H A NTAL

M A I LLET.

LA

FEMME

DANS

L'AMOUR

COURTOIS. ( I N LETTRES DE L'ECOLEJ

SEE LACAN'S S E M I N A R O F 1 9 5960, L'ETHN I Q U E DE

LA PSYC H A N A L YSE.

13

I T I S NOT WITHOUT I NTEREST THAT THE ANLAYST SHOULD BE A WOM A N . THIS UTTERANCE CAN BE

(AS YET U N P U B L I S H ED.)

BACKED U P BY THE R ELATION SH I P WITH THE SAME

BODY.
COMPLEXE D U PROC H A I N .

14
THE DAUGHTER IS. IN ALL L I K E L I HOOD. NOT

A WOMAN I S NEVER SAFE FROM I DENTI FICATIONS. SHE I S ALSO I D E NTI FYI NG WHEN S H E TAKES THE

CATHECTED A S A LOVE OBJECT. S H E I S THERE ONLY IN ORDER TO A L LOW THE I M AG E OF THE MOTHER TO BE REVEA LED. SHE S UPPORTS THAT I MAGE.

POSITION OF S U FFERI NG "KNOWL.EDGE: THAT OF THE PYTH I A PEN ETRATED BY TRUTH.

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AN I NQU I RY I NTO FE M I N I N ITY

FEM I N I N E EROTI C I S M IS MORE CENSORED, LESS M A N I F E ST A T I O N S OF HIS DESI RE NOR OF THE

R E PRESSED THAN THAT OF A MAN. IT LENDS ITSELF LESS EASILY TO LOSING ITSELF AS THE STA K E OF U NC O N S C I O U S WHOSE ENGLISH FO R C E R E P R E S ENTATION. WAS THE DRIVES BY THE

EXTENT O F H I S PLEA S U R E S. H E EXPER I M E NTS, NOT O N LY WITH C H A NC E BUT A LSO WITH THE LAW A N D W I T H H I S S E X U A L O R G A N : H I S BODY ITSELF TAKES O N THE VALUE OF STA KE.

D E M O N STRATED A

SCHOOL.

C I RC U M SC R I B E

PLAC E O R IN R E LATION TO C A STRATION. TH E R E FO R E , TH E

''CONTI N E NT'' W H I C H C A N B E C A LLED -DARK" T O T H E EXTENT THAT IT I S OUTSIDE THE C I RC U M FE R ENCE OF T H E SYMBOLIC ECONOMY (FORECLOSED).

POSITION OF TH E M A N D I FF E R S FROM THAT OF THE WOMA N WHOSE ON S E X U A LITY IS CAPABLE OF

R E M A I N I NG WHAT ARE THE P R OC E S S E S WHICH M A I NTA I N

THE

EDGE O F A L L

REPRESSION.

UNDER C E RTA I N C I R C U M STANCES THEN, THE STA K E OF C ASTRATION FOR THE WOMA N F I N DS I TS E L F

FEM I N ITY -OUTSIDE NATURE, ORDER, AS IT

R E PRESSION." I N A STATE OF THE FI RST. OF OF A SOC I A L

WERE?

DI SPLACED:

IT CONSISTS I N T H E SEXUA LITY A N D

CONC E R N S

THE

A B SENCE

PROH I B I

T H E D ES I R E OF T H E OTH E R SEX. MOST OFTEN THAT OF THE FATH E R AND THEN, OF THE M A SC U L I N E

T I O N S : T H E G I R L I S L E S S S U B J ECT THA N TH E BOY TO THE T H R EATS AND TO THE DEFENCES WHICH

PARTN ER. W H I C H I S W H Y P E R R I E R A N D GRANOFF H AVE BEEN ABLE TO S HOW TO ... . . ALL THE E XT R E M E

PENA LIZE MASTUR BATION. W E KEEP SI LENT A BOUT H E R M A STURBATION. A LL THE MORE A S I T I S LESS OBSERVABLE, FRANCOISE OOLTO H A S SHOWN THAT, S H E LT E R E D BY T H E I R P R I VACY, THE G I R L. THE

FEMININE

S E N S I B I LITY

EXPERI ENCES

R E LA T I N G TO T H E C A STRATION OF T H E M A N :'2

WOMA N , CAN L I V E A "PROTECTED" SEXUALITY.' O N E TENDS T O REFER T O THE A N X I ETY OF RAPE A N D PEN ETRATION W I TH O U T E M P H A S I Z I N G T H A T . IN

YET OTH E R PROC E SSES. OF AN I N STINCTUAL A N D NOT SOCI A L ORDER. M A I NTA I N F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY OUTS I D E T H E ECONOMY O F REPRESENTATION-THE I NTRICATION VAG I N A L HAVE OF T H E O R A L- A N A L D R I V E S W I T H J O N ES , KLEIN THAT A N D DOLTO THE G I R L'S ARE

R E A L ITY, O N T H E CONTR A R Y , T H E G I R L R I S K S LITTLE. T H E A NATOMY O F TH E BOY, O N THE OTH E R H A N D. EXPOSES H I M V E R Y E A R LY T O T H E REALIZA TION THAT HE IS M A ST E R N EITHER OF THE

PLEASURE, ON

I N S I STED

THE

FACT OF

ARCHAIC

EXPERIENCES

THE

VAGINA

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ORGANIZED AS A FUNCTION OF P RE-ESTABLISHED ORAL-A N A L SCH E M A S. A T T H E FURTHER EXTREME. P R E C OC I O U S S E X U A L I T Y " T U R N S " A R O U N D A SINGLE ORIFICE. A N ORGAN WHICH I S BOTH DIGESTIVE AND V AG I N A L. WHICH C E A SELESSLY TENDS TO ABSORB. O R A PPROPRIATE. TO DEVOUR. WE F I N D AGAI N HERE T H E THE M E OF CONCENTRI CITY.

WE WOULD H A V E TO SPEC I FY FURTH E R WHAT I S ONLY I NTIMATED H E R E : THAT T H E R E A L OF T H E BODY. I N TAK I NG FORM AT PUBE RTY. I N CHARGING ITSELF W I T H I N T E N S I TY A N D I M PO R T A N C E A N D PRESENCE. AS OBJECT O F THE LOVER'S DESI RE. RE ACTUALIZES. RE-I NCARNATES. THE REAL O F THAT OTHE R BODY. W HICH AT THE B EG I N N I N G OF L I FE WAS THE SUBSTANCE OF WORDS. THE ORGANIZER OF DESIRE: WHICH. LATER ON. WAS A LSO THE MATE R I A L OF A RCHAIC R E PRESSION. RECOV E R I N G H E RSELF AS MATER N A L BODY ( A N D ALSO AS PHALLUS). THE WOMAN C A N NO LONGE R REPRESS. "LOSE:' THE F I R ST STA K E OF R E P R E SE NTATI O N . A S IN THE TRAGEDY. R E PR ESENTATI ON IS T H R E A T E N E D BY RUIN. BUT AT THE ROOT OF TH I S THREAT THERE A R E D I F F E R E N T P R OC E S S E S : F O R O E D I P U S . T H E R E STOR A T I O N O F T H E STA K E P R OC E E D E D B Y CHANCE. F R O M T H E GODS: IT WAS EFFECTED I N SPITE OF A PROHI BITION. NOTH I NG . O N THE CONTRARY. I S FORBIDDEN FOR T H E WOMEN: TH E R E I S NO STATEM ENT OR L A W W H I C H PROHI BITS T H E RECOVERY OF TH E STAKE SINCE T H E R E A L W H ICH I M PO S E S I T S E L F A N D T A K E S T H E P L A C E OF REPRESSION A N D DESIRE IS. FOR H E R. THE REAL OF H E R OWN BODY. FROM NOW ON. ANXI ETY. TIED TO TH E PRESENCE OF THI S BODY. CAN ONLY BE I N S I STENT. CONTI N U OUS. THIS BODY. SO CLOSE. W H ICH SHE H A S TO OCC U PY. IS AN OJ ECT I N EXCESS WHICH MUST BE "LOST:' THAT IS TO SAY. REPRESSED. IN O R D E R TO BE S Y M BOLIZED. H E N C E TH E S Y M PTOM S W H I C H SO OFTEN S I M U LATE THIS LOSS: "TH E R E IS NO LONGER .. A N YTHI NG. O N LY THE HOLE. E M PTIN E S S . . . S U C H I S THE L E IM O T I F OF ALL FEMI N I N E A N A LYSIS. W H I C H I T WOULD BE A M I STA K E TO SEE AS THE EXPRESSION

IF THI S I N SATIABLE ORGAN-HOLE IS AT THE CENTER OF PRECOCIOUS SEXUA LITY. IF I T I N FL ECTS ALL PSYCHIC MOVEMENT ACCO R D I NG TO C I R C U LA R AND C LOS E D SC H E M A S . I T C O M P R O M I S E S W O M A N ' S R E LA T I O N T O C A S T R A T I O N AND TH E LAW: TO A BSORB. TO TAKE. TO U ND ERSTAND. IS TO REDUCE THE WORLD TO T H E MOST ARCHAIC I N STI NCTUAL "LAWS." I T IS A P R E S U P POS E D MOV E M E N T OPPOSED TO THAT BY C A ST R A T I O N : WHERE THE

JOUISSANCE O F T H E BODY LOSE S ITSELF "FOR" A D I SCOU RSE WHICH IS OTHE R .

HERE. W E WILL N O T TH E R EFORE QUESTION T H E T R U T H OF TH E CLI N IC A L OBSERVATIONS PRODUCED BY THE ENGLI S H SCHOOL: ALL EXPE R I ENCE OF C H I LD A N A LYSI S CON F I R M S T H E P RECOCITY OF THE "KNOWLEDGE" O F THE V AG I N A. MORE G E N ERALLY. I T IS QUITE TRUE THAT THE VERY S M A LL G I R L EXPE R I E NCES H E R F E MI N I NI TY V E R Y EA RLY. BUT. S I M U LATANEOUSLY. IT M UST BE STRESSED THAT SUCH A PRECOCI TY. FAR FROM FAVORING A POSSIBLE
"MATURATION." ACTS AS A N OBSTACLE TO IT. S I NCE IT

MAINTA I N S E ROTI C I S M OUTSIDE THE R E P R ESENTA TION OF CASTRATION.

ANXI ETY AND THE R E LATION TO THE BODY

OF A N ALLEGED "CASTRATION." ON T H E CONTRA RY. IT I S A DEFENSE PRODUCED IN O R D E R TO PARRY THE AVATA R S. THE DEFIC I E NCIES. O F SYMBOLIC CASTRATION.

A TH I R D S E R I E S OF PROCESSES STA N DS I N TH E WAY O F R E P R E S S I O N : C O N C E R N I N G T H E WO M A N ' S R E LATION TO HER OWN BODY. A R ELATION S I M U LTANEOUSLY N A R C I S S I STIC A N D EROTIC. FOR THE WOMAN E N JOYS H E R BODY AS S H E WOULD THE BODY OF A NOTH E R . E V E R Y OCC U R R E NCE OF A S E X U A L K I N D ( P U B ERTY. E ROTIC E X P E R I ENCES. MATE R N I TY. ETC.) HAPPENS TO HER A S IF I T CAME FROM A NOTHE R (WOMA N ) : EVERY OCCURRENCE IS THE FASCINATING ACTUA LIZATION OF THE' FEMI N I N ITY OF ALL WOM EN. BUT A LSO A N D A BOVE A LL. OF THAT OF THE MOTHER. I T IS AS IF "TO BECOME WOM A N ." "TO M A T E R N A L. BE IN WOMAN" GAVE TH E ACCESS TO A SHE BEARS JOUISSANCE OF THE BODY AS FEM I N I N E AND/OR S ELF-LOVE HERSELF. TH E WOMA N C A NNOT DIFFERENTIATE H E R OWN BODY F ROM T H A T W H I C H W A S "TH E F I R ST OBJECT."

THE A N A LYST OFTEN FINDS A "FE A R OF FEM I N I NITY" IN CON N ECTION WITH FEM I N I N E A NX I ETY. E SPE C I A LLY IN T H E A DOLESCENT. WE HAVE TRIED TO S H OW T H A T T H I S F E A R (EFFRACTION) A LONE IS NOT A R E S U LT OF P H A NTA S I E S O F V I OLATION A N D B R E A K I N G I N
.

A T BOTTOM . I T I S FEA R OF

THE FEM I N I N E BODY AS A NON-REPRESSED A N D U N R E P R E S E NTABLE OBJ ECT. I N OTH E R WORDS. FEM I N I N ITY. "ACCORDING TO JONES:' I.E .. F EM I N I N ITY EXPER I E NC E D A S REAL AND I M ME D I ATE. IS THE BLI N D SPOT OF THE SYMBOLIC PROCESS A N A LYZED BY FRE UD. TWO I NCOMPATIB LE. H ETEROG E N EOUS T E R R I TO R I E S C O- E X I ST I N S I DE T H E F E M I N I N E U NCONSC I O U S : THAT O F R E P R E S E N TATION A N D THAT WHICH REMAINS "THE DARK CONTIN ENT."

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BODY A S D I S G U I SE.

I T I S R A R E F O R A N X I ETY T O M A N I FEST ITSELF A S S U C H I N A N A LY S I S. IT I S U S U A LLY CAMOU FLAGED BY THE DEFENCES THAT IT PROVOK ES. IT IS A

THE NOVELS O F M A R G U ER ITE D U R A S U S E T H E S A M E WOR L D SHOWN AGA I N OF STUPO R THIS AND SI LENCE. TH I S I T COU L D BE

THAT

SI LENCE.

N O N- S P E EC H .

Q U E STION OF ORGA N I Z I N G A REPRESE NTATION OF C A STRATION W H I C H IS NO LONGER SYMBOLIC. BUT I M AG I N A RY: A LACK I S S I M U LATED A N D THEREBY TH E LOSS OF SO M E STA K E - A N U N D E RTA K I NG A L L THE MORE E A S I LY ACCOM P L I S H E D AN ATOMY PRECISELY A LAC K.

E X H I B ITS T H E

FASC I N ATING D I M E N SION O F

F E M I N I N E L A C K : D U R A S WANTS TO M A K E TH I S LACK " S P E A K" A S A C R Y (MODERATO CANTA B I L E ) . OR A S "MUSIC." HERE. LET U S S I M PLY R E C A L L W H A T I S

S A I D I N T H E RAV I S H M E N T OF L O L V STE I N : "WHAT W A S N E E D E D W A S A WO RD-ABSENCE. A W O R D H O L E . . . I T C O U L D N O T H A V E B E E N SPOK E N . IT C O U L D O N L Y B E M A D E T O R E SO U N D." 3

BECAUSE

FEM I N I N E

EXHI BITS

THAT OF T H E P E N I S. AT T H E S A M E TIME A S BEING HER OWN PHALLUS. TH E R E FORE. THE WOMA N WILL D I S G U I S E H E R S E L F WITH T H I S LACK. THROWI NG I NTO R E L I E F THE D I M EN SION OF CA STRATION AS TROM PE
L'OEI L

T H U S T H E S E X . THE VAGI NO-O R A L ORGAN OF T H E WOM A N . TH E ACTS A S OBSTACLE T O CASTRATION: A T TIME. ITS " F A L S E LY R E P R E S E N T I NG TH E

SA M E IN

THE

WAYS

IN

WHICH

THIS

CAN

OC C U R

ARE

LATT E R

E FFECTS OF A L L U R E M E N T W H IC H

M U LTIPLE. ONE C A N PLAY O N THE ABSENCE O F THE PENIS TH ROUGH SILENCE JUST AS WELL AS

PROVOKE A N X I E TY." T H I S I S W H Y M A N H A S A LWAYS C A L L E D THE F E M I N I N E DEFENCES A N D M ASQUER A D E EVIL

TH ROUGH A R ESOU N D I NG V A N I TY. ONE C A N M A K E I T T H E MODEL OF E ROTIC. M YSTICAL. A N D N E U ROTIC EXPERI E NCES. THE ANOREXIC R E F U S A L OF FOOD IS A GOOD EXAMPLE OF THE D E S I R E TO REDUCE A N D T O D I SSOLVE H E R O W N F L E S H . T O TAKE H E R OWN BODY A S A C I P H E R . M A S OC H I S M A LSO M I M ES THE LACK. TH ROUGH PASSIVITY. I M POTE N C E A N D DOING NOTH I N G (" N E RIEN FAIRE"). T H E OBSE RVATIONS OF H E L E N E D E UTSCH A N D THOSE O F THE RECHERCHES
NOUVELLES COULD B E U N D E RSTOOD I N T H I S WAY.

WOM A N

IS

NOT

ACCUSED

OF

T H I N K I NG

OR

OF

COM M I TT I N G T H I S E V I L . BUT OF I N C A R N ATING IT. ' " I T IS THIS EVIL WHICH SCANDALIZES WHENEVER

WOMA N "PLAYS OUT' H E R S E X I N O R D E R T O E V A D E THE WORD A N D TH E LAW. EACH TI M E S H E SUBVE RTS A LAW OR A WORD WHICH RELIES ON THE

PREDOM I N A NTLY M A S C U L I N E STRUCTU R E O F T H E LOOK. F R E U D S A Y S THAT E V I L I S E X P E R I E N C E D A S S U C H W H E N A N X I ETY G R I PS THE C H I LD I N FRONT O F TH E UNVEILED TH E N BODY O F REFER HIS MOTH E R . "DID H I S HOLE OF

C ASTRATION

IS

S I M I LA R LY

DISGUISED

IN

TH E

R E G I STER OF EROTIC FICTION: W H E R E THE F E M I N I N E O R I FICE. O. I S " F A LSE LY" R E PR E S E N T E D I N ITS

SUCCESSIVE M ETAMORPHOSES.

DESI R E

O N L Y T O TH I S

FLESH?" T H E W O M A N A FFORDS A G Ll M !"S E O F T H E R E A L BY V I R T U E O F H E R R E LATION T O N OTHING

HERE. I WOULD RATH E R TU R N TO THE POETS. THOSE WHO HAVE WRITTEN I N T H E NOVELISTIC O R M A D E FILMS OUT OF THE FEMI N I N E DRAMA
("C I N EMA"'.

THAT I S TO SAY. TO THE T H I NG. AT T H I S M O M E NT. THE SYMBOLIC COLLAPSES I N TO T H E R E A L. FR E U D' A LSO SAYS THAT THE P E R V E R T C A N NOT SEE THE

SINCE TH E L I M ITATIONS O F THIS ARTICLE RULE OUT ANY D E TA I L E D C ON S I D E R A T I O N OF C L I N I C A L

CASTRATED BODY OF H I S MOTH E R . I N T H I S S E N S E . E V E R Y M A N I S A P E RV E RT. ON T H E O N E H A N D. H E E N J O Y S W I THOUT S A Y I N G SO. W I THOUT COM I NG TOO C LOSE-FOR T H E N H E WOULD H A V E TO TA K E U PO N

CASES.

TA K E FELLINI. TH E D I R ECTOR O F J U L I ETTE OF THE SPIRITS. A F I L M SO BAFFLING. N O DOUBT. BEC A U S E IT B R I NGS OUT TH E PRESENCE OF THE "DARK

H I MS E L F A T E R R I B L E A N X I ETY. OR E V E N H A TE-: H E ENJOYS BY PROXY THE THING HE GLIMPSES

THROUGH T H E MOTH E R . O N THE OTH E R H A N D. H E DOES NOT APPEAR T O U N D E RSTA N D THAT H E R

CONTINE NT' S O W E L L T H E D I M E NSION O F F E M I N IN ITY THAT LACAN TA K I N G SHAPE THE IN DESIGNATES FROM JOA N UP AS M ASQU E R A D E . TAKES

R E LATION T O T H E TH I N G I S S U B L I MATED. I T I S T H I S E V I L W H I C H H A S TO B E REPRESSED.

TERM

R I V I E RE. "

THIS HATS

PILING AND

O F C RAZY THI NGS. B A R OQ U E CON A F I L M L I K E DAYS OF WRATH'v LAYS B A R E A L L T H E M A SC U L I N E " D E F E N C ES" AGA I N ST F E M I N I N ITY A N D WOM A N ' S D I R EC T R ELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E MAN IS TERRORIZED RAISES BY THE THREAT THAT IN

FEATHERS.

STRANGE

STRUCTIONS WHICH RISE UP L I K E SO M A N Y S I LENT I N SI G N IAS. BUT WHAT WE M U ST S E E I S THAT THE OBJ ECTI V E OF S UC H A M A SQUERADE I S TO SAY

N OT H I NG. ABSOLUTE LY NOTHING. A N D IN ORDER TO PRODUCE THIS NOTH I N G T H E WOMAN USE S H E R OWN

F E M I N I N ITY

FOR

" H I S"

R E P R E S S ION.

O R D E R TO R E A S S U R E H I M A N D C O N V I N C E H I M . T H E

230

WOMA N A LWAYS A DV A N C E S F U RT H E R A LONG H E R O W N PATH S P E A K THE ST A N D BY EXPLA I N I NG H E R S E LF, TRUTH, HER BUT SHE W I S H I NG T O

SC R I B E D . FEM I N I NI TY

THE AND

STA K E NOT

IS

NOW

P R ECOC I O U S M A SC U L I N E

TH E

PENIS O R

OOES N O T U N DER WILL NOT AND

SEXUA LITY: P R ECOC I O U S F E M I N I N I TY B ECOM E S T H E MATERIAL OF R E P R ESSION. "ACCOR D I N G T O J O N ES" ONE OR S E V E R A L P E RIODS OF LATE NCY CORRES PON D TO THIS DECATHEXIS OF S E X U A LITY, P E R IODS D U R I NG WHICH T H E LITTLE GIRL AND THE W O M A N D I S E N TA N G L E T H E M S ELVES FROM TH E I R OWN

THAT

DISCOURSE

C A N NOT B E R E C E I V E D . FOR T H E FACT O F BYPASS I NG THE LAW OF R E P R ES S I O N P R E C I S E L Y B Y SAYI N G ALL, AND CONTA M I NATES MAKES TH E M O S T P R E C I O U S TRUTH ODIOUS AND C O N D E M N

I T S U SPECT,

ABLE. H E NCE M A SC U L I N E C E N S U RE. THE F R U ST R A T I O N S , WHICH HAVE I NT E R D I C T I O N S A N D CON WEIGHED BE ON WOMEN AND FOR ARBI

BOD I ES A N D ITS PLEASURES. THIS I S W H Y P E R I O D S OF FRIGIDITY IN A N A LY S I S I ND E X OF CAN OFT E N BE

T E M PT

CONSI D E R E D MARK THE

AS

AN

PROGRESS: PATI E N T

THEY DE

C E N TU R I ES

MAY

I ND E E D

ABSURD

MOMENT

WHEN

THE

TRARY, BUT THEY DO NOT M A TT E R . TH E M A I N THING IS THE FACT OF I M PO S I N G THE D E F I N ITIVE

CATH ECTS T H E V AG I N A L-O R A L SC H E MA S W H I C H TI LL THEN W E R E A LO N E CAPABLE O F PROV I D I N G ACCESS T O E ROTIC PLEASU RE.

A B A N D O N M E N T O F J O U I S S A N C E . T H E SCA N D A L C A N THEN COME T O A N E N D-TH E F E M I N I N E S E X B E A R S W I T N E S S T O C A STRATION .

THE

DE C I S I V E

STE P

BY

WHICH

THE

FEM I N I N E

U NCONSC I O U S I S M O D I F I E D LI ES, NOT SO M U C H I N THE A N A LYST, FOR HIS P A RT, C A N NOT DEFINE THE C H A N G E O F LOVE OBJECT" A S I N T H E C H A N G E IN THE U N C O N SC I O U S R E P R ESENTATIVE, PHALLIC R E P R E S E NTATIVES ARE MASCU S UBSTI

F E M I N I N E C A STRATION S I M P LY A S T H E E F F ECT O F HIS STRUCTU RES. IF THE EXEMPLAR OF THE

LINE,

HYSTE R I C A L, N E U ROTIC WOMA N I S O N E W H O N EVER LETS U P WI S H I N G TO B E H E R SEX, I N V E R S E LY, I SN'T THE " A D U LT" W O M A N ONE WHO RECONSTRUCTS H E R SEXUALITY I N A F I E L D W H I C H G O E S B E Y O N D S E X ? T H E P R I N C I PLE OF A M A SC U L I N E L I B I DO U PH E L D BY

TUTED F O R T H E F I RST "CONCENTRIC" R E P R E S E N TATI VE. T H E L A W A N D T H E PATE R N A L I D E A L S O F THE FA T H E R WHICH ARE ARTICU LATED NEW IN HER

D I SCOU R S E

CONSTITUTE

THE

R E P R E S E NTA

TIVES CAPA B L E O F S U PPLANTING TH E MODELS OF A R C H A IC R E P R E S E NTATIONS (FE M I N I N E OED I P U S) '

F R E U D COULD B E C L A R I F I E D A S A TH I S "EXTRATE R RITOR I A LITY."

F U NCTION O F

L E T US N O T E THAT T H I S S U BSTITUTION D O E S N OT F E M I N I N E CASTRATION: H Y POTH ESES MUTI LATE THE W O MA N AND DEPR I V E HER OF A

P E N I S WH I C H S H E N E V E R H A D , BUT DEPRI VES H E R O F ONCE AGA I N , LET US TA K E AN E X A M PLE FROM T H E SENSE O F P R EC OC I O U S SEXUALITY. FE M I N I N I TY I S FORGOTT E N , I ND E E D RE PRESSED, AND THIS LOSS CONSTITUTES THE S Y M BOLIC CASTRATION O F T H E WOMAN,

LITERATU R E, K LOSSOW S K I ' S PORTRAITS O F WOM E N E A S I LY LEND TH E M SELVES WE TO A CLINICAL AT THE ANA THE

COM M E NTARY.

MIGHT B E SURPRISED

A STON I S H I N G L Y TOM I C A L AND

V I R I LE

ATTR I B U T E S ( BOTH WHICH

P S Y C H I C A L - 'N I T H

AUTHOR E N OOWS H I S H E RO I N E S A N D D E D U C E FROM THEM S O M E P E R V E R S I O N. I T IS A LSO POSSIBLE TO SEE IN THESE ATTRIB UTES THE M A T E R I A L OF A

SUBLIMATION AND M ETAPHOR

IN

A N A LY S I S

AND

MORE THE

S P EC I F I C A LLY,

IN

TH E

MORAL FABLE OUTLI N I NG A T Y P E OF P E R FECTED FEMINI NITY: T H E WOMA N WOULD "T R U E" BE WOMAN, AS T H E " F E M M E" WHO HAS

TRA NSFE R E N C E ,

( I , E"

SET OF U NCONSCI O U S E N U N C I ATION

MOD I FICATIONS P R O D U C E D BY THE

DRAWN

SHE

OF D I SCO U R S E O N T H E COUC H), THE D I M E N S I O N OF PLEA S U R E C A N E M E RGE.

" FORGOTT E N "

HER

F E M I N I N ITY,

AND

WHO

WOU LD

ENTRUST T H E J O U I S S A N C E A N D T H E R E PRESE NTA TION OF IT TO AN OTH E R . FOR THIS REASON, IN NO IN RECHERCH ES, TOROK SPEAKS OF ITS M A N I FESTA TION: "W H E N ONE OF MY PAT I E NTS HAS ' U N DE R

KLOSSOWSKI'S WAY TALK

H E RO I N E ,

ROBE RTE, HER

COULD BOD Y

ABOUT

H E R S E LF,

OR "THE

STOOD' A N I N TE R P R ETATION, WHEN. CONSEQUENT LY, AN I N H I BITION IS L I FTED, A FREQUENT

WORD THAT IT CONCEA LS. I T IS SOMEON E E LSE'S TASK TO HOLD THE D I S C O U R S E O F F E M I N I N I TY, I N LOVE A N D/OR I N A NOVEL.

I NDICATION O F T H I S A DVANCE I S THAT THE PATI E N T D R E A MS A N D I N T H I S D R E A M S H E H A S A N O RG A S M " (A D E SC R I PT I O N OF ONE OF THESE DREAMS

UNDER T H E S I G N OF THIS FORG ETTING, A SECON D ECONOMY LONG E R OF THE D E S I R E, SAME, WHERE CAN THE STA K E IS NO DE-

FOLOWS)."

EFFECTIVELY

BE

TOROK,

BY

I N S I ST I N G

ON

THE

FACT

THAT

23 1

P L E A S U R E A RI S E S W H E N A N EW R E P R E S ENTATION IS E L A BORATED. TELLS US WHAT IS E S S E N TI A L

M UST

BE

E M P H A S I Z E D.

IN

R E S PO N S E A N A L Y ST

TO

THE

A N A LY S A N D'S ATES A S A R I LY

P H A NTASY. T H E

ENUNCI

A BOUT T H I S P L EA S U R E . CONTRA R Y T O WHAT O N E M I G H T TH I N K . TH I S P L E A S U R E DOES NOT L I E I N THE L I FTI NG OF TENSION. AN I N H I B I TION. IN TH E TOO R E LEA S I NG O F LONG. ON TH E

C E R TA I N N U M B E R OF S I G N I F I E R S N ECES RELATING TO HIS OWN DESI R E AND HIS

L I STE N I NG-PLA C E . T H E S E WORDS A R E OTH E R : T H E A N A LYST'S D I F F E R E NT. M I R RO R . OF D I SC O U R S E AS SUCH IT IS IS NOT A R E FL E X I V E . BUT A

C O N TA I N E D THE BY

FOR

CONTRARY. EXPLICABLE

PLEASURE. THE CLICHE

FAR OF

FROM

BEING ("DE

METAPHOR.

NOT

RELEASE

THE

PATl E NT'S

D I SC O U R S E .

A N D.

FO U L E M E Nr')" A R I S E S F R O M THE PUTTI NG I N PLACE

P R E C I S E LY. M ET A P H O R I S C A P A B LE OF E N G E N D E R ING PLEASURE.

OF

NEW

R E P R E S E NTATI ONS. F I R ST

LET

US

NOTE

THAT

THESE THE

WERE

E N U N C I A TED IN

BY TH E OTH E R . V E RBALLY FI RST FREUD AND TH E N LAC A N A N A LYZED THE

A N A LYST. W H O .

I N T E R P R ETING. OF A

A R T I C U LA T E S

S O M ETH I NG

SEXUA LITY

MOTI V E S O F T H I S P L E A S U R E W I TH R E G A R D T O T H E JOKE. WE LAUGH WHEN WE PERCEIVE THAT THE

M A I NTA I N E D T I L L TH E N I N T H E STATE O F N A T U R E . I N T H E "DA R K . "

WORDS S P E A K A T E X T OTH E R T H A N T H A T W H I C H W E T H O U G H T. AND IF THE OTH E R L A U G H S. IF THE

H E R E . T H E R E FO R E .

P L E A S U R E I S T H E E FFECT O F

M I S A P P R E H ENSION P L A Y S ON O N E M O R E REGISTER. THE PLEASURE BECOMES KEENER STILL. WHAT

T H E WORD OF T H E OTH E R . M O R E S P EC I F I C A L LY. I T OCC U R S AT THE FOR A DV E NT WHAT IS OF A S T R U CT U R I N G IN THE

F U NCTION D O E S T H I S OTH E R TEXT. T H I S OTH E R E A R . H A V E ? I T H A S T H E F U NCTION O F E N G E N D E R I NG A M ET A P H O R . THAT IS TO SAY. OF S U BS T I T U T I N G

D I SCOU R S E .

ESS E N T I A L

A N A LY S I S OF A WOM A N I S N OT M A K I NG S E X U ALITY M O R E "CON S C I O U S" O R I N T E R PRET I N G IT. AT LEAST NOT I N THE SENSE N O R M A L LY GIVEN TO THIS TERM. THE ANA LYSrS WORD TA K E S ON A COMPLETELY

I T S E L F F O R T H E P R E C E D I NG TEXT A N D L I S TE N I NG PLACE. PLEASURE ARISES THE MOMENT THIS

M ET A P H O R I S PRODUCED. LACA N S A Y S THAT I T I S I DE NT I F I E D M ET A P H O R .7 WITH THE VERY M E A N I NG OF THE

D I F F E R E N T F U NCTI ON. I T N O LONG E R E X PLA I N S . BUT FROM THE SOLE FACT OF ARTICULATING. IT

STR UCTU RES. B Y V E R B A L L Y PUTTING I N PLACE A R E P R E S E NTATION O F C A S T R A TION. T H E A N A LYSrS WORD THIS MAKES TYPE S E X U A L I TY PASS I NTO DISCO U R S E . T H E R E FO R E IN WHAT THEN. DOES THIS M E A N I NG B E R E FT O F

S I G N I F I C A TI O N C O N S I ST? W E C A N D E F I N E I T A S T H E MEASURE OF THE E M PTY "SPACE" I NDUCED BY

OF

I N T E R P R ET A T I O N

RE PRESSES. A T L E A ST I N TH E S E N S E G I V E N TO T H E
W O R D H E RE.

R E P R E S S I O N . T H E M ETAPHOR. BY POS I NG I T S E L F A S THAT WHICH IS NOT S POKE N . H O L LOWS O U T A N D

D E S I G N ATES T H I S S P A C E . F R E U D S A I D T H A T T H E U N D ERSTOOD P E R H A PS C U L TU R A L IN THIS WAY. US TO I NTE R P R ETATION CAN LOCATE A C E RTA I N P L EA S U R E OF T H E JOKE L I E S I N T H E R E T U R N O F THE R E P R ESSED. DOES IT NOT R A TH E R. LIE

HELP AND

IN

S OC I A L

F U N CT I O N O F PSYCHO

PUTTI NG T H E D I M EN S I O N OF REPRESSION I NTO P L A Y O N T H E LEVEL O F T H E T E X T ITSE1.F?

A N A LY S I S. T H E

F R E U D I A N T H EORY OF S E X U A LITY IN R E LATION TO ASK W H E TH E R PRE

W A S D E V E LO P E D (MISE E N PLACE) WOM E N AND F E M I N I NI TY. WAS WE N OT CAN

I T IS T H I S P L E A S U R E O F THE JOKE THAT CAN B E EVOK E D I N R E LA T I O N TO A L L S U B L I M ATION. FO R I T I S A N O P E R AT I O N W H I C H C O N S I STS I N OPE N I NG U P N E W D I V I S I O N S A N D SPACES I N T H E M A T E R I A L THAT IT T R A N S FO R M S . IN THE TRANSFERENCE. THE

PSYCHOA N A LY S I S

A RT I C U L A T E D

C I S E L Y I N O R D E R T O R E P R E SS F E M I N I N I TY ( I N T H E S E N S E OF PRODUC I NG ITS S Y M BOLIC R E P R E S E NTA T I O N ) . AT THE S A M E T I M E . F R E U D'S R E S E R V ATIONS ABOUT JON E S WOU L D M A K E SENSE: T H E A TT E M PTS TO " M A K E" F E M I N I N I TY " S P E A K" W O U L D S U R E LY

PAT I E NrS ORGASM TOOK NOTE O F A N I NT E R P R ETA TION. S U R E LY T H I S OF AIR IS BEST R E P R E S E N T E D AS TWO A

J EOPARDIZE T H E V E R Y R E P R ESSION THAT F R E U D H A D K N O W N HOW TO A C H I E V E .

BREATH

B ETWE E N

SIGNIFI ERS.

S U D D E N LY O P E N E D U P B Y T H E M ETAPHOR?

LET U S RETU R N TO O U R E X A M PLE. W H A T PLEASU R E CAN THERE BE IN THE R E PRESSION THAT IS

T H E O R G A S M . LIKE A B U ST OF LAUGHTER. TESTI F I E S TO THE M E A N I NG-I N S I G N I F I C A NT-DF WE M U S T NOW OF " W I T" TRY TO IN THE A N A L

PRODUCED AT T H E M O M E N T O F I NT E R P R ETATION? FI RST. LET U S S A Y THAT I N T E R PRETATION. A S I T IS A N A LYZED H E R E . DOES N OT CONSIST SO M UC H I N E X P LA I N I NG A N D COM M EN T I N G A S I N A RTICU LAT I N G . H E R E AGA I N . IT IS THE FORM OF WORDS W H I C H

YSrS WORD. THIS

R E D I SCOV E R AND

D I M E N SI O N

PLEAS U R E

JOUISSANCE.

PLEA S U R E A N D J O U I SSANCE

232

F E M I N I N E EROTIC PLEASURE VARI ES CONSIDE RAB LY IN ITS NATURE AND EFFECTS. THERE I S VARI ETY IN THE PLACES OF THE BODY CATH ECTED. IN THE LEVEL OF I NTENSITY. I N TH E OUTCOM E (ORGASM OR N OT > . AND IN THE E F F ECTS: A " S U CC E S S F U L"

TION.

DOES

NOT

THE

SUBLI MATED

SEX U A L

ACT

CONSTITUTE FOR THE WOM A N O N E OF THE WAYS O F PUTTING A N ECONOMY I NTO PLACE W H E R E : 1 . T H E S I G N I F I E R WOU LD BE ACTUALIZED I N THE RHYTH M . T H E PERIOD RETU RN O F THE P E N I S: 2. T H E STA K E WO ULD C O N S I ST O F T H E REPRESSED FEMININE

SEXUAL R E LATION CAN C A U S E C A L M OR A N X I ETY. LET US A LSO R E M E M B E R THAT A N E U ROSIS C A N N OT N ECESSARI LY BE I N F E R R E D FROM F R I G I D I TY; A N D T H AT. R E C I P R OC A L L Y . WOM EN PSYCHOTI C S I NTENSE AND VERY

DRIVES. ' o INSEPA RABLE F ROM T H E PENIS ITSELF; AND 3 . PLEASU R E WOULD BE THE M E A N I NG OF THE M ETAPHOR THROUGH WHICH THE PENIS "WOULD

I M MATU RE ORGA SMS.s

HAVE

VAG I N A L

REPRESS" T H E BODY. F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY.

LET HOW A R E WE TO M A K E S E N S E OF TH E E X U B E RANCE. THE BIZA R R E N ESS A N D THE PARADOXES OF THESE PLEA S U R ES? BY R E F E R R I NG LESS TO THE V A R I E TIES OF FORM AND I N T E N S ITY THAN TO TH E I R

US

BE

MORE

PR ECISE:

THE

PEN IS.

ITS

THROBBING. ITS C A D E N C E A N D THE MOVE M E NTS O F LOVE- M A K I N G C O U L D B E PUR EST AND MOST SAID T O PRODUCE T H E FORM OF

E L E M E N TA R Y

SIGN I FY I N G A RTIC U LATION. THAT' O F A S E R I ES O F BLOWS W H I C H M A R K OUT THE SPACE OF TH E BODY.

FU NCTION I N T H E PSYC H IC ECONOMY. H E R E AGA I N . WE WILL D I ST I N G U I S H THE TWO T Y P E S AND OF SEXUAL SUBLI

PLEAS U R E : MATED.

P R ECOC I O U S

THE

IT I S TH I S WHICH OPENS U P RHYTH M S A LL TH E MORE A M PLE AND I NTENSE. A JOUISSANCE ALL TH E MORE KEEN AND SERIOUS I N THAT THE P E N IS. THE OBJECT

THE FI RST WAS E A R L I E R SEEN TO BE T H E E FFECT OF THE EXPE R I E N C E OF ARCH A IC S E X U ALITY. EVEN I F IT I NVOLVES TWO PEOPLE. EVEN I F IT PRESENTS THE APPEARANCE OF AN A D ULT S E X U A LITY. OR RAISES TO IT

WHICH I S ITS I N STR U M E N T. IS SCA RC E LY A N YTH I NG.

BUT TO STATE TH I S I S TO STATE A PARADOX: THE PENIS PROD U C E S JOUISSANCE BECA U S E IT

M E R E LY

RE-ACTU A L IZES

THE

I N C A R N ATES A I M P LIES A

F I N I TU D E .

S U B L I M A TION A L W A Y S THE PHALLIC SIG

H I G H EST PITCH I N ORGASM. THE JOUISSANCE THAT TH E WOM A N PLEA S U R E . FU RTH E R E R OTIC HAS OF H E RSELF. 9 I N THIS TYPE OF THE OTH E R'S LOOK A N D HIS C I RC U LA RITY THE DESIRE. OF THE

DE-IDEA LIZATION.

N I F I E R. DETAC H E D F R O M THE T E R R I FY I NG REPRE SENTATIONS OF T H E SUPE REGO WHICH RE VOLVE

R E I N FORCE

TH E

A ROU ND THE I M A G I N A R Y PHALLUS. M U ST APPEA R AS AN OBJ ECT O F NOT- M UCH- M E A N I NG. "

R E LA T I O N .

HENCE

A N X I ETY

THAT

A R I S E S B E FORE A N D AFTER T H E S E X U A L ACT. TH I S I N V E R S E LY. PLE A S U R E CAN B E STRUCTU R I NG I N ITS EFFECTS. THE SORT OF "G E N I US." O F I N S P I RATION WHICH TH E WOM A N D I SCOVERS AFTER LOVE. SHOWS THAT A N EVENT O F A N UNCONSCIOUS NATURE HAS OC C U R R E D. WHICH HAS E N A BL E D HER TO TAKE U P A C E RTA I N DI STA N C E F RO M T H E D A R K CONTI N E NT. STEP USUA LLY SUSPENDED D U R I NG CHI LD PLACE A FTER THE FI RST SEX U A L

HOOD.

TA KES

EXPER I E NCES OF A D U LTHOOD. IS IT A QUESTION OF U N CON S C I O U S GROUND CERTA I N HAS ETH I C PROCESSES? BEEN PROVI DED LIFE WORK. THE A

PREPARED. THIS

AND

U N DERTAKE

TO THE

EXTENT THAT ROMANTIC I D E A LIZATION IS SUCCESS FU LLY M O U R N E D ( R E L I N Q U I S H ED). TO THE EXTENT

WE WILL CALL S U B LI MATED PLEA S U R E THAT WHICH TA KES THE S A M E SURE WHILE FOR MS AS I N C ESTUOUS PLEA PRESU PPOS I NG AND

THAT THE D I M E N S ION OF THE G I FT PREDO M I NATES. THE PE N I S CAN OBJ ECTI FY. BY ITS VERY I N SIGN I F I CANCE. THE " D I F F I C U LTY T O B E " OF T H E COU PLE. I N WHICH JOUISSANCE IS LOST. T H U S I T C A N NO

NON ETHELESS

CONFI R M I NG W O M E N ' S ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC. TH I S PLEASURE IS NO LON G E R DERIVED FROM

LONGER BE S E PA RATED I N ITS CONSISTENCY FROM THE MATE R I A L OF THIS HAS A R C H A IC. BEEN FEM I N I N E

FEM I N I N ITY AS SUCH. BUT FROM THE SIGNIFIER. MORE PRECI S E LY. FROM THE REPRESSION THAT IT BRINGS ABOUT: THIS IS WHY S U B L I M ATED PLEA S U R E IS

JOU I S S A N C E EMBODI ES RESTORES

WHICH

RENOUNCED. I T OF A SUDDEN

IT AS

LOST.

AND

ALL

I D ENTI FIED WITH THE PLEA S U R E DERIVED FROM THE JOKE.

IT A H U N D R E DFOLD. FOR IT DEPLOYS

T"'C'

TH IS JOUISSANCE IN DI R ECT PROPORTION TO FORGETTI NG. WHICH I S IN ITSELF I N FI N ITE.

SUCH A TRANSFORMATION ASSU M ES. ON THE ONE H A ND. THE FORGETTING OF PRECOCIOUS F E M I N I N ITY. A N D ON TH E OTH E R . T H E SETTI NG I N PLACE OF A NEW REPRESE NTATI VE OR SIGN I F I E R OF CASTRATHUS. ETHICS I S I N D I SSOC I A B LE F ROM A 'CERTA I N ' RELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E DE-IDEA LIZATION THAT I T IMPLIES ALONE MAKES POS S I BLE TH E

233

OC C A S I O N A L C O M I N G TOGETH E R A N D B I N D I N G OF TWO P E RFECTLY THE D I ST I N C T . H E T E R OG E N E O U S SENSATION BODY IN A OF AN

JOUISSANCE

A N D THE

ORGASM

WHICH

IS

P RO

D U C E D I N A S U B L I M A T E D ECONOMY. IN T H E FOR M E R . T H E R E S I D U E OF P L E A S U R E C O M E S T O A D E A D E N D . S I N C E TH E WOM A N A GA I N F I N DS H E RSELF POWER LESS TO M A I NTA I N T H E THIS FORM OF ORGA S M . UNCONSCIOUS ECONOMY. R E G I STERI NG PLE A S U R E BARS

SPACES.

V O L U PT U O U S THE WHOLE

A S P I R A T I ON

OF

SPAC E

A B SOLUTELY OTH E R A N D CONSEQU E NTLY. I N F I N ITE. C A N NOT S I M PLY B E E X P LA I N E D AS THE EFFECT OF THE PERCEPTION OF THE VAGI N A L C A VITY. IT

OUTS I D E

SIGNIFICANCE

(SIG NI FIANCE).

I M PL I E S THAT T H I S C A V I TY I S HOLLOWED OUT BY R E PRESSION. OP E R ATION. THAT IS TO SAY. BY A SYMBOLIC

ACCESS TO T H E S Y M BOLIC. S U B L I M ATION. O N T H E CONTR A R Y. T R A N S PO RTS N O T O N L Y P L E A S U R E B U T THE ORGASM I NTO M ETA P HOR. O R G A S M . E N D LESS LY R E N E W E D. AT B ROUGHT THE TO A OF W H I TE H EAT. IT

CONSEQUE NTLY.

PLEASURE.

FA R

FROM

BEING

EXPLODES BURSTS

M O M E NT

PLE A S U R E .

R E D U C E D T O T H E EXCITATION OF A N ORGAN. O N T H E C O N T R A RY. T R A N SPORTS THE WOM A N I N TO THE

I N T H E DOU B L E

SENSE O F THE

FRENCH

T E R M ECLATER: T H E S E N S E OF D E F LAGRATION A N D THAT O F A R E V E LATION. TH E R E I S T H E R E FORE A CONTI N U ITY OF THE A S C E N T OF P L E A S U R E A N D OF ITS A POG E E IN ORGASM: TH E ONE CARRIES THE

F I E L D OF T H E S IG N I F I E R. S U B L I M ATED PLEASURE. L I K E T H E DREAM AND HYPNONIS. L I K E THE POETIC ACT. M A RKS A M O M E N T W H E N THE U NCONSC IOUS

R E P R E S E NTATION T A K E S ON A N ABSOLUTE V A L U E : I N OTH E R WORDS. W H E N THE ACT OF A RTICULATING PRODUCES ON I TS OWN THE M E A N I NG OF DIS

S I GN I FI E R T O ITS M A X I M U M I NC A N DESCENCE: T H E OTH E R M A R K S THE M O M E N T W H E N THE D I SCOURSE. IN EXPLODING COMES UNDER TO THE THE E FFECT OF OF ITS OWN OF

COU R S E . ( M E A N I NG NOT H I N G). SWEE P I NG A W A Y A L L SI G N I FICATION. I T L A Y S H O L D O F THE WOM A N A N D C A TC H E S RH Y T H M S . ' 2 HER IN ITS PROGRESSION AND ITS

FORCE .

POINT

B R E A K I NG.

COM I NG A PA RT. I T I S N O LONG E R A N YTH I NG.

TO

BREAK

ITSELF.

TO

D I SJOINT ITSELF. ITSELF

I N OTH E R A

WOR D S . FOR T H E M A N . E XC E PTIONS A S IDE. ' 3 T H I S TR A N S PORT A T I O N I N TO THE SIGNI FIER C A N NOT BE

TO

A RT I C U LA T E

THROUGH

M EA N I NG W H I C H E N D LESSLY ESCAPES. ORGASM I N DISCOURSE FEMI N I N E L E A DS US TO THE BE POI NT WHERE

PRODUCED I N S O V I O L E N T A N D R A D I C A L A WAY. I N FACT. HOW C O U L D H E A B A N DO N H I MSELF TO THAT WH I C H H E H I M S E L F CONTROLS. A N D FROM WHOSE PL A Y GAME HE GIVES JOUISSANCE. THE MOREOV E R . TH I S

JOUISSANCE C A N

U N D E RSTOOD A S

WRITING (ECRITURE). TO T H E POI NT W H E R E I T M U ST A PP E A R THAT T H I S J O U I S S A N C E A N D THE LITE R A R Y T E X T ( W H I C H I S A LSO W R ITTEN PRODUC E D FROM W I TH I N L I K E A N ORGASM A R E THE

(PLAY) AND

I NVOLVES A LSO

R I S K OF

DETU M ES A N X I ETY

DISCOURSE).

CENCE. 1 4

THE

V E R TIGO A N D

EFFECT O F T H E SAME M U R D E R O F T H E S I G N I F I E R .

A RO U S E D BY THE A B S O L UTE O F FEM I N I N E D E M A N D : T H E WOMA N E X PECTS A N D R E C E IVES A L L TH E R E I S O F T H E P E N I S AT T H E MOMENT OF LOVE I SN'T T H I S W H Y BATA I LLE. J A R R Y A N D JABES S P E A K OF W R I T I NG A S T H E J O U I SS A N C E O F A WOMA N7 A N D W H Y T H A T W H I C H S H E I S W R I T I N G I S T H E N A M E7'v

IF W E NO LON G E R C O N S I D E R WHAT I S PROPE R L Y CALLED PLE A S U RE. BUT THE ORGASM U S U A LLY

DESIGNATED A S "JO U I S S A NCE" BY THE A N A LYST. A S I M I LA R DISTINCTION M U ST BE MADE BETW E E N

M I C H E LE MONTRELA Y TRANSLATED BY PARVEEN ADA M S

NOTES

M A RGUERITE

DURAS.

LA RAVISSEMENT DE L O L V

STEIN. GA LLIMA RD. P. 54.

F. DOLTO. 'LA L I B I DO ET SON DESTIN FEMI N I N ,' LA

PSYCHANAL YSE. VI I . P U F.

P. KLOSSOWSKI. LES LOIS DE LHOSPITALITE . P. 1 45.

W. GRANOFF AND F. PERRI ER. 'LE PROBLEME DE LA P E R V E RSION CHES LA FEMME ET LES IDEAUX

THE

'C H A N G E

OF

O B J E C T'

D E S I G NATES

THE

RENUNCIATION O F T H E FIRST LOVE OBJECT. THE MOTH ER. IN FAVO U R OF THE FATHER. ON T H I S

FEM I N I NS: LA PSYCHANALYSE. V I I . T H I S ARTICLE I S ESSENTIA L FOR THEORETICAL WORK O N FEM I N I N E SEXUALITY.

PROBLEM. CF J. LUQUET-PARAT. ' L E CHANGEMENT OOBJET.

234

O P CIT,

p, 1 92

SEEN.

P R E S U P POSES WOM A N

AN PUTS

ECONOMY HERSELF

OF AT

DES I R E STA K E

WHERE THE

P R O POS

OF

M ETA P H O R , L.ETTER IN

CF THE

J,

L.AC A N ,

'THE

(ENJEU).

AGENCY OF THE ECRITS, A

UNCONSCIOUS: A, S H E R I DA N ) .

S E L EC T I O N

(TRANS,

'3

EXCEPT IN THE CASE OF ACTU A L. HOMOSEXUALITY. HOWEVER, W E MUST B E CAREFUL NOT TO SET UP TOO C L EA R - C U T A D I STINCTION B ET W E E N THE

T A V I S TO C K ,

1 9 7 7 A N D ' L. E S F O R M A T I O N S D E 1 9 !5 6-!57), O N PL.EASURE

L'INCONSCI E NT: S E M I N A I R E

BY THE SAME A UTHOR: 'PROPOS D I R ECTIFS POUR UN CONGRES S E U I L. , SUR LA S E X U A L.ITE IN F E M I N I NE: I N P R E P A R ATION, OF ACQUES

SEXUALITY OF THE M A N A N D THAT O F T H E WOM A N , W I T HO U T P R E TE N D I N G TO S ETTLE THE WHOLE

ECRI TS, FEM I N I N E

( T R A N S L.ATION IN THE

PROBLEM OF BISEXUA L.ITY H E R E , L.ET U S ONL.Y SAY THAT EVERY MASC U L I N E SUBJ ECT I S CATHECTED AS THE OBECT A N D PRODUCT OF HIS MOTHE R : HE WAS 'PART OF THE MATERNAL. BODY. I N R E LATION

SEXUA LITY

SCHOOL

LACAN, J, ROSE AND J . M ITCHE L.L. M A C M I L.LAN.)

C F F, DOLTO, O P CIT.

TO

TH E

M A SC U L I N E THEN.

BODY

AND

U N C O N SC I O U S OF

C A TH E X I S

ONE

C O U L. D A L. S O S P E A K

CF

p, A U LA G N I E R . LE D ES I R ET LA PERVERSION. SEUIL..

'FEM I N I NITY' A S I M PLI E D I N MATE R N A L. F E M I N I N ITY. WOULD NOT THE SEXUAL. ACT B E STRUCTU R I NG FOR

'0

DRIVES

REPRESSED

BOTH

IN

THE

COURSE

OF

THE MAL.E SUBJECT TO THE EXTENT THAT. PUTTI NG I NTO PLAY THE REPR ESSION OF F E M I N I NITY, HE

EARL.I E R O E D I P A L. E X P E R I ENC ES,

AS W E L. L. AS IN

THE PRESENT, BY THE V E R Y FACT OF THE PRESENCE OF T H E PENIS.

WOUL.D PRODUCE EACH T I M E T H E COUPURE WHICH SEPARATES ' R E TU R N I NG' THE TO M A N FROM HER THE HIS MOTH ER, WHILE HIS

F EM I N I N ITY

OF

"

T H I S PARAGRA PH A N D THE FOL.L.OWING ONE WERE ADDEO TO THE E A R L I E R C RITIQ U E ARTICLE I N IT WAS NECESSARY ONL.Y TO C L.EA R UP A

PARTNER.

1 976,

M ISUNDER

'4

O N THE QUESTION O F DETUMESCENCE CF LACAN, SEMINAIRE

STA N D I NG, SIGNIFIER R E L. A T I N G

SOMEONE

WHO

I DE A L.IZES THE THE FACT OF OF

1 9 67-68. S E E ALSO 'THE SIGNI FICATION

C O U L. D

INTERPRET TO AN

OF TH E PHA L.LUS: ECRITS A SELECTION, TAVISTOCK AND 'PROPOS DERECTI FS PUR U N CONGRES SUR LA SEXUALITE F E M I N I N E : ECRITS, S E U I L. .

O U I SS A N C E

O P E R A TI O N

SUBLI MATION A N D TO T H E PUTTING I NTO PLAY OF T H E ' S I G N I F I E R' A S 'FRENZIED I D EA L. I ZATION' (C,

DAVID), I TA K E A S A T R I BUTE-NO DOUBT I N VOL.UN TARY-WHAT SOMEONE EXCL.A I M E D

A PROPOS O F

TRANSLATOR'S NOTES

T H I S A RTICL.E, ' S O T H E O U I SSANCE OF T H E WOMAN IS PRODUCED B Y T H E OPERATIONS O F THE HOL.Y GHOST!' IT CAN H A P P E N I THE A RTICLE LA OF LA FEM I N ITE IS ITALICIZED IN THE FRENCH: C F J. LACAN, 'DI EU ET LA JOUISSANCE DE FEMME' I N SEMINAIRE XX.

'2

IF

THE

WOM A N .

AT

THE

M O M E N T OF

ORGAS M , I N 'WOMA N L I N ESS A S A MASQU E R ADE' IN PSYCHO ANALYSIS AND FEMALE SEXUALITY, EO. H E N R I C K M,

IDENTIFIES H E RS E L F R A DICAL.LY WITH A N UNCON SC IOUS R E P R E S E NTATION, A RT I C ULATED BY THE

OTH ER, THEN DOES S H E NOT FINO HERSEL.F AGA I N PRECIS EL.Y I N T H E A R C H A IC SITUATION W H E R E T H E MATERNAL R EPRESENTATION WAS THE S O L. E

R UITENBEEK, NEW HAVEN, USA,

1 9 66.

"'

I N THE EARL.IER VERSIQN OF THIS ARTICLE WHICH A PPEARED I N CRITIQUE

ORGA NIZER O F PHA NTASY? ISN'T THE ORGASM. B Y T H I S FACT, A 'REGRESSIVE' PROCESS F O R H E R ? T H E R E P L. Y COULD BE IN THE A F F I R M ATIVE FOR

278 T H I S S E NTENCE E N DS

WITH 'SINCE IT CONSISTS IN CONFRONTING DES I R E W I T H A BODILY L.ACK ( W H I C H I S C A R N A L.):

ORGASMS OF T H E PSYCHOTIC OR N E U ROTIC (ACUTE HYSTERIA) TYPE, IN THESE CASES. PL.EASURE A N D ORGASM A R E NOTH I N G M O R E T H A N T H E M A N I FES TATION DIRECT OF, A MO N G OF OTH E R TH E THE T H I NGS. BY A THE SORT OF

,v

DI RECTOR C A R L. D R EYER. MADE IN

1 943,

THE

FRENCH

GIVES

D E FO U L E M E N T

WHICH

IS

SEIZURE

WOMAN

OTH ER'S ON THE THIS

D I R ECT I N VERS ION/P U N ON THE FRENCH WORD FOR REPRESSION: REFOU LEM ENT.

DISCOURSE, C ON T R A R Y , R E L.ATION IS

FOR

WOMAN, HER

WHO,

ASSUMES I N D I RECT

CASTRATION,

IT

PASSES OF

THROUGH T H E M A T E R N A L. HAVE

v,

NOM

PUNS ON

THE

FRENCH

NEGATIVE

NON

AND

( P A T E R N A L.) D I SCOU R S E . A

M ET A P H O R METAPHOR

THE

ALSO R E F E R S T O L E NOM D U P E R E (NAM E-QF-THE FATHER).

WHICH.

A S WE

2 S !5

FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOU RSE JACQUES H E N RIC:

ROLA N D BARTHES, IT
H IM S E L F S E U I Ll -BY T H E PARAOOX. W H E N A S ET OF

S E E M S T O M E THAT S I N C E

DEGREE ZERO OF
W I TH EACH

POS ITIONS TUTE TRUE, A

SEEMS

TO

CONSOLI DATE,

TO CONSTI THEN I T'S

W R I T I N G , M YT H O L O G I ES

AND

D E F I NITE

S OC I A L

SITUATION.

FOLLOW I NG BOOK I T H A S B E E N L E S S A N D L E S S E A S Y T O LOCA LI ZE YOU A S A WRITER. HOW, LOOKING BACK ON YOU R PAST WORK, DO YOU S I TU ATE YOU RSELF I N T H E H I STORY OF THOUGHT OF TH ESE LAST YEA RS? A N D TODAY , WHAT PLACE DO YOU FEEL YOU

SPONTA N EOUSLY AND

WITHOUT T H I N K I NG I

WANT TO OPT OUT. IN THAT I CON S I D E R MYSELF A N I NT E L L E C T U A L, I N T E L L EC T U A L SINCE IS THE FUNCTION OF THE

A LW A Y S T O O PT

OUT

WHEN

T H I N G S "BEG I N T O J E LL." A S TO T H E S ECOND PART OF YOUR QUESTION. HOW DO I SITUATE MYSELF NOW. I OON'T S E E MYSELF AT A L L A S SOM EO N E WHO I S TRYING TO BE A LW A Y S TRIES O R I G I N A L, TO BUT A S SOMEONE WHO UP FOR A C E RT A I N

OCCU PY I N T H E DISCUSS ION OF C U R R ENT I DEAS?

SPEAK IS

ROLAND BARTHES: I N THE FRAGM ENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOURSE,

M A R G I N A LITY.

WHAT

M O R E C O M P L I C A T E D TO

OF

D I SC O U R S E , WITH A

TH E R E

IS

AS

IT

EXPLA I N IS THAT I N MY C A S E TH E R E IS N E V E R A N Y GLORY I N TH E C LA I M TO B E M A RG I N A L. I T I S OON E G E N T LY IF POS S I B L E . A M A R G I N A LITY THAT

HAPPENS

FIGURE

GREEK

NAME,

TH E

ADJECTIVE A P P L I E D TO SOCRATES. SOCRATES WAS SA I D TO BE ATOPOS, THAT I S TO SAY "WITHOUT A PLACE , " UNCLASSIFIABLE. IT IS AN A DJ ECTI V E
I

P R E S E R V E S A SPECTS O F COU RTESY, TO T E N D E R N E SS-WHY Non-A N D O N E YOU CA N'T PUT A TAG TO IN THE P R E S E N T C U R R EN T OF I DEAS.

U S U A LLY APPLY TO TH E BELOVED, SO THAT AS T H E SU PPOSE D LOV E R I N THE B OO K I DON'T S E E MYSELF AS ATOPOS, BUT ON TH E CONTRARY AS SOMEONE E XT R E M E LY B A N A l.., WITH A W E LL- K N O W N CASE

J. H.:
AND

WITH YOU THERE OFTEN S E E M S TO BE, QUITE E X P L I C I T LY, A DO U B L E AND

H ISTORY. W I THOUT TA K I N G SI DES O N W H ETH E R O R NOT I AM UNCLASSIFIA BLE. I M U ST A D M I T T H A T I IN FITS A N D STARTS, BY

CONTR A D I CTORY ATTITUDE. O N O N E H A N D YOU SHOW YOU R I NTER EST TO FO R TH E IN

H A V E A LWAYS WORK E D PHASES, TOU CH E D

MODERNS

( I NTRODUCTION

BRECHT .
. .

MOTORIZED SO TO S PEAK-SOMETH I NG I ON IN TH E
R.B. (ROLA N D BARTH ES BY

F R A N C E , TH E N EW NOVEL, TH E OT H E R HAND YOU

TEL QUEL
LIKE

) ON

RECALLING

236

Y O U R TASTE FOR T R A D I TI O N A L LITE RATU R E . W H AT I S T H E COH E R E N C E T H A T U N D E R LI ES TH E S E ATTI T U D E S ?

R. B.:

FOR

THE

S U BJ E C T

OF THE

I M AGI N A RY ,

CAN

PROVIDE M Y S E L F WITH AN A L I B I FOR WORK THAT I S SOMEWHAT AHEAD OF ITS TI M E, A FORM WITH OF A

TO M O R ROW'S I DO N ' T K N O W I F T H E R E I S A N U N D E RLYING COH E R ENCE. B U T Irs REALLY T H E CRUX OF THE M A TT E R . T H I NG S HAVE N O T A LW A Y S BEEN SO

A V A N T- G A R D E

P E R H A PS ,

TOUCH OF H U M O U R NATURA LLY. ' "

C L E A R TO ME AS YOU M A K E T H E M SOUN D NOW. AND FOR A LONG TI M E I F E LT MYSELF A LMOST

J.

H.:

I S N'T IT SOMEWHAT P R OVOCATI V E TO

S P E A K ABOUT "LOVE" TODAY I N TH E T E R M S OF Y E STE R DA Y , AND AT T H E H E IGHT O F "PLEA

S H A M E FU LLY TOR N B E TW E E N S O M E O F M Y TASTES. OR WHAT I WOU LD C A L L -S I N C E I'M FOND OF

S T R UCTU R A L I S M

TO D E FE N D T H E

D E F I N I N G TH I NG S IN TERMS O F CON D UCT RATH E R T H A N TASTE-MY E V E N I NG R E A D I NG (WHAT I R E A D IN THE EVENI NG) WHICH ARE A LW A Y S THE

S U R E OF TH E TEXT"?

R. B.: NO DOUBT, BUT I DON'T FEEL M Y B E H A V I O U R IS

CLASSICS. A N D M Y WORK D U R I NG T H E DAY W H E N . Irs TRUE. W I T H O U T A N Y K I N D O F H Y POC R I SY. I F E E L M Y S E L F V E R Y M U C H I N T U N E. O N T H E THEORETICAL AND C RITICAL FOR A L E V E L. LONG WITH VARIOUS MODERN

A QU ESTION OF TACTICS. S I M PLY THAT I H A V E , AS YOU SO WELL PUT IT, A KIND OF P R O FO U N D

D I FFIC ULTY I N PUTTI N G U P WITH T H E STER EOTY PE, THE E LA BORATION OF LITTLE COLLECT I V E LAN

WORKS.

TI M E

THE

CONTRADICTION

G U AGES, SO FA M I LI A R TO ME THROUG H MY WORK I N A PARTIC U L A R S P H E R E, T H E STU DENT S P H E R E . Irs VERY EASY FOR ME TO DETECT THOSE STER EO OF M A RG I N A L I TY, S T E R EO

R E M A I N E D C L A N D E ST I N E .

AND

I T WAS O N L Y WITH

T H E PREASURE OF THE TEXT T H A T I C A M E OUT I NTO TH E OPEN. RECOG N I Z I N G I N M Y S E L F A N D M A KING THE READER R EC O G N I Z E . P A ST. A TASTE AS FOR THE

TYPED

LANGUAGES

TYPES OF T H E NON-STEREOTYPE. I C A N HEAR T H E M T A K I NG FO R M . AT F I RST T H E R E'S A KIND OF

LITERATURE OF THE HAPPENS WHEN ONE

THEN.

A LW A Y S

A D M I T S T O A T A S T E FOR

PLEASURE I N I T , B U T LITTLE B Y L I TT L E I T BECO M E S BURDENSOME. FOR A WHILE I DON'T DARE

SOMETH I NG . TH EORY IS NOT FAR OFF. A N D I MORE OR LESS T R Y TO THEORIZE M Y TASTE FOR THE PAST. I MAKE USE OF TWO A R G U M E NT S : ADVANCES FI R S T O F A A SPIRAL

EXTRICATE M Y S E LF, I N THE E N D OFTEN BEC A U S E OF AN INCIDENT I N MY PERSONAL LIFE, I FIND THE

M ET A P H O R .

H I ST O R Y

IN

COURAGE TO BREAK WITH SUCH LANGUAGES.

ACCO R D I NG TO VICO'S I M AG E . O L D T H I NGS RETURN. BUT OBVIOUSLY T H E Y DON'T RETURN TO T H E S A M E PLACE; V A L U E S. WHICH PLACE, WITH CON S E Q U E N T L Y M A N N E RS. THERE ARE TASTES. PAST

"WRITI NGS" BUT TO

FROM A

THE

TH E ARCH ETYP E OF PASSIONATE LOV E

CAN

RETU R N ,

VERY IS

MODERN

T H E S E C O N D A R G U M ENT WORK ON THE

A SSOCIATED THE LOV E R

J.

H.:

LET'S

GO

BACK

TO

FRAGM ENTS OF A

MY

LOVE R ,

LOVER'S D I SCOURSE
THE READER,

IF YOU W I L L TO AVOID

DEVELOPS P R I N C I PALLY I N T H E R EG I STER O F W H AT, SINCE LAC A N , WE CALL THE I M AG I N A RY-AND I

ANY M I S U N D E RSTA N DI NG ON THE PART OF WOU LD YOU E X P LA I N THE

CON S I D E R M YS E L F A S U BJ ECT OF T H E I MA G I N A RY, I HAVE A L I V I NG R E LATION S H I P WITH T H E LITERA

TITLE?

T U R E OF T H E PAST B E C A U S E I T PROV I D E S M E WITH IMAGES AND E S TA B L I S H E S WITH THE ARE FOR ME A GOOD

R. B.: THAT M EA N S GIVING A BRIEF ACCOUNT OF THE

PROJECrS BACKGROU ND, I HAD A S E M I N A R AT THE ECOLE DES HAUTES ETUDES, AND YOU K N OW W E A RE A C E R TA I N NUMBER WO R K I N G OF ON R ES E A R C H THE WO R K E R S , OF D I S

R E LA T I ON S H I P STO R Y AND

I M AG E ,

FOR

E X A M PLE, OF THE

NOVEL

D I M E N SIONS

I MAGI NARY W H I C H E X I ST E D I N R E A D A B L E LITERA TURE, BY R ECOG N I Z I N G MY ATTAC H M E N T TO SUCH LITER ATU R E I AGITATE IN FAVOUR OF THE SUBJECT IN SO FAR AS THIS S U BJ E C T IS IN A SENSE

E S S A Y I STS,

NOTION

COURSE A N D THE BREAKS AWAY

DISCURSIVE. THAT

NOTION

WH ICH OF

FROM

OF

TONG UE,

LA NGUAGE. I T I S THE DISCURSIVE I N A V E R Y W I D E S E N S E : THE DISCURSIVE. T H E N A P P E O F LA NGUAGE I S A N OBJECT OF A N A LYSIS. A L I TT L E OVER TWO Y E A R S AGO I S A I D TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD STUDY A CERTA I N TYPE O F D I SCOURSE: W H A T I P R E S U M E D T O BE THE A M OROUS DISCOU RSE. M A K I N G I T C L E A R F R O M TH E START T H A T T H E LOVE R S I INTENDED

D I S I N H E R I T E D, PSYC H I C OTH E R S

CRUSHED

B Y T H O S E TWO G R E A T MORE THAN ATTENTION AND ANY OF

S T R U CT U R E S HAVE

WHICH

A R R ES T E D

THE

MODE R N I TY,

NA M E LY

N E UROSIS

PSYCHOSIS,

T H E I M AG I N A RY S U B J ECT IS A POOR R E LATION OF THOSE STRUCTU R E S BECAUSE HE IS NEITHER

A LTOG E T H E R N E U ROTIC. YOU

PSYCHOTIC, SEE,

NOR

A LTOG ETH E R D I SC R ETELY

S H O U L D B E LONG T O W H A T I S C A L L E D PASSION ATE LOVE, ROM A NTIC LOVE, SO I DEC I D E D TO HOLD A

B Y M I LITATING

237

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WHICH

WOULD

BE

THE

OBJ ECTI VE

J.

H.:

EVEN

SO,

WHO

SAYS

"I"

IN

THESE

A N A LY S I S O F A TYPE O F T H E DISC U RS I V E . I TH E N C H O S E A S U P PORTING A M OROUS WORK D I SCOU R S E BUT THE TEXT A N D A N A LYSED THE IN THAT WORK. NOT TH E IT

FRAG M ENTS?

R. B.: TO YOU I CAN S A Y A N D YOU W I LL U N DE RSTA N D ,

H E WHO S A Y S " I " I N T H E BOOK I S T H E "I" O F W R I T I NG, N A T U R A L LY ON THAT POINT I COULD B E C O R N E R E D I NTO S A Y I N G T H A T I T W A S M E. S O I ' L L R E PLY WITH T H E C A N N I N ES S O F A NOR M A N AND S A Y I T I S ME AND IT I S NOT M E . I T IS NO M O R E M E , I F YOU WILL A L LO W TH E C O M P A R I SO N THAN TH AT'S WHICH IS P E R H A PS A

ITSELF.

A MOROUS D I SCOURSE.

W A S W E R T H E R B Y GOETHE. W H I C H I S THE VE RITABLE A R C H ETYPE OF PASSIONATE LOVE . BUT D U R I N G THE TWO Y E A R S OF THE S E M I N A R I BECA M E A W A R E OF A D O U B L E MOV E M E N T. F I RST OF ALL I NOTI C E D THAT I WAS PROJ ECTI NG OR MYSELF MY LI FE IN T E R M S OF MY PAST C E RTA I N OF THE

EXPERI ENCE

I N TO

I N FA T U A T I O N , CHARACTER.

ST E N D H A L WHAT

D I R ECTI N G THE

F I G U R E S. I EVEN R E A C H E D THE POI N T O F CONFUS ING F I G U R E S FROM M Y OWN LIFE WITH THE F I G U R E S O F W E RT H E R .

MAKES

TEXT

SOM E W H A T R O M A N T I C . I N A N Y C A S E TH E R E LATION SHIP B E TW E E N THE AUTHOR AND THE STAG E

C H A R A C T E R HE D I R ECTS IS OF THE T Y P E I N FICTION. SECOND D I S CO V E R Y : THE LISTEN E R S OF THE

S E M I N A R PROJECTED T H E M S E LVES V E R Y STRONG LY I NTO I WHAT SAID WAS TO S A I D. UNDER THE THOSE ONLY CONDI

J.

H.:

T H A T'S T R U E,

C E RTA I N "FRAG M E NTS"

A R E R E A LLY T H E BEGI N N I NGS OF STO R I E S , T H E S T O R Y B EG I N S T O TAKE S H A PE A N D I S I M M E D I A T E LY I NT E R R U PTED. I H A V E OFTEN WON D E R E D CESSFUL, R E A D I NG THESE "WELL V E RY SUC

TIONS.

M Y S E L F.

HON EST

C O U R S E . W H E N P A S S I N G FROM S E M I N A R T O BOOK . W A S NOT TO W R I T E A T R E A T I S E O N T H E A M O ROUS D I SC O U R S E . B E C A U S E T H A T WOU LD H A V E BEEN A KIND OF LIE

VERY

W R I TT E N "

BEGIN

(f

W A SN'T

A I M ING

EITHER

AT

N I NG S , W H Y DO E S N 'T H E CONTI N U E? W H Y NOT A R E A L N O V E L? A R E A L A UTOBIOG R A PHY?

G E N E RA LITY O F T H E SC I E NT I F I C K I N D ) . BUT ON THE CONTRARY. TO W R I T E THE D I SCOU R S E OF A LOV E R .

R . B . : O N E D A Y P E R H A PS . I H A V E BEEN P LA Y I N G WITH
T H E I DE A FOR A LONG TI M E NOW. BUT WHERE THIS OF COURSE. N I ETZSCHE'S I N FLUENCE. WAS EVEN IF I BOOK I S C O NC E R N E D, IF THE STORY N E V E R J E LLS, I T IS, I ' D SAY, B EC A U S E OF A DOCT R I N E . T H E V I S I ON I H A V E O F T H E A MO R O U S D I SCOU R S E IS ESSENTI A L LY A F R AG M E NT A R Y , D I SCONTI N UOUS. BUTTERFLY THEY ARE E P I SO D E S IN OF LANGUAGE THE ENA

M O D I F I E D H I M CON S I D E R A B LY,

APPRECIABLE

A T T H A T T I M E . PARTI C U LA R LY ALL T H A T N I ETZSC H E S A Y S A BOUT T H E N E E D F O R " D R A M ATIZI NG," FOR

A DO PTING A M ETHOD OF " D R A MATIZATION," W H I C H HAD F O R M E THE E P I ST E M O LOG I C A L A DVA NTAGE

V I S IO N .

FLUTTE R I NG MOU R E D

ROU N D

THE HEAD OF LOV E R ,

O F F R E E I NG ME FROM T H E M ETA LANGUAGE. AFTER THE

AND

P A S SIONATE

AND

THESE BE OF

PLEAS U R E OF T H E T E XT I COU L D NO LONGE R

E P I SO D E S CA USE OF

ARE

B R U S Q U E LY

I N T E R R U PT E D BECAU S E

B E A R A N Y " D I S S E RTATION" O N T H E SUBJ ECT. 5 0 ! MADE UP, S I M ULATED A D I SC O U R S E W H I C H IS THE OF A LO V E R . THE TITLE IS QUITE

SOM E

H A P P E N I NG,

J E A LO U S Y , A M IS S E D R E N DEZ-VOUS, A N U N B E A R A B LY LONG W A I T, WHICH INTERVENE, AND AT T H A T

D I SCOURSE

E X P L I C I T A N D P U R POSELY D E S I G N E D: IT I S NOT A BOOK ON

M O M E N T T H O S E SORT OF S C R A P S OF MONOLOG U E A R E B R O K E N A N D W E P A S S TO A NOTH E R F I G U R E. I H A V E R E S PECTED T H E R A D I C A L D I SCONTI N U I TY OF T H I S STO R M OF LA N G U A G E R A G I N G IN TH E H E A D OF T H E LOV E R . IT IS WHY I CUT UP THE W H O L E I NTO

THE

A MOROUS

D I SC O U R S E , THE

IT

I S THE IS NOT

D ISCOURSE

OF

LOV E R ,

LO V E R

N EC E S S A R I LY M E . SOME E L E M E NTS

I'LL B E Q U I TE F R A N K A BOUT I T , STEM FROM ME, OTH E R S MY FROM

GOETHE'S

WERTH E R ,

OR

FROM

C U LT U R A L

F R AG M E N T S A R R A N G E D IN A L P H ABETIC A L O R D E R . AT A L L C O STS WITH A I W A NTED TO AVOI D L O V E STORY. ANY RESEM IS A

R E A D I NGS O F THE M YSTICS, O F PHYCHOA N A LYSIS, OF N I ETZSC H E . CON F I D E D . . . TO THERE M E, ARE A LSO WHAT HAS

BLANCE THAT

M Y CONVICTION STO R Y , WITH

BEEN

CONVERSATIONS,

WHICH

TH E

WELL-MADE

LOVE

COME FROM F R I E N DS. THEY ARE V E R Y M U C H A PART O F T H I S BOOK. THE R E S U LT T H E N I S T H E D I SC O U R S E O F A SUBJ ECT WHO SAYS "I," WHO I S T H E R E FORE I N D I V I DU A L I Z E D AT T H E TION: BUT IT IS L E V E L OF T H E E N U N C I A A C O M POS E D LIKE, IS A

B EG I N N I N G , A N D E N D, A N D A C R I S I S IN T H E M I D D L E , I S TH E W A Y SOC I ETY P ROPOSES THAT T H E LOV E R S H O U L D R ECONC I LE H I M S E L F W I T H T H E LA N G U A G E OF T H E G R EAT O R P H E U S , B Y M A K I NG U P A STO R Y FO R HIMSELF IN WHICH THE HE PUTS H I M S ELF. WHO I AM

NEVERTHE LESS OR (AS IF A

D I SCOU R S E , D I SC O U R S E TOG ETH E R ) .

S I M U LATED. OF "CUTS"

YOU FILM

P E RS U A D E D

T H AT

LOV E R

SUFFERS

PUT

R E C E I V E S N O B E N E F I T FROM T H E R ECON C I L IA T I O N , A N D T H A T P A R A DO X I C A LLY ENOUGH H E I S N O T I N

2 3B

THE

LOVE

STORY. TO

HE A

15 I N SOM ETH I N G W H I C H 1 5
STATE OF FOLLY. N O T FOR

DI SCOU R S E I S FAR M O R E KITSCH T H A N A BOOK O N D R UGS. F O R E X A M PLE.

M UC H

CLOS E R

NOTH I N G 00 W E S P E A K OF "MOON STR U C K LOVERS": FROM THE LOV E R'S POINT O F VIEW T H E STORY 15 I M POSSIBLE. SO AT EACH TU R N I TRIED TO BREAK TH E B U I LD-UP O F T H E STO R Y . A T O N E MOMENT I EVEN THOUGHT OF PLAC I N G A FIGU RE I N IT I A L AT TH E FO U N DA R. B . : I T S TR U E T H A T I N M Y BOOK T H E R E I S W H A T I M IGHT T E R M AN " I N T E R E STING" R ELATION WITH T H E PSYC H O A N A LYTIC R E L A TI O N SEMINAR DI SCOURSE BECAUSE T H I S

J . H.: I S N'T IT A FOR M OF A U DAC I TY TO S P E A K A S YOU

00

A B O U T LOVE.

I N F A C E OF T H E

I NVAS I V E PSYC H O A N A LYT I C D I SCOU R S E ?

B EG I N N I NG. TION.

E Q U I V A L E N T TO AT FI RST

AN

LOVE

S I G HT.

E N AMORATION.

BEW ITCH M E NT: FOR A LONG TI M E I H E S I TATED. TH E N I S A I D N O . EVEN THAT I C A N 'T S W E A R T O IT B E I N G CH RONOLOGICALLY A F I RST F I G U R E B E C A U S E ITS QUITE POS S I B L E THAT LOVE A T F I RST SIGHT O N LY FU NCTIO N S IN R ETROSP ECT. ITS SOM ETH I N G THE

E V O LV E D C O N C U R R E N T L Y W I T H T H E YOU KNOW V E R Y W E L L

A N D T H E BOOK.

T H A T I F O N E E XA M I N ES C U LTURE TODAY-IT I S A L S O ONE O F T H E T H E M E S OF THE BOOK-TH E R E I S N O O N E M A J O R L A N G U A G E WHICH T A K E S I N C H A R G E THE AMOROUS STATE. A M ONG THE MAJOR AT LAN

LOV E R TE LLS H I M S E LF. 50. ITS A D I SCONTI N UOUS BOOK W H I C H PROTESTS I N A SMALL W A Y AGA I N ST THE LOVE STORY.

GUAGES.

PSYC H O A N A LY S I S A DESC R I PTION

HAS THE

LEAST

ATT E M P T E D

OF

A MOROUS

STATE. T H E Y E X I ST I N F R E UD. I N LAC A N . I N OTH E R A N A LYSTS. I W A S O B L I G E D TO M A K E U S E OF THOSE

TO WRITE FOR T H E B E LOVED

D E S C R I PT I O N S .

THEY

WERE

:' TO P I C A L ' T H E Y

ATTRACTED M E BY TH E I R EXTR E M E PERTI N E N C E . I

J. H . : WHAT

00 YOU

M E A N WHEN YOU W R I TE: "I

INCLUDE T H E M I N T H E BOOK BECAUSE THE LOV E R I PRESENT

A M ON THE SIDE OF THE W R ITI NG."

15

SUBJ ECT

WITH

THE

C U LT U R E

OF

TODAY. W I T H T H E N . A D A S H OF PSCYHO A N A LY S I S R. B.: F I R ST A D I G R ESSION: I R E A L I Z E D THERE W E R E TWO TYPES OF LOV E R S . ONE. B E LO N G I N G TO WHICH HE APPLIES TO H I MSELF IN A P R I M I TIVE

FASHION. BUT AS T H E S I M ULATED D I SCOU R S E O F THE LO V E R A D V A N C E D. IT DEVELOPED AS THE

FRENCH LITERATU R E . FROM R A C I N E TO PROUST. 15. LET U S SAY. P A R A NOIC. T H E J E A LO U S LOV E R . T H E OTH E R TYPE DOES N O T E X I ST I N F R E N C H LITE RA TURE BUT H A S BEEN A D M I R A BLY P R ESENTED BY

A F F I R M ATION O F A V A L U E . LOVE A S A N O R D E R O F A F F I R M A T I V E V A L U E S R E S I STANT T O A LL ATTACK. AT THAT MOM ENT OFF THE THE LO V E R CAN ONLY CUT DIS

G E R M A N ROM A N T I C I S M AND NOTA BLY IN T H E LIEDER OF SC H U B E RT AND SC H U M A N N ( ABOUT WHICH I

H I MSELF

FROM

PSYCHOA N A LYTIC

COURSE. F O R ALTHOUGH EFFECTI V E LY IT S P E A K S OF THE A MOROUS S T A T E: . IT DOES THE

A LSO S P E A K IN TH E BOOK). T H I S TYPE OF LOV E R IS NOT C E N T E R E D ON EXCLUDE D FROM J E A LOUSY: J E A LO U S Y 15 NOT PASSIONATE LOV E BUT THE

50

IN

A TO

DEROGATO R Y R E I NTEGRATE RATE " B E I NG

FASHION. A IN

I N VITING

LOV E R TO

C E RTA I N

N O R M A L I TY.

S E PA

A MOROUS SENTI M E N T I S F A R TIVE. IT SEEKS

MORE THE

D E M ONSTRA ESSENTIAL

LOVE" FROM

"LOVI NG." TO "LOVE

FULFI L L M EN T .

REASON A B LY." ETC . . . . THERE I S A N OR M A LITY OF THE AMOROUS STATE IN PSYCHOA NA LYSIS W H I C H 1 5 I N FACT T H E R E V I N DICATION O F T H E COUPLE. O F THE M A R R I E D C O U P L E EVEN . .
.

F I G U R E THEN I S T H E MOTH E R . O N E OF T H E FIGURES I N M Y BOOK D E A LS P R E C I S E LY WITH T H E LONGI NG. THE T E M PTATIO N . THE D R I V E THE LOVE R SO OFTEN FEELS IT SEEMS. AND WHICH THE BOOKS VO UCH

50 T H E R E LATION I

HAVE IN T H I S BOOK WITH PSYCHOAN A LYSIS IS V E R Y A M B IGUOUS: M AKES USE ITS A R E LATION W H I C H . AS A LW A Y S . OF T H E D E SC R I PTIONS. OF PSYCHO R A TH E R

FOR. TO C R EATE. O R TO PAI NT. OR TO W R ITE FOR THE B E LO V E D . I TRY TO EXPRESS THE P ROFOU N D

PESSI M I S M O N E C A N H A V E I N T H A T R E S PECT SINCE THE LOVER'S D I SCOU R S E C A N N OT B E C O M E WRITING W I T H O U T E N O R M O U S J E TTI S O N I N G S FO R M ATIONS. AND T R A N S

A N A LYTIC

I D E A S BUT WHICH

USES THEM

L I K E T H E E L E M ENTS OF FICTION. W H I C H A R E NOT NECESS A R I LY C R E D I BLE.

HAVE

TH E IS

PROFOUN D

CONVICTION THE

THAT

THE

LOVE R

M A RG I N A L.

HENCE

DECI SION THAT

FOR M E TO P U B L I S H TH I S BOOK W A S IN A C E RTA I N WAY TO SPEAK UP FOR A BY M A R G I N A L I TY NOT ON EVEN THE WHICH IN

W R I T I NG A S M O R A L ITY

TO D A Y

15

R E I N FO R C E D FASHION. A

BEING

J. H.: N E V E R . A S IN R E A D I NG YOU . H A V E I H A D SO ST R O N G L Y THE IMPRESSION THAT

MARGINAL

BOOK

AMOROUS

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W R I T I NG IS FU N D A M E NT A L L Y A QU ESTION OF ETH I C S . YOUR YOU I N S I ST E D ON TH I S PO I NT IN

" L I V I N G TOGETH ER." W H IC H S ETS OUT TO E X P LORE TH E UTO P I A OF C E RT A I N S M A LL G ROU PS. NOT

I NAUGURAL

LECTU R E

TO T H E

COL

COM M U N I T I E S AS W E KNEW T H E M AFTER TH E H I PPIE M OV E M E N T S . BUT THE U TO P I A OF A FFECTI VE

LEGE OF F R A N C E . I WOU LD L I K E TO R ETU R N T O IT . . .

G R O U P I NGS W H O R E A LLY L I V E TOGETH E R B U T EACH AT HIS OWN R H YTH M . WHAT ONCE U S E D TO BE

R B.: Irs A V E R Y GOOD Q U E STION. BUT I AM NOT

C L E A R A BOUT IT AT A L L. A N D I C A N ONLY SA Y THAT I F E E L THE WRITING OF T H I S BOOK TO BE SOMETH I N G A P A RT. BECA U S E THE OF ITS S U BJECT. I HAD TO

C A L L E D BY O R I E N T A L MONKS. I DI O R H YTH M Y . I H A V E CENTERED RH YTH M Y . THE COU R S E ON TH E I DEA OF

1 010-

PROTECT

BOOK.

T O P RO r E C T A

DISCOU RSE

IT S E E M S T O M E N O W T H A T W H E R E THE COU R S E I S CONC E R N E D I W I L L R E T U R N T O MATE R I A L THAT IS S P E C I F I C A L LY MYSELF R I G HTLY LEAVE S A I D. LITERARY. TO BUT I A LW A Y S AS GIVE SO

H E L D I N THE N A M E OF TH E " I :' WHICH IS ALL THE SA M E A RISK. M Y B I GGEST DEFENSIVE WEAPON WAS PURE LANG U A G E . OR TO PUT IT EVEN MORE

D I G R ESS

A N D.

YOU

P R EC I S E LY. SYNTAX. I W A S CONSCIOUS TO WHAT A POI NT SYNTAX COULD PROTECT TH E ONE WHO WAS S P E A K I N G . IT I S A DOU BLE- E DG E D SWORD BECAUSE IT C A N A LSO B E A N I N S TR U M E NT OF OPPRESSION IT VERY OFTEN IS-BUT WHEN T H E SUBJ ECT IS VERY V U L N E R ABLE. V E RY THIS OPEN. BOOK V E RY A LONE. SYNTAX IS PRETTY SYNTA XIC.

TO I N C I TE T H E

E M ERGENCE

FROM

TH E W R I T I N G OF AN ETH I C A L VANI S H I N G POI N T.

I AM S U R E THAT IF N E XT Y E A R I G I V E M Y ATTE NTION TO C H A R ACTE R I STIC L I T E R A R Y FOR M . ETH ICS W I L L BE BACK.

PROTECTS H I M .

WHICH I S TO SAY THAT Irs NOT A VERY LYRIC TEXT. MORE MAJOR L l TOT I C . MORE OF E L L I PTIC. WORDS WITHOUT MANY

IF I

WERE A

P H I LOSOP H E R . I

AND

I F I WANTED TO IT T H E

I N V E NTIONS

OR

N EOLOGI SMS.

WRITE

MAJOR T R E A T I S E .

WOULD G I V E

BUT W H E R E ATTE NTION I S GIVEN TO THE TU RN OF PHRASE. TH AT'S WHEN W R I T I N G F U NCTIONS AS A

N A M E OF A S T U D Y OF L I T E R A R Y A N A LYSIS. U N D E R COV E R OF A LITE R A R Y A N A LYSIS I WOU LD T R Y TO D I S E N G A G E AN ETH I C IN THE BROADEST S E N S E OF T H E WOR D .

' SORT OF MORA L CODE. H A V I N G ITS MODELS RATH E R O N TH E S I D E O F AGNOST I C I S M . SCEPTI CISM. MORAL CODES THAT ARE NOT T H E MORAL CODES OF FAITH.

ROLA N D B A R T H E S I NT E R V I E W E D BY JACQU ES H E N R I C
STAT E M E NTS RECORDED O N TAPE ON 4.4.77

J . H.: WHAT I S THE TITLE O F YOU R COU R S E AT TH E COLLEGE O F F R A N C E ?

R B.: I H A V E LA U N C H E D A S E R I ES OF COURSES O N

TRAN SLATI O N BY CATH E R I N E D U NCAN

240

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''I ' M NOT BEA UTI F U L. I ' M WORSE." - M A R I E DO R V A L RATH E R FAITH F U LLY BY I M PARTING T H E LOGI STIC ROLE I N I T I A LLY HELD BY THE FI RST WOMA N TO

SC I E N C E A N D T H E TEC H N I C A L M E D I A . I N SOFA R A S ITS P R I N C I P A L T H E M E COMES D O W N TO S C I E N C E-TEC H N O LOGY-OTH E R WORLDS. THE R E N E W A L OF SC I E N C E F I C T I O N I N T H E U N ITED STATES A N D I N THE BIG INDUSTRIAL COUNTRIES SEEMS TO BE A P PEA R I N G IN THE B I B LE AS THE SEDUCER OF

W O M A N . WHO I N T U R N S E D U C E S M A N . SATA N

' TH US

BEG I N S THE CYCLE O F A H U M A N I TY DOO M E D LESS TO DEATH THAN TO D I S A PPE A R A N C E. THAT IS. TO THE E X P U LS I O N FROM T H E U N I V E R S E IT PREVIOUS LY I N H ABITED. T H I S B E I NG ACCOM PLISHED FI RST AS A P H E NO M E N O N OF CONSCIOUSNESS: THE PHYSI

L I N K E D T D T H A T OF R E L I G I O N AND SECTS. SC I E N C E
F I C T I O N N A R RATIVE. I N EFFECT. SHOWS M O S T OF US TURNING I N C I RCLES L I K E T H E BLI N D BEFORE T H E VERY OBVIOU S N ESS OF TH E F A M I L I A R U N I VE R S E . A K I N D OF I NCOM PATI B I LITY BETWEEN OUR PHYSICAL PRESENCE D E G R E ES IN OF THE A WORLD AND THE DIFFERENT OF

C A L EXPULSION FROM T H E E A R HTL Y P A R A D I S E I S P R E C E D E D BY A N A B R U PT D I SORDE R I N G OF SIGHT THAT C O M PLETELY C H A NGES T H E A P P E A R A N C E O F T H E W O R L D A S L I V E D B Y THE COUPLE: T H E I R EYES ARE O P E N E D. THEY SEE THEY A R E N A KED. THEY

NOCT U R N A L

A N E STH E S I A

CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH K E E PS M A K I NG US LAPSE I N TO SHORT OR P ROLO N G E D . WHICH M I LD MAY OR SERIOUS BRING

STATES OF

ABSENCE

INDEED

COVER U P TH E I R N A K E D N ESS. THEY TRY TO H I D E T H E M SELVES. A N D T O AVOID THE S I G H T OF GOD. WHAT THIS I N VOLVES I S A N ASTO N I SH I NG SUCCES SION OF V I S U A L P H E N O M E N A . AND NOT. A S HAS SO OFTEN BEEN R E PE A T E D. A SEXUAL I N NOVATI ON. IN FACT. THE SEDUCTION-THE " L E A D I N G TA K E S ON A ASIDE" OF

A BOUT. BY V A R I O U S M EA N S. OUR S U D D E N I M M E R SION IN OTH E R U N I V E R SES-PARALLEL. EVEN WOULD PUSH ONLY I NTER I N TO THE

STI TIAL. THAT

B I F U RCATI N G -A N D HOLE WHICH

US BE

BLACK

EXCESSIVE R A PI DITY O F T H I S PASSAGE. COLLA PS ING THE I N I T I A L S E PA RATION OF DAYS AND N I G HTS IN A PURE P H E N O M ENON OF SPEED.

SEDUCERE-H E R E

C O S M O- D YN A M I C

D I M E N S I O N : SEDUCTI O N I S A RITE O F PASSA G E FROM ONE U N I V E RSE TO A N O TH E R FOR WHICH I M PLIES A

IN

FACT. T H I S TYPE OF N A R RATIVE O N LY A D A PTS J U D EO- C H R I ST I A N V ERSION OF GENESIS

DECISIVE BEGI N N I NG

DEPARTUR E OF A

H U M A NITY.

THE AND

THE

N A VIGATION O F BOD I E S

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S E N S E S. F R O M S O M ETH I N G I M M U T A B L E TOW A R D ANOTH E R REGION OF T I M E . A SPACE-TI M E ESSEN TIALLY DIFFERENT S I N C E E X P E R I ENCED A S MOBILE. CONDUCTIVE. TRAN S FORMABLE. A S THE C REATION
OF A SECOND U N I VERSE WHICH WOULD DEPEND ENTI REL Y UPON T H I S I NITIAL RITE. T H E LEADING A S I D E

MASS SENSIBI LITY M UST NOT BE U N D E RESTI M ATED. IN F A CT. THE S O L I TA R Y P L E A S U R E THAT T H E C I N E M ATOGRAPHIC MOTOR A FFORDS THE PO R N O F I L M V I E W E R A LR E A D Y A N NO U N C E S T H E F O R E SHORTENING WHICH I S BEG I N N I NG A N D CAN BE COMPARED TO THAT O F T H E SC I E N C E F I C T I O N NARRATIVE I N R E LATION T O THE B I B L I C A L STORY: IT I M PLIES T H E DISAPPEARANCE OF HUMAN I NTER MEDIARIES A N D THE E M ERGENCE OF A SEXUALITY DIRECTLY CONCERNED WITH A TEC H N I C A L OBJECT. PROVI DED T H E LATTER B E A MOTOR O R VECTO R OF MOVEM ENT. T H E HORROR FILM THEN SUCCEEDS AS A M ATTER O F COURSE THE E ROTIC F I L M A S A M O R E PERFECT F U L F I L L M E N T OF THE L A W OF MOV E M E NT. IN A WORLD W H E R E TECHNOLOGICAL PROGRESS CORRESPONDS TO THE UTI LIZATION A N D QUEST O F SUPER ROGATORY SPEEDS.

OF S E D UCTION. T H E N . I S I NSC R I B E D V E R Y P R EC I SE LY IN THE DYN A M I C O F THE WORLD: T H E R E WOM AN I S NOT POSSESSIVE. POSSESSED OR POSSESSING BUT
ATTRACTIVE. TH I S FORCE O F ATTRACTION I S IN FACT

G R A V I TATION. U N I V E R S A L H E A V I N E SS. TH E AXIS

M U NDI. M I STRESS OF PASSAGE. S H E H A S U P TILL

NOW E FFECTI VELY ORGA N I ZE D A L L THAT I S SPEED. ALL THAT H A S A PART I N THE MOV E M E N T OF M AN's LIFE. ALL THAT CONCU R S OR COMPETES WITH IT.

THIS B E LOVED WHO A CCOR D I N G TO NOV A L I S 15 THE S U M M A R Y OF THE U N I VE RS E AND TH I S U N IVERSE WHICH 1 5 ONLY T H E EXTENSION O F T H E BELOVED. THE BODY OF WOM A N THUS CONFOU N D E D WITH A BODY OF COM M U N ICATIONS. IS AN IDEAL VECTOR BETWEEN M A N A N D THE NEW WORLD. NO LONG E R IS TH E R E A COUP L E BUT A T R I LOG Y O F SORTS: THE SOLITARY MOVEM ENT OF SEDUCERE OR THE SEXUAL COU PLING THAT R E QU I R E S I NT E R D E P E N D E N T IMPLIES TERRITORIAL BODy. 2 M OV E M E N T A THIRD PA R T N E R . THE

B U T TH I S

WAY

OF

FOLLOWI N G

FASHION.

OF

C O N FO R M I NG T O U S A G E S A N D T O C O D E S . S O RIGOROUSLY R E SPECTED I N THE MOST I NDUSTR I A L IZED COU N T R I E S EVEN AS FAR AS TH E R E P U L S I V E ATTITUDES A N D P U N K OF THE LAST FEW YEARS. ALL ON LY BRI NGS TO LIGHT T H E VERY FOU N DATION OF EVERY M E A N S OF S EDUCTION: TO ATTRACT T H E L O O K I S TO C A PT U R E A N D T H U S D I V E RT T H E ATTENTION. A N OPTICAL I LLUSION I N A U N I V E R S E ITSELF P E R C E I V E D WHOLELY AS I LLUSORY A N D WHERE D I SS I M U LATION TRI U M PH S AS A SYNDROME OF MOVE M E NT. AND HENCE OF T E R ROR. W H I L E G I R LS O F TODAY M A Y CONDESC E N D T O L E T GUYS "PICK TH E M UP," SOMEWHAT A S THOUGH H ITCH H I K ING. I N O R D E R TO ENJOY I N THE I R C O M P A N Y T H E SELF-INVOLUTION ASSOCIATED W I T H HITTING T H E ROAD. THEY STI LL S H R I N K AT THE THOUGHT O F B E I NG 'TA K E N I N " OR. MORE LITERA L LY. OF B E I N G TOLD TO " G O GET LOST."

THE

E P I SODE

I N GENESIS OF THE ONE

R E V E A L S THAT TH E RITE OF PASSAGE

ACCOM P L I S H M E N T LEADING FROM

U N I V E R S E T O A N OTH E R

PRODUCES NOT O N L Y A M ETAMORPHOS I S O F SIGHT BUT A N I M M EDIATE CAMOU FLAGE AND CAREFUL D I S S I M U LATION O F THE BODY. H E R E O N E MAY LAW OF R E C A L L H A N N A H A R E N DT ' S R E F L E C T I O N THAT "TERROR 1 5 T H E FULFI LLM E NT OF THE S I M U LA TA N EO U S W I T H SEDUCTION MOVEMENT." I N T H E B I B LI C A L N A R RATIVE. FEAR I S P R E C I S E LY BECA USE THE LATTE R IS TRAVERSED IN A PHENO M ENON OF SPEED S U C H THAT THE ANTICI PATION OF A N ACC I D E NT OCCU R S I N STANTLY. I S N 'T THE "SIN" OF THE F I RST MAN COMMONLY CALLED T H E "FALL," T H E A N C I E N T S T H U S E ST A B L I S H I N G A D I R E C T R ELATION BETW E E N W H A T I S C O N V E NTIONALLY CALLED ORIGI N A L SIN AND T H I S TERRESTRIAL PULL W H I C H T H E Y C O N S I D E R E D TO BE T H E F I R ST NATURAL MOTOR OF T H E F R E E A CC E LE R ATION OF BOD I ES. OF TH E I R P ROJECTION BUT A LSO OF THE I R COLLISION? WH E N A LA I N SCH LOKOFF ELABORATES ON THE REPLACE M E N T OF E ROTIC O R PORNO FIILMS BY HORROR F I L M S. THE AND STATES THAT "SEX NO LONGE R EXISTS AND THAT FEAR H A S R EPLACED IT." I M PORTA N C E O F SUCH A MODIFICATION OF

FORMERLY. THE I N STITUTIONS FOR THE EDUCATION OF LITTLE G I R LS H A D COMPA RABLE ENDS. T H E SEVERE DISCIPLINE A I M E D AT M A K I N G A CREATOR OF A RTEFACTS OUT OF TH E C H I LD. AS A CONSTA N T R E F E R E N C E TO T H E MARVELOUS M EC H A N IC I TY O F T H E WOMAN'S VECTOR-BODY. B U T A LSO T O H E R LACK O F P ERSONA L I NTELLIGENCE. 3 DEPORTMENT. M A N N ER S . D A N C E . M A N U A L WORK. A N D F I N E R Y WERE U S E F U L I N CAMOUFLAGI NG PHYSIOLOG I C A L I D E N TI T Y . " N A T U R E " A N D ITS W E A K N E S S E S . IGNORANCE. I NDEED SEXUAL I NDIFFERENCE. G A V E T H ESE S U P POSEDLY I N NOCENT L A S S E S A G R EATER TECHNICAL RELIABI LITY FOR THE EXECUTION OF AN E N DLESSLY R E PEATED S E R I E S O F M A N E U V E R S INTENDED T O S U BJ UGATE THOSE AROUND THE M . A N D PARTICULARLY THE CHOSEN PARTNERS. W H O W E R E TH E I R SOLE E FFECTIV E PROTECTION A GA I N ST

243

MAN'S

SOC I ETY

WHICH

CON D E M N E D

TH E

LIKE

AN

ACCELERATION

OF

THE

I R R E S I ST I B L E

DOW E R I E D GI RLS TO AN E A R LY M A R RIAGE A N D THE OTH E R S TO THE CONVENT. MEAN LABOR. PROSTI TUTION OR DESTITUTION. F I N A LLY. THE CHEAP

D I S A P PE A R A N C E O F T H E PARTN E R OR PA RTN E R S I N S P A C E A N D TI M E : T O L E A D T H E M A S I D E I S TO L E A D T H E M TO NOT H I N G N ESS, A N D TO T H I S EXTENT THE S E D UCTIVE ACTI V I TY I NT E R F E R E S WITH T H E

ROMA NTIC NOVELS C A N STOP A T T H E WEDDING. NOT OUT OF MODESTY. BUT BECAUSE THE TEC H N I C A L E X PLOIT OF T H E Y O U N G W O M A N THERE R E A C H E S ITS END. S H E H A S LED H E R SPOUSE T O H E R S I D E . H Y M EN'S RITE O F P A S S A G E OFTEN SHE IS NO LONGER DRAW FROM HER TH E

TECH N I C A L FATALITY A N D MORE P R EC I S E LY T H E TEC H N I Q U E OF WAR. A S DESC R I B E D B Y COLON E L D E LA I R , I T I S A N A RT W H I C H M UST B E CEASE LESSLY I N T R A N S FO R M ATION A N D WHICH DOESN'T ESCAPE T H E G E N E R A L LAW OF T H E WORLD: TO STA N D STI LL I S TO D I E .

B U SI N ES S .

W I LL

CONJUGAL B E D A COLD A N D DEFIN ITIVE HATRED FOR HER AWKWARD HUSBAND. COM PA RABLE TO

THAT OF THE TRAN SVESTITE (ONE USED TO SPEAK IN FOR M E R A TIMES WORD MORE WHICH P R E C I S E L Y O F TRANS A LSO S U GG ESTS TH E

" M A N Y WOM E N H A V E LOVE D T H E M S E L V E S I N M E , " S A I D F R A N Z LI SZT. H I M S E L F A GREAT SEDUCER. T H E REMARK CONTAI N S BOTH THE NOTI O N OF A

V E STI S M ,

TRAVELO. OR DRAG Q U E E N ) . THE YOUNG V I RG I N'S

MOTILE P E R FOR M A N C E A L R E ADY A N NOUNCES THE CLAIM OF THE "WO M E N I N MOVEM ENT' OF M LF (THE FRENCH WOMEN'S L I B E RATION MOV E M ENT>: WE ARE

R E D UCTION OF T H E S P E E D OF CONQU E ST A N D OF A R E C I P RO C A L I N VI S I B I LITY. IN THE VERY R A P

PROC H E M E NT OF "LOVE M A K I NG" THE TEC H N I C A L EXPERTISE C R E ATES OF THE SEDUCER OR SEDUCTRESS THE I M M EDIATE

NOT SEX OBJ ECTS.

TH E

CONTRADICTION, OF

COMM UTATION

P E R SONS D O E S N O T ABOLISH

T H E I N A C C E S S I B I LITY WHICH PREVIOUSLY C R EATED T H E S E P A RATION OF D I STANCE AND A PA RTNESS. TO A RAGON'S MOTTO WOMAN IS THE FUTURE OF MAN THE MLF OPPOSES ITS MAN IS THE PAST OF WOMAN. THUS EACH T R I E S TO I N STALL T H E OTH E R IN A B E S I DES, I T I S A LWAYS EASY TO A N N I H I LATE T H E PARTN E R WITHOUT A S M UCH A S L E A V I N G H I M O R HER FOR A SECON D. THUS, IN A N O L D COUPLE,

D E F E R R E D T I M E . THAT OF T H E GREAT N A V IGATION O F THE SPECIES.

EACH SPOUSE BECOMES I N V I S I B L E TO T H E OTH E R S I M PLY ON ACCOU N T O F T H E R E PETITION O F A

L I M ITED N U M B E R OF SIGNS. ODORS. A N D COMMON O N E D I SCOV E R S I N LOVER' MODALITIES A PENDU L U M E FFECT SUGGESTIVE OF THIS KIND OF LEADING ASIDE: THE S UFFRAGETTES O R T H E GROUPS FOR WOMEN'S LIBERATION NOTICEABLY A FT E R D EMONSTRATE MORE WARS, THE GREAT H A B I TS SO MUCH A PA RT OF TH E DA I LY R EG I M E N T H A T T H E Y A R E A L R E A DY K NOWN A N D E XPECTED BY THE P A RTN E R . 4 AS TIME PASSES. T H E CON

FOR M I S M OF H A B I T C R E ATES A K I N D OF NARRATI V E

TH E

SUM MARY,

TRUE

E F F ECT

OF

A N A MO R P H O S I S ,

CONFLICTS DEADLY TO M A LES. TH E SENTI M E NTAL. ROMANTIC PERIODS D E V E LO P ON THE CONTR A R Y

S I N C E THE "ANGLE O F T E M PORAL VISION" CHANGES TO SUCH A N EXTENT I N THE AGED THAT T H E Y C A N T A L K A BOUT A N E V E N T OF FORTY Y E A R S A G O A S I F I T H A D H A PP E N E D T H E S A M E D A Y . W H I LE H A V I N G TOTA LLY FORGOTT E N W H AT THEY D I D A M O M E N T A G O . T H I S I S A P R E L U D E T O OTH E R U N I VE R S E S O F S P E E D ( F A S T OR SLOW), I NV I S I BLE TO TH E COMMON EYE, SO M E W H AT LIKE I N THE DISASTER F I L M S SHOT BY STUNTM E N REAL TIME. WHICH C A N NOT B E P ROJ ECTED I N S I N C E THE S U D

B E FO R E OR D U R I NG T H E R EVOLUTIONS A N D WARS. T H U S THE M I LITARY MOBI LIZA TION I S S U BSTITUTED FOR THE LOV E R S' " T R A N S PORT," THE YOUNG

W O M A N ' S "G I V I N G SOLDIER

H ER S E L F TO THE MOBILIZED BECAUSE HE

B E FO R E H I S DEPARTURE,

M A Y D I E " I S C E RTAI N LY R E A L ENOUGH A N EVENT. BUT W H AT IS AIMED AT H ERE AG A I N IS THE

R ELEGATION O F T H E PARTN E R . A N D T H E U N I VERSE OF W A R THAT W I LL I N STANTLY PUT M A N I NTO T H E WO M A N ' S P A S T , CLUDED. I N V E RS E L Y . TH E H A ST I L Y C O N WILL B E

U N D E R ST A N DA B LY. TH E

D E N N ESS

OF

A C C I D E N T I M PL I E S SO M A N Y

EVE NTS U N FO L D I N G I N SUCH A COMPRESS E D T I M E T H A T T H E C O M M O N E Y E C A NNOT R ECORD T H E M A L L A N D T H U S M E R E LY S U M M A RIZES TH E M . THE T I M E O F THE N A R RATIVE A PP E A R S T O BE I NCOMPATI B L E

SO-C A L L E D " W A R

M A R R I AGE"

E P H E M E R A L I N MOST CASES. WH E N T H E SOLDI E R HAS THE BAD IDEA OF R E T U R N I NG SAFE AND

SOU N D TO T H E PRESENT OF H I S WIFE. H E W I L L B E R E J ECTED, L I TT L E B Y L I TT L E THE T R A G I C C H ARAC TER OF THE N ECESSITY TO SEDUCE A ND TO KEEP ON SEDUCI NG IS REVEALED: IT IS LIKE AN

WITH V I S I O N I T S E L F . A N D IT BECOMES NECESSRY I N O R D E R TO S E E -TO I NTRODUCE, PARA DOXI C A L LY . A D I SOR D E R I NG OF SIGHT. SLOWMOTION.

EXORBITANT I NFLATION O F TH E LAW O F MOV E M E N T A N D OF THE VECTORI A L F AC U LTIES OF T H E BODY.

S I M I LA R L Y . W H A T T H E MOVE M E N T OF R O M A N T I C PASSIONS I N LlSZT'S FORMULA SHOWED, TlHROUGH

244

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AND

THE

SUPER

C H A RACT E R C H I LD R E N WHENEVER

WHO

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THE

R E LICS IN

OF

HER WAR

ACCELERATION O F T H E LOV E RS' T R A N S PORT, WAS A C O M P ETITION RATH E R THAN AN O P PO S I T I O N

AND SHE

H US B A N D

K I LL E D

THE

I S G I V E N THE O P PORTU N I TY , TO

BETWEEN M ETA BOLICS A N D TEC H N IQ U E , A VALORI ZATION O F TH E RITES O F PASSAGE AND OF TH E I R NUMBER TO THE D E TR I M E N T O F THE BOD I E S IN THE

THOSE W I DOWS WHO A S SU M E TH E I R B E R E A V E M E N T AS A P R I V I LEDGED POSITION, NO LONGE R G O I N G A BARELY D I SG U I SED H A T R E D ALIVE, THE S URVIVORS AND

O U T , NOU R I SH I NG FOR THO S E STI L L

TH EMS ELVES, WORLD, s

A N D O F THEIR

PRESENCE

E S P E C I A LLY TH E I R O W N PROG E N Y , O R T O TH I S TELEGRA M -" I F T H E W A R I S LOST, LET THE NATION

SUCC E E D I N G OR

O P POS I NG

L'HO M M E

FATAL

(THE

PERISH"-I N

WHICH

H I T L E R D EC I D E S TO COM B I N E

WARRIOR), THE FEMME FATALE I S R A R E LY A PR ETTY WOMA N : RATH E R S H E IS WORSE. ONE IS STRUCK BY THE PHYSICAL A U ST E R I TY OF THE C E L E BRATED

H I S EFFORTS WITH THOSE OF H I S E N E M I E S I N O R D E R T O COM P L E T E THE D E S T R U C T I O N OF HIS OWN

PEOPLE B Y A N N I H I LATING T H E LAST R ESOU RCES O F TH E HOM E L A N D-WE F I N O OURSELVES NOT A T T H E OPPOSITE B U T RATH E R A T DELIRIOUS APOGEES O F T H E SEDUCTI V E ACTI VITY' ?

COURTESANS, ' A N D B Y THE CONTRAST I T OFFERS WITH TH E M AG N I FI C E N C E O F TH E I R F I N E R Y AND THE B R I L L I A N C E OF TH E I R A R M S O F S EDUCTION, H E R E AGA I N , THE PHYSIOLOG I C A L I D ENTITY S E E M S TO

D I S A P P E A R B E H I N D T H E A PP E A L OF A 'TEC H N I C A L VALORIZATION SUCH THAT M A N Y OF T H E S E WOM E N WILL CONTI N U E TO EXERCISE TH E I R F U NCTION

IN

FACT,

TH E

WO M E N

OF TH E

M L F DEVELOP A

SI M I LA R ATTITU D E : THEY PREACH T H E PARTN E R'S LIB ERATION IN THE M A N N E R OF T H E OLD W I DOWS: CURE US OF LOVE I S O N E O F TH E I R S LOGA N S. TH E Y H A V E K I LLED TH E SPOUSE, TH E FATH E R A N D T H E C H I LD, A N D T H E S E A R E S I G N I FICA NTLY AMONG T H E THEMES W H I C H H A V E C REATED TH E I R U N A N I M ITY. ABORTI O N , FOR E X A M PLE, HAS A GREAT FORCE OF SYMBOLIC TRANSCENDENCE SINCE IT REFERS

UNTIL A V E R Y A D V A N C E D AGE, SEVENTY TO E I GHTY FOR SOME OF T H E M , WHO W I L L K E E P O N GETTING PA I D FOR TH E I R S E R V I CES. IT WAS NOT RARE

EITHER T O S E E O N E O F T H E M R E A C H TH E S U M M I T O F TH E STATE H I E R A RC H Y, N O R , I N V E R S E LY, T O SEE WOM EN OF THE H I G H EST RANK M EA S U R E THEM

SELVES AGAI N ST P U B L I C WOM E N AND EMBARK ON VERITABLE M A R AT H O N S , ACHIEVING SPEED

D I RECTLY T O M U R DE R A S A BY- P RODUCT O F LOVE. I N THE U N ITED STATES, A LL O F T H I S TAKES THE ULTIMATE FOR M OF A NEW, M E RC I LESS SOC I A L

RECORDS I N TH E CONVEYA NCE O F PASSENGERS ON TH E HIGH SEXUAL VOYAGE , THAT AND WORKI NG TO SUCH A THEY WERE CONSIDERED

STRUGG L E BETWEEN CLIQUES THAT H A V E BECO M E HOMOS E X U A L I N T H E PURSUIT O F POWER, I N FLU ENCE AND MONEY.

OUTPUT

MON A R C H S OR RATH E R "POLEM A RC HS" .J UST LIKE M E N , HERE A S W E LL, TH E ACCELERATION O F THE RITE OF PASSAGE C L E A R L Y I M PL I E S T H E PRESENCE OF T H E T E R R I TO R I A L BODY A S THI R D PARTNER, THE SEDUCERE C A N N O MORE B E R E D U C E D TO SEXUAL COM M E R C E TH A N THE . ACTI V I T I Y O F THE POLE

IN

S H A K E S P E A R E' S T H E TA M I N G ROUGHLY REFUSES

OF THE HIS

SHREW, TH E

PETR U C H I O

WIFE

MARCH O R CONQ U E R O R CAN B E COM P A R E D TO A "H U M A N COM M E RCE," SUCH EXAM PLE, U N D ERSTAN DS AS C L A U S E W ITZ, FOR FREDERICK I I'S "TO

SERVICES O F A M A I D , PROPOS I N G I N STE A D THOSE OF H I S ARMS S E R V A NT: "MY MAN K NOWS HOW TO TAKE CARE OF M Y A RMOR," H E SAYS, "SURELY H E CAN LACE UP YOU R CORSET." IN THIS ABSURD

IT.

ADVANCE IS TO CONQUER," T H E H A ST E WITH WHICH A L E X A N D E R T H E G R E A T DROVE ON, CONC E R N E D ONLY T O F I N D TH E L I M I T O F H I S FORCE'S EXPAN SION, BUT ALSO T H E D R I V E R'S GLANCE AT THE

COM M A N D, L'HOM M E FATAL A L R E A D Y RECOGNIZES H I MSELF A S TH E PAST OF H I S WIFE: H I S S P A R K L I N G S H I ELD, BECOM E H I S COMBAT F I NERY, USELESS, HARMFUL ALL W I L L SOON WITH THE

SPEEDOMETER OF TH E R A C I NG-CA R, O R O F COMBAT AS THE EXISTENTIAL M EASURE OF THE WARRIOR'S

EVEN,

BEING-ALL I NVOLVE A VERTIGINOUS FLDW OF TIME,6 THESE PERPETU A L A S S A U LTS A G A I N S T DISTANCE A LSO R EPRODU C E I N D E F I N I TE LY THE I N I T I A L RITE OF PASSAGE, A N A B R I DG M E N T O F THE U N I VERSE M A D E POSSIBLE B Y T H E S P E E D O F T H E ASSA U LT,

B EG I N N I N G O F H I G H L Y TECH NOLOGICAL WARFARE. AT THE OUTSET O F THE 20TH C ENTURY, WOMA N I N H E R TURN W I L L A B A N DON THE CORSET .JUST W H E N T H E A R M A M ENT O F T H E R A C E R A N D T H E R A C E T O A R M S A RE BECOM I NG PHENOMENA O F SOC I ETY. R I D OF T H E CORSET, S H E C A N DEVOTE H E R S E LF TO COMPETITI V E S PO RT S , AND CLI M B I N TO F A ST BY

"MOST

OF

THE

TIME

LOVE

IS

BY-PRODUCT OF

VEHICLES. TH E

S E D UCTION O F WOMAN

AS A

M UR D E R , " THE M YSTER Y WRITER AGATHA C H R I ST I E LO V E D TO R E P E AT. FROM THE C E L I N ESQUE

PRODUCT OF M U RD E R OR S I M PLY AS A VECTOR OF VOYAGE GIVES WAY TO THE LIBERATION OF T H E NEW

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TECH N I C A L S P E E D: THE

S E D UCTION FEMININE

OF

THE

MOTOR

AND

OF

THE

Q U E ST OF

ALL TECHNOLOGICAL

PROGRESS,

A RTE FACT IS

NO LONGER

SOM ETH I NG WHICH WOU L D NO LONGER B E D I SCON TINUOUS, A F I N A L S U PPRESSION OF T H E D I F F E R NATU R E A N D C U LTURE, M A K I NG S E DUCTION'S U TO P I A RITE OF

R E SORTED TO E XC E PT A S A N ORNAMENT TO THE V E H ICLE IN B E A UT Y P A R A DES, A DV E R T I Z I N G

ENCES BETW E E N AND R E A LITY. BY

M ETAPHORS O R POLITICAL A N D M I LITARY PROPA GANDA, THIS D I S A P P E A R A N C E OF WOMA N I N T H E

PASSAGE LOGY

A CONTI NUOUS PH ENOMENON TECH NO MAKE S E NSORY D E R A N G E M E NT A

FATALITY OF THE TEC H N I C A L OBJECT CREATES A NEW M A SS LANGUAGE WHICH F A I T H F U L LY RE

WOU L D

P E R M A N ENT CON DITION, AN OSC I LLATI NG T R I P FOR CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH WOU LD HAVE AS ABSO

FLECTS T H E FASCI ST LA NGUAGE OF TH E FUTU R I ST ELITE AT THE BEGI N N I N G OF THE C E NTU RY: "TH E

LUTE POLES ONLY B I RT H AND DEATH. AND WOU L D B E THE E N D O F A L L R ELIGION A N D P H I LOSOPHY. I N S H O RT, WAKING H ERACLITUS' AND SLEEP D I STI NCTION B E TW E E N ARE IN

H EAT OF A P I E C E OF I R O N OR W OO D NOW A ROUSES U S MORE TH A N T H E S M I LE OR TEA R S OF A WOM AN, . . . WE WILL TRANSFORM E DG A R ALLAN POE'S

("THOSE

ASLEEP

NEVERMORE I NTO A S H R I LL JOY. . . , WITH U S B EG I N S

S E PARATE WORLDS, THOSE A W A K E I N A COM MON WORLD") WOU L D C E A S E TO A PPLY. IT WOU L D TH U S SO M E HOW B E N O R M A L F O R TH E LIGHT OF MOTORS TO E XTI N G U I S H THAT OF R EASON ACTIVATION OF AS TH E I D E A L

THE REIGN OF TH E ROOTLESS MAN, TH E M U LTIPLIED M A N WHO MI NGLES WITH I RO N , FEEDS ON ELECTRI C ITY . . . . YOU C A N SEE THEN HOW MUCH WE DESPISE TH E TH E PROPAG A N D A C A R R I E D OUT I N DEFENSE O F A ESTH ETICS OF LA NDSCAPE . . . TH E GREAT NUDE BODY OF AND FATAL"

M A N AWAKENED A N D SENSOR OF

R E A LITY, ASPI R I N G T O A STATE O F V I G I L I N A WOR L D G I V E N A S C O M M O N (TH E PRECONDITION F O R T H E FORMATION OF M E A N I NG). SCI ENCE A N D TECH NO LOGY WOULD ACTUALLY C R E ATE A NEW SOCI ETY WHOSE M E M BE R S WOULD ALL BECOME SLEEPERS, L I V I N G OUT I LLUSORY DAYS AND NATURALLY VERY

SYMBOLI STS WOM A N . . .

L E A N I N G OVER THE FEMALE

1 9 1 0).

BEA UTY,

IDEAL

( M A R I N ETTI,

I N A R E C E NT I NT E R V I E W GIVEN TO TH E N EWSPAPER
F R A NCESOI R ,

M UC H AT EASE I N A SITUATION O F ''TOTAL PEACE," AND OF N UC L E A R DISSUASION, TH E LATTER ITSELF B E I N G D E V E LOPED ACORD I N G TO T H E P R I N C I PL E O F L E A ST A C T I O N SO D E A R T O E N G I N E ERS, "ACCORD ING TO A C U R V E O F OPTI M A L D I ST R I BUTION OF T H E E X E RTION OF FO R C E S WHICH G U A R A NTEE EQUI L IBRIUM HENCE AND A TH E AVOI DANCE OF A CC I D E N T S . "

TH E

P I LOT

J EAN-MA R I E

SAGET

STATED: " A T THAT TI M E T O B E A TEST PI LOT WAS R E A LLY TO FLY I NTO TH E U N K NOWN . . . . NOW WE HAVE ANOTH E R F R U STRATION. Irs TOO BAD, BUT W E CAN'T FLY THE P L A N E S OF RIVAL COMPA N I ES BECAUSE NEVER OF COMMERCIAL AN C O M P ET I T I O N .
F- 1 !S,

I'VE

L I FT E D O F F WITH

M UC H T O M Y

WORLD OF

ENTI RELY S U S P E N D E D ON T H E U LT I M ATE OPERATION W H I C H

REGR ET. COM P A N Y PI LOTS, ON THE CONTRARY, FLY ON A LL MODELS, SINCE THEY HAVE TO MAKE

T H R E S HOLD

AN

WOU LD E FFECTIVELY C A R R Y O U T F O R H U M A N ITY A RITE OF PASSAGE C O M PA R A B L E TO THAT IN

COM PARISONS . . . . TH EY'RE PRIVI LEDGED," CLIMB I N G I NTO H I S M I R A G E 4000, S A PET ADDS: "I'M ON THE OTH E R S I DEI" THERE IS I ND E E D A TECH NO

GENESIS.

LOGI C A L DON J U A N I S M , A "LI FTING" OF M A C H I N E S WHICH TH E SUPPLA NTS THAT OF IS LOGISTIC SPOUSES, CO M P L ET E L Y W H E N AT TH E O PE N I NG OF THE C E NTURY SPENGLER FORESAW TH E " R ETU R N OF SCI ENCE TO ITS

I N ITIAL

T R I LOGY

THUS

MODI FIED, A N D T H E R E LATIONS H I P I S ESTA B L I S H E D B E T W E E N A U N I SE X (TH E DEFI N ITIVE DISSI M ULATION OF PHYSIOLOG I C A L I DE NTITY) AND A TEC H N I C A L

PSYC H IC N A T I V E LA N D" A N D T H E COM PLETELY N EW RUINS OF F A U ST I A N HERE C I V I L I ZA T I O N -" I TS DEBRIS

VECTOR, THE CONTACTS WITH T H E B O D Y OF THE B E LOVED OR THE T E R RITOR I A L BODY DISAPPEAR ING PRE DICTA BLY A S T H E DYNAMICS OF PASSAGE I NC REASE. BUT TH E A S SU M PTION OF THE VAR IOUS RITES O F PASSAGE BY MASS PRODUCTION IS A A NOTH E R WAY.

SCATTE R E D

A N D THERE,

FORGOTT E N , T H E

R A I LWAYS A N D G R EAT PACKET BOATS AS FOSSIL IZED AS THE ROMAN ROA DS OR TH E G R EAT WALL OF C H I NA"-HE D I DN'T T H I N K THAT THESE R U I N S W E R E EARLIER THE L A T E N T FOR M S , T H E OF A U N I QU E AND ABANDONED

P H E N O M E NO N PARAPHRASING

I M PO R T A N T R A G E OT'S

IN

B L U E P R I NTS

I R R E S I ST I B L E

FORMU LA,

W R I TT E N

PROJECT-QR PROJECTION-QF T H E WEST TOWA R D A T E C H N O LOG I C A L AS THAT WITH

BEYOND

ABOUT 1 920, O N E C A N S A Y T H A T TH E TECHNOLOGI C A L R EVOLUTION H A S F I N A LLY B E E N USED ONLY TO

I N STALL THE VERY FIXITY OF LIFE I N DIS PLACEMENT ITSELF.

AS

M Y ST E R I O U S , R E LIGIONS,

FINA LLY,

OF ITS

ANCIENT S P EC I A L

CONFRONTING

E FFECTS TH E

" M OB I L I S

IN

MOBI LE,"

MOB I L E

W I TH I N

G R EAT N A T U R A L POWERS, A N D M A C H I NATING TH E CATASTRO P H I C U N C E RTAINTIES WHICH STI R THE

MOBILE, THE MOTTO O F J U L E S VERNE'S NAUTILUS, D E F I N E S BOTH EVERY T R A N S PORT VEHICLE A N D, I N

COLLECT I V E AND I ND I V I DUAL CONSC I ENCE,

246

W E A R E C U R R ENTLY REDI SCOV E R I NG T H E M YSTERY OF THE T E C H N O L OG I C A L VEHICLE, WHICH WE

OVER IT. SO IT COULD LOOK AT ME A S MUCH AS I LOOK AT IT. . . . YOU S H O U L D K NOW ITS N A M E ; J E
T'AI ME."

A P PR E H E N D LESS A S A CON S U M E R OBJECT TO B E DESI R E D O R REJ ECTED T H A N M O R E E S S ENTIALLY AS THE VECTOR OF D E S I R E S J UST A S OBSOLES CENT A S OUR DREAMS, AS A STRANGE PROCES OUTS I D E AS A OF H I STORY OF THE

THE

VEHICLE

C O M PLETELY

R EPLACES

THE

B E LOVED. TH E "MOT H E R - L A N D S C A P E " I N H A B I T E D BY T H E "SPI RIT OF M ETAMORPHOSIS." TECH NOLOGI C A L FATALITY A PPEARS A S THE F I N A L S E D UCTION. FAR MORE BLINDING AND FEARFUL THAN ITS

S I O N A L ACCOM PA N I M E N T , AND H A RDLY

G E OG R A P H I C ,

PLAY AN

EGO'S FALSE

R E PR E S ENTATI O N S LIGHT " ,

THIS

AKIN

TO

ON E I R I C
SPEED

DELI RIOUS

JOY

OF

ANTH ROPOMORPHIC B L U E P R I NTS. T H A N K S TO TH E SPEED A LO N E IT C A N G I V E OUR A S P I RATIONS. T H E PHYSIC I A N DOM I N I Q U E A BOUT TH E PIGNON, FOR E X A M P L E . ACC I D E NT A T

ECLIPSING T H E I N F I N ITY O F D R E A M S (MARI N ETTIl.

AROUND

1 9 00,

COLONEL

DE

ROCHAS.

AN

EX

REMARKED

N UCLEAR

A D M I N I ST R A T O R O F T H E

P O L Y T E C H N I C I N ST I T U T E ,

H A RRISBU RG: ''T H E R E A LITY O F TH E R EACTOR, A S WITH EVE R YTH I N G CONC E R N I NG T H E ATOM. CAN NOT B E ASSESSED WITH ORDI N A RY WOR D S . POW E R F U L CO M PA R E D CO M P UT E R TO REAL IS
. .

ATTEMPTED TO D E M O N STRATE W I T H H I S XENOGLOSSY THAT "A SUBJ ECT U N D E R H YPNOSI S C O U L D EXCEED

THE MOST SLOW IN

THE L I M I T O F HUMAN E X P E R I E N C E AND G O BACK I N TI M E WITHOUT TOO M UCH FATIG U E." OF M E M BERS FIFTIES OF T H E CLUB"

I N F I N I TELY

P R OC E S S E S .

THUS

"C R U S H I N G

A U TO M O B I L E IN

THE

NUCLEAR C I RC L E S. THE EXPERTS K N OW THAT TH E Y C A N NOT R E A L LY M O N I TO R WITH IN A A COMPUTER R EACTOR WHAT OUT IS OF

I N D U L G E T H E M SE L V E S

A S I M I L A R ACTI V I TY, T H E

M E D I U M B E I N G I N THIS C A S E A M ERICAN C A R S OF THE FI FTI ES-CA D I LLACS, ETC.8 BUICKS. F O R DS. C H EV R O L ETS.

HAPPENING
,

CONTROL. .

I N T H E EVENT O F A N ACCIDENT, THEN.

THEY A R E LIKE BLI N D MEN TU R N I N G IN A CI RCLE A S T H E Y T R Y T O M A K E A DECISION , " 9

"ALBERT

LIVES

TO

THE

F U L LEST ONE

AS IN

IN

1 950."

J O U R N A L I ST

WRITES ABOUT

PARTIC ULAR.

THE

TECH N I C I A N

B E CO M E S T H E PRODUC ED.

VICTIM H A V I NG

OF T H E BECO M E

" D U R I N G T H E W E E K H E D R I V E S H I S REG ULAR CAR. BUT WHEN HE BRI NGS OUT HIS B E L A I R. HE DRESSES TEDDY BOY STYLE. HIS WIFE RIDING IN T H E BACK WITH THE K I D. THAT'S HOW THEY D I D IT,' HE SAYS. HE D R EA M E D ABOUT T H E CAR FOR FI FTEEN YEARS. AS SOON AS HE SAW IT. HE I M A G I N E D ITS FI RST COLOR. SPARK L I N G B L U E WITH A LIGHTER ROOF, ITS CHROME FITTI N GS. THE ROCKET

MOVEMENT H E

HAS

APHASIC, H E R EPEATS I N THE A BSOLUTE OF T H E PLA NT'S CONTROL ROOM TH E S I M PL I F I E D GES

T U R E S OF A PR I M A L MAGN ETIC R I T E W H O S E "MOB I L E WITHOUT MOB I LITY" A S YET T O B E C L A R I F I ED.

HE

BRINGS

TO M I N D C A PTA I N A

H A TTE R A S. J U L E S OF SUCH REAL

AFFIXED TO THE TIP OF THE HOOD. 'AT NIGHT I J U ST LOOK AT IT,' HE ADDS. 'BEFORE LEAVING THE GARAGE I PAT ITS FENDER. I SPEAK TO IT. YOU SEE. I PUT THE ROCKET O N IT. BECAUSE I FELT IT N EEDED IT. YOU MUST SEE IT AT N I G HT. WHEN I T V I B RATES A N D GLOWS. IT'S A SENSITI V E M AC H I N E. ' "

V E R N E 'S

H E RO.

P R E C U RSOR

H E ROS A S THE NORWEGI A N R O A L D A M U NDSEN OR TH E ITA L I A N U M B ERTO NOBILE. R U S H I N G TOWA R D S A BEYON D WITHOUT AN I D E NTITY FOR I T RESEMBLES NOTH ING AT ALL AND YET I S NOT NOT H I NGNESS: T H E NORTH P O L E . BUT A L S O DESE RTS. A N D S I D E R E A L S PACE. T O LOOK F O R . T O S E E K O U T . T O DISCOVER,

FOR

HIS

PART.

DANIEL

(AGE

S I XT E E N . AT A

STUDYI NG

BUT H E R E FOR E V E R . VICTI M FROM OF

ALL AND A

PARTNERS C A PTA I N

HAVE

D I SA PP E A R E D "TH I S S A D

MECHANICS SCHOOL)

AND

ELECTRICITY A

TECHNICAL HE TELLS A

HATTE R A S.

WANTS

MOTORCYCLE,

AS

SUBLIM E HIS

PASSION."

IS SUFFERING A "POLA R

JOURNALIST FROM L E M O N D E ; ''I'D L I K E A B I K E , A BIG

WHAT

DOCTOR

CALLS

BIKE. A R E A L L Y BIG B I K E TO GO WHEREVER I WANT. A N YW H E R E . I'D L I K E TO K E E P O N R I D I NG. WITHOUT EVER STOPPI N G . I'D LI K E I T TO D R I V E ITSELF WHEN I'M TIRED. I'D WITH LIKE IT TO B E THE COLOR OF THE IN TH E DISTANCE AND

M A D N ESS." HE H A S BECOM E PART A N D PARCEL OF THE BY I R R E S I ST I B L E R I T E OF PASSAGE: "FOLLOWED HIS FAITH F U L DOG. WHO G A Z E D AT H I M WITH H A TT E R A S WENT OUT WALKS, BUT THESE

SOFT,

SAD

EYES, CAPTAI N FOR LONG

OC E A N .

SAILS

E V E RY

DAY

S U R R O U N D E D BY G U LLS. I ' D L I K E IT TO SH I N E WITH ALL ITS LIGHTS AND C H R O M E FITTINGS, TO LIGHT UP EVERYTH I NG AT THE SAME TIME.

I N VARIA BLY L E D H I M I N THE S A M E D I R ECTI ON, THAT OF A C E RTA I N PATH OF STEN COTTAGE. H A V I N G

1'0

LIKE

IT TO

A R R IVED AT T H E E N D O F TH E P A T H . T H E CAPTA I N W O U L D STA R T WALKING BACKWARDS. SHOULD

CON S U M E NOT H I NG. J U ST A

LITTLE ATMOSPHE R E

FROM TI M E T O T I M E . I ' D L I K E IT T O BE V E R Y FAST, S O I COULD S E E ONLY WHAT I L I K E .

.

SOM EON E STOP H I M , H E WOU LD PO I N T TO A FIXED SPOT I N THE SKY. ' " THE DOCTOR VERY SOON

. . 1'0 PUT D I A LS ALL

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U N D E R STOO D OBSTI NACY.

THE

M OT I V E

OF T H I S

S I NGULAR

TOWA RD THE NORTH." l O

AND A

G U ESSED WHY THE STROLL C O N S T A N T D I R EC T I O N . AS IF PAUL VI RILIO

A LW A Y S TOOK UNDER THE

I N FL U E N C E O F A MAGNETIC H ATT E R A S

FORCE.
TRANSLATED BY J O H N JOH NSTON

C A PTA I N

JOHN

I N V A R I A BLY W A L K E D

NOTES

LIFE WITHOUT B E I NG OF USE. U N LESS SOM E DAY HE R E C E I VES TH E ORDER TO REACTI VATE

THE SERPENT SERVES AS MASK FOR A HOSTILE B E I NG WHICH A N C I E NT W I S DO M AND THEN A S SATA N .

H I M S E LF, HE T H E N Q U I C K LY PUTS TO WOR K THE M A TE R I A L P ROOFS OF HIS I LL U SO R Y E X I S

C H R I ST I A N I T Y

WANTED TO SEE

TENCE. W H I C H W I L L G I V E H I M THE C R E D I B I LITY N ECESSARY TO ACCOM PLISH TH E SINGULAR

"WOMAN S A W THAT TH E TREE [OF KNOWLEDGE] WAS GOOD TO EAT A N D PLEASING TO LOOK AT."

M I SSION WITH W H I C H H E HAS B E E N SUDDENLY E N T R U STED. W I THOUT A L E RT I N G T H E S U S P I

TH E

MAN.

ADA M .

COMES

FROM

TH E

EARTH.

C I O N S O F H I S N E I G H BORS,

ADAMA, "GA R D E N " I S TRANSLATED "PARADISE"

IN

THE

GREEK
EDEN

V E RS I O N

AND

THEN

TRADI

"

C F,

PAU L

V I R I L I O.

"M ETEM PSYCHOSE

DU

T I O N A LLY,

I S A G EOG RA P H I C A L N A M E

PASSAG E R." TRAVERSES, NO, B ( M A Y.

1 977).

WHICH ELUDES A L L LOCALIZATION; ITS I N ITIAL M EA N I NG MAY H A V E B E E N "STEPPE" (COM EN TARY OF T H E J E RUSALEM BIBLE),
II VITESSE ET POLITI Q U E .

O P,

C I T. .

P.

9 8:

"TH E

P E R FO R M A NC E OF THE I NVADER RESEMBLES THAT O F HIS COUNTE R P A RT I N SPORTS, , . , "

.. . .

TH E R E

IS

A LW A Y S

TH E

DI FFERENCE
7

B ETWEEN T H E 'LI B E R A L' A N D THE AUTOMATIC. W H I C H IS A PURE MOTOR FUNCTION AND CAN B E P E R FO R M E D EQUALLY WELL B Y T H E IGNORANT OR A N I M A LS , . , M A N U A L LABOR BEING FOR

IN

E DG A R

ALLAN

POE'S

"MORELLA"

THE

H US B A N D CON FESSES

PROPOS THE AGONY

O F HIS WIFE: "I WAS Y E A R N I N G WITH A N I NTENSE AND DEVOU R I N G D E S I R E FOR THE MOM E N T OF M O R E L LA ' S D E A T H . " WEARY O F W A I T I NG. F I N A LL Y K I LLS H ER: "MY B E LOVED. HE

A N THROPOC ENTRIC SOCI ETY AS IGNOBLE A S IT W A S FOR THE M IDDLE AGES . , . THE WOR K E R S BOD I ES. AND THOSE OF WOM E N AND LOST

H E NCE

FORTH M I N E A N D IN H E A V E N FOREVER,"

C H I LDREN [CONSTITUTED] THE I D E A L OBJECT O F TRA I N I NG, ,

.

"

P A U L V I R I LIO. VITESSE ET

C F,

IN

L I BERATION

( F E B ..

1 979).

CORI N N E THE

POLiTI Q U E ( P A R I S : G A L I LE E. 1 9 77).

B R I S E DO U ' S

I NTE R ES T I N G

ARTICLE O N

COLLECTORS O F C A R S O F THE 50'S A N D TH E I R

4

THIS

KINO OF A NESTHE S I A OF FAMILIARS B Y

M E ETINGS ON T H E F I RST T H U RSDAY N IGHT O F E A C H MONTH. PLACE D E L A CONCORDE,

TH E REPETITION OF B A N A L ATTITUDES I S U S E D NOTABLY BY THE S E C R E T S E R V I C E S W H O H A V E CR EATED A VERY PARTICUAR CATEGORY O F

9

DOMI N I Q U E
DANS LES

PIGNON.

DES

RISQUES

D'ACCIDENT

SPI ES: THE SLEEPERS. T H E SLEEPER HAS TO MOVE TO A FO R E I G N PLACE. WO R K . GET

C E N T R A L ES 1 976),

N UC L E A I R E S

( PA R I S :

80URGOIS.

M A R R I ED. H A V E C H I LDREN, HE I S T H E R E A S A U S E LESS PAWN IN THE GAME OF INTERNA

'0

J U LES

V E R N E.

LES

AVENTURES

DU

CAPITA I N E

TIO N A L ESPIONAGE. A N D M A Y LIVE H I S WHOLE

HATTERAS ( P A R I S : HACHETTE).

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DISCOU RSE A N D SEXUA LITY: TOWARD THE TEXT U R E OF E ROS

A LTHOUGH IT IS NOT APPARENT THAT TRA DITIONA L PHI LOSOPHY H A S H A D M UC H OF VA L U E T O SAY ABOUT THE FROM THIS BODY AND REGA R D I N G S E X U A LITY. D I SC O U R S E TOWA R D A BEGI N N I NG WITH THIS R E A LISATION O N E MAY MOVE LACKING D I S CO U R S E O F T H E B O D Y W I T H U S. T H E P R E SOCRATIC PHI LOSOPHE R S P E R H A PS F I RST SPOKE OF LOVE IN TH E CONTEXT O F STRI FE. I N TRODUCING PASSION OR THR U ST A S FORCED U PON THE GRID OF A TELOS. E P I STEMOLOG I C A L L Y D E R I VED. H E N C E . LOVE OR PASSION A S MOVEM E NT WAS CON F I N E D TO THE TOPOS CONTROLLED B Y A S U B JECT. IN SUCH A FASHION. THE I M PU L S E OF A S E X U A L NATURE OR FORCE IS S E E N SUBOR D I N ATED TO AN A RCHE:. SOON TO BECOME A LL-REASONABLE. MOST OBVIOUSLY. THE D I SCOU R S E A B O U T T H I S I M P U LS E . LOVE STRIFE. WAS CARRIED O N WITHOUT A N Y REFERENCE TO THE "FLESH" OF BODIES; RATHER. THE STAGE OF E M P I R I C A L H Y POTH E S I S AND V E R I F I CATION WAS ONLY S U PPOSED. ODDS WITH THE HIGHER STATUS OF T H E "EIDOS" TO WHICH IT IS DRAWN. A LTHOUGH A M O R E F E RTI LE NOTION OF THE I M PORTA NCE AND PREVALENCE OF E ROTIC DRIVE AND PRESENCE IN ALL H U M A N E X P E R I E N C E . T H E P L A TO N I C D O C T R I N E M U ST ULTI MATELY FACE ITS OWNMOST I M POVER I S H M E N T I N THE RIGI DITY A N D STER I LITY OF CARTES I A N M I ND BODY DUALI SM. IF W E ARE CONFRONTED B Y THE D I F F I C U LTY O F TA K I N G UP A DI S C O U R S E ON

SEXUALITY FROM

" W I T H I N" T H E

R EG I O N O F

TRADITI O N A L P H I LOSOPHY I T I S B EC A U S E O F T H E R I G I D B U T S T I C K Y G R I D I T H A S E N FO R C E D . GEN ERA LLY O N TH E G ROUNDS O F A N ARCHE: O F REASON. U PO N T H E P L A Y . M O V E M E N T . AND RICHNESS O F "BODY" A N D "BODI LY" EXPERIENCE.

THE ADDED DIFFICULTY IS THAT OF B E I N G W I TH I N OR O U TS I D E A P A R TI C U LA R T Y P E O F D I SC O U R S E . PHI LOSOPH I C O R OTHER. WHICH W I L L I N F I LTRATE ITS PA R T I C U L A R E P I STEMOLOG I C A L G R I D U PO N OUR SEEI NG- B E I NG O U R SEXUAL-BODI ES.

I F THE PLATO N I C CONSIDERATION OF "EROS" I S A FULLER. R IC H E R D I SC O U R S E U PO N T H E POLY MORPHOUS C H A RACTER OF E ROTIC DRIVE AND ITS UPHOLDING O R I N FO R M I N G THE G R I D OF THE WORLD K N O W N TO M A N . IT R E M A I N S N O N E T H E L E S S I N FECTED B Y T H E S A M E PROBLEM O F BEING AT

IF

O N E T H E N C A N B E G I N TO S P E A K OF T H E U PON T H E I R B EC O M I N G

MOVEMENT A N D PLAY O F BODIES. WITHOUT FORCI N G T H E STA M P OF B E I N G (WHICH N I E TZSC H E R I GHTLY I N DI C AT E D A S T H E T R A P OF A L L TH I N K I N G A N D SPEAKINGI. I T BECOMES CLEAR TO WHAT DEGREE DIALECTI C A L OPPOSITION.

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A

W H A T IS P E R H A P S U LT I M A T E L Y ST R I K I N G A N D STRANGE ABOUT D E R R I DA'S TREATM ENT OF HEGEL GEN ET, IN SPITE OF T H E CONTRAST OF "SEX U A L" TH E M E S WITH CON C E PTUAL, H EG E L I A N SCH E M A S, I S T H A T D E R R I DA I M PLICITYLY ACC E PTS A DISJUNC TU R E OR D I SCONTI N UITY BETWE E N P H I LOSOP H Y A N D LITERATURE. TH E LATTER S E E M S T O T A K E

MOVE MENT O R

T H R U ST, T H A T O F REASON. T H E FIGURE O F M A ti, A L W A Y S A S R E A S O N A B L E , C U LT I V A T E D M A N , I N STALLS ITSELF U N I V E R S A L LY A T TH E EXPENSE OF T H E SC U LPTED, I MAGED FORM AND MOVEM E N T O F T H E D I V I N E . T H E H O P E D-FOR OSC I L L A T I O N SOLI D I F I ES A N D T H E D U A L E RECTIONS, DIVINE A N D H U M A N , BECOME FLACCID. C REATIVE MOVEM ENT, PLAY, AND FORCE, SUBJ ECTED TO
THE

OVE R TH E FUNCTION A N D DESTI NY OF THE FORM E R W H E N T H E M A R G I N S O F PHILOSOPHI C A L ENDEA VO U R A R E P U S H E D TO OV E R F LO W . Y ET , T H E I N A DEQUACY O F T H I S J U M P I S NOWH E R E MORE C L E A R LY EVI DENCED T H A N I N THE PERSON AND WOR K O F G E N ET H I M S E LF , FOR T H E "STUFF" OF THE R E L A T I O N S H I P O F T H E M A N - W O R K - G E N ET, SAME TI M E A TH R U ST TOWA RD A N D EXPRESSION. DERRIDA PHALLUS WITH THE DESIRE FOR
CLOTURE

MOVEM E N T

HIS OF

OF M I N D, COLLAPSE I NTO TH E GENE RATION OF A N E M PTY DISCOURSE, THE HEGELI A N BODY HAS N O F L E S H . NO V U L N E R A B I LITY; HENCE, IT C A N NOT OFFER TO US ANY LONGER ITS FACE U PON WHICH W E COULD GAZE, M UC H LESS TO WHICH WE COULD S P E A K AND SEE, FEEL IT RESPOND. D E R R I DA'S D I SCOURSE ABOUT H EGEL AND GENET M A Y B E TAKEN A S A SUGGESTION OR WARNING A BOUT THE INTRINSICALLY STU LTI FYING TENDENCY O F THOUGHT TO OVE RCOM E THE BODY. I N ORDER THAT PLAY R E M A I N A T T H E H EART OF THOUGHT BODY, THE ELABORATION OF THOUGHT-BODY M UST
REMAIN WITHOUT PRESENT

SEXUAL-EXPERI ENCE-BECOM E-LiTE RARY, I S A T THE I R O N I C A LLY PA R A L L E L S A N D A LLEGED NON

THE C O L L A P S E OF T H E H EGELI A N CONC E PTU A L I M POTE N C E I M PO T E N C E OF G E N ET'S

EXPRESSIVE WORK. YET, H A S GENET B E E N GIVEN A N ADEQUATE A N D E M PATH ETIC TREATMENT?

IT WOULD B E A S E V E R E M I STAKE TO CONFUSE T H E RESPECTIVE T REATM E N T OF G E N ET BY D E R R I DA AND SARTRE I N A S M U C H A S BOTH D I F F E R I N SUBSTA N TI A L A N D PARTICULAR DETA I LS. YET. THE LONG - R U N RESULTS O F BOTH WRITERS' SUBJ ECT ING CAL THE M A N - W O R K -G E N ET A N D SEEM H I S S E X U A L LITE R A R Y EXPRESSION TO A TYPE OF P H I LOSOPH I SCR UTI N Y N O N E TOO D I S T A N T I N S UBSTA NCE. SARTRE H A S P E R H A PS ONLY BEEN MORE BLU NT, LESS A LLUSIVE THAN DERRI DA, IN FORC I N G THE FLESHY-SENSUAL PROSE AND POETRY O F GENET I N TO T H E CONCEPTUAL MOLD OF TH E PACKAGED "SYM BOL," S A RTRE C LA I M S ;

TO

US

IN

ALL

ITS M OV E M E NT,

BEING PASSED DOWN OR FALLING TO US A S SOLI DIFIED, A D M I R A BLE EXC R E M E NT. ' DERRIDA

SHOWS FORCEFU LLY THE EXTENT TO WHICH TH E A D M I RABLE E XC R E M ENT OF H EGEL IS STI L L AMONG US IN THE FOR M OF HIS CONSI DERATIONS A S TO THE G E N E RATION AND F I L I ATION OF THOUGHT, T H E D I A LECTIC OF C H I LO-BI RTH A N D FATH E R -DEATH, SEXUALITY-PROC R EATION AND ITS I N STITUTION IN AND U P HOLDING, BEING- I N FORMED BY THE STATE, D E R R I DA'S DISCOU RSE E M ERGES IN ITS RELIANCE U PO N G E N E T AS C O U N T E R-TH R U ST TO T H E T H O U G H T- P H A L L U S O F H E G E L. U LT I M A T E L Y , HOWEVER, H E ONLY WEAKLY SUGGESTS THAT ONE MA Y N E E D TO R EC O N S I D E R THE
RESEMBLANCE

NOUS POU VON S A

P R E S E N T COM P R E N D R E

L'AVENTURE D E GENET. C E PETIT HOMME E NER G I Q U E ET ACTIF S'EST VOU E A A LA FOLLE ENTREPRISE DE DEVENIR CE QU'IL EST DE J A ET DE DE TRUI RE CE QU'IL NE PEUT EMPECHER D' ETRE. A U S S I TOT SA VOLONT E SE VOLATI LISE DANS L'I MAGINAIRE. PUI SQU'ELLE VEUT CE QU'ON NE PEUT VOULOI R, C'EST QU'ELLE RE VE QU'ELLE LE VEUT. VO U E E S PA R N A T U R E A DE M E U R E R S E S D E STR U C T I O N S E T S E S INEFFICACES,

B E T W E E N DION YSOS A N D C H RIST. O N E SHOULD O N LY HOPE TO GLI M PSE T H E I R COUNTER-FACING B E Y O N D O R A BO V E T H E S U R F A C E O F T H E I R E M E RG E N C E FOR DERRIDA AS T H R U STS O F I M M A N E N C E O R DEBRIS OR TRANSCENDENCE. I N A N Y CASE, T H E I R COLLAPSE HAS L E FT ONLY THE R E S I D U E OF DI SCOURSE, THE SCATTE RED R E M A I N S OF W H I C H POI NT T O THE POLA R O P POSITIONS OF A N I M POTENT, H ETEROS E X U A L SPACE O F HEGELIAN " I N T E L L I G I B I L I TY "
OR

APPROBATIONS ONT L I E U SYM BOLI Q U E M E NT. DU JOUR 00 IL A CHOISI DE VOULOI R SON DESTIN, GENET A D E CID E , A SON INSU. DE SE FA I RE SYMBOLE, DE S'EXPRI MER PAR DES SYMBOLES ET DE VIVRE AU M I LIEU DES SYMBOLES. 2

A N E N R I C H E D B U T NON

G E N E RATIVE, HOMOSEXUAL, "I NCOM M U N ICABILITY" OF LITERARY SPACE WITH G E N ET LURKING IN THE W INGS. TH E FOR C E OF SA RTRE'S CRITIQUE AND A P P ROACH TO G E N ET AND HIS S E X U A L-LITE RARY EXPE R I E N C E

250

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TO

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TH E M

TO

THE

LOC U S

OF

THE

C O N SC I O U S N E S S FASH ION

IS

LACK

WHICH UP

IN

FUTILE MAKE

I M A G I N A R Y OR E MOTI ONAL, T H E PLACE FOR SARTRE WHICH I S ONE OF MAGICAL T R A N S FO R MATION OF

A TT E M PTS IN

TO FILL

ITSELF. IS

ITS E L F S O L I D . CAPABLE OF

A N Y C A S E MAN THE

AT L E A ST

THE WORLD. I M PLICIT I S THE C H A RG E THAT GEN ET, FOR TH E MOST P A R T, C A N N OT A C H I E V E T H E E X P E R I E NCE I N I TS

PARA LLELING

M O V E M E N T OF

THAT " L A C K - F I L L I N G - U P-TOWA RD- P L E N I T U D E" I N PR O S E . WITH A DISCOURSE WHICH REMAINS THE

LUC I D ITY O F A P P RO AC H I NG

RADICAL RELATION TO CONSC I O U S N E S S AS ONE OF NEGATION, SARTRE U LT I M A T E L Y REMAINS THE M ETA

OSC I L L A T O R Y .

D I S -C U R S I VE.

F O L L OW I N G

SUGGESTIONS O F EXISTENTIAL

PSYC HOA N A LYSIS

STA U N C H D E F E N D E R O F A PHYSICAL-RELIGIOUS VIEW

TRADITIONAL

ON BROA D OUTLI N E . ONE M U ST NOT B E A R DOWN TOO DEE PLY I NTO TH E PLACE OF SEXUA L-SYMBOL FOR FEA R OF TH E BOTTO M L E S S IS PLU N G E IT MIGHT

TOWA R D

E XPRESSION,

SEXUAL A N D LITE RARY, I N HIS C H A R A CTERIZATION OF GENET AS U N A BLE, I M POTENT, I N E F F ECTUAL TO CARRY H I MSELF TOW A R D A PLACE W H I C H WOULD BE CON-STRUCTI VE. FOR A LL HIS E XTE N S I V E USE OF G E N E RA LIZED SARTRE M A R X I ST- F R E U D I A N H I G H LY NOTI ONS,

ENTA I L. SEES

FOR

TH I S

WHAT SARTRE OF G E N ET'S

ULTI M ATELY SYMBOLIC

AS

THE

PLACE

INVOLVEM ENT:

REMAINS

I M PR I SO N E D B Y TH E

CHUTE. VIDE. N U I T DU NON-SAVOI R: I L N E 'S'AGIT PAS D' U N E O'IMAGES POES I E APOLLI NIENNE Q U I JOU I R A I T

STRONGLY

H ETEROSEX U A L-CONCEPT UA L STA NCE I N H A BITING IN

TOW A R D C R E A T I V I T Y . G E N E T ' S

BRI LLANTES

ET V I L I B L E S . C ' E S T LE

SEXUAL-LITE RARY FASHION TH E PLAC E OF SYM BOL AND THE PECULIA R MOVEM E N T THAT PLACE

VERTIGE. LE MANQUE. LE NEANT, LA NEGATION QUI MARQ U E NT L'EMOTION POETIQUE. 4

ENTA I LS, I S S E E N BY SARTRE A S NON- PRODUCTI VE, NON-C REATIVE, N E I T H E R FOR G E N ET IN "SURPAS SI NG" HIS SITUATION, NOR FOR U S I N B E I NG SPOKEN TO FROM THIS. G E N ETS NON-EXPRESSIVE PLACE OF DISCOURSE. ALTHOUGH THE S P I R I T OF TH E SARTREAN E N TER PRISE H A S CERTA I NLY BEEN TO CON S I D E R " E V E R Y HUMAN FACT' AS SIGNI FICATIVE,e THE FORCE OF E PI S T E M OLOGY H A S THE
OPTI Q U E

SARTR E A N A LT H O U G H THERE IS A C E R TA I N D E PTH AND OFTE N

L I M ITED WITH

IF

NOT THE

CRUSHED

WHICH

RICHNESS T O SARTR E'S TALK OF G E N ET A N D HIS WOR K . IT MUST B E S A I D THAT I N TH E E N D SARTRE HAS ON LY MADE GENET MORE M A N AGEABLE FOR US. DEFUSED THE QU ESTI O N FORCE OF G E N ETS THROWING POSS I B I L I ITY OF ANY DIS

PH ENOM E N A ARE VI EWED. I F THE LUC I D PROSE OF KNOWING I S TO B E E N FORCED VERSUS TH E M U RKY, EM PTY, FALL I NTO NOT H I NGN ESS PROFF E R E D BY

TH E POETRY OF EMOTION OR POETIC EMOTI O N . T H E PLACE O F SYM BOL, O N E WI LL NOT BE S U R P R I S E D BY THE RAPIDLY A N O EASI LY CONQUERE D NOTI O N S OF
BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS

I N TO

TH E

COURSE U PON SEXUA LITY A S WELL A S THE ABI LITY TO I N H A BIT THE PLACE OF SYM BOL W H I L E HANGING ON TO ANY VESTIGES OF CONCEPTUAL THOUGHT. SARTRE HAS C E RTA I N LY BETRAYED THE POVERTY OF AT LEAST PART OF HIS PROJECT IN ONE SHORT C H A R ACTE RIZATION OF GEN ET:

A N D ITS D I SCOU R S E ON SARTRE TO C A P

SEXUALITY. TIVATE. RI ES,

CAN

ONE

E X PECT

W I TH

R E F U R B I S H E D H EG E L I A N C AT E GO OF THE S Y M BOL THE OR TH E OF

THE

PATHOS

SYM BOL'S PASSION.

P A R T I C I PATION L U ST, AND

WITH

PLA C E OF

THE

DEPTH

TH E I R

I NTERFACE7 SARTREAN LUCI DITY WOULD CON V I N C E

DES SON A DOLESC ENCE, IL N'A P LUS AUCUN

US THAT T H E P L A C E OF PASSION I N G E N E R A L A N D SEXUAL I N TE R C O U R S E IN ITS H ET E R OS E X U A L

RAPPORT "NORMAL". C'EST-A' O I R E LE LANGUAGE. 3

DE PROSE AVEC

PARTI C U L A R ITY CASE OF THE

I S N O MORE THAN THE S P E C I A L ONTOLOGICAL- H U M A N TH R U ST O F

TH E VACUITY O F SA RTRE'S TREATM E N T OF SYMBOL PROSE I S STR I K I N G A N D I N STR UCTI V E AS TO THE I N A DEQUACY OF THIS APPROACH WITH RES PECT TO THE COMPLEXITY O F THE M A N - W O R K-G E N E T I N

FI LLING U P H O L E S I N B E I NG. I T WOULO S H O W U S T H E A PPROP R I AT I V E . G RA S P I N G C H A R ACTER O F TH E CA RESS. T H E TOUCH I NG-SEIZI NG OF A B R E A ST AS AN ATTE M PT TO GET HOLO OF BEING. THE T H R UST OF A PENIS IN AS PROJECT-U PON-TH E-WORLD. VAGINA AS M AN'S THE

PARTICULAR A N D TO A N Y D I SCOURSE I N G E N E R AL. THE NOR M A LC Y OF PROSE FOR SA RTRE. IN A

TUMBLE

TO THE BACK

FA LLI NG

RESTRICTED SENSE, PERTA I N S TO LANGUAGE. IN A LA RGER CONTEXT. HOWEVER. THAT NORMALCY HAS A S ITS REFERENCE THE SPEECH AND CATEGORIES O F N EG A T I N G AND A PP R O P R I A T I V E CONSCIOUS

E N C LOS U R E A LWAYS BEYON D . IS.

I N TO TH E NOTH I N G THAT H E

R E T U R N S TOWARD. A N D PROJ ECTS CAREFUL LAYI N G-OUT OF THE

TH E

CATEGO R I E S

AND IN

MOVEM ENTS O F H U M A N CON SITUATIONS W H I C H S A RT R E

N ESS WHICH SARTRE LA I D OUT MOST EXTENSIVELY IN

BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS.

SC I O U S N E S S ACH I EVES

I F.

FOR

SARTRE.

I N B E I N G A N O NOTH INGNESS A R E S E E N

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AS

F U N C TI O N I NG

IN

TH E

P A R TI C U L A R

OF SEXUAL D I SC O U R S E . YET, THE RECENT MODERN A G E I S E X POSED TO T H E SCI E N C E OF S E X U A LITY, THROUGH F R E U D , REICH A N D OTH E RS, A S WELL A S I NVOLV E D IN A R E VO L UTION OF PLEASURE.

R EG I O N A L ONTOLOGY PERTA I N I NG TO SEXUA LITY. YET. THIS F U N C TI O N I N G IS IN THE DAY-LIGHT.

L U C I DITY OF

A P P R O P R I A T I V E C O N SC I O U S N E S S

W H I C H FASHIONS T H E B A S I S A N D T H E PROSE O F ITS OWN MOST D I SCOU R S E TO THE OF I N VOL V E M E N T WITH TH E STRICT EXCLUSION N IGHT OF NON

FOUC A U LTS TALK O F T H E POSSI B I LITY O F S E X U A L D I SCOU R S E I N T H I S CONTEXT I S THEN B A S E D U PO N TH E R E C I PROCAL I N T E R C H A N G E A N D ECONOMY OF REPRESSION AND TIVELY SUCH AND P R E D I C A TION WHICH AND R E S PE C U PH O L D IS TO

K NOWLEDGE.

M UT U A L L Y

R E ST R I C T

D I SC O U R S E . A

FOUC A U LTS

ATT E M PT

I N SPITE OF T H E L I M ITATI O N S O F SARTRE'S VIEW TO AND DI SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. IT IS A P P A R E NT

OUTLI N E

R E S P O N S E T O A N D T H E N G O BEYOND

O N E P R I M A RY QUESTION:

THAT HE IS A W A R E OF I M PO S I N G A C E RTA IN G R I D OF S U B J ECT-OBJ ECT U PON G E N ET IN PARTI C U L A R A N D U PO N THE S E N S U A L-SYMBOLIC I N G E N E R A L. A T T H E END OF G E N ETS HIS LONG W O R K HE AND INTRODUCTION TO
LA QU ESTION Q U E JE VOU D R A I S POSER N'EST PAS: PO U R Q U O I SO M M E S - N O U S REPRIMES. MAIS

POURQUOI D I SONS-NOUS, AVEC TANT D E PASSION, TANT DE PLUS RANCOE U R CONTRE NOTRE PASSE LE CONTRE NOTR E QUE PRESENT ET

WORKS,

SUGGESTS EVEN I NTO TH E

THAT ONE

M IGHT N E E D TO P L U N G E

I M AGI N A R Y I N

P R OC H E .

O R D E R T O STOP F L E E I N G T H E "OBJ ECTI VE" B Y THE " S U BJ ECTI VE" "OBJECTI VE":
AND

CONTRE

NOUS-MEM ES.

N O U S-SOM M E S

TH E

" S U BJECTI VE"

BY T H E

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FO U C A U LT C LA I M S AT L E AST TH R E E FAC ETS FOR

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COU RAGE

H I STO R I C A L. H I STOR I C A L-TH E O R E T I C A L. H I ST O R I C A L-POLITICAL. AT I SS U E FOR EACH LEVEL A R E

D'ALLER JUSQU'AU BOUT DE NOUS-M M E DANS LES

DEUX DI RECTIONS A LA FOIS."

T H E ESSENTI A L QU ESTI O N S : I S T H E R E PRESSION O F S E X U A LITY A N D D I SCO U R S E A BOUT I T R E A LLY I N

SARTRE. IN S P E A K I N G OF T H I S P E R PETUAL GAME OF H I D E AND S E E K W H I C H P H I LOSOPHICAL D I SCOU RSE I S COWA RDLY WONT TO P U R S U E , I S LUCIO ENOUGH TO SEE HIS OWN D I SCOU R S E AS ENSNARED TO

EVIDENCE

H I STOR I C A LLY? I S T H E

MECHANISM O F

POW E R I N SOC I ETI ES SUCH A S O U R S ESSENTIALLY OF THE R E P R E S S I V E O R D E R ? DOES THE C RI T I C A L OF AND A BO U T SEXUA LITY RUN

D I S CO U R S E

SOM E DEG R E E I N TH E G R I DS O F THE TRADITIONAL M I N D - B O D Y , T H O U G H T- E X P R E S S I V I T Y , S U B J ECT OBJECT, DUALISMS. H E HAS A T LEAST THE SENSE TO SEE, ALBEIT UNABLE TO CARRY OUT THAT

A G A I N ST THE G R A I N O F G E N E R A L R E P R ESSION OR I N STALL I T S E LF AND FIND ITSELF SITUATED FROM W I TH I N THAT FIELD AND SOU RCE OF R E P R ESSION?

S E E I NG CON S I STENTLY, TH AT ONE M UST PUSH IN THE TWO D I R ECTI ONS AT ONCE, F I N A LLY BEYOND THEM. WE HAVE H I NTED AT TH E NEED TO CON S I D E R SEXUALITY I N ITS "SYMBOLIC" D E PTH RATH E R T H A N AS A M E R E M E A N S TO T H E F U LFI LLMENT OF T H E O N TOLOG I C A L- E P I ST E M OLOG I C A L "H U M A N - S I T U A TION," IT WILL B E N E C E S S A R Y TO RETURN TO A N D DEPTH. Y E T , FOR THE MOMENT, I N D I F F I C U LTI E S OF DOING A DIS

I N B RO A D OUTLI N E . T H E STRE NGTH AND D E PTH OF F O U C A U LT ' S C O N FI N E M E N T, A N A LYSIS IS TO I N D I C ATE STI F L I N G THE OF

R E ST R I C T I O N .

AND

D I SCOU R S E O N S E X U A LITY A N D T H E R E P R ESSION OF S E X U A LITY IN TH E V E R Y LOC U S W H E R E SUCH TALK A PP E A R S TO BE IN THE OPEN. FOUC A U LT

SHOWS THE EXTENT TO W H I C H . E V E N S I N C E THE E N D OF T H E S I XT E E NTH C E NTU RY. T H E P U TT I N G I N THE O P E N OF D I SC O U R S E A S TO S E X U A LITY H A S NOT BEEN S U BJECTED TO MERE R E ST R I C T I O N IN A

F I L L O U T TH I S PURSUING THE

COU R SE ON S E X U A LITY, IT I S N ECESSARY T O S E E THE H I STOR I C A L A S U PO N W E L L A S " P H I LOSO P H I C A L" ANY S U C H DISCOURSE AND

SOLELY N EGATIVE

SENSE.

RATH E R ,

IT H A S BEEN

R ESTRICTIONS

TA M E p I RO N I C A LLY BY A GROWING I NC I T E M E N T TO COM E OUT I NTO T H E OPEN, ONLY TO BE DOMESTI CATED BY AND AND I NTO A SCIENCE OF S E X U A LITY.

THE CONFI N I N G CONTEXT OUT OF W H I C H IT M IGHT A R I SE.

S E X U A LITY I N I NTRODUC I NG TH E FI RST PAGES OF A CONTI NU I NG WORK ON A S E X U A LI T Y , MOD E R N MICHEL FOUC A U LT HAVING I N EXIS

D I SC O U R S E ON S E X U A LITY H A V E

N O T SO M UC H B E E N RESTRICTED BY A RIGOUROUS P R I N C I P L E O F S E LECTION A N D TABDO BUT F I N A LLY D I F F U S E D A N D D E F U S E D BY BROAD D I S S E M I N ATION AND E M PLAC E M E N T BY THE WILL TO KNOW. THE

SPEAKS I M PO S E D

OF ITS

P U R I TA N I S M ' S PROHI BITION,

DECREE

OF

T E N C E , A N D I NCOM M U N I C A B I LITY UPON THE SPACE

D E PTH A N D R I C H E S OF TH E PLACE OF T H E V E RTIGE

2152

OF

NON-KNOW I N G BEEN

OF SEX U A L-SYMBOLIC-POTE NCY BY THE K N OW I NG

EFFICIENT M A N AG E M E NT,

HAVE

T R A N S FO R M E D

D I SCOURSE I N THE O P E N OF A M O D E R N A LCH E M Y WHICH PROBES RATHER TH A N PA RTICI PATES WITH TH E H I DDEN SECRET:

THE

QU ESTION

OF

CONTROL

IS

MORE

R I C H LY

OUTL I N E D AS FOUCA U LT CONTRASTS "ARS EROTICA" WITH "SCI ENTIA SEXUA LIS." WHEREAS A RS EROTIC .. , AS M A N I FEST AND P R A CT I C E D IN E A STE R N RELIED AND

. . . CE QUI EST PROPRE AUX SOClirr ES MODERNES, CE N'EST PAS QU'ELLES A l E NT VOU E LE SEXE A RESTER DANS L'OMBRE, C'EST Q U ' E LLES SE

ARABIC-MOSLEM DRAWING THE

COUNTRIES, OF

U PO N FROM

"T R U T H "

SEXUALITY

PLEA S U R E ITSELF, TA K E N A S A P R A X I S I N T H E M OST INTI MATE, RICH A N D COMPLEX D E PTHS AS EXPER IENCE, SCI ENTIA SEXUALIS H A S TYPI F I E D WESTE R N "EXPE R I E NCE" A N D CON F I N E M ENT OF THE TR UTH OF

SOIENT VOUEES A EN PARLER TOUJOURS, EN LE FAISANT VALOIR COMME LE SECRET. S

F O U C A U LT "FORE" W I TH I N

DISCUSSES SECRET

THE AND OF

BRI NGING

TO

THE

SEXUALITY, ARS E ROTICA KNOWS NO REFERENCE TO C R I TERI A OF U T I L I TY, ABSOLUTE LAWS OF

OF TH I S THE

I T S B E I N G TA M E D TH E N A TU R E- LAW,

CATEGO R I ES

PERMISSION A N D TABOO. I T I N HABITS TH E PLACE O F MASTERY OF A N D WITH R E S PONSE TO O N E'S BODY, ITS U N I Q U E AND PARTIC U L A R JOY A N D PLEA S U R E , A FORG ETTI N G OF T I M E A N D LIM ITS. I T I S A LAT E R A L A N D DEPTH PLUNGE I NTO THE S P A C E OF R I C H N ESS AND AB U N D A NCE OF LIFE, A N AND ITS M ENACES, IT IS A EXILE FOR DEATH RE PROACH TO AN

EXC L U S I O N - D I S C R E E T M A R R I A G E . T H E N EW P U R I TA N I S M AND STIFLING OF A DEEPER DIS

C O U R S E W I T H SEXUA LITY I S SET U P BY M E DICAL SC I E N T I F I C P R I ESTS AS THE FORCE OF THE

C H U RCH-C LERGY W A N ES. S E X U A LITY V I EWED FROM THE GRID OF A D U LTS-C H I L D R E N - I N ST I T U T I O N S

I M PLIES C LASSI FICATION A N D CON F I N E M ENT WHICH I S NONETH ELESS BROAD ENOUGH TO MAKE ROOM FOR " D I S P A R ATE" B E H A V I O U R , " P E R VERSIONS" STATUS. ONE BY GIVING I N CORPORATE A N A LYSTI C CONCEP

E X T E R I O R- I N T E R I O R D U A L I S M , A CONTROL, OWN MOST G R A S P OF O N E'S T I M E-SPACE BY TOUC H I N G TH E TEXT U R E OF THE P L A C E OF THE POWER OF L I F E .

THEM THAT

SEES

READILY

THE

THE

PO V E R T Y O F W E S T E R N

SCI E NTIA S E X U A L I S

TUAL GRID WHICH U PHOLDS S E X U A L D I SCOURSE IS BROA D E R THAN THE S TA I D , D I R ECT L I N E S OF

H I NGES P R I M A R I LY ON I T S BEING OR B ECOM I NG THE BASTA R D FORM OF T H E RICHER ARS EROTICA -ALL BY WAY O F CEDI NG OVER THE PLACE OF SEXUALITY TO TH E G R E E D AND S E I Z U R E OF THE COURTROOM AND CON FESSION WHICH I S THE PLACE OF A VOWING THE S E C R ET. S E X U A LI T Y M U ST BE A F F I R M ED,

FILI ATION-G E N E RATION OF THE HEGELI A N SC HEMA. YET, I F L I N E A R I TY I S G I V E N U P FOR S P I R A LS OR

CONC ENTRIC WEBS WHICH A LLOW "PERVE RSIONS" AT THE M A R G I N S OR EXTR E M ITIES, T H E PLACE OF SEXUA LITY AND DISCOURSE TO AND WITH THAT

ASSERTED, CON FESSED, F O R IT T O T A K E I T S PLACE I N WEST E R N SOCIETY. PLEASURE AND THE DEPTH IT ENTA I LS , IS R E P LA C E D BY THE PLEA S U R E OF

PLA C E ARE ONLY COV E R E D OVER A N D M A NAGED BY A NEW PURITA N I S M .

A N A LYSI S , O N E'S OWN MOST RESPON S E WITH AND TO YET, FOUCA U LT I S N O T O N L Y CONC E R N E D T O SHOW THE E P I S T E M O LOG I C A L M ATTE R S AND M I S-M A N A G E M ENT BUT, OF PLEASU R E AND TH E SEXUAL PLACE IS O UTDIS

TA NCED BY THE SI LENT RESPONSE OF DOM I N ATION OF H E WHO LI STE N S TO THE S E X U A L CON FESSION OR WHO CATEGORIZES AND CLASS I F I E S IT,

SEXUAL

DISCOURSE

MORE

O V E R , T O I N DI CATE T H E C R U C I A L LATE R A L S P R E A D OF SEXUALITY I N A N D THROUGH R E LATIONS OF A S OC I A L - P O L I T I C A L PLEA S U R E OTH ER, AND FABRIC. HE C LA I M S THAT EACH

THE WESTE R N SCIENTIA

E N G U L F M E N T IN THE I N VO L V E S

POVERTY OF CLINICAL

POW E R

DO N O T N EGATE

SEXUALIS

ITS

NOR

S I M PLY V I E F O R TH E I R THEY "CHASE

RES PECTIVE A FTER EACH

CODI FICATION O F S E X U A L CONFESSION BASED ON THEORIES OF GENERAL SEX U A L C A U SALITY APPLIED TO THE WILL TO

POS ITIONS.

RATH ER,

OTH E R A N D GET ENTANGLED THE ONE WITH TH E OTH E R ACCO R D I NG TO COMPLEX M E C H A N I S M S OF EXC ITATION AND EXCITING EACH OTH E R ONWA RD." I RO N I C A LLY, S E X U A L DISCOURSE IN THE RECENT

PARTI C U L A R

EXPERI ENCE.

KNOW T H E SEXUA L E X P E R I E NCE DOM I N ATES A N D CRUSHES THE PLACE A N D DISCOURSE O F SEXUALI TY A N D ITS RICH POTE NTI A L OF I N D I V I DUATION A N D EXPRESS I O N TOWA RD ON O N E'S OWN MOST AND TE R M S AND

AGE I S PLAG U E D BY I TS CON F I N E M E N T IN THE OPEN: A S SUCH IT I S I N VOLVED IN A VAST SYSTEM OF WHICH TA K E S IT

O N E'S

D E E PEST

MOST P E R SO N A L

SOC I O - PO L I T I C A L

CONTROL

PLEASURES. THE DEPTH O F SEXUAL EXPE RI ENCE BECOMES G LOSSED OVER A S A TYPE OF LATENCY INTRINSIC TO S E X U A LITY BUT WHICH M U ST BE

SER IOUSLY A N D BROADLY, EVEN A LLOW I N G ROOM FOR A COM PLEXITY OF "PERVERSIONS" OF SEXUAL BEHAVIOURS AND ACTS, T H U S A LLOWI NG A MORE

BROUGHT TO THE FOR E OF DAYLIGHT LUCIDITY A N D

2153

CONFESSION RATH E R T H A N E X PLOR ED IN ITS OWN " N I G H T OF N O N - K N O W I N G . " H E N C E , SC I E NTI A

U S E OF MYTH A N D SYSTEM BY PSYCHOA NA LYSIS. FOR T H E C L I N I C WHICH THE H A S B ECO M E THE STAGE AND PIECES UPON

SEXUALIS I N STALLS A N D E N FORCES A METHOD OF

F R A G M E NTS

OF THE

INTER PRETATI ON, A M E DI C A L- H E R M E N E UTIC RAPE OF THE SEXUAL BODY, THE SOCIETY I N GENERAL WHICH LISTE NS, BUT THE A N A LYST I N PARTICULAR WHO RECORDS TH E S E X U A L CONFESSION, BECOME MASTERS OF PARDON, J U DGES OF ACTS WHO THEN CONDEMN OR J U STI FY, M A STERS OF THE TRUTH AND CONTROLL E R S OF A LT H O U G H THERE THE PLACE O F S E X U A LI T Y .

SHATTER E D SEXUA L-S Y M BOLIC-PLACE HAVE B E E N STREWN, T H E PLA YERS NO LONGER A LLOWED TH E I R PLEAS U R A BLE PLACE, B E I NG RE-PLACED BY THE S PECTATORS OF SOCI ETY A N D A N A LYST:

EN

ENCADRANT

LA

VIE

DE

L' E N F A N T

DANS

L'OEDIPE, EN FAISANT D E S R E LATIONS FAMILIALES L'UNIVERSE LLE M EDIATION DE L'ENFANCE, ON SE CONDA M N E A M ECON N A ITRE LA PRODUCTION DE L'INCONSC I ENTE COLLECTIFS QUI LUI-MEME, ET LES MECANISMES

ARE AT LEAST TWO LEVELS

I NVOLVED, "C L I N I C A L" A N D " POLITICO-SOC I A L," T H E T W O I N TE R P R E N ETRATE A N D I N FORM A N D S U PPORT EAC H OTH E R ,

PORTENT A C R U S U R L'I NCON

SCI E NT, NOTA M M E NT TOUT LE JEU D U R E FOULE

FIRST, AS S UGGESTED B Y FOUCAULT A N D B ROUGHT OUT MORE CLEARLY I N HIS WORK ON MADN ESS AND TH E BI RTH OF CONFI N E M E N T A ND THE CLIN I C AND AS CONCRETELY CRITICIZED BY DELEUZE AND

M E NT ORIG I N A I RE, DES M A C H I N E S D E S I R A NTES ET D U CORPS SANS ORGA N E S . CAR L ' I N CONSCIENT DANS

EST ORPHELIN. ET SE PRODUIT LUI-MEME

L'I DENTITE DE LA NATURE ET DE L'HOM M E . ' 2

G U A TTA R I . SCIENTIA S E X UALIS H A S ITS MOST A R D E NT COMPANION I N THE C L I N I C A N D TH E PSYCHOLOGI C A L-SEXUAL LITE R A T U R E IT U PHOLDS AND PRAC TIC E S , DELEUZE A N D G U A TT A R I S P E A K OF T H E THE POVERTY O F M UC H O F THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC D I SCOURSE ON S E X U A LITY IS W E LL SKETC H E D OUT I N THESE R E M A R K S , MOREOVER, THEY I N D ICATE A D I RECTION FOR E N RI C H E D D I SCOU RSE TO TA KE

GREAT CONTR I BUTION OF PSYCHOANALYS I S T O A DISCOUSE ON S E X U A LITY, PARTICULARLY IN

TOUC H I NG T H E DEPTHS O F T H E UNCONSCIOUS. YET, THE STI FLING M A N N E R OF EXPOSING THAT D E PTH IS TH E UPHOLDING OF R I G I D CLASSI FICATION AS S E E N IN TH E P R A C T I C E OF H E A R I N G TH E AVOWALS OF COMPLEXES GROU N D E D I N A STE R I L E E P I STEMO LOGICAL PLACE, THAT OF , , '

REGARDING A N D WITH THE PLACE OF SEXUA LITY, THAT PLACE WHICH I S THE PEC U L I A R I N DI V I D U A L'S FUSION WITH "NATU RE," THE RELATION M E NTION E D H E R E AS A N I D E NTITY M U ST B E FLESH E D-OUT AS THE PLACE OF I MPLOS I V E-EXPLOS I V E FUSION OF

L I B I DO- UNCONSCIOUS-SYMBOL: A NEW SENSE FOR S E X U A L S U R FACE M UST BE DEVELOPED A N D GIVEN

U N NOUVEL I D E A L I S M E : A L'INCONSCIENT COM M E U S I N E . ON A SU BSTITUE U N THEA ANTIQUE: A U X UN ITES DE PRODUCTION D E L'INCONSCIENT, O N A SUBSTITUE LA REPRESENTATION: A L'INCONSCIENT PRODUCTIF, ON A S UBSTITUE UN INCONSCIENT QUI N E POUVAIT PLUS QUE S'EXPRIMER (LE MYTHE, LA TRAGE DIE, LE REVE . , .l ' O

TEXTU RE, THAT PSYCHOA N A LYSIS A LONE CANNOT B R I N G-OUT THAT D E PTH A N D TEXT U R E BEGINS TO BE MORE E V I D E NT.

SECONDLY, THE C L I N I C A L LEVEL A N D ITS STULTIFY I NG U S E O F A SEXUAL DISCOURSE I S AUGM ENTED AND MUTUA LLY I N T E R P E N ETRATED BY A POLITICO SOCIAL LEVEL, AT THIS LEVEL ALSO CONTROL A N D

FOLLOWING T H E ALLUSIVE S U GGESTION O F JOYCE AS TO RE-EMBOD I M E NT, AND WISH I NG TO TOU C H

J U OG E M E NT

A R E C R U C I A L, A LB E I T N O T ALWAYS

E V I D E NT, THIS DUE PRI M A R I LY TO THE CA PACITY OF SCI ENTIA SEX UALIS FOR D I S P E RSION AND LATERAL CON F I N E M E NT, FOUC A U LT WRITES:

AC ROSS T O THAT D E PTH OF S E X U A L EXPE R I ENCE W H I C H D,H, LAWRENCE SAW B E I NG SMOTH E R E D BY S E X U A L- P S Y C H O LOG I C A L D I SC O U R S E , D E L E U ZE G U ATTA RI TH ROW I NTO Q U E STION THE EPI STEMO LOGY AND A N C I ENT-TH EATRE OF PSYCHOANALYSIS WITH ITS SENSE WHICH OF RE-PRESENTATION ACCOMPLI S H E D AND AT EX TH E

L'H I STO I R E

DE

LA

S E X U A LITE,

SI ON VEUT LA

CENTR E R SUR LES MECANISMES DE R E P RESSION, S U PPOSE DEUX R U PTU R ES, L' U N E A U COURS DU XVII' Snl:C LE: N A ISSANCE DES GRANDES PROH IBI TIONS, VALORISATION A D U L TE DE

PRESSION

ARE

EXPENSE OF THE

L I V E D- S E X U A L-BODY, IT IS NOT

LA SEULE SEXUA LITE

IMPE RATIFS DE

ALTOGETH ER C L E A R THAT THE I R WOR K I NG G R I D OF M A C H I N E - R EC O R D I N G - R E ACTION- F E E D B A C K W I LL BE ULTI MATELY CAPABLE OF AVOI D I NG THE TRAP O F SCI E NTI A S E X U A L l S. " A T TH E V E R Y L E A ST,

ET

M A T R I M O N I A LE ,

DECENCE, ESQUI V E OBLIGATOI RE DU CORPS, M I S E AU SILENCE ET PUDEURS AU I M PE RATIVES SI ECLE: DU

LANGAGE: R U PT U R E

L'AUTRE,

XX'

MOINS DE LA

HOWEVER, THEY R I G HTLY C R I TICIZE TH E A BORTIVE

D' A I L L E U R S Q U ' I N F L E X I O N

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00 LES M E C A N I S M E S
COMMENCE

ITSELF I N THE I DENTITY O F NATU R E A N D M A N . BOTH LESS AND MORE OF THAN A Q U ESTION OF MERE

A VA I E NT

A SE

DESERRER

. . . '3

C R I TI C I S M

DELEUZE

AND

G U ATTA R I .

IT I S A

QUESTIO N OF P U S H I N G T H E I R NOTI N OF DESI R I NG THE P R I M A R Y D I F F E R E N C E S B E T W E E N TH E TWO OF R E P R E S S IO N D I SC O U R S E R E G A R D I NG HANG ON S E X U A L I TY THE SOCIO MACH I N E S TO THE L I M I T : OF S E E I N G THE POSI T I V E SENSE OF THE D I S P E R S I O N OF L I B I D I N A L I M PU L S E EVEN U PO N AND BACK TOW A R D THE ANCIENT

SORTS AND

SEXUAL

POLITICAL CA PACITY TO CONFI N E S E X U A L DE PTH TO A DE-LI M I T E D

OR

THEATRE O F SYM BOL-TRAGEDY : O F EXPLORING T H E SEARCH F O R A FULLNESS A N D D E PTH OF FLESH A S IT COUR S E S T H ROUGH A N D T R A C E S I T S E L F U PON LIFE. OUR I N DICATIONS A S TO TH I S . A P E R H A PS

PLACE.

C LOSETED V E RTI C A L " O P E N " LAT E R A L

SPACE

TO A N

U N - L I M I TE D .

S PACE O F D I S P E R S I O N A N D DE-FUSION. TH E OLD P U R I T A N I S M C E D E S G LA D L Y TO THE N EW: T H E OLD TASK OF CON F I N E M E N T WAS TI R I NG AND U NABLE TO COPE ULTI M A T E L Y WITH T H E I M PLOS I V E - E X PLOS I V E FO RCE O F LI B I D I N A L- S Y M BOLIC- I D E NTITY. T H E N E W P U R I TA N I S M AS D I S P E R S IO N WILL ACCO M P L I S H

MORE R A D I C A L V I E W TO T H E PLACE OF S E X U A L I T Y AND D I SC O U R S E FAC E S AND ARE OF TA K E N IN V I E W I NG FIGURES THE OF

PA I N E D

THE

" M A D"

H6 LDE R L I N

N I ETZSC H E

A LONG T H E

FLESH

STREWN PATH OF

D I SSOLUTION O F T H E

MO D E R N

M O R E RADICALLY W H A T W A S A LWAYS AT I S S U E :

A G E I NTO L I B I D I N A L SCH I ZOPH R E N I A .

ON POU R R A I T D I R E Q U ' A U V I E U X D R O I T DE FAIRE MOURI R OU D E LAISSER VIVRE S'EST SUBSTITUE U N POUVO I R D E F A I RE V I V R E OU DE R E J ET E R DANS LA MORT. 1 4

WE

HEA R

THE

CALM.

CLEAR.

S O M E W H A T Q U I ET

VOICE O F THE S I M PL E C A R PE N T E R ZI M M E R AS H E WRITES TO H 6 L D E R L I N ' S HER SON'S MO T H E R D U R I NG TH E AND

YEARS OF

G ROWI NG " M A D N ESS"

FREQU E N T SI LENCE: T H E POSS I B I L I T I E S OF T H E N E W P U R I T A N I S M . T H E OPEN D I SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. T H E STATUS OF

HIS

POETIC

SPIRIT

STI L L SHOWS

ITSELF TO B E

SCI ENTIA SEX U A LI S.

I N VO L V E

DISPERSION

WHICH

ACTIVE:

I N M Y H O U S E H E S A W A DRAWI NG OF A

M A N AGES A N D CONTROLS AT E V E R Y L E V E L A N D S E E K S O U T E V E R Y F I B R E O F T H E H U M A N PLAC E . PEN ETRATING ITS T E X T U R E A N D U N D E R M I N I NG I T S T I S S U E . F L E S H I S M A D E . CONTROL LED. S POKEN O N . C L A S S I F I E D. J ECTED SIS. M U T I L A T E D. AND U LT I M A T E L Y R E

GREEK TEMPLE. HE ASKED ME TO MAKE ONE L I K E IT I N

WOOD.

R E P L I E D T H A T I H A V E T O WORK FOR M Y THAT I AM NOT FORT U N ATE ENOUGH TO

LIVI NG.

LIVE I N P H I LOSOPHIC CALM LIKE H I M : I M M E DI ATELY H E REPLI ED. "OH BUT I A M A POOR C R E A T U R E : AND IN TH E SAME M I NUTE H E WROTE T H E FOLLOWI N G

I F N ECESSA RY.

S PECTATORSH I P. ANA LY P U N I SH M E N T A N D

SEXUAL

D I SC O U R S E .

VERSES ON A WOODEN BOARD WITH A PENCIL

POLITICAL CONTROL H A V E

FOLLOWED THE S A M E
THE L I N E S OF LIFE A R E VARIOUS. A S FOOTPATHS ARE. AND AS THE MOUNTA I NS' CONTO U R S . W H A T H E R E W E ARE. Y O N D E R A GOD CAN COMPLETE WITH H A R M O N I ES. ETE R N A L R ECOM P E N S E . A N D PEACE. ' 6

P A T H STREWN W I T H H U M A N F L E S H . THE TORTURE OF DA M I E N S. ' 5 TH E CON F I N E M E N T O F T H E SICK. MAD. A N D OVERLY POLITI C A L D I S PA RATE. THE M A D N E S S OF N I ETZSC H E . H 6 LDE R L I N A N D ARTAUD. A R E A L L ALONG THE W A Y O F T H E CONTROL OF TH E FLESH O F I DENTITY O F N A T U R E A N D M A N .

D E L E U ZE OUTLI N E D

AND THE

G UATTA R I

HAVE

MORE PATH

FULLY AS THE

PERHAPS ONE B E G I N S TO S P E A K WITH H 6 LDE R L I N RATH ER T H A N J UST A BOUT H I M A S WE F E E L A N D HEAR TH E SC R A P I NG OF HIS PENCIL U PON THE

FLESH-STREWN

H I S TO R I C A L- G E N E T I C M O V E M E N T O F P R I M I T I V E DESPOT-CA P I TA L A N D U LTI MATE D I SSOLUTION I N TO SCH I ZOPH R E N I A O F CONTEM PO R A R Y SOCI ETY A N D ITS RETURN TO A N E W B U T D I S- P L A C E D SENSE O F THE P R I M I TI V E - S A V A G E . T H E I R OUTLI N I NG THE EX- PLOS I O N OF TH E

WOOD. WATCH THE POET G I VE U P TH E P R I V I LEGE D PLACE A N D PAPER. FA M I LI A R TEXTU R E A N D S I TE O F H I S USU A L D I SCOU R S E . C A R E F O R H I S F U M B L I N G WITH THE W OO D A N D OTH E R P A R T I A L OJECTS O F H I S-OUR F R AG M E NT E D W O R L D . U LT I M A TE L Y . H I S

NEGATIVE.

DESTRUCTIVE.

L I B I D I N A L I M PU LS E A N D ITS H I STO R Y O F CON FRON TATION WITH PERSUASIVE. POW E R Y E T. AND CON F I N E M E N T I S QUITE IT IS NOT C L E A R TO WHAT

GESTU R E I S TO CAPTIVATE. C A R E S S . A N D FA S H I O N THE FLESH OF HIS WORLD TH ROUGH P O ET I C

DI SCOU RSE. E M BLEMATIC O F TH E SC H I ZOPH R E N I C DIVI SION POR A R Y AND F R A G M ENTATION IS THE OF THE CONTE M THE

RADICAL AN EXTENT T H E Y A R E W I LL I NG T O PUSH THEI R OWN NOTION OF THE STAT U S OF THE

WORLD

GULF

BETW E E N

UNCONSCIOUS A S A N O R P H A N W H I C H G E N ERATES

CAR PENTER'S H A N DL I N G O F T H E EARTH. ALTHOUGH

255

U N ABLE TO FASH ION IT I NTO THE PLACE OF THE WHOLE A S EXPRESSIVE. AND T H E POErs EXPRES SIVE DI SCOU RSE. A LTHOUGH U NABLE TO TOUCH

I N A D EQ UATE FORM U L.ATIONS OR V I E WS TO SEXUAL. ITY A N D THE L I B I D I N A L. D E PTH OF TH E WORL.D. THEY SEEM TO HAVE OVERLOOKED THE SENSE I N WHICH TH E HAS M YTHIC-DREAM-PLAY OF BEEN STI F L E D LIBIDINAL. I M P U L.SE

FROM I TS ETH E R E A L SPACE TO THE FLESH. LOOK. A N D M A R ROW OF TH E L I V E D- F E LT WORLD. H 6LDER LlN'S DESPA I R OVER THIS FRAGMENTATION A LONG THE PATHS OF LIFE SEEKS COM FORT AND

PA RT I C U L. A R L.Y B Y F R E U D

THROUGH WHAT T H E POET BL.A K E TERMED " M I ND FORG E D A N A L.YST. M A N A C L. E S" -TH O S E O F THE TH I N K E R N I ETZSC H E 'S D I R ECTIO N . ALREADY A

RECONCI LI ATION GOD'S

I N THE HOPE FOR THE FLEEING TO FASHION H A R MO N Y IN

C A PA C I TY

PATH STRUCK U PON BY H 6L.DERL.IN. POI NTS TO THE PL.ACE O F PLAY WHICH I S L. I B I D I N A L.- S Y M BOLIC.

A N OTH E R WORLD. MOST C E NTRA L TO THE TRAGEDY OF H 6 LDERLl N'S OWNMOST A RTISTIC D I SSOLUTION IS P E R H A PS HIS FLE E I NG FROM AND DIS-PLACING HIS WO R L D TOWA R D A NOTH E R . H IG H E R . WO R L D

CHARACTERIZED MOST F UL.L.Y BY THE SATYR OF G R E E K TRAGEDY. N I ETZSCH E SPEAKS LUCI D LY AND I RO N I C AL.L.Y O F A M ETAPHYSICAL. COMFORT WHICH IS N E I TH E R HE P R O P E R L.Y M ETA P H Y S I C A L. WORLD NOR A

B E Y O N D THE WORLD. Y E T . H E H A S BEAUTIFU LLY STRUGG LED WITH AND PARTIA LL.Y P U R S U E D T H E

COM FORT.

SPEAKS OF NO

ABOVE OR

S E N S E O F I N SC R I PTION A N D E M BODI M ENT. STRUCK OUT A PATH TOWA R D POETICALLY TA K I NG U P ONE'S F L. E S H I N T H E W O R L D AG A I N ST TH E PATH OF

BEL.OW THI S O N E -THAT OF OUR BODIES. FLESH. S E X U A L. D E S I R E . A N D POETIC- L. I B I D I N A L. T H R U ST U PO N O U R WORL.D. NOR IS REALLY A COMFORT. I N THE SENSE O F A CONSOLATION. A T ISSUE. FOR OU R WOR L. D E M BOD I M E N T IS BOTH A PLUNGE FROM A N D TOWA R D OUR OWN F L E S H E D - BO D I E S AND A

PARTI A L OBJECTS A N D FRAGM E NTATION WHICH IS THE D I S SO L U T I O N A N D C O N F I N E M E N T O F THE

PLA C E O F S E X U A L-CREATIVE-SYMBOL.

CAREFUL. SC U L.PTING W H I C H WE DO A N D A R E : IN A N I ETZSC H E S E E M S TO H A V E CLEARLY P U R S U E D A S I M I L.A R PATH . TAKING IT FURTHER THAN H 6L.DER LIN. BUT IN TH E SAME SPIRIT AND OVE R AGAI NST TH E D I S SOLUTION OF A C E NTER WHICH NO L.ON G E R HOLDS. TA K I N G U S C LOS E R T O A S E X U A L D I S IF TH E M ETAPHYSIC I A N S COUL.D GET TH E I R H A N D S ON T H I S " I D E A " - A N D T H A T W O U L. D A L. R E A D Y A P H A L L I C - D E S POT I C S E I Z U R E -T H E Y AND C L. A S S I F Y IT AS FINITE SENSE BOTH A WORK AND JOY OF A RT I S T I C

C REATION.

COU R S E A N D TH E LlB I D I N A L.L.Y C REATIVE FL.ESH OF SYMBOL AS T H E PLACE OF T H E H U M A N :

I NVOLVE W O U L. D

L.A B E L.

T H E M ETAPHYSICAL COMFORT-WITH W H I C H I A M S UGGESTI NG LEAVES EVEN NOW. EVERY TRUE TRAGEDY IS

TR A N SC E N D E N C E . C E RTA I N L.Y S O M ETH I N G L. I K E THAT I S A T STAK E . AT L.EAST A S OPPOSED TO

US-THAT LIFE

AT THE BOTTOM OF

TRAN SC E N D E NC E TOWAR D AN ABSOL.UTE I N F I N ITE. YET. N I ETZSC H E H A S SL.AMMED THE DOOR I N TH E I R FAC E S : ZA R A TH U ST R A W I L L. NOT E A T A T TH E I R TA B L. E . FOR THE N O T I O N O F S U B J ECT I S N O T

THINGS. DESPITE ALL THE CHA NGES OF A PPEAR A NCES. I N DESTRUCTABLY POWERFUL A N D P\..E A S U R A B LE-THI S COMFORT APPEARS IN INCARNATE

CLARITY IN THE CHORUS OF SATYRS . . .

ALL.UDED T O H E R E . R A T H E R . N I ETZSCH E S P E A K S CONCRETEL. Y O F TH E F L. E S H E D-OUT. E M BO D I E D

SATYR AS BOTH A R C HETYPE OF M A N A N D SYMBOL

. . . T H E SATYR WAS THE A RC H ETYPE OF MAN. THE EMBODIMENT OF HIS HIGH EST AND MOST I NTENSE EMOTIONS. THE ECSTATIC REVELER E N R A PTURED B Y THE PROXI M ITY OF H I S GOO. THE SYMPATHETIC COM P A NION I N WHOM THE SUFFERING OF THE GOO IS R EPEATED. ONE WHO PROCLAIMS WISDOM FROM THE VERY H E A RT OF NATURE. A SYMBOL OF THE S E X U A L O M N I POTE N C E OF NATURE W H I C H THE

OF TH E S E X U A L POL.Y-PRESENCE A N D RICH POWER OF NATURE. N I ETZSC H E STRIKES AT THE HEART O F THAT I D E NTITY O F M AN-NATURE T O W H I C H DELEUZE A N D GUATTARI ALL.UDE AS THE ORPHAN WHICH IS TH E U NCONSCIOUS. TH EY. LIKE N I ETZSC H E . SPEAK OF TH E DEPTH O F L I B I D I N A L.L.Y- I NVESTED U NCON SCIOUS AND OF S E X U A L I M PUL.SE AS MORE THAN A PROC R EATIV E D E PTH. H ENCE. THE U NCONSCIOUS HAS NO PA R ENTAGE. N O SOURCE GROUN D FOR THE M ET A P H Y S IC I A N TO S T A N D U P O N . NO D E S POTIC PAR E N T TO OO M I NATE IT. YET. I F DELEUZE A N D

GREEKS USED TO CONTEMPLATE WITH REVERENT

WO N OE R . ' 7

ONE

W O U L. D

SEEM

TO

HAVE

O N L. Y C E R T A I N

G UATTA RI S E E TH E I R W A Y TO LIBERATING SEXUAL DISCOURSE FROM ITS MERE F A SC I N ATION A N D

SUGGESTIONS TO FOL.L.OW. SUCH A S THESE RICH AND C O M P L. E X AS NOTI O N S O F A WAY H6L D E R L I N THE AND

L I B I D I N A L. FI XATION U PO N THE SACRED FAM I LY A N D A M ER E UTILITY O F P ROCREATION. THESE S E E M R E P L. A C E D A T THE L. E V E L. O F T H E

N I ETZSC H E .

B E YO N D

RAPID

R E J ECTION B Y DEL.EUZE A N C I E N T- T H E A T R E OF

A N D GUATTAR I O F THE M YT H AND DREAM AS

P E R H A PS

FIXATION UPON P LE A S U R E OF DESI RING-MAC H I N E S .

256

BEYOND THE I R COM PLEX ATTEM PT A T THE FUSION O F V I T A L I S M M EC H A M I S M , N I ETZSC H E'S PLAYFUL SATYR BECKONS, THE SATYR PLAYS IN TH E ARENA OF T H E TRAGIC, A N AREA DELIM ITED. THE PLACE OF MAN'S DESTI N Y TO BE H I S BODY AND LIVE I N T H E WORLD, N I ETZSC H E TRANSFORMS T H E PLACE O F

BY

FIRM

DESIRE.

TH E

FACE-PLAY

IS

H A R DL Y

MASCULI N E . H A R DLY F E M I N I N E , T H E SOFT F U S I O N POINT O F BOTH. IT I S THE GOATS F A C E O F M A N . A L L OF US. PAN, A L L. THE IS N OT PAN OF A PH RODITE'S E RO S ? ' 8 YET.

COMPAN ION,

FATH ER

A PH RODITE T H REATENS PAN. R E M I N D I N G ALL T H A T EROS I S THE AB AN DO N ED C H I LO OF A L L O F U S . FREED FROM THE HORN E D DOMINANCE OF

TRAGEDY I N T O T H E FULL P L A C E OF A L O V E O F THAT DESTI N Y, A JOY WITH THE WORLD, THE SATYR I S

ODDLY THE COMPANION O F T H E GOD. R E PEATI NG H I S SUFFERING IN EACH OF M A N'S ATTEMPTS TO

AGGRESSION B Y THE WI NGS O F A FREE PLAY A MONG US. THE HORNED AGG RESSION OF T H E D I SSOL UTION OF SCH I ZOP H REN IC CAPITALI SM-TH E DISPERSION OF ALL-WOULD SEIZE ABUNDANT MOT H E R OF APHRODITE, AND VIOLATE HER AS AND

ESCAPE HIS BODY A N D WORLD, B E OR TOUCH A GOD, REFUSE LOVE OF H I S D E STI NY, AS FLESH I NG.QUT E C S TA T I C A L L Y TH E H IG HEST E M OT I O N S AND

R E C E PT I V I T Y E ROS.

C REATION M A N AGE

FULLEST DESI R E S O F M A N . TH E SATYR R EVELS A N D SPEAKS WISDOM FROM WITH I N AND WITHOUT

I N O R D E R TO EROS

CONTROL

HER

C H I LO.

FLOATS

F R E E LY .

NATUR E , M A N I S BOTH W I TH I N NATURE, THE WORLD, A N D W ITHOUT A NATURE. O R F I X E D ESSENCE, H I S PLAYFUL. S E X U A L. S Y M BOLIC M OV E M E N T IS T H E

PLAYFU LLY: F L E E I N G . Y E T E V E N SO U R C E OF THE T H R EAT. AND

TO U C H I N G T H E , TH E N O U R I S H I N G , OF A P H RO D I T E

RECEPTI VE, BESPEAK

FLESH

FACE

TA KING U P A N D B E I N G THE FLESH OF T H A T FORCE OF LIFE WHICH IS AT T H E BOTTOM OF ALL TH I NGS. WHICH IS HIS WORLD OF POWER, YET WITHOUT TIME AND

TH E

OFTEN

FORGOTTEN

PLAY O F O U R

PLACE: T H E A M B I VALENT DESI R E A N D VIOLENCE OF PAN'S E M BODI M E NT S H R I E K OUR P R E D I CA M E N T I N TH E TI M E O F SCU LPTU R E BECOME M A C H I N E . E ROS TOUCHES BOTH. COM PLETING A C I RC LE. W A I T I N G

DOM I N ATION

AND

REVENGE

AGAI NST

DESTIN Y. A N D PLEASU R E .

F O R TH E DANCE OF PLAYFUL EMBOD I M E NT. A LWA YS R E M E M B E R I NG THE MOI ST, TENDER. FLESH O F H E R TH E PLACE O F N I ETZSCH E'S S A T Y R I S THE PLACE OF L I B I D I N A L S Y M BOLIC PLAY. THAT PLAY IS THE MOT H E R . BORN OUT OF TH E C U TT I N G OFF OF

AGGRESSION. T H E SATYR M U ST B E TH E BECO M I N G O F H I S F L E S H . THE FU LLNESS O F H I S PLACE. A N D THE LOVE OF THAT PLACE. THE PATH TO THAT

WORLD WHICH WE FACE. W H I C H FACES U S AROU ND. IT I S THE PLAY OF T H E FLESH OF THE FACE WHICH STAR K LY. N A K EDLY. U N AB A S H EDLY CRIES WITH US, S M I LES OR L A U G H S WITH SOFT. P L I A N T. US. IT I S THE PLAY OF C H I LD'S UNWORN

PLACE I S THE D I SCOURSE SOUGHT. H E ED I NG T H E W H I S P E R OF T H E G ENTLY FLESH-SCU LPTE D E ROS AMID THE R A NT I N G . SCREA M I NG , GRATING OF

F L E S H -T H E

VOLUPTUOUS N ESS: T H E S E D UCTI VE GLANCE: T H E W R I N K LED. TO R N M O V E M E NT OF AGED LINES

STEELY. CONCR ETE. SC H I ZOPH R E N I C C A PITALI S M .

TRAVE RSING A D I SSOLUTION FOUGHT T O THE LAST

ROBERT V A N RODEN A LL E N

NOTES

CF. SARTRE. G ENET. P. 662.

CF. JACQU E S D E R R I DA. G LA S (PA R I S: EDITIONS

GALI LEE. 1 9741. PP. 2 8 6- 2 9 1 AND P. 7.

M I C H E L FOUCAULT, HISTOI RE DE LA SEXUALITE ( P R E M I E R TOMEI LA VOLONTE DE SAVOI R ( P A R I S : GALLI M A R D . 1 9761, p , 1 6.

J EAN.PA U L SARTRE. SAIN T G E N ET-COMEDIEN ET

MARTYR ( P A R I S : G A L L I M A RD, 1 9 5 2 8< 1 9701. p,

390. (EMPHASIS A DD E O)

IBID. P. 49.

9 3

CF. I BID" PP. 77 8< FF.

IBID

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P. 3 1 5, ( E M P H A S I S A DDEO)

10 4

GI LLES

D E LEUZE

ET FELIX GUATTARI.

L'ANTI

I BID.. P. 334.
11

OEDIPE (PARIS: LES EDITIONS D E M I N UIT1, P. 3 1 .

II

CF,

SARTRE.

T H E E M OTIONS. TRANSLATED BY
(NEW YORK: P H I LO

IBID

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P. 3 6 Be FF.

BERNARD

F R EC H T M A N

SO PHICAL LIBRARY.

1 9481. P. 6.

12

I B I D. . P . 57,

257

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FOUCAULT. P.

1 :5 2 .

17

FRI EDRICH

N I ETZS H E . T H E B I RTH OF TRAG E D Y

( A N D T H E CASE OF WAG N E R ) T R A N S . BY WALTER

14 IBID , p , 1 8 1 .

K A U F M A N N ( N EW YOR K : RANDOM HOUSE. 1 9 6 1 ) . PP.

:59. 6 1 . ( E M PH A S I S ADDED)

CF.

FOUC A U LT.

SURVEILLER

ET

PUNIR

(PA R I S :

G A L L I MARD.
16

1 9 7 :5 1 .

18
1 9. 1 8 1 2

THESE C LOSI NG R E M A R K S I N S P I R E D FROM T H E STR I K I NG "STATUE OF APH RODITE A N D P A N " I N

LETTER

OF

APRIL

CITED AND

T H E NATI O N A L A RC HA EOLOGICAL M U S E U M O F ATH E N S . P HOTOG R A P H I C R E PRODUCTION OF THE STA T U E IS FOUND IN THE M U S E U M'S

TRANSLATE D BY M IC H A E L H E l M I N H I S PAPER "WHAT IS S Y L VA N I A E M PHASIS) PHI LOSOPHY? -AGAI N?" (THE PENN STATE U N I V E R S ITY) . P.
1 1- 1 1 .

(MY

P U B LICATION ENTITLED "NATIONAL ARCHA EO LO G I C A L MUSEUM OF ATHE NS" ( ATH E N S .

Be 1 04.

G R E EC E : P . GALLI AS. 1 9 7 1 ) . PP.

101

54.

R . TU RNS BACK AND RETU R N S TO THE LANDING.

55.

THE CORPU LENT M A N TRIES TO I NTERCEPT H E R .

56.

HOLDING H E R BAG AT ARM'S LENGTH. R . H ITS THE COR P U L E N T M A N IN THE FACE.

57.

THE CORPU LENT MAN

PRETENDS TO FALL OVER. K N E E LS AND SEIZES R. BY HER A N K LES.

58- 60.

THE A R M OF THE CORPULENT MAN ROU N D THE CALVES OF R:S LEGS. T H E CORPULENT M A N

L I FTS R. WHO STRUGG LES. AND TH ROWS H E R O V E R H I S SHOULDER.

59.

THE HANDS OF THE CORPU LENT M A N MOV I NG UP BE H I N D T H E K N E E S OVER THE SUSPEN D E R B E LT TOWARD R:S THIGHS A N D B UTTOCKS.

6 1 -62.

TH E CORPULENT MAN C A R R I E S R. DOWN THE STA I R S TOW A R D THE B A S E M E NT. TH E COR PULENT

M A N SQU EEZING LEGS OF R. HANGING OVER H I S SHOULDER. R. STRUGG L I NG A N D H ITTING HIM WITH H E R FI STS-THE BOTTOM OF THE STA I R S I N FRONT OF A DOOR T H A T H E K I C K S O P E N .

2 :5 8

TO DESTROY S E X U A LITY
TO PUT N ESSES A L L OF O U R " L I F E " P RODUCTI VITY UN D E R ITS O W N A LTHOUG H THE C A P I T A L I ST ORDER A PPEARS TO BE TOLERA NT. IT I N FACT H A S A LWAYS CONTROLLED L I F E THROUGH ITS E X P R E S S I V E . SEXUAL. EMOTION A L AND A FFECTI VE A S P ECTS. CONSTR A I N I NG IT TO THE DICTATES OF ITS TOTA LITA R I A N ORGA N I ZATION B A S E D O N E X PLOITATI O N . P R I V ATE P R O P E RTY. A N END PA R A LYZI NG A D M I N I STRATION. IT TURNS

EACH OF U S I NTO A C R I PPLE. CUT OFF F R O M H I S OWN B O D Y . A STR A N G E R TO H I S O W N D E S I R E S .

M A L E DOM I N A NCE. PROFIT. A N D PROFITA B I L I TY. IT EXERCISES TH I S CONTROL U N DER ALL OF I TS

VARIOUS G U I SES: T H E F A M I LY. SCHOOLS. THE WOR K PLACE. T H E A R MY. R U LES. D I SCOU RSE. IT U N F A I L I N G LY P U R S U E S ITS A BJECT M I SSION OF CASTRAT ING. OPPRESSING. TORT U R I NG. AND MANGLI NG THE BODY. ALL TH E BETTER TO I N SC R I BE ITS LAWS U PON O U R FLESH. TO R I V ET I NTO OUR UNCONSCIOUS ITS M E C H A N I S M S FOR PROPAGATI NG SLAVERY.

T H E FORCES OF CA PITALIST OCC U PATION CONTIN UALLY REFINE TH E I R SYSTEM OF AGG R E S S I O N .

PROVOCATION. EXTORTION S O A S T O USE IT A LONG WITH A MASSIVE R E I N FO R C E M E N T OF SOC I A L

TERROR ( I N D I V I D U A L GUI LTI TO R E P R ESS. EXC LUDE AND N E UTRA LIZE A L L THOSE PRACTICES OF O U R WILL THAT DON'T AND R E PRODUCE SO TH I S THESE FOR M S OF

DOM I N ATION. REIGN OF TH E CAPITALIST STATE U S E S R ETENTION. STASIS. SC A R I F I CATION NORMS AND AND N E U ROSI S TO I M POSE ITS

THOU S A N D-YEA R-OLD SAC R I F I C E . AND DEATH

U N H A P PY G R A T I F I C A T I O N . COD I F I E D M ASOC H I S M

R ESIGNATION.

P E R PETUATES ITSELF. HERE R E I G N S CASTRATION. REDUCING THE " S U B J ECT" TO A G U I LT- R I D D E N .

MODELS.

I M P R I NT ITS C H A RACTERS.

ASSIGN ITS ROLES. PROM U LGATE ITS PROG R A M S . . . I T P E R M E ATES O U R BOD I E S . FORC I NG ITS ROOTS OF DEATH DEEP I N TO OUR S M A LLEST CREVIC ES. IT

N E U ROTIC. I N DUSTRIOUS B E I NG . LITTLE M O R E THAN A M A N U A L LABO R E R . TH I S OLD O R D E R . REEKING OF ROTT I N G BOD I ES. I S INDEED HORRI FYING. BUT I T H A S FORC E D US TO D I R ECT TH E R E VO L U T I O N A R Y

TA K E S OVE R O U R ORGANS. ROBS US OF OUR VITAL F UNCTIONS. M UTI LATES OUR PLEA SU RES. HAR-

S T R U G G L E A G A I N ST C A P I T A L I S T O P P R E S S I O N

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TH E R E W H E R E IT IS MOST D E E PLY ROOTED-I N THE L I V I N G FLESH OF O U R OWN BODY.

HERE

WE

FIND

PEOPLE

P R E PA R I NG

GREAT

U P R I SI N G OF L I F E A G A I N ST A L L O F T H E M A N I F ESTA TIONS OF D EATH W H I C H CONTI N U A LLY I N S I N UATE THEMSELVES I N TO OUR BODY. EVER MORE S U BTLY B I N D I N G OUR E N E RG I ES, DESI R ES. R E A LITY TO TH E I M PERATI V E S OF T H E ESTA B L I S H E D O R D E R . THEY

TO THE

FO RM T H E CONTO U R S O F A N E W FISSURE, A MORE R A D ICA L AND DEFINITIVE C O N F R O N TA T I O N . AC

WE WANT TO FREE THE SPACE -TH E CONTEXT. THE LOC U S -O F THE BODY AND ITS OWN SPECIFIC

CORDI NG FORCES SELVES.

TO W H I C H

THESE

R EVOLUTIONARY A R R A NG I N G TH E M

ARE

" N E C E S S A R I LY"

D E S I R E S FROM TH I S "FO R E I G N " G R I P. IT I S A LONG THIS "PATH" THAT WE PROPOSE TO "WORK"

TOWARDS T H E L I B E R ATION O F SOC I A L SPACE. T H E R E I S NO S E PA RATION B E T W E E N TH E T W O : I OPPRESS MYSELF BECAUSE THIS "I" I S THE PRODUCT OF A THE BODY

SYSTEM OF OPPRESSION OPE RATING AC ROSS ALL FO R M S OF E X P E R I E N C E . W E CAN N O LONG E R STA N D BY I D L Y W H I LE W E A R E ROBBED A " R E VOLUTI O N A R Y CONSCI O U S N ESS" I S NOTH I N G BUT A C H I M E RA A S L O N G A S IT R E M A I NS OUTS I D E OF A " R E V O L U TI O N A R Y BODY," A BODY WHICH OF OUR MOUTHS. OUR A NUSES. OUR

S E X U A L M E M BERS, O U R GUTS, O U R V E I N S . . . J UST

SO THEY C A N TU R N TH E M I NTO PA RTS FOR TH E I R

IGNOMI N I O U S MAC H I N E W H I C H PRODUCES C A PITAL, EX PLOITATION AND THE F A M I LY.

G E N E RATES ITS O W N F R E E DO M .

HERE MALE TH E I R

WE

FIND

WOMEN, THAT FOR

R EVOLTI NG BEEN

A G A I NST THE IN

WE CAN N O LON G E R STAN D BY I DL Y W H I L E THEY CONTROL. R EG U LATE AND OCCUpy O U R M UCOUS

POW E R BOD I E S

HAS

I N S E M I NATED

C E N T U R I ES:

H O M O S EX U A LS,

M E M BR A N E S , THE PORES O F OUR S K I N , T H E ENTI R E SENTI E N T S U R FACE OF O U R BODY.

R EVOLTI NG A G A I NST THE T E R RO R I Z I N G FASC I S M OF NORMA LITY: A DOLESCENCE, REVOLT I N G A G A I NST

TH E PATHOLOG I C A L A U T H O R I TY OF A D U LTS. THEY HAVE BEGUN, COLLECTI V E L Y , TO OPEN UP TH E

W E CAN NO LONG E R STA N D BY I DLY W H I L E TH E Y U S E O U R NE RVOUS S Y S T E M A S A RELAY I N TH E SYSTEM OF CAPITA L I ST, F E D E R A L. PATR I A R C H A L EX PLOITA TION. NOR W H I LE THEY USE O U R B R A I N AS A M E A N S OF PUN I S H M ENT P R OG R AM M E D BY A M B I E NT POWE R.

BODY'S SPACE TO S U BV E R S I O N A N D TO OPEN UP THE SPACE OF S U B V E R S I ON TO TH E " I M M E D IATE N E EDS OF T H E BODY."

HERE

WE

FIND

PEOPLE B EG I N N I NG TO QUESTION

AND I N VESTIGATE THE VA R I O U S MODES BY W H I C H DESI R E IS P RO D U C E D, TH E LINKS BETWEEN AND

WE CAN NO LON G E R NOT "CO ME" O R HOLD BACK O U R SH IT, O U R SALIVA. OUR E N E RGY ACCO R D I N G TO THEIR LAWS WITH TH E I R M INOR. TO L E R A T E D

J O U I SSANC E -T H E

H E IG H T O F

C OG N I T I V E

S E X U A L F U L F I LLM ENT-A N D POW E R , BETWEEN THE BODY A N D S U BJ ECT A S CONSC IO U S N E SS, A S TH EY EXIST EVERYWH E R E TH ROUGHOUT C A PITALIST

I N F RACTIONS. WE W A NT T O EXPLO D E T H E F R I G I D . I N H I BITED, WANTS MORTI F I E D BODY THAT MAKE CAPITALISM OUT O F O U R

S O DESPERATELY TO

SOCI ETY, E V E N A M O N G R A D I C A L G R O U PS.

L I V I NG BODY.

TO ESC A P E F RO M T H E SEDENTARY SLAUGHTER O F WANTI N G TH E F U N D A M ENTAL F R E E DOM TO ENTER HERE WE FIND PEOPLE WHO H AVE S H ORT INTO THESE REVOLUTI O N A R Y PRACTICES E NTA I LS OUR ESCAPING WE FROM TH E L I M ITS OF OUR OWN

C I RCUITED T H E H A C K N E Y E D S E PA RATION BETWE EN "POLITICS" AND L I V E D E X P E R I ENCE, A SEPA RATION B R I N G I N G G E N E R O U S R ETU R N S TO TH E M A N AG E R S OF O U R BO U RG E O I S SOCI ETY A S W E L L A S TO THOSE WHO PR ETE N D TO R E P R E S E N T THE M A SSES AND TO SPEAK IN TH E I R N A M E .

" S E LF."

M U ST

TURN

TH E

" S U B J ECT"

W I TH I N

O U R S E LV E S

UPSI DE-DOWN:

E SC A PE F R O M T H E STATE" AND

S E D E N TA R Y , F R O M T H E

"C I V I LI Z E D

CROSS TH E SPACES OF A L I M ITLESS BODY; LIVE I N T H E W I L L F U L M O B I L I TY BEYOND S E X U A LITY, B E YON D

26 1

TH E T E R R I TORY A N D R E P E RTORY OF NORMA LITY. THI S IS HOW SOME OF U S H A V E COM E TO FEEL THE VITAL NEED TO FREE O U R S E LV E S "TOG E TH E R "

DOWN T H I S OFFICI A L SEXUALITY AS O N E WOULD B R E A K DOWN TH E CONDITION OF ONE'S I M PR I SON MENT W I TH I N ANY STR UCTU RE; WE W A N T TO I N THE

FROM THE G R I P OF THE FORCES T H A T OPPRESS AND R E PRESS O U R D E S I R E S .

D E STROY

IT, TO G ET RIO OF IT BECAUSE

F I N A L A N A LYSIS IT FU NCTIONS AS AN I N F I N ITELY R E PEATI N G CASTRATION MAC H I N E DESIGNED TO

W E STR I V E TO TA K E O U R PERSONAL, I NTIMATE LIFE E X P E R IENCES TH E M . AND CON F R O N T TH E M , EXPLORE

R E PRODUCE E V E RYWH E R E AND I N EVERYON E THE U NQU ESTIO N I N G OBEDI ENCE OF A SLAVE.

LIVE THEM

COLLECTIVELY.

WE S T R I V E TO "SEXUALITY" IS J U ST A S MONSTROUS IN WHAT IT "PERMITS" AS IN WHAT IT RESTRI CTS; CLEA R LY,

B R E A K DOWN TH E CONCRETE WALL THAT S E RVES TH E DOM I N A N T SOC I A L O R D E R BY S E PA R ATI NG FROM APPEARANCE, S POK E N FROM UN

B E I NG

"LIBERA LIZED" S E X U A L MORES AND THE EXTENTION OF " E ROTI C I S M " T H R O U G H A D V E R T I S I NG TO A L L SOCI A L L I F E STRUCTU R E D A N D CONTROLLED BY

SPOK E N , PRI VATE F R O M S OC I A L.

WE

STRIVE

TO

ELUCI DATE

IN

COMMON

THE

TH E

M A N AG E R S OF "ADVANC E D" CAPITALISM DO

MECHANISM

B E H I N D ATT R A C T I O N . ORGASM; TO M AKE

R E P U LS I O N . CLEAR TH E

NOTH I N G MORE THAN I N C R E A S E THE EFFICIENCY OF TH E " R E PRODUCTIVE" F U N CTION OF THE "OFF I C I A L" LIBIDO. RATH E R THAN R E D UCE IN SEXUAL DISCON

R E S I STANCE.

U N I V E RSE OF O U R R E P R E S E NTATIONS, FETISHES, OBSESSIONS, PHOBIAS. THE " U N M E NTIONABLE" HAS BECOME OUR PREOCCU PATION, OUR MESSAGE, OUR POL I T I C A L T I M E-BOM B S OC I A L SINCE I N TH E R E A L M O F E X H I B I TS A

TE NT, T H E S E REALM OF

P R A CTIC E S

FACT EXTEND TH E A N D "LACK" THAT

F R U ST R A T I O N

FACI LITATES T H E T R A N S FO R M ATION OF D E S I R E I N TO A COMPULSI V E CON S U M E R I S M A N D GUARAN TEES "TH E C REATION OF DEMAND," THE DRIVING POWER BEHIND CA PITA LISM'S A POLOGIES. THE R E IS

I NTE RACTION

POLITICS

F U N D A M ENTAL WISH TO BE "ALIVE."

WE HAVE DEC I DED TO E XPLODE THE UNBEARABLE SECRET THAT POW E R USES AGAINST EVERYONE

N O F U N D A M E NTA L D I F F E R E N C E B E TW E E N T H E " I M MACULATE CONCE PTION" A N D T H E PUBLICITY MINDED AND PROSTITUTE, BETWEEN CONJUGAL DUTY

WHOSE LIVES I NCLUDE ANY SENSUAL. SEXUAL OR AFFECTIVE I N VOLV E M ENT WHATSOEVER-TH E SAME K I N O OF CONTROL IT EXERCISES OVE R A N Y R E A L SOCI A L ACTI ON T H A T PRODUCES OR R E P RODUCES FOR M S O F OPPRESSION.

T H E " E N LI G H T E N E D "

P R O M I SC U I TY OF TH E

BOURGEOI S I E : TH E PROGRESSION IS U N B RO K E N . TH E SAME RESTRICTIONS A PPLY. THE SA M E

F R A G M E N TATION O F T H E BODY A S SOU RC E O F D E S I R E CONTI N U E S U N A BATED. ONLY THE STRA TEGY C H ANGES.

TO D E STROY SEXUA LITY.

WHAT WE WANT, WHAT WE DESIRE IS TO K I C K IN THE FACADE OVER S E X U A LITY A N D ITS R E P R E S E NTA

IN O R D E R TO E X PLORE M UTUA LLY OUR I N DI V I D U A L H I STOR I ES, WE U N D ERTOOK T O DETE R M I N E HOW

TIONS SO THAT WE M IGHT D I SCOVER J U ST WHAT OU R LIVING BODY IS.

O U R LIVES AS R E F LECTED THROUGH OUR DESIRES WERE ENTI R E LY CONTROLLED BY T H E BASIC LAWS OF O U R B U R E A UC R ATIC, BOU RGEOI S. AND J U D EO C H R I ST I A N SUBSUMED SOC I E T Y , UNDER AND HOW THEY OF WERE TO GET R I D OF PROG R A M M ED TRA I N I NG.

ITS

R U LES

MAXIMUM WE W A N T TO F R E E , R E LEASE, U N FETT E R AND R E LI EVE TH I S LIVING BODY S O A S TO F R E E A LL OF ITS E N E RGI ES, OUR DESI RES, PASSIONS C R U S H E D BY P R OG R A M E D SOC I A L

PROFITABI LITY, S U R PLUS V A L U E AND R E PRODUCE A B I L I TY . WE CONFRONTED OUR INDIVIDUAL

"E X P E R I E NCES" B Y R ECOGNIZING THAT, HOWEVER "FREE" THEY MAY HAVE A PP E A R E D TO U S , WE

C O N SC R I PT I V E

AND

CONTI N U A LLY CONFO R M TO THE STEREOTYPES OF AN OFFICIAL S E X U A LITY THAT CONTROLS EVERY

SYSTEM .

S E X U A L EXPE R I E N C E FROM T H E CONJ UGAL BED TO THE B O R D E L LO TO SAY NOTH I N G OF P U B LI C

W E W A N T T O B E A B L E T O EXERCISE E A C H O F O U R VITAL FU NCTIONS EXPERI ENCING TH E I R FULL

TOI L ETS, DISCOS, FACTO R I E S , CONFESSIONALS, SEX SHOPS. PRISONS. SCHOOLS, SUBWAYS, ETC.

COM PLEMENT OF PLEASU R E .

W E W A N T T O R E D I SCOV E R SE NSATIONS AS B A S I C A S WE'RE NOT CONC E R N E D WITH SIM PLY B R E A K I NG THE P LE A S U R E I N B R E AT H I N G THAT H A S B E E N

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SMOTH E R E D BY THE FORCES O F OPPRESSION A N D POL L U T I O N : OR THE P L EA S U R E IN E A T I NG A N D

SMALL AND M A R G I N A L M I NORITY . WE A R E K E E N L Y AWA R E T H A T L I B E R A T I N G T H E BODY F O R S E N S U A L. S E X U A L . A FFECTIVE A N D ECSTATIC R E LATION S H I PS IS I N S E P A R A B LY LINKED MALE TO LIBERATING WOM E N

D I G E S T I N G THAT H A S B E E N I NT E R R U PTED BY T H E RH YTH M OF PROFITA B I LITY A N D T H E ERSATZ FOOD I T PRODUCES: O R T H E PLEA S U R E I N S H I TTI NG AND P E D E R A S TY T H A T H A S B E E N SYSTE M A T I C A L L Y

AND DESTROYING

DOM I N A N C E A N D R O L E

M OD E LS - E S P E C I A LLY S E X U A L ROLE MODELS. I T I S L I K E W I S E L I N K E D T O D E STROY I NG A L L FOR M S O F O P P R E S S I O N A N D " N O R M A LITY."

ASSA U LT E D BY T H E C A P I TA L I ST ESTA B L I S H M E NrS OPINION OF THE SPH I NCTER. IT I N SC R I B E S

D I R ECTLY U PO N T H I S F L E S H

ITS F U N D A M E NT A L W E WANT TO B E RID O F A L L ROLES AND I DENTITI E S B A S E D ON T H E P H A L L U S .

P R I N C I PLES: T H E POWE R L I N E S O F EXPLOITATION. THE N E U ROSI S OF ACC U M U LATION. T H E MYSTIQUE OF PROPERTY R E D I SCOVER AND PROPRI ETY. ETC. WE WANT TO THE PLEASURE IN S H A K I NG OUR

W E WANT TO B E R I D OF S E X U A L SEGR EGATI O N . W E WANT TO B E R I D O F T H E CATEGO R I E S O F M A N A N D WOM A N . GAY AND S T R A I G H T. POS S E S S O R AND

S E L V E S JOYOU SLY. WITHOUT S H A M E. N O T BECA USE OF NEED OR COM P E N SATION. BUT J UST FOR THE OF S H A K I N G O U R S E LVES. THE PLEASURES WE OF

SHEER WANT

PLE A S U R E TO

POSSESSED. G R E A T E R A N D LESSER. M A S T E R A N D S L A V E . WE W A N T I N ST E A D T O BE TRANSSEXUAL. MOBI LE AND M U LT I P L E HUMAN

R E D I SC O V E R

V I B RATI NG. H U M M I NG . S P E A K I N G . WALK I NG. MOV I N G . EXPRESSING FINDING O U R S E LV E S . IN OUR RAVING. BODY IN S I NG I N G A L L WAYS PLEA

A U TO N O M O U S . BEINGS WITH

VARYING

DIFFERENCES W H O CAN ECSTA

PLEA S U R E WE

INTERCHANGE

D E S I R E S . GRATIFICATIONS.

POS S I BLE.

WANT TO REDI SCOVER T H E

C I E S . AND T E N D E R E M OTIONS WITHOUT R E F E R R I N G B A C K T O T A B L E S OF S U R PLUS V A L U E O R PO W E R STRUCTU R E S T H A T A RE N'T A LREADY I N T H E R U L E S OF THE GAME.

SURE IN PRODU C I N G PLEASURE A N D IN CREATING PLE A S U R E THAT H A S BEEN RUTH LESSLY STRA I GHT JACKETED C H A RG E BY THE E D UCATIONAL SYSTEM IN

OF

PRODUCI NG

W O R K E R S-COM M A N D WE HAVE BEGUN AND SHALL CONTI N U E TO

CON S U M E RS.

PROD U C E A N E W S OC I ETAL R E A LITY I N W H I C H T H E G R E ATEST ECSTACY C O M B I N E S W I T H T H E G R EAT EST CONSC I O U S N E S S . WE TO L I B E RATE E N E R G I E S BODY. WITH THE HAVE BEGUN WITH T H E THE

R E VO L U T I O N A R Y

BODY.

PRODUCTI V E SPACE O F "SUBVERSIVE" STRE NGTH WE S E E K TO OPEN O U R BODY TO OTH E R BODI ES. TO A NO T H E R C I R C U LATE BODY: TO TRANSM I T V I BRATIONS. TO AND THE E FFECTI V E SPACE OF ALL OPPRESSION. CONSEQU ENTLY. WE HAVE R E U N ITED "POLITIC A L"

E N E RG I E S . TO A R RANGE D E S I R E S TO

PRACTICE WITH T H E R E A LITY O F THE BODY A N D ITS FU NCTIONS BY COLLECTIVELY I N VESTIGATING ALL

THAT EACH IS F R E E TO PLAY OUT ITS FANTA S I E S A N ECSTASI ES. S O T H A T WE M i G H T LiVE WiTHOUT G U I LT A N D W I THOUT I N H I B I TI NG A L L T H E S E N S U A L INTRA AND I NTERPERSONAL PRACTI C E S WE NEED SO OUR DAY-TO- D A Y R E A LITY WON'T TURN I NTO THE SLOW AGO N Y THAT C A P I TA L I S M AND B U R E A UC R A C Y

TH E VARIOUS MODES O F L I B E RATION. T H I S I S O U R

O N LY C H A N C E TO F I G H T A GA I N ST THE OPPRESSIVE C A P I T A L I ST STATE WHERE IT WORKS D I R ECTLY. THIS IS THE O N LY A PPROACH THAT CAN TRULY

STRE NGTH E N U S AGA I N ST A SYSTEM O F DOM I NA TION THAT CONTI N U A LLY EXPANDS ITS POWERS O F "WE A K E N I NG" A N D " M O L D I NG" T H E ITS AXIOMS. A F F I L I ATING HIM TO I N D I V I D U A L TO ITS ORDER OF

PROJ ECT AS A M O D E L Exi sTE N C E . WE S E E K TO R I P O U T OF OURSELVES THE FESTERING R U MOR O F

GUI LT THAT F O R THOUSANDS OF YEARS H A S B E E N AT T H E ROOT O F A L L OPPRESSION.

DOGS.

OF COURSE. WE REALIZE HOW MANY OBSTAC LES WE HAVE INTO TO OVERCOM E TO MAKE O U R ASPI RATIONS SOM ETH I NG MORE T H A N THE DREAMS OF A

G U Y H OC K E N G H E M

TRANSLATED BY T O M GORA

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HOW TO M A K E YOU RSELF A BODY WITHOUT ORGA N S

OESOP H A G U S . S H A TT E R E D W I TH O U T R I BS. HE A BLADDER. AND WITH TO

O N NOV E M B E R 2 8 . 1 947 ARTA U D DECLARES WAR ON THE ORGANS: TO HAVE DONE WITH THE

USED

SOMETI MES

J U DG E M E N T O F GOD. ' "FOR YOU C A N T I E M E U P I F YOU W I S H . BUT TH E R E I S NOTH I N G M O R E U S E LESS THAN AN ORG A N . " IT I S NOT J UST R A D I OPHONIC

SWALLOW PART O F H I S O W N LARYN X WITH H I S FOOD. ETC. BUT DIVI N E WHAT THE M I R A C LE S HAD BEEN BODY. ( " RAYS") A LW A Y S .
.

R ESTO R E D THERE ACTIVE IS

D E STROY E D C A R RYI NG

. . .3 ) . AN

E X PE R I M E NT A T I O N

BUT A L S O B I O LOG I C A L A N D

S C H I ZO

ON

POLITICAL. I N C U R R I N G C E N S U R E A N D R E PRESSION. BODY AND SOCI US. POLITICS AND E X P E R I M E NTA

I NT E R N A L

STRUGGLE

AGA I N ST

THE

ORGA NS. E V E N A T THE COST OF CATATO N I A . TH E R E I S TH E D R U G G E D BODY. T H E EXPE R I M ENTAL SC H I ZO: ''THE H U M A N BODY I S SCA N DALOUSLY I N E FF I C I ENT. I N STEAD OF A MOUTH AND AN ANUS TO GET OUT OF ORDER WHY NOT HAVE O N E ALLPU R POSE HOLE TO

TION. YOU W I LL NOT B E A L LOWE D TO E X P E R I M ENT I N PEACE.

T H E BWO: I T I S A LR E A D Y O N T H E W A Y A S SOON A S T H E BODY H A S H A D E N O U G H OF T H E O R G A N S A N D WA NTS T O P U T T H E M A S I D E . O R LOSE S T H E M . ITS A LONG P R OC E S S I O N : T H E H Y PO C H O N D R I A C BODY

EAT AND E L I M I N ATE? W E COULD SEAL U P NOSE A N D MOUTH. F I LL I N TH E STO M ACH. M A K E AN A I R HOLE D I R ECT I NTO T H E LUNGS W H E R E I T SHOULD H A V E B E E N I N T H E F I R ST PLAC E . . :,4 A N D T H E R E I S T H E M A S OC H I STIC BODY WHICH C A N NOT BE U N D E R

WHOSE ORGANS H A V E B E E N DESTROYED: ONCE T H E D E S T R UCTION I S ACCOM P LI S H E D NOTH I N G E L S E H A PP E N S -"M I S S X C L A I M S THAT S H E H A S LOST H E R B R A I N . N E R V E S . C H EST. S TO M A C H AND BOWELS.

STOOD IN T E R M S O F PA I N . FOR W H AT IS I N VOLVED I S PRIMA R I LY T H E BWO. IT H A S ITSELF SEWN U P B Y ITS SADIST O R ITS W H O R E -T H E EYES. THE ANUS. T H E U R ETH R A . THE B R E A ST S . ADDING TH E NOSE SEWN U P.

ALL SHE HAS L E FT IS THE SKIN AND BONES O F T H E DISORGANIZED WORDS2 T H E R E 80DY: IS THE THESE ARE HER VERY WHOSE

C OQ U E TT I S H L Y

8 U TTO N S

WITH

FO U R

PA R A N O I D

BODY.

HOLES. I T H A S ITSELF S U S PE N D E D TO STOP T H E ORGANS ORGA N S E R ED. FROM WERE FU NCTI O N I NG. SKIN FLAY E D A S IF THE

ORGA N S A R E A TTA C K E D BY OUTS I D E FORC E S AND R E STOR E D TO OUTS I D E E N E R G I E S ("HE LIVED FOR A LONG TI M E WITHOUT A STOM A C H . W ITHOUT

D E E P. SODO M I Z E D . S M OT H IN THE M OUTH SO THAT

D EFECATED

I NTESTI N E S . A LMOST WITHOUT LUNGS. W I T H A TORN

EVERYT H I N G I S S E A L E D TIGHT.

2 C1 !5

WHY

TH I S

DREARY

ARRAY

OF

SEWN.

VITRIFIED.

BOTH HAVE NOTH I N G BUT A BODY WITHOUT O RG A N S A N D T H E V I B R A T I O N S T H A T COM E OFF I T P I TY F O R W HOEV E R S I G N S H I M S E L F C A E S A R THE C RU C I F I E D F O R Y O U C A N NOT T R U S T H I M S I N C E H E DI DN'T E V E R C A L L H I M S E L F H E LIOGA B A L U S A N D S P I NOZA. (SECRET SONG OF T H E YOUNG ROSIC R U C I A N S) WE G R A D U A LLY R E A LIZE THAT T H E BWO IS NOT T H E OPPOSITE O F T H E O R G A N S AT A LL . I T S E N E M I E S ARE NOT THE ORGANS. THE ENEMY IS THE

C A TATON I Z E D . A S P I R AT E D BODI ES. I F T H E B W O I S A LSO F U L L O F G A I E T Y . ECSTA S Y . F R I S K Y DANC I NG ? WHY THESE E X A M P LES THEY ARE THEN. WHY ARE THEY

NECESSARY?

D E P R ESSING

E X A M P LES

FOR A C H E E R F U L H E A RT. E M PT I E D BOD I E S I N STEAD OF F U L L O N E S . YOU HAVE DE PLETED YOU R S E L V E S INSTEAD SHOWN W I SDOM. OF F I LL I N G YOU R S E L F U P. HAVE YOU NOT OF

ENOUGH AS

PRUDENCE? AS THE

PRUDENCE.

DOS E .

I M MANENT

RULE

EXPE R I M E NTAT I O N : I N J ECTIONS O F P R U D E N C E . YOU H A V E B E E N D E F EA T E D IN A G R EAT BATTLE.

R E R E A D I NG H E L IO G A B A L U S A N D THE TARAH U M A RAS (FOR H E LIOG A B A L U S IS S P I NOZ A : SPI NOZA

ORGA N I S M . T H E BWO DOE S N'T OPPOSE TH E O RG A N S . B U T T H E O R G A N IZATION O F T H E O R G A N S THAT WE CALL THE ORG A N I S M . IT IS TRUE THAT A R TA U D

H EL I OG A B A L U S R E V I V E D . T H E ONE H I D I N G B E H I N D THE TERRIFYING P H I LOSOP H E R . T H E MAD PH I LO

W A G E S H I S WA R A G A I NST T H E O R G A N S . BUT WHAT HE HAS R E A LLY HAD IT W I T H AND R E A LLY R E S E NTS IS T H E ORG A N I S M . T H E BODY IS THE B O D Y . A L O N E I T STA NDS. A N D I N N E E D OF N O ORGA NS. O R G A N I S M IT N EV E R IS. ORGANISMS ARE E N E M I E S OF THE BODY THE BWO I SN'T OPPO SE D TO T H E O RG A N S . BUT WITH ITS "LEG I T I M ATE ORGANS" WHICH A R E TO BE C O M PO S E D A N D SET. I T I S OPPOS E D TO THE ORGA N I S M . T O T H E ORGA N I C O R G A N IZATION OF ORGANS. TH E
J U DG

SOPH E R . THE OTH E R H I DI N G U N DER THE G U I S E OF THE C H A STE L E N S G R I N D E R . A N D A VOYAGE TO THE LA N D OF T H E TA RA H U M ARAS I S EXP E R I M E NTA TION. P E Y OT E . HAVE ARE SPI NOZA. SAME H E L I OG A B A L U S AND P E YOTE

THE

FO R M U LA : A N ARCHY AND U N ITY

ONE A N D THE S A M E T H I N G . NOT AT A LL T H E OF TH E ONE. BUT A DEE PER U N ITY.),"

UN ITY

P R E C I S E L Y W H A T T H E TWO BOOKS O F ARTA U D S A Y : F U S I B I L I TY AS TENCY. I N F I N I T E Z E RO. P L A N E OF C O N S I S AS

M E N T OF G O D . T H E S Y S T E M OF T H E J U D G M E N T OF GOD. T H E T H EOLOG I C A L SYSTEM. I S P R EC I S E LY THE O P E R A T I O N S O F HE WHO M A K E S A N ORG A N I S M . AN O R G A N IZATION O F THE ORGANS. WHICH W E C A L L AN ORGA N I S M . B EC A U S E BECAUSE HE H E C A N NOT BEAR T H E BWO. R I P S IT O P E N . TO G I V E DREADFUL T H I NG. THE

MATT E R

W I T H O U T G O D S : P R I N C I PLES.

FORCES.

ESS E N C E S .

S U BSTA N C E S . E L E M E NTS. OR RE PRODUCTIONS:

R E M I SSIONS.

PRODUCTIONS

THE WAYS OF B E I NG. O R M O D A L I T I E S . V I BRATIONS. I N T E N SITI ES. THE B R E AT H S . N U M B E RS : AND FINALLY

H OU N DS IT. TO THIS

D I F F I C U LT Y O F

ATT A I N I N G T H I S W O R L D O F

PRECEDENCE

CROW N E D A N A RC H Y. I F O N E S T A Y S AT THE L E V E L O F T H E O R G A N S -"TH E L I V E R THAT M A K E S T H E S K I N YELLOW. THE BRAIN B E S I EG E D BY SYPH I L I S . T H E

O RG A N I S M . T H E O RG A N I S M I S A L R E A DY P R E C I S E L Y T H A T. THE J UDGMENT OF GOD. TAKE THEIR WHICH OOCTOR S THE

PROFIT

AND

POW E R

FROM.

I NTESTI N E W H I C H E X P E LS E XC R E MENT." A N D I F O N E REMAINS T R A P P E D W I T H I N T H E ORG A N I S M W H I C H

O R G A N I SM I S NOT T H E BODY A T A L L. NOT T H E BWO BUT A STRA T U M ON T H E BWO. W H I C H I S TO SAY A P H E N O M E NO N TION. OF A CC U M U LATION. WHICH OF COA G U LA

BLOC KS T H E F L O W S A N D HOLDS U S I N O U R WORLD HERE.

O F S E D I M E NTATION

I M POSES FO R M S

A N D F U NCTIONS O N IT. R E LATIONS A N D H I E R A R C H I CAL AND DOM I N A N T ORGA N I ZATIONS. TRANSCEN

H E L I OG A B A L U S A N D S P I NOZA A R E O N E A N D TH E SA M E T H I N G LONG L I V E THE ROSE H E L I OG A B A L U S AND S P I NOZA M A K E THE S A M E CHOICE LONG L I V E T H E C ROSS TH E C H A STE P H I LO SO P H E R W I THOUT N E E D A N D T H E C R U E L E M P E R O R W H I C H S H ITS ALL OV E R H A V E THE S A M E S E N S E O F T H E C I TY PUTT I N G A N A RC H Y IN U N ITY AND TH E O N E I N ANARCHY M U LTI PLICITY HOMO. E U N U C H . S A DO. M A SO . TRA NSV ESTITE PANTHE. MODO N AT U R.I S U B STANTI A L I ST

D E N C I E S ORGANIZED FOR THE P U R POSE O F U S E F U L WOR K . " B I N D M E I F YOU W I LL." W E N E V E R STOP B E I N G STRATI F I E D . BUT WHO I S T H I S W E . W H I C H I S N O T M E . S I N C E T H E SUBJECT B E LONGS T O A STRATUM A N D D E P E N DS O N I T N O LESS T H A N T H E ORGA N I S M ? WE NOW A N S W E R : I T I S THE BWO. THAT G L AC I A L R E A LITY ON WHICH T H E S E A L L U V IO N S . S E D I M E N TATI O N S . PLiCATIONS A N D C O M P R E S S I O N S

COAGULATIONS. WHICH TION

M A K E U P A N ORG A N I S M - A N D A S I G N I FICA AND A S U B J E C T -OC C U R . THIS IS WHAT

E N D U R E S : T H E J U DG M E N T O F GOD W H I C H W E I G H S A N D E X E R C I S E S ITS W I L L ON IT. IT'S W I TH I N I T THAT THE O R G A N S ARE C O M PO S E D I NTO W H A T W E C A L L A N O RG A N I S M . T H E BWO H O W L S : ''T H E Y'VE M A D E M E A N ORGA N I S M ! T H E Y H A V E B R O K E N M E U N D U LY'"

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J U DG M E N T AND

OF

GOD

TEARS IT AN

IT

FROM

ITS A

AND TH E N , T H E R E'S A NOTH E R T H I N G : DON'T TH I N K THAT U N DO I N G T H E O RG A N I S M ANY MORE IS PARTICULARLY U N DO I N G

I M M A N E NCE

MAKES

O RG A N I S M ,

S I G N I FICATION, A S U BJ ECT, I T IS T H E STRATI F I E D . AS A R E S U LT IT OSC I L LATES BETWEEN TWO POLES. T H E

D I F F I C U LT,

D I F F I C U LT T H A N

TH E OTH E R STRATA. S I G N I F I C A N C E A N D s U B J ECTI VATION. S IG N I FI C A N C E AND I NT E R P R ETATION AS

S U R FACES O F STRATI FICATI O N U PON W H I C H I T FALLS BACK AND YIELDS TO J U D G M E N T AND THE PLANE OF

CLOSE C L I N G T O T H E S O U L A S TH E O R G A N I S M D O E S T O THE E A S I LY BODY. YOU EITH ER. DON'T G E T THE RID OF THEM IS SO IT

CONSIST EN C Y IN W H I C H I T U N FOLDS AND OPENS ITSELF TO E X PE R I M E NTATI O N . A N D IF THE BWO IS A L I M IT. I F

ONE IS NEVER THERE THROUGH IS A LW A Y S ATTA I N I NG A N OTH E R IT, IT'S

AND

S U B J EC T-HOW

POSSI B L E TO U N H I NG E TH E POINTS O F S U B J ECTI VATION WHICH FIX US, NAIL US TO A DOM I N A N T

BECA U S E

STRAT U M

B E H I N D T H E FIRST ONE. O N E STRATUM E MBEDDED I N A NOTH E R . FOR I T T A K E S M A N Y S T R A T A . A N D NOT J U ST OF THE O RG A N I S M . TO MAKE UP THE

R E A LITY?

TEAR

T H E C O N SC I O U S N E S S MEANS OF

FROM

THE

S U BJ ECT T O M A K E I T A

E X P L O R A TI O N .

VOYAGE. TEAR T H E UNCONSCIOUS F R O M S I G N I FI C A N C E A N D I NTERPRETATION TO M A K E A T R U E PROD UCTI ON OUT OF IT.

THE O B J ECT OF A P R O D U C TI O N

J U D G M E N T O F GOD. T H E R E I S A

P E R PETU A L A N D

VIOLENT STR I F E B E TW E E N T H E PLA N E O F CONSIS TENCY. W H I C H FREES T H E BWO, RUNS T H R O UGHOUT AND U N DOES A L L T H E STRATA AND T H E S U R FACES OF STRATI FICATIONS WHICH BLOCK IT. FOLD IT B A C K . BIND IT O R

PRODUC E TH E U NCONSCIO US!-TH l s I S C E RTA I N LY NO MORE N O LESS D I F F I C U LT T H A N T E A R I N G T H E BODY F R O M TH E ORGAN I S M . P R U D E N C E I S T H E A RT COMMON TO A L L T H R E E : A N D I F IT H A PP E N S T H A T ONE BRUSHES A GA I N ST DEATH IN U N DO I N G THE

ORG A N I S M , O N E TH E R E IS NO M A S OC H I ST, D RU GG E D. A LCOHOLIC

A LSO D A N C E S O N

T H E EDGE O F

FALSEHOOD, T H E I LL USORY, TH E H A L L U C I NATORY. PSYC H I C D EATH BY AVOI DING ARE M EA N I N G AND

BWO WHICH DOE S N 'T CONFRONT THIS PROBLEM A N D TH E R E I S N O G E N E R A L SOLUTION. L I F E O R D E A T H : AN OEDIPAL G R E E D-WH ETH E R OR CRACKS OF ONE THE A B SO R B S W H I P. YOU

I NT E R P R E T A T I O N GUA RDS A G A I N ST AS

WHICH

STRA N G E AND ONE

SAFE RISKS THE

M ADNESS. AS

A LCOHOL.

ACID

U N R E A L I TY

SOON

ONE

LEAVES

DON'T GO AT I T W I TH A H A M M E R BUT WITH A V E R Y FINE FILE. SELF D E ST R U C T I O N . YES, DEATH

DOM I N A N T R E A LITY TO B E COM E A N O M A D I N T H E M A S K E D O N E . A R TA U D C A R E F U LLY M EA S U R E S A N D WE IGHS H I S WO RDS: C O N SC I O U S N E S S " K N O W S W H A T IS GOOD FOR IT IT AND WHAT DOES WHAT IT HARM: AND AND

I N ST I NCT, NO. T O U N DO TH E ORGA N I S M H A S N E V E R M E A N T T O K I LL YOU R S ELF, B U T T O O P E N T H E BODY TO C O N N ECTI O N S WHICH P R E S U PPOSE A WHOLE

THEREFORE F E E L I NG S DANGE M ,

K N OW S

THOUG HTS A CC E PT,

P E R FECT TIONS,

A R R A N G E M E NT ,

C I R C U ITS, C O N J U NC PASSAGES A N D

I T CAN AND

PROFITABLY ARE

WITHOUT TO ITS

TIERS

A N D T H RE SHOLDS,

WHICH

INJU RIOUS

DISTR I B UTIONS O F I NT E N S I T I ES. T E R R ITOR I E S A N D M E A S U R E D DETE R RI TOR I A LIZATIONS R EM I N I SC E NT OF K A FKA'S S U R V EYOR. WHAT COULD BE MORE

F R E E DO M . A BOVE ALL, I T KNOWS J U S T HOW FA R ITS BEING EXTENDS, HOW F A R I T H A S N'T G O N E YET OR H A SN'T T H E RIGHT TO GO WITHOUT F A L L I N G I NTO

D A N G E R O U S TH A N A N I N TE N S I TY. B U T A LSO W H A T COULD B E M O R E A MO R O U S ? M A K E P R U D E NC E T H E POLITIC A L- E X PE R I M E NT A L V I R T U E . T H E POWE R O R POT E N T I A LITY O F T H E BWO. T H E V I R T U E O F LOV I NG. LET EVERYONE I N V E NT HIS OWN P R U D E NC E ,

U N REALITY, THE I L LUSORY, T H E U N- M A D E , T H E U N P R E PA R E D . . . A PLA N E W H IC H N O R M A L CONSCIOUS N ESS NEVER ATTA I N S B U T WHICH C I G U R I A LLOWS U S TO R E A C H , A N D W H I C H IS THE V E R Y M YSTERY O F A L L POETRY. B U T TH E R E I S A N OTH E R L E V E L I N T H E HUMAN WHERE WHICH BEI NG, AN OBSCU R E , FOR M L ESS ENTERED ONE, BUT

SOM ETH I NG T H E O PPOSITE O F M I ST R U ST, R E S ENT M EN T A N D GLUTTO N Y ALL TOGETH E R . O N LY I C A N K NOW I F I A M D R U N K, SA I D T H E CON S U L, A G A I NST THE BASE A S S E RTIONS O F PSYCHOA N A LY S I S (TO

C O N SC I O U S N E S S SU RROUNDS OR A IT

H A SN'T AN

LIKE

U N E L U C I DA T E D ON TH E

EXTENSION,

T H R E AT,

DEPENDING

FIND YOU R S E LF, LOOK I N TO YOU R C H I LD HOOD) W E SAY: Y O U D O N . K NOW W H A T Y O U A R E A N D YO U'LL O N LY KNOW BY E X P E R I M E N T I N G , G E N TL E EXPERI

CASE. A N D W H I C H A LSO R E L E A S E S A D V E NTU ROUS S E N SATI ONS S H A M E LE S S AND PERC E PTIONS. THESE A R E THE

F A N TA S I E S W H I C H I. TOO.

A FFECT T H E SICK HAD FA L S E HAVE

M ENTATION.

I F YOU

A R E C A PA B L E O F IT. N O O N E

C O N SC I O U S N E S S . S E N SA T I O N S ,

HAVE

C A N SAY "I A M A M A SOCH I ST:' N O O N E C A N S A Y "I A M A HOMOS E X U A L:' N O O N E C A N S A Y "I A M A D R U G A DDICT." SOM E O N E , SOMETH I N G A W AITS US. BUT

FALSE

PERCEPTIONS,

AND

B E L I E V E D I N TH E M . " 7

W H A T ? I T M IG H T B E SOM ETH I N G E LS E . O N E CA N'T TELL I N ADVANCE. ONE ONE D O E S N 'T EVEN K NO W I N IT IS NECESSARY TO R ETA I N E NO U G H OF TH E

R ETROSPECT, T I M E.

D O E S N 'T

KNOW FOR

AT T H E BWO.

ORG A N I S M SO THAT I T C A N R E C O NSTITUTE I T S E L F AT E A C H N E W D A W N , A N D TO K E E P A S M A L L S U P P L Y

E X P E R I M E NTATION,

SEARCH

TH E

267

OF

M E A N I NG

AND

I N T E R P R ETATION.

EVEN

TO

FORC E -O R E L S E Y O U D I S I NTEG RATE I N A S U I C I D A L OR MAD B R E A K DOWN A N D D I S R U PT T H E STRATA

OPPOSE T H E M TO T H E I R OWN SYSTEM. FOR THOSE TIMES WHEN C I R C U MSTA N C E S REQU I R E IT. W H E N

W H I C H FALL BACK DOWN O N YOU A L L THE H A R D E R HOSPITAL HAVE OR C E M ET E R Y . IS TH I S : W H A T YOU ACT U A L L Y ON A

T H I NGS. PEOPLE. E V E N SITUATIONS FORC E Y O U TO IT. AND ONE M UST KEEP SMALL RATIONS OF

TO DO

SITUATE

YOURSELF

S U B J ECTIVITY O N ONE'S DON K E Y MASK I N O R D E R TO BE A B L E TO COPE WITH THE DOM I N A N T R E A LITY. B E POLITE. A L W A Y S BE POL I T E . SCH IZO-POLITE SSE. T H E EXQUISITE POLITE NESS OF H OLDER L I N . BE

C ERTA I N STRATUM, E X P E R I M E N T WITH T H E OPPOR T U N I T I E S I T OFFERS YOU, LOOK FOR A PROPITIOUS SPOT. POS S I B L E M O M E NTS OF DETE R R I TO R I A LlZA TION AND LINES OF RECEDENCE, EXPERIENCE

C E R E M O N I O U S . M I M E THE STRATA. I N SHORT. O N E D O E S N 'T ATTA I N TH E BWO AND ITS PLANE OF

T H E M , SEC U R E C E RTA I N CON N ECTIONS O F FLOWS H E R E AND T H E R E , TRY OUT CONTI N U A O F I N T E N S I T I E S LITTLE BY LITTLE. ALWAYS K E E P I N G A S M A L L P I E C E OF NEW T E R R I TO R Y A V A I LA BLE. IT I S I N A

C O N S I STENCY BY W I LDLY DESTRATI FYI NG O N E S E LF . T H I S I S E V E N T H E R E ASON W H Y W E ENCO U N T E R T H E P A R A DO X BOD I E S OF THE L UG U B R IO U S THEY AND HAD E M PT I E D E M PTI E D OF

RELATION. ACCOR D I N G TO A M E TI C U LOUS R E L ATION W I TH T H E STRATA T H A T O N E SUCCEEDS IN OPE N I N G UP C H A N N E LS OF OF R EC E D E N C E FLOWS AND M A K I NG AND

AT THE

BEGI N N I NG : TH E I R

THEMSELVES LOO K I N G

OF

ORGANS

I N ST E A D

FO R T H E

MOMENTS W H E N T H E Y COULD

COM B I N AT I O N S ESCAPE. THAT

PASS THROUGH TO BWO.

PATIENTLY AND T E M PORA R I LY U N DO T H I S ORG A N I ZATION OF THE THEY O RG A N S HAD WHICH WE C A LL IN THE AN

ONE

MANAGES FOR IN A

RELEASE CONN ECT.

CONTI N U O U S

I NT E N S I T I E S

ORG A N I S M :

F A L L E N . S W I R L I NG. AND

COMBINE. CONTI N U E. W E A R E

A SOC I A L FO R M A

E X C E S S OF S I G N I F I C A N C E

I NTERPRETATIO N .

TION : S E E , F I RST OF ALL, H O W I T I S STRATI F I E D FOR US. IN US IN THE VERY PLACE WHERE WE ARE:

R U N N I NG A I M LE S S L Y O R . ON THE CONT R A R Y . I N A DODD E R I N G S T U PO R ( FO R NOTHI N G N E S S IS STI L L T H E S U P R E M E S I G N I F I E R . J U ST A S S I L E N C E I S T H E G R E A TEST VACANT I N T E R P R ETATIONI I N STEAD O F R E P LACI NG T H E M B Y THE C I RC U MSTA NTI A L A RT O F AN E X P E R I M E NTA L POS I T I V I S M : T H E Y H A D LOST

R E LATE T H E STRATA T O THE DE E P E R COLLECTIV E M AC H I N I C S E T U P IN WHICH WE ARE TRAPPED:

OVERT U R N T H E SET U P V E R Y GE NTLY. B R I NG I T I N TOU C H W I T H T H E PLACE OF C O N S I STENCY O N T H E OTH E R S I DE OF T H E S T R A T A . O N LY THEN D O E S THE BWO R E V E A L ITSELF FOR WHAT IT I S . CONN ECTION OF D E S I R E S . CONJ U N CTION O F FLOWS. CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S .

TH E I R EGOS.

WHICH T H E Y TH E N SOUGH T FOR ALL

T H E H A R D E R AND MORE D E S P E RATELY ( FOR P ITY'S S A K E . G I V E ME BACK SOM E M OO R I N GS!) S I N C E T H E Y D I D N 'T K NOW HOW TO P A Y O U T TH E I R NOM A D I C

D E P E R S O N A L I ZATION. E I TH E R W I T H I N TH E M S E LV E S OR WITHOUT. T H E R E A R E I N FACT M A N Y WAYS TO M I S S THE BWO. E I T H E R O N E DOESN'T M A N A G E TO

TH E R E

IS

BWO

O F C A PI T A L I S M .

CANCEROUS

B U R G EO N I N G M O N E Y . M O N E Y P RO DU C I N G M O N E Y . C A PI T A L I T S E L F W I TH ITS E X P A N S I V E I N FLATION M U ST C O N T R O L IT, FOR ITS OWN WE

PRODUCE IT. OR. H A V I N G PRODUCED IT SOMEWHAT. NOTH I NG D O N 'T H A PP E N S UP OR ON GET I T-TH E INTENSITIES THIS ON

S U B J ECTIVATION: O R I E NT IT. KEEP

CAPITALISM IT

STRATI F I E D

C I R C U LA T E:

B LOC K E D .

" H E A LTH".

I T S OWN

"ORGAN I S M".

EVEN

WHEN

ACCO U N T OF T H E BWO I S CONSTANTLY OSC I L LAT ING AND B ET W E E N THE S U R FACES WHICH STRATIFY I T THE P LA N E WHICH L I B E RATES IT. IF YOU

CON S I D E R A P A R TI C U L A R SOC I A L FOR M ATION, OR A PARTICULAR STRATIFYING MECHANSIM IN A

FOR M ATION, W E C A N S A Y THAT EACH A N D E V E R Y ONE HAS ITS BWO TO R E A DY COV E R SOC I A L TO AND FI ELD, CORRODE. INVADE TO

RELEASE

IT TH ROUGH

TOO VIOLENT A G E STU R E .

B R E A K U P T H E STRATA WITHOUT P R U D E N C E . YOU WILL H AVE K ILLED Y O U R S E L F, YOU WILL HAVE

PROLIFERATE, TOTA L I T Y OF

THE IN

THE

ENTERI N G

M I S S E D T H E P L A N E . (TH E R E PLAN. TH E P R OG R A M . SAID

IS NOTH I N G BUT THE THE M I LITARY MAN

R ELATION O F V I O L E N C E A N D R I V A L R Y A S W E L L A S ALLIANCES FO R M A T I O N S , BWOS. TH E AND C O M PLI C I T I E S WITH AND OTH E R THEIR

K L E I ST T O H I S YOU N G E R SI STER U L R I K E. W H O H E FELT G A V E H E R S E LF O V E R T O H E R FANTA S I E S TOO E A S I LY.) THE S A M E M U LT I P L E HORROR IS I N VOLVED IN S TA Y I NG S T R A T I F I E D - E I T H E R YOU REMAIN A

OTH E R

MECHANISMS

B W O OF

C A PITA L I S M W H I C H E I T H E R

F I N D S O R DOESN'T FI N D I T S R E G U LATION I N THE STATE, B U T A LSO T H E BWO OF T H E STATE W H I C H EITH E R F I N DS O R DO E S N 'T F I N D ITS REGU LATION I N INTERMEDIARY BO D I E S . W H I C H T H E M S E L V E S

P R I SO N E R OF YOU R ORGA N I S M . THE ORG A N I S M A N D ITS DOCTORS, S U B J ECT T O S I G N I FICANCE. S I G N I F I C A N C E A N D I T S PSYCHOA N A LYST. E N S N A R E D I N I T S R E C E N D E N C E , BOU N D T O THE DOM I N A N T R E A LlTY AND YOU DON'T EVEN FEEL IT: ONE C A N LIVE L I K E THAT A N D B E CONTENT W I T H O N ESELF, H A LF D E A D A M ONG T H E S Y M BOLS OF POWE R A N D T H E I C O N S O F

F U R N I S H BWOS. A BWO O F THE A R M Y T A K E S O V E R T H E S T A T E . A BSORBS E V E RYTH I NG I N ITS T U M O R , ITS C A N C E RO U S C EL L S PROLI F E R A T I N G E V E R Y

W H E R E . I N E V E R Y FACTORY, E V E R Y SCHOOL, EVERY H O U S E H OLD. C H I LE : WE HAVE THE MOST D EMO

268

C R ATIC A R M Y I N THE WORLD, S A I D THE C H I LEAN, I T HAS EARS F O R T H E P E O P L E A N D E Y E S F O R T H E

TH E M . C LOSE THEM OFF. NOT I N ORDER TO U N DO TH E STRATA WITH THE NECESS A R Y PRECAUTIONS BUT TO S H U T T H E M U P AGA I N , E V E N TO THE POI NT OF REMOVING T H E I R FORM AND A RTICU LATION -NOT TO MAKE "OT H E R" CONNECTIONS BUT, ON THE AND COM B I N A TO

CONSTITUTION, BUT TH E B W O OF CAPITAL I N FLATION BREAKS OUT ALL T H E MORE V I O LENTLY WHEN THE A I M I S TO B R I N G DOWN A SOC I A LIST GOV E R N M ENT: THE ARMY LO S E S ITS EARS AND ITS EYES,

TIONS

P OS S I B L E

C O N T R A R Y,

U N LEASH ES, I N THE

ITS T U R N A BWO THAT DESTROYS TAKES OVER THE STATE TO

E N S U R E T H E PROLIFE RATION O F T H E S A M E . B LI N D SCA R R I N G , N A Z I ECONOMY-NOT T O D I SCOVER T H E MAC H I N I C POTENTI A L OF DES I R E B UT TO E N S U R E T H E C LOS E D HOLD A N D POW E R O F A M E C H A N ISTIC D E S I R E : SUCH A R E THE C A N C E R O U S OR FASCI STIC BWOS, T E R R I F Y I N G CA RICATU R E S O F THE PLA N E OF CONSISTENCY OTHERS. AND YET NO LESS BWO THAN THE

GO V E R N M E N T,

R E STORE AN "OR G A N I C A N D H E A LTHY" C A PITA LISM FROM THE DEPTHS O F UTTER TERROR. COMPLEXITY OF ALLIANCES AND RIVALRI ES: TH I N K OF NAZISM THE FOR

I N STA NCE-DON'T

J UST

GENERAL

R E LATION BETW E E N N A Z I S M A N D C A PITA L I S M , BUT REMEMBER T H E BWO OF N A Z I S M A N D TH E R A V I N G B W O OF GERMAN CAPITALISM BEFORE THE NAZI

TAKEOVER, CO N S I D E R HOW THE N A Z I BWO R ECON STITUTES CAPITAL'S "O RG A N I S M " I N G E R M A NY, HOW NAZISM ORGA N I Z E S ITSELF BY U N L E A S H I N G A BWO OF THE ARMY D I STI NCT FROM THE BWO OF THE

IT I S THROUGH THE BWO THAT O N E DESIRES. TH E R E I S DE S I R E E V E R Y TI M E T H E R E I S BWO O F O N E K I N D O R ANOTH E R . DEATH I N STI NCT, Y E S , DESI R E E V E N I N C LUDES THAT I N TH E E M PT I E D B W O S , AS IT DOES THE HOW ABOLITION DOES OF D E S I R E I N C A N C EROUS BWOS. M A NAGE TO DESI R E THE ITS OWN

PA RTY, ETC.-TH E R E IS A BWO OF THE F A M I LY, T H E SCHOOL, THE FACTORY, T H E C I TY, ETC . -THE O N E S OPERATING I N R E LATION T O T H E OTH E R S , I NTER

DESIRE

REPRESSION? MAKE

HOW C A N

DESI RE,

M AC H I N I ST, OF THE

LOC K E D WITH I N E A C H OTH E R , C R EATING STR A N G E ALLIANCES A N D R I V A L R I ES. (TH E R E I S A B W O OF

ITSELF

M E C H A N I ST I C

DESIRE

PROLI F E RATION O F T H E SAME? C E R TA I N LY I T I S NOT A QUESTION OF I D EOLOGY, FALSE C O N S C I O U S N E S S . L I E S. E R RO R . OR S U P ERSTITION. TH E BWO HAS

PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S : T H E PSY C H O A N A LYST H I MSE LF, WITHOUT MOUTH. EYES, A WITHOUT OF EARS, AND WITHOUT A

CANCER

I N T E R P R ET A T I O N ,

I NT E R

NOTH I N G T O D O WITH I D EOLOGY: P U R E M A TT E R . I T I S A PHENOME NON AND OF PHYSICAL. B I O LO G I C A L . DESIRE IS

M I N A B L E A N A L Y S I S , A N I N F I N ITY OF WORDS F O R A N I N FI N I TE AMOUNT OF MONEY, SILENCE AS TH E

PSY C H I C A L

SO C I A L

M A TT E R .

S U P R E M E I N TE R P R ETATI O N , PROLIFE RATION IN A N I N C R EASINGLY A S P H Y X I A T I N G PSYCHOSOMATIC C I RCU IT'> I N S HORT, W E B E L I E V E T H A T T H E STRATA T H EMSELVES E N G E N D E R BWOS. IF THE STRATA ARE A M A TT E R OF C O A G U L A T I O N , OF S E D I M E N TATION

MATER I A L. A L L DES I R E I S D E S I R E O F BWO. BWO OF MONEY. BWO OF TH E STATE. BWO OF TH E A R M Y . BWO OF THE PARTY. BWO OF THE FA M I LY . YES. ALL THAT CAN BE DESI RED. HAS BEEN, IS AND WILL BE.

FASC I S M I S DESI R E. C A N C E R I S D E S I R E . T H E A R M Y DESIRES I T S BWO. T H E PO LICE DESI R E I TS BWO. T H E STATE DESI R E S I T S BWO. TH E FA M I LY DESI R E S ITS BWO. DES I R E WENDS ITS WAY THROUGH THE

U PON T H E BWO, A L L A STRATUM N EE D S I S A Q U I C K S E D I M E N TATION WITH I N ITSELF, TO FO R M IN A ITS SPECIFIC TUMOR

OR

C E R TA I N THE

FORM ATION OF BWO OF TH E

PARTICULAR

APPARATUS:

DA NGERS: I T C A N NOT WARD OFF T H E E M PTI E D A N D CANCEROUS BOD I E S W H I C H S U M M O N I T, EXC E PT BY REACH ING THE PLA N E OF CON S I S T E N C Y WHICH

STRATU M , W H I C H IS STI L L PART O F THE J U OG M E N T OF G O D . EVERY STRATUM H A S ITS HOLES, I T S L I N E S OF RECEDENCE AND M OV E M E N T S S W A LLO W E D OF UP DETE R R I I N THESE

DI SSOLVES T H E M AS I F I N ACID.

TOR I ALIZATION. T O B E

HOLES, NOT I N ORDER TO R E A C H TH E DESTRATI F I E D PLA N E OF CONS I STE N C Y B U T I N O R D E R T O PLUG

G I LLES DELEUZE A N D F E L I X G U ATTA R I TRA N S LATED BY SUZA N N E G U E RLAC

NOTES

TO

HAVE

DO N E WITH

THE

J U D G M E N T OF G O D .

SEVERAL

POINTS OF VI EW: THE

H YPOCHO N D R I AC

SEMIOTEXT(E), VOL. n. NO. 3. 1 9 77, P. 6 1 .

EX P E R I E N C E S. H I S O R G A N S A R E D E F I N I T I V E L Y DESTROYE D WITHOUT ANY POSSI B LE R ESTORATION

J U LES COTARD: ETA RD S U R LES MALADIES CEREBRA

EXC E PT

BY

S I M ULACRUM:

HE

MONOLOG U E S

AND

L E S ET M E N TA L E S . B R A I L L I E R E .

1 89 1 .

COTA R D

ACC U S E S H I MSELF I NSTEAD OF E N T E R I N G I NTO A D I A L OG U E WITH MORE OR LESS IMAGI NARY

STRESSES T H E D I F F E R E NCE BETWE EN HYPOCHON DRIAC DELIRIUM AND PARANOI D D E L I R I UM FROM

I N T E R LOCUTORS O R PE RSEC UTORS: H E I S N EGATI-

2159

V I STIC

IWITHOUT N A M E , AGE. ORGANS. O RG A N I S M ,

MANY

AS

D I A LECTICAL UNITY, A N D ONE THE M U L T I P L I C I TY IN

WHICH

S O U L , WITHOUT G O D ) W H E R E A S THE P A R A N O I A C I S A " G R E A T ONTOLOGIST".

"R EDUCES"

"BRINGING IT

BACK" T O T H E O N E . H E M A K E S H E L I OG A B A L U S SOM E KIND OF H EG E L I A N . HE DOESN'T SEE THE

MULTI

DR.

SCH R I B E R ' S

MEMOIRS. QUOTED B Y S , FREUD, p, 1 7,

PliCITY A S GOING B E YOND ALL OPPOSITION F RO M

T H E B EG I N N I NG . A N D A BOVE A L L C A N C E L I N G A N Y SUCH QUESTION. ANY D I A LECTI C A L MOV E M E N T

"NOTES ON A CASE OF P A R A NOIA". S.E" XII,

WILLIAM

B U R ROUGHS,

NAKED
131,

LUNCH,

NEW

YORK:

F R O M T H E B EG I N N I NG ,

G ROVE PRESS,

1 9 59, P.

6
A N TON I N A R TA U D,

A N TO N I N

ARTAUD.

"THE

BODY

IS

THE

BODY,"

H E LIOGABALUS. O R T H E A N A R

SEMIOTEXTIE). O P . CIT. . P. 59.

C H I ST CROWNED IN SELECTED WRITINGS. NEW YORK:

FARRAR, ST R A U S AND GI ROUX. 1 9 76. AND YET

H E RE. CON C E R N I NG H E LI OG A B A LUS. A RT A U D STI LL PRESE NTS US THE I D E NTITY O F THE ONE A N D T H E

A RT A U D ,

A VOYAGE TO THE LAND DF TARA H U M A RA S

SELECTED WRITINGS. O P . C I T

FRONTIERS BROKEN
HOLLY GOLIGHTLY M E ETS THE WI L.D BOYS, OR W A S IT M E L. I N A M ERCOU R I 7 " N E G R O STREETS AT DOWN, O R NOT," SHE SAID, ADJUSTI NG H E R DA RK GLASSES, "VAGI N A S U N D E R E V E R Y A R M . "

M I STER M A RG U L. I E S .

270

DEFU N KT SEX
"AT ORGASM, THE G R I M A C E A N D CONTORTION OF A WOMAN'S FACE GRAPHICALLY EXPRESS THE I NCREMENT OF M YOTO N I C THE TENSION THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE

THE PATI ENT IS WAITING IN KNEE-CHEST POSITION. ELECTR ICA LLY POWE R E D PLASTIC P E N I SES ARE

READY FOR ACTION. THEY HAVE BEEN A D.JUSTED TO HER SIZE. AND THEY N EVER FA I L,

BODY,

M USCLES O F THE

NECK A N D THE LONG

M USCLES OF T H E ARM AND LEGS USUALLY CONTRACT I NTO I N VOLUNTARY SPASM ' " THE PHYSIOLOGICAL

THEY A R E NOT H U M A N .

ONSET OF ORGASM I S SIGNALED BY CONTRACTIONS OF THE TARGET ORGANS, STARTI N G WITH T H E ORGASM I C PLATFORM I N T H E O U T E R THIRD O F T H E VAGINA " ,

THE

HUMAN

ELEMENT

H A SN'T

A LTOG E T H E R

ORGASM I C CONTRACTI O N S O F THE UTERUS HAVE BEEN RECORDED BY BOTH I NTRAUTE R I N E AND ABDOMI NALLY PLACED THAT ELECTRODES, UTERI N E BOTH TEC H N I Q U E S I N D I CATE HAVE ONSET OF THE

DISAPP E A R E D: T H E D E PTH AND RATE OF P E N I L E THRUST I S STI L L DETE R M I NED BY THE I N DI V I D U A L'S OWN DEMA NDS. A S TENSION ELEVATES. R A P I D I TY OF THRUST I N C R E A S ES.

THE

CONTRACTIO N S WITH

A L M O ST

S I M U L TA N E O U S L Y

THOSE

ORGASM I C PLATFOR M . , , "

THE MACH I N E N E V E R ORGASMS.

A R TI F I C I A L C O I T A L T EC H N I Q U E S CAMERA IN HAND, ELECTRODES IN POS I T I O N .

HAVE

BEEN

VA STLY I M PROVED B Y RADIO PHYS I C I STS. PLASTIC PENISES F UNCTION A S PLATE GLASS. COLD- LIGHT I L L U M I NATION A LLOWS OBSERVATION A N D RECORD ING WITHOUT D I STORTION. A N I M PARTIAL A PPROACH TO H U M A N SEXUAL EXPERI ENCE CAN NOW BEGIN.

M ASTERS A N D .JOHN SON. YOU R I N T R E P I D REPOR TERS, ARE ON THE SC E N E. M E A S U RING AND

RECORDING T H E ACTION. T H I S I S. T H E Y C L A I M I N THE PREFACE OF TH E I R STUDY,

HUMAN SEXUAL

RESPONSE. "A F I R ST STEP TOW A R D A N OPEN -DOOR

POLICY."

BUT WHAT DOES AN I M PARTI A L A PPROACH DO TO HUMAN S E X U A LITY? WHAT DOES IT DO TO A P

PROACH IT L I K E A N Y OTH ER PHENOM E NON. A N D A SEX. A T LAST. IS WIDE OPEN. SEPARATE PH ENOM ENON AT THAT, IN THE COLD

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LIGHT OF TH E LENS

SEX

LAB.

TH ROUGH

THE

N A R ROW

DESIRE DOE S N 'T STEM FROM I N T E R D I CTION. NOR IS IT ACCO M PA N I ED BY G U I LT O R BANS SHAME. INDIAN

AND TH E PEC U L I A R ANGLE OF THE PLATE

GLASS-LIKE PENIS7

MORALITY

STRICTLY

SUCH

B ELATED.

"CIVI LIZED" REACTIONS. SEXUA LITY R E M A I N S I F WE CAN A P P ROACH HUMAN SEXUA LITY AS A RAT. A DEAD RAT. IS IT MAY BE THAT THE EVE RYWH E R E OF ESSENTIALLY " W H A T EV E R GOOD.'" IS FESTI VE; THE I M PL I E D RULE IS

PLEASURABLE

I S I N TR I N S I CA LL Y

S E X U A LITY

LOOS I NG

P L U R A L I TY JOY.

D I M E N S I O N S -T H E MYSTERY.

VIOLENCE. THE TH E

THE EVERYTHING C H A N G ES WHEN MAN FA LLS PREY TO H I S "CONSC I ENCE." BY FAR. AS N I ETZSC H E PUTS IT. THE WEAK EST AND L E A ST C E R TA I N OF OUR TH E

THE T E R ROR.

EXUBERANCE-THAT

HAVE MADE I T A TRULY H U MAN E X P E R I E NCE.

WE KNOW EVE RYTHI N G ABOUT SEX. A N D WE'RE NOT AFRA I D TO ASK. WE BUT IS KNOW I T WORTH A BO U T ASKING W H E N F U RT H E R

ORGA N S .

M A N-TH E - P R E DATOR

B ECOM E S

" P R O U D A N I M A L." A LL T H E M O R E I N S E C U R E A BOUT H I S OWN DOINGS THAT HE K E E PS M E A S U R I NG T H E M AGA I N ST A D E S P E R ATELY I DOLIZED V E R S I O N O F

E V E R Y TH I N G

SEX

OBJECTIFIES IT? E R ECTION. C L ITORAL STI M U LATION.

ORAL

SEX.

P R E MATU R E

E J A C ULATION. VAG I N A L

H I M S E LF. FROM A N A S S E RTIVE. C R E ATIVE ACTION. S E X G R A D U A LLY TU R N S I NTO A DOM ESTICATED A N D N A R C I S S I ST I C FRAG I L E EGOS. REACTION-A T R Y I N G TEST FOR

ORGASM. A N A L I NTE RCOU RSE-WE KNOW IT A LL. W E DON'T LOOK A T T H E K I NSEY R EPORT: WE WATCH THE JOH N N Y CARSON SHOW.

AS SOCI ETY M A K E S S E X U A LITY I NTO A N OBJ ECTI VE. "AUTONOMOUS" WE HAVE BECOM E VOY E U R S OF OUR OWN SEXUAL ITY. WE DON'T H I D E A NYTHI NG. ESPECIALLY FROM STR A NG E RS. W E W E LC O M E PUBLIC I NSPECTI ON. INDIVIDUAL EVEN F U N CT I O N . FURTHER IT I SO L A T E S M A K I NG SEX TH E HIS

BY

MOST PRI VATE POSSESSION A N D R E S PO NS I B I LITY W H I L E R E STITUTI N G I T PUBLICLY A R O U N D HIM AS A COLLECTIVE " A M B I A N C E . "

YOU

W I LL

N OT I C E

HERE

H OW

THE

RECTA L TODAY S EX'S M A I N F U NCTION I S T O CATE R T O THE EGO'S N E E DS. W H I C H ARE NOT SO M U C H I N STI NCT UAL AS THEY ARE PRO M OTIONAL. SEX. L I K E THE IS

SPHINCTER O F T H E F E M A L E SAMPLE CONTRACTS AND T E R M I N ATES. HOW THE B R E A STS' A R EOLAE TH I S WAY. P L E A S E - R ET R A C T THE RAPI DLY AFTER AND

ORGASM

WH I LE

S E X F L U S H SUBSIDES

BODY.

LIKE

E V E RYTH I N G

FOR T H A T

MATTER.

HYPERVENTI LATION G R A D U A LLY DECREASES . . .

B E I N G M A R KETED A T THE SA M E T I M E I T I S B E I N G " F R E E D."

OUR SOCIETY I S SATU RATED WITH SEX. BUT I S OUR SEX REALLY SEXUAL7 PRI M IT I V E FLESH OF C U LT U R E S TRIBESME N R U T H L E SS L Y TO REMIND BRAND THEM TH E WHERE

THEY B E LONG. W E A R E N O T C R U E L A N Y MORE-GOD BY SEXUALITY I DON'T M E A N . OF COURSE. A S I M PLE. "NATURAL" ACTIVITY BUT A COMPLEX PHENO M E NON IN WHICH PHYSIOLOG I C A L. M ENTAL. A N D SOC I A L FOR B I D - B U T WE D O N ' T B E LO N G A N Y W H E R E .

E S P E C I A LLY I N O U R OWN BODY. W E A R E A PEOPLE WITHOUT A M E MORY. AND WITHOUT A FUTU RE. O U R ON LY NATU R A L G R O U N D I NG. OUR R E A L "STOCK" I S I N T H E STOCK-EXCHANGE. OUR O N L Y V A L U E S L I E I N THE VOL U M E A N D SPEED O F TRADING. THATS W H Y OUR " B R A N DS" A R E R E MOVABLE TAGS.

D I M E N S IONS CONSTANTLY O V E R L A P . EACH C U L TURE APPROPRIATES S E X U ALITY IN ITS OWN WAY. BUT I N NO OTH ER SOCIETY HAS SEXUALI TY BEEN SO I N T I M ATELY PERMEATED WITH OR. R AT H E R .

CONSTITUTED B Y SOC I A L R E P R E S ENTATIONS.

YANOMANI S E X U A LI TY

INDIANS IN TER M S

OF OF

V E N EZ U E L A

CODIFY

K I N S H I P. W H I C H A R E SEX. IN OTH E R WORDS. IS B E I NG M A D E I NTO A SIGN.

R E P RESENTATIONS I N TH E I R OWN RIGHT. BUT THE YANOMANI ARE NOT OBSESSED WITH THEM A S W E ARE. T H E Y F I N D W A Y S T O ACCOMMODATE TH E I R MOST PRESSING INCLI NATIONS. E V E N W H E N THESE DESIRES HAPPEN TO CONTRA DICT TH E PROH I B ITION O F I NCEST. EACH LOV E R S S I M P L Y D E C I D E TO " N A M E " D I FF E R E NT L Y
.

A S I G N R E P R E S E NTS THE EGO FOR A NOTH E R EGO. BUT W H A T IS THE EGO ITSELF. A FT E R A LL. IF NOT A NOTH E R R E P R E S E NTATI ON7 A A R E P R E S E NTATION FOR A N OTH E R

R E P R E S E NTS

R E PR E S E NTATION C I R C U LA R ITY

OTH E R

THEIR

SEXUAL

R E P R E S ENTATION.

O F S I G N S : "SO

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TODAY IF YOU S E E A PE RSON WHO LOOKS LIKE YOU R TEENAGE FANTASY WALKING DOWN T H E STREET." WRITES ANDY WARHOL. "IT'S PROBABLY NOT YOU R FANTASY. BUT SOMEONE WHO H A D THE S A M E FANTASY AS YOU A N D D EC I D E D I N ST E A D O F GETII NG I T O R B E I NG IT. T O LOOK LIKE IT. A N D S O H E W E N T T O T H E STORE A N D BOUGHT T H E LOOK THAT YOU BOTH LIKE. SO FORGET IT."

THAT WAS E V E R Y W H E R E-BUT I T H A D NO R E A L MEANI NG T O PEOPLE:' 2

pop ITEM S

DON'T HAVE TO M E A N ANYTHI NG TO

PEOPLE. THEY A R E NOT CRYING FOR A QUESTION. FOR ALL-TOO-HUMAN QUESTIONS ("WHAT DOES SEX M EAN TO M E ?" ) . "HUMAN R ESPONSES" A R E A LWAYS UNHUMAN.

FORGETTI NG. OUR O N LY M EMORY.

I F MASTERS

AND JOH N SON'S BOOK H A D B E E N

T R U LY U N H U MA N A N D N O T J U ST OBJECTI V E . I T THE I NDIVI D U A L'S STRONGEST NEED IS TO SIGNI FY. T H R O U G H T H E P R E C A R I O U S E X E R C I S E OF H I S SEXUALITY. H I S DEGREE O F CONTROL O F H IMSELF AND T H E WOR L D . HIS VERY C R A V I N G FOR A P P R O V A L A N D R E C OG N I T I O N C O N D E M N S H I M . H O W E V E R . TO P E R PETU A L D I SCONTENT. OBSES S I VELY H E FOCUSES O N H I S SEXUA L I TY A S I F SEX ITSELF COULD P RO T E C T H I M AGAINST T H E F L O A T I N G A N X I ETY H I S O W N P E R FO R M A N C E S I M U LTANEOUSLY C R YSTA LLIZES. M IGHT H A V E B E E N QUITE EXCITI NG. U N H U M A N SEX AT LEAST WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT. EVEN H O L L Y W O O D I S G E TT I N G T I R E D OF R O U T I N E SEXPLOITATlON: " M O V I E-GOE R S W A N T TO SEE SOMETH ING SPECIAL. L I K E A SPACE S H I P COM I N G DOWN. A N D LAS E R B E A M S." DECLARES AN ACTRESS FROM CLOSE ENCOUNTERS OF THE THIRD KIND. "TH EY WANT TO EXPERIENCE FEAR A N D M YSTERY," 3 ONLY TECHNOLOGY CAN STI L L MAKE US STAN D I N AWE A N D E X P E R I E N C E ANEW THESE P R I M ITIVE E M O TIONS. ONLY WHEN IT TA KES US SOMEWH ERE ELSE. "TODAY WE SEEM A N I M ATED E XC LU S I V E LY BY FEAR. W E FEAR EVEN THAT WHICH I S GOOD. THAT WHICH IS H E A LTHY. THAT WHICH IS JOYOUS:' W R I TE S H E N R Y M I LL E R I N THE WORLD O F SEX. " A N D WHAT I S THE H E RO? P R I M A R I LY O N E WHO H A S CONQUERED H I S FEARS
. .

I N A NOTH E R SPACE. IN A NOTHE R D I M ENSION-"OUT OF THIS WORLD"-CAN SEX MAKE US EXPERIENCE FEAR A N D M YSTERY.

ONE STEP F U RTH ER. AND OUR SEXOLOGISTS MAY WELL HAVE PLANTED THEIR F LAG ON THE EMERGING CONTI NENT O F SEXUAL TECHNOLOGY. BUT THE BOOK NEVER G ETS THAT FAR. IT NEVER R E A C H E S THE P O I N T W H E R E M A N ' S I D E N T I T Y VACI LLATES I N T H E H A N DS OF T H E MACHINE.

H I S S I N G U L A R VIRTUE I S THAT H E H A S

BECO M E O N E W I T H LI FE. O N E W I T H H I M S E LF. HAVING CEASED TO DOUBT A N D QUESTION. H E QUICKENS T H E FLOW AND RHYTHM OF LI FE."

ALL

WE A R E

L E FT W I T H . A T T H I S P O I N T IS A FAILING TO B E U N H U M A N . THE BOOK ALSO FAILS TO BE SIM PLY H U M A N . SOM EWHERE. UNDER THE COLD LIGHT O F SCIENCE. H U M A N SUBJECTS EXPERIENCE FAILURES O R M U LTI PLE ORGAS M S IN THE HANDS O F PROFESS I O N A L S U R ROGATES O R OTH E R WELL

HAUNTING Q UESTION. IT COMES. A P P ROPRIATELY. F R O M T H E T H E M E S O N G OF H U M A N ' S E X U A L RESPONSE. A BOSTON-BASED BAND:

WHAT DOES SEX M EA N TO ME? WHAT DOES SEX M EA N TO SOCIETY?

ADJUSTED M ECHANICAL MATES. BUT NOTH I NG I N T H E BOOK B E T R A Y S T H E S U B J ECTS' S I L E N T CONV U L S I O N S , T H E S E A R E J U S T SAM PLES O F

THE QUESTION IS ITS OWN ANSWER. WE HAVE NOT YET CONQU E R E D OUR FEARS.

H U M A N R E S PO N S E S M EANT TO TEST I F Y FOR A HUMANITY THAT WAS.

CASEY CAMERON. A S I NG E R OF TH E BAND. TOLD DON S H EWEY HOW HE THOUGHT OF ITS N A M E. H E W A S W O R K I N G I N A BOOKSTO R E A T T H E T I M E M A S T E R S A N D J O H NSON'S BOOK W A S A B E ST SELLER: "A LOT O F PEOPLE WOU L D COME IN A N D ASK FOR THE B OO K RATH E R F U RTI V E LY
. .

ANYONE. IN THE MEANTIME. CAN FIND HIS OWN BY LINGERI NG AMONG THIS GRAY C E METARY OF SIGNS. ANYONE C A N M A K E U P HIS OWN SEXUAL "PROFI LE" BY CHECKING THE E M PTY BOXES AND COMPA R I N G TH E E M PTY TRACES OF AN E M PTY PLEASUR E T O T H E VA I N PASSION OF H I S O W N I DENTITY.

YOU

COU L D JUST SEE THE DISA PPOI NTMENT WILT THE I R FACE W H E N T H E Y LOOKE D THROUGH IT. BECAUSE I T WAS SO BOR I N G . I THOUGHT I T WAS A FUNNY WE DON'T ACTUALLY N EED TO ROAR THROUGH COMM E NTAR Y O N THE SOCI ETY; IT WAS SUCH A POP ITEM-THE FI RST BOOK WITH THE 'SEX' IN THE TITLE

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R E MOTE GALA X I E S TO BE THROWN OUT OF OUR OWN SPACE. DOESN'T OUT OF MEAN OUR OWN I DENTITY. A HONDA GOLDWI NG 1 000 WILL DO. "FEAR AND M YSTERY" GOING PLACES-EROTIC TRAVEL

M E M BERS OF THE TRIBE. TOTEM I S M I S S I M PLY ONE OF T H E COLLECTIV E MECHANISMS ( L I K E SACRIFICE, I NITIATION, C A N N I BA LI S M ) P R I MITIVE SOC I ETIES USE TO P R EVENT T H E E M ERGENCE I N THEIR M I DST OF SUCH A THING AS I ND I V I D U A L I TY-A N D W I T H I N DI V I D U A LITY T H E D I V I S IONS, H I ERARCHIES, OPPRESSION A N D E X P LOITATION THAT MAKE U P " H U M A N " H I STORY.

OGUE-BUT BECO M I NG OUT OF PLACE. COLLA PSING INDIVIDUAL TI M E A N D SPACE IN THE VECTOR OF MOVEM ENT.

IT I SN'T TH E M A C H I N E ITSELF THAT I S E ROTIC. IT IS THE VI OLENCE OF SPEED AND FEAR AND FUSION THAT GOES WITH IT. " A N D T H E F E E L I N G OF U TT E R WE'VE REACHED THE OTH E R END OF THE LINE. EXHI LARATION A S YOU G U I D E THE BIG MACH I N E THROUGH TRAFFIC . . . , CONTROLLING T H E BEAST WITH YOU R BODY AS MUCH AS WITH TH E CONTROLS . . . AND TH I N K I NG HOW M UC H GREATER THIS FEELS THAN FLYING A PLA N E , . . A LMOST A S E X U A L TH RI LL.'" W H A T I S TR U LY EROTIC IS TO BE O N E WITH

WE'RE NOW B L I N DLY TRYING TO BREAK OPEN THE C U M B E RSOME CARAPACE OF THE EGO I N ORDER TO R E E STABLISH OU RSELVES AS PART OF A NATU R E THAT, I N THE M E A N T I M E , I S FAST DISA PPEA R I NG. AT THIS POI NT TECHNOLOGY MAY WELL BE THE ONLY NATURE W E HAVE LEFT, A LTHOUGH TECH NOPH I L I C INTENSITY (SPEED A N D F U S I O N ) A UTOMATICALLY L I B E R A T E S A L L T H E OTH E R POT E N TI A L I T I E S OF BECOMING (BECOMI N G A N I M A L, OR PLA NT, O R TH I NG) THAT A R E C LO S E L Y C LO S E T E D IN WHAT T H E C U LTURE KEEPS CALLI NG-GOD KNOWS WHY-THE FREE I N D I V I D U A L.

TH E MACH I N E , ONE WITH THE BEAST-FLY I NG AT H IGH SPEED AWAY FROM THI S DOM ESTICATION OF OUR BODY AND OUR S E N S E S THAT W E C A L L H U M A NITY.

W E S H O U L D N 'T BE CYC LE

S U R P R I S E D TO D I S C O V E R

I N T I M ATELY W E L D E D TOG ETH E R I N T H E MOTOR E X H I L A R A T I O N , TWO "CO N T R A D I C TO R Y" M A C H I N E-OF S E X U A L EX D I M E N SIONS-BEAST,

" I F WE COULD J U ST LEAVE WELL ENOUGH ALONE," COM M E NTS L A R R Y B A N GOR, L E A D S I N G E R A N D WRITER OF H U M A N SEXUAL RESPONSE, "WE M IGHT B E ABLE TO H A N DLE TH I NGS A S EASI LY AS A N I MALS DO W H E N THEY'RE JUST L I C K I NG EACH OTH E R AND PICKING BUGS." BUT T H E FREE I N D I V I D U A L-THAT SCA R E D/SAC R E D COW-CANNOT LIVE A LONE, OR L E A V E A N YO N E A LO N E S I N C E HE IS ENTIRELY DEPEN DENT F O R H I S E X I STENCE UPON WHATEVER JUDGEM ENT, REAL OR I MAGI N A RY, THAT I S BEING PASSED ONTO H I M .

PERIENCE. THE CONTRADICTION ONLY EXI STS IN RATION A L TE R M S THOUGH, AS SOON AS A C E RTA I N L E V E L O F I N T E N S I TY ( T E R R O R , V E LOC I T Y ) I S REACHED, SEXUA LITY LOSE S I T S RATIONALITY, A N D CATEGOR I ES T H E I R PERTI N E NCE, PU R E L Y I N D I VIDUAL D I M E N S IONS, W H I C H ENDLESSLY REQUI R E A MEAN I NG ("WHAT DOES S E X MEAN . . . "), DISSOLVE INTO A STATE OF U N L I M ITED BECOMI NG.

MAN DOESN'T ACTUA LLY BECO M E AN A N I M A L, NOR DOES H E BECOM E A M AC H I N E: THE FEAR A N D MYSTERY O F SEXUA LITY DON'T RESULT FROM M A N BECO M I N G SOMETHING ELSE A N D ACQU I R I NG A NOTH E R I D E N T I T Y , T H E Y R E S U LT F R O M H I S HES ITATION BETWEEN G E N D E R S A N D S P E C I E S BEING ALIEN T O HIS O W N SPECIES A S W E L L A S TO OTHER SPECIES: USING OTH E R SPECIES IN ORDER TO GET R I D OF T H E L I M I TATIONS A N D EXCLUSIONS OF ONE'S OWN.

T H E I N D I V I DU A L'S L I F E I S AN E N DLESS POPULARITY CONTEST. "LOVE M E , LOVE M E , " T H I S ABJECT R EQ U E ST I N ST I L L E D B Y T H E C U LT U R E I S H A M M E R E D ON O U R SENSES, ON O U R "FEELI NGS," AS THEY SAY, L I K E DI SCO-MUSIC ON F M RADIO EVERY FRI DAY N IGHT. "BE YOU R S E LF, B E POPULAR, HAVE FUN": THIS THIS IS IS HOW, IN THE ABSENCE OWN OF ANY TH E TRADITION, T H E C U LT U R E TRAI N S ITS C H I LDREN. HOW W E B RA N D OUR WITH I ND E L I BLE SEA L OF I N S E C U RITY A N D S U B MISSION,

THIS IS, AFTER ALL, THE FUNCTION OF TOTEM I S M I N PRIMITIVE SOCI ETIES. CONTRA R Y TO CLAUDE L E VI. S T R A U S S ' A S S U M PT I O N S , T O T E M I S M I S N ' T A STRUCTUR A L DEVICE BY WHICH MAN USES NATURE I N ORDER TO S E PA RATE H I M S E LF FROM IT, I T IS, ON TH E CONTRA RY, THE R I TUA LIZED EXPERIENCE B Y W H I C H PRIMITIVE SOC I ETIES MAKE SURE M A N ISN'T GOING TO SEPARATE HIMSELF FROM NATURE ANYMORE THAN SETTING H I M SE L F APART FROM THE OTHER

I F THE

INDIVIDUAL

IS

S OC I A L O B J E C T - A

R E P R E S S E D A N D REPRESSIVE P R O D U C T OF TH E C U LTURE-, WHY NOT AT LEAST SUBSTITUTE FOR H I M A NOTH E R OBJECT (A P I ECE OF FURNITURE, FOR I N STANCE) OR RATH E R USE HIM LIKE AN OBJECT, L I K E AN A N I MA L, IN ORDER TO TEAR H I M AWAY FROM H I S PAR A LY2ING H U M A N ITY:

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"NOW TURN

ME O N

TH ERE

IS

VIOLENCE

O F SC I E N C E,

B UT THAT

A N D I'LL RESPO N D TO Y O U LIKE A H U M A N B E I N G ,

VIOLENCE ISN'T M EANT TO BRINGING THE "SAM PLES" TO A P E AK-AT T H E MOST TO G I V E TH E M THE

B U T THAT'S N O T R E A LLY TRUE,"

"GRATIFICATION" OF A SUCCESS F U L ORGASM. TH E VIOLENCE OF OBJECn VlrY AMOUNTS TO DENYING

BANGOR'S UNOFFICI A L THEME SONG FOR H U M A N SEXUAL RESPONSE, HE E X P LA I N S , IS ABOUT

THE

ANIMAL

IN

MAN

W H I L E S I M U LT A N E O U S L Y

RELEGATI NG M A N TO TH E STIM U LUS-AND-RESPONSE STATUS OF A N AUTOMATON OR A G U I N E A PIG,

"CROSSING THE H U M AN /A N I M A L B A R R I E R, W H I C H IS A FAVORITE TH E M E OF M I N E, HUMANS B E I N G LI K E A N I M A LS A N D EVOLV I N G TOWA RD F U R N ITURE, T H E MOST NOBLE TH I N G A H U M A N B E I N G CAN 00 IS ACT AS FURNITURE FOR SOM EO N E ELSE," SINCE WE

THE "SAVAGE" PART OF H U M A N SEXUALlrY, TH E TER ROR AND MYSTERY ATTACH E D TO A SI LENT,

I R RATI O N A L B E H A V I O R A B E R R A T I O N S T I L L R E TURNS EVER IN MONSTROUS, U N H U M A N FOR M S (WE WHEN

CAN'T H A N DLE T H I NGS A S EASILY AS A N I MA LS, "TH E CLOSEST WE C A N COME TO THAT IS T H E F U R NITU R E IDEA AND TH E S E POO R ATTEM PTS AT A N I M A L

R E ASON

S LU M BE R S

C A L L TH IS: THE

UNCONSCIOUS), BUT OUR SEXUA LlrY, LIKE PETS AT HOME, OR GA DGETS ON IN THE K I TC H E N , O R T H E IS BY N O W SO C U LTU R E

I N T I M AC Y T H R O U G H S E X U A L I TY-POOR B E C A U S E IT'S NOT A REGULAR EVERYDAY B EHAVIOR

U NCONSCIOUS THORO U G H LY

TH E

COUC H ,

PATTER N . Irs M O R E L I K E T H I S SPORADIC BEHAVIOR ABER RATION."

DOMESTICATED

BY T H E

THAT I T C A N BE TESTED T O DEATH I N TH E LAB, O R F L A TT E N E D OUT IN TH E " R E A L" WORLD OF

"TREAT ME LIKE A N OBJECT," - "FUCK ME LIKE A DOG, L I K E TH E PIG I AM." - " M A K E ME F E E L L I K E A N A N I M A L": T H E W H O L E T H E MATICS I S R E PEATED

Q U E ST I O N N A I R E S

AND

STA T I S T I C S

WITHOUT

AROUSI NG I N U S A N Y SENSE O F OUTRAGE-oR AN I R R E PRESSIBLE LAUGHTER.

OVER A N D OVE R AGAIN IN HEAVY GAY S8cM. THIS ISN'T, HOWEVER, A SPECIALIZED OBSESSION, THE SYMBOL COM ES U P WH E N EVER PEOPLE STRI V E TO BE BROUGHT TO A OR P E A K A N D R EACH (THROUGH MEANS) A C E RTA I N THE AGE OF THE CANOY SHOP

BEATING,

A N Y OTH E R

GRADIENT O F I NTENSITY THAT WOU L D STR I P THEM OF THEIR PSYC HOLOG I C A L D E F E N S ES-OF THE "WE SHOULD B E G R ATE FUL THAT WE LIVE I N A N AGE WHEN MATURE PEOPLE HAVE A FORU M SUCH AS THE EXPERIENCE DOESN'T HAVE TO BE EXCLUSIVE LY SEXUAL. "WH E N PEOPLE SAY 'TREAT ME LIKE AN A N I MAL,' THEY ONLY WANT PART OF TH E ROLE," ESTIMATES JOHN P R ESTON. ''TH EY ONLY WANT IT I N A SEXUAL CONTEXT, I T GOES WAY BEYOND THAT:' B YOUR MAGAZI N E IN W H I C H TO

"FREE" I NDIVI D U A LITY THE SOCI ETY PRESE NTS AS ITS MOST ENVI A B L E ACH I EVEM ENT.

SHARE T H E I R D I SCOV E R I E S IN THE BO U N D L E S S SURE." WO R L D OF PLEA

THE PENTHOUSE LETTERS

I RO N I CA LLY, M A ST E R S A N D JOH NSON'S E X P E R I M E NTS A LSO G O WAY B E YO N D HUMAN SEXUAL

CONTEXT S I N C E THEY LITERALLY TREAT H U MA N S L I K E A N I M A LS, GON E P R I M ITIVE SOC I ETI E S SHOWED MORE R E S P ECT TO A N I MALS THAN WE DO TO H U M A NS. THEY DIDN'T ARE THE DAYS WHEN THE A NONYMOUS AUTHOR OF MY SECRET L I F E COULD WON D E R I F ALL MEN SHARED HIS STR A N G E "LETC H ES," HOPING IF PRI NTED, WOULD HE H I M S E L F

CON S I D E R A N I M A LS AS D E B A S E D OR I N F E R I O R . A N I MALS WERE D E E M E D S A C R E D ENOUGH TO B E SACRIFICED IN A COLLECTIVE R I T U A L, WE OR

THAT HIS OWN EXPERI ENCE,

ENA BLE OTH E R S TO COM P A R E , A S COULDN'T.

ELEVATED T O T H E

RA N K OF TOT E M .

DON 'T WE KNOW FOR A FACT THAT ALL M E N , AND WOM EN TOO, SHA R E HIS PASSIONS. BUT TH EY A R E N'T THAT STRANGE ANYMORE.

SAC R I F I C E ANYT HI NG A NYMORE, ESPECIALLY NOT H U MANS, BUT WE TREAT THEM L I K E DI RT AND WE LOWER OURSELVES TO T H E LEVEL O F A PAVLOVIAN
DOG.

THIS

IS

WHAT

WE

CALL

" H U M A N I SM,"

AND TH ERE ARE NO SECRET LIVES-NO MORE SECRETS,

" H U M A N SCIENCES:'

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NO MORE LIVES, A N D POS S I B LY NO MORE SEX,

MYTHS A BOUT "OV E R S E X E D WOMEN,"

PENTHOUSE R E A D E R S A R E MORE THAN W I LLING TO

SHARE TH E I R OWN DISCOVE R I ES I N TH E "BOU ND SEX, THE ERA OF THE G R EAT

WOM E N

WHO

ORGASM

MORE

FREQUE NTLY,

DR,

KASSORLA ABLE THEY TO

R ECOG N I ZE S SQUA R E LY, A R E BETTER THEIR N O R M A L ACTI VITIES, SUCCESSFUL, MORE

LESS WORLD" OF

FOC U S O N TO AND BE

EXPLORERS, HOWEVER, I S D E F I NITELY OVER,

TEND

"MORE

MOTIVATED, TH E SECRET VICTOR I A N GENTLEMAN WAS I M B U E D WITH TH E I M PORTANCE OF H I S M I SSION, HE T R U L Y L I V E D F O R SEX ALON E, L I K E R E N E C A I LL E , H E W A S E X P LO R I N G A FOR B I D D E N CONTI NENT DRESSED I N A R A B S H I RT, REACHING THE S I LENT T I M B U KTU OF SEX AT T H E PERIL OF HIS L I F E , INGS OF

MORE ABLE T O E X P R E SS FEEL AND S E LF- E ST E E M , T H E Y

S E L F-WORTH

F E E L PEACEFUL, R ELAXED, A N D ENTH U S E D ABOUT PARTICI PATI NG IN WORK AND FAM I LY ACTIVITI ES,"

(SEE A BOVE TH E PENTHOUSE H A P PY SLAVE, SOM E PEOPLE A R E R E A LLY LOO K I NG FOR IT.! NO ONE CAN TA KE AWAY YOUR " I N A L I E N A B LE R I G Hr' TO SEXUAL F U L F I L L M E NT, THE R E NOWN E D P S Y C H O L OG I S T

PENTHOUSE R E A D E R S DO N ' T GO FOR T H E ABYSSES

IN H U M A N NATURE, THEY ARE TOU R I STS O F SEX,

CONCLUDES, SHOWING TH E FLAG,

TA K I N G S N A P SHOTS AT THE W I NDING A M AZONS OF HUMAN SEXUAL R E S PO N S E FROM THE P LA N E

F UC K I N G'S THE C U R E, FOLKS.

W I N DOW, TO SHOW THE FOLKS BACK HOME.

"EVE RYON E I S ENTITLED TO EN.JOY THE FEAST OF S E X U A L I TY, A N D ANYONE CAN LEARN HOW TO ENJOY

T H E Y DON'T E X PLORE S E X U A L I TY, THEY EXCHANGE R EC I PES,

IT,"

SHE

ADDS, (HER OF

ENCOURAGING AD AGAIN),

H E R " M I LLIONS OF WHAT A BO U T THE

VIEWERS" M I LLIONS

ROBOTS

A L L OVER TH E

COUNTRY?

A R E A D E R R E LATES HOW HIS WIFE DI PS HIS PENIS I N A S U G A R-HON EY M I XTURE, T H E N WRAPS A TOWE L F I L L E D WITH I C E CUBES A ROU ND I T , FREEZING TH I S " D E L I G H T F U L L Y TA STY PARES A TINY IN DISH," HE I N T U R N PRE WHICH HE "I

THEY

TOO

ARE

PEAC E F U L.

AND MOTIVATED, A N D

"ENTH U S E D" ABOUT W O R K , T H E Y T OO C O U L D START CONCENTRATING ON TH E M S E LVES. AS SHE ADVISES HER NICE G I RLS TO DO. AND ZERO I N ON T H E I R OWN P L EA S U R A B LE S E N SATIONS.

P I ZZA- L I K E VAGI N A

C R EATION B E FO R E

I N S E RT S

HER

B E DT I M E ,

C A N NOT B EG I N TO TELL YOU," H E CONC LUDES, "HOW THIS OUR M UT U A L C U L I N A RY C R E ATIVITY HAS H E L P E D SEX L I V E S," ( H E A LSO A DMITS THEY G A I N E D 1 0 LBS.!

THERE

I S N O G U A R A N T E E THOUGH THAT ROBOTS

WOU LD EVER A C H I E V E TOTAL SEXUAL SATISFACTION. THEY A I N'T N E U ROTIC E NOUGH FOR THAT,

M O R E THAN

M A K I NG I T ON TOP OF THE TV SET-DR OVER TH E "A HAPPIER SEX LIFE HAS M ADE ME A A BETTER READER HAIR AQU A R I U M . G E N I TALS DANGLING IN THE WATER FOR T H E FISH TO N I BBLE-ADDS "MUCH STRENGTH TO O U R S E X LIFE," PROCLA I M S A NOTHE R PENTHOUSE R E A D E R W I TH A E R EC T I O N OR, I R E N E KASSORLA, THE "RENOWNED, I N NOVATIV E PSYCHOLOGI ST," .JOI N S I N THE HOSA N N A , YES, S H E PROC LA I M S IN HER RECENT MASTERPI ECE, ON A B RO U G H T OF SIGH A OF RELIEF, THE FALTER I N G BUSINESSMAN IS

HOUSEKEEPER, PROUDLY

MOTH E R ,

AND

W I FE," TWO

A N NOUNCES

BETW E E N

HOT

B R U S H SESSIONS W I TH H E R H USBAND,

H A R A SSED TO

"BACK

N O R M A L"

B Y H I S CHANCE

D I SCOVE R Y OF TH E PU LSATING PROPERTI ES OF A T U N I NG FORK, ANOTH E R B EDROOM VI RTUOSO PAYS A MOV I N G HOMAGE TO HIS SAXOPHONE, IT HAS

NICE
FULL

GI RLS DO,

R E P E ATEDLY

ADVERTISED

PAGE OF TH E N EW YORK TI MES. "N ICE G I R LS DO HAVE SEXUAL FANTA S I E S , . . N I C E G I RLS DO EN.JOY SEX," S U C H A N I C E D I SCOVERY. WE'RE SURE GLAD T H E R E IS AN I N NOVA T I V E PSYCHOLOGIST T O FIGHT FOR

BECOME. H E WRITES, "A T H I R D PARTY I N OUR SEX L I F E AND J U ST T H E S I G H T OF I T M A K E S M Y W I F E GO N UTS,"

THE CAUSE,

ARE

WE

W I T N E S S I NG

THE

DAWN

OF

N EW

"TROI L I S M"-MY W I FE, MY BATTE R Y A N D I ? AFTER A DECADE OF WOMAN'S LIB, NICE G I R LS, I T S E E M S, STI LL A R E " A WALKING MASS O F S E N S U A L G U I LT," WHAT S H O U L D N I C E G I RLS DO THEN? T H E ANSWER LETTERS I S S H O RT, B U T POI NTED, IT TAKES FOU R AND A LOT OF COURAGE TO EX PLODE THE TECHNOPH I L I C GAINING MOM E N T U M SEX R E VOLUTION A M ONG THE FULLY IS S I LENTLY SOON

MASSES,

EVERYW H E R E

WILL BE

A UTOMATIZED,

M I LLIONS OF NICE G I RLS WILL ORGASM IN U N I SO N

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W H I L. E PUTTI N G T H E TV D I N N E R IN THE OVEN.

SWINGING HOUSEWI FE TRYING TO B R E A K A RECORD BEFORE S E TT L. I N G FOR S W E E T S I X- S I XTY-TH R E E

SEX

A L. R E A D Y WHAT

EXTENDS REMAINS

FAR

B EY O N D

HUMAN IS

WHO W I L. L. SATISFY HER N E EDS "FOR L.OVE A N D S E X WITH THE S A M E MAN."

REACH.

"HUMAN,"

HOWEVER.

E V E R YO N E 'S

OBSESSIVE

CONCE R N

F O R TH E I R COM PUL.SION H A S GONE PUBL.IC, A N D S E X COM P U L. SORY. SO M U C H SO THAT WE A R E L.EFT WON D E R I N G

N IGHTI M E DIET-TH E I R "SEX L.IVES."

SEX

IS

NO L.ON G E R A

PART OF

L.lFE:

I T I S L.IFE,

W H Y A N YO N E SHOUL.D E V E N BOTH E R DOCU M E N T I N G F I V E H U N DR E D L.AZY L.A YS.

RATH ER, WHICH IS A PART OF SEX: "UNTIL. A M A N HAS SPENT S E V E R A L. M I N UT E S S L.O W L. Y AND

L.OV I N G L.Y I N S ERTING H I S F I N G E R I N TO H I S L.OVE'S B E H I N D TO L.UBRICATE A N D R E L.A X IT," EXCL.A I M S A BORN-AG A I N MECHANIC, "HE H ASN'T L.IVED." YES,

THERE

IS

M O R A L.

TO

R A C H E L.

E N G L. I S H ' S

A R I TH M ETIC THOUGH. I T POPS U P I N H E R I N S P I R E D E P I L.OGU E : " A FTER FEEU NG L. I K E THE C H I L. D I N T H E C A N D Y SHOP WITH A NEW L. I N E OF C R E DIT, O N E M A Y D I SCOVE R THAT S E X I S A NATU R A L., R E PETIT I V E

SEX I S L.IFEROSE SEL.AVY. BUT WHAT H A PPENS TO L. I F E IF SEX I S I N S H A M B L.ES?

BODIL.Y F UNCTION L. I K E E A T I N G A N D S L. E E P I N G , A N D "WE TR I E D TO I M PROVE OUR E ROTIC STI M UL.I TO T H A T C O N D I T I O N A L. RUL.ES ON ITS B E H A V I O R A R E U N FOUN DED."

EACH OTHER." A C A L. L. Y

DISCI PL.E OF PAVL.OV ROM ANTI "I'VE MADE A

.

R E C A L. L. S .

CAREER
. "

OF CANDIED SEX, CANDID THO U G H T. HOW MUCH

B U I L.D I N G MY H U S B A N D' S H A RD-ONS

ECHOES A

M I L.ITANT HOUSEWIFE. SO WE'RE L.EFT WITH OUR SEX L.IVES F R A I L. D A NGL.I N G F L. O W E R S A T THE OF TIPS OF O U R FI NGERS,

ARTI FICE D I D I T TAKE U S TO COME T O TH I S NATURAL CONCL.USION?

F L. E S H - R O S E ,

E ROS-WE

CONSTA N TL.Y H A V E T O R E L.A X A N D L.UBRICATE FOR FEAR IT W I L.L. B R E A K DOWN A L.TOGETH E R . TO STA RT M Y SEX L.I FE. Y O U R S E X L.IFE. O U R SEX L. I V E S . . . TER RI B L.E L.ITAN Y THAT ACCOM P A NI ES WHATEVER WE 00 L.IKE A N EXORCI S M -<:> R EXAM. WITH, EATING IS NOT A S N ATU R A L. A

FU NCTION AS IT SOU NDS. M A U NOWSKI OBSERVES THAT FOR TROB R I A N D ISL.ANDERS, EATING I S IN N O WAY R E G A R D E D FACT. HE AS I N D I S P E N S I B L. E TO "THEY HAVE L. I F E . IN

ASSERTS,

N O I DE A

THAT

"HOW'S YOU SEX L.IFE TODAY?" THE THERA PIST ASKS WITH A KNOW I N G L.ooK, H A N D I N G HIS PATI ENT A BOX OF KL.EENEX.

TH ERE I S SUCH A THING AS PHYSIOL.OG I C A L. N E E D FOR A L.l M E NTATI ON, OR THAT T H E BODY I S B U I L.T U P ON FOOD." ONE EATS S I M PL.Y BECAUSE ONE IS

H U NG R Y OR G R E E DY. "JUST AWFUL.." - "TER R I FIC, HOPE IT L.ASTS." FOR I S L. A N DERS, SEX IS NOT A NATURAL. FU NCTION L.IKE EATING, BUT EATING A N U N N A T U R A L. FU NCTION "HOW M A N Y T I M ES A W E EK?" L.IKE SEX. AND I T I S TO BE PERFORM E D P R I VATE L.Y, IN SECL.USION, JUST L. I K E SEX, TO F E N D OFF A N Y B L. A N K FACE, EYES F I L. L. E D
. ."

"SOMEWHAT I M PROVED." - "NONE TOO EXCITI NG . . . "

WITH

T R E M B L. I N G

DANGER.

C I PHERS. "M Y S E X L. I F E

SEXUAL.ITY H A S A L.WAYS BEEN A H I GH L.Y COD I F I E D SEX HAVE M E RCY U PO N US. A N D RITUAL.IZED ACTI VITY I N H U M A N A S W E L.L. A S A N I MA L. SOC I ETIES WHERE MATI NG PATTE R N S OBEY A STRICT SUCCESSION OF SIGNAL.S RACHEL. ENGL.ISH, T H E A UTHOR OF M Y FIRST 500, A FAST S E X A UTOBI OG R A PHY, e IS SOM ETH I NG OF A SPECIFIC TO

EACH SPECIES. THE PRESENT D I SCOVERY OF SEX AS A "NATURAL. FUNCTION" R E S U L.TS FROM THE

PROFESSI O N A L.. I N O R D E R TO K E E P TRACK OF H E R FL.EETI NG A R M Y OF L.OV E RS, SHE RESORTED TO

BREAKING DOWN OF SOCIAL. CODES, THE DECAY O F COL.L.ECTIVE STRUCTURES. A N D T H E DECA DENCE OF MORES U N D E R TH E L.EV E L. L. I N G P R E SS U R E OF KAPITA L..

I SS U I N G N U M B E R S . S H A L. L. WE SAY, PARAPHRASING TH E I N TRODUCTION TO M Y SECRET UFE. THAT W E HAVE B E FO R E L. I FE US A A NOTH E R RECORD OF ''TH E

E R OT I C

OF

P R O FO U N D L. Y SO. J U ST

C O M P U L. S I V E ORDINARY

ANTHROPOL.OGI STS M A I NTAI N THAT THE A B S E N C E OF AL.L. RESTRAI NTS, R UL.ES, A N D V A L. U E S C A NNOT

P E R S O N"?

H A R D L. Y

TH E

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E X I ST IN

ANY C U LT U R E , HOWEVER DEGRADED OR

OUR

SOC I ETY.

SEX

IS

NOT

N A T U R A L,

IT

IS

AS

D E C A D E N T IT MAY BE, THEY A R E RIG HT, OF COURSE, MORAL R E S T R A I NTS HAVE NOT A LTOG E T H E R

H Y P E R R E A L- A S MADE U P-AS M AC ROBIOTIC FOOD,

D I S A P P E A R E D FROM O U R SOCI ETI ES, THE FA M I LY, H O W E V E R , I S TOO MORI B U N D, PA RENTAL A UTHORITY AND RELIGIOUS BACK VALUES TOO FAR IN TO GON E AN TO BE

A NEW M A L E COLOG N E , R E C ENTLY A D V E R T I S E D I N F A S H I O N MAGAZI N ES, M I X E S THE ACTU A L S M E L L O F P E R S P I R ATION WITH A C H E M I C A L. G E N E RO U S L Y

FO R C E D

P E R M A N E N TLY

A RC H A I C

A P P L I E D A FT E R YOUR D A I LY DEODORANT, I T W I L L D R I V E Y O U R LOV E R A BSOLUTELY W I LD.

MOLD, THE

B R I DE H A S B E E N

STR I P P E D B A R E B Y

K A PITAL, E V E N , THAT'S HOW W E L I K E IT: R A U NCHY, BUT C L E A N . W I LD , WHETHER EXC H A N G E SEXUAL WE LIKE IT OR N O T, THE LAW OF BUT S A F E . T H E R E A L T H I NG, BUT A LL M A D E U P .

D E L I N E A T E S TH E NO

HORIZON WON D E R INWARD

O F TH E SEXUAL LIKE AN TH AT'S HOW WE LIKE E V ERYTH I NG : THE B E ST

R E VOLUTI O N , TOO,

R E VOLUTION,

I S TU R N I N G

R E A L I TY MON E Y C A N B U Y .

I NG ROWN N A I L,

T H E GOLDEN R U L E OF L I B E R A L CAPITA L I S M IS TO TU R N A BLIND EYE TO E V E RYTH I NG T H AT'S

MOA NS O F P LE A S U R E K E E P F I L L I N G T H E A I R - A R E THEY REAL OR IMAGI NARY7 ARE THEY THE

M A R KETABLE, LONG

NO M O R A L TA BOO C A N H O L D TOO THE I N C R E D I B LE PRESSURE TO

SUCCE S S F U L S I M U LA C R U M OF A F E M A L E ORGASM OR T H E I N D I SC R E ET R ECORDI NG OF T H E ACT U A L PHYSIOLOGICA L E V ENT7 T H E E N O R M I TY O F F E M A L E ORGASM ON FM R A D IOS I S S U C H THAT IT T R A N

A G A I NST

I N C O R P O R A T E , I N ST R U M E N T A L I Z E , A N D E X H I B I T PARTS H I TH E RTO K E PT OUT O F SIGHT OR CARE

FULLY CON F I N E D TO T H E M A R G I NS.

SC E N DS A N Y A R E N'T

H U M A N A G E N T OR R E A LITY. ( M A L E S CONC ERNED WITH THEIR TOO OWN BUSY

THAT

THE

BODY

OF

KAPITAL

IS

POLY M O R P H O U S FROM ANY NEW

ORGAS M I C

A TTA I N M E NTS.

THEY

ARE

PERVERSE

BODY

V I RT U A L L Y

FREED

M A I NTA I N I NG T H E E R EC T FACADE.!

I M P E D I M ENT, ITI N ER A R I ES,

CONSTA N TLY R EACH I N G

E X P LO R I NG ON ALL

OUT

SIDES

FEMALE O R G A S M I S A C H A LL E N G E TO BOTH SEXES. IT HOV E R S IN THE A I R, IN THE R E A L M OF PURE

W I T H O U T C O M M ITTI N G

I T S E L F T O A N Y - A LW A Y S

R E A DY, HOW E V E R , T O B R I NG B A C K I NTO TH E FOLD OF N O R M A LITY W H ATEVER "PE RVERSION" IT C A N

ESSENCES. M AG N I F I E D E V ERYON E

LIKE

THE

M USIC OF THE S P H E R ES-A

MODEL O F EROTIC A C HI E V E M E NT FOR TO PEG U PON TH E I R D E S I R ES, TH E I R

B E N E FIT FROM.

FANTA S I ES. A N D TH E I R GROW I N G A N X I ETIES. C H I LD R E N STRA NG E SEXY . . . SHOULD LETC H ES, BE PROTECTED FROM M E N'S M A L E A N X I ET I E S , H OW E V E R . W I L L SOON B E OVER. I N A FEW M O N T H S A N YO N E W I LL B E A B L E TO B U Y A N E R ECTION, TH I S DOESN'T MEAN, OF COURSE. THAT SEXUAL PO L Y M O R PH I S M I S I N T R I N S I C A LLY C A P I TA L I ST I C , OR EVEN RENT ONE AND BY THE MONTH.

BUT PRETTY

BABIES

ARE SO

R E N T - A N - I M P L A N T

ECO N O M Y

E R EC T I O N

A L R E A DY OPE RATE I N TWENTY CITIES I N TH E U . S . A N D C A N A DA . T H E D E V I C E I S QUITE S I M PLE. ALL IT TA K E S I S A S I L I CO N E ROD I N S ERTED I N E A C H OF

S I M PLY T H A T K A PITA L PROV I DES TH E R E A L B A S I S F O R I T S EXISTENCE.

THE CORPORA C A V E R NOSA. NO O N E C A N TELL T H E KAPITAL TH R I V E S ON CONTRADICTIONS. ITS DIFFERENCE, EVEN UNDER CLOSE SC R U T I N Y .

DY N A M I S M C L E A R LY L I E S T H E R E . TH E RIGHT H A N D DO E S N'T K NOW WHAT T H E L E FT IS DOING, ESPE

I N STA LLATION I S F R E E.

C I A L L Y IF TH E R E A R E AT LEAST TWO DOZEN H A N DS EXT E N D E D B U D D H A'S, IN EVERY POSSI BL E DIR ECTION, LIKE

T H E R E' S E R ECTION

ONLY IS

ONE

M I NOR

DRAWBACK:

THE

P E R M A N ENT.

M A N Y OF O U R C USTO

M E R S WON'T M I N D IT AT A LL. T H E Y H A V E TO CATC H U P WITH T H E T I M ES.

W H A T H AS B E CO M E N A T U R A L FOR US A BOUT S E X I S FAR FROM BEING A PRODUCT OF NATU R E , THE NOT THE BODILY FU NCTION. BUT TH E H I G H LY

A L L E G E D NATURALNESS OF OU R SEXUA LITY I S A BY-PRODUCT OF TH E I N C R E A S I N G ABSTRACTION OF

SOP H I STICATE D A NYTH I N G

C A N DY SHOP NATURAL

FEELI N G . TO THE

IS TH E R E AVERAGE

MORE

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WE'RE G E TT I N G

D A N G E R O U S L Y CLOSE T O T H A T

POINT. W E M A Y H AV E P A S S E D I T A L R EADY. A FT E R C E N TU R I ES O F M O R A L RESTRA I NT, S E X U A L I TY-AT LONG LAST-HAS C O M E O F AGE, T H E AGE OF THE C A N OY SHOP, GEORGES BATA I L L E HAD A KEEN U N D E RSTA N D I N G O F T H E D I L E M M A . TH Ars W H Y H E D E L I BERATELY SET OUT TO I N J ECT M A S S I V E DOSES OF SA C R E D M I C H A E L B A U M A N N , A L E A D E R O F TH E J U N E 2 N D URBAN ( ST I L L G U E R R I LLA SOUGHT WHAT ON HE GROUP BANK IN WEST GERMANY C H A RG E S ) , S U D D E N LY I NTO TH E HE IGHTEN SOC I E TY M A I N L I N E OF SEXUA LITY TH E THAT I N O R D E R TO IN A TH E

POWE R OF TRANSGRESSION, L E V E LS E V E R YT H I N G TO

ROBBERY FROM

RECALLS

LEARNED

GROUND, BATA I LLE FORCED S E X U A L D I FF E R E N C E S T O COM E OUT L I K E A W O U N D . H I S W A S , I N M A N Y RES PECTS, A DI NOS A U R'S ENTE R P R I S E , F R E N E T I C AND FLA M BOYA NT, POSS I B LY T H E L A S T S U STA I N E D ATTEMPT T O T U R N BACK TH E CLOCK O F DE S I R E .

H AV I NG "AN I N S A N E A M O U N T OF M O N E Y TO SPENO." H E SOON FOU N D H I M S E L F B U Y I NG A M O U N TA I N OF RA DIOS, A N ENTI R E P A R K I NG LOT O F CARS: ''THE MORE SECRET THE T H I NGS YOU DO, THE MORE

LIKELY you A R E TO F A L L RIGHT I NTO CONSUMER I S M . " HIS SECRET L I F E H A D MADE HIM A NATU R A L PREY TO TH E CANOY S TO R E SYNDROME, SOFT I NC EST A R O U S E S I N D I G N ATION I N SAVAGES. N O S O WITH MATURE, C I V I L I ZED, RESOU RCEFUL I N D I VI D

TERROR OF CON S U M E R I S M , MORE POW E R F U L THAN ANY I DE O LOGY OR CO N D I T I O N A L RULE OF BE

UALS WRITI NG TO PENTHOUSE:

HAVIOR.

"LAST S U M M E R I WAS WITH MY GIRL F R I E N D IN THE WOODS. WE WERE COM PLETELY NAKED AND

A GAY L I B PROPO N ENT. TA L K I N G O N TV A BOUT H I S N E I G H BORHOOD GAY BARS, R EC ENTLY S A I D, " I r s L I K E GOING I NTO A C A N O Y STOR E A N D SAYI NG, ' I ' L L H A V E TH I S ONE, A N D TH I S ONE, A N D T H I S , A N D T H I S . . . ." CON S U M E R SEX. SEX ON TH E I N STALLMENT

SCR EWI NG O U R H E A RTS OUT . . . M Y MOTH E R [ A N D TEAC H E R ] A S K E D I F T H E Y COULD JOI N U S . . . AFT E R A M I NUTE W E W E R E A L L SC REWI NG. S I NC E T H A T DA Y (AS I AM AN O N LY C H I LO) I SLEEP WITH MY M OTH E R EVERY N I GHT. W E SOM ETI MES HAVE M Y C H I C K A N D TEACH E R S H A R E O U R KI NG-SIZE B E D WITH U S . "

PLA N .

NO

LO N G E R

CATEGORY O F

EROS,

EXCESS I S

WHAT

IS

T R U LY

A M A Z I NG

HERE

IS

NOT

TH E

M E R E LY A D E L I N Q U E N T ACCOUNT.

EXI STENC E O F

I N CEST-IT H A S A LWAYS E X I STED,

ESPECIA LLY IN PATR I A RC H A L SOC I ETI ES-BUT T H E IF "NATURE" DOESN'T TAKE ITS TOLL, THE G R E EDY CHILO M A Y B E R E M I N D E D O F ITS E X I STENCE BY A CURT NOTE FROM YOU R F R I E N D L Y C A N OY SHOP: POST E D YOUR TO YOU R TO ABSENCE OF S A C R E D H O R R O R , L E T A LO N E O F BATA I L LE'S MA

MORAL REPUGNANCE.

MERE

(MY

MOTH E R ) , A STORY O F MATERNAL CONVULSION A N D DEPRAVITY, COULD SOON B E R E A D WITH A S M U C H PASSION A S THE D E A D SEA SC ROLLS.

"RECENT ACCO U N T

TRANSACTI ONS HAVE CAUSED

B A LA N C E

S U BSTA NTIA LLY EXC E E D YOU R C R E D I T L I N E . T H I S I S C O N TR A R Y TO OUR AGREEMENT AND WE ARE, ANOTH E R R E A D E R DESCRIBES HIS OWN PROFA N A T I O N I N T H E S A M E C OO L , MATTE R-OF-FACT F A S H I O N : "SHE WAS OFFER I NG NO RESISTA N C E , SO I E A S E D H E R D O W N O N TH E ' B E D A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E R E M OV E D MY S H O RTS. I BEGAN S UC K I NG AND

TH E R E FORE, T E R M I N AT I N G A N Y F U R T H E R USE O F O U R C R EDIT C A R D . " S E X U A L E X C E S S I S NO MORE THE A PPROV A L O F LIFE I NTO D E A TH (GEORGES

BATA I LLE), J UST TH E END OF THE L I N E , T I M E TO PAY OFF A N D SETTLE FOR MORE S E DA T E SEX,

K I SSING H E R B R E A ST UNTI L SHE W A S MOA N I N G WITH PLEAS U R E . I D E FLOW E R E D M Y SISTER THAT N IG H T A N D WE DAY." H A V E E N JOYED SEX TOGETH E R TO T H I S

FOR C E N TU R I ES DESIRE H A S BEEN CONDITIONED TO S A L I V AT E LIKE A DOG WHENEVER TH E R E IS

I NC EST HAS LOST ITS FLOWER, A N D T R A N SG R ES SION ITS A PPEA L. ENJOY YOUR FAM I LY LIFE TO

SOM ETH I NG TO B E T R A N S G R E S S E D. PROH I BITIONS, THOUGH, HAVE LOST MOST O F TH E I R POWER. W E R E THEY TO FADE OUT A N Y F U R T H E R , D E S I R E AS WE E X P E R I E NC E GETH E R . IT MAY WELL BREAK DOWN A LTO

YOU R H E A Rr s CONTE NT, BUT DON'T YOU EVER ASK FOR R E V U LSION AND ECSTASY.

I N-SEX I S N 'T A S M U C H EXCITI NG A S I T I S PRACTICAL: 'TH E TH I NG I L I K E A BOUT IT WAS THAT I T W A S SO

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CON V E N I ENT. I COULD GET ALL THE SEX I WANTED AND N E V E R EVEN HAD TO LEAVE THE HOUSEl WHEN HE MOV E D I NTO A N A P A RT M E NT, I WOULD GO OV E R A N D S E E H I M . N O O N E E V E R THOUGHT A NYTH ING A BOUT GOI NG OV E R TO S E E M Y OWN BROTH ER."

G I V E Y O U TH E .- N T I T L E D

P H Y S I C A L S A T I S F A C TI O N YOU ' R E OR A N YT H I N G . SEXY

T O - A N YO N E SWINGING

SAXOPHONE,

SOA P S T I C K S

( FO R G E T

A BO U T TH E G E N D E R I l : THEY' D R E A LLY M A K E ANY W I F E GO N UTS.

H O M E SEX I S SO SAFE, SO H A N DY, SO MUCH FUN, AND I T CAN B E ENJOYED WITHOUT LEAVING THE

E V ERYON E I S EQU A L U N DE R THE LAW. THE LAW OF G R A T I F ICATION. NOT J U ST EQUAL: THE SAME, EXIT T H E I N D I V I DU A L, HIS B A D B R E ATH A N D HIS TWISTED PSYCHO LOGY, I M MA C U LATE. E N T E R T H E C LO N E , I M M O R T A L,

HOUSE, L I K E TV. A L L I N THE FA MILY. Irs A WONDER NO ONE EVER THOUGHT O F THAT BEFORE,

EXIT TWO THOU S A N D YEARS O F AGONY. N O MORE D E A D L Y SIN AND BLOODY RETRIBUTION. NO MORE SAC R I LEGE. NO MORE TRAG EDY. MY KI NGDOM FOR A KI NG-SIZE BED. NO WON D E R C LO N I NG I S NOW BEING ELEVATED TO M ETAPHYSICAL H EIGHTS. WE A R E A L L C H I LD R E N OF END OF THE LI N E . E N D G A M E , T H E SAME G E N D E R LESS MATRIX, A L L HYDROGEN BOU N D TO A N ORIGI N A L BASE, MOTH E R DNA, THE U LT I M ATE V I R G I N . TH E R E A R E N O M O R E BROTH E R S O R SISTERS, NO MORE G E N I TORS O R E V E N G E N DERS FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE SIM PLY LOOKI N G FOR ALL THE SEX THEY CAN GET. AS RACHEL E N G L I S H REMA RKS POI NTED LY: "IT I S EASY TO OVER LOOK THE GENDER OF THE P E R SON GIVING SEXUAL S A T I S FA C T I O N WHEN T H E H UG E B O D Y T H A T S P R A WLS O V E R T H E PAGES OF THE P ENTHOUSE LETTERS. COLLECTI N G AT SON OF SAME: A N I M AGE'S I M AGE.

S H E E R G R AT I F I CATION T H E ACT:'

I S T H E M A I N P U R POSE O F

R A NDOM B I TS AND PIECES O F ITS NEW EQU I P M ENT, C L A I M S TO R E P R E S E N T ''THE S E X U A L STATE O F THE NATION:' T H E R E IS SEX-AN D TH E R E I S PENTHOUSE

GENDER: "ANY OF TWO OR M O R E CATEGORI ES, AS M A SC U L I N E , FEMENI NE, A N D N E UT E R : ' S E X LESS

SEX, TH E C OV E R PROUDLY A N NO U N C ES. SO I S T H I S PENTHOUSE NATION?

G E N D E R . G E N D E R LESS SEX, N E UTER CATEGORIES. SEX, LIKE FASHION I S BECO M I N G A GENDER LESS S U B J ECT. B LOO M I N G D A L E ' S S PONSORS T H I E R R Y A NATION OF GRATI F I E D C ITIZENS, A LA N D OF

SATISFI E D C ON S U M E RS I N VITE YOU TO C ELEBRATE THE JOYS OF S E X -G E N I T A L S D A N G L I NG ON AND THE GENDERS EDGE OF

M U G LE R ' S A N D R O G Y N O U S J U M PS U I T S, F E M A L E BODY MALE B U I LD E R S STO R M THE PROFESSION AND

P R E C A R I OU S L Y

S T R I P P E R S H A R A S S E D BY U N D E R C O V E R IN L AW R E N C E , MASS, FILE FOR

BOR E DO M A N D B A N K R U PTCY,

P O L I C EWOM E N

R E V E R S E DISC R I M I NATION.

I F CATEGORI E S DON'T

"A M U N D A N E S E X L I F E C A N BE COM P A R E D TO A FROZEN T V D I N N ER," SUGGESTS D R . KASSORLA, "IT W I LL KEEP YOU A LIVE, BUT Irs NOT A GOU R M ET B A N Q U ET S E R V E D IN A POSH RESTA U RA N T,"

HOLD A N YMORE, I N C EST S I M PL Y BECOMES I M POS S I BLE,

PAN I C

A MONG TH E

S H A REHOLDERS

OF

THE M I LLIONS OF A M E RICANS MAY WELL BE I N TO

A M E R I C A N P S YC H O A N A L Y T I C A L A S SOC I A T I O N . "STOCKS FALL O N WOR R I E S O V E R OEDIPUS RATES," A N NOUNCES BUSINESS NEWS. IS PSYCHOA N A LYSIS BECO M I NG A S H R I N K I NG PROPOSITION?

G O U R M E T FOOD, BUT THEY A R E NOT GREAT C H E FS BECA U S E OF IT. THEY A R E S E R V I C I N G TO DEATH THEIR FAVORITE R E C I PE: "SINCE THAT MEMORABLE D A Y, O N E SATURDAY E A C H MONTH W E H A V E HAD

WHAT OTH E R CATEGO R I E S CAN W E STI LL N E UTRAL IZE IN O U R BLI N D, I N D I SC R I M I N ATE A P PETITE FOR S E X U A L "GRATI FICATION"?

TH E S A M E SESSION," A PENTHOUSE R E A D E R E X U LTS E XPECTANTLY. COM P U LSION TO R E P EAT, D E ATH

W I S H C LOT H E D IN WHITE FEATH E R .

I T I S NOT J U ST THE G E N D E R O F THE P E RSON THAT IS EASY TO OVERLOOK. T H E P E RSON H I MSELF HAS A NYON E CAN

T H E F A C T I S THAT LOTS O F PEOPLE DON'T S E R V I C E A N YT H I N G OR ANYONE A N YM O R E , THE MORON

BECOME SECON D A R Y TO T H E ACT.

M A J O R I TY FA LLS A S L E E P ON A COLD T V D I N N E R.

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A N Y "ESCORT' I N TOWN WOULD TELL YOU THAT EVEN H E R C U STOM E R S A R E NOT OVERLY EAGER TO GET DOWN TO B U S I N ESS. IT'S NOT THAT THEY A R E AFRA I D O F SEX: T H E Y A R E J UST TOO LON ELY, TOO BORE D OR TOO D R UGGED UP TO M A K E A MOVE OF THE I R OWN. T H E MOST SEXUALLY ACTI VE M E RELY SIT A N D WATCH WHILE THE GIRL P E R FO R M S WITH A H I R E D STUD. W H A T THEY R E ALLY WANT I S N T SEX, IT IS H U M A N P R E SE N C E , M ET E R E D COMPANY. NOT H EAT, J UST W A R MTH. THEY BASK FOR A W H I LE IN AN ATMOS P H E R E O F SEXUALITY WITHOUT HAVING TO FACE ITS D R Y DEMANDS.

MASTERP I EC E S STI LL-BOR N I N E M PTY EMBRACES. WASTE OF T I M E. WASTE OF E N E RG Y. WASTE OF WHITE MATTER.

AND HOW U N I M AGI NATIVE, SISYPH U S STUCK ON H I S ROCKS. N I ETZSCHE'S ETE R N A L COM I N G . C U T IT OUT A LTOGET H E R . NOT CA STRATION - I N D I FF E R E N C E . S A Y S STiV BATORS, L E A D S I NGER O F T H E DEAD BOYS: "THEY'RE J UST NOT INTERESTED, TH EY'VE HAD PHYSICAL R E LATIONS SINCE THE AGE O F 1 0, SO, BY THE T I M E TH EY A R E 1 5, TH E Y'RE LOOK I N G F O R N EW K I C KS:' S E X I S NOT TH E U LTIMATE DOPE ANYMORE, JADED D UDES. ANGEL'S LUST.

"SEX I S H A R D WORK JUST L I K E EVERYTH I NG ELSE," DROPS ANDY W A R HOL WITH A PLASTIC GRIN, SOME STAGE CAT STR I KES. OTH E R S E N V ISION A SEXLESS SOCI ETY. WE'VE THROWN T H E TOWEL ON THE BOXI NG R I NG. NO. THANK YOU. I'D RATH E R PUT M Y E N E RG I E S ELSEWH E R E. WHY S HOULD I LET SEX, THIS V A M P I R E , THIS ANTIQUITY, POLICE THE WORLD? ZERO WORK, THE WAY OF THE FUTUR E? IT HAD TO E N D U P THAT WAY,

IT I S NOT ARTAUD, NOT EVEN ABELARD. NO ANGRY VITUPERATIONS STI LL S M AC K I NG O F RELIGION. NO SAC R IFICING A N YT H I NG. HERODIAS LIES ON T H E BLANK P A G E OF H E R D A T E BOOK, BEAUTI FU LLY POST-SEXUAL S E X STERILE. NO REPRESSION, NO S U B LI MATION. NOT EVEN CASTRATION, T H A T F R E U D I A N B A N D A I D . BUSINESS AS U S U A L.

" I ' D RATH E R L A U G H I N BED T H A N D O IT."

THE AGENDA IS FU LL. J U ST NO S E X .

THIS IS NEW YORK , NEW YORK. A N D W H A T I S GOOD ANDY WARHOL FOR NEW YORK IS GOOD FOR THE WORLD. LISTE N , WORLD, THE SEXLESS M ESSAGE OF A S E X Y CITY.

I T HAD TO HAPPEN IN NEW YORK. NOT IN A SEXUALLY DEVELOPING C A PITAL LI K E PA R I S O R C A LCUTTA, I N N E W YORK, W H E R E S E X I S T H E MOST ACCESSIBLE COMMODITY.

SEXLESS SEX, T H E U LTI MATE WISDOM. M A K I NG IT BY THE SKIN OF YOU R TEETH. THE AGE OF DRACULA: "IF HELEN G U R LEY BROWN WERE TO A N A LYZE DRAC U LA . I'M S U R E S HE'D SAY T H A T NO SEX I S S E XY:' S E X ISN'T SEXY ENOUGH. TOO MUCH OF A MOUTHF U L, NOT ENOUGH OF A BITE.

THEY DECLA R E D IT PUBLICLY. ITS TOO MUCH, ITS ENOUGH. NO MORE SEX. MORE AND MORE PEOPLE A R E J U M PI N G OFF T H E T R A I N . " W E WANT OUT," POST-SE X U A L REVOLUTION I T MADE H I STORY. ARIES LOUDLY PROCLA I M . WHO ARE THESE N E W DEVIANTS? S H A LL WE LOOK F O R T H E M AMONG T H E NO SEX. THE LAST F RONTI E R . TRADITIONAL A D E PTS O F ANHEDONIA, AS PSYC H I A T R I STS L I K E TO C A L L I T? TO S T A T E SEX I S S U C H A HASSLE. SUCH A BORE. SUCH A WASTE: "TH I N K OF A L L TH E T I M E A N D E N ERGY SPENT I N THE SEARCH A N D CON S U M M ATION-AND THE H ANGOVE R S OF SEX. THINK OF TH E BOOKS I COULD HAVE WRITTEN, THE PHOTOGRAPHS I COULD HAVE TAKEN
. .

IT M O R E

BLUNTLY:

HAS

EVERYONE

GONE

J U N KY O R

SCHIZOPH RENIC?

BELIEVE IT O R NOT, ASEXUALITY COMES TO US FROM THE OPPOSITE END OF THE SPECTRU M-FROM THE B U S I N E S S COM M U N ITY. SMALL E N T R E P R E N E U R S

:'7 F A M I L I A R ARGUM ENT. SO MANY

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WITH A FUTURE J U ST CA N'T A FFORD TO HAVE SEX AN YMORE, T H E Y H A V E TO S A V E A L L TH E I R E N E R G I E S TO K E E P THE B U S I N ESS AFLOAT: "TH ESE PEOPLE ARE NOT LIKE COLLEGE K I DS WHO HAVE TI M E FOR SEX BECAUSE THEy'VE GOT NOTH ING E L S E TO DO. THESE ARE BUSY. ACTIVE PEOPLE," STEVE RUBELL, CO-OWNER OF STU DIO 154. POI NTED LY DECLARED TO ARTHUR BELL. EVEN WOR K I NG 1 6 H O U R S A DAY DI D N 'T SAVE H I M FROM A TAXING B A N K R U PTCY.

PROM PTS A L C A R M I N E S (TH E FAGGOT). WE'RE A L L Q U E E N S A T H EA RT.

IN THE M EANTI M E SEX H A S G ROWN DEMOCRATIC. A LTHOUGH STI LL A N I M M AT U R E I N DUSTRY, THE SEX T R A D E H A S B E C O M E " A M U LTI B I L L I O N - D O L L A R B U S I N ESS WITH T H E C H A R ACTE R I STICS OF M A N Y C O N V E N T I ON A L I N D U S T R I ES-A LARGE W O R K FORCE, H I G H - S A LA R I E D E X E C U T I V E S , B R I S K PUBLICATIONS, BOA R D

GON E ARE THE DAYS WHEN B U SY, ACTIVE PEOPLE M E SSED AROUND W I TH T H E I R SEXY SECRETARIES, S M A L L ENTR E P R E N E U R S DON'T LEAVE TH E OFFICE A N Y MORE.

COMPETITION, T R A D E

M E ET I N G S , S A L E S CON V E N TI O N S , " R E PORTS T H E

NEW YORK TIMES. s D I LDOS A N D VIBRATORS CAN B E

CHARGED T O VISA OR MASTERC A R D ACCOUNTS, N ELSON ROC K E F E LLER I S A PRI M E EXAMPLE. H E S I M PLY WOR K E D H M S E LF T O DEATH . AND THE VI DEODI S K B U S I N ESS I S PLUGGING INTO TH E SEX I N DUSTRY TO A C H I EV E ITS FIRST M AJOR BREAKTHROUGH.

D E N N I S SOBI N , PUBLI S H E R OF THE ADULT BUSINESS

R E PO R T ,

WASHI NGTON SA M E

BASED

SEX-TRA D E SALES AND

NEW

YORK

IS

STI L L TOYING

WITH

THE

IDEA OF

N EWSLETTER, ESTI MATES THAT THE SEX BUSINESS HAS "T H E POTE N T I A L F O R PROFITS A S T H E FOOD I N DUSTRY. I T I S A GROWTH I N D U STRY THAT C A N NOT GO BACKWARDS."

A S E X U A L CHIC. "IT WAS J UST A JOKE," ESTI M ATES R I C H A R D GOLDST E I N , OF T H E VI LLAGE VOICE. "MOST OF THE 'ASEXUAL' P E O P L E I NT E R V I E W E D B Y A R T H U R BELL S I M PLY WERE CLOSET GAYS." JOKE OR NO JOKE, NO SEX MAY WELL HAVE REACHED EPIDEMIC A M E RICA. PROPORTIONS I N THE SOFT BELLY OF

D E SC R I B I N G THE SHOW-WORLD C E NTER ON 4 2 N D STREET WHERE "SERVIC ES" HAVE BEEN EXTEN S I V E LY RATIONALIZED, THE SEX M R . W E I SBROD, WHO I N C ENTRAL M O N I TO R S I N DUSTRY

"SO M E PEOPLE CA N'T WORK W H I LE THEY A R E I NTO S E X , " CON F I D E S R O B E RTA, WHO M A N A G E S A MASSAGE P A R LO R IN DOWNTOWN PITTSBURGH, "I MYSELF CA N'T WORK WITHOUT IT. IT GIVES ME A BOOST OF E N ERGY," S H E ESTIMATES, HOWEVER,

M A N HATTA N , COM M E NTS DRYLY, "ITS SEXUAL FAST FOOD." M A CROBIOTIC SEX SHOU LDN'T B E TOO FAR OFF,

ARE WE GETTING C LOSE TO WHAT H E N R Y M I LLER, LAC K I N G A NAME FOR IT, CALLED THE LAND O F FUCK1 A L A N D FREE F R O M SUPE RSTITION, RITUAL, I DO LATRY, FEAR O R G U I LT: "WHAT A M AN'S SEX L I FE M A Y BE U N D E R A N E W ORDER," HE EXCLA I M ED, " S U R PA S S E S MY F E E B L E I MA G I N ATION TO DES CRIBE." W E NOW HAVE A TA STE-J UST A TASTE-OF THE N E W O R D E R , I T D I D N 'T T A K E T H A T M U C H

THAT 20% OF THE C I TY I S I NTO VARIOUS FORM S OF ABSTI N E NCE, NONE OF H E R C USTOM ERS, A N D NON E OF H E R G I R LS, OF COURSE, H A S BEEN CONTA M I N A T E D , MASSAGE OBLIGE. BUT N O T EVERYONE CAN TURN SEXUA LITY I NTO A FU LL-FLEDGED PROFES SION. BESI DES, SHE A DDS, "SOME PEOPLE LIKE TO TRY A NEW THING, J UST FOR THE HECK OF IT,"

I MAGI NATION. IT I S T H E LA N D O F NOD A LL OVER IS A B STI NENCE A R E ACTION TO THE "OVERKI LL" OF THE SEXUAL R EVOLUTION?, GABRIELE BROWN, PH.D, SUGGESTS I N H E R TI M ELY BOOK, THE NEW CELI BACY,
WHY MORE MEN AND WOMEN ARE ABSTAINING FROM SEX-AN D ENJOYING IT.s I S THE "TH RI LL" GON E SOU R

AGAIN,

SEX HAS CEASED T O B E EXTRAORDINA RY, EVEN FOR O R D I N A R Y PEOPLE. PSYCHOLOGI STS R E PORT THAT IT I S BECOMING A M ER ICA'S DOMI NANT SOC I A L ACTIVITY, EVE RYWH E R E S E X I S T A K E N CASUA LLY AS L E G I T I M A T E E N T E R TA I N M E N T , "TH E M I DD L E CLASS H A S T H E T I M E A N D E N E RGY A N D MONEY TO PRACTICE SEX A S R E C R E ATION," ESTIMATES D U A N E COLGLAZI ER, P R E S I D E N T O F PLE A S U R E CH EST LTD. AND A FORM E R W A L L STREET TRADER, TH E

IN O U R SEXUALLY OPEN SOCI ETY?

REVOLUTIONS ARE NEVER GOOD NEWS FOR QUEENS. WHEN EVERYTHI N G I S PERMITTED NOT H I N G IS EXTRAORDINARY

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"M YSTE RIOUS A N D U N KNOWN, POS S I BLY FOR E V E R U N K NOWABLE" WOR L D OF S E X I S BEING TRADED

FEEL

S E X U A LLY

I N A DEQU ATE,

AND

HOW

WOM E N

RESPOND T O THOSE O F U S W I T H THOSE F E A RS," DEC LA R E D T H E N E W JERRY R U B I N A COUPLE O F YEARS A G O , "I COULDN'T TALK T O W O M E N B E C A U S E I WAS AFRA I D TO LOOK BAD." WAS T H E OLD R U B I N

FOR D I S N EYLAND, T H E LA N D O F F U C K RECAST I N PLASTIC PA R A D I S E ,

BUT

EVEN

RECREATION THE N EW

CAN

BE

HEADACHE,

A F R A I D TO LOOK B A D W H E N H E W E N T T O CONGRESS H A LF-N UDE WITH L I V E A M M U N I TION? W A S T H A T J U ST A N O TH E R " S U P E R M A S C U L I N I T Y T R I P " T H A T THERAPY EVENTUALLY MANAGED T O C U RE? "I

COPI N G

WITH

SEXUAL

F R E EDOM, TH E

M ENTA L H E A LTH PROFESSION W A R N S , H A S BECOME

T H E NEW CHALLENGE, BUT WHAT IS NOT A "CH A L

LENGE" FOR THE M I DDLE C LASS? T H E C U LTURE

WOR R I E D A BOUT M Y COCK SIZE. ABOUT P R E M A T U R E EJACULATION. WI LL I G E T I T U P A T ALL? I WAS

K E E PS TRA I N I N G T H E I N D I V I D U A L TO ASSERT H I S S U P E R IORITY THROUGH A C O M PA R I SON, PASSION

OBSESSE D WITH SEX."

OF CON FO R M I S M , W H O W I LL EVER T E L L YOUR SILENT TORTU RE? M I D D L E CLASS S E X I S A R E A L FIGHT WITH BLOOD A N D G UTS, K E E P I N G I T U P BETTER THAN THE JONES': NOW THAT C A R S ARE S H R I N KI NG I N SIZE AND APPEAL, S E X LOOMS B I G IN T H E N E I G H BOR'S EYE. THE " M E DECADE" R E A LLY D I D A GOOD JOB O N OUR "AMERICAN R E VO L U T I O N A R I E S , " JERRY RUBIN

R E M A I N S A S EXEM PLARY O F TH E C U LTU R E I N H I S N E U ROTI C A BJ ECTION A S ACTOR RONALD REAGAN PROPPED U P TO THE D E NCY. L I M ELIGHT O F TH E PRESI

NO WONDER THE P E N D U L U M I S S W I N G I NG W I LDLY THE OTH E R WAY. "T H E PRESSURE FROM THE

C U LTU R E I S V E R Y STRONG NOT T O B E C HASTE," ASSERTS DR. JOYCE BROTH E R S. "NOBODY WANTS TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR I NT E R EST IN ELECTRON ICS BUT A BOUT HOW MANY W O M E N YOU HAVE," SAYS CARL C LA Y, D I R ECTOR O F THE BLACK SPECTR U M THEATER, 'TH E M E D I A PROJECTS T H A T S E X M U ST ALWAYS BE ON YOU R M I N D, E V E R Y RECORD SAYS, 'DO IT, DO IT, DO IT " ,' T H E R E I S SO MUCH TO EVERY S I NGLE WEEK, MASTERS AND J O H N SO N W E DON'T H A V E SEX A N Y MORE, WE H A V E "SEX U A L PROBL E M S,"

REPEAT I T OBLIGI NGLY I N YOU R L OC A L P A P E R I N C A S E YOU FORGET. W O M E N 'S " N E W A S S E R T I V E

OVERCOM E." 1 0

N ESS" SCA R ES M E N I N TO A "NEW I M POTENCE," O N L Y T O BE L E FT, I N TU R N , STR A N D E D W I T H A S M A N Y

S E X USED T O B E A MOLOTOV COCKTA I L A N D D O IT A DECLARATION OF WAR. IT IS A M E R I KA ' S FRUS

A N X I ETIES. M E N A R E H A V I NG PROBL E M S B E C A U S E T H E Y A R E M E N , A N D WOM E N B E C A U S E TH E Y A R E WOM EN, TH E PER FECT SET-UP.

T R A T E D P E N I S , S H O U T E D J E R R Y R U B I N , T H A T LED U S TO V I E T N A M . SEXUAL I N S E C U R I TY B R E E DS

I M PE R I A L I S M . . . A M E R I KA'S N E W SATI ETY SU RELY M U ST HAVE C H A NG E D NO MORE

H A V I NG

SEXUAL

PROBLEMS?

MALE

PROG R A M OF

SOMETHI NG ,
I N S EC U R I TY.

NO

MORE

A P PLI E D SEX T H E R A PY: "IF YOU H A V E PROBLEMS I N GETTING A N ERECTION ONCE I N A W H I LE-A N D DON'T

F R U ST R A T I O N ,

N O MORE

H A R D H A T S A N D C I A. J U ST TH E H YSTE R I A ON I R A N A N D B LOODBATHS I N E L SA LVADOR.

WORRY ABOUT IT-YOU ARE JUST LIKE M I LLIONS OF

M EN," M I LLIONS OF M E N CONC E R N E D A BOUT THEI R P E R FO R M A N C E , D E S P E RATELY T R Y I N G TO K E E P

W E S H A LL OVERCOME S E X SOM E DAY. BUT W I LL WE EVER B E ABLE TO OVERCO M E T H E PRESSURE FROM T H E C U LTU R E ?

THEIR

EGO

(ACTUALLY 3 ) I N C H E S U P . "TH E S E

DOUBTS MAY H O U N D YOU ALL D A Y LON G - I N T H E S H OW E R , AT WORK, R I DING IN THE CAR AND

ESPEC I A LLY I N B E D," GOES WE ARE PLUN G I N G WITH A L L O U R E N ERGY I N TO ON

D R , DOLO R E S KELLER, PH.D. "T H E MORE YOU KEEP PENI S

TACT F U LLY, A BO U T

T H I N K I NG

IT, T H E S O FT E R Y O U R

OPPOSITE V A LUATIONS.

BUT C H A STE OR P ROMIS

BECOMES. S H E M A Y SAY, ' I REALLY DI DN'T F E E L L I K E I T ANYWAY . . , ' S U C H COMM ENTS O N L Y S E R V E T O M A K E YOU F E E L WORSE," H A R D FEELI NGS.

C UOUS, ASEX U A L OR H Y P E R ACTIVE, OPPOSITIONS M EAN VERY L I TT L E THE AS LONG AS WE KEEP

SO FT M A CH I N E, B U T N O

INTERNALIZING TURE. IT IS

PRESSURE

FROM TH E C U L

THIS

P R E S S U R E THAT M A KES OUR SO ANY OLD RECIPE D A I LY W I LL DO. S U G G E S TI O N S ,

SEXUALITY SO N E U ROTIC, I T I S T H I S A N X I ETY, A N D

N O T SEX P E R SE, THAT B R A N DS O U R M I N DS. "I'M

CONFRONTI N G I S S U ES O F HOW AND WHY WE GUYS

I N STRUCTIONS.

M I RACLES OF T H E T U N I N G

FORK, OR THE TV SET.

283

F E M A L E PROGRAM OF APPLI E D SEX THERAPY: "DO YOU DAYDR E A M OF THE M I S S E D Cl.I MAX AND TRY TO IMAGINE WHAT I T'S LIKE TO CO M E ? T H E N THE

PATI ENTS PI STS

USED

TO COMPl.A I N TO THEIR TH E I R
S E X U A l.

THERA

A BO U T

PERFORMANCE:

I M POTE N C E .

PREMATURE

E .J A C U L A T I O N .

F A I L. E D

CA SSETTE PROGR A M DEALING WITH T H I S SUB.JECT COULD MAKE THOSE D R E A M S BECOM E AN EXCITING R E A LITY." ONLY DREAMS COME TRUE. AMERICAN

ORGA S M . T H E WORKS. T H EY WOUL.D QU E U E U P AT TH E OFFICE WITH TH E I R L. I M P ORGAN IN HAND.

THOSE W E R E TH E DAYS.

DREAMS C A N N E D I N A CASSETTE. NOT A N Y MORE. " I F O N l.Y SOMEONE ELSE COU l. D DO IT FOR ME . . . " PATI E N T S SOME PEOPLE DO. ARE GROWING I M PATIENT WITH SEX.

"WE'RE GETTING BOR E D WITH T H E SHOW." T H E Y SAY. "YOU KNOW. BEING M AC H O BAGS."

" H A V E YOU CHECKED OUR S U R ROGATE PROGR A M ?"' "UH." HE S C R A TC H E S VOICE: "DO HIS H E AD. THINK THING THEN. THEY WITH A "A N D THEY C LA I M THEY'RE NOT R E P R E S S E D OR

FA LTE R I NG HA NDLE

YOU

COULD

I M POTENT? SOM E N E RVE."

TH E

WHOl.E

DARN

Al.TOGETH ER? " S H A L. L. W E START WITH A S E R I E S OF E L. ECTRO

I'VE A FEEl.ING SEX'S NOT FOR THE LAYMAN ANY MORE . . ...

SHOCKS. DOCTOR?"

AS LONG AS W E HAVE NOT CONQ U E R E D OUR FEARS A N D OVERCOME THE N E U ROTIC SC ENARIO I N DUCED BY T H E C U l.TURE. IT M ATTERS LITTLE WHETH ER W E CON F RONT S E X U A L ALTOGETH E R . ISSUES OR R E N O U N C E SEX

OVER

THE

L.AST

FEW

YEARS.

LACK

OF

S E X U A L.

INTER EST H A S BECOME T H E N U M B E R ONE PATI ENT SYMPTOM . SOM E PSYCHOL.OG ISTS BEGIN TO F E E L. TH E P I N C H . OTH ERS FIGHT BACK.

DR.

WILLIAM TH I S

M A ST E R S IS

EXA M I N ES A

THE

CORPUS

DELICTI.

D E F I N I T E L. Y

P A T H O L. OG I C A L.

PHENOMENON. H E PRONOUNCES GRAVELY. TAKING OFF H I S GL.ASSES TO SHOW H I S N A K E D SOUL THE M E N T A l. H E A LTH P R O F E S S I O N A l.S REALIZED IT PROFESSION BREATHES MORE FREEL.Y. AS L.ONG

I N STA NTl.Y. THEY DI DN'T FEEl. TOO TH REATE N E D BY TH E C LA I M S OF TH E NEW CELI BATES. THERE W E R E PLENTY O F R E ASONS F O R W O R R Y THOUGH: A FT E R ALL. AS G A B R I E l. E BROWN . A PSYCH Ol.OG I S T

AS I T I S PATHOL.OG I C A L. . . .

G U I LT. G U I LT. G U I L.T. DIAGNOSES DR. ROLL.O MAY. VICTO R I A N S W E R E G U I L.TY I F THEY E X P E R I E N C E D S E X . H E STATES. " N O W WE FEEL. G U l L.TY I F W E DON'T."

H E R S E L F . R E A D I l. Y A D M I TS . T H E TH E R A P E U T I C F I E l. D HAS VI RTUA LLY C E A S E D T O FU NCTION AS A F I E l. D AND HAS BECOME A

S P E C I A L I ZATI O N IN

TH E

PROFESSION

IS

NOW

B E A M I NG.

WHO CARES

SEXUAl.ITY. BUT I T COULD A S EASILY DO WITHOUT

W H E R E G U I L.T COM E S FROM AS l. O N G AS IT IS THERE? TH E R A PY . l. I K E THE SEX TRADE. IS A G ROWTH

SEX AS l.ONG AS NO SEX COUl.D BE I NTERPRETED AS A N OT H E R S Y M PTOM OF P S Y C H O l. OG I C A l.

I N D U STRY THAT C A N NOT GO BACKWAR DS.

DEFENSE. OR I N STINCTUAL A B E R RATION. BEH I N D EACH L.UKEWARM BED THERAPISTS CAN C E RTA I N l.Y GET SOM E M I LEAGE OUT OF ASEXUA l.ITY. THEY CAN G ET SOM E M I LEAGE OUT OF ANYTH ING. NOTH I N G CAN STOP TH E

SQ UATS
HUMAN

A SPEC I A L.-

1ST B U S I L.Y T A K I N G NOTES. SAYS DR. H E L.E N SINGER KAPL.AN. D I R ECTOR OF TH E S E X U A L ITY

PROGR A M AT THE NEW YORK HOSPITAl.: " FO R SOME PEOPL.E. S E X I S FRAUGHT WITH SO M UCH A N X I ETY. ANGER AND N EGATI V E EMOTION THAT IT MAY BE A

ADVANCE OF UPWARDl.Y MOBIl.E PROFESSIONALS.

THE C U LTURE K E E PS CALLING U PON AN ARMY OF PRO FESSIONA l.S TO DRESS U P SOCI A L TRIVIA I NTO MON U M ENTAL TRUTHS. THE PUBLIC SHOUl.D NEVER BE E X POSED U N PREPARED TO T H E H A R D EDGES OF ANY E V E NT. WHO K NOWS? THEY M IGHT EVEN CHOKE ON THEM. WE SURE NEED LOTS O F SPECIA LISTS TO FIl.E DOWN EVERYTH I NG I NTO SMOOTH. ROU NDED

BETT E R

A D A PTATION

NOT

TO

RISK

IT."

AND

R E S I D E N T PSYC H I ATR I ST AT BEL.L.EVUE: "IT IS NOT U N R E A SO N A B L. E TO B E L I EVE THAT SOM EO N E I N POL. I T I C S OR B U S I N ESS TODAY IS SO A N X I ETY

R I D D E N THAT HE CA N'T HAVE SEX . . . IT M I G H T BE A TOTA L.L.Y A P P ROPRI ATE RESPONSE TO AN INTENSE ENVI RON M E NT." EITHER. IT SEXOL.OGI STS A DON'T TAKE RISKS

PIl.LS.

M IGHT B E

TOTAL.L.Y

A PPROPRIATE

284

R E SPONSE TO T H E PSYC H I ATRIC E N V I RO N M ENT.

MOMENT THAT S E X U A LITY IS ON ITS WAY OUT, A N D LETS S E E W H E R E TH I S LEADS U S TO.

THE

I N FLATION OF S E X U A L I TY H A D A LOT TO DO WE'VE B E E N TOLD THAT WE C A N 'T DO WITHOUT S E X . S U R E WE C A N . M O N K S D I D IT-OR SO THEY CLA I M . NOW TH AT MONKS ARE NO LONGER G I V E N T H E ADMIRATION THEY

WITH A N X I ETY TO START WITH. I T IS IN SEX THAT T H E A N X I ETYR I D D E N . EGO USED TO NOW D E P L E T E D I N F L A T E D W E S T E R N A T E M POR A R Y IS NO R E LI E F AND THE

FIND THAT

REVENGE.

SEX

S H ELTER.

PROPER

" R E SPECT

AND

EGO I S READY TO DO A N YT H I NG SHORT OF GIVING I TSELF U P .

R EC E I V E D E A R L I E R" (GA B R I ELE BROWN), A N D TH E I R LIVES E V E N CON S I D E R E D SOMEWHAT " U N N A TU R A L" BY THE G E N E R A L PUBLIC, T I M E MAY BE R I PE TO

N E U ROSIS I SN'T T H E I LL N E S S I T I S S U P POSED T O B E . IT IS A N OT H E R IS WORD FO R SICK. N O R M ALITY. IF YOU AND MY

FEED TH E MONK

I N US.

N O R M A L I TY OPINION.

P R ETTY

WANT

WE'VE B E E N SO T R A I N E D TO COUCH EVERYTH I N G I N SEXUAL T E R M S , V E R Y R E STRICTI V E TERMS, THAT WE'RE H A V I NG A H A R D T I M E SEPARATI NG S E X U A L ITY FROM D E S I R E .

OH.

N OT H I N G

D R A M ATIC,

N OT H I N G

FLA M BOYANT. A N X I ETY O N A DAI LY BASIS. ENOUGH P R E S S U R E TO KEEP T H E I ND I V I D U A L ON HIS TOES, BUT NOT SO M U C H AS TO ACTUALLY I N C A PACITATE HIM I NTO SOC I A LLY. THE N E RVOUS NOT E N ERGY BREAK M U ST BE FED

I N NO WA Y I S S E X U A LITY T H E " I N F R A STRUCTURE" OF DESIRE. DESI R E DOESN'T HAVE TO B E TIED DOWN TO SEX. PEOPLE CAN CAN'T LIVE LIVE W I THOUT SEX-T H E Y J UST D ES I R E . RENOUNCING DESIRE

MACH I N E,

IT

DOWN

A LTO

G E TH ER.

W I TH O U T

NOW

T H A T TH E

I N DI V I D U A L

IS

D I VO R C E D

FROM

S E X U A LITY

I SN'T T H E

"FINAL

SOLUTI O N :'

DWINDLING C O M M U N ITY.

" T R I B A L" ETC . ) , HE

S T R U CT U R E S HAS A HARD

( FA M I LY , TI M E NOT

S I M PLY B R A N C H E S O U T OF S E X U A L I TY I N O R D E R TO INVEST OTH E R , BECOM I NG LESS LOADED, TERRITORI ES. T H E DESI R E IS A FA I RL Y

FALLI N G A P A RT IN HIS I NC R E A S I N G I SOLATION. ALL T H E MORE REASON TO S E X U A LI Z E THE I N D I V I D U A L W H I L E I N DI V I DU A LIZI NG H I S S E X U A LITY. IT I S T H E

NONS E X U A L O F

EXTR E M E A N D P R E C A R I O U S FO R M OF POLYS E X U A L ITY: P O LYSEXUALITY WITHOUT SEX,

C R I PPLE LEADING T H E BLI N D . THE S H A K E R S' B E DT I M E RITUAL A OF (WH I R L I N G ) IS

A N X I ETY N O W W O R K S BOTH W A Y S . T H I S "DOUBLE B I N D" C LE A R L Y D E F I N E S NORMAL N E U ROTIC THE P R E D I C A M E NT OF NOT, AS

USUALLY NIQUE

I NT E R PRETED THE

AS

COM M U N A L TECH SEXUAL GIVES TENSION: TO

I N D I V I DUALS-AN D

FOR

RELEASE

G REGORY BATESON C LA I M E D, S C H I ZOPH R E N ICS. BY LI N K I NG TOTAL SATIS FACTION TO I N DI V I D U A L S E LF ESTEE M , S E X U A LITY HAS B ECO M E J U ST A N OTH E R TEST. A LB E I T TH E MOST E XC R U C I AT I N G , FOR ALL

R E NOU N C I N G WHAT

GENITAL

LOVE

ACCESS A

HERBERT

R I C H A R DS O N

CALLS

"NEW

POLYM O R PH O U S S E X U A L ITY,"

TDO V U L N E R A B L E EGOS.

RECENT

M EDICAL

DATA

PROV I D E S

F U RT H E R

JUSTI FICATION FOR T H E I NFECTIOUS WITHDRAWAL DR. I.M. POTENTS H I LA R I O U S COMPI LATION OF 1 0 1 REASONS NOT TO HAVE SEX TONIG HT. " WITH ITS NON FROM S E X U ALITY. N E U ROLOGIST R I C H A R D M A Y E U X FO U N D T H AT SOME P E Or L E AND "EXPE RI ENCE A

E R OG E N OU S ZON E S AND D I AG R A M S O F POSITIONS NOT TO HAVE SEX IN, IS A C L E A R S Y M PTOM OF TH E PRESENT REVERSAL OF S E X U A L T R E N D S. NEU

PROFO U N D SEVER A L

A M N ES I A

D I SO R I E NTATION SEXUAL

FOR

HOURS

A FT E R

HAVI NG

I NT E R .

COURSE :' IT S E E M S N O WON D E R M ENTAL PATI E NTS COME BEGG I N G FOR MORE ELECTROSHOCKS. D I RTY OLD M I N D S . THEY GET MORE THAN THEY DESERVE.

ROTIC "TRAGEDY" R E V E A LS I T S E L F F O R WHAT IT I S : A M E R E S E X U A L JOKE. IT IS WDODY ALLEN TH E

OTH E R WAY A RO U N D. ATTENTION: COUNTRY. SEX IS KILLER 80 N U M ERO A UNO IN THIS EVERY SECONDS CAR GOES

BERSERK ON T H E H IGHWAY FOR N O D I SC E R N I B L E REASON. SEX OR NO S E X : I DON'T S E E W H Y WE SHOULD BE MADE TO CHOOSE BETW E E N T H E TWO. T H E S E K I N D S OF EXCLUSIONS A LWAYS S M A C K OF N E U ROTICI S M , W H I C H I S EXACTLY WHAT W E W E R E T R Y I N G T O G E T R I D O F , INSTEAD OF S E X . B U T L E T S A S S U M E FOR A A LCOHOL T E S T : N EGATIVE. T H E PH E NO

M ENON BAFFLES THE POLICE. DRIVERS SHOULD BE S E V E R E LY PROHIBITED FROM HAVING I NT E R .

COU R S E S E V E R A L H O U R S BEFORE THEY HIT T H E ROAD. HEART S TA N D A R D B E AT. T E STS W I LL BE E N FO R C E D :

M U SC U LA R T E N S I O N , U R I N A L Y S I S .

28!5

POLICE DOGS. MOR EOV E R . WOULD S N I F F I T OUT I N

NO TIME.

A N T I DOT E TO S E X U A L STRESS I S NOTH I N G N EW-A TH E R A P I STS JOB. F R E E LY CHOSEN C E L I BACY IS AN A LTOGETH E R D I F F E R E NT STORY. WHAT M A K E S O N E

S E X IS N O T GOOD F O R Y O U . T H E SURGEON G E N E R A L H A S DETERM I N E D T H A T FUC K I N G IS DANGEROUS TO YO U R H E A LTH. FI FTY JACK R A BBITS FUC K I N G FI FTY TIMES A DAY FOR F I FTY CONSECUTIVE DAYS

B E C O M E A BSTI N E NT?

"1

R EA L L Y DON'T LI K E B E I N G RUN BY A NYTH I NG-I

E S P E C I A LLY DON'T E N J OY B E I N G M A N I P U LATED BY A PHYSICAL F E E L I NG:' SAYS A LE X A N D R A . FOR A

CONTRACTED I T BEFORE ENTERING COMA. SEX IS C A N C E R PRO N E . TI M E TO KICK THE HABIT: " I T'S LIKE S M O K I NG:' S U G G E STS FRANK LA N G E L L A . " O N C E

CELI BATE WOM A N GIVING SEX UP IS

INTERVIEWED A

TH E BOOK.

DECLARATION

OF I ND E P E N

YOU GET OVER TH E FI RST TH R E E OR FOU R WEEKS. IT COM ES EASY." IT DOESN'T C O M E AT A LL.

D E N C E. A POS I T I V E A C T . N O T J U ST TH E E X P RESSION OF A M EN T A L PARALYSIS. I F YOU' R E C A UGHT IN THE L A B Y R I NTH R E M E DY. OF SEX. A YOU C A N A LWAYS NEW DEVICE. OF I N VENT A

FORGE

YOU C A N GROW
. .

W I NGS-SI M P L Y ABOVE SEX AND DECADENCE SEXUAL

BEWA R E

ANGELISM OTHE R

ONCE WILL

E X E RTION.

VALUES

E M E R G E IN TH E D I STANCE.

FEMALE CONCE R N " TH E TIME HAS COME WHEN WE

ORGASM FOR

HAS

BECOM E

THE

PRIME FOR

BOTH

SEXES.

" EQ U A L FOR

PAY

EQU A L WORK O R A N ORGASM Q U I PS THE TH E

NEW C E LIBACY.

A N ORGASM:'

H A V E TO P A Y F O R HAVING B E E N C H R I ST I A N S F O R TWO THOU S A N D YEARS: WE ARE LOS I N G THE

S E X U A L P L E A S U R E ON FOC U S ON ORGASM

A S S E M B LY-LI N E

. . .

THE

FU RTH E R TIGHTE N E D TH E

ALREADY

R ESTRICTIV E

C E N T E R O F GRAVITY B Y VI RTUE O F WHICH FOR A WE L I V ED. WE ARE LOST WE

E M PH A S I S ON LOV E M A K I NG. W I T H O R G A S M LOO M I N G ABOVE. "THE FUTU R E B ECA M E MORE I M PORTANT

WHILE. I N TO

A B R U PT L Y THE

THAN THE P R E S E NT:' COM P LA I N S S A R A H . A NOTHE R C E L I BATE. A S E X U A LITY H A S N O FUT U R E . B U T H A S I T GOT A P R E S E NT?

PLUNGE

OPPOSITE ALL TH E

VALUATIONS.

WITH

E N ERGY THAT SUCH AN EXTR E M E OVEREVALUATION OF MAN HAS IF A S E X U A LITY M E A N S EXPERI E N C I N G SEXUALITY IN
NONGEN ITAL

G E N E R ATED I N MA N:'

WAYS,

ITS

POT E N T I A L

IS

T R U LY

I N F I N ITE. W H A T FA LLS AWAY (DECA DENS) FROM SEX, - N I ETZSC H E A FT E R A LL. I S O N L Y THE PALE CARICATURE THAT K E PT POK I N G THE I N D I V I D U A L I NTO RUBIN: D I D N'T HE S U B M I SS I O N , END UP IN

REMEMBER

J ER R Y

WALL STRE ET? A S E X U A LITY A S A FOR M OF N I H I LI S M IT IS T E M PTING T O CON S I D E R A S E X U A LITY A M E R E BACKLASH AGA I N ST T H E S E X U A L REVOLUTION. T H E PHENOM ENON. HOWEVER. I S M O R E COMPLEX. I T I S MADE
IN PART

I S A W A R M A CH I N E C A P A BLE OF ATTA C K I N G TH E R E A C T I V E POW E R S AT WORK IN OUR S E X U A LITY, I F TH E DESTRUCTION C O U L D B E M A D E ACTI V E , A N D

OF

TH E

E X H A U ST I O N H A ST E N E D

FROM TO

N O T A N E M I C , E X U B E R A NT, A N D N O T NOSTA LGIC: I F I T W E R E T O C O M E FROM A N OVERFLOW O F L I F E . A N D NOT FROM A TH I N LY-V E I L E D DEATH-W I S H , A S E X U A L ITY COULD C E RTA I N LY H E LP R E STORE S E X U A LITY TO ITS F U L L N E S S .

MOV E M E N T

THE

C U LTU R E

MAKE

S E R V I C E A BLE. B U T I N PART A LSO O F O U R GROW I N G CA PACITY T O WITHSTA N D S E X U A L WASTE. T H E S E T W O T H R EADS-D E N I A L OF TICS OF TH E S E X U A LITY. " GY M N A S

W I L L" - R U N

S I M U LT A N EO U S L Y A S E X U A LITY I S A S Y M PTOM OF DECADENCE. A N D LIKE OTH E R S Y M PTO M S OF DECADENCE, IT IS

THROUGH THE C L A I M S O F T H E N E W CELI BACY. ONLY BY DI FFERENTIATI NG THE TWO ASPECTS CAN A

R E A L EVALUATION OF THE A S E X U A L PHENOMENON B E A C H I EVED.

A M B IG U O U S B Y D E F I N ITION. A M B I G U I TY I SN'T S U C H THAT I T R EQUI R ES A N E L U C I DATION-EVEN LESS A

CRITIQUE: SOME E L E M E N TS S I M PLY NEED

TO

BE

" L ET'S

FACE

IT.

IT'S

MORE

I N T E RESTING

TO

BE

"FORGOTTEN," OTH ERS MOBI LIZED. O N C E T H E FOCU S

C E L I B AT E THAN TO B E I M POTENT:' GABR I E L E BROWN C O NC E D E S CYN ICALLY. A S E X U A L I TY AS AN

ON

G E N ITA L

SEX

IS

R E M OV E D ,

"NEW

POLY

M O R P H O U S S E X U A LITY" C O M E S I N TO B E I NG.

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THE OLD POLYM O R PHOUS S EX U A LITY WAS FOR THE YOUNG. F R E U D DESC R I B E D I T A S U N FOC U S ED. NON GENITAL. H E A LSO C A L L E D IT PERVERSE. QUITE A SLI P OF TH E TONG U E F R O M T H E I N V E N TOR O F A PER

S E X U A L ORGA N S ARE B E I NG U S E D. THEY A R E BEING USED E XT E N S I V E L Y TO N A T U RA L I Z E C U LT U R A L

P R E J U DICES. I r s TI M E T O TAKE T H E ORGANS AWAY FROM THEIR C U LT U R A L NATURALN ESS. TIME TO

PARAPRAXES:

HAS ANYONE EVER SEEN

S U B V E R T T H E H I E R A R C H I C ORGA N I ZATION OF T H E B O D Y POLITIC.

V E RSION THAT PRECEDES T H E LAW? BUT THAT WAS P R EC I S E L Y TH E POINT. C H I LD R E N A R E THE R E A L P E R V E RTS B E C A U S E THEY H A V E N T P!,-I D T H E I R D U E S . THEY A R E POLYMORPHOUS WITHOUT G U I LT. NO O N E SHOULD BE A L LOW E D T H A T M UC H FRE EDOM: A

A S E X U ALITY COULD LI BERATE S E X U A L ORGANS FOR OHTER P U R PO S E S . IT COULD A L LO W A

CONSTANT R E S H U FFLI NG O F BODY FUNCTIONS. IT COULD OPEN UP WI TH I N THE COLD RATIONALITY OF

TYPI C A L CASE OF "POLY MORPHOUS ENVY:'

A CT I V E.
BUT WHAT

BUSY

PEOPLE

V E RT I G I N O U S TO THE

SPACE OF

IS

ACTUA L L Y

P O LY M O R P H O U S

IN

H IT H E RTO

R ESTR I C T E D

MARGINS

ASEXUAL FOR TH E

SEXUA LITY? T H E S H A K E R S' TEC H N I Q U E REALEASE OF B E DT I M E TENSION IS

SOC I ETY: T H E I M PERSON A L BODY O F TH E J U NKY. T H E TORTU R E D BODY O F THE M A SO. T H E L I M I TLESS BODY O F THE SCHIZO. 1 2

I N VO KE D BY H E R B E RT R I C H A R DSON A S A MODEL O F POLY M O R PH O U S S E X U A LITY. W H A T I S POLYMOR PHOUS A BOUT THAT? W H I RLING AWAY FROM SEX. AT B E ST. IS

A S E X U A LITY MEANS THAT.

AS

FORM

OF S E X U A L I T Y S I M P L Y
SEX." A AND THArs

DA N C I N G Y O U R S E L F AWAY ( N I ETZSC H E I .

"NON-GO A L IT MEANS

O R I E NTED I N V ENTING

POLY M O R PHOUS S E LF. F O R SURE. NOT POLYMOR PHOUS S E X .

BODY

W ITHOUT

ORGA N S T H A T DOESN'T H A V E T O BE OBSESSED WITH GENITAL ACCO M P L I S H M E NT.

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S E X U A L AND WHAT I S NOT I S STILL TOO RESTRIC TIVE. IS P H Y S I C A L CLOS E N ESS AND I NTIMACY

CONTI N E N C E EITHER. T H E N E W C E L I BACY. EXPLA I N S G A B R I ELE BROWN. I S S I M PL E R THAN H A V I NG S E X . I T I NVOLVES. S H E WRITES. "DOING NOTH I I"G."

S E X U A L L Y POLY M O R P H O U S ? W H E R E D O E S S E X START. W H E R E DOES IT E N D ? FRANK LANGELLA H A S A N A N S W E R. ASEXUA LITY. H E S A Y S . "IS THE FI RST STEP YOU TAKE WHEN YOU DECIDE TO BECOME

NO N H U M A N . THE PENIS. VAGI NA. B REASTS EXIST. I F O N E W A N TS TO U S E T H E M . O N E M UST H A V E SEX:' SEX ORGANS SHOU LDN'T B E WASTED. WHO KNOW? THEY COU LD DRY THE N EG LECTED LIKE UP AND FALL TO THE GROU ND. PENIS A MAY SHRI N K LITTLE B EYOND TWO.

DOING

NOT H I N G

ACTU A L LY

REQUI R ES

LOT OF

DOI NG. DOING NOTHI N G D I ET: AVOID A NYTH ING SPICY. I NC L U D I N G THOUGHTS.

DOING

NOTH I N G

SPORTS:

EXERCISE TO DEATH. STA N O O N YOU R SHOULDER TO PUMP T H E E N ERGY AWAY FROM THE GENITALS.

R ECOGN ITION.

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NOTH I N G

E X P E D I E NTS?

BLOW

YO U R

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W H O W A NTS T O H E A R OF

A NATURAL

A W A Y WITH COLD SHOWE RS. OR S U F FOCATE IT BY SQU ATTING OFER A B AS I N OF COOL WATER. LAST. BUT NOT L E A ST. "IT IS C L E A R THAT IF YOU WANT TO I N DU LG E IN CELI BACY. YOU DON'T M ASTU R BATE."

CASTRATION A N YWAY? A S E X U A LI TY ANNOUNCES A N " U N N A T U R A L" U S E OF H U M A N ORGANS. B U T I S T H E H U M A N BODY U S E D T H A T N ATU RALLY A FT E R A LL? S E X U A L I T Y ISNT O N LY IN SEX. SEXUAL ORGA N S C A N S P R O U T A NYWH E R E W H E N G I V E N T H E CHANCE.

SOM E I N D U LG E N C E.

A R E WE "GOI N G BEYOND" THE S E X U A L R EVOLUTION . M O D E R N S E X U A LI T Y I S BY F A R TOO SPEC I ALIZED TO TAKE A C H ANCE. ANATO M I C A L D I FFERENCES A R E A LW A Y S EXPERI ENCED A S AN "SEPARATE I R REMEDIABLE H A V E WE "GROWN BEYOND THE N E E D FOR SEX"-oR ARE W E S E E K I N G R E M ISSION FOR OUR SINS? I S THE NEW C E L I BA C Y A S E C U LAR AT WAY TO A NEW NEW

O P P OS I T I O N . E NDLESS

FLESH ENGAGED I N (WILLIAM BUR

R E LI G I O N ? CURRENCY

IT S E E M S

LEAST T O G I V E

S E X U A L C O N F L I CTS"

TO T R A D IT I O N A L T EC H N I Q U E S O F

ROUGHS). SEX: 'TH E C H A RACTER O F B E I NG EITHER MALE OR FEMALE

. .

S E X U A L R ESTR A I NT. S O M E FR E E DO M . C E L I BA C Y . SUGGESTS G A B R I ELE BROWN. IS L I K E TA K I NG A

"

WHY

NOT (TH E

FEM-MALE ELEPHANT

( T R A N S S E X U A LS ) .

MAN-NIMAL

VACATION FROM SEX. S O M E VACATION.

M A N ) . OR WOM - I N ERAL? W H Y N O T A D O U P S I NGU L A R I T I ES. B E CO M I N G EXCLUSIVE INSTEAD O F OPPOS I NG AS AN DIFFERENCES? NON A N Y FORM OF EXCLUSION I S REACTI VE-UN LESS IT I S S I M PLY M EA N T TACTICA LLY. NOT A BSOLUTELY. AS A MEANS TO "MAKE A SC E T I C I S M N A TU R A L

UNHUMAN

ACCESS TO TRULY

C O N N ECTI O N S - A

C R AT I V E

A S S E M BLY-LINE.

A G A I N . " (TH E W I L L T O POWER). DISSUASION FROM SEX

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PARADOXICALLY E N D S U P GIVI NG SEXUAL VALUE TO E V E R Y T H I N G ( FO O D , E X E R C I S E , ETC.) T H A T H A D N T Y E T BEEN D I R ECTLY A FFECTED BY S E X . IT ALSO M E A N S FALLI N G BACK ON A N A NTIMASTUR BATORY STAN D THAT I N ITIALLY PLAYED A CRUCIAL ROLE I N THE H Y P E R-SOC I A LI ZATION OF SEX-WHICH THE NEW CELI BACY P R EC I S E LY OPPOSES, I N THIS RESPECT, FAR FROM B E I N G A N EXIT FROM SEX, ASEXUALITY R E P R E S E NT S ITS U LTI MATE ACCOM PLI S H M ENT.

DAV I D THORSTAD, A SPOKE S M A N FOR THE NORTH A M E R ICAN M AN/BOY LOVE ASSOCIATION, POI NTED OUT THAT BOYS H A V E A H E A LTH I E R A TT I T U D E TOWA RD LOVE T H A N A LOT OF A D U LTS DO: "TH E Y DONT CARRY AROUND ALL THI S L O V E BAGGAGE THAT A D U LTS HAVE ACCUM U LATED." ' 3 G A B R I E L E BROWN'S C O N C E PTION
ADULTS O N LY.

OF LOV E , S O

PURE.

SO

WHOLE, SO TRUE TO ONESELF, I S D E F I NITELY FOR

"I WAS TRYING FOR A N ADULT LOVE STORY, A STORY

SO

IS FREUD' S S U B L I M ATION OF S E X U A L DRIVES

WHERE THE PEOPLE GET TOGETHER BECAUSE T H E Y A R E I N L O V E RATH E R THAN B E C A U S E THEY W A N T T O GO T O BED," DECLARES PLAYWRIGHT LANFORD WI LSON. "SO MANY LOVE STOR I ES ARE REA LLY SEX STORIES. I WANTED TO HAVE TWO PEOPLE DISCOVER . . . THAT THEY HAD FOU N D THE P E RFECT PER SON." ' 4 P U R E , PERFECT, WHOLE, T R U E-TH E L A N D OF N O D A L L O V E R AGAI N .

I NTO "WORKS OF S E RVICE," OR A "GE N ERALIZED LOVE FOR EVERYONE" FOR THAT MATTER, LOVE FOR EVERYONE? WHAT A BOUT H A I G A N D P I NOCHET . , .
"G E N E R A L I Z E D LOVE.

SAME ITSELF

A S LOVE: OF T H E

SOC I A L D I RT O F

D E T E R G E NT , " ( M Y D E F I N I TI O N , ) T H E P A R A N O I D M AC H I N E CLEANS I N D I V I DU A L I S M A N D C O M PETITION. G U I LT, G U I LT, G U I LT. WHAT CAN B E POLYMORPHOUS A BOUT THESE GENERALIZED P E R V E R S I ONS?

S O T H E P E N D U L U M SWI NGS THE OTH E R WAY. A FT E R LOVE-SEX: A FT E R S EX-LOVE, A N D BACK A G A I N . N O W T H E N E W CELI BACY. S OO N THE N E W M A R R I AGE. OR THE N E W P R I EST.

AS SDON AS YOU TA K E A VACATION FROM THE LAND OF NOD, GOD I S WAITING FOR YOU WITH OPEN ARMS. READY TO TU R N THE N E W E N E RG Y I NTO A N EW DEAL. A NEW DEAL, A M YSTI FYING FICTION THAT EXACTLY M I R RO R S TH E OLD G E N ITAL TYRA N NY. " H I G H E R PLEAS U R ES C O M E TO R E PL A C E LOW E R O N E S , " PROMPTS GABRI ELE BROWN. S O M E H I G H .

S K I RTS OR FROCKS UP THE LEG, DOWN THE LEG. TH E N UP AGAI N . SO MUCH IS N EW FOR SO LITTLE CHANGE. BUT WHO CARES? LIFE I S S HORT. AND SO IS MEMORY. SIGNS C I RC U LATE, ONLY DIFFERENCES COUNT. I F THERE A R E ANY LEFT.

THAT THE

NEW

C E L I B A C Y SHOWS A STRONG

INTEREST "IN R E LIGION A N D S P I R I T U A L DEVELOP M ENT' SHOULDNT C O M E A S A S U R P R I SE. "IT WAS A GREAT RELI E F. F R E E DO M , T O AS W E LL AS A G R E AT K I N D OF BE F R E E OF S E X U A L D ES I R E," ARE WE H E A D I NG TOWARD AN ASEXUAL SOCI ETY? ASKS ARTHU R BELL, IT DEPENDS, OF COU RSE, HOW YOU DEFI N E ASEXUAL A NONGENITALLYFOC USED, POLYCENTRIC, POLYSEXUAL SOC I ETY: YES, EVEN TUALLY. A "NEW" A BSTI NENT SOC I ETY: HOPEFU LLY NOT. TH E REFUSAL OF SEX I S SO M U C H A PART OF RETENTIVE H ABITS A N D SAVINGS OBSESSIONS. ITS BEEN M I XE D U P FOR SO LONG WITH RELIGIOUS ASCETIC I S M A N D P U R ITANICAL P R U D E RY. WITH T H E ETHICS OF WORK A N D INDIVIDUAL RESPONSABI LITY, MANY THERAPISTS AGREE THAT T H E BIG TABOO TODAY ISN'T ON SEX A NYMORE, IT IS ON LOVE: SEX I S A N E X C U S E T O A V O I D I N T I M A C Y , E MOT I O N A L COM MITM ENT, T R U E LOVE, ETC. "I FEEL MORE PURE, MORE WHOLE, MORE TRUE TO M YSELF A N D M UC H M O R E A B LE TO LOVE DEE PLY," DECLA R E S CELI BATE ALEXANDRA. "I REALLY E NJOY GIVI N G TO OTHERS BECA U S E, UNLIKE SEX. IT DOESNT E N D A N D THE R E I S NO N EED F O R A M UT U A L PAY OFF." NO M UTUAL
PAY OFF: THE A M E R I C A N WAY O F LOVE. A REAL

CONFESSES M I C H A E L. WHO EXPERIENCED I N H I S YOUTH A FRUSTRATED VOCATION F O R P R I ESTHOOD (WHAT COULD CATHOLIC .
.

HE D01 H I S FAM I LY WASN'T EVEN

J. R E LIGION DOESNT NEED A FROCK.

THE NEW EMPHASIS O N LOVE CAN DO J UST AS WELL. TEILHARD DE C H A R D IN'S " U N IV E R S A L LOVE" WILL SHOW YOU T H E WAY.

ITS ROOTS GO SO DEEP IN THE A M E R I C A N SOIL THAT I DOUBT V E R Y M UC H A N Y NEW VALUE C A N COME OUT OF ALL THAT. FOR ALL ITS ETH E R E A L CLAIMS, ASEXUA LITY IS STILL TOO EARTHY, T OO "FUNKY," TO BE TRUSTED. NOT DEFUNK ENOUGH TO B E JOYOUSLY REBORN OUT OF ITS ASHES.

IT CAN

B E BORN-AGAIN THOUGH P R ETTY EASI LY.

JUST LISTEN TO REV. JERRY FALWELL A N D THE LIKE. I T C A N POP U P AGA I N RIGHTEOUSLY A S NO SEX SQUA D S TH ROW I NG BOM BS AND S P R E A D I N G

BARG A I N .

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MORAL TERRO R OVER A L L THE 42ND STREETS OF TH E L A N D. (WOM E N AGAI NST PORNOGRAPHY IS A

M E A S U R E S O U R PRESENT INCA PACITY TO SEPAR ATE OURSELVES FROM THE SNARES OF THE

CLEAR WA R N I NG. BUT NOT A REAL THR EAT. IF THEY W E R E LESS LITERAL- M I N DED, THEY WOULD PICKET
A N N I E.

C U LTURE.

NOT LOLITA

. . .1

A S E X U ALITY C A R R I ES

AS

O U R SOCI ETY K E E PS R E PEATI N G ITSELF OVER AND OVER TIMES AGA I N . AS A SOM ETI M E S AS FARCE,
BUT

WELL IN ITS DRY BOSOM PURE SEEDS OF SEDITION: S E XO R E X I A . SEX ST R I K E , C O N S U M E R'S BOYCOTT. BUT FOR THE MOST PART, I T W I L L R E M A I N A SOFT N I H I LIST PHASE. A PASSING FAD.

A TRAGEDY. SOME
IN A SUCCESSION

NOT

( M A RX): BOTH A R E P R E S E NT AT O N C E I N TH E S A M E PHENOMENON. W H ETH E R WE S U B M I T W I L L I NGLY TO ITS PATHOS, OR D E R I D E ITS G R A VITY WITH LOUD BUT

AT

LEAST

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BEING

GIVEN,

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DECLARA

LAUGHTER ONLY TH E

REMAINS

M ATTER O F CHOICE.

T I V E LY, THE POSSI BI LITY OF OPTI NG OUT OF THE LOA D E D SION OPPOSITION SEXUAL BETW E E N SEXUAL R E PRES

LAUGHTER CAN HALL OF

EVENTUA LLY BREAK OPEN THAT GIVE US A FRA I L

M I RRORS

AND

L I B ERATION.

IF THE PRESENT

SENSE OF S E C U R I TY-FOR WHICH WE HAVE T O P A Y A STAGGE R I NG COST IN TERMS OF POWERLESSNESS A N D A N X I ETY.

BATTLE OF DECADENCE W E R E ONLY ABOUT THAT, I T

WOULD STI LL BE WORTH THE TROUBLE.

W E K E E P M A R K I NG TI M E PASSIVELY. R EACTI V E LY. E N D L E SSLY P L U N G I N G THIS B R I NGS US BACK TO THE NOTION OF I N OPPOSITE VALUATIONS.

FEVER I S H LY B U R N I NG A WEALTH OF VALUES THAT COULD STI LL TESTIFY TO A N I NTENSE C R E ATIVITY IF WE KNEW HOW TO M A R K THEM WITH THE ACTI VE

DECADENCE. LET M E C LA R I FY I T FURTH ER B E FORE I GET BACK TO SEX.

POWER O F O U R I M AG I N ATION. AS ROLA N D BARTHES DECADENCE HAS NOTH I N G TO DO WITH THE A LL ONCE SAID OF T H E N A R RATIVE ( A N D H I STORY I S A N A RRATIVE, O U R BLOODY M YTH), IF WE DON'T READ A N A R RATIVE OVER AGA I N. WE K E E P R E A D I NG IT EVERYW H E R E , U N K NOWI N G LY. ASEXUA LITY I S ONE OF THE MANY FICTIONS O F THE C U LTURE. BUT I F WE REREAD I T C A R E FULLY, I NSTEAD OF TRAS H I N G I T O U T OF T H E W I N DOW . W E W I L L DISCOV E R T H A T THE H I STORY OF S E X U A L ITY-OR THE SEXUALIZATI O N OF
H I S TO R Y - I S

TOO-LI N E A R CONCEPTION OF DECLI NE. DEC L I N E OF TH E WEST. DECADENCE I SN'T DECLI NE, U N LESS WE W E R E TO "DEC L I N E" THE W E ST G RAM MATICALLY. A N D NOT H I STOR I C A LLY. IS GOING FAR FROM DECLI N I NG. THE

WEST

F E V E R I S H LY THROUGH

A LL I T S

C A S E S A N D FLEXIONS. THIS EXPLA I N S W H Y BOTH L I B E RATION AND R E P R ES S I O N A R E S I M U LTAN

EOU SLY PRESENT AT T H E OPPOSITE E N O S OF T H E SEXUAL PA RADIGM A S W E L L AS I N E A C H OF THE

CONVENI ENTLY

STAGED

IN

TH I S

C U R IO U S L Y A M B I G UOUS PHENOMENON.

S I N G U LA R SEXUAL EXPERIENCES THAT KEEP SURFAC ING IN THE C U LTURE

(IN

THE

M EDIA) AT AN EVER

Q U I C K E N I NG PACE: HOMOS E X U A LITY, LES B I A N I S M , S Sc M . T R A N SV E S T I S M . . . . THE T R A N S S E X U A L I TY. A LSO SOON T H E ASEXUAL SYM PTOM I S EVEN MORE COMPLEX THAN WHAT RECENT H I STOR I A N S OF SEXUALITY

PEDOPH I L I A P E L M E LL

PARADIGM

I NC LUDES WE KEEP

A LL

THE

E X P E R I ME NTS

WOULD BE W I L L I NG TO A D M IT.

U P RooTING-DEF U N K I NG-FROM OTH E R C U LTURES IN OUR I N SATIABLE LOT: DISSATI S FACTION M E DITATION AND WITH OUR T H E PRESCRI PTION TO EXTERNALIZE SEXUA LITY I N D I SCOU R S E U S E D TO G O A LONG WTH THE OSTEN S I BLE PROSC R I PTION OF ANY SEXUAL EXPRESSION. NOW THAT S E X U A L I TY S U R FA C E S S M OOTH L Y

OWN

SORRY

M A RT I A L

A RTS,TAO SEX A N D PLATO'S RETREAT-BODY TAGS A N D BODY TEC H N I QU ES.

E V E R Y W H E R E , C A N WE STI LL ASSIGN I T A C R U C I A L THE WEST DOESN'T D E C L I N E. IT IS, ON THE ROLE IN THE PRESENT THIS STRATEGY OF CONTROL. CONTROL MAY BE? HOW

CONTRARY, LOSI N G I T S S E N S E O F TI M I NG: I T S FAITH I N P ROGRESS (H-BOMB), ITS DESIRE FOR C H ANGE (ZERO GROWTH) . ITS HOPE FOR A POS ITIVE OUTCOME ( R EVOLUTION). TH E WEST D O E SN'T D EC L I N E, IT

HOWEVE R

POSI T I V E

COULD W E POS S I B LY BELI EVE THAT T H E R E'S A N Y "TRUTH" TO BE EXTRACTED, ALL AND POWE R T O B E A V A I LA B L E

D E R I V E D,

FROM

TOO R E A D I L Y

K E E PS M ARKING T I M E. T I M E N O W I S EVERYTH I NG B U T L I N E A R . IT HAS BECOM E E XC H A NGEABLE. D I S POS ABLE, ELSE. REVERSI BLE. WE KEEP C I RC U L A R LIKE EVE RYTH ING AND ITS

ACCOUNTS OF

INDIVIDUAL "SEX

L I V E S"? T H E

PROPENS ITY T O S P E A K A BOUT SEX H A S BECO M E SUCH AN E X P L I C I T. OF OUR E X P ECTED. SOC I ETY AND EXPEDIENT TAKES A

I N T E R P R ET I N G

TI M E

FEATURE

THAT

IT

PRODUCTIONS TELEOLOG I C A LLY. BUT TH I S S I MPLY

C ERTAI N A MO U N T OF COURAG E TO A S S U M E THAT

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AN OCCULT SOC I A L I N J U NCTION IS STI L L AT WORK I N TH E PRESENT I N FLATIO N OF S E X U A L D I SCOURSE.

N EOUSLY PROPELS AN A LTE RNATI V E CONCEPTION THAT BELONGS TO THE VERY SA M E FRAM EWORK FROM W H I C H HE WAS A PPARENTLY TRYI N G TO DO WE REALLY GAIN THAT EXTRICATE H I M S E L F. MUCH FROM

WHEN M I C H E L FOUC A ULT'S H I STORY OF SEXUALITY CAME OUT IN PARIS, IN 1 976, I T I M M ED I ATELY M ET WITH ANGRY OBJ ECTIONS. "WHAT ABOUT SEXUAL M I SERY?" FRENCH C R I TI C S S N A P P E D BACK. ON THIS S I D E O F THE ATLANTIC, H I S POSITION PARADOXI CA LLY SOU NDS, IN THE WORDS OF A NEW YORK C R ITIC, RATH E R " P U R I TA N I C A L. " S E X U A LITY M A Y STI LL B E PRETTY HEAVY ON T H E FRENCH: I N T H E N EW WORLD, I T S I M P L Y D E F I E S G R A V ITY. S E X FLOATS A ROUN D A I M LESSLY L I K E A M ATZO B A L L I N C H I C K E N BROTH, O R BACKGROU N D M U SI C I N A HOWA R D JOHNSON'S.

A S S E R T I N G T H AT S EX UA L I T Y I S

REPRESSIVE RATH E R THAN REPRESSED? WHAT I S , AFTER ALL, THE NOTION O F S E X U A LITY A S A
POSITIVE CONTROL IF NOT REPRESSION IN DRAG?

WHEN FOUCA U LT SWI NGS FROM A N EGATI V E TO A POSITIVE CONCEPTION OF CONTROL, HE R E M A I N S SQU A R E L Y W I TH I N DECADENCE, T H E S P E C I F I C ECON O M Y OF D O E S N 'T P R OG R E S S OR WHICH

REGRESS, O R EVEN LESS DEGENERATE, BUT K E EPS OSC I LLAT I N G BETW E E N A LTERNATI V E AND CON TRA D ICTORY MOV E M ENTS, THE H I STOR I A N'S BOLD RE-EVALUATION O F H I STORY I N PENDULOUS T E R M S I S PROB A B L Y M O R E I N D EBTED T O T H E S E V E R Y OSC I LLATI O N S TH A N IT I S TO T H E ACTUAL H I STORY OF THE WEST.

IT MAY B E THAT CROSSING THE ATLANTIC I N VOLVES MORE THAN A TRANSLATION: A NOTHE R SWI NG OF THE PENDULUM, ANOTH E R TURN OF T H E SCR EW.

IT ISN'T THAT FOUC A U LT'S A N A LYSIS DOESN'T HOLD: IT HOLDS ITS E LF BRI LLI ANTLY. BUT I T DOESN'T HOLD A N YTH I NG ELSE ANYMORE, ESPEC I ALLY NOT SEX, AT T H I S P O I N T , S E X U A L I T Y IS COMPLETELY D I VORCED FROM A N Y "WILL TO KNOWLEDGE," ANY D ES I R E FOR RATION A LITY- I F SUCH A P H I LOSO PHER'S WI LL, AND SUCH A FRENCH DISEASE EVER SET FOOT I N TH I S COUNTRY O N THESE TERMS. I SN'T I T PARADOX I C A L TH AT SUCH A STRONG I N DICTM ENT OF S E X U A L D I SCOU R S E COM ES AT A TI M E W H E N TH I S D I SCO U R S E HAS G R O W N SO P U B L I C A N D BAUDRI LLA R D DOESN'T H ESITATE TO TAKE THAT STEP, E V E R YT H I NG CON S I D E R E D , HE A S S E RT S R U T H L E S S LY, "TH E R E'S ONLY STRONG, ONE K I N D OF SEXUALITY-MALE S E X U A LITY. SEXUA LITY I S T H I S DISCRI M I N ATIVE STRUCTU RE C E N T E R E D R E PRESSION . " , e LAC K A N D RH ETORICAL, SO FOSSI LIZED A S TO L OO S E ALL CREDIBI LITY? A R E W E CON D E M N E D TO E N DLESSLY DEFI N E I N THEORETICAL T E R M S WHAT HAS CEASED
TO EXIST -IF I T EVER E X I ST E D IN THE F I R ST PLACE?

ASEXUA LITY F U L LY P A RTICI PATES IN THE PRESENT EXTENUATION OF S E X U A LITY I N THE C U LTURE, BUT I S THIS "EXTER M I NATION," A S JEAN BAUDRI LLARD I M PL I ES, I R R EV E R S I B LE? SHOULD W E DESPA I R OF SEXUALITY T H E W A Y WE'VE COM E TO DESPA I R O F THE IDEA O F R E VOLUTION? AFTE R THE " E N D OF I DEOLOGI ES," SHOULD WE PROCLA I M LOUDLY THE
E N D OF SEX?

ON T H E PHALLUS, O N CASTRATION, O N THE N A M E FO U C A U L T ' S T H E S I S M A Y W E L L BE A N OT H E R ATTE M PT TO SAVE T H E TRUTH A BOUT S E X UALITY AT A TI M E WHEN SEX HAS OUTGROWN A N Y FINA LITY, EVEN A CONTROLLING F I N A L I TY, TO P E R M EATE ALL LEVELS OF SOCI ETY WITH A SOFT A N D EXACER BATED E ROTI C I S M , WE ARE NOT S E X U A LLY D E P R I V E D, N O R A R E W E U N D E R A N Y FOR M O F SEXUAL S U R V E I LLANCE. W E A R E S I M PLY M I LDLY DISINTERESTED, AS THE GROWING RECOGNITION OF ASEXUA LITY CLEARLY I NDICATES, OF-TH E-FAT H E R , ON INTERDICTION, F R USTRATION A N D G U I LT, F E A R A N D TRANSGRESSION A R E S O INTI M ATELY WOVE N I N TO T H E S E X U A L F A B R I C T H A T D I S M I S S I NG T H E M A LTOGETH E R DEPRIVES SEXUALITY O F ITS ONLY AUTHENTIC ANCHORAGE. NOW THAT SEXUALITY CAN B E TOT A L L Y E X T E R N A L I Z E D , HE C O N C L U D E S , THERE'S NOTH I NG L E FT TO B E DESIRED. PENTHOUSE PEOPLE COU LDN'T AGREE MORE: "WE FIND," W RITES A READER. ''THAT ORAL PLAY, TOGETH ER WITH T H E USE O F V I B R ATORS A N D AT T I M E S A DI LDO, PROVI D E IT COULD B E A R G U E D THAT M I C H E L FOUCA U LT'S EXCESSIVE O V E RESTI MATION OF CONTROL I N SEXUALITY PARTICI PATES I N ITS OWN RIGHT I N THE RUSH TO OPPOSITE VALUES THAT LIES AT T H E ROOT OF D E C A D E N C E . A FT E R H A V I N G S UC C E S S F U LLY CHA LLENGED ONE OF T H E M O S T O B ST I N A T E W H AT' S C O M I N G TO AN END, RATHER, IS THE
REACTIVE CONC E PTION O F S E X U A LITY B A U D R I L-

US WITH MORE

EVERYTH I NG W E COULD WISH FOR," N O NO M O R E FRUSTRATION, N O MORE

LACK,

WISH. BUT I S T H E FUTURE OF S E X U A LITY IN THE H A NDS OF PENTHOUSE READERS? A N D I S D E S I R E TO BE REDUC E D T O A POSH SEXUAL D E M A N D?

A S S U M PTIO N S O F T H E C U LT U R E , N A M ELY THAT S E X U A L I TY IS R E P R E S S E D , FOU C A U LT S I M U LAT-

29 1

LARD THAN

STI LL

RETA I N S

FOR

NO OTH ER

P U R POSE

TO M A K E SURE S E X STI L L EXISTS. I N FLATED E ROTIC P R EOCC U PATIONS T ER M I N A L PHOR); H E A LTH. RECALL THE (YES, THE ROSY AN CHEEK OF

PROCLA I M I NG

ITS AGONY. A L R EADY FREUD

H A D TO FAST-FREEZE N E U ROTiC SEXUALITY INTO A SC I E NTIFIC MOLD FOR FEAR IT WOULD D I S I NTE

T U B E R C U LO S I S ASSUMES

OLD

M ETHA

D EATH

T R A P P I NG S O F

G R ATE COMPLETELY. IT I S T H I S "OBJECTI VE" FRAME, G R OWN MORE VACANT AND OBSESSIVE A S TIME

E N D OF PRODUCTION. E N D OF POLITICS.

E N D OF SEX.

W E N T BY. THAT H E L D TOG ETH ER A LITTLE LONGER THE FA I L I NG GRAVITY OF S E X U A LITY. NOW THAT THIS G R A V I TY I S COLLA PSING UNDER ITS OWN WEIGHT, WE CAN I N D E E D E X PECT TO B E LOST FOR A WHILE. POSSI BLE FOR A GOOD W H I LE . BU T BEING LOST AT
THIS POI NT MAY N OT BE AN ENTIRELY N EGAT I V E

PLURALITY OF I NT E R P R ETATIONS IS A LWAYS A SIGN OF STR E NGTH. B A U D R I LLA RD'S G E N E R A L SCH E M E , F O R A L L I T S I NTELLIGENCE, R E M A I N S A SEDUCTI VE S I M PL I F ICATION. A N OTH E R ATTE M PT TO MEET THE I R R ESISTI BLE NEED FOR U NITY A T THE EXPENSE O F T H E DIST U R B I NG A N D A M BIGUOUS CHA RACTER O F T H E P H E N O M E N A . "A N I H I LI ST I S A M A N W H O JUDGES OF T H E WORLD A S IT I S THAT I T OUGHT NOT TO BE, AND OF THE WORLD A S I T OUGHT TO B E THAT I T OOESN'T E X I ST . . . T H E PATHOS O F ' I N V A I N ' I S T H E N I H I LI STS' PATHOS."
(THE WILL TO PO W E R ) .

SITUATION. IT MAY E V E N B E M O R E FRU ITFUL T H A N

M A K I NG

SWEEPING TERMS, IN

A S S U M PT I O N S OR PROPHETIC

IN

PURELY

O P POSITIVE TIONS

I NTERPRETA ECONOMY" OF

ROOTED

T H E "SYM BOLIC

P R I M I TIVE CULTU R E S WE'VE C E RTAINLY DON E OU R BEST TO EXTERM I N ATE.

R EACTING AGA I N ST

R E ACTION

MAY

BE, AFTER

B A U D R I L LA RD'S C O O L PRESERVE I NTACT THE

PATHOS

M A N AG E S TO

TO

ALL. AS MUCH A SHOW OF STRE NGTH AS A SIGN OF W E A KNESS OR WOULD LIKE D E B I LITY. TH I S TO ASSIGN TO I S THE CONTEXT I THE RESISTIBLE

F A C U LTY

C R EATE

FICTIONS. B U T H I S FICTION OF P R I M ITIVE C U LTURES GIVES AT B E ST A NOSTA LGIC TWIST TO WHAT

ASCENSION O F TH E N E W C E LI BACY.

ESSENTIA LLY R E M A I N S A MONIST INTERPRETATION OF SOCI ETY.

BAUDRI LLARD

D E T E CTS

IN

THE

ECLI PSE

OF DECADENCE L Y P S E -NOW DOES N'T H A V E TO LEAD TO APOCA OR LATER. "TH E D EC L I N E IS CON

SEXUALITY ONE O F T H E M A N Y SYM PTOMS OF THE G E N E RAL

I MPLOSION

OF

THE

C U LT U R E .

ONLY

P R I M ITIVE SOC I ET I E S, H E A S S E RTS, CAN ACCOMO DATE AMBIVALENT P H E N O M E N A BECAUSE IT IS I N TH E I R M IDST ONLY THAT A POSITIVE REVERSIBI LITY OF EXCHANGES T R U LY EXI STS. IN THESE SOC I ETIES TH E DEAD, FOR I N STANCE, ARE NEVER EXCLUDED FROM TH E SYMBOLIC C I RC U LATION OF THE GROUP. THEY REMAIN ACTIV E PARTNERS I N THE M U LTIPLE C I R C U ITS OF EXC H A N G E BY WHICH PR I M I T I V E

STANTLY R E S U M ED, REVERSED, N E UTRALIZED, A N D THIS IN MANY W A YS , " W R I T E S J E A N - F R A N C O I S

LYOTA RD. " B A U D R I LLARD'S BELI E F I N A N I M PEND ING DOOM OF EXEMPLIFIES THE ON THE CONTR A R Y THE AT WORK IN

POWER

R EACTI V E

FORCES

WESTERN

N I H I LI S M : TH E ACTI V E DESTRUCTION O F

V A L U E S , THE JOYOUS D I S MI S S A L O F A L L-TDO- PIOUS I DEOLOG I E S ( I NC L U D I NG TH E RELIGION OF M A R X I S M , OF COU R S E ) I S A LWAYS IN DANGER OF T U R N I N G

CU LTU RES M A I NT A I N TH E I R H ARMONIOUS BALANCE BETWEEN L I FE AND DEATH, THE CLAN A N D THE EXCLUDE THE

I N TO THEORETI C A L MOR B I DITY. SKI D D I NG O N T H E W A Y. U N A B L E T O G R I P T H E R O A D OF PRACTICAL N I H I LISM, ENOS UP B A U D R I LLAR D'S TH E M A TIZI NG W I L L TO NOTH I NG N ESS AS A COLLECTI VE

EARTH. WE, ON THE OTH E R H A ND,

DEAD I N A BIOLOG I C A L DEATH. WE DENY THEM ANY PART IN THE S Y M BO L I C C I R C U LA T I O N OF THE

ITSELF

GROUP. I N STEAD OF M A K I N G DEATH A SOC I A L ACT, WE END UP M A K I N G OUR L I F E A LIVING DEATH.

D E ATH-W I S H .

THE ASEXUAL CLA I M COULDN'T BE A M BIVA LENT I N THE SAME FASH ION, IT C A N HE WOULD SIGNAL LO G I C A L L Y I T OOESN'T H A V E TO E N D U P T H A T W A Y . IT DOESN'T HAVE TO END AT A LL.. S E X H A S BECO M E A POS I T I V E PHENOMENON, BUT S I M U LTANEOUSLY I T I S LOS I N G ITS POW E R OVER OUR LIVES. NO LON G E R RE

CONCLUDE.

ONLY

THAT SEXUAL

OP POS I T I O N S , L I K E A L L O P PO S I T I O N S . C A N NOT HOLD THE ANYMORE. THE OVEREVA LUATION OF SEX, OF SEXUAL SIGNS, THE PLEASURE DON'T

HYPER-PRODUCTION OF

PRESSED, S E X I S NO LON G E R REPRESSIVE. N E I T H E R EXTE R M I NATI NG, NOR EXTE R M I NATED, SEX M A Y B E O N ITS WAY T O B E L E FT W E L L ENOUGH A LO N E - FO R A W H I LE AT L E A ST. ANOTHER SWING OF THE

H Y P E R- R E A L I T Y

SEXUAL

I N D ICATE THE GROW I NG POWE R OF SEXUA LITY I N TH E CULTURE; SEIZURE I T I S THE BEFORE U LT I M ATE FRENZY, THE S E X U A LITY COLLAPSES

LAST

P E N D U L U M M A Y B R I NG I T BACK WITH BRIGHT E Y E S A N D R O S Y C H E E KS.

ALTOGETH ER. W E S E X U A LI Z E EVERYTH I NG I N SIGHT

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THE

PROBLEM

WITH

DECADENCE

I SN'T THAT I M PLODE,

PENTHOUSE READERS, OBVIOUSLY, DON'T HAVE TO BE P R E SS U R E D I N TO S H A R I NG THEIR SEXUAL

SYM PTOMS

L I K E S E X DEGEN E RATE O R

RATH ER THAT THEY R E PEAT T H E MSELVES IN M A N Y WAYS, THAT THEY KEEP MARKING THE TIME AND

D I SCOVER I ES,

W H I L E CELI BATES C O M P LA I N THAT

"AS WE BEGAN TO HAVE MORE AND MORE S E X U A L E X P E R I E N C E S TOGETH ER, W E STO P P E D COM M U N I CATING I N OTH E R WAYS . . . " T H E R E A R E SO M A N Y WAYS TO C O M M U N I CATE: IT IS NOT SEX, IT IS

C H A N G I NG

PLACES,

E N DLESS LY,

PROBLEM S

I SN'T THAT EVERYTH I NG I S C O M I N G T O A H E A D , OR TO A N END, BUT THAT WE DON'T SEEM TO BE ABLE TO END ANYTHI N G ANYMORE. NEITHER GOD, NOR MAN,

COM M UNICATION THAT IS C O M M U N ICATED THROUGH SEXUALITY. I T I S N'T T H E G R EAT A M E R I C A N GOA L OF CONSTANT SEXUALITY THAT PRESSU R E S US, BUT THE GREAT AMERICAN GOAL OF CONSTANT

NOR SEX-NOR TR UTH. O U R PROBLEM I SN'T THAT WE ARE DECADENTS, BUT THAT WE ARE NOT DECADENT ENOUGH. NOT ACTIVELY, JOYOUSLY DECADENT, W E KEEP OSC I LLATI NG B E T W E E N A R O M A N T I C N I H I L I S M , A DESPERATE ESTHETICS OF DESTRUCTION, A N D A W I LL TO KNOW L E DG E THAT M A I NTAI N S A LI V E T H E TEM PTATION F O R T R U T H AT T H E S A M E T I M E AS IT DENOUCNES ITSELF A S POWE R.

COM M U N I CATION,

COM M U N ICATION LOVE, WORDS,

I S T H E T E R M I N A L PAY OFF. SEX, H A S TO B E TRADED,

EVERYT H I N G

EVERYTHI N G M A D E EXPLICIT IN ORDER TO ACQU I R E SOC I A L VA LUE, E M PT Y WORDS, THE U LTI M AT E

POTLATCH.

BY THE PRESENT W E I GHTLESSNESS OF SEX REVEALS , HOWEVER, IN A NAKED FOR M , LIKE THE BEACH

PUTTI N G

E V E R YO N E

IN

SITUATION

OF

D I SCOU R S E , I N A P O S I T I O N O F "I N T E R S U B J ECTI VITY," THE C U LTU R E MAKES SURE NO ONE CAN

AFTER A STO R M , W H A T UNDERLIES T H E PRESSURE EXERTED BY THE C U LT U R E ON S E X U A LITY, AS W E LL, A IN

ESCAPE THE ENVIABLE STATUS OF T H E NORMAL NEU ROTIC I N D I V I D U A L, TO B E A LON E R, A LOONY, A BACH ELOR M A CH I N E IS WORSE T H A N BEING DEAD: I T AMOUNTS TO BETR A Y I N G THE SOC I A L CONTRACT, SUCH IS THE MAGIC P R O P E RTY A TTA C H E D TO

PRESSURE

A PLLI E D

E L S EW H E R E FOR

OTH E R CONTEXTS A N D

S I M I LA R

P U RPOSES.

THIS PRESSURE I S SO BASIC, I T IS SO MUCH A PART OF THE PROCESS OF SOCIALIZATION ITSELF THAT WE M A Y HAVE A TENDENCY TO OVE R LOOK IT, O R ATTR I B UTE IT T O THE POWERS OF S PEECH, T H I S

COM M U N ICATION: THE

LAST SACRI FICE, THE

LAST

R I TUAL, THE E M PTY MANA O R HAU THAT FORCE US TO RETU R N THE VACANT CALL OF T H E C U LTURE, A N D BY T H E SAME TOK E N , E N D LESSLY, PAY OUR DEBT A S A FREE I N DI V I D U A L.

PRESSU R E H A S NOTH I NG T O DO W I T H SEX PROPER, A LTHOUGH IT HAS FOU N D IN SEX, A FTER TWO

CENTUR I ES O F CONTRA D I CTORY SIGNA LS, AND T H E MORE R ECENT PLAG U E OF POP U L A R F R E U D I A N I S M , A W E L L- P R E P A R E D COUCH, THIS PRESSU RE IN A YOU N G COUNTRY L I K E THE U,S .. T H E B A R E FACT OF SOC I A L CONTACT S U BSTITUTES FOR THE MORE DEEPLY ROOTED CONSTRAI NTS TH A T PREVA I L IN OTH ER C U LTURES. SO WE KEEP IN TOUCH, W E STAY AN I N D I V I DU A L, IN TH I S C U LTURE, I S SOMEONE W H O I S NEVER ALONE , O R S I LENT. H E H A S TO COMM U N I CATE A T ALL T I M ES, I N A L L SITUATIONS-WITH H I S N E I G H BO R , HIS LOVER, HIS T H E R A P I ST, HIS ON BY COM M U N ICATI NG VI RTU ALLY A N YTH I NG TO WE KEEP IN TOUCH E N DLESSLY A S WE

RESIDES RATH E R O N THE CONSTANT OBLIGATION TO COM M UNICATE ONESELF.

A N YONE.

K E E P THE TV ON A T A L L T I M E S W I THOUT PAYING MUCH ATTENTION TO T H E PROGRA M S , W E KEEP I N TOUCH DESPERATELY BECAUSE T H E CULTU RE H A S STA MPED ON O U R FLESH THE D R E A D O F REJ ECTION AND TH E C U R S E OF SOLITUDE.

FEELI NGS, H I S C A T, H I S P I L LOW, H I S OWN SELF. A N I N D I V I D U A L I S SOMEONE W H O I S A LWAYS PLUGGED ON TO TH E M A CH I N E; SOMEON E WHO I S A LWAYS ON.

COM M U N ICATION B UT THERE IS

DO ESN'T NOTH I NG

HAVE TOO

TO

BE

P R IVATE, TO BE

THE

MESSAGE THAT I S

B E I NG C O M M U N ICATED

P R I V ATE

(''TRUTH'), O R T H E STRUCTU R E OF C O M M U N ICATION ("SYMBOLIC EXC H A NGE"), ARE SECONDARY TO THE FACT THAT BLISHED, WHAT A COM M U N I CATION IS BEING ESTA IS

COM M U N ICATED: " N I C E G I R LS D O TALK A BOUT SEX OPENLY WITH THEIR M AT E S , " R EC O M M E N D S DR.

IRENE KASSORLA. AND JERRY RUBIN AGAIN: " M I N E IS THE FIRST BOOK TO ENCOURAGE MEN TO

A N D,

HOPEFULLY, M A I N T A I N E D. THIS J A KOBSON CALLS OF THE

ROMAN

PHATIC IS,

C O M M U N I C A T E T H E S E I N N E R M OST R E A C T I O N S , " LOVE R S DON'T MAKE LOVE, T H E Y C O M M U NICATE

F U NCT I O N ,

THIS

F U NCTION

CONTACT

OBVIOUSLY. THE DEGREE ZERO O F C U M M U N I CATION, BUT IT REMAINS AN ESSENTIAL FEATURE IN A

THROUGH SEX.

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PROCESS THAT IS A LWAYS TH REATE N E D TO B E INTERRUPT E D. I T I S A N ESSENTI A L CONDITION FOR ANY I N D I V I D U A L EXHANGE TO TA KE PLACE. IN T H I S R E SPECT, A LTHOUGH THE M ESSAGE CAN H E L P TO E X E M PL I F Y TH E M ESSAGE, PO W E R O F TH E M E D I U M T O C O M M U NICATE, Y E S , IT I S THE M E D I U M THAT I S T H E

CHARM

D O E S N ' T A BO L I S H T H E D I S T A N C E O F

C O M M U N ICATION, I T SOLI D I F I ES IT. I T EXACERBATES IT, I T GIVES I T ITS F I N A L FOR M BY ENGAGING IT IN A R I C H E R HALL OF M I R RORS. CONTACT DOESN'T N E E D T O B E S E X U A L. BUT I T C A N BE SEXUA LIZED, T U R N E D I NTO A C H A R M ,

WE DO N ' T C A L L T H A T SEX A N YMORE. WE C A L L IT: THAT'S WHY ASEXUA LITY M I SSES THE M A R K , IF I T E V E R ATTEM PT E D T O TAKE A I M , TO SUBSTITUTE ONE FORM OF COM M U N I CATION ( LOVE) FOR ANOTHE R (SEX) CHANGES V E R Y LITTLE A S LONG AS WE K E E P EXTE R M I NATI NG T H E M ESSAGE TO L E T THE M E D I U M R E IG N SUPR E M E, B E I NG SEXY HAS NOTH I N G TO DO W I TH BEING B E I NG S EXY,

S E X U A L, B E I NG S E X Y DOESN'T L E A D T O S E X , S E X I S DEEP AND DARK, SEXY M ERELY SKIMS THE S U R FACE. P R I M EVA L MONSTERS A R E NEVER TOO FA R OFF. BUT THEY A R E CONTA I NED. EXORC IZED. SEX IS COMPULSIVE OUR AND U N P R E D I C T A B L E : WE (YET), SEXY HAS NO DON'T C H OOS E G E N D E R ( Y E T ) , W E DON'T

C O M M U N I CATON

IS

A LW A Y S A

F U NCTION

OF

COMM A N D AN

E R ECTION

DISTANCE, IT A LWAYS R E I N FORCES TH E POLES A N D

GENDER. I T ISN'T EXPLICIT O R PHYSICAL L I K E S E X . I T I S A L L A LLUSION A N D S UGGESTION. I T I S A PROM I S E T H A T DOESN'T H AVE T O M ATER I ALIZE. S E X Y S I M PLY AROUSES I N T E R EST-A N DISTANCE I N T E R EST WE FROM SEX. KEEP ARE
I NTERPRETI N G S E X U ALLY, LIKE EVE RYTHI N G ELSE,

ROLES O F INTERSUBJECTI V I TY, TH E "DIA LECTICS" OF REPRESE NTATION, THE CLOSENESS OF SEXUAL CONTACT C O U L D T H R E A T E N T H I S DISTANCE, L I B E R A T E O U R S E LV E S F R O M O U R S E P A R A T E F L E S H , D I S E N GA G E TH E I N D I VI D U A L FROM TH E E N D LESS CONFLICTS WHERE HE ACCOMPLI S H E S H I M SELF AS I N D I V I D U A L, THATS W H Y COMM U NICA TION HAS TO B E STRICTLY E N FORCED A N D A SOCIAL FO R M OF CONTACT SU BSTITUTED TO THE SILENT E X P E R I E NC E OF S E X U A LITY,

BUT A T A S A F E

WE

"HAVI NG" SEX. O R WE T H I N K WE DO. BUT WE ARE, OR WE ARE NOT, SEXY.

S E X R E Q U I R E S AN T H E I N DI V I D U A L A

ACTION. S EX Y D E F I N E S TH E S PECI A L VALUE, SEX I S IS A " N A T U R A L"

ACTOR, IT IS A Q U A LI TY, AN ESSENCE THAT GIVES E XC H A N G E A B L E , B U T SEXY

TH E R E I S NO END TO SOC I A L THERAPY. TH E R E IS NO E N D TO TH E T A L K I NG C U R E, THERAPY HAS COME TO ADHERE SO C LO S E L Y TO SEXUA LITY AS T O LITERALLY TA K E I T S PLACE, THE MOVE FROM COUCH TO BED WAS EASY E NOUGH S I NCE SEX ITSELF HAS BECO M E A FUCKING CURE: I T WAS UNBEA R A B LE THA T A N YTH I NG, LET ALON E SEXUALITY, SHOULD RETAI N A N Y S H A DOW AT THE CORE, ANY ONCE OF SERENE MYSTERY, A N Y FESTIVE VIOLENCE, ANY SILENT INTENSITY, I NTENSITIES TDO HAVE TO BE COM M U N I CATED, ESPECIALLY B ECAUSE THEY K E E P EVAD I NG COM M U NICATION,

ATTR I B UTE, A GRACE. A N ELECTION, A USE VALUE.

WE

K NOW

N OW T H A T

USE VALUES

ARE THE

ROUSSE A U I ST M YTH O F MA RXIST EC ONOMY, USE VALUES ARE M E A N T TO G R O U N D E X C H A N G E I T WH ITE VALUES I N SOM E SORT O F NATURALN ESS. BEING
S E X Y I S T H E N A T U R A L I ZATION OF SEX.

WASHES S E X OF ITS CRUDE FU NCTIONA LITY. SEX REMAINS I N SUSPENSION, CASTING A D E E P SHADOW O N T H E S E X Y S U R F A C E , BUT T H E S U R FA C E I S TIGHTLY SEALED. SUGA RCOATED. M U M M I FIED.

SEXY I S T H E VACC I N E FOR SEX. I T I NTRODUCES IN TH E SOC I A L BODY T H E DEAD VIRUS

OF S E X TO

PRODUCE I M M U N ITY AGA I NST T H E SEXUAL TH REAT. INTERLUDE I T I NDUCES THE FORMATION OF ANTIBOD I E S MEANT TO B E I NTRODU C E D D I RECTLY I N TO TH E M A I N L I N E O F THE C U LT U R E . T H E FUNCTION OF THESE ANTIBODI ES I S TO N E U T R A LIZE T H E EFFECT O F SEX, TO ALLEVIATE TH E ANGUISH THAT GOES WITH IT. "NOT TO COMM UNICATE ONESELF; S I LENCE; BEWARING OF CHARM," TH E S E A N T I BOD I E S A R E , I N TH E I R REACTI V E PART, WHAT WE CALLED T H E N EW CELI BACY. THIS BRAND OF ASEXUA LITY C A N'T POSSIBLY B E TH E FUTURE O F
(THE WILL TO POWER)

S E X . I T I S M E R E L Y ITS COMPL E M E NT,

294

BEING

S EXY

FREES

US

FROM

THE

P R E S S U R E TO P E R FORMANCE

AN

E M I N E N TLY R E S PO N S I B L E ACT,

RESPO N S I B L E ,

P E R FORM ,

WITHOUT

RENOUNCING

S I N C E REPRE H ENSIBLE. THE PLEAS U R E OF T H E S I G N S ,

ALTOGETH ER. B E I NG S E X Y I S T H E D E G R E E ZERO OF P E R FORM A N C E : T H E PURE P E R FO R M A N C E O F T H E EGO, I T S E N D L E S S M I R ROR-PH A S E ,

AND THE G U I LT,

POU N D OF FLESH, P A I D T H E

P R I C E OF

M A STU RBATION WAS NOT O N LY H U M A N , I T W A S M A N B E I N G SEXY I S T O S E X WHAT T H E PHATIC FUNCTION I S TO TH E MODE L OF COM M U N I C ATION: COM M U N I CA TION I N ITS E M PTY FO R M , SEX A S A PURE, DI STANT, SOC I A L CONTACT, H I M SELF - T H E NOR M A L I ND I V I D U A L C A UG H T I N T H E NET O F S I G N S, ENTRAPPED IN THE STOCK S OF

R E P R E S E N T A T I O N S W H I C H , C E A S E L E S S LY E X TRACTED FROM H I M THE A D M I SS I O N O F H I S DEBT AND TH E TOK ENS OF HIS S U B M I SSION,

W H I LE I T OUTWAR DLY GIES, THE FIGHT

MOB I LIZED A L L T H E

ENER IN

A G A I N ST M A S T U R B A T I O N

R E A LITY K E PT EXORCIZING A MOR E U N AC C E PTABLE IDIOSEXES PERVERSION, A N E X PE R I M E NT WHOSE OUTC O M E IS SO SHATTE R I N G THAT IT DI DN'T EVEN B E N E F I T FROM THIS S U BT L E FO R M OF R E C OG N I T I O N T H AT IS

I NTERDICTION,

''TH E R E IS N O S U C H T H I N G AS AN IDIOLECT, AN I D I O L ECT IS A

P E R V E R S E FICTION," T H E SAV A G E H A S H I S ANTH ROPOLOGIST, THE J U N K Y

- ROMAN JAKOBSON

H I S CONN ECTION, THE SCHIZO H I S

PSYCH I ATRIST,

WHAT I S U PSETTI NG ABOUT TH E S E T R U LY SOLITA RY PERVERSIONS I S THAT THEY HARDLY PROJECT ANY S H ADOW. O R ELECIT A N Y ECHO S I N C E TH E Y DON'T SEEM I S TH E R E SUCH A T H I NG AS A SOC I A L S E X U A LITIES? ROMAN J A KOBSON WOULD V I GOROU S LY D E N Y TH E I R VERY EXISTENCE, EVEN M A ST U R B A T I O N , SO WHAT COULD WE CALL THESE UNHUMAN PRAC TO MAKE ANY ATTE M PT TO COM M U N ICATE

TH E I R E X P E R I ENCE, I T I S TH I S S I L E N C E THAT FOR US E PITOM I Z E S THE U N H U M A N IN M A N ,

OBSTI NATELY T R A C K E D DOWN B Y TH E DEFENDERS OF MORAL ORDER, N EV E R REFUSED TO COM M UN I CATE, BETW E E N TH E H A N D A N D TH E S E X TH E R E

TIC ES? DO W E HAVE A N A M E FOR SOM ETH I NG THAT

GOES WITHOUT SAYI N G ?

WE

WI LL CALL

TH E M :

S ETTLED A R I C H LAYE R O F S I G N S , A L L TH E WEIGHT OF REPRESENTATI ONS,

I DIOSEXES.

NOTH I N G E X I STS OUTS I D E HUMAN COM M U N I CATION. M A ST U R BATI O N W A S N'T AN A S OC I A L ACTIVITY ASSERT S ROMAN J A KOBSON, C E RTA I N LY WOU L D DISMISS L I K E I D IOLECTS. H E I DI O S E X E S AS "PER S I N C E I T R E M A I N E D C O S A M ENTALE, A M A N I PULA TION OF M E A N I N G A S M UC H AS A PHYSICAL ACT. IN NO WAY D I D SUCH A W I T H D R A WA L FROM SOCIETY IT GAVE IT ON THE

VERSE F ICTIONS," PERVERSE, THEY S U R E LY A R E , BUT ARE THEY

FICTIONS?

IN

TH E I R

S U B M E RG E D

I N T E R R U PT COM M U N ICATION,

E X I STENCE. THEY FU NCTION A S TH E OBSC U R E MYTH OF THE C U LT U R E -ITS UNATTA I N A B LE H O R I ZON,

CONTRARY A P E R FECT F I N I S H , M A S T U RBATION WAS H U NTED DOWN SO F E R OC I O U S LY BY BOURGEOIS

MORALITY S I M PLY B EC A U S E I T GAVE I T AN I DEAL S U R FACE OF I N T E R V E NTION. THANKS TO MASTUR BATION, FOUC A U LT IS C O R R ECT H E RE, S U R V E I L W E ONLY KNOW THE E X I STENCE O F IDIOSEXES BY THE TRACES THEY OCC A S IONALLY LEAVE B E H I N D , M EDICAL R E PORTS. POLICE FILES, MORGU E . WAX

LANCE M A N A G E D T O S I N K D E E P E R I N THE WEAVE OF THE S OC I A L FABRIC AND P E N ETRATE THE MOST

SECRET CORN E R S OF I ND I V I D U A L CONSCIOUSNESS, OR R A TH E R S T A M PE D ON THE I N D I V I D U A L' S

M U S E U M , ON LY ACC I DENTS O R DEATH M A NAGE TO RETURN TO SOC I ETY WHAT E S S E NT I A L L Y IS A

CONSCIOUSNESS T H E S E A L OF S E C R ECY.

DISCRETE,

OBSTI NATE.

I R R E M E D I A B LY S EC R E T

ACTIVITY-A V E R Y QU I ET K I N D O F M A D N E SS, A N D AGA I N ST ALL A P P E A R A N C ES, TO M ASTURBATE WAS THIS SOC I A LIZATION R E M A I N S D I S C R ETE AS WELL.

29 5

so D E E P IS OU R REVULSION WHEN CONFRONTED TO S E X U A L EXPERIENCES THAT NEVER WERE M EANT TO B E BROUGHT TO LIGHT. MICHEL D E MUZAN. TO START WITH. WAITED TEN Y E A R S B E FO R E H E P U B L I S H E D H I S D E SC R I PT I O N O F T H E SC A R R E D M A SO THAT ACCI D ENTALLY F E LL I N H I S H A N DS.

STROUS

M A C H I N E H ASTILY PUT TOG ETH E R .

AN

ENORMOUS DILDO M A D E WITH WIRE AND PAINTED COTTON W H I C H HE FASTENED TO A N U PTU R N E D STOOL. H I S MOUTH GAGGED BY A G A S M A S K , T H E B O D Y S U S P E N D E D T O A SYSTEM OF PULLEYS. B R I D E I N DRAG O F THE S O M B E R G U EST H E W A N T E D TO SEDUCE, PATI E NTLY. M ETHODICALLY. I N C H BY INCH. H E PUSHED U P HIS V I SCERA A DEADLY PLEASURE. A MOST MODEST. OBSC U R E . OBSTI NATE PRACTICE. ON WHICH TH E R E I S STRICTLY NOTHI N G TO SAY SINCE IT R E M A I NS, AT LEAST FOR US. BEYON D H U M A N RECOGN ITION.

01\ " MAY WONDER IF THE VIOLENT O R MORTU ARY

STATUS OF THESE TRACES DON'T A LTER DRAS TICA LLY THE C REPUSCULAR I MAGE WE H A V E OF IDIOSEXUALITIES. FOR ONE DEADLY EXPERI ENCE D E POS I T E D IN T H E A R C H I V E S O F C O L L E CT I V E M EMORY. H O W M A N Y R E M A I N U N K NOWN T O T H E M E DICO-LEGAL I N STITUTION? WHAT SEEMS PRETTY CLEAR THOUGH IS THAT THE F A T A L I T Y I S N'T TOTA LLY EXTERNAL TO THE I D IOSEX U A L'S EXPERI M ENT. I T REMAINS ITS U LTI MATE SANCTION. IF NOT ITS E X PLICIT GOAL.

CAN

WE

STI L L C A L L H U M A N WITHOUT A

SEXUA LITY THIS

EXPERIENCE

M I R ROR. O R A M I R AGE.

WITHOUT ANY I DENTITY TO BREAK APART. WHI LE O N E A FTE R THE OTH E R ALL TH E CATEGO R I E S OF S U B J ECTIVITY S I L ENTLY C R U M BLE DOWN? ONLY A FICTION, BU T A FICTION WITHOUT AN I M AGE, A N D WITHOUT A LANGUAGE COULD POSS I B LY EVOKE.

TH E R E I S A WORLD OF DIFFER ENCE BETWEEN THE FLOATING LI B I DO. THE DISEMBODIED SEXUA LITY OF THE SC H I ZO AND TH E TERMI N A L FI XATION OF THE I D I O S E X U A L O N AN E X I G U O U S , BUT E X A C T I N G . PRACTICE. BOTH BACH E LOR MACH I N ES. HOWEVER. DEA L WITH GRADI ENTS OF I N T E NSITY RATHER THAN THIS E X TE N S I V E R E P R E S E NTATION T H A T NOW PAS S E S FOR SEXUALITY. T H I S INTENSITY COULD EXPLAIN WHY ANY ATTE M PT TO ACCOUNT VERBA LLY OR E V E N VISUALLY FOR TH E S E EXPERI ENCES. THE TER ROR A N D FASC I N ATION THEY GENE RATE I N US. I M M E D I ATELY A FFECT I N DE PTH OU R VERY NOTION OF WHAT SOCI A LI ZATION I S ABOUT.

WITHOUT CANCELLI NG, THE RADICAL EXTRA N E ITY OF SUCH AN IDIOSEX U A L EXPERIENCE.

D R E A D OF SOLITUDE I S SO MUCH A PART O F T H E C U LTURE, I T SO G R E ATLY HA U NTS THE M I N D OF EVERY I N DI V I D U A L THAT T H E R E IS A L W A Y S S O M E O N E T O A C CO M P L I S H T H E D R E A D , A N D CON F I R M T H E C U RSE. THERE I S ALWAYS SOMEONE TO GO THROUGH THE SCR E E N . THE CONTROLL I N G SC R E E N OF PHANTASY, A N D FULFILL THE H O R R I F I E D F A SC I N AT I O N O F T H E C U LT U R E . I N T H I S

THE O B S E S S I O N A L F I N D S A PROT E C T I O N I N A HIGHLY RITUALIZED TERRITORY MEANT TO EXOR CIZE H I S ANGUISH. THE IDIOSEXUAL IS WAY BEYOND SUCH N E U ROTIC PROTOCOLS. HE DOESN'T ATTE M PT TO R E G ULATE H I S D E S I R E BY B R I NGING IT TO BEAR U PO N A DISPLACED AND C I R C UMSC R I BED OBJECT ( F ET I S H ) . ON THE CONTR A R Y , HE FOC U S E S H I S D ES I R E O N A S I NGLE POI NT I N ORDER TO REACH SUCH A PITCH OF I NTENSITY THAT IT EXPLODES ALL HUMAN COORD I N ATES. THE I DIOSEXUAL I S PAST A N Y
I N D I V I D UA L A N X I ETY S I M PL Y

R E SPECT, T H E LON E R , T H E LOONY, ALSO B E LONGS. HE PAYS H I S DUES TO SOCIETY IN TERMS OF H I S O W N DEATH-W I S H .

TO B E L O N G

OR T O D I E . A

MOST R E A S S U R I NG SO D I SCON

A LTE R N A T I V E

FO R

A C I V I L I ZATION

TENTED WITH ITSELF. T H E C U LTURE THUS M A K E S S U R E T H A T A N Y ATTEMPT T O SITUATE ONESELF OUTS I D E OF ITS REACH W I L L E N D U P CONF I R M I N G IN AN EXEMPLARY FASHION T H E V A L I D I TY OF ITS DREADFUL I N J U NCTION.

B ECA U S E

HE H A S

MANAGED T O I NTEGRATE I N H I S ITINERARY THE MORT A L D I ME NSION OF DESI R E .

A LAWYER B R E A K I N G THE SOCI A L CONTRACT, A MAN IT WASN'T E A S Y FOR THE M A N O F THE FORENSIC MUSEUM (BACK COVER). A LAWYE R, TO CLEAR U P I N H I S BUSY TIM E-TABLE A VACANT SPACE H E MAY HAVE KNOWN TO BE THE LAST. ONCE HIS FAMILY WAS S E NT TO FLORI DA . H E BOOKED A ROOM I N A HOT E L A N D LOCK E D H I M S E L F UP WITH A MONTHE LAWYER'S LAST G R I MACE STI LL A N SWERS TO THE SOC I A L G R I N O F THE I N DI V I DUAL. W E MAY NOT OF SPEECH WALLED IN A DEAD SILENCE: CAN THE C U LTU R E STI L L R EC OG NI Z E ITSELF LUGU BRIOUS PARODY? IN SUCH A

296

KNOW,

WE

MAY

NOT

WANT

TO

K N OW ,

BUT

TH E

"TH E GRIMACE AND CONTORTION OF A WOMAN'S FACE AT ORGASM . . . "

C U LTU R E K N OWS THAT T H E G R I N A N D T H E G R I MACE, T H E LONE R A N D T H E FACE. I N D I V I D U A L H A V E BUT O N E

SYLV E R E LOTRI N G E R
N E W YORK. MARCH

1 6, 1 98 1

NOTES

JACQUES L I ZOT, LE CERCLE D E S F E U X. ED. DU S E U I L, 1 97 6 .

THE N E W YORK TI M ES. FEBRUARY 9,

1 98 1 .

10 2
DON S H EWEY, " H U M A N S E X U A L R E S PONSE," THE
SOHO N EWS, J A N U A R Y

" FATH E R S

AND

SONS

TA LK

A BOUT GROW I N G

U P." T H E N E W YORK T I M ES. F E B R U A R Y 9 , 1 9 8 1 .

1 4,

1 98 1 .

II 3
A R TH U R B E L L , " A S E X U A L I TY , " T H E V I L L A G E 1 978,

CROWN P U B L I S H E R S ,

1 98 1 .

VOICE, J A N U A R Y 23,

12

CF, G I LLES D E LEUZE/FELIX GUATTA R I , "HOW TO MAKE O N E S E LF A BODY WITHOUT O R G A NS."

M A RTY

R U B I N , " LA M E N T FOR A

LOST LOVER,"

MAN DATE NO. 6.

13

SEMIOTEXTCEl SPECIAL. ISSUE ON "LOV I NG BOYS,"

SUMMER

1 980.

JOHN PRESTON, U N PUBLI S H E D I NT E R V I EW WITH S . L.

14

THE SOHO N E WS. NOVEMBER 5.

1 9BO,

R A C H E L E N G L I S H , M Y F I RST 500. DELL,

1 9 79.

JEAN

B A U D R I LLA R D, 1 980,

DE

LA

S E D U CT I O N .

GALILEE,

A RTH U R

B E LL,

OP.

CIT..

QUOTES

F R O M STIV

BATORS, STEVE R U B EL L, FRANK LANGELLA.

16

JEAN-FRANCOIS LYOTARD, "EXPE D I E N TS D A N S L A DECA D E N CE," I N RUDI M E NTS PArEN S , 1 0/ 1 8,

McGRAW H I LL, 1 9 80. QUOTES F R O M DR, JOYCE BROTH ERS, OR. ROLLO MAY, DR, HE. .. . EN S I NG E R KAPLAN, DR. RICHARD MAYEUX, HERBERT

U.G.E"

1 977.

I A M V E R Y G RATE F U L TO K A R E N HORNICK FOR H E R H E L P I N PREPA R I N G T H I S M A N USCRIPT

R I C H A RDSON,

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63. A GYMNAS I U M : TOWA R D THE M I DDLE PARALLEL B A R S EQU I PPED WITH LEATHER STRAPS.

64. THE CORPU LENT MAN AND THE SQUAT M A N DRAG R. TOW A R D TH E B A R S.

65. THE TWO M E N HOLD R. U PRIGHT. H E R A R M S STRETCH E D BETWEEN T H E P A R A LLEL BARS.

66. ROBERTE'S HANDS. W R I STS ATTACHED BY STRAPS TO VERTICAL B A R S.

67. THE SQU A T MAN. WITH SEVERAL SHORT MOVEMENTS. P U L LS OFF R:S S K I RT.

67 A.

ROBERTE'S LEGS. STAM PING H E R FEET STILL WEARI NG SHOES. ON T H E FLOOR R:S S K I RT A N D SLIP.

68. ROBERTE'S FACE. HEAD LOWER E D, WATCHING WHAT I S H APPEN I NG OUT OF TH E COR N E R OF H E R EYE.

68 A.

THE SQUAT MAN SEIZES ONE OF H E R FEET BY THE A N KLE. TIES IT UP B Y A LEAT H E R STRA P TO

THE BASE OF O N E OF TH E VERTICAL BARS.

68 B.

THE SQUAT MAN SHOWS ROBERTE A PICTURE OF HER F I N G E R-PRI NTS.

68 C.

THE CORPULENT M A N. SEEN FROM REAR. BENDI NG OVER ONE OF ROBERTE'S TI E D H A N DS .

69. (CLOSE UP) ROBE RTE'S H A ND. F I N G E R S FOLDED ON PALM. C LOS E D F I ST.

70. (CLOSE UP) THE H A N D OF THE COLOSSOS ON ROBERTE'S H A N D. BEGINS TO U NFOLD FINGERS.

7 1 . ROBERTE'S FACE. EYES O N THE CORPULENT MAN: EXPRESSION CHANGING FROM ASTONI S H M E N T TO I R R ITATION: FROWNS. LOWE R S EYES. PINCHED LI PS. (CLOSE U P)

72. ROBERTE'S H A N D. A LL FI NGERS UNFOLDED. H E LD BETW E E N BOTH H A N D S OF CORPULENT M A N . WHO SUCKS HER N A I LS . (CLOSE UP)

73. TH E PALM OF ROBERTE'S H A N D TOWARD WHICH THE COR P U L E N T M A N B R I NGS HIS MOUTH. (CLOSE UP)

74. THE CORPULENT M AN'S TONGU E ON ROBERTE'S PALM.

75. MOVEMENT OF ROBE RTE'S FREE LEG: RAISING KNEE, LEG OUTSTRETC H ED, FOOT TH ROWN FORWAR D AGAI NST T H E COR P U LENT MAN'S THIGH.

76. TH E CORPU LENT M A N'S TONGUE ON ROBERTE'S PALM.

77. R:S LEG. OUTSTRETC H E D FI RST, LI FTS.

77 B.

THE SQUAT M A N WATCH I NG R:S SEX OUT OF SHOT.

78. R:S RAISED K N E E MOVI NG TO COVER SEX WITH THIGH.

7 B B. ROBERTE'S FACE T U R N E D AWAY, HEAD THROWN BACK, EYES TOWA R D C E I L I NG, THEN LIDS LOWERED, LIPS HALF OPEN.

79. T H E CORPU LENT M A N'S TONGUE SLIDES OVER R:S PALM T H E N T H E COR P U L E N T M A N COLLA PSES.

29B

79 B.

THE SQUAT M A N LI FTS TH E COR P U L E NT M A N A N D TAKES H I M AWAY.

80. 81. 82. 83. 84. 85. 86.

ROBERTE SUSPENDED ON THE BARS.

TH E SQU AT M A N B EG I N S TO UNTIE ROBERTE. SLOW LY.

ROBERTE ON HER

FE ET. S K I RTLESS. H A I R S LIG HTLY D I S H EVELLED. FACES THE SQUAT M A N .

THE S Q U A T M A N P I C K S U P ROBERTE'S S K I RT FROM T H E FLOOR.

ROBE RTE P UTS ON HER SKIRT.

THE SQU AT M A N OFFERS ROBERTE A G LASS OF COG N AC .

ROBERTE S LA PS T H E SQUAT MAN.

B7. WITH A GESTU R E . T H E SQUAT M A N PULLS ROBERTE'S S K I RT OFF AGA I N . A N D PUTS HIS FOOT ON IT ON
TH E FLOOR.

88. 89. 90. 91. 92.

ROBERTE SLAPS THE SQUAT MAN AGA I N . WHO DOES NOT F L I N C H .

FADE OUT.

ROBERTE ON THE REGENCY CAFE TERRACE. EATING A CROISSA NT.

THE G Y M N AS I U M . P A R A L L E L BARS WITH LEATH ER STRA PS. FADE OUT.

TH E FO UNTA I N S ON T H E SQUARE OF THE TH EA TRE F R A N C A I S .

P I E R R E KLOSSOWSKI
TRANSLATI O N CAT H E R I N E DUNCAN

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HORSfXf HSAY ON TRANmXUAlITY

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LUSI TANIA A JOURNAL Of RHlfCTION AND OCfANOGRAPHY

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