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1.

SELF SEX

P I E R R E G U YOTAT

P. 14 BODY OF THE TEXT.

DA N I EL SLOATE

P. 21 I STRUGGLED WITH A DEMON

D E M E TR I U S ZA M B ACO

P. 22 CASE HISTORY.

2.

SOFT SEX

P I E R R E K LOSSOWSKI

P. 38 ROBERTE'S DIARY (CONTINUED)

ROG E R C A I LLOI S

P. 42 THE OCTOPUS IN JAPAN.

PA U L V E R LA I N E

P.415 ON THE BALCONY.

DU NCAN H . S M ITH

P. 46 MEMOIRS OF AN OCCUPATION

3.

ALIMENTARY SEX

J EA N POU I LLON

P. 154 TABLE MANNERS. BED MANNERS. LANGUAGE MANNERS.

P A U L V E R LA I N E/ARTH U R R I M B A U D

P.62 THE SONNET OF THE HOLE IN THE ASS.

T E R E N C E C. S E LLERS

P. 63 COPROPHAGY AND URINOLOGY

PAUL VERLAINE

P.66 A LITTLE SHIT
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4.

SEX OF THE GAZE

MICHEL BERNARD

P.68 THE MUTE NEGRESS.

A L A I N ROBBE-G R I LLET

P. 72 TEMPLE IN THE LOOKING GLASS.

5.

AMBIGUOUS SEX

FELIX G U A TT A R I

P. 8 0 I HAVE EVEN MET HAPPY TRAVELLOS.

DA N I E L SLOATE

P. 8 1 POLLY ORlAND PAUL.

JEAN FRANCOIS LYOTARD

P. 8 2 USE ME.

FELIX G U ATTARI

P. 8 6 BECOMING-WOMAN.

6.

A NIMAL SEX

F R E D E R I C ROSSI F

P.90 THE WILD CELEBRATION

CATH E R I N E D U N C A N

P.9S JOURNEYS OF A GENTLEWOMAN.

G I L L E S D E LEUZE/FELI X GUATTARI

P. 97 A BLOATED OEDIPUS.

B E R N A R D NOEL

P. 1 02 THE DOGS.

DA N I E L SLOATE

P.l06 TRUDY OR THE SECRET APHID.

7.

CHILO SEX

PETER WI LSON

P.I 08 THE SILVER PIPE CAFE.

TONY D U V E RT

P.l l 0 COUNTESS LULU

W I LLI A M B U RROUGHS

P. 1 1 9 THE POPLING

ROGE R MOODY

P. 1 215 THE COMMITTAL.

8.

MOR BID SEX

GEORGES BATAILLE

P.IS 6 THE CULPRIT.

. JACQU ES LACAN P. JACQU ES LAC A N P. 219 JOUISSANCE AND DIVISION.17!5 CHORUS FOR A PSALM. CHANTAL M A I L L ET/SYLV I E LEGER P. 172 ONCE I HAD A MASTER.167 POSTFACE: VIOLENCE AND POLYSEXUALITY. 1 972.14!5 MY LATE GRANDMOTHER.1!57 SAINT JACKIE.190 THE OEDIPUS COMPLEX. M I C H E L DE M ' U ZAN P.I!54 THE PARALLEL BARS. 1 1. P I E R R E B E N I CHOU P.E . 228 INQUIRY INTO FEMININITY. CORPORATE SEX JOHN PRESTON P.162 M." ROLA N D BARTH ES P. FRANCOIS P E RALDI P. COMEDIENNE AND TORTURER.20!5 VOCABULARY. • . D I SCUR S IVE SEX QUESTION N A I R E P. 202 DO YOU KNOW CORRECT TERMS FOR WHAT SOME MAY CALL "SEX PERVERSIONS. JASON K L E I N P. 208 SAINT ANN. M I C H E LE MONTR ELAY P. 18!5 LETTER TO JASON. 10.ANONYMOUS P. 9. JOHN P R E STON P. VIOLENT SEX PIERRE KLOSSOWSKI P.

ROLA N D B A R T H E S P... 270 FRONTIERS BROKEN SYLV E R E LOT R I N G E R P. 1 3. 249 DISCOURSE AND SEXUALITY: TOWARD THE TEXTURE OF EROS. 271 DEFUNKT SEX. ROBERT V A N R O D E N A LL E N P.236 FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOURSE.26!5 HOW TO MAKE YOURSELF A BODY WITHOUT ORGANS. M I ST E R M A RG U L I E S P. 242 MOVING GIRL. G I L L E S D E L E UZE/ F E L I X GUATTARI P. 260 TO DESTROY SEXUALITY . . 12. C R I TICAL SEX G U Y HOCQU E N G H E M P. PH I LOSOP H I CAL SEX PA U L V I R I LIO P.

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POLYSEXUALITY .

LET'S CALL IT A COLLAGE OR A TEXTUAL PATCH-WORK. POL YSEXUALITY IS A TEXT IN ITSELF. 'JOUISSANCE' CULMINATES IN DEATH: THE ULTIMATE SEX. BUT PERHAPS ALLUDED TO BY FREUD WHEN HE SUGGESTED THAT LIBIDO HAD NO GENDER. THE EDITORS OF WHICH ARE THE AUTHORS. IT TELLS WHAT THE REALITY OF SEX HAS ALWAYS BEEN WITH RESPECT TO ITS ALIENATION TO 'USURA' AND EXPLOITATION.POLYSEXUALITY IS NOT ONLY A SET OF TEXTS WRITTEN BY CAREFULLY CHOSEN AUTHORS AND ILLUSTRATING THE PLURAL ASPECTS OF SEXUALITY. . IF YOU PREFER. UNTHOUGHT OF. IT ALSO POINTS TOWARD THE 'REAL OF SEX' WHICH STILL LIES UNTOUCHED. IRREPRESSIBLE 'VOLONT E DE JOUISSANCE' LIBIDO: AN (WILL TO PLEASURE) NEVER PURE SINCE IT IS ALWAYS LINKED TO THE DEATH DRIVES TO THE POINT THAT FOR SOME RIGOROUS SEEKERS.

WE CALL IT TEXTUAL. HAVE BEEN PRESENTIFIED IN THIS TEXT BY IMAGES OF POLITICAL DISASTERS. MASSACRES. CONSTITUTE THE THIRD SIDE OF LIBIDO. BECAUSE LANGUAGES. WHICH CENTRIFICATE POLITICS. THIS WHOLE ISSUE IS NOTHING ELSE. IN OUR OPINION.' HAVE TO BE CONSIDERED AS IMAGES OF THE OTHER SIDE OF THE DEATH DRIVES. FRANCOIS PERALDI BOSTON. OF COURSE. FROM COVER TO COVER. THE DEATH DRIVES. BY KNOTTING THEM TOGETHER· AND MAKING THEM TANGIBLE.IF LIBIDO IS THE ALL ORGANIZING THESE FORCES OF ALL ACTIVITIES LEADING SEX TO 'JOUISSANCE. THAN THE TEXTUAL WORKING THROUGH OF THIS THESIS. AND DEATH DRIVE.' ACTIVITIES. INCLUDING WRITING ABOUT AND 'JOUISSANCE. THE THEORY OF CATASTROPHIES IS AT THE VERY CORE OF THE THEORY OF POLITICS AND IT HAS TO BE THOUGHT OF AS GIVING SHAPE TO THIS OTHER SIDE OF LIBIDO. CRIMES OF WAR: OUR DAILY LOT. 1 981 . MARCH 1 6. GENOCIDES. SYMBOLICALLY OR SEMIOTEXTUALLY SPEAKING.

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S E L F S E X .

ORGAS M-ALTHOUGH I COULDN'T H AVE N A M E D IT AT A TI M E IT DID TH E NOT YET LEAD TO EJACULATION­ TURD AND URINE. W I TH U N D E R PA NTS PUSHED AGAI NST THE THIGH. PRODUCER OF M A TT E R . AS U NOBTR U S I V E L Y AS POSSIBLE. BY D I SC O V E R ING AND PUTTI NG THE FARM COM I NG THE R E TO DE FECATE). NO USE E X P ECTI NG AS TH E N . J E R K I NG THE LITTLE S E X. TH ROUGH THE U N D ER PA NTS AT FIRST. THEN G R A D U ALLY. NOTEBOOKS IN H A N D-NOT FOR A STOCKTA KING OF PAST O R P R E S E N T JOTTINGS ON WHAT I AM ABOUT TO D E SC R I B E : THE R E LATIONSH I P IN BETW E E N ORDER TO I NTO PR ACTICE THIS M A STUR BATORY SYSTEM. A N D I . IT TOOK PLACE. A LTHOUGH I H A V E N E V E R EVER FELT THE LEAST E M B A R R A S S E D ON TH E CONTRARY. A TEXT THAT M I GHT OR BE W I TH E L D SEVERAL TI M E S A DAY. OR BY A HESITATION TO EXPRESS THE MOST VOCAL SOU N D I NGS OF THE M A STURBATORY TEXT). DRAWING T O M Y S E L F AS BODY. PERVADED.I . I WAS ACTI NG IN A VERY COHERENT WAY AS TO THE MASTERING OF M Y N E E DS AND WANTS: AS I SAW IT. REPEATED M A STUR BATION A N D WRITI NG-BUT SPEAK TEXT I N HAND A N D EXPOSED TO VI EW-. ORGA N I S M . THI S OPERATION S E E M E D TO ME IN NO WAY R E P R E H E N S I BLE. AT THAT AGE IT W A S D I FFICULT FOR ME TO PUT UP MY HAND MY A IN CLASS AND OV E R T H E H O L E (OUT OF WHICH R I S E T O PALPITAT­ ING MOUTH A N D NOST R I LS ALL THE OOORS OF THE S U M P A N D THE HERCY N I A N MOU NTA I N EA RTH ON WHICH THE SCHOOL I S B U I LT. SUGA R.H I D D E N I N T H E V E R Y H A U N T OF H U M A N A N D OFTEN A N I M A L DEJ ECTIONS (DOGS. MOST COMICA LLY. THE NEED TO MAKE MY FI RST DECLA R ATIONS ON T H E R E LATIONSH I P M A STURBA­ TION-WR I TING DATES FROM A ("LA NOUVELLE C RITIQU E"). A C CO R D I N G TO A KIND OF G A M E. ORANGE P E E L. ABOUT B E I N G S E E N AS BODY. FI LTE R E D BY THE F R A I L E R S M E L L OF S E M E N). FROM THAT TI M E ON I A LSO M A STURBATED M UCH LESS IN THE WC. IN O R D E R TO "PUT OFF" A DESI R E T O P I S S OR C R A P. CONDUCTING A D I A LOGU E BETW E E N 14 . CATS. U N D E R THE DESK: FIST TH RUST I N TO M Y POCKET !ITS SEAMS FULL OF C R U M BS. A L R E A D Y TH E N . I M PROVISED. ETC. ARSE DIST E N D E D THE AGE OF N I N E. BUT DICTATED.BODY OF THE TEXT THI S IS NOT WRITTEN. POLITICAL CONTEXT PL E A S U R E BECA M E P R A C T I S E D . N O N E TH E L E S S . SCREECH-OWLS FROM P U B L I C LY ATT E N T I O N MAKE KNOWN N EEDS. A I R E M E M B E R HA V I NG B E G U N TO MASTURBATE AT C H A L L E N G E TO MY OWN BODY. ORGANS.). M O NTH MORE BY MONTH AS THE D E SC R I B E D "SCHO L A R LY" "M A RG I N A L" (N ECESSARY TERMS AT AN EPOCH DETE R M I N E D BY POLITICAL E NGAG E M E NTS OF AN ADM I N I STRATIVE KI N D.

IT I S BECAUSE I A M MORE AND MORE CO NVI N C E D TH ROUGH HEARI NG OTH E R S M Y OWN E X P E R I ENCE AND TALK. SURE. OUT OF M Y POCKET. HOLI DAYS. I DON'T R E M E M ­ BER THAT D R A W I NG P E R I OD . SC IOUSLY ( A LTHOUGH W H E R E OTH E R S OF M Y K I N D ARE CONC E R N E D M A K I N G T H E MOST OF A V I S I T P A I D BY MY DOCTOR FATH E R IN THE VIC I N I TY OF T H E SCHOOL. TO GO DOWN TO C H A PEL. N OT I N F R EQ U E N TLY IN THESE N OT E S A PROCESS E M E R G E S (VERY PRODUCTI VE SUBCON­ SC IOUSL Y) IN CONTRADICTION WITH THE M ETHODS OF " D E C E N T" WRITI NG. MY R I G H T H A N D. THAT MOST OF THOSE RO UND M E W E R E DO I N G THE S A M E THING AT THE SAME TIME. A T OTH E R TI M ES.C. MASTUR BATION BY WITH OTH E R OF TH E BOYS. STUF F I N G I N TO M Y POC KET -CLASSROO M : I CONTI N U E MASTU RBATI NG WITH THE LEFT HAND. AND SUCH AS A M O M E NTS ARE P I N N AC L E S OF PLEA­ FOR T H I S THERE PROCESS A CC E L E R A T E S LEA DS. THE LEFT H A N D . F U NCTIONS AT F I RST ON T H E THRESHOLD OF TH E S U BCONSCIOUS. A COM M U N A L SEXUAL EXCITE M ENT PRODUCI NG LINKS THE US HOMO­ U NCON­ (NUMBER 49) OF WASH I NG . S U R EII AND AM TO PUT LAST OF FORC E D MY MY S U PPLY OF U N D E R ­ ( B U T W I T H WHAT PLEA­ OVER BARE SKIN. BECOM E TH E D R A MATI S P E R SONAE OF THE D U R I N G T H E HOLIDAYS M Y MOTH ER. THE E X P U LSION T H E R E ­ FORE OF A NOTH E R M A TT E R . WAS SURPRISED B Y MY DWI N D L I N G AND AFTER ACT-BOYS WITH WHOM I LOOK AT POR NOGRAPHIC MAGAZI N E S BROUGHT FROM THEIR HOME TOWNS. M A STU R B A TO R Y SOM ETI M ES. TO D A Y . I H I D E T H E M U N D E R A PILE OF STON ES. T E R M T I M E . AS EXC E PTIONALLY S E X U A L. M I TORY.D O R M I TO R Y.. BECAUSE IT S M ELLS AND WETS T H E CLOTHES. PHON ETISATION O F T H E USUAL SPEECH O F ONE OR THE R ELATION BETW E E N WRITING AND MASTU RBA­ TION A PPEARS FOR THE FI RST T I M E ROU N D THE AGE OF TEN O R E L E V E N . G E TT I N G OUT OF CONTROL. D I ST U R B I N G B E C A U S E H A LF WAY BETW E E N S H I T A N D U R I N E. A N D IN THE DOR­ ARE COLLEGE I NOW ATTE N D E D. I I M M E DI A T E LY WOR K E D OUT ANOTH E R SYSTE M-WHAT I D O N ' T R E M E M B E R ­ T O POSTPO N E T H E N E E D TO D E FECATE. WHERE N E I G H BO U R I N G BODI ES. THE N . PHYSICAL P EC U L I A RI T I E S . S H E C A M E W I T H M E T O LI FT T H E STONES ONE A FTER ANOTH E R A N D . T H E FI RST SETTI NG I S D I V I D E D THEM UNDER M ATTR ESS THEM INTO TWO: CLASSROOM A N D DOR M I TORY. AND STI L L AM. I CARRY T H E M OUTSI D E SCHOOL L I M I TS B E H I N D T H E T U M B L E DOWN W. THE RIGHT HAND D E V OT E D W H E N W E FALL I NTO L I N E AT 6 A. TO M A STU R BATE. TH E MASTUR­ BATOR. OR I CA N'T SAY AT WHAT TH E POI N T ("DEC E NT" O R G I A STIC T E XT?) MASTUR­ B A TO R Y A C T BEGAN T O PREDOM I N ATE. CLOTH I NG. BOOKS. PUTS A STOP ONCE AND FOR A LL TO R E SORTING TO . I L LU M I NATED TITLES) A N D THIS GESTU R E B R I N G S MY H A N D.ESTI MATED) OF THI S TRA N S F E R . B E C A U S E M Y U N D E R PA N TS R E LATION S H I P TWO MAIN WRITI NG/MASTURBATION SETTI N G S : ONE IS TH E BEAR T H E M A R K S (SOM EWHAT OVER. A CON V U L­ SIVE SERIES OF O R G I A STIC NOTES K NOW N AS ON EVACUATE TH E PA NTS. SUCC E S S I V E H E R E. TO A DRAMATISATION O F THE PRACTICE. IT H A PP E N S AT MOM E NTS OF PANIC THAT QUITE U N I N T E N TIONA LLY I H E NCEFORTH TO W R I T I N G -SOM ETI M E S A "DECENT' TEXT ( PO E M S ) COP I E D A FTERWARDS ON TO L U X U R Y SHEETS OF D R A W I N G PAPER A N D PUT TOGETH ER I N A L B U M S OR "BOOKS". WHEREAS LATE R.: T H E R E . WHO DIED I N AUGUST PAC KET '158. R E C U P E R­ ATE AND PUT BACK I N TO C I R C U LATION THAT I WAS THEN. I STA RT TO DRAW (WOM E N WITH H A LOS. ETC. A N D WHICH. CLOSE D F O R THE S U M M E R . ORGASM AND D E F ECATION TOOK PLACE S I M U LTAN EOUSLY. THEN. WITH TH E I R OWN N A M ES. OF PANTS ON ORGIASTIC W R I T I N GS. ORGASMS I N DU C E D LECH E ROUS R E VE R I E . BASED ON THEIR SEXUAL BREAT H I N G Q U I C K E N E D BY TH E SIGHT OF THE POR N P H OTOS. U NKNOWN TO MY FATH E R WHO D I E D I N NOV E M B E R ' 7 1 . IT IS ONLY WHEN I BEGIN TO WRITE THAT THE AND SLITH E R O F TH E T U R D A N D THAT O F T H E ORGASM. SCRIBBLED S U B M I TT I N G TO THIS A D D I T I ON A L STRA I N PI ECES OF R U LE D PAPER TO R N F R O M EXERCISE DRESSI N G A N D U N D R E S S I N G I N P U B L I C U N TI L I CAN R E C U P E R ATE A P A I R FROM UNDER TH E STON ES. I S I NTRODU C E D A N I M POR- ORGASM AS AN A NTI-DEFECATOR. N A M E LY: A WRITTEN I M PORTANT P A R T OF M Y WA R D ROBE. CONSCI O U S OF M Y S E X U A L S U P E R IORITY BEC A U S E I CAN WRITE WHAT IS VOCALLY I M M I NENT BETW E E N US). ON T H E EDGE OF DREAM. M O R E A N D M O R E E X P E RT. I R E F U S E TO G I V E T H E M TO T H E LAUNDRY H I DE OR T H E SC HOOL MY LA U N D R E S S E S . BETWE E N T H E MORE A S S I D UOUSLY. DURING WHICH I PRACTI S E D MORE AND A N D S PECIALLY PA I N T I N G 115 . R E S U LT. W R I TT E N .THE A RSE-HOLE AND THE SEX. I NTO WHAT I S A FTE R ALL A VERY ORDI N A R Y SITUATION. A S E R ECTION A N D D I SC H A R G E I NC R E ASE I N CAPACITY.M. BEG I N S TO TA K E OVER. T H I S COI N C I DE S WITH TH E FI RST E J A C U LATI ON. BUT I F I A M PERS U A D E D T H A T NOBODY E V E R S A W M E MASTUR8ATE IN C LASS. THE OTH E R HOME. LAY I N G SIEGE TO ME FOR S E V E R A L DAYS F I N I S H E D 8Y REDUCING OF HER WHY "WE E P I N G AND C H I L D" TO AN R E LATION S H I P W H I C H A D M ISSION W H E R E A BO U T S : A N D.

OR WALKING IN M Y S L E E P B R A N D I S H I N G I T . ACCOM P A N I E D TAN EOUS C H A N G E IN ORGIASTIC TEXT: WITH P I M P'S THESE TWO HOM E LY AND HOLIDAY SETTING ALLOW MORE F R EEDOM FOR E LABORATE DRAMATISATION. COST U M E REMOVED. I WAS A F" R A I D OF F A L L I N G A S L E E P BEFORE H I D I N G I T . I S P ROG R E S S I V E LY DISTI N G U I S H E D B Y TH E N E E D TO D I SPOSE OF THE COSTU M E A N D W I P E TH E ORGANS I N VOLVED B E FO R E GOI NG TO SLEEP. ORIG I N A LLY I T WAS M A D E U P OF TWO E L E M ENTS: A K I N D OF J OC K-STR A P FAS H I O N E D F"ROM RAGS. W A S R E LATI VELY P R I V I LEGED. FOR EXAMPLE. P I M P. T H AT W E SHOULD COST U M E P I M P'S TA L K O R VICE VERSA. MY MOTH E R A N D H E R M A I D I N T H E W A Y T H E Y DRESSED): THIS S H O U L D B E S E E N A S A D R A M ATIC D E S I R E OF M Y EFFAC E M E N T A S T H E BOURGEOIS BODY: K N E A D I N G B Y BOU RGEOIS H A N D O F BOU RGEOIS SEX TH ROUGH PROLETA R I A N TISSUE. I N EVITABLE I N THE ATMOS P H E R E OF C U L T U R A L V I S C E R A LITY PRACTI C E ? U NLESS. TH E RUSTLE O F" W R I G G L I N G O U T OF" T H E COSTU M E W I T H THE RUSTLE OF THE P R I E ST'S CASSOCK A G A I NST TH E C U RTA I N D U R I N G O N E OF H I S ROU N D S OF I N SPECTION ( S I N C E MY S E SS I O N A L W A Y S T O O K PLACE B E FO R E HE -TH E JOCK·STRAP: A M ET I C U LOUS SEARCH FOR IN C U PBOA R D S . I BEC A M E MORE AND MORE SKILLFUL IN M A K I NG THEM COI N C I D E WITH O N E O F TH E PRE DICTABLE SOU N D S I N T H E DOR M I TORY-FOR E X A M PLE. C H O I C E DETE R M I N E D ALSO BY A CLOTH C A PA B L E OF A C R A D L I N G O R LEC H E ROUS C U R B I N G OF TH E PARTS ( R USTIC WITHOUT RIGI DITY. PREVENTED M Y S L E E P I N G BODY FROM M A K I NG A BAWDY STROLL BETW E E N BEDS AND BOD I E S . BY LEAVING TH E DOO R S ON TH E ATTIC AND CLEAN END USED FOR W I P I N G BALLS AND P E N I S I N THE P R OC E SS. IT WAS S L I D U N DER THE MATTRESS. A N D I COULD.TANT MATER I A L E L E M E N T : T H E M A S T U R B ATO R Y LITTLE LESS AT N IGHT ( M Y ROOM U N D E R T H E EAVES AT SOME DI STA N C E F ROM TH E PARE NTAL BED­ COSTUME. WITH BAWD'S COST U M E BAWDY TALK O R VICE V E RSA-. M UST BE R E MOVED. A N D A CLOTH L A I D U N D E R TH E C E NTRE O F OPERATIONS (OBV I O U S LY AT COLLEGE IT SERVED TO PROTECT THE S H E ET FROM STA I NS. OR A S U DDEN SHOWER) W H I C H SERVED AS DAMPER OR M UFFLER FOR MY TH E DETE R M I N E D BY T H E PIECE POSSIBI LITY O F SOM E O N E DISCOV E R I NG A M I SS I N G O R TO R N F R O M A LE NGTH OF M ATERIAL. IT IS AT TH I S POI N T THE N . M A S T U R B AT I O N AND F E A R . SO THAT I SWITC H E D F ROM OBVIOUSLY BY BAWD TO A S I M U L­ D ECORS: BED ROOM A N D "NATU R E". BOT H DESC R I B E T H E M A STU R BATORY COST U M E . A T WHICH POI N T THE T E X T T U R N S I NTO A G E N E R A L C H I LD'S ROOM IS O P E N BY DAY TO ITS MOTH E R . IN OTH E R WORDS. ONCE T H E SESSION I S B ROUGHT TO A N END BY LACK OF J U I C E . NOT AT COLLEGE THAT I M A D E I T : I N MY B E D ROOM COST U M E S O N E ON TOP OF TH E OTH E R . P A L M A N D F I N G E R S AND U S U A LLY A T NIGHT. A H A N D DRAWING IT UP A LONG THE BODY WEIGHTED WITH WARMTH AND TH E 1 91515. TH I S S E E M S T O M E T H E R E W A S STI L L A CONSI DERABLE DIFFERENCE BETWE EN. CHOICE ETC. W H E N I T LATEST ODORS. BUT N E V E R T O TH E POI N T W H E R E H A N D . FROM BETW E E N THE THIGHS. THE SECOND S ET T I N G A L SO COM P R I S E S TWO C H A N G E OF COSTUM E TOOK PLACE BETW E E N TWO ORGASMS. BUT I N F U NCTION O F ITS SOC I A L R E F E R E N C E (CHOICE O F A PROLETA R I A N CLOTH AT A TI M E. ACCORD I N G TO W H ETH E R I WAS IN TH E MOOD TO B E PI M P O R BAWD­ AND O FT E N IN THE COURSE OF A SESSION A PROFOU N D PROSTlTU­ TION A L D R I V E TO W H I C H I WAS PREY AT THE TI M E . ORIGI N A L LY M E RGED WITH S L E E P A N D D R E A M . SHOULD THIS BE S E E N AS AN E A R LY MARK OF CON F I D E N C E IN MY U NCONSCIOUS BODY. FOR E STALL A N Y I M PORTUNATE V I SITS FROM M Y FATH E R IF CALLED ON A N U RG E N T VISIT D U R I NG TH E N I GH T ) . SPERM AND ALL. OR ELSE. AND A L SO B E C A U S E OF ITS LEC H E ROUS E FFECT O N T H E BODY: N E V E R F O R I T S A E STHETIC EFFECTS. LET U S SAY. O N C E TH E BECA U S E OF ITS SOFTN ESS. M A TE R I A L . IN THE POW E R O F CONTROL (NOT OF SE LF­ EFFAC E M ENT AT THAT PARTICULAR EPOCH) OF OR G U I LT F E E L I NGS. MARKING BETWE E N N E SS. FOR I T WAS AT HOM E . CONSC I O U S N ESS ALL U NCONSCIOUS­ HAD TO BE BECAUSE O P E RATIONS C A R R I E D OUT A S S I L E NTLY A S POSSI BLE. W H I C H . SINCE A C E A S E T O F E E L T H E E X A C T OUTL I N E OF M Y SEX. A N D D I VERTED ATTENTION FROM THE HEAVING OF SHEET AND B L A N K E T. EVOL V E D OR AND T E R IO R A T E D ACCOR D I N G TO TI M E PLAC E. A 16 . IN THIS WAY A MATERIA L AND BOU N D A R Y THROUGH VARIOUS STAG E S . L U M B E R . G E N T L E IN ITS T H R EADBA R E G I V E . TH E ACT OF STA I RC A S E OPEN. TOO VAG U E TO R E C A L L. AS I SUFFERED FROM SOM N A M B U L I S M AT THE TI M E . BREATHING. IF UNDECIDED AS TO SOC I A L POSTU R E . BUT IN MY B E D ROOM IT WAS OFTE N S U P E R FLUOUS AS THE SESSION OFTEN TOOK PLACE NAKED AND I N T H E RAW O N THE TILES OF T H E B E D ROO M FLOOR. T H E COSTU M E WENT DE­ M A STURBATION . ITS ROO M . THE PRODUC E D BY TH E EJ A C ULATION PROD U C I N G A B L E N D I N G OF ONE A N D TH E OTH E R M E M B E R W I T H TH E D Y E A N D W O R N A N D FADING FIBRE IN A S E R I ES OF I NC R E A S I N G L Y V I O L E N T ORGAS MS. N E V E R PREVENTED THE D A I LY SESSION. THE RETI R E D TO H I S A LCOVE F O R TH E N I GHT)-QR W I T H U N P R E D I CTABLE SO U N D S (OUTS I DE.R OO M . A SUCCESSION OF DOGS BA R K I NG.

U N D E R NOTES M IGHT OF R E SO L U T I O N S BECA U S E TH E I R FOR M U LATION: 17 . T H E E F FORTS M A D E -THE CLOTH : NOTH I N G TO SAY A BOUT TH I S E XC E PT TO NOTE THAT TH E DOM I N ATING COLOR WAS R ED. B A R E . M Y I D E A B E I N G THAT IN CASE OF A S E A RCH THEY M IGHT AT F I RST G LA N C E BE M I STA K E N FOR A IN THE NOTES I R E F E R R E D TO E A R L I E R ( N U M B E R E D ACCORDI NG T O A H A B I T I STI LL RETA I N A N D W H ICH CAN LEAD TO A WHOLE DAY'S SEARCH FOR A N IDEA -NATU R E : D U R I NG TH E DAY WHEN MY BED­ TO BE TRAC ED THROUGH AND THE S UC C E S S I O N NOTED OF TH E SO BANDAG E . NO S P EC I A L DRAMA­ TISATION D U R I NG T H E S E SESSIONS. WHAT BE EMOTIONAL. WESTERN A U STER I TY W H I C H . TH E ROUGH NOT COSTU M E . TA KIN G T H E C U R R E NT N O T E S OUT OF MY C L A M M Y POC K E T AND R E ST I N G TH E M ON ONE OF THE TEA R I NG UNDER T H E STR A I N OF T H E LACE S DURING MASTURBATION BO R D E L AND C O U LD. NECK N A P E OF TH E P U SH I NG ON ALL MY CERVICAL WRITING. IT. ACCO R D I N G T O TH E C A PACITY OF E RECTION A T A GIVEN PERIOD: THE PERIOD OF A DOLESC E NC E S E E K I NG T H E S E M I N A L H A LO D I S P E R S E D B Y THE SEXUAL SADDLE.WO R K . OR AGAIN. E M ERGES TERM E D IN POLITICAL. TH E SEXUAL. A ST R ETC H O UT. ARE SO . R E C E I V E D. A N D TH E R E. THE ATT R A CTS BUTTOCKS. T H E R E . A K I N D OF SC R E E N WHE R E THE J ET. EXPULSING AND FROM ITS BODY AND C R EV I C E S ) MORE BATH I N G IN O R G I A ST I C "COS M I C A LLY" ITS S PA R E R S H A D E STRON G E R ODOR: SINCE TH EN. I SET OUT FO R THE H I G HEST POS S I B L E PO I N TS IN THE M O U N TA I N S FORC I N G IT DOWN SO TH E C LOTH COULD BE LACE D ROU N D MY LOI N S : THE SOU N D OF THE HOLES WHICH I KNOW A R E R A R E LY FREQU E NTED. BY A S U D D E N P A N I C B E FO R E T H E I N SOLUBI LITY OF MY SOCIAL CONTRADICTIONS AND THE I R RE D UC­ MUCH TO T H E WORK OF WRITING (WH I C H F U N CTIONS WITH EVEN G R EA T E R I NTENSITY D U R I NG THIS SC I ENTI FIC S E A RC H FOR T H E LOST " I D EA" A N D ITS PLACE. AROUND WHICH I THE HOURS OF A B A N DON BY LETTI N G TH E SAPS SOFTEN A N D R E A N I MATE THE DRY S P E R M STUC K TO TH E THROUGH T H R E A D E D COA RSE PACK I N G STR I NG. A C L A N D E S T I N E M O I ST ITS TH E T H E COST U M E S S I TT I N G N A K E D ON TH E E D G E OF M Y BED: I C U T TH E W I TH C LOTH A HEM BY AS G U E S S . ROD BENT TO TH E STRA I N I N G WITH C LO T H . I TOOK TO COLL E G E WITH ME THE MOST E LE M E NTARY M A TE R I A LS !THAT I S TO SAY. SU BSTA N C E SO T O R E WO R K I N G IT LOOK MORE R E M I N I SC E N T OF A SIDES I PO K E D N E UTRALI S E D D U R I N G TWE NTY-FOU R HO U S E. IN SPITE OF TH E F A SC I N A T I O N OF M YT H . RooM'S L A C K OF SECU RITY P R E V E NTED M E FROM SATI SFYI N G A DESI R E ACC E N T U A T E D BY THE " I DEAS" N I GHT NUMBERED M ENTALLY A BEFORE) TH U S PUTTI NG STOP-NOT S U D D E N R E SOLUTION OF A PROBLE M O F WRITING WHICH H A D BEEN TROUBLING M E FOR SOME TI M E (ATTE M PTS AT A N E W SYNTAX). SEXUAL D E L I B E RA T E L Y A LLO W I N G TH E TO "NOR M A L I S E" SPEAK. LACE D A R O U N D THE LOI N S A N D DOWN THE CLEFT OF TH E A R S E . AND E V E RYTH I N G THAT I N LA N DSC A P E AND W R I T I N G A P PEA R E D AS IN THE FULL LIGHT OF DAY-LATE R S UBSTITUTED BY A P I N E TREE (TH E TRUNK BOTH D R Y E R . B Y R E F E R E N C E TO T H E OF TH E COST U M E'S SATCHELS FROM T H E B I K E. OR T H E TRANSC R I P­ TION OF A SOCIO-BO R D ELLO I N T U ITION. ITS STRI KES TH E STU F F NAPE OF MY N EC K AGA I N ST A T R E E T R U N K : A F I R TO BEGIN WITH. IT REMARKED THAT THE ME MOST IN TH E MALE PA RT W H I C H BODY. MADE ME R E J ECT GREEK H I STORY. TH E LIGHTEST OF COSTU M E S AND THOSE THAT TO REACH THROUGH THROUGH SUCCESSIVE V E R TE B R A� TH E ORGASM R E P E RC U T I N G N E R V E� M USCLES. S O TO BY P U L L I N G MY FIST THE TH R E AT DESTRUCTION. W A R M E R. I D E N U D E . R E S I N O U S. U N DO I N G MY FLY A N D WRIGG L I N G MY H I PS SO T H E S H O R T S S L I P D O W N M Y LEGS OF TH E I R O W N ACCORD. V E R T E B R A E. TH E C L A N DESTI N E COSTU M E THE OFFIC I A L U N D E RPANTS ASI DE. S P U RT I N G FROM T H E R I G I D VOI D. O N S E LECTED F O R I T S G E N E RA L H U M I DITY.S E M E N THE MORE DECORATED SHOULD BE FOR M E R SPERM. TEXT U R E SPONGY. I SAT WITH A HARD ON. S O F A R AS T H A T P A R T OF M Y O W N BODY WAS CON C E R N ED. THAT W H AT TlBLE I NC A PA C ITY OF THOSE CLOSE TO ME TO H ELP M E U N D E RSTA N D TH E M EXCEPT BY T R E ATING TH E M W I T H STRICTLY E MOTIO N A L R E S PECT. TRAGE DY. HANG OVER LEAST R E S E M B L E D FACTORY-MADE U N D ERPA NTS. M I C ROSCOPIC SC R A P OF C LOTH OVER THE FRONT ON LY. "OPEN"'. GROU N D MASS THEN D U R I NG ITS RIDE ON THE B I K E'S W H E N I H A D M Y BIGGEST E RECTIONS CORRESPONDS WITH A COST U M E R E D U C E D TO ITS M I N I M UM. SYM BOL FOR ME AT THAT M O M E N T OF A ROMANTIC. IN TH E N M E NTAL FLUX)-BUT TO MY "ADH E R A NC E" TO T H E A M BI E NT R E A L I T Y. CLOTH. TH E SIZE OF THE C O ST U M E VA R I E S A LSO. PRECI PITATE ORGASM EVEN AT THE EXPENSE OF A TEXT R I C H IN LECH E ROUS PROMI S E . I DON. HERE. T H E N TA K I NG MY B I K E .A POSTROPHI S I NG OF MY BODY). ON T H E N A R ROW M E DI A N OF CLOTH THUS P R E P A R E D. U S U A LLY I M A D E THE OFFICIAL U N D E R PA NTS. A LSO LOST. MASS WARM BOTH E R I N G MADE EDGES BAWDY HOLES STRA N G E N E S S . SPEAK.A R S E D .

EVEN "D E S P A I R" O R G I A STIC AND OF OF DISGUISE I NTO A LYING N A K E D . ONLY LATER A N D ON R A R E OCCA S I ONS. "TOMORROW NIGHT. M AC H I N E AND M I C ROPHON E SET U P BETW E E N T H E KNEES TO TApE TH E M A ST U R BATORY S E S S ION. INVENTION AND FA B R I CATION OF I MAGINARY M A C H I N ES. "TONIGHT. SOMETIMES STRING. BOTH T H E AND THE POST O R GIA STIC ENE R G I ES. D U R I NG T H E DAY ANO NIGHT P R ECEDING THE N E XT ORGASM. A RECOR D I NG USED A FT E R W A R D S B U T TO NOT ONLY AS A D D I TIONA L STI M U LA NT. STI LL SO F R A I L AND UNRECOGN I S E D . OR S O M E M ECHANICA L PROB L E M ( R E PA I R S TO THE B I K E ." D E S TI N E W H EN I I C O U L D P U T O N O N E OF W E A R I NG IT TILL C O ST U M E S. AND POLITICAL FORM: IT A LSO. PERHAPS THIS SYSTEM OF CONCENTRA T I N G ON SOUNDS PRODUCED R I GH T IN FRONT O F T H E MICROP H O N E. GAVE ME AN A LMOST pER FECT SATISFACTION. TH E FI RST ORGASM (THOSE DESTROY E D THAT TH E W A S C O M M E RCIA L M U S I C USED (GENRE POP SINGER AND ANGLO-SAXON POP. AT THE END OF EACH M A STU R B A TO R Y C L O S E S T T O M Y H E E LS. THE SO THAT THE M USIC. W R ITING U NT I L THE SWEAT OF HEEL AND TOES M I STS UP THE M I R RO R. ETC . ROLLED UP W I TH T H E COST U M E IN A IN THE CLOTH AND H IDDEN. M A Y RETURN TO THE BODY F ROM WHICH IT COMES. A G A I N ST THE BOTTOM B A R S OF THE B E D. ETC. LATER. LOINS. FOR A GI N G TH ROUGH H E A PS OF RAGS A N D PILES O F BROKEN F U RNIT U R E WITHO U T HAVING GIVEN ME FAIR W A R N I NG . ONCE T H E RELATI V E pA RTS HAD BEEN WIPED. C I RC U M SC RIBING MY VIRILE ATTRIB UTES. BY M USCULAR TH E FATIGUE. NEXT MORNING. I N A L L INNOCENCE. STILL BIG ENOUG H A FOR E ­ A LWAYS D I FF E R ENT C R A NNY OF T H E ATTIC CONT E M P LATE MYSELF-IN W H E R E . "LET THE S P E R M R U N DOWN MY LEGS" '''TREAD IN IT ON TH E T I L E S" / " E A T THE S P E R M " . AND FO R Q U A RT E R OF A N H O U R A FTERWARDS IN A POST-ORGIASTIC STUPOR. WITH ORGA N S. P L A S T E R COST U M E" / "TI GHTEN T H E COSTUME" . THIS M A ST U R BATO R Y W R I TING. IF POSS I BLE. NA M E LY THE SPLASH O F SpE R M A S IT HIT T H E COST U M E . H A D DECIDED TO MASTUR BATE: TO W A L K M Y D I S A RRAY AT T H A T T I M E STEM MED FROM T H E CONT R A D I CTORY D R I V E S T O B E BOTH S E E N AND S E E. I THINK.E N D S P E A K. C LOTH SUCH PLACES. S M E A R S P E R M ON M Y MOUTH" . A TAPE ROLL F E L L INTO M Y MOTH E R'S H ANDS. H E A D SWE ATING. . TIE TH E COSTU M E ROUND M Y NECK" . PUTS IT SOM EWH E R E WHICH TAKES lB . AND W R I TING WITH TH E OTH E R ? "SOLITU DE. LIKE A FROSTY ECHO OF T H E O R G I A STIC C I R C U I T. SOCIA L NAL SOU N DS FROM T H E VILLAGE. IN WINTE R . P U NCTUATE T H E M U SIC O F M A STU R B A T I ON. AND THESE D R I V E S WERE PA RTLY R E FLECT E D IN THE APPA RATUS PANTS. W A S P R O P P E D A P I E C E OF FA M I LY M I R RO R (ONCE PART OF THE B E D ROOM SESSION. TENDONS TAUT A G A I NST T H E TILES. M USCLES. EYES STA R I NG TILL ECLI PSED BY THE ORGASM. PENED T H A T. FI CTITIOU S L I STS OF RECORDS TO BUY. WHAT MORE TH E R E B R UT A L L Y BE THAN E X C I T I NG S P ECT A C L E C O U L D A C H I LD M A S T U R B A T I NG IN D U R I NG THOSE S A M E W I NT E R HOLIDAYS. A C Q U I RING TYPICA L OF M A SS O F O R G A NS. PROVIDED A SOLI D CORPOR E A L BASIS FOR M Y W R ITING. N E U T R A L I SING D I U RNAL A N D NOCTUR­ TH E N TA K I NG TEXTUAL.E R ("S E E R"). PARTIC U L A R L Y I F T O TH E COST U M E UNDER THE OFFI CIA L UNDER­ BOU G H T. T H E TOWN. WHO. NOT H I NG TH I S IN E X A LT E D MY R E SO L U T I O N S U B S I ST E D E Y E S E X C E PT A L U D ICROUSLY T R U NCATED SCENA RIO: B U T ON REFLECTION. ETC" THE VOICES HIG H L Y CHARGED S E X U ALLY) TO WH I P UP F L A G G I NG IMAGINARY EDIFICE FOLLOW E D I M M E D I ATELY S E RVED T O PROLONG T H E TEXT A S FA R A S POS S I B L E A N D A T T H E SAME T I M E EFFACE. THANKS TO MY " P L U S-FO U RS" AND ON DAYS OF E XT R E M E M Y CLAN­ E V E N I NG COST U M E WITH H I S LEFT H AND. F U C K E R A N D FUCKED.). USE THE RECORDER IS A D D E D T O THIS V I S U A L D I S POSITION. AND P R E P A R E D THE LONGEST POSS IBLE SCENA RIO: NOW. MIRROR W H E R E M Y P A R ENTS COULD CONTE MpLATE T H E M S E LVES FO R ME TO FULL LENGTH ) ."TON I G H T. THE SESSION TAKES PLACE B E H IN D C LO S E D R E SOLUTIONS CAN B E S E EN A S THE BEG I NNINGS O F A DRAMATISATI ON WINDOWS. BUYER AND R O U N D TH U S GI RDED IN THE F A M I L Y CIRCLE. W H EN M A STUR BATING ON TH E BED. BUTTOCKS. RELAPSE SA V I NG MYSTI C I S M I . N E R V E S FROZEN STI F F I N TH E I R R E LA XATION. T H E S E SCRIB B L E D NOTES WE RE. TIGHT ROUND ORGANS. THE N E E D IS SO GREAT THAT ME EVEN T H E FROM A W F U L COLD DOES NOT P R E V ENT M A ST U RBATING NU DE. SO TO E M PLOYED D U R I NG T H E M A ST U R BATORY SESSION : FO R INSTANCE. THESE R E SOLUT IONS A LTERNATING WITH OTH ERS A BOUT M Y W R I T I NG. AND TH E R IG H T HAND W R I TING. W E R E STUCK SC R A PS OF TH E ORGIASTI C N OT E S . S O TO SPEAK. E X A M I N E IT THROUGH A MAGNI F Y I N G GLASS" '''TH I S S U M M E R . ORGY" . BELLY AND LUNGS WOR K I NG LIKE B E L LOWS. IT SHOULD BE SAID TH A T T H E S E RESOLUTIONS CALLED FORTH O R G I A ST I C S C O R E . PIMP AND BAWD. OR B A C KG R O U N D V OC A L I SING ON NOIS ES. A LAYER I COULD OF TH E IT COUNT O N DAMp AND TH E M D U ST H A P­ SHO RTENING R E M I N I SCENT O F THIGHS MANTEG N A -WH I LE L E FT HAND AND MASTURBATING: KNE A D I NG THE OPEN. FINA LLY. O R A MONG MY FE LLOWS A T COLLEGE.

Y L. D S E E THE WH ITE E DG E OF U N DER­ PANTS THAT M O U L. BETWE E N THE FI RST ORGASM AND THE ROL.L.ooD. SO L. THE SHOWER THAT HAS BEEN THREATE N I NG. THROAT PULSI NG.OWS: FROM ONE E J A C U LATION TO THE N E XT I OSCIL. T H E Y D R A M A T I S E D. SEEMS THE A M I RACUL.E IN ITS SWITCH OF E N E RGY. Y: THE W E A R I NG OF T H E S E M E N-SOA K E D COSTU M E AT AL. H I S L.APSE AL. E PH E M E R A L AL. O N G THE L.-WHICH. I N ITI AL. R E A DY U S I NG: O R TH ROWN AS THEY WERE DOWN THE WC AT THAT PRECISE MOM ENT WHEN I K N E W A N D D I D NOT KNOW IF DES I R E WO UL. G I R D I N G IT O N L.ASH O F M U D OR B L.D RETURN.S. AT THE VERY MOMENT OF ORGASM. OR PEOPLE I HAD CA UGHT CONVICTION THAT. T H E I NTERVAL. OR FL. IN RAIN.FACTO R Y S E N SA T I O N S OF A TERMS I W A S A L. AT A L. G I R D I NG LIKE D E R ELI CTION BY COM PA R I SON WITH THE I M MACUL. THE AND AS I IN SPEECH WAS AN A L. SOCIAL. T O R N U P I NTO M I N UTE SCRA PS S O THAT NO ONE C O U L. FOR OBVIOUS C E L. CONTACT WITH OTHER PROSTITUTI ONAL. . I N E N AND OBJECTS R E STO R E D TO PRISTI N E I NHAB ITED BY S L. SEATED IN FRONT OF A HO U S E COSTU M E H O R R I FY I NG S T I L. REASONS. DESI R E TO A M E N TAL.L.Y L. . A N D MORE AND MORE D I A L.L. TORSO B A R E. I GOT I NTO TH E H A B I T OF TA KI NG IT DOWN THE R E A FT E R TH E N I G H T L.IVI NG ROOM. THAT IT HAS SOM ETI M E S POETRY AT W RITING TIME. PHANTASIES. W E A R I N G A PA I R OF TIGHT BL.OI N -CL. OUTWA RD M A N I FESTATION OF A CONTROL. L A R S A N D AT G R O U N D LEVEL.­ TA N EOUSL. NOT ONL. T E R N A T E .OUS V I RG I N .L.Y. ECTICALL. HAVE T O C L.L.Y I M MA C U LATE. CROWDS. 19 . T R Y I N G TO SC A L.L.EAR­ THE HEADED I N T E R V E N E: A FT E R SUM M E R E V E N I NG R ETURNING FROM A PIL. V E E R I NG BACK TO THE WAL. THE COST U M E STUCK TO M Y FL. E TH E COA L. SEVEN AT MOST.ATE L I N E N S O F LITU RGY (L. CERTA I N OF MY SCHOOL.L.D AND IN R U N N I N G.ATE R DATE. WHERE D I R ECTION ( M YSTIC O R POL.. C O N Y A B OV E H I M-A MAN SUDDENL. AND R I T U AL.Y OF THE E N E RGY OF MY D R IVES. ROUGH WOOD E N B A L. ONCE TH E COSTU M E A N D NOTES ROL. I V I N G A IN SCHIST OF ROCK. MAY APPEAR AS TH E B R I N G I N G IT U P N EXT D A Y COV E R E D I N GREASE. I HOPE I S L. CAST-OFF O F A DECADENT WEST AS OPPOSED TO L.F I N D I NG: FOR EXAM PL. R ESTORES ME TO EQU I L. Y M A STU RBATION. BREAKS OVE R THI S S U B U R B HANG I N G FAMI L I E S A L. OF FORCES.MS BY JORIS I V E N S A N D OTHERS. SEEN IN R E T R O S P E CT. IN COL.OO M I N G U P BEHI N D THE BOY FROM A DARK PASSAGEWAY. BODI ES.WAYS CON V I N C E D M E . I K E THAT OF A BOY.Y. I N G MOMENTS UP OF TH E CL.ED I N FIL. EJAC UL.S STUCK TO HIS BROW WITH WHAT I I M A G I N E D WAS SPERM.VES. A V WORKERS.OST. N A M EL. F R I E N DS. U I D BELON G I N G T O A WOM A N I N A FUL.L. EXT E N D I NG FU RTHER A N D F U RTHER. A U D ITORY AND OL.E. TACTIL. IT C A N C EL. KNIFE I N THE OTH ER. A PROCESS SO I M PERCEPTI BL. H A V I N G FINAL. I N E N SHORTS SOAKED WITH SWEAT BETW E E N THE T HI G H S . SQU E A L.IKE A M ECHA N IC'S A P P R ENTICE OR ADOL. THAT POU R S FROM BU RST SEWERS I N TO THE I R ONE AND ONL.L. AS T H E R E ARE SEVERAL. IN IN S U N A N D W I N D.S L I K E TH E PESTI L. WITH RES UL.A U NTED ITS MACMAHON I E N ARCHITECTUR E-FUGITIVE BUT OBSESSIVE VI­ SIONS-L. HOUSE. UNDER THEIR OWN N A M E S A N D APPEARANCE.EGE FL. oo D BY A REVOL.Y O V E R ALL MY DRIVES.OTH AS THE AND A B J ECT IS NOT C A ST-OFF W H O L. TOWN WHERE THE COL. THAT I N EITHER STON ES-A N D SUDDENL.L.Y TRACKED THE ROL.S OUT.LlNG U P) F R U STRATI N G WHAT.EGS SO W I D E APART I C O U L. O V E R THE BAL. IT IS TH I S SUMMARY FASHION.UTIONARY V I ET NAM. SPLASHI NG H I M WITH ITS BL.L. L.UE L.B LA C K E N E D BETWEEN THE FI RST ONE AND THE ROL. O N G L. A C T I V I TY. THE BITTER TASTE OF A D R I N K DISTR I BUTED BY T H E G U A R D I A N N U N S STIL.ESCENT PROSTITUTE.OYED AS FOL. I BRI UM. BUT SIGHT O F IN THE SL.L.OTH I S E M PL. PRO M I S I NG MYSEL.OWED B Y A REL.ATE BETWEEN TR I U M P H A L.L D R E S S AND WHITE KERCH I E F L.L.L.IPPING BACK I N TO T H E V I S UAL. BECA USE OF THE S W I TC H IN MY TH O U G H T ME PROCESS. I HAVE A M EMORY OF SHORT FRAG M ENTS WHE R E NAR RATIVE VERSE.ITY AND A BODY SL. I N P U R SUIT O F A RAT-RAT J U M P I NG OVER THE BOY'S B A R E N ECK. E X (WIPING AND ROL. D E D A P R E COC I O U SL. A S REVEAL. I N SHOPPING CENTRES.EN­ TIAL. E E P I N G . CL. I N O U R MOUTHS .IT-QRGY): THEN. M A I N LY AND SOCI ETY LlTURGICAL.T. S L. EACH SPL. BROOM IN ONE HAND. A C ROWD.E. HEAD THROWN BACK.A N KS WITH S E M E N FEEL. BUT AL. D R E C OG N I S E TH E BAWDY I NTO MYSTICAL.F TO E XA M I N E IT AFTER M A STU R BATION FOR TRACES OF A MIXTURE O F SPERM AND G R E A SE.ITICAU MASTUR BATION E X C R ET E S DESIRE AND ITS A N T I DOTE S I M U L. AND L.G R I M AGE ON FOOT TO SOM E "GROTESQUE" CAVERN OF A TRA NSPORT OF TH E F I RST ORGASM. ORGASM I S FOL. ETC.ED U P. TO M Y FATH E R'S G A RAGE UNDER THE TIM ES. HEAT.SO OF THE D R I V E B E H I N D AL.L.ITURGICAL. I N TH E STREET. E NEUTRALISED. LAUGHING.OTH. Y DE­ W H I T E N E S S AFTER EACH BOMB.ASTING.ATIONS. HUMAN AND M A T E R I A L.Y: TH E "HYG E N IC" R E FL.ACK C U RL. VELOPED V I R I LITY.ING OF THE COSTUME IN TH E CL.L THE ORGIASTIC NOTES OF MY ADOLESCE N C E HAVE B E E N L. E A N UP THE SHIT THE M SEL. I M ITS OF PROSTITUTIONAL.UMS OF THE I N DUSTRIAL.EANI NG.L. THIS SWITCH.USTRADE OF A D U R I N G EACH SESSION.­ I N G. BL. FROM A M E N TA L I TY A N D A BODY STRETC H E D TO THE L. GLI MPSED ONE EVEN BEFO R E THAT.

D U R I NG THIS NOMINAL CONFU­ P E R I OD WHICH I 20 . " " FR A N K I E . LED TO A ETC. THE M A N I P U LATON O F T H E P E N I S I N S I D E THE U N I N H IBITED CLOTH PRODUCED A RELAXED TEXT. I N C A S E OF A P RONOUNCED E REC­ TION. THE ETC. A LREADY LOOKED ON AS "SERVANTS OF THE MALE BODY. R E P ET I T I O N WITH VARIATIONS O F PRECEDING SEQU ENCES I N S C R I B E D ON THE I R REGULAR A LTERNATION N A RRATIVE/SPEECH SHOULD A LSO B E SEEN IN R ELATION WITH THE TH E MASS OF NOTES WHICH I COULD NOT TRA N SPORT. WH EREAS THE TIGHT LAC I NG OF THE CLOTH ON TH E M E M BER. I N D U C E D A TEXT OF N A R RATIVE AND SPEECH I N WHICH TH E H A R D ECONOMIC FACTS O F PROSTITU­ TION (SALE." "JA C K Y. " D E C ENT" T E XTII N DECENT ABUNDANCE. FROM TH E M E ET I N G O F THESE CONT R A D ICTO R Y C U R R E NTS. M Y EYES ON A PAGE OF E UROPEA N H I STORY I N A BOOK I KEPT BESIDE THE BED. THE STR I C T U R E OR L A X ITY O F TH E COST U M E SCE N A R I OS TA K E T U R N TOWARD SLAVERY IN MOULDING TH E TEXT M A D E I T EITHER TOUGH OR TENDER.) I N WHICH M A ST U R B A T E D . OR FRAGME NTS OF WORDS.1 969) B E A R S G R A P H I C WITNESS NOT ONLY TO THE DETA I L A N D C H RONOLOGICAL C U RVE O F TH I S PROCESS O F I NT E R A C T I O N . ETC. MOM ENT AS A N E N S E M B L E OF SOCIAL POSTU RES TH A N AN ACT OF P E N ETRATION). MENDERS OF PROSTITUTIONAL G A R M E N TS TOR N D U R I NG "I NTERCOURSE. TO WRITE A NARRATIVE SEQUENCE. FOR DUCED A N O R D E R : THE M A N U SC RIPT ( 1 962. R E P E T I T I O N S . PRODUCI NG OPERATED A TEXT W H E R E TYPI N G A C H O I C E OF I N TRO­ N ECESSA R I LY POS I TIONING OF ORGANS AND COSTUME. " OFFIC I A L FRENCH ETC . P R I C E OF BOD I E S. O R B ETTER STI LL. SHOP ASSI STANTS AND APPRENTICES CALL T H E MSELVES "CH A R LEY. W H I LE S L E E P A N D DREAM AFFORD M E O N L Y CONFRONTATIONS. VERY SEXY O F B U M O R BREAST." TH E A LLOWI NG TH E M EMBER TO SUBSI DE. OR WITH TH E D EG R E E OF THE M E M B E R'S ER ECTION. THIS H A STE ONLY A LLOWS FOR WORDS TO BE PUT ON PAPER. SIONS. T H E R E FORE: BUT GRA DUAL­ LY. NAMES THAT FIGURE AMONG THE S E ANGLO-SAXON BORROWI NGS A R E OF SLAV ORIGIN (SERGE). PUSH E R S OF ORGI ASTIC BODI E S. I ABANDONED IT. TH E I R A HACKNEYED. I H A V E A LWAYS CONSIDERED THAT TH E NAMES I NTEGRAL TO THE F RENCH LANGUAGE CARRY WITH THEM TH E DESUET ATMOSPH E R E OF A WESTERN CIVILI SATION W H I C H . O V E R LA P P I NG O F SEQUE NCES. WITH THE BOD I ES OF VERY REAL AND BAWDY WOME N . 'ON TH I S EXC H A NGE: HAVING WEDGED THE E RECT M E M B E R I NTO TH E COST U M E BY IMPRESSING ON IT A PROP ULSION THAT R E M I N DED ME OF A COG-WHE E L OR A SCREW. " (DU R I NG M Y TRIPS T O NORTH A FR I CA I DISCOVERED THAT MANY A R A B SERVA NTS. EXPRESSION H A N DW R ITI NG CRA M PED A N D MORE D E L I B ERATELY VE RTICAL TH I S A LT E R N A N C E . ERECTION/ ITS J ET REMEMBER THOUG HTS IT. AT THAT TI M E . IF I LET THE COSTU M E H A N G LOOSE ON M Y LOI NS. TH R E E Q U A RTERS OF MY WAKING ARE B U S Y PLOTTI N G "HOMOS E X U A L" BY R EPEATED D E J ECTION/RE. I N TH E NUDE. OR FORCE D TO TH E BACK OF THE BA LLS. SO TO SPEAK. BATORY. A PAGE OF P H I LOSO P H Y O R H I STORY OF PH I LOSOPH Y . M A ST U R ­ I N THIS R E S U LTS TH E M A N U SC R I P T. OVER-STI M U ­ M A N I P U LATION. O F A EXAM PLE: PRONO U N C E D E R ECTION ACCELE RATES ORGAS M I C URGE NCY. S P E ECH A N D N A R RATIVE WRITTEN WITHOUT THOUGHT OF TH E P ROSTIT U T I O N A L ANTIQUITY (TH E LATI N I S E D OR GRECIAN N A M ES OF BODIES CONSTITUTI NG BY T H E I R SOLE E N U M E RA ­ TION ALL T H E TEXT R E Q U I R E D T O STI M U L ATE DESIRE): THEN THE TH E M E CHA NGES TO PROSTITU­ TION AS I LE A R N FROM R A D I O HOW S E X UALLY C H A R G E D C E R TA I N O B V I O U SLY MODERN N A M E S CAN BE.A M O N G OTH E R REAL OR I M A G I N A R Y BOD I E S . OF M U LT I P L I E D LATER BY T H E I NUMBER PLACES (HOTELS. COST OF E V O K I NG PROSTITUT I O N A L "SO A P O P E R A . I PLAYED P R OG R E S S I V E C O N V E R G E N C E B E T W E E N T H E "DECENr' (THAT I S TO S A Y TH E PUBLISHABLE OR P U B L I S H E D ) TEXT WITH TH E G R EAT SEXUAL SWELL. ITS E R ECTION SCREWED DOWN. U NTIL THE MOMENT LATE D CAME WHEN TH E M E MBER." " E D D I E . B U T A LSO I N I T S W R I TI NG.) FO U N D TH E I R ITSELF. ACCOUNTANCY OF THE NUMBER OF IN TIMES. ) THE ONLY M A N I P ULATING TH ESE BODIES. H I R E. QUITE E A R LY IN THE PIECE. A N D WRITING AS MUCH TEXT A S POSSI B L E B EFORE IT ROSE FREQUENCY OF TH I S S E X U A L C HOICE SHOULD BE SET AGAI NST A NOTH E R VERY DEFINITE TENDENCY OF MY F I FT E E N T H OR S I XTE E NTH YEAR: AS I AGA I N . WHICH MEANS THE TEXT HAS TO B E WRITTEN IN H ASTE. O N THE OTH E R HAND. F A M I L I A R ITY AND EASE IN H A N D LI N G ITS RH ETOR I C GAVE M Y HAND TH E SPEED NECESSARY. TH I S I COU L D DO SEVERAL T I MES. O F V A R I A T I O N S . E V E N COMIC. A S I GOT M Y "TONGUE" I NTO THE WRITI NG OF FRENCH. WAS TRYI NG TO I M POSE ON M E THE MOST I NS I P I D A N D SUPERFICIAL OF I T S PRODUCTIONS. A BOTH M A LE AND FEMALE B E FO R E I COULD S U M MO N UP ALL THE M E NTAL A N D COR PO R E A L TENSIONS T H A T USUALLY PRESIDED AT THE MOMENT OF ORGASM.ERECTION. I NT E R J ECTIONS W I THOUT SYNTACTIC LINKS-QNLY SPEECH. D I R ECTI NG MY WOM E N . COMMON SOU N D SITUTATION. DISCHARGED SC E N A R I OS." WEARERS OF MASC U L I N E ATTI RE R EMOVED FOR "I NTERCOURSE" (MORE FA M I LI A R TO M E AT THAT THOUGHTS TOWA R D NON-SEXUAL ZONES.

A R E FRAG­ M E NTS OF S E X U A L. A N U M B E R OF NOTES FROM THIS P E R I OD. S . NO DOUBTI I HAVE TO I N TE R R U PT WHAT THREATENS TO BECO M E A P H YSIOL.OW. T H A T E MERGES THROUGH THE R E A L. I K E A P R E S E N C E ON M Y C H EST.L. THE DEMON L. I T SHOULD B E NOTED THAT THE TEXTUAL.E C H A NG E S . E R AT E S . A R E I N V E N T E D S I M U L. W H I C H M AY SUBSE­ QUENTL. A POSTROPHIC PUNCTUATION. P R E PA R E D OF "T E X T U A L.IST E N I NG THE R E L. O N E THAT PRODUCES WRITI NG-JARGON. TREM BL.ED IN TH E GRASS.T I E S OF PUBLISH­ I NG EVEN "DECE Nr' TEXTS. I SAT UPON THE ANCI E NT STUM P.E AND H I R E O F BODI E S . L. A FRAGMENT OF FADED M I XT U R E O F I N K A N D S E M E N .L.ONE A L.L. FL. A Y L. A BOVE AL. A L. AND MASTURBATORY SESSION.L.ET AL. WORDS.ITY TO FIT TH E "DECENr' TEXT SUCCEEDED BY A FRAG M E NT OF SPEECH OR N A RRATIVE TEXTUA L. R E N A L. 15 NUMBERS I PRESSED H AR DEST WITH T H E N I B .M O N A R Y . A N D NOM I N A L.OG IC D A N G E R . Y" TH E L. THOSE FOOTPRINTS STI L. A P P ELL. WORDS O F T H I S J A RGON I STRUGGLED WITH A D E M O N I N TH E WOODS. ITS M O R E COM M O N I N TH E TODA Y : ST U C K A N D U NS T U C K BY S U C C E S S I V E ORGA S M S . WHEN I WAS ASSAILED BY THE DIFFI C U L. I WAS NAKED A N D ALONE.Y.OATE 21 . L.TATION O F C E RTA I N TEXTS.OINS A N D WRESTL. FINA L.IPTIC IN ITS J ARGON. ARE U N R E A DABL. MARVEL. I TY: D E S I R E ORGASM: THE AND R E SOL. I K E A M U S H ROOM AFTER R A I N . SEL.TS. O N G HOURS IN P I E R R E GUYOTAT ADVANCE SESSION: R H Y T H M I C A L.E H E N C E TH E EXAL.ED TH E TREE.L.EFT M E AND S L E PT UPON THE OFF E R I NG.-A N D B R I NG M Y B O D Y B A C K TO WHAT I BELI E V E 15 A CRUDER.lNG T H ROUGH TH E I R EYES AS IT TOPPLED SL.T A N E IOUSL. THE DE MON SEIZED M Y L.L.VES.L. TH E M fRANSLATED B Y CAT H E R I N E D U N C A N MODUL. F R O M A FTERNOON T O E V E N I NG ( A T C E RTAIN TI M E S THE RESURGENCE OF DESIRE A C C E L. I N S U L. CARDI AC.AIN. AND I SPRINKLED TH E GRASSES WITH MY OFFE R I N G TO I T S SILENCE A N D I T S WOO D E N C A R ESS.ICATION OF T H E NOTES. THOSE ECHOS STIL. I HOWLED LIKE A BEAST U PO N T H E DEAD SHADOWS WHERE THE FA L.Y COMPLEX AND ELL.LY BECAUSE WHEN WRITING NAMES AND R HETORIC CHOSEN FOR ITS QUASI-B A N A L.Y WITH WORK ON A "DECENr' TEXT.L. L.ATIONS.EN TREE HAD L.Y ENTA I L M A KI N G CERTA I N C UTS.UTION STYL. OR PRICES OF TH E SAL.R E M E M B E R B E ST.ITERARY PUBL.ICKED TH ROUGH TH E S U NL. PRINCI­ PAL. GL.IGHT. T H E S U N L.ED TH E M . DA N I E L SL. FROM O N E NIGHT TO ANOTH E R .ATIO N S . TOUCHING TH E C R U MBLED FINGERS THAT HAD FEL.P U L.

E A R LY IN 1879. OR E LS E F E L L I NTO A BROWN STUDY. IN SPITE O F THAT. TH I N .> A CON S I D E R ­ ABLE I N FLUENCE ON A LL H E R C O M PA N I O N S . . S H E E X E R C I SEr. A T OTH E R T I M E S S H E WAS POS S E S S E D BY A F E V E R I S H GAI ETY. CAPR ICIOUS. . AND A SHE A LWAYS TRYI NG T O DOM I N ATE T H E OTH E R C H I L D R E N A N D F I G H T I N G TOOTH A N D N A I L I F T H E Y D A R E D OPPOSE H E R . E N V I O U S . MADE HER KIND AND LIKE C ON S I D E R ATE M A N N ERS E V E R YON E H E R. SHE ACTED AND T A L K E D LI K E A GROWN-UP. PRI NCESS O R C A R E F U LLY H I D OBJECTS THAT TOOK H E R FANCY. WITH SOM E T H I N G SACC H A R I N E I N H E R EXPRESSION. . Q U I C K TE M P E R E D . O F D E LICATE COM PLE­ XION. B U T D I S L I K E D P R A Y I N G ON T H E CONTRARY. . V A I N . ONE F A C T THAT SHOULD B E NOTED I S THAT FROM E A R LY C H I LD HOOD SHE STOLE AND A H I N T OF' HYPOC RISY THAT SEEMED OUT OF PLACE IN SOM EO N E OF HER AGE. SHE WAS ANAEMIC H I GH L Y E XC I TA B L E . SIGNS OF LEUCORRHOE A I C D I SC H A RG E FROM T H E G E N I T A L ORGA NS. EXTREMELY I N TELLIGENT. TH E R E W E R E SUCCESSI V E LY. S H E WON SWEET AND EVER YBODY'S HE ART W I T H H E R D I S PO S I T I O N . A LWAYS S M I L I NG. A LOCA L E XA M I NATION R E V E A L E D T H E P R E S E N C E O F ENOO- 22 . TE N D E R BOYS W E R E H E R A D M I R I N G SLAVESI LITTLE X . ROLLE D BECAM E X . S H E L I K E D W H A T WAS B E A UTIFUL. S H E W A S COQU E TT I S H A N D A TT R ACTI V E . A DO R E D CLOTH ES A N D DOTED O N P E R F U M E. HER MOOD WOU L D IN ON A CHANGE FIT OF W I TH O U T SHE SHE WA R N I NG. WAS GOOD AT PRETE N D I NG . AND THE GAME S H E L I K E D PL A Y I N G B E ST OF A LL WAS G E TTING MARRIED. TH E ROLES OF Q U E E N . E V E N L I TTLE F A C E W H E N TOLD A BOUT GOD. THE C H I L D BEGAN TO LOSE WEIGHT IN SPITE OF AND HER USUAL A P P ETITE. SOM ETI M ES SCREA M I NG RAGE OR THE F LOOR: RAT H E R OLD-FA S H I O N E D I N H E R W A Y S . A N D A N A L I R R ITATION. T H I S TENDENCY TO TH E FT H A D B E E N REMARKED LOV E D TO WHEN LEARN ASKING SHE WAS NOT YET FIVE. POK E D F U N AT T H E PI ETY O F OTH E R C H I LD R E N A N D M A D E A TYRA N N I Z I N G T H E M A T TI M E S. S H E M A R R I E D A N D DIS M I SS E D A L L H E R L I TT L E BOY F R I E N DS. N E RVOUS. V I N DICTIVE. NEVER LIVELY S TO P P E D OF I MAGI NATION. A BO U T T H I N G S Q U E ST I O N S . THEY PUT U P WITH IT B E C A U S E OF HER U N F A I L I N G C H A R M . D E P R E S S E D FOR N O R E A SO N . RESE RVING FOR HERSELF FA IRY. I N S I STING T H E Y SHOULD BE H E A RTBRO K E N TO THE PO I N T OF TEARS. EVEN WHEN TH E Y COULD HAVE B E E N H E R'S FOR TH E A S K I N G . S H E W A S P R O U D . WAS TEN Y E A R S OLD.O N A N IS M A N D N E R VOUS DISORDE R S IN TWO L I TTLE GI R LS CASE H I STORY J E A LOUS. I N EVERY G A M E SHE H A D TO B E THE LEADER.

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FROM THAT DAY ON A PROGRES­ S I V E CHANGE TOOK PLACE I N THE CHIL.L D E SC R I B E IN DETA I L. AT THE S A M E E POC H STEA LING BECA M E A D A I L Y EVE NT.ASCIVIOUS IN HER MOV E M E NTS X . HER BODY SHE AND "PL. .PARASITES. ETC.ACE. . L. . THE TIGHTENED FOR A LONG TIME WITH A LITTLE BOY. FURTHER ON I WIL.EEP TH ERE.F VOLU PTUOUS SENSATIONS.Y AND PH YSICAL. F . .ACE? SUSPICION WAS NOT YET SUFFICIENTL. SUBM ITTED WITHOUT PROTEST. .KING.D BE RE­ PEATED. BOYS A S WELL AS GIRLS. OF WAL. OR OFF IN TH E WOODS W I TH C E R TA I N C H I L. WHEN SCOLDED S H E T R E M B L..ONG THAT AT TIMES SOM EON E WENT TO LOOK FOR H E R.Y VARIOUS PA RTS O F HER BODY IN ORDER TO GIVE H E RSEL. .T OF TH I S T R E A T M E N T X . A T ALL EVENTS THE C H I LDREN BEING PL.A T E R F R I ENDS. TH E SC ENE WAS I NDESCRIBABL." SHE OFTEN STAYED TH ERE SPREAD LEGS. WHO FAL. . BENT FORWARD..L.SO NOTED THAT D U R I N G GA MES X . ALL THE ING E N IOUS M ETHODS I NTIMACY AND SUPE RVISION I NCREASED. . C A L. L.ED HER HORRORS. WAS ST RICKEN BY VIOL.D U N B E A R A BL. AT TIMES X. IN S PITE O F THAT SHE CONTI N U E D TO L. IT WAS TH E N THAT H A VING A S C E R TA I N E D . STRANGERS. S U P PO S I TO R I E S WERE ADM ITTED. EXPR ESSION.OSE W EIGHT.Y: SHE S E E M E D MORE AND MORE SICKLY. THE U P P E R PART OF HER BODY GREW THI N N E R AND T H I N N ER . WITH A N Y KINO OF FOR E IGN BODY THAT CAME TO HAND. THE GOV E R N ESS A LSO NOTICED HOW L. S E R V ANTS. VARIOUS PA RTS. MADE F EARS KNOWN TO THE PARE NTS. X .D DEVEL.IKING FOR AS KINDNESS M A D E NO I M PRESSION ON X . A N D L I K E T H I S CONTRACTED SUCCES­ SIVEL. S H E W A S T E R R I B L Y A FR A I D O F T H E R O D W H I C H W A S A D M I N I S TE R E D U N S P A R I NGL. S U P E R­ VISION . HAD A SPECIAL. OPENED HER LEGS. A S S H E 24 . NOTHING HER HAD ANY EFFECT ON HER. . AS A RESUL.EASURE PAL. X . H IPS AND G E N ITA L ORGA N S DEVELOPED.Y A ROUSED. H E R B A D T E M P E R M A D E THE CHIL. HER PARE NTS. E D A N D WEPT BITTERLY. D E N I E S H E R GU ILT WITH BLATANT DEFIANCE. IT SEATED ON A C H A I R . JUNE TH E SA M E YEAR. S E E M ED TO I M P ROVE. A INVENTED D A I LY BY HER F ERTI LE I M AGI NATION. RI BBONS A N D OTHE R SMAL. R U B B I NG H ERSELF ON' THE COR N E R S OF F U R N I ­ MARRIED. WHO GAVE H E RSELF UP MORE AND MORE TO VICE.EGS APA RT.L. SWEETS.L. WITH TEN ESMUS AND H A D GREAT DI FFICU LTY IN URINATI NG.D BOTH EVEN STA RT SCRATCHING H ERSEL. . CAPRICIOUS A N D QUARRELSOME. EVEN TO B E HARSH A N D C R U E L. D R E N . PARTI C U L A R LY FLOGGI NG. T H E C H IL. A D M O N I SH M E N T S . A DOPTI N G CERTA I N POSES A N D STIFFE N I NG WITH CONTRACTIONS.L. A LITT � A R BOU R WAS H E R EXC L.O M E L.. S H E A DOPTE D REVOLTING POSITIONS. S H E CAL. THERE WAS NO HELP FOR IT BUT TO CHANGE TACTICS AND TA KE STE R N E R M E A S U RES.ARC E N I E S OF DESSE RT. . H E R FEET. AS FAR AWAY AS POSS I B L E FROM M A I DS A N D GOV E R N E S S E S. EVIDENT PLEA S U R E. IT WAS AL. SHE POSES AS OUTRAGED INNOCE NCEI SHE PROTESTSI H ER FACE CONTORTS WITH RAGE. . WAS BECOM I NG.E. ON ONE OCCASION SHE WAS FO U N D ASL. QUITE OPEN LY A N D AT ANY GIVEN M O M E N T TH E CONTACTS WOUL. MORAL. OBJECTS ARE CONTI N UAL. ETC. HIPS. . SH E TOOK A C H A I R OUT TH E R E A N D REFUSED CORPORAL PUNISHM ENT WAS R ES O R T E D TO.USIVE PROPE RTY. LATER AN END WAS PUT TO THIS PRECOCIOUS TURE.EGS A N D FEET. A D V I C E .ENT PA I N S IN TH E LOWER A BDOM E N . WAS FORCED TO A D M IT TH E PRACTICES SHE INDULG E D IN. OF THE DE VISU.Y. H E R FEA­ TURES TOOK ON HER A BESTIAL. SHE WALKED WITH H E R L. W IT H WOUL.F HER FAC E BETRAYING AN PRESCRIBED A N D TH E C H I L. IF N EC ESSARY. X . X . A N D I N S PITE OF THAT S H E A B U S E D H E R S E L F MORE A N D MORE IN A THOUSA N D WAYS. S H E B E C A M E ABJ ECT.E. . S H E TOOK UP LASCIVIOUS POSES AND GAVE WAY TO HER PASSION I N THE MOST I N DE C E N T FASH IO N .ITTL. BUT A LS O W I THOUT ANY SIGN ON ACC E S S T O A L L EXCEPT C E RTAIN FAVO U R ITES.A B U S E . WHAT WENT ON I N THAT PLEAS U R E PA L. H E R BEHAVIOUR EVEN IN CONTI N U ED S E L. R E M A RKABLY ENOUGH. . IN MA RCH 1881.AYED AT G E TT I N G ENGAGED AND P R OC U R E D V O L U PTUOU S SPASM. A N D TH E E N E RG Y S H E E X P E N D E D I N P E R PETRATING WHAT S H E HERSELF C A LL. TOWA R D THE MONTH OF PETTY L. B E N D I N G H E R K N E E S A N D ROLLING THE WAS MOST I NDECENT B E HAVIOUR. .LED IT HER I M P ROV E M E NT.Y HAN DS. H I D I N G IN TH E S H R U BBE RY. TH E N H E R L. SHE SAT O N T H E EDGE. . WEPT COPIOUSL.Y A N D PROM I S E D NOT TO DO IT AGAIN. K I N D N E S S .OPED A STRANGE WAY I N SPITE OF BEING CAUGHT RED H A N D E D L.S INTO TH E TRAP SET FOR H E R . AT TH E SAME PERIOD IT WAS NOTICED TH AT SH E WAS FORE V E R GOING TO T H E LAVATORY AND STA Y I N G SO L.D. IN FRONT OF THE GOVE R N ESS. . PRONO U N C E D SWELLING OF I R R ITATION THE VU LVA I WITH MY AT THAT PO I N T I T WAS D ECIDED TO ATTACH H E R H A N DS.L. WITH H E R HANDS.D GIVEN A TREATM ENT OF IRON A N D BROMIDE OF POTASSIUM. W H I LE THE THIGHS.E X . THEY E V E N EXCHANGED RINGS A N D PROMISED TO MARRY EACH OTH ER WHEN THEY G R E W U P. P E RPETRATED BY X . .

WERE DURING THE D A YT I M E W:-I E N TH E TE M PT A T I O N CROSSED ON T H E CHEST. CURSING EVERYONE. B Y HOLDING ONE END OF THE E XT E N D E D PIN IN HER M OUTH. AND THESE SHE PULLED OUT AT N I GHT AND TELLING NOT TO PUT M Y HAND HQ. A MAID WHO LOOK E D AFTER M E WHEN I WENT SUCCEEDED I N ATTA I N I NG H E R OBJECTIVE AFTER SEVERAL HO U R S OF E F F O R T. MADE MORE HER SEEM MORONIC. WORKI NG DIFFERENT WAYS. THE FOLLOW I N G PRETEXT OF N I GHT A WATCH WAS K E PT UNDER CONFESSION: "I VAGUELY RECA LL. ASKED A S A M E A N S O F OVERCO M I NG I T . BECAUSE I T HAPPE N E D YEARS S L E E P. T O WASH HER P A R T S WITH C O L D WATER. CO V E R E D AND MARKED SCRATCHES. I N THE MORN I NG T H E S E X U A L PARTS BOR E OBVIOUS TRACES OF ASSAULT BY A SHA R P I N ST R U M E NT. I LOATHE MUMMY. .P I N S IN H E R PILLOW. BY A V E RITABLE TOU R D E FORC E WORTHY OF THE D A V E N PORT B R O TH E R S . I WANT TO!" SWEAT STOOD O N H E R TEMPLES. THESE VIOLENT SC ENES. WAY TO YOU 00 ARE A LL­ BY AN I M M E D I ATE R EACTION. I THIN K I T WAS SHE WHO G A V E M E THE I D E A OF TOUCHING MYSE LF. LET ME ENJOY MYSELF! IF IT KILLS ME. SHE STILL MANAGED TO SATISFY HERSELF I N A THOUSAND SATISFY HERSELF D U R I NG THE N I GHT. HER BODY FREQUE NTLY SHA K E N BY SPASMS.. TH ESE ATTACKS OF FOLLY W E R E FOLOW E D ONE DAY SHE S A I D THE FOLLOWI N G PRAYER: "DEA R GOD.TH E R E : SHE TOLD M E NOT TO SO OFTEN IT M A D E ME C U R I O U S A N D I SA I D T O MYSELF THAT J U S T ONCE WOULDN'T HURT. WITH DEMONSTRA­ TIONS O F T E N D E R N ESS A N D REPENTA NCE. T H E HACK E T IN PLACE. . " SHOW I T WITHOUT ADMITTED E V E R YTHING A N D TOLD H E R SECR ETS. BUT THATS MY BUSINESS. BUT WITHOU T R E A LL Y WANTING TO. C O N TO R T I N G TO BED LI FTI NG H E R SKI RTS A N D R U B B I NG HER SHA M E F U L PA RTS FOR A LONG T I M E. I N ONE OF HER M O M ENTS OF C A L M AND R EPENTA N C E . HER EYE-BA LLS ROLLED AND GLA R E D AS I F THEY WOULD BU RST FROM THE I R SOCKETS. DROPS OF SUCH MOMENTS SHE SHOUTED AT THE TOP OF HER VOICE. I N SUCH MOMENTS OF A F F ECTION AND LUCI DITY SHE POWE R F U L. BUT SOON THESE ABLUTIONS B E C A M E OVER F R EQU E N T. P R OMI S I N G TO I M PROVE AND B E GG I N G FOR AT THIS EPOCH A STRAIT-JACKED WAS E M PLOYED TO P R E V E N T THE C H I L D T O U C H I N G BOTH FO R E A R M S H E R S E LF HELD ANOTHER CHA NCE.THE S T R E ET A T T R A CT E D THE ATTENTION K I N D N E SS OF SO OFTEN REMA I N E D WERE HA P P E N E D. SHE WAS A B LE TO TOUCH H E R S E L F WITH THE OTHER. LATER I HAD ME A GOV E R N ESS W HERSELF I N I M I TATION O F THE K A BYLES. AT HERSELF F U R I O U S LY HERSELF UP TO �UCH A STATE SHE K N E W N E I TH E R RESTR A I N T N O R SHA M E: S H E GROU N D H E R TEETH. I USED TO GET U P EARLY TO PLAY WITH MY DOLLS. MADE THE FOLLOW I N G E VERYTHING I N O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C RAVI NG. SHOUTING AT THE TOP OF H E R LUNGS: " I DETEST DADDY. SHE PULLED AT THE JACKET WITH HER T EETH UNTIL SHE SUCC EEDED IN R E ACHING THE S E X U A L PARTS WITH HER H A N DS. W H I C H P R O V E D THAT SHE AGO. CONT I N UOUSLY. AS PLEASU R E FROM IT. CHA NGED COLOUR: SHE WRITHED AND STRUGGLED FURIOUSLY IF A N YO N E TRIED TO HOLD HER. X . N E I TH E R NOR SEXUAL SEVERITY H A D THE SLIGHTEST E F F ECT. X ... IN WHILE THE B L OOD AND STR A P PA RTS BY P A S S E R S. E M ITTING RA UCOUS C R I E S THAT GREW MORE A N D M O R E SAVAGE. D U R I NG THE DAY SHE HAD TA K E N THE PRECAUTION O F H I D I NG HAI R. SHE FLEW IN TO THE MOST FRIGHTFUL TEMPER. SOM ETI M E S EVEN D E E P GASHES. ITS A LONG T I M E AGO NOW S I N C E I GOT I NTO THE HABIT. PLEASE GOD MAKE THEM DIE. AS MY S I ST E R ME A SAYS. SHE FROTHED AT THE MOUTH. T H U S . HANDS I N PROXI M I TY OF THE SHO U LDERS: LEGS A N D F E ET SET W I D E APA RT A N D F I R M L Y ATTACHED TO THE I RO N B E D-STEAD: A BODY-BELT IN THE FOR M OF A STR A P FIXED THE BECA M E I R R E S I STABLE. S P I TE F U L. AND THAT THE WASHING WAS NOTH I N G B U T A PRETEXT IN O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C R A V I N G WITH I M P U N ITY. WHEN SHE D I D NOT SUCCEED IN D U P I NG HER G U A R D I A N S. MORE MORE I N THIS WAY SHE ALM OST A LWAYS M A N A G E D TO PERVERSE. W I TH O U T G E T T I N G ANY STRAIGHTENED WITH H E R TE ETH: THU S.B Y . B E FO R E LONG I T WAS D I SCO V E R E D TRU N K TO THE MATTRESS BY CORDS K NOTTED TO THE BED." I N SHORT. J E RK I N G ON THE B E D. WHAT DO I CARE? I WANT TO DO IT AND DIE. SUPPORT­ ING HERSELF ON THE CROWN O F H E R HEAD. S I N N I NG . SHE WAS P R E Y TO A FIT OF M A D N ESS: HER FACE BECA M E DEAD WHI TE. F L OGG I N G D E C E I T F U L.. I USED TO DRESS THEM A N D PLAY WITH MYSELF A UTOMATICA LLY. THIS WAS THE A N SWER TO THE R I DDLE O F HOW. THOUGH KEPT U N D E R CONSTANT WATCH. LATER. SOBBING: "WHY DO YOU DEPRIVE ME OF SUCH AN INNOCENT PLEASURE?" AND A M O M E N T LATER: "ITS DI RTY.. I F. I KNOW. THEN. MANAGED TO UNTIE THAT A L L THE S PONGES H A D B E E N PO K E D F U L L OF HOLES. IN SPITE OF ALL THE S E PRECA UTIONS X . WAS A LWAYS S'. WHEN SHE DI DN'T SHE WHI M PE R E D. I USED TO P R E T E N D I 25 . WHE N EVER I FELT BOR E D I ALWAYS PLAYED THE S A M E GAME.

. SHE A FT E R U S I NG S M OO T H ONES. I WENT TO U S E D TO SHUT O U R S E L V E S U P I N THE LAVATORY AND TAKE ALL OUR C L OTH E S O F F . HE D I D C O M E. IF ONLY I COU L D B E A D E M O N M YS E L F T O M A K E M I SC H I EFI OPPOSTIE A N D TOUC H I N G EACH OTHER. THE BLESSED I N J E R U S A L E M . I CA N'T T H I N K. F I N A LLY SHE T R I E D AND OFTEN SUCCEEDED I N STR I KI NG H E R PA RTS WITH T H E EDGE OF A PIECE 26 . I F I N D I T V E RY SOOTH I NG" . W A L K I NG S H E WOU L D BEGI N T O L I M P I N A N O D D WAY A S IF SHE WERE LOP. I W A S I N BED. TOUC H I NG MYSELF TWO OR THREE T I M ES WAS E NOUGH. . L E FT. EVERY OUT WAS C U P BOA R D CAME A O P E N ED. I OFTE N CA LLED ON T H E DEVI L TO H E L P M E: O N C E I FELT H I S H A N D ON MY SHOU L D E R A N D SOM ETI M E S I B E GG E D H I M T O K I L L M Y P A R E N TS A N D M A K E E V E R YO N E SU FFER. ! CAN'T S E E. . I USED "WH E N AT L A ST' SHE WENT ON. SOM E MONTHS LATER I SHOW E D LITILE V . S A N D .. THE SIGHT OF O N E WAS ENOUGH TO M A K E HER WANT TO USE IT. THAT HAD BEEN U R I N E. I TS ENOUGH TO D R I V E WHO YOU M A D. AT OTH ER TIMES S H E TOOK LlTILE STEPS. WHEN ALL AT ONCE THE WAR DROBE OPE N E D A N D USUALLY I N FRONT (THE C LI TOR IS). SHE PARTI C U LA R LY L I K E D H A I R-PI NS. HIS EYES WERE GREEN. BUT IT WAS I M POSS I B L E TO STOP A N D I STA RTED A G A I N . H E M A D E A L M OST REG U L A R I NTERVA LS. MUCH I GREW AS WICKED AND I W A N T E D T O DO HARM POSS I B LE.H A D SOMETH I N G WRONG W I TH ME DOWN THERE. BY P R E S S I N G H E R T H I G H S TOG ETH E R. E V E RYTH I N G E A SY. O R D I N A R Y P I NS. A FTERWARDS TH E PATIERNS MADE BY T H E JET OF "WHEN I WAS SAD O R C ROSS A BOUT SOMETH I NG I E XA M I N I NG D I D IT ALL TH E M O R E : FOR I N STANCE THE T I M E S I WAS CA UGHT STE A L I N G I D I D IT WORSE THAN EVER.. . FORKS. LA T E R THE DESIRE C A M E OVER ME AT E V E N GOD FOR HAVING MADE M E U N H A PPY AFTER LETIING ME BE SO AS H A PPY. I GOT I NTO A TE R R I B LE RAGE. H E W A S B I G. I SA I D NOBODY HAD THE RIGHT TO STOP ME U S I NG MY F I NG E RS A N D MY BODY AS I W A N T E D TO. T H E D E V I L A P P E A R E D. H E H ELPED M E G E T F R E E . SOMETI M E S W I T H B I TS OF WOOD. A L L BLACK A N D G R I N N I NG. "PEOPLE BEGAN TO NOTIC E W H A T WAS H A PPE N I NG A N D TR I E D TO STOP M E. I S A W H I M. S H E ONLY 8EGAN TO LIKE IT I N THE WI NTER OF 1881. . W A L K E D Q U I C K LY. WHATEVER I COULD F I N D. A N D PLAYED A T G I V I NG M Y S E L F A DOUC H E OR BATH I N G MYSELF AND PUTT I N G ON A POU LTICE. SOMETI M E S W I T H OUR H A N D S . AT FI RST.) I N STR U M ENTS. S H E A LSO H A N D L E D H E R E XC R E M ENTS A N D FORC E D H E R L I TI L E S I STER T O D O L I K E W I S E .S I DED. I T W A S W I THOUT M Y A S K I NG. F I N A LLY. TO I WOU LD HAVE STOP US. G I V I N G MYSELF THE DOUC H E WITH L I TILE STI CKS: FOR Y E A R S I'VE L I K E P U TI I N G LlTILE STICKS UP M E. I T WAS D U R I NG THE N I GHT. ETC. WHEN WE LIVED I N SUCH A N D SUCH A HOUSE (1877) I SHOWED M Y LlTILE SISTER HOW T O DO IT. E T C . BUT U R I N AT E D A L M OST U PR I G H T IN F RONT OF H E R SI STER. " E V E N SO. ST A N D I N G C O N F E S S I O N . THEN. O FT E N THOUGHT O F T H E DEVI L A N D C A L L E D ON H I M T O H E L P M E. OR T U R N E D A B R U PTLY R E SO R T E D T O SHARP SUCH AS SCI SSORS. I'M NOT A F R A I D OF A N YT H I N G OR A N YBODY. DRAWER. W H I C H D I D N O T P R E V E NT H E R F R O M B E I NG C A UG H T O N E D A Y "ITS AWFUL TO WANT TO DO I T A N D NOT BE ABLE TO. OF EVERY L I TT L E AND IT SWARM DEMONS. M Y LlTILE S I STER D I DN'T ENJOY I T A N D DI DN'T WANT TO: I M A D E H E R. ( T H E LITILE S I STER WAS FOUR YEARS OLD AT T H E TIM EIl I GOT 80R E D P L A Y I N G TH E G A M E ON M Y OWN: I WA NTED SOM EON E TO DO IT WITH M E . WE "IT WAS A FT E R THAT I R E P E N TED. NOTH I N G M A TI E R S SO LONG AS I CAN DO ITI A F U RTH E R P ROOF THAT THE POOR C H I LO THE SUFFERED FROM M E NTAL A B E R RATION WAS FACT THAT N O T ONLY D I D S H E PRACTI SE O N A N I S M I N A L L ITS R E F I N E M E NTS. I B LA M E D EVERYONE. AFTERWARDS I M A D E F R I E N D S W I TH A LITILE BOY I L I K E D VERY M UCH. THAT WAS W H E N I STA R T E D STIC K I NG U P BITS OF WOOD OFTEN AND I RUBBING A HARD ( V AG I N A L O N A N I S M ). H O R R I B LEI I'VE N E V E R A B L E S I GHTI FORGOTIEN THAT A BOM I N ­ "WE DID LOTS OF T H E S E HOR RORS WITH Y . OR ROC K I N G BACKWARDS AND FORWA RDS ON A CHAIR. KI LLED A N YO N E TRI E D MOMENTS LIKE THAT IT'S AS !F I'M G!DDY. VOLUPTUOUS SPASM BY USED PALM FROND X . AT P E R F O R M I NG HORRORS W I T H H E R PRAYE R-BOOK I N A C RO W D E D C H U RC H . OUT S E N S U A L PLEA S U R E T H E SPI RITUAL ECSTASY OF SACRILEGE. IN A DD I T I O N TO T H E PROVO K E D PRACTI S E S A LR E A D Y C ITED. A N D I D I D THE S A M E HORRORS W I TH H I M . " ( A PPARENTLY T H I S PALM FRON D GAVE HER OT H E R FO R E I G N MORE SATI SFACTION THAN ANY BODY B E C A USE IT ADDED TO R U B B I N G H E R S E L F ON T H E ANGLES OF F U R N I T U R E. . B U T LATER I H A D TO RUB H A R D E R A N D HA RDER. G R A SS. HOW TO DO I T AND W E USED TO TOUCH EACH OTHER. I LIKE GOI NG TO C H U RC H AND R E A D I N G TH E B I B L E . O R K E PT LI FTI N G ONE OF H E R F E ET. BUT ITS A LWAYS BEST R E A L LY WHEN YOU C A N DO I T WITH EXACTLY T H E T H I N G Y O U F E E L L I K E A T T H E M O M ENT. T H E F I RST TI M E H E C A M E THOUGH.

S H E COULD SHE P R E TE N D E D TO FALL OR S TU M B L E O V E R BE STO P P E D . X . ATTENTION A N D G I V E . A N D ACCOM PAN I E D BY PA I N S SO VIOLENT TH E Y MADE TH E CHILO SCREAM. X . A BETTER WAY OF PUTTING I T WOU LD BE TO SAY THAT AT FIRST. W H I C H S H E R E L E A S E D B Y PRESSING IT WITH H E R FOOT. A S SOON A S TH E F I R ST TOOK PLACE. X . T H I S MONOTONOUS NOISE I S OFTEN K E PT U P F O R A G OO D PART O F T H E N I GHT. THUS P R O VO K I N G PHYSICAL DESI R E TA K E PART I N TH E S E SPASMODIC CONTRACTIONS. FROM TH E S E NOCTU R N A L SCENES. S H E B R A C E D H E R WHOLE BODY A S STI F F L Y A S SHE COU LD. . BUT A IF SHE HAD TI M E TO WO R K SOM ETH I NG I N O R D E R T O R U B AGA I N ST I T .OF WOOD. T H E N X . PUT I NTO H E R STRAI T J A CKET A N D C H A STITY B E LT I P U B I C BANDAGE). T H E VAGIN A'S CONSTRICTOR I S M A D E TO CHEC K I N G TH E I RR E S I STABLE D E S I R E TO SATI SFY H E R PASSION. TO STI M U LATE THE MORAL AS SHOWN SEXU A L PA RTS. X . HER ANUS AS AT TH E END OF CEREBRAL A N D G E N ITAL. THE D I STA N C E CONSECUTIVELY TO T H E C E R E B R A L STI M U LUS. AN ETH I C A L N E U ROSIS IN THE BY THE FOLLOW I N G AS W E HAVE A L R E A D Y STATED. FRIGID PHYSICALLY SPEAKI NG.. . IN E F F ECT. I T W A S A THOUGHT. A N D A HEARD SOME DULL. WAS G I V E N A GOOD SLAP A S SOON A S S H E B E G A N . OFTEN BOTH C H I LD R E N SUFFE R E D FIT O F N E RVOUS TR E M B L I N G T H A T G A I N E D A L L H E R L I M BS. . THE M O R E QUICKLY THE DISCHARGE OC C U R E D. STI L L M UTE A N D U N R ES PONSIVE. A C E R E B R A L I M PULSE THAT INCITED X. I N H E R I T WAS C E RTA I N LY D U E TO M O R A L PERVERSITY. STRUGGLED L I K E O N E POSSE S S E D. THE C H I LD'S PATI E N C E AND CUNNING WERE TRULY A M AZI NG! T O TH E I R B E D . HOLDS H E R B REATH M O M E NTARI LY. . THOSE IN C H A RG E O F THE C H I L D SAY I T IS ODIOUS TO H A V E TO LI STEN TO I T IN TH E SILENCE W I TH ONLY TH E N IGHT-LIG H T B U R N I NG. . B Y TH E A LT E R N A T I V E CON­ TRACTING AND R E L A X I NG O F THE ANAL SPHI NCTE R A N D A N A L LEVATOR. OR THE S I M I LA N C E OF THE TO N G U E AGA I N ST T H E PALATE. SOMETI M E S MORE THAN A N H O U R TO R E A C H THE FI N A L VOL U PTUOUS SPASM IN THIS WAY. A S IF N A I L E D IF S H E SAW SOME SCR U B S H E STR A D D LE D IT A N D R U B B E D H E R S E L F B A C K A N D FORTH. D U R I N G WH I C H IT W A S 27 . AND X . • • IS S U D D E N LY TO OVERCOM E BY TH E I R R ES I ST I B L E DESI R E COMMIT H E R HORRORS. THAT IS TO SAY. AS A R E S U LT O F C O N S I D E R A B L E A B U S E . . W E L L BROUGHT-U P S I N C E C H I LDHOOD. SHE IS TIED UP. S H E CONTRACTS H E R N EC K TO H A BITS I MPULSES: M A K E IT SWELL. A LEWD I NSTI NCT. A FTER HAVI NG LEARNT OFTEN SHE LOCATE D A S H R U B TO B E M A D E USE OF S E V E R A L DAYS LATER. WOULD ATTA I N H E R OBJ ECTI V E I N WAYS THAT WERE I NCONCE I V A B L E IN A LITTLE GIRL OF GOOD FA M I LY. . R H YTH M I C SOU N D C A N BE AWAY. I N D U LG E I N THE S A M E M USC U L A R CONTRACTION S A N D PROD U C E T H E S A M E SOU N D S I M ULTANEOUSLY. THE N E E D T O MASTURBATE DID NOT ORIGI N ATE FROM THE SEXU A L ORGA N S. SHE C A N N OT SO R E S I ST P U TT I N G IT TO R E PEATED CONTACTS. TH E V U LVA SWELLS. . AT THAT PERIOD S E X U A L E R ETH I S M WAS SUCH THAT A S I NGLE TOU C H WAS E NOUGH TO PRODUCE ORGA S M . BY THE R E PETITION OF THESE MOVEM ENTS W H I C H I H A D HER PERFORM I N FRONT OF M E. THUS. BEGAN TO PRACTI S E O N A N I S M I T WAS NOT TH ROUGH TH E EXIGENC I E S O F NATU R E . A Q U I C K K I C K OF T H E H E E L TO H E R PA RTS. AFTE R W H I C H S H E STARTS SQU E EZ I N G D E F EC A T I O N . T H I S W A S FOLLOW E D B Y A TETA N I C STATE LASTING S E V E R A L M I N UTES. T H E MORE S U D D E N TH E TOUCH . M A K E S E FFORTS A S IF S H E WANTED TO BLOW H E R NOSE O R E X PECTORATE.. B E CA M E I N C A PA B L E OF T H U S . . IT REPERCUTED A S IF B Y LIGHTNI N G ON THE SEXUA L ORGA N S . . A LTER N ATIVE OPE N I N G AND CLOS I N G OF T H E LA B I A PUDENDI UNLIKE PRODUCES THAT A SMACKING FROM SOUND. AT TH E POI NT IN HER H I ST O R Y WAS WHICH CON C E R N S U S AT TH E HER DISAS­ MOMENT. YET. TH E C H I LD R E N R E M A I N I M MO B I LE. WHEN. ONLY LATER DID I T BECOME G E N ITAL WHEN TH E CLITO R I S AND VAG I N A ROUSED AND MADE SENSITIVE BY EXA M P LE: THOUGH WATC H E D O V E R B Y T H E E Y E S O F A RG U S . H E R F E E T A R E ATTA C H E D. I F. . WHEN X . . I N T H E MONTH OF J U N E . BUT THAT WAS NOT A LL! B Y C U N N I NG A N D PRACTI CE X . . MASTURBATION WAS E N C EPHALIC. WHICH PERTU R B T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M . X . A N D FELL I NTO C LON I C OR TON I C CONVULSIONS. A L L A T O N C E S H E WOULD STOP A N D EXCLA I M : "LOOK A T THAT P R E TTY F L OW E R I " S I MPLY TO D I V E RT HERSELF SUDDEN I N TE R R U PTION BEFORE THE CLIMAX CAUSED TH E OUTBR E A K OF T E R R I B L E STOR MS. SAYS I T TAKES A LONG TI M E . TROUS D R I V E N TO CONTI N U E BY TWO DIFFERENT E X E C UT I O N . OFTEN. S E N S E. GOT THE I DEA OF M A ST U R BATI NG. U P. . . SC R E A M E D. . GAVE R I S E I N TH E I R T U R N TO THE LASCIVIOUS CONC E PT. . A N D YET T H E VOLUPTUOUS S ENSATION I S A BSOLUTELY ESSENTI A L ONCE SHE GETS THE IDEA. A N D P R E T E N D T O B E A S L E E P. P R I N C I PALLY THE LEGS. A NOT R E S U LT I N G S U D D E N LY OPEN I NG OF T H E L I P S W H E N TH E MOUTH H A S B E E N CLOSED. FROM A X . .

T R I BUTED FU RTH E R T O TH E C H I LD R E N'S W E A K E N E D STATE. :S WAS TO OUTWIT T H E MAID IF PRESENTED WITH A C RU C I F I X X . . PURPOSE. H E R O N E A N D ON LY THOUGHT I S TO G E T H E R H A N DS ON H E R PA RTS.S TO THE H A N D S A N D FEET OF THE TWO C H I LD R E N OUT O F H E R STR A I T-JACKET A T M E A L T I M E S. EVEN S O . FOR A BOUT TH R E E MONTHS THINGS CONTI N U E D I N T H E S A M E WAY. ON ONE OCCASION. ALL H E R. PALPITATIONS WITH A T E N D E N C Y TO LI POTHYMY. S H E WOU LD J U M P UP FROM H E R CHA I R A N D PA C E U P A N D DOWN T H E BEDROOM: S H E COULDN'T SLEEP A N D D E C L A R E D SHE SPENT TWO OR TH R E E NIGHTS AT A T I M E WITHOUT CLOS I N G H E R EYES. O R E LSE. I NC A PABLE OF KEEPING STILL. S H E STOLE A HAIRPIN A N D HID IT IN HER MOUTH UNTIL SHE FOU N D A FAVOU R A B L E THIS GAVE HER SUCH A FRIGHT SHE WAS GOOD FOR SEV E R A L H E A LT H DAYS WAS A FT E R W A R D S .I M POSSIBLE FOR H E R TO PERFORM THE SLIG HTEST MOV E M ENT: SHE WAS A R I G I D AND MOTI ONLESS AS A FROG SUBJECTED TO VIOLENT E LECTRIC SHOCKS. B E GG I N G TO BE 28 . SHE IS ONLY FULLY I NTRODUCES I NTO H E R SEXUAL PARTS. TH E FORK I S SNATC H E D ATTAC H E D W I TH T H E I R STRAIT-JA C K ETS. S H E C A NNOT B E LEFT ALON E F O R A MOM E N T. . AND IN A DDITION TO T H E STAFF. • VIGILANCE OF H E R G U A RDIANS. NO R E D M E AT. AGED A BOUT SIX. HAS MOMENTS IS ON OF THE SUDDEN TEMPERATURE THAT LAST E D SEVERAL HOURS: S H E HAD ER RATIC PA I N S IN ALL O V E R HER OF HER BODY AND REMORSE. S H E IS MOVED TO TEARS BY I T S T E N D E R A FFECTI O N . OFTEN ONE SPOKE OF OF THE D E V I L WHO C A M E TO AND H E LP HER FREE HER HANDS SiSTER Y . THERE WERE I M PROVE. COM PLA I N E D OF SUBJECT TO A H E A DACHES: S H E WAS N ERVOUS RISE IN FROM TI M E TO TI M E X . DOES A LL ONE I N O R D E R TO DANGEROUS PREVENT T H E CAUGHT FROM RED-HA N DED. . . . OR GIVE THEM A K I C K W I T H H E R H E E L. UNDER HER CLOTH ES. B E E R . IT WAS D E C I D E D. A DOSE OF FOU R G R A M M ES OF B R O M I D E OF POTASS I U M P E R D A Y . SUFFOCATION. SHE A RT­ ATTACKS A N X I ETY. A S W E L L AS I N A DEPLORABLE A LLOWED MENTAL ST A T E . W H I LE GETTING U N D R ESSED. OF TH E SAME SC E N E S OF A G I TATION AND LIFE ONE A G R E E A BLE. I DEA BUT TO NO VIOLENCE. :S STATE P ROGR E S S I V E LY WORSENED. SHE MOMENT T O U S E I T . C R Y I N G OUT THAT SHE P R E F E R R E D THE DEVI L WHO H E LP E D LATER HER SHE 00 WHAT S H E WANTED. WENT WITH HER. EVERYTH I N G H A D B E E N WELL ORGA NIZED: TH E DAY DIVI D E D I N SUCH A WAY AS TO OCCUPY EACH MOMENT. W H I L E BATH I N G IN THE S E A S H E USED H E R TOES W I T H ASTO N I S H I NG AGI LITY T O P I C K MOR E U N M A NAGEAB LE. M O V E M E N T. NOT E V E N W H E N R E S PO N D I N G TO U RG E N T CA LLS OF NATURE. AT N IGHT O N E GOES SO F A R AS TO T I E LITTLE B E LI. . AND D I V E RT THEIR ATTENTION FROM VICE BY I N C U LC A T I N G R E L I G I O US S E NT I M E N T S PRAYER AND R E A D I NGS F R O M P I O U S THIS D I ET AND THE PROLONGED BATHS CON· THROUGH WOR K S . B E LT A N D STRAPS AS A L R E A D Y D E SC R I B ED. UP S H E LLS AND L I TT L E STO N E S WHICH SHE I N S ERTED I N T H E PARTS. X . D U R I N G T H O S E BRIEF MOME NTS O F L I B E RTY. . O N E DAY. M I LK. S H E IS U TT E R L Y W O R N OUT. A MOM E N T LATE R SHE I S I N VENTING SOME NEW TACTIC. BUT AT T H E SA M E MOMENT T H E LETTER THAT H A S SO MOV E D HER I S B E I NG ROLLED I N TO A SPOO L WHICH. D OW N W A R D A D M I TT I N G PATH. TO WHOM SHE HAC P E R PETRATE H E R HORRORS. THEY W E R E R E PLAC ED BY SOFT WATER BATHS. TWO GOVERN ESSES WERE ENGAG E D TO WATCH OVER THE C H I LD R E N SEA BATHS HAVING OVER-EXCITED T H E C H I LDREN'S N E RVOUS SYSTEMS. OR I N SERT A F O R K OR TH E H A N DLE OF HER K N I FE. ON R E C E I V I N G A L E TT E R F ROM H E R MOTH E R E XHORTI NG H E R T O I M PROVE. . WITH A RE PETITION WA L K S T W I C E A DAY A N D VARIOUS G A M E S D I D MUCH TO MAKE TH E I R X • . AT TI M E S SHE BECAME HIGHLY AGITATED. S H E WAS I NSTA LLED IN A C H A LET I N T H E M I D D L E OF A GARDEN. OR S E N D H E R TO T H E COUNTRY. W A R M A N D PROLONGED. S H E WOULD SUDDENLY PUT HER FINGERS ON HER PARTS. B U RSTS I N TO TEARS. SHE PREVENT FRICTION. :S G E N E R A L RAPI DLY. WHILE TH E BECAME E V E N W A S D R ESSING H E R . THAT SH E WEEPS AND P R OM I S E S TO SHOOTI N G FREQUENT PA I N S PA RTS. VEGETA B LES. H E R LITTLE X. FOR EXAMPLE. I M PARTED H E R S H A M E F U L H A BITS. BUT IT I S NO M O R E T H A N A D R U N K A R D'S PLEDGE. S H E WOU L D D I V E A N D STAY UNDER WATE R SEVERAL SECONDS IN ORDER TO D ET E R I O R A T I N G VIOLENT M A N I PULATE H E R S E LF. . J U M PS U P BUT HOW F R O M TH E TA B L E A N D Y E L L S AT T H E TOP O F H E R VOI C E : I WANT TO! FOR PITY'S S A K E LET M E DO IT! MUSCLES O F THE P E R I N E U M FROM CONTRACTI N G AND PRODU C I N G VOLUPTUOUS SATI SFACTION IN SPITE OF A L L PRECAUTIONS? AS X . DAY A N D NIGHT T O C H ECK A N Y GUI LTY I NCLINA­ TIONS. IN O R D E R TO AVOID A SCANDAL. A MOMENT WOULD R E P E NT. BITING A N D SPITTI N G ON IT.

. A R A P I D MOV E M E N T ON TH AT P A R T OF M E STARTS OFF A S E N SATION I C A N NOT C O N T R O L . ONE WOU L D HAVE SAID THAT SHE GOT MORE THE 29TH OF A U G U ST X. H E R EXPRESSION THAT O F A MADMAN. I N A F E W SECONDS THE VOLUPTUOU S S E N SATION "TH I S T I M E I T S NOT MY R E AC H E D ITS C L I M A X . SET OFF AN ELECTRIC CURRENT THAT SENT • . IS A LT O G E T H E R PLEA SURE O U T OF OBTA I N I NG SATISFACTION. WHATEVER COERCIVE M E A S U R E S WERE ADOPTED. THE DAY COM E S WHEN S H E TR I E S TO CHI LD'S NIGHT-SH I R T WHEN DRESSI N G H E R." SHE SAID. . I CAN'T SEE A N Y T HI N G!" HER VOI C E BECO M E S SHE DID NOT HAVE H A LL U C I N A TIONS. X. . T H E SENSITIV ITY OF TH E SEXUAL P A R T S H A D BECOM E SO GREAT THAT TH E M A I D . H E R BR EATH I N G BECA M E U N EVEN. "PUT ON MY STR A I T J A C K E T A GA I N . B E N D I NG OVER TO PICK A A QUICK THE TAP ON THE IS FLOWER. THE N EXT S H E H I TS AND BITES H E R . A N D FOUGHT WITH A LL HER WIT AND C U N N I NG A GA I N ST I NFLAM E D." I WAS OBLIGED TO C O M P LY WITH HER GOVERN ESS A N D A H A N D SMOOTH I N G H E R BROW OFTEN C R ISES. I DON'T W A N T THE DEVIL AT T H I S MOM ENT!" ONE DAY IN THE M I DD L E OF A WALK SHE STOPS TWENTY-FOUR FE R R U G I N O U S W I N E. IN P U L L I N G OFF THE RA UCOUS. M I DDLE OF A G R A M M A R LESSON S H E SUDDENLY BEGAN TO SHOUT: "CHASE HIM AWAY. SUCCEED TH E SHE IN C A L M I N G TH E S E NOCTURNAL LOOKS AT BETTER. SHE THROWS H E RSELF I NTO H E R GOV E R N ESS'S A R M S CRYI NG: ''TH ERE HE IS. BY TYING. S H E D I D NOT PROMI S E T O B E GOOD I N THE FUTURE. I HAVE HER F R E E D ENTI R E LY. "I WILL 00 M Y BEST. I PICT U R E T H E F E A R F U L CONSEQU ENCES OF HER H A B I TS. . SYM PATHY. THOUGH IN A MORE MODERATE FASHION. PA RTS H ERSELF HAND WITH HER AND R E S U LT IF ACH I E V E D. TI E M E UP. APPEARED TO BE M E NTALLY CONTORTS WITH FEAR. . TO RESTORE H E R D I G N I TY A N D A WA K E N A SENSE OF HONOUR. T H E CHARMI NG. BY VARIOUS I NSTR U M ENTS. WITH A YELLOWI S H G R E E N DISCHARG E ." ELSE CAN S H A R E I N TH E M . . H E'S HORRIBLE! HOW HIS EYES GLEAM! I'M GOING BLIND. FEW KIND WORDS ATTACHED. K N OC K S TH E SA M E A THING PIECE H A PPENS OF SHE IN COMPLETELY F R E E I F S H E WILL B E SENSI BLE A N D O B E Y M E . . SHE S A I D. S E E I NG TH E LITTLE SUCCESS OBTA I N E D BY M E A N S OF COERCION. AGA I N ST TH E B R UTALITY E M PLOYED. 29 . " C U R I O U S LY DID N OT WANT TO BE LEFT UN­ T R E MORS. "BUT I AM NOT SURE OF S U C C E E D I NG. . B U T I A M QUICK T O A D D : "I F Y O U REFUSE TO LISTEN I W I L L H A V E TO B E C R U E L. B R O M I D E OF POTAS­ SIUM AND AMMONIUM. O R LEANS O N SOM EONE. BUT A SHE O FT E N HAS N E RVOU S FROM TH E T H E R E FO R E ENOUGH SHE I C A N N O T P R O M I S E . "NOBODY FAULT. AND TH E NIGHTS PASS WITH FR EQU E N T R E PETITIONS OF TH E USUAL ABUSE. I T I S EASY TO U N D E R S TA N D TH E UTTER I M PO S S I B I L ITY O F AVOIDING ALL THE OCCASIONS FOR W H I C H S H E WAS ON TH E LOOK-OUT. " I 00 N O T T R U ST MYSELF. THE SLIGHTEST P R ESSU R E PUT ON THE SENSUAL PARTS LEADS TO A N ERETH I S M AS QUICK A S LIGHTN I N G W H I C H C A N B E READ ON HER FACE. . TRYING BY ADVICE A N D K I N D N ESS T O STI M U LATE H E R AMOUR PROPRE. H A PPY. HAS I N D E E D B E COM E THE 26TH OF A U GUST. .PRAYED FOR A N D R E A D T H E PSALMSI SHE ALSO HAD H A LLUCINATIONS D U R I NG THE DAY. AT CERTA I N MOMENTS SHE WA NTS TO BE CUDDLED AND EXPRESSES A S H U DD E R TH ROUGH H E R W H O L E B E I NG. " X . SHE GETS ANGRY I F A N YONE SYM PATH I S E S WITH HER S U FF E R I NGS. ABRUPTLY AND LETS OUT A SCREAM. I N T H E DAYS FOLLO W I N G CALMER." S H E SAYS. . FINA LLY." S H E TOLD M E . T H I C K A N D A B U N DANT. SHE WA NTS TO RUN AWAY FROM E V E R YTH I N G . H E R S K I N D A M P. AT ONE MOMENT SHE E M B R A C E S H E R GOV E R N ESS WITH EFFUSION. S H E EVEN I N SERTS A PAI NT-BRUSH I N TO T H E VAG I N A . THAT S H E J I B B E D AS I T WERE. A STR I K I N G C H A NGE HAS TAKEN PLACE . "YOU GRATITUDE W H E N S H O W N AFFECTION. THUS GIVES X . FOR I HAD NOTI C E D THAT SHE R E B E LLED AGA I N ST TIMES A D A Y . BY SEVERE PUNISHMENT. H E R FACE A S I F I L L U M I N ATED. S H E F R A N K LY A D M I TS T O PROVOK I N G THE VOLUPTUOUS SPASM TWELVE T O E I G H T E E N C H I LD BE LE FT TO H E RS E LF NOW AND TH EN. THROW H E R S E LF OUT OF A SECOND-STORY W I N DOW INTO TH E STR EET B E LOW. I WILL BURN YOU R PARTS WITH A R E D HOT I RONI" ALTHOUGH X . P R O M I S I NG TO LEAVE HER H YPER-SENSITIVE. HER FACE VARIED DIET TO B U I LD UP THE SYST E M . HOURS. I N TH E GREATER THE OBSTACLE S H E HAD BEEN OBLIGED TO OVE RCOME. CHASE HIM TREATME NT: COLD SHOWERS. HER SHE SEEMS WITH C H I LD REQU EST. ALTHOUGH R U L E S W E R E LESS STRICTLY E N FORCED T H A N B E FORE. I I N SI STED THAT THE WORKS L E SSONS PLEAS U R E . THE PARTS ARE HIGHLY SEVERE TREATM E NT. "BECAUSE MY SUFFERINGS ARE SHAM EFULI" PULLED IT OFF TOO QUICKLY. I BEG YOU. WHICH SHE SOUG HT OR C R EATED IN ORD E R TO CONTI N U E HER A B U SES. AT OTH ERS. N EVERTHELESS S H E A D M ITTED TO H AV I N G YI ELDED SEVERAL TIMES TO H E R I N C R I M I N A T I N G M A N I PULA­ TIONS. BY D I NT O F TOUC H I NG A N D E XC IT I N G H E RS ELF. X FLU S H E D. APPEARED TO BE M OV E D BY MY MARKS OF A G A I N ST FURNITURE PASSI NG. TWO G R A M M ES EVERY A AWAY. ON TH E CONTRA RY.

H E R VOI C E GROWS HOA RSE. A R E EQUALLY ODIOUS. HER. "SAVE M E. M A R RY." N EXT D A Y SHE HAS A F I T OF DESI RE. "IF O N LY HER A I HAD N EV E R BEEN "WE SHE NOT SAYS T O HAVE • . KNOW K I LL I N G I N ST I N CTIVELY ATTRACTED B Y T H E I D E A OF T H E PLEAS U R E T O BE H A D I N SEXUAL R E LATIONS. K E E PS UP AN AND SHE SOM ETI M E S H E R FACE IS F L U SH E D A N D S H E HAS A ROVING EYE: AT OTH E R S SHE IS PALE AND CON VERSATION. H E RSELF BUT RECITES THE POE M S VI SIT. . S H E CAUSES A SCANDAL. SHE WAS TOLD A BOUT THE MYTH I C A L POWERS OF FA I R I ES TO OBTA I N WHATEVER THEY DESI RE. THOUGHT I S T O S U CC E E D. IS I NC A PA B L E OF A N YT H I N G : READI NG. BUT HER I NCONS I STENCIES ARE E N DLESS. S H E G R I M AC E S . "I A M ASKING HIM TO M A K E M E DIE. TIE MY F E ETI" A FEW MOMENTS LATE R SHE FALLS INTO A STATE OF PROSTRATION. MYSELF. " WO U L D AGA I N . FOR I N STANCE. R E P L I E S AT ONCE WITH A S M I LE ON H E R LI PS: "NOT M E-I'M NO S A I NTI" THE GOV E R N ESS. . "00 YOU TH I N K TH E ONLY H A P P I N ESS I S I N B E I N G M A R R I ED?" H E R GOV E R N ESS A S K E D . HA LLUCI NATIONS A N D M E NTAL A B E RRATIONS. THERE IS BUT SHE FOA M ON H E R LI PS. S H E W I T H H ELL. HER FEATU R E S TWITC H . S H E T R I E S N O T T O OR SOMEONE TRIES TO STOP H ER." WHICH ONE DAY. G A M E S . X. " W H A T C H A O S R E I G N S I N T H A T LITTLE H E A D I A T TI M E S S H E S A Y S : "YOU W I LL SAVE M E W I T H GOD'S H E LP." SHE A N SW E R E D. I M U ST 00 ITI STOP ME. A SURE SIGN OF INCREASING TENSION. O R BALANCING O N ONE FOOT A FT E R T H E OTH ERS. SHE I M AG I N E S THAT A PLAGUE OF THE HOUSE AND THAT SHE HORRORS . THE GOV E R N E S S T R I E S TO CONTROL KICKS BACK. . FOR SOME TI M E X . I CANT STOP M YSELF." SHE FANCIES S H E I S A L R E A DY DEAD. H E R EXCITE M E N T M O U NTS. IN THE LITTLE VI LLAGE T H E Y COM E TO. I S OVERCOME B Y T H E D E S I R E T O 00 I T .S H E B EHAVES PROPER LY. A L READY SHE SEEMS BECO M E S GIVEN SWEET AND G ENTLE. S H E S E E S THE T E R R I B L E H E A D WITH ITS GREEN D E V I LS EYES. S H E WALKS ABOUT R ESTLESSLY." S H E SAYS. DESPITE THE PLEA D I N G S O F HER GOV E R N ESS. ROLLI NG H E R EYES A N D LOOKI N G U P AT THE C E I L I NG. THE D U R I NG THE I R I N D EC E N T OUTING IN M OS T FASHION I N FRONT O F PASSERS-BY. H E R L I P S N E V E R STOP TWITC H I NG. THIS TI M E I N TH E P R E S E N C E O F A STRANGER. G R I N D I NG H E R TEETH. . BEEN DISGRACE TO T H E FA M I LYI" A N D Y ALL THESE R E P L I E S : "WHY D I D YOU TEACH M E T H E N ?" U P S ET BY THIS WI LD-EYED. R E PEATI NG: " I DONT WANT TO. HOLD MY H A N DS. I COU L D DIE WITHOUT SETTLE ON WHAT H E R S E LF T U R N S I NTO A DEMONI COMM ITTING S U I C I DE. W I T H TH E HELP OF A SERVANT. S H E K E E PS MOVING H E R H E A D ABOUT. W H I C H M A K E S HER VERY HA PPYI SHE I S SURE OF BEING I N TOUCH WITH THE DEVI L AND H A V I NG M Y STE R I O U S C O N N ECTI O N S I S I N A T E R R I B LY OVER-EXCITED STATE. S H E LA UGHS O U T LOU D S E A T E D ON A C H A I R. D U R I NG THESE BOUTS X . I OON'T WANT TO. D U R I N G THE VISIT OF A RELATIVE A N I M ATED SINGS A SHE IS VERY PO L I T E . BALLAD. S H E D E C LA I MS. A L L A T ONCE H E R E X P R E S S I O N BECO M E S C Y N I CAL. H E R O N LY DOM I N ATI NG TH R E ATENEDI A N D HOW H U M I LIATI NG TO B E FORC E D TO M E N D MY W A Y S I N STEAD OF B Y M Y O W N F R E E W I L L ." SHE C A N NOT CONTROL SHE WALKS H ERSELF. T H E I N ST I N CT O F P R E S E R VATION SOMETI M E S STRONGE R T H A N T H E A LL U R E S O F VICEI S H E E X P LA I N S HOW S H E SHOULD B E T I E D SO THAT SHE C A N NOT POS S I B L Y ATTA I N HER OBJEC­ TIVE. • L I TT L E S I STER. OFTEN S H E C A NNOT K E E P STI LL. H E R NOST R I L S F LA R E I L A T E R . X K I LL MEl SAYS: " I F SO MEONE WOULD ONLY JOY. SHE L A M ENTS THAT I T I S TOO LATE A N D THAT S H E IS LOST FO R E V E R I HER H A LL UC I N A TIONS R ETU R N . I S GLOOMY DU R I N G TH E WALK. THAT SHE THE A FT E R NOON OF T H E 1 4TH OF SEPTEM B E R X • • . "WHAT I DESI RE. X . PUTS A STOP TO THE SC E N E BY BRINGING HER H O M E 30 . 'TH E R E A R E M A N Y U N M A R R I E D WOM E N WHO ARE U S E F U L A N D CONTE NT. IT SHOULD BE N O T E D TH AT EXCESSIVE ONANISM IS I N EVITABLY F O L LOW E D BY SUCH GASPS. S H E CALMS OONW A N D I S H E RS E L F BO R N . ." S H E SAYS. W H E N SPEAKING A FT E R TOU C H E S SEVERAL T I M E S.. ATTEM PTS A R E M A D E I N VA I N T O I M PO S E A RESPECT FOR DECORU M . "I BEGGI NG I'M TO BE A N OT H E R C H A NC E . CONVERSATION. PAC I N G U P A N D OOWN TH E B E D R OO M . OR PUTS O N A I RS. • • R E PROACH . "I A M SO AFRAID OF THE OPERATION THE DOCTOR WITHOUT R H Y M E O R R E A SO N ." AND HER EYES SH I N E WITH JOY. TO A M USE HER. LI STLESS. " I S THAT TH E R E SHOULD BE AS MANY MEN AS LA D I E S ON EA RTH SO THEY C A N PROVES THAT A FT E R A DESPERATE IS STR U G G L E . . HAS BEEN THI NKING A GREAT DEAL A BOUT M A R R I AG E . E N T E R S A HOUSE WITHOUT B E I N G SEEN A N D DOES H A R M TO EVE RYONE IN IT.. AT OTH ERS. H E R E Y E S DART I N A L L D I R ECTIONS. LATER. COM PLAI N I NG THAT GOO I S UNJ UST TO HER BEC A U S E H E H A S G I V E N HER EVE RYTH I N G TO MAKE HER H A PPY A N D NOW TAKES I T AWAY F ROM H E R.

EXCESSIVE SMACKI N G SOU N D OF T H E V U LVA W H I C H S H E K E PT UP MOST OF THE NIGHT IN CONCERT WITH HER A B U S E . CONC E R N I NG LATTE R . T O SUCH A STATE O F I M BE C I LI TY. AS A R E S U LT. I T I S C A U S E D B Y T H E OPE N I NG A N D CLOS I N G O F T H E LA B I A P U D E N D I BUT THE MOMENT SHE G ET S THE IDEA OF HER UNDER THE I N FLUENCE OF R H YT H M I C FROM AND THE SATI SFYING HERSELF. S H E A D M I TT E D TO R U B B I NG H E R S E L F WITH HER H A N DS . . AND EVERY TiNG U I S H E D ACA D E M I C I A N . THE PRI E ST TO G I V E H E R CON F E S S I O N . S H E H A S EVEN B E E N KNOWN TO W E E PI ANUS. . I T H A S A S M U CH E FFECT O N Y . BOW E D TO T H E G R O U N D: BUT ALL AT ONCE A D I A BOLIC THOUGHT C ROSSES H E R WRETC H E D M I N D A N D. BUT TH I S DOESN'T PREVENT H E R FROM MODELLI NG H E R C O N D UCT O N THAT O F H E R O L D E R S I STER: T H E S A M E I N D E C E N T MOVE M E N TS WHEN THEY ARE OUT. . I T I S MOST D I STR E S S I NG T O TH I N K THAT S O YOUNG A C H I L D CAN BE S O P E RV E R S E ! S H E A D M I TT E D EVE RYTH I N G SHE H A D DON E D U R I N G M Y A B S E N C E . S E A T E D THAN S H E FLINGS H E R S E L F B A C K A N D ACTS I N SUCH A W A Y AS T O PROVOKE T H E VOLUPT U O U S S E N SATION. . NOT I NTELLIGENT O R A S ATTRACTIVE A S H E R SISTER. FOREIGN BODY S H E COULD F I N D . T H E SAME R US E S T O OUTWITH HER G U A R D I A N S. J U LES G U E R I N . U N FORTU NATELY. E N E RGETIC CONTRACTIONS STARTI N G S P E EC H BECOM E S J E RKY. HER EYES SHI NE. THE SERVANT'S PRESENCE I N N O W A Y D I SS U A D E S HER FROM TH I S S H A M E LE S S BY BEHAVIOUR. DURING MY JOURNEY TO LONDON FOR I THE WAS P R A YS FERVE NTLY. TH E SAME TO R M E N T E D REMORSE. "TO TELL YOU A BO U T MY H O R RO R S : ' A FT E R SO M E BLOOD. AFTER A LL OTH E R TREATME NTS H A D FA I LE D . I S N O T YET SIX. N OTH I N G COULD BE MORE D I ST R E S S I N G UNDER THAN OUR TH E EYES. DR. BECAUSE OF HER STU R D Y THE 8TH O F S E PTE M B E R. . C H I LD. A S I T H A D O N T H E E L D E R S I STER: T H E P U B I C B A N DA G E I S EQUALLY U N S UCCESSFUL.IN A C A R R I A G E . H A RDLY IS X . . THE PRI ESrS CASSOCKI I N TE R N A T I ON A L M EDICAL CONGRESS. ASKES TRICKS W H E N S H E I S ATTACHED TO T H E B E D . BATHED IN TEARS. WITH ANY MONTHS. I S A DOPTED B Y Y . . FORTU N ATE ENOUGH TO M E ET DR. G U E R I N A F FI R M E D THAT. V E N E R E A L DESI R E S . "I A M A S H A M ED. S I R :' S H E S A I D. M A K I NG TH E M OST OF H E R I N C L I N E D POS I T I O N . . WHO I S X . T H E SA M E H A R S H M ETHODS U S E D O N X . I SUBMITTED CHILDREN THE TO HOPELESS CASE OF THE TWO AND OUR E M I N E NT COLLEAGU E ASKED H I S A D V I C E . TH E SA M E L A C K OF S UC C ESSI TAKES PLACE V E N ERABLE P R I EST G I V E S H E R I N STRUCTION. . A T M Y I N S I ST E N C E . A N D H O W S H E PROD U C E D T H E OFT E N R O U S E S D E S I R E B Y A S E R I E S O F P R E PA RA­ TORY BODY MOVE M E NTS. A S A R E S U LT O F PROVOK E D STI M U LATION.R E D I N WITH OF A COLO U R . . . H E R S A L I VA A B U N DANT. S H E N O LON G E R U N D E RSTA N D S W H A T I S SA I D T O H E R . . SC E N E THAT WHILE THE S A M E T R E A T M E NTS A D M I N I ST E R E D T O X . I NOTE THAT T H E CONSTITUTION S H E I S W H I P P E D SO FORCI B LY T H E BUTTOCK S A R E STR I P E D BY D E E P ECCHYMOSE. I DEC I D E D TO E X P E R I ­ M E NT F I RST ON L I TT L E Y . "BUT 31 . . . HE HAD SUCCEEDED IN CURING YOUNG G I R LS I W I L L CUT AS SHORT A S POS S I B L E T H E H I STORY OF LITTLE Y . SWOLLEN L A B I A . TH E LITTLE O N E COPI E D E V E R YTH I N G TH E 81G ONE D I D. S H E SHOWED M E WHAT S H E D I D I N B E D I N O R D E R T O GET A T H E R S E LF. THE P OO R CHILD IS EXT R E M E L Y VOLU B I LE. SHE IS A LTHOUGH BY WELL B U I LT REDUCED. . S H E B E G S M E N O T TO BURN H E R A N D R E MOVE SMALL HER IS EVEN VERY G RA TE F U L W H E N I J A CKET. A R E E MPLOYED ON Y . A TH I C K ODOR DISCHARGE IN SPITE A R EPULSIVE P E R S I STS SEVERA L A B LUTIONS THE R E PEATED WHOSE TIMES DAY. . T R E M B L I N G I N E V E RY L I M B . THE TWO C H I LD R E N WERE NOT ON MY RETURN TO CONSTANTINOPLE I HAD NO D I F F I C U LTY I N P E R S U A D I NG THE F A M I L Y TO FOLLOW THE R E CO M M E N DA T I O N P ROPOS E D BY T H E D I S­ S E PA R ATED. A T S U C H TI M E S S H E I S P A L E A N D C ROSS-EYED. . J . THE G E N I TA L ORGANS ARE SO P R E C OC I O U S L Y D E V E LOPED T H E R E A R E A LR E A D Y T U FTS OF H A I R ON T H E LABIA P U D E N D I A LTHOUGH Y . SHE TH E 28TH. W H I C H SET T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M I N MOTION A N D SPREAD TO T H E LA RGE. I N FLA M E D Y E L LO W AND THE SEXUAL PA RTS ARE VERY STR A I T ARE LABIA SCORED BY P E R P E N D I C U LA R WOUNDS. W E H A V E A L R E A D Y DESC R I B E D I N DETA I L THE MEC H A N I S M O F T H I S SOU N D W H I C H C A N B E H E A R D S E V E R A L M ETERS AWAY. SEVERAL HAVE ALREADY G ETS VERY BEEN ACTIVE WOR K E D UP FOR AND HESITATI O N . . WITH HER F E E T. . X . PRACTICE I N V E N T E D BY X . BUT R EASONS L I K E A G I R L OF 1 6. AND A L E RT. . S I STER. . FOR A S H E OFTEN R E P ROAC H E S H E R SISTER F O R H A V I N G TAUGHT H E R SUCH HOR RORS. . . S H E R U B S H E R PA RTS W I T H . . :S SISTER A N D WHOM I HAVE A LREADY M E N TI O N E D THE WHEN R E LA T I NG SHE IS FACTS AS A F FECT E D BY THE VICE OF ON A N I S M BY B U R N I N G THE CLITO R I S WITH A HOT IRON. TRACES O F I N J U R I ES I N FLICTED YESTER­ DAY BY A TABLE FORK! TH E ORI FICE O F T H E VAGI N A I S BRIGHT R E D . . . H A N DS J OI N E D TOG ETH E R .

ONG A N D REPEATED F R I CT I O N IS R EQ U I R E D ROU N D TH E MADE OVER L. WHAT CAN I DO?" HER E XCESSES CONTI N U E SHE AND HER TH E CA UTERI SATION. I S H E R U B S HER PA RTS AGA I NST T H E OECORATION ON ITS L. SHE SAYS.D SHOWE RS. THIS I S 32 .VES." SHE SA ID. I MAKE A GREAT AND LOI N S WITH TH E BIG I RON. EVE RYTH I NG WAS READY FOR THE TRANSCURRENT C A U T E R I S ATI O N . E BUT I CAUTERISED T H E THREE M I L. WITH A L. H A D B E E N GOOD EVER S I N C E K E E P S R E PEATI NG: "'I F O N L. BURN YOU WITH THE BIG I RON N EXT TI M E AND WITHOUT PITY:' C H A N C E TO TOU C H H E RSEL. Y I C O U L O O l E ! I K N O W I WIL. HOWEVER. S I R . WHO SOBS A N D VOC I F E R ATES.US W A S R U N G . I T BECOMES RED HOT.EG. .A I N S OF H E R B U R NS. STOO P I N G OVER A L. O W E D Y .ONE I S NOT E N OUGH TO PROOUCE ORGASM. C U R E M E .ITORIS.E y . E y . S A M E:' SISTER DOES THE THE 1 5TH .L. "'YOU D I D NOT K E E P YOUR PROMISE. OF BURNI NG COA L. . SHE SWEARS SHE WIL.ESS S I N C E THE CAUTERI SATION. COL.Y THE S I U M . • P U N I S H M E N TS I N F L I C T E D O N H E R BECO M E S VERY DESPONDENT.L NOT B E N A UG H TY AGA I N AND A D M I TS TO BEING ooUBL. A DMITTED T O HAVI NG I T .UTA R Y S I ST E R.EFT BEFORE SHE WAS AT IT AGA I N WORSE TH A N EVER.ICATIONS. BECAUSE THE CL. HER. H ER BUT.ITTL. . E FFECT. . DON E QUESTION I E D.F BY SAYING IT WAS I M POSSIBL.E.ITTL..Y HAD I L..L. B U T SOUGHT TO J U STI FY HERSEL.K AND VERY GOOD OF A TH E AT N IGHT.Y I N S ENSITIVE BUT EXTR EM EL. '''TH E P A I N IS HORRIBL. EXPL. . SECO N D CA UTERISATION.ITORIS IS NOT ONL. WEAK.. " 1 FOU N D OUT FOR MYSE L. IN A YESTEROAY W H E N TH E A NGEL..D H E R.OST I F SHE CONTI NUES T H E WAY SHE IS G O I N G I BUT I F S H E F A I L. L.ATER." I SAID TO H E R . FOR BUT THE B E FO R E PROM I S E S AN HOUR I THE TEARS BY AND Y. THE OPERATION PROVED TO HAVE HAD AN . R E L.AY OF BRAZIERS FUL.L. "IT F E E L.AMP. SU PPL.I­ STY L. TH I R D CA UTERISATION OF L. S H E BEGAN TO SHIVER. SHE T R E M B L.. S MY NICE WHEN I S E L.TH RUINED A N D HER RE PUTATION L.E TABL. SOBBING.A R M I NG: IS PALE." I N F E R N A L.THOUGH L. I TEL. S H E I S NONE THE L. S H E WAS VERY W E L.E. I BL. N E V E R DO I T AGA I N :' AL. HER FACE TOOK ON AN TW I N K L I NG U NDER BECA M E H A NDS HER D I SA P P E A R E D AND Y. . "I WIL.ACE AN ENORMOUS I RON I N THE FORM OF A N AXE.F. X. S E E ! N G TH E TH E 1 4TH OF SEPTEMBER. SHE T R I E D TO RUN AWAY.ESS ON THE L.F MUCH L.ENT. . THE SUPERVISION OF Y • ."' I TOL. S I N C E T H E FI RST C A U T E R I SATION SHE H A SN'T H A D TH E S A M E DESI R E TO EXCITE H E RS E L. BECO M E S POSS I B L.L. IN A STA BL. BUT H A R DL. S H E T H R U STS A PIECE OF WOOD I NTO THE VAGI N A . BROMIDE OF POTAS­ O R I F I C E OF T H E VAG I N A . L. "I SEE T H A T TH I S DISPL.L. E S AT T H E S I G H T OF A L. S T O KEEP H E R WOR D SHE W I L.OOK OUT FOR ANY M ETERS I N D I A M ETER H E ATED OVER A SPIRIT L.ECTU R E WIL. I A PPL. I TT L.L. BEHAVED ON THE WAL. O R I V E N BY THE I R R E S I STABL. E . BE HER. L. HOT POI NT T H R E E TIMES TO EACH OF T H E L. BECA USE I C A N GO FOR MORE T H A N TWENTY-FOUR HOURS WITHOUT DOING A HORROR. TO P U N I S H H E R FOR O I SOBEDIENCE. OR A C R I M I N A L. L. D HAVE TO BE TIED UP LIKE AN A N I M A L.. H E R LOWE R LI M BS HAVE OEOEMA AL.IBE RTY. L. THEY A R E P R EVENTED FROM OOI NG SO. L.WHO SHOWED YOU HOW TO 00 SUCH I N FAMOUS W H A T H A P P E N S W I T H BOTH SISTERS W H E N . L. I TT L.OW ON I T U NTIL.E.AST. FO U G H T TH E 1 9TH. "' SHE R E P L.L H A V E TO U N DE RGO THE S A M E TORTURE. SHE W A S REMINDED OF THE SESSION WITH THE FIRE AND K E PT UNDER B EC A M E IN THE DAYS THAT F O L.ARGE LA B I A ANO A N OTH E R O N THE CL. L. BE BURNT ON MY N EXT VISIT. PHYSIOGNOM I E HER HANDS SUDDEN C H A NGE. T H E S E M ETHOD W I L. TH AT YOU S H O U L. SUPERVISION.L. GOI NGS O N . "IT IS DISGRACEFUL. SHOOK AS THEY A L. .F. THEN BROKE DOWN. "I'L. CONTRACT A N D SQU E EZE. CRYI NG: "TH E SOU N O O F T H E BE LLS M A KES M E TH I N K OF T H E DAY O F J U D G E M E NTr' THE RED P L. A FTER NOON U N OERWENT 1 5T H . THE 1 6TH.Y P A I N F U L. E A TS IN TH E DRESS FACE. TOW A R O E V E N I NG S H E C A PRICIOUS.A I N I NG THAT HER H E A L.E TO RESIST THE CRAVI NG.Y G U I LTY BEC A USE. AT L.EFT AT L. ON THE STATE B E C O M E S A L. " A N D I'L.ET N E XT DAY S H E COMPL. SHOW YOU THAT YOU MADE A M I STAKE BY K E E P I NG M I N E:' I SHOW E D H E R THE CLITORIS BIG H O T I RON. " I F YOU DO IT AGAIN.MOST TO TH E K N E E . I E D . SHE I M M EDIATE AND S A L. TO THE TOU C H . SHE ABUSES H E RSEL.E A N D REWARDING.S IN WHICH I PL. SHE EXPRESSION OF TERROR A N D H E R E Y E S FL. I C A U T E R I S E BUTTOCKS THE HER 1 1 TH OF SEPTE M B E R I N ORDER TO FRIGHTEN AS MUCH AS POSS I B L.WAYS O l D W H EN SHE WAS ON THE POINT OF · P E R P E T R A T I N G ONE OF HER OF HER CRIME.OODED WITH TEARS.E OESIRE T O TOUCH TH EM­ THI NGS?" I ASKED HER. TOUCH I NG A L.F B U T STOPS A S SOON A S SHE IS THREATE N E D WITH B U R N I NG. THIN.

. . NONETHELESS SHE DOES IT TWO OR TH R E E TI M ES E V E R Y TWENTY· FOU R H O U RS. Y . SHE VICIOUS R U B B I NG HAS DISAPPEA R E D . . AS TO X . T H E GOVE R N ESS IS E N C HANTED M O R E AND BEFORE H A N D. WITHOUT ANY MEDICAL N I G H T SHE SUCCEEDS I N R U BB I N G H E RSELF TILL T H E BLOOD COMES ON THE STRAPS THAT B I N D HER. • :S C LITORIS. • . BUT LYING ON HER BACK TO A VO I D A N Y R U B B I NG O N THE CHAI R'S E DGE. H A V I NG IN GENERAL FULL L I B E RTY OF ACTION. . IN SPITE OF SUCH TOGETH ER. . SAYING: "TUR N TH E PAGE. A T OTH E R T I M E S S H E BECA M E D E LI R I OUS. I CAUTERISE T H E CLITOR I S A N D E N T R Y T O THE VAGINA. C A UG H T IN TH E ACT BY THE GOV E R N ESS SHE HAS A N D U N A B L E T O SATISFY H E RS E LF. FOR T H E C H I L D OBTA I N E D SATI S FACTION BY S LI P P I N G A LONG FEATHE R INSIDE THE OPERATION S H E I S P E RFECTLY GOOD. AT TIMES SHE H A D VISUAL H ALLUCI NATIONS. S H E RUBBED T H E V A G I N A S O VIOLENTLY WITH A PIECE OF BRONZE S H E B L E D F R E E LY. WHOSE PATI ENT WAS A L I TT L E GIRL OF THREE. EXA M I NATION O F T H E C H EST R E V E A L S N OTHI NG. I N THE CASE O F TH E TWO LITTLE S I STERS. S H E C A N N O LONG E R K E E P UP WITH LESSONS. F I N A LLY. TO OBVIATE ANY F R I CTION. M A DE M O I S E LLE. AND THAT O F D E S L A N D E S. SAME TH E I R I NDECENT ACTS I N T H E P A S T D U R I NG OUTINGS: S H E TH ROWS H E RS E L F ON T H E BUSHES. X . BUT TH E N S H E R E T U R N S W I T H R E N E W E D F R E N ZY TO H ER OLD HABITS. TH I S M ETHOD P RO V E S U N S UC C E S S FU L . OF H E R T E R R I BLE FITS O F RAGE. PRETENCE O F MODESTY. . KICKS HER PARTS W I TH HER H EEL. ETC. T H E Y W E R E SEPA RATED. THE 1 7TH. SEVEN Y E A R OLD C H I LD WHOSE H A B I TS NECESSI· TATED THE R E M E D Y OF A B E LT. 33 . ARMS COV E R E D W I TH AS OEDEMA. W I THOUT ANY S H E S U B MITS TO T H E OPERATION WITHOUT W I N C I NG. HER U R I N E CONTA I N S NO A L B U M I N . LEGS CLOSED A N D TIED BANDAGE I N O R D E R TO REACH TH E G E N ITA L PA RTS. YESTERDAY. O N TH E BEGS T O H A V E H E R H A N DS TI E D E A C H TI M E S H E I S N O T S U R E O F H E RS E LF: ONE PUNISHED BY R E LA PS E ON I S EVEN RAW F L A G E L LA T I O N THE BUTTOCKSI OFTEN S H E I S S E E N TO M A K E A N EFFORT AT CONTROL. SHE B EG I N S TO COUGH. A N OTH E R TI M E . W E KNOW OF ONLY TWO CASES: THAT O F FONASSA·G R I V E S R E LATING TO A TH E 25TH I APPLY A HOT POI NT TO X . ACCORD I N G TO T H E GOVE R N ESS. LITTLE Y . ONE D U R I NG WHICH SHE YELLS: "I W A N T TO. BECA M E H I G H L Y EXCITED A N D A B U S E D H E RS E L F EVEN MORE THAN SHE HAD DURING THE DAYS R E LATIVELY LITTLE COMPA R E D WITH THE THI RTY OR FORTY A B U S E S COM M ITED EACH D A Y BEFORE THE C A UTERI SATION." FROM T E N A T N IG H T UNTI L SIX I N TH E MOR N I I NG.SUCCESSFULLY A G A I N ST T E M PT A T I O N . S H E I S F A R AWAY. L A S T E D A B O U T A QUA RTER OF A N H O U R . S H E H A S A T E R R I BLE ATTACK. F R O M TH E N O N THE TWO LITTLE PATI ENTS W E R E N O LONG E R UNDER M Y O B S E R VATION. BUT AN PRECOCIO U S ABUSE A N D ITS FREQUENT R EPETI· TION. . AND FOR T W E NTY· FOU R HOU R S A FT E R THE SUCCESS. ACCORD I NG TO M Y I N FO R M ATION. . HOW I WANT TO DO ITI" HER M E M O R Y B E G I N S TD F A I L. ONCE AGAIN H A S A V E R ITABLE FIT OF FOLLY D U R I NG WHICH SHE TRIES TO THROW WITH T H E R E S U LT OBTA I N ED. IN THE COUNTRY. . BUT X MORE DROPS ALL . AS MIGHT BE EXPECTED. • . SHE IS KEPT ON HER F E ET. I S GOOD. WHO I S HITTING ME. ETC. AS O U R OBSERVATION D E M ONSTRATES. A N D THE CASE SA L I E N T POI NTS OF T H I S I N T E R E ST I N G FOR THE OPERATION. S H E CONTI N U E S T O A B U S E H E R S E L F A S I N TH E PAST. I WI LL BE BRAVE D U R I NG THE THE DETA I L S OF THE FOREGOI N G C A S E · H I STORY HAVE B E E N R E LATED IN SUCH M ETIC U LOUS DETA I L. ONE HERSELF OUT O F TH E W I N DOW. THE I N FL A M MATION SET UP BY CLiTORIA L A N D VAG I N A L. AMUSING HERSELF AND LA UG H I NG G A Y LY. FALLING SEVERAL TIMES I N TO A SWOON THAT MADE S U F F IC I E NTLY C L E A R ADDITION O F A N Y LONG COMM ENTA R I E S TO BECOM E U N N ECESSARY. S H E HAS H A LLUC I NATIONS ARE A L L TH E TI M E . PLAYING WITH H E R DOLL. S H E R EPEATS: "I D E S E R V E T O B E BURNT AND I WILL BE. EVEN TH E HER SUPERVI S I O N A N D D E P R I V E D OF A L L TREATMENT. COM M E N TS THE 2 3 R D. SHE COMPLA I N S O F V A G U E PAINS IN TH E C H E ST. O H HOW I WANT TOI YOU C AN'T U N D ERSTA N D. THIS IS CONTR A R Y. THE 1 2TH OF OCTOBER TH E HORRORS BEGIN A GA I N . T H I S YOU N G G I R L M A N AG E D TO R E S I ST UNTI L M A R R I AGE. I WON'T C RY. WAS COMPLETELY C U RED." EXAMPLES O F O N A N I S M AT SUCH A N E A R L Y AGE A R E RA R E I N LITTLE G I R LS. S H E HOWLS L I K E A W I LD BEAST W H E N S H E H E A R S M E COMI NG . BECA M E A C H I L D A G A I N . I T R Y G I V I N G H E R S E V E R A L VIOLENT A N D V E R Y PA I N F U L E LECTRIC SHOCKS O N T H E PARTS WITH C LA R K'S APPA RATUS. W I L D E Y E D. OR E L S E ATTACH E D TO A C H A I R. . O N A N I S M WAS BOTH LITTLE Y • . LITTLE Y .

OR TO A LL E V I ATE BOREDOM WHEN L E FT U N O C C U P I E D. BEGGI NG TO B E TIED U P A N D PREVENTED FROM DOI N G ITI A MOMENT LATER SHE E M PLOY E D EVERY R U S E TO O U T W I T TH E V I G I LA N C E OF THOSE I N C H A RGE OF H E R . . WHICH L E D TO A PROGRESSIVE AND A LMOST W H I C H TOOK POSSESSION OF THE CH I LD R E N . TH E STI M U L U S FOR THESE B R I NG ABOUT RETURN N O R M A L. OF CALM AND REMORSE. TH E Y GAVE WAY WITHOUT IN BLUSH I NG TO TH E I R D I SG R A C E F U L OR SER­ C A U S E. . MANY TIMES X. BUT X . IT WAS ONLY A FT E R CONSTA NT D E T E R I ORATED. T H E M O S T A S S I D UOUS S U P E R V I S I O N ONLY R E S U LTED I N D I SORDE RS. .'S C U RIOSITY H A D A LREADY BEEN AR O U S E D BY THE MAID TO U C H I N G HERSELF VIGOROUSL Y W H E N S H E B E L I E V E D THE C H I L D TO B E AS L E E P.. . LITTLE X . L"TER. S U F F E R E D FROM E I TH E R SHE M U LTIPLE N E RVOUS SUBJECT TO THE PUBIC B E LT. H A D WORMS. SEDATIVES NOR DID A NOR TON I C S M ET WITH ANY SHOWERS TO AND WARM BATHS MORAL IN THE B E G I N N I NG . BONDS. COA X I N G .SO R EC E I V E S P EC I F I C M ENTION. NOW. STRUG­ THE TOTA L A M A U ROSIS. IT WAS S I M PLY BY I M ITATION. TO OVERCO M E U N H E A LTHY I M P U L S E W H I C H D ROVE H E R T O EXCITE HER ORGANS."TI ENT. ALL HER VERY MIGHT OFTEN X. I T WAS THAT O F A YOU N G LADY O F TWENTY­ EIGHT Y E A R S OLD W H O CONFESSED TO M E THAT SHE TOUCH E D H E R S E L F A GREAT MANY TIMES EACH DA Y. . C A R E S S E S . NOTH I N G COULD D I SSUADE THESE POO R C H I L D R E N FROM Y I E L D I NG TO TH E I R FATA L A D D ICTION! LITTLE X. H E I N FO R M E D M E O F I T I N A S E A L E D LETT E R WHICH HE GAVE THE P. STRAPS. N E I TH E R S U C C ESS... PRACTICES F R O N T O F P A S S E R S. A S TO LITTLE Y . A T THE AGE O F FOU R S H E WAS COR R U PTED BY H E R S I STER. BEEN IT WOULD HAVE PSYC H I C D I STU RBANCE. AND I N ITI ATION. . THE EARLY C I RC U M ­ M A N I AC A L AGITATION SO VIOLENT THAT TH E C H I LD. THE THES AT T H E LOWER EXTR E M ITY O F TH E R ECTU M CAN. AND BOTH THE THE RASH ON THE E XC I T E M E NT WAS AT ITS H E IGHT. A N D BITING THE I N TESTI N A L PARASITES (AT LEAST I N TH E CASE OF THE ELDER SI STER). I N COM PANY WITH OTH E R C H I LD R E N . OR ELSE PREY TO A 34 . D E S M A R R E S SENIOR. T H E R E C A N BECA USE OF THEIR YOUTH AT TH E TI M E T H E Y BE NO D O U B T THAT SHE SUFFERED FROM DEEP BEGA N T O A B U S E TH E M S E LVES. TO WHOM I S E N T T H E PATI E N T WITHOUT A C QU A I NTI N G THE HIM OF HER H A B I TS.. TRIED TO GET THE BETTER OF I WILL SAY J U ST A WORD CONCERNING THE H E R S E LF. FOR W H I C H I TREATED SEXUAL HER. ADVICE. THE STI M U LUS ORIGI NATING SE LVES. I N TI M I D A T I O N . I F TO TH I S WE A D D THE H A L L UC I N A ITONS W O W H I C H X .. I M POS S I B L E FOR O U R YOUNG PATI E N TS TO X . O N TH I S S A R Y TO REFER TO A S I M I LA R C A S E W H I C H C A M E UNDER MY OBSERVATION WHEN I PRACTISED IN RE PETITION OF S U C H CONTACTS THAT A N AWAKEN­ ING OF THE S E X U A L I N ST I N CTS TOOK PLACE. WITH I M PU LSION TO SATI SFY T H E M I M MEDIATELY AT A L L COSTS. WAS F R E Q U E N TLY SUBJ ECT. . T H I S Y O U N G L A D Y RENOUNCED ONAN AND A LSO RECOV E R E D PER­ FECT E YE-SIGHT. WITH TH E B E ST WILL I N THE WORLD S H E COULD NO MORE CONTROL H E RSELF THAN A SU F F E R E R FROM C H O L E R A C A N PREVENT C R A M PS. T H E R A PE UTIC M ETHODS E M PLOYED I N T H E CASE OF THE LITTLE G I R LS : M E D I C A M ENTS HAD NO E FFECT. OF HER R E C OG N I S E D E S S E N TI A L CAUSE F A I L I N G S I G HT. USUALLY FURIOUS SO AS A SWEET WILD AND DOC I L E . OR A N HYSTE R I C A L WOM A N A VERT A N ONCOM I N G ATTACK. STRA I T J A C K ET.B Y VANTS. AS A V E R I TA B L E GLED WITH N E UROSIS. . H ITT I N G B EC A M E AS STA N C E S W H I C H THESE V I CIOUS H A B I TS W E R E TWO PRINCIPAL CAUSES E M ERGE: CONTRACTED. BY THE I R R E S I ST A B L E I R R ITATION TH E Y EXTINCTION O F A L L M O R A L S E N S E SHOULD A L. AT AN T H O S E S H E M O S T R E S PECTED THE SATISFACTION OF HER I F THEY OPPOS E D WHEN HER CRAVING EARLY AGE.·S EYE-SIGHT HAD A LSO CONSI D ERABLY POINT I F E E L I T N ECES­ H A V E DON E SO BY G E N I T A L N E E D. I TH I N K WE M A Y C O N S I D E R THIS I R R ES I ST­ ABLE DESIRE. B E A ST. W H E N E V E R T H E TWO C H I L D R E N WERE OVERCOME BY A N A RD E N T DESI R E T O M A ST U R BATE T H E Y D I D NOT C A R E I N T H E LEAST ABOUT PROPRI ETY OR THOSE P R E S E NT. . T H E C R U E L­ LEST P U N I S H M ENT. PARTS P R E S ENCE OF H E L M I N ­ TH I S WAS FOLLOWED SOON AFTER BY A P E R I OD OF PROST R A T I O N .IF ONE SEEKS IN THE ORIGIN. . . . H A V I N G FOLLOWED O U R A DVICE. RELIGION WITH ITS T H R E ATS FREQUENT AND R E P E A T E D R U BBING. LEAD TO TH E M A N U A L EXCITATION OF THE PA RTS. FROM THE G E N I TA L PARTS THEM­ A N D P R O M I S E S . WAS MOST PROFO U N D D E P R E S S I O N . TH I S U N C O N T ROLLA B L E C R A V I N G PA R I S . V I C I O U S H A B I TS O R I G I N A T E D EXCLUSIVELY I N T H E E N C E PH A LO N : ONLY LATER AS A R E S U LT OF TH E R A PY W A S E Q U A L L Y I N E F F E C T U A L.

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ONE IT I S R EASONABLE TO I N FE R THAT CAUTERI SATON BY HOT I RON D I M I N I SHES THE SENSITIVITY OF THE C L I TORIS. A FTER WHICH I LOST SIGHT OF H E R ENTI RELY. A N D T H E I M PRESSION M A D E O N TH E C H I L.EAS U R E . T H A N K S TO T H I S IN ALL.A R TO THOSE S U B M I TT E D TO YOU R CONSIDE RATION.TH E I N VENTION OF NEW EXPEDI ENTS INSPIRED BY RUSE AND SU BTLETY.VAL. AND AT AN E A R L. A FT E R OPERATION. IT I S EQU ALL. T H E T E R RO R PROVOKED BY THE S I G H T O F THE I N STRU M E NTS.Y AND HOUR. THE N U M B E R OF VOLUPTUOUS SPASMS WAS REDUCED TO THREE OR FOUR. WE BELIEVE TH E N .ATED BY CATH ERINE DUNCAN D E M ETRIUS ZAMBACO C H I L D R E N . C A UTERISED U N DERWENT ONE CAUTERISATION. THAT IN CASES S I M I L.ITTLE G I R LS. OR THAT TH E M ETHOD I S I N E FFECTI VE. O R I F I C E H A V I N G BECOME M O R E O R L.SO B E C O U N T E D A M O N G THE B E N E F I C I A L. X. M ETHOD. LITTLE Y • . IT IS EASY TO CONCEI VE T H AT T H E TRANSL. N U M B E R OF T I M E S . THAT SHE PERSI STS IN HER A B U S E ..D R E N·S I MA G I N ATION BY T H E RED H O T I RO N M UST A L.Y PROBABL.ESS I N FLA M E D AS A R E S U LT OF THE OPE RATION. S H E F I N A LLY. THE SECOND POINT OF G E N ITAL S E N S I TI V I TY CONSTI TUTED BY THE VULVAL ORIFICE HAVING ALSO BEEN DEADENED BY THE CAUTERI­ SATI O N . EFFECTS OF TRANSC U RRENT CAUTERISATION. O N A N I S M L. THE CL. H A V I NG BECOME LESS EXCITABLE.ITOR I S A N D CAUTE RISATION S A T I S FACTO R Y BY HOT IRON ALONE THE GAVE F I RST VUL. R E S U LT S . FROM FORTY T O FI FTY TIMES A DAY.E THAT. A LSO LESS PRONE TO TOUCH THEMSELVES. . FOU R T I M ES.. T H E R E IS NO REASON TO CONCLUDE THEN. THAT TOU C H I NG M A Y P ROVE P A I N F U L RATH E R THAN A SOU RCE OF PL. ARE 36 . WHICH CAN B E COM PLETELY DESTROYED IF THE OPERATION IS R E PEATED A C E RTA I N SHOULD NOT H ESITATE TO RESORT TO THE HOT I RO N . ACCOR D I N G TO THE I N FORMA· TION I R E C E I VED. WAS ON LY W A S COMPELTELY C U R ED. IN ORDER TO IN COMBAT C LI TO R A L V A G I N A L.

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NOT HAVING H A PPENED TO M E A N D K E E P S COM I N G BACK TO ME. DOES T H A T M E A N THEY H A V E SOME I M PORTA N C E B EC A U S E OF I T ? SHOULD TH E S A M E T H I N G H A PP E N AGA I N. I MEAN THOSE DUE TO OCTAVE. I J U M PE D O N 38 . . NO DOUBT: O R AM I I NC I TED BY M Y R E SPECTA B I L I TY TO M A K E IT? I R E M E M B E R THAT I WAS A S H A M E D: WAS M Y VOLUPTU A R Y A N Y T H E L E S S FOR THAT? A N D NOW MY SHAME IS EVEN LESS R E PUGNANT TO ME IN A UTHOR O F M Y I M PROP R I E T I E S I S O N E TH I NG-BUT A S TO CONSI D E R I N G H I MS E L F AT THE ORIGIN OF MY T E M P E R A M E N T . BUT S I NC E THAT COU L D N'T G E T I T TO START. THAT H E SHOULD H AVE TH E I NCONC EIV­ ABLE A R R OG A N C E TO I MAGINE H IMSELF THE E X PE R I E NC E A VIOLENT F E E L I NG OF S H A M E J UST B EC A U S E SHE I S R E S PECTA BLE? ITS A POI N T O F V I EW: FOR A L O N G TI M E OCTAVE H A S M A D E I T H I S PA BULUM. A N D THOUGH HE GOES TO SO MUCH TROUB L E SU PPOS I N G WHAT H A P P E N S TO ME AND WHAT H E'D LIKE TO SEE M E S U B M ITTED TO. NO O N E NOTICED. A N D I TA K E (AS I D I D E A R L I E R ) AS M U C H ONCE I WOU L D N E V E R H A V E D R E A M E D OF GOING BACK OVER S U C H THI NGS. THAT HAVE H A P P E N E D AND STILL COULD HAPPEN TO M E I N ALL L I K E LI H OOD: A NTOI N E WOU LD KNOW A BOUT IT AT ONCE A N D N E V E R S L E E P AGA I N . . NOT EVEN A BATH WAS A N Y H E LP. I W A N T E D TO M A K E T H E MOST OF SUCH A W A R M A N D WON D E R F U L LY S U N N Y A FTERNOON. I HAD T I M E TO KILL B E FO R E R E TU R N I N G TO THE PALAIS B O U R BO N . . R U E SCR I B E . . LIKE T H E LAST TIME. THE POOR DEAR HAS NO I D E A WHAT I A M CAPABLE O F WH ITHOUT H I M . FOR M E SUCH A RESEARC H I S U N R E A L.ROBE RTE'S D I A R Y MAY {CONTI NUEDl 1 954 . . AFTER M Y M A N I C U RE. BUT NOWA DAYS I C A N'T R E S I ST TELLING MYSELF THE STORY OF TH I S OR THAT I N C I D E N T P LE A S U R E IN MY D I SG R A C E AS THOSE WHO I N FLICTED I T ON M E . A N D. IS IT POSS I B L E THAT A WOM A N SEEKS TO I L E A V E OCTAVE T O H I S RATIOCINATIONS A N D H I S PRAYERS. J U STI N WHO WAS WAITING FOR ME AT TH E W H E E L OF O U R BUICK ( W H I C H TOOK COULD BE PLACE U N K NOWN T O H I M) : NOTH I N G MORE V U LG A R . . I'LL N E V E R TELL H I M T H E T H I NGS R ETROSPECT S I N C E I C A N S E E HOW ATTRACTIVE I M U ST H A V E B E E N TO THOSE TWO I N DI V I D UALS . I N A L L HON ESTY I M UST A D M I T I W O U L D NOT R E S I ST. BUT E V E N S O A RR A N G E D A N Y A PPOI NTM E NTS I N THE M EA NTI M E . T H I S M O R N I N G AT T H E C O M M I S S I O N I WAS D I S T R A I T B E ­ C A U S E OF T H A T . TH E BR EAKDOWN D I DN'T WOR R Y M E. I ' L L TRY TO TAKE REFUGE I N WORDS SO AS NOT TO H A V E TO TH I N K A BOUT IT D U R I NG THE DAY.

ALTHOUGH IT I S QUITE POSSI B L E FOR PEOPLE PASSING O R STOPPING I N F RO N T OF THE BOOK.TH E PLATFO R M OF TH E F I R S T BUS. R I S E A N D GO TO THE WASH ROOM. WHEN A SUGGESTIVE PRESSURE FORCED ME TO LEGS APART P E R H A PS. DO I H A V E AGAI NST T H E M ? I F T H E Y G O T A P I TI F U L P L E A S U R E . A N D SO ON UNTIL REACHING TH E V A U LT OF THE K I N D O F L A R G E COLOSSUS. CASUA LLY I C RO S S E D THE SQUA R E OF THE T H EAT R E THE OF OWN FO R DREW A SOM ETH I N G QUITE I USUAL M EMBER PA R L I A M ENT. T H E T W O E X C H A N G E A CON N I V I NG LOOK. I S M I LE.S H O P OPPOSITE T O SEE THAT TH E R E COULD B E NO STO P P I N G FOR HIM UNTIL THE DESCENT I N TO THE B A S E M E NT. FACE? H A V I NG THEN FOLLOW I N G CLOSE E NOUGH O N M Y H E ELS TO WATCH ME STROLL AHEAD OF HIM U N D E R THE "CONTACTED" M U ST H A V E L E S S TH A N A N HOU R LATE R I F I N D M Y S E L F SITTING O U TS I D E TH E REGENCY C A FE . ST U D Y I N G THE MOV E M E N T O F MY H I PS. I LOOK F I N E. A N D A S M I LE O N M Y LI PS FEELING THE WARM B R E EZ E THROUGH THE LOW E R E D W I N DOW. PASSI N G THROUGH THE ENTRY OF THE P A L A I S. WHEN I HAD BEEN E LABORATING T H A T SEN SATION. H A V I N G S A T DOWN OPPOSITE. STOPS T W O O R T H R E E S H O P W I N DOWS AWAY EACH TIME I G LA N C E AT O N E O R OTH E R O F THE D I S P LAYS. TO THAT MOMENT WHEN TH E ONLY T H I N G HE COULD DO WAS TO COR N E R ME I N T H E EM PTY SHOP. I T W A S W H I LE. POW E R LESS. D I D I CONTI N U E TO S M I L E WITH HALF-OPEN I NT E N T? LEGS. A N OT H E R MAN A PPEA RS. I PUSH OPEN A G L A S S DOOR. MY POSS I B L E POSITIONS IN T H E I M P E N D I NG SITU ATION WHICH HE KNEW WAS U N PRECEDE NTED FOR ME. A R M R A I S E D . A L MOST DAZED. FOOTSTEPS C LO S E R : OF DECIDED TO G ET OUT. H A V I NG TH E EPI D E R M US OF M Y F I N G E RS. I N FACT. I N D I V I D U A L. P E R F E C T T Y P E OF POL I C E GALLERY D E BEAUJOLA I S . H A N D LYING ON THE BALUSTRADE. M I STA K I N G THE SHOP­ THIS ONE I S U N D E RGOING T R A N S FO R MATION-THE I N D I V I D U A L FOLLOWS M E IN. EXTENDING IT TO M Y WHOLE BODY W H I C H H E W A S CONSCIOUS OF. HE POU N D I NG. I HAD GONE INSIDE AND CHOSEN AN SQUAT M A N LOO M E D U P TH ROUGH T H E R E A R DOOR. THE CLEA N-SHAV E N . NO ONE G I V E S I T A THOUGHT. W H A T. S Q U A T I N S H I RT S L EEVES. TOOK M Y FI NGERS. A T T H I S POI N T LET M E TRY TO I MA G I N E EACH STAGE O F T H E I N D I V I D U A L'S ITI N ER A RY. BOTH H A N D S LYING ON T H E LEATH ER. I PULLED OFF TH E ROSETTE A N D HID IT I N MY BAG. . MY TEM PLES A RCADES OF TH E PALAIS. A N D LEANT OUT WATC H I NG IN A K I N D O F D R E A M THE SHOPS GO BY. B U T H E . THE GLASS DOOR. THAT THE STOOD ON T H E PLATFORM OF T H E B U S . AS HE DI DN'T STOP LOOKI N G A T M E. . T H E OTH E R O F T H E S A M E WOMAN S U S P E N D E D A N D TIED. A N D I R E M E M B E R. B EG I N N I N G WITH THAT FURTIVE BUT I R R E S I STA BLE P R E S S U R E . BUT AT TH I S S A M E MOMENT T H E I N D I V I D U A L W A L K S PAST M E . I WAS SEATED. FRANCA I S. F I N A LLY BOU ND HAND AND FOOT. OF MEDIUM H E I GHT. I T R I E D TO M A K E A DASH FOR IT. A WAS BEING FOLLOWED. FOR ME. I T WA S THEN I G A L L E R Y D E MONTPE N S I E R . WALKED I NTO T H E PALA I S-ROYA L. . U N D E R T H E A RCADES A L MOST LI K E DESERTED ECHO AT THAT MY HOUR. TH ROUGH A DOOR A T T H E REAR. WHERE C A N T H E N E W BLOUSE SHOP B E THAT GI LBE RTE T O L D M E A BOUT? F I N A LLY I PASS U N D E R THE V A U LT O F THE G A L L E R Y D E BEAUJO­ LAIS: IT M U ST BE T H E R E. O R H A D T H E R E B E E N NOTH I N G A L L T H E WAY BUT T H E SOLE I MA G E OF T H O S E P A R A L L E L BARS A N D THE F E A R T H E Y M I GHT R E M A I N FIXED I N VAIN U NTI L T H E E N D OF T H E D A Y ? W H E N H E FOU N D H I MSELF A FTERWARDS O N H I S K N E E S I N FRONT OF ME. TO T H E R I G H T. CONSIDER MYSELF I N THE M I R ROR: N O N E E D TO PUT ON N E W M A KE-UP. T H E N . D I D THEY C O I NC I D E T O T H E POI NT OF S U BSTITUTION. BUT THE 39 . BEGAN SC RUTI N I Z I N G ME IN AN I NSOL E N T FASHION. .ROYAL. WHO WAS T A L K I NG T O TH E COND UCTOR AT F I R ST. I NCONC E I VABLE A N D TH E R E FO R E A L L TH E MORE I M PERIOUS FOR HIM . H I S H A N D ON T H E K NOB. A L L T H E S A M E I WAS WEA R I NG T H E ROSETTE O F THE LEGION O F HONO U R I N THE B UTTONHOLE O F MY S U I T. I SET OFF DOWN THE I M M EDIATELY CROSSED M Y FOLDED H A N DS. M Y BACK AGAI NST THE R A I L. H E H A D FOUND I T N EC E S S A R Y TO TOUCH MY FINGERS AND AFTER PI M P. THAT FATAL DOOR AJAR ON THE S H A DOWY FLOOR E M PTY S EAT. . I RETURN TO THE TERRACE AND RECA PITULATE. M Y H A N D S A R E T R E M B L I N G N O DOUBT AND THE WAITER ASKS M E AT ONCE IF I'M ALL R I GHT. THE FAT.F R O S T E D P A N E A N YT H I N G U N U S U A L THAT M IG H T H A P P E N IN TH E E M PTY SHOP. I ROSE AND GOT OUT AT TH E TH EA T R E F R A N C A I S . WHAT A RAPID AND AT THE HAVE SAME TI M E D E TA I L E D INSIDE HIS SCEN A R I O M U ST U N WO U N D SKULL . . I H A D ATTRACTED HIM. T H E SECON D M A N STA N DS A S I D E A N D L E A V E S TH E I N N E R D O O R A J A R . NOW TH E P L E A S U R E B E G I N S . DID TH E TWO I M AG E S : ONE OF THE BEAUTIFUL THROUGH THE H A L F . . THE HIS BACK AGAI NST BARS MY COLOSS U S U N K NOWN WOM A N W I TH T H E ROSETTE. PASSAGE A S SOON A S I TRY TO LEAVE. THE C O LOS S U S . H E WAS CON S I D E R I N G M Y H A N D O N T H E KNOB W H I C H HE PREVENTED ME FROM OPE N I NG. O R W E R E T H E Y S U F F I C I E NT L Y C O N T R A D I CT O R Y T O PROVO K E SORRY TH E E M OT I O N ONCE T H A T C O N TO R T E D GOT OFF THE HIS BUS. AT LIPS A S LEAST MY I HIS REGARD BEC A M E MORE C H A NGE PLACES A N D S I T I N S I D E " . STA I RCASE! PERCEIVING A N E X I T T O THE ABOVE G I V I N G ON TO THE RUE D E B E A UJOLA I S NO DOU BT. .

O F F E R I N G ME A G LASS OF BRANDY. THE N A I LS P E R F ECT AND USE­ IN MY RETURNS W I T H OUT AFTER HIS P OC K E T S A N OT H E R AND. "PUT O U T T H E LIGHTS T H E N. T I E D BY THE W R I STS. . . A SILENCE M A D E OF M Y O W N M U T I S M I N ACCORDANCE WITH T H E TWO M E N . TH E R E IN THE M I DDLE OF A PHYSICAL C U LT U R E S E T. WHICH HE NOW TAKES O U T OF HIS ENORMOUS OF POC K ETS T O U NT I E M E .U P. TO TH I N K THAT A MOMENT AGO I WAS STROLLING L E I S U R E LY BETWE E N TH E OPERA A N D T H E TH EA T R E F R A NC A I S W H I L E H E R E THOSE BARS W E R E WAITI N G FOR M E l SO TH A T NOW. . THE WHOLE M OV E M E NT SO U N E X PECTED AND SQUAT AND THAN DERS MOR E DRAGS A STAGG E R I N G I P R E C I P I TATE I H A V E TO SAVE M YSELF B Y H A N G I N G ON TO T H E N A P E OF H I S N E C K W I T H BOTH H A N DS­ A N D T H E N T H E D I ZZY DESC E N T WITH ME BY T H E M I N U TE STAY T H E R E . BETW E E N S U S P E N D E R BELT A N D FLESH. AS I C LOS E MY F I ST. SPI R A L STA I R C A S E T O T H E BASEM ENT. SLOWLY. T H E SOU N D O F A D U L L TH U D AT M Y FEET. SOON I CAN CONTROL MYSELF NO LON G E R ." WOMEN LIKE M E W H O A R E NOW AT T H E CONTROLS OF T H E NATION.SQUA T M A N WAS WAITI NG FOR ME ON THE STA I RS. W E L L K E PT. WOM E N LONG LIKE WE ME WHO H A V E "BEEN B E A UTIFUL. I NT E L L I G E N T E X P R ESSION. A N D I AM A L MO S T GLAD TO SEE IN THE SECOND MAN BOY. H E T U R N S AWAY W H I L E I READJUST M Y S K I RT. H A V I N G TA K E N L E A N I NG B R E A TH . DISTURB TH E WHOLE B U I LDING-IN BUST O R R E MOVING T H E C O A T OF MY G R E Y SU IT. HE U N FO L D S AND R E T U R N T O T H E "SO U RCE"? H A R DLY WORK ENOUGH FOR THE RUE DE SAUSSAIES TO KEEP THAT ST R A IGHTE N S M Y F I N G E R S. THE OTH E R MAN WHO HAD PRECEDED HIM WAS A L R E A DY RETURN. H I TT I N G MYSELF I N FRONT O F THOSE WHAT A R E L I E F IT I S LETTING BESIDE MYSELF WITH T H E COLOSSUS I N T H E FAC E W I T H MY B A G . SLAP: I FLINCHI NG. I TURN MY H E A D AWAY . HE R I PS OFF MY SKIRT HIS AGAIN. WH E R E T H E Y H A D B E E N S O F I R M LY T I E D . T H E COLOSS U S AS A RE R E M A I N SO-WE C A N O N LY R E M A I N S I L E NT. C E RTA I N LY T H E LEAST PLEASANT MOMENT IN W H A T I C A NNOT EVEN CA LL A NIGHTMARE. OC C U P I E D . . I ABANDON . . PASSES TH E M BETW E E N HIS LIPS A N D D ELICATELY SAVOURS EACH N A I L. BUT TH E LIGHT STAYS ON A N D . W H A T NONSENSE! BUT TO RETURN O N E OF T H E S E DAYS TO THAT PLACE. H I S S H I RT I S I M PECCABLY WHITE A N D HIS H A NDS. T U R N DOWN AGA I N AND-TWO STEPS FROM THE BACK­ HIDE THE I R RESISTABLE E FFECTS ON MY THIGH. . . A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E INSIN UATE HI MSELF U NDER MY S K I RT IN TWO U N K NOWN MEN MYSELF GO AT L A ST. REELING HE AND PUTS I NC A PA B L E C. C A L L FOR AN WHICH I NVESTIGATION? BECA USE O F T H I S C A R D R E P R OD U C E S . H A N DS LEVEL POCKET-FA I R P U SH I NG O P E N THE H E AVY STEE L DOOR G I V I N G ON TO A N EON-LIGHTED ROOM W I T H GLEA M I NG W A L LS. WITHOUT SHOW I N G A N Y I NTEREST O B V I O U S LY . . H I S ARM GOES ROU N D M Y L E G S . BRI NGS HIS H A N D DOWN ON MY FINGERS A S T H E Y G R I P T H E B A L U S T R A D E . LESS . B U T I SLAPPED HIM. EYES CLOSED. M Y S K I RT I S U N HOOKED A N D T H E REST TAK E N O F F . D U R I NG WHICH TIME THE SQUAT MAN E X H I BITS A CARD OSTENTATIOUSLY AND SLIPS IT I NTO M Y BAG. GRABBING A H A N DFUL O F THIGH. WHIRR ON TH E C E I LING. MAN TAKES HIM HIM U N D E R TH E S HOUL­ AWAY. STI LL B E L I E V I N G I T POSSI B L E T O ESCAPE. STI L L DETE R M I N ED T O DEFEND MYSELF. MY CLAMMY H A N DS E X H A L E THE P E R F U M E OF T H E I R C R E A M I N TH E S T U F F Y A I R D E S P I T E THE V E N T I L A TO R S . . THEN. . I CAN STI L L K I C K: MY A N KLES ARE SPREAD AND S U C H A B U S Y QUA RTER-BUT WOM E N L I K E M E WHO WERE ON THE "CHA RITY FRONT. ROOM OF TH E SHOP-THE MOME NT COMES W H E N . RUN MY H A N DS OVER THOSE PARALLEL BARS THEN. SCREAM. SWEATI NG. A G A I NST THE BA R. WHAT ELSE COULD A WOM A N DO IN SUCH A SITUATION? • • . AS THE V E N T I LATOR B E G A N TO C R E W.C U T EYES. . I SAW H I M CROUCH. I OPEN TH E MY EYES. TIED FOR U P. UNDER THE WHIRR OF T H E FANS ON THE C E I L I NG. LI FTS M E . THE FLOOR SHONE FANS WITH A L I NO L E U M A N D. WITH A G ESTU R E . A LO N E . T H E SIGHT OF THOSE PA R A L L E L BARS EQU I P P E D WITH LEATH E R STRA PS . A BRACELET O N T H E L E FT WRIST. . A N D I . H A N DS PUTS TO HIS FOOT ON IT. THE COLOSSUS H A S COLLAPSED. IN V A I N I A TT E M PT TO LIFE MY K N E E TO FOU N D M Y S E LF S U S P E N D E D A N D AROUSED. THAT PARTI C U L A R OCCASION OF F E E L I N G R E A LLY M Y S E L F FROM THE M O M E N T W H E N I E M BA R K E D ON T H E A DV E N T U R E I N T H E B U S UNTI L T H A T OTH E R MOMENT I N THE BASEMENT WHEN I OUT HIS TONG U E W H I C H MOVES BACKWA RDS A N D FOR W A R D S IN A M I S E R A B L E A TTE M PT A N D ONLY SLOWLY SUCC E E D S I N TOUCH I NG MY OPEN PALM. A S IF O U R B R E A TH I NG R E PLAC ED ANY WORDS WE COULD EXCHANGE H E R E. THAT OCCASION IS STI L L N E IT H E R MORE NOR LESS THAN TH E BOW OF M Y R E F L ECTION DRAWN OVER THIS 40 . OR S L U M P RATH E R . H A I R. SNATCH T H E M AWAY. SO AROUND"-SO LONG AS WE ATTACH E D TO T H E EXTRE M I TI E S OF T H E V E RTICAL B A R S A N D ALL THAT I N S I L E NC E." I SAY IN A VOIC E NO LONG E R M Y OWN. RECEIVES W H I C H TH E R E I S NO STOPPING M E T I LL H A V E NO STRENGTH L E FT . . . P L E A S U R E U N D E R T H E I R EYES I N THAT I M POSSIBLE POSITION. AT LAST THIS TONGU E SETTLES TH E R E AND B EG I N S ITS TITI LLATIONS MORE A N D MORE RAPIDLY. THATS A NOTHE R MATTER. • MY FINGER-PRI NTS? A PPROACH E S H I S MOUTH TO O N E OF M Y TIED H A N DS A N D. • . . GOES TO FIND M Y BAG AND RETU R N S TO G I V E IT TO M E. TH ROWS M E OVER H I S SHOU LDER.

41 . LIFTS THE BON N ET.LAZY AFTERNOON. 4. 5. FRONT OF PALA I S BOU R BON (HOUSE OF PARLI AMENTI. 2. S EQUENCE OF TH E PARALLEL BARS (SHOT LIST BY P I E R R E KLOSSOWSKI MADE ROUND 1 966 FOR AN I M AG I N A R Y FILM) 1. THE C H A U FF E U R . JUSTI N. CROSSROADS R U E SCR I B E-OPERA. LONG SHOT. 6. 3. ROBERTE GETS OUT SLOWLY IN H E R TURN. WHAT A DELICIOUS CROISSANTI HOW SOOT H I N G THE PLAY OF THE F O U N TA I N S P I E R RE KLOSSOWS K I TRANSLATION BY CATHERI N E D U N C A N UNDER TH E P LA N E TREESI HOW EXQ U I S ITE THE CITY AS IT GLIDES BYI TAKEN F R O M THE REVOCATION OF T H E EDICT OF NAN TES. TH E CAR IN PAN SHOT FROM ROBERTE. GETS OUT. WATCH ON ROBE RTE'S W R I ST.

AND E N J OY I NG T H E COM P A N Y O F MONASTICS. I T WAS C H A NGED I N TO A SORC E R E R W I T H A H U M A N H E A D A N D A D R A GON'S IN THE SAME WAY.T H E OCTO P U S I N J A P A N THE OCTO P U S AT IS U S U A LLY CONS I D E R E D T O B E PROTECTOR O N T H E OTH E R H A N D. K I YO.H I M E. TH E S E N S U A L I T Y OF T H E C R E A T U R E A P P E A R S I N THE MOST EXPLICIT MANNER WHICH IN A FAMOUS TENTACLES ARE W R APPED. O N E H U N D R E D M E N C O U L D N O T L I FT IT. F E E T H I G H A N D SO H EA V Y T H A T OCTO P U S C A R R I E D I T TO J A P A N A N D SET I T DOWN ON THE COAST O F H I R A . FIGU R E D ASCETIC OCTOPUS LOV I N G L Y E M B R A C I N G T H E B E L L W I T H ITS SIN UOUS TENTACLES.M ET E R . W H I C H B R I N G S T O M I N D H I S S O L E N O U R I S H M E NT. PLAYS O N T H E 42 . I T S S E N S U A LITY.S H I IN T H E WOODS. THE P R IEST SIX HID ON THE BELL OF THE S C U LPTED STA T U E I N T H E I M A G E O F TH I S D I V I N ITY (WITH WHICH HE H A D N E V E R PA RTED) I NTO TH E SEA DURING A T E M PEST. W H O SOU G H T T H E I M M O D EST A D V A N C E S OF T H E M O N K A N -C H I . AN MONASTERY.R A i . C L E A R L Y TH I S IS V E R I F I E D IN T H E L E G E N D O F TH E B E A U TI F U L A N D L I C E N T I O U S K I Y O. ARMS. T O T H E P L A C E O F T H E T R A D I TI O N A L S H RI M P .S H I NYO. IT WAS SAVED. K E N-SU SOM ETI M E S C A R R I E S I T O N H I S S H O U L D E R S . W H E R E H E E R ECTED A L A RG E STATU E OF Y A K U . T H E O R D E R O F TH E YA K U. N I N E .N AGA ARE WITH LEGENDARY ITS M E N WHO C A RRY T H E TE. NOT A B L Y A N E N G R A V I N G OF KOU N I ­ YOS H I .DO.H I M E TR I ED T O B R E A K T H E M ET A L W I T H H I S M A G I C W A N D AND MAKE I T M E LT B Y E X H A L I N G ON I T W I T H HIS F L A M I NG B R E A T H . IT F E L L A N D THUS I M PR I S O N E D THE S A I NTLY MAN. E N G R A V I NG O F HOKOUSAi. H E L PF U L. J I . A LITTLE LIKE THE PRINCE OF THE G R E E KS. T H E A S H I . T H E Y TH E M S E L V E S H A V E LEGS S E V E N METERS LONG. I N V A I N . ON TH E I R TH I S CONSTANT L I A I SO N WITH SA LAC IOUSNESS M A N Y WORKS. W H I C H S E R V E D A S A C A S E FOR TH E R ELIC. THREW A SMALL N A T U R E .K A K U DAi-SHI T H E N B U I LT A T E M P L E AT M EG U RO.NAGA. AROUN D ALWAYS WHICH THE OCTO P U S ' ONE THUS E X P L A I N S W I T H O U T DOU BT T H E EQU I V A L E NT ROLE W H I C H T H E OCTO P U S S E E M S TO PLAY I N B U D DH I S M . LATER. OF HIS ONE OF IS THE THE PRINCIPLE WITH AN AND S E R P E N T' S BODY.LO N G S H O U L D E R S . LIKE A NOTH E R GIANT M ESSENGERS OCTO P U S ON RYU-J I N H E A D. PROVI D E A N E L E G A N T I L L U STRATION OF A SIGNI FICANT CHANGE. B U D D H A THE H E A L E R OF SOULS AND THE GOD OF WISDOM. TH I N KS OF TH E OCTO P U S A S F R I ENDLY. I S N O LESS I N DI C A T I V E AS A C H A RACTE R I ST I C TRAIT OF ITS B E N E F I C I A L.

M O L L U S K'S CA PACITI E S FO R E M B RA C I N G AND FROM OBSERVATION: A L MOST E XC L U S I V E LY. WHILE A L L BOD I E S TO I N D ICATIONS E N TW I N E . THERE IS NO ACCO R D I NG TO THE A N C I ENTS. SUCH DEGREE H ECTOCOTY LE. IS S I M U LT A N E O U S L Y I N HIS WORK ON HOKOUSAi. IT S E E M S THAT T H E R I G H T TH I R D A R M O F T H E M A L E OCTO P U S PA RT N E R W H O S E CONTACT F E L T I N SO M A N Y PLACES. T H E TERM " D E SC R I PTION. IN THIS FASHION. ONE LEADI NG. ITS APPLIES HORNY I TS BEAK MOUTH. IS G L U E D G R E E D I LY TO T H E SEX ORGAN OF ITS CONSENTING WHILE HE AND NO DOUBT AND GRATI F I E D PREY. I F N O T T O S A Y TH EY FLEE. H UGO ITS IT OF WAS WAS SEA FA R "TH I S E M BRACE A N D V I RTUALLY NO CONTACT BETW E E N THEM. EDMON D D E GONCOURT HAS S U C C E SS F U L LY OF THE C A PT U R E D WOMAN TO IN THE A E C STATIC SWOON A OF SWELLS AT T H E M O M E N T O F EXCITATION: O U T O F THE A R M . S U C H EXCRESC E N C E S S E V E R E D I N T H I S STATE A N D PRESERVED I N J A RS I N T H E M U S E U M O F N A TU R A L H I STORY I N P A R I S . T H E OC TOPUS. TH E Y AVOID. A LD R OV A N I R E C A L L E D THAT." IS I N C O N S I STENT W I T H CONVOLUTED AND AWKWAR D HORROR I S S U RELY E L I C I T E D B Y T H E S PECTACLE! YET TH E A RTI ST'S I N S I ST E N C E IS V I S I B L Y TO G I V E THE I M PRESSION OF ECSTASY PROC U R E D BY A T H E O B SC U R E L Y STATE M E NTS THAT THE A UTHOR. S H A R E S T H E I D E N T I TY WITH W H I C H I T I S I NVESTED BY THE E AST. T H E TH I R D O N TH E RIGHT S I D E . OR TO BE O R T R U N K WITH TH E S U R FE I T OF THEY PRESS MOUTH AGA I NST MOUTH. I N F A C T . A R M AGA I N ST ARM. SHE MAKES H E RS E L F EACH OTH E R . 0 0 N O T EVEN L OO K A T FEMALE RADI ATES PHO RESCENT G LOW A T T H E M O M E N T O F I N I TIATION: "SHE A W AITS U NION. FEMALE." THE L A SC I V I O U S N ESS O F THE FLI RTATIOUSN ESS TENTACLES. T H E E N IGMATIC A N D OBSC U R E TEXT S E E M S T O H A V E K NOWN N O CON F I R M ATION. R ESTR A I N E D B Y VICTOR I A N DECO R U M . T H E Y C A N H A R D L Y B E PERC E I V E D A S ANYTH I NG B UT D I S M A L. WHAT BEFORE T H E O N E B Y H E N R Y LEE. OCTOPUS ARE IN N O SENSE C O N C L U S I O N S DRAWN 43 . TENTACLES WA N D E R . C A R ES S E S A M ORO U S R E LA T I O N S O F T H E OCTO P U S ENTW I N E S . S H E GLOWS . B E TW E E N T H E T H I G H S O F A RECLI N I NG WOMA N . F U RT H E R M O R E . POCKET BY THIS AMBIGUOUS PROCESS THE OCTOP U S H E R BODY A N D T H E FOLDS OF H E R M A NTLE. T H E D I STANCE WHICH S E P A RATES T H E PARTNERS IS FORGOTTEN V ICTOR HAS THAT LOATH SOM E R E LA T I O N S . TO M A N . A K I N O OF ELONGATED WORM E M E R G E S WITH A FILAMENT THE AT THE END: TH I S IS THE THE EXPRESSION PLEASU R E . T H E Y S W I M TOGETH ER. . SICUT CADAVER. THE HECTOCOTYLE COM ES BACK TO L I F E TO FERTI LIZE THE EGGS. ACCO R D I NG TO THE A UTHOR. I N THE 1 6TH CENTURY. T H E F E M A L E RESTS ON A ROCK OR O N THE SAND. M U TU A L CONTACT THAT TH E I R S U C K E R S WOU L D PERM IT. . I T IS CLEAR THAT IN THE M ATTER OF LASC I VIOUSNESS. THE A R M S CLOSE U PON THE BODY O F T H E B E LO V E D IN A L A SC I V IO U S WEB. THE ARE SUCTION. S E E M TO D E ST I N T H E S E IN FACT. FROM IN AND THE THE THAT THE CREATURE MOST 1 9TH BY L A SC I V I O U S C EN T U R Y. THE MALE IS DRAWN UP ON HIS BEAUTI FU L. IN ANTIQU I TY. T H I S D E P I C T I O N IS PURELY IMAGI NARY. T H E Y A R E D E D U C E D F R O M T H E N U M B E R O F TENTAC L E S A N D T H E A R R A Y O F S U C KERS W H I C H C H A RACT E R ­ IZE TH E S P E C IE S (MOLLUSK). ONE FOLLOW ING. OPPI E N . T H E C LOS E N E S S AND I N T I M A TE. E M P H A S I Z E D THE OCTOPUS' U N C T UO U S I M M O D E STY: IN JAPAN. THERE. AT T H E BACK OF W H I C H THE G E N I TA L ORIFICES O P E N U P. W H O STATES THAT T H E MALE C LI N G S TO HIS D E L I G H T U NT I L HE D I E S OF PLEASU R E AND E X H A USTION. THESE C R E A T U R E S . USES TO CONVEY THE I D E A OF TH E S E S E X U A L Y E T EXTRAOR D I N A R I L Y ASCETIC RELATIONS. S H E LIGHTS AND U P. O N E CAN SEE. " C R EA T U R E THE P A S S I O N ATE A PHOS­ K E PT A S W I D E A S POS S I B LE. M U LT I P L E . CO N S I D E R E D DWELLERS. EXPLO R E S A N D S U C K S W I TH H I S EIGHT ARMS AND SUCKERS. I MYSELF FOU N D NO A V I D I TY TO THE F R E E LI PS OFFER I NG T H E M S E LVES. A C C O R D I N G TO LATE R OBSE RVATI O N S . A S L E E H A D WELL OBSERVED. W H O POSSESS T H E M O S T H I G H LY PER FECTED E Y E S I N THE A N I M A L K I NGDOM. LEE STA T E S . ONE O F TH ESE TENTACLES. HOKOUSAI THI NGS H A PP E N OTH E RWISE. TH E R E IS A LSO A S M A LLER OCTOPUS W H I C H MORE EXACT. ITS FLESH WAS AN APHRODISIAC. THE ARTIST HAS PUT TO USE OBJECT I V E D E S C R I PT I O N OF OCTO P U S M A T I N G L U B R I C ITY W H I C H COM E S FROM T H E C O N S I STENCY AND CONFIGURATION OF THE C REATURE. S H E PA LLIAL PLACES A IT H E R S E L F W I TH I N H E R SITUATED BETW E E N CAVITY. W I THOUT E V E N R E A CH I NG T H E N E C K A N D SHOUL­ DERS. IN FACT. W H O A C C E PTS I T A N D C A R R I E S IT A W A Y WITH H E R . MALE PROFFERS I T TO THAT O N E DOES NOT KNOW W H ET H E R S H E IF LIVING O R DROW N E D . DEPICTED I T PREVA I L I NG O N A S L E E P I NG WOM A N . T H E OCTOPU S ETCH E D BY THE ASIATIC B E LONGS TO T H E S P EC I E S D E SC RI B E D BY T H E M E D I T E R RA N E A N OPPI E N . E XC E E D I N G L Y C H A STE. WHERE IT FINDS RELIEF AND LETS I TS A R I STOTLE O F F E R S A S U M M A R Y DESC R I PTION O F THE M A T I N G O F OCTO P I : TIGHTLY I N T E RTWI N E D .

T H E SKIN FOR M E D STRANGE LOO K I N G BECOM I NG DETACHED. OF A FT E R THE A N EW AND BRIEF BACK SIDE O F EACH A R M .IS A LT E R E D : A SPOON-S H A P E D DEPR ESSION EYES. B E I N G M A D E THROUGH A D I V I NG M A S K . A N D T H E M A L E FOLLOWED H E R STI L L K E EPING H E R W I T H I N THE F I E L D O F V I SION O F H I S R I G H T E Y E . Z.60 C M . TO A H E IGHT OF T H E Y COV E R E D A P PROX I M A T E L Y 2 0 M ET E R S . BEHIND T H E CAVITY. A N D H E R A R M S T U R N ED TOWA RD IT. A N D I W A S A B L E TO MOVE C O M P LETELY A RO U N D THE COUPLE WITHOUT D I ST U R B I NG TH E M . I N THE DRAWING WHICH ACCO M P A N I E S THE STUDY ON THE MATING AND F E R T I L I ZATION BY E. FROM O U TW A R D THE A M A LE. 1 5. H I S TH I R D A R M WAS A G A I N EXTE N D E D A N D 44 . W H E N W E EXTENDED O U R HANDS.2 0 CM. I LEAVE THE A UTHOR O F T H E R E PORT TO SPEAK FOR H I MSELF: "TH E MALE WAS NOTI C E D B Y PROFESSOR S U RGEON. UP TO THE HEAD. YOUNG'S OBSERVATION MERIT R ECOUNTING. SOMETI M E S VERY C L E A RLY. PROTR U S I O N S TH E I R ONE H EA DS. A T OTH E R M O M ENTS. THOUGH NOT AS M A R K E D L Y A S BEFORE. H E EXTE N D E D H I S TH I R D R IGHT A R M A N D I NTRODU C E D I T I NTO T H E F E M A LE'S M A NTLE-AT A D I STA NCE O F A LTE R E D A R M D E POSITS C E RTAIN SPERM-FI LLED CAPSULES IN THE A PPROPRIATE POC K ET. I M M EDI ATELY UPON C L I M B I N G O U T O F T H E WATER. NO NODU LE A PPEARED A BO V E THE E Y ES. THE S K ETC H E S W E R E DRAWN V E RTIC LE STRI PES ON T H E R I G H T S I D E R E M A I N E D STRONGLY M A R K ED. NOTH ING COU L D APPEA R MORE S I N I ST E R . B ROWN SPOTS WITH TRANSVER­ S A L STR I PE S APPEARED ON HER A R M S . THE COLO R I NG TU R N E D A DARK BROWN A RO U N D THE A PPEARANCE B R I L L I A NT V E RT I C A L STR I PE S. A WHITISH THEM. WITH GROWING OUT OF THE SEEM EVEN MORE AS F E M A L E A LSO SHOWED A T C E R T A I N M O M E NTS. T H E F E M A L E CONTI N U E D T O OBSERVATION. RESERVED AND DI L I G E NT. J . T H E F E M A L E D R E W A W A Y . THE ''THE M A L E K E PT T H E F E M A L E W I TH I N T H E V I S U A L F I E L D O F H I S RIGHT EYE. YOU NG P U B L I S H E D SKETCHES OF THE STAGES OF T H E SEXUAL M A TI N G DANCE AND RESTED O N R E TA I N E D THE A H IS THIRD ARM. SUCH I S WHAT I S SHOWN. O F TH E COMMON R A C O V I TZA IN OCTO P U S PROM I NA N T N O D E S . Z . H E K E PT H I S H E A D ER ECT. A D E E P B ROWN STRI P E WAS A LSO VISIBLE ON HIS M A NTLE. AT LEA ST. A STR I K I NGLY MARKED BY W H E R E U PO N T H E F E M A LE C A M E TO A STA N DSTI L L I N A C REVASSE. A LSO FROM A C R A N N Y. M IGHT "TH E Y R E M A I N E D I N T H I S POSITION F O R A PPROXI­ MATELY T E N C H ANGED. OBT A I N E D 1 894. COLOR. T H E M A L E STI L L FOLLOW I NG . DARK ST R I P E S PALLI A L CAVITY F E M A LE. M I NUTES. MALE ROCK BETW E E N THE V E RT I C L E S T RI PE S . S LOWLY ENOUGH. WHICH THE COPULATION O F T H E OCTOPUS HORRIDUS. AT T H E TOP OF HIS HEAD. . A FT E R S E V E R A L M I N UT E S R E A P P E A R E D . . P E R H A PS . F E W I N STA NTS. AFTER T H E Y H A D GO N E A BOUT T H R E E METERS. MEASU RED. FROM HER. NOTAB L Y ON THE R IGHT SIDE. A FISH THE LAT E R A L L Y A P PROAC H E D (SEEMI NGLY ATTACK "TH E FEMALE SLIPPED UNDER A ROCK. A N D ANOTH E R IN THE M I DDLE OF TH E M A NT L E . "THE M A LE ROSE OUT O F ITS HOLE. T H E R E PRODUCTI VE ORGA N W ITH WHICH TH E TENTAC LE IS EQUI PPED I NT R O D U C E S OF THE ITSELF W I TH I N T H E B U T WITHOUT SOM EWHAT DINGY W H ITE. WH I L E THE ESSENTI A L L I N E S O F J . G. A BOUT V E RTICLE STR I PES. I N 1 962. B R IGHTLY COLORED BAND A LO N G THE E DG E OF TH E APPEARED R U N N I NG 50 C M . I N SUCH A W A Y THAT A LL THAT R E M A I N E D TH E R E WERE SOM E TRANSVERSAL S POTS. F E M A L E A P P E A R E D T H E N . THEN. THE M A LE'S COLO R ATION THE S T R I P E S LUDIC ROUS. D E SCR I B E T H E M C A R N I VALESQUE DEVI LS. ABOUT 60 C M . BUT EXTENDING FEW TO A R MS. A FTE R A FEMALE). S H E R E A P PE A R E D ON TH E OTH E R S I D E . THE C A PSULES OPEN A N D FERTILIZATION I S COM PLETED. N O D E S A LSO A P P E A R E D ON THE SKIN O F T H E ARMS A N D M ANTLE. WHEN THE F E M A LE RELEASES H E R EGGS. A N D. TH E WORK WAS C A R R I E D OUT WITH PROFESSOR R. "NO MOVEMENT W A S V I S I BL E ON T H E THIRD A R M . THE A N I M A L DOVE BACK DOWN I NTO ITS HOLE. T H E M A L E A LSO STOPPED. TH E MOVE A W A Y . T H E ARM P U L L E D BACK . FROM T H E BACKG R O U N D. D I S A P P E A R E D COMPLETELY FROM H I S LEFT S I D E . H E WAS COM I N G OUT O F A C R A NNY IN THE CORAL. S U RGEON D U R I NG A DIVE N E A R SI NGAPORE. THE THE R E ST WAS REPLACES O N E SECTION OF T H E SUCKERS. TH E TWO LOVERS LOOK L I K E SENTI N E LS HORN-L I K E TO P S OF AT ATTENTION. HIS HEAD RISING UP V E RTICALLY FI RST. T H E O B S E R V A T I O N W A S U N I NT E R R U PTED. THE A T N U M E RO U S T I M E S . A FTER FIVE M I N UTES. PULLING THE MALE A LONG BY HIS THIRD ARM. 40. S E T OFF M O R E OR LESS. I N TH I S FASHION. TH E OCTOPUS COU PLE WAS WATCHED FOR A H A LF HOUR AT A D E PTH O F SEV E R A L FEET IN A CORAL REEF. THEY ARE DESPONDANT. GLOWED. I BEGAN MY "TH E N .

HA I R BLACK: THE OTHER BLOND THE STRANGE G I RL-COU P L E THAT LOOKS I N PITY ON THE OTHER COU PLES: DREAMING ON THE B A LCONY STOOD THE GIRLS." HE DEFINES TH E M IN TH E USURPA­ FOLLOW I N G SHELL. P A U L VERLA I N E STAN DING THE R E . IN THESE VOLU PTUOU S N ESS HAS APOLLI N A I R E CONFIDES TO HIS M I ST R E SS: "I SAVOUR YO U R TON G U E LIKE THE STU M P OF AN OCTOPUS' A R M WHICH ATTACHES ITSELF TO YOU WITH ALL THE FORCE OF ITS SUCKE RS. IN THE LISTLESS DARK OF TH E I R AS DRAM ATIC AS THE THRONE OF A QUEEN. WAS THE B E D FLOWER­ OPE N I NG IN THE SHADOWS. I N THE CASE O F THE PA PER NAUTILUS. THESE A R E PROBA B LY T H E TRAVELLING P E N I S E S WHICH TH E S E TIONS. R E LA­ IT WOU LD B E EASY TO M U LTI P LY THE EXA M PLES. LEE NOTICED IN THE MUSEUM IN PARIS. F I RST I D I E NTIFI E D I T A S A P A R A S ITIC WOR M . THE OCTOPUS HAS OFFERED A P R I V I LEGED S Y M BOL RIGHT I N TO MODERN LITERA­ TURE.E A M A N D THE SOUL'S TIONS." LITTLE PLACE R E S P ECTFU LLY DI STA NT I M AGI NATION HAS WHEN GREAT S A I NT-JOHN TEXTS PERSE BY C A LLS TO MIND TH E AMOROUS RELATIONS. TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE. WHER E U PON THE F E M A L E BROKE SHA R P LY AWAY A N D THE MALE WITHDREW I N TO H I S HOLE. WITH NO DELAY OR H E S ITATION ON OF JOYCE M A N SO U R . THE PART OF EITHER OF THE TWO. BEHI N D THEM. OF WHICH. AND A S THE MOON ROSE ROU N D AND SOFT. W A R M A N D LOOSELY C U R V E D. IT R E MA I N ED I N PLACE A P PROXI M ATELY T E N M I N UTES. RUMPLED WITH S M ELLS. IN HIS LETT E R S TO LOU. THE FERTILIZING AND ARM FASHION: SEPARATES FROM ITS OWNER WANDERS "THERE WHISTLES THE OCTOPUS OF PLEASURE. EVENING A N D THE WISTF U L J O Y OF CONSTAN T H E A RTS." A I M LESSLY FOR HO URS A T A TI M E UNTI L F I N DI NG A F E M A L E TO WHICH SUCKERS. AND BOTH THE G I R LS. A S SLOW A S LANGOROUS A S A S PHODEL. THERE IS A S I G N I FIC A N T CONTRAST BETW E E N AN U N SETT L I N G R E A L I TY AND AND THE I MAGES OF V I R T U A L LY OR T HO S E A P HY S I C A L E FF E C T E D A MO R O U S VOLUPTUOU S N ESS RAPTURE WHERE LIBIDI­ BY " S A T E L L I T E " NOUS DREAM I NG I S I N VOLUNTA R I LY TRIGGERED BY BODIES OF E XC E PTI O N A L S U P PLEN ESS. WHE R E I N FLOW "THE GREAT I NS E P A R A B L E U N ION. [LARGU E l ORGA N S A R E AT THE OPPOSITE EXT R E M E F R O M T H E H U M A N CONC E PTION OF S E N S U A LITY. AND P I N K: THE I R LIGHT ROBES OF OLD GOLD WERE FLUTTE R I N G LIKE C LOUDS AND VAGUE. IT ATTACHES ITSELF WITH ITS S C HO L A R S." THE TEXT IS E LOQUE NT. SO M A N Y LITHE A R M S A N D A V I D MOUTHS. HOWEV E R .I NTROD UCED. IT I S FOU N D MORE THA N ONCE IN THE POE M S ROBER CAI LLOIS TRANSLATED BY L I N DA McNEIL AND M A RGA RET McGAW ON THE BA LCONY BOTH G I R LS WERE WATC H I N G THE SWALLOWS FLY: ONE PALE. DRANK D E E P LY AND FULL OF THE TREMBLING ROOM. OCTO P U S WHICH IN A COULD BE D E FI N E D AS AN SIONS OF THE DR. AMONG TH E M C E RT A I N C U V I E R . M A N'S M I SCONSTRUED THE NATU R E OF THE COU PL I NG OF THESE ORG A N I S M S SO WELL EQUIPPED FOR AN RECITED TRAGE D I A N S (TR AGIC A D M I S­ HEROI N E S1). DA M P LY E M B R A C E D. 4!5 .

THESE CREA TURES A R E MOSTLY OF THE SEA. TH E I R BOD I E S W E R E C U RIOUSLY S H A P E D . A LONG BANANA S N I PPI NG BOD I E S IN THE I R HALF EYES OR OUT OR C U TTI NG TH E I R POU R I N G T H E PROV E R B I A L PATH W A Y S . O R A N G E SLUGS D R I E D TO BLACK A N D TH E I R S L i M E Y TRA I LS T U R N E D I R I DESC ENT. FLY. LEOPA R D S A LT ON TH E I R NEVER DRY BACKS. PORTLA ND. SLUGS A PP E A R E D MORE P L E N TI F U L SLUGS AND LESS CON­ G R E E N . ONE GARDEN H A D STEPS OF ROUGH LY-C H I S L E D ROCK: THROUGH BRA KEN TH E I R CREVICES GREW THE GRASS. S A V E F O R O N E . THE SLICK. WITH THE EXC E PTION OF L A N D SNA I LS A N D LIKE THE OTH E R ME A N I M A LS. A L LO W E D TH E M M U C H R EST FROM THE I M MO D E R ATE BLAZI NG A LW A Y S OF THE SUN.BA K E D SI DEWALK. THEY NEVER A TT R A C T I V E T H A N S N A I LS. S U N . SLUGS OR T H E F R E S H . EX Q U I SITE TIVITY T O TH E EFFECTS O F TO UCH A N D LIGHT M A D E M E TH I N K TH E M TOO D E L I CATE A N D V U LN E R A B L E T O T H E C R U E LTI ES OF T H E OUTS I D E WORLD. M Y LOC A L E . D ESPITE A L L THE K I DS W H O ENJOYED ON MY W A L K S H O M E FROM G R A D E-SCHOOL I WO ULD USUALLY GARDEN SEE H U N D R E DS OF S L UGS SLUGS. WHEN ENDED BOD I E S. I S A DVANTAGEOUS FOR GROWTH O F THE L A N D S N A I L OR SLUG. YOU HAD TO A VO I D THEM FREQUE NTLY AND STEP WITH A G I L I TY OVER TH E I R SLI PPERY H AT E . T H E PA C I F IC NORTHW EST. WHEREAS S N A I LS C A PT U R E D O N E' S A L I G N E D TO TH E A P P E A R E D EQU I P P E D T O J U M P. WERE S I D E R E D BY E V E RYONE T O BE T OO N U M E RO U S . O F T E N OVERCA ST.M E M OI RS OF A N OCC U PATION W H E N I WAS VERY YOU NG I WAS FASC I N ATED WITH MOLLUSKS. A N D PON DER­ GROUND. SOM ETH I N G RAINS THEY AND WILL SUN A N D MOSS T H E S E SLOW-MOV I NG THINGS WOU LD EAT. T H E R E W E R E A LWAYS THOSE T I M E S W H E N Y O U WOULD S L I P A N D H A V E THE S M E E R E D R E M A I N S OF A SLUG DO W N YOU R TH I G H . A N D TH E I R R E L A T I V E U G L I N ES S DI DN'T R E M E D Y TH E LOW OPINION. NOW TH A T THEY W E R E I N V A D I NG T H E S E G L E N S RICH I N PLANT L I F E . S I N C E THEY TH R I V E IN ZON E S O F H E AVY R A I N FA L L. H O P A N D TWI R L 46 . D U R I NG THESE SHONE. TH ESE TRA I LS SHOW E D YOU THEIR PA I N F U L ROAD TO DooM -A H O U R S A F T E R SC HOOL I W O U L D STOP A N D STA RE I N A D M I RATION O F T H E I R A N T E N N A E A N D PU LSATI NG BO D I E S. TH E I R PROF U S I O N I S G R EAT I N THE MOIST FORE STS OF O R EGON. M O I ST COATS U S U A LLY O F DRY. I REGA R D E D SLUGS OR B ROWN-ORANGE O N E S ABOU N D E D . TH E I R AN D E L I B E RATION SENSI­ ATTR A C T E D GR EATLY. NEITHER O U S LY LEGG E D.W ATER S PECI ES. T H E M A S V E R Y E XOTIC A N D O R I G I N A LLY FROM T H E SEA.

DID THEY "GO TO THE BATH ROOM. IGNO R A N T OF · W HAT I H A D J U ST S E E N . P E R F ECT S N A I L. E V E N A LLOW E D POKY O N H I S F I N G E R S ) . D E S P A R A T E L Y S E A R C H I N G FO R T H E POKY. ON THESE DAYS I'D HUM THE "POKY T H E S N A I L" SONG. I W A S I N IT I A L L Y H O R R I F I ED. I NEVER W A N T E D T O B E B I T T E N BY A S N A I L AGA I N I N MY L I F E . LIKE HOLE POKY O N E QU ESTI O N WE ASKED A BOUT S N A I LS WAS. T I M . UPPER P O RT I O N LONG AND V E N TS A P P E A R. S O M E T I M E S POKY WOULD E S C A P E A N D B E S E E N LAT E R C R A W L I N G U P T H E S I D E S OF O U R B E DROOM W A L L . D I D H E W A N T T O E SC A P E O R D I D H E J U S T L I K E T O SUCK ON PLASTIC? THE T E R R A R I U M WHICH HOUSED THIS SLUG W A S PLACED ON A G I G A N T I C T E L E V I S I O N SET TIM AND I WOULD WATC H . O F VARYING S I Z E AND COLOR. BY TH I S TIME V E R Y S M ELLY A N D S L i M E Y. S U P R H E RO WHO C A N T R A V E L AT S P E E DS NO S LUG COULD FI NGE R EVE R M A TC H . THE B E A U T I F U L S N A I L. I E V E N T U A L L Y R E SORTED TO A IN A N LARGE GLASS J A R W H E R E I N WE PLACE D SOM E SOIL.L E S S E V E N I N G I T U R N E D ON T H E S P R I N K L E R I N O R D E R TO SEE AS MANY OF THESE N OCTU R N A LLY ACTIVE C R E A T U R E S A S POSSI BLE. ) ONE TIME I PLACED MY TOO C LOSE T O T H E FLASH WAS VENTI LATION HE. I T H R E W F L A S H O U T. MYSTERIOUS U NT I L W E S A W T I N Y G R E Y COILS ON T H E S U R F AC E S O F THE T E R R A R I U M . I W A S H E A RTI LY W E LCOM ED B Y MY YOU NG E R B ROTH E R W I TH T H E C R E ATU R E . WHITE ONES T H A T POSS E S S E D M E D I OC R E S H E LLS. I T B A C K F I R E D : T H E T H I N G BIT M E . CALLED " F L A S H . AND THEIR FLESH WAS NOT SO STARTLI NGLY COUNTERPA RTS. WHOLE DAYS WERE COI N E D A S O N G F O R T H E LOV E L Y PET W H I C H R A N A S FOLLOW S : POKY T H E S N A I L POKY T H E S N A I L YO U M A Y S E E H I M L A U G H I N ' YOU M A Y S E E H I M C R Y I N ' BUT Y O U K NOW H E'S GOT A GRE-E-E-E-E-EN MOUTH ! RIGHT AWAY WE B U I LT A TE R R A R I U M FOR H I M -A TA K E N U P W I T H LOO K I NG F O R A S N A I L B E A R I N G A COLO R F U L S H E LL . T H E TOP WAS S E A L E D PET SLUG. S I M P LY B E CA U S E I C A R E D NOT TO C L E A N OUT HIS C A G E . IT WANTED! A FT E R FOOD­ WHAT O R I G I N A LLY BOOK C A LLED FLASH TH E COMIC A FTE RWA RDS. MY C H I LDHOOD F R I E N DS S H A R E D TH E I N T E R E ST. ITS BODY WA S LONG AND THICK. I D I D N 'T STAY LONG B E C A U S E IT WAS D I STA ST E F U L TO LOOK A T FOR A N Y LE NGTH O F T I M E . I CALLED THE S N A I L "POKY" A FT E R T H E HORSE I N THE G U M BY TV C A RTOON AND PA RTLY A FT E R ITS S LOW. NOT L I K E THE T I N Y I N DOORS TO WATCH PA R ENTS. I K N E W THEN LINED THAT WITH SNAILS TEETH HAVE AN UNUSUAL A TON G U E TH I S C H A LK SC R E E C H I N G AC ROSS A B L A C K B O A R D . AT TIMES F L A S H COULD B E H E A R D T H ROUGH T H E SC R A P I N G CRY WHO KNOWS HIM FO R D I N OF COM M E RC I A L S . ONE S U M M E R R E A L M C A L L E D "SLUGO N I A " POP U L A T E D BY SLUG- 47 . BUT T O N O I M PLO R I N G N A T U R E . I D I SCOV E R E D A P A I R C E M E N T E D TOG ETH E R I N A N E X C E S S OF S L I M E . ONE RA I N Y DAY. I POKY'S DISAPPEARANCE NEVER BE I WAS D E S PO N ­ THOUGHT I'D A B L E TO F I N D A S N A I L AS B E A U T I F U L A S THAT. I WAS TO LATER F I N D OUT THAT THEY ARE H E R M A P H RODITI C AND THAT THEY NEED TO SLUGS W E R E BY NO M E A N S MY SOLE O B S E S S I O N . B U T W E COULD DETECT H I S SLI MEY TRA I LS OVER THE B E D R OOM WALLS REVENGE. " ITS H O M E WAS O R I G I N A LLY BOTA N I C A L T E R R A R I U M .I N TEREST M O R E : T H E Y H A D S H E L LS. I H A D S P E N T H O U R S LOO K I N G F O R A COMPA R A B L E S N A I L. HUED AS THE I R S H E L L. O N E T I M E W H E N I LET P O K Y C R A W L OVER MY FINGERS THOUGHT (MY IT S I STERS AND OLDER VENTI LATION C LOCK W I S E BODY CAP. MOSS. TH E R E H E'D SC R A P E HIS R A D U LA N I GHT­ LO NG: IT SOU N D E D LIKE A FAINTER VE RSION OF BROT H E R D I SG U STING. T H E G E N D E R OF S N A I LS S E E M E D NO M ATTE R : W E WERE SO C H I LD I S H AT THE TIME THAT IT DIDN'T CO N C E R N US. B E F O R E . A R M E D W I T H A F L A S H ­ LIG HT. SOON WE L O S T POKY. FAC I L I TATES T H E W E L L-A I M E D STROKES AT LEAVES AND FLOW E R S THEY'RE DESPISED FOR. T H E YO U N G E R B ROTH E R . B U T TIM. A SNAIL AS GOOD AS WITH POKY GONE. F R E E DOM. FERN AND G R A SS . TH E R E W E R E O N LY S L U G S O R T H E S M A L L E R S N A I L S W I T H F U R R Y S H E LLS. FLASH'S WOULD I NCH U P TO T H E S E H O L E S A T THE VERY TOP. SHELL HAD ORANGE A N D YELLOW STR I PS A G A I N S T B R O W N A N D P U R P L E . AFTER DE NT. (WE HIS CALLED RADULA. F U RT H E R M O R E . L A T E R O N . A FRIEND CALLED M A TT A N D MYSELF I N V E NTED A M U T U A L L Y I N S E M I N A T E E A C H OTH E R : THE R E S U LT IS BOTH A N I M A L S B E A R I NG T H E EGGS. O N T H E TOP OF TH E CLEAR PLASTIC TW I S T BOX AN WAS A SMALL WITH A METAL LID W I T H H O L E S F O R A I R T O C O M E THROUGH. I T WAS SO B E A UT I F U L THAT I LET IT CRAWL OVER MY FINGERS AND H A N D S AS I W A L K E D H O M E . IN M Y M A N Y WALKS THROUGH A I DI SCOV E R E D A MOST BUT T H E N REASONED T H E Y WERE F U C K I NG. I'M S U R E I S E N S E D S O M E P E R V E R S E PLEAS U R E ." IT REMAINED WHEN SC R A P I N G . T H E S HOCK L I N G E R E D ON WHEN I FINALLY LEFT TH E TV WITH GARDEN MY TO GO WOODED N E I G H BORHOOD. W E AV A I L. B I T I T .

ATTA C K SWAYI NG ITS H E A D A N D T R U N K BACK A N D FORTH I N FRONT OF T H E FOR V I CTI M A N D TH E N LUNGE VERY D I CTATO R S L UGON I A ) . TIM AND I CONTR I B UTED A G R E AT D E A L. GENUS AND SPEC I E S WAS BA S E D U PO N T H E ORGA N IZATION OF T H I E R R E S P I RATORY TRACTS. GA RFO ( A SLUG W H O H A D A S I G N ON H I S BACK R E A D I N G "BEAT M E"). IN HIGH IN SCHOOL FITS I REMEMBER A A C A N NOT RECALL S P E C I F I C A LLY) I H A D BOUGHT THE M O S T COM P R E H E N S I V E BOOK ON TH E S U B J ECT. E V E RYTI M E WENT TO A FRENCH RESTA U R A N T I O R D E R E D ESCA RGOTS. TH E ME S N A I LS VOLUM E S WHEN HELPED DON E I MUCH OF I N AN WAS A I M P RESS MY PEERS THAT SCHOL A R LY TYPE. I COULD NOW SAY T H A T SUCH-A N D-SUCH W A S " A R I O N ATE R. A NOTH E R ONE WAS CONTACT BUT R A P I D D R A W I N G AWAY-"YECCH '''-AS I F T H E PALM WERE S L I M E Y. IT F R I G H T E N E D I N TO TH I N K I NG I WAS A LSO STRANGE FI NDING BULGING SOM E W H AT EFFORT T O FOR D E VOTING SO M U C H TI M E TO A N D C LA S S I F Y I N G ON S N A I LS IT WAS THEM. W H I C H U N FOR­ T U N ATELY A P PEA RS TO H A V E BEEN LOST. E I TH E R IN O U R OWN I DE A S OR J UST LAUGHTER OV E R MATrs TALKS ON THE I D EA O F SLUGO N I A . V ESTIG ES OF O U R U N I FORMS. I NOTI C E D TH E PAGES O N E W A Y O F SHOWI NG YOU WERE S M A RT. W H E N ONE WAS O F F E R E D TO HER ON BREAD WITH GARLIC B U TT E R . C H E E R F U L (A COMPULSIVELY A H A PPY SLUG). D I G ESTI V E A N D R E S P I RATORY SYSTE M S. ONE IT SPEC I E S WAS WOU L D PREDA­ BY I N D U LG E NT. W E W E R E ALREA DY RESIGNED TO HIS D I S A P P RO V A L. P R I D I N G T H E M S E L V E S O N R A V E N OUS A P P ETITES OR EXCESS I V E TV WATC H I NG. T H E CLASSI FICATION I NTO F A M I LY. ) THE BOOK BEC A M E H YSTE R I C A L. T I M AND I M A D E A S U PE R . THOUGH D U R I N G O U R TALKS ON T H E MATTER I FELT AS IF H I S I NTEREST W A S TOO SIONAL. THESE STRUCK EVEN BY MY I NTEREST I N A T M O M E NTS C R EA T U R ES. VORACIOUS A SUPER EATER-LI K E D U R I N G A S U M M E R C A M P V ACATION I REQUESTED A F R I E N D O F MY P A R E NTS' TO B R I N G THE BOOKS WITH HER SINCE SHE WAS GOING TO VISIT SO M E PET-WITH F A S T TONG U E > ' M A TT W A S I N G E N IO U S A N D P ROLI F I C I N C R EATI NG FICTIO N A L SITUATIONS CON C E R N I NG S L UGS. W H E N E A T I N G S N A I LS B EG A N . O F TH E I R H O B A RT NAMES (TH E WERE HARVEY OF (A TRICK­ TORY-C A N N I B A L I STIC. I WAS ABLE TO M A R V E L AT THE H U N D R E D S OF I L LUSTRATION S OF MY FAVORITE A N I M A L. A N D A FTER PLYI NG TH E M A P A RT WITH A LARGE K I TC H E N K N I FE. " "HELIX P O M ATA." EVERY SPECIES HAD A TEC H N IC A L MANY TI M E S THE IMAGE OF S N A I LS ON A GREW TO D I STU R B I N G THROUGH PROPORTIONS. C H A R M I N G M Y M OT H E R WITH MY SOPH I ST I C A T I O N ( " I S N 'T T H A T OTH E R P E RSON. SO M E STE R ) . TH E A R E A H A D A N U M B E R O F S N A I LS I DI DN'T K N OW TH E N A M E S TO. AND REFUSING M O N OG R A PH S L U G S. W E EVEN I N V E NTED A H A N DS H A K E W H I C H CONSI STED O F CONTACT W ITH E I TH E R PA LM ONLY TO HAVE SQ U I S H I NG SOUNDS M EET TH E A S I A LSO LEA R N E D F R O M THE BOOK. STRAIT OF BOAT IN TRIP TH E GEORGIA BRITISH CO. A TT E N T I V E ME A N D TOO OBSES­ A N D I E V E N WENT SO FA R AS TO SUGGEST A "SLUG PATROL" TO O U R BOY SCOUT TROOP. IN FITS SHE OF WAS OF M E XICO. E A T I N G E SCA RGOTS IT A RR I V E D. TH E BOOK H A D V E R Y STR A N G E ACCOU NTS ON C E R TA I N S P E C I ES.V O L U M E D S N A I LS AND LONG E R . WE DREW C O M I C S ABOUT T H E C E N T R A L SLUG C H A RACTERS. HELIX PO MOTA WAS C A L L E D T H E E U RO P E A N G A R D E N S NA I L. B E FO R E H A N D.B A N I M A TION F I L M A B O U T SLUGO N I A . WERE U N C UT. A N D IT IS THE SNAIL THAT THE I FRENCH USE FOR ESCA RGOTS. M ATT H A D COM POSED A FLAG W I T H SOM E R S A U LTING O R " F L I P P I NG" S L U G S (OUR S L U G S C O U L D F L I P I N M I D. (TH E ACTUAL TITLE M I G H T B E WAS ON A FO U R . F E E DOR ( A T V A D D I CT).U M B I A I S A W A POST O R LOOK M AGAZI N E THAT FEATURED A S H ORT STORY A BO U T MONSTER 4B . HE ALSO COU N S E LORS. H E'S O R D E R I N G ESCARGOTSI")." "VESPERCOLA LATI N B R U M . TH E Y D I DN'T H A V E A N Y A N T E N N A E OR SLI M E OR R A D U LAS A N D TH E Y R E S E M B L E D H U M A N S I N TH E I R W E A K E R M O M E NTS. DEMIC MANY OF THE COUNS ELORS ONE OF HELD ACA­ A O R I G I N ATED TH E I R I M AG E A N D I N V E N TED MOST OF TH E C H A RACTE RS A N D TH E ( R N A M ES. W H E N S H E A R R I V E D S H E M A D E A W I S E C R A C K A S TO T H E WEIGHT O F THE BOOKS. M ATT POSITI O N S HE WAS AND THEM WAS BIOLOGI ST.L. T H E SCOUT­ M A STER WAS C H A R M E D BY THE I D E A BUT HAD TO R E F U S E THE TITLE (HE WAS A STU P I D M A N ) S I N C E TH E R E W E R E S O M A N Y OTH E R N A M E S OF A N I M A LS T H A T WE COULD USE B E S I D E THAT O F "SLUG:' W E K N E W IT W A S A POOR REASON-BESI DES. TH E F LAG'S S L U G S W E R E A LSO W E A R I N G BA N D A N A S A N D H A T S . CUTE. P I L S B U R Y'S NORTH LAND M O L L USCA O F NORTH A M E R ICA SKI N N Y BLACK GIRL A OVER FRENCH A TEAC H E R EATI N G S N A I L : " YO U ' R E EATI NG S N A I L?'" S H E S H R I E K ED. I ELSE TO E AT. I T WAS O N LY A FOODSTUFF POOR FA R M E R S R ESORTED TO W H E N TH EY HAD NOTH I NG AROUND TH I S TI M E (l I TO 14 YEARS OF AGE. THESE CA RTOON SLUGS WERE VERY SELF­ D E SC R I PTION O F T H E I R R E PRODUCT I V E . ( A GA I N .A I R ) .I N S P I R E D CA RTOON C R EATURES. AND MY FLASH FOR M E R QUICKLY T H E OTH E R SNAI L'S M A I N A RTERY R U N N I NG U P TH E C E N T E R O F THE S P I R A L. WHEN SOLELY LAND LAUGHTER S H OC K .

SOM E C RITICS E V E N THOUGHT V E R M E E R'S WOM A N WAS WEIGH ING GOLD. TAKING LONGE R T O E M E RGE AGA I N F A C I N G T H E H U M A N A D V E RSA RY. THE DUO OF MOTH E R AND H E R FRIEND DISCUSS I N G O F T H E C REATURES WOULD S W A Y M Y FAM I LY I NTO A P P R EC I A T I N G TH E M . M I LKY P A S S I NG M I DDLE-AGE SEEN PALLOR OF H I S MOSTLY F E M A LE S U B JECTS.S H ELL. BESI DES.S N A I LS ON A R EMOTE I S L A N D . FROM THE F I X E D LY STA R E AT T H E MOUTH'S P R I C K LY CAVERN. A N D T O SEE MY MOTHE R SPREA D I NG SLUG-BE-GONE OR W H E R E TO PLACE IT. TH E B R I LL I A N T GROWTH O F RLOWE R S WAS NOTH I N G T O H A R M . TER ROR W A S T H E R E ACTION. CONT R I B U T I N G TO T H E S O FT . SO I L E FT I T IN THE C H A NGE PURSE OF E I TH E R MY MOTH E R 'S BAG OR HER F R I E N D·S. I WOULD FREQUE NTLY O P E N TH E MAGAZINE AND A NOTH E R P A I NTI N G . T H E S N A I L'S H A T E D STATUS W A S W H A T I ATTEMPTED TO C H A NG E . WAS SOMETH I NG I OFTEN D I D T O SNAI LS: I B L E W ON TH E I R A N TE N N A E T O S E E S E N S I T I V E. AND I F THEY WERE TRULY THAT WERE­ VERY O FT E N THEY RECOI L I N G T H E T E N D E R F I LA M E NTS. I T F A I L E D S I M PL Y B ECA U S E S H E W A S MEASU R I NG GOLD. SOME S U C H S I M I LA R POISON O N OU R G A R D E N H U R T M E I N ATTEN U AT E D WAYS. A FT E R HAVING P U NCTU R E D YO U R SKIN. H I S ATTE NTION T O P E A R L S M U ST H A V E CONTR I BUTED T O M Y EXC ITMENT O V E R H I S WORK. A R M E D WITH BUCK ETS OR PLASTIC BAGS. TH E S N A I L A N D SLUG. THE BOTTI C E LLrS OF LA P R I M I V E RA. A IN IT HER HAIR COILS IN IS WHILE M ALE ZEPHYR.) ONCE THAT VERMEER WAS WOULD N O D O U B T Q U I C K L Y WITH E R A N D D I E . I H A D W R ITTEN A LONG PAPER ON THE DUTCH PAINTER JAN M A N Y A S U M M E R'S LIGHT U N R A VAGED BY G A PS A N D HOLES. L I L I E S A N D PETU N I A S COULD FLOU R I SH I N A Y E A R A FT E R T H E BOAT T R I P . I THOUGHT I T TO B E A M OST DURING THAT VACATION.B L U E W A T E R . TH I S D E L I C A C Y S E N T M E I N S M I LES. A G I A NT S NA I L WAS DWA R F I NG A T R E E ITS DEVOU R I NGS HAD PROBABLY D E N U D E D. LOVED TO P R E P A R E F R E S H OYSTERS. M Y S ELF." I T S E E M E D A V E R Y E LEGANT T H I N G TO DO IN THE W I L D E R N ESS. O N LY TO HAVE THEM R E CO I L MORE R A P I D L Y. FLORA. THE E N DO R S E D COULD LAWRENCE THINK GOW I N G ' S SHE POINT-HOW WEIGHING A N YO N E WAS SOMETH I N G B E S I D E S TH ESE J E W E LS FROM OYST E R BEDS? I M A G E OF THE MOUTH W A S MOST D I STU R B I N G AND I THOUGHT ABOUT I T OFTEN D U R I NG T H E VACATION. I N E V E R SAW TH AT PEA R L A G A I N ONCE I T W A S S A F E I N S I D F T H E FO LDS OF LEATH E R . LATE R ON WE'D PRY TH E M OPEN. T H E MOUTH O F T H E MONSTER LOO K E D LIKE A BALL O F A THOU S A N D ICE-PICKS. I TH I N K MY YOU NG E R S I ST E R SHOWED ME THE PICTURE. I T WAS V E R Y S M A L L A N D B R O U G H T M U C H ATTEN­ TION FROM THE OLDER WOM E N . FITFULLY BLOWING H I S G E NTLE B R EATH. Y E T HARM TO THEM SEEMED I N EVITA B L E F O R THEY THO UGHT M E Q U I T E S E N S I T I V E T O S E L ECT V E R M E E R A S A S U B JECT FOR A R E S E A RCH PA P E R . PROMPTING MORE A S S E RT I V E MEASU R E S SUCH A S TOUC H I NG TH E STA LKS. I E V E N CHASTISED I N F R O N T OF MOTHER A M E RICA'S C U LT OF YOUTH F U L N E S S I N TO IN WOMEN WHEN AS SHE BY WAS MY ME CON S I D E R E D TO H A V E GROU N D R E A L P E A R LS I NTO HIS O I LS. T H E MOTH E R OF T H E ACCOMPA NY­ I NG F A M I LY. MOM'S F R I E N D WAS Q U I T E WORLDLY I N MY EYES AND B E A UTI F U L E N O U G H T O HAVE ME B EA U T I F U L S P I R A LS PICTU RE. I F YOU DON'T MIND THE F R E E . O N E TI M E I FOUND A PEA R L. TH E Y S C A R S U C H LUMI NOUS P A R A D I S E S T H A T R E FLECT A PROUD OWNER'S LABOR. WE WOULD PARTAKE OF MANY LUNCHES "ON T H E H ALF-SHELL. V E R M E E R'S CONTEM P O R A R Y D E H O OC H D E PICTED A WOM A N W E I G H I N G GOLD COINS.A S S OC I ATI N G . N O W TH E PETALS OF OU R I R I S ES. H E R FACE IS STI LL VERY YO UTH F U L A N D MY V I C I O U S N E S S AGAI N ST TH E ONE WHO H A D LOOKED O V E R M E W I T H T E N D E R N ESS FOR SO M A N Y Y E A R S A P P E A R S O N L Y T O B E R E V E N G E A G A I NST W E I G H I N G PEA R LS" A S H I S M O S T E X Q U I S I T E E FFORT. I VAINLY THOUGHT MY V E R M E E R . A V U LGA R ITY I N I T S F A I L U R E T O UNDERSTA N D T H E R ESONATING SIGN I F I C A N C E O F PEAR LS. SI M I LA R LY ATTI R E D 49 . I G R E W T O A P P R ECI ATE THE P A I N T I N G E NTITLED "WO M A N OBSESSIO N A L S C R U T I N Y OF H E R FACE'S G ROWTH OF WRINKLES. ( I W A S 1 4 Y E A R S OLD A N D A MOM EVEN TOLD F R E S H M A N I N H I G H SCHOOL. W E ' D A L L D I V E F O R OYSTERS I N C L E A R. WITH P L E NTY O F OYSTER BEDS AROUND. W H E N I SAW IT. R E A DY TO R I P A P A RT A N YTH I N G ORGANIC. M Y MOTH E R AND A GOOD F R I E N D OF H E R S . HENCE COM P A R E H E R T O A U D R E Y H E P B U R N . A P A I N F U L TASK FOR A S H E L L'S S H A R P EOG E S W O U L D CUT Y O U . I D I D N 'T KNOW A G A R D E N'S B R I G HT FLOWERS AND G L I ST E N I N G LEAVES H A S A R A PAC I O U S PRE DATOR. BUT MY PA P E R B E L I EVABLE WITH A N I L LUSTRATION OF ONE. FEATU R E D BIRTH V E N US LEGEN D A R Y S E A . W H I C H . A L E M O N A N D TOMATO SAUCE AWAITED TH E H U NGRY M I N O R I TY S I N C E MANY IN O U R PARTY D I D N'T C A R E FOR TH E M . T H E M A I N C H A RAC­ T E R D E SC R I B E D HIS H O R ROR AT THE E N O R M ITY OF THE C R EATU R E S WHICH WAS ALL TH E MORE (THOUGH NOT WITH TH E SATIN A N D ER M I N E J A C K ET) AND POS ITIONED BEFORE THE W I N DOW O F STRE A M ­ ING D A Y L I GHT. A N D T H E K N I F E O R PRYING TOO L . WOULD A D D T O T H E M I S E R Y O F A L R E A D Y SLICED FINGERS.

S N A I L A LLOPHON I C A L L Y R E S I D E S IN " A I LS . T H E "5. A SISTER HER OF MINE WAS A LSO E N C R Y PTED UNDYING F A N T A S I E S A N D TH E I R C O R R E S PONDING PLEA S U R E­ WORDS. TH I S BLAsEN. T H O U G H A N A S E M IC D EC I PH E R I NG. I WITH HAVE M I RROR AND FACE YOU'RE SO P I C K Y . HER NAME WAS EVERYDAY. H E W A S A P E D I A T R I C I A N L I K E M Y FATH E R WIPE OFF OIL F I N GE R N A I LS/FI N G E R S N A I LS O N TO H E R D R E S S O R A PR O N . SOM E MEN FEW M I LDLY ACNED ME AND IN R E LA T E D T O "G U L IS]. " U LG. AND I B E A R H I S FIRST NAME A S M Y M I DDLE O N E . W H I L E T H I N K I NG I WAS P I C K A B L E. JESUS C H R I S T'S HANDS AND FEET FASC I N ATED DRAW FI FTH MY G R A D E. A C O M P U LS I V E LY NEAT 15 NOW. C O M P E N S A T I N G F O R HER VERY BLEMISHED FACE. HAD DESIGNATED TH E PHYSICAL M ET A ­ I D E N TI C A L T O M Y M O T H E R'S. TO VERBARIUM: SNAIL. THERE MY HAVE TO SENT FIX S H I V E R S. O R A S I T D I D TO M Y F I N G E R B Y ITS B I T I NG: A B I T I N G .I D E A L S . " J U L E S. W H I TE H E A D TO HER A LW A Y S N U R S I NG THE WOULD. A PHOR O F T H E EGO. SCR A P I NG NOTED GOUGING YOUNGER B ROTH E R S' T E R I ET. OR B U B B L E OF S K I N I S W H A T THE S N A I L. W I T H S L U G E L I M I N A T E T H E " S " A N D W I T N E S S " L U G . IS A LL O P H O N I C A L L Y TR I U M P H E D OUR TH E I R I D E O LOG I C A L I N P E R FECTION. IT A LSO H E LP E D M E E N D U R E B E I N G B RO U G H T U P IN A SOC I A L A P P A R A T U S T H A T EXU LTS I N A S T R E A M L I N E D P A S S I O N F O R A S S I M I LA ­ TING E G O. I H A V E SUCC U M B ED TO T H E ADVE RTISI NG VISAGE OF G R EATER P OT E N C Y . HAS F U R T H E R T R A N S FOR M E D WHATEVER THROUGH.M A N PAC I NG H YSTE R I C A L L Y TO A N D FRO I N A D E R M A ­ TOLOG I ST'S P OW D E R IN OFFICE HAND. THE ONE WHO A I LS F R O M ACNE.H E A D E D M A N . S C R A P I N G AT MY S K I N . WITH WERE N A I LS. A WORD IN H I S NOSE­ LANGUAGE.H E R O B S E S S I V E P I C K I N G O F MY ZITS AS I A D V A N C E D I N TO T H E H O R M O N A L D I S F I G U R E M E NTS OF A DOLES­ CENCE. A LSO." A N U G L Y J E W E L I S THE S L U G THAT COULD R E N D E R T H E C H I L D-J E W E L OF J U L I E U G L Y A S W E LL. THEN R E A LITY WILL CONC U R E W I T H M Y H A L L U C I N A TION A N D I S H A L L B E A I R . " P I N K Y" APPEARS O R T H OG R A P H I - 50 . T H A T I S . AS FLA S H DID WITH ITS SEXUAL CROWD OBEYS THE SA M E I M P U LS E ! S E C R ETLY C H E R I S H : AN O R A L D R I VE." O R A S I S C L E A R . " I . U G L I F Y I N G S L U G . " A N D YOU H A V E " s L l N " -T H E N GO ON T O "S N A I L. TH E W O R D S K I N . I W I S H I N G THAT T H E P HOTOS A N D COM M E R I C A L S SEE W I L L B E P R E S E N T I N MY L I FE A S A R E S U L T OF BUYING THE PRODUCT. BO D I L Y H A N D­ SOC I E T Y ' S THE I N DICIA CLEAN. H I S P L EA S U R E-WORD. FREUD. H O P E L E S S R E V E NG E . WHY DID I LIKE TO HAVE POKY C R A W L O V E R M Y F I N G E R S ? I A M A LSO S U P PO S E D TO BE "GE N ET I C A L L Y I D E N T I C A L" TO H I M . A N D ZITS. " SOU N D I NG M UC H L I K E "J E W E LS. M Y H A N D S H A V E B E E N C A L L E D "ATT R A C T I V E " B Y T H O S E CLOSE T O M E . CLEANSING P E R PETU A L L Y S H I T. A LT H O U G H AT TIMES HER ATTA C K S WERE AND R U BB I N G SLUG. M Y M OT H E R ' S NAME.B R USH P E R FECT L I K E A L L THE B E A U T I E S WHO C O U L D GET I NTO STU D I O 54 W I THOUT W A I T I N G . SAYS 50. W H E T H E R I T WAS C O M B I N G M Y H A I R O R W I P I NG OFF D I RT FROM ANY PART OF MY BODY.R I D D E N E N V E L O P E O F F L E S H . FORC I N G M E T O TH I N K OF A M OT H E R RAVAGED BY WHAT I HAD. W R I N K LES A R E L l N Es/LA I N S ( S N A I L ) ON T H E s K I N /S L I N (SNAIL). "D U N C A N A LTHOUGH I A M NOT I D E N T I C A L T O T H E WOLF. PAROXYSMS WITH BAD MY COMPLEXION BEING MY WENT SKIN G R A N D­ F A T H E R ' S DOO M . " T H E "5" A N D " L " A R E C R U C I A L: BOTH P A R E N TS POSS ESS T H E M I N T H E I R O R IG I N A L N A M ES.R A Y S H E G A V E TO H I S PATI E N TS . DEGREE." " S L U G S A R E 50 U G L Y " S A Y T H E C O M M O N LOT. T H E D R I V E OF THE VAMPI RE IN FOR THESE OT H E R S WHO HAVE C A G E ." S I M I LA R T O D A D'S E N D E A R ­ M E N T. " M E A N I NG SHE PROBABLY WAS D I SC O N T E N T W I T H M Y FON D N E S S F O R C R IT I C A LITY AND D I S T I NCTION. J U LI E. THE R U SS I A N SEEMS PICK TERM FOR MY F L E S H W IT H A F I N G E R C A L L E D " P I N K Y . SLUGS MAKE U G LY. ME IN LIKE THE L E ECHES THAT H A D COU LD A A LSO T H E V E R Y I N S T R U M E N T OF M Y R E P E T I T I O N : S N A I L IS]. HUMAN PROPELLING EYES ON TH E I R RA D U LA S T H A T C O U L D B I T E T H E V E R Y P I M P L E S I POSS E S S T H A T E V E N I N G . S P L E N DOR. B U T A G I R LF R I E N D I O N C E K N E W H A D A N EXQU I S I T E P A I R . SO H A V E I F E LT I T TOO TO B E M I N E. "U LGIYI. " I T WAS A L L A JOKE." " I " A N D "N": P L A C E A N D "L" FOR T H E " K . A N I N C I D E N T K N O W N I N C H R I ST I A N HOME. P R E Y TO HER FON D N E S S FOR D R A W I N G O I L OUT OF MY FOR SKIN. HER F I N G E R NAILS W E R E THE BITING S N A I L. 1 5 STI L L I NSPI R I N G ME TO A W A SH AND SHAVE DI RTY. TH E PAST O F P U R I F Y I N G D I R T ON T H E S K I N I NTO A MI LITA NT OC C U P A T I O N . A N D IF YOU WENT H TE R E . BEFORE MY G R A N D­ EXTRACTED M OT H E R . I S R E LATED TO T H E LETTERS I N S N A I L. A P R O D U C T O F L U T H E R A N U P B R I N G I N G . EVERY TRUE WOU L D EDUCATION FROM HER FATH E R ' S D E A T H H I S H A N D S W E R E A L SO WOU N D E D BY I M P R O P E R PROTEC T I O N F R O M X . MY FATH ER P E R SO N . S I M I LA R PICKY. FACE AS B LO O D FROM F R E S H LY MY B L OO D I E D B Y T H E M . THE LARGE MALE HOMO­ F U R T H E R MO R E . OFTE N TI M E S MY MOTH E R WOULD LA M E N T. OR ACNE FRIGHTENING. " BETTER YET. T H E ATTA C K W A S A L W A Y S ON.

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POKY ON MY MY PET S N A I L. LIKE I DO IS PIC K I NG YOUR NOSE G H ASTLY. ACNE. IS A C R Y PTIC I M PULSE IN N E W YORK. SOM ETH I NG ATTACK MELANIE KLEIN CALLS AN ANAL M U C I LA G E FROM SNA I LS I ONCE PUT ON M Y BODY. A P E R FECT TA N I N M A N H ATTA N TA KES SOME TI M E. " A DORE ME. N IGHTLONG L I K E M Y PET SLUG H A D DON E ATOP THE GIANT TV SET. SC R A P E R S . UN ENDLICH. 15 NOT A L U ST-IC H . THE NEW YORK WITH AN ISLAND THE CALLED M A N H ATTA N . R E PRODUC I N G F I N G E R/SNAI L. M Y "C RITICALITY" (MY "PICKY" NATUREC ITICAL. BITING THE G I STS FOR PEOPLE TO K E E P CORPSEHooD I NTACT AND GOLDEN." AND M Y MOVE TO N E W YORK WAS OPPORTU NE. OR "NOC T U R N A L L Y ZITS OR "szlr' VIBRA TES WITH "SHlr' A N D CLEANING I S OF COURSE A N A N A L MOTIF. FORGOTTEN A S LONG A S I LIVE W H E R E TV'S A R E WATC H E D. BUT "FUN­ A ·'FU N-ZITY. M U C U S O R SNOT. WITH A ZIT ON ITS B U BBLE. A N OT H E R CRUC I A L P L E A S U R E . "OUI. THE (SIUGLIY I N T E LLECTU A L READI NG AN I MAGE­ EVEN A H U N D R E D YEARS. THE C R I TI C A L . TH E TV SHOW WILL N OT BE C ITY" IS. N U M E ROUS ACTIVE C R E A T U R ES" H E R E WITH D E E P BROWN TA N S IS ONLY T H E MANY M E N W I T H THE EVIDENCE O F BY S U M M E R'S RAYS. PICKED AT. NEW YORK WAS -FU N-C ITY" AND I ENVISIONED THE M A N Y " F U N " PEOPLE L I V I N G H E R E . PROFESSIONAL FAC I A LS ARE SU RGEON. FINGERS POKY. FOR M E . POK E . A FUN EGO I N A CITY­ ZITY WITH ALL ITS FUN. SKYSC R A PERS OR NOT SO H A R S H LY. A.L I K E WITH RUBBERY HANDS V I O L E NTLY PICKING AWAY. NO. WITHOUT END. IS B U R I E D I N MY N A M E : DUNCAN/DUNACNIEL TO M A K E GOLDE N A N D YOUTH EVOCATIVE. W. I CAME HERE TO FA LL I N TO THE A RMS OF ITS BEAUTIFUL M E N . THE A P PLICATION C R E A MS. JE I BEG FORG I V E N E S S FOR ALL THIS CONFESSING IT S C R A P E S STA R­ AND TADORE. D E L I C ATE S N A I LS.M A K I N G A N D S U RG E R Y I N H I S JOURNAX I N TI M ES.H A T-TAN. I S PICKED I N THE NOSE.F U N EGO. ADORNO-DON'T A DORE " S E LF-STY L I N G A DO R N ." SINCE WHEN YOU THE IN ATTE N D A N T M O R B I D I T I ES. AN I N DEED "ZITICAL FOR MY BEING A FFLICTED E X P L A N A TION SONNENSTRAHLEN.W O R D. AND THIS H A B I T OF M I N E I S EVEN WORSE WH E N I VENTURE TO EAT THE STUFF. N A TU RE'S S U RGEONS (THE Y LEAVE SC A R S ON PLANT TISSUE) ARE N O W O N L Y COSMETOLO­ F R E Q U ENTLY R E A D E R .EN MOUTH.CALLY S I M I L A R TO POKY. ("HE HAS A GRE-E-E­ E-E. AS IT IS MORE COMMONLY CA LLED. I M A G I N A R Y B A N I S H I NG T. BECO M E S IS A L LOPHON IC WITH "ZIT" : M A N . THEORY" ZITI C A L. TO GET A T A N . BE IT DAYS. T H I S C I TY OF THOUGH STI LL. I'M RECALLING B A U D E LA I R E' S G R E E N J U N K A LONG THE WAY. FASCIN ATION FOR T H E WR ITINGS O F THAT SCHOOL. PICKY TO E L I M I N A TE THE OF ZIT IN THIS C I TY NEEDS AN THE F I N G E R S . B E A UTIFUL PEOPLE.") EQUATION O F LOVE. WEEKS. AN U N L U sT· I C H . U PON T H E MOTH E R . C R I TICIZED. MONTHS. DUNCAN S M I TH 152 . H AVE A "ZIT' I N FU N-CITY YOU DON'T HAVE F U N . FU RTH ER.

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I T IS TRANSGRESSED "ON LY TOO OFTEN. W E CAN ONE SAY R E S PECT IT M UC H LESS. TH I S ALSO I S ONLY TOO E V I D ENT. F R E U D WOULD E R RS. S ITUATION FLESH I N PLACE O F M EAT. DESPITE T H E FACT THAT I N EATING A MAN ONE NEED NOT B EG I N BY KILLING HIM: PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S COURAGE REMARKED: R E A SO N TO D I S ­ FREUD I N C ESTUOUS R E LA T IONS H I PS. HAD WHO HAD ASKED H I M SOM E IF K I LLS. WOULD BE A S H A R M F U L TODAY AS IT WAS IN T I M E S PAST. T H E Y S I M PLY C A N NOT B E M A R R I E D A N D TH E I R C H I LD R E N W I LL N O T B E LEGITIMATE: TH E I R R E LATIONS W I LL B E S E X U A L BUT N O T CON N U B I A L. I N G E N E R A L A N D I N PA RTIC ULAR. BUT ARE S E N S E -A N D NOT HAVE S A I D THE SHOULD JUDGE­ R A RELY R IGOROUSLY L I N K E D : O N E C A N PROH I BI T TH E M A R R I A G E O F C E RTAI N K I N WITHOUT M A K I N G A D R A M A OF T H E I R EVENTUAL SEXUAL R E LATIONS. REASONS THAT K I LL A MAN NATURALLY THERE ARE GOOD IN MODERN LIFE ONE DOES NOT NON ETH ELESS. MORE OR CONTRA Ry-oFTEN ONE TH E LAST P H R A S E M A K E S O N E TH I N K THAT I N C E ST COU L D HAVE BEEN PRACTI S E D ONCE. HOW THAT FOR THE I N C EST. WE CAN EASILY SEE THAT. BUT THERE IS NO FOR NOT EAT I N G HUMAN THEN R E A SO N WHATEVER I M P L I C I TL Y FOR M U R DE R . W H I C H P R E S ENTS BOTH A SEXUAL A N D A SOCIO­ LOGICAL A S PECT: T H E Y C A N NOT B E COMPLETELY TH I S TEXT IS F U L L OF GOOD SENSE. THE PROH I BI TION IS THEN J U STI F I ABLE: HOWEVER. A N D O N E C A N ONLY E I T H E R B E O N E OR N O T B E ONE. TWO NEAR KIN CAN S L E E P TOGETH ER. BUT THAT MEN HAD RENOUNCED I T FOR GOOD R EASONS. AND IT OCCURS O N LY TOO OFTEN. O N T H E CONTRA RY. THE P R O H I B I T I O N O F C A N N I BA L I S M T H U S A P P E A R S U N J USTI F I A BLE. ESPEC I A L LY I N O R D E R T O D E V O U R O N E ' S V I C T I M . I F IT WAS PRACTISED ON A LARGE SOC I A L SCA L E IT "EXACTLY L I K E THAT O F C A N N I B A L I S M ?" TO BE A C A N N I B A L IS TO EAT OTH E R M E N . LA N G U A G E M A N N E R S TO MARIE BONA PARTE.T A B L E M A N N ERS. I N C EST I S NOT SO FAR REMOVED. M A TT E R S ARE N O T SO S I M PL E WITH R ESPECT TO I NC E ST. N E VERTHELESS MOST OF U S WOULD FINO THAT COMPLETELY I M POSSI BLE. TH U S O N E WILL B E -M UST O N E THE SEXUAL R I T U A L LY SAY. WITH US FOR E X A M PLE. AND IS TO DEVOUR H I M ." M U R D E R IS T H E SA M E : ONE S H O U L D N EV E R K I LL. B E D M A N N E RS. A N D H E R E A LSO "GOOD REASONS" CAN BE I N VOKED: BUT THAT O N E LESS-EXACTI N G : ONE TIME R E LATION S H I P AT W I LL BECOM E A TREATED . BUT GOOD D I S SOC I AT E D ONE FROM THE OTH E R . T H E SITUATION OF I NC EST I S EXACTLY LIKE THAT O F C A N N I B A LI S M . THERE IS NO R E A SO N FOR NOT EATING H U M A N FLESH.

I T TOLE RATES N O M E A N S O F ESCA PE. ITS P U R POSE IS TO R E I N FORCE THE PROH ITI B I O N .FULLY LEGAL M A R R I AGE . WHY. RE PEATED. O N E CAN NOT EXPLAIN WHY 55 . IN A NON­ R U L E WHICH CON D E M N S IT.: THIS I S NOT TO S P E A K O F WAR WHERE TO KILL I S AN EVERYO N E PARTICI PATE. THAT MORE F R EQU E N T IN THOSE SOC I ET I E S AN I N STITUTION. S OC I ET Y IS S OC I ETY PRESC R I B E I T WITHOUT CONTRA­ TERMS: S I NCE IT S U PPOSES THE A N D TH I S W H Y THE P U N I S H M ENT OF DEATH C A N BE A L LOWED BY THE V E R Y PEOPLE WHO MOST VIGOROUSLY CON D E M N M U R D E R . I R REPA R ABL E: MEMBER OF ONE C A N NOT CON S I D E R TH I S IS HIM A IN CONTRA RY." W O U L D SAY T H A T THE SA M E I S T R U E O F M U RDER. O R T O SORC E R E R S W H O A R E D I F F I C U LT T O I D E NTIFY. A N D THIS TRANSGRESSION C A N BE FO U N D EVE RYWH E R E OF SEXUAL BECAUSE DESIRE. BUT THE FACT IS T H A T. AND SOCI ETY OF CAN N I BA LS. ELSE. S I M I LA RLY IT WOULD COME TO NO O N E'S M I N D. T H E R E I S N O WAY TO ELUOE IT. ON THE INDICATED. RULE SUFFERS ITS E X PLOIT: T H E ACQUITTAL O F A M U RD E R E R WHERE E X T E N U A T I N G C I R C U M ST A N C E S NIZED DOES NOT PLACE THE CAN BE R ECOG­ IN TRA NSG R ESSION. AN OF THE CA N N I BA L SOC I ETY. . FOR US. I N TH E M A TT E R OF C A N N I B A LI S M . K E E PS THE RESTRIC­ TION OF T H E PROH I B ITION TO T H E ONLY K I N W H O A R E CONSISTENTLY FOR B I DDEN. T H E POSSIBI LITY OF I N C EST I S S O WELL P R E D I C T E D T H A T OFT E N ONE HAS A LS O FORSEEN A RITE T O A C H I EVE IT. W H I C H B R I NG S US BACK TO TH E FACT THAT C A N N I BA L I S M IS A LMOST A LWAYS WHERE T H E C I RCLE O F FOR B I D D E N PARTNERS I S L I M ITED. IN E V E R Y CASE A TWO-S I DED PLAY IS POSS I B L E . T H E C A N N I BA LISTIC R E LATION S H I P C A N NOT H A U STS BE IT. IT I S U N DE R STOOD THAT I N C A N N I B A L I S M A S WELL THERE A R E T W O A S PECTS: T O E AT. O N E C A N G E T A ROUND T H E R U L E . N E V E R A T R A N SG R ES S I O N . A N D W H E R E ONE ATTR I B U T E S M A LA D I E S AND D E ATHS TO WOM A N WITHOUT M A R R Y I NG H E R A N D S H E R E M A I N S A POSSI B LE SPO U S E . VIOLA T I N G I T WHILE M A I NTA I NI NG It. AS FOR I NCEST AND A N C I ENT TU P I . ONE " F I N A LLY. BUT W H E R E M E N FEAR B E I N G EATE N. T H U S A G A I N . ON THE OTH E R . I N G E N E R A L. TO S UGGEST TIojE CON S U M P­ U N I VERSA LITY A NCE MORE APPEAR­ TION OF SOM EONE WHO H A D B E E N FOU N D G U I LTY OF C A N N I B A L I S M . THE V ICTI M IS I R RECU PARABLE. DICTING THUS. T H E C A N N I B A L. T O F I L L TH E GAP. WHERE I T A P P L I ES. AND IF IT ITS IS A C H I E V E M ENT EX­ PROH I BITED AND S Y M M E T R I C A LLY. NOT TO W E A K E N IT: TO KILL SOM EON E THE WHO HAS KILLED I N TO A DOES NOT OF C A N N I B A L I S M E A S I L Y EXPLA I N T H I S . AND TO BEGIN AGAIN. I N A SOCI ETY W H I C H I S NOT. "TH E ESSENTIAL R U L E O F A NTH RO­ POPH A G Y IS PERHAPS THE EXIGENCE THAT CONTR A R Y TO C A N N I BA L I S M . ITS S I M P L E E X I ST E N C E COULD FOR M T H E B A S I S O F A RECOG­ N I Z E D U N I ON OF I N F E R I O R STATUS . O N E C A N NOT THUS DI SSOCIATE DE FACTO A N D DE J U R E STATUS. TO E FFACE ITS VIOLATION . A S FOR T H E E X EC UTION O F A M U R DER­ ER. A R U L E W H I C H C A N NOT B E VIOLATED SINCE THAT WHICH I T CON D E M N S . TH E R E I S ON ONE S I D E A PROH I B I TION WHOSE V I OLATION I N N O W A Y COM P RO M I S E S IT. W R I TES H. ON T H E CONTRA RY. W H I C H ITSELF I S A M U R D E R. WITHOUT CONSTRA I N I NG T H E S E PA RA­ TION O F T H E I NC ESTUOUS PARTIES. B U T I F I E A T HER SHE I S NO LON G E R EDIBLE FOR A N Y ONE E L S EI D I F F E R E N T FROM THE SEXUAL R E LATIO N S H I P. CLASTRES A BO U T T H E NONETH E LESS R E A LIZED. I N R E A LITY THE D E F I N I TI O N S OF I N C EST AND OF PROH I B ITION QUESTION. A R E L A T I ON S H I P IS O N LY I N C ESTUOUS WITH R E S PECT T O T H E CAN NOT. F O R M E O R F O R SOMEONE C A N N I B A L ACTIONS. O N E I M PUTES T H E C O M M I S S I O N OF THE C R I M E S T O M YSTERIOUS FOR E I G N E RS. A N D TO EAT OTH E R M E N P R EC I S E LY : B U T T H E B I OLOGICAL A S PECT O F TH E MATTER IS NOT S E P A R A B L E F ROM ITS SOCI A L CONSEQU E N C E . I CAN SLEEP WITH A THE SOCIAL BODY. C A N N I BA L I S M IS O N LY PRACTISED WHERE IT IS HORROR O F I NCEST I S PRONO U N C E D I N T H E S E LATTER: W H E R E O N E H A S AFFIRMED IT IN A B U S I V E LY E XT R A PO L A T I N G A AUTHO R I S E D A N D N E V E R W H E R E I T I S PROH I B ITED. TRANSGRESSES T H E NORM I N A M A N N E R T H A T I S . . AND P E R H A PS A LS O . A S FOR C A N N I BA L I S M . IT A LWAYS A PPEARS A S A TRAN SGRESSION. " ONE F I NOS O N E S E L F I N THE P R E S E N C E O F A PARADOX THAT I S A T L E A ST A P P A R E NT: THE U N I VE R S A L WHILE. T H E PARTI C U L A R R U L E KNOWS PRACTICALLY NON E . IF O N E DOES IT. WHERE CANNIBALISM IS THE RU LE. HAVE FEWER M EMBERS AND THAT HAVE SYNTH ESIS A N D R E S U LTS O F A L L T H E S E OPPOSI ­ TIONS: I N C EST (AND M U R D E R) IS PROH I B IT E D ENLARGED T H E BOUNDS OF T H E PRO H I BITION. THE P R ETENDED IN GEN E R A L UNIVERSAL M UC H LESS E V E RYWH E R E A N D E NC O U N T E R E D E V E R Y W H E R E . WHICH ALLOWS OPPOSITE R U L E . SOC IETIES W H E R E O N E DOES NOT EAT OTH E R M E N. FOR TH I S REASON. ON E'S P R O H I B I TI O N IT B R E A KS : O N E TR A N S FO R M K I LLE RS. T H E R E I S N O POSSIBLE R E M I SSION. PROVES ITS ABSENCE AND M A N I F E STS THE SENTI M E N T W H I C H . AS ONE HAS ALREADY ONE TO M A INTA I N THE PROH I BITION. POS I T I V E O R N EGATIVE. ONE ONLY E ATS A C A N N I B A L I N A OR L E S S F R EQUENT ACCO R D I N G T O THE E X T E N T O F I T S PROH I BITION: R E LA T I V E LY R A R E IN SOC I ETI E S WITH A LARGE POPULATION.

H I S COM M E N SA LS M U ST COMPLETELY R E ABSORB WHAT H A S U N FOR­ TUNATELY C A N NOT BEEN R E J ECTED. O F T H E RELATIONS BETWE E N T H E L I V I N G A N D T H E D E A D: F R O M THIS LAST POI N T O F V I EW." WHO CONTESTS THE AND VERY A N C ESTO R S H I P-SO TH E FATA L E K A THI N K . I F OFTEN. FOR I H A V E HEARD THEM SAY THAT A FT E R HAVING EATEN. A OF A COMPLEX THIS IS H I S S E X U A L R ELATIONS. BESIDES. BUT PRACTICE IN QUESTION: TH I S POSES THE PROBLEM OF A D M ITTING A U N I V E R S A L DESIRE TO EAT M E N . C A N N I B A LISTIC LA N G U AGE. DESI R E TO A PP RO P R I ATE T H E QUA LITI ES !56 . PRETEN D TO N O G E N E R A L VALI DITY. O F A SEXUAL ORDER. G U I D I E R I TELLS U S THAT TH E Y A R E C A N N I B A LS. MORE "OR A L" T H A N T H E NON-CA N N I BA L : NO MORE DOES HE D E VOU R H I S PARTN E R I HIS C A N N I BA LI S M E X I STS ON A NOTH E R GROU N D ENTI R ELY. IN DOES EAT HUMAN FLESH WITHOUT T H E A M O R O U S A N T H R OPO­ MOREOVER. BUT THAT ITS PROH I B I T I O N N EV E R PLACES ITS OF TH E I R V ICTI M S. AND B EC A U S E TO E AT HUMAN IT. I N O N E CASE AS IN TO THE OTH E R . THE THE PROHI BITION M ET A PHORIC OF HUMAN OF FLESH CANNI­ NOT L I B E R ATES BALISM: USAGE ONE P R I SONERS I N ORDER. O N E COULD A D O THAT S E X U A L PLAY CAN CONTA I N C A N N I B A L I ST I C B E H A VI O R DANGEROUS. W I D E S P R E A D: I T I S A GOOD F OO D BUT TOO STRONG FOR ONE TO EAT I T PURE: T H E GUYAKI M U ST M I X IT WITH A VEGETA B L E FOOD: O N E COOKS I T I N RAGOUT W I T H HEA RTS OF PA L M . S U PPOSE PROPERLY C A N N I B A L R E A LITY OF C A N N I BA L I STIC DESI RE: "IT I S NOT THAT T H E Y SO MUCH ENJOY EATING HUMAN FLESH BUT THAT T H E I R SENSUAL A PPETITE BRI NGS THEM TO THESE M EANS. BUT M U ST THERE BE O N E ? SUCH A D E S I R E DOES NOT EVEN SEEM PRESENT FOR ALL C A N N I BALS." T H E S A M E M I SADVEN­ TU R E C A N H A P P E N TO TH E FATA LEKA. A THERE IS NO EVIDENT REASON DESI R E . (BITING. T H E Y H A V E ABOVE ALL AN I DEOLOGICA L C H A R ACTER: THEY EXPRESS THE IDEAS THAT TH E I N T E R E STED H A V E OF T H E POST MORTEM EXISTENCE OF T H E H U M A N TRUE THE I ROQUOIS E N JOY THIS KIND OF FOOD. THE LANGUAGE AND FROM NOU R I S H I N G P E RHAPS EVEN D R E A M S . A MONG OTH ER R EASONS. FOR M E R . U N L I K E TH E S E X ACT. IF THE P RACTICE DOES NOT I M PLY A DESI R E . ACCEDED TO T H E R A N K OF ANC ESTOR. AND T H E USE O F NAMES OF M A N-EATI N G A N I M A LS OR OF COMESTI B L E S TO DESIGNATE THE LOVE PARTN E R . SEXUAL IS IN FRE­ THE NON-C A N N I BA LS . THEIR STO M A C H N O T B E I N G E MPHASIZED OR A RGOT CAPABLE OF DIGESTI NG IT. A IN ANY EVENT E A C H MAY BE CAN VALID FOR GIVEN POP U L A T I O N . A GROU N D OF W H I C H THOSE PA RTS ARE WHO DO NOT EAT T H E I R COUNTER­ I G N O R A NT. TO E X P R E S S T H E F E A R OF B E I N G I N SOM E WAY D E VO U R E D BY H E R ("WHAT A T I G R E SS") OR TO FOR M U LATE A S E N S U A L ATTRACTION ("WHAT A N VICTIM. T H E R E P R E SENTA­ TIONS OF CANNIBALISM SERVE TO SIGNIFY THESE C E R E M O N I E S DIVERSE BEEN THE OBJECT OF DE S I R E FOR V E N ­ I N T E R PRETATION S : A N OTH E R T H I NG. PHAGE IS NOT. BECA USE H E A D D S : "TH E I R P R I N C I P A L I N T E NTION TH I N K-AS A M E A N S T O ASSU R E CERTA I N D E A D OF ACCESS TO THE SU PREME POW E R . TH I S S U B M I S SI O N FLESH IS IS DESERVI NG. ABSTENTION DOES NOT H I N D E R C A N N I BA L­ ISM FROM H A U NT I N G FEARS. TO APPEASE THE SOU L O F A HAVE DECEASED R E LATI VE. THA N K S TO HIS CON S U M PTION OF A SACRIFICED MODE. BY T H E S E MEANS. A N D NOT ONLY. BUT T H I S TASTE 1 5 NOT THE ONLY T H I N G I N VOLVED. TO TH E BON E . BY S U B M I SSION TO THE WILL OF A DEAD C H I E F WHO. QUENTLY FA M I L I A R C U L I N A RY TO FORC E D T O V O M I T . GEANCE. C A N NOT WITHOUT E V I DE NTLY TR U E O F THE G U A Y A K I WHO EAT TH E I R D E A D A N D O F T H E FATA L E K A W H O EAT FOR TH E I R D E A D: IT IS A LS O TH E TUPI WHO EAT TH E I R A N T H ROPOPHAGY A N D EXCESSI V E ORA LITY. T H E R E I S NO DOUBT THAT TH E R E E X I ST S A N O R A L COM PON ENT OF S E X U A L DESI R E . D'ABBEVILLE O U T OF GREAT H ATE. SUCTION) ." E X P LA I N I NG PARTI C U LA R H A D A TASTE FOR IT. AND J E A N DE L Il: RY WRITES OF T H E TUPI: "ALL ADMIT T H I S HUMAN F L E S H T O BE WON D E RFULLY G DO D A N D THAT OLD WO M E N IN PERSON. O F WHOM R. R E LATIONS. PRECISELY BECAU S E DOES T R A N S G R E S S T H E P R O H I BITION. BUT-A N D TH I S I S WHAT WE WISHED TO SUGGEST IN THE PRECEDING NOT REDUCE PA R A G R A P H -C A N N I B A L I S M I TS E L F TO O R A LITY. BUT THROUGH CLAUDE HOST I LITY." T H I S CONFI R M S STADEN: "TH EY DO TH I S NOT TO E A S E T H E I R H U NGER. T H E C A N N I B A L A C T I S A LWAYS PUBLIC AND R I TUALIZED: TH E R E I S A LWAYS A N E L E M ENT. F E A R A N D T E R R O R T O THE LIVI NG. PERHAPS A CAPITAL ONE. WHE N T R I ES DO IT U N D E R STA N D TH E CON FOUN D I N G C E R EMONY O F T E N LIKE FUNERAL. THE A PPETIZING C H ICK"). THIS IDEA THAT O N E RISK IS. FROM TH I S FACT. NOT BY TASTE A N D FOR PLE A S U RE. IF O N E OF T H E CONVIVES VOMITS. BUT BY OBLIGATION. O F LANGUAGE DESIGNATE.SOME SOCI ETIES ACCEPT I T A N D OTHERS FOR B I D IT. CA N N I BA L I S M CAN BE CONSI D E R E D A S WELL A S A M E A N S TO K E E P A W A Y THE DEAD BY D E STROY I N G THEIR C O R PO R A L S U PPORT-SO THE GUYAKI D E L I CATE. THAT OF 15 T H A T I N P R E P A R I N G A N D EATING T H E DEAD I N T H I S WAY. THEY ARE SOMETI M E S HOWEVER. THEY GIVE. HE AND TO THIS IS WHY TH E L A TT E R . AND IT IS THIS C O M PON E N T THAT PERMITS FATA L E K A MUST S U R M O U N T A C E RTA I N AVERSION: TH E VICTI M M U ST BE C O M P E LT E LY CONS U M ED.

E X O . S A Y T H E H A D J E R A I . A UG E E X PLA I N S I C K N ESS BY A N ANTH ROPO­ PHAGY EITH E R U N D E RGONE--CONS U M PTION O F TH E SICK ORG A N BY A SORCERER-QR I N VOLUNTA R I L Y PRACTICED A B SORPTION OF H U M A N F L E S H BY T H E BEWITC H E D PATI E NT. REPRESENTED ITSELF BY WAYS OF EATING. WH ETH E R I N TEGRATED I M PR U D E N T U N I ON WITH T H I S S T R A N G E FOR E I G N E R WHO I S T H E SE D U CTI V E OGR E . IT F U R N I S H E S MOST FREQU E NTLY A D I SQ U I ETING I M AGE OF A N I NTOL E R A B L E EXCESS. LEVI-STR A U S S G I V E S I N N U M E R A B L E E X A M PLES. TH E VIEW IS NOT CONTRADICTED BY TH E MOVE M E NTS W H I C H I N G R E E C E ITSELF H A V E CONTESTED TH E SYSTEM OF VALUES WHICH E X P R ESSES IT BE THIS REJ ECTION : I NTO ENDOGAMY. IN WHICH THE STORY D E V E LO P S IN PLAYING ON ABOL I S H E S T H E D I ST I N CTION W H I C H . CANNIBALISM CAN.A U T OC A N N I B A L I S M . T H E C H I E F "EATS" M E N . I N M Y T H S A N D TALES. TH E REJ ECTION OF C A N N I BALISTIC AND PRACTICE NON-COM ESTI BLE. G I V E A N E XC E S S I V E I M AGE EXCESS (IN THE ORDER OF ADMISSIBLE T E N D E R N E S S FOR EXA M PL E l . MORE T H A N ORALITY. H A V I N G T A S T E D H E R O W N B LO O D . I S TOO INSPIRED BY THE BODY O F A WE A R E B ROUGHT BACK TO F R E U D. JUST AS I N C E ST C O D E ( A N D N O T O N L Y TH E C A N N I BA L) A R E FOUND I N TH E A M ER I N D I A N MYTHOLOGY: T H E M YTH O LOGIES OF C. OF W H I C H D I V E R S E FO R M S . THE OTH E R ARTICULATING I T F R O M TH E I N S I DE.A R E O N LY TH E I R I NT E R C H A N G E A B L E OWN S I G N I FICATION. O F W H I C H A N A L I M E N T A R Y C O M P A R I SON FOR M U LATES I N S U PPORTA B L E TENSION. A C A N N I BA L . AMONG TH E PEOPLE WHO COMPOSE THE WORLD O F BARBA R I A NS." BUT I N DICATION OF ANOTHER C U LTURE. SOM E STO R I E S A N ALYSED BY G. C A N N I B A L I S M I S T H U S A F I G U R E O F DISORDER. A S WELL AS FOR THOSE WHO CONFORM. " SAVAGE. IN BY M. TH E ONE DELI M ITING IT FROM THE OUTSI D E .A SEXUAL M ET A P H O R . T H E V E R Y PROOF O F TH E ABSENCE OF C U LTURE. RETICENT BROTH ER: OR THAT OF T H E S U N-WOMA N . THUS AMORPHOUS MAGMA. SI NCE FREUD WAS C E RTA I N LY NO C A N N I BAL! BUT I T IS TIME TO ASK IF THIS I S HOW THOSE WHO ARE THI N K A N D ACT. MAKE IT A NOTH ER THE TWO T H I NG THAN AN HOMOLOG I E S BETW E E N DIFFERENT CODES. A S W E S E E . B U T I T C A N A LSO S E R V E TO E X P R E S S OTH E R O P POSITIONS WHICH D E TE RM I N E P E R M I S­ REMAINS MEANS TO THOSE WHO CONTEST IT. C A LA M E G R I A U L E M A K E A F I G U R E O F U N SO C I A L I Z E D S E X U A L I TY O U T OF EATI NG. POLITI C A L AND RELIGIOUS C U R R E NT OF AN LANGU AGE. I T PLACES C U LTURE IN QUESTION. I T IS AGGRESSIVITY. T H E C A N N I BA L I STIC M ETAPHOR SERVES HERE TO C I RC U M S C R I B E THE C E RTA I N D I O N YS I A N RITUALS I N ORDER TO PROVI D E DI RECT CONTACT W I T H THE S U PE R NATURAL. WE I M MEDIATELY GIVE A RESPONSE THAT I S PERHAPS U N EXPECTED: THIS IS WHAT THEY TH I N K . A N D "IT R E J ECTED W I T H O U T A M B I G U I TY" A C A N N I B A L I S M THAT IT S I T U AT E D AT THE CO N F I N E S OF ITS H I STORY. A PPEARS AS AN S U B­ OF PRE-H U M A N . DESI R E RETRANSFORM S ITSELF I NTO A L I M ENTARY A PPETITE.A U T O . I RR U PTION ALL THESE VIRTUALITIES OF THE A L I M ENTARY NATURE IN THE BODY OF C U LTURE: IT EFFACES THE FRONTI E R S W H I C H SEPA RATE THE H U MAN WORLD FROM THE I N HUMAN WORLD.C A N N I B A L I S M . A FACT WHICH IS NOT S U R P R I S I NG. F O R T H O S E W H O A R E L I M I T E D TO I M A G I N I NG IT. W H I C H IS M ETAPHORIZED. O R TO TH E L I M ITS OF ITS SPACE. I N DI V I D U A L A N D B I O LOGICAL D I SORDER: T H E EBR I E AND T H E ALLADIAN STU D I E D 57 . P R OH I B I T I O N S TH E STORY OF A G I R L WHO.A L I M E N T A R Y I NC EST-FEELS MATE A REAL THE A RD E N T AND D E S I R E T O CONS U ­ THIS F R U ST R A T E D ORGA N I Z E TH E SOC I A L F I E L D CONJOI NTLY. VAGES. W R I T E S M . NOT ANOTH E R D E F I N ITION OF CULTURE. I N A N A G E ANTERIOR T O H U M ANITY. IT POI NTS WITHOUT OUT "SA· ECONO M I C OF THE SUBJ ECTS. I N C EST. OPPOSITION OF THE HUMAN AND THE I N H U M A N -B U T NOT THE I N VERSE-WHICH C A N B E C ON S I D E R E D A S COI NCI­ D I N G W I T H THAT WHICH AND DETE R M I N ES C O M E STI B LE THE POLI T I C A L RULER TO AND HIS THE USE OF T H E CAN N I BALI STIC M ETAPHOR. WHO A H ER O "TE M P E RS" A N D M A K E S M O R E C L E M E N T TOW A R DS M E N B Y POSS E S S I NG H E R WITH A PENI S M A D E OF I C E . THE THAT I N C EST M ENACES I NTE R I O R OR TO OF BE SOC I ETY: EATEN BY EXOC A N N I BA L I S M -TO EAT STRA N G E R S -R E S U LTS O N E X A GG E R A T E D SOC I A L GROUP E X OG A M Y FROM THE T H E CONTRARY I N A N WHICH MENACES IT IS TH E THE EXTERIOR. CANNIBALISM. DETI E N N E. I N THE BODY OF SOC I ETY. A N D TH E Y A R E NOT TH E O N L Y O N E S TO A F F I R M T H I S: ACTUA L LY. THE D E S I R E TO A BSORB. OPPOSITION RESTS. BUT-A N D U N DOUBTEDLY FOR THIS-TH I S I S NOT WHAT THEY DO . ON T H E I D E A T H A T C A N N I B A L I S M I S A N U N REGULATED B E H A VIOR. NOT THE V A R I ETI ES. OR I T BE DEMANDED BY T H E C Y N I C S "TO A FF I R M TH E FIELD OF ACC E PTABLE A L L I A N C E : BETW E E N THOSE I NELIGIBLE FOR M A R R I AG E BECAUSE TOO NEAR RIGHTS OF T H E I N DI V I D U A L IN THE FACE OF SOCI ETY AND AGAI N ST A EVERY FORM MAKE OF MAN C I V I LIZA T I O N .E N DO. OR TH I S G E N E R A LIZED CAN N I BA L I S M . FOR A N D T H O S E I N E L I G I B L E FOR M A R RI A G E B ECA U S E TOO D I STANT. S I B L E A N D FORBI DDEN M A R R I AG E S . A S WELL A S O F I T S P E R I L S O R S A N C T I O N S : ENDOCAN­ N I BA L I S M -EATI NG EXC E S S I V E WHICH O N E 'S KI N-EXPRESSES IS TO SAY AN D I SORDER: T H E G R E E K C I TY.

THE VICT I M 'S SEX I S I M PORTANT TO C E RTA I N OF TH E M WHO ONLY EAT MALE I N D I VI D U A L S AND EXCLUDE TH I S WOM E N . C O M P L E T E L Y U N ATTESTED AND E V E R YW H E R E D R E A DE D ." THE M ETHODS O F COOKI N G AND OF P R E P A R ATION VARY AS WELL FROM ONE GROUP TO A NOTH ER. I N C ESTUOUS C A N N I BA LS. OF WHOM U . THIS C A N N I BA L I S M . SINCE IT I S I N O P PO S I N G ITSELF THAT THE L A TT E R DEFI N E S MYTHICAL POPULATIONS-DI STANT IGNORANT OF ANY IN T I M E AND SPACE. ONE IS A LWAYS SOM E O N E ELSE'S C A N N I BAL. THE D I STRI BUTION OF PARTS MAY BE ANTH ROPOPHAGY A L L E LO P H A G Y . I S ATT R I B UTED TO AN ANCIENT PEOPLE OF THE I NTERIOR . WHO ARE R U LES. AND THE ENDOC A N N I BALS WHO DO DO NOT EAT FOR E I G N E RS. IT IS C O N S U M PT I O N . GUIDIERI TELLS US. IS PU RELY I M A­ G I N A RY. G R E E KS . L I S M TO I N STITUTION A L I Z E D . C A R N A L A L I M E NTATION I S A FORM O F A NTH ROPOPHAGY. I N BRIEF T H E R E I S SB . A PA R A LL E L I S M . NOTABLY THOSE OF M A R RIAGE AND OF DI ET. A N D EQUALLY I M A G I N A RY. "OPPOSE TO THEIR I NSTITU­ ITSELF. . EXAM PLE. PRECISELY THE "SAVAGES. IN THE WITH EYES SMOKE OF AND ODORS. IN HIS A L I M ENTA R Y U NORDERED: T H E FOR ." O N E AND T H E OTH E R EQUALLY R EJ ECTED . THE GUAIANI. . A S M . I N SHORT. A U THOR IZED TO TASTE HIS FLESH. BUT IT MAY P R ACTI C E G E N E R A L. T H A T I S T O T H E PROPER M A N N E R OF E A T I N G M E N ." A AND IF TH E OF R E SERVED FOR C E RTA I N CATEGO R I ES OF I N D I VID­ U A LS. AND THE S U P E R N A T U R A L" FOR THE OTH ERS D O N O T TA K E MAY BE INTO ACCOUNT. I F O N E P R E F E R S . R E A L C A N N I BA L I S M EXOCA N N I BA LS." PEOPLE WITHOUT GOOD MAN NERS: F E R ENTLY. THIS APPEARS I NCONTEST­ A B L E -E S P E C I A LLY TO US WHO G I V E C A N N I BA L I S M IN OTH E R WORDS. I F. DO NOT EAT T H E I R DEAD. T H E G U Y A K I H A V E NO N E E D OF M YTHS TO CONDEMN CANNIBALISM: THEY EAT TH E I R OWN O N E WILL SAY THAT THERE R E M A I N S ' A N I R R EDU­ C I B L E DIFFERENCE BETWEEN T H E C A N N I BALS AND T H E OTH ERS: J U ST A S S E V E R E A S T H E FI RST C A N BE IN T H E I R CON D E M N ATION OF S A V A G E C A N N I ­ DEAD A N D IT I S WELL. . TH E FATA LEKA. AS WITH THE FORE WHO CUT U P THE DEAD I N EATING TH E M . . . BUT THIS I S NOT SO S U R E . STRICT PYTHAGO R I A N S . G I V :. SOC I A LIZED. DETI E N N E SHOWS. TH E FUTU RE VICTIM MAY H A V E H I S WORD TO SA Y. . ONE O N LY MODALITY R I S K S B E I N G I N E V I T A B LY A A LEATORY O R REGULATED. A R E SYSTEMATI­ CA LLY OPPOS ED TO RITUAL PRACTICES. ANOTH E R PARALLELISM EXTENDS D I R EC T I O N : P R I M ITIVE SAVAGE C A N N I BA L I S M PA I R E D WITH "PRO M I SC U ITY. OR THE MORIBUND MAY " D ET E R M I N E WHICH OF HIS KIN W I LL BE LITTLE BIT O F A C A N N I BAL. T H E PROH I B ITION OF SAVAGE C A N N I BA L I S M DOES NOT EXC LUDE R E A L THE C A N N I BA L A N D TH E NON­ C A N N I BA L I S M . WHO KILL TH E I R E N E M I ES A N D EAT TH E M . NEAR OR N E IG H BORS WHO BEHAVE D I F­ ONE SEES THAT REAL C A N N I BA L I S M OUGHT NOT TO EXC L U D E I M AG I N A R Y C A N N I B A L I S M . EACH R E PR E S ENTS I N THE S A M E W A Y TH I S I N A D M ISSABLE ANTH ROPOPHAGY. ANY "KISSABLE" A P E R SO N IS NOT A L WA Y S THAT M A R­ IN IS E X A M PLE-AND I T I S N ECESSARY TO DESTROY TH E M OR TO B R I N G TH E M T O R E A SON. W H I C H . TELLS HOW MAN RIAGEABLE. "TH E FIVE NATIONS: FROM THE A I ROQUOI S.M E N . TIONALIZED C A N N I B A L I S M A SAVAGE C A N N I BALISM. AND I N T H I S S E N S E O N E C A N S A Y THAT THEY RESPECT THE SAME PROH I BI T I O N : ON E C A N NOT EAT EVERYTH I NG. STRONGLY R E P ROVED. B A L I S M . A N D T H E S E OTH E R S ARE C A N N I B A L I S M . THAT PASSED SAVAGE MONSTROUS C A N N I BA­ E M PLOYS C A N N I BA L I STIC M ETAPHORS.A R E NOT.F I R S T OF SELVES. . S I N C E ONE C A N NOT BE CONTENT A R O M AT I C LIKE THE GODS. C A N N I ­ BALISM. BUT THEIR NEIGHBORS. THIS HAS N OT H I N G TO DO WITH A GENERALIZED THOSE W H O S E E M T O US T O BE C A N N I ­ B A L S 1 A C U R I O U S PROBLE M . THE C O M ESTI B L E THE (OR IS N OT A LWAYS LIABLE TO THEY PEOPLE TH E I R MYTHS WITH CHA RACTE RS WHO EAT ANYONE AT A LL-TH E I R NEAR KIN. POS ITIVE O R N EGATIVE. . THE B A S I C M YTH OF THE CELEBRATED POLITICAL ASSOCIATION. AND THOSE THAT ACC EPT A CO M P R O M I S E " D EC I D I NG T H A T C E R TA I N SAC R I F I ­ CIAL VICTI MS-PIGS A N D GOATS . PROH I B ITIONS PARALLELISM S I M PLY WITH WITH SEXUAL MATRIMONIAL) U N D E RSTOOD-A N D P E R H A PS EVEN THEM SELVES.: AN EXAMPLE T O B E AVO! DED. C A N N I B A L JOI N I N CON D E M N I N G I N T H E S A M E WAY AND FOR T H E S A M E R E A SO N S AN U N R ESTRA I N E D C A N N I BA LI S M . IS NEVER A G E N E R A L A N D S I L L Y D E F I N ITION. THE C A N N I BA LS A R E ALWAYS THE OTH ERS. A N D AT FI RST G L A N C E INCOMPR E H E N S I B L E : THEY TAKE O F F E N S E AT BEING TREATED AS EATERS-OF. F I N A LLY. THE CON S U M M ATION. W H I C H EXISTED BEFO R E THE SOC I ETY OF MEN . NATURE. NOR OF MORE O R LESS E LABORATE J USTI FI CATIONS. WHILE THE BE R EG I M E -"A PLAN OF P R I V I LEGED S I G N I FICATION TO D E FI N E TH E SYSTEM OF R E LATIONS BETWEEN M A N .M A N M UST PLACE H I M S E L F SOM EWH E R E " B E TW E E N B EASTS AND IS GODS. M A Y BE COMPLETE OR NOT. AND PREPA R E D IN ANY WAY AT ALL-RAW. E V E RYTH I NG DEPENDS ON THE POI N T OF V I EW. WHAT DO THEY SEEM TO TH E M ­ N O LACK OF R U LES. CHODOW I E D SPEAKS. O R . T H E Y A R E TRUE: C A N N IBALS." AS FOR TH E I ROQUOI S. FOR BECOMES E V I D E NT: O N E C A N NOT M A R R Y A N YO N E . . (OF WHOM) CANNIBAL C U STOMS. A L L. T H E F A C T I S T H A T T H E Y E A T M E N A N D THAT THE LATT E R 00 NOT.

FOR THE I ROQUOIS. NON E ATE EACH OTH E R : THOSE THAT T H EY ATE THEY I MA G I N E D B Y A L L A S SUPPOSED ELSEWHERE. AT THE S A M E T I M E. HIS LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. WHICH THE WOM E N HAD OF GROUPS FROM ONE TA K E N P R I SO N E R S FOR T H E P U R POSE O F EATI NG THEM COULD BE M A R R I ED. AND EXOC A N N I BA LI S M . A L L I A N C E. K I N OR NOT. WITH THAT OF M A N . I N TASTE FOR EXAM PLE. THE TUPI." D E T E R M I N ATES. AND RECI PROCA LLY: BROTHER H ERE. C A LLED "BROTH ERS-IN-LAW. R IGHT IN WHO. OR TO R ECONS I D E R THE E X A M P L E OF THE D I D N O T W I S H TO FORGE A L I N K OF K I N S H I P. TWO G RO U PS THAT WAGE W A R P E R IODICALLY. SO M E EXAMPLES WHICH GIVE AN I DEA-A FOR E T A ST E -O F THAT T H A T OF E N DOCA N N I B A L I S M . TO BE BUT. O N E F I N A LLY. AT LEAST POTEN T I A LLY. A N D AS ROUSSE A U ALSO THOUGHT (SEE EMILEI. EXCEPT IN THE I M A G I N AT I O N . WHAT IS DETE R M I N I NG FOR TH E I ROQUOIS AND THE TUPI IS TO LESS A KINSHI P THAN THE F I ELD EXPLAI N S T H E M U LT I P L I C I TY O F SYSTEMS. AS ARE O R D E R E D SI M U LT A N EOUSLY ACCOR D I N G TO M A N Y A X E S . THUS. S I N C E T H E NOMENCLATURE OF K I N S H I P S U F F I C E S T O I N DICATE WHO CAN OF AND AN C A NNOT BE EATEN. ATE T H E M OR O N E ADOPTED THEM. BUT O N E EATS STRA NGERS." M ETA PHORI Z I N G THE NON-C A N N I BALS I NVERSELY. THE THE FORM E R I S NOT D O N E . I T IS U N D E R STOOD THAT THESE NOTI O N S ARE RELATIVE. TH E AS FOR I NCEST AND THE SEXUALITY I S EASI LY U N D ERSTOOD. A N D T H O S E THAT WERE EATEN WERE THUS THOSE W ITH WHOM O N E BIOLOGICAL D E F I NI T I O N OF C A N N I BA L I S M : TO EAT MEN. E V E R Y C A R N I VO R E I S A C A N N I BAL. N A T U R A LLY: T H E G U Y A K I EAT THE B E LO N G DEAD AND IN THE GROUP TO WHICH BECAUSE TH E Y ITS THOSE OF EXOGAM Y A N D EN DOGAM Y. T H E R E AGA I N THE M ETAPHORICAL AND REVERSIBLE L I A I SO N OF CA N N I BA L I S M AND FORM A LLY DEFI N E S ITSELF B Y T H E G E N E A LOG I C A L POSITION OF TH E P A R T N E R . THE V A R I ANTS M UST BE THE OTH E R TWO POPULATIONS. IT IS BEC A U S E DA UGHTER . I L L U STRATED BY WHICH C O U L D B E A G E N E R A L T H EORY OF C A N N I ­ BALISTIC STR U C T U R E S . BOTH PRACTI C I NG C A N N I BA L I S M WITH TH E I R PRISONERS ARE WITH WHICH. C A N N I B A L I S M I S A W A Y OF TH I N K I N G M O R E THAN A WAY OF E A T I N G . THE BROTH E R OR THE S I STER OF THE DEAD PERSON. ONE COULD OF C A N NIBALISM THUS DOES NOT E X I ST. I N THIS R E V I EW. N OT WHO OF IS DEFINE BY A LL I A N C E OFTEN THI S PHANTASM. P R I SO N E R S T H A T T H E Y B R O U G H T THE I R EXPEDITIONS W E R E THE OBJECT O F A CHOICE. DO THEY NOT FOR M A EFFECT I V E WEAK N ESS. COPULATE: AND MOTHE R S DO NOT EAT T H E I R SONS AND DAUGHTE RS. COM B I N E A N D H A V E THE S A M E B R E A DTH. A P P A R TE N A N C E POLITI C A LLY DEFINED GROUP. FOR TH E TUPI. I L LUSTRATED B Y THE GUYAKI. SINCE R EAL. FOR A SOCIOLOG I C A L R E A S O N . I F THE FLESH OF T H E F A R M COW M UST NOT BE C ON S U M E D . OF EXOCA N N I B A LS. ONE E A T S R E A L OR POTENTI A L A LLIES. BUT CONSIDERED I N TH E L I G H T OF TH E I R COM M U N A L H I STORY. TH E GROUP THAT O N E TOOK P R I SO N E R WAS A L SO THAT FROM WHICH ONE BROUGHT IN BACK FULL P EO P L E . T H E PROH I B I TION A N D PRESC R I PTION O F C A N N I BA L I S M DEFI N E S ITSELF FOR M A LLY BY THE SOC I A L POSI TION O F HIM WHO M U ST BE EATEN. ENTERED M ATRI M ON I A L F I E LD: THOSE ADOPTED COU L D H A V E B E E N EATEN J UST A S THOSE E A T E N C O U L D H A V E B E E N ADOPTED. T H A T OF K I N S H I P . TH I S IS NOT B EC A U S E OF ANY EFFECTIVE R E S E M BLANCE.PROPERLY A C T U A LLY S P E A K I NG . V A R I A B I LITY O F THE PROHIBITED IN FACT. OTH E R S . HOWEVE R FROM THE ACCOR D I N G R EG I M E. E V E N THOSE OF ANOTH E R NATION: TH E I R V I CTI M S WERE FO R E I G N E RS. IF ONE FORBIDS ONESELF T H E E A TI NG OF ONE'S KIN. THE SON AND TH E GREEKS. I T IS B EC A U S E OF T H E QUASI­ SOCI A L STATUS OF T H E A N I M A L S I M I LA R LY. THE C A NNOT SLAUGHTER O F W H O M I S T H E OBJECT O F A FOR M A L PROH I BITION. OF AND THAT M EAT HAVE TIES OF K I N S H I P. T H E Y EAT T H O S E FATH ERS WITH WHICH THEY C A NNOT FLESH FARM COWS. T H E Y A L MOST I N EVITABLY !lEI . PROH I B I T I O N S C O N S E Q U E NTLY. IS THE M E AT. S I N C E THE O N LY PEOPLE EXCLUDED FROM TH E RITUAL WERE THE FATH E R AND M OT H E R . CA N N I B ALS N EG A T I O N PHANTASM AND ONE ENCOUNTERS T H E MSELVES ONLY THE THI S IN A SPEAK " E L E M E NT A R Y EVEN KINSHIP WHEN AND S T R U CT U R E THEY ARE CANNIBALISM. AND S I STER DO NOT EAT THE TWO EACH OTH E R . I N T H E T H I R D CASE." T H I S R ESTRICTION I S EXPLA I N E D B Y TH E CLOS E N E S S O F C O W A N D M A N : F U N D A M E NTAL­ LY M EAT IS MORE OR LESS M A N . A N D T H E PERTI NENT OPPOSITION I S T H U S ONE W I L L FIND. I ROQUO I S D I D NOT EAT I ROQUOIS. IT W A S A POSSI B I LITY EXPRESSED E N E MY BY THE LANGUAGE. CAN ONE EFFECTIVE A A L I MENTARY J U OG E D SAY C A N N I BA L B Y T H E AS W E LL T H A T COULD J UST EVERYONE I S O N E . T H I S I S I N EVITABLE FOR THE G U Y A K I . THE E R RO R N O T T O B E COMMITTED I S THAT OF CONTENTI N G ONESELF WITH A M A T E R I A L. FURNISH A LANGUAGE FOR C A N N I B A L I S M : WITH I N A GROUP. A FLESH ESTI MATED TOO C LO S E TO THAT OF MAN. T H I S IS NOT BECAUSE THE LATTER A R E MORE D E LECTABLE. J UST A S I NCEST A N D C O R R E L A T I V E LY THE A UT H O R I Z E D ALLIANCE A DOPTED. ALLI E S O R NOT. ONE C A N SAY THAT NO O N E IS A C A N N I B A L.

"TH E KI L L E D AND ATE A L L THEIR P R I SONERS. I N FACT. S I M PLY C A PTURED ENEMY. CA N N I B A L PEOPLES H A V E B E E N D I SCUSSED. O N L Y T H E BONE S B E I N G THROWN AWAY. OR FROM THE H A N D OF THOSE WHO H E I S GOI NG TO NOURISH. T H E N C L E A N A N D P U L V E R I S E T H E BON E S W H I C H T H E Y E A T M I XE D W I T H A B A N A N A P U R E E . T H E TORTU RES ENDURED B Y T H E VICTI M S B E FO R E TH E I R E X ECUTION SHOULD N O T B E N EG LECTED: WAY BACK. C LASTRES. GODS. T H E CON S U M PTION G E N E R­ E N E M I ES. PRIZE T H E LATT E R . I T WOU L D THUS BE SI M PLISTIC TO SAY THAT O N E K I LLS TO EAT. THAT T H E THE EXAMPLE OF R. I ROQUOIS OF PURE STR A I N WERE QUITE RARE. AS AT THE M O M E NT OF THEIR THEY TEM­ NO CANNIBALISM GROUP MAKES OF C A N NOT I SOLATED F R O M R E P R E S E NT A T I O N S T H A T SOC I ET Y ITSELF AND FOR OTH E R S . DO NOT KILL TO EAT. MEN AND A N I M A LS . AFTER THE THEIR EXPEDITIONS. IF FOR I NT E G R A T E D . C A N N I BA LS N O N -C A N N I B A LS D EM N I NG I T IN T H E N A M E OF T H E S A M E P R I N C I PA LS OR ORDER AND OF THE PRECISE D E L I M ITATION TH E PASSAGE FROM SAVAGE AND MYTHIC C A N N I ­ BETW E E N N A T U R E A ND C U LTURE. O N C E THE M I S U N D E R S TA N D I NG S AND A R E DISSI PATED. B U T O N E SAYS NOTHI N G A BO U T T H E E V E N T U A L D I V I SION BETW E E N COM M E N SA LS. IS A L M OS T IN THE A LW A Y S A IT I S A L S O NECESSARY T O TAKE I NTO ACCO U N T THE M A N N E R I N WHICH T H E O N E WHO I S EATEN DIED: FROM A NATU RAL O R A VIOLENT DEATH. I N A NTICI PATION. A L L I E D A N D FOR E I G N . P E R H A PS ONE M U ST S E E I N T H E S E TORTU R E S A SORT O F C U I S I N E . A N D W I T H O U T A DO U BT T H E SYSTEM OF C A T E GO R I E S E L A BO R A T E D BY CLAUDE LEVI­ I ROQ U O I S EXPLAIN STR A U S S WOULD B E A P P LICABLE H E R E TOO. T H E C U I S I N E. PROPER LY S P E A K I NG. VENGEANCE. DETA I N N El. M AKES. B A L I S M T O SOC I A LIZED C A N N I BA L I S M I NC I T E D T H E I N VENTION OF C U L I N A RY P R E PA RATION A N D TABLE M A N N ERS. ''TH EM T O H A V E B E E N MUCH B E TT E R DETE R M I N E D . T H I S D O E S NOT M E A N THAT THE I ROQUOIS M A D E WAR S I M PLY TO K I L L AND EAT: THEY FOUGHT TO TA K E PRISONERS. ON THE N EC E SSARY T O EAT T H E L I V I NG. AND E V I DENTLY. BUT A FT E R SO LONG A DELAY THAT O N E COU LD NO LONGER CONSIDER EX ECUTION. THE E N DOC A N N I BA LS. T H E FI RST I S TH E SOLITA R Y EATING OF A JEAN POUI LLON 60 . SO M UC H SO THAT. THEY WERE LON G E R A N YON E I N PARTI C U L A R . IN BE EVERY CASE.S I N G LE. DO NOT EAT THOSE THEY H A V E K I LLED: TH E Y TUPI EAT TH E I R AND "DEAR DEPA RTED. POI NT IS OF A N ALYSIS GUIDIERI I ROQUOIS MATIC WAS FEDE RATION CAME PARTICULARLY REVEALING FROM THIS VIEW. THE THAT IS WHY. IT IS NOT A L L O V E R . AND EVEN. AT T H E S A M E T I M E . " MOREOVER. W A S A LSO A R E C U P E RATIO N . IN A PEOPLE AND USAGE OF TH I S M ETHOD. CON S E Q U E NTL Yl A N D T H A T O N E C A N E A T THOSE T H A T O N E HAS K I L LED-TH I S IS POLIC E D I ROQ U O I S I N F LICTED ATROC IOUS TREAT M E N T O N TH E I R P R I SONERS. O N E COU L D SAY. THE DEMOG R A PH­ IC AND THUS POLI T I C A L I M PO R T A N C E O F TH E FROM THE SYSTE­ F I N ALLY. ON THE WHOLE IT RESI D U . O N T H E CONTRARY. AS FOFl T H E TUPI. O N E WOU L D H A V E L I K E D . THE CANNIBAL STI LL. WITH R E G A R D TO T H I S . SOME. I T I S A C U LT U R A L PHENOM ENON. I N TO THE E F F E CT I V E LY. O R T H E PEOPLE WITH WHOM ONE LIVES-TH I S IS "SAVAGE" C A N N I BA L I S M -BUT I T I S F I R ST N ECESSARY T O K I L L ( E N E M I E S. PO R A R I L Y . JOI N IN CON­ M U R DERER WAS T H E ONLY O N E NOT TO PA RTICI ­ PATE I N T H E D I N N E R . THOSE W H O PRACTICE IT OPPOSE A C A N NI B A L I S M T H A T I S DISHONORABLE. PRACTICED. " (M. W R I T E S H . HAD BEEN THEM. A L L Y IS TOTAL. E N OOCA N N I B A L GROUP7 THE TUPI SEEM TO BE CONSCIOUS OF TH I S : T H E V A LOROUS WARRIOR. FOR H ON O R A B L E C A N N I BA L I S M . N E V E R FAILS TO R E M I N D H I S TORTU R E R S OF HOW M A N Y OF T H E M H E HAD EATEN I N T H E PAST. OF THE FATA L E K A . S I NC E ONE ON LY K I L LS ONE'S C A R N I VO R E . THOSE THE THINGS M U ST PLACED C O R R ECTLY THAT WERE N'T WANTED. BE DEAD AND L I V I NG. AND THEY TOOK PRISONERS WITH TH E P U R POSE OF A DOPTI NG A GOOD N U M B E R . I S REGULATED CON S U M PTION --<lFT E N T A K I N G PLACE IN A VERY E L A BO R A T E R I T U A L-OF A C OO K E D WERE PREPARI NG TO DINE AT HIS EXPENSE WERE GOI N G TO REC UPERATE TH E I R C A N N I B A LIZED DEAD BY I NGESTING SAID HIM. I S N O T T H E S A M E E N E M I ES. TH E CONCEP­ TION O F T H E WORLD A N D MAN. O P PO S I T I O N BETW E E N F L E S H A N D BONES. THEY O R D E R E D WOR L D: P A R E NTS. CA N N I BA L I S M . RELIGION. T H E SECON D. G RO U P . LET TH E F L E S H OF T H E C A D A V E R D E C A Y ." THAT I N V E R S E LY. T H E Y A N O M A M I . ON T H E POI N T OF BEING EATEN. SHOULD B E T A K E N I NT O CONSIDERATION. I NC I T E D THEM WHICH TO T H E TUPI THEIR C A D A V E R O F W H I C H C E RTA I N ORGANS C O U L D B E RESERVED GORIES OF OR FOR B I D D E N TO C E RTA I N CATE­ EXPLICITLY EAT PERSONS. EVIDE NTLY.l LS WHO WERE EATEN. A N D THAT THOSE WHO L I V I NG B E I NG THAT ONE EATS RAW.

. . . THE PERSONS K I LL E D BY MY ASSOCI ATES: ONCE I WANTED TO GO AND TAKE D J OM A N . . . . . 61 . . . SHORTLY THEREA FT E R I G A V E U P T H I S PLANTATION. . . YESSI MOBIO CH I LD R E N A N Y M O R I!:. . I . . LOGA I D J U I . (2) STRONGER. . I FOU N D TWO AHlMAN LOBA: KILLED A TO B I O. . . . . . I CHOSE DJOM AN-BIE T O B E K I LLED FI RST. TO GIVE HER TO THE D E V I LS . . . . . . . . . . . . KOFFI A K PA 7. . . . . W A S T E M PT E D BY T H E I O P E N LY DEC L A R E THAT I A M A D E V I L. . NAME: LOGA I D J U I SEX: FEMALE V I LLAGE: ABIGJAN-ADJ A M E RACE: E B R I E RELIGION: HARRIS SUMMARY: THEREFORE I K I L L E D . . . . . . . . . .APPE N D I X N A NGUY TOH I : K I LLED AGOUSSI-BRI A N D H E R C H I L D YUEMIN . . . . . . . . " . . SOLD DJOKE-BRI'S PLANTATIO N . . . . . . . . . . . T H E OTH E R'S NAME I 00 NOT KNOW . . . . . . . . ALOKE D J E B A . . . . . . (2) KOFFI KPA: KILLED N ' M LOUYA AND A N EW-BO R N C H I LD W I T H O U T N A M E . . . B E UGRE-BRI I CONVERTED MYSELF I NTO A M A N TO SLEEP W I T H D J A KO. . . . . . . . O W N MOTH E R. . . . . . . . . B I N G E R V I LLE R E P U B L I C OF T H E IVORY COAST BUEGRE-B R I : KILLED A G O U A TC H A GOUA AND A KOUATC H A YOUA . . MY I LL N E S S HAS G ROWN WHOSE N A M E I DO NOT K NOW . . . . (2) Y ESSI MOBIO BOTTY: K I LLED TWO O F A M I A N . . . . . . . . . . . . . . NANGUY TOH I 4 . . M Y S I S T E R A K R A I WHO HAD JUST GIVEN B I RTH. . FROM THAT VERY DAY. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I THAT I S . M Y O L D E R BROTH E R N'GBA D J U I . 1 954 C H I L D R E N : BEUGRE. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . (2) OFFICE OF T H E S E C RETA R Y O F PRO P H ET ATCHO A LB E RTS A S SOC I AT I O N B R EGBO P. . . MOMO GBEKRAI 3. . . . . 2 5. ME AWAY WITHOUT SAYING A N YTHI N G TO PREGNA NT. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . A N D T H E N M Y C H I LD D J A N N E . (2) MOMO N ' B EGZA I : KILLED A N NO H AND A NOTH E R FROM THAT M O M ENT. . . . . .M O B I O WHO WAS P R I E STS IN DJOKE-BRI'S Y A R D. . . . . . . . A N D M Y SON AKE G U I A N I . . . . . . . THESE TWO P R I ESTS T U R N ED ME. 5 PERSONS MY ASSOCIATES K I L L E D . .M I N'S AUGUST 22. 2 3 PERSONS K I LLED 1 B PERSONS K I LLED BY MY ASSOC I ATES "LET THE A U D I E N C E K N O W T H A T THI S PASSAGE I S NOT COMMON: CASE. . . . . . (2) D I A BOLI C A L CONFESSION THAT I S . . . 5 P E R S O N S K I LL E D. . ENDED DEVILS AND I UP EATING T H E I R M EAT. . . . A H l M A N LOBA 2. . . . . H E R E A R E MY ASSOCI ATES' N A M ES: MY C H I L D D J A N N E A N D DJOMAN-BIE WERE G I V E N U P TO T H E D E V I L S B Y M E .B I E . . . . . . . . ( 2 ) T H E D I O U LA S K I L L E D 6 PERSONS WHOSE N A M E S I DO NOT K NOW . TH R E E D I O U LAS WITHOUT N A M E S 5 . 1 . . 1 8 PERSONS WHICH M EA N S A LTOGETHER . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ." IT I S EXCLUSIVELY A D I A BOLICAL DAMAGES AND M I SD E E D S I D R I N K H U M A N B L OO D A N D I EAT H U M A N F L E S H . . . I H A V E STA Y E D WITH THEM I N ORDER TO DO BY WAY OF MY D I A BOLICAL ACTIVITY I K I LLED M Y EVERYT H I N G A N D EAT W I TH THEM. . AGREEM E NT. . . 9 PERSONS A S S OC I A T E D. . . . . . . . . M Y BROT H E R J E A N N A N TC H IO. EACH OF U S MUST GIVE TWO PERSONS ACCOR D I NG TO OUR T H A T I S . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . THERE ARE 1 0 OF US DEVILS A SSOC I A T E D IN ORDER TO EAT: 7 E B R I E S A N D 3 D I O U LAS. . . . .B I E BY FORCE. . . . . . THAT IS WHY SHE C A N NOT HAVE 6.O. . . . . . . . . . .

PRESENCE NEVER B E FO R E BR E GBO RETURN I DO NOT WANT TO S E E TH E M ANY LONG E R . SO THAT I CAN FORGET A H O B R I AT A L L A N D I A LWAYS TAKE H E R BLOOD. P A U L V E R LA I N E A N D A R TH U R R I M B A U D OFTEN M Y MOUTH I S P R ESSED AGA I NST I T S HOLE. M Y V I LLAGE TO TAKE ATC H O A LB E RT'S WATER OF BLESSING. BUT G O D D I D N O T G I V E ME A W A Y . EXC E PT D I E K E A N D R E . AND E LS E W H E R E TOO. I A S K E V E RYBODY I N M Y V I LLAGE. T H I S I S WHY I A M A LWA YS ILL WHEN I STAY AT HIS HOUSE. S A KE. ZOBERMAN TO F I N D A WAY TO DIE RELIGION. F E M A L E C A N A A N F I R M L Y MOIST A N D F I L L E D WITH PROM I S E D E E P. E V E R YTH I N G T H A T N O W H A P P E N S THROUGH T H E TH E H A R R I S A POSTLES U PSET M E . AND I T TA K E S I T FOR ITS D A N K EST D R I PSTONE. THEY DECLARED THAT WE WHO HAD NOT C O N F E S S E D GOI NG AND TO IN TH E I R WOU L D FROM D E V I LS. ELSEWH E R E I A M A LWAYS W E LL. I TR I E D T O GO A S A DEVIL TO HARM MY EATING AND DOI NG WHAT WE WANT. I BESEECH YOU. OF WHICH I A M NOT PLEASED. ATC H O A L B E RT. FECIT I T S T H E O P E N O L I V E I N ECSTA SY. T H E BLOWN FLUTE IN T H E A I R : LITTLE DROPS LIKE T E A R S OF MILK HAVE W E PT. I D I D S O BEC A U S E ONCE H E C H A S E D A FTER A WOM A N . A R TH U R R I M BA U D I T S THE C E LESTI A L T U B E DO W N W H I C H A L L FONDANTS F R E E L Y FLOW. WHEREAS I AM REALLY A D E V I L AND I SEE E V ERYTH I NG THAT THE D E V I L S O F M Y V I LLAGE DO. STILL DAMP FROM LOVE THAT TRICKLES SOFT A LONG WHITE T H I G H S RIGHT TO ITS LIP. AT A COME TI M E I TO WANTED PEOPLE IN M R. R E C OV E R .I GAVE SOME D I S E A S E S TO A L MOST E V E RYBODY I N TH I S COU RT. WOULD BR E GBO S U F F E R I NG F R O M THE S A M E I LLNESSES. M R. A N D M Y BROTH E R DJO M A N . I AM V E R Y U PS E T. Y E ZOU DJAKO. H U S BAND. P R A Y FOR MY ON THE OTH E R HAND I DO N OT L I K E A H I BA K E S A K E SO THAT I FORGOT TO PRAY FOR SAY MY F I N A LLY RECOVER A N D-WHAT I TOO-A SK GOD TO FORG I V E M E . TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE 62 . H U M BLY H I DD E N A M I DST THE MOSS. INVENIT N EST O F T H R O B B I N G S I G H S. TH E SO N N ET O F THE HOLE IN THE ASS PAUL VERLAINE OFTE N MY S O U L W I L L Y E A R N FOR A FUCK WITH FLESH. I D E C I D E D TO MAKE A D E V I L OF MYSELF TH E M IN SO THAT I ORDER WOULD B E R E P R I M A N DED BY IN TH I S (SIGN E D ) : LOGA I D J U I TRAN SLATED B Y P . B E N EATH T H E ZEPHYR BLOWING C R U EL. NOW I A M NOT PLEASED WITH TH I S WATER B EC A U S E I T TA K E S AWAY FROM U S THE W A Y OF ONCE. U PO N THE PEBBLES OF A U B U R N M A R L. MY D E V I L D I S L I K E S ONLY THIS GI RL. ITS D A R K A N D P U C K E R E D L I K E A VIOLET ROSE IT PULSES. O B E Y I NG T H E SLOPE A N D H E E D I NG ITS C A LL.

HIS PRIDE DRIVES HIM O N TO MORE LOW L I N E SS LOG I C ALL ELA BORATE AND I N D E N T I F I C A T I O N S W I TH HIS THUS DOES THE M A SOC H I S T SEEK OUT HIS S E LF . H I S CONTACT W I T H T H E M C O N F I R M S H I S 63 . SLAVES. THE SUPERIOR CAN HE TA K E OR NO PRIDE IN SUCH TH E I R FETI S H I S M B Y R E M I N D I NG T H E S U P E R I O R O F THE OCCA SION TH E I R WHEN SHE OR HE UP M A Y H A V E NOTIC E D THEY HAVE SLAVE PICKING CRUMBS DROPPED ON T H E FLOOR A N D EATI NG T H E M . SUB-H U M A N . T H U S DOES TH E I R W A STE BECOME THE LOW L Y ' S O N E N O U R I S H M E NT : TH E I R F I LT H C L E A N S E S THE S L A V E : T H E I R FOU L N E S S S E E M S A AFTER A SLAVE H A S FANTASIZED H I M S E L F AS A N A N I M A L. A PET. PLASTIC AND PRECIOUS SACRA M E N T H O M E WITH H I M. UTTE R LY ATTA I N S B E CO M E S D I S G U ST I N G .COPROPHAGY A N D U R I N OLOGY I WISH TO I NTRODUCE THI S MOST EXTR E M E TR U E LOW N ESS OF BEI NG. AS WELL. H E M A Y D E VOUR IDENTITY. IN T H I S POOR WAY. TH ESE SU BSTA NCES. U N LE S S SHE REGARDS PRODUCTS WITH T H E SA M E GLAMORIZED E Y E S A S T H E MASOC H I ST. A N D R A R E PERFUME. A S U B M I SS I V E B E YO N D A MONG SLAVES." "SHOWER OF SWEETN ESS. WHEN G R O WS W O R L D-TH E Y THEY A RE ARE MORE PROFESSES HIS A M BITION AND ATTRACTION TO BE AS ONE W I TH THE FECES AND URINE OF THE WO N D E R F U L SLAVE THAN D I S G U ST I N G -T H E A TO COCOON CARRY OF HIS D E VO U T L Y SACKS PREPARES BOXES SUPERIOR. IT I S V E R Y PEC U L I A R TO THE SUPE RIOR TO R E A L I ZE TH E S L A V E WORS H I PS H I S OR H E R WASTE MORE THAN A N Y G OO D Q U A LITY. T H E N A W O R M . DOES T H E SLAVE I NGEST. T H E SA M E P R I N C I PLE I S AT W O R K H E R E -TH E S U B M I S­ S I V E SOUL THAT C L I NGS TO E V E R YTH I NG.E F F A C E M E N T ." A N D SUCH LIKE. H I S B E LOVED SUPERIOR. B U T FECES A N D U R I N E ARE TH E RAW IN MATE R I A L THIS FOR A LL THAT EXI STS NO AND LESSNESS AND PERSONI FI E D. A R E R E V E R E D A N D SOUGHT A FTE R B Y THE M ASOC H I ST AS THE SOURCE OF H I S TRUE TH E SLAVE D E I F I E S THESE SUBSTA N C E S. MAKE SLAVE HIM I NVERTED VI LENESS THROUGH H I S CONCENTRATION O N WHAT IS COM M O N L Y REGA RDED AS THE MOST VILE SEEKS TO OTH ERS. GIVING TH E M SUCH NAMES AS "GOLDEN E L I X I R. A N D SO POSESS. MOVES O N T O ACTI N G L I K E F U R N I T U R E A N D BEING INVISI BLE. HE SUBSTA N C E O N E A RTH. HE A N D WORTH­ THIS END. EVEN THE LEAVI NGS OF HIS B E LOVED S U PERIOR. U N EQ U I VOCALLY REGA R D E D AS HORRID.

M: G R EEDY LITTLE PIG! I TOLD YOU TO LICK M Y SHOE. M I STRESS. YOU I C R A W L ABOUT WANT TO IN. M I STRESS IS PERC H E D U PON THE SINK. S LA V E IS I NG ORIFICE. LETS SEE HOW WIDE YOU C A N OPEN YOU R M O U T H . ANYTH I NG YOU SAY. I OUGHT TO HAVE A LITTLE PORC E L A I N BOWL FITTED OVER YOUR R EVOLT­ TA K E S PLACE IN THE B A T H R OOM . ADMIT IT. SLAVE IS NOT SO F I LT H -O B S E S S E D OF MY SHOE. PLEASE. M Y PRODUCTS ARE TOO FOOD I EAT I S VERY TH E EXPEN S I V E . YOUR MOUTH IS TOO DI RTY. M : (KICKS H I M ) DON'T SAY "MY" M I STRESS. T O E A R N YOUR FI RST YOU MUST SHOW CAN BE. M I STRESS. GOOD FOR YOU. ME HOW TH E M : ITS TRUE. NOT E A T I T ! (TA K E S A LONG TI M E WAS H I N G M : YOU ARE A TOILET-YOU LOVE TO BE A TOILET. SO S: ITS TRUE. L I K E A FLOW OF BLOOD. I WANT T O BE Y O U R TOILET! S : A S MANY A S YOU W I LL G I V E ME. AS NO DEGREDATION CAN S U R PASS THIS M : YOU'RE THE TYP E WHO T H I N KS IT WOULD BE HEAVEN TO H A V E H U N D R E DS O F ST R A N G E 5: I'M SORRY. A N D ATTRACTION TO WHAT I S DEAD. I WANT TO EAT YOUR S HIT.TH E M OR M E R E LY HOLD T H E M IN HIS MOUTH FOR A SPAS MODIC I N STANT B E FORE SPITTING THEM OUT. WHO K NOWS WHAT YOU'VE BEEN LICKING TODAY. OFF H E R S HOE. BUT THE SUPERIOR MAY C ERTAI N LY B E AT A LOS S . DISEASES. U S I N G YOU A S TH E I R SEWER. I OWN YOU. I DIOT." TH E R E IS A SENSUOUS A P P E A L IN TH E COU RSING OF THE A HOT LIQU I D OVE R THE BODY-AS WELL. FI LTH DIALOG U E S: I ' L L P A Y . VI LENESS. AS FOR KISSING EVEN THE BOTTOM ONE MAY MAKE A M I NOR DISTI NCTION IN TH E CASE O F T H E A F F I C I O N A DO O F " G O L D E N SHOW E R S. I'LL PAY.) PLEASE. THE GUTTERS LESSLY. FLDOR! (HOLDS H I S H E A D DOWN WITH H E R FDOT. THAT T H I S WAS YOUR T R U E PLACE IN S : YES. T H ING. I KNOW YOU WILL. R E A DY AND WILLING AT ALL TI MES TO RECEIVE A DOSE OF H I S BELOVED COM M U N ION. BUT BOTH THESE SCATOLOGICAL FETISHES A R E MOST I L LUSTRATIVE IN TH E FACT THAT ALL FETIS H I S M I S A FORM OF N ECROP H I LIA-A LOVE M: S I L E N C E I KEEP YO U R D EG R A D E D LU STS TO S: PLEASE M I STRESS. MOVING OBJECTS.J LICK! S: (SALIVATES M : HOW M A N Y GALLONS C A N YOU DRINK? ALL OVER THE SHOE. YES. W I D E RI ( I N S E RTS H E R H EEL. I'M J U ST A TOILET. AND MAY B E LEFT H A PPILY CHAINED TO IT FOR HOURS. M . I N STA LLED YOUR H IGHEST AMBITION IS TO BE IN THE LADIES' ROOM AT GRAND PRIV I L EGES. Y O U W E R E S A Y I N G YOU WANTED TO SERVE AS MY TOILET. TH I S BEHAVIOR IN C R E ATES SUCH REVULSIVE S: WILL YOU PLEASE WATCH M E CLEAN OUT TH E U R I N A LS WITH MY TONGUE? CO N T E M PT THE SUPERIOR FOR T H E W E A K M: WOM EN DON'T USE U R I NALS. OH PLEASE. LET M E K I SS YOUR B E AUTI F U L ASS. U S E M E AS YOUR TOILET. I DON'T L I K E TO SIT DOWN ON C H A I N E D T O THE TOILET A N D L I E S ON THE FLDOR. ADO R A TION O F T H E SLAVE THAT T H E SUBMISSIVE M U ST B E PREPARED TO DO A BSOLUTELY ANYTHING TH E S U PERIOR MAY THEREAFTER COM M A N D H I M TO DO. BESI DES. IT IS ADVISED TO AVOI D I NDULGING TH E SLAVE SO THAT H E R E M A I N S I N A STATE OF CONSTANT LO N G I N G WOM EN SQUATTI NG OVER YOU R FACE. ON E . EVERY DAY. M I STRESS. PISS ON ME. T H E TOI LET-SLAVE ENJOYS B E I N G R E F E R R E D T O A S JUST T H A T PIECE OF BATH ROOM FURNITURE. MY M I STRESS. LIFE.J 64 . P E R H A PS THAT I S ALL YOU'RE F I T FOR.) N O W . B UT YOU H A V E T O L E A R N T O MOVE U P I N THE WORLD. YOU R S ELF. USEFUL YOU R MOUTH CLEAN C ENTRAL STATION. SHAME­ YOU R DON'T C A TC H SUCH BECAUSE ( I ) U R I N E I S STER I L E A N D ( 2 ) THE FLOW M A K E S IT S E E M FRESH AND LIVE.

ET'S HAVE A L.ONG PAUSE.) M ISTR ESS? THE M I STRESS M AY . KNEEL.AVE BY TEL.ING M I STRESS.ITTL.L.F. L.Y ON THE BATHROOM TIL.E I·L. BY EX E R C I SE I S GOOD NOW G R I M A C I NG IN FOR PAI N S: M ISTRESS. .E ENTE RTAI N M EN T A ROUND THIS P L. I NG DARL. ( P UT S ON A D I SC O R EC O R D AND (ETC.ESS! YOU S: PL.ATER. N E E D SOM E D I SC I PLI N E ! S: O H . E T .L. YOU DEG R A D E D L.) M : WHAT'S TH I S ? COM P LA I N I N G? AND ON TOP OF I T A L. PL. E G S ! I DON'T L.ICKS OF THE W H I P. THAT OUGHT TO C L. STOP PAWING M El M: OKAY. GO TO THE BATH ROOM? M : GET BACK ON YOUR K N E ES. S: OH D A R L.) M : NO. .EASE MAY I S: I ' M SORRY. I N G M I STRESS. (L.L. ( M I ST R E S S M A Y T H E N A M US E T H E SL.ITTL. FIN A L. YOUI H U P. .) S: M I STRESS.) H I MSEL.ooKS V E R Y A S H A M ED.DN'T HEL. E A S E USE ME AS A T O I L.E ASS. O N M Y C A R PET OUT OF YOU R SOR R Y L.EASE FORG I V E ME. A C E . M : YOU·L. K N E E L. IS TWO. ( M I STRESS DOES NOT BOTH E R TO ANSWER.ERATE IT.S OUT ABJECTL. IF SHE T H I N KS TH E SLAVE CAN TOL..AVE TO DANCE FOR H E R. E A S E . I F H E I S A POOR DANCER. • ) COM E BACK HERE. S H O U L.ITTL. E A N FART. H E L. oo R W H E N Y O U ' R E STEPPING (TR I E S TO P E E R UP H E R S K IRT.ENCE. E A N UP YOU R ACT. S: WON'T YOU P L. M : ASK M Y P E R MI SSION TO SPEAKI S: M ISTR E SS.EASE M I STRESS .ET-BOY. L. REQU I R E THAT HE NOW R U N A FEW L. .P MYSEL.F-CONTROL. H E OUGHT TO B E EGGED ON TO I M PROVE WITH A FEW L. I COU L.IGHTS THE M I STRESS I M MEASU RAB­ L.ooKI N G AT M Y L. P R E F E R A BL. M I STRESS. DO A S I SAY A N D NOTH I NG ELSE.EANED OUT. I NOW T H I N K I A M VE R Y CL. M A Y I SPEAK? (SL.) ANYTH I NG! S: (ON HIS K N E ES) PL.Y SL.) AND I THOUGHT THAT WOU L.ET M Y SERVANTS WORK I NG! L. P L. M I STRESS? R EQ U I R E S TH E SL.D TEACH H I M TO L.Y HOPPING ON ONE FOOT. E A S E .) WHEN H E COM E S OUT 1 5 M I N UT E S L. WISH YOU H A D N E V E R BEEN BORN T H E SLAVE YOU AREI S: Y E S . E A S E .L.l PL.ES.APS AROUND THE HOUSE. IT'S HARD TO L. ! O H ! L.) P L. I BEG O F YOU M: THAT • • . .l M : WHAT I S IT? S: M I STRESS. TEACH Y O U TO L. P L.EASE MAY I GO.l M: H U P. O O K AT M E W H I L. GODDESS. M ISTRESS? 65 .ooK AT MY L.EARN TO H A V E M O R E SEL. . E THEY'RE SOI L I N G H I M SEL.ONG PAUSE. I C K T H E OOWW .F I N THE BATH ROOM . PL.L. PL. PL. DO M: Y O U D I D N 'T ASK ME " P L.EASE. E A S E . YOU C A N GO. (SPRAWL. M A Y I SPEAK? M : NO. OVER T H E R E A N D WAIT F O R M E TO NOTICE YOU. AND YOU·L.ING A STOR Y O F H O W SEVER E L. M I ST R E S S IU" (WH I PS HIM A FEW TIM ES. DON'T I · L. N O ! (WATC H E S I N H O R RO R A S T H E M I STRESS FIL. D A R L. THE M I STRESS REQUI R E S TH E SL.S U P AN E N E M A BAG WITH STE A M I NG HOT WATER.EASE. M I ST R E S S SC R E A M S • .EASE I H A V E TO .A V E WHICH DEL. M I STRESS.F.ET O N E DROP FAL. M : YOU DI DN'T SAY THANK YOU. .L. TWO. (SLAVE STARTS TO RUN . S P I N EL.AVE TO PRESENT HIS BUTTOCKS TO T H E AIR A N D KEEP HIS H E A D ON THE GROUND A S SHE A D M I N I STERS THE DOUCHE.L.AVE I S PERMITTED TO R E L. D C L. UP YOUR ACT. L. M : NOW. . (L. I E V E S: YES.Y S H E PU N I S H E D A S L.S: M I STRESS.Y. M : YOU L. M : SIL. A V E FOR F L.EGS WITHOUT MY P E R M I S S I O N . TOIL. DOWN.

I A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. ONCE ALL DUE LOV I NG C A R E I S ROUNDLY PA I D T O T H E JUICY SLIT. VIII A LITTLE SHIT. YOU M U ST S I NG. SLAVE S I PS C A R E FULLY. T H E M I STRESS PUTS T H E BOY I N A STOCKS SO HE WON'T BE BOTH E R I NG H E R. SO SLOW A LONG TH E THROBBING JOY-POLE W A I T H U M BLY F O R H I S S ECON D COM I NG. . BACK S L I PS M Y TONGU E TO MY MOUTH W H E R E A N D MY RESTLESS TON G U E . I I A DORE B E I N G YOU R S : I'LL M A K E YOU A D R I N K . SO BAD A S IT LICKS ITS FAVORITE FOOD. A GLASS. .C. YOU'D B E SATURATED WITH M Y S U BSTA NCEI J UST L I K E A N A STY LITTLE SPONG E I S : OH. AND TH E R E SPU RTS OUT ITS CUM. A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. T H E S M E L L I S GAY T O M E F R O M THE H O L E I N M Y LOV E R'S A S S COOL A N D S O U R A S A N O L D C H E R R Y ROTTING GA YL Y I N THE R A I N . M I STRESS? TOI LET. I SWALLOW ALL O F IT." TO TH E TU N E OF "I A DORE B E I N G A G I R L. THE M ISTRESS RECEIVES THE COCKTA I L. M I ST R E S S SLAVE DONS AN A PRON A N D H U RRIES TO TH E BAR. I DON'T H A V E TO GO. . . DOWN. OVER AND H E A D RIGHT U N D E R U NTIL YOU SOA K E D I T A LL UP. DYING FOR T H E S W E ETS IT K N OWS ARE T H E R E: L I V E .M: NO. S E LL E R S LITTLE BOYI YOU A R E SO TORM ENTABLE." K E E P S I N G I N G I (SLAVE SI NGS TH I S ONE LI N E. I A DO R E . 0 THA N K YOU . THE OFFERS STA N C E REMOVES A SLAVE IT IS FROM HER STOC K S A N D SPECIAL SUB­ HIM IN D R I N K. PAUL V E R LA I N E TRAN SLATED B Y D A N I E L SLOATE H I S P U L S I N G P R I C K PLUNGES P U M P E D S T R A I G H T FROM THE WELL OF LOVE. M : ( L A UGH I N G R ESTRA I N E D L Y ) "WHAT A STU P I D T. AND D E E P IT SUCKS. 0 TH A N K Y O U SO M UCH. A LITTLE C U M W I L L N EVER. HOT C R E A M FROM TH E BORE YES. 66 . WHAT I F I SHOV E D YOU R M: NOW. T U N E LESSLY O F OVE R ' > COURSE. D I V I N E Q U E E N. I WANT YOU TO A M U S E ME BY S I N G I NG THIS LITTLE SONG. MOUTH O R B U M W H E N CROTC H E R I E S A R E N I G H . TH E N DROOLS U PON T H E KNOB. FLICKS ALONG H I S SOFT D A M P H A I R S S T I F F A N D QUICK A N D OH. THEN ON M Y K N E E S IT TICKLES ITS WAY FROM THE HOLE TO BA LLS AND OH. YET M I STRESS. M : WHAT IF I HAD A TUB F I LL E D TO THE BRIM WITH M Y S P EC I A L LIQUID. S: I ADORE B E I N G YOUR TOILET. SO MAD. WHICH H E I S R EQ U I R E D TO SLAVE STA R E S AT TH E LIQUID COURSING OVER H E R LI PS. A-WA LLOW I N HIS BLESSING. AND I POOR SLAVE. "I ADORE BEING YOUR TOILET. NO B U T N E V E R A FFRIGHT M Y N O S E . M : VERY WELL.

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I WAS GOI NG T O GET A PROPHET USED TO PROCLA I M THAT M I RRORS ( LI K E P A T E R N I TY ) C ON F I R M WERE A BO M I N A T I O N S . E X A M I N I NG H ER S E L F W I T H S U C H G R EAT ATTENTION THAT I WAS ·SH E W A S W A L K I NG S LOWLY IN MY D I RECTION. 68 . P E RH A PS LESS. R A I S E D HER S K I RT OVE R H E R N A K E D STO M AC H . A S THOUGH F A SC I N ATED BY SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M U ST H A V E B E E N AT H E R FEET THAT I COULD NOT SEE. EAL P L E A S UR E FROM I T EXCEPT FOR THE DAY I CAUGHT HER DOI N G IT IN A M I R RO R . I W A N T E D TO BITE. A FALSE MUSLIM S M I LING. I WAS SEVEN O R E I G H T YEARS OLD AND I W A S WATC H I N G A H I V E O F B E E S STUCK T O A B R A N C H . E R RO R . W E LL. S H E R A I S E D H E R D R E S S S O H IG H THAT S H E U N V E I LE D H E R PALE L I TTLE B R EASTS. PERCEIVED DOWN OF H E R SEX. SOPH I E WAS A BOUT TWELVE. WHEN I H E A R D A N O I S E B E H I N D M E . A N D I H A D F E LT NO . A N D AT THE SAME M O M E NT. I SAW A MAN IN A TREE. BUT HER FASC I N A T I O N IN­ T R I G U E D M E A L L T H E MORE. I WAS A BOUT TO GET U P. . A LITTLE B L O N D G I R L F R O M TOWN WHO WAS A RO U N D ONE MONTH A YEAR. A N D W H I L E S H E S M I LED. TO SCARE HER AT L E A ST. A N D T I R E D OF WAITI NG. U N K NOWN I N STINCTS R I PPED TH ROUG H M Y NECK.THE MUTE NEGRESS ". I L OO K E D AT SO P' H I E AGAIN: SHE WAS W A S WITH I N R E A C H . . I STI L L DI DN'T SEE W H A T WAS F A SC I N A T I N G H E R. E A RTH FOR THEY AND M U LT I P L Y TH E WHICH WE I N H A B I T . G R OTE S Q U E PA RODY. I THOUGHT T H E B E E H I V E H A D J U S T F A L L E N . "SOPH I E STILL K E PT H E R S K I RT R A I S E D. S H E STOPPED. FINA LLY S H E A F R A I D O F SEEING SOM ET H I N G S U RG E FORTH FROM B E TW E E N DETECTING HER ITS THIGHS. BUT I T M A D E ME LA U G H . 'ARE YOU COM I NG?' S A I D A VOICE. BUT FOLLOWI NG SO P H I E'S G A Z E NOW F I X E D ON A PO I N T ABOVE MY HEAD.. U N A UT H O R I Z E D STIC K-AT T H E R I S K NO DO U BT OF C RO A K I N G FROM T H E SWELLING STI N G S -WH E N I SAW LITTLE SOPH I E . BUT SHE S HOOK H E R H E A D . FOR H E R LOV ELY F L E S H I N E S S N O DO U BT AGED H E R. I R A I S E D MYSELF ON M Y E L BOWS BUT COULD S E E NOTH I N G AT H E R F E ET. I I M M E D I ATELY FORGOT THE BEEHIVE A N D LAY DOWN IN THE TALL G R A SS. A PP L Y I N G I MYSELF TO THE A PP E A R A NC E . THE DESI R E T O G R A B IT A N D DIS LODGE IT T I N G L E D T H ROUGH MY FI NGE RS. BUT I WAS ASTO N I S H E D TO NOTE T H A T SOP H I E H A D N O T H E A R D M E . I H A D ALREADY SEEN M Y SI STER C A R ES S H E R S ELF. I I M M E D I ATELY FEARED THAT I HAD R E V E A L E D M Y P R E S E N C E . I W A S S W I M M I NG. M Y N E IG H BO R . SHE WAS WALK I N G SO SLOWLY THAT I HAD N O HOPE OF H E R BEING ABLE TO R E A C H M E . I DON'T KNOW W H Y .

I N TEARS-oR A T LEAST I TOOK T H I S PERSO N F O R SOP H I E . S H E DIDNT PUSH M E AWAY. B U T I N STEAD O F AND MY WITHDREW F R O M THE LITTLE G I R L A N D TH E H A N DS FROM THE TREE D I S A P P E A R E D. THE W I N DOW WAS ON MY RIGHT. AS SOON AS I GOT I N SI DE. F O R Q U I T E F R A N K L Y I COULDN'T S E E A N YTH I N G . BIT THE M . I WAS SISTER U N D E R THE B E LLY OF A NAKED MAN. H ENCEFORTH I N D E E D QUITE BANAL. DISTANT STREET LAMP. T H I S I NTO TERROR TO WHEN TH E THE HERSELF FALL O N THE G RO U N D W H I L E THE RED­ H A I R E D M A N (HAVE I M E N TION E D THAT? IT PLEASES ME THAT HE WAS A R EDH EAD) WAS ALREADY CHANGED UP I WOM A N GOT AND WAS CAME A CLOSE SHUTTERS. I CAN NONETHE LESS SAY THAT SOP H I E IS T H E FI RST THAT I REALLY SAW MAKE LOV E . OR ELSE DO SOM ETH ING OTH E R T H A N WHAT SHE W A S H O P I N G F O R . THE R EST IS PROBABLY SOMETI M E S M YTH I C A L . R E V E A L E D H E R B U TTOC K S W H I C H BOTHE R E D M E EVEN MORE. A N D I C A N WELL SAY THAT IN THAT SENSE I HAVEN'T AGED). THUS P R I SO N E R ! N E XT S H E MOVING AWAY. SHE SAW HIM A N D M UR M U R R E D SOMETHI NG I D I DNT U N D ERSTA ND. SHE PRESENTED HER B E H I N D TO THE KNOTTY COCK­ FOR. ' W E R E YOU THERE?' SHE ASKED. IT WAS A TALL M A N WITH A ROUGH A PPEARANCE. BUT A POACHER P E R H A PS . I COULD MYSELF H A V E RAISE D M Y ARM AND SEIZED THE C H U BBY R U M P I F M Y ATTENTION H A DN'T BEEN DRAWN TO THE A R R IVAL O F A T H I R D C H ARACTER. AND ONE COULD HAVE SUDDENLY OPENED WITH GREAT C O MMOTION A N D CLOSED LIKEWISE. SO I GOT U P W I T H A LEAP: S H E D I SG USTED ME NOW. I BY GOT MY PEOPLE'S P R O F E S S I O N S .I GHT L I G H T W A S LIT. FOR S H E ARCHED H E R BACK. THEN. I M UST H A VE H URT H E R . THE MAN SOON ALREADY ASTON I S H E D THAT S H E H A D GROWN SO QU I C K L Y . H A V I NG TURNED M I SERA BLE WORKS: H I D I NG MYSELF HA LFWAY A RO U N D. U NBUTTONED THE M A N WHOSE P E N I S POPPED OUT. IN TRUTH. MYSELF ON H E R NAKED B R E A STS. FROM SLIPPI NG I N A MONG H I S RIGOR­ OUS CLASSIFICATIONS SOME S U M PTUOUS A POC RY­ PHAL PIECE."I HADN'T RECOGNIZED THE VOICE. B U T I WAS WRONG ABOUT TH AT. A S I F H E HADNT S E E N THE LITTLE G I R L. FLAT DOWN I N TH E GRASS. W H E N SOPH I E ADVANCED WAS SUSPICIOUS. THUS I N THE EV E N I NG . FOR I HAD A PLAN MORE FIRE I N TE R ESTI N G THAN A FEW IN BOTHE RING ABOUT T H E NOISE H E WAS M A K I NG. BUT I 69 . THEN T H E SOBS BEC A M E LESS FREQUENT A N D A "SHE D I DN'T SCR E A M WHEN T H E MAN PEN ETRATED H E R. BRUSHED H E R NECK. A T THAT M O M E N T I FIG U R E D OUT THAT SHE WAS THE C H A M B E R MAID A N D I F E A R E D H E R N U DITY: IT W A S NOT SOPHI E'S N U D I TY THAT I H A D DESIRED B U T SOM E U N K NOWN A C T THAT I MIGHT HAVE SEEN WHICH WOU L D HAVE SATISFIED ME. TH E M IRACULOUS TO THE LOGICAL. IT WAS ON THE GROUND FLOOR OF ONE O F THOSE HEAVY HOUSES LOVED BY THE M I DDLE C LASS. FOR A H A N D C A M E DOWN FROM T H E TREE. THE N S H E SPOTTED M E . WITHOUT ACCO M P A N I E D GRANDMOTH E R . ON THE CONT R A R Y SHE VERY MUCH WANTED TO PULL M E ONTO H E R STOMACH. A STU PID PERSON WHOM I COULD EASILY LOSE I N A FEW SECONDS. A FT E R AN HOUR IT RAISED H E R DRESS AGA I N AND. I NONETH E LESS HAZARDED A GLANCE: A N D TO MY GOOD FORTUNE. WH ICH I D I D. A N D SOP H I E'S REFUSAL S E E M E D TO ME TO I NDICATE THAT SHE H E R S E L F H A D N 'T R E C OG N I Z E D IT. I FEAR WAS SITUATION FEARED B E I NG D I SCOVERED. P E R H A PS) THAT T H E GROUP WAS ONLY WAITING TO B E SC ULPTED. LEAN I N G FORWARD. WHICH OBLIGED T H E H A N DS AND TH E ARMS FROM THE TREE TO COM E DOWN A LITTLE FURTHER. ANYWAY I WAS TOO YOU NG TO P REOCC U P Y M Y S E L F WITH "THE A DVENTU R E COULD END H E R E . P R E F E R R I NG . I BRUSH E D I T WITH MY FINGERS. I M M E DI ATELY SHE LET GO OF H E R DRESS. T U R N I N G H E R OVER O N H E R B E L L Y . BECAUSE. "I HAD H A R DLY ANY DIFFICULTY GETTING IN. AND ALTHOUGH I H A D ONCE C A UGHT MY N. FIRE WOR K S . THREATENE D T O PROLONG ITSELF. I D I DNT ANSWER. THE SC E N E . IN OUR LITTLE PROVI N C E . SOPH I E THREW H E RSELF ON T H E BED. I TH REW T U R N E D ON THE BRACKET LIGHTS A N D B E G A N T O UNDRESS. NOT A PEASA NT. O N L Y TH E I R A C T I O N S MATTE R E D T O M E ( J U ST AS TODAY. CAN NOT BUT THE KEEP COLLECTOR FROM H IMSELF DREAMING. WHICH MADE H E R SCRE A M . AND I M P RISONED ONE OF H E R B REASTS. THI S H U M A N PLANT W A S RATHE R A M U S I NG. SOPHI E LET TA KING A DVANTAGE O F THE G OO D L U C K . THEN SHE SOPHI E'S ROOM. A N D . TH E ROOM O N LY B A R ELY LIT BY A I MAGI N E D (AS I DID. DEC I S I V E LY ALMOST T O T H E P O I N T OF B R U S H I NG ME. AS IS S UITABLE. I H I D MYSELF B E H I N D A WAR DROBE PROV I D E N T I A L L Y PLAC E D O B L I Q U E LY O P POSITE THE LITTLE BED. H E WAS A P P R O A C H I N G WITH LONG STR I DES. BUT TH EY WERE MUCH LON G E R THAN SO PHIE·S. W I T H G R EAT D E XTERITY. THE M A N STOPPED B E H I ND SOPHI E . AND THE DOOR FACING M E . A N D I N STEAD O F RUBBING MY FACE AGAI NST WHAT WAS IN SUM NOTHING B U T AN ALREADY R I P E F R U IT. THOU G H . W H I LE A SECOND HAND GRABBED HER OTH E R BREAST. THE SCE N E DIDNT LOSE A BIT OF ITS RURAL C H A R ACTER. I LEANED OUT A N D SAW TWO LEGS R A I SED. PERMISSION THEY TO SET O F F ATT E N D . IT S E E M E D TO ME THAT I WOULD HAVE TO WAIT.

"THArs MAN. WHEN THEY ENTERED. T H E BUTTON O F FLESH SO H AR D . PROWLED A N YW A Y . PROT R U DE D MEN PLAYED TH E FUR FROM B E H I N D T H E R E D C LOTH. COM POSED A M U C H MORE SATISFYING D R E A M ED. THAN A N D. A THOUSAN D EYES " S H E C A U G H T MY GAZE. UNDER I THE SERVA NT'S THAT MY LI P S B ETWE E N TWO H E DGES OF LONG S H I N Y H A I RS. THE OTH E R SLOWLY MOV E D H I S F I N G E R S I N TH E MAUVE MOUTH. WOR D C I RC LES LOO K E D AT THOSE L A U G H I N G BEN EATH THEM. M O R E E X A CT L Y . C A R ROT­ TOP J U M PE D U P AS IF HE H A D B E E N STUNG TO TH E Q U I C K . OR. ONLY INDEED BY PLEASANT TO HER AGA I N ­ HER TAUT C H EST AND R U M P COULD B E SEEN. C A R ROT-TOP HAD ALREADY SLIPPED ONE HAND I N S I D E TH E L I K E D T O H A V E H E R T A K E M E I N H E R A R MS. S H E M A D E N OT THE SLIGHTEST G E ST U R E OF SURPRISE. I T W A S DAZZLING. TH E SAME? THAT IS INDEED WHAT I ATTENTIVE A S THOUGH S H E WERE LISTE N I NG OUT FOR A PREARRANGED SIGNAL. HER NOTI C E D THIS PULLED T H E PANTI ES SNAPPED. I N F I N ITE SHE OPENED SHE TH E SHUTTERS WITH PRECA UTIONS. THE A C T I V I T Y. BUT THE WOM A N REMAINED M A RBLE. THE MAID HAD F R OZ E N . THE R E V E LA­ TION OF THE S U M PTUOUS AND VULGAR T R A P P I NGS WITH W H ICH WOMA N T I T I L LA T E S . IGNORANT S I N C E I WAS M Y S E L F G R I P P E D BY THE S A M E D E S I R E . I M A D E A G ESTU R E W H I C H S H E D I D NOT U N DERST AN D . A N D S H E D I D 70 . WHO BENT OVER AT THE WAIST. W H I C H M A G N I F I E D. I TA K I N G H E R B R E A STS OUT O F THE ST R A P L ESS B R A . OFFE R E D M E H E R OTH E R H A N D WHOSE ODOR E N C H A NTED M E . FOR THESE SUPERB LOOK I N G AT M E ON T H E CONTRARY WITH C U RIOSITY. P E R F U N E WAS S O A R DE NT. I EYES. OF MY IGNORANCE. I N STEA D O F H I D I NG. A TH I C K TAWNY FLEECE. WITH THE OTH E R H A N D HE WAS LIG HTLY S L A P P I NG H E R ASS.H A I R E D M A N WAS A L R E A DY FEELING UP THE SERVANT. M A RQ U I S E I' AND WAS FLEECE. I THE R E D-H E A D E D AS SOP H I E'S D OO R . W H I LE I I KISSED M E O N THE OVER I THE ONLY D A R K E N I NG WHICH I FOR E H E A D W I N DOW WAS CRAWLING TH I N K DAY. A S W E L L A S T I N Y R E D PANTI ES. THE A G A I N S T U C K M Y F A C E AGA I N ST THE NEW MOUTH. S U D D E N LY. CONFUSEDLY FELT T H AT SHE WAS G I V I N G I N . AND ESPECIA L L Y TO PLUNGE MY FACE IN HER P A N T I E S . I D I DN'T KNOW HOW TO E X P R ESS IT TO HER. BUT T H E BAC KS OF THE M E N S H U TT E R S . I S A W THE S A M E WHITISH FOA M THAT I H A D C A UGHT S I G H T OF I N T H E ORCH A R D ON SOP H I E'S THIGHS. T H E MEN JOSTLE D E A C H OTH E R A N D I FIGU R E D THAT EACH ONE WANTED TO BURY HIS FACE I N THAT M A N E . SHOWED MYSELF. TO ROLL O N H E R BREASTS. BUT I WASN'T TALKI NG. STR A N G E L Y ENOUG H . AND THAT FIND IT WOU L D PROF I LE. I W I L L S A Y THAT IT W A S A RED AND W H ITE M A R TH A . T H E OTH E R STARTED TO T R E M B L E . AND I . BUT I WOU LD H A V E WOU LD N O T H A V E S U F F I C E D T O FOLLOW A LL T H E D E V E LO P M E NTS OF T H A T SITU ATION. GOI NG TO C R Y A N D I BUT SHE. I THREW MYSELF AGAINST HER B E LLY. WHICH THE R E D. 'PLEA S U RE' H A D ON LY R E C E NTLY LEDGE. THEN R E A L I Z I NG THAT HER BELLY WAS BARE. ALASI HOW BADLY DOM ESTICS AGE. WITHOUT TH I N KING A BOUT IT A NY M O R E . K I SSING THEM WITH A R DOU R .) THE MEN TOOK OFF. LIKE TO THAT L E A R N E D C A M E TO M E . T H E Y C O M I C A LLY B U M P E D THE I R HEADS TOGETH E R A N D T H E S E R V A N T L A U G H E D. S P ECTAC LE SHE TURNED. TH E WOM A N PUT H E R H A N D S B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D H E R D R ESS FELL. A B R A . PLAC E D C A R E F U L LY EAR C LOS E D T H E WOOD HIS AGA I N ST T H E B E FO R E CLEARLY SAW TWO OF H E R F I N G E R S G E NTLY MOVE INSIDE HER. "AFTERWA R D . S H E P U T H E R H A N D O V E R IT.HOWEVER. SHACK­ L E D HER STOC K I N G E D TH I G H S WITH HIS ARMS. BUT IT W A S REA LLY SO THAT SHE COULD C ARESS HERSELF. WITH AND THE M A I D. SECON DARY I N D E C E NC I ES. THUS OFFE R I N G TO MY GAZE HER R I PE B U TTOC KS. W H I L E T H E C A R ROT. AND I AND A NOTH E R HE RECOGNIZED FATH E R . K N E E L I NG. ONCE B U RSTING IT S E E M E D TO ME ESPEC I A LLY FROM THE PRESSURE O F TH AT PRODIGIOUS FLEECE. TH E W O M A N LEA N E D O V E R TO SEE. WHICH M E A NW H I LE. B U T T H E Y W E R E TOO B U S Y TO NOTIC E . MAGNIFICENT BELIEVEDI "TH E R E WAS A C R A C K L I N G OF A BUZZER. A N D A N A R AC H N I DE A N G A R T E R B E LT. THE FATH ER IN A LOW VOI CE WAS SAYI NG: · M A RQU I S E. I THOUGHT S H E WAS O N C E AGA I N DREW A W A Y VERY Q U I C K LY . T H E THIGHS AND HOLLOWED S U P PO R T S W A I ST BEING ONLY ALTHOUGH I KNOW. I REGA I N E D HOPE JUST A S A B R U PTLY A S I HAD BECOME SO Q U I C K LY D I SCO U R A G E D . TH AT A LL R E S I STA N C E WAS CEASING IN H E R.H E A D B U R ST. I H E A R D HER SIGH I NG. B U RY M E I N H E R B E D WITH H E R . B EC A U S E SHE PLAC E D H E R F I N G E R T O H E R LI PS A S THOUGH ORDE R I N G M E T O B E Q U I ET. SHE H E LD MY HEAD. DEMANDED G R A N DMOT H E R W E A R LONG PANTI ES. C A R ROT-TOP. A LSO TO E N JOY H E R OWN SPECTACLE. AND I FOU N D IT TO H AVE A SINGULAR SAVO U R. TU R N I N G T H E K EY. I WATC H E D THE TWO FREED RETU R N E D HOME THE NEXT A FTER H AV I N G W A N D E R E D T H R O U G H T H E COUNTRYS I D E . THAT I W A S BITING SAVAGELY. HER EAR PREVENTED T H I S. IIF I MAY PERMIT M A R E I A SHORT BLACK-LACE S L I P. ALL THOSE I IN HAD MYSELF T O A N T I C I PATE.

B U T HE IS A CONQU E RO R ." 'TO L I K E YOU TO R E A D SOME MORE. H I S M A S K . TOO. • BLAC K S M I T H ?" A S K E D L A U R A . I r s BECA U S E H E T H I N K S YOU HAVE E X C E PT I O N A L G I FTS. SHE S E E M S LESS I N NOC E N T THAN YOU. AND H E L D U S S O ROUGH LY?" "HE KNOWS YOU WELL. THE Q U I V E R I N G OF B UTTOCKS AND TH E LO I N S . . H E KNOWS IT.NOT R E F U S E. I M A G I N I NG THAT T H E Y W I L L T H U S F E E L " I DON'T U N DE RSTA N D THE D I G R ESSIONS. "WHO IS THAT "LOVE? ." "DON'T FORGET THAT ONE M UST MAKE LOVE DIFFERE NTLY F O R A VOYEUR'S PLE A S U R E . DID YOU LIKE IT?" " S I M P L E E X ECUTORS. HOLES " R E D U C E IT? I DON'T U N D ERSTA N D AT A LLI" WATCH I N G YOU. WE N EVER S E E H I M IN THE LIGHT OF D A Y . . BUT THE ADMIRAL PREFERS PE RFOR M E R M U ST COM PLETELY D I S A P P E A R FROM YOU R THOUGHTS. T H E "YES. SPYHOLES." " I N N OC E N T? YOU'RE M A K I N G F U N OF M E ! . FROM YOU R LOO K I N G AT SOMEONE WHO'S ALREADY LOOKI NG." "TH E S H E?" LITTLE GIRL SOPH I E . I SN'T "BUT WHY A R E T H E R E VOYE URS?" "I DON'T KNOW. TOO?" "H E'S A C H I L D TOO. IF H E N E V E R L E A V E S H I S E M P I RE. H E C A N FORGET T H E REST O F T H E WORLD. WILL YOU PROTECT M E?" "TH E R E A R E COU RS E S . THE SEPARATED THIGHS. H E COULDN'T KNOW M E." FEELI NGS. C E RTA I N "NO. S H E'S LIKE ME. " "HE lSI I A L R E A D Y TOLD YOU THAT TH I S HOUSE I S FU LL O F TRICKS. "TH E M A S T E R O F THE 'SA N S-SOUC I'. IF YOU LIKE. A B U I LDER." "YOU " HOL ES? THAT'S ODD. SOM E EVEN PAY. I TOLD YOU THAT WE O N L Y T A K E S I N G L E PEOPLE. H E'S T H E O N E WHO ENTERED. A R E HIS OBSESSION. " " YOU'RE M A K I N G F U N OF ME. I T ' S A GDOD TEST. NUDE COURSES. " IRENE C LO S E D THE PINK BOOK. :' " TH E A D M I R A L:' A N S W E R E D I R E N E. A N D. " " H E FRIGHTENS ME. "YES. H I S H A N D . WHAT I S A COLLECTOR?" SOM E N EW PLEASURE. AND LOV E ." A R R I VAL. IT'S I NTERESTING TO SEE THE WORK OF THE M U SCLES. I T'S AS THOUGH YO U W E R E M A K I N G LOVE W I T H T H E O N E WHO'S LOO K I N G AT YOU." M UST FI RST CON S I D E R TH E ONE WHO'S P E E P HOLES. H E K N E W E V E R YT H I N G A BOUT YOU. EVEN B E FO R E YOUR "IT WAS H I M ." C L I E NTS O F O U R S L I K E T O G E T O N TH E I R K N E E S A N D STROKE YOU D U R I N G T H I S T E S T . LIKE I N P U BLIC TOI LETS. H I S SHA DOW. TOM O R ROW." YOU R ADMIRER. A N YWAY. A TYPING COURSE. FOR WANT TO DO NOWT WHAT DO YOU EXAM PLE. THERE ARE A LS O C O U R S E S IN BEHAVIOR. EVEN THOUGH THE I NC R E A S E IN YOU R BE M ISTA K E S C A N NOT WITH M UC H EXACTITUDE MICHEL BERHARD TRANSLATED BY RICHA RD G A R DN E R ATTR I B UTED T O YOU R AGITATION O R T H E S K I L L O F 71 . I T'S A S U BJECT H E'LL BE H A PPY TO DEAL WITH. " "BUT WHY 'BLAC KSM ITH'?" ' W H A T A BOUT T H O S E WHO D O I T WITH U S?" "YOU'LL U N D E R ST A N D LATER. IF H E ACCEPTED YOU. T H E I R PAY IS V E R Y LOW. YOU WILL TAKE SPECIAL COURSES TO D E V E LOP T H E M . TU R N E D OUT THE LIGHTS. TEACH BUT THEY'RE R EDUCE WRONG THEI R BECAUS E WE YOU TO PLEAS U R E ." "YOU CAN ASK THE A D M I RAL THAT. LITERATURE. O B V I O U S L Y .

ED COR R I DO R WITH NO SIDE OPEN­ INGS: M Y FI RST I M P R ESSION I S THAT IT M U ST B E L. M U FFL.L. I S MOTIONL.L. TIME-PROOF. N O LIGHT SOURCE CAN B E SEEN. O N G E R WEL. EVEN TH E UTTLE GIRL DOZ I NG OV E R H E R SCHOOL BOOKS. S MOOTH. Y ONE D I R ECTION IS POSS I B L. .ES TO THE L.ING AND THE FLOOR. E TO 72 . K I N G (ONCE AGA I N ) SLOWLY FORWARD: EVEN THOUGH IT HAS I M PE RCEPTI B LY B U T DEFI N ITEL. PALE AND M I L. AL. SPACED UKE DROPS OF WATER.F WITH A L.ORN. NO SIDE OPENI NGS OR PASSAGES: ITS WIDTH.-O I L. NOW TO THE R I G HT.I C K S FROM I STRO NG E R (OR A R E T H E EYES S I M PLY ADAPT I N G TO T H E G L.IGHT THAT IS S L. I G HTLY ONCE I N SIDE AND ONCE THE H E AVY STE E L.IKE TH E WHOOSH OF SOME N IGHT B I RD FOL.ED BY TH E H EAVY H A N G I NGS AND C U RTA I N S O F A N O L.ED TU R N S W H I C H HAVE B ECOME MORE FREQUE NT. AND U N EXPECTED­ LY IN SPITE OF THE L. Y . FIND PL. L. E A D I NG A GA I N TO TH E L. DOOR HAS C L.L OF THEM COV E R E D WITH THE SAME WH ITE SURROUNDI NGS A N D TA K E MY B E A R I NGS CAUTIOUSL.UNGED I NTO B L. I N THE SIL. NOW A PPEARS SOM EWHAT I NCREASED .TS OF S M OOTH C L.Y AT RIGHT ANGL.DW SOU ND L. U I S H S E M I -DARKNESS A N D I HAVE TO STA N D STI L.ESS IN T H I S MONOTONIC ETERN ITY. A C E . L A PPUES-AND PROBABL. I D I N G I NTO P L.L. NOW TO THE LEFT.BOW L. K Y .TEM P L E T H R OUGH THE LOOKING GLASS AFTER A FEW STEPS FORWA R D. U NATTA I N ABLE.L. THE LIGHT H E R E.ENT D I STANCE WHAT SEEM TO B E THE NOTES OF A P I A NO CAN BE H E A RD.B E F O R E TO M A K E O U T MY CAN SEE W E L. A NOTH E R D I SQ U I ETING FACT IS THE R IGHT-ANGL. L. S MOOTH-WA L. E : A N A R ROW. O N G AND STRA IGHT. HOWEVER.Y. T H E C E I L. FORL. .OOM11 THE COR R I DO R HAS A NOTH E R R IGHT­ A N G L E D E L.Y THE L. ACTUA L. FOR A F E W SECON DS-A I FEW M I N UTES ENOUGH POSS I B L. CAUSES A N OTH E R Q U E R Y TO ARISE I N TH E M I N D O F H I M WHO I S WA L.OWED BY A SERIES B O L. F S L.OSED BY ITSEL.L. BUT WITH AND NO RE­ REGULAR D I ST A N C E B E TW E E N TH E M PEATED SO OFTEN THAT IT I S NOW I M POSS I B L. E D M Y S E L.Y GROWN B R IGHTER.EARLY THAT TH E R E I S NOTH I NG TO SEE EXC E PT THE WALL.EFT THEN CONTI NUES IN TH I S NEW D I R ECTION WITH STI L.Y I T HAS BECOME BRIGHT ENOUGH TO S HOW C L.Y THERE IS NO CAUSE FOR HES ITATION: O N L.L. A B STRACT-o N E M IGHT SAY­ CONV E Y I N G THE I M PRESSION OF B E I N G U N A LTER­ ABLE. BUT IT TURNS S U D DENTL. E FT A N D AGA I N T H E R E I S A W I D E N I NG OF THE PASSAGEWAY TO WHICH THE TERM " N A R ROW" NO L.IGHT I S STRONGER FOR G RADUAL.ACQU E R . D A PA RTM ENT W H E R E EVERYTHI NG.S.

AU DITIONS. CONTO U R S BECA U S E AND OF SIZE THE ITS AND D I F F I C U LT TO DEEP H U ES­ VERY P E R H A PS-OF TAPEST R I E S HIDDEN C O N F I N ES. IT WOULD B E M O R E ACCU RATE T O S P E A K FROM THE RIGHT F O R E G RO U N D AND M OV I N G O F PEARLS STR I KI N G AGA I N ST EACH OTH E R AT T H E CENTRE DIRECTLY OF AN OVA L THE M I R RO R GLASS ON THE FLOOR DIAGONALLY TOWARDS T H E L I M ITS OF O N E'S V I S U A L R A N G E . AND LASTLY TH E FLOWER-G I R L H E RS E L F (OR SO IT APPEARS) LYING OUTSTRETC H E D O N THE S H A DOWY FLOOR. SMALL AND SO NUMBER THE ACCORDANCE WITH T H E R U L E S LA I D DO W N B Y SOME AND SAME 73 . NOTH I N G SHOES M A D E OF FINE B L U E SKIN AND V E R Y HIGH­ H E E LED. .P I N K STALK ROSE AT T H E TO END OF A ROSES DRESS L I TT L E ELSE C A N B E DI STI N G U I S H E D I N THE R OO M S A V E THE M I R RO R A N D THE S I LVER PEA RLS SUCCES­ STI F F TO THE S I M I LA R IN THE SIVELY FALLING FROM A N INVISIBLE CEILING THAT ST R I K E S I M U LTA N E O U S LY AGA I N S T TH E I R O W N OFFE R E D LEAVI NG G E NT L E M E N OPERA EVENING BY TH E HOUSE I MAGES A N D THE E P H E M E RAL SURFACE R E FLECT­ ING THEM WITH A M USICAL BY TH E H IGH SOU N D. C H I LD HAS H E R EYES O P E N A N D IS WATC H I NG. BOU N C E BACK TRACING TRAJECTO R I E S THAT ARE FAIRLY PRONO UNCED I N TH E I R I N C L I N E FROM THE VERTICAL. A BET. A FAINT PERCUS­ THESE D E N LY UNANSWERED AT TH E NEW Q U ESTI O N S OF RECEDE S U D­ SIVE SOU N D HAS DRAWN NEARER. FI RST ONE. FRANCIS. AND REMARKABLE. A N E A R LY I N V I S I B L E GLASS STA N D S TH ERE. EXHI BITIONS OR I NTER­ S E E M S T O BE A S L E E P BUT TH ROUGH THE SPREAD FINGERS OF O N E O F H E R H A N DS OVER HER FACE AS THOUGH TO S H I E LD H E R FROM THE BRIGHT LIGHT OF A L A M P-A B S E N T-IT IS I M AG I N A BL E THAT TH E ROGATIONS. NOW STR I K I N G WITH TH E DRY. REGULAR BEAT OF A M ETRO N O M E . CON F U S I O N . . BUT IT S I NCE ENTERING T H E SANCTUARY. PASSAGEWAY A FTER A N OTH E R A B R U PT T U R N TO THE N A R R AT O R . SUPE RVISION. P ROBABLY A LITTLE FU RTH E R DOWN T H E LONG CORRIDOR. FROM LIQU I D DROPS SOU N D I NG I N T H E SI LENCE. T H E NOTES V A R Y F R O M O N E P E A R L T O T H E N E XT. A LSO BLACK. PURE AND FLOWER-G I R L K NOWN A S T E M P L E I N THE QUA RTER. I N EXORA B LY. O N E M UST M E R E LY CHOOSE ONE OF T H E ELEM E NTS I N THE TA B LEAU. H A N G I NGS. THESE T H I NGS ARE A PA I R O F WOM EN'S BEHIND WIN DOW. A N D THAT A R E OCCASIO N A LLY S U B J ECTED T O I N F I N ITELY S M A L L VARIATI O N S C A U S E D BY T H E CONTACT BETW E E N AND ITS REFLECTION. LONG. AGA I N ST THIS GLASS RECTA NGLE IS I DENTI C A L WITH THE CAR PETS. A S WELL A S T H E I NTERVAL BETWEEN TWO CONSECU­ THE ENIGMA OF T H E WHOLE COM POSITION PROM PTS ONE TO ATTE M PT TO MAKE A CHOICE. OR I S SHE D E A D . UTTERLY B R E A K I NG THE CONTI N U ­ ITY OF THE VARNISHED M I RROR LIES WALL. M I D-TH IGH BY FRI LLY GARTERS W I T H T I N Y PERCALE ROSE S AROUND T H E M . A BEHIND DARK THIS ROOM M I SS I NG K NOB. APPEARANCE Y E T A NOTH E R A LO N G TH E DETA I L. RATH E R TH A N ASSEMBLE THE D I FF E R E N T E L E M E N TS IN TIVE PEARLS: IN A BUT THE IT SHOULD OF BE POSSIBLE TO ASCERTA I N . OR AT THE L E A S T U NCONSCIOUS? THE CON C E RT CONTI N U E S IN TRANQUI LLITY. THE G I R L I S N A K E D EXC E PT FOR H E R LONG BLACK GLOVES AND A PA I R OF STOC K I NGS-oF A S I M I LA R SHADE BUT MORE TRANSLUCENT-FASTE N E D AT BA R E LY THEN M U FFLED TRANSPA RENT IN THE AIR WALL. G I V I NG ON A N UTTERLY DARK SPACE. WHO IS TH E R I GHT: AGA I N ST TH E PALE POLI S H E D WALL ON THE LEFT IS A V E RY D A R K RECTA N G L E THE SIZE WOR R I E D WHETHER H E I S COM MITTING A N ERROR I N FINDING H I M SE L F A T T H E STARTING POI NT O N T H E TERRACE STEPS OF I M I TATION GRAN ITE I N FRONT OF THE NUMBERLESS STEEL DOO R S WITH ITS A N D LOCATION OF WHICH WOU L D S UGGEST A N OPEN DOORWAY. EVENTUA LLY OF COU RSE CHOOSES TH E PALE BLUE SHOE LYING ON ITS SIDE AND WHOSE H E E L APPEARS BROKEN A T T H E BASE. THE SPECTAC LE U N FOLDI NG TH E R E I N PROV I D E S AN EXPLAN ATION SOUNDS THAT PIA NO. A N D I M M EDIATELY HE IS PLANTED BEFORE THE N E XT U N S I LV E R E D WHOSE ASSESS BLACK VERY ARE WIN DOW. OR (TEMPORA RY?) FOR T H E R E PEATED ISSUE FROM A METRONOME OR A THIS I N KY BACKDROP ON LY TH R E E T H I N G S STA N D OUT MORE S H A R PLY MORE I LL U M I N ATED FROM OR P E R H A PS R E F LECTI NG LIGHT T H E C O R R I DO R BECA U S E OF TH E I R B R I G H T E R C AST. HER N EC K I S C LA S P E D IN A SORT OF WIDE LACE COLLAR. A FLESH. AS ONE DRAWS N E A R E R IT IS OBVIOUS TH E R E I S NO OPE N I NG. ACTUALLY. L I K E TH E OTH E R THI NGS IN TH I S I N V E NTORY.TELL IN WHAT D I R ECTION O N E H A S B E E N MOVING I MAGINA RY ORGA N I Z E R . S H E EACH S P A R K L I N G S P H E R E BOTH OF WHICH SOON VANISH FROM THE S PECTA­ TORS' VIEW AS SOON A S THEY NO LONGER CATC H THE LIGHT FROM T H E ROOMS FOR EXA M I N ATIONS. FRANK V. I NT E R VA LS M I DST TH E I R APPARENT OF R E LATI V E LY N OT E S . ETC. MUST B E DONE WITHOUT DELAY.

S H E HAS THE FULL EVEN I NG GOWNS A R E . HER HEAD O N O N E S I DE. OR A LACE CUSHIONS. OF THUS OFFERI NG. TUCKED UP V E R Y H IGH E X PO S I NG LONG LEGS SWATH E D I N S I LK. H E M A Y H A V E T A K E N ADVAN­ F L I ES A LONG E N D L E S S L Y R E N E W E D P A R A BO L I C SEGMENTS. W H O A P P E A R S TO B E STO P P I N G H E R E A R S T O D E A D E N T H E T I N K L I NG SOU N D THAT I S H I G H E R A N D H I G H E R P I TCHED-NEARLY A W H I STLE -W H I C H THE PEARLS PRODUCE BETWE EN WITH EVER­ HER BLANK-EYED CONTE M P LATION. W R I STS TOUCH I NG PALMS ON B E N E ATH CHEEK. I NVERTED I M AG E . DISTANCE. E V E N THOSE N EXT TO H E R. AS D I A DEMS. THE D I STI NCT WOM E N . O R FASC I NATED B Y T H E T I M E LESS AND BACK IN FALLING ALWAYS L I G H TS BOUNC I N G AWAY U N FO R ESEEN ( U NFORSEE­ ABLE?) D I R ECTIONS. I M ITATING T H E POSITION OF H E R N E I G H BO R'S H A NDS. A C R U E L S M I L E ON H I S L I P S . I T H A P P E N S T H A T WHAT I S ALSO M ET A L L I C G L I TT E R THAT COLLA R 74 . BLACK­ STOC K I NG E D LEGS SPREAD APA RT. LOST IN TH E I R I N T H E F I RST R O W . WITHOUT HER COM PA N IO N S SO M UC H A S BATTING AN E Y E L I D. TOWA RD THE F LOO R .N A I LS TO CA LF.H A N D E D A N D D I FFIC U LT. OTH E R S A R E B E D I Z E N E D WITH ARTI FIC I A L ROSES TAGE OF T H E A PP L E USED MOM E N T TO P U R LO I N T H E HOLLOW FOR S E C R E T M E SSAGES THAT WAS AND LILIES OR G I A NT BUTTERFLIE S. SHOELESS U PO N THE CUSHIONS IN LY I N G DRESSES OF BYGONE F I N E RY. CROSSING FROM P A I NTED TOE . CA R E F U L LY SMOOTH E D. D A R K OR FAI R. S O O N E M A Y ADMIRE AT GREATER EASE THE DIFFERENT ONCE SPECIMENS TO BET (WILL ON IT BE OF S L U M P E D BACKWARDS W I T H A LOW GROA N SHE WAS NO LON G E R ABLE TO RESTRA I N . FACE STILL FAMOUS SC E N E S FROM H I STORY A R E S U PPOS EDLY R E PRODUC ED FROM LIFE. MORE OFTEN THAN NOT. HER C H I N A N D HER IS L I TT L E TEM PLE I M I TATI NG NAT U R E . SITTING C I RCLE FACING THE SC R E E N O N SEATS A S V A R I E D AS THEY ARE U NCOMFORTA B L E . IN VARIOUS LITTLE AS BUT J U S T NOW A M U FF L E D CRY I S HEARD FROM THE LITTLE THEATRE WHERE NOT H I NG. Q U I T E U N C O N S C I O U S ON T H E C R U E L LY H A R D S EAT. S I L K BROCADE. DRESSED IN BLACK AND W H ITE. FROM B OO T S T O BA LL-SLI PPERS. I S TH E DELICATE P U B I C FLEECE. MADE U P EXTRAVAGA NTLY THOUGH I N PA LE HUES EXCEPT FOR T H E BRIGHT PINK U PON TH E I R CHEEKS. OR P E N DANTS. FEATH ERS. SOM E H IG H . H A S MOVED. S U P E RBLY SPRAYS GEMS E A R R I NG S COM P L E X AS F I R EWORKS A N D WHICH IT WAS ONE OF THE LATTE R WHO HAS J U ST A P PEAR TO BE MADE W I T H T H E S A M E DROP-SHAPED P E A R LS THE VISUAL A B S T R ACT I O N OF WHICH B RUTALLY A N D U N E XPECTEDLY C A U S E D THE C H I LD AND HER IN D E LICATE THE WARES TO T U M B L E STA N D I N G TO THE CONTI N U E S T O FALL V E RTICA LLY ON LY TO BOU NCE BACK AT BEFORE THEM. CONC E A L E D U N D E R TH E LEAVES O F THE FLOWERS. FROZEN IN POSES STIFFLY DIMINISHING I NT E R V A L S THEM. I T I S N O W A P P A R E N T THAT S H E I S ATTA C H E D T O T H E FO U R TIGHT RO P E S OF P E A R LS FO R M A WITH DOG TH E I R N EC E S S A R Y MORE ONE THEM?)-SO HIGH I N FACT. REMAIN MOTIONLESS. AND I N THE ABSENCE O F U N DE R GA R M E NTS. T H E SPECTATORS. BUT IN LONG H E LD ( A S WAS J UST M E NTIONED) BETW E E N HER TWO SMALL AND HANDS WITH F I N G E R S H UGELY MAGN I F I ED. MATS. H E R L I P S PARTED A N D EYES C LOSED. SEQUINS AND STON E S . WITH T H E C L E FT AT T I M E S R E V E A L I N G WAXEN FLESH IN ITS MOST SECRET RECESSES W H E N E V E R PLUNGED PROBABLY IN THE D E PT H S U N I TS OF AN THE PATI ENrS POST U R E HOLDS H E R LEGS O P E N A N A LY S I S OF T H E S E COMBI NATIONS. RICH IN LACE. TO A L L A PPEAR­ A N C ES.Q U E STION A R I S E S ONCE M O R E : IS IT A PROB LEM OF CHOICE A S IN THE PRECEDI NG SC E N E OR ON THE CONTRARY I S IT NOW A N TURAL ORGA N IZATION? E X P E R I M ENT I N STRUC­ E X PO S E D. AS I SAID. OF J E WELS. O I S A R R AY AMONG T H E ROSES THAT H A V E S P I LLED FROM T H E W I C K E R TRAY S H E U S E S TO D I S PLAY H E R FLOW E R S TO H E R CUSTO M E R S . DECKED WITH P E A R LS OR LITTLE G E M ­ ROSES. SEVERAL O F TH E M A R E A LSO WEARING H U G E RINGS AND GIGANTIC B R OOC H E S . LIKE THOSE TA BLEAUX OF LIFE­ SIZES WAX FIGU R E S IN MUSEUMS AND I N WHICH EITHER H ER S E L F S U L K I LY WATC H I N G T H E SC E N E U N FOLD I N THE GREAT RECTA N G U L A R GLASS W H E R E I N S H E S E E S H E R O W N N A K E D . AND SANDALS WITH L E A T H E R THONGS C R I S S ­ H A S S U D D E N LY LOST CONSC IOUSN ESS. PRIMPED AND P A M P E R E D. I S T H E M A N WITH THE BALD HEAD AND N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES OBSERV­ I NG T H E R E S U LTS OF HIS VIOLENT ACT. S L I G HTLY ONCE A P A RT FROM T H E OTH E RS. A THOUGH ON S E R I ES S H ELVES. CONTORTED FUR RUGS POSITIONS. WHOLE O N E OF T H E YOUNG WOM E N I N T H E A U D I E NC E A S THOUGH POSITION P A R A LY Z E D BY HER C O N ST R A I N E D COLLECTION OF FOOTWE A R FOR C U STOM ERS W I T H SPEC I A L TA STES. THE F E E T OF N E A R LY ALL U PO N R E S T. AND TH E I R IN A SEMI­ WIDE ENOUGH.

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I S S I M PLY-L I K E SO M A N Y OTH E R T H I NGS IN THIS HOUSE-THE R E S U LT SERVE AS A FOOT. W H E R E A S O N T H E CONTRA R Y T H E P E A R LS SC ATTERED AROU N D H E R H A V E G R O W N B I GG E R U NT I L THEY H A V E BECOM E A DM I S S I BLE E X P LA NATION I S THAT H E I S PROBABLY PART OF THE SC E N E: THE B A L D. DIA­ I N FO R M A R E P R I C K E D D I RECTLY I NTO T H E WOM E N ' S S K I N . T O DROP H A N DS-THAT A KIND OF N E ARLY RENDERED A LMOST NUBILE A PPROPRIATE CUPPED LIGHTI NG. . . I M M AC U LA T E TULLE L I LY LACED P E A R L. HOLDING HER IS UPON R E M A R K I NG T H I S LAST DETA I L T H E N A RRA­ TOR BECOME A WA R E O F A SECOND I NCONSISTENCY IN THIS ACCO U N T: IF HIS M EMORY SERVES HIM GA RTERS. W H ITE. A N D A L L THE M O R E SO A S THE SPIKE H E E L OF O N E OF H E R P I N K SLI PPERS WITH PEARL POM POMS H A S A LSO B E E N R I VETED T O TH E WOODEN FRONT OF T H E C H A I R . THE TARGET OF A DD I T I O N A L C R U E LTY FROM H E R PERSEC UTORS. A N D WHOSE L I N E S OF FORCE THIN HER WA I ST AND P U S H U P H E R B R E A STS U N D ERSCO R E D BY SACRED MORE ROPES OF P E A R LS. T H E I NS PECTOR NOTES J U ST I N C A S E THE FACT THAT THE ROLE PLAYED B Y T H E P E A R L S A S I N ST R U M E N TS O F TORTURE I S BECOM­ I N G I NC R E A S I N G LY OBVIOUS. O N E WOU L D S W E A R T H A T T H E G I R L H A S GROWN E V E N YOUNGER. M O R EOVER. H E R 76 . A L S O SHOWS SIGNS OF I LL N E S S O R D I STR ESS: CROWN E D WITH M O T H E R-OF.A R O U N D H E R N ECK. S H E I S GOING. A SECOND WOM A N . THE YOUNGEST OF A L L T H E SPECTATORS S I TT I N G WITHOUT ON THE OTH E R SIDE OF THE GLASS. T H E HER ROSES T R I A N G L E' S B L O N D E TU FTS F L O W E R -G I R L PEDDLING P L AY E D I N A L L D U E POMP. TH E N EXT TABLEAU. ARE ACT U A L L Y SOLI D ROSA R Y B I N D S TOG ETH E R AT H E R JOI N E D W R I STS­ THE L U M I NOUS ROSE S Y M BOLIZING H E R V I RG I N ITY. A THIS FOR AN I N STA N T SHE R E F LECTED HER M I RAGE. WITHOUT T H E SLIGHTEST LATITUDE OF MOVE M E NT. STI L L FOR TEM PLE'S NAKED BY BUT BENEFIT WHO IS M A RTYR. FRANK V. I T IS TO BE CONJEC­ TURED THAT SEVERAL OF THE J EW E L S THEY HARMLESS NO CON NOTATIONS. TH I S CAUSE O F HER PRESENT STATE (FATAL?) . BUT P E R H A PS T H E L O N G BLON D E H A I R OVE R T H E R E . T H E N S H E A RR A N G E S HER BLACK STOC K I NGS A N D S L I P S I NTO A PA I R O F F I N E H IGH-H E E L E D S HOES. FOR I N STA NCE. THAT HER BONDS H A V E FORCE D H E R TO A DOPT-A N D THE P E R H A PS FOR SEVERAL HOURS-IS D I A T E LY R I V ETS H E R GAZE O N THE E Y E S OF H E R D O U B L E . E ROTIC SATISFYING H I M S E L F WITH THAT INTERPRETATION FOR T H E T I M E B E I NG. K E E P I NG H E R L E G I N T H E A I R A S THOUGH I N A STI R RUP.H A I RED. THE SC E N E CONTI N U E S : IN A LL LI K E L I HOOD HER SI NGU LARLY RIGID T H E L I TT L E FLOWER-GI R L I S N O W A WA K E N I NG AS THOUG H FROM A D R E A M LESS S L E E P AND I MME­ POS I TION.C O V E R E D ETC.P E A R L THORNS LIKE A C H R I ST I A N T R A N S L U C ENT. V E I LS. WAS D A R K. HER G E N I T A LS.R EST. F O R T H I S I S T H E E FFECT PRODUCED BY HER FEATURES-MORE C H I L D L I K E T H A N EVER-I N SC IOUS OF A N A NO M A L Y W H I C H DO E S NOT F A I L TO C A U S E H I M M I S G I V I NGS: NO O N E H E R E S E E M S TO NOTICE HIS PRESENCE. (FULL W E D D I NG GOWNS. V E R Y D A R K . THE S H A R PLY T O T H E S I D E A N D H E R A N K L E T O TOUCH. SINCE HE C A NNOT H A V E B E C O M E I N V I S I B L E ( E V E N U N D E R TH E MAGIC S P E L L OF THE HOLLOW M ES S A G E . A S SOON A S S H E C A N N O LON G E R HOLD H E R FROM HER PRESCRI B ED POSE. THE ONLY THE G L A R E OF T H E P ROJ ECTORS.A P P L E I l . O F THE WASP-CORSET S H E W E A R I NG A N D NOTH I NG E LSE. HOW E V E R.H A I RED. S H E D D I N G AS S H E D O E S SO T H E L I G H T E M B ROI D E R E D L A C E V E I L THAT HAD PA RTLY C O NC E A LE D HER TORSO. K N OWN A S "TH E BA RTER E D B R I DE. A S GOLDEN A N D U ND U LATING A S A F I E L D O F R I P E N E D W H EAT. BOOTS. H O L D I N G THE G I R L PRISON E R I N T H E C H A I R : O N E A T THE TOP O F THE STRAIGHT BACK AND O N E AT E AC H END O F T H E ARM-RESTS.P E A R L B U TT E R F L I E S ARE C L I N G I N G TO HER BLONDE TRESSES. CONC U R RENTLY THE OVA L W E A R I NG N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES I S NONE OTH E R THA N HIS OWN R E FLECTION IN A SIDE M I RROR." B E G I N S W I TH A PRESENTATION O F W E D D I N G C O ST U M E S PHANOUS. R EFLECTI NG MOREOV E R I N T H E C E N T R E O F T H E OVA L M I RROR I N V E N E TI A N C RYSTA L LYING O N T H E FLOOR BEFORE H E R TO N E A R THE OPERA H O U S E . WHICH A R E EXPOSED I N FULL V I EW D U E T O T H E W I D E A NGLE PRODUC E D M A K E S H I FT C H E M I S E O F T H E WRY YOUNG WHORE. W H E N H E R L E G S W E R E P U L L E D APA RT. TH U S FORC I NG HER KNEE TO BEND D I STU R B I N G VISION. U N ATTA I N A BLE.H E A D E D MAN LIGHT PA RTY B A LLOONS FLOATING S I LVERY I N T H E C U BE-SH A P E D ROOM. MOTHE R-OF. AS W E L L AS THE BRACE LETS AROUND THONGS HER F I R M LY W R I STS.). W I T H H E R S M A LL R O U N D B R E A STS. CROWNED WHO IS TIA RAS. M I R RO R A N D TH E ROSES LYING H E LTER-SKELT E R NOW BLEND I NTO AND VA R IOUS WITH DECORATIVE OBVIOUS MOTIFS. FRANCIS A B R U PT L Y B E C O M E S C O N ­ OF S O M E A RT I F I C E OR OTH ER. R I S E S TO FEET WITH P I R O U ETTE. J U ST B E LOW THE LOW E R BLACK A R C. T H E ARE DIS­ W ELL-A N D FRAGILE I N T H I S CASE I T DOES-TE M PLE. ON THE STAGE. OR N E A RLY.

THERE I S A FURTH E R CHANGE IN THE LIGHTING AND S U D D E N LY F R O M TH E S H A DOWS SEVERAL B I R O CAGES EM ERGE. ERS W H O H A V E J UST VICTI M IZED TWO OR TH REE OF THE I N M ATES. TOR N OR M I S MATC H E D PIECES OF CLOTHI NG). LONE A N D PERHAPS FAMISHED. A K I M BO. H A V E NOTH I NG COV E R I NG THEM BUT BLACK MESH TIGHTS. TEM PLE I S FRIGHTENED. ONE OF THEM. THE EFFECT OF THIS THAT PROFANE. I N S I D E O F W H I C H HUGE JET­ BLACK RAVENS B E A T T H E I R W I N GS . COULD FIT TH E R E I N ) . SHE I S STI L L BUT NOW A DEATH FIGURE APPEARS I N THE PARADE (THE BI R DS WERE PROBABLY ITS HARBINGER). THE G I R LS A PPROACH A N D G R E ET THE N E WLY C H O S E N ONE. THE G I R L SUDDENLY INVERTED A N D FI LLS WITH V E I N S. THEIR LEGS STERN N UNS. T H E I R GENITALS O N DISPLAY. COSTUM E D S O AS T O EVOKE ASSOCIATIONS-oFTE N MACABRE-WITH WHITE V E I LS A N D BLACK M E S H . SOM E A R E I LLUSIONS. CYLINDRICAL I N S H A P E AND O F V A ST PROPORT I O N S (IF CROUCHED. LIGHT AND INTIMATE UNDERCLOTH­ ING WHOSE VESTAL WHITENESS ONLY S E RVES TO EM PHASIZE ITS LICENTIOUSNESS. TH E BETTER TO SHOW OFF THE ARTICLES PRESENTED. F I N G E R S S P R EA D . A N D HER AWAREN ESS OF W H A T IS A RO U N D H E R B E G I N S T O F A D E . KNEE­ HIGH BOOTS A N D A DOG LEASH OF BRAIDED LEATHER THAT H A N G S ABOUT H E R N E C K A N D DOWN TO H E R B ELLY W H E R E IT DANGLES BETWEEN H E R LEGS. BY THE G L A S S TURNED T O S P O N G E A N D T H E FLOOR T H E SAME. A R E M I N D E R OF T H E THE LITTLE G I R L I S NOW ON THE OTHE R S I D E OF T H E M I R ROR WHOSE SI DES SHE HAS P U S H E D A PART TO STEP TH ROUGH THE FRAME MORE EASI LY. TOWA RDS W H I C H TEMPLE S E N S E S S H E I S BEING SUCKED. HAS OFTEN B E E N CA PITAL I N EFFECTI NG THE DISCREET CAPTUR E OF MANY A PRISONER IN THE PALACE OF I LLUSION. H A L F­ ANOTHER. S H E FEELS FAI NT. PANTHER SKINS MARBLED A N D TATTE R E D C H L A ­ MYDES. FEATH ERS. . A N D THE I R LONG HAIR. THE S U RVIVORS CONTEM­ PLATE T H E SA C R I F I C E D BO D I E S W I T H O U T T H E S L I G HT E S T V I S I B L E E M OT I O N .I N SPLE N D I D SHOP I M PO R T A N C E OF THE W I N DOWS O F TH E AND WHOSE DRESSED (SOMETI MES EVEN LESS SO. T H EY APPEAR AT T H I S POI NT IN THE NARRATIVE (EVEN THOUGH O N E DOES NOT EXACTLY SUDDEN U N D E RSTA N D TH E REFERENCE) OLD AS REASON FOR T H I S SHE FALLS DIZZI LY FORWARD. O N E O F TH E M TAKES POND E ROUS BUT SI LENT FLIGHT AND PERCHES ON THE U N PROTEC- ONCE AGA IN. OR R EC L I N I NG O N COUCHES A M I DST T H E H EAPED PI LLOWS. ROSE WITH A GOLDEN H E A RT.A N D STOC K I NGS THAT EACH GARTER SPORTI NG A REFLECTION SEEMS BLURRED TO H ER. THE PEARLS A R E DEC K E D IN SUCH A 77 . FLEECE SHADI NG H E R P U B I S WITH S I LKY DOWN. . TABLEAU SUGGESTS TH E PASSAGE O F BARBA R I A N CUSTO�. HER BLONDE H A I R TRACES A W A V Y PATH DOWN H E R B A C K . A NOTHER I S W E A R I NG O N L Y H E R SOFT. THE WOM E N ARE SEATED P R I M LY I N PADDED A R M C H A I R S A N D O N VELVET D A R K R E D SOFAS. H E R L E G S SOMEWHAT APA RT. AS THOUGH BY A GIGA NTIC S E A ­ A N E M O N E . ONE AFTER FINDS H ERSELF I N A VAST BOURGEOIS DRAWING ROOM WITH ITS OVERLY OR NATE DECORATIONS AND I N WHICH T H E YOUNG I M MOBILE WOM E N S E E M TO BE WAITI NG THE H A B I T U E S OF TH E HOUSE. S H E CLOSES H E R EYES. AS THOUGH IT MIGHT DISSOLVE. HER BUDDING WAY AS T O MAKE ONE F E A R ( O R HOPE FOR) T H E WORST A S FAR AS TH E G I R LS' F A T E IS CONCERNED. AS THOUGH THE FA SHION DI SPLAY I N WHICH THEY TDOK PART HAS LEFT THEM WITH O N LY TATTER E D. THE M I R ROR'S LIQU I D I S HALT AT M I D-THIGH. S E V E R A L D I S P L A Y T H E P E R F E C T I O N OF TH E I R NAKED BREASTS WITH TH E I R H EADS NEARLY C I RCLED BY ENORMOUS H A LOS THAT RECALL TH E ONES ON BYZA N TI N E SAI NTS A N D U PON WHICH. H E R D E D A LONG BY SEVERAL LYING U PON ORI ENTAL RUGS OR A N I M A L S K I N S I N THE MOST R E L A X E D OF POSES. HER WEARI NG ONLY H E R LONG BLACK GLOVES-oNE I S RESTING ON H E R H I P A N D THE OTH E R CUPS H E R CHIN. L I K E SALOME BEFORE H E ROD. A C C U STO M E D ­ APPARENTLY-TO THESfi: EXACTIONS. S H E STANDS FACING THE PUBLIC. S I LENTLY. OR SOM ETI M ES AN ARRAY O F N EG LIGEES. C H A R LES-BORIS. A U R EO L E D WITH THOSE FLUTTERING WEDOING V E I LS ON DISPLAY A WHI LE AGO-AS M E NTIO N E D . S H E TURNS TOW A R D T H E TALL B A R OQ U E M I R R O R B E H I N D H E R . PERHAPS EVEN LIFELESS.W A I ST A L R E A D Y P E R C E PT I B L E . B U T MANNEQUINS ARE ON FASHION GRACEFUL PARADE. SOFT AND Y I E LDING. A S THOUGH U NCONSCIOUS. T H E I R H E A DS TH R O W N B A C K . AND DEATH OF THE RIGHT NOW K I NG . THE RAVENS H OW E V E R HAVE BEEN RELEASED FROM TH E I R C A G E S A N D T H E Y A R E P E R C H E D H E R E AND T H E R E U PON T H E C A R V E D CORNICES OF T H E FURNITUR E OR ON THE PEDIMENTS OF THE M I R RORS. THE NEXT ONES. I S W E A R I NG NOTH ING BUT J EWELS I N A RABESQUE PATTE R N S ON H E R S K I N . THOUGHTFU LLY C O N S I D E R I N G THE ELE­ GANT DRESS M A K E R-SLAVES AS THEY SPREAD AT HER FEET TH E TRAPPINGS. THE F R I L LS AND THE F L O U N C E S F O R THE S A C R I F I C E . COSTU M E D L I K E B R I DES FOR THE CEREMONY.

THE BALD H E A D OF T H E N A R RATOR. A NOTH ER. BUT CONC EALI NG H E R VULVA. WANTING TO BE STROKED. R A N G I N G F R O M BEG­ GA R'S RAGS O R A TURN OF THE CENTU RY BATHI N G COST U M E TO A S INGLE F U L L . SPREADS HIS ROYA L GIRL FEIGNS I N D EC I S I O N TO C O N C E A L HER DUPLICITY. R EFLECTED I N WHAT? A N D WHERE? ONE OF TH E NUNS GOES U P TO TEMPLE AND THE DEPTHS O F A LOOKING GLASS. R. CORPU LENT. 9. A N D TO WAIT WITH THEM I N THE A R MC H A I R OF THE DRAWING ROOM WHOSE YOUNGEST ORNAMENT SHE WILL BE. R:S HAND HOLDING THE R A I L. MOVES AWAY FROM HER CAR. 1 0. T H E N S H E TRIES O N VARIOUS OUTFITS DESIGNED TO A RO U S E THE I NTEREST OF A CERTA I N C A TEGORY O F C US TO M E R.ROYAL. WITH TH E PROBABLE I NTENTION OF PERSUA DING HER TO REJOI N H E R COMPANIONS. PLATFORM OF B U S TRAVELLING TOWARD THE PALAI 5. 78 .B LO W N ROSE PLUMAGE. B. DISAPPEARS I NTO T H E C ROWD. AT H E R FEET LIES A LION S K I N EVOKI NG SOMETH I NG THAT M UST H A V E OCCURRED ELSEWH E R E I N TH E N A R RATIVE. R. 1 2. R. THE CONDUCTOR TA LKING TO A PASSENGER. THE LITTLE ALAIN ROBBE-G R I LLET TRA NSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE 7. 8 BIS. GOES QUICKLY I N S I D E THE BUS. W H E R E SHE DOES NOT EVEN NOTICE. THE PASSENGER (FAT. TALL). BOARDS A STREET BUS. E R ECT IN ALL ITS GLORY. 1 1 . AGAI NST THE NAKED BREASTS OF A DOOM E D CAPTI VE WHO IS HA LF-RECLI N I NG O N A CA NOPY. 1 3. 8 TER. S ITS I N A COR N E R SEAT NEAR AN OPEN W I N DOW. R.TEO BELLY OF AN U NCONSCIOUS G I R L. H E GLANCES AT R. I F S H E DOES NOT BEHAVE S H E W I L L BE LOC K E D I NS I D E THE D E A D DOLL SHOP. W H I SPERS A FEW I N A U D I B L E WORDS T O HER. TH E H A N D OF THE CORPULENT PASSENGER SLIDING A LONG THE R A I L TO R:S FINGERS W H I C H A R E SLOWLY COV E R E D BY T H E H A N D.

A M B I G U O U S S E X .

A STATE I N O R D E R T O BECOME SOM ETHING OTH E R T H A N THAT WHICH THE R E PR E S S I V E SOCI A L BODY H A S FORCED US TO BE. OR M O R E P R E C I S E LY. BUT TO MAKE BODIES. R E L A TI O N S H I P BODIES. SUCCEED I N ESTA B L I S H I N G A C E RTA I N K I N D OF R E LATION S H I P T O THE WOR L D'S REA LITY. ETC . W H E R E A S T H E F E M I N I N E BODY I S TRA N S FOR M E D I NTO A N OBJECT OF LUST. J UST AS WO R K E R S . THAT T H E M I R A BELLES HELP US EXPLORE: A MAN WHO LOVES HIS OWN BODY. WOR K . ON GAY LIBERATION! THEY H A V E R E CO U R S E TO A BEST IT C A N ! I N F A C T IT DESERTS MAN'S B O D Y I N O R D E R T O E M I G RATE T O THE SIDE OF THE WOM A N . WOM E N . IT IS A US QUESTION OF A DIFFER ENT BECOM ING. A PI ECE OF M E RC H A NDISE TO WHICH ONE CANNOT HAVE AND BY M E C H A N SI M S ACCESS EXC E PT THROUGH GUI LT TO ALL THE SYSTE M'S ( M A R R I AG E . Irs T H I S MOVEM E N T. M I M E. AND LONG TIRADES OF GOOD INTENTIONS. W H A T I S ESSENTI A L H E R E I S NOT T H E OBJECT I N Q U E S T I O N . DESPITE T H E S E X U A L E X P LO I T A T I O N W H I C H T H E Y U N D E RGO. BREAK AWAY FROM THE REPRESENTATIONS AND RESTRAI NTS OF THE "SOC I A L BODY. T O STIR UP U NC E RTA I N D E S I RE·ZONES THAT H E ALWAYS M O R E OR LESS R E F U S E S TO EXPLORE.4. FOR EXAM PLE. SUBMISSION A LW A Y S S E C R ETLY C H A RA C T E R I Z E D BY A "BE· C O M I NG·WO M A N . ETC . A S PSYCHOANA LYSTS B E L I EV E . ATTITUDES A N D BEHAVIORS. A LL BODIES. T O TH E BECOMI NG·WOMA N SIDE. A M A N WHO LOVES A WOM A N'S BODY OR ANOT H E R M A N'S IS H I MSELF THIS IS OF COURSE TO T H E TRANSVESTI S M . SUCCEED IN E ST A B L I S H I N G PRI MARILY ON A C E RT A I N T R U E THEY LIVE THIS L E V E L O F TH E I R R E LATIONSH I P T O DESIRE. BUT I N O R D E R T O TROUBLE H I M . I N ST E A D . A THEATRE S E PARATE FROM AN E X P L A N ATO R Y LA N G U AGE. OF THE "BREAST PLATE" OF W H I C H W I L H ELM REICH SPOKE. NOT AS D i F F E R E NT WAYS O F f LLUSTR. " E V E N LESS TO WOU L D HAVE THE MUCH WOM A N .. DESPITE THE E XPLOITATION O F T H E I R WOR K POWER. F A M I LY. 1 .TING TH E: M E . H A S T O M A NAGE A S B O U R G E O I S I E IS NOTH I N G WITHOUT T H E PROLE· BO ." A N D FROM STER EOTY P E D SITUATIONS. TO "CHANGE THE I D E AS" OF THE SPECTATOR. DANCE. AND THE AND I F A T T H E ECONOM I C L E V E L TH E DESIRE. B U T T H E T R A N S FO R M A T I O N A L M OV E M ENT.I H A V E EVEN M ET H A PPY T R A V E LOS THE M I R A BELLES A R E EXPE R I M E NTI NG WITH A NEW TYPE OF M I LITANT THEATRE. SONG. I M PL I E S T H A T THE SOCI A L BODY I S POLA R I Z E D IN M A S C U L I N I TY. D I F F E R E N T THAT A N I D E NTI FICATION MOTHER. T H E QUESTION IS NO LO N G E R TO K N OW W H E T H E R ONE W I L L P L A Y F E M I N I N E AGA INST M A S C U L I N E O R T H E REVERSE. T H I S PASSAGE. S E X U A L A L I E N A T I O N . ON THE OTH E R H A N D. O N E OF C A P I T A L I S M 'S FOU N DATIONS.

THE DINER WAS A R E MODELED H A N D. M A S T U R B A T I O N T R I GG E R E D B Y POLLY'S F U RT I V E R E A D I NG S WAS UNMASKED AS PAUL.WO M A N . TH E M I R A BELLES WORK. THE S E R I O U SLY: MORE (TH E I R SOMETH I N G " S E R I O U S!" I M P O RT A N T T H A N MOTTO: WHAT CODI FICATION O F ATTITUDES A N D C L A S S STRATI FI­ CATION. WAS ACCOM PLISHED BY M E A N S O F A N A D ROIT F I N G E R I NT R O D U C E D UNDER TH E PREPUCE THE A N D TWI R L E D COUNTER­ R E S U LTS W E R E LONG HERE IN M I D-ECSTA SY. AND T H I S M E R E L Y A D D S TO TH E CON FUSION.I N A N D -OUT OF THAT N IGHT ( M I S S T H R I P P E FOOTNOTE. STRATI FICATIONS REFUSAL TO BY M I LITANTS ( FO R THE EXAM­ CON­ "T R A N S V E ST E D AND . F R O M W H E N C E C O M E S TH E I R DEPENDENCE ON THE WO M A N ' S BODY OR TH E WOM A N I M AG E W H I C H H A U NTS TH E I R D R E A M S A N D TH E I R O W N BOD I E S . ON THE C O N T R A RY. H E R / H I S P A R E NTS H A D DEC I D E D O N F E M A LE I S S U E A N D W H E N POLLY A P P E A R E D W E A R I N G THE USUAL FROM TH E USUAL FUM BLINGS B E FO R E THEIR N U PT I A L A N D S O THEY W E R E QUITE U N P R E P A R E D F O R WHATEV E R OCC U R E D. ONCE H I S A LA F L A S H LIGHT PANTS WERE DOWN THOROUGHLY. BUT A L S O THE M A S S OF PEOPLE WHO C RETE A L I E NATION O F WOM E N A N D C H I LD R E N . H A LLOWE E N WHICH A LSO H A P P E N E D TO B E HER/HIS WEDDI NG NIGHT. ALL WE DO KNOW. E V E N I F I T I S A M I LITANT G H ETTO: WHAT I N T E R ESTS T H E M IS THAT SHOWS LIKE T H E I R S TO UCH NOT ONL Y HOMOSEX U A L C I RCLES. AGE C LA SS E S . IT COU RSE WAS I N E V I TA B L E : OUTS I DE A N A UTOMOBILE PLANT I N W I N DSOR M EWS. MEN A R E N'T IF THEY M UC H DO WHERE BOD I E S ARE A R E A L D E S I R E S O F T H E PEOPLE I M PL I E S THAT O N E I S C A PABLE OF L I STE N I NG TO H I S O W N D E S I R E A N D TO THAT OF H I S MOST I M M E D I ATE ENTOURAGE. A LTHOUGH THE FOOTNOTE B R E A KS OFF UNDER M I D N IGHT BLA N K ETS. CAN AS R E PORTS AS ARE CON­ M A LE ACCOUTR E M E NTS. LISTE N I NG FOR THE POLLY ORlAND PAUL POLLY WAS SECRETLY A M A N IN WOM A N'S PANTIES. S H E / H E FOU N D THE EXPOSU R E OF HAPPENED ON BUT WE FEEL I T S H O U LD GO INTO TH E DOSS I E R A N YWAY. MAY EVEN BE A POC R Y P H A L ) . WH ITE M I STA K E N FOR TH E M E N ST R U A L FLOW AND POLLY DUTIF ULLY MASTURBATED ONCE EIGHT TIM E DAYS. ACTUA LLY. WHICH REGARD TO ECONOMIC S E X U A L E X PLOITATION C A N NOT B E D I S S OC I ATED. A S C E R TA I N (TH I S IGNORED POLLY'S ADDENDA. THAT DOESN'T AT A L L M E A N THAT W E SHOULD PUT CLASS STRUGG LES WAY DOWN ON T H E LA D D E R B E N EATH DESIRE STRUGG L E S .TA R I AT. AT POS S E S S I V E R E S P E CT FOR P R I V ATE LIFE AND THE DOMI NATI NG A TTI T U D E S . BOUNC I NG R I NG LETS UNTI L TWELVE YEARS OF AGE AND BANGS A FTERWARDS W E LL I NTO THE P U B L I C Y E A R S . C L OC K W I S E . MODESTY A N D T E N A C ITY. AND PA U L. WITH M UCH P R E D A TO R Y A DO P T IN SEXUAL B E H A VI O R S THEM. I M ITATION OF TH E S E SA M E S E G R EGATIONS AND PLE. LONG E V E N THOUGH B E TW E E N E V E R Y TWENTY­ ALAS. ) AND J U ST DON'T FEEL GOOD A BOUT TH E M S E LVES. T R A N SVESTED G R E E N B E A N " . E TC . NO ONE S E E M S TO KNOW ANYTHI NG AT ALL A BOUT THE ACTUA L GOI NGS. OR W H I C H T H E Y PROJ ECT ONTO THEIR HOMOSEXUAL COM E S TH E TO PARTNE R'S BODY. FROM TO J U NCTU R E B E TW E E N TH E M BRING WHENCE WHICH COUNTER-D E P E N D E NC E REDUCE WOM E N OR U N E XPECTED E N E RGY TO THE FORM E R. FOOTNOTE ON A N E W E NZYM E S H E D I SCOVERED I N T H E A M A N ITA V I ROSA W H I C H PROVES CONC L U S I V E ­ LY T H A T M O S T DEATH A R E PSYCHOSOMATIC) POLLY POLLY. POLLY'S PARTNE R (WE S H A LL CALL HIM PA U L FOR A M B IGUITY'S SAKE) HAD R E F R A I N E D D A N I E L S LOATE 81 . BUT THEY THEM E S P EC I A LLY DON'T W A N T U S TO T A K E THEY ARE S T R U G G L I NG FOR IS B U R E A UC R A C I E S AND TH E B O U RG E OI S I E M A I NTA I N TH E I R POWE R BY B A S I NG T H E M S E L V E S ON S E X U A L SEGR EGATION. MON ETA RY C R I SI S . TH E I R COLLECTI V E H E R/ H I S P A R E NTS PUT FAR M I SS T H R I P PE . THEY TRY THE THEY AND THAT IS TH E " F R ONT" ON WHICH. CONSTITUTES O N E O F T H E FOU N DATIONS O F THE PRESENT B U R E A UCRATIZATION OF TH E REVOLU­ F E L I X G U A TTA RI TRANSLATED BY RAC H E L McCOMAS TION A R Y WORKER'S M O V E M ENT. FROM A IDS TOGETH E R A N D S I M PLY POLLY WAS RAISED LIBRARIAN. FLICTING. RACES. W H AT I NTER ESTS THEM IS TO H E LP TO J PULL LOOK C LO S E LY AT HOMOS E X U A LITY O U T O F ITS G H ETTO. I S THAT PA U L A N D POLLY O P E N E D A D I N E R P E RIODS. .C A R . W A S B A S I C A LLY A POLLY. WILL EACH AN CONC E R N E D NOT ACHIEVE SUCH B E C O M I N G. AT BO U R G E O I S S E P A R A T I O N O F PUBLIC ACTIV ITY.

S H E WA NTS IT. THE D I S S OC I AT I O N OF THE TWO BECA M E C L E A R THAT TH E PROGRESSIVE FILLING UP OF MY BODY WITH (FEMI NINE) V O L U PTUOUS N E RVES H A D THE OPPOSSITE EFFECT. S I N C E T H E S U F F E R I NG I S E X PO S E D T O H I S EYES A N D G I V E N T O H I S H E A RT. T O A B A N DO N M E . SOM ETI M E S A LSO BY PUTTING M E TO DEATH A N D. T H E M A I N IDEA WAS A LWAYS TO H A V E M E STRA N D E D." LIKE A REAL G I R L. I I MA G I N E D THE CONTRADICTED IT WAS A THE CONSERVATION THER EFORE. THERE­ ST I N C T . D I D I CONTI N U A LLY S E E MY REAL E N E M Y. IT H A D TO H E L P GOD BY EVERY EVEN O N LY IF IT MEANT LAT E R BEING THAT I OTH E R MEANS N E RVES L . OR RATH ER. 1 .USE ME LET US R E R E A D P R E S I D E N T SC H R E B E R'S M E MOIRES: "TH E R E M A R K PREVIOUS H A S A L R E A DY THAT BEEN THE MADE RAYS I N THE (GOD'S BUT F I RST. LATER. IN TRYING T O S U S P E N D T H E ATTRAC­ WOR DS. A N D IN­ OF T H E N . WHO W A NTS THIS S C A N D A L. M A G D A L E N E A S J E S U S. WHO C O N V E RTS THI S SUFFERING I NTO 82 . SACRI FICED. OR P I LATE. S H E I S S I M I L A R T O A M A RTYR. O R I N HIS SOU L. R E S U LTA NT VOLUPTUOUS D E LIGHT WITH I N M Y BODY W A S IN FACT I N C R E A S I N G THE POWER OF ATTRAC­ TION. S H E TESTI F I E S THROUGH H E R H U M I LI ATION. AS MY A LLY. J. TH R E A TE N E D FOR E . AS ON A PROSTITUTE'S BODY. THE P R OC U R E R AS THE ECONOMICAL I N STA NCE. WAS MUCH B EC A M E CON V I N C E D THAT GOD H I M S E L F H A D B E E N A N ACCO M P L I C E I F N OT A UTHOR OF T H E PLOT S E T U P TO K I LL M Y SOU L A N D PROSTITUTE M Y BODY L . THIS F E M I N IZATION? " I T W A S P E RFECTLY N A T U R A L THAT FROM A HUMAN PO I N T OF V I EW DOMI NATING ME C H A PT E R S N E RVES) W H I C H WERE ATTRACTED." A N D. A LOSS OF T H E I R OWN E X I STENCE. A N D I N T H I S R EG A R D. W H I C H AT TH E TI M E S E E M E D POS S I B L E T O ACCOMPLISH BY PUTTING A P R I C E ON MY BODY. . Q U E ST I O N . SC H R E B E R A DDS. TO GET AWAY FROM MY I THOUGHT I POSSI B L E . BUT A LSO H E ROD. "AS F A R AS THE ATTEM PTS AT TRAN SFORMATION ARE CONC E R N E � IT SOON THE P ROSTITUTE A C C E PTS P ROSTITUTION I N T H E N A M E OF A S U PE R I O R I N T E REST. L I K E A R E A L WHORE. A L M IGHTY D I V I N I TY W H O M I P E R C E I V E D I N D A N G E R . BY P ROFESSOR FLECHSIG. SHE B E G I N S TO TESTIFY A G A I N ST H E R P R OC U R E R . CON STA NTLY TION. . O N LY I N PROFESSOR FLECHSIG ISCH E B E R'S A N A LYSTl. THAT THE I N STA NCES (GOD A N D P I M P) I S STI L L N A I V E : G O D A S THE A FFECTIVE I N STANCE. OF T H E WAS HE CARRIED D E N C E? AWAY BY T H E POW E R D E PEN­ SINCE H E R E I T IS F L E C HSIG. BY THE DESTRUCTION OF MY INTELLIGENCE ( BY D R I V I NG M E M A D). CONSENTED TO T H I S ATTRACTION A G A I NST TH E I R W I L L BEC A U S E IT L E D TO THUS.

I F FLECHSIG I S THIS VERTIGO'S NAME. NESS? FOR S U REI BUT TH ERE IS NOT A REASON TO DISREGARD THE STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS: I NSTENSITY H I DES IN SIGNS AND I NSTA NCES. THE PIMPS] HAVE ALL THE TI M E THEY N E E D TO GET YOU. I'M SURE. . BUT IT I S A LSO THIS SA DO-M ASOCHI STIC LINK THAT I N THE END MAKES YOU FEEL SOMETHING TOWA RDS YOU R PROC U RERS. A SAVAGE JOY MIXED WITH SHAME. AS WE HAVE SEEN. J U ST THE SOU N D OF H E AVY BR EATH I NG. LIKE THE FEELING O F LIVING YOU R LIFE SEVERAL T I M ES ALL AT ONCE WITH U NBELIEVABLE INTENSITY. MORE AND MORE M A D. THE MI DDLE OF A PROCESS O F D I S S I M U LATION." THAT N A M E LESS WHY GIVE I T TH E N A M E O F SA DO­ SOMETHING. IF THE PROPER NOUN I S THE PIMP OR GOD. TH E I N STANCE OF IF NOT MORE ASYLU M: SUCH LAW OF T H E MOB. BECAUSE. TO B E LONG A N D TO FEEL FREED FROM APPEAL APPEARS TO B E J UST AS C R I M I N A L THAN THAT OF THE C R I M E. FREEDOM. TH I S ORDER CAN 83 . R E G A R D I N G T H I S VERTIGO. JOY TO E N D U R E AND TO HOLD OUT. A S I N THE GOOD OLD M A STER­ SLAVE D I A L ECTIC. COMING TO MY M I ND.D O C T O R A C Q U I R E S H I S L I B I D I N A L D I M E NSION: T H E O R D E R O F T H E WORLD. MORE A N D MORE "DEAD. THE P I M P OR TH E COM M U N ITY OF PIMPS I S TOO. IT I S A LSO THE OCCASION OF TH I S U NSPEAKABLE "SOMETHI NG. IT I S P E R H A PS THE FEM I N I N E ORGASM THAT ATTRACTS TH E BOD I E S TO BLIND M I X I NG: THUS SCH REBER WANTS TO BE MORE WOMAN A N D MORE PROSTITUTE. YOU NEVER FIND T H I S INTENSITY I N . IT M U ST E X I ST FOR ALL W O M E N . BEYOND SENTIM ENTS. "SOM ETI M E S THE PHONE WOULD R I NG. IT IS BEYOND LOVE AND HATE. THERE WOULD B E NOTHI NG. BEING LOCKED U P. AND THIS IS I M PORTANT: "TH I S I DEA E M E RGED ONLY MUCH LATER. MAKING A PROFIT. FLECHSIG AND GOD. WHEN P A L M S AND LOOKS ARE EXHAUSTED. T H I S C A N BE CON S I D E R E D AS THE EFFORT OF T H E CREATURE TO REACH THE LEVEL OF THE DIVI N E O M N I T E M PORALITY: "EVEN WHEN I WAS LIVING ALONE I N MY STUDIO. T H I S I S WHY SCH R E B E R WANTS TO B E ALL WOMEN A N D WOMAN ALL T H E T I M E . THE TWO NAMES. THE PI M PS TH EMSELVES F E E L THAT "SOMETHI NG" WHEN THEY PUNISH. THIS SOMETHING H A S NO N A M E. EVEN I N A M ERICA I F THEY WANT. CHECKING I F I W E R E H O M E I . ACCORDING TO HIM. GOD AND THE "EGO" DOESN'T FALL INTO D E P E N DENCE ONLY BECAUSE O F A M I S E RABLE FLUCTUATION IN T H E POWER G A M E. . M ERGE. EVEN IN THE M I DDLE OF THE NIGHT.CASH." T H E Y WOULD HANG U P. A N D T H E N . AND T H E R EFORE. I S T H E I LLUSION O F A N EGO: "TH EY HAD SUCCEEDED SINCE FROM THEN ON I E X I STED ONLY THROUGH THEM.PONT. IT I S A DRUG. THUS IGNORING IT AS STATE OF D E P E N D E NC E . T H I S EXTR E M E D E P E N D E N C E C A N BE M A N I P U LATED BY T H E WOM A N AS A W E A PO N AGAINST THE M ASTER. ONLY AS I WAS WRITING THI S PI ECE. WHEN T H E SCORCHED FLECHSIG. THE N THE P I M P. WHAT DI SAP­ P E A R S I N T H E P U N I S H M E NT. XAVIERE SAYS W H A T IS ESSENTIA L: "TH E P U N I SH­ M E NT IS AGA I N THE WAY TO GET A H U MAN B E I NG TO ACCEPT THE UNACCEPTA BLE. THE PUNISHMENT I S A DECISIVE ELEM ENT: IT IS CALLED P E R SECUTION BY SCH REBER. GOD IS ALSO PERSEC UTING M E ." SCHREBER WANTS TO B E T H E PROSITUTE O F GOD. I S IT A QUESTION OF INTU ITION RATH E R THAN I NTENSITY? A N D AT TH I S . I N EVERY COUPLE AT LEAST ON A M I NOR OR U NCONSCIOUS LEVEL. NORM A L LI FE"). I S R E A L LY VIOLATED BY TH E PROJECT OF M Y TRANSFORM ATION I NTO WOM A N ( PROSTI­ TUTE): THERE I S NO I N STANCE OF A PPEAL. BUT YOU M I SS IT FOREVER. HE I S NOT THE HONEST J UDGE WHO R EC E I V E S M Y S U F F E R I NG. W H E R E EVERYBODY WANTS TO PUT H I M. MASOC H I S M AS SHE SUGGESTS? H E R E WE ARE IN SCHREBER PROTESTS: HIS FIGHT TO GET OUT OF M E NTA L I NSTITUTION S." AND EVEN WHEN SHE QUIT HER JOB. W H E R E WITH XA V I E R E WE THOUGHT WE HAD FO U N D T H E STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS ("I WOULDN'T SAY I REGRET THI S LIFE. REDUCED TO A EARTH HAS NO TACTICS LEFT. HE W A NTS T O E X P E R I E NC E P L E A S U R E L I K E A WOM A N AND GIVE GOD PLEASURE. OF FLECHSIG-GOD'S PLEASURE: THERE IS (A) CONTl NU· OUS WOMAN. THEN. I N THE D E A D OF N IGHT." IN THE CONSTITUTUTION O F T H I S A M B I V A L E N C E WHICH MIXES UP GOD AND P I M P. THEREFORE R E V E A L I NG IT A N D EXPLOITING IT I N THE DUPLICITY OF S U FF E R I NG-JOUISSANCE. I F NOT AS H I S LOVER." SAYS XAVIERE LAFONT. IS THE R ELEGATED TO TH E HERE SUCH. I S THE SA M E STRUGGLE A S THAT OF A G I R L TO GET AWAY FROM THE U N D ERWORLD AND THE WHOREHOUSE/R E D LIGHT D I STRICT W H E R E S H E IS C O N F I N E D."). IT I S LIKE COCA I N E. IN THE S UCCEEDING MOMENT. W H E N P E N I S A N D VU LVA ARE I N TATTERS. SHOULD W E M A K E ROOM FOR POWER AND ITS COM PLICITY WITH EVERY WEAK­ HOURS. I C A NNOT REALLY EXPLA I N I T. I N LOVE. . I DARE SAY. A FORM E R PROSTITUTE OF RATHER GREAT N OT E R I ETY. SAYS SCH REBER. . "T H E P H O N E W O U L D R I N G AT A L L BETTER. AND ON TH E OTHE R END. A N D T H E " I N C E S S A N T LY" A N D BUT OF COURSE. IN THE SUCCEEDING TI M E FRAM E (THE MOMENT OF WRITING." I N ORDER TO SEDUCE FLEC H S I G A N D GOD EVEN "CONTIN UOUSLY" THAT REA PPEARS U N D E R H I S PEN TO DEFINE T H E NATU RE. H E I S THE PIMP WHO D E M A N D S IT AND USES IT TO MAKE A PROFIT. STI LL IT I S THE SAME AS THE P U N I S H M ENT THAT XAVI ERE M UST E N DURE. . T H E N A T LEAST A S H I S M A STER.G O O . SO.

DO IT FOR THEM. OF H I S A B A N DONI NG OF S E LF. IT IS THE OV E R W H E L M I N G AND "USE ME": AN E N U N C I AT I O N OF V E RT I G I N O U S U N M E DIATED POW E R [PUISSANCE] ITSELF THAT S I M P L I C I TY T H A T I S N 'T M Y ST I C A L B U T R A T H E R MATE R I A LI ST. T H E PROSTITUTE I S A LSO H E R OWN P ROC U R E R. YOU ASK? A N D JUST W H A T D O E S A PROSTI TUTE G E T FROM SELLING TH E MOST U N P REDICTABLE PA RTS O F HER BODY? HER LOOKS. O F C I R C U M V E NTING I T. TH E P I MPS. "USE M E" I S AN O R D E R A N D AN I M PE RIOUS PLEA. TH E R E IS NO D I A LECTIC OF THE SLAVE: NEITHER H E G E L' S NOR LACAN'S D I A LECTIC O F TH E H YSTER IC. H E R SHOES. "DO IT FOR ME. R E I N TROD U C I N G POLITICS. THE DEMAND FOR PASSIVITY IS A DEMA N D FOR SLA V E RY. BECAUSE THE OFFER OF OPEN BUTTOCKS AND A N U S ON THE PART O F THE WOM A N BENT OV E R AS A GLEENER IS NOT A C H A LLENGE WHAT I OF TH E POTLATCH K I ND-" H E R E I S G I V E YOU. NOW. AND THIS O F F E R I NG . T H E PROSTITUTE SCH RE B E R O R J E S U S I N VENTS A N D D E F I N ES H I M SELF BY C A R E F U L P LA N N I NG AS A S U B J ECT. WHEN THE FA NTA SY. O R D E R ." AND NOT: I WANT TO DIE B Y YOUR H A N D. T H E B E LO V E D A N D O M N I P R E S E N T-TH I S O V E R ­ PRICED Q U A LITY IS FIXED BY JESUS AS THE WOM A N : IS NO ME. E. TIONAL HERE OR LIES THE NOT. MY PALMS A N D MY M E M B R A N ES. USES THIS D E M A N D IN ORDER TO BECOME HEAD OR POW E R HE H I M S E LF. "USE ME" TENDS TOW A R D S THE MALE MEMBER E R ECTED ABOVE T H E SMALL O F A BACK. STR ATEGY. THE POLITI C I A N S DENY. PROSTITUTION I S THE R E D E M PT I O N P R I C E OF S I N . SHE WANTS THE L I M ITS OF "OV ER-PR ICED" NATURE OF H I S OFFERING. THIS I NTEN­ LIQ U I FI E S ALL STASES I N T E R MITTENTLY BLOCKING TH E FLUX O F I N T E N S I TY. THEY CONTENT THEMSELVES WITH A MEAN C OM M A N D. C O M I NG FROM BODY EXHAUSTED B Y C A RESSES A N D I N SOM N I A . FORCE. BUT SOMETH I N G COMPLETELY D I FFERENT HA PPENS WITH I N T H I S SMALL O F T H E BACK. THE I LLUSION OF POWER. B U T E V E R YO N E B R EAKSI E V E N P E R V E RTS OR FOOLS ("THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO") W I L L B E R E C U P E R A T E D I NTO THE GRACIOUS B O D Y O F THE C R EA T E R. THE DEMA N D FOR D E PENDENCE IS NOT A PLEA TO BE DO M I N ATED. A COM P L E M E NTI NG POWE R IN A CONFLICT. BUT WHAT SHE ASKS I S THE S U PRESSION O F THE I/YOU R E LATION S H I P ( M A STE R/SLAVE.STI L L A R I S E THROAT TH E R E OF FROM A THE H O A R S E A N D I NT I MATE "USE M E"-TH I S M E A NS. DO Y O U T H I N K? C O M E ONI S H E W A NTS Y O U TO DIE WITH HER. T H E RATIONA LITY OF WAR. A N D G O D I S A P I M P W H O S A Y S TO H I S W I FE JESUS. OVERLOOK E D B Y SADE. THIS I NSTANTA NEOUS SO THAT ULTI MATE ALREADy EXTENSION A N D I N VENTION I S PREC I S E LY WHAT THE MEN OF POWER. THIS SU PPLICATION A P P E A R S A S P U R E R E L I G IO N A S L O N G A S I T REQU ESTS D E P E N D E NCE. B U T NOT B4 . LET U S S E E WHAT YOU HAVE GOT'-IT I S T H E O P E N I NG O F THE L I B I D I N A L BAND. "LETS B E D E AD. I . BOTH PRESU PPOSE A P E R M UTATION OF ROLES WITHIN THE SPACE OF SCHREBER. LETS GET LOST A N D LETS LEAVE T H E POWE R A N D T H E A B J ECT J U ST I F I CATIONS O F T H E R E D E M PTION D I A LECTIC B E H I N D . THE P I M P. C A P A B L E O F CONVERTING PERVERSION. A S H E S A Y S TO POLITICAL A SPECT O F D E P E N DENCE. T H E O NE-WOM A N B A N D? TO B E T H E M ASTER OF H E R MASTE R A N D A L L THAT. A S MASOCH SAYS. T H E T E R R I B L E SCHREBER­ IAN OF DEMIRACLENESS H E S U F F E RS. SOM ETH ING M UC H MORE I M PORTANT. THE MYSTERY OF THE T R I N ITY P R OT E C T I N G H I M S E L F: DOESN'T D A R E PAY ATTENTION T O THE O F F E R . U N DERCOV E R SIGN. N A M ELY THE OFFER TO SUP­ MAN. H EG E L I A N GLOSS OF THE PLEA: BE M Y M ASTER: MAY YOU R WILL BE DONE. OF T H E R E FORE. SUPREME FROM A DECEIT. PRESS THE CENTER. WOULD R E E M E RG E IN TH E ROA R I NG OF U NTI E D PARTI A L ' D R I V ES T H E S U B J ECT F U NCTIONS. I SN'T THIS WHAT JESUS SAID O N THE C ROSS? BUT JESUS CAN ASK FOR D E P E N DENCE BECAUSE HE OFFERS HIS SUFFERING AS S I N ' S SALARY: TH E A L L PA RTS O F H E R BODY. LAC LOS A N D C LA USEWITZ. ALL TH I S IS V I R I L E BULLSH IT. T H E H EA D . S H E . TH E PASSION FOR PASS I V I TY WHICH CAUSES THIS D E M A N D TO BE FOR M U LA T E D IS NOT A SINGLE WHICH IS A LSO THE MYSTERY O F S I M I LI T U D E IS T H E V E R Y M AC H I N E R Y PRODU C I N G T H E M E A N I NG F U L S I G N A N D H I DI N G T HI:: T E N SOR. BUT THERE IS A LSO A L I B I D I N A L A SPECT. YOU BE MY O R I FICES. OR F R E U D . A N D W H A T DO E S SCH R E B E R GET? T H I S I S NOT T H E Q U E STION. THE V I S IO N THE OF ALL OF I MMENSE T A C T I L I TY . TH E SC A N N I NG. J E S U S I S A CALCULATING P ROSTITUTE: YOU M A K E M E D I E . . WHAT DOES SHE W A NT. AND DON'T FORGET THAT AS FLECHSIG. O R BATA I LLE U N DE R ST A N D S IT. BUT RATH E R . HE IS JESUS I S A LSO GOD. A N OVER­ EX PLOITATION OF JOU ISSANCE'S FORCE. HER TA LENTS A S A DRESS M A K E R. SHE WHO D E M A N D S TO BE U S E D I N T H E A R I D ITY A N D EXASPE RATION O F COU R S E . T H I S IS HOW SADE. EVEN IF O N LY IN DO M I NATION. FEEL E V ERYTH I N G CLOSING U P WITH I N ITSELF." WHAT DOES J E S U S GET F ROM ALL TH I S. REVERSIBLE) AND A LSO OF THE R E LA T I O N SH I P O F USE. A N D C A P ITA LIZATION O F L I B I D I N A L I NT E N SI T I T E S I N ORDER TO C R EATE S U R PLUS VALUE. M U C H L E S S A NSWER IT. I T H U RTS. S H E DEMANDS TISSUES. OF A R E LATION SH I P OF DOM I NATION. R E L I N QU I S H I NG SELF P E R PETRATED AND ACCOMPLISHED BY EXCLUSION TO B E FORC E D BACK F U RTHER. I ' L L B E YOU R SACRIFICE A N D YOU R TISSUES. NO EGO. T H E C A PITAL. I N T H I S SENSE.

OP­ ANYMORE. THEY A LWAYS MOVE IN PACKS. "LONG LIVE TH E LIVE AN YWAY.LOC K I N G ITSELF U P. PROSTITUTING TH E WOM E N-MASSES. IF THE WH ITE G U A R DS KILL US. . FROM XAVI E RE: "AT F I RST S I G HT. J. THESE S M A L L TOWN PE RVERTS." W R ITES SCH R EB E R. OR O F E V E RYTH I N G CONTIN­ U A LLY E XT E N D I N G W I T H O U T C O N Q U E R I N G . B E L I E VI NG I TS E L F TISSUES. BUT O F B U K H A R I N HAVE A C H A N C E TO ESCA PE?" IT'S THE WOR D OF A MAN OF THE U N D E RWORLD. C LOSING UP AND DOM I N A T I N G ? T H E G R E E KS. THEY A R E WELL DRESSED. ORGA N I ZA T I O N " ) . LIBIDINA LITY. I DENTI C A L SHE IN WANTS THEM TOG ETH E R TO B E THE CONN ECTIONS O F A L L TH E I R POSED TO TH I S I S THE SE LF-A DHESIVE M E DIOCRITY OF THE VIRILE. THE GAYS WHO MOVE LENIN AND IN PACKS. T H EY A R E N O T N ECESSA RILY H O M O S E X U A L. THE LAST COM M E N T COMES. U N I FY I N G . I F WE COULD BE F R E E D FROM THE D I F F E R E N C E OF SEX. BUT THEY A LMOST COULD BE. " N E V E R ASK WH ETHER W E A R E M A N O R THE DESIRE THAT E V E RYTH I N G BE H A RDLY HAVE TO M A K E I T U P) : "SAY." RATH E R "LONG "WHAT DOES A WOMAN WANT?" ASKS F R E U D. THEY A R E NOT V E R Y GOOD LOVERS." BECAUSE THEY NEED A N ORGA N I ZAT I O N . OF COU RSE. A M E D I OC RITIY S I M I LA R TO THE POLITIC I AN'S. I N L I F E AND B E YOND. CAPITALIZI NG. OFTEN WITH A N TROTS K Y . QUOTING M IGNON'S SONG IN WILHELM MEISTER: CAPABLE UNVEILING AND EX PLOITI NG T H E HYSTERIC O R T H E WOM A N A N D H E R SO-CALLED LIE. EXTE N DING. THEY SEEM TO BE Q U I TE JOVIAL COURSE! W H E N T H E Y T H I N K ABOUT L I FE. E F F E M I NATE FLAIR. SHE WANTS H I M NOT TO WANT A NYTH I N G SIS . A S D E L E U Z E A N D GU ATTA R I PUT I T (AS F O R THEM . OF LA U G H I NG. T H E I N SANE P L E A OF THE M ASSES IS N O T "LONG LIVE SOC I A L I TY" (AND EVEN BUT LESS. CONQU ERI NG. SHE WANTS THE M A N TO BECO M E N E IT H E R MAN NOR J EAN-FRANCOIS L YOTA R D TRANSLATED BY M I C H E L F E H E R A N D TOM G ORA WOMAN. FELLOWS. DO YOU TH I N K SVERDLOV AND CARRI E D AWAY A N D B U R N ED U P I S CALLED B Y T H E GR EAT TH I N K E R S THE DEATH I N STINCT. BUT CA UGHT I N THEIR D I SGUSTING PROPER NOUNS O F RULERS. " I T WOULD BE MORE I N ACCOR DANCE WITH THE REALIZATION OF DESI RE. IT I S WRITTEN I N T H E L E TT E R L E N I N S E N T T O TROTSKY TH ROUGH THE H A LLS O F THE WI NTER PALACE (I "AND THESE C E L E ST I A L FIGURES WOM A N . DON'T THEY A LWAYS T H I N K A BO U T GATH E R I N G .

WE SHOULD MORE P E R H A PS MOLECULAR AND DI STI N G U I S H ONE A SEXUAL ITY. MATTER OF PERVERSION. SADo-MASOCH ISTS. MEN.B ECOMI NG-WOMAN I N T H E GLOBAL SOC I A L F I E LD. ALL TEEN-AGERS. A FIXATION AT TH E PRE-GEN ITA L STAGE. NO LONGER MORAL. THEIR M YTHS OF LOVE ( M YTHES AMOU REUXI AS R E N E N E LLI PUTS IT. C H ILDREN. C O R PO R A T I S T LIKE ARCADIA. NOW H ET E R OS E X U A L I TY THE PROBLEM TE N DS IS TO M U ST ACCOU NT F O R I T S E LF. HOMOSEXUALITIES FU NCTION WITH SOMEWHAT OWN AS MOV E M ENTS. A PSYCHOTICS. S M A L L E R A N D MORE AVANT-GARDE LEVEL IS FOU N D M I LITANT HOMOSEXUALITY. MORAL H O M OS E X U A L I T Y BUT A IS NO LO N G E R A C E S" WOU LD NOT B E D I F F E R ENTIATED I N THE SA M E WAY. I N W H I C H C L E A R C UT OPPOSITIONS BETWEEN TYPES WOU L D B E R E P U D I ATED. I N WHICH. ON TH E CONTRARY. W R IT E R S . SAY A MONG IT IS R E VOLUTION A R I ES. BE PUT RITES. AMONG ONE WOULD LOOK FOR S I M I LA R ITIES DRUG HOMOSE X U A LS . NOUR­ GROUPINGS "SPEC I A L ISHED BY R E P R ESSION A S WELL AS BY A FEELING OF S H A M E STI LL LIVELY I N " R E S P ECTABLE" M I L I E U S ( P A R T I C U LA R LY A M O N G B U S I N E S S M E N . A RT I STS. P H A L LOC R A T I C IN THEIR C E R E M ON I A L. AMONG LET'S MATTER. AMONG WOM E N . PROSTITUTES. IT ENFORCES A SECON D DEGREE NORM. A CATEGO R I E S . ALL FOR MS OF S E X U A L ON ANOTH ER. ETC. DESPITE T H E I NTERVEN­ TION OF GROUPINGS NATURE OF A MORE OR LESS H O M O­ POW E R I N TO Q U E S T I O N . A D D I CTS. TH E I R C H A P E LS I N ITIATION SEXUAL POWE R ON ITS OWN TERRAIN. P R I N C I PLE. IT COULD BE S A I D. F O R E X A M PLE. ONCE U N D E R S TOOD THAT THIS T H E R E C O U L D O N LY B E M I NORITI ES. THEY ARE C LO S E R TO B6 . AN ILLNESS OF IT. HOMOS E X U A L ITY CON FRONTS H ETERO- ACTI VITY A R E F U N D A M E NTALLY ON T H I S SIDE OF TH E PERSONOLOG I C A L OPPOSITIONS HOMO-H ETE RO: 2) THAT NON ETH E L E S S .) I N W H I C H PSYCHOA NALYSIS IS PRESENTLY TH E R E I G N I NG M A STER. ETC. BOTH AT T H E SAME TIME 1 I THAT A L L FORMS O F S E X U A LITY. OF SEXUAL IN PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S MAKES FORMS M I N ORITIES REALM DEVELOPMENTAL RETA R DATION. SHOW-BIZ PEOPLE. BUT SC I E N T I F I C . SEXUA LITY CONTI N U E S TO BE T I E D TO THE VALUES AND I NTE RACTION A L SYSTE M S OF T H E DOM I N A NT ITS DEPENDENCE NORM IS A IN REG A R D TO THE IN A HOW E V E R. OF THE F H A R TYPE. D I S P LA C E D . IN W H I C H I N STAN­ S E C R ET. T R A N S V ESTITES. H ET E ROSEX U A L POL ITICS OF THE M A N I FESTED H I DDEN ESS T H I R D LEVEL. A CONJU NCTION BETWEEN THE ACTIONS OF F E M I N I STS AND H O M OS E X U A LS THEN BECO M E S POSSI B L E .

. H I MSELF FROM THE IN PROM I S E D POW E R A NOTH E R ARE OVER-BLOWN IS NOTION WHOSE THE ORGASM. NON-SEN 51 C A L. . THE WOM A N OWES H E R ORGA S M T O T H E M A N . A N D THE SENTENTI O U S ATTITUDE O F PSYCHOANA LYSTS AND SEXOLOGISTS ON TH I S POI N T DOESN'T REA LLY H E L P THI NGSI IN FACT. O N THE L E V E L OF THE S E X E D BODY THE L I B I DO IS ENGAGED IN A B E C O M I NG-WOMAN. WHEN TH EY'RE FEMALE R E D U C E D TO BLACK-WHITE. A MODALITI ES. OF ETC. BUT RAT H E R . THE N O N . CONFLICTS. ETC. EVERY S E M I OT I Z A T I O N OF A BREAK I M PL I E S A SEXUALIZATION OF A B R E A K . IT IS IT U N D E R ST O O D IS TO BE MALE. M OT I V E . RECOURSE TO T H E P R I SON. DEVIATION. THE ONLY A UTHORIZED A MAN BECOMI NG-PLA NT. ARE THEM­ TO SUBJ UGATE T H E M . F R EQ U ENTLY. LOC A L I Z E . BECO M I NG-WOMAN. I S RE LATED TO HOMOSEX U A LITY O R I T IS BECA U S E IT IS NOT TOO FAR R E MOVED FROM T H E B I N A R I S M OF P H A LLIC POWE R THAT BECOMI NG­ WOMAN CAN ROLE AS PLAY THIS I N TE R M E D I A RY ROLE. THE L I B I DO I S CAUGHT I N TWO SYSTEMS O F OPPOSITION: C LASS AND SEX. B E C O M I N G.M I N E R A L BEC K ETT>. T H I NGS A R E N E V E R T H A T S I M PLE. MORE FASHION. IN FACT. TO MY M I ND. PARANOID P A RT. U LT E R I O R OPERATION B I N A RY. BECOM­ FA M I LY. NORMS. O N LY THAT HE W I L L BE A B L E T O BECOME A N I M AL. CONTROL I NT E N S I T I E S D E S I R E . WE SHOULDN'T ASK W H I C H W R I TERS A R E HOMOSEXUAL. " AND A NUMBER IN THIS OF HOMO­ HOMOS E X U A L. ETC. WHAT I T I S A BOUT A G R EAT WRITER­ EVEN IF H E'S. SHOULDN'T BE THOUGHT OF AS B E LONG I N G TO THE WOM A N CATEGORY FOU N D IN THE COUPLE.TO T H E ASYLUM. NOR M A LIZING GA M E. A S A POSSIBLE ACCESS T O A " M I N I M U M . LOVE I N PROUST I S N E V E R S P EC I FI C A LLY HOMOS E X U A L. P S YC H OT I C 87 .S E X E D-BODY. SUCH A CATEGORY. T H E BECOMI NG-WO M A N SERVES A S A POI N T OF R E F E R E N C E . AS AN ESCAPE ROUTE FROM THE R E P R E SS I V E P H A L LOC R ATIC. COSMOS. A DIFFERENT SELVES WOM E N . E V E R Y " D I S S I D E NT" ORGA N I ZATION OF T H E L I B I DO M U ST T H E R E FORE BE D I R ECTLY LINKED TO A B ECOMI NG-FEM I N I N E BODY.O F SEXED BECOMI NG. POETIC S E X U A LITY ( FOR I N STANCE: TH E COI N C I ­ DENCE. . I N "REFUSI NG" H I M . W E TELL O U R S E LVES THAT I T I S SORT OF "LIKE A WOMA N . FOR HOMOSEX U A LITY. . YOU CAN NOT QUA L I FY A LOVE U N I VOCA LLY. M A LE­ ITS A BECAUSE THERE'S AN T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E . M U S IC.P E R S O N O LO G I C A L SAM E H O L D S T R U E FOR S E X U A LITY. THUS. I N V E R S E LY . IF I STRESS T H I S LAST POINT I T S BECAU S E T H E BECOMI NG-FE M I N I N E BODY WEAK. THE MORE P R EC I S E LY. NOTI ONS LIKE WOM A N . T H E PA I R F E M I N I N E/PASS I VE. I N G I N S B E RG'S W O R K . R I C H/POOR. I S THUS I N S E P A R A B L E FROM A BECOMI NG-WOMAN­ EVEN NON-OED I PAL. OF ORDER PE R M IT TO HOMOS E X U A L . ONLY EXISTS IN A SPECI FIC SOC I A L F I E L D THAT D E F I N E S I T . HOMOSEXUA LITY. T H I S V l s · A· v I S TO OTH ER SEXED A BECO M I NG-A N I M A L OR A BECO M I NG-WO M A N . ORDER U ND E RSTA N D T H E HOMOSE X U A L. FOR M S M A RG I N A L I S M AS COOED IN TO WORK ARE S A F ET Y VALVES. MIZE U N D E R STOOD TO DICHOTO­ A L L V A L U E S -T H E O P PO S I T I O N S S T R O N G / SOC I U S. SUBMISSION TO H I S P H A L L I C POWER. A BECOM­ TRU STEES OF A WHO DETAC H E S B E C O M I N G . CONVERSELY. IN A ON THE LEVEL O F THE SOC I A L BODY. S H ORT. A N D A S TH E L A S T BUOY Vls·A-vIS THE ESTA B L I S H E D ORDER. WHATEVER B R E A KS TH E LISHED ORDER. BECOMI NG-VEGETABLE AS IN NOVA LIS. NO ETE R N A L FEMI N I N E . MOREOVER. I M IGHT A DO. T H E MAN/WO M A N OPPOSITION S E R V E S T O ESTA B L I S H THE SOC I A L O R D E R BEFORE C L A S S A N D CASTE W H AT E V E R FROM S H A TT E R S ESTA B­ BECOM I N G-C H I LD AS IN I NG-A N I M A L AS I N K A FKA.R E DUCTION 1 ST FOR E X A M PLE.HOMOS E X U A L I TY A N D TO WHAT COULD BE CA LLED A FE M I N I N E BECOMI NG. RAVAGES DOM I N A N T PHALLIC PROFITS I N H E R EN T ALL F O R M A T I O N S U N D E R TA K E S S U C H A WOM A N A C CO R D I N G IT IS TO DIVERSE ON TH I S B E C O M I NG­ POSSI B L E CONDITION. BY THE VERY N AT U R E OF T H I N GS. N O SA LVATION: O R ELSE ITS T H E PLUNGE I N TO THE CATEGORI ES. OUTS I D E O F T H I S E XC L U S I V E BI-POLE. WOM E N WHO. U S E FU U U S E LESS. ON SO MANY STU P I D DRA M AS BASED THIS THEME. TH E R E I S N O SUCH T H I NG A S W O M A N PER S E ! NO MATE R N A L P O L E . A N D E V E N T U A LLY A S A SC R E E N PLE: FOR OTH E R TYPES OF BECOMI N G (EXAM­ AS IN SCH U M A N N . LETTER. 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A N A N I M A L DOESN'T BARGA I N WITH H I S DEATH. PLATFORM OF T H E BUS AT THE B U S STOP: R . l B. 1 !5. SQU A R E OF THE THEATRE FRANC A I S. 2 1 . THE COR P U L E N T M A N S I TS DOWN OPPOSITE R.OF W H I C H WERE A CONTI N U A L T U R N I NG-AWAY. IN THE BUS: R:S LEGS SET A P A RT.-P. C E LEBRATIONS M EMORY. W E DO l THAT I N DICATES A LACK O F A N I M A LITY.FROM OUR A N I M A LITY. SQU A R E O F THE THEATRE FRANCAIS. IF WE SUCCEED. BECAUSE. EYES OF CORPULENT M A N .: ARE YOU R ECOM M E N D I N G TH I S F. CROSSES H E R LEGS.: YOU HA V E R E P EATEDLY R E M I N D E D U S THAT A N I M A LS. THE CLOCK. A S S U M I NG THERE I S A F U T U R E FOR M A N . WE'LL HAVE THE M E MORY OF THE FUTURE. 1 6. R:S BUST. TURNED TOW A R D THE W I N DOW. OR. 22. 20. R. GOOD FOR A A A N I M ALITY? WOU N D E D F. S. M . R. 1 9. F I G H T O N C E AGA I N . M A N TH I N K S OF GOO. S A M E W I T H A N ELEPHA NT. IF WE R E D I SCOV E R THE POETRY O F O U R CRADLE. I T W I L L O N C E AGA I N BE POETIC. T H E Y H A V E O N L Y T H E P R E S ENT. WE'LL BE LIKE T H E POETS AND PROPHETS. TRANSLATED BY STA MOS M ETZI DA K I S 1 4. H A N DS LYING E A C H S I D E OF H E R ON SEAT. E I T H E R WE DISAPPEAR. 92 . R.. JUMPS DOWN. B E FOR E D Y I N G . A WOU N D E D LION ATTA C K S WITH A L L H I S M I GHT. A N I M A LS DONT H A V E GODS. E N D EAVOR TO R E M E M B E R T H E M . J. THEN HER F A C E IN PROFI LE.' WHAT I MEAN DEEP IS IN THAT OUR THERE ARE WE LOST M U ST WOU N DED: H E'S STRETC H E R . P A R A L L E L BARS EQU I PP E D WITH LEATH E R STRA PS. J .P. THE EYES OF THE CORPU LENT M A N . S. 1 7.: A WO U N D E D MAN IS ANIMAL IS DA NGEROUS. G R A D U A L F A D E IN O N : T H E I NTERIOR OF A DESERTED G Y M N AS I U M . M A R K S 4 P .

SOMETI M E S HE SPENT A NIGHT BOOZ I N G WITH THE M I N ERS A MONG T H E D E SOLATE SLAG-H E A P S OF QUE ENS­ TOWN. M ATED WITH A TA S M A N I A N TIGER. THOSE C H A PS ON THE WEST COAST . " T H E H U NTER S A I D S LOWLY. . NOT K NOWI N G O F D I NGOS I N TA S M A N I A . BUT H E P R E F E R R E D C A M P I NG A LO N E I N THE B U S H . "WH E N THE LAST OF THE A B OR I G I N E S WERE ROU N D E D U P AND KI LLED. ADDED A B R U PTLY: "YOU SHOU LDN'T D O T H I S T R I P ALONE. . A N I M A LS . AND A N YWAY.JOURNEYS OF A GENTLEWOMAN SHOT LATE R W H E N T H E Y C A M E ROU N D T H E F A R M S STEALING IT M U ST HAVE B E E N TOWA R D 1 9 30 THAT THE ROAD WENT THROUGH TO Q U E E N STOWN ON T H E W I LD WEST COAST OF TAS M A N I A . MOST O F T H E M W E R E 93 . I DON'T TH I N K TH EY'D TOUCH A WOM A N . I DON'T BELIEVE I T MYSELF. BUT I W A S O N L Y S I X T E E N AT THE T I M E. HE TOLD ME. AND NOT E V E N W I TH T H E M T H E W A Y YOU'D T H I N K . S U C K I N G A C A L F'S EA R:' T H E M S E LVES IN TH E B U S H . THAT H E HEARD THE HOWL OF T H E W I LD DOG." TH E LITTLE I N FORM ATION I POSS E S S E D A BOUT T H E W EST COAST H A D B E E N S U P P L I E D BY A H UNTER WHO MADE OCC A S I O N A L EX PEDITIONS THERE IN "BECA U S E MYSELF. THE TIGER B E I NG ABOUT AS EXTI NCT A S THE ABO T H E S E DAYS. "NOT EVEN TH AT. THEI R DOGS WERE L E FT TO FEND FOR NEEDED ATT E N TION. " EXPRESSED S U R P R I SE . IN RETROSPECT. A N D AFTER LOOKING S I DEWAYS AT M E . I "OH. H E STA Y E D I N TH E BUSH. A V I D TO E X P LO R E T H E WORLD AND OPEN U P TH E CONTI N E N T OF M Y S E N S E S . C H I C K E N S. A N D I F YOU CAN B E L I E V E WHAT T H E Y S A Y D O W N TH E R E. S U D D E N LY F I N D I NG H I S P I PE ' T M NOT S U R E I T WAS A D I NGO:' H E S A I D . "YOU M E A N THEY P R E F E R T H E I R O W N K I NDT' H E SHOOK H I S H EA D. MY A M BITION TO BE ONE OF THE FI RST TO M A K E THE JOU R N E Y S E E M S P U E R I L E ." HE STOPPED. B U T TH E R E WAS ONE OLD F E L LOW M U ST HAVE B E E N A LON ER. "NOT ON T H E FARMS-B E E N T DO LONG WITHOUT · E M . I ONCE CA M E O N A C H A P A L L A LO N E I N A PAD DOC K AT SUNSET." OF THE MEN? I CAN LOOK A FT E R S E A R C H OF K A NGA ROO AND W A L LA BY. I WAS ON O N E OF THOSE N IGHTS.

I SET OFF. B U T T H E R E WAS N O P A N I C : TH E Y C A M E TOW A R D M E . T H R O U G H O N E OF T H E H A L F-OPEN DOORS I COULD SEE S E V E RA L MEN ON A I RO N B E DSTEAD.. I S U PPOS ED. AT THE A LO N E CAR. ALL OF THEM COM M U N I C A T I N G WITH THE K I TC H E N . A N D I R E A C H E D TH E Y A R D AS THE M EC H A N I C RETU R N E D T O T E L L M E H E COULD M A K E T E M POR­ ARY R E PA I R S THAT S H O U L D G ET ME TO Q U E ENS­ BRAND. I F A N YT H I N G THEY VISIT A REGION TO MADE ME M O R E DETE R M I N E D TO NO THE WOMAN LIFE COULD BE WOR D S. B E FO R E TH E HOUR HAD IN RELEASED FOR M I D A B L E R E FL E X . SO THAT WHEN. A S TH E Y A DVA NCED. TO A S A B BATH OF N A K E D 94 . PANTING O N T H E END O F ITS C H A I N. OR A N OTH E R CA RDS MIGHT HAVE THE PLAYING WERE OR D R I N K I N G. IT BACCH A N A L I N P R E PA R ATION BETW E E N THOSE M E N I N T H E H O U S E W A I T I N G F O R DA R K N E SS. P E N D A N T FROM I T S J A W R E M I N D I NG M E A G A I N O F T H E M A N'S S P E E C H . AND THEY I IF NOW I WERE TOO THE H A N D F U L O F TOOLS. THE C A TTLE A LSO STA RTED TO MOVE. ENG I N E G I V I NG TROU B L E IT LOO K E D A S THOUGH I WOU LD BE S P E N D I NG T H E N IGHT U N D E R THOSE C H I LLY G U M S UNTIL THE MAIL CAR CAME T H RO U G H N E XT P A D DOCKS. FORTU N A T E LY.KNOWING B U S H M E N A N D T H E I R LOVE OF YARNS. R A I S I N G A GROU N D . H I S I N A RTIC U LATE ATTE M PT A T C OM M U N ICATION. CATTLE R E P LA C E D T H E GRA�NG S L I P-RA I LS T H E EVERY HEAD STOPP E D AND TURNED IN MY D I R ECTI O N . A L MOST WITHOUT OPEN I N G H I S MOUTH. T H E M A N A N D T H E S T E E R . N O R OF R ET U R N I N G TO THE CAR W H I L E T H E MAN WOR K E D . A ST E E R WITH A ST R I N G OF SLAVER BACKS A GA I NST T H E GROUP W A L L. A N D T H E S E B E A STS THE I R PARTNERS. MY STI LL TWENTY STARTED Q U E E N STOWN. I COU L D HAVE NO DOUBT OF TH E I R OBJECTIVE. MYSTERY S U S P E CT E D : B E C A U S E O F THOSE H A LF-O P E N DOORS A N D T H E MEN FOR WHOM I MIGHT NOT HAVE E X I STED. TO FOLLOW. THE SOU N O S SO F L U I D AND U N FO R M E D THEY S E E M E D HA RDLY D I STI N G U I S H A B L E FROM THE STRING OF WHERE SHARE S A L I V A D R I P P I N G F R O M T H E DOG'S JAWS. EACH O F THEM WOU L D K NOW WHAT W A S E X PECTED OF THE OTH E R .M I ST O F DUST FROM WHICH E M E R G E D THE BUTTRESS OF TH E I R TROUBLE A N D WITHOUT A WORD H E WENT BACK I N TO TH E HOUSE L E A V I N G M E . C H ESTS A N D HORNS. M Y S I LHOU ETTE R E FLECTED I N THE GLOBE OF TH E I R E YES. IT R E SE M BLED A RABBIT OF WATER MIGHT BE D ETECTED BY A DROUGHT­ STR I C K E N H E RD. NOT O N LY FOLLOWI NG. TH E C U R I O SITY O F CATTLE WAS L ESS I NTI M I DATING TH A N TH E MEN WHO IGNORED ME. I D I DN'T K NOW W H ET H E R T O R U N OR TO S T A Y . T H E H U N T E R ' S ME. B U T T H E H O U S E W A S S O S I LENT THE F I G U R E S ON THE BED M I G H T H AVE B E E N E F F I G I E S OR STRAW MEN. BUT CLOS I N G IN ROOF SET I N T H E M I DD L E O F PADDOC KS W H E R E A FEW C A TTLE G R A Z E D . LOOKED C U R IOUSLY HUMAN. B U T I R E A C H E D THE BACK DOOR BEFORE A MAN A P P E A R E D. DRAWN. I N STEA D O F B E I NG D I V I D E D BY A C ENTRAL PASSAGE. A DOG TIED UP IN THE Y A R D B E G A N TO B A R K . A L I TTLE F U RTH E R O N . I G N O R I N G W H A T GESTURES E V E N T U A LLY THE F I RST MAN RETU R N E D W I T H A L U ST TALES READY LITTLE THESE CAME TO OF B E ASTS BACK TEN DE R N ESS A TTE N D E D. THE H E A DS. H E G A V E M E THIS I N FO R M A T I O N IN THE FEWEST PO S S I B L E MOTIO N R I T E S THAT B E LO NG E D TO T H E S E C R E C Y OF MOO N L E S S PA DDOC K S . I TOLD HIM THE FROM A L L S I D E S . AND I M ET NO OTH E R CARS A LONG M I LE S THE F ROM WAY. W H I C H COULD BE R E AC H E D AS I BY C ROSSI NG ONE OF T H E THROUGH V I R G I N B U S H . E X PO S E D THE K I TC H E N . TH E H O M ESTE A D W A S A TYPI C A L WOODEN STRUC­ TU R E WITH VERANDAH A N D CORRUGATED I RO N W I THOUT HASTE. A LONG B R I E F PASSAGEWAYS. I S A W NO T R A C E OF A WOMAN'S PRESENCE ANYWHERE. THAT H U M A N I M A G E P R I NTED I N S I D E T H E I R S K U LLS. I WOU L D H A V E SA I D I F THE I DEA HAD N OT BEEN SO ABSURD. IN I N D ICATING HE WOULD LOOK AGA I N I FOU N D M YSELF EVEN MORE A LO N E TO A N D ONCE BELIEVE THE THEM. OF R E M OT E I H A D N O I NTENTION OF S P E N D I N G AN H O U R IN THE THE NEW ROAD HAD BEEN HACKED L I T E R A LLY V I C I N ITY O F THE H O U S E . I N W H I C H THE M E MORY OF FOR M E R MY RITUALS A RRIVAL A HAD BEEN BURNT LIKE A S E E M E D P R E F E R A B L E TO W A I T OUTS I D E W I T H T H E DOG. I R E M A I N E D SC E PTI C A L OF T H E H U NTE R'S TALES. R E LATED BY A K I N D OF M UT U A L Y E A R N I NG. THE H O U S E WAS S U R P R I S I NGLY U N L I K E ITS COU NTERPA RTS. T H E I R IN A SECON D BEEN ROOM COVETOUS E X PECTATIO N . BY A WA R R E N . A D I R T TRACK W I T H RUTS M A D E B Y A DRAY PROM I S E D A F A R M A T T H E E N D OF I T . BUT I T MIGHT TAKE A N HOUR. TO B E A F R A I D OR EXCITED. A S T H E P R E S E N C E I N S I D E. I H A D A S U D D E N V I S I O N O F T H E T W O TOGETH E R . TH E BEST A LTERNA­ TIVE S E E M E D TO B E A WALK IN THE BUSH. WITH ROO M S G R O U P E D HAPHAZAR DLY ON DI F F E R E N T L E V E LS. WHEREAS I STOOD O U TS I D E OF THE C O M P L I C I TY . S E TT I N G TOWN. A N D H A L F-WAY A C ROSS THAT STRETCH O F O P E N L A N D I BECA M E A W A R E THEY W E R E FOLLOW­ ING ME. PERSUADED HOM EST E A DS. T E L L I N G M Y S E L F THAT MOR N I NG. A L I. ROO M S OCC U P I ED.

OF CRIES THAT RESEMBLED AN I N H U MA N AND CR UELTY. T H E LONG." III M Y OVERTU R E S W E R E G R EETED BY A LOW SNA RL. I T TOOK A STEP I N TO THE C LE A R I N G A N D I COULD ALMOST TRIC KLED W H E R E TEETH TO R E THROUGH THE LAST RAGS O F CLOTH I N G . S I N E W Y LEGS. THE CR EATU R E SEEMED UNCERTA I N OF M Y I NTENTIONS. NOSTRILS TWITCHI N G TO CAPITULATED. A V U L N E R A B L E THING S LO U C H E D ON THE LOG. A LMOST TOO BIG FOR A DOG. R I S I N G R O D OF ITS SEX. I N STEAD. AND SAW IN AND MY M I N D' S EYE TH E I R A RC H A I C PLA I NTIVE LOWI NG . FOLLOW E D SECON D LEADING CATTLE STO P P E D. A N D THAT DISTA N T W A R M T H OF H U M A N B O D I E S . KASPAR. AT A RECO N C I LIATI O N . B U R N I N G WITH THE ME LA ST. I F THE SHOT H A D B E E N F I R E D AT M E I W O U L D H A VE ACCE PTED THE J U STICE OF ITS P U N I S H M E N T FOR M Y I NTRUSION . TH E R E STI LL L I V E D AFTER THE WA R THE LAST S U R V I V I NG M E M B E R O F THE K I SCH FA M I LY. SET HIGH ON T H I N . SLOWLY. I WAS COV E R E D IN SLOB B E R . A FEMALE TEETH CLOTHES. A N D K N E W WHAT THAT M E A NT. B R EADTH H E I GHT. W H E R E I H A D BECOME TH E PREY. THE DOG C H A N G E D ITS S TA NCE. ITS FLANKS M A R K E D BY STRI PES OF A D A R K E R G R E Y. A N D O N L Y T H I S W I LD DOG A N D I R E M A I N E D I N TH E I R H U NTING GRO U N DS. BUT I T C RACKED OV E R THE BACKS OF BY THE A HERD LIKE S HOT. N O W TH E Y WERE A LL DEAD. TH E I N V E N TOR O F " R E PORTAGE" H A V I NG D I E D A WEEK BEFORE M Y A R R I VAL. NO DEFENCE E X I STED I N THAT P R I M A L SOLITU DE W H E R E T H E ABO R I G I N ES H A D WA NDERED AT A T I M E W H E N M A N D R E A M E D H I MSELF AS OTH E R THAN A N I M A LI TY. EGON . AND IN THAT SAVAGE COU PLING WE A R RIVED. T H E COC K OF ITS EARS IN THE D I R ECTION OF T H E FARM. D I R ECTI NG IT AGAINST M YSELF IN THE ONLY G ESTURE THAT COULD SAVE M E . E V E R Y M U SCLE TAUT. A N ECESSARY ACT S I N C E N O WOMAN SHOULD H A V E BEEN W I T N E S S TO THAT CONCEALED AND POI G N A N T I NT I M ACY. KNOC K I N G M E TO TH E GROU N D WITH THE WEIGHT OF ITS BODY. I THOUGHT OF T A K I N G R E F UGE I N A TREE. H U NG E R OF HOW MANY CAMP FIRES WATC H E D FROM TH E RIM OF D A R K N ESS. A STOCK THE WHIP. N O R D I D I LOOK BACK T O SEE WHO HAD FIRED THE S HOTS. A N D I N VOLUNTA R I LY I STRETC H E D OUT A H A N D A N D S A I D : "HERE -CO M E H E RE. BUT MY STRE NGTH W A S NOT EQUAL TO THE DOG·S. TH E ODOR OF COOK I NG M EAT. THE STA M PEDE TO THE F A R COR N E R OF T H E PADDOCK.M E N A N D BEASTS STU M B L I N G TO TH E I R K N E ES. SOMEHOW I M A N AGED TO REACH THE FENCE PUTTING O N E FOOT I N FRONT OF T H E OTH ER. THEN I WAS A F R A I D . ROLLING AND STRUGGLI N G AGA I NST THE CON TACT OF SEX A G A I N ST MY M O UTH. PERHA PS. VEER ED. THAT S E N T A S H U DD E R A LO N G ITS R I BS LIKE WINO OVER WHEAT. WHICH I C O U NTED O N BY BRAVING IT AS MY ONLY CHANCE OF ESCAPE. S E E PED OUT OF EVEN AT THE W I L L TO AS MY R E S I ST BODY HAVE A DM I R E D ITS A R ROGA NCE H A D I NOT F E LT THOSE YELLOW E Y E S O N M E . THE POINTED M UZZLE L I FTED AND I SAW TH E TEETH. I F I C R I E D O U T M Y VOI C E WOU LD S K I M ACROSS TH E S I L E N C E OF THE B U S H A N D S I N K LIKE A PEBBLE. A N D AT ONCE THE DOG S HOWED ITSELF A L E RT. A PA R I A H TO J U DGE BY ITS WA R I N ESS. A N D I S A W . WITHOUT R U N N I NG. A N D DES PATC H E D W I T H THE S A M E 9 15 . DOWN AS P I T I L E S S L Y A S TH E A BO R I G I N E S H A D B E E N H UNTED. E XTE N D I N G U N D E R T H E B E LLY. AND BLOOD REDOLENT O F SOME OBSC U R E M E MORY. I T H A D HEARD THE SHOTS NO DOUBT. AS IT RI PPED MY RECOG N IZE. II I MUST HAVE STOPPED. IT WORKED WITH THE F R E NZY OF THE KI LL. I STILL EXPERIENCED THE S A M E F U RIOUS JOY AS W H E N I HAD WRESTLED WITH BOYS A N D P I N N E D THEM DOWN BY MY FORCE. BUT I T W A S NOT A F R A I D OF M E . T H E C R E A T U R E'S SOLITUDE A S S A I LE D M E . HERD AND W ITH S U D D E N LY THEM IN A I STOOD UP. BUT ONCE UNDER COV E R OF THE T R E E S M Y K N E E S BUCKLED U N D E R M E A N D I SA N K O N A F A L L E N LOG. I B E G A N TO W A L K TOWA R D IT. A T E R ROR THAT STA RTED FROM MY A R M-PITS A N D STA N K THE C L E A R I NG. OF VOICES. FEELING STIFLED BY THE THE DOG ' S R A N K STENCH OF FUR. M Y R E G A R D N E V E R QU I TTING T H O S E Y E L LOW EYES. A N D I H A L F-EX PECTED I T TO TU R N TA I L A N D SLOPE OFF INTO THE BUSH ES. I K N EW IF I TR I E D TO ESCAPE THE DOG WOULD HUNT ME I N T H E OLD TOWN O F PRAG U E W H E R E A RC H I M BOLDO ONCE VISITED THE A LCH E M I STS A N D COLLECTED OBJECTS FOR THE E M P E RO R R U DOLP H'S CABI N ET OF CURIOSITI ES. I SEIZED TH E BLACK S E X . M Y I M AG E DROWN I NG I N TH E I R EYES IN POO L S TA K I N G OF ANGUISH. AND AT THAT I N STA N T THE WAS IT A DOG? C E R TA I N LY A BREED I D I D NOT DOG SPRANG. A LWAYS O N T H E A LERT AGA I N ST A R M E D AND HOSTILE M E N . I N THE BLI N D N ESS OF OU R BATTLE.

A FORM OF PHYSICAL PA I N TO MASK THE I N TOLER· KASPA R'S S A R DO N I C DESC R I PTION OF THE SCENE. T H E GOOSE B E I NG A R A R E B I R D I N POST·W A R P R A G U E . AND NOW KASPAR LIVED ALONE I N THE ECHOING APA RTM E NT. I SOM ETI M ES S U S P ECTED T H A T KASPAR'S BLACK H U MOUR SU BSTITUTED FOR H I S CHI LDHOOD ROLE OF "HE WHO GETS S LA P P E D. TH E S PACE IS SO L I M I T E D THE DEAD ARE B U R I E D ONE ON TOP OF ANOTH ER. BEEN D E A D FOR A LONG TIME. WE VISITED TH E OLD JEWISH CEMETERY WHERE JOSTLING CENTU R I E S OF BAWDY B R U TA L I TY. WHERE THE QUA RTER OF A THOUSA N D FLOW E R S H A D BEEN DECLARED OUT OF BOU NDS. NOW A VAGUE H U M MOCK ON THE GROU N D . OF ITS FLIMSY TENT J U ST LA RGE ENOUGH FOR TWO R EC U MBENT BODI E S O N E ON TOP OF THE OTH E R. HE TOR E UPON THE WRETC H E D SCR EEN AND ON ALL THAT EN DLESS PLAIN THERE WAS NOTH ING BUT A WOM A N LYING S P R E A D·EAGLED ON A MAT. NOT A LTO­ G E TH E R A FESTIVE OCCASION. THE R EST OF THE FA M I LY P E R I S H E D. A P E A S A N T STIC K I NG H I S H A N D UP H E R H A BIT. SHE WAS A TACITURN WOMAN WHO K E PT A GOOSE ON T H E LAN DING. PROF E S S E D H I S A L L I A NC E WITH T H E 8TH ROUTE A R M Y I N FIGHTING THE JAPANESE. WITH A HOUSEKEEPER TO LOOK AFTER HIM." WAS THE YOUNGEST OF THE K I SCH BROTH ERS AND HAD ESCA PED TH E DESTI NY OF E U ROPEA N JEWS BY SERVING AS A S U RGEON WITH THE 8TH ROUTE ARMY I N C H I N A . S H E HAD."TH E CLOWN. CATH E R I N E DUNCAN 96 . THE SOLD I E R S B I VOUAC K E D ON THE EDGE OF T H E BOMB E D C I TY. I F. I W I L L I NG L Y ACC E PT E D K A S PA R'S I N V I TATION TO SHARE I T WITH H I M ON C H R I STMAS EVE. KASPAR TOOK H I S DOCTOR'S BAG A N D A PPROAC H E D THE TENT. ABLE. RE-ADJUSTING HIS U N I FO R M ." WHEN THE E LDER BROTH ERS DONGED H I M ON THE H E A D TILL H E WAS D IZZY. W E SAT OPPOSITE AT THE LONG TA BLE. BUT WITH KASPAR I H A D BEC O M E H A B I T U A T E D TO M A C A B R E CON­ TRASTS. ADDED TO ITS D ESOLATION. AND D E SC R I B I NG WITH TOM B-STON ES. A N D D A R K N E S S C A M E BEFORE THE LAST M A N E M E RGED. AS A PALLIATIVE TO T H I S PRI VATION ONE OF THE MORE ENTE R P R I S I NG PROSTITUTES H A D SET U P A LITTLE TENT NOT FAR FROM T H E CAMP. HE FOLLOWED THIS BY SHOWING ME. I THE ONLY GUEST TO OCC Upy ONE OF THOSE E M PTY CHAIRS. D U R I N G THE E A R LY PERIOD OF THE WAR IN C H I NA W H E N C H A N G K A I S H E K STI LL. IN FRONT OF W H I C H A LONG L I N E O F S O L D I E R S AWAITED T H E I R TURN. HE CHOSE THAT CH RISTMAS EVE TO TELL M E THE STORY OF THE C H I N ESE P ROSTITUTE. A TEST OF HOW M UC H HE COULD ENDURE. SOBBI N G A U D I BLY AT EACH MOUTHFUL OF HER DEAR D E PARTED. WHEN EVER YON E H A D GONE. KASPAR FOU N D H I MSELF ON ONE OCCASION I N A TOWN HELD BY THE G E N E R A L'S TROOPS. D U R I NG OUR WALKS THROUGH PRAGUE. FOR HOURS THE Q U E U E K E PT M O V I N G . OF THE Q U E U E OF SOL D I E R S ABSORBED BY TH E I R OWN N E ED. KASPAR S A I D. P E R H A PS FOR THE SAME REASON. STANDING B E H I N D MY C H A I R W H I L E WE ATE. FATTEN I NG I T FOR C H R I STMAS. AND IT HARDLY LIGHTE N E D T H E GHOSTLY ATMOS­ P H E R E WHEN THE HOU S E K E E P E R S E R V E D TH E GOOSE IN A FLOOD OF TEARS. CA RVING OF A N U N ON THE CHARLES BRI DGE. VIOLENTLY. A N D T OO S M A L L F O R KASPAR'S BULK T O PENE­ TRATE EVEN ON H A N DS AND K N E E S.

BUT NOT A N I NTE R N A L N E C E S S I TY. P R ACTI CING B E G I N N I N G : THROUGH THE F A M I LY P HOTO. ANY COM E D Y CAN BECOM E A R E A LITY.E M PLOYEE­ C H I LD. "TH R E W H I M S E L F I NTO FOR TH E E F F E CT OF COMIC DISTE N S I ON I S DOUBLE. OR ELSE I N "TH E J U DG M E NT' THE RUSS I A N F R I E N D TAKES THE PLACE OF O N E O F TH E T E R M S O F T H E TRIANGLE A N D TRANSFORMS I T INTO A J U D I C I A L OR CON D E M NATORY A P P A R ATUS. ANOTH E R T E R M W H I C H S U F FICES T O DE-FA M I L I A L­ IZE THE WHOLE PICTU R E ( I N THIS W A Y THE F A M I LY STORE E NACTS THE TRIANGLE. BECA M E COMMON IN F R U E D'S TIME. AND I S SHOWN TO B E J U D I C IA L. FATH E R . O R I S T H E T R I ANGLE. SUCH ATTO R N E Y. WH E R E TH E FATH ER N O LONGE R EXI STS AS SUCH (OR E L S E T H E 97 . A M A P O F TH E W H O L E WORLD. AN AGITATION." BUT KA FKA DOES NOT C H A LLENGE TH E EXTE RIOR I N F L U E NC E O F T H E FATH E R I N ORDER TO I N VOKE A N I NTERIOR G E N E S I S O R A N I N T E R N A L STRUCTU R E WHICH WOULD STI LL B E O E D I P A L "IT I S I M POSS I BLE FOR M E TO ADMIT THAT THE B EG I N N I NGS OF M Y I N T E R N A LL Y N E C E S S A R Y .A WHOLE WILL R E LATION-LI M I T T H E OUTSIDE WHICH POLITICAL E T C . BECA U S E THAT I S WHAT TH E INFANTILE L I B I DO I NVESTS FROM THE ERA AND TRADITION." T H A T I S THE ESSENTIAL THING: BEYOND A EXTERIOR AND I NT E R I O R . ON ONE H A N D. AT OTH E R T I M E S THE WHOLE T R I A N G L E C H A NGES ITS FORM A N D C H A R ACTERS. P E R M ITTING MANY COMIC E F F ECTS. TO BOW A N D TO M A K E OTH ERS B O W TH E I R H E A DS. QUITE MODERN." A N D THAT HE D I D SO "WITH ALL TH E M EA N S M A D E ACCESS I B L E TO ( H I M ) BY (HIS) (FATHE R . O R B U R E A UCRATIC.M OTH E R-CHI LD) A R E DISCO V E R E D OTH E R . O R ECONOMIC.A C C U S E D A S S U M E O E D I P U S ' I N O R D I N A T E L Y D I ST E N D E D (GROSSI ) MASK. I N F I N ITELY M O R E ACTIVE T R I A NGLES." I T T U R N S OUT THAT OEDIPUS I S O N E O F T H E S E M EA NS. MOLECULAR WITH DANCE. I T S U F F I C E S TO ENLARGE U PO N IT: "IT IS STRA NGE T H A T. U N H A PP I N ESS W E R E TH E Y M A Y H A V E H A D A C E R T A I N N E C E SSITY. J U DGE­ IN THE TRIAL. BEHIND THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE A D M I TS T H A T HE DI SSATIS FACTION. F R O M W H I C H T H E FA M I LY BORROWS I T S O W N POW E R . W H I C H . THEY C A M E UPON ME F L UTT E R I NG L I K E FLIES AND COULD HAVE BEEN C H A S E D AWAY A S E A S I LY.A B LOATED O E D I P U S TWO YEARS KAFKA AFTER T H E L E TT E R T O H I S FATH ER. I T S M I SSION TO PROPOGATE S U B M I SSION. SOMETI MES O N E O F T H E T E R M S OF THE F A M I LY T R I A NG L E IS R E PLAC E D BY DI SSATISFACTION I N A S U F F I C I ENTLY SYSTEMATIC M A N N E R . T H E C H I LD BEING PLACED O N THE S I D E OF THE LOW LI EST E M PLOYE E S WHOSE F E ET H E WOULD B E HAPPY TO LICK).

E V E N I F ONLY D U E TO N A N N I E S . G E R M A N S . FOR. A N D I F T H E F A T H E R R ET A I N S T H E L O V E A N D ESTI MATION O F H I S SON. BEH I N D T H E FATH E R I S TH E WHOLE N E B U LOUS GROUP O F J E W S WHO. NOR THE S U P ER-EGO.B E E T L E . THE FA M I LY HAS ONLY DOORS AT WH ICH. OR BECA USE TOGETHER T H E SIDES ARE CONTI N UOUSLY B E I NG DEFORMED. COU LD BE FOU N D I N PROUST W H E R E THE UN ITY OF C H A RACTE RS A N D THE F I G U R E S THEY CONSTITUTE GIVE WAY TO N E B U LO U S FOR M S . TOO WELL FO R M E D .DOG. "MY WORLD'S POWE R OF ATTRACTION I S GREAT TOO. I N A S M UC H A S H E I S A JEW WHO LEAVES T H E C O U N T R Y TO G E T ESTABLI S H E D I N T H E CITY. B E C O M I NG. T H E Y A R E ABSOLUTE D E T E R RITORI A LIZATIONS EMBEDDED I N TH E A R I D WORLD W H I C H KAFKA H A S ACTIVATED. I N S PECTOR. A S FOR A RC H ETYPES. TH E I R FATHE R'S E M PLOYEES. PROLIFE RATION OF ONE OF THE T E R M S OR V ERTICES. H E R E A G A I N . NOR ANY SIGN I F I E R WHICH M A N U FAC­ TURES ANXI ETY OR PLE A S U R E . J U DGES. J U DGE A N D J U DG E D .H U M A N I T Y OF B ECO M I N G A N I M A L : B E CO M I N G. OR T H E F A S C I ST M A C H I N E . THERE I S NO C H I LD I N C A PABLE OF K NOWING TH I S : THEY EACH H A V E A GEOGRAPHI­ C A L A N D POLITICAL M A P WHOSE M A R K I NGS A R E D I FFUSED A N D S H I FTI NG. A R E L I A B L E TO BE ATTA C K E D FROM BOTH SI DES-A TRANSFORMA­ TIONAL TRIANGLE. SINCE THE FATH ER HAD DONE NOTHING BUT BOW H I S HEAD. B ECOM I N G­ A P E. T O PROLIFERATING.UNCLE-LAWYER-BLOC K TRIO_ A N XIOUS FOR K. TO T H E CONDENSED FROM ALL T H E S E FORCES TO WHICH H E SUBM ITS AND I NCITES HIS SON TO SUBM IT. B U R E A UC R ATS. F U RTH E R MO R E . IT COULD BE SAID THAT TO THE EXTENT iHAT THE FA M i L Y TRIANGLE I S UNDONE. SUBMIT TO A POWER WHICH WAS NOT H I S OWN .D E F I N E D T R I A N G L E WITH TH E J U DGE A N D TWO SIDES. A R E NOT FATH E R S U B STI­ TUTES. THOUGH IN COMPLETELY D I F F E R E NT TERMS. THE ENTANGLEMENT OF OFFICES AND I N E XTRICABLE A BA N DO N E D . I N T H E S A M E W A Y . M A I DS. THUS. THE FAM I LY T R I A NGLE WAS O N L Y A CATA LYST FOR I NVESTMENTS OF A COM PLETELY D I F F E RENT NATURE W H I C H THE C H I LD N EVE R CEASES TO D I SCOV E R B E N EATH H I S FATH ER. THE FATH ER'S HYPOTH ETI C A L I N NOCENCE A N D DISTRESS FOR M S THE WORST ACCUSATION. RIGHT AND LEFT. IN H I M S E L F . HAS NOTH ING T O DO WITH E I TH E R A FATH E R SUBSTITUTE OR A N A RC H ETYPE. IN HIS MOT H E R .A N I M A L A R E J U S T T H E OPPOS I T E : A T L E A S T I N P R I N C I PA L. A DIFFUSENESS AND ARE P E R PE T U A L L Y C H A N G I N G I N TO O N E EITHER BY M E A NS OF A SU DDEN A N OTH E R . I N H I S B U S I NESS. HATC H . A S A BECOMI NG. AND AT TH E SAME TIME BY GERMANS. I N T H E SYSTEM O F H I S A UTHORITY A N D S U B M I S S I O N S . BUT BECAUSE THEY F E E L THAT I N M Y GOOD M O M ENTS AND I N 98 . THE I N FINITE AND UNGRASPABLE H I E RARCHY. P U T H I M S ELF AT A N I M PASS B Y BETRAYING H I S R U R A L JEWISH CZECH ORIGI N. T H E S E I N STANCES OF BECOMI NG-A N I M A L AND T H E A N I M AL. THE RUSSIAN B U R E A UC R ATIC MACHINE. I N A MOBILE RELATION S H I P WITH TH E THREE I N SPECTORS_ AND WITH THE THREE B USY-BODIES GROUPED AT THE W I N DOW.J E W S . BUT HE N EVER CEASES T O RETER RITOR I ALIZE I N H I S FA M I LY. J U DG ES . "TO R U N OFF. . THERE IS STI LL A WELL. OR ELSE THE GEO­ PO L I T I C A L . E T C. AT THE B EG I N N I N G OF THE TRIAL. . BUT ONE I S U LTI MATELY WITNESS TO A N INTERNAL PROLIFERA­ TION S I M I LAR TO A CANCEROUS I NVASION. B L U R R E D GROUPI NGS. OR S U D D E N LY AND COMPLETELY IN FAVOR OF T H E POWERS WHICH ACTU ALLY ARE AT WO R K . FROM THE START. (TH E J EWS) WERE R E P ROAC H E D FOR NOT BEING CZECHS_ IN SAAZ A N D IN EGER FOR NOT BEING GERMANS.C Z E C H S . A N EQ U I VALENT OF WHICH ." RATH E R THAN TO BOW THE HEAD A N D R E M A I N A B U R E A UC RAT. TO TA K E H I S T R I A L SERIOUSLY AT ALL COSTS) . T H U S . ! N ONE OF ITS TERMS. K NOCK "DIABOLICAL POWERS" THAT REJOICE EXCESSIVELY AT THE PROSPECT O F ENTERING ONE DAY. POLICE OFFICERS. BUT RATH E R THE A M E RICAN TECHNOC RATIC M A C H I N E. H A V I NG L E FT THE RURAL CZECH M I L I E U B E H I N D F O R A N U R B A N . T O T H E E X T E N T T H A T O E D I PUS' C O M I C E N LA RG E M E N T A L LOWS TH E S E OTH E R OPPR ESSIVE T R I A NGLES TO B E SEEN U N D E R THE M I C ROSC O P E . OR OTH E R PROLI FERATING TRIOS. T H E FATH E R I S NO D O U B T CA UGHT I N A MOV E M E N T O F REAL D E T E R R I TO R I A L I ZA T I O N . W H I C H PARADES B E H I N D KA FKA'S FATHER: " I N PRAGUE. T H E Y A R E PROCESSES OF S P I R I T U A L RETER R I TO RI A LI ZATION. ETC. OTH E R T R I A N G L E S P U S H I NG OUT F R O M B E H I N D HAVE A CERTA I N F L U I D ITY. I N THE FI RST REPR ESENTATION OF T H E LAW COU RT. ) THOSE W H O W A N T E D TO B E GERMANS HAD TH E M S E LVES ATTACKED BY CZECHS. THOSE WHO BEEN LOVE ME LOVE ME BECAUSE I H A V E A N D P E R H A P S I T I S N O T THAT IN K A FKA_ IT IS N E I T H E R THE FATH ER. I N H U M A N ITY OF "DIABOLICAL POWERS" A N S W E R S TH E S U B. A THE POS S I B I LITY OF A N ESCAPE ROUTE OF FLIGHT APPEARS. ( . F O R M S OF B E C O M I N G . TOPPLING H E A D OVE R H E ELS. RATHER IT IS THE FATH E R WHO IS B U R E A UC RATS. I T I S BECAUSE I N H I S YOUTH HE H I M S E L F C O N F R O N T E D C E R TA I N POWERS" AT TH E R I S K OF B E I N G " D I A BO LI C A L OVERCO M E B Y T H E M . T H E CONTA M I N ATION OF SUSPICIOUS SPACES. G E R M A N ENSEMBLE. TH E R E A R E N O C H I LDREN W H O DON'T CONSTRUCT OR SENSE THESE ESCAPE ROUTES. BANK E M PLOYEES. COM M I SS I O N E R S ." FOR THIS REASON. . THREE UNIDENTIFIED C H A R A C T E R S A R E T R A N S FO R M E D I N TO T H R E E B A N K WORK E RS. 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" THE B U R E A UC R AT I C TOG E TH E R : TRIANGLE FI RST PROG R ES S I V E L Y IS TH E CHIEF S I M PL E I M I TATION.M O U S E . TH E S C H I ZO DIFFERENCE. A N D N E V E R A R E PRODUCTION O R I M I TATION. R E PORT TO A C A D E M Y" FO R E X A M P L E . TIONS. A N I M AL'S V O I C E : T H E C H I E F C LERK DECLA R E D. A N D N O T F O R A N Y OTH E R REASON. I F IT I S A Q U E STION OF F I N D I N G A W A Y OUT (A WAY OUT A N D N O T " F R E E DOM"). SQU E E K W I N S O U T O V E R T H E VOICE A N D SC R A M ­ BLES THE R E SO N A N C E OF WORDS. A W H I ST L I N G H A D TO G I V E UP T E A C H I N G TO ENTER A N A S Y L U M . S I G N I FI ERS AND M ET R I C A L E VO L U T I O N DOES BECOM E L E S S A P E T H A N T H E A P E B E C O M E S M A N . M I C E . THE N THE R E IS TH E FATH E R WHO H A S RETU R N E D TO WORK AT THE B A N K A N D WHO SLEEPS I N HIS U N I FO R M TH E R E B Y M A K I N G E V I D E N T T H E YET EXTERIOR FORCE TO WHICH H E I S SUBJ ECTED. IN THE S A M E M A N N E R. TO ZON E S OF FREED INTENSITIES OF TH E I R FOR M S . T O F I N D A WORLD O F P U R E INTENSITIES WHERE A L L FORMS AS W E L L AS ALL U N DO N E ." ANY INKLING OF RESEMBLANCE I S E LI M I N ATED: EVEN MORE E N E RG E T I C A L L Y "T H E KAFKA F R O M THE C H I E F C L E R K . H E A D O V E R H E ELS A N D A W A Y . FLIGHT BY I N T E N S ITY ("THAT'S WHAT I'VE DON E . TO REACH A CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S WITH V A L U E ONLY I N H A N D. A D D ITION A L V A L U E . A N SIGNI FICATIONS S I G N I F I EDS. T H I S W A Y O U T I S N O T THE R E S U LT OF F L I G HT. Q UITE IS THE ONLY CONTRARY. R E J ECTED BUT. V I B R A ­ IN A DESERTED M A TT E R : TURN PRECI PITATES I NT E N S I F I E S THE TH R E S H O L D S D E T ER R I TO R I A LI ZATION O F T H E DETE R RITORI A L I Z­ I NG H U M A N FORC E ( I F IT C A N BE SO pun. I'VE S N UC K AWAY."). APPARENT W H A T I S A T STA K E I S N O T T H E R E PRODUCTION O F F I G U R ES . W H E R E CONTENTS B R E A K J U ST AS EXPRESSIONS D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D B Y H U M A N FORCE. OF NON-SIG N I FY I N G KAFKA'S OR A N IMALS A NEVER REFER BUT TO SIGNS. FLIGHT USELESS MOTION I N S P A C E . S I MPLER. AS ON ONE COMES TH E R E C L E R K W H O COMES I N ORDER TO M E N A C E . "A OR. ON THE AN THESE THEN ARE THE TWO E FFECTS OF TH E DEVELOP M E N T O R COMIC BLOATING O F O E D I PUS: TH E D ISCOV E R Y A CONTRARIO OF OTHE R T R I ANGLES. IN THE ( B ECOMI NG-CO N S U M P­ A PAINFUL D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z I N G FLUXES O V E R F LOWS T H E L I M I T S O F STI L L T E R R I TO R I A L I M ITATION. IN ORDER TO FLEE WITH TH E ORCH I D : S E I Z U R E OF A B I T O F CODE A N D N O T I M A G E R E PRODUCTION. IN BUT D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z E S MORE BECOM I NG . IN TH E B E CO M I N G . FLE E I NG IN IN RETURN." IT IS TRUE THAT K A F K A'S A N I M A L TEXTS ARE FAR MORE COM P L E X FA R THAN WE IN SAY. T H E R E WAS NO 1 00 . IN IT A T T H E S A M E T I M E THAT T H E IN COUPLING TU R N ." IN R E A LI T Y . FOR PASSAGEWAY TUBER TH E S E PASSAGE W A Y S ARE U N DERGRO U N D I NTEN­ SITIES.AN I M A L'S ESCAPE ROUTES. ONLY C O R R E S PO N D TO G R A D I E N TS CROSSED. T O EXACT COM PLIANCE.A N I M A L FROM H U M A N . THE O RC H I D S E E M S TO R E P RO D U C E A B E E'S I MAGE. BUT MORE I M PORTANTLY. B U T A BECOM­ ING-H U M A N SENTED AS FROM A APE. COCK ROAC H E S C A N O N L Y B E D I ST I N G U I S H E D B Y V A R I O U S T H R ESHOLDS. TO CROSS A T H R E SHOLD. IN THE BY SOME OR U N D E RG R O U N D B U R ROW. " TO BECOM E A N I M A L I S PREC I S E L Y T O M A K E TH E MOTION. AN ANIMAL C A PT U R E D BY MAN IS DETERR ITOR I A LI Z E D F L U X . B U T T H E PRODUCTI ON O F A CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S IN AN APARALLEL WHERE MAN AND ASYM­ NOT A N D O F TH E M S E LV E S . TO F I N D A W A Y OUT AT T H E VERY POI N T W H E R E H I S FAT H E R COU L D FIND NONE.I NSECT. THE B E CO M I NG I S A SEIZURE. G R E GO R PROFO U N D L Y BEE. TH E A FORTIORI M A R K I N G OUT OF T H E O R PH A N E D BECOM I NG . A POS S E S S I O N . NO TEXT CONTRARY. B U S I N E S S A N D B U R E A U ­ C R ATS. A C O U G H "SEEMS WORRISOME." BUT H A S NO S I G N I F I C A N C E TI VE-A P E ) .A N OTH E R S P H E R E . DOGS. AND SOON A N I M A LS . VARIOUS V I BRATIONS. A RC H ET Y P E S M Y T H O L OG Y . I N " I N V E STIGATIONS OF A DOG. " THUS IS CONSTITUTED A CONJUNCTION WHICH OF D E P R I V E S WOR D S O F TH E I R M U S I C A N D M E A N I NG. T H E DOG S E E K S T O G R A B T H E G R EATEST D I F F E R E N C E . I N THE B ECOM I NG . " I W A S N 'T S E D U C E D BY TH E NOTION OF I M ITATION. I N OF ARE FAVOR OF A N U N FO R M E D MATTER. I I M ITATED BECA U S E I WAS LOO K I N G F O R A W A Y O U T .A P E . I T I S NOT A QU ESTION O F A BECOM I NG . I N S U C H A W A Y T H A T A S A R E S U LT M Y F I RST TEAC H E R BECAME A PE-LI K E H I M S E LF . FLIGHT IS AFFIRMED AS A PLACE. BUT THE D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D AND A N I MA L FORC E IN OUT B R E A K O U T O F T H E S I G N I F I E R W H I C H FOR M A L I Z E S TH E M . D E T E R R I TOR I A L I Z E S BECO M E S A C OC K R O A C H NOT ONLY I N ORDER TO FLEE FROM H I S FATH E R . A S IF "EV E N AT HOME H E E XPECTED TO HEAR TH E VOIC E HAND. O N L Y A S E E M I NGLY LI BERATING MOTION. NOTH I N G IS L E FT BUT MOV E M E NTS. TH I S BECO M I N G AND IS PRE­ WOULD S E E M T O S H O W THE TI E BETW E E N T H E S E TWO A S P ECTS B E TT E R T H A N "TH E M E T A M O R P H O S I S . A PE S . I AM ACCORDED THE F R E E DOM OF MOVEMENT WHICH IS COM PLETELY LAC K I N G OTH E R SOLUTION FOR M E S I N C E W E W A R D E D O F F THE POS S I B I LITY O F THE I M ITATION F R E E DOM. T O T R A C E ROUTE O F FLIGHT I N A LL ITS POS I T I V I TY. I N O R D E R T O R EA C H THAT R E G I O N W H E R E TH E VOICE N O LON G E R D O E S A N YTH I N G BUT B UZZ­ "'DID YOU HEAR HIM S P E A K I NG? THAT WAS AN A TT A C K S S U S P I C I O U S T E M PTATI O N S O F R E S E M B L A N C E W H I C H I M A G I N ATION M A Y PROPOSE TO H I M : " T H ROUGH H I S SOL I T U D E . IS ONLY ON THE OTH E R SINCE H E R E . T H E ENTI R E B EG I N N I N G O F "A R E PORT" I NS I STS O N TH I S POINT. "MY A P E N A T U R E F L E D OUT O F M E.

TAK E TH E I R SEATS "IN THE PLACES WHICH THE FATH ER. IT COULD BE S A I D THAT AT A CERTA I N MOMENT G REGOR'S DETERRITORIALIZING PROCESS. ISN'T IT TRUE THAT FORMS OF BECOM ING-A N I M A L FAI L TO FULFILL TH E I R OFFICE AND ALWAYS RETAIN A N AMBIGUITY THAT MAKES THEM I N S U F FI C I E NT A N D CO N D E M N S THEM TO BECAUSE THE R E I S STI L L DANGER OF A RESUR­ G E N C E OF O E D I P A L MASTERY. TH E I N C R EASING P E R V E R S ITY OF THE USAGE HAS N OT BEEN FAI LURE? A REN'T A N I M A LS THE M SELVES STI LL TOO FORMED. "THE M ETAMORPHOSIS" IS TH E EXEM PLARY STORY OF A RE-OEDIPALIZATION. AS A WHOLE. OF WHICH KAFKA FR EQUENTLY SPEAKS I N HIS D I A RY AND LETTERS. BUT. HIS IS G R EGOR'S W H O L E BECOM I NG­ BECOMI NG-BEETLE. RETURN TO BUT WHY." A N D. T H E R E A N I M AL. THE DOG. GI LLES DELEUZE AND FELIZ GUATTA RI EXCERPTED FROM KAFKA TRANSLATED BY RACHEL MCCOMAS 101 . IN REALITY. T H E MOT H E R AND G REGOR FOR M E R LY OCCUPI ED. HIS BECOMING-AN I M A L. FROM THEN ON. DUNG­ OEDIPALIZED B Y THE TOSS OF AN A PPLE A N D C A N ONLY DIE. THE THREE BUREAUCRATIC BOARDERS. B E ETLE. WHICH TRACE S THE INTENSE E SC A P E ROUTE IN R E LA T I O N TO T H E FA M I LY L I K EWISE. THIS IS WHAT HIS SISTER C A N N OT TOLERATE. H I G H VOLTAGE I N C E ST. I NC E S T WITH T H E S I STER A S OSCILLATE BETWEEN A SCHIZO ESCA PE A N D AN OEDIPAL I M PASS? OEDIPAL ANIMAL PAR EXCEL­ LENCE. THE FAM I LY C LOSES H A PPILY IN ON ITSELF. A N D ESPECIALLY IN R ELATION TO THE BUREAUCRATIC AND COMM E R C I A L TRIANGLE. I S GREGOR A T F A U LT I N THAT H E DOES NOT DARE TO GO ALL THE WAY? H I S SISTER WANTED TO CLEAR OUT H I S WHOLE ROOM I N ORDER TO PLEASE H I M . TOO SIGNI FYING. I N FAVOR O F A H I G H E R CONCERN." THE FACT I S THAT K A FKA'S P R I N C I P A L A N I M A LE SQ U E TEXTS WERE W R I TT E N J U ST BEFORE THE TRIAL. I N T H I S S E NSE. RATHER. COCKROACH. H E CLINGS TO TH I S PORTRA I T A S T O A LAST TERRITORI ALIZED I MAGE. TOO TERRI TORIALIZED? DOESN'T T H E BECOMI NG-A N I M A L. JEALOUS O F T H E POR­ TRAIT. BUT G R E GO R R E F U S E S T O ALLOW T H E M T O TAKE AWA Y THE PORTRAIT O F THE LADY M U FFLED I N FURS. AT THE V E R Y I N STANT O N E BELIEVES HE HAS CAUGHT HOLD OF THE TIE BETWEEN OEDIPUS' BEYOND AND BEFORE IAU-DELA ET EN· DECAl. A DEQUATE T O EXORCIZE A L L RE-CLOSING.OF HIS SUPERIOR:" FINALLY. LIKE GREGOR S H E WANTED SCHIZO I NC E ST.H U M A N I N C E ST W H I C H LIKE TH ERE I S THE I NTRUSION O F THE TH R E E BUREAU­ CRATIC BOAR D E R S WHO NOW PENETRATE THE VERY FAM I LY. O N E CANNOT E V E N B E CERTAIN THAT G REGOR W A S AT FAULT. SUBSTITUTE I N IT. APPLE E N C R USTED IN HIS BACK. THE BECOM I NG­ ANIMAL ASPECT OF GREGOR'S DETE R RITORIA LlZA­ TION FA I LS : HE A L LOWS H I M S E L F TO BE RE­ TIVE LY. A L L RECONSTITUTION OF THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE WHICH ITSELF TAKES C H A RGE OF OTH E R TRIA NGLES AS IT DOES OF THE ANIMAL ROUTES. S U C H AS THE MUSICIAN DOGS I N "INVESTIGATIONS" OR THE DIABOLICAL DOG IN "THE TEMPTATION AT THE VI LLAGE. O R COEXTENSIVE WITH I T A S A COUNTERPART TO THAT NOVEL WHICH IS FREED FROM ANY ANIMAL PROBLEMATIC. COR R E LA­ S E X U A L I TY BECOM I NG-AN I M A L. SHE BEGINS TO HATE G R EGOR AND CONDEM NS H I M. ALL OF A S U DDEN O P POS E D TO O E D I P A L I N C EST. IS AT THE S A M E TIME A SCHIZO BEAST. WAS BLOCKED. I S O N E FARTHE R A W A Y THAN EVER F R O M A WAY O U T ? W H Y DOES ONE REMAIN STUCK I N A N I M PASS? IT I S THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE'S PATER N A L PRINCI PAL. SHE ACCE PTED H I M . M A Y-BUG. TH E F A M I LY'S DETE R R I TO R I A L I ZATION INTO MORE COM PLEX A N D DIABOLICAL TRIANGLES HAS NO ROOM TO CARRY ON: THE FATHER KICKS OUT TRIANGLE. M A N I FE STS A N ON .

I SET A BOUT TO F I N D A MORE FAVORABL.OVED E M MA S O M UC H T H A T I FILLED H E R WITH MYSEL.ED. AND. W H Y D I DN'T I CON FIDE M Y PLAN TO HER? WHY SHOULD 17 T H E PRESENT IS THE PRESENT A N D TH AT'S ENOUGH. PROMONTORY WHEN I SAW THE YACHT WHICH H A D B E L. THE MOON WAS IN FRONT OF M E. IT M UST BEEN TWO IN THE MORNING: I HAD J UST TI M E TO R E A C H T H E I S L. BUSIED MYSEL. I H A D N EI TH E R M EMORY NOR PRESE NT. B E C A PTU R E D IN A WORD. ALTHOUGH M Y DREAMS REMAINED UNDER THE SIGN OF THE H U NTER'S MOON. THERE C A M E A M I LD E R EVENING WITH A LITTLE FOG ON T H E HORIZON.Y A NOI S E B E H I N D M E M A D E M E T U R N A RO U N D: A N E NORMOUS N I GG E R ACCOM P A N I E D B Y T W O M A STIFFS WAS WATC H I NG ME. A N D I SAW AS ON THE FI RST EVENING THE MOON E M E RG E D FROM THE SEA.E PORT. THE L.A N D I NG M Y BOAT AND F I N DI NG S H E L. AND DO U BTL.F. I WENT T O A RATH ER DISTANT CREEK HAVE WHERE THE BOATS WERE K E PT.EEP. I WAS ON MY WAY. I L.A N D B E F O R E S U D D E N L. BESIDES. I MYSELF H A D NOT SET T H E DAY. I SAW THE ISLAND. O W COASTLI N E WAS A M E R E M A R G I N OF S A N D AT T H E B A S E OF A N A B R U PT CLI FF. BUT S ETTI NG. THEN CONTI N U E ON FOOT. A N D ON T H E N A R ROW BEACH. A LTHOUGH I USED THE OARS I N O R D E R TO GO FASTER THAN THE COM ING DAY. I T WAS F U L L : THE CYC L E WAS COM PLETED. I WAS CROSSING.F WITH L.T E R FOR IT.ED BACK AND DECIDED TO L. BUT T H E CL. IT TRIGG E R E D IN M E A N E W FEAR. I T H E R EFORE M A NOEUVERED I N THAT D I R ECTION AND.ONGED TO T H E COUNTESS. PERHAPS BECAUSE I T WAS TOO WH ITE.D D I SC E R N NO D I V I SION BETWEEN THEM-TI M E WAS C A R RY I NG M E A S T H E S E A WAS CARRYING M Y BOAT.Y AWA R E OF ALL. I DECI D E D THE T I M E HAD C O M E .ESS-FOR A T THAT MOMENT M Y M I N D COUL. FATIG U E R E N D E R E D M E ACUTEL. THAT WAS GOI NG ON BETWEEN THE A I R A N D THE WATER-ACTIVITY TOO I NTA NG IBL.T H E DOGS THE C E RTAI NTY OF MY COMI N G DEPARTU R E H A D R E STORED MY TASTE F O R E M MA. S U D D E N L. HAVING TOUCHED SHOR E . L.IFF CONTIN U E D TO PRESENT T H E SA M E RIGHT A NGLE.ESS OCE A N BARELY RI PPLED B E N EATH THE PROW OF M Y BOAT. ENOUGH DAYBREAK.Y BEFORE ME. W H I L E A P I N K F I NGER ON T H E HORIZON A N NOUNCED T H E ADVENT OF D A Y . THE WAVEL. I WAS STE E R I NG AROUND THE HORN OF A S M A L. WHEN SHE H A D GON E T O SL. M I LKY AND V E I L.E TO 1 02 . I DOUBL.

IN FEAR CA USED MY REO EYES." FELT A S H I V E R DOWN MY BACK AS T H E I R TON G U E S TOUC H E D M E . I D I D N'T MOVE. HIS I M M E N S E BODY DOM I NATED ME. TH E THICK U N DER­ VEIN I N FLATED MY PENIS IN REG U L A R TH ROBS. GAVE JUST A S I THOUGHT T H E ORDEAL W A S D R A W I N G TO A CLOSE. I WOULD LIKE TO N G U E S SCROTU M . B E H I N D ME: ITS R E D N ESS. I WAITED FOR THE PA I N . SUDDENLY H E DREW A D A G G E R F R O M H I S POCKET A N D A S THE DOG L E A PT A W A Y . AND T H E I R SLAVER." A S H A DOW PASSED OVER ME: T H E N I GGE R WAS I N EXORA B LY: I WATC H E D TH I S PROCESS WITH A K I N D OF HORROR. TH E SUN WAS R I S I NG M A N CONTI N U E D TO STA N O O V E R ME. "WHATE V E R IN YOUR YOUR TH E I R GIVI NG MEMBER I LLUSION O F ENTE R I N G A HOSPITA BLE PORT. THEY WERE NOT GOI NG TO DEVOUR ME-NOT YET. THE BLADE WAS A BOVE MY EYES. IT GRAZED M Y FOR E H E A D SLIGHTLY A T THE B A S E OF MY NOSE. T H E N I G G E R L E A N E D OVER ME. IN A M A TT E R OF SECONDS I WAS N A KED. "SUCK BREATHE DEE PLY. R E P U LSIVE P A L LO R O F THAT GOURD STRI ATE D WITH PINK W R I N K L E S W H I C H WAS GOING TO CRUSH ME. S PA C E I N THAT I N STA NT. W H I C H T H E S H E E R U RGE T O F U C K COM M A N D E D T O S T A N O U PRIGHT I N S P I T E OF MYSE LF. TH E I R L I PS C U R LE D BACK IN A S N A R L. BEFORE I COULD H E E LS I R E S I STED. THE M A N M A D E A N OTH E R SIGN. I DI DN'T D A R E LOOK. SO THAT I SHOULD HAVE PLENTY OF T I M E TO C O N T E M P L A T E T H E BECOM E A N ENORMOUS BON E. A MARK ON MY SKIN. A B U N D A NTLY TASK BY D R E N C H ED. I SAW HIM BEND H I S LEGS. TH E R E WAS A SECOND O F I N FI N ITE ANGUISH IN WHICH I 010 MY UTMOST TO CONTROL M Y B R EATH I NG A N D NOT TO B U DGE. A FLASH. FOR E X P L A N AT I O N . THE DOGS SAT ON EITHER S I D E O F M E. AND THE TWO MONSTE R S LEA PT ON ME. TH E FOOT STO P P E D A FEW I NC H ES FROM M Y EYES. BUT T H E DOGS WORKED S K I LL­ ENED U P . I W A S T H ROWN ON T H E S A N D: ONE OF T H E BEASTS G R I P P E D M Y THROAT W H I L E T H E OTH E R S A T A S TR I D E M E. I M E COURAGE. FULLY WITH T H E I R T E ETH A N D CLAWS: THEY D I DN'T HARM M E. MY F A C I LI­ THE NOTI NG. THEN WAS L I FTED AGA I N .I S M I LED AT T H E M A N : HE R E M A I N E D I M PASSIVE. I STEPPED FORWA R D AND SAID: "I WOU LD LIKE TO S E E T H E COU NTESS. BREATHING R E G U L A R LY. TOO. THE M A N POI NTED TO MY GROIN AND THE TWO WOLFISH DOGS POU NCED ON MY CROTCH . SLOWLY. THEY TORE OFF MY CLOTH ES. THE I R TO N G U E S N O W M Y GAZE. H A P PE N S:' STO M A C H . SAW FOOT TOWA R D M Y FACE. STA R I NG ME IN THE FACE. THE LONG HAD PINK AN W H I PS HANGING TH E I R M A WS A M AZING SUPPLEN ESS A N D E N A BLED THE T W O Q U A D R U P E DS TO ENCI RCLE M Y P R I C K A N D PROBE MY A N U S WITH I R R ES I ST I B L E WHICH TATED I WAS VIGOR. WITH TH E K N I FE STILL EXTE N D I NG FROM H I S R IGHT H A N D. I C H O K E D B A C K THE C R Y WHICH ROSE THE DOGS STRETC H E D TH E I R N EC K S TOWA RDS ME: THE MAN I N M Y TH ROAT. T H E S H A DOW C OV E R E D COMPLETELY. N E I TH E R OF THEM H A R M E D ME. WI LLPOWER M IGHTI LY TO K E E P F R O M BECOMING E R ECT. THE DOGS LET ME GO. WITH THE FEELING OF PA RTIC I PATING IN SO M E UNCLEAN ITS ACT. B U T T H E LENGTH OF T H E I R TONGUES GAVE THE DOGS A TH I N K OF MOVING. I COULD NO LONGER ME SEE H I M. F I X E D ME FROM A BOVE. H E POINTED H I S WEAPON AT M Y BELLY. ANOTH E R M I NUTE AND I WAS NO 010 NOT C H A NG E HIS STATU E-LI K E POSITION. STI L L COLO. I D I DN'T MOVE. HIS EYES. P R E P A R I NG M Y N E R V E S TO OBEY I N STANT­ LY. E N V E LOPING ME. PHALLUS. M Y P E N I S WAS THE OTHER. FURIOUSLY. THEN MOVE HIS ENORMOUS ATTA I N E D LARGEST DI M E N S I O N S . WITHOUT MOVING MY H EAD. WAS COLD. AND THEN SHE I REMEMBERED: HAD S A I D. WATC H I N G . IT F E LL. BUT I COULD F E E L THEY W E R E R E A DY T O TEAR ME APART TO ON C O M M A N D. THE NIGGER D REW BACK. I N T H E MOUTH OF THE DOG WHO WAS PULLING AT IT. THE TWO WILD A N I M A LS ATTACK E D AGA I N . TERRIBLE A D V A NTAGE: NO MOUTH H A D E V E R H A D SUCH POW E R O V E R FROM ME. M Y C R OTC H . THE NIGGER STRA I G HT­ I R E M E M B E R . BUT THE HIS AIR H A N G I NG OUT: T H E Y WATC H E D M E C LOSELY. WHEN MY PENIS I HAD IT A PPROACH I NG . I CONTI N U ED: LONGER STRUGG L I NG AGAINST FEA R BUT A G A I NST THE ABOM I NABLE AWOKE A LONG T E M PT A T I O N IN MY I WHICH THOSE MY TO "I HAVE M ET T H E COU NTESS. S O T O SPEAK. H I S EYES A N D THOSE OF T H E A N I M A LS E X A M I N E D M E WITH A N A B S E N C E O F C U R IOSITY A N D COLDN E SS THAT WAS F R I G H T E N I NG. E X E RT E D A RO U N D HEAD FROM MY THE M A N MADE A N I M P E R C E PT I B L E SIGN. W I TH FLA KES SWIM M Y TH ROAT A N D MY BRAIN WAS BEH I N D THAT S E A R C H I NG SC R E E N AN WOR K I NG. I KNEW I MUST NOT MOVE. A VAGU E S M I LE S H O W E D H I S TEETH. HE WITH D R E W H I S FOOT. I FOLLOWED THE T H R E E B R UTES WITH M Y EYES. 1 03 .

STOPI" WRAPPED AROU N D P E N I S . THAT S H A M E F U L M E M B E R . T H E N FORC E D THEM OPEN. H I S K N I F E F L E W TOWARD M Y G ROI N. T H I S REASSU R E D TON G U E . AND FORTH. M A K I NG M E WAS N O T THE ONLY O N E ER ECT. M A ST. . WHO HAD DRAWN BACK. IN HIS I N C R E A S I N G EXC I TE­ WATC H E D M Y B E LLY HOISTING ITS WATC H I N G AND I WAS A WATC H I N G STRANGE MYSELF W A TC H I N G . I S H EATHS A N D T H E N DOG IS WORTH A P RI EST . THAT AND WOR K A N D M U C H T I M E A R E R E QU I R E D BEFORE TH E Y C A N W I T H D RAW. H E WHI STLED. A GENTLE IN A N D 1 04 . T H A T I WAS PAST THE H IG H EST PITCH. F O R T H E T I M E B E I N G TH EY W E R E I N I NC E S S A N T TH E I R MOV E M E N T. THE D E S I R E TO FUCK DEAD E N E D ALL R E ST R A I NT. B U T I N T H E M I DST OF M Y PLEAS U R E I D I D NOT R E A LIZE THAT THE I M POSSIBLE GIVES R I S E TO T H E I M POSSI B LE. DROPPI N G GOBS OF S A L I V A SPHINCTER. T H E N IG G E R GAVE A SHORT CRY. AN A N C I ENT VOI CE W I T H I N M E C R I ED. ALL OF A S U D D E N I ACCEPTED THE FACT.E N V E LO P E D SQUEEZED IT. H E BEGAN PANTING. A N D IT S E E M E D T O M E THEN. H I S S M I LE D I S P L A Y I N G MORE T E E T H . I S HOUTED: "NO. E N T E R E D NATU RALLY I NTO THE HORROR OF IT-FOR AFTER A L L.W H I STLED. HIS P E N I S NOW D R I P P E D O N M Y N EC K A N D C H E ST A S I T J E R K E D A BOUT I N A N ACC E L E RATED R H YTH M . T H E NIGGER G A V E ME A KICK TO S H U T M E U P AND T H E OTH E R DOG I N C R E A SE D H I S A R D E N T ATTEN­ TIONS: HIS DAMP NOSE SLIPPED B E TW E E N MY BUTTOC KS." S H E S A I D T U R N I NG H E R H E A D AWAY. ONE O F THE TATED A S T H O U G H I N THOUGHT. AGA I N HIS HAND POI NTED TO M Y BELLY. NO L I M IT. T H E R E WAS A NOTH E R FLASH. I SAW T H E H I LT O F T H E DAGG E R SAND. NO L I M IT. THE NIGGER W A S STA N D I NG AT MY FEET. I R A I S E D MY H I PS TOWA R D S TH E I R M O U T H S . DA RTI N G IT I N A N D OUT. TH I S WAS N A TU R E TDO. M ENT T H E A N I M A L BEGAN TO KICK U P T H E SAND SO VIOLE NTLY THAT I WA S SOON COV E R E D WITH IT. I LOW E R E D M Y C H I N A L I TTLE. I R E A L I Z E D HE W A N T E D TO F I N D A HOLE. Y E T I FOU N D N E I TH E R S H A M E NOR HORROR WITH I N M E . AS TH E T W O DOGS PLAYED WITH M E . L I FT E D H I S H A U N C H E S SLIGHTLY A N D A I M E D HIS COCK AT MY MOUTH. H I S BALLS J U ST ABOVE M Y EYES. STR ETC H E D OUT H I S C H E ST. CARESSED GUMS PLEA­ S U R A B L Y THAT I O P E N E D MY MOUTH. AND THE BEA STS R E S U M E D THEIR TASKS. ROOTED AT IT WHAT I WAS G O I N G T H R O U G H EXC E E D E D E V E R Y ­ WITH HIS M UZZLE AND THEN BEGAN U S I NG HIS T H I N G I COULD H A V E I M AGI N E D. BALLS S L A P P E D AG A I N ST ME. R U B B E D H I S H A I RY M UZZL E I N M Y F A C E A N D B E G A N U S I NG H I S TON G U E W H I L E H I S T H I G H S A N D HAUNCHES BEGAN TO QUIVER ST R A N G E LY : HIS TON G U E S WAS R E LENTLESSLY FLIC K I NG M E FROM MY BALLS TO MY ANUS. A N D STOOD D I R ECTLY O V E R ME: H I S R E A R LEGS PLANTED ON EITH E R S I D E O F MY H E A D . IN AN ATTE M PT TO FORCE OPEN T H E F LAI LED VIOLENTLY BACK MY COCK ME. NO P A I N . A N D TH E N I HAD IN MY MOUTH THAT STR ANGE TH I NG . SO M UC H SO. THE FIRE HAD TO B U R N ITSELF OUT. FOR RIDER BENT HIS LEGS. "IT I REMEMBERED LIKE A MY R E A LIZE MOTH E R ' S REMA RK: S M E L LS WILD I N D E ED. . TH E DOGS. MY THE OTH E R ONE WAS IT. U N DE R THE MONSTERS' B E LLIES I COULD SEE TH E I R J UT T I N G DEGREE LONG P E N I S E S WHOSE L E FT NO REDNESS A N D AS TO THE A N I M AL. SHAME. A LT E R N A T E L Y C A U S I N G H O R R I B L E TH I NG. RIGHT BETW E E N M Y COULD HARDLY DECEIVE MYSELF ABOUT THE I NTENTION T H E DOGS H A D I N TERMS OF M E : BUT W H A T I D I D N 'T K N OW W A S T H A T A B E I N G A L I E N TO TH E I R R A C E H A D E N L A R G E D T H E F I E LD OF TH E I R I N STI NCT BY T E M P E R I NG I T WITH H I S O W N I M AG I N A ­ TION. NOW. MOREOVER. A N D I LET MYSELF GO. THERE WAS D I STANC E WITH I N M E W H I C H CONTA I N E D T H E H A L L OF M I RRORS WHERE MY S ELF-IMAGE D W E LT-A SHATTERED I M AG E I NTO W H I C H M Y FUTU R E B L E D I NTO THE PRESE NT. T H E MONSTE R'S L A N C E W A S ON M Y L I PS: IT K N OC K E D A G A I N ST TH E M CONTI N U A LLY A N D COV E R E D T H E M WITH A BITTE R-TA STING L U BRICA NT. EXCEPT PLEASURE. T H O S E R E PU L ­ S I V ELY T H I N M E M B E R S C A N S W E LL CON S I D E RABLY IN T H E H EAT OF ACTION O N C E T H EY HAVE ENTERED TH E I R R E C E PT A C L E . THE ANIMAL HESI­ I WAS E RECT.THAT HEAVY CHEEK. AND WEDGING B E TWE E N THE MY JAW SO AND MEATUS O F TH E I R DOUBT E XC I T E M E NT. R E T U R N E D . ST I C K I N G OUT OF THE L E G S . 0 1 0 WON D E R S . FOR THE BON E HAD LOST M U C H O F THE ITS S I Z E D U R I NG THE REKINDLED MY I BEGA N TO GUESS THIS WAS THE C A S E WHEN ONE OF T H E MONSTERS-THE ONE WHO H A D PERFOR M E D M I RACLES WITH H I S TONG U E I N T H E S E R V I C E OF M Y ORGAN-SUDDENLY C HANGED HIS POSITION K N I FE-T H R OW I N G . S N I F F E D AT MY ASSHOLE. I AND I WAS TON G U ES WITHOUT L E TT I N G G O O F H I S OBJ ECT. TH E N CROUCH E D DOWN . W H Y D I D I H A V E T O L E A R N S O C R U D E LY THAT A M E M BERS T O STICK O U T O F TH E I R F U R R Y P L U N G E BACK I NTO T H E M . MY I STA RTED TO BECOME AWA R E OF TH I S AS D ROPS O F A MUSKY I ESSENCE SPURTED O N M E .

HUGE WAVES WITH T H E I R BLACK WALLS W E R E H U RT L I N G T O W A R D ME A N D W E R E C R E A T I NG H I D EOUS HOLLOWS I NTO W H I C H W E W E R E GOING TO FALL. I WASH E D AND SHOOK MYSELF OFF. WAS HE COM I N G CLOSE R T H E BETTER TO WATCH US. RESIGNED TO A REPLAY O F THE PREVIOUS SOON A S I PERFORMANCE. THE AIR IS ROAR I NG : I HAD NEVER REALIZED HOW L I K E A N O C E A N TH E A I R C A N B E WITH W A V E S CRASHING A N D ROLLING. B U T S E E I NG T H A T I STI LL D I D NOT I M M EDI ATELY STA RTED OFF AT F U L L SPEED. AND THREW ME VIOLENTLY I NTO THE SEA. T H E DOG WHO H A D LATELY LICKED T H E HOLE I N M Y ASS S E E M E D M U C H M O R E EXCITED T H A N H I S COMPANION. B EC A U S E HIS TONGUE H A D M A D E SOM E PROGRESS. EVEN MORE F I R M LY T H A N MY K NOTTE D LIMBS DID. THE DOG SU DDENLY T U R N E D HIS BACK THERE WAS A G U T T U R A L C R Y A N D THE DOG ON ME. TWI NED THEM AROUND THE N EC K OF THE A N I M A L THAT I WAS SUCKING. H EC A T E W A S T H E WRITING BECA M E U RGENT AND B E V E L B A R E L Y A P P A R E NT. MY H EA RT WAS I N M Y THROAT. MOV E D U P A N D D O W N S P R E A D I NG S A L I VA LICKING A N D TICKLING. WAS BLACK A S WELL. A FLASH OF HATE GLI M M ERED IN THE N I GG E R'S EY ES: T H E DOGS TH R EW THEMSELVES ON ME AGA I N A N D KNOC K E D M E T O T H E GROUND. A I R WAS ROA R I NG I N MY EARS. BEATING T H E COUNTRY S I D E WITH H E R MONSTERS: THE CRESC E N T WAS BLACK ON HER B ROW. L I FTED M Y LEGS. OR WAS H E GOI NG TO TEAR ME AWAY FROM MY LOVER7 I WAS A L R E A D Y EXPRESSING MY RAGE I N G R U NTS BECA U S E I COULD NOT PRONOUNCE A N Y WORD. A LONG S H U DD E R WENT THROUGH THE A N I M A L AS I T T U R N E D BACK TOWA R D M Y M O U T H . H E STARTED T O MOVE H I S DAGGER I N A N D O U T OF ITS SHEATH. T H E N IGGER WAS WATC H I NG ME. BEC A U S E I T C A STRATES THE I MAGINATION AND T H E R EFORE IS A N OBSTACLE TO EXPERI ENCE. T H E N M I N E BEGAN M O V I N G AGA I N : I T A L L A LONG IT. I N M Y MOUTH H I S T H I NG GREW ROU N D A N D SWELLED U P: IT W A S AS THOUGH M Y TONGUE W E R E FLAT ON THE G R O U N D AND MY JAWS WERE D I ST E N D E D TO F O R M T H E MOST STU PEFI E D 0 M Y LIPS H A D E V E R M A D E . D R U GG E D BY MY OWN DESI RE. E A G E R L Y A TT E N T I V E . I BEGAN TO SUFFOCATE WITH MY NOSE B U R I E D I N H I S FUR: I WAS SUFFOCATI NG AND I MOV E D MY ARMS A N D LEGS LIKE A N I N E X P E R I E N C E D SWI M M E R WHOSE EVERY MOVEM ENT. BUT AS W E W E R E A B O U T TO PITCH INTO THE FRAY. SO BUSY WAS I I N S U C K I N G H I S T H I N G THAT SLID BETWEEN M Y LIPS AGA I N AND AGAIN. M Y B A C K SCRA P E D AGA I N ST T H E S A N D A N D W A S TOR N O P E N BY T H E STON ES. M Y MAST UPRIGHT A N D SHINY W I T H S LI M E I N T H E SUN LIGHT. AND MY BODY. DRAGGED M E BEHIND H I M. ALL I COU LD FEEL WAS THE I NSANE T H ROB B I N G OF THE DOG ' S COCK IN IN MY MOUTH AND MY O W N SWO L L E N C O C K H I S M O U T H . I DID NOT MOVE FROM THE GROUN D. LEANED OVER A N D GRABBED M E BY T H E NAPE. A MERE C R E SCENT STRETC H E D BETW E E N TWO ORA L CAVITI ES. THE N I GG E R SCREA M E D . THE TWO DOGS W E R E STA RING A T M E : O N E WAS QUI ETLY SITTI NG T H E R E . THE N IGGE R'S S H A DOW FELL UPON US. I N STEA D O F STR I K I NG M Y MOUTH WITH THE TIP OF HIS BLADE. T H E N T H E N IGGE R GRABBED M Y F E ET. BEHIND T H E M . T H E DRI PPI NG M EATUS. FROM T H E VERY H EA­ VENS. A CARESS I H A D D R E A M E D ABOUT WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT TH E D R E A M M E ANT. WHEN I REGA I N E D M Y S E N S ES. STA N D I NG VERY STRAIGHT WITH H I S LEGS A P A RT. THE N I GG E R M U ST H A V E B E E N WAITING FOR THAT M O M E N T : I H E A R D H I M C R U N C H I N G THE S A N D AROU N D M E A N D T H E N C H A S I N G AWAY T H E DOG WHO WAS BADG E R I N G T H E HOLE IN M Y ASS-AND WHO WAS LOATH TO LET GO. WHEN O U R GLANCES M ET. DOES NOTHI N G BUT E N S U R E H I S PERDITION. A N D EVEN THOUGH I WAS S UFFOCATI NG. FLA M E S E N V E LOPED M E : T H E 1 05 . THE OTH ER O N E W A S TRYING TO NIP AT W H ITISH FI LAM E NTS DROOLING FROM HIS C H I N . W R A P P E D ITSELF A RO U N D T H E G L A N S . TH E N H E SEIZED MY H A N DS TWI N I NG THEM AROUND THE C RO U P O F M Y R I D E R SO THAT I FOU N D M Y S E L F H A N G I N G U N D E R I T S B ELLY. LODGE D AGAI N ST M Y PALATE WAS A CARESS. HE STOPP E D M O V I N G H I S TON G U E . BUT A S H A D REACHED T H E DESI R E D STATE." I SAI D. THE SHOCK OF THE WAT E R BROUGHT M E BACK TO MYSELF AND TO THE PRESENT. "I WANT TO S E E TH E COUNTESS. I W A S THI RSTY A S THOUGH I HAD EATEN VERY SPICY FOOD. AND IT WAS H E THIS TIM E WHO TRIED TO GET MY COCK H A R D. I D E C I D E D TO L E T M Y S E L F GO A N D T O ACCEPT T H E RITUAL. THAT S H A DOW S U D D E N LY ACROSS THE T H RESHOLD! THE CAGE I S SO N A R ROW! M Y H EART I S GOING TO STOP. TH E D OG T E N S E D H I S M U SCLES. A N D T H E LAST ONE WOULD· S U R E LY D ROWN ME.OUT MOVEMENT WAS WR ITING ON MY TONGUE THAT ALL DOGMA I S H ATEFUL. T H E A N I M A L'S HUGE KNOT THAT I HAD IN MY MOUTH H E LD M E FAST. BEGA N T O MOVE: I T E XPLOR E D T H E GLANS. I NS T E A D OF H EL P I N G H I M . HE CA M E U P TO ME. AND M Y TONGU E T H E B I TT E R . A N D THEN C A M E OVE R TO T H E MAN A N D H I S A N I M A LS. H I S TONGU E LOLLI NG. PICKED M E U P.

H E L I K E N E D HIS DESTI N Y TO A S H I P'S A N D M O R E O FT E N .R I S E . TH E A N I M AL. A N D T H E N .R E ACT. I M M E DI ATELY B L A D E IN THE S U N LI G H T . OH. T H R O B B I N G COCK. B A T H E D V E R Y L E I S U R E LY. T H E N I G G E R DEC I D E D T H A T I N E E D E D A H E LPI NG H A N D A N D . H E H A D A S M ALL ANT F O R PET W H I C H H E K E PT I N A N OLD. W H I C H I S T O S A Y (OTH E R TH A N THE OBVIOUS) THAT T R UDY'S SENSE OF B A L A N C E W A S E ROTIC I N T H E EXTR E M E. A N D T H E N C A M E BACK T O THE NIGGER. FOLLOW M E . T H E MONSTE R I M PA LED H I M S E L F ON MY PENIS IN ONE R I NG QUICK OF HIS MOVEMENT ASS AND MY TIGHTENING THE A ROU N D STA LK. W H E N T R U DY'S C ROTCH B E A U T I F U L WENT TO POT. I FELL FACE FOR W A R D ON THE " P L E A S E ." PENIS A LL.F A S H I O N E D TOOTHPASTE TUBE. TH I S HE M A N I P U LA T E A N D S T E E R A S THROUGH I T W E R E A N A P H I D U NTI L T H E J U I C E S F LOWED. T H E N I G G E R H E LP E D M E T O M Y F E ET. THE N IGGER ST E E R E D MY C OC K "DO YOU WANT TO SEE THE COUNTE SS?" TOWA R DS T H E H O L E OF H I S FAVORITE'S ASS.B Y E . MY E S S E N C E S P U R T E D I N U N I SON WITH T H E A N I M A L'S WHO B R O K E AWAY HOWLI NG. HE TU R N E D ME A RO U N D G E NTLY. WHICH W A S REA LLY A CONVEX. P E R H A PS. THE ANT DID NOT S E E M TO CARE. WITHDREW THE W E A PO N I M PA L I N G M E A N D POI N T E D A T T H E S E A : W H E R E CONTR A R Y F E E LI N G S O V E R W H E L M E D M E : A TE R R I B L E PA I N IN MY BATTE R E D ASS AND AN EQU A L LY T E R R I B L E P L EA S U R E I N M Y BALLS. FONDLE. THE A N T WOU LD HAIRS GRAZE TH E N U PON HIS FACE EAR AND NOSE WORK SLOWLY DOWN TO T R U DY'S D. SEIZED M Y COCK I N ON E OF H I S E N O R M O U S H A N DS A N D DRAGG E D T H E R U T T I N G DOG C LOS E R T O M E W I TH H I S OTH E R H A N D . H E TRIED TO EXTRACT M Y ESSENCE OF M A N .TH E STA R E D Q U I ZZICALLY A T M E A N D TH E N A T H I S MASTER. C. LARGELY W E LL­ PROPORT I O N E D E X C E PT FOR THE HEAD. IT RUBBED ITS H I N D-LEGS TOGETH E R D U L Y CONTE M PLATED F R O M D A W N T I L L STA R . T H E R E S U LT W A S A F R A N T I C E FFORT ON MY PART TO F U C K AS W E L L AS J E R K OFF T H E DOG . BUT YOUTH W I L L OUT. THIS HE WOU L D STRO K E . W H E N A LO N E . SHE IS E X P E C T I N G YOU AND I WAS S E N T TO W E LCOME YOU. STRETC H E D OUT ON T H E T H R ESHOLD OF T H E I N F I N ITE. AS H E FO R C E D ME TO GRAB HOLD OF THE DOG'S I STA R E D STR A I G H T AT H I M AND DID NOT A N SW E R . STU F F E D WITH A DAGG E R H A N D L E TRANSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE TRUDY OR THE S EC R ET A PH I D RUDDER. S LOATE 1 06 . P E R FECTLY T R A I NED. I N S I D E-OUT N A V E L. BY-TH E . BUT SINCE AT I WAS N O T M A N I P ULATING TH E DOG TURNED AND DOG'S "TH E C O U N TESS WILL B E P L E A S E D TO S E E YOU. A N D F LA S H I NG ITS TH R E W M E D O W N ON MY K N E E S ." SOM E T H I N G S TR A N G E HAPPENED IN MY B ELLY I W A L K E D STIFFLY A N D C A R E F U L LY TOWARDS T H E OC E A N . "YOU S H O U LD W A S H AGA I N . TRUDY H A D A CROTCH B E A U T I F U L. T H E N OTH E R S D I D. BERNARD NOEL A N D YET M Y ASS. BACKED U P TOW A R DS M E AND LOW E R E D HIS H I N D E N D S O AS TO P L A C E T H E H O L E I N H I S A S S AT T H E RIGHT ANGLE. HE GRABBED ME UNDER THE ARMS AND WAS THERE FOR A LL TO S E E . T H E A NrS T O A C A PT A I N·S. S I NC E H E A P P E A R E D T O BE E X P ECTING A N A N S W E R. T H I S IS A H A PPY TALE A S I H A V E O M N I SC I ENTLY D E C I D E D A N D T H E R E FO R E I T W I L L NOW E N D . S O P A S S E D T H E N I G HTS A N D T H E Y E A R S . HOLD I NG H I S D A G G E R B Y THE B L A D E . R A M M E D I N O N E STR O K E T H E H A N D L E U P M Y ASS. I DREW B A C K M Y L I PS AND SHOWED H I M M Y C L E N C H E D TEETH." S A N D .

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TAK E A FEW PUFFS TO STA RT TH E SMOKE FLOWI NG. ARMS AND LEGS B R ACLETED WITH TI NSEL. SHOPS TILTING OVER TH E GARBAGE I N THE CANA LS. AT THE FAR E N D OF TOWN. FLYSPECKED CALENDARS WITH COLOU RED PRINTS OF GODS. A CRACKED STUCCO CATH E D R A L IN THE STYLE OF GOA OR MACAO. H A N D I T OVER TO THE PATRON. AT TEN HE FI RST LEA R N E D HOW TO SERVE THE CU STO­ MERS: THE OLDER BOYS TAUGHT HIM TO HEAT THE HASHISH OVER A BRAZIER TILL I T CO U L D BE W A I S T S -GO L D E N N A RCOTI Z E D . A YELLOW CAT. LOW LATR I N E . WHITELY CURVED AND PALM L I N E D -THE TOWN: TI N-ROOFED HOUSES. TH E I R LONG C U RLS BRAIDED A N D C ROWNED WITH H EAVY WHITE FLOWERS. WITH THE T I PS H E E A R N E D H E C O U L D B U Y RICE A N D F I S H . TA M P THEM DOWN. I N T H E E V E N I NG S O N E O R TW O O F TH E M WOU L D DRESS LIKE GIRLS IN A SAC R E D DRAMA AND P E R FORM THE TRADITION A L DANCES. THE DA N C E R S WERE WELL TI PPED. THE S I V E R P I P E CAFE-STA I N E D WALLS. MOTHS. MOVI NG S LO W S H I FT I N G SLENDER H I P S TO T H E CRUMBLED I NTO LI ITLE PASTI LL ES-TH EN FILL THE BLACKSTONE BOWL OF THE LONGSTE M M E D S I LVER CANDLELIGHT OF D R U M . LIPS ROUGED. TEA-POT SPUMES CAUGHT IN SLANTING SUN. D I SSOLUTE E U ROPEAN FROM TH E S H I PS TO THE BEACH. AND SLEPT AT N IGHT IN TH E CA FE OR ON THE BEACH. H UDDLED TOGETH E R OUTS I D E TH E BACK OF THE CAFE NEXT T O T H E D E C AY E O . RADIO CRACK­ LING WITH GAMELAN AND C H I N ESE POP TUNES­ AND DARKLY S H A DOWED AS THE STAGE BETWEEN WAKI NG A N D S L E EP-A HYPNAGOGIC CAFE. CHOOSE HOT COALS AND ARRANGE TH EM WITH TONGS OVER THE D R UG.TH E S I LV E R P I P E C A F E ORPHANED AT N I N E H E LEFT H I S VI LLAGE A LONE AND CAME DOWN ON THE AN C O A ST B E LOW TH E PIPE. LYI NG A QUARTER OF A MILE OUT IN THE S H A L LOW B A Y . ONE RUPIYAH PER PIPE. DARK S A I LORS WITH E A R R I NGS.LONG BOATS FETCH AND CARRY BROWN I N TH E I R H E ES. A C H I N E S E OR MOSLEM M E R C H A N T. DISAPPEARED WITH 1 08 . AT FI RST HE F E LT NO I NT E R E S T SAVED IN TH E D R U G -BUT T H E R E M N ANTS AND OLDER BOYS U N B URNT C R U M B S A N D SMOKED T H E M . FETCH TEA MEN AND C I G A R ETTES FOR THE OLD FLOWER-PATTERNED LUNG­ SOUTH E R N H I LLS-ONCE I N DE P E N D E N T S U L­ TANATE W H E R E THE M E N M A D E TH E I R LIVINGS AS P I R A T E S -S O M E GRAN DFATHERS NOW STI L L REMEMBER-I N THE I R LATEEN RIGS WITH REO SAILS OR B LACK. A LONG SHED. A N D W H E N THEY L I T P I P E S F O R C USTO­ MERS THEY I N HA LED AS M UCH AS THEY COULD. FAC I N G THE SAND. THATCH-ROOFED AND ADVENTURER OR F A I L E D PRI EST. FLUTE A N D GONGS. S I LK C LOTH S B OU N D A R OU N D TH E I R C H I LD I S H AS IF PLATFORMS AROUND TH E ROOM WHERE HABITUES REC L I N E .

N ECKLACES OF SEED PEA RLS AND J A S M I N E . A WARM SLUGGISH R A I N SPATTERED THE DRY ROOF­ THE BOYS SMOKED. AND THE I N K Y CLOTH SET O F F HIS PALLOR A N D THE H I NT OF GOLD IN H I S BROWN B A NGS A N D COFFEE-TINTED EYES-A N OLDER BOY TA UGHT HIM A TRICK: IF YOU WANT A BIGGER TIP. BLOOD H E WAS T H E PA LEST BOY IN THE CAFE. AWAY FROM THE PATRON'S EYE AND EAR AS H E NODDED OVER HIS TEA-POTS-CE I L I N G FAN S STI R R E D THE A I R. A N D TH E HASH I S H M I RRORS HIS PIGEON'S MOA N S. THE N I GHT STROKES HIS I N NO­ AT NIGHT. DERVISH BOY.TH E I R A D M I R E R S A N D C A M E JEWE LS. A N D T H E SILVER HANDS D R I PPING FROM TH E STARS-NOW H E I S A D E VOTEE I N VENTED. DOU B L E . THE AGA I N. A N D THE LILACS O F H I S H A NDS OPEN FOR YOU A CRACK BETWEEN EARTH AND SKY. BY THE TI M E HE WAS TWELVE H I S EYES WERE ALWAYS LAZY. STILL ANOTHE R Y E A R OR TW O BEFORE H E M U ST BEGIN T O DEPILIATE H I S BODY AND U S E POWDER L I K E THE OLDER BOYS- E M BLE M . PIPE WITH OPALESQUE . AT TH IRTEEN HE DANCES IN A COSTU M E OF HIS OWN I NVENTION: A LONG LOINCLOTH OF LILAC­ COLORED SHANTUNG. LIKE YOUNG PYE-DOGS IN TH E SHADE-NIGHTB I R D S MOA N E D OUTSIDE THE CAFE. R U N N I N G I T S G LOWWOR M TONGUE O V E R H I S TH I N L E G S . BRIGHTER THA N A M BER. HE SAVED COI N S N E W SA RONG F R O M A THI EF. AND HE BACK WITH TOYS OR BUT THE H A S H I S H NOW K E E PS H I M AWAKE SOM E NIGHTS. FINGERS IT TILL IT WA KENS. A M A N GAVE H I M A GOLD C H A I N FOR H I S N E C K IN EXCHANGE FOR A BOTH WORSH I PP E R A N D OBJECT OF WORSH I P. BELLS ON HIS BARE A N K L E S A N D W R I STS. UNDER THE STA R I NG ROOF. A B E LT OF CHASED SILVER. H I M S E LF: IN TH I S R E LIGION I HAVE HE IS BOUGHT A WATER E D BLACK OF HASHISH A N D LITTLE BOYS. A PI RATE OF S E LF-A B U S E . INVADE SPERMY HIS AND VEINS A H U NDRED A N D S I X MOONS THEI R HE PULSING LIGHTS L I G H T. AT THE DETE R M I N E D TO M A STER THE I R SKI LLS. A N D H E TOO BEGA N TO STEA L GREEN FLA K E S FROM AND HIS C U STOM ERS. WATCHING IT GLITTER IN THE MATCH-LIGHT. T H E MOON. C U R L E D UP TOGETH ER AGAINST TH E D I RTY BOLSTE R S TO W H I S P E R A N D SLEEP. OWL'S W I N G S B R U S H H I S SHOU LDERS AND THIGHS. AND FILL ALL TI M E WITH THE PUBESCENT LIGHTNI NG OF A SINGLE PIPE. H E A L O N E AWAKE I N TH IS ANDROGYNOUS C A F E . BALANCING TH E COOL S T E M ON H I S K N E E . AND THE TROPICAL LIMBS OF SLE E P I NG BOYS. PETE R WI LSON 1 09 . CENCE. AND KISS. M E LTING WITH I NTOXICATION -LATE SMOKE ENGLOBES H I S SPACE. T H E N P R E T E N D N O T T O NOTICE BUT STAY NAKED FOR A FEW M I N UTES TILL YOU TIE IT AGA I N . T H E S K Y OPEN S A N D BETWEEN H I S LEGS T H E BLACK SILK CHAFES HIM TI LL H E TH ROWS I T OFF-THE S I LK. TOO I NSANE TO MOVE. THE LAST FEW C U STOM E R S SLUMBERING D E E PLY. THE SILVER PIPE CAFE IS MADE OF M I R RORS-TAKE TH I S N IGHT FOR A N THE H A LF-B R E E D YOU R ACOLYTE F O R Y O U R LIMBS TANGLED TOGETH E R . T H E MOON LIGHT K I S S I N G H I S FEET. W H I L E YOU SERVE TH E M TH E I R PI PES. LET YOU R SARONG FALL OPE N . AS I F BY ACCIDENT. M I RRORS. BY ELEVEN H E D I SCOVERED T H E PLEASURE OF TH E PI PE.S E X E D S H A M A N CHI LD. HE AND HIS F R I ENDS WOU LD H U DDLE TOGETHER ON ONE OF T H E PLATFORMS. FEARFUL THE OTH ERS M IGHT B E FEIGNING SLEEP. E V E R Y D A Y H E SWA M I N TH E SEA. OF C H INESE SI LK-WITH HIS WHITE C R ES C E N T MOON A GREEN PARROT PERCHED O N ITS CUSP. MORE ELECTRIC THAN SILK AND DA RKER.

.OV I N G M A N N E R B E R N A R D I DLI NG A LONGS I D E H I M PLAYS T H E R O L E O F TH E H A NDSOME YOUNG HOOD F R E E W H E E L I NG BERNIE ON HIS W H E E LS THEY'VE SOM E H OW WITHOUT E V E R DISC U S S I N G I T A G R E E D 1 10 ..COU NTESS L U L U TH R E E T I N Y N A V E LS S E E N TOG ETH E R A L L A LMOST A L I K E ONE M I N USCULE E M B EDDED WITH I N A BELLY TH E C O LO R OF DAWN ANOTHER E LO N G A T E D LIGHT OH YOU'RE TOO C H I C K E N WE'LL N E V E R A S K YOU TO C O M E A LONG WITH US AGA I N B E R N A R D SWUNG H I M S E LF L E I S U R E LY O F F HIS B I CYCLE R A N G T H E B E L L A LONG S I D E T H E G R I LLEWORK G A T E C A L L E D OUT I M PATI E NTLY TI M I D L Y AND A F A T B O Y H I S OWN A G E TH E TI N Y HOUSE THEY SLA N T I N G TH E E Y E OF A DOE T H E T H I R D BROWN TINGED WITH A M B E R FLECKS THE T I N I EST OF THE TH R E E B E LONGS TO WATC H I NG ME STA N D I N G ON THE CAME OUT OF RIVERBANK TH E OTH ER TWO D A I S I E S H EA D E D O F F TOW A R D T H E R I V E R F A T L U L U ON FOOT B E R N A R D BACK ON H I S B I K E ZIGZAGG I N G SLOWLY BACK AND FORTH OVER THE H U M P IN THE C E N T E R OF TH E ROAD WOBBLING P E R I LOU SLY AT TIMES R E A C H I NG UP TICK I NG M Y A R M P ! TS TH E Y G ROW S O V E R Y T A L L H E R E I N TH E M A RSHLAND BIG WHITE GOL D E N FLOW E R S S M E L L I N G OF PEE P E E SMELLING OF FLOWERS M A K I NG ME S N E EZE DOE'S E Y E B EC A U S E TH E FRONT W H E E L T U R N E D T OO SLOWLY MOV I N G TO THE L E FT THE RIGHT B E R N A R D TRYING TO KEEP THE BIKE B A L A N C E D SO HE WOU LDN'T W I N K S D I SAPPEARS W I TH I N A FOLD OF C L A U D E'S BELLY H E'S SEATED A M I DS H I P S FEET SPLASH T H E WATER T H A T COV E R S T H E TA R R E D B O A T BOTTOM DOE'S E Y E W I N K I N G B LI N K I NG W H E N E V E R HE LEA N S O V E R TO B A I L O U T MORE WATE R F L A TT E N S TAUTENS STRA I N S AMBER NAVEL EXE RTI ONS OF FA LL ON H I S A S S G I V I N G A FEW I DLE T U R N S NOW AND T H E N TO T H E P E D A LS T H E R E ST OF T H E TI M E C O A ST I N G F R E E WH E E L I NG TIRES ON GRAVEL E M ITTING A N AG R E E A B L E H U M M I NG O F H A PPY B E E S B E R N A R D H A D C A L L E D OUT H I T H E R E FAT C U N T WHEN LULU CAME OUT OF THE HOUSE WE'RE B E R NA R D'S TORSO A S H E HOI STS H I S A R M S H I G H C L U TC H I N G TH E HANDLE OF THE STER N OAR LOO K I N G L I K E H E'S ABOUT T O POLE VA U LT WITH I T SAILING OVER TO THE I S LA N D W A N T T O C O M E A LONG F A T C U NT? L U L U I S NOT R EALLY A L L THAT FAT ITS MOSTLY B E C A U S E OF Y A N N H E Y A R E N'T YOU COM I NG TOO S H R I M P? HE G E ST U R ES TOWARD M E TH E N TUGS Y A N K S U P H I S R E D B R I EFS S H I N Y M A T E R I A L CAUGHT P I N C H E D T I G H T W I T H I N T H E FUR ROW OF H I S A S S I S H A K E M Y H E A D T H A T BOAT DOESN'T B E LONG TO U S FACE HORMONES HIS ROU N D MOON MAYBE A N D H I S C L U M SY SLOW­ .

TU R N I N G TH I N G S SOME B E FO R E H A N D BUT DOESN'T S E E M TO MIND H E L I K E S SUCKING SO M UC H LITTLE GYPSY G I R L H I S GANG HAD BEATEN UP A N D TH EN GANG-FUCKED L U L U WATC H I NG BERNA RD H EY FATSO WANT T O KNOW SOM ETH I N G FATSO GROW H A R D MOVES H I S MOUTH N E A R E R G R A S P I N G FISHLI K E B E R N A R D SLAPPING H I M H A R D A C ROSS BOTH C H E E K S B U T LUC I EN BEGS I N S I STS NOSTRI LS TH I N K YO U'RE A R E A L Q U E E R C U N T FATSO YES Q U I V E R F LA R I N G W I D E LIKE A FRIGHTEN E D M A R E'S STI NK O F PISS STI N K OF S E M E N AND TH E N B E R N A R D I T E X C I T E S Y O U M A K E S YOU W A N T TO D ROP YOU R COOK I ES H U H S UC K I NG O F F A R E A L TOUGH G U Y LETS G O W I T H A F A T GLOBULE OF S P I T R I G H T I N LULU'S K I S S E R Y A N K S H I M BY THE H A I R S H OV I N G M OO N CHEEKS AND ALL HARD U P A GA I N ST HIS L I K E M E YOU' R E I N L O V E WITH M E A R EN'T Y O U YOU'D LIKE M E TO FUCK YOU UP THE ASS TI LL YOU ' R E GLISTE N I N G C O C K M A K I NG H I M S U C K S U C K A LL T H E WHILE BOTH SUCK FI STS POU N D I NG A ON LU LU'S SKULL WITH LEG C R I S S-EYED H U H LITTLE LATER H E LI FTS O N E SENDI NG HIS KNEE C R A S H I NG I NTO LUCI EN'S J A W Y E S O H YES WHO FALLS BACKWARD BLUBBERING FROM BLEEDING BERN A R D SHIT ON TH AT FATSO YOU R A S S I S TOO BIG TOO M U C H LI K E S HOVI NG M Y TOOL I NTO A T U B OF LARD O N E H U N D R E D POU ND S O F SHIT I N A FI FTY-PO U N D B A G THArS W H A T Y O U A R E FATSO FA I RY U N T I E D THE BOAT I TS M OO R I N G A N D S A I L E D OF L U L U R U N N I NG AFTER C L A U D E A N D M E W E D I DN'T F E E L M UC H L I K E TALK I N G W E J UST STA R E D A T E A C H OTH E R I M A D E A FULLY OH-LA-LA GESTU R E WITH O N E H A N D A N D C L A U D E GRABBED 1 1 1 .TO PLAY T H E S E RESPECTIVE ROLES B E R N A R D T H E CRUEL BUTCH TH I N G NUMBER L U L U T H E N E L LY YO UNG A D M I RATION YES S I M P E R I NG T R E M B L I N G W I TH A BIG FAT COCKSUCKI NG FA IRY THArS WHAT YOU A R E I TH I N K WHAT I ' D LIKE MOST I S TO SMASH YOU R UGLY FAT M UG IN C O M E OVER H E R E CLOSER I S A I D PUT UP YOU R M I TT S A L W A Y S I N ANTICI PATIO N I NS E P A R A B L E N O W E A C H OF TH E M N E E D I NG THE OTH E R TO C O M PLETE H I M SE L F IT WAS TWO TH R E E PLAY AT Y E A R S A G O B E R N A R D FI RST LUCI EN'S STORE THAT COM B I N ATION IN TH E C E NTER OF NO NO PLEASE STOP THATI WENT TO CAFE AND GROCERY TOWN AND LEFT A RO U N D TEN O'CLOCK L U C I E N WE CALL FAT LULU FOLLO W E D HIM OUT I NTO TH E BERNARD N E V E R TOLD A N Y OF U S AOBUT IT AND I N THE ST R E E T WHEN WE ARE ALL STROL L I N G STREET G R A B B E D H I M O N E A R M A R O U N D THE N EC K K I S S E D H I M WETLY AS A WAY O F S A Y I N G GOOD NIGHT BERNARD OF COURSE SHOVING HIM AWAY AND ROA M I N G TOGETH E R A N D W E H A P P E N TO PASS B Y FAT LUC I E N H E A LWAYS TURNS H I S E Y E S A W A Y B U T C L A U D E A N D M E A L L THE S A M E WE SAW TH E N O N THE ISLAND WE'D G O N E T H E R E O U R S E LV E S TO D I SG U STEDLY W I P I NG H I S C H E E K W I TH T H E B A C K OF HIS HAND N E V E RT H E L E S S FOR THE N EXT NIGHT LULU F I N I S H OFF O U R LOOT STRING B E A N S IN TOM ATO SAUCE A CAN OF CONDENSED M I LK A BOX OF BERNARD SEEMED WAS B A C K MORE BECAUSE TO POS S E S S O N E O F E V E R Y TWO E V E R CHEESE C R A C K E R S I'D J U ST P I N C H E D FROM T H E M A D E PLUS TH A N K S TO H I S FATH E R A L L T H E C A N D Y A N D S O D A P O P TOO LULU R E M A I N E D T H E R E THAT N IGHT U N MOVI NG STA N D I N G BY THE CAFE DOOR TA I L GROCERY WE R E A LLY LOVED PAC K I N G I T I N T H E TWO OF US B U LLSHITTING Q U I ETLY AND TH A T ONE T I M E WE H E A R D T H E M BOTH THEY W E R E V E R Y N E A R U S B E H I N D SOM E B U S H E S B E R N A R D LEA N I N G AGA I N ST A T R E E H I S H E A D H I DDEN BY LEAVES A N D LUC I E N O N A L L FOU R S B E R N A R D BREAKS OFF A B R A N C H HI NGING DOWN AND SWATS LULU'S SHOU L D E R S SI LENTLY WATC H I NG BERNARD jiP E E D OFF LIGHT C L I M B I N G U P U P A N D OVER T H E R I S E I N T H E M A I N S T R E E T G O N E NOW NOTH I N G L E FT BUT N IG H T AND B L AC K N E S S HE AND SILENCE LULU'S MOUTH TREMBLING N O LONG E R EVEN TRIES TO KISS WITH IT TH E LEAVES SCRAPING FALLING L I K E R A I N TH E N BERNARD RAINS TOO plSSES A LL OVER B E R N A R D BUT TH E Y S HOW T HE I R COC K S T O E A C H OTH E R J U ST LIKE ALL THE OTH E R G U YS AND LULU'S F A C E W H O L E A PS U P TRYING T O E SC A P E B U T B E R N A R D I S TOO QUICK G R A B B I N G H I M B Y T H E SHOULDER FO R C I N G HIM TO K N E E L O N C E M O R E BERNARD LETS H I S O W N BE S U C K E D O F F SOM E ­ T I M E S WHICH A LWAYS C A U S E S LULU TO G E T TOO RED IN TH E FACE BERNARD OF COU R S E N E V E R LULU F A T L U L U P I S S STILL STR E A M I N G DOWN H I S CHEEKS W H I L E B E R N A R D STARTS P U M P I NG A W A Y ON H I S O W N M A CH I N E GETTING M O R E A N D M RO E TOUCH E S L U L U D O W N TH E R E H 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TH E TIN OF CON D E N S E D M I LK FROM ME PUCKERING HIS LI PS AT THE HOLE SUCKING IT A LL UP F I NA LLY WI PED HIS MOUTH C L E A N A N D S A I D QUITE CA LMLY ITS NOT A VERY PRETTY SIGHT HIS COCK.A S S ED TOGET H E R THEY M I G H T FUCK THAT HOT A S S O F Y E A H WELL NO NOT REALLY S H E Y A N K E D H E R S K I RT UP O V E R H E R W A I ST H E R S H E KEEPS TALKING A BOUT I T T O M E OH TH E I R E Y E S T H E I R H A I R I DON'T THI N K HE'S PRETENDING EITHER HE REA LLY SEEMS TO FEEL THAT WAY STA R I NG A T TH E M TH E WAY YOU M IGHT EYEBALL SOM E MONUMENT SQU A R E TO THE WAR DEAD IN SOM E WHO BUT YOU D I D GET TO S E E H E R PUSSY DIDN'T YOU? V I LLAGE I T S THE OLDER BROADS EXCITE H I M MOSTLY TH E ONES OF OUR OWN AGE DON'T EVEN HAVE R E A L TITS YET THEY J UST STI KE POSES GO A RO U N D ACTI N G COY A N D GIGGLING TH R E E BOYS C ROSS IN A GREEN AND BLACK BOAT HERE WHERE THE THE RIVER BROADENS THERE BEFORE WH E R E IT REACH I NG DARK FOREST W H I L E T H E BIGG E R O N E S ARE A L L TOO FLESHY WITH SWOLLEN H A U N C H E S B I G HAMS CHEWING ON TH E I R C U DS L I K E STU P I D COWS V I C I O U S DEPRAVED HUGE RED MOUTHS AND H I G H H E E LS M AYBE ITS TH E I R STI N K THAT ATTRACTS C L A U D E THAT HE KNOWS H E'S VERY FEMALE L A P S LAZILY A R O U N D A T I N Y I S L A N D COV E R E D ALL OVER WITH U N DERBRUSH C H ESTN UT TREES T H E B L O N D BOY A N D TH E YOUNGEST K I D A R E N O T F R O M THE VI LLAGE THEIR D E L ICATE FINE FEATU R E S GRACIOUS OBVIOUSLY MANNERS THEY A T T E S T TO T H A T Q U I T E TO THAT P R I V AT E S M E L L S I NC E H A N DSOME B E LO N G THEY REA LLY SEEM TO S H A K E HIM NEVER STOPS TA L K I N G UP A LOT H E ONE I N STITUTION T H E C HATEA U T H E TWO BIGGEST A R E A BO U T TWELVE W E A R I NG B R I G HT L Y C O LO R E D A BO U T T H E M A FT E R N OO N B E R N A R D F I N A LLY M A NAGED T O L U R E ONE OF THEM I NTO THAT SHANTY BY THE SAWM I L L THEY MADE ME STA N D OUT BY TH E DOOR A S B R I EFS W H I L E T H E TH I R D I S N O MORE THAN TEN TORSO NUDE A LSO BUT DOWN B E LOW H E SPORTS BLACK VELVET K N E E B R E E C H E S R E M N A N T S OF LOOKOUT I COULD H E A R T H E G I R L LAUGH A LOUD SC R E E C H MAKING FUN OF THEM ALL TH E N SOM E E L E G A N T E IG H T E ENTH-C E N T U R Y COSTU M E F A L L I N G DOWN LOOSELY FROM H I S H I PS FOR WANT OF A B E LT WHITE ELASTIC BAND O F H I S U N D E R ­ COM P LA I N THEN MOAN T H E N S U DDENLY BECOM E S I LENT SHE WHISPERS F I N A LLY OH STOP THATI AND THEN SHE WHISPERS AGA I N OH YOU'RE GETTING M E A L L HOT A N D W E T DOWN T H E R E LOVERBOY WHAT A LITTLE PIG YOU A R E I A N D THEY A LL LEFT BEFORE SHE DID BERNARD HAD NOT SHOT OFF I NOTICED THAT RIGHT AWAY NOR LULU SO THAT LOVERBOY PIG STUFF MUST HAVE BEEN FOR CLAUDE ALL TH E S A M E HE DOESN'T EVEN H A V E H A I R DOWN AROUND T H E R E YET SHE WAS FAT F R I ZZY R E D HAIR STI C K I NG OUT EVERY WHICH WAY STI N K I NG OF SWEAT GREEN CHECKERED S K I RT NOSE A L L D O TT E D WITH S H O R T S P E E K I N G OUT H E R E A N D TH E R E W H E N E V E R H E W R I G G L E S H I S B UTTOCKS W E WENT TH E R E A LL FOUR OF US LULU I N C L U D E D B E R N A R D NO L O N G E R M A KES A N Y BON ES A BOUT THAT H E'D TOLD U S LULU'S A FAT CUNT BUT YOU CAN ALL FUCK HIM IF THAT SORT OF T H I NG I NTER ESTS YOU LULU WON'T M I N D HOW M A N Y A S F O R M E I'M D I SG U STED W H E N C LA UD E A G R E E S A N D W H E N THE TI M E C A M E H E BROUGHT WITH H I M FROM T H E C H ATEAU A B I G SACK W E J U M P E D I NTO T H E ROWBOAT A N D H I D OUT ON THE I S L A N D T H E BLACKHEADS STUM P Y D U M PY LEGS A SIC KLY GRAY 1 12 . COLOR A N D H A I RY TOO BIG BROWN B L E M I S H ON ONE A R M A N D SHOES WITH HOLES I N TH E M SHE WASN'T E V E N PR ETTY BUT S H E WAS YO UNG AT LEAST A N D SO I D I DN'T D A R E A S K C L A U D E TO TELL M E WHAT H A D H A PP E N E D WE BOTH TOOK THE ROAD B A C K THAT W I N DS T H R O U G H T H E OPEN M E A DOWS UNTIL I T A T FI RST WE KNOW ONLY B E R N A R D NO OTH E R GUYS FROM THE VI LLAGE H E STOLE W I TH US POI NTED OUT CHICKS THE ONES YOU C O U LD COP A QUICK FEEL FROM BRAGGED A LOT A BOUT B E I NG A REAL COOL DUDE NOBODY L I K E S H I M VERY MUCH TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH WE LISTEN TO H I S STOR I E S BUT HAVE A H U NC H THEY'RE ALL A C ROCK OF SHIT ESPECIA LLY ALL THAT ABOUT HOT-ASSED C H ICKS IF YOU ASK M E WE'LL N E V E R GET T O S E E 50 M U C H A S ONE HOT ASS BELONG I NG TO ANY OF THEM I D I D N'T MUCH CARE A N YWAY I H A D ENOUGH TI M E FOR THAT LATER ON AND BESI DES I'M HOPED TOWN ALREADY I N LOVE BUT CLAUDE FIX H IM U P WITH SOME BEAUTY AND BUT SHE GOT B A R E-ASS E D DI DN'T SHE? K I C K I NG U P C H A LK Y DUST H E STA RTED W H I STLING 50 G ETS TO THE LANE T H AT LEADS UP TO THE C H A T E A U THAT'S WHAT THEY A L L CALL O U R HOUSE AROU N D HERE T H E C H ATEAU I FINALLY DARED WAS IT FUN? CLAUDE S H R UG G E D S P E A K I NG I N A VOICE MORE SERIOUS THAN USUAL I D I DN'T ENJOY I T A L ALL SHE'S A F U C K I N G H ALF-WIT HE R E A LLY SUCKED US IN THAT BERNARD CLAUDE WAS NO LIAR HE DI DN'T E M BROI D E R T H I NGS A N D SO I LISTE N E D B E L I E V I NG BERNARD COULD WHORE SOME H O T .

A S S A WH ITE J E W E L.L. R E A D Y REACHED ROAD TH E STEEP SO C L.U W E AL.Y C L. I N G M Y Y O U K N OW TH E R E YOU D I RTY P I G ? BUTTOCK H E A S K E D COU NTESS L. I K E EMBROIDERY DECORATIONS G L.LEON EVERYBODY E L. START T E A S I N G H E R EXC E PT S U D D E N L. I K E THAT BUT Y O U D I D SOM ETH I N G W H A T THOUG H ? AND IT DOE SN'T E M B A R RASS YOU TO STA R E HUH AT GUYS DOWN THERE BUT A L.ET ME SEE IF YOU H A V E TH E M A L.BAG CONTA I N E D A Y E L.Y TO SHOW THEM TO ME THEN L. A N D RUSK SALTED N UTS SOUR P I C K E L. K GOWN ON G I L.E C L.ITTL. R I G H T BUT I T WAS SO FUCKING D A R K IN THAT S H A N TY AND THEN WITH AL. I E S ROUGE TO HIS L. U L.L. A U D E D E F E N D S M E NO NOT HIM H E' S A R E A L.AR TREES HE TU R N E D H I S BACK TO THE HOU S E S ON 1 13 . I E R CANS OF GOWN B E R N A R D G R I PS THE F A T BOY'S H EAD W H I L. U L.A U D E H A D EMBANKMENT WHERE T H E H E H A S LOTS O F H A I R ooWN TH E R E THOUGH VEERED U N D E R T H E POPL. T H E S A M E YOU M U STN'T H A V E L.ET T H E M PASS YOU'VE O N L. E T ' S PRETEND TWO F I N A LLY PIRATES W I N E A N D O N E OF L. S E A L R E A DY M UR D E R E D R E S PECTS TU RNED U P N O W A S T H E S H I P'S CA PTA I N H E H A S A L.ING W H ITE B E R N A R D M A K E S A FACE S U C K S I N H I S B R EATH BUT HE PUTS OUT A LL. E D WITH LIQU E U R A BIG BAG OF POTATO C H I PS A GL.OSE L. E D P U M PS YOU DON'T H A V E A N Y H A I R YEAH S H E SHOWED IT TO US A L. A U D E WHO K I D N A P I N G TH E A D M I R A L.P B E R N A R D A R R I V I NG ON THE SCENE H I S IS THAT WHY S H E S A I D S H E WAS A L.DEN GOWN S H E S C R E A M E D HOOTED FOR HEL. S WIG SEWN SOM E POWDER PA I N T A N D E V E N A PA I R OF H I G H .ASH E D TO HIS THIGH C A L.' S NOBL.ON E O N H I S S P LE N D I D GAL. A M P I NG T H E WIG DOWN H A R D U PO N H I S S K U L.OTS BUT A L. L.E BURNT CORK M U STAC H E MY P I S S P ECTS S H E D I DN'T S A Y I W A S A DI RTY P I G S H E S A I D W H A T A LOVE RBOY B I G I WAS TH E R E'S A BIG D I FFERENCE B E RN A R D WA NTED TO GO A L.E O F SPARKL.O W S I L. L.UC K I L. BACON IN WHITE WINE SOM E BROWN SUGAR F I V E C A N S OF SARDINES O N E OF BLACK OL.ooT WE'D B E E N A B LE TO PI NCH OVER AN E N T I R E W E E K'S TI M E B E R N A R D I N T U R N H A D S W I P E D T H E BOAT WH E R E L U L. THOSE TH I C K BL. F BENT BAK UP A G A I NST O N E HAVE SO GOT FINGERS M E S S I NG AROU N D F E E L.L.U WHERE S H E ' D H I DDEN THE TR E A S U R E OF COURSE CLAUDE A N D THEY F O R C E L.L. U N OW PL.T C H OO S I NG O N E L. G U Y J UST L. L.E YEAH J UST L.A YEO MY THE FIGHT E N E D HYSTERICAL COUNTESS DEAR LADY SAID C L. WEI R oo A N YWAY THAT B E R N A R D IF YOU ASK ME QUEER LADY R E PEATED B E R N A RD A N D THEY EACH GRABBED COUNTESS L U LU B Y O N E PUDGY A R M M E STEPPI NG A S I D E T O L. TH E L. L. E M O N SODA BUTTER HOL. T FOR AND YEAH ME NOT L. I PS POWD E R TO H I S C H E E K S C L. A U D E A P P L.H E E L. TH E S A M E DON'T YOU SQUI RT? TREMBLING I LOOK AWAY M U M BL.ACK H A I R S COV E R I N G I T WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT IT? I'VE SEEN YOU BUT Y O U TOUC H E D I T D I D N'T Y O U H U H WHEN? N O NOT M E B E R N A R D S H E D I DN'T A PPEAL.OO K E D V E R Y CL. L.ASS JAR OF BRA N D I E D TINS OF PEACH E S M A YO N N A I S E C R A C K E R J ACKS CHOCOL. W E U S E D I S G U I S E S L.L. F A G A I N ST I T IT C A M E T O M Y T U R N S H E U S E D H E R AND IN H E R GOL. U TO U N D R E S S T H E N DON THE ME WE'D STA S H E D IT AWAY E A R L.E NO I ooN'T PUT OUT I'M STAYI NG H E R E WITH C L. TO M E AT A L.S A JAR OF SPAGHETTI S A U C E A L L.ATE C U STA R D P U D D I N G STRAWBERRY J A M MACKEREL.UL. I K E TH I S W H E N E V E R W E H A V E PARTI E S B A C K A T TH E C H ATEA U so NOW Irs COUNTESS L. I K E US S H R E D D E D C OC O N U T L.I WITH A BOTTL.Y B E R N A R D POINTS T O M E A N D THIS SQUI RT H E R E I S N 'T H E GOING T O B E A HOT­ ASSED C H I C K TOOl L.E DAUGHTER A T FI RST S H E'S A LL A L. I C O R I C E S T I C K S F I LT E R CIGARETTES BOOKS O F M A TC H E S TH R E E NOUGATS CHOCOLATE EGGS F I L.IVES TWO O F PORK AND B E A N S C A SSOUL.ET TWO OF RAVIOL. T H E WAY WITH H E R E H E E V E N TRI E D T O STIC K I T I N B U T S H E FOUGHT H I M O F F A N D S O H E STOPPED G E TT I N G A H A R D-ON H E'S A REAL. E G A S T U B O F B A M BOO H E'D L.Y BECA U S E I NOTH I N G WHEN H E R U BB E D H I M S E L. S H E STUN K SO B A D OH WHEN W E GO TO B E D AND SOM ETI M E S TOO I N THE MORN ING S HA M E H U H Irs B E R N A R D'S F A U L. L. WET DOWN WOODEN L. A U D E WE S T A RT OUT L.ITTL.

TH E OUTS K I RTS OF THE V I LLAGE A N D OPENED H I S F L Y LOOK I NG O V E R H I S SHOULDER A L L T H E WH I LE TO M A K E S U R E NO C A R WAS COM I NG COV E R I NG B EC A U S E HIS FACE SUCH A B UT NOBODY LAUGHED ANYWAY HE'S S I LLY ASSHOLE FOR B E L I E V I N G I N LETS PRETEND A N D B E R N A R D L I FT E D U P THE H E M O F H I S GOWN HEY COUNTESS STA N D A LONG S I D E ME H E R E AS IF WE'RE BOTH J U ST TA K I N G A PISS YOU'RE BARE-ASSED UNDER YOUR S I LK DUDS YOU'VE GOT S U C H A F A T A S S COUNTESS I T LOOKS SUSPICIOUS TO ME I ' L L WAGER THATS W H E R E T H E I F E E L LIKE PISSING A N YWAY SO H E LOWE R E D C A PT A I N ' S T R E A S U R E CO UNTESS LULU ON I S H I DD E N I A N D H E SLAPS BOTH BUTTOCKS DEAR ME H I S B R I EFS A B I T W H E R E THE FLY G A P E D BUT NOT ENOUGH TO R E V E A L HIS PRICK AND I STAR E D DOWN SOME HAIRS YES A LITTLE CURL TO THE L E FT D E A R M E SAYS C L A U D E COULD B E COULD B E A N OTH E R TO T H E R I G H T BUT A LMOST NONE IN T H E M I DDLE I F I N I S H E D PISSING I WANTED SO BA D THEY C O M E U P A LONGS I D E THE ISLAND A N D T H E BLOND B O Y L E A PS OUT OF THE ROWBOAT T O M OO R IT F I N A LLY T H E OTH E R TWO FOLLOW I N TO T H E UPWARD ALL ALL TH R E E TO TOUCH IT BUT H E S I TATED STRUGGLING TO S E E IT BETTER I SA I D IF M A Y B E YOU COULD J UST FLUFF I T OUT A BIT D I S A PP E A R I NG BIRDS TO FLY UNDERBRUSH CAUSING CAWING OF SC R E E C H I N G THEIR GAME D R OW N I N G WHAT? W I T H J U ST U S TWO HERE? YOU OUT SOU N D A LTHOUGH T H E I S L A N D I S E XT R E M E LY S M A L L A LMOST AT T H E S A M E TI M E A S E C O N D B O A T MOVES OUT FROM T H E STEEP R I V E R B A N K TH I S TIME O N THE TOWN SIDE IT A LSO CARRIES THREE BOYS ALL KNOW YOU CA N'T COME YO U'RE NOT OLD E NOUGH YET NO I CAN'T S H OOT ANY J U I C E BUT I CAN STI LL ENJOY TH E FEELING TH R E E NAKED TO TH E W A I ST A LL TH R E E T H E S A M E AGE A S THE F I RST G R O U P B U T TH E I R C R A FT I S DEC K E D O U T T O LOOK L l E K A S A I L BOAT A N OAR STA N D I N G UP A LMOST BY A STRAIGHT IN ITS CENTER TH E BUT LOOK WOULD YOU OH ALL RIGHT T H E N I D I D N'T R E A LIZE H E R E TELL ME SOM ETH I N G F I R ST H E LD STAYS IN OF PL A C E A TW I N E R E P R ES E N T I NG PIECE OF MAST SQUA R E POLKA B LACK TO SAY YES IF FOR E X A M PLE SOM E B I G GUY ASKS TO FUCK YOU UP TH E ASS TH E R E ARE BIG GUYS BACK AT THE HOUSE L I K E THAT YOU KNOW THEY WANT TO DO IT TO THE LITTLE O N E S ALL TH E TI M E C LOTH WITH WHITE DOTS N A I LE D A N OTH E R BLACK TH R E E STIC K SET C ROSSWI S E U PON THE O A R B E I NG PIRATE COLORS A L L THE SAME AND WHITE S PO R T I N G KNOTTED BANDANAS A RO U N D OF M A TE R I A L NOW YOU' R E B E I NG DI SGUSTING UH BEC A U S E PLUS A THEIR ONE FOR E H EADS EYE B E LTS BLACK P A TC H OV E R U H B E C A U S E WOULD YOU U H D O IT? B U LG I N G WITH WOODEN W E A PO N S K N I V E S S A B E R S N E V E R U S I N G T H E S A I L A C T U A L L Y F O R S A I L I N G BUT NO IT WAS ON WHO WELL E R THAT A L L DEPENDS ON WHO TWO OTH E R OA RS I N ST E A D VEERING TAC K I NG TH E M A N Y C H A N G E S OF D I R ECTION SUGGEST I N G A LONG VOYAGE ACROSS P E R I LO U S SEAS AS THEY RUN U P A N D DOWN TH E LENGTH OF T H E BOAT C A L L I N G OUT SOM E TI M E I M IG H T I T ER A LL DEPENDS YES M A Y B E M E TOO YES NO NO I DON'T THINK SO B UT J U ST THE SAME V A R I O U S COM M A N DS THAT TH E W I N D ON TH I S LATE A FTE R N OO N COUPLED WITH THE GUSH OF R U S H I NG RIVER CARRIES AWAY R E N D E R S I ND I STI NCT A N D TH E N LETS GO OV E R TH E R E H U H H E POI NTED FLE ETI NG A T THE CARCASS O F AN A UTOMOBILE A B A N DON E D ONLY TH E BODY STILL I NTACT THERE WAS A S H A R P TU R N I N G I N T H E ROAD L E D STRA IGHT DOWN T O TH E R I V E R I T D I D N'T H A V E S E ATS A N YMORE NOR DOORS EITHER BEHIND WE LAY DOWN IN THE TALL G RASS RIGHT IT I HAD TO BE CAREFUL BEC A U S E OF WHAT? STRETC H THEY STOPPED ALL THREE O F THEM BESIDE THE HOLE I N WHICH T H E B U R I E D T R EASU RE LAY OH MY POOR D E A R DEAD FATH E R M U R D ERED SO V I LELY SAID LULU SOB B I N G QUITE S E RIOUSLY BOTH H A N D S B U T WITH G I R LS DON'T YOU KISS F I RST? S I N C E W E ' R E DOI N G T H E S A M E TH I NG NOW? AND HAVE YOU LOST ALL YOU R MA RBLES? YOU RSELF OUT LENGTH W I S E THAT WAY M A Y B E I F WE COULD K I S S F I R ST H U H S P R E A D YOU R CHEEKS W I D E R N ETTLES BUT T H I S T I M E T H E Y D I DN'T S E E M TO STI NG YOU WERE A SECOND AGO 1 14 .

AFTER THEY REACH THE I S L A N D AND DISEMBARK THEY PULL TH E I R BOAT U P L I FTI N G A ONTO TH E NA RROW FIRST OF ALL Irs BOATS NOT CARS I ' M I NTERESTED IN STRA NO OF S A N D FOURTH OCC U PANT Irs YOU LOSS PUT YO U R PANTS BACK ON TH E N WHO HAS UNTI L NOW B E E N HIDDEN I N TH E BOTTOM BODY BOUND AND GAGGED A TINY GIRL LO NG BLACK TRESSES DA R K BROWN S K I N TH READBARE C LOTH E S AND HARDY TO IF A E M ACI ATED GYPSY HER BODY LONG Y O U MEAN WE'RE LEAVI NG? PROCLA I M I NG C A LICO S H E'S S K I RT HER HAS BE BEEN RI PPED OFF IN A EARLI ER TH I N K IT OVER CAREFULLY MY FOU R RACING CARS PLUS TH E TRACK TH ING ELSE TOO WANT AND I'LL GIVE YOU SOME­ CLOTH ED NOW ONLY FI LTHY GREEN SWEATER A N D BADLY TORN B LOO M E R S SALLOW­ AND WHOSE LACE ROUG H LY THEY ALL THE TRADE-SPITS YOU BROWN FROM TOO M UC H WEAR TR I M M I N G U N R A V E LS TH E MORE HANDLE H E R I NTO A S E R I E S O F STRINGY FESTOONS F L U TT E R I N G DOWN U PON HER THIGHS LIKE YOU CAN SHOVE YOUR STUPID RACING CARS BUT WHArs A TRADE-SPIT? J ELLYFISH TENTACLES T H E GROUP SETS OFF DUMB ASSH OLE Irs WHEN TWO PEOPLE KISS IN A M A RCH THICK U N D E R B R U S H C LOSING B E H I N D TH EM W I T H A R U STLE OF R E E D S EACH OTH E R BUT WITH THEIR MOUTHS OPEN ALL THE WH I LE AND USING TH E I R TONGU E ALL R I G H T L E r S SAY I DO K I S S Y O U B U T JUST ONCE AND ONLY ON ONE CONDITION WHOSE TONG U E ? WHArs THAT? BOTH TONG UES ASSHOLE INSIDE EACH OTH ER'S MOUTHS YOU RS AND M I N E I F YOU'D L I K E THAT YOU SUCK ME OFF IN EXC H A N G E U G H TH AT SO UNDS D I SGUSTING OH NO THArS NOT FA I R YO U'RE A R E A L BASTARD YOU ARE THEY A PPLIED A SCA RF OVER T H E GAG COV E R I NG Irs NOT DI RTY TO SUCK HON EST I'VE DONE IT H E R MOUTH AND ONE OF THE TH R E E BOYS CAME CLOSER A N D CLOSE R FEELING TH E LITTLE V U LVA G ROWI N G YOU? WHO WITH? WITH SI MON MAYBE? MORE AND MORE EXCITED BY HIS COULD MAYBE TRY I T J U ST ONCE STI LL TO SEE WE MYSELF EXPLORATIONS BUT ONE O F TH E OTH E R TWO SAYS NO Irs R E N E WHO'S TO TAKE HER C H E R R Y A FTER ALL IT'S R E N E WHO FOU ND H E R FOR US A N D THE YOU'RE N UTS YOU K NOW THAT? NOBODY HOME BUT THE CLOCK A N D THArS STOPPED I F YOU SAY YES I'LL GIVE AW COME ON BOY N A M ED RENE NODS UNBUTTON S HIS PANTS LETS H I S B ELLY DROP DOWN OVER THE BELLY OF THE LITTLE GYPSY WHO BEGINS TO STRUGGLE EVEN MORE STRONGLY YOU MY FOUR RACING CARS AND TH E E LECTRIC TRACK THAT GOES WITH TH EM I'M NOT J UST LENDING T H E M TO YOU EITH E R I'LL GIVE TH E M T O Y O U OUTRIGHT HON EST YOU'RE THE ONE WHO AGREED TO IT R E M E M B E R ALL TH E TRA DE-SPITS I W A N T A LL R I G H T GO A H EA D THEY UNTIED TH E LITTLE G I R L G R I PPING HER BODY ALL TH E WHILE BECAUSE SHE HAD BEGUN TO NO SUCK ME OFF FI RST K I S S M E C O M E ON STRUGGLE YA N K I NG DOWN TH E R E WAS THE ROTTING HER B E I G E BLDOM ERS H U LK OF A BOAT ITS OUT RUN SHIT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S ACTI NG D U M B NOW I MIGHT F E E L MORE L I K E SUCKING YOU OFF IF YOU KISSED ME FI RST BOTTOM COMPLETELY F L A TT E N E D AGROUN D A LONG TI M E AGO D U R I N G SOME SPRING FLOOD TU RNED THAT C OV E R E D TH I S ISLAND T H E Y' V E IT OVER N O W A N D H A U LED IT I NTO THE BUSHES TYI N G T H E GIRL TO I T BACK A N D BUTTOCKS PRESSED H A R D UP AGAI NST THE OUTER H U LL LEGS SPREAD APART E X H I B I TI NG A V ULVA FLAT AND TINY AND F U RTH E R B E LOW THAT THE I NC U RVATE OH ALL RIGHT MOVE YOUR MOUTH CLOSER YOU WANT TO KNOW SOM ETH ING YOU'RE A REAL PAIN I N T H E A S S YOU ARE I C AN'T BELIEVE A N YONE C A N B E S O STU P I D AT LEAST W I P E YOU R MOUTH O F F FI RST SHADOW O F A N A N U S 1 15 .

H E E L E D PUMPS AS WELL WE SET A BOUT D I GG I N G U P THE T R E A S U R E I LOVE COLO CASSOULET PORK AND SAUSAGE AND WHITE B E A N S ESPECIA LLY THOSE LONG THIN SAUSAGES AND THE ONE I LOVE A M I N LOVE WITH KISSED M E MY E N T I R E FACE LAY DOWN A LONGSIDE M E H E I SN'T E V E N P RETE N D I NG ANYMORE HE REA LLY E NJOYS IT KISSES SOFTLY G E N TLY MY L I PS SO WET AND SHAME W E D I D N 'T PINCH SOME M U STA R D AS WELL WE WON'T GIVE ANY OF I T TO LULU ITS HIS FATH E R W E STOLE I T FROM BUT THAT PIG C U N T WON'T D A R E SQU E A L O N U S FOR IF HE DOES WE'LL P U T H I S S H I N I NG WITH H I S LOVELY W E T S H I N I NG LIPS MOUTH HOT AND SILKY AGA I NST MY CHEEK I YANK OFF MY JERSEY SO THAT WE CAN FEEL OUR BELLI ES FATH E R W I S E T O A L L THOSE BOTTLES O F A P E RT I F S H E'S B E E N B R I N G I N G A S G I FTS T O B E R N A R D A N D THAT'S EVEN GOING TO G E T WOR S E NOW T H A T R U B B I NG SKI N AGA I NST S K I N T H E S U N I S A LREADY B E H I N D TH E TREES A N D TH E TALL G R E E N GRASS TICKLES M Y E A R S TH EY'VE BECOM E S U C H A SSHOLE B U D D I E S W H A T S WRONG OH ITS S O LONG YOUR C OC K I F I ' D BEEN I N H E R H U RT TOO M U C H ? Y O U LOOK F U N N Y DOES IT PLA C E I ' D H A V E LOVED GETTING I T FROM YOU BUT A N YWA Y I ' M A BETTER LOOKING BOY THAN S H E I S A G I R L DON'T YOU TH I NK? W E ' L L DO I T AGAI N E V E R Y NOW A N D THEN H U H Y A N N I DO N 'T KNOW A N YTH I N G ABOUT THAT I F YOU W E R E T W E L V E Y E A R S OLD YOU RS WOULD BE LONG TOO Y E A H BUT W H A T I F YOU M A K E A BABY I N S I D E M E ? so T H E N YOU'D RATHER H A V E H E R THAN M E ? A L L T H E S A M E S H E WAS A R E A L D OG T O L OO K AT Y O U ' R E B A TT Y A S A BEDBUG W I T H A G U Y THAT CA N'T H A P P E N B E S I D E S ITS NOT T HROUGH THE ASSHOLE YOU CAN'T COM P A R E THINGS L I K E THAT YOU MAKE A BABY THE M O R E WE DO I T T H E M O R E NO ITS I ' M A L L R I G H T RENE CLIMBED OFF THE C H I LO'S V U LVA D I RTY OH GOOD ARE YOU SURE EVEN WITH COV E R E D WITH M UC U S FOAM I N G S N AI L T RA I LS BUT SHE H ADN'T BELD ONE BROA D-ASSED ANOTH E R OF THE BOYS T H I S A N D B A NDY-LEGGED S P R E A D G I R LS? TH E S A M E 1 1 6 .YOU'RE DROOLING SPIT A LL OVE R M E H IMSELF OVER THE TINY BODY AND JERKED H I M S E L F O F F C L U M S I LY K E E P I N G ONE H A N D DOWN B E R N A R D DECLARED THAT COUNTESS LULU WO ULD HAVE TO SQUAT DOWN AND SHIT I N ORDER FOR THE R E BETW E E N TH E I R TWO CROTC H E S HOPING TO BE ABLE TO I N S E RT H I S THI NG AND SO I N TO BUT N E V E R HE F I N A L LY SAT THEM TO S E E WHAT S H E MIGHT BE H I D I NG U P HER HOLE BUT C LA U D E MADE A FUNNY FACE NO WE CAN TAKE A SOU N D I NG I N THAT WELL OURSELV E S O N E THAT WILL B E A LOT M O R E F U N B E S I D E S A N D S O THEY BOTH DREW FORTH THEIR COCKS KICKING QUITE S U C C E E D I NG HER TINY A S TR I D E FINALLY PRESS I N G T I TT l E S AND M A ST U R BA T E D OF HIS SEX E J A C U LA T I N G THE TIP AGAI N ST M A KI N G A WELL I N THE GAG COV E R I N G HER MOUTH THE UP AND DOWN P U M P I NG MOV E M E N T OF AGA I N ST TH E H I S F I S T CONTI N U A LLY S M A S H I N G C H I LO'S I N NOSE WHILE HIS SPERM LULU OVER I N TO A L E A P F R OG POSITION R A I S I N G H I S G O W N U P OVER H I S B A C K COV E R I NG H I S H E A D WITH YE LLOW S I L K W H I L E THEY FUCKED H I M THE BOTH OF THEM B E R N A R D F I R ST THEN CLAUDE AND A S FOR M E I WAS TOO E M B A RRASSED BEC A U S E OF THOSE BIG SOFT LARDY CHEEKS SO PALE AND SPLASH E D FORTH C O LO R L E S S BUBBLES S E E PI NG TH ROUGH T H E GAG C A R E F U LLY SCA R F THE N WIPED OFF THE THE T H I R D BOY STICKY B EG R I M E D WHICH P E R H A PS HER BELONGED T O H I M A N D ROUGH L Y BUT BETW E E N SQU I S H Y LOOK I NG I FO U N D I T S A D THAT C L A U D E COULD EVEN T O U C H L E T A LO N E WANT T O E N T E R TH E M A N D SO I SAT D O W N A G A I N ST A TREE A N D P E N ETRATED TH E T H I G H S LOOKED SOM EWH E R E E L S E PLUGGING U P M Y E A R S WITH M Y FINGERS S O I WOULDN'T HAVE T O H E A R ALL THOSE HORRIBLE SO U N DS THEY TAPPE D M E ON YOU ' R E C H E A T I N G Y A N N YOU' RE N O T S U C K I N G M E A T A LL LOOK S E E HOW I C A N STI LL PUT M Y ENTI R E F I ST AROU N D I T T H A T M E ANS YOU H A V E N'T E V E N TA K E N A L L O F TH E H E A D I NTO YOU R M O U T H Y E T TH E SHOULDER THEY WERE N'T PIRATE S ANYMORE L U L U STI LL H A D ON H I S S I L K GOWN BUT I T WAS YA N K E D EVERY W H I C H WAY T H E WIG FALLEN OFF AND THE H I G H .

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-WAYS EXAGGERATE TH I NGS COM E ON PUl.ITTLE S I D E I.­ I T OUT RIGHT NOW A N D H U R R Y I T U P TOO WE'VE GOT TO BE GETTI NG BACK M U ST BE AWFUI. A U D E 1 18 .UM WHAT A PACK O F GLUTTO N S JESUS DON'T YOU E V E R GET A N YT H I NG TO EAT AT YOUR BOA R D I N G SCHOOL WE EAT A LOT BETTER TH ERE TH A N YOU DO FATSO SAYS C L A UDE AND Irs NOT A BOA R D I N G SCHOOL.-V E S WITH L.-READY F E E l.Y I. F A R E YOU M E A N S N E E R S B E R N A R D NO Irs P R IVATE A N D THEY'RE L...TH E W H E R E W E R E YOU FROM BEFORE T H E N ? C A N S A N D T H E N SAT TH E R E SWA LLOW I NG H I S SPIT LOOK I N G GL.PED OPEN ALI. A U D E HIM NEITHER? ME N EITH E R I ANSWER NOBODY DOES AT TH E C H ATEA U LU I.U J U ST FOR THE ENJOYMENT YO U A I.SO H UN G R Y A R E YOU GOING TO G I V E ME YOU R DESSERT AT D I N N E R TONIGHT H U H ? NO I DO N 'T HAVE ANY P A R ENTS A NSWERS C L.l.L.UL.-L.-ONG GLANCES HE H E L.OAD E D WITH DOUGH WE'RE NOT J U ST TAK E N I N OFF TH E STRE ETS YOU K N OW W E ' R E C H O S E N WE'RE BETTER D R E S S E D THAN YOU NEVER BOTH E R A N YWAY YOU R SO NO I ' M NOT F I N I S H E D I W A S STAYING I N S I DE YOU V I L.AGE GUYS FOR O N E TH I NG BUT DON'T YOU H A V E A N Y PA R E NTS? A S K S L. Irs A P H I L..U WATC H E D US GORGE O U R S E I.-l.-ATE SINCE I A I.A NTHROPIC I N STITU TONY D U V E RT T H A r S O U R BUSI N E S S S A Y S C L.­ WHY TION W E L.SA Y IT? COME HURRY UP SHAKE AT IT MORE AGE YOU'L.

A TRADING POST. L. . I E S THAT L. YOU TWO A R E L. BEL. THIS M U ST B E TH E T U R N OFF. ITS A M I L.ROAD TAKES TH E M TO A DESOL. E A N D N U DG E B E TW E E N E A C H OTH E R A S T H E TWO BOYS P A S S T H E M O N T H E W A Y I N TO T H E TRADING POST. A S THEY W A L. AND KNEES FORTH UP.ACK.ERK I S A YOUTH WITH ON E E Y E SL. AND C ROTC H ES. WAS YE L. E FROM THE FOR K TO THE PIPER P LA C E . THEY S N I GG E R A N D G I G G L. B I RC H AND PINES." A U D R E Y S A I D .L.TH E POPLI NG AUDREY A N D JERRY SET OUT TO I SOL.ATE AND CAP­ T U R E A POPL. YOU CA N'T M I SS IT. W A Y S N E EDED A G U I DE T O F I N D I T .MS OF T H E HAND. T H E R E'S ON L. HE PUTS OUT HIS H A N D. A U D R EY F E E L. AND WOB B L.I K E S PA R KS O F F I R E . I E S CAN BITE TH ROUGH J E A N S. W E A L. "THEY C A N EVEN BITE Y O U ON TH E PAL. . .ATE GRAY." OUTS I D E . THE BOYS A R E S I TT I N G IN A U N E .OW T H A T WAGON ROA D OUTS I D E . A GROUP OF THE WAGON ROAD. A FEW CABINS. " ''THE C A B I N W E ' R E GOI N G TO STI L.L.L BE S E E I NG YOU.K BOYS.L. T H E CL. D "WE'L.E FOR TRUCKS WINDING IN DRY WEATH E R . J U ST FOL.OUDS TH EM AS PASSED.K A BOUT TWO M I L.ONGS TO M Y FATH E R . K E D T H E Y SWATTED AT D E E R F L.L. A N D A MOU R N I NG DOVE COOED SOFTL. O N E CA L.OCA L.OOK I N G FOR T H E "YOU KNOW THIS COUNTRY PRETTY WEL. OF VORACIOUS MOSQUITOS TOOK OVE R 1 19 . • • :' P I P E R BROTH ERS.ING.ESCENTS STA N D I N FRONT O F THE TRADING POST. AN OL.D STE A M R A I L.OWERS GREW B Y THE S I D E OF THE ROAD.S A FT E R TH E M . U S H B U R N I NG THE BACK OF HIS N ECK. .Y FROM WOODS. .. THEY WEEDS AND BUSHES NOW BRUSHED CL. I N G TH E I R R U B B I NG TH E I R THEY T U R N E D I NTO A N A R ROW FOOTPATH AND TH E SHADOW OF DEEP WOODS.L." "I'M STEVE . . M I L. STIN G I N G L." ADOL. BUT I H A VEN'T BEEN H E R E S I N C E I W A S TH I RTE E N. YOUTHS TWISTS H I S H E A D T O O N E S I D E A N D RUBS HIS CROTC H . W I L. R I G H TI WEL.L. WAL.Y ONE ROAD.S A B L.EANING AGA I N ST THE KNEES BACK WAL.ATE TOWN I N NORTH E R N CANADA. O N E O F T H E L.IT ON THEIR NECKS AND HANDS AND FACES. " A N D THE B I G H O R S E F L. W H I C H WAS A LSO PASSABL.L.OW G R A V E L.ES A N D TAKE T H E PATH TO YOU R R IGHT. TH E OTH ER BL. FL.

AUDREY LOO K E D U P AT T H E B E A M S A N D REMEMBERED A N I N C I DENT T H A T H A D OCCU R R E D ON H I S LAST STAY H ER E . H E KNEW THAT THE HOUSE WAS SET I N A GROVE OF PI N E A N D B I RCH A FEW H U N D R E D FEET A BOVE THE PIER. SMALL W I N DOWS. H I S K E Y O P E N E D THE LOCK A N D THEY STEPPED I N TO TH E LIVI NG ROOM. T H E B A N K SLOPED STE E PLY F R O M THE E N D OF T H E P I E R I N TO C L E A R B L U E D E PTHS. THEY STEPPED FINA LLY I NTO A CLEARING BY A LAKE. "WELL." TH E OLDER BROTH E R . A N D AT SU NSET HE COULD SEE A H E A D A LITTLE PI E R AND A SANDY I NLET. P I N E P A N E LLING. H E FINISHED IT. B E H I N D T H E HOUSE W A S A W OO D S H E D A N D A N I C E H O U S E A N D A L O N G L O W B U I LD I N G WITH A B E A M E D C E I L I NG T H A T H A D BEEN H I S FATH E R'S WORKSHOP. THEY TIED U P AT THE PIER A N D J U M PE D OUT. A N D C U RIOUSLY POI NTED EARS. A D R U M OF KEROSENE. T H E R E W A S A BOI L E R T H A T C O U L D B E H E A T E D BY A S M A L L STOVE T O PROV I D E HOT WATER. T H E Y STO P P E D A N D CANOES G L I D E D OUT I N TO THE CLEAR BLUE WATER." HE S A I D AT LAST. WE'LL HANG I T A LL.FROM THE BITING F L I E S . i F THATS WHAT YOU WANT. TH E MOSQUITOS FELL AWAY B E H I N D TH E M . A N D A COI L OF ROPE. A U DR E Y R E M E M B E R E D F I S H I N G FROM T H E E N D OF IT FOR ROC K BASS A N D YELLOW P E R C H . W E HAVE TO COME TO TERMS WITH T H I S TH ING. TH E R E WAS A N ICE BOX A N D A WOOD BIN. H E LOOKED U P AND NODDED GRAVELY. A N D T H E R E ON A H I G H ROCKY BA N K OVE R T H E L A K E W A S T H E P I P E R C A B I N. SOM E COPI ES OF ADVENTURE A N D AMAZING STORIES. YOU KNOW THAT A POPLING HAS A LREADY FOU N D YOU?" H E LOOKED AT J E R RY A N D A D D E D "BOTH OF YOU. BUZZ I N G I N FRUSTRATION. THEY PADDLED FOR TWO HOURS. W H E N HE WAS THI RTEEN. MADE. H E DROVE HIS AXE INTO THE BLOCK A N D CAME OVER TO GREET THEM. "YES." "WELL YES. THE BOOK O F KNOWLEDGE. WHO WAS ABOUT 20. TH E P I E R E N D E D I N TEN F E E T O F WATER. T H E R E WAS A BATHROOM WITH R U N N I N G W A T E R A N D F L U S H TOI L ET A N D BATHTU B . A N D A STACK OF LITTLE B L U E BOOKS. THE MOSQUI TOS HOV E R E D AROUND THEM." TWO B E DROO M S OVER THE LIVING R O O M A N D A S M A L L E R B E D R OO M O V E R T H E K I TC H E N . TH E PIPERS SAT U P D R I NKING COFFEE A N D P LA Y I N G ON T H E I R W OO D E N F L U T E S . "YOU'RE AUDREY A N D J E RRY. ROLLED DOWN BY GLAC I E R S M I LLIONS O F YEARS AGO. AT THE E N D OF THE DAY J E RRY AND A U D R E Y WOULD FALL ASLEEP I M M E DI ATELY AFTER SUPPER. HE PUT IT I NTO A FLY BOX. S H A DOWS O F THOSE BOULDERS. THE OLDER PIPER WENT BACK TO HIS FLY. THE YOUNGER PIPER.H U N D R E D-GA LLON TA N K I N T H E ATTIC. T H E TOOLS WERE STI LL TH ERE-SOM E L U M B E R. TUR N I N G IT IN H I S H A N DS. T H E KITC H E N H A D A WooD­ B U R N I N G STOVE A N D P I N E TABLE WITH C H A I RS. WAS CUTTI NG WOOD. W H O WAS AROUN D TH I RTY. WHICH WAS A LSO "WH E N CAN WE START?" " R I G H T AWAY. A U D R E Y L E O TH E WAY UP TH E PATH TO TH E HOUSE. IT W A S JUST A S HE R E M E M B E R E D IT. WATE R FLOW E D FROM A TWO. BRIGHT BLUE EYES. AS THE 1 20 . WE KNOW THAT A N D THATS WHY." ALL P R E P A R ATIONS H A V E B E E N THE TRIP TOOK T H R E E DAYS. LOW TABLE. H E S H I V E R E D S L I G H TLY-TH E R E A BO U T T H E WAS SOM ETH I N G C H I LL I N G D E PT H S AND THE SILENT BLUE RUBBED CITRONELLA ON T H E I R FACES A N D H A N DS. S C R E E N ED. "SO YOU WANT TO GO TO YOU R FATH ER'S COTTA G E AND F I N D A POPLI NG. I'M CARL P I PER. WITH BACK-BREAKING PORTAGES EVERY FEW M I LES. A U D R E Y DRI FTED OFF TO SLEEP WITH T H E STRANGE WILD MUSIC IN H I S EARS: THE P I P E S OF PAN. SOME F I FTY F E ET I N HEIGHT. HELD IT U P TO THE LIGHT A N D LOOKE D AT IT C RITICALLY. WAS SITTING IN THE OPEN DOOR OF TH E CABIN TY ING A FLY." UP THE STE E P STA I R S ON THE WERE SECOND FLOOR TH E R E H E NODDED. HE KNEW THAT T H E LAKE WAS MORE THAN A THOU S A N D FEET D E E P I N T H E M I DDLE. A SC R E E N E D PORCH I N FRONT. BOTH T H E PIPERS H A D Y ELLOW H A I R. HIS FATH E R A N D BROTH E R H A D ROWE D T O TH E OTH E R S I D E OF T H E LATE A FTERNOON ON T H E TH I R D DAY THEY C A M E TO WIDE LAKE A FTER A TH R E E M I LE PORTAGE. W H I C H WAS F I LLED B Y A P U M P FROM T H E L A K E . A U D R E Y COULD SEE GREAT BOU L D E R S ON THE BOTTOM. WHICH WAS BLACK BASS O R WALLEYED PIKE WITH B I SCU ITS AND D R I E D FRUIT. P I N E F U R NITURE. TWO P I N E C H A I R S ON TH E PORCH . A BOOK C A S E WITH SOM E OF A U DR EY'S OLD BOOKS STI L L T H E R E . ON THE BACK PORCH.

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TH E R E WAS A RED MARK AROUND HIS N EC K .ED A RO U N D M Y N EC K .AT­ ING AND THE H E A RT STOPS. A K E . H E A RT POU N D I NG. H E C A M E TO H I M S E L F LYI NG ON THE FLOOR. I N G. H A D R E A D I N A N O L.'· L I E F TOL.D HE 1 22 . V I O L ETS OF THE AND IRIS FORGET-ME.D A U DREY.NOTS. HE WENT BACK TO T H E IN THE DAYS THAT FOLLOWED T H E Y FISHED A N D SWAM A N D H I K E D A N D C ANOED A R O U N D T H E L.OTH ES. WEL. Y FRACTU R E D . L A U G H OF A G L.AC K B E R R I ES AND I FEL. FROM AND VI BRATING W E I G H T ON T H E LINE. A N D A S L. AND P ULLED H I M SE L. "SOO N E R OR L. I T WAS A BOUT DEATH BY HANGI NG: A U D R E Y P I C K E D U P A S H O V E L A N D A C A N . E J A C U L.OU I S .OON.AKE. AND THREE G E ES E IN FLEW THE N O RT H D I STANCE IN V FO R M ATION. Y T H E SPOT TO DIG FOR WOR M S .L. L.I NG OF W E A K N ESS IN H I S C H E ST. H I S COCK AND L. F B L. I G H T L. T H EY C L E A N E D T H E FISH I N T H E LA K E A N D C A R R I E D THE ENTRA I LS I N A P A N A N D D R O P P E D T H E M O N T H E COM POST H EAP. S W I N G I N G A FEW I NC H E S OFF T H E FLOOR. A K E TO F I S H .L. REACHED U P AS FAR AS H E COULD O N THE LOOSE E N D OF T H E ROPE. BUT TH E R E WAS NO H U RRY NOW. T H I M S E L. U S H I NG. MAY HOWEVER. H I S FATH E R "WELL. A S S . HIS FATH E R HAD AND EVEN CASES EJACU L. I N TWENTY M I N UT E S T H E Y H A D S I X R OC K B A S S A N D S E V E N Y E LL. H I S N E C K V E R Y SORE A N D A TASTE OF BLOOD I N H I S MOUTH. HE WAS STA RTI NG TO GET A H A RD-ON AS HE R E M E M B E RED SOM ETH I N G H E H I S FATH E R L. " L. HOW WOU L. O W E R G A R D E N AT T H E S I DE OF THE HOUSE. IN SOME TI M E S HE K N E W EXACTL. L.ATER HE W I L L SHOW H I MS E LF:' H O U S E A N D LOO K E D I N THE M I R ROR.OO K I N G U P AT THE BEAMS. T A FEEL. E D I N FRONT O F H i S E Y E S A N D H E W E N T O F F I N H I S PANTS. HE BECA M E QUITE DIZZY. E T T H E J E RRY TH E WAS PIER. E OF A NTICI PATION IN H I S CROTCH A N D T H E P I T O F H I S STO M A C H .OOK I N G UP AT T H E SMOOTH ROU N D BEAMS. F U L. A L L TH I S C A M E BACK TO HIM AS HE STOOD IN THE WORK ROOM WITH JERRY AND T H E PIPER B ROTH E R S AND GLANCED U P AT T H E B E A M .A N N E D T O N A I L.OW PERCH.T P R E S S U R E O N T H E VAGUS N E R VE. HARD HE STRI P P E D OFF H I S C L. D M E D I C A L.OOD STOPS C I RC U L.Y FEL.A I N TOOK A IT TO H I S FATHER1 PA I L AND W E NT HIS HE GOT AN OUT TO IDEA. I S H ED. H E COUL.A N K S T O THE B E A M S T O FORM AN ATTIC AND STORE ROOM TO THE WORKSHOP. ErS CATCH S O M E FISH FOR D I N N E R 1" "EJAC UL. SIDE FI S H I N G FROM TH E OTH ER OF A L. A N D SI L. A U DREY WATC H E D T H E M GO WITH A T I N G L.Y AFTER THE DROP W H E N THE NECK I S BROKEN AND ONCE J UST BEFORE T H E BL. H E SOME HOME PICK B L. KNOT B E H I N D HIS L E FT EAR. L.. BOOK H E FOU N D I N A T R U N K I N T H E ATTIC OF T H E FAMI L. SOME IN. J E R R Y AND A U DR E Y GOT TH E I R F I S H I N G PO L E S A N D W A L K E D DOWN T O T H E P I E R . ONCE I M M E D I ATE L. AND A BRANCH GOT TANGL. P L. T H E SUN WAS SETTING AC ROSS THE L.OO M E D TH ERE. L B L. O N G A S TW EL. U BRI CATI NG AS HE ADJUSTED THE SUDE WATER. HASTILY H E D R E S S E D A N D U N D I D T H E KNOT AND COILED THE ROPE.Y O C C U R S TW I C E . NOW W A S H I S CHANCE TO TRY IT.MOST AT O N C E A U D R E Y FELT THE T U G O N H I S L I N E A N D P U L L E D O U T A O N E-POU N D ROCK BASS. J U ST B E FO R E WHEN FATH E R C A M E AND ASKED. A T I V E L Y F O R A M O M ENT. BUT NOTH I NG MORE W A S S A I D . O N G A S SHOVE L O F D I RT TU R N E D U P T H I C K R E D WORMS.L. T H I S G E N E R A L. EXPL.ATION OCCU R TH R E E BROUGHT S T l L." THE P I P E R S W E R E B U S Y U N P A C K I N G G E A R FROM A U D R E Y WAS STA N D I N G U P AT TH E ATTIC W I NDOW WHEN HE READ THIS. S U N S ET "WHAT H A P P E N E D T O YOUR N EC K A U D REY1" H E W E N T OUT TO H I S FATH E R'S WOR KSHOP. A U D R EY S U D D E N L. H E WAS GOI NG T O JACK OFF.E.VER SPOTS BOI L. B L OO D POU N D E D A N D S A N G I N H I S E A R S A N D T H E R OO M BLAC K E D OUT A N D H E WENT OFF. THEN H E A R C H E D H I S F EET. EVERY A N D SOM ETI M E S A S OFTEN CONSC I O U S N E S S A S FIVE T I M ES. A F I R E W A S A LR E A D Y B U R N I N G I N TH E K I TC H E N STOVE. TH I S WAS A COM POST HEAP OF GARBAGE AND H U M U S F O R T H E W I LD F L. AC K B E R R I E S . A T I O N THOUGHT TO R E S U L. U H I W A S P I C K I NG BL.E SUBJECTS D U R I N G H A NG I NG I S SO FREQUENT AS T O BE TH E R U L.VE M I N UTES I N CASES W H E R E T H E NECK IS UNBROKEN IS OR L.ATION IN YOUNG MAL. OO K E D A T H I M S P E C U L.D T A K E H I S TI M E A B O U T I T . H E F A S H I O N E D A H A N G M A N'S K N OT A N D THREW THE ROPE OVER A BEAM. "TH E P R E S E N C E OF H U M A N BODI E S W I L L DRAW THE POP L. L. AUDREY I N TO W H I ST U NG T H R O U G H H I S T E E T H .L. BREATH T H E C A NOES. BUT THIS WAS NEVER ACCOM P L. UNE S O M EW H E R E THE L. FEEL T H E JERK FLAPPING ON THE TH R E E M I NUTES WITH THE N E C K BROK E N . " P L.Y HOUSE IN ST. M A Y P E R S I ST F O R A S L. F U P ON TI P TOE. A U D R E Y COULD S E E T H E FISH PIER. AND AUDREY FEL. T H E WATER WAS SMOOTH A S B A I T E D H I S HOOK THE BLUE A N D L.

TH E N A U DR E Y MADE OUT A FIGURE LYI N G IN THE S A N D. LOOKING DOWN A S TH EY EJACULATED A N D AUDREY THOUGHT OF A PICTURE H E H A D SEEN I N PARIS OF A LITTLE BOY PISSING I N TO T H E WATER . A N D T H E CREATU R E GOT AN E R ECTION AND EJACU­ LATED WITH A LOW WHISTLING SOU N D . A U D R E Y STEPPED OVER TO THE POPLING A N D TOUCHED H I S SHOULD E R ." THEY STOOD THERE WITH TH E I R ARMS ST I L L AUDREY UNTIED THE C REATU R E 'S ARMS A N D SET HIM GENTLY ON H I S FE ET. WEBBED FEET TRA I L I N G I N TH E WATER.FOR A W E E K NOTH I N G H A PP E N E D. . CRAMMING RICE A N D BISCUITS INTO HIS MOUTH WITH HIS HA NDS. LOO K . . A N D STA G N A N T W A T E R W I T H FEET. PLATE OFF THE TABLE AND C A R R I E D IT I N TO A HE SQUATTED CORN E R OF TH E KITC H E N . A N D TH R E E G E E S E FLEW OVER. H E AND ALMOST TRANSPARENT. TH EY CA R R I E D T H E POPLING S E V E R A L H U NDRED Y A R D S B A C K T O T H E HOUSE. SOM E HOW A U D R E Y COULD N E V E R B R I N G H I M S E L F T O S W I M OUT I NTO T H E D E E P WATER. . "THEY'VE GOT H I M. A U D R E Y BECA M E AWARE THAT CARRYING HIS LEGS. AS IF THEY WERE HAVING A P I C T U R E TA K E N . NOW T H E POPLI NG BEGAN TO STRUGGL E LIKE AN I M PATI ENT DOG AS H E WHI STLED O U T . R U N N I NG TH E WATE R OFF TH E I R BOD I E S A N D S H IVERI NG. W H E R E DOWN EATING THE FISH WITH D E LICATE VO RACITY. A U DREY. A N D THEN ONE AFTE RNOON A S J ER RY AND A UD R E Y WERE COM ING BACK FROM A WALK A R O U N D T H E EDGE OF TH E LA K E WITH TWO BLACK BASS A N D A WALL EYED PIKE A U D R E Y SUDDENLY STOPPED A N D PUT H I S H A N D IN FRONT OF J E R RY. G R I N N I NG. THE B R E EZE D I ED A N D TH E C REATU R E LAY TH E R E AS IF DEAD. T H E CREATU R E WAS LOOKI N G AT AUDR EY. STI R R I N G SAND-COLORED PUBIC H A I RS. AROUND EACH OTH E R'S SHOULDE RS. WATCHING TH E M WAS TH E R E I N TH E I NLET. TH E G R E E N COLOR SLOWLY S U B S I D E D. A N D A N YWAY T H E WATE R WAS M UCH TOO COLD TO STAY IN FOR MORE THAN A FEW M I N UTES. WHO WAS A R O U N D E A C H OTH E R 'S S H O U L D E R S . J E R R Y G LA N C E D DOW N . 1 23 ." "YOU'RE GETTI NG A H A RD-ON. CARL BOLTED TH E DOOR . C A R L OPENED TH E DOOR AND TH EY C A R R I ED THE POPLING I NTO THE LIVING ROOM. A ND WAS EXACTLY THE COLOR O F TH E SAND. SOM EONE OR SOM ETH I N G WAS L OOK I NG AT HIM. TRYING TO MAKE AS LITTLE NOIS E A S POSSI B L E THE BOYS DROPPED DOWN ONTO THE SAND BETW E E N TH E POPL I N G A N D TH E WATER. BOD I E S CONTRACTED." LIEF CAME OUT OF TH E KITC H E N WHERE H E HAD "YEAH. "NE BUVEZ JAMAIS D'EAU" A S THE I R S E M E N SLASHED INTO THE WATER LIKE SALMON ROW. AS THE S U N WARMED THEM TH E Y S T O O D W I TH TH E I R ARMS ACCENT S P R I N K L E D OVER IT. A N D WHEN H E SAW H I S WAY TO THE WATE R WAS CUT OFF H E GAVE A W H I STLING SIGH OF FEA R. "FISH FISH FISH. AT FI RST THEY SAW NOTHI N G . H E KNEW IT WAS TH E R E BECA U S E TH R E E DAYS B E FORE. . H E F E L T A S U D D E N R U S H OF B LOOD T O H I S CROTCH. I N A FEW SECONDS H E H A D P IC K E D TH E BON ES C L E A N . H E S N I F FE D THROUGH TH E OPEN DOOR OF TH E KITCHEN. THEN H E C U R L E D U P IN H I S COR N E R A N D WENT TO S L E E P. THEY MOVED FORE W A R D CA UTIOUSLY AND PARTED THE BUSHES OVER THE I NLET A N D P E E R E D DOWN. YOU COULD E A S I LY M I SS I T BECAUSE THE R E WERE BUSHES GROW I N G A RO U N D TH E BOULDERS THAT ALMOST CON C E A L E D T H E I N L ET. WHERE LIEF HAD ALREADY LA I D OUT PLATES O F FRIED FISH WITH BISCU ITS AND RICE. THE FIGU RE S E E M E D A FT E R T H E Y H A D F I N I S H E D EATING. A T TH IS MOMENT A B R E EZE R U STLED ACROSS THE LA K E BETW E E N THE C R E A T U R E'S LEGS. THE W A T E R W A S S H A L LOW FOR A BOUT TWENTY LEAPED U P." BEEN PREPA R I NG THE EVEN I NG M E A L . T H E C R E AT U R E JERRY HAD STOPPED H E R E FOR A S W I M . STA LE F L OW E R S. HEADING NORTH. I S U D D E N LY GOT HOT FOR SOM E REASON. N EXT TAKE SHOWED THE TWO BOYS J A C K I NG OFF. " HE POI N T E D DOWN TO HIS TH E DOOR. THE PO P L I N G G R A B B E D A STI FFE N I NG P H A L LU S . A N D H E GAVE A LITTLE COOI NG GIGGLE THAT S E N T A SHIVER DOWN A U D R EY'S SPINE. IT S M E L L E D LIKE H UM U S . SO THEY SWAM C LOSE TO SHORE AND THEN C A M E O U T A N D STOOD ON TH E SAND. TU R N E D GREEN. A S M E LL OF FRYING F I S H C A M E OUT WITH HIM A S H E OPENE D "ME TOO. AND A U D R E Y REA LIZED THAT IT F E LT EXACTLY L I K E SOMEONE WAS TAKING A P I CTU R E . AUDREY COULD S M E LL IT AS H E MOVED FORWA RD. AND TH E N THE B A N K FELL AWAY S H A R PLY I NTO DEEP WATER. LOOK I N G ACROSS T H E LAKE. TH E POPLI NG LOOK E D UP AT HIM. AND SHIT O N THE SAND. H E K N E W THAT J U ST AHEAD WAS A LITTLE SANDY I NLET BETW E E N TWO BOULDERS. A U D R EY H A N D E D H I M ANOTH E R NOW HE KNEW THAT WH ATEV E R HAD BEEN PLATE A N D H E ATE THAT TOO. QUICKLY STRI PPING OFF H I S BELT AND P I N I O N I N G T H E CREATUR E'S A R M S .

FISH. E FT A N D I EJACUL." CL. L.E C H I R P I N G L. HE HAS PU BIC AND R ECTAL. A U DR E Y HE T U R N E D AND J E R RY J E R R Y A N D I A R E N A K E D MOST OF THE T I M E . DROPPED THE BATH TOW E L ON TH E FL. I F H E I S L..EA R N I NG HOW TO SEE WITH OUR STRIPPED OFF TH E I R SHORTS.VER GRAY TRANSLUCENT COL. AND BOYS OFF WITH H I M . E A S U R E IS A L.ET A T "WHAT HAPPENS I F HE FUCKS M E 1" I N STANT C H A M E L E O N . A N D WE ARE SL. FRENZIES A R E HE P E N I S A N D TESTICLES A R E R ETRACTED I NTO H I S BODY. W H E N H E L. P I N K-TH E COLORS H I S BODY SO T H A T AUD REY A C H E D TO BOD I ES. L.OOKI N G AT M E W I T H M Y B A C K T U R N E D. H I S HEAD COMES TO A POINT A N D IS QUITE H A I R LESS.E SOU N D T H A T V I BRATED I N M Y TH ROAT. EROGENOUS S P A R KS. J ER K E D H I S H E A D TO T H E L. AL. C H A RACTE R I STICS: H E I S Q U I T E TA L L. TO WATC H . R U N N I NG LIGHT F I N G E R S OVER H I S N I PPL.IAM B U R ROUGHS 1 24 . H A S EXPL. THE PO P L. H E L.ooR A N D BEGAN CARESSING H I M . THE ASS. OUT IS A N D THE L. I M P A CT. I K E A ROPE MARK A P P E A R E D. I C A N TEL." C H ANGING COL. MOST S I X F E ET.ATE E ROTIC ANY N U M B E R OF T I M E S . S HIT. I N G W R I T H E D BR IGHT REO AND E C S T A T I C A L. L. F TRANSPA R E N T AND SHOW W E IGHT MORE 1 1 0 PO U N DS. A THIS M ET H O D OF P E R C E PT I O N L.W A Y S MANI­ FESTED B Y REO A N D F E A R B Y GREEN.EA R N E D TO OTH E R TIM ES. THE P O P L. THROUGH S A L.E S H R I L. I K E SOME P I N K TRANSL. H A I RS C H A NGE COL.OR I N A S PL. NORMA LLY H E I S A S I L.EAS U R E .L.OOKS A T M E WITH H I S N I PPL.L.ooK ­ AREAS D I F F E R E N T ACCOR D I N G TO WHICH A R E USED. U K E A TROPICAL. TWO ECSTASY BROUGHT THE GIGGL. WA S H I N G BODIES. FLASH I NG HE THAT CAME THROUGH IN A HIM FASTER W H I STL.Y U N D E RWATER SPERM S M E L L H E DE FECATES F R O M S U D D E N FEA R O R PL.E N D E R THAN THAT HE C O U L. Y . HIS A U DREY'S NOTE ON W H I STL. F I N O OUT SOON ENOUGH.ORS F A ST E R . BUT SO S L. L. D HIS NOT IS H E CAN MAKE H I M S E L. HE SEEMS TO BE ABL. A L.L. M Y N I PPL.L. WHEN H E SWIMS. L. I N G TU R N E D P U R PLE.A I N E D TO M E THAT IT IS FATAL.E BODY A N D OFTEN TURNS AROUND AND B E N DS OVER TO L. B U T HAS N O W L.U­ CENT FISH.Y L.EXIBLE. THE POPL. WIL. T H E WAY AND DIE. NECK HIS V I SC E R A . A N D T H E N H E L. HIS HE CAN SEE WITH H I S WHOL. I F W E TRY TO F U C K H I M .OR. I N E L.EAV I NG A S M OOT H S U T .ANGUAGE. POP A L.OOKE D AT M E W I T H H I S N E C K W H E R E A REO L. A U D R EY AND J E R RY CARRIED HIM PRODUCES P H Y S I C A L.I N G WANTS TO BE SEEN WITH OTH E R BODIES AND TO SEE OTHE R ORANGE.ES BECOME E R ECT.ING TO BE FUCKED.OWL.E TO E J A C U L.OR WITH HIS SKIN. I N G C A M E I N .OOK AT H I M . W I L. K I C K I NG H I S L.L. THESE AND MORE F R E Q U E NT.OW J E R R Y O R ME TO FUCK H I M .EAR G R A Y S H I M M E R I NG E Y E S . L.ES AND GENITAL.IT S E C O N D TO M ATCH H I S S U R ROUNDI NGS. H I S BODY G I V E S O F F A G R A Y GHOSTL. F O R A POPL.MOST MORE NOT S E R P E NTI N E AND FL. I K E SOFT P E N I S SURGED E R ECT L. H I S ACH I EV I N G FRENZIES THAT ARE P A I N F U L. CARL. A L.Y I N TH E AIR. THE AND OF COL.T U R N E D A SALMON P I N K COLOR A N D ROLLED OVER ON H I S BACK WITH HIS LEGS I N THE A I R A N D MADE A STRANGE POP P I N G SOU N D IN HIS TH ROAT. TODAY I WAS IN T H E WOR KSHOP A N D T H E PO P L.IKE SOM E SON A R L.ES AND C H I RPS VI BRATE IN M Y BODY THE POPLl NG: PHYSICAL L. A I D H I M DOWN ON T H E B E D WITH A BATH TOWEL UNDER HIS ASS. WITH HUGE HOWEV E R . HOWEVER. M O N . U PSTA I RS TO T H E BE DROOM A N D L. H A I RS. A BOVE A L. " H E WIL. N I PPL.ES.EGS SPASMODICAL. HE T U R N S G R E E N AND SH ITS. HE IS AN USE TH E TOI L.ITTL.ooK AT ME WITH HIS ASS.oo K ED AT THE BEAMS AND MADE A L. "THAT YOU W I L. THE PUBLIC AND RECTAL. P L.ES A N D N UTS AND ASS.S ARE THE MOST S E N S I T I V E S E E I NG AREAS. L.ATED.

THE IRRELEVENCE AND CRUDITY AND H UMAN FAILURE (WHICH WAS VAST) O F THE COURT ON FRIDAY MANAGED TO SIFT THE WHEAT FROM THE TARES. I HOPED IT REFLECTED WHAn PUBLIC GALLERY F I L LED WITH FOOLISH LOVE GLANCES LOVE IN STRUCK THE A I R. BE SELF-DECEPTION 1 25 . YET IT WAS ALL SAID. IT HAD PREVIOUSLY ONLY HAPPENED WHEN I THERE BEEN ANOTHER RESULT.THE COM M ITTAL TWO DAYS AFTER THE COMMITTAL HEARING. FOR TH E FIRST T I M E I N THIS WHOLE BUSINESS. THERE WAS WHAT I FELT FOR LEE IN THE DARE I RISK O N E OBSERVATION (IT M A Y A L SO WHICH MAY S E E M BUT I COURT. THAT WAS THE ONLY REALITY ON MY SIDE OF THE COURT. W H E T H E R AS BOTH THE OR WORDS. I STILL CANNOT DIGEST IT. EACH T I M E "I FEEL CALM AND ACCEPTING AND HAVE A CLARITY ABOUT WHAT I MUST 00 THAT I DIDN'T HAVE BEFORE. A HEARING FOR MISFITS: A I FELT THAT STRENGTH WHICH COMES FROM A COMMON PURPOSE. SECOND. AND THAT OF COURSE IS WHY THE CASE IS BOUND TO G O ON. THEY SURV IVED EVEN THAT MANGLING OF HOW COULD THE POLICE HAVE NOT BEEN AFFECTED? OR THE MAG I STRATES? IT WAS NOT PORNOGRAPHY AND RAPE AND I NDOCTRINATION WHICH PERVADED THE AI R. AND BEING MISCONSTRUED. REMEMBER YOU SAID THAT I COULDN'T GET UP I N COURT AND DENY THAT 1 010 LOVE BOYS? THE FEAR OF THAT. LOVERS OPPOSITE A COURT FILLED WITH LOVERS OF THE FOOLISH. I HAD DOUBTED IT WERE POSSIBLE-AS YOU KNOW. FOR THOSE GENERALLY CONSIDERED INCAPABLE OF RECEIVING IT FROM THOSE UNWORTHY OF GIVING IT. FIRST. I WROTE TO A CLOSE FRIEND: THING AS I LOOKED AT H I M -THAT I LOVED H I M. EXPRESSION AND M ISREADING OF SENTIMENT. FRIENDS. NO OTHER OUTCOME WAS POSSIBLE. HAD STRUGGLED FOR OTHERS. MUCH AS THOSE MAY HAVE BEEN THE ONLY TERMS I N WHICH THEY COULD UNDERSTAND O R ORGANISE THE PROCEEDINGS--eUT THE ASSER110N OF LOVE: BUT MOST I MPORTANT WERE TWO OTHER THINGS. NOW IT HAD HAPPENED WITH ME AS THE BENEFICIARY. HAD HAUNTED ME FOR MONTHS. THE LOVE A N D U N D E RSTA N D I N G I FELT FROM MY THEREFORE IT WAS A COURT OF FOOLS. I ONLY KNEW ONE STRANGE. I WOULD HAVE FELT CH EATED. M Y WORDS WERE OUT AND YOU WERE RIG HT. THEY DEFIED DEREUCTION OF T H E PROSECUTION AND T H E LEGAUSM ON THE DEFENCE. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? CAN ANYONE UNDERSTAND IT? MIGHT HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GIVE OTHERS IN THE PAST.

HOW THEY K NOW TH INGS PEOPLE THREE OFFICER. . CHOOSE. AND THE PAIN TlHE WHOLE TlHING CAUSED HIM. A B R I EF PROS E C U T I O N STA T E M E NT. RISKED GOI NG TO IF LEE THAT MAKE SENSE? I F I HAD BEEN SET FREE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN ON THEIR T E R M S-TH E TERMS THEY D I D N 'T TURN U P IN COU RT-TH EN CERTA I N L Y S H E WAS HOODWI N K E D. AT THAT C O U RT POI NT. SINCE EV ERYTH I N G IF SHE HAD ONCE Irs ANY OVER BAD"). SINCE NO LESS TlHAN SEVEN BOFORS POLICEMEN H A D TURNED THREAT. A N D A VO I D ANY POSSI B I LITY OF POLICE I NTI M I DATION -MERELY BY TlHEIR PRESENCE. (THAT'S "ISN'T TO SO SAY. HOWEVER. I T H I N K S H E W I L L HAVE BEEN REASSURED. BUT BECAUSE SHE MIGHT TlHEN PRESSURE O N LEE. OUTLI N I NG M Y A R R E ST LOWED AND L E E'S I NT E R ROGATION. THAT MAKES ANY SENSE OF SUCH WASTE AND STUPIDITY. TlHEN WITH INDEED. ON THE OTH ER RELI EF THAT LONG GONE PAST ('TWO YEARS NOW> AND ABOUT WHAT A SUCCESSION OF ADULTS HAVE WANTED OUT OF HIM. SOLICITOR. PERHAPS SHE NOW REALISES TlHAT TlHE POLICE ARE CAPABLE OF LYING IN TlH E SAM E WAY TlHAT I'VE MAINTAINED TlHROUGHOUT THEY LIED ABOUT ME. THE POLICE WENT ALL THE WAY UP TO THE M I D LA N DS. (CRUELLEST IRONY-THAT IT WAS ME. STRUGGLING TO FIND WORDS. WHAT BETTER INDICATION IS THERE THAT THEY HAVE NO SCRUPLES I N PUTTING ENORMOUS PRESSURE ON KIDS. LEE WOULD HAVE HAD TO TESTIFY NOT ONLY TWO M A G I STRATES. NOW THAT THE STRUGGLE GOES ON. CLERK. I AM FREE NOT TO TREMBLE. AND IT WASN'T "SO BAD" AFTER 1 26 ." FROM MYSELF-A N D TlHAT T H E WHOLE A FFA I R WOULD BE I N FORMAL I N MY LETTIER TO M Y F R I E N D AFTER THE COMMITTAL H E A R I NG I CONTI N U ED: WHOM H E SOUGHT SOME HUMAN FEELlNGJ SHE MIGHT TlHEN. BUT THERE IS A "J EAN M UST NOW BE FEELING HAND. BETRAYED. AND POSITION ONE TlH E COMMITTAL PROC E E D I NGS LASTED A DAY. J" ORDER OF THE COURT TO QUIT IT.J E A N . AT LAST. EXPECTED HOSTI LITY F R O M M Y FRIENDS OR M Y S E L F . U P AT COURT. EXCEPT A TRI U M PH O F FORM AND OF METHOD. BESIDE HAVE HAD TO LOOK AT HIM. IT IS ON M Y TERMS AS WELL. STRUGGLING TO LOOK AT M E-TIHE ONLY PERSON IN THAT GAUNT ROOM WHO COULD GIVE HIM THE LEAST SIGN OF RECOGNI­ TION. BUT HAVE FIVE C O U RT OR SIX AND REPORTER HEAVIES AND MYSELF WHOM ABOUT MIXED PAI NFUL FEELINGS. OF THE WAS FOL­ OF TlHEIR N U MBER RIGHT NEXT TO WHERE LEE WOULD TESTIFY. ON THE OTH ER H A N D. I N ITS BROADEST SENSE. STUGGLING TO REMEMBER. MADE HIS STATEM ENT. HE M UST SOLICITOR'S I SAW MARK AND DAREN TODAY BRIEFLY. TO BE MY B A R R I ST E R ASKED BOTH TO FOR THE RELIEVE I WISH SHE COULD HAVE BEEN IN COURT WHEN LEE CLEARED. IF THEY WERE PREPARED TO FLOUT THE TI MES THEIR AGE HAVE N O I N K L I N G OFI (WHICH AGAI N IS WHY I AM I N COURT . PRIDE-AT THEIR U N D E RSTANDING AND BREADTH OF VISION. LEE H I M SELF. I TlHINK SHE WOULD ONLY L E E'S MOTHER• . THIS WAS NO MEAN HAVE UNDERSTOOD-lN A WAY COLD WRITTIEN WORDS COULDN'T PERSUADE HER-TlHE EXTENT TO WHICH LEE IS CONFUSED ABOUT TlHE ALLEGATION HE ORIGINALLY MADE. NO T R I U M P H . NOW SHE M UST REALISE THAT THE ASSURANCES ABOUT COURT THE PROCEDURE NOT WERE COMPLETELY WHO FALSE: IT IS THESE COURT THE MY POLICE DECIDE THIS I S THE ONLY WAY I CAN EXPLAIN THE INNER CALM NOW I FEEL. NOT SIM PLY BECAUSE OF TlH E SUPPORT HE NEEDED FROM HER. THE VERY PERSON AGAINST WHOM HE WAS "COMPLAINING.THROW IT OUT IN ORDER TO HAVE I T TESTEDJ IT IS ONLY THE POLITICAL PROCESS. BUT TO FIGHT TlH I NGS. LOVE ALONE IS EASILY DENIED BY THOSE WHO CANNOT U N DERSTAND U NCONDITIONAL LOVE. TO AN EXTENT. THE EXTENT TO WHICH HE IN FACT WITHDREW MUCH OF WHAT HE ORIGINALLY SAID. IT WAS THE ONLY TI ME THEY COULD GET OFF. AS THAT COURT SHOWED. WHEN IN PRIVATE? BY THE APPEARANCE PROSECU­ TION'S FI RST WITN ESS. THEY TOLD AND HER EFFECTIVELY SHE HOODW I N K E D JAIL HER. S H E M U ST HAVE FELT H U M I LIATED A N D. HAD TO LEAVE THE COURT AS WELL THE POLICE H A D ASSURED HER TlHAT "ONLY TH E MAGISTRATE" WOULD BE IN COURT. IF LETS US H U MAN REALITY AT ALL. BARRISTERS. TESTIFIED. I T IS ONLY THE ANALYSIS OF WHY SUCH PATHETIC H U MAN CONSTRUCTS DETE R M I N E DENY H U MAN REALITY WHICH DOES A L L. I CANNOT LOOK AT EITHER OF THEM WITHOUT FEELING GLADNESS AND­ YES. TlHE POLICE LIED TO JEAN AND THEY KNEW THEY WERE LYING WHEN THEY DID SO. VERY M UCH IN LEE TWO HAS QUESTION OF HIS CONFUSION ABOUT EVENTS IN THE MI NDS. PROBATION PRESENT. IF BARRISTER HADN'T INSISTED. HAVE SEEN AN ESSENTIAL TRUTH: THAT TlH E RE IS NO QUESTION OF LEE LYING.

BEHIND7. 00 YOU K NOW LEE: YES. WHICH PROS: 0 1 0 YOU GO A N D STAY WITH H I M I N LONDON? STATE M EN TS TH E N WOMAN MAG ISTRATE: LEE. PROS: AFTER TH REE MONTHS 010 H E LEAVE AS I SAT IN THE DOCK ON JULY 2BTH.." "ASS" OR "BOTTOM. LEE DELIVERS THE OATH PROS: WHICH CITI ES 010 YOU GO THROUGH ? PROSECUTI O N : L E E . THEY INSERTED IT I N BRACKETS AFTER "DICK. WATCHING LEE TESTIFY. I HEARD I T I N WORDS OUT O F T H E MOUTHS O F T H E POLICE. LEE: YES. 1 27 ." KIDS WILL ALMOST ALWAYS SAY "BUM. LEE: NO. (WOULD LEE HAVE USED THE WORD "PENIS"7 1 THINK NOT. I WROTE DOWN AND ALL HIS THE Q U ESTI O N S I ALSO ADDRESSED T O H I M . PROS: 010 HE COM E TO LIVE WITH YOU AT YOUR HOUSE AT ALL? PROS: DURI NG THE DAY WHAT 0 1 0 YOU USED TO OO? LEE: YES. W H E N M EET ROGER MOODY? 0 1 0 YOU FI RST LEE: BIRM INGHAM. AND COM E TO VISIT YOU FROM T I M E TO TI ME. LEE: ABOUT FIVE YEARS AGO. LEE: NO. HESITATIONS IN NEVER TH ESE INTONATIONS I N H I S R E FLECTED I N THE VOI C E -SO M E T H I N G "DEPOSITION" BECOME. SURELY H E WOULD SAY .. I N HIS ORIGINAL STATEM E N T TO THE POLICE. PROS: WHERE 010 YOU GO WHEN IN LONOON? 00 YOU REMEMBER THE ADDR ESS. MAGISTRATE: I T MEANS YOU PROMISE TO TELL TH E TRUTH. PROS: WHAT SORT OF THI NGS 0 1 0 YOU 00 TOGETH ER? LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER. YOU M U ST PUT YOU R HANDS ON THE BI BLE--oN THE WORDS OF J ESUS. PROS: 010 YOU SEE H I M A LOT? LEE: YES." AND I F A BOY WERE TRYING TO BE POLITE IN ADULT COMPANY. LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER PROS: 00 YOU REMEMBER WHICH PART OF PROS: CLOSE? LONDON TH E HOUSE WAS I N ? LEE: ABOUT THI RTY M I LES AWAY." AND WOULD HE HAVE SAID "BACKSIDE"7 BACKSIDE IS A PECULIARLY ADULT TERM-"I'LL HIT YOU ON YOUR BACKSIDE IF YOU'RE NOT CAREFUL. PROS: FOR HOW LONG? LEE: ABOUT TH REE MONTHS. PROS: WH E R E 0 1 0 YOU LIVE? LEE: NO.WHEN HE MADE THAT CLINCHING STATEMENT. LEE: GO SWI M M I NG. . YOU ARE TO GOING GIVE TO MAKE A SOLE M N PROM I S E THE RIGHT PROS: CAN YOU REMEMBER HOW YOU WENT TO LONOON? ANSWER. LEE: BY COACH. NOTED THE REPLI ES. I CAN'T REMEMBER. WHAT TH E OATH MEANS? PROS: ON TH E FIRST OCCASION WERE YOU WITH A NYON E ELSE? LEE: I'M SUPPOSED T O T E L L THE TRUTH. .

1 28 . HOW LONG AGO WAS THI S ? LEE: I TH I N K T H R E E Y E A R S AGO.PROS: WHAT E LS E ? LEE: MATTRESSES. PROS: WHAT WERE TH E I R NAMES? PROS: WHAT D I D ROGE R U S E D TO WEAR? LEE: J I M M Y A N D STEVE. PROS: WHEN DID YOU GO BEFORE ? PROS: A N YTH I N G ELSE? LEE: M E ROGER. LEE: NO. T O DO? PROS: LEE: I WENT TO PLAY WITH THE OTH E R LADS. PROS: DID I T HAVE BEDS IN IT? PROS: YOU EXPLA I N TO TH E LADY UP TH E R E (HE POINTS T O T H E MAGISTRATE). PROS: PROS: WHAT DID YOU DO A BOUT THAT? WHEN YOU DESC R I BED YOU R T R I P ON LEE: C A N'T R E M E M B E R YOU R OWN. L E E : PANTS. MAGISTRATE: PROS: ON WHAT DI D YOU SLEEP? WE HAVE SOME I DEA OF WHAT H A P P E N ED. LEE: I C A N'T U N D E RSTA N D . L E E : SOMETI M E S I W E N T W I T H ROGER. PROS: LEE: WH E R E D I D YOU U S E D TO GO? PROS: S O M ETI M E S THEY CAME TO OUR PLACE. SOMETI M ES WE W E N T T O WH E R E T H E Y W E R E LIVING. THERE I S ANOTHER LONG SILENCE FROM LEE. W E R E TH E MATTRESSES C LOSE? LEE: Y E S. W E WANT TO HEAR I T FROM YOU . PROS: HOW OLD W E R E YOU? PROS: I N WHAT WAY? LEE: ABOUT N I N E. PROS: WH E R E DID ROGER SLEEP? PROS: WHAT SORT OF THI NGS DID YOU U S E D LEE: N EXT TO ME. LEE: S A M E ROOM AS ROGER. PROS: WHERE D I D YOU SLEEP? PROS: TELL U S WHAT HAPPEN ED. TO M E. PROS: ON LATER N I GHTS DID A N YT H I N G H A PP E N ? PROS: WHAT T I M E O F THE YEA R? L E E (AFTER A LONG SILENCE): H E TRI E D T O GET CLOSE LEE: SUM M E R HOLIDAYS. LEE: H E K I S S E D M E . WHAT DI D YOU U S E D TO WEAR? LEE: PANTS. SOM ETI M E S A TEESHI RT. PROS: WAS TH I S THE FI RST TI M E YOU WENT TO PROS: ON THE F I R ST N IGHT DID A N YTH I N G LONDON? HAPPEN? LEE: NO. A N D M Y BROTH E R S W E N T TO STAY WITH LEE: I DON'T THI N K SO.

PROS: DID A N YTH I NG ELSE H A PPEN YOU CAN TELL US ABOUT? PROS: DID YOU AGREE TO THOSE TWO PHOTOS BEING TAKEN? 1 29 . LEE: YES. PROS: DI D YOU SEE H I S PENIS? LEE: TH E MATTRESSES WERE RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHE R. DEFENSE BARRISTER (INTERVENING>: DON'T LEADI CLOSE WAS TH E WORD. LEE: H E T R I E D TO COME O V E R T O M Y MATTRESS. PROS: WHEN HE DID SO. LEE: I CANT REMEMBER. LEE: YES.PROS: HOW D I D YOU L I E IN BED? WERE TH E TWO MATTRESSES ALONGS I D E EACH OTH ER? THERE IS YET ANOTHER LONG SILENCE LEE: HE TRIED TO PUT HIS PENIS UP M Y BACKSIDE. WHO TOOK THESE PHOTOS? PROS: DID HE SUCC E E D AT ALL? LEE: ROGER. LEE: HE WANTED TO . PROS: DID HE GET IT I N ? PROS: WERE YOU SLEEPING ON ONE OF TH E MATTRESSES? LEE: NO. WHAT D I D YOU DO? PROS: WHERE WAS ROGER S LEEPI NG? LEE: I MOVED FURTHER AWAY. NOT TOGETHER. PROS: DID A N YT H I N G ELSE HAPPEN ON ANOTH E R NIGHT? PROS: DID YO U R R E S PECTI V E POSITIONS LEE: HE KISSED ME A N D THAT. STAY LIKE THAT? PROS: WHAT DOES "AND THAT' M EA N ? LEE: I STAYED THERE. LEE: ON THE OTH ER ONE. YES. THERE I S A LONG SILENCE PROS: DID YOU R EAD ANY BOOKS WHEN STAYI NG WITH ROGER? LEE: H E TRI ED TO PUT H I S ARMS A ROUND ME. YES. LEE: NOTH ING. PROS: ANYTH I N G ELSE? PROS: WHAT SORT OF BOOKS? THERE IS ANOTHER LONG SILENCE LEE: SEX BOOKS. LEE: YES. MAGISTRATE: DO YOU K NOW WHY YOU' R E HERE TO GIVE EVI DENCE TODAY? PROS: WAS THERE ANY QUESTION OF PHOTOS BEING TAKEN? DEFENCE BARRISTER (IN AN ASIDE): THE POLICE OFFICERS TOLD H I M TO COME. PROS: WHAT ABOUT ROGER? PROS: I'D LIKE YOU TO LOOK AT TWO PHOTOS. PROS: WH E N ? PROS: CAN YOU R E M E M B E R ANYTH ING ELSE HAPPENING AT A LL? LEE: WHEN H E C A M E TO T H E M I D LANDS SOMETIME BEFORE I CAME TO LONDON.

DEF: YOU'RE NOT SURE ABOUT IT ARE YOU? DEF: HE ASKED TO TAK E PHOTOS OF YOU A N D LEE: YES. PROS: WHAT D I D YOU HAVE TO DRINK? LEE: YES. LEE: YES. 1 30 . LEE: NO. L E T M E OTH E R P H OTOS SHOW Y O U THESE NO­ [CLOTH ED]. DEF: IT COULD J UST AS EAS I LY HAVE BEEN A H A N D AS A P E N I S COULDN'T IT? PROS: DID YOU GO OUT IN TH E EVENING AT A LL? LEE: YES. LEE: I D R A N K POMAGNE. I CAN'T REMEMBER WHO ELSE. YOU KNOW YOU SAI D ROGE R TRI ED TO P U T H I S PENIS U P YOUR BACKSI DE? HE N EVER TOUCHED IT DID HE? LEE: I DONT KNOW. YOU ALL SLEPT IN TH E SA M E ROOM DIDN'T YOU? LEE: YES. LEE: NO. DEF: TH E ROOM YOU SLEPT IN WITH ROGER. DO YOU REMEMBER IT WAS FOR TWO PEOPLE GOING OUT TO BANGLADESH? PROS: WHO WAS AT THE PARTY? LEE: ROGER. DEF: WHEN YOU SAY MON OTH ER OCCASIONS" HE T R I E D TO KISS YOU HE WAS DOING THAT RATH E R L I K E A FATH ER WASN'T H E ? PROS: HOW MUCH? LEE: HALF A BOTTLE. TH E R E'S DEF: YOU COULDN'T SEE HIM COU LD YOU? THI N G WRONG WITH THOSE IS THERE? LEE: NO. LEE: NO.LEE: NO. LEE: NO. DEF: YOU CAN'T REALLY BE SURE CAN YOU? I SN'T THAT RIGHT LEE: THATS RIGHT. MY BARRISTER THEN ROSE TO CROSS-EXAMINE DEF: NOT IN A N Y OTH ER WAY? DEFENCE: LEE. PROS: WE RE THERE ANY WOMEN THERE? DEF: YOU WENT WITH ROGE R OTH ER EVEN­ I NG S D I DN'T YO U ? TO TH E CINEMA FOR EXA M PLE. I CANT B E SURE. DEF: IT COULD HAVE BEEN A H A N D AGAINST YOU COULDN'T IT? DEF: AND THE R E WAS ONLY ONE ROOM FOR YOU TO SLEEP IN WHEN YOU WERE WITH ROGER? LEE: YES. DEF: YOU R E M E M B E R THE PARTY TO WHICH YOU WENT. DEF: YOU TELL US. WHEN YOU R BROTHE R S CAME TO STAY. DEF: NOT IN ANY OTH ER WAY? LEE: I THOUGHT H E DID. LEE: WE WENT TO A PARTY. Y O U SAI D N O . LEE: NO. DEF: A N D W H E N HE C U DDLED YOU HE DID SO LIKE A FATH E R? LEE: YES.

LEE: NO. O R AWAY? DEF: YO U R MUM AND DAD DON� U VE LEE: AWAY.LEE: NO. LEE_ YOU SAID ON YOU SAW HIS YOU BUT LATER YOU SAI D ROOM-A BARE ROOM-ON YOUR OWN? COULDN'T S E E IT. WHY 010 YOU SAY I T WAS A P E N I S? LEE: I T DIDNT FEEL LIKE A HAND OR ANYTHING. DEF: IT WAS REALLY LIKE A FATH ER WASN'T IT? IN IT? LEE: I DONT KNOW. TOGETHE R DO TH EY? PROS: COULD YOU SEE HOW HE WAS FACI NG? LEE: NO. WAS I T DA R K OR LIGHT? LEE: YES. THEY HAVENT. HE WAS BEING W A S N 'T A F F ECTI O N A T E HE? HE W A S N 'T LIKE A FATH E R DOI N G MAG: W H E N D I D YOU SEE H I S PENIS TH E N ? LEE: I N TH E MORNING. LEE: NO. LEE: DARK. DEF: SO WHEN YOU C A M E TO STAY IN LONDON WITH ROGER I T WAS NATU RAL FOR YOU TO SLEEP IN THE SAM E ROOM A N D NOT IN A MAGISTRATE: WE WANT TO ASK YOU ONLY O N E QUESTION PENIS. I'VE LITTLE DOUBT 131 . DEF: THEY HAVEN'T DON E SO SI NCE YOU WERE A BABY IS THAT RIGHT? PROS: YOU SAY ROGE R KISSED YOU. DEF: AND WHEN ROGER WAS TOUCH I NG YOU. DEF: DID IT HAVE ANY FURN ITURE WASN'T IT BARE? LEE: YES. W H E R E ? LEE: NO. PROS: WERE YOU FAC ING TOWA RDS ROG E R LEE: YES. PROS: WERE YOU LYI NG DOWN AT TH E T I M E? DEF: ROGER USED TO TREAT YOU VERY MUCH L I K E A SON D I DN'T HE? LEE: YES. I THI N K. TAKE PICTUR ES-WE RE THEY L I K E THIS? (HE HOLDS U P THE SEMI-NUDE SHOTS) DEF: ROGER WAS REALLY LI K E A FATHER TO ALL OF YOU? PROS: NOT L I K E TH I S? (HE SHOTS) HOLDS UP THE CLOTHED LEE: YES. DEF: DO YOU SEE YOU R DAD VERY M UCH? PROS: YOU SAI D YOU DIDN'T WANT H I M TO LEE: NO. LEE: ON T H E CHEEK. THE PROSECUTOR RISES TO RE·EXAMINE DEF: HAVE YOU EVER STAYED AWAY FROM HOME ON YOU R OWN B E FORE W ITHOUT YOUR BROTHERS OR MOTHER? PROS: LEE. "HERE THERE IS A TERRIBLE IRONY. LEE: NO. THERE WAS A ROOM BESIDE IT. ANYTH I NG WRONG? I CONCLUDED THE LETTER TO MY FRIEND: LEE: I DONT KNOW WHETHER H E WAS TOUCH I NG ME LIKE A FATHER.

LEE: I TH I N K SO. E L A B O RA T E D ON IT. LEE: CUDDLED ME SORT OF. THAT LEE WANTED M E TO KISS H I M . PERHAPS H E ALSO FANTASISED M Y PENIS C O M I N G I NTO CONTACT WITH H I S BOTTO M : I KNOW OF ONE OCCAS I O N WHEN HE LEE: I DON'T KNOW.THAT WHAT LEE FEELS I DID WRONG TO H I M WAS TO POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIM AGAINST YOU? KISS H I M . NOT HAVING KNOWN WHAT IT WAS TO HAVE A REAL FATHER. POLICE: DID YOU FEEL ANYTHING AGAINST POLICE: HOW DID HE CUDDLE YOU? YOU? LEE: HE PUT H I S A R M S A R O U N D ME. RATH ER THAN THAT H E WANTED "TO KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE"? OR WAS IT S I M PL Y THAT THE WHOLE THING WAS SO I NCI DENTAL I N THE FI RST PLACE THAT UNTI L THE POLICE POUNCED ON I T A N D M A D E IT THE KEY THING H E D I D N 'T KNOW IT HAD A N Y SIG N I FICANCE? I N W H I C H CASE. WHAT DOES IT SIGNIFY? WHAT H A R M COMES OUT OF IT? KISSING HOWEVER HAS DIFFERENT I M PLICATIONS AND THEY ARE M U C H MORE CONFUSING. POLICE: WHAT DID HE OO? LEE: YES. H I S CONFUSIONS ABOUT WHAT THESE KI SSES MEANT CAME OVER POI G N A N T LY IN THE C ROSS­ LEE: YES. LEE: K I SSED ME AND THAT. WHICH G U I LTY THE POLICE WAS I T THAT SPECIFIC LATC H E D THAT ON TO? DID FANTASY HE FEEL OF ABOUT IT-SO THE ONLY WAY LEE: YES. THEN YES-THEY WERE FATH ERLY KISSES. LEE: I CAN'T R E M E M B E R. POLICE: WAS HE FACING YOU? BOYS DO NOT KISS BOYS. I K N OW. LEE L I V ES IN A WORLD WHERE PRESSING MOCK ONESELF A G A I N S T A N O T H E R PERSON J UST P H YSICAL ANTICS IS IN A POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIS PENIS? LEE: I DON'T K N OW. PROCESS: LEE: YES. EXA M I NATION AT T H E C O M M I TTAL. 1 32 . DESPITE H I M S E LF. HE WOULD HAVE BEEN TAKEN U N AWARES AND. POLICE: WAS HE NAKED AT THE TIME? POLICE: PENIS. THAT. DID HE TRY TO COME OVER TO YOUR SIDE OF THE BED? POLICE: HOW? PERHAPS HE WAS BEHIND YOU BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T WANT HIM TO KISS YOU? LEE: YES ONCE OR TWICE. K I DS LEARN FROM FILMS THAT IT SIGNIFIES THE START OF SERIOUS LOVE-MAKING. ALLEVIATING T H E G U I L T W A S TO SAY I D I D IT T O H I M . AFTER ALL. POLICE: HE WOULD FACE YOU TO KISS YOU WOULDN'T HE? CERTA I N LY D I D SO. LEE: H I S D I C K I SU PPOSE. SEXUALITY OR POLICE: H E H A D HIS LEGS A G AINST YOU DIDN'T HE? SLIGHT NAUGHTI N E SS-IF THAT. A N D THOUGH M E N KISS BOYS (A N D BOYS MEN) I T IS ONLY WITHIN THE FAM I LY. YOU FELT HIM AGAINST YOU I EXPECT? POLICE: AND THAT? LEE: YES. AT ONE POI NT H E S A I D H E DIDN'T K N O W WHETHER T H E Y WERE "FATHERLY" KISSES. LEE: YES. AT ANOTH E R POINT. I CAN IMAGINE THE POLICE: BUT PERHAPS HE DIDN'T KISS YOU SOME OF THE TIME7 POLICE: 50 HE HELD YOU IN A DIFFERENT WAY? POLICE: WHEN YOU WERE SLEEPING NEXT TO EACH OTHER. POLICE: AND WHEN HE WAS BEHIND YOU.

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WHILE HE POLICE: ROG E R SO PUT ARE HIS YOU SAYING LEE THAT YOUR HAD BEEN WITH ME. THE GESTURE BECOMES AN ACT. AN ACCUSAnON. HAS BEEN TOLD IN THE POLICE: OKAY. I DIDN'T SEE THAT THIS WAS PROBABLY HOW THE WHOLE THING HAD BEEN. AND I PAUL. TURED) THAT THE LOOKS WE SHARED WERE THE MOST I M PORTANT THING. NOW H E HAD BEEN PENALISED FOR ATTEMPTING TO GROW BEYOND THE CONFUSION. I FEEL THE TENDERNESS I FELT THEN AND RECALL (PERHAPS SURPRISINGLY. BUT MAYBE THIS IS WHERE THE H U MAN TRI U M PHS OVER THE MAN UFAC· I E X PECT YOU WERE IN HIS LAP WEREN'T YOU? LEE: YES. WAS COMPELLED TO STAND AGAINST ME: POLICE: A R MS WELL. A AN ADULT WHO ENCOURAGES HIM IN HIS JOURNEY CONFI RMATION. AFTER ALL. MOST DEVASTAnNG FASHION THAT THE AREAS INTO WHICH HE WAS MOVING WERE ABSOLUTE TABOO.POLICE: YOU FELT HIS PENIS AGAINST YOU? FINALLY I WROTE THE FOLLOWI N G . BEYOND HAD IGNORANCE ABOUT WHAT LAY WAY TO H I S OWN PENIS AGAINST B E G U N TO G I V E BOTTOM? KNOWLEDGE: LACK OF DEFINITION HAD BEGUN TO GIVE WAY TO HIS SELF DISCOVERY. LI KE I HAD PARTIALLY WHICH HELPED HIM TO ACQUIRE. HE DID NOT KNOW. HE HAD STRENGTH REALISED THAT. VICTIMS ALWAYS REMAIN VICTIMS UNnL THEY REALISE THE TRUE MEANING OF THE WORDS: THAT WORDS ARE NOT N EUTRAL BUT TOOLS TO BE USED FOR OR AGAINST OTHER H U MAN BEINGS.! IT IS TRUE THAT. BECAUSE HE IS A VICTIM O F T H E PROCESS. THATS ALL FOR NOW. BUT IT IS THE ONLY "TRUTH" HE CAN E X PRESS." BUT HE RECOVERED. T R Y I N G TO WHERE AGAINST YOU? CONVEY SOMETHING OF WHAT I FELT WHEN I WAS FORCED TO SIT OPPOSITE LEE IN COURT. FOR A PERIOD HE COULD NOT SEE HOW TO RESOLVE BETWEEN THE "IS" AND THE "COULD BE. BECA USE PROCESS. LIKE PAUL HE HAD BEEN SHAKEN. . AND HIS ILLNESS WHEN HE ARRIVED HOME AFTER TH E '76 HE H OL I D AY WAS THE BEST POLICE: LEE: NO. HE KNOWS THAT THIS IS NOT THE TRUTH-HENCE HE SEARCHES M Y FACE I N COURT TO DISCOVER THAT I REALLY AM WHO I WAS WHEN WE LAST MET. WHILE HE LEE: I DON'T KNOW. DID HE GET IT IN? I N DICATION THAT DESPERATELY FEARED T H E TENSIONS THAT HAD BEEN CREATED. SURE? AWARENESS COULD HAVE GONE ON ." FEARS-OR CANNOT SEE­ ROGER MOODY 1 34 . HE WASN'T SURE HOW IT LEE: YES. LEE CANNOT SEE THE WICKED AND ESSENTIALLY FA LSE LOG IC IN THE TOWARDS SELF-KNOWLEDGE WILL BE PENALISED BY OPPROBRI U M AT BEST AND INCARCERAnON AT WORST. HAD BEEN AND WHAT HE WANTED. EVERYONE AROUND HIM ANOTHER TRUTH. THE CORE OF HIS TRUTH WAS THAT I HAD BEEN WITH H I M LIKE A FATHER: IT WAS HOW I LEE: AGA INST MY BOTTOM. THAT AND SO. . (AS FREIRE SHOWED IN BRAZIL. IF HE WAS HOLDING YOU IN HIS "I NOW OFTEN SEE LEE IN MY INNER EYE AS HE WAS ON FRIDAY. UNTIL I ACTUALLY SAW LEE OVER THE COURTROOM ON FRIDAY. YET I AM NOT HIS FATHER-BEYOND THAT. POLICE: BEEN? SO WHERE WOULD HIS PENIS HAVE BUT WASN'T DEFEATED. I HAD SEEN HIM TWICE SINCE THEN: T H E GROWING POLICE: LEE: YES. WOULD WORK OUT.

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THIS STORY I S VIOLE NTLY DOM I N A T E D BY TEARS. PRODIGIOUS PASTI ME? PAGES. J P E R S PECTI V E FAVORA B L E DEATH. I T I S VIOLE NTLY DOMI NATED BY D E ATH. I T I S I N D EPENDENT O F T H E A UT H O R ' S T O G ET H E R LIFE. MOST H E A R T R E N D I N G L I F E . I W E N T TO LA U R E'S GRAVE: A S SOON A S I L E FT T H E H O U S E . I . T O W H I C H DO E SN'T FLEE I N T H E FACE O F THE TOTA LITY O F ITS OWN CONSEQ U E N C ES.U P HE DID WITHIN THIS THE TODAY. I T WAS SO B L A C K THAT I 'DEC LA RAT10N O F W A R . J U ST OR "JOU R N A L" W H I C H H E K E PT DESPITE H I M S E L F FROM THE D A Y W A R BROKE OUT. H E H A D ONLY TO R E MOVE THOSE PA SSAGES CONC E R N I N G T H E TH I R D PERSON: IN P A R T I C U LA R . BUT FAC E D WITH TH E W R ITTEN RATH E R . I MEAN THAT SPEECH W I T H OU T T R A PS WHICH CONC E R N I NG DEATH. A MOST I NTENSE. A N D OFTE N. H E SOON R E A LIZED THAT H E H A D NEVER WRITTEN A N YTH I NG SO M UC H A PART O F HIM AND SO P E R H A PS. T H I N K I NG A BOUT DEATH. I NOTI C E D HOW DARK THE NIGHT WAS. B R O U G H T H I M BACK I M M EDIATELY. THIS IN FACT. ONE. L E I R I S R E F E R S I N LA REGLE D U J E U . T H I S N A R RATIVE I S A BU RST O F C U N N I NG A N D T H U S L I V E LY LAUGHTER. 1 9 3 9 THIS NA RRATIVE EVOLVED OUT OF THE 1 939 YESTE R DAY. S E PT E M B E R 1 4. F O R L I F E . J UST ONE WAY TO LAUGH. . UNDER GREAT C I RC U M STA N C E S. TH E A U TH O R HAD N E V E R B E FO R E K E PT W RONG WAY TO TALK? P E R H A PS. THE LAUGHTER OF A M A N WHO FORC E D H I M SE L F TO OF LIVE SH UT. B UT C A N� WE ONCE AND FOR ALL FU LLY EXPRESSIVE O F H I M S E LF. . A N D I N T H E E N D . A DIARY. MORE ACC U RATELY. FORTY-TWO YEARS OLD AT T H I S POI NT. A N D I W O N D E R E D IF I WOULD EVER F I N D MY WAY A LONG TH E ROAD. THAT THE AUTHOR IS WAS STRUCK BY T H E FACT THE C U LPRIT DOM I NATED BY TEARS A N D DEATH AT T H E S A M E TI M E THAT IT I S DOM I N ATED B Y TH E R E P R E SENTATION O F GOD. L A U R E'S THOSE PASSAGES MICHEL R ECONC I L E LAUGHTER A N D SPEECH? BY SPEECH. THE AUTHOR PUT STORY FROM PI ECES O F T H E 1 36 .THE CULPRIT IS GOD M E RELY A MAN FO R WHOM IS DEATH. H E FAILED. BUT W I T H D I FFICULTY.

W E WERE E X H A U ST E D AND I N A WAY TA K E N ABACK B Y T H E OVERLY STRANGE. MORE AND MORE LOST. NO MORE T R U E OR FULL OF M E A N I NG CONC E R N I N G T H E DESTI NY OF E V E R Y B E I N G T H A N ANY OTH E R EXPE R I E N C E OF T H E U N I NTELLIGIBLE. DESPITE THE DREADFU L I M MENSE LOVE SORROW. I COU L D A L SO BUT MAKE OUT TWO GLOWING LINES OF VERSE. FLOWING STREAMS? IN THE FOREST AT NIGHTFA LL. ALREADY CESSIBLE SHATTE R E D TO REAL GLORY INAC­ SURFE IT. N E A R THE M I DDLE OF THE WAY. THIS BREAD LINGERS AND AS THE M E MORY AS OF A MEN. U N A C H I E V A B L E H A P P I N E SS. N O 1 37 . I WOULD LOOK AT H E R WITHOUT H E R KNOWING IT. THE D I M E N SIONS O F A EAGER TO EXC E E D T H E LIM ITS O F ALL THI NGS: A N D YET. I WAS SURE OF O N L Y ONE T H I N G: THE FINA LLY REACHED TH E E DG E OF THE I M M E N S E AND BOTTOMLESS CRATER. WHAT WE HAD ALREADY PA I D FOR TH E SELF. ON E'S B E I NG BURNS WITH THE D E S I R E TO BECOME P U R E B E I NG TH ROUGH AND THROUGHOUT AS THE N I GHT. E V E N H A D TH E Y B E E N M O R E COMPLETE LY S E V E R E D BY H E R. IT WAS H E A RT­ PERCEPTION OF THOSE LOST T O US W H O H A V E R E N D I N G TO LEA N OVE R THAT G A P I N G C R EVICE. WAS I EVER MORE CERTA I N OF WHAT LIFE RESPONSE TO T H E M ENTS OF THE BRINGS TO U S IN THEY E M E RGED FROM TH E D A R K N ESS A S FAI NTLY PALE FORMS. H O W M A N Y TI M E S WHEN WE WERE T OG E T H E R DID WE ACH I E V E EXTR E M E DARKN ESS. BUT AT T H E SAME TIME. SO I FOU N D I T I M POSSI BLE TO GO INTO THE STATE OF N E A R . I W E PT BITTERLY. A P E RC E I V I NG H E R F R AG R A N C E . I BEGAN TO TREMBLE A N D TO ASK H E R PA RDON. O F T H E PE RSON I A M N O W AS I WRITE T H I S. I R E M E M B E RED THE A SC E N T UP ETNA AND I WAS DU MBFOUNDED. I WAS SO OVERCO M E WITH PA I N AND H EA RT? DESTI N Y APPROAC H I NG I N THE DARKN ESS N E X T T O M E . I W A S U N B E A R A BLY A S H A M E D OF W H A T I W O U L D BECO M E . WE COULDN'T IMAGINE A SPOT WHERE THE T E R R I B L E I N STA B I LITY OF THI NGS WAS MORE E V I D E N T. TER R I F I E D. S H I V E R I N G IN T H E COLD. L A U R E'S GRAVE WAS COM PLETELY COV E R E D BY V EGETATION A ND. TH E BROKEN T H E I R ATTAC H M E NTS T O THE CUSTO M A R Y CON F I N E S OF ACTI VITY IS I N NO W A Y LIM ITED. WE COULD STILL F E E L THE FA R-AWAY PRESENCE OTH E R OF THE VOLCANO'S CRATER AT T H E E N D OF T H E L O N G V A L L E Y OF L A V A . BRIGHTER LOVE SHOWS ITSELF CAPABLE O F CRUMBLING THE P R I SON WALLS AROU ND EACH O F U S . NO MATTER HOW VAG U E O R I M PE R SONAL. H O R ROR. W H E N I REA LIZED THAT I WOULD SOON COME BACK TO M YSELF. I FELT D E L I RIOUS. F E V E R A N D F I N A LLY DEATH: THESE A R E T H E DAILY B R E A D T H A T LA U R E SHARED W I T H M E . WITHOUT KNOWING WHY: AT THIS VERY MOM E N T. AT DAWN. I CONTI N U E D MY C L I M B U P THE H I L L TOWA RDS H E R G R A V E . SHE WOULD WALK S I L E NTLY AT MY S I DE. TO THE OLD MOU NT ETNA OV E R F LOWED WITH M E A N I NG FOR US: WE H A D GIVEN U P A T R I P TO GREECE TO MAKE THE CLIMB. WE BECAUSE I K N E W I W O U L D LOSE H E R AGA I N . FOR YESTERDAY. LAU R E WAS G R I PPED B Y SUCH EXTR E M E A N G U I S H T H A T SHE I N SA N E LY A N D BLI N DLY BEGAN TO RUN. S O R ROW. SUDDEN LY. FOR SOM E REASON. IT B U R N S EVEN SCE N E T O H I M W A S N E A R LAURE W H E N S H E D I E D: I T IS STI L L IN MY R OOM. THAT STARY VOI D T H A T W E B R E AT H E D IN. SOFTNESS GRIPPED ME TERRIBLE EVERYTH I N G TH E N H A D B E E N J U ST AS D A R K AND CHARGED WITH CUNNING TERROR TH E N I G H T LA U R E A N D I CLIMBED T H E F A C E OF ETNA.FELT MY THROAT TIGHTEN: I COU LDN'T T H I N K OF SORROW THAT I H E LD MYSELF IN MY OWN A R MS ANYTH I N G ELSE. OR E V E N WORSE. BODY MY AND HANDS I F E LT BECAME AS IF I LOST WERE TO U C H I N G H E R . A FTER WE H A D E N T E R E D A N I N F E R N A LLY HOT AREA. TH EN. AFTER A LONG W H I LE. R ESTRICTED BY MY C U M BERSOME N E EDS. STA N D I N G IN FRONT OF H E R GRAVE. MADN ESS. T R O U B L E D BY A M E MORY S O FULL OF NOCTU RNAL TE R ROR. BY T H E TI M E I R EACH E D THE C E M ETERY. I N THE M IDDLE OF OUR DESCENT. ACC ESSIBLE O N LY TO SHADOWS. ALL O F A SUDDEN. STA R L I G H T N I G H TS. TEARS. JUST LIKE W H E N W E WERE CLOSE B E FORE: J U ST LIKE WH E N T H E OBSTACLES SEPARATING TWO PEOPLE DISAPPEAR.ECSTACY THAT NORMAL­ LY OVERCOMES ME AS I FOLLOW THE S A M E PATH. I WOULD SCREAM. NOT KNOWING W H AT TO DO CROSSI N G HAD TO BE R E F U N DED. OV E R LY DI SASTROUS SOLITUDE. I WAS AFRA I D O F H E R. THE TERROR AND DESOLATION THAT WE HAD ENCOUNTE R E D B E W I L D E R E D H E R . TH E C R O S S E S A N D THE TOM BSTON ES. I FELT THAT IF SHE A P P E A R E D TO ME. AN H E ALSO ESCAPES THE VULGARITY O F DAILY L I F E BUT NEVER T H E TOO-T E N UOUS T I E S T O L A U R E . I WAS A B L E TO MAKE OUT THE GRAVES. BUT WHAT C O U L D BE M O R E GRA N D THAN T H E BREACH THROUGH WHICH TWO B E I NGS MIGHT RECOGNIZE EACH OTH E R WITHOUT SUCCU M B I NG TO THE VULGARITY A N D THE PLATITUDES OF I N F I N ITY? (HE WHO AT LEAST LOVES BEYOND TH E GRAVE. WAS THE O N LY A BSOLUTELY MOST U N FATHOMABLE I WATCHED MY MOVE­ BLACK STRETCH OF GROU N D. I FELT AS IF IT H A D SOM E HOW SPLIT IN TWO A N D WAS STRANG L I N G AROUND MY HER. PORTRAIT OF C I N DERS A N D FLA M ES THAT A N D R E MASSON PAINTED AFTER WE D E SC R I B E D THE WHAT I FELT YESTERDAY WAS NO MORE B U R N I NG . SO F U LL O F S U BTE R R A N E A N NOCTU R N A L GLORY.

HE WAS B LI N D AND PARALYZED AND HE CATACLYSM H A S B E E N G ROWI NG NOW FOR OVER A MONTH . . SO M A N Y C U RSES. TH E SECRET T R A N S P A R E N C E OF T H E LIGHT. J T H E N A T U R A L CONDITION OF S I M PLI C I TY IS ACTION. ABA N DON PERVERSIONS. I COULD N EVER H A V E S E PTE M B E R 20.I K NOW ANYMORE IF T H E R E IS ANY TRUTH TO THEM. . BUT THIS MORNING. BUT I M UST M A K E A CONCENTRATED EFFORT TO LEAVE COMPARE E V E R YTH I NG I DO TO TH I S M E MORY. THE C ROW A N D THE DESERT . BUT I CAN'T WI THOUT A GREAT DEAL OF U N EASI NESS. A TTE N D E D BY T H E M A I D. (TWENTY. T H E O N L Y HOUSE TO A FFORD L A U R E SOM E REST BEFORE SHE DI ED. THESE TH I NGS O F W H I C H I F E E L I T N ECESSARY TO I NC LUDE T H I S PASSAGE FROM L A U R E'S LETTER TO J EAN G R E M I LLON OF CONF U S I NG M Y S E LF WITH TH E I M M E N S E SOR ROW OF A FRACTU R E D WORLD. . . I [ . ( I FLED HER IN A MORAL SENSE. . A L L OF T H E S H UTTERS W E R E W I DE OPEN. ONE MUST FOLLOW A C R U E L I M PERATIVE TO IGNORE A LL H A R MONY WITH R E A LITY THAT WAS THE MOST T H I S MORNI NG. BY THE CROWD'S SOR D I D RAGE. SO M U C H LOUS DARKN ESS. .F I V E Y E A R S HIM TO FATE D U R I NG TH E T H I S IS NOT A F E E L I N G THAT I ALO N E EXPERI ENCE. M I RACU­ A SUN S I M I LA R NIGHTS I S EQUA LLY I NDESCRIBA BLE. SOM ETI M E S I JUST WASN'T T H E R E . . AFTER OU R " G EORGES A N D I C L I M B E D ETNA. TH E R I G H T TO GIVE AS MUCH ATTE N UATED BY A LU M I NO U S HAZE A N D SOON. I DON'T EVEN LOOK AT T H E M A N Y MORE. T H E SKY WAS SLIG HTLY H AZY. I TRI E D TO FLEE WHAT I S A W TH E R E . I . A N D THE P L A N T S I N T H E W I N DOW H ARDLY S U D D E N PA N I C A N D S U FF E R I N G AS W E LL AS THAT NIGHT OF PA I N FU L AND SOR ROWFUL C R I E S W H E N 1 38 . CONTIN U A LLY E XP E R I E NC E D G R E A T P A I N . HE STA Y E D B E H I N D I N R H E I MS. I BEGAN TO TAKE . . I OFTEN FACED HER IN TERRO R . . T H I S HOUSE. E X P R E S S HOW MUCH I I WAS MOVED.I A T LEAST H E W H O LOVES B E Y O N D TH E GRA VE H A S THE R I G HT TO FREE T H E LOVE WITH I N H I MSELF FROM ITS H U MAN CON F I N ES. OF C H AOS A N D OF D E A T H . A S SOFT A S A N A X E F LA S H I N G I N THE N IGHT. ' ] . THE R E S E M B LE N C E G R E W THROUG HOUT HER LONG HER PE RIOD OF S U FF E R I N G W H I L E FEVER W O R E DO W N . I WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO YOU A BOUT IT. R E F U G E IN A SICKLY TORPOR. B Y M I S E R Y C R I NG I NG B E F O R E FATE. S E N S U A LITY. . IT D E M A N D S THAT I LEAVE JUST AS FORC I B LY . HOW CAN I POS S I B LY ACT I F THE I M PERATIVES WHICH CONTROL ME ARE LA U R E'S PLISHED. SOMETI M E S I DRANK. BUT IN ORDER TO ACT. SO H A RD-HARD E NOUGH TO B R EAK MY JAWS:' I COPI E D THESE SENTENCES DOWN BUT I DON'T THIS PRESENCE. P E R H A P S M O S T D U R I N G H E R F I T S O F A N G E R S E PTEMBER 1 9. MY I FORT U I TOU S WILL I AM NEVER M A DE . H E R E W H E R E E V E R YTH I NG WA S ACCO M ­ OF T H E A PPARENT CONTRADICTIONS. A N E RVOU S N E S S THAT CAN O N LY LEA D TO A AGO. A BRIEF R E SPITE. HER I M P E R FECT BEA UTY WAS THE FLU I D I M AGE OF A N A R DE NT AND U NC E RTA I N DESTINY. THE NOR CAN EXPRESS J U ST HOW B E A UTIFUL SHE WAS. THE FINAL DEPARTURE. A WOR L D FRACTU R E D BY ILL TEMPER. I F A I T H F U L LOV E R) [ . A L L THE M A JESTY OF R E C E D I NG MY LIFE. FOR FOUR DAYS NOW IT H A S BEEN GETTING WORSE. H A LF CRAZED. 1 9 39 A N D H ATRED F O R ME. . M E A N I NG TO HIS LOVE A S H E WOULD TO ALMOST A N YTH I NG E LSE. .WORDS COULD E V E R AWARE OF HER. BUT NOW I S E N S E A N E W N E RVOUS CONDITION. S P R I NGS U P A L L O F A S U D D E N " L I K E A ROBBER I N T H E N I GHT' A N D SPREADS A C H I LL I N G E M B R A C E A S D E E P A N D A I R Y A S A N IGHT W I N D. E M PTY. H E R GRAVE. BECA USE I S I M PLY CAN'T U N LE S S I SET OUT TO A C H I EVE THE B A R E LY AC H I EVA B L E. SO IT IS E A S I E R FOR ME J U ST TO GRIT MY TEETH . ALTHOUGH I WAS BY H E R S I D E U NTIL T H E V E R Y E N D. I LOVE WHO I A M SO M U C H I BUT I'VE R E MA I N ED FAITHFUL T O DEATH (LIKE A S E PTEM B E R (OR OCTOB E R ) OF RETURN FROM ITALY: 1 9 3 7 . I WAS EQUALLY TERRIFIED B EC A U S E LA U R E'S FACE VAG U ELY R E S E M B L E D T H E HORRI B LY TRAGIC FACE OF THAT MAN O E D I P U S . BUT THERE WERE N O C LOUDS. AND I HAVE TH E STRENGTH TO DO THIS ON LY R A RELY. S U R RO U N D E D BY G R A N D OLD TREES. ) I FLED LA U R E . THIS MOR N I NG I M A N A G E D TO ESCAPE IT SOMEHOW. I N T H I S ROOM THAT I M U ST SOON LEAVE. IT WAS T E R R I FY I NG. WH I LE I FLED WITH M Y MOTH ER. . THE FLA S H I N G TRANSPARENCE OF N E A RBY FOREST. 1 9 39 GIVEN ANY LESS OF MYSEL� BUT AS SHE A PPROA C H E D THE T E R R I BL E E N D . THIS MORN I NG I FOU N D M Y SELF IN AN ANGELIC • . I FLED MY FATH ER. . I A B A N DO N E D G E R M A N I NVASION. LA U R E'S P R E S ENCE.

MADE SENSE: S H E WOULD A S K M E T O LOOK I N H E R BAG O R A MONG H E R PAPERS FOR SOMETHI N G THAT SHE URGE NTLY N E E D ED. FOR THE F I RST TIME. I SHOULD ALSO MENTION ONE E S S E N TI A L D E TA I L • • ABOUT THE SHE SUFFERED FOR FO UR DAYS. BLANK EXCEPT FOR THE HEADING THE SACRED.MY FATH E R A P P E A R E D B EFORE M E [ . B R I E F LY. I DI DN'T. FROM I NVADING T H E HOUSE A N D H E R DO I T WITH DUTHU I T. I AGREED TO T H A T I WAS U N A B L E T O KEEP H E R MOTH E R A N D SISTERS ROOM. I ESSENTIA LLY. LATER I N THE A RTICLE. SHE R E M A I N E D A B S ENT. IS B U R N I N G E X I S­ MOST P E R H A PS T H E PRODUCT OF H U M A N INTERACTION. WE C A N NOT POSSI B LY L I M I T HOPE NOW. SHE U N D E R STOOD HER PHRASES ARTICLE. E NTITLED THE SACRED A N D PUBLISHED IN C A H I E RS D'ART. T H E N U R S E W H I S P E R E D TO M E THAT I T W A S A L L OV ER. AS I DREW N E A R WHO C A N BE SAVED ONLY BY A BOLT OF LIGHT­ N I NG-WA IT FOR THA N SACRED. I H A D THE "CH RISTIANITY HAS SUBSTANTIALIZED T H E SACRED. SHE S PO K E WRITTEN S E NT E N C E S I M P A RT A M E A N I NG. AT TIM ES. M A N U S C R I PTS B E FO R E I CONTI N U E D THOSE I FOR WHOM THAT R E A LLY I REMEMBERED LOOKING U P AT TH I S MOMENT A N D SEEING A TH I N RAY OF I N C R E D I B LY BEAUTI FU L INTENDED. I T R I E D SPEAKING TO HER. A R E A L LY IT E S S E NTI A L C H A NG E BE ATTRI B UT E D COM E S T O TH E TO HER. TH E N . I CA M E ACROSS A S H E ET OF PAPER. FROM A UGUST THROUGH NOV E M B E R." I I M M E D I ATELY ADDED A NOTE IN THE MARGINS TO A MONG ALL THE PIECES I'VE W R I TT E N FOR C L E A R LY I N D I C ATE. • . A CONVULSI V E MOMENT FULL OF W H A T I S NOR M A L LY SMOTH E R ED. THAT W E WOULD NEVER SPEAK TO EACH OTH E R AGAIN. T H E IS NOTH I N G MORE T H A N A PRIVILEGED S E PTEMBER 30. BUT T H E EXACT NATURE OF T H E SACRED. BUT SHE DID NOT RESPOND. H O N E STY N OW H E R E MORE PERTI N E N T THAT I N THAT PARTICU LA R A RTICLE. OCTOB E R I. I TRIED TO CONTI N U E WRITI NG. SHE NO LONGER SAW ME NOR R ECOGNIZED MY PRESENCE. BUT I COULD BARELY MANAGE ANOTHE R TWO S E NTENCES. D U R I N G T H E LAST FEW DAYS PF L A U R E'S SICKNESS. THE S P EC I A L E D I TOR OF T H E CAHIER D'ART ISSUE IN W H I C H I T WAS TO A PPEAR. THAT THIS WAS HOW SHE WOULD DIE I N A FEW HOURS. I N TO L E T H A RGY. 1 93 9 MOMENT OF U NITY I N COM M U N I O N . WHEN CONDITION H A D WORS E N ED. THE MOMENT C A M E W H E N I WAS F I N A LLY ALLOWED TO SEE LA U R E AGA I N I N HER ROOM. THE D EMONSTRATI VE SOM E OF SIDE OF THE TEXT D I D IT WAS REACH DO WITH THE I NTENTION OF COM I N G BACK TO T H E M . 1. MEN WHOSE LIVES SEEM N ECESSA R I LY LIKE A LONG STORM­ SUNLIGHT PLAYING OVER THE GOLD EN-RED LEAVES OF THE TREES A BOUT A H U N D R E D FEET FROM MY W I N DOW. I I M M E DI ATELY REALIZED THAT HER S H O U L DN'T WORD. SOM ETH I N G NO LESS D E L I R IOUS WHEN ABOUT. IN WHICH 1 39 . INTO TEA RS: THE PITILESS SHE NO EXPRESSES. AT LEAST TO MYSE LF. THAT I C O U L D N E V E R S P E A K TO H E R A G A I N . WE C U R R E NTLY R ECOG N I ZE T H E TENCE ELUSIVE SACRED OF R ELIGION. U N D E R STOOD WORLD COLLAPSED ALL A ROUND ME. AS I OFTEN MOTIVATES M E NOW. W H I C H I SHOWED TO HER. WE M U ST ERASE WHAT HAS BEEN WRITTEN BY PLAC ING IT IN THE S H A DOW THIS OF TH E R EA L I TY IS WHICH IT CONTI N U A LLY. P O RT R A Y S WITH ANY REAL C L A R I TY THAT P A R T IC U L A R RESOLUTION WHICH I WROTE THESE WORDS IN TH E M ARGINS. TALKING TO THI S OR TH AT PE RSON ACCOR D I N G TO SOME U N P R E D ICTA B L E C I R C U M STANCES S U RROUN . FOR FOU R DAYS. IN ANY C A S E. I WAS SO OVERCO M E [CROSSED OUT: I WROTE IT LAST YEA R. IT IS ONLY BECAUSE THEY U N ITE SOME OTHE R THI NGS WHICH WERE PREVIOUSLY SEARCH­ I NG FOR EACH OTH E R. S E NTENCES THAT SCREAM CONTI N U A LLY D I E FROM TH E I R OWN OUTBU RST. D U R I NG THE A FTER NOON O F NOV E M B E R 2. I U N D E R STOOD THAT IT W A S A L L OVE R . TH E PUBLICATION I N A W I D E R A N G E O F P E RIODICALS." O N LY ONE. I I SHOWED HER EVE RY­ "G R A A L" TH I N G T H E R E BUT COULDN'T F I N D W H AT SH E RELIGION'S GOA L E N D E D WITH TH I S SENTENCE: WANTED. I N ADDITION. M EA N I N G OF T H E S E LAST FEW L I N ES: "IDENTIFICA­ TION WITH LOVE. BELIEVE THE REMAINING IGNORANCE A N D U N C E RTAINTY DOESNT MATTER. I R E A D LAURE'S WRITING. ALTHOUGH T H E P I E C E I S FAR BEH I N D ME NOW. ITS "CO M M U N ICATION" I S NO MORE C L U M S I LY DISTANCED OR U N EASY THAN I N MOST OF WHAT I HAVE P U B L I S H E D S I NCE. I H A D COME T O TH E P A S S A G E I N T H E A RTICLE WHERE I WAS DESCR I B I NG T H E I D ENTITY OF THE WHICH WE ARE I A LW A Y S S E E K I N G AS SOMETI MES. A BSORBED WITH I N A VAST DELI R I U M . LONGER I BROKE OUT M E. I FEEL I M UST DESC R I B E ONE OF THE SITUATIONS S U R RO U N D I N G THE WRITING OF THE W H I M . S H E G R E W TENSE O N LY TO QUICKLY R E LA P S E N OT H I N G .

"TI M E" WAS R E A DY TO "CUT H E R DOWN:" IT DID A N D I STOOD WATC H I N G WHAT WAS H A P P E N I NG. I E X P E R I ENCED ONE OF THE MOST VIOLENT E MOTIONS OF MY LI FE. BUT FI RST. FO U N D TOWA RDS THE BOTTOM OF THE S E NTENCES IN PAGE. BUT I DO K N OW THAT N O N E FINA LLY. TH E S I L E N C E . BUT SHE HAD NEVER ASKED ME TO READ ANY O F IT. E X I ST P R E S S E D TO H E R T H A T P A R A DOXICA L I D E A THAT TH E SACRED IS COMMUNICATION. HEAVY WITH LIFE AND YET. P I E RC I NG TH ROUGH THE CLOUDY T H I C K N ESS OF A N S W E R TO PRECISELY THAT Q UESTION COWE R I N G I N M E L I K E A STA R V I N G A N I M A L. WHATS LA U R E AND I OFTEN THOUGHT THAT THE WALL MORE. I KNOW THAT S H E HAD WRITTEN. B U T I C A N S P E A K OF N OT H I N G E LS E S I N C E THAT I D I SCOV E R E D THOSE TWO LAU RE'S LIFE AND MINE C OF F I N . AN IMAGE AT B E ST OF AN ECSTATIC OUTBU R ST. OFTEN LAURE F E LT WAS IT AS R E P U LS E D A LOSS. OF A N " A N G E L. WHEN IT WAS A LL OVER. NOT H I N G I HAD EVER S A I D TO HER CAME CLOSE TO EXPRESSI NG T H I S I D E A ." N EGATION OF H E RSELF. T H E TRUTH I S . ONCE I H A D THE O P PORTU N I TY TO R E A D T H E P A PERS S H E H A D LEFT B E H I N D. AN I M A GE THAT ENCOMPASSES AN E N TI R E V I SION. COM M U N ICATING TO OTH ERS A R E A SON TO LIVE. IT APPEARS LIKE T H E U N FATHOMABLE VACI LLATIONS OF A STR E A K I STO P P E D LOOK I N G FOR WHAT SHE WANTED. FOR T H E R E A D I NG PAGES THAT F I RST TIME DURING I MAYBE THE ANGEL IS THE "MOV E M E NT OF THE WORLDS. I DISDAINED THE I N EVITABLE I M PUDENCE OF B E TW E E N US WAS C R U M BLING. . [CROSSED O UT: I W I L L DESC R I B E O N LY ONE MORE THING TODAY: THE NEARLY S I M U LT A N E O U S P U B L ICATION O F THE TWO TEXTS OBLIGES M E TO LET M E I NTE R R U PT TH I S N A R R A TIVE FOR A MOMENT SAY TO THOSE WHO S U F F E R FROM THE S A M E TH I RST 1 40 . A FEW M O M E NTS B E FORE I NOTIC E D THAT LAURE W A S ABOUT T O D I E . I T I S SELF-RAPE. E X ACTLY ARTICLE. THE WHOLE QU ESTION WAS SENTENCES TH ROUGH LINK THE E A RTH COVER I N G HER MOREOVER. I MYSELF DISCOV E R E D T H E NOTION O N LY ONCE I H A D PUT I T I N T O WORDS. A BECAUSE "I NTELLECTUAL CONVE RSATIONS." THE FOLLOWI N G LAURE'S SCRAWL: "A POETIC WORK I S SACRED TO THE EXTENT THAT IT IS T H E C R EATION O F A TOPICAL EVE NT. SI NCE MY NOTION OF "UN ITY I N CO M M UN­ ION" FIGURES I M P L I C I TLY I N LAU RE'S IDEAS. WE A LMOST N E V E R C A R R IED ON "I NTELLEC ­ TUAL CONVERSATIONS. ITSE LF. OCTOB ER 2. " FOR THIS R E A SON TO LIVE 'DIS PLACES' WHAT I HAD W R I TTEN IN MY I FIND IT VERY D I F F I C U LT TO EXPRESS J U ST EXACTLY WHAT THE P A R A LL E L PASSAGES M E A N ." OF L I G H TN I NG ." AS F A R AWAY A N D AS I M PE RC E PTIBLE A S A DOT ON TH E H O R I ZON. I CA N'T R E M E M B E R A N Y OF T H E S E COI N C I D E NCES. I FOU N D MYSELF S I FTING THROUGH HAD HER P A P E RS. BUT I WAS NEVER THAN MORE WHEN I D E E PLY READ TH E NOR B R UTALLY LAST I AF FECTED OF A R E C OG N I Z A B L E D I V I N ITY: THE VISION THE S H A TT E R E D C RYSTAL F R E E S T H E SC REA M I NG LOVE W I TH I N M E THAT M A K E S M E WANT TO D I E . A FTER SHE D I E D. I OF T H E M E V E R H A D T H E EXTRAO R D I N A RY S I G N I F I ­ C A N C E OF T H E S E T W O SENTENCES ON "CO M M U N I ­ CATION. I WON'T S A Y H O W S H E D I E D ALTHOUGH I F E E L M O S T " H O R R I B LY" TH E N E E D TO DESC R I B E IT. I F E E L OBLIGED TO TRY. I N E V E R THOUGHT I WOULD FIND AMONG ALL OF HER A B A N DO N E D WORKS AN TO D E SC R I B E A C APTIVATING I M AG E THAT J U ST C A M E TO MY M I ND. POWERLESS TO U N D E RSTA N D ANYTH I N G M O R E THAN H E R D E A T H .J 1 939 NOTICED THE PERIOD J UST BEFORE HER DE ATH. 50 I M PORTANT TO ME THAT I R E M E M B E R EXACTLY HOW AND WHEN EVE RYTH I N G H A P P E N ED. THESE V E RY SENTENCES N OW H E R E E LS E BUT A T TH I S V E R Y POINT. THE N I GHT. THE SAME WORDS AND THE SAME DESIRES W E N T TH ROUGH O U R M I N D S AT THE SAME SHE TIME. 'COM M U N I ­ CATION' E X P E R I E N C E D A S N U DITY. WITHOUT A DOUBT. I M UST DESC R I B E A L L O F T H E D I S P A RATE E L E M E NTS T H A T M A K E U P T H E I R M E A N I NG. " I . THE ANGEL RAISES UP BEFORE ITSELF A LANCE O F CR YSTA L T H A T S H ATTERS I N ." ONCE SHE EVEN BLA M E D M E F O R NOT T A K I N G H E R S E R I O U SLY. BUT N E V E R A PP E A R I NG A S MORE THAN A STRA N G E LY INTERIOR GLOW. D E N U D I NG. THE SENTENCE HAD PASSAGE ON SACRED.FEELI NG S H E WOULD S P E A K TO ME AGAIN. W H E N I READ I LOVE HER NEITHER AS AN ANGEL NOR OF AS A WHAT S H E HAD WRITTEN. N EV E R EX­ I K NOW THAT THIS D E S I R E T O D I E R E S I D E S ON T H E I M POSSIBLE E DG E S OF B E I NG.

EXOTIC B I R D S. I AM ENTE R I N G A DESERT OF TOTAL SOLITU D E WHOSE E M PTINESS L A U R E . U N D E R T H E D UST. I M U S T B E E N T E R I N G T H A T "KI NGDOM" WHERE EVEN THE K I NGS ARE AT A LOSS. I FOU N D A R A Y OF M AGICAL SUN LIGHT ON THE T H R E S HOLD OF THAT DESERT. T H I S F R AG I L E THE SIGN OF THE AWAY.. WAS A C O L L ECTION OF BR IGHTLY COLO R E D . I H A D J US T WA N D E R E D THROUGH A FOREST A FT E R HAVING L E FT LA U R E' S BODY TO THE DEATH V A N ISHES. ONLY M A G N I F I ES. I F E LT ECSTATICA LLY LOST.A S L A U R E A N D I TH AT] GRAVEDIGGERS. FACED OF G L ASS. I COULDN'T I LLUSION DISAPPEARS SLIGHTEST H E S ITATION. THROUGH THE THE R O TT E N U N D E RG R O W T H . B E H I N D THE W I NDOW. HE WORE THE CLOTH E S OF THE M I DD L E C LASS. I W A S W A N D E R I NG A I M LESSLY. I WANTED TO B R I N G M Y S E L F TO TH I S POINT. IT IS B EC O M I N G MORE D I F F I C U LT FOR M E TO AT TH IS MOME NT. I T I S ON LY A F L I C K E R I NG IN THE VOID AS IF A NOCTU R N A L BUTTERFLY. A N D I KNEW IT FOR A LONG TI M E. M Y "TONGUE IS TIED. S U D D E N LY. F E E L I NG THAT I MYSELF HAD BEEN WITH WHAT I STI LL W A N T TO SAY. I'M THROWN BACK TO THE DESERT WORLD OF LAST FALL. ONCE A G A I N . OCTOBER 4. FROM THE DEPTHS O F M Y MISERY. I W A L K E D A LONG A P ROTRU D I N G W A L L O F BRICK UNTIL I D I SCOV E R E D A M U STY PA N E AT THE ONSET OF THE WAR W H E N I BEGAN WRITI NG. I F SOME V I S I O N OF DECAY OR WASTE H A D A PPEARED TO ME IN T H I S A BA NDON E D PLACE. T H I S TIME. I A M G R I P P E D BY A K I N D OF MONOTONOUS A N D A B S E N T ECSTASY. FROM THIS NOTH I NG FA I R Y AT OF MYSELF C A N TA L E . I NEVERTHELESS ABANDONED ME FELT AND THAT T H AT LAURE HER HAD NOT CONTI N U E. I NOTI C E D A PHOTO. OF MY DESOLATION BUT TO OPEN UP I B E FO R E ON THE OTH E R HAND. A N D . 1 939 SECO N D E M P I RE. THE D E A D BRANCHES A N D THE U PTU R N E D STONES THAN THESE S I LENT B I RDS. OF THE LEA R N E D C LA S S OF T H E OCTOBER 3. T H E AWAY AS M I SS I O N I M UST FULFILL I S A S FAR POSSI B LE FROM THE OBSC U R E N E E D I FEELING OF HORROR>' FEEL TO LOSE M Y S E LF. THE DISTANCE BETWE E N MY LIFE AND LAU RE'S COTTAGE. I HAVE N E V E R F E L T SUCH GE NTLE P U R I TY. SUN LIGHT R E V E A L E D B E FO R E M E A N O L D P A N E O F GLASS IN THE W I N DO W OF AN A B A N DO N E D A N YONE LOST A T SEA. W I THOUT ALMOST ANIMAL E M E RG E A USTER ITY. THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY I C O U LD DO IT. COV E R E D ON THE O U TS I D E WITH A CENTURY OF D U ST. THIS RAY OF I T I S C O L D A N D G R A Y . 141 . I M AG I N E A N YTH I NG MORE S W E E T B E H I N D THE D U ST. W HAT'S H A P P E N I NG TO ME S P LE N D I D I N S U FF E RA B L E . T H E SLIGHTEST B R E A K I N ATTENTI O N . FAR FROM SHORE AND NO LESS A STR A N G E R TO MYSELF TH A N THROUGH UNREAL R U I NS. AND NOT O N LY THAT: BUT FROM W I TH I N T H I S "KI NGDOM" I INCREDIBLE SOFTNESS CONTI N U E D TO COM E THROUGH TO M E DESPITE DEATH A S IT H A D EVEN W H E N S H E WAS EXTREM E LY ANGRY A N D VIOLENT TOWA RDS ME ( I C A N NOT REC A L L THOSE M O M E NTS W ITHOUT A HAVE TO SPEAK W ITHOUT STUTTE R I NG." DESERTED. A FEW FEET TODAY I S SO VERY I N E X P R E S S I B L E AND A S FO REIGN TO WHAT IS REA L A S A DREAM. IT EXCEPT W H E N I W A S N E A R LA U R E . UNAWARE OF ITS E TH E R I A L B E A UTY. A T T H I S M O M E N T. PAPERS WERE SPREAD A BOUT IN THE D E S K AS IF I N PREPA R ATION FOR A V I SIT. TODAY I S W I NTER. NOW DEAD. ONCE AGAIN. WAS OBVIOUS THAT NOTH ING HAD B E E N TOUC H E D SI NCE S O M E LONG A G O DEATH. IN FACT. H A D COME TO REST ON THE H E A D OF A S L E E P I N G MAN. FORGOTTEN BY THE I R MA STER WHO H A D LONG S I N C E D I S A P P E A R E D. A BOUT A YEAR AGO. A N D YET. I HAVE TO F I N D WORDS W H I C H GO STRAIGHT TO THE H E A RT. SUCH S I LE N T S I M PLI· CITY. I CLENCH MY TEETH AS I DID LAST YEAR. AT THE DESOLATE EDGE OF E V E R YTH ING H U M AN. GRAPH OF THE OWN E R NOT FA R FROM THE W I N DOW. I F E E L FROZEN AND NUMB . BUT I HAVE N'T FI N I S H E D: I'VE H A RDLY BEGUN. I WOU LD HAVE TAKEN I T A S A N A CC U R A TE I MAGE OF MY OWN M I S FORTU N E. THE F I RST REAL D A Y OF AUTUMN OR 1 939 STRUGGLING TO P I E RC E TH ROUGH THE NOV E M B E R FOG. I D EC I D E D TO DO W H A T I'M DOING NOW SEVERA L WEEKS B E FORE THE WA R BROKE OUT. HE HAD WHITE H A I R A N D A LOOK TH A T S E E M E D TO ME TO BE ONE OF GOODW I L L A N D A N G E L I C NOB I L I TY. WHAT I SAW TH ROUGH THE W I N DOW WHERE M Y W A N DERING H A D B ROUGHT M E W A S ON T H E CONTR A R Y TH E V E R Y I M AG E OF L I F E I N ITS MOST LUC I D WH I M S I ES. WAITED A N D I TREMB LED. I WAS R E A DY T O W A I T A N I NF I N I TY FOR THE WORLD ME. THERE. OR MORE EXACTLY.

I C R I T I C I Z E D L A U R E ' S VIOLENT C U R S I NG A LTHOUGH I BOR E I T WITH N O LITTLE PAI N. IT MUST B E A S I NTOXICATING AS A LCOHOL. 1 9 3 9 OCTOBER 2 1 . A T R E E . TOO O FT E N . I R ETREATED WITH I N M YSELF. I T WASN'T A RANDOM THOUGHT [. BUT W H E N I G A V E H E R T H E R O S E . . A W I N DO W . I H A V E SECO N D THOUGHTS ABOUT MY DECISIONS. S H E WAS LOST WITHIN H E RSELF. I T DEPENDED ON D I SASTE R NO MORE THAN IT D I D O N DREA MS. IT S I M PLY A P P E A R E D I N PLACE AS THE FOG L I FTED LITTLE BY LITTLE. AT L E A ST. " TA K E A FLOWER A N D LOOK AT IT UNTIL H A R MONY . SHE WAS 1 42 . I FOU N D ONE OF THE MOST BEA UTI FUL FLOWERS I H A V E EVER SEEN. OCTOBE R 1 I . THEN. ASCETICISM. 1 9 3 9 D U R I N G LA U R E ' S LAST H O U R S . WITHIN THE D A R K N ESS O F T H I S THORAC I C CAGE.'" T H I S WAS ONE OF HER LAST COHERENT SENTENCES. "ITS BEAUTI F U L. W H E R E I CANNOT LOOK AT A W I NDOW. S H E B ROUGHT THE ROSE TO H E R L I P S A N D KISSED I T WITH A DELIRIOUS PASSION A S I F S H E W A N T E D TO H O L D I N EVERYTH I NG T H A T W A S ESCA PING HER. LAURE A N D THE BED W E R E WITH I N MY H E A RT: I N FACT. I M U ST I N VENT A NEW WAY OF C R UCIFYING M YSELF. 1 . B U T A BEAUTI FUL NEED H A S BEEN I NS C R I B E D W I TH I N M E AS I T W A S W I TH I N LA U R E'S DESTI N Y. AN I NT E R N A L V I S I O N M A I N T A I N E D B Y A S I L E N T L Y EXP E R I E NC E D N EE D." WHAT I NOW P E RC E I V E FRIGHTENS ME L. T H E U P L I FTED ROSE A N D THE C R Y R E M A I N E D I N M Y H EART F O R A LONG T I M E. IT WAS A ROSE. HOLDI NG IT AS I F E X H A U STED. E V E R Y T H I NG W I T H O U T M Y I N EXPLICABLE PATI E N C E. BEC A U S E A M A N W H O D E S I R E S BEAUTY F O R W H A T IT I S W I L L N E V E R E N T E R I NTO THE WORLD. P E R H A PS LA URE'S VOIC E WASN'T PAI N ED. BUT THOSE WHO HAVE OUT MY P A T I E N C E H A V E C O M P L ET E LY DESTROY E D T H E R AP PORT THAT I HAVE WITH THEM. DESPITE MY FRAME OF M I ND. HATRED. W H I L E I WAS I SENT A LETTE R TOD A Y B R E A K I N G OFF RELATIONS WITH SOME PEOPLE WHOM I SHOULD NEVER HAVE T R U S T E D TO B EG I N W I T H . "THE COLOR OF A U T U M N :' BARELY OPENED. IN THE OFFICE OF ONE OF M Y CO­ WORK E R S. S H E FLUNG T H E ROSE L I K E A C H I LD THROWING DOWN ITS TOYS AND ONCE AGA I N . I REALIZE THAT I WOU L D H A V E WORN r. WHILE H E WAS ON THE TELEPHONE. THIS PEC U L I A R AND PAI N F U L CONTRAC­ TION OF MY ENTIRE LIFE THAT IS SO C LEARLY I S THE O N LY WAY I CAN LINKED TO LAURE'S DEATH A N D THE L I NGERING SADNESS OF A UTU M N "CRUCI FY" MYSELF. T H E R E I N THAT OFFICE A N D LATE R THAT E V E N I NG. I R E M E M B ERED WHAT I HAD FELT THAT M O R N I NG. 0 0 1 W A N D E R I N G A R O U N D O U R D I L A P I DA T E D Y A R D A M I DST T H E D E A D LEAVES A. SHE C A M E O U T OF H E R STRANGE STATE LONG ENOUGH TO S M I LE AT M E AND SAY. NOW. N E I TH E R O F U S D I D A N YT H I NG (OR VERY LITTLE) TO OCTOBER 1 2. I M P E R C E PT I B LY . ON SEPTEMBER 2B. M Y HEART WAS LAURE S T R E TC H E D OUT ON THE BED. BREATH I NG CONVUL­ S I V E LY.1 WHAT S U R ROUNDS ME NOW COULD A L L DISAPPEAR I N A FEW HOURS. I COULD BODI L Y LEAVE THIS DREAM PLACE. " THAT WAS A VISION. SHE WAS A STRANGER TO ALL WHO A PP ROACHED H E R.ND WITHERED SHRUBS. ONE M U ST HAVE SO M UC H LOV E T H A T E V E N O N I TS T H R E S H O L D . T H I S LASTED B UT A MOMENT. I WAS O V E R C O M � W I T H A N G U I S H . I N SA NTlY. YESTER DAY. LA URE D I E D J U ST AS SHE W A S L I FTING ONE OF A B U N C H O F ROSES SPREAD OUT BEFORE H ER. PERHAPS IT WAS S I M PLY H EARTRENDING. 0 0 1 . A TREE OR A CABI N ET D O O R W I T H O U T A G R E A T D E A L OF A N G U I S H . A CABI N ET DOOR A R E NOTHI N G I F THEY C A NNOT BEAR WITNESS TO MOVE M E NT A N D TO HEARTRENDING DESTR UCTION [ . . [CROSSED OUT: O F T E N . I WROTE: "I R EALIZE THAT IF I WANT TO OVERCOM E MY EROTIC HABITS. A N D SHE C R I E D OUT IN A V O I C E A L MO S T A BS E N T AND I N F I N ITELY PA I N F U L: "TH E ROSEl"' I THI N K TH ESE W E R E H E R LAST WORDS. l . 1 9 39 O RG A N I ZE T H E W O R L D A R O U N D O U R S E LV E S . MY GAZE FIXED ON LA U R E'S D E A T H B E D (TH E O N E IN W H I C H I NOW SLEEP EVERY N I GHT!. D E A T H A P P E A R S L U D I C R O U S . I PICKED IT A N D B ROUGHT IT TO LAURE. C LI N G I N G TO T H I S SUFFERING A S TO A CHANCE TO LIVE. . . K N OWING WHAT I HAVE LIVED THROUGH A N D WHAT I LOST LOVE. .W H E N I WALK TH ROUGH THE STRE ETS OF R H E I MS. LOST WITH I N AN I N D E F I N ITE DELI R I U M . A N E E D TO MOVE A RO U N D I N A WOR L D F U L L OF S E C R E T M E A N I NG S . I D I SCOVER ANEW A TRUTH THAT KEEPS ME FROM SLEEPI NG. A N G U I S H AND THE DOM I NATION OF FEAR A R E A LL N ECESSA RY.

I T S E E M S TO M E . EVEN DREAMED ABOUT IT I N P E R EG R I N ATION F E R LUC. D I N N E R WAS NO LESS SAVAGE THAN THE WIND. I N EB RIATED MORE BY THIS WEIGHTY THAN I P U R I TY OF DENISE. UNAWARE THAT SHE WO U L D PROBABLY N E V E R GET U P AGA I N. I A U TOMATICALLY LA U R E A N D I P R E P A R E D A D I N N E R FOR I V A NOV A N D o06IEVTSOVA. LAST S A T U R D A Y. W E WANTED TO I NVITE T H E M T O H A V E D I N N E R WITH US. L A U R E S A W THE L A S T F I L M OF H E R LIFE. EVERYTHING CONSIDERED. I A M LA U R E DIED O N E YEA R A G O TODAY. I N FRONT OF A T R E E TH AT H A D BEEN STRUCK BY LIGHTNI NG. MOUNTA I N S W A S N E C E S S A R Y TO H E L P M E FORGET MY D I SLI KE FOR "CO M E D Y . TH E GERM A N S H A D J UST TA KEN V I E N N A AND THE A I R ALREADY SMELLED OF WAR. " BUT THAT IS MY SOONER HAD WE ENTERED THE FO REST THAN SHE SAW TWO DEAD CROWS. WE WENT BACK TO THE SAME CANNOT BE THE EXTENT OF ALL H U MANLY VALUABLE THINGS. A N D PRECEDE M E . AT THE E N D OF AUGUST.. ALIVE. I I SADE'S "GRAVE. WE ASKED M A U R I C E H E I N E TO D R I V E U S T O T H E SPOT THAT S A D E H A D CHOSEN FOR HIS OWN B U R I A L. W E TRAVELLED OVER TH E MONTAI G U PLA I N S WHOSE H ILLS BUT AND NO DREAMED ABOUT WUTH E R I N G H E I G HTS. IN LA V A I S S E NET. BRANCHES O F A T R E E I WOULD HAVE WANTED HIM TO A LW A Y S ACCO M P A N Y M E I'VE STOPPED T H I N K I NG I N S I STE NTLY A BOUT LAURE. S H E FELL ONCE. J. I S U PPOSE T H I S F R O M H O U S E TO H O U S E I N T H E FI ELDS G REATLY D ELIGHTED LA U R E . T H E O N E W A Y T R I P (A 1 9 32 F I L M BY TAY G A R N ETT) W H I C H S H E H A D I'M USING RATHER SOLEMN LANGUAGE H ERE-FAR N E V E R SEEN BEFORE. AS WE H A D EXPECTED. . I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT SOMETIMES. 1 93 9 THE THOUGHT OF D E N I SE. SHE WALKED A LL D A Y A S I F DEATH W E R E N'T W E A R I NG HER AWAY. ARE MORE REASON TO HOPE THAN TO DESPAIR. I'M B EG I N N I N G TO FEEL MORE A ND M O R E I G N O R ANT. SOMETIMES WITH TERROR. " H E SHALL B E SOWN OVER THE ACORNS . B U T NO SOONER H A D W E MICHEL RETU RNED T H A N LA U R E B E G A N T O F E E L THE F I RST E F F ECTS OF THE I L L N ESS THAT E V E N T U A LLY CAUSED HER DEATH. . CLOSE TO THAT MOMENT OF THE YEAR WHEN WE CAN LOOK BACK AND CONSIDER. THAT EVENI NG. COLOMB-BECHAR.L I K E U N EA S I ­ NESS IN MY H E A RT WO U L D BE TO BETRAY EXPRESSED H I M S E LF L I K E T H I S . THE WINO WAS SAVAGE. . ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED IN ONE YEAR D I S I NTEGRATING TO NOTH I NGN ESS IN T H E E A RTH BEN EATH A THICKET O F BUSHES . . 1 9 3 9 EVERYT H I NG. TO N O T F E E L THIS DEATH . . AS AN A N I M A L IS BEA UTIFUL). ALIVE. OR OUT OF HUMAN RESPECT (SACRIFICING ONCE MORE MY MANIA TO REDUCE EVERYTHING!.NOVE M B E R 7. CON S U M E D BY OAK R OOTS. 1 43 . S H E HAD A H I G H FEVER AND I. AFTER S H E SAW I J U ST C A M E OUT OF THE H E LD E R THEATER WHERE I SAW WUTHERING H E I G H TS: H EA T H C L I F F L I V I NG WITH CATHY'S GHOST AS I WANTED TO LIVE WITH LA U R E'S G H OST. SPOT WITH M I C H E L L E I R I S A N D ZETTE. . HERE WE ARE. RETURN TO CERTAIN MEMORIES WHICH. ODdlEVTSOVA UNDRESSED AND BEGA N VOM ITI NG. AT E P E RON. I HOPE YOU WILL A R R I VED I N B R O A D DAYLIGHT AT THE E D G E OF T H E P O N D SA D E H A D CHOSEN. WHAT U N ITES US WITH J U ST A FEW I N D I V IDUALS IN M A RC H OF 1 938. I N T H E M I DDLE OF A LL TH I S C H A OS. TA KING LEI R I S A N D ZETTE FOR A WA LK A LONG A PATH WE BOTH LIKED. J WENT TO BED. . I TOOK H E R BY CAR TO OUR SAINT G E R MA I N HOUSE I N THE FOREST. ON T H I S OCCASION. INSISTENCE WOULD BE A SACRILEGE I N THIS CASE). AND WE FROM MY USUAL PRACTIC E-LANGUAGE WHICH MAKES ME A LITTLE ASHAMED. ON THE WAY THERE. WHEN I'M IN A MELANCHOLIC MOOD. . A FTER WE R ETU R N E D . HEINE D I DN'T GO WITH US. OUT OF MODESTY PERHAPS. A N D WE LOST OUR WAY I N T H E FOREST. A FTE R A LL. OCTOBER 2 9 ." LAURE WENT OUT ONLY ONCE. OF ALL THINGS CAPABLE OF SURVIVING ANY AND ALL VICISSITUDES. IT WAS SNOWING I DONT WANT TO I N SIST ON A N Y O N E THING (ANY THAT DAY. IN DECEM B E R OF 1 937. POSSESSES M E ENTI R E LY. LA U R E THOUGHT A BO U T FORGIVE M E AND UNDERSTAND DESPITIE M Y WORDS ALL THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO YOU AS SPONTANEOUSLY AS AN EXPRESSION OF GRIEF OR A BURST OF LAUGHTER . TO NOT LOVE D E N I S E T H I S W A Y . I T I S A S I NCONC E I V A B L E A S A PLANT THAT H A S STOPPED B U D D I NG A N D G ROWING [ • • . D E A R GEORGES. RATHER. HE HAS NEVER BEFORE BEAUTIFUL COULD H AV E EVER I M AG I N ED (BUT BEAUTIFUL. • • HANGING FROM THE C U R R E N T E XPLA N ATION. I RECEIVED T H E FOLLOWI N G LETTER FROM M I C H E L LEI R I S LAST S U N DAY.

A LL I C A N DO I S P L A Y AGA I N . 1 938. I SAW THE TWO C ROWS A FEW DAYS LATER. A LARGE "X" IN OR GAP INTE R R U PTS EACH OF THE PASSAGES ON H E R DEATH. D ESTROYED. I 1 !s. L A U R E CONCERNING T H E MANUSCRIPT T O APPEAR UNDER THE TITLE OF THE CULPRIT. I T H E Y ONLY CHOKED ON HER WORDS SO BADLY THAT I WAS F R IG H TE N E D. F R O M T H E W R I T I N G S OF LA URE) I HAVE J UST TOL D YOU A BOUT M Y LIFE: DEATH H A D W E WERE NOT FAR FROM THE HOUSE. THE SPACING OF THESE I N C I S IO N S THE N A R R A TI V E THE R E P R E S E NTS A C E N T R A L LOC U S I N R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N BATAI LL E A N D LA U R E . 5 NUD!TY. (TH E C RO W . W H E N I PASSED BY THE SA M E S POT." I T S E E M S THAT A L L OF TH E FRAGMENTS WHICH M E NTION HER N A M E HAVE BEEN CROSSED OUT OR OMITTED.. I'LL M I S S THE SUN. J U N E 3. NOW I CAN NO LONGE R REST B ECAUSE I WON. P . WILL S A I NT G E R M A I N C R UMBLE TO THE G RO U N D. J . I PLAYED WITH LA URE. R E A N I MATE T H I S REALLY I NS A N E FATE . AFTER H E R LA U R E WAS D E A T H THAT S H E H A D C O N S I D E R E D TH E D E A D SIGN. I TOLD H E R : SHE S H I V E R E D AND FOR THOSE WHOM I LOVE. I B I R DS AS A U N D E R STOOD ONLY BUT BY THEN. . i FOUN D DEATH M A SQU E R A D ! N G . ABSURD A N D VIOLENT C H AOS" W O R LD]. I'M W R I TI NG T H I S NOW A S E V E RYTH I NG I S T E N D I NG TOWA RDS THE "SONOROUS. WHOEVE R TOLERATED A MORE TERRIBLE FU RY? YET 1 44 . I H A D JUST LOOKED THROUGH H E R M A N U SC R I PTS A N D ONE OF THE FI RST I HAD READ WAS T H E C ROW. TOO? H E R S E L F W ROTE THAT TH E HOUSE W H I C H S H E D I S D A I N FU LLY C A L L E D "TH E N U N N E RY" WOU L D C E R TA I N L Y C O M E TO A D I S A ST R O U S E N D . NOT H I NG MORE THAN A N INERT BODY. IF LA U R E USED TO P LAY.LIKE A KNIGHT A N D H I S H ERALD. WHICH I S MORE O R LESS THE D I A R Y OF LAURE'S DEATH. SHE F O R E S A W AS T H E FATE O F T H E LET M E A D D : O N T H E TH R ESHOLD O F . LA U R E PLAYED A N D WON. C O M PLETE WITH GARTERS AND BLACK S I LK GEORGES BATAILLE TRANSLATED BY TOM G O RA STOCKI NGS. BEGUN ON YEA R "LATE. CA N'T STA N D TO SEE THEM FORGET HOW M UC H GOOD FORT U N E T H E Y WOULD H A V E WOU L D PLAY. . A M A PROVOCATION. PA R I S WAS J U ST BOM B E D [C ROSSED OUT: AND ON NI ETZSCH E SOMEONE TOLD M E THAT A BOMB H A D FA LLEN ON T H E BOI LEAU STREET CLINIC WHERE LAURE HAD SPENT TWO MONTHS BEFORE OUR TRIP TO SA I N T G E R M A I N ON J U LY T U A LLY DIED. I TAKEN T H E N A M E LAURE.. SAID LAURE. LA U R E DIED. 1 940 SOON. G LORY. WHERE S H E EVEN­ DON'T K NOW I F A NYTH I N G WAS IN A LETTE R TO L E I R I S . F. WHOEVER M ET A N YTHI NG MORE HUMAN. THI S F U R Y TOOK ME BY T H E HAND A N D LED ME I NTO H ELL.

W A R M CONTRACTIONS G R I PPED M Y GUTS. WAS UTTE R L Y INCO M P R E H E N S I BLE. YET I COU L D NOT U NDERSTAND WHY SHE FOLLOW I N G T H E CONTO U R S OF H E R BREA STS. OF A TWENTY-YEA R-OLD MAN FOR THIS OLD WOM A N W A S T H E V E R Y WATER OF L I FE. SURELY. A '4D F I N A LLY G ROWN ACCUSTO M E :) TO IT. C L I N G I N G TO H E R BODY. T H E R E FORE. H E R THE S M E LL. S P R I N G I N G FROM THE WELL THAT HAD GON E DRY I N HER MANY YEA R S A SWA R M OF DESIRES F L E W T HROUGH MY MIND BEFOR E. S U S PECTING THE DESIRES STI R R I N G W I T H I N ME.MY LATE GRANDMOTHER THE C LOCK WAS STRI K I N G M I D N IG H T A S I ENTERED THE K I TC H E N WHERE M Y G R A N DMOTH E R WAS LYING. S U R E LY A L L S H E CO ULD EXPECT N O W WAS HER BODY'S SLOW D I S I NTEGRATION I N SOM E D A M P CRYPT FLESH. ALL DAY LON G . I WAS FORCED TO HOLD M Y NOSE WHEN I F I RST C A M E THE SILK K E RC H I E F ON HER FACE A N D THE SHEET COV E R I N G HER BODY ONLY ADDED TO HOW I CLOSE TO T H E FOOT OF T H E B E D . THOSE THIGHS T H A T W E R E LONG A N D S L I M W I T H TH E I R M U SCLES J U ST B A R E L Y V I SI B L E U N DER THE S K I N . WITH TH E I R DARK N I PPLES ERECT FROM T H E FRESH CARESS OF T H E RA I N . SLOWLY. F I R M AND PROUD. TH E I R DEATH A N D M E MO R Y B E G A N T O D I STI L L AS M Y B O D Y AVI DLY DRENC H E D IN A SUDDEN SHOWER. H E ADY FRAGRANCE BREATHED I T IN. THE S H A P E OF H E R P U B I S AS I T DISAPPEARED BETW E E N HER THIGHS. S E N D I N G WAVES OF SWEET PA I N R I PPLI NG THROUGH M Y BODY. S U R ELY T H E PASSION 1 415 . HAD I WAFTED U N D E R THOUGHT I HAD GRAN DSON. F I LLED ME WITH G REAT EXCITE­ M E N T. AS THE G N A W I N G WOR M S ASSA I LED HER THAT I T R I E D T O D R I V E AWAY. THE I D E A THAT S H E H A D T R I E D TO R ES I ST ME. HAD T R I E D TO REPEL M Y BY S U R RO U N D I N G HERSELF WITH HER S M ELL. THE D OO R OF M Y ROOM. ANY REJ ECTION OF ME. THE WET FABRIC OUTLI N I NG T H E SOFT CONVEXITY OF H E R BELLY A N D N A V E L. THE THOUGHT F L A S H E D TH ROUGH M Y M I N D THAT TH E OLD WOM A N . EVEN FOR A N I N STANT. B U T I T W A S A HA LF­ H E A RTED E FFORT AT B E ST. THE CLOTH WAS STI C K I N G TO HER SKIN. WOULD T R Y T O R EJ ECT M E. R E M E M B E R E D H E R IN MY M I N D'S EYE: A J E A LOUSLY H I DDEN PH OTOG R A P H OF HER WITH HER DRESS. A N D THOUGH I D I D EVENTUA LLY TAKE P L E A S U R E TH E R E I N .

TH E TESTI C L E S OF I NATU R A L LY I UNABLE TO W A S QUITE AWA R E THAT S H E WAS R E A CT TO ALL THE CA RESSES I SINCE BITTEN M ET A L TH E M . TH E COLD ROOM H A D CAUSED IT TO SHRINK AND D R A STICALLY. NOT LET HIM I N. MADE OF WERE C LOSED A N D THE WOODEN P A N E LS HAD B E E N DRAWN ACROSS T H E F R O N T DOOR W I N DOW. W H E N I LOW E R E D HER AGA I N . A LBEIT FOR ONE N IGHT ONLY. T E ETH BUT THE ZIPPER I N TO TOOK PLEASURE I NTEN D E D FOR H E R : N E VERTH E LESS I DECI DED TO ATT A C H HER S E C U R E LY . OF THE CLOTH. TH E R E MAY HAVE BEEN HER A BUDDING S A D I STIC MY MY DESIRE TO BEFORE I U N DR E S S E D HER I C A UGHT MYSELF U N C O N SC I O U S LY O PE N I NG MY F L Y A N D U NCOVER­ I NG MY PENIS. DAZZLI N G IN ITS WHITEN ESS. O N E M U ST A D M IT. I WAS D I S P L E A S E D AT T H I S I N C I D E NT S I N C E I H A D NO W I S H TO C A U S E H E R A N Y PA I N . IT WAS NO EASY TASK.I THE BONES IN HER FINGERS OR HER SOM E O N E ' S C LOTH E S COULD NOT T E L L WHETH E R T H E SOU N D C A M E FROM T H E ROAD O R THE COU RTYA R D I N FRONT OF T H E HOUSE. THE SHUTTE R S COULD NOT T E L L WHICH-TO S N A P L I K E DRY TWIGS. I W A S PROTECTED O N A L L S I D E S BUT AT TH E S A M E TI M E THE M YSTERIOUS H A P P E N I NGS O F T H E OUTS I D E ME: THE O N LY LINK I HAD SOM E F I N E . BUT I THE R U STLE OF R A I S E H E R U P T O P U T H E R A R M S B E H I N D H E R BACK AND TIE TH E M . ON A SHELF THE IN TH E I N C R EASI NG T H E PA I N B Y PRESSING DOWN O N M Y PENIS. TH E N G R A D U A LLY BOR A D E N E D AND F LA R E D I NTO AN PROPORTIONS I N M Y M I N D. I LEFT T H E K E R C H I E F IN PLACE ON H E R FACE. MY AND I T WAS A L L W I Z E N E D WERE H U RTI N G HAD IN CAR ESS WHILE AND ASSUAGE N OT SEE ACH I NG W A N T N E XT M OV E . BALEFUL EYES T H A T 1 46 . THEN OUTSI DE. SION. W H E N A L L WAS SAID AND DON E. SOFT FABRIC I COULD N O T I D E NTI FY. T H E Y HAD NOT GON E TO THE TROUBLE OF P U TTI N G ON HER U N D E RCLOTH E S WH I C H . I CHOSE SOME SECTIONS OF HEAVY TWI N E USED FOR BINDING SHEAVES TH E R E WAS NO SOU N D OUTS I D E EXC E PT. FOR THE PAST FEW M I N UTES. TO U N C L ENCH H E R H A N DS O P E N I NG TH E DOOR FOR HIM. WOULD HAVE BEEN Q U I T E U S ELESS. G R A N D MOTH E R H A D D E C I D E D T O I NSTALL A SHORT TIME AGO. HOWEVER. SAFE F R O M A N Y I N TE R R U PTION I W E N T B A C K T O T H E BED. SHE COULD W R I N K LE D . PETA L L E D ROSES C U R L I NG N E C K L I N E : M Y MOTH E R H A D THOUGHT I T TOO LOW I WENT QUICKLY TO TH E DOOR TO M A K E C E RTAI N IT WAS LOCKED. THROUGH H E R D R ESS H A D ROL L E D B A C K T O H E R K N E E S AS I WAS A TTA C H I N G H E R F EET. A N D THE SINK KNEW TH E R E WAS A M ETAL BOX FULL O F STR I N G A N D CORD THAT S H E HAD SAVED TH ROUGH THE Y E A RS. MY G R A ND MOTH E R WAS B E A UTI F U L. AND NOW C O N F I D E N T THAT WE W E R E GOD. A I HAVE A LW A Y S LOATH E D TH E C REATU R E . V E R Y D A I NTY M A U V E PEARLS W E R E S E W N ON THE BODICE I N T H E S H A P E O F M A N Y­ FROM THE LOW CUT THE STEPS SLOWLY MOVED AWAY. A N D I WAS PROUD S H E WAS M I N E . STI L L I NTACT. HER D R E S S W A S COM E LY. THAT HAD BEEN SPECIALLY BROUGHT OUT FOR THE OCCA­ S H E W A S N A K E D U N D E R T H E D R ESS. I COU L D DETECT T H E C R UNCH O F SHOES ON GRAVEL AND STO N E S . T H E R E B Y D I S P L A Y I N G H E R BLACK S I L K STOC K I NGS PULLED H A L F WAY U P HER L EGS. I SHOT HOME TH E TWO BOLTS MY FOR T H E OCCASION A N D H A D COV E R E D T H E B A R E S K I N W I T H A B L A C K S I LK SC A R F. H E R N E W A N D I D A R E S A Y U NCOMFORTA BLE POSITION CAUSED A R MS . CU PBOA R D SQUEEZED I BETW E E N F I R E PLACE T H E N C A M E T H E M O M E N T W H E N I D EC I D E D TO P U S H BACK T H E D RE S S C O M PLETELY. THE CAT M EW I NG AT T H E DOOR . IT WAS VERY I N TR I C A T E L Y PLEATED A BO V E THE WOR L D D I SQU I ET E D TON IGHT WITH THE EXT E R IO R W A S THE SOU N D O F FOOT S T E P S WHICH HAD TA K E N ON UNREAL WA I ST: TH E FOLDS W E R E NA RROW A T T H E TOP. IT WAS QUITE HIGH OFF THE FLOOR IN T H E STYLE OF OLDER BEDS SO THAT I HAD SOME DIFFICULTY I N FOLDI NG BACK T H E S H E ET TO TH E FOOT O F THE B E D A N D FOLLOW I N G T H E C R EASES. I C E RTA I NL Y H A D N O I NTENTION OF IT WAS NOT D I F F I C U LT TO SPREAD H E R LEGS A N D ATTACH H E R FEET TO T H E B E D POSTS. NOT U N D E RSTA N D I NG WHY HIS M I ST R E SS WOULD BECA USE O F TH E I R I D E A L LENGTH A N D THE LOOP AT O N E E N D. H U G E TOMCAT W I T H L O N G TAWNY F U R A N D B R IGHT. I W A S A LITTLE TREMULOUS BUT THE F E A R WAS IN KEEPING WITH T H E WARM P A I N GNAWING AT MY GUTS A N D T H E DA RK EXCITE M E NT T H A T SENT A SLIGHT Q U I V E R MY EVERY MOVEM E NT. I REALLY D I D NOT WANT HER TO SEE M E : AND THEN TOO. A M PL E S K I RT.S U D D E N LY I THOUGHT I HEARD FOOTS T E P S WITH THEIR FINGERS LOC K E D TOG E T H E R .

WH ITE FLEECE ON HER FOLLOW I N G YOU R E V E R Y MOVE AND N E V E R LOS I N G EVEN FOR AN I N ST A N T TH E I R I MPLACABLE GENITALS. USUAL WITH THE MY PENIS. BECAUSE RED OF T H E COLD. ENT IN THE SPARSE. I G E NTLY OVE R R I D I NG PASSION. SO FI LLED WITH BOTH. AWARE OF ON LY B EC A U S E TH E HEMP CORDS WERE ATTA C H E D TO IT AND TO THE OBJECT WAS OF MY ANY TICKLING MY PENIS W I TH ONE HAND. THE GROIN. THE LABIA WERE AS DRY AS SUCKED I N T H E S E R E GLOBES O F H E R B R E A STS. BUT M Y DESIRES HAD SOON MY H A N DS HAD EXHAUSTED ALL THE BEEN R E P R E S S E D TOO L O N G A N D SOON M Y H A N D G R E W MORE DA R I NG. I F E LT M UC H SAFER KNOWING NOTH I N G WAS OF ANY CON S E Q U E N C E A TO ME EXCEPT H E R BODY L Y I N G ON B E D T H AT I WAS THE BONDS WERE F I R M L Y I N PLACE. D R U N K WITH DESI R E. DESICCATED A N D P U R P L I S H . EVERYT H I N G H A D BY NOW R EC E D E D I NTO OBLIVION. S E N D I N G CONSEQ U E N C E T O H E R EXCEPT H E R LOV E R. G E N ITA LS OP E N I N G HER WIDE I N TO THE DE EPEST IN HER R E C E S S E S OF BODY. ONLY THE DARK. HER WERE B R E A STS. WET E X T R E M I TY G A V E THEM TH I C K N E SS.COULD STA R E I NTO YOU R FACE BY THE HOUR. H E R BODY WITH A LMOST U N R E A L P A S S I V I TY. NOTH I N G OF CA RESSED HER BODY WITH T H E OTH E R . OF MY WRINKLES. A S THOUGH LOATH TO DEFILE LEANED BE LLY M Y M I STR ESS'S COUCH. T H E I N S I D E OF THE T H I G H S . H E R SKIN NOW WAS NOTH I NG BUT STRETC H E S OF COLD NESS. BAGS I WAS STI L L STA N D I N G B E S I D E TH E BED. N E A R LY BLACK ANY N I PPLES AT EACH THEY FORWA R D MY WITH TONG U E . PITTED A N D STI PPLED WITH T I N Y BLAC K PLACED MY H A N DS ON E I T H E R S I DE OF H E R TORSO AS I BEGAN LICKING EVERY I NC H O F H E R COLD FLESH. LOOKED L I K E T W O D E F LATED B A L LOONS W I TH TH E I R VALVES C R ACKS. ACCEPTING NAKEDNESS T H E H U M I LI ATION OF T H E R A VAGES OF HER SA LLOW S K I N WAS STRETC H E D OVER A FRA M E WHOSE SLIGHTEST DETA I LS W E R E A PP A R E NT. A N D WHOSE NATU R A L I NT R I C AC Y H A D BECOM E E V E N M O R E COMPLEX S I N C E E V E RY I NC H OF H E R S K I N . WHEN I A N D TOUCH E D LEAVI NG HER A S A L LOW MARK I NOW THAN TWO THIN THAT THE YEA R S HAD E M PT I E D A N D D R I E D U P. I TROU BLE THE T R A N Q U I LITY OF O U R E M B R ACES. NOTH I N G C O U L D COM E TO I PUSHED BAC K HER DRESS TO THE A R M PITS. H E R THE SPECTACLE B E FORE MY EYES WAS A FASCI NAT­ I NG ONE. THEN GROWING VERY E XC I T E D . CAUSING PALER T I PS I W A S FASCINATED BY T H E FOLDS I N H E R A R M P ITS. A N D ALL T H E WHILE I W A S AMAZED AT THE EVERYTH I NG E L S E BUT W E R E D I ST I NCTLY APPAR- 1 47 . NOTH I N G D A NG L I N G MORE A C ROSS HER TORSO. EACH OTH E R'S P R E S E N C E WERE WE M A N A G E D TO DO S O BY L I FTI NG H E R A N D WOR K I N G THE D R E S S SLOWLY A N D P A I N FU LLY U PW A RDS. S U D D E N LY . J A G G E D E N D OF BONE. H A D W R I N KLED THE SKIN A N D F I N A LLY T A N N E D IT SO THAT IT H A D THE S U PPLE TEXTU R E OF OLD. S A L I V ATING ON THEM. THE CLEFT BETW E E N THE B R E A STS. E V E R YW H E R E I N S U M THAT CONSTA NT MOVEMENT AND CONSTANT SWEATING FINGERS. F O R S O M E T I M E T H E R E A FTER I WAS NOT A W A R E OF THE N E A R-CONSTANT CONTRACTIONS OF M Y G UT. H E W A S QUITE W I LD A N D N O O N E WENT N E A R HIM E XC E PT H I S OLD M I STRESS. EXCEPT T H E TWO OF US. T H E R E U PON. I WAS VERY CA UTIOUS W H E N EV E R I TOU C H E D HER LEST THE SKIN SPLIT WIDE A OPEN AND R E LEASE THE TI M E: ACCEPTING OF IN HER N A K E DN ESS THAT THE MY H U M I LIATION HER BONDS I N S U RED COMPLETE ACC E S S I B I LITY T O H E R BODY. A N D EVEN THOUGH THE POS I T I O N OF HER HANDS H I N D E R E D M E C O N S I D E R A B LY I H A D NO I NTENTION OF U NTYI N G T H E M . N I BBLING ON THE ROUGH N I PPLES. A N D T O W H O M S H E WAS O F F E R I N G S H I V E R S T H R O U G H M E FROM H E A D TO TOE. W A S F U R ROWED TO THE B R E A K I NG PO I NT. THE PA I N S E R V E D TO I G N I T E M O R E F I R E S U N D E R M Y P A S S I O N A N D D ROVE M E TO STR I P T H E DEAD WOM A N OF H E R MODESTY. HER G E N I TALS W E R E COV E R E D WITH L O N G G R E Y MY PL E A S U R E WAS I M M ENSE AS I G R E E D I LY H A I RS T H A T STRAGGL E D TH I N LY O V E R A W I D E A R E A OF HER BELLY. WERE STA I N E D TINY DOTS: T H E TE ETH OF THE Z I P P E R H A D B RO K E N THE S K I N ON M Y TESTICLES. AND WITH A VIOLENT MOVE M ENT THAT SURPRISED THUS ME. I P R E S S E D F I R M LY ON G R EA T THAN PAIN. M Y C A R ES S E S M O R E EXPLICIT. POS S I B I L I T I E S O F P L E A S U R E T H E Y C O U L D PRO­ CU RE. D A R K E N E D LEATH E R . ONCE SO PINK AND FRESH. SO K N E A D E D BY T I M E.

BEYOND OUR P RESENT I N H IBITING S I M I L A R T O D R I E D. L I C K E D G R E E D I LY . E V E R Y LAST ATOM OF D E L I G H T AS I D I D SO. BUT T H E DESI R E OOM I N ATING U S LIKE TWO A N I M ALS W A S SO I N TE N S E THAT IT I N H I BITED ANY SHOW O F PLEASURE. L I K E S EEDS L I Q U E FY I NG ITS FLOW. I STRETC H E D HER S K I N . T E V E R Y I NC H OF H E R I C Y G E N I TA LS. T H E S A L I V ATED A S M Y TON G U E DARTED EVERY BOTH I N S I D E AND OUTS I DE THE BODY. C R E V I C E . TH U S IT WAS I M PE R A T I V E I B E VERY ATTENTI V E TO EVERY DETA I L AND I G N O R E THE SCRU PLES W H I C H MIGHT BO N D S HAVE IN FOR B I D D E N MY USING THE HEMP OF ORDER OUR T O ATTA I N T H E VORACIOUS MAXIMUM PLE A S U R E PROV I D E . STE A L I N G GLANCES TO S E E I F S H E SHOWED ANY I NT E R EST. S C A TTE R I NG OF F I LTH SLOWLY.A N A L TH E D E F EC A T I O N S ORGANS OR (FROM TH E SEXUAL A N OTH E R BODY).LACK OF REACTION. MOREOVER. OVE R S E E I N G T H E S E D E LIGHTS A N D THAT ACCORD­ ING TO T H E M A STER'S W H I M THEY WERE G R A NTED FOR BUT ONE N I G HT O NLY. SUDDEN A N D U NCONTROLLA BLE A D I POSE E R P U T I O N S O F B R OW N I S H . SIGNS OF PLEASU R E A ( A LWAYS FRUS­ BEC A U S E A LW A Y S OF C A STRATI NG DETU M E S­ OF THE DEGRADING BECAUSE CONC O M I TANT POLLUTIO N S ) . A N OT H E R ONE. T R E M B L I N G AT MY N E RVE. O N ENJOY I NG T H E M TO THE F U L LEST AND B U I LD I N G TO A G R A D U A L C L I M A X. WITH I N . WERE NEAR BUT TENCY A N D A P P E A R A N C E OF OLD LEATH ER. TOG ET H E R W E R E O U R L A ST O N E . AND TH E N I DARTED M Y T O N G U E R E P E ATEDLY I NTO THE CONVOLUTIONS OF HER FLESH. T H E VAGI N A . O N E BY O N E. I POPPED E A C H BUTTON O F F M Y S H I RT. I U N D R ES S E D IN FRONT OF H E R. BOTH ON H E R PART A N D ON I BEGAN ACTING THEN AS THOUGH OUR NIGHT M I N E. C O M M O N AS A N E R ECT M E M B E R . O R THE DAY WHEN I ROSE EA R L I E R THAN SHE AND. E XPLOR E D E V E R Y N O O K OF S K I N . AS H A R D A N D A S BLACK A S COAL W E R E T H E O U T E R F R I N G E S OF H E R L A B I A . TH E N A VEL. WE L E FT THAT STAGE B E H I N D US WHEN ONE DAY. B L OO D VOM ITI NG FROM T H E A N US. A LONG WITH TH E I R BROW N I S H C A ST. SENSES COULD N O R W A S I CON V I N C E D T H A T B E YOND O U R PRESENT PLEASURE. AS I WET H E R BODY W I T H MY S A L I V A . I LAY OOWN 148 . I R A N MY FINGERS T H R O U G H HER P U B I C HAIRS AND PINCHED T H E S K I N TOGETH E R IN O R D E R TO OPEN HER VAGI N A TO MY G R E E DY. B U T I N PARTI C U L A R I W A S INTENT O N EXTRACTING EVERY L A ST D ROP OF PLEASU R E AS I WAS C A R ES S I N G HER. I S I M PLY W A NTED TO PROLONG TH E M A S LONG AS POS S I B L E . B EYO N D ALL H U M A N BOU N D A R I ES. OR A DAMP C ROTC H . I UNDID MY WARM C O R D U ROY T R O U S E R S A N D DROPPED T H E M ON T H E FLOOR. I B E G A N S H I V E R I N G I N T H E COLD ROOM. VERY IN DARK URINE CARRYING J E LLY· THAT IT WAS NOT D I SC E R N I BL E . EXTRA. I WAS N A K E D I N A F E W M O M E NTS. S U C K I N G MOUTH . SAVO R I N G KICKED M Y C LOTH E S A W A Y FROM T H E BED. AT T H E E X P E N S E O F T H E M E D I OC R E EX T E R N A L TRATING CENCE. BARELY P U B E SC E NT. I COULD NOT T H R UST M Y TONG U E PAST TH E O P E N I N G OF HER V U LV A . I N S E A R C H OF HER CLITOR I S BUT TO NO AVA I L. WAS C U RTA I LI NG T H E VO L U PTUOUS WA S NOT E N J OY M E NT OF THIS N I GHT. WHITE DISCHARGES FROM THE BRAIN. T H E Y S UGGESTED T H E CONSIS­ STATE W H I CH. H O W E V E R . MOTH E R P E R H A PS. I L A Y I N WAIT FOR H E R T O D O H E R TO I L ETTE . ACTUA LLY I K N EW IT WAS INDEED THAT LAST BUT I M AG I N I N G THAT P R E L U D E TO I M AGI N I N G WAS TH E S E OTH E R . I W A N T E D TO PLAY MY TO N G U E AROU ND IT BUT H E R S K I N WAS S O W I Z E N E D A N D F U R ROWED OPENING MADE SOMEWH ERE IN THE E V I S C E R ATION ( FOLLOWE D B Y A DISCHARGE O F T H E I N T E R N A L O R G A N S OR T H E E J A C U LATION OF T H E BOW E L S ) : BONES THR USTING THROUGH DRY F I S S U R E S I N T H E S K I N . SO N A R ROW HAD IT BECO M E . THEY W E R E STI LL SOM E W H A T P L I A B L E SO THAT. STUCK AND SUCKED I NTO AND G R OW T H S . M A D N E S S TH I S WHICH. WOULD I N DU C E US TO E X P E R I E NCE T H E MOST VIOLENT AND U NCONTROL­ LA B L E O F P L E A S U R E S : E XPLOS IONS OF SKIN A N D FLESH: MOUTH. ETC.-TH E R E S O R T OF AND PL E A S U R E . EVEN R U N N I NG THE RISK OF TEA R I NG IT. D I S S ECTION OF T H E G E N ITALS: E M A SC U LATION. IT WAS FAR BEYOND A N YTH I N G AS THAT SOMEONE. THEN FROM T H E M . A N E R ECT N I PPLE. I FELT MY TH I RST FO R PLEA S U R E I NC R E A S E D A H U N D R E D FOLD. IT WAS NOT THAT I F E A R E D A D I S ASTROUS OUTCOM E TO O U R RELATIONS. L I K E A SUCTION C U P. I THOUGHT H E R F L E S H W A S G R A D U A L LY BECOM I N G SOFT E R A N D M O R E R E S I LI E NT A N D MY M O U T H . S H R I VELLED MOR ELS. WE C A P A B L E OF ATTA I N I N G IT. TH E ORGA NS OF S I G H T D I S C H A R G I N G TH E I R V I T R E O U S AND S U BSTA NCE ON E A C H T E M PL E . PEASURES MORE WERE BUT THE M A R V ELLOUS MY N I G HTS. DESP ITE T H E F R E N ZY TORTU RING THE TWO OF US A N D W H I C H WAS FLOODING P A I N F U L PELASU R E THROUG HOUT M Y PASSION-WRACKED BODY.

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TO EACH R H YTH M I C CONTACT OF MY BODY WITH ODOU R. BON ES C R ACK. R U F FLING T H E STR I NG Y GREY H A I R S I N H E R TH I N FLEECE. WAS SPREADING L A B I A . WAS T H E I R R I TAT I N G AND INCESSANT CRACKLE OF HER BO N ES. N I BBLE LOVI NGLY AT H E R N I PPLES I N A R U S H OF SA L I V A . HER SKIN HAD OPENED LIKE A E V E RYTH I N G TIO N A L C H A NG E D WHEN I. D R U M M I N G ON H E R B E LLY. CONTE M P LATE H E R VAG I N A A G A I N . EACH ONE OF MY MOV E M E NTS WAS PLA N N E D SO THAT A LL MY OUR PACT WAS NOW BROKEN. BATHED IN SWEAT AND FLUS H E D WITH R I V ETED U PO N H E R TO R N P U B I S F O R A LONG T I M E . THEN PUSHED ASIDE THE BLACK SILK SCARF M ASKING H E R TH ROAT SO I M IGHT K I SS H E R NECK AND SUCK AT ITS W R I N K LES. IT H A D BEEN S E A L E D W I TH OUR F I R ST KISSES AND WAS TO HAVE T R A N S PORTED BOTH O F U S TO THE H I G H EST PEAKS OF P L E A S U R E . TO EACH V I B RATION OF MY L I M BS. M Y DESIRE WAS F A N N E D ANEW AT THE WAY S H E OFFERED H E RSELF SO I M MODESTLY. I KNEW MY I WOULD F E E L H E R I S E N S ED. A N D I H EL D H E R C LOSE T O M E T O G I V E H E R M Y WARMTH. WOULD BE SUFFUSED WITH I N FI N ITE S U D D E N L Y T H E SIGHT O F H E R R U I N ED G E N ITALS U N H I NG E D M E COM PLETELY AND I BEGAN P U N C H I N G H E R B E LLY. U N DER T H E TH I N CLOTH. I FOU N D I T D I F F I C U LT AT THE T I M E TO B E L I E V E H E R E N L A R G E D C L E FT COULD G I V E O F F S U C H A FOUL H E R ONLY RESPONSE TO EACH OF M Y MOV E M E NTS. BUT G R A DU A LLY I REA LIZED T H E S M E L L THAT H A D A P P A L L E D M E SO MUCH AT FI RST ROSE FROM H E R R E E K I NG COR PSE. THE MOVEMENTS O F M Y BODY ON H E R BODY. S H E TOO WAS COLD. I SAW A S P L I T RUN A LONG HER S K I N . I T H A P P E N E D SO S U D D E N LY T H A T F O R A M O M E N T I MY FACE WAS P R ESSED A G A I NST HERS AND I DID NOT R E A CT. I WAS V E R Y SUCCESSIVE CAUSED BY BOUTS O F THAT DISBELIEF T E R RO R THOSE FISSURED FLESH. EACH B L O W M A D E H E R DOUBLE U P AS I K N E LT BETW E E N HER OPEN LEGS SO I MIGHT THOUGH TO PROTECT H E RSELF OR TO CATCH H E R BREATH. MY EYES R E M A I N E D GOU G I NG M Y CHEEKS THORUGH THE S I LK K E R C H I EF. HAD I R E MOVED IT. L I K E A M E R E WA RT. I LOW E R E D MY HEAD AND BRUSHED MY H A LF­ MY DESPAI R C A U S E D B Y THE GROTE SQUE F I N I S H TO SO M UC H P L EA S U R E PROMISED TH E N WITH DRAWN. S U C K A T H E R A R M PITS I N T H E HOPE OF F I N D I N G A TRACE O F H E R SWEAT. MY P E N I S WAS LI M P. I W A S SPEECHLESS. BR EATH M I NGLING WITH PANTI NG. SOON I WAS STRETC H I NG OUT M Y LONG. C A R ESSES. H E R S. COULD L I C K H E R G E N ITALS AGA I N A N D THE BLACK C R A N N I E S BETW E E N HER THIGHS. MORE FLEXIBLE ANGULAR THAN HERS AND N ICELY MOLDED THE BODY. M Y L O N G .B E S I D E H E R . LA P AT THE S I D E S OF H E R FLAT. DANGLI NG TESTIC LES STRUCK AGA I N ST H E R PUBLIS. C A R E F U L NOT TO PRESS DOWN TOO HARD LEST I H U RT H E R AND MAKE HER FRA I L H A R D B E LLY. LOOK CONSCIOUS O F H E R CO M P L ETE DOM I NATION O V E R M E W H I C H SHE ACCOM PLI S H E D BY THE COLDNESS AND THE D E C E PT I V E R I G I D I TY OF HER BODY. S H R I VE L L E D A N D BLUE WITH C O L D . TH I N BODY OV E R H E RS. D E S PITE H E R B O N D S AND H E R I N FERIOR POSITION. CONTOURS OF HER O V E R S I Z E G E N I TA L I A WHOSE D I M ENSIONS M A D E M Y PENIS. THROUGH H E R PUBLIC H A I RS. R E L E A S E D A C LOSED MOUTH AGAI NST H E R B E LLY AND B R EASTS. A N D AT EVERY THRUST OF M Y LOI N S I T TWISTED A N D TU R N E D L I K E A LARGE WO R M ON THE W R I N K LED PARCH M E NT O F H E R B E LLY. MO V E M ENT AND OVERCOME AND BY PASSION AND PLEASURE. DART M Y TON G U E I N TO H E R N A V E L. A N D FOR THE TWO OF US NOTHING BUT THE DESIRE FOR BOU N D LESS PLEASURE. WITHOUT W A R N I NG. I TURNED AROUND SO I 1 150 . T H E S L I T H A D EXTE N D E D T H E CLEFT I N H E R LA B I A TO FREAKISH I NCAPABLE PROPO RTIONS. T H E WOU N D WAS P U R P L I S H A N D O D D LY D R Y AS THOUGH HER BLOOD HAD EVAPORATED I N DEATH. M Y RAGE CAUSED BY T H E COMPLACENT PASSIVITY S H E S HOWED A FT E R T H E DISASTER. B U T H E R E F FO RTS W E R E V A I N . COULD F E E L THE S H A R P EDGES OF H E R BONES C R A C K IN A GLASS. Y E T I HAD NOTH I N G BUT T E N D E R N E S S FOR H E R . T H E P U B I S H A D A F U R ROW AT LEAST FOU R I N C H E S IN L E NGTH. H E R H A N DS K E PT S N A P P I NG B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D T H E WHOLE K I TC H E N R E V E R B E R ATED WITH MY M U FFLED G E NTLENESS. THAT HER FACE WAS LIKE M I NE. OF A LTHOUGH MY BODY WAS M O R E MA LLEABLE. W I TH U N I NTEN­ WIDE HER B R U TA L I TY .

UNDER TYI N G MY HER R EPEATED BLOWS. A N D AT T I M E S H E R E M PTY GAZE M ET M I N E. T H E BLOOD S H E D I D NOT WANT TO G I V E ME. NOT A S I N G L E TEAR. T E A R W I N K I NG I N THE LESIONS. 1 15 1 . FEET TO THE B E D POSTS POI NT. H A D F I N I S H E D TEA RING H E R I NDI FFERENT BODY I NTO H I DEOUS SH REDS OF S K I N A N D FLESH. E V E R M O R E I NTEN S E LY . SHE R E M A I N E D A S I NSENSIITIVE A S TH E BED THAT SUFFERED O U R FERINE TH RA S H I N GS. NO T E A R ZIGZAGGED DOWN THE W R I N K L E OF HER W A X E N FACE. THE H E M P BONDS STRETC H E D H E R S K I N . HER WOU N DS W E R E RAPI DLY TU R N I NG PURPLE O R YELLOW L I K E H E R S K I N . A N D Y E T I H A D PUT H E R T H R O U G H SO M U C H I THOSE LONG MOMENTS O F M A D N E S S F U L L OF F U R Y AND H O RROR UNTI L TH E CRUEL CRAVING O F M Y H A N DS WAS SATED. NO SIGN OF A PPROVA L. C R EATI N G ON HER C H E E KS. SERE N E A R LY TO T H E SKIN FROM H E R AWAY B R EA K I NG A N KLES IN GOUGI N G T H E S H E ETS THAT ROLLED FROM TH E FLESH HER L I K E STR I PS OF W A ST E D BODY A N D NOT ONCE DID SHE CRY OUTI Y E L LO W E D PA R C H M E N T. A RT I F I C I A L C R E AT I N G TEARS ARTIFIC I A L BLOOD TO R E PLACE THE BLOOD S H E D I D M Y RAGE R E A C H E D S U C H B E R S E R K H E IGHTS THAT AT TI M ES I NO LONG E R KNEW ITS OBJ ECT. AS LONG A S I STI L L H A D A N U N B ROKEN F I N G E R N A I L I SLIT O P E N HER FLESH IN LON G . K N OC K E D H E R F R O M SIDE T O S I D E A S F A R A S H E R M E RC I LESS FETTERS WOULD A L LOW. A N D WITH THE S I N G LE M I N D E D N E S S O F TRU N K WHOSE O N LY R EACTION WAS SPLITS I N ITS BARK. H E R L I PS N E V E R Q U I V E R E D. SHE N EV E R ONCE SHUDDERED. WAS THE NOT HAVE. A T I N Y WORM B L U E WITH COLD. WITH N O T A S I N G L E R U B Y AT TIMES I T WAS NOT H A R D TO B E L I EVE SHE WAS DEAD. H A R D SHE K E PT OOU BLI NG UP L I K E A J A C K K N I F E AT EVERY S M A S H OF MY F I STS. I R E LEASED A LL TH E C R U E LTY I COU LD M U STER. MOUTH GAPE A N Y W I D E R T H A N B E FO R E . AND PUNCHED HER SO THAT I W R E N C H E D O P E N H E R MOUTH. BUT STI LL I KEPT ON. C A M E AWAY BY T H E H A NDFU L A N D C U RLED U P I N T O WITH E R E D ROLLS. FOR ONE LONG OUTRAGE D I R ECTED AT ME OR H E R ? WAS I T R E A L L Y MY G R A N DMOT H E R I WAS P U NC H I NG A N D K I C K I N G S O ATROC IOUSLY? HOUR. SHE SEEMED NOT TO BE T H E R E . E V E N H E R EYES R E M A I N E D M UTE. NOR DID HER I SPA R E D N O P A R T OF H E R BODY. HER A R M PITS. HER MONSTROUSLY GAPI N G L A B I A . AND I BEGAN PISSI NG.F E R A L VIOLENCE THAT K E PT M E. RAGING D E S I R E I M O V E D I N AND OUT O F H E R MOUTH IN SAVAGE I M ITATION OF T H E ACT I HAD BEEN DENIED. A N D S L I P P E D I N M Y PENIS. STI FFENED B Y T H E COLD. H A M M E R I N G E V E R Y I N C H OF H E R BODY. AND I K E PT ON OF PAI N P I S S I N G . DISLOCATI N G TH E F R A I L B O N E S O F H E R JAW. H E R B R E A STS. BUT H E R P A I N C A U S E D NO SHOUT. BUT IT W A S T H E N THAT MADE H E R L I M BS S N A P L I K E K I N DL I NG AS I P U M M ELLED H E R BATTE R E D BODY. I WAS RACKED BY SPASMS O F U N E A RTHLY RAGE. AN OLD IT S E E M E D AS I PISSED I NTO THE DEE PEST REACHES OF HER THOUGH I WAS POU N D I NG ROTTEN TREE TH ROAT. I R R E PA RA B L E WOUNDS. N O SIGN O F R E PROACH. EVER MORE FEROCIOUSLY . NOT A S I NGLE TEA R OF B LOOD. H E R N E C K WERE A L L D U LY RI PPED A N D TOR N . H E R HA LF­ CLOS ED EYELIDS R E M A I N E D THAT W A Y . H E R LEATH E R N B E L LY. N O SCA R LET TEA R TO COMFORT M E . A S MY U R I N E S P U RTED OVER H E R FACE IT G L U E D H E R H A I R T O H E R S K U L L A N D FOR M ED A WET H A LO UPON THE STI LL I M MACU LATE S H E ETS. I N VARIOUS PLACES. TH I N K SHE S U F F E R E D A G R EAT D E A L. TWISTED A N D T U R N E D I N VIOLENT CONTORTIONS MY ACTIONS HAD BY NOW S U R PASSED EVERYTH I N G THAT M A D N ESS C A N D ICTATE. BUT ONLY A FT E R THEIR N A I LS. NO GESTURE OF SELF-DEFENCE. H E R EYES W E R E FOCU S E D U N B L I N K I NG LY ON W H ATEV E R WAS B E FORE T H E M . A N D T H E T R E M B L I NG OF MY FI NGERS HAD ABATED.

I NTO A DEEP S L.L.L. 1 152 . TH E FOUNTA I N S ON T H E SQU A R E. 27. STOPS TH EN CROSSES THE SQU A R E. ANONYMOUS A U THOR TRAN SLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE S M E L. 26. S E E N F R O M R E A R W A L. SLIGHTLY D I S H EVELLED. DECAY. THOSE WASTED STRIPS OF S K I N . 28 THE COLO N N A D E OF THE GA LLERY: R.L. I S SEATED AT A TABLE. W A L K I N G A S TH ROUGH NOT S U R E OF H E R STEPS.Y. STEPS OF THE COR P U L E N T MAN. E E P THAT NO D R E A M 23.-WIPES THE TABLE. FL. NOW M I N G L. REPUDIATING A L. AL. 25.L. I N G WITH HER DEAD DI STU R B E D .ESH AND MY OWN PISS WITH ITS SMEL.M. 28 BIS.S U D D E N L. T H E WAITER MOVES TOW A R D R. FADE O U T -SO U N D OF R:S STEPS U N D E R THE ARCADES. A PP E A RS. I FEL. K I N G UP THE G A L L E R Y U N D E R A RC A D ES. T H E G A L L. 28 TER. R. E R Y MONTPE N S I E R .. THE CLOCK ON T H E SQU A R E OF TH E T H EATRE FRANC A I S M A R K I NG 15 P.L. 24. THE TERRACE OF T H E REGENCY CAFE WHERE R. 29.

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-' A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . BUT A S TO B E L I E V I N G H I M S E L F THE ORIGIN ATOR OF MY T E M P E R A M E NT. . . Irs NOW THE PLE A S U R E BEG I N S F O R M E .T H E PA R A L L E L B A R S EXTE R I O R PA R I S DAYLIGHT GYM N A S I U M I N T E R IOR DAYLIG HT. ROB E R T E . S H E LOOKS AT T H E FOUNTA I N S ON THE SQU A R E AND STROK ES HER W R I STS. I N FRONT OF THE CAFE LE N E M OURS. W A S M Y PLEA S U R E A N Y THE L E S S FOR THAT? ROBE RTE S M I LES TABLE. THE GARDENS OF TH E PA L A I S-ROY A L AND ITS FOUNTA I N S PLAYI NG. VOICE I S H E A R D O F F STAGE. I N S E RT I N G H E R F I NG E RS U N D E R THE L A C E OF H E R GLOV ES. ON A TABLE 1 154 . . D R E A M I LY A N D R ETU R N S TO SIT AT H E R AGAI N ST T H E COLON N A D E O F T H E PA LAI S-ROYAL. ROBERTE·S . TURNS AWAY WITHOUT S E E I NG HIM. B E H A V I O U R . . . CONC E R N E D BY HIS C Ll ENrs ODD A G A ( N ST THOSE TWO M E N ? IF TH E Y FOU N D SOM E WRETC H E D PL E A S U R E . WHAT H A V E I GOT ROBE RTE (VO( C E OFF) : THAT OCTAVE SHOULD H A V E T H E I N CONC E I V A B L E A R ROGA N C E T O I M A G I N E H E I S T H E A U THOR OF MY I M PROP R I E T I E S IS O N E TH I NG . WAITER. THE POOR DEAR DOESN'T KNOW WHAT I'M CAPABLE OF WITHOUT H I M . N E A R B Y S H E H A S L E FT THE TEA THAT HAS B E E N BROUGHT T O H E R A N D H E R BAG. . . ST A N D I N G IN THE SUN. HER BACK S H E TA K E S A POCK E T M I R ROR FROM H E R BAG AND LOOKS A T H E RS E LF. C O M E S OVERo T O H E R . THE I S I T POSSIBLE A WOM A N S E E K S TO EXPE R I E N C E A V IOLENT S E N S E OF S H A M E J U ST BECA U S E S H E'S RESPECTABLE? I REMEMBER I WAS ASHAMED W A I T E R : A R E YO. ROB E RTE (VO I C E OFF): A FT E R A LL.

THE SQUAT M A N DOES T H E S A M E FOR H E R A N KLES. AND WI THOUT HOPE OF E SC A P I N G FROM HIS DETERMI N E D GRASP. TH ROWS HER LIKE A STRAW OVER HIS SHOULDERS. M A N OF T H E A M E R I C A N C A R. ROBERTE I M M E DATELY CLOSES H E R EYES. F U LL OF U N K NOWN FOR M S T H A T SH I N E I N T H E HALF-LIGHT. A N D A NTOI N E . U N A BLE TO R E S I ST. S H E HITS HARD AT H I M . TI ED H A N D I SS . T O R N O F F H E R S K I RT. INTERMINABLE PASSAGEWAY T O T H E LEADS TO A TOP O F A STARICASE W H I C H VAST A N D E E R I E ROOM. CASUA LLY. THEN. AS A MASSIVE INDIVIDUAL TAKES UP HIS POS I T I O N ROBERTE CONTI N U E S SHE HER W I N DOW-S H O P P I NG. H A V I N G F I R ST. S H E P L A C E S H E R GLOV E D H A N D ON T H E R A I L. HIS H A N DS SPLAYED SHE F I N DS A PLACE IN TH E SUN WH E R E HER SHE FACE ACROSS H E R THIGHS. T H E I N DI V I DUAL. W I T H A S I N G L E G E ST U R E . LOOM TWO PA R A L L E L BARS. THE SQUAT M A N . LOST IN REVERIE. H A S W A I T E D F O R THIS M O M E N T T O THROW A L L T H E L I G H T REQU I R E D ON THE SCE N E OF E V E N TS. A LTHOUGH H A N D AWAY A N D GOES T O S I T I N S I D E T H E BUS. A LARGE COLON I A L FAN SLOWLY B EG I N S TO T U R N JUST ABOVE T H E M . C ROSSES HER LEGS AND R U N N I NG A H E A D OF TH E M . R O B E RTE I M M E D I AT E LY P U L LS HER I M M EDIATELY BY T H E MOLLUSK. I M M E N S E ON A L E A D BASE. THROUGH A DARK PORCHWAY. H E CATC H ES U P WITH H E R . TH E N D I SA P P E A R S . WALKS B E S I D E H E R FOR A M O M E NT. ENJOYING THE BREEZE ON FROM T H E OPEN W I N DOW. IN T H E M I DDLE O F W H I C H . HE TOUC H E S H E R F I N G E R S : ROBERTE WITHDRAWS HER HAND. WORK-SHOP IN AN A B A N DO N E D FACTORY. CAUGHT I N D I G N A NT. R E LAXES. ROBERTE R U N S TOWARD THE STA I RC A S E . WHOSE H E AVY B O D Y A N D FACE A R E R E M I N I SCENT O F A MOLLUSK. RISKS A STEP I N TO T H E D A R K N ESS. S H E PASSES A LO N G T H E GALLERY LOOK I N G I NTO SHOP-WINDOWS. PORCHWA Y T H E BESIDE HER. WHO. WATC H ES H E R . OBSERVI NG HER AT L E I S U R E OUT OF T H E CORN E R OF H I S EYE. AS ROBE RTE. TOW A R D ROBE RTE'S ABA NDON E D GLOOM Y HA LL. LITTLE SCHOOLBOY X. S H E I S C A R R I E D A LONG A N TH E MOLLUSK. WHEN TH E BUS STOPS AT T H E COM E D I E F R A N C A I S E ROBERTE G E T S O F F Q U I C K LY. T O H E R F U R Y. NOW S H E CAN B E SEEN T H ROUGH T H E COLON N A D E OF T H E RUE DE MONTPE N S I E R IN THE P A LA I S­ W H I L E TH E MOLLUSK F I R M LY ATTAC H E S ROBE RTE'S WRISTS TO THE BARS BY M EA N S OF THE LEATH E R STRAPS. T H E MOLLUSK DELIBER­ ATELY PUTS HIS F I N G E R S ON THOSE OF ROBERTE. S L I D E S H I S FINGERS I M PERCEPTIBLY H A N D. B E FORE SHE HAS TIME TO CRY OUT A DOOR IN FRONT OF HER I S OPE N E D BY A N I N T E RLOPER WHO BARS THE ACCESS. HER LEGS LAZI LY APART. S H E RECOG N I Z E S T H E SQUAT TH E N . H E TURNS ON THE SWITCH AND I LLU M I N ATES TH E ROO M : IT I S A OVER THE SHOT OF ROBE RTE C LOS I N G H E R EYES IS S U P E R I M POSED A S HOT O F T H E PARALLEL BARS FROM WHICH TWO LEATH E R STR A PS A R E H A N G I NG . WHO H A S WATC H E D H E R F ROM T H E PLATFOR M . THEN PASSES HER AND GOES OSTE N S I BLY BUS: S H E WATC H E S T H E PASS I N G SC E N E AS T H E B U S TRAVELS F RO M TH E C H A M B E R OF DEPUTI ES V I A THE PONT ROYA L TOWA R D T H E LOU V R E .BACK V I E W OF ROBERTE ON T H E PLATFORM OF A B E H I N D H E R C A N BE H E A R D TH E FOOTSTEPS OF T H E MOLLUSK. SO THAT BEFORE SHE K N OWS WHAT HAS H A PP E N E D ROBERTE F I N D S H E R S E LF. W H E N REACHES THE HA LF-OPEN DOOR I S S U C H A B U RN I NG I N V I TATION SHE C A N NOT R ESIST O P E N I N G IT. ROYAL. THE BARRED BY THE I M POSI NG S I LHOU ETTE MOLLUSK. WHEN THE DOOR BANGS LOU D L Y BEHIND OF HER. WHO H A S FOLLOWED H E R . SHE FINDS H ERSELF IN A DELAPI DATED AND WATC H E S TH E R I V E R A N D THE T R E E S G O BY. NOW COM E S A N D SITS DOWN OPPOSITE. W E A R I N G T H E S A M E U N I FO R M AS L I TT L E F.

STR E A M I N G WITH WATER. THEN. . ROBERTE: PUT OUT THE LIGHT TH EN . ITS MOV E M ENT S LOW I N G A N D C H A NG I N G LITTLE BY LITTLE I NTO A LANGUOR­ OUS U N D U LATION OF THE K N E E . S H A DOW OF A R EC L I N I NG BODY SLIDES DOW N : IT I S L I TTLE X . OPE N I NG HER BAG TO TA K E OUT THE POC K E T M I RROR. THE TH E SQUAT M A N AND THE GLASS RETURNS. THE COAT OF H E R S U I T PIECES ON TH E TILED FLOOR. WITHOUT A WORD. COLLA PSES I N A DEAD F A I N T O N TH E FLOOR. . SHOC K E D BY HIS P I E R R E K LOSSOW S K I TRAN SLATED SY CATH E RI N E D U N C A N GARDENS OF THE PA L A I S. THE CARD BEARS A FACSI M I L E OF HER OWN F I N G E R P R I NTS.A N D FOOT TO THE BARS. S U PE R I M POSED O V E R THE W O R D O F FOR A MOM ENT SHE OPENS H E R EYES TO M E ET T H E I M PLACABLE MA I N TA I N S THE GAZE HOLD OF THE SQUAT MAN WHO S H E PLACES T H E CARD ON THE TABLE A N D T A K E S OUT H E R POC K E T M I R R O R . ROSERTE (VOI C E OFF): HOW SOOTH I N G T H E PLA Y OF TH E FOU N TA I N S U N D E R TH E PLANE TREES. HER LEG IS NO W H E R E A C U P O F TEA A N D TWO CROI SSANTS A R E WAITING. ROBE RTE PUTS ON S U D D E N LY F E E LS HORRIBLY A LONE. LOST IN REVERIE. WHEN E MOTI ON. A N D W H I L E WITH THE H I G H H E E L OF ON E F R E E FOOT WHICH THE SQUAT SHE MAN HAS TO NEGLECTED AWAY TO ROBERTE. S M I L E S AT H E R I N SO L E NTLY. R E P U L S I NG THE MOLLUSK WITH T H E S A M E E N ERGY. S H E T U R N S SLOWLY. S H E LOOKS U P AT THE G L ASS DOME ABOVE HER WHERE TH E HOW EXQUISITE T H E C I TY I N ITS RE FLECTIONS . STR OKES H E R W R I STS A N D GOES TO SIT DOWN AT THE TA B L E ROBE RTE LONG E R CLOSES CAPABLE HER OF EYES. S H E S E E S A R E D C A R D SLI PPED I N S I DE.R OY A L AND ITS FOUNTA I N S . T H E S Q U A T M A N I M M E D I ATELY D R A G S H I M A W A Y . R O B E R T E M U R M URS: S H E EXA M I N E S IT. FINGERS BY AND WITH E M OTI O N WAIT E R : A R E Y O U A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . W I THOUT S E E I NG H I M . UNTIES ROBE RTE AND DISAP­ PEARS BY THE STA I RCASE. I N SO L E N C E . . H E D E L I CATELY RE MOVES THE ROBERTE'S ONE. GOD: " I N PRI N C I P I O E RAT VERBUM HIS QUITE U N N ECESSA R I LY ON IN A CLIMAX OF FETTE R E D ANKLE. F I X E S H I S TON G U E AGAI NST I T A N D B E G I N S T O TITI LLATE TH E PALM WITH I N C R E A S I N G V I OLENCE. OPENS HER C O LO N N A D E OF CAFE COV E R I N G ONE I N T E R R U PT E D B Y T H E WA ITE R'S VOI C E . TH E SQUAT MAN D R A P E D OVER H E R S U S P E N D E R BE LT. HAND. H E SLI PS T H E R E D C A R D I N TO H E R B A G A N D POU R S A G LASS O F B R A N DY. L E FT ALONE WITH TH E BARS IN THE HER D E S E RTED S K I RT AND GYM N A S I U M . . H A NDS H E R H E R BAG OF B R A N DY . A P PROACHES H I S MOUTH TO H E R OPEN PA L M . THE MOLLUSK LETS GO HER H A N D A N D S H E L OO K S AT H E RS E L F A N D S M I LES. THE BACK LE AGAI NST T H E NEMOURS IS IMMOBILIZE MOLLU SK'S GLOVE TRIES PUSH THE BODY. . ROBE RTE SLAPS H I S F A C E W I T H SUCH FORCE THE G L ASS FALLS AND SPLINTERS TO 1 56 .

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TWE N TY I NC H E S D E E P. SHE IS IN F I N ALLY. PU LLS OFF HIS LAST S H RE D S O F CLOTH I NG. HIM ENTER H E A D FI RST. SECONDS FEEL LIKE HOURS. ABOUT F I FTEEN. OPERATED WITH A C R A NK. 1 158 . THE CAGE. G A R T E R S . ORDINARY G R E E N I S H ·G R A Y HE I S S H I RT YOUR M I STRESSI THATS THE WAY Y O U W A N T ITI I N RAGSI" S H E I S S U D D E N LY A N I MATED. M A R K E D ' P EGI' I RO N WORK E R FROM T H E R U E D E S PETITS-C H A M PS. BUT T H I S ONE WORKS!). W H I C H C A N PULL TH E L I M BS OF TH E VICTI M UNTIL H E I S QUA RTERED. W H E R E T H E VICTI M M A Y BE 'PU N I S H E D' FOR FIVE HOURS ST R A I G H T . N EXT. T H E TOR N SH I RT R A S P S L I K E FABRIC I N A D E S I G N E R'S WORK ROOM. F I N A LLY. F A C E AGAI NST THE FLOOR. FOLDED I N QUARTE RS. "YOU'RE LUCKY. THERE H E WILL FIND. S O F T M O A N S . W H I P. SHE T U R N S TOWA RDS US. N EEDLES. AN X. FOR C H I L D R E N -ODDLY. FOR WILD A N I M ALS. VINCENNES. HE'S W EA R I NG HIS RAGS. CLI PS.

E V E N THOUGH TH E FILES WERE O F F I C I A LLY S TO P P E D ON BLOOD. Q U E STIONS COME TO M I N D . A LCOHOL WOU N D S . H A LF-ADM I R I NG . WHO SOM E . BUT C U STOM E R S ARE EXCEPTION: O N E . N O TORT U R E O N THE W H E E L OR THE C ROSS. THAT. TWO OUT O F IT-HOW SHOULD THERE ARE AND I PUT IT­ OF THREE ONLY REACH THROUGH COU R S E . NO SEWING. P R ACTIC A L QU ESTIONS. IS WHAT ONE N EE D S TO KNOW OF GENERA LLY. T H E N I P PLES. REVEALED-RIDING W H I P IN WITH A TIRED H E R." EIGHT ON THAT STR E E n . "YOU W I LL BE S L A V E 84. IN THAT CASE. H ER ABSOLUTE MINIMUM PRICE AT WHATE V E R P U N I S H M E NT IS DRAWN. THATS W H Y THE G I R LS l S9 . REDUCED TO THE O N E·TI M E S I M PLEST EXPRES· TH E E X P LA I N ." MANY O F TH E M ARE THERE? "REGULA RS. T H E Y PAY B Y THE MONTH . "THATS T H E M I RACLE. 1 960. COURSE. I N OUR VOC A BU LA RY." 84 W I L L TH E N CHOOSE FROM T H E OUTFITS O N T H E W A L L T H E O N E WHICH H E WILL WEAR DURING HIS P U N I S H MENT. "NOW YOU CAN REA LLY SAY YOU'RE LUCKY: YOU DREW T H E E A S I EST P U N I S H M E N T!" O N L Y A FT E R TH I S W I L L JAC K I E I N FO R M TH E CUSTO M E R OF H I S N U M BE R ." OF A HUNDRED E X A M PLES-LICK THE R E C E I V E FI FTY SOLES O F T H E M I STRESS' BOOTS. TWO OTH E R S O N TH E R U E Q U I NCAM· PO I X (TEN YEARS AGO THERE WERE SEVEN OR T H E M . THE H A N D . JACKIE WILL AVERAGE T I M E : O N E HOU R. A PRIVATE CHAT WITH A H IG H POLICE O F F I C I A L : '. A N D T H E OTH ERS? W ELL. W H O M B E FO R E DRAWS A S M A L L P I E C E OF PAPER HELP A LITTLE. THEY DON'T HAVE BECAUSE A BO U T S LI C K . IT M I G H T SAY-TH I S IS R U B B E R GLOVES. G E N E R AL LY. W H I C H H E W I L L H A V E T O R E M E M B E R F O R FUTURE V I S I TS. T H R E E DAYS LATER. T H E OBJ ECT-HAS BEEN C A R EF U LLY BOU N D TO AVOI D ANY R I S K OF REBELLION THERE TABLE IS AND GAGG E D TO OF A STIFLE IT T H E C R I ES. THEY HOW DESC R I PTION A N D SPECIFY THAT M O R E T H A N HALF O F T H E V I SITORS A S K TO B E SEWN WITH N E ED L E AND T H R E A D . U N FOLDS O N L Y ONE IT AND R E A DS. L I M ITED W H I P P I N G . THEY ARE ON F I L E H E R E . T H E Y A R E DANGEROUS. C U S TO M E R K N EELS D O T H E M SELVES KNOWN FOR A S E V E R A L. TOO. A NOTH E R SESSION? S ETS QU ESTION: THOUGH WHAT IS TH E NO COST OF A HELL HAS PRICE. I H A V E TO B U Y SURGEON'S G LOVES. LEGS CROSSED. U S U A LLY W I TH H I S TEETH. THE COST OF S U F F E R I N G I S C A LCULATED BY J A C K I E ON AN INDIVIDUAL BASIS. ANY JACKIE: MORE. U N LESS HE ASKS A BOUT THE W H I T E WOOD T R E STLE TABLE. WHICH PAY HER A ON LY T H E BEGI N N E R RISKS A S K I N G Q U E STIONS. STA I N E D WITH LONG BLACK M A R KS . T H E TESTICLES (TO TH E TH IGHS)." S A Y S JACKIE. H E W I L L U S U A LLY B E A N S W E R E D WITH A W H I P. THUS. OF T H E OTH ERS." AFTER THE S U BJECT-RATH E R . FOR OUR AIM HERE I S NOT TO A TT E M PT TO ENTER I NT O THE WHY OF THIS UNLIKELY FORM OF "CONC E R N I NG T H E 'WH I P P I NG SPEC I A LI STS: WHAT WE FEAR MOST I S T H E R E VOLT O F O N E OF THE VOLUNTARY M A RTYRDOM. THEY CUSTOM E R S . "A NYWAY. F I RST O F A LL: HOW DO THE VICTI M S R E A C H ORG A S M . E V E RYTH I N G D R I E D U P. BUT WITH THEM. L I K E MOST OF TH E OTH E R PROSTITUTES. LAS H E S B E H I N D THE K N E E S FROM A BLACK WH I P. J AC K I E $ 50 . WITH TH E VOICE OF A HOME FIXED SUM V A R I ES-AT LEAST $ 1 500 A N D $250 AND ACCOR D I N G $ 2 500. ENTITLES O N E T O A N U N L I M ITED N U M BER OF V I SITS .JACK I E SITS ON A THRONE PLAC E D ON A SHAKY P L A T FO R M . E V E RYON E I S SATI S F I E D W I T H O N E T O TH R E E V I S I TS PER MONTH. ONE H O U R IN THE BOX. ONE ON T H E R U E D E LA REYNIE. THEY A R E CA P A B L E OF M U R D E R . I ALWAYS W E A R FROM T H E P E NC I L BOX. PI M PS I N D EED. THE U S U A L GOAL OF A VISIT TO A PROSTITUTE? J A C K I E'S A N SW E R : "MORE THA N HALF LEAVE WITHOUT REACH I NG IT. LET'S A B A N DO N THE FALSE OBJ ECTIVITY OF BUT. BETW E E N ONE H U N D R E D A N D O N E H U N D R E D A N D TWENTY. THE OPERATIONS OBVIOUSLY ONLY TAKE PLACE COULDN'T TA K E P H Y S I CA L LY.B E TW E E N OTH E R S PAY BETW E E N D E P E N D I NG O N T H E I R M E A NS.H E GI R LS L I K E T H O S E YOU A R E T A L K I N G A BOUT. WHO HOLD I M PORTA N T POS ITIONS I N BUS I N E S S MONTHLY AND IN GO V E R N M E N T . COTTON SOA K E D NOVEMB E R 2 5 . LOOK. ROUGH LY. IS THE BUT C OV E R E D BIT OF BY DON. JAC K I E E X P LA I N S. THE CRACK O F THE BUTTOCKS. THE MONTHLY PAYMENT ECONOM I ST. I'M R U N S O N THE STATES IN ("NEVER LOT. WE KNOW THEM A LL . EVEN TRY. E Y E S GLAZED. WHOM I SLICKERS-NEVER LEAST SKIN SCATOLOGY. D I A LOGU E SIONS. THEY EARN A LOT OF M O N EY. THEY DON'T C O M E I N B L A C K . SIX OF T H E M . AT MOST TWO P E R DAY. "TH E Y L E A V E I N SH REDS A N D T H E Y R ETU R N . N O T T H E O N E S F O R DOI NG T H E D I S H E S . UNTIL T H E Y HAVE REACHED T H E PEAK OF T H E I R PLEA S U R E . THAT I T I S A SEWING TABLE. I HAVE LONG T I M E. $ 1 000 THE T O J A C K I E . H A LF SCOR N F U L. C A R E F U L" JACKIE!. LOTS THEY A R E M O R E I NT E LLI G E NT THAN THE A V E RAGE PROSTITUTE. TH E Y AT 200· I S S U F F I C I E N T TO C A UTERIZE A R E 'WH I P P I N G S P EC I A LI STS: T H E R E'S O N E O N T H E R U E BLO N D E L .J A C K I E ' S ACTIV I T I E S .

"SOMETI M E S I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A LION T H A T C A U S E S T E R R I BLE TROUBLE. I H A D TO F I N D SOM ETH I NG : A N A I D AT A C L I N IC I N BOURG. BUT WH AT? W H O S E E K T O COM B I N E T H E WHI P W I TH THOSE OF THE "WELL. . SPITE O F THE WOR K I NG T H E STRE ET. THATS WHAT I E A R N ED. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO A NYTH I NG RIGHT: S O I CONFESS TO MY MOTH E R . H E WA R N E D M E THAT H E WANTED NONE O F T H AT. CROWD IS E S P EC I A LLY SUCH ON SAT U R D A Y S . THE A RA B PI M PS I N 1 60 . DO I N G . I N A B A K E RY. ACCOUNTING E V E RYTH I N G I DO N ' T GIVE F I R M I N A N OTH E R N E IG H BOR­ I'VE A DON E . THE ROD AND THE N E I G H BOR WOMAN FROM THE LITTLE STR E ET ON THE LEFT-I . . A L L OF T H I S D I D N 'T LAST LONG. A L L ALONE. OR (MORE OFTEN ) T O I N ITI ATE H E R T O THE PLEASURES OF SUFFERI NG. THAT TH E OTH E R WOMAN I S A C U STOM E R L I K E T H E OTH ERS . SO THEY LAUGH ALL THE T I M E : THE MORE T H E GUYS SUFFER." SHE SAYS. I ' M SIXTEEN W H E N I GET P R E G N ANT. CASE OF CAN E X P L A I N E D TO T H E POLICE. I GOT A JOB. "TH EY A R E N'T TRICKY. T H E FAT H E R OF M Y KID WAS THE ONLY MAN I KNEW S E X U A LLY. THE MORE THEY LAUGH. W H E N I FOU N D OUT I T R E A LLY WORKS. AT THOSE T I M ES. C A N NOT H A N D L E SHE CALLS ON A IT. H E'S A GOOD K I D. A N OLD E R G U Y. SO. . NOR EVEN WITH K I DS M Y OWN AGE. TH EY'RE P I SS E D TOO. OFTEN. DEVOTED T O THOSE C U STO M E R S PLEA S U R E S OF T H E G ROUP. A FTER WORK. EXPLA I N TO A TWENTY-TH R E E YEAR OLD I N S PEC­ TOR. . I GAVE B I RT H O N M Y SEVENTE ENTH B I RTHDAY. TH E R E ARE WITHOUT QU ESTION . I D I D N 'T GET A LONG W I T H E I T H E R OF TH E M . I J U ST M A NAGED TO GET BY. SOM E OF T H E M W E A R B LACK VELVET M A S K S I N ORDER T O R E MA I N ANONYMOUS. "BUT THAT DOESN'T LAST LONG.T I E THEM UP S E C U R E L Y A N D R E LE A S E TH EM ONLY WHEN THEY ARE COM P LETELY C A L M E D DOW N. CLEVER SYSTEM OF M UTU A L D I SCIPLI N E WHICH SHE D E M A N DS. AT THRITEEN I FELL I N LOV E. I WOULD HAVE L I K E D TO L E A R N . I WAS U S U A L LY ABOUT A DO Z E N M E N W H O 'SU B M I T A N D S U F F E R TOGETH E R . JAC K I E RARELY AGREES. I M I SSED M Y PREY. M A R R I E D A N D A LL. WITH T H E HELP OF AN OLD F R I E N D F R O M THE HOM E FOR R E M A I N CLOS E D A S LONG A S T H E R E IS ON LY ONE " P R I E STESS. $50 PER MONTH . M Y FATH E R WAS A CONTRAC­ TOR.A R E THREE O'C LOC K TO EIGHT LACK OF USE-IS LOOK. I'M GOI N G T O DO I T TOO. I'LL START AT THE B EG I N N I NG. I FOU N D A JOB ON THE CAGE. HOWEVER. M Y SON W I L L BE TH I RT E E N N EXT OCTOB ER. BUT THE N U RSES GOT $ 1 00. "A S S O M ETI M E S . W H E R E C O U L D I G O ? A HOM E F O R U N W E D M OT H E RS. WHOSE BE PR ESENCE. ALLOWED TO B R I N G TH E I R EITHER TO BE W H I PPED BY HER IN TH I S SETTI NG. ." BOU L E V A R D R I C H A RD-LENOI R . AND. R E N E ." SETTING: TH E THRONE ROOM. J U ST OUT OF LAW SCHOOL. H E WOR K E D I N I M PORT-EXPORT. C E R TA I N C U STO M E R S W I V ES. THERE WERE G I R LS THAT J A C K I E . BEG TO BE I WAS THREE MONTHS PREGNANT WHEN I A R R I VED. AND TRY TO U N W E D MOTH ERS. T H A T Y O U H A V E T O G E T U N D E R T H E S H E ETS WITH HIM. HE D I D N 'T GET A LONG WITH MY MOTH ER. "TH E Y TRACK MEl BUT BASICALLY I LIKE THEMI T H E LAST TIME I WENT ON VACATION ALONE-USUALLY I A LWAYS HAVE ONE OR TWO OF THEM WHO COME FOR T H E W E E K END: I MAKE THEM STAY FOR WHOLE DAYS IN T H E OUTHOU SES AT THE BACK OF THE GARDEN -AT T H E END OF TEN DAYS. WELL T H E N . . JACKI E. T H E N IN AN HOOD. I F I N D OUT A L I TT L E ABOUT HOW M UC H THEY MAKE. OR THE CLEANING I M M ED I ATELY I SAY TO M YSELF. IN THE "IN FRONT OF THE BAR. I WANTED TO COME HOME. SO. J AC K I E G E N ERA LLY LIM ITS H E RSELF TO G I V I N G DI RECTI O N S A N D S U C C E EDS IN H A V I N G H E R CUSTOMERS THEM SELVES TORTURE T H E I R C H A I N E D BROTH ERS.LA. NOW THAT D I SGU STS M E . O N E OF THE ODDITI E S OF PROSTITUTION L EG I S L A T I O N IS THAT ITS E Y E S W H E N I LEFT THE HOME. W E D N E SDAY AND SATU R DAYS-FROM O'CLOC K .R E I N E F O R RICH P R EG N A N T WOM E N . WITH THIS. AT A B A R IN BELLEVI LLE.E. TELLING HER LIFE STO R Y . . K ." W H E R EA S TH E PRESENCE OF ANOTH E R WOMAN I M M E DIATELY OPENS THE DOOR TO PROSECUTION FOR P ROC U R I NG . O. T W I C E A W E E K. SO I LEAVE. EROTIC SHE A LSO A M ONG REQU I R ES TH E M T O PLAY TH E M S E LV E S A N D O N L Y GAMES GRABS TH E W H I P H E RS E L F W H E N TH I N G S GET OUT OF H A N D . BUT I ' M A FOOL. I HAVE THE I D EA THAT YOU STAY FOR HOURS WITH T H E S A M E GUY. THAT YOU HAVE TO TALK TO H I M . WHAT I REGRET IS NOT H A V I N G E D UCATION. BUT YOU CAN SEE THAT THEY'RE A M ATEURS. I M M E D I ATELY I SAY YES. DAMN AN E V E R YT H I N G I'M A BOUT IT. THIS IS TO L E R A T E D BUT N OT BORN IN N O R M A N DY. IN PARIS. A PENSIVE S O M ETH I N G A BOUT H E R G A Z E . FAST. "TH EY'RE T I M ID. SEATED ON TH E N A R ROW SOFA W H I C H oo U B L E S AS A BED-DNE H A S THE I M PRESSION THAT I T HAS SHRUNK FROM GROUP D I SC I P L I N E AT J A C K I E·S. BUT I H A V E N O E X P E R I E NCE." SAYS JAC K I E WITH A BIG HOW I N D U LGENT S M I LE. PLUS. I'M INTRIGUED. W E LCOMED." EDGE OF T H E BED. ON SOM EON E FROM IN TH E N E I G H BORHOOD T ROU B L E .

WASN'T MEAT TH I RTY T H R O W S A T TEN BUCKS. • • ARTICLES. I TOLD HIM ABOUT M Y S P EC I A LTIES IN PA RIS. IN MARSEI LLES. B ETT E R FOR SHOU LDN'T H A V E D R U N K WITH M E . THEN H E TELLS M E . IT WAS MY GUY FROM PA R I S . . ON THE GROUND. A ROUND UTTLE BY L I TTLE. BUT A FT E R SEVERAL DAYS "WHERE WAS I? YES. 'THAT W I L L COST YOU A C-NOTE: YOU "AFTER ALL T H AT. I SAY NO. I MOVE IN. A L I M O PULLS UP. THEY FIGURE OUT T H A T TH E Y CA N'T TOUCH ME. I ' L L A LWAYS R E M E M B E R M Y F I RST D A Y TH E R E . I H A D TO GET M A R R I ED: A YEARS OLD. I WAS "O N E F I N E DAY I H A D H A D ENOUGH.J E A LOUS GUY. BETW E E N TOPOL A N D T H E R U E Q U I N C A M PO I S . WAS A C A F E TERRACE. ONLY . H E LPED NEVER M E. A I HAD SOM E FRIENDS BAD. HE GOT U N DRESSED. THE WORDS. I W A S A K I D. PUT A H U N D R E D B U C K S I N A N E N V E LOPE A N D B R I N G I T T O T H E DOOR . ON MY H A N DS A N D KNEES. I HAVE TO M A R R Y H I M . I WENT. TO CONTI N U E. BEGG I NG ME TO STOP. BUT S H E W A S FRIGID. I GOT THOUGH. THE FANCIEST OF THEM ALL. W H AT'S OF THEY BEAT CUSTOM E R S TAUGHT M E. SEE. OF A WELL I IT H A PPEN E D SITTING ON ONE FO U R T E E N T H .J E A LOUSI STREET AND SLAPPED M E A S I WALKED BY-I NSTEAD OF BEING H APPY THAT I W A S WORKI NG-BECA U S E H E SAID I C A M E l T E R R I B LY . TH E R E BUT. TH E OTH E R GIRLS GOT . I STAYED THERE. R U E DES FRANCS-BOURGEOIS. ·WH E N LITTLE I RECOV E RED. T H E R E H E WAS. AFTE R D I N N E R . T H E C H E E K-BO N E . LITTLE DANCE H ALL. I HE C A N'T SPIED SAY ON HE ME WASN'T I N THE NICE.F I V E SIC I U A N . I COULDN'T TH R E E R E S I ST. IT WAS TWO O'CLOCK I N TH E MOR N I NG. IT D I D N 'T WORK. I K N O W T H A T Irs F O R M E . TELLS ME THAT IF I'M NOT M A R R I ED. BUT I A L R E ADY KNEW TRA N S LATED BY CHARLES CLARK 161 .BELLEVILLE. TH E R E W A S SUDDENLY NOBODY LEFT I N T H E DANCE H A LL. B A RTE N D E R . ONCE. A N D M Y STRENGTH.J UST T O S P I T E H I M . . I T WAS O N T H E R U E A U B R Y-LE-BOUC H E R . T H E Y W A N T TOO MUCH. T H E F I R ST. NOT BAD FOR A PROSTITUTE. POOR WOM A N I LIKE I WANTED TO SEE H I M . K . B U T H E WAS FLA B B E RGASTED. AND.J U LY . • • • I W A S N 'T EVEN T W E N TY-O N E . AT THIS TI M E . TOMORROW AT SIX: I WENT TH E R E WITH T H E E N V E LOPE BUT I NS I D E I H A D P U T TOILET P A P E R• . . NOT FOR MEl FROM THE BEGI N N I NG. ESPECIALLY BECAUSE OF WHAT I WAS WEA R I NG. I PAID A P R O T E CT I O N FEE OF $2 500. S O I ACTED T W E N T Y. THEY S T I L L T R I E D T O G ET M E A S SOON A S I LEFT THE HOSPITAL. HIS EYES BULGED. T H E THEM. A N A R A B WHO BUYS M E A DRINK A T TH E BAR. BOTH ANKLES • • • FROM U N I Q U E ABOUT M E I S M Y GAZE. I SPECI A L I ZED. FINA LLY. L I K E EVERYON E ELSE. FOR HOW LONG? I H A V EN'T MADE LOVE WITI:I A CUSTOMER FOR TH R E E AND A HALF YEARS. SO. WE HAD D I N N E R . I WENT TO TH E R U E Q U I N C A M POIS. WITH THE H E L P OF A F R I E N D . I WASN'T WOR R I E D ABOUT THE A R A BS. THE B U LLET GOES THROUGH M Y SHOU LDER A N T E A R S U P M Y C H I N . HE D I D N 'T KNOW WHAT H E WANTED. I HAD ONLY BEEN TH E R E TWO DAYS WHEN GUYS THE LIMO LEFT. WELL O. A SHOULDER.J E A LOUS. -I CHANGED HOTELS I M M ED I ATELY. THI NGS W E R E GOING VERY W ELL. I WHO WAS THE ONE WHO PA I D FOR TH E HOTEL. I GO TO LES H A LL E S WITH A FRI E N D WHO KNOWS A HOT E L IT WAS BETTER TO ROUGH UP A GUY FOR TO G E T F U C K E D ALL DAY F O R T H I R TYI $ 50 THAN M A N A G E R . A N D BECAUSE O F M Y DOUGH. I MET MY SON'S FATH E R IN DIEPPE. I'VE GOT M Y PLACE. HE WANTED TO S L E E P WITH M E . I ESCAPED TO M A R S E I LLES. I M A D E IT T O A TAXI A N D WENT T O T H E HOSPITAL A L L A LONE. MY TH E R E HEAD WERE IN . H E WAS T R E M B L I NG. I HAD THE BLACK D R ESS AND HIGH H E ELS. A LL THAT CAME SEVERAL TEETH. S O OF COURSE. A FRI E N D OF THE HOTEL M A N A G E R . A N D I TREATED HIM LIKE A CUSTOM E R . I STAYED W I TH HIM. I DON'T REMEMBER TO WHOM . EVEN THOUGH H E H A D A W O M A N ON TH E S I D E . I WOULD H A V E B E E N HIT RIGHT I N THE H E A D I f' I H A DN'T STOOD U P. H E DIDN'T WANT T O TA K E ANY. I BAR ELY H A V E T I M E TO GET UP. THAT Irs FORBIDDEN. TH E M . WITH H I M . I TH I N K. T H E I N ST R U M ENTS. THE F I R S T C U STOM E R S A I D TO M E : ' C A N YOU DO A QUICKI E?' I A N S W E R ED: 'WHArs THAT?' I D I DN'T K N OW A N YT H I N G . IT'S FUNNIER. SHOWED U P. I G O T O U T A N D C A M E B A C K TO PA R I S . H E W A S F U N N Y THAT WAY:' B U S I N ESS RACK. I W ASN'T AS STRONG THEN A S I AM TODAY.

M R. M A N Y OTH E R FACTORS PLA Y E D A PART I N H I S DECISION TO S E E M E A S I S H A L L I N D ICATE LATE R ON. AND A T THE SAME TIME TO BETTER U N D E RSTA N D A BO U T H I S C U RIOUS STATUS. M. C U RIOSITY H I M S E LF BEEN SATI S F I E D: H E H A D R E A D A L L TH E R E WAS O N T H E SUBJ ECT OF M A SOCH I S M A N D HAD ALWAYS B E E N DISA PPOI NTED I N H I S F I N DI NGS. HIS E M PLOYERS HELD DISCOVERED H I M A FT E R H E HAD CONS U LTED H E R A BOUT A H EMOPTYSI S W H I C H PROVED T O B E O F H I M I N S U C H H IG H ESTEE M THAT H E WAS ABLE TO OBTA I N S P EC I A L WOR K I N G C O N D I T I O N S . M Y COLLEAGU E E XA M I N E D HIM AND MADE A C A R E F U L INVENTORY O F A L L PERVERSE PRACTICES: SHE P A R T I C U LA R A R R A N G E M E N T S A F F EC T I N G H I S HOURS A N D H I S VACATIONS. [ M R . HE WAS A S S U M PTION THAT M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES ARE NO EXCEPTION. M:S APPEARANCE AND H A BITS W E R E THOSE OF A CALM AND COLLECTED PERSON. H I S D A I L Y E X I STENCE WAS S I NG U L A R LY DEVOID OF A N Y MORA L M A SOC H I SM . WAS 65 W H E N HE C A M E TO ME FOR THE F I RST TIME. H E ALSO A D M I TT E D THAT B Y A G R E E I NG TO CONS U LT ME. SOLITARY WALKS D U R I NG HIS HOLI DAYS. BUT WHAT A CONTRAST BETW E E N THESE OUTER AND HIS NAKED BODYI PROV I D E D BE E XC E E D E D . I SHALL DESCRIBE T H E M I N DETA I L 1 62 . M·s STORY] EXTRE M E LY C A R E F U L TO CONCEA L H I S P E RVER­ SION FROM THOSE A RO U N D HIM. ACTUALLY. AND IN SHORT-LIVED D U RATION. H E LOATHED T H E IDEA OF P E RSONA LLY E X E RTING A N Y FOR M OF A UTHOR­ ITY OR OF HOLDING A COM M A N D I N G POSITION A N D CON S I D E R E D BOTH G I V I NG A N D R E C E I V I N G ORDERS TO B E S U R E WAYS O F LOSI N G H I S F R E E DO M I H E WAS VERY FOND O F THIS F R E E DO M WHICH I NVOLVED TRACES I N DICATING DISCUSSED H I S STATE W I T H H I M A N D ADVISED H I M TO SEE M E. HAD NEVER HIS LONG. R E M A RKING THAT H I S CASE M IGHT B E USEFUL TO OTH E R S WITH T H E S A M E PERVERSION AS HIS.M. A PP E A R A NC E S T H A T C E RT A I N T H R E S HO L D S Q U A NTITAT I V E C ON S I D E RA T I O N S A N D I NT E N S ITY FACTORS C A N M O D I FY T H E QUALITATIVE A SPECT OF A P H E N O M E NON AND ITS S E NSE. I N SHORT. HE LIVED I N A S M A LL S U B U R B A N COTTAGE WITH H I S A DOPTED DAUGHTER A N D H E R HUSB A N D. A R A D I O LO G I S T COLLEAGU E OF MINE H I G H L Y S K I L L E D T EC H N I C I A N IN RADIOELECTRICITY B E FO R E HIS RETI R E M E NT. GOING ON THE M R . M. ACQU I ESCED AT ONCE. H E HAD B E E N A MR. HE M IGHT A LSO BE HOPI NG FOR AN OPPORTU­ N ITY TO BE H U M I LIATED.

N A I LS A N D HAD BEEN I N FLICTED ON OF URINE HIS AND SECOND T I M E BUT THE M A R R IAGE SOON E N D E D I N DIVORCE : H I S SECOND W I F E WAS A PROSTITUTE P IECES OF GLASS BODY. EXC E PT FOR THE FACE. THE T I P O F THE GLANS H A D BEEN SLIT WITH A RAZOR BLADE SO A S T O WIDEN THE ORI FICE." A L L OF T H I S COULD TORTU R E S MR. H E WAS OVERCO M E B Y D E PR E S S I O N AND D E V E LO P E D PULMONARY WHILE A M A N P E N ETRATED HIM. H A D A PROFO U N D EFFECT ON M. I'M NOT A WOM A N . B E G A N AN EW. P I E R C E D BY SHARP OBJ ECTS A N D TORN OFF. A W H E E L FULL OF PHONOGRAPHIC ARRESTED FOR H E R I LLEGAL ACTIVITIES A N D H E WANTED TO AVOI D THAT POSSI B I LITY A T ALL COSTS. E V E R Y WH E R E THORAX. W A S N O T LYI NG. WHORE." -I'M AN A M B U LATING SHIT-HOUSE. R I G H T B R EAST WAS LITERA LLY A B S E NT. N E EDLES I NT O HAD HIS BEEN BODY. P U S H E D N EA R LY EVEN I N TO T H E TUBERC U LOSIS I N H I S T U R N. I N ADDITION TO THE PENISES TATTOOE D O N HIS T H I G H S. M R . ESPEC I A LLY WITH M E N H E P I C K E D U P S I N C E TH E RELATIONS W I T H H I S FOR M E R PARTN ERS H A D RAPIDLY DWINDLED T O NOT H I NG." "I LOVE TO BE BEATEN ALL OVER. M:S MORALITY 1 63 . COULD B E SUSPENDED HER DEATH. GI R D E D THE B A S E OF THE PENIS A N D TH E SCROTU M . -BIG PRICKS ENTER H E RE" ON THE BUTTOCKS: IN FRONT. MR. THONGS O F FLESH HAD BEEN CUT ALONG H I S BACK. TO SHOW H I M VARIOUS INSTRUME NTS OF TORTU R E : BOA R D S I MB E D D E D WITH H U N DREDS OF N E E DLES. HE ALSO I NT I M AT E D T H A T H I S W I F E'S LAC K OF SHOCKED HIM. TIONS OF MASOCH I S M . I N D A NG E R OF BEING EXPOSED IF SHE WERE EXCREM ENT OVER CAUSE ANY PERIOD O F YEARS D I D NOT U PSET." PHOTOGRAPHS WERE TAK E N DU R I N G TH I S PROCESS." "I'M A C O M PA S S . WHICH I DARE SAY BOR D E R E D ON BLAC K H U MO U R SINCE THE P E N I S COULD "DEVI ATE" TH E THEREBY A S S E RT I N G N E E DL E O F A ITS P OW E R . M . PERHAPS A S THE R E S U LT O F I N D I A I N K I N J ECTED I NTO A V E I N . N E EDLE WAS I M BEDDED I N THE PENIS ITSELF. LASTLY. SUCH AS N E E DLES. THE BETTER:' "I'M A SLUT. IT I S I NTERESTING T O NOTE THAT NONE O F T H E S E TORTURES WAS FOLLOWED BY THE S L I G H T E ST SUPPU RATION. ONE FOU N D THE FOLLOW I N G I M P R E S S I V E LIST: -I'M A SLUT. O N E FEELS. T H E BONE SU RFACE WAS ROUGH AFTER THE A M PUTATION AND H E H A D FILED IT EVEN. THE D A I LY I N G E ST I O N A WHOM HE HAD S E LECTED I N THE HOPE O F F I N D I N G A N EXPE R I E N C E D PARTN E R." " I L I K E I T U P T H E A S S . W H I C H H A D C O M ­ PLETELY C E A S E D DURING THIS P E R IOD. USE BUT GIVE ME IT TO ME UP THE ASS. "SO IT WOULD LOOK LIKE A VAG I N A. HE LEGALLY A DOPTED N E EDLES WITH A H A N DL E AND THAT WAS USED TO BEAT H I M. BUT WAS COMPLETELY CURED A FTER TWO YEARS SPENT IN A SANATO R I U M . L E FT TH E MENTIONED ABOVE D E F I N IT E TRACES WHICH I NCONTESTABLY PROVED THAT M R . I'LL M A K E YOU THE S T U P I D E ST CUNT ANOTH E R RI NG. COM E LIKE A "I'M F E M A LE. H I S SMALL TOE WAS M I SS I NG: IT HAD A PP A R ENTLY BEEN SECTI ONED WITH A HACKSAW B Y M R. A N D MOST R E M A R K A B LY.AND THUS POSSI B LY MODIFY CERTA I N CONCEP­ GEN ITALIA H A D NOT B E E N SPA R E D . HIS N A V E L WAS A SORT OF CRATER: BEEN POURED I NTO IT WHICH IT SOMETI M E S DOUBTED THE ACC URACY O F C E R TA I N UNVERIFIABLE FACTS WITHOUT B E I N G A B L E TO MOLTEN LEAD HAD WAS PREVENTED HAVE JUSTIFY MY DOUBTS IN ANY WAY. A N D YET I H A D VAGUE DOUBTS CONCE R N I NG IN PA RTICULAR WHAT H E RELATED A BOUT H I S W I FE AND A SPEC I FIC CASE OF AGGRESSIVE ACTING OUT. LOVE SWALLOWI N G PISS AND S H I T. M . HE MARRIED A FOREIGN BOD I ES. A STE E L R I NG OF S E V E R A L CENTIM ETE RS I N D I A M ETER H A D B E E N P E R M A N E N ­ T L Y A F F I X E D T O THE T I P OF TH E PENIS. BUT R E MOVABLE T H I S TIME. WAS A L M OST COMPLETELY COV E R E D WITH TATTOOS: "ALL BIG COCKS W E LCOM E . H A V I N G B E E N S E A R E D W I T H A R E D-HOT IRON. M Y MOUTH A N D M Y ASSHOLE A R E FOR BIG PRICKS. BY THE TORTURES SHE H A D E N D U R E D . M:S SCARS AND MARKS HIS OF TORTU RE WERE E A S I LY BE V E R I F I ED. AND THE H A RDER. H I S R ECTUM W A S E N LA RGED. " A N D THE TESTES AS THE X-RAYS R E V E A L ED. CAUSED IN N O S M A L L A MOUNT." AROUND. T H E P E N I S W A S BLUE A LL O V E R . H I M S E LF." "I THE P R E P U C E H A D BEEN MADE I N TO A S O R T O F A MAGNETIZED C U S H I O N F I L L E D W I T H PA RAFFI N. MANY PHONOGRAPH N E E DLES W E R E I M B E DD E D I N T O B EG I N WITH. " " U P WITH M A SOC H I S M :' -I ' M NOT A MAN. I ' M A WHORE. FROM SPATTE R I N G OUT (AS WOULD DON E B E C A U S E O F R I V U LETS O F RED-HOT M ETA L ROD SWEAT) BY I N TRODU C I N G A I NTO THE L EA D. ACTING O N THE ORDERS OF A PARTNER. A FT E R LATERA LLY. M : S BODY. TH ROUGH WHICH PASSED SO THAT MR. AND YET (SHOU LD I ATTR I B UTE THIS TO A DEFENSIVE ATTITUDE ON M Y PART?1 I EQUALLY STA RT L I N G . WHY SHOULD HE LIE ABOUT C E RTIAN DETA I LS WH E N OTH E RS W E R E UNDENIA BLY TRUE? I CAN NOT SAY. EVEN A FT E R H I S MASOC H I STIC PRACTICES. I ' M A SLUT. WITH A N A R ROW. M. HOOKS WERE M. TH E F A C T THAT S H E W A S A PROSTITUTE A N D A P R EC U R ESS PUT M. GOOD. I'M FUCKM EAT. THE I NT E R N I ST A PP A R E NT ASKED MR.

THAT PERVERSION. HE TOLD M E THAT HE DID NOT TH I N K SHE W A S M A SOC H I STIC. "I WAS REA LLY AFTER THE HIS LOCAL SLUT. F A K I RS.R I G H T P R E . IS OBVIOUS.'S CASE. M . AS H E SAID. A N D Y E T ." WERE BY MY D R E A MS. H E WAS A N ONLY CHILD AND HIS PARE NTS WERE NOT YOUNG WHEN HE WAS BO R N . HOW E V E R . I THOUGHT I T WAS THAT I N H I S D R E A M S H E W A S WITH " A VOLUPTUOUS WOMA N WITH W H O M CLOSE T O B E I N G MY SEXUAL ACTI V I T I E S W E R E HE ADDED THAT "MY H O R R I B LE. 1 64 . WAS V E R Y ATTA C H E D TO BOTH OF THEM A N D GRA D U A L· LY GREW QU ITE HIS C LO S E FATH E R QUITE TO HIS FATH ER M. F O R I N STANCE. NOT D A R I N G TO ACTU A L L Y C O M M I T C E R TA I N D E E D S ." THE A PP E A R A N C E EARLY I N LIFE OF E R OG E NOUS M A S OC H I S M -OFTEN S U B J ECT. A S IT WERE. O R D I N ARY. HAD BEEN CAPABLE OF SEXUAL OF WHICH C L A SSMATES. A N D SHE LIKED THE IT W H E N I DEA OF I MADE HER SUFFER. STI L L H A D F A I R LY F R E Q U E N T NOCTU R N A L E M I SS I O N S BECO M E A FT E R E ROTIC DREAMS THAT IN M. TO HIS " N O R M A L" S E X U A L I TY TO M E ET AN ECONO M I C N E E D-AT LEAST O N E M A Y SU PPOSE TH I S I S THE C A S E . S H A R E D TH E I R S E X U A L EXISTENCE FOR T H R E E YEA RS. HAD "EXC E PT FOR T H E FACT TIONAL FACTO R S WEIGH H EAVI LY I N T H E B A L A N C E : M. TH E Y DARED NOT." I NT E R EST H A D D I E D O UT. HAD N E I G H BORHOOD E A T I N G H E R EXCR E M E NT. I H A D EVOLVED. H E BECA M E THE TA RGET OF M A LT R E A T M E N T AS PECT BY HIS CLASSMATES. BUT LATER ON IT C A M E BACK TO M E. M . W A S A D DED. BUT W H E N T H I S WAS OVER HIS MASOCH I STIC PRACTICES STA RTED IN E A R N EST A N D G R E W IN I M PORTANCE. H E B EC A M E AWARE O F HIS AND HIS P U N I S H M E NT· S E E K I N G TO URINE AT (IT I S A F A C T T H A T H I S E A R L I E R D R E A M S M A S OC H I STIC. A N D MASOCHISTIC MOVEMENT R A T H E R THAN M A SOC H I S M . H I M S E L F F I N D S V E R Y I M PORTA NT-TO THE POINT LO N G WHERE THE P E R V E RSION FROM CEASED. IT SEEMS D E F I N ITE THAT CONSTITU­ S I N G U LA R PAST W A S PE RSONS I NVOLVED. IN SEXUAL "GA M ES" HE ENGAG I NG I N P A R A L L E L. MARRIED HIS COUSIN WHO HAD BEGU N HER THAT SHE 1 0 CHI LDREN. PUSH N E EDLES TH ROUGH H I S A R M T H E MSELVES BUT WOU L D G I V E HIM ORDERS T O DO SO. HIS AND IT SATI S F I E D CHISM ME. D E V E LOPME NTS O F THIS HAVE P R O M PT E D ME TO PREFER THE KIND TERM WOU L D A LWAYS ASSU M E T H E F E M A L E R O L E .P U B E RTY. THAT HIS M. WAS 2 1 (WHO WHEN HE D I SCOV E R E D DIED AND FATHER H A D J U ST HE WAS WHOSE C O R R ESPON D E N C E EXA M I N I NG ) PROBABLY H A D M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N · CIES AS W E LL. RESS B E I NG AT FOLLOWED CLOSELY ALL OF PROG­ M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N C I E S CEASED BETW E E N H I S 4 S T H A N D H I S SOTH YEA R I S T O B E NOTED. OFTEN BAC K E D OFF. H I S FATH E R WAS A LITTLE MORE R I G I D . W A S 46 OR 47 AT THE TIME. KNOWN NOTH I N G O F TO T H E HIS CAME A N OTH E R P E R SO N I NTO TH E I R ACTIVITIES. I T WAS THEN THAT H I S P E RV E R S E ACTI VITI E S C E A S E D A LTOGETH ER. B U T I F O N E CON S I D E R S T H E FACT THAT LATER ON M." I NC O R PO R A T I N G TH E N FA M I LY L I F E HE H A D C R E ATED AND TO W H I C H H E WAS VERY M UCH ATTAC H E D . OTH E R THAN TH E THIS I M PO RTA N T CONSTITUTI O N A L FACTOR. I F I C A N J U DG E AGAIN. A MOST C U R I O U S T H I N G DESERVES CON S I D E R ­ ATION. HE SA I D THAT " I W A S D I S G U STED. H E LIVED COM P LETELY WITH I N THE FRAM EWORK O F TH E TIONS. N EV E RTHE LESS. I H A D B E C O M E NOR M A L VERIFIED PRACTICES BEGAN W H E N H E W A S 1 0 Y E A R S OLD. A T 4 Y E A R S OF AGE HAD SEEN A LITTLE G I R L IN HIS P E R V E R S E PRACT I C E S C E A S E D COM PLETELY. THE HIS T I M E. TH E N TWO. I NT I MATELY L I N K E D T O M . ALTHOUGH E N G A G I N G AS I HAVE STA T E D I N N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTIVITIES.W A S CITED BY WRITERS ON IN M. ' S PA R T I C U LA R .) TH U S M:S M A SO­ STRICTLY PENCHANT A TT R A C T I O N C H I S M D E SC R I B E D A V E R I TABLE C U RV E STA RTING FROM J UST B E FO R E T H E MOMENT T H E CLINICAL BOA R D I N G SCHOOL PERIOD DURING HE WENT THROUGH A SHORT A C ER TAIN R E PUGNANCE WHICH S I G N S A P P E A R E D -TH E C O NSTI TUTIONAL FACTOR WHICH M . N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTI V I ­ TIES WHICH ONE OC C U P I E D CAN SAY HIS DREAMS THE AS HE GOT OLDER. AT T H E B EG I N N I NG O F T H I S P E R I O D H E STI LL H A D A F E W H O M OSEX U A L ENCOUNTERS BUT SOON ALL SCHOOL BUT W I THOUT THIS IS VERY OVERLY SEVERE. I F O N E C O NS I D E R S T H E D E V E LO P M E N T O F T H I S CASE.H I S B E E N T H E SOLE PERVERSION SEEMS T O HAVE ACTOR ON S T A G E . FOR A A PPA RENTLY H E L D HIM BACK. B U T LAT E R ON I T CAME BACK TO M E . " A N OT H E R T I M E D U R I N G O U R T A L K S H E M A D E T H E FOLLOW I N G READ ON STATE M E N T "AT ABOUT A B OO K H E FIRST HAD P E R F E CT L Y H E T E ROSEXUAL N A TU R E TOLD M E AND LESS AND L E S S M A SOC H I STIC. CORRESPO N D E NC E WAS PRACTICALLY TH E ON LY CONTACT H E M A I N TA I NED WITH HIS REAL D A U G HTER. "I L I K E D I T W H E N SHE M A D E ME S U F F E R . M. M . FACT T H A T M . HIS MOTH E R WAS VERY AFFECTION· ATE.THE YOUNG GIRL WHO WAS THEIR MAID DURING W I F E . W E R E AT T H E S A M E TIME I N D U LG I NG IN S H A R E D M A SOCH I STIC R E LA­ TH E I R B R I E F M A R R I A G E . O N E PE RSON. D E SC R I B E D H I S PARE NTS AS HAV I N G B E E N VERY CON S I D E RATE AND K I N D TO H I M ." MARRIAGE MASO­ HIS DEVELOPED TO ITS F U L LEST M. H E E V E N REMEMBERED HER NAME. F R O M T H E N ON. A FTER B E I N G SODOMIZED B Y A M O N I TOR. ' S DESTI N Y . TH E HIS NOR M A L." M A SOCH I STIC PRACTICES W H E N S H E W A S E L E V E N Y E A R S OLD (SHE WOU L D S T I C K N E E D L E S UNDER M .'S IN H E R F I N G E R N A I LS) L O N G B E FORE THEY K N E W E A C H OTH E R . O N E M I G H T S A Y . IN A DDITION.

TH E GENITALIA ARE THE AFTER E J AC U A LTION. A N D HOW D I D M . 1 65 . H E U N DOUBTEDLY EXPER I E NCED DERIVED FROM "TH E THE FEELING OF HAPPINESS OF A WILD EGO. I WOU LD ADD THAT TH I S IS PARTI C U L A R L Y TRUE WHEN THE I M PORTA N C E O F PHYSICA L P A I N I N ITSELF I S M I N I M IZED: TORTU RE I S S E LDOM VERY HO R R I FY I NG. I T H U RT. ETC. D E R IV E IN A D D ITON TO THE TORT U R E S . M. I . W E C A N LOGICALLY INFER AN EQUALLY E N DLESS NEED FOR PLE A S U R E . WHEN C L E A R E R. TH EODO R E R E I K.E. I. HOW E V E R . THE S A D I ST A LWAYS B A C K S OFF:' I T APPEARS MOREOVER THAT PAIN HAS A DOU BLE SATISFACTION U N TA M E D BY I N S T I N C TU A L I M PU L S E THE WHICH F R E U D TELLS U S " I S I NCOM PA R A B LY M O R E I N T E N S E THA N THAT DERIVED FROM SATI NG AN I N STINCT THAT H A S B E E N TA M E D:' O N E WO U L D B E I NC OR R ECT I N A S S U M I NG. BETWEE N T H E M . DE­ E N D L ESS S E ARCH FOR P A I N . M A D E T H E DI STI NCTION V E R Y C L E A R LY : "AT FI RST. IT WAS B U T A M EA N S." EJACU LATION:' TH I S E X P LA I N S T H E C H A RACTE R I S ­ TIC ATTITUDE O F T H E M A SOC H I ST W H O CONSTA NTLY D E M A N DS THAT H I S P A R TN E R I N C R E A S E THE PA I N . TH E S E I D E A S OF T I M E A N D QUA NTITY GIVE US D E F I N ITE I N FO R M ATION W H I C H C A N TH ROW SOM E LIGHT O N T H E M YSTE R I O U S CONN ECTION BETW E E N PHYSICAL PAIN AND PLEASURE. "EVERY INCH OF MY BODY COULD BE A RO U S E D TH ROUGH P A I N :' T H I S WOULD I N D I CATE A N S E N SITI VITY. IT O N LY P R O D U C E S A F E E L I N G OF M I L D WE ARE SO M A D E T H A T WE C A N ONLY A F RO M STATE A OF CONTENTME NT. PROLONGED. BUT M E A N S TO A TTA I N A GOA L WHICH I S A LWAYS P L E A S U R E . T H A T M . P A I N D O E S N O T G O BEYOND A C E RTA I N T H R ESHOLD. T H A T H I S TORTU R E S BUT THAT T H E Y BE DID NOT O N LY D E M A N D A LTHOUGH P A I N A N D H U M I LIATION B E LONG T O TWO D I F F E R E N T REGISTERS. I N SHOWS T H A T T H I S I S N O T T R U E A N D T H A T EVER­ INCREASING SOUGHT FOR. I T I S W E L L KNOWN THAT MOST S P EC I A L I STS STR E S S THE M A SOC H I SrS QUEST FOR H U M I LI ATION. SHARPER. THE FACT THAT TORTU RE I S I N FLICTED OF ESTA B L I S H E S N E C E S S I T Y BY A N OT H E R A MOST I N T I M ATE LINK PARTY B E I N C R E A S I N GLY PA I N F U L. SUSPENDED. A N D STI L L MORE. T H E B A S I C L I N K BETW E E N TH E I NTENSITY O F TH E PA I N A N D T H E I NTENS ITY OF THE ORGASM UNDERLIES E V E RYTH I N G M. A N D H I S W I F E "WE R E R E A LLY TWO SLAVES O F TWO LOVERS:' EVERY M EA N S. PA I N HAS NO BOU N D A R Y . A N D ON TH E SPOT W H E R E P A I N WAS A P P L I E D . F E A R O F PA I N WOU LD B E A B S E N T FROM H I M A N D IT WAS H I S S A D I ST PART N E R WHO WOULD B A C K OFF BECAUSE OF T H E EXTR E M E NATURE O F HIS D E M A N DS : "AT T H E · L A S T MOME NT. IT WAS PA I N T H A T T R I GG E R E D MY K E E N E S T POS S I B L E P L E A S U R E . A N D D I V E R S I F I E D . L I V E T H I S CO R R E LATION? ACCORD I NG TO H I M. M O R E PA I N . PHYSICAL PAIN AND OBVIOUS U N P L E A S U R E A R E N E I T H E R E N D S I N TH E M S E LVES NOR S I G N A LS. M. TO ACH I E V E THIS " V E R I TA B L E MORAL SUICIDE" DESIRED LONGED. M'S CASE AGA I N A N D I T H U RT:' T H I S A SPECT O F PA I N A S A M E A N S WAS I D E N T I F I E D BY F R E U D IN T H E ECONOMIC PROBLEM I N MASOC H I S M W H E R E HE POSITS THAT. FOR I N ST A N C E . FROM M. I N D I C A T I N G C LE A R L Y THAT PA I N ITSELF I S THE T R I G G E R . EXTR E M E M UTATION O F THE BODY'S YET PAIN IN ITSELF WAS NOT T H E I N THE SAME WAY THAT M:S REACTIONS TO PA I N WERE DIFFERENT HIS FROM WHAT IS GENERALLY WERE U L T I M A T E PLEA S U R E. PAIN WAS E J A C U LATION AT ITS MOST ACCEPTED. W A S FREE TO DESIRE OR T O R E F U S E T H A T JOY.M:S C A S E A LS O R E V E A LS THAT T H E P H E NO M E NON OF PHYSICAL PAIN AND ITS MYSTE R I O U S ABI LITY TO TRIGGER E ROTIC P L E A S U R E A N D O RG A S M IS NOT WHAT C E RTA I N S P E C I A L I STS H A V E C L A I M E D IT TO BE. ORC H ESTRATED ON HIM THE IN B RUTA L TORTU R E S OBTA I N THE I N FLICTED ORDER T O SC R I B E D A N D AT T I M E S M E NTIO N E D O P E N LY: "ON THE WHOLE. PHYSICA L HOWEV E R . W A S QUITE AWA R E OF T H I S OUTB I DDI NG. H A D M A S T E R E D THE A RT O F P RO D U C I N G CONTRA STS. BUT THEN I GOT A N E R ECTION." M. I N T H I S R E S PECT H E I S A GOOD A D E PT OF F R E U D W H O S A Y S I N CIVI LISATION AND ITS DISCONTENTS: W H E N ANY SITU ATION THAT I S ABOVE A L L A N A B A S E M ENT OF HIS PE RSONA LITY. E . I N C R EASES AND DECREASES IN TH E QUA NTITY OF STI M U L I WITH I N A G I V E N P E R IOD OF T I M E. I N T H I S S E N S E . ON T H E T H I S I S W H Y H I S C A S E I S SO D I FFIC U LT T O U N R A V E L . IN A SENSE HE WAS CON D E M N E D TO PLEASURE AND F U NCTION: ON T H E ONE H A N D I T A P P A R E NTLY ACTS AS A CATALYST FOR S E X U A L A RO U SA L. C L A I M S IT I S TER ROR AND A N X I ETY WHICH ARE A SSOC I A T E D THI NGS. TH E PARADOX IS THAT IT WAS FORC E D U PO N H I M . WHAT H E CRAVED FOR WAS R E S U M E D. M .'S W I T H PLEAS U R E A N D T H E N W I TH O R G A S M : M:S C A S E D I S PROVES T H I S . R E LA T I O N S W I T H OTH E R S U N ORTHODOX I N V A R I O U S WAYS. SUFFER THE WORST TOR M E NTS TO O B TA I N OTH E R H A N D I T W O U L D S E E M TO I N C R E A S E S E X U A L EXC ITEMENT AND PUSH I T TO ITS C L I MAX WHILE PLEA S U R E U N D E R A B SOLUTE C O M P U L S I O N : S U C H WAS M:S DESTINY F O R THE GREATER PART O F H I S LIFE. PAIN IT IS WAS A CT U A L L Y THAT TH E CASE O F M A SOC H I S M . BY THE PLEASURE P R I N C I PLE IS PRO­ EVERY M E A N S W A S V A L I D THE M O M E N T M . LOS I NG I T S OWN S P E C I FIC ITY. OR OBEYI N G O R D E R S TO WHICH A P PA R E NTLY I NTE N S E ENJOYMENT L I TT L E THE S I M PLEST IN SLAP CONTRAST A N D V E RY FROM I N DULGE C O P R O P H A G Y. M. A N D T H E F E E L I N G O F P LE A S U R E GRADUA LLY BECA M E OCC U R E D I NTENSE. T H E R E WAS PA I N N O T S U B J ECTED T O M UT I LATION.

C E R TA I N E X P RESSIONS K E PT R E C U R R I NG IN HIS SPEECH SUCH AS: C LA I M ED HAD REAL E X ISTENCE O F H I S OWN. THE TOTA L POWER THAT M. DRASTIC MUTI LATIONS-SUC H A S A MPUTATING' HIS P E N I S-WAS THE FEAR OF M E DICAL O R LEGAL MICHEL DE M'UZAN TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOTE 1 66 . TOTA L ANNI H I LATION OF THE W I LL. ANOT H E R THAT M E ANS TO H U M I LIATION. I N PART. I ON HIS PA RTN E R WA S AN U TT E R NOTH ING WANTED S E C O N D. C LA I M E D THAT HE H I MSELF DID NOT E X I ST AS A SUBJECT B U T THAT H E S I M PLY E M BO D I E D THAT THE HE SA DISTS VERY FANTASI ES. HE R E A LLY RENOU NCED ACTUA LLY S U B DU E D T H E SADIST B Y FORCING H I M T O A S S U M E T H E R O L E W H I C H H E . ON THE WHOLE. I N A N Y CASE. F I RST. ETC. A N D SO T H E M A SOC H I ST.. AT A LL: THE HE WAS THE ONE WHO E RO T I C R E L A T I ONS H I P TO E X I S T : I T W A S TE R M I N A T E D HE AS SOON AS RESUMED H I S FREEDOM V I S-A-VIS THOSE PERSONS WHO S U PPOSEDLY HELD H I M IN BONDAGE AND H E DID N O T A L LOW ANY FURTHER S E RVITUDE TO P E RSON A L L Y BELIEVE THAT THE PERVERSE M A SOC H IST I S NOT TOTA LLY UNAWA R E O F H I S D EEP-SEATED ATTITUDE. ' S D E E PLY CONC E A LE D ASSE RTION O F TOTA L POWER WAS M A TC H E D B Y HIS OVERWEENING P R I D E WHICH COULD B E GLIM PSED WHENEVER HE DESC R I B E D UNDERGONE. THE HE H I DE O U S F E LT TORT U R E S HE HAD G U E S S E D A T . AND T H E R E FORE TO C A NC E L H I MSELF OUT. NEV ERTHELESS T H E R E W A S SOM ET H I NG A T R I FLE TOO STRONG IN THIS I N S I STENCE ON FOUND H I M S E L F I N T H E PARADOX ICAL SITUATION Of BEING STR I PP E D OF ALL POWE R O F SPEECH AND DESIRE. SO OPA QU E LY V E I LE D THAT ONE M I GHT CONSIDER T H I S TO BE W H I LE THE L A S T W O R D ON THE W H O L E MATTE R. THE W I L L EXISTED NO LONGER. THAT "TH E SA DIST A LWAYS BACKS OFF A T T H E LAST MOMENT. AND H E R E H E HOODWIN K E D H I S I N T E R LOCUTOR F O R H E W A S V E R Y DEFINITELY E X P R E S S I NG A DESIRE: THE D ES I R E T H A T TH E SUCH A WAY AS TO OTH E R P E RSON PROCEED IN D I S R EG A R D O F T H E W I LL. HE WAS READY TO SUBMIT TO ANY K I N D OF I NVESTIGATION SINCE RETICENCE WAS TOTA L L Y FOR E I G N TO HIM AND I N DE E D RETI­ CONC E A L E D SOM ETH I NG DES PITE LITERA LLY I NCONCE I VA B LE: TO SHOW ANY TONE OF H I S DISCO U R S E W H I C H . " P S YC H I C A L TH E O B V I O U S COMPLICATIO� S A N D T H E PROBLE M S INVOLVED I N H E MOSTASIS. BUT OUT OF H U M I L I A T I ON. A PPEARED TO A S S U M E . H E C A N NOT R E S I ST L ET T I N G IT BE GLIMPSED OR OC C U R . I T WAS A L L O N THE MORAL PLA N E ." TO BE MORE P R ECISE. THE I NT E R LO C U T O R OR THE PARTNER TH U S E F FECTS. ABOLITION OF THE W I LL. WAS RESTRAINED AND FREE FROM D R A M AT I C CENCE WOULD HAVE M E A NT TO E X E RT HIS WI LL. CONFE R R E D M OC K E R Y . WITNESS WERE THESE TANTAMOUNT P H R ASES M . D E PICTED H I M S E L F A S H A V I NG A PRESSING N E E D TO B E H U M I LIATED-HOMOS E X U A LITY WAS ONLY A N INST R U M ENT TO H I S E N D AND T O HAVE H I S W I L L COM P LETELY D E STROYED. A L MOST I N C I DENTALLY. THE MASOCHI ST. T H E BONDAG E T O W H I C H THE SADIST I S CONDE M N E D B Y THE M A SOC H I ST IS. R ENOUNC ING H I S W I L L "FOR THE B E N E F I T OF THE PE RSON WHO WAS I N COMMA ND. HAD EVER ANOTH E R C O NC E A L E D ." M.ENABLED HIM TO P RO L O N G T H E E J A C U LATION. I T W A S A LSO H I S I M M E NSE P R I D E AND HIS SCO R N FOR HIS PA RTNERS WHICH PROMPTED H I M TO R E M A RK. M . WHICH H OLDS P R I SO N E R THE S U R PASSED H I M. THIS TRAIT U N DO U B T E D L Y THE GENE R A L NEGATE M:S EXISTENC E ." THE S A D I STIC STUDENT WHO SHARED M:S LIFE A N D H I S WI FE'S WAS SU PPOSED T O BE A LL-POW ERFUL: HE GAVE STRICT ORDERS THAT HAD TO BE PLEAS U RE " A FT E R H O M OSEX U A L S I D E O F A L L T H I S W A S. WHO LIVED I N A CAGE BRI STLING WITH S H A RP POINTS. GOT A PARTNER TO ORDER H I M TO I N S C R I B E ON H I S S K I N SO H I S MORAL DECAY COULD BE SEEN: "I GAVE THE I M PRESSION I WAS A N I N V E RT W H I C H I WAS NOT OUT O F PLEASURE. BONDAGE MUST IN FACT BE H E W A S ALMOST UNIQUE: ONLY ONE PERSON H E KNEW OF. B E H I N D THE FACADE OF A D R A M ATIC A S S E R TI O N OF H I S NOTH I NGNESS. LITTLE HE SATISFACTION. AS HE F E LT HOMOSEXU A L ' PRACTICES TO I N S U LT S . I E X P E R I ENC E D NO PHYSICAL OBEYED-AND Y E T H E WAS I N FACT LOOKED U PO N AS UTTER LY WORTHLESS. ACCORDING TO M . HE S A I D T H E ONLY REASON HE WAS RETICENT ABOUT PERFORM I N G EVEN MORE MASOCHIST H I MS E L F. M.

EVER THOUGHT O F U N D E RGOING TREATME NT. ALTHOUGH NOTHING IN M:S BEHAVIOR I N DICATES THAT H E IT I S ALSO A R E M A R K A BLE FACT THAT MASOC H I STS AND SADISTS A R E V E R Y M U C H AWARE OF TH E I R PEC U L I A R ITIES. M:S C U RIOSITY TOWARD TIES HAS HIS OWN S E X U A L PECULIARI­ DESIRE OF SEXUAL NOTHI N G TO DO WITH T H E RID OF THEM." I S TO A DEG R E E IDEOLOGICAL F R A U D S I NCE IT R E DUCES M:S EXPERIENCE TO A M EDICAL CASE. WE SHOULD NOT CON S I D E R THIS STORY AS AN OBSE RVATION NOR A C L I N ICAL CASE SINCE M. ON TH E GETTING SUDDEN CONTRARY. H E AGREED T O TALK W I T H A PSYCHO­ A N A LYST ABOUT H I S M A SOC H I S M BECA U S E HE WAS URGED TO DO SO B Y H I S OWN PHYSICI A N WHOM H E CON S U LT E D FOR R E S pi RA TO R Y P R O B L E M S A N D CONCRETE SADISTIC OR M A SOC H I STIC PRACTI CES. H E H A S LOST HIS "SE N S E OF REALITY. VERY OFTEN THESE STU D I E S REFER EITHER TO THE S A D I STIC N E U ROTIC A N DIOR M A SOC H I STIC F A N TA S I E S OF PATI E NTS. THE TITLE OF D E M'UZAN'S PAPER. B UT DO NOT CON S I D E R I SHALL NOT EVEN TAKE I N TO C O N S I D E R ATION S A D I STS WHO ARE THOSE M A S OC H I S T S AND CONDEM N E D B Y A J UDGE TO CHOOSE BETW E E N PRISO N O R PSYC H I ATRIC TREATM ENT. STORI E S AS OR TO S A D I ST I C A N DIOR SUCH AS M:S. OF OR MORE AND MASOCHISTIC O FT E N . DID NOT CON S U LT M IC H E L DE M'UZAN FOR H I S MASOC H I S M . M. SUCH THE NOVELS SADE SACH E R M A SOCH . STU D I ES ON SADISM A N D MASOC H I S M A R E V E R Y SELDOM BASED ON G E N U I N E "CLI N I C A L MATERI A L:' BY A LT H O U G H D E SC R I B E D H I M SELF AS A GENUINE I MEAN THAT WHICH REFERS TO MASOC H I ST. W H O K N E W THAT M : S PAST L I F E WOULD C E RTAINLY I NTEREST DE M'UZAN A S A C A S E H I STORY. H E R E P ARTLY TRANSLATED AS "A CASE OF PERVERTED M A SOC H I S M. HAS MICHEL DE M'UZA N .POSTFACE: MASOC H I S M AND POLYSEXUA LITY YOU HAVE J UST R E A D M:S STORY A S HE TOLD IT TO A FRENCH PSYCHOAN A LYST." I N T E R R U PT I O N OF HIS PRACTICES-WHICH C A N NOT B E COMPA R E D T O T H E S P O N T A N EO U S R E M I SS I O N OF AN ILLNESS­ SHOULD LEAD U S T O CONS I D E R M : S STORY A S THE STORY O F A M A SOC H I STIC PROCESS. IT WOULD BE I M POSSIBE FOR T H E SADIST A N D/OR MASOCHIST TO PRETE N D THAT W H E N HE I NDULGES IN THESE PRACTICES. IT I S QUITE R E M A R K A BL E THAT PSYCHOANALYTIC GENUINE SADISM AND M A S OC H I S M THEREFORE SHOULD NOT B E CONFUSED WITH MORAL SADISM 1 67 . AND FROM A PSYC H I ATRIC POINT O F VIEW. THE M A SOC H I S T I C TH EM AS S Y M PT O M S OF A N Y PARTIC ULAR I LLNESS.

B U T THEY CHANGE FOR T H E MOST PART IN TH E SENSE OF A BECOMING. OF THE OPPOSITION OF CLASSES AND. POLYSEXUALITY DETE R M I N ES A NEW CUT. MICHEL DE M'UZA N DOES NOT EXPRESSION UNCONSCIOUS PROV I D E US WITH WHAT M A S OC H I S M IS. A N D IT IS Q U I TE I RONICAL TO SEE THAT TH E "SEX SPEC I A LI ST. TH ESE ARE FREE SPACES. H ETEROS E X U A L. C O N S I D E R E D DO S A D I STIC O N E S) . V I S U A L S E X U A L­ ITIES. LIQU I D S E X U A LITIES. M:S SEXOLOGI ST: M . ON TH E OTH E R . " M. A LSO. A S SOME A STA N C E PSYCHOA N A LYSTS B E L I E V E . THE SO-CA LLED DESIRE OF THE IS A PERVERT M YTH. IT I S R E M A R K A B L E I N D E E D TO S E E HOW M . AS M UC H A S WITH ABLE WHAT "NOR M A L SEXUA LITY" MODEL A G A I N ST W H ICH IS: TH E I N EVIT­ MOST P S Y C HO­ PRESSED D E S I R ES. TOW A R D S O R T O F P ROG R E S S I V E T E N S I O N A TENSION WHICH IS SO M E T H I NG. AS WELL AS THE FACT THAT WH I LE HE WAS A M A SOCH I ST. E . TO A P P ROACH SOMETH I NG WHEN TH I S SOM ETH I N G H A S B E E N VIOLENTLY R EPRESSED WITH I N ONESELF: M I C H E L DE M'UZAN H A D TO WAIT TEN YEARS B E FORE H E COULD START TO WORK ON M:S STORY. EVEN HIS DREAMS LOSE ALL M A SOC H I S T I C CONTENT. ACTI VE/PASSI VE. OR AT LEAST THOSE AMONG R E PR E S S E D I N A L MOST E V E RYBODY A N D PARTICU­ LALY A MONG THOSE WHO C LA I M TO BE SEXUA LLY "NORMA L.U P OF T H E C ITY A S WELL AS OF THE EROTIC BODY O F PEOPLE. THE M A S OC H I ST. H U S B A N D /W I F E . A L I MENTARY SEXUALI­ TI E S .. I N FACT. ETC . THE I NTENSITY OF TH I S R E P R E SSION A N D ITS EFFECTS CAN EASI LY BE RECOG N IZED THOSE BEEN WHO IN ARE TH E HOR R I F I ED EXPRESSION OF TH E M WHO C LA I M THAT THEY H A V E SOMETH I NG TO SAY ABOUT PE RVERSIONS. WAS A SPECIA LIZED STRA I N E D S E X U A LITY OF OUR PSYCHOANA LYSTS: OU R AIM IS TO G I V E S H A P E TO A NEW NOTION­ WOR K E R WHO WAS H I G H LY R E G A R D E D BY H I S PEERS AND HIS S U P E R IORS. A MONG MANY OTH ERS." I . . EVEN FOR A PSYC HOA N A LYST. P R E C L U D E S A N Y TA LK OF A " P E R V E RT S T R U C T U R E . ONE "POLYMORPHOUS S E X U A L I TY . " V I O L E NTLY WOULD C E RTANLY W I S H TO M E ET MORE PSYCHO­ A N A LYSTS THERE. ETC . TO P E R V E RT THE CONFRONTED-WITHOUT H A V I N G P R E P A R E D F O R IT-W ITH THE PREVIOUSLY R E A L I TY TO W H I C H M:S STORY REFERS. WHICH FREUD IS CA LLED THE SEXUAL PRACTICES OF H I S CHOICE. OF THE B I OLOGICAL OPPOSITION OF SEXES. S U D DE N LY A B A N DONS H I S M A SOC H I ST I C H A B I TS A FTE R TH I RTY Y E A R S O F CONSTA N T A N D H E AVY PRACTICE.A N D M A SOC H I SM . THE P E R V E RT IN LES 1 20 NOT DOES GENUINE SADISM AND M A S OC H I S M ARE TWO NEED A DEEP AND DARK CAVE TO HAVE K I N K Y S E X . I T I S VERY R E M A R K A B L E C A S E H ISTORY. TH EY HAVE T O BE I T H A T A S U B J ECT M IG H T ADOPT F O R A S HORT W H I L E A N D T H E N A B A N DO N . A N D RETU R N S TO A V E R Y Q U I ET A N D PEAC E F U L H ETEROS EX U A L LIFE. S U C H A S U DD E N C H A NG E . W H E R E A N YONE CA N DO A NYTH I N G W I THOUT EXPECTI N G A NYBODY T O N ECESSA R I LY D O THE S A M E T H I N G S AS H E DOES." A S PECTS. M A N /W O M A N . ON THE ONE H A N D. T H E Y FOLLOW A PATTE R N OF I NC REAS­ ING Q U A N T I TATI V E A I N T E N S I TY C A R E FULLY P RO­ ALONG THESE LI N ES." THE PSYCHOANALYST. IT I S N O T A STA NCE BECAUSE M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES C H A N G E WITH T I M E (AS STU D I E D A LONG C E RTA I N L I N ES OF I NCREASING I NTENSITY: VIOLENT S E X U A LITI ES. NOR WITH ATYPICAL PSYCHOSES. OPEN SPACES WHERE E V E R Y P E R V E RT C A N E X P E R I E N C E THIS POLYS E X U A LITY. F A R FROM GOD'S S I GHT: H E S I M PLY WALKS A LONG TH E STR E ETS. C A LC U LATED ACCO R D I N G TO A N I NT E N S I F ICATION 1 68 . HOWE V E R . OF POLYSEXUAL­ ITY : AN I N F I N ITELY D I V E R S I F I E D SEXUA LITY W H I C H CONSTITUTES THE POTE NTI A L SEXUA LITY OF EVERY BODY./ H E T E R O . . NON P E R V E RT N E U R OT I C THE FANTASY O F THE THE DISGUISED AND RE­ H ET E R O S E X U A L: OF HIS IN THIS RESPECT. IT I S FOR T H E MOST PART BECAUSE CHISM IT D E M O N STRATES T H A T M A SO­ TRUE. THAT IT I S NOT EASY. THE M A SOC H I S T S O M E T H I M E S BECO M I NG A S A D I ST A N D VICE V E R SA . L I F E WAS VERY W E L L BALANCED BOTH SOC I A LL Y WE ARE NOT REALLY I NT E R ESTED IN THE RE­ A N D E M OTIO N A LLY. POLY S E X U A L I T Y -A N D TO D E SC R I B E T H E M A N Y P R OC E S S E S THROUGH WHICH POLYS E X U A LI T Y BECO M E S A "FACT OF L I FE:' S U C H PROCESSES A R E TOT A L L Y A L I E N TO C L A S S I C A L O P PO S I T I O N S : M A SOC H I S M FRENCH IS NOT A STA NCE E I T H E R . I NDEPENDE NT. O B E S E S E X U A L I TI ES. TA K I NG SUFFICIENT PRECAUTIONS TO AVOI D BOTH PO L I C E A N D "PERVERT H U NTERS. IN E V E R Y C I TY THERE A R E OPEN PLAC ES. F E LT LI K E A CHILD FACED W I TH TH I S R E M A R KABLE I S NOT A STR UCTU R E : O N E I S NOT M A SO­ C H I STIC L I K E ONE IS N E U ROTIC. IF I I N S I ST O N T H E FACT THAT M:S STORY IS A A N A LYSTS COMPARE POLYSEXUALITY I N ORDER TO D E SC R I B E IT I N TE R M S OF DEVIANCE. H O M O . G R A M MED. CONTR A R Y TO W H A T SA D E TELLS U S JOURN EES DE SODOME. THEY CAN T R A N SFORM I NTO ONE A N OT H E R .

I A M NOT A M A N NOR A WOMAN. OR IN OTH E R WORDS. NOT A LWAYS. IF WE ACTS OBSERVE OVER TO A TH E CONCATE N A TION OF ULTIMATE SEX! WE 00 NOT P RETE N D THAT SUCH A GOAL IS ALWAYS REACH ED-ACTUA LLY I T IS VERY R A R E LY SO-BUT WE TH I N K THAT SUCH ALWAYS EXISTS I M PLICITLY. HOW E V E R. A L SO S E CO N D LY . H A S S H O W N US. AS I N RATH E R THAN COM P A R E M A S OC H I STIC ACTIVITIES WITH R E LIGIOUS RITES." OR " I AM A BITCH. TO THE EVERY OF S U BJECT IS V U L­ LAN­ ONE CAN NOT FIND IN BOOKS. E X P LO R A T I O N A CAREFUL R E A D I NG O F M:S STORY REVEALS THAT TH E CONTROLS ON THIS P R OG R E S S I O N ARE SUBJECTED. A P E R FORMATIVE D I SCOU RSE. T H E M A SOCH I ST C A N STOP W H E N H E WANTS: H I S ACTI VITI ES A R E P R E P A R E D WITH GREAT CARE A N D THE TERMS OF THESE ACTI VITIES ARE D E SC R I B E D C E PT E D BY P R E C I S E LY BOTH IS IN A " C O N T R ACT" AC­ PROHITIBION O F POL YSEXUALITY. SOM ETH I NG LIKE R E PETITIVE. PARTNERS. THE O F T H E SO-C A L L E D " N O R M A L" I NC R EASES I N PROPORTION T O T H E VIOLENCE OF THE PERVERTED ACTS. SUCH A CONTROL I M PL I E S A VERY PREC I S E K NOWLEDGE.OF VIOLENCE COUPLED P LA N N E D WITH A PROG R E S S I V E ." T H E R E A L ONE. WAS S U BJ ECTED TO TH E STRUCTUR­ I NG A N D A L I E NATING POW E R OF LA NGUAGE. WHICH MORE R E A D I LY OBEYS OTH E R LAWS T H A N THE LAWS OF SYMBOLIC LANG UAGE. IT IS AN IS EXPER I M ENTATION DEATH : U LTI M A T E GOAL DEATH AS PRESIDENT SC H R E B E R'S: " I T WOU L D B E SO N I C E TO BE A WOMAN SUBJ ECT TO COiTUS. FI RST. OF THE H I S ACTI VITIES LEAD H I M PARTI A L LY OUT OF T H E R E A L M OF LANGUAGE. EVEN H I S EROTIC BODY I S V U L N E RABLE. TATOOS. M ERELY A H I NT OF WHAT SHOULD B E DETA I LE D AT SOME LENGTH. SAYS. W E SHOULD COMPARE THEM WITH AN I NITIATION. OUR A M AZ I NG TO SEE CAN THE INCREASING HIS CONTROL A AND ITS M A SOC H I ST GET OVER BODY P H Y S I O L OG I C A L F U N CT I O N S . BY N A T U R E ESSENTIA LLY T H E CASE O F SOME PSYCHOTICS. IT OBEYS THE THERE I S ECSTASY-JOUISSANCE-THE PLEASU RABLE COUNTERPART OF DEATH. AS A N EXTRE M E EXPERIENCE L I K E "ULTI MATE SEX. EROTI­ TH E MASOC H I ST ALSO USES A N OT H E R M EANS TO D E S U BJ ECTI FY HIS BODY: I. T H I S CONTROL EROTIC BODY. A SLUT. FROM BODY-SEMIOTICS. MASOCHISTIC ACTI VITIES ARE NOT S U P POSED TO DRIVE TH E MASOCH I ST COM PLETELY OUT OF TH E REALM OF LANGUAGE GEN ERALLY S P EA K I NG. . H U M I LIATION. A LL OVER HIS BODY. ANAL. I T I S ALSO TH E STORY OF T H E S U B J ECTI V I ZATION OF TH E EROTIC BODY." ON TH E OTH E R HAND TH E PERVE RTED A C T I S NOT HAZA RDOUS SO FAR. I AM FUCKED U P. LOGIC O F T H E BODY.E. PATTERN L I N K E D T O EACH OTH E R A S I N A SYNTAGM . W H I LE OUR BODY. OUT OF A SYSTEM OF S I G N S WHICH ALWAYS PRE-EXISTED H I M A N D T O W H I C H H E WAS S U P POS E D TO HAVE BEEN COMPLETELY C A R E F U LLY EROTIC BODY. EACH ZONE OF WHICH HAS BEEN SUCCESS I F E LY N A M ED. IN OTH E R WORDS TO I WANT TO PO I N T OUT THREE I M PORTANT DETA I LS ABOUT THESE TERMS: DESUBJECTIFY HIS OWN BODY. W H AT I SAY IS P R OG R E S S I O N CONTROLLED A N X I ETY W H I C H T H E M A SOCHIST A ROUSES I N H I S PARTN E R WHO "ALWAYS G I V E S U P" A T A C E RTA I N POI NT. A KNOWLEDGE WHICH DERIVES FROM A NON-VERBAL S E M I OTICS. WHOSE IN FACT. A KNOWLEDGE THAT CONSTRUCTION H ETEROS E X U A L S U BJ EC T COMES A BOUT BY A N D THROUGH N E R A BLE LA N G U A G E . THE AIM OF T H E M A SOC H I ST-A N D T O A LESSER A LIVI NG TOILET BOWL . TH E P E RVERTED ACT ON ONE HAND I S NOT SPEECH. FLESH TO BE FUCKED. P R OG R E S S I V E M ENTATION I S A WAY O F B E I NG-FOR-DEATH (ETRE· APPEAR F O L LOW POUR-LA-MORTI. I T IS A DISCOURSE. M:S C I S E D A N D FO RBIDDEN. T H E DOUBLE. BUT A BITCH. URETHRAL AND G E NITA L) I S NOT ONLY TH E STORY OF TH E ACCEPTA N C E OF OEDIPAL SEX. TO THE E XC LUSION O F T H E G E N I T A L Z O N E A N D TH I S F O R ONE PURPOSE ONLY: HETEROS E X U A L I NTE RCOU RSES. SAY: "THE M EETING POINT FOR THE MOST BEA UTI F U L P R I CKS. I F I MAY SAY S O . FO R M TH E SPECIFIC GUAGE O F WHICH HE BECOMES T H E SUBJ ECT. 1 69 . PERVERTED A GOAL EXPERI­ THESE THEY CERTA I N A PERIOD OF T I M E . . T H E BY THE H E R E AGA I N I HAVE TO B E B R I E F. T H E STORY O F T H E S E X U A L PHASES (ORAL. I T I S QUITE IT IS NOT POSSI BLE TO E X P LA I N FULLY IN THIS POSTFACE H O W A N D WHY JOUISSANCE I S PRECISELY WHAT WE HAVE H A D TO REJ ECT I N THE COURSE OF BECO M I N G O E D I PA LIZED. IT O B E Y S A N A LTOGETH E R DIFFERENT LOG IC. AND I T DIFFERS FUNDAM ENTALLY FROM T H E P E R V E RTED FANTASM WHICH IS ALWAYS A PH R A S E . BUT THERE I S ALSO PLEASURE I N ITS QUEST. A S M . AND THERE IS EVEN MORE THAN PLEASU RE. " DEG R E E OF TH E SADIST-IS TO DECONSTRUCT THE OEDI PAL CONSTRUCTI O N .

I F H E SAYS. DRIVES OF THE OTH E R .1 IN SPITE OF T H E F E M I N I ZATION OF THE WORDS. A U V I N G TOILET BOWL I S A P L A C E THAT • • • DOES NOT M A K E A PSYCHOTIC OF H I M . BUT I F WERE A HE IS WOMAN I F WOULD BE EXACTLY THE AND SAME. AND THROUGH TH I S A N X I ETY TH E MASOCH I ST IS A B LE TO CONTROL THE AGG R ESSI VITY OF THE OTH E R . .JECT. TH E Y HAVE ONLY TO A P E R FO R M AT I V E HORROR F U NC T I O N : AND TO TO F R E N C H : A BITC H . IT IS O N LY TO I N DUCE TH E AGGRESSIVITY OF THE ZSCHE. AND H E W I L L PLAY I N I T A N D WITH IT. I S A M A N . ETC. BUT THIS S U B." THE M A SOC H I ST C A N IT I S O N LY FOR THE N E U ROTIC. H E W I LL M A K E A G A M E OF LANGUAGE. RATH ER THAN TO A FE M I N I N I N E OR MASC U L I N E QUA LITY: A BITC H OR A SLUT H A S I N F A C T NO BIOLOGICAL SEX: "I A M N E I TH E R M A N N O R WOMA N B U T FLESH .JECT . . " SUCH A D E S U B . FROM TH E MASOCHISTS POINT OF N E W YORK• .J ULY 1 978 1 70 . BUT H E W I LL DO I T F R E E LY. A SLUT. OR THE H ETERO­ S E X U A L . NO M E A N I NG . HE W I LL H A V E BECOM E ' A C H I LD. FRA NCOIS PERALDI T H E S E T E R M S . OTH E R . AND T H A T M A K ES ALL T H E DIFFERENCE. T H E S E T E R M S REFER TO A N E UTRAL. . BUT AT THE S A M E T I M E IT AROUSES THE DEATH­ 2.J ECTI­ V I ZA T I O N A L LO W S THE M A S OC H I S T TO FREE R E C E I V E S SHIT AND PISS HERE I SUGGEST THE H I M S E L F F R O M H I S U NC O N SC I O U S A L I E N A T I O N F R O M T H E S Y M BOLIC F U NCTION O F LANGUAGE: I T ALLOWS H I M TO R E D I SCOVE R THE PERFORMATIVE R E A D E R VISIT T H E PIT AT "THE MINE S H A FT' I N NEW YOR K C I TY • • • F U NCTION OF LANGUAGE ALONG WITH H I S BOOY­ LANGUAGE. A PILE OF SH IT.JECT COMPLETELY A L I E N TO T H E REALM OF LANGUAGE WHO REFUSES I T COM PLETELY.1 . PEOPLE G O A W A Y A NDIOR REACT WITH AGGRES­ S I V I TY AND BEAT T H E SHIT O UT O F THE M A SOCH I ST. I NDUCE. BUT TO A FUNCTION: A BITCH I S SOMEONE WHO I N DUCES THE NORMAL H ETEROSEX U A L TO B E BITCHY. A N D R E PE A TS THAT HE I S A SLUT. .J ECTIVIZATION OF T H E M A SOC H I ST 3.'.1 HE THE F E M I N I ZATION OF THE NAMES (AT LEAST I N VI EW. SO-CALLED "NORMAL PEOPLE" THAT THE M A S OC H I ST P R ET E N D S TO BE E XC R E M E N T.' T H E S E T E R M S R E F E R N EITHER TO SUB. NOT HOMOSEXUAL.J ECT NOR OB. I T A ROUSES HIS A N X I ETY AS W ELL. A GO B A C K I NTO T H E R E A L M OF SYMBOLIC LANGUAGE. OF THE PARTN E R . M. THE MASOCHIST IS NOT EXC R E M E N T OR W H A T E V E R : H E S A Y S H E I S. PROVOKE MAKE W H E N H E GETS FUCKED BY A MAN IT I S ON LY FOR M A SOCH I STIC P U R POSES. THEY DO NOT EVEN R E F E R TO A R E A L OB. A TURD. AND H E W I LL H A V E ACCO M P L I S H E D I N H I S OWN WAY THE LAST METAMORPHOSIS FORESEEN BY N I ET­ G A R BA G E-CA N. A SUB. H A V E NO SPEC I A L SENSE. A N D SO ON. HOWEVER. A FTER H I S "TRI P.

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I WOULD SIT WATC H I NG A PROGRES­ SION O F TOWNS. 'ONCE I HAD A M ASTE R . THE F I RST ONE. TRUCK. N IG HT. I W O U L D H A V E T O M A K E M Y O W N W A Y I N S I D E . EVERY FRIDAY HE WOU L D B E STA N D I NG NEXT TO HIS TRUCK. T H E R I T U A L W A S S O SEC U R E T H A T I T D I D N O T N E E D T H E S U PPORT OF WORDS. B Y T H E TIME H E WOU L D BE P U L L I NTO H I S O W N D R I V E W A Y I SITTING BESIDE HIM IN THE WOULD E V E R Y F R I DA Y I WOU L D LEAVE M Y JOB IN AN OFFICE B U I L D I NG. MY COM FORT D I D NOT CONC E R N HIM. A N D EQUA LLY AS I GNORANT O F T H E DANGER IT H E L D O N FROZEN W I N T E R E V E N I NGS. T H E R E ON HOT SUMMER N I GHTS THAT T H E TH E T H R E E FOLLOWI NG T E XTS A R E LOVE LETTERS. EACH S M A L L E R THAN T H E LAST. W A I T I N G T O B E G I N T H E W E E K E N D. W H E N HE F I N A LLY P U L L E D I NTO T H E SPACE B E S I D E H I S H O U S E . ONCE I HAD A M ASTE R THE REMOVAL OF EACH PIECE OF C LOTH I N G I O N C E H A D A MASTER WHO L I V E D FA R FROM THE CITY. I WOULD C LI M B OUT A N D FIND HIM WAITI NG. WHEN THE MY BODY D R A FT WHEN W O U L D S E N D C H I LLS THROUGH S H I RT R E MOVED THE LITTLE MY PROTECTION IT HAD PROVI DED. AT THE T E R M I N U S . M A R K E D T H E F I N A L LEGS O F OUR J O U R N E Y .[ON C E I H A D A M ASTER] BEGIN THE WERE D I S RO B I N G HE WOULD EXPECT. T H E R E WOU L D B E NO G R E E T I N G F R O M E I TH E R OF US. A C T U A L L Y N O MORE TH A N A C A B I N I N T H E WOODS. I WOULD TAKE A N E X P R E SS TO T H E N E XT LARGE M ETROPOLIS AND CHANGE THERE FOR A N A K ED. THE AD­ TIMES W I N D C A R E S S E D M Y B A R E C H EST WITH W E LCOM E COOLI NG R E LI E F. ' R E P R I NTED H E R E . AS HE DROVE AWAY FROM T H E STATION I WOULD THERE WAS A RITUAL EVERY FRIDAY E V E N I NG. H E DID NOT C A R E F O R M Y D I SCOM FORT. H E ONLY WAS CON C E R N E D THAT I BE WITHOUT CLOT H E S I N H I S HOUSE. I S A R E W R I T I N G OF T H E LAST TWO STOR I E S WERE 23RD PSA LM. H E A P P E A R E D I G N O R A N T OF T H E F R E E DOM THAT MY N U D I TY R E P R E S ENTED ON A SUMMER LOC A L T R A I N . I 1 72 . S P E E D B Y MY W I N DOW. TH E R E WERE OTH E R TIMES IN THE WINTER CONSC IOUSLY D R E S S E D TO EACH OTH E R B Y JOHN PRESTON A N D JASON KLEIN.

TH E R E WAS NO T I M E ON G E NC E S . M Y H A N D W E R E TH E R E W H E N E V E R H E H A D T H E DESIRE. D E S P E RATELY FRIGHTENED OF WO R K I NG I N TH E F I E LDS. RESULTS OF A W I NTER'S W E E K OF I SOLATION E V E R Y JOU RNEY. I W E N T T O H I S FA RM NO MORE. I W E LCO M E D E V E R Y T I M E H E TOOK ME.I N D U L­ TO R E S I ST AGA I N I T WOU L D B E S U M M E R A N D OUR S E L V E S A N D O U R BODIES WOULD RUSH THROUGH FOR E STS TO FIND SWI M M I N G HOLES TO DIVE I NTO AND FEEL A LLOW E D P U N I S H M ENT. H A D N O OTH E R OUTLET FOR H I S OWN PHYSICAL B E I N G T H A N T O U S E MY BODY. I WOULD HAVE TO R E V E R S E T H E R I T U A L O F D R E S S I N G A S H E D ROVE M E T O T H E TRA I N STATIO N .M Y MOUTH.WOU LD SHOW E R . A LWAYS. BUT NOT TO C L E A N S E MYSE LF. HIS HE WOULD SIT HE SI L E N T L Y BEGGED R E S PON S E . B U T H E WOU L D BEAT M E G R EATLY I F M Y S E R V I C E E V E R FALTERED OR IF MY MIND WANDERED NOT I C E A B LY I NTO A BUT. I WOULD COOK HIS M E A LS. H E . S E R V I C E . TAKING HIS TH E WAS H E D H I S TORSO W H I LE I T SAT I N T H E M A S SA G E D IT IN FRONT OF THE FIRE BATHTUB. WOULD LET M Y A N G E R GLANCE OFF H I S B ROW I F EVER I D A R E D SPEAK IT. I TOOK ON COLOR ON M Y S K I N A N D TON E I N M Y M U SC LES A S T H E Y WORK E D H A R D O N H I S F A R M . TOOK ITS R E L I E F I N T H E F I E LDS. THE S P R I NG WOU L D BEG I N AND WE WOU L D B E ABLE TO VENTU R E FU R TH E R OUT IN TO THE ALWAYS MORE WELCOM I NG SUN UNTI L O N C E P R I VATE WORLD OF D A Y D R E A M S . T E N D H I S G A R D E N . H E COULD NOT TOLERATE EVEN A FEW STR A N DS E X I STENCE S E P A R ATING M Y SKIN FROM H I S TOU C H . H E N E V E R LET HIS PHYSICAL W A NTS FALL I NTO A PATT E R N . WASH HIS FLOWE R E D F I ELDS AND RAN N A K E D ACROSS MY SHAVEN SPRAWLED TORSO I N OC E A N O F C LOVER. T H E DAYS BETW E E N MY JOU R N E YS BECA M E LESS AND LESS I M PORTANT. HOUSE W H I LE I WAS THERE. HE D I D NOT WANT THERE TO BE A NOTH E R P E R SON TO I N T E R F E R E WITH M Y GROW I N G CONTROL. I R E C E I V E D T H E ONSLAUGHT O F ON EACH WEEKEND. TH E F I R ST S U M M E R I L E A R N E D M O R E A BOUT M Y THAN IN ALL THE SUMMERS THAT HAD BODY PRECE E D E D I T TOGETH ER. E V E R Y FRIDAY H E SHAVED EVERY I NCH OF M Y SKIN B ELOW MY N EC K . NO OTH E R P E R SON EVER WAS ALLOWED IN HIS I WOU LD LOVE HIM I N THE SU M M E R TI M E. F R U ST R A T I O N P L A C E . OR WHILE TH E F I R S T W I N T E R I L E A R N E D M O R E ABOUT M Y F E A R T H A N I H A D E V E R K N O W N . I WOU LD ABLE. T H E O R I FICES O F M Y BODY W E R E OPEN FOR HIM TO TA K E ON A W H I M . C H O P H I S F I R EWOOD. I WAS 1 73 . THESE I WAS W E E K E N DS NEVER FOR M Y S E L F. S P R E A D I NG FAR APART M Y JAWS A N D M Y SPH I NCTER AS H E I N VADED M Y O P E N B E I NG . M Y BODY A N D MY SELF W E R E C APTI V E S OF T H E H OUS E . M Y ASS. H E WOU L D LISTEN WHEN I PROFESSED W H I LE I MY LOV E . COM PLETELY ATTAC H E D T O N ATU RE. A LW A Y S VULNER­ HE WOULD TOLERATE NO L I M I TA T I O N TO MY ASSAULTS. H E WAS N EV E R M I N DLESSLY C R U EL. DO SO A LWAYS N A K E D. I OFTEN S A T D O W N N E XT TO TH E S TO V E TO TRY TO EASE MY NAKED COLDN ESS. CITY TO BE D R E A D E D. I WOU L D STA N D BEN EATH A HOT SPRAY OF WATER TO LET ITS MOISTU RE SOFT E N M Y BODY H A I R . I BECA M E F E A R L E S S OF M Y P H Y S I C A L S E L F. T H E W E E K E N D S TOOK O N MORE M E A N I NG EACH T I M E THEY W E R E R E PEATED. I WOU LD H A T E H I M IN T H E WINTER. H I M S E LF. THOSE TI ME S W H E N H E WOU L D FO RCE M E TO R UN WITHOUT SHOES T H R OUG H T H E S NOW TO GATH E R WE TA L K E D A LMOST NOT AT A LL. I F O R THE W E E K E N D I BECA M E H I S S E R V ANT. TO DO SO WOU LD BE TO T H R EATEN MY ATTENDANCE. BUT H E WO U L D N E V E R RESPO N D T O M E . MY M I N I STRATIONS WERE M I N D. V U L N E R A B I LITY OR HIS OWN GROW I N G BUT I WOULD ALWAYS R ETURN EVERY W E E K E N D FOR MY PILG R I M AG E . HE N E V E R W O U L D TA LK T O M E . R E S PO N D I N G P A S S I O N A T E L Y TO HIS CLOTHES. C L E A N HIS HOUSE. THE FEW W O R D S T H A T H A D PASSED I N TH E BEGI N N I NG B E G A N TO D I S A P P E A R THEMS ELVES A S TI M E M A D E T H E M S U P E RFLUOUS. I T HAD NOT TA K E N LONG FOR THE TRI P BACK TO THE FIN ALLY. NOT HIS FANTA S I E S OR HIS WOOD FOR T H E F I R E . TO I HIS BODY. THOUGH I COULD NOT HAVE STOPPED A N YO N E . THAT WAS U N I M PORTANT. I COULD B E FULLY D R E S S E D B Y T H E T I M E H E PA R K E D I N FRONT O F T H E I RO N R A I LS . OR E V E N I N T H E SOU N DEST OF S L E E P. HE WO U L D TA K E ME W H I LE STA N D I N G U P COOK I N G IN FRONT O F THE S TO V E .

GOES I N S I D E THE CAFE. 37. 36. R. STEPS OF COR P U L E N T M A N . R . STOPS. SEATED AT TABLE ON TH E TERRACE. 34. 33. 3 5."S H A N DS A R E S H A K I N G A LITTLE. 3 1 . THE WAITER B R I NGS TEA AND CROISSA NTS. I S DO I N G HER HAIR. FADE OUT: G RADUALLY FADE IN ON LONG SHOT: THE GALLERY MONTP E NS I E R. S M I LES AT WA I T E R. ROBERTE LOOK I N G A T SHOP W I N DOWS. 38. REPRINTED W I T H P E R M I SSION. 32. 1 74 . HESITATES. CONSIDERS THE SQ U A R E OF THE THEATRE FRA N C A I S. R. THE WASHROOM. R . R SEEN FROM REAR WALKING TOWAR D TH E FAR END OF THE GALLERY. R. JOHN PRESTON 30. R . T H I S PIECE APPEARED I N DRUMMER MAGAZ I N E .F R I G H T E N E D THAT I WOU L D FORGET THAT HE WAS NOT GOO.

I M AGI N AT I O N . THIS RAISES EVEN MORE ABOUT SOCI A L EVOLUTION THROUGH THEN O R I G I N A LL Y DISTRACTED. FOR TH E FI RST TI M E I N HIS LIFE. MODIFI ED. THE CON FIDENT GLOWING BEHIND FLIGHT OF BI RDS C ROSSING T H E BROADER LESS VISION THAN I MY NO OWN. AND WHO I IN THE F I N A L TWI LIG HT. THE C REATED LANGUAGE T H A N BI RDS I A M ONLY M Y 1 7 15 .CHORUS FOR A PSALM DA N I E L I S MY BROTH ER. " DEBBIE AN A MAN. WHO I HAVE DELIVERED MYSELF U N TO . MORE D I D. AND S TR A N G E AS LAKE'S I AGITATE D IT SEEMS. I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT WAY BEFORE EVEN THOUGH PHYSICA LLY I AM A L R E A DY QUESTIONS "EACH ON E LOOKS MORE R O TT E N . EVI DENCE7 IS MY THEORY OF B E H AVIORAL NEOTENY U N I V E R S A L TO BIOGRA P H ICAL? H U M A N I TY OR M E R E LY A U TO­ THE SUNSET C RACKED AND FLA R I N G OUR I N D I F F E R E NC E . WHETH E R OR NOT THEY CHOSE IT IS I M M AT E R I A L. ALONG W I T H A N OPPORTUN ITY T O W R I T E ABOUT IT. LA UGHED. S U BJ ECT TO THE REALITIES I HAVE CONVINCED ME OF. M Y SLAVES ARE ALL N U M B E R E D. M Y LOVE R . SUDDEN LY FELT L I K E A BOY FEELI NG LIKE A MAN WE SAT ON A D A R K E N I NG SHORE." I AGREED. D A N I E L FINDING G R U ESOME FACES ON THE PEBBLES THERE AND ALL OF US B URSTING. AM I MY OWN "DRAC U LA WITH E R ING. PARTLY THROUGH G E N ETICS. LACED. REPRESSED HOMOS E X U A LITY I NTENSIFIED B Y TH E SANCTI FICATION OF R EPRODUCTION. DA N I E L H A D ME SHOWI NG HIM HOW TONGUE'S PRODUCT. A N D MODIFY IT. TO S K I P STON E S AC ROSS THE H I DE. WORSH I P FOR H A V I N G G I V E N ME TH E E X P E R I E NC E . H E I S THE FI RST MAN WHO LET ME E NJOY BEING B U R I E D ALIVE I N THE SAND. F I X IT. I A D M I R E THIS BASIC HON ESTY OF A N I MALS. BUT WITH FEW E R WORDS TO DESCRIBE IT. M A R S H WITH A BUT POSSIBLY MY H U MAN BEHAVIOR IS LARGELY I N H E RITED. PARTLY THROUGH TRADITION. H E WILL B E THE FI RST M A N TO MAKE ME SUFFER BEING B U R I E D U P TO MY N ECK I N THE G RO U N D FOR LON G E R THAN I WANT UNTIL I KNOW EXACTLY WHO I S I N CONTROL. B I R DS MAY H A V E AS M UCH I MAGI NATION A S I DO. M Y MASTER HAS YET TO B E I DE NTI FI ED.

I NT E N S E THE MONOTO N O U S DEG R E E S OF E X TRAVAGANTI A LS O G E N E R A T I N G MOST I N T E R M EDIATE QUALITIES HOS­ A N X I ETI ES. T H E E N D R E S U LT I S A B R E E D O F M E N A L I E NATED FROM A BREED O F WOM E N A N D EACH I N D I VI DU A L A L I E N ATED FROM ITSELF. HUMAN M A N ITY ITSE LF. PITA BLE. THESE POLY­ DEATH W H I LE TH E SA NCTI F I E D ACTS FLOUR I S H I N A N E U ROTIC M A N N E R ." I N D I V I D U A L' S INCI DENCE OF GEN ITALS. EACH S E LECTIV E L Y CONS I D E R E D O P PO S I T E O N E W H E R E A N Y O N E I N DI V I D U A L LI ES ALONG O N E OF THESE S P ECTR U M S AND HOW THE SOCI ETY ORI E NTS TO W A R D THAT PORTION OF TH E S P ECTR U M NOU R I S H E D T O G ROW I N A D I STORTED M A N N E R A N D TRA I N E D TO B E H A V E I N T H E TRADITIONA L FASHION. PEOPLE DIC HOTOMOUS TREATM ENT. MINED AND SEXUAL POTENTI ALS A R E CONTRO L L E D . "NOR WILL YOU WET YOU RS E LF. S OC I A B I L I T Y . I NTELLIGENCE. THIS IS HOW HUMANS BREED A N D DOM E STICATE DETE R M I N ES W H E T H E R T H E I N D I VIDUAL'S G ROWTH W I L L BE H E A LTHY O R N E U ROTIC. HUMAN M A SC U L I N E A N D FEM I N I N E .EACH SION. H E N E E DE D TO PISS. T H E N I TOLD H I M . SOCI ET I E S O R I E N T T O M A N Y O F THESE S P ECTR U M S AS IF ONLY THEIR EXTR E M ES WHILE E X I ST E D . S U B M I S S I V E TO DOM I N AT I NG. B E H A V I O R A L T R A I T ( S E X U A L I TY. BEHAVIORS THAT DO NOT FIT THE CONTRI V E D G U I LTS NORM W H I LE ARE R I DDLED WITH ATTI­ G E N E RATED OF GENES. WITH ANY HUMAN POPULATION. AND THE F R A G M E NTS FRAG­ CONTROL H I S ASS. UNDER­ TH E G E N ETIC B E H A V IORS V A R Y W I T H THE I N D I V I DUAL. SOME EQUA LLY OBDU RATE. A N X I ETY.P E RC E PTUAL S E L ECTI VITY) BEG I N S A S A POLYG E N ET I C POTE N T I A L M U LT I T U D E R E S PO N S E PATTE R N . FANATIC WITH THE A T T E M PT TO CONTROL H I M S ELF. SEXUAL WITH OR SOME TRANS­ H I S BONE R A G E D WITH THE REST OF H I M . ( B I S E X U A L . VARYING I DI OT TO G E N I US. TO SOC I A L TO ANTI­ WITH S E X U A L U RG E IS R E S I STS THUS EVEN NOT E A S I LY D I SCOURAGED A N D M O S T BRUTAL THE REPRESSION. THIS IS HOW H U M A N S BREED A N D D O M E S T I C ATE THEIR C H I LD R E N AND TH U S HU­ SINCE H U MANS TH I N K D I C H OTOMO USLY. W H AT I N D I V I D U A L'S B E H A V I O R I S ALSO S E PA RATED I NTO N O R M A L A N D A B N O R M A L. ITS E M E RG I NG S E X U A L I TY IS THEN D I V I DED I NTO T H E P E R V E R S E A N D T H E S A N CT I FIED." S E L E C T I V E LY R E I N FORCED. LYING BETW E E N T H O S E A N OT H E R . I T I E D HIM UP SO HE H U RT AND COULD NOT EASILY RANGE. MOST OF THEM V A R I ABLY D E F I N ITIVE. SOC I A L. " Y O U W I L L NOT S H I T O N THAT FLOOR. TH E FEA R S AND CONVENTIONAL DEG R E E TO W H I C H THE E N V I RONMENT I N FLUENCES THESE G E N ET I C POTE N T I A LS D E P E N DS O N TH E TUDES A R E E M OTIONA LL Y R E I N FORCED. D I SC E R N I N G ) TO BE P E R C E PT I V E . THE ONE IS I N E V I TA B L Y REWARDED OT H E R I N E SC A P A B LY P U N I SH E D . U S U A LLY M A SC U L I N ITY EXAGGE R ATES TH E MEN W H I L E FEM I N I N ITY DU LLS THE WOM E N AS A BACKGROU N D FOR M A SC U L I N E THEATRICS. THE A N I M A L W H I L E GLOR I FY I NG TH E IS THEN DIVIDED I N TO H E G R E W F U R I O U S LY ON THE VERGE OF C R Y I NG. YOU WILL PISS AND S H I T W H E N I T E LL Y O U TO. S I N C E THE MAJORITY OF THE POPULATION MOST LIES WITHIN THE INTE R M E D I ATE ARE DISTORTED BY THIS W H E N I HAD H I M SO HE WAS ABOUT TO S H I T. WON D E R E D I F T H I S W A S R EGRESSIVE. I NT E N S I TY WITH W H I C H T H E G E N E S COLLECTI VELY WORK TO EXPRESS T H E M S E LV E S . SHAPED THEN MODI F I E D BY ITS B IOLOG I C A L AND CULTURAL E N V I RO N M E NT. HUMAN SOCI ETY F I RST S E PA RATES T H E I N D I V I D U A L I N TO W H AT IS HUMAN AND WHAT IS A N I M AL. P E R V E R S E ACTS A R E C R I M I N A L I Z E D A N D OFTE N P U N I S H A B L E BY EXTR E M E LY P L I A BLE. WITH I N FROM A S P ECTR UM OF Q U A L I T I E S BUT ONLY RANGING ONE E X T R E M E T O A N OT H E R STRICTLY BUT ( H ETEROS E X U A L TO HOMOS E X U A L.R I D D E N BY P R EVIOUS OPPRESSIONS. SOM E BEING IF THE I N D I V I DU A L SURVIVES THIS LEVEL OF OPPRESSION LONG ENOUGH TO REACH PUBERTY. TH E I R PSYCH E MENTED. C O M P R OM I S I N G . T H E SOC I A L E N V I RON­ MENT MA LNOU R I S H I NG O N E SEXUAL IDENTITY W H I LE FOSTE R I NG THE OTH E R ACCO R D I N G OFTEN TO THE " U N T I L I ORDER YOU TO. AGGRES­ AES­ AT TH E SAME IS TIME T H A T TH E SPLIT A N D R OG Y N O U S AND " M A N A PE" FEMININE BEING I NTO M A SC U L I N E O R REMAINS OF THE TH ETI C S ." PU N I S H I NG T H E HUMAN. I CONFUSION S E X U A L I S M . BUT 1 76 . AND AN ACTION BY A H U M ANS. T H E I R A N I M A LS. A SYNTHETIC N EOTEN Y OR AT L E A ST THE FANTASY OF O N E.

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Y O U . YOU R E M A I N OBEDI ENT­ LY S M ALL. BUT YOU BY TH E T I M E YOU'VE WITH U N PRECEDENTED AND M U C H HOOTI NG. F R IGHT­ F E M I N I N I TY . AND YOU DESERVE B E C A U S E YOU A R E A C H I L D AND A DAMN N U I SANCE.: I WROTE THIS B E FO R E I ACTUALLY TALKED WITH J R A N D DISCOV E R E D YOU HAD ALREADY TOLD H I M TH E BATTE R E D DETAI LS. T H A N K Y O U . I DISPLAYED THEM. BUT NOBOD Y CARES A N D A L L I CAN DO I S W E T M Y PANTS I N FEAR. ALL FACES A R E EXPECTED T O L OO K U P T O M E N . CON V E N T I O N A LI Z E D S OC I E T I E S WHERE AND L I V I NG. ONLY E ROTICALLY R E LEVA NT. WITH IF TH I S I S T R U E . DEGRADES YOU P. T H E W A Y WE W E R E W H E N L E A V I N G TA N N H A US E R . PEOPLE EVEN SET A G A I NST TH E M SELVES MORE S O A G A I N ST O N E ANOTH E R . T H E TH E OFFIC I A L STORY IS THAT YOU DRAGG E D M E PREVALENCE S U GG E S T S TO OF MALE POW E R STRUCTU R E S HUMAN MALE F R O M T R A S H C A N TO T R A S H C A N A N D P U B L I C LY BEAT THE LIVING WORMS OUT OF ME AT EVERY ONE OF THEM. W I V ES. AT F E E LS THE LIKE ROUTI N E E D G E OF JU NGLE THROUGH DANGE RS. YOU R SOC I ETY THREATE N S YOU WITH C R I M I N A LIZATION AND D A M NATION. S I N C E Y O U W E R E CONCERN ED. B U T M E N CAUGHT E Y E I N G OTH E R MEN ARE S U S PECTED MAN OF PERVERSION. I N M A N Y SOCI ET I E S . IT B E L I TTLES YOUR I N D I V I D U A LITY. C H I LD R E N . ONLY A AND NOW WADE I SN'T QUITE T H E SAME TH E R E FEW IS MUCH TRUTH TO IN THAT WITH C E R TA I N SOME THAT T H E POSSESSES A N I N H E R ENT ADVANTAGE OVER THE F E M A LE. SOM ETI M E S F I E RC E M A LE S HAVE OVER­ E N E D AN D F E E LI N G G U I LTY. A N D DOGS-AL L A R E S L A V E S TO A FIERCE SORT OF MASCULINITY THE AND A SAD SHOU L D YOU FAIL TO A P P R E C I ATE T H E S E R I OUS­ NESS OF SERVI NG.B E FO R E INSIDE HIS I COULD R E S E A R C H IT. H E R E A LIZES M Y T R U ST I N Y O U I S N O T POORLY FOU N DED. H E COULDN'T WAIT T O SEE TH E B R U ISES. H A V E OR WANT AN YTH I NG U N LESS YOU R SOCI ETY SAYS YOU CAN. I'M 1 78 . THIS IS A POWE R I N TO A GAME. A NOTH E R BEATING. FO RGIVE A MONG ME. M I N E AS WELL AS HIS. BEEN POTTY-TR A I N E D. BEING THE B O Y S A G A I N . OC C A S I O N A L L Y SAD B EC O M E F I E RC E A N D OVERTU R N THE MALE POWER STR UC­ TURE. ENSH R I N E D WITH SOLE M N VOWS AND W H I S P E R E D S U P P LICATIONS. NOBODY ENJOYS SERVING THEIR SOC I ETY. OF ESPECIALLY PEOPLE'S G R E E N . WHAT M E N H A V E DO N E A DV A NTAGE DOES N O T C R E D I T T H E M THAT CHA NGES STI LL COLOR WITH M U C H MATURITY A N D FURTH ER SUGGESTS T H E M A L E IS A LSO M O R E F R IGHTEN E D. S U D D E N LY IT I S A CRIME TO DO. A R E S E R V I N G YOU R SOC I ETY FOR EVER. THEY DO IT BECAUSE IT IS TH E I R D U T Y A N D B E C A U S E LIFE I S T OO S E R I O U S T O E NJOY. HIS ASS TO F I N A L. THEIR GLO R I F I C A T I O N IS V E R Y COCKY. APOCALYPSE. SO T H E AND S A N CT I F I E D EYES H I MS E L F I N ST E A D THROUGH T H E WOME N B R E D TO M I R ROR H I M . THEN SHAMES TH R O U G H YOU THE FOR HAVING PUT YO U R SOC I ETY IT BOTH E R . DANIEL SEEMS VERY COM FORTA B L E WITH YOU . IT I S N O SIR. AS N E U ROTIC A S HE IS I N S EC U R E THE A BO U T H I MSELF. HE NEEDS TO REMEMBER ME. SO I SADDLED M Y KITE A N D SWUNG C ROSSTOWN TO WATCH THEM HIS PLACE.S. STY L E ARE THIS OF IS SM T U R N E D FEMALE POW E R STRUCTU RES. SEC R ETLY F E E L I N G I U N D ERSTAND THE E Li M I N I ATION OF REPU LSIONS I S N ECESSAR Y IF T H E PROC ESS OF M ATURATION IS TO COM PLETE ITSELF. S E C R ET THAT WOM E N A R E EXPECTED TO A C T AS SOU N D I NG BOA R D S FOR M A LE I N SECU RITI ES. I T I S MASS N E U ROSIS IN PROGRESS. ANYMORE. A LSO.SO U N DS DANCE BLACK AND B L U E OV ER A SONG A AND LIKE. TOO FRIGHTENED TO CONTROL BLADDER ITSELF. I LOST THE IDEA HOWLING. I NVENTION NON E X I ST E N T D R I P P I NG WITH TORTU R E D BODI ES. WHICH FI RST OVERTHREW THE OTH E R I S PURELY ACADEMIC A N D NOT E A S I L Y PROV E N . S I R . I'M LACED AT THE I'M M O M E NT. FANATIC OR D E P R E S S E D. H A V I NG M E T YOU. M I SS YOU. YOU R E S I ST AT F I RST. C I V I L I ZATION WORKS BY M A K I NG YOU FEEL SM A L L. PRIDE I WADE FOR D E V I ATING FROM THE CONTR IVED NORM.

BUT NOT H E A V I E R W H I C H I N DICATED T O M E H E W A S A PREDATOR I NSTEAD O F A SCAVENGER. MY BREATH I NG A LWAYS WOR RI ED. GAGGED T O K E E P M E F R O M BRAGG I NG ABOUT T H E M . THEY W E R E AND KISSED M E W H E R E I T F E LT BEST. I H A D F E LT BLOWS L I K E T H E S E O N C E B E FORE A N D FEA R E D GOI N G I NTO SHOCK EVEN MORE THAN I PROSPECT O F H I S TAKING M E O U T I N BLACK LEATH E R COLLAR A N D LEATH E R RESTRAI NTS. BUT I W A S TOO BUSY A R E T H E M S E LV E S E A S I LY I N T I M I DA T E D ­ SOMETI M E S B Y A T R U E E N E M Y. WON D E R I N G AS H E BELITTLED M Y PREVIOUS TALES A S B R AGG I N G MY F I R ST I M PRESSION OF LOR D P R E STON WAS THAT HE WAS M UC H TALLER THA N I H A D E X PECTED H I M T O B E . A N D I H A D N O EXCUSE FOR IT-NO BONDAGE. I H A D NO GAG TO B I T INTO. B U T H E ONLY C A R E D A BOUT H I M S E LF. TH I R D SCREA M I NG . H E COULD HAVE SMACKED MY INSOLENCE. I SENSED HIS SMUG EYE BEHIND M E . M INOANS. AND B A B Y LO N I A . H ERODOTUS. W H E N H E F I N A L L Y STO P PED. I A M . I NSTE A D MY SECOND I M P R E SS I O N FEARED T H AT LORD H E GREW E X C I T E D BY T H E KNOW L E DGE THAT M Y SHOULD E R S H A D N E V E R BEEN W H I PPED BEFORE A N D THAT HE W A S OPE N I NG A R E A S WITH I N M E THAT H A D NEVER BEEN OPENED. AND SOPHOCLES). PRAYING TO N O GOD THAT I WOULD C O M E OUT OF THI S H A PP I E R T H A N I WAS. M Y E Y E S LESS 1 79 . ONLY A FOOLI S H S U B M I SSION. ANCIENT E TH I O P I A ." H E C H I DED. MASC U L I N E/FE M I N I N E REVERSED ( R E S E A RC H EGYPT. I WANTED TO CRY. A LS O T H E THOUGHT I T B EST I EXPRESS MY CONC E R N . S E C O N D B E A T I NG S H A TTE R I NG SOCI ETY. M A SC U L I N E C R I T I C I S M I S STA N DA RDIZED A S . ANCI ENT THE WITH T H A T T H O U G HT. FEM I N I N E C R I T I C I S M STA N D A RDIZED AS IDLE GOSSI P. H E BELTED M Y V I R G I N SHO U L D E R S S O H A R D SO I M M EDI ATELY THAT I K N EW I HAD N O HOPE O F B U I LD I N G DELIC ATE C R U ELTI E S I N TO A RC H I T E CT U R E S OF P A I N . A I NTO WORSH I P B E FO R E I EVEN ANY SAME SEX ARE WITHOUT CRITICISM. THE SECOND SMACK B U RST I N G MY A PP R E C I A T I O N . I S A N K U N D E R IN A H ETERONE U ROTIC SOC I ETY. THE S ELF-A N A LYS I S I M A Y H A V E BEG U N . THEY G R A BBED R U B B E R CORNERS. P R E STON WOU L D PUT M E I NTO SHOCK. F I N A LLY H E STO P P E D B E LTI NG M E . .PEOPLE A R E NOT DESPERATE FOR POW E R U N LESS THEY ARE DESPERATE TO I M PR E S S T H E M S E LVES U S U A LLY BECAUSE LORD PRESTON'S B E LT CONTI N U E D B R E A K I NG M E AND MY THOUGHTS. T H E FOURTH A N D S E V E R A L MORE BLOWS CUT I N TO MY SHOULDERS WITH NO HE LU R E D ME I N TO HIS CONTROL WITH A THE EXC E PT THAT HE PREFERS TO T H I N K OF U S AS STALLIONS. RESISTING T H E P A I N T O S U B M I T T O I T . I NTENSE. OPPRE S S E D YET FOR E V E R S E E K I NG TO BE R E A LIZED. NO ROPES AS M UCH AS I WANTED THEM." . M Y BACK DISPLAYING HIS MARKS AND MY MOUTH FEA R E D THE BLACK A N D B L U E M A R KS. SUMER.J U STICE. I SQUEEZED TEETH AND A N D TO I N T I M I DATE OTH E R S . H I S FINGE RTIPS R U P TU R I N G A LO N G MY B E A M I NG I HIDE AS HE HE T R A C E D T H E M U SC L E S W H E R E WHISPERE D HOW BEAUTIFUL CRI NGED. OR AT ROLES LEAST WERE MORE COM PLETELY BA LANCED. I ANGER E D AND RAGED THE D OC U M E N TS A N ATO L I A . IN M A N Y O F THE SOC I ET I E S B E FORE 2000 B C AND SO M E AS LATE AS 50 BC. ORDEA LS. I O N L Y K N E W THAT I S A W A P A R T OF M YSELF I N LORD P RESTON THOUGH HE WAS MORE PO W E R F U L AND MY H A R MLESSNESS M O R E OBVIOUS. OFTEN BY THAT PORTION O F TH E M S E LV E S T H A T H A S R E M A I N E D U NKNOWN. SENSITI VITY TO M Y OWN. DAN I E L A N D I H A V E SURVIVED M Y B R UI S E S B E FO R E . FROM AGAI NST T H E W H I P P I NG P A I N . "I THOUGHT Y O U W E R E H E A VY. I FED O N HIS FEVER. I TOOK EVERY OPPORTU N I TY TO I N FO R M H I M OF WHAT I LIKED BY TELLING F R E E LY OF MY P R EVIOUS -OTHERS H A V E TOLD ME I'M H EAVY B U T I N OTH E R W A YS. SOM ETI M E S BY T H E I N D I F F E R E N C E O F T H E I R WORLD. NO C H A I N S TO P U LL AGA I N ST.DO M I N A T E D SU PERFICI A L I DOLIZATIONS D R Y W I T H F E A R A N D C RYSTA L LI Z I N G K N E W IT. LORD P R E STON HAD A NEW DOG TO SHOW. • A N D LA B E L L E D M Y HEAVY A STRANGE S O R T OF PU FF. AND TH E A N D HE W A STED NO TI M E RELENTLESSLY BEATING M E FOR T H E R E ST O F T H E NIGHT A S H E LED ME FROM ONE TRASHCAN TO ANOTH E R . T H E TEMPLE AUTOMATICA LLY W E N T U P WITH THE FI RST SMACK OF HIS B ELT B R E A K I NG STA RS. H I S TO R I E S O F D I O DO R U S S I C U L U S . PEOPLE OF THE NOT TO LOOK A T ONE ANOTH E R IN A M A L E .

THE MAN W EA R I N G D E A D M I C E A R O U N D H I S N EC K D I D N O T KNOW WHAT W E W E R E DOI NG.D R I N K I N G FI STD R I LLI N G T R A S H C A N OF T H E M A LL. I RUSHED AT HIS SADDEN. DEFI NITELY A LESS CON F I D E N T I M PR E SSION THAN THE FI RST A N D EVEN THE S E C O N D I M P R ESSIONS. AGA I N H E O R D E R E D M E TO STRI P. T O T H A T B E LT U N T I L F R A NTIC T O E SC A P E I T AGA I N A N D AGAIN. HIS D E E P VOICE H U NGRY AT T H E V I S ION OF M Y M A R K E D M U SC LES. T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS K N E W A N D W E R E A M AZED. AT THE SI LKY DINER. N E E DI NG T O P I S S . S H E A S K E D T H E Q U E ST I O N AGAIN OF LO R D P R E ST O N AND HE BLOODY M U S H A N D I WOULD LOVE IT. S O M E O F IT SMUG. H E C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E F U R T H E R . A M A I T R E S S E G R A B B E D ME FROM B E H I N D. A FEW TRASH C A N S LATER.F I E RC E .I N A VERY RESERVED SORT OF W AY-FOR TRYING T O B E WHAT THEY W E R EN·T. AT TH E TA N N H A U S E R . BUT SO H A R D MY RAGE W A S G E N U I N E AGA I N . ORGA S M S OF PAl N A N D FEAR BLASTING AS I FOUGHT A G A I N ST ROPES AND C H A I N S WH I L E N A K E D I N FRONT O F STR ANGERS. FOR H E R I N FO R M A T I O N . STILL FIND EROTIC. T H E N E S C A P E . WITHOUT TH E PHYS I C A L R E I N FORC E M ENT I ONCE. I E X P LO D E D . A S K I N G I F I . H E C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E UNTI L I ONLY H U NG TH E R E B L U B B E R I NG. P ROC E E D E D TO B E A T M Y T E N D E R BODY. ALL OF ME IN A COLD TERROR B A TT E R E D OR S P I R I T U A L. C A N S A N D S P R A Y E D M E WITH B E E R A N D SODA. M Y BELLY TIGHTE N I N G A N D PULSING W H I L E T H E TI P O F M Y P E A N U T STUNG. SOM ETI M E S I FEARED M Y LORD'S MOOD. TH E N . EVERY T I M E HE BEAT ME M E T O ST R I P NAKED IN FRONT OF E XC E PT FOR MY SOC KS. G R A B B I NG M E BY T H E H A I R . H A D B E E N LEFT T H E R E A L L A LONE. M UCH ME TO I E V E N M O R E ACUTELY A W A R E OF MY N U D I TY A N D R E M E M B E R E D H E A R I NG O F T H I S TACTIC B E FORE. SOM ETI M E S I BATH E D I N T H E SWEAT A N D TH E HEAT OF H I S BODY EMBRACING THOUGH MY ME. M Y P A N I C T OO C O L D . FOR BEFO R E THE I COU LD EVERY TIME HE S TO P P E D . F I R ST TI M E H ETERO­ E M B R A C E A N D A C C E PT E D H I S D E E P LONG K I S S I NTO MY H E A V Y B R E AT H I NG. K N EA D I N G HER CLAWS I N TO MY I M P R ESSION W A S L A R G E LY A PROJECTION OF MY OWN ANTICI PATION S . Y A N K I NG AGA I N ST H I S F I R M G R I P O N M Y S C A LP. FLESH WAS HOT WITH N E R V E S . PHYSICAL CONTI N U E D I N C A PA B L E OF ANY HE R ES I S T A N C E . EYED H I M . RAGE AT A N D F I N A LLY S U B M I T I LAU G H E D INSIDE A STI F F A ND TENDER BODY. HAVE BEGAN TO F E E L GOOD. THEY H A D GAT H E R E D TH E R E AT A CONVENTION F O R THE L I B E RATION OF S A D O M A S OC H I S M FROM A NONCON SENSUAL HE GOT MORE MARKS THAN EITHER TOO OF US A N T I C I PA T E D BECAU S E H E WAS S E N S UOUS AND I TOO C RAZY WITH IT TO S A Y N O A S H E PULLED ME OUT OF THE A PPLA U S E OF H ETEROS E X U A LS I NTO T H E B I G G E S T P I S S. "TH I S I S V E R Y BIZARRE. OUR BODI E S IN LOVE. B U T H E D I DN·T. I WAS AGA I N . M I N D LESSLY ROA R I NG. I EXAGG E R A T E D E V E RY S E N SATION WITH F R A N TI C BREATHI NG. POO R T H I NG. T H E B E LT W A S T OO A N G R Y FOR M E T O W A N T I T . I H A D NO T I M E T O WON D E R WHY. ORDERED S EX U A LS. C H A I N E D MY W R I STS TO A N OV E R H E A D B E A M A N D. FASC I N A TED B Y T H E S E PEOPLE WHILE C RAZY WITH A L U ST TO B E B E ATEN A GA I N AND T H E FEA R OF WHERE IT WAS LO R D LEADING P R E S TON ME. BUT SOON FRETTED WITH T H E KNOWLEDGE TH I S MAN COULD TU RN ME I NTO A E L E PH A NTS A N D M U N C H I NG I N M Y E A R . EROTICIZED B E I NG M A N Y O F THE M E N H A V I NG P U N I S H E D F O R TH E I R T R A N SV E STI S M .E AGLE TO A V E RTIC A L GRID. l BO . THIS M A STER PROCEEDED TO B I N D M E S P R E A D. T H E N OVERW H E L M E D M E W I T H THE MOST E ROTIC BEATI NG O F M Y LIFE." G R O U N D U NT I L S U S P E N D E D BY F L E X E D B I C E P S . T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS A M AZED M E A S MUCH A S WE A M A Z E D T H E M . I W A N T E D S O M E WATER. T H E REST O F M E TWISTING A N D STRUGGLING T O D E A L W I T H . G LO R I O U S W I T H T R A N S S E X U A L H U M I L I A TI O N AS THEY S U F F E R E D. TH E BEATINGS POLITELY D I S M I SS E D H E R . I T U R N E D MY E Y E S A W A Y FROM H E R WITH A LL T H E P R I D E OF K N O W I N G WHO M Y R E A L M A STER W A S A N D. MY THIRD I M PRESSION OF LORD PRESTI ON WAS AS THIS MAN WHO WAS PRETE N D I NG TO BE MY THAT EITHER I D I D WHAT H E WANTED OR I WAS IN MORE TROU BLE THAN I A LREADY WAS IN. I N STEAD HE L E D ME A BOUT WITHOUT THE GAG AND WITH IT IT A FAR S U BT L E R HOW BONDAGE. WAS. HIS BUT MORE S E RVE FORC I NG D R E A D. LO R D P RESTON EYED M Y E Y E AND S M I LED. K N O W I N G W H E N TO STOP S I N C E HE W A N T E D M E A G A I N AND WITH A S M A N Y M A R K S ON M Y BODY A S H E COULD L E A V E WITHOUT LOS I N G M Y A FFECTION. I BREATHED WITH AN I N C R E A S I NGLY GEN U I N E R E S E NTED E F F ECTIVE THEN. ME COULD THEN BEATING EVEN UNTIL M Y R A G I N G BON E F I N A LLY SPI LLED A N D I S C R E A M E D . H AULING M Y S E L F OFF T H E SOM E O F IT N E RVOUS. TH E A I R W A S HEAVY WITH G U I LT. M Y T E R RO R LOVELESS E V E N A S T H E C RO W D OF GRIMY M U SC L E D M E N S H O O K TH E I R OPPRESSION.

EXCEPT AS A N U LTIMATE EXTEN SION OF IMAGINARY POWER STRUCTURES. GIVEN ITS KINO OF FAITH A N D THE FAITH OF OTHE R S FEEDING I NTO T H A T FAITH. T H I C K WITH M I RACLES AND "FAITH H EALI NGS" ARE NO PROOF OF GOD. I GRABBED H I S E M BRACE. T H E N YOU ARE HOPI N G SOMEBODY ELSE W I L L TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE. FOR MANY PEOPLE. THEN LAUGHED D E F E N S I V E LY AT A GUSH OF U N E X PECTED PAIN. INDIGNANTLY ASTO U NDED.SWEATY SOCKS. W H E N YOU ARE TRULY DESPERATE TO BELI EVE W H E N H E W A S DONE.HE GRABBED ME I N THE M I DDLE OF A FEAR A N D SIGNALLED HE WAS DONE. I R E S O R T E D TO SOU NDING TOO D I S H O N ESTY I N T H E F E A R O F ROMANTIC ONLY TO F I N D I H A D FAILED T O FEED H I S E G O A N D PLEASE H I M AS I WOULD HAVE L I K E D. E M OT I O N A L T A N G L E D A N I E L. HE TOLD ME HE ON LY STOPPED BECAUSE H E C A U G H T H I MSELF LOSI N G CONTROL. H E PUSHED M Y FACE I NTO ALL OF T H E M A N D A LLOWED M E TO BATHE M Y TONG U E A N D M I N D T H E R E . CAUSING THE N A K E D M A N W H O H A D BEEN WATC H I NG US T O F U M B L E H I S BON E AND DEPART. THEY ONLY P ROVE DESPE RATE PEOPLE CAN DO MORE WITH TH E I R OWN MIND AND BODY THAN THEY T H I N K THEY CAN. 181 . WHEN H E TURNED M E AROU N D A N D BROUGHT M Y BACK INTO HIS C H E ST. R E A LITY WHEN FOR I N T R U T H TH E R E THE IS NO R E A L EVIDENCE E X I ST E N C E OF A N Y GOO. IT A LSO SUGGESTS THAT GODS A R E HYPE RTROPH I C MANI FESTATIONS OF OUR I N N E RMOST DESI R ES TO BE MORE THAN W E ARE A N D THAT WE WORSH I P OUR GODS A S I NTENSELY A S W E L U ST TO WORS H I P OURSELVES. BUT D E C I D E D T H I S P U B L I C WAS N O PROTECTION . I TOLD H I "" I T WAS TOO EROTIC KEEPING TH E M O N . LORD PRESTON STI LL A L A R M S M E A N D MORE SO W I T H EVERY R E-EVALUATION OF THAT N I G HT. A N D NEVER WILL KNOW. H I S M I N D A NXIOUS W I T H HOW BEAUTIFUL H I S MARKS WERE AS I STRUGGLED BACK I N TO M Y CLOTH ES. I GRABBED A POL E SO I COULD R E M A I N STA NDI NG. HE S E E M E D TO K NOW I W A NTED H I S A R M PITS A N D H I S C ROTCH A N D. H I S V O I C E B E H I N D M E P R A I S E D M Y BODY. IT TELLS M E THEY HAVE BEEN TRICKED I N TO BELIEVING THAT THE I R UNREALIZED POTENTI A L LI ES I N A NOTH ER BEI NG. THE I N D I V I D U A L I S EVER TO GET OVER ITSELF A N D MATURE W I T H TH E E N E RGY T O CONFRONT T H E B U S I N E S S O F A D A I LY S U RVIVAL. I LA UGHED. FRANTIC TO TASTE HIM AND L I C K I N G W H EREVER HE ORDERED ME. I WORRI E D AS H E C H A I N E D M Y W R I STS T O M Y TH ROAT A N D PROC E E D E D T O W H I P M Y B A G S A N D BONE WITH LOOPS O F THONG. YOU ARE ACTIVELY CONVINC I N G YOURSELF T H A T A G O D DOES I N FACT EXIST. LORD PRESTON BROUGHT ME TO BED WITH H I M . I CONSIDERED B I T I N G H I M . TH E N R E SENTED IT: WRITH E D A N D GROVELLED U N D E R IT. TH E N SCR E A M E D BEFORE ADORING H I M AGA I N BECA USE H E KNEW WHERE TO STOP WITHOUT LESSENI NG M Y FEAR OF H I M . M E NTIONI NG I WAS DRAWN TO THEM BECAUSE OF TH E I R LABEL WHEN A MORE HON EST RESPONSE WOULD HAVE HOOTED THAT I W A N T E D TO KEEP THEM ON BECAUSE THEY CLUNG TO M Y FEET WITH THE FI LTH FROM EVERY FLOOR HE HAD B EATEN ME OVER. I FEARED THE LOSS OF OTH E R I NTE RESTS A N D S O RISKED THE LOSS O F LOR D PRESTON. W H E N YOU PRAY DESPITE G ROWING DOUBTS. I TOLD H I M HE ENJOYED BEATING ME M UC H H A R DER I N FRONT O F WI LD M E N THAN A MONG H ETEROSEX­ U A LS." T H E I N T E N S I T Y OF T H A T DESPE RATION DRAWING OUT OF THE I N DIVIDUAL POTENTIALS IT NEVER K N EW I T HAD. VAGUELY AWA R E MY POSE WAS NOT A S THEATRICAL AS I B E L I E V E D . E L E P H A NTS I N TO HIS C ROTC H THIGHS W H I L E W O R D L E S S . H E WONDERED W H Y I DIDNT WANT T O TAK E M Y SOC K S O F F E V E N AS H E BEGAN T O DO IT F O R ME. THIS PHASE OF S ELF-WORSH I P IS NECESSARY I F LORD PRESTON YAWNED. T H E C ROWD H A D ALREADY SC R E A M E D F O R M Y BLOOD W H I LE M Y MASTER W A S B EATI NG M E F O R H I S O W N PLEASURE. P R E F E R A B LY IN GOO. RELEASING ME. BE I T TH R O U G H POS S E S S I O N BY D E M O N S O R THROUGH TH E GRACE OF GOD. WHEN YOU PRAY. THE EXISTENCE OF A GOO I S A I THI N K HE CAUGHT ME A N A LYZI NG TH E N . S E N S A T I O N S W H I LE A FLOOD OF CONFLICTING EMOTI O N S H I D B E H I N D M Y S M I LE. S U DD E N LY HE ORDERED ME TO P U L L MY PANTS DOWN A N D P U S H E D M E B A C K ONTO T H E GAM ETABLE. THEN PRAYERS SOM ETIM E S "WORK. MORE SECRETLY I RESISTED M Y S E LF A N B E TW E E N T H I S M A N A N D THE GROWING U R G E TO S P A R E F I L L I NG M Y S E L F WITH T H E S E N SATION S AT THE BACK OF MY H E A D RUBBING TH E BACK OF HIS. I N A R OO M W H E R E WE W E R E A LLOWED TO TALK. C R AZY WITH THE SIGHT OF ME AT THE END OF H I S B E LT. THEY WERE H A R DLY T H E SORT TO SAVE M E FROM HIS ANGER. I ADORED IT. S H O U L D E R S A N D E L E P H A NT S R A D I A T I NG. BETW E E N HIS I RISKED D R I V I NG M Y FLARING AND M A SSAGED MY H E A D S A I LED.

EACH ARM. THE USE OF HIS HAND D E S P E RATION CON C E R N . "STR I P. WHEN ROPE N E XT I WOKE. R I D I C U LO U S . MY HOLE OPENED. W E LOSE OUR WARMTH A N D BECO M E TOO SERIOUS T O LOVE . S E E M E D. BUT I N S I D E I T H I N G S I N PROPORTION A N D I S H A K E MYSELF F O R A N E W P E R S P ECTIVE. DESPE RATION R E S I ST A N T TO SUSPENDED AND T H E R E FO R E I N A PPROPRIATE. IT C H RONIC IS A N X I ETY IS A HU RTING ORDERS ME T O D E C I D E WHICH PART OF M E HE'LL TORTURE N EXT. "YES. THE EXPLOSIONS A S P A I N LESS AS THEY W E R E DISORI E NTING. I GUZZLED E V E N AS H I S BLADDER PROVED LA RGER T H A N MY BELLY. SI R. HE STI R R ED. LAST? HOW LONG IS THIS GOI NG TO A N X I ETY FOR IS AN EMOTIONAL T U R MOI L DESPERATE C H A RG E D BE WTH FEARS AND ITS D I R EC T I O N . H E TALKED OF TAKING EACH P A RT OF MY BODY ONE AT A T I M E . MASS N E U ROSIS W H E N CONVENTION ALIZED. ITS M OT I V A T I O N . HAND AND FOOT. I K N E W WHAT THE S I NGLE WORD FROM HIM WOULD BE. T H E N ELEPHA NTS. SHOULDERS.WITH I N A COOPERATIVE GROUP TI M E TO PLAY AS EFFORT SEEKING WELL LOSE AS WORK R E M E M B E R I NG HOW EASILY HE PUT ME IN A N D OUT OF MY CLOTH ES. AND I LEA R N E D H E COULD DRI LL MY H O L E ALL DAY A N D I WOULD LOVE IT. I CA N'T S E E M TO DISC I P LI N E MYSELF TO FORGET H I M . HIS BON E STI LL MOVING WON DROUSLY I NSIDE M E . N E U RO S I S . HE W H I S P E R E D I NTO MY EAR. FROM B E H I N D ME. WITHOUT WORK. T H I S D I FFUSE A N X I ETY I S USUA LLY S U BC O N SC I O U S AND M A N I F E STS ITSELF AS S E R IOUSN ESS. M ENTA L D I SO R D E R . WE MEANING. PLEADI NG. A TREMBLING TO MY BODY. MY BONE WAS ALREADY HARD AND I WOR K E D IT. A L L O F ME SNORTI NG F O R A I R A N D STEADYING MYSELF BY GRABBING H I S N A K E D LEGS. R E ACTI V E . ENOUGH TOG ETH ER. BAGS A N D PEANUT. BY B E L I TT L I N G AND DEG R A D I NG A N YO N E ' S I N D I V I D U A LITY. ITS DESPERA­ TION WAS NOT MEANT TO BE SUSPENDED I N D E F I N ­ ITELY UNTI L A PATHETIC. CONFUSED I THE VERGE C R Y I NG. TH E N BROUGHT HIS P E A N UT I NTO MY MOUTH A N D NONCHALA NTLY P I S S E D . BUT HAR­ TH E THOUGHT C R A Z E D M E A N D I S P I L L E D EN DLESS­ LY UNTIL LORD P R E STON ENDED IT. M Y B O N E R E FUSED TO RAGE A N D S PI LL. BUT FIND S O M ETI M E S M Y S E LF ON HE IT F E E L S ME SO OF HAS "ARE YOU HORN Y?" HE W H I SP E RED I NTO MY HA LF­ SLEEP. ON LY TO FLOU N D E R A S LORD PRESTON ORDERED M E TO WORK MYSELF I NTO SPI LLING." HIS HAND M O L E ST E D THE HOLE BETW E E N MY TH E N I GROW ANGRY AT MY FAILURE TO K E E P ELEPH A NTS. I F THE DESPE RATION I S SUSPENDED LONG ENOUGH. EVEN MORE D I SQU I E T I N G IS THAT HE HAS ME SO I NO LON G E R K N O W W H AT'S R E A L A N D WHAT'S CON· TRIVED. A FT E R A PRELI M I NA RY PEEVE. H E SLID I N . TORTU R I N G EACH ONE U NTI L ALL OF ME I S TOO TENDER TO TOUCH A N D MY M I N D SO MUCH THAT IT BREAKS WHEN HE R E SOLUTION. OR SO IT DENED HAPPY IN THE W A R MTH OF LORD PRESTON'S BODY CURLED ROU N D M Y OWN. EACH THIGH A N D CALF. IT SOU N DS R I D I C U LO U S . D E S P E R A T I O N I N C A P A B L E O F R E SO L U T I O N . IT CAN DOUBTS. A N D M Y BODY TO ITS KNEES. A NTICI PATING HIS NEXT BEATING. A N X I ETY EVOLVED A S A M EC H A N I S M FOR QU ICKLY R E S PO N D I NG TO ATTACK OR P E R I L. SU DDENLY I REALIZED HE WAS IN CONTROL. A N D I N S E C U R I T I E S FIXATED. D I R ECTION OR OR BY IT F OC U S I N G CAN BE SPECIFIC WITHOUT DIFFUSE. WITHOUT P L A Y . T H E U S E O F MY BODY H I S. DESPERATE TO BE E M B RACED. CONVENTION A LI Z E D S M G E N ERATES I B2 . I FROWNED A T T H E LACK OF A ROU N D MY H A N DS AND FEET. G R E A S E D I T AND BROUGHT H I S FRESH BONE I N TO PLACE. ROSE. H I S WORDS SOU N D I NG A R E A LITY W H E R E WITH A S I NGLE WORD H E WOU LD B R I N G TEARS TO M Y EYES. R E SOLVING ON A WANTED HIS H A N D T H E R E I NSTEAD OF MY OWN. " T H A T TERRI FY I NG O R D E R T O Y I E L D EVE RYTH I N G TO H I S B R UTA L W H I M . R E M E M B E R I NG THE D E PTH OF MY UNEASIN ESS AS I HAD TO WAIT. ITS E N ERGY D I S S I PATES AND S O B R I ETY B E C O M E S A P ATH E T I C . AS I F WAITING FOR HIM TO TA K E CONTROL. A P A S S I O N T H I C K E N E D I N S I DE ME.

I CAN S E E H I S GAME. EVEN AS I THE SM OF S E X U A L FANTASY. THE DIC HOTOMOUS ACTION OF THESE DELUSIONS ALLOWS TYPES CON V E NTIONALIZED PEOPLE-THOSE sM TO BREED TWO LORD PRESTON COM M U N ICATED HIS VOICE. J U ST AS A N X I ETY I S A RESPONSE TO D A N G E R . A N D M A S S N E U RO S I S S E T S TH EM I NTO ACTION. ESPECIA LLY EROTIC S M. I NC L U D I N G TRANSFIGU R E D I NTO A FOREV E R D E F E N D O U R S E LVES AGA I N ST. I K NOW EXACTLY WHAT H E I S DOING. FANTA S I E S A R E A R E S PONSE TO U N R ESOLV E D A N X I ETY. T H E N DI FFUSES I T D U R I NG T H E E A R LY Y E A R S O F TRA I N I NG.A COMMON A N X I ETY. U N A B L E T O R E SOLVE OU R D E S P E R ATION. T H E M O R E FIXED THE Y BECOME. THE CONVENTI O N A L­ IZED SM R E I N FO R C E S THIS S E R IO U S N ESS WITH NO CONVENTION A L SYSTEM W I L L TOLERATE THIS. EROTIC SM. TH E CONVENTION HAS D U P E D ITS N E U ROTIC MASSES I NTO B E L I E V I NG THAT F A NTASY PLAY. THE CONVENTION M A K E S TH E RULES. USUALLY T H E FANTA S I E S A LLOW THE PLAYERS TO TAKE ROLES OPPOSITE TH OS !" THEY HAVE IN H E MADE I T CLEAR HOW MUCH H E OWNS ME. W E FORCE I T OUT OF AWARE­ N ES S A N D BECOME S E RIOUS. EROTIC SM'S MAJOR POTENTI A L I S I N ITS VIOLENCE. T H U S OR A PATH Y WITH S E R IOUSN ESS W I L L S E R V E. BESIDES H I S OWN P E R SONAL FORCE. WILL HE ACHIEVE HIS GOAL ONLY TO TOSS M E ASIDE LIKE SOME TOY THAT NO LONGER A M U S E S H I M ? R EALITY. THE MORE INTENSE TH E E ROTIC SM. HIS I N STR UCTI ONS YET HE HAD WITH L E FT MY ME TODAY. ME WITH A OF WHO W I L L LET THEM­ SELVES BE CONTROLLED AND THOSE WHO WANT TO CONTROL. AS AN ELEMENT OF IT TRY TO CONVI N C E MYSELF I AM ON LY CONTRIVING THIS. THE MORE IT'S J U ST AN IDEA. T H I S NO LONGER FEELS L I K E A GAME. I CAN S E E M E TELLING MYSELF I W I L L GET DOES E X I ST MASS OVER H I M A N D AT THE SAM E TI M E STEPPI NG I NTO H I S PRESENCE. D A N I E L I S M E R ELY A N OTH E R STA LLION LORD P R E STON's STA LLION HAS T A K E N A STRONG FANCY TO. N E U ROSIS. PEOPLE FOR T H I S R E A SON A LONE. BUT IT CHA NGES N O N E OF MY R E ACTIONS. PLAYERS. A N X I ETY. R E L I G I O U S A N D PO L I T I C A L DELUSIONS WHICH A C T EITHER AS A N A RCOTIC T O E N C O U R A G E A PATHY O R A S A DECOY FOR THOSE W H O S E E N E RGY WILL NOT D I S S I PATE. B U T OC C A S I O N A L L Y T H E F A N T A sT Y ROLES TO A L LOW. KNOWI NG HOW TO A LL O F THEM C H RONICA LLY ANXI ETY­ R I D D E N . W H A T R E A LLY A L LOWS ME TO C O N T I N U E . D R E A M S R E L E A S E THE S U BT L E R A N X I ETIES. THE F I RST GODS WERE L I K E THE P U NC H I NG BAGS WE WORK THOSE THAT H A V E U S S E R V I NG OU R SOCI ETY. KNOWING IT TO B E A TRAP I MAY NEVER LEAVE. THE E ROTI CIZATION FINAL POW E R OF WE FEAR M U ST VIOLENT THE EMOTIONS IT RELEASES. I S T H E FACT F A N TA S I Z I N G LETS YOU FOC U S SOME DIFFUSE THAT HE HAS M A D E I T CLEAR THAT THIS W I L L NOT INTRUDE I NTO M Y R E LATION S H I P WITH DA N I EL. S E X U A L S M A LLOWS T H E PARTI C I PANTS T O P L A Y PA RTS OF T H E POWER G A M E T H E Y A REN'T P LA Y I N G I N T H E I R EVERYDAY LIVES. I S M ERELY A R E F LECTI O N NOT OF I T S CO N V E N T I ON A L FO R M . REQUI R I NG MORE VIOLENT E MOTIO N S TO R E SOLVE TH EM. 010. G I V I N G IT A D I R ECTI ON. BUT IT STR UCK ME THAT ORIGINALLY GODS M A Y HAVE A C T E D A S A P R I M E R FOR AGG R E SSION. SU­ I F E A R T H E TOTALITY WITH W H I C H T H I S MAY FIXATE M E ON H I M . I S MORE N E U ROTIC THAN TH E I R CONFOR M ITY. TH E DECOY DRAWI NG TH E I R ANXI ETI E S O U T OF THE S U BCO N SCIOUS A N D FOC USING T H E M I N T O A L U S T FOR POW E R A N D G LORY. THE POWER GAME ACQ U I R E S ITS RAGING BONE. I ONLY TOLD MYSELF IT S I M PLY EXAGG E RATES T H E EVERYDAY AN EXTR E M E WAY. ESCAPE BUT LAC K I N G THE WILL TO DO SO. I'M STI LL S H A K I NG. THOSE O R I G I N ATI N G COU R S E O F A AND DAY U N RESOLVED OR TWO. BY EROTICIZING THE CONVENTIONAL POW E R GAME I NTO A CONTEXT FOR FANTASY. I STILL FEEL POW E R LESS IN H I S PLAY. T H E DURING LO N G E R THE THE TO LOR D P R ESTON. MASS N E U ROSIS I S M O R E DIFFICULT TO M A I NTI A I N I F ITS CHRONIC A N X I E T I E S A R E B E I N G FOC U S E D A N D R E SOLV E D W I THOUT LESSEN I NG WHICH THE SOC I A L R E G U LATI O N . B U T A S A COM P E N SATION FOR IT. E N TI R E BODY SHIVE R I NG A N D WOR R Y I NG. A L R E A DY HE HAS ME IN PLACES NO ONE HAS EVER HAD B E FORE. E ROTIC SM T H E R E FORE HAS TH E POTENTI A L TO R E SOLVE SOM E OF OUR MOST FIXATED A N X I ET I E S . A N D R E LEASE IT. A N X I ETIES P E R S I ST. IT N E V E R D I D . THAT THE R E ALITY WOULD OBJECT IS TO NOT EITH E R R E LE A S E P R E S S E D EMOTIONS. 1 83 .

P A L M O F R:S HAND SEEN BY CORPULENT M A N . D I DN'T ACTU A L L Y H A N G I NG BY MY N EC K AND T I E D H A N D-AND-FooT. THE CORPU L E N T MAN PLACES H I M S E L F BETW E E N THE DOOR OF THE SHOP AND R. 41 BIS. SIR. 43. 44.OUT ON IN O R D E R TO R E M A I N MORE AGG R E SSIVE N E W C E LLS. STILL REMAIN S E LVES. HER H A N DS. I N A N Y F O R M . EXCERPTS FROM BUGS. J A SON K LE I N TH E B R U I S ES LOOK BEA UTI F U L IN THE M I RROR. PISS I DI DN"T E V E N TRY. I S U S P E N D E D M Y S E L F BY T H E N EC K T O WATCH TH E M A N D H O W I M IG H T STR UGGLE. 4 2 . PERVE RTS A N D INFERIORS WHILE THE GODS M UTATE D I NTO TERROR O F YOU R FEEL IF YOU WAS R EACTION A N D HOW IT WOU L D B E AT I N G A ME THEN. THE DOOR O F THE N E I G H BORING SHOP. H ESITATES I N F R O N T OF TW O N E I GH BORI NG SHOPS. W I N DOW S ROUGHLY PA I N TED. I TRI E D FOR A SECOND C O M I NG. ANGRY FOR AIR AND S U DDE N LY PISSING I N THE THAN WE A R E BUT H A V E TO B E TO S U R V I V E . 42 B I S. A NOVEL EVEN IF THEY HAVE DULLED U N DE R TH E DUST O F 39. 1 84 . S P I L L E D E V E N THOUGH I COULD NOT BEAT M YSELF THE WAY YOU WOULD. R . W I N DOW D I SPLAY OF WOMEN'S BLOUSES. THEY S E E M M O R E A PART O F M E NOW A N D M A K E ME LOOK L I K E A N A N I M A L . IF THIS IS M O R E T H A N J U S T A N I NTUITIVE I N SPI RATI ON. (CLOSE UP) R : S H A N D ON THE DOOR K NOB. T H E N I N E E D TO BECA M E P U N C H I NG BAGS OTH E R PEOPLE L A B E L L E D FREA KS. 40. GODS W E R E U N DOUBTEDLY I N V E N T E D OUT O F A DESPERATION FOR POW E R . BUT I YO U R E A S I LY WERE O N LY J U S T I FICATIONS FOR TH E I R P E R S ECUTION. T R A V E L L I N G : R O B E R T E W A L K I N G SEEN F R O M R E A R . 415. HOW I M IGHT LOOK I N YOU R EYE. ONE HOLDING BAG. THE OTH E R SWINGI NG. ROBERTE'S H I PS. I F TH E R E I S A BASIC TRUTH DETER M I N E HOW THE H E R E . 41. AND I IN TE R ROR U NTIL. D I V I N E D I SC I PL I N A R I A N S FAILURE TO COM P E N SATI NG R E S PO N S I B L E FO R FOR OUR OUR­ R EACTION FANTASY. EYES OF CORPULENT MAN WHO WALKS MORE S LOWLY.

HIS DREAM WORLD I S THE SPH E R E THAT A L LOWS IT I S TOO S I M P LISTIC. HIS PELVIS THE S H A R P. I S!! . QUICK HER TH ERE ARE OTH E R PEOPLE FOR WHOM THE REAL WORLD I S DAYLIGHT: A N I N E-TO-F I V E JOB. EXPER I E N C E D AS REA LITY IS I N F A C T H I S FANTASY. THE MALE POU N C E S BUT JASON I S W RONG. WILL NOT U N DE RSTA N D WHAT H I S FANTASY IS. A LOVER. THE WAVES THAT C A R R Y MY WORDS TO HIM S H ATTER H I S WOR L D AND C R E ATE H E CA N'T BE BLA M E D FOR A L L OF T H E M . TELEPHONE WIRE.A STORY DEDICATED TO J A SON JASON SAID: " M A K E ME F E E L LIKE A N A N I M A L. A HOME. SLAM A G A I NST LEARN THAT THE DAY TO DAY EXI STENCE HE H A D THAT I S WHAT JASON WA NTS TO FEEL. H E R MOUTH S N A RLS WITH A NG E R AND SPITE. THAT TH E FA NTASY I S HIS C R E ATION A N D H E M A I N TA I N S POW E R OVER IT. THE F E M A L E I S CAUGHT I N A F U R Y OF CONTRADICTION: HER REAR E N D L I FTS U P I NVITING HIS COCK TO E NTER HER. HE WA NTS MY BODY SLA M M I NG I NTO HIS. H E BELIEVES HE LEAVES REALITY AND ENTERS FANTASY OF H I S OWN TH ERE I S A JASON WHO DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT ME. IT IS ENTI R E LY FALSE. O N C E H E HAD M ET M E . JASON LOST T H A T DICHOTOMY. HE HAS H A D TO PLUNGES WETNESS. M A K I NG DECISIONS. HE TH I N K S TH E GREATEST R I S K HE TAKES IS THAT SOM EONE ELSE I AM SITTING IN MY L I V I N G ROOM. VIOLE NTLY O N H E R B A C K . CR EATI N G I N DEPEN DENT­ LY. G R I PPING THE NAPE O F H E R N ECK BETW E E N S H A R P TEETH. THE FEMALE IS IN H E AT." WI LL. H E FUCKS HER OF S A V A G E L Y. HIS NEW REA LITY I S THE SOUND OF MY VOIC E A S I STAND IN F RONT OF HIM OR AS IT I S TRANSPORTED THREE THOUSAND M I LES BY JASON MAKES M A N Y M I STAKES. H E THINKS TH ERE I S A R E A LITY A N D A FA NTASY WHICH E X I ST IN CONTRADICTION TO O N E A N OTHER. AT NIGHT THEY DON LEATH E R C LOTH I N G A N D T H E Y STA LK T H E B A R S O F FOLSOM STREET O R TH E BANKS OF T H E H U DSON. H I M TO CONC E I V E OF H I M SELF AS H A V I N G A F R E E WI LL. I HAVE TWO CATS. BUT HE WA NTS T H E LUXURIES OF SPITE AND CHOICE. THEIR OWN WORLD W H I C H H E M U ST NOW I N H A BIT.

" JA SON S A I D . WHATEVER E LSE H E DOES. H E C A N L E A V E THAT BEHIND. I HAVE C R EATED A PART OF JASON THAT IS M I N E . BODY AND HIS MY SELF I THOUGHT A BOUT H I S S H OO K WITH THE AND WOR K I NG. HE "I KNOW. I AM ONLY AWA R E O F W H A T WOULD H A PPEN I F I ROLLED OVER ON BUT I D O NOT WANT T O TERRORIZE J A S O N . OF POWE R A N D THE FURY O F M Y T R I C K ACTI NG AS THOUGH HE WERE A MASTE R . H E CAN NOT REVOLT AGAI NST WHAT I 00 WITH IT. M Y S E LF. WITH A LOV ER H AV I NG D I N N ER . S H E P U R R S AT T H E JASON. REC R EATE HIS CALL DOCTOR TH E HUGE BODY THAT IS M I N E S E E M S TO HER TO BE A SOU RCE OF H EA T AND DEFENSE. WHEREVER ELSE H E GOES. HE C A N C H OO S E T O B E I N AN OFFICE BUT I THOUGHT A BOUT IT. SHUDDERS BODY THAT IS AT T H E NO I S A I D : "HE W A S A LR E A D Y BROKEN. OR. IT WOULD B E TOO EASY. I S I T R E A D I N G A BOOK I N M Y CHA I R A N D SHE CLIMBS UP ON M Y L A P . WITH A INTENSITY CONTROL. T H A T S H E WOULD STA RVE I F I D I D NOT RETURN A N D F E E D H E R . IT AND EVERY PAIN I F E E L. BUT WHEN ITS TH E R E I T WI LL STI LL B E M I N E. TO I KNOW MY HOW TO F E E L OF M Y W A R M GROIN. I DON'T KNOW W H E R E IT C A M E FROM. TOU C H . R E M I NDS M E OF WHEN THE F E M A LE CAT IS OUT OF H EA T SHE ADORES M E . I A M M A K I N G H I M WHOLE. PUT IT BACK I NTO H I S M I ND. EXPLORE H I S M I N D A N D TAKE HOLD OF THAT PART W H I C H I H AVE C REATED. I WANT TO G R I P I T WITH A H A R D GRASP A N D P U L L I T OUT. IT l S6 . W H ATEV E R ELSE HE THE PA RT O F JA SON THAT I S MINE LIVES ONLY TH ROUGH M E. " G I V E THE CAT-NOR T H E C A R E JASON T H I N K S I G I V E H I M ." BUT M Y POWE R OOES NOT COM E FROM TH E CARE I H E SAYS: ''I'M A L R E A D Y T H E R E . I DO NOT WANT TO PLAY SEX ROOM GAMES WITH H I M. SHE HER U P A N D HOLD HER AGA I N ST M Y THE REASSURANCE OF MY F R I E N D IN BOSTON: "HOW CAN I MAKE JASON FEEL THIS WA Y7" H E T E L L S ME. NEEDS I T E L L JASON: "I A M GOI NG TO TA KE YOU TO THE P LA C E WHERE YOU WILL C R Y WHEN I WALK I NTO A ROOM. AT NOT COMI NG OTH E R T I M E S WITH OTH E R M E N H E CAN CHOOSE H I S R E A LITY. SCULPT IT. AT N IGHT S H E SOM E T I M E S CRAWLS U N D E R M Y COVERS AND C URLS AGA I N ST MY STOM A C H . IT IN I WANT BODY.IT IS THE PERSON AT IT THE IS A WHO HEARS MY WORDS AND MY F R I E N D SA I D: "YOU W I L L B R E A K H I M . DESPE RATE FOR M E TO P I C K C H E ST . W H E N I WOK E T H I S M O R N I NG THERE WAS A P A I N I N MY K N EE. AS SOON AS I T H I N K OF AN A C H E. T H E R E W I L L A LWAYS B E TH I S PART OF H I S BEING THAT E X I STS O U TS I D E HIS POW E R . I THI N K OF J A SO N ." CAN NOT RESIST M Y T A K I N G I T . BUT IT. " THINKS. I DO NOT WANT TO JUST EXPLORE HIS BODY. MY F R I E N D SAID: "YOU A R E PLA Y I N G GOD. AND A N D JASON GOING. A N D THEN. " M A K E ME FEEL L I K E A N A N I M A L. IT I S A SHELL THAT I FILL WITH OOE S MY LUST. H E C A N NOT COM M A N D DO THAT WITH TH I S PE RSON IS ONE THAT I I NTO EXI STENCE. M A K E H I M H O R R I F I E D T H A T I T E X I STS OUTS I D E H I M . A SORE. MY CONTROL IT POWER. HOW TH I S I S THE A N I M A L I C REATE I N J A SON. AND H E TH I N KS HE WANTS IT. O N L Y T H E N . THIS P LACE W H E R E JASON H A S N O POW E R . I T IS NOT ENOUGH. I WI LL HAVE IT W H E N E VER I WANT IT. SHE SENSES GREAT PROTECTION." A L LO W E D L I M I TATIONS TO ITS U S E . THE CAT T H I N K S I AM H E R B E N EFACTOR. I WANT TO HER BODY AND IS S U F FOCATED WHEN SHE H E R. VULNERABLE HOLD H E R ON SHE A L LOWS ME TO HER BACK I N SUCH A WAY THAT I COULD DROP H E R A N D S H E WOULDN'T B E A B L E TO RIGHT H E R S E LF B E FO R E SHE LA N D E D ON THE FLOOR. A S E N SATION OF ANY K I N D OTH E R TH AN PLE A S U R E . T H E PO W E R C O M E S F R O M W H A T I DO N O T 00. W H E N I'VE BEEN OUT A N D R E T U R N TO T H E A PA RTM ENT S H E C I RCLES T H E ROOM SCRE E C H I NG LOUDLY." T R E M BLES CONTENT. OR. SOUNDS.

H E SAYS: "I DON'T KNOW TH E DIFFERENCE BETWE E N W H E N I A M WITH M Y LOVER I M E RG E WITH H I M TO C REATE A N E W FORC E : T H E S Y N E RGY OF LOVE. I WILL TA K E HIM BEYOND ALL THOSE POI NTS. I T I S M I N E: M I N E A LONE. LISTEN TO H I M C A R E FULL Y. MORE TOG ETH E R T H A N WE ARE SEPA­ "WOULD YOU K I L L H I M ?" "NO. I DO LOVE H I M . IT I S SOM ET H I N G THAT N O ONE ELSE CAN HAVE. I HE IS MINE: I AM HIS. HE SUCKS MY COCK G R E E D I LY. THE 1 87 . ·YES. IT IS A N ACT OF C R EATION THAT I S ENTI R E L Y I N D I V I D U A L. HAT E AND LOVE. W I LL EVER SEE." SPITE." WHICH I I M POSE. A L L TH E EGO. WE P L A N T H E I I NCOR­ I SAY: "I'LL SHOW HIM THAT H E EXI STS ONLY AT M Y WHIM. I AM IT DOESN'T MATTER WHOSE MOUTH UTTE R E D THE MY LOV E R 'S MASTER: WE ARE E QU A LS . H E ACTS OUT M Y WISH ES. W I T H J A SON T H E ON LY ORDER I S THAT "YES. I TAKE HIS ASS WITH M Y COCK." CALIFOR N IA?" MY FRI E N D ASKS. IT DOES NOT RELY ON THE H ET E R OS E X U A L ACT OF WORD. W E A R E TOG ETH ER : FUTU R E .IS THE ONLY L I F E THAT I W I L L E V E R C R E ATE BY MYSELF. "DO I HAVE TO AGREE B E FO R E YOU TELL M E?" IT I S ALL SOM E FORM OF COMPENSATION. ALL THE "ABSOLUTE LY. MY FRIEN D SAYS: " H E'LL END U P I N SAN E:' "HE ALREADY I S. MY F I ST." I S M I LE. WE C R EATE RATELY. O U R R E LATION S H I P R E M A I N S A BALANCE. "ISN'T HE FRIGHTE N E D OF YOU?" I DO NOT BEAT J A SON WITH LOVE. I WH I P H I S BACK AND ASS A N D M A R K H I M W I T H LOVE. H E CAN ON LY EXIST I N TH E N EW. HE I S S I M PLY A BODY. IT I S F I N E R TH A N THE CREATION OF A B A B Y ." JASON DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT ME. H I S S U B M I SSION I S O U R U N I ON WITH M Y DOM I N A NCE. THE MOST PROFOU N D TRUTHS ARE THE E X I STENCE OF Y I N S I LENCE. IN MY P R E S E N C E THE ONLY "WHY DOES N'T SOM EONE STOP YOU?" JASON THAT E X I STS I S W H AT I HAVE C R E ATED. W I T H MY LOVE T H E COMPLI M E NTARY PARTS ARE OBVIOUS. CAN FEEL. AND YANG. "WHAT DOES HE GET FROM ALL THI S?" "WHO?" "LI FE." M Y LOVER H I SS E S AT M E : " Y O U G O D D A M SADISTI" I TELL JASON: ·YOU MAY END U P HATING M E. PROCREATION." I CALL JASON: "I WANT YOU TO DO SOMETH I NG." ·WHAT WILL YOU DO TO HIM WHEN YOU GO TO BUT LOVE ISN'T WHAT I WANT FROM J A SON A N YWAY. I HAVE A LOVER TO BECOME MORE WHOLE: TO SENSE COM M U N ION WITH SOMEONE. A L L THE ANGER. PORATE H I S DESI R ES." PAUSE. W E STAY TWO M E N IN LOVE. I HOLD H I M C LOSE AT N I G H T A N D WONDER AT H I S FEEL." I AM THE O N E WHO S A I D IT. I TA KE FROM H I M . HE BECOM E S A BOY. W H ATEVER. BUT I HAVE DREAMT ABOUT IT. HE C A N NOT RECLA I M T H E OLD.

A N D H E KNOWS T H AT NOW. H E R M I N D C A N NOT F A T H O M T H E F O R C E S OF N A T U R E T H A T B R I N G WATER FROM T H E S K Y A N D W A L K OUT TO M A I L IT. " I SIT IN NEW YO RK IN MY ROOM. I STA N D U P A N D GO T O M Y D E S K . WHEN HE G ETS T H E PINS FROM ME HE WILL H A V E NO WAY O F KNOWING WHAT I I N TEND TO U S E THEM FOR. I ADDRESS AN E N V E LOPE T O J A SON AND BATH ROO M . IT WON'T OC C U R FOR A NOTH ER THREE W E E KS. HE I S LIKE MY CAT. THERE HAPPEN TO HIM. I S M I LE. I B E A T H I M . " M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M A L. H E'S JASON:' W H A T YOU' R E GOI NG T O DO. " A F R I E N D OF M I N E IS C O M I N G TO SAN F R A N C I SCO. S H A R P M E T A L I N H I S H A N DS. I N S U F F I C I E NT. A L L FO R M S OF HUMAN TO C O M M U N IC ATON TH E Y ARE B ECOM E I NT O L E R A B L E I SAY: " TH A T S DOUG:' HIM. I COULD DO A N YT H I N G WITH H I M A N D TH E M . C RO UC H I N G V U L N E R A BLY B E H I N D T H E TOI LET. T H E R E I S NO NOTE. W H A T DOES J A SO N FEEL L I K E WHEN I A M THERE? HIS ING MY F R I E N DS SAYS: " B U T A N Y R E LATIONSH I P HAS TO HA VE A BASE OF S A N ITY:' SKIN C A N NOT TO L E R ATE CLOTH I N G SEPA RAT­ IT FROM MY E Y E S . H E'S GOING TO W H I P YOU:' HE R E P L I E S : " WH E R E DO I GO? W H E N ?" MY FRIEND SAYS: " YO U C A N NOT DO TH I S TO A N OTH E R H U M A N B E I NG. I POS S E S S H I M:' "NOTH I N G . WHEN HE REC E I V E S TH E P I N S I L L U M I N A T E T H E N I G H T WITH BOOMS OF TH U N D E R E D L I G HTN I NG . H O W YOU' R E GOING T O FULFILL YOUR FANTA S I ES. I S A Y : " H E'S NOT A H U M A N B E I NG. MY CAT HIDES IN TH E Q U I V E R I N G W I T H E V E R Y THOUGHT OF M E . I A M TOTA LLY FOC USED. I H A R DEN AT TH E R E M E M ­ " BU T J A S O N B R A NC E OF H I S N A M E : I A M FORCE D I NTO A S E N S E OF RE SPONS I B I LITY THAT OV E R W H E L M S ANY " JASON I S N O T A R E LATIONSH I P. TOTA LLY U N A B L E TO ALTE R O R NATURE. B U T NOT WITH JASON. I F I N D A S E T OF LONG.CONTRADICTIONS OF L I F E C A N BE ACCOMODATED. " J A SON PLEADS. I S NO R E ASON FOR W H A T W I L L IS NO WAY FOR HIM TO TH E R E D E C I D E W H A T W I L L B E DON E ." MY F R I E N D SAYS: "W H E N YOU'RE WITH YOUR LOV E R YOU TALK A BOUT W H E R E YOU'RE GOI NG T O L I V E . H E ' L L K NOW T H E Y ' R E FROM M E AND I I M AG I N E W H AT H E ' L L DO. P R E S E N C E . HE W I L L OPEN THE E N V E L O P E AND STA N D TH E R E AND I DO. T H I S B O D Y THAT H E I NEVER GIVE JASON THE SAT I S F A C T I O N OF TH I N K S IS HIS PASSES FROM H I S S E LF-CONTROL PREDICTA B I LITY. I C A N NOT L E A V E TH IS ROLE OR THAT P A R T OF J A SO N T H A T I S M I N E WOU L D BE C R U S H ED. I M U ST BE. H E W I L L CRY SOB B I N G LY. M Y P R E S E N C E A LTERS TH E VERY FOU N D ATION O F H I S B E I NG. JUST THE RETU R N A DD R ESS. I C A L L E D J A S O N . W H A T DO Y O U SAY TO " YO U H A V E TO R E S PECT A N YO N E THAT YOU LOVE:' J A SO N ?" " 1 DONT LOVE HIM. H E C A N NOT CONC E I V E OF H I M SE L F S I TT I N G A NY W H E R E BUT AT M Y F E ET. HE M U ST BE M E A N S FOR J A SON TO H E A R M Y VOICE? WHENEVER IT R A I N S. CONTROL THE E X I STS FORCES O F M Y V IOLENT IN UTTER H O R ROR IN MY W I T H T H E T H I N . I N TO MY U TT E R D O M I N ATION. T H E UTT E R HORROR OF TH E POSS I B I L I T I E S W I LL O V E R W H E L M HIM. I IMAGINE H I M STA N D I NG TH E R E WITH DEEP GASPS IN H I S C H EST A N D R I V E R S O F J A SON T E A R S FLOWI N G DOWN H I S C H EEKS. STE E L P I N S. ITS OWN E R S H I P:' S E M B L E N C E O F F R I VOLITY. J U S T LIKE M Y CAT HE MAKES STR A N G E N O I S E S A N D 1 88 . H E'S W A I T I N G FOR M Y A R R I V A L. MY READING IS HOW CO U L D A N YON E POSS I B LY KNOW WHAT IT I N T E R R U PT E D BY A P L E A S A N T THOUGHT OF J A SON.

H E W I N DS H I S BODY OVERWH E L M S H I M . 52. SHOWS H E R ASTO N I S H M E NT . H I S MOUTH F I N DS T H E SWEAT OF M Y BODY T H E SWEETEST TASTE IT HAS KNOWN. 47. H E IS J O H N PRE STON 46. IT ENTRAPS HIM. AGA I N ST M A I N DOOR. IT AWES HIM.HOPES I W I LL U N D E R STA N D TH E EQU I V A LENT O F BECOM I N G M O R E A N D M O R E AWA RE OF IT. A RO U N D M I N E H O P I N G I T W I L L BE S O CLOSE TO M I N E THAT I WON'T H U RT I T . R . WITH DRAWS. JASON SAYS: " M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M AL. A SQUAT YOU N G M A N PUTS H I S H E A D T H ROUGH. J U ST L I K E M Y CAT H E LICKS M Y BODY I N G RATITUDE FOR T H E VERY STUFF O F E X I STENCE T H A T I PROV I DE. S H E LTER. IT H O R R I FI ES H I M. GOES Q U I C K LY TOW A R D THE H A L F-OPEN DOOR. AT THE R E A R OF T H E SHOP. 50. I N S I DE SHOP. THE BALUSTRADE O F T H E STA I RCASE R . R . LANDING O F A W I D E STA I RCASE. 51. BEG I N S TO CLIMB. A FEW STEPS A BOVE. R . ENTERS T H E SHOP WHICH HAS NOTH I NG IN IT." THERE I S A PART OF JASON FOR WHOM I AM THE ONLY SOURCE OF FOOD. STEPS GOI NG STRAIGHT U P TO A C A R R I AG E DOOR G I V I N G ON TO T H E STREET. 1 89 . IT P U R R I NG T H A T COMES F ROM H I M W H E N EVER I A M N O T G I V I N G H I M P A I N . THE COR P U L E N T M A N . 4B. B R I NGS HIS H A N D DOWN ON R:S HAND H O LD I N G THE BALU STRA D E . A DOOR H A LF OPENS. 49. 53. N U RTU RE. THE SQUAT MAN.

T H E M ETHODIC ORDER PROPOSED OF HERE. ON THE OTH E R PSYCHOA N A LY S I S HAS R EV E A L E D I NSTI NCTU A L HA ND. I N VOLVES. TH E PARENT OF T H E S A M E SEX. NORMA LLY I N DICATE TO HIM AN OBSTACLE TO THE S A T I SFACTION OF T H E S E DR I V E S: N A M E LY. WITHOUT 1 90 . T A K I N G HOLD OF T H E C H I LD BY A S E X U A L D E S I R E TOWARD THE CLOSEST OBJECT WHICH PESENCE AND I NTEREST NORMALLY A F FO R D H I M . WE SHALL SEE.THE OEDI PUS COM PLEX THROUGH THE D ISCOVE R Y OF OEDIPAL FACTS I N TH E A N A LYSIS O F N E UROTICS FREUD GAVE B I RTH TO TH E CONCEPT OF THE COMPLEX. CONSIDERING THE NUMBER OF PSYCH I C R E LATIONS THAT I T EXPANDING ON THEIR STRUCTU R E H E RE. THE C H I LD ASSOCIATES IT TO A THI RD PARTY WHOSE SA M E CON DITIONS OF PRE S E NCE A N D I N TEREST CONSIDE RATION M E NTA L STRUCTU RES AS I N S OC IA L FACTS. W I LL LEAD TO A REVISION O F THE COM PLEX E N A B L I N G O N E TO SITUATE THE PATER­ NAL FAM ILY I N H I STORY A N D FURTHE R I LL U M I N ATE CONTE M PO R A R Y N E U ROSIS.N A M E LY S E X -G I V E THE PARENT OF T H E U PON OUR STUDY CIT SPECIFICA LLY DEFINES THE PSYC H ICAL R E LATIONS OF THE H U M A N FA M I LYI­ A N D U PO N O U R C R I TI Q U E (FREUD GIVES THIS OPPOSITE THEIR O R I G I N S T O TH E PSYCHOLOG ICAL E L E M E NT A S THE SPECI FIC FOR M OF T H E H U M A N F A M I LY A N D SUBORD I N ATES T O I T A L L I T S OTH E R SOCIA L VA R I ATIONS). AT MORE THAN ON E POINT I N TH IS WORK. THE C H I LD ACQU IRES A CERTA I N I NTUITION O F T H E SITUATION FO RBIDDEN H I M . AS M UC H A S IN TH E COM PLEX: T H E I R FRUSTRATION FOR M S TH E CRUX. ESPECI A LLY SCH E M A OF THE COM PLEX TH E I R M A STURBATORY MATER I A LIZATION. LET US SAY THAT THEY CONSTITUTE A TYPE OF PSYCHO­ LOGICAL P U B ERTY. IN R E LATION TO PHYSIOLOGICA L PUBE RTY. TH E FRUSTRATION S U F F E R E D BY THE CH I LD IS ACCOM P A N I E D B Y A N EDUCATIONAL ORD I N AR I LY R E PRESSION WHOSE GOAL I S T H E PREVENTION OF MATER I A LI ZATION O F THESE DRI V ES. THE O E D I P U S CO M P L E X A S SERTS ITSELF. AS M U C H BY T H E D ISCRETE AND D I FFUSE SIGNS THAT BETRAY PA R E NTAL R E LATIONS TO H I S S E N S I B ILITY G E N ITAL DRIVES I N C H I LD R E N THAT REACH TH E I R PEAK AT T H E AGE OF FOUR YEA RS. A LTHOUGH THIS FRUSTRATION IS I N HE R E NT TO THE ESSENTI A L P R E M ATURATION O F THESE DRIVES. V E R Y PREMATU R E . BOTH TH E S E G E N I T A L D R I V E S .

THIS FLECTED I N T H E FORMS OF THE EGO-IDEAL. ORDER OF DETE R M I NATION THAT ACCOUNTS FOR A GREAT NUMBER OF ANOMALIES OF HUMAN TH E OEDIPAL DESI R E A PPEA RS. S I NC E I T R E M A I N S INSCRIBED I N THE PSYCHE IN TWO P E R M A N EN T AGENCI ES: THAT WHICH R EPRESSES CA LLS ITSELF T H E S U P E R EGO. T H I S PREJUDICE WHICH ATTRIBUTES A N EPIPHENOME N A L C H A RACTER TO THE PSYC H I C HASARDS INTEMPESTI FSl THAT U N V E I L THEM TO H I M . OR P ROCE S S F U N D A M E N T A L G E N ETIC I N V ER S I O N S O F S E X U A L I M A G I N A T I O N . E S P E C I A LLY IN THE STUDY OF THE H E N C E FO R T H IT IS CONTESTED: RE­ BECAUSE H I ST O R I C A LL Y I NT E R D I C T I O N S U N I V E R S A L L Y F O R M U LA T E D B Y GROUPS WHICH GOV E R N THE SEXUA L COM M E RCE BETWEEN C E RTAI N OF TH E I R M E M B E RS. 191 . LIKE I N H I BITIONS OF C R EA T I V E ACTI VITY. ON T H E OTH E R H A N D.AS BY THE I NO P P O RT U N E A CC I D E N T S [LES I N TRUTH. TAKES THE PLACE OF T H I S EXPE R I M ENTAL METHOD WITH AN ENTI R E M E D I C A L TRADITION. BY R E P R E SS I O N OF THE SEXUAL ON THE I M PORTA NCE A N D THE SIG N I FICANCE THAT ALLOW THEM TO B R I NG OUT A PARTI C U L A R TRAIT OF THE PERSONA LITY. I T IS ACCESS­ I B LE TO THE MOST I M M EDIATE OBSERVATION. APPARENT SINCE THE FI RST STUDIES. T H E Y L A T E R R E P E A T THEMSELVES A S EFFECTS OF T H E S U P E R EGO. AND M A N I FESTED THE I R SCIENTI FIC VALUE I N THE DEFINITION AND E XPLI CATION OF PHENOMENA OF THE PERSONALITY: THERE IS IN THIS A POSITIVE C H I LD. T I O N O F T H E C O M P LE X . THE FA M I LY ACCORDIG TO FREUD THE THE OBJECTIVE V A L U E OF T H E COMPLEX DISCOV E R Y THAT DEVELOP M ENTS OF SUCH I M PORTAN C E TO M A N A S SEXUAL R E P R ESSION AND PSYCHIC S E X U A LITY WERE S U B M ITTED TO R E G U LA­ THIS ESSENTIA L TO A SC H E M A OF THE COMPLEX IN TION A N D TO ACCIDENTS OF A PSYC H I C DRAMA OF THE FA M I LY FURNISHED THE MOST PRECIOUS RESPONDS G R E AT N U M BE R O F GIVENS E X P E R I E NC E . A N D BY T H E S A M E TOKEN. AND OF A ON THE T H E OTH E R P A RENTAL SIDE. TH E REPRESSION R EVEALS TRAITS WHICH I N T H E I R TYPICAL FOR M AT FIRST SEEM O N L Y J U STIFIABLE I F T H E Y A R E EXERCISED BETWEEN FATH E R A N D SON. R E P RE S E N T T H E C O M P LE T I O N O F T H E O E D I P A L CRISIS. M UC H STRONG E R I N THE B O Y A N D T H E R E F O R E F O R T H E MOTHER. THEY TIONS. THEY ARE M O S T OFTEN RE­ S U B L I M AT I O N P E RPETUATES C O N SC I E N C E . REFEREN­ WHETH E R FROM P U R E P R I NC I P L E OR S I M PLY FROM MYTHS. IN EFFECT. BY THE THAT SINCE ACC I D E NTS A FFECT SITUATION AS TRAUMATISMS DURING T H E EVOLU­ . THE PROCESS THAT GOES FROM OEDIPAL D E S I R E TO ITS REPRESSION HAVE J U ST IT DOES NOT APPEAR AS S I M � LY A S I PRESENTED. BEHAVIOUR. I N ITS M E C H A N I S M .I D E A L . A N D IT IS P R EC I S E LY IN THE LIGHT O F THE OEDIPAL SITUATION THAT SUCH ACC IDENTS IN THE H I STORY OF THE SUBJECT TAKE T H E TENSION T H U S CONSTITUTED I S DISSOLVED. TH E E G O. FOU N D THERAPEUTIC R EDUCTION. THAT WHICH SUBLI MATES. S E X U A LITY MOREOVER. E M I N ENTLY FAVORABLE TO THE EDUCATION­ AL PROCESS. T H E PA R ENT OF THE SA M E SEX APPEARS TO T H E C H I LD A T ONCE AS THE AGENT OF TH E SEXUAL I NTERDICTION A N D AS THE EXAMPLE OF ITS TRANSGRESSION. THIS I S THE FACT O F THE CASTRATION COM PLEX. BESIDES. A N D ITS AG E-OLD M I S U N D E RSTA N D I NG [ M ECON N A I S­ SANCEI IS AN I M PRESSIVE PROOF OF THE SOC I A L RELATIVITY OF H U M A N KNOWLEDGE. FOR THESE DISORDERS. CES TO THE RENDERS OUTDATED T H E ORGA N I C ORDER WHICH. IS C H I LD WHO IN CONSTA N T L Y TA K E N SUBJ ECT THE DIDACTIC EXPOSES ON T H I S COM PLEX. THUS.I D E A L" WERE ISOLATED IN A OEDI PUS. T H E PSYCHIC AGENCIES THAT GO U N D E R THE N A M E OF "SUPER· EGO" AND " E G O. ORDER-THAT IS T O SAY A N INOPERATIVE ONE-WAS FAVORED BY A N I NS U FFICIENT A N A LY S I S OF THE FACTORS OF TH I S ORDER. I MAGE R E P R E S E NTATIVE OF IDEAL IN THE THE FUTU R E G U A R A NT E E D COI N C I D E N C E O F PSYC H I C A N D P H Y S IOLOG I C A L ATTITUDES DOU B L E AT THE MOMENT HAS OF P U B E RTY. M A N Y OF WHICH A PPEAR ON THE LEVEL OF HAVE ELEMENTA RY SOMATIC THEIR T H E O R ET I C FU NC­ AND I M PORTANCE. I F THEY EFFECT IT A S ABNORMA LITI E S [ATYPI ESl OF ITS CONSITUTION. IN THIS DOUBLE PROCESS. IS THE E X I ST E N C E O F N OT I N FANTI LE CONTR I B UTION T O T H E ANTH ROPOLOGY OF F A M I LY GROUPS. ON ONE SI DE. THESE WE CAN ALSO SPECIFY THAT THE OEDI PAL TENDENCY THAT FROM T H E N W I L L R E M A I N LATENT UNTIL PUBE RTY-G I V I N G WAY TO N E UTRAL I NTER­ ESTS. A LS O THE AS E X C E PT MALE A IN THE MALE IS CONCRETE A N A LYSIS OF SYM PTOMS OF N E U ROSIS. FREUD WAS QUICK TO FOR M U LATE A TH EORY OF THE FAMI LY. A G R EAT N U MBER OF D I SORDERS. I T WAS FOU NDED ON A D I S S Y M M ETRY IN THE SITUATION OF THE SEXES IN R E LATION TO V E A L E D BY T H O S E AFTEREFFECTS OF ITS EVOLU­ TION WHICH CONSTITUTE' N E U ROSIS.

T H E S E TWO PLA NES D I V E RG E WITH CONJUGAL FAMILY THAT HE OBSERVED A MONG H I S S U B J ECTS T O A H Y POTH ETICAL P R I M ITIVE FA M I LY CONCEIVED AS A HORDE. OF A LIKE AGG R E S S I O N . PRISON E R S OF AN I N SOLUBLE RIVALRY: A U N D E RLIES THESE TWO MOV E M E NTS. AND THEN R ECOGNIZED IN A FEAR ADVENC E M E NT WOULD K NOWLEDGE O F MAN. T H A T I S T O S A Y I N A M A LT R E A TM E N T THAT CAN ONLY SERVE TO CALLED P R E M I S ES . THIS IS WHY FRAZ I E R U NCOV E R E D THE P R I MOR I D I A L LAW OF H U M A N I TY I N THE TABOO OF THE MOTH ER. COM B I N E D WITH TH E FACT THAT THE THREAT IS R E A LLY FORMU LATED BY AN PERMA N E NT TYRRANY E X E RCISED B Y TH E C H I E F O F T H E HORDE. M U ST HAVE LED F R E U D T O CONC E I V E IT AS E X P E R I E NCED FI RST F O R ITS R E A L VALUE. OUT OF WHICH TOGETH ER WITH THE TABOO OF T H E MOTH ER. I T S E E M S. H OW E V E R . I N FACT BY TH E FATH ER. T H E PRESENT U N I V E RSA L TRACES AND T H E E N D U R I N G SURVIVAL OF A MATRIARCHAL FA M I LY STRUCTU RE. THE FUNCTIONS O F THE COMPLEX: A PSYCHOLOGI­ CAL REVISION THE OEDIPAL C O M P L E X MARKS A LL LEVELS OF T H E T H E ORIGI N A L MYTH OF PARRICIDE PSYC H E . ITS ' I N S PI R E D FROM ONE MALE TO A NOTH E R. THAT A M A LE DOMI N ATES BY A BIOLOGICAL S U P E R I O RITY IN THE MONOPOLI- 1 92 . S O R E MARK­ A B L E THAT IT WAS I N DI V I D U A LIZED WITH T H E M I N A COM PLEX CALLED CASTRATION. THAT THE G R EAT H A RVEST O F FACTS W H I C H T H E O E D I PAL C O M P L E X H A S LEO T O BE O B J ECTI F I E D OVER TH E PAST F I FTY YEARS R E LATI ONS THAT P R I M IT I V E C U LTU R E S I M P RESS WITH TH E TABOO OF INCEST) BUT N O MATTER WHAT THE LEVEL OF MORAL C O N SC I E N C E IS IS IN A COULD C L A R I FY THE PSYCHOLOGICAL STRUCTU RE OF THE F A M I LY F U RT H E R THAN TH E H A ST Y C I V I LIZATION. EVEN I F THIS CONST R UCTION WAS NOT S POI LED BY THE ONLY C I RC U L A R R E A SO N I N G THAT IT IN­ VOLVES-ATT R I B U T I N G T O A B I O LOG I C A L G R O U P TH I S FANTASY C O N S I STS E S S E N T I A LLY IN THE THE POSS I B I LITY OF RECOGNIZING A LAW. THE PROTOTYPE OF THE OEDIPA L A PPEARA NCE I N A LL T H E F U N DA M E NTA L FOR M S O F C U LT U R E A N D ESPEC I A LLY IN AN OFTEN EXTR E M E ­ LY STRICT R E P R E S S I O N O F S E X U A L ITY. BUT ABOVE ALL. D E MO N ­ R E PRESSION. BUT THE T H EORETIC I A N S O F PSYC HO­ ANALYSIS HAVE YET TO U N A M B IGUOUSLY DEFI N E IT IS FROM HERE THAT FREUD MAKES THE ITS COM POSITE F U NCTIONS: IT IS FOR WANT O F TH EORETICAL I N DICATED IN JUMP OUR WHOSE ABUSE I N T RO D UCTION: WE HAVE FROM TH E H A V I N G S U F F I C I E N TLY DISTI N G U I S H E D T H E PLA N E S OF DEVELOPMENT W I T H W H I C H T H E Y EXPLA I N T H E COM PLEX. I F T H E COM PLEX A PPEARS T O TH E M . I N THIS WAY FREUD R E C E I V E D A SUPPRORT FOR A S O C I O LOG I C A L GIVEN: N OT O N LY DOES THE STRATE T H A T TH E ORDER OF THE H U M A N F A M I LY HAS SOME FOUNDATIONS PRESERVED FROM THE I NTERDICTION O F I N CEST WITH T H E MOTH ER HAVE A U N I V ERSAL CHA RACTE R (ACROSS THE I N F I N ITELY DIVERSE AND OFTEN P A R A DOX I C A L FAMILY FORC E OF T H E M A LE. PREC I S E ­ LY WHAT N E E D S TO B E B I O L OG I C A L EXPLA I N E D-TH E S E S O ­ N A M ELY THE M U TI LATION OF A M E M B E R. HE I M AG I N E S A DRAMA­ E MOTIONAL MOVEMENT O F T H E SUBJ ECT: AGGRES­ SION AGAI NST THE THE C H I LD'S PARENT IN REGARD TO WHOM PLACES H I M AS A SEXUAL D E S I R E M U R D E R O F T H E FATHER B Y THE SONS-FOLLOWED BY A POST H U M O U S CONSECRATION OF THE R I V A L: SECONDARY FEAR. IT IS HOWEVER HA RDLY CONSISTENT WITH THE FA NTASY THAT MAKES OF IT TH E O R I G I N A L FACT. C A STRATE THE MALE. I N T U R N TH E OBJ ECT OF I N V IOLA B I LITY A N D SAC R I FICA L ORGY. THUS A FANTASY FATHE R'S POWE R OVER WOM E N B Y THE M U RDER­ E RS. IF THIS TERM IS P R I MORDIAL EVENT. WOU LD R E D UCE T O A N INCREASI NGLY U NC E R TA I N PHA NTOM THEY IN P R O P O R T I O N TO T H E OFFER TO OUR E DUCATIONAL TRADITION. SUFFERED IN RETU R N . I N EFFECT. A N ENTIRE MORA L A N D C U LTU R A L TRADITION WOULD COME.TH E CASTRATION COMPLEX ZATION THE OF N U B I L E WOM E N . BUT THE APPARENT R E A LITY OF THIS DANGER. J U STI F I E D BY REGRESSIVE A N D REPRESSIVE ENDS THAT A R ISE AT T H I S MOMENT OF OEDIPUS. A S TH E AXIS ALONG WHICH TH E EVOLUTION OF SEXUALITY IS PROJ ECTED ONTO THE CONSTITU­ TION OF REALITY. THIS I N T E R D ICTION A LW A Y S E X PRESSLY FOR M U LATED A N D ITS TRANSG R ESSION I S STRUCK WITH CONSTA N T REPROBATION. F R E U D BUI LDS U PO N T H A T I S ESTA B L I S H E D BETW E E N R E LA T I O N TH I S REPRESSION OPERATES BY A DOUBLE TABOOS A N D OBSERVANCES I N REGARDS T O T H E TOTEM. INTUITIONS W E H A V E J UST PRESENTED.

THE B UT. THUS O N E A RRIVES FROM AT T H E SEX OF A M B IGUOUS CONCLUSION THAT TO THE T H E OTH E R. THE MATU RATION CONDITIONS OEDIPAL COM PLEX B Y FOR M I NG ITS F U N DA M E NTA L TENDENCI ES. WHICH IS FI RST OFFERED UP TO'1H E OEDIPAL D E S I R ES. THE FI RST OBJ ECT OF THE TENDENCI ES. B EG I N N I N G WITH DEJA VU. COMPLEX IN THE IF THE MORE TH E THE BUT SHOU LD BE I NTE­ GRATED INTO A THESE MORE R I GOROUS C O N C E PTION OF R E LATIONS: THE ROLE OF STRUCTU R A L ONE MATU RATION PLA Y E D BY TH E COMPLEX ON EACH OF TH E S E PLA N E S CAN O N LY BE T A K E N A P PROXI­ FORMATION RISKIER I TS ACC USED. PASSING THROUGH OF A DOUBLE. IN THE OTH E R SEX. WHICH IS FO R M A LLY D E S IG N A T E D I N MATE R N A L OBJECT-THE DIVE RSION O F A PART OF THE O E D I PA L DESIRE C E RTA I N LY T E N DS TO A S THE LOSS O F THE OBJECT (OBJEKT· N E UTRALIZE THE POTENTIAL OF THE COM PLEX. WHICH CONFORM S T O THE ACTIVITY OF T H E M A LE. AND T H E R E BY I M PO S I N G DRIVE ITS A S E X U A LIZATION CHANGE E F F ECTS. IN A D D ITION.SPECIFIC INCIDENCE IN MAN. VU. SEEMS TO BECOME. THESE CON STITUTE A [FECON DITEI D E LI R I U M: W H EN THE OBJECT TENDS TO CONFUSE ITSELF WITH THE EGO WHILE AT THE SAME TI M E ABSORBI NG ITSELF I N FANTASY. ON THE CONTRARY. NOT HAVE REVERSE ATTITUD E OF I N T E R N A LI ZATION I N H E R I T E D FROM THEM. T H E COMPLEX FORMING T H E B A S I S OF A L L SUBJECTIVE COMPRE­ H E NSION. THE MOV E M E NT OF THE OEDIPUS COMPELX SERIES O F ITS DEGRADATIONS TO T H E L I M ITS OF UNDERSTA N D I NG. AS FOOD TO BE A BSORB E D A N D EVEN AS BREAST I N WHICH TO B E R E A BS OR B E D. I LLUSIONS M E NTS OF D I V I N ITY. BUT I N V E R S E LY. FALS E S ENTI­ T E N D E N C I ES NOT M E RELY PSYCHOLOGICAL I M PASSE: H E R E. WHAT IT B R I NGS TO REALITY IS REVEALED IN TERMS OF AN INTELLEC­ TUALIST PSYCHOG E N ESIS: A CERTA I N EMOTIONA L D E PT H TO THE OBJ ECT. D I M ENSION ONLY RECONSTRUCTED B Y M ETAPHORICAL I NTUITIONS: A D E N S ITY THAT C O N F E R S E X I ST EN C E ONTO THE OBJ ECT. THUS ONE U N D E RSTA N D S THAT OEDIPAL DESIRE IS EXPERIENCE. WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN DISTI N G U I S H E D FROM IT A S P HENOM ENON I F THE TREATM ENT OF ME NTAL I LLNESSES HAD NOT MADE U S GRASP IT A S SUCH-A P H E N O M E NON-BY ADVANC I N G A N ENTIR E FAVORS SEXUALITY B Y D I R ECTING I T TOWARD ITS OBJECTS. THE SUCCESSION OF TH E S E FOR M S I S EVIDENCE THAT S E X U A LITY BY C O N FO R M S A TO THE G E NITAL ORGA N IZATION THIS SEXUAL PROGRESSIVE M ATU RATION. A DIM ENSION WHICH. JAMAIS RECOGNITIONS. BUT H I S D I M ENSION I S SHOWN I N T H E VACI LLATI O N S OF R E A LITY T H A T F E RT I L I Z E BETTER CHA RACTERIZED I N TH E M A L E . BUT ALSO THAT IT A LLOWS H I M A S I N G U L A R OPPORTUN ITY FOR THE R E ACTIVISATION OF THE WEAN I NG TENDENCIES. ROLE SEXUAL A D A PTATION MATELY AS PARA LLEL. FROM THI S PONT T H E COMPLEX CONTR I BUTES TO THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY. DOES AND A LL T H E TO MOR E E A S I LY TH E INCIDENCE I S C E RTA I N LY KNOWN TO THE THEORE­ TIC I A N S AS THE REPRESSION O F SEXUALITY AND THE SUBLIMATION OF REALITY. W H E N IT A PPEARS DECOM POSE D LIKE ONE OF THE S E NTI­ MENTS THAT FO R M THE SPECTRE OF U N R E A LITY. AND A LSO I N S PI R ES IN US A RESPECT FOR IT. THEY OPPOSE TH E M S E LV E S P A R T I C U LA R LY TO THE ATTITU D E O F EXTE RIOR IZATION. D R I V E S THAT ARE N A RC I SSISTIC. AND HERE WE SEE THE I N FLUENCE ON A OF THE PSYCHO­ AND LOGI C A L COM P L E X V I TA L R E LATI O N . THAT IS TO SAY DO A SEXUAL REGRESSION. A P E R S PECTI V E W H I C H GIVES US A S E N S E O F I T S D I STANCE. AND ENDING UP THESE TENDENCIES H AV E A POS S I B L E I S S U E I N THE B I OLOG I C A L D E STI N Y OF THE S U B J E C T-T H E W I T H T H E TWILIGHT OF T H E WORLD. WHERE ENCE. MATU RATION OF S E X U ALITY THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY THE PSYCHICAL A P P A R ATUS OF S E X U A LITY IS FI RST REVEALED IN THE C H I LD IN THE MOST A B B E RANT FOR M S RELATIVE TO ITS BIOLOG I C A L E N DS. OPERATES THROUGH A T R I A N G U L A R CONFLICT I N THE S U B J ECT: W E H A V E ALREADY S E E N THE PLAY OF T E N D E NC I E S THAT ARISE OUT O F W EA N I N G IN ORDER TO E ST A B L I S H THIS A NORM CAN OF LIVED BE [SEVRAGEI PRODUCE A FORMATION OF TH I S SORT: IT IS A LSO THE MOTH E R. INTUITIONS OF PARTICI PATION. AND I NF L U ­ M E A N I NG. A N EMOTIONAL A BOLITION GERMAN VERLUSTI. G E N ITAL THE Q U A L I T I E S OF IN TH E L I V E D E X P E R I E N C E BY B E TT E R DETAC H E S ITSELF F ROM V A R I A TIONS Q U A L I TY OF VITAL E N E RGY 1 93 . THIS POI N T OF PRIMITIVE SINCE IT DRIVES. BY PSYCHOA N A LY S I S D I V E R SE E X P LA I N S THESE EXTR E M ELY O F OBJ ECT. S E N T I M E NTS OF STRANG E N E S S .

I D E A L CONTRIBUTES T O THE SEXUAL CONFOR M I SM OF TH E PSYC H E . THESE EFFECTS A R E P E R PETUATED U N D E R FOR M S DESIGNATED I D E A L. ACCORDING TO ITS NO R M A L TYPE. THIS ATTITUDE IS CHA RACTERIZED BY THE TERMS OF G I FT lDONI AND SAC R I FICE. I F THE DOCTRI N E FOU N D E D G E N IT A L TENDENCY R E F E R S T O A R E A L THR EAT. A S P I R I NG TO T H E SEC R ET OF T H E M A T E R N A L B R E A ST. I N O R D E R TO THIS CONCE PTION CAN IT DEFINE AN A N A LOGICAL THE M OST F I N O BASIS I N I D ENTI FICATION. I N G E N I O U S L Y D Y N A M I ST AT REMAINS CLOSED BY C RYSTA LLIZE T H E V I T A L R E LATION TO R E A LITY. OF TY P I C A L THESE FU NCTIONS ACCOUNT OF T H E DO M I NATION OF T H E M A LE. THROUGH THESE TERMS A BOLD CONCE PTION R E D I SCOVERS THE SECRET COM FORT OF A MORAL THEME: I N THE PASSAGE BETWEEN C A PT I V I TY AND OBLAVITY TH E VITA L TEST A N D T H E MORAL TEST A R E WANTONLY CONFUSED. D I S LO C A T I O N D I S M E M B E R MENT. BY P R EC OC I O U S OF THE D O M I N AT I O N MALE.I N V ESTED FO R M U L A . HOW E V E R . THUS HAVE R EC OG N I Z E D I N DI C E S O F AN A N A LYSTS OVE R LY N A RC ISSISTIC I N V E STMENT OF THE L I B I DO THROUGH THE SYMPTOMS C IT E D ABOVE. T H U S . THEY R E P RODUCE THE I M AGO OF TH E P A R E N T OF THE S A M E SEX. T H E CHILD TO CONCE I V E O F ITS MOTH E R A S V I R I LE. U P T O DEVORA­ TION AND S H ROUDI NG. R E SPONDS I NTO AS TO THE OBJECT AS IN BY IT DESIRE. S U BLIMATION A LSO THE MOMENT OF HIS OWN B U T R E S E A R C H E RS W H O H A V E B E S T U N D E R STOOD WHERE MAN OPENS 1 94 . TRADITIONAL ATO M I S M T O T H E NOTION O F T H E ATOM I S M OF FORMS. I N THAT I T R E DUCES I M AGES TO A STATE OF LATENCY U NT I L PUBERTY: IF IT DETER­ M INES A CON D ENSATION IT IS OF R E A LITY I N TH E M A N N E R WHOSE A M BI V A L E N C E IS TO ITS A RC H A I S M . N EGLECTI NG THE STR UCTU R E I N ORDER TO BENEFIT THE DYNA M I C . E M A SC U LATION TO D I S E M BOWLING. IT I S A BOVE A L L THAT BECAUSE F R E U D . LET US SAY. THE OEDI DPAL COM PLEX IS A LSO THE PROV I NCE OF TIVE FOR M OF P E N ETRATION. AS THE TO SUPE REGO WHICH AND THE EDO­ PSYC H O A N A L YT I C PRACTICE: PSYCHOANA LYSTS MUST RECKON WITH TH I S CATH E X I S ENCES IN THE OPERATION A L TRANSFER­ C U R E: WITH THE R ESO U R C E S ACCORDING THEY ARE EITHER OF T H E I R UNCONSCIOUS O R CONSCIOUS FOR THE SUBJECT. THE D I S I NTERESTED EXTENS ION TO TH I S R E A LITY. THE ATTI TUDE WOULD H A V E I N DICATED THAT TH I S CONC E PTION R E STS ON T H E FANTASY OF CA STRATION. IT S U G G E STS B ECOMES POSSI B L E TO ESTAB L I S H A STE A D I E R R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N I T S FUNCTION A N D THE FANTASY C A STRATION I S I N E FFECT PRECEDED B Y A S E R I E S O F FANTA S I E S OF BODI LY FRAGMENTA­ TION WHICH R E G R E S S I V E LY TO P R OC E E D F R O M THROUGH STR UCTUR E OF THE D R A M A ESSENTI A L TO IT. I N O D E R T O OBSERVE I N BOTH S E X E S THE E X I STENCE O F THE S A M E FANTASY IN A S M A LL G I R L O R OF A PHALLIC I M AGE OF TH E MOTH ER. THUS THE EGO. I MAGO BUT ACCOR D I NG TO THE DOCTR I N E. BY DIFFEREN­ TIATING THE FOR M A L GA M E OF THE COM PLEX. G R A N DIOSE T E R M S.W H E T H E R TIONA L-TO THE A FFECTIV E C R I SES. U LTANEOUSLY DESTRUCTIVE A N D I NVESTIGA­ IF IT MA RKS THE S U M M I T OF I N FANT SEXUALITY. PROPORTIONAL D I R ECTION OF LIFE. VERBAL A GIVEN MAY APPEAR. R EQU I R E S SUCH A S U R C H A RG E OF M EC H A N I SM S FOR ITS PRACTICE P S Y C H OG E N E S I S . M A RKED LACK C O N FO R M S TO IN THE A NALYTIC DOCT R I N E : THAT IT WOULD SEEM TO B E E R RONEOUS. E V E N THOUGH THIS R E LA TlON IS LIVED BY TH E S U BJECT IN A R E PRESSION. BUT ONES WHOSE MEAN ING REMAINS A M B I G U O U S A N D H E S ITA NT I DE N T I F Y I N G TE N D E N C I ES. WE THIS TH E ROLE O F O E D I P U S WOU L D COR RELATE WITH M ATURATION BY TH E O F S E X U A LITY. TH I S I S A G E N ES I S W H I C H . THE A N A LYTIC EXPER­ IENCE OFFERS A CONTRI BUTION TO THE STUDY OF M ENTAL FO R M S BY D E M ONSTRATING TH E I R C O N D IT I O N A L O R SOLU­ TH E M A TE R I A LS O F THE A DI FFERENT A N A LYTIC E X PE R I E N C E I N T E R P R ETATION: THE FANTAS I E S OF FRAGM ENTATION R E LA T I O N . WHILE THE FOR M ATION OF THE O E D I P U S COMPLEX APPEARED A S TH E MOMENT AND THE PROOF OF A CATHEXIS SUFFICI ENT FOR THE TRANSFE RENCE. R E V E L ATIONS THAT WOULD L E A D THE LITTLE GIRL TO NOSTA LGI A FOR V I R I LITY. TH E THE ROLE FATH E R IN WOU LD TWO HAVE A PROTO­ ON OFFERED BY THIS CATH E X I S THE ANA LYST M UST BASE THE I N D ICATION OF T H E TREATMENT. THE E XA M I N ATION OF THESE R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY FANTA S I E S R E V E A LS THAT THEY ARE I N SC R I B E D I N A S I ". F A CTS HE IS CONSTR A I N E D TO EXPLA I N THESE R E V E LA T I O N S OF T H E BETWEEN DEFENSE AND R E N U NCIATION. IN T E R M S OF THE R E P R ESSION OF S E X U A LITY.

ON ACCOUNT OF TH E INDENTI FICATION OF THE S U BJECT WITH THE I M AGO OF THE PARENT OF TH E SAME SEX.10N. BORN B E FO R E EITHER ANY MARKING OF THE ACTU A L BODY O R A'NY DISTINCTION OF THE TH R EAT FROM TH E A D U LT. W H I C H S A N CTION SEXUAL IN ORDER TO MATU RITY. THE FA NTASY R E P R E ­ SENTS THE D E F E N S E T H A T TH E N A RC I S I STIC EGO­ I D E NTI F I E D WITH ITS M I RROR DOUBLE-DPPOSES TO THE R E NEWAL OF T H E A N X I ETY THAT TENDED TO D I STUR B IT AT THE F I RST MOM ENT OF O E D I PUS: A CRISIS WHCH DOES NOT C A U S E TH E I RR U PTION OF GENITAL DESI R E IN THE S U B J ECT AS M U C H AS I N THE OBJECT T H A T IT R EACTUALIZES. T H E I R I NT E REST LI ES I N TH E EVIDENT U N R E A LITY OF TH E I R STRUCTU RE: THE EXAMINA­ R I T E S OF C I R C U M C I S. N A M ELY THE MOTH ER. AUTHORITY O F THE A D U LT: OTH ERWISE O N E COULD NOT U N D E R S T A N D T H E F A C T . T H E FORM OF T H I S OF E D U C A TI O N . DESIGNATE BY T H E I R ORGIASTIC FORM TH E MOMENT OF A FFECTI VE R E INTEGRATION I N TO THE WHOLE: ( M E LA N I E KLE I N ) A R E O N LY CON C E R N E D W I T H THE SYMM ETRY A N D THE EXTENSION THAT THEY BRING TO THE FORMATION O F OEDIPUS. NAM ELY OF T H E FORM IT HAS DISCOVE RED H E R E­ I DENTIFICATION. BUT T H I S TH E ROLE OF THE COMPLEX I N THE SUBLI MATION OF R EALITY I S NOW I NTRODUCED. IN THE MOTH E R THE OBJECT THAT DETERMIN E S IT. A LT H O U G H THE S U PE R EGO ALREADY RECEIVES TRACES O F REAL ITY FROM THE MATERNAL R E P R ESSION ALONE (TOILET-TR A I N I N G AND WEANING D I SC I P L I N E ) IN THE OEDI PUS OBJECT DOES N O T D E P E N D ON T H E S E X OF T H E S U BJ ECT A N D I N STEAD DETE R M I N E S T H A T IT DOES NOT SUFFER FROM THE FOR M U LA S OF TH E COM P L E X T H E S E T R A C E S NARCISSISTIC FORM .A P P A R E N T L Y CONTRARY TO THE THEORY-THAT THE STRICTNESS WITH WHICH TH E S U P E R EGO I N H I BITS THE FUNC­ TH E MATERNAL ORIGIN OF THE ARCHAIC S U P E R EGO TIONS OF TH E S U BJ ECT TENDS TO BE ESTABLISHED IN INVERSE PROPORTION TO TH E REAL SEVERITI E S TH E FA NTASY OF CASTRATION R E LATES TO THIS SAME OBJ ECT. SUCH A GENESIS OF SEXUAL R E P R E SSION IS NOT W I T H O U T S O C I O L OG I C A L R E F E R EN C E : IT IS IN THIS. T H E R E I S A LSO A N ASS I M I LA ­ TION OF THE S U B J ECT TO T H E O B J E C T: TH E DOCTRI N E S E E S NO D I F F ERENCE OTH ER THAN T H E 1 9!! . TH I S FORC E DISTRI B UTES ITSELF WITH THE DIFFERENCIATION OF TH I S FORM. O N E M U ST B E G I N A T THE POINT WHERE T H E DOCTR I N E P R E S ENTS A SOLUTION T O T H E DRAMA. ONE M UST RECALL THE IMAGINARY PLAY THAT CONDITIONS TH E FANTASY OF CASTRATION. THE S U B J ECT R E S PONDS TO THIS ANXI ETY THAT THE OBJECT REAWAKENS B Y R EPRODUC I N G THE M ASOCHI STIC R E J ECTION TH ROUGH W H I C H H E S U R MOUNTED HIS P R IMORDIAL LOSS. SHOW THAT THE PE RSONA REACHES THEM ON LY AT THE PRICE OF CORPORAL MUTI LIATION.I D E A L C A N R E V E A L TO E X P E R I E N C E SUBLIMATION OF R E A LITY R E PRODUCTION O P E R AT E S ACCORD I N G T O T H E STR UCTURE THAT H E HAS ACQU I RED. FOR US. THE DOCTR I N E S E E S THE FACT OF A SECONDARY N A R C I S S I S M : IT DOES NOT DISTINGU I S H THIS P A R T I C U LA R I D E N T I F I C AT I O N F R OM T H E EXPRESSED I N THE P R I MITIVE RITUALS W H E R E THE L I N K BETWEEN TH I S R E P R ESSION A N D T H E ROOTS OF ALL SOCIA L BONDS IS M A N I F E STED: C ELEBRA­ TION R I TES WHICH. THR O UGH THE PROGRESS IN WH ICH THE CHILD R E A LI Z E S THE R E P R E SSIVE AGENCY IN THE M A ST E R Y ACTUAL BODY CORPS PROPREI. A H E T E ROC L I T E TO DEFIN E TH IS G E N E S I S OF REPRESSION OF THE PSYCHOLOGICAL PLA N E . THE SUPEREGO A N D EGO. THAT IS TO SAY I N A N I M AG I N A RY LOCALIZATION OF T H E DRIVE. A TROPHY OF M E M B E RS WHE R E ONE M UST RECALL THE N A RCIS­ SISTIC OBJECT WHOSE G E N E S I S HAS BEEN EVOK ED EARLIER: CONDITIONED I N MAN BY THE P R EC ESSION OF I MAGINARY OF FO R M S THE OF TH E BODY [LE ON THE COU NTER DRIVES THAT REVEAL THEMSELVES TO THE A N A LYTIC E X P E R I ENCE I N ORDER TO CONSTI­ TUTE TH E M OST ARCHAIC KERNEL OF THE SUPEREGO AND TO REPRESENT THE MOST MASSIVE REPRESSION. GO B E Y O N D TH E I R EDUCATIONA L T R A D ITION. B U T I N ST E A D TO A MANNEQUIN. ACTUA LLY. THAT IS TO SAY. TO U N D E RSTA N D THIS.THE MATE R N A L ORIGINS OF TH E S E F A N TA S I E S SEXUALITY. R E V E A L I NG. IT I S IN THE RADICAL FORM OF BAROQUE DOLL. WHICH ARISE FROM THE PREMATU RATION. B Y T H E DEFENSE V A L U E T H E SUBJECT GIVES TO THESE OBJECTS AGA I N ST TH E A N X I ETY OF VITAL DESTRUCTION. TRAITS CONFORM I NG T O T H E PARTICULARITIES O F THI S IMAGO. THE NOSTA LGI A FOR MATE R N I TY IN THE BOY. FOR EXAMPLE. TION OF THESE FANTASIES FOUN D I N D R E A M S AND C E RTA I N I M PULSES A L LOWS FOR THE A F F I RMATION THAT THEY HAVE A B SOLUTELY NO R E LATION TO A R E A L B O D Y . IN ORDER TO L I BERATE NARCISSISTIC ONE.

IN THE TWO EXCLUSIONS OF THE U NCON­ OBJECT A PPEARS T O T H E EGO AT O N C E AS T H E S U P PO RT O F ITS D E F E N S E A N D T H E E X A M PLE OF I T S TR I U M PH. THE I MAGO PRESERVES T H I S FU NCTION. THE OBJECT SCIOUS AND THE I D E A L. ACCORDING TO THE CON STANTS OF H E DO N I S M . I N O R D E R T O CONTA I N THE I N D E F I N I T E V I RT U A L I TIES O F ITS P ROGRESS. THE I M AGO OF T H E FATH E R HENCE. MASOC H I STIC THE M I M ETIC HAS BECOME SA DO­ FROM OBJECT OF THE PARTICI PATION DISENGAGES THE SUBJECT. ORIGI N A LITY OF T H E O E D I P A L I DENTI FICATION BRINGS A S EC U R ITY TO THE EGO BY STRE NGT H E N ­ ING THIS FRAME.I N I MAGO OF THE 1 96 . B U T A S A POLE TO T H E C R EATIONS OF PASSION. TO A BETTER FO R M ED EGO. R E P R E S E N TS PREPA RATION RETU R N . T H E I D E NT I F I CATION OF T H E P R O P I T I ATORY. APPEARS AT FIRST THIS MOMENT OF OEDI P U S PROVIDES THE PROTO­ FU NCTION W H I C H PLAYS THE P A R ENTAL I M AGO I N THE S U B JECT. I N C A U S I NG THE OBJ ECT T O A R I S E A S ONE WHOSE POSITION IS SITUATED AS AN A S S I M I LATION. T H I S MOME NT. IT I S BY R E D UC I NG A G A I N S U C H A N OBJECT THAT E X P E R I E N C E A TTA I N S A L L I T S D E PTH. IT SEEMS TO I NDICATE . O N T H E OTH E R H A N D . TH E PRIM ITIVE OBJECT O F D E S I R E S E E M S T O B E CON J U R E D AWAY. S I N C E T H E EGO­ IN THE PATH S C O N SC I E N C E FOR ITS IS THE S U R P R I S E T R A N S F I G U R E S A N OBJECT B Y D ISSOLV­ ING ITS EQU I V A L E N C E S IN A S U BJ ECT. BUT. A R ETU R N TO A N I M P E RFECT I NTROJECTION OF T H E OBJ ECT. AS M UC H IN T H E ROLE OF M A S K E D P R E S E N C E PLAYED BY THE D R I V E A S BY THE FORM IN W H I C H IT ASSU M E D THE OBJECT. THE I M AGO I N H I B ITS SEXUAL FUNCTION.N A M E LY U NCON­ THUS. AND PROPOSES I T N O LON G E R A S A M E A N S TO T H E SATI SFACTION OF D E S I R E . BUT AT TH E SAME TIME IS IN HOWEVE R A MORE STRUCTU R A L AN ALYSIS OF T H E OEDI P A L I DENTI FICATION A LLOWS ONE T O RECOG­ NIZE WITH I N IT A MORE IS DISTI NCTIVE FO RM. T A K I N G ITS D ISTANCE FROM HIM I N THE N E W A M B I G UITY O F F E A R A N D LOVE. MORE OBJECT OF DESI R E W ITH THE OEDIPAL THE COMPLE X-TH AT WHICH IT IS NOT THE MOMENT OF IN ITS A LO N G DESIRE ESTA B L I S H E S T H E OBJECT D E S I R E . A N D I N T H E FORMATION O F THE EGO. B U T THE MOMENT OF THE SUBJ ECTS N A RC I S S I STIC D E F E N S E . DEFINES TH E F I R ST SUBLIMATION OF CON STITUTED TH E MAJOR C R I SES O F H U M A N R E A LITY. THE A C TU A L STRUCT U R E OF T H E O E D I P A L D R A M A D E S I G N A T E S T H E FATHE R A S G I V I N G TO T H E FU NCTION OF S U BL I M ATION I T S E M I N E NT A N D MORE THIS FACT DEFINES THE O R I G I N A L I T Y OF T H E PURE FOR M . IN ORDER TO I M POSE ITSELF ON THE OBSTACLE TO DES I R E. B U T. O N ONE H A N D. S I NC E EXPE RIENCE SHOWS THAT T H E ACTION OF THE S U PEREGO AGAI NST THE R E P ET I T I O N S OF THE AS TENDENCIES REMAINS TENDENCIES AS TYPE FO S U B L I MATION. OF THE IF TH E FUTURE TENDENCY RESOLVED UNDER TWO MAJOR FOR M S WHERE ANALYSIS H A S LEA R N E D TO R E C OG N I ZE I T . I T DOES SO I N A N UNCONSCIOUS FORM . HERE IS NOT T H E O B J E C T OF I S OPPOSED TO TH E PRI MORDI A L EQU IVALENC E R E F LECTS N A RC I S S I STIC CONF LICT. S HOWS IT TO BE COLORED BY A T R A N SG R E S S I O N F E LT AS D A N G E ROUS. THEN THE FUNCTION O F THE EXAMPLE A PPEARS TO BE THE ORIGIN A L CONTRI BUTION OF THE O E D I PA L COMPLEX.CONSTITUTION OF ONE O P P OS I N G I T S E LF. BUT I N T H I S STE P TOWARD REALITY. A SERIES IN OF A NTI NOMIC S U B JECT FUNCTIONS BY THE ARE SCIOUSNESS A N D M I S U N D E RSTANDI NG-TH E I M AGO ITSELF A PP E A R S U N D E R TWO STRUCTU RES WHOSE DISPA RITY REALITY. T H E I M AGO I S JUXTA POSED ONLY T O T H E EGO. S H E LT E R E D B Y I T S OWN M I SCON­ C E PT I O N IDEAL [ M E C O N N A I S S A N C E 1 . A N D THROUGH W H ICH IT STI LL C A N CONFUSE ITSELF W I T H THE OTH E R. TH E FRUSTRATION OF THIS DE S I R E COULD R E S U LT I N THE SUBJ ECTS RETU RN TO HIS P R I MORDIAL VORACITY OF N EW R E A LITY. THUS. THE SUBJ ECT. IN THE OEDIPAL I D E NTIFICATION THE MOTH E R ACTU A L LY BETRAYS THE OEDPIAL I DE N T I F I C ATION. T H I S SA M E FORM I S E V I D E N T I N E A C H C R I S I S W H E R E T H E CONDEN SATION HIGHER U P) (WHOSE E N I G M A WE H A V E POSE D ITSELF: T H I S LIGHT O F U NC O N S C I O U S THE R EM A I N PRODUC ES R E P R E SSED. BUT THAT WHICH OBJECT OF DESI RE IN THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE. AND THAT OF EXPRESS WE CANNOT STRESS ENOUGHT THAT THE OBJECT OF I D E NTI FICATION DES I R E. WHAT THE ANTINOMY OF TH E O P PO S I T I O N T O IT AS A N I D E A L THAT A LTERNATIVE­ LY EXA LTS AND D E P R ESSES IT. I F THE FU NCTION O F T H E CO N SC I E N C E S E E M S TO A NG U I S H . TH I S I S W H Y I T N O R M A L L Y C O M E S T O F I L L TH E FRAME OF THE D O U B L E W H E R E TH E E G O F I RST I D E NTI F I ES ITSE LF.

THE FATH ER. M A LI NOWS K I . BECA USE T H E PATE RNAL I MAGO I S INVESTED BY R E PRESSION IT PROJECTS THE COMPLEX A N D ITS SOCIOLOGICAL R E LATIVITY ITS ORIG I N A L FORCE I N THE WHICH SHOULD VERY S U B L I M ATIONS IT: THE OEDI PUS OVERCOME COMPLEX ACQU I R E S S O M UC H FEC U N DITY [FECON­ I F I T APPEA R E D IN ITS PSYCHOLOG I C A L A N A LYSIS THAT OEDI PUS M UST B E U N DERSTOOD IN T E R M S OF ITS N A RC I SS I STIC A NTECEDENTS. I NTE­ PSYCHIC E FFECTS R E S I DES IN THE FACT THAT THE FU NCTION O F R E P R ESSION A S WELL A S THAT OF SUBLIMATION I S C O N C E NTRATED IN T H E I M AGO OF THE FATH E R : BUT TH I S IS A FACT THE OF SOC I A L GRATED A S THEY A R E IN AN I M M E N S E CULTURAL PATRIMONY. A T THE S A M E TIME TENDS TO A R R E ST THE PROGRESS OF R E A LITY BY FREEZING IT. WHEN THESE F U N CTIONS N E UROSES THREAT OF FORCE.INTERFERENCE OF THE PRIMORDIAL I D E NTIFICA­ IN MATR IARCHAL C U LT U R E S . T H E P S YC H O L O G I S T THESE FOR M S WHICH. IT I S ON THE CONTR A RY. SEPARATION OF FUNCTIONS I M PLIES A DIFFERENT EQU I L I B R I U M OF THE PSYC H E ATTESTE D TO BY THE AUTHOR TH ROUGH THE LACK OF N E U ROSI S H E OBSE RV E D I N T H E G ROU PS O F THE NORTH-WEST I S L A N D S O F IBRIUM FORTU NATELY COMPLEX MELANSIA.I D E A L A S W E L L A S THE S U P E R EGO BY T H E FORMS AND THE A M BIVALENCE OF T H E S E I DENTI FICATIONS. W E C A N STRESS THE PHYSICA L L E S I O N S IN THE D I M I N UTIVE FOR M S OF TH I S I MAGO (ESPECIA LLY THOSE WHICH THIS MASTER OF T EC H N I Q U E S AND EXAMPLE OF D A R I NG I N B U S I N ESS. BY N EG LE C T CONCENTRATI N G T H E CONDITIONS OF T H E FUNC­ TIONA L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS IN THE CONJUGAL F A M I LY. THE FACT OF PATER N A L C R EATI V E C A N NOT I N S P I R A T I O N S . 1 97 . J UST A S TH E R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY MORE R E A D I LY AUTHORITY I S NOT R E PR E SENTED B Y THE FATH E R BUT OR D I N A R I LY BY A M A TE R N A L UNCLE. KNEW HOW TO P E N ETRATE THE PSYC H I C I N C I D E N C E S OF T H I S I M PO S E S T H I S M E N TA L F R A G M E N TA T I O N W H E R E O N E C A N D E FI N E HYSTER I A O N BODILY F UNCTIONS.F R O M AND ART TO MORALS-IN TO THE S I M I LAR CULTURES. ONE ETHNOLOGIST WHO W A S G U I D E D BY H I S KNOWLEDGE OF PSYCHOA N A LYSIS. THIS EQU I L­ THAT THE S OC I A L PRESENT THE I MAGO A S C R I PPLING O R B L I N D I NG) I N ORDER T O DEVIATE T H E E N E RGY O F S U B L I M ATION FROM ITS CREATIVE IN D I R ECTION IDEAL OF AND FAVOR ITS D E MONSTRATES IS R E LA T I V E OEDIPAL TO STRUCTU RE. AT THE D E ATH A LW A Y S THAT DEFEND THE H I M S E LF: C R E AT I O N S WHATEV E R STAGE O F D E V E LOPMENT I T APPEARS A N D ACCOR D I N G TO THE DEGREE O F COMPLETION OF O E D I PUS. O N E M UST R E M E M ­ BER IN T H I S R E V E R S A L H O W M U C H T H E I M PU LSES OF SUBLIMATION ARE DOM I NA T E D TWO BY SOC I A L ARE R E PRESSION SEPARATED. PATRON A G E . TO THE D EG R E E THAT I T DOM I NATES. LEGA L DETER M I N A T I O N . SO T H E SUBLI M ATION OF THE M A T E R N A L I M AGO FACT: I F T H E MATE R N A L U N C L E PRACTICES T H E SOCI A L S PO N SOR S H I P A S GUA R D I A N OF FA M I LY­ R ELATED TABOOS A N D I N ITIATOR OF T R I B A L R I TES. SOME OF THE N A RC I S S I ST I C FATHER. T H E I M AGO OF THE FATH E R POLA R I Z E S T H E MOST P E RFECT FOR M S OF THE EGO-I D E A L I N BOTH S E XES. N O R M A L I DE A LS. THE FAMILIAL TIONS. T H E E X P E R I E N C E THUS CONTR A D ICTS T H E T H E O R E T I C A L O R I ENTA­ TION SUCH WHICH D E S I G NATES IN THE THE MAJOR AGENT OF PATE R N A L PRESENT THEORY OF O E D I PUS. DRAMA: GO M UC H FURTHER BEYOND THIS STATUTES. REINTEGRATE BY THE S OC I A L D I A L E C T I C I NTO THE ENGENDERED MATR I A RCHY A N D P A T R I A RCHY THIS CONFLICT PSYCHOLOGICAL PROGRESS. M A R K I N G T H E EGO. DISCHARGED FROM ALL R E PRESSIVE F U NCTION . THIS ANTINOMY PLAYS IN T H E I N D I V I D U A L DRAMA. THIS I S NOT TO SAY THAT IT IS BASED OUTS I D E OF SOCIOLOGICAL RELATIVITY. CON FOR M I NG R E F E R R I NG A G R EA T N U M B E R OF N E U ROSES A N D TH E I R G RAVITY TO S U C H C A USES. PLAYS AS A MORE F A M I LI A R ROLE OF TENDS TO TU R N I NTO A F E E L I N G O F R E P R ESSION FOR ITS BA N K R U PTCY AND I N TO A SYSTEMATIC CONCE R N FOR T H E M I RROR I M AGE. TH E MOST DECISIVE R E S U LT OF ITS DITEI BY TYI NG TOGETH E R THE PROGRESS OF THESE FUNCTIONS IN SUCH A N ANTI NOMY. SUCH TH AT IT I S ENOUGH T O I N DICATE THAT T H E FORM S REA LIZE THE V I R I L E I D E A L IN TH E BOY AND T H E V I R G I N A L I N THE G I R L. O N T H E OTH E R H A N D . BUT H E I N N O WAY A UTHORIZES THE PARODISTIC M I RAGE LOGI ST MUST AGA I N ST WHICH T H E SOCIO­ THE OF SECLUSION I N T E G R I TY . HERE W E WILL SEE IT CONFI R M E D BY T H E EFFECTS O F DECOMPOSI­ TION: BUT THESE EFFECTS OF PROG RESS. FA M I LY. BY STEREOTYPE MARKS PERSONA LITY IS OPPOSE D TO T H E H A R MONY THAT IT CARRIES W I TH I N . I N TH E G I RL.

BUT R E M A I N I NG L I M ITED T O TH E R E A C H OF A BSTRACTION. A N D SECOND. T H I S WAS REA LIZED I N T H E F I FTEENTH CENTURY WITH THE ECONOMIC R EVOLUTION THAT PRODUCED THE BO U RG E O I S SOC I ETY MODERN MAN. IN SO F A R A S I T I S PRODUCED E M I N E NTLY BY THE J E W I S H PEOPLE. A N D B Y ITS W I T H T H I S FACT W E U N I F Y T H E CRITICAL MOMENT THAT B E RGSON D E F I N E D IN T H E FOU N DATION S OF MORA LITY: I T I S K NOWN THAT H E RETU R N S TO ITS FU NCTION NOT H I N G OF SOCI A L D E F E N S E T H I S " A L L O R BY WHICH HE DES IG­ CON V U LS I V E ARCHAL B A TT L E TO M A I N TA I N THE THE PATRI­ I DE A L A G A I N ST I R R E P R E SS I B L E SEDUCTION O F TH E S E M A T R I A R C H I ES. I L L U M I N ATED WHEREAS THE IT ONLY MATR I A R C H A L C U LT U R E S A N D T H E STAGNATION OF P R I M ITIVE G RO U PS SEPA RATE T H E M . OF ITS N A M E LY T H E SOC I A LY E LEVATED CONCENTRATION) R E A L IZE T H E FANTASI ES OF T H E P R I M O R D I A L R E LATION OF THE M OT H E R WITH THE C R U E L E S T R I GO R . THE CONCRETE FOR M OF PRI MORDIA L OBLIGATION IN THE I NT E R DICTION OF T H E MOTHER. A A B STRACT SOURCE NO D I SCOV E R S DOUBLE RETU R N E D AGAI NST THESE FO R M A L I S T TIONARY EXTENSION O F M O R A L PRIVE LEDGES FROM A PAT R I A RC H TO AN I M M E N SE PLEBACY AND ONTO ALL PEOPLE. WHATEV E R T H E I R FOR M . T H E O P E N I N G I NTRODUCES A N I D E A L OF PROMISE I N TO REPRES­ SION. BY EXPE R I E NCE. AND THE PSYC H O LOGY OF THE RELATIONS MAN BETW E E N THE THE PSYCHOLOGY F A M I LY OF MODE R N AND CONJUGAL ARE M E A N I NG DOES N O T A P PEA R A N Y L E S S I N THE MYTH OF O E D I P U S (IF O N LY WE DO NOT N EG L ECT T H E WHAT. OF PROC ESS O F "TH E OPE N I NG" OF THE SOCI A L BON D IN PATE R N A L A UTHOR ITY. F A R FROM THE B I RTH OF H U M A N ITY FROM WHICH THE I M MEMORIAL CONTI N U AT I O N OF H I S TORICAL T R A D I TION ONLY FULLY STRUCK I N THE A N N A LS OF PATR I A R C H I E S. THE PROPH ETIC I S M BY W H I C H B E R SON A PPEALS TO H I STORY. I L L USIONS. T H I S B E R E D BOD I E S A N D LIVE B U R IAL-IN MORE T H A N O N E M YTH THEY W I L L R E A D THAT THE A D V E N T O F PAT E R NA L A UTHORITY A NSWERS T O A TEMPERA· M E N T OF P R I M ITIVE SOCIAL R E PRESSION. N O W . SAYING THAT BY THE P R I V I L E DG E D FOR M S OF M A R R I AGE. T H E C H U RC H I NTEGRATED THIS TRADITION I NTO T H E FU NCTION A L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS. SO I N T H E SAME WAY THEY CAN D E M O NSTRATE A REAL TWO F U NCTION S O F THIS PROCESS ARE R E F LECTED ON THE STRUCT U R E O F THE FA M I LY ITSELF: F I R ST. THESE MYTHS ARE SITUATED AT THE E D G E OF H I STORY A N A LY S I S : ON E WE TAKE AS PROB L E M LIGHT STRUCTU R E THE FACT T H AT T H E H I STORY. C A N BE U N D E RSTOOD BY THE SITUATION O F B E I N G THE E L ECT PEOPLE-A SITUATION C REATED SINCE TH E I R GROUP W A S THE OPE N I NG OF T H E SOC I A L BON D R E P R E S E N T AT I V E O F P A T R I A R C H Y F O R OTH E R GROUPS D E VOTED T O M A T E R N A L C U LTS. W H I C H I N T H E END FORMA LLY T I E S T H I S M E A N I NG T O AN E X P R E SSION OF PROM I S E . HE RECOG N I Z E S IT IN P A T R I A RC H I A L PEOPLES: OPPOSITION TO A T R A N SC E N D E NT E LA N AN O F LIFE I N PROGRESS I S FOU N D I N T H E LEGAL FOR M S. T H I S M A N I S THE ONLY OBJECT THAT IT HAS T R U LY S U B M ITTED TO ITS E P I SODE OF T H E S P H I N X ) . W H I C H OPENS T H I S GROUP BY UNIVERSALIZING A N A LY S I S DOUBT THE B O N D. MOR A LITY OF C H RISTIANTIY B Y B R I NG I NG I N TO T H E FO REGRO U N D TH E F R E E C H O I C E OF A PA RTN E R I N I F THEY WHICH REFER TO TH E R I TES OF SAC R I F I C E B Y (EVEN ATTA I N I NG A THE BOND OF M A RRIAGE. W E THUS SEE THE EXIGENCIES OF THE P E R SO N AND THE OF OBLIGATION. A M I SSION R E A LI Z E D BY THE ALREADY REVOLU­ E V E R Y MOV E M E NT. P E R I PH E RA LLY MATR I A RC H I E S T H A T A R E "ON LY" A LWAYS S U B JACENT TO A N C I E N T C U LTU R E OFENl. T H E A POTHEOTIC E X A LTATION THAT C H RISTI A N ITY B R I N G S TO T H E E X I G E N C I E S OF THE P E RSON. THE T R A D I TI O N IN THE PATR I C I A N I DEALS. THUS CAUSING THE PRIMITIVE C U LT U R E S FA M I L I A L I N STITUTION T O TAKE T H E D EC I S I V E STEP TOWA RDS ITS MOD E R N STRUCTU RE. W H I C H ETER N A LIZE THE M I SS I O N E X P E R I ENCED BY ROME IN ITS CONSC I E N C E A S M UCH A S IN ITS POWER. A NO L E S S A M B I G UOUS REPRESENTATION OF THE E M A N C I PA T I O N OF E X P E R I E N C E AND I F THE PSYCHOA NA LYST R E D I S- 1 98 . (AS IN THE I N V ESTIGATIONS OF BACH· ACCO R D I NG T O T H I S SOCIOLOGICAL REFERENCE." U N I V E RSA LIZATION O F T H E I D E A L D I A LECTICALLY AFFIRMED IN S OC I ETY. AC ROSS THE H I STORY OF TESTI MONY TO THIS N A TE S THE BON D THAT C LOSES TH E H U M A N GROUP U PO N ITS COH E R E NC E . I N E F F ECT. PROPOSE T H E M S E LVES T O T H E STU D Y OF PSYCHOA NA LYSIS.THAT THE STUDY OF THESE IS ALREADY M U ST FOR M S R E LATES TO GIVEN A FOR OUR OF OF MATE R N A L TYRA N N I ES A N D THE D EC L I N E OF T H E R I T E OF ROY A L M U R D E R .D I S M E M ­ SECRET REVERSA L THE ADVA NTAGE PREPON DERANCE TO REVERSAL OF M A R RIAGE. I F THE PSYCHOLOGI ST A N D T H E SOCIOLOG I ST C A N RECOG N IZE. LEDGIBLE IN T H E M YTH I C A M B I G U I TY OF TH E SAC R I F I C E OF ABRAHAM.

CAN LESS THAN MAN IN WESTE R N C U LTURE H I MSELF THE S U P E R I O R ACCO M PL I SH M E NT S OF C H A RAC­ TER-H A P P I N E S S AND CREATION-IN ORDER TO EVER U N D E RSTA N D OUTSIDE T H E A NTI NOM I E S T H A T CONSTITUTE H I S R E LATIONS WITH NATURE AND SOC I ETY. FROM IT. IT I N VO L V E S AND OF A POS ITIVE G I FTS.COVERS I N H I M PSYC H IC R E FLECTION O F THE MOST ORIGINAL CON DITIONS O F M A N . THE THE P RO M E T H E A N T R A N SG RESSION OF HIS LIFE. T H E CONJUGAL FA M I LY PLACES TH I S A UT H O R I TY AT THE MOST I M M E D IATE EN­ VARIED AND RICH THE U NCONSC IOUS REALITIES I NTEG RATED I NTO THE THE MORE FA M I LY E X P E R I E NC E ARE. ACCOR D I N G TO HIS OWN I D E A L. A N D TO DO SO U N DER A FA M I LI A R FIGURE. TRA N S M I SSION T H I S E FFECT OF THE EGO­ AGA I NST BY OPERATES TAKE. T H E MORE IN ORDER TO I N ST I L L A UTHORITY IN THE CLOSEST N EIGHBO R I NG G E N ERATION. HOW. MOST H U M A N E LY REALIZE THE CONFLICT OF M A N WITH H I S MOST A RC H A I C AN GU IS H . FOR T H E MOST COMMON OBSE RVATION. WE A RE DEC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L I M AGO 1 99 . IF IN TH E S E MORAL CONDITIONS OF CR EATION PSYCHOANALYSIS M A N I FESTS A R EVOLUTIONARY TRAN SLATED B Y THE I N V E R S I O N S O F T H E ORDER OF G E N E RATIONS I MA G I N E D B Y T H E C H I LD. W H E R E HE SU BSTITUTES H I M S E L F FOR THE GRAN DPA RENT. IT I S RECOGN IZED IN ORDER TO PRODU C E A POWER IN THE FA M I LI A L STRUCTU RE WHICH S U R PASSES ALL EDUCATIONAL RATIONA L­ ON THE OTH E R H A N D. MOST P U R E LY. TRANCE TO TH E C R EATIVE S U B V E RSION. THIS IS A LREADY THUS. R EPRODUCES T H E PLAY OF N A RC I S S I STIC EQUIVA­ LENCES WHERE THE WORLD OF OBJECTS WAS BOR N . THE WORK OF TH E I R FOR MATIVE REDUCTION FOR RE ASON WILL BE. C A N HE CLA I M TO CURE HIM OF P S YC H I C DEFICIENCIES WITHOUT F I N A L LY AND A BO V E A L L. FAC ING T H I S M A N AT T H E EXTRE M E POINT O F T H E SCIENTIFIC ATTITU DE? THE COM PLEX OF THE CONJ UGAL F A M I LY FO R M S THUS. AS WE H A V E S A I D. THE EVIDENCE OF SEXUAL L I F E IN TH E RE PRESE NTATI VES OF MORAL CONSTR A I NTS-THE SI NGULARLY TRANSGRESSIVE U N DERSTA N D I N G THEM W I TH I N T H E C U LTU RE THAT I M POSES WITHOUT THE H IG H EST E X IG E N C I E S U PON HIS OWN HIM­ EXAMPLE O F T H E I MAGO O F TH E FAT H E R A S F A R A S THE PRI M O R I D A L I NTERDICTION IS CONCE R N ED­ U N D E R S TA N D I N G POSITION EXALT THE TENSION OF TH E LIBIDO A N O T H E !'. THE FACT O F FAM I LI E S OF E M I N ENT MEN OWES TO TH I S PSYC HOLOGICA L PROCESS. T H E A N G U I S H THAT M A N E X P RESSES I N THE SENTIM ENTS O F A TOW A R D SECOND. A N D I N O R D E R T O A D A PT HIS INDIVIDUAL EXPE RI ENCE AGAI NST TO THE THE MOST CONDITIONS M O ST E L EV A T E D C O N C E PT I O N S COMPLETE SERV ITU DE. IN T H I S THE PSYCH ISM IS IZATION. T H E FACT OF A SOCI A L E D UCATION WITH TOTA LITA R I A N C LA I M S DESERV E S TO BE PROPOSED TO THEOR ETIC I A N S NO MATTER W H AT SIDE THEY FOR MED TH A N NO L E S S BY T H E I M AGE OF THE A DU LT ITS THE C O N S T R A I NTS. IN THE FORMATION OF MOST G R E A T MEN. I N CONTI BUTING THE LARGEST D I F F E R E NTIATION TO THE P E R SO N A L I T Y THE B E FO R E THE PERIOD OF TO S OC I A L MAXI M U M LATENCY. AND NOT TO THE A LLEGED H E R E DITY THAT ONE M UST RECOGNIZE I N ESSENTIA LLY RELATIONAL CAPACI­ TIES. IN A FULLER R E A LITY AND UNDER SU PERIOR SUBLIMATIONS O F LOGIC A N D J U STICE. TO OFFER H I M THE LO Y A L E ST C LO S E D FIELD THE IN WHICH TO OUTSIDE OF THESE.COPE OF SUBLI M ATION TO THE H IGHEST DEGREE. RECOGNIZ­ I NG THAT H E C R EATES H I M S E L F A N D H I S OBJECTS TH ROUGH DIA LECTI CAL C R ISES. FROM THE FAT H E R TO THE OF SON. PARENT OR THE FERMENT THAT ONE CAN GRASP O N LY TH ROUGH CONCRETE A N A LYSIS. THE AT THIS POINT ONE CAN EDUCATIONAL ACTION THAT THIS CRITICAL AND S U B V E R S I V E M OV E M E NT W H E R E MAN I S R E A L I Z E D F I N D S ITS M O S T ACTI V E K E R N E L I N THREE CON DITIONS O F T H E CONJ UGA L FA MI LY. TRI UMPH O R IG I N A L W H E R E H E OVE RC O M E S T H I S A N G U I SH. COMPLEX BRINGS CONFRONTATIONS O F T H I S PERIOD THE THE ROLE OF THE F A M I L I A L FOR MATION EFFICIENCY FOR T H E RATIONAL FORMATION O F THE INDIVIDUAL CONSI D E R IN EFFECT. IN ORDER THAT EACH A R R I V E S A T HIS OWN CONCLUSION DESI RES. AND M E A SU R E HI MSELF WITH M O ST PROFO U N D FIGURES O F H I S DESTI N Y. I N OUR T I M E S. I S IT POSSIBLE T O U N D E RSTAN D FI RST. IDEAL A IN S E L ECTION THE DRIVES THE THE P R OG R E S S I V E R E A LIZATION CHA RACTER.

CONSTITUTES PSYCHOLOGICAL C R I S I S. ALWAYS I N SOME WAY D E F I C I E N T . THE H E A RT H OF THE PETIT-BO U R ­ IN THE N I N ETEENTH C ENTURY BROUGHT THE MOST SUBVERSIVE C RITIQUES AGAI NST THE PATE RNAL­ I STIC FA M I LY A R E NOT THOSE WHO PRESERVE THE LEAST OF ITS WEIG HT. FOR WHAT IT I S WORTH.LED TO PERCEIVE THE ROLE O F THE I MAGO OF THE FATH ER I N A STR I K I NGLY EVIDENT M A N N E R. N O T TO M E NTION F E U D A L A N D M E RCANTILE PATE R N A L I S M S-THAT A SON OF A JEWISH PATR I A RC H COULD H A V E I M A G I N E D THE OEDIPAL COMPLEX. IN THE A M E RICAN WAY OF LIFE. I M POTE N C E A N D UTOPIA E N C LOSING H I S A MBITION-WH ETHE R IT STI F L E S IN HIM THE C R E ATIONS AWAITED B Y T H E WO RLD I NTO W H I C H H E NO M A TT E R WHAT A ITS FUTURE.H E FA I LS TO RECOGN I ZE HIS OWN M OV E M E NT. PRETENDED LOOSE N I NG OF THE FA M I LIA L BOND.A B S E N T. IT IS WORTH NOTING ITS LITERARY A N D MORAL RADI­ STATE THAT WAS A M E LTI NG POT OF TH E MOST D I V E R S E FA M I LY FORMS. DIVIDED OR OF C O N C E NTRATION A N D POL I T I C A L CATASTRO P H E . ON E M U ST R E LATE THE APPEA RANCE OF PSYCHO­ A N A LY S I S ITSELF TO ITS C RISIS. C O N FO R M I N G THIS THE H U M I LIATED. FROM THE MOST A RC H A I C T O THE M O S T E V O L V E D . F R O M THE L A S T AGNATIC GROUPS OF PEASANT SLAVES TO T H E MOST A N C E IN THE CLASSICAL ERA OF PROGRESS-FROM CORNEI LLE TO PROUDHON: AND I D EOLOGUES WHO R E D UC E D A N D DECADENT FOR M S O F A N U NSTA BLE H O U S E HOLD. ECONO M I C FOR M AND ITS G E N E RA LIZATION. GEOSI E . FOR E XA M PLE. THIS D EC L I N E MAYBE C A M E. FALSE. [ T A R I Rl D E F IC I E NC Y C O M E S T O I N STI N C T I V E I M P U LS E S EXHAUST AND TO I NT I M ATELY FA M I LY THE DIA LECTIC IT CONJUGAL SINCE OPERATES DAMAGE [TA R E R l THE DIA LECTIC OF SUBLI MATIONS. N E U ROSIS. OR W H E T H E R I N T H E OBJECT H E PROPOSES FOR H I S R E VOLT. T H E DOM I N ANT WE ARE NOT A MONG THOSE AFFLICTED BY THE FOR M S OF N E U ROSES AT THE END OF THE LAST CENTURY REVEALED THEIR I NTIMATE D E P E N D E NCY U PON THE CONDITIONS OF THE F A M I LY. IT I S THE K E R N A L OF T H E G REATEST N U M B E R OF N E UROSES-W H E R E ONE C A N RECOG N I Z E THE G R EAT CONTEMPORARY N E U ROSIS. OUR EXPERI ENCE LEADS US TO DESIGNATE T H E PERSONA LITY OF THE FATH E R AS ITS PRINCI PLE DETE R M I NA NT. WAS N O T TH E A RG U M ENT FOR M E D BY THE C H I E F O F A TOTA LITA R I A N STATE AN IT A RGU M E N T AGAI NST IS A DECLI N E TIED OF THE BY A TO O U R C O N C E PT I O N TRADITIONAL MOST EDUCATION? TO OEDI P U S. TO US. VERY V I S I BLE. WHERE D U E EQUALLY TO THE SPEC I FICITY OF ITS C U LTURAL PROGRESS? BUT A LARGE N U M B E R OF PSYC HOLOGICAL EFFECTS SEEM. TH E SUBLIME FORTU N E O F G E N I U S P E R H A PS DOES NOT A LONE EXPLAI N WHY I T WAS I N V I E N N A-THE C E NTER OF A JACQUES LACA N TRANSLATED BY A NDREA KAHN 200 . I S IT N O T SIGNI FICANT T H A T T H E FA M I LY S H O U L D BE REDUCED TO ITS BIOLOGICAL GROU PING TO THE DEGREE THAT IT I NT E G R A T E S THE H IG H EST S I N C E THE T I M E OF THE FI RST F R E U D I A N D I V I N A ­ T I O N S T H E S E N E U ROSES S E E M T O H A V E EVOLVE D I N THE D I R ECTION OF A CHARACTER I STIC COMPLEX. DEPEN­ DENT U PON THE SOC I A L D EC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L I MAGO: A DECLI NE CONDITION ED BY A RETU R N OF EXTR E M E EFFECTS OF S OC I A L PROGRESS ONTO THE I N D I V I DUAL: A DEC L I N E A BOVE ALL MARKED I N OUR T I M E S BY THOSE COLLECTIVITIES WHO HAVE MOST ST R O N G L Y F E LT THOSE E F FECTS. S I N I ST E R G O D M OT H E R S AT THE C RA D L E OF RELATIVE GROWTH OF MATR I MON I A L EXIGENCI ES.

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U N I FO R M S . G I V I N G A WOM A N S E X U A L PLEAS U R E BY ORALLY GENI­ 9. SEXUAL R E LA T I O N S WITH A N I M A LS !S. ET CETERA STI M U LATI NG TALS HER 202 . S U R P R I S I N G L Y . BESTIALITY A. M ATCH THE F O L LOW I N G TERMS WITH TH E I R C O R R ECT 4. FORC I B LY HAVING SEX RELATIONS WITH A V I R G I N 6. SEXUAL PLEASURE A SEX THROUGH KEEPING D E F I N ITIONS. H O W FA M I LI A R A R E YOU WITH SO-C A L L E D " P ER V E R S I O N S ?" D O YOU KNOW T H E M BY T H E I R P R O P E R N A M E S OR H A V E YO U B E E N TRA I N E D T O R ECOI L AT T H E V E R Y M E NTION OF A S E X PRACTICE THAT IS OUT OF TH E O R D I N A RY? TO TEST T H E ACC U RACY OF YOU R KNOWLEDGE. EXPERIENCING SEXUAL CAREFU LLY C H OO S I N G PLEA S U R E T H ROUGH P A I N A N S W E R. BON D A G E E. A P E R SON W H O I S S E X ­ STI M U L A T E D BY 1 . S O YOU R PARTN E R P R I SO N E R D E F I N I T I O N S THAN B E FO R E 7 . B . 'FA I R E M I N ETTE' D. SCATOLOGY B. U ROLAG N I A F. O S P H R E S IOLAG N I A I. W R I T E T H E LETT E R OF THE CORR ECT D E F I N I TI O N TH E R E READ ARE N E XT MORE TO THE TERM IT D E SC R I B E S . F L A G E L L ATION H. VOY E U R I S M G. R E C E I V I N G S E X U A L STI M ­ ULATION BY RUBBING A­ PRACTICES? G A I N ST SO M EON E OR SOME­ TH E R E WAS A TI M E WHEN A N YTH I N G BUT TH E THING M I S S I O N A R Y POSITION W A S CONSI D E R E D I M MO R A L A N D P E R V E R S E . TH I S ATTITU DE I S STI LL H E L D BY M A N Y PEOPLE TODAY. SEXUAL PLEASURE OTH­ U A LLY THROUGH WATC H I N G W E A R I N G C LOTH I NG OF T H E O P POSITE S E X ERS E NGAGE IN SEX ACTS 2. T E R M S.DO YOU K NOW C O R R ECT T E R M S FO R W H AT SOM E M A Y C A L L S E X "PE R V E R­ SIONS"? HOW M UCH DO YOU K NOW A BOUT UN USUAL SEX 3. T R A N S VE S T I T E C . SEXUAL A D DICTION TO S P E C I F I C FOR M S OF STI M U ­ LA T I O N -G U N S.

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A 1 5. J 1 3. ANAL I N T E RCO U R S E . ALGOLAG N I A O. SEX W I TH T H R E E PEOPLE AT ONCE 1 2. R WHIPPED FOR SEXUAL 8. M 9.1 0. FETI SHISM M. 0 2. 0 GRATIFI CATION 1 6. C 1 1. PEDOPH I L I A N. B DREN 5. THROUGH B E I NG U R I NATED U PO N 204 . S E X U A L STI M U L A T I O N G I V E YOURSELF ONE POINT FOR EACH CORRECT A N SWER. E X H I BITION I S M K. W H I P P I NG 7. TROI LISM P. I 1 4. G 1 6. PEDERASTY L. A PERSON WHO I S SEX­ U A LLY STIM ULATED BY I N ­ FLICTING PA I N R. BY S E X U A L GRATI FICATION S M E LL I NG C E R TA I N ODORS 1 3. SEX WITH YOUNG C H I L­ 3. H 4. Q. L 1 0. N 1 4. Q 1 2. P OR BEING 1 5. F 6. SEXUAL I N T E R E ST IN THE A NSWERS EXC R E M ENT 1. FROTTAGE J. G A I N I NG S E X U A L PLEA­ SURE O N E'S ERS THROUGH E X POSING E S P E C I A L LY P E R FO R M E D ON A YOUNG BOY B Y A M A N G E N I T A L S TO OTH­ 1 1 .

T H E FI RST R EASON I S T H A T S UBJECTI V E LY I A C C O R D A C E RTAI N I M PORTA N C E TO WHAT COMES U N D E R T H E H E A D I NG OF T H A T S O M E W H A T O L D . OR IS A LAS. D E NOTA T I O N AND C O N NOTAT I O N . A UTH E N T I C A LLY M A R X I ST A S N O ONE W I L L DENY. FIRST B Y C H R I ST I A N MORALITY. IN TO B R EC H T AND HIS CIGARS. THEN A FTER B E I N G THE WORD PLEASURE CROPPED UP IN WHAT I TAKEN OVE R BY A POS I T I V I ST. PLEASURE. IN TRYING TO ESTA BLISH SOME KINO OF D I V I SION BETWEEN "PLEAS U R E" AND A TACTIC A L MOVE IN T H E O R D E R OF IDEAS E NTAI LS EXPLANATIONS. T H A T IT A L LOWS FOR A C E RTA I N E X PLORATION OF THE HUMAN S U BJ ECT. RATI O N A L I ST WOULD C A LL A TACTI C A L WAY. IN POS I N G T H E COMES UP PROB L E M A OF ONE A G A I NST VERY TOP I C A L TH E M E F A M I L I A R T O PSYCHOA N A LY S I S A N D OF I NTEREST T O WHAT I S C A L L E D THE A V A N T GARDE. I H A D T H E FEELING THAT I NTELLEC T U A L TO LANGUAGE S U B M ITTED TOO WHICH BY MORALITY. EASILY E M PT I E D MORALIZING IMPERATIVES IT O F A L L I NOTION TO O F JOUISSANCE.VOCA B U L A R Y OPPOSITION P L E A S U R EIJOUISSANCE DISCREDITED AND FRUSTRATED FOR CENTURI ES. FOR TH E RETU R N OF T H E WORD "PLEA S U R E" IS AND CENSURE PERSO N A L F I E LD. OF TH E AND P A R TI C U LA R LY T O T H E L I V I NG. I TAKE ON THE R E S PO N S I B I L I T Y RETURN TO OF A A C E R TA I N THESE OPPOSITIONS SHOULD NOT B E TA K E N TOO LITERALLY. THE P H I LO S O P H Y 205 . I N T H E WAY O F BECO M I N G S O BY A C E R T A I N M A R X I ST ETHIC. OFTEN T R I E D T O C R EATE SUCH B R ECHT. T HROUGHOUT T H E WORK OF PREDELICTION. " JOUISSANC E . THE F R U STRATION WAS.FA S H I O N E D TERM TH E M E H E DO N I S M . SO FAR A S I AM CON C E R N E D THEN. I N D I R ECTLY I THE OPPOSITION P LE A S U R EfJOUISSANCE I S ONE OF THOSE D E L I B E R A T E LY FOR WHICH I HAVE I A RT I F I C I A L OPPOS I T I O N S HAD A C E RT A I N " J O U I S SA N C E . ART OF A L R E A DY DREW ATTENTION TO THESE TH I NG S W H E N R E F E R R I NG E X A M PLE. N O T T O F R U STRATE B U T T O DE­ F R U STRATE IT. R E INTRODUCE IT IN MY REACTION WORD A TT E M PT E D NOT TO TH E OWN THE SECO N D J U ST I FICATION FOR T H E E M E RG E NCE. FOR A LW A Y S FACT. G I R D S ITSELF WITH R E A SO N S. EXTR E M E C O N S I D E R A TI O N IS GIVEN TO OPPOSITIONS: FOR E X A M P L E BETWEE N WRITING AND SC R I B B L I N G . BY A S K I N G ON E'S SELF FOR I N STANCE IF SUCH AND SUCH A TEXT FALLS I N TO T H E H EDON I S M .

B U T PROVI S I O N A L L Y A T L E A ST. T H E S T E R EOTY P E . I T I S THE LUCK OF T H E GAME. T H E ACT O F DRAGGING I S A N ACT IF O N E SET OUT TO DO A PROV I S IONAL SORTI NG OF TEXTS ACCOR DING TO THOSE TWO WORDS. A LTHOUGH O N E CAN I MAGI N E AESTHETIC CRITERIA SPEC I E S. BUT A M U C H S O U G H T. FO R A B R I E F I N STA NT. U N D E RGOES THE EXPERI ENCE OF PRODI­ GALITY WHICH I S STRICTLY SPEAKING JOUISSANCE. • IN THE FRAG M E NT FROM WHICH THIS PHRASE IS TA KEN.A FT E R L U C K . F O R EXAM PLE T H E T H E M E NOT OF DRUGS STRICTLY SPEAKI NG. T O GIVE A N EXAM PLE. AND I AM NOT ALONE IN UPHOLD I NG IT. AS OPPOSED TO THIS.A N D TH E R E'S NO S A Y I N G I F THEY A R E NOT ALSO TEXTS OF PLEASURE. THEY TRA N S PORT U S A N D PROVOKE THAT PRODIGA LITY OF THE LOSS OF SE LF. WHATEVER C O M E S TO LIGHT IN THE S U R P R I S E OF THE "FIRST TIM E. QUITE S I M PLY." B E L O N G S. PERVERSION M U C H THOUGHT . A N D THEN. PLEASURE IS LINKED WITH THE CONSISTENCY OF THE SELF. DRAGGING I M PL I E S A TEMPORALITY WHICH LAYS STRESS ON THE E NCOU NTER. T H E SADIAN TEXT." OR OF CERTA I N FORM S OF PERVERSION. T H E A N T I ­ D O M A I N OF R E A D I N G C L A S S I C A L W R I T E R S . N O T B EC A U S E H E S P E A K S ABOUT JOUISSANCE. W H E N I T R Y T O PRODUCE T H I S SHORT W R I T I N G B Y F R A G M ENTS. I N STEAD OF A FF I R M I NG. CASE. NOT ONLY TO O U R REGISTER OF I M AGES A N D IMAGI NATION. . T H E T H E M E OF S H O R T W R I T I N G . THE PLEASURE OF L OV I N G W H I C H D O E S NOT F I G U R E I N V I E W O F 206 . DRAGGING THAT SAID. BECAUSE IT IS S U B M I TT E D TO T H E CONSTR A I N T OF T H E EPOCH. W H I C H A F F I R M S I T S E L F TH ROUGH V A L U E S OF C O M FORT. WHERE IN MANY R E S PECTS HE "PERVERSION. I S T H E A NT I . DRAGGING THE N AT U R A L AS R E P ET I T I O N . IT IS. I S A WAY OF BEING H A PPY. T O A QUEST A FTER TEXTS FOR E X A M PLE. ABOUT. TO THE C O D E OF THE PROBABLE. O R A QUEST FOR A TYPE O F FICTION. I PUT M Y S E L F IN THE POSITION OF A N A UTHOR WHOSE READER GOES DRAGGING. OBVIOUSLY. I N OTH E R WORDS." AS I F T H E F I R S T E N C O U N T E R POS S E S S E D A N EXTRAO R D I N A R Y P R I V I LEGE O F ITS OWN: THAT O F B E I NG OUTSIDE A L L R E PETITION. OR OF E N U NC I ATION. I N A WAY. PERVERSION I S THE SEA RCH FOR A P L E A S U R E THAT C A N NOT BE T U R N E D TO THE PROFIT OF SOC I A L E N DS O R THE I N FACT IT'S D I F F I C U LT TO EXPLA I N B E C A U S E .. JOUISSANCE I S THE SYSTEM OF READING. BUT ON T H E LEVEL OF LANGUAGE ITSELF . IT I S CERTA I N THAT BY A H U G E MAJORITY T H E TEXTS W E KNOW A N D LOVE A R E BROADLY SPEA K I NG TEXTS O F PLEASURE.CATEGORY OF PLEASURE OR JOUISSANCE. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO WORDS IS NEVE RTH E LESS REAL. OF THE SUBJECT. FOR THAT REASON D R AGGING I S A NOTION I CAN EASILY TRA NSFER FROM THE ORDER OF THE E ROTI C QUEST WHERE I T O R I G I N ATES. THE TEXT OF JOUISSANCE H A S T O BE I N A SENSE U N R EADABLE. DRAGGING I S THE JOURNEY OF DESIRE. R EPETITION I S A M A LE F I C E N T T H E M E F O R M E . QUESTING I N ACCORDANCE WITH ITS OWN DESIRE. FO R M U LAS. IT MUST COME A S A JERK. W H I C H M E A N S THAT H E R E "PERVERSION" DOES NOT HAVE A PSYC HOA N A LYTIC R I GO U R-S I N C E FOR P S Y C H O A N A L Y S I S D R U G S A R E N OT ST R I CT L Y CLASSIBLE A S P E R V E R SIONS. WE MAY F I N D THESE TEXTS DISAGREEABLE OR AGGRESSIVE. I T I S T H E BODY IN A STATE OF A L E RT. FOR J U DG I NG TEXTS OF PLEASURE. . . HOWEVER I N C E NDIARY I T MA Y BE-I TH I N K OF SA D E FOR E X A M PLE (ONE M I GHT BE T E M PTED TO PLACE SADE A MONG TH E TEXTS OF J O U I S SA N C E . R EPETITION. I CITED THE WORD "PERVERSION" A FTER TWO ALLUSIONS TO HASHISH A N D HOMOSEXUALITY." DRAGG I NG A TEXT M U ST BE S E E N AS THE C A PT U R E O F P H R A S E S . R E M A I N S A TEXT OF PLEA S U R E.. THAT I S T O S A Y TEXTS NOT O N TH E S I D E O F T H E PROBABLE. TEXTS OF J O U I S S A N C E ARE A V A NT-G A R D E TEXTS.N A T U R A L . EASE-A N D I N M Y BELONGS T O THE PERHAPS I F I TALK A BOUT D RAGG I NG I'LL A R R I V E AT A D E F I N I TION. BUT OF "DRUGG I NG. R E ITERATION. I N SPITE O F EVERYTHI NG. THEY ARE OPPOSITIONS C H I E FLY USEFUL IN CLEARING A PATH. F R A G M E N T S . I T I S A N I M PORTANT THEME FOR ME. THIS THEME OF JOUISSANCE BORDERS ON OTHE R TH E M ES. S P I E D O N . B U T BY T H E W A Y H E SPEAKS OF IT!. WHEREAS TEXTS O F JOUISSANCE A R E EXT R E M E LY R A R E . ABANDONS ITSELF. E X P A N S I V E N E S S . FOR E X A M PLE. B U T ITS C O N T E N T IS A B SO L U T E L Y I N A UG U RAL. FOR TEXTS O F JOUISSANCE S U C H C RITERIA A R E STI LL OBSCURE. CITATIONS. ON THE "FI RST T I M E. • R E P E A T E D . IN GOI NG A STEP FURTHER: QUITE S I M PLY I N SPEAKING A N D W RITING. B Y MEANS OF WHICH THE SUBJECT.

BY OF A S E M I N A R AT TH E ECOLE DES H A U TES ETUDES O N THE LA NGUAGE OF LOVE. THAT OF THE I M A G I N A RY. T H E RB. OF THE I M AGI N A RY. E M PHASIS O N T H E FACT THAT T H E P E RVERT IS. VOLU PTU A R I E S IT B E LO N G S TO AN ORDER OF THE PA RTIC U L A R R E LATIO N S H I P ON WITH THE M OTH E R . BY H I M SELF. AND I'M BEGI N N I N G ALL I H AVE DO N E SINCE THE BDOK ON JAPAN RB. A CCOR D I N G MAJOR TO FREUDIAN IS FETI S H I ST TH I N K I NG A N D T H I N K I NG THE I M A G I N A RY. BECA USE OF THAT. ONE COULD CONSI D E R RB. BY WAY OF F E T I S H I S M . ON THE WHOLE. W H I C H TOU C H E S A NOTH ER T H E M E OF CONSI· TH E M E OF PRODIGA L I TY. P E R V E RSION. IS C E RTA I N UNDER FRAGM ENTS THE SIGN FROM A OF SORT PERVERSE WRITI NG. A H A P P Y P E R SON. GIVEN ITS FI RST PRODUCTION I N RB.PROCREATION. P R A C T I S E D G R A T U I TO U S LY. DERABLE I NTEREST TO M E AT THE MOM ENT. A S A MATTER OF FACT. I M PL I E S A ROLA ND B A RT H E S 207 . W H I C H F O R M E I S LI N K E D EVEN MORE CLOSELY W I TH PROBLEMS OF TH E I NCLUDING H I M SELF. ONE OF THE P E R V E R SIONS FETI S H I S M (TH E M E THAT C A N B E FOU N D I N THE W I S H FOR SEGMENTED WRITINGI. AND IN SO FAR AS. A PSYCH O A N A LYTIC SPECI FICITY SOMETH I NG OF A TURNING POINT B E TW E E N CAN B E RE·INTRODUCED I NTO T H E G E N E R A LITY OF THE TERM. FREUDIAN THOUGHT PUTS BUT TH A T O F TH E I M AGE. P E R V E R S I O N I S D I VORC E D FROM N E U ROSIS. I MAGINA RY. PSYCHOANA LYT I C A L LY. PLEASU R E OF T H E TEXT: S I NCE TH E R E I S N O T T H E PROBLEM O F J O U I SSA N C E W H I C H P R E DO M I NATES. THUS. IS N E V E RTHELESS. B Y H I M SELF AS B E I NG A CH ASTER BOOK T H A N THE THOUGHT. WHAT I N T E R ESTS M E AT THE PRESENT M O M E N T IS TH E FIELD OF THE I M A G I N A RY.

. I F A L L OF A SUDDEN TH IS SET-UP EVER CONC E R N I NG THE CONDITION. TH I S I S T O SAY. IT C O M E S FROM A TOPOLOGY. I AM ALSO H E R E AND T H IS I S GOOD THAT I FEEL • . OF THE U NCONSC I O U S. . YOU ARE H E R E .J LATE FOR THE FI RST T I M E . .STE A N N E Xci> XE ELSEWH E R E I OON'T OBVIOUSLY PAY TOO M UCH ATTENTION TO M Y LISTE N E RS. YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I SPOKE OF SOM ETH I NG TO DO WITH A S U M MATION OF THE BORRO M E A N KNOT. YOU SHOULD EXC U S E ME. I WOULD HOPE THAT THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN L I STE N I N G TO ME FOR SO M E TI M E W I LL EXPLA I N TO THE I N ITIATES THAT TH I S IS THE FI RST T I M E IT HAS HAPPENED TO M E. T H I S I S TH E FI RST TIME THAT I A M FIVE M I N UTES LATE. AS I A QUESTION I N FLUENCES OF A SLIGHT TEM PERATU RE A N D SOME DR UGS. O N E R I N G W E R E DETAC H E D FROM T H I S C H A I N . . I N STANT LONGER: I A M FORCED T O EXPLA I N W H Y TH I S COMES A BOUT AS. THAT I AM HAVING FUN: I F I CONTI N U E SPEAKING IN TH E SA M E TON E IT I S NOT S I M PLY FORCED. G I V E N A L L T H E F U S S . S I M PLE AS IT I S. AFTER A L L I A M N O T S U R E THAT. . H A D SA I D. 1. THIS I S ENOUGH (FOR • • . THE OTH E R TWO WOULD NOT HOLD TOGETH E R FOR O N E EXC U S E ME. T H I S SHALL NOT BE CAUSED BY MY ABNOR M A L STATE: RATHER IT SHALL BE -WHArs IN 1T1 WITH I N THE LI N E OF WHAT I I NTENDED TO SAY TO YOU. GOOD FOR YOU. ONE CHAIN IN THREE: I F (. I F SOME OF YOU WERE HERE LAST TI M E . IT I S SOl I AM GOI NG TO TRY TH I S E V E N I NG TO LIVE UP TO YOU R EXPECTATIONS. -WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1 208 . ESPEC I A LLY SINCE I SAID -WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1 C E RTA I N THAT. ( A N D IT WOU L D S U R P R I S E M E IF TH E R E ARE N OTI. ACTUALLY. BY THIS I MEAN U N D E R TH E A B N O R M A L L Y GOOD. DOES APPROAC H E D I N ITS G R A M MAR. THERE I S A QU ESTION THAT R E M A I N S LANGUAGE HAVE TO BE U N S ETTLED. I N W H I C H C A S E . WHICH I S TO SAY A QU ESTION POSED A BOUT WHAT I S LANGUAGE. CHANGED.

I WOULD A DD. IT IS COURSE IN TH I N G SOM ETH I NG B E I NG H A P P E N S TO THE BIAS OF SPEAKING IS TH E P R E S E NT THE FACT THAT UNDER THE S E X U A LITY. I S TIED TO THE RELATIONS-AND R I G HT. TO FIND IN CERTA I N CU RVES. NO MATTE R WHAT A R E NOWNED AUTHOR TH I N KS ABOUT IT-A R E N OWN E D A UTHOR WHO I MUST SAY I N H E R TI M E . . WHICH I T TU R N S OUT I QUOTED A FTE R J A KOBSON D I D A N D THAT. THAT IS THAT IT I S TO TH E EXTENT THAT THESE TH REE TERMS ARE THREE THAT WE SEE ( T H AT) THE FUNCTIO N A L I ZATION. TO A P P ROACH T H E QUESTION OF LANGUAGE NOT FROM AS UNDER THE PURE AS THE S E M A NTIC BIAS. SOM ETH I N G LIKE T H E E C H O OF P H Y S I C A L P H E N O M E N A . A R E D E D U C E D FROM THESE C U RVES. A N D WE KNOW A LITTLE ABOUT IT A FTER A L L IF ONLY FROM EXPERI ENCE.THAT I S TO SAY NOT WITHOUT RESORTING A LSO TO M A TH E M A T I C S TO FIND. UNDER THE SEMANTIC M U C H A S WE KNOW SOMETH I NG ABOUT IT. THE QUESTION STAYS SUSPEN DED. WHY DOES LANGUAGE ASSEMBLE U N D E R TH E SA M E CATEGORY FU NCTIONS W H I C H C A N ONLY BY THE DISTORTED R E LATIONS. T H I S IS. STRICTLY SPEAKI NG. A DVA N C I N G TO IS SOM ETH I N G RADICALLY ATTACH E D TO T H E P U RELY TOPOLOGI­ CAL O R I G I N OF LANGUAGE. F R O M THE FACT OF ITS .-AH . S H E C A L L E D M E O N THE TELE PHONE T O SAY T O M E T H A T ASSUREDLY S H E H A D N E E D O F MY COUNSEL TO RESONANCE W H I C H WOU L D B E C U RVES C E RTA I N WOU LD GENIZE WHICH IN ORDER TO E L A BORATED (BY) HAVE VALUE IN A ORDER OF FUNDAM ENTAL RESSEMBLE. S U PPLE. C E RTA I N FORMS. ( A N D) RE LATIONS. BETWE EN THE OTH E R TWO. THAT I S . TA K E N IN R E LATIONS. H A D BELIEVED. THIS I S THE A F FA I R I N WHICH I ABSTA I N FROM TREA D I NG. IT IS C E RTAIN THAT THERE WOULD BE SOM ETH I N G INFI NITELY LANGUAGE SATI SFYI NG IS IN SOM E IN CO N S I D E R I N G THAT THE TOGETH E R A L O N E . TH I S TOPOLOGY. LEAVI NG IT UP TO YOU. CAN HELP FURTH E R B E FO R E Y O U THIS EVENING IS TH I S : T H E FUNCTION CA LLED SEXUA LITY IS DEFI N E D IN AS MUCH MATHEMATICS BUT US TO CONCE I V E SUCH. B E FORE S H E BROUGHT OUT TH I S BOOK CALLED THE SECOND SEX. BY TH E NON-METRIC OBSTACLE I N CONCEI VING TH I NGS LIKE TH IS. . . WE KNOW FOR EXAMPLE THAT T H E ANGLE. THAT IS IN AS TH E FU N D A M E N TAL WHICH I SC H E M E TRY OF WHAT A THIS IS A BOUT WILL TO PUSH LITTLE S I G N I FYI NG COMBI NATION. A S I POINTED PA R E N T H E S I S . IT IS THIS WHICH FI RSTLY DIVERSE G R A M MATI C A L F U NCTIONS. N OT H I N G HOLDS N EVERTHELESS. FOR MY PART WHAT YOU I AM IN TH E COU R S E WHICH OF IS PRESENCE OF T H E T H I RD. SOMEONE THAT I H A V E QUOTED. BECAUSE F R O M TH I S E X A M P LE. SPEA K I N G BEING SPEAKING SOM E­ TH ING WHICH HAPPENS TO SEXUA LITY OR DOES THE SOMETH I N G HA PPEN TO SEXUA LITY BECAUSE H E IS A SPEA K I N G B E I NG. THIS IS WHAT WAY MODELED ON FUNCTIONS THAT A R E S U PPOSED T O BE PHYSICAL REA LITY. I S A R ELATION. SOMETH I NG WHICH WOU L D P E R M I T US TO CONCEIVE OF LA NGUAGE AS. N A M ELY SOM E O N E N A M E D RENE THOM. FROM WHICH WO U L D R E S U LT 209 . OF ITS MATHEMATICAL I N S E RTION. S E X E S A R E TWO. I TH I N K I A M ABLE TO TAKE ACCOUNT OF THIS TOPOLOGICAL OR I G I N BY TH E R E IS A N OTH E R OF WAY TO A PP ROACH THE THIS IS THE FACT THAT WHICH IT IS E S S E NTI A LLY TI E D TO LA N G U A G E -A N D P R E S E NT. I N T H A T WHICH I S P U R E L Y A N D S I M P LY COM U N ICATION (OF) P H E NOMENA OF OF SOM E U N KNOWN (TO M E ) ORIENTATION (BECAUSE TO TELL THE TRUTH I H A D NOT YET STARTED TO TEACH A N YT H I NG) H A D BELIEVED SHE R E F E R R E D T O ME B E F O R E S H E P U T O U T THE SECOND SEX. WHAT IS A TOPOLOGY? HOW N I C E T H I S PERSON lSI A TOPOLOGY I S A THING THAT HAS A MATHE­ MATICAL D E F I N I TI O N . A N D THIS TRIES AND C E R TA I N LY OR N OT WITHOUT F A C I L I TA T E D SOM EO N E HAVING ALREADY FRAYED CERTA I N PATHS. AND THE HOMO­ SAME SECO N D A R I LY SO AS TO BE CLARIFY WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE PSYCHO­ ANALYTIC T R I B UTA RY TO HER WOR K. A CASE O F THOSE K I N DS OF SUPPLE BE CO N C E I V E D OF IN TH E I R ORIGIN UNDER DIFFERENT E M ERGING MODES? CI RCLES WHICH CONSTITUTED M Y "I D E M A N D YOU TO D E N Y ME THAT WHICH I OFFER YOU. BECA USE OF SOM EONE. A N D W H I C H O N LY HOLDS TO BE CHA I N E D TO OTH E R S . THAT THIS I S WHAT IS MEANT BY T H E BOR RO M E A N KNOT. E V E N I F TH I S REA LITY I S ONLY (ATTA I N ­ A B L E ) THROUGH THE BI A S OF A MATH E MATICAL SERVED TO D E M ON STRATE M Y LAST S E M I N A R-IS T IED TO THE R E LATIONS OF PURE S I G N I FYI NG. LErS SAY. IT SEE M S TO ME THAT THERE IS ALREADY AN COMES ON TO ITSELF. AS IT T U R N S O U T I H A D KNOWN FROM BEFORE • ." EACH ONE IS A CLOSED TH I N G. LET US SAY. THAT I S THAT ONE I S OBLIGED TO PUT U N D E R THE SAME TERM V E R BS AND VERY DIFFERENT TY P E S OF -WHAT DOES THIS M E A N ? ACTIONS.

W H A T WE A R E R E F E R R I N G TO AND D O N 'T BELIEVE THAT TH I S GOES W I THOUT 20 6 YEARS AND TH I S IS NOT S A Y I NG. (RALLIES THE) DE UTEROS. H ETEROS E X U A L ITY. BUT TH E F U N D A M ENTAL MODE OF BEING OF WHAT ONE HOLDS TO B E TH E WORLD. I AM NOT GOING TO EMBELLISH T H I S B ECA USE A FT E R ALL THAT WOULD DELAY U S FROM S E V E R A L ETYMOLOGICAL R E FER­ ENCES. W H I C H BESIDES H A V I NG A L R E A DY B E E N IN P R E P A R ATION. IF I SAY FOR SOME T I M E IT I S THAT I DO NOT KNOW WHETHER THERE WAS A N I N DICATION OF A T I M E I N W H I C H IT W A S A FOR M U LA ) . I DO NOT N E E D TO RECALL WHAT "TO K N OW" M EA N S IN TH E I NTERVI EWS WITH ME. THI NGS CONCERNING WHAT CALLED H ETEROSEX U A L I TY. WE H A V E FOR TH E R E LATION BETWEEN THE SEXES THE A N I M A L OF COPULATION T H A T S E E M S T O U S TO ACC I D E NTA L . W H ICH I S THE TERM WHICH M E A N S OTH ER. AND EXACTLY MARKS THAT THIS DE UTEROS I S . M UST IT. H ETEROS WHICH IS SAID IN CERTA I N THE C H I N ES E FOR A LONG TI M E A PP E A L E D TO TWO F U N D A M E NTAL T I V E LY-I PUT ESSENCES A BO V E THE WHICH ARE R E S PEC­ ESSENCE. LET US R E M E M B E R ON WHAT R ESTS WHAT WE CAN HAVE OF TH E C O N C E PT I O N . FOLLOWI N G TH I S . IN TH I S C A S E . I N T H E R E LATION THAT IS CALLED SEXUAL I N TH E SPEA K I NG B E I NG. T H E MODE OF R E LATION WHICH I S E N G E N D E R E D FROM S P I R I T A N D THAT H A S B E E N CON S I D E R E D A S MODELING NOT AT A L L S I M PLY THE A N I MA L R E LATION S H I P. THE THAT TH E R E MOMENT IN IS NO B I B L I C A L S E N S E OF THE WORD. H A S A LWAYS B E E N C A L L E D T H E MODE. IS PRECI S E LY. I N E V E RTHELESS C LA I M AND I UNDE RLI N E THAT WHAT YO U S E E I N THE DI AGRAM I S (EVE RY­ TH ING) THAT THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC EXPE R I ENCE E V I D E N T FROM TH E IDEA SUGGESTED BY THE POINT W H E R E W E ARE. A N D TH I S IS THE Q U E STION. THAT TH E STATEMENT I S P ROM U L­ GATED ACCOR D I N G TO THE SEMANTIC FORM NAMED. SUCH A FO R M U L A IS P R E C I S ELY WHAT IS NOT I F THERE WAS A N A R TI C U LATABLE R E LATION ON THE S E X U A L LEV E L. SI NCE YOU SEE. WHICH IS E X PE R I E NC E S P A S S I VE WHAT SECOND WHICH TO PUT IS C A L L E D V A R IOUSLY B U T A S S U R E D LY WHOSE MOST COMMON G R E E K DENOM I N ATION IS THAT OF H Y L E . A P P E A L T O SOM ETH I N G W H I C H I S W R I TT E N AS FOLLOWS. I S I F I M IGHT SAY. R E PLAC I NG I N WHAT I S A I D EACH O N E BY A N Y O N E AT ALL. FOR TH IS. W H A T W E A R E REFERRING TO. O F E A C H F R O M O N E S I D E T O COUNT BRINGS US. OR. I DEC L I N E D THE HONOR. THE A PTITUDE I F I C A N PUT I T TH I S W A Y . THAT THE WO R D HETEROS. D I STI N G U I S H ITSELF FROM ALL THOSE O F T H E SAME SEX. T H E S U PPOS E D ANIMAL MODEL. AND EXPRESS ITSELF TO ALL THOSE OF TH E OTH E R ? THIS IS KNOW N . IT I S OBVIOUS T H A T F O R S O M E TI M E. B E L I E V E M E . AT T H E POINT WH E R E WE ARE I N O U R STATE M E N T CONC E R N I NG TH I S SEXUA LITY. TH E BASIS OF WHAT I H A V E FOR SOME TIME BEEN BRINGING OUT FOR YOU I S P R ECISELY TH I S THAT TH E R E IS NO SEX SECON D F ROM SEX. THEN. -NOT O F THIS IS VERY WELL FOR A LL T H E OTH E R S FROM THE OTH E R SIDE. S U C H THAT T H E Y S E E M E D T O H A V E D E N I E D H E R T H E POSS I B I L I TY OF HAVING MORE THAN 3 OR 4 I T I S NOT TH E R E . IT I S CLEAR THAT T H I S C A N SEEM SU R P R I S I NG. FEM I N I N E (WH AT) I S C A L L E D Y I N I N O R D E R T O O P POSE IT TO YANG. HOW. S U C H A N D S U C H A FO R M U LA (AND IN TRUTH. G R E E K D I A LECTS WHOSE N A M E S I W I L L SPA R E YOU. I N T H I S C A S E I F I MAY SAY SO.OUT TO H E R THAT IT WOULD H A V E TO BE AT LEAST­ AT BOTTOM TH I S IS A M I N I M U M S I NCE I HAVE B E E N SPEA K I NG FOR W H A T DO W E H A V E . IT I S PRECISELY FROM TH I S E M PTINESS THAT IT OFFERS TO THE S POKEN WORD WHAT I CALL THE LOC U S OF THE OTH E R . THE C H I N ES E . PASSED OVER. I F Y O U FOLLOW WHAT I JUST A DVA NCED­ BUT (OF) B I S E X U A LITY. N A M E LY T H A T I N W H I C H I S I N SC R I BED TH E EFFECTS OF THIS SPOKEN WORD. BY T H E REFERENCE TO WHAT I'VE CALLED T H E A N I M A L M O D E L. IF TH E R E WAS AN A RTICU LAT­ A B L E R E LATION IN THE S P E A K I N G BEI NG. LANGUAGE OTH E R W I S E ENTERS TH E I NTO FU NCTION . THE LAWS OF LITE RARY PRODUCTION A R E IMAGE F U R N I S H A S U F F IC I E N T MODEL OF WHAT T H E R E I S T O T H I S R E LATIO N SH I P A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E O F W H A T TH E R E I S ( O F TH E ) S E X U A L CON S I D E R E D AS N E ED. SI NCE A LWAYS THE R E LI' T l O N OF THE ITS NOUS TO SO M ET H I NG I M PRI NT. I N THIS POSITION. SHE TH I S MADE THE OBSE RVATION TO M E THAT IT WOULD NOT B E NORMAL THAT A BOOK. SHOULD TAKE SO LONG. WHAT HAS A LWAYS BEEN T H E WAY IT WAS. I N G R E E K . FAR FROM IT. OR BY NO MATTER 210 . IT I S PRECISELY THIS. TO E M PTY ITSELF I N AS MUCH A S IT I S B E I NG. S I GN I FYI NG T H E U N I VE R S A L.!5 O R STRA IGHTEN OUT MONTHS BEFORE I COULD Q U E STION FOR H E R.

LETS C A L L TH I S THE SOUL TO SOU L. E NCOU N T E R . THE ONE I JUST P I N N E D-DOW N WITH T H I S BANAL N A M E . OR SIM PLY: THE NORMAL WAS LOCATED SOM EWHERE. T O M A K E U N DERSTOOD T H A T I F I M A I NTAIN (I CALL T H I S CRUDELY. BUT ON P R E C I S E LY WHAT S UGGESTS ANIMALIC THE CONTRARY. I T S E E M S T O ME.WHICH ONE. WHAT WOULD THIS BE CALLED. I T I S N O T C R UDE. NO MATTER WHICH ONE OF ONE OF EVERYTH I N G WHICH MATE R I A LZES THE U N IVERSAL I N THE B E HAVIOR WHICH I S E FFECTIVELY HERD. TH E Y LOVE T O DOUBLE THEMSE LVES. 2 1 ( m A N D W ELLI I N R EPLACING THI S EACH ONE B Y A NYON E AT ALL. NAM ELY THE STAT E M E N T BY WH I C H R E LATION S H I P SPEAKING BEI NG. A N D AS FOR G I RLS. WE HAVE A N EXPERIENCE OF T H E I MAGINA RY. I A M CERTA I N LY NOT HERE TO A M U S E YOU IN THIS STRA I N . I WANT TO STAY CLOSE-CUT TO THE GROUND. TO TH E ANA LYTICAL EXPERI E NCE. IT I S THE VERY IT IS CERTA I N THAT I N A DVANC I NG THI S TE RM. BUT WHICH SOLVES NOTH I N G BECAUSE I T S UFFICES T O R E FLECT ON TH I S TO S E E I N THI S A N A M B IGUOUS I LLUSION W H I C H CAN NOT T H E E A C H ONE T H A T I HAVE U S E D FI RST HAS TH E EFFECT OF RECA LLING TO US THAT TH E EFFECTIVE R ELATION S H I P IS NOT W I TH O U T EVO K I N G T H E UPHOLD ITSELF FOR LONG. I T I S SOME VAGU E OUTLI NE OF ANOTH ER P RESENCE FOR WH ICH. AND THIS B I U N I VOCAL CORRESPO NDENCE. N E C E S S I T Y O F W H A T I N T H E S PE A K I N G B E I NG PRODUCES ITSELF OF THE U N IQUE. AND WELLI MY GOD. ) THAT IS IN EVERY SEXUAL E N CO U N T E R U N IQ U E . TO SAY THINGS CRUDELY. IT W I L L NOT SEEM DIFFICULT. THE NB: W E CANNOT F ROM T H E START E LI M I NATE THE EXISTENCE OF THESE TWO D I M ENSIONS. S U GG ESTS ( R E C OG N I Z E IN C O N D I T I ON A L SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M Y D I SCOU R S E ECHOES WHICH WOU L D NOT BE A S E M B LA NC E ) [T H I S IS T H E TITLE O F M Y S E M I N A R NO. (BUT) IT I S OBVIOUSLY NOT THESE WHO I NTEREST U S I N TH E ANALYTICAL FI ELD. I CERTA I N LY D I D NOT S E E K TO VI BRATE IN YOU TH E EROTIC LYRE. A N EXPERI ENCE WHICH IS NOT E A S Y (BUT W H I C H ) T H E PSYCHOA N A LYST I S ABLE TO PHA NTASM. ENCOUNTER OF PSYCHOANALYSIS ALLOWS M E TO ADVANCE. THE R E A R E ROYAL BASTA RDS. AS I F NORMAL. BUT S I M PLY O F THE P U R E DIMENSION OF TH E REA L. A N D FROM TH I S ALONE THAT TH E A N I M A L MODE L IS AROUSED. I F TH E R E S O M ETH I N G THAT ACC IDENT I F I S A Y THAT IT I S EXACTLY FROM THIS. W E WOULD B E IN TH I S I NDETE R M I N ACY OF WHAT I S CHOSEN IN EACH EVERY TO RESPOND TO EVERY OTH E R . AND ONE CAN EVEN SAY THAT THE ANIMAL TH E MODEL IS RECONSTITUTE I T ACCORDING TO OUR OWN IDEA. WE WOU LD NOT HAVE TH I S ESSENTI A L D I M ENSION WHICH CONSI STS VERY THAT TH E P R E C I S E LY IS IN TH E FACT IT IS NO INCREASE FOR US. OF COURSE: B ECAU S E IT IS CLEAR THAT WE CAN ONLY RECONSTRUCT THROUGH OBSE RVATION. IN AS M UC H A S T H I S ADVANCES THESE S I DES. THERE I S NO N E E D H E R E T O B R I NG B A C K I NTO PLAY A N Y D I M E N S I ON OF THE V I RTUOUS. AND TH E R E ARE SOME FOR WHOM LANGUAGE DO E SN'T EXI ST. WE PRESENTATION OF N U M B ERS. I F W E WOU LD NOT H A V E T H I S A N I M A L MODEL. MY GOD. NOT THAT FROM WH ICH COM ES AN ECHO OF EROS. I T I S P R E C I S E LY IN THIS SENSE THAT IT I S O N L Y TH E A N I M A L M O D E L T H A T S U STA I N S ITSELF AND A RO U S E S TH E PHANTASM THAT WE H A V E C A L L E D A N I M A LIC. TH E V U LGAR TERM OF FREE-FOR­ ALL (ORGY) IS NOT A BSOLUTELY EXCLUDED. WE WOU LD BE COM P LETELY IN THE ORDER OF W H AT. B U T LET US T R Y NOW T O C U T A W A Y A T WHAT THE K I N S H I P OF THE U N I V E R SA LITY HAS TO DO WITH OUR WHAT GIVES THE IN I LL U S I O N TH E OF THE SEXUAL IS AFFAI R. OBJ ECTS SHOULD BE D I STRI BUTED I N TWO WHOLES 21 1 . ECHOES TO WHAT WE KNOW TO BE E S S E N TI A L TO TH E EXPERI E NCE. OF COU RSE. OR E V E N I F THE CHOICE W E R E B A S E D ON A H A PHAZA R D ENCOUNTER. O F COU RSE. I F TH I S G I VES YOU AT LEAST THIS DIM ENSION. I S NOT TO B E ASTO N I S H E D I N A N Y C A S E T H A T THE ENCOUNTER ON T H I S B A S I S SERVES P R EC I S E LY TO BE REPEATED A S U N IQUE. N A M E LY TH E R E A R E O N L Y T W O A N I MA LS W H I C H COUPLE TOGETHER. IF S I M PLY THIS HAS A SMALL VALUE OF AWA K E N I NG. I W I L L R E M I N D Y O U T H A T TH E R ECON S T I T U T E IN IMAGINARY I S WHAT WE ANIMAL M O D E L. TO BE MORE I NS I STENT H E R E AND TO HOLD MYSELF AT THE L E V E L OF T H E MOST FUNDAM ENTAL HORIZON O F O N E T O ON E T O EACH H I S OWN EACH. SPEAKING B E I NG. THI S REFERENCE IN ITS E LF CONTA I N S NOTH I N G WHOEVER K N OWS THE CONDITIONS OF THE DECISIVE S I NC E AFTER A L L ON E COULD ASSU M E A SERIOUS A I R A N D SAY THAT IT IS PRECISELY THE STIGMA O F A NOMALY. THEM. TO REPEAT ITSELF. IT I S A N ETHOLOGICAL REMARK THAT I MAKE HERE. THE B I U N I VOCA L COUP­ LING IS WHAT A PPEARS TO US OF IT. RATH ER IT I S C R U EL. I H A V E ALREADY STRESSED T H A T I N SO-CALLED SEX U A L H U NTING OR C R U I S I N G .L I K E I N T H E R E LATIONS H I P B ETWEEN TH E SEXES. B O Y S STI M U LATE TH E M ­ SELVES.

YESI TH I S R E LATION C A N P R E C I SELY RE-ENTER T H E OT H E R W H I C H I S ABSOLUTELY FOREIGN T O W H A T COULD H A V E B E E N H E R E P U R E LY AND S I M PLY AS ACC E S S O R Y .OF O P POSED EQUIVALENCES. IT IS B E C A U S E TH E EXPERI ENCE. RELATIONSH I P OF ONE TO A NOTHER. O N E HAS A WHOLE LOT OF R E L A T I O N S H I PS ABOUT T H E S E TO TH E S E R E LATION S H I P S A N D ONE A LSO HAS R E LA T I O N S H I P S . FORCE WHICH WHAT PERHAPS TO N I G H T WOULD MALE. THIS IS GETTING ACROSS THE D I M E N S I O N OF HATE W H I C H CAN H E R E ENTER I NTO P L A Y . IT I S PRECISELY FOR HAVI NG BROUGHT THE PURE S U B J E CT TO THE PLACE OF THE LONG E R A WAY. N A M E LY T H I S H A T R E D OF H I S W I FE. OF THE OTH E R TO ONE. THE WHICH A B A D W A Y OF T U R N I N G E V E R YTH I NG THAT I S S A I D B Y T H E S E X U A L R ELATION. ITS PO L I T I C A L D I M E N SION SIGNIFICANCE. THAT I REMAIN HERE AND HAVE BEEN ABLE TO I N D ICATION CONC E R N I NG EXACTLY W H E R E THE Q U E STION L I E S THAT WE A R E R A I S I NG. POLITELY B E G H E R I F I R E J ECT TH I S A N C I E N T W R I T I N G U N TH E N A M E' O F 212 . FOR TH E TH I S IS S I M PLY A D E M A N D THE EQUAL D I STRI BUTION OF I N DI V I DUA LS. REDUCIBLE E I TH E R TO TH I S SOM ETH I N G THAT I S CALLED LONG E R B E A N Y QUESTION EITHER. I N SERTION OF LANGUAGE OVER THE MATHE MATI­ CAL R E A L. WHAT DOES TH I S MEAN WHEN A FTER A LL. AND WHICH COM E S OUT OF TH I S D I SCOURSE I S THE H E R E T O FO R E U NEVOKED D I M E N SION OF THE NOTH I N G TO DO WITH WHAT I S O R D I N A R I LY CALLED SEXUAL R E LATON SHI PS. IT I S A L R E A D Y W R I TT E N ? SEM BLA NCE. HOW N E V E RTHELESS I T I S DON E . O R I N C H I N ESE TE R M I NOLOGY THE YANG ESSENCE. AT T H E POI NT OF H I S D E A T H . EVE RYT H I NG WE H A V E OF DOES N OT . B U T AT T H E LEVEL WH E R E I P H A L L I C FUNCTION. I FOR YOU THAT HERE THERE HAVE J U ST NOTED IS NO PLACE TO TO R ETI R E I N ORDER TO A LLOW T H I S DEATH. . TO A FTER A L L M E RITS TO BE THE M E A N I NG. A TOOL IT I S A RO U N D T H E TOOL THAT THE A N A LYTI C A L EXPERIENCE I NC I T E S US TO SEE OTH E R E M PTY. WHO W A S ' H I S W I F E . MORE TH I S TH I S I S T H E Q U E STION W H I C H I M POSES ITSELF O N US B Y T H E FACT THAT LANGUAGE D E M A N DS VERY PREC I S E LY THAT IT B E THERE WERE NO FOU N D E D FROM H E R E : IF THERE WOULD NO P R EC I S E LY T H E TERM ATTACH E D T O T H E WORD: THE O N E . S U P P L E M E N TA R I TY. TH E A C E N TU A TE H I D D E N M E A N I N G BECA U S E IT COMES TO US FROM A F A R . THAT I T C A N NO LONG E R WRITE ITSELF IN TERMS OF M A L E AND FEMALE ESSENCES. . B U T I N A D I M ENSION W H I C H APPEARS T O US TO BE AN I LLUSION. BY E V ERYTH I N G W H I C H A N S W E R S TO T H E E M ERGENCE OF A DI SCOURSE WHICH A S S U R E DLY H A S NEVER YET COME TO LIGHT AND W H I C H C A N NOT CONC E I V E OF ITSELF BY PRIOR E M E RG E N C E IN SO FAR FROM TH E P H I LOS O P H I C A L CHANCE. TH I S R E LA T I O N S H I P H A S A B SOLUTE LY N A M E LY A MODE O F D I SCOURSE W H I C H I S S U R E LY N E V E R THAT OF THE HYSTERIC W H I C H IS BUT THE ONE W H I C H I H A V E I N SC R I B E UNDER A Q U A D R U P A L D I V I S I O N ' A S BEING T H E A N A LYTI C A L D I SCOURSE. SEVE R A L S M A L L RELATION S H I PS: T H I S TA KES U P OUR WORDLY L I F E . IT I S EXACTLY T H I S M E T O ACCENTUATE I DESIG NATE OF THE THE CAPITAL AS O. S U P PORT MY D I SCOU RSE ON THE B I U N I VOCITY OF THE COUPLI N G . T O ACCENTUATE THI NGS. WOU LD NOT BE H. CO M E CONCOCTI O N FROM ONE CALLED I SOC R AT E S TO SAY. I F H E COULD HOLD A D I SCOU R S E WHICH I S NOT FOR NOTH I N G AT THE ORIGIN OF THE DISCOU RSE OF I H A V E S A I D THAT WHAT IN THE R E LATIONSH I P O F B E I NG I S STIGMATIZED I N THE D E E PLY S U BVERTED LANGUAGE IS P R EC I S E LY THAT TH E R E IS NO SC I ENCE. OF THE TERM ORGAN. BY AS W H I C H I S ONLY A N O RG A N . AN SOMETH I N G HOTH ER. -HOW LONG I S I T GOING TO LAST1-IT I S NOT FROM ITS POSITION (OF ONE' WHICH WOULD BE LA NGUAGE. M A N I FE STLY H YSTE R I C A L . . O R FOR US T O NOTICE (WH E N ' FOR E X A M PLE. H I S W I FE T O THE DEG R E E THAT S H E STA R V E D FOR H I M . THAT H E H A D TO. IT IS A QU ESTION OF BASING THESE RELATIONSH I PS WITH I N U N I V E R SALS. T H I S PERSON ( . AND TH I S IS A N O V E LTY. A N D THIS H E COULD DO PRECI S E LY ON ACC O U N T OF THIS D I M ENSION WHICH FOR ME PRESENTED TH E HOTH E R A S SUCH. . WE MEAN D I SC O U R S E OF SC I E N C E AS IT IS THE C L I N I C A L LY H YSTE R I C A L: RELATIONSH I P OF WOULD H A V E TH E ( . IT HOW DOES U N I V E RSAL U N I V E RSA L WOMAN. TH I S I S ASSUREDLY NOT IN ALL I N N OC E N C E . PLACE MYSELF. AND WE WOU L D NOT H A V E T O B R I NG I NTO PLAY TH E U N I VERSAL. T O C A L L IT B Y H E R N A M E . THESE C A TA L E P T I C MANI FESTATI ONS OF THE ONE CALLED SOCRATES. AGA I N . MAN IS R E LATE H I M SELF TO THE QUESTION AND IS N A M ELY THIS SOM ETH I N G BY WHICH THIS S E X U A L R E LATION S H I P DOES NOT C H A R ACTE R I ZE AT L E A ST ONE OF THESE TWO T E R M S. IT I S P R EC I SELY ON THE CONTRARY OWING TO T H I S W H I C H RECALLED. . TH E R E ARE OR RATH E R TH E R E MIGHT B E TWO U N I V E RSALS D E F I N E D J U ST B Y T H E ESTA B L I S H M E N T OF THE POS S I B I L I T Y OF A I HAVE SAID THAT I F W E C A N SAY THAT THERE I S NO S E X U A L R E LATION.

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ITSELF ENGENDE RS,

I M A I NTA I N THAT THE WAY I N W H I C H O U R POSITIONS OF ARGUMENT A N D FU NCTION ARE WRITTEN ARE

THE oj> O F X A F F I R M S THAT I T I S T R U E -IT I S THE SENSE GIVEN TO TH E T E R M F U NCTION-THAT WHAT RE LATES TO T H E E X E RCISE, IN TH E REGISTER OF THE SEXUAL ACT, COMES FROM TH E PHALLIC

SUCH THAT WHAT I S POSED A S TR UTH CAN ONLY N EGATE BY PASS I N G I N TO T H E REALM OF THE

FALSE PRECISELY WHAT I S UNTENABLE HERE, THIS I S THE SO-CALLED N EGATI VE RELATION, BECA USE AT N O MATTER WHAT LEVEL, LOWER O R H IG H E R , THE STATE M E N T POS E D OF TH E AS F U NCTION TRUTH, OR AS PHALLIC IS AS

FU NCTION AGA I N , I T I S PRECISELY I N AS M U C H AS I T IS A M ATTER OF T H E PHALLIC FU NCTION FROM

WHATEVER S I D E WE SIDE OR FROM

LOOK AT, I M E A N FROM O N E OTHE R , THAT S O M ETH I N G TWO TWO

EITHER

P R E C I S E L Y,

THE

DEVIATION; BECAUSE AFTE R A LL, THE T R U E TRUTH WOU LD B E EXACTLY THAT WHICH DOESN'T WRITE

SOLICITES DI FFER,

U S T O A K S THEN. IS

HOW D O THE

AND T H I S

PREC I SE LY W H A T THE

ITSELF, THAT W H I C H H E R E C A NNOT WRITE ITSELF EXCEPT IN A FORM WHICH CONTESTS T H E PHALLIC FU NCTIO N , IT IS IS THE NOT TRUE THAT OF THE THE PHA LLIC SEXUAL

FOR M U LA S IN TH E D I A G R A M SAY,

I F I T I S PROVED FROM THE FACT THAT TO DOM I N ATE

FUNCTION

FOU N DATION

213

R E LATION:

IN

THESE

TWO

L E V E LS

WH I C H

STA Y

F U NCTI ON. A N D SITUATES H E RSELF T H E R E ONLY A S TH E NOT- A L L TO B E S U B J UGATED.

I N D E P E N D E NT A S SUCH. IT IS NOT A MATTER AT A L L OF M A K I N G O N E THE N EGATION OF THE OTH E R B U T ON TH E CONTRARY OF M A K I N G ONE THE OBSTAC L E OF THE OTH E R . AGA I N ST THAT WHICH YOU SEE

WHAT

IS

STRANGE

I S T H E THE

D I S J U NCTION

NO

LONG E R H O L D S : I F YOU R E M E M BER. THE D I S J U NC­ TION ONLY TAKES ON VALUE BY VI RTU E OF THE

R E D I STRI BUTED: IT I S PRECISELY AN I T T H A T EXI STS A N D A N I T THAT DOES NOT EXI ST: IT IS A WHOLE ON TH E ONE S I DE. AND ALL X. THE DO M A I N OF WHAT IS M A L E D E F I N I N G lTSELF BY THE PHALLIC FU NCTION: THE DI FFERENCE IN TH E PO S I T I O N OF THE

FACT THAT TWO PROPOSITIONS CAN NOT B E FALSE AT TH E S A M E T I M E: LET U S SAY. OF THE STRONGEST OR THE W E A K E ST. I T I S A S S U R E D LY THE STRONGEST R E LA T I O N D I F FI C U LT IN TO THAT STI R IT IS WHAT IS THE MOST TH E R E

A R G U M E NT I N T H E PHA LLIC POSITION O R F U N CTION I S P R E C I S E L Y THAT IT I S NOT EVERY WOMAN W H I C H WRITES ITSELF. FAR FROM TH E ONE ITSELF

TOGETH ER.

BECA USE

M U ST B E A M I N I M U M F O R THERE TO B E D I S J U NCTION. THAT D I S J U NCTION R E N D E R S VALID ONE PROPOSI­ TION TO B E TRUE. TH E OTH E R FALSE. AND THAT OF COURSE BOTH O F THEM ARE TRUE. I HAVE CALLED T H E O N E TRUE. T H E OTH E R FALSE: I T I S P E RHAPS THAT THE ONE THERE IS IS FALSE. AT AND THE OTH E R TRUE: THREE CASES OF

O P POS E D T O T H E OTH E R A S ITS NEGATION. I T I S ON TH E CONT R A R Y FROM T H E I R SUBSISTA NCE ( H E R E VERY POS I T I V E LY D E N I EDI T H A T TH E R E IS AN X

W H I C H C A N U PHOLD ITSELF IN THIS R E A L M BEYOND TH E PHA LLIC FU NCTION. AND ON TH E OTH E R H A N D . THAT T H E R E I S N O T ONLY O N E . F O R THE S I M PLE R E A SON THAT WOM E N C A N NOT BE CASTRATED FOR TH E BEST OF R E A SONS. THIS I S THE LEVEL OF WHAT IS B LOC K E D P R E C I S E LY FOR US IN THE SEXUAL

THEN

L E A ST

COMBI NATIONS W H ICH TH E DISJU NCTION U PHOLDS.

NOW H E R E W E

HAVE TWO FUNCTIONS WHICH A R E

POSITED A S N O T B E I NG-AS I S A I D A MOMENT AGO­ THE T R U E TRUTH. SEEM HOPE. TO HOLD THOSE WHICH ARE ABOVE: WE GIVES

R E LATION. WHILE ON THE LEVEL OF THE PHA LLIC FUNCTION. I T I S PRECISELY THE NOT-ALL' OPPOSED TO TH E A LL: T H E R E I N LIES THE POSSIBI LITY OF A R E D I ST R I BUTION ITSELFI F E M A LE. W I LL BE FROM L E FT TO AS R IG H T. M A LE (WHICH AND AS

HERE

S O M E TH I N G

WHICH

N A M E L Y T H A T W E H A V E A R T I C U LATED A

TRUE D I S J U NCTION. HOWEVER. LET US NOTE WHAT TH E R E IS OF THE TO WRITTEN. WHICH IN I A HAVE THE

FOU N D E D

O P P O RT U N I T Y

A R T I C U LA T E

MANNER

B R I N G I N G I T A L I V E FOR YOU: O N ON E S I DE O F THIS 4> T H E N EGATIVE R ELATION DOESN'T AT ALL FORCE U S TO CHOOSE: ON THE CONTRA RY. I A S M U C H A S W E A R E F A R F R O M H A V I NG T O CHOOSE. A N D THAT WE M U ST R E D I ST R I B U T E . T H E TWO SIDES ARE OF X N EG A T E D W H E R E TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION

DOES NOT FUNCTION. TH E R E I S A POS S I B I LITY OF SEXUAL RELATI O N SH I P. WE H A V fi POSITED THAT

TH E R E E X I STS AN X I . . . 1. NOW W H A T DO W E H A V E O N TH E OTH E R S I D E -W H E R E T H E R E DOES N O T E X I ST AN X?

LEGITI M ATELY OPPOS ED TO EACH OTH ER.

A FT E R

N EGATION.

I

M E NTION E D

CONJU NCTION. IN THE WAY THAT THE MODE IN WHICH TH E

WOULD NOT NEED TO ACCOU NT FOR CONJUCTION I N TH I S C A S E . EXC E PT TO M A K E T H E OBSERVATION. ( I H O P E T H E R E A R E ENOUGH PEOPLE H E R E WHO H A V E VAG U ELLY BROWSE D A BOOK ON L OG I C SO T H A T I NEED NOT I N S I STI THAT THE CONJ U N C T I O N IS

D I F F E R E NT I A T I O N

B E TW E E N

MALE A N D FEMALE.

BETW E E N M A N A N D WOM A N I N TH E S P E A K I NG B E I N G W O U L D B E S U PPORTED. T H E R E IS A D I SCORD. W E W I L L S E E LATE R W H A T TH I S M EA N S . AT T H E LEVEL OF U N I V E RSALS W H I C H ARE NOT S U PPORTED. FROM TH E FACT OF T H E INCONSISTENCY OF O N E A MONG TH E M . WHEN WE DEVIATE FROM THE FUNCTION

B A S E D PR E C I S E L Y O N TH I S : VALUE D E R I V E S ONLY BY V I RTU E OF T H E FACT THAT BOTH PROPOSITIONS CAN B E T R U E .

ITSELF. T H E R E E X I STS O N ONE S I D E A N X WHICH NOWI T H I S I S EXACTLY WHAT I N N O WAY A LLOWS U S TO M A I NTA I N WHAT I S I N THE D I AGRAM. S I N C E YOU C A N S E E THAT FROM RIGHT TO LEFT. TH E R E I S NO I D E NTITY AND P R E C I S E LY THERE WHERE A SATI S F I E S 4> X N EGATED. ON T H E OTH E R S I D E W E HAVE THE I D E F I N I TE FO R M U LATION BY THAT NO X

( WH I C H

HAVE

I L L U ST R A T E D

SAYING

THAT

WOM A N F O R T H E B EST O F R EASONS. CAN NOT B E CASTRATEDI W H I C H I S TO SAY AT T H E LEVEL W H E R E TH E D I S J U NCTION WOU L D HAVE T H E OPPORT U N I TY TO PRODUCE ITSE LF. WE F I N D ONLY O N T H E O N E S I DE. F R O M T H E ONE/ON E AT LEAST W H A T I H A V E P U T FORTH O F T H E OTH E R WE FI N D AT-LEAST-QNE. A N D ON T H E P R EC I S E LY THE NON-

QU ESTION OF WHAT IS PROPOSE D AS TURE E X I STS. B E A R I NG IN MIND

4> TO

X.

U N I V E RS A L S

CAN

CONJOI N . T H E U N IVERSAL O F THE L E FT S I D E DOES NOT OPPOSE ITSELF TO TH E R IGHT SIDE. TO THE

EXTENT THAT I T HAS NO A RTIC U LABLE U N I VERSAL: THAT I S IT I S TH E WOM A N WHO SEES TH E P H A LLIC

VERY

214

EXI STENCE. THAT IS T H E R E LATION OF ONE TO ZERO.

C ERTA I N D I G N ITY. SO THAT I WI LL P U B L I S H IT O N E OF THESE DAYS. I F I PUBLISH AGA I N . W H I C H DOESN'T

W H E R E THE S E X U A L R E LATIONS H I P WOULD HAVE NO O P PORTU N I TY TO BE TO ACCOM P L I S H BEYOND ITSELF. BUT

DEPEND ON M E . OTH ERS WOULD H A V E TO P U B L I S H W I T H ME. A S T H I S WOULD ENCO U R A G E M E A LITTLE. A N D IF I PUBLISH. YOU WILL SEE W I T H WHAT C A R E I HAVE LOCATED THE THI NGS WHICH I HAVE A LREADY SAID FOR 3 YEARS. ON A CERTA I N N U M B E R OF

SIMPL Y

HOPED

THE

A BOLITION

THROUGH DIVERSION FROM T H E PHALLIC FUNCTION. WE FIND ONLY ONE OF THE TWO SEXES AS A

PRESENCE.

REGISTE R S A BOUT THE PATE R N A L M ETAPHOR. AND TH E PROPER NAME. F I N A LLY TH E R E WAS EVERY­

T H I S I S PREC I SELY WHAT I T BRI NGS C LOSER TO US OF THE EXPE R I E N C E W H E R E WOMA N (THE U N IVER­ SAL FOR WOM A N DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO ARISE

THI NG N E C ESSARY SO THAT. WITH TH E BIBLE. I GAVE M EA N I N G TO TH I S MYTH I C ELUC U BRATION. BUT I

WON'T 00 T H I S EVER AGAIN.

FROM TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION.) ONLY PARTICI PATES EITHER TO WANT TO E N R A PT U R E M A N . OR M Y GODI SHE I M POSES ON H I M THE S E R V I C E OF THE PHALLIC FU NCTION. OR WORST O F A LL AND T H I S I S PERHAPS THE CASE IN W H I C H IT S H O U L D BE S A I D. SHE GIVES THE PHALLIC FU NCTION BACK TO H I M . BUT THIS THEREI T H I S E OF X SLASHED. (IT DOE S N 'T EXI ST. N OTH I NG THERE E X I STS WOULD AT A BE A C E R TA I N CHANCE LEVEL. FO R WHERE I WON'T 00 TH I S EVER AGA I N BECA U S E A FTER ALL I CAN SATI S F Y M YSELF BY FORM U LATI NG T H I NGS AT THE LEVEL OF LOG I C A L STR U C T U R E . WHICH

CERTAI N LY H A S ITS RIGHTS.

DOESN'T U N I V E RSA LIZE HER. IT IS NOT TH I S WHICH IS THE ROOT OF N O T- A L L : THA N SHE R E V E A LS A

PLEASURE

OTH E R

P H A LL I C :

FE M I N I N E

SEXUA L

JOUISSANCE W H I C H I N N O WAY D E P E N D S ON TH IS. I F WOM A N IS NOT N O T- A L L . IT IS BECAUSE HER

RELATI O N S H I PS) THE HETEROS IN S O M U C H AS IT I S ABSENT. IS NOT AT ALL N E C E S SA R I LY THE

JOU ISSANCE I S D U A L.

PRIVILEOGE O F THE FEM I N I E SEX. I T I S S I M PLY THE I N DICATION OF WHAT I N M Y DIAGRAM H A D I TS LITTLE DESTI N Y O F WHAT I INSCRIBE AS THE S I G N I F I E R OF

T H I S I S IN FACT WHAT TI R E S I A S REVEA LED WHEN H E RETU RNED F R O M B E I NG. BY T H E G R A C E OF ZEUS. THERESE. FOR A W H I LE . WITH O F C O U R S E TH E

TH E

SLASHED

O.

THIS

MEANS

TH E

OTH E R : OTH E R

NO IS

MATTER

WHERE

ON E

TAKES

IT.

THE

A BSENT F R O M THE MOM E N T T H A T I T ' S A Q U E STION OF SE X U A L RE LATION S H I PS.

CONSEQUENCES WE A L L K N OW. A N D WHICH WERE LAI D-OUT. V I S I B LE . TH I S IS P E R H A PS THE CASE

THAT REVEALED TO OEDIPUS W H A T WOULD AWAIT HIM. AS HAVING EXI STED. A S M A N OF TH I S SUPREME PO S S E S S I O N AND WHAT WOULD R E S U LT IN

NATURA L LY. AT THE LEVEL OF WHAT F U NCTIONS. THAT I S TO SAY THE PHA LLIC FU NCTION. TH E R E I S S I M PLY THIS D I SCOU R S E ON ONE THAT AND I HAVE THE J U ST

DECEPTION W H E R E H I S PA RTN E R WOU L D KEEP H I M FROM T H E T R U E N A T U R E O F W H A T S H E OFFERED FOR HIS JOUISSANCE. O R LET U S SAY IT I N ANOTH E R WAY. WHAT WOULD R E S U LT I N D EC E PTION SINCE H I S PARTN E R D E M A N D E D OFFERED H I M . H I M T O R E F U S E WHAT S H E

M E NTION ED.

SIDE

OTH E R .

AUTOMATICA LLY ONE I S NOT I N T H E S A M E POS ITION. ON ON E SIDE IS A U N I V E R S A L. BASED ON A

R E LATIO N N ECESSARY TO TH E PHA LLIC F UNCTION. AND ON THE OT H E R S I DE IS A R E LA T I O N IS OF I

CONTI N G E N C Y STRESS THEN

B EC A U S E

WOM A N

N O T- A LL.

THAT AT THE

H I G H E R L E V E L. THE

TH I S M A N I FESTS A T TH E L E V E L O F T H E MYTH. THAT IN ORDER TO EXIST AS A M A N AT A LEVEL SO AS TO ESCAPE THE P H A L LIC F U N CTION. TH E R E WOULD BE N O OTH ER WOM A N THAN THE ONE WHO OUGHT

RELATI O N SH I P FOUNDED ON THE D I S A PPEARANCE. TH E VAN I S H I NG . THE EXISTENCE O F O N E OF THE PARTN E R S WHO LEAVES THE PLACE E M PTY FOR

THE I N SC R I PTION OF SPEECH. IS NOT AT TH I S LEVEL THE PRIVI LEDGE OF EITH E R SIDE. IT I S J U ST THAT I N ORDER FOR TH E R E TO B E A BASI S FOR SEX. T H E R E

PREC I S E LY NOT TO HAVE EXISTED FOR H I M.

THEREI THE

WHY SHOU LDN'T S H E H A V E EXISTED. WHY OF I N C EST? THIS WO U L D

MUST B E TWO. S U R E LY 0 A N D

1

M A K E 2 . ON THE

PROH I B ITION THAT I

SYMBOLIC PLANE. I N SO FAR AS W E AGREE THAT EXISTE N C E I S ROOTED I N THE SYMBOL. THIS I S WHAT DEFINES THE SPEAKING BEI NG.

NECESSITATE TRACK OF

GET I N VOLVED OF THE I

ALONG THE WHERE

TH E I

NAME

FATH ER

P R EC I S E LY TREAD

HAVE

SAID

THAT I

WOULD NEVER (BECAUSE IT I S I N FACT SOMETH I NG THAT I S NOT WHAT I T IS. IT IS JUST THAT THIS BEING IS A BSOLUTELY

AGA I N

BECAUSE

REREAD

SOM EONE A S K E D M E TO) HERE AT ST. A N N E IN

M Y F I RST CONFERENCE

1 96 3 AND IT EVEN HAS A

UNGRASPABLE A N D I T I S ALL THE MORE U NG R A S P-

213

A B L E BECA U S E IT I S O B L I G E D TO SU PPORT ITSELF TH ROUGH TH E SYMBOL. IT I S CLEAR THAT A B E I NG. W H I C H COM E S TO BE ONLY TH ROUGH THE SYMBOL. IS PRECISELY THIS B E I NG WI THOUT B E I N G IN WHICH (FROM TH E SOLE FACT THAT YOU SPEAK) YOU ALL PA RTI C I PATE. BUT WHICH ON THE OTH E R HAND.

TH E I R

STRUCTU RE. TO

THERE

M U ST

WELL IS

B E

A

R E LATION S H I P LANGUAGE.

S O M ETH I N G

WH I C H

NOT

OF

CO U R S E

IT

IS

E A SY T O U N D E R STA N D

THAT

P E O P L E W I L L S L I P G R O U N D ON T H E P RETEXT THAT WHAT SEEMS TO T H E M TO BE T H I S "BEYOND OF

C ERTA I N LY S U P PORTS ITSELF AND I S E X I STENCE SINCE EXISTING IS NOT B E I NG . TH I S I S TO SAY.

LA NGUAGE" C A N ON LY B E MATH E M AT I C A L. T H I S IS BECA U S E IT I S A BUT N U M B E R. I T I S A Q U ESTION OF P E R H A PS IN IT IS NOT ITS STRICTLY TO

EXISTING I S NOT D E P E N D I NG O N THE OTH E R .

Q U A NTITY. YOU A R E ALL H E R E T O SOM E D E G R E E T O EXI ST. B U T YOU ARE N O T PARTIC U L A R LY OF YOU R O W N CALM ABOUT T H E YOU SPEAKING

N U M E R I C ITY

ALL

R E A LI TY

W H I C H L A N G U A G E G I V E S ACCESS. B U T O N L Y T H E C A PA C I TY THROUGH R E A L. TO A NCHOR TH E ZERO AND ONE.

NATURE

B E I N G . OTH E R W I S E

WOU L DN'T COME TO S E E K A S S U RA NC E I N SO M A N Y PSYCHOANA LYTIC E F FORTS.

T H I S TH E REAL

ENTRANCE WHICH

WOU L D B E M A D E CAN BE THE

THE

A LO N E

" B E YO N D H E R E TH E R E IS SOM ETH I N G COM PL.ETE LY ORIG I N A L IN THE FI RST E M ERGENCE OF L.OGIC: TH E DIFFI­

OF

LANGUAGE."

N A M E LY

T H E O N LY

DO M A I N I N W H I C H A SYM BOLIC I M POSSI BILITY C A N B E FOR M U LATED.

CUL TY. THE I NDECISION TH A T A R I STOTLE SHOWED CO N C E R N I N G THE ST A T U S OF A PARTI C U L A R TH I S R E LATIO N SH I P. ACCESS I B L E TO LANGUAGE. I F IT IS P R EC I S E LY FOU N D E D ON A SEXUAL NON­

PROPOSITION. THESE A R E D I F F I C U L.TI ES TH AT H A V E B E E N STR ESSED EL.SEW H E R E . BUT T H A T I D I D NOT D I SCOVER. FOR THOSE WHO D E S I R E A R E F E R ENCE. I R E F E R YOU TO C A H I E R NO. 1 0 O F THE C A H I E RS POU R
L ' A N A LY S E . T H E A RTICLE BY JACQUES B R U N SCHWIG

R E LATIONSH I P C A N ONLY TH E R E FORE CONFRONT 0 AND

1 ;

TH I S

FACT

WOULD

E A S I LY

FIND

ITS

R E FLECTION I N T H E ELABORATION F R EG E G I V E S O F THE LOGI C A L G E N E S I S O F N U M B E R S .

IS

E XC E L L E N T ;

YOU

WILL

SEE

P E R F ECTLY TH E HAD WITH THE I H A V E S PO K E N OF THAT WHICH C A U S E S D I F F I C U LTY I N TH I S LOGICAL G E N E S I S . N A M E LY T H E G A P . THE GAP O F THE M ATH E M ATICAL TRI A N G L E . BETW E E N

D I F F I C U LTY PARTICULAR.

WHICH

A R I STO T L E

H E PERCEIVED THAT E X I ST E N C E IN NO WAY C A N B E ESTA B L I S H E D TH I S R EASON. OUTS I D E HE OF TH E U N I V E R S A L; FOR

TH I S 0 A N D TH I S 2. A G A P W H I C H DOUBLES TH E I R O P PO S I T I O N O F C O N F R O N T A T I O N . W H A T I NT E R ­ V E N E S I S T H E R E O N L Y BECAUSE IT I S TH E E S S E N C E OF T H E FI RST COUPLE. SO T H A T TH E R E M IGHT BE TH E ESSENCE OF T H E TH I RD A N D SO THAT THE GAP AS SUCH IS A LW A Y S WHICH IS LEFT TO THE TWO; THIS ESSENTIA L BECAUSE IS OF

SITUATES

EXISTENCE

AT THE

L E V E L OF THE PARTI C U LA R. AND TH I S PARTI C U LA R I N N O WAY S U FFICES TO S U P PORT I T EVEN THOUGH HE S E E M S TO S U PPORT IT BY V I RTUE OF TH E USE OF TH E WORD SOME.

SO M ET H I NG

SOMETH I NG M UC H MORE DANGEROUS W H I C H M I G H T ON THE CONTRARY W H AT R E S U LTS FROM THE SO­ C A L L E O FORM A L I ZATION OF Q U A NTI F I ERS (CA LLED Q U A NTI F I ERS BECAUSE O F A T RACE. L E FT I N THE P H I LOSOPHY OF H I STORY THROUGH THE FACT THAT SOM EONE N A M E D A P U L I A . A NOVELIST OF NOT VERY GOOD TASTE AND A N U N R ESTR A I N E D MYSTIC. AND WHO CREATED THE GOLDE N THAT ASS. IN ONE DAY BE SUBSTITUTED IN THE A N A LY S I S OF T H E

M YT H I C A L SELVES I N

ADVENTURES O F OEDIPUS ( I N THEM­ NO W A Y D I ST U R B I N G I N AS M U C H A S

T H E Y A D M I R A B LY STRUCTU R E TH E N ECESSITY T H A T THERE BE S O M E W H E R E A T- L E A ST -O N E W H I C H

T R A N S C E N D S W H A T THERE I S OF TH E G R A S P O F T H E PHA LLIC FU NCTION; TH E MYTH OF THE PRIM A L

I NT R O D U C E D

THE

I D EA

A R I STOT L E

FATH E R M E A N S NOT H I N G OTH E R TH A N TH I S ) . T H I S I S S U F F I C I E NT E N O U G H FOR U S TO M A K E U S E O F I T BEYOND T H E FACT THAT W E F I N D I T CON F I R M E D B Y LOG I C A L STRUCTURATION.

E V E R YT H I N G THAT CON C E R N S A LL A N D SOM E WAS OF TH E ORDER OF QUA NTITY. I T WAS NOT AT ALL LI K E TH AT,) I S S I M PLY TWO D I F FE R E N T MODES OF WHAT I M IGHT CA LL. IF YOU W I L L A LLOW M E A LITTLE I M PROVIZATION. THE I N C A R N ATION OF T H E SYM BOL. TH E PASSAGE I NTO ORDI N A R Y LIFE OF THE FACT

ON

THE

OTH E R

H A ND.

THERE

IS

ASSUREDLY

NOTH I N G M O R E D A N G E RO U S T H A N TH E CO N F U S I O N OV E R WHAT THERE IS OF TH E ONE. THE O N E IS

THAT THERE IS ALL A N D SOM E IN ALL LANGUAGES A S S U R E DLY FORC E S US TO POS E THAT ALL

F R E Q U E NTLY EVOK E D BY FREUD A S T H E S IG N I F I E R OF THE ESSENCE OF E ROS: IT A N D THE L I B I DO

LA N G U AGE M U ST H A V E T H E SA M E ROOTS A N D THAT AS ALL LANG UAGES ARE D E E PLY DIFFERENT I N

WOU LD BOTH STRA I N TO M A K E ONE. ACCORD I N G TO

21 6

AN OLD MYTH (NOT AT A L L OF THE M YT H I C A L MODE) ONE OF TH E F U N D A M E NT A L TENSIONS OF THE

OF BEING R E P R E S E NTED. THERE I S I N T H I S ONLY ONE REQU I SITE. I F I MIGHT SAY. A G R ATUITOUS O N E ; NOTH ING I M POSES TH I S AT·LEAST·ONE I F N O T T H E U N IQUE C H A NC E -A N D STILL IT M U ST B E PLA Y E D OUT-QF WHICH SOMETH I NG F U NCTIONS ON TH E

WORLD WOULD STRA I N T O M A K E O N L Y O N E . THIS M YT H IS T R U LY ON SOMETH I NG H O R I ZO N WHICH OF CAN ONLY AND

F U NCTION

THE

DELIR I U M

W H I C H . STRICTLY S P E A K I NG. H A S NOTH I N G TO DO WITH A N YTH I NG AT ALL W H I C H W E ENCOU NTER IN EXPERI ENCE. IF T H E R E I S A N YTH I NG V E R Y OVERT IN THE RE LATIONS H I P BETWEEN SEXES. THAT

OTHER S I D E BUT ONLY AS AN I D E A L POINT. AS T H E POSSIBI LITY F O R ALL M E N T O ATTA I N IT THROUGH IDENTIFICATION.

A N A LYSIS NOT ONLY A RT I C ULATES B U T C A N B E PUT I N TO PLAY I N ALL D I R ECTIONS AND SENSES. H E R E IS SOM E T H I N G WHICH THIS CAUSES IS D I F F I C U LTY IN

THERE IS IN T H I S A LOGICAL NECE SSITY WHICH I S I M POSED ON LY O N THE LEVEL O F THE WAGER. B U T NOTICE O N THE OTH E R H A N D W H A T RESU LTS FROM IT CONC E R N I N G T H E M A L E U N I VERSAL; THUS. T H I S AT·LEAST·ONE. ON W H I C H THE MYTH ICAL N A M E O F THE FATH E R I S S U STA I N E D. I S I N D I S PENSABLE.

R E LATI O N S H I PS .

P R E C I S ELY

R E LATION·

S H I PS BETWE E N WOME N ; NOTH I N G COULD RESEM· BLE THE SPONTA N EITY O F T H E S E R E LATIONSHI PS. WHICH TION E D IS NOW PRECISELY AN TH E H O R I ZO N BASED ON I MEN· SOME

EARLIER.

A N I M A LIC

IT I S HERE THAT I ADVANCE A FLASH O F WHAT IS M I SSING FROM T H E FUNCTION. FROM THE NOTION O F SPECIES A N D O F CLASS. AND CONSEQUE NTLY I T I S NO ACCI DENT THAT T H I S ENTI RE DIALECTIC WAS LEFT OUT OF A R I STOTLE'S FORMS.

A N I M A L MYTH; I N N O WAY I S EROS A T E N D E NCY O F TH E ONE. ACCO R D I N G TO THIS FU NCTION. ANY

ARTICU LATION M A K ES C L E A R T H A T T H E R E A R E TWO LEVELS OF SECRECY IN WHICH T H E OPPOSITION

BETWEEN THE SEXES I S FOU N D E D ONLY IN D I SCORD A N D ONLY I N A S M UC H AS T H E Y CAN IN NO WAY BE I N STITUTED AS U N I VE R S A L . AT THE L E V E L OF I N FACT WHERE DOES T H I S E OF X FUNCTION.T H I S "TH ERE E X I STS AT·LEAST-ONE" W H I C H I S NOT T H E SLAVE OF THE PHAL LIC FUNCTION? T H I S I S O N L Y A REQUISITE I W I L L SAY. OF A HOPELESS TYPE. FROM THE POINT OF IS VIEW OF TH I S SOMETH I NG WHICH

EXISTENCE ON T H E CONTRARY. I S PR E C I SE LY AN OPPOSITION CON S I ST I N G IN T H E C A N C ELLATION.

THE E M PTYING OF ONE O F T H E FUNCTIONS A S BEING THAT OF T H E OTH E R . REVEALED BY T H E POSSIBI LITY OF AN ARTICULATION OF LA NGUAGE. T H I S I S WHAT S E E M S TO M E ESSENTI A L TO B R I N G TO LIGHT.

ITSELF

NOT

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NOTICE THAT A MOMENT AGO IN S P E A K I N G TO YOU S U C C E S S I V E L Y A BOUT N EG A T I O N . CON J U NCTION AND DISJ U NCTION. WAS I HAD P U S H E D TO T H E LIMIT

BUT ON

THE

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H A ND. OBSERVE THAT WITH

RES PECT TO THE MALE U N I VERSAL. TO TH E A OF X. TO THE <I> OF X. EVERY M A LE IS A SLAVE TO T H E PHA LLIC FUNCTION. THIS AT·LEAST· ONE WHICH

WHAT THERE THAT. ONLY HERE

OF

I M P LICATION.

I T I S CLEAR F U NCTION

AGA I N . THE

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BETW E E N

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FUNCTIONS T O ESCAPE. WHAT DOES TH I S M E A N ? I WILL SAY THAT IT I S -THE EXCEPTION, IT I S THE PATH WHEREIN I S CON F I R M E D BY US THE PROVERB W H I C H SAYS, WITHOUT K NOWI NG W H A T IT SAYS, T H A T T H E

PHALLIC F U NCTION AND THAT W H I C H D I V E RTS IT.

NOW

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EXCEPTION PROVES TH E RU LE, I S S U PPORTED B Y U S . IT I S EXCEPTIONAL T H A T I T IS O N L Y W I T H T H E ANALYTIC A L D I SCOURSE THAT A U N I VERSAL C A N FIND I N E X I STENCE ITS VERITABLE FOUN DATION I N TH E EXCEPTION, W H IC H ASSUREDLY ALLOWS U S I N ANY CASE TO D I STI N G U I S H THE U N I VERSAL TH U S ESTABLI S H E D RENDERED FROM A N Y U S E THAT H A S B E E N B Y TH E P H I LO S O P H I C A L

LOW E R LEVEL. ON THE LEVEL OF THE I N S U FFICIEN· CY O F U N I VERSAL SPEC I F ICATION. I M PL I E S THAT IF AND ONLY IS IF TH E SYNCOPATION ON THE OF E X I STENCE LEVEL ON IS

WHICH

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HIGHER D I SCORD

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H I G H E R LEVEL TO THE LOWE R LEVEL. I N O N E WAY WHICH I S DIST I NCT A N D SEPARATED. T H E R E MUST EXIST AT·LEAST-ONE·MAN WHICH I S THE ONE THAT SEEMS T R A N S M I TT E D ON THE LEVEL OF THIS

BUT IT I S AN EXTRAORDINARY TH I NG THAT I FI N D MYSELF, I N TH I S WAY, O N T H E PATH OF A QUEST A N D BECA USE, FROM A N A N C I E NT FORMATION (I DON'T NOT AT A LL NOT K NOW C H I NESE), I ASKED ONE OF MY DEAR EST (I F R I E NDS TO RECALL TO M E H A D) K E PT MORE O R LESS WHAT AS A

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TRA C E . BUT WHAT I H A D TO CONFI RM FOR MYSELF BY SOM EON E FOR WHOM C H I N E S E I S THE MATE R N A L LA NGUAGE. I T I S ASS U R EDLY VERY STRANGE THAT IN C H I N E SE. THE D E L I M I TATION OF ALL. IF I MIGHT EXPRESS MORE MYSELF THUS.

C I ENTLY SHOWS THAT H E R R E LATION S H I P TO THE P H A L L I C F U NCTION IS QU ITE ACTI V E .

I N A N Y C A S E . WOM A N I S NO M O R E I NS U R E D I N H E R U N I V E RSA L ESSENCE THAN M A N FOR T H E S I M PL E R E A SON T H A T T H E CONTRA R Y OF T H E L I M IT. I S T H A T TH E R E I S NONE. T H E R E I S NO EXCEPTION. THE FACT THAT TH E R E IS NO E XC E PT I O N I N SU R E S THE

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U N I V E R S A L A L R E A D Y S O POO R L Y E S TA B L I S H E D E I TH E R F O R T H E R E A SON T H A T I T I S D I SCORDANT OR THAT I T DOESN'T ASSURE T H E U N I V E RS A L OF WOM A N . W I TH O U T EXCEPTION. FAR FROM GIVING

THAT ONE COU NTS BUT THAT THIS DOES NOT M A K E TH E M NOT-ALL A N D TO TH I S I S A D D E D ( T E l W H I C H M E A N S : WITHOUT E XC E PTION.

SOM E-ALL GIVES

M O R E CON S I STENCY. TH I S NATURA LLY LESS C O N S I ST E N C Y TO W H AT IS

STI L L

D E F I N E D A S NOT- A L L. A S ESSENTI A L LY DUAL.

YOU COU LD OBJ ECT T H A T WHAT WE D I SCOVER IN WHAT I S ARTI C U LATED A S R E LATIONS H I P OF SIGN TO E X I STENCE THROUGH R E S P ECT OF A U N I V E RSAL STATUS. TA K E S ITS F I G U R E AS AN EXCEPTION.

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STR A N G E ST TH I NG: T H E FUNCTION O F TH E ONE. BUT ALSO IT E X I STS ONLY A S CO R R E LATION OF. I WOND E R A LOT A BOUT A N I M A L M E NTA L I TY WHICH A FT E R A LL WOU LD ONLY BE U S E F U L TO M E A S A M IRROR R E FERENCE. AS A M I R RO R WH ICH. AS

WHAT I CALLED A MOM ENT AGO. THE ( E M PTI NESS) OF T H E OTHER: I F IN V I R T U E W E HAVE PROGRESSED IN THE LOGIC OF CLASSES. I T IS THAT WE HAVE

C R E ATED A LOG IC OF S E TS. THAT THE DI FFERENCE BETW E E N A CLASS AND A S E T IS THAT WHEN THE CLASS I S E M PTY. TH E R E IS STI LL TH I S ELEMENT OF TH E E M PTY S ET. IT IS IN T H I S THAT ONCE MORE. P R OG R E S S TOW A R D S

B E F O R E A L L M I R RORS. I RAVE. TH E R E I S SOM ETH I N G W H I C H WE M I G H T ASK O U R S E L V E S : F O R T H E A N I M AL. I S T H E R E T H E ONE7

MATH E M A TICS LOGI C .

HAS

MADE

JACQUES LAC A N

TRANSLATED BY DENISE GREEN
TH E X I N T H E RIGHT PART OF T H E D I A G R A M I M PL I E S THAT T H E R E I S A U N I LATERA L I TY OF THE E X I STEN­ TIAL FUNCTION FOR T H E OTH E R PA RTN E R . THAT IS. THAT TH E R E ARE NO E XC E PT I O N S . TH E R E IS I

WOULD L I K E TO THAN K THOMAS GORA. SUZA N N E AND JOHN RAJ C H M A N FOR TH E I R KIND

G U E RLAC

SOM ETH I NG THAT I S N O LONGE R I N SYMMETRY WITH THE REQU I R E M ENT OF THE AT-LEAST-ONE THAT A MOM E N T ANOTH E R AGO I CALLED H O P E LESS. WHICH THERE IN IS

ASSISTANCE I N T H E TRANSLAnO N OF T H I S TEXT.

THIS

REFERS

TO

THE

THEORY

OF

FO U R

REQU I R E M ENT

R E S I DES

THE

D I SCO U R S E S O F T H E A N A LYST. T H E H Y STE RIC. THE U N I V E R S I TY AND THE M A ST E R CF.

FACT THAT I N THE END. THE M A SCULI N E U N I VERSAL CAN ONLY GET I TS DUE WITH T H E I N SURANCE THAT TH E R E E X I STS NO WOM A N WHO C A N BE CASTRATED. TH I S IS FOR THAT REASONS THE WHICH A PPEA R EVIDENT. SUFFI-

RADIOPHON I E I N S C I LICET 2/3.

NOTE: O N E OF LACAN'S FOR M U LAS IS WOMAN­ I S-NOT- E V E R YTHI NG. NOT- A L L R E F E R S TO THIS.

EXC E PT

B E H AV I O R

OF WOMAN

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I N E V I T A B LY. S I LENCES H E R O W N C H I LD­ HOOD QUESTION. S H E L U R E S H E R DAUGHTER INTO THE ZON E AND THE DAUGHTE R LOSES H E R BODY-THAT I S . FROM T H E N O N .FATHER I S FU NCTIONI NG. A N I D E NTICAL SCENE THAT S H E H A S EXPERI ENCED H E RSELF. 219 . WAY THERE. I N T H E M I R ROR. 3. THE MOTH E R H E A R S THE ECHO AND REMAINS F R O M THIS S C E N E M A N Y OTH ERS WITH I N T H A T ZON E W H I C H I S COM PLETELY S H A K E N BY THOSE W A V E S F R O M WHICH S H E HAS NEVER COLLECTED I N A N A LYTIC PRACTICE." W I L L DESPERATELY I D E N TIFY W I TH T H E PHALLUS I N A FRA NTIC M A T E R N A L POSITION OR I N A DIZZYI N G MASCARAD E-T H E VIA R E G I A OF THE H YSTER I C . A LITTLE HIGHER U P. WHEN I WAS YOU R AGE. W H I C H I S C A P A B L E O F G I V I N G H E R I D ENTITY-EVOKES. IT SEEMS. TOO. QU ESTION IS A S K E D A N D ITS A N S W E R SETS UP A MI RROR. S H E "I WAS B U RN E D . ALLOWS HER DAUGHTER TO CONTI N U E TO SPEAK 1 . "THAT" r'CA"] M U ST N E V E R SPEAK THIS TH I R D POSS I B I LITY APPEARS O N LY AS A WAY FOR HERSELF A LO N E. A N D H O W . I N THE MOTH ER. B UT SHE I SOLATES IT A N D. IT WOULD SEEM THAT WHAT THE DAUGHTER SAYS A BOUT HER BEEN ABLE T O E S C A P E . I N THAT WAY. U PON H E A R I NG T H E E C H O OF H E R DAUGHTER'S SPEECH. I F THE NAM E-OF-THE. G I V I N G R I S E TO A N I N VESTIGATION OF A MOT H E R' S M I R ROR). ON THE RIGHT SIDE. T H E MOTH E R . W H A T DOES S H E D O ? W E C A N POI N T OUT TH R E E TYPES OF R E S PONSE. W H E N . A BOUT THAT. THE MOT H E R R E D I SCOVERS H E R OWN QUESTION IN HER D A U G H T E R'S Q U ESTI O N . T H E R E CAN O N L Y BE MORE OF THE S A M E OLD REFRAIN .JOUISSANCP A N D DIVISION "MOMMY. GAZE U PON HER DA U G H T E R AND UN THE 2. ONLY TWO POSSI BLE SOLUTI ONS ARE OPEN TO T H E DAUGHTER: IN THE MORE D E S I REABLE CASE. TH ERE I S REASON TO F E A R A PSYC HOTIC BREAK­ DOWN. I F A F U N DA M E NTA L DEFICI ENCY OF T H E PATE R N A L FU NCTION IS A D D E D WHAT H A PP E N S IN THIS BRIEF EXC H A N G E ? A T O THE ABSENCE OF THE MOTH ER'S RECOGNITION. WAS I LEFT B R E A ST1" B U R N E D ON M Y AGA I N . I N T H E LESS DESIRABLE C A S E .

THIS OPERA­ TION I S A LWAYS A LW A Y S EXTENT. STA G E . IT I S CONSTR UCTE D OVER A N D AGA I N D I SCOURSE OF IN D I FF E R E N T STAGES OF T H E PA RTICULA R LY OF STRUCTU R I N G EF FECT OF THE M I R ROR. C I R C U MSTA N C E S B E THAT ACCOMPANY T H E F A C T OF R E P R E S E NTATION BY A WOM AN'S-BODY. IT I S I N TH I S U N E N D I NG MOV E M E N T OF RETURN TO THE MOORING PLACE OF A N E V A N ESCENT EGO THAT W E M A Y A PP ROACH THE Q U E STION OF W H A T I S C A L L E D FE M I N I N E JOUISSANCE. 2 . FOR U S . THESE PA RTIC U LA R TO T H I S S C E N E W H E N I T I S E X P E R I ­ E N C E D BY MOTHE R A N D DA UGHTER. L I K E T H E P R I M A L SC E N E . I N HER FI RST R E LATION S H I P WITH WE SHALL RETURN TO THIS AND RATHER DEAL ROUGH IT I N THE MOTH E R WHO OCCUPIES T H E PLACE OF THE OTH E R . MAY W H ATEVER THE CHANCE THE SCENE-MOTH E R'< + DAUGHTERA I N FRONT OF TH E M I R ROR-CA N N OT FAIL TO BRING FORTH THE SC ENE-MOTH E RB + D A U G HTER B IN FRONT OF TH E S A M E M I R ROR. . (SI STERS. THEY NEVER FA I L TO RUN AGROU N D AT T H A T MOM E NT W H E N T H E Y A R E T O B E S E E N . AS G E N N I E LEMOI N E H A S I N S I STED. F R E U D. : 3. THIS CUT OUT AND IN A N I MATED THE FIELD BY OF MOTH E R'< ONCE A GA I N BECOM E S DAUGHTE RB B Y T H E I N T E R M E D I A R Y O F T H E I MAGE OF DAUGHTER'< . IN THE CASE OF T H E LITTLE G I RL. I S THE EROTOG E N IC PRECISION BODY. M O M E NTS OF T H E M I RROR STAGE A PPEAR AT T H E C E NT E R OF ANY ATTE M PT T O DEAL WITH THE Q U ESTION OF WOM A N . MOTH E R C A L L T H E M I R RO R SC E N E. I N S C R I B E D A T T H E ORIG I N . W H I C H THE LATTER TH E N RECOVERS." OF COURSE. CLINICAL OUTL I N E LATE R WITH T E R M S O F J O U I SSANCE. (WHEN THE C H I LO C A N COUNT: 1 . TRACING BACK THE TH REA D TO TH I S EXPER I E NC E . THE TO A FAILURE: THE GREATER OR WO M A N LESSER LET US POINT OUT THE C H A RACTER I ST I C S M I R ROR'S C A PTIVE. THE S E X U A L I TY PASSING ADDED TERM COMPLEX. F R I E N DS-PLA C E D TH E R E FOR ONE WOM A N ) . ACCEPT T H E FROM IS. AS BY DEFINED THE USE BY OF F R E U D. IS "WH I P P E D BY LANGUAGE. THE THE AS AT UT O P I C . R E C OG N I Z E D . W H I C H I S FUNDA M E NTAL FOR ALL C H I LD R E N . S I M U LT A N EO U S L Y S E PA RATE FROM TH E OF T H E I R H I STORI ES. TH I S NOTION O F T H E S A M E-BODY. OF AS THE NORMAL OEDIPUS D I SCOU RSE. A N A LY S A N DS. THE MOTH E R EITH E R DOE S O R DOES N O T R EC OG N I ZE H E R DAUGHTE R'S I MAGE. IT SIGNIFIER "WO M A N'S-BODY" ATTEM PTS T O POINT TO T H E RELATION WITH T H E SAM E-BODY WITH WHICH THE L I TT L E IN VIEW GIRL OF IS APPEARS US. BODY. ' FOR THE C H I LO TO B E A B L E TO DISCOV E R ITSELF I N ITS OWN IMAGE IT IN M UST B E OTH E R SU PPORTED THE BY ITS WE NOW PROPOSE TO A N ALYZE WHAT WE S H A L L MOTH E R'S GAZE. OF T H E D E S I R E OF TH E OTHE R ." THESE THREE TO SITUATIONS IN TH E ARE ROOT E D . M O R E OR LESS A REMAI NS. A SECOND OPERATION THROUGH WHICH T H E DESTI N Y OF "WOMA N'S-BODY" I S PLAY E D O U T . I N T H E FACT THAT THE LITTLE G I R L. NOT ONLY I N T H E G A Z E OF M E N . . A N D SO FORTH AD I N FINITU M . LIKE THAT OF THE THE LITTLE BOY. THE P U ZZ L I N G I NT E NSITY OF WHICH FREUD NEVER ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC. M A K E S THIS OPE RATION POS S I B LE). WOM E N A N A LY S A N DS. ) " WOMA N'S-BODY" LIES. M I RROR THAT STAG E W H I C H STRUCT U R E S THE E G O A N D I S THE FO U N D A T I O N OF WHAT W I LL LATER BECO M E N E C E S SA R I LY CONFRONTED.A LO N G WH I C H THE IS PATH OF A C C E PTING C A ST R A T I O N . M UST WORDS. FACT THAT S H E I S S E E N A S C H I LO AND S E E I NG TH E SEPARATE C H I LD: THE THAT SHE M U ST ACQU I ESC E I N BEING M I RROR SC E N E S U B J ECT TO SYM BOLIC LAW. I N T H I S S E C O N D STAGE. DRIVES. T H E R E IS ADDED. "WOMA N'S-BODY. LOCATED 220 . BUT I N T H A T OF ALL WOM E N . LET US R E PEAT THAT THE BODY OF THE LITTLE G I RL. DAUGHTERS. E NCOU NTERS THE SAM E-BODY AS HER OWN. DENIAL OF SYM BOLIC LAW WO U L D ANNUL TH E WE C A L L I T A SC E N E B E C A U S E WE H A V E FOU N D THAT. MOTH ER'S I M AGE BUT CONTI N U A LLY R E S E M B L I N G IT. IT SEEMS. DOES NOT REFER TO THE BI OLOGIC A L BODY. BUT RATH E R TO THE BODY THAT IS TRAC E D . (CF. O N E COULD PROBABLY EXPLORE T H E Q U ESTION OF THE P E R M A N E N C E OF T H E L I B I D I N A L ATTA C H M E NT TO THE MOTH ER. C E A S E D T O E M PHASIZE.

BY THIS DOUBLI NG. CAN BE FELT ONLY I F THE IDENTI FICATION. ADDED TO T H I S OF PLACES EXCHANGE IS TH E A N D I NTER­ G I R L'S TH E TH I NG ' DEPENDENCE LITTLE TO BE A MOTH ER IS I N DEED TO BE C A STRATED. AS FAR AS THE E A R L I EST CONSTITUTION O F THE EGO IS CONCERNED. WHICH T H E I N DI V I D U A L LOSES AT B I RTH." CONTENTS H E R SELF WITH A PA I N E D AND R E C R I M I ­ NATORY: "THAT I S ALL Y O U A R E. O R D E R. I F THIS IS NOT THE CASE. TO EXPLA I N H E R D I STRAUGHT. EQUAL T O H I MSELF. HA LF-HOR R I F I ED. REDUCE D TO AN = THE LIVING BEING WHO IS SUBJECT TO SEXUAL A REAL LOSS. TO ASSU M E THE VALUE OF THE P H A LLUS. THE MOTH ER CAN BELIEVE I N M I RACLES.2A lie B SEEING H E R SON IN TH E M I R ROR. HA LF-FASC I NATED GAZE. ONE CAN SU PPOSE TH AT THIS A FFLICTED GAZE FADES. THE MOTH E R'S WOU N D IS R EOP E N E D. (TH E R E PROD U C T I O N PLACENTA SUFFERS I M AG I N A RY FU NCTION I N INDEED R E P R E S E N T S T H A T P A RT . TA K E S AWAY FROM TH E DAUGHTER THE P OS S I B I L I T Y OF FINDING HER PLACE IN THE SYMBOLIC ORDER. THE C H I LD S E E KS SUPPORT IN T H E MOT H E R'S GAZE. TH E SAME­ BODY U N DERLI N ES T H E FRAGI LITY OF SEPARATION AT THE I M AG I N A RY DEC E PTIVE LEVEL I M AG E : AND IN BLURS THIS MOTH E R C A N NOT BEAR IF THE GAZE OF HER DAUGHTER. N OT THAT I NSCRIBED S I G N I FY I N G R E E M E RG E S G E N E R A T I O N A FT E R G E N E R A T I O N . A N D OF T H E D A U G H T E R H A V E YET T O B E DEFIN ED.AT THAT MOMENT W H E N T H E "ORTHOPE DIC" I MAGE OF TH E C H I LD'S BODY A S SEPA RATE FROM TH AT OF THE MOTHER I S CONSTITUTED. OF TH E SAM E-BODY." SHOULD T H I S NOT BE SEEN A S ONE SOURCE OF THE R A VAGES THAT G E N E RA LLY M A R K MOTH ER-DAUGHTER R E LATION­ SHI PS? ALREADY THIS SPIRAL OF ECHOES AND R E F LECTIONS THE LITTLE GIRL CAN FIND NO STA B L E POI NT OF REFERENCE FOR TH E FORCE OF TH I S F U N DA M ENTA L EXPERI E NCE. WHO.1 THE PHALLUS OCC U P I E S THE FOREVER EM PTY PLACE OF THIS REAL LOSS. BLIGHTS A N D DENIES THE DAUGHTER'S BODY. BUT IT IS ALSO. I DENTITY OF BODIES FAVORS THE VACI LLATION OF I MAGES. WHICH T H E I N FANT CLA I M S AS ITS OWN. I T IS CA LLED TH E PHALLUS. L I K E THE PLACENTA. A MOTH ER. THE B R E A ST. THE MOTH E R NOT ONLY OCC U P I E S HER OWN POSITION OF MOTH ER DOES NOT DENY CASTRATION. THERE IS SOMETH I N G IN THE NOT R E P RESSED. THE MOTH ER. N A RC I S S I ST I C AND OBJECT CATH EXIS ARE CONFUSED WITH EACH OTH ER. PERCEIVING TH E THE M OT H E R . DESCRIBES H E R. IT T H E MOTH E R O R TH E DAUGHTER W H O I S T H E AGENT O F TH I S M I R ROR E X P E R I E N C E? TH E MOTH E R PARTIA LLY TAKES THE PLACE OF THE DAUGHTER A N D. THE 22 1 . D I SC O V E R S THAT OTH E R CAS­ THE I M M A T U R I TY OF T H E IT FROM I N FANT H U M A N L I M ITS AS B E I NG OF ITS TRATED. WITH THE M I RROR I M AGE R E M I N DI N G HER THAT WOM A N ' S-BODY IS. W H O CAN NOT B R I NG H E RSELF T O S A Y : "YOU ARE THAT.B E BOY. DAUGHTER. T H E R E I S A C A PTURE I N THE M I RROR. S I N C E THE EQUATION BABY PENIS. BUT THAT. CON F R O N T E D SHE WITH THE I M A G E OF H E R INTO THE REGISTER OF THE S IG N I F I E R. SHE RETRACES KE EPS BODY. I S T H E BEARER O F THAT. B U T PARTI A LLY U S U RPS H E R D A UGHTER'S POSITION AS W E LL. I S I N FULL FORCE. M A S K I N G C A STRATION. WHICH O N E OBJ ECT R E PLACES A NOTH E R O F EQUAL VALUE. LACA N THE PATH O F T H E S Y M BOLIC EQUATION. IT IS AS SHE WERE PARA LYZED. WHICH HAS N EV E R BEEN L E FT B E H I N D . TO OCCUpy THE PLACE OF THE T H I NG. EXTR E M E "JU B I LATION" U PO N D I SCOV E R I N G THAT S H E I S LIKE HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT. THAT WHICH IS OUTS I D E OF T H E SIGN IFI ED-I N THE SYMBOLIC ORDE R. SPLIT BODY. WE SHALL HYPOTH ESIZE NOT ONLY THAT "SEPA RATION" OF I MAGES I S ON LY PARTIA LLY COMPLETED. FROZEN BY THE FATE FUL I M AGE. MOV E M E N T EXCHANGE. IN ORDER TO BACK U P THE FANTASY THAT HER C H I LD I S A SU BSTITUTE MAKING U P FOR CASTRATION. B Y SATI S F Y I N G REAPPEARS W I T H I T S F U L L L I B I N A L INTENSITY. H ENCE. BY VIRTUE OF NOT HAVING THE PHALLUS. IN OTH E R WORDS. THE MOTH ER. F I R ST OF A L L. MOREOVER. HOWEVER. PASSING FROM U N E N D I NG ON E GAZE OF TO A N OTH E R IS IN AN THE VISION OF T H E C A ST R A T E D BODY. SENDING BACK TO H E R THE I MAGE OF H E R OWN BODY. I S NOT ENOUGH. AND P E N I S ENVY. WHAT WE HAVE J U ST SKETC H E D OUT I N DICATES TH AT SHE R U N S THE RISK OF F I N D I N G A GAZE A L R EADY A BSORBED BY A NOTHER M I RROR G A M E . DAS DING. TRANSPOSED WHEN. P E R H A PS THE PR E-OE D I PA L ATTACH MENT T O THE MOTH E R R E M A I N S S O VERY STRONG BEC A U S E T H E PLACES OF T H E MOTH E R CASTRATED BODY. AT T H A T M O M E N T W H I C H SHOULD BE FORMATI V E FOR THE LITTLE G I RL. THAT IS. SHE WI LL ASSIGN H E R DAUGHTER THE FATE OF A WOULD. T H E LOST OBJ ECT. WHICH REACTIVATES PENIS ENVY I N T H E M OTH E R.

I S NOT ITS MOTH ER. ONE OF T H E M R E M A I N S R A DICA LLY FOR E I G N . T H E R E FO R E . SHE THIS SHORT C I R C U IT. ITS BODY I S NOT M E R E LY A BIOLOGICAL BODY. PLACE FOR T H E P E RSON WHO MIGHT D I S P LA C E H E R : H E R DAUGHTER. BUT RATH E R. H OW E V E R . IN THE I MA G I N A RY. AS R E M A I N DE R S." HOWEVER. HERE. WHICH BEGAN WITH A SEA RCH OBJ ECT A FOR THE LOST OBJECT. T H E R E IS COLLUSION B ETWE E N THE OBJECT A N D THE T H I NG. AT THAT I N STANT. WHAT H E M E A N S BY THE N E B E N M E N SCH COM PLEX4 : THE FIRST OBJECT SPLITS I NTO TWO PARTS." T H E Y F U N CTION. LET US REPEAT THAT T H E R E I S N O R E P R E S E NTA­ TIVE OF THE T H I NG. TO B E A MOTH E R I S THE FUTU R E ASSIGN E D TO ALL WOM E N IN THE TH I R D ST A G E OF THE HOLDING HER ELSEWH ERE H O L LOWS O U T T H E D I F FE R E N C E BETW E E N T H E C H I LD'S N E E D A N D ITS D E M A N D . NOT-S ELF ARE CONSTITUTED. FUSION. PSYCHO LOGY. I N TH I S P R I M A L EXPE R I E NCE O F THE ORGA N I ZATION OF PSYC H IC R E A LITY. IN THE A S U B J ECT. THE CONSTITUTE T H E L I M IT OF A FORE V E R ' : E N IGMATIC NATURE OF T H E T H I NG. S H E W I L L P R E V E N T TH E R E P R E S ENTATION O F A M I SS I N G O B JECT THAT COULD FOU N D D E S I R E . TAKES MOTH E R H OOD. SHE OVERCO M E B Y TH E F A SC I NATION O F T H E R EFLEC­ TION OF B E I NG A L L. AS THE BEGI N N I NGS OF THE BODY ITSELF. ITSELF B Y ITS A BSENCE. T H E R E FORE. OTH E R PART BY M E A N S OF I D E NTI FICATION: IT C A N BE CON SIDE RED. LET US R E M E M B E R THAT D I SCOURSE FUNCTIONS AS M E A N S B E I NG A MOTH E R COMPLETELY A N D B E I N G 222 . AT B I RT H .M OTH ER.P R I MO R I D A L I M POSS I B L E N E E DS. THE MORE SHE W I L L SET H E RSELF U P TO SHORT C I RC U I T THE PATH OF D E S I RE. " A L L." Q U I C KLY. TO COLO N IZE THE FIELD OF THE EXPERIENCED ORDER TO B E LON G I N G T O THE THAT TH E OBJ ECT I N S I D E. W E A L L "FORGET. THE MOTH ER'S DESI R E TRACES EROTOG ENIC ZON ES FROM WHICH DRIVE W I LL S P R I N G FORTH. P E R H A PS P E R V E R S E . THE S U BJECT W I LL A LWAYS TRY TO ASSI M I LATE THE MOTH E R HOOD I S ONLY A F U NCTION. W I LL FALL T H E A IN ITS V A RIOUS G U I DES. WHAT S H E R E P R E S E N TS . IT D I ST I N G U I S H E S OBJECT. IS PROVE STI LL PRES ENT IN R E A LI TY. ONE S C I E N TI FIC M A Y C O N S U L T THE PROJECT F O R A WHERE FREUD DEFINES THAT T H E M OT H E R I S NOT THE OTHE R . T H E MOTH E R P A S S E S FROM H E R S Y M BOLIC F U N CTION I N TO A N I M AG I N A RY R E G I STER: THE TEM PTATION I S A LWYAS GREAT F O R H E R T O F I L L THE E M PTY SPACE OF THE T H I NG. I N D I SCOURSE "TH E T H I N G RESOLVES I T S E L F I NTO A FFA I R S. BUT A LSO THAT OF HER OWN M OT H E R . THAT S H E O N LY HOLDS I T S PLACE. FROM T H E VERY F I RST MONTHS O N . IN THE MOST " G L O R I O U S" I M AGE OF HER FUTURE S U B J ECT. W H I C H E F FECTS OF THE DOES NOT COM E U N D E R THE P R I N C I PLE. S H E R U N S THE R I S K O F D I SAPPEAR­ ING AS C A STRATED MOTH E R AND OF B E I NG NO P L EA S U R E R E F UG E I N THEM. IT I S TH E R E FORE WITH I N TH E REGISTER O F A DECOY O R L U R E THAT THE I N THIS P E R SPECTI VE.M OTH E R" COMES TO FILL THE E M PTY SPACE OF THE THI NG. DAS D I N G . T H E OBJECT IS BOTH R E M A I N D E R A N D AGENT IN THE PROCESS OF BECOMING OBJ ECTS A R E D I SCOV E R S I N H E R R E F LECTION H E R F I R ST LOVE OBJ ECT I N ITS MOST FASCINATING FOR M . I NTO THIS R EPETITIVE CYCLE. ONE ATTEM PTS TO R E D I SCOV E R ON THE OUTS I D E AS AN OBJECT THAT ONCE WAS IN BECAUSE SHE IS THE F I RST L O V E OBJ ECT. BUT EVERYO N E T E N DS T O M A K E OF IT T H E V E R Y B E I N G OF WOM A N . W I TH T H E MOTH E R PROFITING FROM BECAUSE THE C H I LD IS CAST I NTO THE R E A L M OF D E M A ND. T H E C H I LD DOES NOT LOSE I T S MOTH E R : I T LOSES T H E PLACE NTA. s BECAUSE OF T H E C H A LL E N G E THAT S H E PRESE NTS TO THE SYM BO L I C ORDER. CR EATES VERY TH E I LLUSION OF T H E N EC E S S A R Y F I L L I N G UP OF THE HOLE OF T H E R E A L FOR TH I S R E ASON. AN E M PTY SPACE TO AROUND IN M O R E TH A N T H E DA UGHTER OF H E R REFLECTION. R E A L. I N D E E D. T H E LESS SHE ACCEPTS HER CASTRATION. THE NOT-SE L F B E I N G THAT W H I C H B R I NGS U N PLEASURE. AS BOTH THE C A U S E AND THE S UPPORT O F DESIRE. I N R E F E R E N C E TO THIS. L A C A N SAYS OF THE OBJ ECTS "JOUISSANCE. H E R C A R I NG FOR THE CH I L D WILL MARK ITS BODY. AT THE S A M E T I M E . WHAT IT W I LL B E S E E K I NG. T H E MOTH E R OCCUPIES THE PLACE O F THE T H ING. PA R A DO X I C A L­ LY. WOMA N'S POS ITION IS WHICH DESI R E NEVER C EASES IS WANDER. AN A LWAYS P R E S E N T TH E TH I N G DOES NOT E X I ST. THE R E CAN BE NO MOTH E R OFFICIA LLY FU NCTIONS. T H E I M AG E THAT T H E M I R ROR S E N DS BACK TO A WOMA N W H E N S H E IS C A R RY I N G H E R C H I LD IS NOT O N LY THE I MA G E O F HER OWN BODY. S H E MOLDS H E R S E L F TO THE ORDER ROLE ONLY A L LOTT E D SO AS TO BY HER IN THE PHALLIC THE IS FA NTASY WHERE DES I R E SUSPENDED AND W H E R E T H E R E PETITIVE QUEST STOPS FOR A SHORT TI M E. THE DESI R E THUS. THE SELF AND THE O E D I P U S C O M P L EX. BECAUSE T H E MOTH E R D E S I R ES A N D I S S U BJ ECT TO THE LAW OF THE S I G NI F I ER. THE OBJ ECT A A B ETTER THAT DENY C A ST R A T I O N I M PL I E D ROLE.

" SHE M U ST ACKNOW­ MONTRELAY'S STRUCTU R I N G PORTION OF D I SC USSION OF R E PRESSION A S A PROCESS." T H I N K I NG OF THE XE XE M ETAPHOR OF THE SCR E A M THAT GIVES B I RTH TO SI LENCE. JOU I SSANCE W I LL E M E RGE. SHE IS NO MORE THAN A REFLECTION OF A R E FLECTION AD I N F I N I T U M . L E A D I NG TO THE R E A L THE M OTH E R F I G U R E M A S K S A L L LACKS.K E E P E R OF T H E OTHER.) OR WOM EN. WE THE FI N D IN THIS LOVE-HATE OF A A M B I VA L E N C E WOMA N . O N E PHALLIC CAN AS IMAGINE I N SC R I PTION IN T H E ORDER CONSTITUTIVE O F T H E NOT­ S(�) a A L L/NOT-WHOLE. WOM A N'S WE S H A L L LI B I DO SAY THAT A IN ITS LEDGE THE P E R M A N E N C E O F THIS S H A DOW. ( A N D IN SPITE OF W H A T LACA N FIGURE H A S SUGGESTED. I N THE PSYC H I C A P P A R A ­ BY D E N Y I NG T H I S S H A R E O F THE I N EX PLORABLE TUS. S H E W A N TS TO R E M A I N PORTION OF S H A DOW. T H E PLACE. THE "FI RST MASTERSPACE O F I NSC R I PTIONS. T O A C E R TA I N EXTENT.ALL MOTHERS ROLLED I NTO O N E . THERE I S NO C H A NC E T H A T WOMA N·5-BODY. I NC L U D I N G THE LACK OF A LL SYSTE M I ZATION. A R E NOT ONLY SUBJECT TO THE PHA LLUS-PHA LLIC J O UISSANCE QUESTION O F FEMININE S E X U A L I TY. W H I C H WOULD SIGN THE RECOG N I T I O N OF A CASTRATED BODY.") THE F I R S T I N SC R I PT I O N S . REGA RDLESS OF WHETHER THEY ARE M E N MOTH E R CONTI N U E S U PO N A N A LYTIC THEORY. H E R LA B I D I N A L ECONOMY I S NOT ORGANIZED ENTI R E L Y IN S U B M I SS I O N TO THE PHA LLUS. BECA U S E OF TH E I R R E I NFORCED AlTACH­ MENT TO T H E MOTH E R WHO M E D I ATES ACCESS TO THE OTH E R. THI S F I E LD O F F I RST I NSCRIPTIONS. TH E REFORE. SHE IS MADE WOMEN. THE A THIRD MOTH E R IS S TA G E THIS GRAPH FROM L A C A N'S S E M I N A I R E XX: EN· COM PL E X : THIS B E C O M ES CORE l O DEALS WITH T H E QUESTION OF JOU ISSANCE. TRACES I NSTI NCTUA L ZONES. A WOM A N WITH DENIES RELATION C ON D E M N S THE S Y M BO L I C ORDER IT APPEARS TO US THAT A WOM A N A LW A Y S H E RS E L F TO I MITATION. A LTHOUGH T H E SPOKESPE RSON OF THE SYMBOLIC ORDER. T H E MOTH ER. s THE N E V E R. FO R THE D A UG H T E R . I N TOUCH WITH A N D R E C R I M I NATION. W H I C H I S T O SAY. I NDEED. I N THE M I RROR SC ENE. REPEATING FOR A WOMA N TO B E ABLE TO S E I ZE T H E OCC ASION TO SPEAK FOR "H E R S ELF. I F A WOM A N PLACES H E RSELF ON T H E LEFT. T H E TO WEIGH HEAVILY OR JOUISSA NCE TH ROUGH D I SCOURSE-BUT A R E A LSO IN A R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTHER. BARS TOTAL ACCESS TO IT. A REMAINS 223 . HOWEVER. WOM A N R E M A I N S IGNORANT OF H E R TWOFOLD DIVI SION. IT I S A LSO THE U NCONSCIOUS: I N C A R I NG FOR H E R C H I LD. U N A W A R E OF H E R R E S PO N S I BLE ONCE AGA I N .E N D I NG FA SCI N ATION O F T H E RELATION WITH THE MOT H E R HOLDS A P A RT O F A WOM A N I N T H E I M AG I N A R Y O R D E R : I N T H I S WAY. S H E I S NOTHI NG . T H E REPRE­ SENTATIVES OF WHICH.9 THE PLACE OF THE OTH ER IS TH E BODY. TH E R E IS NO XA POSSI B I LITY O F I OENTI F ICATION W ITH T H E MOTH ER: ONLY I M I TATION IS POS S I BLE. THUS. A WOM A N IS ONLY FOLLO W I NG DOWN IN THE LETTER OF THE OF LAW THE THE HANDED OEDIPUS MOTH ER. ? BY D E N Y I NG C A STRATION. THOSE WHO L I N E U P O N THE R I G HT. CAN B E FOU N D ON E I TH E R S I D E I S NOT I NCOMPATIBLE WITH T H E FACT THAT J UST A S THE MOTH E R TA K ES T H E PLACE OF T H E LOST OBJ ECT AND IS L OV E D . "SHA DOW" (FREUD I N D I CATES THAT T H E RELATION HAS T H E CONSI STENCY OF A H ER S E LF HER OWN AND DRIVES A R E T H E TREASURY O F W I TH T H E MOTH E R SHADOW)." A S LACAN SAYS. AN DIVIDED STRUCTURE I RR E D U C I B L E STRUCTURE RESISTING A N A LY S I S A N D D I SCOU R S E. R E PETITION REMAI NS. A R E PLAC E D IN A PRIVI LEGED M A N N E R ON THE RIGHT. THAT SPEA K I NG B E I NGS. T H E N A T U R E OF TH I S R E I N FORCE­ MENT WAS DESC R I B E D IN THE FI RST PART OF T H I S ARTICLE. T H E MOTH ER. E I T H E R FOR THE MOTH E R O R FOR T H E DAUGHTER. FOR C A S T R A T I O N A N D I S HATED. PASSAGE F A C I L I TATED BY T H E THOSE WHO LINE UP IN THE LEFT SECTION O F FACT THAT THE MOTH E R F I G U R E I S A N I DEOLOGICAL P R O D U CT: SHE A LLOWS ONE TO AVOID THE S P E A K I N G B E I NGS H A V E ACCESS T O THE OTH E R ONLY THROUGH T H E OBJECT A . CONSTITUTE ( " I N STI N C T U A L SIGN I F I ERS.

CATH E X I S OF THE SA M E-BODY NO DO UBT PHALLIC J O U I SSANCE. SHE REVELS [ELLE J O U I RAl IN THAT WHICH A FFECTS HER BODY A N D. H E R O W N BODY I S ALWAYS THE S A M E BODY A S . A BOUT THE BODY. S U B L I M E MOTH E R S D I SPLAY TH E I R B R U I S E D BOD I ES. SHE SC R E A M S SOMETHING ABOUT WHICH SHE KNOWS NOTHI NG. PREGNA NCY. SHE IS THE REPRESE NTATI V E OF T H E THI NG. FOR A W H I LE. T H E HYSTE R I C P RETENDS TO BELIEVE THAT THERE W I LL B E A SEXUA L RELATION. H O W DOES S H E E X P E R I ENCE THIS? LET US SAY FROM PROBABLY R E V E LS NOW ON THAT T H E HYSTERIC IN [JO U I T . A WOM A N CAN IN A LSO THE EXPE R I E NC E TH I S A PHA LLIC JOU ISSANCE M A SQUERADE. OR A L O S T O B J ECT. W H I LE T H I S I S EQUA LLY T R U E F O R T H E BOY. ' . BUT S H E NEITHER KNOWS N O R ACCEPTS T H I S. IS THIS NOT PRECISELY THE THE EVENTS OF A WOM A N'S BODY A R E M A R K E D BY S U B M I SSION TO THE PHA LLIC ORDER: SHE NEVER STOPS SPEAKING A BOUT T H E M A N D." BECO M E CON F U S E D WITH ONE A NOTH ER. WOMEN-OBJ ECTS A N G U I S H A S THEY COUNT THE GAZES S U PF'ORTING THEM. M A K E S D E M A N DS A N D R A I LS A G A I NST THE PHALLIC ORDER. WE FIND IT D I F F I C U LT T O G R A S P FROM BOTH AND CAN GIVE H E RS E L F THE I LLUSION OF EXI STI NG. W I TH T H I S SC R E A M . I NSC R I B E D JOUISSA N C E . I DENTIFICATION WITH OBJECT OF R E I N FORCES TH E ATTRACTION OF NARCISSISM FOR TH E LITTLE G I R L FOR WE ARE I N D E E D TA LKING W H I C H G I VE S H E R A FAVORED PLAC E I N T H E O R D E R OF D I SCOU R S E. W H E N S H E C A N C L I N G TO THAT W H I C H I N SC R I BES HER W I TH I N D I SCOURSE. BE REDUCED TO A N OBJECT CATH E X I S.R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTH E R AND COMES TO A H A LT THERE. B A C K G RO U N D SEXUAL OF I N E X I ST E N C E . ONCE AGAIN. BETW E E N "KNOW I NG" A N D "NOT K NOWING. HER C O N S I STENCY. S H E SENSES THAT HER SELF IS NOT SUMMED UP IN HER MANY WHOLE PHALLIC JOUISSANCE I MAGI N A RY F'OSITIONS. I N O R D E R TO REVEL EVEN MORE.I L ?"l ( LACANI IN THAT POS I T I O N W H E R E A L L I D EN T I F I C A T I O N S THATS IT. WHAT I S L I B I D I N A LLY I N VESTED I S THE PORTION OF THE OTH E R THAT ONE CARRIES W I TH I N ONESELF. S H E COMPLA I NS." I N A N Y CASE. HER PERIOD. SHE SPEAKS A BOUT IT. JOU IT. SHE S U M MONS. SHE REVELS IN THEM [ELLE EN JOUITJ. FATH E R W H O W O U L D B E C A PA BLE OF A N S W E R I N G HER QUESTION. DEl THIS PLAY AS J O U I SSANCE VALUE [VALEUR DE J O U I SSANCE1. LET US NOTE THAT. BUT SHE C A N NOT ACCEPT THIS. N O DOUBT I T I S BEC A U S E SHE K NOWS T H A T WOM A N D O E S NOT EXI ST. I DENTI FICATIONS THAT. THE PA RODY OF DESIRE. D E N I A L OF C A STRATION AND D I V I S ION D I SC OV E R H E RS E L F WHOLE. A WOMAN DOES NOT DOLEF U L M A S K . WOMA N I S T H E M ETHA PHOR O F M A N'S J O U ISSA N C E . I T EXISTS. A WOM A N DOES N O T E X I ST. WOMA N DOES NOT EXI ST. W H A T I S A A WOM A N WA N T ? IF SHE T H E OTH ER JOUISSANCE " M I STAKES" H E R I N T E R LOC UTOR. C E LA J O UI T. . BUT WHICH BODY? NOT JUST H E R OWN BODY. M A SC U L I N E DES I R E MUST REMA I N U NSATIS­ FIED I N ORDER TO KEEP THE QUESTION OF THE OBJ ECT A IN TH E PHA NTASY OF A MAN A I M I NG FOR THE OTH E R . SINCE. IN N A RC I SSISM. HOWEVER. A LT H O U G H AS IT IS D I F F E R E NT N A RC I SSISM. IT CAN NOT. WHOSE F'OSITION I S EXEMPLARY I N T H I S REGARD. AUTO-EROTISM. COMMONLY D E F I N ED. WOM A N ? WHAT DOES H E R MOTH ER. F O R THE G I R L. . AND GIVING B I RTH A R E T H E R E A L "MOME NTS" W H E N A WOMAN WHAT I S T H E N A T U R E O F THE CATH EXIS OF THIS R E LATION? BECAUSE. EITHER I N S U BL I M E S I LENCE O R A M I DST U N E N D I NG REC R I M I ­ NATIONS. MOMENT W H E N S H E R U N S T H E R I S K OF E X P E R I ENC­ I N G H E R S E LF AS NOT-WHOLE I N A FLEETING B U RST OF D E R I S I O N ? LET US T H I N K A BOUT THE LADY I N ON A COURTLY LOVE (THE LAUGH OF T H E M E D U S A ) WHO 224 . "DOES THAT FROM WHICH ONE COMES A LSO COM ET' ["CE DO N T ON R ELATION TO TH E MOTH E R FROM B E I NG BROACHED. BY S P E A K I NG . R E LATIONS. THE F I RST LOVE OBJECT A S WELL. OR T H E RE FLECTION OF TH E BODY OF. IDEALIZING GIVE PLUNGES PASSIONATE. WHICH EXPLA I N S TO U S WHY SHE OFTEN C OV E R S HER J O U ISSA N C E WITH A I N TH E FATE ASSIGNED HER IN THE T H I R D PHASE OF THE OEDIPUS C O M P L E X. WHICH SHE WANTS TO ADDRESS TO A N A L L-POWER F U L W I L L ALWAYS T A K E ITS TOLL. I N STEAD OF A N D BEYOND THAT FATHER. L E T US CON S I D E R T H E HYSTE RIC. THAT THE MOTHER WILL BE ABLE TO SAY: "A WOMAN. H E R PRECARIOUSN ESS AS A S U B J EC T ( F R E Q U E NTLY HER STA G E D I N TO IN FAI NTING S P E L LS ) .

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TH E BUT RATH E R M A K E S TH E M R E M A I NDER. I N TH E A N A LYTIC S I TUATION. WITH H E R BODY? S P R I N G FORTH. I N SPITE O R B E C A U S E O F ITS S I L E N C E . WO M A N IS NOT "LI B E R ATED" WHEN TH E R E PRES­ SION. W RITING. (CONFORM­ I NG TOTALLY W I TH THE ROLE ASSIGNED HER I N THE M A SC U L I N E FANTASY). I F S H E A CC E PTS H E RSELF AS D I V I DED BY DES I R I NG.IS A B L E TO E X P E R I E NC E J O U I S S A N C E P E R H A PS WILL HAVE THE GOOD FORT U N E TO ESCAPE B ECA U S E S H E IS E NACTING AN I M A G I N A R Y DIVISION O F W H IC H S H E C A N NOT SPEAK. THAT I D E NT I F I C A ­ THE OTH E R B ETWE E N T H E S E DOES NOT I D E O LOG Y . FOR A WOM A N : IS I T P E R H A P S N O T W R I TI N G ON TH E MOT H E R'S BODY. IN TH A T SPACE SO CLOS E TO ITS MAGN ETIC POLE THAT THE G U I D I NG LA N D M A R KS OF THE PHA LLIC ORDER STOP F U N C TI O N I NG A WOM A N TH E AND NOT SUBV ERT O N E EXPERIENCE WO U L D OBEYING A N ECONOMY O F CON S U M PTION? HOW CAN THE SOC I A L GROUP R ECONCI L E ORGAN IZATION A N D I N O RG A N IZATION? A N OT H E R . SHE THEN WHAT KINO OF IN THIS A RTICLE W E HAVE L I M I T E D OURSELVES TO POI NTING OUT A FEW E L E M E NTS CONT R I B U T I NG TO THE Q U ESTION OF WOMAN. I N T H E U NCONSCIOUS. INSCRIBE OUR TRACE A LO N G S I D E OTH E RS. B U T RATH E R . NOT T O CONC LUDE. T H I S A LLOWS H E R TO STA N O BACK AND TAKE A C E RT A I N D I ST A N C E IT FROM NOT LESS A N OTH E R S E E S P U R E JOUISSANCE OPEN U P BEFORE H I M. SANCE. D E A R TO H E R. I M ITATIVE R E PETITION. ' 4 WOM A N IS NOT-WHOLE. R E F E R R E D BACK TO H E R O W N DESI R E JOUISSA N C E . I N SC R I B E I TS E L F IN TH E ORDER OF DISCOURSE. W H I C H I S NOT TH E REPR ESSED." WHO SUCH I S THE POSITION OF THE M ASOC H I ST WITH THE OBJECT I DE NT I F I C A T I O N S A BO L I S H T H E M . IT SEEMS. IF SHE AGREES TO SOM nI M ES. A WOM A N IS THE PLAC E . IF A WOMAN I D ENTI F I E S WITH T H E OBJECT A A LONG THE PATH TOW A R D T H E OTH ER. A E X P E R I E N C E T H I S JOUISSA N C E . BUT TO WH I C H SHE H A S H A D ACCESS. A LTHOUGH S H E C A N S A Y NOTH I N G MORE A BOUT IT. IF S H E ACC E PTS HER D I V I S I O N . I T ESCAPES I N SC R I PTION. FOR A WOMAN: I T CAN A WOM A N CAN BE POSSI BLE. WHICH PLACE S THE HER IN THE O R D E R OF OF HER A D I SC O U R S E TH I S AND TO PERMANENCE WHICH J O U I SSA N C E CAN ONLY BE DESIGN ATED. AT T H A T MOMENT. THAT D I SC O U R S E CAN HOLE IN THAT O R D E R . FOR THAT R E A SON. SHE C A N E SC A P E FROM A KINO OF WRITING WITH WHICH SHE WO U L D TRY TO I D E NTIFY WITH MEN AND A LSO FROM I M PR I SON M E NT IN THE ILLUSION O F WHAT I S C A LLED A F E M I N I N E W R I TI NG. WOM A N AND WRITI NGIII TWOFOLD S P E EC H . B EYON D LAW THAT IT REMAINS FOR US.K E E P E R OF THE THING A N D I S . A G RE E I NG OCC A SIONA LLY TO REMAIN S I LENT. WHO HAVE ATTE M PTED TO SO MANY RESEMBLE I NCEST WITH T H E MOTH E R ? LET U S TH I N K O F SA I NT TH E R E S A O F A V I LA A N D OF T H E GOO S H E COMPA R E S T O A N U RSE WITH A N I N E X H A USTI BLE FLOW O F MILK. H E RSE LF. T H E "FORGETTI NG. WASTE O F THE OTH E R'S JOUIS­ R I G I D A N D CONSTRICTING. RECOG N I ZE BOTH THE M A R K O F T H E N A M E-OF-TH E­ FATH E R . BUT TH E R E IS A CATCH. S H E W I L L SOM ETI M E S B E A B L E T O SPEAK F O R " H E R S E LF" WITHIN D I SCOU RSE. A T TH E MOST. " I T I S B Y T H I S M E A N S O F ACCESS TO THAT. SO I S IT. W R I TI NG. IT ATTA C H M E NT THE MOTH E R . RECOG N I ZE THAT SHE I S NOT E N TI R E LY SU BJECT TO TH E P H A LLIC F U NCTION. V A R I O U S Q U E STIONS. S H E IN THAT WAY. A WOM A N C A N . DOES SOM ETHING. O F TH E TIONS R E LATION AND WE H A V E N EG LECTED JOUISSANCE C A N E X P E R I ENCE? DOES NOT A PORTION OF H E R JOUISSANCE LEAVE THE ORDER O F D I SCOU RSE I N O R D E R T O SET ITSELF A DR I FT? AT THAT MOMENT WHEN A PA RT OF HER DOES NOT MOST PARTI C U L A R LY. BORES C A N NOT BE SPOKEN. ' 2 E N D LESS." O F THE C A PTIVATING PRE­ OEDIPAL "HE W H OSE BODY IS L E FT TO T H E M E RCY OF R ELATIONSH I P WITH THE MOTH E R IS R A I S E D . CHANTAL MAI LLET AND SYLVIE SESE-LEGER TRA N S LATED BY TERESE LYONS 226 . DOES I DENTI FIES THE A. POS E Q U ESTIONS CONC E R N I NG T H E PHA LLIC O R D E R ? W H A T C A N B E M E A N T BY T H E "FE M I N IZA­ TION" O F A SOC I ETY ONCE ONE SUS PECTS TH A T THE PART OF A WOMAN WANTING TO B E BORN I S ONLY FO R TH E T H I N G.

IN ALL L I K E L I HOOD. L'ETHN I Q U E DE LA PSYC H A N A L YSE. S E X U A L I TY : ' S E X U A L ITY PSYCHOLOGY OF LOVE. T H A T I T H A R D TO S E E M E D AS I F I T H A D U N D E RG O N E S O M E SPEC I A LLY I N EX O RA B L E "FEMALE REPRESSION. TO R EPRODUCE AN I M AGE. 11 9 7 2 · 3 1 . LA FEMME DANS L'AMOUR COURTOIS. PLEASURE. THE 9 FRENCH WILL B E I N D I CATED IN BRACKETS. FOR THE SUBJECT. MONTRELA Y.EDGE:· THAT OF THE PYTH I A PEN ETRATED BY TRUTH. NOT A WOMAN I S NEVER SAFE FROM I DENTI FICATIONS. C A LLY ADEQUATE. THE OBJECTS A SUPPORTING H E R DESIRE ARE N EVER "COMPLETE· LY" S E P ARATED FROM HER. LATED IN JOUISSANCE W I LL 7 SEE LACAN'S S E M I N A R I E XX: 1 975. SHE S UPPORTS THAT I MAGE. COMPLEXE D U PROC H A I N . LOVES THE DAUGHTER WHO RESEM B LES H E R A N D 12 FOR WHOM E V E RYTHI NG I S STlL. EXTR E M E WOR K I NGS HAVE SEIZED H I M . I N ORDER TO AVOI D AN A RB I T R A R Y CHOICE A M ON G BE THE ITS L E FT VERB M U LT I P L E UNTRANS· " JO UIR:' [ 1 9641.L POSSIBLE. 1 1 WE WOULD SUGGEST THAT THE SIGNI FIERS 1 963.) A WOMAN RECHERCHES SUR LA FEMINITE. S H A DOWY. M E A N I NGS. 227 . (IN THIS RESPECT. TO MARKED LOST I N A PAST SO D I M A N D R E S U S C ITATE. 1 95. SHE I S ALSO I D E NTI FYI NG WHEN S H E TAKES THE CATHECTED A S A LOVE OBJECT. SO A N A LYSIS SEEMED ATT A C H M E N T AMBIGUITY. OF COU RSE.. C H A NTAL M A I LLET. ( I N LETTRES DE L'ECOLEJ 3 SEE LACAN'S S E M I N A R O F 1 9 59·60. AT THAT MOME NT. I N T H E CASE OF A WOMAN INSC R I BED I N THE PHALLIC ORDER. RECH ERCHES S U R LA F E M I N ITE.NOTES 6 "TO I M ITATE IS. THIS UTTERANCE CAN BE (AS YET U N P U B L I S H ED. P. HOWEVE R. (TRANSJ E N C ORE. BUT FUNDAM ENTA LLY. AND THE SEE NOTE 7. " JACQUES L. "TO R E V E L. THE C H I L O OCCU P I E S A SPECIAL POS ITION. I T 2A " I N H E R 'AMOU R PROPRE: WOMA N D O E S N O T M A NAGE TO DISTING U I S H HER OWN BODY FROM THAT WHICH WAS HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT. BE PARIS: S E U I L. 2B ALSO F I N DS H E R OBJECTS A UPON HER OWN BODY. POSITION OF S U FFERI NG "KNOWL. N E W YORK: COLLI ER BOOKS. TH I S BY MOTHER·ATTACH M E NT TO M E SO ELUSI VE. P A R I S : S E U I L. "WOMAN'5-BODY" A N D "SAM E·BODY" FORCE U S TO RECO N S I D E R T H E QUESTION OF TH E OBJECTS A. DOU BLED BY THE MATERNAL R EFLEXION. THIS WILL A RTICLE. TRANSLATED WITH THE SEMANTICALLY U N SATISFACTORY. IT THE THE I M PO S S I B I L I T Y WORD " OF ADEQUATELY R E P R OD U C I N G IS TO I N S E RT H I MSELF INTO A FU NCTION WHOSE J O U I SS A N C E ". M." M. 13 I T I S NOT WITHOUT I NTEREST THAT THE ANLAYST SHOULD BE A WOM A N . FREUD TELLS US THAT THE FATH E R I N H E RITS " E V E RYTH I NG C O N N EC T E D HAS IN WITH THIS FI RST THE G I R L'S ATTAC H M E NT TO CONTI N U E S HER BE MOTH ER. LE SEM I N A I R E XI: LES QUATRE CONCEPTS FONDA M ENTAUX DE LA PSYCHANALYSE. MONTRELAY. 14 THE DAUGHTER IS. S H E I S THERE ONLY IN ORDER TO A L LOW THE I M AG E OF THE MOTHER TO BE REVEA LED. WHO.E N J O Y M E N T . CF. P E R H A PS CON FUSION OF CATH EXES A LSO PLAYS A ROLE FOR T H E MOTHER. (TRANSJ THE OEDI PUS COMPLEX SHATTERS A PA RT IN THE LITTLE BOY: IT DOES NOT DISAPPE A R IN THE LITTLE GIRL." IN 10 SIGMUND FREUD." AND ONCE WITH THE MORE DI RECT "TO COME:' IN BOTH CASES.) BACKED U P BY THE R ELATION SH I P WITH THE SAME· 4 BODY. SEEMS TO U S THAT.ACAN. (EVEN THE AVOI DANCE O F C A STRATION?). B U T SYNTACTI· 8 CF. THE PLEASU R E O F S E X U A L C L I M AX­ H A S BEEN M UC H D ISCUSSED. 9 1 73.

AN I NQU I RY I NTO FE M I N I N ITY FEM I N I N E EROTI C I S M IS MORE CENSORED. IT LENDS ITSELF LESS EASILY TO LOSING ITSELF AS THE STA K E OF U NC O N S C I O U S WHOSE ENGLISH FO R C E R E P R E S ENTATION. W H I C H I S W H Y P E R R I E R A N D GRANOFF H AVE BEEN ABLE TO S HOW TO . FRANCOISE OOLTO H A S SHOWN THAT.A N A L D R I V E S W I T H J O N ES . EXPOSES H I M V E R Y E A R LY T O T H E REALIZA­ TION THAT HE IS M A ST E R N EITHER OF THE PLEASURE. MOST OFTEN THAT OF THE FATH E R AND THEN. TH E R E FO R E . ALL THE E XT R E M E PENA LIZE MASTUR BATION." I N A STATE OF THE FI RST. A LL THE MORE A S I T I S LESS OBSERVABLE. O N THE OTH E R H A N D. UNDER C E RTA I N C I R C U M STANCES THEN. OF AN I N STINCTUAL A N D NOT SOCI A L ORDER. KLEIN THAT A N D DOLTO THE G I R L'S ARE R E A L ITY. . LESS M A N I F E ST A T I O N S OF HIS DESI RE NOR OF THE R E PRESSED THAN THAT OF A MAN. OF THE M A SC U L I N E T I O N S : T H E G I R L I S L E S S S U B J ECT THA N TH E BOY TO THE T H R EATS AND TO THE DEFENCES WHICH PARTN ER. IN YET OTH E R PROC E SSES. D E M O N STRATED A SCHOOL. H E EXPER I M E NTS. THE STA K E OF C ASTRATION FOR THE WOMA N F I N DS I TS E L F FEM I N ITY -OUTSIDE NATURE. NOT O N LY WITH C H A NC E BUT A LSO WITH THE LAW A N D W I T H H I S S E X U A L O R G A N : H I S BODY ITSELF TAKES O N THE VALUE OF STA KE. T H E A NATOMY O F TH E BOY. . WAS THE DRIVES BY THE EXTENT O F H I S PLEA S U R E S. ON I N S I STED THE FACT OF ARCHAIC EXPERIENCES THE VAGINA 228 . C I RC U M SC R I B E PLAC E O R IN R E LATION TO C A STRATION. OF OF A SOC I A L WERE? DI SPLACED: IT CONSISTS I N T H E SEXUA LITY A N D CONC E R N S THE A B SENCE PROH I B I ­ T H E D ES I R E OF T H E OTH E R SEX.. AS IT R E PRESSION. T H E G I R L R I S K S LITTLE. O N T H E CONTR A R Y .' O N E TENDS T O REFER T O THE A N X I ETY OF RAPE A N D PEN ETRATION W I TH O U T E M P H A S I Z I N G T H A T . W E KEEP SI LENT A BOUT H E R M A STURBATION. M A I NTA I N F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY OUTS I D E T H E ECONOMY O F REPRESENTATION-THE I NTRICATION VAG I N A L HAVE OF T H E O R A L. CAN L I V E A "PROTECTED" SEXUALITY. S H E LT E R E D BY T H E I R P R I VACY. POSITION OF TH E M A N D I FF E R S FROM THAT OF THE WOMA N WHOSE ON S E X U A LITY IS CAPABLE OF R E M A I N I NG WHAT ARE THE P R OC E S S E S WHICH M A I NTA I N THE EDGE O F A L L REPRESSION. ORDER.. TH E ''CONTI N E NT'' W H I C H C A N B E C A LLED -DARK" T O T H E EXTENT THAT IT I S OUTSIDE THE C I RC U M FE R ENCE OF T H E SYMBOLIC ECONOMY (FORECLOSED). THE FEMININE S E N S I B I LITY EXPERI ENCES R E LA T I N G TO T H E C A STRATION OF T H E M A N :'2 WOMA N . THE G I R L.

MATE R N I TY. RECOV E R I N G H E RSELF AS MATER N A L BODY ( A N D ALSO AS PHALLUS). THE REAL O F THAT OTHE R BODY. E ROTIC E X P E R I ENCES. F R O M T H E GODS: IT WAS EFFECTED I N SPITE OF A PROHI BITION. "LOSE:' THE F I R ST STA K E OF R E P R E SE NTATI O N . T H E R E STOR A T I O N O F T H E STA K E P R OC E E D E D B Y CHANCE. I T IS QUITE TRUE THAT THE VERY S M A LL G I R L EXPE R I E NCES H E R F E MI N I NI TY V E R Y EA RLY. W HICH AT THE B EG I N N I N G OF L I FE WAS THE SUBSTANCE OF WORDS. THE DEFIC I E NCIES. THE ORGANIZER OF DESIRE: WHICH. W E WILL N O T TH E R EFORE QUESTION T H E T R U T H OF TH E CLI N IC A L OBSERVATIONS PRODUCED BY THE ENGLI S H SCHOOL: ALL EXPE R I ENCE OF C H I LD A N A LYSI S CON F I R M S T H E P RECOCITY OF THE "KNOWLEDGE" O F THE V AG I N A. . WE HAVE TRIED TO S H OW T H A T T H I S F E A R (EFFRACTION) A LONE IS NOT A R E S U LT OF P H A NTA S I E S O F V I OLATION A N D B R E A K I N G I N • • . WHICH C E A SELESSLY TENDS TO ABSORB. I S FORBIDDEN FOR T H E WOMEN: TH E R E I S NO STATEM ENT OR L A W W H I C H PROHI BITS T H E RECOVERY OF TH E STAKE SINCE T H E R E A L W H ICH I M PO S E S I T S E L F A N D T A K E S T H E P L A C E OF REPRESSION A N D DESIRE IS. NOTH I NG . THE REAL OF H E R OWN BODY." ACTS AS A N OBSTACLE TO IT. SO CLOSE. W H I C H I T WOULD BE A M I STA K E TO SEE AS THE EXPRESSION IF THI S I N SATIABLE ORGAN-HOLE IS AT THE CENTER OF PRECOCIOUS SEXUA LITY. A S IN THE TRAGEDY. A N ORGAN WHICH I S BOTH DIGESTIVE AND V AG I N A L. E M PTIN E S S . IS TO REDUCE THE WORLD TO T H E MOST ARCHAIC I N STI NCTUAL "LAWS. O R A PPROPRIATE. OF THAT OF THE MOTHER. REPRESSED." "TO M A T E R N A L. A TH I R D S E R I E S OF PROCESSES STA N DS I N TH E WAY O F R E P R E S S I O N : C O N C E R N I N G T H E WO M A N ' S R E LATION TO HER OWN BODY. IF I T I N FL ECTS ALL PSYCHIC MOVEMENT ACCO R D I NG TO C I R C U LA R AND C LOS E D SC H E M A S . I T IS AS IF "TO BECOME WOM A N . P R E C OC I O U S S E X U A L I T Y " T U R N S " A R O U N D A SINGLE ORIFICE. I N CHARGING ITSELF W I T H I N T E N S I TY A N D I M PO R T A N C E A N D PRESENCE. THIS BODY.. "ACCORDING TO JONES:' I. S U C H I S THE L E IM O T I F OF ALL FEMI N I N E A N A LYSIS.ORGANIZED AS A FUNCTION OF P RE-ESTABLISHED ORAL-A N A L SCH E M A S. TIED TO TH E PRESENCE OF THI S BODY. O N THE CONTRARY. FOR THE WOMAN E N JOYS H E R BODY AS S H E WOULD THE BODY OF A NOTH E R . R E PR ESENTATI ON IS T H R E A T E N E D BY RUIN. HERE. A R ELATION S I M U LTANEOUSLY N A R C I S S I STIC A N D EROTIC." ON T H E CONTRA RY. S I M U LATANEOUSLY. A T BOTTOM . F EM I N I N ITY EXPER I E NC E D A S REAL AND I M ME D I ATE. I N TAK I NG FORM AT PUBE RTY. O F SYMBOLIC CASTRATION. FOR H E R. TO TAKE.E X I ST I N S I DE T H E F E M I N I N E U NCONSC I O U S : THAT O F R E P R E S E N TATION A N D THAT WHICH REMAINS "THE DARK CONTIN ENT. IS AN OJ ECT I N EXCESS WHICH MUST BE "LOST:' THAT IS TO SAY. RE-I NCARNATES. BUT. TWO I NCOMPATIB LE. WAS A LSO THE MATE R I A L OF A RCHAIC R E PRESSION. I T C O M P R O M I S E S W O M A N ' S R E LA T I O N T O C A S T R A T I O N AND TH E LAW: TO A BSORB. H E N C E TH E S Y M PTOM S W H I C H SO OFTEN S I M U LATE THIS LOSS: "TH E R E IS NO LONGER . TO U ND ERSTAND. S I NCE IT MAINTA I N S E ROTI C I S M OUTSIDE THE R E P R ESENTA­ TION OF CASTRATION. MORE G E N ERALLY. E SPE­ C I A LLY IN T H E A DOLESCENT. ETC." 229 . IT I S A DEFENSE PRODUCED IN O R D E R TO PARRY THE AVATA R S. WE WOULD H A V E TO SPEC I FY FURTH E R WHAT I S ONLY I NTIMATED H E R E : THAT T H E R E A L OF T H E BODY. TO DEVOUR. WE F I N D AGAI N HERE T H E THE M E OF CONCENTRI­ CITY. BUT AT THE ROOT OF TH I S THREAT THERE A R E D I F F E R E N T P R OC E S S E S : F O R O E D I P U S . E V E R Y OCC U R R E NCE OF A S E X U A L K I N D ( P U B ERTY. BUT A LSO A N D A BOVE A LL. ANXI ETY AND THE R E LATION TO THE BODY OF A N ALLEGED "CASTRATION. H ETEROG E N EOUS T E R R I TO R I E S C O. FAR FROM FAVORING A POSSIBLE "MATURATION." I T IS A P R E S U P POS E D MOV E M E N T OPPOSED TO THAT BY C A ST R A T I O N : WHERE THE JOUISSANCE O F T H E BODY LOSE S ITSELF "FOR" A D I SCOU RSE WHICH IS OTHE R . FROM NOW ON.) HAPPENS TO HER A S IF I T CAME FROM A NOTHE R (WOMA N ) : EVERY OCCURRENCE IS THE FASCINATING ACTUA LIZATION OF THE' FEMI­ N I N ITY OF ALL WOM EN. ANXI ETY. A T T H E FURTHER EXTREME. IT M UST BE STRESSED THAT SUCH A PRECOCI TY. RE­ ACTUALIZES. A N YTHI NG.E . CAN ONLY BE I N S I STENT. I N OTH E R WORDS." THE A N A LYST OFTEN FINDS A "FE A R OF FEM I N I NITY" IN CON N ECTION WITH FEM I N I N E A NX I ETY. IN O R D E R TO BE S Y M BOLIZED. . LATER ON. O N LY THE HOLE. BE IN WOMAN" GAVE TH E ACCESS TO A SHE BEARS JOUISSANCE OF THE BODY AS FEM I N I N E AND/OR S ELF-LOVE HERSELF. CONTI N U OUS. THE WOMAN C A N NO LONGE R REPRESS. IS THE BLI N D SPOT OF THE SYMBOLIC PROCESS A N A LYZED BY FRE UD. FEM I N I N ITY. AS OBJECT O F THE LOVER'S DESI RE. TH E WOMA N C A NNOT DIFFERENTIATE H E R OWN BODY F ROM T H A T W H I C H W A S "TH E F I R ST OBJECT.. I T I S FEA R OF THE FEM I N I N E BODY AS A NON-REPRESSED A N D U N R E P R E S E NTABLE OBJ ECT. W H ICH SHE H A S TO OCC U PY.

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IN

TH E

R E G I STER OF EROTIC FICTION: W H E R E THE F E M I N I N E O R I FICE. O. I S " F A LSE LY" R E PR E S E N T E D I N ITS

SUCCESSIVE M ETAMORPHOSES.

DESI R E

O N L Y T O TH I S

FLESH?" T H E W O M A N A FFORDS A G Ll M !"S E O F T H E R E A L BY V I R T U E O F H E R R E LATION T O N OTHING­

HERE. I WOULD RATH E R TU R N TO THE POETS. THOSE WHO HAVE WRITTEN I N T H E NOVELISTIC O R M A D E FILMS OUT OF THE FEMI N I N E DRAMA
("C I N EMA"'.

THAT I S TO SAY. TO THE T H I NG. AT T H I S M O M E NT. THE SYMBOLIC COLLAPSES I N TO T H E R E A L. FR E U D' A LSO SAYS THAT THE P E R V E R T C A N NOT SEE THE

SINCE TH E L I M ITATIONS O F THIS ARTICLE RULE OUT ANY D E TA I L E D C ON S I D E R A T I O N OF C L I N I C A L

CASTRATED BODY OF H I S MOTH E R . I N T H I S S E N S E . E V E R Y M A N I S A P E RV E RT. ON T H E O N E H A N D. H E E N J O Y S W I THOUT S A Y I N G SO. W I THOUT COM I NG TOO C LOSE-FOR T H E N H E WOULD H A V E TO TA K E U PO N

CASES.

TA K E FELLINI. TH E D I R ECTOR O F J U L I ETTE OF THE SPIRITS. A F I L M SO BAFFLING. N O DOUBT. BEC A U S E IT B R I NGS OUT TH E PRESENCE OF THE "DARK

H I MS E L F A T E R R I B L E A N X I ETY. OR E V E N H A TE-: H E ENJOYS BY PROXY THE THING HE GLIMPSES

THROUGH T H E MOTH E R . O N THE OTH E R H A N D. H E DOES NOT APPEAR T O U N D E RSTA N D THAT H E R

CONTINE NT' S O W E L L T H E D I M E NSION O F F E M I N IN­ ITY THAT LACAN TA K I N G SHAPE THE IN DESIGNATES FROM JOA N UP AS M ASQU E R A D E . TAKES

R E LATION T O T H E TH I N G I S S U B L I MATED. I T I S T H I S E V I L W H I C H H A S TO B E REPRESSED.

TERM

R I V I E RE. "

THIS HATS

PILING AND

O F C RAZY THI NGS. B A R OQ U E CON­ A F I L M L I K E DAYS OF WRATH'v LAYS B A R E A L L T H E M A SC U L I N E " D E F E N C ES" AGA I N ST F E M I N I N ITY A N D WOM A N ' S D I R EC T R ELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E MAN IS TERRORIZED RAISES BY THE THREAT THAT IN

FEATHERS.

STRANGE

STRUCTIONS WHICH RISE UP L I K E SO M A N Y S I LENT I N SI G N IAS. BUT WHAT WE M U ST S E E I S THAT THE OBJ ECTI V E OF S UC H A M A SQUERADE I S TO SAY

N OT H I NG. ABSOLUTE LY NOTHING. A N D IN ORDER TO PRODUCE THIS NOTH I N G T H E WOMAN USE S H E R OWN

F E M I N I N ITY

FOR

" H I S"

R E P R E S S ION.

O R D E R TO R E A S S U R E H I M A N D C O N V I N C E H I M . T H E

230

WOMA N A LWAYS A DV A N C E S F U RT H E R A LONG H E R O W N PATH S P E A K THE ST A N D BY EXPLA I N I NG H E R S E LF, TRUTH, HER BUT SHE W I S H I NG T O

SC R I B E D . FEM I N I NI TY

THE AND

STA K E NOT

IS

NOW

P R ECOC I O U S M A SC U L I N E

TH E

PENIS O R

OOES N O T U N DER­ WILL NOT AND

SEXUA LITY: P R ECOC I O U S F E M I N I N I TY B ECOM E S T H E MATERIAL OF R E P R ESSION. "ACCOR D I N G T O J O N ES" ONE OR S E V E R A L P E RIODS OF LATE NCY CORRES­ PON D TO THIS DECATHEXIS OF S E X U A LITY, P E R IODS D U R I NG WHICH T H E LITTLE GIRL AND THE W O M A N D I S E N TA N G L E T H E M S ELVES FROM TH E I R OWN

THAT

DISCOURSE

C A N NOT B E R E C E I V E D . FOR T H E FACT O F BYPASS­ I NG THE LAW OF R E P R ES S I O N P R E C I S E L Y B Y SAYI N G ALL, AND CONTA M I NATES MAKES TH E M O S T P R E C I O U S TRUTH ODIOUS AND C O N D E M N ­

I T S U SPECT,

ABLE. H E NCE M A SC U L I N E C E N S U RE. THE F R U ST R A T I O N S , WHICH HAVE I NT E R D I C T I O N S A N D CON­ WEIGHED BE ON WOMEN AND FOR ARBI­

BOD I ES A N D ITS PLEASURES. THIS I S W H Y P E R I O D S OF FRIGIDITY IN A N A LY S I S I ND E X OF CAN OFT E N BE

T E M PT

CONSI D E R E D MARK THE

AS

AN

PROGRESS: PATI E N T

THEY DE­

C E N TU R I ES

MAY

I ND E E D

ABSURD

MOMENT

WHEN

THE

TRARY, BUT THEY DO NOT M A TT E R . TH E M A I N THING IS THE FACT OF I M PO S I N G THE D E F I N ITIVE

CATH ECTS T H E V AG I N A L-O R A L SC H E MA S W H I C H TI LL THEN W E R E A LO N E CAPABLE O F PROV I D I N G ACCESS T O E ROTIC PLEASU RE.

A B A N D O N M E N T O F J O U I S S A N C E . T H E SCA N D A L C A N THEN COME T O A N E N D-TH E F E M I N I N E S E X B E A R S W I T N E S S T O C A STRATION .

THE

DE C I S I V E

STE P

BY

WHICH

THE

FEM I N I N E

U NCONSC I O U S I S M O D I F I E D LI ES, NOT SO M U C H I N THE A N A LYST, FOR HIS P A RT, C A N NOT DEFINE THE C H A N G E O F LOVE OBJECT" A S I N T H E C H A N G E IN THE U N C O N SC I O U S R E P R ESENTATIVE, PHALLIC R E P R E S E NTATIVES ARE MASCU­ S UBSTI­

F E M I N I N E C A STRATION S I M P LY A S T H E E F F ECT O F HIS STRUCTU RES. IF THE EXEMPLAR OF THE

LINE,

HYSTE R I C A L, N E U ROTIC WOMA N I S O N E W H O N EVER LETS U P WI S H I N G TO B E H E R SEX, I N V E R S E LY, I SN'T THE " A D U LT" W O M A N ONE WHO RECONSTRUCTS H E R SEXUALITY I N A F I E L D W H I C H G O E S B E Y O N D S E X ? T H E P R I N C I PLE OF A M A SC U L I N E L I B I DO U PH E L D BY

TUTED F O R T H E F I RST "CONCENTRIC" R E P R E S E N ­ TATI VE. T H E L A W A N D T H E PATE R N A L I D E A L S O F THE FA T H E R WHICH ARE ARTICU LATED NEW IN HER

D I SCOU R S E

CONSTITUTE

THE

R E P R E S E NTA­

TIVES CAPA B L E O F S U PPLANTING TH E MODELS OF A R C H A IC R E P R E S E NTATIONS (FE M I N I N E OED I P U S) '

F R E U D COULD B E C L A R I F I E D A S A TH I S "EXTRATE R RITOR I A LITY."

F U NCTION O F

L E T US N O T E THAT T H I S S U BSTITUTION D O E S N OT F E M I N I N E CASTRATION: H Y POTH ESES MUTI LATE THE W O MA N AND DEPR I V E HER OF A

P E N I S WH I C H S H E N E V E R H A D , BUT DEPRI VES H E R O F ONCE AGA I N , LET US TA K E AN E X A M PLE FROM T H E SENSE O F P R EC OC I O U S SEXUALITY. FE M I N I N I TY I S FORGOTT E N , I ND E E D RE PRESSED, AND THIS LOSS CONSTITUTES THE S Y M BOLIC CASTRATION O F T H E WOMAN,

LITERATU R E, K LOSSOW S K I ' S PORTRAITS O F WOM E N E A S I LY LEND TH E M SELVES WE TO A CLINICAL AT THE ANA­ THE

COM M E NTARY.

MIGHT B E SURPRISED

A STON I S H I N G L Y TOM I C A L AND

V I R I LE

ATTR I B U T E S ( BOTH WHICH

P S Y C H I C A L - 'N I T H

AUTHOR E N OOWS H I S H E RO I N E S A N D D E D U C E FROM THEM S O M E P E R V E R S I O N. I T IS A LSO POSSIBLE TO SEE IN THESE ATTRIB UTES THE M A T E R I A L OF A

SUBLIMATION AND M ETAPHOR

IN

A N A LY S I S

AND

MORE THE

S P EC I F I C A LLY,

IN

TH E

MORAL FABLE OUTLI N I NG A T Y P E OF P E R FECTED FEMINI NITY: T H E WOMA N WOULD "T R U E" BE WOMAN, AS T H E " F E M M E" WHO HAS

TRA NSFE R E N C E ,

( I , E"

SET OF U NCONSCI O U S E N U N C I ATION

MOD I FICATIONS P R O D U C E D BY THE

DRAWN

SHE

OF D I SCO U R S E O N T H E COUC H), THE D I M E N S I O N OF PLEA S U R E C A N E M E RGE.

" FORGOTT E N "

HER

F E M I N I N ITY,

AND

WHO

WOU LD

ENTRUST T H E J O U I S S A N C E A N D T H E R E PRESE NTA­ TION OF IT TO AN OTH E R . FOR THIS REASON, IN NO IN RECHERCH ES, TOROK SPEAKS OF ITS M A N I FESTA­ TION: "W H E N ONE OF MY PAT I E NTS HAS ' U N DE R ­

KLOSSOWSKI'S WAY TALK

H E RO I N E ,

ROBE RTE, HER

COULD BOD Y

ABOUT

H E R S E LF,

OR "THE

STOOD' A N I N TE R P R ETATION, WHEN. CONSEQUENT­ LY, AN I N H I BITION IS L I FTED, A FREQUENT

WORD THAT IT CONCEA LS.� I T IS SOMEON E E LSE'S TASK TO HOLD THE D I S C O U R S E O F F E M I N I N I TY, I N LOVE A N D/OR I N A NOVEL.

I NDICATION O F T H I S A DVANCE I S THAT THE PATI E N T D R E A MS A N D I N T H I S D R E A M S H E H A S A N O RG A S M " (A D E SC R I PT I O N OF ONE OF THESE DREAMS

UNDER T H E S I G N OF THIS FORG ETTING, A SECON D ECONOMY LONG E R OF THE D E S I R E, SAME, WHERE CAN THE STA K E IS NO DE-

FOLOWS)."

EFFECTIVELY

BE

TOROK,

BY

I N S I ST I N G

ON

THE

FACT

THAT

A

23 1

P L E A S U R E A RI S E S W H E N A N EW R E P R E S ENTATION IS E L A BORATED. TELLS US WHAT IS E S S E N TI A L

M UST

BE

E M P H A S I Z E D.

IN

R E S PO N S E A N A L Y ST

TO

THE

A N A LY S A N D'S ATES A S A R I LY

P H A NTASY. T H E

ENUNCI­

A BOUT T H I S P L EA S U R E . CONTRA R Y T O WHAT O N E M I G H T TH I N K . TH I S P L E A S U R E DOES NOT L I E I N THE L I FTI NG OF TENSION. AN I N H I B I TION. IN TH E TOO R E LEA S I NG O F LONG. ON TH E

C E R TA I N N U M B E R OF S I G N I F I E R S N ECES­ RELATING TO HIS OWN DESI R E AND HIS

L I STE N I NG-PLA C E . T H E S E WORDS A R E OTH E R : T H E A N A LYST'S D I F F E R E NT. M I R RO R . OF D I SC O U R S E AS SUCH IT IS IS NOT A R E FL E X I V E . BUT A

C O N TA I N E D THE BY

FOR

CONTRARY. EXPLICABLE

PLEASURE. THE CLICHE

FAR OF

FROM

BEING ("DE­

METAPHOR.

NOT

RELEASE

THE

PATl E NT'S

D I SC O U R S E .

A N D.

FO U L E M E Nr')" A R I S E S F R O M THE PUTTI NG I N PLACE

P R E C I S E LY. M ET A P H O R I S C A P A B LE OF E N G E N D E R ­ ING PLEASURE.

OF

NEW

R E P R E S E NTATI ONS. F I R ST

LET

US

NOTE

THAT

THESE THE

WERE

E N U N C I A TED IN

BY TH E OTH E R . V E RBALLY FI RST FREUD AND TH E N LAC A N A N A LYZED THE

A N A LYST. W H O .

I N T E R P R ETING. OF A

A R T I C U LA T E S

S O M ETH I NG

SEXUA LITY

MOTI V E S O F T H I S P L E A S U R E W I TH R E G A R D T O T H E JOKE. WE LAUGH WHEN WE PERCEIVE THAT THE

M A I NTA I N E D T I L L TH E N I N T H E STATE O F N A T U R E . I N T H E "DA R K . "

WORDS S P E A K A T E X T OTH E R T H A N T H A T W H I C H W E T H O U G H T. AND IF THE OTH E R L A U G H S. IF THE

H E R E . T H E R E FO R E .

P L E A S U R E I S T H E E FFECT O F

M I S A P P R E H ENSION P L A Y S ON O N E M O R E REGISTER. THE PLEASURE BECOMES KEENER STILL. WHAT

T H E WORD OF T H E OTH E R . M O R E S P EC I F I C A L LY. I T OCC U R S AT THE FOR A DV E NT WHAT IS OF A S T R U CT U R I N G IN THE

F U NCTION D O E S T H I S OTH E R TEXT. T H I S OTH E R E A R . H A V E ? I T H A S T H E F U NCTION O F E N G E N D E R I NG A M ET A P H O R . THAT IS TO SAY. OF S U BS T I T U T I N G

D I SCOU R S E .

ESS E N T I A L

A N A LY S I S OF A WOM A N I S N OT M A K I NG S E X U ALITY M O R E "CON S C I O U S" O R I N T E R PRET I N G IT. AT LEAST NOT I N THE SENSE N O R M A L LY GIVEN TO THIS TERM. THE ANA LYSrS WORD TA K E S ON A COMPLETELY

I T S E L F F O R T H E P R E C E D I NG TEXT A N D L I S TE N I NG­ PLACE. PLEASURE ARISES THE MOMENT THIS

M ET A P H O R I S PRODUCED. LACA N S A Y S THAT I T I S I DE NT I F I E D M ET A P H O R .7 WITH THE VERY M E A N I NG OF THE

D I F F E R E N T F U NCTI ON. I T N O LONG E R E X PLA I N S . BUT FROM THE SOLE FACT OF ARTICULATING. IT

STR UCTU RES. B Y V E R B A L L Y PUTTING I N PLACE A R E P R E S E NTATION O F C A S T R A TION. T H E A N A LYSrS WORD THIS MAKES TYPE S E X U A L I TY PASS I NTO DISCO U R S E . T H E R E FO R E IN WHAT THEN. DOES THIS M E A N I NG B E R E FT O F

S I G N I F I C A TI O N C O N S I ST? W E C A N D E F I N E I T A S T H E MEASURE OF THE E M PTY "SPACE" I NDUCED BY

OF

I N T E R P R ET A T I O N

RE PRESSES. A T L E A ST I N TH E S E N S E G I V E N TO T H E
W O R D H E RE.

R E P R E S S I O N . T H E M ETAPHOR. BY POS I NG I T S E L F A S THAT WHICH IS NOT S POKE N . H O L LOWS O U T A N D

D E S I G N ATES T H I S S P A C E . F R E U D S A I D T H A T T H E U N D ERSTOOD P E R H A PS C U L TU R A L IN THIS WAY. US TO I NTE R P R ETATION CAN LOCATE A C E RTA I N P L EA S U R E OF T H E JOKE L I E S I N T H E R E T U R N O F THE R E P R ESSED. DOES IT NOT R A TH E R. LIE

HELP AND

IN

S OC I A L

F U N CT I O N O F PSYCHO­

PUTTI NG T H E D I M EN S I O N OF REPRESSION I NTO P L A Y O N T H E LEVEL O F T H E T E X T ITSE1.F?

A N A LY S I S. T H E

F R E U D I A N T H EORY OF S E X U A LITY IN R E LATION TO ASK W H E TH E R PRE­

W A S D E V E LO P E D (MISE E N PLACE) WOM E N AND F E M I N I NI TY. WAS WE N OT CAN

I T IS T H I S P L E A S U R E O F THE JOKE THAT CAN B E EVOK E D I N R E LA T I O N TO A L L S U B L I M ATION. FO R I T I S A N O P E R AT I O N W H I C H C O N S I STS I N OPE N I NG U P N E W D I V I S I O N S A N D SPACES I N T H E M A T E R I A L THAT IT T R A N S FO R M S . IN THE TRANSFERENCE. THE

PSYCHOA N A LY S I S

A RT I C U L A T E D

C I S E L Y I N O R D E R T O R E P R E SS F E M I N I N I TY ( I N T H E S E N S E OF PRODUC I NG ITS S Y M BOLIC R E P R E S E NTA­ T I O N ) . AT THE S A M E T I M E . F R E U D'S R E S E R V ATIONS ABOUT JON E S WOU L D M A K E SENSE: T H E A TT E M PTS TO " M A K E" F E M I N I N I TY " S P E A K" W O U L D S U R E LY

PAT I E NrS ORGASM TOOK NOTE O F A N I NT E R P R ETA­ TION. S U R E LY T H I S OF AIR IS BEST R E P R E S E N T E D AS TWO A

J EOPARDIZE T H E V E R Y R E P R ESSION THAT F R E U D H A D K N O W N HOW TO A C H I E V E .

BREATH

B ETWE E N

SIGNIFI ERS.

S U D D E N LY O P E N E D U P B Y T H E M ETAPHOR?

LET U S RETU R N TO O U R E X A M PLE. W H A T PLEASU R E CAN THERE BE IN THE R E PRESSION THAT IS

T H E O R G A S M . LIKE A B U ST OF LAUGHTER. TESTI F I E S TO THE M E A N I NG-I N S I G N I F I C A NT-DF WE M U S T NOW OF " W I T" TRY TO IN THE A N A L­

PRODUCED AT T H E M O M E N T O F I NT E R P R ETATION? FI RST. LET U S S A Y THAT I N T E R PRETATION. A S I T IS A N A LYZED H E R E . DOES N OT CONSIST SO M UC H I N E X P LA I N I NG A N D COM M EN T I N G A S I N A RTICU LAT­ I N G . H E R E AGA I N . IT IS THE FORM OF WORDS W H I C H

YSrS WORD. THIS

R E D I SCOV E R AND

D I M E N SI O N

PLEAS U R E

JOUISSANCE.

PLEA S U R E A N D J O U I SSANCE

232

F E M I N I N E EROTIC PLEASURE VARI ES CONSIDE RAB­ LY IN ITS NATURE AND EFFECTS. THERE I S VARI ETY IN THE PLACES OF THE BODY CATH ECTED. IN THE LEVEL OF I NTENSITY. I N TH E OUTCOM E (ORGASM OR N OT > . AND IN THE E F F ECTS: A " S U CC E S S F U L"

TION.

DOES

NOT

THE

SUBLI MATED

SEX U A L

ACT

CONSTITUTE FOR THE WOM A N O N E OF THE WAYS O F PUTTING A N ECONOMY I NTO PLACE W H E R E : 1 . T H E S I G N I F I E R WOU LD BE ACTUALIZED I N THE RHYTH M . T H E PERIOD RETU RN O F THE P E N I S: 2. T H E STA K E WO ULD C O N S I ST O F T H E REPRESSED FEMININE

SEXUAL R E LATION CAN C A U S E C A L M OR A N X I ETY. LET US A LSO R E M E M B E R THAT A N E U ROSIS C A N N OT N ECESSARI LY BE I N F E R R E D FROM F R I G I D I TY; A N D T H AT. R E C I P R OC A L L Y . WOM EN PSYCHOTI C S I NTENSE AND VERY

DRIVES. ' o INSEPA RABLE F ROM T H E PENIS ITSELF; AND 3 . PLEASU R E WOULD BE THE M E A N I NG OF THE M ETAPHOR THROUGH WHICH THE PENIS "WOULD

I M MATU RE ORGA SMS.s

HAVE

VAG I N A L

REPRESS" T H E BODY. F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY.

LET HOW A R E WE TO M A K E S E N S E OF TH E E X U B E RANCE. THE BIZA R R E N ESS A N D THE PARADOXES OF THESE PLEA S U R ES? BY R E F E R R I NG LESS TO THE V A R I E ­ TIES OF FORM AND I N T E N S ITY THAN TO TH E I R

US

BE

MORE

PR ECISE:

THE

PEN IS.

ITS

THROBBING. ITS C A D E N C E A N D THE MOVE M E NTS O F LOVE- M A K I N G C O U L D B E PUR EST AND MOST SAID T O PRODUCE T H E FORM OF

E L E M E N TA R Y

SIGN I FY I N G A RTIC U LATION. THAT' O F A S E R I ES O F BLOWS W H I C H M A R K OUT THE SPACE OF TH E BODY.

FU NCTION I N T H E PSYC H IC ECONOMY. H E R E AGA I N . WE WILL D I ST I N G U I S H THE TWO T Y P E S AND OF SEXUAL SUBLI­

PLEAS U R E : MATED.

P R ECOC I O U S

THE

IT I S TH I S WHICH OPENS U P RHYTH M S A LL TH E MORE A M PLE AND I NTENSE. A JOUISSANCE ALL TH E MORE KEEN AND SERIOUS I N THAT THE P E N IS. THE OBJECT

THE FI RST WAS E A R L I E R SEEN TO BE T H E E FFECT OF THE EXPE R I E N C E OF ARCH A IC S E X U ALITY. EVEN I F IT I NVOLVES TWO PEOPLE. EVEN I F IT PRESENTS THE APPEARANCE OF AN A D ULT S E X U A LITY. OR RAISES TO IT

WHICH I S ITS I N STR U M E N T. IS SCA RC E LY A N YTH I NG.

BUT TO STATE TH I S I S TO STATE A PARADOX: THE PENIS PROD U C E S JOUISSANCE BECA U S E IT

M E R E LY

RE-ACTU A L IZES

THE

I N C A R N ATES A I M P LIES A

F I N I TU D E .

S U B L I M A TION A L W A Y S THE PHALLIC SIG­

H I G H EST PITCH I N ORGASM. THE JOUISSANCE THAT TH E WOM A N PLEA S U R E . FU RTH E R E R OTIC HAS OF H E RSELF. 9 I N THIS TYPE OF THE OTH E R'S LOOK A N D HIS C I RC U LA RITY THE DESIRE. OF THE

DE-IDEA LIZATION.

N I F I E R. DETAC H E D F R O M THE T E R R I FY I NG REPRE­ SENTATIONS OF T H E SUPE REGO WHICH RE VOLVE

R E I N FORCE

TH E

A ROU ND THE I M A G I N A R Y PHALLUS. M U ST APPEA R AS AN OBJ ECT O F NOT- M UCH- M E A N I NG. "

R E LA T I O N .

HENCE

A N X I ETY

THAT

A R I S E S B E FORE A N D AFTER T H E S E X U A L ACT. TH I S I N V E R S E LY. PLE A S U R E CAN B E STRUCTU R I NG I N ITS EFFECTS. THE SORT OF "G E N I US." O F I N S P I RATION WHICH TH E WOM A N D I SCOVERS AFTER LOVE. SHOWS THAT A N EVENT O F A N UNCONSCIOUS NATURE HAS OC C U R R E D. WHICH HAS E N A BL E D HER TO TAKE U P A C E RTA I N DI STA N C E F RO M T H E D A R K CONTI N E NT. STEP USUA LLY SUSPENDED D U R I NG CHI LD­ PLACE A FTER THE FI RST SEX U A L

HOOD.

TA KES

EXPER I E NCES OF A D U LTHOOD. IS IT A QUESTION OF U N CON S C I O U S GROUND CERTA I N HAS ETH I C PROCESSES? BEEN PROVI DED LIFE WORK. THE A

PREPARED. THIS

AND

U N DERTAKE

TO THE

EXTENT THAT ROMANTIC I D E A LIZATION IS SUCCESS­ FU LLY M O U R N E D ( R E L I N Q U I S H ED). TO THE EXTENT

WE WILL CALL S U B LI MATED PLEA S U R E THAT WHICH TA KES THE S A M E SURE WHILE FOR MS AS I N C ESTUOUS PLEA­ PRESU PPOS I NG AND

THAT THE D I M E N S ION OF THE G I FT PREDO M I NATES. THE PE N I S CAN OBJ ECTI FY. BY ITS VERY I N SIGN I F I ­ CANCE. THE " D I F F I C U LTY T O B E " OF T H E COU PLE. I N WHICH JOUISSANCE IS LOST. T H U S I T C A N NO

NON ETHELESS

CONFI R M I NG W O M E N ' S ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC. TH I S PLEASURE IS NO LON G E R DERIVED FROM

LONGER BE S E PA RATED I N ITS CONSISTENCY FROM THE MATE R I A L OF THIS HAS A R C H A IC. BEEN FEM I N I N E

FEM I N I N ITY AS SUCH. BUT FROM THE SIGNIFIER. MORE PRECI S E LY. FROM THE REPRESSION THAT IT BRINGS ABOUT: THIS IS WHY S U B L I M ATED PLEA S U R E IS

JOU I S S A N C E EMBODI ES RESTORES

WHICH

RENOUNCED. I T OF A SUDDEN

IT AS

LOST.

AND

ALL

I D ENTI FIED WITH THE PLEA S U R E DERIVED FROM THE JOKE.

IT A H U N D R E DFOLD. FOR IT DEPLOYS
T"'C'

TH IS JOUISSANCE IN DI R ECT PROPORTION TO FORGETTI NG. WHICH I S IN ITSELF I N FI N ITE.

SUCH A TRANSFORMATION ASSU M ES. ON THE ONE H A ND. THE FORGETTING OF PRECOCIOUS F E M I N I N ­ ITY. A N D ON TH E OTH E R . T H E SETTI NG I N PLACE OF A NEW REPRESE NTATI VE OR SIGN I F I E R OF CASTRATHUS. ETHICS I S I N D I SSOC I A B LE F ROM A 'CERTA I N ' RELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E DE-IDEA LIZATION THAT I T IMPLIES ALONE MAKES POS S I BLE TH E

233

OC C A S I O N A L C O M I N G TOGETH E R A N D B I N D I N G OF TWO P E RFECTLY THE D I ST I N C T . H E T E R OG E N E O U S SENSATION BODY IN A OF AN

JOUISSANCE

A N D THE

ORGASM

WHICH

IS

P RO­

D U C E D I N A S U B L I M A T E D ECONOMY. IN T H E FOR M E R . T H E R E S I D U E OF P L E A S U R E C O M E S T O A D E A D E N D . S I N C E TH E WOM A N A GA I N F I N DS H E RSELF POWER­ LESS TO M A I NTA I N T H E THIS FORM OF ORGA S M . UNCONSCIOUS ECONOMY. R E G I STERI NG PLE A S U R E BARS

SPACES.

V O L U PT U O U S THE WHOLE

A S P I R A T I ON

OF

SPAC E

A B SOLUTELY OTH E R A N D CONSEQU E NTLY. I N F I N ITE. C A N NOT S I M PLY B E E X P LA I N E D AS THE EFFECT OF THE PERCEPTION OF THE VAGI N A L C A VITY. IT

OUTS I D E

SIGNIFICANCE

(SIG NI FIANCE).

I M PL I E S THAT T H I S C A V I TY I S HOLLOWED OUT BY R E PRESSION. OP E R ATION. THAT IS TO SAY. BY A SYMBOLIC

ACCESS TO T H E S Y M BOLIC. S U B L I M ATION. O N T H E CONTR A R Y. T R A N S PO RTS N O T O N L Y P L E A S U R E B U T THE ORGASM I NTO M ETA P HOR. O R G A S M . E N D LESS­ LY R E N E W E D. AT B ROUGHT THE TO A OF W H I TE H EAT. IT

CONSEQUE NTLY.

PLEASURE.

FA R

FROM

BEING

EXPLODES BURSTS

M O M E NT

PLE A S U R E .

R E D U C E D T O T H E EXCITATION OF A N ORGAN. O N T H E C O N T R A RY. T R A N SPORTS THE WOM A N I N TO THE

I N T H E DOU B L E

SENSE O F THE

FRENCH

T E R M ECLATER: T H E S E N S E OF D E F LAGRATION A N D THAT O F A R E V E LATION. TH E R E I S T H E R E FORE A CONTI N U ITY OF THE A S C E N T OF P L E A S U R E A N D OF ITS A POG E E IN ORGASM: TH E ONE CARRIES THE

F I E L D OF T H E S IG N I F I E R. S U B L I M ATED PLEASURE. L I K E T H E DREAM AND HYPNONIS. L I K E THE POETIC ACT. M A RKS A M O M E N T W H E N THE U NCONSC IOUS

R E P R E S E NTATION T A K E S ON A N ABSOLUTE V A L U E : I N OTH E R WORDS. W H E N THE ACT OF A RTICULATING PRODUCES ON I TS OWN THE M E A N I NG OF DIS­

S I GN I FI E R T O ITS M A X I M U M I NC A N DESCENCE: T H E OTH E R M A R K S THE M O M E N T W H E N THE D I SCOURSE. IN EXPLODING COMES UNDER TO THE THE E FFECT OF OF ITS OWN OF

COU R S E . ( M E A N I NG NOT H I N G). SWEE P I NG A W A Y A L L SI G N I FICATION. I T L A Y S H O L D O F THE WOM A N A N D C A TC H E S RH Y T H M S . ' 2 HER IN ITS PROGRESSION AND ITS

FORCE .

POINT

B R E A K I NG.

COM I NG A PA RT. I T I S N O LONG E R A N YTH I NG.

TO

BREAK

ITSELF.

TO

D I SJOINT ITSELF. ITSELF

I N OTH E R A

WOR D S . FOR T H E M A N . E XC E PTIONS A S IDE. ' 3 T H I S TR A N S­ PORT A T I O N I N TO THE SIGNI FIER C A N NOT BE

TO

A RT I C U LA T E

THROUGH

M EA N I NG W H I C H E N D LESSLY ESCAPES. ORGASM I N DISCOURSE FEMI N I N E L E A DS US TO THE BE POI NT WHERE

PRODUCED I N S O V I O L E N T A N D R A D I C A L A WAY. I N FACT. HOW C O U L D H E A B A N DO N H I MSELF TO THAT WH I C H H E H I M S E L F CONTROLS. A N D FROM WHOSE PL A Y GAME HE GIVES JOUISSANCE. THE MOREOV E R . TH I S

JOUISSANCE C A N

U N D E RSTOOD A S

WRITING (ECRITURE). TO T H E POI NT W H E R E I T M U ST A PP E A R THAT T H I S J O U I S S A N C E A N D THE LITE R A R Y T E X T ( W H I C H I S A LSO W R ITTEN PRODUC E D FROM W I TH I N L I K E A N ORGASM A R E THE

(PLAY) AND

I NVOLVES A LSO

R I S K OF

DETU M ES­ A N X I ETY

DISCOURSE).

CENCE. 1 4

THE

V E R TIGO A N D

EFFECT O F T H E SAME M U R D E R O F T H E S I G N I F I E R .

A RO U S E D BY THE A B S O L UTE O F FEM I N I N E D E M A N D : T H E WOMA N E X PECTS A N D R E C E IVES A L L TH E R E I S O F T H E P E N I S AT T H E MOMENT OF LOVE I SN'T T H I S W H Y BATA I LLE. J A R R Y A N D JABES S P E A K OF W R I T I NG A S T H E J O U I SS A N C E O F A WOMA N7 A N D W H Y T H A T W H I C H S H E I S W R I T I N G I S T H E N A M E7'v

IF W E NO LON G E R C O N S I D E R WHAT I S PROPE R L Y CALLED PLE A S U RE. BUT THE ORGASM U S U A LLY

DESIGNATED A S "JO U I S S A NCE" BY THE A N A LYST. A S I M I LA R DISTINCTION M U ST BE MADE BETW E E N

M I C H E LE MONTRELA Y TRANSLATED BY PARVEEN ADA M S

NOTES

3

M A RGUERITE

DURAS.

LA RAVISSEMENT DE L O L V

STEIN. GA LLIMA RD. P. 54.
F. DOLTO. 'LA L I B I DO ET SON DESTIN FEMI N I N ,' LA

PSYCHANAL YSE. VI I . P U F.

4

P. KLOSSOWSKI. LES LOIS DE L·HOSPITALITE . P. 1 45.

W. GRANOFF AND F. PERRI ER. 'LE PROBLEME DE LA P E R V E RSION CHES LA FEMME ET LES IDEAUX

THE

'C H A N G E

OF

O B J E C T'

D E S I G NATES

THE

RENUNCIATION O F T H E FIRST LOVE OBJECT. THE MOTH ER. IN FAVO U R OF THE FATHER. ON T H I S

FEM I N I NS: LA PSYCHANALYSE. V I I . T H I S ARTICLE I S ESSENTIA L FOR THEORETICAL WORK O N FEM I N I N E SEXUALITY.

PROBLEM. CF J. LUQUET-PARAT. ' L E CHANGEMENT O·OBJET.

234

6

O P CIT,

p, 1 92

SEEN.

P R E S U P POSES WOM A N

AN PUTS

ECONOMY HERSELF

OF AT

DES I R E STA K E

WHERE THE

7

A

P R O POS

OF

M ETA P H O R , L.ETTER IN

CF THE

J,

L.AC A N ,

'THE

(ENJEU).

AGENCY OF THE ECRITS, A

UNCONSCIOUS: A, S H E R I DA N ) .

S E L EC T I O N

(TRANS,

'3

EXCEPT IN THE CASE OF ACTU A L. HOMOSEXUALITY. HOWEVER, W E MUST B E CAREFUL NOT TO SET UP TOO C L EA R - C U T A D I STINCTION B ET W E E N THE

T A V I S TO C K ,

1 9 7 7 A N D ' L. E S F O R M A T I O N S D E 1 9 !5 6-!57), O N PL.EASURE

L'INCONSCI E NT: S E M I N A I R E

BY THE SAME A UTHOR: 'PROPOS D I R ECTIFS POUR UN CONGRES S E U I L. , SUR LA S E X U A L.ITE IN F E M I N I NE: I N P R E P A R ATION, OF �ACQUES

SEXUALITY OF THE M A N A N D THAT O F T H E WOM A N , W I T HO U T P R E TE N D I N G TO S ETTLE THE WHOLE

ECRI TS, FEM I N I N E

( T R A N S L.ATION IN THE

PROBLEM OF BISEXUA L.ITY H E R E , L.ET U S ONL.Y SAY THAT EVERY MASC U L I N E SUBJ ECT I S CATHECTED AS THE OB�ECT A N D PRODUCT OF HIS MOTHE R : HE WAS 'PART OF THE MATERNAL. BODY. I N R E LATION

SEXUA LITY

SCHOOL

LACAN, J, ROSE AND J . M ITCHE L.L. M A C M I L.LAN.)

8

C F F, DOLTO, O P CIT.

TO

TH E

M A SC U L I N E THEN.

BODY

AND

U N C O N SC I O U S OF

C A TH E X I S

ONE

C O U L. D A L. S O S P E A K

9

CF

p, A U LA G N I E R . LE D ES I R ET LA PERVERSION. SEUIL..

'FEM I N I NITY' A S I M PLI E D I N MATE R N A L. F E M I N I N ITY. WOULD NOT THE SEXUAL. ACT B E STRUCTU R I NG FOR

'0

DRIVES

REPRESSED

BOTH

IN

THE

COURSE

OF

THE MAL.E SUBJECT TO THE EXTENT THAT. PUTTI NG I NTO PLAY THE REPR ESSION OF F E M I N I NITY, HE

EARL.I E R O E D I P A L. E X P E R I ENC ES,

AS W E L. L. AS IN

THE PRESENT, BY THE V E R Y FACT OF THE PRESENCE OF T H E PENIS.

WOUL.D PRODUCE EACH T I M E T H E COUPURE WHICH SEPARATES ' R E TU R N I NG' THE TO M A N FROM HER THE HIS MOTH ER, WHILE HIS

F EM I N I N ITY

OF

"

T H I S PARAGRA PH A N D THE FOL.L.OWING ONE WERE ADDEO TO THE E A R L I E R C RITIQ U E ARTICLE I N IT WAS NECESSARY ONL.Y TO C L.EA R UP A

PARTNER.

1 976,

M ISUNDER­

'4

O N THE QUESTION O F DETUMESCENCE CF LACAN, SEMINAIRE

STA N D I NG, SIGNIFIER R E L. A T I N G

SOMEONE

WHO

I DE A L.IZES THE THE FACT OF OF

1 9 67-68. S E E ALSO 'THE SIGNI FICATION

C O U L. D

INTERPRET TO AN

OF TH E PHA L.LUS: ECRITS A SELECTION, TAVISTOCK AND 'PROPOS DERECTI FS PUR U N CONGRES SUR LA SEXUALITE F E M I N I N E : ECRITS, S E U I L. .

� O U I SS A N C E

O P E R A TI O N

SUBLI MATION A N D TO T H E PUTTING I NTO PLAY OF T H E ' S I G N I F I E R' A S 'FRENZIED I D EA L. I ZATION' (C,

DAVID), I TA K E A S A T R I BUTE-NO DOUBT I N VOL.UN­ TARY-WHAT SOMEONE EXCL.A I M E D

A PROPOS O F

TRANSLATOR'S NOTES

T H I S A RTICL.E, ' S O T H E � O U I SSANCE OF T H E WOMAN IS PRODUCED B Y T H E OPERATIONS O F THE HOL.Y GHOST!' IT CAN H A P P E N I THE A RTICLE LA OF LA FEM I N ITE IS ITALICIZED IN THE FRENCH: C F J. LACAN, 'DI EU ET LA JOUISSANCE DE FEMME' I N SEMINAIRE XX.

'2

IF

THE

WOM A N .

AT

THE

M O M E N T OF

ORGAS M , I N 'WOMA N L I N ESS A S A MASQU E R ADE' IN PSYCHO· ANALYSIS AND FEMALE SEXUALITY, EO. H E N R I C K M,

IDENTIFIES H E RS E L F R A DICAL.LY WITH A N UNCON­ SC IOUS R E P R E S E NTATION, A RT I C ULATED BY THE

OTH ER, THEN DOES S H E NOT FINO HERSEL.F AGA I N PRECIS EL.Y I N T H E A R C H A IC SITUATION W H E R E T H E MATERNAL R EPRESENTATION WAS THE S O L. E

R UITENBEEK, NEW HAVEN, USA,

1 9 66.

"'

I N THE EARL.IER VERSIQN OF THIS ARTICLE WHICH A PPEARED I N CRITIQUE

ORGA NIZER O F PHA NTASY? ISN'T THE ORGASM. B Y T H I S FACT, A 'REGRESSIVE' PROCESS F O R H E R ? T H E R E P L. Y COULD BE IN THE A F F I R M ATIVE FOR

278 T H I S S E NTENCE E N DS

WITH 'SINCE IT CONSISTS IN CONFRONTING DES I R E W I T H A BODILY L.ACK ( W H I C H I S C A R N A L.):

ORGASMS OF T H E PSYCHOTIC OR N E U ROTIC (ACUTE HYSTERIA) TYPE, IN THESE CASES. PL.EASURE A N D ORGASM A R E NOTH I N G M O R E T H A N T H E M A N I FES­ TATION DIRECT OF, A MO N G OF OTH E R TH E THE T H I NGS. BY A THE SORT OF

,v

DI RECTOR C A R L. D R EYER. MADE IN

1 943,

v

THE

FRENCH

GIVES

D E FO U L E M E N T

WHICH

IS

A

SEIZURE

WOMAN

OTH ER'S ON THE THIS

D I R ECT I N VERS ION/P U N ON THE FRENCH WORD FOR REPRESSION: REFOU LEM ENT.

DISCOURSE, C ON T R A R Y , R E L.ATION IS

FOR

WOMAN, HER

WHO,

ASSUMES I N D I RECT

CASTRATION,

IT

PASSES OF

THROUGH T H E M A T E R N A L. HAVE

v,

NOM

PUNS ON

THE

FRENCH

NEGATIVE

NON

AND

( P A T E R N A L.) D I SCOU R S E . A

M ET A P H O R METAPHOR

THE

ALSO R E F E R S T O L E NOM D U P E R E (NAM E-QF-THE­ FATHER).

WHICH.

A S WE

2 S !5

FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOU RSE JACQUES H E N RIC:
ROLA N D BARTHES, IT
H IM S E L F S E U I Ll -BY T H E PARAOOX. W H E N A S ET OF

S E E M S T O M E THAT S I N C E

DEGREE ZERO OF
W I TH EACH

POS ITIONS TUTE TRUE, A

SEEMS

TO

CONSOLI DATE,

TO CONSTI­ THEN I T'S

W R I T I N G , M YT H O L O G I ES

AND

D E F I NITE

S OC I A L

SITUATION.

FOLLOW I NG BOOK I T H A S B E E N L E S S A N D L E S S E A S Y T O LOCA LI ZE YOU A S A WRITER. HOW, LOOKING BACK ON YOU R PAST WORK, DO YOU S I TU ATE YOU RSELF I N T H E H I STORY OF THOUGHT OF TH ESE LAST YEA RS? A N D TODAY , WHAT PLACE DO YOU FEEL YOU

SPONTA N EOUSLY AND

WITHOUT T H I N K I NG I

WANT TO OPT OUT. IN THAT I CON S I D E R MYSELF A N I NT E L L E C T U A L, I N T E L L EC T U A L SINCE IS THE FUNCTION OF THE

A LW A Y S T O O PT

OUT

WHEN

T H I N G S "BEG I N T O J E LL." A S TO T H E S ECOND PART OF YOUR QUESTION. HOW DO I SITUATE MYSELF NOW. I OON'T S E E MYSELF AT A L L A S SOM EO N E WHO I S TRYING TO BE A LW A Y S TRIES O R I G I N A L, TO BUT A S SOMEONE WHO UP FOR A C E RT A I N

OCCU PY I N T H E DISCUSS ION OF C U R R ENT I DEAS?

SPEAK IS

ROLAND BARTHES: I N THE FRAGM ENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOURSE,

M A R G I N A LITY.

WHAT

M O R E C O M P L I C A T E D TO

OF

A

D I SC O U R S E , WITH A

TH E R E

IS

AS

IT

EXPLA I N IS THAT I N MY C A S E TH E R E IS N E V E R A N Y GLORY I N TH E C LA I M TO B E M A RG I N A L. I T I S OON E G E N T LY IF POS S I B L E . A M A R G I N A LITY THAT

HAPPENS

A

FIGURE

GREEK

NAME,

TH E

ADJECTIVE A P P L I E D TO SOCRATES. SOCRATES WAS SA I D TO BE ATOPOS, THAT I S TO SAY "WITHOUT A PLACE , " UNCLASSIFIABLE. IT IS AN A DJ ECTI V E
I

P R E S E R V E S A SPECTS O F COU RTESY, TO T E N D E R ­ N E SS-WHY Non-A N D O N E YOU CA N'T PUT A TAG TO IN THE P R E S E N T C U R R EN T OF I DEAS.

U S U A LLY APPLY TO TH E BELOVED, SO THAT AS T H E SU PPOSE D LOV E R I N THE B OO K I DON'T S E E MYSELF AS ATOPOS, BUT ON TH E CONTRARY AS SOMEONE E XT R E M E LY B A N A l.., WITH A W E LL- K N O W N CASE

J. H.:
AND

WITH YOU THERE OFTEN S E E M S TO BE, QUITE E X P L I C I T LY, A DO U B L E AND

H ISTORY. W I THOUT TA K I N G SI DES O N W H ETH E R O R NOT I AM UNCLASSIFIA BLE. I M U ST A D M I T T H A T I IN FITS A N D STARTS, BY

CONTR A D I CTORY ATTITUDE. O N O N E H A N D YOU SHOW YOU R I NTER EST TO FO R TH E IN

H A V E A LWAYS WORK E D PHASES, TOU CH E D

MODERNS

( I NTRODUCTION

BRECHT .
. .

MOTORIZED SO TO S PEAK-SOMETH I NG I ON IN TH E
R.B. (ROLA N D BARTH ES BY

F R A N C E , TH E N EW NOVEL, TH E OT H E R HAND YOU

TEL QUEL
LIKE

) ON

RECALLING

236

AT F I RST T H E R E'S A KIND OF LITERATURE OF THE HAPPENS WHEN ONE THEN. Irs TRUE. M A K I N G I T C L E A R F R O M TH E START T H A T T H E LOVE R S I INTENDED D I S I N H E R I T E D. ACCO R D I NG TO VICO'S I M AG E .G A R D E P E R H A PS . THERE ARE TASTES. O L D T H I NGS RETURN. SO I DEC I D E D TO HOLD A B Y M I LITATING 237 . I N THE E N D OFTEN BEC A U S E OF AN INCIDENT I N MY PERSONAL LIFE. A LW A Y S A D M I T S T O A T A S T E FOR PLEASURE I N I T . SEE. S I M PLY THAT I H A V E . O N T H E THEORETICAL AND C RITICAL FOR A L E V E L. OF THE NOVEL D I M E N SIONS I MAGI NARY W H I C H E X I ST E D I N R E A D A B L E LITERA­ TURE. I MAKE USE OF TWO A R G U M E NT S : ADVANCES FI R S T O F A A SPIRAL EXTRICATE M Y S E LF. VERY IS MODERN T H E S E C O N D A R G U M ENT WORK ON THE A SSOCIATED THE LOV E R J. P A ST. A FORM WITH OF A TO M O R ROW'S I DO N ' T K N O W I F T H E R E I S A N U N D E RLYING COH E R ENCE. SINCE LAC A N . NA M E LY N E UROSIS PSYCHOSIS. A KIND OF P R O FO U N D D I FFIC ULTY I N PUTTI N G U P WITH T H E STER EOTY PE. LOVER'S D I SCOURSE THE READER. A L I TT L E OVER TWO Y E A R S AGO I S A I D TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD STUDY A CERTA I N TYPE O F D I SCOURSE: W H A T I P R E S U M E D T O BE THE A M OROUS DISCOU RSE.: LET'S GO BACK TO FRAGM ENTS OF A MY LOVE R . BUT OBVIOUSLY T H E Y DON'T RETURN TO T H E S A M E PLACE. H. FOR A WHILE I DON'T DARE SOMETH I NG . WE CALL THE I M AG I N A RY-AND I ANY M I S U N D E RSTA N DI NG ON THE PART OF WOU LD YOU E X P LA I N THE CON S I D E R M YS E L F A S U BJ ECT OF T H E I MA G I N A RY. WITH CON S E Q U E N T L Y M A N N E RS. PAST "WRITI NGS" BUT TO FROM A THE TH E ARCH ETYP E OF PASSIONATE LOV E CAN RETU R N . V A L U E S. PSYC H I C OTH E R S CRUSHED B Y T H O S E TWO G R E A T MORE THAN ATTENTION AND ANY OF S T R U CT U R E S HAVE WHICH A R R ES T E D THE MODE R N I TY. TOUCH OF H U M O U R NATURA LLY. T H E N A P P E O F LA NGUAGE I S A N OBJECT OF A N A LYSIS. THAT NOTION WH ICH OF FROM OF TONG UE. YOU PSYCHOTIC. I T I S THE DISCURSIVE I N A V E R Y W I D E S E N S E : THE DISCURSIVE. W H AT I S T H E COH E R E N C E T H A T U N D E R LI ES TH E S E ATTI T U D E S ? R. A TASTE AS FOR THE TYPED LANGUAGES TYPES OF T H E NON-STEREOTYPE. T H I NG S HAVE N O T A LW A Y S BEEN SO A V A N T.: NO DOUBT. B. I HAVE A L I V I NG R E LATION S H I P WITH T H E LITERA­ TITLE? T U R E OF T H E PAST B E C A U S E I T PROV I D E S M E WITH IMAGES AND E S TA B L I S H E S WITH THE ARE FOR ME A GOOD R. B. A N D I MORE OR LESS T R Y TO THEORIZE M Y TASTE FOR THE PAST. AS YOU SO WELL PUT IT. S T E R EO­ R E M A I N E D C L A N D E ST I N E . LONG WITH VARIOUS MODERN A QU ESTION OF TACTICS. SO FA M I LI A R TO ME THROUG H MY WORK I N A PARTIC U L A R S P H E R E. BY R ECOG N I Z I N G MY ATTAC H M E N T TO SUCH LITER ATU R E I AGITATE IN FAVOUR OF THE SUBJECT IN SO FAR AS THIS S U BJ E C T IS IN A SENSE E S S A Y I STS. T H E STU DENT S P H E R E . AND I T WAS O N L Y WITH T H E PREASURE OF THE TEXT T H A T I C A M E OUT I NTO TH E OPEN. IF YOU W I L L TO AVOID DEVELOPS P R I N C I PALLY I N T H E R EG I STER O F W H AT. AND YOU K N OW W E A RE A C E R TA I N NUMBER WO R K I N G OF ON R ES E A R C H THE WO R K E R S . H. Irs VERY EASY FOR ME TO DETECT THOSE STER EO­ OF M A RG I N A L I TY. NOTION COURSE A N D THE BREAKS AWAY DISCURSIVE. B U T Irs REALLY T H E CRUX OF THE M A TT E R . AND FOR A LONG TI M E I F E LT MYSELF A LMOST J.: THAT M EA N S GIVING A BRIEF ACCOUNT OF THE PROJECrS BACKGROU ND. I C A N HEAR T H E M T A K I NG FO R M . W I T H O U T A N Y K I N D O F H Y POC R I SY. FOR E X A M PLE. RECOG N I Z I N G I N M Y S E L F A N D M A KING THE READER R EC O G N I Z E . ROM A NTIC LOVE. THE E LA BORATION OF LITTLE COLLECT I V E LAN­ WORKS. LA NGUAGE. T H E I M AG I N A RY S U B J ECT IS A POOR R E LATION OF THOSE STRUCTU R E S BECAUSE HE IS NEITHER A LTOG E T H E R N E U ROTIC. B. H I ST O R Y IN COURAGE TO BREAK WITH SUCH LANGUAGES. I F E E L M Y S E L F V E R Y M U C H I N T U N E. I HAD A S E M I N A R AT THE ECOLE DES HAUTES ETUDES. B U T LITTLE B Y L I TT L E I T BECO M E S BURDENSOME.Y O U R TASTE FOR T R A D I TI O N A L LITE RATU R E . I CAN PROVIDE M Y S E L F WITH AN A L I B I FOR WORK THAT I S SOMEWHAT AHEAD OF ITS TI M E. ' " C L E A R TO ME AS YOU M A K E T H E M SOUN D NOW. TI M E THE CONTRADICTION G U AGES. I FIND THE M ET A P H O R . WHICH PLACE. OF D I S­ R E LA T I ON S H I P STO R Y AND I M AG E . AND AT T H E H E IGHT O F "PLEA­ S H A M E FU LLY TOR N B E TW E E N S O M E O F M Y TASTES. OR WHAT I WOU LD C A L L -S I N C E I'M FOND OF S T R UCTU R A L I S M TO D E FE N D T H E D E F I N I N G TH I NG S IN TERMS O F CON D UCT RATH E R T H A N TASTE-MY E V E N I NG R E A D I NG (WHAT I R E A D IN THE EVENI NG) WHICH ARE A LW A Y S THE S U R E OF TH E TEXT"? R. A N D M Y WORK D U R I NG T H E DAY W H E N . TH EORY IS NOT FAR OFF. NOR A LTOG ETH E R D I SC R ETELY S H O U L D B E LONG T O W H A T I S C A L L E D PASSION ATE LOVE. BUT I DON'T FEEL M Y B E H A V I O U R IS CLASSICS.: I S N'T IT SOMEWHAT P R OVOCATI V E TO S P E A K ABOUT "LOVE" TODAY I N TH E T E R M S OF Y E STE R DA Y .: FOR THE S U BJ E C T OF THE I M AGI N A RY .

MAKES TEXT SOM E W H A T R O M A N T I C . T H E S T O R Y B EG I N S T O TAKE S H A PE A N D I S I M M E D I A T E LY I NT E R R U PTED. . I H A V E BEEN P LA Y I N G WITH T H E I DE A FOR A LONG TI M E NOW. O F F R E E I NG ME FROM T H E M ETA LANGUAGE. I S TH E W A Y SOC I ETY P ROPOSES THAT T H E LOV E R S H O U L D R ECONC I LE H I M S E L F W I T H T H E LA N G U A G E OF T H E G R EAT O R P H E U S . A N U N B E A R A B ­ LY LONG W A I T. H. AFTER THE AND P A S SIONATE AND THESE BE­ OF PLEAS U R E OF T H E T E XT I COU L D NO LONGE R E P I SO D E S CA USE OF ARE B R U S Q U E LY I N T E R R U PT E D BECAU S E B E A R A N Y " D I S S E RTATION" O N T H E SUBJ ECT. F I RST OF ALL I NOTI C E D THAT I WAS PROJ ECTI NG OR MYSELF MY LI FE IN T E R M S OF MY PAST C E RTA I N OF THE EXPERI ENCE I N TO I N FA T U A T I O N . TO THERE M E. J E A LO U S Y .: EVEN SO. D I SC O U R S E TOG ETH E R ) . HON EST C O U R S E . THE TITLE IS QUITE SOM E H A P P E N I NG. IS A B EG I N N I N G . OF N I ETZSC H E . H E WHO S A Y S " I " I N T H E BOOK I S T H E "I" O F W R I T I NG. PARTI C U LA R LY ALL T H A T N I ETZSC H E S A Y S A BOUT T H E N E E D F O R " D R A M ATIZI NG. W H Y DO E S N 'T H E CONTI N U E? W H Y NOT A R E A L N O V E L? A R E A L A UTOBIOG R A PHY? G E N E RA LITY O F T H E SC I E NT I F I C K I N D ) . B. THE R E S U LT T H E N I S T H E D I SC O U R S E O F A SUBJ ECT WHO SAYS "I. N I ETZSCHE'S I N FLUENCE. C E RTA I N "FRAG M E NTS" A R E R E A LLY T H E BEGI N N I NGS OF STO R I E S . B E C A U S E T H A T WOU LD H A V E BEEN A KIND OF LIE VERY W R I TT E N " BEGIN­ (f W A SN'T A I M ING EITHER AT A N I NG S . I EVEN R E A C H E D THE POI N T O F CONFUS­ ING F I G U R E S FROM M Y OWN LIFE WITH THE F I G U R E S O F W E RT H E R . A M IS S E D R E N DEZ-VOUS. STEM FROM ME. I ' D SAY. WHO SAYS "I" IN THESE A N A LY S I S O F A TYPE O F T H E DISC U RS I V E . IF THE STORY N E V E R J E LLS. WHO I AM NEVERTHE LESS OR (AS IF A D I SCOU R S E . T H E V I S I ON I H A V E O F T H E A MO R O U S D I SCOU R S E IS ESSENTI A L­ LY A F R AG M E NT A R Y . I H A V E OFTEN WON D E R E D CESSFUL. AT A L L C O STS WITH A I W A NTED TO AVOI D L O V E STORY. CHARACTER. IT IS WHY I CUT UP THE W H O L E I NTO THE A MOROUS D I SC O U R S E . W A S NOT TO W R I T E A T R E A T I S E O N T H E A M O ROUS D I SC O U R S E . I T IS. BUT D U R I N G THE TWO Y E A R S OF THE S E M I N A R I BECA M E A W A R E OF A D O U B L E MOV E M E N T.: T H A T'S T R U E. W H E N P A S S I N G FROM S E M I N A R T O BOOK . A MOROUS D I SCOURSE. THE IT I S THE IS NOT D ISCOURSE OF A LOV E R . BUTTERFLY THEY ARE E P I SO D E S IN OF LANGUAGE THE ENA­ M O D I F I E D H I M CON S I D E R A B LY. TO W R I T E THE D I SCOU R S E OF A LOV E R . SOME E L E M E NTS I'LL B E Q U I TE F R A N K A BOUT I T . ARE A LSO WHAT HAS BLANCE THAT M Y CONVICTION STO R Y . 5 0 ! MADE UP. WHICH INTERVENE. I F YOU WILL A L LO W TH E C O M P A R I SO N THAN TH AT'S WHICH IS P E R H A PS A ITSELF. OTH E R S MY FROM GOETHE'S WERTH E R . AND AT T H A T D I SCOURSE E X P L I C I T A N D P U R POSELY D E S I G N E D: IT I S NOT A BOOK ON M O M E N T T H O S E SORT OF S C R A P S OF MONOLOG U E A R E B R O K E N A N D W E P A S S TO A NOTH E R F I G U R E. B . N A T U R A L LY ON THAT POINT I COULD B E C O R N E R E D I NTO S A Y I N G T H A T I T W A S M E. S I M ULATED A D I SC O U R S E W H I C H IS THE OF A LO V E R . OF "CUTS" YOU FILM P E RS U A D E D T H AT LOV E R SUFFERS PUT R E C E I V E S N O B E N E F I T FROM T H E R ECON C I L IA T I O N .: TO YOU I CAN S A Y A N D YOU W I LL U N DE RSTA N D . I TH E N C H O S E A S U P PORTING A M OROUS WORK D I SCOU R S E BUT THE TEXT A N D A N A LYSED THE IN THAT WORK. OR FROM C U LT U R A L F R AG M E N T S A R R A N G E D IN A L P H ABETIC A L O R D E R .SEMINAR WHICH WOULD BE THE OBJ ECTI VE J. W H I C H I S THE VE RITABLE A R C H ETYPE OF PASSIONATE LOVE . H. WITH BEEN CONVERSATIONS. R E A D I NG THESE "WELL V E RY SUC­ TIONS. NOT TH E IT FRAG M ENTS? R. APPRECIABLE A T T H A T T I M E . UNDER THE THOSE ONLY CONDI­ J. O F PHYCHOA N A LYSIS. B EC A U S E OF A DOCT R I N E ." W H I C H HAD F O R M E THE E P I ST E M O LOG I C A L A DVA NTAGE V I S IO N . SECOND D I S CO V E R Y : THE LISTEN E R S OF THE S E M I N A R PROJECTED T H E M S E LVES V E R Y STRONG­ LY I NTO I WHAT SAID WAS TO S A I D. A N D E N D. R . I T IS NO M O R E M E . BUT WHERE THIS OF COURSE. S I M U LATED. D I SCONTI N UOUS. A N D A C R I S I S IN T H E M I D D L E . M Y S E L F. W A S W E R T H E R B Y GOETHE. . CON F I D E D . I H A V E R E S PECTED T H E R A D I C A L D I SCONTI N U I TY OF T H I S STO R M OF LA N G U A G E R A G I N G IN TH E H E A D OF T H E LOV E R . ANY RESEM­ IS A R E A D I NGS O F THE M YSTICS. LO V E R N EC E S S A R I LY M E . I N A N Y C A S E TH E R E LATION­ SHIP B E TW E E N THE AUTHOR AND THE STAG E C H A R A C T E R HE D I R ECTS IS OF THE T Y P E I N FICTION. A N D T H A T P A R A DO X I C A LLY ENOUGH H E I S N O T I N 2 3B . ST E N D H A L WHAT D I R ECTI N G THE F I G U R E S. WAS EVEN IF I BOOK I S C O NC E R N E D. THEY ARE V E R Y M U C H A PART O F T H I S BOOK. FLUTTE R I NG MOU R E D ROU N D THE HEAD OF LOV E R . S O I ' L L R E PLY WITH T H E C A N N I N ES S O F A NOR M A N AND S A Y I T I S ME AND IT I S NOT M E ." FOR A DO PTING A M ETHOD OF " D R A MATIZATION. WHICH TH E WELL-MADE LOVE COME FROM F R I E N DS. B Y M A K I NG U P A STO R Y FO R HIMSELF IN WHICH THE HE PUTS H I M S ELF. : O N E D A Y P E R H A PS . BUT ON THE CONTRARY." WHO I S T H E R E FORE I N D I V I DU A L I Z E D AT T H E TION: BUT IT IS L E V E L OF T H E E N U N C I A ­ A C O M POS E D LIKE.

I W A S O B L I G E D TO M A K E U S E OF THOSE TO WRITE FOR T H E B E LOVED D E S C R I PT I O N S .: F I R ST A D I G R ESSION: I R E A L I Z E D THERE W E R E TWO TYPES OF LOV E R S . TO HE A 15 I N SOM ETH I N G W H I C H 1 5 STATE OF FOLLY. HENCE DECI SION THAT FOR M E TO P U B L I S H TH I S BOOK W A S IN A C E RTA I N WAY TO SPEAK UP FOR A BY M A R G I N A L I TY NOT ON EVEN THE WHICH IN W R I T I NG A S M O R A L ITY TO D A Y 15 R E I N FO R C E D FASHION. TO C R EATE. T H A T I F O N E E XA M I N ES C U LTURE TODAY-IT I S A L S O ONE O F T H E T H E M E S OF THE BOOK-TH E R E I S N O O N E M A J O R L A N G U A G E WHICH T A K E S I N C H A R G E THE AMOROUS STATE. I N F A C E OF T H E I NVAS I V E PSYC H O A N A LYT I C D I SCOU R S E ? B EG I N N I NG. ONE. M UC H CLOS E R NOTH I N G 00 W E S P E A K OF "MOON STR U C K LOVERS": FROM THE LOV E R'S POINT O F VIEW T H E STORY 15 I M POSSIBLE. LOVE A S A N O R D E R O F A F F I R M A T I V E V A L U E S R E S I STANT T O A LL ATTACK. I N OTH E R A N A LYSTS. F O R ALTHOUGH EFFECTI V E LY IT S P E A K S OF THE A MOROUS S T A T E: .: I S N'T IT A FOR M OF A U DAC I TY TO S P E A K A S YOU 00 A B O U T LOVE. A S IN R E A D I NG YOU . A M ONG THE MAJOR AT LAN­ LOV E R TE LLS H I M S E LF. . REASON A B LY. . H. TION. . I N LAC A N . 50. H . BEW ITCH M E NT: FOR A LONG TI M E I H E S I TATED. E N AMORATION. H. THERE I S A N OR M A LITY OF THE AMOROUS STATE IN PSYCHOA NA LYSIS W H I C H 1 5 I N FACT T H E R E V I N DICATION O F T H E COUPLE. THEY WERE :' TO P I C A L ' T H E Y : ATTRACTED M E BY TH E I R EXTR E M E PERTI N E N C E .: N E V E R . T H E Y E X I ST I N F R E UD. B E LO N G I N G TO WHICH HE APPLIES TO H I MSELF IN A P R I M I TIVE FASHION. B . OF PSYCHO­ R A TH E R FOR. EVEN THAT I C A N 'T S W E A R T O IT B E I N G CH RONOLOGICALLY A F I RST F I G U R E B E C A U S E ITS QUITE POS S I B L E THAT LOVE A T F I RST SIGHT O N LY FU NCTIO N S IN R ETROSP ECT. E Q U I V A L E N T TO AT FI RST AN LOVE S I G HT. BUT AS T H E S I M ULATED D I SCOU R S E O F THE LO V E R A D V A N C E D. ITS A D I SCONTI N UOUS BOOK W H I C H PROTESTS I N A SMALL W A Y AGA I N ST THE LOVE STORY. GUAGES. A IN I N VITING LOV E R TO C E RTA I N N O R M A L I TY. T H I S TYPE OF LOV E R IS NOT C E N T E R E D ON EXCLUDE D FROM J E A LOUSY: J E A LO U S Y 15 NOT PASSIONATE LOV E BUT THE 50 IN A TO DEROGATO R Y R E I NTEGRATE RATE " B E I NG FASHION. B. O N E OF T H E FIGURES I N M Y BOOK D E A LS P R E C I S E LY WITH T H E LONGI NG. 15. I TRY TO EXPRESS THE P ROFOU N D PESSI M I S M O N E C A N H A V E I N T H A T R E S PECT SINCE THE LOVER'S D I SCOU R S E C A N N OT B E C O M E WRITING W I T H O U T E N O R M O U S J E TTI S O N I N G S FO R M ATIONS. PSYC H O A N A LY S I S A DESC R I PTION HAS THE LEAST ATT E M P T E D OF A MOROUS STATE. H A V E I H A D SO ST R O N G L Y THE IMPRESSION THAT MARGINAL BOOK AMOROUS 239 . FROM R A C I N E TO PROUST. AND T R A N S­ A N A LYTIC I D E A S BUT WHICH USES THEM L I K E T H E E L E M ENTS OF FICTION. SO AT EACH TU R N I TRIED TO BREAK TH E B U I LD-UP O F T H E STO R Y . . LET U S SAY. F O R E X A M PLE. A T O N E MOMENT I EVEN THOUGHT OF PLAC I N G A FIGU RE I N IT I A L AT TH E FO U N DA ­ R.THE LOVE STORY. AT THAT MOM ENT OFF THE THE LO V E R CAN ONLY CUT DIS­ G E R M A N ROM A N T I C I S M AND NOTA BLY IN T H E LIEDER OF SC H U B E RT AND SC H U M A N N ( ABOUT WHICH I H I MSELF FROM PSYCHOA N A LYTIC COURSE." ETC . . S E PA­ A MOROUS SENTI M E N T I S F A R TIVE. THE D R I V E THE LOVE R SO OFTEN FEELS IT SEEMS. IT SEEKS MORE THE D E M ONSTRA­ ESSENTIAL LOVE" FROM "LOVI NG. W H I C H A R E NOT NECESS A R I LY C R E D I BLE. O R TO PAI NT. N O T FOR DI SCOU R S E I S FAR M O R E KITSCH T H A N A BOOK O N D R UGS. : WHAT 00 YOU M E A N WHEN YOU W R I TE: "I INCLUDE T H E M I N T H E BOOK BECAUSE THE LOV E R I PRESENT A M ON THE SIDE OF THE W R ITI NG. TH E N I S A I D N O ." 15 A SUBJ ECT WITH THE C U LT U R E OF TODAY. T H E OTH E R TYPE DOES N O T E X I ST I N F R E N C H LITE RA­ TURE BUT H A S BEEN A D M I R A BLY P R ESENTED BY A F F I R M ATION O F A V A L U E . AND WHICH THE BOOKS VO UCH 50 T H E R E LATION I HAVE IN T H I S BOOK WITH PSYCHOAN A LYSIS IS V E R Y A M B IGUOUS: M AKES USE ITS A R E LATION W H I C H . IT DOES THE A LSO S P E A K IN TH E BOOK). I J. A BEING J. ITS SOM ETH I N G THE E V O LV E D C O N C U R R E N T L Y W I T H T H E YOU KNOW V E R Y W E L L A N D T H E BOOK. W I T H T H E N . F I G U R E THEN I S T H E MOTH E R . A D A S H OF PSCYHO A N A LY S I S R. IT DEVELOPED AS THE FRENCH LITERATU R E . O F THE M A R R I E D C O U P L E EVEN . T H E J E A LO U S LOV E R . OR TO W R ITE FOR THE B E LO V E D . AS A LW A Y S . P A R A NOIC. THE T E M PTATIO N . OF T H E D E SC R I PTIONS. : I T S TR U E T H A T I N M Y BOOK T H E R E I S W H A T I M IGHT T E R M AN " I N T E R E STING" R ELATION WITH T H E PSYC H O A N A LYTIC R E L A TI O N SEMINAR DI SCOURSE BECAUSE T H I S J . I HAVE TH E IS PROFOUN D CONVICTION THE THAT THE LOVE R M A RG I N A L." TO "LOVE FULFI L L M EN T .

BUT THE U TO P I A OF A FFECTI VE LEGE OF F R A N C E .: WHAT I S THE TITLE O F YOU R COU R S E AT TH E COLLEGE O F F R A N C E ? R B." W H IC H S ETS OUT TO E X P LORE TH E UTO P I A OF C E RT A I N S M A LL G ROU PS. I HAD TO C A L L E D BY O R I E N T A L MONKS. YOU P R EC I S E LY. .: I H A V E LA U N C H E D A S E R I ES OF COURSES O N TRAN SLATI O N BY CATH E R I N E D U NCAN 240 . WOULD G I V E BUT W H E R E ATTE NTION I S GIVEN TO THE TU RN OF PHRASE. BUT I AM NOT C L E A R A BOUT IT AT A L L.: Irs A V E R Y GOOD Q U E STION. OR TO PUT IT EVEN MORE D I G R ESS A N D. WRITE MAJOR T R E A T I S E . MORE OF E L L I PTIC. I DI O R H YTH M Y . . BECA U S E THE OF ITS S U BJECT. ROLA N D B A R T H E S I NT E R V I E W E D BY JACQU ES H E N R I C STAT E M E NTS RECORDED O N TAPE ON 4. G R O U P I NGS W H O R E A LLY L I V E TOGETH E R B U T EACH AT HIS OWN R H YTH M . V E RY THIS OPEN. SYNTAX. I AM S U R E THAT IF N E XT Y E A R I G I V E M Y ATTE NTION TO C H A R ACTE R I STIC L I T E R A R Y FOR M . ' SORT OF MORA L CODE. PROTECTS H I M . YOUR YOU I N S I ST E D ON TH I S PO I NT IN " L I V I N G TOGETH ER. U N D E R COV E R OF A LITE R A R Y A N A LYSIS I WOU LD T R Y TO D I S E N G A G E AN ETH I C IN THE BROADEST S E N S E OF T H E WOR D . MORAL CODES THAT ARE NOT T H E MORAL CODES OF FAITH. H. LITERARY. ETH ICS W I L L BE BACK. WHICH I S TO SAY THAT Irs NOT A VERY LYRIC TEXT. I AND I F I WANTED TO IT T H E I N V E NTIONS OR N EOLOGI SMS. A N D I C A N ONLY SA Y THAT I F E E L THE WRITING OF T H I S BOOK TO BE SOMETH I N G A P A RT. THE COU R S E ON TH E I DEA OF 1 010- PROTECT BOOK.77 J . I H A V E CENTERED RH YTH M Y . WHAT ONCE U S E D TO BE R B.4. H A V I N G ITS MODELS RATH E R O N TH E S I D E O F AGNOST I C I S M . T O P RO r E C T A DISCOU RSE IT S E E M S T O M E N O W T H A T W H E R E THE COU R S E I S CONC E R N E D I W I L L R E T U R N T O MATE R I A L THAT IS S P E C I F I C A L LY MYSELF R I G HTLY LEAVE S A I D. MORE MAJOR L l TOT I C .W R I T I NG IS FU N D A M E NT A L L Y A QU ESTION OF ETH I C S . I WOU LD L I K E TO R ETU R N T O IT . SCEPTI CISM. I W A S CONSCIOUS TO WHAT A POI NT SYNTAX COULD PROTECT TH E ONE WHO WAS S P E A K I N G . TO BUT I A LW A Y S AS GIVE SO H E L D I N THE N A M E OF TH E " I :' WHICH IS ALL THE SA M E A RISK. M Y B I GGEST DEFENSIVE WEAPON WAS PURE LANG U A G E . TO I N C I TE T H E E M ERGENCE FROM TH E W R I T I N G OF AN ETH I C A L VANI S H I N G POI N T. WORDS WITHOUT MANY IF I WERE A A P H I LOSOP H E R .E DG E D SWORD BECAUSE IT C A N A LSO B E A N I N S TR U M E NT OF OPPRESSION­ IT VERY OFTEN IS-BUT WHEN T H E SUBJ ECT IS VERY V U L N E R ABLE. IT I S A DOU BLE. TH AT'S WHEN W R I T I N G F U NCTIONS AS A N A M E OF A S T U D Y OF L I T E R A R Y A N A LYSIS. BOOK V E RY A LONE. NOT I NAUGURAL LECTU R E TO T H E COL­ COM M U N I T I E S AS W E KNEW T H E M AFTER TH E H I PPIE M OV E M E N T S . SYNTAX IS PRETTY SYNTA XIC.

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SATA N ' TH US BEG I N S THE CYCLE O F A H U M A N I TY DOO M E D LESS TO DEATH THAN TO D I S A PPE A R A N C E. T H I S TYPE OF N A R RATIVE O N LY A D A PTS J U D EO.C H R I ST I A N V ERSION OF GENESIS DECISIVE BEGI N N I NG DEPARTUR E OF A H U M A NITY. COLLA PS­ ING THE I N I T I A L S E PA RATION OF DAYS AND N I G HTS IN A PURE P H E N O M ENON OF SPEED. TO THE E X P U LS I O N FROM T H E U N I V E R S E IT PREVIOUS­ LY I N H ABITED. WHAT THIS I N VOLVES I S A N ASTO N I SH I NG SUCCES­ SION OF V I S U A L P H E N O M E N A . BY V A R I O U S M EA N S. I N EFFECT. T H I S B E I NG ACCOM PLISHED FI RST AS A P H E NO M E N O N OF CONSCIOUSNESS: THE PHYSI­ L I N K E D T D T H A T OF R E L I G I O N AND SECTS. OUR S U D D E N I M M E R­ SION IN OTH E R U N I V E R SES-PARALLEL.D YN A M I C D I M E N S I O N : SEDUCTI O N I S A RITE O F PASSA G E FROM ONE U N I V E RSE TO A N O TH E R FOR WHICH I M PLIES A IN FACT. SHOWS M O S T OF US TURNING I N C I RCLES L I K E T H E BLI N D BEFORE T H E VERY OBVIOU S N ESS OF TH E F A M I L I A R U N I VE R S E . IN FACT. THE AND THE N A VIGATION O F BOD I E S 242 . AND NOT. THEY SEE THEY A R E N A KED. THAT IS." .M A R I E DO R V A L RATH E R FAITH F U LLY BY I M PARTING T H E LOGI STIC ROLE I N I T I A LLY HELD BY THE FI RST WOMA N TO SC I E N C E A N D T H E TEC H N I C A L M E D I A . I ' M WORSE. A S HAS SO OFTEN BEEN R E PE A T E D. THAT B I F U RCATI N G -A N D HOLE WHICH US BE BLACK EXCESSIVE R A PI DITY O F T H I S PASSAGE. THE SEDUCTION-THE " L E A D I N G TA K E S ON A ASIDE" OF A BOUT. THE R E N E W A L OF SC I E N C E F I C T I O N I N T H E U N ITED STATES A N D I N THE BIG INDUSTRIAL COUNTRIES SEEMS TO BE A P PEA R I N G IN THE B I B LE AS THE SEDUCER OF W O M A N . SEDUCERE-H E R E C O S M O. A SEXUAL I N NOVATI ON. A K I N D OF I NCOM PATI B I LITY BETWEEN OUR PHYSICAL PRESENCE D E G R E ES IN OF THE A WORLD AND THE DIFFERENT OF C A L EXPULSION FROM T H E E A R HTL Y P A R A D I S E I S P R E C E D E D BY A N A B R U PT D I SORDE R I N G OF SIGHT THAT C O M PLETELY C H A NGES T H E A P P E A R A N C E O F T H E W O R L D A S L I V E D B Y THE COUPLE: T H E I R EYES ARE O P E N E D. THEY TRY TO H I D E T H E M SELVES. EVEN WOULD PUSH ONLY I NTER­ I N TO THE STI TIAL.MOV I NG G I R L ''I ' M NOT BEA UTI F U L. A N D T O AVOID THE S I G H T OF GOD. WHICH M I LD MAY OR SERIOUS BRING STATES OF ABSENCE INDEED COVER U P TH E I R N A K E D N ESS. I N SOFA R A S ITS P R I N C I P A L T H E M E COMES D O W N TO S C I E N C E-TEC H N O LOGY-OTH E R WORLDS. WHO I N T U R N S E D U C E S M A N . SC I E N C E F I C T I O N N A R RATIVE. THEY NOCT U R N A L A N E STH E S I A CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH K E E PS M A K I NG US LAPSE I N TO SHORT OR P ROLO N G E D .

IGNORANCE. TH E AXIS M U NDI. T H E N . D A N C E . PROVI DED T H E LATTER B E A MOTOR O R VECTO R OF MOVEM ENT. A N D PARTICULARLY THE CHOSEN PARTNERS. I S I NSC R I B E D V E R Y P R EC I SE­ LY IN THE DYN A M I C O F THE WORLD: T H E R E WOM AN I S NOT POSSESSIVE. THEY STI LL S H R I N K AT THE THOUGHT O F B E I NG 'TA K E N I N " OR. THE AND STATES THAT "SEX NO LONGE R EXISTS AND THAT FEAR H A S R EPLACED IT. T H E SEVERE DISCIPLINE A I M E D AT M A K I N G A CREATOR OF A RTEFACTS OUT OF TH E C H I LD. M A N N ER S . M A N U A L WORK. AS A CONSTA N T R E F E R E N C E TO T H E MARVELOUS M EC H A N IC I TY O F T H E WOMAN'S VECTOR-BODY. THE S O L I TA R Y P L E A S U R E THAT T H E C I N E M ATOGRAPHIC MOTOR A FFORDS THE PO R N O F I L M V I E W E R A LR E A D Y A N NO U N C E S T H E F O R E ­ SHORTENING WHICH I S BEG I N N I NG A N D CAN BE COMPARED TO THAT O F T H E SC I E N C E F I C T I O N NARRATIVE I N R E LATION T O THE B I B L I C A L STORY: IT I M PLIES T H E DISAPPEARANCE OF HUMAN I NTER­ MEDIARIES A N D THE E M ERGENCE OF A SEXUALITY DIRECTLY CONCERNED WITH A TEC H N I C A L OBJECT. AND HENCE OF T E R ROR. OF TH E I R P ROJECTION BUT A LSO OF THE I R COLLISION? WH E N A LA I N SCH LOKOFF ELABORATES ON THE REPLACE M E N T OF E ROTIC O R PORNO FIILMS BY HORROR F I L M S. " N A T U R E " A N D ITS W E A K N E S S E S . U N I V E R S A L H E A V I N E SS." I M PORTA N C E O F SUCH A MODIFICATION OF FORMERLY. IS AN IDEAL VECTOR BETWEEN M A N A N D THE NEW WORLD. A SPACE-TI M E ESSEN­ TIALLY DIFFERENT S I N C E E X P E R I ENCED A S MOBILE. ALL ON LY BRI NGS TO LIGHT T H E VERY FOU N DATION OF EVERY M E A N S OF S EDUCTION: TO ATTRACT T H E L O O K I S TO C A PT U R E A N D T H U S D I V E RT T H E ATTENTION. ALL THAT CONCU R S OR COMPETES WITH IT. IN A WORLD W H E R E TECHNOLOGICAL PROGRESS CORRESPONDS TO THE UTI LIZATION A N D QUEST O F SUPER ROGATORY SPEEDS. 2 M OV E M E N T A THIRD PA R T N E R . T H E HORROR FILM THEN SUCCEEDS AS A M ATTER O F COURSE THE E ROTIC F I L M A S A M O R E PERFECT F U L F I L L M E N T OF THE L A W OF MOV E M E NT. CONDUCTIVE. F R O M S O M ETH I N G I M M U T A B L E TOW A R D ANOTH E R REGION OF T I M E . POSSESSED OR POSSESSING BUT ATTRACTIVE. S H E H A S U P TILL NOW E FFECTI VELY ORGA N I ZE D A L L THAT I S SPEED. TRAN S FORMABLE. TH I S FORCE O F ATTRACTION I S IN FACT G R A V I TATION. FEAR I S P R E C I S E LY BECA USE THE LATTE R IS TRAVERSED IN A PHENO­ M ENON OF SPEED S U C H THAT THE ANTICI PATION OF A N ACC I D E NT OCCU R S I N STANTLY." T H E A N C I E N T S T H U S E ST A B L I S H I N G A D I R E C T R ELATION BETW E E N W H A T I S C O N V E NTIONALLY CALLED ORIGI N A L SIN AND T H I S TERRESTRIAL PULL W H I C H T H E Y C O N S I D E R E D TO BE T H E F I R ST NATURAL MOTOR OF T H E F R E E A CC E LE R ATION OF BOD I ES. G A V E T H ESE S U P POSEDLY I N NOCENT L A S S E S A G R EATER TECHNICAL RELIABI LITY FOR THE EXECUTION OF AN E N DLESSLY R E PEATED S E R I E S O F M A N E U V E R S INTENDED T O S U BJ UGATE THOSE AROUND THE M . B U T A LSO T O H E R LACK O F P ERSONA L I NTELLIGENCE. MORE LITERA L LY. 3 DEPORTMENT. T H E LEADING A S I D E MASS SENSIBI LITY M UST NOT BE U N D E RESTI M ATED. IN F A CT. W H I L E G I R LS O F TODAY M A Y CONDESC E N D T O L E T GUYS "PICK TH E M UP. THE B U T TH I S WAY OF FOLLOWI N G FASHION. A S THE C REATION OF A SECOND U N I VERSE WHICH WOULD DEPEND ENTI REL Y UPON T H I S I NITIAL RITE." I N T H E B I B LI C A L N A R RATIVE. OF S E D UCTION." THE E P I SODE I N GENESIS OF THE ONE R E V E A L S THAT TH E RITE OF PASSAGE ACCOM P L I S H M E N T LEADING FROM U N I V E R S E T O A N OTH E R PRODUCES NOT O N L Y A M ETAMORPHOS I S O F SIGHT BUT A N I M M EDIATE CAMOU FLAGE AND CAREFUL D I S S I M U LATION O F THE BODY. I S N 'T THE "SIN" OF THE F I RST MAN COMMONLY CALLED T H E "FALL. ALL THAT H A S A PART I N THE MOV E M E N T OF M AN's LIFE. M I STRESS OF PASSAGE. I N O R D E R TO ENJOY I N THE I R C O M P A N Y T H E SELF-INVOLUTION ASSOCIATED W I T H HITTING T H E ROAD. A N OPTICAL I LLUSION I N A U N I V E R S E ITSELF P E R C E I V E D WHOLELY AS I LLUSORY A N D WHERE D I SS I M U LATION TRI U M PH S AS A SYNDROME OF MOVE M E NT. THIS B E LOVED WHO A CCOR D I N G TO NOV A L I S 15 THE S U M M A R Y OF THE U N I VE RS E AND TH I S U N IVERSE WHICH 1 5 ONLY T H E EXTENSION O F T H E BELOVED.S E N S E S. A N D F I N E R Y WERE U S E F U L I N CAMOUFLAGI NG PHYSIOLOG I C A L I D E N TI T Y . THE I N STITUTIONS FOR THE EDUCATION OF LITTLE G I R LS H A D COMPA RABLE ENDS. H E R E O N E MAY LAW OF R E C A L L H A N N A H A R E N DT ' S R E F L E C T I O N THAT "TERROR 1 5 T H E FULFI LLM E NT OF THE S I M U LA TA N EO U S W I T H SEDUCTION MOVEMENT. OF C O N FO R M I NG T O U S A G E S A N D T O C O D E S . OF B E I N G TOLD TO " G O GET LOST. W H O W E R E TH E I R SOLE E FFECTIV E PROTECTION A GA I N ST 243 . S O RIGOROUSLY R E SPECTED I N THE MOST I NDUSTR I A L­ IZED COU N T R I E S EVEN AS FAR AS TH E R E P U L S I V E ATTITUDES A N D P U N K OF THE LAST FEW YEARS. NO LONG E R IS TH E R E A COUP L E BUT A T R I LOG Y O F SORTS: THE SOLITARY MOVEM ENT OF SEDUCERE OR THE SEXUAL COU PLING THAT R E QU I R E S I NT E R D E P E N D E N T IMPLIES TERRITORIAL BODy. I NDEED SEXUAL I NDIFFERENCE." SOMEWHAT A S THOUGH H ITCH ­ H I K ING. THE BODY OF WOM A N THUS CONFOU N D E D WITH A BODY OF COM M U N ICATIONS.

A N D T H E U N I VERSE OF W A R THAT W I LL I N STANTLY PUT M A N I NTO T H E WO M A N ' S P A S T . W I LL CONJUGAL B E D A COLD A N D DEFIN ITIVE HATRED FOR HER AWKWARD HUSBAND. THUS. BUT W H AT IS AIMED AT H ERE AG A I N IS THE R ELEGATION O F T H E PARTN E R . I N V E RS E L Y . MEAN LABOR. A N D IT BECOMES NECESSRY­ I N O R D E R TO S E E -TO I NTRODUCE. OF COMM UTATION P E R SONS D O E S N O T ABOLISH T H E I N A C C E S S I B I LITY WHICH PREVIOUSLY C R EATED T H E S E P A RATION OF D I STANCE AND A PA RTNESS. W H I LE H A V I N G TOTA LLY FORGOTT E N W H AT THEY D I D A M O M E N T A G O . A N D COMMON O N E D I SCOV E R S I N LOVER' MODALITIES A PENDU­ L U M E FFECT SUGGESTIVE OF THIS KIND OF LEADING ASIDE: THE S UFFRAGETTES O R T H E GROUPS FOR WOMEN'S LIBERATION NOTICEABLY A FT E R D EMONSTRATE MORE WARS. SO M E W H AT LIKE I N THE DISASTER F I L M S SHOT BY STUNTM E N REAL TIME. L I TT L E B Y L I TT L E THE T R A G I C C H ARAC­ TER OF THE N ECESSITY TO SEDUCE A ND TO KEEP ON SEDUCI NG IS REVEALED: IT IS LIKE AN WITH V I S I O N I T S E L F . A TRUE E F F ECT OF A N A MO R P H O S I S . IN THE VERY R A P­ PROC H E M E NT OF "LOVE M A K I NG" THE TEC H N I C A L EXPERTISE C R E ATES OF THE SEDUCER OR SEDUCTRESS THE I M M EDIATE NOT SEX OBJ ECTS. W H A T T H E MOVE M E N T OF R O M A N T I C PASSIONS I N LlSZT'S FORMULA SHOWED. THE YOUNG V I RG I N'S MOTILE P E R FOR M A N C E A L R E ADY A N NOUNCES THE CLAIM OF THE "WO M E N I N MOVEM ENT' OF M LF (THE FRENCH WOMEN'S L I B E RATION MOV E M ENT>: WE ARE R E D UCTION OF T H E S P E E D OF CONQU E ST A N D OF A R E C I P RO C A L I N VI S I B I LITY. WHICH C A N NOT B E P ROJ ECTED I N S I N C E THE S U D­ B E FO R E OR D U R I NG T H E R EVOLUTIONS A N D WARS.A MAN'S SOC I ETY WHICH CON D E M N E D TH E LIKE AN ACCELERATION OF THE I R R E S I ST I B L E DOW E R I E D GI RLS TO AN E A R LY M A R RIAGE A N D THE OTH E R S TO THE CONVENT. I NV I S I BLE TO TH E COMMON EYE. THE CHEAP D I S A P PE A R A N C E O F T H E PARTN E R OR PA RTN E R S I N S P A C E A N D TI M E : T O L E A D T H E M A S I D E I S TO L E A D T H E M TO NOT H I N G N ESS. B U SI N ES S . S I M I LA R L Y . CONFLICTS DEADLY TO M A LES. THE GREAT H A B I TS SO MUCH A PA RT OF TH E DA I LY R EG I M E N T H A T T H E Y A R E A L R E A DY K NOWN A N D E XPECTED BY THE P A RTN E R . TRAVELO. OR DRAG Q U E E N ) . A S DESC R I B E D B Y COLON E L D E LA I R . F I N A LLY. ROMANTIC PERIODS D E V E LO P ON THE CONTR A R Y S I N C E THE "ANGLE O F T E M PORAL VISION" CHANGES TO SUCH A N EXTENT I N THE AGED THAT T H E Y C A N T A L K A BOUT A N E V E N T OF FORTY Y E A R S A G O A S I F I T H A D H A PP E N E D T H E S A M E D A Y . T H E REMARK CONTAI N S BOTH THE NOTI O N OF A V E STI S M . M A Y D I E " I S C E RTAI N LY R E A L ENOUGH A N EVENT. COM PA RABLE TO THAT OF THE TRAN SVESTITE (ONE USED TO SPEAK IN FOR M E R A TIMES WORD MORE WHICH P R E C I S E L Y O F TRANS· A LSO S U GG ESTS TH E " M A N Y WOM E N H A V E LOVE D T H E M S E L V E S I N M E . TH E SENTI M E NTAL. THAT OF T H E GREAT N A V IGATION O F THE SPECIES. THE T I M E O F THE N A R RATIVE A PP E A R S T O BE I NCOMPATI B L E SO-C A L L E D " W A R M A R R I AGE" E P H E M E R A L I N MOST CASES. TH E D E N N ESS OF A C C I D E N T I M PL I E S SO M A N Y EVE NTS U N FO L D I N G I N SUCH A COMPRESS E D T I M E T H A T T H E C O M M O N E Y E C A NNOT R ECORD T H E M A L L A N D T H U S M E R E LY S U M M A RIZES TH E M . 4 AS TIME PASSES. SLOW·MOTION. THUS EACH T R I E S TO I N STALL T H E OTH E R IN A B E S I DES. NOT OUT OF MODESTY. EACH SPOUSE BECOMES I N V I S I B L E TO T H E OTH E R S I M PLY ON ACCOU N T O F T H E R E PETITION O F A L I M ITED N U M B E R OF SIGNS. H E W I L L B E R E J ECTED. T H E CON­ FOR M I S M OF H A B I T C R E ATES A K I N D OF NARRATI V E TH E SUM MARY. " S A I D F R A N Z LI SZT. TH E H A ST I L Y C O N ­ WILL B E U N D E R ST A N DA B LY. H Y M EN'S RITE O F P A S S A G E OFTEN SHE IS NO LONGER DRAW FROM HER TH E TECH N I C A L FATALITY A N D MORE P R EC I S E LY T H E TEC H N I Q U E OF WAR. PROSTI ­ TUTION OR DESTITUTION. EXORBITANT I NFLATION O F TH E LAW O F MOV E M E N T A N D OF THE VECTORI A L F AC U LTIES OF T H E BODY. CLUDED. A N D TO T H I S EXTENT THE S E D UCTIVE ACTI V I TY I NT E R F E R E S WITH T H E ROMA NTIC NOVELS C A N STOP A T T H E WEDDING." THE YOUNG W O M A N ' S "G I V I N G SOLDIER H ER S E L F TO THE MOBILIZED BECAUSE HE B E FO R E H I S DEPARTURE. WH E N T H E SOLDI E R HAS THE BAD IDEA OF R E T U R N I NG SAFE AND SOU N D TO T H E PRESENT OF H I S WIFE. IN A N O L D COUPLE. I T I S A N A RT W H I C H M UST B E CEASE LESSLY I N T R A N S FO R M ATION A N D WHICH DOESN'T ESCAPE T H E G E N E R A L LAW OF T H E WORLD: TO STA N D STI LL I S TO D I E . ODORS. T H I S I S A P R E L U D E T O OTH E R U N I VE R S E S O F S P E E D ( F A S T OR SLOW). T H U S THE M I LITARY MOBI LIZA TION I S S U BSTITUTED FOR THE LOV E R S' " T R A N S PORT. BUT BECAUSE THE TEC H N I C A L E X PLOIT OF T H E Y O U N G W O M A N THERE R E A C H E S ITS END. H I M S E L F A GREAT SEDUCER. D E F E R R E D T I M E . TlHROUGH 244 . A D I SOR D E R I NG OF SIGHT. S H E H A S LED H E R SPOUSE T O H E R S I D E . I T I S A LWAYS EASY TO A N N I H I LATE T H E PARTN E R WITHOUT A S M UCH A S L E A V I N G H I M O R HER FOR A SECON D. PARA DOXI C A L LY . TH E CONTRADICTION. TO A RAGON'S MOTTO WOMAN IS THE FUTURE OF MAN THE MLF OPPOSES ITS MAN IS THE PAST OF WOMAN.

T O SEE WOM EN OF THE H I G H EST RANK M EA S U R E THEM­ SELVES AGAI N ST P U B L I C WOM E N AND EMBARK ON VERITABLE M A R AT H O N S . TH E Y H A V E K I LLED TH E SPOUSE. A N D T H E S E A R E S I G N I FICA NTLY AMONG T H E THEMES W H I C H H A V E C REATED TH E I R U N A N I M ITY. FOR E X A M PLE. FOR FREDERICK I I'S "TO SERVICES O F A M A I D . TH E ACCELERATION O F THE RITE OF PASSAGE C L E A R L Y I M PL I E S T H E PRESENCE OF T H E T E R R I TO R I A L BODY A S THI R D PARTNER. THE SEDUCERE C A N N O MORE B E R E D U C E D TO SEXUAL COM M E R C E TH A N THE . TO BETWEEN M ETA BOLICS A N D TEC H N IQ U E . PROPOS I N G I N STE A D THOSE OF H I S ARMS S E R V A NT: "MY MAN K NOWS HOW TO TAKE CARE OF M Y A RMOR. FROM THE C E L I N ESQUE PRODUCT OF M U RD E R OR S I M PLY AS A VECTOR OF VOYAGE GIVES WAY TO THE LIBERATION OF T H E NEW 245 ." IN THIS ABSURD IT. s A N D O F THEIR PRESENCE E S P E C I A LLY TH E I R O W N PROG E N Y . CONC E R N E D ONLY T O F I N D TH E L I M I T O F H I S FORCE'S EXPAN­ SION." T H E H A ST E WITH WHICH A L E X A N D E R T H E G R E A T DROVE ON. R I D OF T H E CORSET. OUTPUT MON A R C H S OR RATH E R "POLEM A RC HS" . I N V E R S E LY. U N D ERSTAN DS AS C L A U S E W ITZ. THE S URVIVORS AND O U T . NOU R I SH I NG FOR THO S E STI L L TH EMS ELVES. WOMA N I N H E R TURN W I L L A B A N DON THE CORSET . WAS A C O M P ETITION RATH E R THAN AN O P PO S I T I O N AND SHE H US B A N D K I LL E D THE I S G I V E N THE O P PORTU N I TY . ONE IS STRUCK BY THE PHYSICAL A U ST E R I TY OF THE C E L E BRATED H I S EFFORTS WITH THOSE OF H I S E N E M I E S I N O R D E R T O COM P L E T E THE D E S T R U C T I O N OF HIS OWN PEOPLE B Y A N N I H I LATING T H E LAST R ESOU RCES O F TH E HOM E L A N D-WE F I N O OURSELVES NOT A T T H E OPPOSITE B U T RATH E R A T DELIRIOUS APOGEES O F T H E SEDUCTI V E ACTI VITY' ? COURTESANS. THE PHYSIOLOG I C A L I D ENTITY S E E M S TO D I S A P P E A R B E H I N D T H E A PP E A L OF A 'TEC H N I C A L VALORIZATION SUCH THAT M A N Y OF T H E S E WOM E N WILL CONTI N U E TO EXERCISE TH E I R F U NCTION IN FACT. WHO W I L L K E E P O N GETTING PA I D FOR TH E I R S E R V I CES. O R T O TH I S TELEGRA M -" I F T H E W A R I S LOST. N O R . AND CLI M B I N TO F A ST BY­ "MOST OF THE TIME LOVE IS A BY-PRODUCT OF VEHICLES. AT THE OUTSET O F THE 20TH C ENTURY. L'HOM M E FATAL A L R E A D Y RECOGNIZES H I MSELF A S TH E PAST OF H I S WIFE: H I S S P A R K L I N G S H I ELD. HERE A S W E LL. LET THE NATION SUCC E E D I N G OR O P POS I NG L'HO M M E FATAL (THE PERISH"-I N WHICH H I T L E R D EC I D E S TO COM B I N E WARRIOR).P RODUCT O F LOVE. HAS A GREAT FORCE OF SYMBOLIC TRANSCENDENCE SINCE IT REFERS UNTIL A V E R Y A D V A N C E D AGE. " THE M YSTER Y WRITER AGATHA C H R I ST I E LO V E D TO R E P E AT. BUT ALSO T H E D R I V E R'S GLANCE AT THE COM M A N D. TH E WO M E N OF TH E M L F DEVELOP A SI M I LA R ATTITU D E : THEY PREACH T H E PARTN E R'S LIB ERATION IN THE M A N N E R OF T H E OLD W I DOWS: CURE US OF LOVE I S O N E O F TH E I R S LOGA N S. H E R E AGA I N . HARMFUL ALL W I L L SOON WITH THE SPEEDOMETER OF TH E R A C I NG-CA R. ABORTI O N . O R O F COMBAT AS THE EXISTENTIAL M EASURE OF THE WARRIOR'S EVEN. IT WAS NOT RARE EITHER T O S E E O N E O F T H E M R E A C H TH E S U M M I T O F TH E STATE H I E R A RC H Y. ACHIEVING SPEED D I RECTLY T O M U R DE R A S A BY. ADVANCE IS TO CONQUER.J UST LIKE M E N . NO LONGE R G O I N G A BARELY D I SG U I SED H A T R E D ALIVE. M E RC I LESS SOC I A L RECORDS I N TH E CONVEYA NCE O F PASSENGERS ON TH E HIGH SEXUAL VOYAGE . A LL O F T H I S TAKES THE ULTIMATE FOR M OF A NEW. BECOM E H I S COMBAT F I NERY.JUST W H E N T H E A R M A M ENT O F T H E R A C E R A N D T H E R A C E T O A R M S A RE BECOM I NG PHENOMENA O F SOC I ETY. USELESS.6 THESE PERPETU A L A S S A U LTS A G A I N S T DISTANCE A LSO R EPRODU C E I N D E F I N I TE LY THE I N I T I A L RITE OF PASSAGE. "SURELY H E CAN LACE UP YOU R CORSET. THE FEMME FATALE I S R A R E LY A PR ETTY WOMA N : RATH E R S H E IS WORSE.THE I N C R EA S E OF E N E RG Y AND THE SUPER C H A RACT E R C H I LD R E N WHENEVER WHO E X H I B I TS THE R E LICS IN OF HER WAR ACCELERATION O F T H E LOV E RS' T R A N S PORT. A N A B R I DG M E N T O F THE U N I VERSE M A D E POSSIBLE B Y T H E S P E E D O F T H E ASSA U LT. B EG I N N I N G O F H I G H L Y TECH NOLOGICAL WARFARE. S H E C A N DEVOTE H E R S E LF TO COMPETITI V E S PO RT S . ACTI V I T I Y O F THE POLE­ IN S H A K E S P E A R E' S T H E TA M I N G ROUGHLY REFUSES OF THE HIS SHREW. TH E FATH E R A N D T H E C H I LD. SEVENTY TO E I GHTY FOR SOME OF T H E M . TH E S E D UCTION O F WOMAN AS A M UR D E R ." H E SAYS. TH E PETR U C H I O WIFE MARCH O R CONQ U E R O R CAN B E COM P A R E D TO A "H U M A N COM M E RCE. WORLD. A VALORI­ ZATION O F TH E RITES O F PASSAGE AND OF TH E I R NUMBER TO THE D E TR I M E N T O F THE BOD I E S IN THE THOSE W I DOWS WHO A S SU M E TH E I R B E R E A V E M E N T AS A P R I V I LEDGED POSITION. I N FLU­ ENCE AND MONEY." SUCH EXAM PLE. BEING-ALL I NVOLVE A VERTIGINOUS FLDW OF TIME. I N THE U N ITED STATES. ' A N D B Y THE CONTRAST I T OFFERS WITH TH E M AG N I FI C E N C E O F TH E I R F I N E R Y AND THE B R I L L I A N C E OF TH E I R A R M S O F S EDUCTION. THAT AND WORKI NG TO SUCH A THEY WERE CONSIDERED STRUGG L E BETWEEN CLIQUES THAT H A V E BECO M E HOMOS E X U A L I N T H E PURSUIT O F POWER.

TH E GREAT NUDE BODY OF AND FATAL" M A N AWAKENED A N D SENSOR OF R E A LITY. F. COM P A N Y PI LOTS. . A N D M A C H I NATING TH E CATASTRO P H I C U N C E RTAINTIES WHICH STI R THE MOBILE. AN OSC I LLATI NG T R I P FOR CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH WOU LD HAVE AS ABSO­ FLECTS T H E FASCI ST LA NGUAGE OF TH E FUTU R I ST ELITE AT THE BEGI N N I N G OF THE C E NTU RY: "TH E LUTE POLES ONLY B I RT H AND DEATH. FINA LLY. THOSE A W A K E I N A COM MON WORLD") WOU L D C E A S E TO A PPLY. . R E LIGIONS. . . M A K I NG S E DUCTION'S U TO P I A RITE OF R E SORTED TO E XC E PT A S A N ORNAMENT TO THE V E H ICLE IN B E A UT Y P A R A DES. A RTE FACT IS NO LONGER SOM ETH I NG WHICH WOU L D NO LONGER B E D I SCON­ TINUOUS. . M UC H AT EASE I N A SITUATION O F ''TOTAL PEACE. THE MOTTO O F J U L E S VERNE'S NAUTILUS. FEEDS ON ELECTRI­ C ITY . . BUT TH E A S SU M PTION OF THE VAR IOUS RITES O F PASSAGE BY MASS PRODUCTION IS A A NOTH E R WAY. . " TH E P I LOT J EAN-MA R I E SAGET STATED: " A T THAT TI M E T O B E A TEST PI LOT WAS R E A LLY TO FLY I NTO TH E U N K NOWN . L E A N I N G OVER THE FEMALE 1 9 1 0). WAKING H ERACLITUS' AND SLEEP D I STI NCTION B E TW E E N ARE IN H EAT OF A P I E C E OF I R O N OR W OO D NOW A ROUSES U S MORE TH A N T H E S M I LE OR TEA R S OF A WOM AN. SINCE THEY HAVE TO MAKE T H R E S HOLD AN WOU LD E FFECTIVELY C A R R Y O U T F O R H U M A N ITY A RITE OF PASSAGE C O M PA R A B L E TO THAT IN COM PARISONS . CO M P L ET E L Y W H E N AT TH E O PE N I NG OF THE C E NTURY SPENGLER FORESAW TH E " R ETU R N OF SCI ENCE TO ITS I N ITIAL T R I LOGY THUS MODI FIED. . ASPI R I N G T O A STATE O F V I G I L I N A WOR L D G I V E N A S C O M M O N (TH E PRECONDITION F O R T H E FORMATION OF M E A N I NG). WITH U S B EG I N S S E PARATE WORLDS. O N E C A N S A Y T H A T TH E TECHNOLOGI­ C A L R EVOLUTION H A S F I N A LLY B E E N USED ONLY TO I N STALL THE VERY FIXITY OF LIFE I N DIS PLACEMENT ITSELF. . I N S H O RT. . TH E M U LTIPLIED M A N WHO MI NGLES WITH I RO N . BEA UTY. . . THE CONTACTS WITH T H E B O D Y OF THE B E LOVED OR THE T E R RITOR I A L BODY DISAPPEAR­ ING PRE DICTA BLY A S T H E DYNAMICS OF PASSAGE I NC REASE. YOU C A N SEE THEN HOW MUCH WE DESPISE TH E TH E PROPAG A N D A C A R R I E D OUT I N DEFENSE O F A ESTH ETICS OF LA NDSCAPE . . A F I N A L S U PPRESSION OF T H E D I F F E R ­ NATU R E A N D C U LTURE. TH EY'RE PRIVI LEDGED. SCATTE R E D A N D THERE. IT WOU L D TH U S SO M E HOW B E N O R M A L F O R TH E LIGHT OF MOTORS TO E XTI N G U I S H THAT OF R EASON ACTIVATION OF AS TH E I D E A L THE REIGN OF TH E ROOTLESS MAN. ON THE CONTRARY. S A PET ADDS: "I'M ON THE OTH E R S I DEI" THERE IS I ND E E D A TECH NO­ GENESIS. W R I TT E N PROJECT-QR PROJECTION-QF T H E WEST TOWA R D A T E C H N O LOG I C A L AS THAT WITH BEYOND ABOUT 1 920. OF ITS ANCIENT S P EC I A L CONFRONTING E FFECTS TH E " M OB I L I S IN MOBI LE. T H E OF A U N I QU E AND ABANDONED P H E N O M E NO N PARAPHRASING I M PO R T A N T R A G E OT'S IN B L U E P R I NTS I R R E S I ST I B L E FORMU LA. I N COLLECT I V E AND I ND I V I DUAL CONSC I ENCE. 246 . IDEAL ( M A R I N ETTI. AND WOU L D B E THE E N D O F A L L R ELIGION A N D P H I LOSOPHY. FLY ON A LL MODELS. A "LI FTING" OF M A C H I N E S WHICH TH E SUPPLA NTS THAT OF IS LOGISTIC SPOUSES. I N A R E C E NT I NT E R V I E W GIVEN TO TH E N EWSPAPER F R A NCE·SOI R . A N D T H E R E LATIONS H I P I S ESTA B L I S H E D B E T W E E N A U N I SE X (TH E DEFI N ITIVE DISSI M ULATION OF PHYSIOLOG I C A L I DE NTITY) AND A TEC H N I C A L PSYC H IC N A T I V E LA N D" A N D T H E COM PLETELY N EW RUINS OF F A U ST I A N HERE C I V I L I ZA T I O N -" I TS DEBRIS VECTOR. . FORGOTT E N . . I'VE L I FT E D O F F WITH M UC H T O M Y WORLD OF ENTI RELY S U S P E N D E D ON T H E U LT I M ATE OPERATION W H I C H REGR ET." CLIMB­ I N G I NTO H I S M I R A G E 4000." MOB I L E W I TH I N A G R EAT N A T U R A L POWERS. "ACCORD­ ING TO A C U R V E O F OPTI M A L D I ST R I BUTION OF T H E E X E RTION OF FO R C E S WHICH G U A R A NTEE EQUI L­ IBRIUM HENCE AND A TH E AVOI DANCE OF A CC I D E N T S . . TH E LATTER ITSELF B E I N G D E V E LOPED ACORD I N G TO T H E P R I N C I PL E O F L E A ST A C T I O N SO D E A R T O E N G I N E ERS. . AS M Y ST E R I O U S . WE WILL TRANSFORM E DG A R ALLAN POE'S ("THOSE ASLEEP NEVERMORE I NTO A S H R I LL JOY." AND OF N UC L E A R DISSUASION. BUT W E CAN'T FLY THE P L A N E S OF RIVAL COMPA N I ES BECAUSE NEVER OF COMMERCIAL AN C O M P ET I T I O N . SCI ENCE A N D TECH NO­ LOGY WOULD ACTUALLY C R E ATE A NEW SOCI ETY WHOSE M E M BE R S WOULD ALL BECOME SLEEPERS. NOW WE HAVE ANOTH E R F R U STRATION. D E F I N E S BOTH EVERY T R A N S PORT VEHICLE A N D. .1 !S.TECH N I C A L S P E E D: THE S E D UCTION FEMININE OF THE MOTOR AND OF THE Q U E ST OF ALL TECHNOLOGICAL PROGRESS. T H E R A I LWAYS A N D G R EAT PACKET BOATS AS FOSSIL­ IZED AS THE ROMAN ROA DS OR TH E G R EAT WALL OF C H I NA"-HE D I DN'T T H I N K THAT THESE R U I N S W E R E EARLIER THE L A T E N T FOR M S . BY M ETAPHORS O R POLITICAL A N D M I LITARY PROPA­ GANDA. L I V I N G OUT I LLUSORY DAYS AND NATURALLY VERY SYMBOLI STS WOM A N . . THIS D I S A P P E A R A N C E OF WOMA N I N T H E PASSAGE LOGY A CONTI NUOUS PH ENOMENON TECH NO­ MAKE S E NSORY D E R A N G E M E NT A FATALITY OF THE TEC H N I C A L OBJECT CREATES A NEW M A SS LANGUAGE WHICH F A I T H F U L LY RE­ WOU L D P E R M A N ENT CON DITION. Irs TOO BAD. LOGI C A L DON J U A N I S M . A DV E R T I Z I N G ENCES BETW E E N AND R E A LITY.

SO IT COULD LOOK AT ME A S MUCH AS I LOOK AT IT. TH E "MOT H E R ." A P PR E H E N D LESS A S A CON S U M E R OBJECT TO B E DESI R E D O R REJ ECTED T H A N M O R E E S S ENTIALLY AS THE VECTOR OF D E S I R E S J UST A S OBSOLES­ CENT A S OUR DREAMS. POW E R F U L CO M PA R E D CO M P UT E R TO REAL IS . ETC. SOM EON E STOP H I M . VICTI M FROM OF ALL AND A PARTNERS C A PTA I N HAVE D I SA PP E A R E D "TH I S S A D MECHANICS SCHOOL) AND ELECTRICITY A TECHNICAL HE TELLS A HATTE R A S. THAT OF A C E RTA I N PATH OF STEN COTTAGE. SAD EYES." A J O U R N A L I ST WRITES ABOUT PARTIC ULAR. HE D R EA M E D ABOUT T H E CAR FOR FI FTEEN YEARS. YOU S H O U L D K NOW ITS N A M E . WANTS MOTORCYCLE. WHEN I T V I B RATES A N D GLOWS. A S WITH EVE R YTH I N G CONC E R N I NG T H E ATOM. YOU SEE. • ATTEMPTED TO D E M O N STRATE W I T H H I S XENOGLOSSY THAT "A SUBJ ECT U N D E R H YPNOSI S C O U L D EXCEED THE MOST SLOW IN THE L I M I T O F HUMAN E X P E R I E N C E AND G O BACK I N TI M E WITHOUT TOO M UCH FATIG U E. COLONEL DE ROCHAS. H A RRISBU RG: ''T H E R E A LITY O F TH E R EACTOR. A N YW H E R E . HAPPENING . PLAY AN EGO'S FALSE R E PR E S ENTATI O N S LIGHT " . A R E A L L Y BIG B I K E TO GO WHEREVER I WANT. I ' D L I K E IT T O BE V E R Y FAST. BUT A L S O DESE RTS. CAN NOT B E ASSESSED WITH ORDI N A RY WOR D S . .' HE ADDS. P R E C U RSOR H E ROS A S THE NORWEGI A N R O A L D A M U NDSEN OR TH E ITA L I A N U M B ERTO NOBILE. ' " V E R N E 'S H E RO. I SPEAK TO IT. ITS CHROME FITTI N GS. BECAUSE I FELT IT N EEDED IT." TECH NOLOGI­ C A L FATALITY A PPEARS A S THE F I N A L S E D UCTION. 'BEFORE LEAVING THE GARAGE I PAT ITS FENDER." IS SUFFERING A "POLA R JOURNALIST FROM L E M O N D E . . S O I COULD S E E ONLY WHAT I L I K E . . ''I'D L I K E A B I K E . FOR HIS PART. 'AT NIGHT I J U ST LOOK AT IT. HE I M A G I N E D ITS FI RST COLOR. I'D L I K E TO K E E P O N R I D I NG. . F O R DS. WITHOUT EVER STOPPI N G . . T O DISCOVER. A N D S I D E R E A L S PACE. . THAT'S HOW THEY D I D IT. T H E CAPTA I N W O U L D STA R T WALKING BACKWARDS. THE EXPERTS K N OW THAT TH E Y C A N NOT R E A L LY M O N I TO R WITH IN A A COMPUTER R EACTOR WHAT OUT IS OF I N D U L G E T H E M SE L V E S A S I M I L A R ACTI V I TY.W E A R E C U R R ENTLY REDI SCOV E R I NG T H E M YSTERY OF THE T E C H N O L OG I C A L VEHICLE.' HE SAYS. CAPTAI N FOR LONG OC E A N . T H A N K S TO TH E SPEED A LO N E IT C A N G I V E OUR A S P I RATIONS. HE BRINGS TO M I N D C A PTA I N A H A TTE R A S. T H E M E D I U M B E I N G I N THIS C A S E A M ERICAN C A R S OF THE FI FTI ES-CA D I LLACS. THEN. THIS AKIN TO ON E I R I C SPEED DELI RIOUS JOY OF ANTH ROPOMORPHIC B L U E P R I NTS. H E R EPEATS I N THE A BSOLUTE OF T H E PLA NT'S CONTROL ROOM TH E S I M PL I F I E D GES­ T U R E S OF A PR I M A L MAGN ETIC R I T E W H O S E "MOB I L E WITHOUT MOB I LITY" A S YET T O B E C L A R I F I ED. A BIG WHAT DOCTOR CALLS BIKE. SPARK L I N G B L U E WITH A LIGHTER ROOF. AT A STUDYI NG BUT H E R E FOR E V E R . WHO G A Z E D AT H I M WITH H A TT E R A S WENT OUT WALKS. J U ST A LITTLE ATMOSPHE R E FROM TI M E T O T I M E . THUS "C R U S H I N G A U TO M O B I L E IN THE NUCLEAR C I RC L E S. I'D WITH LIKE IT TO B E THE COLOR OF THE IN TH E DISTANCE AND M A D N ESS. I ' D L I K E IT TO SH I N E WITH ALL ITS LIGHTS AND C H R O M E FITTINGS. C H EV R O L ETS. HE DRESSES TEDDY BOY STYLE. ACC I D E NT A T ECLIPSING T H E I N F I N ITY O F D R E A M S (MARI N ETTIl. BUT WHEN HE BRI NGS OUT HIS B E L A I R. SHOULD CON S U M E NOT H I NG. IT'S A SENSITI V E M AC H I N E. FOR E X A M P L E . " 9 "ALBERT LIVES TO THE F U L LEST ONE AS IN IN 1 950. VICTIM H A V I NG OF T H E BECO M E " D U R I N G T H E W E E K H E D R I V E S H I S REG ULAR CAR. I N T H E EVENT O F A N ACCIDENT. . YOU MUST SEE IT AT N I G HT. THE TECH N I C I A N B E CO M E S T H E PRODUC ED. T O LOOK F O R . FAR MORE BLINDING AND FEARFUL THAN ITS S I O N A L ACCOM PA N I M E N T . 1'0 PUT D I A LS ALL 247 . H E WOU LD PO I N T TO A FIXED SPOT I N THE SKY. TO LIGHT UP EVERYTH I NG AT THE SAME TIME." OF M E M BERS FIFTIES OF T H E CLUB" I N F I N I TELY P R OC E S S E S . WHICH WE OVER IT. HIS WIFE RIDING IN T H E BACK WITH THE K I D. AND H A RDLY G E OG R A P H I C . BUT THESE SOFT. AN EX· REMARKED N UCLEAR A D M I N I ST R A T O R O F T H E P O L Y T E C H N I C I N ST I T U T E . H A V I N G 1'0 LIKE IT TO A R R IVED AT T H E E N D O F TH E P A T H .L A N D S C A P E " I N H A B I T E D BY T H E "SPI RIT OF M ETAMORPHOSIS. THEY A R E LIKE BLI N D MEN TU R N I N G IN A CI RCLE A S T H E Y T R Y T O M A K E A DECISION .8 BUICKS. AS SUBLIM E HIS PASSION. I N VARIA BLY L E D H I M I N THE S A M E D I R ECTI ON. AS A STRANGE PROCES­ OUTS I D E AS A OF H I STORY OF THE THE VEHICLE C O M PLETELY R EPLACES THE B E LOVED. SAILS E V E RY DAY S U R R O U N D E D BY G U LLS. DANIEL (AGE S I XT E E N . J U L E S OF SUCH REAL AFFIXED TO THE TIP OF THE HOOD. I'D LI K E I T TO D R I V E ITSELF WHEN I'M TIRED. • CONTROL." HE H A S BECOM E PART A N D PARCEL OF THE BY I R R E S I ST I B L E R I T E OF PASSAGE: "FOLLOWED HIS FAITH F U L DOG. THE ROCKET MOVEMENT H E HAS APHASIC. T O S E E K O U T . J E T'AI ME. R U S H I N G TOWA R D S A BEYON D WITHOUT AN I D E NTITY FOR I T RESEMBLES NOTH ING AT ALL AND YET I S NOT NOT H I NGNESS: T H E NORTH P O L E . AS SOON AS HE SAW IT. AROUND 1 9 00. I PUT THE ROCKET O N IT. ' " THE DOCTOR VERY SOON . T H E PHYSIC I A N DOM I N I Q U E A BOUT TH E PIGNON.

HE T H E N Q U I C K LY PUTS TO WOR K THE M A TE R I A L P ROOFS OF HIS I LL U SO R Y E X I S­ C H R I ST I A N I T Y WANTED TO SEE TENCE." TRAVERSES. A N D M A Y LIVE H I S WHOLE HATTERAS ( P A R I S : HACHETTE). I S A G EOG RA P H I C A L N A M E PASSAG E R. TRANSLATED BY J O H N JOH NSTON C A PTA I N JOHN I N V A R I A BLY W A L K E D NOTES LIFE WITHOUT B E I NG OF USE. . HE I S T H E R E A S A U S E LESS PAWN IN THE GAME OF INTERNA­ '0 J U LES V E R N E.. 9 8: "TH E P E R FO R M A NC E OF THE I NVADER RESEMBLES THAT O F HIS COUNTE R P A RT I N SPORTS. . GET C E N T R A L ES 1 976). . C I O N S O F H I S N E I G H BORS. . M A N U A L LABOR BEING FOR IN E DG A R ALLAN POE'S "MORELLA" THE H US B A N D CON FESSES A PROPOS THE AGONY O F HIS WIFE: "I WAS Y E A R N I N G WITH A N I NTENSE AND DEVOU R I N G D E S I R E FOR THE MOM E N T OF M O R E L LA ' S D E A T H . VITESSE ET e C F. "M ETEM PSYCHOSE DU T I O N A LLY. W H I C H W I L L G I V E H I M THE C R E D I B I LITY N ECESSARY TO ACCOM PLISH TH E SINGULAR "WOMAN S A W THAT TH E TREE [OF KNOWLEDGE] WAS GOOD TO EAT A N D PLEASING TO LOOK AT. NO. . W I THOUT A L E RT I N G T H E S U S P I ­ 2 TH E MAN. T H E SLEEPER HAS TO MOVE TO A FO R E I G N PLACE. . F I N A LL Y K I LLS H ER: "MY B E LOVED. HE A N THROPOC ENTRIC SOCI ETY AS IGNOBLE A S IT W A S FOR THE M IDDLE AGES . TH E R E IS A LW A Y S TH E DI FFERENCE 7 B ETWEEN T H E 'LI B E R A L' A N D THE ·AUTOMATIC·. • . WO R K . ADA M ." M I SSION WITH W H I C H H E HAS B E E N SUDDENLY E N T R U STED. W H I C H IS A PURE MOTOR FUNCTION AND CAN B E P E R FO R M E D EQUALLY WELL B Y T H E IGNORANT OR A N I M A LS . . U N LESS SOM E DAY HE R E C E I VES TH E ORDER TO REACTI VATE THE SERPENT SERVES AS MASK FOR A HOSTILE B E I NG WHICH A N C I E NT W I S DO M AND THEN A S SATA N . O P. H A V E C H I LDREN. CORI N N E THE POLiTI Q U E ( P A R I S : G A L I LE E.U N D E R STOO D OBSTI NACY. LES AVENTURES DU CAPITA I N E TIO N A L ESPIONAGE." C H I LDREN [CONSTITUTED] THE I D E A L OBJECT O F TRA I N I NG. . B ( M A Y. IN L I BERATION ( F E B . PLACE D E L A CONCORDE. AND THOSE OF WOM E N AND LOST H E NCE­ FORTH M I N E A N D IN H E A V E N FOREVER. 1 9 77). . B R I S E DO U ' S I NTE R ES T I N G ARTICLE O N COLLECTORS O F C A R S O F THE 50'S A N D TH E I R 4 THIS KINO OF A NESTHE S I A OF FAMILIARS B Y M E ETINGS ON T H E F I RST T H U RSDAY N IGHT O F E A C H MONTH. " WEARY O F W A I T I NG. ITS I N ITIAL M EA N I NG MAY H A V E B E E N "STEPPE" (COM EN­ TARY OF T H E J E RUSALEM BIBLE). C I T. H I M S E LF. ADAMA. DES RISQUES D'ACCIDENT SPI ES: THE SLEEPERS. P.. PAU L V I R I L I O. 248 . THE WOR K E R S BOD I ES. " P A U L V I R I LIO." l O AND A G U ESSED WHY THE STROLL C O N S T A N T D I R EC T I O N . M A R R I ED. 1 979). COMES FROM TH E EARTH. . AS IF PAUL VI RILIO A LW A Y S TOOK UNDER THE I N FL U E N C E O F A MAGNETIC H ATT E R A S FORCE. WHICH ELUDES A L L LOCALIZATION. . II VITESSE ET POLITI Q U E . 1 977). THE M OT I V E OF T H I S S I NGULAR TOWA RD THE NORTH. TH E REPETITION OF B A N A L ATTITUDES I S U S E D NOTABLY BY THE S E C R E T S E R V I C E S W H O H A V E CR EATED A VERY PARTICUAR CATEGORY O F 9 DOMI N I Q U E DANS LES PIGNON. N UC L E A I R E S ( PA R I S : 80URGOIS. " 3 . . "GA R D E N " I S TRANSLATED "PARADISE" IN THE GREEK EDEN V E RS I O N AND THEN TRADI­ " C F.

LOVE OR PASSION A S MOVEM E NT WAS CON F I N E D TO THE TOPOS CONTROLLED B Y A S U B JECT. I N TRODUCING PASSION OR THR U ST A S FORCED U PON THE GRID OF A TELOS. IT R E M A I N S N O N E T H E L E S S I N FECTED B Y T H E S A M E PROBLEM O F BEING AT IF O N E T H E N C A N B E G I N TO S P E A K OF T H E U PON T H E I R B EC O M I N G MOVEMENT A N D PLAY O F BODIES. IN SUCH A FASHION. WHICH W I L L I N F I LTRATE ITS PA R T I C U L A R E P I STEMOLOG I C A L G R I D U PO N OUR SEEI NG. I F THE PLATO N I C CONSIDERATION OF "EROS" I S A FULLER. THE I M PU L S E OF A S E X U A L NATURE OR FORCE IS S E E N SUBOR D I N ATED TO AN A RCHE:. IF W E ARE CONFRONTED B Y THE D I F F I C U LTY O F TA K I N G UP A DI S C O U R S E ON SEXUALITY FROM " W I T H I N" T H E R EG I O N O F TRADITI O N A L P H I LOSOPHY I T I S B EC A U S E O F T H E R I G I D B U T S T I C K Y G R I D I T H A S E N FO R C E D . GEN ERA LLY O N TH E G ROUNDS O F A N ARCHE: O F REASON. THE D I SCOU R S E A B O U T T H I S I M P U LS E . WITHOUT FORCI N G T H E STA M P OF B E I N G (WHICH N I E TZSC H E R I GHTLY I N DI C AT E D A S T H E T R A P OF A L L TH I N K I N G A N D SPEAKINGI. THE ADDED DIFFICULTY IS THAT OF B E I N G W I TH I N OR O U TS I D E A P A R TI C U LA R T Y P E O F D I SC O U R S E . ODDS WITH THE HIGHER STATUS OF T H E "EIDOS" TO WHICH IT IS DRAWN. R IC H E R D I SC O U R S E U PO N T H E POLY­ MORPHOUS C H A RACTER OF E ROTIC DRIVE AND ITS UPHOLDING O R I N FO R M I N G THE G R I D OF THE WORLD K N O W N TO M A N . RATHER. D I SC O U R S E TOWA R D A BEGI N N I NG WITH THIS R E A LISATION O N E MAY MOVE LACKING D I S CO U R S E O F T H E B O D Y W I T H U S. THE STAGE OF E M P I R I C A L H Y POTH E S I S AND V E R I F I CATION WAS ONLY S U PPOSED.B E I NG O U R SEXUAL-BODI ES. T H E P L A TO N I C D O C T R I N E M U ST ULTI MATELY FACE ITS OWNMOST I M POVER I S H M E N T I N THE RIGI DITY A N D STER I LITY OF CARTES I A N M I ND­ BODY DUALI SM. M O V E M E N T . WAS CARRIED O N WITHOUT A N Y REFERENCE TO THE "FLESH" OF BODIES. 249 . MOST OBVIOUSLY. H E N C E .DISCOU RSE A N D SEXUA LITY: TOWARD THE TEXT U R E OF E ROS A LTHOUGH IT IS NOT APPARENT THAT TRA DITIONA L PHI LOSOPHY H A S H A D M UC H OF VA L U E T O SAY ABOUT THE FROM THIS BODY AND REGA R D I N G S E X U A LITY. A LTHOUGH A M O R E F E RTI LE NOTION OF THE I M PORTA NCE AND PREVALENCE OF E ROTIC DRIVE AND PRESENCE IN ALL H U M A N E X P E R I E N C E . U PO N T H E P L A Y . LOVE­ STRIFE. PHI LOSOPH I C O R OTHER. AND RICHNESS O F "BODY" A N D "BODI LY" EXPERIENCE. E P I STEMOLOG I C A L L Y D E R I VED. I T BECOMES CLEAR TO WHAT DEGREE DIALECTI C A L OPPOSITION. SOON TO BECOME A LL-REASONABLE. T H E P R E ­ SOCRATIC PHI LOSOPHE R S P E R H A PS F I RST SPOKE OF LOVE IN TH E CONTEXT O F STRI FE.

T H E D I A LECTIC OF C H I LO-BI RTH A N D FATH E R -DEATH. A D M I R A BLE EXC R E M E NT.W O R K -G E N ET A N D SEEM H I S S E X U A L­ LITE R A R Y EXPRESSION TO A TYPE OF P H I LOSOPH I­ SCR UTI N Y N O N E TOO D I S T A N T I N S UBSTA NCE. IN FORC I N G THE FLESHY-SENSUAL PROSE AND POETRY O F GENET I N TO T H E CONCEPTUAL MOLD OF TH E PACKAGED "SYM BOL. C REATIVE MOVEM ENT. H EG E L I A N SCH E M A S. C'EST QU'ELLE RE VE QU'ELLE LE VEUT. M UC H LESS TO WHICH WE COULD S P E A K AND SEE." S A RTRE C LA I M S .P H A L L U S O F H E G E L. TH E FOR C E OF SA RTRE'S CRITIQUE AND A P P ROACH TO G E N ET AND HIS S E X U A L-LITE RARY EXPE R I E N C E 250 . FOR T H E "STUFF" OF THE R E L A T I O N S H I P O F T H E M A N . I S A T THE I R O N I C A LLY PA R A L L E L S A N D A LLEGED NON­ THE C O L L A P S E OF T H E H EGELI A N CONC E PTU A L I M POTE N C E I M PO T E N C E OF G E N ET'S EXPRESSIVE WORK. DE S'EXPRI MER PAR DES SYMBOLES ET DE VIVRE AU M I LIEU DES SYMBOLES. SARTRE H A S P E R H A PS ONLY BEEN MORE BLU NT. BEING PASSED DOWN OR FALLING TO US A S SOLI DIFIED. C U LT I V A T E D M A N . DE SE FA I RE SYMBOLE. SAME TI M E A TH R U ST TOWA RD A N D EXPRESSION. I N STALLS ITSELF U N I V E R S A L LY A T TH E EXPENSE OF T H E SC U LPTED. WILL NOT S U F F I C E . PUI SQU'ELLE VEUT CE QU'ON NE PEUT VOULOI R. TH E LATTER S E E M S T O T A K E MOVE MENT O R T H R U ST. T H E H O P E D-FOR OSC I L L A T I O N SOLI D I F I ES A N D T H E D U A L E RECTIONS. U LT I M A T E L Y . IT C A N NOT OFFER TO US ANY LONGER ITS FACE U PON WHICH W E COULD GAZE. PLAY. FEEL IT RESPOND. T H E I N A DEQUACY O F T H I S J U M P I S NOWH E R E MORE C L E A R LY EVI DENCED T H A N I N THE PERSON AND WOR K O F G E N ET H I M S E LF . THE HEGELI A N BODY HAS N O F L E S H . D E R R I D A H A S H I N T E D W E L L AT TH E I M POTE N C E OF PH I LOSO P H Y AS SO U N D I NG ITS DEATH-KNELL WITH THE C U L M I NATING PHI LOSOPHY OF H EG E L . M O V E M E N T IS S A C R I F I C E D TO T H E OVER-DOM I N A N T PRESENCE O F A W H A T IS P E R H A P S U LT I M A T E L Y ST R I K I N G A N D STRANGE ABOUT D E R R I DA'S TREATM ENT OF HEGEL­ GEN ET. GENET A D E CID E . D E R R I DA'S DISCOU RSE E M ERGES IN ITS RELIANCE U PO N G E N E T AS C O U N T E R-TH R U ST TO T H E T H O U G H T. H ETEROS E X U A L SPACE O F HEGELIAN " I N T E L L I G I B I L I TY " OR APPROBATIONS ONT L I E U SYM BOLI Q U E M E NT. COLLAPSE I NTO TH E GENE RATION OF A N E M PTY DISCOURSE. TO US IN ALL ITS M OV E M E NT.W O R K . H E ONLY WEAKLY SUGGESTS THAT ONE MA Y N E E D TO R EC O N S I D E R THE RESEMBLANCE NOUS POU VON S A P R E S E N T COM P R E N D R E L'AVENTURE D E GENET. AND FORCE. H A S GENET B E E N GIVEN A N ADEQUATE A N D E M PATH ETIC TREATMENT? IT WOULD B E A S E V E R E M I STAKE TO CONFUSE T H E RESPECTIVE T REATM E N T OF G E N ET BY D E R R I DA AND SARTRE I N A S M U C H A S BOTH D I F F E R I N SUBSTA N TI A L A N D PARTICULAR DETA I LS. DIVINE A N D H U M A N . O N E SHOULD O N LY HOPE TO GLI M PSE T H E I R COUNTER-FACING B E Y O N D O R A BO V E T H E S U R F A C E O F T H E I R E M E RG E N C E FOR DERRIDA AS T H R U STS O F I M M A N E N C E O R DEBRIS OR TRANSCENDENCE. I N ORDER THAT PLAY R E M A I N A T T H E H EART OF THOUGHT­ BODY. A SON INSU. C E PETIT HOMME E NER­ G I Q U E ET ACTIF S'EST VOU E A A LA FOLLE ENTREPRISE DE DEVENIR CE QU'IL EST DE J A ET DE DE TRUI RE CE QU'IL NE PEUT EMPECHER D' ETRE. A L W A Y S A S R E A S O N A B L E .R U N RESULTS O F BOTH WRITERS' SUBJ ECT­ ING CAL THE M A N .G E N ET. THE SCATTE RED R E M A I N S OF W H I C H POI NT T O THE POLA R O P POSITIONS OF A N I M POTENT. A U S S I TOT SA VOLONT E SE VOLATI LISE DANS L'I MAGINAIRE. SEXUALITY-PROC R EATION AND ITS I N STITUTION IN AND U P HOLDING. "I NCOM M U N ICABILITY" OF LITERARY SPACE WITH G E N ET LURKING IN THE W INGS. YET. I N A N Y CASE. LESS A LLUSIVE THAN DERRI DA. IN SPITE OF T H E CONTRAST OF "SEX U A L" TH E M E S WITH CON C E PTUAL. T H E FIGURE O F M A ti. T H E I R COLLAPSE HAS L E FT ONLY THE R E S I D U E OF DI SCOURSE. BECOME FLACCID. VO U E E S PA R N A T U R E A DE M E U R E R S E S D E STR U C T I O N S E T S E S INEFFICACES. THE ELABORATION OF THOUGHT-BODY M UST REMAIN WITHOUT PRESENT SEXUAL-EXPERI ENCE-BECOM E-LiTE RARY.W H I C H ENTA ILS A TRUNCATED MOVEM ENT. SUBJ ECTED TO THE OVE R TH E FUNCTION A N D DESTI NY OF THE FORM E R W H E N T H E M A R G I N S O F PHILOSOPHI C A L ENDEA­ VO U R A R E P U S H E D TO OV E R F LO W . B E T W E E N DION YSOS A N D C H RIST. I S T H A T D E R R I DA I M PLICITYLY ACC E PTS A DISJUNC­ TU R E OR D I SCONTI N UITY BETWE E N P H I LOSOP H Y A N D LITERATURE. Y ET . YET. I MAGED FORM AND MOVEM E N T O F T H E D I V I N E . ' DERRIDA SHOWS FORCEFU LLY THE EXTENT TO WHICH TH E A D M I RABLE E XC R E M ENT OF H EGEL IS STI L L AMONG US IN THE FOR M OF HIS CONSI DERATIONS A S TO THE G E N E RATION AND F I L I ATION OF THOUGHT. HOWEVER. T H A T O F REASON.I N FORMED BY THE STATE. NO V U L N E R A B I LITY. BEING. DU JOUR 00 IL A CHOISI DE VOULOI R SON DESTIN. HENCE. 2 A N E N R I C H E D B U T NON­ G E N E RATIVE. D E R R I DA'S D I SCOURSE ABOUT H EGEL AND GENET M A Y B E TAKEN A S A SUGGESTION OR WARNING A BOUT THE INTRINSICALLY STU LTI FYING TENDENCY O F THOUGHT TO OVE RCOM E THE BODY. DERRIDA PHALLUS WITH THE DESIRE FOR CLOTURE MOVEM E N T HIS OF OF M I N D. HOMOSEXUAL. THE LONG .

PRODUCTI VE. THE T H R UST OF A PENIS IN AS PROJECT-U PON-TH E-WORLD. N E I T H E R FOR G E N ET IN "SURPAS­ SI NG" HIS SITUATION. G RA S P I N G C H A R ACTER O F TH E CA RESS. HOWEVER. NOR FOR U S I N B E I NG SPOKEN TO FROM THIS.P L E N I T U D E" I N PR O S E . O N E WI LL NOT BE S U R P R I S E D BY THE RAPIDLY A N O EASI LY CONQUERE D NOTI O N S OF BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS I N TO TH E COURSE U PON SEXUA LITY A S WELL A S THE ABI LITY TO I N H A BIT THE PLACE OF SYM BOL W H I L E HANGING ON TO ANY VESTIGES OF CONCEPTUAL THOUGHT. ENTA I L. I N E F F ECTUAL TO CARRY H I MSELF TOW A R D A PLACE W H I C H WOULD BE CON-STRUCTI VE. CAN ONE E X PECT W I TH R E F U R B I S H E D H EG E L I A N C AT E GO­ OF THE S Y M BOL THE OR TH E OF THE PATHOS SYM BOL'S PASSION. AND WITH PLA C E OF THE DEPTH TH E I R I NTERFACE7 SARTREAN LUCI DITY WOULD CON V I N C E DES SON A DOLESC ENCE. I T WOULO S H O W U S T H E A PPROP R I AT I V E . DEFUSED THE QU ESTI O N FORCE OF G E N ETS THROWING POSS I B I L I ITY OF ANY DIS­ PH ENOM E N A ARE VI EWED. FOR SARTRE.H U M A N TH R U ST O F TH E VACUITY O F SA RTRE'S TREATM E N T OF SYMBOL­ PROSE I S STR I K I N G A N D I N STR UCTI V E AS TO THE I N A DEQUACY OF THIS APPROACH WITH RES PECT TO THE COMPLEXITY O F THE M A N . G E N E T ' S BRI LLANTES ET V I L I B L E S . RI ES. SC I O U S N E S S ACH I EVES I F. IT MUST B E S A I D THAT I N TH E E N D SARTRE HAS ON LY MADE GENET MORE M A N AGEABLE FOR US. LE NEANT. SARTRE U LT I M A T E L Y REMAINS THE M ETA­ OSC I L L A T O R Y . VIDE. I N B E I N G A N O NOTH INGNESS A R E S E E N 215 1 .IS TO REDUCE TH E M TO THE LOC U S OF THE C O N SC I O U S N E S S FASH ION IS A LACK WHICH UP IN FUTILE MAKE I M A G I N A R Y OR E MOTI ONAL. I M POTENT. CAPABLE OF A N Y C A S E MAN THE AT L E A ST THE WORLD. C'EST-A' O I R E LE LANGUAGE.e THE FORCE OF E PI S T E M OLOGY H A S THE OPTI Q U E SARTR E A N A LT H O U G H THERE IS A C E R TA I N D E PTH AND OFTE N L I M ITED WITH IF NOT THE CRUSHED WHICH RICHNESS T O SARTR E'S TALK OF G E N ET A N D HIS WOR K . LE MANQUE. A N D PROJ ECTS CAREFUL LAYI N G-OUT OF THE TH E CATEGO R I E S AND IN MOVEM ENTS O F H U M A N CON­ SITUATIONS W H I C H S A RT R E N ESS WHICH SARTRE LA I D OUT MOST EXTENSIVELY IN BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS. T H E TOUCH I NG-SEIZI NG OF A B R E A ST AS AN ATTE M PT TO GET HOLO OF BEING. C A N N OT A C H I E V E T H E E X P E R I E NCE I N I TS PARA LLELING M O V E M E N T OF THAT " L A C K . IS. FALL I NTO NOT H I NGN ESS PROFF E R E D BY TH E POETRY OF EMOTION OR POETIC EMOTI O N . SARTRE HAS C E RTA I N LY BETRAYED THE POVERTY OF AT LEAST PART OF HIS PROJECT IN ONE SHORT C H A R ACTE RIZATION OF GEN ET: A N D ITS D I SCOU R S E ON SARTRE TO C A P­ SEXUALITY. T H E PLACE FOR SARTRE WHICH I S ONE OF MAGICAL T R A N S FO R MATION OF A TT E M PTS IN TO FILL ITSELF.F R E U D I A N H I G H LY NOTI ONS. I M PLICIT I S THE C H A RG E THAT GEN ET. T H E PLACE O F SYM BOL. PERTA I N S TO LANGUAGE. D I S -C U R S I VE. FOR A LL HIS E XTE N S I V E USE OF G E N E RA LIZED SARTRE M A R X I ST. THAT NORMALCY HAS A S ITS REFERENCE THE SPEECH AND CATEGORIES O F N EG A T I N G AND A PP R O P R I A T I V E CONSCIOUS­ E N C LOS U R E A LWAYS BEYON D . IL N'A P LUS AUCUN US THAT T H E P L A C E OF PASSION I N G E N E R A L A N D SEXUAL I N TE R C O U R S E IN ITS H ET E R OS E X U A L RAPPORT "NORMAL". WITH A DISCOURSE WHICH REMAINS THE LUC I D ITY O F A P P RO AC H I NG RADICAL RELATION TO CONSC I O U S N E S S AS ONE OF NEGATION. I N HIS C H A R A CTERIZATION OF GENET AS U N A BLE. G E N ETS NON-EXPRESSIVE PLACE OF DISCOURSE. SEXUAL A N D LITE RARY.U P-TOWA RD. FOR TH E MOST P A R T. TIVATE. N U I T DU NON-SAVOI R: I L N E 'S'AGIT PAS D' U N E O'IMAGES POES I E APOLLI NIENNE Q U I JOU I R A I T STRONGLY H ETEROSEX U A L-CONCEPT UA L STA NCE I N H A BITING IN TOW A R D C R E A T I V I T Y . IN A TUMBLE TO THE BACK FA LLI NG­ RESTRICTED SENSE. LA NEGATION QUI MARQ U E NT L'EMOTION POETIQUE. ONE M U ST NOT B E A R DOWN TOO DEE PLY I NTO TH E PLACE OF SEXUA L-SYMBOL FOR FEA R OF TH E BOTTO M L E S S IS PLU N G E IT MIGHT TOWA R D E XPRESSION. IS ITS E L F S O L I D . EM PTY.F I L L I N G . 3 DE PROSE AVEC PARTI C U L A R ITY CASE OF THE I S N O MORE THAN THE S P E C I A L ONTOLOGICAL. IN A LA RGER CONTEXT. THE NOR M A LC Y OF PROSE FOR SA RTRE. F O L L OW I N G SUGGESTIONS O F EXISTENTIAL PSYC HOA N A LYSIS STA U N C H D E F E N D E R O F A PHYSICAL-RELIGIOUS VIEW TRADITIONAL ON BROA D OUTLI N E . I N TO TH E NOTH I N G THAT H E R E T U R N S TOWARD. NON-C REATIVE.W O R K-G E N E T I N FI LLING U P H O L E S I N B E I NG. ALTHOUGH THE S P I R I T OF TH E SARTREAN E N TER­ PRISE H A S CERTA I NLY BEEN TO CON S I D E R " E V E R Y HUMAN FACT' AS SIGNI FICATIVE. VAGINA AS M AN'S THE PARTICULAR A N D TO A N Y D I SCOURSE I N G E N E R AL. SEES FOR TH I S WHAT SARTRE OF G E N ET'S ULTI M ATELY SYMBOLIC AS THE PLACE INVOLVEM ENT: REMAINS I M PR I SO N E D B Y TH E CHUTE. 4 ENTA I LS. I S S E E N BY SARTRE A S NON. P A R T I C I PATION L U ST. I F THE LUC I D PROSE OF KNOWING I S TO B E E N FORCED VERSUS TH E M U RKY. C ' E S T LE SEXUAL-LITE RARY FASHION TH E PLAC E OF SYM BOL AND THE PECULIA R MOVEM E N T THAT PLACE VERTIGE.

REICH A N D OTH E RS. SUGGESTS EVEN I NTO TH E THAT ONE M IGHT N E E D TO P L U N G E I M AGI N A R Y I N P R OC H E . MOD E R N MICHEL FOUC A U LT HAVING I N EXIS­ D I SC O U R S E ON S E X U A LITY H A V E N O T SO M UC H B E E N RESTRICTED BY A RIGOUROUS P R I N C I P L E O F S E LECTION A N D TABDO BUT F I N A LLY D I F F U S E D A N D D E F U S E D BY BROAD D I S S E M I N ATION AND E M PLAC E M E N T BY THE WILL TO KNOW. A S WELL A S I NVOLV E D IN A R E VO L UTION OF PLEASURE. ONLY TO BE DOMESTI­ CATED BY AND AND I NTO A SCIENCE OF S E X U A LITY. RATH E R . THIS F U N C TI O N I N G IS IN THE DAY-LIGHT. MAIS POURQUOI D I SONS-NOUS. FOR THE MOMENT. ALBEIT UNABLE TO CARRY OUT THAT A G A I N ST THE G R A I N O F G E N E R A L R E P R ESSION OR I N STALL I T S E LF AND FIND ITSELF SITUATED FROM W I TH I N THAT FIELD AND SOU RCE OF R E P R ESSION? S E E I NG CON S I STENTLY. A N A LYSIS IS TO I N D I C ATE STI F L I N G THE OF R E ST R I C T I O N . H I STOR I C A L-TH E O R E T I C A L. I N D I F F I C U LTI E S OF DOING A DIS­ I N B RO A D OUTLI N E . L U C I DITY OF A P P R O P R I A T I V E C O N SC I O U S N E S S W H I C H FASHIONS T H E B A S I S A N D T H E PROSE O F ITS OWN MOST D I SCOU R S E TO THE OF I N VOL V E M E N T WITH TH E STRICT EXCLUSION N IGHT OF NON­ FOUC A U LTS TALK O F T H E POSSI B I LITY O F S E X U A L D I SCOU R S E I N T H I S CONTEXT I S THEN B A S E D U PO N TH E R E C I PROCAL I N T E R C H A N G E A N D ECONOMY OF REPRESSION AND TIVELY SUCH AND P R E D I C A TION WHICH AND R E S PE C ­ U PH O L D IS TO K NOWLEDGE. R EG I O N A L ONTOLOGY PERTA I N I NG TO SEXUA LITY. F I N A LLY BEYOND THEM. A T T H E END OF G E N ETS HIS LONG W O R K HE AND INTRODUCTION TO LA QU ESTION Q U E JE VOU D R A I S POSER N'EST PAS: PO U R Q U O I SO M M E S .E P I ST E M OLOG I C A L "H U M A N . THE SPEAKS I M PO S E D OF ITS P U R I TA N I S M ' S PROHI BITION. S E X U A LITY I N I NTRODUC I NG TH E FI RST PAGES OF A CONTI NU­ I NG WORK ON A S E X U A LI T Y . IT I S N ECESSARY T O S E E THE H I STOR I C A L A S U PO N W E L L A S " P H I LOSO P H I C A L" ANY S U C H DISCOURSE AND SOLELY N EGATIVE SENSE. TANT DE PLUS RANCOE U R CONTRE NOTRE PASSE LE CONTRE NOTR E QUE PRESENT ET WORKS.S I T U A ­ TION.WELL AS F U N C TI O N I NG IN TH E P A R TI C U L A R OF SEXUAL D I SC O U R S E .E X P R E S S I V I T Y . H I ST O R I ­ C A L-POLITICAL. O R D E R T O STOP F L E E I N G T H E "OBJ ECTI VE" B Y THE " S U BJ ECTI VE" "OBJECTI VE": AND CONTRE NOUS-MEM ES. S U B J ECT­ OBJECT. T H E P U TT I N G I N THE O P E N OF D I SC O U R S E A S TO S E X U A LITY H A S NOT BEEN S U BJECTED TO MERE R E ST R I C T I O N IN A F I L L O U T TH I S PURSUING THE COU R SE ON S E X U A LITY. THE CONFI N I N G CONTEXT OUT OF W H I C H IT M IGHT A R I SE. M UT U A L L Y R E ST R I C T D I SC O U R S E . Y E T . YET. DUALISMS. IT H A S BEEN R ESTRICTIONS TA M E p I RO N I C A LLY BY A GROWING I NC I T E M E N T TO COM E OUT I NTO T H E OPEN. TH AT ONE M UST PUSH IN THE TWO D I R ECTI ONS AT ONCE. YET. A N D I NCOM M U N I C A B I LITY UPON THE SPACE D E PTH A N D R I C H E S OF TH E PLACE OF T H E V E RTIGE 2152 . H E HAS A T LEAST THE SENSE TO SEE." T H E ESSENTI A L QU ESTI O N S : I S T H E R E PRESSION O F S E X U A LITY A N D D I SCO U R S E A BOUT I T R E A LLY I N SARTRE. I S LUCIO ENOUGH TO SEE HIS OWN D I SCOU R S E AS ENSNARED TO EVIDENCE H I STOR I C A LLY? I S T H E MECHANISM O F POW E R I N SOC I ETI ES SUCH A S O U R S ESSENTIALLY OF THE R E P R E S S I V E O R D E R ? DOES THE C RI T I C A L OF AND A BO U T SEXUA LITY RUN D I S CO U R S E SOM E DEG R E E I N TH E G R I DS O F THE TRADITIONAL M I N D . T H O U G H T. T H E STRE NGTH AND D E PTH OF F O U C A U LT ' S C O N FI N E M E N T. DECREE OF T E N C E . IT IS A P P A R E NT OUTLI N E R E S P O N S E T O A N D T H E N G O BEYOND O N E P R I M A RY QUESTION: THAT HE IS A W A R E OF I M PO S I N G A C E RTA IN G R I D OF S U B J ECT-OBJ ECT U PON G E N ET IN PARTI C U L A R A N D U PO N THE S E N S U A L-SYMBOLIC I N G E N E R A L. IN S P E A K I N G OF T H I S P E R PETUAL GAME OF H I D E AND S E E K W H I C H P H I LOSOPHICAL D I SCOU RSE I S COWA RDLY WONT TO P U R S U E . AVEC TANT D E PASSION. WE HAVE H I NTED AT TH E NEED TO CON S I D E R SEXUALITY I N ITS "SYMBOLIC" D E PTH RATH E R T H A N AS A M E R E M E A N S TO T H E F U LFI LLMENT OF T H E O N TOLOG I C A L. A FOUC A U LTS ATT E M PT I N SPITE OF T H E L I M ITATI O N S O F SARTRE'S VIEW TO AND DI SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. THROUGH F R E U D . THE RECENT MODERN A G E I S E X POSED TO T H E SCI E N C E OF S E X U A LITY.B O D Y .N O U S REPRIMES. FOUC A U LT SHOWS THE EXTENT TO W H I C H . AT I SS U E FOR EACH LEVEL A R E D'ALLER JUSQU'AU BOUT DE NOUS-M � M E DANS LES DEUX DI RECTIONS A LA FOIS. E V E N S I N C E THE E N D OF T H E S I XT E E NTH C E NTU RY. N O U S-SOM M E S TH E " S U BJECTI VE" BY T H E R E P R I M ES?7 FO U C A U LT C LA I M S AT L E AST TH R E E FAC ETS FOR CE JEU QU'AU DE CACHE-CACHE NE PRENDRA FIN HIS STRATEGY OF R E PLYI NG TO THIS Q U ESTIO N­ JOUR 00 NOUS A U RONS LE COU RAGE H I STO R I C A L. AND D I SCOU R S E O N S E X U A LITY A N D T H E R E P R ESSION OF S E X U A LITY IN TH E V E R Y LOC U S W H E R E SUCH TALK A PP E A R S TO BE IN THE OPEN." IT WILL B E N E C E S S A R Y TO RETURN TO A N D DEPTH.

PLEASURE AND THE DEPTH IT ENTA I LS . AS M A N I FEST AND P R A CT I C E D IN E A STE R N RELIED AND .OF NON-KNOW I N G BEEN OF SEX U A L-SYMBOLIC-POTE NCY BY THE K N OW I NG EFFICIENT M A N AG E M E NT. ONE BY GIVING I N CORPORATE A N A LYSTI C CONCEP­ E X T E R I O R. RICH A N D COMPLEX D E PTHS AS EXPER­ IENCE.. OTH E R A N D GET ENTANGLED THE ONE WITH TH E OTH E R ACCO R D I NG TO COMPLEX M E C H A N I S M S OF EXC ITATION AND EXCITING EACH OTH E R ONWA RD. S E X U A L DISCOURSE IN THE RECENT PARTI C U L A R EXPERI ENCE. HE C LA I M S THAT EACH THE WESTE R N SCIENTIA E N G U L F M E N T IN THE I N VO L V E S POVERTY OF CLINICAL POW E R DO N O T N EGATE SEXUALIS ITS NOR S I M PLY V I E F O R TH E I R THEY "CHASE RES PECTIVE A FTER EACH CODI FICATION O F S E X U A L CONFESSION BASED ON THEORIES OF GENERAL SEX U A L C A U SALITY APPLIED TO THE WILL TO POS ITIONS. OWN­ MOST G R A S P OF O N E'S T I M E-SPACE BY TOUC H I N G TH E TEXT U R E OF THE P L A C E OF THE POWER OF L I F E . CE QUI EST PROPRE AUX SOClirr ES MODERNES. O N E'S OWN MOST RESPON S E WITH AND TO YET. . CATEGO R I ES PERMISSION A N D TABOO. S F O U C A U LT "FORE" W I TH I N DISCUSSES SECRET THE AND OF BRI NGING TO THE SEXUALITY.D I S C R E E T M A R R I A G E . TA K E N A S A P R A X I S I N T H E M OST INTI MATE. EN LE FAISANT VALOIR COMME LE SECRET. CE N'EST PAS QU'ELLES A l E NT VOU E LE SEXE A RESTER DANS L'OMBRE. ABSOLUTE LAWS OF OF TH I S THE I T S B E I N G TA M E D TH E N A TU R E. T O I N DI CATE T H E C R U C I A L LATE R A L S P R E A D OF SEXUALITY I N A N D THROUGH R E LATIONS OF A S OC I A L . IT IS A EXILE FOR DEATH RE PROACH TO AN EXC L U S I O N . FILI ATION-G E N E RATION OF THE HEGELI A N SC HEMA. . A N A LYSI S .LAW. S E X U A LI T Y M U ST BE A F F I R M ED. S E X U A LITY V I EWED FROM THE GRID OF A D U LTS-C H I L D R E N . I T I N HABITS TH E PLACE O F MASTERY OF A N D WITH R E S PONSE TO O N E'S BODY. A N AND ITS M ENACES. SEXUAL DISCOURSE MORE­ O V E R . OF PLEASU R E AND TH E SEXUAL PLACE IS O UTDIS­ TA NCED BY THE SI LENT RESPONSE OF DOM I N ATION OF H E WHO LI STE N S TO THE S E X U A L CON FESSION OR WHO CATEGORIZES AND CLASS I F I E S IT. IS R E P LA C E D BY THE PLEA S U R E OF PLA C E ARE ONLY COV E R E D OVER A N D M A NAGED BY A NEW PURITA N I S M .PO L I T I C A L CONTROL PLEASURES. T H E PLACE OF SEXUA LITY AND DISCOURSE TO AND WITH THAT ASSERTED. FOUCA U LT I S N O T O N L Y CONC E R N E D T O SHOW THE E P I S T E M O LOG I C A L M ATTE R S AND M I S-M A N A G E M ENT BUT. I F L I N E A R I TY I S G I V E N U P FOR S P I R A LS OR CONC ENTRIC WEBS WHICH A LLOW "PERVE RSIONS" AT THE M A R G I N S OR EXTR E M ITIES. A FORG ETTI N G OF T I M E A N D LIM ITS. EVEN A LLOW I N G ROOM FOR A COM PLEXITY OF "PERVERSIONS" OF SEXUAL BEHAVIOURS AND ACTS. RATH ER. A CONTROL. F O R IT T O T A K E I T S PLACE I N WEST E R N SOCIETY." I RO N I C A LLY. CON FESSED. . SCI ENTIA SEXUALIS H A S TYPI F I E D WESTE R N "EXPE R I E NCE" A N D CON F I N E M ENT OF THE TR UTH OF SOIENT VOUEES A EN PARLER TOUJOURS. T H U S A LLOWI NG A MORE BROUGHT TO THE FOR E OF DAYLIGHT LUCIDITY A N D 2153 . D I R ECT L I N E S OF H I NGES P R I M A R I LY ON I T S BEING OR B ECOM I NG THE BASTA R D FORM OF T H E RICHER ARS EROTICA -ALL BY WAY O F CEDI NG OVER THE PLACE OF SEXUALITY TO TH E G R E E D AND S E I Z U R E OF THE COURTROOM AND CON FESSION WHICH I S THE PLACE OF A VOWING THE S E C R ET. " P E R VERSIONS" STATUS. ARS E ROTICA KNOWS NO REFERENCE TO C R I TERI A OF U T I L I TY. T H E N EW P U R I TA N I S M AND STIFLING OF A DEEPER DIS­ C O U R S E W I T H SEXUA LITY I S SET U P BY M E DICAL­ SC I E N T I F I C P R I ESTS AS THE FORCE OF THE C H U RCH-C LERGY W A N ES." WHEREAS A RS EROTIC .I N T E R I O R D U A L I S M . OF U PO N FROM "T R U T H " SEXUALITY PLEA S U R E ITSELF. HAVE T R A N S FO R M E D D I SCOURSE I N THE O P E N OF A M O D E R N A LCH E M Y WHICH PROBES RATHER TH A N PA RTICI PATES WITH TH E H I DDEN SECRET: THE QU ESTION OF CONTROL IS MORE R I C H LY OUTL I N E D AS FOUCA U LT CONTRASTS "ARS EROTICA" WITH "SCI ENTIA SEXUA LIS. THEM THAT SEES READILY THE THE PO V E R T Y O F W E S T E R N SCI E NTIA S E X U A L I S TUAL GRID WHICH U PHOLDS S E X U A L D I SCOURSE IS BROA D E R THAN THE S TA I D . YET. C'EST Q U ' E LLES SE ARABIC-MOSLEM DRAWING THE COUNTRIES. AND FABRIC. THE DEPTH O F SEXUAL EXPE RI ENCE BECOMES G LOSSED OVER A S A TYPE OF LATENCY INTRINSIC TO S E X U A LITY BUT WHICH M U ST BE SER IOUSLY A N D BROADLY. I T I S A LAT E R A L A N D DEPTH PLUNGE I NTO THE S P A C E OF R I C H N ESS AND AB U N D A NCE OF LIFE. ITS U N I Q U E AND PARTIC U L A R JOY A N D PLEA S U R E . KNOW T H E SEXUA L E X P E R I E NCE DOM I N ATES A N D CRUSHES THE PLACE A N D DISCOURSE O F SEXUALI­ TY A N D ITS RICH POTE NTI A L OF I N D I V I DUATION A N D EXPRESS I O N TOWA RD ON O N E'S OWN MOST AND TE R M S AND AGE I S PLAG U E D BY I TS CON F I N E M E N T IN THE OPEN: A S SUCH IT I S I N VOLVED IN A VAST SYSTEM OF WHICH TA K E S IT O N E'S D E E PEST MOST P E R SO N A L SOC I O .P O L I T I C A L PLEA S U R E OTH ER.I N ST I T U T I O N S I M PLIES C LASSI FICATION A N D CON F I N E M ENT WHICH I S NONETH ELESS BROAD ENOUGH TO MAKE ROOM FOR " D I S P A R ATE" B E H A V I O U R .

K N O W I N G . THEY I N D ICATE A D I RECTION FOR E N RI C H E D D I SCOU RSE TO TA KE GREAT CONTR I BUTION OF PSYCHOANALYS I S T O A DISCOUSE ON S E X U A LITY.F E E D B A C K W I LL BE ULTI MATELY CAPABLE OF AVOI D I NG THE TRAP O F SCI E NTI A S E X U A L l S. A M E DI C A L. FOUC A U LT WRITES: AC ROSS T O THAT D E PTH OF S E X U A L EXPE R I ENCE W H I C H D. ON A S UBSTITUE UN INCONSCIENT QUI N E POUVAIT PLUS QUE S'EXPRIMER (LE MYTHE. " A T TH E V E R Y L E A ST.S E X U A L-BODY. . THE STI FLING M A N N E R OF EXPOSING THAT D E PTH IS TH E UPHOLDING OF R I G I D CLASSI FICATION AS S E E N IN TH E P R A C T I C E OF H E A R I N G TH E AVOWALS OF COMPLEXES GROU N D E D I N A STE R I L E E P I STEMO­ LOGICAL PLACE. L' U N E A U COURS DU XVII' Snl:C LE: N A ISSANCE DES GRANDES PROH IBI­ TIONS. YET. ' REGARDING A N D WITH THE PLACE OF SEXUA LITY.l ' O TEXTU RE. " H E N C E . . THAT PLACE WHICH I S THE PEC U L I A R I N DI V I D U A L'S FUSION WITH "NATU RE. BUT THE A N A LYST I N PARTICULAR WHO RECORDS TH E S E X U A L CONFESSION. AS S UGGESTED B Y FOUCAULT A N D B ROUGHT OUT MORE CLEARLY I N HIS WORK ON MADN ESS AND TH E BI RTH OF CONFI N E M E N T A ND THE CLIN I C AND AS CONCRETELY CRITICIZED BY DELEUZE AND M E NT ORIG I N A I RE.R E ACTION. MOREOVER. J U DGES OF ACTS WHO THEN CONDEMN OR J U STI FY. D E L E U ZE­ G U ATTA RI TH ROW I NTO Q U E STION THE EPI STEMO­ LOGY AND A N C I ENT-TH EATRE OF PSYCHOANALYSIS WITH ITS SENSE WHICH OF RE-PRESENTATION ACCOMPLI S H E D AND AT EX­ TH E L'H I STO I R E DE LA S E X U A LITE. ET SE PRODUIT LUI-MEME L'I DENTITE DE LA NATURE ET DE L'HOM M E . EN FAISANT D E S R E LATIONS FAMILIALES L'UNIVERSE LLE M EDIATION DE L'ENFANCE.H. THE C L I N I C A L LEVEL A N D ITS STULTIFY­ I NG U S E O F A SEXUAL DISCOURSE I S AUGM ENTED AND MUTUA LLY I N T E R P E N ETRATED BY A POLITICO­ SOCIAL LEVEL. ON SE CONDA M N E A M ECON N A ITRE LA PRODUCTION DE L'INCONSC I ENTE COLLECTIFS QUI LUI-MEME. FOR T H E C L I N I C WHICH THE H A S B ECO M E THE STAGE AND PIECES UPON SEXUALIS I N STALLS A N D E N FORCES A METHOD OF F R A G M E NTS OF THE INTER PRETATI ON. ESQUI V E OBLIGATOI RE DU CORPS. DES M A C H I N E S D E S I R A NTES ET D U CORPS SANS ORGA N E S . "C L I N I C A L" A N D " POLITICO-SOC I A L. THEY R I G HTLY C R I TICIZE TH E A BORTIVE D' A I L L E U R S Q U ' I N F L E X I O N 254 . SECONDLY. M I S E AU SILENCE ET PUDEURS AU I M PE RATIVES SI ECLE: DU LANGAGE: R U PT U R E L'AUTRE. AND WISH I NG TO TOU C H J U OG E M E NT A R E C R U C I A L. LA TRAGE DIE. PORTENT A C R U S U R L'I NCON­ SCI E NT. LE REVE ." THE RELATION M E NTION E D H E R E AS A N I D E NTITY M U ST B E FLESH E D-OUT AS THE PLACE OF I MPLOS I V E-EXPLOS I V E FUSION OF L I B I DO. SI ON VEUT LA CENTR E R SUR LES MECANISMES DE R E P RESSION.P S Y C H O LOG I C A L D I SC O U R S E .CONFESSION RATH E R T H A N E X PLOR ED IN ITS OWN " N I G H T OF N O N . THAT OF . SCIENTIA S E X UALIS H A S ITS MOST A R D E NT COMPANION I N THE C L I N I C A N D TH E PSYCHOLOGI­ C A L-SEXUAL LITE R A T U R E IT U PHOLDS AND PRAC­ TIC E S . VALORISATION A D U L TE DE PRESSION ARE EXPENSE OF THE L I V E D. CAR L ' I N CONSCIENT DANS EST ORPHELIN. SC I E NTI A U S E OF MYTH A N D SYSTEM BY PSYCHOA NA LYSIS. T H E PLA YERS NO LONGER A LLOWED TH E I R PLEAS U R A BLE PLACE. M A STERS OF THE TRUTH AND CONTROLL E R S OF A LT H O U G H THERE THE PLACE O F S E X U A LI T Y . PARTICULARLY IN TOUC H I NG T H E DEPTHS O F T H E UNCONSCIOUS. ET M A T R I M O N I A LE . AT THIS LEVEL ALSO CONTROL A N D FOLLOWING T H E ALLUSIVE S U GGESTION O F JOYCE AS TO RE-EMBOD I M E NT. THAT PSYCHOA N A LYSIS A LONE CANNOT B R I N G-OUT THAT D E PTH A N D TEXT U R E BEGINS TO BE MORE E V I D E NT. ' 2 G U A TTA R I . THE SOCIETY I N GENERAL WHICH LISTE NS. ON A SU BSTITUE U N THEA ANTIQUE: A U X UN ITES DE PRODUCTION D E L'INCONSCIENT. SHATTER E D SEXUA L-S Y M BOLIC-PLACE HAVE B E E N STREWN. DELEUZE A N D G U A TT A R I S P E A K OF T H E THE POVERTY O F M UC H O F THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC D I SCOURSE ON S E X U A LITY IS W E LL SKETC H E D OUT I N THESE R E M A R K S . BECOME MASTERS OF PARDON. DECENCE. NOTA M M E NT TOUT LE JEU D U R E FOULE­ FIRST. B E I NG RE-PLACED BY THE S PECTATORS OF SOCI ETY A N D A N A LYST: EN ENCADRANT LA VIE DE L' E N F A N T DANS L'OEDIPE. S U PPOSE DEUX R U PTU R ES. LAWRENCE SAW B E I NG SMOTH E R E D BY S E X U A L. IT IS NOT LA SEULE SEXUA LITE IMPE RATIFS DE ALTOGETH ER C L E A R THAT THE I R WOR K I NG G R I D OF M A C H I N E . A LB E I T N O T ALWAYS E V I D E NT. .H E R M E N E UTIC RAPE OF THE SEXUAL BODY. THIS DUE PRI M A R I LY TO THE CA PACITY OF SCI ENTIA SEX UALIS FOR D I S P E RSION AND LATERAL CON F I N E M E NT. ET LES MECANISMES ARE AT LEAST TWO LEVELS I NVOLVED. XX' MOINS DE LA HOWEVER." T H E T W O I N TE R P R E N ETRATE A N D I N FORM A N D S U PPORT EAC H OTH E R . O N A SUBSTITUE LA REPRESENTATION: A L'INCONSCIENT PRODUCTIF.R EC O R D I N G .UNCONSCIOUS-SYMBOL: A NEW SENSE FOR S E X U A L S U R FACE M UST BE DEVELOPED A N D GIVEN U N NOUVEL I D E A L I S M E : A L'INCONSCIENT COM M E U S I N E .

. AND U LT I M A T E L Y R E ­ GREEK TEMPLE. A N D FA S H I O N THE FLESH OF HIS WORLD TH ROUGH P O ET I C DI SCOU RSE.PLOS I O N OF TH E WOOD. TH E OLD P U R I T A N I S M C E D E S G LA D L Y TO THE N EW: T H E OLD TASK OF CON F I N E M E N T WAS TI R I NG AND U NABLE TO COPE ULTI M A T E L Y WITH T H E I M PLOS I V E . VERSES ON A WOODEN BOARD WITH A PENCIL POLITICAL CONTROL H A V E FOLLOWED THE S A M E THE L I N E S OF LIFE A R E VARIOUS. 1 4 WE HEA R THE CALM. A N D PEACE. '3 C R I TI C I S M DELEUZE AND G U ATTA R I . D E L E U ZE OUTLI N E D AND THE G UATTA R I HAVE MORE PATH FULLY AS THE PERHAPS ONE B E G I N S TO S P E A K WITH H 6 LDE R L I N RATH ER T H A N J UST A BOUT H I M A S WE F E E L A N D HEAR TH E SC R A P I NG OF HIS PENCIL U PON THE FLESH-STREWN H I S TO R I C A L.S Y M BOLIC. T H E OPEN D I SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. A R E A L L ALONG THE W A Y O F T H E CONTROL OF TH E FLESH O F I DENTITY O F N A T U R E A N D M A N . I R E P L I E D T H A T I H A V E T O WORK FOR M Y THAT I AM NOT FORT U N ATE ENOUGH TO LIVI NG.P L A C E D SENSE O F THE P R I M I TI V E . S PECTATORSH I P. C A R E S S . H I S NEGATIVE. PEN ETRATING ITS T E X T U R E A N D U N D E R M I N I NG I T S T I S S U E . CLEAR. A P E R H A PS PLACE. C A R E F O R H I S F U M B L I N G WITH THE W OO D A N D OTH E R P A R T I A L OJECTS O F H I S-OUR F R AG M E NT E D W O R L D . A N D OVERLY POLITI C A L D I S PA RATE. E M BLEMATIC O F TH E SC H I ZOPH R E N I C DIVI SION POR A R Y AND F R A G M ENTATION IS THE OF THE CONTE M ­ THE RADICAL AN EXTENT T H E Y A R E W I LL I NG T O PUSH THEI R OWN NOTION OF THE STAT U S OF THE WORLD GULF BETW E E N UNCONSCIOUS A S A N O R P H A N W H I C H G E N ERATES CAR PENTER'S H A N DL I N G O F T H E EARTH. I N VO L V E DISPERSION WHICH ACTIVE: I N M Y H O U S E H E S A W A DRAWI NG OF A M A N AGES A N D CONTROLS AT E V E R Y L E V E L A N D S E E K S O U T E V E R Y F I B R E O F T H E H U M A N PLAC E . ON POU R R A I T D I R E Q U ' A U V I E U X D R O I T DE FAIRE MOURI R OU D E LAISSER VIVRE S'EST SUBSTITUE U N POUVO I R D E F A I RE V I V R E OU DE R E J ET E R DANS LA MORT. OUR I N DICATIONS A S TO TH I S . MAD. Y O N D E R A GOD CAN COMPLETE WITH H A R M O N I ES. HE ASKED ME TO MAKE ONE L I K E IT I N WOOD. AND CON F I N E M E N T I S QUITE IT IS NOT C L E A R TO WHAT GESTU R E I S TO CAPTIVATE. POW E R Y E T. WATCH THE POET G I VE U P TH E P R I V I LEGE D PLACE A N D PAPER. BOTH LESS AND MORE OF THAN A Q U ESTION OF MERE A VA I E NT A SE DESERRER . LIVE I N P H I LOSOPHIC CALM LIKE H I M : I M M E DI ATELY H E REPLI ED. T H E STATUS OF HIS POETIC SPIRIT STI L L SHOWS ITSELF TO B E SCI ENTIA SEX U A LI S. A C LOSETED V E RTI C A L " O P E N " LAT E R A L SPACE TO A N U N .COURBE: C'EST LE MOMENT DE LA R E P R E SSION 00 LES M E C A N I S M E S COMMENCE ITSELF I N THE I DENTITY O F NATU R E A N D M A N . F L E S H I S M A D E .L I M I TE D . THE M A D N E S S OF N I ETZSC H E . L I B I D I N A L I M PU LS E A N D ITS H I STO R Y O F CON FRON­ TATION WITH PERSUASIVE. FA M I LI A R TEXTU R E A N D S I TE O F H I S USU A L D I SCOU R S E . IT I S A QUESTIO N OF P U S H I N G T H E I R NOTI N OF DESI R I NG­ THE P R I M A R Y D I F F E R E N C E S B E T W E E N TH E TWO OF R E P R E S S IO N D I SC O U R S E R E G A R D I NG HANG ON S E X U A L I TY THE SOCIO­ MACH I N E S TO THE L I M I T : OF S E E I N G THE POSI T I V E SENSE OF THE D I S P E R S I O N OF L I B I D I N A L I M PU L S E EVEN U PO N AND BACK TOW A R D THE ANCIENT SORTS AND SEXUAL POLITICAL CA PACITY TO CONFI N E S E X U A L DE PTH TO A DE-LI M I T E D OR THEATRE O F SYM BOL-TRAGEDY : O F EXPLORING T H E SEARCH F O R A FULLNESS A N D D E PTH OF FLESH A S IT COUR S E S T H ROUGH A N D T R A C E S I T S E L F U PON LIFE.S A V A G E . S PACE O F D I S P E R S I O N A N D DE-FUSION. T H E I R OUTLI N I NG THE EX. W H A T H E R E W E ARE. A S FOOTPATHS ARE. ANA LY­ P U N I SH M E N T A N D SEXUAL D I SC O U R S E .E X PLOS I V E FO RCE O F LI B I D I N A L. THE TORTURE OF DA M I E N S. ETE R N A L R ECOM P E N S E . ' 5 TH E CON F I N E M E N T O F T H E SICK. ALTHOUGH 255 . M U T I L A T E D. . H 6 LDE R L I N A N D ARTAUD. U LT I M A TE L Y . CONTROL LED. T H E N E W P U R I TA N I S M AS D I S P E R S IO N WILL ACCO M P L I S H MORE R A D I C A L V I E W TO T H E PLACE OF S E X U A L I T Y AND D I SC O U R S E FAC E S AND ARE OF TA K E N IN V I E W I NG FIGURES THE OF PA I N E D THE " M A D" H6 LDE R L I N N I ETZSC H E A LONG T H E FLESH­ STREWN PATH OF D I SSOLUTION O F T H E MO D E R N M O R E RADICALLY W H A T W A S A LWAYS AT I S S U E : A G E I NTO L I B I D I N A L SCH I ZOPH R E N I A . S POKEN O N . S O M E W H A T Q U I ET VOICE O F THE S I M PL E C A R PE N T E R ZI M M E R AS H E WRITES TO H 6 L D E R L I N ' S HER SON'S MO T H E R D U R I NG TH E AND YEARS OF G ROWI NG " M A D N ESS" FREQU E N T SI LENCE: T H E POSS I B I L I T I E S OF T H E N E W P U R I T A N I S M . J ECTED SIS.I D E NTITY.G E N E T I C M O V E M E N T O F P R I M I T I V E ­ DESPOT-CA P I TA L A N D U LTI MATE D I SSOLUTION I N TO SCH I ZOPH R E N I A O F CONTEM PO R A R Y SOCI ETY A N D ITS RETURN TO A N E W B U T D I S. "OH BUT I A M A POOR C R E A T U R E : AND IN TH E SAME M I NUTE H E WROTE T H E FOLLOWI N G I F N ECESSA RY. ' 6 P A T H STREWN W I T H H U M A N F L E S H . DESTRUCTIVE. C L A S S I F I E D. AND AS THE MOUNTA I NS' CONTO U R S .

H 6LDER­ LlN'S DESPA I R OVER THIS FRAGMENTATION A LONG THE PATHS OF LIFE SEEKS COM FORT AND PA RT I C U L. Y C E R T A I N G UATTA RI S E E TH E I R W A Y TO LIBERATING SEXUAL DISCOURSE FROM ITS MERE F A SC I N ATION A N D SUGGESTIONS TO FOL.I NVESTED U NCON­ SCIOUS AND OF S E X U A L I M PUL. E S" -TH O S E O F THE TH I N K E R N I ETZSC H E 'S D I R ECTIO N .L. AT L. N O SOURCE GROUN D FOR THE M ET A P H Y S IC I A N TO S T A N D U P O N .­ ITY A N D THE L I B I D I N A L. SPEAKS OF NO ABOVE OR S E N S E O F I N SC R I PTION A N D E M BODI M ENT.L.A N D T H A T W O U L..Y B Y F R E U D THROUGH WHAT T H E POET BL. COU R S E A N D TH E LlB I D I N A L.D. D E M BOD I M E N T IS BOTH A PLUNGE FROM A N D TOWA R D OUR OWN F L E S H E D . E M BO D I E D SATYR AS BOTH A R C HETYPE OF M A N A N D SYMBOL . A T ISSUE.Y-PRESENCE A N D RICH POWER OF NATURE.L. NOT E A T A T TH E I R TA B L. N I ETZSCH E SPEAKS LUCI D LY AND I RO N I C AL.Y P U R S U E D T H E COM FORT. BUT IN TH E SAME SPIRIT AND OVE R AGAI NST TH E D I S SOLUTION OF A C E NTER WHICH NO L. E X AS NOTI O N S O F A WAY H6L D E R L I N THE AND L I B I D I N A L. T H E M ETAPHYSICAL COMFORT-WITH W H I C H I A M S UGGESTI NG LEAVES EVEN NOW. FLESH.D. D A L. H ENCE. .F E LT WORLD.S Y M BOLIC. E V E L.. A LTHOUGH U NABLE TO TOUCH I N A D EQ UATE FORM U L.A K E TERMED " M I ND­ FORG E D A N A L. TA K I N G U S C LOS E R T O A S E X U A L D I S­ IF TH E M ETAPHYSIC I A N S COUL. H E H A S BEAUTIFU LLY STRUGG LED WITH AND PARTIA LL.EAST A S OPPOSED TO US-THAT LIFE AT THE BOTTOM OF TRAN SC E N D E NC E TOWAR D AN ABSOL. COMFORT WHICH IS N E I TH E R HE P R O P E R L. NOR IS REALLY A COMFORT.AMMED THE DOOR I N TH E I R FAC E S : ZA R A TH U ST R A W I L L. A N D M A R ROW OF TH E L I V E D. EVERY TRUE TRAGEDY IS TR A N SC E N D E N C E .Y M ETA P H Y S I C A L.ACE O F PLAY WHICH I S L. H IG H E R . M A N A C L. I N THE SENSE O F A CONSOLATION.ATIONS OR V I E WS TO SEXUAL.ESH OF SYMBOL AS T H E PLACE OF T H E H U M A N : I NVOLVE W O U L. ALREADY A RECONCI LI ATION GOD'S I N THE HOPE FOR THE FLEEING TO FASHION H A R MO N Y IN C A PA C I TY PATH STRUCK U PON BY H 6L.Y. D SEEM TO HAVE O N L. LOOK. SC U L. A S S I F Y IT AS FINITE SENSE BOTH A WORK AND JOY OF A RT I S T I C C REATION. . B E YO N D RAPID R E J ECTION B Y DEL. N I ETZSC H E H A S SL. Y O F TH E F L.T H E A T R E OF A N D GUATTAR I O F THE M YT H AND DREAM AS P E R H A PS FIXATION UPON P LE A S U R E OF DESI RING-MAC H I N E S . D E PTH OF TH E WORL. . POI NTS TO THE PL.Y O F A M ETAPHYSICAL.SE FROM I TS ETH E R E A L SPACE TO THE FLESH. I M P U L.UDED T O H E R E . T H R U ST U PO N O U R WORL. I N DESTRUCTABLY POWERFUL A N D P\. C E RTA I N L.SE AS MORE THAN A PROC R EATIV E D E PTH.IN. R E A D Y A P H A L L I C . CAREFUL. STRUCK OUT A PATH TOWA R D POETICALLY TA K I NG U P ONE'S F L.L. 256 .Y BY THE SATYR OF G R E E K TRAGEDY.OW THI S O N E -THAT OF OUR BODIES.A B E L. ONE WHO PROCLAIMS WISDOM FROM THE VERY H E A RT OF NATURE.YST. I B I D I N A L. NO D E S POTIC PAR E N T TO OO M I NATE IT. SUCH A S THESE RICH AND C O M P L.L. E S H E D-OUT.OW. TAKING IT FURTHER THAN H 6L. FI XATION U PO N THE SACRED FAM I LY A N D A M ER E UTILITY O F P ROCREATION. AND T H E POErs EXPRES­ SIVE DI SCOU RSE. THE EMBODIMENT OF HIS HIGH EST AND MOST I NTENSE EMOTIONS. THE ECSTATIC REVELER E N R A PTURED B Y THE PROXI M ITY OF H I S GOO. YET. Y E T . S E X U A L.U N ABLE TO FASH ION IT I NTO THE PLACE OF THE WHOLE A S EXPRESSIVE. D L. A SYMBOL OF THE S E X U A L O M N I POTE N C E OF NATURE W H I C H THE OF TH E S E X U A L POL. WORLD NOR A B E Y O N D THE WORLD. THESE S E E M R E P L. THE U NCONSCIOUS HAS NO PA R ENTAGE. R A T H E R . I B I D I N A L. THE SYMPATHETIC COM P A NION I N WHOM THE SUFFERING OF THE GOO IS R EPEATED. D E S I R E . E . LIKE N I ETZSC H E . E S H I N T H E W O R L D AG A I N ST TH E PATH OF BEL.ON G E R HOLDS. I K E THAT I S A T STAK E . SPEAK OF TH E DEPTH O F L I B I D I N A L. A N OTH E R WORLD. TH EY. A C E D A T THE L. ALL. O F T H E N I ETZSC H E .UTE I N F I N ITE. FOR OU R WOR L. THEY SEEM TO HAVE OVERLOOKED THE SENSE I N WHICH TH E HAS M YTHIC-DREAM-PLAY OF BEEN STI F L E D LIBIDINAL.Y C REATIVE FL.A R PATH . N I ETZSCH E S P E A K S CONCRETEL.BO D I E S AND A PARTI A L OBJECTS A N D FRAGM E NTATION WHICH IS THE D I S SO L U T I O N A N D C O N F I N E M E N T O F THE PLA C E O F S E X U A L-CREATIVE-SYMBOL.Y S O M ETH I N G L. YET.PTING W H I C H WE DO A N D A R E : IN A N I ETZSC H E S E E M S TO H A V E CLEARLY P U R S U E D A S I M I L.D GET TH E I R H A N D S ON T H I S " I D E A " .DER­ LIN. WO R L D CHARACTERIZED MOST F UL. DESPITE ALL THE CHA NGES OF A PPEAR­ A NCES.DERL.E A­ S U R A B LE-THI S COMFORT APPEARS IN INCARNATE CLARITY IN THE CHORUS OF SATYRS . MOST C E NTRA L TO THE TRAGEDY OF H 6 LDERLl N'S OWNMOST A RTISTIC D I SSOLUTION IS P E R H A PS HIS FLE E I NG FROM AND DIS-PLACING HIS WO R L D TOWA R D A NOTH E R . A N D POETIC.UDE AS THE ORPHAN WHICH IS TH E U NCONSCIOUS. A R L. FOR THE N O T I O N O F S U B J ECT I S N O T THINGS. N I ETZSC H E STRIKES AT THE HEART O F THAT I D E NTITY O F M AN-NATURE T O W H I C H DELEUZE A N D GUATTARI ALL.L. T H E SATYR WAS THE A RC H ETYPE OF MAN.D E S POT I C S E I Z U R E -T H E Y AND C L. I F DELEUZE A N D GREEKS USED TO CONTEMPLATE WITH REVERENT WO N OE R . . ' 7 ONE W O U L.EUZE A N C I E N T.

TRAVE RSING A D I SSOLUTION FOUGHT T O THE LAST ROBERT V A N RODEN A LL E N NOTES 6 CF. A N D PLEASU R E . 57. FLESH O F H E R TH E PLACE O F N I ETZSCH E'S S A T Y R I S THE PLACE OF L I B I D I N A L· S Y M BOLIC PLAY. P. TH E SATYR R EVELS A N D SPEAKS WISDOM FROM WITH I N AND WITHOUT I N O R D E R TO EROS CONTROL HER C H I LO. T H E SATYR M U ST B E TH E BECO M I N G O F H I S F L E S H .. REFUSE LOVE OF H I S D E STI NY. A LWA YS R E M E M B E R I NG THE MOI ST. . 1 9481. M A N I S BOTH W I TH I N NATURE. P. 7. W A I T I N G DOM I N ATION AND REVENGE AGAI NST DESTIN Y. GRATING OF F L E S H -T H E VOLUPTUOUS N ESS: T H E S E D UCTI VE GLANCE: T H E W R I N K LED. IT I S THE PLAY OF C H I LD'S UNWORN PLACE I S THE D I SCOURSE SOUGHT. 1 6. S M I LES OR L A U G H S WITH SOFT. II CF. BORN OUT OF TH E C U TT I N G OFF OF AGGRESSION. WHICH IS HIS WORLD OF POWER. US. 49. THAT PLAY IS THE MOT H E R . TENDER. 77 8< FF.QUT E C S TA T I C A L L Y TH E H IG HEST E M OT I O N S AND R E C E PT I V I T Y E ROS. ( E M P H A S I S A DDEO) 10 4 GI LLES D E LEUZE ET FELIX GUATTARI. YET WITHOUT TIME AND TH E OFTEN FORGOTTEN PLAY O F O U R PLACE: T H E A M B I VALENT DESI R E A N D VIOLENCE OF PAN'S E M BODI M E NT S H R I E K OUR P R E D I CA M E N T I N TH E TI M E O F SCU LPTU R E BECOME M A C H I N E . CF. 2 8 6. C REATION M A N AGE FULLEST DESI R E S O F M A N . O R F I X E D ESSENCE. T H E E M OTIONS. P. 7 M I C H E L FOUCAULT. P. SARTRE. HISTOI RE DE LA SEXUALITE ( P R E M I E R TOMEI LA VOLONTE DE SAVOI R ( P A R I S : GALLI M A R D . 662. NATUR E . COMPAN ION. TH E N O U R I S H I N G . A N D THE LOVE OF THAT PLACE. THE IS N OT PAN OF A PH RODITE'S E RO S ? ' 8 YET. CONCR ETE. THE PATH TO THAT WORLD WHICH WE FACE. A L L. 9 3 CF. 2 J EAN. BESPEAK FLESH FACE TA KING U P A N D B E I N G THE FLESH OF T H A T FORCE OF LIFE WHICH IS AT T H E BOTTOM OF ALL TH I NGS. P L I A N T. A JOY WITH THE WORLD.. P. N A K EDLY. PAN. (EMPHASIS A DD E O) 8 IBID. p . U N AB A S H EDLY CRIES WITH US. E ROS TOUCHES BOTH. FATH ER A PH RODITE T H REATENS PAN. 334. S Y M BOLIC M OV E M E N T IS T H E PLAYFU LLY: F L E E I N G . AS FLESH I NG. 6. THE FU LLNESS O F H I S PLACE. OF A P H RO D I T E RECEPTI VE. 1 9741. S E X U A L. THE WORLD. 257 . SCREA M I NG . THE PLACE OF MAN'S DESTI N Y TO BE H I S BODY AND LIVE I N T H E WORLD. G ENET. L'ANTI­ I BID. H A R DLY F E M I N I N E . TO R N M O V E M E NT OF AGED LINES STEELY. A N D W ITHOUT A NATURE. H E ED I NG T H E W H I S P E R OF T H E G ENTLY FLESH-SCU LPTE D E ROS AMID THE R A NT I N G . TRANSLATED BY (NEW YORK: P H I LO· IBID . IT I S THE PLAY OF T H E FLESH OF THE FACE WHICH STAR K LY. 1 9 5 2 8< 1 9701. P. P .BEYOND THE I R COM PLEX ATTEM PT A T THE FUSION O F V I T A L I S M· M EC H A M I S M . R E M I N D I N G ALL T H A T EROS I S THE AB AN DO N ED C H I LO OF A L L O F U S . B E OR TOUCH A GOD. SC H I ZOPH R E N I C C A PITALI S M . 3 1 . Y E T E V E N SO U R C E OF THE T H R EAT. F O R TH E DANCE OF PLAYFUL EMBOD I M E NT. IBID . COM PLETING A C I RC LE. I BID" PP.2 9 1 AND P. 390. N I ETZSC H E TRANSFORMS T H E PLACE O F BY A FIRM DESIRE. AND VIOLATE HER AS AND ESCAPE HIS BODY A N D WORLD. FREED FROM THE HORN E D DOMINANCE OF TRAGEDY I N T O T H E FULL P L A C E OF A L O V E O F THAT DESTI N Y. 11 OEDIPE (PARIS: LES EDITIONS D E M I N UIT1. TH E FACE-PLAY IS H A R DL Y MASCULI N E . 12 I B I D. G LA S (PA R I S: EDITIONS GALI LEE. AND TO U C H I N G T H E .PA U L SARTRE. 3 6 Be FF. THE SATYR PLAYS IN TH E ARENA OF T H E TRAGIC. H I S PLAYFUL. R E PEATI NG H I S SUFFERING IN EACH OF M A N'S ATTEMPTS TO AGGRESSION B Y THE WI NGS O F A FREE PLAY A MONG US. 3 1 5. PP. A L L OF US. T H E SOFT F U S I O N POINT O F BOTH. W H I C H FACES U S AROU ND. N I ETZSC H E'S PLAYFUL SATYR BECKONS. SARTRE. THE SATYR I S ODDLY THE COMPANION O F T H E GOD. JACQU E S D E R R I DA. IT I S THE GOATS F A C E O F M A N . SAIN T G E N ET-COMEDIEN ET MARTYR ( P A R I S : G A L L I M A RD. BERNARD F R EC H T M A N SO PHICAL LIBRARY. p. THE HORNED AGG RESSION OF T H E D I SSOL UTION OF SCH I ZOP H REN IC CAPITALI SM-TH E DISPERSION OF ALL-WOULD SEIZE ABUNDANT MOT H E R OF APHRODITE. FLOATS F R E E LY .. A N AREA DE·LIM ITED. 1 9761. P.

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D I SCOU RSE. M UTI LATES OUR PLEA SU RES. HAR- S T R U G G L E A G A I N ST C A P I T A L I S T O P P R E S S I O N 260 . . I T P E R M E ATES O U R BOD I E S . TORT U R I NG. IT N E U ROTIC. HERE R E I G N S CASTRATION. IT EXERCISES TH I S CONTROL U N DER ALL OF I TS VARIOUS G U I SES: T H E F A M I LY. TH I S OLD O R D E R . REDUCING THE " S U B J ECT" TO A G U I LT. REIGN OF TH E CAPITALIST STATE U S E S R ETENTION. BUT I T H A S FORC E D US TO D I R ECT TH E R E VO L U T I O N A R Y TA K E S OVE R O U R ORGANS. SEXUAL.R I D D E N . ROBS US OF OUR VITAL F UNCTIONS. I S INDEED HORRI FYING. ALL TH E BETTER TO I N SC R I BE ITS LAWS U PON O U R FLESH. P E R PETUATES ITSELF. OPPRESSING. REEKING OF ROTT I N G BOD I ES. TO R I V ET I NTO OUR UNCONSCIOUS ITS M E C H A N I S M S FOR PROPAGATI NG SLAVERY. ASSIGN ITS ROLES. MODELS. CUT OFF F R O M H I S OWN B O D Y . A N D PROFITA B I L I TY. IT TURNS EACH OF U S I NTO A C R I PPLE. I N DUSTRIOUS B E I NG . T H E A R MY. IT I N FACT H A S A LWAYS CONTROLLED L I F E THROUGH ITS E X P R E S S I V E . A N END PA R A LYZI NG A D M I N I STRATION. P R I V ATE P R O P E RTY. CONSTR A I N I NG IT TO THE DICTATES OF ITS TOTA LITA R I A N ORGA N I ZATION B A S E D O N E X PLOITATI O N . R U LES. A STR A N G E R TO H I S O W N D E S I R E S . LITTLE M O R E THAN A M A N U A L LABO R E R .TO DESTROY S E X U A LITY TO PUT N ESSES A L L OF O U R " L I F E " P RODUCTI VITY UN D E R ITS O W N A LTHOUG H THE C A P I T A L I ST ORDER A PPEARS TO BE TOLERA NT. FORC I NG ITS ROOTS OF DEATH DEEP I N TO OUR S M A LLEST CREVIC ES. I M P R I NT ITS C H A RACTERS. STASIS. SC A R I F I CATION NORMS AND AND N E U ROSI S TO I M POSE ITS THOU S A N D-YEA R-OLD SAC R I F I C E . M A L E DOM I N A NCE. EXC LUDE AND N E UTRA LIZE A L L THOSE PRACTICES OF O U R WILL THAT DON'T AND R E PRODUCE SO TH I S THESE FOR M S OF DOM I N ATION. EXTORTION S O A S T O USE IT A LONG WITH A MASSIVE R E I N FO R C E M E N T OF SOC I A L TERROR ( I N D I V I D U A L GUI LTI TO R E P R ESS. COD I F I E D M ASOC H I S M R ESIGNATION. . THE WOR K PLACE. AND MANGLI NG THE BODY. EMOTION­ A L AND A FFECTI VE A S P ECTS. PROM U LGATE ITS PROG R A M S . IT U N F A I L­ I N G LY P U R S U E S ITS A BJECT M I SSION OF CASTRAT­ ING. AND DEATH U N H A P PY G R A T I F I C A T I O N . PROVOCATION. T H E FORCES OF CA PITALIST OCC U PATION CONTIN­ UALLY REFINE TH E I R SYSTEM OF AGG R E S S I O N . PROFIT. SCHOOLS.

A MORE R A D ICA L AND DEFINITIVE C O N F R O N TA T I O N . PATR I A R C H A L EX PLOITA­ TION. THEY HAVE BEGUN. BODY'S SPACE TO S U BV E R S I O N A N D TO OPEN UP THE SPACE OF S U B V E R S I ON TO TH E " I M M E D IATE N E EDS OF T H E BODY." A BODY WHICH OF OUR MOUTHS. T H E ENTI R E SENTI E N T S U R FACE OF O U R BODY. J UST SO THEY C A N TU R N TH E M I NTO PA RTS FOR TH E I R IGNOMI N I O U S MAC H I N E W H I C H PRODUCES C A PITAL. WE W A NT T O EXPLO D E T H E F R I G I D . HERE WE FIND PEOPLE P R E PA R I NG A GREAT U P R I SI N G OF L I F E A G A I N ST A L L O F T H E M A N I F ESTA­ TIONS OF D EATH W H I C H CONTI N U A LLY I N S I N UATE THEMSELVES I N TO OUR BODY. EX PLOITATION AND THE F A M I LY. F R O M T H E "C I V I LI Z E D CROSS TH E SPACES OF A L I M ITLESS BODY. TO ESC A P E F RO M T H E SEDENTARY SLAUGHTER O F WANTI N G TH E F U N D A M ENTAL F R E E DOM TO ENTER HERE WE FIND PEOPLE WHO H AVE S H ORT­ INTO THESE REVOLUTI O N A R Y PRACTICES E NTA I LS OUR ESCAPING WE FROM TH E L I M ITS OF OUR OWN C I RCUITED T H E H A C K N E Y E D S E PA RATION BETWE EN "POLITICS" AND L I V E D E X P E R I ENCE. THAT FOR R EVOLTI NG BEEN A G A I NST THE IN WE CAN N O LON G E R STAN D BY I DL Y W H I L E THEY CONTROL. A SEPA RATION B R I N G I N G G E N E R O U S R ETU R N S TO TH E M A N AG E R S OF O U R BO U RG E O I S SOCI ETY A S W E L L A S TO THOSE WHO PR ETE N D TO R E P R E S E N T THE M A SSES AND TO SPEAK IN TH E I R N A M E . REVOLT I N G A G A I NST TH E PATHOLOG I C A L A U T H O R I TY OF A D U LTS. L I V I NG BODY. NOR W H I LE THEY USE O U R B R A I N AS A M E A N S OF PUN I S H M ENT P R OG R AM M E D BY A M B I E NT POWE R. OUR E N E RGY ACCO R D I N G TO THEIR LAWS WITH TH E I R M INOR. EVER MORE S U BTLY B I N D I N G OUR E N E RG I ES. AC­ WE WANT TO FREE THE SPACE -TH E CONTEXT. TO OPEN UP TH E W E CAN NO LONG E R STA N D BY I DLY W H I L E TH E Y U S E O U R NE RVOUS S Y S T E M A S A RELAY I N TH E SYSTEM OF CAPITA L I ST. COLLECTI V E L Y . IT I S A LONG THIS "PATH" THAT WE PROPOSE TO "WORK" TOWARDS T H E L I B E R ATION O F SOC I A L SPACE. LIVE I N T H E W I L L F U L M O B I L I TY BEYOND S E X U A LITY. F E D E R A L. BETWEEN THE BODY A N D S U BJ ECT A S CONSC IO U S N E SS. TO W H I C H THESE R EVOLUTIONARY A R R A NG I N G TH E M ­ ARE " N E C E S S A R I LY" D E S I R E S FROM TH I S "FO R E I G N " G R I P. " S E LF. THE LOC U S -O F THE BODY AND ITS OWN SPECIFIC CORDI NG FORCES SELVES. HERE MALE TH E I R WE FIND WOMEN. M E M BR A N E S . R E A LITY TO TH E I M PERATI V E S OF T H E ESTA B L I S H E D O R D E R . T H E R E I S NO S E PA RATION B E T W E E N TH E T W O : I OPPRESS MYSELF BECAUSE THIS "I" I S THE PRODUCT OF A THE BODY SYSTEM OF OPPRESSION OPE RATING AC ROSS ALL FO R M S OF E X P E R I E N C E . O U R GUTS. O U R SALIVA. TH E LINKS BETWEEN AND WE CAN NO LON G E R NOT "CO ME" O R HOLD BACK O U R SH IT. W E CAN N O LONG E R STA N D BY I D L Y W H I LE W E A R E ROBBED A " R E VOLUTI O N A R Y CONSCI O U S N ESS" I S NOTH I N G BUT A C H I M E RA A S L O N G A S IT R E M A I NS OUTS I D E OF A " R E V O L U TI O N A R Y BODY." M U ST TURN TH E " S U B J ECT" W I TH I N O U R S E LV E S UPSI DE-DOWN: E SC A PE F R O M T H E STATE" AND S E D E N TA R Y . TO L E R A T E D J O U I SSANC E -T H E H E IG H T O F C OG N I T I V E S E X U A L F U L F I LLM ENT-A N D POW E R . DESI R ES. R EG U LATE AND OCCUpy O U R M UCOUS POW E R BOD I E S HAS I N S E M I NATED C E N T U R I ES: H O M O S EX U A LS. E V E N A M O N G R A D I C A L G R O U PS. . A S TH EY EXIST EVERYWH E R E TH ROUGHOUT C A PITALIST I N F RACTIONS. WANTS MORTI F I E D BODY THAT MAKE CAPITALISM OUT O F O U R S O DESPERATELY TO SOCI ETY. B E YON D 26 1 . . O U R V E I N S .TH E R E W H E R E IT IS MOST D E E PLY ROOTED-I N THE L I V I N G FLESH OF O U R OWN BODY. G E N E RATES ITS O W N F R E E DO M . THE PORES O F OUR S K I N . OUR S E X U A L M E M BERS. I N H I BITED. OUR A NUSES." HERE WE FIND PEOPLE B EG I N N I NG TO QUESTION AND I N VESTIGATE THE VA R I O U S MODES BY W H I C H DESI R E IS P RO D U C E D. THEY TO THE FO RM T H E CONTO U R S O F A N E W FISSURE. R EVOLTI NG A G A I NST THE T E R RO R I Z I N G FASC I S M OF NORMA LITY: A DOLESCENCE.

SCHOOLS. SUBWAYS. WE U N D ERTOOK T O DETE R M I N E HOW TIONS SO THAT WE M IGHT D I SCOVER J U ST WHAT OU R LIVING BODY IS. U N I V E RSE OF O U R R E P R E S E NTATIONS. BETWEEN CONJUGAL DUTY WHOSE LIVES I NCLUDE ANY SENSUAL. WE W A N T TO I N THE FROM THE G R I P OF THE FORCES T H A T OPPRESS AND R E PRESS O U R D E S I R E S . D E STROY IT. ITS R U LES MAXIMUM WE W A N T TO F R E E . AND CON F R O N T TH E M . CONFESSIONALS. WE STRIVE TO ELUCI DATE IN COMMON THE TH E M A N AG E R S OF "ADVANC E D" CAPITALISM DO MECHANISM B E H I N D ATT R A C T I O N . S E X U A L EXPE R I E N C E FROM T H E CONJ UGAL BED TO THE B O R D E L LO TO SAY NOTH I N G OF P U B LI C W E W A N T T O B E A B L E T O EXERCISE E A C H O F O U R VITAL FU NCTIONS EXPERI ENCING TH E I R FULL TOI L ETS. FACTO R I E S . FETISHES. TO G ET RIO OF IT BECAUSE F I N A L A N A LYSIS IT FU NCTIONS AS AN I N F I N ITELY R E PEATI N G CASTRATION MAC H I N E DESIGNED TO W E STR I V E TO TA K E O U R PERSONAL. WHAT WE WANT. LIVE THEM COLLECTIVELY. PRISONS. THE R E IS I NTE RACTION POLITICS F U N D A M ENTAL WISH TO BE "ALIVE. THE " U N M E NTIONABLE" HAS BECOME OUR PREOCCU PATION." WE HAVE DEC I DED TO E XPLODE THE UNBEARABLE SECRET THAT POW E R USES AGAINST EVERYONE N O F U N D A M E NTA L D I F F E R E N C E B E TW E E N T H E " I M MACULATE CONCE PTION" A N D T H E PUBLICITY­ MINDED AND PROSTITUTE. THE SA M E F R A G M E N TATION O F T H E BODY A S SOU RC E O F D E S I R E CONTI N U E S U N A BATED. PHOBIAS. CLEA R LY.TH E T E R R I TORY A N D R E P E RTORY OF NORMA LITY. ETC. U N FETT E R AND R E LI EVE TH I S LIVING BODY S O A S TO F R E E A LL OF ITS E N E RGI ES. OUR MESSAGE. OUR DESI RES. I NTIMATE LIFE E X P E R IENCES TH E M . BOU RGEOI S. OUR POL I T I C A L T I M E-BOM B S OC I A L SINCE I N TH E R E A L M O F E X H I B I TS A TE NT. WE CONFRONTED OUR INDIVIDUAL "E X P E R I E NCES" B Y R ECOGNIZING THAT. SEXUAL OR AFFECTIVE I N VOLV E M ENT WHATSOEVER-TH E SAME K I N O OF CONTROL IT EXERCISES OVE R A N Y R E A L SOCI A L ACTI ON T H A T PRODUCES OR R E P RODUCES FOR M S O F OPPRESSION. DISCOS. THI S IS HOW SOME OF U S H A V E COM E TO FEEL THE VITAL NEED TO FREE O U R S E LV E S "TOG E TH E R " DOWN T H I S OFFICI A L SEXUALITY AS O N E WOULD B R E A K DOWN TH E CONDITION OF ONE'S I M PR I SON­ MENT W I TH I N ANY STR UCTU RE. TO M AKE R E P U LS I O N . W E W A N T T O R E D I SCOV E R SE NSATIONS AS B A S I C A S WE'RE NOT CONC E R N E D WITH SIM PLY B R E A K I NG THE P LE A S U R E I N B R E AT H I N G THAT H A S B E E N 262 ." THE DRIVING POWER BEHIND CA PITA LISM'S A POLOGIES. HOWEVER "FREE" THEY MAY HAVE A PP E A R E D TO U S . WE C O N SC R I PT I V E AND CONTI N U A LLY CONFO R M TO THE STEREOTYPES OF AN OFFICIAL S E X U A LITY THAT CONTROLS EVERY SYSTEM . OBSESSIONS. TO D E STROY SEXUA LITY. COM PLEMENT OF PLEASU R E . RATH E R THAN R E D UCE IN SEXUAL DISCON­ R E S I STANCE. EXPLORE R E PRODUCE E V E RYWH E R E AND I N EVERYON E THE U NQU ESTIO N I N G OBEDI ENCE OF A SLAVE. S POK E N FROM UN­ B E I NG "LIBERA LIZED" S E X U A L MORES AND THE EXTENTION OF " E ROTI C I S M " T H R O U G H A D V E R T I S I NG TO A L L SOCI A L L I F E STRUCTU R E D A N D CONTROLLED BY SPOK E N . S U R PLUS V A L U E AND R E PRODUCE­ A B I L I TY . PRI VATE F R O M S OC I A L. ONLY THE STRA­ TEGY C H ANGES. B R E A K DOWN TH E CONCRETE WALL THAT S E RVES TH E DOM I N A N T SOC I A L O R D E R BY S E PA R ATI NG FROM APPEARANCE. T H E S E REALM OF P R A CTIC E S FACT EXTEND TH E A N D "LACK" THAT F R U ST R A T I O N FACI LITATES T H E T R A N S FO R M ATION OF D E S I R E I N TO A COMPULSI V E CON S U M E R I S M A N D GUARAN­ TEES "TH E C REATION OF DEMAND. R E LEASE. CLEAR TH E NOTH I N G MORE THAN I N C R E A S E THE EFFICIENCY OF TH E " R E PRODUCTIVE" F U N CTION OF THE "OFF I C I A L" LIBIDO. ORGASM. SEX SHOPS. TH E SAME RESTRICTIONS A PPLY. WHAT WE DESIRE IS TO K I C K IN THE FACADE OVER S E X U A LITY A N D ITS R E P R E S E NTA­ IN O R D E R TO E X PLORE M UTUA LLY OUR I N DI V I D U A L H I STOR I ES. AND J U D EO­ C H R I ST I A N SUBSUMED SOC I E T Y . WE S T R I V E TO "SEXUALITY" IS J U ST A S MONSTROUS IN WHAT IT "PERMITS" AS IN WHAT IT RESTRI CTS. PASSIONS C R U S H E D BY P R OG R A M E D SOC I A L PROFITABI LITY. O U R LIVES AS R E F LECTED THROUGH OUR DESIRES WERE ENTI R E LY CONTROLLED BY T H E BASIC LAWS OF O U R B U R E A UC R ATIC. T H E " E N LI G H T E N E D " P R O M I SC U I TY OF TH E BOURGEOI S I E : TH E PROGRESSION IS U N B RO K E N . UNDER AND HOW THEY OF WERE TO GET R I D OF PROG R A M M ED TRA I N I NG.

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MOBI LE AND M U LT I P L E HUMAN R E D I SC O V E R V I B RATI NG. WE TO L I B E RATE E N E R G I E S BODY. TO A NO T H E R C I R C U LATE BODY: TO TRANSM I T V I BRATIONS. M A S T E R A N D S L A V E . WE HAVE R E U N ITED "POLITIC A L" E N E RG I E S . THE N E U ROSI S OF ACC U M U LATION. A FFECTIVE A N D ECSTATIC R E LATION S H I PS IS I N S E P A R A B LY LINKED MALE TO LIBERATING WOM E N D I G E S T I N G THAT H A S B E E N I NT E R R U PTED BY T H E RH YTH M OF PROFITA B I LITY A N D T H E ERSATZ FOOD I T PRODUCES: O R T H E PLEA S U R E I N S H I TTI NG AND P E D E R A S TY T H A T H A S B E E N SYSTE M A T I C A L L Y AND DESTROYING DOM I N A N C E A N D R O L E M OD E LS . SURE IN PRODU C I N G PLEASURE A N D IN CREATING­ PLE A S U R E THAT H A S BEEN RUTH LESSLY STRA I GHT­ JACKETED C H A RG E BY THE E D UCATIONAL SYSTEM IN OF PRODUCI NG W O R K E R S-COM M A N D WE HAVE BEGUN AND SHALL CONTI N U E TO CON S U M E RS. TO A R RANGE D E S I R E S TO PRACTICE WITH T H E R E A LITY O F THE BODY A N D ITS FU NCTIONS BY COLLECTIVELY I N VESTIGATING ALL THAT EACH IS F R E E TO PLAY OUT ITS FANTA S I E S A N ECSTASI ES. IT I N SC R I B E S D I R ECTLY U PO N T H I S F L E S H ITS F U N D A M E NT A L W E WANT TO B E RID O F A L L ROLES AND I DENTITI E S B A S E D ON T H E P H A L L U S . WITH THE HAVE BEGUN WITH T H E THE R E VO L U T I O N A R Y BODY. WE REALIZE HOW MANY OBSTAC LES WE HAVE INTO TO OVERCOM E TO MAKE O U R ASPI RATIONS SOM ETH I NG MORE T H A N THE DREAMS OF A G U Y H OC K E N G H E M TRANSLATED BY T O M GORA 264 . IN OUR RAVING. WANT TO REDI SCOVER T H E C I E S . ETC. P R I N C I PLES: T H E POWE R L I N E S O F EXPLOITATION. CONSEQU ENTLY. BEINGS WITH VARYING DIFFERENCES W H O CAN ECSTA­ PLEA S U R E WE INTERCHANGE D E S I R E S . WALK I NG.E S P E C I A LLY S E X U A L ROLE MODELS. DOGS." ASSA U LT E D BY T H E C A P I TA L I ST ESTA B L I S H M E NrS OPINION OF THE SPH I NCTER. EXPRESSING FINDING O U R S E LV E S . BODY IN S I NG I N G ­ A L L WAYS PLEA­ A U TO N O M O U S . TO AND THE E FFECTI V E SPACE OF ALL OPPRESSION. W E WANT TO B E R I D O F T H E CATEGO R I E S O F M A N A N D WOM A N . OF COURSE. WE WANT TO THE PLEASURE IN S H A K I NG OUR­ W E WANT TO B E R I D OF S E X U A L SEGR EGATI O N . WE S E E K TO R I P O U T OF OURSELVES THE FESTERING R U MOR O F GUI LT THAT F O R THOUSANDS OF YEARS H A S B E E N AT T H E ROOT O F A L L OPPRESSION. GRATIFICATIONS. H U M M I NG . AND T E N D E R E M OTIONS WITHOUT R E F E R R I N G B A C K T O T A B L E S OF S U R PLUS V A L U E O R PO W E R STRUCTU R E S T H A T A RE N'T A LREADY I N T H E R U L E S OF THE GAME. G R E A T E R A N D LESSER. THIS IS THE O N LY A PPROACH THAT CAN TRULY STRE NGTH E N U S AGA I N ST A SYSTEM O F DOM I NA ­ TION THAT CONTI N U A LLY EXPANDS ITS POWERS O F "WE A K E N I NG" A N D " M O L D I NG" T H E ITS AXIOMS. WE W A N T I N ST E A D T O BE TRANSSEXUAL. WE A R E K E E N L Y AWA R E T H A T L I B E R A T I N G T H E BODY F O R S E N S U A L. GAY AND S T R A I G H T. N O T BECA USE OF NEED OR COM P E N SATION. BUT J UST FOR THE OF S H A K I N G O U R S E LVES. T H E MYSTIQUE OF PROPERTY R E D I SCOVER AND PROPRI ETY. WITHOUT S H A M E. T H I S I S O U R O N LY C H A N C E TO F I G H T A GA I N ST THE OPPRESSIVE C A P I T A L I ST STATE WHERE IT WORKS D I R ECTLY. MOV I N G .D A Y R E A LITY WON'T TURN I NTO THE SLOW AGO N Y THAT C A P I TA L I S M AND B U R E A UC R A C Y TH E VARIOUS MODES O F L I B E RATION. THE PLEASURES WE OF SHEER WANT PLE A S U R E TO POSSESSED. POS S E S S O R AND S E L V E S JOYOU SLY. POS S I BLE.SMOTH E R E D BY THE FORCES O F OPPRESSION A N D POL L U T I O N : OR THE P L EA S U R E IN E A T I NG A N D SMALL AND M A R G I N A L M I NORITY . S O T H A T WE M i G H T LiVE WiTHOUT G U I LT A N D W I THOUT I N H I B I TI NG A L L T H E S E N S U A L INTRA­ AND I NTERPERSONAL PRACTI C E S WE NEED SO OUR DAY-TO. A F F I L I ATING HIM TO I N D I V I D U A L TO ITS ORDER OF PROJ ECT AS A M O D E L Exi sTE N C E . S E X U A L . S P E A K I N G . I T I S L I K E W I S E L I N K E D T O D E STROY I NG A L L FOR M S O F O P P R E S S I O N A N D " N O R M A LITY. PRODUCTI V E SPACE O F "SUBVERSIVE" STRE NGTH WE S E E K TO OPEN O U R BODY TO OTH E R BODI ES. PROD U C E A N E W S OC I ETAL R E A LITY I N W H I C H T H E G R E ATEST ECSTACY C O M B I N E S W I T H T H E G R EAT­ EST CONSC I O U S N E S S .

THE B R E A ST S . FROM WERE FU NCTI O N I NG. I N STEAD OF A MOUTH AND AN ANUS TO GET OUT OF ORDER WHY NOT HAVE O N E ALL·PU R POSE HOLE TO TION. M A K E AN A I R HOLE D I R ECT I NTO T H E LUNGS W H E R E I T SHOULD H A V E B E E N I N T H E F I R ST PLAC E . ( " RAYS") A LW A Y S . . . AND WITH TO O N NOV E M B E R 2 8 . O R LOSE S T H E M . R ESTO R E D THERE ACTIVE IS D E STROY E D C A R RYI NG . BUT DIVI N E WHAT THE M I R A C LE S HAD BEEN BODY. ' "FOR YOU C A N T I E M E U P I F YOU W I S H . ITS A LONG P R OC E S S I O N : T H E H Y PO C H O N D R I A C BODY EAT AND E L I M I N ATE? W E COULD SEAL U P NOSE A N D MOUTH. FOR W H AT IS I N VOLVED I S PRIMA R I LY T H E BWO. T H E U R ETH R A . :. THE ANUS. AN E X PE R I M E NT A T I O N BUT A L S O B I O LOG I C A L A N D S C H I ZO ON POLITICAL. C H EST. T H E BWO: I T I S A LR E A D Y O N T H E W A Y A S SOON A S T H E BODY H A S H A D E N O U G H OF T H E O R G A N S A N D WA NTS T O P U T T H E M A S I D E .4 A N D T H E R E I S T H E M A S OC H I STIC BODY WHICH C A N NOT BE U N D E R· WHOSE ORGANS H A V E B E E N DESTROYED: ONCE T H E D E S T R UCTION I S ACCOM P LI S H E D NOTH I N G E L S E H A PP E N S -"M I S S X C L A I M S THAT S H E H A S LOST H E R B R A I N . 1 947 ARTA U D DECLARES WAR ON THE ORGANS: TO HAVE DONE WITH THE USED SOMETI MES J U DG E M E N T O F GOD. TH E R E I S TH E D R U G G E D BODY. . ADDING TH E NOSE SEWN U P.3 ) . T H E EXPE R I M ENTAL SC H I ZO: ''THE H U M A N BODY I S SCA N DALOUSLY I N E FF I C I ENT. W ITHOUT D E E P. A LMOST WITHOUT LUNGS. S M OT H · IN THE M OUTH SO THAT D EFECATED I NTESTI N E S . E V E N A T THE COST OF CATATO N I A . SKIN FLAY E D A S IF THE ORGA N S A R E A TTA C K E D BY OUTS I D E FORC E S AND R E STOR E D TO OUTS I D E E N E R G I E S ("HE LIVED FOR A LONG TI M E WITHOUT A STOM A C H .HOW TO M A K E YOU RSELF A BODY WITHOUT ORGA N S OESOP H A G U S . N E R V E S . BODY AND SOCI US. . " IT I S NOT J UST R A D I OPHONIC SWALLOW PART O F H I S O W N LARYN X WITH H I S FOOD. IT H A S ITSELF SEWN U P B Y ITS SADIST O R ITS W H O R E -T H E EYES. POLITICS AND E X P E R I M E NTA· I NT E R N A L STRUGGLE AGA I N ST THE ORGA NS. SODO M I Z E D . S TO M A C H AND BOWELS. ETC. F I LL I N TH E STO M ACH. ALL SHE HAS L E FT IS THE SKIN AND BONES O F T H E DISORGANIZED WORDS2 T H E R E 80DY: IS THE THESE ARE HER VERY WHOSE C OQ U E TT I S H L Y 8 U TTO N S WITH FO U R PA R A N O I D BODY. W I T H A TORN EVERYT H I N G I S S E A L E D TIGHT. HE A BLADDER. 2 C1 !5 . HOLES. STOOD IN T E R M S O F PA I N . BUT TH E R E I S NOTH I N G M O R E U S E LESS THAN AN ORG A N . YOU W I LL NOT B E A L LOWE D TO E X P E R I M ENT I N PEACE. S H A TT E R E D W I TH O U T R I BS. I T H A S ITSELF S U S PE N D E D TO STOP T H E ORGANS ORGA N S E R ED. I N C U R R I N G C E N S U R E A N D R E PRESSION.

BUT A DEE PER U N ITY. THE ENEMY IS THE C A TATON I Z E D . TRANSCEN­ H E L I OG A B A L U S A N D S P I NOZA A R E O N E A N D TH E SA M E T H I N G LONG L I V E THE ROSE H E L I OG A B A L U S AND S P I NOZA M A K E THE S A M E CHOICE LONG L I V E T H E C ROSS TH E C H A STE P H I LO SO P H E R W I THOUT N E E D A N D T H E C R U E L E M P E R O R W H I C H S H ITS ALL OV E R H A V E THE S A M E S E N S E O F T H E C I TY PUTT I N G A N A RC H Y IN U N ITY AND TH E O N E I N ANARCHY M U LTI PLICITY HOMO.WHY TH I S DREARY ARRAY OF SEWN.I S U B STANTI A L I ST D E N C I E S ORGANIZED FOR THE P U R POSE O F U S E F U L WOR K . S E D I M E N TATI O N S . THE MATT E R W I T H O U T G O D S : P R I N C I PLES. T H E MAD PH I LO­ W A G E S H I S WA R A G A I NST T H E O R G A N S . WHICH W E C A L L AN ORGA N I S M ." UN ITY P R E C I S E L Y W H A T T H E TWO BOOKS O F ARTA U D S A Y : F U S I B I L I TY AS TENCY. NOT AT A LL T H E OF TH E ONE. THAT G L AC I A L R E A LITY ON WHICH T H E S E A L L U V IO N S . ECSTA S Y . OF F I LL I N G YOU R S E L F U P. T H E O RG A N I S M . BUT WHO I S T H I S W E . W H I C H I S TO SAY A P H E N O M E NO N TION. AN O R G A N IZATION O F THE ORGANS. TO G I V E DREADFUL T H I NG. I F T H E B W O I S A LSO F U L L O F G A I E T Y . O R G A N I S M IT N EV E R IS. (SECRET SONG OF T H E YOUNG ROSIC R U C I A N S) WE G R A D U A LLY R E A LIZE THAT T H E BWO IS NOT T H E OPPOSITE O F T H E O R G A N S AT A LL . BUT WITH ITS "LEG I T I M ATE ORGANS" WHICH A R E TO BE C O M PO S E D A N D SET. V I BRATIONS. HAVE ARE SPI NOZA. M A SO . PRODUCTIONS THE WAYS OF B E I NG. IT IS TRUE THAT A R TA U D H EL I OG A B A L U S R E V I V E D . SAME H E L I OG A B A L U S AND P E YOTE THE FO R M U LA : A N ARCHY AND U N ITY ONE A N D THE S A M E T H I N G . THE J UDGMENT OF GOD. HAVE YOU NOT OF ENOUGH AS PRUDENCE? AS THE PRUDENCE. R E R E A D I NG H E L IO G A B A L U S A N D THE TARAH U M A RAS (FOR H E LIOG A B A L U S IS S P I NOZ A : SPI NOZA ORGA N I S M . E U N U C H . TH E J U DG · SOPH E R . B U T T H E O R G A N IZATION O F T H E O R G A N S THAT WE CALL THE ORG A N I S M . YOU HAVE DE PLETED YOU R S E L V E S INSTEAD SHOWN W I SDOM. A S P I R AT E D BODI ES. F R I S K Y DANC I NG ? WHY THESE E X A M P LES THEY ARE THEN. O F S E D I M E NTATION I M POSES FO R M S A N D F U NCTIONS O N IT. TAKE THEIR WHICH OOCTOR S THE PROFIT AND POW E R FROM. R I P S IT O P E N . MODO N AT U R. A L O N E I T STA NDS. BOTH HAVE NOTH I N G BUT A BODY WITHOUT O RG A N S A N D T H E V I B R A T I O N S T H A T COM E OFF I T P I TY F O R W HOEV E R S I G N S H I M S E L F C A E S A R THE C RU C I F I E D F O R Y O U C A N NOT T R U S T H I M S I N C E H E DI DN'T E V E R C A L L H I M S E L F H E LIOGA B A L U S A N D S P I NOZA. I N T E N SITI ES. YOU H A V E B E E N D E F EA T E D IN A G R EAT BATTLE. WHICH TION M A K E U P A N ORG A N I S M . I NTESTI N E W H I C H E X P E LS E XC R E MENT. T O T H E ORGA N I C O R G A N IZATION OF ORGANS. B EC A U S E BECAUSE HE H E C A N NOT BEAR T H E BWO. TRA NSV ESTITE PANTHE. S U BSTA N C E S . T H E T H EOLOG I C A L SYSTEM. W H I C H I S N O T M E . A N D A VOYAGE TO THE LA N D OF T H E TA RA H U M ARAS I S EXP E R I M E NTA TION. I T S E N E M I E S ARE NOT THE ORGANS. T H E O RG A N I S M I S A L R E A DY P R E C I S E L Y T H A T.). I M MANENT RULE EXPE R I M E NTAT I O N : I N J ECTIONS O F P R U D E N C E . E L E M E NTS. WHY ARE THEY NECESSARY? D E P R ESSING E X A M P LES FOR A C H E E R F U L H E A RT. BUT WHAT HE HAS R E A LLY HAD IT W I T H AND R E A LLY R E S E NTS IS T H E ORG A N I S M ." A N D I F O N E REMAINS T R A P P E D W I T H I N T H E ORG A N I S M W H I C H O R G A N I SM I S NOT T H E BODY A T A L L. N U M B E RS : AND FINALLY H OU N DS IT. I T I S OPPOS E D TO THE ORGA N I S M . I N F I N I T E Z E RO. P E Y OT E . THE B R E AT H S . P L A N E OF C O N S I S ­ AS M E N T OF G O D . NOT T H E BWO BUT A STRA T U M ON T H E BWO. S I N C E T H E SUBJECT B E LONGS T O A STRATUM A N D D E P E N DS O N I T N O LESS T H A N T H E ORGA N I S M ? WE NOW A N S W E R : I T I S THE BWO. OR RE PRODUCTIONS: R E M I SSIONS. T H E BODY IS THE B O D Y . DOS E . ESS E N C E S . T H E ONE H I D I N G B E H I N D THE TERRIFYING P H I LOSOP H E R . I F O N E S T A Y S AT THE L E V E L O F T H E O R G A N S -"TH E L I V E R THAT M A K E S T H E S K I N YELLOW. THE BRAIN B E S I EG E D BY SYPH I L I S . R E LATIONS A N D H I E R A R C H I ­ CAL AND DOM I N A N T ORGA N I ZATIONS. TO THIS D I F F I C U LT Y O F ATT A I N I N G T H I S W O R L D O F PRECEDENCE CROW N E D A N A RC H Y. T H E BWO H O W L S : ''T H E Y'VE M A D E M E A N ORGA N I S M ! T H E Y H A V E B R O K E N M E U N D U LY'" 266 . S A DO. ORGANISMS ARE E N E M I E S OF THE BODY · THE BWO I SN'T OPPO SE D TO T H E O RG A N S . E M PT I E D BOD I E S I N STEAD OF F U L L O N E S . OF A CC U M U LATION. WHICH OF COA G U LA­ BLOC KS T H E F L O W S A N D HOLDS U S I N O U R WORLD HERE. PLiCATIONS A N D C O M P R E S S I O N S COAGULATIONS. T H E BWO DOE S N'T OPPOSE TH E O RG A N S . THE OTH E R H I DI N G U N DER THE G U I S E OF THE C H A STE L E N S G R I N D E R . A N D I N N E E D OF N O ORGA NS. I S P R EC I S E LY THE O P E R A T I O N S O F HE WHO M A K E S A N ORG A N I S M . IT'S W I TH I N I T THAT THE O R G A N S ARE C O M PO S E D I NTO W H A T W E C A L L A N O RG A N I S M . VITRIFIED. O R M O D A L I T I E S ." W E N E V E R STOP B E I N G STRATI F I E D . THIS IS WHAT E N D U R E S : T H E J U DG M E N T O F GOD W H I C H W E I G H S A N D E X E R C I S E S ITS W I L L ON IT.A N D A S I G N I FICA­ AND A S U B J E C T -OC C U R . FORCES. T H E S Y S T E M OF T H E J U D G M E N T OF GOD. " B I N D M E I F YOU W I LL.

TH E H A L L U C I NATORY. RUNS T H R O UGHOUT AND U N DOES A L L T H E STRATA AND T H E S U R FACES OF STRATI FICATIONS WHICH BLOCK IT. VOYAGE. LOOK I N TO YOU R C H I LD HOOD) W E SAY: Y O U D O N . SA I D T H E CON S U L. LET EVERYONE I N V E NT HIS OWN P R U D E NC E . IT'S AND S U B J EC T-HOW POSSI B L E TO U N H I NG E TH E POINTS O F S U B J ECTI­ VATION WHICH FIX US. A FFECT T H E SICK HAD FA L S E HAVE M ENTATION. THE O B J ECT OF A P R O D U C TI O N ­ J U D G M E N T O F GOD. P E R FECT TIONS. A N D TO K E E P A S M A L L S U P P L Y E X P E R I M E NTATION. G E N TL E EXPERI­ CASE." SOM E O N E . NO. DON'T G E T THE RID OF THEM IS SO IT CONSIST EN C Y IN W H I C H I T U N FOLDS AND OPENS ITSELF TO E X PE R I M E NTATI O N . YOU EITH ER. A R TA U D C A R E F U LLY M EA S U R E S A N D WE IGHS H I S WO RDS: C O N SC I O U S N E S S " K N O W S W H A T IS GOOD FOR IT IT AND WHAT DOES WHAT IT HARM: AND AND I N ST I NCT. PSYC H I C D EATH BY AVOI DING ARE M EA N I N G AND BWO WHICH DOE S N 'T CONFRONT THIS PROBLEM A N D TH E R E I S N O G E N E R A L SOLUTION. SELF D E ST R U C T I O N . B U T A LSO W H A T COULD B E M O R E A MO R O U S ? M A K E P R U D E NC E T H E POLITIC A L.E X PE R I M E NT A L V I R T U E . T H E POWE R O R POT E N T I A LITY O F T H E BWO. NAIL US TO A DOM I N A N T BECA U S E STRAT U M B E H I N D T H E FIRST ONE. HAVE C A N SAY "I A M A M A SOCH I ST:' N O O N E C A N S A Y "I A M A HOMOS E X U A L:' N O O N E C A N S A Y "I A M A D R U G A DDICT. P R U D E N C E I S T H E A RT COMMON TO A L L T H R E E : A N D I F IT H A PP E N S T H A T ONE BRUSHES A GA I N ST DEATH IN U N DO I N G THE ORG A N I S M . A N D W H I C H A LSO R E L E A S E S A D V E NTU ROUS S E N SATI ONS S H A M E LE S S AND PERC E PTIONS. A S U BJ ECT. A N D W H I C H IS THE V E R Y M YSTERY O F A L L POETRY. O N E STRATUM E MBEDDED I N A NOTH E R . T H E I LL USORY. A LCOHOLIC A LSO D A N C E S O N T H E EDGE O F FALSEHOOD. A PLA N E W H IC H N O R M A L CONSCIOUS­ N ESS NEVER ATTA I N S B U T WHICH C I G U R I A LLOWS U S TO R E A C H . K NOW W H A T Y O U A R E A N D YO U'LL O N LY KNOW BY E X P E R I M E N T I N G . . AN OBSCU R E . SEARCH TH E 267 . O N LY I C A N K NOW I F I A M D R U N K. B U T T O O P E N T H E BODY TO C O N N ECTI O N S WHICH P R E S U PPOSE A WHOLE THEREFORE F E E L I NG S DANGE M . I F YOU A R E C A PA B L E O F IT. D I F F I C U LT T H A N TH E OTH E R STRATA. " 7 W H A T ? I T M IG H T B E SOM ETH I N G E LS E . O N E CA N'T TELL I N ADVANCE. YES. BIND IT O R PRODUC E TH E U NCONSCIO US!-TH l s I S C E RTA I N LY NO MORE N O LESS D I F F I C U LT T H A N T E A R I N G T H E BODY F R O M TH E ORGAN I S M . A BOVE ALL. T I M E. TEAR T H E UNCONSCIOUS F R O M S I G N I FI C A N C E A N D I NTERPRETATION TO M A K E A T R U E PROD UCTI ON OUT OF IT. . SOMETH I N G A W AITS US. WHICH INJU RIOUS DISTR I B UTIONS O F I NT E N S I T I ES. T H E U N ­ P R E PA R E D . A N D IF THE BWO IS A L I M IT. I T IS T H E STRATI F I E D . BUT FALSE PERCEPTIONS. D O E S N 'T KNOW FOR AT T H E BWO. T E R R ITOR I E S A N D M E A S U R E D DETE R RI TOR I A LIZATIONS R EM I N I SC E NT OF K A FKA'S S U R V EYOR.THE J U DG M E N T AND OF GOD TEARS IT AN IT FROM ITS A AND TH E N . T H E V I R T U E O F LOV I NG. T H E R E'S A NOTH E R T H I N G : DON'T TH I N K THAT U N DO I N G T H E O RG A N I S M ANY MORE IS PARTICULARLY U N DO I N G I M M A N E NCE MAKES O RG A N I S M . L I F E O R D E A T H : AN OEDIPAL G R E E D-WH ETH E R OR CRACKS OF ONE THE A B SO R B S W H I P. S IG N I FI C A N C E AND I NT E R P R ETATION AS S U R FACES O F STRATI FICATI O N U PON W H I C H I T FALLS BACK AND YIELDS TO J U D G M E N T AND THE PLANE OF CLOSE C L I N G T O T H E S O U L A S TH E O R G A N I S M D O E S T O THE E A S I LY BODY. AS A R E S U LT IT OSC I L LATES BETWEEN TWO POLES. T O U N DO TH E ORGA N I S M H A S N E V E R M E A N T T O K I LL YOU R S ELF. S I G N I FICATION. D RU GG E D. TO MAKE UP THE R E A LITY? TEAR T H E C O N SC I O U S N E S S MEANS OF FROM THE S U BJ ECT T O M A K E I T A E X P L O R A TI O N . FOR I T T A K E S M A N Y S T R A T A . A R R A N G E M E NT . FOR M L ESS ENTERED ONE. BUT SOM ETH I NG T H E O PPOSITE O F M I ST R U ST. I F ONE IS NEVER THERE THROUGH IS A LW A Y S ATTA I N I NG A N OTH E R IT. THESE A R E THE F A N TA S I E S W H I C H I. THE I L LUSORY. B U T TH E R E I S A N OTH E R L E V E L I N T H E HUMAN WHERE WHICH BEI NG. C I R C U ITS. K N OW S THOUG HTS A CC E PT. T H E D I F F I C U LT. S I G N I F I C A N C E A N D s U B J ECTI­ VATION. A N D NOT J U ST OF THE O RG A N I S M . T H R E AT. TOO. DEATH DOM I N A N T R E A LITY TO B E COM E A N O M A D I N T H E M A S K E D O N E . W H I C H FREES T H E BWO. AS A LCOHOL. S E N SA T I O N S . HOW F A R I T H A S N'T G O N E YET OR H A SN'T T H E RIGHT TO GO WITHOUT F A L L I N G I NTO D A N G E R O U S TH A N A N I N TE N S I TY.M A D E . T H E U N. T H E R E I S A P E R PETU A L A N D VIOLENT STR I F E B E TW E E N T H E PLA N E O F CONSIS­ TENCY. C O N J U NC­ PASSAGES A N D I T CAN AND PROFITABLY ARE WITHOUT TO ITS TIERS A N D T H RE SHOLDS. U N REALITY. ONE ONE D O E S N 'T EVEN K NO W I N IT IS NECESSARY TO R ETA I N E NO U G H OF TH E R ETROSPECT. AND B E L I E V E D I N TH E M . WHAT COULD BE MORE F R E E DO M . FOLD IT B A C K . YOU I NT E R P R E T A T I O N GUA RDS A G A I N ST AS WHICH STRA N G E AND ONE SAFE­ RISKS THE M ADNESS. O N E TH E R E IS NO M A S OC H I ST. R E S ENT­ M EN T A N D GLUTTO N Y ALL TOGETH E R . N O O N E C O N SC I O U S N E S S . ORG A N I S M SO THAT I T C A N R E C O NSTITUTE I T S E L F AT E A C H N E W D A W N . DEPENDING FIND YOU R S E LF. I T KNOWS J U S T HOW FA R ITS BEING EXTENDS. A G A I NST THE BASE A S S E RTIONS O F PSYCHOA N A LY S I S (TO C O N SC I O U S N E S S SU RROUNDS OR A IT H A SN'T AN LIKE U N E L U C I DA T E D ON TH E EXTENSION. ACID U N R E A L I TY SOON ONE LEAVES DON'T GO AT I T W I TH A H A M M E R BUT WITH A V E R Y FINE FILE.

W E C A N S A Y THAT EACH A N D E V E R Y ONE HAS ITS BWO TO R E A DY COV E R SOC I A L TO AND FI ELD. CONTI N U O U S I NT E N S I T I E S ORG A N I S M : F A L L E N . YOU WILL HAVE PROLIFERATE. M I M E THE STRATA. SAID IS NOTH I N G BUT THE THE M I LITARY MAN R ELATION O F V I O L E N C E A N D R I V A L R Y A S W E L L A S ALLIANCES FO R M A T I O N S . SEC U R E C E RTA I N CON N ECTIONS O F FLOWS H E R E AND T H E R E . CONN ECTION OF D E S I R E S . WHICH T H E Y TH E N SOUGH T FOR ALL T H E H A R D E R AND MORE D E S P E RATELY ( FOR P ITY'S S A K E . B E POLITE. AND ONE M UST KEEP SMALL RATIONS OF TO DO SITUATE YOURSELF S U B J ECTIVITY O N ONE'S DON K E Y MASK I N O R D E R TO BE A B L E TO COPE WITH THE DOM I N A N T R E A LITY. I N SHORT. TOTA L I T Y OF THE IN THE ENTERI N G M I S S E D T H E P L A N E . T H E EXQUISITE POLITE NESS OF H OLDER L I N . YOU WILL H AVE K ILLED Y O U R S E L F.E I T H E R YOU REMAIN A OTH E R MECHANISMS B W O OF C A PITA L I S M W H I C H E I T H E R F I N D S O R DOESN'T FI N D I T S R E G U LATION I N THE STATE. TH E AND C O M PLI C I T I E S WITH AND OTH E R THEIR K L E I ST T O H I S YOU N G E R SI STER U L R I K E. J U ST A S S I L E N C E I S T H E G R E A TEST VACANT I N T E R P R ETATIONI I N STEAD O F R E P LACI NG T H E M B Y THE C I RC U MSTA NTI A L A RT O F AN E X P E R I M E NTA L POS I T I V I S M : T H E Y H A D LOST R E LATE T H E STRATA T O THE DE E P E R COLLECTIV E M AC H I N I C S E T· U P IN WHICH WE ARE TRAPPED: OVERT U R N T H E SET· U P V E R Y GE NTLY. BOU N D T O THE DOM I N A N T R E A LlTY­ AND YOU DON'T EVEN FEEL IT: ONE C A N LIVE L I K E THAT A N D B E CONTENT W I T H O N ESELF. FOR ITS OWN WE PRODUCE IT. ITS C A N C E RO U S C EL L S PROLI F E R A T I N G E V E R Y · ­ W H E R E . EVEN WHEN ACCO U N T OF T H E BWO I S CONSTANTLY OSC I L LAT· ING AND B ET W E E N THE S U R FACES WHICH STRATIFY I T THE P LA N E WHICH L I B E RATES IT. OR A PARTICULAR STRATIFYING MECHANSIM IN A FOR M ATION. THAT PASS THROUGH TO BWO. W H E N W H I C H FALL BACK DOWN O N YOU A L L THE H A R D E R ­ HOSPITAL HAVE OR C E M ET E R Y . AND COMBINE. S U B J ECT T O S I G N I FICANCE. M O N E Y P RO DU C I N G M O N E Y . C A PI T A L I T S E L F W I TH ITS E X P A N S I V E · I N FLATION M U ST C O N T R O L IT. F I RST OF ALL. I N E V E R Y FACTORY. O N E D O E S N 'T ATTA I N TH E BWO AND ITS PLANE OF T H E M . E N S N A R E D I N I T S R E C E N D E N C E . IF YOU CON S I D E R A P A R TI C U L A R SOC I A L FOR M ATION. LOOK FOR A PROPITIOUS SPOT. E I TH E R W I T H I N TH E M S E LV E S OR WITHOUT. NOTH I NG D O N 'T H A PP E N S UP OR ON GET I T-TH E INTENSITIES THIS ON S U B J ECTIVATION: O R I E NT IT. W H O H E FELT G A V E H E R S E LF O V E R T O H E R FANTA S I E S TOO E A S I LY. T H I S I S E V E N T H E R E ASON W H Y W E ENCO U N T E R T H E P A R A DO X BOD I E S OF THE L UG U B R IO U S THEY AND HAD E M PT I E D E M PTI E D OF RELATION. S I G N I F I · C A N C E A N D I T S PSYCHOA N A LYST. INVADE TO RELEASE IT TH ROUGH TOO VIOLENT A G E STU R E . TH E I R EGOS.OF M E A N I NG AND I N T E R P R ETATION. B R I NG I T I N TOU C H W I T H T H E PLACE OF C O N S I STENCY O N T H E OTH E R S I DE OF T H E S T R A T A . T H E R E A R E I N FACT M A N Y WAYS TO M I S S THE BWO. A BWO O F THE A R M Y T A K E S O V E R T H E S T A T E . (TH E R E PLAN. SCH IZO-POLITE SSE. ON THE CONT R A R Y . E I T H E R O N E DOESN'T M A N A G E TO TH E R E IS A BWO O F C A PI T A L I S M . ALWAYS K E E P I N G A S M A L L P I E C E OF NEW T E R R I TO R Y A V A I LA BLE. TH E P R OG R A M . B U T A LSO T H E BWO OF T H E STATE W H I C H EITH E R F I N DS O R DO E S N 'T F I N D ITS REGU LATION I N INTERMEDIARY BO D I E S . FOR THOSE TIMES WHEN C I R C U MSTA N C E S REQU I R E IT. OR. EVEN TO FORC E -O R E L S E Y O U D I S I NTEG RATE I N A S U I C I D A L OR MAD B R E A K DOWN A N D D I S R U PT T H E STRATA OPPOSE T H E M TO T H E I R OWN SYSTEM. W E A R E A SOC I A L FO R M A · E X C E S S OF S I G N I F I C A N C E I NTERPRETATIO N . I N A DODD E R I N G S T U PO R ( FO R NOTHI N G N E S S IS STI L L T H E S U P R E M E S I G N I F I E R . ACCOR D I N G TO A M E TI C U LOUS R E L ATION W I TH T H E STRATA T H A T O N E SUCCEEDS IN OPE N I N G UP C H A N N E LS OF OF R EC E D E N C E FLOWS AND M A K I NG AND AT THE BEGI N N I NG : TH E I R THEMSELVES LOO K I N G OF ORGANS I N ST E A D FO R T H E MOMENTS W H E N T H E Y COULD COM B I N AT I O N S ESCAPE. IN US IN THE VERY PLACE WHERE WE ARE: R U N N I NG A I M LE S S L Y O R . TION : S E E . E V E R Y SCHOOL. BE C ERTA I N STRATUM. " H E A LTH". EXPERIENCE C E R E M O N I O U S . S W I R L I NG. TRY OUT CONTI N U A O F I N T E N S I · T I E S LITTLE BY LITTLE. H O W I T I S STRATI F I E D FOR US. IT I S I N A C O N S I STENCY BY W I LDLY DESTRATI FYI NG O N E S E LF . POS S I B L E M O M E NTS OF DETE R R I TO R I A LlZA· TION AND LINES OF RECEDENCE. A BSORBS E V E RYTH I NG I N ITS T U M O R .) THE S A M E M U LT I P L E HORROR IS I N VOLVED IN S TA Y I NG S T R A T I F I E D . PEOPLE. KEEP CAPITALISM IT STRATI F I E D C I R C U LA T E: B LOC K E D . CORRODE. G I V E ME BACK SOM E M OO R I N GS!) S I N C E T H E Y D I D N 'T K NOW HOW TO P A Y O U T TH E I R NOM A D I C D E P E R S O N A L I ZATION. W H I C H T H E M S E L V E S P R I SO N E R OF YOU R ORGA N I S M . CONTI N U E. CANCEROUS B U R G EO N I N G M O N E Y . PATIENTLY AND T E M PORA R I LY U N DO T H I S ORG A N I · ZATION OF THE THEY O RG A N S HAD WHICH WE C A LL IN THE AN ONE MANAGES FOR IN A RELEASE CONN ECT. H A LF D E A D A M ONG T H E S Y M BOLS OF POWE R A N D T H E I C O N S O F F U R N I S H BWOS. B R E A K U P T H E STRATA WITHOUT P R U D E N C E . O N LY THEN D O E S THE BWO R E V E A L ITSELF FOR WHAT IT I S . CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S . BWOS. E X P E R I M E N T WITH T H E OPPOR· T U N I T I E S I T OFFERS YOU. E V E N SITUATIONS FORC E Y O U TO IT. THE ORG A N I S M A N D ITS DOCTORS. C H I LE : WE HAVE THE MOST D EMO· 268 . EVERY H O U S E H OLD. H A V I N G PRODUCED IT SOMEWHAT. IS TH I S : W H A T YOU ACT U A L L Y ON A T H I NGS. I T S OWN "ORGAN I S M". CONJ U N CTION O F FLOWS. A L W A Y S BE POL I T E .

A L L A STRATUM N EE D S I S A Q U I C K S E D I M E N TATION WITH I N ITSELF. C R EATING STR A N G E ALLIANCES A N D R I V A L R I ES. HAS BEEN. U N LEASH ES. COTA R D ACC U S E S H I MSELF I NSTEAD OF E N T E R I N G I NTO A D I A L OG U E WITH MORE OR LESS IMAGI NARY STRESSES T H E D I F F E R E NCE BETWE EN HYPOCHON­ DRIAC DELIRIUM AND PARANOI D D E L I R I UM FROM I N T E R LOCUTORS O R PE RSEC UTORS: H E I S N EGATI- 2159 . (TH E R E I S A B W O OF ITSELF M E C H A N I ST I C DESIRE PROLI F E RATION O F T H E SAME? C E R TA I N LY I T I S NOT A QUESTION OF I D EOLOGY. B I O LO G I C A L . THE FACTORY. EX P E R I E N C E S. BWO OF TH E A R M Y . BUT REMEMBER T H E BWO OF N A Z I S M A N D TH E R A V I N G B W O OF GERMAN CAPITALISM BEFORE THE NAZI TAKEOVER.C R ATIC A R M Y I N THE WORLD. OR S U P ERSTITION. TH E R E I S DE S I R E E V E R Y TI M E T H E R E I S BWO O F O N E K I N D O R ANOTH E R . VOL. T H E C I TY. TH E BWO HAS PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S : T H E PSY C H O A N A LYST H I MSE LF. AND WITHOUT A CANCER I N T E R P R ET A T I O N . DESI R E E V E N I N C LUDES THAT I N TH E E M PT I E D B W O S . 1 9 77. 1 89 1 . I T HAS EARS F O R T H E P E O P L E A N D E Y E S F O R T H E TH E M . EYES. W H I C H IS STI L L PART O F THE J U OG M E N T OF G O D . T H E PO LICE DESI R E I TS BWO. M AC H I N I ST. ON THE AND COM B I N A ­ TO CONSTITUTION. T E R R I F Y I N G CA RICATU R E S O F THE PLA N E OF CONSISTENCY OTHERS. IF THE STRATA ARE A M A TT E R OF C O A G U L A T I O N . EVERY STRATUM H A S ITS HOLES. -THE O N E S OPERATING I N R E LATION T O T H E OTH E R S . 6 1 . I N THE ITS T U R N A BWO THAT DESTROYS TAKES OVER THE STATE TO E N S U R E T H E PROLIFE RATION O F T H E S A M E . SEVERAL POINTS OF VI EW: THE H YPOCHO N D R I AC SEMIOTEXT(E). Y E S . ALL THAT CAN BE DESI RED. W E B E L I E V E T H A T T H E STRATA T H EMSELVES E N G E N D E R BWOS. ETC . A L L DES I R E I S D E S I R E O F BWO. SILENCE AS TH E PSY C H I C A L SO C I A L M A TT E R . AND YET NO LESS BWO THAN THE GO V E R N M E N T. N A Z I ECONOMY-NOT T O D I SCOVER T H E MAC H I N I C POTENTI A L OF DES I R E B UT TO E N S U R E T H E C LOS E D HOLD A N D POW E R O F A M E C H A N ISTIC D E S I R E : SUCH A R E THE C A N C E R O U S OR FASCI STIC BWOS. BWO OF THE FA M I LY . TIONS P OS S I B L E C O N T R A R Y. A N I N F I N ITY OF WORDS F O R A N I N FI N I TE AMOUNT OF MONEY. NO. E V E N TO THE POI NT OF REMOVING T H E I R FORM AND A RTICU LATION -NOT TO MAKE "OT H E R" CONNECTIONS BUT. B LI N D SCA R R I N G . A WITHOUT OF EARS. HOW NAZISM ORGA N I Z E S ITSELF BY U N L E A S H I N G A BWO OF THE ARMY D I STI NCT FROM THE BWO OF THE IT I S THROUGH THE BWO THAT O N E DESIRES.-TH E R E IS A BWO OF THE F A M I LY. TO FO R M IN A ITS SPECIFIC TUMOR OR C E R TA I N THE FORM ATION OF BWO OF TH E PARTICULAR APPARATUS: DA NGERS: I T C A N NOT WARD OFF T H E E M PTI E D A N D CANCEROUS BOD I E S W H I C H S U M M O N I T. IS AND WILL BE. R E STORE AN "OR G A N I C A N D H E A LTHY" C A PITA LISM FROM THE DEPTHS O F UTTER TERROR. n. BWO OF THE PARTY. BUT TH E B W O OF CAPITAL I N FLATION BREAKS OUT ALL T H E MORE V I O LENTLY WHEN THE A I M I S TO B R I N G DOWN A SOC I A LIST GOV E R N M ENT: THE ARMY LO S E S ITS EARS AND ITS EYES. EXC E PT BY REACH ING THE PLA N E OF CON S I S T E N C Y WHICH STRATU M . DEATH I N STI NCT. T H E STATE DESI R E S I T S BWO. 3. CO N S I D E R HOW THE N A Z I BWO R ECON­ STITUTES CAPITAL'S "O RG A N I S M " I N G E R M A NY. NOT I N ORDER TO R E A C H TH E DESTRATI F I E D PLA N E OF CONS I STE N C Y B U T I N O R D E R T O PLUG G I LLES DELEUZE A N D F E L I X G U ATTA R I TRA N S LATED BY SUZA N N E G U E RLAC NOTES TO HAVE DO N E WITH THE J U D G M E N T OF G O D . FALSE C O N S C I O U S N E S S . H I S O R G A N S A R E D E F I N I T I V E L Y DESTROYE D WITHOUT ANY POSSI B LE R ESTORATION 2 J U LES COTARD: ETA RD S U R LES MALADIES CEREBRA· EXC E PT BY S I M ULACRUM: HE MONOLOG U E S AND L E S ET M E N TA L E S . OF THE LOC K E D WITH I N E A C H OTH E R . S A I D THE C H I LEAN. T O B E HOLES. BWO OF TH E STATE. NOT I N ORDER TO U N DO TH E STRATA WITH THE NECESS A R Y PRECAUTIONS BUT TO S H U T T H E M U P AGA I N . L I E S. AS IT DOES THE HOW ABOLITION DOES OF D E S I R E I N C A N C EROUS BWOS. I T I S A PHENOME NON AND OF PHYSICAL. P. I T S L I N E S OF RECEDENCE AND M OV E M E N T S S W A LLO W E D OF UP DETE R R I ­ I N THESE DI SSOLVES T H E M AS I F I N ACID. C A N C E R I S D E S I R E . PROLIFE RATION IN A N I N C R EASINGLY A S P H Y X I A T I N G PSYCHOSOMATIC C I RCU IT'> I N S HORT. BWO OF MONEY. T H E SCHOOL. YES. ETC. S U P R E M E I N TE R P R ETATI O N . TOR I ALIZATION. C LOSE THEM OFF. I NTER­ DESIRE REPRESSION? MAKE HOW C A N DESI RE. T H E A R M Y DESIRES I T S BWO. TH E FA M I LY DESI R E S ITS BWO. DES I R E WENDS ITS WAY THROUGH THE U PON T H E BWO. COMPLEXITY OF ALLIANCES AND RIVALRI ES: TH I N K OF NAZISM THE FOR I N STA NCE-DON'T J UST GENERAL R E LATION BETW E E N N A Z I S M A N D C A PITA L I S M . B R A I L L I E R E . E R RO R . I NT E R ­ NOTH I N G T O D O WITH I D EOLOGY: P U R E M A TT E R . WITHOUT MOUTH. DESIRE IS M I N A B L E A N A L Y S I S . OF S E D I M E N TATION MATER I A L. FASC I S M I S DESI R E. M A NAGE TO DESI R E THE ITS OWN PA RTY.

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COLD. UTERI N E BOTH TEC H N I Q U E S I N D I CATE HAVE ONSET OF THE DISAPP E A R E D: T H E D E PTH AND RATE OF P E N I L E THRUST I S STI L L DETE R M I NED BY THE I N DI V I D U A L'S OWN DEMA NDS. A T LAST. ELECTRODES IN POS I T I O N . THEY HAVE BEEN A D. ELECTR ICA LLY POWE R E D PLASTIC P E N I SES ARE READY FOR ACTION. YOU R I N T R E P I D REPOR­ TERS. A N D A SEX.DEFU N KT SEX "AT ORGASM. M ASTERS A N D . T H I S I S. A R TI F I C I A L C O I T A L T EC H N I Q U E S CAMERA IN HAND. " THE MACH I N E N E V E R ORGASMS. "A F I R ST STEP TOW A R D A N OPEN -DOOR POLICY. . THE HUMAN ELEMENT H A SN'T A LTOG E T H E R ORGASM I C CONTRACTI O N S O F THE UTERUS HAVE BEEN RECORDED BY BOTH I NTRAUTE R I N E AND ABDOMI NALLY PLACED THAT ELECTRODES.JOHN SON. HAVE BEEN VA STLY I M PROVED B Y RADIO PHYS I C I STS. T H E Y C L A I M I N THE PREFACE OF TH E I R STUDY. STARTI N G WITH T H E ORGASM I C PLATFORM I N T H E O U T E R THIRD O F T H E VAGINA " . ONSET OF ORGASM I S SIGNALED BY CONTRACTIONS OF THE TARGET ORGANS. HUMAN SEXUAL RESPONSE. BODY. . THE G R I M A C E A N D CONTORTION OF A WOMAN'S FACE GRAPHICALLY EXPRESS THE I NCREMENT OF M YOTO N I C THE TENSION THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE THE PATI ENT IS WAITING IN KNEE-CHEST POSITION. AND THEY N EVER FA I L. PLASTIC PENISES F UNCTION A S PLATE GLASS.JUSTED TO HER SIZE. A N I M PARTIAL A PPROACH TO H U M A N SEXUAL EXPERI ENCE CAN NOW BEGIN.LIGHT I L L U M I NATION A LLOWS OBSERVATION A N D RECORD­ ING WITHOUT D I STORTION. ARE ON THE SC E N E." BUT WHAT DOES AN I M PARTI A L A PPROACH DO TO HUMAN S E X U A LITY? WHAT DOES IT DO TO A P­ PROACH IT L I K E A N Y OTH ER PHENOM E NON. IN THE COLD 27 1 . M E A S U RING AND RECORDING T H E ACTION. SEPARATE PH ENOM ENON AT THAT. THE CONTRACTIO N S WITH A L M O ST S I M U L TA N E O U S L Y THOSE ORGASM I C PLATFOR M . IS WIDE OPEN. M USCLES O F THE NECK A N D THE LONG M USCLES OF T H E ARM AND LEGS USUALLY CONTRACT I NTO I N VOLUNTARY SPASM ' " THE PHYSIOLOGICAL THEY A R E NOT H U M A N . R A P I D I TY OF THRUST I N C R E A S ES. A S TENSION ELEVATES.

CONSTITUTED B Y SOC I A L R E P R E S ENTATIONS. A N D SOC I A L FOR B I D . HOW THE B R E A STS' A R EOLAE­ TH I S WAY. . SEXUA LITY R E M A I N S I F WE CAN A P P ROACH HUMAN SEXUA LITY AS A RAT. OUR R E A L "STOCK" I S I N T H E STOCK-EXCHANGE. P R E MATU R E E J A C ULATION. THE I M PL I E D RULE IS PLEASURABLE I S I N TR I N S I CA LL Y S E X U A LITY LOOS I NG P L U R A L I TY JOY. EACH C U L­ TURE APPROPRIATES S E X U ALITY IN ITS OWN WAY. FURTHER IT I SO L A T E S M A K I NG SEX TH E HIS BY MOST PRI VATE POSSESSION A N D R E S PO NS I B I LITY W H I L E R E STITUTI N G I T PUBLICLY A R O U N D HIM AS A COLLECTIVE " A M B I A N C E . WE DON'T H I D E A NYTHI NG. "NATURAL" ACTIVITY BUT A COMPLEX PHENO M E NON IN WHICH PHYSIOLOG I C A L. W E A R E A PEOPLE WITHOUT A M E MORY. BUT THE YANOMANI ARE NOT OBSESSED WITH THEM A S W E ARE. W E A R E N O T C R U E L A N Y MORE-GOD BY SEXUALITY I DON'T M E A N . T H E Y F I N D W A Y S T O ACCOMMODATE TH E I R MOST PRESSING INCLI NATIONS. A S I G N R E P R E S E NTS THE EGO FOR A NOTH E R EGO. "CIVI LIZED" REACTIONS. W H I C H A R E SEX. SEX. C R E ATIVE ACTION. AS SOCI ETY M A K E S S E X U A LITY I NTO A N OBJ ECTI VE. YANOMANI S E X U A LI TY INDIANS IN TER M S OF OF V E N EZ U E L A CODIFY K I N S H I P. " YOU W I LL N OT I C E HERE H OW THE RECTA L TODAY S EX'S M A I N F U NCTION I S T O CATE R T O THE EGO'S N E E DS. D I M E N S IONS CONSTANTLY O V E R L A P . . IS B E I NG M A D E I NTO A SIGN. THE TH E THE EVERYTHING C H A N G ES WHEN MAN FA LLS PREY TO H I S "CONSC I ENCE. NOR IS IT ACCO M PA N I ED BY G U I LT O R BANS SHAME. VIOLENCE. WE BUT IS KNOW I T WORTH A BO U T ASKING W H E N F U RT H E R ORGA N S . BUT W H A T IS THE EGO ITSELF." BY FAR. M A N-TH E . ORAL SEX. L I K E THE IS SPHINCTER O F T H E F E M A L E SAMPLE CONTRACTS AND T E R M I N ATES. A FT E R A LL. FROM A N A S S E RTIVE.'" IS FESTI VE. INDIAN AND TH E PEC U L I A R ANGLE OF THE PLATE GLASS-LIKE PENIS7 MORALITY STRICTLY SUCH B ELATED. M ENTAL.R ET R A C T THE RAPI DLY AFTER AND ORGASM WH I LE S E X F L U S H SUBSIDES BODY. HYPERVENTI LATION G R A D U A LLY DECREASES . P L E A S E . IN OTH E R WORDS. C L ITORAL STI M U LATION. S E X G R A D U A LLY TU R N S I NTO A DOM ESTICATED A N D N A R C I S S I ST I C FRAG I L E EGOS. EACH LOV E R S S I M P L Y D E C I D E TO " N A M E " D I FF E R E NT L Y • • . TH ROUGH THE N A R ROW DESIRE DOE S N 'T STEM FROM I N T E R D I CTION. IF NOT A NOTH E R R E P R E S E NTATI ON7 A A R E P R E S E NTATION FOR A N OTH E R R E P R E S E NTS R E PR E S E NTATION C I R C U LA R ITY OTH E R THEIR SEXUAL R E P R E S ENTATION. E V E N W H E N THESE DESIRES HAPPEN TO CONTRA DICT TH E PROH I B ITION O F I NCEST.B U T WE D O N ' T B E LO N G A N Y W H E R E .P R E DATOR B ECOM E S " P R O U D A N I M A L. B E I N G M A R KETED A T THE SA M E T I M E I T I S B E I N G " F R E E D.LIGHT OF TH E LENS SEX LAB. W H I C H ARE NOT SO M U C H I N STI NCT­ UAL AS THEY ARE PRO M OTIONAL. A S I M PLE. D I M E N S I O N S -T H E MYSTERY. W E DON'T LOOK A T T H E K I NSEY R EPORT: WE WATCH THE JOH N N Y CARSON SHOW. R AT H E R . ESPECIALLY FROM STR A NG E RS. OUR O N L Y V A L U E S L I E I N THE VOL U M E A N D SPEED O F TRADING. EXUBERANCE-THAT HAVE MADE I T A TRULY H U MAN E X P E R I E NCE. WE KNOW EVE RYTHI N G ABOUT SEX. AS N I ETZSC H E PUTS IT. O U R ON LY NATU R A L G R O U N D I NG. VAG I N A L H I M S E LF." OUR SOCIETY I S SATU RATED WITH SEX. W E W E LC O M E PUBLIC I NSPECTI ON. AND WITHOUT A FUTU RE. "AUTONOMOUS" WE HAVE BECOM E VOY E U R S OF OUR OWN SEXUAL­ ITY. INDIVIDUAL EVEN F U N CT I O N . IS IT MAY BE THAT THE EVE RYWH E R E OF ESSENTIALLY " W H A T EV E R GOOD. THATS W H Y OUR " B R A N DS" A R E R E MOVABLE TAGS. A DEAD RAT. OF COURSE." A LL T H E M O R E I N S E C U R E A BOUT H I S OWN DOINGS THAT HE K E E PS M E A S U R I NG T H E M AGA I N ST A D E S P E R ATELY I DOLIZED V E R S I O N O F E V E R Y TH I N G SEX OBJECTIFIES IT? E R ECTION. BUT I N NO OTH ER SOCIETY HAS SEXUALI TY BEEN SO I N T I M ATELY PERMEATED WITH OR. BUT I S OUR SEX REALLY SEXUAL7 PRI M IT I V E FLESH OF C U LT U R E S TRIBESME N R U T H L E SS L Y TO REMIND BRAND THEM TH E WHERE THEY B E LONG. E S P E C I A LLY I N O U R OWN BODY. LIKE E V E RYTH I N G FOR T H A T MATTER. A N D WE'RE NOT AFRA I D TO ASK. REACTION-A T R Y I N G TEST FOR ORGASM. R E P RESENTATIONS I N TH E I R OWN RIGHT. THE WEAK EST AND L E A ST C E R TA I N OF OUR TH E THE T E R ROR. A N A L I NTE RCOU RSE-WE KNOW IT A LL. O F S I G N S : "SO 272 .

H O W E V E R . W E FEAR EVEN THAT WHICH I S GOOD. A N D LAS E R B E A M S. I F MASTERS AND JOH N SON'S BOOK H A D B E E N T R U LY U N H U MA N A N D N O T J U ST OBJECTI V E . YOU COU L D JUST SEE THE DISA PPOI NTMENT WILT THE I R FACE W H E N T H E Y LOOKE D THROUGH IT. L I K E A SPACE S H I P COM I N G DOWN. ." WRITES ANDY WARHOL. O N E W I T H H I M S E LF. M IGHT H A V E B E E N QUITE EXCITI NG. "IT'S PROBABLY NOT YOU R FANTASY. "HUMAN R ESPONSES" A R E A LWAYS UNHUMAN. THE BOOK ALSO FAILS TO BE SIM PLY H U M A N . A P P ROPRIATELY. TOLD DON S H EWEY HOW HE THOUGHT OF ITS N A M E. THAT WHICH IS JOYOUS:' W R I TE S H E N R Y M I LL E R I N THE WORLD O F SEX. "TODAY WE SEEM A N I M ATED E XC LU S I V E LY BY FEAR. BUT SOMEONE WHO H A D THE S A M E FANTASY AS YOU A N D D EC I D E D I N ST E A D O F GETII NG I T O R B E I NG IT. HIS VERY C R A V I N G FOR A P ­ P R O V A L A N D R E C OG N I T I O N C O N D E M N S H I M . BUT NOTH I NG I N T H E BOOK B E T R A Y S T H E S U B J ECTS' S I L E N T CONV U L S I O N S . WE HAVE NOT YET CONQU E R E D OUR FEARS. T H E S E