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POLYSEXUALIlY [SEMIOTEXT(E) #10] SPECIAL EDITOR
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1.

SELF SEX

P I E R R E G U YOTAT

P. 14 BODY OF THE TEXT.

DA N I EL SLOATE

P. 21 I STRUGGLED WITH A DEMON

D E M E TR I U S ZA M B ACO

P. 22 CASE HISTORY.

2.

SOFT SEX

P I E R R E K LOSSOWSKI

P. 38 ROBERTE'S DIARY (CONTINUED)

ROG E R C A I LLOI S

P. 42 THE OCTOPUS IN JAPAN.

PA U L V E R LA I N E

P.415 ON THE BALCONY.

DU NCAN H . S M ITH

P. 46 MEMOIRS OF AN OCCUPATION

3.

ALIMENTARY SEX

J EA N POU I LLON

P. 154 TABLE MANNERS. BED MANNERS. LANGUAGE MANNERS.

P A U L V E R LA I N E/ARTH U R R I M B A U D

P.62 THE SONNET OF THE HOLE IN THE ASS.

T E R E N C E C. S E LLERS

P. 63 COPROPHAGY AND URINOLOGY

PAUL VERLAINE

P.66 A LITTLE SHIT
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4.

SEX OF THE GAZE

MICHEL BERNARD

P.68 THE MUTE NEGRESS.

A L A I N ROBBE-G R I LLET

P. 72 TEMPLE IN THE LOOKING GLASS.

5.

AMBIGUOUS SEX

FELIX G U A TT A R I

P. 8 0 I HAVE EVEN MET HAPPY TRAVELLOS.

DA N I E L SLOATE

P. 8 1 POLLY ORlAND PAUL.

JEAN FRANCOIS LYOTARD

P. 8 2 USE ME.

FELIX G U ATTARI

P. 8 6 BECOMING-WOMAN.

6.

A NIMAL SEX

F R E D E R I C ROSSI F

P.90 THE WILD CELEBRATION

CATH E R I N E D U N C A N

P.9S JOURNEYS OF A GENTLEWOMAN.

G I L L E S D E LEUZE/FELI X GUATTARI

P. 97 A BLOATED OEDIPUS.

B E R N A R D NOEL

P. 1 02 THE DOGS.

DA N I E L SLOATE

P.l06 TRUDY OR THE SECRET APHID.

7.

CHILO SEX

PETER WI LSON

P.I 08 THE SILVER PIPE CAFE.

TONY D U V E RT

P.l l 0 COUNTESS LULU

W I LLI A M B U RROUGHS

P. 1 1 9 THE POPLING

ROGE R MOODY

P. 1 215 THE COMMITTAL.

8.

MOR BID SEX

GEORGES BATAILLE

P.IS 6 THE CULPRIT.

228 INQUIRY INTO FEMININITY.167 POSTFACE: VIOLENCE AND POLYSEXUALITY.E .20!5 VOCABULARY.1!57 SAINT JACKIE. .17!5 CHORUS FOR A PSALM. JACQU ES LAC A N P. P I E R R E B E N I CHOU P. JASON K L E I N P.162 M. 1 1. 172 ONCE I HAD A MASTER. D I SCUR S IVE SEX QUESTION N A I R E P. 1 972.I!54 THE PARALLEL BARS. 18!5 LETTER TO JASON. 202 DO YOU KNOW CORRECT TERMS FOR WHAT SOME MAY CALL "SEX PERVERSIONS. 10. 219 JOUISSANCE AND DIVISION. JOHN P R E STON P. JACQU ES LACAN P. CHANTAL M A I L L ET/SYLV I E LEGER P. VIOLENT SEX PIERRE KLOSSOWSKI P. 9.ANONYMOUS P. CORPORATE SEX JOHN PRESTON P. • .14!5 MY LATE GRANDMOTHER. M I C H E LE MONTR ELAY P. FRANCOIS P E RALDI P." ROLA N D BARTH ES P. M I C H E L DE M ' U ZAN P. 208 SAINT ANN. COMEDIENNE AND TORTURER.190 THE OEDIPUS COMPLEX.

C R I TICAL SEX G U Y HOCQU E N G H E M P..236 FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOURSE. PH I LOSOP H I CAL SEX PA U L V I R I LIO P. ROBERT V A N R O D E N A LL E N P.ROLA N D B A R T H E S P. 260 TO DESTROY SEXUALITY . M I ST E R M A RG U L I E S P.. 1 3. 270 FRONTIERS BROKEN SYLV E R E LOT R I N G E R P. 249 DISCOURSE AND SEXUALITY: TOWARD THE TEXTURE OF EROS. 271 DEFUNKT SEX. 242 MOVING GIRL. 12. G I L L E S D E L E UZE/ F E L I X GUATTARI P.26!5 HOW TO MAKE YOURSELF A BODY WITHOUT ORGANS. .

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POLYSEXUALITY .

IF YOU PREFER. POL YSEXUALITY IS A TEXT IN ITSELF. IRREPRESSIBLE 'VOLONT E DE JOUISSANCE' LIBIDO: AN (WILL TO PLEASURE) NEVER PURE SINCE IT IS ALWAYS LINKED TO THE DEATH DRIVES TO THE POINT THAT FOR SOME RIGOROUS SEEKERS. 'JOUISSANCE' CULMINATES IN DEATH: THE ULTIMATE SEX. THE EDITORS OF WHICH ARE THE AUTHORS. . LET'S CALL IT A COLLAGE OR A TEXTUAL PATCH-WORK. BUT PERHAPS ALLUDED TO BY FREUD WHEN HE SUGGESTED THAT LIBIDO HAD NO GENDER. UNTHOUGHT OF. IT TELLS WHAT THE REALITY OF SEX HAS ALWAYS BEEN WITH RESPECT TO ITS ALIENATION TO 'USURA' AND EXPLOITATION.POLYSEXUALITY IS NOT ONLY A SET OF TEXTS WRITTEN BY CAREFULLY CHOSEN AUTHORS AND ILLUSTRATING THE PLURAL ASPECTS OF SEXUALITY. IT ALSO POINTS TOWARD THE 'REAL OF SEX' WHICH STILL LIES UNTOUCHED.

GENOCIDES. SYMBOLICALLY OR SEMIOTEXTUALLY SPEAKING. THE THEORY OF CATASTROPHIES IS AT THE VERY CORE OF THE THEORY OF POLITICS AND IT HAS TO BE THOUGHT OF AS GIVING SHAPE TO THIS OTHER SIDE OF LIBIDO. CRIMES OF WAR: OUR DAILY LOT. THAN THE TEXTUAL WORKING THROUGH OF THIS THESIS. THE DEATH DRIVES. 1 981 . HAVE BEEN PRESENTIFIED IN THIS TEXT BY IMAGES OF POLITICAL DISASTERS. WE CALL IT TEXTUAL. FROM COVER TO COVER. MASSACRES. BECAUSE LANGUAGES. IN OUR OPINION.IF LIBIDO IS THE ALL ORGANIZING THESE FORCES OF ALL ACTIVITIES LEADING SEX TO 'JOUISSANCE. INCLUDING WRITING ABOUT AND 'JOUISSANCE.' ACTIVITIES. MARCH 1 6. OF COURSE. WHICH CENTRIFICATE POLITICS. THIS WHOLE ISSUE IS NOTHING ELSE. CONSTITUTE THE THIRD SIDE OF LIBIDO. BY KNOTTING THEM TOGETHER· AND MAKING THEM TANGIBLE.' HAVE TO BE CONSIDERED AS IMAGES OF THE OTHER SIDE OF THE DEATH DRIVES. FRANCOIS PERALDI BOSTON. AND DEATH DRIVE.

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S E L F S E X .

PRODUCER OF M A TT E R . CONDUCTING A D I A LOGU E BETW E E N 14 . AT THAT AGE IT W A S D I FFICULT FOR ME TO PUT UP MY HAND MY A IN CLASS AND OV E R T H E H O L E (OUT OF WHICH R I S E T O PALPITAT­ ING MOUTH A N D NOST R I LS ALL THE OOORS OF THE S U M P A N D THE HERCY N I A N MOU NTA I N EA RTH ON WHICH THE SCHOOL I S B U I LT. AS U NOBTR U S I V E L Y AS POSSIBLE. A N D I . ORGA N I S M . ETC. U N D E R THE DESK: FIST TH RUST I N TO M Y POCKET !ITS SEAMS FULL OF C R U M BS. A I R E M E M B E R HA V I NG B E G U N TO MASTURBATE AT C H A L L E N G E TO MY OWN BODY. A LTHOUGH I H A V E N E V E R EVER FELT THE LEAST E M B A R R A S S E D ON TH E CONTRARY. N O N E TH E L E S S . BY D I SC O V E R ING AND PUTTI NG THE FARM COM I NG THE R E TO DE FECATE). POLITICAL CONTEXT PL E A S U R E BECA M E P R A C T I S E D . FROM THAT TI M E ON I A LSO M A STURBATED M UCH LESS IN THE WC. I WAS ACTI NG IN A VERY COHERENT WAY AS TO THE MASTERING OF M Y N E E DS AND WANTS: AS I SAW IT. FI LTE R E D BY THE F R A I L E R S M E L L OF S E M E N). THE NEED TO MAKE MY FI RST DECLA R ATIONS ON T H E R E LATIONSH I P M A STURBA­ TION-WR I TING DATES FROM A ("LA NOUVELLE C RITIQU E"). NOTEBOOKS IN H A N D-NOT FOR A STOCKTA KING OF PAST O R P R E S E N T JOTTINGS ON WHAT I AM ABOUT TO D E SC R I B E : THE R E LATIONSH I P IN BETW E E N ORDER TO I NTO PR ACTICE THIS M A STUR BATORY SYSTEM. J E R K I NG THE LITTLE S E X.BODY OF THE TEXT THI S IS NOT WRITTEN. M O NTH MORE BY MONTH AS THE D E SC R I B E D "SCHO L A R LY" "M A RG I N A L" (N ECESSARY TERMS AT AN EPOCH DETE R M I N E D BY POLITICAL E NGAG E M E NTS OF AN ADM I N I STRATIVE KI N D. NO USE E X P ECTI NG AS TH E N .H I D D E N I N T H E V E R Y H A U N T OF H U M A N A N D OFTEN A N I M A L DEJ ECTIONS (DOGS. ORGAS M-ALTHOUGH I COULDN'T H AVE N A M E D IT AT A TI M E IT DID TH E NOT YET LEAD TO EJACULATION­ TURD AND URINE. A L R E A D Y TH E N . DRAWING T O M Y S E L F AS BODY. A TEXT THAT M I GHT OR BE W I TH E L D SEVERAL TI M E S A DAY. ABOUT B E I N G S E E N AS BODY. IT TOOK PLACE. BUT DICTATED. PERVADED. IN O R D E R TO "PUT OFF" A DESI R E T O P I S S OR C R A P. W I TH U N D E R PA NTS PUSHED AGAI NST THE THIGH. THI S OPERATION S E E M E D TO ME IN NO WAY R E P R E H E N S I BLE. SCREECH-OWLS FROM P U B L I C LY ATT E N T I O N MAKE KNOWN N EEDS. I M PROVISED. THEN G R A D U ALLY. MOST COMICA LLY. ARSE DIST E N D E D THE AGE OF N I N E. ORGANS. CATS. ORANGE P E E L. A C CO R D I N G TO A KIND OF G A M E. OR BY A HESITATION TO EXPRESS THE MOST VOCAL SOU N D I NGS OF THE M A STURBATORY TEXT). SUGA R.). REPEATED M A STUR BATION A N D WRITI NG-BUT SPEAK TEXT I N HAND A N D EXPOSED TO VI EW-.I . TH ROUGH THE U N D ER PA NTS AT FIRST.

TH E MASTUR­ BATOR. N A M E LY: A WRITTEN I M PORTANT P A R T OF M Y WA R D ROBE. A N D IN THE DOR­ ARE COLLEGE I NOW ATTE N D E D. HOLI DAYS. THAT MOST OF THOSE RO UND M E W E R E DO I N G THE S A M E THING AT THE SAME TIME. TO A DRAMATISATION O F THE PRACTICE.C. N OT I N F R EQ U E N TLY IN THESE N OT E S A PROCESS E M E R G E S (VERY PRODUCTI VE SUBCON­ SC IOUSL Y) IN CONTRADICTION WITH THE M ETHODS OF " D E C E N T" WRITI NG. MASTUR BATION BY WITH OTH E R OF TH E BOYS. WHEREAS LATE R.D O R M I TO R Y. TO M A STU R BATE. M I TORY. SUCC E S S I V E H E R E. MY R I G H T H A N D. OR I CA N'T SAY AT WHAT TH E POI N T ("DEC E NT" O R G I A STIC T E XT?) MASTUR­ B A TO R Y A C T BEGAN T O PREDOM I N ATE. CLOSE D F O R THE S U M M E R . LAY I N G SIEGE TO ME FOR S E V E R A L DAYS F I N I S H E D 8Y REDUCING OF HER WHY "WE E P I N G AND C H I L D" TO AN R E LATION S H I P W H I C H A D M ISSION W H E R E A BO U T S : A N D. SCRIBBLED S U B M I TT I N G TO THIS A D D I T I ON A L STRA I N PI ECES OF R U LE D PAPER TO R N F R O M EXERCISE DRESSI N G A N D U N D R E S S I N G I N P U B L I C U N TI L I CAN R E C U P E R ATE A P A I R FROM UNDER TH E STON ES. F U NCTIONS AT F I RST ON T H E THRESHOLD OF TH E S U BCONSCIOUS. DURING WHICH I PRACTI S E D MORE AND A N D S PECIALLY PA I N T I N G 115 . I DON'T R E M E M ­ BER THAT D R A W I NG P E R I OD . AND SUCH AS A M O M E NTS ARE P I N N AC L E S OF PLEA­ FOR T H I S THERE PROCESS A CC E L E R A T E S LEA DS. R E C U P E R­ ATE AND PUT BACK I N TO C I R C U LATION THAT I WAS THEN. WHO DIED I N AUGUST PAC KET '158. S H E C A M E W I T H M E T O LI FT T H E STONES ONE A FTER ANOTH E R A N D . I NTO WHAT I S A FTE R ALL A VERY ORDI N A R Y SITUATION. R E S U LT. I S I NTRODU C E D A N I M POR- ORGASM AS AN A NTI-DEFECATOR. ETC. BEG I N S TO TA K E OVER. PUTS A STOP ONCE AND FOR A LL TO R E SORTING TO . STUF F I N G I N TO M Y POC KET -CLASSROO M : I CONTI N U E MASTU RBATI NG WITH THE LEFT HAND. WITH TH E I R OWN N A M ES. BETWE E N T H E MORE A S S I D UOUSLY. BUT I F I A M PERS U A D E D T H A T NOBODY E V E R S A W M E MASTUR8ATE IN C LASS. A COM M U N A L SEXUAL EXCITE M ENT PRODUCI NG LINKS THE US HOMO­ U NCON­ (NUMBER 49) OF WASH I NG . THE E X P U LSION T H E R E ­ FORE OF A NOTH E R M A TT E R . BASED ON THEIR SEXUAL BREAT H I N G Q U I C K E N E D BY TH E SIGHT OF THE POR N P H OTOS.: T H E R E . G E TT I N G OUT OF CONTROL. M A STU R B A TO R Y SOM ETI M ES. I R E F U S E TO G I V E T H E M TO T H E LAUNDRY H I DE OR T H E SC HOOL MY LA U N D R E S S E S . OUT OF M Y POCKET. S U R EII AND AM TO PUT LAST OF FORC E D MY MY S U PPLY OF U N D E R ­ ( B U T W I T H WHAT PLEA­ OVER BARE SKIN.ESTI MATED) OF THI S TRA N S F E R . M O R E A N D M O R E E X P E RT. THE RIGHT HAND D E V OT E D W H E N W E FALL I NTO L I N E AT 6 A. U NKNOWN TO MY FATH E R WHO D I E D I N NOV E M B E R ' 7 1 . TO GO DOWN TO C H A PEL. D I ST U R B I N G B E C A U S E H A LF WAY BETW E E N S H I T A N D U R I N E. ORGASM AND D E F ECATION TOOK PLACE S I M U LTAN EOUSLY. BECOM E TH E D R A MATI S P E R SONAE OF THE D U R I N G T H E HOLIDAYS M Y MOTH ER. WAS SURPRISED B Y MY DWI N D L I N G AND AFTER ACT-BOYS WITH WHOM I LOOK AT POR NOGRAPHIC MAGAZI N E S BROUGHT FROM THEIR HOME TOWNS. PHON ETISATION O F T H E USUAL SPEECH O F ONE OR THE R ELATION BETW E E N WRITING AND MASTU RBA­ TION A PPEARS FOR THE FI RST T I M E ROU N D THE AGE OF TEN O R E L E V E N .THE A RSE-HOLE AND THE SEX. THEN. B E C A U S E M Y U N D E R PA N TS R E LATION S H I P TWO MAIN WRITI NG/MASTURBATION SETTI N G S : ONE IS TH E BEAR T H E M A R K S (SOM EWHAT OVER. I H I D E T H E M U N D E R A PILE OF STON ES. I L LU M I NATED TITLES) A N D THIS GESTU R E B R I N G S MY H A N D. T H E FI RST SETTI NG I S D I V I D E D THEM UNDER M ATTR ESS THEM INTO TWO: CLASSROOM A N D DOR M I TORY. W R I TT E N . ON T H E EDGE OF DREAM. CONSCI O U S OF M Y S E X U A L S U P E R IORITY BEC A U S E I CAN WRITE WHAT IS VOCALLY I M M I NENT BETW E E N US). I CARRY T H E M OUTSI D E SCHOOL L I M I TS B E H I N D T H E T U M B L E DOWN W. THE LEFT H A N D . BECAUSE IT S M ELLS AND WETS T H E CLOTHES. CLOTH I NG. THE N . PHYSICAL P EC U L I A RI T I E S . IT H A PP E N S AT MOM E NTS OF PANIC THAT QUITE U N I N T E N TIONA LLY I H E NCEFORTH TO W R I T I N G -SOM ETI M E S A "DECENT' TEXT ( PO E M S ) COP I E D A FTERWARDS ON TO L U X U R Y SHEETS OF D R A W I N G PAPER A N D PUT TOGETH ER I N A L B U M S OR "BOOKS".M. THE OTH E R HOME. AS EXC E PTIONALLY S E X U A L. A T OTH E R TI M ES. SURE. BOOKS. I I M M E DI A T E LY WOR K E D OUT ANOTH E R SYSTE M-WHAT I D O N ' T R E M E M B E R ­ T O POSTPO N E T H E N E E D TO D E FECATE. TO D A Y . T E R M T I M E . ORGASMS I N DU C E D LECH E ROUS R E VE R I E . I STA RT TO DRAW (WOM E N WITH H A LOS. IT IS ONLY WHEN I BEGIN TO WRITE THAT THE AND SLITH E R O F TH E T U R D A N D THAT O F T H E ORGASM. WHERE N E I G H BO U R I N G BODI ES. T H I S COI N C I DE S WITH TH E FI RST E J A C U LATI ON. IT I S BECAUSE I A M MORE AND MORE CO NVI N C E D TH ROUGH HEARI NG OTH E R S M Y OWN E X P E R I ENCE AND TALK. A N D WHICH.. SC IOUSLY ( A LTHOUGH W H E R E OTH E R S OF M Y K I N D ARE CONC E R N E D M A K I N G T H E MOST OF A V I S I T P A I D BY MY DOCTOR FATH E R IN THE VIC I N I TY OF T H E SCHOOL. OF PANTS ON ORGIASTIC W R I T I N GS. A CON V U L­ SIVE SERIES OF O R G I A STIC NOTES K NOW N AS ON EVACUATE TH E PA NTS. A S E R ECTION A N D D I SC H A R G E I NC R E ASE I N CAPACITY. AND STI L L AM.

WITH BAWD'S COST U M E BAWDY TALK O R VICE V E RSA-. A 16 . IN OTH E R WORDS. TH E ACT OF STA I RC A S E OPEN. T H AT W E SHOULD COST U M E P I M P'S TA L K O R VICE VERSA. A T WHICH POI N T THE T E X T T U R N S I NTO A G E N E R A L C H I LD'S ROOM IS O P E N BY DAY TO ITS MOTH E R . NOT AT COLLEGE THAT I M A D E I T : I N MY B E D ROOM COST U M E S O N E ON TOP OF TH E OTH E R . MARKING BETWE E N N E SS. ONCE T H E SESSION I S B ROUGHT TO A N END BY LACK OF J U I C E . IN THE POW E R O F CONTROL (NOT OF SE LF­ EFFAC E M ENT AT THAT PARTICULAR EPOCH) OF OR G U I LT F E E L I NGS. OR WALKING IN M Y S L E E P B R A N D I S H I N G I T . TH E RUSTLE O F" W R I G G L I N G O U T OF" T H E COSTU M E W I T H THE RUSTLE OF THE P R I E ST'S CASSOCK A G A I NST TH E C U RTA I N D U R I N G O N E OF H I S ROU N D S OF I N SPECTION ( S I N C E MY S E SS I O N A L W A Y S T O O K PLACE B E FO R E HE -TH E JOCK·STRAP: A M ET I C U LOUS SEARCH FOR IN C U PBOA R D S . THE PRODUC E D BY TH E EJ A C ULATION PROD U C I N G A B L E N D I N G OF ONE A N D TH E OTH E R M E M B E R W I T H TH E D Y E A N D W O R N A N D FADING FIBRE IN A S E R I ES OF I NC R E A S I N G L Y V I O L E N T ORGAS MS. ORIG I N A LLY I T WAS M A D E U P OF TWO E L E M ENTS: A K I N D OF J OC K-STR A P FAS H I O N E D F"ROM RAGS. A N D I COULD. C H O I C E DETE R M I N E D ALSO BY A CLOTH C A PA B L E OF A C R A D L I N G O R LEC H E ROUS C U R B I N G OF TH E PARTS ( R USTIC WITHOUT RIGI DITY. ORIGI N A L LY M E RGED WITH S L E E P A N D D R E A M . I BEC A M E MORE AND MORE SKILLFUL IN M A K I NG THEM COI N C I D E WITH O N E O F TH E PRE DICTABLE SOU N D S I N T H E DOR M I TORY-FOR E X A M PLE. CONSC I O U S N ESS ALL U NCONSCIOUS­ HAD TO BE BECAUSE O P E RATIONS C A R R I E D OUT A S S I L E NTLY A S POSSI BLE. W H I C H . IT WAS S L I D U N DER THE MATTRESS. FOR E STALL A N Y I M PORTUNATE V I SITS FROM M Y FATH E R IF CALLED ON A N U RG E N T VISIT D U R I NG TH E N I GH T ) . OR A S U DDEN SHOWER) W H I C H SERVED AS DAMPER OR M UFFLER FOR MY TH E DETE R M I N E D BY T H E PIECE POSSIBI LITY O F SOM E O N E DISCOV E R I NG A M I SS I N G O R TO R N F R O M A LE NGTH OF M ATERIAL. FOR EXAMPLE. N E V E R PREVENTED THE D A I LY SESSION. SO THAT I SWITC H E D F ROM OBVIOUSLY BY BAWD TO A S I M U L­ D ECORS: BED ROOM A N D "NATU R E". OR ELSE. MY MOTH E R A N D H E R M A I D I N T H E W A Y T H E Y DRESSED): THIS S H O U L D B E S E E N A S A D R A M ATIC D E S I R E OF M Y EFFAC E M E N T A S T H E BOURGEOIS BODY: K N E A D I N G B Y BOU RGEOIS H A N D O F BOU RGEOIS SEX TH ROUGH PROLETA R I A N TISSUE. M UST BE R E MOVED. FOR I T WAS AT HOM E . T H E COSTU M E WENT DE­ M A STURBATION . IT IS AT TH I S POI N T THE N .R OO M . IN THIS WAY A MATERIA L AND BOU N D A R Y THROUGH VARIOUS STAG E S . M A S T U R B AT I O N AND F E A R . A SUCCESSION OF DOGS BA R K I NG. L U M B E R . G E N T L E IN ITS T H R EADBA R E G I V E . TH I S S E E M S T O M E T H E R E W A S STI L L A CONSI DERABLE DIFFERENCE BETWE EN. A N D A CLOTH L A I D U N D E R TH E C E NTRE O F OPERATIONS (OBV I O U S LY AT COLLEGE IT SERVED TO PROTECT THE S H E ET FROM STA I NS. A H A N D DRAWING IT UP A LONG THE BODY WEIGHTED WITH WARMTH AND TH E 1 91515. AS I SUFFERED FROM SOM N A M B U L I S M AT THE TI M E . THE SECOND S ET T I N G A L SO COM P R I S E S TWO C H A N G E OF COSTUM E TOOK PLACE BETW E E N TWO ORGASMS. BUT N E V E R T O TH E POI N T W H E R E H A N D . BUT I N F U NCTION O F ITS SOC I A L R E F E R E N C E (CHOICE O F A PROLETA R I A N CLOTH AT A TI M E. W A S R E LATI VELY P R I V I LEGED. ITS ROO M . I S P ROG R E S S I V E LY DISTI N G U I S H E D B Y TH E N E E D TO D I SPOSE OF THE COSTU M E A N D W I P E TH E ORGANS I N VOLVED B E FO R E GOI NG TO SLEEP. I WAS A F" R A I D OF F A L L I N G A S L E E P BEFORE H I D I N G I T . O N C E TH E BECA U S E OF ITS SOFTN ESS. FROM BETW E E N THE THIGHS. BY LEAVING TH E DOO R S ON TH E ATTIC AND CLEAN END USED FOR W I P I N G BALLS AND P E N I S I N THE P R OC E SS. THE RETI R E D TO H I S A LCOVE F O R TH E N I GHT)-QR W I T H U N P R E D I CTABLE SO U N D S (OUTS I DE. CHOICE ETC. BOT H DESC R I B E T H E M A STU R BATORY COST U M E . P A L M A N D F I N G E R S AND U S U A LLY A T NIGHT. ACCORD I N G TO W H ETH E R I WAS IN TH E MOOD TO B E PI M P O R BAWD­ AND O FT E N IN THE COURSE OF A SESSION A PROFOU N D PROSTlTU­ TION A L D R I V E TO W H I C H I WAS PREY AT THE TI M E . EVOL V E D OR AND T E R IO R A T E D ACCOR D I N G TO TI M E PLAC E. A N D D I VERTED ATTENTION FROM THE HEAVING OF SHEET AND B L A N K E T. IF UNDECIDED AS TO SOC I A L POSTU R E . BREATHING. BUT IN MY B E D ROOM IT WAS OFTE N S U P E R FLUOUS AS THE SESSION OFTEN TOOK PLACE NAKED AND I N T H E RAW O N THE TILES OF T H E B E D ROO M FLOOR. ACCOM P A N I E D TAN EOUS C H A N G E IN ORGIASTIC TEXT: WITH P I M P'S THESE TWO HOM E LY AND HOLIDAY SETTING ALLOW MORE F R EEDOM FOR E LABORATE DRAMATISATION. M A TE R I A L . AND A L SO B E C A U S E OF ITS LEC H E ROUS E FFECT O N T H E BODY: N E V E R F O R I T S A E STHETIC EFFECTS. P I M P. SHOULD THIS BE S E E N AS AN E A R LY MARK OF CON F I D E N C E IN MY U NCONSCIOUS BODY. TOO VAG U E TO R E C A L L. SPERM AND ALL. LET U S SAY. COST U M E REMOVED.TANT MATER I A L E L E M E N T : T H E M A S T U R B ATO R Y LITTLE LESS AT N IGHT ( M Y ROOM U N D E R T H E EAVES AT SOME DI STA N C E F ROM TH E PARE NTAL BED­ COSTUME. I N EVITABLE I N THE ATMOS P H E R E OF C U L T U R A L V I S C E R A LITY PRACTI C E ? U NLESS. SINCE A C E A S E T O F E E L T H E E X A C T OUTL I N E OF M Y SEX. PREVENTED M Y S L E E P I N G BODY FROM M A K I NG A BAWDY STROLL BETW E E N BEDS AND BOD I E S . W H E N I T LATEST ODORS.

R E S I N O U S. IN TH E N M E NTAL FLUX)-BUT TO MY "ADH E R A NC E" TO T H E A M BI E NT R E A L I T Y. PRECI PITATE ORGASM EVEN AT THE EXPENSE OF A TEXT R I C H IN LECH E ROUS PROMI S E . I SAT WITH A HARD ON. LACE D A R O U N D THE LOI N S A N D DOWN THE CLEFT OF TH E A R S E . B A R E . MADE ME R E J ECT GREEK H I STORY. S O TO BY P U L L I N G MY FIST THE TH R E AT DESTRUCTION. ARE SO . ITS STRI KES TH E STU F F NAPE OF MY N EC K AGA I N ST A T R E E T R U N K : A F I R TO BEGIN WITH. THE ATT R A CTS BUTTOCKS. A LSO LOST. A K I N D OF SC R E E N WHE R E THE J ET. S P U RT I N G FROM T H E R I G I D VOI D. WHAT BE EMOTIONAL. THAT W H AT TlBLE I NC A PA C ITY OF THOSE CLOSE TO ME TO H ELP M E U N D E RSTA N D TH E M EXCEPT BY T R E ATING TH E M W I T H STRICTLY E MOTIO N A L R E S PECT. U N D E R NOTES M IGHT OF R E SO L U T I O N S BECA U S E TH E I R FOR M U LATION: 17 . E M ERGES TERM E D IN POLITICAL. HANG OVER LEAST R E S E M B L E D FACTORY-MADE U N D ERPA NTS. V E R T E B R A E. R E C E I V E D. ACCO R D I N G T O TH E C A PACITY OF E RECTION A T A GIVEN PERIOD: THE PERIOD OF A DOLESC E NC E S E E K I NG T H E S E M I N A L H A LO D I S P E R S E D B Y THE SEXUAL SADDLE. T H E E F FORTS M A D E -THE CLOTH : NOTH I N G TO SAY A BOUT TH I S E XC E PT TO NOTE THAT TH E DOM I N ATING COLOR WAS R ED. SYM BOL FOR ME AT THAT M O M E N T OF A ROMANTIC. SU BSTA N C E SO T O R E WO R K I N G IT LOOK MORE R E M I N I SC E N T OF A SIDES I PO K E D N E UTRALI S E D D U R I N G TWE NTY-FOU R HO U S E. SEXUAL D E L I B E RA T E L Y A LLO W I N G TH E TO "NOR M A L I S E" SPEAK. M Y I D E A B E I N G THAT IN CASE OF A S E A RCH THEY M IGHT AT F I RST G LA N C E BE M I STA K E N FOR A IN THE NOTES I R E F E R R E D TO E A R L I E R ( N U M B E R E D ACCORDI NG T O A H A B I T I STI LL RETA I N A N D W H ICH CAN LEAD TO A WHOLE DAY'S SEARCH FOR A N IDEA -NATU R E : D U R I NG TH E DAY WHEN MY BED­ TO BE TRAC ED THROUGH AND THE S UC C E S S I O N NOTED OF TH E SO BANDAG E . I DON. I D E N U D E . EXPULSING AND FROM ITS BODY AND C R EV I C E S ) MORE BATH I N G IN O R G I A ST I C "COS M I C A LLY" ITS S PA R E R S H A D E STRON G E R ODOR: SINCE TH EN. OR T H E TRANSC R I P­ TION OF A SOCIO-BO R D ELLO I N T U ITION. NECK N A P E OF TH E P U SH I NG ON ALL MY CERVICAL WRITING. AND E V E RYTH I N G THAT I N LA N DSC A P E AND W R I T I N G A P PEA R E D AS IN THE FULL LIGHT OF DAY-LATE R S UBSTITUTED BY A P I N E TREE (TH E TRUNK BOTH D R Y E R . A N D TH E R E. W A R M E R. U S U A LLY I M A D E THE OFFICIAL U N D E R PA NTS. IN SPITE OF TH E F A SC I N A T I O N OF M YT H . B Y R E F E R E N C E TO T H E OF TH E COST U M E'S SATCHELS FROM T H E B I K E. NO S P EC I A L DRAMA­ TISATION D U R I NG T H E S E SESSIONS. I SET OUT FO R THE H I G HEST POS S I B L E PO I N TS IN THE M O U N TA I N S FORC I N G IT DOWN SO TH E C LOTH COULD BE LACE D ROU N D MY LOI N S : THE SOU N D OF THE HOLES WHICH I KNOW A R E R A R E LY FREQU E NTED.WO R K . RooM'S L A C K OF SECU RITY P R E V E NTED M E FROM SATI SFYI N G A DESI R E ACC E N T U A T E D BY THE " I DEAS" N I GHT NUMBERED M ENTALLY A BEFORE) TH U S PUTTI NG STOP-NOT S U D D E N R E SOLUTION OF A PROBLE M O F WRITING WHICH H A D BEEN TROUBLING M E FOR SOME TI M E (ATTE M PTS AT A N E W SYNTAX). IT REMARKED THAT THE ME MOST IN TH E MALE PA RT W H I C H BODY. TH E SEXUAL. I TOOK TO COLL E G E WITH ME THE MOST E LE M E NTARY M A TE R I A LS !THAT I S TO SAY. GROU N D MASS THEN D U R I NG ITS RIDE ON THE B I K E'S W H E N I H A D M Y BIGGEST E RECTIONS CORRESPONDS WITH A COST U M E R E D U C E D TO ITS M I N I M UM. TEXT U R E SPONGY. TH E LIGHTEST OF COSTU M E S AND THOSE THAT TO REACH THROUGH THROUGH SUCCESSIVE V E R TE B R A� TH E ORGASM R E P E RC U T I N G N E R V E� M USCLES. A ST R ETC H O UT. TH E C L A N DESTI N E COSTU M E THE OFFIC I A L U N D E RPANTS ASI DE. SPEAK. CLOTH. IT. ON T H E N A R ROW M E DI A N OF CLOTH THUS P R E P A R E D. TH E SIZE OF THE C O ST U M E VA R I E S A LSO.S E M E N THE MORE DECORATED SHOULD BE FOR M E R SPERM. T H E N TA K I NG MY B I K E . O N S E LECTED F O R I T S G E N E RA L H U M I DITY. BY A S U D D E N P A N I C B E FO R E T H E I N SOLUBI LITY OF MY SOCIAL CONTRADICTIONS AND THE I R RE D UC­ MUCH TO T H E WORK OF WRITING (WH I C H F U N CTIONS WITH EVEN G R EA T E R I NTENSITY D U R I NG THIS SC I ENTI FIC S E A RC H FOR T H E LOST " I D EA" A N D ITS PLACE. WESTERN A U STER I TY W H I C H . TH E ROUGH NOT COSTU M E . "OPEN"'. T H E R E . TA KIN G T H E C U R R E NT N O T E S OUT OF MY C L A M M Y POC K E T AND R E ST I N G TH E M ON ONE OF THE TEA R I NG UNDER T H E STR A I N OF T H E LACE S DURING MASTURBATION BO R D E L AND C O U LD. TRAGE DY. ROD BENT TO TH E STRA I N I N G WITH C LO T H . S O F A R AS T H A T P A R T OF M Y O W N BODY WAS CON C E R N ED. OR AGAIN. U N DO I N G MY FLY A N D WRIGG L I N G MY H I PS SO T H E S H O R T S S L I P D O W N M Y LEGS OF TH E I R O W N ACCORD. M I C ROSCOPIC SC R A P OF C LOTH OVER THE FRONT ON LY. A C L A N D E S T I N E M O I ST ITS TH E T H E COST U M E S S I TT I N G N A K E D ON TH E E D G E OF M Y BED: I C U T TH E W I TH C LOTH A HEM BY AS G U E S S . MASS WARM BOTH E R I N G MADE EDGES BAWDY HOLES STRA N G E N E S S .A POSTROPHI S I NG OF MY BODY).A R S E D . AROUND WHICH I THE HOURS OF A B A N DON BY LETTI N G TH E SAPS SOFTEN A N D R E A N I MATE THE DRY S P E R M STUC K TO TH E THROUGH T H R E A D E D COA RSE PACK I N G STR I NG. HERE.

FOR A GI N G TH ROUGH H E A PS OF RAGS A N D PILES O F BROKEN F U RNIT U R E WITHO U T HAVING GIVEN ME FAIR W A R N I NG . SOCIA L NAL SOU N DS FROM T H E VILLAGE. USE THE RECORDER IS A D D E D T O THIS V I S U A L D I S POSITION. GAVE ME AN A LMOST pER FECT SATISFACTION. ETC . ORGY" . "LET THE S P E R M R U N DOWN MY LEGS" '''TREAD IN IT ON TH E T I L E S" / " E A T THE S P E R M " . P U NCTUATE T H E M U SIC O F M A STU R B A T I ON. M USCLES. ONLY LATER A N D ON R A R E OCCA S I ONS. M AC H I N E AND M I C ROPHON E SET U P BETW E E N T H E KNEES TO TApE TH E M A ST U R BATORY S E S S ION. NOT H I NG TH I S IN E X A LT E D MY R E SO L U T I O N S U B S I ST E D E Y E S E X C E PT A L U D ICROUSLY T R U NCATED SCENA RIO: B U T ON REFLECTION. "TONIGHT. THIS M A ST U R BATO R Y W R I TING. I THINK. "TOMORROW NIGHT. PUTS IT SOM EWH E R E WHICH TAKES lB ." D E S TI N E W H EN I I C O U L D P U T O N O N E OF W E A R I NG IT TILL C O ST U M E S. BOTH T H E AND THE POST O R GIA STIC ENE R G I ES. EVEN "D E S P A I R" O R G I A STIC AND OF OF DISGUISE I NTO A LYING N A K E D . WITH ORGA N S. P L A S T E R COST U M E" / "TI GHTEN T H E COSTUME" . RELAPSE SA V I NG MYSTI C I S M I .). AND P R E P A R E D THE LONGEST POSS IBLE SCENA RIO: NOW. NA M E LY THE SPLASH O F SpE R M A S IT HIT T H E COST U M E . BELLY AND LUNGS WOR K I NG LIKE B E L LOWS. ONCE T H E RELATI V E pA RTS HAD BEEN WIPED. PARTIC U L A R L Y I F T O TH E COST U M E UNDER THE OFFI CIA L UNDER­ BOU G H T. M A Y RETURN TO THE BODY F ROM WHICH IT COMES. F U C K E R A N D FUCKED. EYES STA R I NG TILL ECLI PSED BY THE ORGASM. T H E TOWN. E X A M I N E IT THROUGH A MAGNI F Y I N G GLASS" '''TH I S S U M M E R . PROVIDED A SOLI D CORPOR E A L BASIS FOR M Y W R ITING. D U R I NG T H E DAY ANO NIGHT P R ECEDING THE N E XT ORGASM. ROLLED UP W I TH T H E COST U M E IN A IN THE CLOTH AND H IDDEN. AND POLITICAL FORM: IT A LSO. IN WINTE R . MIRROR W H E R E M Y P A R ENTS COULD CONTE MpLATE T H E M S E LVES FO R ME TO FULL LENGTH ) . S O TO SPEAK. I N A L L INNOCENCE. PIMP AND BAWD. THE SO THAT THE M USIC. H E A D SWE ATING. BUYER AND R O U N D TH U S GI RDED IN THE F A M I L Y CIRCLE. C I RC U M SC RIBING MY VIRILE ATTRIB UTES. W R ITING U NT I L THE SWEAT OF HEEL AND TOES M I STS UP THE M I R RO R. A RECOR D I NG USED A FT E R W A R D S B U T TO NOT ONLY AS A D D I TIONA L STI M U LA NT. A TAPE ROLL F E L L INTO M Y MOTH E R'S H ANDS. THE N E E D IS SO GREAT THAT ME EVEN T H E FROM A W F U L COLD DOES NOT P R E V ENT M A ST U RBATING NU DE.E N D S P E A K. PENED T H A T. O R A MONG MY FE LLOWS A T COLLEGE. IF POSS I BLE. AND W R I TING WITH TH E OTH E R ? "SOLITU DE. IT SHOULD BE SAID TH A T T H E S E RESOLUTIONS CALLED FORTH O R G I A ST I C S C O R E ."TON I G H T. LATER. THESE R E SOLUT IONS A LTERNATING WITH OTH ERS A BOUT M Y W R I T I NG. S M E A R S P E R M ON M Y MOUTH" . TENDONS TAUT A G A I NST T H E TILES. OR S O M E M ECHANICA L PROB L E M ( R E PA I R S TO THE B I K E . WHO. W A S P R O P P E D A P I E C E OF FA M I LY M I R RO R (ONCE PART OF THE B E D ROOM SESSION. W H EN M A STUR BATING ON TH E BED. LOINS.E R ("S E E R"). FINA LLY. ETC" THE VOICES HIG H L Y CHARGED S E X U ALLY) TO WH I P UP F L A G G I NG IMAGINARY EDIFICE FOLLOW E D I M M E D I ATELY S E RVED T O PROLONG T H E TEXT A S FA R A S POS S I B L E A N D A T T H E SAME T I M E EFFACE. THE SESSION TAKES PLACE B E H IN D C LO S E D R E SOLUTIONS CAN B E S E EN A S THE BEG I NNINGS O F A DRAMATISATI ON WINDOWS. ETC. BY M USCULAR TH E FATIGUE. AND THESE D R I V E S WERE PA RTLY R E FLECT E D IN THE APPA RATUS PANTS. N E R V E S FROZEN STI F F I N TH E I R R E LA XATION. LIKE A FROSTY ECHO OF T H E O R G I A STIC C I R C U I T. . NEXT MORNING. AT THE END OF EACH M A STU R B A TO R Y C L O S E S T T O M Y H E E LS. PERHAPS THIS SYSTEM OF CONCENTRA T I N G ON SOUNDS PRODUCED R I GH T IN FRONT O F T H E MICROP H O N E. A LAYER I COULD OF TH E IT COUNT O N DAMp AND TH E M D U ST H A P­ SHO RTENING R E M I N I SCENT O F THIGHS MANTEG N A -WH I LE L E FT HAND AND MASTURBATING: KNE A D I NG THE OPEN. N E U T R A L I SING D I U RNAL A N D NOCTUR­ TH E N TA K I NG TEXTUAL. T H E S E SCRIB B L E D NOTES WE RE. W E R E STUCK SC R A PS OF TH E ORGIASTI C N OT E S . WHAT MORE TH E R E B R UT A L L Y BE THAN E X C I T I NG S P ECT A C L E C O U L D A C H I LD M A S T U R B A T I NG IN D U R I NG THOSE S A M E W I NT E R HOLIDAYS. STI LL SO F R A I L AND UNRECOGN I S E D . TIGHT ROUND ORGANS. H A D DECIDED TO MASTUR BATE: TO W A L K M Y D I S A RRAY AT T H A T T I M E STEM MED FROM T H E CONT R A D I CTORY D R I V E S T O B E BOTH S E E N AND S E E. AND TH E R IG H T HAND W R I TING. A G A I N ST THE BOTTOM B A R S OF THE B E D. SO TO E M PLOYED D U R I NG T H E M A ST U R BATORY SESSION : FO R INSTANCE. A C Q U I RING TYPICA L OF M A SS O F O R G A NS. TH E FI RST ORGASM (THOSE DESTROY E D THAT TH E W A S C O M M E RCIA L M U S I C USED (GENRE POP SINGER AND ANGLO-SAXON POP. SOMETIMES STRING. TIE TH E COSTU M E ROUND M Y NECK" . STILL BIG ENOUG H A FOR E ­ A LWAYS D I FF E R ENT C R A NNY OF T H E ATTIC CONT E M P LATE MYSELF-IN W H E R E . AND FO R Q U A RT E R OF A N H O U R A FTERWARDS IN A POST-ORGIASTIC STUPOR. BUTTOCKS. OR B A C KG R O U N D V OC A L I SING ON NOIS ES. FI CTITIOU S L I STS OF RECORDS TO BUY. C LOTH SUCH PLACES. INVENTION AND FA B R I CATION OF I MAGINARY M A C H I N ES. THANKS TO MY " P L U S-FO U RS" AND ON DAYS OF E XT R E M E M Y CLAN­ E V E N I NG COST U M E WITH H I S LEFT H AND.

.-WHICH. S L.L. F R I E N DS.ITURGICAL.­ I N G.L.Y O V E R ALL MY DRIVES. T R Y I N G TO SC A L. THE AND AS I IN SPEECH WAS AN A L. THAT IT HAS SOM ETI M E S POETRY AT W RITING TIME. GLI MPSED ONE EVEN BEFO R E THAT.MS BY JORIS I V E N S A N D OTHERS. R E A DY U S I NG: O R TH ROWN AS THEY WERE DOWN THE WC AT THAT PRECISE MOM ENT WHEN I K N E W A N D D I D NOT KNOW IF DES I R E WO UL. T E R N A T E .L D R E S S AND WHITE KERCH I E F L. I N TH E STREET.SO OF THE D R I V E B E H I N D AL.D AND IN R U N N I N G. BUT SIGHT O F IN THE SL. PRO M I S I NG MYSEL.USTRADE OF A D U R I N G EACH SESSION.EGS SO W I D E APART I C O U L.L.ITY AND A BODY SL. I BRI UM. WHERE D I R ECTION ( M YSTIC O R POL. OUTWA RD M A N I FESTATION OF A CONTROL. I HOPE I S L. BUT AL. T O R N U P I NTO M I N UTE SCRA PS S O THAT NO ONE C O U L. DESI R E TO A M E N TAL. ROUGH WOOD E N B A L.L. BODI ES. KNIFE I N THE OTH ER.B LA C K E N E D BETWEEN THE FI RST ONE AND THE ROL.F I N D I NG: FOR EXAM PL. W E A R I N G A PA I R OF TIGHT BL.ATE L I N E N S O F LITU RGY (L. ECTICALL. oo D BY A REVOL. M A I N LY AND SOCI ETY LlTURGICAL. AS T H E R E ARE SEVERAL. C O N Y A B OV E H I M-A MAN SUDDENL.L. E PH E M E R A L AL. THIS SWITCH.OO M I N G U P BEHI N D THE BOY FROM A DARK PASSAGEWAY.D RETURN.WAYS CON V I N C E D M E . I N SHOPPING CENTRES. THAT I N EITHER STON ES-A N D SUDDENL.L. SEVEN AT MOST. IT IS TH I S SUMMARY FASHION.ATE R DATE. PHANTASIES. E NEUTRALISED. BL.OTH.L. CERTA I N OF MY SCHOOL.APSE AL.S OUT.OI N -CL. A S REVEAL. Y L. UNDER THEIR OWN N A M E S A N D APPEARANCE. EJAC UL. ONCE TH E COSTU M E A N D NOTES ROL. FOR OBVIOUS C E L. HOUSE.OYED AS FOL. MAY APPEAR AS TH E B R I N G I N G IT U P N EXT D A Y COV E R E D I N GREASE. OF FORCES. IN IN S U N A N D W I N D. N A M EL. IT C A N C EL. REASONS. WITH RES UL.ATIONS.ASTING. FROM A M E N TA L I TY A N D A BODY STRETC H E D TO THE L. E E P I N G . A U D ITORY AND OL. THAT POU R S FROM BU RST SEWERS I N TO THE I R ONE AND ONL.E. HAVE T O C L. SQU E A L. G I R D I N G IT O N L. TORSO B A R E. I HAVE A M EMORY OF SHORT FRAG M ENTS WHE R E NAR RATIVE VERSE.ED U P. A V WORKERS.OST.. E A N UP THE SHIT THE M SEL.A N KS WITH S E M E N FEEL.ING OF THE COSTUME IN TH E CL. CONTACT WITH OTHER PROSTITUTI ONAL. TO M Y FATH E R'S G A RAGE UNDER THE TIM ES.OTH I S E M PL. I GOT I NTO TH E H A B I T OF TA KI NG IT DOWN THE R E A FT E R TH E N I G H T L. IN RAIN.L.G R I M AGE ON FOOT TO SOM E "GROTESQUE" CAVERN OF A TRA NSPORT OF TH E F I RST ORGASM. D E D A P R E COC I O U SL. THROAT PULSI NG.E.ooD.VES.Y I M MA C U LATE.ESCENT PROSTITUTE.L.IT-QRGY): THEN. L A R S A N D AT G R O U N D LEVEL. SOCIAL.L. E X (WIPING AND ROL.Y: TH E "HYG E N IC" R E FL. OR FL. THE COST U M E STUCK TO M Y FL. I N P U R SUIT O F A RAT-RAT J U M P I NG OVER THE BOY'S B A R E N ECK.EAR­ THE HEADED I N T E R V E N E: A FT E R SUM M E R E V E N I NG R ETURNING FROM A PIL. Y: THE W E A R I NG OF T H E S E M E N-SOA K E D COSTU M E AT AL. THE BITTER TASTE OF A D R I N K DISTR I BUTED BY T H E G U A R D I A N N U N S STIL. AND L. I K E THAT OF A BOY.L.EN­ TIAL. BECA USE OF THE S W I TC H IN MY TH O U G H T ME PROCESS. TACTIL. CL. HUMAN AND M A T E R I A L.EGE FL.S. CROWDS. SEEMS THE A M I RACUL.T. .ATE BETWEEN TR I U M P H A L. D S E E THE WH ITE E DG E OF U N DER­ PANTS THAT M O U L.ASH O F M U D OR B L.LlNG U P) F R U STRATI N G WHAT. OR PEOPLE I HAD CA UGHT CONVICTION THAT. SO L.ITICAU MASTUR BATION E X C R ET E S DESIRE AND ITS A N T I DOTE S I M U L. V E E R I NG BACK TO THE WAL.S STUCK TO HIS BROW WITH WHAT I I M A G I N E D WAS SPERM. CAST-OFF O F A DECADENT WEST AS OPPOSED TO L. O V E R THE BAL.OWS: FROM ONE E J A C U LATION TO THE N E XT I OSCIL. T H E Y D R A M A T I S E D.­ TA N EOUSL. AT THE VERY MOMENT OF ORGASM.Y. L. H A V I N G FINAL. SEEN IN R E T R O S P E CT. SEATED IN FRONT OF A HO U S E COSTU M E H O R R I FY I NG S T I L. D R E C OG N I S E TH E BAWDY I NTO MYSTICAL.UTIONARY V I ET NAM. I N E N AND OBJECTS R E STO R E D TO PRISTI N E I NHAB ITED BY S L. ETC.E IN ITS SWITCH OF E N E RGY. 19 .OTH AS THE AND A B J ECT IS NOT C A ST-OFF W H O L. BREAKS OVE R THI S S U B U R B HANG I N G FAMI L I E S A L.A U NTED ITS MACMAHON I E N ARCHITECTUR E-FUGITIVE BUT OBSESSIVE VI­ SIONS-L. Y DE­ W H I T E N E S S AFTER EACH BOMB. A N D MORE AND MORE D I A L.UMS OF THE I N DUSTRIAL.L. A C ROWD. I N ITI AL. EACH SPL. A C T I V I TY. VELOPED V I R I LITY. Y M A STU RBATION. BETWE E N THE FI RST ORGASM AND THE ROL.ED I N FIL.Y.IKE A M ECHA N IC'S A P P R ENTICE OR ADOL. O N G THE L. A PROCESS SO I M PERCEPTI BL.L. I M ITS OF PROSTITUTIONAL. H I S L. U I D BELON G I N G T O A WOM A N I N A FUL.L THE ORGIASTIC NOTES OF MY ADOLESCE N C E HAVE B E E N L. I N G MOMENTS UP OF TH E CL.IPPING BACK I N TO T H E V I S UAL.L.Y L. HEAD THROWN BACK. R ESTORES ME TO EQU I L. BROOM IN ONE HAND.FACTO R Y S E N SA T I O N S OF A TERMS I W A S A L.S L I K E TH E PESTI L. NOT ONL. TOWN WHERE THE COL.EANI NG. AT A L. O N G L.F TO E XA M I N E IT AFTER M A STU R BATION FOR TRACES OF A MIXTURE O F SPERM AND G R E A SE. ORGASM I S FOL.OWED B Y A REL. I V I N G A IN SCHIST OF ROCK. EXT E N D I NG FU RTHER A N D F U RTHER.Y OF THE E N E RGY OF MY D R IVES.ACK C U RL.L.L. LAUGHING.UE L. E TH E COA L. I N E N SHORTS SOAKED WITH SWEAT BETW E E N THE T HI G H S . THE SHOWER THAT HAS BEEN THREATE N I NG. IN COL. G I R D I NG LIKE D E R ELI CTION BY COM PA R I SON WITH THE I M MACUL. SPLASHI NG H I M WITH ITS BL. AND R I T U AL. HEAT.OUS V I RG I N . T H E I NTERVAL.IVI NG ROOM. I N O U R MOUTHS .Y TRACKED THE ROL.

NAMES THAT FIGURE AMONG THE S E ANGLO-SAXON BORROWI NGS A R E OF SLAV ORIGIN (SERGE). OVER-STI M U ­ M A N I P U LATION. P R I C E OF BOD I E S. I NT E R J ECTIONS W I THOUT SYNTACTIC LINKS-QNLY SPEECH. E V E N COMIC.A M O N G OTH E R REAL OR I M A G I N A R Y BOD I E S . VERY SEXY O F B U M O R BREAST. " " FR A N K I E . O V E R LA P P I NG O F SEQUE NCES. O F A EXAM PLE: PRONO U N C E D E R ECTION ACCELE RATES ORGAS M I C URGE NCY. EXPRESSION H A N DW R ITI NG CRA M PED A N D MORE D E L I B ERATELY VE RTICAL TH I S A LT E R N A N C E . B U T A LSO I N I T S W R I TI NG.) I N WHICH M A ST U R B A T E D . I PLAYED P R OG R E S S I V E C O N V E R G E N C E B E T W E E N T H E "DECENr' (THAT I S TO S A Y TH E PUBLISHABLE OR P U B L I S H E D ) TEXT WITH TH E G R EAT SEXUAL SWELL." " E D D I E . PUSH E R S OF ORGI ASTIC BODI E S. T H E R E FORE: BUT GRA DUAL­ LY. A S I GOT M Y "TONGUE" I NTO THE WRITI NG OF FRENCH. IF I LET THE COSTU M E H A N G LOOSE ON M Y LOI NS. O R B ETTER STI LL. M Y EYES ON A PAGE OF E UROPEA N H I STORY I N A BOOK I KEPT BESIDE THE BED. I N TH E NUDE. OF M U LT I P L I E D LATER BY T H E I NUMBER PLACES (HOTELS. I N C A S E OF A P RONOUNCED E REC­ TION. O F V A R I A T I O N S . I H A V E A LWAYS CONSIDERED THAT TH E NAMES I NTEGRAL TO THE F RENCH LANGUAGE CARRY WITH THEM TH E DESUET ATMOSPH E R E OF A WESTERN CIVILI SATION W H I C H . " D E C ENT" T E XTII N DECENT ABUNDANCE. THE ETC." TH E A LLOWI NG TH E M EMBER TO SUBSI DE. FROM TH E M E ET I N G O F THESE CONT R A D ICTO R Y C U R R E NTS. COMMON SOU N D SITUTATION. D I R ECTI NG MY WOM E N . OR FRAGME NTS OF WORDS. 'ON TH I S EXC H A NGE: HAVING WEDGED THE E RECT M E M B E R I NTO TH E COST U M E BY IMPRESSING ON IT A PROP ULSION THAT R E M I N DED ME OF A COG-WHE E L OR A SCREW. SO TO SPEAK. WAS TRYI NG TO I M POSE ON M E THE MOST I NS I P I D A N D SUPERFICIAL OF I T S PRODUCTIONS. ) THE ONLY M A N I P ULATING TH ESE BODIES. OR WITH TH E D EG R E E OF THE M E M B E R'S ER ECTION.1 969) B E A R S G R A P H I C WITNESS NOT ONLY TO THE DETA I L A N D C H RONOLOGICAL C U RVE O F TH I S PROCESS O F I NT E R A C T I O N . I ABANDONED IT. I N D U C E D A TEXT OF N A R RATIVE AND SPEECH I N WHICH TH E H A R D ECONOMIC FACTS O F PROSTITU­ TION (SALE." WEARERS OF MASC U L I N E ATTI RE R EMOVED FOR "I NTERCOURSE" (MORE FA M I LI A R TO M E AT THAT THOUGHTS TOWA R D NON-SEXUAL ZONES.) FO U N D TH E I R ITSELF. " OFFIC I A L FRENCH ETC . O N THE OTH E R HAND. TH R E E Q U A RTERS OF MY WAKING ARE B U S Y PLOTTI N G "HOMOS E X U A L" BY R EPEATED D E J ECTION/RE. SHOP ASSI STANTS AND APPRENTICES CALL T H E MSELVES "CH A R LEY. QUITE E A R LY IN THE PIECE. MOM ENT AS A N E N S E M B L E OF SOCIAL POSTU RES TH A N AN ACT OF P E N ETRATION). TH I S I COU L D DO SEVERAL T I MES. THE STR I C T U R E OR L A X ITY O F TH E COST U M E SCE N A R I OS TA K E T U R N TOWARD SLAVERY IN MOULDING TH E TEXT M A D E I T EITHER TOUGH OR TENDER. TO WRITE A NARRATIVE SEQUENCE. ETC. FOR DUCED A N O R D E R : THE M A N U SC RIPT ( 1 962. WITH THE BOD I ES OF VERY REAL AND BAWDY WOME N . R E P E T I T I O N S . TH E I R A HACKNEYED. A PAGE OF P H I LOSO P H Y O R H I STORY OF PH I LOSOPH Y .ERECTION." "JA C K Y. COST OF E V O K I NG PROSTITUT I O N A L "SO A P O P E R A . W H I LE S L E E P A N D DREAM AFFORD M E O N L Y CONFRONTATIONS. SIONS. BATORY. A BOTH M A LE AND FEMALE B E FO R E I COULD S U M MO N UP ALL THE M E NTAL A N D COR PO R E A L TENSIONS T H A T USUALLY PRESIDED AT THE MOMENT OF ORGASM. THIS H A STE ONLY A LLOWS FOR WORDS TO BE PUT ON PAPER. ERECTION/ ITS J ET REMEMBER THOUG HTS IT. MENDERS OF PROSTITUTIONAL G A R M E N TS TOR N D U R I NG "I NTERCOURSE. D U R I NG THIS NOMINAL CONFU­ P E R I OD WHICH I 20 . WHICH MEANS THE TEXT HAS TO B E WRITTEN IN H ASTE. S P E ECH A N D N A R RATIVE WRITTEN WITHOUT THOUGHT OF TH E P ROSTIT U T I O N A L ANTIQUITY (TH E LATI N I S E D OR GRECIAN N A M ES OF BODIES CONSTITUTI NG BY T H E I R SOLE E N U M E RA ­ TION ALL T H E TEXT R E Q U I R E D T O STI M U L ATE DESIRE): THEN THE TH E M E CHA NGES TO PROSTITU­ TION AS I LE A R N FROM R A D I O HOW S E X UALLY C H A R G E D C E R TA I N O B V I O U SLY MODERN N A M E S CAN BE. " (DU R I NG M Y TRIPS T O NORTH A FR I CA I DISCOVERED THAT MANY A R A B SERVA NTS. M A ST U R ­ I N THIS R E S U LTS TH E M A N U SC R I P T. R E P ET I T I O N WITH VARIATIONS O F PRECEDING SEQU ENCES I N S C R I B E D ON THE I R REGULAR A LTERNATION N A RRATIVE/SPEECH SHOULD A LSO B E SEEN IN R ELATION WITH THE TH E MASS OF NOTES WHICH I COULD NOT TRA N SPORT. LED TO A ETC. WH EREAS THE TIGHT LAC I NG OF THE CLOTH ON TH E M E M BER. ITS E R ECTION SCREWED DOWN. A LREADY LOOKED ON AS "SERVANTS OF THE MALE BODY. OR FORCE D TO TH E BACK OF THE BA LLS. H I R E. F A M I L I A R ITY AND EASE IN H A N D LI N G ITS RH ETOR I C GAVE M Y HAND TH E SPEED NECESSARY. THE M A N I P U LATON O F T H E P E N I S I N S I D E THE U N I N H IBITED CLOTH PRODUCED A RELAXED TEXT. A N D WRITING AS MUCH TEXT A S POSSI B L E B EFORE IT ROSE FREQUENCY OF TH I S S E X U A L C HOICE SHOULD BE SET AGAI NST A NOTH E R VERY DEFINITE TENDENCY OF MY F I FT E E N T H OR S I XTE E NTH YEAR: AS I AGA I N . U NTIL THE MOMENT LATE D CAME WHEN TH E M E MBER. AT THAT TI M E . PRODUCI NG OPERATED A TEXT W H E R E TYPI N G A C H O I C E OF I N TRO­ N ECESSA R I LY POS I TIONING OF ORGANS AND COSTUME. ACCOUNTANCY OF THE NUMBER OF IN TIMES. DISCHARGED SC E N A R I OS.

IGHT. I WAS NAKED A N D ALONE. FINA L.L. E R AT E S . L. I T SHOULD B E NOTED THAT THE TEXTUAL.TS.AIN. MARVEL. A POSTROPHIC PUNCTUATION. I SAT UPON THE ANCI E NT STUM P. THOSE FOOTPRINTS STI L.L. A P P ELL.IST E N I NG THE R E L.EN TREE HAD L. GL. THE DEMON L. ITS M O R E COM M O N I N TH E TODA Y : ST U C K A N D U NS T U C K BY S U C C E S S I V E ORGA S M S . A Y L. FL. TREM BL. F R O M A FTERNOON T O E V E N I NG ( A T C E RTAIN TI M E S THE RESURGENCE OF DESIRE A C C E L. A FRAGMENT OF FADED M I XT U R E O F I N K A N D S E M E N .LY BECAUSE WHEN WRITING NAMES AND R HETORIC CHOSEN FOR ITS QUASI-B A N A L.ED TH E M .OATE 21 . FROM O N E NIGHT TO ANOTH E R .T I E S OF PUBLISH­ I NG EVEN "DECE Nr' TEXTS. SEL. AND I SPRINKLED TH E GRASSES WITH MY OFFE R I N G TO I T S SILENCE A N D I T S WOO D E N C A R ESS.lNG T H ROUGH TH E I R EYES AS IT TOPPLED SL.ATIONS. R E N A L. AND MASTURBATORY SESSION.L.ATIO N S . NO DOUBTI I HAVE TO I N TE R R U PT WHAT THREATENS TO BECO M E A P H YSIOL. A R E FRAG­ M E NTS OF S E X U A L. A N D NOM I N A L.IPTIC IN ITS J ARGON.L. A R E I N V E N T E D S I M U L. ARE U N R E A DABL. I TY: D E S I R E ORGASM: THE AND R E SOL.P U L.E AND H I R E O F BODI E S . W H I C H M AY SUBSE­ QUENTL. T H A T E MERGES THROUGH THE R E A L.OW.ET AL. OR PRICES OF TH E SAL. WORDS O F T H I S J A RGON I STRUGGLED WITH A D E M O N I N TH E WOODS.UTION STYL. O N G HOURS IN P I E R R E GUYOTAT ADVANCE SESSION: R H Y T H M I C A L.E C H A NG E S .ED TH E TREE. I N S U L. THOSE ECHOS STIL.L.M O N A R Y .L.ICATION OF T H E NOTES.VES.R E M E M B E R B E ST.-A N D B R I NG M Y B O D Y B A C K TO WHAT I BELI E V E 15 A CRUDER.Y. WHEN I WAS ASSAILED BY THE DIFFI C U L.ITERARY PUBL.OINS A N D WRESTL. 15 NUMBERS I PRESSED H AR DEST WITH T H E N I B . THE DE MON SEIZED M Y L.ITY TO FIT TH E "DECENr' TEXT SUCCEEDED BY A FRAG M E NT OF SPEECH OR N A RRATIVE TEXTUA L.T A N E IOUSL.ED IN TH E GRASS.TATION O F C E RTA I N TEXTS.OG IC D A N G E R . L. I HOWLED LIKE A BEAST U PO N T H E DEAD SHADOWS WHERE THE FA L. TOUCHING TH E C R U MBLED FINGERS THAT HAD FEL.Y ENTA I L M A KI N G CERTA I N C UTS. I K E A P R E S E N C E ON M Y C H EST.Y WITH WORK ON A "DECENr' TEXT.E H E N C E TH E EXAL.Y COMPLEX AND ELL. A L.EFT M E AND S L E PT UPON THE OFF E R I NG.ICKED TH ROUGH TH E S U NL. Y" TH E L. I K E A M U S H ROOM AFTER R A I N . L.L. WORDS. PRINCI­ PAL. P R E PA R E D OF "T E X T U A L. T H E S U N L. A BOVE AL. O N E THAT PRODUCES WRITI NG-JARGON. CARDI AC. DA N I E L SL.L. A N U M B E R OF NOTES FROM THIS P E R I OD. TH E M fRANSLATED B Y CAT H E R I N E D U N C A N MODUL. S .ONE A L.

CAPR ICIOUS.O N A N IS M A N D N E R VOUS DISORDE R S IN TWO L I TTLE GI R LS CASE H I STORY J E A LOUS. B U T D I S L I K E D P R A Y I N G ON T H E CONTRARY. ONE F A C T THAT SHOULD B E NOTED I S THAT FROM E A R LY C H I LD HOOD SHE STOLE AND A H I N T OF' HYPOC RISY THAT SEEMED OUT OF PLACE IN SOM EO N E OF HER AGE. S H E WON SWEET AND EVER YBODY'S HE ART W I T H H E R D I S PO S I T I O N . O F D E LICATE COM PLE­ XION. . Q U I C K TE M P E R E D . SHE ACTED AND T A L K E D LI K E A GROWN-UP. A T OTH E R T I M E S S H E WAS POS S E S S E D BY A F E V E R I S H GAI ETY. MADE HER KIND AND LIKE C ON S I D E R ATE M A N N ERS E V E R YON E H E R. ROLLE D BECAM E X . AND A SHE A LWAYS TRYI NG T O DOM I N ATE T H E OTH E R C H I L D R E N A N D F I G H T I N G TOOTH A N D N A I L I F T H E Y D A R E D OPPOSE H E R . S H E W A S COQU E TT I S H A N D A TT R ACTI V E . IN SPITE O F THAT. HER MOOD WOU L D IN ON A CHANGE FIT OF W I TH O U T SHE SHE WA R N I NG. EVEN WHEN TH E Y COULD HAVE B E E N H E R'S FOR TH E A S K I N G . PRI NCESS O R C A R E F U LLY H I D OBJECTS THAT TOOK H E R FANCY. SIGNS OF LEUCORRHOE A I C D I SC H A RG E FROM T H E G E N I T A L ORGA NS. T H I S TENDENCY TO TH E FT H A D B E E N REMARKED LOV E D TO WHEN LEARN ASKING SHE WAS NOT YET FIVE. I N EVERY G A M E SHE H A D TO B E THE LEADER. D E P R E S S E D FOR N O R E A SO N . TE N D E R BOYS W E R E H E R A D M I R I N G SLAVESI LITTLE X . AND THE GAME S H E L I K E D PL A Y I N G B E ST OF A LL WAS G E TTING MARRIED.> A CON S I D E R ­ ABLE I N FLUENCE ON A LL H E R C O M PA N I O N S . A LOCA L E XA M I NATION R E V E A L E D T H E P R E S E N C E O F ENOO- 22 . A BO U T T H I N G S Q U E ST I O N S . EXTREMELY I N TELLIGENT. S H E L I K E D W H A T WAS B E A UTIFUL. S H E W A S P R O U D . THE C H I L D BEGAN TO LOSE WEIGHT IN SPITE OF AND HER USUAL A P P ETITE. SHE WAS ANAEMIC H I GH L Y E XC I TA B L E . S H E M A R R I E D A N D DIS M I SS E D A L L H E R L I TT L E BOY F R I E N DS. THEY PUT U P WITH IT B E C A U S E OF HER U N F A I L I N G C H A R M . WAS TEN Y E A R S OLD. POK E D F U N AT T H E PI ETY O F OTH E R C H I LD R E N A N D M A D E A TYRA N N I Z I N G T H E M A T TI M E S. E N V I O U S . E A R LY IN 1879. . N E RVOUS. . A LWAYS S M I L I NG. A DO R E D CLOTH ES A N D DOTED O N P E R F U M E. WAS GOOD AT PRETE N D I NG . NEVER LIVELY S TO P P E D OF I MAGI NATION. TH E R E W E R E SUCCESSI V E LY. TH I N . V I N DICTIVE. S H E E X E R C I SEr. SOM ETI M ES SCREA M I NG RAGE OR THE F LOOR: RAT H E R OLD-FA S H I O N E D I N H E R W A Y S . A N D A N A L I R R ITATION. OR E LS E F E L L I NTO A BROWN STUDY. WITH SOM E T H I N G SACC H A R I N E I N H E R EXPRESSION. TH E ROLES OF Q U E E N . . E V E N L I TTLE F A C E W H E N TOLD A BOUT GOD. I N S I STING T H E Y SHOULD BE H E A RTBRO K E N TO THE PO I N T OF TEARS. V A I N . RESE RVING FOR HERSELF FA IRY.

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S H E TOOK UP LASCIVIOUS POSES AND GAVE WAY TO HER PASSION I N THE MOST I N DE C E N T FASH IO N .Y A N D PROM I S E D NOT TO DO IT AGAIN. WAS BECOM I NG. R U B B I NG H ERSELF ON' THE COR N E R S OF F U R N I ­ MARRIED. . X . AT TIMES X.Y HAN DS. WAS FORCED TO A D M IT TH E PRACTICES SHE INDULG E D IN. SWEETS.D. ETC. H IPS AND G E N ITA L ORGA N S DEVELOPED. WHAT WENT ON I N THAT PLEAS U R E PA L. F .USIVE PROPE RTY.L.F HER FAC E BETRAYING AN PRESCRIBED A N D TH E C H I L. MORAL. S H E A DOPTE D REVOLTING POSITIONS.IKING FOR AS KINDNESS M A D E NO I M PRESSION ON X .Y A ROUSED. A N D L I K E T H I S CONTRACTED SUCCES­ SIVEL. THERE WAS NO HELP FOR IT BUT TO CHANGE TACTICS AND TA KE STE R N E R M E A S U RES. TOWA R D THE MONTH OF PETTY L.ACE? SUSPICION WAS NOT YET SUFFICIENTL.L. TH E SC ENE WAS I NDESCRIBABL. H E R FEA­ TURES TOOK ON HER A BESTIAL. JUNE TH E SA M E YEAR. OR OFF IN TH E WOODS W I TH C E R TA I N C H I L.D BE RE­ PEATED. T H E C H IL.L. OBJECTS ARE CONTI N UAL. L.. BUT A LS O W I THOUT ANY SIGN ON ACC E S S T O A L L EXCEPT C E RTAIN FAVO U R ITES. D E N I E S H E R GU ILT WITH BLATANT DEFIANCE. . WHO GAVE H E RSELF UP MORE AND MORE TO VICE.A B U S E . WITH H E R HANDS. HER PARE NTS. . TH E N H E R L. SUBM ITTED WITHOUT PROTEST. H I D I N G IN TH E S H R U BBE RY. .L D E SC R I B E IN DETA I L.ENT PA I N S IN TH E LOWER A BDOM E N . ETC. MADE F EARS KNOWN TO THE PARE NTS. FURTHER ON I WIL. IN S PITE O F THAT SHE CONTI N U E D TO L. A D V I C E . S H E W A S T E R R I B L Y A FR A I D O F T H E R O D W H I C H W A S A D M I N I S TE R E D U N S P A R I NGL. AT THE S A M E E POC H STEA LING BECA M E A D A I L Y EVE NT. CAPRICIOUS A N D QUARRELSOME. E D A N D WEPT BITTERLY. IT SEATED ON A C H A I R . STRANGERS.ITTL. WITH TEN ESMUS AND H A D GREAT DI FFICU LTY IN URINATI NG. AS A RESUL..A T E R F R I ENDS. A DOPTI N G CERTA I N POSES A N D STIFFE N I NG WITH CONTRACTIONS. .ONG THAT AT TIMES SOM EON E WENT TO LOOK FOR H E R. NOTHING HER HAD ANY EFFECT ON HER. THE GOV E R N ESS A LSO NOTICED HOW L. ON ONE OCCASION SHE WAS FO U N D ASL. IF N EC ESSARY.EEP TH ERE. THE U P P E R PART OF HER BODY GREW THI N N E R AND T H I N N ER .Y AND PH YSICAL. OF WAL. EVEN TO B E HARSH A N D C R U E L. L. S H E CAL. . H E R B A D T E M P E R M A D E THE CHIL.L.D GIVEN A TREATM ENT OF IRON A N D BROMIDE OF POTASSIUM. VARIOUS PA RTS. . HER BODY SHE AND "PL.E. . B E N D I N G H E R K N E E S A N D ROLLING THE WAS MOST I NDECENT B E HAVIOUR. H E R FEET. AT TH E SAME PERIOD IT WAS NOTICED TH AT SH E WAS FORE V E R GOING TO T H E LAVATORY AND STA Y I N G SO L.ACE.Y VARIOUS PA RTS O F HER BODY IN ORDER TO GIVE H E RSEL. IT WAS AL. . THE TIGHTENED FOR A LONG TIME WITH A LITTLE BOY. S E R V ANTS..ED HER HORRORS. OF THE DE VISU. BENT FORWARD. HAD A SPECIAL.D U N B E A R A BL. WAS ST RICKEN BY VIOL.EGS APA RT. A T ALL EVENTS THE C H I LDREN BEING PL. S E E M ED TO I M P ROVE. X . .O M E L. R E M A RKABLY ENOUGH. HIPS. FROM THAT DAY ON A PROGRES­ S I V E CHANGE TOOK PLACE I N THE CHIL. A N D I N S PITE OF THAT S H E A B U S E D H E R S E L F MORE A N D MORE IN A THOUSA N D WAYS. .D DEVEL. QUITE OPEN LY A N D AT ANY GIVEN M O M E N T TH E CONTACTS WOUL. A INVENTED D A I LY BY HER F ERTI LE I M AGI NATION.S INTO TH E TRAP SET FOR H E R . .F VOLU PTUOUS SENSATIONS. IN FRONT OF THE GOVE R N ESS. H E R BEHAVIOUR EVEN IN CONTI N U ED S E L. SHE SAT O N T H E EDGE. S H E B E C A M E ABJ ECT. X . .OSE W EIGHT. OPENED HER LEGS.LED IT HER I M P ROV E M E NT. IT WAS TH E N THAT H A VING A S C E R TA I N E D . WEPT COPIOUSL. X .Y: SHE S E E M E D MORE AND MORE SICKLY. A D M O N I SH M E N T S .L.OPED A STRANGE WAY I N SPITE OF BEING CAUGHT RED H A N D E D L.D BOTH EVEN STA RT SCRATCHING H ERSEL.KING.ASCIVIOUS IN HER MOV E M E NTS X . A S S H E 24 . . PARTI C U L A R LY FLOGGI NG. SH E TOOK A C H A I R OUT TH E R E A N D REFUSED CORPORAL PUNISHM ENT WAS R ES O R T E D TO.PARASITES.AYED AT G E TT I N G ENGAGED AND P R OC U R E D V O L U PTUOU S SPASM. AS FAR AWAY AS POSS I B L E FROM M A I DS A N D GOV E R N E S S E S. P E RPETRATED BY X . ALL THE ING E N IOUS M ETHODS I NTIMACY AND SUPE RVISION I NCREASED. W IT H WOUL. BOYS A S WELL AS GIRLS." SHE OFTEN STAYED TH ERE SPREAD LEGS.T OF TH I S T R E A T M E N T X . . EXPR ESSION. . C A L. S U P E R­ VISION . EVIDENT PLEA S U R E.E X . SHE WALKED WITH H E R L. WHO FAL. D R E N . WITH A N Y KINO OF FOR E IGN BODY THAT CAME TO HAND. A LITT � A R BOU R WAS H E R EXC L. K I N D N E S S .EASURE PAL. WHEN SCOLDED S H E T R E M B L.SO NOTED THAT D U R I N G GA MES X . THEY E V E N EXCHANGED RINGS A N D PROMISED TO MARRY EACH OTH ER WHEN THEY G R E W U P. . RI BBONS A N D OTHE R SMAL. LATER AN END WAS PUT TO THIS PRECOCIOUS TURE. .Y.EGS A N D FEET. S U P PO S I TO R I E S WERE ADM ITTED. PRONO U N C E D SWELLING OF I R R ITATION THE VU LVA I WITH MY AT THAT PO I N T I T WAS D ECIDED TO ATTACH H E R H A N DS. .E. IN MA RCH 1881.ARC E N I E S OF DESSE RT. A N D TH E E N E RG Y S H E E X P E N D E D I N P E R PETRATING WHAT S H E HERSELF C A LL. W H I LE THE THIGHS. SHE POSES AS OUTRAGED INNOCE NCEI SHE PROTESTSI H ER FACE CONTORTS WITH RAGE.

ASKED A S A M E A N S O F OVERCO M I NG I T . THESE VIOLENT SC ENES. AT HERSELF F U R I O U S LY HERSELF UP TO �UCH A STATE SHE K N E W N E I TH E R RESTR A I N T N O R SHA M E: S H E GROU N D H E R TEETH. LATER.." I N SHORT. I LOATHE MUMMY. T H E HACK E T IN PLACE. F L OGG I N G D E C E I T F U L. BY A V E RITABLE TOU R D E FORC E WORTHY OF THE D A V E N PORT B R O TH E R S . SHE WAS P R E Y TO A FIT OF M A D N ESS: HER FACE BECA M E DEAD WHI TE. WAS A LWAYS S'.TH E R E : SHE TOLD M E NOT TO SO OFTEN IT M A D E ME C U R I O U S A N D I SA I D T O MYSELF THAT J U S T ONCE WOULDN'T HURT. MADE THE FOLLOW I N G E VERYTHING I N O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C RAVI NG. BUT WITHOU T R E A LL Y WANTING TO.. S P I TE F U L. I N ONE OF HER M O M ENTS OF C A L M AND R EPENTA N C E . SHE FROTHED AT THE MOUTH.THE S T R E ET A T T R A CT E D THE ATTENTION K I N D N E SS OF SO OFTEN REMA I N E D WERE HA P P E N E D. P R OMI S I N G TO I M PROVE AND B E GG I N G FOR AT THIS EPOCH A STRAIT-JACKED WAS E M PLOYED TO P R E V E N T THE C H I L D T O U C H I N G BOTH FO R E A R M S H E R S E LF HELD ANOTHER CHA NCE. THE FOLLOW I N G PRETEXT OF N I GHT A WATCH WAS K E PT UNDER CONFESSION: "I VAGUELY RECA LL. HER BODY FREQUE NTLY SHA K E N BY SPASMS. LATER I HAD ME A GOV E R N ESS W HERSELF I N I M I TATION O F THE K A BYLES. SHE STILL MANAGED TO SATISFY HERSELF I N A THOUSAND SATISFY HERSELF D U R I NG THE N I GHT. J E RK I N G ON THE B E D. BUT SOON THESE ABLUTIONS B E C A M E OVER F R EQU E N T. W H I C H P R O V E D THAT SHE AGO.P I N S IN H E R PILLOW. MADE MORE HER SEEM MORONIC. BUT THATS MY BUSINESS. IN SPITE OF ALL THE S E PRECA UTIONS X . PLEASE GOD MAKE THEM DIE. THEN. SHOUTING AT THE TOP OF H E R LUNGS: " I DETEST DADDY. WHEN SHE D I D NOT SUCCEED IN D U P I NG HER G U A R D I A N S. . I WANT TO!" SWEAT STOOD O N H E R TEMPLES. HANDS I N PROXI M I TY OF THE SHO U LDERS: LEGS A N D F E ET SET W I D E APA RT A N D F I R M L Y ATTACHED TO THE I RO N B E D-STEAD: A BODY-BELT IN THE FOR M OF A STR A P FIXED THE BECA M E I R R E S I STABLE.. I N SUCH MOMENTS OF A F F ECTION AND LUCI DITY SHE POWE R F U L. AS PLEASU R E FROM IT. I THIN K I T WAS SHE WHO G A V E M E THE I D E A OF TOUCHING MYSE LF. THIS WAS THE A N SWER TO THE R I DDLE O F HOW. WERE DURING THE D A YT I M E W:-I E N TH E TE M PT A T I O N CROSSED ON T H E CHEST.. I KNOW. AND THAT THE WASHING WAS NOTH I N G B U T A PRETEXT IN O R D E R T O SATISFY H E R C R A V I N G WITH I M P U N ITY. BECAUSE I T HAPPE N E D YEARS S L E E P. THOUGH KEPT U N D E R CONSTANT WATCH. WAY TO YOU 00 ARE A LL­ BY AN I M M E D I ATE R EACTION. ITS A LONG T I M E AGO NOW S I N C E I GOT I NTO THE HABIT. CO V E R E D AND MARKED SCRATCHES. SOBBING: "WHY DO YOU DEPRIVE ME OF SUCH AN INNOCENT PLEASURE?" AND A M O M E N T LATER: "ITS DI RTY. TH ESE ATTACKS OF FOLLY W E R E FOLOW E D ONE DAY SHE S A I D THE FOLLOWI N G PRAYER: "DEA R GOD. AND THESE SHE PULLED OUT AT N I GHT AND TELLING NOT TO PUT M Y HAND HQ. WHEN SHE DI DN'T SHE WHI M PE R E D. C O N TO R T I N G TO BED LI FTI NG H E R SKI RTS A N D R U B B I NG HER SHA M E F U L PA RTS FOR A LONG T I M E. WITH DEMONSTRA­ TIONS O F T E N D E R N ESS A N D REPENTA NCE. I F. AS MY S I ST E R ME A SAYS. I USED TO DRESS THEM A N D PLAY WITH MYSELF A UTOMATICA LLY. B Y HOLDING ONE END OF THE E XT E N D E D PIN IN HER M OUTH. SUPPORT­ ING HERSELF ON THE CROWN O F H E R HEAD.B Y . WORKI NG DIFFERENT WAYS. T O WASH HER P A R T S WITH C O L D WATER. SOM ETI M E S EVEN D E E P GASHES. I USED TO P R E T E N D I 25 . SHE WAS A B LE TO TOUCH H E R S E L F WITH THE OTHER. N E I TH E R NOR SEXUAL SEVERITY H A D THE SLIGHTEST E F F ECT. W I TH O U T G E T T I N G ANY STRAIGHTENED WITH H E R TE ETH: THU S. I N THE MORN I NG T H E S E X U A L PARTS BOR E OBVIOUS TRACES OF ASSAULT BY A SHA R P I N ST R U M E NT. SHE PULLED AT THE JACKET WITH HER T EETH UNTIL SHE SUCC EEDED IN R E ACHING THE S E X U A L PARTS WITH HER H A N DS. HER EYE-BA LLS ROLLED AND GLA R E D AS I F THEY WOULD BU RST FROM THE I R SOCKETS. WHE N EVER I FELT BOR E D I ALWAYS PLAYED THE S A M E GAME. WHAT DO I CARE? I WANT TO DO IT AND DIE. SHE FLEW IN TO THE MOST FRIGHTFUL TEMPER. CURSING EVERYONE. D U R I NG THE DAY SHE HAD TA K E N THE PRECAUTION O F H I D I NG HAI R. " SHOW I T WITHOUT ADMITTED E V E R YTHING A N D TOLD H E R SECR ETS. DROPS OF SUCH MOMENTS SHE SHOUTED AT THE TOP OF HER VOICE. . E M ITTING RA UCOUS C R I E S THAT GREW MORE A N D M O R E SAVAGE. A MAID WHO LOOK E D AFTER M E WHEN I WENT SUCCEEDED I N ATTA I N I NG H E R OBJECTIVE AFTER SEVERAL HO U R S OF E F F O R T.. IN WHILE THE B L OOD AND STR A P PA RTS BY P A S S E R S. MANAGED TO UNTIE THAT A L L THE S PONGES H A D B E E N PO K E D F U L L OF HOLES. I USED TO GET U P EARLY TO PLAY WITH MY DOLLS. X . LET ME ENJOY MYSELF! IF IT KILLS ME. CHA NGED COLOUR: SHE WRITHED AND STRUGGLED FURIOUSLY IF A N YO N E TRIED TO HOLD HER. S I N N I NG . CONT I N UOUSLY. B E FO R E LONG I T WAS D I SCO V E R E D TRU N K TO THE MATTRESS BY CORDS K NOTTED TO THE BED. X . T H U S . MORE MORE I N THIS WAY SHE ALM OST A LWAYS M A N A G E D TO PERVERSE.

H E W A S B I G. " ( A PPARENTLY T H I S PALM FRON D GAVE HER OT H E R FO R E I G N MORE SATI SFACTION THAN ANY BODY B E C A USE IT ADDED TO R U B B I N G H E R S E L F ON T H E ANGLES OF F U R N I T U R E. G I V I N G MYSELF THE DOUC H E WITH L I TILE STI CKS: FOR Y E A R S I'VE L I K E P U TI I N G LlTILE STICKS UP M E. IN A DD I T I O N TO T H E PROVO K E D PRACTI S E S A LR E A D Y C ITED. . W A L K E D Q U I C K LY. " E V E N SO. I GOT I NTO A TE R R I B LE RAGE. E T C . AT P E R F O R M I NG HORRORS W I T H H E R PRAYE R-BOOK I N A C RO W D E D C H U RC H . BUT IT WAS I M POSS I B L E TO STOP A N D I STA RTED A G A I N . HE D I D C O M E. NOTH I N G M A TI E R S SO LONG AS I CAN DO ITI A F U RTH E R P ROOF THAT THE POOR C H I LO THE SUFFERED FROM M E NTAL A B E R RATION WAS FACT THAT N O T ONLY D I D S H E PRACTI SE O N A N I S M I N A L L ITS R E F I N E M E NTS.. THE BLESSED I N J E R U S A L E M . ( T H E LITILE S I STER WAS FOUR YEARS OLD AT T H E TIM EIl I GOT 80R E D P L A Y I N G TH E G A M E ON M Y OWN: I WA NTED SOM EON E TO DO IT WITH M E . THEN. THAT WAS W H E N I STA R T E D STIC K I NG U P BITS OF WOOD OFTEN AND I RUBBING A HARD ( V AG I N A L O N A N I S M ). THAT HAD BEEN U R I N E. . FORKS. F I N A LLY SHE T R I E D AND OFTEN SUCCEEDED I N STR I KI NG H E R PA RTS WITH T H E EDGE OF A PIECE 26 . WHEN WE LIVED I N SUCH A N D SUCH A HOUSE (1877) I SHOWED M Y LlTILE SISTER HOW T O DO IT. SHE A FT E R U S I NG S M OO T H ONES. EVERY OUT WAS C U P BOA R D CAME A O P E N ED. TOUC H I NG MYSELF TWO OR THREE T I M ES WAS E NOUGH.S I DED. O R D I N A R Y P I NS.H A D SOMETH I N G WRONG W I TH ME DOWN THERE. A N D I D I D THE S A M E HORRORS W I TH H I M . I F I N D I T V E RY SOOTH I NG" . WHEN ALL AT ONCE THE WAR DROBE OPE N E D A N D USUALLY I N FRONT (THE C LI TOR IS). OR ROC K I N G BACKWARDS AND FORWA RDS ON A CHAIR. "PEOPLE BEGAN TO NOTIC E W H A T WAS H A PPE N I NG A N D TR I E D TO STOP M E. LA T E R THE DESIRE C A M E OVER ME AT E V E N GOD FOR HAVING MADE M E U N H A PPY AFTER LETIING ME BE SO AS H A PPY. MUCH I GREW AS WICKED AND I W A N T E D T O DO HARM POSS I B LE. O FT E N THOUGHT O F T H E DEVI L A N D C A L L E D ON H I M T O H E L P M E. SHE PARTI C U LA R LY L I K E D H A I R-PI NS. W A L K I NG S H E WOU L D BEGI N T O L I M P I N A N O D D WAY A S IF SHE WERE LOP. A L L BLACK A N D G R I N N I NG. L E FT. VOLUPTUOUS SPASM BY USED PALM FROND X . TO I WOU LD HAVE STOP US. I T W A S W I THOUT M Y A S K I NG. I WENT TO U S E D TO SHUT O U R S E L V E S U P I N THE LAVATORY AND TAKE ALL OUR C L OTH E S O F F . OUT S E N S U A L PLEA S U R E T H E SPI RITUAL ECSTASY OF SACRILEGE. S H E ONLY 8EGAN TO LIKE IT I N THE WI NTER OF 1881. ETC. G R A SS. I SA I D NOBODY HAD THE RIGHT TO STOP ME U S I NG MY F I NG E RS A N D MY BODY AS I W A N T E D TO. HIS EYES WERE GREEN. I T WAS D U R I NG THE N I GHT. WHATEVER I COULD F I N D. THE SIGHT OF O N E WAS ENOUGH TO M A K E HER WANT TO USE IT. BUT ITS A LWAYS BEST R E A L LY WHEN YOU C A N DO I T WITH EXACTLY T H E T H I N G Y O U F E E L L I K E A T T H E M O M ENT. B U T LATER I H A D TO RUB H A R D E R A N D HA RDER. IF ONLY I COU L D B E A D E M O N M YS E L F T O M A K E M I SC H I EFI OPPOSTIE A N D TOUC H I N G EACH OTHER. I S A W H I M. BY P R E S S I N G H E R T H I G H S TOG ETH E R. BUT U R I N AT E D A L M OST U PR I G H T IN F RONT OF H E R SI STER. WE "IT WAS A FT E R THAT I R E P E N TED. . H E H ELPED M E G E T F R E E . H E M A D E A L M OST REG U L A R I NTERVA LS. SOM E MONTHS LATER I SHOW E D LITILE V . . I TS ENOUGH TO D R I V E WHO YOU M A D. I OFTE N CA LLED ON T H E DEVI L TO H E L P M E: O N C E I FELT H I S H A N D ON MY SHOU L D E R A N D SOM ETI M E S I B E GG E D H I M T O K I L L M Y P A R E N TS A N D M A K E E V E R YO N E SU FFER. F I N A LLY. OF EVERY L I TT L E AND IT SWARM DEMONS. .) I N STR U M ENTS. SOMETI M E S W I T H OUR H A N D S . M Y LlTILE S I STER D I DN'T ENJOY I T A N D DI DN'T WANT TO: I M A D E H E R. AFTERWARDS I M A D E F R I E N D S W I TH A LITILE BOY I L I K E D VERY M UCH. T H E D E V I L A P P E A R E D.. SOMETI M E S W I T H B I TS OF WOOD. ! CAN'T S E E. I LIKE GOI NG TO C H U RC H AND R E A D I N G TH E B I B L E . S H E A LSO H A N D L E D H E R E XC R E M ENTS A N D FORC E D H E R L I TI L E S I STER T O D O L I K E W I S E . H O R R I B LEI I'VE N E V E R A B L E S I GHTI FORGOTIEN THAT A BOM I N ­ "WE DID LOTS OF T H E S E HOR RORS WITH Y . I CA N'T T H I N K. ST A N D I N G C O N F E S S I O N . O R K E PT LI FTI N G ONE OF H E R F E ET. DRAWER. KI LLED A N YO N E TRI E D MOMENTS LIKE THAT IT'S AS !F I'M G!DDY. I USED "WH E N AT L A ST' SHE WENT ON. HOW TO DO I T AND W E USED TO TOUCH EACH OTHER. AT OTH ER TIMES S H E TOOK LlTILE STEPS. E V E RYTH I N G E A SY. A FTERWARDS TH E PATIERNS MADE BY T H E JET OF "WHEN I WAS SAD O R C ROSS A BOUT SOMETH I NG I E XA M I N I NG D I D IT ALL TH E M O R E : FOR I N STANCE THE T I M E S I WAS CA UGHT STE A L I N G I D I D IT WORSE THAN EVER. S A N D . T H E F I RST TI M E H E C A M E THOUGH. A N D PLAYED A T G I V I NG M Y S E L F A DOUC H E OR BATH I N G MYSELF AND PUTT I N G ON A POU LTICE. AT FI RST. I'M NOT A F R A I D OF A N YT H I N G OR A N YBODY. I B LA M E D EVERYONE. OR T U R N E D A B R U PTLY R E SO R T E D T O SHARP SUCH AS SCI SSORS. . W H I C H D I D N O T P R E V E NT H E R F R O M B E I NG C A UG H T O N E D A Y "ITS AWFUL TO WANT TO DO I T A N D NOT BE ABLE TO. I W A S I N BED.

WHEN. X . R H YTH M I C SOU N D C A N BE AWAY. A N D P R E T E N D T O B E A S L E E P. I N H E R I T WAS C E RTA I N LY D U E TO M O R A L PERVERSITY. AT TH E POI NT IN HER H I ST O R Y WAS WHICH CON C E R N S U S AT TH E HER DISAS­ MOMENT. M A K E S E FFORTS A S IF S H E WANTED TO BLOW H E R NOSE O R E X PECTORATE. HOLDS H E R B REATH M O M E NTARI LY. A FTER HAVI NG LEARNT OFTEN SHE LOCATE D A S H R U B TO B E M A D E USE OF S E V E R A L DAYS LATER. . BUT THAT WAS NOT A LL! B Y C U N N I NG A N D PRACTI CE X . . SC R E A M E D. IN E F F ECT.OF WOOD. S H E B R A C E D H E R WHOLE BODY A S STI F F L Y A S SHE COU LD. ONLY LATER DID I T BECOME G E N ITAL WHEN TH E CLITO R I S AND VAG I N A ROUSED AND MADE SENSITIVE BY EXA M P LE: THOUGH WATC H E D O V E R B Y T H E E Y E S O F A RG U S . SHE C A N N OT SO R E S I ST P U TT I N G IT TO R E PEATED CONTACTS. . S H E COULD SHE P R E TE N D E D TO FALL OR S TU M B L E O V E R BE STO P P E D . A S SOON A S TH E F I R ST TOOK PLACE. X . BY THE R E PETITION OF THESE MOVEM ENTS W H I C H I H A D HER PERFORM I N FRONT OF M E. WOULD ATTA I N H E R OBJ ECTI V E I N WAYS THAT WERE I NCONCE I V A B L E IN A LITTLE GIRL OF GOOD FA M I LY. S H E CONTRACTS H E R N EC K TO H A BITS I MPULSES: M A K E IT SWELL. THOSE IN C H A RG E O F THE C H I L D SAY I T IS ODIOUS TO H A V E TO LI STEN TO I T IN TH E SILENCE W I TH ONLY TH E N IGHT-LIG H T B U R N I NG. . BEGAN TO PRACTI S E O N A N I S M I T WAS NOT TH ROUGH TH E EXIGENC I E S O F NATU R E . YET. FROM TH E S E NOCTU R N A L SCENES. U P. FROM A X . I N D U LG E I N THE S A M E M USC U L A R CONTRACTION S A N D PROD U C E T H E S A M E SOU N D S I M ULTANEOUSLY. • • IS S U D D E N LY TO OVERCOM E BY TH E I R R ES I ST I B L E DESI R E COMMIT H E R HORRORS. A NOT R E S U LT I N G S U D D E N LY OPEN I NG OF T H E L I P S W H E N TH E MOUTH H A S B E E N CLOSED. I T W A S A THOUGHT. OFTEN BOTH C H I LD R E N SUFFE R E D FIT O F N E RVOUS TR E M B L I N G T H A T G A I N E D A L L H E R L I M BS. X . B E CA M E I N C A PA B L E OF T H U S . . BUT A IF SHE HAD TI M E TO WO R K SOM ETH I NG I N O R D E R T O R U B AGA I N ST I T . T H I S W A S FOLLOW E D B Y A TETA N I C STATE LASTING S E V E R A L M I N UTES. OR THE S I M I LA N C E OF THE TO N G U E AGA I N ST T H E PALATE. A LEWD I NSTI NCT. AT THAT PERIOD S E X U A L E R ETH I S M WAS SUCH THAT A S I NGLE TOU C H WAS E NOUGH TO PRODUCE ORGA S M . THE D I STA N C E CONSECUTIVELY TO T H E C E R E B R A L STI M U LUS. THUS P R O VO K I N G PHYSICAL DESI R E TA K E PART I N TH E S E SPASMODIC CONTRACTIONS. A BETTER WAY OF PUTTING I T WOU LD BE TO SAY THAT AT FIRST. WHEN X . A Q U I C K K I C K OF T H E H E E L TO H E R PA RTS. IT REPERCUTED A S IF B Y LIGHTNI N G ON THE SEXUA L ORGA N S . . T H E N X . A LTER N ATIVE OPE N I N G AND CLOS I N G OF T H E LA B I A PUDENDI UNLIKE PRODUCES THAT A SMACKING FROM SOUND. A C E R E B R A L I M PULSE THAT INCITED X.. W H I C H S H E R E L E A S E D B Y PRESSING IT WITH H E R FOOT. . AFTE R W H I C H S H E STARTS SQU E EZ I N G D E F EC A T I O N . AND X . AN ETH I C A L N E U ROSIS IN THE BY THE FOLLOW I N G AS W E HAVE A L R E A D Y STATED. TROUS D R I V E N TO CONTI N U E BY TWO DIFFERENT E X E C UT I O N . . SOMETI M E S MORE THAN A N H O U R TO R E A C H THE FI N A L VOL U PTUOUS SPASM IN THIS WAY. THE N E E D T O MASTURBATE DID NOT ORIGI N ATE FROM THE SEXU A L ORGA N S. W E L L BROUGHT-U P S I N C E C H I LDHOOD. GOT THE I DEA OF M A ST U R BATI NG. T H E VAGIN A'S CONSTRICTOR I S M A D E TO CHEC K I N G TH E I RR E S I STABLE D E S I R E TO SATI SFY H E R PASSION. AS A R E S U LT O F C O N S I D E R A B L E A B U S E . . TO STI M U LATE THE MORAL AS SHOWN SEXU A L PA RTS. WAS G I V E N A GOOD SLAP A S SOON A S S H E B E G A N . STRUGGLED L I K E O N E POSSE S S E D. . THAT IS TO SAY. T H E MORE S U D D E N TH E TOUCH . SAYS I T TAKES A LONG TI M E . HER ANUS AS AT TH E END OF CEREBRAL A N D G E N ITAL. TH E V U LVA SWELLS. TH E C H I LD R E N R E M A I N I M MO B I LE. PUT I NTO H E R STRAI T J A CKET A N D C H A STITY B E LT I P U B I C BANDAGE). A L L A T O N C E S H E WOULD STOP A N D EXCLA I M : "LOOK A T THAT P R E TTY F L OW E R I " S I MPLY TO D I V E RT HERSELF SUDDEN I N TE R R U PTION BEFORE THE CLIMAX CAUSED TH E OUTBR E A K OF T E R R I B L E STOR MS. H E R F E E T A R E ATTA C H E D. GAVE R I S E I N TH E I R T U R N TO THE LASCIVIOUS CONC E PT. . OFTEN. T H I S MONOTONOUS NOISE I S OFTEN K E PT U P F O R A G OO D PART O F T H E N I GHT. A N D A HEARD SOME DULL. . I F.. . THE C H I LD'S PATI E N C E AND CUNNING WERE TRULY A M AZI NG! T O TH E I R B E D . A S IF N A I L E D IF S H E SAW SOME SCR U B S H E STR A D D LE D IT A N D R U B B E D H E R S E L F B A C K A N D FORTH. D U R I N G WH I C H IT W A S 27 . ATTENTION A N D G I V E . SHE IS TIED UP. B Y TH E A LT E R N A T I V E CON­ TRACTING AND R E L A X I NG O F THE ANAL SPHI NCTE R A N D A N A L LEVATOR. THUS. WHICH PERTU R B T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M . . X . A N D YET T H E VOLUPTUOUS S ENSATION I S A BSOLUTELY ESSENTI A L ONCE SHE GETS THE IDEA. X . MASTURBATION WAS E N C EPHALIC. . . . S E N S E. A N D ACCOM PAN I E D BY PA I N S SO VIOLENT TH E Y MADE TH E CHILO SCREAM. FRIGID PHYSICALLY SPEAKI NG. THE M O R E QUICKLY THE DISCHARGE OC C U R E D. P R I N C I PALLY THE LEGS. . A N D FELL I NTO C LON I C OR TON I C CONVULSIONS. I N T H E MONTH OF J U N E . STI L L M UTE A N D U N R ES PONSIVE.

EVEN S O . OR I N SERT A F O R K OR TH E H A N DLE OF HER K N I FE. M I LK. B U RSTS I N TO TEARS. S H E STOLE A HAIRPIN A N D HID IT IN HER MOUTH UNTIL SHE FOU N D A FAVOU R A B L E THIS GAVE HER SUCH A FRIGHT SHE WAS GOOD FOR SEV E R A L H E A LT H DAYS WAS A FT E R W A R D S . SUFFOCATION. ON ONE OCCASION. AND IN A DDITION TO T H E STAFF. VEGETA B LES. UP S H E LLS AND L I TT L E STO N E S WHICH SHE I N S ERTED I N T H E PARTS. I NC A PABLE OF KEEPING STILL. UNDER HER CLOTH ES. . TH E FORK I S SNATC H E D ATTAC H E D W I TH T H E I R STRAIT-JA C K ETS. S H E WOULD SUDDENLY PUT HER FINGERS ON HER PARTS. THEY W E R E R E PLAC ED BY SOFT WATER BATHS. O R E LSE. ON R E C E I V I N G A L E TT E R F ROM H E R MOTH E R E XHORTI NG H E R T O I M PROVE. A S W E L L AS I N A DEPLORABLE A LLOWED MENTAL ST A T E . DAY A N D NIGHT T O C H ECK A N Y GUI LTY I NCLINA­ TIONS. IT WAS D E C I D E D. . O N E DAY. OR GIVE THEM A K I C K W I T H H E R H E E L.S TO THE H A N D S A N D FEET OF THE TWO C H I LD R E N OUT O F H E R STR A I T-JACKET A T M E A L T I M E S. NO R E D M E AT. FOR A BOUT TH R E E MONTHS THINGS CONTI N U E D I N T H E S A M E WAY. :S WAS TO OUTWIT T H E MAID IF PRESENTED WITH A C RU C I F I X X . OR S E N D H E R TO T H E COUNTRY. FOR EXAMPLE. W H I LE GETTING U N D R ESSED. THERE WERE I M PROVE. J U M PS U P BUT HOW F R O M TH E TA B L E A N D Y E L L S AT T H E TOP O F H E R VOI C E : I WANT TO! FOR PITY'S S A K E LET M E DO IT! MUSCLES O F THE P E R I N E U M FROM CONTRACTI N G AND PRODU C I N G VOLUPTUOUS SATI SFACTION IN SPITE OF A L L PRECAUTIONS? AS X . H E R O N E A N D ON LY THOUGHT I S TO G E T H E R H A N DS ON H E R PA RTS. . S H E WOU L D D I V E A N D STAY UNDER WATE R SEVERAL SECONDS IN ORDER TO D ET E R I O R A T I N G VIOLENT M A N I PULATE H E R S E LF. TO WHOM SHE HAC P E R PETRATE H E R HORRORS. TWO GOVERN ESSES WERE ENGAG E D TO WATCH OVER THE C H I LD R E N SEA BATHS HAVING OVER-EXCITED T H E C H I LDREN'S N E RVOUS SYSTEMS. BUT IT I S NO M O R E T H A N A D R U N K A R D'S PLEDGE. SHE MOMENT T O U S E I T . S H E IS U TT E R L Y W O R N OUT. C R Y I N G OUT THAT SHE P R E F E R R E D THE DEVI L WHO H E LP E D LATER HER SHE 00 WHAT S H E WANTED. .I M POSSIBLE FOR H E R TO PERFORM THE SLIG HTEST MOV E M ENT: SHE WAS A R I G I D AND MOTI ONLESS AS A FROG SUBJECTED TO VIOLENT E LECTRIC SHOCKS. THAT SH E WEEPS AND P R OM I S E S TO SHOOTI N G FREQUENT PA I N S PA RTS. D OW N W A R D A D M I TT I N G PATH. SHE PREVENT FRICTION. A MOMENT WOULD R E P E NT. H E R LITTLE X. OF TH E SAME SC E N E S OF A G I TATION AND LIFE ONE A G R E E A BLE. PURPOSE. B E E R . WITH A RE PETITION WA L K S T W I C E A DAY A N D VARIOUS G A M E S D I D MUCH TO MAKE TH E I R X • . DOES A LL ONE I N O R D E R TO DANGEROUS PREVENT T H E CAUGHT FROM RED-HA N DED. S H E IS MOVED TO TEARS BY I T S T E N D E R A FFECTI O N . D U R I N G T H O S E BRIEF MOME NTS O F L I B E RTY. SHE IS ONLY FULLY I NTRODUCES I NTO H E R SEXUAL PARTS. :S G E N E R A L RAPI DLY. NOT E V E N W H E N R E S PO N D I N G TO U RG E N T CA LLS OF NATURE. PALPITATIONS WITH A T E N D E N C Y TO LI POTHYMY. . . W A R M A N D PROLONGED. SHE A RT­ ATTACKS A N X I ETY. :S STATE P ROGR E S S I V E LY WORSENED. S H E C A NNOT B E LEFT ALON E F O R A MOM E N T. X . IN O R D E R TO AVOID A SCANDAL. A MOM E N T LATE R SHE I S I N VENTING SOME NEW TACTIC. S H E WAS I NSTA LLED IN A C H A LET I N T H E M I D D L E OF A GARDEN. I DEA BUT TO NO VIOLENCE. ALL H E R. W H I L E BATH I N G IN THE S E A S H E USED H E R TOES W I T H ASTO N I S H I NG AGI LITY T O P I C K MOR E U N M A NAGEAB LE. EVERYTH I N G H A D B E E N WELL ORGA NIZED: TH E DAY DIVI D E D I N SUCH A WAY AS TO OCCUPY EACH MOMENT. . M O V E M E N T. COM PLA I N E D OF SUBJECT TO A H E A DACHES: S H E WAS N ERVOUS RISE IN FROM TI M E TO TI M E X . HAS MOMENTS IS ON OF THE SUDDEN TEMPERATURE THAT LAST E D SEVERAL HOURS: S H E HAD ER RATIC PA I N S IN ALL O V E R HER OF HER BODY AND REMORSE. B E GG I N G TO BE 28 . OFTEN ONE SPOKE OF OF THE D E V I L WHO C A M E TO AND H E LP HER FREE HER HANDS SiSTER Y . S H E WOU LD J U M P UP FROM H E R CHA I R A N D PA C E U P A N D DOWN T H E BEDROOM: S H E COULDN'T SLEEP A N D D E C L A R E D SHE SPENT TWO OR TH R E E NIGHTS AT A T I M E WITHOUT CLOS I N G H E R EYES. . BITING A N D SPITTI N G ON IT. A DOSE OF FOU R G R A M M ES OF B R O M I D E OF POTASS I U M P E R D A Y . AND D I V E RT THEIR ATTENTION FROM VICE BY I N C U LC A T I N G R E L I G I O US S E NT I M E N T S PRAYER AND R E A D I NGS F R O M P I O U S THIS D I ET AND THE PROLONGED BATHS CON· THROUGH WOR K S . B E LT A N D STRAPS AS A L R E A D Y D E SC R I B ED. WHILE TH E BECAME E V E N W A S D R ESSING H E R . AT TI M E S SHE BECAME HIGHLY AGITATED. AGED A BOUT SIX. T R I BUTED FU RTH E R T O TH E C H I LD R E N'S W E A K E N E D STATE. • VIGILANCE OF H E R G U A RDIANS. AT N IGHT O N E GOES SO F A R AS TO T I E LITTLE B E LI. WENT WITH HER. BUT AT T H E SA M E MOMENT T H E LETTER THAT H A S SO MOV E D HER I S B E I NG ROLLED I N TO A SPOO L WHICH. . I M PARTED H E R S H A M E F U L H A BITS.

O R LEANS O N SOM EONE. WHATEVER COERCIVE M E A S U R E S WERE ADOPTED. I T I S EASY TO U N D E R S TA N D TH E UTTER I M PO S S I B I L ITY O F AVOIDING ALL THE OCCASIONS FOR W H I C H S H E WAS ON TH E LOOK-OUT. N EVERTHELESS S H E A D M ITTED TO H AV I N G YI ELDED SEVERAL TIMES TO H E R I N C R I M I N A T I N G M A N I PULA­ TIONS. BY D I NT O F TOUC H I NG A N D E XC IT I N G H E RS ELF. H E R S K I N D A M P. I I N SI STED THAT THE WORKS L E SSONS PLEAS U R E . THE N EXT S H E H I TS AND BITES H E R . B R O M I D E OF POTAS­ SIUM AND AMMONIUM. TWO G R A M M ES EVERY A AWAY. I BEG YOU. AT CERTA I N MOMENTS SHE WA NTS TO BE CUDDLED AND EXPRESSES A S H U DD E R TH ROUGH H E R W H O L E B E I NG. . "BUT I AM NOT SURE OF S U C C E E D I NG. SHE WA NTS TO RUN AWAY FROM E V E R YTH I N G . HOURS. THE DAY COM E S WHEN S H E TR I E S TO CHI LD'S NIGHT-SH I R T WHEN DRESSI N G H E R. ALTHOUGH R U L E S W E R E LESS STRICTLY E N FORCED T H A N B E FORE. T H E CHARMI NG. I N TH E GREATER THE OBSTACLE S H E HAD BEEN OBLIGED TO OVE RCOME. FEW KIND WORDS ATTACHED. "BECAUSE MY SUFFERINGS ARE SHAM EFULI" PULLED IT OFF TOO QUICKLY. . TRYING BY ADVICE A N D K I N D N ESS T O STI M U LATE H E R AMOUR PROPRE. AND TH E NIGHTS PASS WITH FR EQU E N T R E PETITIONS OF TH E USUAL ABUSE. WHICH SHE SOUG HT OR C R EATED IN ORD E R TO CONTI N U E HER A B U SES." SHE SAID. S H E D I D NOT PROMI S E T O B E GOOD I N THE FUTURE. . I HAVE HER F R E E D ENTI R E LY. " C U R I O U S LY DID N OT WANT TO BE LEFT UN­ T R E MORS. IS A LT O G E T H E R PLEA SURE O U T OF OBTA I N I NG SATISFACTION. . . THE SLIGHTEST P R ESSU R E PUT ON THE SENSUAL PARTS LEADS TO A N ERETH I S M AS QUICK A S LIGHTN I N G W H I C H C A N B E READ ON HER FACE. I DON'T W A N T THE DEVIL AT T H I S MOM ENT!" ONE DAY IN THE M I DD L E OF A WALK SHE STOPS TWENTY-FOUR FE R R U G I N O U S W I N E. I CAN'T SEE A N Y T HI N G!" HER VOI C E BECO M E S SHE DID NOT HAVE H A LL U C I N A TIONS. BY VARIOUS I NSTR U M ENTS. " I 00 N O T T R U ST MYSELF. CHASE HIM TREATME NT: COLD SHOWERS. " X . WITH A YELLOWI S H G R E E N DISCHARG E .PRAYED FOR A N D R E A D T H E PSALMSI SHE ALSO HAD H A LLUCINATIONS D U R I NG THE DAY. SHE THROWS H E RSELF I NTO H E R GOV E R N ESS'S A R M S CRYI NG: ''TH ERE HE IS. S H E EVEN I N SERTS A PAI NT-BRUSH I N TO T H E VAG I N A . SHE GETS ANGRY I F A N YONE SYM PATH I S E S WITH HER S U FF E R I NGS. AT OTH ERS. B U T I A M QUICK T O A D D : "I F Y O U REFUSE TO LISTEN I W I L L H A V E TO B E C R U E L. A N D FOUGHT WITH A LL HER WIT AND C U N N I NG A GA I N ST I NFLAM E D. T H E SENSITIV ITY OF TH E SEXUAL P A R T S H A D BECOM E SO GREAT THAT TH E M A I D . H E'S HORRIBLE! HOW HIS EYES GLEAM! I'M GOING BLIND. H E R FACE A S I F I L L U M I N ATED. S E E I NG TH E LITTLE SUCCESS OBTA I N E D BY M E A N S OF COERCION. S H E F R A N K LY A D M I TS T O PROVOK I N G THE VOLUPTUOUS SPASM TWELVE T O E I G H T E E N C H I LD BE LE FT TO H E RS E LF NOW AND TH EN. THAT S H E J I B B E D AS I T WERE. THUS GIVES X . BY TYING." I WAS OBLIGED TO C O M P LY WITH HER GOVERN ESS A N D A H A N D SMOOTH I N G H E R BROW OFTEN C R ISES. THOUGH IN A MORE MODERATE FASHION. . X. SHE S A I D. AT ONE MOMENT SHE E M B R A C E S H E R GOV E R N ESS WITH EFFUSION. A STR I K I N G C H A NGE HAS TAKEN PLACE . 29 . I WILL BURN YOU R PARTS WITH A R E D HOT I RONI" ALTHOUGH X . PA RTS H ERSELF HAND WITH HER AND R E S U LT IF ACH I E V E D. TI E M E UP. FINA LLY. "I WILL 00 M Y BEST. . ON TH E CONTRA RY. APPEARED TO BE M E NTALLY CONTORTS WITH FEAR. I N T H E DAYS FOLLO W I N G CALMER. THROW H E R S E LF OUT OF A SECOND-STORY W I N DOW INTO TH E STR EET B E LOW. SYM PATHY. ABRUPTLY AND LETS OUT A SCREAM. AGA I N ST TH E B R UTALITY E M PLOYED. H A PPY. BY SEVERE PUNISHMENT. P R O M I S I NG TO LEAVE HER H YPER-SENSITIVE. SUCCEED TH E SHE IN C A L M I N G TH E S E NOCTURNAL LOOKS AT BETTER. "YOU GRATITUDE W H E N S H O W N AFFECTION. FOR I HAD NOTI C E D THAT SHE R E B E LLED AGA I N ST TIMES A D A Y . M I DDLE OF A G R A M M A R LESSON S H E SUDDENLY BEGAN TO SHOUT: "CHASE HIM AWAY. THE PARTS ARE HIGHLY SEVERE TREATM E NT. HER FACE VARIED DIET TO B U I LD UP THE SYST E M ." S H E TOLD M E . B E N D I NG OVER TO PICK A A QUICK THE TAP ON THE IS FLOWER. . . T H I C K A N D A B U N DANT. HAS I N D E E D B E COM E THE 26TH OF A U GUST. ONE WOU L D HAVE SAID THAT SHE GOT MORE THE 29TH OF A U G U ST X." S H E SAYS. . HER SHE SEEMS WITH C H I LD REQU EST. "NOBODY FAULT. H E R EXPRESSION THAT O F A MADMAN. I N A F E W SECONDS THE VOLUPTUOU S S E N SATION "TH I S T I M E I T S NOT MY R E AC H E D ITS C L I M A X . BUT A SHE O FT E N HAS N E RVOU S FROM TH E T H E R E FO R E ENOUGH SHE I C A N N O T P R O M I S E . . K N OC K S TH E SA M E A THING PIECE H A PPENS OF SHE IN COMPLETELY F R E E I F S H E WILL B E SENSI BLE A N D O B E Y M E . APPEARED TO BE M OV E D BY MY MARKS OF A G A I N ST FURNITURE PASSI NG. TO RESTORE H E R D I G N I TY A N D A WA K E N A SENSE OF HONOUR. H E R BR EATH I N G BECA M E U N EVEN. I PICT U R E T H E F E A R F U L CONSEQU ENCES OF HER H A B I TS. X FLU S H E D. SET OFF AN ELECTRIC CURRENT THAT SENT • . "PUT ON MY STR A I T J A C K E T A GA I N ." ELSE CAN S H A R E I N TH E M . A R A P I D MOV E M E N T ON TH AT P A R T OF M E STARTS OFF A S E N SATION I C A N NOT C O N T R O L . IN P U L L I N G OFF THE RA UCOUS.

I CANT STOP M YSELF. M A R RY. I OON'T WANT TO. R E P L I E S AT ONCE WITH A S M I LE ON H E R LI PS: "NOT M E-I'M NO S A I NTI" THE GOV E R N ESS. SHE L A M ENTS THAT I T I S TOO LATE A N D THAT S H E IS LOST FO R E V E R I HER H A LL UC I N A TIONS R ETU R N . . H E R VOI C E GROWS HOA RSE. I COU L D DIE WITHOUT SETTLE ON WHAT H E R S E LF T U R N S I NTO A DEMONI COMM ITTING S U I C I DE. "WHAT I DESI RE. S H E WALKS ABOUT R ESTLESSLY. W I T H TH E HELP OF A SERVANT. BEEN DISGRACE TO T H E FA M I LYI" A N D Y ALL THESE R E P L I E S : "WHY D I D YOU TEACH M E T H E N ?" U P S ET BY THIS WI LD-EYED. "I A M SO AFRAID OF THE OPERATION THE DOCTOR WITHOUT R H Y M E O R R E A SO N . OFTEN S H E C A NNOT K E E P STI LL. SHE I M AG I N E S THAT A PLAGUE OF THE HOUSE AND THAT SHE HORRORS .S H E B EHAVES PROPER LY. HAS BEEN THI NKING A GREAT DEAL A BOUT M A R R I AG E . HOLD MY H A N DS. H E R NOST R I L S F LA R E I L A T E R . FOR I N STANCE. H E R L I P S N E V E R STOP TWITC H I NG. X ." WHICH ONE DAY. W H E N SPEAKING A FT E R TOU C H E S SEVERAL T I M E S. SHE WAS TOLD A BOUT THE MYTH I C A L POWERS OF FA I R I ES TO OBTA I N WHATEVER THEY DESI RE. S H E W I T H H ELL. CONVERSATION. G R I N D I NG H E R TEETH. LATER. I S GLOOMY DU R I N G TH E WALK. H E R EXCITE M E N T M O U NTS. S H E K E E PS MOVING H E R H E A D ABOUT. I S OVERCOME B Y T H E D E S I R E T O 00 I T . S H E CALMS OONW A N D I S H E RS E L F BO R N . " W H A T C H A O S R E I G N S I N T H A T LITTLE H E A D I A T TI M E S S H E S A Y S : "YOU W I LL SAVE M E W I T H GOD'S H E LP. H E RSELF BUT RECITES THE POE M S VI SIT. THIS TI M E I N TH E P R E S E N C E O F A STRANGER." S H E SAYS. S H E T R I E S N O T T O OR SOMEONE TRIES TO STOP H ER. 'TH E R E A R E M A N Y U N M A R R I E D WOM E N WHO ARE U S E F U L A N D CONTE NT. IS I NC A PA B L E OF A N YT H I N G : READI NG. "SAVE M E. FOR SOME TI M E X . IN THE LITTLE VI LLAGE T H E Y COM E TO. " I S THAT TH E R E SHOULD BE AS MANY MEN AS LA D I E S ON EA RTH SO THEY C A N PROVES THAT A FT E R A DESPERATE IS STR U G G L E ." SHE A N SW E R E D. THAT SHE THE A FT E R NOON OF T H E 1 4TH OF SEPTEM B E R X • • . ." S H E SAYS. . S H E S E E S THE T E R R I B L E H E A D WITH ITS GREEN D E V I LS EYES. . KNOW K I LL I N G I N ST I N CTIVELY ATTRACTED B Y T H E I D E A OF T H E PLEAS U R E T O BE H A D I N SEXUAL R E LATIONS. X K I LL MEl SAYS: " I F SO MEONE WOULD ONLY JOY. S H E CAUSES A SCANDAL. MYSELF. A SURE SIGN OF INCREASING TENSION. " WO U L D AGA I N . TO A M USE HER. H E R E Y E S DART I N A L L D I R ECTIONS. "I BEGGI NG I'M TO BE A N OT H E R C H A NC E ." AND HER EYES SH I N E WITH JOY. THE D U R I NG THE I R I N D EC E N T OUTING IN M OS T FASHION I N FRONT O F PASSERS-BY. I M U ST 00 ITI STOP ME." SHE FANCIES S H E I S A L R E A DY DEAD. BALLAD." N EXT D A Y SHE HAS A F I T OF DESI RE. R E PEATI NG: " I DONT WANT TO. DESPITE THE PLEA D I N G S O F HER GOV E R N ESS. THE GOV E R N E S S T R I E S TO CONTROL KICKS BACK. HA LLUCI NATIONS A N D M E NTAL A B E RRATIONS. THOUGHT I S T O S U CC E E D. LI STLESS. A L READY SHE SEEMS BECO M E S GIVEN SWEET AND G ENTLE. D U R I N G THE VISIT OF A RELATIVE A N I M ATED SINGS A SHE IS VERY PO L I T E . A L L A T ONCE H E R E X P R E S S I O N BECO M E S C Y N I CAL. H E R O N LY DOM I N ATI NG TH R E ATENEDI A N D HOW H U M I LIATI NG TO B E FORC E D TO M E N D MY W A Y S I N STEAD OF B Y M Y O W N F R E E W I L L . • L I TT L E S I STER. HER FEATU R E S TWITC H . . PAC I N G U P A N D OOWN TH E B E D R OO M . • • R E PROACH . G A M E S . TIE MY F E ETI" A FEW MOMENTS LATE R SHE FALLS INTO A STATE OF PROSTRATION. ROLLI NG H E R EYES A N D LOOKI N G U P AT THE C E I L I NG. D U R I NG THESE BOUTS X . THERE IS BUT SHE FOA M ON H E R LI PS. ATTEM PTS A R E M A D E I N VA I N T O I M PO S E A RESPECT FOR DECORU M . T H E I N ST I N CT O F P R E S E R VATION SOMETI M E S STRONGE R T H A N T H E A LL U R E S O F VICEI S H E E X P LA I N S HOW S H E SHOULD B E T I E D SO THAT SHE C A N NOT POS S I B L Y ATTA I N HER OBJEC­ TIVE. S H E LA UGHS O U T LOU D S E A T E D ON A C H A I R.. . S H E G R I M AC E S . W H I C H M A K E S HER VERY HA PPYI SHE I S SURE OF BEING I N TOUCH WITH THE DEVI L AND H A V I NG M Y STE R I O U S C O N N ECTI O N S I S I N A T E R R I B LY OVER-EXCITED STATE. IT SHOULD BE N O T E D TH AT EXCESSIVE ONANISM IS I N EVITABLY F O L LOW E D BY SUCH GASPS. PUTS A STOP TO THE SC E N E BY BRINGING HER H O M E 30 . COM PLAI N I NG THAT GOO I S UNJ UST TO HER BEC A U S E H E H A S G I V E N HER EVE RYTH I N G TO MAKE HER H A PPY A N D NOW TAKES I T AWAY F ROM H E R. OR PUTS O N A I RS. O R BALANCING O N ONE FOOT A FT E R T H E OTH ERS. AT OTH ERS. "00 YOU TH I N K TH E ONLY H A P P I N ESS I S I N B E I N G M A R R I ED?" H E R GOV E R N ESS A S K E D . BUT HER I NCONS I STENCIES ARE E N DLESS. HER. S H E D E C LA I MS." SHE C A N NOT CONTROL SHE WALKS H ERSELF. "I A M ASKING HIM TO M A K E M E DIE.. A R E EQUALLY ODIOUS. X. "IF O N LY HER A I HAD N EV E R BEEN "WE SHE NOT SAYS T O HAVE • . E N T E R S A HOUSE WITHOUT B E I N G SEEN A N D DOES H A R M TO EVE RYONE IN IT. K E E PS UP AN AND SHE SOM ETI M E S H E R FACE IS F L U SH E D A N D S H E HAS A ROVING EYE: AT OTH E R S SHE IS PALE AND CON VERSATION.

AND EVERY TiNG U I S H E D ACA D E M I C I A N . BATHED IN TEARS. . THE TWO C H I LD R E N WERE NOT ON MY RETURN TO CONSTANTINOPLE I HAD NO D I F F I C U LTY I N P E R S U A D I NG THE F A M I L Y TO FOLLOW THE R E CO M M E N DA T I O N P ROPOS E D BY T H E D I S­ S E PA R ATED. THE P OO R CHILD IS EXT R E M E L Y VOLU B I LE. FOR A S H E OFTEN R E P ROAC H E S H E R SISTER F O R H A V I N G TAUGHT H E R SUCH HOR RORS. A T M Y I N S I ST E N C E . HE HAD SUCCEEDED IN CURING YOUNG G I R LS I W I L L CUT AS SHORT A S POS S I B L E T H E H I STORY OF LITTLE Y . WHO I S X . E N E RGETIC CONTRACTIONS STARTI N G S P E EC H BECOM E S J E RKY. . DR. HER EYES SHI NE. ASKES TRICKS W H E N S H E I S ATTACHED TO T H E B E D . . TRACES O F I N J U R I ES I N FLICTED YESTER­ DAY BY A TABLE FORK! TH E ORI FICE O F T H E VAGI N A I S BRIGHT R E D . S H E A D M I TT E D TO R U B B I NG H E R S E L F WITH HER H A N DS . M A K I NG TH E M OST OF H E R I N C L I N E D POS I T I O N . S I R :' S H E S A I D. . . WITH ANY MONTHS. . SHE TH E 28TH. S H E N O LON G E R U N D E RSTA N D S W H A T I S SA I D T O H E R . BOW E D TO T H E G R O U N D: BUT ALL AT ONCE A D I A BOLIC THOUGHT C ROSSES H E R WRETC H E D M I N D A N D. . BUT R EASONS L I K E A G I R L OF 1 6. WITH HER F E E T. S H E B E G S M E N O T TO BURN H E R A N D R E MOVE SMALL HER IS EVEN VERY G RA TE F U L W H E N I J A CKET. I T I S MOST D I STR E S S I NG T O TH I N K THAT S O YOUNG A C H I L D CAN BE S O P E RV E R S E ! S H E A D M I TT E D EVE RYTH I N G SHE H A D DON E D U R I N G M Y A B S E N C E . . T H E SA M E H A R S H M ETHODS U S E D O N X . J . . V E N E R E A L DESI R E S . I NOTE THAT T H E CONSTITUTION S H E I S W H I P P E D SO FORCI B LY T H E BUTTOCK S A R E STR I P E D BY D E E P ECCHYMOSE. I S N O T YET SIX. T O SUCH A STATE O F I M BE C I LI TY. "TO TELL YOU A BO U T MY H O R RO R S : ' A FT E R SO M E BLOOD. . AND A L E RT. THE SERVANT'S PRESENCE I N N O W A Y D I SS U A D E S HER FROM TH I S S H A M E LE S S BY BEHAVIOUR. X . "BUT 31 . BECAUSE OF HER STU R D Y THE 8TH O F S E PTE M B E R. H E R S A L I VA A B U N DANT. . I T I S C A U S E D B Y T H E OPE N I NG A N D CLOS I N G O F T H E LA B I A P U D E N D I BUT THE MOMENT SHE G ET S THE IDEA OF HER UNDER THE I N FLUENCE OF R H YT H M I C FROM AND THE SATI SFYING HERSELF. . DURING MY JOURNEY TO LONDON FOR I THE WAS P R A YS FERVE NTLY. THE PRI ESrS CASSOCKI I N TE R N A T I ON A L M EDICAL CONGRESS. SC E N E THAT WHILE THE S A M E T R E A T M E NTS A D M I N I ST E R E D T O X . EXCESSIVE SMACKI N G SOU N D OF T H E V U LVA W H I C H S H E K E PT UP MOST OF THE NIGHT IN CONCERT WITH HER A B U S E . SEVERAL HAVE ALREADY G ETS VERY BEEN ACTIVE WOR K E D UP FOR AND HESITATI O N . . THE PRI E ST TO G I V E H E R CON F E S S I O N . I S A DOPTED B Y Y . A R E E MPLOYED ON Y . T H E SAME R US E S T O OUTWITH HER G U A R D I A N S. . S H E R U B S H E R PA RTS W I T H . FOREIGN BODY S H E COULD F I N D . . FORTU N ATE ENOUGH TO M E ET DR. I DEC I D E D TO E X P E R I ­ M E NT F I RST ON L I TT L E Y .IN A C A R R I A G E . SWOLLEN L A B I A . SHE IS A LTHOUGH BY WELL B U I LT REDUCED. S H E H A S EVEN B E E N KNOWN TO W E E PI ANUS. . TH E LITTLE O N E COPI E D E V E R YTH I N G TH E 81G ONE D I D. A T S U C H TI M E S S H E I S P A L E A N D C ROSS-EYED. T R E M B L I N G I N E V E RY L I M B . W E H A V E A L R E A D Y DESC R I B E D I N DETA I L THE MEC H A N I S M O F T H I S SOU N D W H I C H C A N B E H E A R D S E V E R A L M ETERS AWAY. . . TH E SAME TO R M E N T E D REMORSE. U N FORTU NATELY. . "I A M A S H A M ED.R E D I N WITH OF A COLO U R . I SUBMITTED CHILDREN THE TO HOPELESS CASE OF THE TWO AND OUR E M I N E NT COLLEAGU E ASKED H I S A D V I C E . H A N DS J OI N E D TOG ETH E R . . A S A R E S U LT O F PROVOK E D STI M U LATION. NOT I NTELLIGENT O R A S ATTRACTIVE A S H E R SISTER. THE G E N I TA L ORGANS ARE SO P R E C OC I O U S L Y D E V E LOPED T H E R E A R E A LR E A D Y T U FTS OF H A I R ON T H E LABIA P U D E N D I A LTHOUGH Y . . PRACTICE I N V E N T E D BY X . H A RDLY IS X . S H E SHOWED M E WHAT S H E D I D I N B E D I N O R D E R T O GET A T H E R S E LF. N OTH I N G COULD BE MORE D I ST R E S S I N G UNDER THAN OUR TH E EYES. . :S SISTER A N D WHOM I HAVE A LREADY M E N TI O N E D THE WHEN R E LA T I NG SHE IS FACTS AS A F FECT E D BY THE VICE OF ON A N I S M BY B U R N I N G THE CLITO R I S WITH A HOT IRON. A S I T H A D O N T H E E L D E R S I STER: T H E P U B I C B A N DA G E I S EQUALLY U N S UCCESSFUL. A N D H O W S H E PROD U C E D T H E OFT E N R O U S E S D E S I R E B Y A S E R I E S O F P R E PA RA­ TORY BODY MOVE M E NTS. CONC E R N I NG LATTE R . . AFTER A LL OTH E R TREATME NTS H A D FA I LE D . A TH I C K ODOR DISCHARGE IN SPITE A R EPULSIVE P E R S I STS SEVERA L A B LUTIONS THE R E PEATED WHOSE TIMES DAY. AS A R E S U LT. I N FLA M E D Y E L LO W AND THE SEXUAL PA RTS ARE VERY STR A I T ARE LABIA SCORED BY P E R P E N D I C U LA R WOUNDS. J U LES G U E R I N . W H I C H SET T H E WHOLE P E R I N E U M I N MOTION A N D SPREAD TO T H E LA RGE. S E A T E D THAN S H E FLINGS H E R S E L F B A C K A N D ACTS I N SUCH A W A Y AS T O PROVOKE T H E VOLUPT U O U S S E N SATION. BUT TH I S DOESN'T PREVENT H E R FROM MODELLI NG H E R C O N D UCT O N THAT O F H E R O L D E R S I STER: T H E S A M E I N D E C E N T MOVE M E N TS WHEN THEY ARE OUT. . S I STER. G U E R I N A F FI R M E D THAT. TH E SA M E L A C K OF S UC C ESSI TAKES PLACE V E N ERABLE P R I EST G I V E S H E R I N STRUCTION. . I T H A S A S M U CH E FFECT O N Y . C H I LD. .

L.US W A S R U N G ."' I TOL. SECO N D CA UTERISATION. HOT POI NT T H R E E TIMES TO EACH OF T H E L.F B U T STOPS A S SOON A S SHE IS THREATE N E D WITH B U R N I NG. SHE EXPRESSION OF TERROR A N D H E R E Y E S FL. S H E BEGAN TO SHIVER." I N F E R N A L.ATER. I C A U T E R I S E BUTTOCKS THE HER 1 1 TH OF SEPTE M B E R I N ORDER TO FRIGHTEN AS MUCH AS POSS I B L. DON E QUESTION I E D.EFT AT L.ACE AN ENORMOUS I RON I N THE FORM OF A N AXE. .Y THE S I U M . BECA USE I C A N GO FOR MORE T H A N TWENTY-FOUR HOURS WITHOUT DOING A HORROR.OW ON I T U NTIL. " I F YOU DO IT AGAIN. Y I C O U L O O l E ! I K N O W I WIL. .L. WEAK.E. CONTRACT A N D SQU E EZE. IN A YESTEROAY W H E N TH E A NGEL.E. L. TH I R D CA UTERISATION OF L. IN A STA BL.OODED WITH TEARS. I MAKE A GREAT AND LOI N S WITH TH E BIG I RON.. THIN.F MUCH L. SHOOK AS THEY A L. S T O KEEP H E R WOR D SHE W I L. "I'L.AMP. .L.ESS ON THE L.F BY SAYING IT WAS I M POSSIBL.. "'YOU D I D NOT K E E P YOUR PROMISE. T H E S E M ETHOD W I L.E A N D REWARDING. X. B U T SOUGHT TO J U STI FY HERSEL. HER FACE TOOK ON AN TW I N K L I NG U NDER BECA M E H A NDS HER D I SA P P E A R E D AND Y. FOR BUT THE B E FO R E PROM I S E S AN HOUR I THE TEARS BY AND Y.Y G U I LTY BEC A USE. L. SHE T R E M B L.ITORIS IS NOT ONL. .K AND VERY GOOD OF A TH E AT N IGHT.F. FO U G H T TH E 1 9TH. SHE SWEARS SHE WIL. TOUCH I NG A L. GOI NGS O N . O W E D Y . BE BURNT ON MY N EXT VISIT. SHE W A S REMINDED OF THE SESSION WITH THE FIRE AND K E PT UNDER B EC A M E IN THE DAYS THAT F O L.D H E R. SHOW YOU THAT YOU MADE A M I STAKE BY K E E P I NG M I N E:' I SHOW E D H E R THE CLITORIS BIG H O T I RON. S H E WAS VERY W E L. " 1 FOU N D OUT FOR MYSE L. CRYI NG: "TH E SOU N O O F T H E BE LLS M A KES M E TH I N K OF T H E DAY O F J U D G E M E NTr' THE RED P L. EXPL. STOO P I N G OVER A L. OR A C R I M I N A L.ONE I S NOT E N OUGH TO PROOUCE ORGASM. R E L.ITTL. O R I V E N BY THE I R R E S I STABL. H A D B E E N GOOD EVER S I N C E K E E P S R E PEATI NG: "'I F O N L. L. '''TH E P A I N IS HORRIBL." SHE SA ID. BEHAVED ON THE WAL. SOBBING.MOST TO TH E K N E E .UTA R Y S I ST E R.WHO SHOWED YOU HOW TO 00 SUCH I N FAMOUS W H A T H A P P E N S W I T H BOTH SISTERS W H E N . EVE RYTH I NG WAS READY FOR THE TRANSCURRENT C A U T E R I S ATI O N . E .E TABL. SHE SAYS.THOUGH L.ESS S I N C E THE CAUTERI SATION..EG. BUT H A R DL. "IT F E E L.ENT. H E R LOWE R LI M BS HAVE OEOEMA AL.L. SHE ABUSES H E RSEL. E A TS IN TH E DRESS FACE. S MY NICE WHEN I S E L. "I WIL. THIS I S 32 . SHE I M M EDIATE AND S A L.OST I F SHE CONTI NUES T H E WAY SHE IS G O I N G I BUT I F S H E F A I L. I TT L. BROMIDE OF POTAS­ O R I F I C E OF T H E VAG I N A . L.A R M I NG: IS PALE. I A PPL. OF BURNI NG COA L. E FFECT." I SAID TO H E R . I E D . HER. I TT L.ITORIS.EFT BEFORE SHE WAS AT IT AGA I N WORSE TH A N EVER. • P U N I S H M E N TS I N F L I C T E D O N H E R BECO M E S VERY DESPONDENT. I BL.Y P A I N F U L.ONG A N D REPEATED F R I CT I O N IS R EQ U I R E D ROU N D TH E MADE OVER L.L NOT B E N A UG H TY AGA I N AND A D M I TS TO BEING ooUBL.S IN WHICH I PL.A I N S OF H E R B U R NS.. ON THE STATE B E C O M E S A L. L. WITH A L.E. E y . I T BECOMES RED HOT.Y I N S ENSITIVE BUT EXTR EM EL. ..VES. S A M E:' SISTER DOES THE THE 1 5TH . L. I S H E R U B S HER PA RTS AGA I NST T H E OECORATION ON ITS L.E y . A DMITTED T O HAVI NG I T .AST. THE 1 6TH. "IT IS DISGRACEFUL. "I SEE T H A T TH I S DISPL.E TO RESIST THE CRAVI NG. BE HER. S E E ! N G TH E TH E 1 4TH OF SEPTEMBER. " A N D I'L. WHAT CAN I DO?" HER E XCESSES CONTI N U E SHE AND HER TH E CA UTERI SATION. BECO M E S POSS I B L. SUPERVISION.E OESIRE T O TOUCH TH EM­ THI NGS?" I ASKED HER.ARGE LA B I A ANO A N OTH E R O N THE CL. COL. AT L.Y HAD I L. THE SUPERVISION OF Y • .ET N E XT DAY S H E COMPL. H ER BUT. BURN YOU WITH THE BIG I RON N EXT TI M E AND WITHOUT PITY:' C H A N C E TO TOU C H H E RSEL. SHE T R I E D TO RUN AWAY.L.IBE RTY. TH AT YOU S H O U L. HOWEVER. E BUT I CAUTERISED T H E THREE M I L. THEN BROKE DOWN. N E V E R DO I T AGA I N :' AL.OOK OUT FOR ANY M ETERS I N D I A M ETER H E ATED OVER A SPIRIT L.L.L H A V E TO U N DE RGO THE S A M E TORTURE. TO THE TOU C H . . WHO SOBS A N D VOC I F E R ATES.ICATIONS. BECAUSE THE CL. C U R E M E . S H E T H R U STS A PIECE OF WOOD I NTO THE VAGI N A .D SHOWE RS. PHYSIOGNOM I E HER HANDS SUDDEN C H A NGE.F. L. THEY A R E P R EVENTED FROM OOI NG SO. S I N C E T H E FI RST C A U T E R I SATION SHE H A SN'T H A D TH E S A M E DESI R E TO EXCITE H E RS E L.I­ STY L.WAYS O l D W H EN SHE WAS ON THE POINT OF · P E R P E T R A T I N G ONE OF HER OF HER CRIME. THE OPERATION PROVED TO HAVE HAD AN .ECTU R E WIL.TH RUINED A N D HER RE PUTATION L.AY OF BRAZIERS FUL. S H E I S NONE THE L. A FTER NOON U N OERWENT 1 5T H . I TEL. E S AT T H E S I G H T OF A L. TO P U N I S H H E R FOR O I SOBEDIENCE.A I N I NG THAT HER H E A L. L. . . TOW A R O E V E N I NG S H E C A PRICIOUS. SU PPL. S I R . D HAVE TO BE TIED UP LIKE AN A N I M A L..ITTL.L. "' SHE R E P L.

ONE HERSELF OUT O F TH E W I N DOW. IN SPITE OF SUCH TOGETH ER. WHOSE PATI ENT WAS A L I TT L E GIRL OF THREE. THE I N FL A M MATION SET UP BY CLiTORIA L A N D VAG I N A L. IN THE COUNTRY. BUT LYING ON HER BACK TO A VO I D A N Y R U B B I NG O N THE CHAI R'S E DGE. HOW I WANT TO DO ITI" HER M E M O R Y B E G I N S TD F A I L. ACCORD I NG TO M Y I N FO R M ATION. . 33 . S H E CONTI N U E S T O A B U S E H E R S E L F A S I N TH E PAST. THE 1 2TH OF OCTOBER TH E HORRORS BEGIN A GA I N . AS MIGHT BE EXPECTED. COM M E N TS THE 2 3 R D. I WON'T C RY. T H I S YOU N G G I R L M A N AG E D TO R E S I ST UNTI L M A R R I AGE. AS TO X .SUCCESSFULLY A G A I N ST T E M PT A T I O N . W I L D E Y E D. W E KNOW OF ONLY TWO CASES: THAT O F FONASSA·G R I V E S R E LATING TO A TH E 25TH I APPLY A HOT POI NT TO X . SHE COMPLA I N S O F V A G U E PAINS IN TH E C H E ST. F I N A LLY. AMUSING HERSELF AND LA UG H I NG G A Y LY. I N THE CASE O F TH E TWO LITTLE S I STERS. BUT X MORE DROPS ALL . SAME TH E I R I NDECENT ACTS I N T H E P A S T D U R I NG OUTINGS: S H E TH ROWS H E RS E L F ON T H E BUSHES. NONETHELESS SHE DOES IT TWO OR TH R E E TI M ES E V E R Y TWENTY· FOU R H O U RS. OF H E R T E R R I BLE FITS O F RAGE." EXAMPLES O F O N A N I S M AT SUCH A N E A R L Y AGE A R E RA R E I N LITTLE G I R LS. . O H HOW I WANT TOI YOU C AN'T U N D ERSTA N D. FALLING SEVERAL TIMES I N TO A SWOON THAT MADE S U F F IC I E NTLY C L E A R ADDITION O F A N Y LONG COMM ENTA R I E S TO BECOM E U N N ECESSARY. . BECA M E A C H I L D A G A I N . BUT TH E N S H E R E T U R N S W I T H R E N E W E D F R E N ZY TO H ER OLD HABITS. S H E HOWLS L I K E A W I LD BEAST W H E N S H E H E A R S M E COMI NG . LITTLE Y . S H E H A S A T E R R I BLE ATTACK. SAYING: "TUR N TH E PAGE. A N D THE CASE SA L I E N T POI NTS OF T H I S I N T E R E ST I N G FOR THE OPERATION. PRETENCE O F MODESTY. O N TH E BEGS T O H A V E H E R H A N DS TI E D E A C H TI M E S H E I S N O T S U R E O F H E RS E LF: ONE PUNISHED BY R E LA PS E ON I S EVEN RAW F L A G E L LA T I O N THE BUTTOCKSI OFTEN S H E I S S E E N TO M A K E A N EFFORT AT CONTROL. ONE D U R I NG WHICH SHE YELLS: "I W A N T TO. H A V I NG IN GENERAL FULL L I B E RTY OF ACTION. O N A N I S M WAS BOTH LITTLE Y • . L A S T E D A B O U T A QUA RTER OF A N H O U R . OR E L S E ATTACH E D TO A C H A I R." FROM T E N A T N IG H T UNTI L SIX I N TH E MOR N I I NG. WITHOUT ANY MEDICAL N I G H T SHE SUCCEEDS I N R U BB I N G H E RSELF TILL T H E BLOOD COMES ON THE STRAPS THAT B I N D HER. ONCE AGAIN H A S A V E R ITABLE FIT OF FOLLY D U R I NG WHICH SHE TRIES TO THROW WITH T H E R E S U LT OBTA I N ED. THE 1 7TH. BUT AN PRECOCIO U S ABUSE A N D ITS FREQUENT R EPETI· TION. • . WAS COMPLETELY C U RED. PLAYING WITH H E R DOLL. ACCORD I N G TO T H E GOVE R N ESS. AT TIMES SHE H A D VISUAL H ALLUCI NATIONS. • :S C LITORIS. Y . . F R O M TH E N O N THE TWO LITTLE PATI ENTS W E R E N O LONG E R UNDER M Y O B S E R VATION. FOR T H E C H I L D OBTA I N E D SATI S FACTION BY S LI P P I N G A LONG FEATHE R INSIDE THE OPERATION S H E I S P E RFECTLY GOOD. LEGS CLOSED A N D TIED BANDAGE I N O R D E R TO REACH TH E G E N ITA L PA RTS. • . M A DE M O I S E LLE. THIS IS CONTR A R Y. YESTERDAY. W I THOUT ANY S H E S U B MITS TO T H E OPERATION WITHOUT W I N C I NG. . S H E R EPEATS: "I D E S E R V E T O B E BURNT AND I WILL BE. . T H E Y W E R E SEPA RATED. SEVEN Y E A R OLD C H I LD WHOSE H A B I TS NECESSI· TATED THE R E M E D Y OF A B E LT. . ETC. AS O U R OBSERVATION D E M ONSTRATES. X . AND THAT O F D E S L A N D E S. T H E GOVE R N ESS IS E N C HANTED M O R E AND BEFORE H A N D. . ARMS COV E R E D W I TH AS OEDEMA. LITTLE Y . S H E I S F A R AWAY. EVEN TH E HER SUPERVI S I O N A N D D E P R I V E D OF A L L TREATMENT. A N OTH E R TI M E . I CAUTERISE T H E CLITOR I S A N D E N T R Y T O THE VAGINA. SHE VICIOUS R U B B I NG HAS DISAPPEA R E D . EXA M I NATION O F T H E C H EST R E V E A L S N OTHI NG. I WI LL BE BRAVE D U R I NG THE THE DETA I L S OF THE FOREGOI N G C A S E · H I STORY HAVE B E E N R E LATED IN SUCH M ETIC U LOUS DETA I L. SHE B EG I N S TO COUGH. I T R Y G I V I N G H E R S E V E R A L VIOLENT A N D V E R Y PA I N F U L E LECTRIC SHOCKS O N T H E PARTS WITH C LA R K'S APPA RATUS. S H E HAS H A LLUC I NATIONS ARE A L L TH E TI M E . ETC. HER U R I N E CONTA I N S NO A L B U M I N . A T OTH E R T I M E S S H E BECA M E D E LI R I OUS. BECA M E H I G H L Y EXCITED A N D A B U S E D H E RS E L F EVEN MORE THAN SHE HAD DURING THE DAYS R E LATIVELY LITTLE COMPA R E D WITH THE THI RTY OR FORTY A B U S E S COM M ITED EACH D A Y BEFORE THE C A UTERI SATION. TH I S M ETHOD P RO V E S U N S UC C E S S FU L . SHE IS KEPT ON HER F E ET. C A UG H T IN TH E ACT BY THE GOV E R N ESS SHE HAS A N D U N A B L E T O SATISFY H E RS E LF. S H E C A N N O LONG E R K E E P UP WITH LESSONS. TO OBVIATE ANY F R I CTION. S H E RUBBED T H E V A G I N A S O VIOLENTLY WITH A PIECE OF BRONZE S H E B L E D F R E E LY. AND FOR T W E NTY· FOU R HOU R S A FT E R THE SUCCESS. WHO I S HITTING ME. . KICKS HER PARTS W I TH HER H EEL. I S GOOD. .

I F TO TH I S WE A D D THE H A L L UC I N A ITONS W O W H I C H X . .B Y VANTS. LITTLE X . SEDATIVES NOR DID A NOR TON I C S M ET WITH ANY SHOWERS TO AND WARM BATHS MORAL IN THE B E G I N N I NG . I N COM PANY WITH OTH E R C H I LD R E N . TRIED TO GET THE BETTER OF I WILL SAY J U ST A WORD CONCERNING THE H E R S E LF. LEAD TO TH E M A N U A L EXCITATION OF THE PA RTS. COA X I N G . I T WAS THAT O F A YOU N G LADY O F TWENTY­ EIGHT Y E A R S OLD W H O CONFESSED TO M E THAT SHE TOUCH E D H E R S E L F A GREAT MANY TIMES EACH DA Y.·S EYE-SIGHT HAD A LSO CONSI D ERABLY POINT I F E E L I T N ECES­ H A V E DON E SO BY G E N I T A L N E E D. THE THES AT T H E LOWER EXTR E M ITY O F TH E R ECTU M CAN. USUALLY FURIOUS SO AS A SWEET WILD AND DOC I L E . N E I TH E R S U C C ESS. WAS MOST PROFO U N D D E P R E S S I O N . TH E Y GAVE WAY WITHOUT IN BLUSH I NG TO TH E I R D I SG R A C E F U L OR SER­ C A U S E. L"TER. FROM THE G E N I TA L PARTS THEM­ A N D P R O M I S E S .IF ONE SEEKS IN THE ORIGIN. AS A V E R I TA B L E GLED WITH N E UROSIS. ALL HER VERY MIGHT OFTEN X. T H E R A PE UTIC M ETHODS E M PLOYED I N T H E CASE OF THE LITTLE G I R LS : M E D I C A M ENTS HAD NO E FFECT. IT WAS S I M PLY BY I M ITATION. . BEGGI NG TO B E TIED U P A N D PREVENTED FROM DOI N G ITI A MOMENT LATER SHE E M PLOY E D EVERY R U S E TO O U T W I T TH E V I G I LA N C E OF THOSE I N C H A RGE OF H E R . I M POS S I B L E FOR O U R YOUNG PATI E N TS TO X .. T H E C R U E L­ LEST P U N I S H M ENT. NOTH I N G COULD D I SSUADE THESE POO R C H I L D R E N FROM Y I E L D I NG TO TH E I R FATA L A D D ICTION! LITTLE X. AT AN T H O S E S H E M O S T R E S PECTED THE SATISFACTION OF HER I F THEY OPPOS E D WHEN HER CRAVING EARLY AGE. OF CALM AND REMORSE. S U F F E R E D FROM E I TH E R SHE M U LTIPLE N E RVOUS SUBJECT TO THE PUBIC B E LT. NOW. AND BOTH THE THE RASH ON THE E XC I T E M E NT WAS AT ITS H E IGHT. A N D BITING THE I N TESTI N A L PARASITES (AT LEAST I N TH E CASE OF THE ELDER SI STER). T H I S Y O U N G L A D Y RENOUNCED ONAN AND A LSO RECOV E R E D PER­ FECT E YE-SIGHT. BUT X . WITH TH E B E ST WILL I N THE WORLD S H E COULD NO MORE CONTROL H E RSELF THAN A SU F F E R E R FROM C H O L E R A C A N PREVENT C R A M PS. ADVICE. . OR A N HYSTE R I C A L WOM A N A VERT A N ONCOM I N G ATTACK.. H ITT I N G B EC A M E AS STA N C E S W H I C H THESE V I CIOUS H A B I TS W E R E TWO PRINCIPAL CAUSES E M ERGE: CONTRACTED.. WHICH L E D TO A PROGRESSIVE AND A LMOST W H I C H TOOK POSSESSION OF THE CH I LD R E N .. . OR ELSE PREY TO A 34 . TO WHOM I S E N T T H E PATI E N T WITHOUT A C QU A I NTI N G THE HIM OF HER H A B I TS."TI ENT. . D E S M A R R E S SENIOR. PRACTICES F R O N T O F P A S S E R S. H E I N FO R M E D M E O F I T I N A S E A L E D LETT E R WHICH HE GAVE THE P. T H E R E C A N BECA USE OF THEIR YOUTH AT TH E TI M E T H E Y BE NO D O U B T THAT SHE SUFFERED FROM DEEP BEGA N T O A B U S E TH E M S E LVES. THE EARLY C I RC U M ­ M A N I AC A L AGITATION SO VIOLENT THAT TH E C H I LD. . WITH I M PU LSION TO SATI SFY T H E M I M MEDIATELY AT A L L COSTS. PARTS P R E S ENCE OF H E L M I N ­ TH I S WAS FOLLOWED SOON AFTER BY A P E R I OD OF PROST R A T I O N . TH I S U N C O N T ROLLA B L E C R A V I N G PA R I S . . W H E N E V E R T H E TWO C H I L D R E N WERE OVERCOME BY A N A RD E N T DESI R E T O M A ST U R BATE T H E Y D I D NOT C A R E I N T H E LEAST ABOUT PROPRI ETY OR THOSE P R E S E NT. OR TO A LL E V I ATE BOREDOM WHEN L E FT U N O C C U P I E D. . BY THE I R R E S I ST A B L E I R R ITATION TH E Y EXTINCTION O F A L L M O R A L S E N S E SHOULD A L. TH E STI M U L U S FOR THESE B R I NG ABOUT RETURN N O R M A L. O N TH I S S A R Y TO REFER TO A S I M I LA R C A S E W H I C H C A M E UNDER MY OBSERVATION WHEN I PRACTISED IN RE PETITION OF S U C H CONTACTS THAT A N AWAKEN­ ING OF THE S E X U A L I N ST I N CTS TOOK PLACE. STRUG­ THE TOTA L A M A U ROSIS. STRA I T J A C K ET. T H E M O S T A S S I D UOUS S U P E R V I S I O N ONLY R E S U LTED I N D I SORDE RS. WAS F R E Q U E N TLY SUBJ ECT.SO R EC E I V E S P EC I F I C M ENTION.. FOR W H I C H I TREATED SEXUAL HER. IT WAS ONLY A FT E R CONSTA NT D E T E R I ORATED. .'S C U RIOSITY H A D A LREADY BEEN AR O U S E D BY THE MAID TO U C H I N G HERSELF VIGOROUSL Y W H E N S H E B E L I E V E D THE C H I L D TO B E AS L E E P. RELIGION WITH ITS T H R E ATS FREQUENT AND R E P E A T E D R U BBING. A S TO LITTLE Y . . AND I N ITI ATION. H A D WORMS. A T THE AGE O F FOU R S H E WAS COR R U PTED BY H E R S I STER. . THE STI M U LUS ORIGI NATING SE LVES. BEEN IT WOULD HAVE PSYC H I C D I STU RBANCE. BONDS. MANY TIMES X. I TH I N K WE M A Y C O N S I D E R THIS I R R ES I ST­ ABLE DESIRE. STRAPS. H A V I N G FOLLOWED O U R A DVICE. B E A ST. V I C I O U S H A B I TS O R I G I N A T E D EXCLUSIVELY I N T H E E N C E PH A LO N : ONLY LATER AS A R E S U LT OF TH E R A PY W A S E Q U A L L Y I N E F F E C T U A L. . I N TI M I D A T I O N . TO OVERCO M E U N H E A LTHY I M P U L S E W H I C H D ROVE H E R T O EXCITE HER ORGANS. C A R E S S E S . OF HER R E C OG N I S E D E S S E N TI A L CAUSE F A I L I N G S I G HT.

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Y PROBABL.ITTLE G I R LS. THE SECOND POINT OF G E N ITAL S E N S I TI V I TY CONSTI TUTED BY THE VULVAL ORIFICE HAVING ALSO BEEN DEADENED BY THE CAUTERI­ SATI O N . S H E F I N A LLY.Y AND HOUR. IN ORDER TO IN COMBAT C LI TO R A L V A G I N A L.A R TO THOSE S U B M I TT E D TO YOU R CONSIDE RATION. FOU R T I M ES.D R E N·S I MA G I N ATION BY T H E RED H O T I RO N M UST A L.ITOR I S A N D CAUTE RISATION S A T I S FACTO R Y BY HOT IRON ALONE THE GAVE F I RST VUL. THE N U M B E R OF VOLUPTUOUS SPASMS WAS REDUCED TO THREE OR FOUR. WAS ON LY W A S COMPELTELY C U R ED. C A UTERISED U N DERWENT ONE CAUTERISATION.SO B E C O U N T E D A M O N G THE B E N E F I C I A L. THAT TOU C H I NG M A Y P ROVE P A I N F U L RATH E R THAN A SOU RCE OF PL. ARE 36 . O N A N I S M L. M ETHOD. N U M B E R OF T I M E S . THE CL. T H E R E IS NO REASON TO CONCLUDE THEN. A FT E R OPERATION. THAT SHE PERSI STS IN HER A B U S E . H A V I NG BECOME LESS EXCITABLE. X.E THAT. EFFECTS OF TRANSC U RRENT CAUTERISATION. THAT IN CASES S I M I L. A FTER WHICH I LOST SIGHT OF H E R ENTI RELY.ATED BY CATH ERINE DUNCAN D E M ETRIUS ZAMBACO C H I L D R E N . WHICH CAN B E COM PLETELY DESTROYED IF THE OPERATION IS R E PEATED A C E RTA I N SHOULD NOT H ESITATE TO RESORT TO THE HOT I RO N .ESS I N FLA M E D AS A R E S U LT OF THE OPE RATION. A N D T H E I M PRESSION M A D E O N TH E C H I L. IT I S EQU ALL. FROM FORTY T O FI FTY TIMES A DAY. LITTLE Y • . T H A N K S TO T H I S IN ALL. AND AT AN E A R L. R E S U LT S . .. A LSO LESS PRONE TO TOUCH THEMSELVES.VAL.. O R I F I C E H A V I N G BECOME M O R E O R L. ACCOR D I N G TO THE I N FORMA· TION I R E C E I VED. IT IS EASY TO CONCEI VE T H AT T H E TRANSL.EAS U R E . WE BELIEVE TH E N .TH E I N VENTION OF NEW EXPEDI ENTS INSPIRED BY RUSE AND SU BTLETY. T H E T E R RO R PROVOKED BY THE S I G H T O F THE I N STRU M E NTS. OR THAT TH E M ETHOD I S I N E FFECTI VE. ONE IT I S R EASONABLE TO I N FE R THAT CAUTERI SATON BY HOT I RON D I M I N I SHES THE SENSITIVITY OF THE C L I TORIS.

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IS IT POSS I B L E THAT A WOM A N SEEKS TO I L E A V E OCTAVE T O H I S RATIOCINATIONS A N D H I S PRAYERS. THAT H E SHOULD H AVE TH E I NCONC EIV­ ABLE A R R OG A N C E TO I MAGINE H IMSELF THE E X PE R I E NC E A VIOLENT F E E L I NG OF S H A M E J UST B EC A U S E SHE I S R E S PECTA BLE? ITS A POI N T O F V I EW: FOR A L O N G TI M E OCTAVE H A S M A D E I T H I S PA BULUM. I'LL N E V E R TELL H I M T H E T H I NGS R ETROSPECT S I N C E I C A N S E E HOW ATTRACTIVE I M U ST H A V E B E E N TO THOSE TWO I N DI V I D UALS . I HAD T I M E TO KILL B E FO R E R E TU R N I N G TO THE PALAIS B O U R BO N . TH E BR EAKDOWN D I DN'T WOR R Y M E. I ' L L TRY TO TAKE REFUGE I N WORDS SO AS NOT TO H A V E TO TH I N K A BOUT IT D U R I NG THE DAY. J U STI N WHO WAS WAITING FOR ME AT TH E W H E E L OF O U R BUICK ( W H I C H TOOK COULD BE PLACE U N K NOWN T O H I M) : NOTH I N G MORE V U LG A R . NOT EVEN A BATH WAS A N Y H E LP. BUT NOWA DAYS I C A N'T R E S I ST TELLING MYSELF THE STORY OF TH I S OR THAT I N C I D E N T P LE A S U R E IN MY D I SG R A C E AS THOSE WHO I N FLICTED I T ON M E . NO DOUBT: O R AM I I NC I TED BY M Y R E SPECTA B I L I TY TO M A K E IT? I R E M E M B E R THAT I WAS A S H A M E D: WAS M Y VOLUPTU A R Y A N Y T H E L E S S FOR THAT? A N D NOW MY SHAME IS EVEN LESS R E PUGNANT TO ME IN A UTHOR O F M Y I M PROP R I E T I E S I S O N E TH I NG-BUT A S TO CONSI D E R I N G H I MS E L F AT THE ORIGIN OF MY T E M P E R A M E N T . . R U E SCR I B E . BUT E V E N S O A RR A N G E D A N Y A PPOI NTM E NTS I N THE M EA NTI M E . BUT S I NC E THAT COU L D N'T G E T I T TO START. LIKE T H E LAST TIME. A N D. NOT HAVING H A PPENED TO M E A N D K E E P S COM I N G BACK TO ME. THE POOR DEAR HAS NO I D E A WHAT I A M CAPABLE O F WH ITHOUT H I M . AFTER M Y M A N I C U RE. A N D I TA K E (AS I D I D E A R L I E R ) AS M U C H ONCE I WOU L D N E V E R H A V E D R E A M E D OF GOING BACK OVER S U C H THI NGS. I MEAN THOSE DUE TO OCTAVE. . FOR M E SUCH A RESEARC H I S U N R E A L. I J U M PE D O N 38 . T H I S M O R N I N G AT T H E C O M M I S S I O N I WAS D I S T R A I T B E ­ C A U S E OF T H A T . THAT HAVE H A P P E N E D AND STILL COULD HAPPEN TO M E I N ALL L I K E LI H OOD: A NTOI N E WOU LD KNOW A BOUT IT AT ONCE A N D N E V E R S L E E P AGA I N .ROBE RTE'S D I A R Y MAY {CONTI NUEDl 1 954 . . . . NO O N E NOTICED. DOES T H A T M E A N THEY H A V E SOME I M PORTA N C E B EC A U S E OF I T ? SHOULD TH E S A M E T H I N G H A PP E N AGA I N. A N D THOUGH HE GOES TO SO MUCH TROUB L E SU PPOS I N G WHAT H A P P E N S TO ME AND WHAT H E'D LIKE TO SEE M E S U B M ITTED TO. I N A L L HON ESTY I M UST A D M I T I W O U L D NOT R E S I ST. . I W A N T E D TO M A K E T H E MOST OF SUCH A W A R M A N D WON D E R F U L LY S U N N Y A FTERNOON.

A L L T H E S A M E I WAS WEA R I NG T H E ROSETTE O F THE LEGION O F HONO U R I N THE B UTTONHOLE O F MY S U I T. . O R H A D T H E R E B E E N NOTH I N G A L L T H E WAY BUT T H E SOLE I MA G E OF T H O S E P A R A L L E L BARS A N D THE F E A R T H E Y M I GHT R E M A I N FIXED I N VAIN U NTI L T H E E N D OF T H E D A Y ? W H E N H E FOU N D H I MSELF A FTERWARDS O N H I S K N E E S I N FRONT OF ME. CASUA LLY I C RO S S E D THE SQUA R E OF THE T H EAT R E THE OF OWN FO R DREW A SOM ETH I N G QUITE I USUAL M EMBER PA R L I A M ENT. F I N A LLY BOU ND HAND AND FOOT. TOOK M Y FI NGERS. I WAS SEATED. . STOPS T W O O R T H R E E S H O P W I N DOWS AWAY EACH TIME I G LA N C E AT O N E O R OTH E R O F THE D I S P LAYS. DID TH E TWO I M AG E S : ONE OF THE BEAUTIFUL THROUGH THE H A L F . . STA I RCASE! PERCEIVING A N E X I T T O THE ABOVE G I V I N G ON TO THE RUE D E B E A UJOLA I S NO DOU BT. AT LIPS A S LEAST MY I HIS REGARD BEC A M E MORE C H A NGE PLACES A N D S I T I N S I D E " . B EG I N N I N G WITH THAT FURTIVE BUT I R R E S I STA BLE P R E S S U R E . H A V I N G S A T DOWN OPPOSITE. A L MOST DAZED. A WAS BEING FOLLOWED. . FOR ME. BEGAN SC RUTI N I Z I N G ME IN AN I NSOL E N T FASHION. AS HE DI DN'T STOP LOOKI N G A T M E. D I D THEY C O I NC I D E T O T H E POI NT OF S U BSTITUTION. A N D A S M I LE O N M Y LI PS FEELING THE WARM B R E EZ E THROUGH THE LOW E R E D W I N DOW. U N D E R T H E A RCADES A L MOST LI K E DESERTED ECHO AT THAT MY HOUR. WHEN A SUGGESTIVE PRESSURE FORCED ME TO LEGS APART P E R H A PS. WHEN I HAD BEEN E LABORATING T H A T SEN SATION. I LOOK F I N E. T H E N . THAT FATAL DOOR AJAR ON THE S H A DOWY FLOOR E M PTY S EAT. BUT THE 39 . I H A D ATTRACTED HIM. FACE? H A V I NG THEN FOLLOW I N G CLOSE E NOUGH O N M Y H E ELS TO WATCH ME STROLL AHEAD OF HIM U N D E R THE "CONTACTED" M U ST H A V E L E S S TH A N A N HOU R LATE R I F I N D M Y S E L F SITTING O U TS I D E TH E REGENCY C A FE . P E R F E C T T Y P E OF POL I C E GALLERY D E BEAUJOLA I S . WHERE C A N T H E N E W BLOUSE SHOP B E THAT GI LBE RTE T O L D M E A BOUT? F I N A LLY I PASS U N D E R THE V A U LT O F THE G A L L E R Y D E BEAUJO­ LAIS: IT M U ST BE T H E R E. PASSI N G THROUGH THE ENTRY OF THE P A L A I S. T H E OTH E R O F T H E S A M E WOMAN S U S P E N D E D A N D TIED. M I STA K I N G THE SHOP­ THIS ONE I S U N D E RGOING T R A N S FO R MATION-THE I N D I V I D U A L FOLLOWS M E IN. I T W A S W H I LE. THE CLEA N-SHAV E N . I ROSE AND GOT OUT AT TH E TH EA T R E F R A N C A I S . PASSAGE A S SOON A S I TRY TO LEAVE. THE GLASS DOOR. WHO WAS T A L K I NG T O TH E COND UCTOR AT F I R ST. R I S E A N D GO TO THE WASH ROOM. D I D I CONTI N U E TO S M I L E WITH HALF-OPEN I NT E N T? LEGS. W H A T.ROYAL.S H O P OPPOSITE T O SEE THAT TH E R E COULD B E NO STO P P I N G FOR HIM UNTIL THE DESCENT I N TO THE B A S E M E NT. FRANCA I S. POW E R LESS.F R O S T E D P A N E A N YT H I N G U N U S U A L THAT M IG H T H A P P E N IN TH E E M PTY SHOP. NOW TH E P L E A S U R E B E G I N S . A R M R A I S E D . FOOTSTEPS C LO S E R : OF DECIDED TO G ET OUT. A N D SO ON UNTIL REACHING TH E V A U LT OF THE K I N D O F L A R G E COLOSSUS. I SET OFF DOWN THE I M M EDIATELY CROSSED M Y FOLDED H A N DS. THE HIS BACK AGAI NST BARS MY COLOSS U S U N K NOWN WOM A N W I TH T H E ROSETTE. MY TEM PLES A RCADES OF TH E PALAIS.TH E PLATFO R M OF TH E F I R S T BUS. I PULLED OFF TH E ROSETTE A N D HID IT I N MY BAG. I N FACT. I PUSH OPEN A G L A S S DOOR. I NCONC E I VABLE A N D TH E R E FO R E A L L TH E MORE I M PERIOUS FOR HIM . . EXTENDING IT TO M Y WHOLE BODY W H I C H H E W A S CONSCIOUS OF. THE C O LOS S U S . A N D I R E M E M B E R. . HE POU N D I NG. A N D LEANT OUT WATC H I NG IN A K I N D O F D R E A M THE SHOPS GO BY. THAT THE STOOD ON T H E PLATFORM OF T H E B U S . M Y BACK AGAI NST THE R A I L. BUT AT TH I S S A M E MOMENT T H E I N D I V I D U A L W A L K S PAST M E . A N OT H E R MAN A PPEA RS. . TH ROUGH A DOOR A T T H E REAR. I N D I V I D U A L. MY POSS I B L E POSITIONS IN T H E I M P E N D I NG SITU ATION WHICH HE KNEW WAS U N PRECEDE NTED FOR ME. H I S H A N D ON T H E K NOB. OF MEDIUM H E I GHT. S Q U A T I N S H I RT S L EEVES. I T R I E D TO M A K E A DASH FOR IT. NO ONE G I V E S I T A THOUGHT. TO T H E R I G H T. O R W E R E T H E Y S U F F I C I E NT L Y C O N T R A D I CT O R Y T O PROVO K E SORRY TH E E M OT I O N ONCE T H A T C O N TO R T E D GOT OFF THE HIS BUS. H A V I NG TH E EPI D E R M US OF M Y F I N G E RS. I RETURN TO THE TERRACE AND RECA PITULATE. H E H A D FOUND I T N EC E S S A R Y TO TOUCH MY FINGERS AND AFTER PI M P. I T WA S THEN I G A L L E R Y D E MONTPE N S I E R . ALTHOUGH IT I S QUITE POSSI B L E FOR PEOPLE PASSING O R STOPPING I N F RO N T OF THE BOOK. H A N D LYING ON THE BALUSTRADE. M Y H A N D S A R E T R E M B L I N G N O DOUBT AND THE WAITER ASKS M E AT ONCE IF I'M ALL R I GHT. B U T H E . A T T H I S POI N T LET M E TRY TO I MA G I N E EACH STAGE O F T H E I N D I V I D U A L'S ITI N ER A RY. WALKED I NTO T H E PALA I S-ROYA L. T H E SECON D M A N STA N DS A S I D E A N D L E A V E S TH E I N N E R D O O R A J A R . I HAD GONE INSIDE AND CHOSEN AN SQUAT M A N LOO M E D U P TH ROUGH T H E R E A R DOOR. THE FAT. . CONSIDER MYSELF I N THE M I R ROR: N O N E E D TO PUT ON N E W M A KE-UP. H E WAS CON S I D E R I N G M Y H A N D O N T H E KNOB W H I C H HE PREVENTED ME FROM OPE N I NG. TO THAT MOMENT WHEN TH E ONLY T H I N G HE COULD DO WAS TO COR N E R ME I N T H E EM PTY SHOP. I S M I LE. BOTH H A N D S LYING ON T H E LEATH ER. T H E T W O E X C H A N G E A CON N I V I NG LOOK. ST U D Y I N G THE MOV E M E N T O F MY H I PS. WHAT A RAPID AND AT THE HAVE SAME TI M E D E TA I L E D INSIDE HIS SCEN A R I O M U ST U N WO U N D SKULL . DO I H A V E AGAI NST T H E M ? I F T H E Y G O T A P I TI F U L P L E A S U R E .

WITHOUT SHOW I N G A N Y I NTEREST O B V I O U S LY . TO TH I N K THAT A MOMENT AGO I WAS STROLLING L E I S U R E LY BETWE E N TH E OPERA A N D T H E TH EA T R E F R A NC A I S W H I L E H E R E THOSE BARS W E R E WAITI N G FOR M E l SO TH A T NOW. WHIRR ON TH E C E I LING. A S IF O U R B R E A TH I NG R E PLAC ED ANY WORDS WE COULD EXCHANGE H E R E. OR S L U M P RATH E R . EYES CLOSED. HE R I PS OFF MY SKIRT HIS AGAIN. A BRACELET O N T H E L E FT WRIST.U P. . TH ROWS M E OVER H I S SHOU LDER. RECEIVES W H I C H TH E R E I S NO STOPPING M E T I LL H A V E NO STRENGTH L E FT . LI FTS M E . STI LL B E L I E V I N G I T POSSI B L E T O ESCAPE. I TURN MY H E A D AWAY . . I CAN STI L L K I C K: MY A N KLES ARE SPREAD AND S U C H A B U S Y QUA RTER-BUT WOM E N L I K E M E WHO WERE ON THE "CHA RITY FRONT. RUN MY H A N DS OVER THOSE PARALLEL BARS THEN. H I S ARM GOES ROU N D M Y L E G S . "PUT O U T T H E LIGHTS T H E N. C E RTA I N LY T H E LEAST PLEASANT MOMENT IN W H A T I C A NNOT EVEN CA LL A NIGHTMARE. THEN. A N D I AM A L MO S T GLAD TO SEE IN THE SECOND MAN BOY. A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E INSIN UATE HI MSELF U NDER MY S K I RT IN TWO U N K NOWN MEN MYSELF GO AT L A ST. THE OTH E R MAN WHO HAD PRECEDED HIM WAS A L R E A DY RETURN. SCREAM. I NT E L L I G E N T E X P R ESSION. SPI R A L STA I R C A S E T O T H E BASEM ENT. SO AROUND"-SO LONG AS WE ATTACH E D TO T H E EXTRE M I TI E S OF T H E V E RTICAL B A R S A N D ALL THAT I N S I L E NC E. A SILENCE M A D E OF M Y O W N M U T I S M I N ACCORDANCE WITH T H E TWO M E N . T H E COLOSS U S AS A RE R E M A I N SO-WE C A N O N LY R E M A I N S I L E NT. THAT OCCASION IS STI L L N E IT H E R MORE NOR LESS THAN TH E BOW OF M Y R E F L ECTION DRAWN OVER THIS 40 . THAT PARTI C U L A R OCCASION OF F E E L I N G R E A LLY M Y S E L F FROM THE M O M E N T W H E N I E M BA R K E D ON T H E A DV E N T U R E I N T H E B U S UNTI L T H A T OTH E R MOMENT I N THE BASEMENT WHEN I OUT HIS TONG U E W H I C H MOVES BACKWA RDS A N D FOR W A R D S IN A M I S E R A B L E A TTE M PT A N D ONLY SLOWLY SUCC E E D S I N TOUCH I NG MY OPEN PALM. WH E R E T H E Y H A D B E E N S O F I R M LY T I E D . . I SAW H I M CROUCH. SWEATI NG. PASSES TH E M BETW E E N HIS LIPS A N D D ELICATELY SAVOURS EACH N A I L." WOMEN LIKE M E W H O A R E NOW AT T H E CONTROLS OF T H E NATION. SLOWLY. H I TT I N G MYSELF I N FRONT O F THOSE WHAT A R E L I E F IT I S LETTING BESIDE MYSELF WITH T H E COLOSSUS I N T H E FAC E W I T H MY B A G . • . MY CLAMMY H A N DS E X H A L E THE P E R F U M E OF T H E I R C R E A M I N TH E S T U F F Y A I R D E S P I T E THE V E N T I L A TO R S . WHAT ELSE COULD A WOM A N DO IN SUCH A SITUATION? • • . • MY FINGER-PRI NTS? A PPROACH E S H I S MOUTH TO O N E OF M Y TIED H A N DS A N D. THE COLOSSUS H A S COLLAPSED. A LO N E . . W E L L K E PT. C A L L FOR AN WHICH I NVESTIGATION? BECA USE O F T H I S C A R D R E P R OD U C E S . TH E R E IN THE M I DDLE OF A PHYSICAL C U LT U R E S E T. H E T U R N S AWAY W H I L E I READJUST M Y S K I RT. AS THE V E N T I LATOR B E G A N TO C R E W. A N D I . ." I SAY IN A VOIC E NO LONG E R M Y OWN. THATS A NOTHE R MATTER. AT LAST THIS TONGU E SETTLES TH E R E AND B EG I N S ITS TITI LLATIONS MORE A N D MORE RAPIDLY. OC C U P I E D . SNATCH T H E M AWAY. BRI NGS HIS H A N D DOWN ON MY FINGERS A S T H E Y G R I P T H E B A L U S T R A D E . H A N DS PUTS TO HIS FOOT ON IT. T I E D BY THE W R I STS. . SLAP: I FLINCHI NG. . GOES TO FIND M Y BAG AND RETU R N S TO G I V E IT TO M E. T H E SIGHT OF THOSE PA R A L L E L BARS EQU I P P E D WITH LEATH E R STRA PS . THE FLOOR SHONE FANS WITH A L I NO L E U M A N D. . I OPEN TH E MY EYES. REELING HE AND PUTS I NC A PA B L E C. UNDER THE WHIRR OF T H E FANS ON THE C E I L I NG. . IN V A I N I A TT E M PT TO LIFE MY K N E E TO FOU N D M Y S E LF S U S P E N D E D A N D AROUSED. DISTURB TH E WHOLE B U I LDING-IN BUST O R R E MOVING T H E C O A T OF MY G R E Y SU IT. T H E SOU N D O F A D U L L TH U D AT M Y FEET. THE N A I LS P E R F ECT AND USE­ IN MY RETURNS W I T H OUT AFTER HIS P OC K E T S A N OT H E R AND. TIED FOR U P. H A I R. MAN TAKES HIM HIM U N D E R TH E S HOUL­ AWAY. THE WHOLE M OV E M E NT SO U N E X PECTED AND SQUAT AND THAN DERS MOR E DRAGS A STAGG E R I N G I P R E C I P I TATE I H A V E TO SAVE M YSELF B Y H A N G I N G ON TO T H E N A P E OF H I S N E C K W I T H BOTH H A N DS­ A N D T H E N T H E D I ZZY DESC E N T WITH ME BY T H E M I N U TE STAY T H E R E . H A V I N G TA K E N L E A N I NG B R E A TH . .SQUA T M A N WAS WAITI NG FOR ME ON THE STA I RS. H A N DS LEVEL POCKET-FA I R P U SH I NG O P E N THE H E AVY STEE L DOOR G I V I N G ON TO A N EON-LIGHTED ROOM W I T H GLEA M I NG W A L LS. T U R N DOWN AGA I N AND-TWO STEPS FROM THE BACK­ HIDE THE I R RESISTABLE E FFECTS ON MY THIGH. O F F E R I N G ME A G LASS OF BRANDY. GRABBING A H A N DFUL O F THIGH. . BUT TH E LIGHT STAYS ON A N D . H I S S H I RT I S I M PECCABLY WHITE A N D HIS H A NDS. WITH A G ESTU R E . SOON I CAN CONTROL MYSELF NO LON G E R . . STI L L DETE R M I N ED T O DEFEND MYSELF. D U R I NG WHICH TIME THE SQUAT MAN E X H I BITS A CARD OSTENTATIOUSLY AND SLIPS IT I NTO M Y BAG. I ABANDON . B U T I SLAPPED HIM.C U T EYES. . . BETW E E N S U S P E N D E R BELT A N D FLESH. A G A I NST THE BA R. P L E A S U R E U N D E R T H E I R EYES I N THAT I M POSSIBLE POSITION. W H A T NONSENSE! BUT TO RETURN O N E OF T H E S E DAYS TO THAT PLACE. . WOM E N LONG LIKE WE ME WHO H A V E "BEEN B E A UTIFUL. WHICH HE NOW TAKES O U T OF HIS ENORMOUS OF POC K ETS T O U NT I E M E . M Y S K I RT I S U N HOOKED A N D T H E REST TAK E N O F F . HE U N FO L D S AND R E T U R N T O T H E "SO U RCE"? H A R DLY WORK ENOUGH FOR THE RUE DE SAUSSAIES TO KEEP THAT ST R A IGHTE N S M Y F I N G E R S. LESS . AS I C LOS E MY F I ST. ROOM OF TH E SHOP-THE MOME NT COMES W H E N .

CROSSROADS R U E SCR I B E-OPERA. 6. WATCH ON ROBE RTE'S W R I ST. 5. TH E CAR IN PAN SHOT FROM ROBERTE. ROBERTE GETS OUT SLOWLY IN H E R TURN. THE C H A U FF E U R .LAZY AFTERNOON. LONG SHOT. S EQUENCE OF TH E PARALLEL BARS (SHOT LIST BY P I E R R E KLOSSOWSKI MADE ROUND 1 966 FOR AN I M AG I N A R Y FILM) 1. 4. WHAT A DELICIOUS CROISSANTI HOW SOOT H I N G THE PLAY OF THE F O U N TA I N S P I E R RE KLOSSOWS K I TRANSLATION BY CATHERI N E D U N C A N UNDER TH E P LA N E TREESI HOW EXQ U I S ITE THE CITY AS IT GLIDES BYI TAKEN F R O M THE REVOCATION OF T H E EDICT OF NAN TES. 2. 41 . LIFTS THE BON N ET. 3. FRONT OF PALA I S BOU R BON (HOUSE OF PARLI AMENTI. GETS OUT. JUSTI N.

AND E N J OY I NG T H E COM P A N Y O F MONASTICS. I S N O LESS I N DI C A T I V E AS A C H A RACTE R I ST I C TRAIT OF ITS B E N E F I C I A L. NOT A B L Y A N E N G R A V I N G OF KOU N I ­ YOS H I . N I N E . LATER. O N E H U N D R E D M E N C O U L D N O T L I FT IT. H E L PF U L. AROUN D ALWAYS WHICH THE OCTO P U S ' ONE THUS E X P L A I N S W I T H O U T DOU BT T H E EQU I V A L E NT ROLE W H I C H T H E OCTO P U S S E E M S TO PLAY I N B U D DH I S M . IT WAS SAVED. T H E O R D E R O F TH E YA K U.N AGA ARE WITH LEGENDARY ITS M E N WHO C A RRY T H E TE. ARMS. J I . B U D D H A THE H E A L E R OF SOULS AND THE GOD OF WISDOM. PROVI D E A N E L E G A N T I L L U STRATION OF A SIGNI FICANT CHANGE. T O T H E P L A C E O F T H E T R A D I TI O N A L S H RI M P . W H I C H B R I N G S T O M I N D H I S S O L E N O U R I S H M E NT. THREW A SMALL N A T U R E .DO.LO N G S H O U L D E R S . E N G R A V I NG O F HOKOUSAi.K A K U DAi-SHI T H E N B U I LT A T E M P L E AT M EG U RO. FIGU R E D ASCETIC OCTOPUS LOV I N G L Y E M B R A C I N G T H E B E L L W I T H ITS SIN UOUS TENTACLES. I T S S E N S U A LITY.R A i . K I YO. W H O SOU G H T T H E I M M O D EST A D V A N C E S OF T H E M O N K A N -C H I . T H E Y TH E M S E L V E S H A V E LEGS S E V E N METERS LONG. I N V A I N . IT F E L L A N D THUS I M PR I S O N E D THE S A I NTLY MAN. PLAYS O N T H E 42 .H I M E TR I ED T O B R E A K T H E M ET A L W I T H H I S M A G I C W A N D AND MAKE I T M E LT B Y E X H A L I N G ON I T W I T H HIS F L A M I NG B R E A T H . AN MONASTERY. W H I C H S E R V E D A S A C A S E FOR TH E R ELIC.T H E OCTO P U S I N J A P A N THE OCTO P U S AT IS U S U A LLY CONS I D E R E D T O B E PROTECTOR O N T H E OTH E R H A N D. TH E S E N S U A L I T Y OF T H E C R E A T U R E A P P E A R S I N THE MOST EXPLICIT MANNER WHICH IN A FAMOUS TENTACLES ARE W R APPED. T H E A S H I .S H I NYO.H I M E. I T WAS C H A NGED I N TO A SORC E R E R W I T H A H U M A N H E A D A N D A D R A GON'S IN THE SAME WAY. TH I N KS OF TH E OCTO P U S A S F R I ENDLY.NAGA. A LITTLE LIKE THE PRINCE OF THE G R E E KS. THE P R IEST SIX HID ON THE BELL OF THE S C U LPTED STA T U E I N T H E I M A G E O F TH I S D I V I N ITY (WITH WHICH HE H A D N E V E R PA RTED) I NTO TH E SEA DURING A T E M PEST.S H I IN T H E WOODS. OF HIS ONE OF IS THE THE PRINCIPLE WITH AN AND S E R P E N T' S BODY. W H E R E H E E R ECTED A L A RG E STATU E OF Y A K U . C L E A R L Y TH I S IS V E R I F I E D IN T H E L E G E N D O F TH E B E A U TI F U L A N D L I C E N T I O U S K I Y O.M ET E R . LIKE A NOTH E R GIANT M ESSENGERS OCTO P U S ON RYU-J I N H E A D. ON TH E I R TH I S CONSTANT L I A I SO N WITH SA LAC IOUSNESS M A N Y WORKS. F E E T H I G H A N D SO H EA V Y T H A T OCTO P U S C A R R I E D I T TO J A P A N A N D SET I T DOWN ON THE COAST O F H I R A . K E N-SU SOM ETI M E S C A R R I E S I T O N H I S S H O U L D E R S .

S H A R E S T H E I D E N T I TY WITH W H I C H I T I S I NVESTED BY THE E AST. THE ARTIST HAS PUT TO USE OBJECT I V E D E S C R I PT I O N OF OCTO P U S M A T I N G L U B R I C ITY W H I C H COM E S FROM T H E C O N S I STENCY AND CONFIGURATION OF THE C REATURE." IS I N C O N S I STENT W I T H CONVOLUTED AND AWKWAR D HORROR I S S U RELY E L I C I T E D B Y T H E S PECTACLE! YET TH E A RTI ST'S I N S I ST E N C E IS V I S I B L Y TO G I V E THE I M PRESSION OF ECSTASY PROC U R E D BY A T H E O B SC U R E L Y STATE M E NTS THAT THE A UTHOR." THE L A SC I V I O U S N ESS O F THE FLI RTATIOUSN ESS TENTACLES. R ESTR A I N E D B Y VICTOR I A N DECO R U M . SHE MAKES H E RS E L F EACH OTH E R . THERE IS NO ACCO R D I NG TO THE A N C I ENTS. OCTOPUS ARE IN N O SENSE C O N C L U S I O N S DRAWN 43 . OPPI E N . T H E Y C A N H A R D L Y B E PERC E I V E D A S ANYTH I NG B UT D I S M A L. TH E Y AVOID. ITS FLESH WAS AN APHRODISIAC. T H E Y S W I M TOGETH ER. ONE O F TH ESE TENTACLES. W H O STATES THAT T H E MALE C LI N G S TO HIS D E L I G H T U NT I L HE D I E S OF PLEASU R E AND E X H A USTION. . ONE LEADI NG. I N THE 1 6TH CENTURY. A C C O R D I N G TO LATE R OBSE RVATI O N S . THESE C R E A T U R E S . HOKOUSAI THI NGS H A PP E N OTH E RWISE. S H E LIGHTS AND U P. SUCH DEGREE H ECTOCOTY LE. T H E C LOS E N E S S AND I N T I M A TE. MALE PROFFERS I T TO THAT O N E DOES NOT KNOW W H ET H E R S H E IF LIVING O R DROW N E D . TENTACLES WA N D E R . OR TO BE O R T R U N K WITH TH E S U R FE I T OF THEY PRESS MOUTH AGA I NST MOUTH. EDMON D D E GONCOURT HAS S U C C E SS F U L LY OF THE C A PT U R E D WOMAN TO IN THE A E C STATIC SWOON A OF SWELLS AT T H E M O M E N T O F EXCITATION: O U T O F THE A R M . I T IS CLEAR THAT IN THE M ATTER OF LASC I VIOUSNESS. EXPLO R E S A N D S U C K S W I TH H I S EIGHT ARMS AND SUCKERS. IN FACT. T H E Y A R E D E D U C E D F R O M T H E N U M B E R O F TENTAC L E S A N D T H E A R R A Y O F S U C KERS W H I C H C H A RACT E R ­ IZE TH E S P E C IE S (MOLLUSK). T H E OCTOPU S ETCH E D BY THE ASIATIC B E LONGS TO T H E S P EC I E S D E SC RI B E D BY T H E M E D I T E R RA N E A N OPPI E N . C A R ES S E S A M ORO U S R E LA T I O N S O F T H E OCTO P U S ENTW I N E S . S U C H EXCRESC E N C E S S E V E R E D I N T H I S STATE A N D PRESERVED I N J A RS I N T H E M U S E U M O F N A TU R A L H I STORY I N P A R I S . I MYSELF FOU N D NO A V I D I TY TO THE F R E E LI PS OFFER I NG T H E M S E LVES. S E E M TO D E ST I N T H E S E IN FACT. F U RT H E R M O R E . IN ANTIQU I TY. ACCO R D I NG TO THE A UTHOR. . CO N S I D E R E D DWELLERS. H UGO ITS IT OF WAS WAS SEA FA R "TH I S E M BRACE A N D V I RTUALLY NO CONTACT BETW E E N THEM. THE ARE SUCTION. IS S I M U LT A N E O U S L Y I N HIS WORK ON HOKOUSAi. POCKET BY THIS AMBIGUOUS PROCESS THE OCTOP U S H E R BODY A N D T H E FOLDS OF H E R M A NTLE. WHILE A L L BOD I E S TO I N D ICATIONS E N TW I N E . TO M A N . S H E GLOWS . T H E OC TOPUS. T H E TERM " D E SC R I PTION. S H E PA LLIAL PLACES A IT H E R S E L F W I TH I N H E R SITUATED BETW E E N CAVITY. IT S E E M S THAT T H E R I G H T TH I R D A R M O F T H E M A L E OCTO P U S PA RT N E R W H O S E CONTACT F E L T I N SO M A N Y PLACES. USES TO CONVEY THE I D E A OF TH E S E S E X U A L Y E T EXTRAOR D I N A R I L Y ASCETIC RELATIONS. IS G L U E D G R E E D I LY TO T H E SEX ORGAN OF ITS CONSENTING WHILE HE AND NO DOUBT AND GRATI F I E D PREY. M U LT I P L E . THE MALE IS DRAWN UP ON HIS BEAUTI FU L. W I THOUT E V E N R E A CH I NG T H E N E C K A N D SHOUL­ DERS. IN THIS FASHION. ITS APPLIES HORNY I TS BEAK MOUTH. I F N O T T O S A Y TH EY FLEE. W H O A C C E PTS I T A N D C A R R I E S IT A W A Y WITH H E R . FROM IN AND THE THE THAT THE CREATURE MOST 1 9TH BY L A SC I V I O U S C EN T U R Y. WHAT BEFORE T H E O N E B Y H E N R Y LEE. E M P H A S I Z E D THE OCTOPUS' U N C T UO U S I M M O D E STY: IN JAPAN. A R M AGA I N ST ARM. AT T H E BACK OF W H I C H THE G E N I TA L ORIFICES O P E N U P. THE A R M S CLOSE U PON THE BODY O F T H E B E LO V E D IN A L A SC I V IO U S WEB. I N F A C T .M O L L U S K'S CA PACITI E S FO R E M B RA C I N G AND FROM OBSERVATION: A L MOST E XC L U S I V E LY. M U TU A L CONTACT THAT TH E I R S U C K E R S WOU L D PERM IT. FEMALE. T H I S D E P I C T I O N IS PURELY IMAGI NARY. THE HECTOCOTYLE COM ES BACK TO L I F E TO FERTI LIZE THE EGGS. T H E F E M A L E RESTS ON A ROCK OR O N THE SAND. A S L E E H A D WELL OBSERVED. SICUT CADAVER. T H E D I STANCE WHICH S E P A RATES T H E PARTNERS IS FORGOTTEN V ICTOR HAS THAT LOATH SOM E R E LA T I O N S . A LD R OV A N I R E C A L L E D THAT. A K I N O OF ELONGATED WORM E M E R G E S WITH A FILAMENT THE AT THE END: TH I S IS THE THE EXPRESSION PLEASU R E . W H O POSSESS T H E M O S T H I G H LY PER FECTED E Y E S I N THE A N I M A L K I NGDOM. 0 0 N O T EVEN L OO K A T FEMALE RADI ATES PHO RESCENT G LOW A T T H E M O M E N T O F I N I TIATION: "SHE A W AITS U NION. E XC E E D I N G L Y C H A STE. B E TW E E N T H E T H I G H S O F A RECLI N I NG WOMA N . THERE. " C R EA T U R E THE P A S S I O N ATE A PHOS­ K E PT A S W I D E A S POS S I B LE. LEE STA T E S . T H E E N IGMATIC A N D OBSC U R E TEXT S E E M S T O H A V E K NOWN N O CON F I R M ATION. T H E TH I R D O N TH E RIGHT S I D E . ONE FOLLOW ING. WHERE IT FINDS RELIEF AND LETS I TS A R I STOTLE O F F E R S A S U M M A R Y DESC R I PTION O F THE M A T I N G O F OCTO P I : TIGHTLY I N T E RTWI N E D . DEPICTED I T PREVA I L I NG O N A S L E E P I NG WOM A N . O N E CAN SEE. TH E R E IS A LSO A S M A LLER OCTOPUS W H I C H MORE EXACT.

PULLING THE MALE A LONG BY HIS THIRD ARM. A FISH THE LAT E R A L L Y A P PROAC H E D (SEEMI NGLY ATTACK "TH E FEMALE SLIPPED UNDER A ROCK. Z. SUCH I S WHAT I S SHOWN. THE A N I M A L DOVE BACK DOWN I NTO ITS HOLE. COLOR. B E I N G M A D E THROUGH A D I V I NG M A S K . TH E TWO LOVERS LOOK L I K E SENTI N E LS HORN-L I K E TO P S OF AT ATTENTION. TH E MOVE A W A Y . A LSO FROM A C R A N N Y. I N THE DRAWING WHICH ACCO M P A N I E S THE STUDY ON THE MATING AND F E R T I L I ZATION BY E. A FT E R S E V E R A L M I N UT E S R E A P P E A R E D . T H E M A L E STI L L FOLLOW I NG . THEY ARE DESPONDANT. J . T H E R E PRODUCTI VE ORGA N W ITH WHICH TH E TENTAC LE IS EQUI PPED I NT R O D U C E S OF THE ITSELF W I TH I N T H E B U T WITHOUT SOM EWHAT DINGY W H ITE. PROTR U S I O N S TH E I R ONE H EA DS. AT T H E TOP OF HIS HEAD. M I NUTES. THE THE R E ST WAS REPLACES O N E SECTION OF T H E SUCKERS. T H E ARM P U L L E D BACK . "NO MOVEMENT W A S V I S I BL E ON T H E THIRD A R M . I N SUCH A W A Y THAT A LL THAT R E M A I N E D TH E R E WERE SOM E TRANSVERSAL S POTS. RESERVED AND DI L I G E NT. THE S K ETC H E S W E R E DRAWN V E RTIC LE STRI PES ON T H E R I G H T S I D E R E M A I N E D STRONGLY M A R K ED. DARK ST R I P E S PALLI A L CAVITY F E M A LE. A N D H E R A R M S T U R N ED TOWA RD IT. UP TO THE HEAD. AT LEA ST. H E EXTE N D E D H I S TH I R D R IGHT A R M A N D I NTRODU C E D I T I NTO T H E F E M A LE'S M A NTLE-AT A D I STA NCE O F A LTE R E D A R M D E POSITS C E RTAIN SPERM-FI LLED CAPSULES IN THE A PPROPRIATE POC K ET. H I S TH I R D A R M WAS A G A I N EXTE N D E D A N D 44 . B ROWN SPOTS WITH TRANSVER­ S A L STR I PE S APPEARED ON HER A R M S . NOTH ING COU L D APPEA R MORE S I N I ST E R . A BOUT V E RTICLE STR I PES. A T OTH E R M O M ENTS. THE COLO R I NG TU R N E D A DARK BROWN A RO U N D THE A PPEARANCE B R I L L I A NT V E RT I C A L STR I PE S. T H E F E M A L E D R E W A W A Y . TH E OCTOPUS COU PLE WAS WATCHED FOR A H A LF HOUR AT A D E PTH O F SEV E R A L FEET IN A CORAL REEF. A FTE R A FEMALE). NOTAB L Y ON THE R IGHT SIDE. THE A T N U M E RO U S T I M E S . WH I L E THE ESSENTI A L L I N E S O F J . H E K E PT H I S H E A D ER ECT. D I S A P P E A R E D COMPLETELY FROM H I S LEFT S I D E . YOUNG'S OBSERVATION MERIT R ECOUNTING. FROM HER. T H E F E M A L E CONTI N U E D T O OBSERVATION. O F TH E COMMON R A C O V I TZA IN OCTO P U S PROM I NA N T N O D E S . N O D E S A LSO A P P E A R E D ON THE SKIN O F T H E ARMS A N D M ANTLE. I BEGAN MY "TH E N . BEHIND T H E CAVITY. SOMETI M E S VERY C L E A RLY. FROM O U TW A R D THE A M A LE. I LEAVE THE A UTHOR O F T H E R E PORT TO SPEAK FOR H I MSELF: "TH E MALE WAS NOTI C E D B Y PROFESSOR S U RGEON. OF A FT E R THE A N EW AND BRIEF BACK SIDE O F EACH A R M . THE M A LE'S COLO R ATION THE S T R I P E S LUDIC ROUS. A D E E P B ROWN STRI P E WAS A LSO VISIBLE ON HIS M A NTLE. "THE M A LE ROSE OUT O F ITS HOLE. I N 1 962. S E T OFF M O R E OR LESS. FROM T H E BACKG R O U N D. I M M EDI ATELY UPON C L I M B I N G O U T O F T H E WATER. F E W I N STA NTS. T H E M A L E A LSO STOPPED. WITH GROWING OUT OF THE SEEM EVEN MORE AS F E M A L E A LSO SHOWED A T C E R T A I N M O M E NTS. Z . F E M A L E A P P E A R E D T H E N . M IGHT "TH E Y R E M A I N E D I N T H I S POSITION F O R A PPROXI­ MATELY T E N C H ANGED. G. S U RGEON D U R I NG A DIVE N E A R SI NGAPORE. MEASU RED. 40. B R IGHTLY COLORED BAND A LO N G THE E DG E OF TH E APPEARED R U N N I NG 50 C M . A STR I K I NGLY MARKED BY W H E R E U PO N T H E F E M A LE C A M E TO A STA N DSTI L L I N A C REVASSE. GLOWED. A N D ANOTH E R IN THE M I DDLE OF TH E M A NT L E . THE ''THE M A L E K E PT T H E F E M A L E W I TH I N T H E V I S U A L F I E L D O F H I S RIGHT EYE. ABOUT 60 C M . T H E O B S E R V A T I O N W A S U N I NT E R R U PTED. NO NODU LE A PPEARED A BO V E THE E Y ES. . MALE ROCK BETW E E N THE V E RT I C L E S T RI PE S .60 C M . S LOWLY ENOUGH. AFTER T H E Y H A D GO N E A BOUT T H R E E METERS. 1 5. A N D T H E M A L E FOLLOWED H E R STI L L K E EPING H E R W I T H I N THE F I E L D O F V I SION O F H I S R I G H T E Y E . HIS HEAD RISING UP V E RTICALLY FI RST. THE C A PSULES OPEN A N D FERTILIZATION I S COM PLETED. TH E WORK WAS C A R R I E D OUT WITH PROFESSOR R.IS A LT E R E D : A SPOON-S H A P E D DEPR ESSION EYES. T H E SKIN FOR M E D STRANGE LOO K I N G BECOM I NG DETACHED. YOU NG P U B L I S H E D SKETCHES OF THE STAGES OF T H E SEXUAL M A TI N G DANCE AND RESTED O N R E TA I N E D THE A H IS THIRD ARM. THEN. . H E WAS COM I N G OUT O F A C R A NNY IN THE CORAL. S H E R E A P PE A R E D ON TH E OTH E R S I D E . P E R H A PS . WHICH THE COPULATION O F T H E OCTOPUS HORRIDUS. A WHITISH THEM. W H E N W E EXTENDED O U R HANDS. A FTER FIVE M I N UTES. I N TH I S FASHION. THOUGH NOT AS M A R K E D L Y A S BEFORE.2 0 CM. WHEN THE F E M A LE RELEASES H E R EGGS. OBT A I N E D 1 894. TO A H E IGHT OF T H E Y COV E R E D A P PROX I M A T E L Y 2 0 M ET E R S . A N D. BUT EXTENDING FEW TO A R MS. D E SCR I B E T H E M C A R N I VALESQUE DEVI LS. A N D I W A S A B L E TO MOVE C O M P LETELY A RO U N D THE COUPLE WITHOUT D I ST U R B I NG TH E M .

F I RST I D I E NTIFI E D I T A S A P A R A S ITIC WOR M . TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE. IN HIS LETT E R S TO LOU. [LARGU E l ORGA N S A R E AT THE OPPOSITE EXT R E M E F R O M T H E H U M A N CONC E PTION OF S E N S U A LITY. THE PART OF EITHER OF THE TWO. W A R M A N D LOOSELY C U R V E D. I N THE CASE O F THE PA PER NAUTILUS. IT I S FOU N D MORE THA N ONCE IN THE POE M S ROBER CAI LLOIS TRANSLATED BY L I N DA McNEIL AND M A RGA RET McGAW ON THE BA LCONY BOTH G I R LS WERE WATC H I N G THE SWALLOWS FLY: ONE PALE." HE DEFINES TH E M IN TH E USURPA­ FOLLOW I N G SHELL. OCTO P U S WHICH IN A COULD BE D E FI N E D AS AN SIONS OF THE DR. IN THE LISTLESS DARK OF TH E I R AS DRAM ATIC AS THE THRONE OF A QUEEN. P A U L VERLA I N E STAN DING THE R E . HOWEV E R . HA I R BLACK: THE OTHER BLOND THE STRANGE G I RL-COU P L E THAT LOOKS I N PITY ON THE OTHER COU PLES: DREAMING ON THE B A LCONY STOOD THE GIRLS. SO M A N Y LITHE A R M S A N D A V I D MOUTHS. M A N'S M I SCONSTRUED THE NATU R E OF THE COU PL I NG OF THESE ORG A N I S M S SO WELL EQUIPPED FOR AN RECITED TRAGE D I A N S (TR AGIC A D M I S­ HEROI N E S1). OF WHICH. THE FERTILIZING AND ARM FASHION: SEPARATES FROM ITS OWNER WANDERS "THERE WHISTLES THE OCTOPUS OF PLEASURE.E A M A N D THE SOUL'S TIONS." LITTLE PLACE R E S P ECTFU LLY DI STA NT I M AGI NATION HAS WHEN GREAT S A I NT-JOHN TEXTS PERSE BY C A LLS TO MIND TH E AMOROUS RELATIONS. A S SLOW A S LANGOROUS A S A S PHODEL. R E LA­ IT WOU LD B E EASY TO M U LTI P LY THE EXA M PLES.I NTROD UCED. EVENING A N D THE WISTF U L J O Y OF CONSTAN T H E A RTS. WITH NO DELAY OR H E S ITATION ON OF JOYCE M A N SO U R . IT R E MA I N ED I N PLACE A P PROXI M ATELY T E N M I N UTES. WHER E U PON THE F E M A L E BROKE SHA R P LY AWAY A N D THE MALE WITHDREW I N TO H I S HOLE. THE OCTOPUS HAS OFFERED A P R I V I LEGED S Y M BOL RIGHT I N TO MODERN LITERA­ TURE. WHE R E I N FLOW "THE GREAT I NS E P A R A B L E U N ION. THESE A R E PROBA B LY T H E TRAVELLING P E N I S E S WHICH TH E S E TIONS. BEHI N D THEM." THE TEXT IS E LOQUE NT. WAS THE B E D FLOWER­ OPE N I NG IN THE SHADOWS. RUMPLED WITH S M ELLS. DA M P LY E M B R A C E D. IT ATTACHES ITSELF WITH ITS S C HO L A R S. IN THESE VOLU PTUOU S N ESS HAS APOLLI N A I R E CONFIDES TO HIS M I ST R E SS: "I SAVOUR YO U R TON G U E LIKE THE STU M P OF AN OCTOPUS' A R M WHICH ATTACHES ITSELF TO YOU WITH ALL THE FORCE OF ITS SUCKE RS. AND A S THE MOON ROSE ROU N D AND SOFT. DRANK D E E P LY AND FULL OF THE TREMBLING ROOM. AND P I N K: THE I R LIGHT ROBES OF OLD GOLD WERE FLUTTE R I N G LIKE C LOUDS AND VAGUE. AND BOTH THE G I R LS. THERE IS A S I G N I FIC A N T CONTRAST BETW E E N AN U N SETT L I N G R E A L I TY AND AND THE I MAGES OF V I R T U A L LY OR T HO S E A P HY S I C A L E FF E C T E D A MO R O U S VOLUPTUOU S N ESS RAPTURE WHERE LIBIDI­ BY " S A T E L L I T E " NOUS DREAM I NG I S I N VOLUNTA R I LY TRIGGERED BY BODIES OF E XC E PTI O N A L S U P PLEN ESS. LEE NOTICED IN THE MUSEUM IN PARIS. 4!5 . AMONG TH E M C E RT A I N C U V I E R ." A I M LESSLY FOR HO URS A T A TI M E UNTI L F I N DI NG A F E M A L E TO WHICH SUCKERS.

LEOPA R D S A LT ON TH E I R NEVER DRY BACKS. H O P A N D TWI R L 46 . EX Q U I SITE TIVITY T O TH E EFFECTS O F TO UCH A N D LIGHT M A D E M E TH I N K TH E M TOO D E L I CATE A N D V U LN E R A B L E T O T H E C R U E LTI ES OF T H E OUTS I D E WORLD. TH E I R PROF U S I O N I S G R EAT I N THE MOIST FORE STS OF O R EGON. SOM ETH I N G RAINS THEY AND WILL SUN A N D MOSS T H E S E SLOW-MOV I NG THINGS WOU LD EAT.BA K E D SI DEWALK. A N D TH E I R R E L A T I V E U G L I N ES S DI DN'T R E M E D Y TH E LOW OPINION. WERE S I D E R E D BY E V E RYONE T O BE T OO N U M E RO U S . T H E R E W E R E A LWAYS THOSE T I M E S W H E N Y O U WOULD S L I P A N D H A V E THE S M E E R E D R E M A I N S OF A SLUG DO W N YOU R TH I G H . SLUGS OR T H E F R E S H . SLUGS A PP E A R E D MORE P L E N TI F U L SLUGS AND LESS CON­ G R E E N . YOU HAD TO A VO I D THEM FREQUE NTLY AND STEP WITH A G I L I TY OVER TH E I R SLI PPERY H AT E .W ATER S PECI ES. D ESPITE A L L THE K I DS W H O ENJOYED ON MY W A L K S H O M E FROM G R A D E-SCHOOL I WO ULD USUALLY GARDEN SEE H U N D R E DS OF S L UGS SLUGS. ONE GARDEN H A D STEPS OF ROUGH LY-C H I S L E D ROCK: THROUGH BRA KEN TH E I R CREVICES GREW THE GRASS. A LONG BANANA S N I PPI NG BOD I E S IN THE I R HALF EYES OR OUT OR C U TTI NG TH E I R POU R I N G T H E PROV E R B I A L PATH W A Y S . TH E I R BOD I E S W E R E C U RIOUSLY S H A P E D . TH E I R AN D E L I B E RATION SENSI­ ATTR A C T E D GR EATLY. TH ESE TRA I LS SHOW E D YOU THEIR PA I N F U L ROAD TO DooM -A H O U R S A F T E R SC HOOL I W O U L D STOP A N D STA RE I N A D M I RATION O F T H E I R A N T E N N A E A N D PU LSATI NG BO D I E S. T H E PA C I F IC NORTHW EST. WHEREAS S N A I LS C A PT U R E D O N E' S A L I G N E D TO TH E A P P E A R E D EQU I P P E D T O J U M P. THEY NEVER A TT R A C T I V E T H A N S N A I LS. A L LO W E D TH E M M U C H R EST FROM THE I M MO D E R ATE BLAZI NG A LW A Y S OF THE SUN. T H E M A S V E R Y E XOTIC A N D O R I G I N A LLY FROM T H E SEA. WITH THE EXC E PTION OF L A N D SNA I LS A N D LIKE THE OTH E R ME A N I M A LS. I S A DVANTAGEOUS FOR GROWTH O F THE L A N D S N A I L OR SLUG. THE SLICK. A N D PON DER­ GROUND. THESE CREA TURES A R E MOSTLY OF THE SEA. NEITHER O U S LY LEGG E D. M O I ST COATS U S U A LLY O F DRY. S I N C E THEY TH R I V E IN ZON E S O F H E AVY R A I N FA L L.M E M OI RS OF A N OCC U PATION W H E N I WAS VERY YOU NG I WAS FASC I N ATED WITH MOLLUSKS. NOW TH A T THEY W E R E I N V A D I NG T H E S E G L E N S RICH I N PLANT L I F E . WHEN ENDED BOD I E S. S U N . PORTLA ND. I REGA R D E D SLUGS OR B ROWN-ORANGE O N E S ABOU N D E D . M Y LOC A L E . FLY. O F T E N OVERCA ST. D U R I NG THESE SHONE. O R A N G E SLUGS D R I E D TO BLACK A N D TH E I R S L i M E Y TRA I LS T U R N E D I R I DESC ENT. S A V E F O R O N E .

F R E E DOM. I D I SCOV E R E D A P A I R C E M E N T E D TOG ETH E R I N A N E X C E S S OF S L I M E . FLASH'S WOULD I NCH U P TO T H E S E H O L E S A T THE VERY TOP. I T H R E W F L A S H O U T. MY C H I LDHOOD F R I E N DS S H A R E D TH E I N T E R E ST. BUT T O N O I M PLO R I N G N A T U R E . THE B E A U T I F U L S N A I L. T H E TOP WAS S E A L E D PET SLUG. (WE HIS CALLED RADULA. DID THEY "GO TO THE BATH ROOM. IGNO R A N T OF · W HAT I H A D J U ST S E E N . D E S P A R A T E L Y S E A R C H I N G FO R T H E POKY. P E R F ECT S N A I L. T H E G E N D E R OF S N A I LS S E E M E D NO M ATTE R : W E WERE SO C H I LD I S H AT THE TIME THAT IT DIDN'T CO N C E R N US. AND THEIR FLESH WAS NOT SO STARTLI NGLY COUNTERPA RTS. TH E R E W E R E O N LY S L U G S O R T H E S M A L L E R S N A I L S W I T H F U R R Y S H E LLS. AT TIMES F L A S H COULD B E H E A R D T H ROUGH T H E SC R A P I N G CRY WHO KNOWS HIM FO R D I N OF COM M E RC I A L S . I W A S I N IT I A L L Y H O R R I F I ED. MYSTERIOUS U NT I L W E S A W T I N Y G R E Y COILS ON T H E S U R F AC E S O F THE T E R R A R I U M . F U RT H E R M O R E . TH E R E H E'D SC R A P E HIS R A D U LA N I GHT­ LO NG: IT SOU N D E D LIKE A FAINTER VE RSION OF BROT H E R D I SG U STING. T H E S HOCK L I N G E R E D ON WHEN I FINALLY LEFT TH E TV WITH GARDEN MY TO GO WOODED N E I G H BORHOOD. O F VARYING S I Z E AND COLOR. I NEVER W A N T E D T O B E B I T T E N BY A S N A I L AGA I N I N MY L I F E . O N E T I M E W H E N I LET P O K Y C R A W L OVER MY FINGERS THOUGHT (MY IT S I STERS AND OLDER VENTI LATION C LOCK W I S E BODY CAP. UPPER P O RT I O N LONG AND V E N TS A P P E A R. LIKE HOLE POKY O N E QU ESTI O N WE ASKED A BOUT S N A I LS WAS. ONE S U M M E R R E A L M C A L L E D "SLUGO N I A " POP U L A T E D BY SLUG- 47 . WHOLE DAYS WERE COI N E D A S O N G F O R T H E LOV E L Y PET W H I C H R A N A S FOLLOW S : POKY T H E S N A I L POKY T H E S N A I L YO U M A Y S E E H I M L A U G H I N ' YOU M A Y S E E H I M C R Y I N ' BUT Y O U K NOW H E'S GOT A GRE-E-E-E-E-EN MOUTH ! RIGHT AWAY WE B U I LT A TE R R A R I U M FOR H I M -A TA K E N U P W I T H LOO K I NG F O R A S N A I L B E A R I N G A COLO R F U L S H E LL .L E S S E V E N I N G I T U R N E D ON T H E S P R I N K L E R I N O R D E R TO SEE AS MANY OF THESE N OCTU R N A LLY ACTIVE C R E A T U R E S A S POSSI BLE. FERN AND G R A SS . A R M E D W I T H A F L A S H ­ LIG HT. BY TH I S TIME V E R Y S M ELLY A N D S L i M E Y. WHITE ONES T H A T POSS E S S E D M E D I OC R E S H E LLS. IN M Y M A N Y WALKS THROUGH A I DI SCOV E R E D A MOST BUT T H E N REASONED T H E Y WERE F U C K I NG. T I M . NOT L I K E THE T I N Y I N DOORS TO WATCH PA R ENTS. ONE RA I N Y DAY. HUED AS THE I R S H E L L. E V E N A LLOW E D POKY O N H I S F I N G E R S ) . I POKY'S DISAPPEARANCE NEVER BE I WAS D E S PO N ­ THOUGHT I'D A B L E TO F I N D A S N A I L AS B E A U T I F U L A S THAT. O N T H E TOP OF TH E CLEAR PLASTIC TW I S T BOX AN WAS A SMALL WITH A METAL LID W I T H H O L E S F O R A I R T O C O M E THROUGH. T H E YO U N G E R B ROTH E R . B U T W E COULD DETECT H I S SLI MEY TRA I LS OVER THE B E D R OOM WALLS REVENGE. W E AV A I L. A SNAIL AS GOOD AS WITH POKY GONE. I D I D N 'T STAY LONG B E C A U S E IT WAS D I STA ST E F U L TO LOOK A T FOR A N Y LE NGTH O F T I M E . ITS BODY WA S LONG AND THICK. I T WAS SO B E A UT I F U L THAT I LET IT CRAWL OVER MY FINGERS AND H A N D S AS I W A L K E D H O M E . AFTER DE NT. S O M E T I M E S POKY WOULD E S C A P E A N D B E S E E N LAT E R C R A W L I N G U P T H E S I D E S OF O U R B E DROOM W A L L . FAC I L I TATES T H E W E L L-A I M E D STROKES AT LEAVES AND FLOW E R S THEY'RE DESPISED FOR. I CALLED THE S N A I L "POKY" A FT E R T H E HORSE I N THE G U M BY TV C A RTOON AND PA RTLY A FT E R ITS S LOW. I H A D S P E N T H O U R S LOO K I N G F O R A COMPA R A B L E S N A I L. B E F O R E . ) ONE TIME I PLACED MY TOO C LOSE T O T H E FLASH WAS VENTI LATION HE. MOSS. A FRIEND CALLED M A TT A N D MYSELF I N V E NTED A M U T U A L L Y I N S E M I N A T E E A C H OTH E R : THE R E S U LT IS BOTH A N I M A L S B E A R I NG T H E EGGS. SOON WE L O S T POKY.I N TEREST M O R E : T H E Y H A D S H E L LS. IT WANTED! A FT E R FOOD­ WHAT O R I G I N A LLY BOOK C A LLED FLASH TH E COMIC A FTE RWA RDS. " ITS H O M E WAS O R I G I N A LLY BOTA N I C A L T E R R A R I U M . CALLED " F L A S H . L A T E R O N . I T B A C K F I R E D : T H E T H I N G BIT M E . B I T I T . I K N E W THEN LINED THAT WITH SNAILS TEETH HAVE AN UNUSUAL A TON G U E TH I S C H A LK SC R E E C H I N G AC ROSS A B L A C K B O A R D . I WAS TO LATER F I N D OUT THAT THEY ARE H E R M A P H RODITI C AND THAT THEY NEED TO SLUGS W E R E BY NO M E A N S MY SOLE O B S E S S I O N . D I D H E W A N T T O E SC A P E O R D I D H E J U S T L I K E T O SUCK ON PLASTIC? THE T E R R A R I U M WHICH HOUSED THIS SLUG W A S PLACED ON A G I G A N T I C T E L E V I S I O N SET TIM AND I WOULD WATC H . SHELL HAD ORANGE A N D YELLOW STR I PS A G A I N S T B R O W N A N D P U R P L E . I W A S H E A RTI LY W E LCOM ED B Y MY YOU NG E R B ROTH E R W I TH T H E C R E ATU R E . S I M P LY B E CA U S E I C A R E D NOT TO C L E A N OUT HIS C A G E . S U P R H E RO WHO C A N T R A V E L AT S P E E DS NO S LUG COULD FI NGE R EVE R M A TC H . I'M S U R E I S E N S E D S O M E P E R V E R S E PLEAS U R E . I E V E N T U A L L Y R E SORTED TO A IN A N LARGE GLASS J A R W H E R E I N WE PLACE D SOM E SOIL. ON THESE DAYS I'D HUM THE "POKY T H E S N A I L" SONG. B U T TIM." IT REMAINED WHEN SC R A P I N G .

E I TH E R IN O U R OWN I DE A S OR J UST LAUGHTER OV E R MATrs TALKS ON THE I D EA O F SLUGO N I A . I WAS ABLE TO M A R V E L AT THE H U N D R E D S OF I L LUSTRATION S OF MY FAVORITE A N I M A L. V ESTIG ES OF O U R U N I FORMS. HELIX PO MOTA WAS C A L L E D T H E E U RO P E A N G A R D E N S NA I L." EVERY SPECIES HAD A TEC H N IC A L MANY TI M E S THE IMAGE OF S N A I LS ON A GREW TO D I STU R B I N G THROUGH PROPORTIONS. I NOTI C E D TH E PAGES O N E W A Y O F SHOWI NG YOU WERE S M A RT. THOUGH D U R I N G O U R TALKS ON T H E MATTER I FELT AS IF H I S I NTEREST W A S TOO SIONAL. A NOTH E R ONE WAS CONTACT BUT R A P I D D R A W I N G AWAY-"YECCH '''-AS I F T H E PALM WERE S L I M E Y. SO M E STE R ) .V O L U M E D S N A I LS AND LONG E R .I N S P I R E D CA RTOON C R EATURES. E V E RYTI M E WENT TO A FRENCH RESTA U R A N T I O R D E R E D ESCA RGOTS. IN FITS SHE OF WAS OF M E XICO. TIM AND I CONTR I B UTED A G R E AT D E A L. C H A R M I N G M Y M OT H E R WITH MY SOPH I ST I C A T I O N ( " I S N 'T T H A T OTH E R P E RSON.L.U M B I A I S A W A POST O R LOOK M AGAZI N E THAT FEATURED A S H ORT STORY A BO U T MONSTER 4B . IT F R I G H T E N E D I N TO TH I N K I NG I WAS A LSO STRANGE FI NDING BULGING SOM E W H AT EFFORT T O FOR D E VOTING SO M U C H TI M E TO A N D C LA S S I F Y I N G ON S N A I LS IT WAS THEM. I T WAS O N LY A FOODSTUFF POOR FA R M E R S R ESORTED TO W H E N TH EY HAD NOTH I NG AROUND TH I S TI M E (l I TO 14 YEARS OF AGE. W H I C H U N FOR­ T U N ATELY A P PEA RS TO H A V E BEEN LOST." "VESPERCOLA LATI N B R U M . THESE STRUCK EVEN BY MY I NTEREST I N A T M O M E NTS C R EA T U R ES. A TT E N T I V E ME A N D TOO OBSES­ A N D I E V E N WENT SO FA R AS TO SUGGEST A "SLUG PATROL" TO O U R BOY SCOUT TROOP. TH E Y D I DN'T H A V E A N Y A N T E N N A E OR SLI M E OR R A D U LAS A N D TH E Y R E S E M B L E D H U M A N S I N TH E I R W E A K E R M O M E NTS. AND MY FLASH FOR M E R QUICKLY T H E OTH E R SNAI L'S M A I N A RTERY R U N N I NG U P TH E C E N T E R O F THE S P I R A L. H E'S O R D E R I N G ESCARGOTSI"). GENUS AND SPEC I E S WAS BA S E D U PO N T H E ORGA N IZATION OF T H I E R R E S P I RATORY TRACTS. O F TH E I R H O B A RT NAMES (TH E WERE HARVEY OF (A TRICK­ TORY-C A N N I B A L I STIC. " "HELIX P O M ATA. C H E E R F U L (A COMPULSIVELY A H A PPY SLUG). W H E N E A T I N G S N A I LS B EG A N . I ELSE TO E AT. TH E ME S N A I LS VOLUM E S WHEN HELPED DON E I MUCH OF I N AN WAS A I M P RESS MY PEERS THAT SCHOL A R LY TYPE.B A N I M A TION F I L M A B O U T SLUGO N I A . TH E A R E A H A D A N U M B E R O F S N A I LS I DI DN'T K N OW TH E N A M E S TO. W H E N S H E A R R I V E D S H E M A D E A W I S E C R A C K A S TO T H E WEIGHT O F THE BOOKS. TH E F LAG'S S L U G S W E R E A LSO W E A R I N G BA N D A N A S A N D H A T S . TH E BOOK H A D V E R Y STR A N G E ACCOU NTS ON C E R TA I N S P E C I ES. M ATT POSITI O N S HE WAS AND THEM WAS BIOLOGI ST. W H E N ONE WAS O F F E R E D TO HER ON BREAD WITH GARLIC B U TT E R . DEMIC MANY OF THE COUNS ELORS ONE OF HELD ACA­ A O R I G I N ATED TH E I R I M AG E A N D I N V E N TED MOST OF TH E C H A RACTE RS A N D TH E ( R N A M ES. WHEN SOLELY LAND LAUGHTER S H OC K . T H E SCOUT­ M A STER WAS C H A R M E D BY THE I D E A BUT HAD TO R E F U S E THE TITLE (HE WAS A STU P I D M A N ) S I N C E TH E R E W E R E S O M A N Y OTH E R N A M E S OF A N I M A LS T H A T WE COULD USE B E S I D E THAT O F "SLUG:' W E K N E W IT W A S A POOR REASON-BESI DES. A N D IT IS THE SNAIL THAT THE I FRENCH USE FOR ESCA RGOTS. P I L S B U R Y'S NORTH LAND M O L L USCA O F NORTH A M E R ICA SKI N N Y BLACK GIRL A OVER FRENCH A TEAC H E R EATI N G S N A I L : " YO U ' R E EATI NG S N A I L?'" S H E S H R I E K ED. WERE U N C UT. THESE CA RTOON SLUGS WERE VERY SELF­ D E SC R I PTION O F T H E I R R E PRODUCT I V E . A N D A FTER PLYI NG TH E M A P A RT WITH A LARGE K I TC H E N K N I FE. ONE IT SPEC I E S WAS WOU L D PREDA­ BY I N D U LG E NT. CUTE. IN HIGH IN SCHOOL FITS I REMEMBER A A C A N NOT RECALL S P E C I F I C A LLY) I H A D BOUGHT THE M O S T COM P R E H E N S I V E BOOK ON TH E S U B J ECT. P R I D I N G T H E M S E L V E S O N R A V E N OUS A P P ETITES OR EXCESS I V E TV WATC H I NG. AND REFUSING M O N OG R A PH S L U G S. I COULD NOW SAY T H A T SUCH-A N D-SUCH W A S " A R I O N ATE R. ( A GA I N . GA RFO ( A SLUG W H O H A D A S I G N ON H I S BACK R E A D I N G "BEAT M E"). B E FO R E H A N D. W E EVEN I N V E NTED A H A N DS H A K E W H I C H CONSI STED O F CONTACT W ITH E I TH E R PA LM ONLY TO HAVE SQ U I S H I NG SOUNDS M EET TH E A S I A LSO LEA R N E D F R O M THE BOOK. STRAIT OF BOAT IN TRIP TH E GEORGIA BRITISH CO. M ATT H A D COM POSED A FLAG W I T H SOM E R S A U LTING O R " F L I P P I NG" S L U G S (OUR S L U G S C O U L D F L I P I N M I D. E A T I N G E SCA RGOTS IT A RR I V E D. (TH E ACTUAL TITLE M I G H T B E WAS ON A FO U R . ATTA C K SWAYI NG ITS H E A D A N D T R U N K BACK A N D FORTH I N FRONT OF T H E FOR V I CTI M A N D TH E N LUNGE VERY D I CTATO R S L UGON I A ) . T H E CLASSI FICATION I NTO F A M I LY. HE ALSO COU N S E LORS.A I R ) . T I M AND I M A D E A S U PE R . D I G ESTI V E A N D R E S P I RATORY SYSTE M S. ) THE BOOK BEC A M E H YSTE R I C A L. WE DREW C O M I C S ABOUT T H E C E N T R A L SLUG C H A RACTERS. W E W E R E ALREA DY RESIGNED TO HIS D I S A P P RO V A L. F E E DOR ( A T V A D D I CT). VORACIOUS A SUPER EATER-LI K E D U R I N G A S U M M E R C A M P V ACATION I REQUESTED A F R I E N D O F MY P A R E NTS' TO B R I N G THE BOOKS WITH HER SINCE SHE WAS GOING TO VISIT SO M E PET-WITH F A S T TONG U E > ' M A TT W A S I N G E N IO U S A N D P ROLI F I C I N C R EATI NG FICTIO N A L SITUATIONS CON C E R N I NG S L UGS.

( I W A S 1 4 Y E A R S OLD A N D A MOM EVEN TOLD F R E S H M A N I N H I G H SCHOOL. LOVED TO P R E P A R E F R E S H OYSTERS. I H A D W R ITTEN A LONG PAPER ON THE DUTCH PAINTER JAN M A N Y A S U M M E R'S LIGHT U N R A VAGED BY G A PS A N D HOLES. LATE R ON WE'D PRY TH E M OPEN. A FT E R HAVING P U NCTU R E D YO U R SKIN. T H E MOTH E R OF T H E ACCOMPA NY­ I NG F A M I LY. WE WOULD PARTAKE OF MANY LUNCHES "ON T H E H ALF-SHELL. FEATU R E D BIRTH V E N US LEGEN D A R Y S E A . TH E B R I LL I A N T GROWTH O F RLOWE R S WAS NOTH I N G T O H A R M .) ONCE THAT VERMEER WAS WOULD N O D O U B T Q U I C K L Y WITH E R A N D D I E . BUT MY PA P E R B E L I EVABLE WITH A N I L LUSTRATION OF ONE. R E A DY TO R I P A P A RT A N YTH I N G ORGANIC. A N D T H E K N I F E O R PRYING TOO L . TAKING LONGE R T O E M E RGE AGA I N F A C I N G T H E H U M A N A D V E RSA RY.S N A I LS ON A R EMOTE I S L A N D . SOME S U C H S I M I LA R POISON O N OU R G A R D E N H U R T M E I N ATTEN U AT E D WAYS. W H E N I SAW IT. V E R M E E R'S CONTEM P O R A R Y D E H O OC H D E PICTED A WOM A N W E I G H I N G GOLD COINS. CONT R I B U T I N G TO T H E S O FT . I N E V E R SAW TH AT PEA R L A G A I N ONCE I T W A S S A F E I N S I D F T H E FO LDS OF LEATH E R . O N LY TO HAVE THEM R E CO I L MORE R A P I D L Y. PROMPTING MORE A S S E RT I V E MEASU R E S SUCH A S TOUC H I NG TH E STA LKS. FROM THE F I X E D LY STA R E AT T H E MOUTH'S P R I C K LY CAVERN. BESI DES. A G I A NT S NA I L WAS DWA R F I NG A T R E E ITS DEVOU R I NGS HAD PROBABLY D E N U D E D. W E ' D A L L D I V E F O R OYSTERS I N C L E A R. W H I C H . A R M E D WITH BUCK ETS OR PLASTIC BAGS. I G R E W T O A P P R ECI ATE THE P A I N T I N G E NTITLED "WO M A N OBSESSIO N A L S C R U T I N Y OF H E R FACE'S G ROWTH OF WRINKLES. T H E S N A I L'S H A T E D STATUS W A S W H A T I ATTEMPTED TO C H A NG E . I D I D N 'T KNOW A G A R D E N'S B R I G HT FLOWERS AND G L I ST E N I N G LEAVES H A S A R A PAC I O U S PRE DATOR. THE BOTTI C E LLrS OF LA P R I M I V E RA. TH I S D E L I C A C Y S E N T M E I N S M I LES. O N E TI M E I FOUND A PEA R L. A N D T O SEE MY MOTHE R SPREA D I NG SLUG-BE-GONE OR W H E R E TO PLACE IT. A IN IT HER HAIR COILS IN IS WHILE M ALE ZEPHYR. SI M I LA R LY ATTI R E D 49 . THE E N DO R S E D COULD LAWRENCE THINK GOW I N G ' S SHE POINT-HOW WEIGHING A N YO N E WAS SOMETH I N G B E S I D E S TH ESE J E W E LS FROM OYST E R BEDS? I M A G E OF THE MOUTH W A S MOST D I STU R B I N G AND I THOUGHT ABOUT I T OFTEN D U R I NG T H E VACATION. A V U LGA R ITY I N I T S F A I L U R E T O UNDERSTA N D T H E R ESONATING SIGN I F I C A N C E O F PEAR LS. MOM'S F R I E N D WAS Q U I T E WORLDLY I N MY EYES AND B E A UTI F U L E N O U G H T O HAVE ME B EA U T I F U L S P I R A LS PICTU RE. WAS SOMETH I NG I OFTEN D I D T O SNAI LS: I B L E W ON TH E I R A N TE N N A E T O S E E S E N S I T I V E. I T F A I L E D S I M PL Y B ECA U S E S H E W A S MEASU R I NG GOLD. I T WAS V E R Y S M A L L A N D B R O U G H T M U C H ATTEN­ TION FROM THE OLDER WOM E N . AND I F THEY WERE TRULY THAT WERE­ VERY O FT E N THEY RECOI L I N G T H E T E N D E R F I LA M E NTS. I THOUGHT I T TO B E A M OST DURING THAT VACATION. T H E MOUTH O F T H E MONSTER LOO K E D LIKE A BALL O F A THOU S A N D ICE-PICKS. WITH P L E NTY O F OYSTER BEDS AROUND. I E V E N CHASTISED I N F R O N T OF MOTHER A M E RICA'S C U LT OF YOUTH F U L N E S S I N TO IN WOMEN WHEN AS SHE BY WAS MY ME CON S I D E R E D TO H A V E GROU N D R E A L P E A R LS I NTO HIS O I LS. I VAINLY THOUGHT MY V E R M E E R . M Y MOTH E R AND A GOOD F R I E N D OF H E R S . FLORA.S H ELL. TH E Y S C A R S U C H LUMI NOUS P A R A D I S E S T H A T R E FLECT A PROUD OWNER'S LABOR. I WOULD FREQUE NTLY O P E N TH E MAGAZINE AND A NOTH E R P A I NTI N G . SOM E C RITICS E V E N THOUGHT V E R M E E R'S WOM A N WAS WEIGH ING GOLD. I F YOU DON'T MIND THE F R E E . N O W TH E PETALS OF OU R I R I S ES. T H E M A I N C H A RAC­ T E R D E SC R I B E D HIS H O R ROR AT THE E N O R M ITY OF THE C R EATU R E S WHICH WAS ALL TH E MORE (THOUGH NOT WITH TH E SATIN A N D ER M I N E J A C K ET) AND POS ITIONED BEFORE THE W I N DOW O F STRE A M ­ ING D A Y L I GHT. H E R FACE IS STI LL VERY YO UTH F U L A N D MY V I C I O U S N E S S AGAI N ST TH E ONE WHO H A D LOOKED O V E R M E W I T H T E N D E R N ESS FOR SO M A N Y Y E A R S A P P E A R S O N L Y T O B E R E V E N G E A G A I NST W E I G H I N G PEA R LS" A S H I S M O S T E X Q U I S I T E E FFORT. TER ROR W A S T H E R E ACTION.A S S OC I ATI N G . THE DUO OF MOTH E R AND H E R FRIEND DISCUSS I N G O F T H E C REATURES WOULD S W A Y M Y FAM I LY I NTO A P P R EC I A T I N G TH E M . A P A I N F U L TASK FOR A S H E L L'S S H A R P EOG E S W O U L D CUT Y O U ." I T S E E M E D A V E R Y E LEGANT T H I N G TO DO IN THE W I L D E R N ESS. L I L I E S A N D PETU N I A S COULD FLOU R I SH I N A Y E A R A FT E R T H E BOAT T R I P . M I LKY P A S S I NG M I DDLE-AGE SEEN PALLOR OF H I S MOSTLY F E M A LE S U B JECTS. SO I L E FT I T IN THE C H A NGE PURSE OF E I TH E R MY MOTH E R 'S BAG OR HER F R I E N D·S.B L U E W A T E R . M Y S ELF. H I S ATTE NTION T O P E A R L S M U ST H A V E CONTR I BUTED T O M Y EXC ITMENT O V E R H I S WORK. WOULD A D D T O T H E M I S E R Y O F A L R E A D Y SLICED FINGERS. TH E S N A I L A N D SLUG. HENCE COM P A R E H E R T O A U D R E Y H E P B U R N . I TH I N K MY YOU NG E R S I ST E R SHOWED ME THE PICTURE. FITFULLY BLOWING H I S G E NTLE B R EATH. A L E M O N A N D TOMATO SAUCE AWAITED TH E H U NGRY M I N O R I TY S I N C E MANY IN O U R PARTY D I D N'T C A R E FOR TH E M . Y E T HARM TO THEM SEEMED I N EVITA B L E F O R THEY THO UGHT M E Q U I T E S E N S I T I V E T O S E L ECT V E R M E E R A S A S U B JECT FOR A R E S E A RCH PA P E R .

R A Y S H E G A V E TO H I S PATI E N TS . TH I S BLAsEN. B U T A G I R LF R I E N D I O N C E K N E W H A D A N EXQU I S I T E P A I R . W H E T H E R I T WAS C O M B I N G M Y H A I R O R W I P I NG OFF D I RT FROM ANY PART OF MY BODY. JESUS C H R I S T'S HANDS AND FEET FASC I N ATED DRAW FI FTH MY G R A D E. A N D IF YOU WENT H TE R E . A PHOR O F T H E EGO. " T H E "5" A N D " L " A R E C R U C I A L: BOTH P A R E N TS POSS ESS T H E M I N T H E I R O R IG I N A L N A M ES. " SOU N D I NG M UC H L I K E "J E W E LS. U G L I F Y I N G S L U G . H I S P L EA S U R E-WORD. H E W A S A P E D I A T R I C I A N L I K E M Y FATH E R WIPE OFF OIL F I N GE R N A I LS/FI N G E R S N A I LS O N TO H E R D R E S S O R A PR O N . T H E ATTA C K W A S A L W A Y S ON. HER F I N G E R NAILS W E R E THE BITING S N A I L. OR ACNE FRIGHTENING. W I T H S L U G E L I M I N A T E T H E " S " A N D W I T N E S S " L U G . HER NAME WAS EVERYDAY. P R E Y TO HER FON D N E S S FOR D R A W I N G O I L OUT OF MY FOR SKIN." O R A S I S C L E A R . BEFORE MY G R A N D­ EXTRACTED M OT H E R .H E A D E D M A N . A LSO. M Y H A N D S H A V E B E E N C A L L E D "ATT R A C T I V E " B Y T H O S E CLOSE T O M E . " M E A N I NG SHE PROBABLY WAS D I SC O N T E N T W I T H M Y FON D N E S S F O R C R IT I C A LITY AND D I S T I NCTION. SAYS 50. FREUD. FACE AS B LO O D FROM F R E S H LY MY B L OO D I E D B Y T H E M . " I T WAS A L L A JOKE. SOM E MEN FEW M I LDLY ACNED ME AND IN R E LA T E D T O "G U L IS]. OR B U B B L E OF S K I N I S W H A T THE S N A I L. I W I S H I N G THAT T H E P HOTOS A N D COM M E R I C A L S SEE W I L L B E P R E S E N T I N MY L I FE A S A R E S U L T OF BUYING THE PRODUCT. PAROXYSMS WITH BAD MY COMPLEXION BEING MY WENT SKIN G R A N D­ F A T H E R ' S DOO M . W H I L E T H I N K I NG I WAS P I C K A B L E. SLUGS MAKE U G LY. J U LI E. AS FLA S H DID WITH ITS SEXUAL CROWD OBEYS THE SA M E I M P U LS E ! S E C R ETLY C H E R I S H : AN O R A L D R I VE. T H E D R I V E OF THE VAMPI RE IN FOR THESE OT H E R S WHO HAVE C A G E . I S R E LATED TO T H E LETTERS I N S N A I L. " J U L E S. TO VERBARIUM: SNAIL. " A N D YOU H A V E " s L l N " -T H E N GO ON T O "S N A I L.B R USH P E R FECT L I K E A L L THE B E A U T I E S WHO C O U L D GET I NTO STU D I O 54 W I THOUT W A I T I N G . W H I TE H E A D TO HER A LW A Y S N U R S I NG THE WOULD. A WORD IN H I S NOSE­ LANGUAGE. TH E PAST O F P U R I F Y I N G D I R T ON T H E S K I N I NTO A MI LITA NT OC C U P A T I O N . " U LG. FORC I N G M E T O TH I N K OF A M OT H E R RAVAGED BY WHAT I HAD. A P R O D U C T O F L U T H E R A N U P B R I N G I N G .I D E A L S . ME IN LIKE THE L E ECHES THAT H A D COU LD A A LSO T H E V E R Y I N S T R U M E N T OF M Y R E P E T I T I O N : S N A I L IS]. WHY DID I LIKE TO HAVE POKY C R A W L O V E R M Y F I N G E R S ? I A M A LSO S U P PO S E D TO BE "GE N ET I C A L L Y I D E N T I C A L" TO H I M .R I D D E N E N V E L O P E O F F L E S H . HAS F U R T H E R T R A N S FOR M E D WHATEVER THROUGH. BO D I L Y H A N D­ SOC I E T Y ' S THE I N DICIA CLEAN. " P I N K Y" APPEARS O R T H OG R A P H I - 50 . HUMAN PROPELLING EYES ON TH E I R RA D U LA S T H A T C O U L D B I T E T H E V E R Y P I M P L E S I POSS E S S T H A T E V E N I N G ." S I M I LA R T O D A D'S E N D E A R ­ M E N T. THE ONE WHO A I LS F R O M ACNE. A SISTER HER OF MINE WAS A LSO E N C R Y PTED UNDYING F A N T A S I E S A N D TH E I R C O R R E S PONDING PLEA S U R E­ WORDS. AND I B E A R H I S FIRST NAME A S M Y M I DDLE O N E .H E R O B S E S S I V E P I C K I N G O F MY ZITS AS I A D V A N C E D I N TO T H E H O R M O N A L D I S F I G U R E M E NTS OF A DOLES­ CENCE. A C O M P U LS I V E LY NEAT 15 NOW. I WITH HAVE M I RROR AND FACE YOU'RE SO P I C K Y . S I M I LA R PICKY. WITH WERE N A I LS. MY FATH ER P E R SO N . CLEANSING P E R PETU A L L Y S H I T. " BETTER YET." " I " A N D "N": P L A C E A N D "L" FOR T H E " K . THERE MY HAVE TO SENT FIX S H I V E R S. THEN R E A LITY WILL CONC U R E W I T H M Y H A L L U C I N A TION A N D I S H A L L B E A I R . I H A V E SUCC U M B ED TO T H E ADVE RTISI NG VISAGE OF G R EATER P OT E N C Y . T H O U G H A N A S E M IC D EC I PH E R I NG. A N D ZITS. THE LARGE MALE HOMO­ F U R T H E R MO R E . S P L E N DOR.M A N PAC I NG H YSTE R I C A L L Y TO A N D FRO I N A D E R M A ­ TOLOG I ST'S P OW D E R IN OFFICE HAND. "U LGIYI. O R A S I T D I D TO M Y F I N G E R B Y ITS B I T I NG: A B I T I N G . THE R U SS I A N SEEMS PICK TERM FOR MY F L E S H W IT H A F I N G E R C A L L E D " P I N K Y . H O P E L E S S R E V E NG E . SO H A V E I F E LT I T TOO TO B E M I N E. EVERY TRUE WOU L D EDUCATION FROM HER FATH E R ' S D E A T H H I S H A N D S W E R E A L SO WOU N D E D BY I M P R O P E R PROTEC T I O N F R O M X . HAD DESIGNATED TH E PHYSICAL M ET A ­ I D E N TI C A L T O M Y M O T H E R'S. A N I N C I D E N T K N O W N I N C H R I ST I A N HOME. M Y M OT H E R ' S NAME. TH E W O R D S K I N . IS A LL O P H O N I C A L L Y TR I U M P H E D OUR TH E I R I D E O LOG I C A L I N P E R FECTION. A LT H O U G H AT TIMES HER ATTA C K S WERE AND R U BB I N G SLUG. T H A T I S . SCR A P I NG NOTED GOUGING YOUNGER B ROTH E R S' T E R I ET. " I . C O M P E N S A T I N G F O R HER VERY BLEMISHED FACE. 1 5 STI L L I NSPI R I N G ME TO A W A SH AND SHAVE DI RTY. DEGREE. IT A LSO H E LP E D M E E N D U R E B E I N G B RO U G H T U P IN A SOC I A L A P P A R A T U S T H A T EXU LTS I N A S T R E A M L I N E D P A S S I O N F O R A S S I M I LA ­ TING E G O." A N U G L Y J E W E L I S THE S L U G THAT COULD R E N D E R T H E C H I L D-J E W E L OF J U L I E U G L Y A S W E LL. "D U N C A N A LTHOUGH I A M NOT I D E N T I C A L T O T H E WOLF. S C R A P I N G AT MY S K I N . S N A I L A LLOPHON I C A L L Y R E S I D E S IN " A I LS . T H E "5. OFTE N TI M E S MY MOTH E R WOULD LA M E N T." " S L U G S A R E 50 U G L Y " S A Y T H E C O M M O N LOT. W R I N K LES A R E L l N Es/LA I N S ( S N A I L ) ON T H E s K I N /S L I N (SNAIL).

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AN I N DEED "ZITICAL FOR MY BEING A FFLICTED E X P L A N A TION SONNENSTRAHLEN. DUNCAN S M I TH 152 . H AVE A "ZIT' I N FU N-CITY YOU DON'T HAVE F U N . TH E TV SHOW WILL N OT BE C ITY" IS. "OUI. AND THIS H A B I T OF M I N E I S EVEN WORSE WH E N I VENTURE TO EAT THE STUFF. NEW YORK WAS -FU N-C ITY" AND I ENVISIONED THE M A N Y " F U N " PEOPLE L I V I N G H E R E . I CAME HERE TO FA LL I N TO THE A RMS OF ITS BEAUTIFUL M E N . NO. SC R A P E R S . A FUN EGO I N A CITY­ ZITY WITH ALL ITS FUN. ("HE HAS A GRE-E-E­ E-E.F U N EGO. MONTHS. " A DORE ME. IS A C R Y PTIC I M PULSE IN N E W YORK. 15 NOT A L U ST-IC H . SKYSC R A PERS OR NOT SO H A R S H LY. A N OT H E R CRUC I A L P L E A S U R E . UN ENDLICH. PICKY TO E L I M I N A TE THE OF ZIT IN THIS C I TY NEEDS AN THE F I N G E R S . THE A P PLICATION C R E A MS. FORGOTTEN A S LONG A S I LIVE W H E R E TV'S A R E WATC H E D. WEEKS. TO GET A T A N . SOM ETH I NG ATTACK MELANIE KLEIN CALLS AN ANAL M U C I LA G E FROM SNA I LS I ONCE PUT ON M Y BODY. FOR M E . THE C R I TI C A L .L I K E WITH RUBBERY HANDS V I O L E NTLY PICKING AWAY. JE I BEG FORG I V E N E S S FOR ALL THIS CONFESSING IT S C R A P E S STA R­ AND TADORE.EN MOUTH.M A K I N G A N D S U RG E R Y I N H I S JOURNAX I N TI M ES. ACNE. BECO M E S IS A L LOPHON IC WITH "ZIT" : M A N . PROFESSIONAL FAC I A LS ARE SU RGEON. C R I TICIZED. N IGHTLONG L I K E M Y PET SLUG H A D DON E ATOP THE GIANT TV SET. I S PICKED I N THE NOSE. B E A UTIFUL PEOPLE. U PON T H E MOTH E R .H A T-TAN." SINCE WHEN YOU THE IN ATTE N D A N T M O R B I D I T I ES. I'M RECALLING B A U D E LA I R E' S G R E E N J U N K A LONG THE WAY. PICKED AT. FINGERS POKY. M U C U S O R SNOT. ADORNO-DON'T A DORE " S E LF-STY L I N G A DO R N . POK E . A P E R FECT TA N I N M A N H ATTA N TA KES SOME TI M E. POKY ON MY MY PET S N A I L. AN U N L U sT· I C H . BE IT DAYS. WITH A ZIT ON ITS B U BBLE. WITHOUT END. THE (SIUGLIY I N T E LLECTU A L READI NG AN I MAGE­ EVEN A H U N D R E D YEARS. N U M E ROUS ACTIVE C R E A T U R ES" H E R E WITH D E E P BROWN TA N S IS ONLY T H E MANY M E N W I T H THE EVIDENCE O F BY S U M M E R'S RAYS. AS IT IS MORE COMMONLY CA LLED. THEORY" ZITI C A L.CALLY S I M I L A R TO POKY. A. D E L I C ATE S N A I LS. BITING THE G I STS FOR PEOPLE TO K E E P CORPSEHooD I NTACT AND GOLDEN.") EQUATION O F LOVE. R E PRODUC I N G F I N G E R/SNAI L. FU RTH ER.W O R D. LIKE I DO IS PIC K I NG YOUR NOSE G H ASTLY." AND M Y MOVE TO N E W YORK WAS OPPORTU NE. FASCIN ATION FOR T H E WR ITINGS O F THAT SCHOOL. M Y "C RITICALITY" (MY "PICKY" NATUREC ITICAL. N A TU RE'S S U RGEONS (THE Y LEAVE SC A R S ON PLANT TISSUE) ARE N O W O N L Y COSMETOLO­ F R E Q U ENTLY R E A D E R . OR "NOC T U R N A L L Y ZITS OR "szlr' VIBRA TES WITH "SHlr' A N D CLEANING I S OF COURSE A N A N A L MOTIF. W. I M A G I N A R Y B A N I S H I NG T. IS B U R I E D I N MY N A M E : DUNCAN/DUNACNIEL TO M A K E GOLDE N A N D YOUTH EVOCATIVE. T H I S C I TY OF THOUGH STI LL. THE NEW YORK WITH AN ISLAND THE CALLED M A N H ATTA N . BUT "FUN­ A ·'FU N-ZITY.

A L I M E N T A R Y 5 E X .

T H E Y S I M PLY C A N NOT B E M A R R I E D A N D TH E I R C H I LD R E N W I LL N O T B E LEGITIMATE: TH E I R R E LATIONS W I LL B E S E X U A L BUT N O T CON N U B I A L." M U R D E R IS T H E SA M E : ONE S H O U L D N EV E R K I LL. I F IT WAS PRACTISED ON A LARGE SOC I A L SCA L E IT "EXACTLY L I K E THAT O F C A N N I B A L I S M ?" TO BE A C A N N I B A L IS TO EAT OTH E R M E N . W H I C H P R E S ENTS BOTH A SEXUAL A N D A SOCIO­ LOGICAL A S PECT: T H E Y C A N NOT B E COMPLETELY TH I S TEXT IS F U L L OF GOOD SENSE. BUT THAT MEN HAD RENOUNCED I T FOR GOOD R EASONS. HOW THAT FOR THE I N C EST. I N G E N E R A L A N D I N PA RTIC ULAR. A N D H E R E A LSO "GOOD REASONS" CAN BE I N VOKED: BUT THAT O N E LESS-EXACTI N G : ONE TIME R E LATION S H I P AT W I LL BECOM E A TREATED . O N T H E CONTRA RY. I T IS TRANSGRESSED "ON LY TOO OFTEN. TWO NEAR KIN CAN S L E E P TOGETH ER. T H E SITUATION OF I NC EST I S EXACTLY LIKE THAT O F C A N N I B A LI S M . WE CAN EASILY SEE THAT. TH U S O N E WILL B E -M UST O N E THE SEXUAL R I T U A L LY SAY. THERE IS NO R E A SO N FOR NOT EATING H U M A N FLESH. BUT GOOD D I S SOC I AT E D ONE FROM THE OTH E R . THE PROH I BI TION IS THEN J U STI F I ABLE: HOWEVER. DESPITE T H E FACT THAT I N EATING A MAN ONE NEED NOT B EG I N BY KILLING HIM: PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S COURAGE REMARKED: R E A SO N TO D I S ­ FREUD I N C ESTUOUS R E LA T IONS H I PS. A N D O N E C A N ONLY E I T H E R B E O N E OR N O T B E ONE. M A TT E R S ARE N O T SO S I M PL E WITH R ESPECT TO I NC E ST.T A B L E M A N N ERS. LA N G U A G E M A N N E R S TO MARIE BONA PARTE. BUT THERE IS NO FOR NOT EAT I N G HUMAN THEN R E A SO N WHATEVER I M P L I C I TL Y FOR M U R DE R . TH I S ALSO I S ONLY TOO E V I D ENT. N E VERTHELESS MOST OF U S WOULD FINO THAT COMPLETELY I M POSSI BLE. W E CAN ONE SAY R E S PECT IT M UC H LESS. THE P R O H I B I T I O N O F C A N N I BA L I S M T H U S A P P E A R S U N J USTI F I A BLE. S ITUATION FLESH I N PLACE O F M EAT. B E D M A N N E RS. AND IS TO DEVOUR H I M . I N C EST I S NOT SO FAR REMOVED. MORE OR CONTRA Ry-oFTEN ONE TH E LAST P H R A S E M A K E S O N E TH I N K THAT I N C E ST COU L D HAVE BEEN PRACTI S E D ONCE. REASONS THAT K I LL A MAN NATURALLY THERE ARE GOOD IN MODERN LIFE ONE DOES NOT NON ETH ELESS. AND IT OCCURS O N LY TOO OFTEN. WITH US FOR E X A M PLE. HAD WHO HAD ASKED H I M SOM E IF K I LLS. F R E U D WOULD E R RS. WOULD BE A S H A R M F U L TODAY AS IT WAS IN T I M E S PAST. ESPEC I A L LY I N O R D E R T O D E V O U R O N E ' S V I C T I M . BUT ARE S E N S E -A N D NOT HAVE S A I D THE SHOULD JUDGE­ R A RELY R IGOROUSLY L I N K E D : O N E C A N PROH I BI T TH E M A R R I A G E O F C E RTAI N K I N WITHOUT M A K I N G A D R A M A OF T H E I R EVENTUAL SEXUAL R E LATIONS.

TRANSGRESSES T H E NORM I N A M A N N E R T H A T I S . ITS S I M P L E E X I ST E N C E COULD FOR M T H E B A S I S O F A RECOG­ N I Z E D U N I ON OF I N F E R I O R STATUS . POS I T I V E O R N EGATIVE. AS FOR I NCEST AND A N C I ENT TU P I . I N A SOCI ETY W H I C H I S NOT. NOT TO W E A K E N IT: TO KILL SOM EON E THE WHO HAS KILLED I N TO A DOES NOT OF C A N N I B A L I S M E A S I L Y EXPLA I N T H I S . ONE ONLY E ATS A C A N N I B A L I N A OR L E S S F R EQUENT ACCO R D I N G T O THE E X T E N T O F I T S PROH I BITION: R E LA T I V E LY R A R E IN SOC I ETI E S WITH A LARGE POPULATION. O R T O SORC E R E R S W H O A R E D I F F I C U LT T O I D E NTIFY. I N TH E M A TT E R OF C A N N I B A LI S M . VIOLA T I N G I T WHILE M A I NTA I NI NG It. FOR US. ELSE. RE PEATED. ONE " F I N A LLY. S I M I LA RLY IT WOULD COME TO NO O N E'S M I N D. W H I C H ITSELF I S A M U R D E R. TO E FFACE ITS VIOLATION . IN A NON­ R U L E WHICH CON D E M N S IT. W R I TES H. T H E R E I S N O WAY TO ELUOE IT. AND IF IT ITS IS A C H I E V E M ENT EX­ PROH I BITED AND S Y M M E T R I C A LLY. . IT A LWAYS A PPEARS A S A TRAN SGRESSION.: THIS I S NOT TO S P E A K O F WAR WHERE TO KILL I S AN EVERYO N E PARTICI PATE. A N D TO EAT OTH E R M E N P R EC I S E LY : B U T T H E B I OLOGICAL A S PECT O F TH E MATTER IS NOT S E P A R A B L E F ROM ITS SOCI A L CONSEQU E N C E . RULE SUFFERS ITS E X PLOIT: T H E ACQUITTAL O F A M U RD E R E R WHERE E X T E N U A T I N G C I R C U M ST A N C E S NIZED DOES NOT PLACE THE CAN BE R ECOG­ IN TRA NSG R ESSION. THE V ICTI M IS I R RECU PARABLE. IN E V E R Y CASE A TWO-S I DED PLAY IS POSS I B L E . ON THE OTH E R . AS ONE HAS ALREADY ONE TO M A INTA I N THE PROH I BITION. B U T I F I E A T HER SHE I S NO LON G E R EDIBLE FOR A N Y ONE E L S EI D I F F E R E N T FROM THE SEXUAL R E LATIO N S H I P. A R E L A T I ON S H I P IS O N LY I N C ESTUOUS WITH R E S PECT T O T H E CAN NOT. HAVE FEWER M EMBERS AND THAT HAVE SYNTH ESIS A N D R E S U LTS O F A L L T H E S E OPPOSI ­ TIONS: I N C EST (AND M U R D E R) IS PROH I B IT E D ENLARGED T H E BOUNDS OF T H E PRO H I BITION. O N E CAN NOT EXPLAIN WHY 55 . N E V E R A T R A N SG R ES S I O N . "TH E ESSENTIAL R U L E O F A NTH RO­ POPH A G Y IS PERHAPS THE EXIGENCE THAT CONTR A R Y TO C A N N I BA L I S M . AN OF THE CA N N I BA L SOC I ETY." W O U L D SAY T H A T THE SA M E I S T R U E O F M U RDER. I T TOLE RATES N O M E A N S O F ESCA PE. IT I S U N DE R STOOD THAT I N C A N N I B A L I S M A S WELL THERE A R E T W O A S PECTS: T O E AT. I N R E A LITY THE D E F I N I TI O N S OF I N C EST AND OF PROH I B ITION QUESTION. T H E C A N N I BA LISTIC R E LATION S H I P C A N NOT H A U STS BE IT. ON E'S P R O H I B I TI O N IT B R E A KS : O N E TR A N S FO R M K I LLE RS. I N G E N E R A L. S OC I ET Y IS S OC I ETY PRESC R I B E I T WITHOUT CONTRA­ TERMS: S I NCE IT S U PPOSES THE A N D TH I S W H Y THE P U N I S H M ENT OF DEATH C A N BE A L LOWED BY THE V E R Y PEOPLE WHO MOST VIGOROUSLY CON D E M N M U R D E R . K E E PS THE RESTRIC­ TION OF T H E PROH I B ITION TO T H E ONLY K I N W H O A R E CONSISTENTLY FOR B I DDEN. WHICH ALLOWS OPPOSITE R U L E .FULLY LEGAL M A R R I AGE . TH E R E I S ON ONE S I D E A PROH I B I TION WHOSE V I OLATION I N N O W A Y COM P RO M I S E S IT. TO S UGGEST TIojE CON S U M P­ U N I VERSA LITY A NCE MORE APPEAR­ TION OF SOM EONE WHO H A D B E E N FOU N D G U I LTY OF C A N N I B A L I S M . T H E R E I S N O POSSIBLE R E M I SSION. WHERE CANNIBALISM IS THE RU LE. A R U L E W H I C H C A N NOT B E VIOLATED SINCE THAT WHICH I T CON D E M N S . WHERE I T A P P L I ES. I R REPA R ABL E: MEMBER OF ONE C A N NOT CON S I D E R TH I S IS HIM A IN CONTRA RY. A S FOR C A N N I BA L I S M . DICTING THUS. F O R M E O R F O R SOMEONE C A N N I B A L ACTIONS. CLASTRES A BO U T T H E NONETH E LESS R E A LIZED. A N D W H E R E ONE ATTR I B U T E S M A LA D I E S AND D E ATHS TO WOM A N WITHOUT M A R R Y I NG H E R A N D S H E R E M A I N S A POSSI B LE SPO U S E . PROVES ITS ABSENCE AND M A N I F E STS THE SENTI M E N T W H I C H . A N D THIS TRANSGRESSION C A N BE FO U N D EVE RYWH E R E OF SEXUAL BECAUSE DESIRE. FOR TH I S REASON. . WHY. THAT MORE F R EQU E N T IN THOSE SOC I ET I E S AN I N STITUTION. T H E PARTI C U L A R R U L E KNOWS PRACTICALLY NON E . BUT THE FACT IS T H A T. ON THE INDICATED. W H I C H B R I NG S US BACK TO TH E FACT THAT C A N N I BA L I S M IS A LMOST A LWAYS WHERE T H E C I RCLE O F FOR B I D D E N PARTNERS I S L I M ITED. T H U S A G A I N . SOC IETIES W H E R E O N E DOES NOT EAT OTH E R M E N. O N E C A N NOT THUS DI SSOCIATE DE FACTO A N D DE J U R E STATUS. ITS P U R POSE IS TO R E I N FORCE THE PROH ITI B I O N . I CAN SLEEP WITH A THE SOCIAL BODY. WITHOUT CONSTRA I N I NG T H E S E PA RA­ TION O F T H E I NC ESTUOUS PARTIES. T H E POSSIBI LITY OF I N C EST I S S O WELL P R E D I C T E D T H A T OFT E N ONE HAS A LS O FORSEEN A RITE T O A C H I EVE IT. BUT W H E R E M E N FEAR B E I N G EATE N. IF O N E DOES IT. O N E I M PUTES T H E C O M M I S S I O N OF THE C R I M E S T O M YSTERIOUS FOR E I G N E RS. " ONE F I NOS O N E S E L F I N THE P R E S E N C E O F A PARADOX THAT I S A T L E A ST A P P A R E NT: THE U N I VE R S A L WHILE. T O F I L L TH E GAP. THE P R ETENDED IN GEN E R A L UNIVERSAL M UC H LESS E V E RYWH E R E A N D E NC O U N T E R E D E V E R Y W H E R E . T H E C A N N I B A L. C A N N I BA L I S M IS O N LY PRACTISED WHERE IT IS HORROR O F I NCEST I S PRONO U N C E D I N T H E S E LATTER: W H E R E O N E H A S AFFIRMED IT IN A B U S I V E LY E XT R A PO L A T I N G A AUTHO R I S E D A N D N E V E R W H E R E I T I S PROH I B ITED. A S FOR T H E E X EC UTION O F A M U R DER­ ER. AND SOCI ETY OF CAN N I BA LS. AND P E R H A PS A LS O . AND TO BEGIN AGAIN. ON T H E CONTRA RY. O N E C A N G E T A ROUND T H E R U L E .

PERHAPS A CAPITAL ONE. S U PPOSE PROPERLY C A N N I B A L R E A LITY OF C A N N I BA L I STIC DESI RE: "IT I S NOT THAT T H E Y SO MUCH ENJOY EATING HUMAN FLESH BUT THAT T H E I R SENSUAL A PPETITE BRI NGS THEM TO THESE M EANS. O F LANGUAGE DESIGNATE. A MONG OTH ER R EASONS. AND IT IS THIS C O M PON E N T THAT PERMITS FATA L E K A MUST S U R M O U N T A C E RTA I N AVERSION: TH E VICTI M M U ST BE C O M P E LT E LY CONS U M ED. SEXUAL IS IN FRE­ THE NON-C A N N I BA LS . H I S COM M E N SA LS M U ST COMPLETELY R E ABSORB WHAT H A S U N FOR­ TUNATELY C A N NOT BEEN R E J ECTED. SUCTION) . GEANCE. C A N NOT WITHOUT E V I DE NTLY TR U E O F THE G U A Y A K I WHO EAT TH E I R D E A D A N D O F T H E FATA L E K A W H O EAT FOR TH E I R D E A D: IT IS A LS O TH E TUPI WHO EAT TH E I R A N T H ROPOPHAGY A N D EXCESSI V E ORA LITY. BUT M U ST THERE BE O N E ? SUCH A D E S I R E DOES NOT EVEN SEEM PRESENT FOR ALL C A N N I BALS. AND J E A N DE L Il: RY WRITES OF T H E TUPI: "ALL ADMIT T H I S HUMAN F L E S H T O BE WON D E RFULLY G DO D A N D THAT OLD WO M E N IN PERSON. AND B EC A U S E TO E AT HUMAN IT. THEY ARE SOMETI M E S HOWEVER. BUT THAT ITS PROH I B I T I O N N EV E R PLACES ITS OF TH E I R V ICTI M S. (BITING. THA N K S TO HIS CON S U M PTION OF A SACRIFICED MODE. A IN ANY EVENT E A C H MAY BE CAN VALID FOR GIVEN POP U L A T I O N . WHE N T R I ES DO IT U N D E R STA N D TH E CON FOUN D I N G C E R EMONY O F T E N LIKE FUNERAL. BUT PRACTICE IN QUESTION: TH I S POSES THE PROBLEM OF A D M ITTING A U N I V E R S A L DESIRE TO EAT M E N . BESIDES. BY T H E S E MEANS. QUENTLY FA M I L I A R C U L I N A RY TO FORC E D T O V O M I T . THEIR STO M A C H N O T B E I N G E MPHASIZED OR A RGOT CAPABLE OF DIGESTI NG IT. C A N N I B A LISTIC LA N G U AGE. IF THE P RACTICE DOES NOT I M PLY A DESI R E . A OF A COMPLEX THIS IS H I S S E X U A L R ELATIONS. TH I S S U B M I S SI O N FLESH IS IS DESERVI NG. AND T H E USE O F NAMES OF M A N-EATI N G A N I M A LS OR OF COMESTI B L E S TO DESIGNATE THE LOVE PARTN E R . FOR I H A V E HEARD THEM SAY THAT A FT E R HAVING EATEN.SOME SOCI ETIES ACCEPT I T A N D OTHERS FOR B I D IT. A THERE IS NO EVIDENT REASON DESI R E . BY S U B M I SSION TO THE WILL OF A DEAD C H I E F WHO. BUT BY OBLIGATION. F E A R A N D T E R R O R T O THE LIVI NG. THAT OF 15 T H A T I N P R E P A R I N G A N D EATING T H E DEAD I N T H I S WAY. THEY GIVE. IF O N E OF T H E CONVIVES VOMITS. THE THE PROHI BITION M ET A PHORIC OF HUMAN OF FLESH CANNI­ NOT L I B E R ATES BALISM: USAGE ONE P R I SONERS I N ORDER. TO APPEASE THE SOU L O F A HAVE DECEASED R E LATI VE. FROM TH I S FACT. BUT T H I S TASTE 1 5 NOT THE ONLY T H I N G I N VOLVED. THE A PPETIZING C H ICK"). O F A SEXUAL ORDER. T H E Y H A V E ABOVE ALL AN I DEOLOGICA L C H A R ACTER: THEY EXPRESS THE IDEAS THAT TH E I N T E R E STED H A V E OF T H E POST MORTEM EXISTENCE OF T H E H U M A N TRUE THE I ROQUOIS E N JOY THIS KIND OF FOOD. THE LANGUAGE AND FROM NOU R I S H I N G P E RHAPS EVEN D R E A M S . HE AND TO THIS IS WHY TH E L A TT E R . ACCEDED TO T H E R A N K OF ANC ESTOR. U N L I K E TH E S E X ACT. FOR M E R . BECA USE H E A D D S : "TH E I R P R I N C I P A L I N T E NTION TH I N K-AS A M E A N S T O ASSU R E CERTA I N D E A D OF ACCESS TO THE SU PREME POW E R . I N O N E CASE AS IN TO THE OTH E R . IN DOES EAT HUMAN FLESH WITHOUT T H E A M O R O U S A N T H R OPO­ MOREOVER. TO TH E BON E . PRECISELY BECAU S E DOES T R A N S G R E S S T H E P R O H I BITION. A N D NOT ONLY. MORE "OR A L" T H A N T H E NON-CA N N I BA L : NO MORE DOES HE D E VOU R H I S PARTN E R I HIS C A N N I BA LI S M E X I STS ON A NOTH E R GROU N D ENTI R ELY. THIS IDEA THAT O N E RISK IS. O F T H E RELATIONS BETWE E N T H E L I V I N G A N D T H E D E A D: F R O M THIS LAST POI N T O F V I EW." T H I S CONFI R M S STADEN: "TH EY DO TH I S NOT TO E A S E T H E I R H U NGER. BUT THROUGH CLAUDE HOST I LITY. TO E X P R E S S T H E F E A R OF B E I N G I N SOM E WAY D E VO U R E D BY H E R ("WHAT A T I G R E SS") OR TO FOR M U LATE A S E N S U A L ATTRACTION ("WHAT A N VICTIM. T H E C A N N I B A L A C T I S A LWAYS PUBLIC AND R I TUALIZED: TH E R E I S A LWAYS A N E L E M ENT." E X P LA I N I NG PARTI C U LA R H A D A TASTE FOR IT. O N E COULD A D O THAT S E X U A L PLAY CAN CONTA I N C A N N I B A L I ST I C B E H A VI O R DANGEROUS. PHAGE IS NOT." WHO CONTESTS THE AND VERY A N C ESTO R S H I P-SO TH E FATA L E K A THI N K . CA N N I BA L I S M CAN BE CONSI D E R E D A S WELL A S A M E A N S TO K E E P A W A Y THE DEAD BY D E STROY I N G THEIR C O R PO R A L S U PPORT-SO THE GUYAKI D E L I CATE. T H E R E P R E SENTA­ TIONS OF CANNIBALISM SERVE TO SIGNIFY THESE C E R E M O N I E S DIVERSE BEEN THE OBJECT OF DE S I R E FOR V E N ­ I N T E R PRETATION S : A N OTH E R T H I NG. PRETEN D TO N O G E N E R A L VALI DITY. O F WHOM R. ABSTENTION DOES NOT H I N D E R C A N N I BA L­ ISM FROM H A U NT I N G FEARS. A GROU N D OF W H I C H THOSE PA RTS ARE WHO DO NOT EAT T H E I R COUNTER­ I G N O R A NT. D'ABBEVILLE O U T OF GREAT H ATE. NOT BY TASTE A N D FOR PLE A S U RE. T H E R E I S NO DOUBT THAT TH E R E E X I ST S A N O R A L COM PON ENT OF S E X U A L DESI R E . R E LATIONS. I F OFTEN." T H E S A M E M I SADVEN­ TU R E C A N H A P P E N TO TH E FATA LEKA. DESI R E TO A PP RO P R I ATE T H E QUA LITI ES !56 . BUT-A N D TH I S I S WHAT WE WISHED TO SUGGEST IN THE PRECEDING NOT REDUCE PA R A G R A P H -C A N N I B A L I S M I TS E L F TO O R A LITY. W I D E S P R E A D: I T I S A GOOD F OO D BUT TOO STRONG FOR ONE TO EAT I T PURE: T H E GUYAKI M U ST M I X IT WITH A VEGETA B L E FOOD: O N E COOKS I T I N RAGOUT W I T H HEA RTS OF PA L M . G U I D I E R I TELLS U S THAT TH E Y A R E C A N N I B A LS.

THE OTH E R ARTICULATING I T F R O M TH E I N S I DE. I RR U PTION ALL THESE VIRTUALITIES OF THE A L I M ENTARY NATURE IN THE BODY OF C U LTURE: IT EFFACES THE FRONTI E R S W H I C H SEPA RATE THE H U MAN WORLD FROM THE I N HUMAN WORLD. A UG E E X PLA I N S I C K N ESS BY A N ANTH ROPO­ PHAGY EITH E R U N D E RGONE--CONS U M PTION O F TH E SICK ORG A N BY A SORCERER-QR I N VOLUNTA R I L Y PRACTICED A B SORPTION OF H U M A N F L E S H BY T H E BEWITC H E D PATI E NT. IT F U R N I S H E S MOST FREQU E NTLY A D I SQ U I ETING I M AGE OF A N I NTOL E R A B L E EXCESS. T H E C A N N I BA L I STIC M ETAPHOR SERVES HERE TO C I RC U M S C R I B E THE C E RTA I N D I O N YS I A N RITUALS I N ORDER TO PROVI D E DI RECT CONTACT W I T H THE S U PE R NATURAL. AMONG TH E PEOPLE WHO COMPOSE THE WORLD O F BARBA R I A NS. I N THE BODY OF SOC I ETY. I S TOO INSPIRED BY THE BODY O F A WE A R E B ROUGHT BACK TO F R E U D. I N A N A G E ANTERIOR T O H U M ANITY. C A N N I B A L I S M I S T H U S A F I G U R E O F DISORDER. IN WHICH THE STORY D E V E LO P S IN PLAYING ON ABOL I S H E S T H E D I ST I N CTION W H I C H . A C A N N I BA L . I T PLACES C U LTURE IN QUESTION. POLITI C A L AND RELIGIOUS C U R R E NT OF AN LANGU AGE. " SAVAGE. A N D TH E Y A R E NOT TH E O N L Y O N E S TO A F F I R M T H I S: ACTUA L LY. A N D "IT R E J ECTED W I T H O U T A M B I G U I TY" A C A N N I B A L I S M THAT IT S I T U AT E D AT THE CO N F I N E S OF ITS H I STORY. ON T H E I D E A T H A T C A N N I B A L I S M I S A N U N REGULATED B E H A VIOR. O F W H I C H A N A L I M E N T A R Y C O M P A R I SON FOR M U LATES I N S U PPORTA B L E TENSION.C A N N I B A L I S M . VAGES. BUT-A N D U N DOUBTEDLY FOR THIS-TH I S I S NOT WHAT THEY DO . S A Y T H E H A D J E R A I . NOT THE V A R I ETI ES. OR I T BE DEMANDED BY T H E C Y N I C S "TO A FF I R M TH E FIELD OF ACC E PTABLE A L L I A N C E : BETW E E N THOSE I NELIGIBLE FOR M A R R I AG E BECAUSE TOO NEAR RIGHTS OF T H E I N DI V I D U A L IN THE FACE OF SOCI ETY AND AGAI N ST A EVERY FORM MAKE OF MAN C I V I LIZA T I O N . B U T I T C A N A LSO S E R V E TO E X P R E S S OTH E R O P POSITIONS WHICH D E TE RM I N E P E R M I S­ REMAINS MEANS TO THOSE WHO CONTEST IT. OPPOSITION RESTS. TH E ONE DELI M ITING IT FROM THE OUTSI D E .A R E O N LY TH E I R I NT E R C H A N G E A B L E OWN S I G N I FICATION.E X O . THE THAT I N C EST M ENACES I NTE R I O R OR TO OF BE SOC I ETY: EATEN BY EXOC A N N I BA L I S M -TO EAT STRA N G E R S -R E S U LTS O N E X A GG E R A T E D SOC I A L GROUP E X OG A M Y FROM THE T H E CONTRARY I N A N WHICH MENACES IT IS TH E THE EXTERIOR. WHO A H ER O "TE M P E RS" A N D M A K E S M O R E C L E M E N T TOW A R DS M E N B Y POSS E S S I NG H E R WITH A PENI S M A D E OF I C E . FOR A N D T H O S E I N E L I G I B L E FOR M A R RI A G E B ECA U S E TOO D I STANT.A U T OC A N N I B A L I S M . OPPOSITION OF THE HUMAN AND THE I N H U M A N -B U T NOT THE I N VERSE-WHICH C A N B E C ON S I D E R E D A S COI NCI­ D I N G W I T H THAT WHICH AND DETE R M I N ES C O M E STI B LE THE POLI T I C A L RULER TO AND HIS THE USE OF T H E CAN N I BALI STIC M ETAPHOR. A FACT WHICH IS NOT S U R P R I S I NG. I N C EST.A L I M E N T A R Y I NC EST-FEELS MATE A REAL THE A RD E N T AND D E S I R E T O CONS U ­ THIS F R U ST R A T E D ORGA N I Z E TH E SOC I A L F I E L D CONJOI NTLY. A S WELL AS FOR THOSE WHO CONFORM. TH E VIEW IS NOT CONTRADICTED BY TH E MOVE M E NTS W H I C H I N G R E E C E ITSELF H A V E CONTESTED TH E SYSTEM OF VALUES WHICH E X P R ESSES IT BE THIS REJ ECTION : I NTO ENDOGAMY. WE I M MEDIATELY GIVE A RESPONSE THAT I S PERHAPS U N EXPECTED: THIS IS WHAT THEY TH I N K . OF W H I C H D I V E R S E FO R M S . IN BY M. O R TO TH E L I M ITS OF ITS SPACE. T H E C H I E F "EATS" M E N . I N DI V I D U A L A N D B I O LOGICAL D I SORDER: T H E EBR I E AND T H E ALLADIAN STU D I E D 57 . OR TH I S G E N E R A LIZED CAN N I BA L I S M . JUST AS I N C E ST C O D E ( A N D N O T O N L Y TH E C A N N I BA L) A R E FOUND I N TH E A M ER I N D I A N MYTHOLOGY: T H E M YTH O LOGIES OF C. SOM E STO R I E S A N ALYSED BY G. A PPEARS AS AN S U B­ OF PRE-H U M A N . IT POI NTS WITHOUT OUT "SA· ECONO M I C OF THE SUBJ ECTS. W R I T E S M . THUS AMORPHOUS MAGMA. W H I C H IS M ETAPHORIZED. G I V E A N E XC E S S I V E I M AGE EXCESS (IN THE ORDER OF ADMISSIBLE T E N D E R N E S S FOR EXA M PL E l . C A LA M E G R I A U L E M A K E A F I G U R E O F U N SO C I A L I Z E D S E X U A L I TY O U T OF EATI NG. DESI R E RETRANSFORM S ITSELF I NTO A L I M ENTARY A PPETITE. A S W E S E E . WH ETH E R I N TEGRATED I M PR U D E N T U N I ON WITH T H I S S T R A N G E FOR E I G N E R WHO I S T H E SE D U CTI V E OGR E ." BUT I N DICATION OF ANOTHER C U LTURE. MORE T H A N ORALITY. I N M Y T H S A N D TALES. MAKE IT A NOTH ER THE TWO T H I NG THAN AN HOMOLOG I E S BETW E E N DIFFERENT CODES. CANNIBALISM CAN. T H E V E R Y PROOF O F TH E ABSENCE OF C U LTURE. THE D E S I R E TO A BSORB. NOT ANOTH E R D E F I N ITION OF CULTURE. S I B L E A N D FORBI DDEN M A R R I AG E S . REPRESENTED ITSELF BY WAYS OF EATING.A SEXUAL M ET A P H O R . I T IS AGGRESSIVITY. CANNIBALISM.E N DO. RETICENT BROTH ER: OR THAT OF T H E S U N-WOMA N . A S WELL A S O F I T S P E R I L S O R S A N C T I O N S : ENDOCAN­ N I BA L I S M -EATI NG EXC E S S I V E WHICH O N E 'S KI N-EXPRESSES IS TO SAY AN D I SORDER: T H E G R E E K C I TY. DETI E N N E. TH E REJ ECTION OF C A N N I BALISTIC AND PRACTICE NON-COM ESTI BLE. F O R T H O S E W H O A R E L I M I T E D TO I M A G I N I NG IT. H A V I N G T A S T E D H E R O W N B LO O D . P R OH I B I T I O N S TH E STORY OF A G I R L WHO.A U T O . SI NCE FREUD WAS C E RTA I N LY NO C A N N I BAL! BUT I T IS TIME TO ASK IF THIS I S HOW THOSE WHO ARE THI N K A N D ACT. LEVI-STR A U S S G I V E S I N N U M E R A B L E E X A M PLES.

TH E FATA LEKA. A U THOR IZED TO TASTE HIS FLESH. . THE C A N N I BA LS A R E ALWAYS THE OTH ERS. B A L I S M . I N SHORT." PEOPLE WITHOUT GOOD MAN NERS: F E R ENTLY. AND THOSE THAT ACC EPT A CO M P R O M I S E " D EC I D I NG T H A T C E R TA I N SAC R I F I ­ CIAL VICTI MS-PIGS A N D GOATS . IS PU RELY I M A­ G I N A RY. . (OF WHOM) CANNIBAL C U STOMS. THAT PASSED SAVAGE MONSTROUS C A N N I BA­ E M PLOYS C A N N I BA L I STIC M ETAPHORS. IT IS C O N S U M PT I O N . A L L. THE C O M ESTI B L E THE (OR IS N OT A LWAYS LIABLE TO THEY PEOPLE TH E I R MYTHS WITH CHA RACTE RS WHO EAT ANYONE AT A LL-TH E I R NEAR KIN. IN THE WITH EYES SMOKE OF AND ODORS. POS ITIVE O R N EGATIVE. NATURE. I S ATT R I B UTED TO AN ANCIENT PEOPLE OF THE I NTERIOR . FOR BECOMES E V I D E NT: O N E C A N NOT M A R R Y A N YO N E . SINCE IT I S I N O P PO S I N G ITSELF THAT THE L A TT E R DEFI N E S MYTHICAL POPULATIONS-DI STANT IGNORANT OF ANY IN T I M E AND SPACE. A N D AT FI RST G L A N C E INCOMPR E H E N S I B L E : THEY TAKE O F F E N S E AT BEING TREATED AS EATERS-OF. TELLS HOW MAN RIAGEABLE. C A N N I ­ BALISM. NOR OF MORE O R LESS E LABORATE J USTI FI CATIONS. WHILE THE BE R EG I M E -"A PLAN OF P R I V I LEGED S I G N I FICATION TO D E FI N E TH E SYSTEM OF R E LATIONS BETWEEN M A N . EACH R E PR E S ENTS I N THE S A M E W A Y TH I S I N A D M ISSABLE ANTH ROPOPHAGY. M A Y BE COMPLETE OR NOT. BUT THIS I S NOT SO S U R E . GUIDIERI TELLS US. AND PREPA R E D IN ANY WAY AT ALL-RAW. NEAR OR N E IG H BORS WHO BEHAVE D I F­ ONE SEES THAT REAL C A N N I BA L I S M OUGHT NOT TO EXC L U D E I M AG I N A R Y C A N N I B A L I S M . "TH E FIVE NATIONS: FROM THE A I ROQUOI S. L I S M TO I N STITUTION A L I Z E D . DETI E N N E SHOWS. THE CON S U M M ATION. T H A T I S T O T H E PROPER M A N N E R OF E A T I N G M E N . . W H I C H EXISTED BEFO R E THE SOC I ETY OF MEN . AS WITH THE FORE WHO CUT U P THE DEAD I N EATING TH E M . WHAT DO THEY SEEM TO TH E M ­ N O LACK OF R U LES. ." THE M ETHODS O F COOKI N G AND OF P R E P A R ATION VARY AS WELL FROM ONE GROUP TO A NOTH ER. THE VICT I M 'S SEX I S I M PORTANT TO C E RTA I N OF TH E M WHO ONLY EAT MALE I N D I VI D U A L S AND EXCLUDE TH I S WOM E N .: AN EXAMPLE T O B E AVO! DED. F I N A LLY. THIS HAS N OT H I N G TO DO WITH A GENERALIZED THOSE W H O S E E M T O US T O BE C A N N I ­ B A L S 1 A C U R I O U S PROBLE M . . "OPPOSE TO THEIR I NSTITU­ ITSELF. A N D EQUALLY I M A G I N A RY. . C O M P L E T E L Y U N ATTESTED AND E V E R YW H E R E D R E A DE D . T H E G U Y A K I H A V E NO N E E D OF M YTHS TO CONDEMN CANNIBALISM: THEY EAT TH E I R OWN O N E WILL SAY THAT THERE R E M A I N S ' A N I R R EDU­ C I B L E DIFFERENCE BETWEEN T H E C A N N I BALS AND T H E OTH ERS: J U ST A S S E V E R E A S T H E FI RST C A N BE IN T H E I R CON D E M N ATION OF S A V A G E C A N N I ­ DEAD A N D IT I S WELL.A R E NOT. THIS APPEARS I NCONTEST­ A B L E -E S P E C I A LLY TO US WHO G I V E C A N N I BA L I S M IN OTH E R WORDS. WHO ARE R U LES. I F O N E P R E F E R S . S I N C E ONE C A N NOT BE CONTENT A R O M AT I C LIKE THE GODS.M A N M UST PLACE H I M S E L F SOM EWH E R E " B E TW E E N B EASTS AND IS GODS. C A R N A L A L I M E NTATION I S A FORM O F A NTH ROPOPHAGY. IS NEVER A G E N E R A L A N D S I L L Y D E F I N ITION. STRICT PYTHAGO R I A N S . G R E E KS . ONE IS A LWAYS SOM E O N E ELSE'S C A N N I BAL. STRONGLY R E P ROVED. TIONALIZED C A N N I B A L I S M A SAVAGE C A N N I BALISM. IN HIS A L I M ENTA R Y U NORDERED: T H E FOR . THIS C A N N I BA L I S M . A R E SYSTEMATI­ CA LLY OPPOS ED TO RITUAL PRACTICES. THE D I STRI BUTION OF PARTS MAY BE ANTH ROPOPHAGY A L L E LO P H A G Y . CHODOW I E D SPEAKS. T H E F A C T I S T H A T T H E Y E A T M E N A N D THAT THE LATT E R 00 NOT. AND THE ENDOC A N N I BALS WHO DO DO NOT EAT FOR E I G N E RS. OF WHOM U . THE B A S I C M YTH OF THE CELEBRATED POLITICAL ASSOCIATION. OR THE MORIBUND MAY " D ET E R M I N E WHICH OF HIS KIN W I LL BE LITTLE BIT O F A C A N N I BAL. PROH I B ITIONS PARALLELISM S I M PLY WITH WITH SEXUAL MATRIMONIAL) U N D E RSTOOD-A N D P E R H A PS EVEN THEM SELVES. . R E A L C A N N I BA L I S M EXOCA N N I BA LS. AND THE S U P E R N A T U R A L" FOR THE OTH ERS D O N O T TA K E MAY BE INTO ACCOUNT. DO NOT EAT T H E I R DEAD. T H E Y A R E TRUE: C A N N IBALS. BUT IT MAY P R ACTI C E G E N E R A L. ANOTH E R PARALLELISM EXTENDS D I R EC T I O N : P R I M ITIVE SAVAGE C A N N I BA L I S M PA I R E D WITH "PRO M I SC U ITY." A AND IF TH E OF R E SERVED FOR C E RTA I N CATEGO R I ES OF I N D I VID­ U A LS. NOTABLY THOSE OF M A R RIAGE AND OF DI ET." AS FOR TH E I ROQUOI S. PRECISELY THE "SAVAGES. I N BRIEF T H E R E I S SB . I F. T H E PROH I B ITION OF SAVAGE C A N N I BA L I S M DOES NOT EXC LUDE R E A L THE C A N N I BA L A N D TH E NON­ C A N N I BA L I S M . G I V :. A PA R A LL E L I S M . I N C ESTUOUS C A N N I BA LS. . EXAM PLE. A S M ." O N E AND T H E OTH E R EQUALLY R EJ ECTED . O R . E V E RYTH I NG DEPENDS ON THE POI N T OF V I EW. SOC I A LIZED. ANY "KISSABLE" A P E R SO N IS NOT A L WA Y S THAT M A R­ IN IS E X A M PLE-AND I T I S N ECESSARY TO DESTROY TH E M OR TO B R I N G TH E M T O R E A SON. TH E FUTU RE VICTIM MAY H A V E H I S WORD TO SA Y. THE GUAIANI. . ONE O N LY MODALITY R I S K S B E I N G I N E V I T A B LY A A LEATORY O R REGULATED. C A N N I B A L JOI N I N CON D E M N I N G I N T H E S A M E WAY AND FOR T H E S A M E R E A SO N S AN U N R ESTRA I N E D C A N N I BA LI S M . AND I N T H I S S E N S E O N E C A N S A Y THAT THEY RESPECT THE SAME PROH I BI T I O N : ON E C A N NOT EAT EVERYTH I NG. WHO KILL TH E I R E N E M I ES A N D EAT TH E M . BUT THEIR NEIGHBORS.M E N . A N D T H E S E OTH E R S ARE C A N N I B A L I S M .F I R S T OF SELVES. W H I C H .

THE C A NNOT SLAUGHTER O F W H O M I S T H E OBJECT O F A FOR M A L PROH I BITION. FOR THE I ROQUOIS. COM B I N E A N D H A V E THE S A M E B R E A DTH. I L L U STRATED BY WHICH C O U L D B E A G E N E R A L T H EORY OF C A N N I ­ BALISTIC STR U C T U R E S . A N D T H E PERTI NENT OPPOSITION I S T H U S ONE W I L L FIND. THE E R RO R N O T T O B E COMMITTED I S THAT OF CONTENTI N G ONESELF WITH A M A T E R I A L. THE SON AND TH E GREEKS. CAN ONE EFFECTIVE A A L I MENTARY J U OG E D SAY C A N N I BA L B Y T H E AS W E LL T H A T COULD J UST EVERYONE I S O N E . T H I S IS NOT BECAUSE THE LATTER A R E MORE D E LECTABLE. T H E Y EAT T H O S E FATH ERS WITH WHICH THEY C A NNOT FLESH FARM COWS. FURNISH A LANGUAGE FOR C A N N I B A L I S M : WITH I N A GROUP. COPULATE: AND MOTHE R S DO NOT EAT T H E I R SONS AND DAUGHTE RS. J UST A S I NCEST A N D C O R R E L A T I V E LY THE A UT H O R I Z E D ALLIANCE A DOPTED. CA N N I B ALS N EG A T I O N PHANTASM AND ONE ENCOUNTERS T H E MSELVES ONLY THE THI S IN A SPEAK " E L E M E NT A R Y EVEN KINSHIP WHEN AND S T R U CT U R E THEY ARE CANNIBALISM." T H I S R ESTRICTION I S EXPLA I N E D B Y TH E CLOS E N E S S O F C O W A N D M A N : F U N D A M E NTAL­ LY M EAT IS MORE OR LESS M A N . TH E AS FOR I NCEST AND THE SEXUALITY I S EASI LY U N D ERSTOOD. C A LLED "BROTH ERS-IN-LAW. N A T U R A LLY: T H E G U Y A K I EAT THE B E LO N G DEAD AND IN THE GROUP TO WHICH BECAUSE TH E Y ITS THOSE OF EXOGAM Y A N D EN DOGAM Y. TH I S IS NOT B EC A U S E OF ANY EFFECTIVE R E S E M BLANCE. WHAT IS DETE R M I N I NG FOR TH E I ROQUOIS AND THE TUPI IS TO LESS A KINSHI P THAN THE F I ELD EXPLAI N S T H E M U LT I P L I C I TY O F SYSTEMS. I T IS B EC A U S E OF T H E QUASI­ SOCI A L STATUS OF T H E A N I M A L S I M I LA R LY. AND EXOC A N N I BA LI S M . TH E GROUP THAT O N E TOOK P R I SO N E R WAS A L SO THAT FROM WHICH ONE BROUGHT IN BACK FULL P EO P L E . AT LEAST POTEN T I A LLY. E V E R Y C A R N I VO R E I S A C A N N I BAL. AS ARE O R D E R E D SI M U LT A N EOUSLY ACCOR D I N G TO M A N Y A X E S . FOR TH E TUPI. C A N N I B A L I S M I S A W A Y OF TH I N K I N G M O R E THAN A WAY OF E A T I N G . BOTH PRACTI C I NG C A N N I BA L I S M WITH TH E I R PRISONERS ARE WITH WHICH. R IGHT IN WHO. IS THE M E AT. T H E R E AGA I N THE M ETAPHORICAL AND REVERSIBLE L I A I SO N OF CA N N I BA L I S M AND FORM A LLY DEFI N E S ITSELF B Y T H E G E N E A LOG I C A L POSITION OF TH E P A R T N E R . T H I S I S I N EVITABLE FOR THE G U Y A K I . BUT O N E EATS STRA NGERS. I L LUSTRATED B Y THE GUYAKI. I N TASTE FOR EXAM PLE. BUT CONSIDERED I N TH E L I G H T OF TH E I R COM M U N A L H I STORY." D E T E R M I N ATES. T H E PROH I B I TION A N D PRESC R I PTION O F C A N N I BA L I S M DEFI N E S ITSELF FOR M A LLY BY THE SOC I A L POSI TION O F HIM WHO M U ST BE EATEN. IF ONE FORBIDS ONESELF T H E E A TI NG OF ONE'S KIN. IT W A S A POSSI B I LITY EXPRESSED E N E MY BY THE LANGUAGE. N OT WHO OF IS DEFINE BY A LL I A N C E OFTEN THI S PHANTASM. A N D T H O S E THAT WERE EATEN WERE THUS THOSE W ITH WHOM O N E BIOLOGICAL D E F I NI T I O N OF C A N N I BA L I S M : TO EAT MEN. THE TUPI. ATE T H E M OR O N E ADOPTED THEM. ONE C A N SAY THAT NO O N E IS A C A N N I B A L. THE THE FORM E R I S NOT D O N E . OTH E R S . AT THE S A M E T I M E. EXCEPT IN THE I M A G I N AT I O N . PROH I B I T I O N S C O N S E Q U E NTLY. NON E ATE EACH OTH E R : THOSE THAT T H EY ATE THEY I MA G I N E D B Y A L L A S SUPPOSED ELSEWHERE. THE V A R I ANTS M UST BE THE OTH E R TWO POPULATIONS. E V E N THOSE OF ANOTH E R NATION: TH E I R V I CTI M S WERE FO R E I G N E RS. K I N OR NOT. V A R I A B I LITY O F THE PROHIBITED IN FACT. S I N C E T H E NOMENCLATURE OF K I N S H I P S U F F I C E S T O I N DICATE WHO CAN OF AND AN C A NNOT BE EATEN. I F THE FLESH OF T H E F A R M COW M UST NOT BE C ON S U M E D . A P P A R TE N A N C E POLITI C A LLY DEFINED GROUP. ONE E A T S R E A L OR POTENTI A L A LLIES. HOWEVE R FROM THE ACCOR D I N G R EG I M E.PROPERLY A C T U A LLY S P E A K I NG ." M ETA PHORI Z I N G THE NON-C A N N I BALS I NVERSELY. OR TO R ECONS I D E R THE E X A M P L E OF THE D I D N O T W I S H TO FORGE A L I N K OF K I N S H I P. I T IS U N D E R STOOD THAT THESE NOTI O N S ARE RELATIVE. A L L I A N C E. O N E F I N A LLY. AND RECI PROCA LLY: BROTHER H ERE. ALLI E S O R NOT. A FLESH ESTI MATED TOO C LO S E TO THAT OF MAN. IT IS BEC A U S E DA UGHTER . I N T H E T H I R D CASE. TWO G RO U PS THAT WAGE W A R P E R IODICALLY. ENTERED M ATRI M ON I A L F I E LD: THOSE ADOPTED COU L D H A V E B E E N EATEN J UST A S THOSE E A T E N C O U L D H A V E B E E N ADOPTED. S I N C E THE O N LY PEOPLE EXCLUDED FROM TH E RITUAL WERE THE FATH E R AND M OT H E R . P R I SO N E R S T H A T T H E Y B R O U G H T THE I R EXPEDITIONS W E R E THE OBJECT O F A CHOICE. SO M E EXAMPLES WHICH GIVE AN I DEA-A FOR E T A ST E -O F THAT T H A T OF E N DOCA N N I B A L I S M . WHICH THE WOM E N HAD OF GROUPS FROM ONE TA K E N P R I SO N E R S FOR T H E P U R POSE O F EATI NG THEM COULD BE M A R R I ED. OF AND THAT M EAT HAVE TIES OF K I N S H I P. I N THIS R E V I EW. SINCE R EAL. T H A T OF K I N S H I P . FOR A SOCIOLOG I C A L R E A S O N . T H E Y A L MOST I N EVITABLY !lEI . WITH THAT OF M A N . THE BROTH E R OR THE S I STER OF THE DEAD PERSON. HIS LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. DO THEY NOT FOR M A EFFECT I V E WEAK N ESS. THUS. OF EXOCA N N I B A LS. A N D AS ROUSSE A U ALSO THOUGHT (SEE EMILEI. AND S I STER DO NOT EAT THE TWO EACH OTH E R . TO BE BUT. I ROQUO I S D I D NOT EAT I ROQUOIS. ONE COULD OF C A N NIBALISM THUS DOES NOT E X I ST.

PRIZE T H E LATT E R . ON T H E POI N T OF BEING EATEN. S I NC E ONE ON LY K I L LS ONE'S C A R N I VO R E . SHOULD B E T A K E N I NT O CONSIDERATION. B A L I S M T O SOC I A LIZED C A N N I BA L I S M I NC I T E D T H E I N VENTION OF C U L I N A RY P R E PA RATION A N D TABLE M A N N ERS. BE DEAD AND L I V I NG. RELIGION. CA N N I B A L PEOPLES H A V E B E E N D I SCUSSED. W R I T E S H . CA N N I BA L I S M . O N T H E CONTRARY. THE CANNIBAL STI LL. B U T O N E SAYS NOTHI N G A BO U T T H E E V E N T U A L D I V I SION BETW E E N COM M E N SA LS. LET TH E F L E S H OF T H E C A D A V E R D E C A Y . PO R A R I L Y . I T WOU L D THUS BE SI M PLISTIC TO SAY THAT O N E K I LLS TO EAT. G RO U P . DO NOT KILL TO EAT. PROPER LY S P E A K I NG. " (M. T H I S D O E S NOT M E A N THAT THE I ROQUOIS M A D E WAR S I M PLY TO K I L L AND EAT: THEY FOUGHT TO TA K E PRISONERS. MEN AND A N I M A LS . T H E CON S U M PTION G E N E R­ E N E M I ES. BUT A FT E R SO LONG A DELAY THAT O N E COU LD NO LONGER CONSIDER EX ECUTION. S I M PLY C A PTURED ENEMY. P E R H A PS ONE M U ST S E E I N T H E S E TORTU R E S A SORT O F C U I S I N E . DO NOT EAT THOSE THEY H A V E K I LLED: TH E Y TUPI EAT TH E I R AND "DEAR DEPA RTED. I N TO THE E F F E CT I V E LY. C LASTRES. AND EVEN. I T I S A C U LT U R A L PHENOM ENON.l LS WHO WERE EATEN. AS FOFl T H E TUPI. JOI N IN CON­ M U R DERER WAS T H E ONLY O N E NOT TO PA RTICI ­ PATE I N T H E D I N N E R . O N E COU L D SAY. A L L I E D A N D FOR E I G N . A N D W I T H O U T A DO U BT T H E SYSTEM OF C A T E GO R I E S E L A BO R A T E D BY CLAUDE LEVI­ I ROQ U O I S EXPLAIN STR A U S S WOULD B E A P P LICABLE H E R E TOO. ON THE WHOLE IT RESI D U . CON S E Q U E NTL Yl A N D T H A T O N E C A N E A T THOSE T H A T O N E HAS K I L LED-TH I S IS POLIC E D I ROQ U O I S I N F LICTED ATROC IOUS TREAT M E N T O N TH E I R P R I SONERS. I S REGULATED CON S U M PTION --<lFT E N T A K I N G PLACE IN A VERY E L A BO R A T E R I T U A L-OF A C OO K E D WERE PREPARI NG TO DINE AT HIS EXPENSE WERE GOI N G TO REC UPERATE TH E I R C A N N I B A LIZED DEAD BY I NGESTING SAID HIM. I NC I T E D THEM WHICH TO T H E TUPI THEIR C A D A V E R O F W H I C H C E RTA I N ORGANS C O U L D B E RESERVED GORIES OF OR FOR B I D D E N TO C E RTA I N CATE­ EXPLICITLY EAT PERSONS. THE DEMOG R A PH­ IC AND THUS POLI T I C A L I M PO R T A N C E O F TH E FROM THE SYSTE­ F I N ALLY. IF FOR I NT E G R A T E D . I ROQUOIS OF PURE STR A I N WERE QUITE RARE. T H E FI RST I S TH E SOLITA R Y EATING OF A JEAN POUI LLON 60 . HAD BEEN THEM. ''TH EM T O H A V E B E E N MUCH B E TT E R DETE R M I N E D . C A N N I BA LS N O N -C A N N I B A LS D EM N I NG I T IN T H E N A M E OF T H E S A M E P R I N C I PA LS OR ORDER AND OF THE PRECISE D E L I M ITATION TH E PASSAGE FROM SAVAGE AND MYTHIC C A N N I ­ BETW E E N N A T U R E A ND C U LTURE. GODS. ON THE N EC E SSARY T O EAT T H E L I V I NG. TH E CONCEP­ TION O F T H E WORLD A N D MAN. O N L Y T H E BONE S B E I N G THROWN AWAY. THOSE W H O PRACTICE IT OPPOSE A C A N NI B A L I S M T H A T I S DISHONORABLE. IN BE EVERY CASE. THOSE THE THINGS M U ST PLACED C O R R ECTLY THAT WERE N'T WANTED. EVIDE NTLY. "TH E KI L L E D AND ATE A L L THEIR P R I SONERS. " MOREOVER. W A S A LSO A R E C U P E RATIO N . POI NT IS OF A N ALYSIS GUIDIERI I ROQUOIS MATIC WAS FEDE RATION CAME PARTICULARLY REVEALING FROM THIS VIEW. I S N O T T H E S A M E E N E M I ES. SO M UC H SO THAT. I N A NTICI PATION. WITH R E G A R D TO T H I S . IS A L M OS T IN THE A LW A Y S A IT I S A L S O NECESSARY T O TAKE I NTO ACCO U N T THE M A N N E R I N WHICH T H E O N E WHO I S EATEN DIED: FROM A NATU RAL O R A VIOLENT DEATH. AND E V I DENTLY. T H E SECON D. E N OOCA N N I B A L GROUP7 THE TUPI SEEM TO BE CONSCIOUS OF TH I S : T H E V A LOROUS WARRIOR. I N FACT. A N D THAT THOSE WHO L I V I NG B E I NG THAT ONE EATS RAW. AS AT THE M O M E NT OF THEIR THEY TEM­ NO CANNIBALISM GROUP MAKES OF C A N NOT I SOLATED F R O M R E P R E S E NT A T I O N S T H A T SOC I ET Y ITSELF AND FOR OTH E R S . OR FROM THE H A N D OF THOSE WHO H E I S GOI NG TO NOURISH. PRACTICED. IN A PEOPLE AND USAGE OF TH I S M ETHOD.S I N G LE. SOME. DETA I N N El. O N E WOU L D H A V E L I K E D . M AKES. T H E TORTU RES ENDURED B Y T H E VICTI M S B E FO R E TH E I R E X ECUTION SHOULD N O T B E N EG LECTED: WAY BACK. THEY WERE LON G E R A N YON E I N PARTI C U L A R . THAT T H E THE EXAMPLE OF R. O N C E THE M I S U N D E R S TA N D I NG S AND A R E DISSI PATED. O R T H E PEOPLE WITH WHOM ONE LIVES-TH I S IS "SAVAGE" C A N N I BA L I S M -BUT I T I S F I R ST N ECESSARY T O K I L L ( E N E M I E S. OF THE FATA L E K A . THE E N DOC A N N I BA LS. AND THEY TOOK PRISONERS WITH TH E P U R POSE OF A DOPTI NG A GOOD N U M B E R . VENGEANCE. IT IS NOT A L L O V E R . O P PO S I T I O N BETW E E N F L E S H A N D BONES. T H E Y A N O M A M I . T H E C U I S I N E." THAT I N V E R S E LY. A L L Y IS TOTAL. AT T H E S A M E T I M E . AFTER THE THEIR EXPEDITIONS. THEY O R D E R E D WOR L D: P A R E NTS. THE THAT IS WHY. N E V E R FAILS TO R E M I N D H I S TORTU R E R S OF HOW M A N Y OF T H E M H E HAD EATEN I N T H E PAST. T H E N C L E A N A N D P U L V E R I S E T H E BON E S W H I C H T H E Y E A T M I XE D W I T H A B A N A N A P U R E E . FOR H ON O R A B L E C A N N I BA L I S M .

. . . . . . . 5 PERSONS MY ASSOCIATES K I L L E D . . . . (2) D I A BOLI C A L CONFESSION THAT I S . (2) Y ESSI MOBIO BOTTY: K I LLED TWO O F A M I A N . . . . . . . . . B I N G E R V I LLE R E P U B L I C OF T H E IVORY COAST BUEGRE-B R I : KILLED A G O U A TC H A GOUA AND A KOUATC H A YOUA . . . . . . . . . O W N MOTH E R. . . . . . . 1 954 C H I L D R E N : BEUGRE. . . . . . . A N D T H E N M Y C H I LD D J A N N E . . . . . . .M O B I O WHO WAS P R I E STS IN DJOKE-BRI'S Y A R D. . . . . . . . NANGUY TOH I 4 . 2 5. . . . . . . . . . . . I FOU N D TWO AHlMAN LOBA: KILLED A TO B I O. . A H l M A N LOBA 2. . . . . . MY I LL N E S S HAS G ROWN WHOSE N A M E I DO NOT K NOW . . . . . . AGREEM E NT. . . . . . . M Y O L D E R BROTH E R N'GBA D J U I . . . . . . (2) KOFFI KPA: KILLED N ' M LOUYA AND A N EW-BO R N C H I LD W I T H O U T N A M E . . . . 2 3 PERSONS K I LLED 1 B PERSONS K I LLED BY MY ASSOC I ATES "LET THE A U D I E N C E K N O W T H A T THI S PASSAGE I S NOT COMMON: CASE. . . . . M Y S I S T E R A K R A I WHO HAD JUST GIVEN B I RTH. . . . . . . . . . . EACH OF U S MUST GIVE TWO PERSONS ACCOR D I NG TO OUR T H A T I S . . . . . TH R E E D I O U LAS WITHOUT N A M E S 5 . . . . . . . . . . . . . ME AWAY WITHOUT SAYING A N YTHI N G TO PREGNA NT. . .APPE N D I X N A NGUY TOH I : K I LLED AGOUSSI-BRI A N D H E R C H I L D YUEMIN . . W A S T E M PT E D BY T H E I O P E N LY DEC L A R E THAT I A M A D E V I L. . . . SHORTLY THEREA FT E R I G A V E U P T H I S PLANTATION. . . . . . 1 . . . . . . . . 61 . LOGA I D J U I . . . (2) STRONGER. . . T H E OTH E R'S NAME I 00 NOT KNOW . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 9 PERSONS A S S OC I A T E D. . . H E R E A R E MY ASSOCI ATES' N A M ES: MY C H I L D D J A N N E A N D DJOMAN-BIE WERE G I V E N U P TO T H E D E V I L S B Y M E . TO GIVE HER TO THE D E V I LS . . . . I H A V E STA Y E D WITH THEM I N ORDER TO DO BY WAY OF MY D I A BOLICAL ACTIVITY I K I LLED M Y EVERYT H I N G A N D EAT W I TH THEM. I CHOSE DJOM AN-BIE T O B E K I LLED FI RST. . . . THERE ARE 1 0 OF US DEVILS A SSOC I A T E D IN ORDER TO EAT: 7 E B R I E S A N D 3 D I O U LAS. KOFFI A K PA 7. . . . . . (2) OFFICE OF T H E S E C RETA R Y O F PRO P H ET ATCHO A LB E RTS A S SOC I AT I O N B R EGBO P. . ." IT I S EXCLUSIVELY A D I A BOLICAL DAMAGES AND M I SD E E D S I D R I N K H U M A N B L OO D A N D I EAT H U M A N F L E S H . . . . . . . . I .M I N'S AUGUST 22. . 1 8 PERSONS WHICH M EA N S A LTOGETHER . . 5 P E R S O N S K I LL E D. . . . . . . . NAME: LOGA I D J U I SEX: FEMALE V I LLAGE: ABIGJAN-ADJ A M E RACE: E B R I E RELIGION: HARRIS SUMMARY: THEREFORE I K I L L E D . . . . . . . . . M Y BROT H E R J E A N N A N TC H IO. . . . . . . . . . . SOLD DJOKE-BRI'S PLANTATIO N . . . . THE PERSONS K I LL E D BY MY ASSOCI ATES: ONCE I WANTED TO GO AND TAKE D J OM A N . . . . . . . FROM THAT VERY DAY. . . . . .B I E . THESE TWO P R I ESTS T U R N ED ME. . THAT IS WHY SHE C A N NOT HAVE 6. . . . . . I THAT I S . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ( 2 ) T H E D I O U LA S K I L L E D 6 PERSONS WHOSE N A M E S I DO NOT K NOW . . . . . . . . MOMO GBEKRAI 3. ENDED DEVILS AND I UP EATING T H E I R M EAT. . .B I E BY FORCE. . . . " . . . . . . . . . . . B E UGRE-BRI I CONVERTED MYSELF I NTO A M A N TO SLEEP W I T H D J A KO. . . A N D M Y SON AKE G U I A N I .O. . YESSI MOBIO CH I LD R E N A N Y M O R I!:. . . . . . . . . . (2) MOMO N ' B EGZA I : KILLED A N NO H AND A NOTH E R FROM THAT M O M ENT. . . . ALOKE D J E B A . .

STILL DAMP FROM LOVE THAT TRICKLES SOFT A LONG WHITE T H I G H S RIGHT TO ITS LIP.I GAVE SOME D I S E A S E S TO A L MOST E V E RYBODY I N TH I S COU RT. ELSEWH E R E I A M A LWAYS W E LL. H U S BAND. U PO N THE PEBBLES OF A U B U R N M A R L. P A U L V E R LA I N E A N D A R TH U R R I M B A U D OFTEN M Y MOUTH I S P R ESSED AGA I NST I T S HOLE. SO THAT I CAN FORGET A H O B R I AT A L L A N D I A LWAYS TAKE H E R BLOOD. ZOBERMAN TO F I N D A WAY TO DIE RELIGION. I AM V E R Y U PS E T. F E M A L E C A N A A N F I R M L Y MOIST A N D F I L L E D WITH PROM I S E D E E P. TH E SO N N ET O F THE HOLE IN THE ASS PAUL VERLAINE OFTE N MY S O U L W I L L Y E A R N FOR A FUCK WITH FLESH. M Y V I LLAGE TO TAKE ATC H O A LB E RT'S WATER OF BLESSING. INVENIT N EST O F T H R O B B I N G S I G H S. AND E LS E W H E R E TOO. NOW I A M NOT PLEASED WITH TH I S WATER B EC A U S E I T TA K E S AWAY FROM U S THE W A Y OF ONCE. FECIT I T S T H E O P E N O L I V E I N ECSTA SY. Y E ZOU DJAKO. AND I T TA K E S I T FOR ITS D A N K EST D R I PSTONE. WHEREAS I AM REALLY A D E V I L AND I SEE E V ERYTH I NG THAT THE D E V I L S O F M Y V I LLAGE DO. I A S K E V E RYBODY I N M Y V I LLAGE. PRESENCE NEVER B E FO R E BR E GBO RETURN I DO NOT WANT TO S E E TH E M ANY LONG E R . I D E C I D E D TO MAKE A D E V I L OF MYSELF TH E M IN SO THAT I ORDER WOULD B E R E P R I M A N DED BY IN TH I S (SIGN E D ) : LOGA I D J U I TRAN SLATED B Y P . ITS D A R K A N D P U C K E R E D L I K E A VIOLET ROSE IT PULSES. B E N EATH T H E ZEPHYR BLOWING C R U EL. EXC E PT D I E K E A N D R E . ATC H O A L B E RT. P R A Y FOR MY ON THE OTH E R HAND I DO N OT L I K E A H I BA K E S A K E SO THAT I FORGOT TO PRAY FOR SAY MY F I N A LLY RECOVER A N D-WHAT I TOO-A SK GOD TO FORG I V E M E . T H E BLOWN FLUTE IN T H E A I R : LITTLE DROPS LIKE T E A R S OF MILK HAVE W E PT. AT A COME TI M E I TO WANTED PEOPLE IN M R. H U M BLY H I DD E N A M I DST THE MOSS. BUT G O D D I D N O T G I V E ME A W A Y . M R. I D I D S O BEC A U S E ONCE H E C H A S E D A FTER A WOM A N . E V E R YTH I N G T H A T N O W H A P P E N S THROUGH T H E TH E H A R R I S A POSTLES U PSET M E . T H I S I S WHY I A M A LWA YS ILL WHEN I STAY AT HIS HOUSE. R E C OV E R . TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE 62 . OF WHICH I A M NOT PLEASED. WOULD BR E GBO S U F F E R I NG F R O M THE S A M E I LLNESSES. O B E Y I NG T H E SLOPE A N D H E E D I NG ITS C A LL. I TR I E D T O GO A S A DEVIL TO HARM MY EATING AND DOI NG WHAT WE WANT. A R TH U R R I M BA U D I T S THE C E LESTI A L T U B E DO W N W H I C H A L L FONDANTS F R E E L Y FLOW. I BESEECH YOU. THEY DECLARED THAT WE WHO HAD NOT C O N F E S S E D GOI NG AND TO IN TH E I R WOU L D FROM D E V I LS. S A KE. A N D M Y BROTH E R DJO M A N . MY D E V I L D I S L I K E S ONLY THIS GI RL.

SLAVES. T H U S DOES TH E I R W A STE BECOME THE LOW L Y ' S O N E N O U R I S H M E NT : TH E I R F I LT H C L E A N S E S THE S L A V E : T H E I R FOU L N E S S S E E M S A AFTER A SLAVE H A S FANTASIZED H I M S E L F AS A N A N I M A L. DOES T H E SLAVE I NGEST.COPROPHAGY A N D U R I N OLOGY I WISH TO I NTRODUCE THI S MOST EXTR E M E TR U E LOW N ESS OF BEI NG. A N D R A R E PERFUME. WHEN G R O WS W O R L D-TH E Y THEY A RE ARE MORE PROFESSES HIS A M BITION AND ATTRACTION TO BE AS ONE W I TH THE FECES AND URINE OF THE WO N D E R F U L SLAVE THAN D I S G U ST I N G -T H E A TO COCOON CARRY OF HIS D E VO U T L Y SACKS PREPARES BOXES SUPERIOR. UTTE R LY ATTA I N S B E CO M E S D I S G U ST I N G . TH ESE SU BSTA NCES. AS WELL. H E M A Y D E VOUR IDENTITY.E F F A C E M E N T . U N LE S S SHE REGARDS PRODUCTS WITH T H E SA M E GLAMORIZED E Y E S A S T H E MASOC H I ST. MOVES O N T O ACTI N G L I K E F U R N I T U R E A N D BEING INVISI BLE. A PET. A R E R E V E R E D A N D SOUGHT A FTE R B Y THE M ASOC H I ST AS THE SOURCE OF H I S TRUE TH E SLAVE D E I F I E S THESE SUBSTA N C E S. T H E SA M E P R I N C I PLE I S AT W O R K H E R E -TH E S U B M I S­ S I V E SOUL THAT C L I NGS TO E V E R YTH I NG. MAKE SLAVE HIM I NVERTED VI LENESS THROUGH H I S CONCENTRATION O N WHAT IS COM M O N L Y REGA RDED AS THE MOST VILE SEEKS TO OTH ERS. H I S CONTACT W I T H T H E M C O N F I R M S H I S 63 . HIS PRIDE DRIVES HIM O N TO MORE LOW L I N E SS LOG I C ALL ELA BORATE AND I N D E N T I F I C A T I O N S W I TH HIS THUS DOES THE M A SOC H I S T SEEK OUT HIS S E LF . IT I S V E R Y PEC U L I A R TO THE SUPE RIOR TO R E A L I ZE TH E S L A V E WORS H I PS H I S OR H E R WASTE MORE THAN A N Y G OO D Q U A LITY." A N D SUCH LIKE. THE SUPERIOR CAN HE TA K E OR NO PRIDE IN SUCH TH E I R FETI S H I S M B Y R E M I N D I NG T H E S U P E R I O R O F THE OCCA SION TH E I R WHEN SHE OR HE UP M A Y H A V E NOTIC E D THEY HAVE SLAVE PICKING CRUMBS DROPPED ON T H E FLOOR A N D EATI NG T H E M . IN T H I S POOR WAY. HE SUBSTA N C E O N E A RTH. U N EQ U I VOCALLY REGA R D E D AS HORRID." "SHOWER OF SWEETN ESS. HE A N D WORTH­ THIS END. SUB-H U M A N . B U T FECES A N D U R I N E ARE TH E RAW IN MATE R I A L THIS FOR A LL THAT EXI STS NO AND LESSNESS AND PERSONI FI E D. A N D SO POSESS. PLASTIC AND PRECIOUS SACRA M E N T H O M E WITH H I M. T H E N A W O R M . EVEN THE LEAVI NGS OF HIS B E LOVED S U PERIOR. A S U B M I SS I V E B E YO N D A MONG SLAVES. H I S B E LOVED SUPERIOR. GIVING TH E M SUCH NAMES AS "GOLDEN E L I X I R.

ME HOW TH E M : ITS TRUE.) N O W . BESI DES. I'M J U ST A TOILET. M I STRESS. A N D ATTRACTION TO WHAT I S DEAD.) PLEASE.J 64 . YES. PISS ON ME. MY M I STRESS. T H ING. ON E . EVERY DAY. M I STRESS. USEFUL YOU R MOUTH CLEAN C ENTRAL STATION. IT IS ADVISED TO AVOI D I NDULGING TH E SLAVE SO THAT H E R E M A I N S I N A STATE OF CONSTANT LO N G I N G WOM EN SQUATTI NG OVER YOU R FACE." TH E R E IS A SENSUOUS A P P E A L IN TH E COU RSING OF THE A HOT LIQU I D OVE R THE BODY-AS WELL. PLEASE. OFF H E R S HOE. ANYTH I NG YOU SAY. S LA V E IS I NG ORIFICE. B UT YOU H A V E T O L E A R N T O MOVE U P I N THE WORLD. L I K E A FLOW OF BLOOD. AS NO DEGREDATION CAN S U R PASS THIS M : YOU'RE THE TYP E WHO T H I N KS IT WOULD BE HEAVEN TO H A V E H U N D R E DS O F ST R A N G E 5: I'M SORRY. Y O U W E R E S A Y I N G YOU WANTED TO SERVE AS MY TOILET. MOVING OBJECTS. I WANT T O BE Y O U R TOILET! S : A S MANY A S YOU W I LL G I V E ME. I KNOW YOU WILL. FI LTH DIALOG U E S: I ' L L P A Y . ADMIT IT.TH E M OR M E R E LY HOLD T H E M IN HIS MOUTH FOR A SPAS MODIC I N STANT B E FORE SPITTING THEM OUT. TH I S BEHAVIOR IN C R E ATES SUCH REVULSIVE S: WILL YOU PLEASE WATCH M E CLEAN OUT TH E U R I N A LS WITH MY TONGUE? CO N T E M PT THE SUPERIOR FOR T H E W E A K M: WOM EN DON'T USE U R I NALS. I DIOT. I'LL PAY. T O E A R N YOUR FI RST YOU MUST SHOW CAN BE. SO S: ITS TRUE. M I STRESS. M . SHAME­ YOU R DON'T C A TC H SUCH BECAUSE ( I ) U R I N E I S STER I L E A N D ( 2 ) THE FLOW M A K E S IT S E E M FRESH AND LIVE. U S I N G YOU A S TH E I R SEWER. I DON'T L I K E TO SIT DOWN ON C H A I N E D T O THE TOILET A N D L I E S ON THE FLDOR. FLDOR! (HOLDS H I S H E A D DOWN WITH H E R FDOT. R E A DY AND WILLING AT ALL TI MES TO RECEIVE A DOSE OF H I S BELOVED COM M U N ION. T H E TOI LET-SLAVE ENJOYS B E I N G R E F E R R E D T O A S JUST T H A T PIECE OF BATH ROOM FURNITURE. AND MAY B E LEFT H A PPILY CHAINED TO IT FOR HOURS. P E R H A PS THAT I S ALL YOU'RE F I T FOR. DISEASES. GOOD FOR YOU. LETS SEE HOW WIDE YOU C A N OPEN YOU R M O U T H . BUT THE SUPERIOR MAY C ERTAI N LY B E AT A LOS S . AS FOR KISSING EVEN THE BOTTOM ONE MAY MAKE A M I NOR DISTI NCTION IN TH E CASE O F T H E A F F I C I O N A DO O F " G O L D E N SHOW E R S. I OUGHT TO HAVE A LITTLE PORC E L A I N BOWL FITTED OVER YOUR R EVOLT­ TA K E S PLACE IN THE B A T H R OOM . WHO K NOWS WHAT YOU'VE BEEN LICKING TODAY. YOUR MOUTH IS TOO DI RTY. THAT T H I S WAS YOUR T R U E PLACE IN S : YES. U S E M E AS YOUR TOILET. M Y PRODUCTS ARE TOO FOOD I EAT I S VERY TH E EXPEN S I V E . YOU R S ELF. M: G R EEDY LITTLE PIG! I TOLD YOU TO LICK M Y SHOE. THE GUTTERS LESSLY. VI LENESS. ADO R A TION O F T H E SLAVE THAT T H E SUBMISSIVE M U ST B E PREPARED TO DO A BSOLUTELY ANYTHING TH E S U PERIOR MAY THEREAFTER COM M A N D H I M TO DO. M I STRESS IS PERC H E D U PON THE SINK. SLAVE IS NOT SO F I LT H -O B S E S S E D OF MY SHOE. NOT E A T I T ! (TA K E S A LONG TI M E WAS H I N G M : YOU ARE A TOILET-YOU LOVE TO BE A TOILET. BUT BOTH THESE SCATOLOGICAL FETISHES A R E MOST I L LUSTRATIVE IN TH E FACT THAT ALL FETIS H I S M I S A FORM OF N ECROP H I LIA-A LOVE M: S I L E N C E I KEEP YO U R D EG R A D E D LU STS TO S: PLEASE M I STRESS. YOU I C R A W L ABOUT WANT TO IN. OH PLEASE. M : (KICKS H I M ) DON'T SAY "MY" M I STRESS. LIFE. I WANT TO EAT YOUR S HIT. LET M E K I SS YOUR B E AUTI F U L ASS. I OWN YOU. I N STA LLED YOUR H IGHEST AMBITION IS TO BE IN THE LADIES' ROOM AT GRAND PRIV I L EGES.J LICK! S: (SALIVATES M : HOW M A N Y GALLONS C A N YOU DRINK? ALL OVER THE SHOE. W I D E RI ( I N S E RTS H E R H EEL.

l M : WHAT I S IT? S: M I STRESS. • ) COM E BACK HERE. I BEG O F YOU M: THAT • • . M : YOU L.ITTL.E I·L. M I ST R E S S IU" (WH I PS HIM A FEW TIM ES. E A S E .EANED OUT. E A N UP YOU R ACT. K N E E L.) H I MSEL.EGS WITHOUT MY P E R M I S S I O N . I C K T H E OOWW .Y S H E PU N I S H E D A S L.L.. PL.) WHEN H E COM E S OUT 1 5 M I N UT E S L.L. M : YOU DI DN'T SAY THANK YOU. .ONG PAUSE. REQU I R E THAT HE NOW R U N A FEW L.EASE M I STRESS .) AND I THOUGHT THAT WOU L. M A Y I SPEAK? M : NO.ENCE. STOP PAWING M El M: OKAY. N O ! (WATC H E S I N H O R RO R A S T H E M I STRESS FIL. . I N G M I STRESS. M I STRESS? R EQ U I R E S TH E SL. TOIL. I NOW T H I N K I A M VE R Y CL.) ANYTH I NG! S: (ON HIS K N E ES) PL.E ENTE RTAI N M EN T A ROUND THIS P L.EASE.EARN TO H A V E M O R E SEL. WISH YOU H A D N E V E R BEEN BORN T H E SLAVE YOU AREI S: Y E S . L. FIN A L. S: OH D A R L.S OUT ABJECTL. . M ISTRESS? 65 . E A S E . L.ITTL.) M ISTR ESS? THE M I STRESS M AY . P R E F E R A BL. I E V E S: YES. M : SIL. YOU C A N GO.EASE FORG I V E ME. IF SHE T H I N KS TH E SLAVE CAN TOL. E THEY'RE SOI L I N G H I M SEL.Y SL.S U P AN E N E M A BAG WITH STE A M I NG HOT WATER. E T . AND YOU·L. E A S E . L.L.L. THAT OUGHT TO C L. PL.L.F I N THE BATH ROOM . PL. YOUI H U P.ING A STOR Y O F H O W SEVER E L. H E OUGHT TO B E EGGED ON TO I M PROVE WITH A FEW L. S P I N EL. . KNEEL.ESS! YOU S: PL.Y ON THE BATHROOM TIL.l PL.) M : WHAT'S TH I S ? COM P LA I N I N G? AND ON TOP OF I T A L. E A S E USE ME AS A T O I L.AVE TO PRESENT HIS BUTTOCKS TO T H E AIR A N D KEEP HIS H E A D ON THE GROUND A S SHE A D M I N I STERS THE DOUCHE. O O K AT M E W H I L.ET-BOY.ooKS V E R Y A S H A M ED.l M: H U P. DOWN.L.EASE. E A N FART. GO TO THE BATH ROOM? M : GET BACK ON YOUR K N E ES.) S: M I STRESS. ( M I STRESS DOES NOT BOTH E R TO ANSWER. ( M I ST R E S S M A Y T H E N A M US E T H E SL.AVE TO DANCE FOR H E R. I COU L.ICKS OF THE W H I P.ES.ITTL. M I STRESS.) M : NO.IGHTS THE M I STRESS I M MEASU RAB­ L.ATER. IS TWO. .ONG PAUSE. I F H E I S A POOR DANCER.EASE MAY I GO.AVE I S PERMITTED TO R E L. D A R L. BY EX E R C I SE I S GOOD NOW G R I M A C I NG IN FOR PAI N S: M ISTRESS.F-CONTROL. IT'S HARD TO L. .Y HOPPING ON ONE FOOT.EASE MAY I S: I ' M SORRY. E G S ! I DON'T L. P L.D TEACH H I M TO L.) P L.P MYSEL.Y. (L. (SPRAWL. S H O U L.F. GODDESS. O N M Y C A R PET OUT OF YOU R SOR R Y L. DO M: Y O U D I D N 'T ASK ME " P L.ING M I STRESS. . (L. N E E D SOM E D I SC I PLI N E ! S: O H . PL. DON'T I · L. OVER T H E R E A N D WAIT F O R M E TO NOTICE YOU. M : NOW. TEACH Y O U TO L. M : YOU·L.E ASS.A V E WHICH DEL.ooK AT MY L.ET'S HAVE A L.ooKI N G AT M Y L.EASE I H A V E TO . ! O H ! L. H E L. A C E . M : ASK M Y P E R MI SSION TO SPEAKI S: M ISTR E SS. M I ST R E S S SC R E A M S • .ERATE IT. A V E FOR F L. M I STRESS. M A Y I SPEAK? (SL. TWO. (SLAVE STARTS TO RUN .DN'T HEL. oo R W H E N Y O U ' R E STEPPING (TR I E S TO P E E R UP H E R S K IRT.S: M I STRESS.AVE BY TEL.ET M Y SERVANTS WORK I NG! L. DO A S I SAY A N D NOTH I NG ELSE.F. E A S E . I NG DARL.APS AROUND THE HOUSE. . P L.ET O N E DROP FAL.L. S: WON'T YOU P L. ( P UT S ON A D I SC O R EC O R D AND (ETC. THE M I STRESS REQUI R E S TH E SL. D C L. UP YOUR ACT. YOU DEG R A D E D L.

M : VERY WELL.C. MOUTH O R B U M W H E N CROTC H E R I E S A R E N I G H . ONCE ALL DUE LOV I NG C A R E I S ROUNDLY PA I D T O T H E JUICY SLIT. DYING FOR T H E S W E ETS IT K N OWS ARE T H E R E: L I V E . I A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. AND I POOR SLAVE. 0 TH A N K Y O U SO M UCH. A GLASS. . ." K E E P S I N G I N G I (SLAVE SI NGS TH I S ONE LI N E.M: NO. M I ST R E S S SLAVE DONS AN A PRON A N D H U RRIES TO TH E BAR. . M : WHAT IF I HAD A TUB F I LL E D TO THE BRIM WITH M Y S P EC I A L LIQUID. AND D E E P IT SUCKS. HOT C R E A M FROM TH E BORE YES. . A LITTLE C U M W I L L N EVER. I A DO R E . WHAT I F I SHOV E D YOU R M: NOW. THE M ISTRESS RECEIVES THE COCKTA I L. SO BAD A S IT LICKS ITS FAVORITE FOOD. M : ( L A UGH I N G R ESTRA I N E D L Y ) "WHAT A STU P I D T. M I STRESS? TOI LET. THE OFFERS STA N C E REMOVES A SLAVE IT IS FROM HER STOC K S A N D SPECIAL SUB­ HIM IN D R I N K. DOWN. 66 . S: I ADORE B E I N G YOUR TOILET. YOU M U ST S I NG. I DON'T H A V E TO GO. S E LL E R S LITTLE BOYI YOU A R E SO TORM ENTABLE. 0 THA N K YOU . SO SLOW A LONG TH E THROBBING JOY-POLE W A I T H U M BLY F O R H I S S ECON D COM I NG. I I A DORE B E I N G YOU R S : I'LL M A K E YOU A D R I N K . I WANT YOU TO A M U S E ME BY S I N G I NG THIS LITTLE SONG. SO MAD. "I ADORE BEING YOUR TOILET. D I V I N E Q U E E N. BACK S L I PS M Y TONGU E TO MY MOUTH W H E R E A N D MY RESTLESS TON G U E . AND TH E R E SPU RTS OUT ITS CUM. YET M I STRESS. VIII A LITTLE SHIT. T H E M I STRESS PUTS T H E BOY I N A STOCKS SO HE WON'T BE BOTH E R I NG H E R. WHICH H E I S R EQ U I R E D TO SLAVE STA R E S AT TH E LIQUID COURSING OVER H E R LI PS. THEN ON M Y K N E E S IT TICKLES ITS WAY FROM THE HOLE TO BA LLS AND OH. T H E S M E L L I S GAY T O M E F R O M THE H O L E I N M Y LOV E R'S A S S COOL A N D S O U R A S A N O L D C H E R R Y ROTTING GA YL Y I N THE R A I N . I SWALLOW ALL O F IT. NO B U T N E V E R A FFRIGHT M Y N O S E . OVER AND H E A D RIGHT U N D E R U NTIL YOU SOA K E D I T A LL UP. PAUL V E R LA I N E TRAN SLATED B Y D A N I E L SLOATE H I S P U L S I N G P R I C K PLUNGES P U M P E D S T R A I G H T FROM THE WELL OF LOVE. A DO R E B E I NG YOUR TOILET. YOU'D B E SATURATED WITH M Y S U BSTA NCEI J UST L I K E A N A STY LITTLE SPONG E I S : OH. SLAVE S I PS C A R E FULLY. T U N E LESSLY O F OVE R ' > COURSE." TO TH E TU N E OF "I A DORE B E I N G A G I R L. A-WA LLOW I N HIS BLESSING. FLICKS ALONG H I S SOFT D A M P H A I R S S T I F F A N D QUICK A N D OH. TH E N DROOLS U PON T H E KNOB.

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I H A D ALREADY SEEN M Y SI STER C A R ES S H E R S ELF. TO SCARE HER AT L E A ST. I L OO K E D AT SO P' H I E AGAIN: SHE WAS W A S WITH I N R E A C H . I WAS SEVEN O R E I G H T YEARS OLD AND I W A S WATC H I N G A H I V E O F B E E S STUCK T O A B R A N C H . U N K NOWN I N STINCTS R I PPED TH ROUG H M Y NECK. A S THOUGH F A SC I N ATED BY SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M U ST H A V E B E E N AT H E R FEET THAT I COULD NOT SEE. E R RO R . BUT HER FASC I N A T I O N IN­ T R I G U E D M E A L L T H E MORE. S H E R A I S E D H E R D R E S S S O H IG H THAT S H E U N V E I LE D H E R PALE L I TTLE B R EASTS.THE MUTE NEGRESS ". A N D I H A D F E LT NO . I W A N T E D TO BITE. G R OTE S Q U E PA RODY. I STI L L DI DN'T SEE W H A T WAS F A SC I N A T I N G H E R. P E RH A PS LESS. I THOUGHT T H E B E E H I V E H A D J U S T F A L L E N . R A I S E D HER S K I RT OVE R H E R N A K E D STO M AC H . W E LL. FOR H E R LOV ELY F L E S H I N E S S N O DO U BT AGED H E R. U N A UT H O R I Z E D STIC K-AT T H E R I S K NO DO U BT OF C RO A K I N G FROM T H E SWELLING STI N G S -WH E N I SAW LITTLE SOPH I E . 'ARE YOU COM I NG?' S A I D A VOICE. BUT I WAS ASTO N I S H E D TO NOTE T H A T SOP H I E H A D N O T H E A R D M E . S H E STOPPED. 68 . FINA LLY S H E A F R A I D O F SEEING SOM ET H I N G S U RG E FORTH FROM B E TW E E N DETECTING HER ITS THIGHS. "SOPH I E STILL K E PT H E R S K I RT R A I S E D. M Y N E IG H BO R . BUT FOLLOWI NG SO P H I E'S G A Z E NOW F I X E D ON A PO I N T ABOVE MY HEAD. A N D T I R E D OF WAITI NG. . I I M M E D I ATELY FORGOT THE BEEHIVE A N D LAY DOWN IN THE TALL G R A SS. EAL P L E A S UR E FROM I T EXCEPT FOR THE DAY I CAUGHT HER DOI N G IT IN A M I R RO R . SHE WAS WALK I N G SO SLOWLY THAT I HAD N O HOPE OF H E R BEING ABLE TO R E A C H M E . I W A S S W I M M I NG.. WHEN I H E A R D A N O I S E B E H I N D M E . THE DESI R E T O G R A B IT A N D DIS LODGE IT T I N G L E D T H ROUGH MY FI NGE RS. I R A I S E D MYSELF ON M Y E L BOWS BUT COULD S E E NOTH I N G AT H E R F E ET. I I M M E D I ATELY FEARED THAT I HAD R E V E A L E D M Y P R E S E N C E . A N D AT THE SAME M O M E NT. PERCEIVED DOWN OF H E R SEX. A N D W H I L E S H E S M I LED. . I DON'T KNOW W H Y . A PP L Y I N G I MYSELF TO THE A PP E A R A NC E . A LITTLE B L O N D G I R L F R O M TOWN WHO WAS A RO U N D ONE MONTH A YEAR. I SAW A MAN IN A TREE. SOPH I E WAS A BOUT TWELVE. E X A M I N I NG H ER S E L F W I T H S U C H G R EAT ATTENTION THAT I WAS ·SH E W A S W A L K I NG S LOWLY IN MY D I RECTION. BUT I T M A D E ME LA U G H . A FALSE MUSLIM S M I LING. E A RTH FOR THEY AND M U LT I P L Y TH E WHICH WE I N H A B I T . BUT SHE S HOOK H E R H E A D . I WAS GOI NG T O GET A PROPHET USED TO PROCLA I M THAT M I RRORS ( LI K E P A T E R N I TY ) C ON F I R M WERE A BO M I N A T I O N S . I WAS A BOUT TO GET U P.

TH E ROOM O N LY B A R ELY LIT BY A I MAGI N E D (AS I DID. THUS I N THE EV E N I NG . R E V E A L E D H E R B U TTOC K S W H I C H BOTHE R E D M E EVEN MORE. W H E N SOPH I E ADVANCED WAS SUSPICIOUS. I TH REW T U R N E D ON THE BRACKET LIGHTS A N D B E G A N T O UNDRESS. THEN T H E SOBS BEC A M E LESS FREQUENT A N D A "SHE D I DN'T SCR E A M WHEN T H E MAN PEN ETRATED H E R. I BY GOT MY PEOPLE'S P R O F E S S I O N S . THE M A N STOPPED B E H I ND SOPHI E . ON THE CONT R A R Y SHE VERY MUCH WANTED TO PULL M E ONTO H E R STOMACH. A T THAT M O M E N T I FIG U R E D OUT THAT SHE WAS THE C H A M B E R MAID A N D I F E A R E D H E R N U DITY: IT W A S NOT SOPHI E'S N U D I TY THAT I H A D DESIRED B U T SOM E U N K NOWN A C T THAT I MIGHT HAVE SEEN WHICH WOU L D HAVE SATISFIED ME. THI S H U M A N PLANT W A S RATHE R A M U S I NG. F O R Q U I T E F R A N K L Y I COULDN'T S E E A N YTH I N G ."I HADN'T RECOGNIZED THE VOICE. NOT A PEASA NT. SOPH I E THREW H E RSELF ON T H E BED. FROM SLIPPI NG I N A MONG H I S RIGOR­ OUS CLASSIFICATIONS SOME S U M PTUOUS A POC RY­ PHAL PIECE. THUS P R I SO N E R ! N E XT S H E MOVING AWAY. WH ICH I D I D. I BRUSH E D I T WITH MY FINGERS. THREATENE D T O PROLONG ITSELF. "I HAD H A R DLY ANY DIFFICULTY GETTING IN. P E R H A PS) THAT T H E GROUP WAS ONLY WAITING TO B E SC ULPTED. H A V I NG TURNED M I SERA BLE WORKS: H I D I NG MYSELF HA LFWAY A RO U N D. LEAN I N G FORWARD. I M UST H A VE H URT H E R . WHICH OBLIGED T H E H A N DS AND TH E ARMS FROM THE TREE TO COM E DOWN A LITTLE FURTHER. I WAS SISTER U N D E R THE B E LLY OF A NAKED MAN. FOR A H A N D C A M E DOWN FROM T H E TREE. U NBUTTONED THE M A N WHOSE P E N I S POPPED OUT. AND ALTHOUGH I H A D ONCE C A UGHT MY N. I M M E DI ATELY SHE LET GO OF H E R DRESS. A STU PID PERSON WHOM I COULD EASILY LOSE I N A FEW SECONDS. I N TEARS-oR A T LEAST I TOOK T H I S PERSO N F O R SOP H I E . I CAN NONETHE LESS SAY THAT SOP H I E IS T H E FI RST THAT I REALLY SAW MAKE LOV E . ANYWAY I WAS TOO YOU NG TO P REOCC U P Y M Y S E L F WITH "THE A DVENTU R E COULD END H E R E . AND THE DOOR FACING M E . B U T I N STEAD O F AND MY WITHDREW F R O M THE LITTLE G I R L A N D TH E H A N DS FROM THE TREE D I S A P P E A R E D. AND I M P RISONED ONE OF H E R B REASTS. FOR I HAD A PLAN MORE FIRE I N TE R ESTI N G THAN A FEW IN BOTHE RING ABOUT T H E NOISE H E WAS M A K I NG. MYSELF ON H E R NAKED B R E A STS. BUT TH EY WERE MUCH LON G E R THAN SO PHIE·S. S H E DIDNT PUSH M E AWAY. THE MAN SOON ALREADY ASTON I S H E D THAT S H E H A D GROWN SO QU I C K L Y . WITHOUT ACCO M P A N I E D GRANDMOTH E R . SHE PRESENTED HER B E H I N D TO THE KNOTTY COCK­ FOR. P R E F E R R I NG . I LEANED OUT A N D SAW TWO LEGS R A I SED. BRUSHED H E R NECK. H ENCEFORTH I N D E E D QUITE BANAL. W I T H G R EAT D E XTERITY. SO I GOT U P W I T H A LEAP: S H E D I SG USTED ME NOW. SHE SAW HIM A N D M UR M U R R E D SOMETHI NG I D I DNT U N D ERSTA ND. THOU G H . A S I F H E HADNT S E E N THE LITTLE G I R L. THE W I N DOW WAS ON MY RIGHT. FOR S H E ARCHED H E R BACK. PERMISSION THEY TO SET O F F ATT E N D . CAN NOT BUT THE KEEP COLLECTOR FROM H IMSELF DREAMING. I COULD MYSELF H A V E RAISE D M Y ARM AND SEIZED THE C H U BBY R U M P I F M Y ATTENTION H A DN'T BEEN DRAWN TO THE A R R IVAL O F A T H I R D C H ARACTER. THEN. A N D . H E WAS A P P R O A C H I N G WITH LONG STR I DES. A N D I N STEAD O F RUBBING MY FACE AGAI NST WHAT WAS IN SUM NOTHING B U T AN ALREADY R I P E F R U IT. AND ONE COULD HAVE SUDDENLY OPENED WITH GREAT C O MMOTION A N D CLOSED LIKEWISE. I NONETH E LESS HAZARDED A GLANCE: A N D TO MY GOOD FORTUNE. BIT THE M . SOPHI E LET TA KING A DVANTAGE O F THE G OO D L U C K . T U R N I N G H E R OVER O N H E R B E L L Y . THE SC E N E . THE R EST IS PROBABLY SOMETI M E S M YTH I C A L . AS SOON AS I GOT I N SI DE. I D I DNT ANSWER. IN TRUTH. A N D I C A N WELL SAY THAT IN THAT SENSE I HAVEN'T AGED). IT S E E M E D TO ME THAT I WOULD HAVE TO WAIT. W H I LE A SECOND HAND GRABBED HER OTH E R BREAST. I FEAR WAS SITUATION FEARED B E I NG D I SCOVERED. BECAUSE. WHICH MADE H E R SCRE A M . THE N S H E SPOTTED M E . BUT I 69 . IT WAS ON THE GROUND FLOOR OF ONE O F THOSE HEAVY HOUSES LOVED BY THE M I DDLE C LASS.I GHT L I G H T W A S LIT. DISTANT STREET LAMP. IT WAS A TALL M A N WITH A ROUGH A PPEARANCE. T H I S I NTO TERROR TO WHEN TH E THE HERSELF FALL O N THE G RO U N D W H I L E THE RED­ H A I R E D M A N (HAVE I M E N TION E D THAT? IT PLEASES ME THAT HE WAS A R EDH EAD) WAS ALREADY CHANGED UP I WOM A N GOT AND WAS CAME A CLOSE SHUTTERS. B U T I WAS WRONG ABOUT TH AT. DEC I S I V E LY ALMOST T O T H E P O I N T OF B R U S H I NG ME. ' W E R E YOU THERE?' SHE ASKED. O N L Y TH E I R A C T I O N S MATTE R E D T O M E ( J U ST AS TODAY. FIRE WOR K S . OR ELSE DO SOM ETH ING OTH E R T H A N WHAT SHE W A S H O P I N G F O R . IN OUR LITTLE PROVI N C E . FLAT DOWN I N TH E GRASS. THE SCE N E DIDNT LOSE A BIT OF ITS RURAL C H A R ACTER. A FT E R AN HOUR IT RAISED H E R DRESS AGA I N AND. THEN SHE SOPHI E'S ROOM. AS IS S UITABLE. I H I D MYSELF B E H I N D A WAR DROBE PROV I D E N T I A L L Y PLAC E D O B L I Q U E LY O P POSITE THE LITTLE BED. BUT A POACHER P E R H A PS . TH E M IRACULOUS TO THE LOGICAL. A N D SOP H I E'S REFUSAL S E E M E D TO ME TO I NDICATE THAT SHE H E R S E L F H A D N 'T R E C OG N I Z E D IT.

S H E P U T H E R H A N D O V E R IT. I THOUGHT S H E WAS O N C E AGA I N DREW A W A Y VERY Q U I C K LY . SHOWED MYSELF. COM POSED A M U C H MORE SATISFYING D R E A M ED. B U RY M E I N H E R B E D WITH H E R . HER EAR PREVENTED T H I S. A THOUSAN D EYES " S H E C A U G H T MY GAZE. OR. STR A N G E L Y ENOUG H . WHO BENT OVER AT THE WAIST. LIKE TO THAT L E A R N E D C A M E TO M E . ALL THOSE I IN HAD MYSELF T O A N T I C I PATE. HER NOTI C E D THIS PULLED T H E PANTI ES SNAPPED. BUT I WOU LD H A V E WOU LD N O T H A V E S U F F I C E D T O FOLLOW A LL T H E D E V E LO P M E NTS OF T H A T SITU ATION. DEMANDED G R A N DMOT H E R W E A R LONG PANTI ES. THE A C T I V I T Y. PROWLED A N YW A Y . T H E Y C O M I C A LLY B U M P E D THE I R HEADS TOGETH E R A N D T H E S E R V A N T L A U G H E D. A N D A N A R AC H N I DE A N G A R T E R B E LT. S U D D E N LY. MAGNIFICENT BELIEVEDI "TH E R E WAS A C R A C K L I N G OF A BUZZER. BUT THE WOM A N REMAINED M A RBLE. 'PLEA S U RE' H A D ON LY R E C E NTLY LEDGE. I W I L L S A Y THAT IT W A S A RED AND W H ITE M A R TH A . I N F I N ITE SHE OPENED SHE TH E SHUTTERS WITH PRECA UTIONS.H E A D B U R ST. A B R A . SECON DARY I N D E C E NC I ES. THE R E V E LA­ TION OF THE S U M PTUOUS AND VULGAR T R A P P I NGS WITH W H ICH WOMA N T I T I L LA T E S . W H I L E T H E C A R ROT. I N STEA D O F H I D I NG. THE OTH E R SLOWLY MOV E D H I S F I N G E R S I N TH E MAUVE MOUTH. I T W A S DAZZLING. THUS OFFE R I N G TO MY GAZE HER R I PE B U TTOC KS. WITHOUT TH I N KING A BOUT IT A NY M O R E . B U T T H E Y W E R E TOO B U S Y TO NOTIC E . A TH I C K TAWNY FLEECE. I WATC H E D THE TWO FREED RETU R N E D HOME THE NEXT A FTER H AV I N G W A N D E R E D T H R O U G H T H E COUNTRYS I D E . P E R F U N E WAS S O A R DE NT. I TA K I N G H E R B R E A STS OUT O F THE ST R A P L ESS B R A . I REGA I N E D HOPE JUST A S A B R U PTLY A S I HAD BECOME SO Q U I C K LY D I SCO U R A G E D . S P ECTAC LE SHE TURNED. C A R ROT-TOP HAD ALREADY SLIPPED ONE HAND I N S I D E TH E L I K E D T O H A V E H E R T A K E M E I N H E R A R MS. THAN A N D. I H E A R D HER SIGH I NG. "AFTERWA R D . UNDER I THE SERVA NT'S THAT MY LI P S B ETWE E N TWO H E DGES OF LONG S H I N Y H A I RS. A S W E L L A S T I N Y R E D PANTI ES. I S A W THE S A M E WHITISH FOA M THAT I H A D C A UGHT S I G H T OF I N T H E ORCH A R D ON SOP H I E'S THIGHS. T H E MEN JOSTLE D E A C H OTH E R A N D I FIGU R E D THAT EACH ONE WANTED TO BURY HIS FACE I N THAT M A N E . THE A G A I N S T U C K M Y F A C E AGA I N ST THE NEW MOUTH. T H E OTH E R STARTED TO T R E M B L E . WITH THE OTH E R H A N D HE WAS LIG HTLY S L A P P I NG H E R ASS. S H E M A D E N OT THE SLIGHTEST G E ST U R E OF SURPRISE. BUT T H E BAC KS OF THE M E N S H U TT E R S . I EYES. ONCE B U RSTING IT S E E M E D TO ME ESPEC I A LLY FROM THE PRESSURE O F TH AT PRODIGIOUS FLEECE. GOI NG TO C R Y A N D I BUT SHE. CONFUSEDLY FELT T H AT SHE WAS G I V I N G I N . C A R ROT­ TOP J U M PE D U P AS IF HE H A D B E E N STUNG TO TH E Q U I C K . WHICH THE R E D. I M A D E A G ESTU R E W H I C H S H E D I D NOT U N DERST AN D . AND I . A LSO TO E N JOY H E R OWN SPECTACLE. THAT I W A S BITING SAVAGELY. T H E THIGHS AND HOLLOWED S U P PO R T S W A I ST BEING ONLY ALTHOUGH I KNOW. W H I LE I I KISSED M E O N THE OVER I THE ONLY D A R K E N I NG WHICH I FOR E H E A D W I N DOW WAS CRAWLING TH I N K DAY. THEN R E A L I Z I NG THAT HER BELLY WAS BARE. TH E WOM A N PUT H E R H A N D S B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D H E R D R ESS FELL. C A R ROT-TOP. OF MY IGNORANCE. TH E SAME? THAT IS INDEED WHAT I ATTENTIVE A S THOUGH S H E WERE LISTE N I NG OUT FOR A PREARRANGED SIGNAL.) THE MEN TOOK OFF. TU R N I N G T H E K EY. WOR D C I RC LES LOO K E D AT THOSE L A U G H I N G BEN EATH THEM. A N D S H E D I D 70 . IGNORANT S I N C E I WAS M Y S E L F G R I P P E D BY THE S A M E D E S I R E . "THArs MAN. ONLY INDEED BY PLEASANT TO HER AGA I N ­ HER TAUT C H EST AND R U M P COULD B E SEEN. WHICH M E A NW H I LE. AND I AND A NOTH E R HE RECOGNIZED FATH E R .H A I R E D M A N WAS A L R E A DY FEELING UP THE SERVANT. BUT I WASN'T TALKI NG. WITH AND THE M A I D. SHE H E LD MY HEAD. M A RQ U I S E I' AND WAS FLEECE. AND THAT FIND IT WOU L D PROF I LE. I THE R E D-H E A D E D AS SOP H I E'S D OO R . TO ROLL O N H E R BREASTS. W H I C H M A G N I F I E D. B EC A U S E SHE PLAC E D H E R F I N G E R T O H E R LI PS A S THOUGH ORDE R I N G M E T O B E Q U I ET. IIF I MAY PERMIT M A R E I A SHORT BLACK-LACE S L I P. M O R E E X A CT L Y . FOR THESE SUPERB LOOK I N G AT M E ON T H E CONTRARY WITH C U RIOSITY. TH E W O M A N LEA N E D O V E R TO SEE. THE MAID HAD F R OZ E N . THE FATH ER IN A LOW VOI CE WAS SAYI NG: · M A RQU I S E. OFFE R E D M E H E R OTH E R H A N D WHOSE ODOR E N C H A NTED M E . K I SSING THEM WITH A R DOU R . PLAC E D C A R E F U L LY EAR C LOS E D T H E WOOD HIS AGA I N ST T H E B E FO R E CLEARLY SAW TWO OF H E R F I N G E R S G E NTLY MOVE INSIDE HER. SHACK­ L E D HER STOC K I N G E D TH I G H S WITH HIS ARMS. T H E BUTTON O F FLESH SO H AR D . I D I DN'T KNOW HOW TO E X P R ESS IT TO HER. PROT R U DE D MEN PLAYED TH E FUR FROM B E H I N D T H E R E D C LOTH. K N E E L I NG. I THREW MYSELF AGAINST HER B E LLY. TH AT A LL R E S I STA N C E WAS CEASING IN H E R. AND ESPECIA L L Y TO PLUNGE MY FACE IN HER P A N T I E S . ALASI HOW BADLY DOM ESTICS AGE. WHEN THEY ENTERED.HOWEVER. AND I FOU N D IT TO H AVE A SINGULAR SAVO U R. BUT IT W A S REA LLY SO THAT SHE COULD C ARESS HERSELF.

A TYPING COURSE. • BLAC K S M I T H ?" A S K E D L A U R A . WILL YOU PROTECT M E?" "TH E R E A R E COU RS E S . B U T HE IS A CONQU E RO R . I M A G I N I NG THAT T H E Y W I L L T H U S F E E L " I DON'T U N DE RSTA N D THE D I G R ESSIONS. I r s BECA U S E H E T H I N K S YOU HAVE E X C E PT I O N A L G I FTS. A B U I LDER. I SN'T "BUT WHY A R E T H E R E VOYE URS?" "I DON'T KNOW. AND H E L D U S S O ROUGH LY?" "HE KNOWS YOU WELL. WE N EVER S E E H I M IN THE LIGHT OF D A Y . SHE S E E M S LESS I N NOC E N T THAN YOU. "YES. IF YOU LIKE. HOLES " R E D U C E IT? I DON'T U N D ERSTA N D AT A LLI" WATCH I N G YOU. O B V I O U S L Y . " " YOU'RE M A K I N G F U N OF ME. A R E HIS OBSESSION. THE SEPARATED THIGHS. " " H E FRIGHTENS ME. A N YWAY. H I S SHA DOW. H I S H A N D . EVEN B E FO R E YOUR "IT WAS H I M ." FEELI NGS. I T'S A S U BJECT H E'LL BE H A PPY TO DEAL WITH.NOT R E F U S E. TOM O R ROW. DID YOU LIKE IT?" " S I M P L E E X ECUTORS. IT'S I NTERESTING TO SEE THE WORK OF THE M U SCLES. I TOLD YOU THAT WE O N L Y T A K E S I N G L E PEOPLE. "WHO IS THAT "LOVE? . TEACH BUT THEY'RE R EDUCE WRONG THEI R BECAUS E WE YOU TO PLEAS U R E . T H E I R PAY IS V E R Y LOW. TOO. YOU WILL TAKE SPECIAL COURSES TO D E V E LOP T H E M . TU R N E D OUT THE LIGHTS. SPYHOLES. FOR WANT TO DO NOWT WHAT DO YOU EXAM PLE. EVEN THOUGH THE I NC R E A S E IN YOU R BE M ISTA K E S C A N NOT WITH M UC H EXACTITUDE MICHEL BERHARD TRANSLATED BY RICHA RD G A R DN E R ATTR I B UTED T O YOU R AGITATION O R T H E S K I L L O F 71 ." "YOU " HOL ES? THAT'S ODD. " "BUT WHY 'BLAC KSM ITH'?" ' W H A T A BOUT T H O S E WHO D O I T WITH U S?" "YOU'LL U N D E R ST A N D LATER." YOU R ADMIRER. NUDE COURSES. TOO?" "H E'S A C H I L D TOO. ." "TH E S H E?" LITTLE GIRL SOPH I E . LIKE I N P U BLIC TOI LETS. IF H E N E V E R L E A V E S H I S E M P I RE." "DON'T FORGET THAT ONE M UST MAKE LOVE DIFFERE NTLY F O R A VOYEUR'S PLE A S U R E . T H E "YES. H E K N E W E V E R YT H I N G A BOUT YOU. IF H E ACCEPTED YOU. BUT THE ADMIRAL PREFERS PE RFOR M E R M U ST COM PLETELY D I S A P P E A R FROM YOU R THOUGHTS. AND LOV E . FROM YOU R LOO K I N G AT SOMEONE WHO'S ALREADY LOOKI NG. H E C A N FORGET T H E REST O F T H E WORLD." "YOU CAN ASK THE A D M I RAL THAT." C L I E NTS O F O U R S L I K E T O G E T O N TH E I R K N E E S A N D STROKE YOU D U R I N G T H I S T E S T ." " I N N OC E N T? YOU'RE M A K I N G F U N OF M E ! . H E COULDN'T KNOW M E. C E RTA I N "NO. H E'S T H E O N E WHO ENTERED. WHAT I S A COLLECTOR?" SOM E N EW PLEASURE. :' " TH E A D M I R A L:' A N S W E R E D I R E N E. " IRENE C LO S E D THE PINK BOOK. A N D. "TH E M A S T E R O F THE 'SA N S-SOUC I'. . SOM E EVEN PAY. I T ' S A GDOD TEST. " "HE lSI I A L R E A D Y TOLD YOU THAT TH I S HOUSE I S FU LL O F TRICKS." 'TO L I K E YOU TO R E A D SOME MORE." A R R I VAL. S H E'S LIKE ME. H E KNOWS IT. I T'S AS THOUGH YO U W E R E M A K I N G LOVE W I T H T H E O N E WHO'S LOO K I N G AT YOU. H I S M A S K . THE Q U I V E R I N G OF B UTTOCKS AND TH E LO I N S . LITERATURE." M UST FI RST CON S I D E R TH E ONE WHO'S P E E P HOLES. THERE ARE A LS O C O U R S E S IN BEHAVIOR.

I D I N G I NTO P L.ORN.L.TEM P L E T H R OUGH THE LOOKING GLASS AFTER A FEW STEPS FORWA R D. A B STRACT-o N E M IGHT SAY­ CONV E Y I N G THE I M PRESSION OF B E I N G U N A LTER­ ABLE. DOOR HAS C L. Y ONE D I R ECTION IS POSS I B L. NOW A PPEARS SOM EWHAT I NCREASED . FIND PL. AND U N EXPECTED­ LY IN SPITE OF THE L.ED BY TH E H EAVY H A N G I NGS AND C U RTA I N S O F A N O L. F S L.Y AT RIGHT ANGL.I C K S FROM I STRO NG E R (OR A R E T H E EYES S I M PLY ADAPT I N G TO T H E G L. L. BUT WITH AND NO RE­ REGULAR D I ST A N C E B E TW E E N TH E M PEATED SO OFTEN THAT IT I S NOW I M POSS I B L. O N G AND STRA IGHT.UNGED I NTO B L.-O I L. S MOOTH-WA L.S. I S MOTIONL. NOW TO THE R I G HT. E A D I NG A GA I N TO TH E L.F WITH A L.Y GROWN B R IGHTER. BUT IT TURNS S U D DENTL.L.B E F O R E TO M A K E O U T MY CAN SEE W E L. E D M Y S E L. PALE AND M I L. FORL.L.TS OF S M OOTH C L. ACTUA L.ES TO THE L.ESS IN T H I S MONOTONIC ETERN ITY. EVEN TH E UTTLE GIRL DOZ I NG OV E R H E R SCHOOL BOOKS.ED COR R I DO R WITH NO SIDE OPEN­ INGS: M Y FI RST I M P R ESSION I S THAT IT M U ST B E L. A C E . I N THE SIL. E TO 72 . T H E C E I L.Y THE L. D A PA RTM ENT W H E R E EVERYTHI NG. M U FFL.ACQU E R . NO SIDE OPENI NGS OR PASSAGES: ITS WIDTH.L OF THEM COV E R E D WITH THE SAME WH ITE SURROUNDI NGS A N D TA K E MY B E A R I NGS CAUTIOUSL. U NATTA I N ABLE.L.ED TU R N S W H I C H HAVE B ECOME MORE FREQUE NT.EFT THEN CONTI NUES IN TH I S NEW D I R ECTION WITH STI L. A NOTH E R D I SQ U I ETING FACT IS THE R IGHT-ANGL. . I G HTLY ONCE I N SIDE AND ONCE THE H E AVY STE E L. K I N G (ONCE AGA I N ) SLOWLY FORWARD: EVEN THOUGH IT HAS I M PE RCEPTI B LY B U T DEFI N ITEL. Y .IGHT THAT IS S L.DW SOU ND L. THE LIGHT H E R E.OWED BY A SERIES B O L.ENT D I STANCE WHAT SEEM TO B E THE NOTES OF A P I A NO CAN BE H E A RD.Y THERE IS NO CAUSE FOR HES ITATION: O N L.ING AND THE FLOOR.L. L A PPUES-AND PROBABL.Y I T HAS BECOME BRIGHT ENOUGH TO S HOW C L.BOW L. CAUSES A N OTH E R Q U E R Y TO ARISE I N TH E M I N D O F H I M WHO I S WA L. S MOOTH. HOWEVER. E FT A N D AGA I N T H E R E I S A W I D E N I NG OF THE PASSAGEWAY TO WHICH THE TERM " N A R ROW" NO L. L.IKE TH E WHOOSH OF SOME N IGHT B I RD FOL.OSED BY ITSEL.Y. AL. U I S H S E M I -DARKNESS A N D I HAVE TO STA N D STI L.EARLY THAT TH E R E I S NOTH I NG TO SEE EXC E PT THE WALL.IGHT I S STRONGER FOR G RADUAL.L. . TIME-PROOF. K Y . NOW TO THE LEFT. O N G E R WEL.OOM11 THE COR R I DO R HAS A NOTH E R R IGHT­ A N G L E D E L. FOR A F E W SECON DS-A I FEW M I N UTES ENOUGH POSS I B L. SPACED UKE DROPS OF WATER. E : A N A R ROW. N O LIGHT SOURCE CAN B E SEEN.

A LSO BLACK. G I V I NG ON A N UTTERLY DARK SPACE.TELL IN WHAT D I R ECTION O N E H A S B E E N MOVING I MAGINA RY ORGA N I Z E R . S H E EACH S P A R K L I N G S P H E R E BOTH OF WHICH SOON VANISH FROM THE S PECTA­ TORS' VIEW AS SOON A S THEY NO LONGER CATC H THE LIGHT FROM T H E ROOMS FOR EXA M I N ATIONS. A FAINT PERCUS­ THESE D E N LY UNANSWERED AT TH E NEW Q U ESTI O N S OF RECEDE S U D­ SIVE SOU N D HAS DRAWN NEARER. MUST B E DONE WITHOUT DELAY. C H I LD HAS H E R EYES O P E N A N D IS WATC H I NG. A S WELL A S T H E I NTERVAL BETWEEN TWO CONSECU­ THE ENIGMA OF T H E WHOLE COM POSITION PROM PTS ONE TO ATTE M PT TO MAKE A CHOICE. FRANCIS. THE G I R L I S N A K E D EXC E PT FOR H E R LONG BLACK GLOVES AND A PA I R OF STOC K I NGS-oF A S I M I LA R SHADE BUT MORE TRANSLUCENT-FASTE N E D AT BA R E LY THEN M U FFLED TRANSPA RENT IN THE AIR WALL. . CON F U S I O N . CONTO U R S BECA U S E AND OF SIZE THE ITS AND D I F F I C U LT TO DEEP H U ES­ VERY P E R H A PS-OF TAPEST R I E S HIDDEN C O N F I N ES. ETC. EXHI BITIONS OR I NTER­ S E E M S T O BE A S L E E P BUT TH ROUGH THE SPREAD FINGERS OF O N E O F H E R H A N DS OVER HER FACE AS THOUGH TO S H I E LD H E R FROM THE BRIGHT LIGHT OF A L A M P-A B S E N T-IT IS I M AG I N A BL E THAT TH E ROGATIONS. AND LASTLY TH E FLOWER-G I R L H E RS E L F (OR SO IT APPEARS) LYING OUTSTRETC H E D O N THE S H A DOWY FLOOR. A N D THAT A R E OCCASIO N A LLY S U B J ECTED T O I N F I N ITELY S M A L L VARIATI O N S C A U S E D BY T H E CONTACT BETW E E N AND ITS REFLECTION. THESE T H I NGS ARE A PA I R O F WOM EN'S BEHIND WIN DOW. BOU N C E BACK TRACING TRAJECTO R I E S THAT ARE FAIRLY PRONO UNCED I N TH E I R I N C L I N E FROM THE VERTICAL. HER N EC K I S C LA S P E D IN A SORT OF WIDE LACE COLLAR. I NT E R VA LS M I DST TH E I R APPARENT OF R E LATI V E LY N OT E S . RATH E R TH A N ASSEMBLE THE D I FF E R E N T E L E M E N TS IN TIVE PEARLS: IN A BUT THE IT SHOULD OF BE POSSIBLE TO ASCERTA I N . H A N G I NGS. BUT IT S I NCE ENTERING T H E SANCTUARY. A BEHIND DARK THIS ROOM M I SS I NG K NOB. AU DITIONS. AGA I N ST THIS GLASS RECTA NGLE IS I DENTI C A L WITH THE CAR PETS. NOW STR I K I N G WITH TH E DRY. ACTUALLY. SMALL AND SO NUMBER THE ACCORDANCE WITH T H E R U L E S LA I D DO W N B Y SOME AND SAME 73 . IT WOULD B E M O R E ACCU RATE T O S P E A K FROM THE RIGHT F O R E G RO U N D AND M OV I N G O F PEARLS STR I KI N G AGA I N ST EACH OTH E R AT T H E CENTRE DIRECTLY OF AN OVA L THE M I R RO R GLASS ON THE FLOOR DIAGONALLY TOWARDS T H E L I M ITS OF O N E'S V I S U A L R A N G E .P I N K STALK ROSE AT T H E TO END OF A ROSES DRESS L I TT L E ELSE C A N B E DI STI N G U I S H E D I N THE R OO M S A V E THE M I R RO R A N D THE S I LVER PEA RLS SUCCES­ STI F F TO THE S I M I LA R IN THE SIVELY FALLING FROM A N INVISIBLE CEILING THAT ST R I K E S I M U LTA N E O U S LY AGA I N S T TH E I R O W N OFFE R E D LEAVI NG G E NT L E M E N OPERA EVENING BY TH E HOUSE I MAGES A N D THE E P H E M E RAL SURFACE R E FLECT­ ING THEM WITH A M USICAL BY TH E H IGH SOU N D. AND REMARKABLE. UTTERLY B R E A K I NG THE CONTI N U ­ ITY OF THE VARNISHED M I RROR LIES WALL. P ROBABLY A LITTLE FU RTH E R DOWN T H E LONG CORRIDOR. OR AT THE L E A S T U NCONSCIOUS? THE CON C E RT CONTI N U E S IN TRANQUI LLITY. L I K E TH E OTH E R THI NGS IN TH I S I N V E NTORY. LONG. A FLESH. EVENTUA LLY OF COU RSE CHOOSES TH E PALE BLUE SHOE LYING ON ITS SIDE AND WHOSE H E E L APPEARS BROKEN A T T H E BASE. NOTH I N G SHOES M A D E OF FINE B L U E SKIN AND V E R Y HIGH­ H E E LED. O N E M UST M E R E LY CHOOSE ONE OF T H E ELEM E NTS I N THE TA B LEAU. SUPE RVISION. OR (TEMPORA RY?) FOR T H E R E PEATED ISSUE FROM A METRONOME OR A THIS I N KY BACKDROP ON LY TH R E E T H I N G S STA N D OUT MORE S H A R PLY MORE I LL U M I N ATED FROM OR P E R H A PS R E F LECTI NG LIGHT T H E C O R R I DO R BECA U S E OF TH E I R B R I G H T E R C AST. APPEARANCE Y E T A NOTH E R A LO N G TH E DETA I L. REGULAR BEAT OF A M ETRO N O M E . FROM LIQU I D DROPS SOU N D I NG I N T H E SI LENCE. A N D I M M EDIATELY HE IS PLANTED BEFORE THE N E XT U N S I LV E R E D WHOSE ASSESS BLACK VERY ARE WIN DOW. PASSAGEWAY A FTER A N OTH E R A B R U PT T U R N TO THE N A R R AT O R . WHO IS TH E R I GHT: AGA I N ST TH E PALE POLI S H E D WALL ON THE LEFT IS A V E RY D A R K RECTA N G L E THE SIZE WOR R I E D WHETHER H E I S COM MITTING A N ERROR I N FINDING H I M SE L F A T T H E STARTING POI NT O N T H E TERRACE STEPS OF I M I TATION GRAN ITE I N FRONT OF THE NUMBERLESS STEEL DOO R S WITH ITS A N D LOCATION OF WHICH WOU L D S UGGEST A N OPEN DOORWAY. PURE AND FLOWER-G I R L K NOWN A S T E M P L E I N THE QUA RTER. M I D-TH IGH BY FRI LLY GARTERS W I T H T I N Y PERCALE ROSE S AROUND T H E M . AS ONE DRAWS N E A R E R IT IS OBVIOUS TH E R E I S NO OPE N I NG. THE SPECTAC LE U N FOLDI NG TH E R E I N PROV I D E S AN EXPLAN ATION SOUNDS THAT PIA NO. FRANK V. I N EXORA B LY. A N E A R LY I N V I S I B L E GLASS STA N D S TH ERE. A BET. . OR I S SHE D E A D . FI RST ONE. T H E NOTES V A R Y F R O M O N E P E A R L T O T H E N E XT.

TUCKED UP V E R Y H IGH E X PO S I NG LONG LEGS SWATH E D I N S I LK. SHOELESS U PO N THE CUSHIONS IN LY I N G DRESSES OF BYGONE F I N E RY. BUT IN LONG H E LD ( A S WAS J UST M E NTIONED) BETW E E N HER TWO SMALL AND HANDS WITH F I N G E R S H UGELY MAGN I F I ED. RICH IN LACE. O R FASC I NATED B Y T H E T I M E LESS AND BACK IN FALLING ALWAYS L I G H TS BOUNC I N G AWAY U N FO R ESEEN ( U NFORSEE­ ABLE?) D I R ECTIONS. Q U I T E U N C O N S C I O U S ON T H E C R U E L LY H A R D S EAT. H A S MOVED. IN VARIOUS LITTLE AS BUT J U S T NOW A M U FF L E D CRY I S HEARD FROM THE LITTLE THEATRE WHERE NOT H I NG. LOST IN TH E I R I N T H E F I RST R O W . DISTANCE. W R I STS TOUCH I NG PALMS ON B E N E ATH CHEEK. WITH T H E C L E FT AT T I M E S R E V E A L I N G WAXEN FLESH IN ITS MOST SECRET RECESSES W H E N E V E R PLUNGED PROBABLY IN THE D E PT H S U N I TS OF AN THE PATI ENrS POST U R E HOLDS H E R LEGS O P E N A N A LY S I S OF T H E S E COMBI NATIONS. D A R K OR FAI R. H E M A Y H A V E T A K E N ADVAN­ F L I ES A LONG E N D L E S S L Y R E N E W E D P A R A BO L I C SEGMENTS. SEVERAL O F TH E M A R E A LSO WEARING H U G E RINGS AND GIGANTIC B R OOC H E S . MADE U P EXTRAVAGA NTLY THOUGH I N PA LE HUES EXCEPT FOR T H E BRIGHT PINK U PON TH E I R CHEEKS. I M ITATING T H E POSITION OF H E R N E I G H BO R'S H A NDS. OTH E R S A R E B E D I Z E N E D WITH ARTI FIC I A L ROSES TAGE OF T H E A PP L E USED MOM E N T TO P U R LO I N T H E HOLLOW FOR S E C R E T M E SSAGES THAT WAS AND LILIES OR G I A NT BUTTERFLIE S. TOWA RD THE F LOO R . AS D I A DEMS. SOM E H IG H . SITTING C I RCLE FACING THE SC R E E N O N SEATS A S V A R I E D AS THEY ARE U NCOMFORTA B L E . I T H A P P E N S T H A T WHAT I S ALSO M ET A L L I C G L I TT E R THAT COLLA R 74 .N A I LS TO CA LF. S H E HAS THE FULL EVEN I NG GOWNS A R E . E V E N THOSE N EXT TO H E R. S U P E RBLY SPRAYS GEMS E A R R I NG S COM P L E X AS F I R EWORKS A N D WHICH IT WAS ONE OF THE LATTE R WHO HAS J U ST A P PEAR TO BE MADE W I T H T H E S A M E DROP-SHAPED P E A R LS THE VISUAL A B S T R ACT I O N OF WHICH B RUTALLY A N D U N E XPECTEDLY C A U S E D THE C H I LD AND HER IN D E LICATE THE WARES TO T U M B L E STA N D I N G TO THE CONTI N U E S T O FALL V E RTICA LLY ON LY TO BOU NCE BACK AT BEFORE THEM. OF THUS OFFERI NG. FACE STILL FAMOUS SC E N E S FROM H I STORY A R E S U PPOS EDLY R E PRODUC ED FROM LIFE. MORE OFTEN THAN NOT. THE D I STI NCT WOM E N . T H E SPECTATORS. OR P E N DANTS. A THOUGH ON S E R I ES S H ELVES. O I S A R R AY AMONG T H E ROSES THAT H A V E S P I LLED FROM T H E W I C K E R TRAY S H E U S E S TO D I S PLAY H E R FLOW E R S TO H E R CUSTO M E R S . H E R L I P S PARTED A N D EYES C LOSED. CONC E A L E D U N D E R TH E LEAVES O F THE FLOWERS. REMAIN MOTIONLESS. WITHOUT HER COM PA N IO N S SO M UC H A S BATTING AN E Y E L I D. HER C H I N A N D HER IS L I TT L E TEM PLE I M I TATI NG NAT U R E . FEATH ERS. LIKE THOSE TA BLEAUX OF LIFE­ SIZES WAX FIGU R E S IN MUSEUMS AND I N WHICH EITHER H ER S E L F S U L K I LY WATC H I N G T H E SC E N E U N FOLD I N THE GREAT RECTA N G U L A R GLASS W H E R E I N S H E S E E S H E R O W N N A K E D . W H O A P P E A R S TO B E STO P P I N G H E R E A R S T O D E A D E N T H E T I N K L I NG SOU N D THAT I S H I G H E R A N D H I G H E R P I TCHED-NEARLY A W H I STLE -W H I C H THE PEARLS PRODUCE BETWE EN WITH EVER­ HER BLANK-EYED CONTE M P LATION. I S TH E DELICATE P U B I C FLEECE. S L I G HTLY ONCE A P A RT FROM T H E OTH E RS. DRESSED IN BLACK AND W H ITE. A C R U E L S M I L E ON H I S L I P S . WHOLE O N E OF T H E YOUNG WOM E N I N T H E A U D I E NC E A S THOUGH POSITION P A R A LY Z E D BY HER C O N ST R A I N E D COLLECTION OF FOOTWE A R FOR C U STOM ERS W I T H SPEC I A L TA STES.H A N D E D A N D D I FFIC U LT. I NVERTED I M AG E . S O O N E M A Y ADMIRE AT GREATER EASE THE DIFFERENT ONCE SPECIMENS TO BET (WILL ON IT BE OF S L U M P E D BACKWARDS W I T H A LOW GROA N SHE WAS NO LON G E R ABLE TO RESTRA I N . AND SANDALS WITH L E A T H E R THONGS C R I S S ­ H A S S U D D E N LY LOST CONSC IOUSN ESS. CA R E F U L LY SMOOTH E D. AND I N THE ABSENCE O F U N DE R GA R M E NTS. OF J E WELS. FROM B OO T S T O BA LL-SLI PPERS. S I L K BROCADE. MATS. OR A LACE CUSHIONS. THE F E E T OF N E A R LY ALL U PO N R E S T. FROZEN IN POSES STIFFLY DIMINISHING I NT E R V A L S THEM. HER HEAD O N O N E S I DE. CROSSING FROM P A I NTED TOE . DECKED WITH P E A R LS OR LITTLE G E M ­ ROSES. TO A L L A PPEAR­ A N C ES. BLACK­ STOC K I NG E D LEGS SPREAD APA RT. AS I SAID.Q U E STION A R I S E S ONCE M O R E : IS IT A PROB LEM OF CHOICE A S IN THE PRECEDI NG SC E N E OR ON THE CONTRARY I S IT NOW A N TURAL ORGA N IZATION? E X P E R I M ENT I N STRUC­ E X PO S E D. PRIMPED AND P A M P E R E D. AND TH E I R IN A SEMI­ WIDE ENOUGH. SEQUINS AND STON E S . CONTORTED FUR RUGS POSITIONS. I S T H E M A N WITH THE BALD HEAD AND N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES OBSERV­ I NG T H E R E S U LTS OF HIS VIOLENT ACT. I T I S N O W A P P A R E N T THAT S H E I S ATTA C H E D T O T H E FO U R TIGHT RO P E S OF P E A R LS FO R M A WITH DOG TH E I R N EC E S S A R Y MORE ONE THEM?)-SO HIGH I N FACT.

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THE S H A R PLY T O T H E S I D E A N D H E R A N K L E T O TOUCH. THE YOUNGEST OF A L L T H E SPECTATORS S I TT I N G WITHOUT ON THE OTH E R SIDE OF THE GLASS.A R O U N D H E R N ECK. W H E N H E R L E G S W E R E P U L L E D APA RT. S H E D D I N G AS S H E D O E S SO T H E L I G H T E M B ROI D E R E D L A C E V E I L THAT HAD PA RTLY C O NC E A LE D HER TORSO. ON THE STAGE. THE SC E N E CONTI N U E S : IN A LL LI K E L I HOOD HER SI NGU LARLY RIGID T H E L I TT L E FLOWER-GI R L I S N O W A WA K E N I NG AS THOUG H FROM A D R E A M LESS S L E E P AND I MME­ POS I TION. V E R Y D A R K . WITHOUT T H E SLIGHTEST LATITUDE OF MOVE M E NT. T H E HER ROSES T R I A N G L E' S B L O N D E TU FTS F L O W E R -G I R L PEDDLING P L AY E D I N A L L D U E POMP. HER G E N I T A LS. A S GOLDEN A N D U ND U LATING A S A F I E L D O F R I P E N E D W H EAT. TH U S FORC I NG HER KNEE TO BEND D I STU R B I N G VISION. (FULL W E D D I NG GOWNS. FRANCIS A B R U PT L Y B E C O M E S C O N ­ OF S O M E A RT I F I C E OR OTH ER. OR N E A RLY.A P P L E I l . TH I S CAUSE O F HER PRESENT STATE (FATAL?) . A THIS FOR AN I N STA N T SHE R E F LECTED HER M I RAGE. AS W E L L AS THE BRACE LETS AROUND THONGS HER F I R M LY W R I STS.P E A R L THORNS LIKE A C H R I ST I A N T R A N S L U C ENT. CONC U R RENTLY THE OVA L W E A R I NG N A R ROW D A R K GLASSES I S NONE OTH E R THA N HIS OWN R E FLECTION IN A SIDE M I RROR. T H E I NS PECTOR NOTES J U ST I N C A S E THE FACT THAT THE ROLE PLAYED B Y T H E P E A R L S A S I N ST R U M E N TS O F TORTURE I S BECOM­ I N G I NC R E A S I N G LY OBVIOUS. FRANK V. DIA­ I N FO R M A R E P R I C K E D D I RECTLY I NTO T H E WOM E N ' S S K I N . CROWNED WHO IS TIA RAS. J U ST B E LOW THE LOW E R BLACK A R C. O F THE WASP-CORSET S H E W E A R I NG A N D NOTH I NG E LSE. K E E P I NG H E R L E G I N T H E A I R A S THOUGH I N A STI R RUP. THAT HER BONDS H A V E FORCE D H E R TO A DOPT-A N D THE P E R H A PS FOR SEVERAL HOURS-IS D I A T E LY R I V ETS H E R GAZE O N THE E Y E S OF H E R D O U B L E . E ROTIC SATISFYING H I M S E L F WITH THAT INTERPRETATION FOR T H E T I M E B E I NG. HOLDING HER IS UPON R E M A R K I NG T H I S LAST DETA I L T H E N A RRA­ TOR BECOME A WA R E O F A SECOND I NCONSISTENCY IN THIS ACCO U N T: IF HIS M EMORY SERVES HIM GA RTERS. . H O L D I N G THE G I R L PRISON E R I N T H E C H A I R : O N E A T THE TOP O F THE STRAIGHT BACK AND O N E AT E AC H END O F T H E ARM-RESTS. A L S O SHOWS SIGNS OF I LL N E S S O R D I STR ESS: CROWN E D WITH M O T H E R-OF. R EFLECTI NG MOREOV E R I N T H E C E N T R E O F T H E OVA L M I RROR I N V E N E TI A N C RYSTA L LYING O N T H E FLOOR BEFORE H E R TO N E A R THE OPERA H O U S E . T H E ARE DIS­ W ELL-A N D FRAGILE I N T H I S CASE I T DOES-TE M PLE. FOR I N STA NCE. . O N E WOU L D S W E A R T H A T T H E G I R L H A S GROWN E V E N YOUNGER. T H E N S H E A RR A N G E S HER BLACK STOC K I NGS A N D S L I P S I NTO A PA I R O F F I N E H IGH-H E E L E D S HOES. S H E I S GOING. W H ITE. K N OWN A S "TH E BA RTER E D B R I DE. I M M AC U LA T E TULLE L I LY LACED P E A R L. M O R EOVER. A S SOON A S S H E C A N N O LON G E R HOLD H E R FROM HER PRESCRI B ED POSE.C O V E R E D ETC.H A I RED.P E A R L B U TT E R F L I E S ARE C L I N G I N G TO HER BLONDE TRESSES.H E A D E D MAN LIGHT PA RTY B A LLOONS FLOATING S I LVERY I N T H E C U BE-SH A P E D ROOM.R EST. T O DROP H A N DS-THAT A KIND OF N E ARLY RENDERED A LMOST NUBILE A PPROPRIATE CUPPED LIGHTI NG. I S S I M PLY-L I K E SO M A N Y OTH E R T H I NGS IN THIS HOUSE-THE R E S U LT SERVE AS A FOOT. ARE ACT U A L L Y SOLI D ROSA R Y B I N D S TOG ETH E R AT H E R JOI N E D W R I STS­ THE L U M I NOUS ROSE S Y M BOLIZING H E R V I RG I N ITY. STI L L FOR TEM PLE'S NAKED BY BUT BENEFIT WHO IS M A RTYR. BOOTS.H A I RED. TH E N EXT TABLEAU. F O R T H I S I S T H E E FFECT PRODUCED BY HER FEATURES-MORE C H I L D L I K E T H A N EVER-I N SC IOUS OF A N A NO M A L Y W H I C H DO E S NOT F A I L TO C A U S E H I M M I S G I V I NGS: NO O N E H E R E S E E M S TO NOTICE HIS PRESENCE. HOW E V E R. SINCE HE C A NNOT H A V E B E C O M E I N V I S I B L E ( E V E N U N D E R TH E MAGIC S P E L L OF THE HOLLOW M ES S A G E . THE ONLY THE G L A R E OF T H E P ROJ ECTORS. I T IS TO BE CONJEC­ TURED THAT SEVERAL OF THE J EW E L S THEY HARMLESS NO CON NOTATIONS. WHICH A R E EXPOSED I N FULL V I EW D U E T O T H E W I D E A NGLE PRODUC E D M A K E S H I FT C H E M I S E O F T H E WRY YOUNG WHORE. THE TARGET OF A DD I T I O N A L C R U E LTY FROM H E R PERSEC UTORS. V E I LS.). U N ATTA I N A BLE. MOTHE R-OF. W H E R E A S O N T H E CONTRA R Y T H E P E A R LS SC ATTERED AROU N D H E R H A V E G R O W N B I GG E R U NT I L THEY H A V E BECOM E A DM I S S I BLE E X P LA NATION I S THAT H E I S PROBABLY PART OF THE SC E N E: THE B A L D. R I S E S TO FEET WITH P I R O U ETTE. A SECOND WOM A N . BUT P E R H A PS T H E L O N G BLON D E H A I R OVE R T H E R E . A N D A L L THE M O R E SO A S THE SPIKE H E E L OF O N E OF H E R P I N K SLI PPERS WITH PEARL POM POMS H A S A LSO B E E N R I VETED T O TH E WOODEN FRONT OF T H E C H A I R . W I T H H E R S M A LL R O U N D B R E A STS. H E R 76 . WAS D A R K. A N D WHOSE L I N E S OF FORCE THIN HER WA I ST AND P U S H U P H E R B R E A STS U N D ERSCO R E D BY SACRED MORE ROPES OF P E A R LS." B E G I N S W I TH A PRESENTATION O F W E D D I N G C O ST U M E S PHANOUS. M I R RO R A N D TH E ROSES LYING H E LTER-SKELT E R NOW BLEND I NTO AND VA R IOUS WITH DECORATIVE OBVIOUS MOTIFS.

PANTHER SKINS MARBLED A N D TATTE R E D C H L A ­ MYDES. AS THOUGH THE FA SHION DI SPLAY I N WHICH THEY TDOK PART HAS LEFT THEM WITH O N LY TATTER E D. THE F R I L LS AND THE F L O U N C E S F O R THE S A C R I F I C E . LIGHT AND INTIMATE UNDERCLOTH­ ING WHOSE VESTAL WHITENESS ONLY S E RVES TO EM PHASIZE ITS LICENTIOUSNESS. A R E M I N D E R OF T H E THE LITTLE G I R L I S NOW ON THE OTHE R S I D E OF T H E M I R ROR WHOSE SI DES SHE HAS P U S H E D A PART TO STEP TH ROUGH THE FRAME MORE EASI LY. TABLEAU SUGGESTS TH E PASSAGE O F BARBA R I A N CUSTO�. O N E O F TH E M TAKES POND E ROUS BUT SI LENT FLIGHT AND PERCHES ON THE U N PROTEC- ONCE AGA IN. HAS OFTEN B E E N CA PITAL I N EFFECTI NG THE DISCREET CAPTUR E OF MANY A PRISONER IN THE PALACE OF I LLUSION. KNEE­ HIGH BOOTS A N D A DOG LEASH OF BRAIDED LEATHER THAT H A N G S ABOUT H E R N E C K A N D DOWN TO H E R B ELLY W H E R E IT DANGLES BETWEEN H E R LEGS.I N SPLE N D I D SHOP I M PO R T A N C E OF THE W I N DOWS O F TH E AND WHOSE DRESSED (SOMETI MES EVEN LESS SO. FLEECE SHADI NG H E R P U B I S WITH S I LKY DOWN. A K I M BO. HER BUDDING WAY AS T O MAKE ONE F E A R ( O R HOPE FOR) T H E WORST A S FAR AS TH E G I R LS' F A T E IS CONCERNED. AS THOUGH IT MIGHT DISSOLVE. A S THOUGH U NCONSCIOUS. THE NEXT ONES. THE S U RVIVORS CONTEM­ PLATE T H E SA C R I F I C E D BO D I E S W I T H O U T T H E S L I G HT E S T V I S I B L E E M OT I O N . F I N G E R S S P R EA D . . AS THOUGH BY A GIGA NTIC S E A ­ A N E M O N E . C H A R LES-BORIS. T H EY APPEAR AT T H I S POI NT IN THE NARRATIVE (EVEN THOUGH O N E DOES NOT EXACTLY SUDDEN U N D E RSTA N D TH E REFERENCE) OLD AS REASON FOR T H I S SHE FALLS DIZZI LY FORWARD. A NOTHER I S W E A R I NG O N L Y H E R SOFT. A N D HER AWAREN ESS OF W H A T IS A RO U N D H E R B E G I N S T O F A D E . A C C U STO M E D ­ APPARENTLY-TO THESfi: EXACTIONS. TOR N OR M I S MATC H E D PIECES OF CLOTHI NG). HER WEARI NG ONLY H E R LONG BLACK GLOVES-oNE I S RESTING ON H E R H I P A N D THE OTH E R CUPS H E R CHIN. CYLINDRICAL I N S H A P E AND O F V A ST PROPORT I O N S (IF CROUCHED. . THEIR LEGS STERN N UNS. THE WOM E N ARE SEATED P R I M LY I N PADDED A R M C H A I R S A N D O N VELVET D A R K R E D SOFAS. TEM PLE I S FRIGHTENED. T H E I R GENITALS O N DISPLAY. LONE A N D PERHAPS FAMISHED. L I K E SALOME BEFORE H E ROD. T H E I R H E A DS TH R O W N B A C K . AND DEATH OF THE RIGHT NOW K I NG . SHE I S STI L L BUT NOW A DEATH FIGURE APPEARS I N THE PARADE (THE BI R DS WERE PROBABLY ITS HARBINGER). S I LENTLY. H E R L E G S SOMEWHAT APA RT. OR SOM ETI M ES AN ARRAY O F N EG LIGEES. I N S I D E O F W H I C H HUGE JET­ BLACK RAVENS B E A T T H E I R W I N GS . THE EFFECT OF THIS THAT PROFANE. ONE OF THEM. SOFT AND Y I E LDING. THOUGHTFU LLY C O N S I D E R I N G THE ELE­ GANT DRESS M A K E R-SLAVES AS THEY SPREAD AT HER FEET TH E TRAPPINGS. S E V E R A L D I S P L A Y T H E P E R F E C T I O N OF TH E I R NAKED BREASTS WITH TH E I R H EADS NEARLY C I RCLED BY ENORMOUS H A LOS THAT RECALL TH E ONES ON BYZA N TI N E SAI NTS A N D U PON WHICH. SOM E A R E I LLUSIONS. H A V E NOTH I NG COV E R I NG THEM BUT BLACK MESH TIGHTS. B U T MANNEQUINS ARE ON FASHION GRACEFUL PARADE. COULD FIT TH E R E I N ) .W A I ST A L R E A D Y P E R C E PT I B L E . H E R D E D A LONG BY SEVERAL LYING U PON ORI ENTAL RUGS OR A N I M A L S K I N S I N THE MOST R E L A X E D OF POSES. ERS W H O H A V E J UST VICTI M IZED TWO OR TH REE OF THE I N M ATES. ONE AFTER FINDS H ERSELF I N A VAST BOURGEOIS DRAWING ROOM WITH ITS OVERLY OR NATE DECORATIONS AND I N WHICH T H E YOUNG I M MOBILE WOM E N S E E M TO BE WAITI NG THE H A B I T U E S OF TH E HOUSE. COSTUM E D S O AS T O EVOKE ASSOCIATIONS-oFTE N MACABRE-WITH WHITE V E I LS A N D BLACK M E S H . S H E STANDS FACING THE PUBLIC. A U R EO L E D WITH THOSE FLUTTERING WEDOING V E I LS ON DISPLAY A WHI LE AGO-AS M E NTIO N E D . S H E TURNS TOW A R D T H E TALL B A R OQ U E M I R R O R B E H I N D H E R . H A L F­ ANOTHER. BY THE G L A S S TURNED T O S P O N G E A N D T H E FLOOR T H E SAME. TOWA RDS W H I C H TEMPLE S E N S E S S H E I S BEING SUCKED. A N D THE I R LONG HAIR. TH E BETTER TO SHOW OFF THE ARTICLES PRESENTED. THE M I R ROR'S LIQU I D I S HALT AT M I D-THIGH. OR R EC L I N I NG O N COUCHES A M I DST T H E H EAPED PI LLOWS. S H E FEELS FAI NT. COSTU M E D L I K E B R I DES FOR THE CEREMONY. THERE I S A FURTH E R CHANGE IN THE LIGHTING AND S U D D E N LY F R O M TH E S H A DOWS SEVERAL B I R O CAGES EM ERGE. S H E CLOSES H E R EYES. FEATH ERS. THE PEARLS A R E DEC K E D IN SUCH A 77 . PERHAPS EVEN LIFELESS. THE G I R L SUDDENLY INVERTED A N D FI LLS WITH V E I N S. THE RAVENS H OW E V E R HAVE BEEN RELEASED FROM TH E I R C A G E S A N D T H E Y A R E P E R C H E D H E R E AND T H E R E U PON T H E C A R V E D CORNICES OF T H E FURNITUR E OR ON THE PEDIMENTS OF THE M I R RORS. THE G I R LS A PPROACH A N D G R E ET THE N E WLY C H O S E N ONE. HER BLONDE H A I R TRACES A W A V Y PATH DOWN H E R B A C K . I S W E A R I NG NOTH ING BUT J EWELS I N A RABESQUE PATTE R N S ON H E R S K I N . ROSE WITH A GOLDEN H E A RT.A N D STOC K I NGS THAT EACH GARTER SPORTI NG A REFLECTION SEEMS BLURRED TO H ER.

1 1 . THE CONDUCTOR TA LKING TO A PASSENGER. WANTING TO BE STROKED. W H E R E SHE DOES NOT EVEN NOTICE. S ITS I N A COR N E R SEAT NEAR AN OPEN W I N DOW. B.ROYAL. E R ECT IN ALL ITS GLORY. A NOTH ER. T H E N S H E TRIES O N VARIOUS OUTFITS DESIGNED TO A RO U S E THE I NTEREST OF A CERTA I N C A TEGORY O F C US TO M E R. A N D TO WAIT WITH THEM I N THE A R MC H A I R OF THE DRAWING ROOM WHOSE YOUNGEST ORNAMENT SHE WILL BE. W H I SPERS A FEW I N A U D I B L E WORDS T O HER. 1 0. R. AGAI NST THE NAKED BREASTS OF A DOOM E D CAPTI VE WHO IS HA LF-RECLI N I NG O N A CA NOPY. H E GLANCES AT R. R. 9. THE PASSENGER (FAT. R EFLECTED I N WHAT? A N D WHERE? ONE OF TH E NUNS GOES U P TO TEMPLE AND THE DEPTHS O F A LOOKING GLASS. R:S HAND HOLDING THE R A I L. TH E H A N D OF THE CORPULENT PASSENGER SLIDING A LONG THE R A I L TO R:S FINGERS W H I C H A R E SLOWLY COV E R E D BY T H E H A N D. DISAPPEARS I NTO T H E C ROWD. THE BALD H E A D OF T H E N A R RATOR. BOARDS A STREET BUS. R. CORPU LENT.B LO W N ROSE PLUMAGE. I F S H E DOES NOT BEHAVE S H E W I L L BE LOC K E D I NS I D E THE D E A D DOLL SHOP. BUT CONC EALI NG H E R VULVA. 78 . R. R A N G I N G F R O M BEG­ GA R'S RAGS O R A TURN OF THE CENTU RY BATHI N G COST U M E TO A S INGLE F U L L . MOVES AWAY FROM HER CAR. AT H E R FEET LIES A LION S K I N EVOKI NG SOMETH I NG THAT M UST H A V E OCCURRED ELSEWH E R E I N TH E N A R RATIVE. THE LITTLE ALAIN ROBBE-G R I LLET TRA NSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE 7. 1 3. 8 TER. WITH TH E PROBABLE I NTENTION OF PERSUA DING HER TO REJOI N H E R COMPANIONS. 1 2.TEO BELLY OF AN U NCONSCIOUS G I R L. PLATFORM OF B U S TRAVELLING TOWARD THE PALAI 5. 8 BIS. TALL). GOES QUICKLY I N S I D E THE BUS. SPREADS HIS ROYA L GIRL FEIGNS I N D EC I S I O N TO C O N C E A L HER DUPLICITY.

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SUCCEED I N ESTA B L I S H I N G A C E RTA I N K I N D OF R E LATION S H I P T O THE WOR L D'S REA LITY. H A S T O M A NAGE A S B O U R G E O I S I E IS NOTH I N G WITHOUT T H E PROLE· BO . TO "CHANGE THE I D E AS" OF THE SPECTATOR. J UST AS WO R K E R S . IT IS A US QUESTION OF A DIFFER ENT BECOM ING. DESPITE T H E S E X U A L E X P LO I T A T I O N W H I C H T H E Y U N D E RGO. AND LONG TIRADES OF GOOD INTENTIONS. A PI ECE OF M E RC H A NDISE TO WHICH ONE CANNOT HAVE AND BY M E C H A N SI M S ACCESS EXC E PT THROUGH GUI LT TO ALL THE SYSTE M'S ( M A R R I AG E . W H E R E A S T H E F E M I N I N E BODY I S TRA N S FOR M E D I NTO A N OBJECT OF LUST. WOM E N .I H A V E EVEN M ET H A PPY T R A V E LOS THE M I R A BELLES A R E EXPE R I M E NTI NG WITH A NEW TYPE OF M I LITANT THEATRE. M I M E. D I F F E R E N T THAT A N I D E NTI FICATION MOTHER. BUT I N O R D E R T O TROUBLE H I M . T H E QUESTION IS NO LO N G E R TO K N OW W H E T H E R ONE W I L L P L A Y F E M I N I N E AGA INST M A S C U L I N E O R T H E REVERSE.. FOR EXAM PLE. A THEATRE S E PARATE FROM AN E X P L A N ATO R Y LA N G U AGE. ETC . ON THE OTH E R H A N D. S E X U A L A L I E N A T I O N . SUCCEED IN E ST A B L I S H I N G PRI MARILY ON A C E RT A I N T R U E THEY LIVE THIS L E V E L O F TH E I R R E LATIONSH I P T O DESIRE. A STATE I N O R D E R T O BECOME SOM ETHING OTH E R T H A N THAT WHICH THE R E PR E S S I V E SOCI A L BODY H A S FORCED US TO BE." A N D FROM STER EOTY P E D SITUATIONS. SONG. O N E OF C A P I T A L I S M 'S FOU N DATIONS. " E V E N LESS TO WOU L D HAVE THE MUCH WOM A N . DANCE. B U T T H E T R A N S FO R M A T I O N A L M OV E M ENT. A M A N WHO LOVES A WOM A N'S BODY OR ANOT H E R M A N'S IS H I MSELF THIS IS OF COURSE TO T H E TRANSVESTI S M . ETC . BUT TO MAKE BODIES. Irs T H I S MOVEM E N T. T H I S PASSAGE. NOT AS D i F F E R E NT WAYS O F f LLUSTR. 1 . WOR K . ATTITUDES A N D BEHAVIORS. R E L A TI O N S H I P BODIES. T O TH E BECOMI NG·WOMA N SIDE. T O STIR UP U NC E RTA I N D E S I RE·ZONES THAT H E ALWAYS M O R E OR LESS R E F U S E S TO EXPLORE. W H A T I S ESSENTI A L H E R E I S NOT T H E OBJECT I N Q U E S T I O N . F A M I LY. DESPITE THE E XPLOITATION O F T H E I R WOR K POWER.4. I M PL I E S T H A T THE SOCI A L BODY I S POLA R I Z E D IN M A S C U L I N I TY. A LL BODIES. OR M O R E P R E C I S E LY. A S PSYCHOANA LYSTS B E L I EV E . I N ST E A D . ON GAY LIBERATION! THEY H A V E R E CO U R S E TO A BEST IT C A N ! I N F A C T IT DESERTS MAN'S B O D Y I N O R D E R T O E M I G RATE T O THE SIDE OF THE WOM A N . AND THE AND I F A T T H E ECONOM I C L E V E L TH E DESIRE. THAT T H E M I R A BELLES HELP US EXPLORE: A MAN WHO LOVES HIS OWN BODY.TING TH E: M E . SUBMISSION A LW A Y S S E C R ETLY C H A RA C T E R I Z E D BY A "BE· C O M I NG·WO M A N . OF THE "BREAST PLATE" OF W H I C H W I L H ELM REICH SPOKE. BREAK AWAY FROM THE REPRESENTATIONS AND RESTRAI NTS OF THE "SOC I A L BODY.

TA R I AT. AND PA U L. E V E N I F I T I S A M I LITANT G H ETTO: WHAT I N T E R ESTS T H E M IS THAT SHOWS LIKE T H E I R S TO UCH NOT ONL Y HOMOSEX U A L C I RCLES. THAT DOESN'T AT A L L M E A N THAT W E SHOULD PUT CLASS STRUGG LES WAY DOWN ON T H E LA D D E R B E N EATH DESIRE STRUGG L E S . E TC . A S C E R TA I N (TH I S IGNORED POLLY'S ADDENDA. W A S B A S I C A LLY A POLLY. ALL WE DO KNOW. POLLY'S PARTNE R (WE S H A LL CALL HIM PA U L FOR A M B IGUITY'S SAKE) HAD R E F R A I N E D D A N I E L S LOATE 81 . WHICH REGARD TO ECONOMIC S E X U A L E X PLOITATION C A N NOT B E D I S S OC I ATED. FROM A IDS TOGETH E R A N D S I M PLY POLLY WAS RAISED LIBRARIAN. AT BO U R G E O I S S E P A R A T I O N O F PUBLIC ACTIV ITY. THE DINER WAS A R E MODELED H A N D. NO ONE S E E M S TO KNOW ANYTHI NG AT ALL A BOUT THE ACTUA L GOI NGS. T R A N SVESTED G R E E N B E A N " . F R O M W H E N C E C O M E S TH E I R DEPENDENCE ON THE WO M A N ' S BODY OR TH E WOM A N I M AG E W H I C H H A U NTS TH E I R D R E A M S A N D TH E I R O W N BOD I E S . ACTUA LLY. IT COU RSE WAS I N E V I TA B L E : OUTS I DE A N A UTOMOBILE PLANT I N W I N DSOR M EWS. STRATI FICATIONS REFUSAL TO BY M I LITANTS ( FO R THE EXAM­ CON­ "T R A N S V E ST E D AND . MEN A R E N'T IF THEY M UC H DO WHERE BOD I E S ARE A R E A L D E S I R E S O F T H E PEOPLE I M PL I E S THAT O N E I S C A PABLE OF L I STE N I NG TO H I S O W N D E S I R E A N D TO THAT OF H I S MOST I M M E D I ATE ENTOURAGE. ONCE H I S A LA F L A S H LIGHT PANTS WERE DOWN THOROUGHLY. ON THE C O N T R A RY. OR W H I C H T H E Y PROJ ECT ONTO THEIR HOMOSEXUAL COM E S TH E TO PARTNE R'S BODY. M A S T U R B A T I O N T R I GG E R E D B Y POLLY'S F U RT I V E R E A D I NG S WAS UNMASKED AS PAUL. S H E / H E FOU N D THE EXPOSU R E OF HAPPENED ON BUT WE FEEL I T S H O U LD GO INTO TH E DOSS I E R A N YWAY. WAS ACCOM PLISHED BY M E A N S O F A N A D ROIT F I N G E R I NT R O D U C E D UNDER TH E PREPUCE THE A N D TWI R L E D COUNTER­ R E S U LTS W E R E LONG HERE IN M I D-ECSTA SY. MAY EVEN BE A POC R Y P H A L ) . AT POS S E S S I V E R E S P E CT FOR P R I V ATE LIFE AND THE DOMI NATI NG A TTI T U D E S . MODESTY A N D T E N A C ITY. ) AND J U ST DON'T FEEL GOOD A BOUT TH E M S E LVES. I M ITATION OF TH E S E SA M E S E G R EGATIONS AND PLE. THEY TRY THE THEY AND THAT IS TH E " F R ONT" ON WHICH. CONSTITUTES O N E O F T H E FOU N DATIONS O F THE PRESENT B U R E A UCRATIZATION OF TH E REVOLU­ F E L I X G U A TTA RI TRANSLATED BY RAC H E L McCOMAS TION A R Y WORKER'S M O V E M ENT. TH E I R COLLECTI V E H E R/ H I S P A R E NTS PUT FAR M I SS T H R I P PE . W H AT I NTER ESTS THEM IS TO H E LP TO J PULL LOOK C LO S E LY AT HOMOS E X U A LITY O U T O F ITS G H ETTO. FOOTNOTE ON A N E W E NZYM E S H E D I SCOVERED I N T H E A M A N ITA V I ROSA W H I C H PROVES CONC L U S I V E ­ LY T H A T M O S T DEATH A R E PSYCHOSOMATIC) POLLY POLLY. TH E M I R A BELLES WORK. FROM TO J U NCTU R E B E TW E E N TH E M BRING WHENCE WHICH COUNTER-D E P E N D E NC E REDUCE WOM E N OR U N E XPECTED E N E RGY TO THE FORM E R. H A LLOWE E N WHICH A LSO H A P P E N E D TO B E HER/HIS WEDDI NG NIGHT. MON ETA RY C R I SI S . AGE C LA SS E S . A LTHOUGH THE FOOTNOTE B R E A KS OFF UNDER M I D N IGHT BLA N K ETS.C A R . WITH M UCH P R E D A TO R Y A DO P T IN SEXUAL B E H A VI O R S THEM. . LISTE N I NG FOR THE POLLY ORlAND PAUL POLLY WAS SECRETLY A M A N IN WOM A N'S PANTIES. AND T H I S M E R E L Y A D D S TO TH E CON FUSION. LONG E V E N THOUGH B E TW E E N E V E R Y TWENTY­ ALAS. BUT A L S O THE M A S S OF PEOPLE WHO C RETE A L I E NATION O F WOM E N A N D C H I LD R E N . H E R / H I S P A R E NTS H A D DEC I D E D O N F E M A LE I S S U E A N D W H E N POLLY A P P E A R E D W E A R I N G THE USUAL FROM TH E USUAL FUM BLINGS B E FO R E THEIR N U PT I A L A N D S O THEY W E R E QUITE U N P R E P A R E D F O R WHATEV E R OCC U R E D. WH ITE M I STA K E N FOR TH E M E N ST R U A L FLOW AND POLLY DUTIF ULLY MASTURBATED ONCE EIGHT TIM E DAYS. WILL EACH AN CONC E R N E D NOT ACHIEVE SUCH B E C O M I N G. THE S E R I O U SLY: MORE (TH E I R SOMETH I N G " S E R I O U S!" I M P O RT A N T T H A N MOTTO: WHAT CODI FICATION O F ATTITUDES A N D C L A S S STRATI FI­ CATION. BUT THEY THEM E S P EC I A LLY DON'T W A N T U S TO T A K E THEY ARE S T R U G G L I NG FOR IS B U R E A UC R A C I E S AND TH E B O U RG E OI S I E M A I NTA I N TH E I R POWE R BY B A S I NG T H E M S E L V E S ON S E X U A L SEGR EGATION.WO M A N . RACES. FLICTING. CAN AS R E PORTS AS ARE CON­ M A LE ACCOUTR E M E NTS.I N A N D -OUT OF THAT N IGHT ( M I S S T H R I P P E FOOTNOTE. I S THAT PA U L A N D POLLY O P E N E D A D I N E R P E RIODS. BOUNC I NG R I NG LETS UNTI L TWELVE YEARS OF AGE AND BANGS A FTERWARDS W E LL I NTO THE P U B L I C Y E A R S . C L OC K W I S E .

S H E WA NTS IT. OR P I LATE. "AS F A R AS THE ATTEM PTS AT TRAN SFORMATION ARE CONC E R N E � IT SOON THE P ROSTITUTE A C C E PTS P ROSTITUTION I N T H E N A M E OF A S U PE R I O R I N T E REST. SOM ETI M E S A LSO BY PUTTING M E TO DEATH A N D. W H I C H AT TH E TI M E S E E M E D POS S I B L E T O ACCOMPLISH BY PUTTING A P R I C E ON MY BODY. O N LY I N PROFESSOR FLECHSIG ISCH E B E R'S A N A LYSTl. Q U E ST I O N . A L M IGHTY D I V I N I TY W H O M I P E R C E I V E D I N D A N G E R . S H E I S S I M I L A R T O A M A RTYR. LATER. A LOSS OF T H E I R OWN E X I STENCE. R E S U LTA NT VOLUPTUOUS D E LIGHT WITH I N M Y BODY W A S IN FACT I N C R E A S I N G THE POWER OF ATTRAC­ TION. I I MA G I N E D THE CONTRADICTED IT WAS A THE CONSERVATION THER EFORE. SACRI FICED. S H E TESTI F I E S THROUGH H E R H U M I LI ATION. THERE­ ST I N C T . O R I N HIS SOU L. BY THE DESTRUCTION OF MY INTELLIGENCE ( BY D R I V I NG M E M A D). S I N C E T H E S U F F E R I NG I S E X PO S E D T O H I S EYES A N D G I V E N T O H I S H E A RT. WHO C O N V E RTS THI S SUFFERING I NTO 82 . M A G D A L E N E A S J E S U S. AS MY A LLY. TO GET AWAY FROM MY I THOUGHT I POSSI B L E . CON STA NTLY TION.USE ME LET US R E R E A D P R E S I D E N T SC H R E B E R'S M E MOIRES: "TH E R E M A R K PREVIOUS H A S A L R E A DY THAT BEEN THE MADE RAYS I N THE (GOD'S BUT F I RST. SHE B E G I N S TO TESTIFY A G A I N ST H E R P R OC U R E R . A N D I N T H I S R EG A R D. THAT THE I N STA NCES (GOD A N D P I M P) I S STI L L N A I V E : G O D A S THE A FFECTIVE I N STANCE. AS ON A PROSTITUTE'S BODY. A N D IN­ OF T H E N . . THE P R OC U R E R AS THE ECONOMICAL I N STA NCE." A N D. BUT A LSO H E ROD. WHO W A NTS THIS S C A N D A L. IT H A D TO H E L P GOD BY EVERY EVEN O N LY IF IT MEANT LAT E R BEING THAT I OTH E R MEANS N E RVES L . T H E M A I N IDEA WAS A LWAYS TO H A V E M E STRA N D E D." LIKE A REAL G I R L. BY P ROFESSOR FLECHSIG. J. OR RATH ER. D I D I CONTI N U A LLY S E E MY REAL E N E M Y. . TH R E A TE N E D FOR E . SC H R E B E R A DDS. CONSENTED TO T H I S ATTRACTION A G A I NST TH E I R W I L L BEC A U S E IT L E D TO THUS. IN TRYING T O S U S P E N D T H E ATTRAC­ WOR DS. L I K E A R E A L WHORE. WAS MUCH B EC A M E CON V I N C E D THAT GOD H I M S E L F H A D B E E N A N ACCO M P L I C E I F N OT A UTHOR OF T H E PLOT S E T U P TO K I LL M Y SOU L A N D PROSTITUTE M Y BODY L . 1 . THE D I S S OC I AT I O N OF THE TWO BECA M E C L E A R THAT TH E PROGRESSIVE FILLING UP OF MY BODY WITH (FEMI NINE) V O L U PTUOUS N E RVES H A D THE OPPOSSITE EFFECT. OF T H E WAS HE CARRIED D E N C E? AWAY BY T H E POW E R D E PEN­ SINCE H E R E I T IS F L E C HSIG. T O A B A N DO N M E . THIS F E M I N IZATION? " I T W A S P E RFECTLY N A T U R A L THAT FROM A HUMAN PO I N T OF V I EW DOMI NATING ME C H A PT E R S N E RVES) W H I C H WERE ATTRACTED.

. I'M SURE. TO B E LONG A N D TO FEEL FREED FROM APPEAL APPEARS TO B E J UST AS C R I M I N A L THAN THAT OF THE C R I M E. "SOM ETI M E S THE PHONE WOULD R I NG. NORM A L LI FE"). TH I S ORDER CAN 83 . IN THE S UCCEEDING MOMENT.PONT. AND T H E R EFORE. . T H I S EXTR E M E D E P E N D E N C E C A N BE M A N I P U LATED BY T H E WOM A N AS A W E A PO N AGAINST THE M ASTER. COMING TO MY M I ND." IN THE CONSTITUTUTION O F T H I S A M B I V A L E N C E WHICH MIXES UP GOD AND P I M P. THE TWO NAMES. TH E I N STANCE OF IF NOT MORE ASYLU M: SUCH LAW OF T H E MOB. ONLY AS I WAS WRITING THI S PI ECE. R E G A R D I N G T H I S VERTIGO. HE I S NOT THE HONEST J UDGE WHO R EC E I V E S M Y S U F F E R I NG.D O C T O R A C Q U I R E S H I S L I B I D I N A L D I M E NSION: T H E O R D E R O F T H E WORLD. BUT YOU M I SS IT FOREVER. I F FLECHSIG I S THIS VERTIGO'S NAME. CHECKING I F I W E R E H O M E I . FLECHSIG AND GOD. THE PIMPS] HAVE ALL THE TI M E THEY N E E D TO GET YOU. EVEN I N A M ERICA I F THEY WANT. WHEN T H E SCORCHED FLECHSIG. HE W A NTS T O E X P E R I E NC E P L E A S U R E L I K E A WOM A N AND GIVE GOD PLEASURE. I S T H E I LLUSION O F A N EGO: "TH EY HAD SUCCEEDED SINCE FROM THEN ON I E X I STED ONLY THROUGH THEM. A S I N THE GOOD OLD M A STER­ SLAVE D I A L ECTIC. JOY TO E N D U R E AND TO HOLD OUT." THAT N A M E LESS WHY GIVE I T TH E N A M E O F SA DO­ SOMETHING. BEYOND SENTIM ENTS. IT I S P E R H A PS THE FEM I N I N E ORGASM THAT ATTRACTS TH E BOD I E S TO BLIND M I X I NG: THUS SCH REBER WANTS TO BE MORE WOMAN A N D MORE PROSTITUTE. J U ST THE SOU N D OF H E AVY BR EATH I NG." T H E Y WOULD HANG U P. I N LOVE. MORE A N D MORE "DEAD. NESS? FOR S U REI BUT TH ERE IS NOT A REASON TO DISREGARD THE STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS: I NSTENSITY H I DES IN SIGNS AND I NSTA NCES. SAYS SCH REBER. FREEDOM. OF FLECHSIG-GOD'S PLEASURE: THERE IS (A) CONTl NU· OUS WOMAN. T H I S C A N BE CON S I D E R E D AS THE EFFORT OF T H E CREATURE TO REACH THE LEVEL OF THE DIVI N E O M N I T E M PORALITY: "EVEN WHEN I WAS LIVING ALONE I N MY STUDIO. THEREFORE R E V E A L I NG IT A N D EXPLOITING IT I N THE DUPLICITY OF S U FF E R I NG-JOUISSANCE. EVEN IN THE M I DDLE OF THE NIGHT. IF THE PROPER NOUN I S THE PIMP OR GOD. I DARE SAY. T H I S I S WHY SCH R E B E R WANTS TO B E ALL WOMEN A N D WOMAN ALL T H E T I M E . I C A NNOT REALLY EXPLA I N I T." SCHREBER WANTS TO B E T H E PROSITUTE O F GOD. BECAUSE. THE PUNISHMENT I S A DECISIVE ELEM ENT: IT IS CALLED P E R SECUTION BY SCH REBER. THEN. M ERGE. MAKING A PROFIT. IT I S A DRUG. I S R E A L LY VIOLATED BY TH E PROJECT OF M Y TRANSFORM ATION I NTO WOM A N ( PROSTI­ TUTE): THERE I S NO I N STANCE OF A PPEAL." SAYS XAVIERE LAFONT. A N D T H E " I N C E S S A N T LY" A N D BUT OF COURSE. XAVIERE SAYS W H A T IS ESSENTIA L: "TH E P U N I SH­ M E NT IS AGA I N THE WAY TO GET A H U MAN B E I NG TO ACCEPT THE UNACCEPTA BLE. BEING LOCKED U P." I N ORDER TO SEDUCE FLEC H S I G A N D GOD EVEN "CONTIN UOUSLY" THAT REA PPEARS U N D E R H I S PEN TO DEFINE T H E NATU RE. W H E N P E N I S A N D VU LVA ARE I N TATTERS."). AND THIS IS I M PORTANT: "TH I S I DEA E M E RGED ONLY MUCH LATER. A N D T H E N .G O O . "T H E P H O N E W O U L D R I N G AT A L L BETTER. THIS SOMETHING H A S NO N A M E. WHAT DI SAP­ P E A R S I N T H E P U N I S H M E NT. THERE WOULD B E NOTHI NG. A SAVAGE JOY MIXED WITH SHAME. IT I S A LSO THE OCCASION OF TH I S U NSPEAKABLE "SOMETHI NG. IT M U ST E X I ST FOR ALL W O M E N . AS WE HAVE SEEN. I N EVERY COUPLE AT LEAST ON A M I NOR OR U NCONSCIOUS LEVEL. THE N THE P I M P. LIKE THE FEELING O F LIVING YOU R LIFE SEVERAL T I M ES ALL AT ONCE WITH U NBELIEVABLE INTENSITY. W H E R E WITH XA V I E R E WE THOUGHT WE HAD FO U N D T H E STRENGTH OF POWERLESSNESS ("I WOULDN'T SAY I REGRET THI S LIFE. . IN THE SUCCEEDING TI M E FRAM E (THE MOMENT OF WRITING. ACCORDING TO HIM. BUT IT I S A LSO THIS SA DO-M ASOCHI STIC LINK THAT I N THE END MAKES YOU FEEL SOMETHING TOWA RDS YOU R PROC U RERS. T H E N A T LEAST A S H I S M A STER. I S THE SA M E STRUGGLE A S THAT OF A G I R L TO GET AWAY FROM THE U N D ERWORLD AND THE WHOREHOUSE/R E D LIGHT D I STRICT W H E R E S H E IS C O N F I N E D.CASH. I N THE D E A D OF N IGHT." AND EVEN WHEN SHE QUIT HER JOB. GOD AND THE "EGO" DOESN'T FALL INTO D E P E N DENCE ONLY BECAUSE O F A M I S E RABLE FLUCTUATION IN T H E POWER G A M E. W H E R E EVERYBODY WANTS TO PUT H I M. GOD IS ALSO PERSEC UTING M E . . IT IS BEYOND LOVE AND HATE. REDUCED TO A EARTH HAS NO TACTICS LEFT. . IT I S LIKE COCA I N E. A FORM E R PROSTITUTE OF RATHER GREAT N OT E R I ETY. THE MI DDLE OF A PROCESS O F D I S S I M U LATION. THE PI M PS TH EMSELVES F E E L THAT "SOMETHI NG" WHEN THEY PUNISH. YOU NEVER FIND T H I S INTENSITY I N . STI LL IT I S THE SAME AS THE P U N I S H M ENT THAT XAVI ERE M UST E N DURE. AND ON TH E OTHE R END. MORE AND MORE M A D. SHOULD W E M A K E ROOM FOR POWER AND ITS COM PLICITY WITH EVERY WEAK­ HOURS. WHEN P A L M S AND LOOKS ARE EXHAUSTED. I F NOT AS H I S LOVER. IS THE R ELEGATED TO TH E HERE SUCH. SO. THE P I M P OR TH E COM M U N ITY OF PIMPS I S TOO. I S IT A QUESTION OF INTU ITION RATH E R THAN I NTENSITY? A N D AT TH I S . H E I S THE PIMP WHO D E M A N D S IT AND USES IT TO MAKE A PROFIT. THUS IGNORING IT AS STATE OF D E P E N D E NC E . MASOC H I S M AS SHE SUGGESTS? H E R E WE ARE IN SCHREBER PROTESTS: HIS FIGHT TO GET OUT OF M E NTA L I NSTITUTION S.

R E I N TROD U C I N G POLITICS. C A P A B L E O F CONVERTING PERVERSION. C O M I NG FROM BODY EXHAUSTED B Y C A RESSES A N D I N SOM N I A . A COM P L E M E NTI NG POWE R IN A CONFLICT. TH E PASSION FOR PASS I V I TY WHICH CAUSES THIS D E M A N D TO BE FOR M U LA T E D IS NOT A SINGLE WHICH IS A LSO THE MYSTERY O F S I M I LI T U D E IS T H E V E R Y M AC H I N E R Y PRODU C I N G T H E M E A N I NG F U L S I G N A N D H I DI N G T HI:: T E N SOR. O R BATA I LLE U N DE R ST A N D S IT. THE P I M P. E. "LETS B E D E AD. BUT SOMETH I N G COMPLETELY D I FFERENT HA PPENS WITH I N T H I S SMALL O F T H E BACK. THE POLITI C I A N S DENY. LETS GET LOST A N D LETS LEAVE T H E POWE R A N D T H E A B J ECT J U ST I F I CATIONS O F T H E R E D E M PTION D I A LECTIC B E H I N D . WHEN THE FA NTA SY. NOW. DO Y O U T H I N K? C O M E ONI S H E W A NTS Y O U TO DIE WITH HER. THE DEMA N D FOR D E PENDENCE IS NOT A PLEA TO BE DO M I N ATED. S H E DEMANDS TISSUES. M U C H L E S S A NSWER IT. T H E H EA D . H E R SHOES. T H E C A PITAL. FEEL E V ERYTH I N G CLOSING U P WITH I N ITSELF. I . THIS I NTEN­ LIQ U I FI E S ALL STASES I N T E R MITTENTLY BLOCKING TH E FLUX O F I N T E N S I TY." AND NOT: I WANT TO DIE B Y YOUR H A N D. I T H U RTS. O F C I R C U M V E NTING I T. WOULD R E E M E RG E IN TH E ROA R I NG OF U NTI E D PARTI A L ' D R I V ES T H E S U B J ECT F U NCTIONS. OR F R E U D . T H E PROSTITUTE I S A LSO H E R OWN P ROC U R E R. YOU BE MY O R I FICES. THE V I S IO N THE OF ALL OF I MMENSE T A C T I L I TY .STI L L A R I S E THROAT TH E R E OF FROM A THE H O A R S E A N D I NT I MATE "USE M E"-TH I S M E A NS. DO IT FOR THEM. THE I LLUSION OF POWER. SOM ETH ING M UC H MORE I M PORTANT. SHE WANTS THE L I M ITS OF "OV ER-PR ICED" NATURE OF H I S OFFERING. R E L I N QU I S H I NG SELF P E R PETRATED AND ACCOMPLISHED BY EXCLUSION TO B E FORC E D BACK F U RTHER. TIONAL HERE OR LIES THE NOT. SUPREME FROM A DECEIT. YOU ASK? A N D JUST W H A T D O E S A PROSTI TUTE G E T FROM SELLING TH E MOST U N P REDICTABLE PA RTS O F HER BODY? HER LOOKS. USES THIS D E M A N D IN ORDER TO BECOME HEAD OR POW E R HE H I M S E LF. PRESS THE CENTER. THE MYSTERY OF THE T R I N ITY P R OT E C T I N G H I M S E L F: DOESN'T D A R E PAY ATTENTION T O THE O F F E R . . T H E O NE-WOM A N B A N D? TO B E T H E M ASTER OF H E R MASTE R A N D A L L THAT. HE IS JESUS I S A LSO GOD. HER TA LENTS A S A DRESS M A K E R. S H E . THIS SU PPLICATION A P P E A R S A S P U R E R E L I G IO N A S L O N G A S I T REQU ESTS D E P E N D E NCE. TH E R E IS NO D I A LECTIC OF THE SLAVE: NEITHER H E G E L' S NOR LACAN'S D I A LECTIC O F TH E H YSTER IC. AND DON'T FORGET THAT AS FLECHSIG. TH E SC A N N I NG. A N D C A P ITA LIZATION O F L I B I D I N A L I NT E N SI T I T E S I N ORDER TO C R EATE S U R PLUS VALUE. A N D W H A T DO E S SCH R E B E R GET? T H I S I S NOT T H E Q U E STION. THIS I NSTANTA NEOUS SO THAT ULTI MATE ALREADy EXTENSION A N D I N VENTION I S PREC I S E LY WHAT THE MEN OF POWER. WHAT DOES SHE W A NT." WHAT DOES J E S U S GET F ROM ALL TH I S. T H E B E LO V E D A N D O M N I P R E S E N T-TH I S O V E R ­ PRICED Q U A LITY IS FIXED BY JESUS AS THE WOM A N : IS NO ME. I ' L L B E YOU R SACRIFICE A N D YOU R TISSUES. B U T NOT B4 . OVERLOOK E D B Y SADE. B U T E V E R YO N E B R EAKSI E V E N P E R V E RTS OR FOOLS ("THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO") W I L L B E R E C U P E R A T E D I NTO THE GRACIOUS B O D Y O F THE C R EA T E R. LAC LOS A N D C LA USEWITZ. OF T H E R E FORE. I N T H I S SENSE. A N OVER­ EX PLOITATION OF JOU ISSANCE'S FORCE. THEY CONTENT THEMSELVES WITH A MEAN C OM M A N D. NO EGO. BOTH PRESU PPOSE A P E R M UTATION OF ROLES WITHIN THE SPACE OF SCHREBER. BECAUSE THE OFFER OF OPEN BUTTOCKS AND A N U S ON THE PART O F THE WOM A N BENT OV E R AS A GLEENER IS NOT A C H A LLENGE WHAT I OF TH E POTLATCH K I ND-" H E R E I S G I V E YOU. A S H E S A Y S TO POLITICAL A SPECT O F D E P E N DENCE. N A M ELY THE OFFER TO SUP­ MAN. LET U S S E E WHAT YOU HAVE GOT'-IT I S T H E O P E N I NG O F THE L I B I D I N A L BAND. AND THIS O F F E R I NG . SHE WHO D E M A N D S TO BE U S E D I N T H E A R I D ITY A N D EXASPE RATION O F COU R S E . "DO IT FOR ME. TH E P I MPS. T H E PROSTITUTE SCH RE B E R O R J E S U S I N VENTS A N D D E F I N ES H I M SELF BY C A R E F U L P LA N N I NG AS A S U B J ECT. IT IS THE OV E R W H E L M I N G AND "USE ME": AN E N U N C I AT I O N OF V E RT I G I N O U S U N M E DIATED POW E R [PUISSANCE] ITSELF THAT S I M P L I C I TY T H A T I S N 'T M Y ST I C A L B U T R A T H E R MATE R I A LI ST. A S MASOCH SAYS. T H E RATIONA LITY OF WAR. T H E T E R R I B L E SCHREBER­ IAN OF DEMIRACLENESS H E S U F F E RS. U N DERCOV E R SIGN. ALL TH I S IS V I R I L E BULLSH IT. BUT RATH E R . O R D E R . H EG E L I A N GLOSS OF THE PLEA: BE M Y M ASTER: MAY YOU R WILL BE DONE. FORCE. BUT THERE IS A LSO A L I B I D I N A L A SPECT. "USE M E" I S AN O R D E R A N D AN I M PE RIOUS PLEA. J E S U S I S A CALCULATING P ROSTITUTE: YOU M A K E M E D I E . THE DEMAND FOR PASSIVITY IS A DEMA N D FOR SLA V E RY. PROSTITUTION I S THE R E D E M PT I O N P R I C E OF S I N . BUT WHAT SHE ASKS I S THE S U PRESSION O F THE I/YOU R E LATION S H I P ( M A STE R/SLAVE. REVERSIBLE) AND A LSO OF THE R E LA T I O N SH I P O F USE. T H I S IS HOW SADE. OF H I S A B A N DONI NG OF S E LF. EVEN IF O N LY IN DO M I NATION. STR ATEGY. "USE ME" TENDS TOW A R D S THE MALE MEMBER E R ECTED ABOVE T H E SMALL O F A BACK. MY PALMS A N D MY M E M B R A N ES. OF A R E LATION SH I P OF DOM I NATION. A N D G O D I S A P I M P W H O S A Y S TO H I S W I FE JESUS. I SN'T THIS WHAT JESUS SAID O N THE C ROSS? BUT JESUS CAN ASK FOR D E P E N DENCE BECAUSE HE OFFERS HIS SUFFERING AS S I N ' S SALARY: TH E A L L PA RTS O F H E R BODY.

"LONG LIVE TH E LIVE AN YWAY. OF LA U G H I NG. BUT O F B U K H A R I N HAVE A C H A N C E TO ESCA PE?" IT'S THE WOR D OF A MAN OF THE U N D E RWORLD. OP­ ANYMORE. OR O F E V E RYTH I N G CONTIN­ U A LLY E XT E N D I N G W I T H O U T C O N Q U E R I N G . I N L I F E AND B E YOND. A S D E L E U Z E A N D GU ATTA R I PUT I T (AS F O R THEM . BUT THEY A LMOST COULD BE. SHE WANTS H I M NOT TO WANT A NYTH I N G SIS . I DENTI C A L SHE IN WANTS THEM TOG ETH E R TO B E THE CONN ECTIONS O F A L L TH E I R POSED TO TH I S I S THE SE LF-A DHESIVE M E DIOCRITY OF THE VIRILE." RATH E R "LONG "WHAT DOES A WOMAN WANT?" ASKS F R E U D. IT I S WRITTEN I N T H E L E TT E R L E N I N S E N T T O TROTSKY TH ROUGH THE H A LLS O F THE WI NTER PALACE (I "AND THESE C E L E ST I A L FIGURES WOM A N . J. CONQU ERI NG. QUOTING M IGNON'S SONG IN WILHELM MEISTER: CAPABLE UNVEILING AND EX PLOITI NG T H E HYSTERIC O R T H E WOM A N A N D H E R SO-CALLED LIE. " N E V E R ASK WH ETHER W E A R E M A N O R THE DESIRE THAT E V E RYTH I N G BE H A RDLY HAVE TO M A K E I T U P) : "SAY. ORGA N I ZA T I O N " ) . THESE S M A L L TOWN PE RVERTS. I F WE COULD BE F R E E D FROM THE D I F F E R E N C E OF SEX. FELLOWS. OFTEN WITH A N TROTS K Y . A M E D I OC RITIY S I M I LA R TO THE POLITIC I AN'S. ." BECAUSE THEY NEED A N ORGA N I ZAT I O N . T H E I N SANE P L E A OF THE M ASSES IS N O T "LONG LIVE SOC I A L I TY" (AND EVEN BUT LESS. B E L I E VI NG I TS E L F TISSUES. BUT CA UGHT I N THEIR D I SGUSTING PROPER NOUNS O F RULERS. LIBIDINA LITY. T H EY A R E N O T N ECESSA RILY H O M O S E X U A L. THEY SEEM TO BE Q U I TE JOVIAL COURSE! W H E N T H E Y T H I N K ABOUT L I FE." W R ITES SCH R EB E R. E F F E M I NATE FLAIR. PROSTITUTING TH E WOM E N-MASSES. SHE WANTS THE M A N TO BECO M E N E IT H E R MAN NOR J EAN-FRANCOIS L YOTA R D TRANSLATED BY M I C H E L F E H E R A N D TOM G ORA WOMAN. OF COU RSE. THEY A R E NOT V E R Y GOOD LOVERS. " I T WOULD BE MORE I N ACCOR DANCE WITH THE REALIZATION OF DESI RE. U N I FY I N G .LOC K I N G ITSELF U P. EXTE N DING. IF THE WH ITE G U A R DS KILL US. C LOSING UP AND DOM I N A T I N G ? T H E G R E E KS. THEY A LWAYS MOVE IN PACKS. THE GAYS WHO MOVE LENIN AND IN PACKS. FROM XAVI E RE: "AT F I RST S I G HT. CAPITALIZI NG. DO YOU TH I N K SVERDLOV AND CARRI E D AWAY A N D B U R N ED U P I S CALLED B Y T H E GR EAT TH I N K E R S THE DEATH I N STINCT. THEY A R E WELL DRESSED. DON'T THEY A LWAYS T H I N K A BO U T GATH E R I N G . THE LAST COM M E N T COMES.

SAY A MONG IT IS R E VOLUTION A R I ES. WE SHOULD MORE P E R H A PS MOLECULAR AND DI STI N G U I S H ONE A SEXUAL ITY. A FIXATION AT TH E PRE-GEN ITA L STAGE. IN W H I C H I N STAN­ S E C R ET. BOTH AT T H E SAME TIME 1 I THAT A L L FORMS O F S E X U A LITY. D I S P LA C E D . W R IT E R S . BE PUT RITES. AMONG ONE WOULD LOOK FOR S I M I LA R ITIES DRUG HOMOSE X U A LS . I N W H I C H C L E A R C UT OPPOSITIONS BETWEEN TYPES WOU L D B E R E P U D I ATED. OF SEXUAL IN PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S MAKES FORMS M I N ORITIES REALM DEVELOPMENTAL RETA R DATION. I N WHICH. ALL FOR MS OF S E X U A L ON ANOTH ER. THEIR M YTHS OF LOVE ( M YTHES AMOU REUXI AS R E N E N E LLI PUTS IT. THEY ARE C LO S E R TO B6 . A D D I CTS. AMONG LET'S MATTER. P H A L LOC R A T I C IN THEIR C E R E M ON I A L. IT COULD BE S A I D. NOUR­ GROUPINGS "SPEC I A L ISHED BY R E P R ESSION A S WELL AS BY A FEELING OF S H A M E STI LL LIVELY I N " R E S P ECTABLE" M I L I E U S ( P A R T I C U LA R LY A M O N G B U S I N E S S M E N . S M A L L E R A N D MORE AVANT-GARDE LEVEL IS FOU N D M I LITANT HOMOSEXUALITY. SHOW-BIZ PEOPLE. IT ENFORCES A SECON D DEGREE NORM. A CONJU NCTION BETWEEN THE ACTIONS OF F E M I N I STS AND H O M OS E X U A LS THEN BECO M E S POSSI B L E . MEN. AMONG WOM E N . F O R E X A M PLE. HOMOS E X U A L ITY CON FRONTS H ETERO- ACTI VITY A R E F U N D A M E NTALLY ON T H I S SIDE OF TH E PERSONOLOG I C A L OPPOSITIONS HOMO-H ETE RO: 2) THAT NON ETH E L E S S . ETC.) I N W H I C H PSYCHOA NALYSIS IS PRESENTLY TH E R E I G N I NG M A STER. HOMOSEXUALITIES FU NCTION WITH SOMEWHAT OWN AS MOV E M ENTS. NOW H ET E R OS E X U A L I TY THE PROBLEM TE N DS IS TO M U ST ACCOU NT F O R I T S E LF. NO LONGER MORAL. AN ILLNESS OF IT. SEXUA LITY CONTI N U E S TO BE T I E D TO THE VALUES AND I NTE RACTION A L SYSTE M S OF T H E DOM I N A NT ITS DEPENDENCE NORM IS A IN REG A R D TO THE IN A HOW E V E R. P R I N C I PLE. A CATEGO R I E S . SADo-MASOCH ISTS. T R A N S V ESTITES. ON TH E CONTRARY. BUT SC I E N T I F I C . C O R PO R A T I S T LIKE ARCADIA. C H ILDREN. DESPITE T H E I NTERVEN­ TION OF GROUPINGS NATURE OF A MORE OR LESS H O M O­ POW E R I N TO Q U E S T I O N . MORAL H O M OS E X U A L I T Y BUT A IS NO LO N G E R A C E S" WOU LD NOT B E D I F F E R ENTIATED I N THE SA M E WAY. A PSYCHOTICS. ALL TEEN-AGERS. ONCE U N D E R S TOOD THAT THIS T H E R E C O U L D O N LY B E M I NORITI ES.B ECOMI NG-WOMAN I N T H E GLOBAL SOC I A L F I E LD. PROSTITUTES. ETC. A RT I STS. MATTER OF PERVERSION. TH E I R C H A P E LS I N ITIATION SEXUAL POWE R ON ITS OWN TERRAIN. OF THE F H A R TYPE. H ET E ROSEX U A L POL ITICS OF THE M A N I FESTED H I DDEN ESS T H I R D LEVEL.

THE MORE P R EC I S E LY. BECO M I NG-WOMAN. . I T A LW A Y S HAS A S C H I Z O I D. O N LY THAT HE W I L L BE A B L E T O BECOME A N I M AL. BY THE VERY N AT U R E OF T H I N GS. WHATEVER B R E A KS TH E LISHED ORDER. H ETEROSEXUA L-THAT IS M E D I ATOR IN B E CO M I N G S . WHAT I T I S A BOUT A G R EAT WRITER­ EVEN IF H E'S. T H I S V l s · A· v I S TO OTH ER SEXED A BECO M I NG-A N I M A L OR A BECO M I NG-WO M A N . W E TELL O U R S E LVES THAT I T I S SORT OF "LIKE A WOMA N . . ORDER U ND E RSTA N D T H E HOMOSE X U A L. LETTER. ETC. T H I NGS A R E N E V E R T H A T S I M PLE.HOMOS E X U A L I TY A N D TO WHAT COULD BE CA LLED A FE M I N I N E BECOMI NG. MOREOVER. A N D E V E N T U A LLY A S A SC R E E N PLE: FOR OTH E R TYPES OF BECOMI N G (EXAM­ AS IN SCH U M A N N . OUTS I D E O F T H I S E XC L U S I V E BI-POLE. M U S IC. TH E R E I S N O SUCH T H I NG A S W O M A N PER S E ! NO MATE R N A L P O L E . CONVERSELY. A N D THE SENTENTI O U S ATTITUDE O F PSYCHOANA LYSTS AND SEXOLOGISTS ON TH I S POI N T DOESN'T REA LLY H E L P THI NGSI IN FACT. INCALCULABLE SEXUAL MOTI VES REQU I R E OF T H E WOM A N A QUASI­ HYSTERI C A L I DENTI FICATION OF HER ORGAS M W ITH THE M A N·S. ETC. . BUT RAT H E R . NORMS. M A SC U L I N E/ACT I V E T H E R E FO R E R E M A I N S A POI NT OF REFERENCE TO M A D E OB LIGATORY BY POWER IN IT TO SITUATE.R E DUCTION 1 ST FOR E X A M PLE. NOTI ONS LIKE WOM A N . ETC. SHE ASSUMES ARE THE F A U LT. ON SO MANY STU P I D DRA M AS BASED THIS THEME. T H E BECOMI NG-WO M A N SERVES A S A POI N T OF R E F E R E N C E . CONFLICTS. A DIFFERENT SELVES WOM E N . I M IGHT A DO. O N THE L E V E L OF THE S E X E D BODY THE L I B I DO IS ENGAGED IN A B E C O M I NG-WOMAN. DEVIATION. I N G I N S B E RG'S W O R K . I S THUS I N S E P A R A B L E FROM A BECOMI NG-WOMAN­ EVEN NON-OED I PAL. RAVAGES DOM I N A N T PHALLIC PROFITS I N H E R EN T ALL F O R M A T I O N S U N D E R TA K E S S U C H A WOM A N A C CO R D I N G IT IS TO DIVERSE ON TH I S B E C O M I NG­ POSSI B L E CONDITION. THE N O N . NOR M A LIZING GA M E. SHOULDN'T BE THOUGHT OF AS B E LONG I N G TO THE WOM A N CATEGORY FOU N D IN THE COUPLE. TO MY M I ND. MIZE U N D E R STOOD TO DICHOTO­ A L L V A L U E S -T H E O P PO S I T I O N S S T R O N G / SOC I U S. SUCH A CATEGORY. A N D A S TH E L A S T BUOY Vls·A-vIS THE ESTA B L I S H E D ORDER. THE ONLY A UTHORIZED A MAN BECOMI NG-PLA NT. LOVE I N PROUST I S N E V E R S P EC I FI C A LLY HOMOS E X U A L. A MODALITI ES. S E X U A LS T H E M S E LV E S J O I N SC A R C E LY I TH I NK ITS I M PORTANT TO DESTROY NOTIONS W H I C H ARE F A R T OO I N C L U S I V E . COLOR. OF A FU N D A M ENTA L POETIC M U TATION WITH GENERAL SEXUA L M UTATION). COSMOS. IF I STRESS T H I S LAST POINT I T S BECAU S E T H E BECOMI NG-FE M I N I N E BODY WEAK. WHEN TH EY'RE FEMALE R E D U C E D TO BLACK-WHITE. A BECOM­ TRU STEES OF A WHO DETAC H E S B E C O M I N G . MORE FASHION. CONTROL I NT E N S I T I E S D E S I R E . AN EXPRESSION OF A SYM M ETRY. PARANOID P A RT. E V E R Y " D I S S I D E NT" ORGA N I ZATION OF T H E L I B I DO M U ST T H E R E FORE BE D I R ECTLY LINKED TO A B ECOMI NG-FEM I N I N E BODY. B E C O M I N G. A I NG-MUSIC. AS AN ESCAPE ROUTE FROM THE R E P R E SS I V E P H A L LOC R ATIC. T H E PA I R F E M I N I N E/PASS I VE. P S YC H OT I C 87 . N O SA LVATION: O R ELSE ITS T H E PLUNGE I N TO THE CATEGORI ES. FOR HOMOSEX U A LITY. YOU CAN NOT QUA L I FY A LOVE U N I VOCA LLY. THE L I B I DO I S CAUGHT I N TWO SYSTEMS O F OPPOSITION: C LASS AND SEX. U LT E R I O R OPERATION B I N A RY. LOC A L I Z E .O F SEXED BECOMI NG. A S A POSSIBLE ACCESS T O A " M I N I M U M . FOR M S M A RG I N A L I S M AS COOED IN TO WORK ARE S A F ET Y VALVES. S H ORT. OF ETC. NO ETE R N A L FEMI N I N E . . U S E FU U U S E LESS. ARE THEM­ TO SUBJ UGATE T H E M . F R EQ U ENTLY. I N "REFUSI NG" H I M . OF ORDER PE R M IT TO HOMOS E X U A L .M I N E R A L BEC K ETT>. EVERY S E M I OT I Z A T I O N OF A BREAK I M PL I E S A SEXUALIZATION OF A B R E A K . NON-SEN 51 C A L. I S RE LATED TO HOMOSEX U A LITY O R I T IS BECA U S E IT IS NOT TOO FAR R E MOVED FROM T H E B I N A R I S M OF P H A LLIC POWE R THAT BECOMI NG­ WOMAN CAN ROLE AS PLAY THIS I N TE R M E D I A RY ROLE. THE WOM A N OWES H E R ORGA S M T O T H E M A N . IN FACT. BECOM­ FA M I LY. WOM E N WHO. C L E A N/DI RTY. I N F A NT I L E S E X U A L I TY .S E X E D-BODY. IT IS IT U N D E R ST O O D IS TO BE MALE. " AND A NUMBER IN THIS OF HOMO­ HOMOS E X U A L.P E R S O N O LO G I C A L SAM E H O L D S T R U E FOR S E X U A LITY. WE SHOULDN'T ASK W H I C H W R I TERS A R E HOMOSEXUAL. I N V E R S E LY . POETIC S E X U A LITY ( FOR I N STANCE: TH E COI N C I ­ DENCE. HOMOSEXUA LITY. TO P S Y C H O A N A LY S I S. 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ONE T H I N G THAT HAS A LWAYS S E E M E D A M AZING TO M E I S THAT W H E N THEY'RE IN H E AT. L I K E W I L D D A N C E R S . TURN AND FIGHT. W H E N O N E D I E S -T H E I N D I A N S SAY-THE OTH E R LETS H I M S E L F J. AND AROU N D E A C H OTH E R . TOO.-P. A N I M A LS LOS E ALL THEIR CRAZY. 90 . YOU FALL RUN A FT E R O N E W I LD A NOTH E R. F. : TO THE EXTENT THAT S E V E R A L S M A L L T R I B E S I N A NTIQU ITY. IN T H E COU R S E OF SPRING AND A UT U M N . YOU I N H I BITIONS: FOR SOM E O F TH E M . JUMP. THEY HAVE BECOME SO C RAZY. GOATS COM I NG DOWN FROM MOUNTA I N TOPS BY T H E H U N DR E DS. YOU CAN'T E V E N G E T C L O S E E N O U G H T O FI LM EXCEPT AT THAT TI M E. B . R. M A Y B E D U E TO A K I N D OF S Y M B IOTIC R E LATION S H I P BETW E E N TWO B E I NGS W H O H E L P ONE A NOTH E R. B. BY W H AT F. S I NG L E T R A I T WOULD YOU DEFI N E LOVE I N TH E A N I M A L WOR LD? I SHALL R E P EAT SOMETHING MICHEL FOUC A U LT TOL D ME O N E DAY: Irs REA LLY T H E F E E L I NG O F A N I M A LITY.: YOU HAVE FILMED MANY LOV E D I E . THEY J U M P U P WITH TH E I R FE ET.-P. A N D T H E N . W H I C H M A K E S U S SAO. DRAGGED A LONG BY A STRONG W I N O J. K E E PS GOI NG. .: DO E S A B SOLUTE LOV E E X I ST? J. PRO H I B I T H U NTING D U R I N G THIS PE RIOD. THE FLOCK DOESN'T STOP: IT HAVE S E E N A N I MA LS S U P R E M E LY "IN LOV E": T H E Y DON'T MOVE ANYMORE. OF T H I S A N I M A LITY W H I C H D R I V E S U S FR E D E R I C ROSS I F : BY M A D N ESS. T H E S P I R I T OF C E L E B RATION I S SO COMPLETE. THEY'RE HOPELESSLY D I STRACTE D. T H E R E'S A F E A R I N THE FACE O F IT. W H I C H M A K E S U S HA PPY.-P. . THEIR TO O N E WALK A NOTH E R : SPREAD WI NGS. T A K E FOR I N STANCE ANTIGO N A L F. SOM E DIE IN THE FALL.P I E R R E BA R O U : FI RST OF A LL. CRANES. DANCES A N T I GO N A L LAST FOR CRANES THEY WHOSE TALK LOV E H O U RS. B. BECA U S E THAT'S W H E N TH E Y ' R E R E A LL Y OUT O F TH E I R S E N SES.T H E W I L D C E L E BRATION J EA N . THAT T H E Y LEAP 20 O R 30 M ETERS.: C E RTA I N LY. YOU R E A L LY HAVE TO AGAIN. SC E N E S BETW E E N A N I M A LS. : T H E MOTION L ESS O F M A D N E S S .: SOM ETI M E S . YOU CAN EVEN KILL TH E M . A N D STI LL TODAY. Irs A D I SCONTI N U ITY O F L I F E . YOU FALL. R. THAT M U ST B E M U C H M O R E T H A N J U ST A SPECTAC LE. SO MAGICA L. R .

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IN RETROSPECT. THEI R DOGS WERE L E FT TO FEND FOR NEEDED ATT E N TION. "NOT EVEN TH AT. "NOT ON T H E FARMS-B E E N T DO LONG WITHOUT · E M . THE TIGER B E I NG ABOUT AS EXTI NCT A S THE ABO T H E S E DAYS. AND A N YWAY. A N D I F YOU CAN B E L I E V E WHAT T H E Y S A Y D O W N TH E R E. THAT H E HEARD THE HOWL OF T H E W I LD DOG. THOSE C H A PS ON THE WEST COAST . . NOT K NOWI N G O F D I NGOS I N TA S M A N I A . SOMETI M E S HE SPENT A NIGHT BOOZ I N G WITH THE M I N ERS A MONG T H E D E SOLATE SLAG-H E A P S OF QUE ENS­ TOWN. HE TOLD ME. "WH E N THE LAST OF THE A B OR I G I N E S WERE ROU N D E D U P AND KI LLED. I WAS ON O N E OF THOSE N IGHTS. . C H I C K E N S. "YOU M E A N THEY P R E F E R T H E I R O W N K I NDT' H E SHOOK H I S H EA D. " T H E H U NTER S A I D S LOWLY. A N I M A LS . I DON'T TH I N K TH EY'D TOUCH A WOM A N . S U D D E N LY F I N D I NG H I S P I PE ' T M NOT S U R E I T WAS A D I NGO:' H E S A I D . M ATED WITH A TA S M A N I A N TIGER. B U T TH E R E WAS ONE OLD F E L LOW M U ST HAVE B E E N A LON ER. MY A M BITION TO BE ONE OF THE FI RST TO M A K E THE JOU R N E Y S E E M S P U E R I L E . I DON'T BELIEVE I T MYSELF. A V I D TO E X P LO R E T H E WORLD AND OPEN U P TH E CONTI N E N T OF M Y S E N S E S . BUT I W A S O N L Y S I X T E E N AT THE T I M E. BUT H E P R E F E R R E D C A M P I NG A LO N E I N THE B U S H . I "OH. H E STA Y E D I N TH E BUSH.JOURNEYS OF A GENTLEWOMAN SHOT LATE R W H E N T H E Y C A M E ROU N D T H E F A R M S STEALING IT M U ST HAVE B E E N TOWA R D 1 9 30 THAT THE ROAD WENT THROUGH TO Q U E E N STOWN ON T H E W I LD WEST COAST OF TAS M A N I A . MOST O F T H E M W E R E 93 . A N D AFTER LOOKING S I DEWAYS AT M E ." OF THE MEN? I CAN LOOK A FT E R S E A R C H OF K A NGA ROO AND W A L LA BY. ADDED A B R U PTLY: "YOU SHOU LDN'T D O T H I S T R I P ALONE." TH E LITTLE I N FORM ATION I POSS E S S E D A BOUT T H E W EST COAST H A D B E E N S U P P L I E D BY A H UNTER WHO MADE OCC A S I O N A L EX PEDITIONS THERE IN "BECA U S E MYSELF." HE STOPPED. AND NOT E V E N W I TH T H E M T H E W A Y YOU'D T H I N K . " EXPRESSED S U R P R I SE . I ONCE CA M E O N A C H A P A L L A LO N E I N A PAD DOC K AT SUNSET. S U C K I N G A C A L F'S EA R:' T H E M S E LVES IN TH E B U S H .

THE C A TTLE A LSO STA RTED TO MOVE. E X PO S E D THE K I TC H E N . ALL OF THEM COM M U N I C A T I N G WITH THE K I TC H E N . I F A N YT H I N G THEY VISIT A REGION TO MADE ME M O R E DETE R M I N E D TO NO THE WOMAN LIFE COULD BE WOR D S. ROO M S OCC U P I ED. H E G A V E M E THIS I N FO R M A T I O N IN THE FEWEST PO S S I B L E MOTIO N R I T E S THAT B E LO NG E D TO T H E S E C R E C Y OF MOO N L E S S PA DDOC K S . T H R O U G H O N E OF T H E H A L F-OPEN DOORS I COULD SEE S E V E RA L MEN ON A I RO N B E DSTEAD. IT BACCH A N A L I N P R E PA R ATION BETW E E N THOSE M E N I N T H E H O U S E W A I T I N G F O R DA R K N E SS. A N D I R E A C H E D TH E Y A R D AS THE M EC H A N I C RETU R N E D T O T E L L M E H E COULD M A K E T E M POR­ ARY R E PA I R S THAT S H O U L D G ET ME TO Q U E ENS­ BRAND. S E TT I N G TOWN. A S T H E P R E S E N C E I N S I D E. TH E H O M ESTE A D W A S A TYPI C A L WOODEN STRUC­ TU R E WITH VERANDAH A N D CORRUGATED I RO N W I THOUT HASTE. LOOKED C U R IOUSLY HUMAN. THE SOU N O S SO F L U I D AND U N FO R M E D THEY S E E M E D HA RDLY D I STI N G U I S H A B L E FROM THE STRING OF WHERE SHARE S A L I V A D R I P P I N G F R O M T H E DOG'S JAWS. I N W H I C H THE M E MORY OF FOR M E R MY RITUALS A RRIVAL A HAD BEEN BURNT LIKE A S E E M E D P R E F E R A B L E TO W A I T OUTS I D E W I T H T H E DOG. AT THE A LO N E CAR. I SET OFF. DRAWN. I WOU L D H A V E SA I D I F THE I DEA HAD N OT BEEN SO ABSURD. I N STEA D O F B E I NG D I V I D E D BY A C ENTRAL PASSAGE. PANTING O N T H E END O F ITS C H A I N. A L I TTLE F U RTH E R O N . CATTLE R E P LA C E D T H E GRA�NG S L I P-RA I LS T H E EVERY HEAD STOPP E D AND TURNED IN MY D I R ECTI O N . A S TH E Y A DVA NCED. I G N O R I N G W H A T GESTURES E V E N T U A LLY THE F I RST MAN RETU R N E D W I T H A L U ST TALES READY LITTLE THESE CAME TO OF B E ASTS BACK TEN DE R N ESS A TTE N D E D. OF R E M OT E I H A D N O I NTENTION OF S P E N D I N G AN H O U R IN THE THE NEW ROAD HAD BEEN HACKED L I T E R A LLY V I C I N ITY O F THE H O U S E . TO B E A F R A I D OR EXCITED. THE H E A DS. NOT O N LY FOLLOWI NG. A N D T H E S E B E A STS THE I R PARTNERS. W H I C H COULD BE R E AC H E D AS I BY C ROSSI NG ONE OF T H E THROUGH V I R G I N B U S H . A D I R T TRACK W I T H RUTS M A D E B Y A DRAY PROM I S E D A F A R M A T T H E E N D OF I T . BUT I T MIGHT TAKE A N HOUR. TH E C U R I O SITY O F CATTLE WAS L ESS I NTI M I DATING TH A N TH E MEN WHO IGNORED ME. EACH O F THEM WOU L D K NOW WHAT W A S E X PECTED OF THE OTH E R . A ST E E R WITH A ST R I N G OF SLAVER BACKS A GA I NST T H E GROUP W A L L. B E FO R E TH E HOUR HAD IN RELEASED FOR M I D A B L E R E FL E X . TH E BEST A LTERNA­ TIVE S E E M E D TO B E A WALK IN THE BUSH. TO FOLLOW.. I S U PPOS ED. BUT CLOS I N G IN ROOF SET I N T H E M I DD L E O F PADDOC KS W H E R E A FEW C A TTLE G R A Z E D .KNOWING B U S H M E N A N D T H E I R LOVE OF YARNS. R A I S I N G A GROU N D . THAT H U M A N I M A G E P R I NTED I N S I D E T H E I R S K U LLS. ENG I N E G I V I NG TROU B L E IT LOO K E D A S THOUGH I WOU LD BE S P E N D I NG T H E N IGHT U N D E R THOSE C H I LLY G U M S UNTIL THE MAIL CAR CAME T H RO U G H N E XT P A D DOCKS. M Y S I LHOU ETTE R E FLECTED I N THE GLOBE OF TH E I R E YES. IT R E SE M BLED A RABBIT OF WATER MIGHT BE D ETECTED BY A DROUGHT­ STR I C K E N H E RD. I R E M A I N E D SC E PTI C A L OF T H E H U NTE R'S TALES. A L MOST WITHOUT OPEN I N G H I S MOUTH. FORTU N A T E LY. AND THEY I IF NOW I WERE TOO THE H A N D F U L O F TOOLS. R E LATED BY A K I N D OF M UT U A L Y E A R N I NG. SO THAT WHEN. THE H O U S E WAS S U R P R I S I NGLY U N L I K E ITS COU NTERPA RTS. MY STI LL TWENTY STARTED Q U E E N STOWN. WITH ROO M S G R O U P E D HAPHAZAR DLY ON DI F F E R E N T L E V E LS. WHEREAS I STOOD O U TS I D E OF THE C O M P L I C I TY . I D I DN'T K NOW W H ET H E R T O R U N OR TO S T A Y . BY A WA R R E N . I H A D A S U D D E N V I S I O N O F T H E T W O TOGETH E R . A L I. AND I M ET NO OTH E R CARS A LONG M I LE S THE F ROM WAY.M I ST O F DUST FROM WHICH E M E R G E D THE BUTTRESS OF TH E I R TROUBLE A N D WITHOUT A WORD H E WENT BACK I N TO TH E HOUSE L E A V I N G M E . P E N D A N T FROM I T S J A W R E M I N D I NG M E A G A I N O F T H E M A N'S S P E E C H . PERSUADED HOM EST E A DS. B U T T H E R E WAS N O P A N I C : TH E Y C A M E TOW A R D M E . C H ESTS A N D HORNS. T H E I R IN A SECON D BEEN ROOM COVETOUS E X PECTATIO N . OR A N OTH E R CA RDS MIGHT HAVE THE PLAYING WERE OR D R I N K I N G. T E L L I N G M Y S E L F THAT MOR N I NG. T H E H U N T E R ' S ME. A DOG TIED UP IN THE Y A R D B E G A N TO B A R K . B U T T H E H O U S E W A S S O S I LENT THE F I G U R E S ON THE BED M I G H T H AVE B E E N E F F I G I E S OR STRAW MEN. IN I N D ICATING HE WOULD LOOK AGA I N I FOU N D M YSELF EVEN MORE A LO N E TO A N D ONCE BELIEVE THE THEM. MYSTERY S U S P E CT E D : B E C A U S E O F THOSE H A LF-O P E N DOORS A N D T H E MEN FOR WHOM I MIGHT NOT HAVE E X I STED. I COU L D HAVE NO DOUBT OF TH E I R OBJECTIVE. I TOLD HIM THE FROM A L L S I D E S . TO A S A B BATH OF N A K E D 94 . A N D H A L F-WAY A C ROSS THAT STRETCH O F O P E N L A N D I BECA M E A W A R E THEY W E R E FOLLOW­ ING ME. N O R OF R ET U R N I N G TO THE CAR W H I L E T H E MAN WOR K E D . I S A W NO T R A C E OF A WOMAN'S PRESENCE ANYWHERE. T H E M A N A N D T H E S T E E R . B U T I R E A C H E D THE BACK DOOR BEFORE A MAN A P P E A R E D. H I S I N A RTIC U LATE ATTE M PT A T C OM M U N ICATION. A LONG B R I E F PASSAGEWAYS.

I T TOOK A STEP I N TO THE C LE A R I N G A N D I COULD ALMOST TRIC KLED W H E R E TEETH TO R E THROUGH THE LAST RAGS O F CLOTH I N G . SLOWLY. BUT ONCE UNDER COV E R OF THE T R E E S M Y K N E E S BUCKLED U N D E R M E A N D I SA N K O N A F A L L E N LOG. D I R ECTI NG IT AGAINST M YSELF IN THE ONLY G ESTURE THAT COULD SAVE M E . B U R N I N G WITH THE ME LA ST. WITHOUT R U N N I NG. M Y R E G A R D N E V E R QU I TTING T H O S E Y E L LOW EYES. BUT I T C RACKED OV E R THE BACKS OF BY THE A HERD LIKE S HOT.M E N A N D BEASTS STU M B L I N G TO TH E I R K N E ES. NO DEFENCE E X I STED I N THAT P R I M A L SOLITU DE W H E R E T H E ABO R I G I N ES H A D WA NDERED AT A T I M E W H E N M A N D R E A M E D H I MSELF AS OTH E R THAN A N I M A LI TY. A STOCK THE WHIP. VEER ED. AT A RECO N C I LIATI O N . A PA R I A H TO J U DGE BY ITS WA R I N ESS. THAT S E N T A S H U DD E R A LO N G ITS R I BS LIKE WINO OVER WHEAT. A N D THAT DISTA N T W A R M T H OF H U M A N B O D I E S . SOMEHOW I M A N AGED TO REACH THE FENCE PUTTING O N E FOOT I N FRONT OF T H E OTH ER. R I S I N G R O D OF ITS SEX. BUT MY STRE NGTH W A S NOT EQUAL TO THE DOG·S. DOWN AS P I T I L E S S L Y A S TH E A BO R I G I N E S H A D B E E N H UNTED. AND SAW IN AND MY M I N D' S EYE TH E I R A RC H A I C PLA I NTIVE LOWI NG . A V U L N E R A B L E THING S LO U C H E D ON THE LOG. I B E G A N TO W A L K TOWA R D IT. I T H A D HEARD THE SHOTS NO DOUBT. AS IT RI PPED MY RECOG N IZE. A LMOST TOO BIG FOR A DOG. S E E PED OUT OF EVEN AT THE W I L L TO AS MY R E S I ST BODY HAVE A DM I R E D ITS A R ROGA NCE H A D I NOT F E LT THOSE YELLOW E Y E S O N M E . A LWAYS O N T H E A LERT AGA I N ST A R M E D AND HOSTILE M E N . TH E R E STI LL L I V E D AFTER THE WA R THE LAST S U R V I V I NG M E M B E R O F THE K I SCH FA M I LY. A N D DES PATC H E D W I T H THE S A M E 9 15 . TH E ODOR OF COOK I NG M EAT." III M Y OVERTU R E S W E R E G R EETED BY A LOW SNA RL. THE POINTED M UZZLE L I FTED AND I SAW TH E TEETH. N O W TH E Y WERE A LL DEAD. T H E LONG. KNOC K I N G M E TO TH E GROU N D WITH THE WEIGHT OF ITS BODY. THEN I WAS A F R A I D . AND IN THAT SAVAGE COU PLING WE A R RIVED. A N D I H A L F-EX PECTED I T TO TU R N TA I L A N D SLOPE OFF INTO THE BUSH ES. A N D K N E W WHAT THAT M E A NT. M Y I M AG E DROWN I NG I N TH E I R EYES IN POO L S TA K I N G OF ANGUISH. WHICH I C O U NTED O N BY BRAVING IT AS MY ONLY CHANCE OF ESCAPE. I SEIZED TH E BLACK S E X . A N D AT ONCE THE DOG S HOWED ITSELF A L E RT. HERD AND W ITH S U D D E N LY THEM IN A I STOOD UP. THE DOG C H A N G E D ITS S TA NCE. KASPAR. THE CR EATU R E SEEMED UNCERTA I N OF M Y I NTENTIONS. FOLLOW E D SECON D LEADING CATTLE STO P P E D. ITS FLANKS M A R K E D BY STRI PES OF A D A R K E R G R E Y. THE STA M PEDE TO THE F A R COR N E R OF T H E PADDOCK. OF VOICES. TH E I N V E N TOR O F " R E PORTAGE" H A V I NG D I E D A WEEK BEFORE M Y A R R I VAL. T H E COC K OF ITS EARS IN THE D I R ECTION OF T H E FARM. IT WORKED WITH THE F R E NZY OF THE KI LL. E V E R Y M U SCLE TAUT. EGON . A T E R ROR THAT STA RTED FROM MY A R M-PITS A N D STA N K THE C L E A R I NG. PERHA PS. W H E R E I H A D BECOME TH E PREY. I WAS COV E R E D IN SLOB B E R . OF CRIES THAT RESEMBLED AN I N H U MA N AND CR UELTY. I THOUGHT OF T A K I N G R E F UGE I N A TREE. I F I C R I E D O U T M Y VOI C E WOU LD S K I M ACROSS TH E S I L E N C E OF THE B U S H A N D S I N K LIKE A PEBBLE. A N D I N VOLUNTA R I LY I STRETC H E D OUT A H A N D A N D S A I D : "HERE -CO M E H E RE. B R EADTH H E I GHT. N O R D I D I LOOK BACK T O SEE WHO HAD FIRED THE S HOTS. I STILL EXPERIENCED THE S A M E F U RIOUS JOY AS W H E N I HAD WRESTLED WITH BOYS A N D P I N N E D THEM DOWN BY MY FORCE. II I MUST HAVE STOPPED. BUT I T W A S NOT A F R A I D OF M E . A N D I S A W . AND BLOOD REDOLENT O F SOME OBSC U R E M E MORY. A N D O N L Y T H I S W I LD DOG A N D I R E M A I N E D I N TH E I R H U NTING GRO U N DS. ROLLING AND STRUGGLI N G AGA I NST THE CON TACT OF SEX A G A I N ST MY M O UTH. A FEMALE TEETH CLOTHES. AND AT THAT I N STA N T THE WAS IT A DOG? C E R TA I N LY A BREED I D I D NOT DOG SPRANG. T H E C R E A T U R E'S SOLITUDE A S S A I LE D M E . E XTE N D I N G U N D E R T H E B E LLY. SET HIGH ON T H I N . I N THE BLI N D N ESS OF OU R BATTLE. I N STEAD. I F THE SHOT H A D B E E N F I R E D AT M E I W O U L D H A VE ACCE PTED THE J U STICE OF ITS P U N I S H M E N T FOR M Y I NTRUSION . A N ECESSARY ACT S I N C E N O WOMAN SHOULD H A V E BEEN W I T N E S S TO THAT CONCEALED AND POI G N A N T I NT I M ACY. H U NG E R OF HOW MANY CAMP FIRES WATC H E D FROM TH E RIM OF D A R K N ESS. S I N E W Y LEGS. I K N EW IF I TR I E D TO ESCAPE THE DOG WOULD HUNT ME I N T H E OLD TOWN O F PRAG U E W H E R E A RC H I M BOLDO ONCE VISITED THE A LCH E M I STS A N D COLLECTED OBJECTS FOR THE E M P E RO R R U DOLP H'S CABI N ET OF CURIOSITI ES. NOSTRILS TWITCHI N G TO CAPITULATED. FEELING STIFLED BY THE THE DOG ' S R A N K STENCH OF FUR.

BUT WITH KASPAR I H A D BEC O M E H A B I T U A T E D TO M A C A B R E CON­ TRASTS. T H E GOOSE B E I NG A R A R E B I R D I N POST·W A R P R A G U E . KASPAR FOU N D H I MSELF ON ONE OCCASION I N A TOWN HELD BY THE G E N E R A L'S TROOPS. TH E S PACE IS SO L I M I T E D THE DEAD ARE B U R I E D ONE ON TOP OF ANOTH ER. HE TOR E UPON THE WRETC H E D SCR EEN AND ON ALL THAT EN DLESS PLAIN THERE WAS NOTH ING BUT A WOM A N LYING S P R E A D·EAGLED ON A MAT. SHE WAS A TACITURN WOMAN WHO K E PT A GOOSE ON T H E LAN DING. WE VISITED TH E OLD JEWISH CEMETERY WHERE JOSTLING CENTU R I E S OF BAWDY B R U TA L I TY. A TEST OF HOW M UC H HE COULD ENDURE. I F. BEEN D E A D FOR A LONG TIME. P E R H A PS FOR THE SAME REASON." WHEN THE E LDER BROTH ERS DONGED H I M ON THE H E A D TILL H E WAS D IZZY. RE-ADJUSTING HIS U N I FO R M . KASPAR TOOK H I S DOCTOR'S BAG A N D A PPROAC H E D THE TENT. D U R I N G THE E A R LY PERIOD OF THE WAR IN C H I NA W H E N C H A N G K A I S H E K STI LL. I W I L L I NG L Y ACC E PT E D K A S PA R'S I N V I TATION TO SHARE I T WITH H I M ON C H R I STMAS EVE. PROF E S S E D H I S A L L I A NC E WITH T H E 8TH ROUTE A R M Y I N FIGHTING THE JAPANESE. KASPAR S A I D."TH E CLOWN. W E SAT OPPOSITE AT THE LONG TA BLE. A FORM OF PHYSICAL PA I N TO MASK THE I N TOLER· KASPA R'S S A R DO N I C DESC R I PTION OF THE SCENE. HE CHOSE THAT CH RISTMAS EVE TO TELL M E THE STORY OF THE C H I N ESE P ROSTITUTE. FATTEN I NG I T FOR C H R I STMAS. I SOM ETI M ES S U S P ECTED T H A T KASPAR'S BLACK H U MOUR SU BSTITUTED FOR H I S CHI LDHOOD ROLE OF "HE WHO GETS S LA P P E D. FOR HOURS THE Q U E U E K E PT M O V I N G . HE FOLLOWED THIS BY SHOWING ME. OF THE Q U E U E OF SOL D I E R S ABSORBED BY TH E I R OWN N E ED. WITH A HOUSEKEEPER TO LOOK AFTER HIM. WHEN EVER YON E H A D GONE. ADDED TO ITS D ESOLATION. VIOLENTLY. S H E HAD. NOT A LTO­ G E TH E R A FESTIVE OCCASION. AS A PALLIATIVE TO T H I S PRI VATION ONE OF THE MORE ENTE R P R I S I NG PROSTITUTES H A D SET U P A LITTLE TENT NOT FAR FROM T H E CAMP. ABLE. CA RVING OF A N U N ON THE CHARLES BRI DGE. I THE ONLY GUEST TO OCC Upy ONE OF THOSE E M PTY CHAIRS. AND IT HARDLY LIGHTE N E D T H E GHOSTLY ATMOS­ P H E R E WHEN THE HOU S E K E E P E R S E R V E D TH E GOOSE IN A FLOOD OF TEARS. SOBBI N G A U D I BLY AT EACH MOUTHFUL OF HER DEAR D E PARTED. CATH E R I N E DUNCAN 96 . AND NOW KASPAR LIVED ALONE I N THE ECHOING APA RTM E NT." WAS THE YOUNGEST OF THE K I SCH BROTH ERS AND HAD ESCA PED TH E DESTI NY OF E U ROPEA N JEWS BY SERVING AS A S U RGEON WITH THE 8TH ROUTE ARMY I N C H I N A . NOW A VAGUE H U M MOCK ON THE GROU N D . A P E A S A N T STIC K I NG H I S H A N D UP H E R H A BIT. STANDING B E H I N D MY C H A I R W H I L E WE ATE. IN FRONT OF W H I C H A LONG L I N E O F S O L D I E R S AWAITED T H E I R TURN. OF ITS FLIMSY TENT J U ST LA RGE ENOUGH FOR TWO R EC U MBENT BODI E S O N E ON TOP OF THE OTH E R. D U R I NG OUR WALKS THROUGH PRAGUE. A N D T OO S M A L L F O R KASPAR'S BULK T O PENE­ TRATE EVEN ON H A N DS AND K N E E S. WHERE THE QUA RTER OF A THOUSA N D FLOW E R S H A D BEEN DECLARED OUT OF BOU NDS. A N D D A R K N E S S C A M E BEFORE THE LAST M A N E M E RGED. AND D E SC R I B I NG WITH TOM B-STON ES. THE R EST OF THE FA M I LY P E R I S H E D. THE SOLD I E R S B I VOUAC K E D ON THE EDGE OF T H E BOMB E D C I TY.

MOLECULAR WITH DANCE. BEHIND THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE A D M I TS T H A T HE DI SSATIS FACTION. U N H A PP I N ESS W E R E TH E Y M A Y H A V E H A D A C E R T A I N N E C E SSITY. ANY COM E D Y CAN BECOM E A R E A LITY. SOMETI MES O N E O F T H E T E R M S OF THE F A M I LY T R I A NG L E IS R E PLAC E D BY DI SSATISFACTION I N A S U F F I C I ENTLY SYSTEMATIC M A N N E R . THEY C A M E UPON ME F L UTT E R I NG L I K E FLIES AND COULD HAVE BEEN C H A S E D AWAY A S E A S I LY. I N F I N ITELY M O R E ACTIVE T R I A NGLES. A M A P O F TH E W H O L E WORLD. J U DGE­ IN THE TRIAL. O R I S T H E T R I ANGLE.E M PLOYEE­ C H I LD. O R ECONOMIC. W H I C H . I T S U F F I C E S TO ENLARGE U PO N IT: "IT IS STRA NGE T H A T. O R B U R E A UCRATIC. BECA U S E THAT I S WHAT TH E INFANTILE L I B I DO I NVESTS FROM THE ERA AND TRADITION. FATH E R . TO BOW A N D TO M A K E OTH ERS B O W TH E I R H E A DS. P R ACTI CING B E G I N N I N G : THROUGH THE F A M I LY P HOTO. BUT NOT A N I NTE R N A L N E C E S S I TY. AN AGITATION. P E R M ITTING MANY COMIC E F F ECTS.A B LOATED O E D I P U S TWO YEARS KAFKA AFTER T H E L E TT E R T O H I S FATH ER." BUT KA FKA DOES NOT C H A LLENGE TH E EXTE RIOR I N F L U E NC E O F T H E FATH E R I N ORDER TO I N VOKE A N I NTERIOR G E N E S I S O R A N I N T E R N A L STRUCTU R E WHICH WOULD STI LL B E O E D I P A L "IT I S I M POSS I BLE FOR M E TO ADMIT THAT THE B EG I N N I NGS OF M Y I N T E R N A LL Y N E C E S S A R Y . AT OTH E R T I M E S THE WHOLE T R I A N G L E C H A NGES ITS FORM A N D C H A R ACTERS. AND I S SHOWN TO B E J U D I C IA L. OR ELSE I N "TH E J U DG M E NT' THE RUSS I A N F R I E N D TAKES THE PLACE OF O N E O F TH E T E R M S O F T H E TRIANGLE A N D TRANSFORMS I T INTO A J U D I C I A L OR CON D E M NATORY A P P A R ATUS. ON ONE H A N D. ANOTH E R T E R M W H I C H S U F FICES T O DE-FA M I L I A L­ IZE THE WHOLE PICTU R E ( I N THIS W A Y THE F A M I LY STORE E NACTS THE TRIANGLE. WH E R E TH E FATH ER N O LONGE R EXI STS AS SUCH (OR E L S E T H E 97 .M OTH E R-CHI LD) A R E DISCO V E R E D OTH E R ." A N D THAT HE D I D SO "WITH ALL TH E M EA N S M A D E ACCESS I B L E TO ( H I M ) BY (HIS) (FATHE R ." I T T U R N S OUT THAT OEDIPUS I S O N E O F T H E S E M EA NS. T H E C H I LD BEING PLACED O N THE S I D E OF THE LOW LI EST E M PLOYE E S WHOSE F E ET H E WOULD B E HAPPY TO LICK)." T H A T I S THE ESSENTIAL THING: BEYOND A EXTERIOR AND I NT E R I O R .A WHOLE WILL R E LATION-LI M I T T H E OUTSIDE WHICH POLITICAL E T C . F R O M W H I C H T H E FA M I LY BORROWS I T S O W N POW E R . I T S M I SSION TO PROPOGATE S U B M I SSION. QUITE MODERN. "TH R E W H I M S E L F I NTO FOR TH E E F F E CT OF COMIC DISTE N S I ON I S DOUBLE. SUCH ATTO R N E Y.A C C U S E D A S S U M E O E D I P U S ' I N O R D I N A T E L Y D I ST E N D E D (GROSSI ) MASK. BECA M E COMMON IN F R U E D'S TIME.

B U R E A UC R ATS. IT COULD BE SAID THAT TO THE EXTENT iHAT THE FA M i L Y TRIANGLE I S UNDONE. A S FOR A RC H ETYPES. H A V I NG L E FT THE RURAL CZECH M I L I E U B E H I N D F O R A N U R B A N . J U DGE A N D J U DG E D . BEH I N D T H E FATH E R I S TH E WHOLE N E B U LOUS GROUP O F J E W S WHO. TOO WELL FO R M E D . T O PROLIFERATING. TH E I R FATHE R'S E M PLOYEES. PROLIFE RATION OF ONE OF THE T E R M S OR V ERTICES. A R E L I A B L E TO BE ATTA C K E D FROM BOTH SI DES-A TRANSFORMA­ TIONAL TRIANGLE. F O R M S OF B E C O M I N G . M A I DS. I N H I S B U S I NESS. SUBMIT TO A POWER WHICH WAS NOT H I S OWN . COM M I SS I O N E R S . T O T H E E X T E N T T H A T O E D I PUS' C O M I C E N LA RG E M E N T A L LOWS TH E S E OTH E R OPPR ESSIVE T R I A NGLES TO B E SEEN U N D E R THE M I C ROSC O P E . . B E C O M I NG. TOPPLING H E A D OVE R H E ELS.J E W S .A N I M A L A R E J U S T T H E OPPOS I T E : A T L E A S T I N P R I N C I PA L." RATH E R THAN TO BOW THE HEAD A N D R E M A I N A B U R E A UC RAT. THREE UNIDENTIFIED C H A R A C T E R S A R E T R A N S FO R M E D I N TO T H R E E B A N K WORK E RS. I N T H E S A M E W A Y . TO TA K E H I S T R I A L SERIOUSLY AT ALL COSTS) . TO T H E CONDENSED FROM ALL T H E S E FORCES TO WHICH H E SUBM ITS AND I NCITES HIS SON TO SUBM IT. E T C. HAS NOTH ING T O DO WITH E I TH E R A FATH E R SUBSTITUTE OR A N A RC H ETYPE.C Z E C H S . ETC. G E R M A N S . W H I C H PARADES B E H I N D KA FKA'S FATHER: " I N PRAGUE.D E F I N E D T R I A N G L E WITH TH E J U DGE A N D TWO SIDES. COU LD BE FOU N D I N PROUST W H E R E THE UN ITY OF C H A RACTE RS A N D THE F I G U R E S THEY CONSTITUTE GIVE WAY TO N E B U LO U S FOR M S . T H U S . "TO R U N OFF. THOUGH IN COMPLETELY D I F F E R E NT TERMS. IN H I M S E L F . AND AT TH E SAME TIME BY GERMANS. H E R E A G A I N . TH E R E A R E N O C H I LDREN W H O DON'T CONSTRUCT OR SENSE THESE ESCAPE ROUTES. NOR ANY SIGN I F I E R WHICH M A N U FAC­ TURES ANXI ETY OR PLE A S U R E . BUT RATH E R THE A M E RICAN TECHNOC RATIC M A C H I N E. I N THE FI RST REPR ESENTATION OF T H E LAW COU RT. A THE POS S I B I LITY OF A N ESCAPE ROUTE OF FLIGHT APPEARS. B L U R R E D GROUPI NGS. OR BECA USE TOGETHER T H E SIDES ARE CONTI N UOUSLY B E I NG DEFORMED. THE FAM I LY T R I A NGLE WAS O N L Y A CATA LYST FOR I NVESTMENTS OF A COM PLETELY D I F F E RENT NATURE W H I C H THE C H I LD N EVE R CEASES TO D I SCOV E R B E N EATH H I S FATH ER. "MY WORLD'S POWE R OF ATTRACTION I S GREAT TOO. F U RTH E R MO R E . K NOCK "DIABOLICAL POWERS" THAT REJOICE EXCESSIVELY AT THE PROSPECT O F ENTERING ONE DAY.DOG. BUT BECAUSE THEY F E E L THAT I N M Y GOOD M O M ENTS AND I N 98 . THEY LOV E ME A S W E I SS'S VAC U U M . OR T H E F A S C I ST M A C H I N E . SINCE THE FATH ER HAD DONE NOTHING BUT BOW H I S HEAD. P U T H I M S ELF AT A N I M PASS B Y BETRAYING H I S R U R A L JEWISH CZECH ORIGI N. A S A BECOMI NG.UNCLE-LAWYER-BLOC K TRIO_ A N XIOUS FOR K. OR S U D D E N LY AND COMPLETELY IN FAVOR OF T H E POWERS WHICH ACTU ALLY ARE AT WO R K . THUS. THE I N FINITE AND UNGRASPABLE H I E RARCHY. I N A MOBILE RELATION S H I P WITH TH E THREE I N SPECTORS_ AND WITH THE THREE B USY-BODIES GROUPED AT THE W I N DOW. THE FATH ER'S HYPOTH ETI C A L I N NOCENCE A N D DISTRESS FOR M S THE WORST ACCUSATION. J U DG ES . HATC H . BUT HE N EVER CEASES T O RETER RITOR I ALIZE I N H I S FA M I LY. OTH E R T R I A N G L E S P U S H I NG OUT F R O M B E H I N D HAVE A CERTA I N F L U I D ITY. E V E N I F ONLY D U E TO N A N N I E S . I T I S BECAUSE I N H I S YOUTH HE H I M S E L F C O N F R O N T E D C E R TA I N POWERS" AT TH E R I S K OF B E I N G " D I A BO LI C A L OVERCO M E B Y T H E M .H U M A N I T Y OF B ECO M I N G A N I M A L : B E CO M I N G. B ECOM I N G­ A P E. T H E FATH E R I S NO D O U B T CA UGHT I N A MOV E M E N T O F REAL D E T E R R I TO R I A L I ZA T I O N . T H E Y A R E PROCESSES OF S P I R I T U A L RETER R I TO RI A LI ZATION. IN HIS MOT H E R . . . A DIFFUSENESS AND ARE P E R PE T U A L L Y C H A N G I N G I N TO O N E EITHER BY M E A NS OF A SU DDEN A N OTH E R .B E E T L E . ! N ONE OF ITS TERMS. T H E S E I N STANCES OF BECOMI NG-A N I M A L AND T H E A N I M AL. I N H U M A N ITY OF "DIABOLICAL POWERS" A N S W E R S TH E S U B. OR OTH E R PROLI FERATING TRIOS. THE FA M I LY HAS ONLY DOORS AT WH ICH. ) THOSE W H O W A N T E D TO B E GERMANS HAD TH E M S E LVES ATTACKED BY CZECHS. J U DGES. ( . AT THE B EG I N N I N G OF THE TRIAL. THERE I S NO C H I LD I N C A PABLE OF K NOWING TH I S : THEY EACH H A V E A GEOGRAPHI­ C A L A N D POLITICAL M A P WHOSE M A R K I NGS A R E D I FFUSED A N D S H I FTI NG. BANK E M PLOYEES. T H E Y A R E ABSOLUTE D E T E R RITORI A LIZATIONS EMBEDDED I N TH E A R I D WORLD W H I C H KAFKA H A S ACTIVATED. A N EQ U I VALENT OF WHICH . I N T H E SYSTEM O F H I S A UTHORITY A N D S U B M I S S I O N S . T H E CONTA M I N ATION OF SUSPICIOUS SPACES. RIGHT AND LEFT. A N D I F T H E F A T H E R R ET A I N S T H E L O V E A N D ESTI MATION O F H I S SON. NOR THE S U P ER-EGO. THE ENTANGLEMENT OF OFFICES AND I N E XTRICABLE A BA N DO N E D . A R E NOT FATH E R S U B STI­ TUTES. THERE IS STI LL A WELL. G E R M A N ENSEMBLE. OR ELSE THE GEO­ PO L I T I C A L ." FOR THIS REASON. BUT ONE I S U LTI MATELY WITNESS TO A N INTERNAL PROLIFERA­ TION S I M I LAR TO A CANCEROUS I NVASION. I N S PECTOR. POLICE OFFICERS. I N A S M UC H A S H E I S A JEW WHO LEAVES T H E C O U N T R Y TO G E T ESTABLI S H E D I N T H E CITY. FROM THE START. THE RUSSIAN B U R E A UC R ATIC MACHINE. FOR. (TH E J EWS) WERE R E P ROAC H E D FOR NOT BEING CZECHS_ IN SAAZ A N D IN EGER FOR NOT BEING GERMANS. RATHER IT IS THE FATH E R WHO IS B U R E A UC RATS. THOSE WHO BEEN LOVE ME LOVE ME BECAUSE I H A V E A N D P E R H A P S I T I S N O T THAT IN K A FKA_ IT IS N E I T H E R THE FATH ER.

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T O F I N D A WORLD O F P U R E INTENSITIES WHERE A L L FORMS AS W E L L AS ALL U N DO N E . T H I S W A Y O U T I S N O T THE R E S U LT OF F L I G HT. " TO BECOM E A N I M A L I S PREC I S E L Y T O M A K E TH E MOTION. IN THE ( B ECOMI NG-CO N S U M P­ A PAINFUL D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z I N G FLUXES O V E R F LOWS T H E L I M I T S O F STI L L T E R R I TO R I A L I M ITATION. I N THE B ECOM I NG . T O EXACT COM PLIANCE. A S IF "EV E N AT HOME H E E XPECTED TO HEAR TH E VOIC E HAND. T H E DOG S E E K S T O G R A B T H E G R EATEST D I F F E R E N C E . THE N THE R E IS TH E FATH E R WHO H A S RETU R N E D TO WORK AT THE B A N K A N D WHO SLEEPS I N HIS U N I FO R M TH E R E B Y M A K I N G E V I D E N T T H E YET EXTERIOR FORCE TO WHICH H E I S SUBJ ECTED. B U T A BECOM­ ING-H U M A N SENTED AS FROM A APE. A PE S . TIONS. D E T E R R I TOR I A L I Z E S BECO M E S A C OC K R O A C H NOT ONLY I N ORDER TO FLEE FROM H I S FATH E R . AS ON ONE COMES TH E R E C L E R K W H O COMES I N ORDER TO M E N A C E .A N OTH E R S P H E R E . THE O RC H I D S E E M S TO R E P RO D U C E A B E E'S I MAGE. T O T R A C E ROUTE O F FLIGHT I N A LL ITS POS I T I V I TY."). TH E S C H I ZO DIFFERENCE. G R E GO R PROFO U N D L Y BEE. A N SIGNI FICATIONS S I G N I F I EDS.I NSECT. A W H I ST L I N G H A D TO G I V E UP T E A C H I N G TO ENTER A N A S Y L U M . I N " I N V E STIGATIONS OF A DOG. A N D N E V E R A R E PRODUCTION O R I M I TATION. IN TH E B E CO M I N G . IS ONLY ON THE OTH E R SINCE H E R E . I N S U C H A W A Y T H A T A S A R E S U LT M Y F I RST TEAC H E R BECAME A PE-LI K E H I M S E LF . I AM ACCORDED THE F R E E DOM OF MOVEMENT WHICH IS COM PLETELY LAC K I N G OTH E R SOLUTION FOR M E S I N C E W E W A R D E D O F F THE POS S I B I LITY O F THE I M ITATION F R E E DOM." IT IS TRUE THAT K A F K A'S A N I M A L TEXTS ARE FAR MORE COM P L E X FA R THAN WE IN SAY. M I C E .A N I M A L FROM H U M A N . ONLY C O R R E S PO N D TO G R A D I E N TS CROSSED. "MY A P E N A T U R E F L E D OUT O F M E. NOTH I N G IS L E FT BUT MOV E M E NTS. IN THE S A M E M A N N E R. R E PORT TO A C A D E M Y" FO R E X A M P L E .A P E . BUT MORE I M PORTANTLY. I F IT I S A Q U E STION OF F I N D I N G A W A Y OUT (A WAY OUT A N D N O T " F R E E DOM"). IN ORDER TO FLEE WITH TH E ORCH I D : S E I Z U R E OF A B I T O F CODE A N D N O T I M A G E R E PRODUCTION. A N D N O T F O R A N Y OTH E R REASON. IN BUT D E T E R R ITOR I A L I Z E S MORE BECOM I NG . FLIGHT BY I N T E N S ITY ("THAT'S WHAT I'VE DON E . I N OF ARE FAVOR OF A N U N FO R M E D MATTER. I T I S NOT A QU ESTION O F A BECOM I NG .AN I M A L'S ESCAPE ROUTES. " THE B U R E A UC R AT I C TOG E TH E R : TRIANGLE FI RST PROG R ES S I V E L Y IS TH E CHIEF S I M PL E I M I TATION. FLIGHT IS AFFIRMED AS A PLACE. I N O R D E R T O R EA C H THAT R E G I O N W H E R E TH E VOICE N O LON G E R D O E S A N YTH I N G BUT B UZZ­ "'DID YOU HEAR HIM S P E A K I NG? THAT WAS AN A TT A C K S S U S P I C I O U S T E M PTATI O N S O F R E S E M B L A N C E W H I C H I M A G I N ATION M A Y PROPOSE TO H I M : " T H ROUGH H I S SOL I T U D E . "A OR. S I G N I FI ERS AND M ET R I C A L E VO L U T I O N DOES BECOM E L E S S A P E T H A N T H E A P E B E C O M E S M A N . ON THE AN THESE THEN ARE THE TWO E FFECTS OF TH E DEVELOP M E N T O R COMIC BLOATING O F O E D I PUS: TH E D ISCOV E R Y A CONTRARIO OF OTHE R T R I ANGLES. " I W A S N 'T S E D U C E D BY TH E NOTION OF I M ITATION. A POS S E S S I O N . APPARENT W H A T I S A T STA K E I S N O T T H E R E PRODUCTION O F F I G U R ES ." ANY INKLING OF RESEMBLANCE I S E LI M I N ATED: EVEN MORE E N E RG E T I C A L L Y "T H E KAFKA F R O M THE C H I E F C L E R K . SQU E E K W I N S O U T O V E R T H E VOICE A N D SC R A M ­ BLES THE R E SO N A N C E OF WORDS. B U T T H E PRODUCTI ON O F A CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S IN AN APARALLEL WHERE MAN AND ASYM­ NOT A N D O F TH E M S E LV E S . TO REACH A CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S WITH V A L U E ONLY I N H A N D. FLE E I NG IN IN RETURN. FLIGHT USELESS MOTION I N S P A C E . A RC H ET Y P E S M Y T H O L OG Y . W H E R E CONTENTS B R E A K J U ST AS EXPRESSIONS D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D B Y H U M A N FORCE. TO CROSS A T H R E SHOLD. NO TEXT CONTRARY. V I B R A ­ IN A DESERTED M A TT E R : TURN PRECI PITATES I NT E N S I F I E S THE TH R E S H O L D S D E T ER R I TO R I A LI ZATION O F T H E DETE R RITORI A L I Z­ I NG H U M A N FORC E ( I F IT C A N BE SO pun." BUT H A S NO S I G N I F I C A N C E TI VE-A P E ) . THE B E CO M I NG I S A SEIZURE. COCK ROAC H E S C A N O N L Y B E D I ST I N G U I S H E D B Y V A R I O U S T H R ESHOLDS. " THUS IS CONSTITUTED A CONJUNCTION WHICH OF D E P R I V E S WOR D S O F TH E I R M U S I C A N D M E A N I NG. T H E ENTI R E B EG I N N I N G O F "A R E PORT" I NS I STS O N TH I S POINT. Q UITE IS THE ONLY CONTRARY. FOR PASSAGEWAY TUBER TH E S E PASSAGE W A Y S ARE U N DERGRO U N D I NTEN­ SITIES. B U S I N E S S A N D B U R E A U ­ C R ATS. R E J ECTED BUT. TO ZON E S OF FREED INTENSITIES OF TH E I R FOR M S . A C O U G H "SEEMS WORRISOME. A D D ITION A L V A L U E . I'VE S N UC K AWAY. TH E A FORTIORI M A R K I N G OUT OF T H E O R PH A N E D BECOM I NG . IN IT A T T H E S A M E T I M E THAT T H E IN COUPLING TU R N . H E A D O V E R H E ELS A N D A W A Y . I I M ITATED BECA U S E I WAS LOO K I N G F O R A W A Y O U T . S I MPLER. AN ANIMAL C A PT U R E D BY MAN IS DETERR ITOR I A LI Z E D F L U X .M O U S E . OF NON-SIG N I FY I N G KAFKA'S OR A N IMALS A NEVER REFER BUT TO SIGNS. IN THE BY SOME OR U N D E RG R O U N D B U R ROW." IN R E A LI T Y . T H E R E WAS NO 1 00 . AND SOON A N I M A LS . TO F I N D A W A Y OUT AT T H E VERY POI N T W H E R E H I S FAT H E R COU L D FIND NONE. DOGS. O N L Y A S E E M I NGLY LI BERATING MOTION. VARIOUS V I BRATIONS. A N I M AL'S V O I C E : T H E C H I E F C LERK DECLA R E D. BUT THE D E T E R R I TO R I A L I Z E D AND A N I MA L FORC E IN OUT B R E A K O U T O F T H E S I G N I F I E R W H I C H FOR M A L I Z E S TH E M . TH I S BECO M I N G AND IS PRE­ WOULD S E E M T O S H O W THE TI E BETW E E N T H E S E TWO A S P ECTS B E TT E R T H A N "TH E M E T A M O R P H O S I S .

RATHER. I S GREGOR A T F A U LT I N THAT H E DOES NOT DARE TO GO ALL THE WAY? H I S SISTER WANTED TO CLEAR OUT H I S WHOLE ROOM I N ORDER TO PLEASE H I M . COCKROACH. JEALOUS O F T H E POR­ TRAIT. IN REALITY. A DEQUATE T O EXORCIZE A L L RE-CLOSING. BUT G R E GO R R E F U S E S T O ALLOW T H E M T O TAKE AWA Y THE PORTRAIT O F THE LADY M U FFLED I N FURS. A L L RECONSTITUTION OF THE F A M I LY TRIANGLE WHICH ITSELF TAKES C H A RGE OF OTH E R TRIA NGLES AS IT DOES OF THE ANIMAL ROUTES. TOO SIGNI FYING. HIS IS G R EGOR'S W H O L E BECOM I NG­ BECOMI NG-BEETLE. I N FAVOR O F A H I G H E R CONCERN. "THE M ETAMORPHOSIS" IS TH E EXEM PLARY STORY OF A RE-OEDIPALIZATION. SUBSTITUTE I N IT. M A N I FE STS A N ON . M A Y-BUG. TOO TERRI TORIALIZED? DOESN'T T H E BECOMI NG-A N I M A L. SHE ACCE PTED H I M . A N D ESPECIALLY IN R ELATION TO THE BUREAUCRATIC AND COMM E R C I A L TRIANGLE. THE FAM I LY C LOSES H A PPILY IN ON ITSELF. THE THREE BUREAUCRATIC BOARDERS. I N T H I S S E NSE. TH E I N C R EASING P E R V E R S ITY OF THE USAGE HAS N OT BEEN FAI LURE? A REN'T A N I M A LS THE M SELVES STI LL TOO FORMED. THIS IS WHAT HIS SISTER C A N N OT TOLERATE. AT THE V E R Y I N STANT O N E BELIEVES HE HAS CAUGHT HOLD OF THE TIE BETWEEN OEDIPUS' BEYOND AND BEFORE IAU-DELA ET EN· DECAl." A N D. B E ETLE. H E CLINGS TO TH I S PORTRA I T A S T O A LAST TERRITORI ALIZED I MAGE. H I G H VOLTAGE I N C E ST. O R COEXTENSIVE WITH I T A S A COUNTERPART TO THAT NOVEL WHICH IS FREED FROM ANY ANIMAL PROBLEMATIC. LIKE GREGOR S H E WANTED SCHIZO I NC E ST. WHICH TRACE S THE INTENSE E SC A P E ROUTE IN R E LA T I O N TO T H E FA M I LY L I K EWISE. ALL OF A S U DDEN O P POS E D TO O E D I P A L I N C EST. AS A WHOLE. WAS BLOCKED. THE BECOM I NG­ ANIMAL ASPECT OF GREGOR'S DETE R RITORIA LlZA­ TION FA I LS : HE A L LOWS H I M S E L F TO BE RE­ TIVE LY. ISN'T IT TRUE THAT FORMS OF BECOM ING-A N I M A L FAI L TO FULFILL TH E I R OFFICE AND ALWAYS RETAIN A N AMBIGUITY THAT MAKES THEM I N S U F FI C I E NT A N D CO N D E M N S THEM TO BECAUSE THE R E I S STI L L DANGER OF A RESUR­ G E N C E OF O E D I P A L MASTERY. S U C H AS THE MUSICIAN DOGS I N "INVESTIGATIONS" OR THE DIABOLICAL DOG IN "THE TEMPTATION AT THE VI LLAGE. TAK E TH E I R SEATS "IN THE PLACES WHICH THE FATH ER. IS AT THE S A M E TIME A SCHIZO BEAST. BUT.H U M A N I N C E ST W H I C H LIKE TH ERE I S THE I NTRUSION O F THE TH R E E BUREAU­ CRATIC BOAR D E R S WHO NOW PENETRATE THE VERY FAM I LY. FROM THEN ON. SHE BEGINS TO HATE G R EGOR AND CONDEM NS H I M." THE FACT I S THAT K A FKA'S P R I N C I P A L A N I M A LE SQ U E TEXTS WERE W R I TT E N J U ST BEFORE THE TRIAL. HIS BECOMING-AN I M A L. I NC E S T WITH T H E S I STER A S OSCILLATE BETWEEN A SCHIZO ESCA PE A N D AN OEDIPAL I M PASS? OEDIPAL ANIMAL PAR EXCEL­ LENCE. THE DOG. T H E MOT H E R AND G REGOR FOR M E R LY OCCUPI ED. IT COULD BE S A I D THAT AT A CERTA I N MOMENT G REGOR'S DETERRITORIALIZING PROCESS.OF HIS SUPERIOR:" FINALLY. I S O N E FARTHE R A W A Y THAN EVER F R O M A WAY O U T ? W H Y DOES ONE REMAIN STUCK I N A N I M PASS? IT I S THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE'S PATER N A L PRINCI PAL. TH E F A M I LY'S DETE R R I TO R I A L I ZATION INTO MORE COM PLEX A N D DIABOLICAL TRIANGLES HAS NO ROOM TO CARRY ON: THE FATHER KICKS OUT TRIANGLE. O N E CANNOT E V E N B E CERTAIN THAT G REGOR W A S AT FAULT. GI LLES DELEUZE AND FELIZ GUATTA RI EXCERPTED FROM KAFKA TRANSLATED BY RACHEL MCCOMAS 101 . T H E R E A N I M AL. OF WHICH KAFKA FR EQUENTLY SPEAKS I N HIS D I A RY AND LETTERS. APPLE E N C R USTED IN HIS BACK. RETURN TO BUT WHY. DUNG­ OEDIPALIZED B Y THE TOSS OF AN A PPLE A N D C A N ONLY DIE. COR R E LA­ S E X U A L I TY BECOM I NG-AN I M A L.

I WENT T O A RATH ER DISTANT CREEK HAVE WHERE THE BOATS WERE K E PT. A N D I SAW AS ON THE FI RST EVENING THE MOON E M E RG E D FROM THE SEA. THEN CONTI N U E ON FOOT. THE WAVEL. AND. I H A D N EI TH E R M EMORY NOR PRESE NT. BESIDES. I WAS STE E R I NG AROUND THE HORN OF A S M A L.F WITH L.OVED E M MA S O M UC H T H A T I FILLED H E R WITH MYSEL. A N D ON T H E N A R ROW BEACH. M I LKY AND V E I L.ONGED TO T H E COUNTESS.D D I SC E R N NO D I V I SION BETWEEN THEM-TI M E WAS C A R RY I NG M E A S T H E S E A WAS CARRYING M Y BOAT. I DOUBL.ESS OCE A N BARELY RI PPLED B E N EATH THE PROW OF M Y BOAT. AND DO U BTL. IT M UST BEEN TWO IN THE MORNING: I HAD J UST TI M E TO R E A C H T H E I S L.F. IT TRIGG E R E D IN M E A N E W FEAR.Y A NOI S E B E H I N D M E M A D E M E T U R N A RO U N D: A N E NORMOUS N I GG E R ACCOM P A N I E D B Y T W O M A STIFFS WAS WATC H I NG ME. THE MOON WAS IN FRONT OF M E. I SAW THE ISLAND. PERHAPS BECAUSE I T WAS TOO WH ITE. THE L.T H E DOGS THE C E RTAI NTY OF MY COMI N G DEPARTU R E H A D R E STORED MY TASTE F O R E M MA. I WAS CROSSING.A N D I NG M Y BOAT AND F I N DI NG S H E L. S U D D E N L. I SET A BOUT TO F I N D A MORE FAVORABL.ED.A N D B E F O R E S U D D E N L.ESS-FOR A T THAT MOMENT M Y M I N D COUL. W H I L E A P I N K F I NGER ON T H E HORIZON A N NOUNCED T H E ADVENT OF D A Y . ENOUGH DAYBREAK.IFF CONTIN U E D TO PRESENT T H E SA M E RIGHT A NGLE. PROMONTORY WHEN I SAW THE YACHT WHICH H A D B E L.E TO 1 02 . I DECI D E D THE T I M E HAD C O M E .Y AWA R E OF ALL. THERE C A M E A M I LD E R EVENING WITH A LITTLE FOG ON T H E HORIZON. B E C A PTU R E D IN A WORD.E PORT. HAVING TOUCHED SHOR E . BUT T H E CL. FATIG U E R E N D E R E D M E ACUTEL. L. WHEN SHE H A D GON E T O SL. I T H E R EFORE M A NOEUVERED I N THAT D I R ECTION AND. I MYSELF H A D NOT SET T H E DAY.EEP. O W COASTLI N E WAS A M E R E M A R G I N OF S A N D AT T H E B A S E OF A N A B R U PT CLI FF. THAT WAS GOI NG ON BETWEEN THE A I R A N D THE WATER-ACTIVITY TOO I NTA NG IBL. I T WAS F U L L : THE CYC L E WAS COM PLETED. I WAS ON MY WAY. A LTHOUGH I USED THE OARS I N O R D E R TO GO FASTER THAN THE COM ING DAY.ED BACK AND DECIDED TO L. I L. BUSIED MYSEL. W H Y D I DN'T I CON FIDE M Y PLAN TO HER? WHY SHOULD 17 T H E PRESENT IS THE PRESENT A N D TH AT'S ENOUGH. BUT S ETTI NG.Y BEFORE ME. ALTHOUGH M Y DREAMS REMAINED UNDER THE SIGN OF THE H U NTER'S MOON.T E R FOR IT.

IT GRAZED M Y FOR E H E A D SLIGHTLY A T THE B A S E OF MY NOSE. M Y C R OTC H . THE DOGS LET ME GO. B E H I N D ME: ITS R E D N ESS. MY F A C I LI­ THE NOTI NG. M Y P E N I S WAS THE OTHER. HE WITH D R E W H I S FOOT. SO THAT I SHOULD HAVE PLENTY OF T I M E TO C O N T E M P L A T E T H E BECOM E A N ENORMOUS BON E. THE I R TO N G U E S N O W M Y GAZE.I S M I LED AT T H E M A N : HE R E M A I N E D I M PASSIVE. I C H O K E D B A C K THE C R Y WHICH ROSE THE DOGS STRETC H E D TH E I R N EC K S TOWA RDS ME: THE MAN I N M Y TH ROAT. THE LONG HAD PINK AN W H I PS HANGING TH E I R M A WS A M AZING SUPPLEN ESS A N D E N A BLED THE T W O Q U A D R U P E DS TO ENCI RCLE M Y P R I C K A N D PROBE MY A N U S WITH I R R ES I ST I B L E WHICH TATED I WAS VIGOR. I FOLLOWED THE T H R E E B R UTES WITH M Y EYES. TERRIBLE A D V A NTAGE: NO MOUTH H A D E V E R H A D SUCH POW E R O V E R FROM ME. W I TH FLA KES SWIM M Y TH ROAT A N D MY BRAIN WAS BEH I N D THAT S E A R C H I NG SC R E E N AN WOR K I NG. A B U N D A NTLY TASK BY D R E N C H ED. 1 03 . THE NIGGER D REW BACK. THEY TORE OFF MY CLOTH ES. BREATHING R E G U L A R LY. HIS I M M E N S E BODY DOM I NATED ME. T H E S H A DOW C OV E R E D COMPLETELY. I SAW HIM BEND H I S LEGS. TH E FOOT STO P P E D A FEW I NC H ES FROM M Y EYES. E X E RT E D A RO U N D HEAD FROM MY THE M A N MADE A N I M P E R C E PT I B L E SIGN. STA R I NG ME IN THE FACE. H I S EYES A N D THOSE OF T H E A N I M A LS E X A M I N E D M E WITH A N A B S E N C E O F C U R IOSITY A N D COLDN E SS THAT WAS F R I G H T E N I NG. N E I TH E R OF THEM H A R M E D ME. I WAITED FOR THE PA I N . R E P U LSIVE P A L LO R O F THAT GOURD STRI ATE D WITH PINK W R I N K L E S W H I C H WAS GOING TO CRUSH ME. THE M A N M A D E A N OTH E R SIGN. WITHOUT MOVING MY H EAD. SAW FOOT TOWA R D M Y FACE. AND THE TWO MONSTE R S LEA PT ON ME. "SUCK BREATHE DEE PLY. FULLY WITH T H E I R T E ETH A N D CLAWS: THEY D I DN'T HARM M E. I D I D N'T MOVE. A MARK ON MY SKIN. TOO. WAS COLD. H A P PE N S:' STO M A C H . I M E COURAGE. H E POINTED H I S WEAPON AT M Y BELLY. IT F E LL. F I X E D ME FROM A BOVE. WI LLPOWER M IGHTI LY TO K E E P F R O M BECOMING E R ECT. SLOWLY. P R E P A R I NG M Y N E R V E S TO OBEY I N STANT­ LY. I CONTI N U ED: LONGER STRUGG L I NG AGAINST FEA R BUT A G A I NST THE ABOM I NABLE AWOKE A LONG T E M PT A T I O N IN MY I WHICH THOSE MY TO "I HAVE M ET T H E COU NTESS. TH E THICK U N DER­ VEIN I N FLATED MY PENIS IN REG U L A R TH ROBS. ANOTH E R M I NUTE AND I WAS NO 010 NOT C H A NG E HIS STATU E-LI K E POSITION. THEN WAS L I FTED AGA I N . S PA C E I N THAT I N STA NT. GAVE JUST A S I THOUGHT T H E ORDEAL W A S D R A W I N G TO A CLOSE. T H E N I G G E R L E A N E D OVER ME. I COULD NO LONGER ME SEE H I M. IN A M A TT E R OF SECONDS I WAS N A KED. WITH THE FEELING OF PA RTIC I PATING IN SO M E UNCLEAN ITS ACT. A FLASH. HIS EYES. I DI DN'T D A R E LOOK. I W A S T H ROWN ON T H E S A N D: ONE OF T H E BEASTS G R I P P E D M Y THROAT W H I L E T H E OTH E R S A T A S TR I D E M E. THE M A N POI NTED TO MY GROIN AND THE TWO WOLFISH DOGS POU NCED ON MY CROTCH . I WOULD LIKE TO N G U E S SCROTU M . I D I DN'T MOVE. IN FEAR CA USED MY REO EYES. THE NIGGER STRA I G HT­ I R E M E M B E R . THE DOGS SAT ON EITHER S I D E O F M E. FOR E X P L A N AT I O N . E N V E LOPING ME. PHALLUS. WHEN MY PENIS I HAD IT A PPROACH I NG . AND THEN SHE I REMEMBERED: HAD S A I D. SUDDENLY H E DREW A D A G G E R F R O M H I S POCKET A N D A S THE DOG L E A PT A W A Y . B U T T H E LENGTH OF T H E I R TONGUES GAVE THE DOGS A TH I N K OF MOVING. THE TWO WILD A N I M A LS ATTACK E D AGA I N ." FELT A S H I V E R DOWN MY BACK AS T H E I R TON G U E S TOUC H E D M E . TH E SUN WAS R I S I NG M A N CONTI N U E D TO STA N O O V E R ME." A S H A DOW PASSED OVER ME: T H E N I GGE R WAS I N EXORA B LY: I WATC H E D TH I S PROCESS WITH A K I N D OF HORROR. I STEPPED FORWA R D AND SAID: "I WOU LD LIKE TO S E E T H E COU NTESS. S O T O SPEAK. BEFORE I COULD H E E LS I R E S I STED. STI L L COLO. BUT THE HIS AIR H A N G I NG OUT: T H E Y WATC H E D M E C LOSELY. W H I C H T H E S H E E R U RGE T O F U C K COM M A N D E D T O S T A N O U PRIGHT I N S P I T E OF MYSE LF. BUT T H E DOGS WORKED S K I LL­ ENED U P . I N T H E MOUTH OF THE DOG WHO WAS PULLING AT IT. WITH TH E K N I FE STILL EXTE N D I NG FROM H I S R IGHT H A N D. THEN MOVE HIS ENORMOUS ATTA I N E D LARGEST DI M E N S I O N S . TH E I R L I PS C U R LE D BACK IN A S N A R L. BUT I COULD F E E L THEY W E R E R E A DY T O TEAR ME APART TO ON C O M M A N D. THEY WERE NOT GOI NG TO DEVOUR ME-NOT YET. AND T H E I R SLAVER. TH E R E WAS A SECOND O F I N FI N ITE ANGUISH IN WHICH I 010 MY UTMOST TO CONTROL M Y B R EATH I NG A N D NOT TO B U DGE. FURIOUSLY. WATC H I N G . I KNEW I MUST NOT MOVE. A VAGU E S M I LE S H O W E D H I S TEETH. THE BLADE WAS A BOVE MY EYES. "WHATE V E R IN YOUR YOUR TH E I R GIVI NG MEMBER I LLUSION O F ENTE R I N G A HOSPITA BLE PORT.

B U T I N T H E M I DST OF M Y PLEAS U R E I D I D NOT R E A LIZE THAT THE I M POSSIBLE GIVES R I S E TO T H E I M POSSI B LE. EXCEPT PLEASURE. STR ETC H E D OUT H I S C H E ST. WHO HAD DRAWN BACK. ROOTED AT IT WHAT I WAS G O I N G T H R O U G H EXC E E D E D E V E R Y ­ WITH HIS M UZZLE AND THEN BEGAN U S I NG HIS T H I N G I COULD H A V E I M AGI N E D." S H E S A I D T U R N I NG H E R H E A D AWAY. TH E DOGS. I R E A L I Z E D HE W A N T E D TO F I N D A HOLE. A N D TH E N I HAD IN MY MOUTH THAT STR ANGE TH I NG . MY THE OTH E R ONE WAS IT. ONE O F THE TATED A S T H O U G H I N THOUGHT. M ENT T H E A N I M A L BEGAN TO KICK U P T H E SAND SO VIOLE NTLY THAT I WA S SOON COV E R E D WITH IT. HIS P E N I S NOW D R I P P E D O N M Y N EC K A N D C H E ST A S I T J E R K E D A BOUT I N A N ACC E L E RATED R H YTH M . T H E NIGGER G A V E ME A KICK TO S H U T M E U P AND T H E OTH E R DOG I N C R E A SE D H I S A R D E N T ATTEN­ TIONS: HIS DAMP NOSE SLIPPED B E TW E E N MY BUTTOC KS. E N T E R E D NATU RALLY I NTO THE HORROR OF IT-FOR AFTER A L L. AN A N C I ENT VOI CE W I T H I N M E C R I ED. THERE WAS D I STANC E WITH I N M E W H I C H CONTA I N E D T H E H A L L OF M I RRORS WHERE MY S ELF-IMAGE D W E LT-A SHATTERED I M AG E I NTO W H I C H M Y FUTU R E B L E D I NTO THE PRESE NT. U N DE R THE MONSTERS' B E LLIES I COULD SEE TH E I R J UT T I N G DEGREE LONG P E N I S E S WHOSE L E FT NO REDNESS A N D AS TO THE A N I M AL. 0 1 0 WON D E R S . DROPPI N G GOBS OF S A L I V A SPHINCTER. Y E T I FOU N D N E I TH E R S H A M E NOR HORROR WITH I N M E . A N D IT S E E M E D T O M E THEN. A N D I LET MYSELF GO. ALL OF A S U D D E N I ACCEPTED THE FACT. FOR THE BON E HAD LOST M U C H O F THE ITS S I Z E D U R I NG THE REKINDLED MY I BEGA N TO GUESS THIS WAS THE C A S E WHEN ONE OF T H E MONSTERS-THE ONE WHO H A D PERFOR M E D M I RACLES WITH H I S TONG U E I N T H E S E R V I C E OF M Y ORGAN-SUDDENLY C HANGED HIS POSITION K N I FE-T H R OW I N G . T H E N IG G E R GAVE A SHORT CRY. A GENTLE IN A N D 1 04 . A N D STOOD D I R ECTLY O V E R ME: H I S R E A R LEGS PLANTED ON EITH E R S I D E O F MY H E A D . F O R T H E T I M E B E I N G TH EY W E R E I N I NC E S S A N T TH E I R MOV E M E N T. IN HIS I N C R E A S I N G EXC I TE­ WATC H E D M Y B E LLY HOISTING ITS WATC H I N G AND I WAS A WATC H I N G STRANGE MYSELF W A TC H I N G . THAT AND WOR K A N D M U C H T I M E A R E R E QU I R E D BEFORE TH E Y C A N W I T H D RAW. IN AN ATTE M PT TO FORCE OPEN T H E F LAI LED VIOLENTLY BACK MY COCK ME. TH I S WAS N A TU R E TDO. THE NIGGER W A S STA N D I NG AT MY FEET. S N I F F E D AT MY ASSHOLE. MY I STA RTED TO BECOME AWA R E OF TH I S AS D ROPS O F A MUSKY I ESSENCE SPURTED O N M E . RIGHT BETW E E N M Y COULD HARDLY DECEIVE MYSELF ABOUT THE I NTENTION T H E DOGS H A D I N TERMS OF M E : BUT W H A T I D I D N 'T K N OW W A S T H A T A B E I N G A L I E N TO TH E I R R A C E H A D E N L A R G E D T H E F I E LD OF TH E I R I N STI NCT BY T E M P E R I NG I T WITH H I S O W N I M AG I N A ­ TION. H E WHI STLED.E N V E LO P E D SQUEEZED IT. H I S BALLS J U ST ABOVE M Y EYES. STOPI" WRAPPED AROU N D P E N I S . AND FORTH. AND THE BEA STS R E S U M E D THEIR TASKS.W H I STLED. THAT S H A M E F U L M E M B E R . R E T U R N E D . I SAW T H E H I LT O F T H E DAGG E R SAND. I AND I WAS TON G U ES WITHOUT L E TT I N G G O O F H I S OBJ ECT. FOR RIDER BENT HIS LEGS. AGA I N HIS HAND POI NTED TO M Y BELLY. I R A I S E D MY H I PS TOWA R D S TH E I R M O U T H S . THE ANIMAL HESI­ I WAS E RECT. T H E N FORC E D THEM OPEN. R U B B E D H I S H A I RY M UZZL E I N M Y F A C E A N D B E G A N U S I NG H I S TON G U E W H I L E H I S T H I G H S A N D HAUNCHES BEGAN TO QUIVER ST R A N G E LY : HIS TON G U E S WAS R E LENTLESSLY FLIC K I NG M E FROM MY BALLS TO MY ANUS. MOREOVER. M A K I NG M E WAS N O T THE ONLY O N E ER ECT. T H E MONSTE R'S L A N C E W A S ON M Y L I PS: IT K N OC K E D A G A I N ST TH E M CONTI N U A LLY A N D COV E R E D T H E M WITH A BITTE R-TA STING L U BRICA NT. THE D E S I R E TO FUCK DEAD E N E D ALL R E ST R A I NT. ST I C K I N G OUT OF THE L E G S . T H A T I WAS PAST THE H IG H EST PITCH. W H Y D I D I H A V E T O L E A R N S O C R U D E LY THAT A M E M BERS T O STICK O U T O F TH E I R F U R R Y P L U N G E BACK I NTO T H E M . I S HOUTED: "NO. A LT E R N A T E L Y C A U S I N G H O R R I B L E TH I NG. T H E R E WAS A NOTH E R FLASH. M A ST. SHAME. TH E N CROUCH E D DOWN . H E BEGAN PANTING. T H O S E R E PU L ­ S I V ELY T H I N M E M B E R S C A N S W E LL CON S I D E RABLY IN T H E H EAT OF ACTION O N C E T H EY HAVE ENTERED TH E I R R E C E PT A C L E . T H I S REASSU R E D TON G U E . NOW. . CARESSED GUMS PLEA­ S U R A B L Y THAT I O P E N E D MY MOUTH. . AS TH E T W O DOGS PLAYED WITH M E . THE FIRE HAD TO B U R N ITSELF OUT. I S H EATHS A N D T H E N DOG IS WORTH A P RI EST . SO M UC H SO. AND WEDGING B E TWE E N THE MY JAW SO AND MEATUS O F TH E I R DOUBT E XC I T E M E NT. "IT I REMEMBERED LIKE A MY R E A LIZE MOTH E R ' S REMA RK: S M E L LS WILD I N D E ED.THAT HEAVY CHEEK. NO P A I N . NO L I M IT. DA RTI N G IT I N A N D OUT. L I FT E D H I S H A U N C H E S SLIGHTLY A N D A I M E D HIS COCK AT MY MOUTH. NO L I M IT. H I S S M I LE D I S P L A Y I N G MORE T E E T H . I LOW E R E D M Y C H I N A L I TTLE. BALLS S L A P P E D AG A I N ST ME. H I S K N I F E F L E W TOWARD M Y G ROI N.

T H E N M I N E BEGAN M O V I N G AGA I N : I T A L L A LONG IT. L I FTED M Y LEGS. "I WANT TO S E E TH E COUNTESS. I WASH E D AND SHOOK MYSELF OFF. T H E DOG WHO H A D LATELY LICKED T H E HOLE I N M Y ASS S E E M E D M U C H M O R E EXCITED T H A N H I S COMPANION. HE CA M E U P TO ME. THE N I GG E R M U ST H A V E B E E N WAITING FOR THAT M O M E N T : I H E A R D H I M C R U N C H I N G THE S A N D AROU N D M E A N D T H E N C H A S I N G AWAY T H E DOG WHO WAS BADG E R I N G T H E HOLE IN M Y ASS-AND WHO WAS LOATH TO LET GO. I D E C I D E D TO L E T M Y S E L F GO A N D T O ACCEPT T H E RITUAL. A N D T H E LAST ONE WOULD· S U R E LY D ROWN ME. H E STARTED T O MOVE H I S DAGGER I N A N D O U T OF ITS SHEATH. TWI NED THEM AROUND THE N EC K OF THE A N I M A L THAT I WAS SUCKING. THE TWO DOGS W E R E STA RING A T M E : O N E WAS QUI ETLY SITTI NG T H E R E . A N D EVEN THOUGH I WAS S UFFOCATI NG. BEC A U S E I T C A STRATES THE I MAGINATION AND T H E R EFORE IS A N OBSTACLE TO EXPERI ENCE. D R U GG E D BY MY OWN DESI RE. BEATING T H E COUNTRY S I D E WITH H E R MONSTERS: THE CRESC E N T WAS BLACK ON HER B ROW. WHEN O U R GLANCES M ET. BEGA N T O MOVE: I T E XPLOR E D T H E GLANS. DRAGGED M E BEHIND H I M. M Y MAST UPRIGHT A N D SHINY W I T H S LI M E I N T H E SUN LIGHT. AND IT WAS H E THIS TIM E WHO TRIED TO GET MY COCK H A R D. A N D THEN C A M E OVE R TO T H E MAN A N D H I S A N I M A LS. E A G E R L Y A TT E N T I V E . B EC A U S E HIS TONGUE H A D M A D E SOM E PROGRESS. AND THREW ME VIOLENTLY I NTO THE SEA. B U T S E E I NG T H A T I STI LL D I D NOT I M M EDI ATELY STA RTED OFF AT F U L L SPEED. T H E N IGGER WAS WATC H I NG ME. PICKED M E U P. HUGE WAVES WITH T H E I R BLACK WALLS W E R E H U RT L I N G T O W A R D ME A N D W E R E C R E A T I NG H I D EOUS HOLLOWS I NTO W H I C H W E W E R E GOING TO FALL. AND MY BODY. THE AIR IS ROAR I NG : I HAD NEVER REALIZED HOW L I K E A N O C E A N TH E A I R C A N B E WITH W A V E S CRASHING A N D ROLLING. A MERE C R E SCENT STRETC H E D BETW E E N TWO ORA L CAVITI ES. A CARESS I H A D D R E A M E D ABOUT WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT TH E D R E A M M E ANT. RESIGNED TO A REPLAY O F THE PREVIOUS SOON A S I PERFORMANCE. STA N D I NG VERY STRAIGHT WITH H I S LEGS A P A RT. THE OTH ER O N E W A S TRYING TO NIP AT W H ITISH FI LAM E NTS DROOLING FROM HIS C H I N . DOES NOTHI N G BUT E N S U R E H I S PERDITION. WAS HE COM I N G CLOSE R T H E BETTER TO WATCH US. OR WAS H E GOI NG TO TEAR ME AWAY FROM MY LOVER7 I WAS A L R E A D Y EXPRESSING MY RAGE I N G R U NTS BECA U S E I COULD NOT PRONOUNCE A N Y WORD.OUT MOVEMENT WAS WR ITING ON MY TONGUE THAT ALL DOGMA I S H ATEFUL. LODGE D AGAI N ST M Y PALATE WAS A CARESS. T H E DRI PPI NG M EATUS. FLA M E S E N V E LOPED M E : T H E 1 05 . BUT A S H A D REACHED T H E DESI R E D STATE. I N M Y MOUTH H I S T H I NG GREW ROU N D A N D SWELLED U P: IT W A S AS THOUGH M Y TONGUE W E R E FLAT ON THE G R O U N D AND MY JAWS WERE D I ST E N D E D TO F O R M T H E MOST STU PEFI E D 0 M Y LIPS H A D E V E R M A D E . WHEN I REGA I N E D M Y S E N S ES. A I R WAS ROA R I NG I N MY EARS. I DID NOT MOVE FROM THE GROUN D. FROM T H E VERY H EA­ VENS. AND M Y TONGU E T H E B I TT E R . A LONG S H U DD E R WENT THROUGH THE A N I M A L AS I T T U R N E D BACK TOWA R D M Y M O U T H . I NS T E A D OF H EL P I N G H I M . T H E A N I M A L'S HUGE KNOT THAT I HAD IN MY MOUTH H E LD M E FAST. SO BUSY WAS I I N S U C K I N G H I S T H I N G THAT SLID BETWEEN M Y LIPS AGA I N AND AGAIN. EVEN MORE F I R M LY T H A N MY K NOTTE D LIMBS DID. TH E D OG T E N S E D H I S M U SCLES. LEANED OVER A N D GRABBED M E BY T H E NAPE. W R A P P E D ITSELF A RO U N D T H E G L A N S . T H E N T H E N IGGE R GRABBED M Y F E ET. BUT AS W E W E R E A B O U T TO PITCH INTO THE FRAY. THE DOG SU DDENLY T U R N E D HIS BACK THERE WAS A G U T T U R A L C R Y A N D THE DOG ON ME. ALL I COU LD FEEL WAS THE I NSANE T H ROB B I N G OF THE DOG ' S COCK IN IN MY MOUTH AND MY O W N SWO L L E N C O C K H I S M O U T H . BEHIND T H E M ." I SAI D. I N STEA D O F STR I K I NG M Y MOUTH WITH THE TIP OF HIS BLADE. TH E N H E SEIZED MY H A N DS TWI N I NG THEM AROUND THE C RO U P O F M Y R I D E R SO THAT I FOU N D M Y S E L F H A N G I N G U N D E R I T S B ELLY. A FLASH OF HATE GLI M M ERED IN THE N I GG E R'S EY ES: T H E DOGS TH R EW THEMSELVES ON ME AGA I N A N D KNOC K E D M E T O T H E GROUND. THE N IGGE R'S S H A DOW FELL UPON US. M Y B A C K SCRA P E D AGA I N ST T H E S A N D A N D W A S TOR N O P E N BY T H E STON ES. THAT S H A DOW S U D D E N LY ACROSS THE T H RESHOLD! THE CAGE I S SO N A R ROW! M Y H EART I S GOING TO STOP. HE STOPP E D M O V I N G H I S TON G U E . THE N I GG E R SCREA M E D . THE SHOCK OF THE WAT E R BROUGHT M E BACK TO MYSELF AND TO THE PRESENT. I W A S THI RSTY A S THOUGH I HAD EATEN VERY SPICY FOOD. H I S TONGU E LOLLI NG. WAS BLACK A S WELL. I BEGAN TO SUFFOCATE WITH MY NOSE B U R I E D I N H I S FUR: I WAS SUFFOCATI NG AND I MOV E D MY ARMS A N D LEGS LIKE A N I N E X P E R I E N C E D SWI M M E R WHOSE EVERY MOVEM ENT. H EC A T E W A S T H E WRITING BECA M E U RGENT AND B E V E L B A R E L Y A P P A R E NT. MOV E D U P A N D D O W N S P R E A D I NG S A L I VA LICKING A N D TICKLING. MY H EA RT WAS I N M Y THROAT.

BACKED U P TOW A R DS M E AND LOW E R E D HIS H I N D E N D S O AS TO P L A C E T H E H O L E I N H I S A S S AT T H E RIGHT ANGLE. SEIZED M Y COCK I N ON E OF H I S E N O R M O U S H A N DS A N D DRAGG E D T H E R U T T I N G DOG C LOS E R T O M E W I TH H I S OTH E R H A N D . BUT SINCE AT I WAS N O T M A N I P ULATING TH E DOG TURNED AND DOG'S "TH E C O U N TESS WILL B E P L E A S E D TO S E E YOU. WHICH W A S REA LLY A CONVEX. STRETC H E D OUT ON T H E T H R ESHOLD OF T H E I N F I N ITE. OH. THIS HE WOU L D STRO K E ." PENIS A LL. R A M M E D I N O N E STR O K E T H E H A N D L E U P M Y ASS. T H E R E S U LT W A S A F R A N T I C E FFORT ON MY PART TO F U C K AS W E L L AS J E R K OFF T H E DOG . BY-TH E . MY E S S E N C E S P U R T E D I N U N I SON WITH T H E A N I M A L'S WHO B R O K E AWAY HOWLI NG. T H R O B B I N G COCK. T H E A NrS T O A C A PT A I N·S. THE ANT DID NOT S E E M TO CARE." SOM E T H I N G S TR A N G E HAPPENED IN MY B ELLY I W A L K E D STIFFLY A N D C A R E F U L LY TOWARDS T H E OC E A N . FONDLE. HE TU R N E D ME A RO U N D G E NTLY. STU F F E D WITH A DAGG E R H A N D L E TRANSLATED BY D A N I E L SLOATE TRUDY OR THE S EC R ET A PH I D RUDDER. A N D F LA S H I NG ITS TH R E W M E D O W N ON MY K N E E S . W H E N T R U DY'S C ROTCH B E A U T I F U L WENT TO POT. SHE IS E X P E C T I N G YOU AND I WAS S E N T TO W E LCOME YOU. H E L I K E N E D HIS DESTI N Y TO A S H I P'S A N D M O R E O FT E N . THE N IGGER ST E E R E D MY C OC K "DO YOU WANT TO SEE THE COUNTE SS?" TOWA R DS T H E H O L E OF H I S FAVORITE'S ASS.TH E STA R E D Q U I ZZICALLY A T M E A N D TH E N A T H I S MASTER. S LOATE 1 06 . H E H A D A S M ALL ANT F O R PET W H I C H H E K E PT I N A N OLD. "YOU S H O U LD W A S H AGA I N . P E R FECTLY T R A I NED. THE A N T WOU LD HAIRS GRAZE TH E N U PON HIS FACE EAR AND NOSE WORK SLOWLY DOWN TO T R U DY'S D. AS H E FO R C E D ME TO GRAB HOLD OF THE DOG'S I STA R E D STR A I G H T AT H I M AND DID NOT A N SW E R . BUT YOUTH W I L L OUT. H E TRIED TO EXTRACT M Y ESSENCE OF M A N . W H I C H I S T O S A Y (OTH E R TH A N THE OBVIOUS) THAT T R UDY'S SENSE OF B A L A N C E W A S E ROTIC I N T H E EXTR E M E." S A N D . BERNARD NOEL A N D YET M Y ASS. S O P A S S E D T H E N I G HTS A N D T H E Y E A R S . T H E N I G G E R DEC I D E D T H A T I N E E D E D A H E LPI NG H A N D A N D . B A T H E D V E R Y L E I S U R E LY. T H E MONSTE R I M PA LED H I M S E L F ON MY PENIS IN ONE R I NG QUICK OF HIS MOVEMENT ASS AND MY TIGHTENING THE A ROU N D STA LK. FOLLOW M E . S I NC E H E A P P E A R E D T O BE E X P ECTING A N A N S W E R. I DREW B A C K M Y L I PS AND SHOWED H I M M Y C L E N C H E D TEETH. I M M E DI ATELY B L A D E IN THE S U N LI G H T . T H E N I G G E R H E LP E D M E T O M Y F E ET. TH E A N I M AL. IT RUBBED ITS H I N D-LEGS TOGETH E R D U L Y CONTE M PLATED F R O M D A W N T I L L STA R .B Y E .R I S E . A N D T H E N . C. TRUDY H A D A CROTCH B E A U T I F U L. TH I S HE M A N I P U LA T E A N D S T E E R A S THROUGH I T W E R E A N A P H I D U NTI L T H E J U I C E S F LOWED. I N S I D E-OUT N A V E L. WITHDREW THE W E A PO N I M PA L I N G M E A N D POI N T E D A T T H E S E A : W H E R E CONTR A R Y F E E LI N G S O V E R W H E L M E D M E : A TE R R I B L E PA I N IN MY BATTE R E D ASS AND AN EQU A L LY T E R R I B L E P L EA S U R E I N M Y BALLS. P E R H A PS. T H I S IS A H A PPY TALE A S I H A V E O M N I SC I ENTLY D E C I D E D A N D T H E R E FO R E I T W I L L NOW E N D .R E ACT. HE GRABBED ME UNDER THE ARMS AND WAS THERE FOR A LL TO S E E . HOLD I NG H I S D A G G E R B Y THE B L A D E . T H E N OTH E R S D I D. I FELL FACE FOR W A R D ON THE " P L E A S E . A N D T H E N C A M E BACK T O THE NIGGER. W H E N A LO N E . LARGELY W E LL­ PROPORT I O N E D E X C E PT FOR THE HEAD.F A S H I O N E D TOOTHPASTE TUBE.

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DISAPPEARED WITH 1 08 . H A N D I T OVER TO THE PATRON. LIPS ROUGED. AT TEN HE FI RST LEA R N E D HOW TO SERVE THE CU STO­ MERS: THE OLDER BOYS TAUGHT HIM TO HEAT THE HASHISH OVER A BRAZIER TILL I T CO U L D BE W A I S T S -GO L D E N N A RCOTI Z E D . AT FI RST HE F E LT NO I NT E R E S T SAVED IN TH E D R U G -BUT T H E R E M N ANTS AND OLDER BOYS U N B URNT C R U M B S A N D SMOKED T H E M . I N T H E E V E N I NG S O N E O R TW O O F TH E M WOU L D DRESS LIKE GIRLS IN A SAC R E D DRAMA AND P E R FORM THE TRADITION A L DANCES. A YELLOW CAT. CHOOSE HOT COALS AND ARRANGE TH EM WITH TONGS OVER THE D R UG. SHOPS TILTING OVER TH E GARBAGE I N THE CANA LS. FETCH TEA MEN AND C I G A R ETTES FOR THE OLD FLOWER-PATTERNED LUNG­ SOUTH E R N H I LLS-ONCE I N DE P E N D E N T S U L­ TANATE W H E R E THE M E N M A D E TH E I R LIVINGS AS P I R A T E S -S O M E GRAN DFATHERS NOW STI L L REMEMBER-I N THE I R LATEEN RIGS WITH REO SAILS OR B LACK. TEA-POT SPUMES CAUGHT IN SLANTING SUN. DARK S A I LORS WITH E A R R I NGS. FAC I N G THE SAND. MOVI NG S LO W S H I FT I N G SLENDER H I P S TO T H E CRUMBLED I NTO LI ITLE PASTI LL ES-TH EN FILL THE BLACKSTONE BOWL OF THE LONGSTE M M E D S I LVER CANDLELIGHT OF D R U M . FLYSPECKED CALENDARS WITH COLOU RED PRINTS OF GODS. LOW LATR I N E . FLUTE A N D GONGS. THATCH-ROOFED AND ADVENTURER OR F A I L E D PRI EST. AT THE FAR E N D OF TOWN. ONE RUPIYAH PER PIPE. A C H I N E S E OR MOSLEM M E R C H A N T. D I SSOLUTE E U ROPEAN FROM TH E S H I PS TO THE BEACH. A N D W H E N THEY L I T P I P E S F O R C USTO­ MERS THEY I N HA LED AS M UCH AS THEY COULD. WITH THE T I PS H E E A R N E D H E C O U L D B U Y RICE A N D F I S H . AND SLEPT AT N IGHT IN TH E CA FE OR ON THE BEACH. A CRACKED STUCCO CATH E D R A L IN THE STYLE OF GOA OR MACAO.TH E S I LV E R P I P E C A F E ORPHANED AT N I N E H E LEFT H I S VI LLAGE A LONE AND CAME DOWN ON THE AN C O A ST B E LOW TH E PIPE. TA M P THEM DOWN. TAK E A FEW PUFFS TO STA RT TH E SMOKE FLOWI NG. THE DA N C E R S WERE WELL TI PPED. MOTHS. ARMS AND LEGS B R ACLETED WITH TI NSEL. THE S I V E R P I P E CAFE-STA I N E D WALLS. H UDDLED TOGETH E R OUTS I D E TH E BACK OF THE CAFE NEXT T O T H E D E C AY E O . A LONG SHED. S I LK C LOTH S B OU N D A R OU N D TH E I R C H I LD I S H AS IF PLATFORMS AROUND TH E ROOM WHERE HABITUES REC L I N E . RADIO CRACK­ LING WITH GAMELAN AND C H I N ESE POP TUNES­ AND DARKLY S H A DOWED AS THE STAGE BETWEEN WAKI NG A N D S L E EP-A HYPNAGOGIC CAFE.LONG BOATS FETCH AND CARRY BROWN I N TH E I R H E ES. WHITELY CURVED AND PALM L I N E D -THE TOWN: TI N-ROOFED HOUSES. TH E I R LONG C U RLS BRAIDED A N D C ROWNED WITH H EAVY WHITE FLOWERS. LYI NG A QUARTER OF A MILE OUT IN THE S H A L LOW B A Y .

A N D TH E HASH I S H M I RRORS HIS PIGEON'S MOA N S. WATCHING IT GLITTER IN THE MATCH-LIGHT. A PI RATE OF S E LF-A B U S E . AND FILL ALL TI M E WITH THE PUBESCENT LIGHTNI NG OF A SINGLE PIPE. M E LTING WITH I NTOXICATION -LATE SMOKE ENGLOBES H I S SPACE.TH E I R A D M I R E R S A N D C A M E JEWE LS. A WARM SLUGGISH R A I N SPATTERED THE DRY ROOF­ THE BOYS SMOKED. DERVISH BOY. T H E MOON. BRIGHTER THA N A M BER. A N D H E TOO BEGA N TO STEA L GREEN FLA K E S FROM AND HIS C U STOM ERS. PETE R WI LSON 1 09 . R U N N I N G I T S G LOWWOR M TONGUE O V E R H I S TH I N L E G S . A N D THE LILACS O F H I S H A NDS OPEN FOR YOU A CRACK BETWEEN EARTH AND SKY. OF C H INESE SI LK-WITH HIS WHITE C R ES C E N T MOON A GREEN PARROT PERCHED O N ITS CUSP. BLOOD H E WAS T H E PA LEST BOY IN THE CAFE. AS I F BY ACCIDENT. STILL ANOTHE R Y E A R OR TW O BEFORE H E M U ST BEGIN T O DEPILIATE H I S BODY AND U S E POWDER L I K E THE OLDER BOYS- E M BLE M . PIPE WITH OPALESQUE . BY ELEVEN H E D I SCOVERED T H E PLEASURE OF TH E PI PE. AND THE TROPICAL LIMBS OF SLE E P I NG BOYS. N ECKLACES OF SEED PEA RLS AND J A S M I N E . H E A L O N E AWAKE I N TH IS ANDROGYNOUS C A F E . DOU B L E . H I M S E LF: IN TH I S R E LIGION I HAVE HE IS BOUGHT A WATER E D BLACK OF HASHISH A N D LITTLE BOYS. HE SAVED COI N S N E W SA RONG F R O M A THI EF. AT TH IRTEEN HE DANCES IN A COSTU M E OF HIS OWN I NVENTION: A LONG LOINCLOTH OF LILAC­ COLORED SHANTUNG. A M A N GAVE H I M A GOLD C H A I N FOR H I S N E C K IN EXCHANGE FOR A BOTH WORSH I PP E R A N D OBJECT OF WORSH I P. FINGERS IT TILL IT WA KENS. TOO I NSANE TO MOVE. THE N I GHT STROKES HIS I N NO­ AT NIGHT. LIKE YOUNG PYE-DOGS IN TH E SHADE-NIGHTB I R D S MOA N E D OUTSIDE THE CAFE.S E X E D S H A M A N CHI LD. A B E LT OF CHASED SILVER. AND THE I N K Y CLOTH SET O F F HIS PALLOR A N D THE H I NT OF GOLD IN H I S BROWN B A NGS A N D COFFEE-TINTED EYES-A N OLDER BOY TA UGHT HIM A TRICK: IF YOU WANT A BIGGER TIP. LET YOU R SARONG FALL OPE N . THE AGA I N. W H I L E YOU SERVE TH E M TH E I R PI PES. AND HE BACK WITH TOYS OR BUT THE H A S H I S H NOW K E E PS H I M AWAKE SOM E NIGHTS. C U R L E D UP TOGETH ER AGAINST TH E D I RTY BOLSTE R S TO W H I S P E R A N D SLEEP. INVADE SPERMY HIS AND VEINS A H U NDRED A N D S I X MOONS THEI R HE PULSING LIGHTS L I G H T. AND KISS. AWAY FROM THE PATRON'S EYE AND EAR AS H E NODDED OVER HIS TEA-POTS-CE I L I N G FAN S STI R R E D THE A I R. OWL'S W I N G S B R U S H H I S SHOU LDERS AND THIGHS. UNDER THE STA R I NG ROOF. BY THE TI M E HE WAS TWELVE H I S EYES WERE ALWAYS LAZY. MORE ELECTRIC THAN SILK AND DA RKER. HE AND HIS F R I ENDS WOU LD H U DDLE TOGETHER ON ONE OF T H E PLATFORMS. CENCE. A N D T H E SILVER HANDS D R I PPING FROM TH E STARS-NOW H E I S A D E VOTEE I N VENTED. T H E S K Y OPEN S A N D BETWEEN H I S LEGS T H E BLACK SILK CHAFES HIM TI LL H E TH ROWS I T OFF-THE S I LK. BELLS ON HIS BARE A N K L E S A N D W R I STS. FEARFUL THE OTH ERS M IGHT B E FEIGNING SLEEP. T H E N P R E T E N D N O T T O NOTICE BUT STAY NAKED FOR A FEW M I N UTES TILL YOU TIE IT AGA I N . BALANCING TH E COOL S T E M ON H I S K N E E . M I RRORS. E V E R Y D A Y H E SWA M I N TH E SEA. THE SILVER PIPE CAFE IS MADE OF M I R RORS-TAKE TH I S N IGHT FOR A N THE H A LF-B R E E D YOU R ACOLYTE F O R Y O U R LIMBS TANGLED TOGETH E R . AT THE DETE R M I N E D TO M A STER THE I R SKI LLS. THE LAST FEW C U STOM E R S SLUMBERING D E E PLY. T H E MOON LIGHT K I S S I N G H I S FEET.

.OV I N G M A N N E R B E R N A R D I DLI NG A LONGS I D E H I M PLAYS T H E R O L E O F TH E H A NDSOME YOUNG HOOD F R E E W H E E L I NG BERNIE ON HIS W H E E LS THEY'VE SOM E H OW WITHOUT E V E R DISC U S S I N G I T A G R E E D 1 10 ..COU NTESS L U L U TH R E E T I N Y N A V E LS S E E N TOG ETH E R A L L A LMOST A L I K E ONE M I N USCULE E M B EDDED WITH I N A BELLY TH E C O LO R OF DAWN ANOTHER E LO N G A T E D LIGHT OH YOU'RE TOO C H I C K E N WE'LL N E V E R A S K YOU TO C O M E A LONG WITH US AGA I N B E R N A R D SWUNG H I M S E LF L E I S U R E LY O F F HIS B I CYCLE R A N G T H E B E L L A LONG S I D E T H E G R I LLEWORK G A T E C A L L E D OUT I M PATI E NTLY TI M I D L Y AND A F A T B O Y H I S OWN A G E TH E TI N Y HOUSE THEY SLA N T I N G TH E E Y E OF A DOE T H E T H I R D BROWN TINGED WITH A M B E R FLECKS THE T I N I EST OF THE TH R E E B E LONGS TO WATC H I NG ME STA N D I N G ON THE CAME OUT OF RIVERBANK TH E OTH ER TWO D A I S I E S H EA D E D O F F TOW A R D T H E R I V E R F A T L U L U ON FOOT B E R N A R D BACK ON H I S B I K E ZIGZAGG I N G SLOWLY BACK AND FORTH OVER THE H U M P IN THE C E N T E R OF TH E ROAD WOBBLING P E R I LOU SLY AT TIMES R E A C H I NG UP TICK I NG M Y A R M P ! TS TH E Y G ROW S O V E R Y T A L L H E R E I N TH E M A RSHLAND BIG WHITE GOL D E N FLOW E R S S M E L L I N G OF PEE P E E SMELLING OF FLOWERS M A K I NG ME S N E EZE DOE'S E Y E B EC A U S E TH E FRONT W H E E L T U R N E D T OO SLOWLY MOV I N G TO THE L E FT THE RIGHT B E R N A R D TRYING TO KEEP THE BIKE B A L A N C E D SO HE WOU LDN'T W I N K S D I SAPPEARS W I TH I N A FOLD OF C L A U D E'S BELLY H E'S SEATED A M I DS H I P S FEET SPLASH T H E WATER T H A T COV E R S T H E TA R R E D B O A T BOTTOM DOE'S E Y E W I N K I N G B LI N K I NG W H E N E V E R HE LEA N S O V E R TO B A I L O U T MORE WATE R F L A TT E N S TAUTENS STRA I N S AMBER NAVEL EXE RTI ONS OF FA LL ON H I S A S S G I V I N G A FEW I DLE T U R N S NOW AND T H E N TO T H E P E D A LS T H E R E ST OF T H E TI M E C O A ST I N G F R E E WH E E L I NG TIRES ON GRAVEL E M ITTING A N AG R E E A B L E H U M M I NG O F H A PPY B E E S B E R N A R D H A D C A L L E D OUT H I T H E R E FAT C U N T WHEN LULU CAME OUT OF THE HOUSE WE'RE B E R NA R D'S TORSO A S H E HOI STS H I S A R M S H I G H C L U TC H I N G TH E HANDLE OF THE STER N OAR LOO K I N G L I K E H E'S ABOUT T O POLE VA U LT WITH I T SAILING OVER TO THE I S LA N D W A N T T O C O M E A LONG F A T C U NT? L U L U I S NOT R EALLY A L L THAT FAT ITS MOSTLY B E C A U S E OF Y A N N H E Y A R E N'T YOU COM I NG TOO S H R I M P? HE G E ST U R ES TOWARD M E TH E N TUGS Y A N K S U P H I S R E D B R I EFS S H I N Y M A T E R I A L CAUGHT P I N C H E D T I G H T W I T H I N T H E FUR ROW OF H I S A S S I S H A K E M Y H E A D T H A T BOAT DOESN'T B E LONG TO U S FACE HORMONES HIS ROU N D MOON MAYBE A N D H I S C L U M SY SLOW­ .

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S H E STUN K SO B A D OH WHEN W E GO TO B E D AND SOM ETI M E S TOO I N THE MORN ING S HA M E H U H Irs B E R N A R D'S F A U L.P B E R N A R D A R R I V I NG ON THE SCENE H I S IS THAT WHY S H E S A I D S H E WAS A L.E BURNT CORK M U STAC H E MY P I S S P ECTS S H E D I DN'T S A Y I W A S A DI RTY P I G S H E S A I D W H A T A LOVE RBOY B I G I WAS TH E R E'S A BIG D I FFERENCE B E RN A R D WA NTED TO GO A L.DEN GOWN S H E S C R E A M E D HOOTED FOR HEL.Y C L. I K E TH I S W H E N E V E R W E H A V E PARTI E S B A C K A T TH E C H ATEA U so NOW Irs COUNTESS L. T H E S A M E YOU M U STN'T H A V E L.I WITH A BOTTL.IVES TWO O F PORK AND B E A N S C A SSOUL.UC K I L. U L.Y TO SHOW THEM TO ME THEN L.L. A N D RUSK SALTED N UTS SOUR P I C K E L.OTS BUT A L.OSE L. A U D E WHO K I D N A P I N G TH E A D M I R A L. R I G H T BUT I T WAS SO FUCKING D A R K IN THAT S H A N TY AND THEN WITH AL. A M P I NG T H E WIG DOWN H A R D U PO N H I S S K U L.ASS JAR OF BRA N D I E D TINS OF PEACH E S M A YO N N A I S E C R A C K E R J ACKS CHOCOL.E NO I ooN'T PUT OUT I'M STAYI NG H E R E WITH C L.LEON EVERYBODY E L. WEI R oo A N YWAY THAT B E R N A R D IF YOU ASK ME QUEER LADY R E PEATED B E R N A RD A N D THEY EACH GRABBED COUNTESS L U LU B Y O N E PUDGY A R M M E STEPPI NG A S I D E T O L. I N G M Y Y O U K N OW TH E R E YOU D I RTY P I G ? BUTTOCK H E A S K E D COU NTESS L. L.ET TWO OF RAVIOL. L. U TO U N D R E S S T H E N DON THE ME WE'D STA S H E D IT AWAY E A R L.AR TREES HE TU R N E D H I S BACK TO THE HOU S E S ON 1 13 .BAG CONTA I N E D A Y E L. T H E WAY WITH H E R E H E E V E N TRI E D T O STIC K I T I N B U T S H E FOUGHT H I M O F F A N D S O H E STOPPED G E TT I N G A H A R D-ON H E'S A REAL. R E A D Y REACHED ROAD TH E STEEP SO C L. I E R CANS OF GOWN B E R N A R D G R I PS THE F A T BOY'S H EAD W H I L.U W E AL.L. L.OO K E D V E R Y CL. S WIG SEWN SOM E POWDER PA I N T A N D E V E N A PA I R OF H I G H . E M O N SODA BUTTER HOL. S E A L R E A DY M UR D E R E D R E S PECTS TU RNED U P N O W A S T H E S H I P'S CA PTA I N H E H A S A L. E D WITH LIQU E U R A BIG BAG OF POTATO C H I PS A GL.ET ME SEE IF YOU H A V E TH E M A L.UL. F A G A I N ST I T IT C A M E T O M Y T U R N S H E U S E D H E R AND IN H E R GOL.E O F SPARKL. TO M E AT A L. E G A S T U B O F B A M BOO H E'D L. E T ' S PRETEND TWO F I N A LLY PIRATES W I N E A N D O N E OF L. T FOR AND YEAH ME NOT L.' S NOBL.S A JAR OF SPAGHETTI S A U C E A L L. F BENT BAK UP A G A I NST O N E HAVE SO GOT FINGERS M E S S I NG AROU N D F E E L. I K E EMBROIDERY DECORATIONS G L. WET DOWN WOODEN L.ATE C U STA R D P U D D I N G STRAWBERRY J A M MACKEREL.ACK H A I R S COV E R I N G I T WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT IT? I'VE SEEN YOU BUT Y O U TOUC H E D I T D I D N'T Y O U H U H WHEN? N O NOT M E B E R N A R D S H E D I DN'T A PPEAL. I K E THAT BUT Y O U D I D SOM ETH I N G W H A T THOUG H ? AND IT DOE SN'T E M B A R RASS YOU TO STA R E HUH AT GUYS DOWN THERE BUT A L. TH E L. U L.T C H OO S I NG O N E L. A S S A WH ITE J E W E L. A U D E D E F E N D S M E NO NOT HIM H E' S A R E A L.L.ON E O N H I S S P LE N D I D GAL.ITTL. W E U S E D I S G U I S E S L. I C O R I C E S T I C K S F I LT E R CIGARETTES BOOKS O F M A TC H E S TH R E E NOUGATS CHOCOLATE EGGS F I L. L.ING W H ITE B E R N A R D M A K E S A FACE S U C K S I N H I S B R EATH BUT HE PUTS OUT A LL.A U D E H A D EMBANKMENT WHERE T H E H E H A S LOTS O F H A I R ooWN TH E R E THOUGH VEERED U N D E R T H E POPL. A U D E WE S T A RT OUT L. G U Y J UST L.L. START T E A S I N G H E R EXC E PT S U D D E N L. BACON IN WHITE WINE SOM E BROWN SUGAR F I V E C A N S OF SARDINES O N E OF BLACK OL. A U D E A P P L. I PS POWD E R TO H I S C H E E K S C L.H E E L.L.E DAUGHTER A T FI RST S H E'S A LL A L.E YEAH J UST L.E C L. U N OW PL.ooT WE'D B E E N A B LE TO PI NCH OVER AN E N T I R E W E E K'S TI M E B E R N A R D I N T U R N H A D S W I P E D T H E BOAT WH E R E L U L.Y B E R N A R D POINTS T O M E A N D THIS SQUI RT H E R E I S N 'T H E GOING T O B E A HOT­ ASSED C H I C K TOOl L. THOSE TH I C K BL.A YEO MY THE FIGHT E N E D HYSTERICAL COUNTESS DEAR LADY SAID C L. I K E US S H R E D D E D C OC O N U T L.Y BECA U S E I NOTH I N G WHEN H E R U BB E D H I M S E L. TH E S A M E DON'T YOU SQUI RT? TREMBLING I LOOK AWAY M U M BL. K GOWN ON G I L.U WHERE S H E ' D H I DDEN THE TR E A S U R E OF COURSE CLAUDE A N D THEY F O R C E L.O W S I L.ASH E D TO HIS THIGH C A L. L. I E S ROUGE TO HIS L.ET T H E M PASS YOU'VE O N L. L.ITTL. E D P U M PS YOU DON'T H A V E A N Y H A I R YEAH S H E SHOWED IT TO US A L.

TH E OUTS K I RTS OF THE V I LLAGE A N D OPENED H I S F L Y LOOK I NG O V E R H I S SHOULDER A L L T H E WH I LE TO M A K E S U R E NO C A R WAS COM I NG COV E R I NG B EC A U S E HIS FACE SUCH A B UT NOBODY LAUGHED ANYWAY HE'S S I LLY ASSHOLE FOR B E L I E V I N G I N LETS PRETEND A N D B E R N A R D L I FT E D U P THE H E M O F H I S GOWN HEY COUNTESS STA N D A LONG S I D E ME H E R E AS IF WE'RE BOTH J U ST TA K I N G A PISS YOU'RE BARE-ASSED UNDER YOUR S I LK DUDS YOU'VE GOT S U C H A F A T A S S COUNTESS I T LOOKS SUSPICIOUS TO ME I ' L L WAGER THATS W H E R E T H E I F E E L LIKE PISSING A N YWAY SO H E LOWE R E D C A PT A I N ' S T R E A S U R E CO UNTESS LULU ON I S H I DD E N I A N D H E SLAPS BOTH BUTTOCKS DEAR ME H I S B R I EFS A B I T W H E R E THE FLY G A P E D BUT NOT ENOUGH TO R E V E A L HIS PRICK AND I STAR E D DOWN SOME HAIRS YES A LITTLE CURL TO THE L E FT D E A R M E SAYS C L A U D E COULD B E COULD B E A N OTH E R TO T H E R I G H T BUT A LMOST NONE IN T H E M I DDLE I F I N I S H E D PISSING I WANTED SO BA D THEY C O M E U P A LONGS I D E THE ISLAND A N D T H E BLOND B O Y L E A PS OUT OF THE ROWBOAT T O M OO R IT F I N A LLY T H E OTH E R TWO FOLLOW I N TO T H E UPWARD ALL ALL TH R E E TO TOUCH IT BUT H E S I TATED STRUGGLING TO S E E IT BETTER I SA I D IF M A Y B E YOU COULD J UST FLUFF I T OUT A BIT D I S A PP E A R I NG BIRDS TO FLY UNDERBRUSH CAUSING CAWING OF SC R E E C H I N G THEIR GAME D R OW N I N G WHAT? W I T H J U ST U S TWO HERE? YOU OUT SOU N D A LTHOUGH T H E I S L A N D I S E XT R E M E LY S M A L L A LMOST AT T H E S A M E TI M E A S E C O N D B O A T MOVES OUT FROM T H E STEEP R I V E R B A N K TH I S TIME O N THE TOWN SIDE IT A LSO CARRIES THREE BOYS ALL KNOW YOU CA N'T COME YO U'RE NOT OLD E NOUGH YET NO I CAN'T S H OOT ANY J U I C E BUT I CAN STI LL ENJOY TH E FEELING TH R E E NAKED TO TH E W A I ST A LL TH R E E T H E S A M E AGE A S THE F I RST G R O U P B U T TH E I R C R A FT I S DEC K E D O U T T O LOOK L l E K A S A I L BOAT A N OAR STA N D I N G UP A LMOST BY A STRAIGHT IN ITS CENTER TH E BUT LOOK WOULD YOU OH ALL RIGHT T H E N I D I D N'T R E A LIZE H E R E TELL ME SOM ETH I N G F I R ST H E LD STAYS IN OF PL A C E A TW I N E R E P R ES E N T I NG PIECE OF MAST SQUA R E POLKA B LACK TO SAY YES IF FOR E X A M PLE SOM E B I G GUY ASKS TO FUCK YOU UP TH E ASS TH E R E ARE BIG GUYS BACK AT THE HOUSE L I K E THAT YOU KNOW THEY WANT TO DO IT TO THE LITTLE O N E S ALL TH E TI M E C LOTH WITH WHITE DOTS N A I LE D A N OTH E R BLACK TH R E E STIC K SET C ROSSWI S E U PON THE O A R B E I NG PIRATE COLORS A L L THE SAME AND WHITE S PO R T I N G KNOTTED BANDANAS A RO U N D OF M A TE R I A L NOW YOU' R E B E I NG DI SGUSTING UH BEC A U S E PLUS A THEIR ONE FOR E H EADS EYE B E LTS BLACK P A TC H OV E R U H B E C A U S E WOULD YOU U H D O IT? B U LG I N G WITH WOODEN W E A PO N S K N I V E S S A B E R S N E V E R U S I N G T H E S A I L A C T U A L L Y F O R S A I L I N G BUT NO IT WAS ON WHO WELL E R THAT A L L DEPENDS ON WHO TWO OTH E R OA RS I N ST E A D VEERING TAC K I NG TH E M A N Y C H A N G E S OF D I R ECTION SUGGEST I N G A LONG VOYAGE ACROSS P E R I LO U S SEAS AS THEY RUN U P A N D DOWN TH E LENGTH OF T H E BOAT C A L L I N G OUT SOM E TI M E I M IG H T I T ER A LL DEPENDS YES M A Y B E M E TOO YES NO NO I DON'T THINK SO B UT J U ST THE SAME V A R I O U S COM M A N DS THAT TH E W I N D ON TH I S LATE A FTE R N OO N COUPLED WITH THE GUSH OF R U S H I NG RIVER CARRIES AWAY R E N D E R S I ND I STI NCT A N D TH E N LETS GO OV E R TH E R E H U H H E POI NTED FLE ETI NG A T THE CARCASS O F AN A UTOMOBILE A B A N DON E D ONLY TH E BODY STILL I NTACT THERE WAS A S H A R P TU R N I N G I N T H E ROAD L E D STRA IGHT DOWN T O TH E R I V E R I T D I D N'T H A V E S E ATS A N YMORE NOR DOORS EITHER BEHIND WE LAY DOWN IN THE TALL G RASS RIGHT IT I HAD TO BE CAREFUL BEC A U S E OF WHAT? STRETC H THEY STOPPED ALL THREE O F THEM BESIDE THE HOLE I N WHICH T H E B U R I E D T R EASU RE LAY OH MY POOR D E A R DEAD FATH E R M U R D ERED SO V I LELY SAID LULU SOB B I N G QUITE S E RIOUSLY BOTH H A N D S B U T WITH G I R LS DON'T YOU KISS F I RST? S I N C E W E ' R E DOI N G T H E S A M E TH I NG NOW? AND HAVE YOU LOST ALL YOU R MA RBLES? YOU RSELF OUT LENGTH W I S E THAT WAY M A Y B E I F WE COULD K I S S F I R ST H U H S P R E A D YOU R CHEEKS W I D E R N ETTLES BUT T H I S T I M E T H E Y D I DN'T S E E M TO STI NG YOU WERE A SECOND AGO 1 14 .

AFTER THEY REACH THE I S L A N D AND DISEMBARK THEY PULL TH E I R BOAT U P L I FTI N G A ONTO TH E NA RROW FIRST OF ALL Irs BOATS NOT CARS I ' M I NTERESTED IN STRA NO OF S A N D FOURTH OCC U PANT Irs YOU LOSS PUT YO U R PANTS BACK ON TH E N WHO HAS UNTI L NOW B E E N HIDDEN I N TH E BOTTOM BODY BOUND AND GAGGED A TINY GIRL LO NG BLACK TRESSES DA R K BROWN S K I N TH READBARE C LOTH E S AND HARDY TO IF A E M ACI ATED GYPSY HER BODY LONG Y O U MEAN WE'RE LEAVI NG? PROCLA I M I NG C A LICO S H E'S S K I RT HER HAS BE BEEN RI PPED OFF IN A EARLI ER TH I N K IT OVER CAREFULLY MY FOU R RACING CARS PLUS TH E TRACK TH ING ELSE TOO WANT AND I'LL GIVE YOU SOME­ CLOTH ED NOW ONLY FI LTHY GREEN SWEATER A N D BADLY TORN B LOO M E R S SALLOW­ AND WHOSE LACE ROUG H LY THEY ALL THE TRADE-SPITS YOU BROWN FROM TOO M UC H WEAR TR I M M I N G U N R A V E LS TH E MORE HANDLE H E R I NTO A S E R I E S O F STRINGY FESTOONS F L U TT E R I N G DOWN U PON HER THIGHS LIKE YOU CAN SHOVE YOUR STUPID RACING CARS BUT WHArs A TRADE-SPIT? J ELLYFISH TENTACLES T H E GROUP SETS OFF DUMB ASSH OLE Irs WHEN TWO PEOPLE KISS IN A M A RCH THICK U N D E R B R U S H C LOSING B E H I N D TH EM W I T H A R U STLE OF R E E D S EACH OTH E R BUT WITH THEIR MOUTHS OPEN ALL THE WH I LE AND USING TH E I R TONGU E ALL R I G H T L E r S SAY I DO K I S S Y O U B U T JUST ONCE AND ONLY ON ONE CONDITION WHOSE TONG U E ? WHArs THAT? BOTH TONG UES ASSHOLE INSIDE EACH OTH ER'S MOUTHS YOU RS AND M I N E I F YOU'D L I K E THAT YOU SUCK ME OFF IN EXC H A N G E U G H TH AT SO UNDS D I SGUSTING OH NO THArS NOT FA I R YO U'RE A R E A L BASTARD YOU ARE THEY A PPLIED A SCA RF OVER T H E GAG COV E R I NG Irs NOT DI RTY TO SUCK HON EST I'VE DONE IT H E R MOUTH AND ONE OF THE TH R E E BOYS CAME CLOSER A N D CLOSE R FEELING TH E LITTLE V U LVA G ROWI N G YOU? WHO WITH? WITH SI MON MAYBE? MORE AND MORE EXCITED BY HIS COULD MAYBE TRY I T J U ST ONCE STI LL TO SEE WE MYSELF EXPLORATIONS BUT ONE O F TH E OTH E R TWO SAYS NO Irs R E N E WHO'S TO TAKE HER C H E R R Y A FTER ALL IT'S R E N E WHO FOU ND H E R FOR US A N D THE YOU'RE N UTS YOU K NOW THAT? NOBODY HOME BUT THE CLOCK A N D THArS STOPPED I F YOU SAY YES I'LL GIVE AW COME ON BOY N A M ED RENE NODS UNBUTTON S HIS PANTS LETS H I S B ELLY DROP DOWN OVER THE BELLY OF THE LITTLE GYPSY WHO BEGINS TO STRUGGLE EVEN MORE STRONGLY YOU MY FOUR RACING CARS AND TH E E LECTRIC TRACK THAT GOES WITH TH EM I'M NOT J UST LENDING T H E M TO YOU EITH E R I'LL GIVE TH E M T O Y O U OUTRIGHT HON EST YOU'RE THE ONE WHO AGREED TO IT R E M E M B E R ALL TH E TRA DE-SPITS I W A N T A LL R I G H T GO A H EA D THEY UNTIED TH E LITTLE G I R L G R I PPING HER BODY ALL TH E WHILE BECAUSE SHE HAD BEGUN TO NO SUCK ME OFF FI RST K I S S M E C O M E ON STRUGGLE YA N K I NG DOWN TH E R E WAS THE ROTTING HER B E I G E BLDOM ERS H U LK OF A BOAT ITS OUT RUN SHIT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S ACTI NG D U M B NOW I MIGHT F E E L MORE L I K E SUCKING YOU OFF IF YOU KISSED ME FI RST BOTTOM COMPLETELY F L A TT E N E D AGROUN D A LONG TI M E AGO D U R I N G SOME SPRING FLOOD TU RNED THAT C OV E R E D TH I S ISLAND T H E Y' V E IT OVER N O W A N D H A U LED IT I NTO THE BUSHES TYI N G T H E GIRL TO I T BACK A N D BUTTOCKS PRESSED H A R D UP AGAI NST THE OUTER H U LL LEGS SPREAD APART E X H I B I TI NG A V ULVA FLAT AND TINY AND F U RTH E R B E LOW THAT THE I NC U RVATE OH ALL RIGHT MOVE YOUR MOUTH CLOSER YOU WANT TO KNOW SOM ETH ING YOU'RE A REAL PAIN I N T H E A S S YOU ARE I C AN'T BELIEVE A N YONE C A N B E S O STU P I D AT LEAST W I P E YOU R MOUTH O F F FI RST SHADOW O F A N A N U S 1 15 .

YOU'RE DROOLING SPIT A LL OVE R M E H IMSELF OVER THE TINY BODY AND JERKED H I M S E L F O F F C L U M S I LY K E E P I N G ONE H A N D DOWN B E R N A R D DECLARED THAT COUNTESS LULU WO ULD HAVE TO SQUAT DOWN AND SHIT I N ORDER FOR THE R E BETW E E N TH E I R TWO CROTC H E S HOPING TO BE ABLE TO I N S E RT H I S THI NG AND SO I N TO BUT N E V E R HE F I N A L LY SAT THEM TO S E E WHAT S H E MIGHT BE H I D I NG U P HER HOLE BUT C LA U D E MADE A FUNNY FACE NO WE CAN TAKE A SOU N D I NG I N THAT WELL OURSELV E S O N E THAT WILL B E A LOT M O R E F U N B E S I D E S A N D S O THEY BOTH DREW FORTH THEIR COCKS KICKING QUITE S U C C E E D I NG HER TINY A S TR I D E FINALLY PRESS I N G T I TT l E S AND M A ST U R BA T E D OF HIS SEX E J A C U LA T I N G THE TIP AGAI N ST M A KI N G A WELL I N THE GAG COV E R I N G HER MOUTH THE UP AND DOWN P U M P I NG MOV E M E N T OF AGA I N ST TH E H I S F I S T CONTI N U A LLY S M A S H I N G C H I LO'S I N NOSE WHILE HIS SPERM LULU OVER I N TO A L E A P F R OG POSITION R A I S I N G H I S G O W N U P OVER H I S B A C K COV E R I NG H I S H E A D WITH YE LLOW S I L K W H I L E THEY FUCKED H I M THE BOTH OF THEM B E R N A R D F I R ST THEN CLAUDE AND A S FOR M E I WAS TOO E M B A RRASSED BEC A U S E OF THOSE BIG SOFT LARDY CHEEKS SO PALE AND SPLASH E D FORTH C O LO R L E S S BUBBLES S E E PI NG TH ROUGH T H E GAG C A R E F U LLY SCA R F THE N WIPED OFF THE THE T H I R D BOY STICKY B EG R I M E D WHICH P E R H A PS HER BELONGED T O H I M A N D ROUGH L Y BUT BETW E E N SQU I S H Y LOOK I NG I FO U N D I T S A D THAT C L A U D E COULD EVEN T O U C H L E T A LO N E WANT T O E N T E R TH E M A N D SO I SAT D O W N A G A I N ST A TREE A N D P E N ETRATED TH E T H I G H S LOOKED SOM EWH E R E E L S E PLUGGING U P M Y E A R S WITH M Y FINGERS S O I WOULDN'T HAVE T O H E A R ALL THOSE HORRIBLE SO U N DS THEY TAPPE D M E ON YOU ' R E C H E A T I N G Y A N N YOU' RE N O T S U C K I N G M E A T A LL LOOK S E E HOW I C A N STI LL PUT M Y ENTI R E F I ST AROU N D I T T H A T M E ANS YOU H A V E N'T E V E N TA K E N A L L O F TH E H E A D I NTO YOU R M O U T H Y E T TH E SHOULDER THEY WERE N'T PIRATE S ANYMORE L U L U STI LL H A D ON H I S S I L K GOWN BUT I T WAS YA N K E D EVERY W H I C H WAY T H E WIG FALLEN OFF AND THE H I G H .H E E L E D PUMPS AS WELL WE SET A BOUT D I GG I N G U P THE T R E A S U R E I LOVE COLO CASSOULET PORK AND SAUSAGE AND WHITE B E A N S ESPECIA LLY THOSE LONG THIN SAUSAGES AND THE ONE I LOVE A M I N LOVE WITH KISSED M E MY E N T I R E FACE LAY DOWN A LONGSIDE M E H E I SN'T E V E N P RETE N D I NG ANYMORE HE REA LLY E NJOYS IT KISSES SOFTLY G E N TLY MY L I PS SO WET AND SHAME W E D I D N 'T PINCH SOME M U STA R D AS WELL WE WON'T GIVE ANY OF I T TO LULU ITS HIS FATH E R W E STOLE I T FROM BUT THAT PIG C U N T WON'T D A R E SQU E A L O N U S FOR IF HE DOES WE'LL P U T H I S S H I N I NG WITH H I S LOVELY W E T S H I N I NG LIPS MOUTH HOT AND SILKY AGA I NST MY CHEEK I YANK OFF MY JERSEY SO THAT WE CAN FEEL OUR BELLI ES FATH E R W I S E T O A L L THOSE BOTTLES O F A P E RT I F S H E'S B E E N B R I N G I N G A S G I FTS T O B E R N A R D A N D THAT'S EVEN GOING TO G E T WOR S E NOW T H A T R U B B I NG SKI N AGA I NST S K I N T H E S U N I S A LREADY B E H I N D TH E TREES A N D TH E TALL G R E E N GRASS TICKLES M Y E A R S TH EY'VE BECOM E S U C H A SSHOLE B U D D I E S W H A T S WRONG OH ITS S O LONG YOUR C OC K I F I ' D BEEN I N H E R H U RT TOO M U C H ? Y O U LOOK F U N N Y DOES IT PLA C E I ' D H A V E LOVED GETTING I T FROM YOU BUT A N YWA Y I ' M A BETTER LOOKING BOY THAN S H E I S A G I R L DON'T YOU TH I NK? W E ' L L DO I T AGAI N E V E R Y NOW A N D THEN H U H Y A N N I DO N 'T KNOW A N YTH I N G ABOUT THAT I F YOU W E R E T W E L V E Y E A R S OLD YOU RS WOULD BE LONG TOO Y E A H BUT W H A T I F YOU M A K E A BABY I N S I D E M E ? so T H E N YOU'D RATHER H A V E H E R THAN M E ? A L L T H E S A M E S H E WAS A R E A L D OG T O L OO K AT Y O U ' R E B A TT Y A S A BEDBUG W I T H A G U Y THAT CA N'T H A P P E N B E S I D E S ITS NOT T HROUGH THE ASSHOLE YOU CAN'T COM P A R E THINGS L I K E THAT YOU MAKE A BABY THE M O R E WE DO I T T H E M O R E NO ITS I ' M A L L R I G H T RENE CLIMBED OFF THE C H I LO'S V U LVA D I RTY OH GOOD ARE YOU SURE EVEN WITH COV E R E D WITH M UC U S FOAM I N G S N AI L T RA I LS BUT SHE H ADN'T BELD ONE BROA D-ASSED ANOTH E R OF THE BOYS T H I S A N D B A NDY-LEGGED S P R E A D G I R LS? TH E S A M E 1 1 6 .

J U ST FOR KICKS W E TOSS O U R O L I V E PITS AT LULU A S W E BULLS H I T AND B E R N A R D A LO N E EATS ALL F I V E CANS OF S A R D I N E: S W I T H TOM A TO SAUCE AND T H E M A YONN A I S E MOPPING U P T H E R E M A I N S WITH H I S FINGERS L I C K I N G T H E M HE H A SN'T R EBUTTON E D H I S F L Y A N D I N T H E C ENTER O F H I S B R I EFS THERE'S A BIG STA I N OF WETN ESS SOM ETH I N G ROUND LIKE A R I N G STANDS OUT Irs HIS FOR E S K I N STRA I N I N G NO NOT THAT I L I K E IT TOO BUT ONLY BECAUSE I BECA U S E Irs YOU I ' M DOI NG IT WITH LOVE YOU FORWA R D THROUGH T H E F A B R I C L I K E A T I N Y HOSE NOZZLE: SHIT YOU'RE A LWAYS COM I NG OUT WITH STUPID­ ASS EO T H I NGS LIKE THAT FOR C H RI S S A K E S YOU SOUND LIKE SOM E SILLY CUNT O R SOMETH I NG M E E:VEN I F I TH I N K SUCH THI NGS I N EVER ALL RIGHT I'LL LET YOU DO I T TO ME TONIGHT ONLY YOU WON'T TELL A NYBODY ELSE PROMISE? BUT WH E N YOU FEEL THEM WHEN YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEBODY I PROM I S E B U T N O T TON I G H T RIGHT NOW I F I DO Irs OBVIOUS A I N'T IT SO W H Y DO I HAVE TO OR E LS E TAK E A W A Y YOU R COCK FROM M I N E 1 17 .J UST TH I S ONE TI M E TRY STICKING I T IN YES THERE Irs A LMOST I N NOW PUSH NO I DON'T BELIEVE YOU IF I C A N'T FUCK YOU AS WELL IT FURTH E R MAKE IT HARD SO IT WON'T K E E: P SLIDING OUT H E GIVES M E H I S POTATO C H I PS HIS NOUGAT CANDY I G I V E HIM MY RAVIOLI E XC E PT FOR ONE C A N A N D M Y S H A R E OF TH E C I G A R ETTES FROM T I M E T O TI M E DO YOU LIKE I T TOO C A N YOU F E E L IT? WHAT 00 YOU T H I N K I A M SOME HOT-ASSED C H I C K OR SOM E FAGGOT H U H ? DOES TH I N K I NG I M I G H T L I K E IT M A K E Y O U A L L H O T T O D R O P YOU R COO K I E S O R SOMETH I NG ? .THE:N LE:rS STA RT O V E: R A GA I N R I G H T NOW LI STEN DON'T SQUI R M SO MUCH YOU'RE G I V I N G ME: A H A R D TI M E I'M .JUST ABOUT READY TO COME A N D A FTERWA RD Y O U CAN D O WH ATEVE R Y O U W A N T A N D TON IGHT WE: C A N S U R E: WE CAN CLIMB I N TO MY SACK HAVE YOU'VE SHOT OFF? I DON'T FEEL I O U R S E LVE:S A BALL H U H T H E: T H R E E PIRATES H ELD A LONG CONSULTATION SQUATTING ON THE G R A S S A D I STANCE AWAY FROM THE R U I N E D BOAT W H E:RE T H E I R VICTI M R E: M A I N E D BOU N D MORE A N D G A G G E D THE: AND D I SC USSION GROWING UNTIL F I N A LLY THE SHUT UP I C A N'T CONCENTRATE IF YOU SECOND THAT'S I T OR SO MORE AND THERE ONE AH MORE CONFUSE:D N O W Irs M Y TURN MOST ROBUST O F THE T H R E E GOT UP AND WENT OVER AND RAPED THE: LITTLE: GYPSY ONCE MORE WHO B Y THIS TIME SCA RCE:LY STRUGG L E D TH E N THE OTH ER TWO I M I TATE:D T H E I R L E A D E R RENE B E: N T DOWN OVER THE ROPES WHICH C R I SSC R O S S E D T H E G I R L'S T I N Y B R E ASTS A N D SEEMED EITHER TO B E U NTYI NG T H E M O R ELSE MOVING THEM H I G H E R U P TO TIGHTEN A RO U N D HER AFTERWARD I'D L I K E T O DO I T T O YOU TOO NECK THEY S ET SA I L ALL T H R E E OF T H E M L E A V I N G T H E I S L A N D NO LONGER P LA Y I N G OH NO I ' M OLDER T H A N YOU SO I COULD HAVE A K I D I F SOMEBODY F U C K S M E Irs N O T T H E S A M E TH I NG AS WITH YOU YOU K NOW S P R E: A D YOUR CHEEKS WIDER CLAUDE I C A N 'T SEEM TO F I N D T H E HOLE BUT YOU .J U ST TOLD ME THAT IN T H E ASSHOLE STOP I T NOW BABY I CAN SEE I DON'T WANT YOU TO MAKE A YOU D I D N 'T TELL ME THE THAT'S YOUR WORRY N OW I CAN'T REACH I T YOU'RE A REAL BUDDY YOU A R E ONCE Y O U SHOOT O F F Y O U DON'T G I V E A D A M N WHOLE STORY B E FO R E OH S H I T Y O U N E V E R U N D E R ST A N D A N YT H I NG YOU DON'T HAVE TO WOR R Y I TOLD YOU THAT ALREADY W E L L W H A T D O YOU W A N T M E TO DO H U H ? GO A H E A D I ' L L H E L P Y O U B U T .

A U D E HIM NEITHER? ME N EITH E R I ANSWER NOBODY DOES AT TH E C H ATEA U LU I.-ONG GLANCES HE H E L.SO H UN G R Y A R E YOU GOING TO G I V E ME YOU R DESSERT AT D I N N E R TONIGHT H U H ? NO I DO N 'T HAVE ANY P A R ENTS A NSWERS C L.UL.UM WHAT A PACK O F GLUTTO N S JESUS DON'T YOU E V E R GET A N YT H I NG TO EAT AT YOUR BOA R D I N G SCHOOL WE EAT A LOT BETTER TH ERE TH A N YOU DO FATSO SAYS C L A UDE AND Irs NOT A BOA R D I N G SCHOOL.U J U ST FOR THE ENJOYMENT YO U A I.AGE GUYS FOR O N E TH I NG BUT DON'T YOU H A V E A N Y PA R E NTS? A S K S L. A U D E 1 18 .U WATC H E D US GORGE O U R S E I.­ WHY TION W E L..Y I.­ I T OUT RIGHT NOW A N D H U R R Y I T U P TOO WE'VE GOT TO BE GETTI NG BACK M U ST BE AWFUI.-READY F E E l..-L.OAD E D WITH DOUGH WE'RE NOT J U ST TAK E N I N OFF TH E STRE ETS YOU K N OW W E ' R E C H O S E N WE'RE BETTER D R E S S E D THAN YOU NEVER BOTH E R A N YWAY YOU R SO NO I ' M NOT F I N I S H E D I W A S STAYING I N S I DE YOU V I L.-ATE SINCE I A I.A NTHROPIC I N STITU TONY D U V E RT T H A r S O U R BUSI N E S S S A Y S C L.PED OPEN ALI.SA Y IT? COME HURRY UP SHAKE AT IT MORE AGE YOU'L..-V E S WITH L. Irs A P H I L.l.-l.ITTLE S I D E I. F A R E YOU M E A N S N E E R S B E R N A R D NO Irs P R IVATE A N D THEY'RE L.L.-WAYS EXAGGERATE TH I NGS COM E ON PUl.TH E W H E R E W E R E YOU FROM BEFORE T H E N ? C A N S A N D T H E N SAT TH E R E SWA LLOW I NG H I S SPIT LOOK I N G GL.

THEY S N I GG E R A N D G I G G L.MS OF T H E HAND.OW G R A V E L. D "WE'L.I K E S PA R KS O F F I R E . W E A L.Y ONE ROAD.IT ON THEIR NECKS AND HANDS AND FACES. M I L. W I L.ESCENTS STA N D I N FRONT O F THE TRADING POST. A TRADING POST. • • :' P I P E R BROTH ERS.L. L.E FOR TRUCKS WINDING IN DRY WEATH E R . AND C ROTC H ES. . A S THEY W A L. THEY WEEDS AND BUSHES NOW BRUSHED CL. FL. TH E OTH ER BL. BUT I H A VEN'T BEEN H E R E S I N C E I W A S TH I RTE E N.TH E POPLI NG AUDREY A N D JERRY SET OUT TO I SOL. T H E R E'S ON L. T H E CL.L. AND WOB B L. YOUTHS TWISTS H I S H E A D T O O N E S I D E A N D RUBS HIS CROTC H ." ADOL. " A N D THE B I G H O R S E F L. WAS YE L. .EANING AGA I N ST THE KNEES BACK WAL. I E S THAT L.ACK. OF VORACIOUS MOSQUITOS TOOK OVE R 1 19 . I N G TH E I R R U B B I NG TH E I R THEY T U R N E D I NTO A N A R ROW FOOTPATH AND TH E SHADOW OF DEEP WOODS. A N D A MOU R N I NG DOVE COOED SOFTL. .ATE AND CAP­ T U R E A POPL. YOU TWO A R E L.. ITS A M I L.ATE TOWN I N NORTH E R N CANADA. "THEY C A N EVEN BITE Y O U ON TH E PAL. THIS M U ST B E TH E T U R N OFF.OCA L.OOK I N G FOR T H E "YOU KNOW THIS COUNTRY PRETTY WEL. .ES A N D TAKE T H E PATH TO YOU R R IGHT. A FEW CABINS.L.ING. J U ST FOL.ATE GRAY. A GROUP OF THE WAGON ROAD.K A BOUT TWO M I L.S A B L. AN OL. A U D R EY F E E L. I E S CAN BITE TH ROUGH J E A N S. K E D T H E Y SWATTED AT D E E R F L.Y FROM WOODS. O N E O F T H E L. W A Y S N E EDED A G U I DE T O F I N D I T . BEL.D STE A M R A I L.L.ERK I S A YOUTH WITH ON E E Y E SL. THE BOYS A R E S I TT I N G IN A U N E .S A FT E R TH E M .OWERS GREW B Y THE S I D E OF THE ROAD.ONGS TO M Y FATH E R .OW T H A T WAGON ROA D OUTS I D E . E FROM THE FOR K TO THE PIPER P LA C E .K BOYS. .L.L BE S E E I NG YOU. U S H B U R N I NG THE BACK OF HIS N ECK.OUDS TH EM AS PASSED.L. ." A U D R E Y S A I D .L.ROAD TAKES TH E M TO A DESOL. R I G H TI WEL. E A N D N U DG E B E TW E E N E A C H OTH E R A S T H E TWO BOYS P A S S T H E M O N T H E W A Y I N TO T H E TRADING POST." "I'M STEVE ." OUTS I D E . AND KNEES FORTH UP. HE PUTS OUT HIS H A N D. STIN G I N G L. O N E CA L. YOU CA N'T M I SS IT. WAL. B I RC H AND PINES. W H I C H WAS A LSO PASSABL. " ''THE C A B I N W E ' R E GOI N G TO STI L.

W H O WAS AROUN D TH I RTY. HE PUT IT I NTO A FLY BOX. SOM E COPI ES OF ADVENTURE A N D AMAZING STORIES. WE KNOW THAT A N D THATS WHY. H E KNEW THAT THE HOUSE WAS SET I N A GROVE OF PI N E A N D B I RCH A FEW H U N D R E D FEET A BOVE THE PIER. S C R E E N ED." TWO B E DROO M S OVER THE LIVING R O O M A N D A S M A L L E R B E D R OO M O V E R T H E K I TC H E N . H E FINISHED IT. ON THE BACK PORCH. A BOOK C A S E WITH SOM E OF A U DR EY'S OLD BOOKS STI L L T H E R E . WATE R FLOW E D FROM A TWO. i F THATS WHAT YOU WANT. WAS SITTING IN THE OPEN DOOR OF TH E CABIN TY ING A FLY. A N D A STACK OF LITTLE B L U E BOOKS. WHO WAS ABOUT 20. AS THE 1 20 . W E HAVE TO COME TO TERMS WITH T H I S TH ING. YOU KNOW THAT A POPLING HAS A LREADY FOU N D YOU?" H E LOOKED AT J E R RY A N D A D D E D "BOTH OF YOU. WHICH WAS A LSO "WH E N CAN WE START?" " R I G H T AWAY. TH E R E WAS A N ICE BOX A N D A WOOD BIN. A U D R E Y L E O TH E WAY UP TH E PATH TO TH E HOUSE. "SO YOU WANT TO GO TO YOU R FATH ER'S COTTA G E AND F I N D A POPLI NG. A U DR E Y R E M E M B E R E D F I S H I N G FROM T H E E N D OF IT FOR ROC K BASS A N D YELLOW P E R C H . THE YOUNGER PIPER." ALL P R E P A R ATIONS H A V E B E E N THE TRIP TOOK T H R E E DAYS." TH E OLDER BROTH E R . HE KNEW THAT T H E LAKE WAS MORE THAN A THOU S A N D FEET D E E P I N T H E M I DDLE. H E LOOKED U P AND NODDED GRAVELY. THE MOSQUI TOS HOV E R E D AROUND THEM. T H E R E WAS A BATHROOM WITH R U N N I N G W A T E R A N D F L U S H TOI L ET A N D BATHTU B . W H I C H WAS F I LLED B Y A P U M P FROM T H E L A K E . WE'LL HANG I T A LL. AT THE E N D OF THE DAY J E RRY AND A U D R E Y WOULD FALL ASLEEP I M M E DI ATELY AFTER SUPPER. IT W A S JUST A S HE R E M E M B E R E D IT. WHICH WAS BLACK BASS O R WALLEYED PIKE WITH B I SCU ITS AND D R I E D FRUIT.FROM THE BITING F L I E S . S H A DOWS O F THOSE BOULDERS. BOTH T H E PIPERS H A D Y ELLOW H A I R. T H E KITC H E N H A D A WooD­ B U R N I N G STOVE A N D P I N E TABLE WITH C H A I RS.H U N D R E D-GA LLON TA N K I N T H E ATTIC. TH E P I E R E N D E D I N TEN F E E T O F WATER. H E DROVE HIS AXE INTO THE BLOCK A N D CAME OVER TO GREET THEM. I'M CARL P I PER. THE BOOK O F KNOWLEDGE. T H E Y STO P P E D A N D CANOES G L I D E D OUT I N TO THE CLEAR BLUE WATER. THE OLDER PIPER WENT BACK TO HIS FLY. H E S H I V E R E D S L I G H TLY-TH E R E A BO U T T H E WAS SOM ETH I N G C H I LL I N G D E PT H S AND THE SILENT BLUE RUBBED CITRONELLA ON T H E I R FACES A N D H A N DS. LOW TABLE. THEY PADDLED FOR TWO HOURS. A U D R E Y DRI FTED OFF TO SLEEP WITH T H E STRANGE WILD MUSIC IN H I S EARS: THE P I P E S OF PAN. A N D A COI L OF ROPE. HIS FATH E R A N D BROTH E R H A D ROWE D T O TH E OTH E R S I D E OF T H E LATE A FTERNOON ON T H E TH I R D DAY THEY C A M E TO WIDE LAKE A FTER A TH R E E M I LE PORTAGE. P I N E F U R NITURE. BRIGHT BLUE EYES. B E H I N D T H E HOUSE W A S A W OO D S H E D A N D A N I C E H O U S E A N D A L O N G L O W B U I LD I N G WITH A B E A M E D C E I L I NG T H A T H A D BEEN H I S FATH E R'S WORKSHOP. THEY STEPPED FINA LLY I NTO A CLEARING BY A LAKE. THEY TIED U P AT THE PIER A N D J U M PE D OUT. A N D AT SU NSET HE COULD SEE A H E A D A LITTLE PI E R AND A SANDY I NLET. A D R U M OF KEROSENE. SMALL W I N DOWS. "YOU'RE AUDREY A N D J E RRY. TUR N I N G IT IN H I S H A N DS. "WELL." HE S A I D AT LAST. SOME F I FTY F E ET I N HEIGHT." UP THE STE E P STA I R S ON THE WERE SECOND FLOOR TH E R E H E NODDED. WITH BACK-BREAKING PORTAGES EVERY FEW M I LES. A SC R E E N E D PORCH I N FRONT. HELD IT U P TO THE LIGHT A N D LOOKE D AT IT C RITICALLY. ROLLED DOWN BY GLAC I E R S M I LLIONS O F YEARS AGO. TH E MOSQUITOS FELL AWAY B E H I N D TH E M . W H E N HE WAS THI RTEEN. "YES. AUDREY LOO K E D U P AT T H E B E A M S A N D REMEMBERED A N I N C I DENT T H A T H A D OCCU R R E D ON H I S LAST STAY H ER E . A N D C U RIOUSLY POI NTED EARS. MADE. T H E R E W A S A BOI L E R T H A T C O U L D B E H E A T E D BY A S M A L L STOVE T O PROV I D E HOT WATER. BUZZ I N G I N FRUSTRATION. TWO P I N E C H A I R S ON TH E PORCH ." "WELL YES. T H E TOOLS WERE STI LL TH ERE-SOM E L U M B E R. A N D T H E R E ON A H I G H ROCKY BA N K OVE R T H E L A K E W A S T H E P I P E R C A B I N. T H E B A N K SLOPED STE E PLY F R O M THE E N D OF T H E P I E R I N TO C L E A R B L U E D E PTHS. H I S K E Y O P E N E D THE LOCK A N D THEY STEPPED I N TO TH E LIVI NG ROOM. TH E PIPERS SAT U P D R I NKING COFFEE A N D P LA Y I N G ON T H E I R W OO D E N F L U T E S . A U D R E Y COULD SEE GREAT BOU L D E R S ON THE BOTTOM. P I N E P A N E LLING. WAS CUTTI NG WOOD.

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AND THREE G E ES E IN FLEW THE N O RT H D I STANCE IN V FO R M ATION. SIDE FI S H I N G FROM TH E OTH ER OF A L. H E SOME HOME PICK B L. H E F A S H I O N E D A H A N G M A N'S K N OT A N D THREW THE ROPE OVER A BEAM.OO M E D TH ERE.Y FEL.AC K B E R R I ES AND I FEL. S U N S ET "WHAT H A P P E N E D T O YOUR N EC K A U D REY1" H E W E N T OUT TO H I S FATH E R'S WOR KSHOP.L. S W I N G I N G A FEW I NC H E S OFF T H E FLOOR. BUT TH E R E WAS NO H U RRY NOW. AND AUDREY FEL.E. A K E . H E WAS GOI NG T O JACK OFF. OO K E D A T H I M S P E C U L. T H E SUN WAS SETTING AC ROSS THE L. A F I R E W A S A LR E A D Y B U R N I N G I N TH E K I TC H E N STOVE. T A FEEL. A T I V E L Y F O R A M O M ENT. BREATH T H E C A NOES.ATION IN YOUNG MAL. A U D R E Y COULD S E E T H E FISH PIER. A N D SI L.OON. L B L. A U D R EY S U D D E N L." THE P I P E R S W E R E B U S Y U N P A C K I N G G E A R FROM A U D R E Y WAS STA N D I N G U P AT TH E ATTIC W I NDOW WHEN HE READ THIS.AKE.Y HOUSE IN ST. J U ST B E FO R E WHEN FATH E R C A M E AND ASKED.E SUBJECTS D U R I N G H A NG I NG I S SO FREQUENT AS T O BE TH E R U L.OTH ES. Y FRACTU R E D . E OF A NTICI PATION IN H I S CROTCH A N D T H E P I T O F H I S STO M A C H .OOD STOPS C I RC U L. E J A C U L. " L. FROM AND VI BRATING W E I G H T ON T H E LINE.OO K I N G U P AT THE BEAMS. BOOK H E FOU N D I N A T R U N K I N T H E ATTIC OF T H E FAMI L. H I S N E C K V E R Y SORE A N D A TASTE OF BLOOD I N H I S MOUTH.VER SPOTS BOI L. A K E TO F I S H . FEEL T H E JERK FLAPPING ON THE TH R E E M I NUTES WITH THE N E C K BROK E N . H E A RT POU N D I NG. B L OO D POU N D E D A N D S A N G I N H I S E A R S A N D T H E R OO M BLAC K E D OUT A N D H E WENT OFF.T P R E S S U R E O N T H E VAGUS N E R VE.D T A K E H I S TI M E A B O U T I T . " P L. AND P ULLED H I M SE L. O W E R G A R D E N AT T H E S I DE OF THE HOUSE.L. AND A BRANCH GOT TANGL. HE BECA M E QUITE DIZZY. L. T H I S G E N E R A L. U BRI CATI NG AS HE ADJUSTED THE SUDE WATER. I T WAS A BOUT DEATH BY HANGI NG: A U D R E Y P I C K E D U P A S H O V E L A N D A C A N .ATER HE W I L L SHOW H I MS E LF:' H O U S E A N D LOO K E D I N THE M I R ROR. A U DREY WATC H E D T H E M GO WITH A T I N G L. V I O L ETS OF THE AND IRIS FORGET-ME.OW PERCH. EXPL. EVERY A N D SOM ETI M E S A S OFTEN CONSC I O U S N E S S A S FIVE T I M ES. F U P ON TI P TOE. THEN H E A R C H E D H I S F EET. SOME IN. A N D A S L. I N G. U S H I NG. BUT NOTH I NG MORE W A S S A I D . HARD HE STRI P P E D OFF H I S C L. O N G A S TW EL. M A Y P E R S I ST F O R A S L.Y O C C U R S TW I C E . J E R R Y AND A U DR E Y GOT TH E I R F I S H I N G PO L E S A N D W A L K E D DOWN T O T H E P I E R . L. T H EY C L E A N E D T H E FISH I N T H E LA K E A N D C A R R I E D THE ENTRA I LS I N A P A N A N D D R O P P E D T H E M O N T H E COM POST H EAP. UNE S O M EW H E R E THE L. IN SOME TI M E S HE K N E W EXACTL. H I S COCK AND L. P L.L. MAY HOWEVER. T H I M S E L.VE M I N UTES I N CASES W H E R E T H E NECK IS UNBROKEN IS OR L. HE WAS STA RTI NG TO GET A H A RD-ON AS HE R E M E M B E RED SOM ETH I N G H E H I S FATH E R L. NOW W A S H I S CHANCE TO TRY IT. Y T H E SPOT TO DIG FOR WOR M S .ED A RO U N D M Y N EC K . ONCE I M M E D I ATE L. U H I W A S P I C K I NG BL.OU I S ..ATION OCCU R TH R E E BROUGHT S T l L. L.Y AFTER THE DROP W H E N THE NECK I S BROKEN AND ONCE J UST BEFORE T H E BL. HE WENT BACK TO T H E IN THE DAYS THAT FOLLOWED T H E Y FISHED A N D SWAM A N D H I K E D A N D C ANOED A R O U N D T H E L. HOW WOU L. A L L TH I S C A M E BACK TO HIM AS HE STOOD IN THE WORK ROOM WITH JERRY AND T H E PIPER B ROTH E R S AND GLANCED U P AT T H E B E A M . HASTILY H E D R E S S E D A N D U N D I D T H E KNOT AND COILED THE ROPE.NOTS. L.D HE 1 22 .MOST AT O N C E A U D R E Y FELT THE T U G O N H I S L I N E A N D P U L L E D O U T A O N E-POU N D ROCK BASS. TH I S WAS A COM POST HEAP OF GARBAGE AND H U M U S F O R T H E W I LD F L.'· L I E F TOL. H E COUL. H I S FATH E R "WELL.A I N TOOK A IT TO H I S FATHER1 PA I L AND W E NT HIS HE GOT AN OUT TO IDEA.OOK I N G UP AT T H E SMOOTH ROU N D BEAMS. AUDREY I N TO W H I ST U NG T H R O U G H H I S T E E T H . T H E WATER WAS SMOOTH A S B A I T E D H I S HOOK THE BLUE A N D L. TH E R E WAS A RED MARK AROUND HIS N EC K . I G H T L. AC K B E R R I E S . KNOT B E H I N D HIS L E FT EAR. O N G A S SHOVE L O F D I RT TU R N E D U P T H I C K R E D WORMS. ErS CATCH S O M E FISH FOR D I N N E R 1" "EJAC UL. "SOO N E R OR L.D A U DREY. HIS FATH E R HAD AND EVEN CASES EJACU L. H A D R E A D I N A N O L. F B L. H E C A M E TO H I M S E L F LYI NG ON THE FLOOR. F U L.A N K S T O THE B E A M S T O FORM AN ATTIC AND STORE ROOM TO THE WORKSHOP. D M E D I C A L. BUT THIS WAS NEVER ACCOM P L.L.I NG OF W E A K N ESS IN H I S C H E ST. WEL.AT­ ING AND THE H E A RT STOPS. L A U G H OF A G L. E D I N FRONT O F H i S E Y E S A N D H E W E N T O F F I N H I S PANTS. I S H ED. E T T H E J E RRY TH E WAS PIER. "TH E P R E S E N C E OF H U M A N BODI E S W I L L DRAW THE POP L. I N TWENTY M I N UT E S T H E Y H A D S I X R OC K B A S S A N D S E V E N Y E LL. A T I O N THOUGHT TO R E S U L. REACHED U P AS FAR AS H E COULD O N THE LOOSE E N D OF T H E ROPE.A N N E D T O N A I L. A S S .

IT S M E L L E D LIKE H UM U S . QUICKLY STRI PPING OFF H I S BELT AND P I N I O N I N G T H E CREATUR E'S A R M S . A N D H E GAVE A LITTLE COOI NG GIGGLE THAT S E N T A SHIVER DOWN A U D R EY'S SPINE. "FISH FISH FISH. H E F E L T A S U D D E N R U S H OF B LOOD T O H I S CROTCH. "THEY'VE GOT H I M. A U DREY. TH E G R E E N COLOR SLOWLY S U B S I D E D. AND SHIT O N THE SAND. AUDREY COULD S M E LL IT AS H E MOVED FORWA RD. N EXT TAKE SHOWED THE TWO BOYS J A C K I NG OFF. SO THEY SWAM C LOSE TO SHORE AND THEN C A M E O U T A N D STOOD ON TH E SAND. H E S N I F FE D THROUGH TH E OPEN DOOR OF TH E KITCHEN. THEN H E C U R L E D U P IN H I S COR N E R A N D WENT TO S L E E P. R U N N I NG TH E WATE R OFF TH E I R BOD I E S A N D S H IVERI NG. THE FIGU RE S E E M E D A FT E R T H E Y H A D F I N I S H E D EATING. . " HE POI N T E D DOWN TO HIS TH E DOOR.FOR A W E E K NOTH I N G H A PP E N E D. BOD I E S CONTRACTED. TH EY CA R R I E D T H E POPLING S E V E R A L H U NDRED Y A R D S B A C K T O T H E HOUSE. WEBBED FEET TRA I L I N G I N TH E WATER. A N D THEN ONE AFTE RNOON A S J ER RY AND A UD R E Y WERE COM ING BACK FROM A WALK A R O U N D T H E EDGE OF TH E LA K E WITH TWO BLACK BASS A N D A WALL EYED PIKE A U D R E Y SUDDENLY STOPPED A N D PUT H I S H A N D IN FRONT OF J E R RY. H E KNEW IT WAS TH E R E BECA U S E TH R E E DAYS B E FORE." THEY STOOD THERE WITH TH E I R ARMS ST I L L AUDREY UNTIED THE C REATU R E 'S ARMS A N D SET HIM GENTLY ON H I S FE ET. . AROUND EACH OTH E R'S SHOULDE RS. WHO WAS A R O U N D E A C H OTH E R 'S S H O U L D E R S . PLATE OFF THE TABLE AND C A R R I E D IT I N TO A HE SQUATTED CORN E R OF TH E KITC H E N . G R I N N I NG. NOW T H E POPLI NG BEGAN TO STRUGGL E LIKE AN I M PATI ENT DOG AS H E WHI STLED O U T . AS THE S U N WARMED THEM TH E Y S T O O D W I TH TH E I R ARMS ACCENT S P R I N K L E D OVER IT. THE B R E EZE D I ED A N D TH E C REATU R E LAY TH E R E AS IF DEAD. WHERE LIEF HAD ALREADY LA I D OUT PLATES O F FRIED FISH WITH BISCU ITS AND RICE. AND TH E N THE B A N K FELL AWAY S H A R PLY I NTO DEEP WATER. 1 23 . A ND WAS EXACTLY THE COLOR O F TH E SAND. TH E POPLI NG LOOK E D UP AT HIM. THEY MOVED FORE W A R D CA UTIOUSLY AND PARTED THE BUSHES OVER THE I NLET A N D P E E R E D DOWN. THE PO P L I N G G R A B B E D A STI FFE N I NG P H A L LU S . H E AND ALMOST TRANSPARENT. A N D TH R E E G E E S E FLEW OVER. YOU COULD E A S I LY M I SS I T BECAUSE THE R E WERE BUSHES GROW I N G A RO U N D TH E BOULDERS THAT ALMOST CON C E A L E D T H E I N L ET. LOOKING DOWN A S TH EY EJACULATED A N D AUDREY THOUGHT OF A PICTURE H E H A D SEEN I N PARIS OF A LITTLE BOY PISSING I N TO T H E WATER . C A R L OPENED TH E DOOR AND TH EY C A R R I ED THE POPLING I NTO THE LIVING ROOM." LIEF CAME OUT OF TH E KITC H E N WHERE H E HAD "YEAH. THE W A T E R W A S S H A L LOW FOR A BOUT TWENTY LEAPED U P. AT FI RST THEY SAW NOTHI N G . I S U D D E N LY GOT HOT FOR SOM E REASON. J E R R Y G LA N C E D DOW N . A U D R EY H A N D E D H I M ANOTH E R NOW HE KNEW THAT WH ATEV E R HAD BEEN PLATE A N D H E ATE THAT TOO. WATCHING TH E M WAS TH E R E I N TH E I NLET. A N D A N YWAY T H E WATE R WAS M UCH TOO COLD TO STAY IN FOR MORE THAN A FEW M I N UTES. A N D T H E CREATU R E GOT AN E R ECTION AND EJACU­ LATED WITH A LOW WHISTLING SOU N D . A N D STA G N A N T W A T E R W I T H FEET. A U D R E Y STEPPED OVER TO THE POPLING A N D TOUCHED H I S SHOULD E R . STA LE F L OW E R S. TRYING TO MAKE AS LITTLE NOIS E A S POSSI B L E THE BOYS DROPPED DOWN ONTO THE SAND BETW E E N TH E POPL I N G A N D TH E WATER. HEADING NORTH. STI R R I N G SAND-COLORED PUBIC H A I RS. TH E N A U DR E Y MADE OUT A FIGURE LYI N G IN THE S A N D. A T TH IS MOMENT A B R E EZE R U STLED ACROSS THE LA K E BETW E E N THE C R E A T U R E'S LEGS." "YOU'RE GETTI NG A H A RD-ON. AS IF THEY WERE HAVING A P I C T U R E TA K E N . SOM EONE OR SOM ETH I N G WAS L OOK I NG AT HIM. "NE BUVEZ JAMAIS D'EAU" A S THE I R S E M E N SLASHED INTO THE WATER LIKE SALMON ROW. T H E CREATU R E WAS LOOKI N G AT AUDR EY. TU R N E D GREEN. W H E R E DOWN EATING THE FISH WITH D E LICATE VO RACITY. . . T H E C R E AT U R E JERRY HAD STOPPED H E R E FOR A S W I M . A N D WHEN H E SAW H I S WAY TO THE WATE R WAS CUT OFF H E GAVE A W H I STLING SIGH OF FEA R. H E K N E W THAT J U ST AHEAD WAS A LITTLE SANDY I NLET BETW E E N TWO BOULDERS. SOM E HOW A U D R E Y COULD N E V E R B R I N G H I M S E L F T O S W I M OUT I NTO T H E D E E P WATER. A U D R E Y BECA M E AWARE THAT CARRYING HIS LEGS. LOOK I N G ACROSS T H E LAKE. A S M E LL OF FRYING F I S H C A M E OUT WITH HIM A S H E OPENE D "ME TOO. LOO K . CRAMMING RICE A N D BISCUITS INTO HIS MOUTH WITH HIS HA NDS. I N A FEW SECONDS H E H A D P IC K E D TH E BON ES C L E A N . AND A U D R E Y REA LIZED THAT IT F E LT EXACTLY L I K E SOMEONE WAS TAKING A P I CTU R E . CARL BOLTED TH E DOOR ." BEEN PREPA R I NG THE EVEN I NG M E A L .

ITTL. L. TO WATC H .ooR A N D BEGAN CARESSING H I M . THE PO P L.W A Y S MANI­ FESTED B Y REO A N D F E A R B Y GREEN. THE P O P L. S HIT. HE IS AN USE TH E TOI L. THE PUBLIC AND RECTAL. WITH HUGE HOWEV E R . T H E WAY AND DIE.ooK AT ME WITH HIS ASS. E A S U R E IS A L. HIS A U DREY'S NOTE ON W H I STL. TODAY I WAS IN T H E WOR KSHOP A N D T H E PO P L. A BOVE A L. I K E A ROPE MARK A P P E A R E D.EA R N I NG HOW TO SEE WITH OUR STRIPPED OFF TH E I R SHORTS. AL. I K E SOFT P E N I S SURGED E R ECT L. WHEN H E SWIMS." C H ANGING COL.A I N E D TO M E THAT IT IS FATAL.L. A U D R EY AND J E R RY CARRIED HIM PRODUCES P H Y S I C A L." CL. U PSTA I RS TO T H E BE DROOM A N D L. F TRANSPA R E N T AND SHOW W E IGHT MORE 1 1 0 PO U N DS.Y L. P L. DROPPED THE BATH TOW E L ON TH E FL.L.ES BECOME E R ECT. I M P A CT. K I C K I NG H I S L. I K E SOME P I N K TRANSL. I N G C A M E I N . L. NORMA LLY H E I S A S I L. B U T HAS N O W L.ORS F A ST E R .ING TO BE FUCKED. MOST S I X F E ET. HE T U R N S G R E E N AND SH ITS.EAV I NG A S M OOT H S U T . A L. THE POPL.ES AND C H I RPS VI BRATE IN M Y BODY THE POPLl NG: PHYSICAL L.ATED. I F W E TRY TO F U C K H I M .U­ CENT FISH. R U N N I NG LIGHT F I N G E R S OVER H I S N I PPL. L.IAM B U R ROUGHS 1 24 . BUT SO S L. E FT A N D I EJACUL. FRENZIES A R E HE P E N I S A N D TESTICLES A R E R ETRACTED I NTO H I S BODY.ANGUAGE. I N E L.EXIBLE.oo K ED AT THE BEAMS AND MADE A L. NECK HIS V I SC E R A . I N G TU R N E D P U R PLE. A I D H I M DOWN ON T H E B E D WITH A BATH TOWEL UNDER HIS ASS. HIS HE CAN SEE WITH H I S WHOL. L.E TO E J A C U L.OR. A THIS M ET H O D OF P E R C E PT I O N L.OW J E R R Y O R ME TO FUCK H I M . D HIS NOT IS H E CAN MAKE H I M S E L.Y U N D E RWATER SPERM S M E L L H E DE FECATES F R O M S U D D E N FEA R O R PL. A L. J ER K E D H I S H E A D TO T H E L.E SOU N D T H A T V I BRATED I N M Y TH ROAT.ooK ­ AREAS D I F F E R E N T ACCOR D I N G TO WHICH A R E USED. L. HE SEEMS TO BE ABL. W H E N H E L.ES AND GENITAL.VER GRAY TRANSLUCENT COL.ES A N D N UTS AND ASS. P I N K-TH E COLORS H I S BODY SO T H A T AUD REY A C H E D TO BOD I ES. H I S HEAD COMES TO A POINT A N D IS QUITE H A I R LESS. F I N O OUT SOON ENOUGH.L. THROUGH S A L. FISH. H A S EXPL.L. W I L.OWL.EGS SPASMODICAL. C H A RACTE R I STICS: H E I S Q U I T E TA L L.ES.T U R N E D A SALMON P I N K COLOR A N D ROLLED OVER ON H I S BACK WITH HIS LEGS I N THE A I R A N D MADE A STRANGE POP P I N G SOU N D IN HIS TH ROAT. " H E WIL. "THAT YOU W I L. M Y N I PPL.OOKI N G AT M E W I T H M Y B A C K T U R N E D. N I PPL. AND BOYS OFF WITH H I M .E BODY A N D OFTEN TURNS AROUND AND B E N DS OVER TO L.ATE E ROTIC ANY N U M B E R OF T I M E S . I F H E I S L. WA S H I N G BODIES. A N D WE ARE SL. A N D T H E N H E L. I N G W R I T H E D BR IGHT REO AND E C S T A T I C A L.OR WITH HIS SKIN. H E L.EAR G R A Y S H I M M E R I NG E Y E S . THE ASS. M O N . H I S ACH I EV I N G FRENZIES THAT ARE P A I N F U L.E S H R I L..Y I N TH E AIR.E C H I R P I N G L. CARL. I C A N TEL. H A I RS.OR I N A S PL. OUT IS A N D THE L.OOK AT H I M .S ARE THE MOST S E N S I T I V E S E E I NG AREAS. THE AND OF COL. Y . A U DR E Y HE T U R N E D AND J E R RY J E R R Y A N D I A R E N A K E D MOST OF THE T I M E . U K E A TROPICAL. H A I RS C H A NGE COL.E N D E R THAN THAT HE C O U L. POP A L. FLASH I NG HE THAT CAME THROUGH IN A HIM FASTER W H I STL. HE HAS PU BIC AND R ECTAL. L.I N G WANTS TO BE SEEN WITH OTH E R BODIES AND TO SEE OTHE R ORANGE.EAS U R E .OOKE D AT M E W I T H H I S N E C K W H E R E A REO L.EA R N E D TO OTH E R TIM ES.IT S E C O N D TO M ATCH H I S S U R ROUNDI NGS. L.L.MOST MORE NOT S E R P E NTI N E AND FL.IKE SOM E SON A R L. F O R A POPL. WIL. HOWEVER. TWO ECSTASY BROUGHT THE GIGGL. EROGENOUS S P A R KS.ET A T "WHAT HAPPENS I F HE FUCKS M E 1" I N STANT C H A M E L E O N .OOKS A T M E WITH H I S N I PPL. H I S BODY G I V E S O F F A G R A Y GHOSTL. THESE AND MORE F R E Q U E NT.

THAT WAS THE ONLY REALITY ON MY SIDE OF THE COURT. W H E T H E R AS BOTH THE OR WORDS. FOR THOSE GENERALLY CONSIDERED INCAPABLE OF RECEIVING IT FROM THOSE UNWORTHY OF GIVING IT. I WOULD HAVE FELT CH EATED. IT HAD PREVIOUSLY ONLY HAPPENED WHEN I THERE BEEN ANOTHER RESULT. I STILL CANNOT DIGEST IT. HAD HAUNTED ME FOR MONTHS. MUCH AS THOSE MAY HAVE BEEN THE ONLY TERMS I N WHICH THEY COULD UNDERSTAND O R ORGANISE THE PROCEEDINGS--eUT THE ASSER110N OF LOVE: BUT MOST I MPORTANT WERE TWO OTHER THINGS. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? CAN ANYONE UNDERSTAND IT? MIGHT HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GIVE OTHERS IN THE PAST. FRIENDS. NO OTHER OUTCOME WAS POSSIBLE. THE IRRELEVENCE AND CRUDITY AND H UMAN FAILURE (WHICH WAS VAST) O F THE COURT ON FRIDAY MANAGED TO SIFT THE WHEAT FROM THE TARES. HAD STRUGGLED FOR OTHERS. YET IT WAS ALL SAID. EACH T I M E "I FEEL CALM AND ACCEPTING AND HAVE A CLARITY ABOUT WHAT I MUST 00 THAT I DIDN'T HAVE BEFORE. BE SELF-DECEPTION 1 25 . A HEARING FOR MISFITS: A I FELT THAT STRENGTH WHICH COMES FROM A COMMON PURPOSE. I HOPED IT REFLECTED WHAn PUBLIC GALLERY F I L LED WITH FOOLISH LOVE GLANCES LOVE IN STRUCK THE A I R. SECOND. THEY DEFIED DEREUCTION OF T H E PROSECUTION AND T H E LEGAUSM ON THE DEFENCE. AND BEING MISCONSTRUED. THERE WAS WHAT I FELT FOR LEE IN THE DARE I RISK O N E OBSERVATION (IT M A Y A L SO WHICH MAY S E E M BUT I COURT. I ONLY KNEW ONE STRANGE. I HAD DOUBTED IT WERE POSSIBLE-AS YOU KNOW. AND THAT OF COURSE IS WHY THE CASE IS BOUND TO G O ON. EXPRESSION AND M ISREADING OF SENTIMENT. THEY SURV IVED EVEN THAT MANGLING OF HOW COULD THE POLICE HAVE NOT BEEN AFFECTED? OR THE MAG I STRATES? IT WAS NOT PORNOGRAPHY AND RAPE AND I NDOCTRINATION WHICH PERVADED THE AI R. THE LOVE A N D U N D E RSTA N D I N G I FELT FROM MY THEREFORE IT WAS A COURT OF FOOLS. LOVERS OPPOSITE A COURT FILLED WITH LOVERS OF THE FOOLISH. FOR TH E FIRST T I M E I N THIS WHOLE BUSINESS. I WROTE TO A CLOSE FRIEND: THING AS I LOOKED AT H I M -THAT I LOVED H I M. NOW IT HAD HAPPENED WITH ME AS THE BENEFICIARY. M Y WORDS WERE OUT AND YOU WERE RIG HT.THE COM M ITTAL TWO DAYS AFTER THE COMMITTAL HEARING. FIRST. REMEMBER YOU SAID THAT I COULDN'T GET UP I N COURT AND DENY THAT 1 010 LOVE BOYS? THE FEAR OF THAT.

HE M UST SOLICITOR'S I SAW MARK AND DAREN TODAY BRIEFLY. SINCE NO LESS TlHAN SEVEN BOFORS POLICEMEN H A D TURNED THREAT. IT WAS THE ONLY TI ME THEY COULD GET OFF." FROM MYSELF-A N D TlHAT T H E WHOLE A FFA I R WOULD BE I N FORMAL I N MY LETTIER TO M Y F R I E N D AFTER THE COMMITTAL H E A R I NG I CONTI N U ED: WHOM H E SOUGHT SOME HUMAN FEELlNGJ SHE MIGHT TlHEN. HOW THEY K NOW TH INGS PEOPLE THREE OFFICER. THAT MAKES ANY SENSE OF SUCH WASTE AND STUPIDITY. AS THAT COURT SHOWED. STRUGGLING TO FIND WORDS. (CRUELLEST IRONY-THAT IT WAS ME. WHAT BETTER INDICATION IS THERE THAT THEY HAVE NO SCRUPLES I N PUTTING ENORMOUS PRESSURE ON KIDS. BUT BECAUSE SHE MIGHT TlHEN PRESSURE O N LEE. OF THE WAS FOL­ OF TlHEIR N U MBER RIGHT NEXT TO WHERE LEE WOULD TESTIFY. WHEN IN PRIVATE? BY THE APPEARANCE PROSECU­ TION'S FI RST WITN ESS. SINCE EV ERYTH I N G IF SHE HAD ONCE Irs ANY OVER BAD").J E A N . OUTLI N I NG M Y A R R E ST LOWED AND L E E'S I NT E R ROGATION. THE EXTENT TO WHICH HE IN FACT WITHDREW MUCH OF WHAT HE ORIGINALLY SAID. PROBATION PRESENT.THROW IT OUT IN ORDER TO HAVE I T TESTEDJ IT IS ONLY THE POLITICAL PROCESS. PERHAPS SHE NOW REALISES TlHAT TlHE POLICE ARE CAPABLE OF LYING IN TlH E SAM E WAY TlHAT I'VE MAINTAINED TlHROUGHOUT THEY LIED ABOUT ME. MADE HIS STATEM ENT. NOT SIM PLY BECAUSE OF TlH E SUPPORT HE NEEDED FROM HER. THEY TOLD AND HER EFFECTIVELY SHE HOODW I N K E D JAIL HER. SOLICITOR. HAD TO LEAVE THE COURT AS WELL THE POLICE H A D ASSURED HER TlHAT "ONLY TH E MAGISTRATE" WOULD BE IN COURT. EXCEPT A TRI U M PH O F FORM AND OF METHOD. NOW THAT THE STRUGGLE GOES ON. EXPECTED HOSTI LITY F R O M M Y FRIENDS OR M Y S E L F . BETRAYED. PRIDE-AT THEIR U N D E RSTANDING AND BREADTH OF VISION. A N D A VO I D ANY POSSI B I LITY OF POLICE I NTI M I DATION -MERELY BY TlHEIR PRESENCE. THE VERY PERSON AGAINST WHOM HE WAS "COMPLAINING. I AM FREE NOT TO TREMBLE. BUT TO FIGHT TlH I NGS. TlHEN WITH INDEED. IT IS ON M Y TERMS AS WELL. A B R I EF PROS E C U T I O N STA T E M E NT. AND IT WASN'T "SO BAD" AFTER 1 26 . ON THE OTH ER H A N D. AND POSITION ONE TlH E COMMITTAL PROC E E D I NGS LASTED A DAY. TO BE MY B A R R I ST E R ASKED BOTH TO FOR THE RELIEVE I WISH SHE COULD HAVE BEEN IN COURT WHEN LEE CLEARED. AT LAST. IF LETS US H U MAN REALITY AT ALL. I T IS ONLY THE ANALYSIS OF WHY SUCH PATHETIC H U MAN CONSTRUCTS DETE R M I N E DENY H U MAN REALITY WHICH DOES A L L. I CANNOT LOOK AT EITHER OF THEM WITHOUT FEELING GLADNESS AND­ YES. I T H I N K S H E W I L L HAVE BEEN REASSURED. LOVE ALONE IS EASILY DENIED BY THOSE WHO CANNOT U N DERSTAND U NCONDITIONAL LOVE. STUGGLING TO REMEMBER. CHOOSE. I TlHINK SHE WOULD ONLY L E E'S MOTHER• . (THAT'S "ISN'T TO SO SAY. HAVE SEEN AN ESSENTIAL TRUTH: THAT TlH E RE IS NO QUESTION OF LEE LYING. ON THE OTH ER RELI EF THAT LONG GONE PAST ('TWO YEARS NOW> AND ABOUT WHAT A SUCCESSION OF ADULTS HAVE WANTED OUT OF HIM. J" ORDER OF THE COURT TO QUIT IT. BUT HAVE FIVE C O U RT OR SIX AND REPORTER HEAVIES AND MYSELF WHOM ABOUT MIXED PAI NFUL FEELINGS. AT THAT C O U RT POI NT. THE POLICE WENT ALL THE WAY UP TO THE M I D LA N DS. LEE WOULD HAVE HAD TO TESTIFY NOT ONLY TWO M A G I STRATES. CLERK. S H E M U ST HAVE FELT H U M I LIATED A N D. TO AN EXTENT. BUT THERE IS A "J EAN M UST NOW BE FEELING HAND. I N ITS BROADEST SENSE. IF THEY WERE PREPARED TO FLOUT THE TI MES THEIR AGE HAVE N O I N K L I N G OFI (WHICH AGAI N IS WHY I AM I N COURT . NO T R I U M P H . THIS WAS NO MEAN HAVE UNDERSTOOD-lN A WAY COLD WRITTIEN WORDS COULDN'T PERSUADE HER-TlHE EXTENT TO WHICH LEE IS CONFUSED ABOUT TlHE ALLEGATION HE ORIGINALLY MADE. BESIDE HAVE HAD TO LOOK AT HIM. LEE H I M SELF. NOW SHE M UST REALISE THAT THE ASSURANCES ABOUT COURT THE PROCEDURE NOT WERE COMPLETELY WHO FALSE: IT IS THESE COURT THE MY POLICE DECIDE THIS I S THE ONLY WAY I CAN EXPLAIN THE INNER CALM NOW I FEEL. TESTIFIED. . HOWEVER. STRUGGLING TO LOOK AT M E-TIHE ONLY PERSON IN THAT GAUNT ROOM WHO COULD GIVE HIM THE LEAST SIGN OF RECOGNI­ TION. AND THE PAIN TlHE WHOLE TlHING CAUSED HIM. TlHE POLICE LIED TO JEAN AND THEY KNEW THEY WERE LYING WHEN THEY DID SO. VERY M UCH IN LEE TWO HAS QUESTION OF HIS CONFUSION ABOUT EVENTS IN THE MI NDS. BARRISTERS. U P AT COURT. IF BARRISTER HADN'T INSISTED. RISKED GOI NG TO IF LEE THAT MAKE SENSE? I F I HAD BEEN SET FREE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN ON THEIR T E R M S-TH E TERMS THEY D I D N 'T TURN U P IN COU RT-TH EN CERTA I N L Y S H E WAS HOODWI N K E D.

PROS: WHAT SORT OF THI NGS 0 1 0 YOU 00 TOGETH ER? LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER. HESITATIONS IN NEVER TH ESE INTONATIONS I N H I S R E FLECTED I N THE VOI C E -SO M E T H I N G "DEPOSITION" BECOME. THEY INSERTED IT I N BRACKETS AFTER "DICK. W H E N M EET ROGER MOODY? 0 1 0 YOU FI RST LEE: BIRM INGHAM. (WOULD LEE HAVE USED THE WORD "PENIS"7 1 THINK NOT. . SURELY H E WOULD SAY ." AND WOULD HE HAVE SAID "BACKSIDE"7 BACKSIDE IS A PECULIARLY ADULT TERM-"I'LL HIT YOU ON YOUR BACKSIDE IF YOU'RE NOT CAREFUL. YOU ARE TO GOING GIVE TO MAKE A SOLE M N PROM I S E THE RIGHT PROS: CAN YOU REMEMBER HOW YOU WENT TO LONOON? ANSWER. . LEE: NO. LEE: GO SWI M M I NG. PROS: FOR HOW LONG? LEE: ABOUT TH REE MONTHS. WATCHING LEE TESTIFY. 00 YOU K NOW LEE: YES. AND COM E TO VISIT YOU FROM T I M E TO TI ME." AND I F A BOY WERE TRYING TO BE POLITE IN ADULT COMPANY. PROS: 010 HE COM E TO LIVE WITH YOU AT YOUR HOUSE AT ALL? PROS: DURI NG THE DAY WHAT 0 1 0 YOU USED TO OO? LEE: YES. I N HIS ORIGINAL STATEM E N T TO THE POLICE. NOTED THE REPLI ES. MAGISTRATE: I T MEANS YOU PROMISE TO TELL TH E TRUTH.. I HEARD I T I N WORDS OUT O F T H E MOUTHS O F T H E POLICE. LEE DELIVERS THE OATH PROS: WHICH CITI ES 010 YOU GO THROUGH ? PROSECUTI O N : L E E .WHEN HE MADE THAT CLINCHING STATEMENT. WHAT TH E OATH MEANS? PROS: ON TH E FIRST OCCASION WERE YOU WITH A NYON E ELSE? LEE: I'M SUPPOSED T O T E L L THE TRUTH. PROS: WHERE 010 YOU GO WHEN IN LONOON? 00 YOU REMEMBER THE ADDR ESS. I WROTE DOWN AND ALL HIS THE Q U ESTI O N S I ALSO ADDRESSED T O H I M .BEHIND7.." "ASS" OR "BOTTOM. PROS: 010 YOU SEE H I M A LOT? LEE: YES. WHICH PROS: 0 1 0 YOU GO A N D STAY WITH H I M I N LONDON? STATE M EN TS TH E N WOMAN MAG ISTRATE: LEE. LEE: NO. 1 27 . LEE: YES. PROS: AFTER TH REE MONTHS 010 H E LEAVE AS I SAT IN THE DOCK ON JULY 2BTH. YOU M U ST PUT YOU R HANDS ON THE BI BLE--oN THE WORDS OF J ESUS. PROS: WH E R E 0 1 0 YOU LIVE? LEE: NO. I CAN'T REMEMBER. LEE: I CAN'T REMEMBER PROS: 00 YOU REMEMBER WHICH PART OF PROS: CLOSE? LONDON TH E HOUSE WAS I N ? LEE: ABOUT THI RTY M I LES AWAY." KIDS WILL ALMOST ALWAYS SAY "BUM. LEE: BY COACH. LEE: ABOUT FIVE YEARS AGO.

PROS: WHERE D I D YOU SLEEP? PROS: TELL U S WHAT HAPPEN ED.PROS: WHAT E LS E ? LEE: MATTRESSES. W E R E TH E MATTRESSES C LOSE? LEE: Y E S. L E E : SOMETI M E S I W E N T W I T H ROGER. A N D M Y BROTH E R S W E N T TO STAY WITH LEE: I DON'T THI N K SO. PROS: ON LATER N I GHTS DID A N YT H I N G H A PP E N ? PROS: WHAT T I M E O F THE YEA R? L E E (AFTER A LONG SILENCE): H E TRI E D T O GET CLOSE LEE: SUM M E R HOLIDAYS. PROS: DID I T HAVE BEDS IN IT? PROS: YOU EXPLA I N TO TH E LADY UP TH E R E (HE POINTS T O T H E MAGISTRATE). L E E : PANTS. PROS: WAS TH I S THE FI RST TI M E YOU WENT TO PROS: ON THE F I R ST N IGHT DID A N YTH I N G LONDON? HAPPEN? LEE: NO. WHAT DI D YOU U S E D TO WEAR? LEE: PANTS. MAGISTRATE: PROS: ON WHAT DI D YOU SLEEP? WE HAVE SOME I DEA OF WHAT H A P P E N ED. SOMETI M ES WE W E N T T O WH E R E T H E Y W E R E LIVING. LEE: S A M E ROOM AS ROGER. LEE: NO. THERE I S ANOTHER LONG SILENCE FROM LEE. PROS: LEE: WH E R E D I D YOU U S E D TO GO? PROS: S O M ETI M E S THEY CAME TO OUR PLACE. HOW LONG AGO WAS THI S ? LEE: I TH I N K T H R E E Y E A R S AGO. PROS: HOW OLD W E R E YOU? PROS: I N WHAT WAY? LEE: ABOUT N I N E. PROS: WHAT WERE TH E I R NAMES? PROS: WHAT D I D ROGE R U S E D TO WEAR? LEE: J I M M Y A N D STEVE. 1 28 . PROS: PROS: WHAT DID YOU DO A BOUT THAT? WHEN YOU DESC R I BED YOU R T R I P ON LEE: C A N'T R E M E M B E R YOU R OWN. T O DO? PROS: LEE: I WENT TO PLAY WITH THE OTH E R LADS. LEE: H E K I S S E D M E . PROS: WHEN DID YOU GO BEFORE ? PROS: A N YTH I N G ELSE? LEE: M E ROGER. SOM ETI M E S A TEESHI RT. PROS: WH E R E DID ROGER SLEEP? PROS: WHAT SORT OF THI NGS DID YOU U S E D LEE: N EXT TO ME. LEE: I C A N'T U N D E RSTA N D . W E WANT TO HEAR I T FROM YOU . TO M E.

MAGISTRATE: DO YOU K NOW WHY YOU' R E HERE TO GIVE EVI DENCE TODAY? PROS: WAS THERE ANY QUESTION OF PHOTOS BEING TAKEN? DEFENCE BARRISTER (IN AN ASIDE): THE POLICE OFFICERS TOLD H I M TO COME. PROS: WHAT ABOUT ROGER? PROS: I'D LIKE YOU TO LOOK AT TWO PHOTOS. WHO TOOK THESE PHOTOS? PROS: DID HE SUCC E E D AT ALL? LEE: ROGER. PROS: DID A N YT H I N G ELSE HAPPEN ON ANOTH E R NIGHT? PROS: DID YO U R R E S PECTI V E POSITIONS LEE: HE KISSED ME A N D THAT. YES. LEE: H E T R I E D TO COME O V E R T O M Y MATTRESS. LEE: HE WANTED TO . PROS: DID A N YTH I NG ELSE H A PPEN YOU CAN TELL US ABOUT? PROS: DID YOU AGREE TO THOSE TWO PHOTOS BEING TAKEN? 1 29 . LEE: YES. PROS: WHEN HE DID SO. DEFENSE BARRISTER (INTERVENING>: DON'T LEADI CLOSE WAS TH E WORD. PROS: DID HE GET IT I N ? PROS: WERE YOU SLEEPING ON ONE OF TH E MATTRESSES? LEE: NO. PROS: ANYTH I N G ELSE? PROS: WHAT SORT OF BOOKS? THERE IS ANOTHER LONG SILENCE LEE: SEX BOOKS. NOT TOGETHER. LEE: YES. PROS: DI D YOU SEE H I S PENIS? LEE: TH E MATTRESSES WERE RIGHT NEXT TO EACH OTHE R. LEE: ON THE OTH ER ONE. WHAT D I D YOU DO? PROS: WHERE WAS ROGER S LEEPI NG? LEE: I MOVED FURTHER AWAY. LEE: NOTH ING. LEE: YES. YES. THERE I S A LONG SILENCE PROS: DID YOU R EAD ANY BOOKS WHEN STAYI NG WITH ROGER? LEE: H E TRI ED TO PUT H I S ARMS A ROUND ME.PROS: HOW D I D YOU L I E IN BED? WERE TH E TWO MATTRESSES ALONGS I D E EACH OTH ER? THERE IS YET ANOTHER LONG SILENCE LEE: HE TRIED TO PUT HIS PENIS UP M Y BACKSIDE. STAY LIKE THAT? PROS: WHAT DOES "AND THAT' M EA N ? LEE: I STAYED THERE. PROS: WH E N ? PROS: CAN YOU R E M E M B E R ANYTH ING ELSE HAPPENING AT A LL? LEE: WHEN H E C A M E TO T H E M I D LANDS SOMETIME BEFORE I CAME TO LONDON. LEE: I CANT REMEMBER.

YOU KNOW YOU SAI D ROGE R TRI ED TO P U T H I S PENIS U P YOUR BACKSI DE? HE N EVER TOUCHED IT DID HE? LEE: I DONT KNOW. LEE: NO. DEF: IT COULD HAVE BEEN A H A N D AGAINST YOU COULDN'T IT? DEF: AND THE R E WAS ONLY ONE ROOM FOR YOU TO SLEEP IN WHEN YOU WERE WITH ROGER? LEE: YES. L E T M E OTH E R P H OTOS SHOW Y O U THESE NO­ [CLOTH ED]. 1 30 . LEE: YES. PROS: WHAT D I D YOU HAVE TO DRINK? LEE: YES. LEE: I D R A N K POMAGNE. Y O U SAI D N O . LEE: NO. LEE: WE WENT TO A PARTY. DEF: IT COULD J UST AS EAS I LY HAVE BEEN A H A N D AS A P E N I S COULDN'T IT? PROS: DID YOU GO OUT IN TH E EVENING AT A LL? LEE: YES. I CAN'T REMEMBER WHO ELSE. DEF: WHEN YOU SAY MON OTH ER OCCASIONS" HE T R I E D TO KISS YOU HE WAS DOING THAT RATH E R L I K E A FATH ER WASN'T H E ? PROS: HOW MUCH? LEE: HALF A BOTTLE. TH E R E'S DEF: YOU COULDN'T SEE HIM COU LD YOU? THI N G WRONG WITH THOSE IS THERE? LEE: NO. DO YOU REMEMBER IT WAS FOR TWO PEOPLE GOING OUT TO BANGLADESH? PROS: WHO WAS AT THE PARTY? LEE: ROGER. LEE: NO. I CANT B E SURE. LEE: NO. DEF: YOU'RE NOT SURE ABOUT IT ARE YOU? DEF: HE ASKED TO TAK E PHOTOS OF YOU A N D LEE: YES. DEF: TH E ROOM YOU SLEPT IN WITH ROGER. DEF: YOU CAN'T REALLY BE SURE CAN YOU? I SN'T THAT RIGHT LEE: THATS RIGHT. DEF: YOU R E M E M B E R THE PARTY TO WHICH YOU WENT. LEE: NO. YOU ALL SLEPT IN TH E SA M E ROOM DIDN'T YOU? LEE: YES. MY BARRISTER THEN ROSE TO CROSS-EXAMINE DEF: NOT IN A N Y OTH ER WAY? DEFENCE: LEE.LEE: NO. WHEN YOU R BROTHE R S CAME TO STAY. DEF: A N D W H E N HE C U DDLED YOU HE DID SO LIKE A FATH E R? LEE: YES. PROS: WE RE THERE ANY WOMEN THERE? DEF: YOU WENT WITH ROGE R OTH ER EVEN­ I NG S D I DN'T YO U ? TO TH E CINEMA FOR EXA M PLE. DEF: YOU TELL US. DEF: NOT IN ANY OTH ER WAY? LEE: I THOUGHT H E DID.

TAKE PICTUR ES-WE RE THEY L I K E THIS? (HE HOLDS U P THE SEMI-NUDE SHOTS) DEF: ROGER WAS REALLY LI K E A FATHER TO ALL OF YOU? PROS: NOT L I K E TH I S? (HE SHOTS) HOLDS UP THE CLOTHED LEE: YES. TOGETHE R DO TH EY? PROS: COULD YOU SEE HOW HE WAS FACI NG? LEE: NO. DEF: SO WHEN YOU C A M E TO STAY IN LONDON WITH ROGER I T WAS NATU RAL FOR YOU TO SLEEP IN THE SAM E ROOM A N D NOT IN A MAGISTRATE: WE WANT TO ASK YOU ONLY O N E QUESTION PENIS. DEF: THEY HAVEN'T DON E SO SI NCE YOU WERE A BABY IS THAT RIGHT? PROS: YOU SAY ROGE R KISSED YOU. DEF: DID IT HAVE ANY FURN ITURE WASN'T IT BARE? LEE: YES. PROS: WERE YOU LYI NG DOWN AT TH E T I M E? DEF: ROGER USED TO TREAT YOU VERY MUCH L I K E A SON D I DN'T HE? LEE: YES. "HERE THERE IS A TERRIBLE IRONY.LEE: NO. LEE_ YOU SAID ON YOU SAW HIS YOU BUT LATER YOU SAI D ROOM-A BARE ROOM-ON YOUR OWN? COULDN'T S E E IT. LEE: NO. WAS I T DA R K OR LIGHT? LEE: YES. LEE: DARK. O R AWAY? DEF: YO U R MUM AND DAD DON� U VE LEE: AWAY. LEE: NO. WHY 010 YOU SAY I T WAS A P E N I S? LEE: I T DIDNT FEEL LIKE A HAND OR ANYTHING. LEE: ON T H E CHEEK. I'VE LITTLE DOUBT 131 . DEF: AND WHEN ROGER WAS TOUCH I NG YOU. W H E R E ? LEE: NO. I THI N K. ANYTH I NG WRONG? I CONCLUDED THE LETTER TO MY FRIEND: LEE: I DONT KNOW WHETHER H E WAS TOUCH I NG ME LIKE A FATHER. THE PROSECUTOR RISES TO RE·EXAMINE DEF: HAVE YOU EVER STAYED AWAY FROM HOME ON YOU R OWN B E FORE W ITHOUT YOUR BROTHERS OR MOTHER? PROS: LEE. THEY HAVENT. HE WAS BEING W A S N 'T A F F ECTI O N A T E HE? HE W A S N 'T LIKE A FATH E R DOI N G MAG: W H E N D I D YOU SEE H I S PENIS TH E N ? LEE: I N TH E MORNING. DEF: IT WAS REALLY LIKE A FATH ER WASN'T IT? IN IT? LEE: I DONT KNOW. DEF: DO YOU SEE YOU R DAD VERY M UCH? PROS: YOU SAI D YOU DIDN'T WANT H I M TO LEE: NO. LEE: NO. PROS: WERE YOU FAC ING TOWA RDS ROG E R LEE: YES. THERE WAS A ROOM BESIDE IT.

1 32 . POLICE: DID YOU FEEL ANYTHING AGAINST POLICE: HOW DID HE CUDDLE YOU? YOU? LEE: HE PUT H I S A R M S A R O U N D ME. SEXUALITY OR POLICE: H E H A D HIS LEGS A G AINST YOU DIDN'T HE? SLIGHT NAUGHTI N E SS-IF THAT. LEE L I V ES IN A WORLD WHERE PRESSING MOCK ONESELF A G A I N S T A N O T H E R PERSON J UST P H YSICAL ANTICS IS IN A POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIS PENIS? LEE: I DON'T K N OW. DESPITE H I M S E LF. THEN YES-THEY WERE FATH ERLY KISSES. WHICH G U I LTY THE POLICE WAS I T THAT SPECIFIC LATC H E D THAT ON TO? DID FANTASY HE FEEL OF ABOUT IT-SO THE ONLY WAY LEE: YES. LEE: I TH I N K SO. AFTER ALL. AT ONE POI NT H E S A I D H E DIDN'T K N O W WHETHER T H E Y WERE "FATHERLY" KISSES. E L A B O RA T E D ON IT. LEE: CUDDLED ME SORT OF. ALLEVIATING T H E G U I L T W A S TO SAY I D I D IT T O H I M . NOT HAVING KNOWN WHAT IT WAS TO HAVE A REAL FATHER. POLICE: WAS HE FACING YOU? BOYS DO NOT KISS BOYS. LEE: H I S D I C K I SU PPOSE. PERHAPS H E ALSO FANTASISED M Y PENIS C O M I N G I NTO CONTACT WITH H I S BOTTO M : I KNOW OF ONE OCCAS I O N WHEN HE LEE: I DON'T KNOW. HE WOULD HAVE BEEN TAKEN U N AWARES AND. I K N OW. A N D THOUGH M E N KISS BOYS (A N D BOYS MEN) I T IS ONLY WITHIN THE FAM I LY. POLICE: WHAT DID HE OO? LEE: YES. K I DS LEARN FROM FILMS THAT IT SIGNIFIES THE START OF SERIOUS LOVE-MAKING. LEE: I CAN'T R E M E M B E R. LEE: YES. EXA M I NATION AT T H E C O M M I TTAL. POLICE: HE WOULD FACE YOU TO KISS YOU WOULDN'T HE? CERTA I N LY D I D SO. I CAN IMAGINE THE POLICE: BUT PERHAPS HE DIDN'T KISS YOU SOME OF THE TIME7 POLICE: 50 HE HELD YOU IN A DIFFERENT WAY? POLICE: WHEN YOU WERE SLEEPING NEXT TO EACH OTHER. DID HE TRY TO COME OVER TO YOUR SIDE OF THE BED? POLICE: HOW? PERHAPS HE WAS BEHIND YOU BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T WANT HIM TO KISS YOU? LEE: YES ONCE OR TWICE. PROCESS: LEE: YES. POLICE: WAS HE NAKED AT THE TIME? POLICE: PENIS. H I S CONFUSIONS ABOUT WHAT THESE KI SSES MEANT CAME OVER POI G N A N T LY IN THE C ROSS­ LEE: YES. AT ANOTH E R POINT.THAT WHAT LEE FEELS I DID WRONG TO H I M WAS TO POLICE: DID YOU FEEL HIM AGAINST YOU? KISS H I M . THAT. LEE: K I SSED ME AND THAT. YOU FELT HIM AGAINST YOU I EXPECT? POLICE: AND THAT? LEE: YES. WHAT DOES IT SIGNIFY? WHAT H A R M COMES OUT OF IT? KISSING HOWEVER HAS DIFFERENT I M PLICATIONS AND THEY ARE M U C H MORE CONFUSING. POLICE: AND WHEN HE WAS BEHIND YOU. RATH ER THAN THAT H E WANTED "TO KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE"? OR WAS IT S I M PL Y THAT THE WHOLE THING WAS SO I NCI DENTAL I N THE FI RST PLACE THAT UNTI L THE POLICE POUNCED ON I T A N D M A D E IT THE KEY THING H E D I D N 'T KNOW IT HAD A N Y SIG N I FICANCE? I N W H I C H CASE. THAT LEE WANTED M E TO KISS H I M .

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BECAUSE HE IS A VICTIM O F T H E PROCESS. UNTIL I ACTUALLY SAW LEE OVER THE COURTROOM ON FRIDAY. . LIKE PAUL HE HAD BEEN SHAKEN. IF HE WAS HOLDING YOU IN HIS "I NOW OFTEN SEE LEE IN MY INNER EYE AS HE WAS ON FRIDAY. TURED) THAT THE LOOKS WE SHARED WERE THE MOST I M PORTANT THING. . SURE? AWARENESS COULD HAVE GONE ON . I FEEL THE TENDERNESS I FELT THEN AND RECALL (PERHAPS SURPRISINGLY. WHILE HE LEE: I DON'T KNOW. BECA USE PROCESS. WAS COMPELLED TO STAND AGAINST ME: POLICE: A R MS WELL. BEYOND HAD IGNORANCE ABOUT WHAT LAY WAY TO H I S OWN PENIS AGAINST B E G U N TO G I V E BOTTOM? KNOWLEDGE: LACK OF DEFINITION HAD BEGUN TO GIVE WAY TO HIS SELF DISCOVERY. EVERYONE AROUND HIM ANOTHER TRUTH. WHILE HE POLICE: ROG E R SO PUT ARE HIS YOU SAYING LEE THAT YOUR HAD BEEN WITH ME.! IT IS TRUE THAT. HE WASN'T SURE HOW IT LEE: YES. (AS FREIRE SHOWED IN BRAZIL. I HAD SEEN HIM TWICE SINCE THEN: T H E GROWING POLICE: LEE: YES. POLICE: BEEN? SO WHERE WOULD HIS PENIS HAVE BUT WASN'T DEFEATED." FEARS-OR CANNOT SEE­ ROGER MOODY 1 34 . HAD BEEN AND WHAT HE WANTED.POLICE: YOU FELT HIS PENIS AGAINST YOU? FINALLY I WROTE THE FOLLOWI N G . AFTER ALL. HAS BEEN TOLD IN THE POLICE: OKAY. DID HE GET IT IN? I N DICATION THAT DESPERATELY FEARED T H E TENSIONS THAT HAD BEEN CREATED." BUT HE RECOVERED. WOULD WORK OUT. THATS ALL FOR NOW. AND HIS ILLNESS WHEN HE ARRIVED HOME AFTER TH E '76 HE H OL I D AY WAS THE BEST POLICE: LEE: NO. THE CORE OF HIS TRUTH WAS THAT I HAD BEEN WITH H I M LIKE A FATHER: IT WAS HOW I LEE: AGA INST MY BOTTOM. AND I PAUL. MOST DEVASTAnNG FASHION THAT THE AREAS INTO WHICH HE WAS MOVING WERE ABSOLUTE TABOO. YET I AM NOT HIS FATHER-BEYOND THAT. HE KNOWS THAT THIS IS NOT THE TRUTH-HENCE HE SEARCHES M Y FACE I N COURT TO DISCOVER THAT I REALLY AM WHO I WAS WHEN WE LAST MET. BUT IT IS THE ONLY "TRUTH" HE CAN E X PRESS. A AN ADULT WHO ENCOURAGES HIM IN HIS JOURNEY CONFI RMATION. AN ACCUSAnON. T R Y I N G TO WHERE AGAINST YOU? CONVEY SOMETHING OF WHAT I FELT WHEN I WAS FORCED TO SIT OPPOSITE LEE IN COURT. THE GESTURE BECOMES AN ACT. FOR A PERIOD HE COULD NOT SEE HOW TO RESOLVE BETWEEN THE "IS" AND THE "COULD BE. LI KE I HAD PARTIALLY WHICH HELPED HIM TO ACQUIRE. LEE CANNOT SEE THE WICKED AND ESSENTIALLY FA LSE LOG IC IN THE TOWARDS SELF-KNOWLEDGE WILL BE PENALISED BY OPPROBRI U M AT BEST AND INCARCERAnON AT WORST. NOW H E HAD BEEN PENALISED FOR ATTEMPTING TO GROW BEYOND THE CONFUSION. HE HAD STRENGTH REALISED THAT. BUT MAYBE THIS IS WHERE THE H U MAN TRI U M PHS OVER THE MAN UFAC· I E X PECT YOU WERE IN HIS LAP WEREN'T YOU? LEE: YES. HE DID NOT KNOW. I DIDN'T SEE THAT THIS WAS PROBABLY HOW THE WHOLE THING HAD BEEN. THAT AND SO. VICTIMS ALWAYS REMAIN VICTIMS UNnL THEY REALISE THE TRUE MEANING OF THE WORDS: THAT WORDS ARE NOT N EUTRAL BUT TOOLS TO BE USED FOR OR AGAINST OTHER H U MAN BEINGS.

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I . TH E A U TH O R HAD N E V E R B E FO R E K E PT W RONG WAY TO TALK? P E R H A PS. I W E N T TO LA U R E'S GRAVE: A S SOON A S I L E FT T H E H O U S E . BUT FAC E D WITH TH E W R ITTEN RATH E R . THIS IN FACT. B UT C A N� WE ONCE AND FOR ALL FU LLY EXPRESSIVE O F H I M S E LF. THE LAUGHTER OF A M A N WHO FORC E D H I M SE L F TO OF LIVE SH UT. ONE. J P E R S PECTI V E FAVORA B L E DEATH.THE CULPRIT IS GOD M E RELY A MAN FO R WHOM IS DEATH. I T I S VIOLE NTLY DOMI NATED BY D E ATH. J UST ONE WAY TO LAUGH. A N D I N T H E E N D . S E PT E M B E R 1 4. T H I N K I NG A BOUT DEATH. MORE ACC U RATELY. H E H A D ONLY TO R E MOVE THOSE PA SSAGES CONC E R N I N G T H E TH I R D PERSON: IN P A R T I C U LA R . I MEAN THAT SPEECH W I T H OU T T R A PS WHICH CONC E R N I NG DEATH. I T WAS SO B L A C K THAT I 'DEC LA RAT10N O F W A R . A MOST I NTENSE. A N D I W O N D E R E D IF I WOULD EVER F I N D MY WAY A LONG TH E ROAD. . B R O U G H T H I M BACK I M M EDIATELY. A DIARY. THAT THE AUTHOR IS WAS STRUCK BY T H E FACT THE C U LPRIT DOM I NATED BY TEARS A N D DEATH AT T H E S A M E TI M E THAT IT I S DOM I N ATED B Y TH E R E P R E SENTATION O F GOD. A N D OFTE N. J U ST OR "JOU R N A L" W H I C H H E K E PT DESPITE H I M S E L F FROM THE D A Y W A R BROKE OUT. FORTY-TWO YEARS OLD AT T H I S POI NT. BUT W I T H D I FFICULTY. I T I S I N D EPENDENT O F T H E A UT H O R ' S T O G ET H E R LIFE. THIS STORY I S VIOLE NTLY DOM I N A T E D BY TEARS.U P HE DID WITHIN THIS THE TODAY. H E SOON R E A LIZED THAT H E H A D NEVER WRITTEN A N YTH I NG SO M UC H A PART O F HIM AND SO P E R H A PS. T H I S N A R RATIVE I S A BU RST O F C U N N I NG A N D T H U S L I V E LY LAUGHTER. H E FAILED. I NOTI C E D HOW DARK THE NIGHT WAS. T O W H I C H DO E SN'T FLEE I N T H E FACE O F THE TOTA LITY O F ITS OWN CONSEQ U E N C ES. UNDER GREAT C I RC U M STA N C E S. . L E I R I S R E F E R S I N LA REGLE D U J E U . F O R L I F E . L A U R E'S THOSE PASSAGES MICHEL R ECONC I L E LAUGHTER A N D SPEECH? BY SPEECH. 1 9 3 9 THIS NA RRATIVE EVOLVED OUT OF THE 1 939 YESTE R DAY. THE AUTHOR PUT STORY FROM PI ECES O F T H E 1 36 . PRODIGIOUS PASTI ME? PAGES. MOST H E A R T R E N D I N G L I F E .

PORTRAIT OF C I N DERS A N D FLA M ES THAT A N D R E MASSON PAINTED AFTER WE D E SC R I B E D THE WHAT I FELT YESTERDAY WAS NO MORE B U R N I NG . TEARS. SOFTNESS GRIPPED ME TERRIBLE EVERYTH I N G TH E N H A D B E E N J U ST AS D A R K AND CHARGED WITH CUNNING TERROR TH E N I G H T LA U R E A N D I CLIMBED T H E F A C E OF ETNA. I COU L D A L SO BUT MAKE OUT TWO GLOWING LINES OF VERSE. T R O U B L E D BY A M E MORY S O FULL OF NOCTU RNAL TE R ROR. O F T H E PE RSON I A M N O W AS I WRITE T H I S. ALREADY CESSIBLE SHATTE R E D TO REAL GLORY INAC­ SURFE IT. I FELT D E L I RIOUS. ON E'S B E I NG BURNS WITH THE D E S I R E TO BECOME P U R E B E I NG TH ROUGH AND THROUGHOUT AS THE N I GHT. S O R ROW.FELT MY THROAT TIGHTEN: I COU LDN'T T H I N K OF SORROW THAT I H E LD MYSELF IN MY OWN A R MS ANYTH I N G ELSE. TH E C R O S S E S A N D THE TOM BSTON ES. WITHOUT KNOWING WHY: AT THIS VERY MOM E N T. THE D I M E N SIONS O F A EAGER TO EXC E E D T H E LIM ITS O F ALL THI NGS: A N D YET. WE BECAUSE I K N E W I W O U L D LOSE H E R AGA I N . STA R L I G H T N I G H TS. BUT AT T H E SAME TIME. I WOULD LOOK AT H E R WITHOUT H E R KNOWING IT. FOR YESTERDAY. SO F U LL O F S U BTE R R A N E A N NOCTU R N A L GLORY. U N A C H I E V A B L E H A P P I N E SS. I FELT THAT IF SHE A P P E A R E D TO ME. IT B U R N S EVEN SCE N E T O H I M W A S N E A R LAURE W H E N S H E D I E D: I T IS STI L L IN MY R OOM. A FTER WE H A D E N T E R E D A N I N F E R N A LLY HOT AREA. L A U R E'S GRAVE WAS COM PLETELY COV E R E D BY V EGETATION A ND. I WAS SURE OF O N L Y ONE T H I N G: THE FINA LLY REACHED TH E E DG E OF THE I M M E N S E AND BOTTOMLESS CRATER. R ESTRICTED BY MY C U M BERSOME N E EDS. WE COULDN'T IMAGINE A SPOT WHERE THE T E R R I B L E I N STA B I LITY OF THI NGS WAS MORE E V I D E N T. BUT WHAT C O U L D BE M O R E GRA N D THAN T H E BREACH THROUGH WHICH TWO B E I NGS MIGHT RECOGNIZE EACH OTH E R WITHOUT SUCCU M B I NG TO THE VULGARITY A N D THE PLATITUDES OF I N F I N ITY? (HE WHO AT LEAST LOVES BEYOND TH E GRAVE. I FELT AS IF IT H A D SOM E HOW SPLIT IN TWO A N D WAS STRANG L I N G AROUND MY HER. I WOULD SCREAM. I CONTI N U E D MY C L I M B U P THE H I L L TOWA RDS H E R G R A V E . I WAS SO OVERCO M E WITH PA I N AND H EA RT? DESTI N Y APPROAC H I NG I N THE DARKN ESS N E X T T O M E . E V E N H A D TH E Y B E E N M O R E COMPLETE LY S E V E R E D BY H E R. I W A S U N B E A R A BLY A S H A M E D OF W H A T I W O U L D BECO M E . I WAS AFRA I D O F H E R. SHE WOULD WALK S I L E NTLY AT MY S I DE. W E WERE E X H A U ST E D AND I N A WAY TA K E N ABACK B Y T H E OVERLY STRANGE.ECSTACY THAT NORMAL­ LY OVERCOMES ME AS I FOLLOW THE S A M E PATH. N O 1 37 . BODY MY AND HANDS I F E LT BECAME AS IF I LOST WERE TO U C H I N G H E R . JUST LIKE W H E N W E WERE CLOSE B E FORE: J U ST LIKE WH E N T H E OBSTACLES SEPARATING TWO PEOPLE DISAPPEAR. N E A R THE M I DDLE OF THE WAY. FLOWING STREAMS? IN THE FOREST AT NIGHTFA LL. H O W M A N Y TI M E S WHEN WE WERE T OG E T H E R DID WE ACH I E V E EXTR E M E DARKN ESS. STA N D I N G IN FRONT OF H E R GRAVE. S H I V E R I N G IN T H E COLD. THIS BREAD LINGERS AND AS THE M E MORY AS OF A MEN. OR E V E N WORSE. WAS THE O N LY A BSOLUTELY MOST U N FATHOMABLE I WATCHED MY MOVE­ BLACK STRETCH OF GROU N D. NO MATTER HOW VAG U E O R I M PE R SONAL. AN H E ALSO ESCAPES THE VULGARITY O F DAILY L I F E BUT NEVER T H E TOO-T E N UOUS T I E S T O L A U R E . LAU R E WAS G R I PPED B Y SUCH EXTR E M E A N G U I S H T H A T SHE I N SA N E LY A N D BLI N DLY BEGAN TO RUN. AFTER A LONG W H I LE. F E V E R A N D F I N A LLY DEATH: THESE A R E T H E DAILY B R E A D T H A T LA U R E SHARED W I T H M E . TER R I F I E D. A P E RC E I V I NG H E R F R AG R A N C E . I BEGAN TO TREMBLE A N D TO ASK H E R PA RDON. I R E M E M B E RED THE A SC E N T UP ETNA AND I WAS DU MBFOUNDED. ACC ESSIBLE O N LY TO SHADOWS. ALL O F A SUDDEN. MADN ESS. I W E PT BITTERLY. THAT STARY VOI D T H A T W E B R E AT H E D IN. BRIGHTER LOVE SHOWS ITSELF CAPABLE O F CRUMBLING THE P R I SON WALLS AROU ND EACH O F U S . WE COULD STILL F E E L THE FA R-AWAY PRESENCE OTH E R OF THE VOLCANO'S CRATER AT T H E E N D OF T H E L O N G V A L L E Y OF L A V A . NO MORE T R U E OR FULL OF M E A N I NG CONC E R N I N G T H E DESTI NY OF E V E R Y B E I N G T H A N ANY OTH E R EXPE R I E N C E OF T H E U N I NTELLIGIBLE. WHAT WE HAD ALREADY PA I D FOR TH E SELF. I N THE M IDDLE OF OUR DESCENT. FOR SOM E REASON. WAS I EVER MORE CERTA I N OF WHAT LIFE RESPONSE TO T H E M ENTS OF THE BRINGS TO U S IN THEY E M E RGED FROM TH E D A R K N ESS A S FAI NTLY PALE FORMS. SUDDEN LY. H O R ROR. IT WAS H E A RT­ PERCEPTION OF THOSE LOST T O US W H O H A V E R E N D I N G TO LEA N OVE R THAT G A P I N G C R EVICE. BY T H E TI M E I R EACH E D THE C E M ETERY. TO THE OLD MOU NT ETNA OV E R F LOWED WITH M E A N I NG FOR US: WE H A D GIVEN U P A T R I P TO GREECE TO MAKE THE CLIMB. TH E BROKEN T H E I R ATTAC H M E NTS T O THE CUSTO M A R Y CON F I N E S OF ACTI VITY IS I N NO W A Y LIM ITED. AT DAWN. DESPITE THE DREADFU L I M MENSE LOVE SORROW. I WAS A B L E TO MAKE OUT THE GRAVES. THE TERROR AND DESOLATION THAT WE HAD ENCOUNTE R E D B E W I L D E R E D H E R . MORE AND MORE LOST. OV E R LY DI SASTROUS SOLITUDE. SO I FOU N D I T I M POSSI BLE TO GO INTO THE STATE OF N E A R . TH EN. NOT KNOWING W H AT TO DO CROSSI N G HAD TO BE R E F U N DED. W H E N I REA LIZED THAT I WOULD SOON COME BACK TO M YSELF.

. . SO M A N Y C U RSES. THE C ROW A N D THE DESERT . . S P R I NGS U P A L L O F A S U D D E N " L I K E A ROBBER I N T H E N I GHT' A N D SPREADS A C H I LL I N G E M B R A C E A S D E E P A N D A I R Y A S A N IGHT W I N D. S U R RO U N D E D BY G R A N D OLD TREES. I BEGAN TO TAKE . BUT THIS MORNING. THESE TH I NGS O F W H I C H I F E E L I T N ECESSARY TO I NC LUDE T H I S PASSAGE FROM L A U R E'S LETTER TO J EAN G R E M I LLON OF CONF U S I NG M Y S E LF WITH TH E I M M E N S E SOR ROW OF A FRACTU R E D WORLD. T H E O N L Y HOUSE TO A FFORD L A U R E SOM E REST BEFORE SHE DI ED. S E N S U A LITY. I [ . AFTER OU R " G EORGES A N D I C L I M B E D ETNA. (TWENTY. E M PTY. . A N D THE P L A N T S I N T H E W I N DOW H ARDLY S U D D E N PA N I C A N D S U FF E R I N G AS W E LL AS THAT NIGHT OF PA I N FU L AND SOR ROWFUL C R I E S W H E N 1 38 . BUT IN ORDER TO ACT.F I V E Y E A R S HIM TO FATE D U R I NG TH E T H I S IS NOT A F E E L I N G THAT I ALO N E EXPERI ENCE. ABA N DON PERVERSIONS. SO H A RD-HARD E NOUGH TO B R EAK MY JAWS:' I COPI E D THESE SENTENCES DOWN BUT I DON'T THIS PRESENCE. . 1 9 39 GIVEN ANY LESS OF MYSEL� BUT AS SHE A PPROA C H E D THE T E R R I BL E E N D . THE FINAL DEPARTURE. THE NOR CAN EXPRESS J U ST HOW B E A UTIFUL SHE WAS. BUT THERE WERE N O C LOUDS. SO M U C H LOUS DARKN ESS. I N T H I S ROOM THAT I M U ST SOON LEAVE. BY THE CROWD'S SOR D I D RAGE. . HE STA Y E D B E H I N D I N R H E I MS. . TH E R I G H T TO GIVE AS MUCH ATTE N UATED BY A LU M I NO U S HAZE A N D SOON. OF C H AOS A N D OF D E A T H . I FLED MY FATH ER. A L L THE M A JESTY OF R E C E D I NG MY LIFE. THIS MOR N I NG I M A N A G E D TO ESCAPE IT SOMEHOW. HER I M P E R FECT BEA UTY WAS THE FLU I D I M AGE OF A N A R DE NT AND U NC E RTA I N DESTINY. P E R H A P S M O S T D U R I N G H E R F I T S O F A N G E R S E PTEMBER 1 9. I OFTEN FACED HER IN TERRO R . I A B A N DO N E D G E R M A N I NVASION. BECA USE I S I M PLY CAN'T U N LE S S I SET OUT TO A C H I EVE THE B A R E LY AC H I EVA B L E. SO IT IS E A S I E R FOR ME J U ST TO GRIT MY TEETH . FOR FOUR DAYS NOW IT H A S BEEN GETTING WORSE. . M I RACU­ A SUN S I M I LA R NIGHTS I S EQUA LLY I NDESCRIBA BLE. BUT I CAN'T WI THOUT A GREAT DEAL OF U N EASI NESS. ' ] . J T H E N A T U R A L CONDITION OF S I M PLI C I TY IS ACTION. HE WAS B LI N D AND PARALYZED AND HE CATACLYSM H A S B E E N G ROWI NG NOW FOR OVER A MONTH . E X P R E S S HOW MUCH I I WAS MOVED. I . . . ALTHOUGH I WAS BY H E R S I D E U NTIL T H E V E R Y E N D. TH E SECRET T R A N S P A R E N C E OF T H E LIGHT. T H I S HOUSE. . H E R E W H E R E E V E R YTH I NG WA S ACCO M ­ OF T H E A PPARENT CONTRADICTIONS. 1 9 39 A N D H ATRED F O R ME. A BRIEF R E SPITE. H E R GRAVE. . M E A N I NG TO HIS LOVE A S H E WOULD TO ALMOST A N YTH I NG E LSE. A S SOFT A S A N A X E F LA S H I N G I N THE N IGHT. T H E SKY WAS SLIG HTLY H AZY. I COULD N EVER H A V E S E PTE M B E R 20. THE R E S E M B LE N C E G R E W THROUG HOUT HER LONG HER PE RIOD OF S U FF E R I N G W H I L E FEVER W O R E DO W N . I DON'T EVEN LOOK AT T H E M A N Y MORE.I K NOW ANYMORE IF T H E R E IS ANY TRUTH TO THEM. H A LF CRAZED. I LOVE WHO I A M SO M U C H I BUT I'VE R E MA I N ED FAITHFUL T O DEATH (LIKE A S E PTEM B E R (OR OCTOB E R ) OF RETURN FROM ITALY: 1 9 3 7 . IT WAS T E R R I FY I NG. MY I FORT U I TOU S WILL I AM NEVER M A DE . THIS MORN I NG I FOU N D M Y SELF IN AN ANGELIC • . I F A I T H F U L LOV E R) [ . B Y M I S E R Y C R I NG I NG B E F O R E FATE. ONE MUST FOLLOW A C R U E L I M PERATIVE TO IGNORE A LL H A R MONY WITH R E A LITY THAT WAS THE MOST T H I S MORNI NG. I TRI E D TO FLEE WHAT I S A W TH E R E . CONTIN U A LLY E XP E R I E NC E D G R E A T P A I N . ) I FLED LA U R E . A N E RVOU S N E S S THAT CAN O N LY LEA D TO A AGO. HOW CAN I POS S I B LY ACT I F THE I M PERATIVES WHICH CONTROL ME ARE LA U R E'S PLISHED. . A L L OF T H E S H UTTERS W E R E W I DE OPEN. SOM ETI M E S I JUST WASN'T T H E R E . ( I FLED HER IN A MORAL SENSE. THE FLA S H I N G TRANSPARENCE OF N E A RBY FOREST. I WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO YOU A BOUT IT. AND I HAVE TH E STRENGTH TO DO THIS ON LY R A RELY.I A T LEAST H E W H O LOVES B E Y O N D TH E GRA VE H A S THE R I G HT TO FREE T H E LOVE WITH I N H I MSELF FROM ITS H U MAN CON F I N ES. A TTE N D E D BY T H E M A I D. A WOR L D FRACTU R E D BY ILL TEMPER. SOMETI M E S I DRANK. R E F U G E IN A SICKLY TORPOR. BUT I M UST M A K E A CONCENTRATED EFFORT TO LEAVE COMPARE E V E R YTH I NG I DO TO TH I S M E MORY. . BUT NOW I S E N S E A N E W N E RVOUS CONDITION.WORDS COULD E V E R AWARE OF HER. LA U R E'S P R E S ENCE. I WAS EQUALLY TERRIFIED B EC A U S E LA U R E'S FACE VAG U ELY R E S E M B L E D T H E HORRI B LY TRAGIC FACE OF THAT MAN O E D I P U S . IT D E M A N D S THAT I LEAVE JUST AS FORC I B LY . WH I LE I FLED WITH M Y MOTH ER.

B R I E F LY. I CA M E ACROSS A S H E ET OF PAPER. T H E IS NOTH I N G MORE T H A N A PRIVILEGED S E PTEMBER 30. I WAS SO OVERCO M E [CROSSED OUT: I WROTE IT LAST YEA R. FOR FOU R DAYS. SHE NO LONGER SAW ME NOR R ECOGNIZED MY PRESENCE. TALKING TO THI S OR TH AT PE RSON ACCOR D I N G TO SOME U N P R E D ICTA B L E C I R C U M STANCES S U RROUN . I I M M E DI ATELY REALIZED THAT HER S H O U L DN'T WORD. I H A D COME T O TH E P A S S A G E I N T H E A RTICLE WHERE I WAS DESCR I B I NG T H E I D ENTITY OF THE WHICH WE ARE I A LW A Y S S E E K I N G AS SOMETI MES. THE D EMONSTRATI VE SOM E OF SIDE OF THE TEXT D I D IT WAS REACH DO WITH THE I NTENTION OF COM I N G BACK TO T H E M . BUT SHE DID NOT RESPOND. AT TIM ES. BELIEVE THE REMAINING IGNORANCE A N D U N C E RTAINTY DOESNT MATTER. IS B U R N I N G E X I S­ MOST P E R H A PS T H E PRODUCT OF H U M A N INTERACTION. AT LEAST TO MYSE LF. FROM I NVADING T H E HOUSE A N D H E R DO I T WITH DUTHU I T. S H E G R E W TENSE O N LY TO QUICKLY R E LA P S E N OT H I N G . THAT THIS WAS HOW SHE WOULD DIE I N A FEW HOURS. ITS "CO M M U N ICATION" I S NO MORE C L U M S I LY DISTANCED OR U N EASY THAN I N MOST OF WHAT I HAVE P U B L I S H E D S I NCE. D U R I NG THE A FTER NOON O F NOV E M B E R 2. I U N D E R STOOD THAT IT W A S A L L OVE R . OCTOB E R I. WE C A N NOT POSSI B LY L I M I T HOPE NOW. A CONVULSI V E MOMENT FULL OF W H A T I S NOR M A L LY SMOTH E R ED. AS I DREW N E A R WHO C A N BE SAVED ONLY BY A BOLT OF LIGHT­ N I NG-WA IT FOR THA N SACRED. LONGER I BROKE OUT M E. BUT I COULD BARELY MANAGE ANOTHE R TWO S E NTENCES. I TRIED TO CONTI N U E WRITI NG. INTO TEA RS: THE PITILESS SHE NO EXPRESSES. SHE U N D E R STOOD HER PHRASES ARTICLE. I N ADDITION. ALTHOUGH T H E P I E C E I S FAR BEH I N D ME NOW. M EA N I N G OF T H E S E LAST FEW L I N ES: "IDENTIFICA­ TION WITH LOVE. IT IS ONLY BECAUSE THEY U N ITE SOME OTHE R THI NGS WHICH WERE PREVIOUSLY SEARCH­ I NG FOR EACH OTH E R. WHEN CONDITION H A D WORS E N ED. I N TO L E T H A RGY. I SHOULD ALSO MENTION ONE E S S E N TI A L D E TA I L • • ABOUT THE SHE SUFFERED FOR FO UR DAYS. TH E PUBLICATION I N A W I D E R A N G E O F P E RIODICALS. LATER I N THE A RTICLE. I H A D THE "CH RISTIANITY HAS SUBSTANTIALIZED T H E SACRED. U N D E R STOOD WORLD COLLAPSED ALL A ROUND ME. M A N U S C R I PTS B E FO R E I CONTI N U E D THOSE I FOR WHOM THAT R E A LLY I REMEMBERED LOOKING U P AT TH I S MOMENT A N D SEEING A TH I N RAY OF I N C R E D I B LY BEAUTI FU L INTENDED. A BSORBED WITH I N A VAST DELI R I U M . THAT W E WOULD NEVER SPEAK TO EACH OTH E R AGAIN. IN ANY C A S E. WE C U R R E NTLY R ECOG N I ZE T H E TENCE ELUSIVE SACRED OF R ELIGION. AS I OFTEN MOTIVATES M E NOW. THAT I C O U L D N E V E R S P E A K TO H E R A G A I N . SOM ETH I N G NO LESS D E L I R IOUS WHEN ABOUT. H O N E STY N OW H E R E MORE PERTI N E N T THAT I N THAT PARTICU LA R A RTICLE. T H E N U R S E W H I S P E R E D TO M E THAT I T W A S A L L OV ER. 1 93 9 MOMENT OF U NITY I N COM M U N I O N . I FEEL I M UST DESC R I B E ONE OF THE SITUATIONS S U R RO U N D I N G THE WRITING OF THE W H I M . I AGREED TO T H A T I WAS U N A B L E T O KEEP H E R MOTH E R A N D SISTERS ROOM. MEN WHOSE LIVES SEEM N ECESSA R I LY LIKE A LONG STORM­ SUNLIGHT PLAYING OVER THE GOLD EN-RED LEAVES OF THE TREES A BOUT A H U N D R E D FEET FROM MY W I N DOW." O N LY ONE. W H I C H I SHOWED TO HER. S E NTENCES THAT SCREAM CONTI N U A LLY D I E FROM TH E I R OWN OUTBU RST. I I SHOWED HER EVE RY­ "G R A A L" TH I N G T H E R E BUT COULDN'T F I N D W H AT SH E RELIGION'S GOA L E N D E D WITH TH I S SENTENCE: WANTED. D U R I N G T H E LAST FEW DAYS PF L A U R E'S SICKNESS.MY FATH E R A P P E A R E D B EFORE M E [ . 1. SHE R E M A I N E D A B S ENT. E NTITLED THE SACRED A N D PUBLISHED IN C A H I E RS D'ART. • . FOR THE F I RST TIME. BLANK EXCEPT FOR THE HEADING THE SACRED. I ESSENTIA LLY. SHE S PO K E WRITTEN S E NT E N C E S I M P A RT A M E A N I NG. P O RT R A Y S WITH ANY REAL C L A R I TY THAT P A R T IC U L A R RESOLUTION WHICH I WROTE THESE WORDS IN TH E M ARGINS. I DI DN'T. IN WHICH 1 39 . A R E A L LY IT E S S E NTI A L C H A NG E BE ATTRI B UT E D COM E S T O TH E TO HER." I I M M E D I ATELY ADDED A NOTE IN THE MARGINS TO A MONG ALL THE PIECES I'VE W R I TT E N FOR C L E A R LY I N D I C ATE. I R E A D LAURE'S WRITING. TH E N . THE S P EC I A L E D I TOR OF T H E CAHIER D'ART ISSUE IN W H I C H I T WAS TO A PPEAR. BUT T H E EXACT NATURE OF T H E SACRED. I T R I E D SPEAKING TO HER. THE MOMENT C A M E W H E N I WAS F I N A LLY ALLOWED TO SEE LA U R E AGA I N I N HER ROOM. MADE SENSE: S H E WOULD A S K M E T O LOOK I N H E R BAG O R A MONG H E R PAPERS FOR SOMETHI N G THAT SHE URGE NTLY N E E D ED. FROM A UGUST THROUGH NOV E M B E R. WE M U ST ERASE WHAT HAS BEEN WRITTEN BY PLAC ING IT IN THE S H A DOW THIS OF TH E R EA L I TY IS WHICH IT CONTI N U A LLY.

A FTER SHE D I E D. N EV E R EX­ I K NOW THAT THIS D E S I R E T O D I E R E S I D E S ON T H E I M POSSIBLE E DG E S OF B E I NG. THE SAME WORDS AND THE SAME DESIRES W E N T TH ROUGH O U R M I N D S AT THE SAME SHE TIME. T H E TRUTH I S ." OF L I G H TN I NG . TH E S I L E N C E . WITHOUT A DOUBT. SI NCE MY NOTION OF "UN ITY I N CO M M UN­ ION" FIGURES I M P L I C I TLY I N LAU RE'S IDEAS. THE SENTENCE HAD PASSAGE ON SACRED. P I E RC I NG TH ROUGH THE CLOUDY T H I C K N ESS OF A N S W E R TO PRECISELY THAT Q UESTION COWE R I N G I N M E L I K E A STA R V I N G A N I M A L. [CROSSED O UT: I W I L L DESC R I B E O N LY ONE MORE THING TODAY: THE NEARLY S I M U LT A N E O U S P U B L ICATION O F THE TWO TEXTS OBLIGES M E TO LET M E I NTE R R U PT TH I S N A R R A TIVE FOR A MOMENT SAY TO THOSE WHO S U F F E R FROM THE S A M E TH I RST 1 40 . BUT SHE HAD NEVER ASKED ME TO READ ANY O F IT. 'COM M U N I ­ CATION' E X P E R I E N C E D A S N U DITY. "TI M E" WAS R E A DY TO "CUT H E R DOWN:" IT DID A N D I STOOD WATC H I N G WHAT WAS H A P P E N I NG. THESE V E RY SENTENCES N OW H E R E E LS E BUT A T TH I S V E R Y POINT. FO U N D TOWA RDS THE BOTTOM OF THE S E NTENCES IN PAGE. I E X P E R I ENCED ONE OF THE MOST VIOLENT E MOTIONS OF MY LI FE. I N E V E R THOUGHT I WOULD FIND AMONG ALL OF HER A B A N DO N E D WORKS AN TO D E SC R I B E A C APTIVATING I M AG E THAT J U ST C A M E TO MY M I ND. THE ANGEL RAISES UP BEFORE ITSELF A LANCE O F CR YSTA L T H A T S H ATTERS I N . I DISDAINED THE I N EVITABLE I M PUDENCE OF B E TW E E N US WAS C R U M BLING. AN I M A GE THAT ENCOMPASSES AN E N TI R E V I SION. HEAVY WITH LIFE AND YET. THE N I GHT. I CA N'T R E M E M B E R A N Y OF T H E S E COI N C I D E NCES. W H E N I READ I LOVE HER NEITHER AS AN ANGEL NOR OF AS A WHAT S H E HAD WRITTEN. . I T I S SELF-RAPE. BUT I DO K N OW THAT N O N E FINA LLY. ITSE LF." N EGATION OF H E RSELF. I OF T H E M E V E R H A D T H E EXTRAO R D I N A RY S I G N I F I ­ C A N C E OF T H E S E T W O SENTENCES ON "CO M M U N I ­ CATION. BUT N E V E R A PP E A R I NG A S MORE THAN A STRA N G E LY INTERIOR GLOW. BUT I WAS NEVER THAN MORE WHEN I D E E PLY READ TH E NOR B R UTALLY LAST I AF FECTED OF A R E C OG N I Z A B L E D I V I N ITY: THE VISION THE S H A TT E R E D C RYSTAL F R E E S T H E SC REA M I NG LOVE W I TH I N M E THAT M A K E S M E WANT TO D I E . IT APPEARS LIKE T H E U N FATHOMABLE VACI LLATIONS OF A STR E A K I STO P P E D LOOK I N G FOR WHAT SHE WANTED. POWERLESS TO U N D E RSTA N D ANYTH I N G M O R E THAN H E R D E A T H . OF A N " A N G E L. NOT H I N G I HAD EVER S A I D TO HER CAME CLOSE TO EXPRESSI NG T H I S I D E A . E X ACTLY ARTICLE. " FOR THIS R E A SON TO LIVE 'DIS PLACES' WHAT I HAD W R I TTEN IN MY I FIND IT VERY D I F F I C U LT TO EXPRESS J U ST EXACTLY WHAT THE P A R A LL E L PASSAGES M E A N . I WON'T S A Y H O W S H E D I E D ALTHOUGH I F E E L M O S T " H O R R I B LY" TH E N E E D TO DESC R I B E IT. OFTEN LAURE F E LT WAS IT AS R E P U LS E D A LOSS. I MYSELF DISCOV E R E D T H E NOTION O N LY ONCE I H A D PUT I T I N T O WORDS. WHATS LA U R E AND I OFTEN THOUGHT THAT THE WALL MORE. " I . WE A LMOST N E V E R C A R R IED ON "I NTELLEC ­ TUAL CONVERSATIONS. BUT FI RST. OCTOB ER 2. A FEW M O M E NTS B E FORE I NOTIC E D THAT LAURE W A S ABOUT T O D I E . D E N U D I NG. A BECAUSE "I NTELLECTUAL CONVE RSATIONS." AS F A R AWAY A N D AS I M PE RC E PTIBLE A S A DOT ON TH E H O R I ZON. I KNOW THAT S H E HAD WRITTEN. E X I ST P R E S S E D TO H E R T H A T P A R A DOXICA L I D E A THAT TH E SACRED IS COMMUNICATION. I FOU N D MYSELF S I FTING THROUGH HAD HER P A P E RS. I M UST DESC R I B E A L L O F T H E D I S P A RATE E L E M E NTS T H A T M A K E U P T H E I R M E A N I NG. I F E E L OBLIGED TO TRY. COM M U N ICATING TO OTH ERS A R E A SON TO LIVE." ONCE SHE EVEN BLA M E D M E F O R NOT T A K I N G H E R S E R I O U SLY." THE FOLLOWI N G LAURE'S SCRAWL: "A POETIC WORK I S SACRED TO THE EXTENT THAT IT IS T H E C R EATION O F A TOPICAL EVE NT. AN IMAGE AT B E ST OF AN ECSTATIC OUTBU R ST. WHEN IT WAS A LL OVER. FOR T H E R E A D I NG PAGES THAT F I RST TIME DURING I MAYBE THE ANGEL IS THE "MOV E M E NT OF THE WORLDS. 50 I M PORTANT TO ME THAT I R E M E M B E R EXACTLY HOW AND WHEN EVE RYTH I N G H A P P E N ED.FEELI NG S H E WOULD S P E A K TO ME AGAIN.J 1 939 NOTICED THE PERIOD J UST BEFORE HER DE ATH. B U T I C A N S P E A K OF N OT H I N G E LS E S I N C E THAT I D I SCOV E R E D THOSE TWO LAU RE'S LIFE AND MINE C OF F I N . ONCE I H A D THE O P PORTU N I TY TO R E A D T H E P A PERS S H E H A D LEFT B E H I N D. THE WHOLE QU ESTION WAS SENTENCES TH ROUGH LINK THE E A RTH COVER I N G HER MOREOVER.

I H A D J US T WA N D E R E D THROUGH A FOREST A FT E R HAVING L E FT LA U R E' S BODY TO THE DEATH V A N ISHES. WAS A C O L L ECTION OF BR IGHTLY COLO R E D . THE DISTANCE BETWE E N MY LIFE AND LAU RE'S COTTAGE. ONCE AGAIN. THE D E A D BRANCHES A N D THE U PTU R N E D STONES THAN THESE S I LENT B I RDS. THROUGH THE THE R O TT E N U N D E RG R O W T H . PAPERS WERE SPREAD A BOUT IN THE D E S K AS IF I N PREPA R ATION FOR A V I SIT. FROM THE DEPTHS O F M Y MISERY. IT EXCEPT W H E N I W A S N E A R LA U R E . OCTOBER 4. WHAT I SAW TH ROUGH THE W I N DOW WHERE M Y W A N DERING H A D B ROUGHT M E W A S ON T H E CONTR A R Y TH E V E R Y I M AG E OF L I F E I N ITS MOST LUC I D WH I M S I ES. T H I S TIME. TODAY I S W I NTER. WAITED A N D I TREMB LED. I M AG I N E A N YTH I NG MORE S W E E T B E H I N D THE D U ST. A N D . THIS RAY OF I T I S C O L D A N D G R A Y . S U D D E N LY. I CLENCH MY TEETH AS I DID LAST YEAR. SUN LIGHT R E V E A L E D B E FO R E M E A N O L D P A N E O F GLASS IN THE W I N DO W OF AN A B A N DO N E D A N YONE LOST A T SEA. IN FACT. ONLY M A G N I F I ES. W I THOUT ALMOST ANIMAL E M E RG E A USTER ITY. BUT I HAVE N'T FI N I S H E D: I'VE H A RDLY BEGUN. COV E R E D ON THE O U TS I D E WITH A CENTURY OF D U ST. AT THE DESOLATE EDGE OF E V E R YTH ING H U M AN. UNAWARE OF ITS E TH E R I A L B E A UTY. THERE. THE F I RST REAL D A Y OF AUTUMN OR 1 939 STRUGGLING TO P I E RC E TH ROUGH THE NOV E M B E R FOG. A BOUT A YEAR AGO.A S L A U R E A N D I TH AT] GRAVEDIGGERS. F E E L I NG THAT I MYSELF HAD BEEN WITH WHAT I STI LL W A N T TO SAY. I A M G R I P P E D BY A K I N D OF MONOTONOUS A N D A B S E N T ECSTASY. I T I S ON LY A F L I C K E R I NG IN THE VOID AS IF A NOCTU R N A L BUTTERFLY. I D EC I D E D TO DO W H A T I'M DOING NOW SEVERA L WEEKS B E FORE THE WA R BROKE OUT. I HAVE TO F I N D WORDS W H I C H GO STRAIGHT TO THE H E A RT. T H E SLIGHTEST B R E A K I N ATTENTI O N . I FOU N D A R A Y OF M AGICAL SUN LIGHT ON THE T H R E S HOLD OF THAT DESERT. B E H I N D THE W I NDOW. 141 . WAS OBVIOUS THAT NOTH ING HAD B E E N TOUC H E D SI NCE S O M E LONG A G O DEATH. H A D COME TO REST ON THE H E A D OF A S L E E P I N G MAN. I F SOME V I S I O N OF DECAY OR WASTE H A D A PPEARED TO ME IN T H I S A BA NDON E D PLACE. OF MY DESOLATION BUT TO OPEN UP I B E FO R E ON THE OTH E R HAND. GRAPH OF THE OWN E R NOT FA R FROM THE W I N DOW. ONCE A G A I N . AND NOT O N LY THAT: BUT FROM W I TH I N T H I S "KI NGDOM" I INCREDIBLE SOFTNESS CONTI N U E D TO COM E THROUGH TO M E DESPITE DEATH A S IT H A D EVEN W H E N S H E WAS EXTREM E LY ANGRY A N D VIOLENT TOWA RDS ME ( I C A N NOT REC A L L THOSE M O M E NTS W ITHOUT A HAVE TO SPEAK W ITHOUT STUTTE R I NG. I AM ENTE R I N G A DESERT OF TOTAL SOLITU D E WHOSE E M PTINESS L A U R E . I M U S T B E E N T E R I N G T H A T "KI NGDOM" WHERE EVEN THE K I NGS ARE AT A LOSS. FROM THIS NOTH I NG FA I R Y AT OF MYSELF C A N TA L E . T H E AWAY AS M I SS I O N I M UST FULFILL I S A S FAR POSSI B LE FROM THE OBSC U R E N E E D I FEELING OF HORROR>' FEEL TO LOSE M Y S E LF. I WOU LD HAVE TAKEN I T A S A N A CC U R A TE I MAGE OF MY OWN M I S FORTU N E. FACED OF G L ASS. I HAVE N E V E R F E L T SUCH GE NTLE P U R I TY. A N D YET. U N D E R T H E D UST. OR MORE EXACTLY. I F E LT ECSTATICA LLY LOST. IT IS B EC O M I N G MORE D I F F I C U LT FOR M E TO AT TH IS MOME NT. FORGOTTEN BY THE I R MA STER WHO H A D LONG S I N C E D I S A P P E A R E D. I WAS R E A DY T O W A I T A N I NF I N I TY FOR THE WORLD ME. THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY I C O U LD DO IT. M Y "TONGUE IS TIED. I NEVERTHELESS ABANDONED ME FELT AND THAT T H AT LAURE HER HAD NOT CONTI N U E. A FEW FEET TODAY I S SO VERY I N E X P R E S S I B L E AND A S FO REIGN TO WHAT IS REA L A S A DREAM. OF THE LEA R N E D C LA S S OF T H E OCTOBER 3. I'M THROWN BACK TO THE DESERT WORLD OF LAST FALL. A T T H I S M O M E N T. A N D I KNEW IT FOR A LONG TI M E. I F E E L FROZEN AND NUMB . T H I S F R AG I L E THE SIGN OF THE AWAY. NOW DEAD. I WANTED TO B R I N G M Y S E L F TO TH I S POINT. W HAT'S H A P P E N I NG TO ME S P LE N D I D I N S U FF E RA B L E .. I W A S W A N D E R I NG A I M LESSLY. 1 939 SECO N D E M P I RE. HE HAD WHITE H A I R A N D A LOOK TH A T S E E M E D TO ME TO BE ONE OF GOODW I L L A N D A N G E L I C NOB I L I TY. HE WORE THE CLOTH E S OF THE M I DD L E C LASS. SUCH S I LE N T S I M PLI· CITY. FAR FROM SHORE AND NO LESS A STR A N G E R TO MYSELF TH A N THROUGH UNREAL R U I NS. I COULDN'T I LLUSION DISAPPEARS SLIGHTEST H E S ITATION." DESERTED. EXOTIC B I R D S. I NOTI C E D A PHOTO. I W A L K E D A LONG A P ROTRU D I N G W A L L O F BRICK UNTIL I D I SCOV E R E D A M U STY PA N E AT THE ONSET OF THE WAR W H E N I BEGAN WRITI NG.

YESTER DAY. BUT THOSE WHO HAVE OUT MY P A T I E N C E H A V E C O M P L ET E LY DESTROY E D T H E R AP PORT THAT I HAVE WITH THEM. LOST WITH I N AN I N D E F I N ITE DELI R I U M . M Y HEART WAS LAURE S T R E TC H E D OUT ON THE BED. I COULD BODI L Y LEAVE THIS DREAM PLACE. IT MUST B E A S I NTOXICATING AS A LCOHOL. SHE WAS 1 42 . BEC A U S E A M A N W H O D E S I R E S BEAUTY F O R W H A T IT I S W I L L N E V E R E N T E R I NTO THE WORLD. [CROSSED OUT: O F T E N . S H E FLUNG T H E ROSE L I K E A C H I LD THROWING DOWN ITS TOYS AND ONCE AGA I N . I FOU N D ONE OF THE MOST BEA UTI FUL FLOWERS I H A V E EVER SEEN. I D I SCOVER ANEW A TRUTH THAT KEEPS ME FROM SLEEPI NG. I R ETREATED WITH I N M YSELF. W H I L E I WAS I SENT A LETTE R TOD A Y B R E A K I N G OFF RELATIONS WITH SOME PEOPLE WHOM I SHOULD NEVER HAVE T R U S T E D TO B EG I N W I T H . I T DEPENDED ON D I SASTE R NO MORE THAN IT D I D O N DREA MS. .W H E N I WALK TH ROUGH THE STRE ETS OF R H E I MS. I WAS O V E R C O M � W I T H A N G U I S H . l . 1 9 39 O RG A N I ZE T H E W O R L D A R O U N D O U R S E LV E S . I N SA NTlY. W H E R E I CANNOT LOOK AT A W I NDOW. A N D SHE C R I E D OUT IN A V O I C E A L MO S T A BS E N T AND I N F I N ITELY PA I N F U L: "TH E ROSEl"' I THI N K TH ESE W E R E H E R LAST WORDS. ON SEPTEMBER 2B. 1 9 3 9 D U R I N G LA U R E ' S LAST H O U R S . IT S I M PLY A P P E A R E D I N PLACE AS THE FOG L I FTED LITTLE BY LITTLE. T H E U P L I FTED ROSE A N D THE C R Y R E M A I N E D I N M Y H EART F O R A LONG T I M E." WHAT I NOW P E RC E I V E FRIGHTENS ME L. HATRED. IN THE OFFICE OF ONE OF M Y CO­ WORK E R S. 0 0 1 . AT L E A ST. WHILE H E WAS ON THE TELEPHONE. A W I N DO W . " TA K E A FLOWER A N D LOOK AT IT UNTIL H A R MONY . MY GAZE FIXED ON LA U R E'S D E A T H B E D (TH E O N E IN W H I C H I NOW SLEEP EVERY N I GHT!. E V E R Y T H I NG W I T H O U T M Y I N EXPLICABLE PATI E N C E. OCTOBE R 1 I . T H I S LASTED B UT A MOMENT. HOLDI NG IT AS I F E X H A U STED. WITHIN THE D A R K N ESS O F T H I S THORAC I C CAGE. 1 9 3 9 OCTOBER 2 1 . THIS PEC U L I A R AND PAI N F U L CONTRAC­ TION OF MY ENTIRE LIFE THAT IS SO C LEARLY I S THE O N LY WAY I CAN LINKED TO LAURE'S DEATH A N D THE L I NGERING SADNESS OF A UTU M N "CRUCI FY" MYSELF. D E A T H A P P E A R S L U D I C R O U S .ND WITHERED SHRUBS. SHE WAS A STRANGER TO ALL WHO A PP ROACHED H E R. A CABI N ET DOOR A R E NOTHI N G I F THEY C A NNOT BEAR WITNESS TO MOVE M E NT A N D TO HEARTRENDING DESTR UCTION [ . I M U ST I N VENT A NEW WAY OF C R UCIFYING M YSELF. I M P E R C E PT I B LY . C LI N G I N G TO T H I S SUFFERING A S TO A CHANCE TO LIVE. LA URE D I E D J U ST AS SHE W A S L I FTING ONE OF A B U N C H O F ROSES SPREAD OUT BEFORE H ER. P E R H A PS LA URE'S VOIC E WASN'T PAI N ED. 1 . B U T A BEAUTI FUL NEED H A S BEEN I NS C R I B E D W I TH I N M E AS I T W A S W I TH I N LA U R E'S DESTI N Y. IT WAS A ROSE. BREATH I NG CONVUL­ S I V E LY. ASCETICISM. I C R I T I C I Z E D L A U R E ' S VIOLENT C U R S I NG A LTHOUGH I BOR E I T WITH N O LITTLE PAI N. NOW. I WROTE: "I R EALIZE THAT IF I WANT TO OVERCOM E MY EROTIC HABITS. A T R E E . S H E WAS LOST WITHIN H E RSELF. . . . " THAT WAS A VISION. I T WASN'T A RANDOM THOUGHT [. I REALIZE THAT I WOU L D H A V E WORN r. SHE C A M E O U T OF H E R STRANGE STATE LONG ENOUGH TO S M I LE AT M E AND SAY. BUT W H E N I G A V E H E R T H E R O S E . "ITS BEAUTI F U L. N E I TH E R O F U S D I D A N YT H I NG (OR VERY LITTLE) TO OCTOBER 1 2. PERHAPS IT WAS S I M PLY H EARTRENDING.1 WHAT S U R ROUNDS ME NOW COULD A L L DISAPPEAR I N A FEW HOURS. I PICKED IT A N D B ROUGHT IT TO LAURE. I R E M E M B ERED WHAT I HAD FELT THAT M O R N I NG. A N E E D TO MOVE A RO U N D I N A WOR L D F U L L OF S E C R E T M E A N I NG S . 0 0 1 W A N D E R I N G A R O U N D O U R D I L A P I DA T E D Y A R D A M I DST T H E D E A D LEAVES A. ONE M U ST HAVE SO M UC H LOV E T H A T E V E N O N I TS T H R E S H O L D . K N OWING WHAT I HAVE LIVED THROUGH A N D WHAT I LOST LOVE. T H E R E I N THAT OFFICE A N D LATE R THAT E V E N I NG.'" T H I S WAS ONE OF HER LAST COHERENT SENTENCES. LAURE A N D THE BED W E R E WITH I N MY H E A RT: I N FACT. S H E B ROUGHT THE ROSE TO H E R L I P S A N D KISSED I T WITH A DELIRIOUS PASSION A S I F S H E W A N T E D TO H O L D I N EVERYTH I NG T H A T W A S ESCA PING HER. A N G U I S H AND THE DOM I NATION OF FEAR A R E A LL N ECESSA RY. THEN. TOO O FT E N . DESPITE MY FRAME OF M I ND. "THE COLOR OF A U T U M N :' BARELY OPENED. AN I NT E R N A L V I S I O N M A I N T A I N E D B Y A S I L E N T L Y EXP E R I E NC E D N EE D. A TREE OR A CABI N ET D O O R W I T H O U T A G R E A T D E A L OF A N G U I S H . . I H A V E SECO N D THOUGHTS ABOUT MY DECISIONS.

HE HAS NEVER BEFORE BEAUTIFUL COULD H AV E EVER I M AG I N ED (BUT BEAUTIFUL. TO N O T F E E L THIS DEATH . 1 43 . . I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT SOMETIMES. SOMETIMES WITH TERROR. HEINE D I DN'T GO WITH US. THAT EVENI NG. . UNAWARE THAT SHE WO U L D PROBABLY N E V E R GET U P AGA I N. I N FRONT OF A T R E E TH AT H A D BEEN STRUCK BY LIGHTNI NG. S H E FELL ONCE. A FTER WE R ETU R N E D . ALIVE. W E TRAVELLED OVER TH E MONTAI G U PLA I N S WHOSE H ILLS BUT AND NO DREAMED ABOUT WUTH E R I N G H E I G HTS. OF ALL THINGS CAPABLE OF SURVIVING ANY AND ALL VICISSITUDES. COLOMB-BECHAR. RATHER. I'M B EG I N N I N G TO FEEL MORE A ND M O R E I G N O R ANT. I I SADE'S "GRAVE. 1 93 9 THE THOUGHT OF D E N I SE. • • HANGING FROM THE C U R R E N T E XPLA N ATION.L I K E U N EA S I ­ NESS IN MY H E A RT WO U L D BE TO BETRAY EXPRESSED H I M S E LF L I K E T H I S . D I N N E R WAS NO LESS SAVAGE THAN THE WIND. WE WENT BACK TO THE SAME CANNOT BE THE EXTENT OF ALL H U MANLY VALUABLE THINGS. LAST S A T U R D A Y. IN LA V A I S S E NET. I N EB RIATED MORE BY THIS WEIGHTY THAN I P U R I TY OF DENISE. SPOT WITH M I C H E L L E I R I S A N D ZETTE. AFTER S H E SAW I J U ST C A M E OUT OF THE H E LD E R THEATER WHERE I SAW WUTHERING H E I G H TS: H EA T H C L I F F L I V I NG WITH CATHY'S GHOST AS I WANTED TO LIVE WITH LA U R E'S G H OST. EVEN DREAMED ABOUT IT I N P E R EG R I N ATION F E R LUC. AS WE H A D EXPECTED. I S U PPOSE T H I S F R O M H O U S E TO H O U S E I N T H E FI ELDS G REATLY D ELIGHTED LA U R E . BRANCHES O F A T R E E I WOULD HAVE WANTED HIM TO A LW A Y S ACCO M P A N Y M E I'VE STOPPED T H I N K I NG I N S I STE NTLY A BOUT LAURE. I T I S A S I NCONC E I V A B L E A S A PLANT THAT H A S STOPPED B U D D I NG A N D G ROWING [ • • . W E WANTED TO I NVITE T H E M T O H A V E D I N N E R WITH US. ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED IN ONE YEAR D I S I NTEGRATING TO NOTH I NGN ESS IN T H E E A RTH BEN EATH A THICKET O F BUSHES . OUT OF MODESTY PERHAPS. THE WINO WAS SAVAGE. WHAT U N ITES US WITH J U ST A FEW I N D I V IDUALS IN M A RC H OF 1 938. I RECEIVED T H E FOLLOWI N G LETTER FROM M I C H E L LEI R I S LAST S U N DAY. TO NOT LOVE D E N I S E T H I S W A Y . LA U R E THOUGHT A BO U T FORGIVE M E AND UNDERSTAND DESPITIE M Y WORDS ALL THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO YOU AS SPONTANEOUSLY AS AN EXPRESSION OF GRIEF OR A BURST OF LAUGHTER . 1 9 3 9 EVERYT H I NG. A FTE R A LL. J WENT TO BED. S H E HAD A H I G H FEVER AND I. B U T NO SOONER H A D W E MICHEL RETU RNED T H A N LA U R E B E G A N T O F E E L THE F I RST E F F ECTS OF THE I L L N ESS THAT E V E N T U A LLY CAUSED HER DEATH." LAURE WENT OUT ONLY ONCE. I HOPE YOU WILL A R R I VED I N B R O A D DAYLIGHT AT THE E D G E OF T H E P O N D SA D E H A D CHOSEN.NOVE M B E R 7. A N D PRECEDE M E . CON S U M E D BY OAK R OOTS. ALIVE. ON T H I S OCCASION. T H E O N E W A Y T R I P (A 1 9 32 F I L M BY TAY G A R N ETT) W H I C H S H E H A D I'M USING RATHER SOLEMN LANGUAGE H ERE-FAR N E V E R SEEN BEFORE. WHEN I'M IN A MELANCHOLIC MOOD. I A M LA U R E DIED O N E YEA R A G O TODAY. ODdlEVTSOVA UNDRESSED AND BEGA N VOM ITI NG. . . WE ASKED M A U R I C E H E I N E TO D R I V E U S T O T H E SPOT THAT S A D E H A D CHOSEN FOR HIS OWN B U R I A L. POSSESSES M E ENTI R E LY. ON THE WAY THERE. I A U TOMATICALLY LA U R E A N D I P R E P A R E D A D I N N E R FOR I V A NOV A N D o06IEVTSOVA. AND WE FROM MY USUAL PRACTIC E-LANGUAGE WHICH MAKES ME A LITTLE ASHAMED. IT WAS SNOWING I DONT WANT TO I N SIST ON A N Y O N E THING (ANY THAT DAY. I T S E E M S TO M E . OCTOBER 2 9 . . . . IN DECEM B E R OF 1 937. D E A R GEORGES. AS AN A N I M A L IS BEA UTIFUL).. . OR OUT OF HUMAN RESPECT (SACRIFICING ONCE MORE MY MANIA TO REDUCE EVERYTHING!. AT E P E RON. CLOSE TO THAT MOMENT OF THE YEAR WHEN WE CAN LOOK BACK AND CONSIDER. ARE MORE REASON TO HOPE THAN TO DESPAIR. EVERYTHING CONSIDERED. AT THE E N D OF AUGUST. I TOOK H E R BY CAR TO OUR SAINT G E R MA I N HOUSE I N THE FOREST. MOUNTA I N S W A S N E C E S S A R Y TO H E L P M E FORGET MY D I SLI KE FOR "CO M E D Y . RETURN TO CERTAIN MEMORIES WHICH. INSISTENCE WOULD BE A SACRILEGE I N THIS CASE). " H E SHALL B E SOWN OVER THE ACORNS . TA KING LEI R I S A N D ZETTE FOR A WA LK A LONG A PATH WE BOTH LIKED. TH E GERM A N S H A D J UST TA KEN V I E N N A AND THE A I R ALREADY SMELLED OF WAR. HERE WE ARE. SHE WALKED A LL D A Y A S I F DEATH W E R E N'T W E A R I NG HER AWAY. I N T H E M I DDLE OF A LL TH I S C H A OS. " BUT THAT IS MY SOONER HAD WE ENTERED THE FO REST THAN SHE SAW TWO DEAD CROWS. A N D WE LOST OUR WAY I N T H E FOREST. L A U R E S A W THE L A S T F I L M OF H E R LIFE. J.

I'M W R I TI NG T H I S NOW A S E V E RYTH I NG I S T E N D I NG TOWA RDS THE "SONOROUS. THI S F U R Y TOOK ME BY T H E HAND A N D LED ME I NTO H ELL. I PLAYED WITH LA URE. C O M PLETE WITH GARTERS AND BLACK S I LK GEORGES BATAILLE TRANSLATED BY TOM G O RA STOCKI NGS. PA R I S WAS J U ST BOM B E D [C ROSSED OUT: AND ON NI ETZSCH E SOMEONE TOLD M E THAT A BOMB H A D FA LLEN ON T H E BOI LEAU STREET CLINIC WHERE LAURE HAD SPENT TWO MONTHS BEFORE OUR TRIP TO SA I N T G E R M A I N ON J U LY T U A LLY DIED. LA U R E PLAYED A N D WON. CA N'T STA N D TO SEE THEM FORGET HOW M UC H GOOD FORT U N E T H E Y WOULD H A V E WOU L D PLAY. W H E N I PASSED BY THE SA M E S POT.. I T H E Y ONLY CHOKED ON HER WORDS SO BADLY THAT I WAS F R IG H TE N E D. THE SPACING OF THESE I N C I S IO N S THE N A R R A TI V E THE R E P R E S E NTS A C E N T R A L LOC U S I N R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N BATAI LL E A N D LA U R E . WHICH I S MORE O R LESS THE D I A R Y OF LAURE'S DEATH. J U N E 3. L A U R E CONCERNING T H E MANUSCRIPT T O APPEAR UNDER THE TITLE OF THE CULPRIT. P . SAID LAURE. WHOEVE R TOLERATED A MORE TERRIBLE FU RY? YET 1 44 . A LL I C A N DO I S P L A Y AGA I N ." I T S E E M S THAT A L L OF TH E FRAGMENTS WHICH M E NTION HER N A M E HAVE BEEN CROSSED OUT OR OMITTED. J . i FOUN D DEATH M A SQU E R A D ! N G . F. 1 940 SOON. D ESTROYED. I TAKEN T H E N A M E LAURE. F R O M T H E W R I T I N G S OF LA URE) I HAVE J UST TOL D YOU A BOUT M Y LIFE: DEATH H A D W E WERE NOT FAR FROM THE HOUSE. SHE F O R E S A W AS T H E FATE O F T H E LET M E A D D : O N T H E TH R ESHOLD O F . NOT H I NG MORE THAN A N INERT BODY. G LORY. I TOLD H E R : SHE S H I V E R E D AND FOR THOSE WHOM I LOVE.. R E A N I MATE T H I S REALLY I NS A N E FATE . I'LL M I S S THE SUN. A M A PROVOCATION.LIKE A KNIGHT A N D H I S H ERALD. IF LA U R E USED TO P LAY. LA U R E DIED. ABSURD A N D VIOLENT C H AOS" W O R LD]. TOO? H E R S E L F W ROTE THAT TH E HOUSE W H I C H S H E D I S D A I N FU LLY C A L L E D "TH E N U N N E RY" WOU L D C E R TA I N L Y C O M E TO A D I S A ST R O U S E N D . . . I 1 !s. (TH E C RO W . AFTER H E R LA U R E WAS D E A T H THAT S H E H A D C O N S I D E R E D TH E D E A D SIGN. WHERE S H E EVEN­ DON'T K NOW I F A NYTH I N G WAS IN A LETTE R TO L E I R I S . BEGUN ON YEA R "LATE. WHOEVER M ET A N YTHI NG MORE HUMAN. 5 NUD!TY. I SAW THE TWO C ROWS A FEW DAYS LATER. I B I R DS AS A U N D E R STOOD ONLY BUT BY THEN. I H A D JUST LOOKED THROUGH H E R M A N U SC R I PTS A N D ONE OF THE FI RST I HAD READ WAS T H E C ROW. NOW I CAN NO LONGE R REST B ECAUSE I WON. 1 938. A LARGE "X" IN OR GAP INTE R R U PTS EACH OF THE PASSAGES ON H E R DEATH. WILL S A I NT G E R M A I N C R UMBLE TO THE G RO U N D.

SLOWLY. HAD T R I E D TO REPEL M Y BY S U R RO U N D I N G HERSELF WITH HER S M ELL. HAD I WAFTED U N D E R THOUGHT I HAD GRAN DSON. F I LLED ME WITH G REAT EXCITE­ M E N T. THE I D E A THAT S H E H A D T R I E D TO R ES I ST ME. A '4D F I N A LLY G ROWN ACCUSTO M E :) TO IT. THE S H A P E OF H E R P U B I S AS I T DISAPPEARED BETW E E N HER THIGHS. F I R M AND PROUD. S P R I N G I N G FROM THE WELL THAT HAD GON E DRY I N HER MANY YEA R S A SWA R M OF DESIRES F L E W T HROUGH MY MIND BEFOR E. ANY REJ ECTION OF ME. R E M E M B E R E D H E R IN MY M I N D'S EYE: A J E A LOUSLY H I DDEN PH OTOG R A P H OF HER WITH HER DRESS. T H E R E FORE. I WAS FORCED TO HOLD M Y NOSE WHEN I F I RST C A M E THE SILK K E RC H I E F ON HER FACE A N D THE SHEET COV E R I N G HER BODY ONLY ADDED TO HOW I CLOSE TO T H E FOOT OF T H E B E D . AS THE G N A W I N G WOR M S ASSA I LED HER THAT I T R I E D T O D R I V E AWAY. ALL DAY LON G . TH E I R DEATH A N D M E MO R Y B E G A N T O D I STI L L AS M Y B O D Y AVI DLY DRENC H E D IN A SUDDEN SHOWER. WITH TH E I R DARK N I PPLES ERECT FROM T H E FRESH CARESS OF T H E RA I N . H E R THE S M E LL. H E ADY FRAGRANCE BREATHED I T IN. S U S PECTING THE DESIRES STI R R I N G W I T H I N ME. C L I N G I N G TO H E R BODY. EVEN FOR A N I N STANT. S U R E LY A L L S H E CO ULD EXPECT N O W WAS HER BODY'S SLOW D I S I NTEGRATION I N SOM E D A M P CRYPT FLESH. WAS UTTE R L Y INCO M P R E H E N S I BLE. YET I COU L D NOT U NDERSTAND WHY SHE FOLLOW I N G T H E CONTO U R S OF H E R BREA STS.MY LATE GRANDMOTHER THE C LOCK WAS STRI K I N G M I D N IG H T A S I ENTERED THE K I TC H E N WHERE M Y G R A N DMOTH E R WAS LYING. WOULD T R Y T O R EJ ECT M E. THE CLOTH WAS STI C K I N G TO HER SKIN. THE D OO R OF M Y ROOM. S E N D I N G WAVES OF SWEET PA I N R I PPLI NG THROUGH M Y BODY. THE WET FABRIC OUTLI N I NG T H E SOFT CONVEXITY OF H E R BELLY A N D N A V E L. THOSE THIGHS T H A T W E R E LONG A N D S L I M W I T H TH E I R M U SCLES J U ST B A R E L Y V I SI B L E U N DER THE S K I N . SURELY. S U R ELY T H E PASSION 1 415 . A N D THOUGH I D I D EVENTUA LLY TAKE P L E A S U R E TH E R E I N . THE THOUGHT F L A S H E D TH ROUGH M Y M I N D THAT TH E OLD WOM A N . B U T I T W A S A HA LF­ H E A RTED E FFORT AT B E ST. W A R M CONTRACTIONS G R I PPED M Y GUTS. OF A TWENTY-YEA R-OLD MAN FOR THIS OLD WOM A N W A S T H E V E R Y WATER OF L I FE.

I W A S PROTECTED O N A L L S I D E S BUT AT TH E S A M E TI M E THE M YSTERIOUS H A P P E N I NGS O F T H E OUTS I D E ME: THE O N LY LINK I HAD SOM E F I N E . SAFE F R O M A N Y I N TE R R U PTION I W E N T B A C K T O T H E BED. NOT U N D E RSTA N D I NG WHY HIS M I ST R E SS WOULD BECA USE O F TH E I R I D E A L LENGTH A N D THE LOOP AT O N E E N D. T H E Y HAD NOT GON E TO THE TROUBLE OF P U TTI N G ON HER U N D E RCLOTH E S WH I C H . SHE COULD W R I N K LE D . THROUGH H E R D R ESS H A D ROL L E D B A C K T O H E R K N E E S AS I WAS A TTA C H I N G H E R F EET. OF THE CLOTH. TH E COLD ROOM H A D CAUSED IT TO SHRINK AND D R A STICALLY. T H E R E B Y D I S P L A Y I N G H E R BLACK S I L K STOC K I NGS PULLED H A L F WAY U P HER L EGS. HOWEVER. I LEFT T H E K E R C H I E F IN PLACE ON H E R FACE. T E ETH BUT THE ZIPPER I N TO TOOK PLEASURE I NTEN D E D FOR H E R : N E VERTH E LESS I DECI DED TO ATT A C H HER S E C U R E LY . W H E N A L L WAS SAID AND DON E. MADE OF WERE C LOSED A N D THE WOODEN P A N E LS HAD B E E N DRAWN ACROSS T H E F R O N T DOOR W I N DOW. TO U N C L ENCH H E R H A N DS O P E N I NG TH E DOOR FOR HIM. A I HAVE A LW A Y S LOATH E D TH E C REATU R E . SOFT FABRIC I COULD N O T I D E NTI FY. NOT LET HIM I N. STI L L I NTACT. SION. MY AND I T WAS A L L W I Z E N E D WERE H U RTI N G HAD IN CAR ESS WHILE AND ASSUAGE N OT SEE ACH I NG W A N T N E XT M OV E . A LBEIT FOR ONE N IGHT ONLY. V E R Y D A I NTY M A U V E PEARLS W E R E S E W N ON THE BODICE I N T H E S H A P E O F M A N Y­ FROM THE LOW CUT THE STEPS SLOWLY MOVED AWAY. THE SHUTTE R S COULD NOT T E L L WHICH-TO S N A P L I K E DRY TWIGS. TH E N G R A D U A LLY BOR A D E N E D AND F LA R E D I NTO AN PROPORTIONS I N M Y M I N D. I CHOSE SOME SECTIONS OF HEAVY TWI N E USED FOR BINDING SHEAVES TH E R E WAS NO SOU N D OUTS I D E EXC E PT. HER D R E S S W A S COM E LY. FOR THE PAST FEW M I N UTES. WOULD HAVE BEEN Q U I T E U S ELESS. O N E M U ST A D M IT. TH E TESTI C L E S OF I NATU R A L LY I UNABLE TO W A S QUITE AWA R E THAT S H E WAS R E A CT TO ALL THE CA RESSES I SINCE BITTEN M ET A L TH E M . THEN OUTSI DE. MY G R A ND MOTH E R WAS B E A UTI F U L. THE CAT M EW I NG AT T H E DOOR . W H E N I LOW E R E D HER AGA I N . H U G E TOMCAT W I T H L O N G TAWNY F U R A N D B R IGHT. BALEFUL EYES T H A T 1 46 . A N D I WAS PROUD S H E WAS M I N E . IT WAS VERY I N TR I C A T E L Y PLEATED A BO V E THE WOR L D D I SQU I ET E D TON IGHT WITH THE EXT E R IO R W A S THE SOU N D O F FOOT S T E P S WHICH HAD TA K E N ON UNREAL WA I ST: TH E FOLDS W E R E NA RROW A T T H E TOP. I SHOT HOME TH E TWO BOLTS MY FOR T H E OCCASION A N D H A D COV E R E D T H E B A R E S K I N W I T H A B L A C K S I LK SC A R F. BUT I THE R U STLE OF R A I S E H E R U P T O P U T H E R A R M S B E H I N D H E R BACK AND TIE TH E M . A N D THE SINK KNEW TH E R E WAS A M ETAL BOX FULL O F STR I N G A N D CORD THAT S H E HAD SAVED TH ROUGH THE Y E A RS. DAZZLI N G IN ITS WHITEN ESS. TH E R E MAY HAVE BEEN HER A BUDDING S A D I STIC MY MY DESIRE TO BEFORE I U N DR E S S E D HER I C A UGHT MYSELF U N C O N SC I O U S LY O PE N I NG MY F L Y A N D U NCOVER­ I NG MY PENIS.I THE BONES IN HER FINGERS OR HER SOM E O N E ' S C LOTH E S COULD NOT T E L L WHETH E R T H E SOU N D C A M E FROM T H E ROAD O R THE COU RTYA R D I N FRONT OF T H E HOUSE. I W A S A LITTLE TREMULOUS BUT THE F E A R WAS IN KEEPING WITH T H E WARM P A I N GNAWING AT MY GUTS A N D T H E DA RK EXCITE M E NT T H A T SENT A SLIGHT Q U I V E R MY EVERY MOVEM E NT. H E R N E W A N D I D A R E S A Y U NCOMFORTA BLE POSITION CAUSED A R MS . A M PL E S K I RT. CU PBOA R D SQUEEZED I BETW E E N F I R E PLACE T H E N C A M E T H E M O M E N T W H E N I D EC I D E D TO P U S H BACK T H E D RE S S C O M PLETELY. I REALLY D I D NOT WANT HER TO SEE M E : AND THEN TOO. IT WAS QUITE HIGH OFF THE FLOOR IN T H E STYLE OF OLDER BEDS SO THAT I HAD SOME DIFFICULTY I N FOLDI NG BACK T H E S H E ET TO TH E FOOT O F THE B E D A N D FOLLOW I N G T H E C R EASES. AND NOW C O N F I D E N T THAT WE W E R E GOD. IT WAS NO EASY TASK. I C E RTA I NL Y H A D N O I NTENTION OF IT WAS NOT D I F F I C U LT TO SPREAD H E R LEGS A N D ATTACH H E R FEET TO T H E B E D POSTS. I WAS D I S P L E A S E D AT T H I S I N C I D E NT S I N C E I H A D NO W I S H TO C A U S E H E R A N Y PA I N .S U D D E N LY I THOUGHT I HEARD FOOTS T E P S WITH THEIR FINGERS LOC K E D TOG E T H E R . THAT HAD BEEN SPECIALLY BROUGHT OUT FOR THE OCCA­ S H E W A S N A K E D U N D E R T H E D R ESS. PETA L L E D ROSES C U R L I NG N E C K L I N E : M Y MOTH E R H A D THOUGHT I T TOO LOW I WENT QUICKLY TO TH E DOOR TO M A K E C E RTAI N IT WAS LOCKED. I COU L D DETECT T H E C R UNCH O F SHOES ON GRAVEL AND STO N E S . ON A SHELF THE IN TH E I N C R EASI NG T H E PA I N B Y PRESSING DOWN O N M Y PENIS. G R A N D MOTH E R H A D D E C I D E D T O I NSTALL A SHORT TIME AGO.

A N D ALL T H E WHILE I W A S AMAZED AT THE EVERYTH I NG E L S E BUT W E R E D I ST I NCTLY APPAR- 1 47 . M Y C A R ES S E S M O R E EXPLICIT. OF MY WRINKLES. S U D D E N LY . AND WITH A VIOLENT MOVE M ENT THAT SURPRISED THUS ME. POS S I B I L I T I E S O F P L E A S U R E T H E Y C O U L D PRO­ CU RE. A N D T O W H O M S H E WAS O F F E R I N G S H I V E R S T H R O U G H M E FROM H E A D TO TOE. NOTH I N G OF CA RESSED HER BODY WITH T H E OTH E R . I G E NTLY OVE R R I D I NG PASSION. THE GROIN. W A S F U R ROWED TO THE B R E A K I NG PO I NT. D R U N K WITH DESI R E. THE CLEFT BETW E E N THE B R E A STS. LOOKED L I K E T W O D E F LATED B A L LOONS W I TH TH E I R VALVES C R ACKS. HER G E N I TALS W E R E COV E R E D WITH L O N G G R E Y MY PL E A S U R E WAS I M M ENSE AS I G R E E D I LY H A I RS T H A T STRAGGL E D TH I N LY O V E R A W I D E A R E A OF HER BELLY. EXCEPT T H E TWO OF US. A N D EVEN THOUGH THE POS I T I O N OF HER HANDS H I N D E R E D M E C O N S I D E R A B LY I H A D NO I NTENTION OF U NTYI N G T H E M . ACCEPTING NAKEDNESS T H E H U M I LI ATION OF T H E R A VAGES OF HER SA LLOW S K I N WAS STRETC H E D OVER A FRA M E WHOSE SLIGHTEST DETA I LS W E R E A PP A R E NT. H E R THE SPECTACLE B E FORE MY EYES WAS A FASCI NAT­ I NG ONE. DESICCATED A N D P U R P L I S H . H E R BODY WITH A LMOST U N R E A L P A S S I V I TY. EVERYT H I N G H A D BY NOW R EC E D E D I NTO OBLIVION. A N D WHOSE NATU R A L I NT R I C AC Y H A D BECOM E E V E N M O R E COMPLEX S I N C E E V E RY I NC H OF H E R S K I N . I P R E S S E D F I R M LY ON G R EA T THAN PAIN. ONCE SO PINK AND FRESH. S A L I V ATING ON THEM. E V E R YW H E R E I N S U M THAT CONSTA NT MOVEMENT AND CONSTANT SWEATING FINGERS. EACH OTH E R'S P R E S E N C E WERE WE M A N A G E D TO DO S O BY L I FTI NG H E R A N D WOR K I N G THE D R E S S SLOWLY A N D P A I N FU LLY U PW A RDS. I WAS VERY CA UTIOUS W H E N EV E R I TOU C H E D HER LEST THE SKIN SPLIT WIDE A OPEN AND R E LEASE THE TI M E: ACCEPTING OF IN HER N A K E DN ESS THAT THE MY H U M I LIATION HER BONDS I N S U RED COMPLETE ACC E S S I B I LITY T O H E R BODY. AWARE OF ON LY B EC A U S E TH E HEMP CORDS WERE ATTA C H E D TO IT AND TO THE OBJECT WAS OF MY ANY TICKLING MY PENIS W I TH ONE HAND. N E A R LY BLACK ANY N I PPLES AT EACH THEY FORWA R D MY WITH TONG U E . HER WERE B R E A STS. BUT M Y DESIRES HAD SOON MY H A N DS HAD EXHAUSTED ALL THE BEEN R E P R E S S E D TOO L O N G A N D SOON M Y H A N D G R E W MORE DA R I NG. S E N D I N G CONSEQ U E N C E T O H E R EXCEPT H E R LOV E R. BAGS I WAS STI L L STA N D I N G B E S I D E TH E BED. H A D W R I N KLED THE SKIN A N D F I N A LLY T A N N E D IT SO THAT IT H A D THE S U PPLE TEXTU R E OF OLD. H E W A S QUITE W I LD A N D N O O N E WENT N E A R HIM E XC E PT H I S OLD M I STRESS. WET E X T R E M I TY G A V E THEM TH I C K N E SS. I TROU BLE THE T R A N Q U I LITY OF O U R E M B R ACES. SO FI LLED WITH BOTH. WHEN I A N D TOUCH E D LEAVI NG HER A S A L LOW MARK I NOW THAN TWO THIN THAT THE YEA R S HAD E M PT I E D A N D D R I E D U P. THEN GROWING VERY E XC I T E D . NOTH I N G D A NG L I N G MORE A C ROSS HER TORSO. THE PA I N S E R V E D TO I G N I T E M O R E F I R E S U N D E R M Y P A S S I O N A N D D ROVE M E TO STR I P T H E DEAD WOM A N OF H E R MODESTY.COULD STA R E I NTO YOU R FACE BY THE HOUR. I F E LT M UC H SAFER KNOWING NOTH I N G WAS OF ANY CON S E Q U E N C E A TO ME EXCEPT H E R BODY L Y I N G ON B E D T H AT I WAS THE BONDS WERE F I R M L Y I N PLACE. CAUSING PALER T I PS I W A S FASCINATED BY T H E FOLDS I N H E R A R M P ITS. SO K N E A D E D BY T I M E. F O R S O M E T I M E T H E R E A FTER I WAS NOT A W A R E OF THE N E A R-CONSTANT CONTRACTIONS OF M Y G UT. A S THOUGH LOATH TO DEFILE LEANED BE LLY M Y M I STR ESS'S COUCH. WH ITE FLEECE ON HER FOLLOW I N G YOU R E V E R Y MOVE AND N E V E R LOS I N G EVEN FOR AN I N ST A N T TH E I R I MPLACABLE GENITALS. H E R SKIN NOW WAS NOTH I NG BUT STRETC H E S OF COLD NESS. J A G G E D E N D OF BONE. D A R K E N E D LEATH E R . BECAUSE RED OF T H E COLD. N I BBLING ON THE ROUGH N I PPLES. NOTH I N G C O U L D COM E TO I PUSHED BAC K HER DRESS TO THE A R M PITS. PITTED A N D STI PPLED WITH T I N Y BLAC K PLACED MY H A N DS ON E I T H E R S I DE OF H E R TORSO AS I BEGAN LICKING EVERY I NC H O F H E R COLD FLESH. WERE STA I N E D TINY DOTS: T H E TE ETH OF THE Z I P P E R H A D B RO K E N THE S K I N ON M Y TESTICLES. THE LABIA WERE AS DRY AS SUCKED I N T H E S E R E GLOBES O F H E R B R E A STS. ONLY THE DARK. T H E R E U PON. G E N ITA LS OP E N I N G HER WIDE I N TO THE DE EPEST IN HER R E C E S S E S OF BODY. USUAL WITH THE MY PENIS. ENT IN THE SPARSE. T H E I N S I D E OF THE T H I G H S .

TH E ORGA NS OF S I G H T D I S C H A R G I N G TH E I R V I T R E O U S AND S U BSTA NCE ON E A C H T E M PL E . S U C K I N G MOUTH . BARELY P U B E SC E NT. SUDDEN A N D U NCONTROLLA BLE A D I POSE E R P U T I O N S O F B R OW N I S H . STUCK AND SUCKED I NTO AND G R OW T H S . B EYO N D ALL H U M A N BOU N D A R I ES. MOREOVER. L I C K E D G R E E D I LY . STE A L I N G GLANCES TO S E E I F S H E SHOWED ANY I NT E R EST. C R E V I C E . BOTH ON H E R PART A N D ON I BEGAN ACTING THEN AS THOUGH OUR NIGHT M I N E. T E V E R Y I NC H OF H E R I C Y G E N I TA LS. TH E N A VEL. T H E S A L I V ATED A S M Y TON G U E DARTED EVERY BOTH I N S I D E AND OUTS I DE THE BODY. I STRETC H E D HER S K I N . S H R I VELLED MOR ELS. T H E VAGI N A . TH U S IT WAS I M PE R A T I V E I B E VERY ATTENTI V E TO EVERY DETA I L AND I G N O R E THE SCRU PLES W H I C H MIGHT BO N D S HAVE IN FOR B I D D E N MY USING THE HEMP OF ORDER OUR T O ATTA I N T H E VORACIOUS MAXIMUM PLE A S U R E PROV I D E . THEY W E R E STI LL SOM E W H A T P L I A B L E SO THAT. M A D N E S S TH I S WHICH. WHITE DISCHARGES FROM THE BRAIN. IT WAS FAR BEYOND A N YTH I N G AS THAT SOMEONE. AND TH E N I DARTED M Y T O N G U E R E P E ATEDLY I NTO THE CONVOLUTIONS OF HER FLESH. AT T H E E X P E N S E O F T H E M E D I OC R E EX T E R N A L TRATING CENCE. ETC. I U N D R ES S E D IN FRONT OF H E R. AS H A R D A N D A S BLACK A S COAL W E R E T H E O U T E R F R I N G E S OF H E R L A B I A . IT WAS NOT THAT I F E A R E D A D I S ASTROUS OUTCOM E TO O U R RELATIONS. I LAY OOWN 148 . I N S E A R C H OF HER CLITOR I S BUT TO NO AVA I L. WOULD I N DU C E US TO E X P E R I E NCE T H E MOST VIOLENT AND U NCONTROL­ LA B L E O F P L E A S U R E S : E XPLOS IONS OF SKIN A N D FLESH: MOUTH. I FELT MY TH I RST FO R PLEA S U R E I NC R E A S E D A H U N D R E D FOLD. SAVO R I N G KICKED M Y C LOTH E S A W A Y FROM T H E BED. I POPPED E A C H BUTTON O F F M Y S H I RT. O N ENJOY I NG T H E M TO THE F U L LEST AND B U I LD I N G TO A G R A D U A L C L I M A X. WERE NEAR BUT TENCY A N D A P P E A R A N C E OF OLD LEATH ER. TOG ET H E R W E R E O U R L A ST O N E . I L A Y I N WAIT FOR H E R T O D O H E R TO I L ETTE . O N E BY O N E. SO N A R ROW HAD IT BECO M E . THEN FROM T H E M . H O W E V E R . E V E R Y LAST ATOM OF D E L I G H T AS I D I D SO. L I K E A SUCTION C U P. D I S S ECTION OF T H E G E N ITALS: E M A SC U LATION. B L OO D VOM ITI NG FROM T H E A N US. A N E R ECT N I PPLE. WE C A P A B L E OF ATTA I N I N G IT. I W A N T E D TO PLAY MY TO N G U E AROU ND IT BUT H E R S K I N WAS S O W I Z E N E D A N D F U R ROWED OPENING MADE SOMEWH ERE IN THE E V I S C E R ATION ( FOLLOWE D B Y A DISCHARGE O F T H E I N T E R N A L O R G A N S OR T H E E J A C U LATION OF T H E BOW E L S ) : BONES THR USTING THROUGH DRY F I S S U R E S I N T H E S K I N . O R THE DAY WHEN I ROSE EA R L I E R THAN SHE AND.LACK OF REACTION. B U T I N PARTI C U L A R I W A S INTENT O N EXTRACTING EVERY L A ST D ROP OF PLEASU R E AS I WAS C A R ES S I N G HER. WE L E FT THAT STAGE B E H I N D US WHEN ONE DAY. ACTUA LLY I K N EW IT WAS INDEED THAT LAST BUT I M AG I N I N G THAT P R E L U D E TO I M AGI N I N G WAS TH E S E OTH E R . L I K E S EEDS L I Q U E FY I NG ITS FLOW. OR A DAMP C ROTC H . T H E Y S UGGESTED T H E CONSIS­ STATE W H I CH. EVEN R U N N I NG THE RISK OF TEA R I NG IT. I R A N MY FINGERS T H R O U G H HER P U B I C HAIRS AND PINCHED T H E S K I N TOGETH E R IN O R D E R TO OPEN HER VAGI N A TO MY G R E E DY. C O M M O N AS A N E R ECT M E M B E R . WITH I N . SIGNS OF PLEASU R E A ( A LWAYS FRUS­ BEC A U S E A LW A Y S OF C A STRATI NG DETU M E S­ OF THE DEGRADING BECAUSE CONC O M I TANT POLLUTIO N S ) . SENSES COULD N O R W A S I CON V I N C E D T H A T B E YOND O U R PRESENT PLEASURE. DESP ITE T H E F R E N ZY TORTU RING THE TWO OF US A N D W H I C H WAS FLOODING P A I N F U L PELASU R E THROUG HOUT M Y PASSION-WRACKED BODY. E XPLOR E D E V E R Y N O O K OF S K I N . EXTRA. I WAS N A K E D I N A F E W M O M E NTS. WAS C U RTA I LI NG T H E VO L U PTUOUS WA S NOT E N J OY M E NT OF THIS N I GHT. S C A TTE R I NG OF F I LTH SLOWLY. OVE R S E E I N G T H E S E D E LIGHTS A N D THAT ACCORD­ ING TO T H E M A STER'S W H I M THEY WERE G R A NTED FOR BUT ONE N I G HT O NLY. AS I WET H E R BODY W I T H MY S A L I V A . BEYOND OUR P RESENT I N H IBITING S I M I L A R T O D R I E D. BUT T H E DESI R E OOM I N ATING U S LIKE TWO A N I M ALS W A S SO I N TE N S E THAT IT I N H I BITED ANY SHOW O F PLEASURE. T R E M B L I N G AT MY N E RVE.A N A L TH E D E F EC A T I O N S ORGANS OR (FROM TH E SEXUAL A N OTH E R BODY). I UNDID MY WARM C O R D U ROY T R O U S E R S A N D DROPPED T H E M ON T H E FLOOR. VERY IN DARK URINE CARRYING J E LLY· THAT IT WAS NOT D I SC E R N I BL E . I S I M PLY W A NTED TO PROLONG TH E M A S LONG AS POS S I B L E .-TH E R E S O R T OF AND PL E A S U R E . I B E G A N S H I V E R I N G I N T H E COLD ROOM. I COULD NOT T H R UST M Y TONG U E PAST TH E O P E N I N G OF HER V U LV A . PEASURES MORE WERE BUT THE M A R V ELLOUS MY N I G HTS. MOTH E R P E R H A PS. I THOUGHT H E R F L E S H W A S G R A D U A L LY BECOM I N G SOFT E R A N D M O R E R E S I LI E NT A N D MY M O U T H . A LONG WITH TH E I R BROW N I S H C A ST. A N OT H E R ONE.

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H E R S. BR EATH M I NGLING WITH PANTI NG. I T H A P P E N E D SO S U D D E N LY T H A T F O R A M O M E N T I MY FACE WAS P R ESSED A G A I NST HERS AND I DID NOT R E A CT. M Y L O N G . I FOU N D I T D I F F I C U LT AT THE T I M E TO B E L I E V E H E R E N L A R G E D C L E FT COULD G I V E O F F S U C H A FOUL H E R ONLY RESPONSE TO EACH OF M Y MOV E M E NTS. I W A S SPEECHLESS. MORE FLEXIBLE ANGULAR THAN HERS AND N ICELY MOLDED THE BODY. EACH ONE OF MY MOV E M E NTS WAS PLA N N E D SO THAT A LL MY OUR PACT WAS NOW BROKEN. C A R ESSES. I SAW A S P L I T RUN A LONG HER S K I N . THEN PUSHED ASIDE THE BLACK SILK SCARF M ASKING H E R TH ROAT SO I M IGHT K I SS H E R NECK AND SUCK AT ITS W R I N K LES. M Y RAGE CAUSED BY T H E COMPLACENT PASSIVITY S H E S HOWED A FT E R T H E DISASTER. Y E T I HAD NOTH I N G BUT T E N D E R N E S S FOR H E R . COULD F E E L THE S H A R P EDGES OF H E R BONES C R A C K IN A GLASS. EACH B L O W M A D E H E R DOUBLE U P AS I K N E LT BETW E E N HER OPEN LEGS SO I MIGHT THOUGH TO PROTECT H E RSELF OR TO CATCH H E R BREATH. THROUGH H E R PUBLIC H A I RS. M Y DESIRE WAS F A N N E D ANEW AT THE WAY S H E OFFERED H E RSELF SO I M MODESTLY. OF A LTHOUGH MY BODY WAS M O R E MA LLEABLE. LOOK CONSCIOUS O F H E R CO M P L ETE DOM I NATION O V E R M E W H I C H SHE ACCOM PLI S H E D BY THE COLDNESS AND THE D E C E PT I V E R I G I D I TY OF HER BODY. DART M Y TON G U E I N TO H E R N A V E L. I KNEW MY I WOULD F E E L H E R I S E N S ED. S H E TOO WAS COLD. T H E WOU N D WAS P U R P L I S H A N D O D D LY D R Y AS THOUGH HER BLOOD HAD EVAPORATED I N DEATH. CONTOURS OF HER O V E R S I Z E G E N I TA L I A WHOSE D I M ENSIONS M A D E M Y PENIS. N I BBLE LOVI NGLY AT H E R N I PPLES I N A R U S H OF SA L I V A . T H E S L I T H A D EXTE N D E D T H E CLEFT I N H E R LA B I A TO FREAKISH I NCAPABLE PROPO RTIONS. CONTE M P LATE H E R VAG I N A A G A I N . HER SKIN HAD OPENED LIKE A E V E RYTH I N G TIO N A L C H A NG E D WHEN I. WAS T H E I R R I TAT I N G AND INCESSANT CRACKLE OF HER BO N ES. R U F FLING T H E STR I NG Y GREY H A I R S I N H E R TH I N FLEECE. MY EYES R E M A I N E D GOU G I NG M Y CHEEKS THORUGH THE S I LK K E R C H I EF. H E R H A N DS K E PT S N A P P I NG B E H I N D H E R BACK A N D T H E WHOLE K I TC H E N R E V E R B E R ATED WITH MY M U FFLED G E NTLENESS. I LOW E R E D MY HEAD AND BRUSHED MY H A LF­ MY DESPAI R C A U S E D B Y THE GROTE SQUE F I N I S H TO SO M UC H P L EA S U R E PROMISED TH E N WITH DRAWN. BUT G R A DU A LLY I REA LIZED T H E S M E L L THAT H A D A P P A L L E D M E SO MUCH AT FI RST ROSE FROM H E R R E E K I NG COR PSE. IT H A D BEEN S E A L E D W I TH OUR F I R ST KISSES AND WAS TO HAVE T R A N S PORTED BOTH O F U S TO THE H I G H EST PEAKS OF P L E A S U R E .B E S I D E H E R . D E S PITE H E R B O N D S AND H E R I N FERIOR POSITION. TO EACH R H YTH M I C CONTACT OF MY BODY WITH ODOU R. T H E P U B I S H A D A F U R ROW AT LEAST FOU R I N C H E S IN L E NGTH. MY P E N I S WAS LI M P. C A R E F U L NOT TO PRESS DOWN TOO HARD LEST I H U RT H E R AND MAKE HER FRA I L H A R D B E LLY. I TURNED AROUND SO I 1 150 . B U T H E R E F FO RTS W E R E V A I N . COULD L I C K H E R G E N ITALS AGA I N A N D THE BLACK C R A N N I E S BETW E E N HER THIGHS. U N DER T H E TH I N CLOTH. S H R I VE L L E D A N D BLUE WITH C O L D . W I TH U N I NTEN­ WIDE HER B R U TA L I TY . A N D FOR THE TWO OF US NOTHING BUT THE DESIRE FOR BOU N D LESS PLEASURE. A N D I H EL D H E R C LOSE T O M E T O G I V E H E R M Y WARMTH. SOON I WAS STRETC H I NG OUT M Y LONG. I WAS V E R Y SUCCESSIVE CAUSED BY BOUTS O F THAT DISBELIEF T E R RO R THOSE FISSURED FLESH. LA P AT THE S I D E S OF H E R FLAT. L I K E A M E R E WA RT. THE MOVEMENTS O F M Y BODY ON H E R BODY. HAD I R E MOVED IT. DANGLI NG TESTIC LES STRUCK AGA I N ST H E R PUBLIS. TH I N BODY OV E R H E RS. TO EACH V I B RATION OF MY L I M BS. S U C K A T H E R A R M PITS I N T H E HOPE OF F I N D I N G A TRACE O F H E R SWEAT. WOULD BE SUFFUSED WITH I N FI N ITE S U D D E N L Y T H E SIGHT O F H E R R U I N ED G E N ITALS U N H I NG E D M E COM PLETELY AND I BEGAN P U N C H I N G H E R B E LLY. BON ES C R ACK. THAT HER FACE WAS LIKE M I NE. BATHED IN SWEAT AND FLUS H E D WITH R I V ETED U PO N H E R TO R N P U B I S F O R A LONG T I M E . A N D AT EVERY THRUST OF M Y LOI N S I T TWISTED A N D TU R N E D L I K E A LARGE WO R M ON THE W R I N K LED PARCH M E NT O F H E R B E LLY. WITHOUT W A R N I NG. D R U M M I N G ON H E R B E LLY. R E L E A S E D A C LOSED MOUTH AGAI NST H E R B E LLY AND B R EASTS. MO V E M ENT AND OVERCOME AND BY PASSION AND PLEASURE. WAS SPREADING L A B I A .

C R EATI N G ON HER C H E E KS. K N OC K E D H E R F R O M SIDE T O S I D E A S F A R A S H E R M E RC I LESS FETTERS WOULD A L LOW. A N D WITH THE S I N G LE M I N D E D N E S S O F TRU N K WHOSE O N LY R EACTION WAS SPLITS I N ITS BARK. FEET TO THE B E D POSTS POI NT. HER A R M PITS. NOT A S I N G L E TEAR. UNDER TYI N G MY HER R EPEATED BLOWS. H E R EYES W E R E FOCU S E D U N B L I N K I NG LY ON W H ATEV E R WAS B E FORE T H E M . T H E BLOOD S H E D I D NOT WANT TO G I V E ME. AS LONG A S I STI L L H A D A N U N B ROKEN F I N G E R N A I L I SLIT O P E N HER FLESH IN LON G .F E R A L VIOLENCE THAT K E PT M E. SHE R E M A I N E D A S I NSENSIITIVE A S TH E BED THAT SUFFERED O U R FERINE TH RA S H I N GS. NO SIGN OF A PPROVA L. E V E N H E R EYES R E M A I N E D M UTE. I R R E PA RA B L E WOUNDS. N O SCA R LET TEA R TO COMFORT M E . WAS THE NOT HAVE. H E R N E C K WERE A L L D U LY RI PPED A N D TOR N . AN OLD IT S E E M E D AS I PISSED I NTO THE DEE PEST REACHES OF HER THOUGH I WAS POU N D I NG ROTTEN TREE TH ROAT. A N D Y E T I H A D PUT H E R T H R O U G H SO M U C H I THOSE LONG MOMENTS O F M A D N E S S F U L L OF F U R Y AND H O RROR UNTI L TH E CRUEL CRAVING O F M Y H A N DS WAS SATED. H E R L I PS N E V E R Q U I V E R E D. SERE N E A R LY TO T H E SKIN FROM H E R AWAY B R EA K I NG A N KLES IN GOUGI N G T H E S H E ETS THAT ROLLED FROM TH E FLESH HER L I K E STR I PS OF W A ST E D BODY A N D NOT ONCE DID SHE CRY OUTI Y E L LO W E D PA R C H M E N T. H A D F I N I S H E D TEA RING H E R I NDI FFERENT BODY I NTO H I DEOUS SH REDS OF S K I N A N D FLESH. I N VARIOUS PLACES. BUT H E R P A I N C A U S E D NO SHOUT. TWISTED A N D T U R N E D I N VIOLENT CONTORTIONS MY ACTIONS HAD BY NOW S U R PASSED EVERYTH I N G THAT M A D N ESS C A N D ICTATE. BUT STI LL I KEPT ON. AND PUNCHED HER SO THAT I W R E N C H E D O P E N H E R MOUTH. HER WOU N DS W E R E RAPI DLY TU R N I NG PURPLE O R YELLOW L I K E H E R S K I N . NOR DID HER I SPA R E D N O P A R T OF H E R BODY. DISLOCATI N G TH E F R A I L B O N E S O F H E R JAW. SHE SEEMED NOT TO BE T H E R E . WITH N O T A S I N G L E R U B Y AT TIMES I T WAS NOT H A R D TO B E L I EVE SHE WAS DEAD. HER MONSTROUSLY GAPI N G L A B I A . A N D T H E T R E M B L I NG OF MY FI NGERS HAD ABATED. NOT A S I NGLE TEA R OF B LOOD. A S MY U R I N E S P U RTED OVER H E R FACE IT G L U E D H E R H A I R T O H E R S K U L L A N D FOR M ED A WET H A LO UPON THE STI LL I M MACU LATE S H E ETS. H A M M E R I N G E V E R Y I N C H OF H E R BODY. I WAS RACKED BY SPASMS O F U N E A RTHLY RAGE. T E A R W I N K I NG I N THE LESIONS. A RT I F I C I A L C R E AT I N G TEARS ARTIFIC I A L BLOOD TO R E PLACE THE BLOOD S H E D I D M Y RAGE R E A C H E D S U C H B E R S E R K H E IGHTS THAT AT TI M ES I NO LONG E R KNEW ITS OBJ ECT. SHE N EV E R ONCE SHUDDERED. A N D AT T I M E S H E R E M PTY GAZE M ET M I N E. A T I N Y WORM B L U E WITH COLD. H E R HA LF­ CLOS ED EYELIDS R E M A I N E D THAT W A Y . H A R D SHE K E PT OOU BLI NG UP L I K E A J A C K K N I F E AT EVERY S M A S H OF MY F I STS. MOUTH GAPE A N Y W I D E R T H A N B E FO R E . FOR ONE LONG OUTRAGE D I R ECTED AT ME OR H E R ? WAS I T R E A L L Y MY G R A N DMOT H E R I WAS P U NC H I NG A N D K I C K I N G S O ATROC IOUSLY? HOUR. H E R B R E A STS. EVER MORE FEROCIOUSLY . BUT ONLY A FT E R THEIR N A I LS. I R E LEASED A LL TH E C R U E LTY I COU LD M U STER. BUT IT W A S T H E N THAT MADE H E R L I M BS S N A P L I K E K I N DL I NG AS I P U M M ELLED H E R BATTE R E D BODY. A N D S L I P P E D I N M Y PENIS. THE H E M P BONDS STRETC H E D H E R S K I N . NO GESTURE OF SELF-DEFENCE. STI FFENED B Y T H E COLD. H E R LEATH E R N B E L LY. RAGING D E S I R E I M O V E D I N AND OUT O F H E R MOUTH IN SAVAGE I M ITATION OF T H E ACT I HAD BEEN DENIED. E V E R M O R E I NTEN S E LY . TH I N K SHE S U F F E R E D A G R EAT D E A L. AND I K E PT ON OF PAI N P I S S I N G . 1 15 1 . NO T E A R ZIGZAGGED DOWN THE W R I N K L E OF HER W A X E N FACE. AND I BEGAN PISSI NG. N O SIGN O F R E PROACH. C A M E AWAY BY T H E H A NDFU L A N D C U RLED U P I N T O WITH E R E D ROLLS.

L. 28 THE COLO N N A D E OF THE GA LLERY: R. THE TERRACE OF T H E REGENCY CAFE WHERE R. SLIGHTLY D I S H EVELLED. 27. FL.-WIPES THE TABLE.L.Y. T H E G A L L.L. K I N G UP THE G A L L E R Y U N D E R A RC A D ES. DECAY. E R Y MONTPE N S I E R .L.S U D D E N L.. T H E WAITER MOVES TOW A R D R. NOW M I N G L. I S SEATED AT A TABLE. W A L K I N G A S TH ROUGH NOT S U R E OF H E R STEPS. REPUDIATING A L. 25. 29. AL. A PP E A RS.M. I FEL. 24. I NTO A DEEP S L. 1 152 .L. 28 BIS. ANONYMOUS A U THOR TRAN SLATED BY DANIEL SLOATE S M E L. E E P THAT NO D R E A M 23. 28 TER. FADE O U T -SO U N D OF R:S STEPS U N D E R THE ARCADES. S E E N F R O M R E A R W A L. THE CLOCK ON T H E SQU A R E OF TH E T H EATRE FRANC A I S M A R K I NG 15 P. 26. STOPS TH EN CROSSES THE SQU A R E.ESH AND MY OWN PISS WITH ITS SMEL. STEPS OF THE COR P U L E N T MAN. TH E FOUNTA I N S ON T H E SQU A R E. I N G WITH HER DEAD DI STU R B E D . R. THOSE WASTED STRIPS OF S K I N .

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HER BACK S H E TA K E S A POCK E T M I R ROR FROM H E R BAG AND LOOKS A T H E RS E LF. . WHAT H A V E I GOT ROBE RTE (VO( C E OFF) : THAT OCTAVE SHOULD H A V E T H E I N CONC E I V A B L E A R ROGA N C E T O I M A G I N E H E I S T H E A U THOR OF MY I M PROP R I E T I E S IS O N E TH I NG . ROB E R T E . BUT A S TO B E L I E V I N G H I M S E L F THE ORIGIN ATOR OF MY T E M P E R A M E NT. VOICE I S H E A R D O F F STAGE. C O M E S OVERo T O H E R . I N S E RT I N G H E R F I NG E RS U N D E R THE L A C E OF H E R GLOV ES. . I N FRONT OF THE CAFE LE N E M OURS. THE POOR DEAR DOESN'T KNOW WHAT I'M CAPABLE OF WITHOUT H I M . CONC E R N E D BY HIS C Ll ENrs ODD A G A ( N ST THOSE TWO M E N ? IF TH E Y FOU N D SOM E WRETC H E D PL E A S U R E . ROB E RTE (VO I C E OFF): A FT E R A LL. . . . THE GARDENS OF TH E PA L A I S-ROY A L AND ITS FOUNTA I N S PLAYI NG. ST A N D I N G IN THE SUN. ROBERTE·S . B E H A V I O U R . TURNS AWAY WITHOUT S E E I NG HIM. WAITER. . N E A R B Y S H E H A S L E FT THE TEA THAT HAS B E E N BROUGHT T O H E R A N D H E R BAG. THE I S I T POSSIBLE A WOM A N S E E K S TO EXPE R I E N C E A V IOLENT S E N S E OF S H A M E J U ST BECA U S E S H E'S RESPECTABLE? I REMEMBER I WAS ASHAMED W A I T E R : A R E YO.T H E PA R A L L E L B A R S EXTE R I O R PA R I S DAYLIGHT GYM N A S I U M I N T E R IOR DAYLIG HT.-' A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . D R E A M I LY A N D R ETU R N S TO SIT AT H E R AGAI N ST T H E COLON N A D E O F T H E PA LAI S-ROYAL. W A S M Y PLEA S U R E A N Y THE L E S S FOR THAT? ROBE RTE S M I LES TABLE. ON A TABLE 1 154 . S H E LOOKS AT T H E FOUNTA I N S ON THE SQU A R E AND STROK ES HER W R I STS. Irs NOW THE PLE A S U R E BEG I N S F O R M E . .

W I T H A S I N G L E G E ST U R E . LOST IN REVERIE. THEN PASSES HER AND GOES OSTE N S I BLY BUS: S H E WATC H E S T H E PASS I N G SC E N E AS T H E B U S TRAVELS F RO M TH E C H A M B E R OF DEPUTI ES V I A THE PONT ROYA L TOWA R D T H E LOU V R E . AND WI THOUT HOPE OF E SC A P I N G FROM HIS DETERMI N E D GRASP. WHO H A S WATC H E D H E R F ROM T H E PLATFOR M . S L I D E S H I S FINGERS I M PERCEPTIBLY H A N D. W H E N REACHES THE HA LF-OPEN DOOR I S S U C H A B U RN I NG I N V I TATION SHE C A N NOT R ESIST O P E N I N G IT. NOW S H E CAN B E SEEN T H ROUGH T H E COLON N A D E OF T H E RUE DE MONTPE N S I E R IN THE P A LA I S­ W H I L E TH E MOLLUSK F I R M LY ATTAC H E S ROBE RTE'S WRISTS TO THE BARS BY M EA N S OF THE LEATH E R STRAPS. CASUA LLY. NOW COM E S A N D SITS DOWN OPPOSITE. W E A R I N G T H E S A M E U N I FO R M AS L I TT L E F. TOW A R D ROBE RTE'S ABA NDON E D GLOOM Y HA LL. THE SQUAT M A N DOES T H E S A M E FOR H E R A N KLES. ENJOYING THE BREEZE ON FROM T H E OPEN W I N DOW. R E LAXES. OBSERVI NG HER AT L E I S U R E OUT OF T H E CORN E R OF H I S EYE. HIS H A N DS SPLAYED SHE F I N DS A PLACE IN TH E SUN WH E R E HER SHE FACE ACROSS H E R THIGHS. SO THAT BEFORE SHE K N OWS WHAT HAS H A PP E N E D ROBERTE F I N D S H E R S E LF. THE SQUAT M A N . F U LL OF U N K NOWN FOR M S T H A T SH I N E I N T H E HALF-LIGHT. TH E N D I SA P P E A R S . IN T H E M I DDLE O F W H I C H . H A S W A I T E D F O R THIS M O M E N T T O THROW A L L T H E L I G H T REQU I R E D ON THE SCE N E OF E V E N TS. THROUGH A DARK PORCHWAY. WHEN THE DOOR BANGS LOU D L Y BEHIND OF HER. T H E I N DI V I DUAL. H E TURNS ON THE SWITCH AND I LLU M I N ATES TH E ROO M : IT I S A OVER THE SHOT OF ROBE RTE C LOS I N G H E R EYES IS S U P E R I M POSED A S HOT O F T H E PARALLEL BARS FROM WHICH TWO LEATH E R STR A PS A R E H A N G I NG . ROYAL. WHO. WHEN TH E BUS STOPS AT T H E COM E D I E F R A N C A I S E ROBERTE G E T S O F F Q U I C K LY. HE TOUC H E S H E R F I N G E R S : ROBERTE WITHDRAWS HER HAND. HER LEGS LAZI LY APART. S H E PASSES A LO N G T H E GALLERY LOOK I N G I NTO SHOP-WINDOWS. T O H E R F U R Y. A LTHOUGH H A N D AWAY A N D GOES T O S I T I N S I D E T H E BUS. M A N OF T H E A M E R I C A N C A R. WORK-SHOP IN AN A B A N DO N E D FACTORY. A LARGE COLON I A L FAN SLOWLY B EG I N S TO T U R N JUST ABOVE T H E M . TH ROWS HER LIKE A STRAW OVER HIS SHOULDERS. TI ED H A N D I SS . T O R N O F F H E R S K I RT. S H E HITS HARD AT H I M . ROBERTE R U N S TOWARD THE STA I RC A S E . INTERMINABLE PASSAGEWAY T O T H E LEADS TO A TOP O F A STARICASE W H I C H VAST A N D E E R I E ROOM. S H E P L A C E S H E R GLOV E D H A N D ON T H E R A I L. AS ROBE RTE. T H E MOLLUSK DELIBER­ ATELY PUTS HIS F I N G E R S ON THOSE OF ROBERTE. LITTLE SCHOOLBOY X. H A V I N G F I R ST. WATC H ES H E R . U N A BLE TO R E S I ST. WHO H A S FOLLOWED H E R . THEN. AS A MASSIVE INDIVIDUAL TAKES UP HIS POS I T I O N ROBERTE CONTI N U E S SHE HER W I N DOW-S H O P P I NG. I M M E N S E ON A L E A D BASE. WALKS B E S I D E H E R FOR A M O M E NT. RISKS A STEP I N TO T H E D A R K N ESS.BACK V I E W OF ROBERTE ON T H E PLATFORM OF A B E H I N D H E R C A N BE H E A R D TH E FOOTSTEPS OF T H E MOLLUSK. ROBERTE I M M E DATELY CLOSES H E R EYES. S H E RECOG N I Z E S T H E SQUAT TH E N . PORCHWA Y T H E BESIDE HER. S H E I S C A R R I E D A LONG A N TH E MOLLUSK. THE BARRED BY THE I M POSI NG S I LHOU ETTE MOLLUSK. B E FORE SHE HAS TIME TO CRY OUT A DOOR IN FRONT OF HER I S OPE N E D BY A N I N T E RLOPER WHO BARS THE ACCESS. CAUGHT I N D I G N A NT. WHOSE H E AVY B O D Y A N D FACE A R E R E M I N I SCENT O F A MOLLUSK. SHE FINDS H ERSELF IN A DELAPI DATED AND WATC H E S TH E R I V E R A N D THE T R E E S G O BY. A N D A NTOI N E . C ROSSES HER LEGS AND R U N N I NG A H E A D OF TH E M . R O B E RTE I M M E D I AT E LY P U L LS HER I M M EDIATELY BY T H E MOLLUSK. LOOM TWO PA R A L L E L BARS. H E CATC H ES U P WITH H E R .

. STR E A M I N G WITH WATER. COLLA PSES I N A DEAD F A I N T O N TH E FLOOR. HAND. OPENS HER C O LO N N A D E OF CAFE COV E R I N G ONE I N T E R R U PT E D B Y T H E WA ITE R'S VOI C E . THE BACK LE AGAI NST T H E NEMOURS IS IMMOBILIZE MOLLU SK'S GLOVE TRIES PUSH THE BODY. H E SLI PS T H E R E D C A R D I N TO H E R B A G A N D POU R S A G LASS O F B R A N DY. ROSERTE (VOI C E OFF): HOW SOOTH I N G T H E PLA Y OF TH E FOU N TA I N S U N D E R TH E PLANE TREES. THE MOLLUSK LETS GO HER H A N D A N D S H E L OO K S AT H E RS E L F A N D S M I LES. R O B E R T E M U R M URS: S H E EXA M I N E S IT.R OY A L AND ITS FOUNTA I N S . . . S H A DOW OF A R EC L I N I NG BODY SLIDES DOW N : IT I S L I TTLE X . THE TH E SQUAT M A N AND THE GLASS RETURNS. W I THOUT S E E I NG H I M . ITS MOV E M ENT S LOW I N G A N D C H A NG I N G LITTLE BY LITTLE I NTO A LANGUOR­ OUS U N D U LATION OF THE K N E E . WITHOUT A WORD. ROBE RTE SLAPS H I S F A C E W I T H SUCH FORCE THE G L ASS FALLS AND SPLINTERS TO 1 56 . . A N D W H I L E WITH THE H I G H H E E L OF ON E F R E E FOOT WHICH THE SQUAT SHE MAN HAS TO NEGLECTED AWAY TO ROBERTE. THEN. I N SO L E N C E . S U PE R I M POSED O V E R THE W O R D O F FOR A MOM ENT SHE OPENS H E R EYES TO M E ET T H E I M PLACABLE MA I N TA I N S THE GAZE HOLD OF THE SQUAT MAN WHO S H E PLACES T H E CARD ON THE TABLE A N D T A K E S OUT H E R POC K E T M I R R O R . THE CARD BEARS A FACSI M I L E OF HER OWN F I N G E R P R I NTS. ROBERTE: PUT OUT THE LIGHT TH EN . OPE N I NG HER BAG TO TA K E OUT THE POC K E T M I RROR. SHOC K E D BY HIS P I E R R E K LOSSOW S K I TRAN SLATED SY CATH E RI N E D U N C A N GARDENS OF THE PA L A I S.A N D FOOT TO THE BARS. TH E SQUAT MAN D R A P E D OVER H E R S U S P E N D E R BE LT. GOD: " I N PRI N C I P I O E RAT VERBUM HIS QUITE U N N ECESSA R I LY ON IN A CLIMAX OF FETTE R E D ANKLE. H E D E L I CATELY RE MOVES THE ROBERTE'S ONE. S H E S E E S A R E D C A R D SLI PPED I N S I DE. H A NDS H E R H E R BAG OF B R A N DY . LOST IN REVERIE. R E P U L S I NG THE MOLLUSK WITH T H E S A M E E N ERGY. F I X E S H I S TON G U E AGAI NST I T A N D B E G I N S T O TITI LLATE TH E PALM WITH I N C R E A S I N G V I OLENCE. S H E T U R N S SLOWLY. L E FT ALONE WITH TH E BARS IN THE HER D E S E RTED S K I RT AND GYM N A S I U M . T H E S Q U A T M A N I M M E D I ATELY D R A G S H I M A W A Y . S H E LOOKS U P AT THE G L ASS DOME ABOVE HER WHERE TH E HOW EXQUISITE T H E C I TY I N ITS RE FLECTIONS . UNTIES ROBE RTE AND DISAP­ PEARS BY THE STA I RCASE. ROBE RTE PUTS ON S U D D E N LY F E E LS HORRIBLY A LONE. A P PROACHES H I S MOUTH TO H E R OPEN PA L M . S M I L E S AT H E R I N SO L E NTLY. WHEN E MOTI ON. THE COAT OF H E R S U I T PIECES ON TH E TILED FLOOR. FINGERS BY AND WITH E M OTI O N WAIT E R : A R E Y O U A L L R I GHT? Y O U LOOK P A L E . . STR OKES H E R W R I STS A N D GOES TO SIT DOWN AT THE TA B L E ROBE RTE LONG E R CLOSES CAPABLE HER OF EYES. HER LEG IS NO W H E R E A C U P O F TEA A N D TWO CROI SSANTS A R E WAITING.

IN BOOKS TOO. THEY A R E P ROS. I S T H E O N LY PLACE WHERE A D I RECT RELATION S H I P IS I N VOLVED.. Q U ESTIONS. SH E'S A STA R? S H E'S B E E N OOI NG S/M FOR TWENTY Y E A R S . R ESPONDS. TA L K I NG A BO UT. A RECORDS. P R E TT Y ? AN ABSURD QUESTIO N WHICH NO CUST<. A BLACK SLICKER COAT W H I C H S H E HAS WOR N FROM T H E B EG I N N I N G AND WHICH HAS EA R N E D HER TH E A N D. G R E E N EYES. TH E PROSTITUTE AND T H E COP. IN A LL TH R E E C A S E S . FITTED LEATH E R OUTFIT. LET'S GAG HIM. A PHOTO T A C K E D ON T H E WALL: A WOM A N OF ABOUT FI FTY. SOM ETH I NG H EAVY ABOUT H E R FACE. DECI DES. J A C K I E : T H I RTY Y E A R S OLD N E XT OCTOB E R . SH E'S I N N E W YORK. HIS TWO OBJECTIVE ACCOMPLICES. HAS SEEN E V E R Y T H I NG. THEY DON'T C H A N G E THE FACTS. TH E Y OON'T GET DELI RIOUS." "SH E'S DUTCH. BUT I H A V E A CUSTO M E R WHO T R A N SLATES SEXUAL DEVIATION. H I S P R E J U DICES. YOU'LL BE T A K E N FOR A RIDE. H E R GAZE. N E I T H E R DOES SHE. N I C K N A M E : SLICK-JAC K I E . S I G N E D: "TO JACK I E W I T H BEST REGARDS. B LOND. L A C E D T O T H E K N E E . 143 LBS. YOU SEE HER IN A L L O F THE MAGAZIN ES. TELL E N OUGH AS IT IS. JOAN. LIVING M A TT E R WHICH L I ST E N S . VICE I S A LWAYS THE S A M E : IT H A PP E N S W H E N M I SFORT U N E I S GOOD. SHE IS THAT O B J ECT. AN A N I M A L TA M E R'S W H I P IN H E R H A N D . S H I N Y R E D BOOTS. 157 . W H Y T H E PROSTITUTE? IN W H A T SENSE I S SHE MORE QUALI F I E D THAN THE D R U G DEALER O R CROU P I E R T O S P E A K A BOUT V I C E ? DON'T A LL T H R E E PLAY A S I M I LA R ROL E : TO FU R N I S H TH E M A N OF VICE WITH THE OBJECT OF HIS P L E A S U R E? U N OO U BTEDLY. 'HER FOOT ON A C H A I R . S H E WRITES M E T O EXPLA I N W H E N T H E Y OON'T S P E A K F R E N C H . S H E'S E V E N SENT M E C U STOM ERS. M E R H A S E V E R ASKED H I M S E LF. H I S M Y T H S . HEARD SO IS FANTA S I ES. S H E ·KNOWS·. 5'5". OF COURSE. J U ST AS ' N E E D' ENTERS I NTO THAT OF T H E A D D ICT. N U M BE R . OBVIOUS­ LY A LWAYS O N E SPOT AWAY FROM T H E W I N N I NG SHE . HE WILL MAKE YOU SWA LLOW ALL OF HIS D R UG WHICH SETS ITS O W N DOS E . C O M E DIENNE AND TORTURER LET THE M A N OF V I C E TALK. BOOTS. STOP. EVERYTH I N G W H AT. O N E F I N DS THE OBJECT DEPRIVED OF I TS F I R ST D E ST I N A T I O N AND PLEASURE M A D E U N N AT U R A L : LOSS ENTERS I NTO T H E PLEASU R E OF TH E G A M B L E R . H E R G A I T.SAINTE J ACKIE. BUT THE OOM A I N O F PROSTITUTION. . T H E PROSTI­ TUTE OOES MORE T H A N FU R N I S H A N OBJ ECT. . A R O U L ETTE W H E E L W H I C H CHOOSES W H E R E TO STOP. SHORT BLACK H A I R . J U ST AS THE S U P R E M E H U M I LIATION -OF PAYI NG TO B E LOV ED­ ENTERS INTO THAT O F THE JOH N . H I S LIES. 3" H E E LS. SHE A N D U N D E RSTOOD SHE KNOWS NOTH I NG? WHAT SHE TALKS.

P U M PS THE BIG C RO S S . JACKIE A R E A R R A N G E D IN THE OTH E R ROOM. I N F I V E M I N UTES T H E YOU N G C H I LD R E N W I L L L E A V E S C H OO L . E M PTY ROOM. D O E S NOT E V E N M A K E US S M I L E . A S I G N A L P E R H A PS? SHE CALLS US TWO M I N UTES LATER. BLACK LACQU E R P E N C I L BOX FI LLED WITH S M A L L P I EC E S O F PA P E R . F A C E AGAI NST THE FLOOR. THE W H E EL." S H E SAYS. C U STOM E R · S L A V E . TO R I N G J A C K I E'S D OO R . AND CUSTOM E R WILL COME. L I TT L E W H I PS ( T H E OTH E R S A R E I N TH E TORTUR E ROO M ) . T H E TRUTH IS THAT WE A R E T E R R I FIED. LEATH E R STRI PS. W H O M A K E S TH E M . J A C K I E'S P R E P A R A TI O N S -I N P A R T I C U L A R ." TH E A B S U R DITY O F T H I S C O N F I D E N C E . G A R T E R S . COM PLETE T H E S E T . SOME WHI PS. TEN FEET H IGH. THE CLASSIC COMMODE. O N A R A C K . H E W I L L B E A S K E D I F H E I S "AWA R E OF W H A T I S DON E H E R E . ON THE OBVIOUSLY T H E ATMOSPH E R E H A S CHANGED: THE MOTIONLESS BODY OF TH I S NICE MAN. THR E A D ) . JACKIE GOES TO OPEN. AN X. A G R A N D-G UIGNOL SET WHICH GAVE US A FEW GOOD LAUGHS. THE DOO RBELL R I NGS. "I'M K E E P I NG H I M U N T I L E I G H T O'CLOCK TON I GHT. 1 158 . R E T U R N S TO TH E KITC H E N WHERE S H E HAS LEFT US. A M A N OF A BOUT SI XTY·FIVE. A N D PA NTI E S M A D E O F B L A C K LEATH ER. H E W I L L G I V E T H E N A M E O F A F R I E N D WHO SENT H I M . DEATHLY S I L E N C E . BUT T H I S ONE WORKS!). ARE NOW BOTH H E E LS. SHE I S I N F R O N T O F US. D E L I BERATELY OR N OT. FOR WILD A N I M ALS. THIS S H REDDING C LOTH I N G MIGHT NOT BE BAD. N EXT. PULLING A PACKAGE B E H I N D HER.M. TWE N TY I NC H E S D E E P. "SOl ITS L I K E THAT! YOU D A R E TO COM E IN RAGS TO S E E FRONT O F T H E DOOR. THATS LATE R . WE H A D EXAM I N E D T H I S S A M E ROOM WITHOUT A N YO N E I N I T . W E A R I NG AN WITH PANTS OF TH E S A M E COLOR A N D FABRIC. VINCENNES. O N E OF W H I C H IS A F A K E M A D E OF R U B B E R I . B R A S . J A C K I E' S MOUTH E M I TS A SOU ND. GIVE TH E N J O I N M E ME TI M E TO P R E PA R E H I M . SOUNDS AT THE DOOR. SHE T U R N S TOWA RDS US. HE'S ON E OF TH E BEST. T H E TOR N SH I RT R A S P S L I K E FABRIC I N A D E S I G N E R'S WORK ROOM. HE I S B A L D . S H E P U M M E LS T H E POOR M A N W I TH K I C K S A N D SLA PS. " T H E N H E W I L L B E POLITELY A S K E D T O WAIT I N A LARGE. A L L O F T H E OTH E R S M A L L E R PROPS-A N D TH E R E A R E M A N Y­ S H E'S TER R I BLY WELL· K N O W N . FOLDED I N QUARTE RS. S O F T M O A N S . HIM ENTER H E A D FI RST. J UST PUT ON A MASK OR A HOOD I F YOU DON'T WANT H I M T O S E E YOU R FAC E. T H E F R E SH M E N A N EW WILL BE D I S M I SS E D IN A N HOUR E A R L I E R . ORDINARY G R E E N I S H ·G R A Y HE I S S H I RT YOUR M I STRESSI THATS THE WAY Y O U W A N T ITI I N RAGSI" S H E I S S U D D E N LY A N I MATED. ABOUT F I FTEEN. 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AND IN A P E N ETRATI NG VOI C E A N NOUNCES: "H E'S B E LG I A N." S H E LAUGHS. H E R I NSPECTIONS OF TH E W H E E L'S FUNCTIONING. A S I F TO EXC U S E H E RS E L F FOR I N T E R R U PTING THE S E S S I O N . W H E R E T H E VICTI M M A Y BE 'PU N I S H E D' FOR FIVE HOURS ST R A I G H T . THE ONE A FT E R OF THE THE TH E PHOTOGRAPHED. S I Z E S H E LV E S O F A S M A L L BOOKCA SE-FROM W H I C H I S A B S E N T A L L O F TH E SC A N D I N A V I A N POR N OG R A P H Y W H I C H M A K E S S E X·SHOP PROFITA B L E -A L L O F T H E S M A L L E R OBJ ECTS: D I LDOS OF E V E R Y SIZE AND D A NGLING R I NGS F O R W R I STS A N D A N K LES. B E LTS. F I N A LLY. THE CAGE. VOIC E . SHE'S A STAR:' TUESDAY. SEWING AS FIVE MANY OR (AN U T E N S I LS (TE N KINDS OF WOODEN C O N T R A PT I O N I M P R I SO N S TH E D I FFE R E NT Q U A L I T I E S O F SIX PA I RS OF H A N DC U F F S N EC K A N D A R M S ( U N DOU BTEDLY A R E P RODUCTION M A D E BY A HORROR MOV I E SET DESIG N E R . CLI PS. W H I C H C A N PULL TH E L I M BS OF TH E VICTI M UNTIL H E I S QUA RTERED. WHICH SEEMS TO LEAVE SOM ETH I N G TO BE D E S I R E D-THE S E E M I NGLY OBLIGATORY M UTENESS: ALL OF THIS A B R U PTLY M A KES THE D I FFERENT A PPA RATUSES REAL. T H E H E ELS O F T H E BOOT STR I K ES. SECONDS FEEL LIKE HOURS. PU LLS OFF HIS LAST S H RE D S O F CLOTH I NG. M A R K E D ' P EGI' I RO N WORK E R FROM T H E R U E D E S PETITS-C H A M PS. COATS. S H A R P POINT M A K E S A LONG R E D M A R K ON T H E BACK. I N T H E ROOM ON T H E LE FT. WE ENTER TH E TORT U R E ROOM. TA K E S DOWN A C O U NTS OPENS OUT THI RTY LASHES MAKES IN A TIRED IT. H A D TH E I D E A OF M A R K I NG TH E M SO A S TO SUGGEST T H E I N I T I A L S O F TH E POLIC E J U D I C I A I R E J . SHE M IGHT COME SEE ME HERE. T I E D AT OU R F E ET. 3: 1 0 P.

IS WHAT ONE N EE D S TO KNOW OF GENERA LLY. JAC K I E E X P LA I N S. "THATS T H E M I RACLE. THE COST OF S U F F E R I N G I S C A LCULATED BY J A C K I E ON AN INDIVIDUAL BASIS. WE KNOW THEM A LL . "NOW YOU CAN REA LLY SAY YOU'RE LUCKY: YOU DREW T H E E A S I EST P U N I S H M E N T!" O N L Y A FT E R TH I S W I L L JAC K I E I N FO R M TH E CUSTO M E R OF H I S N U M BE R . TWO OTH E R S O N TH E R U E Q U I NCAM· PO I X (TEN YEARS AGO THERE WERE SEVEN OR T H E M . SIX OF T H E M . BETW E E N ONE H U N D R E D A N D O N E H U N D R E D A N D TWENTY. U N FOLDS O N L Y ONE IT AND R E A DS. LET'S A B A N DO N THE FALSE OBJ ECTIVITY OF BUT. G E N E R AL LY. THEY HOW DESC R I PTION A N D SPECIFY THAT M O R E T H A N HALF O F T H E V I SITORS A S K TO B E SEWN WITH N E ED L E AND T H R E A D ." S A Y S JACKIE. P R ACTIC A L QU ESTIONS. W H O M B E FO R E DRAWS A S M A L L P I E C E OF PAPER HELP A LITTLE.JACK I E SITS ON A THRONE PLAC E D ON A SHAKY P L A T FO R M . TOO. TH E Y AT 200· I S S U F F I C I E N T TO C A UTERIZE A R E 'WH I P P I N G S P EC I A LI STS: T H E R E'S O N E O N T H E R U E BLO N D E L . NO SEWING. THE CRACK O F THE BUTTOCKS. T H E OBJ ECT-HAS BEEN C A R EF U LLY BOU N D TO AVOI D ANY R I S K OF REBELLION THERE TABLE IS AND GAGG E D TO OF A STIFLE IT T H E C R I ES. THEY EARN A LOT OF M O N EY. J AC K I E $ 50 ." 84 W I L L TH E N CHOOSE FROM T H E OUTFITS O N T H E W A L L T H E O N E WHICH H E WILL WEAR DURING HIS P U N I S H MENT. W H I C H H E W I L L H A V E T O R E M E M B E R F O R FUTURE V I S I TS. A PRIVATE CHAT WITH A H IG H POLICE O F F I C I A L : '. H A LF-ADM I R I NG ." EIGHT ON THAT STR E E n . E V E RYTH I N G D R I E D U P. ONE ON T H E R U E D E LA REYNIE. OF T H E OTH ERS. T H R E E DAYS LATER. I ALWAYS W E A R FROM T H E P E NC I L BOX. A NOTH E R SESSION? S ETS QU ESTION: THOUGH WHAT IS TH E NO COST OF A HELL HAS PRICE. EVEN TRY.B E TW E E N OTH E R S PAY BETW E E N D E P E N D I NG O N T H E I R M E A NS.J A C K I E ' S ACTIV I T I E S . WHO SOM E . T H E Y A R E DANGEROUS. WHICH PAY HER A ON LY T H E BEGI N N E R RISKS A S K I N G Q U E STIONS. L I M ITED W H I P P I N G . IN THAT CASE. COURSE.H E GI R LS L I K E T H O S E YOU A R E T A L K I N G A BOUT. U S U A LLY W I TH H I S TEETH. T H E Y PAY B Y THE MONTH . I H A V E TO B U Y SURGEON'S G LOVES. THEY ARE ON F I L E H E R E . THEY A R E CA P A B L E OF M U R D E R . $ 1 000 THE T O J A C K I E . LOOK. UNTIL T H E Y HAVE REACHED T H E PEAK OF T H E I R PLEA S U R E . I'M R U N S O N THE STATES IN ("NEVER LOT. THEY DON'T C O M E I N B L A C K . ANY JACKIE: MORE. L I K E MOST OF TH E OTH E R PROSTITUTES. ROUGH LY. THUS. N O TORT U R E O N THE W H E E L OR THE C ROSS. THE U S U A L GOAL OF A VISIT TO A PROSTITUTE? J A C K I E'S A N SW E R : "MORE THA N HALF LEAVE WITHOUT REACH I NG IT. WITH TH E VOICE OF A HOME FIXED SUM V A R I ES-AT LEAST $ 1 500 A N D $250 AND ACCOR D I N G $ 2 500." OF A HUNDRED E X A M PLES-LICK THE R E C E I V E FI FTY SOLES O F T H E M I STRESS' BOOTS. THAT. FOR OUR AIM HERE I S NOT TO A TT E M PT TO ENTER I NT O THE WHY OF THIS UNLIKELY FORM OF "CONC E R N I NG T H E 'WH I P P I NG SPEC I A LI STS: WHAT WE FEAR MOST I S T H E R E VOLT O F O N E OF THE VOLUNTARY M A RTYRDOM. LOTS THEY A R E M O R E I NT E LLI G E NT THAN THE A V E RAGE PROSTITUTE. A N D T H E OTH ERS? W ELL. REDUCED TO THE O N E·TI M E S I M PLEST EXPRES· TH E E X P LA I N . E V E RYON E I S SATI S F I E D W I T H O N E T O TH R E E V I S I TS PER MONTH. BUT WITH THEM. I HAVE LONG T I M E. C A R E F U L" JACKIE!. WHO HOLD I M PORTA N T POS ITIONS I N BUS I N E S S MONTHLY AND IN GO V E R N M E N T . LEGS CROSSED. H E W I L L U S U A LLY B E A N S W E R E D WITH A W H I P. T H E N I P PLES. PI M PS I N D EED. ONE H O U R IN THE BOX. THE MONTHLY PAYMENT ECONOM I ST. ENTITLES O N E T O A N U N L I M ITED N U M BER OF V I SITS . THAT I T I S A SEWING TABLE. T H E TESTICLES (TO TH E TH IGHS). C U S TO M E R K N EELS D O T H E M SELVES KNOWN FOR A S E V E R A L. N O T T H E O N E S F O R DOI NG T H E D I S H E S . LAS H E S B E H I N D THE K N E E S FROM A BLACK WH I P." AFTER THE S U BJECT-RATH E R . THEY CUSTOM E R S . D I A LOGU E SIONS. F I RST O F A LL: HOW DO THE VICTI M S R E A C H ORG A S M . U N LESS HE ASKS A BOUT THE W H I T E WOOD T R E STLE TABLE. BUT C U STOM E R S ARE EXCEPTION: O N E . E Y E S GLAZED. A LCOHOL WOU N D S . H ER ABSOLUTE MINIMUM PRICE AT WHATE V E R P U N I S H M E NT IS DRAWN. "YOU W I LL BE S L A V E 84. COTTON SOA K E D NOVEMB E R 2 5 . 1 960. Q U E STIONS COME TO M I N D . STA I N E D WITH LONG BLACK M A R KS . H A LF SCOR N F U L. AT MOST TWO P E R DAY. REVEALED-RIDING W H I P IN WITH A TIRED H E R. E V E N THOUGH TH E FILES WERE O F F I C I A LLY S TO P P E D ON BLOOD. JACKIE WILL AVERAGE T I M E : O N E HOU R. "TH E Y L E A V E I N SH REDS A N D T H E Y R ETU R N . "A NYWAY." MANY O F TH E M ARE THERE? "REGULA RS. IS THE BUT C OV E R E D BIT OF BY DON. THE OPERATIONS OBVIOUSLY ONLY TAKE PLACE COULDN'T TA K E P H Y S I CA L LY. THATS W H Y THE G I R LS l S9 . THEY DON'T HAVE BECAUSE A BO U T S LI C K . WHOM I SLICKERS-NEVER LEAST SKIN SCATOLOGY. THE H A N D . IT M I G H T SAY-TH I S IS R U B B E R GLOVES. TWO OUT O F IT-HOW SHOULD THERE ARE AND I PUT IT­ OF THREE ONLY REACH THROUGH COU R S E . I N OUR VOC A BU LA RY.

" BOU L E V A R D R I C H A RD-LENOI R . BUT THE N U RSES GOT $ 1 00. I D I D N 'T GET A LONG W I T H E I T H E R OF TH E M . AT THOSE T I M ES. M Y FATH E R WAS A CONTRAC­ TOR. THE ROD AND THE N E I G H BOR WOMAN FROM THE LITTLE STR E ET ON THE LEFT-I . I GOT A JOB. . I GAVE B I RT H O N M Y SEVENTE ENTH B I RTHDAY. TH EY'RE P I SS E D TOO. "TH E Y TRACK MEl BUT BASICALLY I LIKE THEMI T H E LAST TIME I WENT ON VACATION ALONE-USUALLY I A LWAYS HAVE ONE OR TWO OF THEM WHO COME FOR T H E W E E K END: I MAKE THEM STAY FOR WHOLE DAYS IN T H E OUTHOU SES AT THE BACK OF THE GARDEN -AT T H E END OF TEN DAYS. WELL T H E N . I F I N D OUT A L I TT L E ABOUT HOW M UC H THEY MAKE." SAYS JAC K I E WITH A BIG HOW I N D U LGENT S M I LE. I H A D TO F I N D SOM ETH I NG : A N A I D AT A C L I N IC I N BOURG. NOW THAT D I SGU STS M E . OR (MORE OFTEN ) T O I N ITI ATE H E R T O THE PLEASURES OF SUFFERI NG. . . THE A RA B PI M PS I N 1 60 . DO I N G . W E LCOMED. JACKI E. WHOSE BE PR ESENCE. ON SOM EON E FROM IN TH E N E I G H BORHOOD T ROU B L E . $50 PER MONTH . BUT WH AT? W H O S E E K T O COM B I N E T H E WHI P W I TH THOSE OF THE "WELL. WITH THIS. CASE OF CAN E X P L A I N E D TO T H E POLICE. T W I C E A W E E K. BUT I H A V E N O E X P E R I E NCE. J AC K I E G E N ERA LLY LIM ITS H E RSELF TO G I V I N G DI RECTI O N S A N D S U C C E EDS IN H A V I N G H E R CUSTOMERS THEM SELVES TORTURE T H E I R C H A I N E D BROTH ERS. . O. NOR EVEN WITH K I DS M Y OWN AGE. HOWEVER. ." EDGE OF T H E BED. "TH EY A R E N'T TRICKY. "A S S O M ETI M E S . ALLOWED TO B R I N G TH E I R EITHER TO BE W H I PPED BY HER IN TH I S SETTI NG. O N E OF THE ODDITI E S OF PROSTITUTION L EG I S L A T I O N IS THAT ITS E Y E S W H E N I LEFT THE HOME. T H E N IN AN HOOD. T H E FAT H E R OF M Y KID WAS THE ONLY MAN I KNEW S E X U A LLY. SO I LEAVE. I N A B A K E RY. TH E R E ARE WITHOUT QU ESTION . SPITE O F THE WOR K I NG T H E STRE ET. DEVOTED T O THOSE C U STO M E R S PLEA S U R E S OF T H E G ROUP. WHAT I REGRET IS NOT H A V I N G E D UCATION. OFTEN. I'M GOI N G T O DO I T TOO. H E'S A GOOD K I D. I ' M SIXTEEN W H E N I GET P R E G N ANT.E.LA." SETTING: TH E THRONE ROOM. "BUT THAT DOESN'T LAST LONG. SO. W H E R E C O U L D I G O ? A HOM E F O R U N W E D M OT H E RS. W H E N I FOU N D OUT I T R E A LLY WORKS. EXPLA I N TO A TWENTY-TH R E E YEAR OLD I N S PEC­ TOR.R E I N E F O R RICH P R EG N A N T WOM E N . J U ST OUT OF LAW SCHOOL. I'M INTRIGUED. TELLING HER LIFE STO R Y . A L L OF T H I S D I D N 'T LAST LONG. C E R TA I N C U STO M E R S W I V ES. T H A T Y O U H A V E T O G E T U N D E R T H E S H E ETS WITH HIM. . H E WA R N E D M E THAT H E WANTED NONE O F T H AT. CLEVER SYSTEM OF M UTU A L D I SCIPLI N E WHICH SHE D E M A N DS." SHE SAYS. C A N NOT H A N D L E SHE CALLS ON A IT. I WANTED TO COME HOME. THATS WHAT I E A R N ED. THAT YOU HAVE TO TALK TO H I M . A FTER WORK. SO THEY LAUGH ALL THE T I M E : THE MORE T H E GUYS SUFFER. IN PARIS. OR THE CLEANING I M M ED I ATELY I SAY TO M YSELF.T I E THEM UP S E C U R E L Y A N D R E LE A S E TH EM ONLY WHEN THEY ARE COM P LETELY C A L M E D DOW N. I M I SSED M Y PREY. I WAS U S U A L LY ABOUT A DO Z E N M E N W H O 'SU B M I T A N D S U F F E R TOGETH E R . EROTIC SHE A LSO A M ONG REQU I R ES TH E M T O PLAY TH E M S E LV E S A N D O N L Y GAMES GRABS TH E W H I P H E RS E L F W H E N TH I N G S GET OUT OF H A N D . AT A B A R IN BELLEVI LLE. DAMN AN E V E R YT H I N G I'M A BOUT IT. ACCOUNTING E V E RYTH I N G I DO N ' T GIVE F I R M I N A N OTH E R N E IG H BOR­ I'VE A DON E . I'LL START AT THE B EG I N N I NG. SEATED ON TH E N A R ROW SOFA W H I C H oo U B L E S AS A BED-DNE H A S THE I M PRESSION THAT I T HAS SHRUNK FROM GROUP D I SC I P L I N E AT J A C K I E·S. THERE WERE G I R LS THAT J A C K I E . "TH EY'RE T I M ID. M A R R I E D A N D A LL. R E N E . BUT YOU CAN SEE THAT THEY'RE A M ATEURS. JAC K I E RARELY AGREES. BUT I ' M A FOOL. A PENSIVE S O M ETH I N G A BOUT H E R G A Z E . THAT TH E OTH E R WOMAN I S A C U STOM E R L I K E T H E OTH ERS . SO. I HAVE THE I D EA THAT YOU STAY FOR HOURS WITH T H E S A M E GUY. CROWD IS E S P EC I A LLY SUCH ON SAT U R D A Y S . SOM E OF T H E M W E A R B LACK VELVET M A S K S I N ORDER T O R E MA I N ANONYMOUS. A L L ALONE. THE MORE THEY LAUGH. THIS IS TO L E R A T E D BUT N OT BORN IN N O R M A N DY." W H E R EA S TH E PRESENCE OF ANOTH E R WOMAN I M M E DIATELY OPENS THE DOOR TO PROSECUTION FOR P ROC U R I NG . W E D N E SDAY AND SATU R DAYS-FROM O'CLOC K . I J U ST M A NAGED TO GET BY. WITH T H E HELP OF AN OLD F R I E N D F R O M THE HOM E FOR R E M A I N CLOS E D A S LONG A S T H E R E IS ON LY ONE " P R I E STESS. H E WOR K E D I N I M PORT-EXPORT. PLUS. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO A NYTH I NG RIGHT: S O I CONFESS TO MY MOTH E R . BEG TO BE I WAS THREE MONTHS PREGNANT WHEN I A R R I VED. K . AND TRY TO U N W E D MOTH ERS. "SOMETI M E S I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A LION T H A T C A U S E S T E R R I BLE TROUBLE. A N OLD E R G U Y. . M Y SON W I L L BE TH I RT E E N N EXT OCTOB ER. I FOU N D A JOB ON THE CAGE. AT THRITEEN I FELL I N LOV E. I M M E D I ATELY I SAY YES. FAST. HE D I D N 'T GET A LONG WITH MY MOTH ER.A R E THREE O'C LOC K TO EIGHT LACK OF USE-IS LOOK. I WOULD HAVE L I K E D TO L E A R N . IN THE "IN FRONT OF THE BAR. AND.

T H E F I R ST. A N A R A B WHO BUYS M E A DRINK A T TH E BAR. A SHOULDER. I M A D E IT T O A TAXI A N D WENT T O T H E HOSPITAL A L L A LONE. TH E R E BUT. B U T H E WAS FLA B B E RGASTED. I SAY NO. I STAYED THERE. NOT FOR MEl FROM THE BEGI N N I NG. H E WAS T R E M B L I NG. THE B U LLET GOES THROUGH M Y SHOU LDER A N T E A R S U P M Y C H I N . THEY FIGURE OUT T H A T TH E Y CA N'T TOUCH ME. IT D I D N 'T WORK. TH E M . I SPECI A L I ZED. S O I ACTED T W E N T Y. T H E C H E E K-BO N E . ONLY . I ESCAPED TO M A R S E I LLES. THEY S T I L L T R I E D T O G ET M E A S SOON A S I LEFT THE HOSPITAL. WITH THE H E L P OF A F R I E N D . FOR HOW LONG? I H A V EN'T MADE LOVE WITI:I A CUSTOMER FOR TH R E E AND A HALF YEARS. A ROUND UTTLE BY L I TTLE. THAT Irs FORBIDDEN. T H E I N ST R U M ENTS. MY TH E R E HEAD WERE IN . T H E R E H E WAS.J UST T O S P I T E H I M . WASN'T MEAT TH I RTY T H R O W S A T TEN BUCKS. S O OF COURSE. H E W A S F U N N Y THAT WAY:' B U S I N ESS RACK. BUT S H E W A S FRIGID. I H A D TO GET M A R R I ED: A YEARS OLD. • • ARTICLES. NOT BAD FOR A PROSTITUTE. H E LPED NEVER M E. IT'S FUNNIER. I PAID A P R O T E CT I O N FEE OF $2 500. A L I M O PULLS UP. EVEN THOUGH H E H A D A W O M A N ON TH E S I D E . . THE FANCIEST OF THEM ALL. I COULDN'T TH R E E R E S I ST. I K N O W T H A T Irs F O R M E . I HAVE TO M A R R Y H I M . THEN H E TELLS M E . I ' L L A LWAYS R E M E M B E R M Y F I RST D A Y TH E R E .J U LY . R U E DES FRANCS-BOURGEOIS. I'VE GOT M Y PLACE. AT THIS TI M E .F I V E SIC I U A N . THE WORDS. T H E THEM. IN MARSEI LLES.J E A LOUSI STREET AND SLAPPED M E A S I WALKED BY-I NSTEAD OF BEING H APPY THAT I W A S WORKI NG-BECA U S E H E SAID I C A M E l T E R R I B LY . FINA LLY. POOR WOM A N I LIKE I WANTED TO SEE H I M . I GO TO LES H A LL E S WITH A FRI E N D WHO KNOWS A HOT E L IT WAS BETTER TO ROUGH UP A GUY FOR TO G E T F U C K E D ALL DAY F O R T H I R TYI $ 50 THAN M A N A G E R . ONCE. IT WAS MY GUY FROM PA R I S . I TOLD HIM ABOUT M Y S P EC I A LTIES IN PA RIS. ·WH E N LITTLE I RECOV E RED. I DON'T REMEMBER TO WHOM . T H E Y W A N T TOO MUCH. I WAS "O N E F I N E DAY I H A D H A D ENOUGH. I STAYED W I TH HIM. ON THE GROUND. I HE C A N'T SPIED SAY ON HE ME WASN'T I N THE NICE. BEGG I NG ME TO STOP. THE F I R S T C U STOM E R S A I D TO M E : ' C A N YOU DO A QUICKI E?' I A N S W E R ED: 'WHArs THAT?' I D I DN'T K N OW A N YT H I N G . IT WAS TWO O'CLOCK I N TH E MOR N I NG. SEE. I HAD THE BLACK D R ESS AND HIGH H E ELS. I WENT. I MOVE IN. AND. I WENT TO TH E R U E Q U I N C A M POIS. . I WASN'T WOR R I E D ABOUT THE A R A BS. HE GOT U N DRESSED. H E DIDN'T WANT T O TA K E ANY. 'THAT W I L L COST YOU A C-NOTE: YOU "AFTER ALL T H AT. I TH I N K. I MET MY SON'S FATH E R IN DIEPPE. HE WANTED TO S L E E P WITH M E . I BAR ELY H A V E T I M E TO GET UP. A I HAD SOM E FRIENDS BAD. B ETT E R FOR SHOU LDN'T H A V E D R U N K WITH M E . I HAD ONLY BEEN TH E R E TWO DAYS WHEN GUYS THE LIMO LEFT. A N D BECAUSE O F M Y DOUGH. I WOULD H A V E B E E N HIT RIGHT I N THE H E A D I f' I H A DN'T STOOD U P. L I K E EVERYON E ELSE. BUT A FT E R SEVERAL DAYS "WHERE WAS I? YES. BOTH ANKLES • • • FROM U N I Q U E ABOUT M E I S M Y GAZE. B A RTE N D E R . TH E R E W A S SUDDENLY NOBODY LEFT I N T H E DANCE H A LL. . • • • I W A S N 'T EVEN T W E N TY-O N E . TELLS ME THAT IF I'M NOT M A R R I ED.BELLEVILLE. TO CONTI N U E.J E A LOUS GUY. I T WAS O N T H E R U E A U B R Y-LE-BOUC H E R . W H AT'S OF THEY BEAT CUSTOM E R S TAUGHT M E. WAS A C A F E TERRACE. TOMORROW AT SIX: I WENT TH E R E WITH T H E E N V E LOPE BUT I NS I D E I H A D P U T TOILET P A P E R• . I W A S A K I D. SO. AFTE R D I N N E R . I W ASN'T AS STRONG THEN A S I AM TODAY. HE D I D N 'T KNOW WHAT H E WANTED. WELL O. A FRI E N D OF THE HOTEL M A N A G E R . A N D M Y STRENGTH. OF A WELL I IT H A PPEN E D SITTING ON ONE FO U R T E E N T H . I WHO WAS THE ONE WHO PA I D FOR TH E HOTEL. ESPECIALLY BECAUSE OF WHAT I WAS WEA R I NG. WE HAD D I N N E R . PUT A H U N D R E D B U C K S I N A N E N V E LOPE A N D B R I N G I T T O T H E DOOR . A LL THAT CAME SEVERAL TEETH. TH E OTH E R GIRLS GOT .J E A LOUS. LITTLE DANCE H ALL. THI NGS W E R E GOING VERY W ELL. I G O T O U T A N D C A M E B A C K TO PA R I S . ON MY H A N DS A N D KNEES. HIS EYES BULGED. I GOT THOUGH. BUT I A L R E ADY KNEW TRA N S LATED BY CHARLES CLARK 161 . A N D I TREATED HIM LIKE A CUSTOM E R . SHOWED U P. K . WITH H I M . -I CHANGED HOTELS I M M ED I ATELY. BETW E E N TOPOL A N D T H E R U E Q U I N C A M PO I S .

M R. WAS 65 W H E N HE C A M E TO ME FOR THE F I RST TIME. H I S D A I L Y E X I STENCE WAS S I NG U L A R LY DEVOID OF A N Y MORA L M A SOC H I SM . HE LIVED I N A S M A LL S U B U R B A N COTTAGE WITH H I S A DOPTED DAUGHTER A N D H E R HUSB A N D. M. R E M A RKING THAT H I S CASE M IGHT B E USEFUL TO OTH E R S WITH T H E S A M E PERVERSION AS HIS. M. H E LOATHED T H E IDEA OF P E RSONA LLY E X E RTING A N Y FOR M OF A UTHOR­ ITY OR OF HOLDING A COM M A N D I N G POSITION A N D CON S I D E R E D BOTH G I V I NG A N D R E C E I V I N G ORDERS TO B E S U R E WAYS O F LOSI N G H I S F R E E DO M I H E WAS VERY FOND O F THIS F R E E DO M WHICH I NVOLVED TRACES I N DICATING DISCUSSED H I S STATE W I T H H I M A N D ADVISED H I M TO SEE M E. H E ALSO A D M I TT E D THAT B Y A G R E E I NG TO CONS U LT ME. I N SHORT.M. HE WAS A S S U M PTION THAT M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES ARE NO EXCEPTION. SOLITARY WALKS D U R I NG HIS HOLI DAYS. M:S APPEARANCE AND H A BITS W E R E THOSE OF A CALM AND COLLECTED PERSON. HE M IGHT A LSO BE HOPI NG FOR AN OPPORTU­ N ITY TO BE H U M I LIATED. BUT WHAT A CONTRAST BETW E E N THESE OUTER AND HIS NAKED BODYI PROV I D E D BE E XC E E D E D . ACTUALLY. M Y COLLEAGU E E XA M I N E D HIM AND MADE A C A R E F U L INVENTORY O F A L L PERVERSE PRACTICES: SHE P A R T I C U LA R A R R A N G E M E N T S A F F EC T I N G H I S HOURS A N D H I S VACATIONS. [ M R . AND IN SHORT-LIVED D U RATION. H E HAD B E E N A MR. AND A T THE SAME TIME TO BETTER U N D E RSTA N D A BO U T H I S C U RIOUS STATUS. GOING ON THE M R . ACQU I ESCED AT ONCE. C U RIOSITY H I M S E LF BEEN SATI S F I E D: H E H A D R E A D A L L TH E R E WAS O N T H E SUBJ ECT OF M A SOCH I S M A N D HAD ALWAYS B E E N DISA PPOI NTED I N H I S F I N DI NGS. HIS E M PLOYERS HELD DISCOVERED H I M A FT E R H E HAD CONS U LTED H E R A BOUT A H EMOPTYSI S W H I C H PROVED T O B E O F H I M I N S U C H H IG H ESTEE M THAT H E WAS ABLE TO OBTA I N S P EC I A L WOR K I N G C O N D I T I O N S . M·s STORY] EXTRE M E LY C A R E F U L TO CONCEA L H I S P E RVER­ SION FROM THOSE A RO U N D HIM. A PP E A R A NC E S T H A T C E RT A I N T H R E S HO L D S Q U A NTITAT I V E C ON S I D E RA T I O N S A N D I NT E N S ITY FACTORS C A N M O D I FY T H E QUALITATIVE A SPECT OF A P H E N O M E NON AND ITS S E NSE. HAD NEVER HIS LONG. M A N Y OTH E R FACTORS PLA Y E D A PART I N H I S DECISION TO S E E M E A S I S H A L L I N D ICATE LATE R ON. I SHALL DESCRIBE T H E M I N DETA I L 1 62 . A R A D I O LO G I S T COLLEAGU E OF MINE H I G H L Y S K I L L E D T EC H N I C I A N IN RADIOELECTRICITY B E FO R E HIS RETI R E M E NT.

H A V I N G B E E N S E A R E D W I T H A R E D-HOT IRON. GOOD." "I THE P R E P U C E H A D BEEN MADE I N TO A S O R T O F A MAGNETIZED C U S H I O N F I L L E D W I T H PA RAFFI N." "I'M A C O M PA S S . I N D A NG E R OF BEING EXPOSED IF SHE WERE EXCREM ENT OVER CAUSE ANY PERIOD O F YEARS D I D NOT U PSET. T H E BONE SU RFACE WAS ROUGH AFTER THE A M PUTATION AND H E H A D FILED IT EVEN. N E EDLE WAS I M BEDDED I N THE PENIS ITSELF." A L L OF T H I S COULD TORTU R E S MR. E V E R Y WH E R E THORAX. LASTLY." -I'M AN A M B U LATING SHIT-HOUSE." " I L I K E I T U P T H E A S S . LOVE SWALLOWI N G PISS AND S H I T. THE T I P O F THE GLANS H A D BEEN SLIT WITH A RAZOR BLADE SO A S T O WIDEN THE ORI FICE. " A N D THE TESTES AS THE X-RAYS R E V E A L ED. W A S N O T LYI NG." PHOTOGRAPHS WERE TAK E N DU R I N G TH I S PROCESS. I N ADDITION TO THE PENISES TATTOOE D O N HIS T H I G H S. H A D A PROFO U N D EFFECT ON M. T H E P E N I S W A S BLUE A LL O V E R . H I M S E LF. WHY SHOULD HE LIE ABOUT C E RTIAN DETA I LS WH E N OTH E RS W E R E UNDENIA BLY TRUE? I CAN NOT SAY. I ' M A SLUT. THE BETTER:' "I'M A SLUT. THONGS O F FLESH HAD BEEN CUT ALONG H I S BACK. B E G A N AN EW. MR. ESPEC I A LLY WITH M E N H E P I C K E D U P S I N C E TH E RELATIONS W I T H H I S FOR M E R PARTN ERS H A D RAPIDLY DWINDLED T O NOT H I NG. ACTING O N THE ORDERS OF A PARTNER. HE ALSO I NT I M AT E D T H A T H I S W I F E'S LAC K OF SHOCKED HIM. I'LL M A K E YOU THE S T U P I D E ST CUNT ANOTH E R RI NG. A STE E L R I NG OF S E V E R A L CENTIM ETE RS I N D I A M ETER H A D B E E N P E R M A N E N ­ T L Y A F F I X E D T O THE T I P OF TH E PENIS. "SO IT WOULD LOOK LIKE A VAG I N A. GI R D E D THE B A S E OF THE PENIS A N D TH E SCROTU M ." "I LOVE TO BE BEATEN ALL OVER. P U S H E D N EA R LY EVEN I N TO T H E TUBERC U LOSIS I N H I S T U R N. EVEN A FT E R H I S MASOC H I STIC PRACTICES. BUT WAS COMPLETELY CURED A FTER TWO YEARS SPENT IN A SANATO R I U M . M . BY THE TORTURES SHE H A D E N D U R E D . THE I NT E R N I ST A PP A R E NT ASKED MR. SUCH AS N E E DLES. O N E FEELS. I'M FUCKM EAT. HIS N A V E L WAS A SORT OF CRATER: BEEN POURED I NTO IT WHICH IT SOMETI M E S DOUBTED THE ACC URACY O F C E R TA I N UNVERIFIABLE FACTS WITHOUT B E I N G A B L E TO MOLTEN LEAD HAD WAS PREVENTED HAVE JUSTIFY MY DOUBTS IN ANY WAY. I ' M A WHORE. M . WHICH I DARE SAY BOR D E R E D ON BLAC K H U MO U R SINCE THE P E N I S COULD "DEVI ATE" TH E THEREBY A S S E RT I N G N E E DL E O F A ITS P OW E R . PERHAPS A S THE R E S U LT O F I N D I A I N K I N J ECTED I NTO A V E I N . WAS A L M OST COMPLETELY COV E R E D WITH TATTOOS: "ALL BIG COCKS W E LCOM E . M : S BODY. H I S R ECTUM W A S E N LA RGED. H E WAS OVERCO M E B Y D E PR E S S I O N AND D E V E LO P E D PULMONARY WHILE A M A N P E N ETRATED HIM. USE BUT GIVE ME IT TO ME UP THE ASS. M Y MOUTH A N D M Y ASSHOLE A R E FOR BIG PRICKS. P I E R C E D BY SHARP OBJ ECTS A N D TORN OFF.AND THUS POSSI B LY MODIFY CERTA I N CONCEP­ GEN ITALIA H A D NOT B E E N SPA R E D . A FT E R LATERA LLY. -BIG PRICKS ENTER H E RE" ON THE BUTTOCKS: IN FRONT. WHORE. COULD B E SUSPENDED HER DEATH. AND YET (SHOU LD I ATTR I B UTE THIS TO A DEFENSIVE ATTITUDE ON M Y PART?1 I EQUALLY STA RT L I N G . MANY PHONOGRAPH N E E DLES W E R E I M B E DD E D I N T O B EG I N WITH." AROUND. M R . TH E F A C T THAT S H E W A S A PROSTITUTE A N D A P R EC U R ESS PUT M. CAUSED IN N O S M A L L A MOUNT. TH ROUGH WHICH PASSED SO THAT MR. TO SHOW H I M VARIOUS INSTRUME NTS OF TORTU R E : BOA R D S I MB E D D E D WITH H U N DREDS OF N E E DLES. THE D A I LY I N G E ST I O N A WHOM HE HAD S E LECTED I N THE HOPE O F F I N D I N G A N EXPE R I E N C E D PARTN E R. EXC E PT FOR THE FACE. AND THE H A RDER. ONE FOU N D THE FOLLOW I N G I M P R E S S I V E LIST: -I'M A SLUT. A W H E E L FULL OF PHONOGRAPHIC ARRESTED FOR H E R I LLEGAL ACTIVITIES A N D H E WANTED TO AVOI D THAT POSSI B I LITY A T ALL COSTS. A N D MOST R E M A R K A B LY. N A I LS A N D HAD BEEN I N FLICTED ON OF URINE HIS AND SECOND T I M E BUT THE M A R R IAGE SOON E N D E D I N DIVORCE : H I S SECOND W I F E WAS A PROSTITUTE P IECES OF GLASS BODY. HOOKS WERE M. I'M NOT A WOM A N . M:S MORALITY 1 63 . R I G H T B R EAST WAS LITERA LLY A B S E NT. BUT R E MOVABLE T H I S TIME. N E EDLES I NT O HAD HIS BEEN BODY. HE MARRIED A FOREIGN BOD I ES. FROM SPATTE R I N G OUT (AS WOULD DON E B E C A U S E O F R I V U LETS O F RED-HOT M ETA L ROD SWEAT) BY I N TRODU C I N G A I NTO THE L EA D. HE LEGALLY A DOPTED N E EDLES WITH A H A N DL E AND THAT WAS USED TO BEAT H I M. M. M:S SCARS AND MARKS HIS OF TORTU RE WERE E A S I LY BE V E R I F I ED. W H I C H H A D C O M ­ PLETELY C E A S E D DURING THIS P E R IOD. H I S SMALL TOE WAS M I SS I NG: IT HAD A PP A R ENTLY BEEN SECTI ONED WITH A HACKSAW B Y M R. COM E LIKE A "I'M F E M A LE. " " U P WITH M A SOC H I S M :' -I ' M NOT A MAN. IT I S I NTERESTING T O NOTE THAT NONE O F T H E S E TORTURES WAS FOLLOWED BY THE S L I G H T E ST SUPPU RATION. WITH A N A R ROW. L E FT TH E MENTIONED ABOVE D E F I N IT E TRACES WHICH I NCONTESTABLY PROVED THAT M R . TIONS OF MASOCH I S M . A N D YET I H A D VAGUE DOUBTS CONCE R N I NG IN PA RTICULAR WHAT H E RELATED A BOUT H I S W I FE AND A SPEC I FIC CASE OF AGGRESSIVE ACTING OUT.

I T WAS THEN THAT H I S P E RV E R S E ACTI VITI E S C E A S E D A LTOGETH ER. H I M S E L F F I N D S V E R Y I M PORTA NT-TO THE POINT LO N G WHERE THE P E R V E RSION FROM CEASED. ' S DESTI N Y . WAS V E R Y ATTA C H E D TO BOTH OF THEM A N D GRA D U A L· LY GREW QU ITE HIS C LO S E FATH E R QUITE TO HIS FATH ER M. S H A R E D TH E I R S E X U A L EXISTENCE FOR T H R E E YEA RS. FACT T H A T M . M . H E B EC A M E AWARE O F HIS AND HIS P U N I S H M E NT· S E E K I N G TO URINE AT (IT I S A F A C T T H A T H I S E A R L I E R D R E A M S M A S OC H I STIC. W E R E AT T H E S A M E TIME I N D U LG I NG IN S H A R E D M A SOCH I STIC R E LA­ TH E I R B R I E F M A R R I A G E .H I S B E E N T H E SOLE PERVERSION SEEMS T O HAVE ACTOR ON S T A G E . H E LIVED COM P LETELY WITH I N THE FRAM EWORK O F TH E TIONS. M . A N D MASOCHISTIC MOVEMENT R A T H E R THAN M A SOC H I S M . THAT PERVERSION. I NT I MATELY L I N K E D T O M . THE HIS T I M E. ALTHOUGH E N G A G I N G AS I HAVE STA T E D I N N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTIVITIES. " A N OT H E R T I M E D U R I N G O U R T A L K S H E M A D E T H E FOLLOW I N G READ ON STATE M E N T "AT ABOUT A B OO K H E FIRST HAD P E R F E CT L Y H E T E ROSEXUAL N A TU R E TOLD M E AND LESS AND L E S S M A SOC H I STIC. HE SA I D THAT " I W A S D I S G U STED. N EV E RTHE LESS. HAD N E I G H BORHOOD E A T I N G H E R EXCR E M E NT. IN A DDITION.'S CASE. IT SEEMS D E F I N ITE THAT CONSTITU­ S I N G U LA R PAST W A S PE RSONS I NVOLVED. TH E N TWO. A N D Y E T . F O R I N STANCE. ' S PA R T I C U LA R . I H A D EVOLVED. OTH E R THAN TH E THIS I M PO RTA N T CONSTITUTI O N A L FACTOR. B U T LAT E R ON I T CAME BACK TO M E . HE TOLD M E THAT HE DID NOT TH I N K SHE W A S M A SOC H I STIC. H E BECA M E THE TA RGET OF M A LT R E A T M E N T AS PECT BY HIS CLASSMATES. D E V E LOPME NTS O F THIS HAVE P R O M PT E D ME TO PREFER THE KIND TERM WOU L D A LWAYS ASSU M E T H E F E M A L E R O L E . BUT W H E N T H I S WAS OVER HIS MASOCH I STIC PRACTICES STA RTED IN E A R N EST A N D G R E W IN I M PORTANCE." I NC O R PO R A T I N G TH E N FA M I LY L I F E HE H A D C R E ATED AND TO W H I C H H E WAS VERY M UCH ATTAC H E D . TH E HIS NOR M A L. HAD BEEN CAPABLE OF SEXUAL OF WHICH C L A SSMATES." I NT E R EST H A D D I E D O UT.THE YOUNG GIRL WHO WAS THEIR MAID DURING W I F E . CORRESPO N D E NC E WAS PRACTICALLY TH E ON LY CONTACT H E M A I N TA I NED WITH HIS REAL D A U G HTER. TH E Y DARED NOT.R I G H T P R E . N O R M A L S E X U A L ACTI V I ­ TIES WHICH ONE OC C U P I E D CAN SAY HIS DREAMS THE AS HE GOT OLDER. A MOST C U R I O U S T H I N G DESERVES CON S I D E R ­ ATION. PUSH N E EDLES TH ROUGH H I S A R M T H E MSELVES BUT WOU L D G I V E HIM ORDERS T O DO SO. AS H E SAID. D E SC R I B E D H I S PARE NTS AS HAV I N G B E E N VERY CON S I D E RATE AND K I N D TO H I M . I H A D B E C O M E NOR M A L VERIFIED PRACTICES BEGAN W H E N H E W A S 1 0 Y E A R S OLD. M.W A S CITED BY WRITERS ON IN M. "I L I K E D I T W H E N SHE M A D E ME S U F F E R . F R O M T H E N ON. I THOUGHT I T WAS THAT I N H I S D R E A M S H E W A S WITH " A VOLUPTUOUS WOMA N WITH W H O M CLOSE T O B E I N G MY SEXUAL ACTI V I T I E S W E R E HE ADDED THAT "MY H O R R I B LE. HIS MOTH E R WAS VERY AFFECTION· ATE." THE A PP E A R A N C E EARLY I N LIFE OF E R OG E NOUS M A S OC H I S M -OFTEN S U B J ECT. A FTER B E I N G SODOMIZED B Y A M O N I TOR." WERE BY MY D R E A MS. FOR A A PPA RENTLY H E L D HIM BACK.P U B E RTY. BUT LATER ON IT C A M E BACK TO M E. STI L L H A D F A I R LY F R E Q U E N T NOCTU R N A L E M I SS I O N S BECO M E A FT E R E ROTIC DREAMS THAT IN M. AT T H E B EG I N N I NG O F T H I S P E R I O D H E STI LL H A D A F E W H O M OSEX U A L ENCOUNTERS BUT SOON ALL SCHOOL BUT W I THOUT THIS IS VERY OVERLY SEVERE. A N D SHE LIKED THE IT W H E N I DEA OF I MADE HER SUFFER.) TH U S M:S M A SO­ STRICTLY PENCHANT A TT R A C T I O N C H I S M D E SC R I B E D A V E R I TABLE C U RV E STA RTING FROM J UST B E FO R E T H E MOMENT T H E CLINICAL BOA R D I N G SCHOOL PERIOD DURING HE WENT THROUGH A SHORT A C ER TAIN R E PUGNANCE WHICH S I G N S A P P E A R E D -TH E C O NSTI TUTIONAL FACTOR WHICH M . IS OBVIOUS. WAS 2 1 (WHO WHEN HE D I SCOV E R E D DIED AND FATHER H A D J U ST HE WAS WHOSE C O R R ESPON D E N C E EXA M I N I NG ) PROBABLY H A D M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N · CIES AS W E LL." MARRIAGE MASO­ HIS DEVELOPED TO ITS F U L LEST M. RESS B E I NG AT FOLLOWED CLOSELY ALL OF PROG­ M A SOC H I STIC T E N D E N C I E S CEASED BETW E E N H I S 4 S T H A N D H I S SOTH YEA R I S T O B E NOTED. HIS AND IT SATI S F I E D CHISM ME." M A SOCH I STIC PRACTICES W H E N S H E W A S E L E V E N Y E A R S OLD (SHE WOU L D S T I C K N E E D L E S UNDER M . OFTEN BAC K E D OFF. "I WAS REA LLY AFTER THE HIS LOCAL SLUT. 1 64 . O N E PE RSON. I F O N E C O NS I D E R S T H E D E V E LO P M E N T O F T H I S CASE. F A K I RS. M . H E WAS A N ONLY CHILD AND HIS PARE NTS WERE NOT YOUNG WHEN HE WAS BO R N . I F I C A N J U DG E AGAIN. H I S FATH E R WAS A LITTLE MORE R I G I D . THAT HIS M. MARRIED HIS COUSIN WHO HAD BEGU N HER THAT SHE 1 0 CHI LDREN.'S IN H E R F I N G E R N A I LS) L O N G B E FORE THEY K N E W E A C H OTH E R . O R D I N ARY. KNOWN NOTH I N G O F TO T H E HIS CAME A N OTH E R P E R SO N I NTO TH E I R ACTIVITIES. W A S A D DED. O N E M I G H T S A Y . A S IT WERE. A T 4 Y E A R S OF AGE HAD SEEN A LITTLE G I R L IN HIS P E R V E R S E PRACT I C E S C E A S E D COM PLETELY. HOW E V E R . TO HIS " N O R M A L" S E X U A L I TY TO M E ET AN ECONO M I C N E E D-AT LEAST O N E M A Y SU PPOSE TH I S I S THE C A S E . NOT D A R I N G TO ACTU A L L Y C O M M I T C E R TA I N D E E D S . W A S 46 OR 47 AT THE TIME. H E E V E N REMEMBERED HER NAME. IN SEXUAL "GA M ES" HE ENGAG I NG I N P A R A L L E L. B U T I F O N E CON S I D E R S T H E FACT THAT LATER ON M. HAD "EXC E PT FOR T H E FACT TIONAL FACTO R S WEIGH H EAVI LY I N T H E B A L A N C E : M.

BETWEE N T H E M ." M. IN A SENSE HE WAS CON D E M N E D TO PLEASURE AND F U NCTION: ON T H E ONE H A N D I T A P P A R E NTLY ACTS AS A CATALYST FOR S E X U A L A RO U SA L. LOS I NG I T S OWN S P E C I FIC ITY. ORC H ESTRATED ON HIM THE IN B RUTA L TORTU R E S OBTA I N THE I N FLICTED ORDER T O SC R I B E D A N D AT T I M E S M E NTIO N E D O P E N LY: "ON THE WHOLE.E. M'S CASE AGA I N A N D I T H U RT:' T H I S A SPECT O F PA I N A S A M E A N S WAS I D E N T I F I E D BY F R E U D IN T H E ECONOMIC PROBLEM I N MASOC H I S M W H E R E HE POSITS THAT. PHYSICAL PAIN AND OBVIOUS U N P L E A S U R E A R E N E I T H E R E N D S I N TH E M S E LVES NOR S I G N A LS. F E A R O F PA I N WOU LD B E A B S E N T FROM H I M A N D IT WAS H I S S A D I ST PART N E R WHO WOULD B A C K OFF BECAUSE OF T H E EXTR E M E NATURE O F HIS D E M A N DS : "AT T H E · L A S T MOME NT. EXTR E M E M UTATION O F THE BODY'S YET PAIN IN ITSELF WAS NOT T H E I N THE SAME WAY THAT M:S REACTIONS TO PA I N WERE DIFFERENT HIS FROM WHAT IS GENERALLY WERE U L T I M A T E PLEA S U R E. SUSPENDED. T H A T H I S TORTU R E S BUT THAT T H E Y BE DID NOT O N LY D E M A N D A LTHOUGH P A I N A N D H U M I LIATION B E LONG T O TWO D I F F E R E N T REGISTERS. T H E B A S I C L I N K BETW E E N TH E I NTENSITY O F TH E PA I N A N D T H E I NTENS ITY OF THE ORGASM UNDERLIES E V E RYTH I N G M. "EVERY INCH OF MY BODY COULD BE A RO U S E D TH ROUGH P A I N :' T H I S WOULD I N D I CATE A N S E N SITI VITY. D E R IV E IN A D D ITON TO THE TORT U R E S . HOW E V E R . BY THE PLEASURE P R I N C I PLE IS PRO­ EVERY M E A N S W A S V A L I D THE M O M E N T M . IT WAS B U T A M EA N S. PAIN WAS E J A C U LATION AT ITS MOST ACCEPTED. A N D ON TH E SPOT W H E R E P A I N WAS A P P L I E D . PHYSICA L HOWEV E R . ETC. W E C A N LOGICALLY INFER AN EQUALLY E N DLESS NEED FOR PLE A S U R E . WHAT H E CRAVED FOR WAS R E S U M E D. P A I N D O E S N O T G O BEYOND A C E RTA I N T H R ESHOLD. I N T H I S R E S PECT H E I S A GOOD A D E PT OF F R E U D W H O S A Y S I N CIVI LISATION AND ITS DISCONTENTS: W H E N ANY SITU ATION THAT I S ABOVE A L L A N A B A S E M ENT OF HIS PE RSONA LITY. I N SHOWS T H A T T H I S I S N O T T R U E A N D T H A T EVER­ INCREASING SOUGHT FOR. I WOU LD ADD THAT TH I S IS PARTI C U L A R L Y TRUE WHEN THE I M PORTA N C E O F PHYSICA L P A I N I N ITSELF I S M I N I M IZED: TORTU RE I S S E LDOM VERY HO R R I FY I NG. M. T H A T M . M O R E PA I N . BUT THEN I GOT A N E R ECTION. BUT M E A N S TO A TTA I N A GOA L WHICH I S A LWAYS P L E A S U R E . E . I . THE FACT THAT TORTU RE I S I N FLICTED OF ESTA B L I S H E S N E C E S S I T Y BY A N OT H E R A MOST I N T I M ATE LINK PARTY B E I N C R E A S I N GLY PA I N F U L.'S W I T H PLEAS U R E A N D T H E N W I TH O R G A S M : M:S C A S E D I S PROVES T H I S . TO ACH I E V E THIS " V E R I TA B L E MORAL SUICIDE" DESIRED LONGED. SUFFER THE WORST TOR M E NTS TO O B TA I N OTH E R H A N D I T W O U L D S E E M TO I N C R E A S E S E X U A L EXC ITEMENT AND PUSH I T TO ITS C L I MAX WHILE PLEA S U R E U N D E R A B SOLUTE C O M P U L S I O N : S U C H WAS M:S DESTINY F O R THE GREATER PART O F H I S LIFE. FROM M. M .M:S C A S E A LS O R E V E A LS THAT T H E P H E NO M E NON OF PHYSICAL PAIN AND ITS MYSTE R I O U S ABI LITY TO TRIGGER E ROTIC P L E A S U R E A N D O RG A S M IS NOT WHAT C E RTA I N S P E C I A L I STS H A V E C L A I M E D IT TO BE. PA I N HAS NO BOU N D A R Y . PROLONGED. I. A N D H I S W I F E "WE R E R E A LLY TWO SLAVES O F TWO LOVERS:' EVERY M EA N S. 1 65 . A N D T H E F E E L I N G O F P LE A S U R E GRADUA LLY BECA M E OCC U R E D I NTENSE. WHEN C L E A R E R. TH E S E I D E A S OF T I M E A N D QUA NTITY GIVE US D E F I N ITE I N FO R M ATION W H I C H C A N TH ROW SOM E LIGHT O N T H E M YSTE R I O U S CONN ECTION BETW E E N PHYSICAL PAIN AND PLEASURE. M. W A S FREE TO DESIRE OR T O R E F U S E T H A T JOY. M. TH E GENITALIA ARE THE AFTER E J AC U A LTION. ON T H E T H I S I S W H Y H I S C A S E I S SO D I FFIC U LT T O U N R A V E L . I T H U RT. SHARPER. A N D D I V E R S I F I E D . R E LA T I O N S W I T H OTH E R S U N ORTHODOX I N V A R I O U S WAYS. I N C R EASES AND DECREASES IN TH E QUA NTITY OF STI M U L I WITH I N A G I V E N P E R IOD OF T I M E. H E U N DOUBTEDLY EXPER I E NCED DERIVED FROM "TH E THE FEELING OF HAPPINESS OF A WILD EGO. L I V E T H I S CO R R E LATION? ACCORD I NG TO H I M. C L A I M S IT I S TER ROR AND A N X I ETY WHICH ARE A SSOC I A T E D THI NGS. DE­ E N D L ESS S E ARCH FOR P A I N . TH E PARADOX IS THAT IT WAS FORC E D U PO N H I M . M A D E T H E DI STI NCTION V E R Y C L E A R LY : "AT FI RST. IT WAS PA I N T H A T T R I GG E R E D MY K E E N E S T POS S I B L E P L E A S U R E . T H E R E WAS PA I N N O T S U B J ECTED T O M UT I LATION. A N D STI L L MORE. I N T H I S S E N S E . A N D HOW D I D M . TH EODO R E R E I K. FOR I N ST A N C E . IT O N LY P R O D U C E S A F E E L I N G OF M I L D WE ARE SO M A D E T H A T WE C A N ONLY A F RO M STATE A OF CONTENTME NT. I N D I C A T I N G C LE A R L Y THAT PA I N ITSELF I S THE T R I G G E R . OR OBEYI N G O R D E R S TO WHICH A P PA R E NTLY I NTE N S E ENJOYMENT L I TT L E THE S I M PLEST IN SLAP CONTRAST A N D V E RY FROM I N DULGE C O P R O P H A G Y. W A S QUITE AWA R E OF T H I S OUTB I DDI NG. H A D M A S T E R E D THE A RT O F P RO D U C I N G CONTRA STS." EJACU LATION:' TH I S E X P LA I N S T H E C H A RACTE R I S ­ TIC ATTITUDE O F T H E M A SOC H I ST W H O CONSTA NTLY D E M A N DS THAT H I S P A R TN E R I N C R E A S E THE PA I N . I T I S W E L L KNOWN THAT MOST S P EC I A L I STS STR E S S THE M A SOC H I SrS QUEST FOR H U M I LI ATION. PAIN IT IS WAS A CT U A L L Y THAT TH E CASE O F M A SOC H I S M . THE S A D I ST A LWAYS B A C K S OFF:' I T APPEARS MOREOVER THAT PAIN HAS A DOU BLE SATISFACTION U N TA M E D BY I N S T I N C TU A L I M PU L S E THE WHICH F R E U D TELLS U S " I S I NCOM PA R A B LY M O R E I N T E N S E THA N THAT DERIVED FROM SATI NG AN I N STINCT THAT H A S B E E N TA M E D:' O N E WO U L D B E I NC OR R ECT I N A S S U M I NG.

ENABLED HIM TO P RO L O N G T H E E J A C U LATION.. F I RST. WHO LIVED I N A CAGE BRI STLING WITH S H A RP POINTS. ANOT H E R THAT M E ANS TO H U M I LIATION. I ON HIS PA RTN E R WA S AN U TT E R NOTH ING WANTED S E C O N D. THAT "TH E SA DIST A LWAYS BACKS OFF A T T H E LAST MOMENT. AND H E R E H E HOODWIN K E D H I S I N T E R LOCUTOR F O R H E W A S V E R Y DEFINITELY E X P R E S S I NG A DESIRE: THE D ES I R E T H A T TH E SUCH A WAY AS TO OTH E R P E RSON PROCEED IN D I S R EG A R D O F T H E W I LL. I T W A S A LSO H I S I M M E NSE P R I D E AND HIS SCO R N FOR HIS PA RTNERS WHICH PROMPTED H I M TO R E M A RK. C E R TA I N E X P RESSIONS K E PT R E C U R R I NG IN HIS SPEECH SUCH AS: C LA I M ED HAD REAL E X ISTENCE O F H I S OWN. ON THE WHOLE." M. I N PART. R ENOUNC ING H I S W I L L "FOR THE B E N E F I T OF THE PE RSON WHO WAS I N COMMA ND. ETC." TO BE MORE P R ECISE. HE WAS READY TO SUBMIT TO ANY K I N D OF I NVESTIGATION SINCE RETICENCE WAS TOTA L L Y FOR E I G N TO HIM AND I N DE E D RETI­ CONC E A L E D SOM ETH I NG DES PITE LITERA LLY I NCONCE I VA B LE: TO SHOW ANY TONE OF H I S DISCO U R S E W H I C H . THE I NT E R LO C U T O R OR THE PARTNER TH U S E F FECTS. THE HE H I DE O U S F E LT TORT U R E S HE HAD G U E S S E D A T . BUT OUT OF H U M I L I A T I ON." THE S A D I STIC STUDENT WHO SHARED M:S LIFE A N D H I S WI FE'S WAS SU PPOSED T O BE A LL-POW ERFUL: HE GAVE STRICT ORDERS THAT HAD TO BE PLEAS U RE " A FT E R H O M OSEX U A L S I D E O F A L L T H I S W A S. HAD EVER ANOTH E R C O NC E A L E D . THE W I L L EXISTED NO LONGER. ACCORDING TO M . I N A N Y CASE. I E X P E R I ENC E D NO PHYSICAL OBEYED-AND Y E T H E WAS I N FACT LOOKED U PO N AS UTTER LY WORTHLESS. I T WAS A L L O N THE MORAL PLA N E . B E H I N D THE FACADE OF A D R A M ATIC A S S E R TI O N OF H I S NOTH I NGNESS. WAS RESTRAINED AND FREE FROM D R A M AT I C CENCE WOULD HAVE M E A NT TO E X E RT HIS WI LL. HE S A I D T H E ONLY REASON HE WAS RETICENT ABOUT PERFORM I N G EVEN MORE MASOCHIST H I MS E L F. GOT A PARTNER TO ORDER H I M TO I N S C R I B E ON H I S S K I N SO H I S MORAL DECAY COULD BE SEEN: "I GAVE THE I M PRESSION I WAS A N I N V E RT W H I C H I WAS NOT OUT O F PLEASURE. A L MOST I N C I DENTALLY. THE MASOCHI ST. TOTA L ANNI H I LATION OF THE W I LL. AND T H E R E FORE TO C A NC E L H I MSELF OUT. AS HE F E LT HOMOSEXU A L ' PRACTICES TO I N S U LT S . M . AT A LL: THE HE WAS THE ONE WHO E RO T I C R E L A T I ONS H I P TO E X I S T : I T W A S TE R M I N A T E D HE AS SOON AS RESUMED H I S FREEDOM V I S-A-VIS THOSE PERSONS WHO S U PPOSEDLY HELD H I M IN BONDAGE AND H E DID N O T A L LOW ANY FURTHER S E RVITUDE TO P E RSON A L L Y BELIEVE THAT THE PERVERSE M A SOC H IST I S NOT TOTA LLY UNAWA R E O F H I S D EEP-SEATED ATTITUDE. D E PICTED H I M S E L F A S H A V I NG A PRESSING N E E D TO B E H U M I LIATED-HOMOS E X U A LITY WAS ONLY A N INST R U M ENT TO H I S E N D AND T O HAVE H I S W I L L COM P LETELY D E STROYED. " P S YC H I C A L TH E O B V I O U S COMPLICATIO� S A N D T H E PROBLE M S INVOLVED I N H E MOSTASIS. A N D SO T H E M A SOC H I ST. NEV ERTHELESS T H E R E W A S SOM ET H I NG A T R I FLE TOO STRONG IN THIS I N S I STENCE ON FOUND H I M S E L F I N T H E PARADOX ICAL SITUATION Of BEING STR I PP E D OF ALL POWE R O F SPEECH AND DESIRE. THE TOTA L POWER THAT M. THIS TRAIT U N DO U B T E D L Y THE GENE R A L NEGATE M:S EXISTENC E . HE R E A LLY RENOU NCED ACTUA LLY S U B DU E D T H E SADIST B Y FORCING H I M T O A S S U M E T H E R O L E W H I C H H E . ABOLITION OF THE W I LL. SO OPA QU E LY V E I LE D THAT ONE M I GHT CONSIDER T H I S TO BE W H I LE THE L A S T W O R D ON THE W H O L E MATTE R. H E C A N NOT R E S I ST L ET T I N G IT BE GLIMPSED OR OC C U R . WITNESS WERE THESE TANTAMOUNT P H R ASES M . BONDAGE MUST IN FACT BE H E W A S ALMOST UNIQUE: ONLY ONE PERSON H E KNEW OF. CONFE R R E D M OC K E R Y . ' S D E E PLY CONC E A LE D ASSE RTION O F TOTA L POWER WAS M A TC H E D B Y HIS OVERWEENING P R I D E WHICH COULD B E GLIM PSED WHENEVER HE DESC R I B E D UNDERGONE. LITTLE HE SATISFACTION. T H E BONDAG E T O W H I C H THE SADIST I S CONDE M N E D B Y THE M A SOC H I ST IS. A PPEARED TO A S S U M E . C LA I M E D THAT HE H I MSELF DID NOT E X I ST AS A SUBJECT B U T THAT H E S I M PLY E M BO D I E D THAT THE HE SA DISTS VERY FANTASI ES. M. WHICH H OLDS P R I SO N E R THE S U R PASSED H I M. DRASTIC MUTI LATIONS-SUC H A S A MPUTATING' HIS P E N I S-WAS THE FEAR OF M E DICAL O R LEGAL MICHEL DE M'UZAN TRANSLATED BY DANIEL SLOTE 1 66 .

H E AGREED T O TALK W I T H A PSYCHO­ A N A LYST ABOUT H I S M A SOC H I S M BECA U S E HE WAS URGED TO DO SO B Y H I S OWN PHYSICI A N WHOM H E CON S U LT E D FOR R E S pi RA TO R Y P R O B L E M S A N D CONCRETE SADISTIC OR M A SOC H I STIC PRACTI CES. H E H A S LOST HIS "SE N S E OF REALITY. THE TITLE OF D E M'UZAN'S PAPER. STU D I ES ON SADISM A N D MASOC H I S M A R E V E R Y SELDOM BASED ON G E N U I N E "CLI N I C A L MATERI A L:' BY A LT H O U G H D E SC R I B E D H I M SELF AS A GENUINE I MEAN THAT WHICH REFERS TO MASOC H I ST." I S TO A DEG R E E IDEOLOGICAL F R A U D S I NCE IT R E DUCES M:S EXPERIENCE TO A M EDICAL CASE. IT WOULD BE I M POSSIBE FOR T H E SADIST A N D/OR MASOCHIST TO PRETE N D THAT W H E N HE I NDULGES IN THESE PRACTICES. VERY OFTEN THESE STU D I E S REFER EITHER TO THE S A D I STIC N E U ROTIC A N DIOR M A SOC H I STIC F A N TA S I E S OF PATI E NTS. AND FROM A PSYC H I ATRIC POINT O F VIEW. IT I S QUITE R E M A R K A BL E THAT PSYCHOANALYTIC GENUINE SADISM AND M A S OC H I S M THEREFORE SHOULD NOT B E CONFUSED WITH MORAL SADISM 1 67 . ALTHOUGH NOTHING IN M:S BEHAVIOR I N DICATES THAT H E IT I S ALSO A R E M A R K A BLE FACT THAT MASOC H I STS AND SADISTS A R E V E R Y M U C H AWARE OF TH E I R PEC U L I A R ITIES. SUCH THE NOVELS SADE SACH E R M A SOCH . WE SHOULD NOT CON S I D E R THIS STORY AS AN OBSE RVATION NOR A C L I N ICAL CASE SINCE M. B UT DO NOT CON S I D E R I SHALL NOT EVEN TAKE I N TO C O N S I D E R ATION S A D I STS WHO ARE THOSE M A S OC H I S T S AND CONDEM N E D B Y A J UDGE TO CHOOSE BETW E E N PRISO N O R PSYC H I ATRIC TREATM ENT. W H O K N E W THAT M : S PAST L I F E WOULD C E RTAINLY I NTEREST DE M'UZAN A S A C A S E H I STORY. STORI E S AS OR TO S A D I ST I C A N DIOR SUCH AS M:S.POSTFACE: MASOC H I S M AND POLYSEXUA LITY YOU HAVE J UST R E A D M:S STORY A S HE TOLD IT TO A FRENCH PSYCHOAN A LYST. EVER THOUGHT O F U N D E RGOING TREATME NT. DID NOT CON S U LT M IC H E L DE M'UZAN FOR H I S MASOC H I S M ." I N T E R R U PT I O N OF HIS PRACTICES-WHICH C A N NOT B E COMPA R E D T O T H E S P O N T A N EO U S R E M I SS I O N OF AN ILLNESS­ SHOULD LEAD U S T O CONS I D E R M : S STORY A S THE STORY O F A M A SOC H I STIC PROCESS. M. M:S C U RIOSITY TOWARD TIES HAS HIS OWN S E X U A L PECULIARI­ DESIRE OF SEXUAL NOTHI N G TO DO WITH T H E RID OF THEM. H E R E P ARTLY TRANSLATED AS "A CASE OF PERVERTED M A SOC H I S M. HAS MICHEL DE M'UZA N . THE M A SOC H I S T I C TH EM AS S Y M PT O M S OF A N Y PARTIC ULAR I LLNESS. OF OR MORE AND MASOCHISTIC O FT E N . ON TH E GETTING SUDDEN CONTRARY.

HOWE V E R . G R A M MED. C O N S I D E R E D DO S A D I STIC O N E S) . EVEN HIS DREAMS LOSE ALL M A SOC H I S T I C CONTENT. THE M A S OC H I ST. " V I O L E NTLY WOULD C E RTANLY W I S H TO M E ET MORE PSYCHO­ A N A LYSTS THERE. I T I S VERY R E M A R K A B L E C A S E H ISTORY. THE I NTENSITY OF TH I S R E P R E SSION A N D ITS EFFECTS CAN EASI LY BE RECOG N IZED THOSE BEEN WHO IN ARE TH E HOR R I F I ED EXPRESSION OF TH E M WHO C LA I M THAT THEY H A V E SOMETH I NG TO SAY ABOUT PE RVERSIONS. ON THE ONE H A N D. W H E R E A N YONE CA N DO A NYTH I N G W I THOUT EXPECTI N G A NYBODY T O N ECESSA R I LY D O THE S A M E T H I N G S AS H E DOES. ETC . LIQU I D S E X U A LITIES. V I S U A L S E X U A L­ ITIES." I . AS WELL AS THE FACT THAT WH I LE HE WAS A M A SOCH I ST. A N D RETU R N S TO A V E R Y Q U I ET A N D PEAC E F U L H ETEROS EX U A L LIFE. F A R FROM GOD'S S I GHT: H E S I M PLY WALKS A LONG TH E STR E ETS. H O M O . A S SOME A STA N C E PSYCHOA N A LYSTS B E L I E V E . A MONG MANY OTH ERS. POLY S E X U A L I T Y -A N D TO D E SC R I B E T H E M A N Y P R OC E S S E S THROUGH WHICH POLYS E X U A LI T Y BECO M E S A "FACT OF L I FE:' S U C H PROCESSES A R E TOT A L L Y A L I E N TO C L A S S I C A L O P PO S I T I O N S : M A SOC H I S M FRENCH IS NOT A STA NCE E I T H E R .A N D M A SOC H I SM .. P R E C L U D E S A N Y TA LK OF A " P E R V E RT S T R U C T U R E . TH EY HAVE T O BE I T H A T A S U B J ECT M IG H T ADOPT F O R A S HORT W H I L E A N D T H E N A B A N DO N . THE SO-CA LLED DESIRE OF THE IS A PERVERT M YTH./ H E T E R O . POLYSEXUALITY DETE R M I N ES A NEW CUT. A LSO. M A N /W O M A N . THE P E R V E RT IN LES 1 20 NOT DOES GENUINE SADISM AND M A S OC H I S M ARE TWO NEED A DEEP AND DARK CAVE TO HAVE K I N K Y S E X . B U T THEY CHANGE FOR T H E MOST PART IN TH E SENSE OF A BECOMING. S U C H A S U DD E N C H A NG E . . A L I MENTARY SEXUALI­ TI E S . OPEN SPACES WHERE E V E R Y P E R V E RT C A N E X P E R I E N C E THIS POLYS E X U A LITY. EVEN FOR A PSYC HOA N A LYST. MICHEL DE M'UZA N DOES NOT EXPRESSION UNCONSCIOUS PROV I D E US WITH WHAT M A S OC H I S M IS. L I F E WAS VERY W E L L BALANCED BOTH SOC I A LL Y WE ARE NOT REALLY I NT E R ESTED IN THE RE­ A N D E M OTIO N A LLY. T H E Y FOLLOW A PATTE R N OF I NC REAS­ ING Q U A N T I TATI V E A I N T E N S I TY C A R E FULLY P RO­ ALONG THESE LI N ES. OF THE B I OLOGICAL OPPOSITION OF SEXES. H ETEROS E X U A L. OF THE OPPOSITION OF CLASSES AND. ONE "POLYMORPHOUS S E X U A L I TY ." A S PECTS. WHICH FREUD IS CA LLED THE SEXUAL PRACTICES OF H I S CHOICE. F E LT LI K E A CHILD FACED W I TH TH I S R E M A R KABLE I S NOT A STR UCTU R E : O N E I S NOT M A SO­ C H I STIC L I K E ONE IS N E U ROTIC. OF POLYSEXUAL­ ITY : AN I N F I N ITELY D I V E R S I F I E D SEXUA LITY W H I C H CONSTITUTES THE POTE NTI A L SEXUA LITY OF EVERY BODY. IT I S FOR T H E MOST PART BECAUSE CHISM IT D E M O N STRATES T H A T M A SO­ TRUE. H U S B A N D /W I F E . THAT IT I S NOT EASY. THEY CAN T R A N SFORM I NTO ONE A N OT H E R . O B E S E S E X U A L I TI ES. THE M A SOC H I S T S O M E T H I M E S BECO M I NG A S A D I ST A N D VICE V E R SA . . NON P E R V E RT N E U R OT I C THE FANTASY O F THE THE DISGUISED AND RE­ H ET E R O S E X U A L: OF HIS IN THIS RESPECT. C A LC U LATED ACCO R D I N G TO A N I NT E N S I F ICATION 1 68 . TH ESE ARE FREE SPACES. WAS A SPECIA LIZED STRA I N E D S E X U A LITY OF OUR PSYCHOANA LYSTS: OU R AIM IS TO G I V E S H A P E TO A NEW NOTION­ WOR K E R WHO WAS H I G H LY R E G A R D E D BY H I S PEERS AND HIS S U P E R IORS." THE PSYCHOANALYST. I NDEPENDE NT. IT I S N O T A STA NCE BECAUSE M A SOC H I STIC PRACTICES C H A N G E WITH T I M E (AS STU D I E D A LONG C E RTA I N L I N ES OF I NCREASING I NTENSITY: VIOLENT S E X U A LITI ES. IF I I N S I ST O N T H E FACT THAT M:S STORY IS A A N A LYSTS COMPARE POLYSEXUALITY I N ORDER TO D E SC R I B E IT I N TE R M S OF DEVIANCE. E . TO P E R V E RT THE CONFRONTED-WITHOUT H A V I N G P R E P A R E D F O R IT-W ITH THE PREVIOUSLY R E A L I TY TO W H I C H M:S STORY REFERS. ETC . " M. TOW A R D S O R T O F P ROG R E S S I V E T E N S I O N A TENSION WHICH IS SO M E T H I NG. NOR WITH ATYPICAL PSYCHOSES. IN E V E R Y C I TY THERE A R E OPEN PLAC ES. ON TH E OTH E R . AS M UC H A S WITH ABLE WHAT "NOR M A L SEXUA LITY" MODEL A G A I N ST W H ICH IS: TH E I N EVIT­ MOST P S Y C HO­ PRESSED D E S I R ES. OR AT LEAST THOSE AMONG R E PR E S S E D I N A L MOST E V E RYBODY A N D PARTICU­ LALY A MONG THOSE WHO C LA I M TO BE SEXUA LLY "NORMA L.U P OF T H E C ITY A S WELL AS OF THE EROTIC BODY O F PEOPLE. TA K I NG SUFFICIENT PRECAUTIONS TO AVOI D BOTH PO L I C E A N D "PERVERT H U NTERS. M:S SEXOLOGI ST: M . IT I S R E M A R K A B L E I N D E E D TO S E E HOW M . S U D DE N LY A B A N DONS H I S M A SOC H I ST I C H A B I TS A FTE R TH I RTY Y E A R S O F CONSTA N T A N D H E AVY PRACTICE. TO A P P ROACH SOMETH I NG WHEN TH I S SOM ETH I N G H A S B E E N VIOLENTLY R EPRESSED WITH I N ONESELF: M I C H E L DE M'UZAN H A D TO WAIT TEN YEARS B E FORE H E COULD START TO WORK ON M:S STORY. ACTI VE/PASSI VE. A N D IT IS Q U I TE I RONICAL TO SEE THAT TH E "SEX SPEC I A LI ST. CONTR A R Y TO W H A T SA D E TELLS U S JOURN EES DE SODOME. I N FACT.

H U M I LIATION. IT IS AN IS EXPER I M ENTATION DEATH : U LTI M A T E GOAL DEATH AS PRESIDENT SC H R E B E R'S: " I T WOU L D B E SO N I C E TO BE A WOMAN SUBJ ECT TO COiTUS. WHICH MORE R E A D I LY OBEYS OTH E R LAWS T H A N THE LAWS OF SYMBOLIC LANG UAGE.OF VIOLENCE COUPLED P LA N N E D WITH A PROG R E S S I V E . IT O B E Y S A N A LTOGETH E R DIFFERENT LOG IC. EACH ZONE OF WHICH HAS BEEN SUCCESS I F E LY N A M ED. SAY: "THE M EETING POINT FOR THE MOST BEA UTI F U L P R I CKS. FLESH TO BE FUCKED." OR " I AM A BITCH. FO R M TH E SPECIFIC GUAGE O F WHICH HE BECOMES T H E SUBJ ECT. BUT A BITCH. E X P LO R A T I O N A CAREFUL R E A D I NG O F M:S STORY REVEALS THAT TH E CONTROLS ON THIS P R OG R E S S I O N ARE SUBJECTED. M ERELY A H I NT OF WHAT SHOULD B E DETA I LE D AT SOME LENGTH. WHOSE IN FACT. SUCH A CONTROL I M PL I E S A VERY PREC I S E K NOWLEDGE. TATOOS. WAS S U BJ ECTED TO TH E STRUCTUR­ I NG A N D A L I E NATING POW E R OF LA NGUAGE. T H E DOUBLE. AS A N EXTRE M E EXPERIENCE L I K E "ULTI MATE SEX. A P E R FORMATIVE D I SCOU RSE. W H I LE OUR BODY. SAYS. T H E BY THE H E R E AGA I N I HAVE TO B E B R I E F. M:S C I S E D A N D FO RBIDDEN. " DEG R E E OF TH E SADIST-IS TO DECONSTRUCT THE OEDI PAL CONSTRUCTI O N . IT OBEYS THE THERE I S ECSTASY-JOUISSANCE-THE PLEASU RABLE COUNTERPART OF DEATH. I AM FUCKED U P. A KNOWLEDGE WHICH DERIVES FROM A NON-VERBAL S E M I OTICS. TO THE E XC LUSION O F T H E G E N I T A L Z O N E A N D TH I S F O R ONE PURPOSE ONLY: HETEROS E X U A L I NTE RCOU RSES. W H AT I SAY IS P R OG R E S S I O N CONTROLLED A N X I ETY W H I C H T H E M A SOCHIST A ROUSES I N H I S PARTN E R WHO "ALWAYS G I V E S U P" A T A C E RTA I N POI NT. T H E STORY O F T H E S E X U A L PHASES (ORAL. I T I S QUITE IT IS NOT POSSI BLE TO E X P LA I N FULLY IN THIS POSTFACE H O W A N D WHY JOUISSANCE I S PRECISELY WHAT WE HAVE H A D TO REJ ECT I N THE COURSE OF BECO M I N G O E D I PA LIZED. I F I MAY SAY S O . LOGIC O F T H E BODY. 1 69 . IF WE ACTS OBSERVE OVER TO A TH E CONCATE N A TION OF ULTIMATE SEX! WE 00 NOT P RETE N D THAT SUCH A GOAL IS ALWAYS REACH ED-ACTUA LLY I T IS VERY R A R E LY SO-BUT WE TH I N K THAT SUCH ALWAYS EXISTS I M PLICITLY. FROM BODY-SEMIOTICS. PATTERN L I N K E D T O EACH OTH E R A S I N A SYNTAGM . TH E P E RVERTED ACT ON ONE HAND I S NOT SPEECH. PARTNERS. AS I N RATH E R THAN COM P A R E M A S OC H I STIC ACTIVITIES WITH R E LIGIOUS RITES. OUT OF A SYSTEM OF S I G N S WHICH ALWAYS PRE-EXISTED H I M A N D T O W H I C H H E WAS S U P POS E D TO HAVE BEEN COMPLETELY C A R E F U LLY EROTIC BODY.E. HOW E V E R. OF THE H I S ACTI VITIES LEAD H I M PARTI A L LY OUT OF T H E R E A L M OF LANGUAGE. THE AIM OF T H E M A SOC H I ST-A N D T O A LESSER A LIVI NG TOILET BOWL . IN OTH E R WORDS TO I WANT TO PO I N T OUT THREE I M PORTANT DETA I LS ABOUT THESE TERMS: DESUBJECTIFY HIS OWN BODY. I T IS A DISCOURSE. W E SHOULD COMPARE THEM WITH AN I NITIATION. A LL OVER HIS BODY. ANAL. NOT A LWAYS. PERVERTED A GOAL EXPERI­ THESE THEY CERTA I N A PERIOD OF T I M E . BY N A T U R E ESSENTIA LLY T H E CASE O F SOME PSYCHOTICS. EROTI­ TH E MASOC H I ST ALSO USES A N OT H E R M EANS TO D E S U BJ ECTI FY HIS BODY: I. AND I T DIFFERS FUNDAM ENTALLY FROM T H E P E R V E RTED FANTASM WHICH IS ALWAYS A PH R A S E . MASOCHISTIC ACTI VITIES ARE NOT S U P POSED TO DRIVE TH E MASOCH I ST COM PLETELY OUT OF TH E REALM OF LANGUAGE GEN ERALLY S P EA K I NG. T H E M A SOCH I ST C A N STOP W H E N H E WANTS: H I S ACTI VITI ES A R E P R E P A R E D WITH GREAT CARE A N D THE TERMS OF THESE ACTI VITIES ARE D E SC R I B E D C E PT E D BY P R E C I S E LY BOTH IS IN A " C O N T R ACT" AC­ PROHITIBION O F POL YSEXUALITY." T H E R E A L ONE. EVEN H I S EROTIC BODY I S V U L N E RABLE. H A S S H O W N US. BUT THERE I S ALSO PLEASURE I N ITS QUEST. A KNOWLEDGE THAT CONSTRUCTION H ETEROS E X U A L S U BJ EC T COMES A BOUT BY A N D THROUGH N E R A BLE LA N G U A G E . URETHRAL AND G E NITA L) I S NOT ONLY TH E STORY OF TH E ACCEPTA N C E OF OEDIPAL SEX. FI RST." ON TH E OTH E R HAND TH E PERVE RTED A C T I S NOT HAZA RDOUS SO FAR. THE O F T H E SO-C A L L E D " N O R M A L" I NC R EASES I N PROPORTION T O T H E VIOLENCE OF THE PERVERTED ACTS. OR IN OTH E R WORDS. I A M NOT A M A N NOR A WOMAN. . OUR A M AZ I NG TO SEE CAN THE INCREASING HIS CONTROL A AND ITS M A SOC H I ST GET OVER BODY P H Y S I O L OG I C A L F U N CT I O N S . A L SO S E CO N D LY . T H I S CONTROL EROTIC BODY. TO THE EVERY OF S U BJECT IS V U L­ LAN­ ONE CAN NOT FIND IN BOOKS. A SLUT. P R OG R E S S I V E M ENTATION I S A WAY O F B E I NG-FOR-DEATH (ETRE· APPEAR F O L LOW POUR-LA-MORTI. I T I S ALSO TH E STORY OF T H E S U B J ECTI V I ZATION OF TH E EROTIC BODY. A S M . SOM ETH I NG LIKE R E PETITIVE. AND THERE IS EVEN MORE THAN PLEASU RE. .

OTH E R . BUT I F WERE A HE IS WOMAN I F WOULD BE EXACTLY THE AND SAME. ETC. FROM TH E MASOCHISTS POINT OF N E W YORK• .1 HE THE F E M I N I ZATION OF THE NAMES (AT LEAST I N VI EW. AND T H A T M A K ES ALL T H E DIFFERENCE.1 . A GO B A C K I NTO T H E R E A L M OF SYMBOLIC LANGUAGE.J ECTIVIZATION OF T H E M A SOC H I ST 3. A N D SO ON. BUT H E W I LL DO I T F R E E LY. FRA NCOIS PERALDI T H E S E T E R M S .' T H E S E T E R M S R E F E R N EITHER TO SUB. HE W I LL H A V E BECOM E ' A C H I LD. IT IS O N LY TO I N DUCE TH E AGGRESSIVITY OF THE ZSCHE. NOT HOMOSEXUAL. A N D R E PE A TS THAT HE I S A SLUT. HOWEVER.JECT COMPLETELY A L I E N TO T H E REALM OF LANGUAGE WHO REFUSES I T COM PLETELY. A PILE OF SH IT.J ECT NOR OB. I NDUCE. BUT THIS S U B. SO-CALLED "NORMAL PEOPLE" THAT THE M A S OC H I ST P R ET E N D S TO BE E XC R E M E N T. I F H E SAYS. H E W I LL M A K E A G A M E OF LANGUAGE. NO M E A N I NG . AND H E W I LL H A V E ACCO M P L I S H E D I N H I S OWN WAY THE LAST METAMORPHOSIS FORESEEN BY N I ET­ G A R BA G E-CA N. A U V I N G TOILET BOWL I S A P L A C E THAT • • • DOES NOT M A K E A PSYCHOTIC OF H I M . . AND THROUGH TH I S A N X I ETY TH E MASOCH I ST IS A B LE TO CONTROL THE AGG R ESSI VITY OF THE OTH E R . OF THE PARTN E R . THEY DO NOT EVEN R E F E R TO A R E A L OB. M. H A V E NO SPEC I A L SENSE. AND H E W I L L PLAY I N I T A N D WITH IT. DRIVES OF THE OTH E R . TH E Y HAVE ONLY TO A P E R FO R M AT I V E HORROR F U NC T I O N : AND TO TO F R E N C H : A BITC H . I T A ROUSES HIS A N X I ETY AS W ELL. A TURD. BUT TO A FUNCTION: A BITCH I S SOMEONE WHO I N DUCES THE NORMAL H ETEROSEX U A L TO B E BITCHY. A FTER H I S "TRI P. A SUB. .JECT. BUT AT THE S A M E T I M E IT AROUSES THE DEATH­ 2. A SLUT. T H E S E T E R M S REFER TO A N E UTRAL. . " SUCH A D E S U B .J ECTI­ V I ZA T I O N A L LO W S THE M A S OC H I S T TO FREE R E C E I V E S SHIT AND PISS HERE I SUGGEST THE H I M S E L F F R O M H I S U NC O N SC I O U S A L I E N A T I O N F R O M T H E S Y M BOLIC F U NCTION O F LANGUAGE: I T ALLOWS H I M TO R E D I SCOVE R THE PERFORMATIVE R E A D E R VISIT T H E PIT AT "THE MINE S H A FT' I N NEW YOR K C I TY • • • F U NCTION OF LANGUAGE ALONG WITH H I S BOOY­ LANGUAGE.J ULY 1 978 1 70 . PEOPLE G O A W A Y A NDIOR REACT WITH AGGRES­ S I V I TY AND BEAT T H E SHIT O UT O F THE M A SOCH I ST. THE MASOCHIST IS NOT EXC R E M E N T OR W H A T E V E R : H E S A Y S H E I S. RATH ER THAN TO A FE M I N I N I N E OR MASC U L I N E QUA LITY: A BITC H OR A SLUT H A S I N F A C T NO BIOLOGICAL SEX: "I A M N E I TH E R M A N N O R WOMA N B U T FLESH .'. . OR THE H ETERO­ S E X U A L .JECT . I S A M A N ." THE M A SOC H I ST C A N IT I S O N LY FOR THE N E U ROTIC. PROVOKE MAKE W H E N H E GETS FUCKED BY A MAN IT I S ON LY FOR M A SOCH I STIC P U R POSES.1 IN SPITE OF T H E F E M I N I ZATION OF THE WORDS.

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H E A P P E A R E D I G N O R A N T OF T H E F R E E DOM THAT MY N U D I TY R E P R E S ENTED ON A SUMMER LOC A L T R A I N .[ON C E I H A D A M ASTER] BEGIN THE WERE D I S RO B I N G HE WOULD EXPECT. THE AD­ TIMES W I N D C A R E S S E D M Y B A R E C H EST WITH W E LCOM E COOLI NG R E LI E F. S P E E D B Y MY W I N DOW. A N D EQUA LLY AS I GNORANT O F T H E DANGER IT H E L D O N FROZEN W I N T E R E V E N I NGS. AS HE DROVE AWAY FROM T H E STATION I WOULD THERE WAS A RITUAL EVERY FRIDAY E V E N I NG. N IG HT. WHEN THE MY BODY D R A FT WHEN W O U L D S E N D C H I LLS THROUGH S H I RT R E MOVED THE LITTLE MY PROTECTION IT HAD PROVI DED. AT THE T E R M I N U S . W A I T I N G T O B E G I N T H E W E E K E N D. ' R E P R I NTED H E R E . T H E R E WOU L D B E NO G R E E T I N G F R O M E I TH E R OF US. I S A R E W R I T I N G OF T H E LAST TWO STOR I E S WERE 23RD PSA LM. I WOULD TAKE A N E X P R E SS TO T H E N E XT LARGE M ETROPOLIS AND CHANGE THERE FOR A N A K ED. T H E R I T U A L W A S S O SEC U R E T H A T I T D I D N O T N E E D T H E S U PPORT OF WORDS. MY COM FORT D I D NOT CONC E R N HIM. H E ONLY WAS CON C E R N E D THAT I BE WITHOUT CLOT H E S I N H I S HOUSE. W H E N HE F I N A LLY P U L L E D I NTO T H E SPACE B E S I D E H I S H O U S E . T H E R E ON HOT SUMMER N I GHTS THAT T H E TH E T H R E E FOLLOWI NG T E XTS A R E LOVE LETTERS. TH E R E WERE OTH E R TIMES IN THE WINTER CONSC IOUSLY D R E S S E D TO EACH OTH E R B Y JOHN PRESTON A N D JASON KLEIN. I 1 72 . I W O U L D H A V E T O M A K E M Y O W N W A Y I N S I D E . EVERY FRIDAY HE WOU L D B E STA N D I NG NEXT TO HIS TRUCK. A C T U A L L Y N O MORE TH A N A C A B I N I N T H E WOODS. THE F I RST ONE. I WOULD C LI M B OUT A N D FIND HIM WAITI NG. TRUCK. I WOULD SIT WATC H I NG A PROGRES­ SION O F TOWNS. M A R K E D T H E F I N A L LEGS O F OUR J O U R N E Y . 'ONCE I HAD A M ASTE R . H E DID NOT C A R E F O R M Y D I SCOM FORT. EACH S M A L L E R THAN T H E LAST. ONCE I HAD A M ASTE R THE REMOVAL OF EACH PIECE OF C LOTH I N G I O N C E H A D A MASTER WHO L I V E D FA R FROM THE CITY. B Y T H E TIME H E WOU L D BE P U L L I NTO H I S O W N D R I V E W A Y I SITTING BESIDE HIM IN THE WOULD E V E R Y F R I DA Y I WOU L D LEAVE M Y JOB IN AN OFFICE B U I L D I NG.

HOUSE W H I LE I WAS THERE. THAT WAS U N I M PORTANT. HE N E V E R W O U L D TA LK T O M E . THOSE TI ME S W H E N H E WOU L D FO RCE M E TO R UN WITHOUT SHOES T H R OUG H T H E S NOW TO GATH E R WE TA L K E D A LMOST NOT AT A LL. COM PLETELY ATTAC H E D T O N ATU RE. M Y ASS. I F O R THE W E E K E N D I BECA M E H I S S E R V ANT. TOOK ITS R E L I E F I N T H E F I E LDS. M Y H A N D W E R E TH E R E W H E N E V E R H E H A D T H E DESIRE. B U T H E WOU L D BEAT M E G R EATLY I F M Y S E R V I C E E V E R FALTERED OR IF MY MIND WANDERED NOT I C E A B LY I NTO A BUT. M Y BODY A N D MY SELF W E R E C APTI V E S OF T H E H OUS E . I TOOK ON COLOR ON M Y S K I N A N D TON E I N M Y M U SC LES A S T H E Y WORK E D H A R D O N H I S F A R M . TAKING HIS TH E WAS H E D H I S TORSO W H I LE I T SAT I N T H E M A S SA G E D IT IN FRONT OF THE FIRE BATHTUB. E V E R Y FRIDAY H E SHAVED EVERY I NCH OF M Y SKIN B ELOW MY N EC K . MY M I N I STRATIONS WERE M I N D. THESE I WAS W E E K E N DS NEVER FOR M Y S E L F. THE S P R I NG WOU L D BEG I N AND WE WOU L D B E ABLE TO VENTU R E FU R TH E R OUT IN TO THE ALWAYS MORE WELCOM I NG SUN UNTI L O N C E P R I VATE WORLD OF D A Y D R E A M S . I WAS 1 73 . OR WHILE TH E F I R S T W I N T E R I L E A R N E D M O R E ABOUT M Y F E A R T H A N I H A D E V E R K N O W N . T H E O R I FICES O F M Y BODY W E R E OPEN FOR HIM TO TA K E ON A W H I M . D E S P E RATELY FRIGHTENED OF WO R K I NG I N TH E F I E LDS. I WOULD HAVE TO R E V E R S E T H E R I T U A L O F D R E S S I N G A S H E D ROVE M E T O T H E TRA I N STATIO N . TH E F I R ST S U M M E R I L E A R N E D M O R E A BOUT M Y THAN IN ALL THE SUMMERS THAT HAD BODY PRECE E D E D I T TOGETH ER. C H O P H I S F I R EWOOD. H E N E V E R LET HIS PHYSICAL W A NTS FALL I NTO A PATT E R N . BUT NOT TO C L E A N S E MYSE LF. C L E A N HIS HOUSE. H E WAS N EV E R M I N DLESSLY C R U EL. H E COULD NOT TOLERATE EVEN A FEW STR A N DS E X I STENCE S E P A R ATING M Y SKIN FROM H I S TOU C H . S P R E A D I NG FAR APART M Y JAWS A N D M Y SPH I NCTER AS H E I N VADED M Y O P E N B E I NG . TO I HIS BODY. I WOU LD ABLE. I T HAD NOT TA K E N LONG FOR THE TRI P BACK TO THE FIN ALLY.WOU LD SHOW E R . WOULD LET M Y A N G E R GLANCE OFF H I S B ROW I F EVER I D A R E D SPEAK IT. NOT HIS FANTA S I E S OR HIS WOOD FOR T H E F I R E . I R E C E I V E D T H E ONSLAUGHT O F ON EACH WEEKEND.I N D U L­ TO R E S I ST AGA I N I T WOU L D B E S U M M E R A N D OUR S E L V E S A N D O U R BODIES WOULD RUSH THROUGH FOR E STS TO FIND SWI M M I N G HOLES TO DIVE I NTO AND FEEL A LLOW E D P U N I S H M ENT. I WOU L D STA N D BEN EATH A HOT SPRAY OF WATER TO LET ITS MOISTU RE SOFT E N M Y BODY H A I R . OR E V E N I N T H E SOU N DEST OF S L E E P. DO SO A LWAYS N A K E D. H E WOU L D LISTEN WHEN I PROFESSED W H I LE I MY LOV E . I BECA M E F E A R L E S S OF M Y P H Y S I C A L S E L F. WASH HIS FLOWE R E D F I ELDS AND RAN N A K E D ACROSS MY SHAVEN SPRAWLED TORSO I N OC E A N O F C LOVER. HE WO U L D TA K E ME W H I LE STA N D I N G U P COOK I N G IN FRONT O F THE S TO V E . A LWAYS. T E N D H I S G A R D E N . BUT H E WO U L D N E V E R RESPO N D T O M E . F R U ST R A T I O N P L A C E . RESULTS OF A W I NTER'S W E E K OF I SOLATION E V E R Y JOU RNEY. I W E LCO M E D E V E R Y T I M E H E TOOK ME. I OFTEN S A T D O W N N E XT TO TH E S TO V E TO TRY TO EASE MY NAKED COLDN ESS. I WOU LD H A T E H I M IN T H E WINTER. H E . TH E R E WAS NO T I M E ON G E NC E S . HIS HE WOULD SIT HE SI L E N T L Y BEGGED R E S PON S E . T H E W E E K E N D S TOOK O N MORE M E A N I NG EACH T I M E THEY W E R E R E PEATED. I COULD B E FULLY D R E S S E D B Y T H E T I M E H E PA R K E D I N FRONT O F T H E I RO N R A I LS . H I M S E LF. A LW A Y S VULNER­ HE WOULD TOLERATE NO L I M I TA T I O N TO MY ASSAULTS. HE D I D NOT WANT THERE TO BE A NOTH E R P E R SON TO I N T E R F E R E WITH M Y GROW I N G CONTROL. THOUGH I COULD NOT HAVE STOPPED A N YO N E . T H E DAYS BETW E E N MY JOU R N E YS BECA M E LESS AND LESS I M PORTANT. H A D N O OTH E R OUTLET FOR H I S OWN PHYSICAL B E I N G T H A N T O U S E MY BODY. I WOULD COOK HIS M E A LS. R E S PO N D I N G P A S S I O N A T E L Y TO HIS CLOTHES.M Y MOUTH. TO DO SO WOU LD BE TO T H R EATEN MY ATTENDANCE. S E R V I C E . V U L N E R A B I LITY OR HIS OWN GROW I N G BUT I WOULD ALWAYS R ETURN EVERY W E E K E N D FOR MY PILG R I M AG E . I W E N T T O H I S FA RM NO MORE. NO OTH E R P E R SON EVER WAS ALLOWED IN HIS I WOU LD LOVE HIM I N THE SU M M E R TI M E. CITY TO BE D R E A D E D. THE FEW W O R D S T H A T H A D PASSED I N TH E BEGI N N I NG B E G A N TO D I S A P P E A R THEMS ELVES A S TI M E M A D E T H E M S U P E RFLUOUS.

HESITATES. S M I LES AT WA I T E R. SEATED AT TABLE ON TH E TERRACE. R SEEN FROM REAR WALKING TOWAR D TH E FAR END OF THE GALLERY. 32. 33. 3 5. 34. JOHN PRESTON 30. 36. R . CONSIDERS THE SQ U A R E OF THE THEATRE FRA N C A I S. R.F R I G H T E N E D THAT I WOU L D FORGET THAT HE WAS NOT GOO. R . GOES I N S I D E THE CAFE. THE WASHROOM. 3 1 . R. I S DO I N G HER HAIR. FADE OUT: G RADUALLY FADE IN ON LONG SHOT: THE GALLERY MONTP E NS I E R. 1 74 . R. 37. REPRINTED W I T H P E R M I SSION. STOPS."S H A N DS A R E S H A K I N G A LITTLE. THE WAITER B R I NGS TEA AND CROISSA NTS. STEPS OF COR P U L E N T M A N . R . 38. T H I S PIECE APPEARED I N DRUMMER MAGAZ I N E . ROBERTE LOOK I N G A T SHOP W I N DOWS.

I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT WAY BEFORE EVEN THOUGH PHYSICA LLY I AM A L R E A DY QUESTIONS "EACH ON E LOOKS MORE R O TT E N . I M AGI N AT I O N . WORSH I P FOR H A V I N G G I V E N ME TH E E X P E R I E NC E . AM I MY OWN "DRAC U LA WITH E R ING. H E I S THE FI RST MAN WHO LET ME E NJOY BEING B U R I E D ALIVE I N THE SAND. THE C REATED LANGUAGE T H A N BI RDS I A M ONLY M Y 1 7 15 . EVI DENCE7 IS MY THEORY OF B E H AVIORAL NEOTENY U N I V E R S A L TO BIOGRA P H ICAL? H U M A N I TY OR M E R E LY A U TO­ THE SUNSET C RACKED AND FLA R I N G OUR I N D I F F E R E NC E . M Y MASTER HAS YET TO B E I DE NTI FI ED. PARTLY THROUGH G E N ETICS. SUDDEN LY FELT L I K E A BOY FEELI NG LIKE A MAN WE SAT ON A D A R K E N I NG SHORE. THIS RAISES EVEN MORE ABOUT SOCI A L EVOLUTION THROUGH THEN O R I G I N A LL Y DISTRACTED. DA N I E L H A D ME SHOWI NG HIM HOW TONGUE'S PRODUCT. I A D M I R E THIS BASIC HON ESTY OF A N I MALS. S U BJ ECT TO THE REALITIES I HAVE CONVINCED ME OF. WHO I HAVE DELIVERED MYSELF U N TO . ALONG W I T H A N OPPORTUN ITY T O W R I T E ABOUT IT. F I X IT. M Y SLAVES ARE ALL N U M B E R E D. D A N I E L FINDING G R U ESOME FACES ON THE PEBBLES THERE AND ALL OF US B URSTING. " DEBBIE AN A MAN." I AGREED. TO S K I P STON E S AC ROSS THE H I DE. REPRESSED HOMOS E X U A LITY I NTENSIFIED B Y TH E SANCTI FICATION OF R EPRODUCTION. WHETH E R OR NOT THEY CHOSE IT IS I M M AT E R I A L.CHORUS FOR A PSALM DA N I E L I S MY BROTH ER. BUT WITH FEW E R WORDS TO DESCRIBE IT. M A R S H WITH A BUT POSSIBLY MY H U MAN BEHAVIOR IS LARGELY I N H E RITED. M Y LOVE R . AND WHO I IN THE F I N A L TWI LIG HT. A N D MODIFY IT. THE CON FIDENT GLOWING BEHIND FLIGHT OF BI RDS C ROSSING T H E BROADER LESS VISION THAN I MY NO OWN. H E WILL B E THE FI RST M A N TO MAKE ME SUFFER BEING B U R I E D U P TO MY N ECK I N THE G RO U N D FOR LON G E R THAN I WANT UNTIL I KNOW EXACTLY WHO I S I N CONTROL. MORE D I D. LACED. LA UGHED. B I R DS MAY H A V E AS M UCH I MAGI NATION A S I DO. AND S TR A N G E AS LAKE'S I AGITATE D IT SEEMS. PARTLY THROUGH TRADITION. MODIFI ED. FOR TH E FI RST TI M E I N HIS LIFE.

I CONFUSION S E X U A L I S M ." S E L E C T I V E LY R E I N FORCED. B E H A V I O R A L T R A I T ( S E X U A L I TY. P E R V E R S E ACTS A R E C R I M I N A L I Z E D A N D OFTE N P U N I S H A B L E BY EXTR E M E LY P L I A BLE. HUMAN M A SC U L I N E A N D FEM I N I N E . I T I E D HIM UP SO HE H U RT AND COULD NOT EASILY RANGE. T H E E N D R E S U LT I S A B R E E D O F M E N A L I E NATED FROM A BREED O F WOM E N A N D EACH I N D I VI DU A L A L I E N ATED FROM ITSELF. S I N C E THE MAJORITY OF THE POPULATION MOST LIES WITHIN THE INTE R M E D I ATE ARE DISTORTED BY THIS W H E N I HAD H I M SO HE WAS ABOUT TO S H I T. T H E I R A N I M A LS. A N X I ETY. THE ONE IS I N E V I TA B L Y REWARDED OT H E R I N E SC A P A B LY P U N I SH E D . WITH I N FROM A S P ECTR UM OF Q U A L I T I E S BUT ONLY RANGING ONE E X T R E M E T O A N OT H E R STRICTLY BUT ( H ETEROS E X U A L TO HOMOS E X U A L. LYING BETW E E N T H O S E A N OT H E R . T H E SOC I A L E N V I RON­ MENT MA LNOU R I S H I NG O N E SEXUAL IDENTITY W H I LE FOSTE R I NG THE OTH E R ACCO R D I N G OFTEN TO THE " U N T I L I ORDER YOU TO." I N D I V I D U A L' S INCI DENCE OF GEN ITALS. THE A N I M A L W H I L E GLOR I FY I NG TH E IS THEN DIVIDED I N TO H E G R E W F U R I O U S LY ON THE VERGE OF C R Y I NG. VARYING I DI OT TO G E N I US. THIS IS HOW H U M A N S BREED A N D D O M E S T I C ATE THEIR C H I LD R E N AND TH U S HU­ SINCE H U MANS TH I N K D I C H OTOMO USLY. EACH S E LECTIV E L Y CONS I D E R E D O P PO S I T E O N E W H E R E A N Y O N E I N DI V I D U A L LI ES ALONG O N E OF THESE S P ECTR U M S AND HOW THE SOCI ETY ORI E NTS TO W A R D THAT PORTION OF TH E S P ECTR U M NOU R I S H E D T O G ROW I N A D I STORTED M A N N E R A N D TRA I N E D TO B E H A V E I N T H E TRADITIONA L FASHION. WITH ANY HUMAN POPULATION. H E N E E DE D TO PISS. ITS E M E RG I NG S E X U A L I TY IS THEN D I V I DED I NTO T H E P E R V E R S E A N D T H E S A N CT I FIED. W H AT I N D I V I D U A L'S B E H A V I O R I S ALSO S E PA RATED I NTO N O R M A L A N D A B N O R M A L. HUMAN M A N ITY ITSE LF.EACH SION. PITA BLE. YOU WILL PISS AND S H I T W H E N I T E LL Y O U TO. S OC I A B I L I T Y . AND THE F R A G M E NTS FRAG­ CONTROL H I S ASS. MOST OF THEM V A R I ABLY D E F I N ITIVE. SOCI ET I E S O R I E N T T O M A N Y O F THESE S P ECTR U M S AS IF ONLY THEIR EXTR E M ES WHILE E X I ST E D . C O M P R OM I S I N G . THIS IS HOW HUMANS BREED A N D DOM E STICATE DETE R M I N ES W H E T H E R T H E I N D I VIDUAL'S G ROWTH W I L L BE H E A LTHY O R N E U ROTIC. "NOR WILL YOU WET YOU RS E LF. ( B I S E X U A L .R I D D E N BY P R EVIOUS OPPRESSIONS. AND AN ACTION BY A H U M ANS." PU N I S H I NG T H E HUMAN. BUT 1 76 . SOC I A L. UNDER­ TH E G E N ETIC B E H A V IORS V A R Y W I T H THE I N D I V I DUAL. AGGRES­ AES­ AT TH E SAME IS TIME T H A T TH E SPLIT A N D R OG Y N O U S AND " M A N A PE" FEMININE BEING I NTO M A SC U L I N E O R REMAINS OF THE TH ETI C S . SEXUAL WITH OR SOME TRANS­ H I S BONE R A G E D WITH THE REST OF H I M . SOM E BEING IF THE I N D I V I DU A L SURVIVES THIS LEVEL OF OPPRESSION LONG ENOUGH TO REACH PUBERTY. I NTELLIGENCE. A SYNTHETIC N EOTEN Y OR AT L E A ST THE FANTASY OF O N E. MINED AND SEXUAL POTENTI ALS A R E CONTRO L L E D . TO SOC I A L TO ANTI­ WITH S E X U A L U RG E IS R E S I STS THUS EVEN NOT E A S I LY D I SCOURAGED A N D M O S T BRUTAL THE REPRESSION. " Y O U W I L L NOT S H I T O N THAT FLOOR. SHAPED THEN MODI F I E D BY ITS B IOLOG I C A L AND CULTURAL E N V I RO N M E NT. D I SC E R N I N G ) TO BE P E R C E PT I V E . HUMAN SOCI ETY F I RST S E PA RATES T H E I N D I V I D U A L I N TO W H AT IS HUMAN AND WHAT IS A N I M AL.P E RC E PTUAL S E L ECTI VITY) BEG I N S A S A POLYG E N ET I C POTE N T I A L M U LT I T U D E R E S PO N S E PATTE R N . I NT E N S E THE MONOTO N O U S DEG R E E S OF E X TRAVAGANTI A LS O G E N E R A T I N G MOST I N T E R M EDIATE QUALITIES HOS­ A N X I ETI ES. S U B M I S S I V E TO DOM I N AT I NG. BEHAVIORS THAT DO NOT FIT THE CONTRI V E D G U I LTS NORM W H I LE ARE R I DDLED WITH ATTI­ G E N E RATED OF GENES. U S U A LLY M A SC U L I N ITY EXAGGE R ATES TH E MEN W H I L E FEM I N I N ITY DU LLS THE WOM E N AS A BACKGROU N D FOR M A SC U L I N E THEATRICS. FANATIC WITH THE A T T E M PT TO CONTROL H I M S ELF. PEOPLE DIC HOTOMOUS TREATM ENT. THESE POLY­ DEATH W H I LE TH E SA NCTI F I E D ACTS FLOUR I S H I N A N E U ROTIC M A N N E R . WON D E R E D I F T H I S W A S R EGRESSIVE. I NT E N S I TY WITH W H I C H T H E G E N E S COLLECTI VELY WORK TO EXPRESS T H E M S E LV E S . TH E FEA R S AND CONVENTIONAL DEG R E E TO W H I C H THE E N V I RONMENT I N FLUENCES THESE G E N ET I C POTE N T I A LS D E P E N DS O N TH E TUDES A R E E M OTIONA LL Y R E I N FORCED. SOME EQUA LLY OBDU RATE. T H E N I TOLD H I M . TH E I R PSYCH E MENTED.

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HE NEEDS TO REMEMBER ME. BEEN POTTY-TR A I N E D. W I V ES. I DISPLAYED THEM. I'M LACED AT THE I'M M O M E NT. BUT YOU BY TH E T I M E YOU'VE WITH U N PRECEDENTED AND M U C H HOOTI NG. H E R E A LIZES M Y T R U ST I N Y O U I S N O T POORLY FOU N DED. I NVENTION NON E X I ST E N T D R I P P I NG WITH TORTU R E D BODI ES. HIS ASS TO F I N A L. S I R . ALL FACES A R E EXPECTED T O L OO K U P T O M E N . OC C A S I O N A L L Y SAD B EC O M E F I E RC E A N D OVERTU R N THE MALE POWER STR UC­ TURE. T H E W A Y WE W E R E W H E N L E A V I N G TA N N H A US E R . ONLY A AND NOW WADE I SN'T QUITE T H E SAME TH E R E FEW IS MUCH TRUTH TO IN THAT WITH C E R TA I N SOME THAT T H E POSSESSES A N I N H E R ENT ADVANTAGE OVER THE F E M A LE. NOBODY ENJOYS SERVING THEIR SOC I ETY. WHICH FI RST OVERTHREW THE OTH E R I S PURELY ACADEMIC A N D NOT E A S I L Y PROV E N .S. IT B E L I TTLES YOUR I N D I V I D U A LITY.SO U N DS DANCE BLACK AND B L U E OV ER A SONG A AND LIKE. YOU R SOC I ETY THREATE N S YOU WITH C R I M I N A LIZATION AND D A M NATION. PEOPLE EVEN SET A G A I NST TH E M SELVES MORE S O A G A I N ST O N E ANOTH E R . A N D DOGS-AL L A R E S L A V E S TO A FIERCE SORT OF MASCULINITY THE AND A SAD SHOU L D YOU FAIL TO A P P R E C I ATE T H E S E R I OUS­ NESS OF SERVI NG. M I N E AS WELL AS HIS. C H I LD R E N . Y O U . M I SS YOU.B E FO R E INSIDE HIS I COULD R E S E A R C H IT. YOU R E S I ST AT F I RST. THEIR GLO R I F I C A T I O N IS V E R Y COCKY. I N M A N Y SOCI ET I E S . BUT NOBOD Y CARES A N D A L L I CAN DO I S W E T M Y PANTS I N FEAR. TOO FRIGHTENED TO CONTROL BLADDER ITSELF. OF ESPECIALLY PEOPLE'S G R E E N . H A V I NG M E T YOU. C I V I L I ZATION WORKS BY M A K I NG YOU FEEL SM A L L. WITH IF TH I S I S T R U E . A LSO. A R E S E R V I N G YOU R SOC I ETY FOR EVER. I LOST THE IDEA HOWLING. DANIEL SEEMS VERY COM FORTA B L E WITH YOU . A NOTH E R BEATING. THEY DO IT BECAUSE IT IS TH E I R D U T Y A N D B E C A U S E LIFE I S T OO S E R I O U S T O E NJOY. S I N C E Y O U W E R E CONCERN ED. AND YOU DESERVE B E C A U S E YOU A R E A C H I L D AND A DAMN N U I SANCE. H E COULDN'T WAIT T O SEE TH E B R U ISES. ENSH R I N E D WITH SOLE M N VOWS AND W H I S P E R E D S U P P LICATIONS. PRIDE I WADE FOR D E V I ATING FROM THE CONTR IVED NORM. ONLY E ROTICALLY R E LEVA NT. STY L E ARE THIS OF IS SM T U R N E D FEMALE POW E R STRUCTU RES.: I WROTE THIS B E FO R E I ACTUALLY TALKED WITH J R A N D DISCOV E R E D YOU HAD ALREADY TOLD H I M TH E BATTE R E D DETAI LS. S U D D E N LY IT I S A CRIME TO DO. S E C R ET THAT WOM E N A R E EXPECTED TO A C T AS SOU N D I NG BOA R D S FOR M A LE I N SECU RITI ES. SO I SADDLED M Y KITE A N D SWUNG C ROSSTOWN TO WATCH THEM HIS PLACE. SOM ETI M E S F I E RC E M A LE S HAVE OVER­ E N E D AN D F E E LI N G G U I LTY. AT F E E LS THE LIKE ROUTI N E E D G E OF JU NGLE THROUGH DANGE RS. WHAT M E N H A V E DO N E A DV A NTAGE DOES N O T C R E D I T T H E M THAT CHA NGES STI LL COLOR WITH M U C H MATURITY A N D FURTH ER SUGGESTS T H E M A L E IS A LSO M O R E F R IGHTEN E D. FANATIC OR D E P R E S S E D. IT I S N O SIR. THIS IS A POWE R I N TO A GAME. YOU R E M A I N OBEDI ENT­ LY S M ALL. FO RGIVE A MONG ME. THEN SHAMES TH R O U G H YOU THE FOR HAVING PUT YO U R SOC I ETY IT BOTH E R . DEGRADES YOU P. I T I S MASS N E U ROSIS IN PROGRESS. BEING THE B O Y S A G A I N . APOCALYPSE. I'M 1 78 . H A V E OR WANT AN YTH I NG U N LESS YOU R SOCI ETY SAYS YOU CAN. CON V E N T I O N A LI Z E D S OC I E T I E S WHERE AND L I V I NG. AS N E U ROTIC A S HE IS I N S EC U R E THE A BO U T H I MSELF. SEC R ETLY F E E L I N G I U N D ERSTAND THE E Li M I N I ATION OF REPU LSIONS I S N ECESSAR Y IF T H E PROC ESS OF M ATURATION IS TO COM PLETE ITSELF. B U T M E N CAUGHT E Y E I N G OTH E R MEN ARE S U S PECTED MAN OF PERVERSION. T H E TH E OFFIC I A L STORY IS THAT YOU DRAGG E D M E PREVALENCE S U GG E S T S TO OF MALE POW E R STRUCTU R E S HUMAN MALE F R O M T R A S H C A N TO T R A S H C A N A N D P U B L I C LY BEAT THE LIVING WORMS OUT OF ME AT EVERY ONE OF THEM. SO T H E AND S A N CT I F I E D EYES H I MS E L F I N ST E A D THROUGH T H E WOME N B R E D TO M I R ROR H I M . F R IGHT­ F E M I N I N I TY . T H A N K Y O U . ANYMORE.

ANCIENT E TH I O P I A . AND TH E A N D HE W A STED NO TI M E RELENTLESSLY BEATING M E FOR T H E R E ST O F T H E NIGHT A S H E LED ME FROM ONE TRASHCAN TO ANOTH E R . AND SOPHOCLES). ONLY A FOOLI S H S U B M I SSION. THEY G R A BBED R U B B E R CORNERS. W H E N H E F I N A L L Y STO P PED.J U STICE." . I TOOK EVERY OPPORTU N I TY TO I N FO R M H I M OF WHAT I LIKED BY TELLING F R E E LY OF MY P R EVIOUS -OTHERS H A V E TOLD ME I'M H EAVY B U T I N OTH E R W A YS. ORDEA LS. ANCI ENT THE WITH T H A T T H O U G HT. OFTEN BY THAT PORTION O F TH E M S E LV E S T H A T H A S R E M A I N E D U NKNOWN. M Y E Y E S LESS 1 79 . I O N L Y K N E W THAT I S A W A P A R T OF M YSELF I N LORD P RESTON THOUGH HE WAS MORE PO W E R F U L AND MY H A R MLESSNESS M O R E OBVIOUS. I NTENSE. THE S ELF-A N A LYS I S I M A Y H A V E BEG U N . FEM I N I N E C R I T I C I S M STA N D A RDIZED AS IDLE GOSSI P. GAGGED T O K E E P M E F R O M BRAGG I NG ABOUT T H E M . WON D E R I N G AS H E BELITTLED M Y PREVIOUS TALES A S B R AGG I N G MY F I R ST I M PRESSION OF LOR D P R E STON WAS THAT HE WAS M UC H TALLER THA N I H A D E X PECTED H I M T O B E . OPPRE S S E D YET FOR E V E R S E E K I NG TO BE R E A LIZED. NO ROPES AS M UCH AS I WANTED THEM. I S A N K U N D E R IN A H ETERONE U ROTIC SOC I ETY. H ERODOTUS. H E COULD HAVE SMACKED MY INSOLENCE. A I NTO WORSH I P B E FO R E I EVEN ANY SAME SEX ARE WITHOUT CRITICISM. "I THOUGHT Y O U W E R E H E A VY. . I SQUEEZED TEETH AND A N D TO I N T I M I DATE OTH E R S . S E C O N D B E A T I NG S H A TTE R I NG SOCI ETY.DO M I N A T E D SU PERFICI A L I DOLIZATIONS D R Y W I T H F E A R A N D C RYSTA L LI Z I N G K N E W IT. BUT NOT H E A V I E R W H I C H I N DICATED T O M E H E W A S A PREDATOR I NSTEAD O F A SCAVENGER. TH I R D SCREA M I NG . DAN I E L A N D I H A V E SURVIVED M Y B R UI S E S B E FO R E . MASC U L I N E/FE M I N I N E REVERSED ( R E S E A RC H EGYPT. SUMER. MY BREATH I NG A LWAYS WOR RI ED. RESISTING T H E P A I N T O S U B M I T T O I T . PRAYING TO N O GOD THAT I WOULD C O M E OUT OF THI S H A PP I E R T H A N I WAS. B U T H E ONLY C A R E D A BOUT H I M S E LF. LORD P R E STON HAD A NEW DOG TO SHOW. SENSITI VITY TO M Y OWN. T H E FOURTH A N D S E V E R A L MORE BLOWS CUT I N TO MY SHOULDERS WITH NO HE LU R E D ME I N TO HIS CONTROL WITH A THE EXC E PT THAT HE PREFERS TO T H I N K OF U S AS STALLIONS. FROM AGAI NST T H E W H I P P I NG P A I N . NO C H A I N S TO P U LL AGA I N ST. I NSTE A D MY SECOND I M P R E SS I O N FEARED T H AT LORD H E GREW E X C I T E D BY T H E KNOW L E DGE THAT M Y SHOULD E R S H A D N E V E R BEEN W H I PPED BEFORE A N D THAT HE W A S OPE N I NG A R E A S WITH I N M E THAT H A D NEVER BEEN OPENED. M Y BACK DISPLAYING HIS MARKS AND MY MOUTH FEA R E D THE BLACK A N D B L U E M A R KS. THEY W E R E AND KISSED M E W H E R E I T F E LT BEST. I SENSED HIS SMUG EYE BEHIND M E . H I S TO R I E S O F D I O DO R U S S I C U L U S . I H A D F E LT BLOWS L I K E T H E S E O N C E B E FORE A N D FEA R E D GOI N G I NTO SHOCK EVEN MORE THAN I PROSPECT O F H I S TAKING M E O U T I N BLACK LEATH E R COLLAR A N D LEATH E R RESTRAI NTS. A N D I H A D N O EXCUSE FOR IT-NO BONDAGE. I H A D NO GAG TO B I T INTO. IN M A N Y O F THE SOC I ET I E S B E FORE 2000 B C AND SO M E AS LATE AS 50 BC." H E C H I DED. BUT I W A S TOO BUSY A R E T H E M S E LV E S E A S I LY I N T I M I DA T E D ­ SOMETI M E S B Y A T R U E E N E M Y. M INOANS. THE SECOND SMACK B U RST I N G MY A PP R E C I A T I O N .PEOPLE A R E NOT DESPERATE FOR POW E R U N LESS THEY ARE DESPERATE TO I M PR E S S T H E M S E LVES U S U A LLY BECAUSE LORD PRESTON'S B E LT CONTI N U E D B R E A K I NG M E AND MY THOUGHTS. SOM ETI M E S BY T H E I N D I F F E R E N C E O F T H E I R WORLD. M A SC U L I N E C R I T I C I S M I S STA N DA RDIZED A S . A LS O T H E THOUGHT I T B EST I EXPRESS MY CONC E R N . I A M . PEOPLE OF THE NOT TO LOOK A T ONE ANOTH E R IN A M A L E . I FED O N HIS FEVER. H I S FINGE RTIPS R U P TU R I N G A LO N G MY B E A M I NG I HIDE AS HE HE T R A C E D T H E M U SC L E S W H E R E WHISPERE D HOW BEAUTIFUL CRI NGED. • A N D LA B E L L E D M Y HEAVY A STRANGE S O R T OF PU FF. I WANTED TO CRY. I ANGER E D AND RAGED THE D OC U M E N TS A N ATO L I A . AND B A B Y LO N I A . F I N A LLY H E STO P P E D B E LTI NG M E . T H E TEMPLE AUTOMATICA LLY W E N T U P WITH THE FI RST SMACK OF HIS B ELT B R E A K I NG STA RS. P R E STON WOU L D PUT M E I NTO SHOCK. H E BELTED M Y V I R G I N SHO U L D E R S S O H A R D SO I M M EDI ATELY THAT I K N EW I HAD N O HOPE O F B U I LD I N G DELIC ATE C R U ELTI E S I N TO A RC H I T E CT U R E S OF P A I N . OR AT ROLES LEAST WERE MORE COM PLETELY BA LANCED.

THEY H A D GAT H E R E D TH E R E AT A CONVENTION F O R THE L I B E RATION OF S A D O M A S OC H I S M FROM A NONCON SENSUAL HE GOT MORE MARKS THAN EITHER TOO OF US A N T I C I PA T E D BECAU S E H E WAS S E N S UOUS AND I TOO C RAZY WITH IT TO S A Y N O A S H E PULLED ME OUT OF THE A PPLA U S E OF H ETEROS E X U A LS I NTO T H E B I G G E S T P I S S. M Y BELLY TIGHTE N I N G A N D PULSING W H I L E T H E TI P O F M Y P E A N U T STUNG. I H A D NO T I M E T O WON D E R WHY. EVERY T I M E HE BEAT ME M E T O ST R I P NAKED IN FRONT OF E XC E PT FOR MY SOC KS. M I N D LESSLY ROA R I NG. T H E REST O F M E TWISTING A N D STRUGGLING T O D E A L W I T H . ORDERED S EX U A LS." G R O U N D U NT I L S U S P E N D E D BY F L E X E D B I C E P S . WAS. EROTICIZED B E I NG M A N Y O F THE M E N H A V I NG P U N I S H E D F O R TH E I R T R A N SV E STI S M . BUT SOON FRETTED WITH T H E KNOWLEDGE TH I S MAN COULD TU RN ME I NTO A E L E PH A NTS A N D M U N C H I NG I N M Y E A R . I T U R N E D MY E Y E S A W A Y FROM H E R WITH A LL T H E P R I D E OF K N O W I N G WHO M Y R E A L M A STER W A S A N D. FOR BEFO R E THE I COU LD EVERY TIME HE S TO P P E D . "TH I S I S V E R Y BIZARRE.I N A VERY RESERVED SORT OF W AY-FOR TRYING T O B E WHAT THEY W E R EN·T. HIS D E E P VOICE H U NGRY AT T H E V I S ION OF M Y M A R K E D M U SC LES. EYED H I M . M Y P A N I C T OO C O L D . THE MAN W EA R I N G D E A D M I C E A R O U N D H I S N EC K D I D N O T KNOW WHAT W E W E R E DOI NG. M UCH ME TO I E V E N M O R E ACUTELY A W A R E OF MY N U D I TY A N D R E M E M B E R E D H E A R I NG O F T H I S TACTIC B E FORE. l BO .D R I N K I N G FI STD R I LLI N G T R A S H C A N OF T H E M A LL. T O T H A T B E LT U N T I L F R A NTIC T O E SC A P E I T AGA I N A N D AGAIN. DEFI NITELY A LESS CON F I D E N T I M PR E SSION THAN THE FI RST A N D EVEN THE S E C O N D I M P R ESSIONS. S O M E O F IT SMUG. SOM ETI M E S I BATH E D I N T H E SWEAT A N D TH E HEAT OF H I S BODY EMBRACING THOUGH MY ME. P ROC E E D E D TO B E A T M Y T E N D E R BODY. H AULING M Y S E L F OFF T H E SOM E O F IT N E RVOUS. Y A N K I NG AGA I N ST H I S F I R M G R I P O N M Y S C A LP. AT THE SI LKY DINER. K N EA D I N G HER CLAWS I N TO MY I M P R ESSION W A S L A R G E LY A PROJECTION OF MY OWN ANTICI PATION S . G LO R I O U S W I T H T R A N S S E X U A L H U M I L I A TI O N AS THEY S U F F E R E D. ME COULD THEN BEATING EVEN UNTIL M Y R A G I N G BON E F I N A LLY SPI LLED A N D I S C R E A M E D . I EXAGG E R A T E D E V E RY S E N SATION WITH F R A N TI C BREATHI NG. H E C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E F U R T H E R .F I E RC E . S H E A S K E D T H E Q U E ST I O N AGAIN OF LO R D P R E ST O N AND HE BLOODY M U S H A N D I WOULD LOVE IT. BUT SO H A R D MY RAGE W A S G E N U I N E AGA I N . FASC I N A TED B Y T H E S E PEOPLE WHILE C RAZY WITH A L U ST TO B E B E ATEN A GA I N AND T H E FEA R OF WHERE IT WAS LO R D LEADING P R E S TON ME. POO R T H I NG. T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS K N E W A N D W E R E A M AZED. A M A I T R E S S E G R A B B E D ME FROM B E H I N D. TH E A I R W A S HEAVY WITH G U I LT. TH E N . C H A I N E D MY W R I STS TO A N OV E R H E A D B E A M A N D. ALL OF ME IN A COLD TERROR B A TT E R E D OR S P I R I T U A L. N E E DI NG T O P I S S . I W A N T E D S O M E WATER. T H E N E S C A P E . OUR BODI E S IN LOVE. FLESH WAS HOT WITH N E R V E S . T H E N OVERW H E L M E D M E W I T H THE MOST E ROTIC BEATI NG O F M Y LIFE. A S K I N G I F I . I N STEAD HE L E D ME A BOUT WITHOUT THE GAG AND WITH IT IT A FAR S U BT L E R HOW BONDAGE. RAGE AT A N D F I N A LLY S U B M I T I LAU G H E D INSIDE A STI F F A ND TENDER BODY. WITHOUT TH E PHYS I C A L R E I N FORC E M ENT I ONCE. I RUSHED AT HIS SADDEN. PHYSICAL CONTI N U E D I N C A PA B L E OF ANY HE R ES I S T A N C E . HAVE BEGAN TO F E E L GOOD. K N O W I N G W H E N TO STOP S I N C E HE W A N T E D M E A G A I N AND WITH A S M A N Y M A R K S ON M Y BODY A S H E COULD L E A V E WITHOUT LOS I N G M Y A FFECTION. MY THIRD I M PRESSION OF LORD PRESTI ON WAS AS THIS MAN WHO WAS PRETE N D I NG TO BE MY THAT EITHER I D I D WHAT H E WANTED OR I WAS IN MORE TROU BLE THAN I A LREADY WAS IN. M Y T E R RO R LOVELESS E V E N A S T H E C RO W D OF GRIMY M U SC L E D M E N S H O O K TH E I R OPPRESSION. C A N S A N D S P R A Y E D M E WITH B E E R A N D SODA. T H E H ETEROS E X U A LS A M AZED M E A S MUCH A S WE A M A Z E D T H E M . G R A B B I NG M E BY T H E H A I R . HIS BUT MORE S E RVE FORC I NG D R E A D.E AGLE TO A V E RTIC A L GRID. I BREATHED WITH AN I N C R E A S I NGLY GEN U I N E R E S E NTED E F F ECTIVE THEN. SOM ETI M E S I FEARED M Y LORD'S MOOD. ORGA S M S OF PAl N A N D FEAR BLASTING AS I FOUGHT A G A I N ST ROPES AND C H A I N S WH I L E N A K E D I N FRONT O F STR ANGERS. TH E BEATINGS POLITELY D I S M I SS E D H E R . H A D B E E N LEFT T H E R E A L L A LONE. AGA I N H E O R D E R E D M E TO STRI P. I E X P LO D E D . LO R D P RESTON EYED M Y E Y E AND S M I LED. AT TH E TA N N H A U S E R . I WAS AGA I N . F I R ST TI M E H ETERO­ E M B R A C E A N D A C C E PT E D H I S D E E P LONG K I S S I NTO MY H E A V Y B R E AT H I NG. STILL FIND EROTIC. T H E B E LT W A S T OO A N G R Y FOR M E T O W A N T I T . FOR H E R I N FO R M A T I O N . B U T H E D I DN·T. A FEW TRASH C A N S LATER. H E C O U L D H A V E B E A T M E UNTI L I ONLY H U NG TH E R E B L U B B E R I NG. THIS M A STER PROCEEDED TO B I N D M E S P R E A D.

WHEN H E TURNED M E AROU N D A N D BROUGHT M Y BACK INTO HIS C H E ST. I ADORED IT. BE I T TH R O U G H POS S E S S I O N BY D E M O N S O R THROUGH TH E GRACE OF GOD. I FEARED THE LOSS OF OTH E R I NTE RESTS A N D S O RISKED THE LOSS O F LOR D PRESTON. IT A LSO SUGGESTS THAT GODS A R E HYPE RTROPH I C MANI FESTATIONS OF OUR I N N E RMOST DESI R ES TO BE MORE THAN W E ARE A N D THAT WE WORSH I P OUR GODS A S I NTENSELY A S W E L U ST TO WORS H I P OURSELVES. THE EXISTENCE OF A GOO I S A I THI N K HE CAUGHT ME A N A LYZI NG TH E N . I WORRI E D AS H E C H A I N E D M Y W R I STS T O M Y TH ROAT A N D PROC E E D E D T O W H I P M Y B A G S A N D BONE WITH LOOPS O F THONG. GIVEN ITS KINO OF FAITH A N D THE FAITH OF OTHE R S FEEDING I NTO T H A T FAITH. I GRABBED A POL E SO I COULD R E M A I N STA NDI NG. HE S E E M E D TO K NOW I W A NTED H I S A R M PITS A N D H I S C ROTCH A N D. S H O U L D E R S A N D E L E P H A NT S R A D I A T I NG. FOR MANY PEOPLE. I CONSIDERED B I T I N G H I M . TH E N SCR E A M E D BEFORE ADORING H I M AGA I N BECA USE H E KNEW WHERE TO STOP WITHOUT LESSENI NG M Y FEAR OF H I M .HE GRABBED ME I N THE M I DDLE OF A FEAR A N D SIGNALLED HE WAS DONE. LORD PRESTON BROUGHT ME TO BED WITH H I M . C R AZY WITH THE SIGHT OF ME AT THE END OF H I S B E LT. THIS PHASE OF S ELF-WORSH I P IS NECESSARY I F LORD PRESTON YAWNED. WHEN YOU PRAY. I N A R OO M W H E R E WE W E R E A LLOWED TO TALK. MORE SECRETLY I RESISTED M Y S E LF A N B E TW E E N T H I S M A N A N D THE GROWING U R G E TO S P A R E F I L L I NG M Y S E L F WITH T H E S E N SATION S AT THE BACK OF MY H E A D RUBBING TH E BACK OF HIS. E L E P H A NTS I N TO HIS C ROTC H THIGHS W H I L E W O R D L E S S . LORD PRESTON STI LL A L A R M S M E A N D MORE SO W I T H EVERY R E-EVALUATION OF THAT N I G HT. W H E N YOU ARE TRULY DESPERATE TO BELI EVE W H E N H E W A S DONE. THEY WERE H A R DLY T H E SORT TO SAVE M E FROM HIS ANGER. W H E N YOU PRAY DESPITE G ROWING DOUBTS. EXCEPT AS A N U LTIMATE EXTEN SION OF IMAGINARY POWER STRUCTURES. I GRABBED H I S E M BRACE. THE I N D I V I D U A L I S EVER TO GET OVER ITSELF A N D MATURE W I T H TH E E N E RGY T O CONFRONT T H E B U S I N E S S O F A D A I LY S U RVIVAL. I R E S O R T E D TO SOU NDING TOO D I S H O N ESTY I N T H E F E A R O F ROMANTIC ONLY TO F I N D I H A D FAILED T O FEED H I S E G O A N D PLEASE H I M AS I WOULD HAVE L I K E D. THEN PRAYERS SOM ETIM E S "WORK. I TOLD H I M HE ENJOYED BEATING ME M UC H H A R DER I N FRONT O F WI LD M E N THAN A MONG H ETEROSEX­ U A LS." T H E I N T E N S I T Y OF T H A T DESPE RATION DRAWING OUT OF THE I N DIVIDUAL POTENTIALS IT NEVER K N EW I T HAD. BETW E E N HIS I RISKED D R I V I NG M Y FLARING AND M A SSAGED MY H E A D S A I LED. INDIGNANTLY ASTO U NDED. I TOLD H I "" I T WAS TOO EROTIC KEEPING TH E M O N . H I S M I N D A NXIOUS W I T H HOW BEAUTIFUL H I S MARKS WERE AS I STRUGGLED BACK I N TO M Y CLOTH ES. FRANTIC TO TASTE HIM AND L I C K I N G W H EREVER HE ORDERED ME. I LA UGHED. R E A LITY WHEN FOR I N T R U T H TH E R E THE IS NO R E A L EVIDENCE E X I ST E N C E OF A N Y GOO. H I S V O I C E B E H I N D M E P R A I S E D M Y BODY. T H E N YOU ARE HOPI N G SOMEBODY ELSE W I L L TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE. TH E N R E SENTED IT: WRITH E D A N D GROVELLED U N D E R IT. THEN LAUGHED D E F E N S I V E LY AT A GUSH OF U N E X PECTED PAIN.SWEATY SOCKS. RELEASING ME. VAGUELY AWA R E MY POSE WAS NOT A S THEATRICAL AS I B E L I E V E D . HE TOLD ME HE ON LY STOPPED BECAUSE H E C A U G H T H I MSELF LOSI N G CONTROL. T H I C K WITH M I RACLES AND "FAITH H EALI NGS" ARE NO PROOF OF GOD. IT TELLS M E THEY HAVE BEEN TRICKED I N TO BELIEVING THAT THE I R UNREALIZED POTENTI A L LI ES I N A NOTH ER BEI NG. YOU ARE ACTIVELY CONVINC I N G YOURSELF T H A T A G O D DOES I N FACT EXIST. THEY ONLY P ROVE DESPE RATE PEOPLE CAN DO MORE WITH TH E I R OWN MIND AND BODY THAN THEY T H I N K THEY CAN. A N D NEVER WILL KNOW. 181 . M E NTIONI NG I WAS DRAWN TO THEM BECAUSE OF TH E I R LABEL WHEN A MORE HON EST RESPONSE WOULD HAVE HOOTED THAT I W A N T E D TO KEEP THEM ON BECAUSE THEY CLUNG TO M Y FEET WITH THE FI LTH FROM EVERY FLOOR HE HAD B EATEN ME OVER. H E PUSHED M Y FACE I NTO ALL OF T H E M A N D A LLOWED M E TO BATHE M Y TONG U E A N D M I N D T H E R E . E M OT I O N A L T A N G L E D A N I E L. S E N S A T I O N S W H I LE A FLOOD OF CONFLICTING EMOTI O N S H I D B E H I N D M Y S M I LE. H E WONDERED W H Y I DIDNT WANT T O TAK E M Y SOC K S O F F E V E N AS H E BEGAN T O DO IT F O R ME. S U DD E N LY HE ORDERED ME TO P U L L MY PANTS DOWN A N D P U S H E D M E B A C K ONTO T H E GAM ETABLE. T H E C ROWD H A D ALREADY SC R E A M E D F O R M Y BLOOD W H I LE M Y MASTER W A S B EATI NG M E F O R H I S O W N PLEASURE. BUT D E C I D E D T H I S P U B L I C WAS N O PROTECTION . P R E F E R A B LY IN GOO. CAUSING THE N A K E D M A N W H O H A D BEEN WATC H I NG US T O F U M B L E H I S BON E AND DEPART.

MY HOLE OPENED. SI R. M ENTA L D I SO R D E R . SHOULDERS. W E LOSE OUR WARMTH A N D BECO M E TOO SERIOUS T O LOVE . H I S WORDS SOU N D I NG A R E A LITY W H E R E WITH A S I NGLE WORD H E WOU LD B R I N G TEARS TO M Y EYES. CONFUSED I THE VERGE C R Y I NG. I GUZZLED E V E N AS H I S BLADDER PROVED LA RGER T H A N MY BELLY. " T H A T TERRI FY I NG O R D E R T O Y I E L D EVE RYTH I N G TO H I S B R UTA L W H I M .WITH I N A COOPERATIVE GROUP TI M E TO PLAY AS EFFORT SEEKING WELL LOSE AS WORK R E M E M B E R I NG HOW EASILY HE PUT ME IN A N D OUT OF MY CLOTH ES. A P A S S I O N T H I C K E N E D I N S I DE ME. R E ACTI V E . IT SOU N DS R I D I C U LO U S . CONVENTION A LI Z E D S M G E N ERATES I B2 . D E S P E R A T I O N I N C A P A B L E O F R E SO L U T I O N . ENOUGH TOG ETH ER. AS I F WAITING FOR HIM TO TA K E CONTROL. AND I LEA R N E D H E COULD DRI LL MY H O L E ALL DAY A N D I WOULD LOVE IT. A N X I ETY EVOLVED A S A M EC H A N I S M FOR QU ICKLY R E S PO N D I NG TO ATTACK OR P E R I L. OR SO IT DENED HAPPY IN THE W A R MTH OF LORD PRESTON'S BODY CURLED ROU N D M Y OWN. IT CAN DOUBTS. A NTICI PATING HIS NEXT BEATING. M Y B O N E R E FUSED TO RAGE A N D S PI LL. "YES. MY BONE WAS ALREADY HARD AND I WOR K E D IT. "STR I P. DESPERATE TO BE E M B RACED. S E E M E D. I CA N'T S E E M TO DISC I P LI N E MYSELF TO FORGET H I M . A L L O F ME SNORTI NG F O R A I R A N D STEADYING MYSELF BY GRABBING H I S N A K E D LEGS. ON LY TO FLOU N D E R A S LORD PRESTON ORDERED M E TO WORK MYSELF I NTO SPI LLING. ITS E N ERGY D I S S I PATES AND S O B R I ETY B E C O M E S A P ATH E T I C . BUT HAR­ TH E THOUGHT C R A Z E D M E A N D I S P I L L E D EN DLESS­ LY UNTIL LORD P R E STON ENDED IT. WITHOUT P L A Y . H E SLID I N . N E U RO S I S . I F THE DESPE RATION I S SUSPENDED LONG ENOUGH. ITS M OT I V A T I O N . BUT FIND S O M ETI M E S M Y S E LF ON HE IT F E E L S ME SO OF HAS "ARE YOU HORN Y?" HE W H I SP E RED I NTO MY HA LF­ SLEEP. EVEN MORE D I SQU I E T I N G IS THAT HE HAS ME SO I NO LON G E R K N O W W H AT'S R E A L A N D WHAT'S CON· TRIVED. IT C H RONIC IS A N X I ETY IS A HU RTING ORDERS ME T O D E C I D E WHICH PART OF M E HE'LL TORTURE N EXT. A TREMBLING TO MY BODY. EACH ARM. T H I S D I FFUSE A N X I ETY I S USUA LLY S U BC O N SC I O U S AND M A N I F E STS ITSELF AS S E R IOUSN ESS. R E M E M B E R I NG THE D E PTH OF MY UNEASIN ESS AS I HAD TO WAIT. HIS BON E STI LL MOVING WON DROUSLY I NSIDE M E . FROM B E H I N D ME. D I R ECTION OR OR BY IT F OC U S I N G CAN BE SPECIFIC WITHOUT DIFFUSE. T H E U S E O F MY BODY H I S. I K N E W WHAT THE S I NGLE WORD FROM HIM WOULD BE. A N D I N S E C U R I T I E S FIXATED. WITHOUT WORK. TORTU R I N G EACH ONE U NTI L ALL OF ME I S TOO TENDER TO TOUCH A N D MY M I N D SO MUCH THAT IT BREAKS WHEN HE R E SOLUTION. G R E A S E D I T AND BROUGHT H I S FRESH BONE I N TO PLACE. ITS DESPERA­ TION WAS NOT MEANT TO BE SUSPENDED I N D E F I N ­ ITELY UNTI L A PATHETIC. HE W H I S P E R E D I NTO MY EAR. BUT I N S I D E I T H I N G S I N PROPORTION A N D I S H A K E MYSELF F O R A N E W P E R S P ECTIVE. I FROWNED A T T H E LACK OF A ROU N D MY H A N DS AND FEET. DESPE RATION R E S I ST A N T TO SUSPENDED AND T H E R E FO R E I N A PPROPRIATE. T H E N ELEPHA NTS. TH E N BROUGHT HIS P E A N UT I NTO MY MOUTH A N D NONCHALA NTLY P I S S E D . PLEADI NG. R E SOLVING ON A WANTED HIS H A N D T H E R E I NSTEAD OF MY OWN. THE EXPLOSIONS A S P A I N LESS AS THEY W E R E DISORI E NTING. HAND AND FOOT. WE MEANING. MASS N E U ROSIS W H E N CONVENTION ALIZED. H E TALKED OF TAKING EACH P A RT OF MY BODY ONE AT A T I M E . R I D I C U LO U S . SU DDENLY I REALIZED HE WAS IN CONTROL. ROSE. HE STI R R ED." HIS HAND M O L E ST E D THE HOLE BETW E E N MY TH E N I GROW ANGRY AT MY FAILURE TO K E E P ELEPH A NTS. A FT E R A PRELI M I NA RY PEEVE. BAGS A N D PEANUT. WHEN ROPE N E XT I WOKE. A N D M Y BODY TO ITS KNEES. THE USE OF HIS HAND D E S P E RATION CON C E R N . EACH THIGH A N D CALF. BY B E L I TT L I N G AND DEG R A D I NG A N YO N E ' S I N D I V I D U A LITY. LAST? HOW LONG IS THIS GOI NG TO A N X I ETY FOR IS AN EMOTIONAL T U R MOI L DESPERATE C H A RG E D BE WTH FEARS AND ITS D I R EC T I O N .

A N X I ETY. IT N E V E R D I D . S E X U A L S M A LLOWS T H E PARTI C I PANTS T O P L A Y PA RTS OF T H E POWER G A M E T H E Y A REN'T P LA Y I N G I N T H E I R EVERYDAY LIVES. A L R E A DY HE HAS ME IN PLACES NO ONE HAS EVER HAD B E FORE. E ROTIC SM T H E R E FORE HAS TH E POTENTI A L TO R E SOLVE SOM E OF OUR MOST FIXATED A N X I ET I E S . REQUI R I NG MORE VIOLENT E MOTIO N S TO R E SOLVE TH EM. T H E N DI FFUSES I T D U R I NG T H E E A R LY Y E A R S O F TRA I N I NG. HIS I N STR UCTI ONS YET HE HAD WITH L E FT MY ME TODAY. ME WITH A OF WHO W I L L LET THEM­ SELVES BE CONTROLLED AND THOSE WHO WANT TO CONTROL. B U T A S A COM P E N SATION FOR IT. E N TI R E BODY SHIVE R I NG A N D WOR R Y I NG. T H E DURING LO N G E R THE THE TO LOR D P R ESTON. SU­ I F E A R T H E TOTALITY WITH W H I C H T H I S MAY FIXATE M E ON H I M . KNOWI NG HOW TO A LL O F THEM C H RONICA LLY ANXI ETY­ R I D D E N . EROTIC SM. I NC L U D I N G TRANSFIGU R E D I NTO A FOREV E R D E F E N D O U R S E LVES AGA I N ST. W E FORCE I T OUT OF AWARE­ N ES S A N D BECOME S E RIOUS. R E L I G I O U S A N D PO L I T I C A L DELUSIONS WHICH A C T EITHER AS A N A RCOTIC T O E N C O U R A G E A PATHY O R A S A DECOY FOR THOSE W H O S E E N E RGY WILL NOT D I S S I PATE. G I V I N G IT A D I R ECTI ON. I S T H E FACT F A N TA S I Z I N G LETS YOU FOC U S SOME DIFFUSE THAT HE HAS M A D E I T CLEAR THAT THIS W I L L NOT INTRUDE I NTO M Y R E LATION S H I P WITH DA N I EL. 1 83 . KNOWING IT TO B E A TRAP I MAY NEVER LEAVE. TH E DECOY DRAWI NG TH E I R ANXI ETI E S O U T OF THE S U BCO N SCIOUS A N D FOC USING T H E M I N T O A L U S T FOR POW E R A N D G LORY. THE F I RST GODS WERE L I K E THE P U NC H I NG BAGS WE WORK THOSE THAT H A V E U S S E R V I NG OU R SOCI ETY. D R E A M S R E L E A S E THE S U BT L E R A N X I ETIES. BY EROTICIZING THE CONVENTIONAL POW E R GAME I NTO A CONTEXT FOR FANTASY. THE E ROTI CIZATION FINAL POW E R OF WE FEAR M U ST VIOLENT THE EMOTIONS IT RELEASES. D A N I E L I S M E R ELY A N OTH E R STA LLION LORD P R E STON's STA LLION HAS T A K E N A STRONG FANCY TO. USUALLY T H E FANTA S I E S A LLOW THE PLAYERS TO TAKE ROLES OPPOSITE TH OS !" THEY HAVE IN H E MADE I T CLEAR HOW MUCH H E OWNS ME. THE DIC HOTOMOUS ACTION OF THESE DELUSIONS ALLOWS TYPES CON V E NTIONALIZED PEOPLE-THOSE sM TO BREED TWO LORD PRESTON COM M U N ICATED HIS VOICE. I CAN S E E H I S GAME. FANTA S I E S A R E A R E S PONSE TO U N R ESOLV E D A N X I ETY. W H A T R E A LLY A L LOWS ME TO C O N T I N U E .A COMMON A N X I ETY. I CAN S E E M E TELLING MYSELF I W I L L GET DOES E X I ST MASS OVER H I M A N D AT THE SAM E TI M E STEPPI NG I NTO H I S PRESENCE. PLAYERS. ESCAPE BUT LAC K I N G THE WILL TO DO SO. U N A B L E T O R E SOLVE OU R D E S P E R ATION. BUT IT CHA NGES N O N E OF MY R E ACTIONS. I S MORE N E U ROTIC THAN TH E I R CONFOR M ITY. J U ST AS A N X I ETY I S A RESPONSE TO D A N G E R . TH E CONVENTION HAS D U P E D ITS N E U ROTIC MASSES I NTO B E L I E V I NG THAT F A NTASY PLAY. B U T OC C A S I O N A L L Y T H E F A N T A sT Y ROLES TO A L LOW. I ONLY TOLD MYSELF IT S I M PLY EXAGG E RATES T H E EVERYDAY AN EXTR E M E WAY. T H I S NO LONGER FEELS L I K E A GAME. N E U ROSIS. T H E M O R E FIXED THE Y BECOME. EROTIC SM'S MAJOR POTENTI A L I S I N ITS VIOLENCE. THOSE O R I G I N ATI N G COU R S E O F A AND DAY U N RESOLVED OR TWO. A N D R E LEASE IT. MASS N E U ROSIS I S M O R E DIFFICULT TO M A I NTI A I N I F ITS CHRONIC A N X I E T I E S A R E B E I N G FOC U S E D A N D R E SOLV E D W I THOUT LESSEN I NG WHICH THE SOC I A L R E G U LATI O N . 010. THE MORE IT'S J U ST AN IDEA. T H U S OR A PATH Y WITH S E R IOUSN ESS W I L L S E R V E. I K NOW EXACTLY WHAT H E I S DOING. EVEN AS I THE SM OF S E X U A L FANTASY. THE POWER GAME ACQ U I R E S ITS RAGING BONE. I S M ERELY A R E F LECTI O N NOT OF I T S CO N V E N T I ON A L FO R M . PEOPLE FOR T H I S R E A SON A LONE. BUT IT STR UCK ME THAT ORIGINALLY GODS M A Y HAVE A C T E D A S A P R I M E R FOR AGG R E SSION. A N X I ETIES P E R S I ST. WILL HE ACHIEVE HIS GOAL ONLY TO TOSS M E ASIDE LIKE SOME TOY THAT NO LONGER A M U S E S H I M ? R EALITY. THAT THE R E ALITY WOULD OBJECT IS TO NOT EITH E R R E LE A S E P R E S S E D EMOTIONS. AS AN ELEMENT OF IT TRY TO CONVI N C E MYSELF I AM ON LY CONTRIVING THIS. A N D M A S S N E U RO S I S S E T S TH EM I NTO ACTION. ESPECIA LLY EROTIC S M. THE MORE INTENSE TH E E ROTIC SM. I'M STI LL S H A K I NG. THE CONVENTION M A K E S TH E RULES. THE CONVENTI O N A L­ IZED SM R E I N FO R C E S THIS S E R IO U S N ESS WITH NO CONVENTION A L SYSTEM W I L L TOLERATE THIS. I STILL FEEL POW E R LESS IN H I S PLAY. BESIDES H I S OWN P E R SONAL FORCE.

ANGRY FOR AIR AND S U DDE N LY PISSING I N THE THAN WE A R E BUT H A V E TO B E TO S U R V I V E . 42 B I S. THE CORPU L E N T MAN PLACES H I M S E L F BETW E E N THE DOOR OF THE SHOP AND R. P A L M O F R:S HAND SEEN BY CORPULENT M A N . PISS I DI DN"T E V E N TRY. T R A V E L L I N G : R O B E R T E W A L K I N G SEEN F R O M R E A R . PERVE RTS A N D INFERIORS WHILE THE GODS M UTATE D I NTO TERROR O F YOU R FEEL IF YOU WAS R EACTION A N D HOW IT WOU L D B E AT I N G A ME THEN. 43. W I N DOW S ROUGHLY PA I N TED. 44. 1 84 . STILL REMAIN S E LVES. 41 BIS. THE OTH E R SWINGI NG. EXCERPTS FROM BUGS. GODS W E R E U N DOUBTEDLY I N V E N T E D OUT O F A DESPERATION FOR POW E R . THEY S E E M M O R E A PART O F M E NOW A N D M A K E ME LOOK L I K E A N A N I M A L . I N A N Y F O R M . HOW I M IGHT LOOK I N YOU R EYE. ROBERTE'S H I PS. IF THIS IS M O R E T H A N J U S T A N I NTUITIVE I N SPI RATI ON. W I N DOW D I SPLAY OF WOMEN'S BLOUSES. I TRI E D FOR A SECOND C O M I NG. H ESITATES I N F R O N T OF TW O N E I GH BORI NG SHOPS. 40. J A SON K LE I N TH E B R U I S ES LOOK BEA UTI F U L IN THE M I RROR. A NOVEL EVEN IF THEY HAVE DULLED U N DE R TH E DUST O F 39.OUT ON IN O R D E R TO R E M A I N MORE AGG R E SSIVE N E W C E LLS. T H E N I N E E D TO BECA M E P U N C H I NG BAGS OTH E R PEOPLE L A B E L L E D FREA KS. SIR. I F TH E R E I S A BASIC TRUTH DETER M I N E HOW THE H E R E . (CLOSE UP) R : S H A N D ON THE DOOR K NOB. EYES OF CORPULENT MAN WHO WALKS MORE S LOWLY. ONE HOLDING BAG. HER H A N DS. 41. 415. R . D I DN'T ACTU A L L Y H A N G I NG BY MY N EC K AND T I E D H A N D-AND-FooT. 4 2 . BUT I YO U R E A S I LY WERE O N LY J U S T I FICATIONS FOR TH E I R P E R S ECUTION. AND I IN TE R ROR U NTIL. D I V I N E D I SC I PL I N A R I A N S FAILURE TO COM P E N SATI NG R E S PO N S I B L E FO R FOR OUR OUR­ R EACTION FANTASY. S P I L L E D E V E N THOUGH I COULD NOT BEAT M YSELF THE WAY YOU WOULD. THE DOOR O F THE N E I G H BORING SHOP. I S U S P E N D E D M Y S E L F BY T H E N EC K T O WATCH TH E M A N D H O W I M IG H T STR UGGLE.

AT NIGHT THEY DON LEATH E R C LOTH I N G A N D T H E Y STA LK T H E B A R S O F FOLSOM STREET O R TH E BANKS OF T H E H U DSON. QUICK HER TH ERE ARE OTH E R PEOPLE FOR WHOM THE REAL WORLD I S DAYLIGHT: A N I N E-TO-F I V E JOB. A LOVER. HIS NEW REA LITY I S THE SOUND OF MY VOIC E A S I STAND IN F RONT OF HIM OR AS IT I S TRANSPORTED THREE THOUSAND M I LES BY JASON MAKES M A N Y M I STAKES. THE WAVES THAT C A R R Y MY WORDS TO HIM S H ATTER H I S WOR L D AND C R E ATE H E CA N'T BE BLA M E D FOR A L L OF T H E M . SLAM A G A I NST LEARN THAT THE DAY TO DAY EXI STENCE HE H A D THAT I S WHAT JASON WA NTS TO FEEL. I S!! . G R I PPING THE NAPE O F H E R N ECK BETW E E N S H A R P TEETH. O N C E H E HAD M ET M E . WILL NOT U N DE RSTA N D WHAT H I S FANTASY IS. HIS PELVIS THE S H A R P. HIS DREAM WORLD I S THE SPH E R E THAT A L LOWS IT I S TOO S I M P LISTIC." WI LL. EXPER I E N C E D AS REA LITY IS I N F A C T H I S FANTASY. THAT TH E FA NTASY I S HIS C R E ATION A N D H E M A I N TA I N S POW E R OVER IT. JASON LOST T H A T DICHOTOMY. THE FEMALE IS IN H E AT. I HAVE TWO CATS. M A K I NG DECISIONS. H I M TO CONC E I V E OF H I M SELF AS H A V I N G A F R E E WI LL. A HOME. CR EATI N G I N DEPEN DENT­ LY. H E FUCKS HER OF S A V A G E L Y. HE HAS H A D TO PLUNGES WETNESS. IT IS ENTI R E LY FALSE. HE WA NTS MY BODY SLA M M I NG I NTO HIS.A STORY DEDICATED TO J A SON JASON SAID: " M A K E ME F E E L LIKE A N A N I M A L. THE F E M A L E I S CAUGHT I N A F U R Y OF CONTRADICTION: HER REAR E N D L I FTS U P I NVITING HIS COCK TO E NTER HER. H E BELIEVES HE LEAVES REALITY AND ENTERS FANTASY OF H I S OWN TH ERE I S A JASON WHO DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT ME. H E R MOUTH S N A RLS WITH A NG E R AND SPITE. HE TH I N K S TH E GREATEST R I S K HE TAKES IS THAT SOM EONE ELSE I AM SITTING IN MY L I V I N G ROOM. VIOLE NTLY O N H E R B A C K . THE MALE POU N C E S BUT JASON I S W RONG. THEIR OWN WORLD W H I C H H E M U ST NOW I N H A BIT. TELEPHONE WIRE. H E THINKS TH ERE I S A R E A LITY A N D A FA NTASY WHICH E X I ST IN CONTRADICTION TO O N E A N OTHER. BUT HE WA NTS T H E LUXURIES OF SPITE AND CHOICE.

AS SOON AS I T H I N K OF AN A C H E. WHATEVER E LSE H E DOES. SHUDDERS BODY THAT IS AT T H E NO I S A I D : "HE W A S A LR E A D Y BROKEN. IT AND EVERY PAIN I F E E L. BUT WHEN ITS TH E R E I T WI LL STI LL B E M I N E. OR. IT l S6 . I HAVE C R EATED A PART OF JASON THAT IS M I N E . AND A N D JASON GOING. H E C A N NOT COM M A N D DO THAT WITH TH I S PE RSON IS ONE THAT I I NTO EXI STENCE. DESPE RATE FOR M E TO P I C K C H E ST . W H ATEV E R ELSE HE THE PA RT O F JA SON THAT I S MINE LIVES ONLY TH ROUGH M E. VULNERABLE HOLD H E R ON SHE A L LOWS ME TO HER BACK I N SUCH A WAY THAT I COULD DROP H E R A N D S H E WOULDN'T B E A B L E TO RIGHT H E R S E LF B E FO R E SHE LA N D E D ON THE FLOOR. TOU C H . T H A T S H E WOULD STA RVE I F I D I D NOT RETURN A N D F E E D H E R . I DO NOT WANT TO JUST EXPLORE HIS BODY." JA SON S A I D . " G I V E THE CAT-NOR T H E C A R E JASON T H I N K S I G I V E H I M . BODY AND HIS MY SELF I THOUGHT A BOUT H I S S H OO K WITH THE AND WOR K I NG. I DO NOT WANT TO PLAY SEX ROOM GAMES WITH H I M. I WANT TO G R I P I T WITH A H A R D GRASP A N D P U L L I T OUT. HOW TH I S I S THE A N I M A L I C REATE I N J A SON. IT IN I WANT BODY. NEEDS I T E L L JASON: "I A M GOI NG TO TA KE YOU TO THE P LA C E WHERE YOU WILL C R Y WHEN I WALK I NTO A ROOM. IT I S A SHELL THAT I FILL WITH OOE S MY LUST. " THINKS. THE CAT T H I N K S I AM H E R B E N EFACTOR. PUT IT BACK I NTO H I S M I ND. SCULPT IT. I AM ONLY AWA R E O F W H A T WOULD H A PPEN I F I ROLLED OVER ON BUT I D O NOT WANT T O TERRORIZE J A S O N .IT IS THE PERSON AT IT THE IS A WHO HEARS MY WORDS AND MY F R I E N D SA I D: "YOU W I L L B R E A K H I M ." A L LO W E D L I M I TATIONS TO ITS U S E . EXPLORE H I S M I N D A N D TAKE HOLD OF THAT PART W H I C H I H AVE C REATED. I DON'T KNOW W H E R E IT C A M E FROM. I T IS NOT ENOUGH. A SORE. MY CONTROL IT POWER. AND H E TH I N KS HE WANTS IT. AT NOT COMI NG OTH E R T I M E S WITH OTH E R M E N H E CAN CHOOSE H I S R E A LITY. BUT IT. SHE HER U P A N D HOLD HER AGA I N ST M Y THE REASSURANCE OF MY F R I E N D IN BOSTON: "HOW CAN I MAKE JASON FEEL THIS WA Y7" H E T E L L S ME. WITH A INTENSITY CONTROL. HE C A N C H OO S E T O B E I N AN OFFICE BUT I THOUGHT A BOUT IT. SOUNDS. I S I T R E A D I N G A BOOK I N M Y CHA I R A N D SHE CLIMBS UP ON M Y L A P . OR. " M A K E ME FEEL L I K E A N A N I M A L. H E CAN NOT REVOLT AGAI NST WHAT I 00 WITH IT. T H E PO W E R C O M E S F R O M W H A T I DO N O T 00. REC R EATE HIS CALL DOCTOR TH E HUGE BODY THAT IS M I N E S E E M S TO HER TO BE A SOU RCE OF H EA T AND DEFENSE. I A M M A K I N G H I M WHOLE. A S E N SATION OF ANY K I N D OTH E R TH AN PLE A S U R E . HE "I KNOW. O N L Y T H E N . I THI N K OF J A SO N . SHE SENSES GREAT PROTECTION. W H E N I WOK E T H I S M O R N I NG THERE WAS A P A I N I N MY K N EE. W H E N I'VE BEEN OUT A N D R E T U R N TO T H E A PA RTM ENT S H E C I RCLES T H E ROOM SCRE E C H I NG LOUDLY. M A K E H I M H O R R I F I E D T H A T I T E X I STS OUTS I D E H I M . R E M I NDS M E OF WHEN THE F E M A LE CAT IS OUT OF H EA T SHE ADORES M E . THIS P LACE W H E R E JASON H A S N O POW E R . MY F R I E N D SAID: "YOU A R E PLA Y I N G GOD. I WI LL HAVE IT W H E N E VER I WANT IT. WITH A LOV ER H AV I NG D I N N ER . AT N IGHT S H E SOM E T I M E S CRAWLS U N D E R M Y COVERS AND C URLS AGA I N ST MY STOM A C H . M Y S E LF. IT WOULD B E TOO EASY. T H E R E W I L L A LWAYS B E TH I S PART OF H I S BEING THAT E X I STS O U TS I D E HIS POW E R . H E C A N L E A V E THAT BEHIND. I WANT TO HER BODY AND IS S U F FOCATED WHEN SHE H E R. S H E P U R R S AT T H E JASON. WHEREVER ELSE H E GOES." T R E M BLES CONTENT." BUT M Y POWE R OOES NOT COM E FROM TH E CARE I H E SAYS: ''I'M A L R E A D Y T H E R E . OF POWE R A N D THE FURY O F M Y T R I C K ACTI NG AS THOUGH HE WERE A MASTE R . TO I KNOW MY HOW TO F E E L OF M Y W A R M GROIN." CAN NOT RESIST M Y T A K I N G I T . A N D THEN.

LISTEN TO H I M C A R E FULL Y. THE 1 87 ." I CALL JASON: "I WANT YOU TO DO SOMETH I NG." WHICH I I M POSE. W I LL EVER SEE. "DO I HAVE TO AGREE B E FO R E YOU TELL M E?" IT I S ALL SOM E FORM OF COMPENSATION." ·WHAT WILL YOU DO TO HIM WHEN YOU GO TO BUT LOVE ISN'T WHAT I WANT FROM J A SON A N YWAY. W I T H J A SON T H E ON LY ORDER I S THAT "YES. AND YANG. I HE IS MINE: I AM HIS. HE BECOM E S A BOY.IS THE ONLY L I F E THAT I W I L L E V E R C R E ATE BY MYSELF. ·YES. A L L TH E EGO. I AM IT DOESN'T MATTER WHOSE MOUTH UTTE R E D THE MY LOV E R 'S MASTER: WE ARE E QU A LS ." M Y LOVER H I SS E S AT M E : " Y O U G O D D A M SADISTI" I TELL JASON: ·YOU MAY END U P HATING M E. I HAVE A LOVER TO BECOME MORE WHOLE: TO SENSE COM M U N ION WITH SOMEONE. I WH I P H I S BACK AND ASS A N D M A R K H I M W I T H LOVE. HE C A N NOT RECLA I M T H E OLD. WE P L A N T H E I I NCOR­ I SAY: "I'LL SHOW HIM THAT H E EXI STS ONLY AT M Y WHIM. PROCREATION. I HOLD H I M C LOSE AT N I G H T A N D WONDER AT H I S FEEL. IN MY P R E S E N C E THE ONLY "WHY DOES N'T SOM EONE STOP YOU?" JASON THAT E X I STS I S W H AT I HAVE C R E ATED. HE I S S I M PLY A BODY." I S M I LE. W E STAY TWO M E N IN LOVE. I WILL TA K E HIM BEYOND ALL THOSE POI NTS. IT I S SOM ET H I N G THAT N O ONE ELSE CAN HAVE. W I T H MY LOVE T H E COMPLI M E NTARY PARTS ARE OBVIOUS. HE SUCKS MY COCK G R E E D I LY. I TAKE HIS ASS WITH M Y COCK. ALL THE "ABSOLUTE LY. IT DOES NOT RELY ON THE H ET E R OS E X U A L ACT OF WORD. I TA KE FROM H I M . MY FRIEN D SAYS: " H E'LL END U P I N SAN E:' "HE ALREADY I S. "ISN'T HE FRIGHTE N E D OF YOU?" I DO NOT BEAT J A SON WITH LOVE. H E SAYS: "I DON'T KNOW TH E DIFFERENCE BETWE E N W H E N I A M WITH M Y LOVER I M E RG E WITH H I M TO C REATE A N E W FORC E : T H E S Y N E RGY OF LOVE. W E A R E TOG ETH ER : FUTU R E . H E ACTS OUT M Y WISH ES." I AM THE O N E WHO S A I D IT. I T I S M I N E: M I N E A LONE. THE MOST PROFOU N D TRUTHS ARE THE E X I STENCE OF Y I N S I LENCE. H I S S U B M I SSION I S O U R U N I ON WITH M Y DOM I N A NCE. I DO LOVE H I M . W H ATEVER. CAN FEEL. PORATE H I S DESI R ES. IT I S F I N E R TH A N THE CREATION OF A B A B Y . MORE TOG ETH E R T H A N WE ARE SEPA­ "WOULD YOU K I L L H I M ?" "NO." PAUSE. O U R R E LATION S H I P R E M A I N S A BALANCE. WE C R EATE RATELY. IT IS A N ACT OF C R EATION THAT I S ENTI R E L Y I N D I V I D U A L." JASON DOES NOT EXIST WITHOUT ME. "WHAT DOES HE GET FROM ALL THI S?" "WHO?" "LI FE. H E CAN ON LY EXIST I N TH E N EW. MY F I ST." SPITE. HAT E AND LOVE." CALIFOR N IA?" MY FRI E N D ASKS. BUT I HAVE DREAMT ABOUT IT. A L L THE ANGER.

I S M I LE. H E C A N NOT CONC E I V E OF H I M SE L F S I TT I N G A NY W H E R E BUT AT M Y F E ET. W H A T DO Y O U SAY TO " YO U H A V E TO R E S PECT A N YO N E THAT YOU LOVE:' J A SO N ?" " 1 DONT LOVE HIM. MY READING IS HOW CO U L D A N YON E POSS I B LY KNOW WHAT IT I N T E R R U PT E D BY A P L E A S A N T THOUGHT OF J A SON. I A M TOTA LLY FOC USED. H E R M I N D C A N NOT F A T H O M T H E F O R C E S OF N A T U R E T H A T B R I N G WATER FROM T H E S K Y A N D W A L K OUT TO M A I L IT. H E ' L L K NOW T H E Y ' R E FROM M E AND I I M AG I N E W H AT H E ' L L DO. P R E S E N C E . I S A Y : " H E'S NOT A H U M A N B E I NG. HE I S LIKE MY CAT. I N S U F F I C I E NT. J U S T LIKE M Y CAT HE MAKES STR A N G E N O I S E S A N D 1 88 . " J A SON PLEADS. I ADDRESS AN E N V E LOPE T O J A SON AND BATH ROO M . S H A R P M E T A L I N H I S H A N DS. STE E L P I N S. T H I S B O D Y THAT H E I NEVER GIVE JASON THE SAT I S F A C T I O N OF TH I N K S IS HIS PASSES FROM H I S S E LF-CONTROL PREDICTA B I LITY. A N D H E KNOWS T H AT NOW. I COULD DO A N YT H I N G WITH H I M A N D TH E M . CONTROL THE E X I STS FORCES O F M Y V IOLENT IN UTTER H O R ROR IN MY W I T H T H E T H I N . H O W YOU' R E GOING T O FULFILL YOUR FANTA S I ES. I POS S E S S H I M:' "NOTH I N G . H E W I L L CRY SOB B I N G LY. JUST THE RETU R N A DD R ESS. M Y P R E S E N C E A LTERS TH E VERY FOU N D ATION O F H I S B E I NG. A L L FO R M S OF HUMAN TO C O M M U N IC ATON TH E Y ARE B ECOM E I NT O L E R A B L E I SAY: " TH A T S DOUG:' HIM. IT WON'T OC C U R FOR A NOTH ER THREE W E E KS. WHEN HE G ETS T H E PINS FROM ME HE WILL H A V E NO WAY O F KNOWING WHAT I I N TEND TO U S E THEM FOR. " I SIT IN NEW YO RK IN MY ROOM. T H E R E I S NO NOTE. H E'S JASON:' W H A T YOU' R E GOI NG T O DO. I B E A T H I M . B U T NOT WITH JASON. C RO UC H I N G V U L N E R A BLY B E H I N D T H E TOI LET. HE W I L L OPEN THE E N V E L O P E AND STA N D TH E R E AND I DO. H E'S GOING TO W H I P YOU:' HE R E P L I E S : " WH E R E DO I GO? W H E N ?" MY FRIEND SAYS: " YO U C A N NOT DO TH I S TO A N OTH E R H U M A N B E I NG. I M U ST BE. I C A L L E D J A S O N . " A F R I E N D OF M I N E IS C O M I N G TO SAN F R A N C I SCO. THERE HAPPEN TO HIM. " M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M A L. I H A R DEN AT TH E R E M E M ­ " BU T J A S O N B R A NC E OF H I S N A M E : I A M FORCE D I NTO A S E N S E OF RE SPONS I B I LITY THAT OV E R W H E L M S ANY " JASON I S N O T A R E LATIONSH I P.CONTRADICTIONS OF L I F E C A N BE ACCOMODATED. H E'S W A I T I N G FOR M Y A R R I V A L." MY F R I E N D SAYS: "W H E N YOU'RE WITH YOUR LOV E R YOU TALK A BOUT W H E R E YOU'RE GOI NG T O L I V E . T H E UTT E R HORROR OF TH E POSS I B I L I T I E S W I LL O V E R W H E L M HIM. HE M U ST BE M E A N S FOR J A SON TO H E A R M Y VOICE? WHENEVER IT R A I N S. I F I N D A S E T OF LONG. I IMAGINE H I M STA N D I NG TH E R E WITH DEEP GASPS IN H I S C H EST A N D R I V E R S O F J A SON T E A R S FLOWI N G DOWN H I S C H EEKS. WHEN HE REC E I V E S TH E P I N S I L L U M I N A T E T H E N I G H T WITH BOOMS OF TH U N D E R E D L I G HTN I NG . TOTA LLY U N A B L E TO ALTE R O R NATURE. W H A T DOES J A SO N FEEL L I K E WHEN I A M THERE? HIS ING MY F R I E N DS SAYS: " B U T A N Y R E LATIONSH I P HAS TO HA VE A BASE OF S A N ITY:' SKIN C A N NOT TO L E R ATE CLOTH I N G SEPA RAT­ IT FROM MY E Y E S . I C A N NOT L E A V E TH IS ROLE OR THAT P A R T OF J A SO N T H A T I S M I N E WOU L D BE C R U S H ED. I STA N D U P A N D GO T O M Y D E S K . MY CAT HIDES IN TH E Q U I V E R I N G W I T H E V E R Y THOUGHT OF M E . I S NO R E ASON FOR W H A T W I L L IS NO WAY FOR HIM TO TH E R E D E C I D E W H A T W I L L B E DON E . I N TO MY U TT E R D O M I N ATION. ITS OWN E R S H I P:' S E M B L E N C E O F F R I VOLITY.

WITH DRAWS. N U RTU RE. A SQUAT YOU N G M A N PUTS H I S H E A D T H ROUGH. BEG I N S TO CLIMB. THE SQUAT MAN. B R I NGS HIS H A N D DOWN ON R:S HAND H O LD I N G THE BALU STRA D E . ENTERS T H E SHOP WHICH HAS NOTH I NG IN IT. IT H O R R I FI ES H I M. H E W I N DS H I S BODY OVERWH E L M S H I M . I N S I DE SHOP. THE BALUSTRADE O F T H E STA I RCASE R . 4B. H I S MOUTH F I N DS T H E SWEAT OF M Y BODY T H E SWEETEST TASTE IT HAS KNOWN. GOES Q U I C K LY TOW A R D THE H A L F-OPEN DOOR. STEPS GOI NG STRAIGHT U P TO A C A R R I AG E DOOR G I V I N G ON TO T H E STREET. A RO U N D M I N E H O P I N G I T W I L L BE S O CLOSE TO M I N E THAT I WON'T H U RT I T . 53. R . A DOOR H A LF OPENS. R . 52. AGA I N ST M A I N DOOR. 47. IT ENTRAPS HIM. JASON SAYS: " M A K E M E F E E L L I K E A N A N I M AL. 49. LANDING O F A W I D E STA I RCASE. R ." THERE I S A PART OF JASON FOR WHOM I AM THE ONLY SOURCE OF FOOD. J U ST L I K E M Y CAT H E LICKS M Y BODY I N G RATITUDE FOR T H E VERY STUFF O F E X I STENCE T H A T I PROV I DE. IT P U R R I NG T H A T COMES F ROM H I M W H E N EVER I A M N O T G I V I N G H I M P A I N . S H E LTER. H E IS J O H N PRE STON 46. THE COR P U L E N T M A N . 50.HOPES I W I LL U N D E R STA N D TH E EQU I V A LENT O F BECOM I N G M O R E A N D M O R E AWA RE OF IT. 1 89 . AT THE R E A R OF T H E SHOP. SHOWS H E R ASTO N I S H M E NT . A FEW STEPS A BOVE. 51. IT AWES HIM.

THE OEDI PUS COM PLEX THROUGH THE D ISCOVE R Y OF OEDIPAL FACTS I N TH E A N A LYSIS O F N E UROTICS FREUD GAVE B I RTH TO TH E CONCEPT OF THE COMPLEX. CONSIDERING THE NUMBER OF PSYCH I C R E LATIONS THAT I T EXPANDING ON THEIR STRUCTU R E H E RE. A LTHOUGH THIS FRUSTRATION IS I N HE R E NT TO THE ESSENTI A L P R E M ATURATION O F THESE DRIVES. IN R E LATION TO PHYSIOLOGICA L PUBE RTY. LET US SAY THAT THEY CONSTITUTE A TYPE OF PSYCHO­ LOGICAL P U B ERTY. NORMA LLY I N DICATE TO HIM AN OBSTACLE TO THE S A T I SFACTION OF T H E S E DR I V E S: N A M E LY. THE C H I LD ASSOCIATES IT TO A THI RD PARTY WHOSE SA M E CON DITIONS OF PRE S E NCE A N D I N TEREST CONSIDE RATION M E NTA L STRUCTU RES AS I N S OC IA L FACTS. WE SHALL SEE. T H E M ETHODIC ORDER PROPOSED OF HERE. V E R Y PREMATU R E . ON THE OTH E R PSYCHOA N A LY S I S HAS R EV E A L E D I NSTI NCTU A L HA ND. AS M UC H A S IN TH E COM PLEX: T H E I R FRUSTRATION FOR M S TH E CRUX. I N VOLVES. THE O E D I P U S CO M P L E X A S SERTS ITSELF. TH E FRUSTRATION S U F F E R E D BY THE CH I LD IS ACCOM P A N I E D B Y A N EDUCATIONAL ORD I N AR I LY R E PRESSION WHOSE GOAL I S T H E PREVENTION OF MATER I A LI ZATION O F THESE DRI V ES. TH E PARENT OF T H E S A M E SEX. T A K I N G HOLD OF T H E C H I LD BY A S E X U A L D E S I R E TOWARD THE CLOSEST OBJECT WHICH PESENCE AND I NTEREST NORMALLY A F FO R D H I M . WITHOUT 1 90 . AT MORE THAN ON E POINT I N TH IS WORK. AS M U C H BY T H E D ISCRETE AND D I FFUSE SIGNS THAT BETRAY PA R E NTAL R E LATIONS TO H I S S E N S I B ILITY G E N ITAL DRIVES I N C H I LD R E N THAT REACH TH E I R PEAK AT T H E AGE OF FOUR YEA RS. BOTH TH E S E G E N I T A L D R I V E S .N A M E LY S E X -G I V E THE PARENT OF T H E U PON OUR STUDY CIT SPECIFICA LLY DEFINES THE PSYC H ICAL R E LATIONS OF THE H U M A N FA M I LYI­ A N D U PO N O U R C R I TI Q U E (FREUD GIVES THIS OPPOSITE THEIR O R I G I N S T O TH E PSYCHOLOG ICAL E L E M E NT A S THE SPECI FIC FOR M OF T H E H U M A N F A M I LY A N D SUBORD I N ATES T O I T A L L I T S OTH E R SOCIA L VA R I ATIONS). ESPECI A LLY SCH E M A OF THE COM PLEX TH E I R M A STURBATORY MATER I A LIZATION. THE C H I LD ACQU IRES A CERTA I N I NTUITION O F T H E SITUATION FO RBIDDEN H I M . W I LL LEAD TO A REVISION O F THE COM PLEX E N A B L I N G O N E TO SITUATE THE PATER­ NAL FAM ILY I N H I STORY A N D FURTHE R I LL U M I N ATE CONTE M PO R A R Y N E U ROSIS.

THIS I S THE FACT O F THE CASTRATION COM PLEX. BESIDES. ON ONE SI DE. T H I S PREJUDICE WHICH ATTRIBUTES A N EPIPHENOME N A L C H A RACTER TO THE PSYC H I C HASARDS INTEMPESTI FSl THAT U N V E I L THEM TO H I M . THE FA M I LY ACCORDIG TO FREUD THE THE OBJECTIVE V A L U E OF T H E COMPLEX DISCOV E R Y THAT DEVELOP M ENTS OF SUCH I M PORTAN C E TO M A N A S SEXUAL R E P R ESSION AND PSYCHIC S E X U A LITY WERE S U B M ITTED TO R E G U LA­ THIS ESSENTIA L TO A SC H E M A OF THE COMPLEX IN TION A N D TO ACCIDENTS OF A PSYC H I C DRAMA OF THE FA M I LY FURNISHED THE MOST PRECIOUS RESPONDS G R E AT N U M BE R O F GIVENS E X P E R I E NC E . T H E Y L A T E R R E P E A T THEMSELVES A S EFFECTS OF T H E S U P E R EGO. THUS. I T IS ACCESS­ I B LE TO THE MOST I M M EDIATE OBSERVATION. IS C H I LD WHO IN CONSTA N T L Y TA K E N SUBJ ECT THE DIDACTIC EXPOSES ON T H I S COM PLEX. FREUD WAS QUICK TO FOR M U LATE A TH EORY OF THE FAMI LY. TH E REPRESSION R EVEALS TRAITS WHICH I N T H E I R TYPICAL FOR M AT FIRST SEEM O N L Y J U STIFIABLE I F T H E Y A R E EXERCISED BETWEEN FATH E R A N D SON. M A N Y OF WHICH A PPEAR ON THE LEVEL OF HAVE ELEMENTA RY SOMATIC THEIR T H E O R ET I C FU NC­ AND I M PORTANCE. E S P E C I A LLY IN THE STUDY OF THE H E N C E FO R T H IT IS CONTESTED: RE­ BECAUSE H I ST O R I C A LL Y I NT E R D I C T I O N S U N I V E R S A L L Y F O R M U LA T E D B Y GROUPS WHICH GOV E R N THE SEXUA L COM M E RCE BETWEEN C E RTAI N OF TH E I R M E M B E RS. REFEREN­ WHETH E R FROM P U R E P R I NC I P L E OR S I M PLY FROM MYTHS.AS BY THE I NO P P O RT U N E A CC I D E N T S [LES I N TRUTH. TAKES THE PLACE OF T H I S EXPE R I M ENTAL METHOD WITH AN ENTI R E M E D I C A L TRADITION. FOR THESE DISORDERS. THESE WE CAN ALSO SPECIFY THAT THE OEDI PAL TENDENCY THAT FROM T H E N W I L L R E M A I N LATENT UNTIL PUBE RTY-G I V I N G WAY TO N E UTRAL I NTER­ ESTS. 191 . A LS O THE AS E X C E PT MALE A IN THE MALE IS CONCRETE A N A LYSIS OF SYM PTOMS OF N E U ROSIS. I F THEY EFFECT IT A S ABNORMA LITI E S [ATYPI ESl OF ITS CONSITUTION. I MAGE R E P R E S E NTATIVE OF IDEAL IN THE THE FUTU R E G U A R A NT E E D COI N C I D E N C E O F PSYC H I C A N D P H Y S IOLOG I C A L ATTITUDES DOU B L E AT THE MOMENT HAS OF P U B E RTY. T I O N O F T H E C O M P LE X . ON T H E OTH E R H A N D. S I NC E I T R E M A I N S INSCRIBED I N THE PSYCHE IN TWO P E R M A N EN T AGENCI ES: THAT WHICH R EPRESSES CA LLS ITSELF T H E S U P E R EGO. A N D BY T H E S A M E TOKEN. R E P RE S E N T T H E C O M P LE T I O N O F T H E O E D I P A L CRISIS. IN THIS DOUBLE PROCESS. A N D IT IS P R EC I S E LY IN THE LIGHT O F THE OEDIPAL SITUATION THAT SUCH ACC IDENTS IN THE H I STORY OF THE SUBJECT TAKE T H E TENSION T H U S CONSTITUTED I S DISSOLVED. TH E E G O. I N ITS M E C H A N I S M . S E X U A LITY MOREOVER. E M I N ENTLY FAVORABLE TO THE EDUCATION­ AL PROCESS. T H E PSYCHIC AGENCIES THAT GO U N D E R THE N A M E OF "SUPER· EGO" AND " E G O. THIS FLECTED I N T H E FORMS OF THE EGO-IDEAL. A N D ITS AG E-OLD M I S U N D E RSTA N D I NG [ M ECON N A I S­ SANCEI IS AN I M PRESSIVE PROOF OF THE SOC I A L RELATIVITY OF H U M A N KNOWLEDGE. IN EFFECT. ORDER-THAT IS T O SAY A N INOPERATIVE ONE-WAS FAVORED BY A N I NS U FFICIENT A N A LY S I S OF THE FACTORS OF TH I S ORDER. CES TO THE RENDERS OUTDATED T H E ORGA N I C ORDER WHICH. APPARENT SINCE THE FI RST STUDIES.I D E A L . FOU N D THERAPEUTIC R EDUCTION. A G R EAT N U MBER OF D I SORDERS. THEY ARE M O S T OFTEN RE­ S U B L I M AT I O N P E RPETUATES C O N SC I E N C E . LIKE I N H I BITIONS OF C R EA T I V E ACTI VITY. IS THE E X I ST E N C E O F N OT I N FANTI LE CONTR I B UTION T O T H E ANTH ROPOLOGY OF F A M I LY GROUPS. THAT WHICH SUBLI MATES. OR P ROCE S S F U N D A M E N T A L G E N ETIC I N V ER S I O N S O F S E X U A L I M A G I N A T I O N . AND M A N I FESTED THE I R SCIENTI FIC VALUE I N THE DEFINITION AND E XPLI CATION OF PHENOMENA OF THE PERSONALITY: THERE IS IN THIS A POSITIVE C H I LD. THE PROCESS THAT GOES FROM OEDIPAL D E S I R E TO ITS REPRESSION HAVE J U ST IT DOES NOT APPEAR AS S I M � LY A S I PRESENTED. BEHAVIOUR. ORDER OF DETE R M I NATION THAT ACCOUNTS FOR A GREAT NUMBER OF ANOMALIES OF HUMAN TH E OEDIPAL DESI R E A PPEA RS. BY THE THAT SINCE ACC I D E NTS A FFECT SITUATION AS TRAUMATISMS DURING T H E EVOLU­ . THEY TIONS.I D E A L" WERE ISOLATED IN A OEDI PUS. T H E PA R ENT OF THE SA M E SEX APPEARS TO T H E C H I LD A T ONCE AS THE AGENT OF TH E SEXUAL I NTERDICTION A N D AS THE EXAMPLE OF ITS TRANSGRESSION. BY R E P R E SS I O N OF THE SEXUAL ON THE I M PORTA NCE A N D THE SIG N I FICANCE THAT ALLOW THEM TO B R I NG OUT A PARTI C U L A R TRAIT OF THE PERSONA LITY. M UC H STRONG E R I N THE B O Y A N D T H E R E F O R E F O R T H E MOTHER. I T WAS FOU NDED ON A D I S S Y M M ETRY IN THE SITUATION OF THE SEXES IN R E LATION TO V E A L E D BY T H O S E AFTEREFFECTS OF ITS EVOLU­ TION WHICH CONSTITUTE' N E U ROSIS. AND OF A ON THE T H E OTH E R P A RENTAL SIDE.

COM B I N E D WITH TH E FACT THAT THE THREAT IS R E A LLY FORMU LATED BY AN PERMA N E NT TYRRANY E X E RCISED B Y TH E C H I E F O F T H E HORDE. T H E PRESENT U N I V E RSA L TRACES AND T H E E N D U R I N G SURVIVAL OF A MATRIARCHAL FA M I LY STRUCTU RE. WOU LD R E D UCE T O A N INCREASI NGLY U NC E R TA I N PHA NTOM THEY IN P R O P O R T I O N TO T H E OFFER TO OUR E DUCATIONAL TRADITION. I N THIS WAY FREUD R E C E I V E D A SUPPRORT FOR A S O C I O LOG I C A L GIVEN: N OT O N LY DOES THE STRATE T H A T TH E ORDER OF THE H U M A N F A M I LY HAS SOME FOUNDATIONS PRESERVED FROM THE I NTERDICTION O F I N CEST WITH T H E MOTH ER HAVE A U N I V ERSAL CHA RACTE R (ACROSS THE I N F I N ITELY DIVERSE AND OFTEN P A R A DOX I C A L FAMILY FORC E OF T H E M A LE. BUT THE APPARENT R E A LITY OF THIS DANGER. OF A LIKE AGG R E S S I O N . M U ST HAVE LED F R E U D T O CONC E I V E IT AS E X P E R I E NCED FI RST F O R ITS R E A L VALUE. I N EFFECT. PRISON E R S OF AN I N SOLUBLE RIVALRY: A U N D E RLIES THESE TWO MOV E M E NTS. PREC I S E ­ LY WHAT N E E D S TO B E B I O L OG I C A L EXPLA I N E D-TH E S E S O ­ N A M ELY THE M U TI LATION OF A M E M B E R. THAT A M A LE DOMI N ATES BY A BIOLOGICAL S U P E R I O RITY IN THE MONOPOLI- 1 92 . IF THIS TERM IS P R I MORDIAL EVENT. EVEN I F THIS CONST R UCTION WAS NOT S POI LED BY THE ONLY C I RC U L A R R E A SO N I N G THAT IT IN­ VOLVES-ATT R I B U T I N G T O A B I O LOG I C A L G R O U P TH I S FANTASY C O N S I STS E S S E N T I A LLY IN THE THE POSS I B I LITY OF RECOGNIZING A LAW. ITS ' I N S PI R E D FROM ONE MALE TO A NOTH E R. I T S E E M S. BUT THE T H EORETIC I A N S O F PSYC HO­ ANALYSIS HAVE YET TO U N A M B IGUOUSLY DEFI N E IT IS FROM HERE THAT FREUD MAKES THE ITS COM POSITE F U NCTIONS: IT IS FOR WANT O F TH EORETICAL I N DICATED IN JUMP OUR WHOSE ABUSE I N T RO D UCTION: WE HAVE FROM TH E H A V I N G S U F F I C I E N TLY DISTI N G U I S H E D T H E PLA N E S OF DEVELOPMENT W I T H W H I C H T H E Y EXPLA I N T H E COM PLEX. A S TH E AXIS ALONG WHICH TH E EVOLUTION OF SEXUALITY IS PROJ ECTED ONTO THE CONSTITU­ TION OF REALITY. A N ENTIRE MORA L A N D C U LTU R A L TRADITION WOULD COME. THE PROTOTYPE OF THE OEDIPA L A PPEARA NCE I N A LL T H E F U N DA M E NTA L FOR M S O F C U LT U R E A N D ESPEC I A LLY IN AN OFTEN EXTR E M E ­ LY STRICT R E P R E S S I O N O F S E X U A L ITY. C A STRATE THE MALE. IT IS HOWEVER HA RDLY CONSISTENT WITH THE FA NTASY THAT MAKES OF IT TH E O R I G I N A L FACT. BUT ABOVE ALL. I N T U R N TH E OBJ ECT OF I N V IOLA B I LITY A N D SAC R I FICA L ORGY. HE I M AG I N E S A DRAMA­ E MOTIONAL MOVEMENT O F T H E SUBJ ECT: AGGRES­ SION AGAI NST THE THE C H I LD'S PARENT IN REGARD TO WHOM PLACES H I M AS A SEXUAL D E S I R E M U R D E R O F T H E FATHER B Y THE SONS-FOLLOWED BY A POST H U M O U S CONSECRATION OF THE R I V A L: SECONDARY FEAR. THIS I N T E R D ICTION A LW A Y S E X PRESSLY FOR M U LATED A N D ITS TRANSG R ESSION I S STRUCK WITH CONSTA N T REPROBATION. THE FUNCTIONS O F THE COMPLEX: A PSYCHOLOGI­ CAL REVISION THE OEDIPAL C O M P L E X MARKS A LL LEVELS OF T H E T H E ORIGI N A L MYTH OF PARRICIDE PSYC H E . J U STI F I E D BY REGRESSIVE A N D REPRESSIVE ENDS THAT A R ISE AT T H I S MOMENT OF OEDIPUS. SUFFERED IN RETU R N . T H E S E TWO PLA NES D I V E RG E WITH CONJUGAL FAMILY THAT HE OBSERVED A MONG H I S S U B J ECTS T O A H Y POTH ETICAL P R I M ITIVE FA M I LY CONCEIVED AS A HORDE. H OW E V E R . OUT OF WHICH TOGETH ER WITH THE TABOO OF T H E MOTH ER. I F T H E COM PLEX A PPEARS T O TH E M . THIS IS WHY FRAZ I E R U NCOV E R E D THE P R I MOR I D I A L LAW OF H U M A N I TY I N THE TABOO OF THE MOTH ER. S O R E MARK­ A B L E THAT IT WAS I N DI V I D U A LIZED WITH T H E M I N A COM PLEX CALLED CASTRATION. T H A T I S T O S A Y I N A M A LT R E A TM E N T THAT CAN ONLY SERVE TO CALLED P R E M I S ES . THAT THE G R EAT H A RVEST O F FACTS W H I C H T H E O E D I PAL C O M P L E X H A S LEO T O BE O B J ECTI F I E D OVER TH E PAST F I FTY YEARS R E LATI ONS THAT P R I M IT I V E C U LTU R E S I M P RESS WITH TH E TABOO OF INCEST) BUT N O MATTER WHAT THE LEVEL OF MORAL C O N SC I E N C E IS IS IN A COULD C L A R I FY THE PSYCHOLOGICAL STRUCTU RE OF THE F A M I LY F U RT H E R THAN TH E H A ST Y C I V I LIZATION.TH E CASTRATION COMPLEX ZATION THE OF N U B I L E WOM E N . F R E U D BUI LDS U PO N T H A T I S ESTA B L I S H E D BETW E E N R E LA T I O N TH I S REPRESSION OPERATES BY A DOUBLE TABOOS A N D OBSERVANCES I N REGARDS T O T H E TOTEM. INTUITIONS W E H A V E J UST PRESENTED. THUS A FANTASY FATHE R'S POWE R OVER WOM E N B Y THE M U RDER­ E RS. AND THEN R ECOGNIZED IN A FEAR ADVENC E M E NT WOULD K NOWLEDGE O F MAN. I N FACT BY TH E FATH ER. D E MO N ­ R E PRESSION.

JAMAIS RECOGNITIONS. W H E N IT A PPEARS DECOM POSE D LIKE ONE OF THE S E NTI­ MENTS THAT FO R M THE SPECTRE OF U N R E A LITY. COMPLEX IN THE IF THE MORE TH E THE BUT SHOU LD BE I NTE­ GRATED INTO A THESE MORE R I GOROUS C O N C E PTION OF R E LATIONS: THE ROLE OF STRUCTU R A L ONE MATU RATION PLA Y E D BY TH E COMPLEX ON EACH OF TH E S E PLA N E S CAN O N LY BE T A K E N A P PROXI­ FORMATION RISKIER I TS ACC USED. A DIM ENSION WHICH. THIS POI N T OF PRIMITIVE SINCE IT DRIVES. WHERE ENCE. OPERATES THROUGH A T R I A N G U L A R CONFLICT I N THE S U B J ECT: W E H A V E ALREADY S E E N THE PLAY OF T E N D E NC I E S THAT ARISE OUT O F W EA N I N G IN ORDER TO E ST A B L I S H THIS A NORM CAN OF LIVED BE [SEVRAGEI PRODUCE A FORMATION OF TH I S SORT: IT IS A LSO THE MOTH E R. T H E COMPLEX FORMING T H E B A S I S OF A L L SUBJECTIVE COMPRE­ H E NSION. IN THE OTH E R SEX. BUT I N V E R S E LY. INTUITIONS OF PARTICI PATION. A N EMOTIONAL A BOLITION GERMAN VERLUSTI. ROLE SEXUAL A D A PTATION MATELY AS PARA LLEL. D R I V E S THAT ARE N A RC I SSISTIC. AND I NF L U ­ M E A N I NG. G E N ITAL THE Q U A L I T I E S OF IN TH E L I V E D E X P E R I E N C E BY B E TT E R DETAC H E S ITSELF F ROM V A R I A TIONS Q U A L I TY OF VITAL E N E RGY 1 93 . THE FI RST OBJ ECT OF THE TENDENCI ES. THE MOV E M E NT OF THE OEDIPUS COMPELX SERIES O F ITS DEGRADATIONS TO T H E L I M ITS OF UNDERSTA N D I NG. THE B UT.SPECIFIC INCIDENCE IN MAN. THUS ONE U N D E RSTA N D S THAT OEDIPAL DESIRE IS EXPERIENCE. D I M ENSION ONLY RECONSTRUCTED B Y M ETAPHORICAL I NTUITIONS: A D E N S ITY THAT C O N F E R S E X I ST EN C E ONTO THE OBJ ECT. BUT H I S D I M ENSION I S SHOWN I N T H E VACI LLATI O N S OF R E A LITY T H A T F E RT I L I Z E BETTER CHA RACTERIZED I N TH E M A L E . AND ENDING UP THESE TENDENCIES H AV E A POS S I B L E I S S U E I N THE B I OLOG I C A L D E STI N Y OF THE S U B J E C T-T H E W I T H T H E TWILIGHT OF T H E WORLD. THEY OPPOSE TH E M S E LV E S P A R T I C U LA R LY TO THE ATTITU D E O F EXTE RIOR IZATION. PASSING THROUGH OF A DOUBLE. FALS E S ENTI­ T E N D E N C I ES NOT M E RELY PSYCHOLOGICAL I M PASSE: H E R E. I LLUSIONS M E NTS OF D I V I N ITY. B EG I N N I N G WITH DEJA VU. WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN DISTI N G U I S H E D FROM IT A S P HENOM ENON I F THE TREATM ENT OF ME NTAL I LLNESSES HAD NOT MADE U S GRASP IT A S SUCH-A P H E N O M E NON-BY ADVANC I N G A N ENTIR E FAVORS SEXUALITY B Y D I R ECTING I T TOWARD ITS OBJECTS. AND A LSO I N S PI R ES IN US A RESPECT FOR IT. S E N T I M E NTS OF STRANG E N E S S . THE MATU RATION CONDITIONS OEDIPAL COM PLEX B Y FOR M I NG ITS F U N DA M E NTA L TENDENCI ES. THESE CON STITUTE A [FECON DITEI D E LI R I U M: W H EN THE OBJECT TENDS TO CONFUSE ITSELF WITH THE EGO WHILE AT THE SAME TI M E ABSORBI NG ITSELF I N FANTASY. WHICH IS FO R M A LLY D E S IG N A T E D I N MATE R N A L OBJECT-THE DIVE RSION O F A PART OF THE O E D I PA L DESIRE C E RTA I N LY T E N DS TO A S THE LOSS O F THE OBJECT (OBJEKT· N E UTRALIZE THE POTENTIAL OF THE COM PLEX. WHICH CONFORM S T O THE ACTIVITY OF T H E M A LE. THUS O N E A RRIVES FROM AT T H E SEX OF A M B IGUOUS CONCLUSION THAT TO THE T H E OTH E R. AS FOOD TO BE A BSORB E D A N D EVEN AS BREAST I N WHICH TO B E R E A BS OR B E D. BUT ALSO THAT IT A LLOWS H I M A S I N G U L A R OPPORTUN ITY FOR THE R E ACTIVISATION OF THE WEAN I NG TENDENCIES. WHICH IS FI RST OFFERED UP TO'1H E OEDIPAL D E S I R ES. IN A D D ITION. VU. THAT IS TO SAY DO A SEXUAL REGRESSION. THE SUCCESSION OF TH E S E FOR M S I S EVIDENCE THAT S E X U A LITY BY C O N FO R M S A TO THE G E NITAL ORGA N IZATION THIS SEXUAL PROGRESSIVE M ATU RATION. MATU RATION OF S E X U ALITY THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY THE PSYCHICAL A P P A R ATUS OF S E X U A LITY IS FI RST REVEALED IN THE C H I LD IN THE MOST A B B E RANT FOR M S RELATIVE TO ITS BIOLOG I C A L E N DS. AND T H E R E BY I M PO S I N G DRIVE ITS A S E X U A LIZATION CHANGE E F F ECTS. AND HERE WE SEE THE I N FLUENCE ON A OF THE PSYCHO­ AND LOGI C A L COM P L E X V I TA L R E LATI O N . ON THE CONTRARY. NOT HAVE REVERSE ATTITUD E OF I N T E R N A LI ZATION I N H E R I T E D FROM THEM. A P E R S PECTI V E W H I C H GIVES US A S E N S E O F I T S D I STANCE. BY PSYCHOA N A LY S I S D I V E R SE E X P LA I N S THESE EXTR E M ELY O F OBJ ECT. FROM THI S PONT T H E COMPLEX CONTR I BUTES TO THE CONSTITUTION OF REA LITY. WHAT IT B R I NGS TO REALITY IS REVEALED IN TERMS OF AN INTELLEC­ TUALIST PSYCHOG E N ESIS: A CERTA I N EMOTIONA L D E PT H TO THE OBJ ECT. DOES AND A LL T H E TO MOR E E A S I LY TH E INCIDENCE I S C E RTA I N LY KNOWN TO THE THEORE­ TIC I A N S AS THE REPRESSION O F SEXUALITY AND THE SUBLIMATION OF REALITY. SEEMS TO BECOME.

IN T E R M S OF THE R E P R ESSION OF S E X U A LITY. T H U S . IT I S A BOVE A L L THAT BECAUSE F R E U D . ACCORDING TO ITS NO R M A L TYPE.W H E T H E R TIONA L-TO THE A FFECTIV E C R I SES. T H E CHILD TO CONCE I V E O F ITS MOTH E R A S V I R I LE. THUS HAVE R EC OG N I Z E D I N DI C E S O F AN A N A LYSTS OVE R LY N A RC ISSISTIC I N V E STMENT OF THE L I B I DO THROUGH THE SYMPTOMS C IT E D ABOVE. THE ATTI TUDE WOULD H A V E I N DICATED THAT TH I S CONC E PTION R E STS ON T H E FANTASY OF CA STRATION. E V E N THOUGH THIS R E LA TlON IS LIVED BY TH E S U BJECT IN A R E PRESSION.I N V ESTED FO R M U L A . THE E XA M I N ATION OF THESE R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY FANTA S I E S R E V E A LS THAT THEY ARE I N SC R I B E D I N A S I ". N EGLECTI NG THE STR UCTU R E I N ORDER TO BENEFIT THE DYNA M I C . M A RKED LACK C O N FO R M S TO IN THE A NALYTIC DOCT R I N E : THAT IT WOULD SEEM TO B E E R RONEOUS. A S P I R I NG TO T H E SEC R ET OF T H E M A T E R N A L B R E A ST. THESE EFFECTS A R E P E R PETUATED U N D E R FOR M S DESIGNATED I D E A L. HOW E V E R . G R A N DIOSE T E R M S. VERBAL A GIVEN MAY APPEAR. THIS ATTITUDE IS CHA RACTERIZED BY THE TERMS OF G I FT lDONI AND SAC R I FICE. THE OEDI DPAL COM PLEX IS A LSO THE PROV I NCE OF TIVE FOR M OF P E N ETRATION. OF TY P I C A L THESE FU NCTIONS ACCOUNT OF T H E DO M I NATION OF T H E M A LE. THEY R E P RODUCE THE I M AGO OF TH E P A R E N T OF THE S A M E SEX. BY DIFFEREN­ TIATING THE FOR M A L GA M E OF THE COM PLEX. I N O R D E R TO THIS CONCE PTION CAN IT DEFINE AN A N A LOGICAL THE M OST F I N O BASIS I N I D ENTI FICATION. R EQU I R E S SUCH A S U R C H A RG E OF M EC H A N I SM S FOR ITS PRACTICE P S Y C H OG E N E S I S . I MAGO BUT ACCOR D I NG TO THE DOCTR I N E. S U BLIMATION A LSO THE MOMENT OF HIS OWN B U T R E S E A R C H E RS W H O H A V E B E S T U N D E R STOOD WHERE MAN OPENS 1 94 . IT S U G G E STS B ECOMES POSSI B L E TO ESTAB L I S H A STE A D I E R R E LATION S H I P B E TW E E N I T S FUNCTION A N D THE FANTASY C A STRATION I S I N E FFECT PRECEDED B Y A S E R I E S O F FANTA S I E S OF BODI LY FRAGMENTA­ TION WHICH R E G R E S S I V E LY TO P R OC E E D F R O M THROUGH STR UCTUR E OF THE D R A M A ESSENTI A L TO IT. PROPORTIONAL D I R ECTION OF LIFE. TH E THE ROLE FATH E R IN WOU LD TWO HAVE A PROTO­ ON OFFERED BY THIS CATH E X I S THE ANA LYST M UST BASE THE I N D ICATION OF T H E TREATMENT. THROUGH THESE TERMS A BOLD CONCE PTION R E D I SCOVERS THE SECRET COM FORT OF A MORAL THEME: I N THE PASSAGE BETWEEN C A PT I V I TY AND OBLAVITY TH E VITA L TEST A N D T H E MORAL TEST A R E WANTONLY CONFUSED.I D E A L CONTRIBUTES T O THE SEXUAL CONFOR M I SM OF TH E PSYC H E . LET US SAY. TRADITIONAL ATO M I S M T O T H E NOTION O F T H E ATOM I S M OF FORMS. THE D I S I NTERESTED EXTENS ION TO TH I S R E A LITY. I F THE DOCTRI N E FOU N D E D G E N IT A L TENDENCY R E F E R S T O A R E A L THR EAT. U LTANEOUSLY DESTRUCTIVE A N D I NVESTIGA­ IF IT MA RKS THE S U M M I T OF I N FANT SEXUALITY. I N O D E R T O OBSERVE I N BOTH S E X E S THE E X I STENCE O F THE S A M E FANTASY IN A S M A LL G I R L O R OF A PHALLIC I M AGE OF TH E MOTH ER. R E V E L ATIONS THAT WOULD L E A D THE LITTLE GIRL TO NOSTA LGI A FOR V I R I LITY. THE A N A LYTIC EXPER­ IENCE OFFERS A CONTRI BUTION TO THE STUDY OF M ENTAL FO R M S BY D E M ONSTRATING TH E I R C O N D IT I O N A L O R SOLU­ TH E M A TE R I A LS O F THE A DI FFERENT A N A LYTIC E X PE R I E N C E I N T E R P R ETATION: THE FANTAS I E S OF FRAGM ENTATION R E LA T I O N . WE THIS TH E ROLE O F O E D I P U S WOU L D COR RELATE WITH M ATURATION BY TH E O F S E X U A LITY. D I S LO C A T I O N D I S M E M B E R MENT. F A CTS HE IS CONSTR A I N E D TO EXPLA I N THESE R E V E LA T I O N S OF T H E BETWEEN DEFENSE AND R E N U NCIATION. AS THE TO SUPE REGO WHICH AND THE EDO­ PSYC H O A N A L YT I C PRACTICE: PSYCHOANA LYSTS MUST RECKON WITH TH I S CATH E X I S ENCES IN THE OPERATION A L TRANSFER­ C U R E: WITH THE R ESO U R C E S ACCORDING THEY ARE EITHER OF T H E I R UNCONSCIOUS O R CONSCIOUS FOR THE SUBJECT. TH I S I S A G E N ES I S W H I C H . BUT ONES WHOSE MEAN ING REMAINS A M B I G U O U S A N D H E S ITA NT I DE N T I F Y I N G TE N D E N C I ES. R E SPONDS I NTO AS TO THE OBJECT AS IN BY IT DESIRE. THUS THE EGO. I N THAT I T R E DUCES I M AGES TO A STATE OF LATENCY U NT I L PUBERTY: IF IT DETER­ M INES A CON D ENSATION IT IS OF R E A LITY I N TH E M A N N E R WHOSE A M BI V A L E N C E IS TO ITS A RC H A I S M . U P T O DEVORA­ TION AND S H ROUDI NG. E M A SC U LATION TO D I S E M BOWLING. I N G E N I O U S L Y D Y N A M I ST AT REMAINS CLOSED BY C RYSTA LLIZE T H E V I T A L R E LATION TO R E A LITY. BY P R EC OC I O U S OF THE D O M I N AT I O N MALE. WHILE THE FOR M ATION OF THE O E D I P U S COMPLEX APPEARED A S TH E MOMENT AND THE PROOF OF A CATHEXIS SUFFICI ENT FOR THE TRANSFE RENCE.

IN ORDER TO L I BERATE NARCISSISTIC ONE. SHOW THAT THE PE RSONA REACHES THEM ON LY AT THE PRICE OF CORPORAL MUTI LIATION. IT I S IN THE RADICAL FORM OF BAROQUE DOLL. BUT T H I S TH E ROLE OF THE COMPLEX I N THE SUBLI MATION OF R EALITY I S NOW I NTRODUCED. N A M ELY THE MOTH ER.A P P A R E N T L Y CONTRARY TO THE THEORY-THAT THE STRICTNESS WITH WHICH TH E S U P E R EGO I N H I BITS THE FUNC­ TH E MATERNAL ORIGIN OF THE ARCHAIC S U P E R EGO TIONS OF TH E S U BJ ECT TENDS TO BE ESTABLISHED IN INVERSE PROPORTION TO TH E REAL SEVERITI E S TH E FA NTASY OF CASTRATION R E LATES TO THIS SAME OBJ ECT. FOR EXAMPLE. THE SUPEREGO A N D EGO. FOR US. T H E I R I NT E REST LI ES I N TH E EVIDENT U N R E A LITY OF TH E I R STRUCTU RE: THE EXAMINA­ R I T E S OF C I R C U M C I S. THE S U B J ECT R E S PONDS TO THIS ANXI ETY THAT THE OBJECT REAWAKENS B Y R EPRODUC I N G THE M ASOCHI STIC R E J ECTION TH ROUGH W H I C H H E S U R MOUNTED HIS P R IMORDIAL LOSS. TRAITS CONFORM I NG T O T H E PARTICULARITIES O F THI S IMAGO. AUTHORITY O F THE A D U LT: OTH ERWISE O N E COULD NOT U N D E R S T A N D T H E F A C T . THAT IS TO SAY. A LT H O U G H THE S U PE R EGO ALREADY RECEIVES TRACES O F REAL ITY FROM THE MATERNAL R E P R ESSION ALONE (TOILET-TR A I N I N G AND WEANING D I SC I P L I N E ) IN THE OEDI PUS OBJECT DOES N O T D E P E N D ON T H E S E X OF T H E S U BJ ECT A N D I N STEAD DETE R M I N E S T H A T IT DOES NOT SUFFER FROM THE FOR M U LA S OF TH E COM P L E X T H E S E T R A C E S NARCISSISTIC FORM . IN THE MOTH E R THE OBJECT THAT DETERMIN E S IT. B Y T H E DEFENSE V A L U E T H E SUBJECT GIVES TO THESE OBJECTS AGA I N ST TH E A N X I ETY OF VITAL DESTRUCTION. O N E M U ST B E G I N A T THE POINT WHERE T H E DOCTR I N E P R E S ENTS A SOLUTION T O T H E DRAMA.THE MATE R N A L ORIGINS OF TH E S E F A N TA S I E S SEXUALITY. THR O UGH THE PROGRESS IN WH ICH THE CHILD R E A LI Z E S THE R E P R E SSIVE AGENCY IN THE M A ST E R Y ACTUAL BODY CORPS PROPREI. GO B E Y O N D TH E I R EDUCATIONA L T R A D ITION. THE FA NTASY R E P R E ­ SENTS THE D E F E N S E T H A T TH E N A RC I S I STIC EGO­ I D E NTI F I E D WITH ITS M I RROR DOUBLE-DPPOSES TO THE R E NEWAL OF T H E A N X I ETY THAT TENDED TO D I STUR B IT AT THE F I RST MOM ENT OF O E D I PUS: A CRISIS WHCH DOES NOT C A U S E TH E I RR U PTION OF GENITAL DESI R E IN THE S U B J ECT AS M U C H AS I N THE OBJECT T H A T IT R EACTUALIZES. TO U N D E RSTA N D THIS. THE DOCTR I N E S E E S THE FACT OF A SECONDARY N A R C I S S I S M : IT DOES NOT DISTINGU I S H THIS P A R T I C U LA R I D E N T I F I C AT I O N F R OM T H E EXPRESSED I N THE P R I MITIVE RITUALS W H E R E THE L I N K BETWEEN TH I S R E P R ESSION A N D T H E ROOTS OF ALL SOCIA L BONDS IS M A N I F E STED: C ELEBRA­ TION R I TES WHICH. ONE M UST RECALL THE IMAGINARY PLAY THAT CONDITIONS TH E FANTASY OF CASTRATION. NAM ELY OF T H E FORM IT HAS DISCOVE RED H E R E­ I DENTIFICATION. THE NOSTA LGI A FOR MATE R N I TY IN THE BOY. TION OF THESE FANTASIES FOUN D I N D R E A M S AND C E RTA I N I M PULSES A L LOWS FOR THE A F F I RMATION THAT THEY HAVE A B SOLUTELY NO R E LATION TO A R E A L B O D Y . SUCH A GENESIS OF SEXUAL R E P R E SSION IS NOT W I T H O U T S O C I O L OG I C A L R E F E R EN C E : IT IS IN THIS. A H E T E ROC L I T E TO DEFIN E TH IS G E N E S I S OF REPRESSION OF THE PSYCHOLOGICAL PLA N E . WHICH ARISE FROM THE PREMATU RATION.I D E A L C A N R E V E A L TO E X P E R I E N C E SUBLIMATION OF R E A LITY R E PRODUCTION O P E R AT E S ACCORD I N G T O T H E STR UCTURE THAT H E HAS ACQU I RED. T H E R E I S A LSO A N ASS I M I LA ­ TION OF THE S U B J ECT TO T H E O B J E C T: TH E DOCTRI N E S E E S NO D I F F ERENCE OTH ER THAN T H E 1 9!! . ON ACCOUNT OF TH E INDENTI FICATION OF THE S U BJECT WITH THE I M AGO OF THE PARENT OF TH E SAME SEX. DESIGNATE BY T H E I R ORGIASTIC FORM TH E MOMENT OF A FFECTI VE R E INTEGRATION I N TO THE WHOLE: ( M E LA N I E KLE I N ) A R E O N LY CON C E R N E D W I T H THE SYMM ETRY A N D THE EXTENSION THAT THEY BRING TO THE FORMATION O F OEDIPUS. THAT IS TO SAY I N A N I M AG I N A RY LOCALIZATION OF T H E DRIVE. A TROPHY OF M E M B E RS WHE R E ONE M UST RECALL THE N A RCIS­ SISTIC OBJECT WHOSE G E N E S I S HAS BEEN EVOK ED EARLIER: CONDITIONED I N MAN BY THE P R EC ESSION OF I MAGINARY OF FO R M S THE OF TH E BODY [LE ON THE COU NTER DRIVES THAT REVEAL THEMSELVES TO THE A N A LYTIC E X P E R I ENCE I N ORDER TO CONSTI­ TUTE TH E M OST ARCHAIC KERNEL OF THE SUPEREGO AND TO REPRESENT THE MOST MASSIVE REPRESSION. TH I S FORC E DISTRI B UTES ITSELF WITH THE DIFFERENCIATION OF TH I S FORM. ACTUA LLY. BORN B E FO R E EITHER ANY MARKING OF THE ACTU A L BODY O R A'NY DISTINCTION OF THE TH R EAT FROM TH E A D U LT. T H E FORM OF T H I S OF E D U C A TI O N .10N. W H I C H S A N CTION SEXUAL IN ORDER TO MATU RITY. R E V E A L I NG. B U T I N ST E A D TO A MANNEQUIN.

T H I S SA M E FORM I S E V I D E N T I N E A C H C R I S I S W H E R E T H E CONDEN SATION HIGHER U P) (WHOSE E N I G M A WE H A V E POSE D ITSELF: T H I S LIGHT O F U NC O N S C I O U S THE R EM A I N PRODUC ES R E P R E SSED. BUT I N T H I S STE P TOWARD REALITY. THE I M AGO I N H I B ITS SEXUAL FUNCTION. AND THAT OF EXPRESS WE CANNOT STRESS ENOUGHT THAT THE OBJECT OF I D E NTI FICATION DES I R E. A SERIES IN OF A NTI NOMIC S U B JECT FUNCTIONS BY THE ARE SCIOUSNESS A N D M I S U N D E RSTANDI NG-TH E I M AGO ITSELF A PP E A R S U N D E R TWO STRUCTU RES WHOSE DISPA RITY REALITY. OF THE IF TH E FUTURE TENDENCY RESOLVED UNDER TWO MAJOR FOR M S WHERE ANALYSIS H A S LEA R N E D TO R E C OG N I ZE I T . AS M UC H IN T H E ROLE OF M A S K E D P R E S E N C E PLAYED BY THE D R I V E A S BY THE FORM IN W H I C H IT ASSU M E D THE OBJECT. TH I S I S W H Y I T N O R M A L L Y C O M E S T O F I L L TH E FRAME OF THE D O U B L E W H E R E TH E E G O F I RST I D E NTI F I ES ITSE LF. HERE IS NOT T H E O B J E C T OF I S OPPOSED TO TH E PRI MORDI A L EQU IVALENC E R E F LECTS N A RC I S S I STIC CONF LICT. I N O R D E R T O CONTA I N THE I N D E F I N I T E V I RT U A L I TIES O F ITS P ROGRESS. B U T A S A POLE TO T H E C R EATIONS OF PASSION. THE I M AGO OF T H E FATH E R HENCE. O N T H E OTH E R H A N D . IT SEEMS TO I NDICATE . S H E LT E R E D B Y I T S OWN M I SCON­ C E PT I O N IDEAL [ M E C O N N A I S S A N C E 1 . IN THE OEDIPAL I D E NTIFICATION THE MOTH E R ACTU A L LY BETRAYS THE OEDPIAL I DE N T I F I C ATION. MASOC H I STIC THE M I M ETIC HAS BECOME SA DO­ FROM OBJECT OF THE PARTICI PATION DISENGAGES THE SUBJECT. TO A BETTER FO R M ED EGO. T H E I D E NT I F I CATION OF T H E P R O P I T I ATORY. THE SUBJ ECT.CONSTITUTION OF ONE O P P OS I N G I T S E LF. BUT THAT WHICH OBJECT OF DESI RE IN THE OEDIPAL TRIANGLE. I T DOES SO I N A N UNCONSCIOUS FORM . WHAT THE ANTINOMY OF TH E O P PO S I T I O N T O IT AS A N I D E A L THAT A LTERNATIVE­ LY EXA LTS AND D E P R ESSES IT. THE OBJECT SCIOUS AND THE I D E A L. T H I S MOME NT. APPEARS AT FIRST THIS MOMENT OF OEDI P U S PROVIDES THE PROTO­ FU NCTION W H I C H PLAYS THE P A R ENTAL I M AGO I N THE S U B JECT. MORE OBJECT OF DESI R E W ITH THE OEDIPAL THE COMPLE X-TH AT WHICH IT IS NOT THE MOMENT OF IN ITS A LO N G DESIRE ESTA B L I S H E S T H E OBJECT D E S I R E . BUT. O N ONE H A N D. IN THE TWO EXCLUSIONS OF THE U NCON­ OBJECT A PPEARS T O T H E EGO AT O N C E AS T H E S U P PO RT O F ITS D E F E N S E A N D T H E E X A M PLE OF I T S TR I U M PH. B U T THE MOMENT OF THE SUBJ ECTS N A RC I S S I STIC D E F E N S E . T A K I N G ITS D ISTANCE FROM HIM I N THE N E W A M B I G UITY O F F E A R A N D LOVE. ACCORDING TO THE CON STANTS OF H E DO N I S M .I N I MAGO OF THE 1 96 . S HOWS IT TO BE COLORED BY A T R A N SG R E S S I O N F E LT AS D A N G E ROUS.N A M E LY U NCON­ THUS. THEN THE FUNCTION O F THE EXAMPLE A PPEARS TO BE THE ORIGIN A L CONTRI BUTION OF THE O E D I PA L COMPLEX. T H E I M AGO I S JUXTA POSED ONLY T O T H E EGO. B U T. DEFINES TH E F I R ST SUBLIMATION OF CON STITUTED TH E MAJOR C R I SES O F H U M A N R E A LITY. A R ETU R N TO A N I M P E RFECT I NTROJECTION OF T H E OBJ ECT. A N D THROUGH W H ICH IT STI LL C A N CONFUSE ITSELF W I T H THE OTH E R. I N C A U S I NG THE OBJ ECT T O A R I S E A S ONE WHOSE POSITION IS SITUATED AS AN A S S I M I LATION. IT I S BY R E D UC I NG A G A I N S U C H A N OBJECT THAT E X P E R I E N C E A TTA I N S A L L I T S D E PTH. TH E PRIM ITIVE OBJECT O F D E S I R E S E E M S T O B E CON J U R E D AWAY. THE A C TU A L STRUCT U R E OF T H E O E D I P A L D R A M A D E S I G N A T E S T H E FATHE R A S G I V I N G TO T H E FU NCTION OF S U BL I M ATION I T S E M I N E NT A N D MORE THIS FACT DEFINES THE O R I G I N A L I T Y OF T H E PURE FOR M . ORIGI N A LITY OF T H E O E D I P A L I DENTI FICATION BRINGS A S EC U R ITY TO THE EGO BY STRE NGT H E N ­ ING THIS FRAME. IN ORDER TO I M POSE ITSELF ON THE OBSTACLE TO DES I R E. A N D I N T H E FORMATION O F THE EGO. I F THE FU NCTION O F T H E CO N SC I E N C E S E E M S TO A NG U I S H . S I N C E T H E EGO­ IN THE PATH S C O N SC I E N C E FOR ITS IS THE S U R P R I S E T R A N S F I G U R E S A N OBJECT B Y D ISSOLV­ ING ITS EQU I V A L E N C E S IN A S U BJ ECT. R E P R E S E N TS PREPA RATION RETU R N . BUT AT TH E SAME TIME IS IN HOWEVE R A MORE STRUCTU R A L AN ALYSIS OF T H E OEDI P A L I DENTI FICATION A LLOWS ONE T O RECOG­ NIZE WITH I N IT A MORE IS DISTI NCTIVE FO RM. TH E FRUSTRATION OF THIS DE S I R E COULD R E S U LT I N THE SUBJ ECTS RETU RN TO HIS P R I MORDIAL VORACITY OF N EW R E A LITY. THE I MAGO PRESERVES T H I S FU NCTION. THUS. AND PROPOSES I T N O LON G E R A S A M E A N S TO T H E SATI SFACTION OF D E S I R E . S I NC E EXPE RIENCE SHOWS THAT T H E ACTION OF THE S U PEREGO AGAI NST THE R E P ET I T I O N S OF THE AS TENDENCIES REMAINS TENDENCIES AS TYPE FO S U B L I MATION.

THIS EQU I L­ THAT THE S OC I A L PRESENT THE I MAGO A S C R I PPLING O R B L I N D I NG) I N ORDER T O DEVIATE T H E E N E RGY O F S U B L I M ATION FROM ITS CREATIVE IN D I R ECTION IDEAL OF AND FAVOR ITS D E MONSTRATES IS R E LA T I V E OEDIPAL TO STRUCTU RE. THIS ANTINOMY PLAYS IN T H E I N D I V I D U A L DRAMA. THIS I S NOT TO SAY THAT IT IS BASED OUTS I D E OF SOCIOLOGICAL RELATIVITY. DRAMA: GO M UC H FURTHER BEYOND THIS STATUTES. BY STEREOTYPE MARKS PERSONA LITY IS OPPOSE D TO T H E H A R MONY THAT IT CARRIES W I TH I N . HERE W E WILL SEE IT CONFI R M E D BY T H E EFFECTS O F DECOMPOSI­ TION: BUT THESE EFFECTS OF PROG RESS. W E C A N STRESS THE PHYSICA L L E S I O N S IN THE D I M I N UTIVE FOR M S OF TH I S I MAGO (ESPECIA LLY THOSE WHICH THIS MASTER OF T EC H N I Q U E S AND EXAMPLE OF D A R I NG I N B U S I N ESS.F R O M AND ART TO MORALS-IN TO THE S I M I LAR CULTURES. IT I S ON THE CONTR A RY. J UST A S TH E R E PRESSION OF S E X U A LITY MORE R E A D I LY AUTHORITY I S NOT R E PR E SENTED B Y THE FATH E R BUT OR D I N A R I LY BY A M A TE R N A L UNCLE. N O R M A L I DE A LS. TH E MOST DECISIVE R E S U LT OF ITS DITEI BY TYI NG TOGETH E R THE PROGRESS OF THESE FUNCTIONS IN SUCH A N ANTI NOMY. SO T H E SUBLI M ATION OF THE M A T E R N A L I M AGO FACT: I F T H E MATE R N A L U N C L E PRACTICES T H E SOCI A L S PO N SOR S H I P A S GUA R D I A N OF FA M I LY­ R ELATED TABOOS A N D I N ITIATOR OF T R I B A L R I TES. BY N EG LE C T CONCENTRATI N G T H E CONDITIONS OF T H E FUNC­ TIONA L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS IN THE CONJUGAL F A M I LY. M A R K I N G T H E EGO. I N TH E G I RL. TO THE D EG R E E THAT I T DOM I NATES. O N E M UST R E M E M ­ BER IN T H I S R E V E R S A L H O W M U C H T H E I M PU LSES OF SUBLIMATION ARE DOM I NA T E D TWO BY SOC I A L ARE R E PRESSION SEPARATED. I NTE­ PSYCHIC E FFECTS R E S I DES IN THE FACT THAT THE FU NCTION O F R E P R ESSION A S WELL A S THAT OF SUBLIMATION I S C O N C E NTRATED IN T H E I M AGO OF THE FATH E R : BUT TH I S IS A FACT THE OF SOC I A L GRATED A S THEY A R E IN AN I M M E N S E CULTURAL PATRIMONY.I D E A L A S W E L L A S THE S U P E R EGO BY T H E FORMS AND THE A M BIVALENCE OF T H E S E I DENTI FICATIONS. T H E E X P E R I E N C E THUS CONTR A D ICTS T H E T H E O R E T I C A L O R I ENTA­ TION SUCH WHICH D E S I G NATES IN THE THE MAJOR AGENT OF PATE R N A L PRESENT THEORY OF O E D I PUS. CON FOR M I NG R E F E R R I NG A G R EA T N U M B E R OF N E U ROSES A N D TH E I R G RAVITY TO S U C H C A USES. KNEW HOW TO P E N ETRATE THE PSYC H I C I N C I D E N C E S OF T H I S I M PO S E S T H I S M E N TA L F R A G M E N TA T I O N W H E R E O N E C A N D E FI N E HYSTER I A O N BODILY F UNCTIONS.INTERFERENCE OF THE PRIMORDIAL I D E NTIFICA­ IN MATR IARCHAL C U LT U R E S . T H E P S YC H O L O G I S T THESE FOR M S WHICH. LEGA L DETER M I N A T I O N . THE FAMILIAL TIONS. WHEN THESE F U N CTIONS N E UROSES THREAT OF FORCE. AT THE D E ATH A LW A Y S THAT DEFEND THE H I M S E LF: C R E AT I O N S WHATEV E R STAGE O F D E V E LOPMENT I T APPEARS A N D ACCOR D I N G TO THE DEGREE O F COMPLETION OF O E D I PUS. PLAYS AS A MORE F A M I LI A R ROLE OF TENDS TO TU R N I NTO A F E E L I N G O F R E P R ESSION FOR ITS BA N K R U PTCY AND I N TO A SYSTEMATIC CONCE R N FOR T H E M I RROR I M AGE. THE FATH ER. 1 97 . DISCHARGED FROM ALL R E PRESSIVE F U NCTION . BUT H E I N N O WAY A UTHORIZES THE PARODISTIC M I RAGE LOGI ST MUST AGA I N ST WHICH T H E SOCIO­ THE OF SECLUSION I N T E G R I TY . SUCH TH AT IT I S ENOUGH T O I N DICATE THAT T H E FORM S REA LIZE THE V I R I L E I D E A L IN TH E BOY AND T H E V I R G I N A L I N THE G I R L. REINTEGRATE BY THE S OC I A L D I A L E C T I C I NTO THE ENGENDERED MATR I A RCHY A N D P A T R I A RCHY THIS CONFLICT PSYCHOLOGICAL PROGRESS. FA M I LY. M A LI NOWS K I . PATRON A G E . THE FACT OF PATER N A L C R EATI V E C A N NOT I N S P I R A T I O N S . ONE ETHNOLOGIST WHO W A S G U I D E D BY H I S KNOWLEDGE OF PSYCHOA N A LYSIS. SEPARATION OF FUNCTIONS I M PLIES A DIFFERENT EQU I L I B R I U M OF THE PSYC H E ATTESTE D TO BY THE AUTHOR TH ROUGH THE LACK OF N E U ROSI S H E OBSE RV E D I N T H E G ROU PS O F THE NORTH-WEST I S L A N D S O F IBRIUM FORTU NATELY COMPLEX MELANSIA. BECA USE T H E PATE RNAL I MAGO I S INVESTED BY R E PRESSION IT PROJECTS THE COMPLEX A N D ITS SOCIOLOGICAL R E LATIVITY ITS ORIG I N A L FORCE I N THE WHICH SHOULD VERY S U B L I M ATIONS IT: THE OEDI PUS OVERCOME COMPLEX ACQU I R E S S O M UC H FEC U N DITY [FECON­ I F I T APPEA R E D IN ITS PSYCHOLOG I C A L A N A LYSIS THAT OEDI PUS M UST B E U N DERSTOOD IN T E R M S OF ITS N A RC I SS I STIC A NTECEDENTS. T H E I M AGO OF THE FATH E R POLA R I Z E S T H E MOST P E RFECT FOR M S OF THE EGO-I D E A L I N BOTH S E XES. O N T H E OTH E R H A N D . SOME OF THE N A RC I S S I ST I C FATHER. A T THE S A M E TIME TENDS TO A R R E ST THE PROGRESS OF R E A LITY BY FREEZING IT.

T H I S WAS REA LIZED I N T H E F I FTEENTH CENTURY WITH THE ECONOMIC R EVOLUTION THAT PRODUCED THE BO U RG E O I S SOC I ETY MODERN MAN. THUS CAUSING THE PRIMITIVE C U LT U R E S FA M I L I A L I N STITUTION T O TAKE T H E D EC I S I V E STEP TOWA RDS ITS MOD E R N STRUCTU RE. HE RECOG N I Z E S IT IN P A T R I A RC H I A L PEOPLES: OPPOSITION TO A T R A N SC E N D E NT E LA N AN O F LIFE I N PROGRESS I S FOU N D I N T H E LEGAL FOR M S. LEDGIBLE IN T H E M YTH I C A M B I G U I TY OF TH E SAC R I F I C E OF ABRAHAM. T H E O P E N I N G I NTRODUCES A N I D E A L OF PROMISE I N TO REPRES­ SION. A N D B Y ITS W I T H T H I S FACT W E U N I F Y T H E CRITICAL MOMENT THAT B E RGSON D E F I N E D IN T H E FOU N DATION S OF MORA LITY: I T I S K NOWN THAT H E RETU R N S TO ITS FU NCTION NOT H I N G OF SOCI A L D E F E N S E T H I S " A L L O R BY WHICH HE DES IG­ CON V U LS I V E ARCHAL B A TT L E TO M A I N TA I N THE THE PATRI­ I DE A L A G A I N ST I R R E P R E SS I B L E SEDUCTION O F TH E S E M A T R I A R C H I ES. I L L USIONS. BUT R E M A I N I NG L I M ITED T O TH E R E A C H OF A BSTRACTION. T H E A POTHEOTIC E X A LTATION THAT C H RISTI A N ITY B R I N G S TO T H E E X I G E N C I E S OF THE P E RSON. A A B STRACT SOURCE NO D I SCOV E R S DOUBLE RETU R N E D AGAI NST THESE FO R M A L I S T TIONARY EXTENSION O F M O R A L PRIVE LEDGES FROM A PAT R I A RC H TO AN I M M E N SE PLEBACY AND ONTO ALL PEOPLE. A NO L E S S A M B I G UOUS REPRESENTATION OF THE E M A N C I PA T I O N OF E X P E R I E N C E AND I F THE PSYCHOA NA LYST R E D I S- 1 98 . W E THUS SEE THE EXIGENCIES OF THE P E R SO N AND THE OF OBLIGATION. BY EXPE R I E NCE. WHATEV E R T H E I R FOR M . I F THE PSYCHOLOGI ST A N D T H E SOCIOLOG I ST C A N RECOG N IZE.THAT THE STUDY OF THESE IS ALREADY M U ST FOR M S R E LATES TO GIVEN A FOR OUR OF OF MATE R N A L TYRA N N I ES A N D THE D EC L I N E OF T H E R I T E OF ROY A L M U R D E R ." U N I V E RSA LIZATION O F T H E I D E A L D I A LECTICALLY AFFIRMED IN S OC I ETY. C A N BE U N D E RSTOOD BY THE SITUATION O F B E I N G THE E L ECT PEOPLE-A SITUATION C REATED SINCE TH E I R GROUP W A S THE OPE N I NG OF T H E SOC I A L BON D R E P R E S E N T AT I V E O F P A T R I A R C H Y F O R OTH E R GROUPS D E VOTED T O M A T E R N A L C U LTS. I L L U M I N ATED WHEREAS THE IT ONLY MATR I A R C H A L C U LT U R E S A N D T H E STAGNATION OF P R I M ITIVE G RO U PS SEPA RATE T H E M . A M I SSION R E A LI Z E D BY THE ALREADY REVOLU­ E V E R Y MOV E M E NT. P E R I PH E RA LLY MATR I A RC H I E S T H A T A R E "ON LY" A LWAYS S U B JACENT TO A N C I E N T C U LTU R E OFENl.D I S M E M ­ SECRET REVERSA L THE ADVA NTAGE PREPON DERANCE TO REVERSAL OF M A R RIAGE. T H E C H U RC H I NTEGRATED THIS TRADITION I NTO T H E FU NCTION A L CONFLICT OF O E D I PUS. THE T R A D I TI O N IN THE PATR I C I A N I DEALS. IN SO F A R A S I T I S PRODUCED E M I N E NTLY BY THE J E W I S H PEOPLE. W H I C H I N T H E END FORMA LLY T I E S T H I S M E A N I NG T O AN E X P R E SSION OF PROM I S E . F A R FROM THE B I RTH OF H U M A N ITY FROM WHICH THE I M MEMORIAL CONTI N U AT I O N OF H I S TORICAL T R A D I TION ONLY FULLY STRUCK I N THE A N N A LS OF PATR I A R C H I E S. N O W . THE PROPH ETIC I S M BY W H I C H B E R SON A PPEALS TO H I STORY. MOR A LITY OF C H RISTIANTIY B Y B R I NG I NG I N TO T H E FO REGRO U N D TH E F R E E C H O I C E OF A PA RTN E R I N I F THEY WHICH REFER TO TH E R I TES OF SAC R I F I C E B Y (EVEN ATTA I N I NG A THE BOND OF M A RRIAGE. SAYING THAT BY THE P R I V I L E DG E D FOR M S OF M A R R I AGE. THESE MYTHS ARE SITUATED AT THE E D G E OF H I STORY A N A LY S I S : ON E WE TAKE AS PROB L E M LIGHT STRUCTU R E THE FACT T H AT T H E H I STORY. T H I S M A N I S THE ONLY OBJECT THAT IT HAS T R U LY S U B M ITTED TO ITS E P I SODE OF T H E S P H I N X ) . AC ROSS THE H I STORY OF TESTI MONY TO THIS N A TE S THE BON D THAT C LOSES TH E H U M A N GROUP U PO N ITS COH E R E NC E . SO I N T H E SAME WAY THEY CAN D E M O NSTRATE A REAL TWO F U NCTION S O F THIS PROCESS ARE R E F LECTED ON THE STRUCT U R E O F THE FA M I LY ITSELF: F I R ST. AND THE PSYC H O LOGY OF THE RELATIONS MAN BETW E E N THE THE PSYCHOLOGY F A M I LY OF MODE R N AND CONJUGAL ARE M E A N I NG DOES N O T A P PEA R A N Y L E S S I N THE MYTH OF O E D I P U S (IF O N LY WE DO NOT N EG L ECT T H E WHAT. (AS IN THE I N V ESTIGATIONS OF BACH· ACCO R D I NG T O T H I S SOCIOLOGICAL REFERENCE. THE CONCRETE FOR M OF PRI MORDIA L OBLIGATION IN THE I NT E R DICTION OF T H E MOTHER. OF ITS N A M E LY T H E SOC I A LY E LEVATED CONCENTRATION) R E A L IZE T H E FANTASI ES OF T H E P R I M O R D I A L R E LATION OF THE M OT H E R WITH THE C R U E L E S T R I GO R . I N E F F ECT. W H I C H ETER N A LIZE THE M I SS I O N E X P E R I ENCED BY ROME IN ITS CONSC I E N C E A S M UCH A S IN ITS POWER. T H I S B E R E D BOD I E S A N D LIVE B U R IAL-IN MORE T H A N O N E M YTH THEY W I L L R E A D THAT THE A D V E N T O F PAT E R NA L A UTHORITY A NSWERS T O A TEMPERA· M E N T OF P R I M ITIVE SOCIAL R E PRESSION. PROPOSE T H E M S E LVES T O T H E STU D Y OF PSYCHOA NA LYSIS. W H I C H OPENS T H I S GROUP BY UNIVERSALIZING A N A LY S I S DOUBT THE B O N D. OF PROC ESS O F "TH E OPE N I NG" OF THE SOCI A L BON D IN PATE R N A L A UTHOR ITY. A N D SECOND.

I N CONTI BUTING THE LARGEST D I F F E R E NTIATION TO THE P E R SO N A L I T Y THE B E FO R E THE PERIOD OF TO S OC I A L MAXI M U M LATENCY. THE WORK OF TH E I R FOR MATIVE REDUCTION FOR RE ASON WILL BE. W H E R E HE SU BSTITUTES H I M S E L F FOR THE GRAN DPA RENT. IN T H I S THE PSYCH ISM IS IZATION. IT I S RECOGN IZED IN ORDER TO PRODU C E A POWER IN THE FA M I LI A L STRUCTU RE WHICH S U R PASSES ALL EDUCATIONAL RATIONA L­ ON THE OTH E R H A N D. FOR T H E MOST COMMON OBSE RVATION. THE THE P RO M E T H E A N T R A N SG RESSION OF HIS LIFE. FROM THE FAT H E R TO THE OF SON. WE A RE DEC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L I M AGO 1 99 . IF IN TH E S E MORAL CONDITIONS OF CR EATION PSYCHOANALYSIS M A N I FESTS A R EVOLUTIONARY TRAN SLATED B Y THE I N V E R S I O N S O F T H E ORDER OF G E N E RATIONS I MA G I N E D B Y T H E C H I LD. HOW. THE EVIDENCE OF SEXUAL L I F E IN TH E RE PRESE NTATI VES OF MORAL CONSTR A I NTS-THE SI NGULARLY TRANSGRESSIVE U N DERSTA N D I N G THEM W I TH I N T H E C U LTU RE THAT I M POSES WITHOUT THE H IG H EST E X IG E N C I E S U PON HIS OWN HIM­ EXAMPLE O F T H E I MAGO O F TH E FAT H E R A S F A R A S THE PRI M O R I D A L I NTERDICTION IS CONCE R N ED­ U N D E R S TA N D I N G POSITION EXALT THE TENSION OF TH E LIBIDO A N O T H E !'. RECOGNIZ­ I NG THAT H E C R EATES H I M S E L F A N D H I S OBJECTS TH ROUGH DIA LECTI CAL C R ISES. AS WE H A V E S A I D. A N D TO DO SO U N DER A FA M I LI A R FIGURE. T H E CONJUGAL FA M I LY PLACES TH I S A UT H O R I TY AT THE MOST I M M E D IATE EN­ VARIED AND RICH THE U NCONSC IOUS REALITIES I NTEG RATED I NTO THE THE MORE FA M I LY E X P E R I E NC E ARE. TRA N S M I SSION T H I S E FFECT OF THE EGO­ AGA I NST BY OPERATES TAKE. T H E FACT OF A SOCI A L E D UCATION WITH TOTA LITA R I A N C LA I M S DESERV E S TO BE PROPOSED TO THEOR ETIC I A N S NO MATTER W H AT SIDE THEY FOR MED TH A N NO L E S S BY T H E I M AGE OF THE A DU LT ITS THE C O N S T R A I NTS. ACCOR D I N G TO HIS OWN I D E A L. TO OFFER H I M THE LO Y A L E ST C LO S E D FIELD THE IN WHICH TO OUTSIDE OF THESE. R EPRODUCES T H E PLAY OF N A RC I S S I STIC EQUIVA­ LENCES WHERE THE WORLD OF OBJECTS WAS BOR N . IDEAL A IN S E L ECTION THE DRIVES THE THE P R OG R E S S I V E R E A LIZATION CHA RACTER. C A N HE CLA I M TO CURE HIM OF P S YC H I C DEFICIENCIES WITHOUT F I N A L LY AND A BO V E A L L. FROM IT. MOST P U R E LY. MOST H U M A N E LY REALIZE THE CONFLICT OF M A N WITH H I S MOST A RC H A I C AN GU IS H . PARENT OR THE FERMENT THAT ONE CAN GRASP O N LY TH ROUGH CONCRETE A N A LYSIS. THE FACT O F FAM I LI E S OF E M I N ENT MEN OWES TO TH I S PSYC HOLOGICA L PROCESS. THIS IS A LREADY THUS. THE AT THIS POINT ONE CAN EDUCATIONAL ACTION THAT THIS CRITICAL AND S U B V E R S I V E M OV E M E NT W H E R E MAN I S R E A L I Z E D F I N D S ITS M O S T ACTI V E K E R N E L I N THREE CON DITIONS O F T H E CONJ UGA L FA MI LY. AND NOT TO THE A LLEGED H E R E DITY THAT ONE M UST RECOGNIZE I N ESSENTIA LLY RELATIONAL CAPACI­ TIES. T H E MORE IN ORDER TO I N ST I L L A UTHORITY IN THE CLOSEST N EIGHBO R I NG G E N ERATION.COVERS I N H I M PSYC H IC R E FLECTION O F THE MOST ORIGINAL CON DITIONS O F M A N . TRANCE TO TH E C R EATIVE S U B V E RSION. IT I N VO L V E S AND OF A POS ITIVE G I FTS. T H E A N G U I S H THAT M A N E X P RESSES I N THE SENTIM ENTS O F A TOW A R D SECOND. AND M E A SU R E HI MSELF WITH M O ST PROFO U N D FIGURES O F H I S DESTI N Y. CAN LESS THAN MAN IN WESTE R N C U LTURE H I MSELF THE S U P E R I O R ACCO M PL I SH M E NT S OF C H A RAC­ TER-H A P P I N E S S AND CREATION-IN ORDER TO EVER U N D E RSTA N D OUTSIDE T H E A NTI NOM I E S T H A T CONSTITUTE H I S R E LATIONS WITH NATURE AND SOC I ETY. COMPLEX BRINGS CONFRONTATIONS O F T H I S PERIOD THE THE ROLE OF THE F A M I L I A L FOR MATION EFFICIENCY FOR T H E RATIONAL FORMATION O F THE INDIVIDUAL CONSI D E R IN EFFECT. FAC ING T H I S M A N AT T H E EXTRE M E POINT O F T H E SCIENTIFIC ATTITU DE? THE COM PLEX OF THE CONJ UGAL F A M I LY FO R M S THUS. I N OUR T I M E S. IN A FULLER R E A LITY AND UNDER SU PERIOR SUBLIMATIONS O F LOGIC A N D J U STICE.COPE OF SUBLI M ATION TO THE H IGHEST DEGREE. IN ORDER THAT EACH A R R I V E S A T HIS OWN CONCLUSION DESI RES. I S IT POSSIBLE T O U N D E RSTAN D FI RST. TRI UMPH O R IG I N A L W H E R E H E OVE RC O M E S T H I S A N G U I SH. IN THE FORMATION OF MOST G R E A T MEN. A N D I N O R D E R T O A D A PT HIS INDIVIDUAL EXPE RI ENCE AGAI NST TO THE THE MOST CONDITIONS M O ST E L EV A T E D C O N C E PT I O N S COMPLETE SERV ITU DE.

TH E SUBLIME FORTU N E O F G E N I U S P E R H A PS DOES NOT A LONE EXPLAI N WHY I T WAS I N V I E N N A-THE C E NTER OF A JACQUES LACA N TRANSLATED BY A NDREA KAHN 200 . C O N FO R M I N G THIS THE H U M I LIATED. [ T A R I Rl D E F IC I E NC Y C O M E S T O I N STI N C T I V E I M P U LS E S EXHAUST AND TO I NT I M ATELY FA M I LY THE DIA LECTIC IT CONJUGAL SINCE OPERATES DAMAGE [TA R E R l THE DIA LECTIC OF SUBLI MATIONS. F R O M THE L A S T AGNATIC GROUPS OF PEASANT SLAVES TO T H E MOST A N C E IN THE CLASSICAL ERA OF PROGRESS-FROM CORNEI LLE TO PROUDHON: AND I D EOLOGUES WHO R E D UC E D A N D DECADENT FOR M S O F A N U NSTA BLE H O U S E HOLD. WAS N O T TH E A RG U M ENT FOR M E D BY THE C H I E F O F A TOTA LITA R I A N STATE AN IT A RGU M E N T AGAI NST IS A DECLI N E TIED OF THE BY A TO O U R C O N C E PT I O N TRADITIONAL MOST EDUCATION? TO OEDI P U S. THIS D EC L I N E MAYBE C A M E. ALWAYS I N SOME WAY D E F I C I E N T . DIVIDED OR OF C O N C E NTRATION A N D POL I T I C A L CATASTRO P H E . OUR EXPERI ENCE LEADS US TO DESIGNATE T H E PERSONA LITY OF THE FATH E R AS ITS PRINCI PLE DETE R M I NA NT. VERY V I S I BLE.A B S E N T. DEPEN­ DENT U PON THE SOC I A L D EC L I N E OF THE PATE R N A L I MAGO: A DECLI NE CONDITION ED BY A RETU R N OF EXTR E M E EFFECTS OF S OC I A L PROGRESS ONTO THE I N D I V I DUAL: A DEC L I N E A BOVE ALL MARKED I N OUR T I M E S BY THOSE COLLECTIVITIES WHO HAVE MOST ST R O N G L Y F E LT THOSE E F FECTS. N O T TO M E NTION F E U D A L A N D M E RCANTILE PATE R N A L I S M S-THAT A SON OF A JEWISH PATR I A RC H COULD H A V E I M A G I N E D THE OEDIPAL COMPLEX. PRETENDED LOOSE N I NG OF THE FA M I LIA L BOND. THE H E A RT H OF THE PETIT-BO U R ­ IN THE N I N ETEENTH C ENTURY BROUGHT THE MOST SUBVERSIVE C RITIQUES AGAI NST THE PATE RNAL­ I STIC FA M I LY A R E NOT THOSE WHO PRESERVE THE LEAST OF ITS WEIG HT. I S IT N O T SIGNI FICANT T H A T T H E FA M I LY S H O U L D BE REDUCED TO ITS BIOLOGICAL GROU PING TO THE DEGREE THAT IT I NT E G R A T E S THE H IG H EST S I N C E THE T I M E OF THE FI RST F R E U D I A N D I V I N A ­ T I O N S T H E S E N E U ROSES S E E M T O H A V E EVOLVE D I N THE D I R ECTION OF A CHARACTER I STIC COMPLEX.H E FA I LS TO RECOGN I ZE HIS OWN M OV E M E NT. N E U ROSIS. ON E M U ST R E LATE THE APPEA RANCE OF PSYCHO­ A N A LY S I S ITSELF TO ITS C RISIS. FOR E XA M PLE. IT I S THE K E R N A L OF T H E G REATEST N U M B E R OF N E UROSES-W H E R E ONE C A N RECOG N I Z E THE G R EAT CONTEMPORARY N E U ROSIS. ECONO M I C FOR M AND ITS G E N E RA LIZATION. GEOSI E . IT IS WORTH NOTING ITS LITERARY A N D MORAL RADI­ STATE THAT WAS A M E LTI NG POT OF TH E MOST D I V E R S E FA M I LY FORMS. WHERE D U E EQUALLY TO THE SPEC I FICITY OF ITS C U LTURAL PROGRESS? BUT A LARGE N U M B E R OF PSYC HOLOGICAL EFFECTS SEEM.LED TO PERCEIVE THE ROLE O F THE I MAGO OF THE FATH ER I N A STR I K I NGLY EVIDENT M A N N E R. OR W H E T H E R I N T H E OBJECT H E PROPOSES FOR H I S R E VOLT. FROM THE MOST A RC H A I C T O THE M O S T E V O L V E D . S I N I ST E R G O D M OT H E R S AT THE C RA D L E OF RELATIVE GROWTH OF MATR I MON I A L EXIGENCI ES. T H E DOM I N ANT WE ARE NOT A MONG THOSE AFFLICTED BY THE FOR M S OF N E U ROSES AT THE END OF THE LAST CENTURY REVEALED THEIR I NTIMATE D E P E N D E NCY U PON THE CONDITIONS OF THE F A M I LY. FALSE. CONSTITUTES PSYCHOLOGICAL C R I S I S. IN THE A M E RICAN WAY OF LIFE. FOR WHAT IT I S WORTH. TO US. I M POTE N C E A N D UTOPIA E N C LOSING H I S A MBITION-WH ETHE R IT STI F L E S IN HIM THE C R E ATIONS AWAITED B Y T H E WO RLD I NTO W H I C H H E NO M A TT E R WHAT A ITS FUTURE.

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T E R M S. F L A G E L L ATION H. SEXUAL PLEASURE OTH­ U A LLY THROUGH WATC H I N G W E A R I N G C LOTH I NG OF T H E O P POSITE S E X ERS E NGAGE IN SEX ACTS 2. SEXUAL A D DICTION TO S P E C I F I C FOR M S OF STI M U ­ LA T I O N -G U N S. R E C E I V I N G S E X U A L STI M ­ ULATION BY RUBBING A­ PRACTICES? G A I N ST SO M EON E OR SOME­ TH E R E WAS A TI M E WHEN A N YTH I N G BUT TH E THING M I S S I O N A R Y POSITION W A S CONSI D E R E D I M MO R A L A N D P E R V E R S E . M ATCH THE F O L LOW I N G TERMS WITH TH E I R C O R R ECT 4. EXPERIENCING SEXUAL CAREFU LLY C H OO S I N G PLEA S U R E T H ROUGH P A I N A N S W E R. BESTIALITY A. ET CETERA STI M U LATI NG TALS HER 202 . S U R P R I S I N G L Y . W R I T E T H E LETT E R OF THE CORR ECT D E F I N I TI O N TH E R E READ ARE N E XT MORE TO THE TERM IT D E SC R I B E S . SEXUAL R E LA T I O N S WITH A N I M A LS !S. VOY E U R I S M G. BON D A G E E. A P E R SON W H O I S S E X ­ STI M U L A T E D BY 1 . U ROLAG N I A F. T R A N S VE S T I T E C .DO YOU K NOW C O R R ECT T E R M S FO R W H AT SOM E M A Y C A L L S E X "PE R V E R­ SIONS"? HOW M UCH DO YOU K NOW A BOUT UN USUAL SEX 3. B . 'FA I R E M I N ETTE' D. TH I S ATTITU DE I S STI LL H E L D BY M A N Y PEOPLE TODAY. U N I FO R M S . H O W FA M I LI A R A R E YOU WITH SO-C A L L E D " P ER V E R S I O N S ?" D O YOU KNOW T H E M BY T H E I R P R O P E R N A M E S OR H A V E YO U B E E N TRA I N E D T O R ECOI L AT T H E V E R Y M E NTION OF A S E X PRACTICE THAT IS OUT OF TH E O R D I N A RY? TO TEST T H E ACC U RACY OF YOU R KNOWLEDGE. FORC I B LY HAVING SEX RELATIONS WITH A V I R G I N 6. S O YOU R PARTN E R P R I SO N E R D E F I N I T I O N S THAN B E FO R E 7 . SCATOLOGY B. O S P H R E S IOLAG N I A I. G I V I N G A WOM A N S E X U A L PLEAS U R E BY ORALLY GENI­ 9. SEXUAL PLEASURE A SEX THROUGH KEEPING D E F I N ITIONS.

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H 4. G 1 6. SEXUAL I N T E R E ST IN THE A NSWERS EXC R E M ENT 1. PEDOPH I L I A N. F 6. SEX W I TH T H R E E PEOPLE AT ONCE 1 2. S E X U A L STI M U L A T I O N G I V E YOURSELF ONE POINT FOR EACH CORRECT A N SWER. THROUGH B E I NG U R I NATED U PO N 204 . ALGOLAG N I A O. J 1 3. 0 GRATIFI CATION 1 6. Q. L 1 0. R WHIPPED FOR SEXUAL 8. W H I P P I NG 7. FROTTAGE J. 0 2. Q 1 2. P OR BEING 1 5. TROI LISM P. BY S E X U A L GRATI FICATION S M E LL I NG C E R TA I N ODORS 1 3. N 1 4. M 9. E X H I BITION I S M K. FETI SHISM M. ANAL I N T E RCO U R S E . C 1 1. A PERSON WHO I S SEX­ U A LLY STIM ULATED BY I N ­ FLICTING PA I N R. B DREN 5. SEX WITH YOUNG C H I L­ 3. G A I N I NG S E X U A L PLEA­ SURE O N E'S ERS THROUGH E X POSING E S P E C I A L LY P E R FO R M E D ON A YOUNG BOY B Y A M A N G E N I T A L S TO OTH­ 1 1 . A 1 5. PEDERASTY L. I 1 4.1 0.

R E INTRODUCE IT IN MY REACTION WORD A TT E M PT E D NOT TO TH E OWN THE SECO N D J U ST I FICATION FOR T H E E M E RG E NCE. I N T H E WAY O F BECO M I N G S O BY A C E R T A I N M A R X I ST ETHIC. FOR A LW A Y S FACT. ART OF A L R E A DY DREW ATTENTION TO THESE TH I NG S W H E N R E F E R R I NG E X A M PLE. IN TRYING TO ESTA BLISH SOME KINO OF D I V I SION BETWEEN "PLEAS U R E" AND A TACTIC A L MOVE IN T H E O R D E R OF IDEAS E NTAI LS EXPLANATIONS. T HROUGHOUT T H E WORK OF PREDELICTION. BY A S K I N G ON E'S SELF FOR I N STANCE IF SUCH AND SUCH A TEXT FALLS I N TO T H E H EDON I S M . FOR TH E RETU R N OF T H E WORD "PLEA S U R E" IS AND CENSURE PERSO N A L F I E LD. THEN A FTER B E I N G THE WORD PLEASURE CROPPED UP IN WHAT I TAKEN OVE R BY A POS I T I V I ST.VOCA B U L A R Y OPPOSITION P L E A S U R EIJOUISSANCE DISCREDITED AND FRUSTRATED FOR CENTURI ES.FA S H I O N E D TERM TH E M E H E DO N I S M . I H A D T H E FEELING THAT I NTELLEC T U A L TO LANGUAGE S U B M ITTED TOO WHICH BY MORALITY. A UTH E N T I C A LLY M A R X I ST A S N O ONE W I L L DENY. SO FAR A S I AM CON C E R N E D THEN. I TAKE ON THE R E S PO N S I B I L I T Y RETURN TO OF A A C E R TA I N THESE OPPOSITIONS SHOULD NOT B E TA K E N TOO LITERALLY. OF TH E AND P A R TI C U LA R LY T O T H E L I V I NG. D E NOTA T I O N AND C O N NOTAT I O N . G I R D S ITSELF WITH R E A SO N S. RATI O N A L I ST WOULD C A LL A TACTI C A L WAY. IN TO B R EC H T AND HIS CIGARS. OFTEN T R I E D T O C R EATE SUCH B R ECHT. PLEASURE. T H E FI RST R EASON I S T H A T S UBJECTI V E LY I A C C O R D A C E RTAI N I M PORTA N C E TO WHAT COMES U N D E R T H E H E A D I NG OF T H A T S O M E W H A T O L D . THE P H I LO S O P H Y 205 . EASILY E M PT I E D MORALIZING IMPERATIVES IT O F A L L I NOTION TO O F JOUISSANCE. EXTR E M E C O N S I D E R A TI O N IS GIVEN TO OPPOSITIONS: FOR E X A M P L E BETWEE N WRITING AND SC R I B B L I N G . IN POS I N G T H E COMES UP PROB L E M A OF ONE A G A I NST VERY TOP I C A L TH E M E F A M I L I A R T O PSYCHOA N A LY S I S A N D OF I NTEREST T O WHAT I S C A L L E D THE A V A N T GARDE. THE F R U STRATION WAS. T H A T IT A L LOWS FOR A C E RTA I N E X PLORATION OF THE HUMAN S U BJ ECT. I N D I R ECTLY I THE OPPOSITION P LE A S U R EfJOUISSANCE I S ONE OF THOSE D E L I B E R A T E LY FOR WHICH I HAVE I A RT I F I C I A L OPPOS I T I O N S HAD A C E RT A I N " J O U I S SA N C E . N O T T O F R U STRATE B U T T O DE­ F R U STRATE IT. OR IS A LAS. FIRST B Y C H R I ST I A N MORALITY. " JOUISSANC E .

. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO WORDS IS NEVE RTH E LESS REAL. T O GIVE A N EXAM PLE. TO THE C O D E OF THE PROBABLE. THAT I S T O S A Y TEXTS NOT O N TH E S I D E O F T H E PROBABLE. I N OTH E R WORDS. I S A WAY OF BEING H A PPY. N O T B EC A U S E H E S P E A K S ABOUT JOUISSANCE.N A T U R A L . CASE. THEY ARE OPPOSITIONS C H I E FLY USEFUL IN CLEARING A PATH. W H I C H M E A N S THAT H E R E "PERVERSION" DOES NOT HAVE A PSYC HOA N A LYTIC R I GO U R-S I N C E FOR P S Y C H O A N A L Y S I S D R U G S A R E N OT ST R I CT L Y CLASSIBLE A S P E R V E R SIONS." OR OF CERTA I N FORM S OF PERVERSION. FOR TEXTS O F JOUISSANCE S U C H C RITERIA A R E STI LL OBSCURE. IT I S CERTA I N THAT BY A H U G E MAJORITY T H E TEXTS W E KNOW A N D LOVE A R E BROADLY SPEA K I NG TEXTS O F PLEASURE. TEXTS OF J O U I S S A N C E ARE A V A NT-G A R D E TEXTS. W H E N I T R Y T O PRODUCE T H I S SHORT W R I T I N G B Y F R A G M ENTS. IN GOI NG A STEP FURTHER: QUITE S I M PLY I N SPEAKING A N D W RITING. FOR E X A M PLE. E X P A N S I V E N E S S . FO R M U LAS. AND I AM NOT ALONE IN UPHOLD I NG IT. DRAGGING I M PL I E S A TEMPORALITY WHICH LAYS STRESS ON THE E NCOU NTER. I T I S T H E BODY IN A STATE OF A L E RT. IT IS. OF THE SUBJECT." DRAGG I NG A TEXT M U ST BE S E E N AS THE C A PT U R E O F P H R A S E S . HOWEVER I N C E NDIARY I T MA Y BE-I TH I N K OF SA D E FOR E X A M PLE (ONE M I GHT BE T E M PTED TO PLACE SADE A MONG TH E TEXTS OF J O U I S SA N C E . B Y MEANS OF WHICH THE SUBJECT. I T I S THE LUCK OF T H E GAME. THE TEXT OF JOUISSANCE H A S T O BE I N A SENSE U N R EADABLE. DRAGGING I S THE JOURNEY OF DESIRE. CITATIONS. WHEREAS TEXTS O F JOUISSANCE A R E EXT R E M E LY R A R E . . QUESTING I N ACCORDANCE WITH ITS OWN DESIRE. IT MUST COME A S A JERK. B U T PROVI S I O N A L L Y A T L E A ST. BUT OF "DRUGG I NG. A LTHOUGH O N E CAN I MAGI N E AESTHETIC CRITERIA SPEC I E S. F R A G M E N T S . O R A QUEST FOR A TYPE O F FICTION. BECAUSE IT IS S U B M I TT E D TO T H E CONSTR A I N T OF T H E EPOCH. T H E SADIAN TEXT. . W H I C H A F F I R M S I T S E L F TH ROUGH V A L U E S OF C O M FORT. WE MAY F I N D THESE TEXTS DISAGREEABLE OR AGGRESSIVE. THIS THEME OF JOUISSANCE BORDERS ON OTHE R TH E M ES. FO R A B R I E F I N STA NT. U N D E RGOES THE EXPERI ENCE OF PRODI­ GALITY WHICH I S STRICTLY SPEAKING JOUISSANCE. T H E A N T I ­ D O M A I N OF R E A D I N G C L A S S I C A L W R I T E R S . R EPETITION I S A M A LE F I C E N T T H E M E F O R M E ." AS I F T H E F I R S T E N C O U N T E R POS S E S S E D A N EXTRAO R D I N A R Y P R I V I LEGE O F ITS OWN: THAT O F B E I NG OUTSIDE A L L R E PETITION. T H E S T E R EOTY P E . T O A QUEST A FTER TEXTS FOR E X A M PLE. B U T ITS C O N T E N T IS A B SO L U T E L Y I N A UG U RAL. I CITED THE WORD "PERVERSION" A FTER TWO ALLUSIONS TO HASHISH A N D HOMOSEXUALITY. I PUT M Y S E L F IN THE POSITION OF A N A UTHOR WHOSE READER GOES DRAGGING. ON THE "FI RST T I M E. WHATEVER C O M E S TO LIGHT IN THE S U R P R I S E OF THE "FIRST TIM E. I N A WAY. . PERVERSION I S THE SEA RCH FOR A P L E A S U R E THAT C A N NOT BE T U R N E D TO THE PROFIT OF SOC I A L E N DS O R THE I N FACT IT'S D I F F I C U LT TO EXPLA I N B E C A U S E . B U T BY T H E W A Y H E SPEAKS OF IT!. PERVERSION M U C H THOUGHT . THE PLEASURE OF L OV I N G W H I C H D O E S NOT F I G U R E I N V I E W O F 206 . I S T H E A NT I ." B E L O N G S. R E ITERATION. F O R EXAM PLE T H E T H E M E NOT OF DRUGS STRICTLY SPEAKI NG. R E M A I N S A TEXT OF PLEA S U R E. A N D THEN. DRAGGING THE N AT U R A L AS R E P ET I T I O N . T H E T H E M E OF S H O R T W R I T I N G . OBVIOUSLY. • R E P E A T E D . JOUISSANCE I S THE SYSTEM OF READING. FOR THAT REASON D R AGGING I S A NOTION I CAN EASILY TRA NSFER FROM THE ORDER OF THE E ROTI C QUEST WHERE I T O R I G I N ATES.. R EPETITION. BUT A M U C H S O U G H T. I T I S A N I M PORTANT THEME FOR ME.A N D TH E R E'S NO S A Y I N G I F THEY A R E NOT ALSO TEXTS OF PLEASURE. ABOUT. I N SPITE O F EVERYTHI NG. ABANDONS ITSELF. I N STEAD OF A FF I R M I NG.A FT E R L U C K . EASE-A N D I N M Y BELONGS T O THE PERHAPS I F I TALK A BOUT D RAGG I NG I'LL A R R I V E AT A D E F I N I TION. DRAGGING THAT SAID. • IN THE FRAG M E NT FROM WHICH THIS PHRASE IS TA KEN. FOR J U DG I NG TEXTS OF PLEASURE. NOT ONLY TO O U R REGISTER OF I M AGES A N D IMAGI NATION. PLEASURE IS LINKED WITH THE CONSISTENCY OF THE SELF. S P I E D O N . AS OPPOSED TO THIS. OR OF E N U NC I ATION. THEY TRA N S PORT U S A N D PROVOKE THAT PRODIGA LITY OF THE LOSS OF SE LF. T H E ACT O F DRAGGING I S A N ACT IF O N E SET OUT TO DO A PROV I S IONAL SORTI NG OF TEXTS ACCOR DING TO THOSE TWO WORDS. QUITE S I M PLY. WHERE IN MANY R E S PECTS HE "PERVERSION. BUT ON T H E LEVEL OF LANGUAGE ITSELF .CATEGORY OF PLEASURE OR JOUISSANCE.

ONE OF THE P E R V E R SIONS FETI S H I S M (TH E M E THAT C A N B E FOU N D I N THE W I S H FOR SEGMENTED WRITINGI. BY WAY OF F E T I S H I S M . A H A P P Y P E R SON. A PSYCH O A N A LYTIC SPECI FICITY SOMETH I NG OF A TURNING POINT B E TW E E N CAN B E RE·INTRODUCED I NTO T H E G E N E R A LITY OF THE TERM. P E R V E RSION. PSYCHOANA LYT I C A L LY. AND IN SO FAR AS. I M PL I E S A ROLA ND B A RT H E S 207 . B Y H I M SELF AS B E I NG A CH ASTER BOOK T H A N THE THOUGHT. I MAGINA RY. GIVEN ITS FI RST PRODUCTION I N RB. THAT OF THE I M A G I N A RY. PLEASU R E OF T H E TEXT: S I NCE TH E R E I S N O T T H E PROBLEM O F J O U I SSA N C E W H I C H P R E DO M I NATES. P R A C T I S E D G R A T U I TO U S LY. E M PHASIS O N T H E FACT THAT T H E P E RVERT IS. FREUDIAN THOUGHT PUTS BUT TH A T O F TH E I M AGE. W H I C H F O R M E I S LI N K E D EVEN MORE CLOSELY W I TH PROBLEMS OF TH E I NCLUDING H I M SELF.PROCREATION. BY OF A S E M I N A R AT TH E ECOLE DES H A U TES ETUDES O N THE LA NGUAGE OF LOVE. VOLU PTU A R I E S IT B E LO N G S TO AN ORDER OF THE PA RTIC U L A R R E LATIO N S H I P ON WITH THE M OTH E R . IS C E RTA I N UNDER FRAGM ENTS THE SIGN FROM A OF SORT PERVERSE WRITI NG. ONE COULD CONSI D E R RB. IS N E V E RTHELESS. DERABLE I NTEREST TO M E AT THE MOM ENT. P E R V E R S I O N I S D I VORC E D FROM N E U ROSIS. T H E RB. BECA USE OF THAT. A S A MATTER OF FACT. A CCOR D I N G MAJOR TO FREUDIAN IS FETI S H I ST TH I N K I NG A N D T H I N K I NG THE I M A G I N A RY. W H I C H TOU C H E S A NOTH ER T H E M E OF CONSI· TH E M E OF PRODIGA L I TY. ON THE WHOLE. THUS. BY H I M SELF. OF THE I M AGI N A RY. AND I'M BEGI N N I N G ALL I H AVE DO N E SINCE THE BDOK ON JAPAN RB. WHAT I N T E R ESTS M E AT THE PRESENT M O M E N T IS TH E FIELD OF THE I M A G I N A RY.

GOOD FOR YOU. THAT I AM HAVING FUN: I F I CONTI N U E SPEAKING IN TH E SA M E TON E IT I S NOT S I M PLY FORCED. . I N STANT LONGER: I A M FORCED T O EXPLA I N W H Y TH I S COMES A BOUT AS. T H I S I S TH E FI RST TIME THAT I A M FIVE M I N UTES LATE. BY THIS I MEAN U N D E R TH E A B N O R M A L L Y GOOD. TH I S I S T O SAY. WHICH I S TO SAY A QU ESTION POSED A BOUT WHAT I S LANGUAGE. T H I S SHALL NOT BE CAUSED BY MY ABNOR M A L STATE: RATHER IT SHALL BE -WHArs IN 1T1 WITH I N THE LI N E OF WHAT I I NTENDED TO SAY TO YOU. . G I V E N A L L T H E F U S S . YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I SPOKE OF SOM ETH I NG TO DO WITH A S U M MATION OF THE BORRO M E A N KNOT. YOU SHOULD EXC U S E ME.STE A N N E Xci> XE ELSEWH E R E I OON'T OBVIOUSLY PAY TOO M UCH ATTENTION TO M Y LISTE N E RS. ACTUALLY. THERE I S A QU ESTION THAT R E M A I N S LANGUAGE HAVE TO BE U N S ETTLED. ( A N D IT WOU L D S U R P R I S E M E IF TH E R E ARE N OTI. I WOULD HOPE THAT THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN L I STE N I N G TO ME FOR SO M E TI M E W I LL EXPLA I N TO THE I N ITIATES THAT TH I S IS THE FI RST T I M E IT HAS HAPPENED TO M E.J LATE FOR THE FI RST T I M E . IT I S SOl I AM GOI NG TO TRY TH I S E V E N I NG TO LIVE UP TO YOU R EXPECTATIONS. I N W H I C H C A S E . ESPEC I A LLY SINCE I SAID -WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1 C E RTA I N THAT. I AM ALSO H E R E AND T H IS I S GOOD THAT I FEEL • . OF THE U NCONSC I O U S. -WHAT I S A TOPOLOGY1 208 . THIS I S ENOUGH (FOR • • . 1. ONE CHAIN IN THREE: I F (. AFTER A L L I A M N O T S U R E THAT. H A D SA I D. I F A L L OF A SUDDEN TH IS SET-UP EVER CONC E R N I NG THE CONDITION. AS I A QUESTION I N FLUENCES OF A SLIGHT TEM PERATU RE A N D SOME DR UGS. . IT C O M E S FROM A TOPOLOGY. DOES APPROAC H E D I N ITS G R A M MAR. YOU ARE H E R E . I F SOME OF YOU WERE HERE LAST TI M E . O N E R I N G W E R E DETAC H E D FROM T H I S C H A I N . . CHANGED. . S I M PLE AS IT I S. THE OTH E R TWO WOULD NOT HOLD TOGETH E R FOR O N E EXC U S E ME.

THAT IS THAT IT I S TO TH E EXTENT THAT THESE TH REE TERMS ARE THREE THAT WE SEE ( T H AT) THE FUNCTIO N A L I ZATION. WHICH I T TU R N S OUT I QUOTED A FTE R J A KOBSON D I D A N D THAT. C E RTA I N FORMS. I WOULD A DD. B E FORE S H E BROUGHT OUT TH I S BOOK CALLED THE SECOND SEX. A N D W H I C H O N LY HOLDS TO BE CHA I N E D TO OTH E R S . LET US SAY. ( A N D) RE LATIONS. WHAT IS A TOPOLOGY? HOW N I C E T H I S PERSON lSI A TOPOLOGY I S A THING THAT HAS A MATHE­ MATICAL D E F I N I TI O N . IT IS C E RTAIN THAT THERE WOULD BE SOM ETH I N G INFI NITELY LANGUAGE SATI SFYI NG IS IN SOM E IN CO N S I D E R I N G THAT THE TOGETH E R A L O N E . AS IT T U R N S O U T I H A D KNOWN FROM BEFORE • . TH I S TOPOLOGY. NO MATTE R WHAT A R E NOWNED AUTHOR TH I N KS ABOUT IT-A R E N OWN E D A UTHOR WHO I MUST SAY I N H E R TI M E . A N D WE KNOW A LITTLE ABOUT IT A FTER A L L IF ONLY FROM EXPERI ENCE. H A D BELIEVED. IT SEE M S TO ME THAT THERE IS ALREADY AN COMES ON TO ITSELF. A R E D E D U C E D FROM THESE C U RVES. LErS SAY. A DVA N C I N G TO IS SOM ETH I N G RADICALLY ATTACH E D TO T H E P U RELY TOPOLOGI­ CAL O R I G I N OF LANGUAGE. THIS IS WHAT WAY MODELED ON FUNCTIONS THAT A R E S U PPOSED T O BE PHYSICAL REA LITY. CAN HELP FURTH E R B E FO R E Y O U THIS EVENING IS TH I S : T H E FUNCTION CA LLED SEXUA LITY IS DEFI N E D IN AS MUCH MATHEMATICS BUT US TO CONCE I V E SUCH. SOMETH I NG WHICH WOU L D P E R M I T US TO CONCEIVE OF LA NGUAGE AS.-AH . T H I S IS. FROM WHICH WO U L D R E S U LT 209 . BECAUSE F R O M TH I S E X A M P LE. STRICTLY SPEAKI NG. . I S TIED TO THE RELATIONS-AND R I G HT. F R O M THE FACT OF ITS . WHY DOES LANGUAGE ASSEMBLE U N D E R TH E SA M E CATEGORY FU NCTIONS W H I C H C A N ONLY BY THE DISTORTED R E LATIONS. A S I POINTED PA R E N T H E S I S . THAT I S THAT ONE I S OBLIGED TO PUT U N D E R THE SAME TERM V E R BS AND VERY DIFFERENT TY P E S OF -WHAT DOES THIS M E A N ? ACTIONS. THE QUESTION STAYS SUSPEN DED. BY TH E NON-METRIC OBSTACLE I N CONCEI VING TH I NGS LIKE TH IS. . LEAVI NG IT UP TO YOU. TA K E N IN R E LATIONS. . BETWE EN THE OTH E R TWO. THAT THIS I S WHAT IS MEANT BY T H E BOR RO M E A N KNOT. THAT I S . I S A R ELATION. IT IS COURSE IN TH I N G SOM ETH I NG B E I NG H A P P E N S TO THE BIAS OF SPEAKING IS TH E P R E S E NT THE FACT THAT UNDER THE S E X U A LITY. I N T H A T WHICH I S P U R E L Y A N D S I M P LY COM U N ICATION (OF) P H E NOMENA OF OF SOM E U N KNOWN (TO M E ) ORIENTATION (BECAUSE TO TELL THE TRUTH I H A D NOT YET STARTED TO TEACH A N YT H I NG) H A D BELIEVED SHE R E F E R R E D T O ME B E F O R E S H E P U T O U T THE SECOND SEX. THAT IS IN AS TH E FU N D A M E N TAL WHICH I SC H E M E TRY OF WHAT A THIS IS A BOUT WILL TO PUSH LITTLE S I G N I FYI NG COMBI NATION. A N D THIS TRIES AND C E R TA I N LY OR N OT WITHOUT F A C I L I TA T E D SOM EO N E HAVING ALREADY FRAYED CERTA I N PATHS. SOM ETH I N G LIKE T H E E C H O OF P H Y S I C A L P H E N O M E N A . S E X E S A R E TWO. SOMEONE THAT I H A V E QUOTED." EACH ONE IS A CLOSED TH I N G. THIS I S THE A F FA I R I N WHICH I ABSTA I N FROM TREA D I NG. A CASE O F THOSE K I N DS OF SUPPLE BE CO N C E I V E D OF IN TH E I R ORIGIN UNDER DIFFERENT E M ERGING MODES? CI RCLES WHICH CONSTITUTED M Y "I D E M A N D YOU TO D E N Y ME THAT WHICH I OFFER YOU. TO FIND IN CERTA I N CU RVES. IT IS THIS WHICH FI RSTLY DIVERSE G R A M MATI C A L F U NCTIONS. OF ITS MATHEMATICAL I N S E RTION. BECA USE OF SOM EONE. FOR MY PART WHAT YOU I AM IN TH E COU R S E WHICH OF IS PRESENCE OF T H E T H I RD. SPEA K I N G BEING SPEAKING SOM E­ TH ING WHICH HAPPENS TO SEXUA LITY OR DOES THE SOMETH I N G HA PPEN TO SEXUA LITY BECAUSE H E IS A SPEA K I N G B E I NG. N OT H I N G HOLDS N EVERTHELESS. N A M ELY SOM E O N E N A M E D RENE THOM. S U PPLE.THAT I S TO SAY NOT WITHOUT RESORTING A LSO TO M A TH E M A T I C S TO FIND. S H E C A L L E D M E O N THE TELE PHONE T O SAY T O M E T H A T ASSUREDLY S H E H A D N E E D O F MY COUNSEL TO RESONANCE W H I C H WOU L D B E C U RVES C E RTA I N WOU LD GENIZE WHICH IN ORDER TO E L A BORATED (BY) HAVE VALUE IN A ORDER OF FUNDAM ENTAL RESSEMBLE. TO A P P ROACH T H E QUESTION OF LANGUAGE NOT FROM AS UNDER THE PURE AS THE S E M A NTIC BIAS. E V E N I F TH I S REA LITY I S ONLY (ATTA I N ­ A B L E ) THROUGH THE BI A S OF A MATH E MATICAL SERVED TO D E M ON STRATE M Y LAST S E M I N A R-IS T IED TO THE R E LATIONS OF PURE S I G N I FYI NG. UNDER THE SEMANTIC M U C H A S WE KNOW SOMETH I NG ABOUT IT. I TH I N K I A M ABLE TO TAKE ACCOUNT OF THIS TOPOLOGICAL OR I G I N BY TH E R E IS A N OTH E R OF WAY TO A PP ROACH THE THIS IS THE FACT THAT WHICH IT IS E S S E NTI A LLY TI E D TO LA N G U A G E -A N D P R E S E NT. WE KNOW FOR EXAMPLE THAT T H E ANGLE. AND THE HOMO­ SAME SECO N D A R I LY SO AS TO BE CLARIFY WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE PSYCHO­ ANALYTIC T R I B UTA RY TO HER WOR K.

THI NGS CONCERNING WHAT CALLED H ETEROSEX U A L I TY. I N G R E E K . G R E E K D I A LECTS WHOSE N A M E S I W I L L SPA R E YOU. R E PLAC I NG I N WHAT I S A I D EACH O N E BY A N Y O N E AT ALL. I DO NOT N E E D TO RECALL WHAT "TO K N OW" M EA N S IN TH E I NTERVI EWS WITH ME. H ETEROS WHICH IS SAID IN CERTA I N THE C H I N ES E FOR A LONG TI M E A PP E A L E D TO TWO F U N D A M E NTAL T I V E LY-I PUT ESSENCES A BO V E THE WHICH ARE R E S PEC­ ESSENCE. M UST IT. O F E A C H F R O M O N E S I D E T O COUNT BRINGS US. AT T H E POINT WH E R E WE ARE I N O U R STATE M E N T CONC E R N I NG TH I S SEXUA LITY. BUT TH E F U N D A M ENTAL MODE OF BEING OF WHAT ONE HOLDS TO B E TH E WORLD. B E L I E V E M E . T H E S U PPOS E D ANIMAL MODEL. S U C H THAT T H E Y S E E M E D T O H A V E D E N I E D H E R T H E POSS I B I L I TY OF HAVING MORE THAN 3 OR 4 I T I S NOT TH E R E .!5 O R STRA IGHTEN OUT MONTHS BEFORE I COULD Q U E STION FOR H E R. LANGUAGE OTH E R W I S E ENTERS TH E I NTO FU NCTION . (RALLIES THE) DE UTEROS. I F Y O U FOLLOW WHAT I JUST A DVA NCED­ BUT (OF) B I S E X U A LITY. SHOULD TAKE SO LONG. IT I S CLEAR THAT T H I S C A N SEEM SU R P R I S I NG. W H I C H BESIDES H A V I NG A L R E A DY B E E N IN P R E P A R ATION. AND EXACTLY MARKS THAT THIS DE UTEROS I S . THE LAWS OF LITE RARY PRODUCTION A R E IMAGE F U R N I S H A S U F F IC I E N T MODEL OF WHAT T H E R E I S T O T H I S R E LATIO N SH I P A N D AT TH E S A M E TI M E O F W H A T TH E R E I S ( O F TH E ) S E X U A L CON S I D E R E D AS N E ED. IT I S OBVIOUS T H A T F O R S O M E TI M E. SHE TH I S MADE THE OBSE RVATION TO M E THAT IT WOULD NOT B E NORMAL THAT A BOOK. THEN. W H A T WE A R E R E F E R R I N G TO AND D O N 'T BELIEVE THAT TH I S GOES W I THOUT 20 6 YEARS AND TH I S IS NOT S A Y I NG. THE THAT TH E R E MOMENT IN IS NO B I B L I C A L S E N S E OF THE WORD. THE A PTITUDE I F I C A N PUT I T TH I S W A Y . BY T H E REFERENCE TO WHAT I'VE CALLED T H E A N I M A L M O D E L. A N D TH I S IS THE Q U E STION. HOW. IT I S PRECISELY FROM TH I S E M PTINESS THAT IT OFFERS TO THE S POKEN WORD WHAT I CALL THE LOC U S OF THE OTH E R . SUCH A FO R M U L A IS P R E C I S ELY WHAT IS NOT I F THERE WAS A N A R TI C U LATABLE R E LATION ON THE S E X U A L LEV E L. I N T H E R E LATION THAT IS CALLED SEXUAL I N TH E SPEA K I NG B E I NG. A P P E A L T O SOM ETH I N G W H I C H I S W R I TT E N AS FOLLOWS. I N T H I S C A S E I F I MAY SAY SO. I N E V E RTHELESS C LA I M AND I UNDE RLI N E THAT WHAT YO U S E E I N THE DI AGRAM I S (EVE RY­ TH ING) THAT THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC EXPE R I ENCE E V I D E N T FROM TH E IDEA SUGGESTED BY THE POINT W H E R E W E ARE. SI NCE A LWAYS THE R E LI' T l O N OF THE ITS NOUS TO SO M ET H I NG I M PRI NT. IS PRECI S E LY. W H ICH I S THE TERM WHICH M E A N S OTH ER.OUT TO H E R THAT IT WOULD H A V E TO BE AT LEAST­ AT BOTTOM TH I S IS A M I N I M U M S I NCE I HAVE B E E N SPEA K I NG FOR W H A T DO W E H A V E . D I STI N G U I S H ITSELF FROM ALL THOSE O F T H E SAME SEX. WHAT HAS A LWAYS BEEN T H E WAY IT WAS. FOR TH IS. TH E BASIS OF WHAT I H A V E FOR SOME TIME BEEN BRINGING OUT FOR YOU I S P R ECISELY TH I S THAT TH E R E IS NO SEX SECON D F ROM SEX. T H E MODE OF R E LATION WHICH I S E N G E N D E R E D FROM S P I R I T A N D THAT H A S B E E N CON S I D E R E D A S MODELING NOT AT A L L S I M PLY THE A N I MA L R E LATION S H I P. AND EXPRESS ITSELF TO ALL THOSE OF TH E OTH E R ? THIS IS KNOW N . I S I F I M IGHT SAY. WE H A V E FOR TH E R E LATION BETWEEN THE SEXES THE A N I M A L OF COPULATION T H A T S E E M S T O U S TO ACC I D E NTA L . SI NCE YOU SEE. TO E M PTY ITSELF I N AS MUCH A S IT I S B E I NG. -NOT O F THIS IS VERY WELL FOR A LL T H E OTH E R S FROM THE OTH E R SIDE. IF TH E R E WAS AN A RTICU LAT­ A B L E R E LATION IN THE S P E A K I N G BEI NG. FOLLOWI N G TH I S . S I GN I FYI NG T H E U N I VE R S A L. IN TH I S C A S E . I AM NOT GOING TO EMBELLISH T H I S B ECA USE A FT E R ALL THAT WOULD DELAY U S FROM S E V E R A L ETYMOLOGICAL R E FER­ ENCES. OR. IT I S PRECISELY THIS. THAT THE WO R D HETEROS. PASSED OVER. LET US R E M E M B E R ON WHAT R ESTS WHAT WE CAN HAVE OF TH E C O N C E PT I O N . I DEC L I N E D THE HONOR. FEM I N I N E (WH AT) I S C A L L E D Y I N I N O R D E R T O O P POSE IT TO YANG. THAT TH E STATEMENT I S P ROM U L­ GATED ACCOR D I N G TO THE SEMANTIC FORM NAMED. THE C H I N ES E . S U C H A N D S U C H A FO R M U LA (AND IN TRUTH. I N THIS POSITION. H A S A LWAYS B E E N C A L L E D T H E MODE. FAR FROM IT. IF I SAY FOR SOME T I M E IT I S THAT I DO NOT KNOW WHETHER THERE WAS A N I N DICATION OF A T I M E I N W H I C H IT W A S A FOR M U LA ) . OR BY NO MATTER 210 . H ETEROS E X U A L ITY. W H A T W E A R E REFERRING TO. N A M E LY T H A T I N W H I C H I S I N SC R I BED TH E EFFECTS OF THIS SPOKEN WORD. WHICH IS E X PE R I E NC E S P A S S I VE WHAT SECOND WHICH TO PUT IS C A L L E D V A R IOUSLY B U T A S S U R E D LY WHOSE MOST COMMON G R E E K DENOM I N ATION IS THAT OF H Y L E .

S U GG ESTS ( R E C OG N I Z E IN C O N D I T I ON A L SOM ETH I NG W H I C H M Y D I SCOU R S E ECHOES WHICH WOU L D NOT BE A S E M B LA NC E ) [T H I S IS T H E TITLE O F M Y S E M I N A R NO. WHAT WOULD THIS BE CALLED. B O Y S STI M U LATE TH E M ­ SELVES. BUT S I M PLY O F THE P U R E DIMENSION OF TH E REA L. ) THAT IS IN EVERY SEXUAL E N CO U N T E R U N IQ U E . WE WOU LD NOT HAVE TH I S ESSENTI A L D I M ENSION WHICH CONSI STS VERY THAT TH E P R E C I S E LY IS IN TH E FACT IT IS NO INCREASE FOR US. THEM. THE R E A R E ROYAL BASTA RDS. I T I S P R E C I S E LY IN THIS SENSE THAT IT I S O N L Y TH E A N I M A L M O D E L T H A T S U STA I N S ITSELF AND A RO U S E S TH E PHANTASM THAT WE H A V E C A L L E D A N I M A LIC. A N EXPERI ENCE WHICH IS NOT E A S Y (BUT W H I C H ) T H E PSYCHOA N A LYST I S ABLE TO PHA NTASM. I F W E WOU LD NOT H A V E T H I S A N I M A L MODEL.L I K E I N T H E R E LATIONS H I P B ETWEEN TH E SEXES. I CERTA I N LY D I D NOT S E E K TO VI BRATE IN YOU TH E EROTIC LYRE. ENCOUNTER OF PSYCHOANALYSIS ALLOWS M E TO ADVANCE. AND THIS B I U N I VOCAL CORRESPO NDENCE. THE ONE I JUST P I N N E D-DOW N WITH T H I S BANAL N A M E . BUT ON P R E C I S E LY WHAT S UGGESTS ANIMALIC THE CONTRARY. I WANT TO STAY CLOSE-CUT TO THE GROUND. N E C E S S I T Y O F W H A T I N T H E S PE A K I N G B E I NG PRODUCES ITSELF OF THE U N IQUE. AS I F NORMAL. TH E Y LOVE T O DOUBLE THEMSE LVES. IF S I M PLY THIS HAS A SMALL VALUE OF AWA K E N I NG. OBJ ECTS SHOULD BE D I STRI BUTED I N TWO WHOLES 21 1 . THE NB: W E CANNOT F ROM T H E START E LI M I NATE THE EXISTENCE OF THESE TWO D I M ENSIONS. N A M E LY TH E R E A R E O N L Y T W O A N I MA LS W H I C H COUPLE TOGETHER. 2 1 ( m A N D W ELLI I N R EPLACING THI S EACH ONE B Y A NYON E AT ALL. AND ONE CAN EVEN SAY THAT THE ANIMAL TH E MODEL IS RECONSTITUTE I T ACCORDING TO OUR OWN IDEA. WE PRESENTATION OF N U M B ERS. I T S E E M S T O ME. I T I S SOME VAGU E OUTLI NE OF ANOTH ER P RESENCE FOR WH ICH. B U T LET US T R Y NOW T O C U T A W A Y A T WHAT THE K I N S H I P OF THE U N I V E R SA LITY HAS TO DO WITH OUR WHAT GIVES THE IN I LL U S I O N TH E OF THE SEXUAL IS AFFAI R. I H A V E ALREADY STRESSED T H A T I N SO-CALLED SEX U A L H U NTING OR C R U I S I N G . TO REPEAT ITSELF. I W I L L R E M I N D Y O U T H A T TH E R ECON S T I T U T E IN IMAGINARY I S WHAT WE ANIMAL M O D E L. THERE I S NO N E E D H E R E T O B R I NG B A C K I NTO PLAY A N Y D I M E N S I ON OF THE V I RTUOUS. ECHOES TO WHAT WE KNOW TO BE E S S E N TI A L TO TH E EXPERI E NCE. SPEAKING B E I NG. T O M A K E U N DERSTOOD T H A T I F I M A I NTAIN (I CALL T H I S CRUDELY. TO BE MORE I NS I STENT H E R E AND TO HOLD MYSELF AT THE L E V E L OF T H E MOST FUNDAM ENTAL HORIZON O F O N E T O ON E T O EACH H I S OWN EACH. NOT THAT FROM WH ICH COM ES AN ECHO OF EROS. IT W I L L NOT SEEM DIFFICULT. IT I S A N ETHOLOGICAL REMARK THAT I MAKE HERE. I A M CERTA I N LY NOT HERE TO A M U S E YOU IN THIS STRA I N . MY GOD. THE B I U N I VOCA L COUP­ LING IS WHAT A PPEARS TO US OF IT. IN AS M UC H A S T H I S ADVANCES THESE S I DES. E NCOU N T E R . THI S REFERENCE IN ITS E LF CONTA I N S NOTH I N G WHOEVER K N OWS THE CONDITIONS OF THE DECISIVE S I NC E AFTER A L L ON E COULD ASSU M E A SERIOUS A I R A N D SAY THAT IT IS PRECISELY THE STIGMA O F A NOMALY. NAM ELY THE STAT E M E N T BY WH I C H R E LATION S H I P SPEAKING BEI NG. WE HAVE A N EXPERIENCE OF T H E I MAGINA RY. AND TH E R E ARE SOME FOR WHOM LANGUAGE DO E SN'T EXI ST. O F COU RSE. A N D FROM TH I S ALONE THAT TH E A N I M A L MODE L IS AROUSED. (BUT) IT I S OBVIOUSLY NOT THESE WHO I NTEREST U S I N TH E ANALYTICAL FI ELD. I F TH I S G I VES YOU AT LEAST THIS DIM ENSION.WHICH ONE. LETS C A L L TH I S THE SOUL TO SOU L. I T I S N O T C R UDE. I F TH E R E S O M ETH I N G THAT ACC IDENT I F I S A Y THAT IT I S EXACTLY FROM THIS. BUT WHICH SOLVES NOTH I N G BECAUSE I T S UFFICES T O R E FLECT ON TH I S TO S E E I N THI S A N A M B IGUOUS I LLUSION W H I C H CAN NOT T H E E A C H ONE T H A T I HAVE U S E D FI RST HAS TH E EFFECT OF RECA LLING TO US THAT TH E EFFECTIVE R ELATION S H I P IS NOT W I TH O U T EVO K I N G T H E UPHOLD ITSELF FOR LONG. TO TH E ANA LYTICAL EXPERI E NCE. NO MATTER WHICH ONE OF ONE OF EVERYTH I N G WHICH MATE R I A LZES THE U N IVERSAL I N THE B E HAVIOR WHICH I S E FFECTIVELY HERD. OR E V E N I F THE CHOICE W E R E B A S E D ON A H A PHAZA R D ENCOUNTER. W E WOULD B E IN TH I S I NDETE R M I N ACY OF WHAT I S CHOSEN IN EACH EVERY TO RESPOND TO EVERY OTH E R . TO SAY THINGS CRUDELY. IT I S THE VERY IT IS CERTA I N THAT I N A DVANC I NG THI S TE RM. OF COU RSE. WE WOU LD BE COM P LETELY IN THE ORDER OF W H AT. I S NOT TO B E ASTO N I S H E D I N A N Y C A S E T H A T THE ENCOUNTER ON T H I S B A S I S SERVES P R EC I S E LY TO BE REPEATED A S U N IQUE. RATH ER IT I S C R U EL. AND WELLI MY GOD. OR SIM PLY: THE NORMAL WAS LOCATED SOM EWHERE. A N D AS FOR G I RLS. OF COURSE: B ECAU S E IT IS CLEAR THAT WE CAN ONLY RECONSTRUCT THROUGH OBSE RVATION. TH E V U LGAR TERM OF FREE-FOR­ ALL (ORGY) IS NOT A BSOLUTELY EXCLUDED.

ITS PO L I T I C A L D I M E N SION SIGNIFICANCE. WHAT DOES TH I S MEAN WHEN A FTER A LL. OF THE TERM ORGAN. CO M E CONCOCTI O N FROM ONE CALLED I SOC R AT E S TO SAY. I F H E COULD HOLD A D I SCOU R S E WHICH I S NOT FOR NOTH I N G AT THE ORIGIN OF THE DISCOU RSE OF I H A V E S A I D THAT WHAT IN THE R E LATIONSH I P O F B E I NG I S STIGMATIZED I N THE D E E PLY S U BVERTED LANGUAGE IS P R EC I S E LY THAT TH E R E IS NO SC I ENCE. I FOR YOU THAT HERE THERE HAVE J U ST NOTED IS NO PLACE TO TO R ETI R E I N ORDER TO A LLOW T H I S DEATH. YESI TH I S R E LATION C A N P R E C I SELY RE-ENTER T H E OT H E R W H I C H I S ABSOLUTELY FOREIGN T O W H A T COULD H A V E B E E N H E R E P U R E LY AND S I M PLY AS ACC E S S O R Y . . THESE C A TA L E P T I C MANI FESTATI ONS OF THE ONE CALLED SOCRATES. A TOOL IT I S A RO U N D T H E TOOL THAT THE A N A LYTI C A L EXPERIENCE I NC I T E S US TO SEE OTH E R E M PTY. IT I S P R EC I SELY ON THE CONTRARY OWING TO T H I S W H I C H RECALLED. IT I S EXACTLY T H I S M E T O ACCENTUATE I DESIG NATE OF THE THE CAPITAL AS O. H I S W I FE T O THE DEG R E E THAT S H E STA R V E D FOR H I M . HOW N E V E RTHELESS I T I S DON E . AN SOMETH I N G HOTH ER. IT HOW DOES U N I V E RSAL U N I V E RSA L WOMAN. IT I S A L R E A D Y W R I TT E N ? SEM BLA NCE. OF THE OTH E R TO ONE. IT I S PRECISELY FOR HAVI NG BROUGHT THE PURE S U B J E CT TO THE PLACE OF THE LONG E R A WAY. T O C A L L IT B Y H E R N A M E . AT T H E POI NT OF H I S D E A T H . BY E V ERYTH I N G W H I C H A N S W E R S TO T H E E M ERGENCE OF A DI SCOURSE WHICH A S S U R E DLY H A S NEVER YET COME TO LIGHT AND W H I C H C A N NOT CONC E I V E OF ITSELF BY PRIOR E M E RG E N C E IN SO FAR FROM TH E P H I LOS O P H I C A L CHANCE. FOR TH E TH I S IS S I M PLY A D E M A N D THE EQUAL D I STRI BUTION OF I N DI V I DUA LS. B U T AT T H E LEVEL WH E R E I P H A L L I C FUNCTION. IT IS A QU ESTION OF BASING THESE RELATIONSH I PS WITH I N U N I V E R SALS. PLACE MYSELF. WE MEAN D I SC O U R S E OF SC I E N C E AS IT IS THE C L I N I C A L LY H YSTE R I C A L: RELATIONSH I P OF WOULD H A V E TH E ( . -HOW LONG I S I T GOING TO LAST1-IT I S NOT FROM ITS POSITION (OF ONE' WHICH WOULD BE LA NGUAGE. TH E R E ARE OR RATH E R TH E R E MIGHT B E TWO U N I V E RSALS D E F I N E D J U ST B Y T H E ESTA B L I S H M E N T OF THE POS S I B I L I T Y OF A I HAVE SAID THAT I F W E C A N SAY THAT THERE I S NO S E X U A L R E LATION. MAN IS R E LATE H I M SELF TO THE QUESTION AND IS N A M ELY THIS SOM ETH I N G BY WHICH THIS S E X U A L R E LATION S H I P DOES NOT C H A R ACTE R I ZE AT L E A ST ONE OF THESE TWO T E R M S. S U P PORT MY D I SCOU RSE ON THE B I U N I VOCITY OF THE COUPLI N G . . . A N D THIS H E COULD DO PRECI S E LY ON ACC O U N T OF THIS D I M ENSION WHICH FOR ME PRESENTED TH E HOTH E R A S SUCH. THIS IS GETTING ACROSS THE D I M E N S I O N OF HATE W H I C H CAN H E R E ENTER I NTO P L A Y . POLITELY B E G H E R I F I R E J ECT TH I S A N C I E N T W R I T I N G U N TH E N A M E' O F 212 . TH I S I S ASSUREDLY NOT IN ALL I N N OC E N C E . AND TH I S IS A N O V E LTY. THAT I REMAIN HERE AND HAVE BEEN ABLE TO I N D ICATION CONC E R N I NG EXACTLY W H E R E THE Q U E STION L I E S THAT WE A R E R A I S I NG. I N SERTION OF LANGUAGE OVER THE MATHE MATI­ CAL R E A L. TH I S R E LA T I O N S H I P H A S A B SOLUTE LY N A M E LY A MODE O F D I SCOURSE W H I C H I S S U R E LY N E V E R THAT OF THE HYSTERIC W H I C H IS BUT THE ONE W H I C H I H A V E I N SC R I B E UNDER A Q U A D R U P A L D I V I S I O N ' A S BEING T H E A N A LYTI C A L D I SCOURSE. O R I N C H I N ESE TE R M I NOLOGY THE YANG ESSENCE. THE WHICH A B A D W A Y OF T U R N I N G E V E R YTH I NG THAT I S S A I D B Y T H E S E X U A L R ELATION. AGA I N . RELATIONSH I P OF ONE TO A NOTHER. EVE RYT H I NG WE H A V E OF DOES N OT .OF O P POSED EQUIVALENCES. THAT H E H A D TO. SEVE R A L S M A L L RELATION S H I PS: T H I S TA KES U P OUR WORDLY L I F E . T H I S PERSON ( . B U T I N A D I M ENSION W H I C H APPEARS T O US TO BE AN I LLUSION. WOU LD NOT BE H. . BY AS W H I C H I S ONLY A N O RG A N . S U P P L E M E N TA R I TY. AND WE WOU L D NOT H A V E T O B R I NG I NTO PLAY TH E U N I VERSAL. O R FOR US T O NOTICE (WH E N ' FOR E X A M PLE. IT IS B E C A U S E TH E EXPERI ENCE. WHO W A S ' H I S W I F E . M A N I FE STLY H YSTE R I C A L . O N E HAS A WHOLE LOT OF R E L A T I O N S H I PS ABOUT T H E S E TO TH E S E R E LATION S H I P S A N D ONE A LSO HAS R E LA T I O N S H I P S . AND WHICH COM E S OUT OF TH I S D I SCOURSE I S THE H E R E T O FO R E U NEVOKED D I M E N SION OF THE NOTH I N G TO DO WITH WHAT I S O R D I N A R I LY CALLED SEXUAL R E LATON SHI PS. MORE TH I S TH I S I S T H E Q U E STION W H I C H I M POSES ITSELF O N US B Y T H E FACT THAT LANGUAGE D E M A N DS VERY PREC I S E LY THAT IT B E THERE WERE NO FOU N D E D FROM H E R E : IF THERE WOULD NO P R EC I S E LY T H E TERM ATTACH E D T O T H E WORD: THE O N E . T O ACCENTUATE THI NGS. REDUCIBLE E I TH E R TO TH I S SOM ETH I N G THAT I S CALLED LONG E R B E A N Y QUESTION EITHER. TH E A C E N TU A TE H I D D E N M E A N I N G BECA U S E IT COMES TO US FROM A F A R . . THAT I T C A N NO LONG E R WRITE ITSELF IN TERMS OF M A L E AND FEMALE ESSENCES. TO A FTER A L L M E RITS TO BE THE M E A N I NG. N A M E LY T H I S H A T R E D OF H I S W I FE. FORCE WHICH WHAT PERHAPS TO N I G H T WOULD MALE.

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I M A I NTA I N THAT THE WAY I N W H I C H O U R POSITIONS OF ARGUMENT A N D FU NCTION ARE WRITTEN ARE

THE oj> O F X A F F I R M S THAT I T I S T R U E -IT I S THE SENSE GIVEN TO TH E T E R M F U NCTION-THAT WHAT RE LATES TO T H E E X E RCISE, IN TH E REGISTER OF THE SEXUAL ACT, COMES FROM TH E PHALLIC

SUCH THAT WHAT I S POSED A S TR UTH CAN ONLY N EGATE BY PASS I N G I N TO T H E REALM OF THE

FALSE PRECISELY WHAT I S UNTENABLE HERE, THIS I S THE SO-CALLED N EGATI VE RELATION, BECA USE AT N O MATTER WHAT LEVEL, LOWER O R H IG H E R , THE STATE M E N T POS E D OF TH E AS F U NCTION TRUTH, OR AS PHALLIC IS AS

FU NCTION AGA I N , I T I S PRECISELY I N AS M U C H AS I T IS A M ATTER OF T H E PHALLIC FU NCTION FROM

WHATEVER S I D E WE SIDE OR FROM

LOOK AT, I M E A N FROM O N E OTHE R , THAT S O M ETH I N G TWO TWO

EITHER

P R E C I S E L Y,

THE

DEVIATION; BECAUSE AFTE R A LL, THE T R U E TRUTH WOU LD B E EXACTLY THAT WHICH DOESN'T WRITE

SOLICITES DI FFER,

U S T O A K S THEN. IS

HOW D O THE

AND T H I S

PREC I SE LY W H A T THE

ITSELF, THAT W H I C H H E R E C A NNOT WRITE ITSELF EXCEPT IN A FORM WHICH CONTESTS T H E PHALLIC FU NCTIO N , IT IS IS THE NOT TRUE THAT OF THE THE PHA LLIC SEXUAL

FOR M U LA S IN TH E D I A G R A M SAY,

I F I T I S PROVED FROM THE FACT THAT TO DOM I N ATE

FUNCTION

FOU N DATION

213

R E LATION:

IN

THESE

TWO

L E V E LS

WH I C H

STA Y

F U NCTI ON. A N D SITUATES H E RSELF T H E R E ONLY A S TH E NOT- A L L TO B E S U B J UGATED.

I N D E P E N D E NT A S SUCH. IT IS NOT A MATTER AT A L L OF M A K I N G O N E THE N EGATION OF THE OTH E R B U T ON TH E CONTRARY OF M A K I N G ONE THE OBSTAC L E OF THE OTH E R . AGA I N ST THAT WHICH YOU SEE

WHAT

IS

STRANGE

I S T H E THE

D I S J U NCTION

NO

LONG E R H O L D S : I F YOU R E M E M BER. THE D I S J U NC­ TION ONLY TAKES ON VALUE BY VI RTU E OF THE

R E D I STRI BUTED: IT I S PRECISELY AN I T T H A T EXI STS A N D A N I T THAT DOES NOT EXI ST: IT IS A WHOLE ON TH E ONE S I DE. AND ALL X. THE DO M A I N OF WHAT IS M A L E D E F I N I N G lTSELF BY THE PHALLIC FU NCTION: THE DI FFERENCE IN TH E PO S I T I O N OF THE

FACT THAT TWO PROPOSITIONS CAN NOT B E FALSE AT TH E S A M E T I M E: LET U S SAY. OF THE STRONGEST OR THE W E A K E ST. I T I S A S S U R E D LY THE STRONGEST R E LA T I O N D I F FI C U LT IN TO THAT STI R IT IS WHAT IS THE MOST TH E R E

A R G U M E NT I N T H E PHA LLIC POSITION O R F U N CTION I S P R E C I S E L Y THAT IT I S NOT EVERY WOMAN W H I C H WRITES ITSELF. FAR FROM TH E ONE ITSELF

TOGETH ER.

BECA USE

M U ST B E A M I N I M U M F O R THERE TO B E D I S J U NCTION. THAT D I S J U NCTION R E N D E R S VALID ONE PROPOSI­ TION TO B E TRUE. TH E OTH E R FALSE. AND THAT OF COURSE BOTH O F THEM ARE TRUE. I HAVE CALLED T H E O N E TRUE. T H E OTH E R FALSE: I T I S P E RHAPS THAT THE ONE THERE IS IS FALSE. AT AND THE OTH E R TRUE: THREE CASES OF

O P POS E D T O T H E OTH E R A S ITS NEGATION. I T I S ON TH E CONT R A R Y FROM T H E I R SUBSISTA NCE ( H E R E VERY POS I T I V E LY D E N I EDI T H A T TH E R E IS AN X

W H I C H C A N U PHOLD ITSELF IN THIS R E A L M BEYOND TH E PHA LLIC FU NCTION. AND ON TH E OTH E R H A N D . THAT T H E R E I S N O T ONLY O N E . F O R THE S I M PLE R E A SON THAT WOM E N C A N NOT BE CASTRATED FOR TH E BEST OF R E A SONS. THIS I S THE LEVEL OF WHAT IS B LOC K E D P R E C I S E LY FOR US IN THE SEXUAL

THEN

L E A ST

COMBI NATIONS W H ICH TH E DISJU NCTION U PHOLDS.

NOW H E R E W E

HAVE TWO FUNCTIONS WHICH A R E

POSITED A S N O T B E I NG-AS I S A I D A MOMENT AGO­ THE T R U E TRUTH. SEEM HOPE. TO HOLD THOSE WHICH ARE ABOVE: WE GIVES

R E LATION. WHILE ON THE LEVEL OF THE PHA LLIC FUNCTION. I T I S PRECISELY THE NOT-ALL' OPPOSED TO TH E A LL: T H E R E I N LIES THE POSSIBI LITY OF A R E D I ST R I BUTION ITSELFI F E M A LE. W I LL BE FROM L E FT TO AS R IG H T. M A LE (WHICH AND AS

HERE

S O M E TH I N G

WHICH

N A M E L Y T H A T W E H A V E A R T I C U LATED A

TRUE D I S J U NCTION. HOWEVER. LET US NOTE WHAT TH E R E IS OF THE TO WRITTEN. WHICH IN I A HAVE THE

FOU N D E D

O P P O RT U N I T Y

A R T I C U LA T E

MANNER

B R I N G I N G I T A L I V E FOR YOU: O N ON E S I DE O F THIS 4> T H E N EGATIVE R ELATION DOESN'T AT ALL FORCE U S TO CHOOSE: ON THE CONTRA RY. I A S M U C H A S W E A R E F A R F R O M H A V I NG T O CHOOSE. A N D THAT WE M U ST R E D I ST R I B U T E . T H E TWO SIDES ARE OF X N EG A T E D W H E R E TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION

DOES NOT FUNCTION. TH E R E I S A POS S I B I LITY OF SEXUAL RELATI O N SH I P. WE H A V fi POSITED THAT

TH E R E E X I STS AN X I . . . 1. NOW W H A T DO W E H A V E O N TH E OTH E R S I D E -W H E R E T H E R E DOES N O T E X I ST AN X?

LEGITI M ATELY OPPOS ED TO EACH OTH ER.

A FT E R

N EGATION.

I

M E NTION E D

CONJU NCTION. IN THE WAY THAT THE MODE IN WHICH TH E

WOULD NOT NEED TO ACCOU NT FOR CONJUCTION I N TH I S C A S E . EXC E PT TO M A K E T H E OBSERVATION. ( I H O P E T H E R E A R E ENOUGH PEOPLE H E R E WHO H A V E VAG U ELLY BROWSE D A BOOK ON L OG I C SO T H A T I NEED NOT I N S I STI THAT THE CONJ U N C T I O N IS

D I F F E R E NT I A T I O N

B E TW E E N

MALE A N D FEMALE.

BETW E E N M A N A N D WOM A N I N TH E S P E A K I NG B E I N G W O U L D B E S U PPORTED. T H E R E IS A D I SCORD. W E W I L L S E E LATE R W H A T TH I S M EA N S . AT T H E LEVEL OF U N I V E RSALS W H I C H ARE NOT S U PPORTED. FROM TH E FACT OF T H E INCONSISTENCY OF O N E A MONG TH E M . WHEN WE DEVIATE FROM THE FUNCTION

B A S E D PR E C I S E L Y O N TH I S : VALUE D E R I V E S ONLY BY V I RTU E OF T H E FACT THAT BOTH PROPOSITIONS CAN B E T R U E .

ITSELF. T H E R E E X I STS O N ONE S I D E A N X WHICH NOWI T H I S I S EXACTLY WHAT I N N O WAY A LLOWS U S TO M A I NTA I N WHAT I S I N THE D I AGRAM. S I N C E YOU C A N S E E THAT FROM RIGHT TO LEFT. TH E R E I S NO I D E NTITY AND P R E C I S E LY THERE WHERE A SATI S F I E S 4> X N EGATED. ON T H E OTH E R S I D E W E HAVE THE I D E F I N I TE FO R M U LATION BY THAT NO X

( WH I C H

HAVE

I L L U ST R A T E D

SAYING

THAT

WOM A N F O R T H E B EST O F R EASONS. CAN NOT B E CASTRATEDI W H I C H I S TO SAY AT T H E LEVEL W H E R E TH E D I S J U NCTION WOU L D HAVE T H E OPPORT U N I TY TO PRODUCE ITSE LF. WE F I N D ONLY O N T H E O N E S I DE. F R O M T H E ONE/ON E AT LEAST W H A T I H A V E P U T FORTH O F T H E OTH E R WE FI N D AT-LEAST-QNE. A N D ON T H E P R EC I S E LY THE NON-

QU ESTION OF WHAT IS PROPOSE D AS TURE E X I STS. B E A R I NG IN MIND

4> TO

X.

U N I V E RS A L S

CAN

CONJOI N . T H E U N IVERSAL O F THE L E FT S I D E DOES NOT OPPOSE ITSELF TO TH E R IGHT SIDE. TO THE

EXTENT THAT I T HAS NO A RTIC U LABLE U N I VERSAL: THAT I S IT I S TH E WOM A N WHO SEES TH E P H A LLIC

VERY

214

EXI STENCE. THAT IS T H E R E LATION OF ONE TO ZERO.

C ERTA I N D I G N ITY. SO THAT I WI LL P U B L I S H IT O N E OF THESE DAYS. I F I PUBLISH AGA I N . W H I C H DOESN'T

W H E R E THE S E X U A L R E LATIONS H I P WOULD HAVE NO O P PORTU N I TY TO BE TO ACCOM P L I S H BEYOND ITSELF. BUT

DEPEND ON M E . OTH ERS WOULD H A V E TO P U B L I S H W I T H ME. A S T H I S WOULD ENCO U R A G E M E A LITTLE. A N D IF I PUBLISH. YOU WILL SEE W I T H WHAT C A R E I HAVE LOCATED THE THI NGS WHICH I HAVE A LREADY SAID FOR 3 YEARS. ON A CERTA I N N U M B E R OF

SIMPL Y

HOPED

THE

A BOLITION

THROUGH DIVERSION FROM T H E PHALLIC FUNCTION. WE FIND ONLY ONE OF THE TWO SEXES AS A

PRESENCE.

REGISTE R S A BOUT THE PATE R N A L M ETAPHOR. AND TH E PROPER NAME. F I N A LLY TH E R E WAS EVERY­

T H I S I S PREC I SELY WHAT I T BRI NGS C LOSER TO US OF THE EXPE R I E N C E W H E R E WOMA N (THE U N IVER­ SAL FOR WOM A N DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO ARISE

THI NG N E C ESSARY SO THAT. WITH TH E BIBLE. I GAVE M EA N I N G TO TH I S MYTH I C ELUC U BRATION. BUT I

WON'T 00 T H I S EVER AGAIN.

FROM TH E PHALLIC FU NCTION.) ONLY PARTICI PATES EITHER TO WANT TO E N R A PT U R E M A N . OR M Y GODI SHE I M POSES ON H I M THE S E R V I C E OF THE PHALLIC FU NCTION. OR WORST O F A LL AND T H I S I S PERHAPS THE CASE IN W H I C H IT S H O U L D BE S A I D. SHE GIVES THE PHALLIC FU NCTION BACK TO H I M . BUT THIS THEREI T H I S E OF X SLASHED. (IT DOE S N 'T EXI ST. N OTH I NG THERE E X I STS WOULD AT A BE A C E R TA I N CHANCE LEVEL. FO R WHERE I WON'T 00 TH I S EVER AGA I N BECA U S E A FTER ALL I CAN SATI S F Y M YSELF BY FORM U LATI NG T H I NGS AT THE LEVEL OF LOG I C A L STR U C T U R E . WHICH

CERTAI N LY H A S ITS RIGHTS.

DOESN'T U N I V E RSA LIZE HER. IT IS NOT TH I S WHICH IS THE ROOT OF N O T- A L L : THA N SHE R E V E A LS A

PLEASURE

OTH E R

P H A LL I C :

FE M I N I N E

SEXUA L

JOUISSANCE W H I C H I N N O WAY D E P E N D S ON TH IS. I F WOM A N IS NOT N O T- A L L . IT IS BECAUSE HER

RELATI O N S H I PS) THE HETEROS IN S O M U C H AS IT I S ABSENT. IS NOT AT ALL N E C E S SA R I LY THE

JOU ISSANCE I S D U A L.

PRIVILEOGE O F THE FEM I N I E SEX. I T I S S I M PLY THE I N DICATION OF WHAT I N M Y DIAGRAM H A D I TS LITTLE DESTI N Y O F WHAT I INSCRIBE AS THE S I G N I F I E R OF

T H I S I S IN FACT WHAT TI R E S I A S REVEA LED WHEN H E RETU RNED F R O M B E I NG. BY T H E G R A C E OF ZEUS. THERESE. FOR A W H I LE . WITH O F C O U R S E TH E

TH E

SLASHED

O.

THIS

MEANS

TH E

OTH E R : OTH E R

NO IS

MATTER

WHERE

ON E

TAKES

IT.

THE

A BSENT F R O M THE MOM E N T T H A T I T ' S A Q U E STION OF SE X U A L RE LATION S H I PS.

CONSEQUENCES WE A L L K N OW. A N D WHICH WERE LAI D-OUT. V I S I B LE . TH I S IS P E R H A PS THE CASE

THAT REVEALED TO OEDIPUS W H A T WOULD AWAIT HIM. AS HAVING EXI STED. A S M A N OF TH I S SUPREME PO S S E S S I O N AND WHAT WOULD R E S U LT IN

NATURA L LY. AT THE LEVEL OF WHAT F U NCTIONS. THAT I S TO SAY THE PHA LLIC FU NCTION. TH E R E I S S I M PLY THIS D I SCOU R S E ON ONE THAT AND I HAVE THE J U ST

DECEPTION W H E R E H I S PA RTN E R WOU L D KEEP H I M FROM T H E T R U E N A T U R E O F W H A T S H E OFFERED FOR HIS JOUISSANCE. O R LET U S SAY IT I N ANOTH E R WAY. WHAT WOULD R E S U LT I N D EC E PTION SINCE H I S PARTN E R D E M A N D E D OFFERED H I M . H I M T O R E F U S E WHAT S H E

M E NTION ED.

SIDE

OTH E R .

AUTOMATICA LLY ONE I S NOT I N T H E S A M E POS ITION. ON ON E SIDE IS A U N I V E R S A L. BASED ON A

R E LATIO N N ECESSARY TO TH E PHA LLIC F UNCTION. AND ON THE OT H E R S I DE IS A R E LA T I O N IS OF I

CONTI N G E N C Y STRESS THEN

B EC A U S E

WOM A N

N O T- A LL.

THAT AT THE

H I G H E R L E V E L. THE

TH I S M A N I FESTS A T TH E L E V E L O F T H E MYTH. THAT IN ORDER TO EXIST AS A M A N AT A LEVEL SO AS TO ESCAPE THE P H A L LIC F U N CTION. TH E R E WOULD BE N O OTH ER WOM A N THAN THE ONE WHO OUGHT

RELATI O N SH I P FOUNDED ON THE D I S A PPEARANCE. TH E VAN I S H I NG . THE EXISTENCE O F O N E OF THE PARTN E R S WHO LEAVES THE PLACE E M PTY FOR

THE I N SC R I PTION OF SPEECH. IS NOT AT TH I S LEVEL THE PRIVI LEDGE OF EITH E R SIDE. IT I S J U ST THAT I N ORDER FOR TH E R E TO B E A BASI S FOR SEX. T H E R E

PREC I S E LY NOT TO HAVE EXISTED FOR H I M.

THEREI THE

WHY SHOU LDN'T S H E H A V E EXISTED. WHY OF I N C EST? THIS WO U L D

MUST B E TWO. S U R E LY 0 A N D

1

M A K E 2 . ON THE

PROH I B ITION THAT I

SYMBOLIC PLANE. I N SO FAR AS W E AGREE THAT EXISTE N C E I S ROOTED I N THE SYMBOL. THIS I S WHAT DEFINES THE SPEAKING BEI NG.

NECESSITATE TRACK OF

GET I N VOLVED OF THE I

ALONG THE WHERE

TH E I

NAME

FATH ER

P R EC I S E LY TREAD

HAVE

SAID

THAT I

WOULD NEVER (BECAUSE IT I S I N FACT SOMETH I NG THAT I S NOT WHAT I T IS. IT IS JUST THAT THIS BEING IS A BSOLUTELY

AGA I N

BECAUSE

REREAD

SOM EONE A S K E D M E TO) HERE AT ST. A N N E IN

M Y F I RST CONFERENCE

1 96 3 AND IT EVEN HAS A

UNGRASPABLE A N D I T I S ALL THE MORE U NG R A S P-

213

A B L E BECA U S E IT I S O B L I G E D TO SU PPORT ITSELF TH ROUGH TH E SYMBOL. IT I S CLEAR THAT A B E I NG. W H I C H COM E S TO BE ONLY TH ROUGH THE SYMBOL. IS PRECISELY THIS B E I NG WI THOUT B E I N G IN WHICH (FROM TH E SOLE FACT THAT YOU SPEAK) YOU ALL PA RTI C I PATE. BUT WHICH ON THE OTH E R HAND.

TH E I R

STRUCTU RE. TO

THERE

M U ST

WELL IS

B E

A

R E LATION S H I P LANGUAGE.

S O M ETH I N G

WH I C H

NOT

OF

CO U R S E

IT

IS

E A SY T O U N D E R STA N D

THAT

P E O P L E W I L L S L I P G R O U N D ON T H E P RETEXT THAT WHAT SEEMS TO T H E M TO BE T H I S "BEYOND OF

C ERTA I N LY S U P PORTS ITSELF AND I S E X I STENCE SINCE EXISTING IS NOT B E I NG . TH I S I S TO SAY.

LA NGUAGE" C A N ON LY B E MATH E M AT I C A L. T H I S IS BECA U S E IT I S A BUT N U M B E R. I T I S A Q U ESTION OF P E R H A PS IN IT IS NOT ITS STRICTLY TO

EXISTING I S NOT D E P E N D I NG O N THE OTH E R .

Q U A NTITY. YOU A R E ALL H E R E T O SOM E D E G R E E T O EXI ST. B U T YOU ARE N O T PARTIC U L A R LY OF YOU R O W N CALM ABOUT T H E YOU SPEAKING

N U M E R I C ITY

ALL

R E A LI TY

W H I C H L A N G U A G E G I V E S ACCESS. B U T O N L Y T H E C A PA C I TY THROUGH R E A L. TO A NCHOR TH E ZERO AND ONE.

NATURE

B E I N G . OTH E R W I S E

WOU L DN'T COME TO S E E K A S S U RA NC E I N SO M A N Y PSYCHOANA LYTIC E F FORTS.

T H I S TH E REAL

ENTRANCE WHICH

WOU L D B E M A D E CAN BE THE

THE

A LO N E

" B E YO N D H E R E TH E R E IS SOM ETH I N G COM PL.ETE LY ORIG I N A L IN THE FI RST E M ERGENCE OF L.OGIC: TH E DIFFI­

OF

LANGUAGE."

N A M E LY

T H E O N LY

DO M A I N I N W H I C H A SYM BOLIC I M POSSI BILITY C A N B E FOR M U LATED.

CUL TY. THE I NDECISION TH A T A R I STOTLE SHOWED CO N C E R N I N G THE ST A T U S OF A PARTI C U L A R TH I S R E LATIO N SH I P. ACCESS I B L E TO LANGUAGE. I F IT IS P R EC I S E LY FOU N D E D ON A SEXUAL NON­

PROPOSITION. THESE A R E D I F F I C U L.TI ES TH AT H A V E B E E N STR ESSED EL.SEW H E R E . BUT T H A T I D I D NOT D I SCOVER. FOR THOSE WHO D E S I R E A R E F E R ENCE. I R E F E R YOU TO C A H I E R NO. 1 0 O F THE C A H I E RS POU R
L ' A N A LY S E . T H E A RTICLE BY JACQUES B R U N SCHWIG

R E LATIONSH I P C A N ONLY TH E R E FORE CONFRONT 0 AND

1 ;

TH I S

FACT

WOULD

E A S I LY

FIND

ITS

R E FLECTION I N T H E ELABORATION F R EG E G I V E S O F THE LOGI C A L G E N E S I S O F N U M B E R S .

IS

E XC E L L E N T ;

YOU

WILL

SEE

P E R F ECTLY TH E HAD WITH THE I H A V E S PO K E N OF THAT WHICH C A U S E S D I F F I C U LTY I N TH I S LOGICAL G E N E S I S . N A M E LY T H E G A P . THE GAP O F THE M ATH E M ATICAL TRI A N G L E . BETW E E N

D I F F I C U LTY PARTICULAR.

WHICH

A R I STO T L E

H E PERCEIVED THAT E X I ST E N C E IN NO WAY C A N B E ESTA B L I S H E D TH I S R EASON. OUTS I D E HE OF TH E U N I V E R S A L; FOR

TH I S 0 A N D TH I S 2. A G A P W H I C H DOUBLES TH E I R O P PO S I T I O N O F C O N F R O N T A T I O N . W H A T I NT E R ­ V E N E S I S T H E R E O N L Y BECAUSE IT I S TH E E S S E N C E OF T H E FI RST COUPLE. SO T H A T TH E R E M IGHT BE TH E ESSENCE OF T H E TH I RD A N D SO THAT THE GAP AS SUCH IS A LW A Y S WHICH IS LEFT TO THE TWO; THIS ESSENTIA L BECAUSE IS OF

SITUATES

EXISTENCE

AT THE

L E V E L OF THE PARTI C U LA R. AND TH I S PARTI C U LA R I N N O WAY S U FFICES TO S U P PORT I T EVEN THOUGH HE S E E M S TO S U PPORT IT BY V I RTUE OF TH E USE OF TH E WORD SOME.

SO M ET H I NG

SOMETH I NG M UC H MORE DANGEROUS W H I C H M I G H T ON THE CONTRARY W H AT R E S U LTS FROM THE SO­ C A L L E O FORM A L I ZATION OF Q U A NTI F I ERS (CA LLED Q U A NTI F I ERS BECAUSE O F A T RACE. L E FT I N THE P H I LOSOPHY OF H I STORY THROUGH THE FACT THAT SOM EONE N A M E D A P U L I A . A NOVELIST OF NOT VERY GOOD TASTE AND A N U N R ESTR A I N E D MYSTIC. AND WHO CREATED THE GOLDE N THAT ASS. IN ONE DAY BE SUBSTITUTED IN THE A N A LY S I S OF T H E

M YT H I C A L SELVES I N

ADVENTURES O F OEDIPUS ( I N THEM­ NO W A Y D I ST U R B I N G I N AS M U C H A S

T H E Y A D M I R A B LY STRUCTU R E TH E N ECESSITY T H A T THERE BE S O M E W H E R E A T- L E A ST -O N E W H I C H

T R A N S C E N D S W H A T THERE I S OF TH E G R A S P O F T H E PHA LLIC FU NCTION; TH E MYTH OF THE PRIM A L

I NT R O D U C E D

THE

I D EA

A R I STOT L E

FATH E R M E A N S NOT H I N G OTH E R TH A N TH I S ) . T H I S I S S U F F I C I E NT E N O U G H FOR U S TO M A K E U S E O F I T BEYOND T H E FACT THAT W E F I N D I T CON F I R M E D B Y LOG I C A L STRUCTURATION.

E V E R YT H I N G THAT CON C E R N S A LL A N D SOM E WAS OF TH E ORDER OF QUA NTITY. I T WAS NOT AT ALL LI K E TH AT,) I S S I M PLY TWO D I F FE R E N T MODES OF WHAT I M IGHT CA LL. IF YOU W I L L A LLOW M E A LITTLE I M PROVIZATION. THE I N C A R N ATION OF T H E SYM BOL. TH E PASSAGE I NTO ORDI N A R Y LIFE OF THE FACT

ON

THE

OTH E R

H A ND.

THERE

IS

ASSUREDLY

NOTH I N G M O R E D A N G E RO U S T H A N TH E CO N F U S I O N OV E R WHAT THERE IS OF TH E ONE. THE O N E IS

THAT THERE IS ALL A N D SOM E IN ALL LANGUAGES A S S U R E DLY FORC E S US TO POS E THAT ALL

F R E Q U E NTLY EVOK E D BY FREUD A S T H E S IG N I F I E R OF THE ESSENCE OF E ROS: IT A N D THE L I B I DO

LA N G U AGE M U ST H A V E T H E SA M E ROOTS A N D THAT AS ALL LANG UAGES ARE D E E PLY DIFFERENT I N

WOU LD BOTH STRA I N TO M A K E ONE. ACCORD I N G TO

21 6

AN OLD MYTH (NOT AT A L L OF THE M YT H I C A L MODE) ONE OF TH E F U N D A M E NT A L TENSIONS OF THE

OF BEING R E P R E S E NTED. THERE I S I N T H I S ONLY ONE REQU I SITE. I F I MIGHT SAY. A G R ATUITOUS O N E ; NOTH ING I M POSES TH I S AT·LEAST·ONE I F N O T T H E U N IQUE C H A NC E -A N D STILL IT M U ST B E PLA Y E D OUT-QF WHICH SOMETH I NG F U NCTIONS ON TH E

WORLD WOULD STRA I N T O M A K E O N L Y O N E . THIS M YT H IS T R U LY ON SOMETH I NG H O R I ZO N WHICH OF CAN ONLY AND

F U NCTION

THE

DELIR I U M

W H I C H . STRICTLY S P E A K I NG. H A S NOTH I N G TO DO WITH A N YTH I NG AT ALL W H I C H W E ENCOU NTER IN EXPERI ENCE. IF T H E R E I S A N YTH I NG V E R Y OVERT IN THE RE LATIONS H I P BETWEEN SEXES. THAT

OTHER S I D E BUT ONLY AS AN I D E A L POINT. AS T H E POSSIBI LITY F O R ALL M E N T O ATTA I N IT THROUGH IDENTIFICATION.

A N A LYSIS NOT ONLY A RT I C ULATES B U T C A N B E PUT I N TO PLAY I N ALL D I R ECTIONS AND SENSES. H E R E IS SOM E T H I N G WHICH THIS CAUSES IS D I F F I C U LTY IN

THERE IS IN T H I S A LOGICAL NECE SSITY WHICH I S I M POSED ON LY O N THE LEVEL O F THE WAGER. B U T NOTICE O N THE OTH E R H A N D W H A T RESU LTS FROM IT CONC E R N I N G T H E M A L E U N I VERSAL; THUS. T H I S AT·LEAST·ONE. ON W H I C H THE MYTH ICAL N A M E O F THE FATH E R I S S U STA I N E D. I S I N D I S PENSABLE.

R E LATI O N S H I PS .

P R E C I S ELY

R E LATION·

S H I PS BETWE E N WOME N ; NOTH I N G COULD RESEM· BLE THE SPONTA N EITY O F T H E S E R E LATIONSHI PS. WHICH TION E D IS NOW PRECISELY AN TH E H O R I ZO N BASED ON I MEN· SOME

EARLIER.

A N I M A LIC

IT I S HERE THAT I ADVANCE A FLASH O F WHAT IS M I SSING FROM T H E FUNCTION. FROM THE NOTION O F SPECIES A N D O F CLASS. AND CONSEQUE NTLY I T I S NO ACCI DENT THAT T H I S ENTI RE DIALECTIC WAS LEFT OUT OF A R I STOTLE'S FORMS.

A N I M A L MYTH; I N N O WAY I S EROS A T E N D E NCY O F TH E ONE. ACCO R D I N G TO THIS FU NCTION. ANY

ARTICU LATION M A K ES C L E A R T H A T T H E R E A R E TWO LEVELS OF SECRECY IN WHICH T H E OPPOSITION

BETWEEN THE SEXES I S FOU N D E D ONLY IN D I SCORD A N D ONLY I N A S M UC H AS T H E Y CAN IN NO WAY BE I N STITUTED AS U N I VE R S A L . AT THE L E V E L OF I N FACT WHERE DOES T H I S E OF X FUNCTION.T H I S "TH ERE E X I STS AT·LEAST-ONE" W H I C H I S NOT T H E SLAVE OF THE PHAL LIC FUNCTION? T H I S I S O N L Y A REQUISITE I W I L L SAY. OF A HOPELESS TYPE. FROM THE POINT OF IS VIEW OF TH I S SOMETH I NG WHICH

EXISTENCE ON T H E CONTRARY. I S PR E C I SE LY AN OPPOSITION CON S I ST I N G IN T H E C A N C ELLATION.

THE E M PTYING OF ONE O F T H E FUNCTIONS A S BEING THAT OF T H E OTH E R . REVEALED BY T H E POSSIBI LITY OF AN ARTICULATION OF LA NGUAGE. T H I S I S WHAT S E E M S TO M E ESSENTI A L TO B R I N G TO LIGHT.

ITSELF

NOT

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NOTICE THAT A MOMENT AGO IN S P E A K I N G TO YOU S U C C E S S I V E L Y A BOUT N EG A T I O N . CON J U NCTION AND DISJ U NCTION. WAS I HAD P U S H E D TO T H E LIMIT

BUT ON

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H A ND. OBSERVE THAT WITH

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WHAT THERE THAT. ONLY HERE

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AGA I N . THE

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BETW E E N

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FUNCTIONS T O ESCAPE. WHAT DOES TH I S M E A N ? I WILL SAY THAT IT I S -THE EXCEPTION, IT I S THE PATH WHEREIN I S CON F I R M E D BY US THE PROVERB W H I C H SAYS, WITHOUT K NOWI NG W H A T IT SAYS, T H A T T H E

PHALLIC F U NCTION AND THAT W H I C H D I V E RTS IT.

NOW

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LOW E R LEVEL. ON THE LEVEL OF THE I N S U FFICIEN· CY O F U N I VERSAL SPEC I F ICATION. I M PL I E S THAT IF AND ONLY IS IF TH E SYNCOPATION ON THE OF E X I STENCE LEVEL ON IS

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BUT IT I S AN EXTRAORDINARY TH I NG THAT I FI N D MYSELF, I N TH I S WAY, O N T H E PATH OF A QUEST A N D BECA USE, FROM A N A N C I E NT FORMATION (I DON'T NOT AT A LL NOT K NOW C H I NESE), I ASKED ONE OF MY DEAR EST (I F R I E NDS TO RECALL TO M E H A D) K E PT MORE O R LESS WHAT AS A

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TRA C E . BUT WHAT I H A D TO CONFI RM FOR MYSELF BY SOM EON E FOR WHOM C H I N E S E I S THE MATE R N A L LA NGUAGE. I T I S ASS U R EDLY VERY STRANGE THAT IN C H I N E SE. THE D E L I M I TATION OF ALL. IF I MIGHT EXPRESS MORE MYSELF THUS.

C I ENTLY SHOWS THAT H E R R E LATION S H I P TO THE P H A L L I C F U NCTION IS QU ITE ACTI V E .

I N A N Y C A S E . WOM A N I S NO M O R E I NS U R E D I N H E R U N I V E RSA L ESSENCE THAN M A N FOR T H E S I M PL E R E A SON T H A T T H E CONTRA R Y OF T H E L I M IT. I S T H A T TH E R E I S NONE. T H E R E I S NO EXCEPTION. THE FACT THAT TH E R E IS NO E XC E PT I O N I N SU R E S THE

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U N I V E R S A L A L R E A D Y S O POO R L Y E S TA B L I S H E D E I TH E R F O R T H E R E A SON T H A T I T I S D I SCORDANT OR THAT I T DOESN'T ASSURE T H E U N I V E RS A L OF WOM A N . W I TH O U T EXCEPTION. FAR FROM GIVING

THAT ONE COU NTS BUT THAT THIS DOES NOT M A K E TH E M NOT-ALL A N D TO TH I S I S A D D E D ( T E l W H I C H M E A N S : WITHOUT E XC E PTION.

SOM E-ALL GIVES

M O R E CON S I STENCY. TH I S NATURA LLY LESS C O N S I ST E N C Y TO W H AT IS

STI L L

D E F I N E D A S NOT- A L L. A S ESSENTI A L LY DUAL.

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STR A N G E ST TH I NG: T H E FUNCTION O F TH E ONE. BUT ALSO IT E X I STS ONLY A S CO R R E LATION OF. I WOND E R A LOT A BOUT A N I M A L M E NTA L I TY WHICH A FT E R A LL WOU LD ONLY BE U S E F U L TO M E A S A M IRROR R E FERENCE. AS A M I R RO R WH ICH. AS

WHAT I CALLED A MOM ENT AGO. THE ( E M PTI NESS) OF T H E OTHER: I F IN V I R T U E W E HAVE PROGRESSED IN THE LOGIC OF CLASSES. I T IS THAT WE HAVE

C R E ATED A LOG IC OF S E TS. THAT THE DI FFERENCE BETW E E N A CLASS AND A S E T IS THAT WHEN THE CLASS I S E M PTY. TH E R E IS STI LL TH I S ELEMENT OF TH E E M PTY S ET. IT IS IN T H I S THAT ONCE MORE. P R OG R E S S TOW A R D S

B E F O R E A L L M I R RORS. I RAVE. TH E R E I S SOM ETH I N G W H I C H WE M I G H T ASK O U R S E L V E S : F O R T H E A N I M AL. I S T H E R E T H E ONE7

MATH E M A TICS LOGI C .

HAS

MADE

JACQUES LAC A N

TRANSLATED BY DENISE GREEN
TH E X I N T H E RIGHT PART OF T H E D I A G R A M I M PL I E S THAT T H E R E I S A U N I LATERA L I TY OF THE E X I STEN­ TIAL FUNCTION FOR T H E OTH E R PA RTN E R . THAT IS. THAT TH E R E ARE NO E XC E PT I O N S . TH E R E IS I

WOULD L I K E TO THAN K THOMAS GORA. SUZA N N E AND JOHN RAJ C H M A N FOR TH E I R KIND

G U E RLAC

SOM ETH I NG THAT I S N O LONGE R I N SYMMETRY WITH THE REQU I R E M ENT OF THE AT-LEAST-ONE THAT A MOM E N T ANOTH E R AGO I CALLED H O P E LESS. WHICH THERE IN IS

ASSISTANCE I N T H E TRANSLAnO N OF T H I S TEXT.

THIS

REFERS

TO

THE

THEORY

OF

FO U R

REQU I R E M ENT

R E S I DES

THE

D I SCO U R S E S O F T H E A N A LYST. T H E H Y STE RIC. THE U N I V E R S I TY AND THE M A ST E R CF.

FACT THAT I N THE END. THE M A SCULI N E U N I VERSAL CAN ONLY GET I TS DUE WITH T H E I N SURANCE THAT TH E R E E X I STS NO WOM A N WHO C A N BE CASTRATED. TH I S IS FOR THAT REASONS THE WHICH A PPEA R EVIDENT. SUFFI-

RADIOPHON I E I N S C I LICET 2/3.

NOTE: O N E OF LACAN'S FOR M U LAS IS WOMAN­ I S-NOT- E V E R YTHI NG. NOT- A L L R E F E R S TO THIS.

EXC E PT

B E H AV I O R

OF WOMAN

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U PON H E A R I NG T H E E C H O OF H E R DAUGHTER'S SPEECH. IT SEEMS. FROM T H E N O N . WAY THERE. IT WOULD SEEM THAT WHAT THE DAUGHTER SAYS A BOUT HER BEEN ABLE T O E S C A P E ." W I L L DESPERATELY I D E N TIFY W I TH T H E PHALLUS I N A FRA NTIC M A T E R N A L POSITION OR I N A DIZZYI N G MASCARAD E-T H E VIA R E G I A OF THE H YSTER I C . S H E "I WAS B U RN E D .FATHER I S FU NCTIONI NG. THE MOTH E R H E A R S THE ECHO AND REMAINS F R O M THIS S C E N E M A N Y OTH ERS WITH I N T H A T ZON E W H I C H I S COM PLETELY S H A K E N BY THOSE W A V E S F R O M WHICH S H E HAS NEVER COLLECTED I N A N A LYTIC PRACTICE. 219 . W H I C H I S C A P A B L E O F G I V I N G H E R I D ENTITY-EVOKES.JOUISSANCP A N D DIVISION "MOMMY. I N T H E M I R ROR. W H E N . QU ESTION IS A S K E D A N D ITS A N S W E R SETS UP A MI RROR. WHEN I WAS YOU R AGE. ON THE RIGHT SIDE. I F THE NAM E-OF-THE. THE MOT H E R R E D I SCOVERS H E R OWN QUESTION IN HER D A U G H T E R'S Q U ESTI O N . GAZE U PON HER DA U G H T E R AND UN THE 2. B UT SHE I SOLATES IT A N D. T H E MOTH E R . S H E L U R E S H E R DAUGHTER INTO THE ZON E AND THE DAUGHTE R LOSES H E R BODY-THAT I S . W H A T DOES S H E D O ? W E C A N POI N T OUT TH R E E TYPES OF R E S PONSE. TH ERE I S REASON TO F E A R A PSYC HOTIC BREAK­ DOWN. I N T H E LESS DESIRABLE C A S E . WAS I LEFT B R E A ST1" B U R N E D ON M Y AGA I N . A N I D E NTICAL SCENE THAT S H E H A S EXPERI ENCED H E RSELF. ONLY TWO POSSI BLE SOLUTI ONS ARE OPEN TO T H E DAUGHTER: IN THE MORE D E S I REABLE CASE. I F A F U N DA M E NTA L DEFICI ENCY OF T H E PATE R N A L FU NCTION IS A D D E D WHAT H A PP E N S IN THIS BRIEF EXC H A N G E ? A T O THE ABSENCE OF THE MOTH ER'S RECOGNITION. S I LENCES H E R O W N C H I LD­ HOOD QUESTION. A BOUT THAT. 3. T H E R E CAN O N L Y BE MORE OF THE S A M E OLD REFRAIN . "THAT" r'CA"] M U ST N E V E R SPEAK THIS TH I R D POSS I B I LITY APPEARS O N LY AS A WAY FOR HERSELF A LO N E. ALLOWS HER DAUGHTER TO CONTI N U E TO SPEAK 1 . I N THAT WAY. A LITTLE HIGHER U P. I N THE MOTH ER. TOO.I N E V I T A B LY. G I V I N G R I S E TO A N I N VESTIGATION OF A MOT H E R' S M I R ROR). A N D H O W .

STA G E . ACCEPT T H E FROM IS. IS "WH I P P E D BY LANGUAGE. THE P U ZZ L I N G I NT E NSITY OF WHICH FREUD NEVER ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC. IT I S CONSTR UCTE D OVER A N D AGA I N D I SCOURSE OF IN D I FF E R E N T STAGES OF T H E PA RTICULA R LY OF STRUCTU R I N G EF FECT OF THE M I R ROR. M I RROR THAT STAG E W H I C H STRUCT U R E S THE E G O A N D I S THE FO U N D A T I O N OF WHAT W I LL LATER BECO M E N E C E S SA R I LY CONFRONTED. : 3. C I R C U MSTA N C E S B E THAT ACCOMPANY T H E F A C T OF R E P R E S E NTATION BY A WOM AN'S-BODY. 2 . FACT THAT S H E I S S E E N A S C H I LO AND S E E I NG TH E SEPARATE C H I LD: THE THAT SHE M U ST ACQU I ESC E I N BEING M I RROR SC E N E S U B J ECT TO SYM BOLIC LAW. THE S E X U A L I TY PASSING ADDED TERM COMPLEX. A SECOND OPERATION THROUGH WHICH T H E DESTI N Y OF "WOMA N'S-BODY" I S PLAY E D O U T . ' FOR THE C H I LO TO B E A B L E TO DISCOV E R ITSELF I N ITS OWN IMAGE IT IN M UST B E OTH E R SU PPORTED THE BY ITS WE NOW PROPOSE TO A N ALYZE WHAT WE S H A L L MOTH E R'S GAZE. O N E COULD PROBABLY EXPLORE T H E Q U ESTION OF THE P E R M A N E N C E OF T H E L I B I D I N A L ATTA C H M E NT TO THE MOTH ER. . . M UST WORDS. OF T H E D E S I R E OF TH E OTHE R . DRIVES. LIKE THAT OF THE THE LITTLE BOY. TRACING BACK THE TH REA D TO TH I S EXPER I E NC E . W H I C H THE LATTER TH E N RECOVERS. MAY W H ATEVER THE CHANCE THE SCENE-MOTH E R'< + DAUGHTERA I N FRONT OF TH E M I R ROR-CA N N OT FAIL TO BRING FORTH THE SC ENE-MOTH E RB + D A U G HTER B IN FRONT OF TH E S A M E M I R ROR. M O M E NTS OF T H E M I RROR STAGE A PPEAR AT T H E C E NT E R OF ANY ATTE M PT T O DEAL WITH THE Q U ESTION OF WOM A N . FOR U S . L I K E T H E P R I M A L SC E N E . NOT ONLY I N T H E G A Z E OF M E N . CLINICAL OUTL I N E LATE R WITH T E R M S O F J O U I SSANCE.A LO N G WH I C H THE IS PATH OF A C C E PTING C A ST R A T I O N . M A K E S THIS OPE RATION POS S I B LE). M O R E OR LESS A REMAI NS. W H I C H I S FUNDA M E NTAL FOR ALL C H I LD R E N . I N T H E FACT THAT THE LITTLE G I R L. THIS OPERA­ TION I S A LWAYS A LW A Y S EXTENT. A N A LY S A N DS. BUT RATH E R TO THE BODY THAT IS TRAC E D . C E A S E D T O E M PHASIZE. TH I S NOTION O F T H E S A M E-BODY. THE MOTH E R EITH E R DOE S O R DOES N O T R EC OG N I ZE H E R DAUGHTE R'S I MAGE. (SI STERS. F R E U D. LET US R E PEAT THAT THE BODY OF THE LITTLE G I RL. "WOMA N'S-BODY. BODY. THEY NEVER FA I L TO RUN AGROU N D AT T H A T MOM E NT W H E N T H E Y A R E T O B E S E E N . IT SEEMS. (WHEN THE C H I LO C A N COUNT: 1 . S I M U LT A N EO U S L Y S E PA RATE FROM TH E OF T H E I R H I STORI ES. WOM E N A N A LY S A N DS. R E C OG N I Z E D . E NCOU NTERS THE SAM E-BODY AS HER OWN. LOCATED 220 . THIS CUT OUT AND IN A N I MATED THE FIELD BY OF MOTH E R'< ONCE A GA I N BECOM E S DAUGHTE RB B Y T H E I N T E R M E D I A R Y O F T H E I MAGE OF DAUGHTER'< . I N T H I S S E C O N D STAGE. THE TO A FAILURE: THE GREATER OR WO M A N LESSER LET US POINT OUT THE C H A RACTER I ST I C S M I R ROR'S C A PTIVE. DAUGHTERS. AS BY DEFINED THE USE BY OF F R E U D. F R I E N DS-PLA C E D TH E R E FOR ONE WOM A N ) . ) " WOMA N'S-BODY" LIES." OF COURSE. I N S C R I B E D A T T H E ORIG I N . DOES NOT REFER TO THE BI OLOGIC A L BODY. (CF. OF AS THE NORMAL OEDIPUS D I SCOU RSE. BUT I N T H A T OF ALL WOM E N . MOTH E R C A L L T H E M I R RO R SC E N E." THESE THREE TO SITUATIONS IN TH E ARE ROOT E D . A N D SO FORTH AD I N FINITU M . T H E R E IS ADDED. IT I S I N TH I S U N E N D I NG MOV E M E N T OF RETURN TO THE MOORING PLACE OF A N E V A N ESCENT EGO THAT W E M A Y A PP ROACH THE Q U E STION OF W H A T I S C A L L E D FE M I N I N E JOUISSANCE. I S THE EROTOG E N IC PRECISION BODY. THESE PA RTIC U LA R TO T H I S S C E N E W H E N I T I S E X P E R I ­ E N C E D BY MOTHE R A N D DA UGHTER. IN THE CASE OF T H E LITTLE G I RL. IT SIGNIFIER "WO M A N'S-BODY" ATTEM PTS T O POINT TO T H E RELATION WITH T H E SAM E-BODY WITH WHICH THE L I TT L E IN VIEW GIRL OF IS APPEARS US. AS G E N N I E LEMOI N E H A S I N S I STED. I N HER FI RST R E LATION S H I P WITH WE SHALL RETURN TO THIS AND RATHER DEAL ROUGH IT I N THE MOTH E R WHO OCCUPIES T H E PLACE OF THE OTH E R . MOTH ER'S I M AGE BUT CONTI N U A LLY R E S E M B L I N G IT. DENIAL OF SYM BOLIC LAW WO U L D ANNUL TH E WE C A L L I T A SC E N E B E C A U S E WE H A V E FOU N D THAT. THE THE AS AT UT O P I C .

THERE IS SOMETH I N G IN THE NOT R E P RESSED. AS FAR AS THE E A R L I EST CONSTITUTION O F THE EGO IS CONCERNED. WHICH O N E OBJ ECT R E PLACES A NOTH E R O F EQUAL VALUE. B Y SATI S F Y I N G REAPPEARS W I T H I T S F U L L L I B I N A L INTENSITY. REDUCE D TO AN = THE LIVING BEING WHO IS SUBJECT TO SEXUAL A REAL LOSS. IT T H E MOTH E R O R TH E DAUGHTER W H O I S T H E AGENT O F TH I S M I R ROR E X P E R I E N C E? TH E MOTH E R PARTIA LLY TAKES THE PLACE OF THE DAUGHTER A N D. SHE RETRACES KE EPS BODY. BUT THAT. WITH THE M I RROR I M AGE R E M I N DI N G HER THAT WOM A N ' S-BODY IS. AND P E N I S ENVY. WHICH HAS N EV E R BEEN L E FT B E H I N D . FROZEN BY THE FATE FUL I M AGE. TA K E S AWAY FROM TH E DAUGHTER THE P OS S I B I L I T Y OF FINDING HER PLACE IN THE SYMBOLIC ORDER.AT THAT MOMENT W H E N T H E "ORTHOPE DIC" I MAGE OF TH E C H I LD'S BODY A S SEPA RATE FROM TH AT OF THE MOTHER I S CONSTITUTED. THE B R E A ST. TO OCCUpy THE PLACE OF THE T H I NG. T H E R E I S A C A PTURE I N THE M I RROR. (TH E R E PROD U C T I O N PLACENTA SUFFERS I M AG I N A RY FU NCTION I N INDEED R E P R E S E N T S T H A T P A RT . I T IS CA LLED TH E PHALLUS. WHICH T H E I N DI V I D U A L LOSES AT B I RTH. THE MOTH ER. H ENCE. TH E SAME­ BODY U N DERLI N ES T H E FRAGI LITY OF SEPARATION AT THE I M AG I N A RY DEC E PTIVE LEVEL I M AG E : AND IN BLURS THIS MOTH E R C A N NOT BEAR IF THE GAZE OF HER DAUGHTER. LACA N THE PATH O F T H E S Y M BOLIC EQUATION.1 THE PHALLUS OCC U P I E S THE FOREVER EM PTY PLACE OF THIS REAL LOSS. THE 22 1 . ONE CAN SU PPOSE TH AT THIS A FFLICTED GAZE FADES. F I R ST OF A L L. PERCEIVING TH E THE M OT H E R . T H E LOST OBJ ECT. TO EXPLA I N H E R D I STRAUGHT. PASSING FROM U N E N D I NG ON E GAZE OF TO A N OTH E R IS IN AN THE VISION OF T H E C A ST R A T E D BODY. I S T H E BEARER O F THAT. THE MOTH ER. BY VIRTUE OF NOT HAVING THE PHALLUS. IN ORDER TO BACK U P THE FANTASY THAT HER C H I LD I S A SU BSTITUTE MAKING U P FOR CASTRATION. DESCRIBES H E R. A N D OF T H E D A U G H T E R H A V E YET T O B E DEFIN ED. D I SC O V E R S THAT OTH E R CAS­ THE I M M A T U R I TY OF T H E IT FROM I N FANT H U M A N L I M ITS AS B E I NG OF ITS TRATED. HOWEVER. BY THIS DOUBLI NG. HA LF-HOR R I F I ED. B U T PARTI A LLY U S U RPS H E R D A UGHTER'S POSITION AS W E LL. AT T H A T M O M E N T W H I C H SHOULD BE FORMATI V E FOR THE LITTLE G I RL. WE SHALL HYPOTH ESIZE NOT ONLY THAT "SEPA RATION" OF I MAGES I S ON LY PARTIA LLY COMPLETED. WHICH T H E I N FANT CLA I M S AS ITS OWN. BUT IT IS ALSO. THE MOTH E R'S WOU N D IS R EOP E N E D." CONTENTS H E R SELF WITH A PA I N E D AND R E C R I M I ­ NATORY: "THAT I S ALL Y O U A R E. DAUGHTER. CAN BE FELT ONLY I F THE IDENTI FICATION. THAT WHICH IS OUTS I D E OF T H E SIGN IFI ED-I N THE SYMBOLIC ORDE R. THE MOTH E R NOT ONLY OCC U P I E S HER OWN POSITION OF MOTH ER DOES NOT DENY CASTRATION. TRANSPOSED WHEN. I S NOT ENOUGH. WHICH REACTIVATES PENIS ENVY I N T H E M OTH E R. THAT IS. O R D E R. M A S K I N G C A STRATION. A MOTH ER. MOREOVER. TO ASSU M E THE VALUE OF THE P H A LLUS. THE C H I LD S E E KS SUPPORT IN T H E MOT H E R'S GAZE.2A lie B SEEING H E R SON IN TH E M I R ROR." SHOULD T H I S NOT BE SEEN A S ONE SOURCE OF THE R A VAGES THAT G E N E RA LLY M A R K MOTH ER-DAUGHTER R E LATION­ SHI PS? ALREADY THIS SPIRAL OF ECHOES AND R E F LECTIONS THE LITTLE GIRL CAN FIND NO STA B L E POI NT OF REFERENCE FOR TH E FORCE OF TH I S F U N DA M ENTA L EXPERI E NCE. IN OTH E R WORDS. SENDING BACK TO H E R THE I MAGE OF H E R OWN BODY. N A RC I S S I ST I C AND OBJECT CATH EXIS ARE CONFUSED WITH EACH OTH ER. CON F R O N T E D SHE WITH THE I M A G E OF H E R INTO THE REGISTER OF THE S IG N I F I E R. OF TH E SAM E-BODY. WHAT WE HAVE J U ST SKETC H E D OUT I N DICATES TH AT SHE R U N S THE RISK OF F I N D I N G A GAZE A L R EADY A BSORBED BY A NOTHER M I RROR G A M E . I S I N FULL FORCE. BLIGHTS A N D DENIES THE DAUGHTER'S BODY. W H O CAN NOT B R I NG H E RSELF T O S A Y : "YOU ARE THAT. L I K E THE PLACENTA.B E BOY. DAS DING. N OT THAT I NSCRIBED S I G N I FY I N G R E E M E RG E S G E N E R A T I O N A FT E R G E N E R A T I O N . IT IS AS SHE WERE PARA LYZED. HA LF-FASC I NATED GAZE. I F THIS IS NOT THE CASE. EXTR E M E "JU B I LATION" U PO N D I SCOV E R I N G THAT S H E I S LIKE HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT. P E R H A PS THE PR E-OE D I PA L ATTACH MENT T O THE MOTH E R R E M A I N S S O VERY STRONG BEC A U S E T H E PLACES OF T H E MOTH E R CASTRATED BODY. SPLIT BODY. MOV E M E N T EXCHANGE. I DENTITY OF BODIES FAVORS THE VACI LLATION OF I MAGES. WHO. EQUAL T O H I MSELF. ADDED TO T H I S OF PLACES EXCHANGE IS TH E A N D I NTER­ G I R L'S TH E TH I NG ' DEPENDENCE LITTLE TO BE A MOTH ER IS I N DEED TO BE C A STRATED. SHE WI LL ASSIGN H E R DAUGHTER THE FATE OF A WOULD. S I N C E THE EQUATION BABY PENIS. THE MOTH ER CAN BELIEVE I N M I RACLES.

I N D I SCOURSE "TH E T H I N G RESOLVES I T S E L F I NTO A FFA I R S. IN THE MOST " G L O R I O U S" I M AGE OF HER FUTURE S U B J ECT. AT THAT I N STANT. S H E MOLDS H E R S E L F TO THE ORDER ROLE ONLY A L LOTT E D SO AS TO BY HER IN THE PHALLIC THE IS FA NTASY WHERE DES I R E SUSPENDED AND W H E R E T H E R E PETITIVE QUEST STOPS FOR A SHORT TI M E. ITSELF B Y ITS A BSENCE. AS THE BEGI N N I NGS OF THE BODY ITSELF. ONE S C I E N TI FIC M A Y C O N S U L T THE PROJECT F O R A WHERE FREUD DEFINES THAT T H E M OT H E R I S NOT THE OTHE R . I N R E F E R E N C E TO THIS. THE OBJ ECT A A B ETTER THAT DENY C A ST R A T I O N I M PL I E D ROLE.M OTH E R" COMES TO FILL THE E M PTY SPACE OF THE THI NG. AN E M PTY SPACE TO AROUND IN M O R E TH A N T H E DA UGHTER OF H E R REFLECTION. TO COLO N IZE THE FIELD OF THE EXPERIENCED ORDER TO B E LON G I N G T O THE THAT TH E OBJ ECT I N S I D E. LET US REPEAT THAT T H E R E I S N O R E P R E S E NTA­ TIVE OF THE T H I NG. PLACE FOR T H E P E RSON WHO MIGHT D I S P LA C E H E R : H E R DAUGHTER. BUT A LSO THAT OF HER OWN M OT H E R . BUT EVERYO N E T E N DS T O M A K E OF IT T H E V E R Y B E I N G OF WOM A N . AS R E M A I N DE R S. WHAT S H E R E P R E S E N TS . AS BOTH THE C A U S E AND THE S UPPORT O F DESIRE.M OTH ER. IT I S TH E R E FORE WITH I N TH E REGISTER O F A DECOY O R L U R E THAT THE I N THIS P E R SPECTI VE. SHE THIS SHORT C I R C U IT. NOT-S ELF ARE CONSTITUTED. T H E MOTH E R P A S S E S FROM H E R S Y M BOLIC F U N CTION I N TO A N I M AG I N A RY R E G I STER: THE TEM PTATION I S A LWYAS GREAT F O R H E R T O F I L L THE E M PTY SPACE OF THE T H I NG. T H E R E FO R E . WOMA N'S POS ITION IS WHICH DESI R E NEVER C EASES IS WANDER. WHICH BEGAN WITH A SEA RCH OBJ ECT A FOR THE LOST OBJECT. DAS D I N G . I N D E E D. W I TH T H E MOTH E R PROFITING FROM BECAUSE THE C H I LD IS CAST I NTO THE R E A L M OF D E M A ND. S H E R U N S THE R I S K O F D I SAPPEAR­ ING AS C A STRATED MOTH E R AND OF B E I NG NO P L EA S U R E R E F UG E I N THEM." HOWEVER. THE NOT-SE L F B E I N G THAT W H I C H B R I NGS U N PLEASURE. W I LL FALL T H E A IN ITS V A RIOUS G U I DES. THE DESI R E THUS. THE SELF AND THE O E D I P U S C O M P L EX. T H E C H I LD DOES NOT LOSE I T S MOTH E R : I T LOSES T H E PLACE NTA. THE MOTH ER'S DESI R E TRACES EROTOG ENIC ZON ES FROM WHICH DRIVE W I LL S P R I N G FORTH. T H E OBJECT IS BOTH R E M A I N D E R A N D AGENT IN THE PROCESS OF BECOMING OBJ ECTS A R E D I SCOV E R S I N H E R R E F LECTION H E R F I R ST LOVE OBJ ECT I N ITS MOST FASCINATING FOR M . LET US R E M E M B E R THAT D I SCOURSE FUNCTIONS AS M E A N S B E I NG A MOTH E R COMPLETELY A N D B E I N G 222 . WHAT IT W I LL B E S E E K I NG. s BECAUSE OF T H E C H A LL E N G E THAT S H E PRESE NTS TO THE SYM BO L I C ORDER." Q U I C KLY. BECAUSE T H E MOTH E R D E S I R ES A N D I S S U BJ ECT TO THE LAW OF THE S I G NI F I ER. AN A LWAYS P R E S E N T TH E TH I N G DOES NOT E X I ST. I S NOT ITS MOTH ER. FROM T H E VERY F I RST MONTHS O N . ONE ATTEM PTS TO R E D I SCOV E R ON THE OUTS I D E AS AN OBJECT THAT ONCE WAS IN BECAUSE SHE IS THE F I RST L O V E OBJ ECT. PSYCHO LOGY. AT B I RT H . I NTO THIS R EPETITIVE CYCLE. S H E W I L L P R E V E N T TH E R E P R E S ENTATION O F A M I SS I N G O B JECT THAT COULD FOU N D D E S I R E . ONE OF T H E M R E M A I N S R A DICA LLY FOR E I G N . CR EATES VERY TH E I LLUSION OF T H E N EC E S S A R Y F I L L I N G UP OF THE HOLE OF T H E R E A L FOR TH I S R E ASON. AT THE S A M E T I M E . T H E R E FORE. HERE. THE MORE SHE W I L L SET H E RSELF U P TO SHORT C I RC U I T THE PATH OF D E S I RE. OTH E R PART BY M E A N S OF I D E NTI FICATION: IT C A N BE CON SIDE RED. I N TH I S P R I M A L EXPE R I E NCE O F THE ORGA N I ZATION OF PSYC H IC R E A LITY. IN THE A S U B J ECT. IS PROVE STI LL PRES ENT IN R E A LI TY. T H E LESS SHE ACCEPTS HER CASTRATION. T H E R E IS COLLUSION B ETWE E N THE OBJECT A N D THE T H I NG. H E R C A R I NG FOR THE CH I L D WILL MARK ITS BODY. L A C A N SAYS OF THE OBJ ECTS "JOUISSANCE. TO B E A MOTH E R I S THE FUTU R E ASSIGN E D TO ALL WOM E N IN THE TH I R D ST A G E OF THE HOLDING HER ELSEWH ERE H O L LOWS O U T T H E D I F FE R E N C E BETW E E N T H E C H I LD'S N E E D A N D ITS D E M A N D . WHAT H E M E A N S BY THE N E B E N M E N SCH COM PLEX4 : THE FIRST OBJECT SPLITS I NTO TWO PARTS. TAKES MOTH E R H OOD. T H E I M AG E THAT T H E M I R ROR S E N DS BACK TO A WOMA N W H E N S H E IS C A R RY I N G H E R C H I LD IS NOT O N LY THE I MA G E O F HER OWN BODY.P R I MO R I D A L I M POSS I B L E N E E DS. " A L L." T H E Y F U N CTION. IN THE I MA G I N A RY. T H E MOTH E R OCCUPIES THE PLACE O F THE T H ING. IT D I ST I N G U I S H E S OBJECT. H OW E V E R . THE S U BJECT W I LL A LWAYS TRY TO ASSI M I LATE THE MOTH E R HOOD I S ONLY A F U NCTION. FUSION. ITS BODY I S NOT M E R E LY A BIOLOGICAL BODY. PA R A DO X I C A L­ LY. P E R H A PS P E R V E R S E . THAT S H E O N LY HOLDS I T S PLACE. BUT RATH E R. R E A L. W H I C H E F FECTS OF THE DOES NOT COM E U N D E R THE P R I N C I PLE. SHE OVERCO M E B Y TH E F A SC I NATION O F T H E R EFLEC­ TION OF B E I NG A L L. THE R E CAN BE NO MOTH E R OFFICIA LLY FU NCTIONS. THE CONSTITUTE T H E L I M IT OF A FORE V E R ' : E N IGMATIC NATURE OF T H E T H I NG. W E A L L "FORGET.

E N D I NG FA SCI N ATION O F T H E RELATION WITH THE MOT H E R HOLDS A P A RT O F A WOM A N I N T H E I M AG I N A R Y O R D E R : I N T H I S WAY. T H E MOTH ER. THERE I S NO C H A NC E T H A T WOMA N·5-BODY. I NC L U D I N G THE LACK OF A LL SYSTE M I ZATION. T H E N A T U R E OF TH I S R E I N FORCE­ MENT WAS DESC R I B E D IN THE FI RST PART OF T H I S ARTICLE. FO R THE D A UG H T E R . I N TOUCH WITH A N D R E C R I M I NATION. WOM A N'S WE S H A L L LI B I DO SAY THAT A IN ITS LEDGE THE P E R M A N E N C E O F THIS S H A DOW. THE "FI RST MASTERSPACE O F I NSC R I PTIONS. E I T H E R FOR THE MOTH E R O R FOR T H E DAUGHTER. IT I S A LSO THE U NCONSCIOUS: I N C A R I NG FOR H E R C H I LD. SHE IS NO MORE THAN A REFLECTION OF A R E FLECTION AD I N F I N I T U M . WOM A N R E M A I N S IGNORANT OF H E R TWOFOLD DIVI SION. W H I C H I S T O SAY. T H E TO WEIGH HEAVILY OR JOUISSA NCE TH ROUGH D I SCOURSE-BUT A R E A LSO IN A R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTHER. SHE IS MADE WOMEN. TRACES I NSTI NCTUA L ZONES. I F A WOM A N PLACES H E RSELF ON T H E LEFT. THI S F I E LD O F F I RST I NSCRIPTIONS. L E A D I NG TO THE R E A L THE M OTH E R F I G U R E M A S K S A L L LACKS. THUS. T O A C E R TA I N EXTENT. A LTHOUGH T H E SPOKESPE RSON OF THE SYMBOLIC ORDER. S H E W A N TS TO R E M A I N PORTION OF S H A DOW." T H I N K I NG OF THE XE XE M ETAPHOR OF THE SCR E A M THAT GIVES B I RTH TO SI LENCE." SHE M U ST ACKNOW­ MONTRELAY'S STRUCTU R I N G PORTION OF D I SC USSION OF R E PRESSION A S A PROCESS. CAN B E FOU N D ON E I TH E R S I D E I S NOT I NCOMPATIBLE WITH T H E FACT THAT J UST A S THE MOTH E R TA K ES T H E PLACE OF T H E LOST OBJ ECT AND IS L OV E D . TH E R E IS NO XA POSSI B I LITY O F I OENTI F ICATION W ITH T H E MOTH ER: ONLY I M I TATION IS POS S I BLE. THE A THIRD MOTH E R IS S TA G E THIS GRAPH FROM L A C A N'S S E M I N A I R E XX: EN· COM PL E X : THIS B E C O M ES CORE l O DEALS WITH T H E QUESTION OF JOU ISSANCE. THOSE WHO L I N E U P O N THE R I G HT. U N A W A R E OF H E R R E S PO N S I BLE ONCE AGA I N . REPEATING FOR A WOMA N TO B E ABLE TO S E I ZE T H E OCC ASION TO SPEAK FOR "H E R S ELF. A R E PLAC E D IN A PRIVI LEGED M A N N E R ON THE RIGHT.9 THE PLACE OF THE OTH ER IS TH E BODY. BECA U S E OF TH E I R R E I NFORCED AlTACH­ MENT TO T H E MOTH E R WHO M E D I ATES ACCESS TO THE OTH E R.) OR WOM EN. O N E PHALLIC CAN AS IMAGINE I N SC R I PTION IN T H E ORDER CONSTITUTIVE O F T H E NOT­ S(�) a A L L/NOT-WHOLE. ? BY D E N Y I NG C A STRATION. T H E REPRE­ SENTATIVES OF WHICH.ALL MOTHERS ROLLED I NTO O N E . TH E REFORE. "SHA DOW" (FREUD I N D I CATES THAT T H E RELATION HAS T H E CONSI STENCY OF A H ER S E LF HER OWN AND DRIVES A R E T H E TREASURY O F W I TH T H E MOTH E R SHADOW). H E R LA B I D I N A L ECONOMY I S NOT ORGANIZED ENTI R E L Y IN S U B M I SS I O N TO THE PHA LLUS. ( A N D IN SPITE OF W H A T LACA N FIGURE H A S SUGGESTED. REGA RDLESS OF WHETHER THEY ARE M E N MOTH E R CONTI N U E S U PO N A N A LYTIC THEORY. FOR C A S T R A T I O N A N D I S HATED. CONSTITUTE ( " I N STI N C T U A L SIGN I F I ERS. THAT SPEA K I NG B E I NGS. I NDEED. I N THE M I RROR SC ENE. HOWEVER. W H I C H WOULD SIGN THE RECOG N I T I O N OF A CASTRATED BODY. A WOM A N IS ONLY FOLLO W I NG DOWN IN THE LETTER OF THE OF LAW THE THE HANDED OEDIPUS MOTH ER. I N THE PSYC H I C A P P A R A ­ BY D E N Y I NG T H I S S H A R E O F THE I N EX PLORABLE TUS.") THE F I R S T I N SC R I PT I O N S . R E PETITION REMAI NS. A REMAINS 223 ." A S LACAN SAYS. s THE N E V E R. A WOM A N WITH DENIES RELATION C ON D E M N S THE S Y M BO L I C ORDER IT APPEARS TO US THAT A WOM A N A LW A Y S H E RS E L F TO I MITATION. PASSAGE F A C I L I TATED BY T H E THOSE WHO LINE UP IN THE LEFT SECTION O F FACT THAT THE MOTH E R F I G U R E I S A N I DEOLOGICAL P R O D U CT: SHE A LLOWS ONE TO AVOID THE S P E A K I N G B E I NGS H A V E ACCESS T O THE OTH E R ONLY THROUGH T H E OBJECT A . WE THE FI N D IN THIS LOVE-HATE OF A A M B I VA L E N C E WOMA N . BARS TOTAL ACCESS TO IT. T H E MOTH ER.K E E P E R OF T H E OTHER. A R E NOT ONLY SUBJECT TO THE PHA LLUS-PHA LLIC J O UISSANCE QUESTION O F FEMININE S E X U A L I TY. S H E I S NOTHI NG . T H E PLACE. AN DIVIDED STRUCTURE I RR E D U C I B L E STRUCTURE RESISTING A N A LY S I S A N D D I SCOU R S E. JOU I SSANCE W I LL E M E RGE.

IN N A RC I SSISM. S H E SENSES THAT HER SELF IS NOT SUMMED UP IN HER MANY WHOLE PHALLIC JOUISSANCE I MAGI N A RY F'OSITIONS. M A K E S D E M A N DS A N D R A I LS A G A I NST THE PHALLIC ORDER. . . I T EXISTS. SHE S U M MONS. ' ." I N A N Y CASE. WOMA N I S T H E M ETHA PHOR O F M A N'S J O U ISSA N C E . PREGNA NCY. A LT H O U G H AS IT IS D I F F E R E NT N A RC I SSISM. BETW E E N "KNOW I NG" A N D "NOT K NOWING. OR T H E RE FLECTION OF TH E BODY OF. DEl THIS PLAY AS J O U I SSANCE VALUE [VALEUR DE J O U I SSANCE1. D E N I A L OF C A STRATION AND D I V I S ION D I SC OV E R H E RS E L F WHOLE. MOMENT W H E N S H E R U N S T H E R I S K OF E X P E R I ENC­ I N G H E R S E LF AS NOT-WHOLE I N A FLEETING B U RST OF D E R I S I O N ? LET US T H I N K A BOUT THE LADY I N ON A COURTLY LOVE (THE LAUGH OF T H E M E D U S A ) WHO 224 . A WOM A N CAN IN A LSO THE EXPE R I E NC E TH I S A PHA LLIC JOU ISSANCE M A SQUERADE. WOMEN-OBJ ECTS A N G U I S H A S THEY COUNT THE GAZES S U PF'ORTING THEM. JOU IT. H O W DOES S H E E X P E R I ENCE THIS? LET US SAY FROM PROBABLY R E V E LS NOW ON THAT T H E HYSTERIC IN [JO U I T . SHE SC R E A M S SOMETHING ABOUT WHICH SHE KNOWS NOTHI NG. AUTO-EROTISM. I N O R D E R TO REVEL EVEN MORE. BUT SHE C A N NOT ACCEPT THIS. S H E COMPLA I NS. ONCE AGAIN." BECO M E CON F U S E D WITH ONE A NOTH ER. A BOUT THE BODY. W H I LE T H I S I S EQUA LLY T R U E F O R T H E BOY. IT CAN NOT. SHE REVELS IN THEM [ELLE EN JOUITJ. WE FIND IT D I F F I C U LT T O G R A S P FROM BOTH AND CAN GIVE H E RS E L F THE I LLUSION OF EXI STI NG. WHICH SHE WANTS TO ADDRESS TO A N A L L-POWER F U L W I L L ALWAYS T A K E ITS TOLL. H E R PRECARIOUSN ESS AS A S U B J EC T ( F R E Q U E NTLY HER STA G E D I N TO IN FAI NTING S P E L LS ) . W I TH T H I S SC R E A M . OR A L O S T O B J ECT. H E R O W N BODY I S ALWAYS THE S A M E BODY A S . WOMA N DOES NOT EXI ST. SHE REVELS [ELLE J O U I RAl IN THAT WHICH A FFECTS HER BODY A N D.R E LATION OF PROX I M ITY TO THE OTH E R AND COMES TO A H A LT THERE. L E T US CON S I D E R T H E HYSTE RIC. IS THIS NOT PRECISELY THE THE EVENTS OF A WOM A N'S BODY A R E M A R K E D BY S U B M I SSION TO THE PHA LLIC ORDER: SHE NEVER STOPS SPEAKING A BOUT T H E M A N D. LET US NOTE THAT. W H A T I S A A WOM A N WA N T ? IF SHE T H E OTH ER JOUISSANCE " M I STAKES" H E R I N T E R LOC UTOR. HER PERIOD. SHE SPEAKS A BOUT IT. SINCE. BUT WHICH BODY? NOT JUST H E R OWN BODY.I L ?"l ( LACANI IN THAT POS I T I O N W H E R E A L L I D EN T I F I C A T I O N S THATS IT. HER C O N S I STENCY. THE PA RODY OF DESIRE. FATH E R W H O W O U L D B E C A PA BLE OF A N S W E R I N G HER QUESTION. FOR A W H I LE. R E LATIONS. WOM A N ? WHAT DOES H E R MOTH ER. SHE IS THE REPRESE NTATI V E OF T H E THI NG. WHAT I S L I B I D I N A LLY I N VESTED I S THE PORTION OF THE OTH E R THAT ONE CARRIES W I TH I N ONESELF. N O DOUBT I T I S BEC A U S E SHE K NOWS T H A T WOM A N D O E S NOT EXI ST. AND GIVING B I RTH A R E T H E R E A L "MOME NTS" W H E N A WOMAN WHAT I S T H E N A T U R E O F THE CATH EXIS OF THIS R E LATION? BECAUSE. T H E HYSTE R I C P RETENDS TO BELIEVE THAT THERE W I LL B E A SEXUA L RELATION. W H E N S H E C A N C L I N G TO THAT W H I C H I N SC R I BES HER W I TH I N D I SCOURSE. CATH E X I S OF THE SA M E-BODY NO DO UBT PHALLIC J O U I SSANCE. THAT THE MOTHER WILL BE ABLE TO SAY: "A WOMAN. IDEALIZING GIVE PLUNGES PASSIONATE. I DENTI FICATIONS THAT. BY S P E A K I NG . BUT S H E NEITHER KNOWS N O R ACCEPTS T H I S. S U B L I M E MOTH E R S D I SPLAY TH E I R B R U I S E D BOD I ES. I NSC R I B E D JOUISSA N C E . WHOSE F'OSITION I S EXEMPLARY I N T H I S REGARD. WHICH EXPLA I N S TO U S WHY SHE OFTEN C OV E R S HER J O U ISSA N C E WITH A I N TH E FATE ASSIGNED HER IN THE T H I R D PHASE OF THE OEDIPUS C O M P L E X. A WOM A N DOES N O T E X I ST. A WOMAN DOES NOT DOLEF U L M A S K . HOWEVER. BE REDUCED TO A N OBJECT CATH E X I S. B A C K G RO U N D SEXUAL OF I N E X I ST E N C E . C E LA J O UI T. F O R THE G I R L. "DOES THAT FROM WHICH ONE COMES A LSO COM ET' ["CE DO N T ON R ELATION TO TH E MOTH E R FROM B E I NG BROACHED. M A SC U L I N E DES I R E MUST REMA I N U NSATIS­ FIED I N ORDER TO KEEP THE QUESTION OF THE OBJ ECT A IN TH E PHA NTASY OF A MAN A I M I NG FOR THE OTH E R . COMMONLY D E F I N ED. I N STEAD OF A N D BEYOND THAT FATHER. I DENTIFICATION WITH OBJECT OF R E I N FORCES TH E ATTRACTION OF NARCISSISM FOR TH E LITTLE G I R L FOR WE ARE I N D E E D TA LKING W H I C H G I VE S H E R A FAVORED PLAC E I N T H E O R D E R OF D I SCOU R S E. THE F I RST LOVE OBJECT A S WELL. EITHER I N S U BL I M E S I LENCE O R A M I DST U N E N D I NG REC R I M I ­ NATIONS.

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" O F THE C A PTIVATING PRE­ OEDIPAL "HE W H OSE BODY IS L E FT TO T H E M E RCY OF R ELATIONSH I P WITH THE MOTH E R IS R A I S E D . W R I TI NG. I F S H E A CC E PTS H E RSELF AS D I V I DED BY DES I R I NG. DOES SOM ETHING. (CONFORM­ I NG TOTALLY W I TH THE ROLE ASSIGNED HER I N THE M A SC U L I N E FANTASY). DOES I DENTI FIES THE A. I T ESCAPES I N SC R I PTION. A WOM A N C A N . IN TH A T SPACE SO CLOS E TO ITS MAGN ETIC POLE THAT THE G U I D I NG LA N D M A R KS OF THE PHA LLIC ORDER STOP F U N C TI O N I NG A WOM A N TH E AND NOT SUBV ERT O N E EXPERIENCE WO U L D OBEYING A N ECONOMY O F CON S U M PTION? HOW CAN THE SOC I A L GROUP R ECONCI L E ORGAN IZATION A N D I N O RG A N IZATION? A N OT H E R . INSCRIBE OUR TRACE A LO N G S I D E OTH E RS.K E E P E R OF THE THING A N D I S . I M ITATIVE R E PETITION. WO M A N IS NOT "LI B E R ATED" WHEN TH E R E PRES­ SION. IF SHE AGREES TO SOM nI M ES. NOT T O CONC LUDE." WHO SUCH I S THE POSITION OF THE M ASOC H I ST WITH THE OBJECT I DE NT I F I C A T I O N S A BO L I S H T H E M . WITH H E R BODY? S P R I N G FORTH. BORES C A N NOT BE SPOKEN. FOR A WOMAN: I T CAN A WOM A N CAN BE POSSI BLE. W RITING. FOR A WOM A N : IS I T P E R H A P S N O T W R I TI N G ON TH E MOT H E R'S BODY. I N T H E U NCONSCIOUS. H E RSE LF. R E F E R R E D BACK TO H E R O W N DESI R E JOUISSA N C E . WHICH PLACE S THE HER IN THE O R D E R OF OF HER A D I SC O U R S E TH I S AND TO PERMANENCE WHICH J O U I SSA N C E CAN ONLY BE DESIGN ATED. S H E W I L L SOM ETI M E S B E A B L E T O SPEAK F O R " H E R S E LF" WITHIN D I SCOU RSE. THAT I D E NT I F I C A ­ THE OTH E R B ETWE E N T H E S E DOES NOT I D E O LOG Y . IF S H E ACC E PTS HER D I V I S I O N . SANCE. A G RE E I NG OCC A SIONA LLY TO REMAIN S I LENT. T H E "FORGETTI NG. WOM A N AND WRITI NGIII TWOFOLD S P E EC H . A E X P E R I E N C E T H I S JOUISSA N C E . IT SEEMS.IS A B L E TO E X P E R I E NC E J O U I S S A N C E P E R H A PS WILL HAVE THE GOOD FORT U N E TO ESCAPE B ECA U S E S H E IS E NACTING AN I M A G I N A R Y DIVISION O F W H IC H S H E C A N NOT SPEAK. AT T H A T MOMENT. ' 2 E N D LESS. CHANTAL MAI LLET AND SYLVIE SESE-LEGER TRA N S LATED BY TERESE LYONS 226 . O F TH E TIONS R E LATION AND WE H A V E N EG LECTED JOUISSANCE C A N E X P E R I ENCE? DOES NOT A PORTION OF H E R JOUISSANCE LEAVE THE ORDER O F D I SCOU RSE I N O R D E R T O SET ITSELF A DR I FT? AT THAT MOMENT WHEN A PA RT OF HER DOES NOT MOST PARTI C U L A R LY. A WOM A N IS THE PLAC E . WASTE O F THE OTH E R'S JOUIS­ R I G I D A N D CONSTRICTING. RECOG N I ZE THAT SHE I S NOT E N TI R E LY SU BJECT TO TH E P H A LLIC F U NCTION. I N SPITE O R B E C A U S E O F ITS S I L E N C E . SHE THEN WHAT KINO OF IN THIS A RTICLE W E HAVE L I M I T E D OURSELVES TO POI NTING OUT A FEW E L E M E NTS CONT R I B U T I NG TO THE Q U ESTION OF WOMAN. T H I S A LLOWS H E R TO STA N O BACK AND TAKE A C E RT A I N D I ST A N C E IT FROM NOT LESS A N OTH E R S E E S P U R E JOUISSANCE OPEN U P BEFORE H I M. B U T RATH E R . A T TH E MOST. I N SC R I B E I TS E L F IN TH E ORDER OF DISCOURSE. BUT TO WH I C H SHE H A S H A D ACCESS. IT ATTA C H M E NT THE MOTH E R . A LTHOUGH S H E C A N S A Y NOTH I N G MORE A BOUT IT. SHE C A N E SC A P E FROM A KINO OF WRITING WITH WHICH SHE WO U L D TRY TO I D E NTIFY WITH MEN AND A LSO FROM I M PR I SON M E NT IN THE ILLUSION O F WHAT I S C A LLED A F E M I N I N E W R I TI NG. B EYON D LAW THAT IT REMAINS FOR US. W H I C H I S NOT TH E REPR ESSED. D E A R TO H E R. WHO HAVE ATTE M PTED TO SO MANY RESEMBLE I NCEST WITH T H E MOTH E R ? LET U S TH I N K O F SA I NT TH E R E S A O F A V I LA A N D OF T H E GOO S H E COMPA R E S T O A N U RSE WITH A N I N E X H A USTI BLE FLOW O F MILK. IF A WOMAN I D ENTI F I E S WITH T H E OBJECT A A LONG THE PATH TOW A R D T H E OTH ER. S H E IN THAT WAY. THAT D I SC O U R S E CAN HOLE IN THAT O R D E R . TH E BUT RATH E R M A K E S TH E M R E M A I NDER. RECOG N I ZE BOTH THE M A R K O F T H E N A M E-OF-TH E­ FATH E R . POS E Q U ESTIONS CONC E R N I NG T H E PHA LLIC O R D E R ? W H A T C A N B E M E A N T BY T H E "FE M I N IZA­ TION" O F A SOC I ETY ONCE ONE SUS PECTS TH A T THE PART OF A WOMAN WANTING TO B E BORN I S ONLY FO R TH E T H I N G. SO I S IT. FOR THAT R E A SON. V A R I O U S Q U E STIONS. ' 4 WOM A N IS NOT-WHOLE. " I T I S B Y T H I S M E A N S O F ACCESS TO THAT. BUT TH E R E IS A CATCH. I N TH E A N A LYTIC S I TUATION.

P A R I S : S E U I L. S E X U A L I TY : ' S E X U A L ITY PSYCHOLOGY OF LOVE. MONTRELA Y. I N ORDER TO AVOI D AN A RB I T R A R Y CHOICE A M ON G BE THE ITS L E FT VERB M U LT I P L E UNTRANS· " JO UIR:' [ 1 9641. " JACQUES L.) A WOMAN RECHERCHES SUR LA FEMINITE." M. P." IN 10 SIGMUND FREUD. DOU BLED BY THE MATERNAL R EFLEXION. B U T SYNTACTI· 8 CF. NOT A WOMAN I S NEVER SAFE FROM I DENTI FICATIONS. SEEMS TO U S THAT.ACAN. THIS UTTERANCE CAN BE (AS YET U N P U B L I S H ED. HOWEVE R. N E W YORK: COLLI ER BOOKS. 11 9 7 2 · 3 1 . BUT FUNDAM ENTA LLY. FOR THE SUBJECT. S H A DOWY. L'ETHN I Q U E DE LA PSYC H A N A L YSE. LOVES THE DAUGHTER WHO RESEM B LES H E R A N D 12 FOR WHOM E V E RYTHI NG I S STlL. (TRANSJ THE OEDI PUS COMPLEX SHATTERS A PA RT IN THE LITTLE BOY: IT DOES NOT DISAPPE A R IN THE LITTLE GIRL. THE PLEASU R E O F S E X U A L C L I M AX­ H A S BEEN M UC H D ISCUSSED. TRANSLATED WITH THE SEMANTICALLY U N SATISFACTORY. TO R EPRODUCE AN I M AGE. WHO. PLEASURE. "TO R E V E L. EXTR E M E WOR K I NGS HAVE SEIZED H I M . 1 1 WE WOULD SUGGEST THAT THE SIGNI FIERS 1 963. 13 I T I S NOT WITHOUT I NTEREST THAT THE ANLAYST SHOULD BE A WOM A N . TH I S BY MOTHER·ATTACH M E NT TO M E SO ELUSI VE. C H A NTAL M A I LLET. IN ALL L I K E L I HOOD. 2B ALSO F I N DS H E R OBJECTS A UPON HER OWN BODY.E N J O Y M E N T . T H A T I T H A R D TO S E E M E D AS I F I T H A D U N D E RG O N E S O M E SPEC I A LLY I N EX O RA B L E "FEMALE REPRESSION. SHE S UPPORTS THAT I MAGE. 14 THE DAUGHTER IS. SO A N A LYSIS SEEMED ATT A C H M E N T AMBIGUITY.EDGE:· THAT OF THE PYTH I A PEN ETRATED BY TRUTH. (IN THIS RESPECT.L POSSIBLE. COMPLEXE D U PROC H A I N . I T 2A " I N H E R 'AMOU R PROPRE: WOMA N D O E S N O T M A NAGE TO DISTING U I S H HER OWN BODY FROM THAT WHICH WAS HER FIRST LOVE OBJECT. IT THE THE I M PO S S I B I L I T Y WORD " OF ADEQUATELY R E P R OD U C I N G IS TO I N S E RT H I MSELF INTO A FU NCTION WHOSE J O U I SS A N C E ". POSITION OF S U FFERI NG "KNOWL. ( I N LETTRES DE L'ECOLEJ 3 SEE LACAN'S S E M I N A R O F 1 9 59·60. THE 9 FRENCH WILL B E I N D I CATED IN BRACKETS. AT THAT MOME NT. LA FEMME DANS L'AMOUR COURTOIS. BE PARIS: S E U I L. 9 1 73.NOTES 6 "TO I M ITATE IS. LATED IN JOUISSANCE W I LL 7 SEE LACAN'S S E M I N A R I E XX: 1 975. CF. P E R H A PS CON FUSION OF CATH EXES A LSO PLAYS A ROLE FOR T H E MOTHER. I N T H E CASE OF A WOMAN INSC R I BED I N THE PHALLIC ORDER. 1 95. MONTRELAY." AND ONCE WITH THE MORE DI RECT "TO COME:' IN BOTH CASES. THE OBJECTS A SUPPORTING H E R DESIRE ARE N EVER "COMPLETE· LY" S E P ARATED FROM HER. (TRANSJ E N C ORE. SHE I S ALSO I D E NTI FYI NG WHEN S H E TAKES THE CATHECTED A S A LOVE OBJECT. RECH ERCHES S U R LA F E M I N ITE. (EVEN THE AVOI DANCE O F C A STRATION?).) BACKED U P BY THE R ELATION SH I P WITH THE SAME· 4 BODY. M E A N I NGS. AND THE SEE NOTE 7. THE C H I L O OCCU P I E S A SPECIAL POS ITION. C A LLY ADEQUATE. TO MARKED LOST I N A PAST SO D I M A N D R E S U S C ITATE. THIS WILL A RTICLE. OF COU RSE. S H E I S THERE ONLY IN ORDER TO A L LOW THE I M AG E OF THE MOTHER TO BE REVEA LED. 227 . "WOMAN'5-BODY" A N D "SAM E·BODY" FORCE U S TO RECO N S I D E R T H E QUESTION OF TH E OBJECTS A.. FREUD TELLS US THAT THE FATH E R I N H E RITS " E V E RYTH I NG C O N N EC T E D HAS IN WITH THIS FI RST THE G I R L'S ATTAC H M E NT TO CONTI N U E S HER BE MOTH ER. M. LE SEM I N A I R E XI: LES QUATRE CONCEPTS FONDA M ENTAUX DE LA PSYCHANALYSE.

KLEIN THAT A N D DOLTO THE G I R L'S ARE R E A L ITY. UNDER C E RTA I N C I R C U M STANCES THEN. THE FEMININE S E N S I B I LITY EXPERI ENCES R E LA T I N G TO T H E C A STRATION OF T H E M A N :'2 WOMA N . WAS THE DRIVES BY THE EXTENT O F H I S PLEA S U R E S. O N THE OTH E R H A N D. POSITION OF TH E M A N D I FF E R S FROM THAT OF THE WOMA N WHOSE ON S E X U A LITY IS CAPABLE OF R E M A I N I NG WHAT ARE THE P R OC E S S E S WHICH M A I NTA I N THE EDGE O F A L L REPRESSION. H E EXPER I M E NTS. EXPOSES H I M V E R Y E A R LY T O T H E REALIZA­ TION THAT HE IS M A ST E R N EITHER OF THE PLEASURE. OF OF A SOC I A L WERE? DI SPLACED: IT CONSISTS I N T H E SEXUA LITY A N D CONC E R N S THE A B SENCE PROH I B I ­ T H E D ES I R E OF T H E OTH E R SEX." I N A STATE OF THE FI RST. LESS M A N I F E ST A T I O N S OF HIS DESI RE NOR OF THE R E PRESSED THAN THAT OF A MAN. ALL THE E XT R E M E PENA LIZE MASTUR BATION.A N A L D R I V E S W I T H J O N ES . O N T H E CONTR A R Y . W E KEEP SI LENT A BOUT H E R M A STURBATION. MOST OFTEN THAT OF THE FATH E R AND THEN. OF AN I N STINCTUAL A N D NOT SOCI A L ORDER. NOT O N LY WITH C H A NC E BUT A LSO WITH THE LAW A N D W I T H H I S S E X U A L O R G A N : H I S BODY ITSELF TAKES O N THE VALUE OF STA KE. . FRANCOISE OOLTO H A S SHOWN THAT. T H E G I R L R I S K S LITTLE. M A I NTA I N F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY OUTS I D E T H E ECONOMY O F REPRESENTATION-THE I NTRICATION VAG I N A L HAVE OF T H E O R A L. THE G I R L. ORDER. C I RC U M SC R I B E PLAC E O R IN R E LATION TO C A STRATION. TH E R E FO R E .. CAN L I V E A "PROTECTED" SEXUALITY. D E M O N STRATED A SCHOOL. W H I C H I S W H Y P E R R I E R A N D GRANOFF H AVE BEEN ABLE TO S HOW TO . OF THE M A SC U L I N E T I O N S : T H E G I R L I S L E S S S U B J ECT THA N TH E BOY TO THE T H R EATS AND TO THE DEFENCES WHICH PARTN ER. IN YET OTH E R PROC E SSES. S H E LT E R E D BY T H E I R P R I VACY. IT LENDS ITSELF LESS EASILY TO LOSING ITSELF AS THE STA K E OF U NC O N S C I O U S WHOSE ENGLISH FO R C E R E P R E S ENTATION. THE STA K E OF C ASTRATION FOR THE WOMA N F I N DS I TS E L F FEM I N ITY -OUTSIDE NATURE. . T H E A NATOMY O F TH E BOY. TH E ''CONTI N E NT'' W H I C H C A N B E C A LLED -DARK" T O T H E EXTENT THAT IT I S OUTSIDE THE C I RC U M FE R ENCE OF T H E SYMBOLIC ECONOMY (FORECLOSED).AN I NQU I RY I NTO FE M I N I N ITY FEM I N I N E EROTI C I S M IS MORE CENSORED.. AS IT R E PRESSION.' O N E TENDS T O REFER T O THE A N X I ETY OF RAPE A N D PEN ETRATION W I TH O U T E M P H A S I Z I N G T H A T . A LL THE MORE A S I T I S LESS OBSERVABLE. ON I N S I STED THE FACT OF ARCHAIC EXPERIENCES THE VAGINA 228 .

WAS A LSO THE MATE R I A L OF A RCHAIC R E PRESSION. IS AN OJ ECT I N EXCESS WHICH MUST BE "LOST:' THAT IS TO SAY. WE WOULD H A V E TO SPEC I FY FURTH E R WHAT I S ONLY I NTIMATED H E R E : THAT T H E R E A L OF T H E BODY. TIED TO TH E PRESENCE OF THI S BODY. NOTH I NG . WE HAVE TRIED TO S H OW T H A T T H I S F E A R (EFFRACTION) A LONE IS NOT A R E S U LT OF P H A NTA S I E S O F V I OLATION A N D B R E A K I N G I N • • ." ACTS AS A N OBSTACLE TO IT. IS THE BLI N D SPOT OF THE SYMBOLIC PROCESS A N A LYZED BY FRE UD. P R E C OC I O U S S E X U A L I T Y " T U R N S " A R O U N D A SINGLE ORIFICE. BE IN WOMAN" GAVE TH E ACCESS TO A SHE BEARS JOUISSANCE OF THE BODY AS FEM I N I N E AND/OR S ELF-LOVE HERSELF. "ACCORDING TO JONES:' I. A TH I R D S E R I E S OF PROCESSES STA N DS I N TH E WAY O F R E P R E S S I O N : C O N C E R N I N G T H E WO M A N ' S R E LATION TO HER OWN BODY. ANXI ETY. T H E R E STOR A T I O N O F T H E STA K E P R OC E E D E D B Y CHANCE. BUT. I T C O M P R O M I S E S W O M A N ' S R E LA T I O N T O C A S T R A T I O N AND TH E LAW: TO A BSORB. IT M UST BE STRESSED THAT SUCH A PRECOCI TY. R E PR ESENTATI ON IS T H R E A T E N E D BY RUIN. H E N C E TH E S Y M PTOM S W H I C H SO OFTEN S I M U LATE THIS LOSS: "TH E R E IS NO LONGER . THE DEFIC I E NCIES. FAR FROM FAVORING A POSSIBLE "MATURATION. I N OTH E R WORDS. E V E R Y OCC U R R E NCE OF A S E X U A L K I N D ( P U B ERTY. W H I C H I T WOULD BE A M I STA K E TO SEE AS THE EXPRESSION IF THI S I N SATIABLE ORGAN-HOLE IS AT THE CENTER OF PRECOCIOUS SEXUA LITY." I T IS A P R E S U P POS E D MOV E M E N T OPPOSED TO THAT BY C A ST R A T I O N : WHERE THE JOUISSANCE O F T H E BODY LOSE S ITSELF "FOR" A D I SCOU RSE WHICH IS OTHE R . I S FORBIDDEN FOR T H E WOMEN: TH E R E I S NO STATEM ENT OR L A W W H I C H PROHI BITS T H E RECOVERY OF TH E STAKE SINCE T H E R E A L W H ICH I M PO S E S I T S E L F A N D T A K E S T H E P L A C E OF REPRESSION A N D DESIRE IS. MATE R N I TY. A T BOTTOM . THE WOMAN C A N NO LONGE R REPRESS. REPRESSED. H ETEROG E N EOUS T E R R I TO R I E S C O. I T IS AS IF "TO BECOME WOM A N . ANXI ETY AND THE R E LATION TO THE BODY OF A N ALLEGED "CASTRATION. IS TO REDUCE THE WORLD TO T H E MOST ARCHAIC I N STI NCTUAL "LAWS. BUT A LSO A N D A BOVE A LL." THE A N A LYST OFTEN FINDS A "FE A R OF FEM I N I NITY" IN CON N ECTION WITH FEM I N I N E A NX I ETY. . S I NCE IT MAINTA I N S E ROTI C I S M OUTSIDE THE R E P R ESENTA­ TION OF CASTRATION. F EM I N I N ITY EXPER I E NC E D A S REAL AND I M ME D I ATE. TO TAKE. O N LY THE HOLE. WE F I N D AGAI N HERE T H E THE M E OF CONCENTRI­ CITY. ." 229 . FROM NOW ON. S I M U LATANEOUSLY. CONTI N U OUS. "LOSE:' THE F I R ST STA K E OF R E P R E SE NTATI O N . TH E WOMA N C A NNOT DIFFERENTIATE H E R OWN BODY F ROM T H A T W H I C H W A S "TH E F I R ST OBJECT. E M PTIN E S S .E . A N YTHI NG. CAN ONLY BE I N S I STENT. FEM I N I N ITY.. E SPE­ C I A LLY IN T H E A DOLESCENT. TO U ND ERSTAND. BUT AT THE ROOT OF TH I S THREAT THERE A R E D I F F E R E N T P R OC E S S E S : F O R O E D I P U S . A N ORGAN WHICH I S BOTH DIGESTIVE AND V AG I N A L. SO CLOSE. F R O M T H E GODS: IT WAS EFFECTED I N SPITE OF A PROHI BITION. IN O R D E R TO BE S Y M BOLIZED. IF I T I N FL ECTS ALL PSYCHIC MOVEMENT ACCO R D I NG TO C I R C U LA R AND C LOS E D SC H E M A S . I N TAK I NG FORM AT PUBE RTY. THE ORGANIZER OF DESIRE: WHICH. RE­ ACTUALIZES. A S IN THE TRAGEDY. TO DEVOUR. THIS BODY. O R A PPROPRIATE. AS OBJECT O F THE LOVER'S DESI RE. I T I S FEA R OF THE FEM I N I N E BODY AS A NON-REPRESSED A N D U N R E P R E S E NTABLE OBJ ECT. IT I S A DEFENSE PRODUCED IN O R D E R TO PARRY THE AVATA R S. I T IS QUITE TRUE THAT THE VERY S M A LL G I R L EXPE R I E NCES H E R F E MI N I NI TY V E R Y EA RLY. THE REAL OF H E R OWN BODY. FOR H E R." ON T H E CONTRA RY. E ROTIC E X P E R I ENCES. ETC. RECOV E R I N G H E RSELF AS MATER N A L BODY ( A N D ALSO AS PHALLUS). W H ICH SHE H A S TO OCC U PY. FOR THE WOMAN E N JOYS H E R BODY AS S H E WOULD THE BODY OF A NOTH E R . I N CHARGING ITSELF W I T H I N T E N S I TY A N D I M PO R T A N C E A N D PRESENCE. S U C H I S THE L E IM O T I F OF ALL FEMI N I N E A N A LYSIS. OF THAT OF THE MOTHER. LATER ON. O F SYMBOLIC CASTRATION. WHICH C E A SELESSLY TENDS TO ABSORB. W E WILL N O T TH E R EFORE QUESTION T H E T R U T H OF TH E CLI N IC A L OBSERVATIONS PRODUCED BY THE ENGLI S H SCHOOL: ALL EXPE R I ENCE OF C H I LD A N A LYSI S CON F I R M S T H E P RECOCITY OF THE "KNOWLEDGE" O F THE V AG I N A.ORGANIZED AS A FUNCTION OF P RE-ESTABLISHED ORAL-A N A L SCH E M A S.." "TO M A T E R N A L. TWO I NCOMPATIB LE. THE REAL O F THAT OTHE R BODY.E X I ST I N S I DE T H E F E M I N I N E U NCONSC I O U S : THAT O F R E P R E S E N TATION A N D THAT WHICH REMAINS "THE DARK CONTIN ENT. A R ELATION S I M U LTANEOUSLY N A R C I S S I STIC A N D EROTIC. HERE. RE-I NCARNATES. W HICH AT THE B EG I N N I N G OF L I FE WAS THE SUBSTANCE OF WORDS.) HAPPENS TO HER A S IF I T CAME FROM A NOTHE R (WOMA N ) : EVERY OCCURRENCE IS THE FASCINATING ACTUA LIZATION OF THE' FEMI­ N I N ITY OF ALL WOM EN. MORE G E N ERALLY. O N THE CONTRARY. A T T H E FURTHER EXTREME.

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IN

TH E

R E G I STER OF EROTIC FICTION: W H E R E THE F E M I N I N E O R I FICE. O. I S " F A LSE LY" R E PR E S E N T E D I N ITS

SUCCESSIVE M ETAMORPHOSES.

DESI R E

O N L Y T O TH I S

FLESH?" T H E W O M A N A FFORDS A G Ll M !"S E O F T H E R E A L BY V I R T U E O F H E R R E LATION T O N OTHING­

HERE. I WOULD RATH E R TU R N TO THE POETS. THOSE WHO HAVE WRITTEN I N T H E NOVELISTIC O R M A D E FILMS OUT OF THE FEMI N I N E DRAMA
("C I N EMA"'.

THAT I S TO SAY. TO THE T H I NG. AT T H I S M O M E NT. THE SYMBOLIC COLLAPSES I N TO T H E R E A L. FR E U D' A LSO SAYS THAT THE P E R V E R T C A N NOT SEE THE

SINCE TH E L I M ITATIONS O F THIS ARTICLE RULE OUT ANY D E TA I L E D C ON S I D E R A T I O N OF C L I N I C A L

CASTRATED BODY OF H I S MOTH E R . I N T H I S S E N S E . E V E R Y M A N I S A P E RV E RT. ON T H E O N E H A N D. H E E N J O Y S W I THOUT S A Y I N G SO. W I THOUT COM I NG TOO C LOSE-FOR T H E N H E WOULD H A V E TO TA K E U PO N

CASES.

TA K E FELLINI. TH E D I R ECTOR O F J U L I ETTE OF THE SPIRITS. A F I L M SO BAFFLING. N O DOUBT. BEC A U S E IT B R I NGS OUT TH E PRESENCE OF THE "DARK

H I MS E L F A T E R R I B L E A N X I ETY. OR E V E N H A TE-: H E ENJOYS BY PROXY THE THING HE GLIMPSES

THROUGH T H E MOTH E R . O N THE OTH E R H A N D. H E DOES NOT APPEAR T O U N D E RSTA N D THAT H E R

CONTINE NT' S O W E L L T H E D I M E NSION O F F E M I N IN­ ITY THAT LACAN TA K I N G SHAPE THE IN DESIGNATES FROM JOA N UP AS M ASQU E R A D E . TAKES

R E LATION T O T H E TH I N G I S S U B L I MATED. I T I S T H I S E V I L W H I C H H A S TO B E REPRESSED.

TERM

R I V I E RE. "

THIS HATS

PILING AND

O F C RAZY THI NGS. B A R OQ U E CON­ A F I L M L I K E DAYS OF WRATH'v LAYS B A R E A L L T H E M A SC U L I N E " D E F E N C ES" AGA I N ST F E M I N I N ITY A N D WOM A N ' S D I R EC T R ELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E MAN IS TERRORIZED RAISES BY THE THREAT THAT IN

FEATHERS.

STRANGE

STRUCTIONS WHICH RISE UP L I K E SO M A N Y S I LENT I N SI G N IAS. BUT WHAT WE M U ST S E E I S THAT THE OBJ ECTI V E OF S UC H A M A SQUERADE I S TO SAY

N OT H I NG. ABSOLUTE LY NOTHING. A N D IN ORDER TO PRODUCE THIS NOTH I N G T H E WOMAN USE S H E R OWN

F E M I N I N ITY

FOR

" H I S"

R E P R E S S ION.

O R D E R TO R E A S S U R E H I M A N D C O N V I N C E H I M . T H E

230

WOMA N A LWAYS A DV A N C E S F U RT H E R A LONG H E R O W N PATH S P E A K THE ST A N D BY EXPLA I N I NG H E R S E LF, TRUTH, HER BUT SHE W I S H I NG T O

SC R I B E D . FEM I N I NI TY

THE AND

STA K E NOT

IS

NOW

P R ECOC I O U S M A SC U L I N E

TH E

PENIS O R

OOES N O T U N DER­ WILL NOT AND

SEXUA LITY: P R ECOC I O U S F E M I N I N I TY B ECOM E S T H E MATERIAL OF R E P R ESSION. "ACCOR D I N G T O J O N ES" ONE OR S E V E R A L P E RIODS OF LATE NCY CORRES­ PON D TO THIS DECATHEXIS OF S E X U A LITY, P E R IODS D U R I NG WHICH T H E LITTLE GIRL AND THE W O M A N D I S E N TA N G L E T H E M S ELVES FROM TH E I R OWN

THAT

DISCOURSE

C A N NOT B E R E C E I V E D . FOR T H E FACT O F BYPASS­ I NG THE LAW OF R E P R ES S I O N P R E C I S E L Y B Y SAYI N G ALL, AND CONTA M I NATES MAKES TH E M O S T P R E C I O U S TRUTH ODIOUS AND C O N D E M N ­

I T S U SPECT,

ABLE. H E NCE M A SC U L I N E C E N S U RE. THE F R U ST R A T I O N S , WHICH HAVE I NT E R D I C T I O N S A N D CON­ WEIGHED BE ON WOMEN AND FOR ARBI­

BOD I ES A N D ITS PLEASURES. THIS I S W H Y P E R I O D S OF FRIGIDITY IN A N A LY S I S I ND E X OF CAN OFT E N BE

T E M PT

CONSI D E R E D MARK THE

AS

AN

PROGRESS: PATI E N T

THEY DE­

C E N TU R I ES

MAY

I ND E E D

ABSURD

MOMENT

WHEN

THE

TRARY, BUT THEY DO NOT M A TT E R . TH E M A I N THING IS THE FACT OF I M PO S I N G THE D E F I N ITIVE

CATH ECTS T H E V AG I N A L-O R A L SC H E MA S W H I C H TI LL THEN W E R E A LO N E CAPABLE O F PROV I D I N G ACCESS T O E ROTIC PLEASU RE.

A B A N D O N M E N T O F J O U I S S A N C E . T H E SCA N D A L C A N THEN COME T O A N E N D-TH E F E M I N I N E S E X B E A R S W I T N E S S T O C A STRATION .

THE

DE C I S I V E

STE P

BY

WHICH

THE

FEM I N I N E

U NCONSC I O U S I S M O D I F I E D LI ES, NOT SO M U C H I N THE A N A LYST, FOR HIS P A RT, C A N NOT DEFINE THE C H A N G E O F LOVE OBJECT" A S I N T H E C H A N G E IN THE U N C O N SC I O U S R E P R ESENTATIVE, PHALLIC R E P R E S E NTATIVES ARE MASCU­ S UBSTI­

F E M I N I N E C A STRATION S I M P LY A S T H E E F F ECT O F HIS STRUCTU RES. IF THE EXEMPLAR OF THE

LINE,

HYSTE R I C A L, N E U ROTIC WOMA N I S O N E W H O N EVER LETS U P WI S H I N G TO B E H E R SEX, I N V E R S E LY, I SN'T THE " A D U LT" W O M A N ONE WHO RECONSTRUCTS H E R SEXUALITY I N A F I E L D W H I C H G O E S B E Y O N D S E X ? T H E P R I N C I PLE OF A M A SC U L I N E L I B I DO U PH E L D BY

TUTED F O R T H E F I RST "CONCENTRIC" R E P R E S E N ­ TATI VE. T H E L A W A N D T H E PATE R N A L I D E A L S O F THE FA T H E R WHICH ARE ARTICU LATED NEW IN HER

D I SCOU R S E

CONSTITUTE

THE

R E P R E S E NTA­

TIVES CAPA B L E O F S U PPLANTING TH E MODELS OF A R C H A IC R E P R E S E NTATIONS (FE M I N I N E OED I P U S) '

F R E U D COULD B E C L A R I F I E D A S A TH I S "EXTRATE R RITOR I A LITY."

F U NCTION O F

L E T US N O T E THAT T H I S S U BSTITUTION D O E S N OT F E M I N I N E CASTRATION: H Y POTH ESES MUTI LATE THE W O MA N AND DEPR I V E HER OF A

P E N I S WH I C H S H E N E V E R H A D , BUT DEPRI VES H E R O F ONCE AGA I N , LET US TA K E AN E X A M PLE FROM T H E SENSE O F P R EC OC I O U S SEXUALITY. FE M I N I N I TY I S FORGOTT E N , I ND E E D RE PRESSED, AND THIS LOSS CONSTITUTES THE S Y M BOLIC CASTRATION O F T H E WOMAN,

LITERATU R E, K LOSSOW S K I ' S PORTRAITS O F WOM E N E A S I LY LEND TH E M SELVES WE TO A CLINICAL AT THE ANA­ THE

COM M E NTARY.

MIGHT B E SURPRISED

A STON I S H I N G L Y TOM I C A L AND

V I R I LE

ATTR I B U T E S ( BOTH WHICH

P S Y C H I C A L - 'N I T H

AUTHOR E N OOWS H I S H E RO I N E S A N D D E D U C E FROM THEM S O M E P E R V E R S I O N. I T IS A LSO POSSIBLE TO SEE IN THESE ATTRIB UTES THE M A T E R I A L OF A

SUBLIMATION AND M ETAPHOR

IN

A N A LY S I S

AND

MORE THE

S P EC I F I C A LLY,

IN

TH E

MORAL FABLE OUTLI N I NG A T Y P E OF P E R FECTED FEMINI NITY: T H E WOMA N WOULD "T R U E" BE WOMAN, AS T H E " F E M M E" WHO HAS

TRA NSFE R E N C E ,

( I , E"

SET OF U NCONSCI O U S E N U N C I ATION

MOD I FICATIONS P R O D U C E D BY THE

DRAWN

SHE

OF D I SCO U R S E O N T H E COUC H), THE D I M E N S I O N OF PLEA S U R E C A N E M E RGE.

" FORGOTT E N "

HER

F E M I N I N ITY,

AND

WHO

WOU LD

ENTRUST T H E J O U I S S A N C E A N D T H E R E PRESE NTA­ TION OF IT TO AN OTH E R . FOR THIS REASON, IN NO IN RECHERCH ES, TOROK SPEAKS OF ITS M A N I FESTA­ TION: "W H E N ONE OF MY PAT I E NTS HAS ' U N DE R ­

KLOSSOWSKI'S WAY TALK

H E RO I N E ,

ROBE RTE, HER

COULD BOD Y

ABOUT

H E R S E LF,

OR "THE

STOOD' A N I N TE R P R ETATION, WHEN. CONSEQUENT­ LY, AN I N H I BITION IS L I FTED, A FREQUENT

WORD THAT IT CONCEA LS.� I T IS SOMEON E E LSE'S TASK TO HOLD THE D I S C O U R S E O F F E M I N I N I TY, I N LOVE A N D/OR I N A NOVEL.

I NDICATION O F T H I S A DVANCE I S THAT THE PATI E N T D R E A MS A N D I N T H I S D R E A M S H E H A S A N O RG A S M " (A D E SC R I PT I O N OF ONE OF THESE DREAMS

UNDER T H E S I G N OF THIS FORG ETTING, A SECON D ECONOMY LONG E R OF THE D E S I R E, SAME, WHERE CAN THE STA K E IS NO DE-

FOLOWS)."

EFFECTIVELY

BE

TOROK,

BY

I N S I ST I N G

ON

THE

FACT

THAT

A

23 1

P L E A S U R E A RI S E S W H E N A N EW R E P R E S ENTATION IS E L A BORATED. TELLS US WHAT IS E S S E N TI A L

M UST

BE

E M P H A S I Z E D.

IN

R E S PO N S E A N A L Y ST

TO

THE

A N A LY S A N D'S ATES A S A R I LY

P H A NTASY. T H E

ENUNCI­

A BOUT T H I S P L EA S U R E . CONTRA R Y T O WHAT O N E M I G H T TH I N K . TH I S P L E A S U R E DOES NOT L I E I N THE L I FTI NG OF TENSION. AN I N H I B I TION. IN TH E TOO R E LEA S I NG O F LONG. ON TH E

C E R TA I N N U M B E R OF S I G N I F I E R S N ECES­ RELATING TO HIS OWN DESI R E AND HIS

L I STE N I NG-PLA C E . T H E S E WORDS A R E OTH E R : T H E A N A LYST'S D I F F E R E NT. M I R RO R . OF D I SC O U R S E AS SUCH IT IS IS NOT A R E FL E X I V E . BUT A

C O N TA I N E D THE BY

FOR

CONTRARY. EXPLICABLE

PLEASURE. THE CLICHE

FAR OF

FROM

BEING ("DE­

METAPHOR.

NOT

RELEASE

THE

PATl E NT'S

D I SC O U R S E .

A N D.

FO U L E M E Nr')" A R I S E S F R O M THE PUTTI NG I N PLACE

P R E C I S E LY. M ET A P H O R I S C A P A B LE OF E N G E N D E R ­ ING PLEASURE.

OF

NEW

R E P R E S E NTATI ONS. F I R ST

LET

US

NOTE

THAT

THESE THE

WERE

E N U N C I A TED IN

BY TH E OTH E R . V E RBALLY FI RST FREUD AND TH E N LAC A N A N A LYZED THE

A N A LYST. W H O .

I N T E R P R ETING. OF A

A R T I C U LA T E S

S O M ETH I NG

SEXUA LITY

MOTI V E S O F T H I S P L E A S U R E W I TH R E G A R D T O T H E JOKE. WE LAUGH WHEN WE PERCEIVE THAT THE

M A I NTA I N E D T I L L TH E N I N T H E STATE O F N A T U R E . I N T H E "DA R K . "

WORDS S P E A K A T E X T OTH E R T H A N T H A T W H I C H W E T H O U G H T. AND IF THE OTH E R L A U G H S. IF THE

H E R E . T H E R E FO R E .

P L E A S U R E I S T H E E FFECT O F

M I S A P P R E H ENSION P L A Y S ON O N E M O R E REGISTER. THE PLEASURE BECOMES KEENER STILL. WHAT

T H E WORD OF T H E OTH E R . M O R E S P EC I F I C A L LY. I T OCC U R S AT THE FOR A DV E NT WHAT IS OF A S T R U CT U R I N G IN THE

F U NCTION D O E S T H I S OTH E R TEXT. T H I S OTH E R E A R . H A V E ? I T H A S T H E F U NCTION O F E N G E N D E R I NG A M ET A P H O R . THAT IS TO SAY. OF S U BS T I T U T I N G

D I SCOU R S E .

ESS E N T I A L

A N A LY S I S OF A WOM A N I S N OT M A K I NG S E X U ALITY M O R E "CON S C I O U S" O R I N T E R PRET I N G IT. AT LEAST NOT I N THE SENSE N O R M A L LY GIVEN TO THIS TERM. THE ANA LYSrS WORD TA K E S ON A COMPLETELY

I T S E L F F O R T H E P R E C E D I NG TEXT A N D L I S TE N I NG­ PLACE. PLEASURE ARISES THE MOMENT THIS

M ET A P H O R I S PRODUCED. LACA N S A Y S THAT I T I S I DE NT I F I E D M ET A P H O R .7 WITH THE VERY M E A N I NG OF THE

D I F F E R E N T F U NCTI ON. I T N O LONG E R E X PLA I N S . BUT FROM THE SOLE FACT OF ARTICULATING. IT

STR UCTU RES. B Y V E R B A L L Y PUTTING I N PLACE A R E P R E S E NTATION O F C A S T R A TION. T H E A N A LYSrS WORD THIS MAKES TYPE S E X U A L I TY PASS I NTO DISCO U R S E . T H E R E FO R E IN WHAT THEN. DOES THIS M E A N I NG B E R E FT O F

S I G N I F I C A TI O N C O N S I ST? W E C A N D E F I N E I T A S T H E MEASURE OF THE E M PTY "SPACE" I NDUCED BY

OF

I N T E R P R ET A T I O N

RE PRESSES. A T L E A ST I N TH E S E N S E G I V E N TO T H E
W O R D H E RE.

R E P R E S S I O N . T H E M ETAPHOR. BY POS I NG I T S E L F A S THAT WHICH IS NOT S POKE N . H O L LOWS O U T A N D

D E S I G N ATES T H I S S P A C E . F R E U D S A I D T H A T T H E U N D ERSTOOD P E R H A PS C U L TU R A L IN THIS WAY. US TO I NTE R P R ETATION CAN LOCATE A C E RTA I N P L EA S U R E OF T H E JOKE L I E S I N T H E R E T U R N O F THE R E P R ESSED. DOES IT NOT R A TH E R. LIE

HELP AND

IN

S OC I A L

F U N CT I O N O F PSYCHO­

PUTTI NG T H E D I M EN S I O N OF REPRESSION I NTO P L A Y O N T H E LEVEL O F T H E T E X T ITSE1.F?

A N A LY S I S. T H E

F R E U D I A N T H EORY OF S E X U A LITY IN R E LATION TO ASK W H E TH E R PRE­

W A S D E V E LO P E D (MISE E N PLACE) WOM E N AND F E M I N I NI TY. WAS WE N OT CAN

I T IS T H I S P L E A S U R E O F THE JOKE THAT CAN B E EVOK E D I N R E LA T I O N TO A L L S U B L I M ATION. FO R I T I S A N O P E R AT I O N W H I C H C O N S I STS I N OPE N I NG U P N E W D I V I S I O N S A N D SPACES I N T H E M A T E R I A L THAT IT T R A N S FO R M S . IN THE TRANSFERENCE. THE

PSYCHOA N A LY S I S

A RT I C U L A T E D

C I S E L Y I N O R D E R T O R E P R E SS F E M I N I N I TY ( I N T H E S E N S E OF PRODUC I NG ITS S Y M BOLIC R E P R E S E NTA­ T I O N ) . AT THE S A M E T I M E . F R E U D'S R E S E R V ATIONS ABOUT JON E S WOU L D M A K E SENSE: T H E A TT E M PTS TO " M A K E" F E M I N I N I TY " S P E A K" W O U L D S U R E LY

PAT I E NrS ORGASM TOOK NOTE O F A N I NT E R P R ETA­ TION. S U R E LY T H I S OF AIR IS BEST R E P R E S E N T E D AS TWO A

J EOPARDIZE T H E V E R Y R E P R ESSION THAT F R E U D H A D K N O W N HOW TO A C H I E V E .

BREATH

B ETWE E N

SIGNIFI ERS.

S U D D E N LY O P E N E D U P B Y T H E M ETAPHOR?

LET U S RETU R N TO O U R E X A M PLE. W H A T PLEASU R E CAN THERE BE IN THE R E PRESSION THAT IS

T H E O R G A S M . LIKE A B U ST OF LAUGHTER. TESTI F I E S TO THE M E A N I NG-I N S I G N I F I C A NT-DF WE M U S T NOW OF " W I T" TRY TO IN THE A N A L­

PRODUCED AT T H E M O M E N T O F I NT E R P R ETATION? FI RST. LET U S S A Y THAT I N T E R PRETATION. A S I T IS A N A LYZED H E R E . DOES N OT CONSIST SO M UC H I N E X P LA I N I NG A N D COM M EN T I N G A S I N A RTICU LAT­ I N G . H E R E AGA I N . IT IS THE FORM OF WORDS W H I C H

YSrS WORD. THIS

R E D I SCOV E R AND

D I M E N SI O N

PLEAS U R E

JOUISSANCE.

PLEA S U R E A N D J O U I SSANCE

232

F E M I N I N E EROTIC PLEASURE VARI ES CONSIDE RAB­ LY IN ITS NATURE AND EFFECTS. THERE I S VARI ETY IN THE PLACES OF THE BODY CATH ECTED. IN THE LEVEL OF I NTENSITY. I N TH E OUTCOM E (ORGASM OR N OT > . AND IN THE E F F ECTS: A " S U CC E S S F U L"

TION.

DOES

NOT

THE

SUBLI MATED

SEX U A L

ACT

CONSTITUTE FOR THE WOM A N O N E OF THE WAYS O F PUTTING A N ECONOMY I NTO PLACE W H E R E : 1 . T H E S I G N I F I E R WOU LD BE ACTUALIZED I N THE RHYTH M . T H E PERIOD RETU RN O F THE P E N I S: 2. T H E STA K E WO ULD C O N S I ST O F T H E REPRESSED FEMININE

SEXUAL R E LATION CAN C A U S E C A L M OR A N X I ETY. LET US A LSO R E M E M B E R THAT A N E U ROSIS C A N N OT N ECESSARI LY BE I N F E R R E D FROM F R I G I D I TY; A N D T H AT. R E C I P R OC A L L Y . WOM EN PSYCHOTI C S I NTENSE AND VERY

DRIVES. ' o INSEPA RABLE F ROM T H E PENIS ITSELF; AND 3 . PLEASU R E WOULD BE THE M E A N I NG OF THE M ETAPHOR THROUGH WHICH THE PENIS "WOULD

I M MATU RE ORGA SMS.s

HAVE

VAG I N A L

REPRESS" T H E BODY. F E M I N I N E SEXUA LITY.

LET HOW A R E WE TO M A K E S E N S E OF TH E E X U B E RANCE. THE BIZA R R E N ESS A N D THE PARADOXES OF THESE PLEA S U R ES? BY R E F E R R I NG LESS TO THE V A R I E ­ TIES OF FORM AND I N T E N S ITY THAN TO TH E I R

US

BE

MORE

PR ECISE:

THE

PEN IS.

ITS

THROBBING. ITS C A D E N C E A N D THE MOVE M E NTS O F LOVE- M A K I N G C O U L D B E PUR EST AND MOST SAID T O PRODUCE T H E FORM OF

E L E M E N TA R Y

SIGN I FY I N G A RTIC U LATION. THAT' O F A S E R I ES O F BLOWS W H I C H M A R K OUT THE SPACE OF TH E BODY.

FU NCTION I N T H E PSYC H IC ECONOMY. H E R E AGA I N . WE WILL D I ST I N G U I S H THE TWO T Y P E S AND OF SEXUAL SUBLI­

PLEAS U R E : MATED.

P R ECOC I O U S

THE

IT I S TH I S WHICH OPENS U P RHYTH M S A LL TH E MORE A M PLE AND I NTENSE. A JOUISSANCE ALL TH E MORE KEEN AND SERIOUS I N THAT THE P E N IS. THE OBJECT

THE FI RST WAS E A R L I E R SEEN TO BE T H E E FFECT OF THE EXPE R I E N C E OF ARCH A IC S E X U ALITY. EVEN I F IT I NVOLVES TWO PEOPLE. EVEN I F IT PRESENTS THE APPEARANCE OF AN A D ULT S E X U A LITY. OR RAISES TO IT

WHICH I S ITS I N STR U M E N T. IS SCA RC E LY A N YTH I NG.

BUT TO STATE TH I S I S TO STATE A PARADOX: THE PENIS PROD U C E S JOUISSANCE BECA U S E IT

M E R E LY

RE-ACTU A L IZES

THE

I N C A R N ATES A I M P LIES A

F I N I TU D E .

S U B L I M A TION A L W A Y S THE PHALLIC SIG­

H I G H EST PITCH I N ORGASM. THE JOUISSANCE THAT TH E WOM A N PLEA S U R E . FU RTH E R E R OTIC HAS OF H E RSELF. 9 I N THIS TYPE OF THE OTH E R'S LOOK A N D HIS C I RC U LA RITY THE DESIRE. OF THE

DE-IDEA LIZATION.

N I F I E R. DETAC H E D F R O M THE T E R R I FY I NG REPRE­ SENTATIONS OF T H E SUPE REGO WHICH RE VOLVE

R E I N FORCE

TH E

A ROU ND THE I M A G I N A R Y PHALLUS. M U ST APPEA R AS AN OBJ ECT O F NOT- M UCH- M E A N I NG. "

R E LA T I O N .

HENCE

A N X I ETY

THAT

A R I S E S B E FORE A N D AFTER T H E S E X U A L ACT. TH I S I N V E R S E LY. PLE A S U R E CAN B E STRUCTU R I NG I N ITS EFFECTS. THE SORT OF "G E N I US." O F I N S P I RATION WHICH TH E WOM A N D I SCOVERS AFTER LOVE. SHOWS THAT A N EVENT O F A N UNCONSCIOUS NATURE HAS OC C U R R E D. WHICH HAS E N A BL E D HER TO TAKE U P A C E RTA I N DI STA N C E F RO M T H E D A R K CONTI N E NT. STEP USUA LLY SUSPENDED D U R I NG CHI LD­ PLACE A FTER THE FI RST SEX U A L

HOOD.

TA KES

EXPER I E NCES OF A D U LTHOOD. IS IT A QUESTION OF U N CON S C I O U S GROUND CERTA I N HAS ETH I C PROCESSES? BEEN PROVI DED LIFE WORK. THE A

PREPARED. THIS

AND

U N DERTAKE

TO THE

EXTENT THAT ROMANTIC I D E A LIZATION IS SUCCESS­ FU LLY M O U R N E D ( R E L I N Q U I S H ED). TO THE EXTENT

WE WILL CALL S U B LI MATED PLEA S U R E THAT WHICH TA KES THE S A M E SURE WHILE FOR MS AS I N C ESTUOUS PLEA­ PRESU PPOS I NG AND

THAT THE D I M E N S ION OF THE G I FT PREDO M I NATES. THE PE N I S CAN OBJ ECTI FY. BY ITS VERY I N SIGN I F I ­ CANCE. THE " D I F F I C U LTY T O B E " OF T H E COU PLE. I N WHICH JOUISSANCE IS LOST. T H U S I T C A N NO

NON ETHELESS

CONFI R M I NG W O M E N ' S ACCESS TO THE S Y M BOLIC. TH I S PLEASURE IS NO LON G E R DERIVED FROM

LONGER BE S E PA RATED I N ITS CONSISTENCY FROM THE MATE R I A L OF THIS HAS A R C H A IC. BEEN FEM I N I N E

FEM I N I N ITY AS SUCH. BUT FROM THE SIGNIFIER. MORE PRECI S E LY. FROM THE REPRESSION THAT IT BRINGS ABOUT: THIS IS WHY S U B L I M ATED PLEA S U R E IS

JOU I S S A N C E EMBODI ES RESTORES

WHICH

RENOUNCED. I T OF A SUDDEN

IT AS

LOST.

AND

ALL

I D ENTI FIED WITH THE PLEA S U R E DERIVED FROM THE JOKE.

IT A H U N D R E DFOLD. FOR IT DEPLOYS
T"'C'

TH IS JOUISSANCE IN DI R ECT PROPORTION TO FORGETTI NG. WHICH I S IN ITSELF I N FI N ITE.

SUCH A TRANSFORMATION ASSU M ES. ON THE ONE H A ND. THE FORGETTING OF PRECOCIOUS F E M I N I N ­ ITY. A N D ON TH E OTH E R . T H E SETTI NG I N PLACE OF A NEW REPRESE NTATI VE OR SIGN I F I E R OF CASTRATHUS. ETHICS I S I N D I SSOC I A B LE F ROM A 'CERTA I N ' RELATION T O JOUISSANCE. T H E DE-IDEA LIZATION THAT I T IMPLIES ALONE MAKES POS S I BLE TH E

233

OC C A S I O N A L C O M I N G TOGETH E R A N D B I N D I N G OF TWO P E RFECTLY THE D I ST I N C T . H E T E R OG E N E O U S SENSATION BODY IN A OF AN

JOUISSANCE

A N D THE

ORGASM

WHICH

IS

P RO­

D U C E D I N A S U B L I M A T E D ECONOMY. IN T H E FOR M E R . T H E R E S I D U E OF P L E A S U R E C O M E S T O A D E A D E N D . S I N C E TH E WOM A N A GA I N F I N DS H E RSELF POWER­ LESS TO M A I NTA I N T H E THIS FORM OF ORGA S M . UNCONSCIOUS ECONOMY. R E G I STERI NG PLE A S U R E BARS

SPACES.

V O L U PT U O U S THE WHOLE

A S P I R A T I ON

OF

SPAC E

A B SOLUTELY OTH E R A N D CONSEQU E NTLY. I N F I N ITE. C A N NOT S I M PLY B E E X P LA I N E D AS THE EFFECT OF THE PERCEPTION OF THE VAGI N A L C A VITY. IT

OUTS I D E

SIGNIFICANCE

(SIG NI FIANCE).

I M PL I E S THAT T H I S C A V I TY I S HOLLOWED OUT BY R E PRESSION. OP E R ATION. THAT IS TO SAY. BY A SYMBOLIC

ACCESS TO T H E S Y M BOLIC. S U B L I M ATION. O N T H E CONTR A R Y. T R A N S PO RTS N O T O N L Y P L E A S U R E B U T THE ORGASM I NTO M ETA P HOR. O R G A S M . E N D LESS­ LY R E N E W E D. AT B ROUGHT THE TO A OF W H I TE H EAT. IT

CONSEQUE NTLY.

PLEASURE.

FA R

FROM

BEING

EXPLODES BURSTS

M O M E NT

PLE A S U R E .

R E D U C E D T O T H E EXCITATION OF A N ORGAN. O N T H E C O N T R A RY. T R A N SPORTS THE WOM A N I N TO THE

I N T H E DOU B L E

SENSE O F THE

FRENCH

T E R M ECLATER: T H E S E N S E OF D E F LAGRATION A N D THAT O F A R E V E LATION. TH E R E I S T H E R E FORE A CONTI N U ITY OF THE A S C E N T OF P L E A S U R E A N D OF ITS A POG E E IN ORGASM: TH E ONE CARRIES THE

F I E L D OF T H E S IG N I F I E R. S U B L I M ATED PLEASURE. L I K E T H E DREAM AND HYPNONIS. L I K E THE POETIC ACT. M A RKS A M O M E N T W H E N THE U NCONSC IOUS

R E P R E S E NTATION T A K E S ON A N ABSOLUTE V A L U E : I N OTH E R WORDS. W H E N THE ACT OF A RTICULATING PRODUCES ON I TS OWN THE M E A N I NG OF DIS­

S I GN I FI E R T O ITS M A X I M U M I NC A N DESCENCE: T H E OTH E R M A R K S THE M O M E N T W H E N THE D I SCOURSE. IN EXPLODING COMES UNDER TO THE THE E FFECT OF OF ITS OWN OF

COU R S E . ( M E A N I NG NOT H I N G). SWEE P I NG A W A Y A L L SI G N I FICATION. I T L A Y S H O L D O F THE WOM A N A N D C A TC H E S RH Y T H M S . ' 2 HER IN ITS PROGRESSION AND ITS

FORCE .

POINT

B R E A K I NG.

COM I NG A PA RT. I T I S N O LONG E R A N YTH I NG.

TO

BREAK

ITSELF.

TO

D I SJOINT ITSELF. ITSELF

I N OTH E R A

WOR D S . FOR T H E M A N . E XC E PTIONS A S IDE. ' 3 T H I S TR A N S­ PORT A T I O N I N TO THE SIGNI FIER C A N NOT BE

TO

A RT I C U LA T E

THROUGH

M EA N I NG W H I C H E N D LESSLY ESCAPES. ORGASM I N DISCOURSE FEMI N I N E L E A DS US TO THE BE POI NT WHERE

PRODUCED I N S O V I O L E N T A N D R A D I C A L A WAY. I N FACT. HOW C O U L D H E A B A N DO N H I MSELF TO THAT WH I C H H E H I M S E L F CONTROLS. A N D FROM WHOSE PL A Y GAME HE GIVES JOUISSANCE. THE MOREOV E R . TH I S

JOUISSANCE C A N

U N D E RSTOOD A S

WRITING (ECRITURE). TO T H E POI NT W H E R E I T M U ST A PP E A R THAT T H I S J O U I S S A N C E A N D THE LITE R A R Y T E X T ( W H I C H I S A LSO W R ITTEN PRODUC E D FROM W I TH I N L I K E A N ORGASM A R E THE

(PLAY) AND

I NVOLVES A LSO

R I S K OF

DETU M ES­ A N X I ETY

DISCOURSE).

CENCE. 1 4

THE

V E R TIGO A N D

EFFECT O F T H E SAME M U R D E R O F T H E S I G N I F I E R .

A RO U S E D BY THE A B S O L UTE O F FEM I N I N E D E M A N D : T H E WOMA N E X PECTS A N D R E C E IVES A L L TH E R E I S O F T H E P E N I S AT T H E MOMENT OF LOVE I SN'T T H I S W H Y BATA I LLE. J A R R Y A N D JABES S P E A K OF W R I T I NG A S T H E J O U I SS A N C E O F A WOMA N7 A N D W H Y T H A T W H I C H S H E I S W R I T I N G I S T H E N A M E7'v

IF W E NO LON G E R C O N S I D E R WHAT I S PROPE R L Y CALLED PLE A S U RE. BUT THE ORGASM U S U A LLY

DESIGNATED A S "JO U I S S A NCE" BY THE A N A LYST. A S I M I LA R DISTINCTION M U ST BE MADE BETW E E N

M I C H E LE MONTRELA Y TRANSLATED BY PARVEEN ADA M S

NOTES

3

M A RGUERITE

DURAS.

LA RAVISSEMENT DE L O L V

STEIN. GA LLIMA RD. P. 54.
F. DOLTO. 'LA L I B I DO ET SON DESTIN FEMI N I N ,' LA

PSYCHANAL YSE. VI I . P U F.

4

P. KLOSSOWSKI. LES LOIS DE L·HOSPITALITE . P. 1 45.

W. GRANOFF AND F. PERRI ER. 'LE PROBLEME DE LA P E R V E RSION CHES LA FEMME ET LES IDEAUX

THE

'C H A N G E

OF

O B J E C T'

D E S I G NATES

THE

RENUNCIATION O F T H E FIRST LOVE OBJECT. THE MOTH ER. IN FAVO U R OF THE FATHER. ON T H I S

FEM I N I NS: LA PSYCHANALYSE. V I I . T H I S ARTICLE I S ESSENTIA L FOR THEORETICAL WORK O N FEM I N I N E SEXUALITY.

PROBLEM. CF J. LUQUET-PARAT. ' L E CHANGEMENT O·OBJET.

234

6

O P CIT,

p, 1 92

SEEN.

P R E S U P POSES WOM A N

AN PUTS

ECONOMY HERSELF

OF AT

DES I R E STA K E

WHERE THE

7

A

P R O POS

OF

M ETA P H O R , L.ETTER IN

CF THE

J,

L.AC A N ,

'THE

(ENJEU).

AGENCY OF THE ECRITS, A

UNCONSCIOUS: A, S H E R I DA N ) .

S E L EC T I O N

(TRANS,

'3

EXCEPT IN THE CASE OF ACTU A L. HOMOSEXUALITY. HOWEVER, W E MUST B E CAREFUL NOT TO SET UP TOO C L EA R - C U T A D I STINCTION B ET W E E N THE

T A V I S TO C K ,

1 9 7 7 A N D ' L. E S F O R M A T I O N S D E 1 9 !5 6-!57), O N PL.EASURE

L'INCONSCI E NT: S E M I N A I R E

BY THE SAME A UTHOR: 'PROPOS D I R ECTIFS POUR UN CONGRES S E U I L. , SUR LA S E X U A L.ITE IN F E M I N I NE: I N P R E P A R ATION, OF �ACQUES

SEXUALITY OF THE M A N A N D THAT O F T H E WOM A N , W I T HO U T P R E TE N D I N G TO S ETTLE THE WHOLE

ECRI TS, FEM I N I N E

( T R A N S L.ATION IN THE

PROBLEM OF BISEXUA L.ITY H E R E , L.ET U S ONL.Y SAY THAT EVERY MASC U L I N E SUBJ ECT I S CATHECTED AS THE OB�ECT A N D PRODUCT OF HIS MOTHE R : HE WAS 'PART OF THE MATERNAL. BODY. I N R E LATION

SEXUA LITY

SCHOOL

LACAN, J, ROSE AND J . M ITCHE L.L. M A C M I L.LAN.)

8

C F F, DOLTO, O P CIT.

TO

TH E

M A SC U L I N E THEN.

BODY

AND

U N C O N SC I O U S OF

C A TH E X I S

ONE

C O U L. D A L. S O S P E A K

9

CF

p, A U LA G N I E R . LE D ES I R ET LA PERVERSION. SEUIL..

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'0

DRIVES

REPRESSED

BOTH

IN

THE

COURSE

OF

THE MAL.E SUBJECT TO THE EXTENT THAT. PUTTI NG I NTO PLAY THE REPR ESSION OF F E M I N I NITY, HE

EARL.I E R O E D I P A L. E X P E R I ENC ES,

AS W E L. L. AS IN

THE PRESENT, BY THE V E R Y FACT OF THE PRESENCE OF T H E PENIS.

WOUL.D PRODUCE EACH T I M E T H E COUPURE WHICH SEPARATES ' R E TU R N I NG' THE TO M A N FROM HER THE HIS MOTH ER, WHILE HIS

F EM I N I N ITY

OF

"

T H I S PARAGRA PH A N D THE FOL.L.OWING ONE WERE ADDEO TO THE E A R L I E R C RITIQ U E ARTICLE I N IT WAS NECESSARY ONL.Y TO C L.EA R UP A

PARTNER.

1 976,

M ISUNDER­

'4

O N THE QUESTION O F DETUMESCENCE CF LACAN, SEMINAIRE

STA N D I NG, SIGNIFIER R E L. A T I N G

SOMEONE

WHO

I DE A L.IZES THE THE FACT OF OF

1 9 67-68. S E E ALSO 'THE SIGNI FICATION

C O U L. D

INTERPRET TO AN

OF TH E PHA L.LUS: ECRITS A SELECTION, TAVISTOCK AND 'PROPOS DERECTI FS PUR U N CONGRES SUR LA SEXUALITE F E M I N I N E : ECRITS, S E U I L. .

� O U I SS A N C E

O P E R A TI O N

SUBLI MATION A N D TO T H E PUTTING I NTO PLAY OF T H E ' S I G N I F I E R' A S 'FRENZIED I D EA L. I ZATION' (C,

DAVID), I TA K E A S A T R I BUTE-NO DOUBT I N VOL.UN­ TARY-WHAT SOMEONE EXCL.A I M E D

A PROPOS O F

TRANSLATOR'S NOTES

T H I S A RTICL.E, ' S O T H E � O U I SSANCE OF T H E WOMAN IS PRODUCED B Y T H E OPERATIONS O F THE HOL.Y GHOST!' IT CAN H A P P E N I THE A RTICLE LA OF LA FEM I N ITE IS ITALICIZED IN THE FRENCH: C F J. LACAN, 'DI EU ET LA JOUISSANCE DE FEMME' I N SEMINAIRE XX.

'2

IF

THE

WOM A N .

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THE

M O M E N T OF

ORGAS M , I N 'WOMA N L I N ESS A S A MASQU E R ADE' IN PSYCHO· ANALYSIS AND FEMALE SEXUALITY, EO. H E N R I C K M,

IDENTIFIES H E RS E L F R A DICAL.LY WITH A N UNCON­ SC IOUS R E P R E S E NTATION, A RT I C ULATED BY THE

OTH ER, THEN DOES S H E NOT FINO HERSEL.F AGA I N PRECIS EL.Y I N T H E A R C H A IC SITUATION W H E R E T H E MATERNAL R EPRESENTATION WAS THE S O L. E

R UITENBEEK, NEW HAVEN, USA,

1 9 66.

"'

I N THE EARL.IER VERSIQN OF THIS ARTICLE WHICH A PPEARED I N CRITIQUE

ORGA NIZER O F PHA NTASY? ISN'T THE ORGASM. B Y T H I S FACT, A 'REGRESSIVE' PROCESS F O R H E R ? T H E R E P L. Y COULD BE IN THE A F F I R M ATIVE FOR

278 T H I S S E NTENCE E N DS

WITH 'SINCE IT CONSISTS IN CONFRONTING DES I R E W I T H A BODILY L.ACK ( W H I C H I S C A R N A L.):

ORGASMS OF T H E PSYCHOTIC OR N E U ROTIC (ACUTE HYSTERIA) TYPE, IN THESE CASES. PL.EASURE A N D ORGASM A R E NOTH I N G M O R E T H A N T H E M A N I FES­ TATION DIRECT OF, A MO N G OF OTH E R TH E THE T H I NGS. BY A THE SORT OF

,v

DI RECTOR C A R L. D R EYER. MADE IN

1 943,

v

THE

FRENCH

GIVES

D E FO U L E M E N T

WHICH

IS

A

SEIZURE

WOMAN

OTH ER'S ON THE THIS

D I R ECT I N VERS ION/P U N ON THE FRENCH WORD FOR REPRESSION: REFOU LEM ENT.

DISCOURSE, C ON T R A R Y , R E L.ATION IS

FOR

WOMAN, HER

WHO,

ASSUMES I N D I RECT

CASTRATION,

IT

PASSES OF

THROUGH T H E M A T E R N A L. HAVE

v,

NOM

PUNS ON

THE

FRENCH

NEGATIVE

NON

AND

( P A T E R N A L.) D I SCOU R S E . A

M ET A P H O R METAPHOR

THE

ALSO R E F E R S T O L E NOM D U P E R E (NAM E-QF-THE­ FATHER).

WHICH.

A S WE

2 S !5

FRAGMENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOU RSE JACQUES H E N RIC:
ROLA N D BARTHES, IT
H IM S E L F S E U I Ll -BY T H E PARAOOX. W H E N A S ET OF

S E E M S T O M E THAT S I N C E

DEGREE ZERO OF
W I TH EACH

POS ITIONS TUTE TRUE, A

SEEMS

TO

CONSOLI DATE,

TO CONSTI­ THEN I T'S

W R I T I N G , M YT H O L O G I ES

AND

D E F I NITE

S OC I A L

SITUATION.

FOLLOW I NG BOOK I T H A S B E E N L E S S A N D L E S S E A S Y T O LOCA LI ZE YOU A S A WRITER. HOW, LOOKING BACK ON YOU R PAST WORK, DO YOU S I TU ATE YOU RSELF I N T H E H I STORY OF THOUGHT OF TH ESE LAST YEA RS? A N D TODAY , WHAT PLACE DO YOU FEEL YOU

SPONTA N EOUSLY AND

WITHOUT T H I N K I NG I

WANT TO OPT OUT. IN THAT I CON S I D E R MYSELF A N I NT E L L E C T U A L, I N T E L L EC T U A L SINCE IS THE FUNCTION OF THE

A LW A Y S T O O PT

OUT

WHEN

T H I N G S "BEG I N T O J E LL." A S TO T H E S ECOND PART OF YOUR QUESTION. HOW DO I SITUATE MYSELF NOW. I OON'T S E E MYSELF AT A L L A S SOM EO N E WHO I S TRYING TO BE A LW A Y S TRIES O R I G I N A L, TO BUT A S SOMEONE WHO UP FOR A C E RT A I N

OCCU PY I N T H E DISCUSS ION OF C U R R ENT I DEAS?

SPEAK IS

ROLAND BARTHES: I N THE FRAGM ENTS OF A LOVER'S DISCOURSE,

M A R G I N A LITY.

WHAT

M O R E C O M P L I C A T E D TO

OF

A

D I SC O U R S E , WITH A

TH E R E

IS

AS

IT

EXPLA I N IS THAT I N MY C A S E TH E R E IS N E V E R A N Y GLORY I N TH E C LA I M TO B E M A RG I N A L. I T I S OON E G E N T LY IF POS S I B L E . A M A R G I N A LITY THAT

HAPPENS

A

FIGURE

GREEK

NAME,

TH E

ADJECTIVE A P P L I E D TO SOCRATES. SOCRATES WAS SA I D TO BE ATOPOS, THAT I S TO SAY "WITHOUT A PLACE , " UNCLASSIFIABLE. IT IS AN A DJ ECTI V E
I

P R E S E R V E S A SPECTS O F COU RTESY, TO T E N D E R ­ N E SS-WHY Non-A N D O N E YOU CA N'T PUT A TAG TO IN THE P R E S E N T C U R R EN T OF I DEAS.

U S U A LLY APPLY TO TH E BELOVED, SO THAT AS T H E SU PPOSE D LOV E R I N THE B OO K I DON'T S E E MYSELF AS ATOPOS, BUT ON TH E CONTRARY AS SOMEONE E XT R E M E LY B A N A l.., WITH A W E LL- K N O W N CASE

J. H.:
AND

WITH YOU THERE OFTEN S E E M S TO BE, QUITE E X P L I C I T LY, A DO U B L E AND

H ISTORY. W I THOUT TA K I N G SI DES O N W H ETH E R O R NOT I AM UNCLASSIFIA BLE. I M U ST A D M I T T H A T I IN FITS A N D STARTS, BY

CONTR A D I CTORY ATTITUDE. O N O N E H A N D YOU SHOW YOU R I NTER EST TO FO R TH E IN

H A V E A LWAYS WORK E D PHASES, TOU CH E D

MODERNS

( I NTRODUCTION

BRECHT .
. .

MOTORIZED SO TO S PEAK-SOMETH I NG I ON IN TH E
R.B. (ROLA N D BARTH ES BY

F R A N C E , TH E N EW NOVEL, TH E OT H E R HAND YOU

TEL QUEL
LIKE

) ON

RECALLING

236

W H AT I S T H E COH E R E N C E T H A T U N D E R LI ES TH E S E ATTI T U D E S ? R. OR WHAT I WOU LD C A L L -S I N C E I'M FOND OF S T R UCTU R A L I S M TO D E FE N D T H E D E F I N I N G TH I NG S IN TERMS O F CON D UCT RATH E R T H A N TASTE-MY E V E N I NG R E A D I NG (WHAT I R E A D IN THE EVENI NG) WHICH ARE A LW A Y S THE S U R E OF TH E TEXT"? R. S I M PLY THAT I H A V E . M A K I N G I T C L E A R F R O M TH E START T H A T T H E LOVE R S I INTENDED D I S I N H E R I T E D. OF D I S­ R E LA T I ON S H I P STO R Y AND I M AG E . O L D T H I NGS RETURN. LA NGUAGE. TI M E THE CONTRADICTION G U AGES. B. B U T Irs REALLY T H E CRUX OF THE M A TT E R . H I ST O R Y IN COURAGE TO BREAK WITH SUCH LANGUAGES. S T E R EO­ R E M A I N E D C L A N D E ST I N E .: NO DOUBT. A LW A Y S A D M I T S T O A T A S T E FOR PLEASURE I N I T . T H E N A P P E O F LA NGUAGE I S A N OBJECT OF A N A LYSIS. A FORM WITH OF A TO M O R ROW'S I DO N ' T K N O W I F T H E R E I S A N U N D E RLYING COH E R ENCE. I F E E L M Y S E L F V E R Y M U C H I N T U N E. BUT OBVIOUSLY T H E Y DON'T RETURN TO T H E S A M E PLACE. Irs TRUE. ' " C L E A R TO ME AS YOU M A K E T H E M SOUN D NOW. NOR A LTOG ETH E R D I SC R ETELY S H O U L D B E LONG T O W H A T I S C A L L E D PASSION ATE LOVE. Irs VERY EASY FOR ME TO DETECT THOSE STER EO­ OF M A RG I N A L I TY. SO I DEC I D E D TO HOLD A B Y M I LITATING 237 . TH EORY IS NOT FAR OFF.: THAT M EA N S GIVING A BRIEF ACCOUNT OF THE PROJECrS BACKGROU ND. P A ST. SO FA M I LI A R TO ME THROUG H MY WORK I N A PARTIC U L A R S P H E R E. LONG WITH VARIOUS MODERN A QU ESTION OF TACTICS.: FOR THE S U BJ E C T OF THE I M AGI N A RY . THE E LA BORATION OF LITTLE COLLECT I V E LAN­ WORKS. AND FOR A LONG TI M E I F E LT MYSELF A LMOST J. AND AT T H E H E IGHT O F "PLEA­ S H A M E FU LLY TOR N B E TW E E N S O M E O F M Y TASTES. I CAN PROVIDE M Y S E L F WITH AN A L I B I FOR WORK THAT I S SOMEWHAT AHEAD OF ITS TI M E. OF THE NOVEL D I M E N SIONS I MAGI NARY W H I C H E X I ST E D I N R E A D A B L E LITERA­ TURE. BUT I DON'T FEEL M Y B E H A V I O U R IS CLASSICS. T H I NG S HAVE N O T A LW A Y S BEEN SO A V A N T. H. FOR E X A M PLE. I FIND THE M ET A P H O R .: LET'S GO BACK TO FRAGM ENTS OF A MY LOVE R . B.G A R D E P E R H A PS . A N D I MORE OR LESS T R Y TO THEORIZE M Y TASTE FOR THE PAST. AND YOU K N OW W E A RE A C E R TA I N NUMBER WO R K I N G OF ON R ES E A R C H THE WO R K E R S . AT F I RST T H E R E'S A KIND OF LITERATURE OF THE HAPPENS WHEN ONE THEN. I T I S THE DISCURSIVE I N A V E R Y W I D E S E N S E : THE DISCURSIVE.: I S N'T IT SOMEWHAT P R OVOCATI V E TO S P E A K ABOUT "LOVE" TODAY I N TH E T E R M S OF Y E STE R DA Y . I HAD A S E M I N A R AT THE ECOLE DES HAUTES ETUDES. H. A L I TT L E OVER TWO Y E A R S AGO I S A I D TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD STUDY A CERTA I N TYPE O F D I SCOURSE: W H A T I P R E S U M E D T O BE THE A M OROUS DISCOU RSE. ACCO R D I NG TO VICO'S I M AG E . NA M E LY N E UROSIS PSYCHOSIS. SEE. IF YOU W I L L TO AVOID DEVELOPS P R I N C I PALLY I N T H E R EG I STER O F W H AT. VERY IS MODERN T H E S E C O N D A R G U M ENT WORK ON THE A SSOCIATED THE LOV E R J. T H E STU DENT S P H E R E . T H E I M AG I N A RY S U B J ECT IS A POOR R E LATION OF THOSE STRUCTU R E S BECAUSE HE IS NEITHER A LTOG E T H E R N E U ROTIC. V A L U E S. PAST "WRITI NGS" BUT TO FROM A THE TH E ARCH ETYP E OF PASSIONATE LOV E CAN RETU R N . I N THE E N D OFTEN BEC A U S E OF AN INCIDENT I N MY PERSONAL LIFE. B. YOU PSYCHOTIC.Y O U R TASTE FOR T R A D I TI O N A L LITE RATU R E . W I T H O U T A N Y K I N D O F H Y POC R I SY. RECOG N I Z I N G I N M Y S E L F A N D M A KING THE READER R EC O G N I Z E . I C A N HEAR T H E M T A K I NG FO R M . B U T LITTLE B Y L I TT L E I T BECO M E S BURDENSOME. WE CALL THE I M AG I N A RY-AND I ANY M I S U N D E RSTA N DI NG ON THE PART OF WOU LD YOU E X P LA I N THE CON S I D E R M YS E L F A S U BJ ECT OF T H E I MA G I N A RY. PSYC H I C OTH E R S CRUSHED B Y T H O S E TWO G R E A T MORE THAN ATTENTION AND ANY OF S T R U CT U R E S HAVE WHICH A R R ES T E D THE MODE R N I TY. TOUCH OF H U M O U R NATURA LLY. O N T H E THEORETICAL AND C RITICAL FOR A L E V E L. THAT NOTION WH ICH OF FROM OF TONG UE. THERE ARE TASTES. A TASTE AS FOR THE TYPED LANGUAGES TYPES OF T H E NON-STEREOTYPE. AND I T WAS O N L Y WITH T H E PREASURE OF THE TEXT T H A T I C A M E OUT I NTO TH E OPEN. A N D M Y WORK D U R I NG T H E DAY W H E N . WITH CON S E Q U E N T L Y M A N N E RS. ROM A NTIC LOVE. NOTION COURSE A N D THE BREAKS AWAY DISCURSIVE. I MAKE USE OF TWO A R G U M E NT S : ADVANCES FI R S T O F A A SPIRAL EXTRICATE M Y S E LF. A KIND OF P R O FO U N D D I FFIC ULTY I N PUTTI N G U P WITH T H E STER EOTY PE. BY R ECOG N I Z I N G MY ATTAC H M E N T TO SUCH LITER ATU R E I AGITATE IN FAVOUR OF THE SUBJECT IN SO FAR AS THIS S U BJ E C T IS IN A SENSE E S S A Y I STS. AS YOU SO WELL PUT IT. WHICH PLACE. FOR A WHILE I DON'T DARE SOMETH I NG . I HAVE A L I V I NG R E LATION S H I P WITH T H E LITERA­ TITLE? T U R E OF T H E PAST B E C A U S E I T PROV I D E S M E WITH IMAGES AND E S TA B L I S H E S WITH THE ARE FOR ME A GOOD R. SINCE LAC A N . LOVER'S D I SCOURSE THE READER.

N I ETZSCHE'S I N FLUENCE. W H E N P A S S I N G FROM S E M I N A R T O BOOK . WAS EVEN IF I BOOK I S C O NC E R N E D. I T IS NO M O R E M E . : O N E D A Y P E R H A PS . . S I M ULATED A D I SC O U R S E W H I C H IS THE OF A LO V E R . D I SCONTI N UOUS. I T IS. SOME E L E M E NTS I'LL B E Q U I TE F R A N K A BOUT I T .SEMINAR WHICH WOULD BE THE OBJ ECTI VE J.: TO YOU I CAN S A Y A N D YOU W I LL U N DE RSTA N D . S I M U LATED. SECOND D I S CO V E R Y : THE LISTEN E R S OF THE S E M I N A R PROJECTED T H E M S E LVES V E R Y STRONG­ LY I NTO I WHAT SAID WAS TO S A I D." WHO I S T H E R E FORE I N D I V I DU A L I Z E D AT T H E TION: BUT IT IS L E V E L OF T H E E N U N C I A ­ A C O M POS E D LIKE. BUT WHERE THIS OF COURSE. F I RST OF ALL I NOTI C E D THAT I WAS PROJ ECTI NG OR MYSELF MY LI FE IN T E R M S OF MY PAST C E RTA I N OF THE EXPERI ENCE I N TO I N FA T U A T I O N . TO THERE M E. IF THE STORY N E V E R J E LLS. W A S NOT TO W R I T E A T R E A T I S E O N T H E A M O ROUS D I SC O U R S E . OF "CUTS" YOU FILM P E RS U A D E D T H AT LOV E R SUFFERS PUT R E C E I V E S N O B E N E F I T FROM T H E R ECON C I L IA T I O N . WHICH INTERVENE. I H A V E OFTEN WON D E R E D CESSFUL. T H E V I S I ON I H A V E O F T H E A MO R O U S D I SCOU R S E IS ESSENTI A L­ LY A F R AG M E NT A R Y . THEY ARE V E R Y M U C H A PART O F T H I S BOOK. A M IS S E D R E N DEZ-VOUS. H. J E A LO U S Y .: T H A T'S T R U E. WHO SAYS "I" IN THESE A N A LY S I S O F A TYPE O F T H E DISC U RS I V E . APPRECIABLE A T T H A T T I M E ." FOR A DO PTING A M ETHOD OF " D R A MATIZATION. R E A D I NG THESE "WELL V E RY SUC­ TIONS. A MOROUS D I SCOURSE. W H I C H I S THE VE RITABLE A R C H ETYPE OF PASSIONATE LOVE . . WHICH TH E WELL-MADE LOVE COME FROM F R I E N DS. M Y S E L F. BUT ON THE CONTRARY. OTH E R S MY FROM GOETHE'S WERTH E R . W A S W E R T H E R B Y GOETHE. B. THE R E S U LT T H E N I S T H E D I SC O U R S E O F A SUBJ ECT WHO SAYS "I. H. BUTTERFLY THEY ARE E P I SO D E S IN OF LANGUAGE THE ENA­ M O D I F I E D H I M CON S I D E R A B LY. I S TH E W A Y SOC I ETY P ROPOSES THAT T H E LOV E R S H O U L D R ECONC I LE H I M S E L F W I T H T H E LA N G U A G E OF T H E G R EAT O R P H E U S . BUT D U R I N G THE TWO Y E A R S OF THE S E M I N A R I BECA M E A W A R E OF A D O U B L E MOV E M E N T. THE IT I S THE IS NOT D ISCOURSE OF A LOV E R ." W H I C H HAD F O R M E THE E P I ST E M O LOG I C A L A DVA NTAGE V I S IO N . I N A N Y C A S E TH E R E LATION­ SHIP B E TW E E N THE AUTHOR AND THE STAG E C H A R A C T E R HE D I R ECTS IS OF THE T Y P E I N FICTION. UNDER THE THOSE ONLY CONDI­ J. O F F R E E I NG ME FROM T H E M ETA LANGUAGE. A N D E N D. LO V E R N EC E S S A R I LY M E . ARE A LSO WHAT HAS BLANCE THAT M Y CONVICTION STO R Y . ANY RESEM­ IS A R E A D I NGS O F THE M YSTICS. MAKES TEXT SOM E W H A T R O M A N T I C . I ' D SAY. CHARACTER. A N U N B E A R A B ­ LY LONG W A I T. IT IS WHY I CUT UP THE W H O L E I NTO THE A MOROUS D I SC O U R S E .: EVEN SO. I F YOU WILL A L LO W TH E C O M P A R I SO N THAN TH AT'S WHICH IS P E R H A PS A ITSELF. I EVEN R E A C H E D THE POI N T O F CONFUS­ ING F I G U R E S FROM M Y OWN LIFE WITH THE F I G U R E S O F W E RT H E R . C E RTA I N "FRAG M E NTS" A R E R E A LLY T H E BEGI N N I NGS OF STO R I E S . 5 0 ! MADE UP. D I SC O U R S E TOG ETH E R ) . W H Y DO E S N 'T H E CONTI N U E? W H Y NOT A R E A L N O V E L? A R E A L A UTOBIOG R A PHY? G E N E RA LITY O F T H E SC I E NT I F I C K I N D ) . H E WHO S A Y S " I " I N T H E BOOK I S T H E "I" O F W R I T I NG. NOT TH E IT FRAG M ENTS? R. B Y M A K I NG U P A STO R Y FO R HIMSELF IN WHICH THE HE PUTS H I M S ELF. WHO I AM NEVERTHE LESS OR (AS IF A D I SCOU R S E . N A T U R A L LY ON THAT POINT I COULD B E C O R N E R E D I NTO S A Y I N G T H A T I T W A S M E. B . TO W R I T E THE D I SCOU R S E OF A LOV E R . CON F I D E D . T H E S T O R Y B EG I N S T O TAKE S H A PE A N D I S I M M E D I A T E LY I NT E R R U PTED. O F PHYCHOA N A LYSIS. STEM FROM ME. R . IS A B EG I N N I N G . WITH BEEN CONVERSATIONS. ST E N D H A L WHAT D I R ECTI N G THE F I G U R E S. I H A V E R E S PECTED T H E R A D I C A L D I SCONTI N U I TY OF T H I S STO R M OF LA N G U A G E R A G I N G IN TH E H E A D OF T H E LOV E R . HON EST C O U R S E . AFTER THE AND P A S SIONATE AND THESE BE­ OF PLEAS U R E OF T H E T E XT I COU L D NO LONGE R E P I SO D E S CA USE OF ARE B R U S Q U E LY I N T E R R U PT E D BECAU S E B E A R A N Y " D I S S E RTATION" O N T H E SUBJ ECT. S O I ' L L R E PLY WITH T H E C A N N I N ES S O F A NOR M A N AND S A Y I T I S ME AND IT I S NOT M E . PARTI C U LA R LY ALL T H A T N I ETZSC H E S A Y S A BOUT T H E N E E D F O R " D R A M ATIZI NG. I H A V E BEEN P LA Y I N G WITH T H E I DE A FOR A LONG TI M E NOW. OF N I ETZSC H E . A N D A C R I S I S IN T H E M I D D L E . FLUTTE R I NG MOU R E D ROU N D THE HEAD OF LOV E R . OR FROM C U LT U R A L F R AG M E N T S A R R A N G E D IN A L P H ABETIC A L O R D E R . A N D T H A T P A R A DO X I C A LLY ENOUGH H E I S N O T I N 2 3B . THE TITLE IS QUITE SOM E H A P P E N I NG. I TH E N C H O S E A S U P PORTING A M OROUS WORK D I SCOU R S E BUT THE TEXT A N D A N A LYSED THE IN THAT WORK. AND AT T H A T D I SCOURSE E X P L I C I T A N D P U R POSELY D E S I G N E D: IT I S NOT A BOOK ON M O M E N T T H O S E SORT OF S C R A P S OF MONOLOG U E A R E B R O K E N A N D W E P A S S TO A NOTH E R F I G U R E. B EC A U S E OF A DOCT R I N E . AT A L L C O STS WITH A I W A NTED TO AVOI D L O V E STORY. B E C A U S E T H A T WOU LD H A V E BEEN A KIND OF LIE VERY W R I TT E N " BEGIN­ (f W A SN'T A I M ING EITHER AT A N I NG S .

15. I N OTH E R A N A LYSTS. IT DEVELOPED AS THE FRENCH LITERATU R E . B. FROM R A C I N E TO PROUST. I N LAC A N . O R TO PAI NT.: F I R ST A D I G R ESSION: I R E A L I Z E D THERE W E R E TWO TYPES OF LOV E R S . T H E Y E X I ST I N F R E UD. TO C R EATE." TO "LOVE FULFI L L M EN T . AND WHICH THE BOOKS VO UCH 50 T H E R E LATION I HAVE IN T H I S BOOK WITH PSYCHOAN A LYSIS IS V E R Y A M B IGUOUS: M AKES USE ITS A R E LATION W H I C H . LET U S SAY. THE T E M PTATIO N . T H A T I F O N E E XA M I N ES C U LTURE TODAY-IT I S A L S O ONE O F T H E T H E M E S OF THE BOOK-TH E R E I S N O O N E M A J O R L A N G U A G E WHICH T A K E S I N C H A R G E THE AMOROUS STATE. H. . GUAGES. F I G U R E THEN I S T H E MOTH E R . AS A LW A Y S . TH E N I S A I D N O . I TRY TO EXPRESS THE P ROFOU N D PESSI M I S M O N E C A N H A V E I N T H A T R E S PECT SINCE THE LOVER'S D I SCOU R S E C A N N OT B E C O M E WRITING W I T H O U T E N O R M O U S J E TTI S O N I N G S FO R M ATIONS. THEY WERE :' TO P I C A L ' T H E Y : ATTRACTED M E BY TH E I R EXTR E M E PERTI N E N C E . A S IN R E A D I NG YOU . H A V E I H A D SO ST R O N G L Y THE IMPRESSION THAT MARGINAL BOOK AMOROUS 239 . BEW ITCH M E NT: FOR A LONG TI M E I H E S I TATED. H . O N E OF T H E FIGURES I N M Y BOOK D E A LS P R E C I S E LY WITH T H E LONGI NG. AT THAT MOM ENT OFF THE THE LO V E R CAN ONLY CUT DIS­ G E R M A N ROM A N T I C I S M AND NOTA BLY IN T H E LIEDER OF SC H U B E RT AND SC H U M A N N ( ABOUT WHICH I H I MSELF FROM PSYCHOA N A LYTIC COURSE. . M UC H CLOS E R NOTH I N G 00 W E S P E A K OF "MOON STR U C K LOVERS": FROM THE LOV E R'S POINT O F VIEW T H E STORY 15 I M POSSIBLE. THE D R I V E THE LOVE R SO OFTEN FEELS IT SEEMS. A D A S H OF PSCYHO A N A LY S I S R." 15 A SUBJ ECT WITH THE C U LT U R E OF TODAY. B . : WHAT 00 YOU M E A N WHEN YOU W R I TE: "I INCLUDE T H E M I N T H E BOOK BECAUSE THE LOV E R I PRESENT A M ON THE SIDE OF THE W R ITI NG. P A R A NOIC. . 50. N O T FOR DI SCOU R S E I S FAR M O R E KITSCH T H A N A BOOK O N D R UGS. BUT AS T H E S I M ULATED D I SCOU R S E O F THE LO V E R A D V A N C E D. OF PSYCHO­ R A TH E R FOR. E N AMORATION. ONE. AND T R A N S­ A N A LYTIC I D E A S BUT WHICH USES THEM L I K E T H E E L E M ENTS OF FICTION. REASON A B LY. ITS A D I SCONTI N UOUS BOOK W H I C H PROTESTS I N A SMALL W A Y AGA I N ST THE LOVE STORY. SO AT EACH TU R N I TRIED TO BREAK TH E B U I LD-UP O F T H E STO R Y . W I T H T H E N . B E LO N G I N G TO WHICH HE APPLIES TO H I MSELF IN A P R I M I TIVE FASHION. PSYC H O A N A LY S I S A DESC R I PTION HAS THE LEAST ATT E M P T E D OF A MOROUS STATE. LOVE A S A N O R D E R O F A F F I R M A T I V E V A L U E S R E S I STANT T O A LL ATTACK. IT SEEKS MORE THE D E M ONSTRA­ ESSENTIAL LOVE" FROM "LOVI NG. E Q U I V A L E N T TO AT FI RST AN LOVE S I G HT.THE LOVE STORY." ETC . OF T H E D E SC R I PTIONS. I N F A C E OF T H E I NVAS I V E PSYC H O A N A LYT I C D I SCOU R S E ? B EG I N N I NG. H. W H I C H A R E NOT NECESS A R I LY C R E D I BLE. THERE I S A N OR M A LITY OF THE AMOROUS STATE IN PSYCHOA NA LYSIS W H I C H 1 5 I N FACT T H E R E V I N DICATION O F T H E COUPLE. S E PA­ A MOROUS SENTI M E N T I S F A R TIVE. T H I S TYPE OF LOV E R IS NOT C E N T E R E D ON EXCLUDE D FROM J E A LOUSY: J E A LO U S Y 15 NOT PASSIONATE LOV E BUT THE 50 IN A TO DEROGATO R Y R E I NTEGRATE RATE " B E I NG FASHION. I HAVE TH E IS PROFOUN D CONVICTION THE THAT THE LOVE R M A RG I N A L. : I T S TR U E T H A T I N M Y BOOK T H E R E I S W H A T I M IGHT T E R M AN " I N T E R E STING" R ELATION WITH T H E PSYC H O A N A LYTIC R E L A TI O N SEMINAR DI SCOURSE BECAUSE T H I S J . F O R E X A M PLE. OR TO W R ITE FOR THE B E LO V E D . EVEN THAT I C A N 'T S W E A R T O IT B E I N G CH RONOLOGICALLY A F I RST F I G U R E B E C A U S E ITS QUITE POS S I B L E THAT LOVE A T F I RST SIGHT O N LY FU NCTIO N S IN R ETROSP ECT. T H E J E A LO U S LOV E R . O F THE M A R R I E D C O U P L E EVEN . . I W A S O B L I G E D TO M A K E U S E OF THOSE TO WRITE FOR T H E B E LOVED D E S C R I PT I O N S . . A BEING J.: N E V E R . A M ONG THE MAJOR AT LAN­ LOV E R TE LLS H I M S E LF. TION. IT DOES THE A LSO S P E A K IN TH E BOOK). HENCE DECI SION THAT FOR M E TO P U B L I S H TH I S BOOK W A S IN A C E RTA I N WAY TO SPEAK UP FOR A BY M A R G I N A L I TY NOT ON EVEN THE WHICH IN W R I T I NG A S M O R A L ITY TO D A Y 15 R E I N FO R C E D FASHION. A IN I N VITING LOV E R TO C E RTA I N N O R M A L I TY.: I S N'T IT A FOR M OF A U DAC I TY TO S P E A K A S YOU 00 A B O U T LOVE. T H E OTH E R TYPE DOES N O T E X I ST I N F R E N C H LITE RA­ TURE BUT H A S BEEN A D M I R A BLY P R ESENTED BY A F F I R M ATION O F A V A L U E . TO HE A 15 I N SOM ETH I N G W H I C H 1 5 STATE OF FOLLY. I J. ITS SOM ETH I N G THE E V O LV E D C O N C U R R E N T L Y W I T H T H E YOU KNOW V E R Y W E L L A N D T H E BOOK. A T O N E MOMENT I EVEN THOUGHT OF PLAC I N G A FIGU RE I N IT I A L AT TH E FO U N DA ­ R. F O R ALTHOUGH EFFECTI V E LY IT S P E A K S OF THE A MOROUS S T A T E: .

YOUR YOU I N S I ST E D ON TH I S PO I NT IN " L I V I N G TOGETH ER. WHICH I S TO SAY THAT Irs NOT A VERY LYRIC TEXT. NOT I NAUGURAL LECTU R E TO T H E COL­ COM M U N I T I E S AS W E KNEW T H E M AFTER TH E H I PPIE M OV E M E N T S . WORDS WITHOUT MANY IF I WERE A A P H I LOSOP H E R . TO I N C I TE T H E E M ERGENCE FROM TH E W R I T I N G OF AN ETH I C A L VANI S H I N G POI N T. YOU P R EC I S E LY. WOULD G I V E BUT W H E R E ATTE NTION I S GIVEN TO THE TU RN OF PHRASE. U N D E R COV E R OF A LITE R A R Y A N A LYSIS I WOU LD T R Y TO D I S E N G A G E AN ETH I C IN THE BROADEST S E N S E OF T H E WOR D . THE COU R S E ON TH E I DEA OF 1 010- PROTECT BOOK. I AND I F I WANTED TO IT T H E I N V E NTIONS OR N EOLOGI SMS. I W A S CONSCIOUS TO WHAT A POI NT SYNTAX COULD PROTECT TH E ONE WHO WAS S P E A K I N G . I HAD TO C A L L E D BY O R I E N T A L MONKS. I WOU LD L I K E TO R ETU R N T O IT . MORE OF E L L I PTIC. IT I S A DOU BLE. . V E RY THIS OPEN. MORE MAJOR L l TOT I C .: I H A V E LA U N C H E D A S E R I ES OF COURSES O N TRAN SLATI O N BY CATH E R I N E D U NCAN 240 . BECA U S E THE OF ITS S U BJECT. ETH ICS W I L L BE BACK. T O P RO r E C T A DISCOU RSE IT S E E M S T O M E N O W T H A T W H E R E THE COU R S E I S CONC E R N E D I W I L L R E T U R N T O MATE R I A L THAT IS S P E C I F I C A L LY MYSELF R I G HTLY LEAVE S A I D. WRITE MAJOR T R E A T I S E . MORAL CODES THAT ARE NOT T H E MORAL CODES OF FAITH.77 J . M Y B I GGEST DEFENSIVE WEAPON WAS PURE LANG U A G E . BUT I AM NOT C L E A R A BOUT IT AT A L L. SYNTAX. PROTECTS H I M . I DI O R H YTH M Y . I H A V E CENTERED RH YTH M Y . SYNTAX IS PRETTY SYNTA XIC. H. SCEPTI CISM. LITERARY. H A V I N G ITS MODELS RATH E R O N TH E S I D E O F AGNOST I C I S M .: WHAT I S THE TITLE O F YOU R COU R S E AT TH E COLLEGE O F F R A N C E ? R B. OR TO PUT IT EVEN MORE D I G R ESS A N D. WHAT ONCE U S E D TO BE R B. G R O U P I NGS W H O R E A LLY L I V E TOGETH E R B U T EACH AT HIS OWN R H YTH M .E DG E D SWORD BECAUSE IT C A N A LSO B E A N I N S TR U M E NT OF OPPRESSION­ IT VERY OFTEN IS-BUT WHEN T H E SUBJ ECT IS VERY V U L N E R ABLE.W R I T I NG IS FU N D A M E NT A L L Y A QU ESTION OF ETH I C S . TO BUT I A LW A Y S AS GIVE SO H E L D I N THE N A M E OF TH E " I :' WHICH IS ALL THE SA M E A RISK. TH AT'S WHEN W R I T I N G F U NCTIONS AS A N A M E OF A S T U D Y OF L I T E R A R Y A N A LYSIS. ' SORT OF MORA L CODE. A N D I C A N ONLY SA Y THAT I F E E L THE WRITING OF T H I S BOOK TO BE SOMETH I N G A P A RT. I AM S U R E THAT IF N E XT Y E A R I G I V E M Y ATTE NTION TO C H A R ACTE R I STIC L I T E R A R Y FOR M .4. BUT THE U TO P I A OF A FFECTI VE LEGE OF F R A N C E . ROLA N D B A R T H E S I NT E R V I E W E D BY JACQU ES H E N R I C STAT E M E NTS RECORDED O N TAPE ON 4. BOOK V E RY A LONE. .: Irs A V E R Y GOOD Q U E STION." W H IC H S ETS OUT TO E X P LORE TH E UTO P I A OF C E RT A I N S M A LL G ROU PS.

P H I L O S O P H I C A L S E X .

I N SOFA R A S ITS P R I N C I P A L T H E M E COMES D O W N TO S C I E N C E-TEC H N O LOGY-OTH E R WORLDS.C H R I ST I A N V ERSION OF GENESIS DECISIVE BEGI N N I NG DEPARTUR E OF A H U M A NITY. A SEXUAL I N NOVATI ON. SATA N ' TH US BEG I N S THE CYCLE O F A H U M A N I TY DOO M E D LESS TO DEATH THAN TO D I S A PPE A R A N C E. SEDUCERE-H E R E C O S M O. T H I S TYPE OF N A R RATIVE O N LY A D A PTS J U D EO. SC I E N C E F I C T I O N N A R RATIVE. TO THE E X P U LS I O N FROM T H E U N I V E R S E IT PREVIOUS­ LY I N H ABITED. WHAT THIS I N VOLVES I S A N ASTO N I SH I NG SUCCES­ SION OF V I S U A L P H E N O M E N A . T H I S B E I NG ACCOM PLISHED FI RST AS A P H E NO M E N O N OF CONSCIOUSNESS: THE PHYSI­ L I N K E D T D T H A T OF R E L I G I O N AND SECTS.MOV I NG G I R L ''I ' M NOT BEA UTI F U L." . AND NOT. THEY SEE THEY A R E N A KED. THAT IS. A K I N D OF I NCOM PATI B I LITY BETWEEN OUR PHYSICAL PRESENCE D E G R E ES IN OF THE A WORLD AND THE DIFFERENT OF C A L EXPULSION FROM T H E E A R HTL Y P A R A D I S E I S P R E C E D E D BY A N A B R U PT D I SORDE R I N G OF SIGHT THAT C O M PLETELY C H A NGES T H E A P P E A R A N C E O F T H E W O R L D A S L I V E D B Y THE COUPLE: T H E I R EYES ARE O P E N E D. I N EFFECT. THEY NOCT U R N A L A N E STH E S I A CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH K E E PS M A K I NG US LAPSE I N TO SHORT OR P ROLO N G E D . A S HAS SO OFTEN BEEN R E PE A T E D. THEY TRY TO H I D E T H E M SELVES. THE R E N E W A L OF SC I E N C E F I C T I O N I N T H E U N ITED STATES A N D I N THE BIG INDUSTRIAL COUNTRIES SEEMS TO BE A P PEA R I N G IN THE B I B LE AS THE SEDUCER OF W O M A N . EVEN WOULD PUSH ONLY I NTER­ I N TO THE STI TIAL. THE SEDUCTION-THE " L E A D I N G TA K E S ON A ASIDE" OF A BOUT. COLLA PS­ ING THE I N I T I A L S E PA RATION OF DAYS AND N I G HTS IN A PURE P H E N O M ENON OF SPEED.M A R I E DO R V A L RATH E R FAITH F U LLY BY I M PARTING T H E LOGI STIC ROLE I N I T I A LLY HELD BY THE FI RST WOMA N TO SC I E N C E A N D T H E TEC H N I C A L M E D I A . THAT B I F U RCATI N G -A N D HOLE WHICH US BE BLACK EXCESSIVE R A PI DITY O F T H I S PASSAGE. OUR S U D D E N I M M E R­ SION IN OTH E R U N I V E R SES-PARALLEL.D YN A M I C D I M E N S I O N : SEDUCTI O N I S A RITE O F PASSA G E FROM ONE U N I V E RSE TO A N O TH E R FOR WHICH I M PLIES A IN FACT. A N D T O AVOID THE S I G H T OF GOD. THE AND THE N A VIGATION O F BOD I E S 242 . BY V A R I O U S M EA N S. WHICH M I LD MAY OR SERIOUS BRING STATES OF ABSENCE INDEED COVER U P TH E I R N A K E D N ESS. SHOWS M O S T OF US TURNING I N C I RCLES L I K E T H E BLI N D BEFORE T H E VERY OBVIOU S N ESS OF TH E F A M I L I A R U N I VE R S E . I ' M WORSE. WHO I N T U R N S E D U C E S M A N . IN FACT.

A N D PARTICULARLY THE CHOSEN PARTNERS. CONDUCTIVE. OF S E D UCTION. THE S O L I TA R Y P L E A S U R E THAT T H E C I N E M ATOGRAPHIC MOTOR A FFORDS THE PO R N O F I L M V I E W E R A LR E A D Y A N NO U N C E S T H E F O R E ­ SHORTENING WHICH I S BEG I N N I NG A N D CAN BE COMPARED TO THAT O F T H E SC I E N C E F I C T I O N NARRATIVE I N R E LATION T O THE B I B L I C A L STORY: IT I M PLIES T H E DISAPPEARANCE OF HUMAN I NTER­ MEDIARIES A N D THE E M ERGENCE OF A SEXUALITY DIRECTLY CONCERNED WITH A TEC H N I C A L OBJECT. M I STRESS OF PASSAGE. T H E SEVERE DISCIPLINE A I M E D AT M A K I N G A CREATOR OF A RTEFACTS OUT OF TH E C H I LD.S E N S E S." THE E P I SODE I N GENESIS OF THE ONE R E V E A L S THAT TH E RITE OF PASSAGE ACCOM P L I S H M E N T LEADING FROM U N I V E R S E T O A N OTH E R PRODUCES NOT O N L Y A M ETAMORPHOS I S O F SIGHT BUT A N I M M EDIATE CAMOU FLAGE AND CAREFUL D I S S I M U LATION O F THE BODY. AS A CONSTA N T R E F E R E N C E TO T H E MARVELOUS M EC H A N IC I TY O F T H E WOMAN'S VECTOR-BODY. ALL ON LY BRI NGS TO LIGHT T H E VERY FOU N DATION OF EVERY M E A N S OF S EDUCTION: TO ATTRACT T H E L O O K I S TO C A PT U R E A N D T H U S D I V E RT T H E ATTENTION. MORE LITERA L LY. B U T A LSO T O H E R LACK O F P ERSONA L I NTELLIGENCE. I N O R D E R TO ENJOY I N THE I R C O M P A N Y T H E SELF-INVOLUTION ASSOCIATED W I T H HITTING T H E ROAD. S H E H A S U P TILL NOW E FFECTI VELY ORGA N I ZE D A L L THAT I S SPEED. TRAN S FORMABLE. IGNORANCE. IS AN IDEAL VECTOR BETWEEN M A N A N D THE NEW WORLD. ALL THAT H A S A PART I N THE MOV E M E N T OF M AN's LIFE. T H E HORROR FILM THEN SUCCEEDS AS A M ATTER O F COURSE THE E ROTIC F I L M A S A M O R E PERFECT F U L F I L L M E N T OF THE L A W OF MOV E M E NT. THIS B E LOVED WHO A CCOR D I N G TO NOV A L I S 15 THE S U M M A R Y OF THE U N I VE RS E AND TH I S U N IVERSE WHICH 1 5 ONLY T H E EXTENSION O F T H E BELOVED. OF B E I N G TOLD TO " G O GET LOST." I M PORTA N C E O F SUCH A MODIFICATION OF FORMERLY. POSSESSED OR POSSESSING BUT ATTRACTIVE. M A N U A L WORK. I S N 'T THE "SIN" OF THE F I RST MAN COMMONLY CALLED T H E "FALL. H E R E O N E MAY LAW OF R E C A L L H A N N A H A R E N DT ' S R E F L E C T I O N THAT "TERROR 1 5 T H E FULFI LLM E NT OF THE S I M U LA TA N EO U S W I T H SEDUCTION MOVEMENT. OF TH E I R P ROJECTION BUT A LSO OF THE I R COLLISION? WH E N A LA I N SCH LOKOFF ELABORATES ON THE REPLACE M E N T OF E ROTIC O R PORNO FIILMS BY HORROR F I L M S." T H E A N C I E N T S T H U S E ST A B L I S H I N G A D I R E C T R ELATION BETW E E N W H A T I S C O N V E NTIONALLY CALLED ORIGI N A L SIN AND T H I S TERRESTRIAL PULL W H I C H T H E Y C O N S I D E R E D TO BE T H E F I R ST NATURAL MOTOR OF T H E F R E E A CC E LE R ATION OF BOD I ES. W H I L E G I R LS O F TODAY M A Y CONDESC E N D T O L E T GUYS "PICK TH E M UP. U N I V E R S A L H E A V I N E SS. D A N C E . T H E N . TH I S FORCE O F ATTRACTION I S IN FACT G R A V I TATION. THE BODY OF WOM A N THUS CONFOU N D E D WITH A BODY OF COM M U N ICATIONS. 2 M OV E M E N T A THIRD PA R T N E R . FEAR I S P R E C I S E LY BECA USE THE LATTE R IS TRAVERSED IN A PHENO­ M ENON OF SPEED S U C H THAT THE ANTICI PATION OF A N ACC I D E NT OCCU R S I N STANTLY. THE AND STATES THAT "SEX NO LONGE R EXISTS AND THAT FEAR H A S R EPLACED IT. NO LONG E R IS TH E R E A COUP L E BUT A T R I LOG Y O F SORTS: THE SOLITARY MOVEM ENT OF SEDUCERE OR THE SEXUAL COU PLING THAT R E QU I R E S I NT E R D E P E N D E N T IMPLIES TERRITORIAL BODy. G A V E T H ESE S U P POSEDLY I N NOCENT L A S S E S A G R EATER TECHNICAL RELIABI LITY FOR THE EXECUTION OF AN E N DLESSLY R E PEATED S E R I E S O F M A N E U V E R S INTENDED T O S U BJ UGATE THOSE AROUND THE M . OF C O N FO R M I NG T O U S A G E S A N D T O C O D E S . " N A T U R E " A N D ITS W E A K N E S S E S . A S THE C REATION OF A SECOND U N I VERSE WHICH WOULD DEPEND ENTI REL Y UPON T H I S I NITIAL RITE. I NDEED SEXUAL I NDIFFERENCE. THE B U T TH I S WAY OF FOLLOWI N G FASHION. IN A WORLD W H E R E TECHNOLOGICAL PROGRESS CORRESPONDS TO THE UTI LIZATION A N D QUEST O F SUPER ROGATORY SPEEDS. F R O M S O M ETH I N G I M M U T A B L E TOW A R D ANOTH E R REGION OF T I M E . A SPACE-TI M E ESSEN­ TIALLY DIFFERENT S I N C E E X P E R I ENCED A S MOBILE. I S I NSC R I B E D V E R Y P R EC I SE­ LY IN THE DYN A M I C O F THE WORLD: T H E R E WOM AN I S NOT POSSESSIVE. AND HENCE OF T E R ROR." I N T H E B I B LI C A L N A R RATIVE. A N OPTICAL I LLUSION I N A U N I V E R S E ITSELF P E R C E I V E D WHOLELY AS I LLUSORY A N D WHERE D I SS I M U LATION TRI U M PH S AS A SYNDROME OF MOVE M E NT. S O RIGOROUSLY R E SPECTED I N THE MOST I NDUSTR I A L­ IZED COU N T R I E S EVEN AS FAR AS TH E R E P U L S I V E ATTITUDES A N D P U N K OF THE LAST FEW YEARS. IN F A CT. ALL THAT CONCU R S OR COMPETES WITH IT. TH E AXIS M U NDI. A N D F I N E R Y WERE U S E F U L I N CAMOUFLAGI NG PHYSIOLOG I C A L I D E N TI T Y ." SOMEWHAT A S THOUGH H ITCH ­ H I K ING. THE I N STITUTIONS FOR THE EDUCATION OF LITTLE G I R LS H A D COMPA RABLE ENDS. 3 DEPORTMENT. M A N N ER S . PROVI DED T H E LATTER B E A MOTOR O R VECTO R OF MOVEM ENT. W H O W E R E TH E I R SOLE E FFECTIV E PROTECTION A GA I N ST 243 . T H E LEADING A S I D E MASS SENSIBI LITY M UST NOT BE U N D E RESTI M ATED. THEY STI LL S H R I N K AT THE THOUGHT O F B E I NG 'TA K E N I N " OR.

ROMANTIC PERIODS D E V E LO P ON THE CONTR A R Y S I N C E THE "ANGLE O F T E M PORAL VISION" CHANGES TO SUCH A N EXTENT I N THE AGED THAT T H E Y C A N T A L K A BOUT A N E V E N T OF FORTY Y E A R S A G O A S I F I T H A D H A PP E N E D T H E S A M E D A Y . THE GREAT H A B I TS SO MUCH A PA RT OF TH E DA I LY R EG I M E N T H A T T H E Y A R E A L R E A DY K NOWN A N D E XPECTED BY THE P A RTN E R . 4 AS TIME PASSES. TH E SENTI M E NTAL. OR DRAG Q U E E N ) . WH E N T H E SOLDI E R HAS THE BAD IDEA OF R E T U R N I NG SAFE AND SOU N D TO T H E PRESENT OF H I S WIFE. I NV I S I BLE TO TH E COMMON EYE. T H E CON­ FOR M I S M OF H A B I T C R E ATES A K I N D OF NARRATI V E TH E SUM MARY. W I LL CONJUGAL B E D A COLD A N D DEFIN ITIVE HATRED FOR HER AWKWARD HUSBAND. COM PA RABLE TO THAT OF THE TRAN SVESTITE (ONE USED TO SPEAK IN FOR M E R A TIMES WORD MORE WHICH P R E C I S E L Y O F TRANS· A LSO S U GG ESTS TH E " M A N Y WOM E N H A V E LOVE D T H E M S E L V E S I N M E . BUT BECAUSE THE TEC H N I C A L E X PLOIT OF T H E Y O U N G W O M A N THERE R E A C H E S ITS END. TlHROUGH 244 . S I M I LA R L Y . A N D IT BECOMES NECESSRY­ I N O R D E R TO S E E -TO I NTRODUCE. A D I SOR D E R I NG OF SIGHT. B U SI N ES S . A N D T H E U N I VERSE OF W A R THAT W I LL I N STANTLY PUT M A N I NTO T H E WO M A N ' S P A S T . H E W I L L B E R E J ECTED. I T I S A LWAYS EASY TO A N N I H I LATE T H E PARTN E R WITHOUT A S M UCH A S L E A V I N G H I M O R HER FOR A SECON D. SLOW·MOTION. ODORS. EXORBITANT I NFLATION O F TH E LAW O F MOV E M E N T A N D OF THE VECTORI A L F AC U LTIES OF T H E BODY. F I N A LLY. I N V E RS E L Y . " S A I D F R A N Z LI SZT. A N D COMMON O N E D I SCOV E R S I N LOVER' MODALITIES A PENDU­ L U M E FFECT SUGGESTIVE OF THIS KIND OF LEADING ASIDE: THE S UFFRAGETTES O R T H E GROUPS FOR WOMEN'S LIBERATION NOTICEABLY A FT E R D EMONSTRATE MORE WARS. WHICH C A N NOT B E P ROJ ECTED I N S I N C E THE S U D­ B E FO R E OR D U R I NG T H E R EVOLUTIONS A N D WARS.A MAN'S SOC I ETY WHICH CON D E M N E D TH E LIKE AN ACCELERATION OF THE I R R E S I ST I B L E DOW E R I E D GI RLS TO AN E A R LY M A R RIAGE A N D THE OTH E R S TO THE CONVENT. H I M S E L F A GREAT SEDUCER. M A Y D I E " I S C E RTAI N LY R E A L ENOUGH A N EVENT. THAT OF T H E GREAT N A V IGATION O F THE SPECIES. TH E D E N N ESS OF A C C I D E N T I M PL I E S SO M A N Y EVE NTS U N FO L D I N G I N SUCH A COMPRESS E D T I M E T H A T T H E C O M M O N E Y E C A NNOT R ECORD T H E M A L L A N D T H U S M E R E LY S U M M A RIZES TH E M . CONFLICTS DEADLY TO M A LES. W H A T T H E MOVE M E N T OF R O M A N T I C PASSIONS I N LlSZT'S FORMULA SHOWED. IN THE VERY R A P­ PROC H E M E NT OF "LOVE M A K I NG" THE TEC H N I C A L EXPERTISE C R E ATES OF THE SEDUCER OR SEDUCTRESS THE I M M EDIATE NOT SEX OBJ ECTS. T H E REMARK CONTAI N S BOTH THE NOTI O N OF A V E STI S M . THUS. THE CHEAP D I S A P PE A R A N C E O F T H E PARTN E R OR PA RTN E R S I N S P A C E A N D TI M E : T O L E A D T H E M A S I D E I S TO L E A D T H E M TO NOT H I N G N ESS. A N D TO T H I S EXTENT THE S E D UCTIVE ACTI V I TY I NT E R F E R E S WITH T H E ROMA NTIC NOVELS C A N STOP A T T H E WEDDING. TRAVELO. PARA DOXI C A L LY . SO M E W H AT LIKE I N THE DISASTER F I L M S SHOT BY STUNTM E N REAL TIME. MEAN LABOR. NOT OUT OF MODESTY. S H E H A S LED H E R SPOUSE T O H E R S I D E ." THE YOUNG W O M A N ' S "G I V I N G SOLDIER H ER S E L F TO THE MOBILIZED BECAUSE HE B E FO R E H I S DEPARTURE. TH E CONTRADICTION. THE YOUNG V I RG I N'S MOTILE P E R FOR M A N C E A L R E ADY A N NOUNCES THE CLAIM OF THE "WO M E N I N MOVEM ENT' OF M LF (THE FRENCH WOMEN'S L I B E RATION MOV E M ENT>: WE ARE R E D UCTION OF T H E S P E E D OF CONQU E ST A N D OF A R E C I P RO C A L I N VI S I B I LITY. W H I LE H A V I N G TOTA LLY FORGOTT E N W H AT THEY D I D A M O M E N T A G O . H Y M EN'S RITE O F P A S S A G E OFTEN SHE IS NO LONGER DRAW FROM HER TH E TECH N I C A L FATALITY A N D MORE P R EC I S E LY T H E TEC H N I Q U E OF WAR. BUT W H AT IS AIMED AT H ERE AG A I N IS THE R ELEGATION O F T H E PARTN E R . D E F E R R E D T I M E . T H I S I S A P R E L U D E T O OTH E R U N I VE R S E S O F S P E E D ( F A S T OR SLOW). TO A RAGON'S MOTTO WOMAN IS THE FUTURE OF MAN THE MLF OPPOSES ITS MAN IS THE PAST OF WOMAN. EACH SPOUSE BECOMES I N V I S I B L E TO T H E OTH E R S I M PLY ON ACCOU N T O F T H E R E PETITION O F A L I M ITED N U M B E R OF SIGNS. A S DESC R I B E D B Y COLON E L D E LA I R . I T I S A N A RT W H I C H M UST B E CEASE LESSLY I N T R A N S FO R M ATION A N D WHICH DOESN'T ESCAPE T H E G E N E R A L LAW OF T H E WORLD: TO STA N D STI LL I S TO D I E . CLUDED. A TRUE E F F ECT OF A N A MO R P H O S I S . THUS EACH T R I E S TO I N STALL T H E OTH E R IN A B E S I DES. TH E H A ST I L Y C O N ­ WILL B E U N D E R ST A N DA B LY. PROSTI ­ TUTION OR DESTITUTION. IN A N O L D COUPLE. L I TT L E B Y L I TT L E THE T R A G I C C H ARAC­ TER OF THE N ECESSITY TO SEDUCE A ND TO KEEP ON SEDUCI NG IS REVEALED: IT IS LIKE AN WITH V I S I O N I T S E L F . T H U S THE M I LITARY MOBI LIZA TION I S S U BSTITUTED FOR THE LOV E R S' " T R A N S PORT. OF COMM UTATION P E R SONS D O E S N O T ABOLISH T H E I N A C C E S S I B I LITY WHICH PREVIOUSLY C R EATED T H E S E P A RATION OF D I STANCE AND A PA RTNESS. THE T I M E O F THE N A R RATIVE A PP E A R S T O BE I NCOMPATI B L E SO-C A L L E D " W A R M A R R I AGE" E P H E M E R A L I N MOST CASES.

' A N D B Y THE CONTRAST I T OFFERS WITH TH E M AG N I FI C E N C E O F TH E I R F I N E R Y AND THE B R I L L I A N C E OF TH E I R A R M S O F S EDUCTION. TH E Y H A V E K I LLED TH E SPOUSE." IN THIS ABSURD IT. TH E PETR U C H I O WIFE MARCH O R CONQ U E R O R CAN B E COM P A R E D TO A "H U M A N COM M E RCE. TH E WO M E N OF TH E M L F DEVELOP A SI M I LA R ATTITU D E : THEY PREACH T H E PARTN E R'S LIB ERATION IN THE M A N N E R OF T H E OLD W I DOWS: CURE US OF LOVE I S O N E O F TH E I R S LOGA N S. " THE M YSTER Y WRITER AGATHA C H R I ST I E LO V E D TO R E P E AT. FOR E X A M PLE. O R T O TH I S TELEGRA M -" I F T H E W A R I S LOST. NOU R I SH I NG FOR THO S E STI L L TH EMS ELVES. HERE A S W E LL. M E RC I LESS SOC I A L RECORDS I N TH E CONVEYA NCE O F PASSENGERS ON TH E HIGH SEXUAL VOYAGE . FOR FREDERICK I I'S "TO SERVICES O F A M A I D . ACTI V I T I Y O F THE POLE­ IN S H A K E S P E A R E' S T H E TA M I N G ROUGHLY REFUSES OF THE HIS SHREW. L'HOM M E FATAL A L R E A D Y RECOGNIZES H I MSELF A S TH E PAST OF H I S WIFE: H I S S P A R K L I N G S H I ELD.THE I N C R EA S E OF E N E RG Y AND THE SUPER C H A RACT E R C H I LD R E N WHENEVER WHO E X H I B I TS THE R E LICS IN OF HER WAR ACCELERATION O F T H E LOV E RS' T R A N S PORT. ADVANCE IS TO CONQUER. BUT ALSO T H E D R I V E R'S GLANCE AT THE COM M A N D. AND CLI M B I N TO F A ST BY­ "MOST OF THE TIME LOVE IS A BY-PRODUCT OF VEHICLES. O R O F COMBAT AS THE EXISTENTIAL M EASURE OF THE WARRIOR'S EVEN. TH E ACCELERATION O F THE RITE OF PASSAGE C L E A R L Y I M PL I E S T H E PRESENCE OF T H E T E R R I TO R I A L BODY A S THI R D PARTNER. CONC E R N E D ONLY T O F I N D TH E L I M I T O F H I S FORCE'S EXPAN­ SION. THE SEDUCERE C A N N O MORE B E R E D U C E D TO SEXUAL COM M E R C E TH A N THE . FROM THE C E L I N ESQUE PRODUCT OF M U RD E R OR S I M PLY AS A VECTOR OF VOYAGE GIVES WAY TO THE LIBERATION OF T H E NEW 245 . B EG I N N I N G O F H I G H L Y TECH NOLOGICAL WARFARE. A N D T H E S E A R E S I G N I FICA NTLY AMONG T H E THEMES W H I C H H A V E C REATED TH E I R U N A N I M ITY." H E SAYS. PROPOS I N G I N STE A D THOSE OF H I S ARMS S E R V A NT: "MY MAN K NOWS HOW TO TAKE CARE OF M Y A RMOR. BEING-ALL I NVOLVE A VERTIGINOUS FLDW OF TIME. WOMA N I N H E R TURN W I L L A B A N DON THE CORSET . S H E C A N DEVOTE H E R S E LF TO COMPETITI V E S PO RT S .P RODUCT O F LOVE. USELESS.JUST W H E N T H E A R M A M ENT O F T H E R A C E R A N D T H E R A C E T O A R M S A RE BECOM I NG PHENOMENA O F SOC I ETY. AT THE OUTSET O F THE 20TH C ENTURY. BECOM E H I S COMBAT F I NERY. IT WAS NOT RARE EITHER T O S E E O N E O F T H E M R E A C H TH E S U M M I T O F TH E STATE H I E R A RC H Y. T O SEE WOM EN OF THE H I G H EST RANK M EA S U R E THEM­ SELVES AGAI N ST P U B L I C WOM E N AND EMBARK ON VERITABLE M A R AT H O N S . WAS A C O M P ETITION RATH E R THAN AN O P PO S I T I O N AND SHE H US B A N D K I LL E D THE I S G I V E N THE O P PORTU N I TY . WHO W I L L K E E P O N GETTING PA I D FOR TH E I R S E R V I CES. ABORTI O N . "SURELY H E CAN LACE UP YOU R CORSET. THE FEMME FATALE I S R A R E LY A PR ETTY WOMA N : RATH E R S H E IS WORSE. I N THE U N ITED STATES. A LL O F T H I S TAKES THE ULTIMATE FOR M OF A NEW. ACHIEVING SPEED D I RECTLY T O M U R DE R A S A BY. THAT AND WORKI NG TO SUCH A THEY WERE CONSIDERED STRUGG L E BETWEEN CLIQUES THAT H A V E BECO M E HOMOS E X U A L I N T H E PURSUIT O F POWER. H E R E AGA I N . U N D ERSTAN DS AS C L A U S E W ITZ. THE S URVIVORS AND O U T . TH E FATH E R A N D T H E C H I LD. TH E S E D UCTION O F WOMAN AS A M UR D E R . N O R . I N FLU­ ENCE AND MONEY.J UST LIKE M E N . R I D OF T H E CORSET.6 THESE PERPETU A L A S S A U LTS A G A I N S T DISTANCE A LSO R EPRODU C E I N D E F I N I TE LY THE I N I T I A L RITE OF PASSAGE. HAS A GREAT FORCE OF SYMBOLIC TRANSCENDENCE SINCE IT REFERS UNTIL A V E R Y A D V A N C E D AGE. A N A B R I DG M E N T O F THE U N I VERSE M A D E POSSIBLE B Y T H E S P E E D O F T H E ASSA U LT." SUCH EXAM PLE." T H E H A ST E WITH WHICH A L E X A N D E R T H E G R E A T DROVE ON. LET THE NATION SUCC E E D I N G OR O P POS I NG L'HO M M E FATAL (THE PERISH"-I N WHICH H I T L E R D EC I D E S TO COM B I N E WARRIOR). I N V E R S E LY. THE PHYSIOLOG I C A L I D ENTITY S E E M S TO D I S A P P E A R B E H I N D T H E A PP E A L OF A 'TEC H N I C A L VALORIZATION SUCH THAT M A N Y OF T H E S E WOM E N WILL CONTI N U E TO EXERCISE TH E I R F U NCTION IN FACT. OUTPUT MON A R C H S OR RATH E R "POLEM A RC HS" . HARMFUL ALL W I L L SOON WITH THE SPEEDOMETER OF TH E R A C I NG-CA R. A VALORI­ ZATION O F TH E RITES O F PASSAGE AND OF TH E I R NUMBER TO THE D E TR I M E N T O F THE BOD I E S IN THE THOSE W I DOWS WHO A S SU M E TH E I R B E R E A V E M E N T AS A P R I V I LEDGED POSITION. s A N D O F THEIR PRESENCE E S P E C I A LLY TH E I R O W N PROG E N Y . NO LONGE R G O I N G A BARELY D I SG U I SED H A T R E D ALIVE. WORLD. ONE IS STRUCK BY THE PHYSICAL A U ST E R I TY OF THE C E L E BRATED H I S EFFORTS WITH THOSE OF H I S E N E M I E S I N O R D E R T O COM P L E T E THE D E S T R U C T I O N OF HIS OWN PEOPLE B Y A N N I H I LATING T H E LAST R ESOU RCES O F TH E HOM E L A N D-WE F I N O OURSELVES NOT A T T H E OPPOSITE B U T RATH E R A T DELIRIOUS APOGEES O F T H E SEDUCTI V E ACTI VITY' ? COURTESANS. TO BETWEEN M ETA BOLICS A N D TEC H N IQ U E . SEVENTY TO E I GHTY FOR SOME OF T H E M .

. WE WILL TRANSFORM E DG A R ALLAN POE'S ("THOSE ASLEEP NEVERMORE I NTO A S H R I LL JOY. OF ITS ANCIENT S P EC I A L CONFRONTING E FFECTS TH E " M OB I L I S IN MOBI LE. CO M P L ET E L Y W H E N AT TH E O PE N I NG OF THE C E NTURY SPENGLER FORESAW TH E " R ETU R N OF SCI ENCE TO ITS I N ITIAL T R I LOGY THUS MODI FIED. FORGOTT E N . . SCATTE R E D A N D THERE. FLY ON A LL MODELS. . WITH U S B EG I N S S E PARATE WORLDS. BEA UTY. . . I N A R E C E NT I NT E R V I E W GIVEN TO TH E N EWSPAPER F R A NCE·SOI R . 246 . COM P A N Y PI LOTS. F. S A PET ADDS: "I'M ON THE OTH E R S I DEI" THERE IS I ND E E D A TECH NO­ GENESIS. . . AS M Y ST E R I O U S . A RTE FACT IS NO LONGER SOM ETH I NG WHICH WOU L D NO LONGER B E D I SCON­ TINUOUS. . LOGI C A L DON J U A N I S M . T H E R A I LWAYS A N D G R EAT PACKET BOATS AS FOSSIL­ IZED AS THE ROMAN ROA DS OR TH E G R EAT WALL OF C H I NA"-HE D I DN'T T H I N K THAT THESE R U I N S W E R E EARLIER THE L A T E N T FOR M S . BY M ETAPHORS O R POLITICAL A N D M I LITARY PROPA­ GANDA. IT WOU L D TH U S SO M E HOW B E N O R M A L F O R TH E LIGHT OF MOTORS TO E XTI N G U I S H THAT OF R EASON ACTIVATION OF AS TH E I D E A L THE REIGN OF TH E ROOTLESS MAN. THIS D I S A P P E A R A N C E OF WOMA N I N T H E PASSAGE LOGY A CONTI NUOUS PH ENOMENON TECH NO­ MAKE S E NSORY D E R A N G E M E NT A FATALITY OF THE TEC H N I C A L OBJECT CREATES A NEW M A SS LANGUAGE WHICH F A I T H F U L LY RE­ WOU L D P E R M A N ENT CON DITION. " TH E P I LOT J EAN-MA R I E SAGET STATED: " A T THAT TI M E T O B E A TEST PI LOT WAS R E A LLY TO FLY I NTO TH E U N K NOWN . NOW WE HAVE ANOTH E R F R U STRATION. M A K I NG S E DUCTION'S U TO P I A RITE OF R E SORTED TO E XC E PT A S A N ORNAMENT TO THE V E H ICLE IN B E A UT Y P A R A DES. SCI ENCE A N D TECH NO­ LOGY WOULD ACTUALLY C R E ATE A NEW SOCI ETY WHOSE M E M BE R S WOULD ALL BECOME SLEEPERS. M UC H AT EASE I N A SITUATION O F ''TOTAL PEACE. . YOU C A N SEE THEN HOW MUCH WE DESPISE TH E TH E PROPAG A N D A C A R R I E D OUT I N DEFENSE O F A ESTH ETICS OF LA NDSCAPE . FEEDS ON ELECTRI­ C ITY . I N S H O RT. O N E C A N S A Y T H A T TH E TECHNOLOGI­ C A L R EVOLUTION H A S F I N A LLY B E E N USED ONLY TO I N STALL THE VERY FIXITY OF LIFE I N DIS PLACEMENT ITSELF. . A N D T H E R E LATIONS H I P I S ESTA B L I S H E D B E T W E E N A U N I SE X (TH E DEFI N ITIVE DISSI M ULATION OF PHYSIOLOG I C A L I DE NTITY) AND A TEC H N I C A L PSYC H IC N A T I V E LA N D" A N D T H E COM PLETELY N EW RUINS OF F A U ST I A N HERE C I V I L I ZA T I O N -" I TS DEBRIS VECTOR. A "LI FTING" OF M A C H I N E S WHICH TH E SUPPLA NTS THAT OF IS LOGISTIC SPOUSES." MOB I L E W I TH I N A G R EAT N A T U R A L POWERS.TECH N I C A L S P E E D: THE S E D UCTION FEMININE OF THE MOTOR AND OF THE Q U E ST OF ALL TECHNOLOGICAL PROGRESS. AND WOU L D B E THE E N D O F A L L R ELIGION A N D P H I LOSOPHY. I N COLLECT I V E AND I ND I V I DUAL CONSC I ENCE. TH E GREAT NUDE BODY OF AND FATAL" M A N AWAKENED A N D SENSOR OF R E A LITY. . WAKING H ERACLITUS' AND SLEEP D I STI NCTION B E TW E E N ARE IN H EAT OF A P I E C E OF I R O N OR W OO D NOW A ROUSES U S MORE TH A N T H E S M I LE OR TEA R S OF A WOM AN." AND OF N UC L E A R DISSUASION. ASPI R I N G T O A STATE O F V I G I L I N A WOR L D G I V E N A S C O M M O N (TH E PRECONDITION F O R T H E FORMATION OF M E A N I NG). SINCE THEY HAVE TO MAKE T H R E S HOLD AN WOU LD E FFECTIVELY C A R R Y O U T F O R H U M A N ITY A RITE OF PASSAGE C O M PA R A B L E TO THAT IN COM PARISONS . BUT TH E A S SU M PTION OF THE VAR IOUS RITES O F PASSAGE BY MASS PRODUCTION IS A A NOTH E R WAY. T H E OF A U N I QU E AND ABANDONED P H E N O M E NO N PARAPHRASING I M PO R T A N T R A G E OT'S IN B L U E P R I NTS I R R E S I ST I B L E FORMU LA. A N D M A C H I NATING TH E CATASTRO P H I C U N C E RTAINTIES WHICH STI R THE MOBILE. L I V I N G OUT I LLUSORY DAYS AND NATURALLY VERY SYMBOLI STS WOM A N . ON THE CONTRARY. AN OSC I LLATI NG T R I P FOR CONSC I O U S N E S S WHICH WOU LD HAVE AS ABSO­ FLECTS T H E FASCI ST LA NGUAGE OF TH E FUTU R I ST ELITE AT THE BEGI N N I N G OF THE C E NTU RY: "TH E LUTE POLES ONLY B I RT H AND DEATH. "ACCORD­ ING TO A C U R V E O F OPTI M A L D I ST R I BUTION OF T H E E X E RTION OF FO R C E S WHICH G U A R A NTEE EQUI L­ IBRIUM HENCE AND A TH E AVOI DANCE OF A CC I D E N T S . W R I TT E N PROJECT-QR PROJECTION-QF T H E WEST TOWA R D A T E C H N O LOG I C A L AS THAT WITH BEYOND ABOUT 1 920. TH EY'RE PRIVI LEDGED. TH E LATTER ITSELF B E I N G D E V E LOPED ACORD I N G TO T H E P R I N C I PL E O F L E A ST A C T I O N SO D E A R T O E N G I N E ERS. Irs TOO BAD." CLIMB­ I N G I NTO H I S M I R A G E 4000. L E A N I N G OVER THE FEMALE 1 9 1 0). . BUT W E CAN'T FLY THE P L A N E S OF RIVAL COMPA N I ES BECAUSE NEVER OF COMMERCIAL AN C O M P ET I T I O N . THE CONTACTS WITH T H E B O D Y OF THE B E LOVED OR THE T E R RITOR I A L BODY DISAPPEAR­ ING PRE DICTA BLY A S T H E DYNAMICS OF PASSAGE I NC REASE. D E F I N E S BOTH EVERY T R A N S PORT VEHICLE A N D. . . I'VE L I FT E D O F F WITH M UC H T O M Y WORLD OF ENTI RELY S U S P E N D E D ON T H E U LT I M ATE OPERATION W H I C H REGR ET. FINA LLY. . A DV E R T I Z I N G ENCES BETW E E N AND R E A LITY.1 !S. . A F I N A L S U PPRESSION OF T H E D I F F E R ­ NATU R E A N D C U LTURE. THOSE A W A K E I N A COM MON WORLD") WOU L D C E A S E TO A PPLY. . . IDEAL ( M A R I N ETTI. . TH E M U LTIPLIED M A N WHO MI NGLES WITH I RO N . THE MOTTO O F J U L E S VERNE'S NAUTILUS. R E LIGIONS.

AS SUBLIM E HIS PASSION. A S WITH EVE R YTH I N G CONC E R N I NG T H E ATOM. BUT WHEN HE BRI NGS OUT HIS B E L A I R. THAT OF A C E RTA I N PATH OF STEN COTTAGE. 'BEFORE LEAVING THE GARAGE I PAT ITS FENDER. HAPPENING . HE D R EA M E D ABOUT T H E CAR FOR FI FTEEN YEARS. AN EX· REMARKED N UCLEAR A D M I N I ST R A T O R O F T H E P O L Y T E C H N I C I N ST I T U T E . SHOULD CON S U M E NOT H I NG. FAR MORE BLINDING AND FEARFUL THAN ITS S I O N A L ACCOM PA N I M E N T . I N T H E EVENT O F A N ACCIDENT. ." A J O U R N A L I ST WRITES ABOUT PARTIC ULAR. SPARK L I N G B L U E WITH A LIGHTER ROOF. AND H A RDLY G E OG R A P H I C . . SOM EON E STOP H I M . AS SOON AS HE SAW IT. H A RRISBU RG: ''T H E R E A LITY O F TH E R EACTOR. WHEN I T V I B RATES A N D GLOWS.8 BUICKS. " 9 "ALBERT LIVES TO THE F U L LEST ONE AS IN IN 1 950. CAN NOT B E ASSESSED WITH ORDI N A RY WOR D S . TH E "MOT H E R . THAT'S HOW THEY D I D IT. THE TECH N I C I A N B E CO M E S T H E PRODUC ED. THUS "C R U S H I N G A U TO M O B I L E IN THE NUCLEAR C I RC L E S. A N D S I D E R E A L S PACE. HE DRESSES TEDDY BOY STYLE. YOU SEE. WHICH WE OVER IT. COLONEL DE ROCHAS. BECAUSE I FELT IT N EEDED IT. I SPEAK TO IT. FOR HIS PART. YOU MUST SEE IT AT N I G HT. THEY A R E LIKE BLI N D MEN TU R N I N G IN A CI RCLE A S T H E Y T R Y T O M A K E A DECISION . HE I M A G I N E D ITS FI RST COLOR." A P PR E H E N D LESS A S A CON S U M E R OBJECT TO B E DESI R E D O R REJ ECTED T H A N M O R E E S S ENTIALLY AS THE VECTOR OF D E S I R E S J UST A S OBSOLES­ CENT A S OUR DREAMS. WHO G A Z E D AT H I M WITH H A TT E R A S WENT OUT WALKS. TO LIGHT UP EVERYTH I NG AT THE SAME TIME. • ATTEMPTED TO D E M O N STRATE W I T H H I S XENOGLOSSY THAT "A SUBJ ECT U N D E R H YPNOSI S C O U L D EXCEED THE MOST SLOW IN THE L I M I T O F HUMAN E X P E R I E N C E AND G O BACK I N TI M E WITHOUT TOO M UCH FATIG U E. VICTI M FROM OF ALL AND A PARTNERS C A PTA I N HAVE D I SA PP E A R E D "TH I S S A D MECHANICS SCHOOL) AND ELECTRICITY A TECHNICAL HE TELLS A HATTE R A S. I ' D L I K E IT TO SH I N E WITH ALL ITS LIGHTS AND C H R O M E FITTINGS. T O S E E K O U T . CAPTAI N FOR LONG OC E A N ." OF M E M BERS FIFTIES OF T H E CLUB" I N F I N I TELY P R OC E S S E S . P R E C U RSOR H E ROS A S THE NORWEGI A N R O A L D A M U NDSEN OR TH E ITA L I A N U M B ERTO NOBILE. BUT A L S O DESE RTS. J U ST A LITTLE ATMOSPHE R E FROM TI M E T O T I M E . H E R EPEATS I N THE A BSOLUTE OF T H E PLA NT'S CONTROL ROOM TH E S I M PL I F I E D GES­ T U R E S OF A PR I M A L MAGN ETIC R I T E W H O S E "MOB I L E WITHOUT MOB I LITY" A S YET T O B E C L A R I F I ED. I N VARIA BLY L E D H I M I N THE S A M E D I R ECTI ON. AS A STRANGE PROCES­ OUTS I D E AS A OF H I STORY OF THE THE VEHICLE C O M PLETELY R EPLACES THE B E LOVED. . ' " V E R N E 'S H E RO. DANIEL (AGE S I XT E E N . . A N YW H E R E . ITS CHROME FITTI N GS.' HE ADDS. POW E R F U L CO M PA R E D CO M P UT E R TO REAL IS . ETC. . T H E M E D I U M B E I N G I N THIS C A S E A M ERICAN C A R S OF THE FI FTI ES-CA D I LLACS.' HE SAYS. 'AT NIGHT I J U ST LOOK AT IT. IT'S A SENSITI V E M AC H I N E. C H EV R O L ETS.W E A R E C U R R ENTLY REDI SCOV E R I NG T H E M YSTERY OF THE T E C H N O L OG I C A L VEHICLE. T O DISCOVER. BUT THESE SOFT. THE EXPERTS K N OW THAT TH E Y C A N NOT R E A L LY M O N I TO R WITH IN A A COMPUTER R EACTOR WHAT OUT IS OF I N D U L G E T H E M SE L V E S A S I M I L A R ACTI V I TY. J E T'AI ME." IS SUFFERING A "POLA R JOURNALIST FROM L E M O N D E . SAILS E V E RY DAY S U R R O U N D E D BY G U LLS. J U L E S OF SUCH REAL AFFIXED TO THE TIP OF THE HOOD. I'D WITH LIKE IT TO B E THE COLOR OF THE IN TH E DISTANCE AND M A D N ESS. THIS AKIN TO ON E I R I C SPEED DELI RIOUS JOY OF ANTH ROPOMORPHIC B L U E P R I NTS. ACC I D E NT A T ECLIPSING T H E I N F I N ITY O F D R E A M S (MARI N ETTIl. AROUND 1 9 00. THEN. I ' D L I K E IT T O BE V E R Y FAST. A BIG WHAT DOCTOR CALLS BIKE. ''I'D L I K E A B I K E . HIS WIFE RIDING IN T H E BACK WITH THE K I D. H E WOU LD PO I N T TO A FIXED SPOT I N THE SKY. H A V I N G 1'0 LIKE IT TO A R R IVED AT T H E E N D O F TH E P A T H . . I'D LI K E I T TO D R I V E ITSELF WHEN I'M TIRED. T O LOOK F O R . PLAY AN EGO'S FALSE R E PR E S ENTATI O N S LIGHT " . A R E A L L Y BIG B I K E TO GO WHEREVER I WANT. ' " THE DOCTOR VERY SOON . R U S H I N G TOWA R D S A BEYON D WITHOUT AN I D E NTITY FOR I T RESEMBLES NOTH ING AT ALL AND YET I S NOT NOT H I NGNESS: T H E NORTH P O L E . WANTS MOTORCYCLE. . YOU S H O U L D K NOW ITS N A M E . T H E PHYSIC I A N DOM I N I Q U E A BOUT TH E PIGNON. VICTIM H A V I NG OF T H E BECO M E " D U R I N G T H E W E E K H E D R I V E S H I S REG ULAR CAR.L A N D S C A P E " I N H A B I T E D BY T H E "SPI RIT OF M ETAMORPHOSIS. S O I COULD S E E ONLY WHAT I L I K E . THE ROCKET MOVEMENT H E HAS APHASIC. SAD EYES." HE H A S BECOM E PART A N D PARCEL OF THE BY I R R E S I ST I B L E R I T E OF PASSAGE: "FOLLOWED HIS FAITH F U L DOG. I'D L I K E TO K E E P O N R I D I NG. F O R DS. AT A STUDYI NG BUT H E R E FOR E V E R . FOR E X A M P L E . SO IT COULD LOOK AT ME A S MUCH AS I LOOK AT IT." TECH NOLOGI­ C A L FATALITY A PPEARS A S THE F I N A L S E D UCTION. WITHOUT EVER STOPPI N G . I PUT THE ROCKET O N IT. HE BRINGS TO M I N D C A PTA I N A H A TTE R A S. • CONTROL. 1'0 PUT D I A LS ALL 247 . T H E CAPTA I N W O U L D STA R T WALKING BACKWARDS. T H A N K S TO TH E SPEED A LO N E IT C A N G I V E OUR A S P I RATIONS.

. • . W H I C H W I L L G I V E H I M THE C R E D I B I LITY N ECESSARY TO ACCOM PLISH TH E SINGULAR "WOMAN S A W THAT TH E TREE [OF KNOWLEDGE] WAS GOOD TO EAT A N D PLEASING TO LOOK AT. . HE A N THROPOC ENTRIC SOCI ETY AS IGNOBLE A S IT W A S FOR THE M IDDLE AGES . TH E REPETITION OF B A N A L ATTITUDES I S U S E D NOTABLY BY THE S E C R E T S E R V I C E S W H O H A V E CR EATED A VERY PARTICUAR CATEGORY O F 9 DOMI N I Q U E DANS LES PIGNON. . VITESSE ET e C F. C I T." TRAVERSES. O P. B R I S E DO U ' S I NTE R ES T I N G ARTICLE O N COLLECTORS O F C A R S O F THE 50'S A N D TH E I R 4 THIS KINO OF A NESTHE S I A OF FAMILIARS B Y M E ETINGS ON T H E F I RST T H U RSDAY N IGHT O F E A C H MONTH. ADAMA. I S A G EOG RA P H I C A L N A M E PASSAG E R.. 248 . LES AVENTURES DU CAPITA I N E TIO N A L ESPIONAGE. 1 9 77). . IN L I BERATION ( F E B . . "M ETEM PSYCHOSE DU T I O N A LLY.. 1 977). N UC L E A I R E S ( PA R I S : 80URGOIS." l O AND A G U ESSED WHY THE STROLL C O N S T A N T D I R EC T I O N . M A N U A L LABOR BEING FOR IN E DG A R ALLAN POE'S "MORELLA" THE H US B A N D CON FESSES A PROPOS THE AGONY O F HIS WIFE: "I WAS Y E A R N I N G WITH A N I NTENSE AND DEVOU R I N G D E S I R E FOR THE MOM E N T OF M O R E L LA ' S D E A T H . THE WOR K E R S BOD I ES. W I THOUT A L E RT I N G T H E S U S P I ­ 2 TH E MAN. HE I S T H E R E A S A U S E LESS PAWN IN THE GAME OF INTERNA­ '0 J U LES V E R N E. HE T H E N Q U I C K LY PUTS TO WOR K THE M A TE R I A L P ROOFS OF HIS I LL U SO R Y E X I S­ C H R I ST I A N I T Y WANTED TO SEE TENCE. GET C E N T R A L ES 1 976). B ( M A Y. ITS I N ITIAL M EA N I NG MAY H A V E B E E N "STEPPE" (COM EN­ TARY OF T H E J E RUSALEM BIBLE). A N D M A Y LIVE H I S WHOLE HATTERAS ( P A R I S : HACHETTE). AS IF PAUL VI RILIO A LW A Y S TOOK UNDER THE I N FL U E N C E O F A MAGNETIC H ATT E R A S FORCE. . TH E R E IS A LW A Y S TH E DI FFERENCE 7 B ETWEEN T H E 'LI B E R A L' A N D THE ·AUTOMATIC·. "GA R D E N " I S TRANSLATED "PARADISE" IN THE GREEK EDEN V E RS I O N AND THEN TRADI­ " C F." M I SSION WITH W H I C H H E HAS B E E N SUDDENLY E N T R U STED. WHICH ELUDES A L L LOCALIZATION. PAU L V I R I L I O. . WO R K . H A V E C H I LDREN. W H I C H IS A PURE MOTOR FUNCTION AND CAN B E P E R FO R M E D EQUALLY WELL B Y T H E IGNORANT OR A N I M A LS . AND THOSE OF WOM E N AND LOST H E NCE­ FORTH M I N E A N D IN H E A V E N FOREVER.U N D E R STOO D OBSTI NACY. . 9 8: "TH E P E R FO R M A NC E OF THE I NVADER RESEMBLES THAT O F HIS COUNTE R P A RT I N SPORTS. U N LESS SOM E DAY HE R E C E I VES TH E ORDER TO REACTI VATE THE SERPENT SERVES AS MASK FOR A HOSTILE B E I NG WHICH A N C I E NT W I S DO M AND THEN A S SATA N . COMES FROM TH E EARTH. PLACE D E L A CONCORDE. " 3 . " P A U L V I R I LIO. . . II VITESSE ET POLITI Q U E . . " WEARY O F W A I T I NG. 1 979). T H E SLEEPER HAS TO MOVE TO A FO R E I G N PLACE. DES RISQUES D'ACCIDENT SPI ES: THE SLEEPERS. THE M OT I V E OF T H I S S I NGULAR TOWA RD THE NORTH. H I M S E LF. TRANSLATED BY J O H N JOH NSTON C A PTA I N JOHN I N V A R I A BLY W A L K E D NOTES LIFE WITHOUT B E I NG OF USE. ADA M . CORI N N E THE POLiTI Q U E ( P A R I S : G A L I LE E. M A R R I ED. C I O N S O F H I S N E I G H BORS. ." C H I LDREN [CONSTITUTED] THE I D E A L OBJECT O F TRA I N I NG. P. NO. F I N A LL Y K I LLS H ER: "MY B E LOVED.

D I SC O U R S E TOWA R D A BEGI N N I NG WITH THIS R E A LISATION O N E MAY MOVE LACKING D I S CO U R S E O F T H E B O D Y W I T H U S. WITHOUT FORCI N G T H E STA M P OF B E I N G (WHICH N I E TZSC H E R I GHTLY I N DI C AT E D A S T H E T R A P OF A L L TH I N K I N G A N D SPEAKINGI. THE ADDED DIFFICULTY IS THAT OF B E I N G W I TH I N OR O U TS I D E A P A R TI C U LA R T Y P E O F D I SC O U R S E . RATHER. THE I M PU L S E OF A S E X U A L NATURE OR FORCE IS S E E N SUBOR D I N ATED TO AN A RCHE:. A LTHOUGH A M O R E F E RTI LE NOTION OF THE I M PORTA NCE AND PREVALENCE OF E ROTIC DRIVE AND PRESENCE IN ALL H U M A N E X P E R I E N C E . SOON TO BECOME A LL-REASONABLE. M O V E M E N T . LOVE OR PASSION A S MOVEM E NT WAS CON F I N E D TO THE TOPOS CONTROLLED B Y A S U B JECT. GEN ERA LLY O N TH E G ROUNDS O F A N ARCHE: O F REASON. IT R E M A I N S N O N E T H E L E S S I N FECTED B Y T H E S A M E PROBLEM O F BEING AT IF O N E T H E N C A N B E G I N TO S P E A K OF T H E U PON T H E I R B EC O M I N G MOVEMENT A N D PLAY O F BODIES. T H E P L A TO N I C D O C T R I N E M U ST ULTI MATELY FACE ITS OWNMOST I M POVER I S H M E N T I N THE RIGI DITY A N D STER I LITY OF CARTES I A N M I ND­ BODY DUALI SM. U PO N T H E P L A Y . I F THE PLATO N I C CONSIDERATION OF "EROS" I S A FULLER.DISCOU RSE A N D SEXUA LITY: TOWARD THE TEXT U R E OF E ROS A LTHOUGH IT IS NOT APPARENT THAT TRA DITIONA L PHI LOSOPHY H A S H A D M UC H OF VA L U E T O SAY ABOUT THE FROM THIS BODY AND REGA R D I N G S E X U A LITY. AND RICHNESS O F "BODY" A N D "BODI LY" EXPERIENCE. IN SUCH A FASHION. 249 . E P I STEMOLOG I C A L L Y D E R I VED.B E I NG O U R SEXUAL-BODI ES. T H E P R E ­ SOCRATIC PHI LOSOPHE R S P E R H A PS F I RST SPOKE OF LOVE IN TH E CONTEXT O F STRI FE. R IC H E R D I SC O U R S E U PO N T H E POLY­ MORPHOUS C H A RACTER OF E ROTIC DRIVE AND ITS UPHOLDING O R I N FO R M I N G THE G R I D OF THE WORLD K N O W N TO M A N . H E N C E . ODDS WITH THE HIGHER STATUS OF T H E "EIDOS" TO WHICH IT IS DRAWN. WHICH W I L L I N F I LTRATE ITS PA R T I C U L A R E P I STEMOLOG I C A L G R I D U PO N OUR SEEI NG. LOVE­ STRIFE. I N TRODUCING PASSION OR THR U ST A S FORCED U PON THE GRID OF A TELOS. MOST OBVIOUSLY. THE D I SCOU R S E A B O U T T H I S I M P U LS E . PHI LOSOPH I C O R OTHER. IF W E ARE CONFRONTED B Y THE D I F F I C U LTY O F TA K I N G UP A DI S C O U R S E ON SEXUALITY FROM " W I T H I N" T H E R EG I O N O F TRADITI O N A L P H I LOSOPHY I T I S B EC A U S E O F T H E R I G I D B U T S T I C K Y G R I D I T H A S E N FO R C E D . THE STAGE OF E M P I R I C A L H Y POTH E S I S AND V E R I F I CATION WAS ONLY S U PPOSED. I T BECOMES CLEAR TO WHAT DEGREE DIALECTI C A L OPPOSITION. WAS CARRIED O N WITHOUT A N Y REFERENCE TO THE "FLESH" OF BODIES.

HOMOSEXUAL. AND FORCE. C'EST QU'ELLE RE VE QU'ELLE LE VEUT. C E PETIT HOMME E NER­ G I Q U E ET ACTIF S'EST VOU E A A LA FOLLE ENTREPRISE DE DEVENIR CE QU'IL EST DE J A ET DE DE TRUI RE CE QU'IL NE PEUT EMPECHER D' ETRE. M O V E M E N T IS S A C R I F I C E D TO T H E OVER-DOM I N A N T PRESENCE O F A W H A T IS P E R H A P S U LT I M A T E L Y ST R I K I N G A N D STRANGE ABOUT D E R R I DA'S TREATM ENT OF HEGEL­ GEN ET. DE SE FA I RE SYMBOLE.W O R K -G E N ET A N D SEEM H I S S E X U A L­ LITE R A R Y EXPRESSION TO A TYPE OF P H I LOSOPH I­ SCR UTI N Y N O N E TOO D I S T A N T I N S UBSTA NCE. FOR T H E "STUFF" OF THE R E L A T I O N S H I P O F T H E M A N . LESS A LLUSIVE THAN DERRI DA. T H E I N A DEQUACY O F T H I S J U M P I S NOWH E R E MORE C L E A R LY EVI DENCED T H A N I N THE PERSON AND WOR K O F G E N ET H I M S E LF . C REATIVE MOVEM ENT. YET. SAME TI M E A TH R U ST TOWA RD A N D EXPRESSION. O N E SHOULD O N LY HOPE TO GLI M PSE T H E I R COUNTER-FACING B E Y O N D O R A BO V E T H E S U R F A C E O F T H E I R E M E RG E N C E FOR DERRIDA AS T H R U STS O F I M M A N E N C E O R DEBRIS OR TRANSCENDENCE. D E R R I D A H A S H I N T E D W E L L AT TH E I M POTE N C E OF PH I LOSO P H Y AS SO U N D I NG ITS DEATH-KNELL WITH THE C U L M I NATING PHI LOSOPHY OF H EG E L . T H A T O F REASON. SARTRE H A S P E R H A PS ONLY BEEN MORE BLU NT. A D M I R A BLE EXC R E M E NT. T H E I R COLLAPSE HAS L E FT ONLY THE R E S I D U E OF DI SCOURSE. PLAY. FEEL IT RESPOND. 2 A N E N R I C H E D B U T NON­ G E N E RATIVE. BEING PASSED DOWN OR FALLING TO US A S SOLI DIFIED. I N ORDER THAT PLAY R E M A I N A T T H E H EART OF THOUGHT­ BODY. H A S GENET B E E N GIVEN A N ADEQUATE A N D E M PATH ETIC TREATMENT? IT WOULD B E A S E V E R E M I STAKE TO CONFUSE T H E RESPECTIVE T REATM E N T OF G E N ET BY D E R R I DA AND SARTRE I N A S M U C H A S BOTH D I F F E R I N SUBSTA N TI A L A N D PARTICULAR DETA I LS. DE S'EXPRI MER PAR DES SYMBOLES ET DE VIVRE AU M I LIEU DES SYMBOLES. NO V U L N E R A B I LITY. THE HEGELI A N BODY HAS N O F L E S H .R U N RESULTS O F BOTH WRITERS' SUBJ ECT­ ING CAL THE M A N . TH E LATTER S E E M S T O T A K E MOVE MENT O R T H R U ST. SEXUALITY-PROC R EATION AND ITS I N STITUTION IN AND U P HOLDING. DERRIDA PHALLUS WITH THE DESIRE FOR CLOTURE MOVEM E N T HIS OF OF M I N D. H EG E L I A N SCH E M A S. U LT I M A T E L Y .W O R K . PUI SQU'ELLE VEUT CE QU'ON NE PEUT VOULOI R. COLLAPSE I NTO TH E GENE RATION OF A N E M PTY DISCOURSE.I N FORMED BY THE STATE. HOWEVER. BECOME FLACCID. A U S S I TOT SA VOLONT E SE VOLATI LISE DANS L'I MAGINAIRE. T H E D I A LECTIC OF C H I LO-BI RTH A N D FATH E R -DEATH. C U LT I V A T E D M A N . IN FORC I N G THE FLESHY-SENSUAL PROSE AND POETRY O F GENET I N TO T H E CONCEPTUAL MOLD OF TH E PACKAGED "SYM BOL. ' DERRIDA SHOWS FORCEFU LLY THE EXTENT TO WHICH TH E A D M I RABLE E XC R E M ENT OF H EGEL IS STI L L AMONG US IN THE FOR M OF HIS CONSI DERATIONS A S TO THE G E N E RATION AND F I L I ATION OF THOUGHT. THE ELABORATION OF THOUGHT-BODY M UST REMAIN WITHOUT PRESENT SEXUAL-EXPERI ENCE-BECOM E-LiTE RARY. D E R R I DA'S DISCOU RSE E M ERGES IN ITS RELIANCE U PO N G E N E T AS C O U N T E R-TH R U ST TO T H E T H O U G H T. T H E FIGURE O F M A ti. YET. "I NCOM M U N ICABILITY" OF LITERARY SPACE WITH G E N ET LURKING IN THE W INGS. IN SPITE OF T H E CONTRAST OF "SEX U A L" TH E M E S WITH CON C E PTUAL. M UC H LESS TO WHICH WE COULD S P E A K AND SEE. I S A T THE I R O N I C A LLY PA R A L L E L S A N D A LLEGED NON­ THE C O L L A P S E OF T H E H EGELI A N CONC E PTU A L I M POTE N C E I M PO T E N C E OF G E N ET'S EXPRESSIVE WORK. BEING. SUBJ ECTED TO THE OVE R TH E FUNCTION A N D DESTI NY OF THE FORM E R W H E N T H E M A R G I N S O F PHILOSOPHI C A L ENDEA­ VO U R A R E P U S H E D TO OV E R F LO W . T H E H O P E D-FOR OSC I L L A T I O N SOLI D I F I ES A N D T H E D U A L E RECTIONS. H E ONLY WEAKLY SUGGESTS THAT ONE MA Y N E E D TO R EC O N S I D E R THE RESEMBLANCE NOUS POU VON S A P R E S E N T COM P R E N D R E L'AVENTURE D E GENET. VO U E E S PA R N A T U R E A DE M E U R E R S E S D E STR U C T I O N S E T S E S INEFFICACES. I N STALLS ITSELF U N I V E R S A L LY A T TH E EXPENSE OF T H E SC U LPTED." S A RTRE C LA I M S .P H A L L U S O F H E G E L. TO US IN ALL ITS M OV E M E NT. I MAGED FORM AND MOVEM E N T O F T H E D I V I N E . H ETEROS E X U A L SPACE O F HEGELIAN " I N T E L L I G I B I L I TY " OR APPROBATIONS ONT L I E U SYM BOLI Q U E M E NT. THE LONG . GENET A D E CID E . A SON INSU. WILL NOT S U F F I C E . B E T W E E N DION YSOS A N D C H RIST. THE SCATTE RED R E M A I N S OF W H I C H POI NT T O THE POLA R O P POSITIONS OF A N I M POTENT. DU JOUR 00 IL A CHOISI DE VOULOI R SON DESTIN. HENCE. D E R R I DA'S D I SCOURSE ABOUT H EGEL AND GENET M A Y B E TAKEN A S A SUGGESTION OR WARNING A BOUT THE INTRINSICALLY STU LTI FYING TENDENCY O F THOUGHT TO OVE RCOM E THE BODY.W H I C H ENTA ILS A TRUNCATED MOVEM ENT. Y ET . DIVINE A N D H U M A N . I S T H A T D E R R I DA I M PLICITYLY ACC E PTS A DISJUNC­ TU R E OR D I SCONTI N UITY BETWE E N P H I LOSOP H Y A N D LITERATURE. I N A N Y CASE. A L W A Y S A S R E A S O N A B L E . TH E FOR C E OF SA RTRE'S CRITIQUE AND A P P ROACH TO G E N ET AND HIS S E X U A L-LITE RARY EXPE R I E N C E 250 .G E N ET. IT C A N NOT OFFER TO US ANY LONGER ITS FACE U PON WHICH W E COULD GAZE.

RI ES.PRODUCTI VE. N E I T H E R FOR G E N ET IN "SURPAS­ SI NG" HIS SITUATION. IT MUST B E S A I D THAT I N TH E E N D SARTRE HAS ON LY MADE GENET MORE M A N AGEABLE FOR US. IS ITS E L F S O L I D . VIDE. SEES FOR TH I S WHAT SARTRE OF G E N ET'S ULTI M ATELY SYMBOLIC AS THE PLACE INVOLVEM ENT: REMAINS I M PR I SO N E D B Y TH E CHUTE. IN A LA RGER CONTEXT. VAGINA AS M AN'S THE PARTICULAR A N D TO A N Y D I SCOURSE I N G E N E R AL. NOR FOR U S I N B E I NG SPOKEN TO FROM THIS. SARTRE HAS C E RTA I N LY BETRAYED THE POVERTY OF AT LEAST PART OF HIS PROJECT IN ONE SHORT C H A R ACTE RIZATION OF GEN ET: A N D ITS D I SCOU R S E ON SARTRE TO C A P­ SEXUALITY.P L E N I T U D E" I N PR O S E . IL N'A P LUS AUCUN US THAT T H E P L A C E OF PASSION I N G E N E R A L A N D SEXUAL I N TE R C O U R S E IN ITS H ET E R OS E X U A L RAPPORT "NORMAL". T H E PLACE FOR SARTRE WHICH I S ONE OF MAGICAL T R A N S FO R MATION OF A TT E M PTS IN TO FILL ITSELF.F I L L I N G . I N B E I N G A N O NOTH INGNESS A R E S E E N 215 1 . I S S E E N BY SARTRE A S NON. THE NOR M A LC Y OF PROSE FOR SA RTRE. FOR TH E MOST P A R T. P A R T I C I PATION L U ST.F R E U D I A N H I G H LY NOTI ONS. TIVATE. AND WITH PLA C E OF THE DEPTH TH E I R I NTERFACE7 SARTREAN LUCI DITY WOULD CON V I N C E DES SON A DOLESC ENCE. SC I O U S N E S S ACH I EVES I F. I M POTENT.H U M A N TH R U ST O F TH E VACUITY O F SA RTRE'S TREATM E N T OF SYMBOL­ PROSE I S STR I K I N G A N D I N STR UCTI V E AS TO THE I N A DEQUACY OF THIS APPROACH WITH RES PECT TO THE COMPLEXITY O F THE M A N . FOR SARTRE. IN A TUMBLE TO THE BACK FA LLI NG­ RESTRICTED SENSE. CAPABLE OF A N Y C A S E MAN THE AT L E A ST THE WORLD. D I S -C U R S I VE. DEFUSED THE QU ESTI O N FORCE OF G E N ETS THROWING POSS I B I L I ITY OF ANY DIS­ PH ENOM E N A ARE VI EWED. A N D PROJ ECTS CAREFUL LAYI N G-OUT OF THE TH E CATEGO R I E S AND IN MOVEM ENTS O F H U M A N CON­ SITUATIONS W H I C H S A RT R E N ESS WHICH SARTRE LA I D OUT MOST EXTENSIVELY IN BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS. I N HIS C H A R A CTERIZATION OF GENET AS U N A BLE. EM PTY. SARTRE U LT I M A T E L Y REMAINS THE M ETA­ OSC I L L A T O R Y .IS TO REDUCE TH E M TO THE LOC U S OF THE C O N SC I O U S N E S S FASH ION IS A LACK WHICH UP IN FUTILE MAKE I M A G I N A R Y OR E MOTI ONAL. G E N E T ' S BRI LLANTES ET V I L I B L E S . THE T H R UST OF A PENIS IN AS PROJECT-U PON-TH E-WORLD. LA NEGATION QUI MARQ U E NT L'EMOTION POETIQUE. I T WOULO S H O W U S T H E A PPROP R I AT I V E . CAN ONE E X PECT W I TH R E F U R B I S H E D H EG E L I A N C AT E GO­ OF THE S Y M BOL THE OR TH E OF THE PATHOS SYM BOL'S PASSION. HOWEVER. O N E WI LL NOT BE S U R P R I S E D BY THE RAPIDLY A N O EASI LY CONQUERE D NOTI O N S OF BEING AND NOTH I N G N ESS I N TO TH E COURSE U PON SEXUA LITY A S WELL A S THE ABI LITY TO I N H A BIT THE PLACE OF SYM BOL W H I L E HANGING ON TO ANY VESTIGES OF CONCEPTUAL THOUGHT. 4 ENTA I LS. THAT NORMALCY HAS A S ITS REFERENCE THE SPEECH AND CATEGORIES O F N EG A T I N G AND A PP R O P R I A T I V E CONSCIOUS­ E N C LOS U R E A LWAYS BEYON D . T H E TOUCH I NG-SEIZI NG OF A B R E A ST AS AN ATTE M PT TO GET HOLO OF BEING. C ' E S T LE SEXUAL-LITE RARY FASHION TH E PLAC E OF SYM BOL AND THE PECULIA R MOVEM E N T THAT PLACE VERTIGE. N U I T DU NON-SAVOI R: I L N E 'S'AGIT PAS D' U N E O'IMAGES POES I E APOLLI NIENNE Q U I JOU I R A I T STRONGLY H ETEROSEX U A L-CONCEPT UA L STA NCE I N H A BITING IN TOW A R D C R E A T I V I T Y . 3 DE PROSE AVEC PARTI C U L A R ITY CASE OF THE I S N O MORE THAN THE S P E C I A L ONTOLOGICAL. WITH A DISCOURSE WHICH REMAINS THE LUC I D ITY O F A P P RO AC H I NG RADICAL RELATION TO CONSC I O U S N E S S AS ONE OF NEGATION. ONE M U ST NOT B E A R DOWN TOO DEE PLY I NTO TH E PLACE OF SEXUA L-SYMBOL FOR FEA R OF TH E BOTTO M L E S S IS PLU N G E IT MIGHT TOWA R D E XPRESSION. FOR A LL HIS E XTE N S I V E USE OF G E N E RA LIZED SARTRE M A R X I ST. ALTHOUGH THE S P I R I T OF TH E SARTREAN E N TER­ PRISE H A S CERTA I NLY BEEN TO CON S I D E R " E V E R Y HUMAN FACT' AS SIGNI FICATIVE. T H E PLACE O F SYM BOL. F O L L OW I N G SUGGESTIONS O F EXISTENTIAL PSYC HOA N A LYSIS STA U N C H D E F E N D E R O F A PHYSICAL-RELIGIOUS VIEW TRADITIONAL ON BROA D OUTLI N E .U P-TOWA RD. C'EST-A' O I R E LE LANGUAGE. I M PLICIT I S THE C H A RG E THAT GEN ET. FALL I NTO NOT H I NGN ESS PROFF E R E D BY TH E POETRY OF EMOTION OR POETIC EMOTI O N .e THE FORCE OF E PI S T E M OLOGY H A S THE OPTI Q U E SARTR E A N A LT H O U G H THERE IS A C E R TA I N D E PTH AND OFTE N L I M ITED WITH IF NOT THE CRUSHED WHICH RICHNESS T O SARTR E'S TALK OF G E N ET A N D HIS WOR K . C A N N OT A C H I E V E T H E E X P E R I E NCE I N I TS PARA LLELING M O V E M E N T OF THAT " L A C K . LE NEANT.W O R K-G E N E T I N FI LLING U P H O L E S I N B E I NG. IS. G RA S P I N G C H A R ACTER O F TH E CA RESS. ENTA I L. G E N ETS NON-EXPRESSIVE PLACE OF DISCOURSE. I N E F F ECTUAL TO CARRY H I MSELF TOW A R D A PLACE W H I C H WOULD BE CON-STRUCTI VE. LE MANQUE. I F THE LUC I D PROSE OF KNOWING I S TO B E E N FORCED VERSUS TH E M U RKY. I N TO TH E NOTH I N G THAT H E R E T U R N S TOWARD. SEXUAL A N D LITE RARY. PERTA I N S TO LANGUAGE. NON-C REATIVE.

H I STOR I C A L-TH E O R E T I C A L. DUALISMS. ONLY TO BE DOMESTI­ CATED BY AND AND I NTO A SCIENCE OF S E X U A LITY. A FOUC A U LTS ATT E M PT I N SPITE OF T H E L I M ITATI O N S O F SARTRE'S VIEW TO AND DI SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. E V E N S I N C E THE E N D OF T H E S I XT E E NTH C E NTU RY. TANT DE PLUS RANCOE U R CONTRE NOTRE PASSE LE CONTRE NOTR E QUE PRESENT ET WORKS. F I N A LLY BEYOND THEM. A N A LYSIS IS TO I N D I C ATE STI F L I N G THE OF R E ST R I C T I O N . AND D I SCOU R S E O N S E X U A LITY A N D T H E R E P R ESSION OF S E X U A LITY IN TH E V E R Y LOC U S W H E R E SUCH TALK A PP E A R S TO BE IN THE OPEN. S E X U A LITY I N I NTRODUC I NG TH E FI RST PAGES OF A CONTI NU­ I NG WORK ON A S E X U A LI T Y . L U C I DITY OF A P P R O P R I A T I V E C O N SC I O U S N E S S W H I C H FASHIONS T H E B A S I S A N D T H E PROSE O F ITS OWN MOST D I SCOU R S E TO THE OF I N VOL V E M E N T WITH TH E STRICT EXCLUSION N IGHT OF NON­ FOUC A U LTS TALK O F T H E POSSI B I LITY O F S E X U A L D I SCOU R S E I N T H I S CONTEXT I S THEN B A S E D U PO N TH E R E C I PROCAL I N T E R C H A N G E A N D ECONOMY OF REPRESSION AND TIVELY SUCH AND P R E D I C A TION WHICH AND R E S PE C ­ U PH O L D IS TO K NOWLEDGE. ALBEIT UNABLE TO CARRY OUT THAT A G A I N ST THE G R A I N O F G E N E R A L R E P R ESSION OR I N STALL I T S E LF AND FIND ITSELF SITUATED FROM W I TH I N THAT FIELD AND SOU RCE OF R E P R ESSION? S E E I NG CON S I STENTLY. YET." T H E ESSENTI A L QU ESTI O N S : I S T H E R E PRESSION O F S E X U A LITY A N D D I SCO U R S E A BOUT I T R E A LLY I N SARTRE. A T T H E END OF G E N ETS HIS LONG W O R K HE AND INTRODUCTION TO LA QU ESTION Q U E JE VOU D R A I S POSER N'EST PAS: PO U R Q U O I SO M M E S . WE HAVE H I NTED AT TH E NEED TO CON S I D E R SEXUALITY I N ITS "SYMBOLIC" D E PTH RATH E R T H A N AS A M E R E M E A N S TO T H E F U LFI LLMENT OF T H E O N TOLOG I C A L. FOUC A U LT SHOWS THE EXTENT TO W H I C H . REICH A N D OTH E RS. IT H A S BEEN R ESTRICTIONS TA M E p I RO N I C A LLY BY A GROWING I NC I T E M E N T TO COM E OUT I NTO T H E OPEN.N O U S REPRIMES. T H O U G H T. I S LUCIO ENOUGH TO SEE HIS OWN D I SCOU R S E AS ENSNARED TO EVIDENCE H I STOR I C A LLY? I S T H E MECHANISM O F POW E R I N SOC I ETI ES SUCH A S O U R S ESSENTIALLY OF THE R E P R E S S I V E O R D E R ? DOES THE C RI T I C A L OF AND A BO U T SEXUA LITY RUN D I S CO U R S E SOM E DEG R E E I N TH E G R I DS O F THE TRADITIONAL M I N D . I N D I F F I C U LTI E S OF DOING A DIS­ I N B RO A D OUTLI N E . MOD E R N MICHEL FOUC A U LT HAVING I N EXIS­ D I SC O U R S E ON S E X U A LITY H A V E N O T SO M UC H B E E N RESTRICTED BY A RIGOUROUS P R I N C I P L E O F S E LECTION A N D TABDO BUT F I N A LLY D I F F U S E D A N D D E F U S E D BY BROAD D I S S E M I N ATION AND E M PLAC E M E N T BY THE WILL TO KNOW. THE CONFI N I N G CONTEXT OUT OF W H I C H IT M IGHT A R I SE. IT IS A P P A R E NT OUTLI N E R E S P O N S E T O A N D T H E N G O BEYOND O N E P R I M A RY QUESTION: THAT HE IS A W A R E OF I M PO S I N G A C E RTA IN G R I D OF S U B J ECT-OBJ ECT U PON G E N ET IN PARTI C U L A R A N D U PO N THE S E N S U A L-SYMBOLIC I N G E N E R A L. T H E STRE NGTH AND D E PTH OF F O U C A U LT ' S C O N FI N E M E N T. THE SPEAKS I M PO S E D OF ITS P U R I TA N I S M ' S PROHI BITION. H E HAS A T LEAST THE SENSE TO SEE. AT I SS U E FOR EACH LEVEL A R E D'ALLER JUSQU'AU BOUT DE NOUS-M � M E DANS LES DEUX DI RECTIONS A LA FOIS. AVEC TANT D E PASSION. M UT U A L L Y R E ST R I C T D I SC O U R S E . TH AT ONE M UST PUSH IN THE TWO D I R ECTI ONS AT ONCE. Y E T . SUGGESTS EVEN I NTO TH E THAT ONE M IGHT N E E D TO P L U N G E I M AGI N A R Y I N P R OC H E . THROUGH F R E U D . DECREE OF T E N C E .B O D Y . O R D E R T O STOP F L E E I N G T H E "OBJ ECTI VE" B Y THE " S U BJ ECTI VE" "OBJECTI VE": AND CONTRE NOUS-MEM ES. THIS F U N C TI O N I N G IS IN THE DAY-LIGHT. S U B J ECT­ OBJECT. A S WELL A S I NVOLV E D IN A R E VO L UTION OF PLEASURE. FOR THE MOMENT. IN S P E A K I N G OF T H I S P E R PETUAL GAME OF H I D E AND S E E K W H I C H P H I LOSOPHICAL D I SCOU RSE I S COWA RDLY WONT TO P U R S U E .WELL AS F U N C TI O N I NG IN TH E P A R TI C U L A R OF SEXUAL D I SC O U R S E . N O U S-SOM M E S TH E " S U BJECTI VE" BY T H E R E P R I M ES?7 FO U C A U LT C LA I M S AT L E AST TH R E E FAC ETS FOR CE JEU QU'AU DE CACHE-CACHE NE PRENDRA FIN HIS STRATEGY OF R E PLYI NG TO THIS Q U ESTIO N­ JOUR 00 NOUS A U RONS LE COU RAGE H I STO R I C A L. A N D I NCOM M U N I C A B I LITY UPON THE SPACE D E PTH A N D R I C H E S OF TH E PLACE OF T H E V E RTIGE 2152 . H I ST O R I ­ C A L-POLITICAL. R EG I O N A L ONTOLOGY PERTA I N I NG TO SEXUA LITY.E P I ST E M OLOG I C A L "H U M A N . RATH E R .E X P R E S S I V I T Y ." IT WILL B E N E C E S S A R Y TO RETURN TO A N D DEPTH. T H E P U TT I N G I N THE O P E N OF D I SC O U R S E A S TO S E X U A LITY H A S NOT BEEN S U BJECTED TO MERE R E ST R I C T I O N IN A F I L L O U T TH I S PURSUING THE COU R SE ON S E X U A LITY.S I T U A ­ TION. THE RECENT MODERN A G E I S E X POSED TO T H E SCI E N C E OF S E X U A LITY. MAIS POURQUOI D I SONS-NOUS. IT I S N ECESSARY T O S E E THE H I STOR I C A L A S U PO N W E L L A S " P H I LOSO P H I C A L" ANY S U C H DISCOURSE AND SOLELY N EGATIVE SENSE. YET.

I T I N HABITS TH E PLACE O F MASTERY OF A N D WITH R E S PONSE TO O N E'S BODY.LAW. T H E PLACE OF SEXUA LITY AND DISCOURSE TO AND WITH THAT ASSERTED.OF NON-KNOW I N G BEEN OF SEX U A L-SYMBOLIC-POTE NCY BY THE K N OW I NG EFFICIENT M A N AG E M E NT.P O L I T I C A L PLEA S U R E OTH ER. S E X U A LITY V I EWED FROM THE GRID OF A D U LTS-C H I L D R E N . SEXUAL DISCOURSE MORE­ O V E R . CATEGO R I ES PERMISSION A N D TABOO. TA K E N A S A P R A X I S I N T H E M OST INTI MATE. EVEN A LLOW I N G ROOM FOR A COM PLEXITY OF "PERVERSIONS" OF SEXUAL BEHAVIOURS AND ACTS. T O I N DI CATE T H E C R U C I A L LATE R A L S P R E A D OF SEXUALITY I N A N D THROUGH R E LATIONS OF A S OC I A L . . F O R IT T O T A K E I T S PLACE I N WEST E R N SOCIETY. O N E'S OWN MOST RESPON S E WITH AND TO YET. S E X U A L DISCOURSE IN THE RECENT PARTI C U L A R EXPERI ENCE. HE C LA I M S THAT EACH THE WESTE R N SCIENTIA E N G U L F M E N T IN THE I N VO L V E S POVERTY OF CLINICAL POW E R DO N O T N EGATE SEXUALIS ITS NOR S I M PLY V I E F O R TH E I R THEY "CHASE RES PECTIVE A FTER EACH CODI FICATION O F S E X U A L CONFESSION BASED ON THEORIES OF GENERAL SEX U A L C A U SALITY APPLIED TO THE WILL TO POS ITIONS.. IS R E P LA C E D BY THE PLEA S U R E OF PLA C E ARE ONLY COV E R E D OVER A N D M A NAGED BY A NEW PURITA N I S M . CON FESSED.PO L I T I C A L CONTROL PLEASURES. . ." WHEREAS A RS EROTIC . C'EST Q U ' E LLES SE ARABIC-MOSLEM DRAWING THE COUNTRIES. " P E R VERSIONS" STATUS. ITS U N I Q U E AND PARTIC U L A R JOY A N D PLEA S U R E . IT IS A EXILE FOR DEATH RE PROACH TO AN EXC L U S I O N . FOUCA U LT I S N O T O N L Y CONC E R N E D T O SHOW THE E P I S T E M O LOG I C A L M ATTE R S AND M I S-M A N A G E M ENT BUT. PLEASURE AND THE DEPTH IT ENTA I LS . OF U PO N FROM "T R U T H " SEXUALITY PLEA S U R E ITSELF. ONE BY GIVING I N CORPORATE A N A LYSTI C CONCEP­ E X T E R I O R. ARS E ROTICA KNOWS NO REFERENCE TO C R I TERI A OF U T I L I TY. AND FABRIC." I RO N I C A LLY. THEM THAT SEES READILY THE THE PO V E R T Y O F W E S T E R N SCI E NTIA S E X U A L I S TUAL GRID WHICH U PHOLDS S E X U A L D I SCOURSE IS BROA D E R THAN THE S TA I D . THE DEPTH O F SEXUAL EXPE RI ENCE BECOMES G LOSSED OVER A S A TYPE OF LATENCY INTRINSIC TO S E X U A LITY BUT WHICH M U ST BE SER IOUSLY A N D BROADLY. AS M A N I FEST AND P R A CT I C E D IN E A STE R N RELIED AND . A N AND ITS M ENACES. SCI ENTIA SEXUALIS H A S TYPI F I E D WESTE R N "EXPE R I E NCE" A N D CON F I N E M ENT OF THE TR UTH OF SOIENT VOUEES A EN PARLER TOUJOURS. EN LE FAISANT VALOIR COMME LE SECRET.D I S C R E E T M A R R I A G E . OTH E R A N D GET ENTANGLED THE ONE WITH TH E OTH E R ACCO R D I NG TO COMPLEX M E C H A N I S M S OF EXC ITATION AND EXCITING EACH OTH E R ONWA RD. A N A LYSI S . T H E N EW P U R I TA N I S M AND STIFLING OF A DEEPER DIS­ C O U R S E W I T H SEXUA LITY I S SET U P BY M E DICAL­ SC I E N T I F I C P R I ESTS AS THE FORCE OF THE C H U RCH-C LERGY W A N ES. OWN­ MOST G R A S P OF O N E'S T I M E-SPACE BY TOUC H I N G TH E TEXT U R E OF THE P L A C E OF THE POWER OF L I F E . I F L I N E A R I TY I S G I V E N U P FOR S P I R A LS OR CONC ENTRIC WEBS WHICH A LLOW "PERVE RSIONS" AT THE M A R G I N S OR EXTR E M ITIES. CE N'EST PAS QU'ELLES A l E NT VOU E LE SEXE A RESTER DANS L'OMBRE. ABSOLUTE LAWS OF OF TH I S THE I T S B E I N G TA M E D TH E N A TU R E. A FORG ETTI N G OF T I M E A N D LIM ITS. OF PLEASU R E AND TH E SEXUAL PLACE IS O UTDIS­ TA NCED BY THE SI LENT RESPONSE OF DOM I N ATION OF H E WHO LI STE N S TO THE S E X U A L CON FESSION OR WHO CATEGORIZES AND CLASS I F I E S IT. RATH ER. YET. HAVE T R A N S FO R M E D D I SCOURSE I N THE O P E N OF A M O D E R N A LCH E M Y WHICH PROBES RATHER TH A N PA RTICI PATES WITH TH E H I DDEN SECRET: THE QU ESTION OF CONTROL IS MORE R I C H LY OUTL I N E D AS FOUCA U LT CONTRASTS "ARS EROTICA" WITH "SCI ENTIA SEXUA LIS. FILI ATION-G E N E RATION OF THE HEGELI A N SC HEMA. S E X U A LI T Y M U ST BE A F F I R M ED. KNOW T H E SEXUA L E X P E R I E NCE DOM I N ATES A N D CRUSHES THE PLACE A N D DISCOURSE O F SEXUALI­ TY A N D ITS RICH POTE NTI A L OF I N D I V I DUATION A N D EXPRESS I O N TOWA RD ON O N E'S OWN MOST AND TE R M S AND AGE I S PLAG U E D BY I TS CON F I N E M E N T IN THE OPEN: A S SUCH IT I S I N VOLVED IN A VAST SYSTEM OF WHICH TA K E S IT O N E'S D E E PEST MOST P E R SO N A L SOC I O . D I R ECT L I N E S OF H I NGES P R I M A R I LY ON I T S BEING OR B ECOM I NG THE BASTA R D FORM OF T H E RICHER ARS EROTICA -ALL BY WAY O F CEDI NG OVER THE PLACE OF SEXUALITY TO TH E G R E E D AND S E I Z U R E OF THE COURTROOM AND CON FESSION WHICH I S THE PLACE OF A VOWING THE S E C R ET. RICH A N D COMPLEX D E PTHS AS EXPER­ IENCE.I N T E R I O R D U A L I S M . CE QUI EST PROPRE AUX SOClirr ES MODERNES. I T I S A LAT E R A L A N D DEPTH PLUNGE I NTO THE S P A C E OF R I C H N ESS AND AB U N D A NCE OF LIFE. A CONTROL. S F O U C A U LT "FORE" W I TH I N DISCUSSES SECRET THE AND OF BRI NGING TO THE SEXUALITY. T H U S A LLOWI NG A MORE BROUGHT TO THE FOR E OF DAYLIGHT LUCIDITY A N D 2153 .I N ST I T U T I O N S I M PLIES C LASSI FICATION A N D CON F I N E M ENT WHICH I S NONETH ELESS BROAD ENOUGH TO MAKE ROOM FOR " D I S P A R ATE" B E H A V I O U R .

S E X U A L-BODY. SHATTER E D SEXUA L-S Y M BOLIC-PLACE HAVE B E E N STREWN. THAT OF . . VALORISATION A D U L TE DE PRESSION ARE EXPENSE OF THE L I V E D. ON A S UBSTITUE UN INCONSCIENT QUI N E POUVAIT PLUS QUE S'EXPRIMER (LE MYTHE. LE REVE .F E E D B A C K W I LL BE ULTI MATELY CAPABLE OF AVOI D I NG THE TRAP O F SCI E NTI A S E X U A L l S. ET M A T R I M O N I A LE . SCIENTIA S E X UALIS H A S ITS MOST A R D E NT COMPANION I N THE C L I N I C A N D TH E PSYCHOLOGI­ C A L-SEXUAL LITE R A T U R E IT U PHOLDS AND PRAC­ TIC E S . FOUC A U LT WRITES: AC ROSS T O THAT D E PTH OF S E X U A L EXPE R I ENCE W H I C H D. FOR T H E C L I N I C WHICH THE H A S B ECO M E THE STAGE AND PIECES UPON SEXUALIS I N STALLS A N D E N FORCES A METHOD OF F R A G M E NTS OF THE INTER PRETATI ON." THE RELATION M E NTION E D H E R E AS A N I D E NTITY M U ST B E FLESH E D-OUT AS THE PLACE OF I MPLOS I V E-EXPLOS I V E FUSION OF L I B I DO. AS S UGGESTED B Y FOUCAULT A N D B ROUGHT OUT MORE CLEARLY I N HIS WORK ON MADN ESS AND TH E BI RTH OF CONFI N E M E N T A ND THE CLIN I C AND AS CONCRETELY CRITICIZED BY DELEUZE AND M E NT ORIG I N A I RE.K N O W I N G . DES M A C H I N E S D E S I R A NTES ET D U CORPS SANS ORGA N E S . ON SE CONDA M N E A M ECON N A ITRE LA PRODUCTION DE L'INCONSC I ENTE COLLECTIFS QUI LUI-MEME. IT IS NOT LA SEULE SEXUA LITE IMPE RATIFS DE ALTOGETH ER C L E A R THAT THE I R WOR K I NG G R I D OF M A C H I N E . DELEUZE A N D G U A TT A R I S P E A K OF T H E THE POVERTY O F M UC H O F THE PSYCHOA N A LYTIC D I SCOURSE ON S E X U A LITY IS W E LL SKETC H E D OUT I N THESE R E M A R K S . THEY R I G HTLY C R I TICIZE TH E A BORTIVE D' A I L L E U R S Q U ' I N F L E X I O N 254 . THIS DUE PRI M A R I LY TO THE CA PACITY OF SCI ENTIA SEX UALIS FOR D I S P E RSION AND LATERAL CON F I N E M E NT. M A STERS OF THE TRUTH AND CONTROLL E R S OF A LT H O U G H THERE THE PLACE O F S E X U A LI T Y . O N A SUBSTITUE LA REPRESENTATION: A L'INCONSCIENT PRODUCTIF. " A T TH E V E R Y L E A ST. B E I NG RE-PLACED BY THE S PECTATORS OF SOCI ETY A N D A N A LYST: EN ENCADRANT LA VIE DE L' E N F A N T DANS L'OEDIPE. J U DGES OF ACTS WHO THEN CONDEMN OR J U STI FY. . AND WISH I NG TO TOU C H J U OG E M E NT A R E C R U C I A L. A LB E I T N O T ALWAYS E V I D E NT. ESQUI V E OBLIGATOI RE DU CORPS.H. L' U N E A U COURS DU XVII' Snl:C LE: N A ISSANCE DES GRANDES PROH IBI­ TIONS. THEY I N D ICATE A D I RECTION FOR E N RI C H E D D I SCOU RSE TO TA KE GREAT CONTR I BUTION OF PSYCHOANALYS I S T O A DISCOUSE ON S E X U A LITY.R EC O R D I N G . THE STI FLING M A N N E R OF EXPOSING THAT D E PTH IS TH E UPHOLDING OF R I G I D CLASSI FICATION AS S E E N IN TH E P R A C T I C E OF H E A R I N G TH E AVOWALS OF COMPLEXES GROU N D E D I N A STE R I L E E P I STEMO­ LOGICAL PLACE. ON A SU BSTITUE U N THEA ANTIQUE: A U X UN ITES DE PRODUCTION D E L'INCONSCIENT. EN FAISANT D E S R E LATIONS FAMILIALES L'UNIVERSE LLE M EDIATION DE L'ENFANCE. XX' MOINS DE LA HOWEVER. SECONDLY. "C L I N I C A L" A N D " POLITICO-SOC I A L.H E R M E N E UTIC RAPE OF THE SEXUAL BODY. ' REGARDING A N D WITH THE PLACE OF SEXUA LITY. LA TRAGE DIE. THE SOCIETY I N GENERAL WHICH LISTE NS.CONFESSION RATH E R T H A N E X PLOR ED IN ITS OWN " N I G H T OF N O N . THE C L I N I C A L LEVEL A N D ITS STULTIFY­ I NG U S E O F A SEXUAL DISCOURSE I S AUGM ENTED AND MUTUA LLY I N T E R P E N ETRATED BY A POLITICO­ SOCIAL LEVEL. CAR L ' I N CONSCIENT DANS EST ORPHELIN. BUT THE A N A LYST I N PARTICULAR WHO RECORDS TH E S E X U A L CONFESSION. THAT PLACE WHICH I S THE PEC U L I A R I N DI V I D U A L'S FUSION WITH "NATU RE. LAWRENCE SAW B E I NG SMOTH E R E D BY S E X U A L. DECENCE. THAT PSYCHOA N A LYSIS A LONE CANNOT B R I N G-OUT THAT D E PTH A N D TEXT U R E BEGINS TO BE MORE E V I D E NT." T H E T W O I N TE R P R E N ETRATE A N D I N FORM A N D S U PPORT EAC H OTH E R . D E L E U ZE­ G U ATTA RI TH ROW I NTO Q U E STION THE EPI STEMO­ LOGY AND A N C I ENT-TH EATRE OF PSYCHOANALYSIS WITH ITS SENSE WHICH OF RE-PRESENTATION ACCOMPLI S H E D AND AT EX­ TH E L'H I STO I R E DE LA S E X U A LITE. PARTICULARLY IN TOUC H I NG T H E DEPTHS O F T H E UNCONSCIOUS. " H E N C E . PORTENT A C R U S U R L'I NCON­ SCI E NT.R E ACTION. SI ON VEUT LA CENTR E R SUR LES MECANISMES DE R E P RESSION.UNCONSCIOUS-SYMBOL: A NEW SENSE FOR S E X U A L S U R FACE M UST BE DEVELOPED A N D GIVEN U N NOUVEL I D E A L I S M E : A L'INCONSCIENT COM M E U S I N E . ' 2 G U A TTA R I .l ' O TEXTU RE. YET. ET LES MECANISMES ARE AT LEAST TWO LEVELS I NVOLVED. S U PPOSE DEUX R U PTU R ES. A M E DI C A L. AT THIS LEVEL ALSO CONTROL A N D FOLLOWING T H E ALLUSIVE S U GGESTION O F JOYCE AS TO RE-EMBOD I M E NT. SC I E NTI A U S E OF MYTH A N D SYSTEM BY PSYCHOA NA LYSIS. ET SE PRODUIT LUI-MEME L'I DENTITE DE LA NATURE ET DE L'HOM M E . T H E PLA YERS NO LONGER A LLOWED TH E I R PLEAS U R A BLE PLACE. BECOME MASTERS OF PARDON. . M I S E AU SILENCE ET PUDEURS AU I M PE RATIVES SI ECLE: DU LANGAGE: R U PT U R E L'AUTRE. NOTA M M E NT TOUT LE JEU D U R E FOULE­ FIRST. MOREOVER.P S Y C H O LOG I C A L D I SC O U R S E .

T H E I R OUTLI N I NG THE EX. POW E R Y E T. PEN ETRATING ITS T E X T U R E A N D U N D E R M I N I NG I T S T I S S U E . AND U LT I M A T E L Y R E ­ GREEK TEMPLE. J ECTED SIS. S POKEN O N . THE M A D N E S S OF N I ETZSC H E .L I M I TE D .S Y M BOLIC. T H E STATUS OF HIS POETIC SPIRIT STI L L SHOWS ITSELF TO B E SCI ENTIA SEX U A LI S. THE TORTURE OF DA M I E N S. A N D OVERLY POLITI C A L D I S PA RATE. A C LOSETED V E RTI C A L " O P E N " LAT E R A L SPACE TO A N U N . IT I S A QUESTIO N OF P U S H I N G T H E I R NOTI N OF DESI R I NG­ THE P R I M A R Y D I F F E R E N C E S B E T W E E N TH E TWO OF R E P R E S S IO N D I SC O U R S E R E G A R D I NG HANG ON S E X U A L I TY THE SOCIO­ MACH I N E S TO THE L I M I T : OF S E E I N G THE POSI T I V E SENSE OF THE D I S P E R S I O N OF L I B I D I N A L I M PU L S E EVEN U PO N AND BACK TOW A R D THE ANCIENT SORTS AND SEXUAL POLITICAL CA PACITY TO CONFI N E S E X U A L DE PTH TO A DE-LI M I T E D OR THEATRE O F SYM BOL-TRAGEDY : O F EXPLORING T H E SEARCH F O R A FULLNESS A N D D E PTH OF FLESH A S IT COUR S E S T H ROUGH A N D T R A C E S I T S E L F U PON LIFE. CONTROL LED. "OH BUT I A M A POOR C R E A T U R E : AND IN TH E SAME M I NUTE H E WROTE T H E FOLLOWI N G I F N ECESSA RY. 1 4 WE HEA R THE CALM. CLEAR.COURBE: C'EST LE MOMENT DE LA R E P R E SSION 00 LES M E C A N I S M E S COMMENCE ITSELF I N THE I DENTITY O F NATU R E A N D M A N . ON POU R R A I T D I R E Q U ' A U V I E U X D R O I T DE FAIRE MOURI R OU D E LAISSER VIVRE S'EST SUBSTITUE U N POUVO I R D E F A I RE V I V R E OU DE R E J ET E R DANS LA MORT. S PACE O F D I S P E R S I O N A N D DE-FUSION. ETE R N A L R ECOM P E N S E . ALTHOUGH 255 . '3 C R I TI C I S M DELEUZE AND G U ATTA R I .S A V A G E . E M BLEMATIC O F TH E SC H I ZOPH R E N I C DIVI SION POR A R Y AND F R A G M ENTATION IS THE OF THE CONTE M ­ THE RADICAL AN EXTENT T H E Y A R E W I LL I NG T O PUSH THEI R OWN NOTION OF THE STAT U S OF THE WORLD GULF BETW E E N UNCONSCIOUS A S A N O R P H A N W H I C H G E N ERATES CAR PENTER'S H A N DL I N G O F T H E EARTH. U LT I M A TE L Y . A N D PEACE. ANA LY­ P U N I SH M E N T A N D SEXUAL D I SC O U R S E . LIVE I N P H I LOSOPHIC CALM LIKE H I M : I M M E DI ATELY H E REPLI ED. T H E N E W P U R I TA N I S M AS D I S P E R S IO N WILL ACCO M P L I S H MORE R A D I C A L V I E W TO T H E PLACE OF S E X U A L I T Y AND D I SC O U R S E FAC E S AND ARE OF TA K E N IN V I E W I NG FIGURES THE OF PA I N E D THE " M A D" H6 LDE R L I N N I ETZSC H E A LONG T H E FLESH­ STREWN PATH OF D I SSOLUTION O F T H E MO D E R N M O R E RADICALLY W H A T W A S A LWAYS AT I S S U E : A G E I NTO L I B I D I N A L SCH I ZOPH R E N I A . H 6 LDE R L I N A N D ARTAUD. DESTRUCTIVE. T H E OPEN D I SCOU R S E ON S E X U A LITY. H I S NEGATIVE. L I B I D I N A L I M PU LS E A N D ITS H I STO R Y O F CON FRON­ TATION WITH PERSUASIVE. BOTH LESS AND MORE OF THAN A Q U ESTION OF MERE A VA I E NT A SE DESERRER . A P E R H A PS PLACE. D E L E U ZE OUTLI N E D AND THE G UATTA R I HAVE MORE PATH FULLY AS THE PERHAPS ONE B E G I N S TO S P E A K WITH H 6 LDE R L I N RATH ER T H A N J UST A BOUT H I M A S WE F E E L A N D HEAR TH E SC R A P I NG OF HIS PENCIL U PON THE FLESH-STREWN H I S TO R I C A L. Y O N D E R A GOD CAN COMPLETE WITH H A R M O N I ES. A S FOOTPATHS ARE. TH E OLD P U R I T A N I S M C E D E S G LA D L Y TO THE N EW: T H E OLD TASK OF CON F I N E M E N T WAS TI R I NG AND U NABLE TO COPE ULTI M A T E L Y WITH T H E I M PLOS I V E .P L A C E D SENSE O F THE P R I M I TI V E .E X PLOS I V E FO RCE O F LI B I D I N A L. FA M I LI A R TEXTU R E A N D S I TE O F H I S USU A L D I SCOU R S E . WATCH THE POET G I VE U P TH E P R I V I LEGE D PLACE A N D PAPER. ' 6 P A T H STREWN W I T H H U M A N F L E S H . A R E A L L ALONG THE W A Y O F T H E CONTROL OF TH E FLESH O F I DENTITY O F N A T U R E A N D M A N .I D E NTITY. OUR I N DICATIONS A S TO TH I S . AND CON F I N E M E N T I S QUITE IT IS NOT C L E A R TO WHAT GESTU R E I S TO CAPTIVATE. C A R E S S . I R E P L I E D T H A T I H A V E T O WORK FOR M Y THAT I AM NOT FORT U N ATE ENOUGH TO LIVI NG. . C A R E F O R H I S F U M B L I N G WITH THE W OO D A N D OTH E R P A R T I A L OJECTS O F H I S-OUR F R AG M E NT E D W O R L D . ' 5 TH E CON F I N E M E N T O F T H E SICK. S PECTATORSH I P. M U T I L A T E D. HE ASKED ME TO MAKE ONE L I K E IT I N WOOD.G E N E T I C M O V E M E N T O F P R I M I T I V E ­ DESPOT-CA P I TA L A N D U LTI MATE D I SSOLUTION I N TO SCH I ZOPH R E N I A O F CONTEM PO R A R Y SOCI ETY A N D ITS RETURN TO A N E W B U T D I S. AND AS THE MOUNTA I NS' CONTO U R S . MAD. A N D FA S H I O N THE FLESH OF HIS WORLD TH ROUGH P O ET I C DI SCOU RSE. F L E S H I S M A D E . C L A S S I F I E D. S O M E W H A T Q U I ET VOICE O F THE S I M PL E C A R PE N T E R ZI M M E R AS H E WRITES TO H 6 L D E R L I N ' S HER SON'S MO T H E R D U R I NG TH E AND YEARS OF G ROWI NG " M A D N ESS" FREQU E N T SI LENCE: T H E POSS I B I L I T I E S OF T H E N E W P U R I T A N I S M . W H A T H E R E W E ARE. I N VO L V E DISPERSION WHICH ACTIVE: I N M Y H O U S E H E S A W A DRAWI NG OF A M A N AGES A N D CONTROLS AT E V E R Y L E V E L A N D S E E K S O U T E V E R Y F I B R E O F T H E H U M A N PLAC E . .PLOS I O N OF TH E WOOD. VERSES ON A WOODEN BOARD WITH A PENCIL POLITICAL CONTROL H A V E FOLLOWED THE S A M E THE L I N E S OF LIFE A R E VARIOUS.

Y-PRESENCE A N D RICH POWER OF NATURE.SE AS MORE THAN A PROC R EATIV E D E PTH. I F DELEUZE A N D GREEKS USED TO CONTEMPLATE WITH REVERENT WO N OE R . THE U NCONSCIOUS HAS NO PA R ENTAGE. ALL. ALREADY A RECONCI LI ATION GOD'S I N THE HOPE FOR THE FLEEING TO FASHION H A R MO N Y IN C A PA C I TY PATH STRUCK U PON BY H 6L.Y. N I ETZSCH E SPEAKS LUCI D LY AND I RO N I C AL.Y C REATIVE FL. N O SOURCE GROUN D FOR THE M ET A P H Y S IC I A N TO S T A N D U P O N . N I ETZSC H E STRIKES AT THE HEART O F THAT I D E NTITY O F M AN-NATURE T O W H I C H DELEUZE A N D GUATTARI ALL. NOT E A T A T TH E I R TA B L. A C E D A T THE L.UDE AS THE ORPHAN WHICH IS TH E U NCONSCIOUS.E A­ S U R A B LE-THI S COMFORT APPEARS IN INCARNATE CLARITY IN THE CHORUS OF SATYRS ..ATIONS OR V I E WS TO SEXUAL. SPEAK OF TH E DEPTH O F L I B I D I N A L.EUZE A N C I E N T. T H E M ETAPHYSICAL COMFORT-WITH W H I C H I A M S UGGESTI NG LEAVES EVEN NOW.Y S O M ETH I N G L. I B I D I N A L.A K E TERMED " M I ND­ FORG E D A N A L.L.PTING W H I C H WE DO A N D A R E : IN A N I ETZSC H E S E E M S TO H A V E CLEARLY P U R S U E D A S I M I L. THE ECSTATIC REVELER E N R A PTURED B Y THE PROXI M ITY OF H I S GOO. I B I D I N A L. . E S" -TH O S E O F THE TH I N K E R N I ETZSC H E 'S D I R ECTIO N . MOST C E NTRA L TO THE TRAGEDY OF H 6 LDERLl N'S OWNMOST A RTISTIC D I SSOLUTION IS P E R H A PS HIS FLE E I NG FROM AND DIS-PLACING HIS WO R L D TOWA R D A NOTH E R . H IG H E R . E X AS NOTI O N S O F A WAY H6L D E R L I N THE AND L I B I D I N A L. R A T H E R . H E H A S BEAUTIFU LLY STRUGG LED WITH AND PARTIA LL. THEY SEEM TO HAVE OVERLOOKED THE SENSE I N WHICH TH E HAS M YTHIC-DREAM-PLAY OF BEEN STI F L E D LIBIDINAL. T H R U ST U PO N O U R WORL. N I ETZSCH E S P E A K S CONCRETEL. STRUCK OUT A PATH TOWA R D POETICALLY TA K I NG U P ONE'S F L. POI NTS TO THE PL.ACE O F PLAY WHICH I S L. NOR IS REALLY A COMFORT.SE FROM I TS ETH E R E A L SPACE TO THE FLESH.Y M ETA P H Y S I C A L. D E PTH OF TH E WORL.­ ITY A N D THE L I B I D I N A L. E S H E D-OUT. NO D E S POTIC PAR E N T TO OO M I NATE IT.T H E A T R E OF A N D GUATTAR I O F THE M YT H AND DREAM AS P E R H A PS FIXATION UPON P LE A S U R E OF DESI RING-MAC H I N E S . SUCH A S THESE RICH AND C O M P L. A N D POETIC. THE SYMPATHETIC COM P A NION I N WHOM THE SUFFERING OF THE GOO IS R EPEATED. Y C E R T A I N G UATTA RI S E E TH E I R W A Y TO LIBERATING SEXUAL DISCOURSE FROM ITS MERE F A SC I N ATION A N D SUGGESTIONS TO FOL.S Y M BOLIC. YET. BUT IN TH E SAME SPIRIT AND OVE R AGAI NST TH E D I S SOLUTION OF A C E NTER WHICH NO L.AMMED THE DOOR I N TH E I R FAC E S : ZA R A TH U ST R A W I L L. E M BO D I E D SATYR AS BOTH A R C HETYPE OF M A N A N D SYMBOL .D GET TH E I R H A N D S ON T H I S " I D E A " . WO R L D CHARACTERIZED MOST F UL.L. H 6LDER­ LlN'S DESPA I R OVER THIS FRAGMENTATION A LONG THE PATHS OF LIFE SEEKS COM FORT AND PA RT I C U L.DER­ LIN. D A L. SPEAKS OF NO ABOVE OR S E N S E O F I N SC R I PTION A N D E M BODI M ENT. H ENCE.Y O F A M ETAPHYSICAL. AND T H E POErs EXPRES­ SIVE DI SCOU RSE.D E S POT I C S E I Z U R E -T H E Y AND C L. I K E THAT I S A T STAK E .OW. COU R S E A N D TH E LlB I D I N A L.BO D I E S AND A PARTI A L OBJECTS A N D FRAGM E NTATION WHICH IS THE D I S SO L U T I O N A N D C O N F I N E M E N T O F THE PLA C E O F S E X U A L-CREATIVE-SYMBOL. TH EY. YET.A B E L.L. A SYMBOL OF THE S E X U A L O M N I POTE N C E OF NATURE W H I C H THE OF TH E S E X U A L POL.YST.ON G E R HOLDS. E . A T ISSUE. . EVERY TRUE TRAGEDY IS TR A N SC E N D E N C E . D E S I R E . C E RTA I N L. A N D M A R ROW OF TH E L I V E D.D. I M P U L. DESPITE ALL THE CHA NGES OF A PPEAR­ A NCES. M A N A C L. D L. A N OTH E R WORLD. I N THE SENSE O F A CONSOLATION. TA K I N G U S C LOS E R T O A S E X U A L D I S­ IF TH E M ETAPHYSIC I A N S COUL. TAKING IT FURTHER THAN H 6L. LOOK. A S S I F Y IT AS FINITE SENSE BOTH A WORK AND JOY OF A RT I S T I C C REATION.Y BY THE SATYR OF G R E E K TRAGEDY. R E A D Y A P H A L L I C ..OW THI S O N E -THAT OF OUR BODIES.L. FOR THE N O T I O N O F S U B J ECT I S N O T THINGS. SC U L. THESE S E E M R E P L. . ONE WHO PROCLAIMS WISDOM FROM THE VERY H E A RT OF NATURE. CAREFUL.Y P U R S U E D T H E COM FORT. B E YO N D RAPID R E J ECTION B Y DEL. D SEEM TO HAVE O N L.D.L.DERL. ' 7 ONE W O U L.F E LT WORLD. FOR OU R WOR L. O F T H E N I ETZSC H E . FLESH. Y E T . LIKE N I ETZSC H E .IN. N I ETZSC H E H A S SL.Y B Y F R E U D THROUGH WHAT T H E POET BL. I N DESTRUCTABLY POWERFUL A N D P\. Y O F TH E F L.L. S E X U A L. 256 .UDED T O H E R E . THE EMBODIMENT OF HIS HIGH EST AND MOST I NTENSE EMOTIONS.I NVESTED U NCON­ SCIOUS AND OF S E X U A L I M PUL. FI XATION U PO N THE SACRED FAM I LY A N D A M ER E UTILITY O F P ROCREATION. COMFORT WHICH IS N E I TH E R HE P R O P E R L. AT L. T H E SATYR WAS THE A RC H ETYPE OF MAN. E V E L.UTE I N F I N ITE.ESH OF SYMBOL AS T H E PLACE OF T H E H U M A N : I NVOLVE W O U L. .A R PATH . A LTHOUGH U NABLE TO TOUCH I N A D EQ UATE FORM U L.EAST A S OPPOSED TO US-THAT LIFE AT THE BOTTOM OF TRAN SC E N D E NC E TOWAR D AN ABSOL.A N D T H A T W O U L. E S H I N T H E W O R L D AG A I N ST TH E PATH OF BEL. A R L. D E M BOD I M E N T IS BOTH A PLUNGE FROM A N D TOWA R D OUR OWN F L E S H E D .U N ABLE TO FASH ION IT I NTO THE PLACE OF THE WHOLE A S EXPRESSIVE. WORLD NOR A B E Y O N D THE WORLD.

57. U N AB A S H EDLY CRIES WITH US. (EMPHASIS A DD E O) 8 IBID. H I S PLAYFUL. Y E T E V E N SO U R C E OF THE T H R EAT. 1 9741. W A I T I N G DOM I N ATION AND REVENGE AGAI NST DESTIN Y. W H I C H FACES U S AROU ND.2 9 1 AND P. FATH ER A PH RODITE T H REATENS PAN. 2 8 6. SAIN T G E N ET-COMEDIEN ET MARTYR ( P A R I S : G A L L I M A RD. GRATING OF F L E S H -T H E VOLUPTUOUS N ESS: T H E S E D UCTI VE GLANCE: T H E W R I N K LED. S Y M BOLIC M OV E M E N T IS T H E PLAYFU LLY: F L E E I N G . BERNARD F R EC H T M A N SO PHICAL LIBRARY. T H E SATYR M U ST B E TH E BECO M I N G O F H I S F L E S H . IBID . PAN. 2 J EAN. NATUR E . 1 9761. A L L. R E M I N D I N G ALL T H A T EROS I S THE AB AN DO N ED C H I LO OF A L L O F U S . THE WORLD. THE PLACE OF MAN'S DESTI N Y TO BE H I S BODY AND LIVE I N T H E WORLD. SARTRE. A N D W ITHOUT A NATURE. TO R N M O V E M E NT OF AGED LINES STEELY. ( E M P H A S I S A DDEO) 10 4 GI LLES D E LEUZE ET FELIX GUATTARI. THE SATYR PLAYS IN TH E ARENA OF T H E TRAGIC. I BID" PP.. THE SATYR I S ODDLY THE COMPANION O F T H E GOD. IT I S THE GOATS F A C E O F M A N . CF. S E X U A L. p . M A N I S BOTH W I TH I N NATURE. THE IS N OT PAN OF A PH RODITE'S E RO S ? ' 8 YET. S M I LES OR L A U G H S WITH SOFT. 11 OEDIPE (PARIS: LES EDITIONS D E M I N UIT1. 334. THAT PLAY IS THE MOT H E R . 7. P. B E OR TOUCH A GOD. BORN OUT OF TH E C U TT I N G OFF OF AGGRESSION. P.QUT E C S TA T I C A L L Y TH E H IG HEST E M OT I O N S AND R E C E PT I V I T Y E ROS. PP. TRAVE RSING A D I SSOLUTION FOUGHT T O THE LAST ROBERT V A N RODEN A LL E N NOTES 6 CF. N I ETZSC H E TRANSFORMS T H E PLACE O F BY A FIRM DESIRE. SC H I ZOPH R E N I C C A PITALI S M . THE HORNED AGG RESSION OF T H E D I SSOL UTION OF SCH I ZOP H REN IC CAPITALI SM-TH E DISPERSION OF ALL-WOULD SEIZE ABUNDANT MOT H E R OF APHRODITE. TENDER. P L I A N T. E ROS TOUCHES BOTH. 3 1 . OF A P H RO D I T E RECEPTI VE. TH E N O U R I S H I N G . P. 1 9 5 2 8< 1 9701. AS FLESH I NG. N A K EDLY. THE FU LLNESS O F H I S PLACE. T H E SOFT F U S I O N POINT O F BOTH. FREED FROM THE HORN E D DOMINANCE OF TRAGEDY I N T O T H E FULL P L A C E OF A L O V E O F THAT DESTI N Y. P. N I ETZSC H E'S PLAYFUL SATYR BECKONS. H A R DLY F E M I N I N E . O R F I X E D ESSENCE. T H E E M OTIONS. CONCR ETE. A N D PLEASU R E . 7 M I C H E L FOUCAULT. P. 6. A N D THE LOVE OF THAT PLACE. SARTRE. WHICH IS HIS WORLD OF POWER. FLESH O F H E R TH E PLACE O F N I ETZSCH E'S S A T Y R I S THE PLACE OF L I B I D I N A L· S Y M BOLIC PLAY.PA U L SARTRE. TH E SATYR R EVELS A N D SPEAKS WISDOM FROM WITH I N AND WITHOUT I N O R D E R TO EROS CONTROL HER C H I LO. A JOY WITH THE WORLD. G LA S (PA R I S: EDITIONS GALI LEE. F O R TH E DANCE OF PLAYFUL EMBOD I M E NT. A L L OF US. 662. TRANSLATED BY (NEW YORK: P H I LO· IBID . H E ED I NG T H E W H I S P E R OF T H E G ENTLY FLESH-SCU LPTE D E ROS AMID THE R A NT I N G . A N AREA DE·LIM ITED. COMPAN ION. II CF. P. 1 9481. 12 I B I D. HISTOI RE DE LA SEXUALITE ( P R E M I E R TOMEI LA VOLONTE DE SAVOI R ( P A R I S : GALLI M A R D . R E PEATI NG H I S SUFFERING IN EACH OF M A N'S ATTEMPTS TO AGGRESSION B Y THE WI NGS O F A FREE PLAY A MONG US. US. TH E FACE-PLAY IS H A R DL Y MASCULI N E . BESPEAK FLESH FACE TA KING U P A N D B E I N G THE FLESH OF T H A T FORCE OF LIFE WHICH IS AT T H E BOTTOM OF ALL TH I NGS. FLOATS F R E E LY . L'ANTI­ I BID. AND VIOLATE HER AS AND ESCAPE HIS BODY A N D WORLD. YET WITHOUT TIME AND TH E OFTEN FORGOTTEN PLAY O F O U R PLACE: T H E A M B I VALENT DESI R E A N D VIOLENCE OF PAN'S E M BODI M E NT S H R I E K OUR P R E D I CA M E N T I N TH E TI M E O F SCU LPTU R E BECOME M A C H I N E . C REATION M A N AGE FULLEST DESI R E S O F M A N . P. 9 3 CF. G ENET. . IT I S THE PLAY OF C H I LD'S UNWORN PLACE I S THE D I SCOURSE SOUGHT. 390. SCREA M I NG . 3 1 5.BEYOND THE I R COM PLEX ATTEM PT A T THE FUSION O F V I T A L I S M· M EC H A M I S M . COM PLETING A C I RC LE. A LWA YS R E M E M B E R I NG THE MOI ST. JACQU E S D E R R I DA. 49. AND TO U C H I N G T H E . IT I S THE PLAY OF T H E FLESH OF THE FACE WHICH STAR K LY. 257 . THE PATH TO THAT WORLD WHICH WE FACE. 77 8< FF. P . REFUSE LOVE OF H I S D E STI NY. p. 3 6 Be FF... 1 6.

Be 1 04. P. 1 9 6 1 ) . THE CORPU LENT M A N TRIES TO I NTERCEPT H E R . R . 101 54. SURVEILLER ET PUNIR (PA R I S : G A L L I MARD. PP. BY WALTER 14 IBID . FOUC A U LT. K N E E LS AND SEIZES R. 57. 1 :5 2 . 59. 1 8 1 . H ITS THE COR P U L E N T M A N IN THE FACE. R. STRUGG L I NG A N D H ITTING HIM WITH H E R FI STS-THE BOTTOM OF THE STA I R S I N FRONT OF A DOOR T H A T H E K I C K S O P E N .1 1 . 55. (MY P U B LICATION ENTITLED "NATIONAL ARCHA EO­ LO G I C A L MUSEUM OF ATHE NS" ( ATH E N S . 1 8 1 2 THESE C LOSI NG R E M A R K S I N S P I R E D FROM T H E STR I K I NG "STATUE OF APH RODITE A N D P A N " I N LETTER OF APRIL CITED AND T H E NATI O N A L A RC HA EOLOGICAL M U S E U M O F ATH E N S . BY HER A N K LES. THE HANDS OF THE CORPU LENT M A N MOV I NG UP BE H I N D T H E K N E E S OVER THE SUSPEN D E R B E LT TOWARD R:S THIGHS A N D B UTTOCKS. WHO STRUGG LES. 2 :5 8 . 1 1.13 FOUCAULT. P HOTOG R A P H I C R E PRODUCTION OF THE STA T U E IS FOUND IN THE M U S E U M'S TRANSLATE D BY M IC H A E L H E l M I N H I S PAPER "WHAT IS S Y L VA N I A E M PHASIS) PHI LOSOPHY? -AGAI N?" (THE PENN­ STATE U N I V E R S ITY) . THE A R M OF THE CORPULENT MAN ROU N D THE CALVES OF R:S LEGS. PP. 1 9 7 1 ) . R . THE CORPU LENT MAN PRETENDS TO FALL OVER. 6 1 -62. :59. T H E B I RTH OF TRAG E D Y ( A N D T H E CASE OF WAG N E R ) T R A N S . TU RNS BACK AND RETU R N S TO THE LANDING. TH E CORPULENT MAN C A R R I E S R. G R E EC E : P . DOWN THE STA I R S TOW A R D THE B A S E M E NT. TH E COR PULENT M A N SQU EEZING LEGS OF R. HANGING OVER H I S SHOULDER. HOLDING H E R BAG AT ARM'S LENGTH. 16 1 9 7 :5 1 . 6 1 . 56. T H E CORPULENT M A N L I FTS R. P. p . AND TH ROWS H E R O V E R H I S SHOULDER. K A U F M A N N ( N EW YOR K : RANDOM HOUSE. 18 1 9.60. 58. ( E M PH A S I S ADDED) 1� CF. GALLI AS. 17 FRI EDRICH N I ETZS H E .

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TO R I V ET I NTO OUR UNCONSCIOUS ITS M E C H A N I S M S FOR PROPAGATI NG SLAVERY. ALL TH E BETTER TO I N SC R I BE ITS LAWS U PON O U R FLESH. IT U N F A I L­ I N G LY P U R S U E S ITS A BJECT M I SSION OF CASTRAT­ ING. M A L E DOM I N A NCE. SEXUAL. . IT TURNS EACH OF U S I NTO A C R I PPLE. REEKING OF ROTT I N G BOD I ES. ROBS US OF OUR VITAL F UNCTIONS. PROVOCATION. TH I S OLD O R D E R . PROFIT. THE WOR K PLACE. EXTORTION S O A S T O USE IT A LONG WITH A MASSIVE R E I N FO R C E M E N T OF SOC I A L TERROR ( I N D I V I D U A L GUI LTI TO R E P R ESS. R U LES. IT EXERCISES TH I S CONTROL U N DER ALL OF I TS VARIOUS G U I SES: T H E F A M I LY. EXC LUDE AND N E UTRA LIZE A L L THOSE PRACTICES OF O U R WILL THAT DON'T AND R E PRODUCE SO TH I S THESE FOR M S OF DOM I N ATION. T H E FORCES OF CA PITALIST OCC U PATION CONTIN­ UALLY REFINE TH E I R SYSTEM OF AGG R E S S I O N . SCHOOLS. HAR- S T R U G G L E A G A I N ST C A P I T A L I S T O P P R E S S I O N 260 .TO DESTROY S E X U A LITY TO PUT N ESSES A L L OF O U R " L I F E " P RODUCTI VITY UN D E R ITS O W N A LTHOUG H THE C A P I T A L I ST ORDER A PPEARS TO BE TOLERA NT. STASIS. SC A R I F I CATION NORMS AND AND N E U ROSI S TO I M POSE ITS THOU S A N D-YEA R-OLD SAC R I F I C E . I S INDEED HORRI FYING. A STR A N G E R TO H I S O W N D E S I R E S . OPPRESSING. I T P E R M E ATES O U R BOD I E S . CONSTR A I N I NG IT TO THE DICTATES OF ITS TOTA LITA R I A N ORGA N I ZATION B A S E D O N E X PLOITATI O N . MODELS. A N END PA R A LYZI NG A D M I N I STRATION. REDUCING THE " S U B J ECT" TO A G U I LT. AND DEATH U N H A P PY G R A T I F I C A T I O N . I N DUSTRIOUS B E I NG . HERE R E I G N S CASTRATION. BUT I T H A S FORC E D US TO D I R ECT TH E R E VO L U T I O N A R Y TA K E S OVE R O U R ORGANS. P E R PETUATES ITSELF. . LITTLE M O R E THAN A M A N U A L LABO R E R . T H E A R MY. IT N E U ROTIC.R I D D E N . REIGN OF TH E CAPITALIST STATE U S E S R ETENTION. ASSIGN ITS ROLES. I M P R I NT ITS C H A RACTERS. TORT U R I NG. COD I F I E D M ASOC H I S M R ESIGNATION. CUT OFF F R O M H I S OWN B O D Y . PROM U LGATE ITS PROG R A M S . FORC I NG ITS ROOTS OF DEATH DEEP I N TO OUR S M A LLEST CREVIC ES. IT I N FACT H A S A LWAYS CONTROLLED L I F E THROUGH ITS E X P R E S S I V E . A N D PROFITA B I L I TY. P R I V ATE P R O P E RTY. EMOTION­ A L AND A FFECTI VE A S P ECTS. M UTI LATES OUR PLEA SU RES. AND MANGLI NG THE BODY. D I SCOU RSE.

TO OPEN UP TH E W E CAN NO LONG E R STA N D BY I DLY W H I L E TH E Y U S E O U R NE RVOUS S Y S T E M A S A RELAY I N TH E SYSTEM OF CAPITA L I ST. A MORE R A D ICA L AND DEFINITIVE C O N F R O N TA T I O N . W E CAN N O LONG E R STA N D BY I D L Y W H I LE W E A R E ROBBED A " R E VOLUTI O N A R Y CONSCI O U S N ESS" I S NOTH I N G BUT A C H I M E RA A S L O N G A S IT R E M A I NS OUTS I D E OF A " R E V O L U TI O N A R Y BODY. J UST SO THEY C A N TU R N TH E M I NTO PA RTS FOR TH E I R IGNOMI N I O U S MAC H I N E W H I C H PRODUCES C A PITAL. THE LOC U S -O F THE BODY AND ITS OWN SPECIFIC CORDI NG FORCES SELVES. O U R V E I N S . PATR I A R C H A L EX PLOITA­ TION. BODY'S SPACE TO S U BV E R S I O N A N D TO OPEN UP THE SPACE OF S U B V E R S I ON TO TH E " I M M E D IATE N E EDS OF T H E BODY. R EVOLTI NG A G A I NST THE T E R RO R I Z I N G FASC I S M OF NORMA LITY: A DOLESCENCE. M E M BR A N E S . REVOLT I N G A G A I NST TH E PATHOLOG I C A L A U T H O R I TY OF A D U LTS. OUR S E X U A L M E M BERS. E V E N A M O N G R A D I C A L G R O U PS. A S TH EY EXIST EVERYWH E R E TH ROUGHOUT C A PITALIST I N F RACTIONS. AC­ WE WANT TO FREE THE SPACE -TH E CONTEXT. L I V I NG BODY. O U R GUTS. THAT FOR R EVOLTI NG BEEN A G A I NST THE IN WE CAN N O LON G E R STAN D BY I DL Y W H I L E THEY CONTROL. BETWEEN THE BODY A N D S U BJ ECT A S CONSC IO U S N E SS. THEY HAVE BEGUN. I N H I BITED. THEY TO THE FO RM T H E CONTO U R S O F A N E W FISSURE. TO W H I C H THESE R EVOLUTIONARY A R R A NG I N G TH E M ­ ARE " N E C E S S A R I LY" D E S I R E S FROM TH I S "FO R E I G N " G R I P. OUR A NUSES. HERE MALE TH E I R WE FIND WOMEN. EVER MORE S U BTLY B I N D I N G OUR E N E RG I ES. WANTS MORTI F I E D BODY THAT MAKE CAPITALISM OUT O F O U R S O DESPERATELY TO SOCI ETY. IT I S A LONG THIS "PATH" THAT WE PROPOSE TO "WORK" TOWARDS T H E L I B E R ATION O F SOC I A L SPACE. " S E LF. OUR E N E RGY ACCO R D I N G TO THEIR LAWS WITH TH E I R M INOR. B E YON D 26 1 .TH E R E W H E R E IT IS MOST D E E PLY ROOTED-I N THE L I V I N G FLESH OF O U R OWN BODY. . O U R SALIVA. T H E ENTI R E SENTI E N T S U R FACE OF O U R BODY. TO L E R A T E D J O U I SSANC E -T H E H E IG H T O F C OG N I T I V E S E X U A L F U L F I LLM ENT-A N D POW E R . TO ESC A P E F RO M T H E SEDENTARY SLAUGHTER O F WANTI N G TH E F U N D A M ENTAL F R E E DOM TO ENTER HERE WE FIND PEOPLE WHO H AVE S H ORT­ INTO THESE REVOLUTI O N A R Y PRACTICES E NTA I LS OUR ESCAPING WE FROM TH E L I M ITS OF OUR OWN C I RCUITED T H E H A C K N E Y E D S E PA RATION BETWE EN "POLITICS" AND L I V E D E X P E R I ENCE. HERE WE FIND PEOPLE P R E PA R I NG A GREAT U P R I SI N G OF L I F E A G A I N ST A L L O F T H E M A N I F ESTA­ TIONS OF D EATH W H I C H CONTI N U A LLY I N S I N UATE THEMSELVES I N TO OUR BODY. COLLECTI V E L Y ." HERE WE FIND PEOPLE B EG I N N I NG TO QUESTION AND I N VESTIGATE THE VA R I O U S MODES BY W H I C H DESI R E IS P RO D U C E D." M U ST TURN TH E " S U B J ECT" W I TH I N O U R S E LV E S UPSI DE-DOWN: E SC A PE F R O M T H E STATE" AND S E D E N TA R Y . R EG U LATE AND OCCUpy O U R M UCOUS POW E R BOD I E S HAS I N S E M I NATED C E N T U R I ES: H O M O S EX U A LS. EX PLOITATION AND THE F A M I LY. T H E R E I S NO S E PA RATION B E T W E E N TH E T W O : I OPPRESS MYSELF BECAUSE THIS "I" I S THE PRODUCT OF A THE BODY SYSTEM OF OPPRESSION OPE RATING AC ROSS ALL FO R M S OF E X P E R I E N C E . THE PORES O F OUR S K I N . NOR W H I LE THEY USE O U R B R A I N AS A M E A N S OF PUN I S H M ENT P R OG R AM M E D BY A M B I E NT POWE R. LIVE I N T H E W I L L F U L M O B I L I TY BEYOND S E X U A LITY." A BODY WHICH OF OUR MOUTHS. A SEPA RATION B R I N G I N G G E N E R O U S R ETU R N S TO TH E M A N AG E R S OF O U R BO U RG E O I S SOCI ETY A S W E L L A S TO THOSE WHO PR ETE N D TO R E P R E S E N T THE M A SSES AND TO SPEAK IN TH E I R N A M E . DESI R ES. R E A LITY TO TH E I M PERATI V E S OF T H E ESTA B L I S H E D O R D E R . F E D E R A L. TH E LINKS BETWEEN AND WE CAN NO LON G E R NOT "CO ME" O R HOLD BACK O U R SH IT. WE W A NT T O EXPLO D E T H E F R I G I D . . F R O M T H E "C I V I LI Z E D CROSS TH E SPACES OF A L I M ITLESS BODY. G E N E RATES ITS O W N F R E E DO M .

THE R E IS I NTE RACTION POLITICS F U N D A M ENTAL WISH TO BE "ALIVE. S POK E N FROM UN­ B E I NG "LIBERA LIZED" S E X U A L MORES AND THE EXTENTION OF " E ROTI C I S M " T H R O U G H A D V E R T I S I NG TO A L L SOCI A L L I F E STRUCTU R E D A N D CONTROLLED BY SPOK E N . THE " U N M E NTIONABLE" HAS BECOME OUR PREOCCU PATION. BETWEEN CONJUGAL DUTY WHOSE LIVES I NCLUDE ANY SENSUAL. WHAT WE DESIRE IS TO K I C K IN THE FACADE OVER S E X U A LITY A N D ITS R E P R E S E NTA­ IN O R D E R TO E X PLORE M UTUA LLY OUR I N DI V I D U A L H I STOR I ES. WE U N D ERTOOK T O DETE R M I N E HOW TIONS SO THAT WE M IGHT D I SCOVER J U ST WHAT OU R LIVING BODY IS. ITS R U LES MAXIMUM WE W A N T TO F R E E . AND J U D EO­ C H R I ST I A N SUBSUMED SOC I E T Y . T H E S E REALM OF P R A CTIC E S FACT EXTEND TH E A N D "LACK" THAT F R U ST R A T I O N FACI LITATES T H E T R A N S FO R M ATION OF D E S I R E I N TO A COMPULSI V E CON S U M E R I S M A N D GUARAN­ TEES "TH E C REATION OF DEMAND. TO D E STROY SEXUA LITY. CLEA R LY. SEX SHOPS. WE W A N T TO I N THE FROM THE G R I P OF THE FORCES T H A T OPPRESS AND R E PRESS O U R D E S I R E S . T H E " E N LI G H T E N E D " P R O M I SC U I TY OF TH E BOURGEOI S I E : TH E PROGRESSION IS U N B RO K E N . SEXUAL OR AFFECTIVE I N VOLV E M ENT WHATSOEVER-TH E SAME K I N O OF CONTROL IT EXERCISES OVE R A N Y R E A L SOCI A L ACTI ON T H A T PRODUCES OR R E P RODUCES FOR M S O F OPPRESSION. W E W A N T T O R E D I SCOV E R SE NSATIONS AS B A S I C A S WE'RE NOT CONC E R N E D WITH SIM PLY B R E A K I NG THE P LE A S U R E I N B R E AT H I N G THAT H A S B E E N 262 . B R E A K DOWN TH E CONCRETE WALL THAT S E RVES TH E DOM I N A N T SOC I A L O R D E R BY S E PA R ATI NG FROM APPEARANCE." THE DRIVING POWER BEHIND CA PITA LISM'S A POLOGIES. U N I V E RSE OF O U R R E P R E S E NTATIONS. ETC. LIVE THEM COLLECTIVELY. EXPLORE R E PRODUCE E V E RYWH E R E AND I N EVERYON E THE U NQU ESTIO N I N G OBEDI ENCE OF A SLAVE. UNDER AND HOW THEY OF WERE TO GET R I D OF PROG R A M M ED TRA I N I NG. WE C O N SC R I PT I V E AND CONTI N U A LLY CONFO R M TO THE STEREOTYPES OF AN OFFICIAL S E X U A LITY THAT CONTROLS EVERY SYSTEM . S E X U A L EXPE R I E N C E FROM T H E CONJ UGAL BED TO THE B O R D E L LO TO SAY NOTH I N G OF P U B LI C W E W A N T T O B E A B L E T O EXERCISE E A C H O F O U R VITAL FU NCTIONS EXPERI ENCING TH E I R FULL TOI L ETS. WE STRIVE TO ELUCI DATE IN COMMON THE TH E M A N AG E R S OF "ADVANC E D" CAPITALISM DO MECHANISM B E H I N D ATT R A C T I O N . RATH E R THAN R E D UCE IN SEXUAL DISCON­ R E S I STANCE. WE CONFRONTED OUR INDIVIDUAL "E X P E R I E NCES" B Y R ECOGNIZING THAT. U N FETT E R AND R E LI EVE TH I S LIVING BODY S O A S TO F R E E A LL OF ITS E N E RGI ES. SUBWAYS. AND CON F R O N T TH E M . ONLY THE STRA­ TEGY C H ANGES. OBSESSIONS. FETISHES. TO G ET RIO OF IT BECAUSE F I N A L A N A LYSIS IT FU NCTIONS AS AN I N F I N ITELY R E PEATI N G CASTRATION MAC H I N E DESIGNED TO W E STR I V E TO TA K E O U R PERSONAL. COM PLEMENT OF PLEASU R E . THI S IS HOW SOME OF U S H A V E COM E TO FEEL THE VITAL NEED TO FREE O U R S E LV E S "TOG E TH E R " DOWN T H I S OFFICI A L SEXUALITY AS O N E WOULD B R E A K DOWN TH E CONDITION OF ONE'S I M PR I SON­ MENT W I TH I N ANY STR UCTU RE. PHOBIAS. OUR POL I T I C A L T I M E-BOM B S OC I A L SINCE I N TH E R E A L M O F E X H I B I TS A TE NT. TO M AKE R E P U LS I O N . CLEAR TH E NOTH I N G MORE THAN I N C R E A S E THE EFFICIENCY OF TH E " R E PRODUCTIVE" F U N CTION OF THE "OFF I C I A L" LIBIDO. SCHOOLS. R E LEASE. DISCOS. OUR DESI RES. HOWEVER "FREE" THEY MAY HAVE A PP E A R E D TO U S . PRI VATE F R O M S OC I A L. FACTO R I E S . S U R PLUS V A L U E AND R E PRODUCE­ A B I L I TY .TH E T E R R I TORY A N D R E P E RTORY OF NORMA LITY. D E STROY IT. OUR MESSAGE. BOU RGEOI S. PASSIONS C R U S H E D BY P R OG R A M E D SOC I A L PROFITABI LITY. WHAT WE WANT." WE HAVE DEC I DED TO E XPLODE THE UNBEARABLE SECRET THAT POW E R USES AGAINST EVERYONE N O F U N D A M E NTA L D I F F E R E N C E B E TW E E N T H E " I M MACULATE CONCE PTION" A N D T H E PUBLICITY­ MINDED AND PROSTITUTE. ORGASM. CONFESSIONALS. I NTIMATE LIFE E X P E R IENCES TH E M . TH E SAME RESTRICTIONS A PPLY. PRISONS. WE S T R I V E TO "SEXUALITY" IS J U ST A S MONSTROUS IN WHAT IT "PERMITS" AS IN WHAT IT RESTRI CTS. O U R LIVES AS R E F LECTED THROUGH OUR DESIRES WERE ENTI R E LY CONTROLLED BY T H E BASIC LAWS OF O U R B U R E A UC R ATIC. THE SA M E F R A G M E N TATION O F T H E BODY A S SOU RC E O F D E S I R E CONTI N U E S U N A BATED.

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M A S T E R A N D S L A V E . AND T E N D E R E M OTIONS WITHOUT R E F E R R I N G B A C K T O T A B L E S OF S U R PLUS V A L U E O R PO W E R STRUCTU R E S T H A T A RE N'T A LREADY I N T H E R U L E S OF THE GAME. T H E MYSTIQUE OF PROPERTY R E D I SCOVER AND PROPRI ETY. WE WANT TO THE PLEASURE IN S H A K I NG OUR­ W E WANT TO B E R I D OF S E X U A L SEGR EGATI O N . THE PLEASURES WE OF SHEER WANT PLE A S U R E TO POSSESSED. PRODUCTI V E SPACE O F "SUBVERSIVE" STRE NGTH WE S E E K TO OPEN O U R BODY TO OTH E R BODI ES. WE TO L I B E RATE E N E R G I E S BODY. N O T BECA USE OF NEED OR COM P E N SATION. IT I N SC R I B E S D I R ECTLY U PO N T H I S F L E S H ITS F U N D A M E NT A L W E WANT TO B E RID O F A L L ROLES AND I DENTITI E S B A S E D ON T H E P H A L L U S . A FFECTIVE A N D ECSTATIC R E LATION S H I PS IS I N S E P A R A B LY LINKED MALE TO LIBERATING WOM E N D I G E S T I N G THAT H A S B E E N I NT E R R U PTED BY T H E RH YTH M OF PROFITA B I LITY A N D T H E ERSATZ FOOD I T PRODUCES: O R T H E PLEA S U R E I N S H I TTI NG AND P E D E R A S TY T H A T H A S B E E N SYSTE M A T I C A L L Y AND DESTROYING DOM I N A N C E A N D R O L E M OD E LS . SURE IN PRODU C I N G PLEASURE A N D IN CREATING­ PLE A S U R E THAT H A S BEEN RUTH LESSLY STRA I GHT­ JACKETED C H A RG E BY THE E D UCATIONAL SYSTEM IN OF PRODUCI NG W O R K E R S-COM M A N D WE HAVE BEGUN AND SHALL CONTI N U E TO CON S U M E RS. MOV I N G . I T I S L I K E W I S E L I N K E D T O D E STROY I NG A L L FOR M S O F O P P R E S S I O N A N D " N O R M A LITY. EXPRESSING FINDING O U R S E LV E S . H U M M I NG . GRATIFICATIONS. IN OUR RAVING. WANT TO REDI SCOVER T H E C I E S . OF COURSE. BEINGS WITH VARYING DIFFERENCES W H O CAN ECSTA­ PLEA S U R E WE INTERCHANGE D E S I R E S . POS S E S S O R AND S E L V E S JOYOU SLY. W E WANT TO B E R I D O F T H E CATEGO R I E S O F M A N A N D WOM A N . ETC. GAY AND S T R A I G H T. MOBI LE AND M U LT I P L E HUMAN R E D I SC O V E R V I B RATI NG." ASSA U LT E D BY T H E C A P I TA L I ST ESTA B L I S H M E NrS OPINION OF THE SPH I NCTER. WE HAVE R E U N ITED "POLITIC A L" E N E RG I E S . WE S E E K TO R I P O U T OF OURSELVES THE FESTERING R U MOR O F GUI LT THAT F O R THOUSANDS OF YEARS H A S B E E N AT T H E ROOT O F A L L OPPRESSION. CONSEQU ENTLY. THIS IS THE O N LY A PPROACH THAT CAN TRULY STRE NGTH E N U S AGA I N ST A SYSTEM O F DOM I NA ­ TION THAT CONTI N U A LLY EXPANDS ITS POWERS O F "WE A K E N I NG" A N D " M O L D I NG" T H E ITS AXIOMS. DOGS. PROD U C E A N E W S OC I ETAL R E A LITY I N W H I C H T H E G R E ATEST ECSTACY C O M B I N E S W I T H T H E G R EAT­ EST CONSC I O U S N E S S . T H I S I S O U R O N LY C H A N C E TO F I G H T A GA I N ST THE OPPRESSIVE C A P I T A L I ST STATE WHERE IT WORKS D I R ECTLY. WITH THE HAVE BEGUN WITH T H E THE R E VO L U T I O N A R Y BODY. THE N E U ROSI S OF ACC U M U LATION. TO AND THE E FFECTI V E SPACE OF ALL OPPRESSION. POS S I BLE.E S P E C I A LLY S E X U A L ROLE MODELS. S E X U A L . TO A NO T H E R C I R C U LATE BODY: TO TRANSM I T V I BRATIONS.D A Y R E A LITY WON'T TURN I NTO THE SLOW AGO N Y THAT C A P I TA L I S M AND B U R E A UC R A C Y TH E VARIOUS MODES O F L I B E RATION. WE W A N T I N ST E A D T O BE TRANSSEXUAL. TO A R RANGE D E S I R E S TO PRACTICE WITH T H E R E A LITY O F THE BODY A N D ITS FU NCTIONS BY COLLECTIVELY I N VESTIGATING ALL THAT EACH IS F R E E TO PLAY OUT ITS FANTA S I E S A N ECSTASI ES. BODY IN S I NG I N G ­ A L L WAYS PLEA­ A U TO N O M O U S . S P E A K I N G . WE REALIZE HOW MANY OBSTAC LES WE HAVE INTO TO OVERCOM E TO MAKE O U R ASPI RATIONS SOM ETH I NG MORE T H A N THE DREAMS OF A G U Y H OC K E N G H E M TRANSLATED BY T O M GORA 264 . P R I N C I PLES: T H E POWE R L I N E S O F EXPLOITATION.SMOTH E R E D BY THE FORCES O F OPPRESSION A N D POL L U T I O N : OR THE P L EA S U R E IN E A T I NG A N D SMALL AND M A R G I N A L M I NORITY . WITHOUT S H A M E. G R E A T E R A N D LESSER. S O T H A T WE M i G H T LiVE WiTHOUT G U I LT A N D W I THOUT I N H I B I TI NG A L L T H E S E N S U A L INTRA­ AND I NTERPERSONAL PRACTI C E S WE NEED SO OUR DAY-TO. WALK I NG. A F F I L I ATING HIM TO I N D I V I D U A L TO ITS ORDER OF PROJ ECT AS A M O D E L Exi sTE N C E . WE A R E K E E N L Y AWA R E T H A T L I B E R A T I N G T H E BODY F O R S E N S U A L. BUT J UST FOR THE OF S H A K I N G O U R S E LVES.

R ESTO R E D THERE ACTIVE IS D E STROY E D C A R RYI NG . SKIN FLAY E D A S IF THE ORGA N S A R E A TTA C K E D BY OUTS I D E FORC E S AND R E STOR E D TO OUTS I D E E N E R G I E S ("HE LIVED FOR A LONG TI M E WITHOUT A STOM A C H . . AN E X PE R I M E NT A T I O N BUT A L S O B I O LOG I C A L A N D S C H I ZO ON POLITICAL. M A K E AN A I R HOLE D I R ECT I NTO T H E LUNGS W H E R E I T SHOULD H A V E B E E N I N T H E F I R ST PLAC E . ITS A LONG P R OC E S S I O N : T H E H Y PO C H O N D R I A C BODY EAT AND E L I M I N ATE? W E COULD SEAL U P NOSE A N D MOUTH. :. HE A BLADDER. . T H E EXPE R I M ENTAL SC H I ZO: ''THE H U M A N BODY I S SCA N DALOUSLY I N E FF I C I ENT. C H EST. A LMOST WITHOUT LUNGS. FOR W H AT IS I N VOLVED I S PRIMA R I LY T H E BWO. I T H A S ITSELF S U S PE N D E D TO STOP T H E ORGANS ORGA N S E R ED. THE ANUS.3 ) . ADDING TH E NOSE SEWN U P. BODY AND SOCI US. I N C U R R I N G C E N S U R E A N D R E PRESSION. I N STEAD OF A MOUTH AND AN ANUS TO GET OUT OF ORDER WHY NOT HAVE O N E ALL·PU R POSE HOLE TO TION. SODO M I Z E D . . ( " RAYS") A LW A Y S . S M OT H · IN THE M OUTH SO THAT D EFECATED I NTESTI N E S .HOW TO M A K E YOU RSELF A BODY WITHOUT ORGA N S OESOP H A G U S . IT H A S ITSELF SEWN U P B Y ITS SADIST O R ITS W H O R E -T H E EYES. ALL SHE HAS L E FT IS THE SKIN AND BONES O F T H E DISORGANIZED WORDS2 T H E R E 80DY: IS THE THESE ARE HER VERY WHOSE C OQ U E TT I S H L Y 8 U TTO N S WITH FO U R PA R A N O I D BODY. 2 C1 !5 . . S TO M A C H AND BOWELS. T H E BWO: I T I S A LR E A D Y O N T H E W A Y A S SOON A S T H E BODY H A S H A D E N O U G H OF T H E O R G A N S A N D WA NTS T O P U T T H E M A S I D E . FROM WERE FU NCTI O N I NG. AND WITH TO O N NOV E M B E R 2 8 . E V E N A T THE COST OF CATATO N I A . S H A TT E R E D W I TH O U T R I BS. STOOD IN T E R M S O F PA I N . POLITICS AND E X P E R I M E NTA· I NT E R N A L STRUGGLE AGA I N ST THE ORGA NS. W ITHOUT D E E P. BUT DIVI N E WHAT THE M I R A C LE S HAD BEEN BODY. W I T H A TORN EVERYT H I N G I S S E A L E D TIGHT. THE B R E A ST S . YOU W I LL NOT B E A L LOWE D TO E X P E R I M ENT I N PEACE. F I LL I N TH E STO M ACH. ETC. BUT TH E R E I S NOTH I N G M O R E U S E LESS THAN AN ORG A N . HOLES. O R LOSE S T H E M . ' "FOR YOU C A N T I E M E U P I F YOU W I S H . T H E U R ETH R A . TH E R E I S TH E D R U G G E D BODY. " IT I S NOT J UST R A D I OPHONIC SWALLOW PART O F H I S O W N LARYN X WITH H I S FOOD.4 A N D T H E R E I S T H E M A S OC H I STIC BODY WHICH C A N NOT BE U N D E R· WHOSE ORGANS H A V E B E E N DESTROYED: ONCE T H E D E S T R UCTION I S ACCOM P LI S H E D NOTH I N G E L S E H A PP E N S -"M I S S X C L A I M S THAT S H E H A S LOST H E R B R A I N . 1 947 ARTA U D DECLARES WAR ON THE ORGANS: TO HAVE DONE WITH THE USED SOMETI MES J U DG E M E N T O F GOD. N E R V E S .

WHICH W E C A L L AN ORGA N I S M . O R M O D A L I T I E S . T H E BODY IS THE B O D Y . I F T H E B W O I S A LSO F U L L O F G A I E T Y . T H E ONE H I D I N G B E H I N D THE TERRIFYING P H I LOSOP H E R . O F S E D I M E NTATION I M POSES FO R M S A N D F U NCTIONS O N IT. THAT G L AC I A L R E A LITY ON WHICH T H E S E A L L U V IO N S . THE B R E AT H S . E M PT I E D BOD I E S I N STEAD OF F U L L O N E S .I S U B STANTI A L I ST D E N C I E S ORGANIZED FOR THE P U R POSE O F U S E F U L WOR K . M A SO . OF F I LL I N G YOU R S E L F U P. DOS E . V I BRATIONS. VITRIFIED. NOT T H E BWO BUT A STRA T U M ON T H E BWO. FORCES. T H E MAD PH I LO­ W A G E S H I S WA R A G A I NST T H E O R G A N S . T H E T H EOLOG I C A L SYSTEM. E L E M E NTS. THE BRAIN B E S I EG E D BY SYPH I L I S . BUT WHO I S T H I S W E . THE MATT E R W I T H O U T G O D S : P R I N C I PLES. S U BSTA N C E S . IT IS TRUE THAT A R TA U D H EL I OG A B A L U S R E V I V E D . P E Y OT E . T H E BWO H O W L S : ''T H E Y'VE M A D E M E A N ORGA N I S M ! T H E Y H A V E B R O K E N M E U N D U LY'" 266 . S A DO. (SECRET SONG OF T H E YOUNG ROSIC R U C I A N S) WE G R A D U A LLY R E A LIZE THAT T H E BWO IS NOT T H E OPPOSITE O F T H E O R G A N S AT A LL ." W E N E V E R STOP B E I N G STRATI F I E D . YOU H A V E B E E N D E F EA T E D IN A G R EAT BATTLE. THE ENEMY IS THE C A TATON I Z E D . A S P I R AT E D BODI ES. HAVE ARE SPI NOZA. S E D I M E N TATI O N S ." UN ITY P R E C I S E L Y W H A T T H E TWO BOOKS O F ARTA U D S A Y : F U S I B I L I TY AS TENCY. A L O N E I T STA NDS.WHY TH I S DREARY ARRAY OF SEWN. I F O N E S T A Y S AT THE L E V E L O F T H E O R G A N S -"TH E L I V E R THAT M A K E S T H E S K I N YELLOW. I T S E N E M I E S ARE NOT THE ORGANS. " B I N D M E I F YOU W I LL. I S P R EC I S E LY THE O P E R A T I O N S O F HE WHO M A K E S A N ORG A N I S M . OR RE PRODUCTIONS: R E M I SSIONS. F R I S K Y DANC I NG ? WHY THESE E X A M P LES THEY ARE THEN. AN O R G A N IZATION O F THE ORGANS. A N D I N N E E D OF N O ORGA NS. B U T T H E O R G A N IZATION O F T H E O R G A N S THAT WE CALL THE ORG A N I S M ." A N D I F O N E REMAINS T R A P P E D W I T H I N T H E ORG A N I S M W H I C H O R G A N I SM I S NOT T H E BODY A T A L L. O R G A N I S M IT N EV E R IS. R E LATIONS A N D H I E R A R C H I ­ CAL AND DOM I N A N T ORGA N I ZATIONS. ORGANISMS ARE E N E M I E S OF THE BODY · THE BWO I SN'T OPPO SE D TO T H E O RG A N S . ECSTA S Y . OF A CC U M U LATION. A N D A VOYAGE TO THE LA N D OF T H E TA RA H U M ARAS I S EXP E R I M E NTA TION. TH E J U DG · SOPH E R . BUT A DEE PER U N ITY. WHICH OF COA G U LA­ BLOC KS T H E F L O W S A N D HOLDS U S I N O U R WORLD HERE. I NTESTI N E W H I C H E X P E LS E XC R E MENT. W H I C H I S TO SAY A P H E N O M E NO N TION. THIS IS WHAT E N D U R E S : T H E J U DG M E N T O F GOD W H I C H W E I G H S A N D E X E R C I S E S ITS W I L L ON IT. B EC A U S E BECAUSE HE H E C A N NOT BEAR T H E BWO. T O T H E ORGA N I C O R G A N IZATION OF ORGANS. T H E O RG A N I S M I S A L R E A DY P R E C I S E L Y T H A T. TO THIS D I F F I C U LT Y O F ATT A I N I N G T H I S W O R L D O F PRECEDENCE CROW N E D A N A RC H Y. HAVE YOU NOT OF ENOUGH AS PRUDENCE? AS THE PRUDENCE. I N T E N SITI ES. TRANSCEN­ H E L I OG A B A L U S A N D S P I NOZA A R E O N E A N D TH E SA M E T H I N G LONG L I V E THE ROSE H E L I OG A B A L U S AND S P I NOZA M A K E THE S A M E CHOICE LONG L I V E T H E C ROSS TH E C H A STE P H I LO SO P H E R W I THOUT N E E D A N D T H E C R U E L E M P E R O R W H I C H S H ITS ALL OV E R H A V E THE S A M E S E N S E O F T H E C I TY PUTT I N G A N A RC H Y IN U N ITY AND TH E O N E I N ANARCHY M U LTI PLICITY HOMO. TAKE THEIR WHICH OOCTOR S THE PROFIT AND POW E R FROM. R E R E A D I NG H E L IO G A B A L U S A N D THE TARAH U M A RAS (FOR H E LIOG A B A L U S IS S P I NOZ A : SPI NOZA ORGA N I S M . NOT AT A LL T H E OF TH E ONE. I N F I N I T E Z E RO. TO G I V E DREADFUL T H I NG. T H E BWO DOE S N'T OPPOSE TH E O RG A N S . THE OTH E R H I DI N G U N DER THE G U I S E OF THE C H A STE L E N S G R I N D E R . WHY ARE THEY NECESSARY? D E P R ESSING E X A M P LES FOR A C H E E R F U L H E A RT. S I N C E T H E SUBJECT B E LONGS T O A STRATUM A N D D E P E N DS O N I T N O LESS T H A N T H E ORGA N I S M ? WE NOW A N S W E R : I T I S THE BWO. T H E S Y S T E M OF T H E J U D G M E N T OF GOD. YOU HAVE DE PLETED YOU R S E L V E S INSTEAD SHOWN W I SDOM. MODO N AT U R. IT'S W I TH I N I T THAT THE O R G A N S ARE C O M PO S E D I NTO W H A T W E C A L L A N O RG A N I S M . TRA NSV ESTITE PANTHE. PRODUCTIONS THE WAYS OF B E I NG. P L A N E OF C O N S I S ­ AS M E N T OF G O D . E U N U C H . I M MANENT RULE EXPE R I M E NTAT I O N : I N J ECTIONS O F P R U D E N C E . WHICH TION M A K E U P A N ORG A N I S M .A N D A S I G N I FICA­ AND A S U B J E C T -OC C U R . PLiCATIONS A N D C O M P R E S S I O N S COAGULATIONS. I T I S OPPOS E D TO THE ORGA N I S M . W H I C H I S N O T M E . R I P S IT O P E N . BOTH HAVE NOTH I N G BUT A BODY WITHOUT O RG A N S A N D T H E V I B R A T I O N S T H A T COM E OFF I T P I TY F O R W HOEV E R S I G N S H I M S E L F C A E S A R THE C RU C I F I E D F O R Y O U C A N NOT T R U S T H I M S I N C E H E DI DN'T E V E R C A L L H I M S E L F H E LIOGA B A L U S A N D S P I NOZA. N U M B E RS : AND FINALLY H OU N DS IT. BUT WHAT HE HAS R E A LLY HAD IT W I T H AND R E A LLY R E S E NTS IS T H E ORG A N I S M . ESS E N C E S . THE J UDGMENT OF GOD. T H E O RG A N I S M .). SAME H E L I OG A B A L U S AND P E YOTE THE FO R M U LA : A N ARCHY AND U N ITY ONE A N D THE S A M E T H I N G . BUT WITH ITS "LEG I T I M ATE ORGANS" WHICH A R E TO BE C O M PO S E D A N D SET.

BIND IT O R PRODUC E TH E U NCONSCIO US!-TH l s I S C E RTA I N LY NO MORE N O LESS D I F F I C U LT T H A N T E A R I N G T H E BODY F R O M TH E ORGAN I S M .M A D E . T I M E. BUT FALSE PERCEPTIONS. AS A R E S U LT IT OSC I L LATES BETWEEN TWO POLES. T H E POWE R O R POT E N T I A LITY O F T H E BWO. HAVE C A N SAY "I A M A M A SOCH I ST:' N O O N E C A N S A Y "I A M A HOMOS E X U A L:' N O O N E C A N S A Y "I A M A D R U G A DDICT. O N E STRATUM E MBEDDED I N A NOTH E R . W H I C H FREES T H E BWO. G E N TL E EXPERI­ CASE. A N D TO K E E P A S M A L L S U P P L Y E X P E R I M E NTATION. WHICH INJU RIOUS DISTR I B UTIONS O F I NT E N S I T I ES. A G A I NST THE BASE A S S E RTIONS O F PSYCHOA N A LY S I S (TO C O N SC I O U S N E S S SU RROUNDS OR A IT H A SN'T AN LIKE U N E L U C I DA T E D ON TH E EXTENSION. B U T A LSO W H A T COULD B E M O R E A MO R O U S ? M A K E P R U D E NC E T H E POLITIC A L. THE I L LUSORY. D O E S N 'T KNOW FOR AT T H E BWO. AN OBSCU R E . T O U N DO TH E ORGA N I S M H A S N E V E R M E A N T T O K I LL YOU R S ELF. YOU EITH ER. . LOOK I N TO YOU R C H I LD HOOD) W E SAY: Y O U D O N . T H E U N. THESE A R E THE F A N TA S I E S W H I C H I. A N D NOT J U ST OF THE O RG A N I S M . . A N D IF THE BWO IS A L I M IT. AS A LCOHOL. NAIL US TO A DOM I N A N T BECA U S E STRAT U M B E H I N D T H E FIRST ONE. C I R C U ITS. R E S ENT­ M EN T A N D GLUTTO N Y ALL TOGETH E R . T H E R E I S A P E R PETU A L A N D VIOLENT STR I F E B E TW E E N T H E PLA N E O F CONSIS­ TENCY. PSYC H I C D EATH BY AVOI DING ARE M EA N I N G AND BWO WHICH DOE S N 'T CONFRONT THIS PROBLEM A N D TH E R E I S N O G E N E R A L SOLUTION. A N D W H I C H IS THE V E R Y M YSTERY O F A L L POETRY. K N OW S THOUG HTS A CC E PT. T H E U N ­ P R E PA R E D . SA I D T H E CON S U L. DEPENDING FIND YOU R S E LF. TH E H A L L U C I NATORY. T H E R E'S A NOTH E R T H I N G : DON'T TH I N K THAT U N DO I N G T H E O RG A N I S M ANY MORE IS PARTICULARLY U N DO I N G I M M A N E NCE MAKES O RG A N I S M . A BOVE ALL. FOR I T T A K E S M A N Y S T R A T A . K NOW W H A T Y O U A R E A N D YO U'LL O N LY KNOW BY E X P E R I M E N T I N G . FOLD IT B A C K . FOR M L ESS ENTERED ONE. A LCOHOLIC A LSO D A N C E S O N T H E EDGE O F FALSEHOOD. C O N J U NC­ PASSAGES A N D I T CAN AND PROFITABLY ARE WITHOUT TO ITS TIERS A N D T H RE SHOLDS. S I G N I FICATION. T H E V I R T U E O F LOV I NG. I F YOU A R E C A PA B L E O F IT. O N LY I C A N K NOW I F I A M D R U N K. DON'T G E T THE RID OF THEM IS SO IT CONSIST EN C Y IN W H I C H I T U N FOLDS AND OPENS ITSELF TO E X PE R I M E NTATI O N . L I F E O R D E A T H : AN OEDIPAL G R E E D-WH ETH E R OR CRACKS OF ONE THE A B SO R B S W H I P. I F ONE IS NEVER THERE THROUGH IS A LW A Y S ATTA I N I NG A N OTH E R IT. DEATH DOM I N A N T R E A LITY TO B E COM E A N O M A D I N T H E M A S K E D O N E . N O O N E C O N SC I O U S N E S S . T H R E AT. T E R R ITOR I E S A N D M E A S U R E D DETE R RI TOR I A LIZATIONS R EM I N I SC E NT OF K A FKA'S S U R V EYOR. S I G N I F I C A N C E A N D s U B J ECTI­ VATION. T H E I LL USORY. O N E CA N'T TELL I N ADVANCE. A R TA U D C A R E F U LLY M EA S U R E S A N D WE IGHS H I S WO RDS: C O N SC I O U S N E S S " K N O W S W H A T IS GOOD FOR IT IT AND WHAT DOES WHAT IT HARM: AND AND I N ST I NCT. LET EVERYONE I N V E NT HIS OWN P R U D E NC E . D RU GG E D. B U T TH E R E I S A N OTH E R L E V E L I N T H E HUMAN WHERE WHICH BEI NG. A PLA N E W H IC H N O R M A L CONSCIOUS­ N ESS NEVER ATTA I N S B U T WHICH C I G U R I A LLOWS U S TO R E A C H . I T IS T H E STRATI F I E D . A S U BJ ECT. THE O B J ECT OF A P R O D U C TI O N ­ J U D G M E N T O F GOD. ORG A N I S M SO THAT I T C A N R E C O NSTITUTE I T S E L F AT E A C H N E W D A W N . NO. VOYAGE. " 7 W H A T ? I T M IG H T B E SOM ETH I N G E LS E . YOU I NT E R P R E T A T I O N GUA RDS A G A I N ST AS WHICH STRA N G E AND ONE SAFE­ RISKS THE M ADNESS. S IG N I FI C A N C E AND I NT E R P R ETATION AS S U R FACES O F STRATI FICATI O N U PON W H I C H I T FALLS BACK AND YIELDS TO J U D G M E N T AND THE PLANE OF CLOSE C L I N G T O T H E S O U L A S TH E O R G A N I S M D O E S T O THE E A S I LY BODY. T H E D I F F I C U LT. TO MAKE UP THE R E A LITY? TEAR T H E C O N SC I O U S N E S S MEANS OF FROM THE S U BJ ECT T O M A K E I T A E X P L O R A TI O N . SEARCH TH E 267 . ACID U N R E A L I TY SOON ONE LEAVES DON'T GO AT I T W I TH A H A M M E R BUT WITH A V E R Y FINE FILE. B U T T O O P E N T H E BODY TO C O N N ECTI O N S WHICH P R E S U PPOSE A WHOLE THEREFORE F E E L I NG S DANGE M . HOW F A R I T H A S N'T G O N E YET OR H A SN'T T H E RIGHT TO GO WITHOUT F A L L I N G I NTO D A N G E R O U S TH A N A N I N TE N S I TY. A N D W H I C H A LSO R E L E A S E S A D V E NTU ROUS S E N SATI ONS S H A M E LE S S AND PERC E PTIONS. A R R A N G E M E NT . A FFECT T H E SICK HAD FA L S E HAVE M ENTATION. TEAR T H E UNCONSCIOUS F R O M S I G N I FI C A N C E A N D I NTERPRETATION TO M A K E A T R U E PROD UCTI ON OUT OF IT. O N E TH E R E IS NO M A S OC H I ST. SELF D E ST R U C T I O N . U N REALITY. P R U D E N C E I S T H E A RT COMMON TO A L L T H R E E : A N D I F IT H A PP E N S T H A T ONE BRUSHES A GA I N ST DEATH IN U N DO I N G THE ORG A N I S M . IT'S AND S U B J EC T-HOW POSSI B L E TO U N H I NG E TH E POINTS O F S U B J ECTI­ VATION WHICH FIX US. D I F F I C U LT T H A N TH E OTH E R STRATA. S E N SA T I O N S . TOO. SOMETH I N G A W AITS US. YES. ONE ONE D O E S N 'T EVEN K NO W I N IT IS NECESSARY TO R ETA I N E NO U G H OF TH E R ETROSPECT.E X PE R I M E NT A L V I R T U E . BUT SOM ETH I NG T H E O PPOSITE O F M I ST R U ST. P E R FECT TIONS. WHAT COULD BE MORE F R E E DO M . 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B U T A LSO T H E BWO OF T H E STATE W H I C H EITH E R F I N DS O R DO E S N 'T F I N D ITS REGU LATION I N INTERMEDIARY BO D I E S . W E A R E A SOC I A L FO R M A · E X C E S S OF S I G N I F I C A N C E I NTERPRETATIO N . E V E R Y SCHOOL. SEC U R E C E RTA I N CON N ECTIONS O F FLOWS H E R E AND T H E R E . WHICH T H E Y TH E N SOUGH T FOR ALL T H E H A R D E R AND MORE D E S P E RATELY ( FOR P ITY'S S A K E . CORRODE. H A V I N G PRODUCED IT SOMEWHAT. POS S I B L E M O M E NTS OF DETE R R I TO R I A LlZA· TION AND LINES OF RECEDENCE. THE ORG A N I S M A N D ITS DOCTORS. E N S N A R E D I N I T S R E C E N D E N C E . LOOK FOR A PROPITIOUS SPOT. EXPERIENCE C E R E M O N I O U S . TH E P R OG R A M . IF YOU CON S I D E R A P A R TI C U L A R SOC I A L FOR M ATION. CONJ U N CTION O F FLOWS. EVEN TO FORC E -O R E L S E Y O U D I S I NTEG RATE I N A S U I C I D A L OR MAD B R E A K DOWN A N D D I S R U PT T H E STRATA OPPOSE T H E M TO T H E I R OWN SYSTEM. H O W I T I S STRATI F I E D FOR US. I T S OWN "ORGAN I S M". M I M E THE STRATA. PEOPLE. KEEP CAPITALISM IT STRATI F I E D C I R C U LA T E: B LOC K E D . A L W A Y S BE POL I T E . B R I NG I T I N TOU C H W I T H T H E PLACE OF C O N S I STENCY O N T H E OTH E R S I DE OF T H E S T R A T A . SAID IS NOTH I N G BUT THE THE M I LITARY MAN R ELATION O F V I O L E N C E A N D R I V A L R Y A S W E L L A S ALLIANCES FO R M A T I O N S . G I V E ME BACK SOM E M OO R I N GS!) S I N C E T H E Y D I D N 'T K NOW HOW TO P A Y O U T TH E I R NOM A D I C D E P E R S O N A L I ZATION. SCH IZO-POLITE SSE. T H E EXQUISITE POLITE NESS OF H OLDER L I N . CANCEROUS B U R G EO N I N G M O N E Y . O N LY THEN D O E S THE BWO R E V E A L ITSELF FOR WHAT IT I S . IN US IN THE VERY PLACE WHERE WE ARE: R U N N I NG A I M LE S S L Y O R . W H I C H T H E M S E L V E S P R I SO N E R OF YOU R ORGA N I S M . OR. TH E I R EGOS. IS TH I S : W H A T YOU ACT U A L L Y ON A T H I NGS. C A PI T A L I T S E L F W I TH ITS E X P A N S I V E · I N FLATION M U ST C O N T R O L IT. A BSORBS E V E RYTH I NG I N ITS T U M O R . (TH E R E PLAN. T H I S I S E V E N T H E R E ASON W H Y W E ENCO U N T E R T H E P A R A DO X BOD I E S OF THE L UG U B R IO U S THEY AND HAD E M PT I E D E M PTI E D OF RELATION. CONTI N U U M OF I NT E N S I T I E S .OF M E A N I NG AND I N T E R P R ETATION. S W I R L I NG.E I T H E R YOU REMAIN A OTH E R MECHANISMS B W O OF C A PITA L I S M W H I C H E I T H E R F I N D S O R DOESN'T FI N D I T S R E G U LATION I N THE STATE. W H O H E FELT G A V E H E R S E LF O V E R T O H E R FANTA S I E S TOO E A S I LY. AND COMBINE. CONN ECTION OF D E S I R E S . TRY OUT CONTI N U A O F I N T E N S I · T I E S LITTLE BY LITTLE. PATIENTLY AND T E M PORA R I LY U N DO T H I S ORG A N I · ZATION OF THE THEY O RG A N S HAD WHICH WE C A LL IN THE AN ONE MANAGES FOR IN A RELEASE CONN ECT. E I T H E R O N E DOESN'T M A N A G E TO TH E R E IS A BWO O F C A PI T A L I S M . INVADE TO RELEASE IT TH ROUGH TOO VIOLENT A G E STU R E . NOTH I NG D O N 'T H A PP E N S UP OR ON GET I T-TH E INTENSITIES THIS ON S U B J ECTIVATION: O R I E NT IT. C H I LE : WE HAVE THE MOST D EMO· 268 . A BWO O F THE A R M Y T A K E S O V E R T H E S T A T E . ON THE CONT R A R Y . EVEN WHEN ACCO U N T OF T H E BWO I S CONSTANTLY OSC I L LAT· ING AND B ET W E E N THE S U R FACES WHICH STRATIFY I T THE P LA N E WHICH L I B E RATES IT. OR A PARTICULAR STRATIFYING MECHANSIM IN A FOR M ATION. J U ST A S S I L E N C E I S T H E G R E A TEST VACANT I N T E R P R ETATIONI I N STEAD O F R E P LACI NG T H E M B Y THE C I RC U MSTA NTI A L A RT O F AN E X P E R I M E NTA L POS I T I V I S M : T H E Y H A D LOST R E LATE T H E STRATA T O THE DE E P E R COLLECTIV E M AC H I N I C S E T· U P IN WHICH WE ARE TRAPPED: OVERT U R N T H E SET· U P V E R Y GE NTLY. FOR THOSE TIMES WHEN C I R C U MSTA N C E S REQU I R E IT. BE C ERTA I N STRATUM. H A LF D E A D A M ONG T H E S Y M BOLS OF POWE R A N D T H E I C O N S O F F U R N I S H BWOS. S I G N I F I · C A N C E A N D I T S PSYCHOA N A LYST. I N E V E R Y FACTORY. THAT PASS THROUGH TO BWO. E I TH E R W I T H I N TH E M S E LV E S OR WITHOUT. BOU N D T O THE DOM I N A N T R E A LlTY­ AND YOU DON'T EVEN FEEL IT: ONE C A N LIVE L I K E THAT A N D B E CONTENT W I T H O N ESELF. BWOS. F I RST OF ALL. IT I S I N A C O N S I STENCY BY W I LDLY DESTRATI FYI NG O N E S E LF . M O N E Y P RO DU C I N G M O N E Y . TION : S E E . CONTI N U E. YOU WILL H AVE K ILLED Y O U R S E L F. B R E A K U P T H E STRATA WITHOUT P R U D E N C E . TOTA L I T Y OF THE IN THE ENTERI N G M I S S E D T H E P L A N E . W E C A N S A Y THAT EACH A N D E V E R Y ONE HAS ITS BWO TO R E A DY COV E R SOC I A L TO AND FI ELD. O N E D O E S N 'T ATTA I N TH E BWO AND ITS PLANE OF T H E M .) THE S A M E M U LT I P L E HORROR IS I N VOLVED IN S TA Y I NG S T R A T I F I E D . EVERY H O U S E H OLD. ITS C A N C E RO U S C EL L S PROLI F E R A T I N G E V E R Y · ­ W H E R E . E V E N SITUATIONS FORC E Y O U TO IT. I N A DODD E R I N G S T U PO R ( FO R NOTHI N G N E S S IS STI L L T H E S U P R E M E S I G N I F I E R . ALWAYS K E E P I N G A S M A L L P I E C E OF NEW T E R R I TO R Y A V A I LA BLE. B E POLITE. T H E R E A R E I N FACT M A N Y WAYS TO M I S S THE BWO. YOU WILL HAVE PROLIFERATE. S U B J ECT T O S I G N I FICANCE. I N SHORT. " H E A LTH". AND ONE M UST KEEP SMALL RATIONS OF TO DO SITUATE YOURSELF S U B J ECTIVITY O N ONE'S DON K E Y MASK I N O R D E R TO BE A B L E TO COPE WITH THE DOM I N A N T R E A LITY. W H E N W H I C H FALL BACK DOWN O N YOU A L L THE H A R D E R ­ HOSPITAL HAVE OR C E M ET E R Y . TH E AND C O M PLI C I T I E S WITH AND OTH E R THEIR K L E I ST T O H I S YOU N G E R SI STER U L R I K E. ACCOR D I N G TO A M E TI C U LOUS R E L ATION W I TH T H E STRATA T H A T O N E SUCCEEDS IN OPE N I N G UP C H A N N E LS OF OF R EC E D E N C E FLOWS AND M A K I NG AND AT THE BEGI N N I NG : TH E I R THEMSELVES LOO K I N G OF ORGANS I N ST E A D FO R T H E MOMENTS W H E N T H E Y COULD COM B I N AT I O N S ESCAPE. FOR ITS OWN WE PRODUCE IT. CONTI N U O U S I NT E N S I T I E S ORG A N I S M : F A L L E N . E X P E R I M E N T WITH T H E OPPOR· T U N I T I E S I T OFFERS YOU.

T E R R I F Y I N G CA RICATU R E S O F THE PLA N E OF CONSISTENCY OTHERS. A N I N F I N ITY OF WORDS F O R A N I N FI N I TE AMOUNT OF MONEY. TH E BWO HAS PSYCHOA N A L Y S I S : T H E PSY C H O A N A LYST H I MSE LF. T H E C I TY. AND YET NO LESS BWO THAN THE GO V E R N M E N T. W H I C H IS STI L L PART O F THE J U OG M E N T OF G O D . T H E PO LICE DESI R E I TS BWO. BWO OF TH E A R M Y . OF S E D I M E N TATION MATER I A L. NOT I N ORDER TO R E A C H TH E DESTRATI F I E D PLA N E OF CONS I STE N C Y B U T I N O R D E R T O PLUG G I LLES DELEUZE A N D F E L I X G U ATTA R I TRA N S LATED BY SUZA N N E G U E RLAC NOTES TO HAVE DO N E WITH THE J U D G M E N T OF G O D . SILENCE AS TH E PSY C H I C A L SO C I A L M A TT E R . 1 9 77. ETC . T H E STATE DESI R E S I T S BWO. BWO OF TH E STATE. EXC E PT BY REACH ING THE PLA N E OF CON S I S T E N C Y WHICH STRATU M . S A I D THE C H I LEAN. I NTER­ DESIRE REPRESSION? MAKE HOW C A N DESI RE. TOR I ALIZATION. COTA R D ACC U S E S H I MSELF I NSTEAD OF E N T E R I N G I NTO A D I A L OG U E WITH MORE OR LESS IMAGI NARY STRESSES T H E D I F F E R E NCE BETWE EN HYPOCHON­ DRIAC DELIRIUM AND PARANOI D D E L I R I UM FROM I N T E R LOCUTORS O R PE RSEC UTORS: H E I S N EGATI- 2159 . FALSE C O N S C I O U S N E S S . 6 1 . BWO OF MONEY. T H E SCHOOL. 1 89 1 . WITHOUT MOUTH. HAS BEEN. M AC H I N I ST. NO. TH E FA M I LY DESI R E S ITS BWO. C R EATING STR A N G E ALLIANCES A N D R I V A L R I ES. B I O LO G I C A L . ON THE AND COM B I N A ­ TO CONSTITUTION. CO N S I D E R HOW THE N A Z I BWO R ECON­ STITUTES CAPITAL'S "O RG A N I S M " I N G E R M A NY. A WITHOUT OF EARS. VOL. TIONS P OS S I B L E C O N T R A R Y. DESI R E E V E N I N C LUDES THAT I N TH E E M PT I E D B W O S . A L L A STRATUM N EE D S I S A Q U I C K S E D I M E N TATION WITH I N ITSELF. (TH E R E I S A B W O OF ITSELF M E C H A N I ST I C DESIRE PROLI F E RATION O F T H E SAME? C E R TA I N LY I T I S NOT A QUESTION OF I D EOLOGY. AND WITHOUT A CANCER I N T E R P R ET A T I O N . SEVERAL POINTS OF VI EW: THE H YPOCHO N D R I AC SEMIOTEXT(E). P. FASC I S M I S DESI R E. E R RO R . B LI N D SCA R R I N G . TH E R E I S DE S I R E E V E R Y TI M E T H E R E I S BWO O F O N E K I N D O R ANOTH E R .-TH E R E IS A BWO OF THE F A M I LY. DES I R E WENDS ITS WAY THROUGH THE U PON T H E BWO. B R A I L L I E R E . I N THE ITS T U R N A BWO THAT DESTROYS TAKES OVER THE STATE TO E N S U R E T H E PROLIFE RATION O F T H E S A M E . C LOSE THEM OFF. EX P E R I E N C E S. BWO OF THE PARTY. A L L DES I R E I S D E S I R E O F BWO. DESIRE IS M I N A B L E A N A L Y S I S . OF THE LOC K E D WITH I N E A C H OTH E R . IF THE STRATA ARE A M A TT E R OF C O A G U L A T I O N .C R ATIC A R M Y I N THE WORLD. Y E S . I T HAS EARS F O R T H E P E O P L E A N D E Y E S F O R T H E TH E M . H I S O R G A N S A R E D E F I N I T I V E L Y DESTROYE D WITHOUT ANY POSSI B LE R ESTORATION 2 J U LES COTARD: ETA RD S U R LES MALADIES CEREBRA· EXC E PT BY S I M ULACRUM: HE MONOLOG U E S AND L E S ET M E N TA L E S . TO FO R M IN A ITS SPECIFIC TUMOR OR C E R TA I N THE FORM ATION OF BWO OF TH E PARTICULAR APPARATUS: DA NGERS: I T C A N NOT WARD OFF T H E E M PTI E D A N D CANCEROUS BOD I E S W H I C H S U M M O N I T. NOT I N ORDER TO U N DO TH E STRATA WITH THE NECESS A R Y PRECAUTIONS BUT TO S H U T T H E M U P AGA I N . EVERY STRATUM H A S ITS HOLES. M A NAGE TO DESI R E THE ITS OWN PA RTY. R E STORE AN "OR G A N I C A N D H E A LTHY" C A PITA LISM FROM THE DEPTHS O F UTTER TERROR. T O B E HOLES. BUT TH E B W O OF CAPITAL I N FLATION BREAKS OUT ALL T H E MORE V I O LENTLY WHEN THE A I M I S TO B R I N G DOWN A SOC I A LIST GOV E R N M ENT: THE ARMY LO S E S ITS EARS AND ITS EYES. BUT REMEMBER T H E BWO OF N A Z I S M A N D TH E R A V I N G B W O OF GERMAN CAPITALISM BEFORE THE NAZI TAKEOVER. PROLIFE RATION IN A N I N C R EASINGLY A S P H Y X I A T I N G PSYCHOSOMATIC C I RCU IT'> I N S HORT. S U P R E M E I N TE R P R ETATI O N . I T S L I N E S OF RECEDENCE AND M OV E M E N T S S W A LLO W E D OF UP DETE R R I ­ I N THESE DI SSOLVES T H E M AS I F I N ACID. OR S U P ERSTITION. E V E N TO THE POI NT OF REMOVING T H E I R FORM AND A RTICU LATION -NOT TO MAKE "OT H E R" CONNECTIONS BUT. ETC. L I E S. EYES. W E B E L I E V E T H A T T H E STRATA T H EMSELVES E N G E N D E R BWOS. IS AND WILL BE. DEATH I N STI NCT. U N LEASH ES. COMPLEXITY OF ALLIANCES AND RIVALRI ES: TH I N K OF NAZISM THE FOR I N STA NCE-DON'T J UST GENERAL R E LATION BETW E E N N A Z I S M A N D C A PITA L I S M . THE FACTORY. HOW NAZISM ORGA N I Z E S ITSELF BY U N L E A S H I N G A BWO OF THE ARMY D I STI NCT FROM THE BWO OF THE IT I S THROUGH THE BWO THAT O N E DESIRES. AS IT DOES THE HOW ABOLITION DOES OF D E S I R E I N C A N C EROUS BWOS. N A Z I ECONOMY-NOT T O D I SCOVER T H E MAC H I N I C POTENTI A L OF DES I R E B UT TO E N S U R E T H E C LOS E D HOLD A N D POW E R O F A M E C H A N ISTIC D E S I R E : SUCH A R E THE C A N C E R O U S OR FASCI STIC BWOS. n. ALL THAT CAN BE DESI RED. I NT E R ­ NOTH I N G T O D O WITH I D EOLOGY: P U R E M A TT E R . -THE O N E S OPERATING I N R E LATION T O T H E OTH E R S . 3. BWO OF THE FA M I LY . YES. T H E A R M Y DESIRES I T S BWO. C A N C E R I S D E S I R E . I T I S A PHENOME NON AND OF PHYSICAL.

"R EDUCES" "BRINGING IT BACK" T O T H E O N E .D BOYS. QUOTED B Y S . "VAGI N A S U N D E R E V E R Y A R M . p. P. . G ROVE PRESS. "THE BODY IS THE BODY. 59. ST R A U S AND GI ROUX. SCH R I B E R ' S MEMOIRS. O R T H E A N A R· SEMIOTEXTIE). ANY D I A LECTI C A L MOV E M E N T "NOTES ON A CASE OF P A R A NOIA". OR W A S IT M E L. A N TO N I N ARTAUD. I N A M ERCOU R I 7 " N E G R O STREETS AT DOWN. PliCITY A S GOING B E YOND ALL OPPOSITION F RO M T H E B EG I N N I NG . CIT. ADJUSTI NG H E R DA RK GLASSES. 1 9 76. MANY AS A D I A LECTICAL UNITY. HE DOESN'T SEE THE MULTI· DR. ORGANS. 270 . NEW YORK: FARRAR.V I STIC IWITHOUT N A M E . O R NOT. CON C E R N I NG H E LI OG A B A LUS.E" XII. WITHOUT G O D ) W H E R E A S THE P A R A N O I A C I S A " G R E A T ONTOLOGIST". AND YET H E RE. S. FREUD. NEW YORK: F R O M T H E B EG I N N I NG . O P ." SHE SAID. 1 7. C I T FRONTIERS BROKEN HOLLY GOLIGHTLY M E ETS THE WI L. LUNCH. A N D ONE THE M U L T I P L I C I TY IN WHICH S O U L . AGE." H E LIOGABALUS. A N D A BOVE A L L C A N C E L I N G A N Y SUCH QUESTION. C H I ST CROWNED IN SELECTED WRITINGS. 6 A N TON I N A R TA U D. A RT A U D STI LL PRESE NTS US THE I D E NTITY O F THE ONE A N D T H E 7 A RT A U D . 4 WILLIAM B U R ROUGHS. P. " M I STER M A RG U L. A VOYAGE TO THE LAND DF TARA H U M A RA S SELECTED WRITINGS. NAKED 131. 1 9 59. H E M A K E S H E L I OG A B A L U S SOM E KIND OF H EG E L I A N . O P . O RG A N I S M . I E S .

YOU R I N T R E P I D REPOR­ TERS. ARE ON THE SC E N E. THE G R I M A C E A N D CONTORTION OF A WOMAN'S FACE GRAPHICALLY EXPRESS THE I NCREMENT OF M YOTO N I C THE TENSION THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE THE PATI ENT IS WAITING IN KNEE-CHEST POSITION.JOHN SON. " THE MACH I N E N E V E R ORGASMS. . M E A S U RING AND RECORDING T H E ACTION. A N I M PARTIAL A PPROACH TO H U M A N SEXUAL EXPERI ENCE CAN NOW BEGIN. HAVE BEEN VA STLY I M PROVED B Y RADIO PHYS I C I STS. M ASTERS A N D . THE CONTRACTIO N S WITH A L M O ST S I M U L TA N E O U S L Y THOSE ORGASM I C PLATFOR M . ELECTR ICA LLY POWE R E D PLASTIC P E N I SES ARE READY FOR ACTION. PLASTIC PENISES F UNCTION A S PLATE GLASS.DEFU N KT SEX "AT ORGASM. IN THE COLD 27 1 . R A P I D I TY OF THRUST I N C R E A S ES. M USCLES O F THE NECK A N D THE LONG M USCLES OF T H E ARM AND LEGS USUALLY CONTRACT I NTO I N VOLUNTARY SPASM ' " THE PHYSIOLOGICAL THEY A R E NOT H U M A N . A S TENSION ELEVATES. THEY HAVE BEEN A D. HUMAN SEXUAL RESPONSE. . BODY.LIGHT I L L U M I NATION A LLOWS OBSERVATION A N D RECORD­ ING WITHOUT D I STORTION. THE HUMAN ELEMENT H A SN'T A LTOG E T H E R ORGASM I C CONTRACTI O N S O F THE UTERUS HAVE BEEN RECORDED BY BOTH I NTRAUTE R I N E AND ABDOMI NALLY PLACED THAT ELECTRODES." BUT WHAT DOES AN I M PARTI A L A PPROACH DO TO HUMAN S E X U A LITY? WHAT DOES IT DO TO A P­ PROACH IT L I K E A N Y OTH ER PHENOM E NON.JUSTED TO HER SIZE. A N D A SEX. SEPARATE PH ENOM ENON AT THAT. COLD. IS WIDE OPEN. ELECTRODES IN POS I T I O N . UTERI N E BOTH TEC H N I Q U E S I N D I CATE HAVE ONSET OF THE DISAPP E A R E D: T H E D E PTH AND RATE OF P E N I L E THRUST I S STI L L DETE R M I NED BY THE I N DI V I D U A L'S OWN DEMA NDS. A R TI F I C I A L C