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‘‘Transcendence’’

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PROBLEM

REACTION

SOLUTION(?)

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‘’A society whose citizens refuse to see and investigate the facts,
who refuse to believe that their government and their media will
routinely lie to them and fabricate a reality contrary to verifiable
facts, is a society that chooses and deserves the Police State
Dictatorship it's going to get."

Now that everyone knows what the Matrix is, the time is right to ask the following

Are we condemned to existence in a charade consisting of an infinite number of concomitant levels, with
each level convincing us by carefully crafted perceptual games that it is – indeed – THE REAL AND
ONLY? If we are indeed experiencing such existence, then how does this impact us and our surroundings?
Are we even aware of the impact? How can we be sure? With such intangibility, can this phenomenon
ever be understood on a more profound level than philosophical contemplation?

Do we all exist in a branecracy?

If yes, what then? If not, what then … ?

Ad Infinitum

or

Ad Absurdum

What will you choose? What will you do?

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PROLOGUE

Manhattan, summer of 2009. The weather is fantastic. And that is where it ends. Welcome to the
‘’summer of hell.’’ The rest is pretty much going down the drain. It turned out that open-mindedness and
lateral thinking are – yet again – right on the money: the Greatest Depression is no longer an empty
slogan that can be brushed off on a whim. No one can deny the gravity of the situation anymore. No
more verbal shenanigans.

‘’I don’t know what to do’’ Jake Trenton, a middle-aged Caucasian CEO of a transnational corporation
mutters to himself.

‘’There’s no shame in that’’ Adam Nowak - a twenty-four year old genius that some mistake for an albino
– responds with a soothing tinge. ‘’We’re facing a financial tsunami and there’s nothing we can do about
it.’’

‘’It’s just…’’ Trenton clenches his fists and looks at Nowak, who is standing next to a window, looking at
an endless ocean of skyscrapers.

‘’Don’t do that yourself’’ Adam interjects firmly, then turns around and looks at Jake. ‘’We are dealing
with extraneous circumstances. We will adapt. The crisis to end all crises had to come someday. Current
status quo, current intermediopia, the economy, the weather, the cosmos, the viruses, Codex
Alimentarius - all united against us … a one-off perfect storm. A sui generis event surpassing all other
calamities ever recorded by the mainstream history of humanity.’’

Trenton’s mental processes are immersed in silence. Suddenly, he leaves the conference room. Walks out.
Just like that.

Adam is not surprised. He knows that there is nothing that he can do for Trenton. His lateral thinking
skills will no longer help this company.

‘’Well’’ he probes Manhattan again. ‘’Every man for himself now.’’

Two days later, Adam receives a notification. Jake Trenton is dead. Suicide. Adam does not even want to
know the rest.

‘’Some people are unable to function when everything around them crumbles’’ he muses. ‘’They think
they are all tough and prepared but their minds cannot fathom a crisis of global proportions. Trenton.
Poor Trenton. I am not surprised. I knew this would happen. Eventually. I hope he has gone to a better
place.’’

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Nowak’s own plans await. He gets a cab and finds himself at the JFK international airport.

‘’I just hope they haven’t suspended all flights to Heathrow’’ his mind is filled with images depicting
various ‘’hypothetical’’ scenarios as he enters the airport. ‘’Let me just scan what’s happening here …
soldiers there … police here … the moment of truth … all clear.’’

Nowak’s luck does not seem to abandon him. Not this time. He soon – miraculously - boards a plane to
London.

‘’How ironic’’ he looks at a supercell while on the plane and smiles. ‘’I always wanted the system to be
gone. I am not so sure now. I am unsure I want to face the alternative.’’

‘’Sir! Please leave the Church now!’’ a police officer bullhorns a message towards me. ‘’Our directives
are clear! The population is to be contained!’’

Contained. Meaning indefinite internment and subsequent certain death. Ever since they have declared
martial law there is no coming back to the old way of life. I have decided to visit the City as there is
nothing more I can do – the situation is beyond volatile, with level six pandemic alerts, economic
meltdowns and humanity in total disarray. Every I know – or should I say knew – is dead. Maybe it is
better that way, to be honest. I have never been much of a team player, though – when necessary – I
know how to put a proper mask on. The time has come to re-evaluate the priorities governing my life. I
know that when I leave the Church I am going to die. They are not going to take me anywhere – they are
going to shoot. En masse.

I have been preparing for this moment. I have always felt that something is not right, that old ‘’splinter in
my mind’’ feeling. I am going to die but – at least – I know that the world I am experiencing, this human
interpretation of existence is by no means normal! Life agrees with me! I have analyzed every single
variable back and forth … and my conclusion is simple. This world is no longer a place to be. The time
has come to move on, however poetic it may sound.

I know they are going to storm the Church any minute now. I have decided to die inside. I am waiting.
Patiently. And yet, despite all I have gathered I still have my doubts about existence and its nature. Let’s
hope I am – at least partly – correct.

I hear a smacking sound. I know what it means. I look at a statue of Jesus, not knowing why as I am not
exactly a linear viewer of existence. Still, something has prompted me to do so. I approach an altar.

‘’Sir!’’ I hear an exclamation.

I stand up and face them. More than ten to get to one man. I smile and spread my arms, immersed in
silence. I notice many red dots on my chest Five seconds later, with my arms still spread, I feel a numbing
sensation. I do not even want to look down. I know what this sensation means. Two seconds later, I
collapse on the floor right in front of the altar. As I lie in a pool of blood, I see a man towering above
me.

‘’Thank you for proving me right’’ I mumble in the throes of inevitable demise.

Have I committed suicide? I believe that the answer is no.

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That Cliché Flash of Light …

A sensation overwhelms my body, a sensation I cannot possibly fathom. I find myself in front of a
structure I have never seen before. My neurons ignite to find an answer. Surprisingly enough, I do not
feel shocked or bewildered by the fact that I have died not so long ago. After three seconds of mental
perusal, the answer becomes clear.

‘’This is that Church in Ethiopia I have read about!’’

The weather is fantastic, my wounds are gone. I look exactly the same as before. I rush toward the temple
to find if the mystical guardian is there. I look at a main entrance and – sure enough – there he is. An old
man is just sitting there on the steps, looking at the sky above. Clothing covers his body from head to toe.

‘’Excuse me?’’ I approach the guardian. ‘’Can you help me?’’

He does not do anything, just keeps looking at the sky. I am unsure if he is going to understand me at all,
but something tells me that the place I am in now operates according to a completely different paradigm.
I just sense it. Certain stages of emotional adjustment are simply non-existent.
The man looks at me for split second. ‘’Inside.’’

My innate curiosity forces me to rush inside the Church, almost tripping over the sentinel. He does not
seem even remotely fazed by my actions.

I enter the Church. The beams of light dimly permeate the interior. I look around in awe and wonder
who created this architectural marble. I also wonder if the architect applied the principle of golden ratio
to erect it.

‘’This is much bigger inside than I assumed’’ I thought.

Suddenly, an epiphany strikes me. I simply know all there is to know.

In a cliché flash of light, I depart.

PART ONE: EXPLORING INFINITY

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Chapter One: The Law of Reverse

‘’Absence of Evidence is Not Evidence of Absence’’

I find myself in the suburbs of London, England.

‘’It’s rather hot around here’’ I’m thinking out loud, looking around at pine and maple trees bathing in
the summer Sun. ‘’I really find it hard to believe, my conditioned mind does I mean, despite dying … this
is one wild roller-coaster.’’

The deal is simple. I infiltrate the mansion and save the girl. I can’t allow her to die, I can’t allow her to
be part of some snuff movie.

I am ready.

I shape-shift in the blink of an eye; I become one of the key cult members. I approach the mansion where
the sacrificial ritual is about to take place. It is clear to me that surveillance equipment infests the place.
Still, I move firmly as no one can possibly expose me at that particular point in time.

‘’How can I help you?’’ a pleasant female voice can be heard coming from the device attached to a gate.

‘’I’m addicted to life’’ I state in a guttural manner.

‘’Welcome back, Zeus’’ the copper gate is slowly opening. Nothing can be seen from outside as the entire
compound is surrounded by a tall wooden fence, not to mention a huge hedge right behind the fence.
You also cannot see anything inside the mansion as every single window is covered by white bunker-like
shutters. Despite people walking back and forth not far from the mansion, despite other dwellings …
nobody knows anything or simply does not want to know.

I enter. Beautiful mixed forest can be seen hiding the mansion.

‘’So sad, so sad indeed that such depravity is taking place inside this very minute’’ I muse as a feeling of
gloom strikes me akin to a vibrational wave.

‘’This way, Zeus’’ a stocky security tells me to follow him. He does not even pay attention to that pretty
twelve-year old blonde girl next to me. He has probably detached himself from all of it. She just follows
me, I possess the power of hypnosis beyond your wildest dreams.

I enter the modern mansion. I am greeted by an attractive woman in her thirties. The zeal in her eyes is
contagious. If I did not know ... no wonder cults are so successful. (On the other hand, if every single
outcome is real – see what I mean?) I do not know whether she is a victim of mind control herself or not;
she keeps rolling her eyes which would indicate that she is indeed another product of trauma-based mind-

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control. I have to act quickly before the High Council returns. It is daytime so they are out there,
probably at work. The ‘’law of reverse’’ makes sure they never appear to be even a little ‘’off.’’ They are
respected, they are influential. Their rituals are not just about depravity. First and foremost, the rituals are
about power from beyond. Whatever you might think of it is irrelevant; what counts is their conviction.

‘’Here she is, Zeus’’ the woman has just taken me to a soundproof room underneath the basement. To
access the room, one needs to play a certain melody by using the ‘’home cinema’’ set. Strange but
effective.

The woman leaves me alone. Just me and the victim now. I see cages, to the left and to the right,
probably used to imprison the would-be victims and cult brood mares. A wide corridor unfolds in front of
me. On the other side of it I see an adolescent blonde girl. Intelligence can be seen in her eyes. She has
been placed upon a Satanic altar with her limbs aligned to create a pentagram-like structure. It is unclear
whether she is from a multi-generational Satanic family or someone accidental. She notices me and utters
a faint plea

‘’Help me … please …’’

‘’Rest now’’ I approach the altar and place my hand upon her forehead. ‘’You’ll be taken to a better
place.’’

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Chapter Two: Deliverance

‘’But let the Lydians be pardoned; and lay on them this command, that they may not revolt or be
dangerous to you; then, I say, and forbid them to possess weapons of war, and command them to wear
tunics under their cloaks and buskins on their feet, and to teach their sons lyre-playing and song and
dance and huckstering. Then, O King, you will soon see them turned to women instead of men; and thus
you need not fear lest they revolt.’’

‘’How am I supposed to rescue her if this thing controls reality?’’ I brainstorm while standing on a red
wooden floor.

‘’Just look around, there is no hope for her. She is totally girlified’’ part of me is screaming.

‘’You gotta understand that I can’t allow something like this to go on’’ I continue the soliloquy. ‘’I’m
confident that referring to him as ‘’she’’ is a big mistake. It’s still a ‘’he’’ and he’s been dragged here by
an inter-dimensional interference. I’m not gonna stand by and watch it happen. I can’t.’’

‘’Alright’’ another part of me responds. ‘’So how are we gonna handle this? You do understand it’s only
a matter of proverbial time before this thing gets to you?’’

‘’Yeah, I can’t even shape-shift here, I can’t do anything’’ I conclude and add. ‘’This means I gotta find a
way to isolate the victim and explain the situation. Then – somehow – take him with me and hope that
the curse breaks.’’

‘’You do realize that girlification is a very powerful spell, don’t you?’’ another accurate observation.

‘’Of course I do!’’ I exclaim but quickly realize how dangerous this can be. ‘’But listen, I don’t have much
time before this entity gets to me. I can’t do anything here, it’s like The Trainman.’’

I look around and notice a book next to a Venetian mirror. ‘’Yeah’’ I nod, peering into the document.
‘’This is her life. All described. What she does. And when she does it.’’

‘’Interesting … horseback riding, ballet, piano … billiards … magician’s helper … I’m gonna have to use
the info somehow.’’

‘’Now imagine doing all that in that feathery dress’’ a thought appears in my mind. ‘’This is too
humiliating to survive but the entity made sure no one could off themselves.’’

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‘’I didn’t realize the gravity of the situation’’ I mutter to myself. ‘’I gotta act now’’ I nod vigorously.

‘’There’s no time for wallowing in self-pity.’’

‘’Are you sure this forest is a good place for surreptitious analyses?’’ my soliloquy continues.

‘’No better one than this one.’’

‘’My current form is not exactly the best for this assignment’’ I am thinking out loud. ‘’I should have
anticipated … what the fuck, get rid of should! ’’

‘’Fuck anticipation’’ I continue the silent exchange of thoughts. ‘’Fuck it. I can’t always predict every
single variable in a given equation.’’

‘’Alright’’ I nod. ‘’So what do I do?’’ I visualize his schedule in front of me.

‘’According to the schedule, she’s gonna arrive for her horseback performance soon. After that, in
around fifteen minutes, she’s gonna be passing next to this forest. THIS is my chance.’’

‘’There she is!’’ I exclaim in a fit of ecstasy.

‘’Shut the fuck up!’’ I hear a reminder.

‘’Right.’’

‘’Damn, that’s interesting. I never saw anyone doing horseback riding in high heels. Why can’t she just
take it off?’’

‘’Given the nature of the entity, it’s more than likely that the dress is cursed and she doesn’t have to
focus on any bodily functions’’ my keen discernment tells me.

‘’What a strange set of aesthetics’’ I cannot help but conclude. ‘’Though – as relatively ashamed as I am
– I find it pleasing to the eye.’’

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‘’I understand reality so my spin on it tends to be different to that presented by the consensus’’ I add my
two cents and conjure up an image of the plan. ‘’Horse jumping, canter … nothing more for – for now.’’

‘’How much longer?’’ a question looms. ‘’Those heels … wow.’’

‘’We’re getting there’’ I reply. ‘’Do I remember what to do?’’

‘’Yeah’’ my schizophrenic episode continues. ‘’All clear.’’


The girl is prancing on her horse through the forest. Another chore has been scheduled for today

‘’THE MAGICIAN’S HELPER.’’

There is always that spotlight focusing a powerful beam on her black heels when she is on the stage. She
even curtsies.

‘’FREEZE!’’ I rush out of the bushes.

The girl squeaks and almost falls off the horse. Fortunately for her, she re-gains control of the reigns.

‘’Do not be afraid’’ I say, tentatively. ‘’I am not here to hurt you.’’

The girl looks at me with a sweet smile.

‘’Could you please tell me who you are, pretty please?’’

I know the curse is powerful and the girl is not going to grasp the concept quickly. She has been here far
too long. All I can do to end the vicious circle of bondage is escape. Right now. And hope that the curse
breaks when consensus holding it is no longer the dominant force.

‘’She does look kinda like a feathered Little Red Riding Hood’’ my pesky mind comments.

‘’Thank you for that astute assessment of yours, now be quiet’’ I respond with a touch of hostility and
switch my attention to the confused damsel immediately. ‘’Yes, could you please dismount the horse?’’

‘’Sir, forgive me, pretty please, but I have to …’’

‘’Yes’’ I interrupt by raising my right hand. ‘’I am HIS messenger.’’

Upon hearing this, the girl starts to blush. It appears that she feels guilty she has not recognized me. I feel
a little weird as well, I am dealing with a highly idiosyncratic circumstance here.

‘’Now’s the time!’’ an imperative strikes my mind. ‘’NOW OR NEVER!’’

A cliché flash of light swoops down on me again.

I find myself in the room. I use ‘’the’’ because it is the room where it all started.

‘’Damn!’’ she appears to be catatonic. ‘’Still sitting on this chair like a flippin’ swane.’’
‘’Give it time’’ I soliloquy - ize. ‘’Just give it time.’’

Thank whoever, it seems to be working. The heels are beginning to disintegrate, the feathers slowly turn
into pants/trousers. When it comes to more details, I am really not that interested.

I am the voyeur for the next five minutes. Just to make sure.

Eventually, he gets back to normal. He does not remember anything from the descent into girlishness.

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‘’What about the time, however relative?’’

‘’All has been arranged. Not a single deviation.’’

Let us hope that inter-dimensional overlaps are not that common. Let us not even ponder where did this
entity acquire its gender perceptions. Let us not even ponder whether such power is waiting to be
harvested …

Chapter Three: Better Luck This Time

“Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because
it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your
religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not
believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation
and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of
one and all, then accept it and live up to it.”

‘’What the hell just happened?’’ asks a bewildered cult leader turned contactee.

‘’You are in the middle of a desert somewhere on Earth’’ I reply. ‘’I’m here to warn you.’’

‘’Oh … it is you!’’ the contactee exclaims. ‘’Can I see you? I have NEVER seen you! It’s all telepathic so
far!’’

‘’I’m aware of that’’ I respond in my transatlantic variety of English. ‘’You must understand, you’re in
danger. We’ve come here to provide you with a choice.’’

‘’What are you talking about!?’’ the visibly excited contactee continues his rave. ‘’Can I at least see you,
it’s so dark around here!’’

‘’In due time’’ I reply. ‘’In due time. There are people who are going to try to kill you if you do not fulfill
their wishes.’’

‘’What do you mean exactly?’’ the fan of George Adamski and Billy Meier replies.

‘’As you know, the situation on your planet is highly unstable and you hold the key.’’
‘’What kind?’’ he continues.

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‘’They will terrorize you. They will demand to be taken to a better place. They believe you’ve got the
power.’’

‘’You know I do!’’ he exclaims again. ‘’You’re here, are you not?!’’

‘’This is not something to be taken lightly’’ I shift to more assertive tone. ‘’You must understand, we’re
here because we know you’re a fake. We’re here to take you away.’’
‘’What are you talking about!?’’ the man nears ecstasy. ‘’You can do anything to prove me right!’’

‘’I won’t do anything, though. You’ve been deceiving your followers for more than ten years. I don’t
want you to die, that’s why you’ll be transported to another brane. Consider your involuntary
transportation a punishment.’’

‘’OH I’LL BE DELIGHTED TO COME WITH YOU!’’

‘’I’ll only transport you to another dimension. You’ll mysteriously … disappear. I’m unsure as to why I’m
doing this, why you – the conman. Still – I believe – there’s good in you. You weren’t always … of
sound judgment.’’

‘’Bu…’’

‘’The conversation is over. You’ll thank me later.’’

ZAP.

Chapter Four: Paradigm Shift

“Intelligence is the capacity to receive, decode and transmit information efficiently. Stupidity is blockage
of this process at any point. Bigotry, ideologies etc. block the ability to receive; robotic reality-tunnels
block the ability to decode or integrate new signals; censorship blocks transmission.”

‘’Another reality, same problems’’ I mutter to myself as I scan through the documents. ‘’Very nice room,
though. Very cozy. The weather … could be better. How symbolic.’’

This is what some would call ‘’an invasion of privacy.’’ But I am doing this for the greater good. A young
man, not much younger than me before all went bust, needs some help with his life. Alright, let’s be
blunt. Life – or rather its human interpretation – pisses him off. He does not understand why things are
the way they are, he does not understand why human race keeps shooting itself in the foot. I am here to
give him a choice. Right now, I am sure, he is attending a lecture dealing with linguistics. Not a very

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enchanting subject, or – should I say – not a very enchanting lecturer. Yeah, that would make more
sense. You see, people identify their fields of study with lecturer. That is a big mistake. But people do it
all the time because not many have the intellectual capacity to understand what they are actually doing,
what they want from life. Everyone is sort of mediocre – could be higher but stay lower. Do not tower
above others because you are going to be the first one to get struck by lightning. You would not believe
how many realities are suffering from the virus of memetic pollution.

Anyhow. I have noticed something interesting on his desk. Come, read it with me.

Why?

The ultimate question.

The propeller of human thought.

Many questions were answered thanks to our three-letter friend. But some persist, like a splinter in your mind
that you cannot really reconcile with your inner sense of well-being. This is when all kinds of individuals
scrutinize their psyches for answers.

Meet Adam, a ten-year-old Caucasian boy. Visualize yourself inside a class room with him sitting somewhere
deep behind enemy lines. Twenty peers scattered around.

A new priest comes in. Hardly Aryan(racially speaking), around thirty years of age. You can tell he is a
charismatic soul. You can tell he is intelligent. Ok, relatively intelligent, for all is a matter of comparison.

‘’Hello’’ he says, smiling slightly.

(You would expect some more. Not this time. This priest decides to show how brilliant his mind is. Follow me.
We will stand in the corner and observe carefully. Like existential voyeurs lurking in Plato's shadows. Like
rezoners who understand the mind of God.)

(In the meantime, Adam keeps laughing inside. Here is why.)

‘’Killing all those women. You killed them because they were beautiful?’’

‘’You mean hypothetically.’’

‘’I want to unveil the biggest mystery of all before you!’’ the priest proclaims in a fit of exuberance.

Silence permeates the room. Everyone is waiting for the priest’s memorable words. The priest looks at the class
and asks, his voice full of merriment

‘’Do you know why girls wear dresses and boys wear pants?’’

Adam is more than impatient. He wants to heat the answer now. Will this be some sort of an epic … epiphany?
Tension builds up. The priest’s roving eye only emphasize the significance of the moment. He then looks at the
ceiling and – out of the blue – proudly proclaims

‘’Because girls are girls and boys are boys!’’

Adam nearly falls off his chair as the bolt of epiphany strikes.

A fantastic piece. It does encapsulate the dilemma facing many civilizations out there. I think it would be
a good idea to peruse further. Not far from his piece I find the following note,

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США прекращают использование секретных тюрем в других странах. Об этом заявил
директор ЦРУ Леон Панетта. Оказалось, что тайные пыточные спецслужб есть не
только в отстающих азиатских странах, но и в развитых государствах Европы. И все
они будут закрыты. Между тем, ФБР,

которое тоже было замечено в использовании секретных тюрем, не поддержало своих


коллег из ЦРУ. Так исчезнут ли американские секретные тюрьмы?

How come people claim they know all that is happening around them on different worlds …

How lucky we are. My target is back. I am an adept psychologist and I know an open-minded individual
when I see one. He is one of them. Damn, do you think I would even bother if he was not? Exactly. I
cannot reveal to you how exactly it all works, but I have clarified all to our friend. His response? See for
yourself.

‘’If you can provide me with a civilization where men are not drafted just because they happen to have an
appendage while women are explicitly told they are inferior, if you can provide me with a civilization
where taxes are non-existent or their presence flawlessly justified, if you can provide me with a civilization
where individual opinions can turn the world around, if you can provide me with the world where
geopolitical boundaries are sensibly set and I can leave my physical vehicle without condemnation, then
I’m gonna go with you right now.’’
‘’I think I can do that …’’ I respond with a smile on my face. Sensing doubt, I reiterate. ‘’I meant what I
say. You do know we are dealing with infinity, I can take you wherever you want.’’

‘’Why me?’’ his tone inquisitive, if not a little hostile.

‘’Let’s just say that we’re a little bit alike’’ I respond. ‘’I understand you very well and I can help. Again,
I’m serious. I can demonstrate right here. Right now.’’

‘’Very well’’ he nods vigorously. ‘’But if you’re some kind of psycho that has concocted this excuse to …
I just don’t like when I’m expected to take everything for granted and believe in freedom at the same
time. These two are mutually exclusive.’’

I do not respond. Yes, a cliché flash of light swoops down on us again. I have not thought of any more
effective transportation method. Yet.

‘’Feeling any better?’’ I ask him.

‘’What the hell just happened?!’’ he exclaims.

‘’Nothing much. I used your subconscious mind to take you to the place where you really wanna be.’’

‘’This is it!?’’

‘’Absolutely. Everything’s been arranged.’’

‘’Wha…’’

I am gone. Mission accomplished. I know that once he understands his new home, thoughts about
euthanasia will be gone in instant. It is truly wondrous what a change of environment can do to you.

PART TWO: CONTROLLED CONVERSATIONS

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Chapter Five: Meet Miss Anne Fienstein

‘’Throughout the history of our species there have been only a handful of real human beings; for what are
we, if not teachable beasts? Plant the seeds, and they will grow; but our minds could never have
spontaneously generated them.’’

‘’Hello Emily’’ doctor Anne Fienstein, a middle-aged Caucasian woman with a voice and hair hardened by
smoking, opens the door leading to her office and waves her hand gently. ‘’Please come in.’’

I smile. I have altered my form a little. Right now, I am a twelve year old white blonde girl. Intelligent.
Pretty. Long hair parted in the middle, very Scandinavian. Very golden ratio. I am wearing a short red
dress. All has its purpose and it is about to be revealed. I enter the office and eye the doctor carefully as
he is looking somewhere out there, at the skyscrapers.

‘’Emily, please sit down’’ she shows me a couch. ‘’I hope you’re comfortable?’’

‘’Yes, Miss Fienstein’’ I keep my legs together and smile.

‘’Just Anne, please’’ she responds calmly. ‘’Emily, do you know why are you here?’’

‘’I was told that my parents were concerned about my demeanor stemming from – what they believe – is
a result of my preoccupation with fantasy rather than reality?’’

‘’Yes Emily’’ the psychologist sits next to me. Apparently, she believes that close contact is necessary. ‘’If
I could, I would like to discuss them with you.’’

‘’Of course’’ I nod. ‘’I can’t discuss it with anyone else, so I’m all for it.’’

‘’That’s nice to hear’’ she replies with a smile on her face. ‘’I analyzed the papers provided by your
parents. You are aware of this, yes?’’

I nod. I have orchestrated this, after all. But poor Miss Fienstein does not need to know that little devilish
detail.

‘’Talking to me about your rich inner life, I believe this will help you when venturing into the unknown.’’

‘’Sounds good’’ I nod vigorously as the woman places my notebook on a small table directly in front of
us.

‘’Emily, would it be a problem if I asked you questions first?’’

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‘’That’s fine’’ I reply politely, looking at my hands and touching gently. ‘’I’m curious to hear your take
on this, Anne.’’

She smiles. I am always careful when someone smiles. You never know what it really means.

‘’Could you explain to me what did you mean by this fragment?’’ she hands me the notebook.

First, you activate the thought pattern sequencer and the sequencer opens a portal to a suitable universe.
Suitable = no major external influential factors such as different laws of physics, different biology, et al.
Second, you note all the issues you would like to compare – as they are handled in your universe.
Third, you enter the parallel universe and observe how are the issues handled there.
Fourth, you go back in time in the parallel universe in order to find the geneses of this particular approach to
the issues you wrote down.
Fifth, you note down your observations.
Sixth, you re-enter your universe.
Seventh, you compare both ways and extrapolate the divergence.
The divergence equals the answer to the nature/nurture/other factors in question.

‘’Basically, by observing two universes that are similar in nature we can come to conclusions about the
age-old nature versus nurture dilemma.’’

‘’Alright’’ Fienstein responds.

‘’Let me guess’’ I continue. ‘’You wouldn’t expect a little girl to have thoughts like that, would you?’’

‘’No no!’’ exclaims Fienstein. ‘’That’s … remarkable.’’

‘’Still’’ I press further. ‘’Please admit that you expect something along the lines of Barbies and new
dresses?’’

‘’To be honest’’ the professional replies. ‘’Yes, I wasn’t sure whether you really had written all of that by
yourself. I was skeptical. Now it is obvious to me that you are the author.’’

‘’What was it that convinced you?’’ my question is filled with a tinge of sarcasm.

‘’The way you phrased the answer’’ she responds. ‘’I apologize if you thought that I somehow
underestimated your intellectual prowess.’’

‘’That’s fine’’ I tell her. ‘’I get that a lot. Not many people expect someone like me to have such …
profundity in them, as they call it. Sad really, I must admit. I’m not some pretentious fool playing
around, I’m a normal human being trying to understand existence. Why is that so strange?’’

‘’I think you know the answer to that one’’ Fienstein responds firmly, yet facetiously.

‘’I think I do’’ I place my hands upon my knees and look deep into the woman’s eyes. I do believe that
the eyes are the windows to the soul. ‘’This is going to be a one long analysis, am I right?’’

‘’Not necessarily’’ the psychologist replies. ‘’Your parents were direct, they told me they’re just too
stupid to grasp your mind sometimes. I’m here to try to … explain it to them and somehow determine if
you are not …’’

‘’In danger of schizophrenia and other degenerative mental conditions?’’ I interject and ask my sarcasm-
filled question.

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‘’Yes’’ she responds, pretending that sarcasm is just not there. ‘’I’m not here to judge you. I want you to
know that. I’m here to listen and learn. I did learn a lot and I am genuinely interested in hearing more.
You developed quite a philosophical system and I cannot hide the fact that I am impressed.’’

‘’… and you don’t seem to be a member of those easily awed types’’ I smile slightly.

‘’I never throw compliments around unless they are due’’ she tells me but I see hesitation in her eyes. She
quickly adds ‘’Well, if I see someone is really depressed and needs it, then I might bend the rules a little.’’
I snicker in a friendly manner and then glance at the notebook. She realizes it within seconds and
continues with ‘’her line of questioning.’’

Chapter Six: Unified Field Theory

I. UNIFIED FIELD THEORY

This is how I view life as in THS universe. Does not apply universally, apart from the first point.

1. The Unknown Principle

There is nothing that can be ascertained for sure, this is why I am obliged to call the highest principle
‘unknown.’ It is a malleable infinity but nothing more can be stated as to its purpose or nature. Moreover, the
questions of purpose and nature can also be classified as fallacies.
2. Prison warder consciousness (The instigator) – An unknown force created as a representation of the
unknown principle

The mysterious force that seems to be manipulating the game. The purpose, if exists, is unknown. The nature
of the force is unknown as well – it is possible, however, to determine some of the traits by looking at the local
spectrum. The question of this force’s intentions is unclear.

3. The Causality – The template of existence on an objective level

The force created the causality in its image, akin to God creating ‘Adam and Eve’ in his. The template of
existence is only objective to the prison warder consciousness as it can understand everything without smoke
and mirrors.
4. The Super Brane – Realities interweaving

The template created by the consciousness is based on realities that interweave with each other, thus creating a
wide array of the (so-called) ‘‘anomalous phenomena.’’

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5. The Brane – One Particular Reality

Heaven, hell and the physical world are all branes created for the purpose of manipulating the subjects after
they have died. By inducing certain thought patterns, they can manifest whatever is desired after so-called
‘death.’ There is no escape from the manipulation, as the same thought patterns continue to be present
throughout the brane continuum.
6. Universe – The perception of the brane

The perception of the existential template is always subjective, and very often taken for granted.
7. Habitat – The local milieu

The perception of the existential template can be manipulated, even inside the subjectivity itself. The
consciousness seems to be targeting the local milieu by implementing the knowledge contained in the points
above. The purpose of such action is unknown, the only conjecture is that it is to suppress the potential of the
subjects by keeping them entangled within ‘divide and conquer’ game. There are certain methods in place,
however, that can be discerned, if careful studies of the local milieu are conducted. Since the local milieux do
differ from one another, one can only focus on a particular example; from there, one can discern an underlying
principle. The manipulation on Earth can be classified as:
1.Create the ‘contention layer’ before one can consciously defy/define it by suppressing the knowledge about
the brain/DNA nature and functioning. The latter makes the following possible
Gender identity

The ‘Pink and Blue’ syndrome

Family identity

‘Respect thine elders’

‘Blood is thicker than water’

Race identity

‘I am Aryan so I am better than you, Nigger’

National identity

‘My place of birth is better than yours’

Linguistic Identity

My language is superior to yours

Economic identity

‘I am more affluent than you’

Anthropocentric identity

‘‘I am human so I am superior to everything else that is alive because only I am sentient’’
Implemented through
Parental Conditioning

‘’Ponzi’’ Economy

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Peer Pressure

Education system

Societal Stimuli

Self-Imposition

‘’Natural’’ Disasters

Hegelian Dialectic

Electromagnetic / Food / Air Pollutants

Concoction Of The Above

The Mindset Behind The Conditioning

Belief Identity

‘My belief is the only way to view the world; yours is wrong/naive’

‘My reality is the only prism through which I view the world; everyone else can be measured using the same
prism as mine – but I am not consciously aware of the former and the latter’ ‘I am merely trying to guide your
way through life; it is better that way when you do things like they have always been done. You will not re-
invent the wheel.’
2.Let the layer be reinforced by constant external (societal) and internal (thought patterns, emotions) stimuli,
the former and the latter subsequently creating ‘zeitgeist’ issues that only perpetuate the cycle of deception The
above leads to:
Rebel Identity

‘I do not accept what is around me so I fight it’

The latter can involve

Two-layer identity

I do not wish to live my life as is expected of me but I have to maintain an illusion of identities by projecting it
onto others: my interaction is not genuine which makes me feel hollow and frustrated because I know that how
others interact is either genuine(their limited response matrix) or also suppressed(which proves the slave-like
reality). I also know that the ‘’Nietzschean principle’’ posits the backwash effect, whereby I become what I
fight.
The above points can lead to

‘’Cognitive Dissonance Syndrome’’

Hypocrisy identity / DID / Social Obligatory Personas

The above leads to

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The ‘’Syndrome’’ Family

The " Every " Syndrome

‘We are all alike. Thus, my idea of freedom equals yours.‘

The ''Manque'' Syndrome

‘I need to focus on a multitude of variables in order to sustain myself’

The Tantalizement Syndrome

‘I wish to leave but I am not allowed to do it openly as the government will not allow euthanasia due to
ambiguous civilizational notions.’
Leading To A Response Of Human Organisms

A. Existential Holders

Inner Storm Resulting In

Stabilization

Suicide

Homicide

Suicide plus homicide

Permanent mental health facility commitment

The ‘’Zeitgeist Bubble’’ and ultimate destruction of a civilization?

3.The aim of the two above points

Nature versus nurture : Or is it nature deriving from nurture?

The behavioral patterns become ingrained within human DNA as a result of controlled
nurturing which creates a vicious circle of control beyond the slave’s perception : there
are none so hopelessly enslaved as those who falsely believe they are free

Thus

There is no need to discover the true magnitude of life when every answer has been
provided as a result of the implementation of the points above

Thus

Anyone who is trying to find out what is going on in the world is labeled ‘mad’ or ‘dangerous’ or ‘derisive.’

Thus

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It is highly unlikely that the above is a result of humanity’s developmental happenstance Thus If the above is
considered to be ‘sane’ then indeed the world has gone insane by rejecting the idea of a conspiracy on an
unimaginable scale.

Observed Problems

Relativity Principle

Percentage of the brain usage ?

Practical verification methods and their feasibility ?

People’s inability to cease being forum mouthers .

Solutions

Mathematical construct involving dry calculus with finesse of genius connecting the dots.

Continuous Mileual[ … +N…3 +(3+N)…] X Infinity Alternator.

Feasibility Of The Solution

100 %.

Concurrent Implementation Methods

Self-Termination
Nirvana
Mathematical Construct
Mono atomic gold – true reason behind gold’s status ?

We continue our Freudian analysis. She wants to go on until the end, figure that one out. This is going to
take a while, but I can take it. I want to take it. She is my choice, after all.

‘’This is very interesting’’ she begins. ‘’You have created a whole new existential paradigm.’’

‘’That’s correct, some loose philosophical thoughts’’ I respond and cannot help to notice that she simply
cannot grasp how someone like me could have come up with a philosophical system like that.

‘’I have noted down some points I would like to elaborate on’’ she signifies.

I nod and wait. What a moment of suspense. Exciting, really.

‘’So basically, you assume that there’s a force controlling everything? Is it fair to say you believe in
God?’’

‘’In a way’’ I respond. ‘’I don’t think I’m gonna be able to convey what I mean exactly.’’

She keeps pushing me to ‘’convey’’ it. I politely explain that it cannot be done on a whim. She gives up
and decides to move on. Thank ‘’God.’’

‘’If I understood you correctly, we are experiencing a stage you have dubbed ‘’intermediopia?’’

‘’Yes’’ I nod. ‘’This is the stage where all is gonna be revealed.’’

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‘’As in?’’

‘’As in everything clashing. Out of chaos comes order. The order can be a totalitarian dystopia or
something far more pleasant – something that we might call a utopia, but – of course – I doubt that the
latter would be possible, given human nature as it’s been cultivated.’’

‘’The pink and blue syndrome’’ Anne Fienstein looks at me piercingly. ‘’This is a real phenomenon to
you?’’

‘’Absolutely’’ I nod vigorously. ‘’The fact that I am wearing this short red dress right now, not to mention
my long hair, is clearly determined by cultural influences. Ethos, if you like. Where did the memes come
from? Who is responsible for them? Going back to the syndrome, a total reversal occurred. Pink was the
color of manhood until the end of the nineteenth century. It’s always interesting to observe the
undercurrents of our collective mind.’’

Fienstein is visibly impressed. She is probably screaming inside. Perhaps she is beginning to feel inferior?
Aww. Too bad. I can see her scribbling something in her notebook. She then quickly raises her head and
looks at me with a smile on her face.

‘’You don’t find dresses and long hair to be expressions of femininity?’’

‘’Universally speaking?’’ I reply.

She nods gently.

‘’Of course not’’ I continue. ‘’All is socially constructed. But also, mind you, I am not a feminist or any
other cultural theorist. I am a cultural atheist. As much as I can be, as much as the memetic pollution
allows me to. You did read about my DNA argument, right?’’

‘’Yes. Please elaborate?’’

‘’Even if we consider cultural influences, it seems that men were allowed to wear dresses until the
Renaissance. The same with long hair, why did Samson’s hair represent power while in modern culture
they tend to represent submission and subconscious sexual messages that a woman is healthy?’’

‘’You think modern culture is full of contradiction?’’ she asks me.

‘’No’’ I shake my head. ‘’You do remember my parallel reality idea, right?’’

Anne Fienstein nods.

‘’I truly think that we gotta study the cultural changes by implementing my method. Other than that, we
can only rely on people that witnesses important social changes, to ask them what were the causes. We
also gotta remember that they only see the result and might have missed the cause. If we cannot do that,
we’re doomed to talk and analyze, to earn academic degrees based upon conjecture. But hey, why stop it
when it’s such a cash cow?’’

I can see confusion in Fienstein’s eyes. I think she has taken it personally. Not my intention at all, mind
you. Just an accident. Besides, she is the psycho. She is used to dealing with psychos without certificates,
surely? So there’s nothing to feel sorry for. Forget that.

‘’You do realize that your method …’’

‘’Yeah’’ I nod and interject firmly, not even knowing why. ‘’But look at CERN and David Deutsch! I’m
telling you, this is gonna be common knowledge one day, just like reincarnation!’’

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She jots something down in her notebook again. A little sigh can be heard. She glances at me and asks if
we could move forward.

‘’With pleasure’’ I smile mischievously.

Chapter Seven: The Conspiracy Argument

Conspiracy theories get on people’s nerves. Surely, no one of sound mind/intelligent mind would even consider
delving into the world of the unknown and absurd, as that is all this is? Well. Wait a second. I would like to list
some of the arguments that people proudly proclaim when stating ‘’this is a lie’’ and analyze them as impartially
as possible.

‘’This is a con(fidence) game! You just doing it for the money!’’

No one can deny that there are many conmen/women out there. That is understood. We have been given the
brain, however. What I mean by this is the following

Ask them questions. See how they respond. If their responses / evidence is not enough, do your own research.
See if what they told you makes sense or not. Then decide: I’m dealing with a scam / I’ll keep my distance just
to be cautious / I’ll get involved all the way.

Personally, I’d advise keeping your distance and observing what is going on, even if you think it’s a scam but
you DON’T have 100% evidence that this is so. Pay attention to their focus on the money and justification
they give. Research if their justifications make sense or not.

The point is this: dismissing someone just because they do not fit into your box might mean that you missed an
opportunity. Think about that before you hurl abuse at someone you know nothing about.

‘’Where’s the proof!?’’

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A reasonable request. There is a problem, however. The absence of evidence does not prove the evidence of
absence. Just because you have not discovered something does not mean it is not there. It applies to
everything, unfortunately.

I will give you an example: let us suppose that reptilians are real. If your aim is to find them by throwing
everything you have got, then – obviously – your chance of success increases. Still, if you do not find a reptilian
will it mean they are unreal? No. You simply canvassed a particular level of reality, nothing more. Can you
dismiss the possibility, then? No. You can not.

What if you wanted to prove that they do NOT exist? Again, even mainstream evolutionary views would be
against you. See what I mean?

It is easier to claim that you’ve got evidence they don’t exist but then someone comes along and your evidence
– no matter how valid and well-researched – goes down the drain.

‘’You’re mad!’’

This is not a bad thing, actually. Think about it. A phrase ‘’off-the-wall’’ suggests that something is a deviation
from the ‘’norm.’’ If we define the ‘’wall’’ as society, then this clearly suggests we are dealing with a single
entity incapable of higher cognitive functions? In that case, to be dubbed a fruitcake is indeed an honor. So –
in effect – they might be mad according to the consensus but they are absolutely pragmatic and sound
according to reality. Which one do you prefer, consensus or reality? Depends where you are but to broaden
your horizons I’d suggest the latter. Do not confuse the limits of what is possible with what you believe in. They
are NOT the same.

‘’This is hype!’’

Many psychologists will tell you that the world is a simple place with simple rules and any attempt at rendering
it more … cinema-like is simply our inner child screaming to manifest a better reality. There is no doubt that
they are right on one level, many people need the hype to feel involved and all. Still, does that exclude
reptilians and the Illuminati, to give an example? It would if the doctors were omnipotent/omniscient entities
capable of discerning all. Are they? Not by a long shot. Case closed.

A little break. Something to eat. We are ready to continue.

‘’Are you a conspiracy believer?’’ she asks me.

‘’No’’ I shake my head. ‘’I am a reason believer.’’

‘’And by reason you mean?’’ the professional instinctively leans forward.

‘’I’m a reporter without a degree. I try not to judge and go wherever the flow of information takes me.
Believing something because it makes me feel better can be a very slippery slope, especially when bigotry
is faced with hard evidence.’’

‘’Would you believe David Icke that reptilians control the planet and far more beyond it?’’

‘’I have thought about that. I think this is a great investigation topic. Still, even if I do not find any
reptilians, I won’t be able to state they’re non-existent. They might be out there, absence of evidence is
not evidence of absence.’’

‘’Yes, but by that logic even the most ridiculous statement can be justified as real?’’ Fienstein concludes in
a fit of wisdom.

‘’Follow the evidence, in a world of quantum physics and multiverses anything is possible.’’

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‘’So, basically, you need a proper set of circumstances, that’s it?’’

‘’Exactly.’’

Fienstein writes something in her notebook – yet again. I observe her carefully but do not want to know
what is in there. She probably would concoct some cheap story or invoke privacy laws. It seems that we
are speeding up a little.

Chapter Eight: The Zeitgeist Bubble

In case of bipedal species such as humans, the most common scenario can be depicted in a following way

Empire-Fall of the empire-The Dark Ages-Dystopia/Utopia/Civilizational Cycle Completion

Crises: generative without risk when akin to the fall of the Roman empire (no weapons of mass destruction)
and exponentially generative with exponential risk (when weapons of mass destruction are involved).

Two questions – and one observation - remain

A. How did the state of ‘intermediopia’ occur in the first place? Was it accidental or preordained? How can one
ascertain that? Will the methods used to ascertain the problem at hand not be influenced by domestic memetic
pollution?

B. What happens after the period of dystopia/utopia/civilizational cycle completion? Is a civilization an


evolutionary step leading to independent individuals, i.e. hypothetical omnipotent electrons? Can there be
some sort of an evolution going on where some individuals stay behind to remain in a community, whereas
others leave? Is the vicious circle possible? Are we talking about the time-loop? Civilizational cycles, whereupon
many creations existed on the same planet?

C. ‘’The LIFE ‘’and ‘’a life’’ distinction – the mold and its human interpretation, respectively.

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P.S. Individuals who try to implement vigilantism in order to expose the problem of the ‘zeitgeist bubble’ can
be dubbed ‘zeitgeist killers.’ They will target a particular individual that – in their mind – embodies a certain
‘zeitgeist quality.’

The world in which we live is a highly complex one. We are thrust into an edifice full of contradictions and mind
games that few of us can really grasp. Not many people really want to question what is happening around them
and within them; why this is so I am unable to say. People watch movies, people listen, people do this and that.
And yet – somehow – people have become numb, incapable of independence. The system is all they know.
Some will not even acknowledge that the system exists because their minds are not able to look at life and ask
fundamental question

A. Who am I?

B. How did I get here?

C. Where am I going?

D. Why am I going where I am going?

E. Is this really where I want to be going?

F. How can I detect where I want to be going?

G. How can I change my life so that I will be going where I want to be going?

Even if people try to discern the above, they have no idea what to do next. They are scared because there is no
way out. Their ideas, their REAL ideas and desires are often so well-hidden deep beneath the layer of superficial
self-satisfaction that few of them will ever admit what they REALLY want. In essence, people lack

The guts to admit what their REAL desire is – no matter how ‘outrageous’ from a consensual perspective;

A. The guts to admit what the risks involved are;

B. The guts to face the risks and gamble – even if it means ‘‘va banque’’

C. What is the solution? Perhaps only geniuses truly grasp the solution by coping with the aforementioned
points and eradicating any inner doubts they might have.

Let’s assume our goal is to escape the edifice. Literally. How would we go about this? We could implement the
following

A. Live in the woods far away from any signs of civilization


B. Suicide (Existential analysis, the plan, emotional state prior, the situation after)
C. Investigate the conspiracy and gain access to portals/vehicles/et al that are capable of transcending the
prison bars and make us free

Everything mentioned so far requires honesty. Not systemic honesty, but REAL honesty. You need to confess
what your problems are. You need to reconcile your outer life with your inner life. Only then will you be able
to transcend your own conditioned mind.

‘’I can’t help but say that I found this piece very interesting’’ Fienstein’s complimentary tone is a rare
gem. ‘’This ties in with your previous philosophical conclusions?’’

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‘’Yeah’’ I say. ‘’Humanity can be divided into three groups. Group one are the people that accept how
things are and create a defense mechanisms to maintain their inner balance. Group two are the people
that don’t accept what they see and are determined to change it by whatever means necessary; and
finally, group three are the people that want to control the first two. On Earth there is an implicit struggle
of mindsets; the struggle I have dubbed ‘’the zeitgeist bubble.’’

‘’What’s the outcome?’’ Fienstein notes my answer down, I can tell.

‘’The outcome is chaos at first and self-destruction …or something far less unpleasant. I hope you do
realize this isn’t just navel-contemplation, we’re seeing it unfold by the day now.’’

She nods and keeps writing in a fit of maniacal trance.

Chapter Nine: The Paradigms That Be

Writing is different from painting or any other art for that matter. It engages all the senses. A good writer
needs to possess an enormous amount of information. Not just that – the writer needs to expound upon their
knowledge independently, i.e. if there was nothing more coming in, the inner power plant would have to go
on. Otherwise, no matter how much one knows, it is always raw data without any viable input.

It is also interesting to see what motivates people to write. From what I can discern, the following is obvious

A. Profiteers

B. Idealists

C. Torrent – Control

D. Sexual Tension Release

E. The ‘’Enactors“

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Type A - dwells in everyone of us. However, writing just for profit is akin to the communist times when writers
were told to write on demand. And I always wondered who had been writing those nice notes … apart from
the latter, profiteers are writers dealing with ‘’pragmatics.’’ Something devoid of imagination as understood by
the creative writer. It is about precision, conveying the message. The only difference between creative writing
and ‘’expert’’ writing is perception. In creative writing people usually assume it is a concoction. In expert
writing it is believed the text deals with pragmatic matters. So these two types are not that different, after all.

Type B - are the people who feel they have a mission. Their task is to convince you that they have THE answer.
Type A manipulates you consciously; type B does it out of conviction / bigotry even perhaps.

Type C - Torrent control. Writing allows me to describe the concomitance of life via the prism of organized
thoughts. I can see the patterns emerging, creating a unified field theory of social interaction.

Everyone is also a little bit / more than a little bit of type D. Let us face it. This is how humans are wired. Unless
you happen to be genderless (it did occur, do not ask me how!). This is where the old ‘’sublimation’’ versus
‘’the sublime’’ comes in. I have observed a long time ago that the so-called ‘’high culture’’ is awash with sexual
overtones if one cares to look. This is nothing bad, of course, though it is funny to observe all these pompous
fools playing their mating rituals in front of each other while condemning everyone else as being ‘’philistine.’’
What a dichotomy. What a travesty of logic.

Type E - can be very dangerous if a ‘’perfect storm scenario’’ is allowed to develop. Comprising creative writers
and their fans, these people strive to shape reality just as it is in their favorite book/ movie/ celebrity gossip/
belief/ et al. I find the movie ‘’Misery’’ to be very much a possible real-case scenario. This is what type E is
capable of. Fiction and reality intertwine within the mind of the writer (if this writer becomes more fecund,
fine) and the fan (if this fan enters the stage of ‘’filling the void in one’s life’’ then it is time to bolt ).

This is merely a general classification. Not everything is quantifiable. That is understood.

Various types of writers do correspond with their personalities. Thus, type A tends to be organized, methodical.
It searches for grammar mistakes, punctuation, et al. It believes in the consensual interpretation of the rules and
adheres to them. As in writing, so in life. Type C, on the other hand, might be perceived as chaotic and with
only a temporary injection of creativity if observed via the prism of type A. It does not take a genius to realize
the consequences of the ‘’type meeting.’’ Type C might be much more disorganized than type A but, in time,
it can change. In creative writing, this means a major leverage: type C’s spontaneous flow of ideas and the
ability to generate a coherent pattern in a heartbeat puts it way about the rigid and cliché type A. On the other
hand, if type A deals only with ‘’expert’’ writing, then there is no need for spontaneously generated ideas.
Everything is provided for analysis and a person involved draws conclusions based on the ‘’man of letters’’ / life
experience.

The conclusion? Most people are very predictable creatures. They operate under the paradigms.

The paradigms that be.

‘’This part reminds me of Freudian analysis’’ Fienstein says. ‘’Were you inspired by him?’’

‘’Not at all’’ I shake my head firmly. ‘’In fact, from what I gather, his patients were the ones behind his
theories.’’

‘’Do you think that imagination and libido are connected?’’

‘’Of course’’ I continue. ‘’I think even the most idealistic individuals have their fair share of sexual
gratification while creating new ideas. That’s why I’m always weary of egalitarianists. I mean, being mean

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all the time isn’t good either but I don’t think that a conscious human being would be devoid of
emotions, unless we’re talking psychopaths.’’

‘’There’s nothing much I can ask you about here’’ Fienstein smiles. ‘’The piece speaks for itself.’’

CONSCIOUS – DOES SHE IMPLY HER PARENTS ARE ZOMBIES? – Fienstein writes in her notebook.

Chapter Ten: Classification of Humans According to


Intellectual Capability

Human existence is a rather complex issue. No one in their right mind can deny this, unless propaganda is
involved. In my opinion, the way one can perceive the world is done through the following prism: Internal With
External Milieu / External Milieu With Internal What one perceives within oneself influences his external reality
which, in turn, influences his internal reality – creating a perpetual cycle of development and conditioning at
the same time. The question of genes and socialization is very much dependant upon one's concept of self. The
''homo duplex'' theory is certainly a sound one. It would seem that Nietzsche's ''superman'' could be defined
as someone who is able to control one's internal environment at all times and thus creating a desired outer
milieu – making the outer milieu not the ''creatory force'' per se but rather ''the malleability of one's internal
thoughts''. Such a feat of engineering is , indeed, virtually impossible to attain for a social being. It is very
useful, though; it can solve many mysteries of interpersonal interaction and help improve many human-based
businesses/enterprises. IQ is too abstract in its nature, whereas this list deals with down-to-earth cases that
everyone can discern at some point in their lives, regardless of the situation in question.

System Attachment Ratio – This is the term describing a correlation between an individual’s intelligence and
their attachment to human interpretation of life (society). The ratio determines the actions governing the
individual. The lesser the ratio, the more extreme the actions are going to be – as perceived by the ‘highest
ratio’ human types.

Vegetable - A person incapable of discerning their existence - euthanasia advised. It is impossible to discern any
meaningful contact between the individuals – whether of the same state of mind or not.

SAR - Highest

Automaton - A person capable of discerning their existence by performing menial tasks. Useful unskilled labor.
It is highly likely that some sort of a very primitive vernacular pattern can be observed – the concept of
socialization too complex, thus all actions automated at best.

SAR- Highest

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Neanderthal - A person capable of discerning their existence but incapable of controlling primordial drives.
Useful unskilled labor requiring a lot of strength. Mundane social rules accepted, interaction automated with a
tinge of a primitive self-governance based totally on primitive social constructs induced externally.

SAR- Highest

Mediocre - A person discerning life through the consensual prism. Useful at work that does not require
unpredictable factors, be it manual or intellectual. Interaction between mediocre individuals automated with a
tinge of self-conscious choices deriving from the social construct. Not aware of the complexity of the social
construct, and what this individual is aware of, is just the tip of the iceberg of the internal/external and, ergo,
the world as perceive by Joe Bloggs. Requires confirmation of one's self-worth externally, as internally this is
what the social consensus demands.

SAR- Highest

Smart - A person capable of discerning the consensual patterns but not their absurdities. A good businessman.
A conformist. Can appear to be shrewd - and yet still enslaved by the system. Plays social games with other
without realization that he is being played like a violin by the very same social games due to the fact that he is
playing them in the first place without understanding their origins and purpose. Characteristics: Systemic
Shrewdness, Materialism, Common level among psychopaths, Conformity along the lines ''I conform and
through this advance in the social hierarchy.''

SAR- Highest

Very Smart - A conformist with a tinge of non-conformism; discerns consensual patterns and notices their
absurdity when necessary - backs off when too much at stake.

SAR- Highest

Extremely Smart - A non-conformist by choice; observes all the necessary patterns within a particular society;
can go all the way to implementing his aims - incapable of creating something unique, can work only with
already present material.

SAR- Partial

Genius - He is neither non-conformistic, nor conformistic; he operates outside any known paradigm; a
''rezoner'' who finds it hard to adhere to the consensus rather than pretending to be ‘’different.’’ Can discern
the 'unified field theory' of social interaction and use this knowledge to create a whole new paradigm of
perceiving life, and, subsequently, living. Can become a ''super human'' by implementing his best invention into
reality. Destined to be great or die in misery, nothing in between.

SAR- None

''Nietzschean'' Super Human/Aka ‘’The Rezoner’’ A person detached from any reality, a true rezoner.
Whether the latter allows this individual to avoid the solipsism syndrome is unknown due to lack of data. Not
everything has been described as certain stages do not require it. A genius can become everyone that they want
to be, thus they are in a unique position. Even extremely smart people, however, cannot transcend the
boundaries of their conditioning and minds to get to the stage of genius, never mind the ''super human.'' It is
the ultimate bias of existence.

SAR- None

‘’I have a question regarding the difference between extremely intelligent individuals and geniuses, what is
the difference?’’

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‘’I’m afraid it’s impossible to put into words’’ I respond. ‘’Geniuses don’t need any predecessors, while
extremely intelligent individuals very much do. Geniuses can create something out of nothing, literally.
Extremely intelligent individuals aren’t capable of that. They can work miracles with given data, but never
create it on their own.’’

‘’Rezoner’’ she continues. ‘’That’s from French, right?’’

‘’Yeah. Means someone that … well, you know what it means’’ I smile.

‘’Do you think this scale can be applied in practice?’’ the psychologist continues her analysis.

‘’Absolutely’’ I nod vigorously. ‘’I do think that transnational corporate environments could very much
benefit from the principles of my research. There’s no better way of verifying a claim than putting theory
into practice.’’

‘’How exactly does the ‘’System Attachment Ratio’’ work?’’ I can see insatiable curiosity in Fienstein’s
eyes.

‘’The more someone attached is to this reality’’ I start my mini-dissertation. ‘’The more that someone’s
gonna be unwilling to test extreme ideas. Extreme as viewed by the mainstream, of course. For instance,
someone living a steady life will be focused on their family rather than groundbreaking discoveries.’’

‘’By that logic, you perceive geniuses as people that are totally detached from this reality? You mean
they’re absent-minded?’’

‘’Not at all’’ I assert. ‘’It’s to do with their point of reference than anything else.’’

‘’So extreme actions can be predicted by understand an individual’s SAR ratio?’’

‘’Very much so. This has profound practical applications if only the ones that implement it aren’t biased
and stupid.’’

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Chapter Eleven: Who Am I?

Whether one thinks about the development of an individual as mostly social or biological, there might be
another explanation involved. The DNA might influence the social understanding of life and then the
opposite happens. Still, the question remains, what creates the prime element – the material from which
the prism that one views life will be built? The answer to that question has not been presented so far.
Thus, there is a vicious circle operating throughout societies, which does not allow the change to occur
because the same paradigm is used – just re-arranged.

The ideas of nature versus nurture might be fallacies as well. So what is the main principle which causes
them to be such? The concept of 'self.' Humanity has devised the following definitions of 'self':

A. The self is the brain and the body


B. The self is the brain alone
C. The self is a soul – which reflects the state of the body
D. The self is a consciousness that operates via the brain/body
E. MY self is all there is(Solipsism)
F. MY self is non-existent/Dead(Cotard’s Syndrome)

What is the definition of 'self' influenced by in the first place? It seems that it very much depends on an
organism's cognitive. Then, out of those faculties, the interpretation of the inner, and, subsequently, the
outer world emerges. Still, there is the world as perceived by the consensus and the world as not
perceived by any force whatsoever.

The definition of 'self' is off the essence as every action in life derives from how one perceives oneself.
This might sound cliché but it is very often the '’cliches’' that one takes for granted – they are at the core
of the problem. This is no accident that every ideology, whether totalitarian or ''democratic'' focuses on
''self'' at the very core of it – how can there be a totalitarian ideology if the ''self''’ is defined as
something more than A,B or even C? Impossible. Thus, it is imperative to manipulate one's perception of
who one is in order for the rest to be implemented successfully.

This brings me to the next point: can anyone state that one is an ''independent thinker?'' No. How can
anyone be a ''free thinker'' when he is always constrained by certain stimuli, be it social or genetic?
Granted, one can be aware of those stimuli, but it still makes the person in question not a ''free thinker''
but rather ''a person aware of the conditioning and trying to look beyond it.'' There are no ''free
thinkers'' in the society such as the human race has created; there are only those who think they ''free-
think'' and those who know that their thought processes are not free of certain ''world stigmata.'' The
former is more inclined to be able to look beyond the ''interpretation edifice'' than the latter due to
honesty that they treat themselves and others with. People that claim they are ''independent thinkers''
usually believe that they version of ''freedom'' is the ultimate stage and that everyone has to attain the
same level. If someone does not wish to do that, he/she is condemned, alas, without the understanding of

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the ''independent thinker.'' Yet, the formula as a whole does require a certain amount of brain cells, no
dithering here.

It is not hard to discern which interpretation of ''self'' is prevalent on this planet and what consequences
such an interpretation has for male-female ''relations, ''for instance, or for spree killers, to follow the
extremes.

It does not take a genius to realize what significance the concept of ''self'' can deal with the nature of self
– doesn't it indicate that there is something wrong with our understanding of the very word: a disorder?
What is order in the first place, then? It is not so easily discernable as one would want to think – just
delve deeper and you will see what I mean. And I am a layman myself. Just a perceptive one. As the
same can be said about solipsism or the Cotard’s syndrome, among many others.

For the mind has us, not we the mind. We can get deleted any time.

‘’All I’d like to say this. The way we perceive ourselves, both individually and collectively, determines our
entire civilizational fundamentals. This is from where we get social mores, conflicts, the way we think it is
appropriate to live, the way perceive all – internally and externally – is via the prism of understand. We
don’t really know who we are. We’re grasping at straws and this is reflected in the general state of
humanity. Whoever controls our perception of who we are, controls our entire life without us suspecting
anything. They can leave as alone but if the standards of perception have been set, we’re cooked. As
simple as that.’’

Fienstein frantically writes something down in her notebook. No questions asked.

Chapter Twelve: The Gifted – A Different World


Methodology is trying to answer the most crucial issue of all in terms of education: what ought to be
done if one wants to convey their knowledge onto their subjects? The question is of paramount
importance, one cannot contend it. However, as it is typically solved in the course oh human cognitive
development throughout the ages, the emphasis is placed on the mediocre aspects of our intelligence as a
species. Individuals unfortunate enough to have been born with implicit genetic defects are often
considered as well and taken into account when various methodological approaches are considered. A
minority is willing to recognize the other ‘’extreme,’’ of the Bell Curve, to use the vernacular: the gifted.
Even though one can observe different ways of nurturing the talented via the course of human history,
like special peripatetic ‘’sessions’’ in ancient Greece where famous philosophers like Socrates or Plato
engaged in discussions with those brilliant minds; or ancient China where the gifted were also recognized
as bearers of enormous potential. It is not much of a conundrum to discern that most humans on this
planet are within the ‘’mediocre’’ spectrum. This is not a flaw in any way, as some people have to be
workers to sustain this civilization’s mundane operations. It can be said about the methodology as well: it
adjusts to the modus vivendi present within the prevalent thought patterns of the population. Still, one
could conject as well as contend, it is highly ironic: people that utilize today’s inventions are the same
people that have been condemning its inventors. Perhaps a saying that ‘’the opponents of certain ways
have to die out while the new generation is going to treat certain inventions/social trends as something
embedded in their lives without giving much thought to it. If we move forward, we shall see that the
latter is going to become the status quo which is going to be challenged by another hapless individual
known as a genius. The perpetual cycle of despair continues. I think it is off the essence to present who
the gifted are and how have they been treated in the contemporary era, i.e. the twentieth and the
beginning of the twenty first century, as well as what can be done in order to improve the situation
regarding the treatment of the gifted as well as the most pivotal issue of al: why does it simply pay to care
for the gifted?

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The Gifted – Who Are They?

Even among the gifted one can discern different layers of it. If one measures the level of giftedness by
juxtaposing it with the ‘’average’’ population, then it becomes clear what constitutes a moderately gifted
individual and what comprises an exceptionally gifted entity. One could content, quite understandably,
that it is impossible to state with any certainty what the ‘’average’’ level is, and, therefore, what the
‘’gifted’’ level is. This argument is valid; however, each one of us can detect various differences as
prevalent among various human ‘’archetypes’’ – even though the exceptionally gifted tend to be beyond
archetypal malleability. According to the article entitled

‘’Exceptionally Gifted Children: Different Minds‘’

‘’There are few descriptions in the literature of the cognitive processes of exceptionally gifted children.
This study, based on testing profiles, anecdotes collected from parents, and observations made during
family and group therapy sessions with moderately and exceptionally gifted children delineates some of
the characteristic modes of thinking that differentiate exceptionally gifted children from their more
moderately gifted peers.“

In order to understand the differences, one should familiarize oneself with the following descriptions that
present the differences between the moderately and the exceptionally gifted in a very conspicuous
manner:

‘’Exceptionally gifted children often have difficulty dealing with material other gifted children find easy.
The exceptionally gifted see so many possible answers that they are not sure how to respond because no
one answer seems to be better than another. For example, Zachery, age 7, with an IQ over 200, was
unable to answer the question. "What does a doctor do?" The moderately gifted children answered with
any of several acceptable responses and did not find this a difficult question. Zachery, however, answered
that there were so many different kinds of doctors, and they all did different things. Even when
encouraged, he was unable to pick one kind of doctor and name something that doctor did. Zachery
obviously knew the material but was unable to focus on a simple level. His response suggests a higher level
of analysis and integration than the question required.‘’

One can easily infer from the above quotations that the difference between a moderately gifted child –
that is a child said to be within the range of circa 150 IQ, and the exceptionally gifted one, that is a child
with IQ circa 180 or higher – is akin to the difference between an average child and the moderately
gifted one. The same principle applies to adults as well, but the concept of ‘’High IQ societies’’ is meant
to rectify the situation. But the question inevitably arises: does it rectify anything at all? Alfred Binet
devised the method of IQ tests in 1905 to ‘’weed out’’ genius children. Unfortunately, his attempt could
be considered far from successful. How can one discern, based on the aforementioned statement, that the
‘’High IQ Societies’’ are any different? Is it really possible to reach a consensus , as this is what the word
‘’society’’ stands for, when one is dealing with epitomes of individuality taken to the extreme level?
Attempts at creating ‘’genius children’’ undertaken by Robert Graham ended as a total failure – even his
own ‘’children’’ , among them Doron Blake, claim that playing the role of the Creator is a fallacious idea
– at best - and should not be justified by someone’s higher notions.

It is noteworthy to bear in mind the following division of intelligence as well :

• Bright: 115+, or one in six (84th percentile)


• Moderately gifted: 130+, or 1 in 50 (97.9th percentile)
• Highly gifted: 145+, or 1 in 1000 (99.9th percentile)
• Exceptionally gifted: 160+, or 1 in 30,000 (99.997th percentile)
• Profoundly gifted: 175+, or 1 in 3 million (99.99997th percentile)

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An article entitled ‘’Outsiders’’ which can be found on the website of the ‘’Prometheus Society’’ states,
among many other issues it covers, what are the problems encountered by the gifted when dealing with
mainstream society

‘’Children with IQs up to 150 get along in the ordinary course of school life quite well, achieving
excellent marks without serious effort. But children above this mental status become almost intolerably
bored with school work if kept in lockstep with unselected pupils of their own age. Children who rise
above 170 IQ are liable to regard school with indifference or with positive dislike, for they find nothing
in the work to absorb their interest. This condition of affairs, coupled with the supervision of unseeing and
unsympathetic teachers, has sometimes led even to truancy on the part of gifted children.’’

Where does the problem with perceiving the gifted come from? It seems to stem from the collective
proclivity towards stereotyping – the very word stemming from the Greek stereos, meaning a solid body.
The first and foremost issue is drawing a parallel between IQ and giftedness. This excerpt clarifies the
misconception - and the latter’s origins :

‘’For many years, psychometricians and psychologists, following in the footsteps of Lewis Terman in
1916, equated giftedness with high IQ. This "legacy" survives to the present day, in that giftedness and
high IQ continue to be equated in some conceptions of giftedness. Since that early time, however, other
researchers (e.g., Cattell, Guilford, and Thurstone) have argued that intellect cannot be expressed in such
a unitary manner, and have suggested more multifaceted approaches to intelligence.’’

It is unfortunate, as well, that the collective social psyche tends to view the gifted as physically weak
individuals, very often conjuring up a picture of Stephen Hawking, confined to a wheelchair, to support
their consensual perspective. The fragment below explains, yet again, that the truth is often located within
the gray area :

‘’There was a time when all precocious children were thought to burn out the same way that Sidis (An
American child prodigy from Boston, said to have had an IQ of 300, spoke circa forty languages fluently,
corrected Harvard professors at the age of eleven; ended up as a counter clerk on his own volition to focus on
his research more away from the people – My interjection) did. The man most responsible for changing this
belief was Lewis M. Terman. Between 1900 and 1920 he was able to carry out a study of about a
hundred gifted children, and his observations convinced him that many of the traditional beliefs about the
gifted were little more than superstitions. To confirm these observations, he obtained a grant from the
Commonwealth Fund in 1922, and used it to sift a population of more than a quarter of a million
children, selecting out all those with IQs above 140 for further study. That group has been monitored
continuously ever since. Many of the previously held beliefs about the gifted did indeed turn out to be

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false. The gifted are not weak or sickly, and although the incidence of myopia is greater among them, they are
generally thought to be better looking than their contemporaries: They are not nerds.’’

The gifted are often perceived as solitary individuals who tend to exhibit bizarre demeanor when faced
with various situations. However, if one does not possess the capacity to comprehend what goes on within
the gifted person’s mind, it is very easy to dismiss it as something grotesque. People need to remember
that when dealing with a person who requires precision and sees many more facets of an issue than they
do, it is essential not to judge based on superficial behavioral patterns – the very patterns that reflect a
huge mental task which can bear an enormous strain on a gifted person’s mind. The article sums the
problem of the gifted and their relations with environment in a very laconic, albeit appropriate, statement

‘’But the point of this article is not that there's some special hazard in having an exceptional IQ: There's
not. The point is that the danger lies in having an exceptional IQ in an environment completely lacking in
intellectual peers. It's the isolation that does the damage, not the IQ itself.’’

The last sentence says it all. People that tend to perceive much more than others are not loners because
they are arrogant, as they are so often seen: they are forced into solitude because they cannot find
enough ‘’common ground’’ with individuals around them – apart from casual superficial conversations
where the gifted tend to mask their true views in favor of the more acceptable ones – or the ones that
will be more easily understood by their milieu. As Oscar Wilde is purported to have said : ‘’People
forgive everything, except genius’’ and ‘’The play was a huge success but the audience was a disaster.’’
Indeed, the former and the latter encapsulates the gifted people’s feelings toward the world around them
very well…some even say that the gifted equal Indigos and alien-human hybrids. This claim is hard to
determine.

‘’Again, a self-explanatory piece’’ Fienstein says. ‘’You really do sense what questions might be thrown at
you.’’

‘’Pretty much’’ I reply. ‘’I like the Scandinavian alternative, I think it’s called.’’

‘’What’s it about?’’ the psychologist asks.

‘’Basically, I predict every possible outcome I can think of. That way, I’m prepared for all my mind can
conceive.’’

‘’There’s always a chance something totally unexpected is going to happen.’’

‘’Yes, black swan events happen of course, but it’s still sensible to prepare in advance.’’

‘’So you’re not an optimist?’’

‘’I’m an optimist with a touch of realism to keep my optimism grounded.’’

‘’And why is that?’’

‘’Optimism for the sake of it means problems when something doesn’t go our way. We’re shocked and
incapable of facing the problem head-on.’’

‘’Fair enough’’ Fienstein nods and glances at the ceiling.

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Chapter Thirteen: The Double-Layer Perspective
The difference between rezoneric individuals and systemic individuals is simple. The rezoneric individual
possesses two levels of awareness, one is experiencing with all the preordained bigotry, another is detached,
observing it and pondering the insanity. The discrepancy between the two perspectives creates a powerful
sexual creative force.

‘’What’s more to add, Miss Fienstein?’’

Chapter Fourteen: The Free Will Argument

Freedom is a state where one does not have to worry about socially-induced obligations and does not consider
the latter to be unnatural. Indeed, this attitude is akin to that of a psychopath, but psychopaths do not have a
socially-induced conscience, but they possess their own, based upon their own values. Is conscience a socially-
induced mechanism as well, meaning that without social intervention we would all become psychopathic in
nature? Would it mean that freedom is attainable ONLY when we develop conscience because – without it –
our actions are guided by a zombie-like mental state which renders us incapable of experiencing life in its
entirety? Is it fair to say that our inner voice, our conscience is an artificial construct that is highly malleable – it
stems from a collection of social mores imposed upon us before we can consciously decide what to accept and
what to reject?

Conscience – Limitation
Consciousness – No Limitation
Psychopath – A Different, Idiolectic Conscience?

‘’Free will is one of Kant’s biggest dilemmas, did you know that Emily?’’

‘’No’’ I shake my head. ‘’I didn’t know that.’’

‘’So you don’t think that everyone here on Earth is actually human?’’

‘’It’s more along the lines of consciousness’’ I respond. ‘’Some people’s behavior just don’t add up.
Psychopaths, for example … they’re devoid of any conscience. Conscience as we understand it, of course.

Who knows, maybe even many abduction victims warded off their memories by creating a fictional
scenario. If that’s the case, then how traumatic their original experience had to be.’’

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‘’Can this apply to missing persons as well?’’ Fienstein asks.

‘’I think that many things are happening next door – literally – and we either choose to ignore them or to
sanitize them in our minds. Life is a collection of simultaneous minds walking around with their own aims,
aims that keep changing like a kaleidoscope. We choose to believe what we see is all there is. But how can
we be sure?’’

Anne nods gently and tells me to have a break. I do not think this is done by accident, I am pretty sure
she wants to perform some mumbo-jumbo analysis, some Mesmer trick. Oh well. I have been expecting
all of that, haven’t I?’’

Chapter Fifteen: Language Learning and Modern


Educational System

Second language is a vague concept. On the surface, we can assume that we are dealing with a
superimposition of L1 patterns upon any other language that is going to be used by us. According to that
paradigm, the way we perceive the world and the way we learn other languages will always reflect the way
our native language has formed (Sapir-Worf).

Sapir-Worf posit linguistic relativity but do not seem to accept the fact that one can alter one’s native
perception. I disagree with that approach. I believe that – if sufficient amount of intellectual capacity is
involved – one can easily transcend the boundaries of L1.

First language does not necessarily mean the dominant language. The world is far too complex to
compartmentalize people’s linguistic activity/ability according to rigid criteria. Indeed, this is very
convenient and provides a delineation as to what is possible/impossible.

It is easy to notice that the modern educational system – the mainstream version of it at least – does not
accept the possibility that an individual can become as proficient in L2 as they are in L1. However, given
our complex global milieu where information is constantly exchanged, such an idea is by no means a
chimera.

Let us look at English, for example. It is fair to state that this is the lingua franca of the modern world.
Thus, the number of non-native speakers clearly exceeds that of native users of the language. In other
words, native speakers of English have lost their right to decide what is correct/incorrect, as even within
the language itself there are too many subdivisions to ascertain anything and set it in stone. This is one of
the reasons that English does not have any official ‘’supervisory body’’ , contrary to the case of – for
example – French and Polish.

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Modern educational system, on the other hand, is tailored to serve the ones that – overwhelmingly - do
not possess high intellectual capacity. In my opinion, intelligence and motivation are key factors in second
– as well as first – language acquisition. If we understand intelligence as the ability to observe various
patterns and then use these patterns in practice, then we can clearly see that someone who has high
intelligence can discern many patterns and can then use them in practice. His language learning is going to
grow exponentially, whereas ‘’average’’ students are not going to be able to access such level of
awareness. Children of high intelligence that learn another language tend to be more sensitive in pattern
discernment and this helps them with acquiring proper pronunciation/grammar and a wide vocabulary
range. In fact, they will not adhere to rigid ‘’language categories’’ created by an educational-certificatory
money-making machine.

There is a danger involved, however. Depending on one’s background and language (L2) in question, a
certain emotional charge can be involved. This can be due to association that student makes with L2 (
considers it to be more useful than his L1 or finds it to be a ‘’representative’’ of a group that he dislikes ).
The latter can lead to open rebellion as this student is not going to be willing to learn L2 due to personal
perception of it. Speaking from experience, it is clear to me that modern education does not address this
problem properly, which results in impaired learning and – subsequently - wasted time. This is especially
true when dealing with students with above-average intelligence; they can be far more effective in their
learning but also more sensitive to certain matters their peers might find non-existent/trivial.

Language teaching is something that is relative in nature. Contrary to math where one’s abilities can be
tested regardless of cultural background/et al., language is intertwined with person in question. If a
teacher of English has a group of more talented students in his/her class, they are rarely ‘’utilized’’ as
they should be. Very often they do nothing; this might stem from the fact that in today’s globalized world
many children come from mixed marriages/lived in an English-speaking country and their level of
knowledge is higher than that of their teacher. The teacher goes defensive and the process of L2
acquisition is seriously impaired because the students who have a lot of target language experience are
either ignored or their role minimized. This is an example I witnessed myself, as I was able to observe a
class where native English speakers(children) were told to practice their grammar by a teacher whose skills
were acceptable at best. It was clear to me that the teacher did not want to acknowledge his inferior
status, despite this being obvious to everyone in the class. I do not think that teachers should don a
persona of omniscience and omnipotence because they achieve the opposite results and their students
become less interested in their lesson. Not many teachers want to apply themselves if they see a gifted
student and help this student to transcend their own limitations to become proficient in L2.

‘’What do you think about the concept of Proto-Human language?’’ Miss Finstein asks me in all
seriousness.
‘’I think that conceps such as universal grammar and the one you have mentioned, they warrant further
investigation. Also, why is the brain so underused? By the way, I find the division into humanistic minds
and mathematical minds to be rather … puzzling.’’

‘’How so?’’ she leans forward.

‘’If the brain conducts billions of operations per second, then how can we claim we are not math-savvy?
This is just another level of compartmentalization which we impose upon ourselves. People think it’s a
trifle but they’d be surprised how harmful this is to the learning process in general. Not to mention
telepathy’’

Fienstein laughs merrily. Another nod. Another note.

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Chapter Sixteen: (A Priori) Marriage Analysis
The institution of marriage is a very old concept. It was present throughout history, long before
Christianity saw the light of this planet. There were different ways of becoming ‘‘bonded,’’ but the
principle remained the same: partnership. The nature of this ‘partnership’ differed : in some cases it was
merely to procreate, in others to establish a spiritual bond. The culture that we are living in seems to be
set in between the former and the latter. But the Western world treats marriage as a game of ‘‘gender
role practice’’ were one partner reinforces the other partner’s stereotypical behavioral patterns – and very
often, alas, not being aware that the latter is taking place. This artificial nature of marriage, the
sublimation that it promotes and the superficiality it so often generates is the core reason as to why
marriages are considered to be ‘deficient’ by a growing number of individuals. This essay is an attempt to
delve into the nature of the aforementioned problem and to find out what lies at the very core of the
‘‘marriage problem.’’

First and foremost, marriage as we know it is definitely a Christian idea. Whether it is created in the way
that Jesus would have wanted it – no one can tell with any certainty. However, the idea that a priest plays
the role of a ‘God’s transducer’ when it comes to bestowing an honor of marriage onto a couple is
claimed to be ‘‘an act of God.’’ The Lord is, of course, male. Thus, marriage is a male idea. The priest
plays the role of the ‘messenger,’ and is, of course, male again. The ceremony of marriage is considered
to be one of the most joyous occasions in one’s life – but how could that be if a woman is being
subjugated at its very beginning by the patriarchal system of the Church? Moreover, vast majority of
women tend to ‘’overlook’’ that ‘’minute’’ detail. One can only wonder how much conspicuous gender
bias there would have to be in order for the ‘fair sex’ to grasp their precarious position. On the other
hand, however, one cannot help the contention that an overwhelming percentage of women seems
content with their plight. The latter shows, yet again, how omnipotent social conditioning really is: people
tend to perceive the world around them via the prism of their cultural upbringing – indeed, being largely
unaware of the process.

Secondly, once a marriage is established, most parents would want their progeny to see the sunlight.
Once their child is born into this world, the process of a ‘never ending story’ begins. The behavioral
patterns pertaining to the gender roles one could observe thriving in a marriage (covering areas like
appearance, conduct, relations with others, even ritualistic ‘parties’ taking place before a marriage – of
course with members of the same ‘‘sex’’ – raise a person’s awareness of his/her gender roles) are being
conferred onto an unsuspecting child – with parents’ best interest for their child at heart, of course.
Father tells his son ’’to treat women well’’ and ‘‘to die for them in a war’’ while mother tells her daughter
‘’to find her knight in shining armor’’ and ‘’to wave her handkerchief whilst her husband goes off to fight
the bad guys.’’ Theoretically speaking the former and the latter should represent a seamless conjunction –
how unfortunate, then, that social life is not that simple, even though many individuals would be
delighted to divide the world into ‘‘pink and blue’’ – another rigid concept derived from relative
beginnings. Parents (with honorable exceptions) are perpetrating a crime by mind-controlling their
unsuspecting children – in the name of ‘’tutelage’’ – by polluting the child’s developing psyche with their
‘’memetic ethos’’ before the offspring has even a chance of figuring the world out for itself. It is not
surprising, though, as one has to be aware of the problem (parental conditioning) before facing it (how
can I avoid mind-controlling my children). Most parents are totally unaware of the issues mentioned
above, dancing to the tune sang to them by social conditioning instead; this leads to an act of
perpetuating the charade of gender roles throughout the generations – and it all started in an innocuous
manner with words ‘’I hereby pronounce you husband and wife.’’

Thirdly, society as a whole needs the institution of marriage because it has been structured in such a way
that – without the latter – it can hardly sustain itself. The reason as to why same-sex marriages are so
opposed is not because of morality but rather of sheer pragmatism; no procreation means no population,
means entropy. No population, no people to work for the elderly, et al – a chain reaction of events is
easily noticeable. Again, irate individuals waving their flags against homosexuals would be rather unaware
of the ‘‘procreation’’ argument. This is the most disturbing feature of all: ignorance - in case of the
institution of marriage - is not bliss, but rather a disaster waiting to happen. And, alas, disaster continues
to happen. Exponentially.

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Penultimately, there are different ‘’styles’’ of marriages – not always a good template to follow. In Saudi
Arabia, for instance, a man has to utter his wife’s name three times in public to divorce her –this is why
women in Muslim countries are adorned with jewelry: to sustain themselves after an unexpected
‘’renouncement.’’ Women (of course) do not possess the power to divorce men. Polygamy is encouraged,
albeit a husband has to support every wife’s financial security. Polygyny, on the same hand, can become a
dreary custom when dealing with a sect like the ‘’Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day
Saints,’’ led by Warren Jeffs (in custody at the time of writing this essay), where adult men forced young
girls to marry them – and if a girl refused she was told that she would face eternal damnation in hell.
From the ‘Western’ point of view the latter is, quite rightly, outrageous; but from the other culture’s
point of view the ‘’Western’’ approach can seem bizarre. Another noteworthy’ fact of life’’ to consider
when pondering the ‘failure’ of the institution of marriage in its Christian form.

Finally, the concept of marriage does not have to be a dream which has gone awry and turned into a
nightmare in the process. On the contrary, there is nothing wrong with an union of two people -
regardless of their mindset or skin color. The union like this can be extremely prolific if two individuals
are what is popularly called ‘’soul mates’’ – that is, they understand not just their bodies, but their minds
as well. The only problem is the way that theory seems to be well-versed among people; but they tend to
understand it in stereotypical ways. Thus, many individuals –advertently or inadvertently – choose to
follow the blueprint that the sanity of which the author of this essay chose to refute. However, choosing a
less stereotypical version of the marriage can lead to problems as well when each party tries to impose
their paradigms on others. The heart of the matter seems to be a distinction between a ‘’soul mate’’ and a
‘’perfect mate.’’ Unfortunately, the majority of people claim to be looking for ‘‘soul mates’’ while their
real aim is the latter. Women look for men that can provide for them and their children – men look for
attractive women in hopes of having better offspring. If the latter were not true, there would be no
bastard children. It seems more reasonable to be honest to oneself instead of playing a social ‘’smoke and
mirrors’’ game. Maybe then the nature of this elusive word called ‘’marriage’’ and why it was structured
in the way it was would make perfect sense. Richard Dawkins, a prominent British ethologist, once said:

‘‘Aren’t we just selfish genes wanting to propagate?’’

Whether we are or not, the sheer thought of having to consider the latter seems unsettling to most.

‘’This is the pink and blue syndrome at work’’ I state firmly by implementing a cavalcade of gesticulatory
moves. ‘’I wouldn’t want my child to be subjected to psychological fascism on all levels because I know
how painful this is. Unfortunately, in order to function in this society, the more intelligent my child would
be, the more difficult it would be for me to explain many contradictions the child would observe all
around it. Why even bother, why explain anything away as a trifle, why ignore it or turn it into a joke
when I can’t help but agree with my offspring’s assessment? Do you see the dilemma, Miss Fienstein?
Creating new life is a miracle, yes – but do we want this miracle to experience the memocracy in full
swing?’’

‘’You’ve also written some less pleasant stories depicting your frustration with the human interpretation of
life’’ Fienstein says. ‘’That’s good, we need to vent, though – I must admit – your venting is unique.’’

I grin.

‘’Thank you, Miss Fienstein.’’

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PART THREE: KATHARSIS
Chapter Seventeen: ‘’Devolution’’

A young Caucasian priest wakes up in the middle of a dim room. He quickly realizes that the only part of
the body he can move is his head. Physical paralysis is followed by a mental paralysis. He notices a
computer screen in front of him.

‘’Laptop. Sony’’ two words cross his mind.

‘’Welcome, James’’ a voice speaking with a smooth American (Chicago? New Jersey?) accent can be
heard. ‘’Don’t worry. You won’t see me. That’s unnecessary. This laptop in front of you is a very …
useful … scrutiny tool. All you need to know, my dear priest, is that ten minutes of excruciating pain
await you. You are probably asking yourself what do I mean. Let me clarify everything for you. There is a
rather…interesting concoction running through your veins at this very moment. The concoction itself will
not kill you but the pain … it just might. Despair not, James. There is a way out. The pain will start but
you will regain full control over your body at the same time! Now, do you see that device next to you?’’

The priest looks around and notices the ‘’Thanatron’’ device to his left

‘’Good. Good’’ the mysterious American voice continues. ‘’The device. I am sure you are perfectly
aware of its name as well as its function? So many people were not allowed to die because of your foolish
policies. I am giving you a chance to redeem yourself, priest – use the machine to ease the pain! Oh, I
know this is going to be so difficult, for you are the man of faith. Tell you what, my dear priest: if you
survive ten minutes, you are free. If not … you know the answer. The choice is yours.

The priest prepares for the worst. Unfortunately, the pain becomes too overwhelming to fathom. James
invokes God countless times but the Creator does not respond. James becomes a helpless observer as
another concoction slowly fills his veins. He dies within two minutes. Excruciating pain. Agonizing demise
indeed.

( Note to self: He fails. IV therapy successful.)

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‘’Hello Mary’’ the same voice can be heard. ‘’Do you know where you are?’’

‘’No?’’ responds Mary, a thirty-something Caucasian female. ‘’What is this, what’s happening, what’ve
you done to me!?’’

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‘’Calm down, my dear’’ the voice continues. ‘’You are from Great Britain, am I correct?’’

‘’Yes?’’ she replies, more out of shock than anything else. ‘’What is the meaning of this!?’’

‘’Mary, you teach English, am I correct?’’

‘’Yes’’ she responds firmly.

‘’How wonderful. Do you bash – relativistically speaking - non-native speakers often? Does your orgasmic
aura of unsubstantiated superiority fill you with uncontrollable frenzy?’’

‘’What are you talking about!?’’ a response filled with anxiety.

‘’Don’t pretend you don’t know what I’m talking about. You think you’re superior. Just like the Nazis,
your tacit belief that precious English to become the only language of importance. You would ban
language-mixed marriages … hubris … arrogance … you might speak English immanently but your skills
are still poor … what to expect of someone with an IQ of 149. Correct me now, amaze me and I will let
you go, you selfish daughter of a whore responsible for millions of deaths. Even worse than Hitler, Stalin,
Pol Pot and erudite conman-in-chief born in Kenya combined as you did it all with that innocent smile on
your asinine face.’’

The woman is speechless. She does not know how to respond. She looks around in desperation and
notices she is …

‘’That’s right, Mary. You’re in the middle of a jungle somewhere out there.’’

‘’How did you bring me here!?’’ she screams. ’’That’s impossible!’’

‘’Despair not, my dear Anglo-Saxon puella’’ the killer continues. ‘’I am sure you can communicate with
others around the world … easily. So, Mary, I thought I’d make things a little bit more … challenging for
you. Look to your right. There is a bench there.’’
Mary bolts toward the bench. She discovers the following ‘’message’’

‘’What the hell is this!?’’ she screams again.

‘’That is your destiny, my dear Mary’’ the voice responds in a firm manner. ‘’Unless you find a way to
save yourself. I do have bad news for you: your English will not help you this time. The tribe is aware of
your presence. You have got ten minutes to devise a plan and survive. Anglophone civilization exists ten
miles to the east. Think and survive. Wanton and die. The choice is yours. Use your universal grammar
skills, by the way.’’

(Note to self: She fails. Devoured alive due to lack of mutual intelligibility. Poor anthropological skills.
Hubris therapy successful. Rotting cunt, that is all she has ever been. Or was? Come and solve this
conundrum for me.)

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‘’Well, hello there princess’’ the voice addresses an eighteen-year-old Caucasian woman who has just
regained consciousness. ‘’How do you like the forest?’’

‘’What .. ?’’ the woman stands up as she grapples with her sense. ‘’What the fuck is this, who are you,
where are you!?’’

‘’The deal is simple’’ the killer’s voice becomes firmer. ‘’You’ve always advocated a male-only
compulsory draft. Yet, you strongly believe in gender equality. Somehow, the dichotomy has escaped
your perception. Today, you are going to face what those men you so passionately send out there face.’’

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‘’I’m outta here, whoever you’re, you pervert!’’ the woman screams.

‘’I wouldn’t recommend that’’ the voice replies. ‘’Do you see the warning sign?’’

The woman looks around carefully. She freezes.

‘’This is sick, this is insane!’’ the woman bursts into rage. ‘’What do you expect me to do, believe that
everything around me can simply … blow up?’’

An explosion can be seen around fifty meters away.

‘’Oh yes. Very much so’’ zeitgeist responds. ‘’I never say something If I don’t mean it. The sooner you
grasp it, the better your chances of getting out alive.’’

‘’It’s like … it’s like this ‘Saw’ movie, you’re some psycho that wants to imitate this guy, am I right?’’

‘’Why abandon good ideas when they work?’’ sardonic laughter can be heard. ‘’Oh, and remember. If
you stay here for too long … you will starve to death. Just a reminder.’’
‘’You…’’

‘’Live or die’’ a message interrupts the woman’s futile attempts at communication. ‘’The choice is yours.’’

(Note to self: And God has finally seen what He has created ... He has finally understood how much
cancerogenic female shit has been piled up on this beautiful planet. Females are Lebensunwertes Leben.
Serial killer status officially attained. Proceed to Wall Street. Let the beacon of justice shine through,
however harsh. Time to focus on issues that have been ignored throughout the centuries or die trying).

Chapter Eighteen: Revelations of an Elderly Woman

Hello. I am an elderly Polish woman of Ashkenazi ancestry and this is my final journal entry. I am so glad
to be writing it before my death. Death on my own terms, not on someone else’s. I have been traveling
around the world for many years, even when – officially – I was not supposed to. I have visited more
than fifty countries and I understand cultural relativity. I never talk about issues I have not experienced
first-hand.

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Lately, however, I have seen Earth’s status deteriorate quickly. Make no mistake, I know what hardship is:
I know it because I have lived it, unlike many pompous white-shoe Westerners who have no idea what it
means to see SS-troops all around you; nothing on the shelves; to be chased by ZOMO and having guns
pointed at you; facing a Soviet tank with Russian nitwits inside or seeing what UPA(Ukrainian Insurgent
Army) can do if they don’t like you. Hardship – from time to time – is good, see. Without it, a mere
‘’black swan event’’ paralyzes you. When you are used to hardship, you simply laugh and go on. It
tempers the spirit and you understand that after good some bad is going to come; you understand that
mindless squandering of your personal resources without ever thinking about the consequences is a bad
move. You understand this because your sense of history tells you so. Without the sense you will merely
be here. Be now. You will not understand how the system operates and that it will turn around ….
eventually. This is the danger behind young nations with no sense of history. Yes, it is important to move
on and not to always look back, of course it is … but without the balance, you can forget about stability.
This is when shock and dismay arrive. We, the Jews, we know it very well. We saw many empires fall
because of this … it was always so. Even the Romans used to say

‘’A Roman thief is better than an Egyptian aristocrat.’’ Nothing new.

It also amuses me how the ‘’Western world’’, particularly the USA, they always mention their ‘’help.’’
Well, help my ass. No one has helped me and I would not want this help anyway. So don’t flatter
yourselves. Don’t ascribe to something which is not yours, because all you do is charge people for VISAS
and then detain them without charge with smirky smiles on your faces. The Land of the Free, bah.

Because when it comes down to it, you gotta be your own man/woman. No one is going to come and
help you. I should know better than anyone and I never expected anything more than diplomatic double-
talk.

Where was I? Oh. Of course. I must admit that Jews are clever people. They do have certain innate
language abilities and – of course – financial ones. Funny at the same time, Semitic peoples this means
much more than the Jews, you see. Funny how people do not notice this.

They tell me that Jews are arrogant and cunning. Some are, most definitely. Some are downright bastards
and they control a lot on this planet. But I personally witnessed what is happening with the Palestinians, I
saw it all … and I find it to be an abomination. Yes, I do believe that some Jews are suffering from a
‘’Nazi complex.’’ Sadly. I despise circumcision and I am by no means affiliated with any religious
practices.

People impose their own self-bias upon themselves. They cannot simply perceive themselves as human. It
both amuses and angers me. The same level of intelligence can be discerned in them, though: the more
intelligent a person is, the more he/she is capable of transcending artificial boundaries. I do not believe in
IQ’s but from what I can tell, people of 130 and lower IQ are actually very much like that … self-biased
imposed upon themselves and they do not even realize it.

Do I hate country A? Why would I? I do not hate a piece of land. If anything, people anger me. People
filled with propaganda, too limited intellectually to notice what they are actually doing. Too focused on
their tribal quibbles to see what is really going on.

You want to fight? You want some saber-rattling? Fine, bring it on. Let us end this nonsense once and for
all. Let us fight. To the death. I have seen too many ‘’Master Races’’ in my lifetime to be phased by your
dick contests. I even saw the ‘’Lebensborn’’ with my own eyes … children there were retarded, even
though their genes were supposed to be ARYAN! True power does not need weapons – true power
means respect. Weapons represent fear. True power comes from within. You probably think this is just a
slogan. Oh, how wrong you are. I put my ninety years of experience against your view and let’s see who’s
right.

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Now that I come to think of it, life has treated me with a mosaic of experiences that most of you will
never understand. Does that make me unlucky, moving from one totalitarian insanity to another? No …
as surprised as I am, I enjoy those times immensely and I would not trade them for anything. They were
the most interesting and exciting times of my life, a true essence, not what I see around me now – bland
faces and corporate robots. This is freedom?

So yes, despite all of the above I think this is the time to leave. If things get really nasty, I am too old to
experience it all over again. And messy it will be. My life – a perpetual state of crisis – my life has been
filled with them. Enough, I say.

This is why I have contacted an organization that helps others die with dignity. I have contacted them and
they have mentioned an ‘’appraisal letter.’’ I never heard of it before and had to look it up in my
dictionary. I read it and froze. What kind of a psychiatrist was going to provide me with such a letter?
Doctor Kevorkian? How grotesque that being born on a particular piece of Earth gives you different
imperatives and choices in life. Such is the human way, it would seem. The way of the absurd disguised as
the way of reason. After ninety years, I am still shocked by humanity.

To Switzerland I finally flew. I like Switzerland, the country where people respect privacy and understand
secrecy. Expensive as hell, but who cares. Not a single war since the 1500’s. Lucky bastards. Still, women
were allowed to vote around 1970’s. And we call ourselves civilized! From what I understand, if you are
a woman and you earn something, your husband takes it anyway. Isn’t the word ‘’woman’’ from Anglo-
Saxon ‘’wife-man?’’ A portmanteau perhaps? Funny how language gives us clues about our perception of
the world …

My room is ready but before that I am going to observe the world and dine in luxury. Help some poor
souls here and there, too … oh, will I have a ball. Ha, I am ninety and still alive and well, Auschwitz
hardens you. Swine flu? Bring it on, baby. I survived much, much worse.

My English might be messed up, but it’s my fifth language so you gotta show some leniency. Your
languages get all mixed up if you speak five or more, your native influences your non-native and then
back and forth … crazy. I’m understood, I need not more. Funny, even suicide businesses operate in
English. Speaking many languages fluently has kept my mind sharp and ready and I am not afraid of any
Alzheimer diseases … I agree, speaking many languages fluently is akin to possessing a different soul. Your
understanding of the world is oh so different … you can perceive so many elements that you otherwise
would not / could not have. Just learn them in a practical fashion, just like I learned English in England
and America by working for various corporations. I had to learn how to speak – and quickly!

You have no idea how much better it all gets when you know you control your own demise. To me, that
is the weathervane of freedom. I saw too many people who begged to die, who begged to leave…this
filled me with disgust, their torment … and I vowed to leave on my own terms, no matter what it took. I
am sure God will understand, It is an omniscient, omnipotent being, after all. I lived a full life … as full as
you can get.

Ah, there you are waiter! Yes, I'll have some of that please ... mmm ...

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Chapter Nineteen: From Virus With Love

This is me. The virus. You think you won, eh? Forget about it. I am waiting and I am about to strike.
They are right, I will strike with a vengeance. Your entire civilization will crumble as I ally with the crisis
and amplify it to the point where your governments can off themselves. I will respect no boundaries, I will
respect no lines that you humans created. I will kill your entire families, I will destroy your economy. I
will turn developed nations into living hells. No martial law, no WHO is going to help you. No CDC. I
will destroy you all and if you think that your puny medications can stop me ... oh, even if you do survive
... you really are going to wish you were dead.

P.S. Thank the ones that are supposed to protect you for I was cultured in one of your precious labs.

Signed,

Influenza you have never experienced before - even in 1918.

Chapter Twenty: The Truth About Existence – Finally –


Revealed

In the (so-called) sane society one cannot terminate one's existence peacefully. I have tried a lot of things,
but never had the chance to experience death once and for all. What the hell is that , this self-righteous
civilization cannot take away my right to kill myself. Again, the concept of self can be defined in many
ways. People are dying every day in the name of the so-called idea of ''freedom'' and yet I cannot shoot

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myself or even ingest flipping cyanide intentionally. This is a criminal offense of human civilization and a
travesty of existence.

Some fucked-up individuals, pardon my French, wave their titties around on the internet and then whine
as to how they are ''not known to others.'' Oh please, this is just inane and preposterous. I have tried
jumping off the rooftops, shooting myself , pumping myself with lethal substances, contacting ''Dignitas''
in Switzerland and nothing frigging worked. This is pathetic, as this was in my mind only. Mediocre minds
of psychiatry pretend that they give a damn. This civilization is located nowhere, consists of nations that
can be best defined as bunk, with people who can be best classified as material warmongers with flying
dicks and spinning titties. Good riddance to the recruitment office in Times Square. The psychopaths in
the military do not give a fuck about anything apart from killing and raping others while pretending to
fight for freedom while their female companions cheer.

This is called sublimation - sexual urges are released on others. Whoever controls this planet - and I am
pretty damn sure there is someone - good job mate, you are a genius, they will not even see it coming.
Yes, God bless the world and its ideals created by the noble human race, that so far has amassed circa
thirty billion lives throughout its ''civil'' existence. A person cannot just die if their mental state is not
good due to the fact that this is considered a ''violation of God knows who established God knows
where.'' But the meme persists. Why do we care so much about allowing others to die if they wish to do
so? The Nazis invented a device which is very efficient at leaving this plane of existence : it paralyzes one's
nervrous system in around two seconds. Why then, I ask, we cannot experience this as, seemingly, free
citizens of the ''free world?'' The answer is very simple and people are afraid to stare it in the face : The
sheer concept of ''freedom'' as engendered by the human interpretation of existence is bullshit.

P.S. What is the point of education that is system-controlled and gives no practical insight into life
whatosever? How come people fall for it ...

P.S. II I love and respect life. The above merely pertains to the 'human interpretation of life.' I am sure
life is as disgusted by humanity as I am. Yes, and I mean everyone on this planet, not just you or Joe
Bloggs or Mr Swahili.

P.S. III Dear planet Earth, allow me to join you in commiseration. There are positive signs around the
world that pertain to this civilization, but negativity outweighs the positivity. By far.

Yes. Humans are a failure. Primitive tribes, the laughing stock of the galaxy.

Go on. Send more dick-shaped bombs to ''liberate'' others and then shove your flag up your arse.

What would hurt humanity the most? What is the central point in this edifice of evil that would destroy
this psuedocivilization? Energy? Finance? Medicine? Strike Wall Street, the Vatican, power plants, water
supply, food supply, and WHO labs with viruses simultaneously.

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Chapter Twenty One: The Issues That Haunt Us

In order to discern what my major field of study is, I believe it is off the essence to define the term’ major
field of study’ per se. To me, this particular issue concerns about ‘The major endeavor that I devote most
of my time to, find to be of the most pivotal nature. ’It would appeal to logic that what I am studying at
the university could be defined as such. It is far complex than that, however; we do exist in a convoluted
milieu, albeit it appears to be an overwhelmingly sanitized version of ‘’reality’’, ‘’spoonfed’’ to the
population by the mainstream media. Therefore, it is imperative to present an outline of my interests. It
should appear self-evident that I will not be able to, nor would I be willing , to cover every single thread
of my psyche’s development. The most reasonable approach at this particular level of analysis is to 44
superficially delve into various subjects via the prism that will render clear to the reader what my interests
are and why do I find them to be worthy of my time, as opposed to other ‘’genres’’ operating in our
society, that can be considered far more sense-enticing. It is not by chance, however, that ‘’ignorance is
bliss.’’ Stating the latter, I divide my interests into two independent groups: corporeal(pragmatic) and
incorporeal(abstract). I am an avid supporter of the ‘golden means’ rule; by this I understand that a
human being should be able to exist within the ‘mainstream society’ as well as beyond it. It seems logical
that one can talk about ‘higher issues’ but he will die of starvation. Maslow’s pyramid seems to be a good
representation of the ‘‘balanced’’ mindset. Of course, so often individuals do not even realize that there is
something like ‘mainstream society,’ but that is a completely different matter and I will not cover it here.
Suffice it to say, people tend to separate pragmatic from abstract with a ‘’marble ceiling’’ , whereas I am
inclined to perceived them as interdependent. The ability to discern the interweavement appears to be
crucial if one wants to avoid bigotry in life. The latter brings me to the most pivotal stage of my reasoning
the ability to perceive and connect. Intelligence. I have discovered a very interesting article pertaining to
the measurement of intelligence and how one perceives intellect according to one’s cultural standards –
which would mean than an autistic genius is very likely to be considered an idiot. This is exactly the
problem of perception and the ability of discernment. Indeed, there are so many definitions of
intelligence that it is virtually impossible to reach a consensus as to its nature. Certain groups of individuals
exhibit a predilection toward ‘‘emotions’’ and ‘’intellect.’’ I find this division somewhat contentious as a
highly intelligent individual(according to the Western standards) will often display advanced emotional
intelligence as well; intelligence is not about absence of emotions. In fact, by discerning reality within and
without, one ,inevitably and unwittingly, experiences certain emotional states accompanying the
intellectual experience. Thus, the division into ‘‘emotions’’ and ‘’intellect’’ is a non-sequitur. There are
cases where people overwhelmingly ‘’intellectual’’ or ‘’emotional’’ in conventional understanding of these
terms; this led to hysteria or psychopathy / sociopathy. Unfortunately, the latter seems to be a
particularly dangerous ‘’strain’’ which fits perfectly into the corporate world – until a CEO realizes a
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of intelligence might be, it is vital to comprehend where did the present perception of it evolve before
ingraining itself within the psyche of millions.

The notion of IQ(Intelligence Quotient)became popular in 1905 when Alfred Binet, a French
psychologist, declared that he could clearly observe parallels between a child’s mental and physical
aptitude. The idea of IQ became the paradigm by which it was determined whether a child was a
‘’genius’’ or possibly ‘‘retarded.’’ Political correctness was not prevalent at the beginning of the twentieth
century so calling the subjects ‘mentally impaired’ did not go along with the scientific meme of the era.
‘’Bedlam’’ expanded; immigrants were not admitted to the U.S. in the initial stages of the twentieth
century if they did not exhibit a specific level of mental faculty(which does not seem to have helped much
anyway).The list went further; children in Europe and the U.S. were horribly mistreated based on the fact
that they were considered to be of’ ‘inferior intellectual stock.’’ After the WWII, the notion of ‘’eugenics
in disguise’’ began encroaching on the territory of intellectuals. Mensa, an international organization
comprising individuals deemed to be ’within the two percent in terms of the IQ level on the planet’ was a
material result of this unilateral perspective. In the organization’s manifesto it is stated conspicuously that
only one person out of fifty(Why not fifty and a half, one wonders) could be considered worthy of joining
this ‘’elite’’ society. The validity of the tests provided to ‘weed out’ the geniuses is of questionable
nature(Unless one accepts the IQ phenomenon, that is). A lot of individuals consider the idea of IQ
concordant with their conscience, notwithstanding. In 1994, a book entitled ‘’The Bell Curve’’ was
published by the two American co-authors : Richard J. Herrnstein and Charles Murray. The reason for its
controversial reception was the claim that ‘’intelligence is a result of genetic inheritance in forty to eighty
percent’ and the ‘association of race with intelligence.’’ Contemporary scientists find the idea of ‘races’
diminishing in its importance due to the lack of evidence in genes to support the claim of ‘racial diversity.’
Whatever one might think of the work of these two gentlemen it is without question that a sine wave
presenting the distribution of various levels of intelligence among the global population has been ingrained
into the public’s psyche. The notion of ‘cognitive elite’(individuals who have a better chance of being a
‘top dog’ in life due to their intelligence level, higher than that of a general population regardless of
nationality) created by the authors of ‘’Bell Curve’’ is a fallacy at best; William James Sidis, who
reportedly had an IQ of more than 250,spoke more than forty languages, and was the and was the 45
youngest student in history to enroll in and finish Harvard (he was 16) ended up as a counter clerk, being
fed up with people around him. Hardly a success in life for an individual with such an extraordinary level
of intelligence. One wonders, perhaps individuals like Sidis utilized more than ten percent of their
brains(which is another puzzle as to why the brain is so glaringly underused). Nikola Tesla, on the same
hand, was refused grants to speed up his research program dealing with ‘’sending the energy along vast
distances in a free and wireless manner.’’ Fortunately, he managed to win the ‘war of the currents’ with
Edison and the alternate current became the accepted norm of electricity harness. These examples prove
the notion of ‘’cognitive elite(geniocracy?)’’ to the contrary. In case of gifted individuals, society is often
more of an impediment rather than an encouragement. This pattern, dreary as it is, seems to be present
around the world, even in places where one would expect more ‘’patent freedom.’’ Apparently, in the
U.S. there is a law stating that an invention deemed a threat to the ‘‘National Security’’ will be
concealed. Can we expect a paradigm shift in the foreseeable future? Given the current state of ‘’human
collective’’ – the latter is highly unlikely.

Moving forward, I would like to consider the issue of the language. The issues of intelligence and language
are considered to be of concomitant significance by me as they denote a number of data that can be
accessed by each of us. There is a point in one’s life when one can create an infinite number of vernacular
patterns, no matter which language this might be for that individual. A language is a living organism but it
is puzzling as to how few individuals actually realize that; they either cling to their version of ‘correctness’
or caress their egos by saying that ‘’my language is superior to yours.’’ It is ,again, the same mindset as
above: an archetypal mindset. Carl Jung concluded that humans can be divided into twelve(!) archetypes
of behavior. Six and a half billion individuals and ,apparently, the vast majority of us are nothing but
predictable. One could say it is just a theory but – upon looking around – is it? How many people
actually do use their brains? Hardly any. People talk about freedom but – how they can know what
freedom is if they cannot think for themselves? Ask them that and they will be outraged. Yes, the so-
called ‘democracy’ can be considered more lax in terms of regulations than Nazi Germany, but it is a
comparison, nothing more. Churchill was right by stating that ‘democracy is the worst idea invented but

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there is nothing better at the moment.’ Going back to the language itself, however. Consider the word
‘’pandemonium.’’ It can be observed that the prefix ‘’pan’’ means ‘’all, general,’’ demon can be left
without a comment, and the suffix –um denotes a noun. It is possible to conject the word’s meaning
without bigger problems. Thus, when people look at a seemingly complicated word, the same problem
occurs – lack of lateral thinking. It all comes down to the same common denominator: bigotry. What is
the reason? I do not know whether this is deliberate or not but I am absolutely certain that the so-called
‘‘zeitgeist issues’’ such as euthanasia, homosexuality, gender roles, et al, are a direct result of ‘’re-
surfacing.’’ For a long time it was not considered relevant, but not – fortunately – more and more people
start thinking laterally. Unfortunately, even they become entangled in the web of arguments and protests.
There will always be individuals who can consider my contemplations ‘’ivory towerish.’’ This just proves
that they do not understand the essence of my message, they cannot think beyond the edifice – yet again.
To think of oneself as ‘’rational’’ and dismiss everything ‘irrational’ defies logic to me. Mind does not
edit anything – people do by wanting to do the edition process. Of course, in a society like this it is very
often rewarded. A pragmatic individual can take care of himself. And if someone is telling me that gender
equality can be created when ,in its very essence, genders are not equal. What does that tell me about this
person? Where is his ‘’rationalism.’’ And yet these people will laugh at much more plausible ideas. Like
one wise person said: ’’Everything about this world is upside down; universities destroy knowledge,
doctors destroy health.’’ And I would add: psychiatrists destroy individuality. The only sound approach
to life seems to be ‘‘wisdom is knowing how little we know.’’ If you think you know it all, no matter how
good are you: a CEO, a scientist, a stockbroker, et al … the Matrix HAS you and it is laughing in your
face. You can retain your mind without losing your ‘‘real world privileges.’’ On the contrary, opening
your mind will provide you with more possibilities of making money than you can imagine. The point is to
grasp this concept.

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PART FOUR: KARPMAN DRAMA TRIANGLE

Anne Fienstein finally stands up and looks at me firmly.

‘’Emily’’ she begins. ‘’I believe that is all I need to know. Thank you very much for your co-operation.
Would it be a problem if I met your parents to tell them what I thought of the issue – first alone, then
with in your presence?’’

‘’Not at all Miss Fienstein’’ I stand up and perform a barely noticeable curtsy. ‘’I will be glad to be
there.’’

She then calls my parents and tells me to wait outside her office. She always makes sure that patients have
no contact with each other. Makes sense to me.

My parents come and enter Anne Fienstein’s office. She says that she would love to chat but she is just
too tired. It seems talking to me has been quite an intellectual ride for her. My parents agree to come the
next day

‘’Did she buy it?’’ my mother asks.

‘’All of it’’ malicious smile can be seen on my face.

‘’Fuckingtastic’’ my father joins the conversation while looking in the mirror. ‘’

‘’We’ve got one hell of a study on our hands’’ I continue. ‘’Let’s wait for tomorrow.’’

Tomorrow it is. Apologies if you like flowery descriptions advancing the plot. Sometimes they really are a
nuisance.

‘’Hello again, Miss Fienstein’’ my mother begins the conversation. ‘’We can’t wait to hear your
professional opinion. Emily is such a bright girl, we really can’t keep up with her mind sometimes.’’

‘’I thought it’d be good if we’d two separate conversations but now – after careful consideration – I think
it makes more sense to keep it all together’’ Fienstein says. ‘’Please, sit down.’’

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My parents sit next to her desk. I sit on a couch.

‘’First of all’’ Fienstein begins, sitting in a chair behind the desk and eyeing each and every one of us. ‘’I
don’t usually say it, but Emily is an exceptionally bright young individual. After careful analysis, I do
believe that all she needs to improve her relationship with the world is to change her environment to a
more stimulating one.’’

‘’Could you elaborate?’’ my father asks.

‘’Certainly’’ Anne Fienstein continues.

And so it goes for another hour. I cannot convey all the details because some are meant to remain
private. We now move forward to a scene where Emily and her parents enter the house.

‘’One … two … three’’ chanting can be heard coming from the living room. Emily and her parents
morph into their previous forms. Three Adams from various parallel universes, all bound by similarity in
their thinking.

‘’I always said that last impressions count’’ mother-turned-Adam states as all three burst into
uncontrollable laughter.

‘’Where do we go from here?’’ ask the metamorphosized I.

‘’Wherever we want to’’ my alternate twin responds. ‘’I always wanted to see some supercells, some
tornadoes, some hurricanes … Fujitas and Simpsons are fascinating.’’

‘’I’d rather publish a book’’ says the third twin. ‘’Voynich manuscript, anyone? Mysterious fires? The well
to hell? The faces of Bezlen? The children of Woolpit? The library of Alexandria? Chinese little people?
Wunderwaffe? Stalin’s ape-human soldiers? Pre-cognitive intelligence, perhaps? I don’t even wanna
mention BEKs and UFOs – are they extra, ultra or intraterrestrial? Urban legends? The Anunnaki?
Twelve DNA strands?’’

‘’What, you wanna go through all the stages?’’ answers another Adam. ‘’Flash fiction, very short stories,
short stories, novellas and the great novels … is that it? You wanna write about all at once?!’’

‘’Yeah, why not?’’ the third responds. ‘’I can write a book about all this and publish it somewhere in a
different reality where my audience is gonna be perfectly suited for my needs. I will use all my gathered
writing and create an overarching like and – voila – there’s a novel!’’

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Silence. What else is there to add? We join and we split. That is how it goes. That is how we are learning
to survive in infinity. Do you think this means all is a game? Do you think there is not one attachment
point? Do you think all loses its freshness? You are wrong. Why? I wish I could explain it to you, but I
simply can’t. You can either know it or think it.

Where do you place yourself?

EPILOGUE

‘’Officer, thank you’’ I look up at the man who gave the green light to shoot me with my hands trying to
touch his uniform. ‘’I just imagined a new world. A better world. Not perfect, but better. I thought about
what to do when it is all up to me. What to prepare and when, where to go and when and when to
decide or alter my original plan. Now I understand that there is only one sensible way for people like me
… acknowledge that they have done all the could to help others, and themselves in the process because
each and every one of us is egotistical when it comes down to it - and leave in peace.’’

Silence permeates the Church. I see the weapon dangling in front of my face. I gather strength and
mumble my last words as a citizen of Earth

‘’There is something in my pocket … you might find it interesting’’ I slip into unconsciousness after a
series of muffled sounds.

I die with a smile on my face. There is not a better feeling in the universe than a feeling of knowledge that
a mission has been completed. No one who has experienced the feeling of knowing will be the same
again. No intellectual analysis can ever convey the power of intuition. No intellectual analysis can ever
grasp the knowing’s application in everyday life. Knowing transcends all boundaries, it is our best friend. It
never criticizes and is always there to help us find a way out. It is our ultimate family that never changes
and never lets us down if we are only willing to listen.

The man is visibly puzzled. He tells his squad to leave the Church and wonders whether a bomb or a
chemical/biological agent is involved. Something tells him that is not the case. He decides to trust his
intuition, just this once. He scans my clothes and notices a small pocket on my left arm. He opens it and
finds a white slip of paper inside with something scribbled on it.

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In light of what is happening, were they really wrong?

Http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AqSZhwu1Rwo&feature=related

The Way Out If The Worst Happens?

Http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQba3ry4IBg

Ten Commandments of The New World Order.

1. Worship the system. Do what the system demands. This is your God.
2. Be humbled by authority for they are God’s physical manifestation.
3. You shall show your utmost respect for God by offering God part of your labor with joy in your
heart.
4. There is no friendship. There is only business.
5. Have sex with all you deem worthy to make you more efficient at God-worship.
6. Kill as often as you wish if you can prove that this is righteous in the eyes of God.
7. By defending God you defend your right to live as you want to live.
8. Lie becomes the truth if God says so.
9. By following God you are superior as God renders you all-powerful. You must prove to others
that there is only one God, only one way. Let this task bring you joy. Life that does not accept
the gospel is nothing more but subhuman life unworthy of life.
10. Constantly expand God’s living space. By expanding the living space, God is with you and your
spirits are lifted by the thought of doing God’s work.

The man smiles and points the gun at himself.

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