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Alteration
of the
Self
Psychedelic Drugs
by
Michael Erlewine
CONTENTS
PART 1 ......................................................................................... 1
PART 2 .......................................................................................... 8
PART 3 ........................................................................................ 13
PART 4 ........................................................................................ 15
The Loss of Substance: LSD ........................................................ 18
Why LSD Was Important in the 1960s ....................................... 24
Two Points, One Warning .......................................................... 31
PART 2
The problem for many drug users is not that LSD
snatched away the curtain from the Wizard of the Self
(troubling enough), but rather that behind the curtain
there was no one there. This is what gave us pause. The
philosopher Hegel wrote in his main work The
Phenomenology of the Mind, the following:
We go behind the curtain of the self to see what is there,
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were not unique, not the only ones, woke up, and
moved on. An unresolved LSD trip leaves the user in a
semi-autistic state. No one can reach them, and they
prefer it that way as opposed to the pain of real
integration.
PART 3
In my experience as a counselor the trick with these
autistic LSD types is to get right in there with them and
show them that they are not alone, that you know
exactly where they are, and that what they cling to as
making them unique is in fact common knowledge to all
of those who know the mind. There isnt anything unique
or special about their LSD trip and they might as well
accept this and move on. Others have been there before
them. There is nothing they (at first) hate more than
company, because their private drug vision is what has
made them unique to themselves all these years. It is all
they have at the moment and they have held on to it
(frozen in time) and have not progressed from that point
since then.
There is nothing these folks need more than to see that
they are not alone and not so special. This realization
spoils the trip that they have been hoarding all these
years, and they soon let go of it and rejoin the rest of us.
It is a great relief to them, actually. They move on again
and real progress is possible. And here is the moral of
this story:
While Hallucinogens dont and cant change the true
nature of our mind, they can and usually do affect our
concept of our own self, shattering whatever we had
managed to get together up to that point in our life. Drugs
are not often kind to our self-image if we are too
attached. The aftermath of a drug trip can take months
and even years to stabilize, and there are several
components it helps to be aware of.
First, as mentioned, the mind itself is not affected,
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PART 4
As mentioned, the solution that I recommend is not to
attempt to go back to where we started, but to finish the
job and become a butterfly. The concept of the self in
almost all forms of mind practice is something to get to
know, handle, and move beyond. All the Buddhists
agree. It is not that there is no self; of course there is, but
rather that our attachment to it is misplaced at best and
limiting at worst. This is why most meditation methods
help us to become clear about what the self is and is not.
As some of the ancient wisdom teachings say:
Attachment to the self is the only cloud in an otherwise
cloudless sky. What do they mean by this?
They dont mean get rid of the self, but instead to not
take our self so seriously. If you get to know it, you
cant take the self seriously. Give yourself its due; feed
it what it has to have to be happy, but more or less just
put it out to pasture. Be kind to yourself as you would to
any other person, but dont count on it to solve your
problems or rule your life. Put yourself on a diet of
reality.
At the same time, and more important, get to know your
mind, which is not your self. Your self is replete with the
little nagging narrator that tells you that you have a
dentist appointment tomorrow. The mind is beyond that,
more like the theater of operations that the selfish
narrator works in. Learn some form of meditation or
other form of mind practice, and above all start using
your mind to look at itself. This is a simple exercise that
you can do anytime. Exercise your mind looking within at
its own nature just as you have been using it all your life
to look outside. Familiarity with using the mind to know
itself is what Socrates and scores of other mystics,
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