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Preface
I have always thought that among my endless number of relatives I had the only
queer story to tell. No matter about the one in 10 statistic for lesbians and gay men
(homosexuals make up at least 10% of the population), I could not even imagine there
was another lesbiana in our family until the day of my grandmother s funeral.
It was at the funeral at the Mission San Gabriel where I began to think about the
women who have inspired me to continue with my education: my mother, grandmothers, aunts, and girl-cousins who have supported me through school, many of
whom have lived their lives around and for other women. It was at this funeral
where I rst heard the stories of my great-aunts and great-grandmother s who wore
men s clothing and fought in the revolution, only to come home to ght my greatgrandfathers. Our family story begins with a rape, a simple story. ` ` Your great-greatgrandmother went to the river, and the soldiers came and took her, says my
great-aunt Mary, whose daughter Tina, my prima, looks at me intensely, eyeing my
outlandishness, my shiny men s shoes and carefully tailored trousers, butch clothes
and walk. My prima Tina knows, I think to myself, but I know about her too. Will she
tell me about her desires so much like my own? In the unbearable heat of the midday
sun, I bow my head in prayer and my body betrays me in my grief.
Transgressions and trespassers, our grandmother rode across the border at midnight, a sleepy patroller waving her through Deming, New Mexico. She told me once
that she remembered the patroller and how easy it was to cross the border. ` ` You just
had to sign in and pay eight dollars, my grandmother told me, ` ` and I wasn t sure if I
should give him my real name. What for? There was nothing left for me in Durango; I
was never going to go back.
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traverse through our female bodies, writes Gloria Anzaldu a (1990, p. xxii). It is, in
my opinion, the contemplation of the body that is essential in the development and
evaluation of an epistemology of Chicana thought and culture.
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of her political commitment is her sexuality ` ` el amor, el deseo academic boundaries and its regulation become political borders that leave these narratives (if they are
included at all) in the last weeks of a syllabus and marginalized as the occasional
special o erings in the university course catalogue. This forces scholars who ` ` read
these texts to comment on and produce theory in non-traditiona l spaces (SaldivarHull, 2000). The messy text of the body is made a political liability in our movement
toward a standpoint of Chicana critical practice.
Not only was the brain split into two functions but so was reality. Thus people
who inhabit both realities are forced to live in the interface between the two,
forced to become adept at switching modes. Such is the case with the india and
the mestiza. (Anzaldu a, 1987, p. 37)
Recognizing the multiple perspectives of truth and ways of knowing that acknowledge
the racialized and gendered histories of conquest and colonization of indigenous
peoples, mestizaje is the embodiment of the multiple, often oppositional , subject positions of Chicana/Latina lesbians. The notion of a mestiza consciousness, based on a
construction of mixed race histories and multiple cultural and political positions that
derive from the collision between colonial and indigenous oppositions, positions the
new mestiza as nothing less than ` ` a struggle of esh, a struggle of borders, an inner
war (p. 78). It is a recognition that the brown body, in its migrations between First
and Third Worlds, acts and is acted upon by the political and economic forces of
globalization. In this sense, the brown body becomes agent, witness, and provocateur.
As Emma Pe rez (1999) rightly suggests, Aztla n as the mythical homeland of Chicana/
os is no longer the imaginary space of poets but is esh, skin, and bones. The mestiza
body that is Aztla n is both material and imaginary, manifesting itself in the notion
that a body does to the land what the land does to a body. It is a place scarred
by history and struggle, yet engaged in building new cultures and new ways of
being. It is in this way that mestizaje becomes one strategy toward an epistemology
of the borderlands.
For Anzaldu a, the struggle for territorial control over the US/Mexico border that
becomes inscripted on the brown body, the ` ` 1,950 mile long open wound/dividing a
pueblo, a culture/running down the length of my body, (Anzaldu a, 1987, p. 2) is a
material reality, not only recon guring radical subjectivities, but also comprising the
impetus for the mitigation of racialized, classed, and queered intersections in the
production of new forms of agency and being. Aztla n becomes the very real point
of departure for the imaginary, although I will argue that this voyage is not toward
the West as Terry Eagleton (2000) suggests, but to a very di erent epistemological
destination.
The brown and lesbian body that traverses the First to Third World landscape is,
as Che la Sandoval (1995) so aptly describes, ` ` the activity of the trickster who practices subjectivity-as-masquerade , the oppositional agent who accesses di ering identity, ideological, aesthetic, and political positions (p. 221). In this way, the migration
of the mestiza body is dialectical, negotiating the transcultural space of our postFordist communities and equipped with the tactics and worldviews that are forced
to ever change and develop. ` ` Stretch or die, writes poet Donna Kate Rushin in the
foreword of This bridge called my back, emphasizing the urgency of embodying change in
the everyday realities of Chicanas and other women of color.
This project of mestizaje is not the production of a new binary or the displacement
of one meta-narrative for another. Anzaldu a s mestiza consciousness is a movement
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gendered positionalities and collisions that posit the brown body against the grain of
(post)modernist ways of knowing. In this way, Anzaldu a o ers the education
researcher an alternative direction for the re-negotiation of dichotomies of dominant
systems of rationalization and positivism in new directions that could posit a convergence of the mind with the body.
The fragmented body
To be a mouth the cost is too high her whole life enslaved to that devouring
mouth. (Anzaldu a, 1987, p. 74)
The project of reclamation for the Chicana education researcher is twofold: rst,
reclamation must be asserted through a politics of di erence that emphasizes the
local and multiple subjectivities of communities that are recognized as participating
in a larger movement of participatory democracies. Second, a project of reclaiming
histories and narratives must be committed to exposing how systems of power have
privileged certain kinds of narratives that serve to undermine and invalidate others. In
Moraga s case, storying the brown body becomes problematic when our training as
writers, researchers, and cultural critics is complicit with the systems of power that
threaten to invalidate certain kinds of knowledges. Our struggle to legitimize the
stories of our theoretical mothers and grandmothers collide with our academic
` ` groomings. How do we make compatible what has been unrepresented using the
forms of positivism? How do we recon gure ourselves as witnesses when our observations of poverty and oppression include the communities of our families?
I would grow despairing if I believed, as Rosario Morales refutes, we were
unilaterally de ned by color and class. Lesbianism is then a hoax, a fraud. I
have no business with it. Lesbianism is supposed to be about connection. What
drew me to politics was my love of women, the agony I felt in observing the
straightjackets of poverty and repression I saw people in my own family in.
(Moraga, 1983, p. xiv)
Emma Pe rez (1999), in an answer to Gayatri Spivak s (1988) ` ` Can the subaltern
speak? suggests, ` ` if the subaltern could speak, would not desire be the subject of that
discourse? (p. 157). Certainly for Moraga, the interrogation of her identity as lesbian
lends itself to the possibilities of solidarity with women whose positions di er drastically from her own. Only through a mediation upon the bodies of women does
Moraga identify the nature of her own oppression and her privilege as a lightskinned woman and begin the much larger understanding of the brown body and
its exchange/use as a worker and cultural agent. It is desire, and the discourses that
de ne that desire, that leads Moraga to women and women s bodies where she is
subjected to and made cognizant of the social pressures that de ne the allowable use of
her own body. Here is skin ` ` darkened by desire (1983, p. 69), a body that not only
does what Yvonne Yabro-Bejarano (1991) argues ` ` displays the constructiveness of
race (p. 152), but is also a recognition that lesbianism directs Moraga toward a
greater understanding of sociopolitical oppression and, thus, solidarity.
Sometimes when I write, I feel I am drawing from the most silent place in myself
a place without image, word, shape, sound to create a portrait of la mechicana before the ` ` Fall, before shame, before betrayal, before Eve, Malinche,
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~oles, the
and Guadalupe; before the occupation of Aztlan, la llegada de los espan
Aztecs War of Flowers. I don t know what this woman looks like exactly, but I
know she is more than the bent back in the elds, more than the assembly-line
ngers and the rigid body beneath him in bed, more than the veiled face above
the rosary beads. She is more than the sum of all these fragmented parts.
(Moraga, 1993, p. 72)
For Cherr e Moraga, reclamation begins with the body that houses multiple identities.
Each component of the brown body has its own story to tell the lesbian mouth, the
bent back in the elds, the dismembered daughter and its deconstruction is a necessary process of reclaiming and re-imagining the histories and forms of agencies of
women who are unrepresented and unheard. Unlike the deconstructive need to
explode a text in order to engage it, Moraga is not seeking a nonform or a destruction
of form, but is remaking a new form of identity/body a body that is ground in the
interrogation of its positionality, a speci city of history and location. In an example
from the poem ` ` For the color of my mother (1983, pp. 59 60), the author displays
her mother s body postsurger y to reveal the constructiveness of a body:
Finally stitched shut from hip to breastbone
an inverted V
Vera
Elvira
` ` Bodies do not only pass meaning along, or pass it along in their uniquely responsive
way, writes Susan Leigh Foster (1996, p. xi). ` ` They develop choreographies of signs
through which they discourse. . . . They narrate their own fate. In this case, the sign
of the inverted ` ` V of surgery on the body of Moraga s mother is a narrative
inscripted in the form of staples and sutures, a story of a woman, like many other
Chicanas and Latinas who are exploited for their labor, who has literally been worked
to death. The ` ` V for ` ` Vera/Elvira on the body is Moraga s attempt at naming the
life of her mother, linking the narrative of Moraga s burgeoning political consciousnes s
within the body of her mother. Only through the body s discourse does Moraga
rename and reconstruct the broken gure of the mother. Stitched shut and made
whole, Moraga remakes and rede nes the object-woman from mother/wife/worker
to that of subject-Vera/Elvira. The brown body of the mother is not only a critical
reading of the representation of fragmentation for Moraga s postmodern text. Unlike
other representations of fragmentation that disclose the uneasiness of plurality and
diversity, Moraga s use of the broken or dismembered body confronts this fear of
` ` miscegenation.
Huitzilopotchli is not my god. And although I revere his mother Coatlicue,
Diosa de la Muerte y La Vida, I do not pray to her. I pray to the daughter,
La Hija Rebelde. She who has been banished, the mutilated sister who transforms herself into the moon. She is la fuerza femenina, our attempt to pick up the
fragments of our dismembered womanhood and reconstitute ourselves. She is the
Chicana writer s words, the Chicana painter s canvas, the Chicana dancer s
steps. She is motherhood reclaimed and sisterhood honored. (p. 74)
Coyolxauhqui, the daughter of the Aztec mother of creation, is the sister dismembered
by the misogynist brother. ` ` Breast splits from chest splits from hip splits from thigh
splits from knee from arm and foot, writes Moraga (p. 73). Splitting the body a
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body already fragmented by multiple identities and subjectivities serves the purpose
of not only reinventing identities, but also deconstructing the discourses inscripted
upon the brown body the image of the bent back in the elds is inscribed with the
racialized discourses of capitalism, the lesbian mouth is marked as sexual and transgressive muchachitas bien criadas, good girls don t talk back. In this way, the deconstruction of the body may o er the possibility of revealing how identities are
discursively created and how the brown body is constructed through the narratives
and the social mores of our communities. Not only does Moraga s narrative establish a
way of knowing that begins with the carnality of the brown body, but it also begins
deconstructing the prevailing ideologies that mediate how race, class, gender, and
sexuality constitute Chicana identities.
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given society are illustrated best using Foucault s (1981) notion of the body ` ` disorder. ` ` Disorders, in this case, are the ` ` cultural indicators of the problem of control
(Turner, 1984, p. 2), particularly within communities of color, women, and queers.
One example of ` ` disorder is the American Psychiatric Association s 1973 removal of
homosexuality as a pathology from the Diagnostic and statistical manual. In turn, homosexuality as a pathology was subsequently replaced by a new ` ` disorder Gender
Identity Disorder of Children that gave parents and social workers the right to
hospitalize and institutionalize young people whose bodies did not adhere to the
conventions of traditional masculinity or femininity (Sedgwick, 1993). Interestingly
enough, when reading the Eve Kosofsky Sedgwick article, ` ` How to bring your kids up
gay, one lesbian student in my classroom ` ` remembered visits and a brief period of
institutionalizatio n at a local research hospital as a 7-year-old child.
I remember being taken by my parents to a hospital and I knew it was because
there was something wrong with me, there was something wrong about being
this boy-girl that I was and I remember asking where s my ma, what did I do?
(Personal correspondence , 11/20/99)
Turner (1984) argues that the regulation of the body is closely bound with the control
of female sexuality and socialization (p. 3). In this case, the feminine body of the then
7-year-old student was judged in ` ` disorder according to the standards set by her
doctor and her parents. Although Foucault s notion of the body disorder seems to
a ect female students disproportionately , young lesbians and gay men who create
their own style of race and gender performance continue to defy those discourses
that maintain the social order. In another example at an alternative high school for
queer youth, students often receive con icting messages from school o cials when
volatile behavior seems to draw di erent and unequal treatments from school sta
and administration for the gay male student as opposed to the lesbian student.
` ` Josie a big girl, strong, butch, Latina publicly challenged another male
student today, she shook her sts at him, she pushed chairs over to get to him, it
was an awesome display of power. The lead teacher quickly suspended her from
school. I ve noticed that other male students who exhibit the same damn behaviors are given two or three chances and are rarely expelled from school. Double
standard for the lesbians. (Journal entry 10/30/95)
Instances of disruptive behavior by female (lesbian) students were much more regulated by the male administrators than those disruptive instances by (gay) male
students. In a blur of movement, ` ` Josie s body ` ` disordered the classroom space.
No longer docile, the butch body s ` ` disorderly conduct destabilizes the order of the
classroom, forcing the teachers to contain and reestablish control in their class space.
The lesbian body threatened the authority of the administration, and the teaching
sta made much of her bodily strength and her hands and sts. In the eyes of the
school s administration, the student ` ` Josie embodied irrationality and is reduced to
` ` hands and sts that turn into dangerous weapons as she threatens another student
who had been taunting her about her masculine body. The body, even in a space
created for lesbian and gay youth, is still contained within the parameters of its
(future) use, whether as worker, citizen, or its complicity with a racially gendered
social order. The punishments are thorough and swift for girls who stray outside of the
roles relegated for female bodies. Not only are the consequences harsh for the young
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woman of color but, in this instance when the social authority of the classroom breaks
down, it is the female body that becomes inscribed as hysterical, irrational, and
monstrous.
I walk in a sea of perfection
I am awed
Not brown enough
Not white enough
Not thin enough
Chicana poet Christine Soto s (2000a) ` ` 250 Pounds begins with a body that does not
` ` t into the categories that de ne ` ` normality. Queer amidst Chicanos, Chicana
surrounded by largely white lesbian and gay communities, and big in a society that
values thinness as beauty, Soto s excerpt positions the brown body in opposition to the
bodies of ` ` las Gu eras, not only as a position against the white standards of beauty,
but also against becoming silenced. In this way, Soto is transitioning into accommodating her multiple shifting subject positions occupied by her body and is also defying
the unspoken rules against speaking out about abuse:
How did I get here?
250 pounds of shame
Hiding from that which I would rather forget
Feeling disgust
Swallowing words with a side of fries and a Big Mac
This is what I was taught,
Mama told me it was something I shouldn t speak of
So I don t.
Even as she was instructed by the mother not to talk about her history of abuse, Soto
rejects the cultural constraints placed upon her to stay silent. In reconstructing the
memory of the trauma, Soto reconstitutes the experience, making sense of her own
history as a survivor, and begins the process of transformation . On one level, Soto s
poem can be read as a struggle against the unrealistic standards of beauty and body
image for young females in this society. On another level, the poem can be read as a
narrative of the body, where the language of the self is as substantial as esh, a body
that confronts the inscriptions of shame:
I eat and eat and eat
When the food goes down so does it
That is what las Gu eras can t see
That 250 pounds keeps it from coming out.
Majorie Orellana (1999) argues that narratives provide space where social identities
can be constructed. For Soto, not only is her poetry a critique of the racially gendered
discourses of dominant culture, but her writing is also a celebration of ambiguity and
of mestizaje. In her refusal to accept the dichotomy of genders and her acknowledgement of the collision of cultures between brown and white bodies, Soto begins the
creation of narrative that informs her struggle in situating her identity as butch and as
Chicana.
If you only knew what lies beneath
These slacks and dress shirt
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palpable; the hunger to create is as substantial as ngers and hands. (Anzaldu a,
p. 71)
I believe in the power of narratives. My seminars begin with critical stories about the
body. The body prompts memory and language, builds community and coalition. The
body is a pedagogical devise, a location of recentering and recontextualizing the self
and the stories that emanate from that self. The discourse of the Radical Right has
done such an excellent job of decontextualizing a narrative. ` ` South-Central L.A. teen
mom gets accepted to MIT, says the Los Angeles Times, reinscribing the myth of the
American Dream onto the body of a 17-year-old single mother. For these reasons,
educational researchers must learn to recognize ` ` the centrality of the body in reproduction and transformation of culture (Jaggar & Bordo, 1989, p. 4).
For the educational researcher, the inclusion of the body holds the beginnings of
charting new territories in epistemic approaches, where we can begin to develop
strategies to rethink our work in education to re ect the multiplicities of language
and history in less partial and less distorted ways. The body reminds us that it is
critical to acknowledge the self and its locations. How do these locations impact the
directions of critical inquiry? For this argument, this paper is about the acknowledgement of our theoretical mothers and grandmothers, of the recognition of the
lived experience of women and their histories. Too often theory is left without a
body, without an acknowledgement of its origins. For the Chicana educational
researcher, the body is a critical component of the study of agency and empowerment.
Writers such as Gloria Anzaldu a, Cherr e Moraga, and Christine Soto work strategically from peripheral locations that are both inside and beyond the boundaries of
present-day theory. By virtue of their position can the poet and the researcher challenge existing frameworks that are invested in maintaining the academic boundaries
between disciplines and knowledges? The mestiza scholar attends to her research with
the tools of multiple sources and multiple ways of knowing. Mestizaje informs our
choices as researchers and we garner our knowledges through an interrogation of the
lived conditions of our communities. What Moraga and Anzaldu a do best is re ect the
multitude of strategies, methodologies, and approaches to di erent ways of knowing.
Situating knowledge in the brown body begins the validation of the narratives of
survival, transformation , and emancipation of our respective communities, reclaiming
histories and identities. And in these ways, we embody our theory.
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