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come away with a syrupy tear. She is fully awake now. For
a moment we fight for control, but she cannot hold me and
I shrug my arm free. The raw ripping sparks in every fiber,
every sinewwe burn together. I work on the other arm,
pushing through the fingertips, feeling every cell split and
seal up again, as hers do, releasing me.
Guilt flickers through me. Mine, not hers. I am moments
away from being Teva, and she . . . she will be left behind.
She fights. Her arms grab at mine but there is no turn-
ing back; theres no longer room for both of us.
I lift my toes and feel them suck away; they brush the
bedclothes as they come free. My new skin is sensitive, not
used to being touchedI almost cant bear it. I wrench my
legs up and kick away the covers. Her hands are on our face
now.
She cant stop it.
I have to be free.
I will be free.
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Eva took Peepee back. Smine, she said, stuffing his soggy
ear into her mouth.
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against my pink one. Wed gone to Yellow Lake for the day.
It had been freezing cold but so worth it. I felt like he was
mine, at last, completely minenot seen through Fifteens
eyes or kissed through Fifteens lips. Wed stopped under a
huge tree that had a sort of dip in it. Hed leaned me back
against the bark and blocked the wind with his body, and as
he looked down at me, I was safe. Warm and safe and home.
The memory of that outing twisted inside me, tainted
by Fifteens bitter rantings. The trip wasnt meant for me.
It should have happened the Saturday before, but Ollie had
postponed it for a soccer game. Fifteen had been looking
forward to it for weeks, but she never got to go. I took over,
and I took Ollie. She never got to see him again.
You can see why she hated me.
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