Presents:

Bali Mahrjas Surrender

Lecture no. 1

Given By

HDG
rla Gour Govinda Swami

rmad-Bhgavatam 8.18.14-20
16.8.92
in Bhubaneswar, India
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TEXT 14
tasyopanyamnasya
svitr savitbravt
bhaspatir brahma-stra
mekhal kayapo dadt

At the sacred thread ceremony of Vmanadeva, the sun-god personally uttered

the Gyatr mantra, Bhaspati offered the sacred thread, and Kayapa Muni
offered a straw belt.

TEXT 15
dadau kjina bhmir
daa somo vanaspati
kaupncchdana mt
dyau chatra jagata pate

Mother earth gave Him a deerskin, and the demigod of the moon, who is the king
of the forest, gave Him a brahma-daa [the rod of a brahmacr]. His mother,
Aditi, gave Him cloth for underwear, and the deity presiding over the heavenly
kingdom offered Him an umbrella.

TEXT 16
kamaalu veda-garbha
kun saptarayo dadu
aka-ml mahrja
sarasvaty avyaytmana

O King, Lord Brahm offered a waterpot to the inexhaustible Supreme

Personality of Godhead, the seven sages offered Him kua grass, and mother
Sarasvat gave Him a string of Rudrka beads.

TEXT 17
tasm ity upantya
yaka-r ptrikm adt
bhik bhagavat skd
umdd ambik sat

When Vmanadeva had thus been given the sacred thread, Kuvera, King of the
Yakas, gave Him a pot for begging alms, and mother Bhagavat, the wife of Lord
iva and most chaste mother of the entire universe, gave Him His first alms.

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TEXT 18
sa brahma-varcasenaiva
sabh sambhvito vau
brahmari-gaa-sajum
atyarocata mria

Having thus been welcomed by everyone, Lord Vmanadeva, the best of the
brahmacrs, exhibited His Brahman effulgence. Thus He surpassed in beauty
that entire assembly, which was filled with great saintly brhmaas.

TEXT 19
samiddham hita vahni
ktv parisamhanam
paristrya samabhyarcya
samidbhir ajuhod dvija

After Lord r Vmanadeva set a sacrificial fire, He offered worship and

performed a fire sacrifice on the sacrificial field.

TEXT 20
rutvvamedhair yajamnam rjita
bali bhgm upakalpitais tata
jagma tatrkhila-sra-sambhto
bhrea g sannamyn pade pade

When the Lord heard that Bali Mahrja was performing avamedha sacrifices
under the patronage of brhmaas belonging to the Bhgu dynasty, the
Supreme Lord, who is full in every respect, proceeded there to show His mercy
to Bali Mahrja. By His weight, He pushed down the earth with every step.

PURPORT
The Supreme Personality of Godhead is akhila-sra-sambhta. In other words, He
is the proprietor of everything essential in this material world. Thus although the
Lord was going to Bali Mahrja to beg something, He is always complete and has
nothing to beg from anyone. Indeed, He is so powerful that in His full opulence
He pressed down the surface of the earth at every step.

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One who has property he is a proprietor. Having no property you are saying you are
proprietor. Such nonsense. Viay-sakala-mdhava. You have to first hear this thing,
ge uno. mana, this is stupid mind says like this. mana baa viva gata [?] mind is
very stupid stuborn, disobedient, fickle, most rascal. This mind. Creates all trouble.
Isnt it? Creates all trouble this rascal mind, nothing else.

tomra nitya-dsa mui, tom psariy

paiycho bhavrave my-baddha ha
kp kari kara more pada-dhli-sama
tomra sevaka karo tomra sevana
[Caitanya-caritmta 3.20.33-34]

gopnth, mi to tomra jana

tomre chriy, sasra bhajinu,
bhuliy pana-dhana

gopinth, tumi to sakali jno

panra jane, daiy ekhano,
r-carae aeho sthno

gopnth, ei ki vicra taba

bimukha dekhiy, chro nija-jane,
na koro karu-laba

gopnth, mi to mrakha ati

kise bhlo hoya, kabhu n bujhinu,
ti heno mama gati

gopnth, tumi to paita-bara

mhera magala, tumi anveibe,
e dse n bhvo para

`rdh-ksna bol bol bolo re sobi

(ei) ikh diy, sab nady,
phirche nece gaura-niti
(miche) myr boe, jccho bhese,
khccho hbuubu, bhi

(jv) ka-ds, e vivs,

korle to r dukha ni
(ka) bolbe jabe, pulak habe,
jhorbe khi, boli ti

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(`rdh) ka bolo, sage calo,

ei-mtra bhik ci
(jay) sakal vipod, bhaktivinod,
bole, jakhon o-nm gi

So you understood? Understood? I think you understood. Isnt it? Everything

belongs to Ka. That we say, He is the proprietor of everything essential in this
material world
aha sarvasya prabhavo
matta sarva pravartate
iti matv bhajante m
budh bhva-samanvit
[Bhagavad-gt 10.8]
Ka says this thing in Bhagavad-gt: I am the source of all emanations,
everything has emanated from Me. In other words everything is Kas property.
Ka is the sole proprietor. One who has property he is a proprietor. Isnt it? One
who has no property, how can he be proprietor? Having no property you are saying
you are proprietor. Dna-bandhu, have you any property? But saying proprietor.
Saying proprietor. This is strange. No property but saying he is proprietor. Great
criminal. Isnt it? Yes. Great criminal. Everything is Kas property. Ka is the
only proprietor, sole proprietor, aha sarvasya prabhavo. Are you your property?
You are property of Ka. Your body, your mind, your speech, you yourself
soul, everything belongs to Ka. Isnt it? But you say, my body, my mind, my
intelligence. Kas property you say mine. Do you understand? You want to
lord it over Kas property. Developed such criminal mentality. Great criminal.
Those who are criminals, they deserve punishment. Isnt it? Yaja-daa. This is
yaja-daa. Befitting punishment. To be put in the prison house. Isnt it? And
suffer there lakhs and lakhs of lives. Isnt it? my-kt krgre. This material world
is a prison house created by my for these criminals. Do you understand? my has
put up very strong shackles on your legs and hands. Legs, hands are shackled. Isnt
it? Tight, very tight shackle. Isnt it? Bhan, bhan, bondage. Do you feel so?
Do you feel so? That you are in bondage? Then hopeful, otherwise hopeless case.
Really you are in bondage, very strong shackles, tight. Hands and legs are tied up.
One who feels so he is a hopeful case. But one who doesnt feel so is a hopeless case.
He is hopeless. He is so callous! Really he is in bondage but he cannot understand
that I am in bondage. Yes, such callousness. Hopeless case. Do you understand?
Yes, you should understand these things. Therefore this suffering is here. my has
bound you up within this prison house, in her fort. This is Durg Devs fort. Durg,
this material world. Do you understand? Birth, death, old age and disease are the
punishments. As long as one is here, that period is the period of punishment. Do
you understand? Daa-bhoga-sthal, this is prison house and as long as jva is here
he must get punishment. This is a period of punishment. One who is intelligent,
has some intelligence, he can understand, Really I am in trouble, really I am in

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bondage, really I am suffering, I have been suffering. How to get out of this bondage?
How to get out of this prison house? He must enquire. He is intelligent. Otherwise
one who is callous, ignorant fool, though he is suffering he thinks, I am in fools
paradise, I am enjoying, enjoying, enjoying. Such foolishness, callousness. He is
hopeless case.

aha sarvasya prabhavo

matta sarva pravartate
iti matv bhajante m
budh bhva-samanvit
[Bhagavad-gt 10.8]
Ka says this thing: Those who are budh, those who are real paits, really
learned, they know this thing. That Ka is the only proprietor, everything is
Kas property. Nothing is mine. He is the source of all emanations, everything
has emanated from Him. In other words everybody, everything is related to Ka.
Ka is the only relationship. It is perfect, eternal, loving relationship. Do you
understand? We have perfect, eternal, perfect loving relationship with Ka. One
who is budh, pait, learned, he understands this thing and does his bhajan in that
mood, loving mood. Do you understand? He does his bhajan, serves Ka in loving
mood, offers loving service, prema-may-sev. Not mere service, loving service. And
we have loving relationship, eternal, perfect loving relationship with Ka. And
we should establish ourselves in that relationship. Then there will be no trouble at
all, no suffering at all. All happy, all joyful, all blissful. Youll see and find.

Ka says, stra says, mahjana says. Bhaktivinod hkur, mahjana he says that
thing,
`mra bolite prabhu! re kichu ni
tumi-i mra mtra pit-bandhu-bhi
[aragati, tma-Nivedana 5.1]
Oh Lord there is nothing that I can say mine. Everything belongs to You. You
are my father, You are my friend, You are my mother, You are everything to me.
That is a fact. Ka is the only relationship. ato gha-ketra-sutpta-vittair janasya
moho yam aha mameti [SB 5.5.8]. But bewildered souls, conditioned souls, they
have forgotten this thing, their eternal loving relationship with Ka. They have
developed material relationships, temporary relationships, bodily relationships,
saying I and mine. ato gha-ketra-sutpta-vittairjanasya moho yam aha mameti,
This gha, house is mine. Ketra, this land and property is mine. Suta, son, daughter
is mine. Apta friends, family members are mine. Vitta, these assets, wealth, bank
balance is mine. Everything mine. I am the monarch of all I survey. At last he
says, This land is mine, this country is mine, this world is mine. I am the monarch
of all I survey. I, mine, bs. Factually everything belongs to Ka. But he says
mine. janasya moho, this is delusion. Deluded soul, bewildered soul, he says like
that. Therefore he suffers. He is a great criminal, he says Kas property, mine.

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Therefore he suffers. Such severe punishment is inflicted on him in this prison

house created by my, birth, death, old age and disease. Bhaktivinod hkura,
sdhu mhjana says `mra bolite prabhu! re kichu ni, There is nothing I can say
mine, that it belongs to me. I belong to You. ka mi tomr. I belong to You. I dont
belong to myself

bandhu, dr, suta, suttava ds ds

sei to sambandhe sabe mra prays
[aragati, tma-Nivedana 5.2]
Now I am established in that one relationship, that loving relationship, eternal
loving relationship with You. Giving up all material relationship, temporary
relationship, bodily relationships. Whatever I say my friend, he is Your ds. He is
Your servant. What I say my wife, she is Your maidservant. What I say my son,
he is Your servant. What I say my daughter, she is Your maidservant. That means
Your servants and maidservants. Whatever I say my, my son, my daughter, my
wife, my friend, my kit and kin they are all Your servants and maidservants. sei to
sambandhe mra prays, Now I am convinced, determined. I understand it very
well. Now I will establish this eternal, loving relationship with You. No more bodily
relationship. No more this material, temporary relationship. Finished.

dhana, jana, gha, dra `tomra boliy

rakh kori mi mtro sevaka hoiy
[aragati, tma-Nivedana 5.3]
This wealth, this property, this asset, relations, followers, family members, this
home and hearth, everything Yours. Who are you then? Who are you? I am Your
servant, Your servant. Everything belongs to You. I am You servant. My duty is to
protect Your property and utilize it in Your service. That is my duty. I will do this
thing. I will never say mine. Do you understand?

bhlo-manda nhi jni sev mtro kori

tomra sasre mi viaya-prahar
[aragati, tma-Nivedana 5.5]
I dont know whether I am doing good or bad. Gurudev has said, Your bonafide
representative, Guru. I have accepted, taken shelter at His lotus feet. He has
established my relationship with You, eternal loving relationship. Sambandha-jn,
he has imparted sambandha-jn. Do you understand? Guru. Do you follow me? I
do not know. He has said do this thing. Gurudev has said to do this thing. This
is your sev. This is your service for Ka. Go, plunder, steal! Beg, borrow, steal,
get money! Yes Gurudev has said. I dont know whether I am doing good or bad.
I dont know. I am mrkha. I am mrkha. gopnth, mi to mrakha. I was singing
Gopnth-song. gopnth, mi to mrakha ati, Oh Gopnth I am mrkha. Mrka,
do you understand mrkha? Fool, fool, great fool! I dont know what is good and
what is bad. I have no knowledge at all. Do you understand? Do you follow me?

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My Guru has said, Do this thing. So I am doing this thing. Yes, nothing else.
Jagadish says mine. Take away everything from him. Kas money. Cheating,
cheating, great cheater, great cheater. Just pretending, pretending. A great cheater.
Saying mine, mine, mine. I and mine. bhlo-manda nhi jni sev mtro kori, tomra
sasre mi viaya-prahar. I dont know whether I am doing good or bad. I am
just rendering service unto Your lotus feet, o Ka, under the guidance of my
spiritual master. I am only a watchman. Do you understand? In Your samsra. I
am a watchman. I am just watching over Your, guarding over Your property. Yes.
A treasury guard, who guards does he say, My wealth is stored here? Does he say
so? No, I am just a guard. I am just a watchman. Holding gun. Left, right, left,
right. At night guarding, guarding, guarding. tomra sasre mi viaya-prahar. I
am a watchman, a guard only. I am guarding Your property. It belongs to You. I am
protecting it for Your service. Nothing mine. Do you understand? viaya-samha
sakali mdhava. Gurudev says so. You must first hear this from Guru. Gurudev says
so. Everything belongs to Ka. Nothing belongs to you. You are Ka ds.

tomra icchya mora indriya-clan

ravana, darana, ghrna, bhojana-vsan
[aragati, tma-Nivedana 5.6]
I utilize all my senses in Your service. hkea hkea- sevana bhaktir ucyate [Cc.
2.19.170]. That is bhakti, that is sev. Bhakti means service, service unto Ka, that is
bhakti. Bhaj-dhatu means service, to serve. Bhajan means service. Do you understand?
That is bhajan. That is service. Bhaj-dhatu, verbal root, means service. Service unto
Ka that is bhakti. Do you understand? hkea hkea-sevana bhaktir ucyate,
to serve Hkea, the Master of the senses with your senses. That is bhakti. tomra
icchya mora indriya-clan, ravana, darana, ghrna, bhojana-vsan According to
Your will. To execute Your will, in executing your will, to please You I utilize my
ear for hearing ka-kath, bhgavata-kath. I utilize my eyes to see You. To see Your
beautiful Deity. To see Your beautiful form. To see Your dear devotees vaiavas,
sdhus. Just I utilize. To see Your property. To see Your all paraphernalia. Yes this
is all paraphernalia for Your service. Yes, I see it and I utilize it. Yes this is Kas,
nothing mine. That is to utilize the eyes, the sense. ravana, darana, ghrna, I
utilize my nose to smell Tulsi, offered, scented flower offered, rati offered. Yes nice
smell. Yes. bhojana-vsan. Utilize my tongue to taste Your prasd. All the senses
utilized in Your service. That is bhakti.

nija-sukha lgi kichu nhi kori r

bhakativinoda bole, tava sukha-sr
[aragati, tma-Nivedana 5.7]
Bhaktivinod hkur says, O Lord, I wont do anything for my own happiness and
pleasure. I will do everything for Your happiness and pleasure. Because You are
the Enjoyer, You are the only object of love. Prti-viaya. You have to be pleased,
satisfied. Do you understand?

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[a short part is missing]

Giving enjoyment to his own senses. To his body and bodily relations. Therefore he
commits great offence, hes great offender, a great criminal, great crime he commits.
So he suffers. The warden of the prison house, my, inflicts punishment on him.
janma-mtyu-jar-vydhi, birth, death, old age and disease. Life after life. Do you
understand? So you must first hear this thing. Guru says this thing.

Mind is stupid mind. Ka says man-man bhava, Keep Me in your mind. How can
you keep Ka in your mind unless you develop love for Ka. Stupid mind will
think of that object or that person whom it likes. Yes, whom it likes. If you develop
love for Ka, thats a fact you have eternal loving relationship with Ka, Ka
is the only object of love, then the mind will think of Ka. Otherwise the stupid
mind will never think of Ka. First hear from sdhu guru then this stupid mind will
be purified. Will be fixed. Do you understand? Bhgavat-kath, Nitynanda-kath,
Ka-kath, Gour-kath, nectarean so sweet. If you hear from the right source, lips
of a pure sdhu, then this stupid, fickle mind, rascal mind will be pacified, will be
fixed. You will develop love for Ka. Do you understand?

Always, always one should hear. One who is disciple he hears. Unless you become
disciple, unless you surrender unto the lotus feet of Guru, these words will never
enter into your ears. You should understand this thing. Yes. That Prahld Mahrj
has said, First surrender, then hear, then put faith. Otherwise you cannot have
faith. What he says I wont hear. These words will never enter into your ear.
Therefore first iya, first become iya, disciple. dau guru-pdraya, dau first
thing. First thing is guru-pdraya. Take shelter of the lotus feet of Guru. dau
guru-pdraya. Bhakti-rasmta-sindhu says this thing. Rupapd says, Mahprabhu
says. rman Mahprabhu is Ka Himself. He came as sdhu Guru. In Santana-
ik, when teaching Santana Goswm, He says guru-pdraya dk. He says
guru-pdraya dk, take shelter of guru, be initiated. Bhakti-rasmta-sindhu says,
guru-pdrayas tasmt ka-dkdi-ikaam
virambhea guro sev sdhu-vartmnuvartanam
[Bhakti-rasmta-sindhu, Eastern division, Second wave, text 74]
The same thing. Because both Santana Gosvm and Rpa Gosvm has been
taught by Mahprabhu. So they say so. guru-pdrayas tasmt ka-dkdi-
ikaam, virambhea guro sev sdhu-artmnuvartanam. dau guru-pdraya, first
take shelter of Guru, accept Guru, come under His discipline. Then you will get out
of the clutches of my, discipline of my. As long as you have not accepted Guru,
not taken shelter of the lotus feet of Guru, not come under the strict discipline of
Guru, you are under the discipline of the stringent laws of material nature, bs. Yes,
my ds. Do you understand? Under the stringent laws of material nature you are.
Therefore says, guru-pdrayas tasmt ka-dkdi-ikaam, virambhea guro
sev sdhu-vartmnuvartanam, take shelter of Guru, accept Guru, come under His

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discipline. iyas te ha dhi m tv prapannam, I become your disciple. Please

inflict discipline on me, purify me and then impart tattva- jna. That is dhi m,
initiation, ik, teaching. virambhea guro sev. Do you understand? Serve Guru.
Praipta, pariprana sev. Praipta means surrender, accept Guru, then sev, serve
Guru, please Him. Then humbly enquire. Then Guru will impart tattva-jna. Then
you will thread this path of devotional service. Sdhu, sdhu-panth, path of the
sdhu. Sdhus, mahjanas, they have shown the path. Then you will follow the path.
This is the procedure. First become iya. Unless you become iya you cannot hear.
These words will never enter into your ear.

Guru speaks about Ka. Do you understand? He establishes our loving, eternal,
loving relationship with Ka. He imparts sambandha-jna. Do you understand?
He imparts sambandha-jna and he establishes our relation that we have forgotten.
The relationship that is broken he reestablishes. That Guru. Guru says, sakti rahita
sambandha-sahita, viaya-samha sakali mdhava. Gurudev says so, Everything
belongs to Mdhava, belongs to Ka. Whatever you see, these are all Kas
paraphernalia. For His service. Do you understand? Utilize for His service. Ka
is the only proprietor, everything is His property. Do you understand? One who
has property, land and property, bank balance, wealth he is known as proprietor,
viayi. But factually Ka is the only viayi, because everything belongs to Him.
But bewildered souls thinks mine. And he utilizes everything, bewildered soul,
thinking mine, saying mine, for his sense enjoyment. Therefore he suffers.

Then you have to take part in Goura-sakrtan, Ka-sakrtan. If you take

part under the guidance of Guru, bonafide Guru, then you can understand how
everything belongs to Ka, how you belong to Ka. His servant. Then all
auspiciousness will be there, all auspiciousness. Otherwise you will welcome all sorts
of inauspiciousness. Do you understand? Inauspiciousness. If someone is intelligent,
associates with sdhu, hears from sdhu. Then he understands who am I, I am Ka
ds. kena v bhajinu my kare kaya hay Oh why I have become my ds? Up till
now, so many lives. Alas, alas, alas! He dashes his head. Cries, cries, cries. kende
bole, ohe ka, mi taba ds He says O Ka I am Your ds, I am Your servant.
tomra caraa chi haila sarva-n, disregarding Your lotus feet I am completely
doomed now.

ayi nanda-tanuja kikara

patita m viame bhavmbudhau
kpay tava pda-pakaja-
sthita-dhl-sada vicintaya
[r ikaka, 5]
Mahprabhu has taught us this prayer. This is the prayer you have to offer. O son
of Nanda Mahraj I am Your kikara, I am Your servant. But forgetting You I have
fallen here in this dreadful ocean of materialistic existence and have been drowning,

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drowning and drowning. Now please think of me as a speck of dust at Your lotus
feet. Do you understand? Please think of me as a speck of dust at Your lotus feet.
Let Your servant serve You. tomra sevaka karo tomra sevana r sevan, let Your
servant serve You. Bhaktivinod hkur mahjana has sung very nice songs. Do you
understand? Very nice songs. We are singing this Gopntha song. Do you follow?
Do you know this song?

Gopnth, mi to tomra jana

tomre chriy, sasra bhajinu,
bhuliy pana-dhana.
[Gopnth 4]
O Gopnth, mi tomr, I am Yours, I am Your servant, eternally I am Yours. But
forgetting this, forgetting You, forgetting this eternal, perfect, loving relationship
with You I am fallen here in this dreadful ocean of this materialistic existence and
have been suffering and suffering and suffering. Do you understand? You are my
asset, namo kicana-vittya. One who says everything belongs to Ka, nothing
mine, he is akicana, niskicana. Isnt it? He is akicana. Then his asset is Ka.
Ka is his asset. namo kicana-vittya, Kuntdev says. Vitta means asset, vitta
means asset. Akicana vittya. Asset of akicana, Ka. Do you understand? Do
you follow. Yes. That he says, bhuliy pana-dhana, You are my asset. But I have
forgotten it. Therefore I am drowned here. I am fallen here in this dreadful ocean of
materialistic existence and have been drowning and drowning and suffering.

gopinth, tumi to sakali jno

panra jane, daiy ekhano,
r-carae aeho sthno
[Gopnth 5]
You know everything, Gopnth. Yes, You are all knowing. panr jane I am
Yours, please inflict punishment on me. I deserve punishment. Dont you deserve?
Yes. Bhaktivinod hkur: daiy ekhano, please inflict punishment on me. Yes, I
deserve because I have committed such crime. I have forgotten You. Isnt it? Now
You inflict punishment on me. But one prayer: please give me a place at your lotus
feet. I accept Your punishment gladly. But my prayer, r-carae aeho sthno please
give me a place, think me as a speck of dust, just tiny place, very minute place at
Your lotus feet. Please give me.

gopnth, ei ki vicra taba

bimukha dekhiy, chro nija-jane,
na koro karu-laba
[Gopnth 6]
Is it Your judgment Gopnth? You are wise. You are not fool. mi mrkha, I am
fool but You are not fool, Gopinath, You are wise. Is it Your judgment that I forget
You and therefore You kick me? Will You kick me? Will you kick me? I am Yours.

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O Gopnth. I forgot You, I disregarded You, because I am fool, mrkha, stupid.

Yes, it is quite natural with me but it is not natural with You. You are pait, You
are pait, You are all-knowing. So is it Your judgment that You are leaving me,
deserting me, kicking me. Not showering just a drop of mercy on me. O Gopnth.
Is it Your judgment?

gopnth, mi to mrakha ati

kise bhlo hoya, kabhu n bujhinu,
ti heno mama gati
[Gopnth 7]
I am mrkha, I am great fool. I dont know what is good for me. Who is mrkha
how can he understand what is good? I am mrkha, I am great fool, I dont know
what is good for me. Only for this reason, O Gopnth, You desert me? Therefore
I am suffering now. Yes, I can understand why I am suffering now. Yes. But, tumi
to paita-bara, Gopnth. But You are pait, You are all knowing, You are wise.
mhera magala, tumi anveibe, e dse n bhvo para. Though I am fool, rascal, but
I am Yours, I am Your servant. You are all-knowing, You are not fool, You are wise.
You know what is good for me. Please do it, what is good for me. Dont think that
Your ds, I am Your ds, is something else. Not Yours. Dont think that I am not
Yours, I am Yours.

Do you understand? This is prayer. Do you follow? So nice songs. Bhaktivinod

hkur mahjana has sung these things. When he hears from sdhu the conditioned
soul, bhadda-jva, understands, Who am I, who am I? Then he cries at the lotus
feet of Ka
kkuti kariy ke ke eka-br
kp kari ka tre chna sasr
[Prema-vivarta]
When he cries, then Ka Who is there in the heart thinks, Now he is crying for
Me. Then He showers His mercy on him,
myke pichane rkhi ka-pne cy
bhajite bhajite ka-pda-padma py
[Prema-vivarta]
Then he kicks my. You my, get out from here! Then he looks at Ka. Kicks
Maya and looks at Krsna. Kicks my back, goes forward towards Ka. Do you
understand? Then Ka showers His mercy. Accepts Guru then he engages himself
in Ka bhajan.
tte ka bhaje, kare gurura sevana
my-jala chue, pya kera caraa
[Caitanya-caritmta 2.22.25]
Do you understand? This is the process. tte ka bhaje, kare gurura sevana, serves
Guru and does Ka bhajan under the guidance of Guru. Then he becomes free
from the clutches of my and approaches the lotus feet of Ka.

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ka tre dena nija cic-chaktira bal

my karaa che haiy durbal
[Prema-vivarta]
Then he gets the spiritual strength from Ka that comes through Guru. He
becomes strong now. my becomes now powerless. Do you understand? Otherwise
you cannot get out from the clutches of my. Unless you get spiritual strength from
Ka. That comes through Guru.

sdhu-saga ka-nma ei-mtra ci

sasra jinite ra kona vastu ni
[Prema-vivarta]
This is the only thing required, sdhu-saga ka-nma, to have sdhu-saga and
hear Ka-nma. Chant Ka-nma in the association of sdhu. And hear Ka-
kath, Gour-kath, Nitynanda-kath, nectarean, sweet kath from the lips of
sdhu. Thereby you get spiritual strength. Then you will be able to conquer my.
Do you understand? Otherwise you cannot conquer my. my is very strong. This
is the only thing required. No other way is there to conquer my, only sdhu-saga
and Ka-kath, Ka-nma. Bs. Do you follow, Jagadish Pait? Otherwise you
cannot conquer my. This is the only prayer, only aspiration, only hankering. No
other thing is there.

So we sing a song that you know, understand. I am not going to repeat it. haribolo
bolo re bhi, `rdh-ksna bolo, miche myr boe, jccho bhese, khccho hbuubu,
bhi. Bhaktivinod hkur says. Accepting my, serving my, you have become
mys naphara, mys ds, mys slave, mys servant you have become. Therefore
you have been drowning here in this dreadful ocean of materialistic existence. Do
you understand? Just raising head. Then again drowning. Again raising head. Again
drowning. Again raising head. Again drowning. This is suffering, suffering. haribolo
bolo re bhi, myr boe, `rdh-ksna bol bol bolo re sobi. jva ka-ds, e vivs, korle
to r dukha ni. When one has this complete faith, strong faith that jva is Ka
ds, I am Ka ds, and is established in that relationship with Ka under the
guidance of Guru, then no more suffering. No more suffering. Finished. haribolo bolo
re, jva ka-ds, `rdh-ksna bol bol bolo re sobi. And this is the only thing. Sdhu
says, Guru says, vaiava says. `rdh ka bolo, sage calo, ei-mtra bhik ci. A
sannys, given up everything. So he has come to you and begging one alm. Give
me. Give me this alm! What is this? `rdh ka bolo, sage calo, chant Rdh-
Ka and come with me. Calo, go. No not going, not coming. Shackled, shackled.
Legs, hands shackled up. Jagadtm and Dna-bhandu are shackled up. Sdhu Guru
says, Give me this alms. `rdh ka bolo, sage calo, only this alm I beg from
you. Chant Rdh-Ka and come with me. Not coming. Going there, shackled.
Going there. Going there. Not coming, not coming. Isnt it, Jagadish Pait? Great
shackle, very strong shackle. O my wife, shackle of the wife, shackle of the son,
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dragging, dragging. Guru says `rdh ka bolo, sage calo, they say this. Guru says
this and the shackles say Hey, hey! How can you come? `rdh ka bolo, sage
calo, ei-mtra bhik ci, Bhaktivinod hkur says, I am begging these alms only,
give me these alms. Utter Rdh-Ka and come with me. I will take you there,
you see, there, Ka, the lotus feet of Ka. Then the shackle is there saying,
Hey, hey where are you going? Come here. Strong shackle. Then how you will be
free from the suffering? How can you get real happiness? You have to suffer. This is
befitting punishment on you. Yes, doomed. Do you understand? I am completely
doomed, O Ka, O Gopnth.

sdhu-sage nija-tattva avagata han

nija-tattva jani ra sasra na cay
kena v bhajinu my kare haya hay
kende bole, ohe ka, mi taba ds
tomra caraa chi haila sarva-n
[Prema-vivarta]
Then you cry and say, O Ka I am Your servant but disregarding Your lotus feet,
not taking shelter at Your lotus feet, not serving Your lotus feet I am completely
doomed. Finished. Yes.

This is the only shackle. My body is weak. I, my, mine. Let it be finished, serving
Ka. It is His property. Is it your property? Hari, Hari. Whos property? Dna-
bhandu says mine. Hari, Hari. Oho, this nasty body, klea-da sa deha. This body
gives so much klea, so much pain, misery, trouble, suffering. Nice body? Nasty body.
So much attachment to this body. Bhaaa!!! Nasty body. So much klea, suffering, you
say, Oh, so nice body. You cannot give up such attachment to this body. So fool,
such foolishness. Isnt it Jagadish Pait? Such foolishness. Nasty body. Have a nice
...engage whatever is there... in the language of my Gurumhraj, Make the best
use of a bad bargain. Do you follow Jagadtm? Make the best use of a bad bargain.
It is a bad bargain the material body you have gotten. Make the best use and utilize
it in Kas service. It is Kas property. Bs. Make the best use. He is really wise,
he is really learned who engage everything, body, mind, speech, soul, everything in
Kas service. tomra sevya, jadi hoy baa dukha, sei dukha mora sukha-varya, If
I get so much pain, so much trouble, distress in Your service, O Lord. That trouble,
that pain, that misery is my highest pleasure. Do you follow Jagadish Pait? Yes,
that is pleasure. Yes, yes, yes. You should understand this thing. Because giving
pleasure, happiness to Ka is our only sole duty, is our only service. Let this nasty
body, life after life so much trouble, pain, suffering it has given to us, let it be utilized
for His service. Yes. Let it get misery, trouble. If Ka is pleased then everybody
is pleased. Then you will get. That trouble, that suffering, that misery, that pain is
our highest happiness, pleasure. Yes. It is for Ka. Do you follow? If you say mine
then, Oho, my body aches. My body is sick. My body is getting weaker. Then you
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then such happiness. Then you will never feel suffering. You should understand.
This is the secret here. Otherwise there is pain and unhappiness and misery. This
is dukhlayam. This platform is miserable platform. Only misery, suffering is here.
Only suffering and misery is here, nothing else. It must come. If you go to a muddy
place there must be some mud. You must have, because you have gone to a muddy
place. How do you say no mud? It is a muddy place. You have come here. It is
dukhlayam. You have come here to this miserable platform. The material world
is a miserable platform. Only misery is there, suffering is there. Oh, suffering, my
body suffers. You have come here. Then what do you say? You have come here.
This is the platform. Only misery is here. Oh I am miserable, I am suffering. Yes,
you have come here, but utilize it, serve Ka. Make the best use of a bad bargain.
Yes, in spite of all suffering, all misery! Tolerate it!!! Engage yourself in the loving
service of Ka, you will get so much pleasure. Nice pleasure. Blissfulness. No more
suffering then you will find.

Thank you.

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