As poisonous THorns

Chris Undirheimar - Lokantt 5/9/17

There is a shift in the current.
I have felt it since the past solar eclipse. Others felt it too. A surge. A
thrust of olden powers from the outerworld; the Utangardr, into this world.
It manifested itself to me through HAGAL and EIHWAZ. Like black
thorns from the primordial void piercing through the cosmos. And into
my being. I have felt the liberating pain of their venomous bite. Heard the
whispering runes from the old giantess in the morning mist. Just like this
very morning as I was about to leave my home. Looking at the forest on
my land, she was there. In the chilling morning dew. In the vaporous fog
that floated before my eyes. I inhaled her breath with every respiration.
Felt her cold touch upon my skin.
I have been having these dreams/visions/signs of a transformation to
come. Through HAGAL; the creative alchemical process of self-
assessment. What have I done thus far? From where did I come from?
And where do I :N:eed to go next in my evolution as sorcerer of the Black
Light. What cleansing process am I being shown? Something was keeping
me st:I:ll. Something was preventing me from accessing my highest
potential. HAGAL is the creative transformation of new life within me,
whereas EIHWAZ is the transformation through death.
The shamanic essence of EIHWAZ associated with yew (poisonous tree),
is undeniable. In my own practice, I have been more inclined to work with
an older, more primal shamanic approach to the Thursian worship. It is
known that the undergoing of a symbolic death through shamanic rituals,
is a natural process of transformation. The initiate goes through his
death of his former self only to be reborn anew. This process of psychic
transformation as been felt for some time now. There is no fighting it, or
the power of HAGAL. One can only let the transformation occur. It will
strengthen you or destroy you. But there is no escaping what must
happen. No one ever said the Thursian path was easy or for the weaklings.
I fully embrace it.
This as been made more clear since the last solar eclipse. Whereas many
were struck with fear, doubts and thus questioning their dedication, I felt
empowered with renewed vitality. Aflame with a fire blacker still that the
momentarily darkness that devoured the sun. Fueling my resolve and
hardened my beliefs. I became more focussed. That glorious event was as
if the flaming sword of Surtr pierced through me and set ablaze what was
already burning, but to a whole new level. The transformation within
through HAGAL and the destruction within through EIHWAZ are clear
signs of a new phase in my sorcerous path within the Thursian current. I
foresee a Nifl-season unlike any others before. Frozen with contemplative
self-initiation and centralization. Yet, burning with the all-consuming
Black Flame of Loki.
Through fire, forged I a sword with venomous edges,
Twin blades of initiation through death and rebirth.
Sacralised with the essence of Ginnungagap chaos,
I sacrifice myself upon the black altar of self- transformation.
Burned within. Cold without.
Primordial powers are one as I am nothing,
Save the combined essence of both elements.
:KENAZ:ISA:
:HAGALAZ:EIHWAZ:
May the gelid stare of Gullveig blinds me,
so that I may see through her eyes.
Looking down at black runes,
Permeated with the terrible secrets they hold.
May the purifying flames of Loki scar me,
So that I may shed this prison of flesh,
And through fire rise from the shadow of my former self.