AN INTENTION SCHOLARSHIP ESSAY

BEASISWA PEGADAIAN SYARIAH

To whom it may concern specifically Beasiswa Pegadaian Syariah;

I do believe there will be such a time when anything we all can do will be questioned
rolling over our head including to reach a dream. I think it is way much bigger than my shape
of thought that would never be as easy as turning your palm around. Reaching a dream?
Doesn’t it sound such cliche instead of motivational story be driven here? Meet my desire,
life-challenging option, and my motivation in front here; my name is Zakia Ayu Maulani
born as the second child of six children yet having way wilder mind to go across
everything. I couldn’t ask for more to have the warmest family I’ve ever had due to sharpen
my own personality, my character, my mind to become this way; I feel so grateful. Everytime
talking about an ultimate goals and dream, it has always been for my parents. It is extremely
burned and alive especially when I decided to turn my path to have a life way far from my
very beloved hometown of Yogyakarta which is located like 120kms away from this husty-
busty college life.
In June 2016, the moment when I chose the biggest decision to cheer myself up in
having such faith to put whatever my doubt on these "both" things to choose should ve been
in the right time to explode. Yes, indeed. Both are the biggest decision I have to take right
after half a year sacrificing to reach another dream of SBMPTN for the second time, holding
my fully desire for seeking some experiences like what typical new babies of the college did
for entering any other developing platform they wanted. Moreover, the minded-war I already
played inside my head seems pointing at my choice to keep on trying for studying. I decided
to challenge myself as a science student, for the first time without any course, shifted in
another cluster of social subject. On the other side, my double effort here is definitely a must
to keep my words toward my parents. Yes, it was worth something and every hard work has
been successfully paid off. I did still remember when it came to the moment I got accepted on
my third choice among the two others. I was right choosing another path of life that I never
imagined what I am gonna be in the future with the Law title laying on my head or my way to
stay on the right track as someone who wanted to chase big dream away from parents as
Industrial Engineer, because I only had a quick lifetime choice here. Here it came to
unexpectedly let go of my choice as a new college student majoring Law of Universitas
Gadjah Mada and stay having such faith to kill my upcoming four years in here; Industrial
Engineering of Universitas Diponegoro, Semarang. 2016 was really an unpredictable yet
challenging year so far as I did face the moment of truth I've expected to be in this own
comfortable zone started to flawlessly grow up more mature for either the deviI of a time I
accept and even deny (for some reason) or the charmèd life I lead which must not be yielded
in just a split second.
I am right now still trying to find my own path to further see what I really am.
Something has changed me in the beginning of 2017. My buried dream four years ago before
this milestone obviously gave such a massive aftermath on me until the time has come for
this. Four years ago, I ever joined any other exchange student selection called “AFS-YES”
when I was a Senior High School student but I couldn’t make it. I was only one step closer
until the last step before leaving to the dream country every people wanted to go; USA.
Based on Quran Surah Al-Insyirah (94:5-6) “So verily, with the hardship, there is relief.
Verily, with the hardship, there is relief.”
My concern also got spreading way wider since Allah suddenly guided me to
download a mobile application through my phone; is to connect people from all over the
world. It was one best shot motivation in a row to convince me find every path it took related
to enrich the ambience of having international exposure around. This application device on
my phone gave me such experience talking with people abroad, yet especially I have been
talking to some of refugees from Middle-East countries telling me that this kind of humanity
need to be restored after losing the faith or even began to fade. I did remember how the
people told me a lot of things about the happening war, their suffering, the story about getting
escape from Syria to Turkey once in a lifetime, the struggling to be accepted in other
countries such as Germany, Turkey, Lebanon, etc. That’s why my driving force to start every
path of my life has just strongly begun in a blink of the eyes and it got tougher, bismillah.
The beginning of 2017 made up my check-list on the stance. I was working with
people from all over the world and we all have been together feeling all the ups and downs to
get along in natural action for thirty-five days standing in Green Power Now project
conducted by Hangzhou International Culture and Environmental Protection
Communication Season. My project was concerning about the environmental issues blended
with how we could interact kids through educational program also, we standed for the
number six of UN SDGs about clean water and sanitation. We carried out many activities and
enrolled our part not only as professional volunteers but also as siblings. As Indonesian
ambassador also, I represent what my country perspective toward solving this local
environmental issues to give any contribution by presenting what ideas that came up from
this mind after this one and half month doing project together for example how to simply
create brand awareness about water sanitation and clean our environment in such easier way.
The upcoming one year been passing right after my experience going abroad and still left my
heart out there in somewhere over the snowy yet cold weather of Mainland of China.
This milestone yet life-changing experience after being an Indonesian representative
brought me to keep searching for any experience that still align with what vision I’d take as
an attempt to bear in for the very start I stayed on the path. Reminiscing memories since back
then, I enjoyed 2017 as a learner and rolling some part through my developing platform such
as Undip Debating Forum, AIESEC, and also Diponegoro MUN Society. I was blurry
scattered to see what kind of places that will further suit me best. As an experience seeker, I
was joining some competition like debating in Bogor for Java Overland Varsities English
Debate in July 2017 and also enhancing my negotiate skill in Diponegoro MUN Society that
also led me to join some Model United Nation (MUN) simulation and represent some
countries that perhaps the stance is paradoxically the opposite of our stance itself. I once also
got Honorable Mention (one of the third best delegate out of 50 delegates) when I was
representing Myanmar country with the topic of Rohingya Crisis in United Nation High
Commisioner Refugees (UNHCR) in October 2017. I never imagined to be one delegate
that mostly be the most condemned country in such international eyes and everyone has just
pointed me as Myanmar delegate in this case, but here the things I’ve been trying to also play
with my mind and unexpectedly brought me as an awardee of this council. My key learning
point to have a new thing like fresh from the oven was if we craved to learn about the things
that usually occured in this whole world, we’re supposed to see this also in such opposite
way, attempt to rebuttal what currently stance that we already had, and try to understand.
Another side of me also wanted to contribute more in where I got my exchange
experience, that is AIESEC, because the development I already got is just real. AIESEC is
the world’s largest student led organization that has established in 127 countries with the
main objectives for creating such impact toward society and as another platform to develope
leadership. Because the connection and networking here are so massive yet I still could
broaden this for more, I committed to join this organization and finally encourage myself to
challenge in conference ambience so I registered with a golden chance as Conference
Committee Program of Kita Pulang Conference (KPC). Kita Pulang is a conference to
discuss and encourage Indonesian youth to be concerned with the problems in their
hometowns based on 17 (seventeen) points of Sustainable Development Goals (SDGs)
and the first national conference of AIESEC in UNDIP or even AIESEC Indonesia that up-
levelling the national scale. The total amount of KPC committees is only 8 person including
the chairman of this conference. There are CC President, CC Marketing, CC Logistics, CC
Brand Design, CC Delegates Service, CC Finance, and CC Program. Each person has their
own responsibility without any help from additional person in a role because we are taking
the whole role by ourselves. As CC Program, I took a role for creating whole concept of
KPC since this conference is the very first time conference about Sustainable Development
Goals so I could decorate as colorful as whatever imagination rolled over my head, I also
managed to raise speakers, facilitator, and the technical point of this conference, made
rundown for 3 days and 2 nights by my own, managed date and places, etc. This conference
had approximately 30 delegates from all over the country, such as Madura, Samarinda,
Yogyakarta, Medan, Jakarta, Bali, etc. It was all paid off; those blood, sweat, and tears I have
given for this conference. I could also say, all things inside KPC is my soul. I learned how
wholeheartedly teamwork each eight people of us, conducting our first national conference
and it was unexpectedly going spectacular.
I closed 2017 with the very one blasted year I could also hit one walk-off home run to
face the subsequent battle ahead. Moments I craved to learn more either to shape myself up
or to get shipped out. Moments to experience diversity in such places that are totally different
be one great slice of milestone I could bear up along the sleepless night of burning the candle
at both ends.
Along with my biggest driving force to feel interested with all activities related about
global issues and problems but yet rolling as a good citizen, I also tried to awaken another
burried passion of mine that I always craved fortunately. Looking back the reason why I ever
put Law major as my SBMPTN choice and decided not to take this one is because I will have
an attempt to find another platform for learning more about law including social and politic
issues. At that time I could figure out it will also be aligned with social politics department of
an excecutive council for engineering student. I joined as treasurer of this department but still
I was in charged in some events externally yet even internally. I concerned more about social
issues in such campus and surrounding or even also national scale ahead. It sounded way
more interesting than what I have expected before. As a blinded-person craving to learn
more, I realize this platform being one of Staff Aksi, Propaganda, dan Opini Bidang Sosial
Politik BEM FT UNDIP 2017 has shaped me to another tougher learner. I learned how to
see people from helicopter scale and I learned how to paradoxically work in such ambience
you were never expected before. Although this was a disheartening realization it didn’t go
smoothly at the end, I found that we, under the rough time, have been dealing together and
possess other strengths that are still one of great values and spread such impact as an
unexpected aftermath being part of this: some attempted to develop their major student
council back, one of us are the most outstanding student at vocational school, some also
explore their curiousity that went deeply overshot by joining some competition, some
continued their study and had a must-graduate-list oversoon, and some of us noticed any kind
of the things that need to be fixed so they continue the struggle to be here.. including me. I
chose to stay. I chose to fix the things that remain left completely. Because if it’s not me then
who else? If it’s not now then when? If it’s not here then where?
I started 2018 with so many things rolling over this head but still sort out some
priorities that matters. I decided to focus in some organization that has raised me this well
and spread the impact that I have ever been feeling before. I chose to stay and Insha Allah
trust has been directly given for those who are willing to care and it is never wrong. So here I
am right now standing to still wholeheartedly give my soul yet my mind for the beauty of
fighting in BEM FT 2018. I only see the sincere intention from Azhar as President of BEM
FT UNDIP 2018, the vision he brought up for Fakultas Teknik, once in sudden heart to heart
talking under the moon that reminded me to do a really deep contemplation until it came to a
decision to contribute more and continue this journey together. Moreover, another
compassion feeling I also had toward another organization is also real. I finally chose to
affirm the bravery of mine to also take higher role in AIESEC in UNDIP. In here, I learned
how people went abroad and I took a role to select those who are capable to work internship
under the global company such as Electrolux and Panasonic, also enhance entrepreneural
experience for start up company outside Indonesia. Yes, it was hard at the same moment
because both struggling to sacrifice this mind and also physical approach is one of another
upscalling level of my life right now.
As Vice President of Social Politics of BEM FT UNDIP 2018 yet being Manager
of Outgoing Global Talent/Entrepreneur rolling as Human Resource Development &
Partnership Manager is another challenging milestone of my life. I never missed to create
every detailed weekly planning I have to do and managing my time also for all these. But
after all, the essential part is just how we spread impact and pursue such happiness
surrounding, be more useful started with small things that even matters for universe of our
mankind with applying the theory of being 3H person, that is Honest, Humble, and Helpful.
Talking about the milestones career as I began to fulfill my desire as an experience
seeker, here I also set an ultimate goals that the reason and motivation I already explained
above. A month ago, I also involved in some activities related to energy management as a
finalist of Schneider Electric Campus Ambassador. The objectives of this program is
about being aware for environmental issues regarding to concern more about energy
management. In here also, you could also check my video ambassador by clicking this link:
bit.ly/ZakiaSECA2018. Most of my experience background was talking much more about
environmental and energy issues yet my cherish passion to broaden any relation and
networking of International company to work together. I will take an internship abroad right
after I graduated with some global premium company abroad and they obviously set a high
standard requirements for those who wanted to apply this program due to tight selection from
all over the world. And right after back I will continue my journey to work with UN
Environment, strengthen some condition to look up the area that has big urgency for in-depth
treatment. Moreover, I’m very aware with the most major problem of these endless social
issues that increased apprehensive as the time passed by; an education system. As the one
who concerned more about SDGs and also social project, I already formed such networking
for those who are willing to create an impact by doing social project so if one day I got the
chance, I will establish a platform as a massive-collecting-idea under this social
entrepreneurship community. Social entrepreneurship is the use of start up companies and
other entrepreneurs to develop, fund and implement solutions to social, cultural, or
environmental issues.
So hereby with this essay, I am who is currently a third year college student of
Industrial Engineering Universitas Diponegoro, give my intention in applying for Beasiswa
Aktivis Pegadaian Syariah and wisely use the fees for tuition and supporting financial for my
development career ahead due to one biggest motivation to help my father that is no
longer in suitable condition to work and earn money.

Yours faithfully,

Zakia Ayu Maulani