PACIFISM, BTW…NOT SPELLED “T-E-R-R-…”

By Zevi. May (Friday the) 13th, 2011

“Faces Look Ugly, When You’re Alone…”
(“…all my bi+*#es love me you ain’t messin’ wit’ my duggy!”)

Recently I found an email on my computer that was sent by someone who had been a guest where I live, to a famous cult expert that my
guest happened to apparently be secret “best friends” with. She apparently needed, for some reason or other, to communicate with this
person on a semi-daily basis. My name in the subject box over and over in the “history” caught my eye, and a natural curiosity about how
one is being spoken of, as well as a great deal of discomfort and mild conflict I had already experienced with this guest (which, in turn,
led to bits of cynicism regarding the motivation behind her visit in the first place) drove me to investigate. Maybe that’s creepy, but let’s
just say I looked because I had a really bad feeling.

In it was information about me that is not only false and libelous but made me feel sick with concern, and worry about being at risk of a
mutually embarrassing encounter with someone like the FBI, of all people. My positions about certain things are confusing, so I just want
to gloss over a few of them:

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It’s been stated that I’ve spoken about “how society needs to be overthrown”. This statement could cause one to infer or to assume
that I advocate some form of violent effort to achieve that end. Nothing could be further from the truth. Nevertheless, that was not the
impression I would have gotten if I were this “cult expert” reading this email, who, by the way, is probably in a position of contact and
influence with people involved in law enforcement, the FBI, etc. Yada yada yada. Next thing you know I’m in Guantanamo Bay with a
severe wet wedgie, and other big problems. For what? Thinking about difficult problems and entertaining people with mental problems.

“Isn’t that the way they say it goes?…”

Anyway, civilization was overthrown as soon as Cain killed Abel; it has just taken awhile for that overthrow to become apparent; it will
be fully manifest at the end of time, when Babylon is overthrown violently in the apocalypse. When King Messiah appears, I believe he’ll
demonstrate in a very clear way that there is nothing but enmity between him and “THE WORLD”. My beliefs in this regard are no
different than thousands of people. To escape this complete, eternal, absolute overthrow, I attempted to fulfill Yeshua’s conditions of
peace and surrender as per Luke 14:31-33 back in 1995. I’ve NEVER regretted that decision, not for five minutes, and I’ve never since
saw fit to take up arms against anyone, much less a world power.

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Actually, it saddens me sometimes that the government of this country has lost the power and authority it exercised in a bold and powerful
way in the days when it was safe to take a stand against large corporations. The days when it broke up the big monopolies and trusts. The
days when media communication was regulated. I wish the state would take back some of its balls and put monolithic beaurocratic
corporate oligarchs firmly in their place, but alas, I don’t vote and don’t consider it my government to instruct.

It has been said that I have a “magazine cover of tim mcveigh oklahoma city bomber on his mantle”. First of all, that’s a shelf.
There are two houseplants—birds of paradise, I believe—and a large glass ashtray on a small wooden platform, in-the-which is cat food,
on my mantle. There’s also a broken piece of white marble on which is written “YHVH hear thee in the day of trouble”, handwritten by
an actual JRG sister, and a plastic toy pistol.

Harold has told me a story already several times that Bob used to keep a tiny toy pistol in his room, so that--God forbid--if anyone
attempted to break in he could truthfully shout “I have a gun!!!”

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If the same guy tried it today--God forbid--I could say “I have three pistols and an assault rifle” (even though they are the cheap plastic
type sold to children at the toy stores) and, by the same logic, would not technically be lying.

I actually do have a magazine on a shelf in my room, but with Ted Kaczynski on the cover, NOT Timothy McVeigh. McVeigh’s last
name appears on the cover, but just now I had to move the magazine to double-check to actually see that name. So you have to be moving
stuff around in my room to even know that McVeigh’s name is there, because it’s at the bottom in small print and, alas, there is something
in front of it. A shrine? Hardly. (It’s the April 15th, 1996 edition of Time, if anyone’s really that curious.) I don’t know very much about
Timothy McVeigh, so I would hesitate to make a real judgment, but my vague impression was that he was a neo-nazi scumbag that seems
to have senselessly murdered innocent people in a misdirected act of childish vengeance and that, if he was guilty, the State served justice
upon him. He doesn’t interest me at all. Although, who’s really to say what type of mental conditioning goes into how we get these vague
mental impressions that leads us to disinterest and apathy? With him…who cares?

Ted Kaczynski, on the other hand, has a collection of writings that have been compiled into a book called Technological Slavery (Port
Townsend: Feral House, 2010). I admire his writing very much for what I believe to be a very accurate assessment and description of
the problems caused by civilization and of technology. “The World”, as I consider it to be. I admire the first thirty chapters of John
Kenneth Galbraith’s New Industrial State for exactly the same reasons, and it’s fortunate indeed that Galbraith didn’t exactly have to kill
anyone to get published (Boston: Hought. Miff, 1967). Galbraith didn’t influence me toward becoming a Liberal Statist, and Teddy K
didn’t influence me toward forsaking my hope that Moshiach is on his way to “deal with it” as we speak. Nor did he influence me away
from personal pacifism. They just both happen to see the same problem in society that I’ve vaguely seen for twenty years and, maybe
because they’re Harvard guys with brilliant minds, they’re better at nailing down and fleshing out the exact nature of that problem than I.
As for their proposals for dealing with that problem? The kernel of a hollow nut! Kenneth Rexroth said “Demonstrations or Molotov
cocktails are equally powerless before the hydrogen bomb.” (Communalism. New York: Continuum-Seabury, 1974). And all the Atom
bombs in the world are equally powerless against Moshiach. I’m betting on him.

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The people that think the “ends justifies the means” are fascists—whether Teddy K, Jihaadists, Revisionist-Zionists, Neo-conservatives,
or Technocrats. I think it is incredibly arrogant for one to believe that the “ends” of our actions are actually within our “means” to control.
That is the same mindset that is behind technology to begin with! You think you can bring about a revolution by killing? MAYBE you
can, but can you be sure you’re not just encouraging and “justifying” more surveillance technology—etc!—by killing? You think you can
prevent more killing by more surveillance—etc!—? MAYBE you can, but can you be sure you’re not making terrorists feel more
“justified” in being wacko—etc!—while you’re making the rest of us feel miserable, wishing you would go get a different job? That you
are not simply serving as a pathogen whose only real function is to spur the development of “antibodies”? How can anyone ever be sure
that their actions will have the effects they intended, and not the opposite effects? How can one be sure, beyond any reasonable doubt, that
when simply leaning over to blow out a candle, one will not instead blow the candle over, igniting the tablecloth? Such and such is, after
all, man’s nature!

I’ll admit that my personality towards this person, who made the statements above using my computer, became abrasive, and that I lost
my temper with this person and actually raised my voice in a small argument we had about something else petty and unrelated (just after I
had read those and other libelous statements she had written about me—which is no excuse.) Reading the statements I listed above

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definitely affected my disposition toward the person, making it easier for me to lose my temper. I had extended hospitality, the use of a
bicycle everyday, and the use of a netbook computer everyday, whatever’s in the fridge and cupboards, until I read this. Of course, only
the extension of the use of the computer was truncated. We got under each other’s skin and I need more charity. (Although I hardly
consider “high society” drop-outs from New England as more deserving of charity than the 80% of the people that live in this
neighborhood, whose problems are REAL and not imagined) We’ve talked over and resolved our differences, but I need to do a little
damage-control nonetheless. I don’t want the door broken down, unless it’s by friends bearing gifts. Maybe even then, a preliminary
knock would be what I could hope for in a world where things are ideal!

You can say you’re someone’s friend, come to them under the pretense of wanting help, like a long-lost sister, then you can act like an
informant to the anti-cult movement, and what do you anticipate for a response? Please tell me, and also tell me please how are they
supposed to think or feel or act towards you? And now all I want is for the anti-cult movement to send someone here who is at least
mentally stable enough to at least be ACCURATE in reporting things of criminal significance! Of course, this may be too much to ask,
but meeting me halfway would be preferable! A camera or a microphone instead? Oh, wait…

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So, you know…I’m not “love-bombing” anyone with recruitment efforts! I have all the “charisma” of a toothless, jaded waitress in an all-
night diner. This is a crime? I’m deranged for this? I freak out hypersensitive people—that should be a mark in my favor with the
“experts”, not against me right? If I think someone I hypothetically meet that says they’re some religious person, but it seems to me they
are, instead, a fake and a leach and a sympathy vampire, or if I think this—or that—or they’re just super arrogant and living in a fantasy
world, or whatever I think about whoever I think it…I’m not entitled to my opinions and feelings, but I should hide it all with a smile?

“not cut out to be a teen cult leader~ din’n’t set out to Be one neither.”

Also, I did not “etch” anything into my flesh. Torah forbids it and I respect the Torah. I was showing off, riding my bike with no hands,
not watching the road, and ran over a pothole and wiped out. I am of the persuasion that a man should be able to get into a bike wreck,
sleep on the floor in his own room so as not to stain the sheets, and not be made to look like a freak for it. Perhaps it’s too much to ask?

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Have you ever known someone, who—you have a house, a yard, and they want to come meet you for the first time, but they feel, maybe a
little too nervous to come to your front door? So of course they climb over your fence, and try to see if the back door is open first—with
your best interests in mind, naturally—to spare everyone the trouble, and hassles, and awkward feelings, always associated with things
like introductions, friendly questions, stories back and forth, and all the other empty trappings of civilized culture?

Ronald N. Loomis has been educating others about cults for some 25
years at over 100 colleges and universities throughout the US and
Canada. He is a Past President of the original Cult Awareness
Network (CAN) and was a founding member of the Steering
Committee of the International Cult Education Program (ICEP) and
was Chair of the Interim Planning Committee (IPC), which created the
Leo J. Ryan Education Foundation (LJREF) and the Cult Information
and Resource Center (CIRC), (CULTINFO). In 1999, he served as a
principle expert witness for the Legislative Task Force on Cults in
Maryland. He has been cited in such publications as The New York
Times, The Chronicle of Higher Education, The Congressional
Quarterly, The Christian Science Monitor, The Toronto
Sun and Newsweek Magazine. He has been interviewed by the
Canadian Broadcasting Company (CBC), The Today Show at the
request of NBC News, The Discovery Channel, ABC Productions, and
Current Affair. He is featured in the educational video, Cults, Saying
No Under Pressure, and he authored a chapter in the book Cults on
Campus. He has been an expert advisor to The Roberts Group
Parents Network (TRGPN) since it was founded in 1997.
(rloomis07@SNET.NET)