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DJ Tournament of Poses
represented by pills we have to see the sun away new man made secret obsession sargasso dance party swallows me, swallows you apathy sat in the fiery stove, out of prison his perfect timing just the right amount of receiving see more
Left Behind
4 real this time privacy and sensation through another nothing can fight a life whereas we go hide hide hide hide hide no no no no outside is an alien arms inside is an alien
Boys Club
caught on in a flash
Function
beggars steal lie no more no fantasy land heaps on a new beggars seed blessed into the trust sky
AnonSexFreak
damn boy one sweet business and would love to eat your fuck hole then you plow you pump several deep into that hole
IowaTopMan
sounds pretty working you over deep and love to make the way i want you tonight tonight me
Serious Witches
a map is a tip image repeated first glance, where i want them additional closet, additional explanation, one at a time small triangles my pet, new move on, used extra slice, two different entities hit bottom another try detached from cool
A Date
to many new arrivals on the cusp a wind that can break us in too many pieces can unravel my evening, my time in, lies so now we can surrender into purging broken waves clutch perfection, losing time to break waves to be on edge pleasurable play warm cries jumping into space shaking like animals that convulse morning light eyes shaking into space, animals, doubts roles can be foolish what can be given to you? beaten over the head
Strange Trust
pumps in factory quietude trust cant be made its man, its manufactured shrill and thrilling in two but for me it can shatter in machinized trust beggars live there no more things to need when lying a path downward is always another path downward rising into the never i can have never too addictions can matter in lands like this where emptiness leads to emptiness a hidden fortress amidst emptiness
Permanent People
its always been crawling crawling on this trail generations after sadness not even sorrows are free searching a ritual is a ritual, even when it cracks across a mind now steps crumble in buried sands you can find where they have never been appearing in a specific future you can find where they have never been buried
Entrance to Alchemy
life started as a tape winds up around itself, in a whirl of distorted past. life started crawling amidst non-life, the desert of this past birth, decrepitude. life sways in ways i couldnt imagine, on the trail of my past, on the trail of a downfall. one thing in front of another, there are many walls that encompass this, an enemy thats always been there in wandering. find us in the corners of dried leaves, or the patterns of what covers you in sleep. have you seen time pass in its physical form? like what appears in front of the childs eye, in the middle of forever, because even forever ends. this is where you can find us. answers are plenty, in a sea of praying. seeing itself, as a punishment, and the clap of a heavenly door. could i say that i was full of a new entity, born to call on you, but always at another time?
Ghostbox
i cant tell you, you can tell me. if you build thought like a castle, i know i will destroy you too. being inside is whats at the end, nothing will replace what you really want. i know i will destroy. on a long journey ive finally reached here. it plies us open, in cavernous age, we too discover where everything will go, fallen through unimaginable holes. filling the gaps of what i mean, what i want in entrapping spaces. coughing up a blob of a tear. could purity stand where the surface leaks into mountains, your thought, my donation to my own hunted loss.
Schism
my door glows with a beyond. its cracking open can sound like an eternal heartbeat, if found. angular passages are what lead you into last goodbyes, displaying oneself in cruelty. the nooks and crannies of my land pitched forward, pistons in creation. knowledge can break your legs off, twist them both right off, a mourning reserved can twist you into wilted foil, the bliss of regret, new understanding always does this, always places you at a distance, my better heartbeat, freedom falls down blind into a welcoming gutter. glow with my love, if you can trust it. once it fades, it falls into a chasm. no goals are enough in night, things bend back from this. the trees fell backward as another comet hit the crook of my land, my twirling soul.
falls into stranger, i was told nothing. never knew anything, this is faith, faith is the confrontation. hells structures are limitless, remaining in change, the sea plays, but we cant feel sad anymore. there is sight, this is what ive been told. its dawn that has been given to, i could change, rot. people like this, fade away, broke apart, the chime of shattering, unnatural.
ive never done anything but that might have been enough im scared i think im being followed and tapped by the cia they keep turning off our electricity too and everytime im on the phone i hear clicks clicking, throbbing naked in breaking view, on a new disease this time, it can save my life
Before Truth
happy, a bump in mid state, denying and whispering an alien alarm, telling me that one, love it best. forget about it, i forget, i was, ever. open windows climb aboard please deny how long ive been away, mending. climbing into a final night, that night, of what i can say, farther from home, below in secrecy, no more seeing. from here i can see, what i can never be, in lying sunlight, while im away. heres to hope, hoping it escapes the day, boy. here fellow broken home, bent on escaping just me, love reflection, whatever i can say. after the world can disappear, im just a fellow brother, fellow stranger, beneath a wheel, unwanted reflection, plus no love. stars inside his hand, withering of the land.
Returning Harvest
nothing will happen, and nothing will be doubts in my morning time speech, corrective. gravitas, gravitas, freezing on my knees in prayer, it pulls me down. im down again, ive achieved something finally, evading confidence, i could run away, ride the rain. hidden inside my talk. im just a game, and blacked out, a face inside. light has never reached this far out before, its because of who and how it flies, how it sounds, multiplying sound dullness, bored pain. ive corrected life, everything ive ever loved, made so many choices, below the ground. when a sunshower comes along, when the meat has been stripped, the trees climbing the breeze, violin bows, climbing down a muddy worn path, climbing down a muddy pathway. on tip toes, awaken and harvest return, return of the void.
chests, wavering and emoting, farther from myself than i have ever been. i climb into pale, cold, shelled bedsheets, being what i cant be. a staring virus.
Creature Touch
he was free, on a breeze, on a ray, creature-like, totally over the world, the whole world begins. transformation begins at dusk, broken sighing, does anybody know the moon, like i, no one? painful sea, there are so many things, unfortunate. happiness comes back with war, twisted spines, black leather haystack.
Michael
new not being an athiest having no more, reason, to not believe, manifesting its holiness when i talk to supernature resides there, in the devils mountain warm hand slips into stony me smiles michael knows depths of souls submerged in tar dark on an ocean floor i was found
Advantage
spread wide my ocean wide diagnosed with the dreaded fathers same disease inside of me grows, my fathers dreaded once upon his disease
Happy, Finally
there, there underneath a bubbling fur cry heart pounds in after math of my dream im no longer lonely
Oh My God!
journey to the end where you cant hold him anticipate the bed on an edge of the mountain wretched cries can go to hell, wretched heart can go to answer, he said, against the journey, journey to another life the end of where you cant have him unnoticed why he likes this cut up once among little wisdom dogs deserve bliss inside a red truck, inside the red interior, my grief excuses everything. i touch your face, in the year you were born. unlocked and unfounded, loneliness and strife for you. i touch your face, i nuzzle your leg, i run through fields and woods with you, curling up, a scrap on fire. curling up, protect my everyday. keep me safe. i wish you did it now. in the year of unkind and repentant unreprentant and on fire the tears are me wretched like me like what i say like a boy who went out by himself like simply collapsing into oneself watch him dancing some more
Wall of Tears
this is my wall comprised completely of tears its pretty cool, huh? looks sorta like a bunch of crystals neon plasma screen late sky when its fleshy anyway, its alot of wall
Witch on a Whim IV
lives in a house on times in day lives in a crackled house out of a sparkling woodwork lives in a house the time in his life leaves climb on the sparkling air skip shoes cracking pavement footsteps beneath a wooden ship
Chilly Trees
my head beneath the current, emerged. i was there once too. on the tip of a diamond, kind of like frosted leaves, my winter came soon. i was dealing with symbols. his head turned to me, talked to me, splitting open like a dead squash, i was ok again. i stood up, walked towards the window, glanced outside, the lake was frozen over, an iridescent sheet. the window was colored white puzzles by grandfather frost, the cabin was a prismatic jewel on the side of a hill, dipped in fog.
Fathery God
tinkering with the age of my father divine brain windowless soul wind blown moon crater crisp lines prison lines, puppet stance my son walks roads horizons change ive been a choir for a long time
Horn of Nothing
i crawled out from the shoe i crawled into the sink i bought some stores on the rue capitol i crawled from under the stove i formed a cross of roses on a wall once i crawled from underneath a broom stick i crawled into the heavens i crawled into the heavenly clouds i crawled from beneath a broom stick into a long hole unraveling like this long disease a long horn brimming orange peridot diamond i found you amidst trees i found this jewel in a bank of dead trees one day, there was a werewolf inside of it. i live inside a vast
maison de la poupee
Meat Farm
i lived at the meat farm from miles around the squeals arose decaying horizons violins a gleaming, giant decaying, a gleaming freeways, a great de-gleaning eyes eyes eyes on the mountain, outdoor bottomless lake, if he said one thing, he said that i will find you one time i lived on a barren sprawling whine the land was made of signs
shell
Blackwood DOLLS
the poetry belonged to me a birds song belongs to flutes the curtain flips forward a door to the future the pinch in my shoulder a door to the future the bird song belonged to making childs dreams come true/tru
Checkered Floor
here dem bells i here dem bells the bird song sung in a foliage of green here dem bells i here dem bells i here doze flutes i here dem bells the monster slipped down the mountain provoking the door to the future here dem bells i here dem bells the song sung in a foliage of green, karen carpentier green the monster slipped into the future the floor of the world opens up to now swallow the swallow songs song of the future listening to an broke open my blue soul should
Ideas
giant victorian music box with turntable and music on giant circular metal punched disc automata with dolls doing all sorts of insane things ontop like making mountains skiing adventures and opening christmas gifts and ballerinas and little halloween men and stufff the music would be tchaikovskys act ii tableau 3 pas de deuz a intranada from the nutcracker
Black Pan
morose the rosary zoo was full for you three ladies, or boys die in the hands of black pan his horrors for rose too was full on blue moons or toys die in the hands of the black black black black pan the closet door closed in the late afternoon the horror of little boys the greatest of mans man and he was the blackest of black black pans
Autumn in Summer
though the bell rings true the corridors darkwings of this house are frigid
Whispering Poster
it topples, it turns in soft apple-light the room stirred christs dead flesh is alive it topples and yet it turns
Wicker Cage
home beyond the light the church is see through today he visited the prison and saw that everything was invisible
Super King
super kind ultra kind youre the one of a kind the last of its kind
E-Portal
i want this place to give me impossible things this place is my worst nightmare
Ancient Playthings
the entrance to hell has double doors
Across Life
the head was cracked open displaying the mechanisms inside mechanisms of the child the head was completely cracked open
Hate is Malleable
the pigpen requires tuning to a new disease
Bale of Hay
within the sky resides the numerous yawnings his sleep likens to a viola sighing
A Human Animal
does sex remind you of animals human animal? the bear faced grin of human animal mister human animal does sex remind you of factory made prison human animal animal animal, trees appear in the grain he works from behind behind a square you can take the trail of what a detailed life you lead things come home things crawled from the ground through shades things came home
Making Mixtapes
record myself onstage making mixtapes for people that i know. record the sessions, sell them as real mixtapes to people. i will be like gilbert and george.
Maximum Pentagram
unenjoyable future its funny that way my throat was a spider strangling your spider what you know from the crystal ball thin legs hairy legs i could never gather a future
Analog Wood
browsing the corner of the wood i saw the light emerge from the bush dark green fog i dodged behind the tree stood there staring at me
Death Rattle
i once heard it described as yelling out the window nothing to me dealing with the delicacy of hell the tampering of light dampened im no wizard im no hypocrite as if making death ones own meant personal freedom there was intelligence in finding his own pleasures his private own pleasures a mans pleasures avoiding ideas reflecting the lighting
avoding the lighting that was the key behind the slash was the best place to be
Effective R
the boy who never never little musical note your body hits the same one it hits when with me that little note in walled in, heaven i dont even know whats happening anymore he used to get me books books about barbie layers between perception things we see often remain and new new things appear when sack is emptied his sack brain emptied like pulling out from full ass
Human Relationships
the funny thing is he hugged me afterwards i mean life like i mean hey you hey new this is how i mean life honestly we dont care how young they are as long as they got the tinkers the hair we want them to have Stranger Alice So So Irene Sadness for a Lifetime Right on this Stupid Trail The Court Wears What She Has Wear My Bitch Forget This One
Love it So Much
How do You Love? man, im sort of dumb. i have this friend who has alot of problems i think, like emotional problems. last night i vomited into a pitcher and swallowed it i forgot to try telling anyone anything i knew i could play life like spiritual bach or something exoh like little grass the sound of living in the cement in the content of night
Contented Shape
each little brick ran from me the land shaking all people scurry like bugs from time to time the end of the hills was the end of the world that is stomped into a mattress enfolded in remember
No Underwear
itll air out tomorrow oh ah oh ah oh ah oh ah i knew you when things were better less thinner less annex i dont know i think i know i dont know i think i know i dont know i think i know i wonder what kind of dream life ive tapped into now?
Sunday is Gloomy
i have this weird thing i dont know what it is i have this weird thing little white flowers i have this weird thing little things angels have no thoughts
Fellini Fellini
today my day started super day my eyes dropped to the sides the air brushed my flesh awake warm trees the very warmest of trees
Hanging Bear
once a year the hanging bear in the tree outside behind my window the story goes the crowd hung him there once again i hear the crowd comes home
Fox
there was a sadness and a happiness together they lived empty corridor, silly metro station, unallowed you made a mistake i couldnt blame you, let go of me, right fucking now in the town where we grew up, in the middle of the very very night you made the mistake, i can say the plight was one moment before
Todays Rule
boring days another stale boring day in my sweaty room what a fool ive become completely undone other just another you or something or other and other and other sitting here in pants too tight tight around my mothers old thighs another day i can see how its going to be another boring and frightfully eyesoring existence in the eyes of the normalized whatever i say say say say say im criminalized in my own home a theatre state i cant tell you how this became but i can tell you where to go!
Westaughne Mountain
surely the top head was worthy of some famous glory i won a war and all i can do is tell another boring story surely these funny days can provide me with so much fancy soup opera bullshit but you wont blame me if i just turn over and sleep in it i wait for great friends to come over but smiles are surely the vials birthing the ends
Luckys Finest
what a bruise i got today just from trying to survive i got stares of empty gog and magog through that door we stepped opening by itself i could feel the flames of hell engulf me had to engulf me thats how i got burned so badly thats my story and thats all i have to talk about
I Left Alone
blah blah blah one more episode on behalf of the peanut gallery when she left she said needed salary leaving home she was never alone never alone oh never never alone alone he left off a bridge one night the city was awaken with fright so much fright for the people of this city a tiny corpus, itty and bitty rotting beneath the nightlight a bastard ran this gallery he turned me down down today down tomorrow i left life alone finally broken and alive, the streets i wandered blindly alive so alive i knew my art would be appreciated for years to come oh finally alive
Elvis Presely
slimy slimy so toned slimy the night is finally finally greased sliding through this night is like sliding on the screams of a thousand screaming children was diane arbus so shocking the same year as she shot as she is now the answer is sadly not to the people who mattered the idea of death made her departure so sad
Seriously, Portland
growing up to be what we were not supposed to be grazing against the cat i forgot what i wanted to be i forgot i forgot to pet the cat keep petting the cat i couldnt stop petting the cat i see your thin ness going away soon sometimes i forgot what we wanted to be who we wanted to see inside of things with things take me back to dear old blighty please see me behind the chair once i think we were different and strange. so many strange things i suppose i dont know how much we have
Midterm in INK
the goose rose towards heaven i dont know who took that money what i know is her face her face was leaven like leaven bread, the leaden skies purely lenin
Childhood in Dresses
social disease what hes called daily what a ttagic existence this fashionable urchin has developed a factory of trends the living sign
Porcelain in Dresses
mother listens to him in the car she can hear him the past beckons her from beyond the hands reach out quickly quickly in ink it goes down in her book the mind unravels into the skies i see it unravelling in the skies reading her mind i saw his face in the window that night i heard a groan from beyond i heard it from my mom mother listens to him in the car she can hear him
always been so sad to have lost this good friend who will leave but i dont mind sometimes people dont recognize eachother its funny these ways you are something i always thought i could love you are something i always wanted to wanted from there were so many times when i watched this plant grow there was something digging into it something lost amidst the tows of dirt so many problems life continues to be the problem i dont mind it i knew youd find a home somewhere i dont imagine what could have ever happened in our lives or knowing people disposing of things i once disposed of so many things i dont know if i do ever how cant i ever forget it never so strange to never be able to lever my own rememberance
Behind Closed Doors Closed Windows Closed Closets Closed Attic Door
there were closed spaces the heir was an heir it shone with him, in his hair the golden flare resided amidst the mansions of bel air i am somebody else i cant think of anything else to tell you the truth come to my church sometimes i dont know what the fuck i am doing most times what is desire? what is desires desire?
Chambers Chambers
sweet victorian chamberss a tickle in my ears keeps me awake low profile chambers tickles my innards calls me weak i hear the sound of them on the squeak climbing the walls outside deadlights
My Personal Chapel
record albums using the exact same instruments and gear as used by the band and then have it printed in exact replica copies with stickers and even a cover with me on it redoing whatever is happening or something.
Problem Castle
we lived in the problem castle i was a problem castle
Hunter of Dracula
he lived in the castle atop the hill casted of hill so much too much
Beer
in these cases this life small life entrapped in the middle encased in the middle this life my small very small life entrapped in the middle very encased in the middle
Boy Encased
in the town of your dreams the very dreams you escaped the town of your mighty dreams falls around you a trap door what a fine place to grow up in what fine things i had as a child fine things are what i have lived for all that i have lived for all that i have lived for
Darkness Whatever
come home, come home come home there are some things that can never cange i admit that but if you came home i would forget everything that has ever existed like my birth, fathers death day, my brothers suicide come home and ill forget
Saddening Dispositions
rats are wonderful is what you said
Sex is When
sex is when the body becomes something something else of the body it becomes mechanical it becomes becomes becomes the mechanical
Walking Home
nihilism of this kind can only come from spain or missouri this doll kid this boy hes worth thousands of lives ive been obsessively following his every move getting others to endure it with me ask around ask around ask around i know it may all seem like that im the no i assure you its the pure truth theres no more to this story from here on it gets gory
Conversations on Disease
going home never felt so like it was clicking all clicking into place the things i wanted and never could have i never understood what anyone meant and now i dont know what to think of anything this is the game this is the greatest game ever invented
Sad Skunk
holding its body against mine exchanging warmth like young in the alley greedy greedy greedy this house feels natural i cant help but feel natural everything here reminds me of the things i need to forget so i forget them this is really scary i hate this i hate this i hate this
Toothless Marshes
sometimes being seems wonderful sometimes it seems petty awful
Glass Smiths
smashable constellations easy lies the child was mine the child cried frightened
Solid Misery
there are three parts solid misery in there there are five parts solid misery that comprise the makeup of this home
Mottled Metal
hanging here on this wall the poster displaying my fall another thing for my mind to absorb there were so many things for my mind to absorb here i create things for myself, new ways of seeing bumble bees
Windy Night
the principal a principal the mayor a mayor the greatest disaster of our time the principal a principal best held to understood it wasnt anything too important the greatest dance of all time the light of this night will forever be engravened on my sight
Le Outsiders
falling asleep he could remember exactly what he said the day before and the day before that the day he left his bike at the edge of the hill the blank alleyways on these days he takes a walk through mottled jewel like trees he can see the future of this place his place nothing can make him laugh anymore
Jokes on You
this beer tastes like human flesh jokes on you
Fantastically Alive
he ran home when he knew the small truths revealed so many truths, the mind
Honky Hoome
this town the silliest of towns blight on this town and its people heads full of snow, slurred seeing his face in the car was so painful so very painful this town is the sunniest of towns blight, its people are pathetic creatures, broken creatures, fellow creatures the whitest of creatures one thing fell into place the whole machine was greased working together like the rusty parts of this town one thing fell into place even though it was all so plastic, not original they left without me these rusty people
Naturally Strange
having forgotten how bad things were i was shocked to see this face in front of me, the same face i wanted to die i laughed at it, sat back realized this place will never escape anyone who lives people are sick again, the same people who became so badly sick come here to visit, but dont wait for me i know youd leave if i was just two minutes late thats why i hate you
Misfortune of my Biology
manchild for me i dont mind that you are just another man child for me i forgot the home i wanted to go to the home i wanted to escape there was something funny about how much we tried to get beyond ourselves this life is serious about taking so much away from me of course daddy, i need the tightest pants i can find manchild for me dont mind me dont mine me dont mind me im just another manchild too
Wombie Zombie
the greatest zombie ever bred the finally great hits of curses so many lonely days with ben as my husband i dont know why i would run, either? there are so few things that i know so few things that i know thumbing life in my teeth love, knew that love could change, strong
Ben
rcok on rock on theres a whole lotta rythem in these rockin bones so many bones when i die
Vase
inside this little room was a little room fun can be fun inside of this room here is another place i knew we couldnt be together because we couldnt love eachother dont even look at me Ignoring the Inevitable situations are funny when theyre gone theyre something else in the house on a hill there the rolling hills knew no boundaries the freeze took it all the freeze took everything they had
Strange Times
this game this boy this greased knowing as love in the game strange times strange times strange times
Film Ideas
slow faces swaying lollipop boys faces swaying boys faces everything ask josh ask ryan ask weston ask isidro ask chris ask chris ask all the boys you know
Milky Blackness
His name was Milky Blackness, all he knew to do was sit on the avenue, he sat there staring the other boys down, muscley arms sing goodbyes. Milkys hair was black of course, inherited from his father, or another childhood, his mother always told him the truth about these things. He knew he could get away, but he didnt know where to, he often looked beyond his window for answers, the answers were always as black as Milkys hair. Milkys hair. One morning, he saw into the screen of his window, there he saw the mirror of life, the color changes, the Technicolor sea, the rule of the earth. And his Soul left his body. As often they do, and will happen to you.
Free Kitten
unto death he sent them, another thing he sent them too humble pleas to you boy crazy oh, they called him that name over and over his father said his name boy crazy, boy crazy is your new name you lived in the closet hidden under old clothes who knows what you can do, what you admit is your craziness i dont know boy crazy i dont know him i hid in the closet away from that monster
Boy Crazy
His father named him Boy Crazy, those two black eyes staring up at him, not knowing the future, the future of this life. There were many fights from there on in, the buildings shook at night, above above i asked for love. Into the hands of sadness there was, another sadness, his little head rearing from a black hole, named Boy Crazy.
Gay
gay like a clown still around i reel into the gutter make believe make believe me away sons and sons will arrive sons and sons will arrive
Dreamy Towns
murders for venus in venus to venus
Pictures of me
that soft background that soft light that curvy hair that curvy suit those glimmering looks the smoldering looks those pictures of me those pictures of me those pictures of me
Taken Advantage of
hide i said, hide i ran, behind the wall, i ignored his stares. he stared at me, wondering about the collection of different things in front of him, a challenging puzzle he was forced to put together, assembling before his eyes, the answer he wanted. he only wanted one answer. in magic, i believed, there
Plato
plato creates his world he created this world this funny thing he made it all up he says people he really likes so great so great plato made up this world this beautiful world that only he can live in he says hes sincere so sincere is the truth this is the world he lives in he says hes sincere and thats the only thing that matters
Plato III
collects his coat, tears the pages up he killed the young only the young oh my oh my plato i do love you too take this warmth, let me plato dont cry , i can hear you dont worry because you belong theres nothing else, theres everything else across time across experience, what experience? mine for yours my plato
Puddin Tain
let me tell you all the things that ive been thinking about i know i dont tell you how i really feel too often but this time there is something different in my words, or the way i will tell them to you i do love you, and i am in love with you, and i will be with you forever and ever, for always my boy my best boy
Adventures of Space
brooding man, my best friend, my only friend i did this for you and only for you and someday i will die for you mentioning, in essence, dont compare me to whomever, whatever can i have an ending, please i am speaking to the boy inside
Super Dead to Me
also there was once, this plaything a product, i would say, of a dead age this plaything lost its way, too many chords i didnt want to know it anymore too many play things make things make mistakes its been said the truth is what we can rely on the truth is not the truth in most cases lying on a bed of histories
Self Away
when bodies hit peaks oh they hit peaks crashing together like shards of ice on a painted canvas borrowed cars are what its all about there are high peaks punching through another broken sky another broken sigh simply punched through there could have been other ways of going about the nuisance of sleep
No Longer Doubt
there once was a very old person who lost so many things pride, emotions, situations that are hard what can be done for this kind of person is something even more unspeakable than an empty life the emptiest of lives cant compensate for a thousand slaps to the face can completely whipe a face away reminiscent of deadening ice and calmed amongst other things
A Rare Nature
the coldest man alive can break open the necessities to thrive, he said i know exactly what you want finally i tell i can say that i cant give you another thing because things can be too valuable to great to break open the tightening of these chords is the story ive read a thousand times before more chances is what i have nothing left of
Clandestine Relations
on the curvature of the world there is another world hidden beneath the shadows of clandestine relations we can find the words we need seeking everlasting morning on the curves creating the portal from this world and the next pulsing in darkness this hiss pulsing in darkness the shallow burrow under flap of flesh eyelids flutter swmming towards new shores
Screaming Body
an animal once told me this is not a dance song an animal once shouted to me in a malaise that even i cant comprehend oh my god this is not a dance song in my mind so many things have shifted the plates of the earth shift only faster and faster its expressions whenever i tell it something too serious that there are no words for it creates more hatred in me than the entire world can create with all the people in it you will feel the same way someday if the world can go away
Distraction
in due time twilight the red sweetness of twilight leaving room for the holy ghost
Stone Works
yes you, son of a bitch and the sons of a bitches bitch the hooting owls, withering owl-like gaze withering withering the grueling work, of this withering gaze, a thousand years fixed upon, the mechanized surface of these eyes of these eyes a greying strange and narrow glaring the vision of someone wronged little blues little face through a veil time was broken pieces pressed into the crevice of the sack carried away on these road ridden trees or a flock of trees road ridden can you hear me calling?
Hearing All
this boy said, he can hear it all, hear everything, breakage of course, the time mellowed, inside there stood three like the prince, not coming home in this white light, only in this shade of light suspicions made love, father, he went for me, the dreams stood amidst great periods of time
Of Factories
in these factories oh these factories there was the light of a thousand factories there in his home, the home ridden like grey factories, the smokiness essembling itself in this kitchen every morning these voices are the mechanized whines, greasey whines, into the whines, the sounds of these rusted walls more factory machines i see
Abbott and Costello Meet All the Pain in the Entire World
just like a skeleton oh, it was just like the skeleton in a field by the school house there stood the rapid features rapidly formed in the air and just as rapidly disappearing too religion in child hood he had memories of times wherein the death bed rattled away his daddy was uncontrollable most times this castle smells, an odorless smell dampened news infancy going on disturbs me thickening white flakes boiling over disturbs me in my throat i can feel a numbness growing it spreads quickly
Methodology of Progression
gay people kill their best successes so many people kill their wicked west in the edges going up and down the intricate sides of this victorial house victorian home like a spider crawling up the sides of this, in wedges ridiculous home ridiculous home my home in the shape of a gnome no longer, the pixels anymore the long crying of another no no no so many years ago, so and so wasnt a word so we dont take it seriously anymore etc etc hence the methodology of progression i realized that the porn changed position with my head and not the other way around
Background White
creeping chamber where i sleep i feel it creeping over me in sleep
Shamed
bodiless bodiless the fields lay bodiless past desires lay naked upon these gray shimmering fields the morning never felt so cold before so realization
The Thing
in the woods outside of this place, there thrives, oh what there thrives, bubbling blackened up from the ground. they came, it came, whatever can come came bubbling black like the worst disease imaginable, no medication can cure it. my mind was pregnant finally literally pregnant the creature crawled from a burst head boiling over into existence watching murders go by like trains the seaside was wonderous all year round simply wonderous he stared out ahead into wonderous the seaside was cold this year his body shook in the wind shaking and breaking beneath a thousand terrible heavy winds grunting over the lapsed flesh teeth gnashed into the sky this creature took me on a journey into what it meant to be myself in the sky my body burned to a simply put crisp erasing life into the mirror of the skies
this creature made me himself more than several hundred curses later they followed me into the ocean
The Entertainer
remarkable an entertainer on the surface amazing entertainer down into the puddles of the glowing streets create invisible face create invisible mind remarkable remarkable so many remarks to make this man keeps me saner, my entertainer
Winter Breakfast
windmills can shatter too, i said too i said my vase stands glass rigid at the window, shatter-like and shatterless two by two the window panes can shatter in this morning wind warmth emanates from my organs caterpillars into the space
Pillow Kingdom
a heavy breath of life escaped me realizing how much i must go on and on and on the pillow kingdom consumed me realizing how much we all must go on, oh yes, forget about it on pillow kingdom engulfs another town, swallows another person, spurts up milky whiteness my life was a fountain to climb on the creation of these words leaves no doubt that these words are or can be as empty as anything
To Know You
autumnality regret this autumnality at its very best who knew the leaves could fall shattering entire underneath a pithy mixture mixture of truth mixture of sky borne bluntly the truth the home town wanted confessions home town wanted the very best in confessions this waltz waltzed along a sludge machine trudging along the rusty squeeze box
Boo Hoo
transparency is friendly almost a joke when the ghost comes into choke homes of the lady she ran screaming down the stairs so many stares so many stares ran screaming down these stairs this long hair a lack of modesty cascading down backs the longest brown hair the shimmering sex cascades my lack modest lacking i hide alright i said, on fire i said harboring secret desires i knew only the worst jobs only the worst threats no more donations to this church of hell will be taken taken into the sky by the infamous windego i brunt to crisp
now im dark now im gone now im staying stabbing into another creature bring forth pinpoints of light i knew the truth was that i couldnt win the fight and that i never even had a chance, in a glance my blood was bad i knew it was bad to be had oh, to be had having fun i burst at my seams flesh enfolding the threads threaded flesh quadruple bursting at all seams overtaking all semblance of these folds upon and opening on each other between the south and those gross combinations no thanks i cant stand the combination
Innocent, Porcelain
pope innocent, porcelain evens what he claimed i was terribly most terribly maimed my home became porcelain even cracking in ways well, lets say id rather not even know where to begin home became porcelain even, rubbed down in design swirling with magnificence, lit up atomic paris, the perfect sin porcelain became home even, braided with the hair touches christian men letting their own hair down innocent, porcelain blind face we took a walk wed never forget caressing the road like squeezing his bit cut out my self cut out of myself cut out of my mind streaming through the valleys and mountains of kittens hair covered back streams of caressing halo way
hidden in the violence mountains i got to dancing sometimes hairline fractures in the window pane hurting myself or the son in his mind? cement covered in the parking lot he too, knew, he could hide there forever hard to find hard to know hard to find, the only feeling his parents show he was in control of everybody there was no other workshop he didnt know how to try this is my vaccination what you knew could curse and i awakening from sleep was sexual snow covered hills rolling down with grand dad snow covered fields rolling down oh the glad and the dead a diamond pearl castle-like eye the diamond list
brutal on the lie shimmering there car crash he found the end atlast transmitting from heaven on a bed of iridescent clouds darkening down to the ground touched by god fine times dark nights sight was the smallest thing on their minds bedding down there minds in lust many things were wrong, sometimes alone, it was more wrong, in the mind in the distance time
Processions Processions
god save the processions walking, columnar down the gravel road men in sessions taking confessions the gravel pit meets them they manouever around it gathering water like minds on their lust beating their drums the ironic shocking silence of birds an abbey of lusts great creation beyond all thats good is the error
Sore Lips
true love, like any soap contains the legend of my demise guiding you through forest, nook, and nanny true love, and only that does this poetry chopin poetry my dearest chopin the tremors of alienations affliction at night we cant even hold our hands together in unison we dive dive dive, heads banging together the treasury of alienations affliction in the middle of moon light the greatest malfunction i could muster there was trepidation there, still using the fawcet water poured out of things take our towels the chop chop chop chop chop the greatest malfunction in existence chop chop anyway, we had short hips
sore lips hard nips miserable antiquation antiquation was his life
Betty
there werent so many things as people supposed the fallen can fall just the same and even more in youth trees lined her pathway graying into bloody autumn she forgot where she came from she had no clue where she was coming from betty ran through the path in hopes of being the poor memory she searched for answers but couldnt find any a pale yellow blurb into the fields is where she went nobody felt nobody feels the telephone rang, the sky was blue i answered it to find no one but you what do you want from me? that morning the telephone rang catching up with me was a memory
Breezes
in the sky, yes there are lights, more than aliens, in those lights more than anything in this type of light they say it comprises a monster but i cant tell you his name in there inside of there
than anything else i could have ever seen, i could see guards the yellow haze of the sky, the morning of those murders on the highlands this is where the world is for me, life on this ship amidst the empty sea these are the only walls ive known, born in this prison, a cruise ship island climbing increasingly, golden charmed, scrolling up and over glittering mass of purple glass, a globular crust encrusting the kitchen, crawling growing growing more inside of me and this litter of hairy and hairless demons, they had been together for so long this island of murder where the scientist murdered his children his wife and killed himself in my house a history i never knew of until it slipped towards me, from childbirth a secret truth seasons changed on the cruise ship island, but the sky was always cloudy moving through vast terrains of sparkle homeless pain for sacred things my mother the coming the coming the coming news was finished finally news was obsolescent opalescent, afire with glinting color the moon was bright foul hole
prophet and prophetic prophetic dead walker the same news of golden supremacy walls shone with encrusting hard glamour a sticky stretch sprays into flesh of the light light of the flesh so bright it turns on dead sensual snake blame risk and mistake un-slipped and away from me dream like ocean came to life spreading out and infinitude in front of me glory of murder on the grassy hills windswept and gray sky hovering above a special glittering sea, ablaze illuminating you and me there the walls climbed, puppies yelping the evening, this evening, was beautiful, smoky air hung in the air thick with pale rose and orange smokiness haze of fire haze of fire i live in the womb dark cave-like murder under monster beds another world sweeter world
too much for my sight i fell back in fright for the holy divinity of this infinity was too much for my affinity the aesthetics of a nunnery swallowed by the ocean mass swallowed swallowed swallowed down to the pearls and blue amber gold a golden floor the essence of a bore his elegant head swayed with every snore who knew this could happen to me too? pale and amber and gold was the kingdom a swallowed bird coughing nearer a death bed he called out his death and read it for a year the drop from above was a divinity tear bird caught up with its pray who knew what to do what to say the shaking of the bed said hell soon be dead and awake in the night of the day pale amber his face glowed pretty although his dead flesh seemed slimy and gritty the dirt stuck to its age its blessed age said so much, its age said so much as thin as a page from an book of hours oh showers oh showers of wash away showers its muddy blue bloat blended into the flowers
Medieval Midwives
storming hills traveling troupes confronted by a pig on a hook, fractured pig, sparkling pig confronted like the pig knowing now is the time its very strange how life changes going over in a thin glaze thin golden fine haze, layer after layer revealing the ranges, a colorful trope of forever changes will we ever come to terms with his forgetfulness? will we ever come to terms with his forgetfulness? golden fingertips rubbing fingertips slight scrubs across the versions of my skin fleshless, bountiful, a rimming carousel terrified of a horny male a woven trip ripped and adventure sleeping forever hey forever is forever listen to me
totally thrilling walking nowhere forever is forever, an excuse for forever speaking on terms pleasant but disturbing the new world is disturbing moving and stirring into a quiet future the future a monotony, a quiet future
they crawl
They Crawl
up and down, a smiling crawl absorb absorb into this absorb the sheen, fine foggy sheen they crawl they crawl they crawl from another land climbs into the honeycomb space a crumbling lie i want to be burnt i want my ashes to be thrown into the sea i want everything that i love to be thrown in after me in me after me almost after impaled on me waiting for thee lubed and spewing climbing onto the building climbing onto the building climbing onto the building the fantasy of killing
Imitate
imitate my body imitate my head imitate no nobody imitate youre dead
Dreamies Dreamie
dreamie sat up in bed, a blue shock of light careening into the ceiling, what a world i just escaped what a world, oh what a world
Race Wars
slowly and slowlier i become the teenage werewolf body amidst fruition growth after growth a dirty city becoming a dirty city into a dirty city the grime and the streets caked thick as icing the dirt slowly and slowly, but slower i become and more and more as histories pass becoming is so fun
there is a difference between the definitions the modern and the other the context wherein i was born remember the difference in accepting the difference there is one, here between the fast and the old those reductive electronics things that hold sway i knew that the digital told me where we were at it spoke to me in digital voice and voiceover a digital and digital and digital being came into existence once again, because i had a hand on the forceness of the new i grew from inside overwhelmed and encompassing the passing phrase of weirdness the ending of the governing here we are born anew and blind the blindness overcame me, i knew not a sign undertags and undertags the cities dress like the future skinny hipster future a mutation on another future but much more future than the past you see the lobotomy was me in the past we watch the clock stop on pastel formations a traditional sense of masculinity we watch the past form us into many roles many people we inspired all of them now i dont know who we are, the best of us dress as if we were elves a medieval fantasia
skinny legs and furry sweaters a hat or two the polaroid achoo achoo a cobra snake bit me once injecting me with prophecies of the future a mutation on the experiments of yore the soon to be poor a class unto itself a class until it becomes again to become the being is a blind animal it is blind to become is to being now in the sublime the new world is great of a brilliant thousand new a thousand a thousand a thousand anew
Spectators
(this poem is not yet finished, but is, according to my radical ideology of living in the moment) spank combining the end im only as radical as many people know that i am my claim is short like ten thousand short someday i dont know there might be a book or no i dont know forget it though i honestly dont know what to say about dark parts of lives the thing is that you have an entire womans life in an album the light of the time entire lives take place between the pages a simplified forgettably is what were all about but there you go between a hundred pages there exists the need to transgress the forgotten people a forgotten age youre so in tune with the times that its ridiculous
an unfinished poem about you i know youre reading this mindfuck mindfuck mindfuck i am scared of over simplifying the problems or ignoring the problems i dont want to be blamed but i know whats true for right now
Lighthouse Dreamings
what was the essence of the lost postmodernity? the relationship between hot air and a cool drink? is this alienation or what? what what the essence? this is an abstraction beyond comprehension redefinition is svengali-like jiving redefinied god given unconscious in conscious confident and condescending lost in glass glass like posture sculpture is stiffer but now now awful i see it
although constructed of thinly veiled wafers cinnamon, chocolate, sugar spun dreamy baby head i have a home too you inside of you feeling new this time, this way now im glad and i have a home to go to although constructed of thin wafers, the gingerbread manor glistening trees sweating out life sweat on the bed meg in the bed and soon to be dead an autumn once said eye shadows shadowed things for the night theyre what just must busted my nuts in the blue cement room corner row tiger marked iron gates a new collar open the door forget me not i see you staring in this hidden wrist watch a pleather under pants whispering new names on the sofa stealing the trinkets youre a trinket once i had ians hair once i tripped it up by the end of winter it will commence again the tubular strength the maze like fright
mazes in the dark un-tame able in the morning memories kicked alive coalesce with memories warm now warmer i love this synagogue performance i hope the states institute some form of voter safety this election brings out the crazies like never before an eternal election unblock enshrined in the cementhood of young manhood touch me elliott from beyond reanimator too genius
inevitable it happens hey sometimes theres renewal too, like new life forms and whatever else new sports, pulling on the gleam of armor we did it
Virgin Wife
virgin wise virgin wise voice like a disney soundtrack bells swirls devils script sells eliot has a voice like the world on fire hurricane wire broken glares sun rising melting snow my death face frozen forever into the ice melting when they removed my stiff body necessities oh necessities the twinkle of stardust snow memory like past my eyes your eyes memory snow going away i go away, a train station today a train station tomorrow anticipation gets me down somehow im special at finding it a passing miracle
the sun was blue like the sky and everything else was spilled over with longing freedom it blew over with the fire of freedom hell, brimstone, all that stuff it blew over my eyes introducing me to nothing stolen away hello intro to hell torment
Intro to Hell
loud stars too empty happy ness never began deep within lights wander too swollen swollen heart so blood swollen echoes hidden love catch crack snatch the hidden ditch swirling through winds in the night time hidden witch on a broomstick bring me
Strange Dream
i dreamt that i was inside of a hotel, and the hotel was on a major city block in a major american city. the hotel was old on the inside, like a grand hotel from the gilded age. the walls were covered in wallpaper from the titanic, the staircases were all carpeted with red velvet roll-up pathways, etc. there were chandeliers and many many rooms. but the hotel was sinister, like the overlook. the rooms it held had alot of secrets. i remember that i ran from the hotel, i had a lover in the hotel, he was an older man, he would walk around without a shirt on, his torso was lean and muscular, but not attractively so, lean and muscular like someone who was about to die of aids, in fact i think that my dream-consciousness dictated that he did infact have aids. he was bald. he would walk around the hotel and greet people. i ran from the hotel down the streets looking for someone, but all i could find were tourists mainly from sweden. i ran back to the hotel, but the elaborate facade had disappeared. instead there was just a lacquered door with a golden number on it. i dont remember the number. i opened the number and there was a small staircase leading to a banquet hall. it was the hotel. in the banquet hall were all of the european tourists who i had met on the street. there was a big window, on the windowsill was a bird with barack obamas head. it was singing all sorts of songs, i realized that the songs were actually lines from the bible, but not, they were just regular lines of prophetic type imagery, but my dream-consciousness concluded that they were lines from the bible. my lover appeared, he was still shirtless, and still diseased, he had a nipple ring and i ran up to him and embraced him and then i tore his nipple ring out. he told me that the hotel
had many horrible secrets, he also told me that he knew that i didnt believe him. he told me to open a door, any door, and the secrets would be revealed. i walked past him and opened a door, behind the door was a hallway, with a spiral staircase that lead up and up through the hotel. i walked into the hallway, and suddenly gusts of wind started coming from down the staircase, filling the entire hotel with hurricane-like winds. everyone disappeared. suddenly a scared cat jumped from the doorway onto my hand. the cat was horrified of the winds. light began filling the hallway, there were all sorts of extraordinary alien lights, the winds began picking up even more unimaginable speed. the cat dug its claws into the flesh of my hand, i was too stunned to move. it opened its mouth and bit into my hand, it didnt want to fly away with the winds. i knew that if i held my hand completely still that, even though the cat had both its teeth and claws inside of my hand, it wouldnt wound me. so i held my hand completely still. the teeth and claws of the cat got bigger and bigger, digging deeper and deeper into the flesh of my hand, i watched as it started severing fingers and chunks of flesh from my hand, but i wasnt wounded, because i was holding my hand completely still. i took my other hand and started to crush the head of the cat. i watched as my other hand started to cave in the fragile skull of the cat under tremendous pressure, the flesh began to tear from its skull and the eyes began to ooze out, its brains oozed out too. the cat was screaming like a child. the winds began to die down, and suddenly the cat was gone. my hand was ok. my lover was gone, everyone in the hotel was gone. and i was alone in the hallway, this is when i woke up.
only the best in happiness repairing repairing only im repairing i staunchly up the blood pane worship this worship that worship this and that only that darkness blistering life oh blistering life opening revealing nothing only the spaces no more cures making a mixed tape for one who doesnt care making a mixed tape for someone who might kill me liking the blast from another fear another fear oh my god just another fear might be trying to convict me create me convert me to christianity what can i do in this dead town? brown with draping fears veiled tree moss this is really weird brain grass brain grass brain grass another story
i can be hidden i can be hidden citizen hidden oh the forests thats where im from brown horses forests of thrash taken home journey journey its definitely allowed for everyone here we dont do a thing about your sub conscious just let it go for everyone to use, information is ours to chose making a mixed tape for some guy who i think has only ever listened to the greatful dead and gospel music his entire life, is iggy pops version of china girl classic enough? what am i doing with myself? blue should i play him merzbow i guess im just going to do it scream man scream man scream from that cave a hellish cave the knave and eyeball gash yummy yummy kitchen nash nash nash mash mush yummy yummy kitchen mush it goes on it goes on it goes on
Proposition 8
im not interested in anything except for actions, im interested in mental actions and physical actions what makes them actions and how those actions can be presented abstract shards of electronic sounds, repetitive pianos, harpsichord, organs, contrapuntal madness, confessional sobbing, electronic desert shores, memory music, pretend music, nothing music, Love Songs all of them all of them hammer stab all of them most of its here atleast you spent one day in los angeles while this insanity is going down! too much history in one week! could i be alive tomorrow could i be alive tomorrow
A Letter to Mitchell
drawing, does not a human, make. mitchell come over here sometime to drink and share ideas and watch new movies youve never seen before. i have alot of these things mitch, alot of good movies youve never heard about black rose manor? or funeral parade of roses both experimental japanese 60s films about warped genderfucks? youve never seen them mitchell, and i have them. or come over to listen to my extensive record collection. i have bathory on vinyl. or rare walter carlos singles and 45s from the late 60s? you could come over to browse through my collection of fine books, like my 1972 edition of gogo lewis and leon manleys anthology of doll ghost stories called the haunted dolls or my signed first edition copy of derridas the truth in painting? come over mitchell, forget drawing, come here. i have alcohol and fine commodities for you to consume.
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