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felt that both these came to me uninvited. I was extremely
sensitive to environment and picked up vibrations with ease. Being a psychic
didn't help and in fact things and phenomenon often tormented me.
I possessed a logical brain and this was more of a curse than a
gift. I often could not answer to things and phenomenon that took place
in my life. May be I did not have enough grey matter for that.
I was very depressed on that day and things were not turning up as
I wished. I entered the place. It carried the burial tomb of the
sufi saint ( I still do not know the name of my Messiah) . There was no
body and I was not accustomed to "Mohammedan customs". So I set
down in "Vajraasan" like position and bowed my head. I was shocked as I
felt an immediate sensation that somebody was touching my head. I
moved my head up, and there, I saw a cat looking at me. I stood up
and clasped my hands in devotion to the tomb and felt that cat was
licking my feet. I saw that there were two kittens along with her
and they were doing the same thing. I could not explain what
happened but I felt that every strand of my hairs was standing and
I could feel a strange sensation in my spine. It took me another six
minutes and then I came out. I did not even felt to explain this
to myself. There was something happening that I could not explain.
That night I had a very sound sleep.
The idol of Shree Hari was displayed on the screen. I could not
understand what people liked in that idol (For the first time).
Being an artist I can see that that the idol was not in the right
symmetry. There was surely something that my eyes could not
see..., something that those daily visitors can make out.
So I visited the temple for the first time (This happened first
time in six years of regular visits to different temples except this
one). I first met my school time friend "Manas" who was now the "
Mahant" of Shri Govind Dev Ji temple". I was allowed to sit near
the idol, very near to the "Pat" (The doors near the idol). I could
immediately feel the envious eyes of people standing near bars. At
that moment I just hated myself. But this feeling was not stronger
than the feeling of rational explanation of devotion. After the
sounds of regular bells the curtains were removed.
I was mesmerized for the time being. I could now see the magnetic
powers the idol possessed. There was no rational explanation. My
mind was lost in beauty and that moment my rational brain was
dead.
When I came out of the temple I could feel a cold sensation near
my head. My eyes were constantly radiating some frozen hue like
thing. I could see that my brain was fighting with my body but at the
same time my body was out of its control. I went near cows and bought
some fodder. I gave it to the cow and there she started licking my
hand. Then lot of them started coming towards me. (In real life I
was much afraid of cows as I was once attacked by the same). But
at that moment there was absolute fearless ness. The cows surrounded
me. It was a very happy moment which I cannot explain in words.
From that day onwards I became a staunch devotee of Shree Hari. This
feeling can only be felt. It is not something that I can put in
words.
You could see the love in small events of your life. One such
event is related to my daily Pooja to the lord. Once during one such
prayer I just felt that I should have possessed a bigger
photograph of Govind Dev Ji. This was a momentary thing and I immediately
discarded it.
The very next day my friend called me to her house. There, her
mother told me that she wanted to gift me with something. You can
wonder what that gift can be. It was a new white scooter with
every accessory needed. I could not accept it but after lot of
persuasion from my family and my aunt I finally took it. Wasn't someone
watching? Definitely the practical of " Yogachshemam Vahamayam".
Again why me? I consider my self a dirty cruel brat.
Just when I was leaving, his mother saw me and called me in.
Despite of my wish I entered their house. I met his grandfather and out of
sheer respect I touched his feet. Then I decided to leave and was
just doing so when his grandfather ordered me to sit down for few
minutes. I told him that I have some urgent work at home. He
immediately announced that I will not leave the house without
being fed. His voice was heavy and he told the servants to close down
the heavy gates. This was strange. How could he possibly know that I
was hungry?