40 DAYS IN JESUS ABBEY

JAESON MA

40 DAYS IN JESUS ABBEY

Tae Baek Mountains Korea ~ Jesus Abbey

Beloved Sons & Daughters of God, And in that day you will say: O Lord, I will praise You; Though You were angry with me, Your anger is turned away, and You comfort me. Behold, God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid; For YAH, the Lord, is my strength and song; He also has become my salvation. Therefore with joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation. Isaiah 12:1-3 With deep gratitude, thank you for all your prayers during my last spiritual journey. Ive returned from my 40 days in the monastery. I will do my best to put into words what I have experienced in my time there. I went into this 40 day journey with nothing, I expected to come out with nothing but one thing: to know God more & discover my true self. I found both in a way I didnt expect. I journeyed half way across the world to a monastery called Jesus Abbey. Originally, I had thought that this monastery was in Europe because of the name Jesus Abbey. When the Holy Spirit awoken me one night in February to go to this place, I did a google search only to discover that the monastery was in South Korea. I was surprised, because South Korea is a nation the Lord has called me to minister in for the past few years. I thought to myself, there must be a divine reason. The reason would soon unfold, personally and prophetically.

Jesus Abbey An Encounter with Revival History

R.A. Torrey I

When I first arrived to Jesus Abbey, I did not know about the rich Christian history and legacy of this monastery. The monastery was founded by R.A. Torrey III or as people in Korea would call him Father Torrey who passed away in 2002. He was a spiritual mentor to many of Koreas influential church leaders, an apostle of prayer & a freedom fighter for justice. His father was R.A. Torrey II who was a student missionary who served in mainland China for over 40 years. His grandfather, R.A. Torrey the first, was the successor to D.L. Moody (the famous evangelist) & he himself would turn out to be the great revivalist, theologian and evangelist who founded Moody Bible Institute, BIOLA University, wrote over two dozen classic books on the Christian faith, and was the impetus for the historical Welsh Revival in 1905 and Korean Pentecostal Revival in 1907. He had written a classic book The Person &

Work of the Holy Spirit which I had read briefly some ten years ago. I had no idea, before going to Jesus Abbey, that there was such a deep well of revival history under its foundations. The first day I arrived, my host, took me to the original basement office where Father Torrey would study and work. Curiously, like a little boy, I asked if I could search through his old library of books. With permission, I chanced upon a stack of old books which turned out to be the original writings of R.A. Torrey the first. There were over a dozen classic works on revival, the power of prayer & the victorious Christian life. I felt I had discovered ancient spiritual treasure. As I searched the book shelf, hidden in the corner, I saw a small maroon colored book with a emblem of fire embedded into the book cover. Instinctively, I knew it was the Christian classic written by R.A. Torrey, The Person & the Work of the Holy Spirit. It was indeed. Signed and dated in 1924 with his own handwriting & signature. I was in awe of this rare find.

Person & Work of the Holy Spirit

As I held the book in my hand, the Spirit of God immediately fell upon me mightily and those with me. For the next hour or more, we fell on our knees, holding onto this book, praying to God, Lord, would you once again release a

revelation of the Person & the Work of the Holy Spirit upon the world, would you revive this generation again? Would you do what you did in the days of DL. Moody, R.A. Torrey, the Welsh Revival, Korean Pentecost Revival and pour out a Holy Spirit Pentecost movement again?

We wept, prayed and the presence of God came into our midst. After an hour of intense prayer, I knew the Lord had heard our prayers, a well of ancient revival had been awakened & the peace of the Holy Spirit came upon us like a warm blanket. I then heard the Holy Spirit say to me, The next 40 days you will know the Person & Work of the Holy Spirit, you will encounter the Fathers heart in a deeper way, and you will know experientially what it means to be My son.

40 Days in Jesus Abbey Prayer is Work, Work is Prayer

I had no idea what to expect at this monastery. I only knew that their motto was Prayer is Work, Work is Prayer. Soon enough, I would find out quickly that my work was so difficult that it would require continual prayer. For 40 days, a loud bell would ring at different times throughout the day to alert us to stop, pray and then move on to the next work assignment. We would have prayer services at 6AM, 12PM and 7:30PM daily. The meals were mainly vegetarian (kimchee, rice, seaweed etc) and we had only 20 minutes to eat each meal. In the evenings, after service we were not to talk to anyone but God. Lights out at 10PM sharp. Every morning I was assigned to do manual labor with a team of five Korean men (Brothers Stigma, Ponwell, Aesop and Joseph only one spoke limited English). During my 40 days, I became a professional toilet cleaner, dish washer, garbage dumper, table server, wild vegetable gatherer, lumber jack, weed

hacker, and anything else that required my hands at the Abbey. The work was hard. Some days we had to cut down trees in a forest, other days we would mix cement, build steps, carry rocks and climb high up the mountains to gather wild plants. Growing up as a city boy, this was a brand new experience for me, and honestly difficult. I had no one to talk to, I only followed the orders of my team leader Brother Stigma so I ended up talking a lot, pretty much all the time, to the Holy Spirit. At the Abbey, I began to learn that every small act of service was a service to God and a service to my fellow brothers and sisters. In essence, whether I washed dishes, cleaned a toilet or chopped down a tree, it was not work, but it was a way to love others and by doing so, it was an expression of my love to God. In this small community of faith, everything each person did effected another. There was no room for selfishness, only selflessness. No one had much materially there, we all knew that everything given by God was precious. We found great joy when we could give up what we had for the joy of another, because we each knew what it was like to go without. Whether that was giving up a bowl of rice, so someone else could have more. Or whether that was sharing a bottle of water with another brother who was thirsty from a difficult day of manual labor. True Christian community is simply this: loving God by loving one another. The community at the Abbey was simple. A few priests, nuns, families and about a dozen postulants who were training there for three months. For over 50 years, this community has lived by complete faith. Everyone shares everything, just like the New Testament disciples in the apostolic age. Everyone takes care of one another, knows one another, and serves one another in the presence of God. They trust God daily to provide for every meal, they farm the land, and love God and love one another by faith. Almost every year, nearly 10,000 visitors come to this monastery to seek Gods direction and experience the presence of Jesus through this little community of faith. Jesus said, If you love one another the world will know you are My disciples. They truly love one another as Jesus loves them, and people come from all over the world to experience this simple yet supernatural love. What I experienced in this loving community was not the spectacular, but the simple way. Small things made a big difference. They are happy people, serving God, sacrificially serving each other & thankful for every littlest blessing. Each Saturday night, we would have a thanksgiving service and people would take turns giving thanks for what God had blessed them with that week. Listening to them giving thanks convicted me of my own ungratefulness. Some would give thanks because they received a bottle of

Vitamin Water, others would give thanks because they were given a candy, a nail clipper, or someone gave them a simple encouragement etc. I began to learn that a happy life is a thankful life. Instead of being mad at what we dont have, we must be thankful for what we do have.

Jesus Abbey Community

Being a part of this simple community, having to do manual labor each day, and not being able to talk to anyone but God, gave me a lot of time to think about things that I normally would not think about. Thankfully, during my 40 days, I was able to take the afternoons to spend time in prayer and study of Gods Word. It was during these times in the afternoon, God began to deal with me personally.

My Strength Walking in the Power of the Holy Spirit

The first few weeks, the Holy Spirit led me to study the great revivalists of church history. As I began to study the revival histories and biographies of The Moravians, John & Charles Wesley, George Whitfield, Jonathan Edwards, David Brainerd, Charles Finney, D.L. Moody, R.A. Torrey, William & Catherine Booth, Charles Parham, William Seymour, Smith Wigglesworth, John G. Lake, to Bill Bright and Billy Graham, I recognized how each of them were used by God not because their lives were perfect, but because they were completely consecrated to God. They were not men of great might, rather they were men and women of great weakness and lived utterly dependent upon the Person and Work of the Holy Spirit. As I read their biographies, I could relate in so many ways to their failures and also their successes. Most of them, although they began ministry in their twenties, did not start their true ministry until after the age of 30. Each of them had a clear call to preach the Gospel to their generation, and they would not hold anything back until the heavenly vision given to them was completely fulfilled. A specific scripture continued to grip me while I was there,

So I (Paul) said, Who are You, Lord? And He said, I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting. But rise and stand on your feet; for I have appeared to you for this purpose, to make you a minister and a witness both of the things which you have seen and of the things which I will yet reveal to you. I will deliver you from the Jewish people, as well as from the Gentiles, to whom I now send you, to open their eyes, in order to turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, that they may receive forgiveness of sins and an inheritance among those who are sanctified by faith in Me. Therefore, King Agrippa, I was not disobedient to the heavenly vision. Acts 12:15-19 Each day, as I wrestled with this passage of scripture, I prayed to the Lord, I dont want to be disobedient to the heavenly vision. If you have really called me to preach this Gospel, then why do I still see so many weaknesses and struggles in my life? Why am I am still so weak, so broken, so conflicted and at many times without hope or direction?

The more I read the biographies and teachings of revivalists like John G. Lake and Smith Wigglesworth, the more my faith was stirred and challenged. John G Lake prayed, God, if You will baptize me in the Holy Ghost and give me the power of God, nothing shall be permitted to stand between me and one hundred fold obedience. He taught that in the shed blood and

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atonement of Christ, that Jesus Christ had redeemed us from the power of sin, sickness and death completely. Christ has redeemed us from the curse of the law, having become a curse for us for it is written, Cursed is everyone who hangs on a tree that the blessing of Abraham might come upon the Gentiles in Christ Jesus, that we might receive the promise of the Spirit through faith. Galatians 3:13-14 In other words, I had no other option but to believe that Jesus Christ has paid the debt of not only my sin, but also redeemed me from the curse of sickness, all the effects of sin and ultimately death. That it doesnt matter how messed up I feel, or weaknesses I still see in me, because of Jesus blood, I have been restored back to my original design. Many Christians believe that Jesus has forgiven us of sin, but as long as we are in earthly bodies, we will continue to struggle with sin, John G Lake taught that this is impossible. We are not slaves to sin we are slaves to righteousness. This can only happen, when we put our complete trust in the work of the Cross and not the work of ourselves. This can only happen, when we put our faith in Christ righteousness and not self-righteousness. This can only happen, when we stop walking in our flesh and begin to daily, moment, by moment, walk in dependency upon the Person and Work of the Holy Spirit.

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Killing a Rattle Snake Jesus Defeated Sin, Sickness & Death

I determined in my heart, I would stop looking at my sin, my circumstances and my weaknesses. I would start looking at the cross of Jesus Christ that has redeemed me from sin and destroyed all sickness and death. That evening, as I made this decision in my heart, I meditated upon Numbers 21:4-11 where the Bible tells the story of the Israelites who rebelled against God and were punished by being bitten by fiery serpents. God in His mercy, told Moses to take up a fiery serpent and set it on a pole, so that anyone who was bitten should look at it and live. Symbolically, anyone who has been cursed by Satan, anyone who has been cursed by sin, sickness and death, if they would only look to the cross of Jesus Christ, they would live, not only eternally in the new heaven and new earth, but beginning the very moment they believed on Jesus as their Savior. The very moment a person receives the power of the Holy Spirit their body, soul & spirit would be regenerated, through the process of sanctification, to the original perfect order. The next morning God confirmed His Word. As I was walking down the narrow road to cut grass, I encountered a rattle- snake. It was slithering in the middle of the road, right in front me! I immediately grabbed a large wooden stick and

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called for my brother Aesop to come help. As the rattlesnake identified our presence, it began to rattle its tail and hiss with its tongue sticking out. We then took the wooden stick and smashed the snake on its head, over and over, till it died. It wasnt until after we killed the poisonous rattlesnake, the Holy Spirit reminded me of the passage of scripture I read the night before in Numbers 21 and the following verses. Just as Moses lifted up the snake in the wilderness, so the Son of Man must be lifted up, that everyone who believes may have eternal life in him. John 3:315 I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you. Luke 10:19 Indeed, God is my strength, for in my own strength I can not defeat my sin, sickness & shame, but in His strength, in the power of the Holy Spirit that is within me, I can become all that He has called me to be. I am a new creation in Christ, the old is gone, behold the new has come. The following days at the monastery, I had to not just know this truth in my head, but experience it in the fullness of my very being. Lord, I cried out, I surrender my strength to be holy, Lord, be my strength!

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My Song Overcoming the Fear of Failure & the Fear of Success

It is in isolation that we discover our true selves. When we can no longer find our identity from the voices without, we have to look to the Voice within. We begin to face our deepest fears. We begin to embrace our failures and successes in a whole new light. In isolation, we come to see that our true self is not defined by our successes, but our true success is defined by only God Himself. When I arrived at Jesus Abbey, I was hoping that no one would know me, so that I could remain anonymous and just be a part of the community in day-today work and living. Instead, the opposite happened. One of the priests, read about me in a Korean Christian magazine in which I was featured on the front

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cover. He bought copies and passed them out to everyone in the Abbey community before I arrived. The day I got there, everyone already knew me as this well-known celebrated pastor. I thought I had just walked into my worst nightmare. I said to God, Why did you allow this to happen? I wanted to hide and run away from all the expectations and pressures of being a pastor! Well, God has a sense of humor. He always has a purpose in everything. His ways are never our ways. As the days went by rather slowly, honestly some days it felt like eternity, I began to think about issues of the heart I normally would not have time to think about. When you are busy, you can suppress your deepest and darkest pains, but when you are in solitude, you have to come face to face with who you really are. In solitude, I couldnt get away from having to face my inner demons. For me, the two greatest inner demons were the fear of failure and the fear of success. That is, the fear of failing my own expectations, failing others and ultimately failing God. The other inner demon was the fear of succeeding. That is, not knowing whether or not my hopes, dreams and aspirations were for my own glory, or Gods glory. I couldnt trust myself, for the heart is deceitful above all things. Daily I wrestled, day in and day out with the fear of failure and the fear of success standing before me, like two mighty demonic giants, taunting me and telling me to give up on myself, that there was no hope because I was too messed up. I couldnt understand why, but while at the Abbey I couldnt sleep well. My dreams were haunted with past failures and misguided desires. I would wake up each morning physically weak & my heart heavy. Past issues of selfrejection, abandonment, hurt and pain would surface. My heart was broken and I didnt even know why. Throughout the day, as I would be in the forest chopping trees, or shoveling rocks, I would be holding back tears, because my heart would feel so much pain from people I loved who had rejected me in the past, losses in my family, hopes and dreams that were never realized, selfhatred towards my own short comings, dark memories that I had suppressed that began to stare me directly in the face. I felt like I was in prison, Jesus prison. I wanted to get out, I wanted to leave, I wanted to run away from the pain and go back to numbing it with busyness of life. I thought it would be so much easier, to go back to the world and live the life of the imposter who seemed to have it all together on the outside, but inside, without knowing it, was fearful and much afraid.

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Then one afternoon, during my 5th week in the monastery, as I was in my quite time of prayer and study, I began to meditate on a book called Experiencing Fathers Embrace by Jack Frost. I knew everything the book taught about the Fathers heart and His unconditional love for me, but knowing it and experiencing it are two different things. Im still not sure what happened that afternoon, but after weeks of having to face my inner demons, selfrejection and hidden pain, I just broke down before my Father in heaven. I broke down before Father and told him like it was. Not as a pastor, not as a leader, not as an artist, not as a business man, but like a child, like a little boy coming home crying to his Daddy because someone hurt him. I just ran into my Fathers arms, and for about two hours, I shared every disappointment, every heart break, every feeling of rejection, every broken dream, every misplaced hope, every short coming, every family hurt, every fear that I was afraid of and I just cried my eyes out until there were no more tears left to cry. In the end, I felt like I was a little child, curled up and resting in His Daddys embrace. The only thing I knew at that moment, was that God was my Father and I was His beloved son. I didnt need to do anything, but be in His arms, and that was the safest and greatest place to be. I felt safe for the first time in my life.

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Then I heard Father say to me, Jaeson you dont have to be afraid of failure or success, you are my beloved son and nothing will change that, you only need to be yourself. I then realized that I didnt have to prove anything, because Im already approved. I dont live for approval, but from approval. I dont need to strive to be that which I am not, but I am to only to strive at being the best at myself. I could do anything for Him. I only needed to honestly express myself. I no longer needed to apologize for being who I am or question who God created me to be. I simply needed to receive my Fathers love and embrace loving myself with the same love He had given me. I feel like, Im beginning to love myself, flaws and all mistakes and failures, with all my shortcomings. Because although I may not be perfect, my Fathers love for me is perfect and I can rest in this perfect love. For perfect love casts out all fear and I know my Daddys love is always unfailing towards me.

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You Can Run, But You Cant Hide from Your Calling

Preaching on Pentecost Sunday

Interestingly, the community at Jesus Abbey knowing who I was, asked me to preach for the Pentecost Sunday service. Then they asked me to perform my song LOVE at the community picnic (they had no idea what I was saying when I performed my song!). Then they had a movie night and asked me to show our film 1040 and asked me to serve in other capacities with my gifts and talents (like playing with kids).

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Funny thing was, right after I preached on Pentecost Sunday, wearing suit and tie, an hour later I would be serving tables and back to washing dishes. The weekend after I performed my song and showed my movie, the next morning I was dumping smelly trash and cleaning dirty toilets. Then it hit me, God doesnt want me to hide from my calling and who He made me to be, but He wants me to realize that whether I preach behind a pulpit to thousands, perform my music to great crowds, or I serve tables, wash a dirty toilet, it is all for the glory of God, it is all an act of service, it is all for love. That although St. Paul called himself an apostle in one chapter, in another chapter he would call himself the chief of all sinners. We are all sinners saved by grace, but because of our Fathers great love for us, He calls us saints of the Most High God. Whoever has been forgiven much, loves much. Whoever has experienced grace can truly give grace to others. That is, to give without any selfish motive, but to give the unconditional love and acceptance they have

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received from Father God to others, freely without any expectation. What we do does not define us, but what defines us is who we are in Christ, we are sons and daughters of God. We are not defined by what we do, but what we do is simply an expression of who we are. We need to stop comparing ourselves & start being ourselves. It is not about failing or succeeding, it is about being the very best you were created to be. After I encountered the Fathers heart, I knew who I was called to be. I was called to be His beloved son. Who am I? I am Gods son. Created to be exactly myself and not someone else. I no longer needed the imposter in my life, I no longer needed to impress; I only needed to be myself.

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One evening, near the last week of my stay, I walked out into the hills and just began to sing a new song to the Lord. I got on my knees, in the middle of the dirt road, kissed the dirt and then kissed heaven with an old hymn.

Oh Lord, youre beautiful, Your face is all I seek, For when your eyes are on this child, Your grace abounds to me. I want to take your word and shine it all around. But first help me to just, live it Lord. And when Im doing well, help me to never seek a crown. For my reward is giving glory to you. Oh Lord, please light the fire, That once burned bright and clear. Replace the lamp of my first love, That burns with Holy fear.
It felt like bliss. I cried out, Lord you are My strength, oh God You are my song, I live to love You, I live to praise You, I live to give You all of me, because You have given me all of You. God is my song. I got up off my knees, and I looked up to the sky with a supernatural confidence. I felt God was smiling down from the heavens, winking at me, and I had His full approval. I was ready to pray, ready to preach and ready to die for the Gospel of the kingdom.

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My Salvation Im a Son of the King, I Can Do Anything!

The last ten days at the monastery God began to speak to me about the Gospel of the kingdom. The Holy Spirit had me study Genesis to Revelation & a book written by Dr. Myles Munroe entitled Rediscovering the Kingdom. In my studies of the kingdom, it was clearly apparent that Jesus didnt die to forgive our sins in order for us to get a free ticket to heaven. Rather, Jesus died for our sins in order to reintroduce humanity back to its original purpose. We were all originally purposed for a kingdom. We were purposed by God to extend His kingdom ruler-ship in heaven into the earth. Yet, when man sinned against God, Satan took away our authority to rule and have dominion over the earth, and we lost fellowship with the Holy Spirit. Therefore, Jesus died & resurrected in order to reverse the curse, take back the authority & power that once belonged to man from Satan, and restore humanity back to its original

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purpose, by refilling mankind with the Holy Spirit and making them once again sons and daughters of the Kingdom of God. Gods original plan in creation was to extend His heavenly Kingdom on earth. Gods purpose was to establish a family of sons, not servants. Gods purpose was to establish a commonwealth of citizens, not Christians. Gods purpose was to establish relationships, not religion. God created human beings to exercise dominion over the earth and all its creatures. God gave us rulership over the earth, not ownership. God will not do anything on earth without the permission or access frpom those on earth to whom He gave dominion. God can do anything, but because He has give us the license, He can release on earth only what we allow

Jesus taught us to pray, Thy Kingdom Come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Matthew 6:10 Jesus didnt teach mainly about salvation, throughout the Gospels He mainly taught about the kingdom. Jesus goal was not to get us to go to heaven. His entire mission was to get heaven back into the earth. We were not created to go to heaven; we were created to bring heaven into the earth. At the 2nd coming of Jesus Christ, we are not going to live in heaven for all eternity; rather, we are going to rule and reign over a new earth and new heaven. The Gospel of the Kingdom is good news: a message sent from Daddy to all His children telling them that they can return home to the Kingdom and once again be sons and daughters in their full right. As I pondered these kingdom principles, a light bulb went off in my spirit. Wait a second, If I am purposed for a kingdom and my Father is the King of all kings, what does that make me? It makes me a prince of God, because I am a son of the King. Then I realized, I am a son of the King, I can do anything! That is, I can do anything in accordance to my Kings will and purpose. A prince never fears lack, or questions his security, nor does he feel rejected, or ever worries about his purpose, he is free and confident to be and do whatever he wills as long as he is in right standing with the King. His passion is to know the will of His Father, & see His Fathers will accomplished.

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Suddenly, all the pain of self-rejection, self-hatred, disappointment, fear of failure, doubts and insecurities vanished. I have nothing to prove, nothing to lose, nothing to be afraid of, nothing to worry about. Why? I am a son of the King, nothing is impossible I can be and do all things. My purpose became clear. I am called to release the kingdom of heaven into the earth. I am called to make the kingdoms of men, become the kingdoms of our God. I am called to be everything He has called me to be, and do everything He has called me to do. I am to maximize my potential, by utilizing the gifts, talents and skills He has placed within me to the fullest. I am to live life with all my might; give it all I have. I am to do until there is nothing left to do because I have become all that I was created to be. I have done all I was designed to do, and give all I was sent to give. I am to die empty. I am to live and die fulfilled by dying unfilled. I am to pour my life out like a drink offering, until every fiber of my being is maximized for the glory of God. Nothing can hold me back, because I represent an eternal and everlasting kingdom that has a never ending supply of resources to heal the sick, deliver the oppressed, feed the hungry and clothe the poor. Heavens got my back, Im not turning back until I see all the works of Satan destroyed and his demons unemployed, till thy kingdom come on earth as it is in heaven. God is my salvation. The last few days of my 40 day journey, I not only knew that God was my salvation, the One who called me out from darkness into light, but indeed, He had called me to turn others from darkness to light, from Satan to God, and to receive forgiveness of sins, that they would be restored back to my Fathers kingdom as His rightful sons and daughters, a great and mighty army.

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Satans Temptation Gods Victory.

The last three days at the monastery, the Holy Spirit directed me to go on a three-day water fast. While, I fasted, the presence of the Lord became more and more intimate, His love became more real to me than ever before, I was in love all over again, nothing else mattered. Then Satan tempted me. On the 39th day, I was informed that someone had hacked into my personal email account, posing as myself with an email saying that I was mugged in London, strapped for cash and in need of a few thousand dollars immediately. This hacker was sophisticated. He did everything in real time, would email and even talk over the phone with those who responded to help me. The false email went out to over 8,000 contacts. The hacker erased all my email history since 2003-2011. Family and friends were contacting me at the Abbey from all over the world thinking I was in trouble. It was a mess. Upon hearing the news and understanding the unfortunate situation I Immediately stopped, quieted my soul and silently prayed. The Holy Spirit showed me that this was a distraction of the enemy. I knew it was also. I then began to laugh and said to the Holy Spirit, This only makes me love You that much more. The Devil can try to take away everything, but it cant take away You! I felt the erasing of all my last 8 years of emails was something God allowed, it was a complete wipe out of my old history because God wanted to build a new history with me. Although, I did have to notify many family and friends that this was a false email so they would not be deceived in giving money, I had peace throughout the whole process, the Holy Spirit was with me; that was all that mattered. Take away the world, but give me Jesus!

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My Son The Preacher

Son of God

After the 40 days were over, something interesting happened on the 40th & 41st day. The Spirit began to move in extra ordinary power in ordinary circumstances. I was serving tables before I left Jesus Abbey; suddenly someone brings to me a woman whose hand was greatly injured. Her hand was puffed red, it was swollen to almost the size of a grape fruit, and they asked me to pray for her hand to be healed. I simply stretched out my hand and proclaimed divine healing by the shed blood of Jesus Christ over her swollen hand. Immediately, before my eyes and the eyes of the others witnessing, the red swelling dissipated, then disappeared, and the woman was in shock, as was I. She then shared that she couldnt feel the pain and could move her hand perfectly normal again. Her daughter was so surprised at Gods work, she began to ask all kinds of questions as to what happened and then began praising God.

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The next morning, I was preparing to leave the Abbey and went into the laundry room to give away some clothes. As I walked into the back room, I saw one of the postulants, lying on the ground, with her legs stretched out and one foot in a brace. I asked her what happened and she explained to me that she either fractured or broke her foot. She was in deep pain, so I asked if I could pray for her foot. Again, this foot was swollen red, and markedly larger than the other uninjured foot. I simply laid hands over her injured foot, declared healing in Jesus name. Immediately, the swelling began to disappear and she could feel a warm presence over her injured foot. I asked her to get up and try walking, she hesitated, but then got up first limping, but within a few minutes began to walk normally praising God! We were both in awe of Gods presence in the room. I carried on to my duties, but as I was walking out of the laundry room, my team leader Brother Stigma brought a new postulant working on his team into the laundry room. Brother Stigma pointed to the young mans thumb, then his chest and then his stomach, motioning that he was sick and in pain. I didnt understand what he meant, so I asked the sister who had just been divinely healed to interpret. She said, This brother is new here, but as he has tried to do manual work, his body is manifesting great pain all over. He has been throwing up every meal for over 6-years, his thumb is in pain and somehow connected to his chest where he also feels constant pain. He used to be a worship leader before all this happened. I looked at the young man, and immediately I discerned that what was tormenting him was not just a disease, but a spirit of infirmity, an actual demon. I was right. The moment I laid hands on him in prayer, he began to convulse violently, his body became twisted, almost as if you could see another creature crawling under his skin. He began to foam at the mouth, spasms back and forth, until I laid my hands on his chest and commanded the demons to come out. The power of God then struck him and he fell back onto the laundry machine with his head backwards. He continued to convulse, but then pointed out that the demon had moved from his chest down to his groin area. In Jesus name, I cast out the evil spirit of infirmity out of his body, he then plunged forward, head first into the laundry room ground. The floor was an inch deep with dirty laundry water, but this young man didnt seem to notice. He began to cry out to God in freedom, with his hands clasped in prayer, he lifted his head from the dirty floor and began to pray in other tongues loudly and freely, he was born again, delivered and set free. An hour later, he was at the noon service, dressed in clean clothes, hair combed, in his right mind and shining with Gods glory in his countenance. For

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they will see your good works and give praise to your Father in heaven. We all praise the Lord for setting this young man free to worship. Truly Jesus has destroyed the power of sin, sickness and death upon the cross of Calvary. None of these signs, wonders and miracles could be possible without believing in the promises found in His Word. And He said to them, Go into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature. He who believes and is baptized will be saved; but he who does not believe will be condemned. And these signs will follow those who believe: In My name they will cast out demons; they will speak with new tongues; they will take up serpents; and if they drink anything deadly, it will by no means hurt them; they will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover. Mark 16:15-18 The Spirit of God was confirming to me all that I had learned in my 40 days at Jesus Abbey. Indeed, nothing can be done without knowing day in and day out the Person & Work of the Holy Spirit, my Fathers love is and always will be enough, and as His Son all I need to do, is only do what I see the Father doing (John 5:19). I am to heal. I am to preach the Gospel of the Kingdom. It was hard to say good-bye to Jesus Abbey, Im sure I will be back. As I prepared to leave this precious community, I decided to draw a cartoon picture of each of the Jesus Abbey members, with a prophetic scripture and word that described how special each of them were to me. We all took pictures, held hands and prayed in a circle. We would always hold each other in our hearts, in prayers and in love. It would be a people, so special, so loving, so true and so warm that I would never forget each of their faces. Right before I left the Abbey, the Holy Spirit spoke to me to go visit the prayer chapel one last time. I went into the chapel, and when I knelt down to pray, on the altar was a large old King James Bible. The Bible was opened to the book of Ecclesiastes and it was titled The Preacher.

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The Holy Spirit then spoke to me, Jaeson, you are Gods son, and you are called to preach the Gospel of the kingdom, there is no higher calling than to preach this Gospel, you must humbly receive this honor. You are My Son, You are The Preacher. Shortly after, my hosts came to pick me up and bring me down the mountain from Jesus Abbey, to go to another mountain a few hours away to preach to two hundred students leaders, from the top 12 universities in Seoul, Korea to contend for revival and believe for another student volunteer missionary movement. How did this open door to preach happen? The final section below I will share what the Holy Spirit spoke to me prophetically concerning the destiny of South Korea, North Korea, China, Middle East & the Back to Jerusalem movement.

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A Prophetic Call Raising up a House of Prayer from South Korea, North Korea, China, Middle East back to Jerusalem

I went to Jesus Abbey, in the Tae Baek mountains of South Korea with no agenda, no plans, no expectations. While I was there, seeking God for my own personal breakthrough, the Holy Spirit began to speak through a series of prophetic events that left me astounded. When God calls, you can either kick or scream, or you can submit and surrender. Ive chosen to follow the latter, because God is simply bigger, stronger & smarter than I am* I knew the Holy Spirit had led me to Jesus Abbey in South Korea for a divine reason, but I had no idea what it was for. By the end of my 40 days in the monastery, His will was made known and absolutely clear. God wanted to raise up a international house of prayer & mission base in the Tae Baek mountains to prepare the next generation of South Korea and Asia, for the opening of North Korea and the greatest harvest that would soon come to the nations. How did this vision unfold?

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Before I went to Jesus Abbey in May, the Holy Spirit told me to go to Seoul, Korea in February 2011. A mentor of mine, Mike Bickle the founder of the International House of Prayer in Kansas City (www.ihop.org) was speaking at all the major mega-churches in Seoul during that time. I knew this had to be a significant trip for him, because for over 10 years he has not traveled outside of the USA to preach once in Asia even though he had received numerous invitations to preach all over Asia. When I got to Seoul, I was not able to meet with Mike Bickle because his schedule was so impacted. The last day before I left back to the US, I stopped at a Sunday morning service at a local church to hear Mike Bickle preach. I went by myself, sat in the congregation and then someone recognized who I was. They told the senior pastor and the pastor asked me to come up to the front of the podium to pray before Mike Bickle spoke. I then shared a dream that I had received over one year ago, where I was at Yoido Full Gospel Church (the largest church in the world in Seoul Korea) where in the dream the Sr. Pastor Dr. Yongi Cho asked me to prophesy to the church in Korea. I then prophesied in the dream Isaiah 62 Hephzibah or Gods delight is in you Korea! and that there would be a new youth revival, a student mission movement that would begin in Seoul, and spread all over South Korea, North Korea, China, Middle East and back to Jerusalem. It would be a marketplace mission movement and God would raise up an end time missionary army that would reform government, business, education, media, arts, family and religion. The dream ended with Dr. Yongi Cho thrusting the wide doors of the church open and declaring, The door is now opened, let the new youth revival of Korea begin! After I shared this prophetic dream to the congregation, I declared the dream to come into fruition from the podium. Then Mike Bickle pulled me aside and told me he was astonished, because his sermon that morning was on Isaiah 62 and also his dream about Hephzibah. We both knew it was a confirmation of the Lord. Indeed, God was going to raise up a new youth worship, music and prayer movement in South Korea that would birth an end time student mission movement greater than anything South Korea had ever experienced. Later in February 2011, the Holy Spirit directed me to go to Jesus Abbey to spend 40 days in prayer. Again, I had no idea Jesus Abbey was in South Korea, so to go back to Korea after my encounter in February with Mike Bickle I knew was significant.

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Fellowship with Ben & Liz Torrey

When I arrived at Jesus Abbey, I was introduced to Ben Torrey, who is the son of R.A. Torrey III. After his father passed away, he shared with me that his fathers vision was to build a mission school for young people to prepare for the opening of North Korea. This project was called The 4 Seas Project and the school and mission center would be built on another mountain fifteen minutes away from Jesus Abbey. It is called the 4 Seas Project, because the

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east, west, and south rivers of Korea all cross one another at a water shed, on the actual mountain top where the 4 Seas Project owns land. They believe prophetically the fourth river is a spiritual river going north for the salvation and destiny of North Korea. Their hope is to unite all the major denominations and churches in South Korea to invest financially into this project as a sign of the Korean Churchs unity in the nation.

The Water Shed where the 4 Rivers of Korea Cross on the 4 Seas Project Mountain

One of the days, Ben Torrey brought me up to the mountain where they are planning to build this North Korean mission school. As I got up to the top of the mountain, I began to pray and I immediately received a vision. In the vision I saw an international house of prayer being built on the mountain. Then I saw young people, teenagers and young adults stream into this house of prayer from all over South Korea and all over the world to worship and pray 24-7 day and night. Then I saw the scripture flash through my mind, Isaiah 62 and I shared this vision with Ben Torrey. When he heard what I shared, he was

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A Series of Prophetic Confirmations

The next week, a good friend and celebrity in South Korea came to visit me at Jesus Abbey. When we talked he told me that had donated a brand new school bus to the River of Life junior high school (which is the prototype school preparing the Korean youth for missions in North Korea located a few minutes from Jesus Abbey). I had no idea that he knew about this monastery, the North Korea project and that he had donated an entire school bus to the River of Life School! A few days later, I had a prophetic dream while at the monastery, where in the dream Mike Bickle and his leadership, the Jesus Abbey leadership, myself and a specific Pastor David Cho in South Korea were having a meeting in a private room at Jesus Abbey. Then in the dream, Pastor David Cho asks all the associates to leave, and only Mike Bickle, myself, and Ben Torrey are in the room. Pastor Cho then says, God has given me a blueprint and plan to build a prayer & mission base in these mountains, but it will need finances. The dream ends.

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That weekend, two of my dearest friends who are prominent business leaders in South Korea came to visit me. I thought we would just catch up and pray, we did pray. They both also tell me that they are part of the fundraising committee, helping to raise $30 million dollars USD for this 4 Seas North Korea project. Again, I was shocked because I had no idea they were invested personally and supporting the vision of Jesus Abbey to reach North Korea. I then share with them the vision I received to first build a house of prayer for the youth of the nation to come pray, worship, and be trained 24-7 before being sent to North Korea. Practically, these students would intern for 1 or 2 years, worship and pray 4 hours a day in the prayer room, but the other 4 hours they would farm and work the land to provide for living expenses, practice humility and service, in order to be broken free from worldly attachments. There could also be training schools/programs for the 7 mountains of culture and North Korea cross cultural missions, preparing each student in their field of work with a missions mind set. After I shared the vision, they both were excited and felt strongly this vision was very possibly from the Lord. They then asked me, Who would lead this mission base? I then asked them if they had ever met a Korean pastor named David Cho. They both looked at me shocked. Then one said, I had just met him this afternoon at my home for a meeting. He prayed for the chairman of a major corporation here in Korea, and the chairman became a Christian after his prayer. We literally just met him 4 hours ago, before we drove here to meet you! We all sat their stunned and decided we would pray about this vision, and let the Lord reveal & confirm next steps. The following week, Pastor David Cho came to visit me also at Jesus Abbey. He had already scheduled to come visit me simply to encourage me during my stay at the monastery. When he arrived he told me he needed to share with me a recent revelation he had been given by the Holy Spirit. As we sit down to share, he tells me, Jaeson, something very interesting happened two weeks ago when I traveled to Japan for a mission trip. On my plane to Japan, it just so happened Ben Torrey from Jesus Abbey was also on my plane, except he was going to Los Angeles for his daughters wedding, but I was going to Japan to help with relief work. Then, as I was serving in Japan the Holy Spirit spoke to me a specific verse in the scriptures about the coming great harvest in Asia. I asked him, What was the Bible verse? He said, Isaiah 62:10 Pass through, pass through the gates! Prepare the way for the people. Build up, build up the highway! Remove the stones. Raise a banner for the nations. Isaiah 62:10

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Fog of God covering Tae Baek mountain

Then he shared with me, how right after he came back from his trip to Japan, the Lord confirmed this prophetic word to him, when he led the chairman of this major South Korean corporation to the Lord. He shared with me that this specific chairman coming to know the Lord was a part of Gods divine plan. Why, because this is one of the only major companies that does business directly with the North Korean government and has great favor with the people there. I couldnt believe what I was hearing. I asked Pastor David if he knew Isaiah 62:10 was the theme verse for the 4 Seas North Korea project? He told me he did not realize it was. I told him it wasnt by accident he and Ben Torrey were on the same plane together. I share with him the vision to build a house of prayer for the youth in these mountains, and he confirmed in his heart, that if it is Gods will: he will obey the vision and dream to lead it. We then went up to the top of the mountain to the area where the 4 rivers cross. We prayed for the vision to come to pass. By the time we were done praying, you couldnt see the sky or sun, the entire mountaintop was covered with fog, we were in the presence and glory of God.

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A few weeks later, another divine confirmation occurred. Another good friend and ministry partner of mine came to visit me at the Abbey. This person was a business executive who owned different properties in Seoul. She shared with me, without my knowing, that she had given free office space at one of her properties to Ben Torrey for Jesus Abbey and the 4 Seas Project in Seoul. I was again surprised to hear that she also was involved with this North Korean project. It seemed that all of my close Korean friends were somehow involved with Jesus Abbey and the 4 Seas North Korean project without my knowing! The day this friend came to visit me, she also brought with her a businessman and his entire family who wanted to see me. Apparently, I had prayed and prophesied over this man a year ago, but we had not been in contact for almost more than a year. As I was sharing with them over tea, about all the prophetic occurrences, and how this well known chairman of this major corporation came to know Jesus Christ, this man looks at me and says, You know how that chairman came to know the Lord, it was because of me, I was the man who introduced the chairman to Pastor David Cho who then led the chairman to Christ! When he said this, I seriously, almost fell out of my chair and said, You are that man? Who would have thought that one year before, I prayed for a random business man, who ended up being a key part of a bigger puzzle to help lead this chairman to the Lord who would help open the door for the Gospel in North Korea. At this point, I had almost all the confirmations I needed from the Lord to believe that He was saying something about raising up a house of prayer for the youth of South Korea and Asia, to prepare for the opening of North Korea.

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The Holy Spirit Pouring out on the Sons & Daughters of Korea
I asked the Lord, If this vision to raise up a house of prayer is truly your vision, then please confirm this by pouring out Your Holy Spirit once again on the youth of this nation. Send revival like the days of old, raise up a mighty youth army that will fulfill the Great Commandment and finish the Great Commission! Release another Korean Pentecost! Three confirmations were given. 1) 6 young Korean American leaders come seek me out at Jesus Abbey 2) The Holy Spirit visits 30 junior high students at the River of Life School 3) Revival breaks out with 200 university student leaders after my time at Jesus Abbey.

Mighty Young Men

I had only told a few close friends and ministry partners in South Korea that I was spending 40 days at Jesus Abbey. Yet, somehow, the Holy Spirit supernaturally spoke to a young Korean American leader to go to Jesus Abbey because Jaeson Ma is at Jesus Abbey. When he came, he met me there and was shocked because what he heard the Holy Spirit was actually true. Then, in the next six weeks, five other Korean American young leaders came to visit and spend time with me. Each of them came to seek Gods wisdom and will for their lives. Each of them sought me out for counsel and prayer. I had not met most of them, nor told them I was going to be at the monastery, but the Lord sent them to me. As I prayed about the significance of this, I sensed the Lord was making it clear that He was raising up mighty men, young men of valor who would carry Gods heart, with a passion for prayer, a passion for the power of the Holy Spirit and a passion for missions and church planting in this generation. Interestingly, all of them had the same spiritual DNA I carried, understood the prophetic call and destiny over the nation, and were willing and ready to serve at any cost.

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Holy Spirit Falls Upon River of Life School

The second confirmation, that gave me confidence God was raising up a mighty youth army to prepare for the opening of North Korea and the transformation of nations happened at the River of Life School near Jesus Abbey. The principal Liz Torrey invited me to speak to the 30 junior high students on a Friday afternoon. Not knowing what to expect, we just prayed that God would pour out His Holy Spirit and revive the students in their callings and destinies. As I prayed, I just knew something powerful would happen when I preached, because I knew Jesus Abbeys revival history with R.A. Torrey I, II, III all being a part of the Holy Spirits outpouring in their generations. I preached a simple sermon on repentance and the kingdom of God. Minutes before, the junior high students were distracted, but minutes later the Spirit of God came upon them, each of them began to weep, cried out and sought the Lord for their destinies and the destiny of North Korea. They were only maybe 10, 12 or 13 years old. Most if not all committed to be missionaries in North Korea, to pray daily for North Koreas salvation and were even willing, be it Gods will to lay down their lives for North Korea to be saved. The prayers possibly would have kept going if we didnt stop them, with tears flowing down their eyes and hands pounding the air, they prayed for hours on end. Something was birthed. Hope was in the air. Destiny was written upon their lives. I knew this was just a fraction of what was going to come in the future. Hundreds and thousands of students would come to these mountains to pray, worship and be sent out to declare the kingdom of God to North Korea and the nations.

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Revival breaks out with 200 university student leaders after my time at Jesus Abbey
While I was at the Abbey, a community member recognized me from our documentary movie 1040. She said, You are Pastor Jaeson Ma from the movie 1040! I actually am a member of the church in Korea that you featured in the film. Our church has been trying to get a hold of you to come speak at a university revival camp, but we didnt know how to get a hold of you or where you were, and now I found you here! Is it okay I let them know you are here in order to contact you to speak? I told her it was fine to let them know I was at Jesus Abbey, to pray for me, but I was not likely going to be able to speak because I needed to focus on finishing my 40 days in the monastery. She agreed and passed along the message to her church. I then received a message asking if I could speak at this university revival camp, a few hours away in the same mountains by Jesus Abbey on the evening of June 30, 2011. I immediately messaged them that I couldnt because I needed to finish my 40 days and focus my time on seeking the Lord personally. I passed the invitation invite along to the person who was handling my schedule in Korea. She messaged back and said, Jaeson, I read the invitation letter you sent me, but I think this cant be coincidence because Pastor David Cho is speaking at that same university revival camp, the same day, but in the afternoon on June 30th. I believe it is Gods will you go speak there! I was shocked, Pastor David Cho is also speaking there and I had no idea? Then I looked at my calendar and realized that the month of May had 31 days. Which meant, I had miscalculated my 40-day time period. My 40th day th actually ended on June 29 ; therefore I would be free to preach on June 30, which would be the 41st day after my time away in the monastery! God was confirming; I only needed to obey and go preach the kingdom message and let the Holy Spirit spark another student awakening. On June 30th we arrived at the revival camp. About 200 student leaders from the top 12 universities in Seoul were present. They were spiritually hungry and desperate for God to move. You could feel it in the air. Right before I got up to the stage, I dropped my IPAD2 with my sermon notes, the entire glass frame shattered, and then the Holy Spirit told me, Dont preach from your mind, but preach from My Holy Spirit, preach about the Gospel of the Kingdom! For the

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next 4 hours, the Holy Spirit had me preach spontaneously from Genesis 1 to the end of Revelation on the Gospel of the Kingdom, the students were riveted not by the wisdom of my words, but by the demonstration of the power and the spirit. The Holy Spirit came down upon these 200 student leaders in revival power. Many fell down under the power of the Spirit and most importantly, this mighty student army of God, was revived in their hearts and committed to starting 247 prayer rooms on their campuses seven days a week. This is how student revival begins. It begins with a small band of students who are willing to sacrifice in persistent and prevailing prayer for their universities, which births revival and a movement that cant be stopped. Ive seen it happen before in Hong Kong, Taiwan, Southeast Asia and the US, and I was seeing it happen before my eyes that evening as I saw the passionate cries of their hearts for God to save their generation from sin, sickness and death, a spiritual revolution was beginning.

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The Coming Student Revival, the Destiny of Asia

Before I left Korea, I spent a few days in Seoul meeting with disciples. I spoke at the Sunday service for Pastor David Chos congregation Joyful Church sharing the prophetic revelation from the past 40 days. The Holy Spirit fell also upon that church service and a spirit of revival was in the air as we cried out for the revival of South Korea unto the nations. That evening, we also met with the chairman of this major Korean corporation who recently became a Jesus follower. We had a four-hour prophetic session with this chairman and the Holy Spirit confirmed many things in detail about the destiny of North Korea. Also, I trained many other disciples and leaders in a training system I developed while at Jesus Abbey called UNIVERSAL DISCIPLE which I learned from a mentor/missionary named Thom Wolfe. Everywhere I trained, whether in my hotel room, at a McDonalds, or over coffee, there was a legitimate spiritual hunger and commitment to radically obey Gods commands. I could feel and recognize the Holy Spirits momentum. A great work of the Spirit was being prepared. An spiritual army is being raised up.

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Prophecy for Korean Student Revival

I believe in the next 10 years, there will be a great outpouring of the Holy Spirit in South Korea and North Korea unprecedented to anything experienced in the past 100 years of Christianity in Korea. The glory of the latter will be greater than the glory of the former. The Pyongyang revival in 1907 that birthed the Korean Pentecost and widespread movement of the Gospel will happen again in a powerful way among specifically the university students. There will be prayer meetings established all on every major university campus that will not stop, day or night, it will be a network of prayer furnaces that will create a massive ring of fire of Gods holiness, Gods power and Gods presence that will overturn the effects of sin in the nation. Sex trafficking business will be overturned, abortion will be overturned and made illegal, the suicide rate will decrease dramatically, and families will be restored because of this student revival movement. Students will hold signs of peace; proclaim the Gospel of the kingdom and there will be radical reforms made at every level of society. The mountains of government, business, education, media, arts, family and religion will come under the submission of Jesus Christ and His commandments. Witchcraft and Shamanism with all its power will be broken, many families and youth will renounce these demonic practices, and the Spirit of prophecy will be poured out in a new and dramatic measure as the Holy Spirit visits the nation and the young people with increasing dreams and visions, no longer will there be only a few who are moving in the power of the Spirit, but God will pour out His Spirit upon all sons and daughters. This is who they are, sons and daughters of God the orphan spirit, the spirit that needs to strive and perform for approval and acceptance will be done away with, God will be a Father to the fatherless, He will turn the hearts of the fathers to the children and the children to the fathers. There will be a new worship, music and praise movement that will bring shock and awe, the shekinah glory of the Lord into the church and then out into society, it will be a new worship movement that will shock and transform the nation of Korea. It will be invisible, yet visible. The glory of God will be seen and felt. Young people will not just gather in the tens of thousands, but I saw hundreds of thousands gathering in massive worship crusades, new songs never sung, new lyrics yet to be written, new sounds never heard or played, it will be a worshipping army that will take over the nation of South Korea and then North Korea, then all over Asia and the nations. There will be a mountain of glory, in this mountain young people will stream in from all over South Korea, Asia and all over the world to seek the Lord while He may be found. It will be a tabernacle of David, 24/7 Prayer and Worship preparing the hearts of a new generation to enter into and take back the promise land of North Korea, then China, then all of Asia, Middle East and finally back to Jerusalem. These will

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be radical, relentless and in hot pursuit of their Lord and their Fathers glory. The kingdom of God will advance, the Spirit of the Lord will not hold back but be poured out in abundance, this will happen in the next decade, a great move of the Holy Spirit that will sweep the nation, it will begin again with the confession of sins in the Church, it will spread from church to church, fellowship to fellowship, home to home, confession of sins until the temple is washed clean and the Spirit can invade, then nothing will be able to stop this student mission movement, watch it will happen, Korea will arise as one nation, North Korea will become the kingdom not of man, but the kingdom of our God, it will happen soon, it will happen quickly, only pray and obey, for the time of the harvest is at hand. In Jesus name I pray name amen.

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My Strength, My Song & My Salvation

On the last day, the 40 day, I wrote in my journal these words. I dont know what my future holds, but I do know one thing, I am letting go of the past and holding onto Christ, My Strength, My Song, and My Salvation. I dont feel different, or seem different, I just know that I am well in my soul. Then right after I had wrote this, I opened my Bible randomly and it landed on this passage of scripture. And in that day you will say: O Lord, I will praise You; Though You were angry with me, Your anger is turned away, and You comfort me. Behold, God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid; For YAH, the Lord, is my strength and song; He also has become my salvation. Therefore with joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation. Isaiah 12:1-3 My eyes widened, my heart leaped, my lips smiled and my soul rejoiced. This was no accident, it was Daddy telling me I had completed my time, and that indeed, as I left the monastery, He would be My Strength, My Song and My Salvation. For His Glory, Jaeson Ma For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.
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